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Beggars can’t be choosers but I’m sick of living with my family. I want to move out, specifically somewhere it snows if possible. Anyone know of cheap places to live on disability? I don’t have Section 8 yet, I’m still on the waiting list. 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Hi, I don’t personally have schizophrenia, but my uncle did. My father used to tell about how he(my uncle) used to use a ton of drugs like LSD and pot before developing it in his early 20s. I am curious to see if any of you have taken psychedelics after being diagnosed and what kind of effects they had. Did it only increase your symptoms or help you cope with them. I am currently 17 and psychedelics have always interested me. I tried marijuana but it ended up giving me Derealization. I want to try psychedelics when I get older but I’m not sure if I’ll develop schizophrenia or not. So I was wondering what kind of experience would I get if I were to get schizophrenia and if it were smart or not. THANKs for reading (sorry if this question sounds dumb) ",5.170294117647057,7.127396960784317,5.578578431372549,77.77610294117648,69.58823529411765,8.237254901960785,29.08986928104575,8.841846274778883,2.4358849673202605,657,25,115,12,12,210,96,153,0.035,0.813,0.152,0.9571,1,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,2,1,4,8,1,0,1,0,15,4,0,5,1,30,29,18,0,7,14,1,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,1,7,6,0,0,3,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,7,2,19,7,17,19,2,10,0,0,1,0,13,2,1,10,8,81,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13551001003723984,0.0,0.0,0.11074829543341007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13857925048743938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33059270699447296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888623324715633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14424289943911053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15930532507833345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552580691437163,0.1562272047273947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915956575607284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391808581865365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07956366864975054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238600321249274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422003875771981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182437030575242,0.0,0.16290099909074998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12977588621400005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18230499725952445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15349072701830155,0.16927070467717611,0.12244814183058834,0.0,0.14234413301354135,0.14993677850164433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211383273884224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4219682897036803,0.0,0.0,0.09605723543097068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17661139107188886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568888883974902,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,marsmann5091,2019/01/09,"Progress So I've barely had reddit. But it's really nice to see other people get together and talk. I've personally tried to kill myself so many times I can't count. But my idea is for my ways is that because all social media uses just an attitude of judgment. And that doesn't happen here as much. It's not easy bullshiting through life and jobs when the world is a nightmare if not distracted. It's shitty to say but when someone posts they're not okay. It really makes you feel not alone. And Ive spent years alone. It's gonna take time and effort to work myself up to being something. But this sub actually really makes a big difference. And I can't stress the fact that yeah I'm high functioning, but it has its own problems. And I hope everyone that isn't doing okay gets better and knows this is a place to talk and get help. 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I say fine, maybe I like the job enough to take out my piercing. She sent me to sign some papers, one of them said they LEGALLY had the right to contact my former employer and I couldn’t opt out. Fuck that. My former employer is a petty racist homophobe that would have nothing good to say about me. I tell the lady I can’t do this and leave. I’m gonna buy a retainer to cover up my piercing tomorrow and try to find a better job. Although honestly I want to admit myself as I’m extremely suicidal, but I don’t know what the hospital will do to help.",3.726875,4.561455715277777,5.185722222222221,83.53150000000002,71.70833333333333,8.537777777777778,27.594444444444445,8.841846274778883,2.0217077777777765,549,19,113,10,10,185,87,144,0.086,0.797,0.11699999999999999,0.3328,5,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,3,2,1,6,1,0,9,0,14,2,1,1,0,19,25,6,1,4,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,4,0,1,5,7,0,1,3,0,1,2,4,1,0,2,3,4,21,5,19,17,2,12,0,0,0,1,15,6,1,1,5,77,26,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529326786118988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527637085926009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784739975410656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578700862432888,0.1469221842782955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596840741445975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448758893800818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157758079933146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5142170879164446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949266854286488,0.0,0.0,0.18289380753980064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08438608161396757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173528298187504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16573698917825908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170448321600854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14750860329096285,0.16430369859499705,0.4120802544082208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889361858489264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25973962903801084,0.0,0.1509717164831592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11475267980096188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11727084270789342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187933571003586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454017563829592,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tburneroaccountm,2019/01/09,"Thoughts on my dilemma So, I'm prescribed 25mg x 3 times a day chlorpromazine. Over semester 1 last year I gained a lot of weight from taking it and overeating, as a result of taking it and getting cravings and really just letting myself go. So now I'm doing dry January, I've given up smoking, pizza, fizzy pop, creamy pasta (I eat a lot of heavy cream pasta) and am comitting to self care and eating vegetables. I'm going to try and exercise again too. So all is great right? Well, here's the dilemma. I'd really like to lose the weight I gained, but chlorpromazine makes me gain weight. I haven't taken any chlorpromazine today and I'm just sitting watching television and I feel anxious, paranoid and am having mild auditory delusions/hallucinations. I feel a craving for the sanity and the peace that the chlorpromazine brings, at risk of sounding dramatic, almost like a withdrawal. Should I just give in and take the medication? Or should I try to stay strong with the goal of losing weight in mind? The way I feel right now terrifies me, I don't want to be on medication for the rest of my life, but feeling this way is just horrible. It makes me feel like I want to be dead. As an aside, does anyone have any suggestions for coping techniques for schizophrenia symptoms? (I have read on Google but Reddit often brings different insight) - felt the need to explain that because I was paranoid that people would tell me just to look up online how to cope. Thanks for reading! Tl;Dr chlorpromazine makes me gain weight, I'm trying to get fit but I am struggling without my medication, should I just carry on taking it?",5.152303635067709,6.875458465573777,5.521411261582326,79.09587312900929,69.26229508196721,8.451888809693514,29.3264433357092,8.964715089967882,2.504086243763365,1292,49,228,24,23,412,169,305,0.126,0.73,0.14400000000000002,0.8498,1,0,0,0,0,1,40.0,0,0,0,8,17,12,0,2,17,0,19,17,0,5,1,51,54,22,1,7,12,0,11,3,0,4,6,1,0,1,8,12,11,0,9,3,0,4,3,4,1,0,5,15,24,8,37,42,4,30,0,2,3,0,5,14,0,5,11,142,32,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911593433172861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210397071111534,0.0,0.0,0.10053935380149992,0.0,0.062227580717759086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05425070686250046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09073663624246542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0573946039940397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298114340013748,0.0,0.0,0.07788038389767916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18212881251120094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249934801823449,0.06357825776644961,0.08544944118759219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929927387926589,0.08537239796330742,0.10115615605884844,0.0,0.0,0.09811762882649573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254304487947423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09100372052287876,0.06286000998443432,0.13043581996950648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07473363521548483,0.19912594585253915,0.0,0.15132123755687527,0.0,0.0,0.17821515488246234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689601960280481,0.0,0.0,0.08985987999060857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06598888487043779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061698133200127174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780387602436214,0.0,0.11402533188088332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520029942918036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284150364304683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948571451138168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09303720709337647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09250018899362247,0.2676535501603436,0.0,0.07778581196904114,0.08193491233434373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07065232473299488,0.05189387320483746,0.0,0.08435713535370594,0.0,0.0,0.18126589402614532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498346360068936,0.14128064830934087,0.0,0.5418614797267725,0.08001745966629106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08578829024373923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0632197053976221,0.0,0.0,0.05731005326909595 schizophrenia,AreyouaUFO,2019/01/09,Im busy relapsing and I'm not sure I can get the help After some serious fights at home I'm like knuckle deep into a relapse and i dont have any way of getting help now. My folks don't even want to know me let alone help me with my deteriorating mental state. I've been harming a bit and rn I'm scared I won't be able to stop doing anything more. Idk if anyone can help but i think i need to write it down ,-0.4985869565217413,1.3709315326086973,2.2349565217391323,95.42526086956524,86.93478260869566,4.984347826086957,17.895652173913042,6.2581,-0.3858904347826089,319,8,79,3,10,111,68,92,0.165,0.7290000000000001,0.106,-0.282,0,1,0,0,1,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,1,3,0,10,0,0,0,1,16,19,5,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,9,2,9,15,3,9,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,2,4,42,10,0,0.20291876550970525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101626439703308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13799171892756554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14188551894068746,0.0,0.16698485421514533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22153473643710325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378192819172675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13402593084670375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21203335963126532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5440486847086202,0.0,0.2035440667910738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191870877854688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11151884673995867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20749818590066071,0.0,0.0991358590052863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044943886307808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15046169345110474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20315708374007127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696491740669637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912485350479492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300221514379817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11968674534155185,0.16106747097052712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,one577,2019/01/09,"I think my case manager has an opening today because she offered to take me grocery shopping. She'll be here in any minute now. I'm waiting for her to call. The elevator needed to be reset, maintenance is working on it.",3.004069767441859,5.2397763255813965,5.0676162790697665,77.87723837209303,76.44186046511628,7.090697674418602,34.00581395348837,8.07648339933343,3.007283720930233,174,10,30,3,4,60,38,43,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,10,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,6,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,21,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093976953007817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773477245162511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4645789831559883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33735720916166584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3420835754445233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915287548093918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4312618376818213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33122624831721514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,meli1182,2019/01/09,"Does abilify cause acne? They’ve put me up on the highest dose, 30 mg, of abilify and I’ve been getting tons of whiteheads and other weird spots on my face. Can this be caused by abilify? And the fact that I’m on the highest dose? 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Not for reasons of getting special treatment or accommodations or anything. It's like I feel I carry around this heavy secret and I need to get it out of the way. In a way I see it as a way to protect myself because I spend the majority of my time there and my thinking is that if somebody is in the know, they might catch me when I'm not lucid or perhaps getting worse when I might not even realize it. Now of course there is a downside due to obvious reasons. I think i will get an opinion from my doc too and see what they think about me telling my employer. I have been basically asymptomatic for a decent while now, (knock on wood), so I am doing well at work so far. So far (with little knowledge they have) have been supportive in the way that I am free to get to my Dr appointments during work hours. They just don't know what those appointments are for yet. For those of you who are in the work force, have you told anybody there? What was your experience? I'm based in Germany if that matters.",5.4522828784119115,5.566744912442398,6.1458064516129065,80.73101736972706,67.61751152073734,9.2575682382134,32.360510457284654,9.057496981413335,2.574479191775967,854,34,174,14,13,280,120,217,0.037000000000000005,0.872,0.091,0.8528,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,4,5,17,6,0,0,11,0,20,2,0,2,1,34,39,16,0,3,9,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,14,8,0,1,11,0,2,2,4,0,1,0,4,3,28,7,30,32,1,28,0,0,2,0,12,13,0,8,10,130,42,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104779812079272,0.11951276927720478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818387910591949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11564623586820652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886721992785027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313242457287842,0.0,0.0,0.06788185990273883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507057216490953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322112059781433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475628087634001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06558876024831944,0.13455580276404355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13529446925270236,0.28484037510919913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954617872221608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172236937574672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27606689179914873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21396297157622127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15234761204041114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11734219112091344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25806983880116635,0.0,0.0,0.07828343798776638,0.0,0.0,0.12828356736618665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4262520481806984,0.0,0.0,0.12070869747954695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3909483054405264,0.0,0.13681428746251112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lettensp,2019/01/09,Remission of symptoms Ok I’ve had SZ for ten years now. For many of those years my thoughts/voices hounded me constantly. It seems that the last 2 years I haven’t had this problem and the constant disturbing thoughts have totally gone away. Has anyone else have this happen to them?,3.2485534591194964,6.1441459622641545,2.9946226415094337,89.3257704402516,79.94339622641509,6.552201257861638,27.701257861635213,7.793537801064563,1.9181597484276736,228,10,42,4,6,68,42,53,0.12,0.8390000000000001,0.040999999999999995,-0.6399,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,2,1,6,1,0,0,1,5,10,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,4,0,4,1,6,6,1,9,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,7,27,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673761899256746,0.24526742481436195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22490018726059488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5173575092911912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19996664757318056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116780466578742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19512213583563634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24268813368515466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290490324018893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21791752039981246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24880172140034465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19003658485192101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4624479169835948 schizophrenia,LittleBitSchizo,2019/01/09,"When madness is the rule rather than the exception Have you ever been in a state where your mind doesn't have a filter for what is normal and what is not, what is useful for the moment and what is not, when you realize that normal healthy stream of consciousness is a fine line of water that's flowing through a fragile pipe in the middle a sea of mental garbage where the possibilities are unlimited, everything can cross your mind, useless thoughts and memories, weird ideas, mental images, nonsensical words, etc. When the pipe is gone and your mind becomes the whole sea. 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Then either stop or get caught, no matter what happens. I have to kill 5 people thats the assignment, if i do my demons go away and i can live a normal life without psychosis.",8.717263681592037,6.5693143582089615,9.146865671641793,69.26218905472639,62.13432835820896,12.515422885572141,35.76616915422885,11.20814326018867,3.89390945273632,270,9,50,6,3,91,51,67,0.239,0.745,0.016,-0.9485,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,6,0,4,1,0,0,0,9,9,5,2,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,2,2,7,0,6,7,1,6,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,34,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828871427615209,0.2336246642181585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176044224870472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12991481428142004,0.0,0.1413194556739421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21988960158356585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685959402997227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5502118587551925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17563621910446792,0.0,0.0,0.219571719901936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24363443083108235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34477967291947753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20789125805707406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396997860098679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ohm860,2019/01/09,How do you live with electronic devices? I don't know how to,-0.7892307692307696,1.3575258461538446,1.468076923076925,96.11442307692309,98.23076923076924,5.676923076923077,21.884615384615387,7.1686216300943375,0.9287230769230774,48,2,11,1,2,16,11,13,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5283990768824363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8489961222230578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GoofCob,2019/01/09,"Starting to hate everything and I don't want to try anymore I hate my life for the most part, I can't stand most of the people I have come across, I hate having to go to the doctors, and the thing I hate most is having to take medication just to somewhat function as a normal person. I have no job, no car, and I have even turned to crowdfunding for help. I am tired of struggling and I am tired of trying. I would trade everything just to be able to know what being normal is.",2.455681818181816,3.902290262626263,3.7776641414141423,90.01982954545456,75.66666666666666,6.566161616161617,22.476010101010104,7.1686216300943375,0.6105646464646459,372,10,81,4,8,122,56,99,0.275,0.7,0.026000000000000002,-0.9759,1,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,4,1,5,0,14,5,0,0,0,16,25,5,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,1,0,1,3,4,5,0,0,0,0,12,0,16,22,5,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,1,63,14,3,0.14968982973781053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14845208824278036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289445338757806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532138836378345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09886872078341667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690631338248073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08507217984347773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5911508659396675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10033393754706496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14854405849513738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08226561569665666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573035359800684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507967552920451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933285019657337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16209949843862884,0.0,0.103776080232913,0.1307033855211657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10595123193774772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564883111884572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254812283366857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09944727148155938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34409287804020017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20325913698697556,0.16281955023806122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08829093990911695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10633536023471182,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DatFleur,2019/01/09,What are your experience of only taking 25 mg Quetiapin (Seroquel)? People tell me how tired they get and that the half life on Quetiapin (Seroquel) is 7 hours. But what if you only take 25 mg? Do you get tired during the day? How many hours of sleep? Any horrible side effects?,2.182138364779877,4.812858943396229,3.4399056603773595,86.1333176100629,82.20754716981132,6.552201257861638,22.040880503144656,7.793537801064563,1.2457069182389944,216,7,41,4,6,70,40,53,0.17300000000000001,0.8270000000000001,0.0,-0.8823,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,4,1,3,0,6,7,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,3,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,3,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15042125530015096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426534909293906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21637269341711696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23113216045946364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4356681369637735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562376815957669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22425860760210864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.336459923664487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15334985298859605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22135631926493105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326245904055968,0.0,0.19333555508655886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5084658443781968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MtRushmost,2019/01/09,"I'm starting a SARDAA support group in my state since there isn't one and I'm having a hard time finding a place to run it, any suggestions? I'm trying to avoid churches because I know from experience that they can be triggering but I can't find a hospital or health center that will let me do it. I've got a coordinator from one hospital helping me look but he said my best bet is a church. I'm also not sure where exactly to run this thing, like I want it to be a good spot for more people to come, not just near my house. Thanks, guys!",3.1715789473684204,3.94023751754386,4.7692543859649135,86.25019736842106,72.94736842105263,8.156140350877193,25.653508771929822,8.472884824447931,1.4497929824561409,423,13,95,7,8,143,79,114,0.045,0.754,0.201,0.9633,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,1,4,7,0,1,7,0,10,1,0,1,2,17,23,5,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,7,2,0,1,3,0,1,3,4,1,0,2,2,3,9,6,10,17,2,11,2,0,1,0,7,5,0,2,3,57,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15666459388711854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13322163840531345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11942143987892576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055894712074698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16875420354107756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916319915405598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35810595294350833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16431522798131748,0.15668256086331758,0.0,0.0,0.1939760520222939,0.0,0.0,0.17549176874330258,0.0,0.0,0.20823710462587885,0.0,0.0,0.13131051941454513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260472537493388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107663877160389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003254145006107,0.0,0.09570894300066672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645102679941052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26549964059186804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13581537146189618,0.0,0.2046782921110404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18634984612230696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620540571954303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13866206827406205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22230987232964208,0.1846374795510586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803623542108055,0.0,0.0,0.13015010864571458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11423336980148717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13300615677019595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11554942886225522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ewica,2019/01/09,"Feels like I’m in denial Having bad days here and there, but it feels like I’m lying to myself and definitely others about what I’m going through. To the point that I completely deny that my diagnosis (from 3 different doctors) is real. That I was hospitalized so much for no reason. I was going to just vent but I don’t want to go into too much detail, just want to stop pretending I can live a normal life with all of my problems because it makes things so much worse. I hope you all are doing well. 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How was the transition?,6.690000000000001,10.627188000000004,7.400000000000002,52.69500000000002,85.66666666666666,12.4,31.0,10.125756701596842,6.5732,64,3,6,3,2,21,12,12,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4122581747347408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6160007511259432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6712572323458824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TylerJames-777,2019/01/09,"He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. -Isaiah 40:29 This verse really helps me in my depressive episodes. Because it feels like I can’t pull the strength to live right out of me. But eventually that strength always comes back in an almost supernatural way. 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I take 12.5 mg of olanzapine but want to loose weight; last time I changed and ended up in hospital. Any advice? ,3.59059523809524,6.4384863928571425,4.485714285714288,79.5259523809524,77.92857142857143,8.019047619047619,27.190476190476193,8.841846274778883,2.5055333333333336,121,5,22,3,3,39,26,28,0.191,0.7609999999999999,0.048,-0.6515,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,5,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933887494142325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041718924757128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6352232313120515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265921435986117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.244733750807763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30245783819936306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22574134211138105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17507098377884342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770879404254005,0.0,0.0,0.365608564052154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CaitlinNoGoYea,2019/01/09,"Poptarts For the last 24 hours, I've craved poptarts. Though I don't leave my house, today I will attempt to obtain poptarts from the local dollar store. Last night, I washed my hoodie and socks in the bathtub. As of this morning, they aren't dry. But as soon as they dry, I will be ready to go out. Honestly, I would rather wait until sun down before I walk. Then, I can hide my face a bit hen cars pass me on the street. And the store is kinda empty at night, so I won't have to see a lot of people.",1.5215303983228523,2.9876607547169804,2.807106918238997,95.9145178197065,78.24528301886792,5.08846960167715,18.381551362683442,5.033348758259628,-0.6122649895178198,384,7,89,1,9,124,75,106,0.033,0.898,0.069,0.5332,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,2,2,4,1,0,0,7,0,10,2,1,0,0,9,13,10,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,14,1,16,8,2,20,0,0,1,0,2,7,0,2,9,57,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124093523042976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272521822981279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14186554498365342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24582671140637946,0.2880294809721459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40694937401983344,0.0,0.2643129285170355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21221911418933545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4685053858038262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17305598852170784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19891586827373176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.245251673110506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366118177375422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17732381912025327,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jcdesign1,2019/01/09,"Does clozapine makes you depress? Clozapine blocks serotonin, and lack of serotonin causes depression, according to these 2 snapshots - &#x200B;",12.301000000000002,17.107559100000003,8.370000000000001,52.86500000000001,58.0,12.0,55.0,11.20814326018867,8.8685,122,9,10,4,2,34,18,20,0.425,0.575,0.0,-0.8779,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3541346194297048,0.397150429626661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.335758140565844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5630193750064951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860228070448438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21817046563947626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.397150429626661,0.0 schizophrenia,craigslisthottub,2019/01/09,Just here to spread some positivity I recently just went thru the last 20 hours having a panic attack and thanks to my friends I’m much better but then I came to this sub (that I’ve been apart of for about a year now) and realized again that so many of us here with schizophrenia are talented in so many ways and artistic. We deserve to have good and better days this year. I hope all of us have a good day today! I’m getting on my plane to NYC after having to deal with some flight complications due to an engine failure because of the government shutdowns there aren’t as many federal workers to inspect plane safety regulations ex: engine functions as thoroughly the past two weeks. It’s really put me in a stressed space in my head because I worked 90 days straight with no day off to afford this trip. I love you all! Thanks for reading. ,5.28109090909091,6.209375654545454,5.492727272727271,82.39909090909094,68.21212121212122,8.424242424242426,29.54545454545455,8.575989854853784,2.096090909090909,673,24,131,10,11,213,107,165,0.076,0.693,0.231,0.9844,2,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,3,1,0,4,10,13,1,2,8,0,7,2,1,0,2,18,16,10,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,9,0,0,1,2,0,4,2,3,0,1,3,0,13,10,28,13,5,30,0,0,0,1,8,8,0,3,17,84,19,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15305542518931586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16402519008997585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379743439417636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15387465311638332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470613149473475,0.13870188929594954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394306472336944,0.0,0.07029010560227711,0.0,0.0,0.22568674880857376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13807392504304392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133625741756775,0.13249198767430595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10966572985140434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142502631223905,0.0,0.0,0.4091986466765125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09890028183632577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15785035235982245,0.0,0.0,0.12843092838218614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13524699043330182,0.0,0.0,0.13457355296014314,0.0,0.0861879402983526,0.0,0.13283920029957078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154111845385224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477274555096332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12752548272695166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13142324194428887,0.0,0.3236632413432696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678932374885268,0.10791758280250242,0.0,0.0,0.12471728156117087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979446441065669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17327502119659638 schizophrenia,trashed-i,2019/01/09,"The question is too long to fit(about voices) I haven't been diagnosed with it but the story is much longer. If someone is intrested in it I can PM two esseys about it that i wrote 9 months ago and now(to see the progression of symptoms and my style of writing and thinking). But the short story is there is a wide range of symptoms some that can't be atributed to schizophrenia. Ofcourse I am NOT a profesional and can't diagnose it. I ask you to open minded and not say I bullshit because I saw it on WebMd or simular. For two months almost every night i had hypnogogia(tactile, vocal and subvocal, visual). Since last week I have been hearing something in day. Maybe hearing isn't the right word. It's like someone is inserting random words into my thoughts. Its like something inbetween thoughts and words. Examples include ""corruption"", ""creek"", ""candle"", ""euro""... They are somewhat related to my current thoughts but I can give my left nut that these aren't my thoughts. Because I use English as much as my native languge they are about equaly distributed. Is this something that occurs to you? //I know that psychosis isn't something that can be predicted that often. I have predisposition to this. But i am almost unable to read or write comprehensivly and this took me an hour to write. I have been criticized for repetition, nonsensical speech and tangebility. My iq dropped by about 15iq points in a year and varies a lot from day to day. As I stated earlier if you want more info PM me. 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I lean on my boyfriend a lot to keep me together. If he doesn't react then I don't worry about it as much. Stress haha But seriously having him as a baseline helps a ton.",-0.08775362318840862,2.197692543478261,2.021739130434785,94.22289855072464,90.95652173913044,4.8057971014492775,18.536231884057973,6.42735559955562,-0.04335072463768031,171,5,38,2,6,57,40,46,0.094,0.687,0.21899999999999997,0.7189,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,1,3,1,3,0,0,1,0,7,6,5,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,7,2,6,6,3,3,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,2,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895138877646146,0.2677624879808882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512255057465741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3331460466053333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18311196785311884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186478560124799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27552657161237115,0.27791494471112993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175731014697429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4293406208297626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806351175679856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,-Renton-,2019/01/09,Caffeine and olanzapine 20 Will an energy drink keep me from falling asleep on 20mg zyprexa but still make me feel chilled out?,4.98,7.212943666666668,4.331666666666667,85.38000000000002,70.66666666666666,8.133333333333335,32.83333333333333,8.841846274778883,2.7209833333333338,104,5,20,2,2,31,22,24,0.055,0.8809999999999999,0.065,0.0644,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,0,6,4,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5574038015307373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877037144002479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5057537269519767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37981220596959664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4544044791043295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,OmSadasiva,2019/01/09,"Success story Abilify from 60mg to 30mg. Haldold from 50mg to 30mg. Zyprexa 60mg,the same. Doctor said I am better than ever and that I have a strong body since I take such huge doses whereas others are sedated even by small doses. If I remain stable we will lower meds even further. 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I don't know if this the right place to be posting this, I want to start off by saying I am not diagnosed as a schizophrenic, but do believe I have some psychotic traits. I'm not quite sure how to explain this. Sometimes I have this weird thing that is not exactly hallucinating. It's like I see something so vividly in my minds eye that I feel like it's there, but I am not seeing it with my eyes. I start to feel a strong presence or energy I guess you should say when this happens. Has anyone had anything like this happen to them?",3.464007936507933,5.131056035714291,4.434761904761906,85.43246031746034,73.46428571428571,7.477777777777778,25.83730158730159,8.167268648758528,1.4952646825396827,444,15,91,7,9,144,76,112,0.046,0.789,0.165,0.9234,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,2,4,6,0,0,3,0,11,4,2,1,2,21,24,8,0,3,8,0,2,3,0,1,2,2,0,0,12,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,9,14,5,10,21,1,8,0,0,5,0,5,4,0,4,6,63,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345625820856537,0.0,0.1583665008250738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168205219304165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19532844205427227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19461276364313693,0.13748332220023374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21200075175056346,0.0,0.3403583812223193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057631820398543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28205789987504964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19431540384459128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20106490718235825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18430988513514546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046898032161627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16434766674786253,0.0,0.30608125814993664,0.0,0.0,0.3067087825481514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14815418344700304,0.1903338228793129,0.0,0.2724282638836251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813778945750529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12785244221418293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11350952242927508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MySchizoBraim,2019/01/09,"Are any of you beautiful people Trekkies? If so, what's your favorite Star Trek series/episode and why?",2.311929824561407,5.213185105263161,1.7852631578947395,93.54350877192984,92.68421052631581,4.63859649122807,27.385964912280702,6.42735559955562,1.3513017543859651,83,4,15,1,3,24,19,19,0.0,0.6659999999999999,0.33399999999999996,0.8188,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5129886067021364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5229761396793661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6806898315090869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,geetar_man,2019/01/09,"My life is going pretty well right now! I never thought I would type those words in that title. My life isn’t that bad right now. I have meds that are better and working. I’ve been talking to this really awesome girl and it looks like we will be a couple soon. I’m just about ready to finish up grad school. I’m in a pretty good place right now. Just wanted to make a post about it.",0.3981481481481488,2.543764864197531,1.7595061728395045,98.4777777777778,85.54320987654322,4.093827160493827,13.938271604938276,5.033348758259628,-1.2360024691358027,298,4,68,1,9,95,56,81,0.039,0.693,0.268,0.9611,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,2,9,5,0,0,3,0,8,2,0,1,1,11,15,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,2,1,6,4,8,10,0,15,0,0,1,0,3,7,0,0,7,42,13,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16201824210838814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161573325275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147054748627449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102794096719412,0.16275450639204547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741173671733,0.09479986710147782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16294769384885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12952556285747588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155386175309331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14965833252037872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027341884921759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858400628811392,0.3948240592566843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243092539039896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4971363424223727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963824115612296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15596483894666274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540488877211229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11445190132041427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17446843690488487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126600067981726,0.0,0.0,0.13784295612869826,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Poplink20,2019/01/09,My wife is schizophrenia As the title says. Just wondering how to make her feel more loved and help her on our journey together.,4.783750000000001,6.967949875000006,4.331666666666667,85.38000000000002,71.08333333333334,8.133333333333335,28.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.316816666666667,103,4,19,2,2,31,23,24,0.0,0.755,0.245,0.7996,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,6,5,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,3,5,1,2,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,1,0,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602907696438988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450495423647956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4646135719104394,0.0,0.34362299290456483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4093777035277689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5582623862936625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ttshowdelusion,2019/01/09,"I am going to ask something special to my university The right of keeping my headphone or earbud in class (just loud enough to hear the teacher), to keep my auditory hallucinations quiet. Give me support please",6.37720720720721,8.815758972972976,7.079459459459461,66.27342342342342,67.37837837837839,8.176576576576577,36.65765765765766,8.841846274778883,3.7014576576576577,170,9,25,3,3,56,31,37,0.0,0.8109999999999999,0.18899999999999997,0.7717,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,8,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,6,8,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,17,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765196566538339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056256471835879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837445498451187,0.16810180251301307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333719270455116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5258157563625019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3246838233217774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252599330810498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22771024582237004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3356540528674947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xamcali,2019/01/09,"Insight on this selfie movement that’s positively impacted my self esteem I always believed I was doomed with and body that was doomed to show my disease. Despite regular grooming and showering and taking pride in my appearance, despite my family and friends saying they would ave never had a clue based on how I present myself, I still had this negative self image of myself. Seeing the wide range of beautiful faces on here, I feel like I can finally let go. I can accept that it is an invisible disease, which is something at least. I don’t have to deal with one more paranoia. Slowly we will knock these demons off or learn to mitigate them. But this sub has been a continuous ally in that battle. Cheers y’all ",6.154966832504144,7.354935574626868,6.507711442786071,74.92427031509123,66.38805970149254,9.53764510779436,32.0530679933665,9.725611199111238,3.1819595356550567,573,23,98,12,9,185,99,134,0.12,0.738,0.142,0.3252,1,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,1,1,2,1,3,8,1,0,4,0,15,2,2,1,1,17,20,7,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,2,0,2,1,2,10,7,0,0,4,1,0,3,3,3,0,1,5,4,18,5,14,12,2,16,3,2,1,0,9,8,0,2,6,75,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19454936817987686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26342477612358056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597111598618207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410487331105301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204160729641375,0.0,0.11822179754261734,0.16703452721576567,0.0,0.2561283717872547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806416927294567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328801015932393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23908744854654074,0.0,0.11422817739905858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180329351496724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15843629181393698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859357827061385,0.0,0.0,0.186316986184112,0.0,0.4878314446420889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17999902527134226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18672165718512615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17579667082449685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660925286849283,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Okioter,2019/01/09,"Dumb Question: Are meetups a thing? I'd love to meet someone else with sz and spend a few hours painting or fishing. I spend most of the day on my computer making 3D models and hanging out with my dog. I have tried just about every hobby honestly, but theres no one to share my thoughts with. Plus I have this weird habit of having entire conversations in my head as if I were teaching someone how to do stuff step by step. I imagine it would be fun to actually have someone there.",5.213750000000001,5.624401208333335,5.645833333333336,83.08250000000002,68.16666666666666,8.066666666666668,31.625,7.793537801064563,2.0442624999999994,380,15,76,4,6,122,73,96,0.073,0.807,0.12,0.6796,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,3,0,9,2,1,2,0,18,12,8,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,3,0,2,3,1,2,0,1,2,0,9,4,16,8,2,8,0,0,0,1,5,3,1,4,2,54,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.23272849331820905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15380411019671186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992249299600478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20093522374251324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447560274568154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348612351167038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152434434290036,0.0,0.15919163947370848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616046740652235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671595421736535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6062066986020551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730100688740271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15843988218105598,0.0,0.0,0.18933169989317966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16191672851683622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16941401907031692,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ChocoChat,2019/01/09,"looking for a job anxiety I just finished my master's and am now looking for a job. I'm so anxious I'm giving myself hangnails. I'm also going stir crazy so I asked on FB if anyone wanted to go for coffee. Got two replies and feel pretty good about that. Just needed to tell someone how I'm feeling. 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However yesterday I had a fairly normal one, it was lightning coming up from the ground and ended in like firework looking things. I guess my question is has anyone else had your hallucinations go from bad ones to ok ones? I have had bad/dark ones for 10 years now so the switch in them has kinda freaked me out. PS I am so glad I found this sub Reddit. And I have loved seeing all the face reveals. I'm just to paranoid to post my own. 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Hi? Idk. Im going crazier daily. Im on year 2 i think going on year 3 without meds or therapy or any type of treatment. Ive been on medd since 2010. Felt obligated/forced to get a diagnosis in early adulthood. My paranoia and dilusions are crazier and crazier every day especially with my new job. I just wash dishes for a cafe in not my home state. Clear across the country. Shit. Everything and everyone seems real ""loony"". Well the way i see things. Vision. Eyeballs. You know, peripheral sight. Oh god i cant even finish Im a paranoid schizophrenic.",0.6673201352003844,3.0466765045871576,2.7776436504104325,85.36623370352487,100.46788990825688,5.2305166586190275,23.16803476581361,6.8360192770164,1.3352091743119274,445,19,81,8,19,149,84,109,0.11800000000000001,0.797,0.085,-0.128,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,1,1,5,0,4,4,1,0,1,15,12,5,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,4,0,0,2,3,2,1,0,2,3,9,1,11,10,0,16,0,0,2,0,3,6,1,3,6,39,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044771279977776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11422778430523907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169861275140755,0.0,0.14923128756201112,0.16924580524641994,0.15918408690610505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17006303132596087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925379196785153,0.0,0.2013228208114684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776658591507159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5739601681357847,0.0,0.1757643269870766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973405515076436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19674045501429746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710636552302078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20160140194071047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14114175400956064,0.16124344817610786,0.0,0.0,0.1818111937313844,0.14651554186512272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20255222190757832,0.0,0.1176706959519998,0.11349138104607505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14058965737667292,0.0,0.0,0.15925220294861608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707374148777947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281190198306406 schizophrenia,GeoWolf1447,2019/01/09,"In a Paranoid Frenzy Right Now So I saw some news that the big teleco companies (ATT, Verizon, T-Mobile) were caught selling the active location data of their customers to all sorts or bad guys. It really set me off. I've spent the last two hours freaking out over whether or not I should close all my online accounts, get a burner phone, and hide. They all know me and where I've been. My voices are yelling at me that they were right. That I am being watched. That they were always right. That I was stupid not to listen. That I'm a freak for believing I was okay. They keep calling me names and yelling at me to hide and close everything. Yelling at me to watch the window. Yelling at me that I'm stupid and deserve to be scared. Yelling for me to end it all, to just clean house by ending it. Yelling ate that I'm the dumbest person ever. They won't stop or be quiet. I've been watching my window nervously and keep looking out for police or gangs coming to get me. 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Hi my name is Martin. I recently had a psychotic meltdown in July 2018 and began hearing voices. I have since been diagnosed schizoaffective, very horrifying. Sometimes I hear the voices more than other times, but when I do, it feels like someone is talking to me in my head, almost like a signal is being beemed into my scull. I began researching technology that might make this possible and began becoming paranoid so I have stopped and am trying to focus on how this is an actual disease. I guess what I’m getting at is... does it feel this way for other people that have auditory hallucinations? I haven’t had these voices that long, but this sh*t is horrifying. 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Wanting to be dead + pills = me without religious family background. Or... None of this would’ve happened if I didn’t watch Bruce almighty and the Truman show as a toddler multiple times",1.7505999999999986,3.9366928600000013,3.414000000000001,88.397,80.4,7.2,26.0,8.238735603445708,1.8042,193,8,40,4,5,64,42,50,0.301,0.6609999999999999,0.039,-0.946,0,0,0,0,0,2,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,7,6,6,2,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,1,3,0,5,2,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,22,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4191400253931997,0.500311394786386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3931683615953743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25925646232057864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622433024785167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4285894897328565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158391570743045,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BruddaDomin,2019/01/09,"Who’s mad about these selfies? I’m not. I enjoy them. It’s like Christmas and each post is like a little present. You’re all beautiful and I thank you for posting them; I deleted mine after a few hours due to paranoia. Although there are a lot of selfies being posted, I am seeing regular posts being answered way more compared to a few days ago before this trend. To all the people who are complaining, what is but only a few days of spreading love and creating a new face for this sub? Before, I was only talking to usernames, but now I can put a face to some of you! I feel less alone knowing how diverse this community is. I do agree that this shouldn’t be a regular occurrence as this isn’t Instagram, but it was fun. We should do a bi-yearly mega thread or something so we don’t forget the human behind the screen and to liven the sub up. Seriously, before this trend I would see so many unanswered posts; but now I’m seeing a lot more responses and love going around! 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I've seen all your faces, and you're all young, good looking and great people. But I think you're human most of all, and that feels really great. Seeing your faces just made me realise that we're all human. We're all normal people with normal faces. We live among each other. We're not weird at all. I've been feeling weird and ashamed a lot. I don't really talk about our mental illness and seeing your faces made me feel less alone. I kinda want to post my own face too and share the love, but I'm really shy. Plus I don't really post, so I don't want to come across as an attention seeker. Still appreciate seeing your faces though! Stay great and strong everyone <3",2.2986088379705407,4.323477617021279,3.2017021276595763,91.42615384615387,77.79432624113475,6.3242771412984204,16.519912711402075,7.321109707123232,-0.05521102018548785,548,8,116,7,13,174,81,141,0.073,0.7120000000000001,0.21600000000000005,0.9687,0,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,2,4,0,1,7,10,0,1,3,0,4,8,6,2,7,37,20,14,0,4,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,12,0,0,5,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,4,8,14,7,10,16,12,9,0,0,5,1,11,3,0,3,2,62,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14331412377149755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11919727388641113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13222264779892454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20989872915449254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606186288941625,0.0,0.4576747197661622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218711064789348,0.0,0.11619962679298272,0.0,0.0,0.11764094760854,0.1248882783733864,0.2618663638701734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13944882672367684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711550209734595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19186274108055248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650488072571788,0.14077648861073766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35458467854001274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307993909147124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14748867533463,0.11050595677910806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122008326942498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866471391961514,0.13595212352813452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632335862514974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,krystiannajt,2019/01/09,"Things I noticed from our selfies 1.) We're pretty diverse. It's nice. I don't know why, but when people think of schizophrenia I think they associate it with crazy white guys. 2.) It's nice to see that there are a lot of ladies here. I know symptoms are a little different for us and we can be misdiagnosed. 3.) A lot of us are young. 4.) None of us ""look"" crazy. Just some observations. What did you guys notice? I think I feel more comfortable posting in here now because it's more personal. 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I am searching for a pen pal (via email) to share experiences & discuss with. Preferably in a place that's far away from where I am - I'm also interested in hearing what life is like in other places. If this interests you feel free to shoot me a message!,3.0475862068965505,4.965218931034482,4.192620689655172,85.66444827586207,75.20689655172414,6.708965517241379,27.11724137931035,7.554174236665415,1.4845200000000005,230,9,46,3,5,75,45,58,0.04,0.738,0.222,0.8702,0,0,0,1,0,1,9.0,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,2,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,6,10,6,0,8,0,0,0,0,9,8,0,1,1,29,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24938392977851095,0.0,0.3378860895315657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929905178172293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050462005225075,0.0,0.0,0.1576792109698975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3514742284812641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22026675546048224,0.15235269008932273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6516274744730589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ahnahnah,2019/01/09,Meetup? Anyone in the Tampa FL area care to meet up? I'd really like some friends with this diagnosis.,0.9788333333333306,3.57450055,3.5300000000000047,81.62833333333334,93.5,6.666666666666668,16.666666666666668,7.793537801064563,1.0191666666666674,81,2,15,2,3,28,20,20,0.0,0.622,0.37799999999999995,0.8663,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4197878985475165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6121102798814813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4638391079697731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933071269939028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3846080299068944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gotahorn,2019/08/10,"Reaveal of voices name Today i had an aha Moment, i‘ve been shizophrenic for almost 3 years now and in this time none of the voices tried or neither wanted to tell me their names. But the last night I had a clear bad dream and after that I woke up to deep voices talking to me loudly and after a while, I can’t really remember what exactly he said because it was right after waking up, but he finally told me his name and it is Lucifer. Had to tell this to someone because now I know it’s JUST schizophrenia after all this long time of unknowing!",6.276939393939394,5.730576027272729,6.685454545454547,79.78484848484852,66.0,9.151515151515152,30.15151515151515,8.344100000000001,2.10560606060606,433,13,84,5,6,141,74,110,0.022000000000000002,0.943,0.035,0.08800000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,5,0,7,1,1,0,3,19,12,8,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,8,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,8,5,10,0,16,4,3,21,0,0,0,0,12,5,0,3,16,60,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22876983063797945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19075467530330706,0.2785343634444989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250266917887485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12555571897826226,0.18622550743017885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20218003593964545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143943664128528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14635741665304874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588008045914772,0.19510371249185748,0.2173179113410469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935735364481348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18362760776098394,0.3993684667874161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664338913852953,0.0,0.21655350092762787,0.2183034555757636,0.0,0.15510943950996267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347517106105637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712084071767084 schizophrenia,haikyez,2019/08/10,"Hatred Do you hate people who've had a stable and loving upbringing? Who have no mental illness issues and act as if they're better than you? As if you've somehow done something wrong to not prosper in a life without having support to motivate you?,",4.293125,6.355465395833337,5.315000000000001,78.33000000000001,72.125,6.466666666666668,28.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.9193166666666663,201,8,32,2,4,66,38,48,0.295,0.521,0.183,-0.7963,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,0,2,1,5,1,0,2,0,5,3,0,1,0,8,8,6,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,3,3,7,6,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,3,0,25,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702697468111196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127249292950126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.301707110034716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189568311340719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21584743431812164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758071359656601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.307963101208263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21185780525270165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23525830790724803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34678019969911816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945781005799198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341149712237988,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Starborn_Seraphim,2019/08/10,"Horror movies. Do you guys like horror movies or hate them. I used to love them, but I can't even stand them now. Too scary!",-0.9703846153846172,1.131377730769234,-0.34730769230769104,109.12980769230772,98.6153846153846,2.6,6.5,3.1291,-2.8066615384615385,95,0,24,0,4,28,21,26,0.353,0.515,0.132,-0.807,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,3,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,2,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,2,14,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226474598485806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4836885292757535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4822893524144654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23865481019898716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4408873393167989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4219043012899866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,madara_rider,2019/08/10,"Lack of insight It's common for people with schizophrenia to think they're not sick. Has any of you thought that and then understood it after some time? If yes, how?",1.9987500000000007,4.755171375000003,1.9112500000000023,95.60875,85.25,4.45,20.5,5.985473137389443,0.031662499999999934,132,4,26,1,4,39,30,32,0.066,0.77,0.16399999999999998,0.5365,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,11,4,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,6,2,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4460874744024687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4547724886564221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4203241585952743,0.0,0.5207731884523135,0.3825059955515171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NondescriptMidnight,2019/08/10,"I feel so far away... The past two years have been severely bad with hospital and psychiatric inpatient stays. Im glad my ability to create is back, I'm making awesome content and expanding my portfolio but... It doesn't feel substantial, nothing does. And with new meds it's easier to mask how hollow everything feels, how detached I am. In a way its great that I'm doing better and trying to be healthy, but when I stop doing things, there's no sense any of it mattered. It's troublesome because it feels like happiness is never in my grasp.",3.867104700854704,6.0062177403846215,5.02820512820513,79.59457264957267,73.51923076923076,9.23760683760684,28.863247863247857,9.725611199111238,3.082088888888889,431,18,78,12,9,142,76,104,0.14400000000000002,0.65,0.20600000000000002,0.7433,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,2,0,9,0,0,3,1,19,16,10,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,6,0,1,5,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,1,4,6,5,9,14,0,13,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,8,49,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136643348860311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18878595666463055,0.15450735661764795,0.1677731404643161,0.1224887012808714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777115351099687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17584041997941866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18058829191948847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4063970521755327,0.1435486959322165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215326144630094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21390007468889036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21704532659432246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816716446395324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13412631916145096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2231945630561162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549742060946412,0.19406521033568666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19280348089689714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918161181608896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22700045007664554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21417100687095175,0.0,0.16799146685073266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13349292887223976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13642233272064475,0.0,0.19628524393170613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15949361887017716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939617566755462 schizophrenia,sch1zoangel,2019/08/10,question for those who like abilify & have tried other antipsychotics are there other meds youve been on like it? i might need to switch for personal reasons and id like to know if theres anything i should ask my psych to try.,8.91,6.4321965217391375,8.001739130434782,78.6595652173913,62.04347826086956,11.808695652173913,36.04347826086956,10.125756701596842,3.222991304347825,184,6,38,3,2,57,37,46,0.0,0.835,0.165,0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,8,8,2,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,6,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,3,3,23,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004791740629844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282130624045828,0.0,0.2592594133450981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15240937658671205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4064577847621347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080431498866183,0.0,0.0,0.2941957012130673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20563136697904086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24214760123485146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31066504165624265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28513406072936875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765679997821622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Static_Reality,2019/08/10,"My biggest fear is that I'll be full blown psychotic before or after I die. My biggest fear is that I'll be full blown psychotic after I die. Isn't that where if you're dead, you've completely lost connection with reality? Or is the afterlife whatever we imagine, based on reality? I'm also afraid of going psychotic BEFORE I die. Which will increase the possibility of being psychotic after I die. I could have died in other people's realities subjectively. And in my reality, I'm still alive. I feel like I'll be sat down on a chair, where someone will explain to me the matrix. Or I'll be reincarnated into an animal or an object with and unknown consciousness. I hope to meet my family. But they will be in a different afterlife. Since we are one, it won't matter because I'll be reincarnated into everything possible and so will they.",4.338547008547007,6.21540113580247,6.7514814814814805,68.85320512820515,71.5925925925926,10.663627730294397,30.362773029439694,10.727762888450028,3.9361000949667613,672,29,116,23,13,240,90,162,0.198,0.742,0.06,-0.9767,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,2,0,2,1,5,6,0,3,7,0,19,0,0,0,0,22,27,11,6,3,6,0,1,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,6,9,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,2,1,16,2,17,12,3,20,0,1,0,0,6,14,0,6,5,82,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11090437642911473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08453958864235929,0.0,0.2360172526778113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454060037209052,0.0,0.0,0.11072672278587928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7196529022833427,0.14489373630590036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12463892385871855,0.0,0.13073755545180635,0.3121128251003677,0.07012205872279972,0.09907483365693796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07881648292188899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13774305317312682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06775328348807845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513883738088906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09397487763958727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614501086520652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126874508453049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11471962946533415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11750526535396695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075205488424364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,septerpride,2019/08/10,Does schizophrenia lower your intelligence? Like... Does it screw with your logic and such?,5.462619047619048,8.518287642857146,3.087142857142858,81.24119047619047,101.14285714285714,4.723809523809524,18.952380952380953,6.42735559955562,0.8045523809523814,73,2,10,1,3,20,12,14,0.21899999999999997,0.609,0.172,0.2168,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9631795123026461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688591212520736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SentinelHalo,2019/08/10,"Does this sound like Schizophrenia? Hello Everyone, Recently I did a psychological evaluation four days ago at one of the best hospitals in my city, where they said I do not have schizophrenia, and I am not showing any positive symptoms or negative symptoms. They also told me to lay off the caffeine, where I have around 2-3 cups of coffee a day. That day, I ended up having a grande coffee and I found myself another caffine craze where I was jittery and very nervous. I have been trying to decompress by having decafe, and it has been helping, though at times I am still nervous. I also had another ""too much caffeine"" episode one week before the 2nd one. The past two days I have not been getting much sleep recently. On Friday, I slept from 12:30 PM to 5 AM, and I couldn't go to bed after that. Yesterday, I went to bed at like 1:45 AM, and woke up at 9 AM, but I did end up waking up in the night again. Today, I found myself really tired and very anxious. Over the course of my schizophrenia anxiety, I sometimes worry I am being watched. I realize that this was false, as I was just anxious and misattributing my anxiety to it. However today when I woke up that fear came again, and I tried calming myself down by telling myself, no one is watching me, things like clocks and monitors cannot watch me cause they are inanimate, but I still thought about it. So I do believe that I am not being watched by anything. I went to the gym, worked out, had another decaf coffee (2nd one today) and I was really tired when I came back into my house. I was playing a game, Sniper Elite V4, when I thought my heard phone ringing when it really wasn't. I know it was a hallucination, and this had me really freaked out that could be psychosis. Just 40 minutes ago too, I took a nap cause I was tired, and during the nap (and this happens when I am very tired), I had a sleep paralysis hallucination where I felt I was going upside down, I couldn't move and it ended suddenly. The phone ringing thing has only happened once, and I remember I had it happen one time ago where I was really tired. I am worried that hearing my phone ring without it really ringing is a sign I might be descending into Schizophrenia. I know it was only four days ago that two psychiatrists (one resident and one psychiatrist) cleared me. I have also seen 3 other mental health professionals (one psychiatrist and one psychologist) who said I do not have schizophrenia. From what you read, should i run to the hospital now to get antipsychotic medication. Is this a sign of schizophrenia or should i get some sleep? im really tired right now, body is aching and i am feeling sleepy.",5.866712598425195,6.503006881889764,6.396525590551182,77.47778051181105,66.79527559055119,9.65708661417323,31.426181102362214,9.673873057562805,2.8663472440944875,2088,79,393,42,32,680,224,508,0.126,0.833,0.040999999999999995,-0.9925,1,0,0,0,0,0,69.0,0,1,3,3,28,11,0,3,19,0,60,16,6,2,1,60,90,34,0,5,12,0,2,3,0,3,10,9,2,0,27,26,0,0,10,7,0,9,12,4,0,14,39,16,68,7,43,41,4,74,0,0,5,0,17,27,0,4,41,291,95,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20813441953815973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14082601470540096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03991770347009014,0.18465477301358527,0.08980998246263885,0.13262755530091472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04830472398170016,0.05225504004602281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04513632677222944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04994898934034655,0.06613428604440502,0.06160155096775252,0.0,0.0,0.06520196159213268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13427328340794026,0.0,0.1206012044279626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04686681022995695,0.0,0.0,0.18928175205458794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0513683673690561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559711216757773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05608993072881068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0660533075317394,0.02968025365882552,0.0,0.056360768485318076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287220425221262,0.0,0.0,0.09200426853118647,0.0,0.06672060827151809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15572344126579976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06239487138445547,0.066158653329737,0.0,0.03934506765744947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06773139373907024,0.0,0.0,0.06340558145583873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06451946957525495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08603289792562696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05913361604797225,0.05915533504547304,0.0622709409968225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062388326661909375,0.08630183921253122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055085546534423456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06251309964295555,0.3977633082516944,0.08928729809898535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056035357662067305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05871542989657876,0.0,0.2632310211510921,0.0,0.11591743817623786,0.0,0.06649514165412979,0.0501290906721544,0.11167341864653857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17622581122627926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05805535091491613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093755064870385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202260574817525,0.0,0.0,0.051305989587515366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799473877829803,0.0,0.05767200489528997,0.09320176380051158,0.06845635343789684,0.4047989513195644,0.16692091521056907,0.05608993072881068,0.06521735429365905,0.07970627578525931,0.0,0.11468185210873387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14529981633199945,0.0,0.0,0.04708523426980658,0.0,0.0,0.1088301325382353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05658426664913924,0.0,0.042733967843501364,0.11922447451351467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,superlord9362,2019/08/10,"Hunger I don't know if it's my antipsychotics or something else, but I used to be able to eat 3 cinnamon rolls during the morning. This morning, I was struggling with two. I've been struggling to eat normal portions of food that I used to be able to wolf down easily. If I do somehow finish my normal portion, I end up throwing it up. Is this a side effect of aripiprazole? It hasn't really been helping my schizophrenia symptoms, and I'm unsure if I want to be on it anymore.",5.017500000000002,5.379407416666666,6.0145833333333325,80.43875,68.58333333333334,8.483333333333333,32.66666666666667,8.344100000000001,2.5171791666666667,376,16,72,5,6,125,62,96,0.15,0.8009999999999999,0.049,-0.8588,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,2,0,10,5,0,3,0,15,15,6,0,6,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,2,4,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,3,0,10,0,13,9,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,5,2,50,17,0,0.3817440486138251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892937592695424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3906194642381568,0.15944908414521586,0.0,0.1690559597176115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230803209437208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12793749448332922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10489827282440364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3740281157055225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12227750632852068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469426094748565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3990817651303153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19838911684769767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18645423295797975,0.0,0.0,0.32970429030312204,0.0,0.0,0.11258126525984262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AlwaysConfused474,2019/08/10,"Religious based psychosis. Does anybody else’s illness revolve around religion? I’m Christian myself, I’ve seen Jesus multiple times and demons, and I’ve heard demons in my head telling me I’m damned to hell. Of course I’ve come to the realization that this is my psychosis and not some magical revelation from Satan or God. Has anybody else seen things correlating with their particular religion?",4.072428571428573,7.439745671428575,4.334285714285716,76.45571428571431,85.14285714285714,7.942857142857143,31.285714285714285,8.548686976883017,3.5506857142857147,327,17,51,9,10,102,53,70,0.142,0.8290000000000001,0.028999999999999998,-0.8466,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,9,8,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,3,5,0,7,5,1,4,6,0,2,0,3,2,2,2,1,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32101225946350137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106267196302244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31556526718893896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6024734505478829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3700817172676912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151820690787648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23956796607021866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21026994403197152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,paket12,2019/08/10,"Tricks for cognitve impairment I keep papers where i write down what I should do during the day, reminders and other things what are you tricks?",4.098333333333333,7.244608576923079,2.7669230769230784,90.66141025641028,78.61538461538461,5.005128205128205,20.2051282051282,6.42735559955562,0.29945128205128224,117,3,20,1,3,33,22,26,0.125,0.875,0.0,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,16,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5024735594090506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6925253923480774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5176184917948169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Manlypitts,2019/08/10,"Dont want a yes or no answer or a diagnosis just your opinion. Hey everyone I've been to a few doctors now who have told me what im experiencing is OCD and not schizophrenia and thus I have been taking meds and using OCD techniques for a little over a month now. I'm just not sure what im expericing is but I thought I could run some of this stuff by you guys to see if it sounds familiar. I see black smudges out of the corner of my eye and sometimes when I look to check on them they'll start there for a second and then fade away. As soon as I close my eyes when I going to sleep I start hearing sounds some short sentences and things like that. I have intrusive paranoid thoughts that enter my mind but can verify they aren't true. These range from my girlfriend is cheating on me to what if that random guy punched me in the face. When these thoughts come up im greatly upset over the fact they happened and immediately feel guilty and start to question if I really do believe them. Sometimes it difficult for me to formulate thoughts in situations where im stressed and this makes it difficult to read. I have a compulsive need to shower whenever these feelings come up because I associate the shower with mental clarity. I spend countless hours researching this topic and have been for 2 years now. I'm 22 years old I have no family history of schizophrenia but did have a past of smoking weed.",5.8121129751539575,6.221177635379063,5.9726481206200885,81.26325759184543,66.87003610108303,9.405733701422808,32.17859418135485,9.325443323948027,2.6741779146315565,1123,44,223,20,17,357,158,277,0.133,0.8370000000000001,0.03,-0.9778,2,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,5,0,11,9,1,2,12,1,20,5,4,3,3,49,45,24,0,6,12,0,2,1,1,1,1,4,2,2,18,15,0,0,8,1,2,5,6,5,0,1,9,13,29,4,33,34,3,38,0,0,6,0,15,15,0,10,19,149,47,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10404155686828244,0.0,0.0,0.06750457187170343,0.0,0.0,0.12476327784694675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907811574394025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841490875994608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334455667725778,0.0,0.0,0.12978356314517767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10581445768138947,0.0,0.0,0.10439349008028223,0.0,0.11198444725985457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06293469156306815,0.0,0.0,0.12208852031709773,0.0,0.21929513424731292,0.09792483411142497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12480924707973183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090541629548353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4784621502323615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05410076472117134,0.11098809917500124,0.0,0.0,0.09299163718592036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07391816271249134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12300443441429433,0.0,0.11159738682976167,0.0,0.1118133399180026,0.0,0.08838964179758169,0.0,0.0,0.08211047706272626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11620041210850195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10571150480934227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12405137966964845,0.0,0.11076749946572564,0.0,0.07094129879871165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17648695203968912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12447362604480156,0.11081750563827716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21904450202535897,0.0,0.23514178601033464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268494691258215,0.0,0.12676798078024526,0.0,0.0,0.10436881368371526,0.0,0.0832608428462914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07356909590180767,0.0,0.0,0.3516529246285702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10581445768138947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09564167309223012,0.0,0.0,0.06531586567097547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426226802788069 schizophrenia,thoughtbot100,2019/08/10,"Voices are more advance than lead on They mess with a lot of people. The shadow people. They have advance civilizations and dream weavers. If you have imagination, you are in their realm of aware.",4.072714285714287,7.193124200000002,3.668214285714289,84.34803571428574,78.42857142857143,5.785714285714287,23.035714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.0240000000000011,157,5,27,2,4,47,28,35,0.068,0.877,0.055,-0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,3,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,6,4,2,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,0,21,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5227159728751876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8525068983305333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ArbieBarbie,2019/08/10,Experiences on invega sustenna? I’ve taken 4 shots of invega sustenna and one day I woke up with no emotions/feelings and anhedonia. Anyone else experience the same? Does it go away with time?,3.803571428571427,6.857132714285719,6.028214285714286,67.42803571428573,79.0,9.214285714285714,28.75,9.516144504307137,3.7040000000000006,155,7,24,5,4,54,30,35,0.084,0.9159999999999999,0.0,-0.4098,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,6,1,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,14,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267823691204457,0.3323192366379684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047231347854092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20916905523829032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28382748878561137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709400309677072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6345231591118123,0.0,0.0,0.16399337362586675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18432688895774652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197775921142925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891221765732316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wow_wow_thisgirl,2019/08/10,"How to help the father of my child and my daughter! Hello! I myself do not have schizophrenia but the father of my 5 year old does! He was diagnosed a year ago officially and it feels like a weight being lifted off our shoulders. So far he’s been great and Im happy to say more active since finding out specifically what’s going on in his head. He has a great girlfriend that supports him and his family has been pretty supportive. Me and my fiancé also support ☺️ I was told his schizophrenia *could* get worse. My question is how can we prepare for the possibility and how could it effect his relationship with our daughter? I know it varies but even if it’s a common thread that people in the community sees. She understands that there’s days dad needs to be alone or visits end early but How can we better equip her and him if their relationship even hits the rocks due to schizophrenia even if it’s temporarily? Thank you P.s this is all new for us so any advice comments or corrections r welcome I’m not intentionally trying to offend anyone just gathering more information ❤️",2.948755980861243,5.588813516746416,4.262368421052631,81.42407894736844,78.90430622009569,6.670813397129186,22.897129186602868,7.84624498591911,1.3677062200956929,871,28,158,15,22,286,136,209,0.04,0.741,0.21899999999999997,0.9929,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,5,1,1,2,12,11,1,0,9,0,16,4,2,6,2,39,30,22,0,6,11,5,2,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,10,11,1,0,7,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,5,4,25,10,15,20,3,18,0,0,1,0,37,6,0,6,11,107,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12546633541964694,0.11381462687782967,0.0,0.0,0.13297873911776126,0.0,0.10267762121519007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08731316110712183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897769320529935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11355514940952627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20502629141735526,0.0,0.0,0.08280430322933707,0.0,0.0,0.13031845850848212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123595333901128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11372006646240475,0.0,0.0,0.2544115208542246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103959852170852,0.0,0.06492048750637762,0.09172557990700242,0.0,0.0,0.11735091662680246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06708120977638866,0.0,0.07296996962189052,0.0,0.0,0.283112394689104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13667911272599914,0.0,0.0,0.13177055079231148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08606061803429034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13868888406600213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07056266207537865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06272742521140058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520343816894328,0.0,0.12400491583859978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13472919833271013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890130878979129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14474633314925284,0.0,0.13062411059170764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14383204527151194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756968587253653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10210504246318,0.0,0.0,0.10231437708795801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620986330252938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4371041656018443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11820907984149015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226871471171057,0.0,0.08717193492984422,0.0,0.0,0.1336639653586007,0.1544436560694996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15635080357119438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13084571124936945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653646405322874 schizophrenia,MiserableRest,2019/08/10,What is your preferred type of music? Do you prefer calming or abrasive music? Like sometimes I listen to very abrasive songs like hot head by death grips which can drown out voices. Also i love calming acoustic guitar songs which help me ease my mind but I guess its whatever mood im in.,3.852,6.204817472727277,3.9327272727272735,86.45909090909093,74.27272727272728,5.127272727272729,25.54545454545455,5.6839178017228535,0.8243818181818177,231,8,40,1,5,71,46,55,0.079,0.6920000000000001,0.22899999999999998,0.7263,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,7,6,3,2,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,7,5,5,6,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,2,2,22,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670093253424232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678141898834552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34266440389495023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22379742818280587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36065527160341343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262406605829229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3013460669437833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371307047583845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302227953990708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27549175493139383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,somewhereonabike,2019/08/10,"How can I best support my partner? Hello! Looking for advice on how I can best support my partner. He's 10+ years diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic and currently on 650mg seroquel xr. It helps him a lot but zonks him out and leaves him quite unmotivated. Other meds have not worked as well. He's lively and a sensitive, gentle soul but does still have mild auditory hallucinations and delusions daily. Full time work and study became too much a few years ago, exacerbating symptoms so he doesn't currently work and claims disability. I've tried hard to be as supportive as I can in the 9 months we've been together but I feel I'm falling short. He hates the lack of motivation medication gives him - though he's totally med compliant - and I feel frustrated sometimes. It can feel like a very fine line between being overly motivating/pushy but also understanding how hard it must be because of his negative symptoms and medication. I'm also not sure of the best way to help with delusions! I don't want to undermine his reality. I just want to be kind, loving and lift him up. I want to support him in living the best life he wants, because I love him so very dearly. Help!",4.658693693693691,6.670407932432437,5.856936936936936,75.0382882882883,71.02702702702703,9.077477477477476,30.35135135135136,9.586721724236666,3.0542054054054057,939,40,168,23,18,313,132,222,0.129,0.59,0.281,0.9938,2,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,9,12,18,2,0,8,0,14,9,0,4,3,35,33,24,0,6,7,0,5,1,2,1,7,0,0,2,4,11,0,0,5,0,0,1,5,2,1,0,1,6,20,16,21,27,10,19,1,0,1,2,24,9,0,1,9,105,24,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09507008888932117,0.08624119496269125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15560461765656367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186134469269158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4083969487643605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987467067790093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08513862137785815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14757735206003886,0.0695035764455564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09332887053904802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17430440981994585,0.0960531539442653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19563312929378907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10131195286458212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030154414168381,0.0,0.0,0.06871838994661943,0.047530693159244575,0.0,0.1718166690948462,0.0,0.08169860437721517,0.0,0.0,0.08271198025750649,0.17561498823669175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21613321214605055,0.19601769747678305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07765548166257848,0.0,0.07151891318775526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10347926685056692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09622171763787082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07769545129698473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.441611494043872,0.0916941208532261,0.20224190416049126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955863548009098,0.0,0.0567302393940677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06605312552339572,0.0,0.0,0.10128171055158942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16054791022246115,0.2295352670623289,0.07722380798886737,0.0,0.0,0.08747486672763312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21248355522350806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253023850738323 schizophrenia,hh434344,2019/08/10,"Keep having dreams I am in love Last night I had a wonderful dream that this really attractive man was into me and wanted to be in a relationship with me. He hitchhiked all the way from Montana just to be with me. We were so close. The dream wasn’t sexual, just pure love. It makes me sad because even though I am married I don’t feel love like this. This happens about once a month and they are pretty intense. Anyone else?",3.148957983193277,4.866952164705887,3.999831932773109,88.01352941176474,74.41176470588233,7.210084033613445,22.731092436974787,7.957251820313856,1.0123445378151263,334,9,69,5,7,107,62,85,0.031,0.638,0.331,0.9819,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,1,0,6,6,0,0,5,0,11,3,0,1,2,16,20,4,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,7,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,1,10,5,9,14,1,8,0,1,0,3,8,4,0,1,4,48,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14934220385977098,0.2188410297369832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301982180625579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784211951549987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14106956112534075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10799398529379667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18887074685268115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18984238929480984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17409865644844394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10434586824586377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5783010053046319,0.0,0.1425683150159905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047991770253595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20043318263792376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274589308135359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21729070159663152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682674276032947,0.0,0.0,0.2293082172542848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20984421899216926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12597679069407028,0.16953224870618114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23162165918506594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Anonschiz41,2019/08/10,"Anyone have a solution for this? My eyes keep wandering and getting ""stuck"" on things. It's so annoying. I cant control where I look and i think it is because of the meds.",-0.03200000000000003,2.315875514285718,2.3114285714285714,90.95857142857146,93.85714285714286,6.2285714285714295,24.142857142857146,7.554174236665415,1.5613999999999997,133,6,28,3,5,45,31,35,0.106,0.823,0.07,-0.294,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,2,0,3,1,1,1,0,5,8,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,3,7,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861151495800886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494384150846485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4589413589830459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21378487691978088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.363706857177012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34361652777929563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4545178247630139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718476419024557,0.2621924181209385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,OuterSpaceWolf,2019/08/10,"Do group therapy exist for people with schizophrenia? And if they do and you try it, did it help you to be around people that have the same situation? I haven't gone with my therapist or psychiatrist lately, and i wanted to tell them if they are this kinds of groups, just to see if it can help me to talk with people that have the same issues. So i wanted to know your experience if they exist.",6.986898734177212,5.848367405063293,7.347943037974683,77.5583702531646,64.82278481012658,10.431645569620251,27.34493670886076,9.516144504307137,1.9878329113924045,311,6,64,5,4,102,50,79,0.0,0.927,0.073,0.6966,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,4,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,9,0,0,0,0,18,14,9,0,6,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,12,1,11,11,2,3,0,0,1,0,13,1,0,5,1,52,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201918295332434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218739302397828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040659421228841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367416271543099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23619860174462076,0.1246545912213866,0.0,0.2558633549387696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4717462362778133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807465375717512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549556969122493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18230969141572576,0.19825107680963674,0.0,0.2593889600151906,0.2633560325965526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15399620132031042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675691643397077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RossyBoyyyy,2019/08/10,I really think I’m schizophrenic I posted yesterday with hardly any detail. I’m very forgetful I don’t care about anything I’d say I’m basically emotionless I don’t have natural laughs anymore every one is forced I don’t get joy out of any activities I don’t go to school I can’t even write this in sentences without losing my train of thought I don’t really like eating It’s very hard to follow convos I often daze off thinking in my head and come to 30 seconds later people thought these might be focal seizures but I think it’s depersonalization or whatever and I’d say I definetly have mad delusions too and I’d say I get in quite a psychotic mood every so often and punch things I have horrible panic attacks my heart will beat out of my chest and hurt and I can’t think of anything else right now but I don’t want to go to a doctor because I don’t even want any of that on my record I’d rather keep it to myself but from personal experience does this sound like schizophrenia or psychosis to you??,3.2173186750428333,4.962958635922334,4.77374643061108,82.42005425471163,74.29126213592231,7.953854940034268,26.19531696173615,8.671277953709913,1.924177384351799,813,29,161,16,17,273,115,206,0.14400000000000002,0.757,0.099,-0.9329999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,3,9,12,2,1,2,0,16,6,3,0,0,31,35,12,0,3,7,0,2,2,0,2,2,4,0,1,8,10,1,1,6,0,0,4,10,6,0,2,2,6,23,5,23,30,0,16,0,2,0,0,6,8,0,5,5,93,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580341064959373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12543509497703614,0.0,0.0,0.2081660551354147,0.0,0.0,0.14389031594347165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07710160027173656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12895573647178252,0.0,0.0,0.10895212081507913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945859013099453,0.11068431317415436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12942156620922451,0.10565858637355872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16707892126709867,0.0,0.2131312752630528,0.0,0.0,0.12372261820002052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13216213002971236,0.0,0.1437640532360661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266041377217375,0.0,0.12980592274611952,0.0,0.0,0.14988050966590305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13540045027175726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11242206100706337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235843860725388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14149980681142316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13417627789146996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08570675073905358,0.0,0.0,0.14839811816372442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876859506285391,0.11043826847255493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121133767277663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345280366743023,0.0,0.0,0.16205384349763946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108014022155485,0.0,0.3017481335762495,0.0,0.12800545248792267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402830900631103,0.32417548851696115,0.0,0.20082345889571035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20872002490682048,0.14920345768393695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12192310192626372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mothcolon,2019/08/10,"Poor memory I have a really bad problem with being able to recall details of recent events. Like today I probably took a second shower bc I can’t remember if I had taken one earlier or not. It’s also very difficult to remember what happened on certain days, I even missed of my counseling appointments for the 8th of this month. This is really frustrating and confusing, Does anyone have this problem too?",5.355600000000003,7.468363960000001,7.063666666666666,66.68350000000002,69.4,11.4,31.16666666666667,11.20814326018867,4.595666666666666,327,14,49,12,6,113,61,75,0.27699999999999997,0.6679999999999999,0.055,-0.9559,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,9,1,1,3,0,6,0,0,0,1,11,10,4,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,2,7,0,2,3,0,6,2,8,6,0,7,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,6,37,11,0,0.21345061210929256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17069637738621918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14924963096074945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782223452732352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13765798648193472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18679206907513365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14098211619752027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18875367135677554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10428118726972448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17037424214801222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14463965891051722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23013586168997704,0.40848681730751774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734838556650169,0.0,0.21075672858421055,0.0,0.4835958676195412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20232622215463172,0.0,0.2371514839199857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17611910934666322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KindaCrazy71,2019/08/10,Too much stress in my life... Persecution and Paranoia. If i could just get away from my family I'd be doing fairly good.,1.0175000000000018,3.5302024166666683,3.2633333333333354,85.915,87.33333333333334,6.533333333333335,16.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,0.5671833333333334,94,2,19,2,3,32,22,24,0.18,0.7120000000000001,0.109,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3922619466285437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333456867150595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.393588820341103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181303849765132,0.0,0.0,0.35018539935240195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948978244012007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069159786629274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4782533170960375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thisisbatcountry7,2019/08/10,"I wish that I could be a tree. It is difficult to do things, very simple things. I increasingly find my thoughts to be either jammed or strung out across the room. It is difficult to establish the cognitive traction to set my mind to a task, let alone see it through to a tangible outcome. I feel that there are endless colors snared inside me, fettered by something unseen. I would like to create at least one beautiful thing before I die, but I cannot find the motivation for anything other the dull continuation of biological processes. Sleep, eat, try to make some money so that I can continue to eat and have a place to sleep. I find myself increasingly unenthralled by the prospect of societal participation. I wish that I could be a tree.",5.743478260869567,7.364114072463771,6.465913043478262,73.28452173913044,67.69565217391305,10.157681159420287,31.91594202898551,10.355215969177356,3.5137368115942023,594,25,106,16,10,195,89,138,0.099,0.799,0.102,0.1017,0,1,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,10,0,14,4,2,2,0,19,20,4,1,5,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,11,2,2,0,6,0,1,2,1,3,0,1,1,3,15,1,19,12,5,10,0,1,2,0,1,5,0,2,3,78,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655578676874523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13154410259447608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360217891063018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552567113519115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659005419197062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3271358295623992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08082568350469645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4383039196370256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16345891238205806,0.0,0.0780953318735186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067020674895143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614043707845374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083194626032878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16701071653884356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12738088973344616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3199337356808215,0.0,0.0,0.12306143663981098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185945516499157,0.0,0.0,0.12690417591460906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085286246878449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13189416666422382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676424998050604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11355386599618708,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RedditSeemsScary,2019/08/10,"Hard night Simply a hard night. Nothing bad happened, but my head is not my friend right now. Sometimes knowing that real people are still listening helps.",4.8755555555555565,8.133252851851854,3.653333333333337,84.90000000000002,76.03703703703705,5.0814814814814815,27.51851851851852,6.42735559955562,1.4472074074074068,125,5,19,1,3,36,24,27,0.182,0.653,0.166,0.1238,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,5,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21102575494258632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19526482756158067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234954653704145,0.0,0.4528073859512752,0.0,0.2593822034787374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16940501959090748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889824898193545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47435516802691297,0.0,0.24250902140369665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521677445059552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876712869216609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158369547442581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.249964441406578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018369715283386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,johntravoltaboston,2019/08/10,"What works good for Latuda withdraws? I get bad headaches and body aches when I don’t take it. I take qualia every day and lions mane every other day with l tyrosine, but I take latuda every day and when I don’t take the medicine I feel really bad like I was in a ufc fight or something. My head starts to hurt and my body starts to heart even more I don’t know what to do I don’t know if I should take samE or 5htp I just want the pain to go away.",2.245367965367969,2.8351256868686896,3.2752092352092355,96.77090909090911,74.95959595959596,6.465223665223665,19.19336219336219,6.1826913282559595,-0.3710213564213567,349,5,88,2,7,112,58,99,0.207,0.723,0.07,-0.9421,0,0,1,0,1,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,4,7,1,0,3,0,7,5,4,0,0,16,20,10,0,3,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,1,1,13,2,8,18,2,10,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,3,8,49,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14016545825666912,0.0,0.2491286908391863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314247390417119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886385029600974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09853615714174103,0.0,0.3770877260615053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07543308577969972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07794369459673668,0.0,0.08478602347663236,0.1251304068541336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531082042502876,0.0,0.0,0.1767865071299322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597070407668194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16397779947826505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07288490010563221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15874476256163533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09557257652375672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485091747704865,0.0,0.0,0.21118968986053824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5608477296798645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879939566340176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10860941753060906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cfbuzzkill90,2019/08/10,"I'm sorry. I can't be part of this community. I've been struggling with this all day. I have been in this subreddit for months and I loved connecting with people going through similar experiences. But I've been emotionally abused my whole life as well and I suffer from PTSD. And I want to be there for others and support them but lately too many people have been calling my illness a ""gift"" and encouraging me to stop my meds and stop therapy. And that really ruins my day because for once I'm actually taking care of myself. I'm working on coping mechanisms so I can remain on lower doses of medication. I don't like my hallucinations and visions and delusions that people are telling me to embrace. But I'm finding ways to cope through them and comfort myself and verify what is real and what is not. I'm working through so much in therapy that I've had buried for so long. This is an illness I've been suffering from for 15 years and people telling me it makes me special and it's a gift and to get off my meds... it really triggers me. It ruins my day. It makes me depressed. It hurts so bad. And I don't deserve this additional suffering. I want to help and be supportive but it can't be at the cost of my own mental health. I want to be functional again. I want to be able to finish my degree. I want to be able to work again. And this was once a nice support system for me but it doesn't feel that way anymore. I'm sorry. I wish everyone the best of luck on their journeys. But this is my journey and I don't need this negative feedback eating away at me. Thank you for listening.",2.000110981308413,4.2378877289719625,3.945240459501559,84.64393545560748,79.80996884735202,7.003154205607477,24.984521028037385,8.07648339933343,1.641664252336449,1255,48,250,24,32,425,150,321,0.172,0.649,0.18,-0.2484,1,0,0,0,1,0,30.0,0,1,3,4,9,23,0,1,6,0,28,8,0,3,1,46,54,30,0,7,7,0,1,1,0,0,6,1,0,0,23,22,1,2,2,0,1,3,8,9,1,0,7,2,38,14,40,40,6,27,0,7,0,1,11,9,0,1,13,177,61,4,0.19214927398370954,0.11383273459444693,0.0937549867710496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09528022387084938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09026528403750303,0.0,0.08021830884793063,0.05856620697769396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082440418888404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09810294615705754,0.0,0.097954495452099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18588057841000344,0.0,0.08274894406153986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09830833870208656,0.0,0.10807103532322523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09180343283383474,0.0,0.09397943025549356,0.0,0.0,0.048578223182928516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878104776717523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050195032493835334,0.0,0.05460143024334938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10212284646977443,0.0,0.0,0.06439680400920927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284988596268588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837637524344526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06786035737191512,0.04693721471685693,0.0,0.0,0.08502303044527798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671111088941368,0.0,0.12826113244769138,0.09740460239919163,0.0,0.0,0.2134345264428372,0.09678508920484988,0.09682063709200847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07668585864139589,0.0,0.0706259126784271,0.07123812597215529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046327057187498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10403946945715048,0.0,0.2664242254608244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11230610934737807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935397031154742,0.12309574517732398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21509538073199805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16064539692532245,0.0,0.10043807062399117,0.0,0.0,0.3270730785671964,0.0,0.0,0.0722361703817751,0.0,0.16794693478384196,0.08845261770753657,0.21973944077564894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833365505290388,0.1525191498757603,0.0,0.0,0.08638263675573579,0.0,0.0,0.10726390117831903,0.11048109111271696,0.0,0.0,0.2098304399204229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061868916292049186 schizophrenia,Clownfish_Jesus,2019/08/10,"Just an observation Everytime I start a new antidepressant, I have really bad mood swings where I get really angry and then really sad. Also on another note, this geodon sure does make me light-headed.",8.765,9.014787722222227,9.457777777777778,59.315,60.66666666666667,14.977777777777774,29.11111111111111,13.816669648895859,4.9765444444444435,162,4,26,7,2,55,32,36,0.26899999999999996,0.674,0.057,-0.8583,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,4,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24123385356381974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163121712007889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518698041503669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26398082565161435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15760258705416155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095856465863831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013574380565969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913408331296352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5797448551613763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213513367908662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28430680857287893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CookieMonstersSlave,2019/08/10,Event specific Hallucinations I just went whale watching and hallucinated animals. I dont know if this is a popular opinion here but I think that's really cool. My brain was able to read the situation and hallucinate accordingly. It wasnt harmful in anyway so I think it was cool how my brain can do that. Do any of you have event specific hallucination stories and what are your thoughts on it?,3.562567567567569,6.426953837837843,5.558040540540541,71.68949324324326,78.18918918918921,9.645945945945947,29.52027027027027,9.827888789773867,3.6140324324324316,320,15,58,11,8,110,55,74,0.0,0.879,0.121,0.8262,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,2,10,2,2,1,0,12,15,7,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,4,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,5,3,8,3,4,10,0,5,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,2,2,41,15,1,0.2679402577988841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18220856336618446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5982198817341768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140239866253792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14725295844316402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680127662379115,0.0,0.1716493901483811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011760760226715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3433705964882003,0.0,0.21271463547508696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483833033581394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ETRIX000,2019/04/27,Hi everyone! Quick question : How to tell your friends about your condition? Hello guys I'm new to this subreddit and wanted to ask you about what you said to your friends when you came out a a schizophrenic person? To me it seems weird to tell them everything I've went through in the last two years and that they would reject me. So do you have any advice? (Sorry for bad English I'm French),3.0935064935064918,5.25793237662338,3.2584415584415574,91.29337662337663,75.88311688311687,6.997402597402598,23.98701298701299,7.957251820313856,1.1871870129870137,311,10,64,5,7,95,58,77,0.107,0.818,0.076,-0.3678,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,7,2,0,6,5,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,1,0,9,11,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,2,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,3,1,11,2,12,7,0,9,0,1,0,0,20,2,0,2,5,40,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20775595960152385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14457925714479744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987577543698272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17751699017548053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431644343475181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031539846512188,0.19107641398235012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3285174786868713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21051320071548735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17330213018550228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20533603854122195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18563921296626448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23816719032150455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20223683362488865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19354836563414046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379948239782565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3716537384070575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20768500620650596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12540042885213584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970877373887208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15102908395023545,0.0,0.0,0.13691118602865734 schizophrenia,CautiousRain,2019/04/27,"Are aggressive feelings normal for schizophrenia? I've had schizophrenia for four years, and I'm on a low dose of Latuda. I normally get symptoms that don't scare me or cause issues in my life. This morning I was in public and heard a racial slur directed at me. I automatically turned and said, ""What the fuck is your problem?"" There was someone there who wasn't even looking at me. It was a hallucination. That reaction is understandable, but it's not me at all. The way I'd normally respond would be to just ignore it. I've had people actually say mean things like that while I was babysitting, and I told my nephew to ignore it because they want to pick a fight. After I got home, I was thinking about how I was pissed at my mom and she needed to be slapped because she was being the B word. It's extremely sexist and inappropriate to think that even if she is being that way. I'm scared I'm becoming an aggressive person. I don't know if it's schizophrenia, my meds, or another factor entirely.",4.159608843537413,5.724260505102045,5.3396734693877566,80.05294557823132,71.5,8.287891156462585,28.37278911564625,8.841846274778883,2.2232160544217683,793,30,153,15,15,263,115,196,0.141,0.825,0.034,-0.9657,0,0,0,0,1,0,23.0,0,1,1,0,7,12,5,2,8,0,21,5,1,3,1,33,40,13,0,9,7,2,1,1,0,1,3,3,1,1,15,6,0,2,6,0,0,0,4,11,0,1,14,5,22,1,17,21,1,13,0,1,1,1,16,8,2,4,4,104,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.1455402500356432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15638750124877784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18183012340426968,0.16471468445341556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15320904545501124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19701264802013016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07541024741004873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787859137246367,0.07792009610688619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11928180319194752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14960073522325373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556646141226426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08196407650964158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053428059622568,0.07286283323307383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524100513678507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16245843625646386,0.16566219789773146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746723141605587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11058627410803118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4383799885403711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10339569585725318,0.1302243008844507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427079400736161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418673880968891,0.11860302979403115,0.2986326211564091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263668137205582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15501476157958238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908275406879254,0.1911272557052429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425107616024157,0.0,0.0,0.16222274591838065,0.0,0.15526119850085945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08796731529371066,0.23676260829035994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10594559498704914,0.0,0.0,0.09604201180858757 schizophrenia,MoonKatUltra,2019/04/27,"My thoughts on The Truman Show What if we are all starring in our own show/movie? Maybe we are godlike aliens that chose to experience this life in order to grow spiritually (or maybe we just got bored). What if it's more like the Zoo Hypothesis whereby we are the property of curious aliens? What if I am saying all of this in order to divert your attention away from the possibility everything is set up for you, it's all fake, and I'm an actor? What if I just said that to use reverse psychology on you? Orrr maybe I'm on the Truman show and I'm onto you bastards! Nah, just joking. Or am I? Anyway, yeah, sometimes I think the moon is a giant observatory. I keep my thoughts to myself nowadays, don't want people knowing I'm a **luna**tic.",1.2346921921921918,3.762588520270272,3.562612612612611,84.16512012012012,86.09459459459455,5.991591591591593,22.41141141141141,7.3871296695380915,1.1066474474474468,583,21,115,10,18,200,88,148,0.075,0.862,0.063,-0.4178,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,5,4,0,0,4,5,1,0,9,1,8,1,0,1,3,26,21,8,0,5,9,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,10,6,0,1,5,4,0,1,1,3,0,0,4,2,17,2,18,17,5,14,0,0,0,0,11,10,1,6,1,79,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19810328448346512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18950103281285016,0.20625464159358145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686383634331126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18741578732788045,0.0,0.0,0.11587926534485435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489316720702139,0.10301209927009956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6354903772224866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14617888453057976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377050164119245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005694373574384,0.16767872640631187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085389559971941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13510605451582436,0.0,0.33478737469937564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18210924695265396,0.0,0.0,0.12436653110335807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Orangejuice____,2019/04/27,"I can't sleep I feel drunk even though I haven't drank anything Anyone around to talk",-0.11333333333333327,2.134069888888888,-0.13888888888888928,106.745,100.11111111111113,2.4000000000000004,11.555555555555555,3.1291,-2.0579111111111112,70,1,16,0,3,20,15,18,0.0,0.855,0.145,0.2584,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047812886601041,0.0,0.3586966410271003,0.3880305236470432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28789827335659496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22039681452866272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4362003087806306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35034826789473056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42825530780542304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Appius246,2019/04/27,"Psychiatrist note to vape? I recently moved into a third floor apartment and I vape a lot. Nicotine being a good mood stabalizers helps maintain my mood. So is it possible I can get a note from a psychiatrist to give to my landlord so I can vape inside?",4.01561224489796,5.9032966326530625,5.803826530612245,75.27063775510206,72.46938775510203,8.981632653061224,30.617346938775512,9.516144504307137,3.0607510204081643,201,9,37,5,4,69,32,49,0.0,0.866,0.134,0.7059,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,1,5,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058100071587385,0.37788958716793997,0.0,0.33040632810217496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640402054877236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3349016857572993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41868085563519997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4440922273309164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3889542707377875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ManyEvent,2019/04/27,"Do schizophrenics love to kill people? I was watching a movie where a paranoid schizophrenic girl was talking about her voices love the taste of human flesh and she can't get enough of it. What's everyone's kill count?",3.1182926829268283,6.11814912195122,2.573853658536585,91.21443902439024,82.17073170731706,5.231219512195122,22.83414634146341,6.742157984588678,0.7857960975609752,178,6,32,2,5,52,35,41,0.23399999999999999,0.598,0.16699999999999998,-0.5204,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,3,0,4,6,1,0,0,1,7,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,3,3,2,4,5,1,1,0,0,1,2,7,1,0,0,0,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30423534094569904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813501416836003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15383280415575695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.651508710382443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5314873873711516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20412769780903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23665980606817846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,radroach69,2019/04/27,"I'm losing weight I don't know why but I keep forgetting to eat/ignoring it. I use nicotine a lot to help keep the hunger away and also to quell the hallucinations. Sometimes I'm hungry and go to see what there is to eat and just don't eat anything because I've got an excuse for everything. ""No I don't want that. I'll eat something else"" and then I just never eat anything else lol. I'm at a fairly healthy weight right now. I never seem to go too far below or over my ideal range. But I still spend a lot of time ignoring my bodily requirements. Anyone else have this problem? Sometimes the same thing will happen for drinking water or hygeine. Always something I will ignore and not deal with. I don't even know why. I can feel myself getting weaker.",1.2913669590643266,3.789327624999999,2.841491228070176,89.73099415204678,85.25,5.219883040935674,20.944444444444443,6.691623216298621,0.5107269005847952,597,19,118,7,18,195,94,152,0.149,0.743,0.10800000000000001,-0.662,0,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,3,8,5,0,0,7,1,9,9,0,1,2,32,26,11,0,3,7,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,6,9,5,4,1,1,2,8,4,0,0,1,5,13,1,14,23,3,14,0,1,1,0,3,6,0,5,6,73,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09041373626741424,0.09407465981759104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07905391419738199,0.1158429401774379,0.1860768658555604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062232335111063,0.0,0.0,0.06892009420882847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11655950250050702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075538412903976,0.0,0.5784410767323355,0.2833404119177549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07467481189400818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161069520659724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057166340301670615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05906898443342816,0.0,0.12850877359162685,0.0,0.09042410530745884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997824747589207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07578147925394163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20098516784217085,0.0,0.0,0.12426921940155213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12648479385127898,0.0,0.1922384896227999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743970957695027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10818278610914163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09655229666561684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09009387826591833,0.1029252306880864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17407763621461084,0.22363770774230834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028955757916723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07511178694751973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06592597289475301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09764721021169168,0.0,0.0,0.06668549241272627,0.0,0.0,0.2753523143988254,0.0,0.0,0.2040374412470236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tbb95,2019/04/27,How was your diagnosis? How many episodes did you had before the schiz diagnosis? Did it took years? Fellow drug induced psychosis.. curious to know the progression of psychosys to schizo diagnosis,6.267187499999999,10.083786343750004,5.967500000000001,66.5275,76.1875,9.45,36.125,9.516144504307137,4.885725000000001,161,9,22,5,4,50,26,32,0.0,0.9159999999999999,0.084,0.4291,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,3,0,4,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,2,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3787343267609674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5161569866161657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24460692994263264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4512460616631676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4945055164827701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866199761458815 schizophrenia,cjbeames,2019/04/27,"I was wondering if we could make something together I think this sub has a bit of a thing with eyes. Eyes come up a lot in the art and I know they are a consistent part of my thoughts. When these selfies wagons come by it's really helpful for me not just to see the different people, but also the eyes. I was wondering if we could all post to this part the best pictures of out eyes we can take and then me or someone who may be better suited can turn them into a video that cycles through all of them, or a collage perhaps? What do people think?",4.481074589127687,4.636941734513275,5.325183312262959,85.63584070796462,69.70796460176993,8.581036662452593,28.532237673830593,8.418075326091056,1.7961211125158028,428,14,92,6,7,140,78,113,0.0,0.8909999999999999,0.109,0.9195,1,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,3,0,3,2,3,2,0,0,10,0,11,4,4,1,2,30,23,10,0,4,7,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,10,0,0,6,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,5,13,2,14,16,7,9,0,0,5,0,8,4,0,8,2,74,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429467878686321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18758772355350187,0.15809037706488052,0.1951493559642379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079556233734294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28543561332908285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867563287770824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11981275729215192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09823665339885086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519673654179058,0.0,0.0,0.11931741154245905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3871389549422729,0.0,0.24784631437083696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17119366073139228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11451220963169345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424410829196331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15145480080073082,0.13761094256211595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343982031845624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875395397292833,0.22907232989541296,0.0,0.14190800741089696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944293200487558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3876947949904856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,korba___,2019/04/27,"About posting selfies It's nice to see people with this condition showing others how beautiful they are. You really are pretty, especially the girls. But think about it: what if it's just a bunch of 4chantards trolling this sub to get schizos to post their pictures?",4.565000000000001,7.576517166666665,4.133166666666663,82.52850000000002,75.25,7.173333333333334,30.43333333333333,8.238735603445708,2.5922033333333334,216,10,36,4,5,65,40,48,0.0,0.805,0.195,0.8801,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,6,5,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,7,5,1,2,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987019632309543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26366661211870857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7284845474636923,0.3869230639457753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436432951319985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030665019593196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24369426395137694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ForPeace27,2019/04/27,"Is it rude to ask someone if they are schizophrenic? My neighbor has been spending a lot of time at my place. I can tell there is definitely something different about him. He seems to make non existent connections between various subjects, seems to experience thought blocking, is always talking to himself (sometimes argues with himself) and a few other things. If he is schizophrenic it doesn't change anything, but I would like to know. I'm very shy though and tend to avoid uncomfortable situations and conversations as much as possible. Do you think it's ok for me to just ask him if he is? Is there a nice way to bring it up?",6.211987179487183,7.554978179487178,6.35135683760684,75.57524038461544,66.35042735042735,9.952564102564104,35.992521367521356,10.125756701596842,3.810898290598291,505,25,90,12,8,161,84,117,0.121,0.7859999999999999,0.092,-0.3978,1,1,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,0,5,6,2,1,3,1,13,2,0,1,0,19,24,10,0,4,5,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,0,6,4,0,2,5,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,11,3,17,21,4,6,0,0,0,0,16,3,0,6,2,65,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646952611934231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16288115249928642,0.0,0.3700793600243143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093857872411457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20679678870469406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19361545406180028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087782384083327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09669956622522984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682746890674163,0.0,0.0,0.13212113187869026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455027777311237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20679678870469406,0.0,0.0,0.2231385646876743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603796768319111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22248383561764146,0.0,0.0,0.16770712213391786,0.15237770628078348,0.19575978675200406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15909022590069655,0.1730012724489801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13149721076868925,0.12682681897227047,0.1944671628358344,0.15713588083584454,0.1154157277462894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16331461046512835,0.0,0.15710919068159024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14060519779611294,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Glotov,2019/04/27,"You're all beautiful! I'm seeing a lot of selfies in this sub (I would participate, but I already have my photo in my profile pic) , just want to say.. you're all killin' it. Keep doing what you're doing! You're all wonderful. I'm glad I found this sub over a year ago, it's filled with love and kindness.. These selfies have put a huge smile on my face. Just keep fighting your battles. Sometimes it's tough. We're all in this together!",0.5557916241062344,2.9386275617977566,2.1497242083758934,94.06092951991829,87.98876404494379,5.034116445352401,21.574055158324818,6.574015621080383,0.4140921348314608,339,12,73,4,11,110,57,89,0.085,0.655,0.26,0.9608,0,0,0,0,2,0,17.0,0,1,0,0,2,6,2,0,3,0,5,2,1,0,4,16,14,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,8,2,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,2,7,3,8,12,5,10,0,0,1,1,4,6,0,2,2,40,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313028425221903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879478987194731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28610139924666583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4638614507762479,0.0,0.2717233068163035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218373267262473,0.2355037287355568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26231141565002336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20750572404839948,0.0,0.0,0.20793114998070472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580710623459636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15390602992448946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829725206785618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853605041600084,0.0,0.0,0.16803337346453576 schizophrenia,TogamiPro,2019/04/27,"You ARE normal! I lurk this sub pretty frequently, however I never really post anymore... but I just wanted to pipe up and say that I’m loving all of the selfies everybody is posting. The thought that there are so many average people that suffer with this just makes me think that maybe I’m not some freak to everyone else, and that I’m pretty normal too. It’s so awesome to see such a variety of people and knowing that any random person I see on the street could be schizophrenic too makes me feel a bit less alone. Keep on being awesome everybody and spread the love around!! 💪🏻😃🤙🏻",5.646373626373628,5.797655444444448,6.46019536019536,78.51615384615386,67.2051282051282,9.762637362637363,29.534798534798536,9.606745405546679,2.5834747252747263,465,15,89,9,7,154,79,117,0.06,0.677,0.264,0.9873,1,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,9,4,0,0,6,0,6,3,0,2,2,25,21,7,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,9,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,4,7,2,10,17,4,9,0,1,2,2,5,5,0,2,2,56,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17487233782762526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11482028410873332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674487156529751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15030770867600785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843348396218888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13480886920024998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410482017747932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16133848448337776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537302653393154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500770556289651,0.0,0.0,0.09279271079217248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047781283754364,0.0,0.2254104894387524,0.1711821709460047,0.16962734046027594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302235529334318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308641966574829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341115110766585,0.147428805455549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32341337576320983,0.3435518150852315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10816633082342618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13427219717967973,0.0,0.0,0.26909496109605835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10818895861696176,0.0,0.134043946278476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995890638291148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Anniebee15,2019/04/27,"rejection values and sense of self my therapist wanted me to pick out values today and many of the words made me nervous because I felt like if I didn't do things on the list like cleanliness or empathy I was rejected or shamed by loved ones. my mom would say that the kids would stress her out, shame on us, we don't deserve this. I have no idea what my own values really are because alot come with anxiety to keep from getting rejected by others or I feel like if I am myself people reject me. I was always very smart in elementary school, I had a photographic memory or I would remember just if I heard something. I just assumed it was the same for others but I got made fun of alot when I was a little kid. anyone else have this problem. my mom is the same hasn't changed, she thinks it's pathetic it's taken me so long to get through school, despite my disability, doesn't like that I don't make 100,000 a year just ridiculous critical bullshit. I don't have relationship with people for fear of this rejection, being used emotionally like my mom will do to me, and trust issues.",6.412147286821708,6.121913218604658,6.9844767441860505,76.89888565891475,65.65116279069767,10.515503875968994,31.87015503875969,10.125756701596842,2.980062015503876,862,30,169,18,12,284,127,215,0.204,0.6679999999999999,0.128,-0.9595,0,2,1,0,0,0,17.0,2,0,0,0,5,21,1,5,10,0,24,1,0,5,0,42,40,13,0,8,11,3,2,5,0,4,0,2,0,3,12,9,0,1,6,0,0,1,7,12,0,1,12,4,31,9,21,23,5,11,0,5,0,1,14,6,0,10,9,119,43,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10159540541538578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934047170288983,0.0,0.0,0.08537383476197627,0.12510393866591882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14885974450482595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12916360670511756,0.10517670716710742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10199730042486957,0.13734393549435878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739431474427732,0.061736471121165024,0.08722691144986347,0.1172333294707494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12758244212895029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765300938475464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13783390004231208,0.0,0.12743870076587527,0.0,0.10852640684004113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.298254836324838,0.12237437871369215,0.0,0.10805298176413053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11019830785391248,0.2310643605485036,0.0815014339810963,0.12378831560886536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4289994788189793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08273683666998527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16929490647695378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11683139790284976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07821917331826975,0.0,0.0,0.13108767209443992,0.13831335269627235,0.0,0.0,0.09709731469182496,0.0,0.2471396039176871,0.0,0.0,0.12737495335107624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09399708730952233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13986296810037166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417653119832803,0.08111655637345631,0.07823553633336783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11573472809984425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468689881887459,0.1054535613349428,0.0,0.1007437247449054,0.07201662647658827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602049743889725,0.0,0.0,0.07862717723492517 schizophrenia,SilenceintheAbyss,2019/04/27,"Here's my schizoselfie! I didn't know this was going on until now but here you go. http://imgur.com/fOFZkWq",3.007631578947368,5.512754894736844,1.7888157894736842,90.69796052631581,105.31578947368419,4.0052631578947375,15.276315789473689,5.985473137389443,-0.2786947368421049,89,2,15,1,4,25,18,19,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,2,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9002884593568868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4352937972781178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HalseyPlzHoldMeDown,2019/04/27,"You’re all beautiful Hey, I’ve been quietly lurking on this sub for a few years now since my brother was diagnosed, and I just wanted to say thank you all so much for letting me learn from you and helping me understand what my brother is dealing with a little better. There’s really no point to this except to say thank you— I started seeing everyone’s selfies and just wanted to let everyone know that you are all beautiful people who each offer unique experiences and insights that have helped me be a better sister. The world (and this sub) is lucky to have you.",11.769587155963302,7.5498692385321124,10.95126146788991,65.08267201834865,58.449541284403665,14.202752293577984,42.846330275229356,11.698219412168324,4.871750458715597,453,17,81,9,4,147,71,109,0.034,0.769,0.19699999999999998,0.9585,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,4,0,2,5,5,0,0,4,0,10,1,0,0,3,20,18,6,0,2,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,7,7,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,11,5,11,13,6,7,0,0,1,0,15,4,0,1,3,60,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3225536516359848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879984209229168,0.0,0.1850849339992905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3484931112080761,0.0,0.17837668499052406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444553747967795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002166984056648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729375567274054,0.0,0.0,0.18276608336938727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13405078264210518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264209359688362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17238297142852702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11682030259959902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900295976730325,0.0,0.0,0.1453121065675487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508446751474031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12907072495472044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357731512632193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898363937820048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21511360297724602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11742965627828812 schizophrenia,bklove1,2019/04/27,Slow night at work.. looking for someone to chat with. If anyone wants to chat please message me! I’m a good listener :),1.2433333333333323,3.8593895652173984,2.27826086956522,92.38376811594203,88.13043478260867,4.8057971014492775,25.057971014492754,6.42735559955562,0.9446927536231886,92,4,18,1,3,29,21,23,0.0,0.691,0.309,0.8172,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,5,4,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,2,8,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960312419438512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3551039817742152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3555254855264669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3973055335300735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46473484198730497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3587213529096666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497155180613484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082195414601057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Meeka1631,2019/04/27,"Doc put me on a dangerous med So I’m running out of options to control my hallucinations so the doctor gave me a new antipsychotic called trifluoperazine. I asked her the side affects and she said drowsiness dry mouth that sort of thing. She completely forgot to tell me that it could slow your heart down till it stops, can mess with your ability to pee and poop causing your skin to yellow, and can cause your mouth and throat to swell up causing you not to be able to breath. Now this isn’t my first rodeo, I’m used to drugs with some extreme side effects and I take that with the good the medication can do. But this is by far the most dangerous med I have been given and I’m not taking it. She also stopped what I was taking (invega) cause I was still hallucinating on it so what was the point to take it. I’ve been taking it for 4 years and she cold turkey stopped me from taking it. I’ve never been on a med and gone cold turkey usually she levels me down. I know what it feels like to skip a dose and it sucks. So now I have no antipsychotic for the first time in 5 years and am looking at withdrawal symptoms on top of that. Man I hope I don’t end up in the hospital",3.314784205693297,4.4974232148760365,4.427713498622591,87.26409550045915,73.04958677685951,7.691827364554638,24.18824609733701,8.167268648758528,1.1292747474747475,926,26,204,14,18,303,129,242,0.08,0.8640000000000001,0.057,-0.6771,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,5,0,5,8,7,3,0,12,0,18,13,8,8,1,38,39,17,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,0,5,1,0,1,19,14,0,5,3,0,0,3,6,4,0,2,11,7,27,3,33,26,2,38,0,0,2,0,17,18,1,5,18,136,46,1,0.108726487184131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08694853251935168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164458852025962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102189976502444,0.0,0.0,0.4467682097095739,0.0,0.0,0.11399765320457715,0.0,0.12194600057786112,0.08680925286174583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11128616676869772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260882067584746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09629939591399922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05497537878570721,0.07767422416892256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18496538891174025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119461895680432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12884141081082048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10798993442601702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05975323391311123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053118269651165166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09130286576914193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3623118498887321,0.1095304972314206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08385656969172367,0.10500871884005893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278167389541247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093001500773178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10342378742714654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08682911311297609,0.2727006352072637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11300845081272128,0.4904927231050982,0.0,0.09503174211284084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07223304687549786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06339928903231537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390477578986196,0.1197468648709121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14003258601734522 schizophrenia,emerson1107,2019/04/27,"People romanticizing schizophrenia has not been a problem for me? After spending time around mental health professionals, I found it sort of a relief to think about some people's (usually teenagers' or artists') naive, romanticized ideas of schizophrenia. It seemed much less depressing than what the psychiatrists and psych nurses were telling me. I understand not wanting people to romanticize suicide or drug abuse or something like that, but schizophrenia is a way of living that is not a choice and that has stories to go along with it. Sometimes I also feel like ""beggars can't be choosers"" when it comes to accepting people's ally behavior towards me as a person with schizophrenia. Since I think socializing is so important for recovery, I try not to get too touchy about whether someone is completely forward-thinking about schizophrenia, because I feel like that would limit my social interactions. I also don't quite understand what people mean by saying that schizophrenia is romanticized. Can someone explain it to me? Is it a matter of encouraging delusions?",11.617126008690255,11.552400793296096,9.635940409683428,61.40196772191186,55.033519553072615,11.977901924270641,45.028553693358155,11.20814326018867,5.4463998758535075,878,45,121,18,9,265,112,179,0.046,0.7809999999999999,0.17300000000000001,0.9651,0,0,2,0,1,1,19.0,0,0,0,2,9,12,0,0,7,0,15,2,0,0,0,35,29,12,1,3,9,0,2,3,0,1,2,1,0,1,13,7,0,1,12,1,2,2,6,2,0,0,3,3,12,10,24,24,3,9,0,1,0,0,8,2,0,6,7,90,25,2,0.0,0.1516437274795611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204702397755158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11393561070292535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07801971868705544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11024951215528248,0.13419198848608646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023505995174204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484243465889625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12942819768036518,0.1828679503890567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14033119592645515,0.0,0.0,0.06686795195987676,0.0,0.07273799085400043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360442508446511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444818025533058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18758402552300416,0.0,0.11301491134294744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13941541981894298,0.0,0.0,0.1289808450784091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09408520926216192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4436505323323017,0.11175335671564232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12246632329669578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13612998355234454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10178044041018873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11651460486622695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587221161712554,0.0,0.0,0.2609333625149406,0.21688602687547814,0.09853068515852204,0.12658246659533556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399970612477473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118663243052362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246026804212164,0.0,0.0,0.07463027899866395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08689480670621459,0.0,0.0,0.26647806872175683,0.0,0.0,0.14095965539891653,0.0,0.07549007902955265,0.10159016420704703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09091832928743628,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Archy177,2019/05/30,Do any of you think or feel separated from God? Like do you feel separated from God or believe your separated from god,3.7743478260869563,5.912730130434787,5.8254347826086965,73.77989130434786,73.78260869565217,9.817391304347826,28.89130434782609,10.125756701596842,3.126060869565218,95,4,19,3,2,33,13,23,0.0,0.6829999999999999,0.317,0.7783,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3685996319830341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6106832652758657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5481342674937949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648089423746637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3473115455199142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cynicaldolphin62,2019/05/30,"Ambien abuse I've been worrying that I might be going through prodromal schizophrenia for a couple months now, I abused Ambien for 6-8 months, on and off, but never went above 40mg. I was wondering if it's possible for Ambien abuse to trigger schizophrenia?",6.98,7.829345333333332,7.366666666666667,70.74500000000002,64.41666666666666,12.233333333333334,32.66666666666667,11.855464076750405,4.399366666666666,208,8,35,7,3,68,38,48,0.254,0.746,0.0,-0.9052,0,0,0,0,3,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,1,7,7,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,7,2,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,4,22,5,0,0.0,0.7446037325910081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23178722191382545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190531262348878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222266970076374,0.0,0.0,0.33441216351203146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16156499573813712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23615884125687614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19419138768201305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22717367889476664,0.0,0.2127385643245825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Rickylikesmusic,2019/05/30,"I feel low all of a sudden I woke up today and I just dont feel good. Everything kind of hurt. I didnt really get out of bed. I just lay there all day today. I'm not at home. I feel bad signs. All books I seem to read have negative messages. I feel too guilty of these feelings to read the bible or other religious things. I feel ashamed of myself. Every thing has negativity. I also feel like things are changing in ways I dont like. It feels like an emptiness and sadness. I feel really tired but I can't seem to sleep for some reason. I'm scared of vibes. I feel like everything is sort of a sign of what I am doing wrong in my life and what I need to change. I feel the presence of demons and temptation. I feel helpless.",-0.10289989680082456,2.122842679738561,1.9727485380116967,95.26157894736843,89.52287581699345,5.3125558995528035,17.20295837633299,6.8360192770164,-0.08709673202614354,562,14,129,8,19,187,91,153,0.226,0.718,0.055999999999999994,-0.9712,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,5,14,0,2,5,0,10,3,1,1,3,33,29,7,0,1,5,0,12,4,0,0,2,0,2,0,8,5,0,0,15,3,0,0,7,8,0,0,2,12,20,6,19,27,4,11,1,4,0,0,1,6,0,5,8,80,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848224977887313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856230412926126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22441164471048689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0684050501408461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486216846208919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08936681885542093,0.0,0.19065406044013566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6435736834703857,0.2273248846267812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05541612379194243,0.0,0.0,0.08896476042406015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10639479770565602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354792953257575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045344318502076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07491892679119898,0.2072777621186141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07864803769304833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21219329821917987,0.0,0.13589968397461968,0.10905551368581352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10619251726547403,0.0,0.0,0.19312054811280605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10614454661895056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114004899682438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12190950026177105,0.2010800204913913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08419179817440088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11596864770728385,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,warriorsrocketsdeer,2019/05/30,I just remembered something from my involuntary hospital stay. I had to be restrained by five nurses. I was trying to escape the hospital through the visiting room. I am laughing at myself so hard right now. I have come a long way. They strapped me to a chair and injected me with something to calm me down. I have so much respect and sorrow for those nurses. It’s hard to imagine what they were thinking of me. I’m so grateful for that hospital and its staff. I want to thank this community as well. The human experience should be a shared one and I appreciate all of you.,2.879778869778871,5.316243513513513,4.291400491400491,82.26840294840295,77.82882882882883,7.63996723996724,28.108927108927112,8.575989854853784,2.358866666666668,454,20,86,10,11,150,76,111,0.061,0.723,0.21600000000000005,0.9461,0,1,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,2,0,6,7,0,0,6,0,9,0,0,0,1,14,14,8,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,6,6,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,2,3,2,17,6,17,8,2,10,0,1,0,0,6,4,0,0,2,69,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172879619969965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467454085381536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4519265058567672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22323015073977487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18543014817010756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17092870756579218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857460300272998,0.21541707096366552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3883832473037777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26886112942178586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23223462020551502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16162932557500595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17125876648526864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14878147850868073,0.20022147316532865,0.0,0.0,0.2267998320371921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chac-mol,2019/05/30,"http://geneticgenie.org says homozygous MTHFR C677T can cause schizophrenia I got one of those AncestryDNA kits for the holidays and then uploaded my DNA raw data file after receiving my results onto http://geneticgenie.org for free and found out I have homozygous MTHFR C677T. Homozygous MTHFR C677T is very common in Mexicans, Chinese, and Italians. I should be eating more folate rich foods like kale, broccoli, spinach, beans, liver, etc... and avoid wheat, especially bread products that contain the artificial form of folate i.e. folic acid.",14.020116279069764,13.658076011627907,11.592674418604656,50.242732558139544,50.511627906976734,14.181395348837205,44.75581395348837,13.023866798666859,6.306776744186047,451,20,56,12,4,137,69,86,0.024,0.84,0.136,0.8773,0,1,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,2,0,5,4,1,2,0,11,7,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,5,3,2,1,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,2,2,5,4,8,3,3,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3490572035885124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3476892756364161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789548813822559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4108745623329031,0.3725614218870701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717605382731966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16600388533418012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302500190226292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702140842538317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28036175266705565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ohgodohfuck1,2019/05/30,"thank you i have been going through a very hard time with a depressive episode, psychosis, suicide attempts, self harm, anxiety disorder, being abused at the hospital, ruining my chance at a life, and not graduating. i found this sub after getting out of the hospital and it has been one of the most helpful things for me to just read and take in. now i am finally, medicated and seeing a therapist. and i will be going to school again. i never contributed to this sub but i finally feel like i can and should put in a positive post for others like me. so thank you r/schizophrenia. my path to a better life will begin now.",5.401617647058824,6.421286336134457,6.275115546218487,76.56712710084034,67.99159663865547,10.319747899159664,32.52205882352941,10.411451182825502,3.514200840336136,490,21,91,13,8,162,80,119,0.11699999999999999,0.696,0.18600000000000005,0.9153,0,0,0,0,1,1,16.0,0,2,0,2,5,8,0,0,9,0,11,3,0,0,1,16,21,8,1,1,3,0,2,2,0,3,3,0,0,1,5,8,0,0,2,1,0,3,2,3,0,1,3,3,13,5,16,13,1,18,0,2,1,0,4,5,0,1,11,70,18,3,0.0,0.20603752027411626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330294448911511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537962803163169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14977578550215154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19929910389739344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08792669946472009,0.12423085234715575,0.0,0.3809876492938232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19066724424645268,0.0,0.0,0.09085312816172154,0.0,0.19765743713071876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557760514436393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11655836837186027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24565481638718026,0.16991294047866487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17518124158504758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13411879216271042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178359702203553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16654364878525285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17481282820730082,0.0,0.0,0.1739423799339124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17599134907510697,0.1385720568449084,0.0,0.18141074537046645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902132572482247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13074764014573326,0.0,0.0,0.320198896725868,0.0,0.2019058711148591,0.11552832457598565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10139976033181244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14348185193832672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fightingwiththwolves,2019/05/30,"Anyone have days that feel wrong, but you can’t tell what changed? I don’t know if this is a dissociative symptom, or related to my psychosis, or just generally a mental illness thing but I have days where I wake up and I feel like I’ve changed somehow or my reality has changed and it makes me insanely agitated. Just wondered if anyone could relate?",3.700049019607846,5.886173220588237,4.968235294117652,79.62872549019609,74.14705882352942,8.062745098039215,31.92156862745098,8.841846274778883,2.848903921568628,281,14,53,6,6,93,49,68,0.146,0.8059999999999999,0.048,-0.7724,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,7,3,1,1,0,19,12,9,0,3,9,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,8,1,2,11,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,7,3,37,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946840826727671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6687492554842317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682447351131893,0.0,0.0,0.27179710400541823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21309521131990866,0.15054016524293404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11580755138946668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10294834839051413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14065887620132536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123586740045721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190213168038525,0.0,0.0,0.18418071521227786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13999463694661174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285195155824324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303919267463785,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ThePartyStarter,2019/05/30,Im.off my meds and loving life?! come closer dark princeess,3.677999999999997,6.505024800000001,0.5200000000000031,100.24000000000002,101.0,2.0,15.0,3.1291,-1.358,48,1,8,0,2,12,10,10,0.0,0.682,0.318,0.636,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4080686591628384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5116999255220048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3346031222007102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4275516598605116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5261971915488299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheGothicRosesComp,2019/05/30,"Mildly infuriating and extremely confusing (Also posted on r/psychosis with less info. I am on mobile, so sorry) So I was diagnosed with psychosis and take antipsychotics. I thought I just had psychosis and that it was normal but I did a research paper and found out psychosis is just an episode, not a permanent condition. My research also lead me to the fact that if it lasts for more that 6 months than it's usually classified as a schizo disorder. As far as I know my entire life has been filled with delusions and paranoia. The first thing that comes up in Google for my antipsychotic is ""it can treat schizophrenia"" and if I miss even two doses it all comes flooding back. The hallucinations, paranoia, feeling like I'm being watched, touched, and hearing that goddamn children's laughter when I'm trying to sleep. My mom is diagnosed with schizophrenia and has been since she was a kid. But nobody will say if I have schizophrenia or not but all of the signs point to it so I don't know where to put myself. I don't know if I belong here or somewhere else. I don't was to self diagnose but I don't even know if I was already diagnosed in the first place. What if I have schizophrenia but nobody wants to tell me? I just want to know if I fit here or somewhere else.",5.181391678622667,6.343201902439027,5.4031229076996645,82.09857245337159,68.59349593495935,8.227259684361549,31.137254901960787,8.4952907291091,2.333831946437112,1012,41,192,15,17,320,130,246,0.077,0.8490000000000001,0.07400000000000001,0.0396,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,3,15,4,0,1,10,0,24,7,1,1,3,53,41,32,0,10,20,1,2,1,0,1,6,2,0,3,13,15,0,0,9,0,0,5,6,2,0,3,11,5,25,2,24,28,4,24,0,1,1,0,8,11,0,11,8,143,38,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13934612041602326,0.20196199565155445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709664777175434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21754714882356685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5126604149787933,0.0,0.0,0.1447205506787602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21097087456708796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16680511897453568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06384775504284926,0.09020992574170457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21481661615603934,0.0,0.13845254717228656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423195886503412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469834975374714,0.10292988391871047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919081824558922,0.06169093044738318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789018084835048,0.1007904282408388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12372137335578677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13192909551433882,0.0,0.11936942105207345,0.0,0.1209352580765269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12693990223306242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10041788024448227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13173096343962845,0.0,0.0,0.10445487388874314,0.0,0.12636485025521524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14135302075695533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094942075061113,0.0,0.11036874189384142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08389060675475447,0.0,0.0,0.10024717869833792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08573152423516728,0.0,0.12335101454096625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390725933008924,0.0,0.1489589489903066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,psycho-potato,2019/05/30,"Anyone had any success with therapy? I'm medicated and doing well and going to start therapy soon. I'm just wondering if those of you who've been through therapy can give me an idea of what to expect. What did your therapist make of your psychotic symptoms? What coping mechanisms did they suggest? Did therapy help you? If so, how?",3.2059907834101367,6.085154161290326,4.802995391705071,76.40306451612905,79.96774193548387,9.349308755760367,29.82488479262673,9.606745405546679,3.7609142857142857,266,13,45,9,7,89,46,62,0.0,0.855,0.145,0.8577,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,4,1,1,5,2,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,2,0,11,14,6,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,6,2,7,9,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,3,2,34,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217121704139645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514660006262887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17169340702413824,0.10171815182392857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996615945756058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20204602512888573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11947017949234386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803029765732285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668258314298209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18602818917558805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8187144438856565,0.2078089481512556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16092402930308686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19409558985143816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sad_orangejuice,2019/05/30,Can't get my script and doctor isn't back til Monday My psychiatrist prescribed me haldol but it's on backorder and nobody has it. My doctor is not back until Monday and I'm having a terrible time and I feel like I'm dying. What can I do? I'm hopeless.,-0.5233333333333334,1.7020073148148178,2.7758333333333347,87.18375000000002,96.22222222222223,4.922222222222223,16.00925925925926,6.6274283507984215,0.10730370370370323,201,5,40,3,8,72,37,54,0.153,0.787,0.061,-0.7096,0,0,0,0,0,1,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,0,0,7,12,7,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,6,1,3,12,0,8,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,28,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5056390888629488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3412325553837316,0.0,0.0,0.6730618710583222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662463196551391,0.2348879477572392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17177942852390635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160630395478991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917203428731095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bananasyrupx,2019/05/30,"How do I know it’s not real? So, I’ve been labeled quite a few things over the 8ish years: schizophrenic, schizoaffective (depressive), complex-ptsd, borderline and ocd. I figure it’s a mix of all of them. Anyway, sometimes I get confused about reality when I’m stressed. Like I get thoughts that my mum and dad have hacked into my phone and are spying on me, that they have put cameras in the house or that they’ve tried to poison me. And that my brother has hacked into my phone and stuff. And sometimes I have thoughts that my friends have this secret language using sub text that they use to talk about me behind my back or that they are taking photos of me to make fun of me. Or when I go to a restaurant and someone asks me how the food is, I think they’ve spat in food and they’ve asked me that to ridicule me.. Those are the most common ones I get anyway. And I always forget that it’s really abnormal to have these thoughts. Like it’s just been apart of my life for so long that I forget that they’re not true or it’s abnormal. And people always think I’m so well put together. I guess I just wanted to say this, because sometimes I just need reassurance that I’m actually just a little mentally unwell and that those thoughts I have aren’t real. I mean how do I know they’re not real? How do I know that anything I experience is real? Thanks for your time. Sorry for mobile formatting also.",4.075851063829788,5.140649031914896,4.763609929078014,86.02350000000004,71.09219858156028,7.625815602836879,25.80212765957447,7.908726449838941,1.328690212765958,1105,33,227,14,20,355,133,282,0.091,0.8370000000000001,0.07200000000000001,-0.4644,1,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,4,1,20,13,2,2,8,0,18,6,1,7,2,56,45,25,0,2,11,3,0,2,1,0,3,1,0,0,26,13,2,0,12,0,0,3,4,5,1,1,6,1,38,8,24,39,3,18,0,1,0,0,17,8,0,7,9,154,64,0,0.0,0.0,0.10046269709992144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08232772386431994,0.17132247677909104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08471768484594668,0.0,0.19248553997471776,0.0,0.0,0.07916089341576678,0.0,0.06275633237791886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866922591428313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10070319841692134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24897100278319256,0.0,0.07953760656617527,0.0,0.16135872402168666,0.0,0.05850789527767205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11340916658723328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878852410246853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697330914873301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07271543373362484,0.10059068530037152,0.10318124904277,0.0,0.09110601204605914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0687187942879866,0.0,0.0,0.11214088658610223,0.0,0.0,0.10374767969354996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633486514145195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976043710448328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07137139363027703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034106168014758,0.20698296597222987,0.0,0.1094981965864095,0.0,0.468710846193629,0.06595132156670118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08186862571977616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722776638889625,0.0,0.30545552382996544,0.11524220111534172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11792693777174433,0.0,0.1178511812776563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07740431474268497,0.08274594950440765,0.0,0.0947809694874955,0.0,0.0,0.06839428067082008,0.13193023643117716,0.0,0.3269178250859843,0.0600299856640477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06989514270672419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17782856654994122,0.0,0.0,0.060721578730839276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09256289153212018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06629533437540636 schizophrenia,GnikSselb,2019/05/30,"What is the best anti-psychotic medication? I understand that most of you are not doctors however is there a medication that works particularly well, that has little to no side effects and allows for effective management of symptoms?",11.507692307692304,11.628858358974359,11.681666666666667,46.04250000000002,55.153846153846146,16.005128205128205,47.70512820512821,14.554592549557764,7.916682051282053,192,11,25,8,2,65,34,39,0.044000000000000004,0.728,0.22899999999999998,0.8455,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,4,2,2,0,0,2,0,4,4,0,3,0,7,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,4,5,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,23,6,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3205926725631219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31268173032186697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061810104740354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.615497620086386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31752084708388395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180256303651618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27467199636200723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224001952052548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sillystring1881,2019/05/30,"Questions about schizophrenia Hello, I am working on an acute mental health unit and wanted some insight on how schizophrenia works/ affects you. Some questions I currently have and would like to find more info on are as follows: Are you aware that what you see/ hear are not real when you are hallucinating? Are you aware when a psychotic break is impending or occurring? Does the medication completely eliminate symptoms or just decrease them? If you are vigilant about taking your meds every single dose, will you still have psychotic breaks from time to time? Is aggression/ violence to self or others common or is that some sensational TV bullshiz? Thank you guys for answering! I don’t mean to sound so naive but I have a degree in psych but unfortunately it did not properly inform or prepare me for all of the questions I’ve been having. Hope everyone is well and having a nice day!",5.636118598382751,8.293727459119497,5.685826594788864,74.52636792452833,70.0062893081761,8.819586702605571,30.225067385444746,9.424239791934726,3.1954237196765503,722,30,114,17,14,227,109,159,0.046,0.8540000000000001,0.1,0.8432,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,9,1,2,9,6,1,0,6,0,21,4,0,2,1,33,29,16,0,4,11,0,0,1,0,2,4,2,0,2,5,3,0,0,9,1,0,1,3,1,1,0,2,3,15,5,15,25,6,15,0,0,1,0,18,4,0,13,9,88,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17382939750360554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10692190282966084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14508539583806668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13968662112199176,0.15842103261435173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515305704558738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16415980564474605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17622877807349174,0.18685924622631625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16466852351812014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08099742889729385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18059571739896996,0.18415715529848686,0.16701765173920016,0.16707899512056495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5571737953902628,0.0,0.0,0.1887072014898515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13211448509840332,0.0,0.17295685552795745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13240143102871374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723210115767756,0.12465469264858907,0.0,0.0,0.15263868247752438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193348896312224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778821450706268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14906660995524873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413966009766736,0.0,0.0,0.1177736359701393,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Vivian9,2019/05/30,"I lost the haldol weight Haldol made me so lazy I wouldnt move an inch because of it and then switched to geodon and lost all 14 pounds I gained because I was sedentary on haldol. It took me seven weeks and a lot of dieting and exercising...",2.9582653061224486,4.583330081632656,3.877295918367349,89.08288265306123,74.71428571428571,6.53265306122449,24.494897959183675,7.1686216300943375,0.8817714285714287,190,6,40,2,4,61,36,49,0.159,0.789,0.053,-0.6418,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,3,0,2,3,0,1,1,8,6,6,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,1,5,1,6,0,4,0,2,6,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3467647619374873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6209653281615287,0.2418073235916049,0.0,0.26912909949016456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3022979621952657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160058036109606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281479746424986,0.3463521083638253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Johnson_John2019,2019/05/30,"How Schizophremia Works How schizophrenia works. Chris Cantelmo of Yale University has discovered the natural DMT cycle and how it relates to schizophrenia. Search YouTube for 'Chris Cantelmo DMT to find the ten or so interviews with Chris). Chris will soon win the Nobel Prize. At about 19 minutes into this video Chris describes the normal DMT profile. https://youtu.be/F5-Xt-JD4eg In schizophrenics high levels of DMT remain well past childhood into adulthood",8.547640845070424,12.74911705633803,4.989559859154929,75.09729753521128,68.5774647887324,7.493661971830987,34.227112676056336,8.472884824447931,3.594111267605636,385,18,48,7,8,103,53,71,0.0,0.851,0.149,0.8934,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,4,7,3,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,3,0,10,2,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,11,1,0,9,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,3,28,2,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3517562620995591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4066271010264359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3770823669087051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3673936653415332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.346036534832293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5603672301083321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anxiousthrowaway09,2019/05/30,Anyone else see fractals when they close their eyes? Getting really fucking annoying. Is this at all normal? It's usually fuzzy low grade patterns when I close my eyes but now it's distinct fractal like geometric patterns. Afraid it'll get 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schizophrenia,Lurker696968,2019/05/30,feel like something but i dont know what it is i dont feel well right now. nothing seems in place inside of me. i feel like psych doctors lie to me. i dont know why that is on my mind. one told me i was schizotypal but mom says i am not. i dont think people take my hallucinations seriously. not even the hospital. they left me to yell at the wall for a hour in the quiet room. the quiet room is empty with blue walls and they kept turning purple and the camera scared me. i didn’t like my main doctor she lied to me about my medicine. glad im out now. though i am not okay right now. i don’t really know exactly what schizotypal is if someone can tell me that would be kind of them. i miss my friend he is tall and my love saw him too in their dream that made me happy. he likes animal crackers. im writing to distract myself but its not working how i want it to. i don’t like my emotions because i can not describe them because they are colors but some of the colors do not exist to others so when i mix my paint it turns out to look gross and not correct and not how i am feeling. people don’t understand it much and it hurts me sometimes because then i just cry because they cant help me if they dont know the color. i am sorry for ranting i just needed to tell someone. i cant 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schizophrenia,ibhatuis,2019/05/30,"Delusions caused me to leave my home i wont go into the whole background because it is a very very long story, but basically today i ended up moving from my mom's house to my dad's-a major life change- all because of a delusion i was having, and i don't know how to reverse it, or if i even want to. i feel so strange and confused",4.626549295774648,3.9813409154929613,5.957852112676058,83.96241197183102,69.4225352112676,7.663380281690142,31.834507042253517,5.985473137389443,1.6129408450704226,259,10,56,1,4,88,55,71,0.11699999999999999,0.86,0.023,-0.7223,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,3,0,5,1,0,2,1,13,9,7,0,2,3,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,1,10,0,8,7,3,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,3,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856206423164613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406623564471753,0.24782920616816215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20749586959347974,0.0,0.0,0.1547347546667703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845519817755135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13314244154007332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349943853388884,0.0,0.0,0.2703189723520985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287500208505588,0.0,0.0,0.2480607157814106,0.0,0.0,0.16547357137003196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073237607544013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743770813734705,0.0,0.2489945565712772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22206290550986968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865986397693945,0.13817997054966702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615568425285721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Taykamant,2019/05/30,"I'm curious. Is anyone here taking Nuplazid/pimavanserin? [https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pimavanserin](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pimavanserin) It's a very interesting drug, but I'm unsure if it's even used in treating schizophrenia yet. I will ask my psychiatrist about it.",14.339166666666666,19.947397916666674,8.570000000000004,49.65000000000003,55.944444444444464,9.155555555555557,31.222222222222207,9.516144504307137,3.928688888888889,239,8,25,5,4,63,30,36,0.078,0.809,0.113,0.0378,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,7,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085326376719892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4125096911479787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5117105394840944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29144182062627044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33176549232965546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3810987935739956,0.0,0.3640779076060681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kitsune_fuyu,2019/05/30,"Need some advice on how to help? So im not schizophrenic myself so please forgive me if I get something wrong or say something rude im not sure what its like. So basically my girlfriend is schizoaffective bipolar and I want to know how I could in a way make things easier for her or just help out in a way when she's having issues with it. I'm not sure what its like and she's the type who doesnt want to burden me so I thought asking here would be the best, thanks :)",1.625454545454545,3.4252515454545467,2.8838383838383836,93.97909090909091,79.0,6.016161616161617,20.090909090909093,6.937597516519254,0.15056363636363645,369,9,84,4,9,119,68,99,0.087,0.619,0.294,0.9668,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,9,10,1,0,4,0,6,2,0,3,2,25,16,12,0,6,7,0,0,2,1,1,2,1,0,0,7,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,1,11,7,9,12,2,7,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,4,3,56,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816520105220736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737844043433483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19508272186558187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484200439953837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712116468036927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491996636454412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4015916228586531,0.1940234853197932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021616626556468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18163538237428475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12408469471628265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13783694163186974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20405415484271586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782918609874332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28621827404232264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35040298374883416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711448488819777,0.0,0.0,0.12349872440736495,0.0,0.0,0.14757788951121448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21928843884922794,0.2951056456395933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13205270645177716,0.20324427912037568,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KessKill,2019/05/30,Perphenazine Anyone else take perphenazine? What are the side effects you notice the most?,7.302142857142857,11.471643500000004,3.1542857142857166,84.91571428571432,78.28571428571428,2.8000000000000003,28.42857142857143,3.1291,0.9725428571428568,75,3,9,0,2,19,12,14,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454011343582166,0.5061391754085107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41265550934250017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5623976035104845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3714102282864537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rocoonshcnoon,2019/05/30,How do you guys sleep with auditory hallucinations? I got this extremely annoying ambulance siren noise. I am in the middle of nowhere trying to sleep and it’s not louder or quieter in any part of the house. I’m certain it’s a hallucination. It’s annoying and it’s keeping me up. Any advice?,1.07245614035088,3.6658558947368434,4.062456140350879,77.21719298245615,95.31578947368422,7.445614035087719,25.63157894736842,8.167268648758528,2.5963894736842104,234,11,43,7,9,83,42,57,0.11699999999999999,0.845,0.039,-0.6423,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,3,0,2,2,2,1,1,8,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,7,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,0,27,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799332130578116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3896161253008682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291146280608589,0.0,0.0,0.2836483573342372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3305456087875543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546259198215691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3102169266935395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5733497653026022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944929669919775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kaliyugastrike,2019/05/30,"Belief that the universe is conspiring against me, does it sound like mind/early schizophrenia? I have almost all of these symptoms: https://www.helpguide.org/articles/mental-disorders/schizophrenia-signs-and-symptoms.htm/ But on top of that, I have developed a belief that the universe or some supernatural force is making sure everything is set in place so that I suffer and have a horrible life. This developed gradually over time, but now I am seeing so much evidence that I find it completely implausible that things are a coincidence. Is this a type of belief that people with schizophrenia commonly develop or is it uncharacteristic?",11.524963181148749,14.554754515463914,9.399852724594993,52.351443298969095,55.39175257731959,11.728424153166422,35.50662739322533,11.491704259439757,4.949749337260678,536,21,68,15,7,161,64,97,0.051,0.893,0.055999999999999994,-0.2958,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,6,0,10,2,0,1,2,15,12,7,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,14,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,6,2,8,12,3,9,3,1,1,0,0,5,0,4,4,55,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27533490493739904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882926142215932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406212565435793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471182776054109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513104510432826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19421391924144416,0.13433263220937133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18353939018100032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770972055162613,0.0,0.2776334187643856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20212883975995816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906241545562044,0.0,0.2872769552496586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21910925788469346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591486004857968,0.2857909860255232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18267265449366324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16033265827074686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,drewdles151515,2019/05/30,"The only time I hear from my psychiatrist is when he emails me to let me know that he has raised his rates again I swear, every six month this guy wants to add an extra $50/hr to his fee.",15.830714285714285,3.7942225476190496,14.275714285714288,67.51928571428573,61.61904761904761,17.752380952380953,44.38095238095239,8.841846274778883,3.958352380952381,145,1,38,1,1,48,36,42,0.031,0.9690000000000001,0.0,-0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,7,0,4,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,4,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380544884562562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39728184901722224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4522165858761252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205061075566508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4102859618402648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202588187634945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051543152426762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339610683951184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366564855439204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cotatonic_life,2019/05/30,"Rate my neurons. We are the ones who got struck with very unfortunate life riddles. All the others have had it healthier, yet we challenge whatever they are about and they are filled with fear of doubting reality. Think about it this way, will the people in 200 years even consider looking back at ""our modern reality""? Different social game and a whole other setting but still social. One little thing could turn everything upside down and we are trying to solve that. No need to spend years looking at the others solutionifying things, if you are going to believe in something make sure it works! Don't go strict on some bullshit and try to branch it for everything around. This is a base for naive religious thought and it will never work and im pretty sure history is filled with similar patterns. I feel like people are taught to pick beliefs up like they are shopping in the market, luxury and essentials. But where is the item that only i need? I either make it or wait for someone capable to make it for me. Then im going to have to be critical of my need and the solution. Cuz it takes effort and resource. What do i need? I need to save my dead self from the past. Im going to hack through time and space then. Their emotions and knowledge cant bring the dead back! Thats my extreme, thats why im labeled delusional. But maybe i could find a way to never let it happen again atleast. I believe i could atleast save someone from all of that, its why im still alive. We need food and healthy lifes. But why everyone have the existintial need. Nothing could break the fact that everyone just exists. Right? You could have the best life and be the one to feel every kind of pain. Through every civilization people would work to solve their shared problems/pains, its natural until you face the devil. When its justified to dismiss the pain of the others when you know that you would feel it too IF you were in their place. Ah so this person is a different entity? How can i deal with a whole other existance?? Specially when mine is challenged. Since when you would defy nature and completly exile me out of the normal world? I either kill you or do my best to destroy you and even the little particles that would follow in your order. I will disown you from my existance. I need to own this whole thing if i want that kid to live on. I cant go back! its my need. He believed in the unknown. I am the unknown now. god loves it when people believe in him their whole time, til they die. I enjoy the same power now. I am beyond the red line of the universe. But i will work for my believers. I will bring them heaven. I will form the future where there is no pain, a future with the structure that will beat the past and eliminate all chaos. And for those who dared, i will let you on til you face me in the end.",3.3260724043715832,5.378066544626595,3.9806432149362467,86.89478995901642,74.8105646630237,7.052231329690348,24.1879553734062,7.937092434478242,1.292504826958106,2219,70,436,34,48,703,252,549,0.126,0.7390000000000001,0.135,-0.4768,3,0,1,0,0,0,60.0,5,13,9,11,27,24,2,2,33,1,48,11,3,6,8,90,84,40,4,23,13,0,3,2,0,12,6,0,0,3,41,28,1,1,9,2,2,10,7,8,1,3,5,6,61,16,63,58,16,72,3,0,3,1,40,26,0,7,33,322,102,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050469928386821065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078320356269385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193751911428019,0.11899429655479553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05944287310344847,0.0,0.0,0.2263288434896808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05844931243353496,0.0,0.0,0.0588397109531549,0.11846691003554308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06377343327585687,0.0502143036311625,0.0,0.0,0.07489207345045677,0.0,0.09553475088621663,0.10834762674037174,0.10190632498098147,0.0,0.0,0.06379682606507328,0.0859989931312445,0.04050240439946784,0.0,0.0,0.05181754409932208,0.0,0.06855494746879008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16110332699118055,0.0,0.045343594209451415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05013456387436343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061977516984499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0627238199954428,0.059038367452002874,0.031157693173240974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159474833051757,0.12013453817639835,0.05539592217188191,0.11364512379059698,0.050062087234461455,0.0,0.09521783144354028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051168800484259286,0.0,0.11353161484353093,0.0,0.0569570237008314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3783428070079189,0.08745224644458688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055548356295752964,0.05439968996025294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11525253256731155,0.04311855408530603,0.2413068413159196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082422092048398,0.15721869892965015,0.04950325781051456,0.05923345501777155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05767846392326013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04841660467759328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0591444977844245,0.0,0.0,0.046898093629417804,0.0,0.0,0.1155853559621403,0.09607375759847908,0.04364602597181971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09055224923266013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10686737442238424,0.0,0.042627042279806314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299547978212066,0.03632740490650816,0.0,0.04500892488451215,0.06611778026752327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07698338815393223,0.06166709561414953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04677871785787298,0.03343975477931204,0.09000255987926012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153473306282357,0.2531885522978253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16509644197739984,0.0,0.0,0.16109595726486978,0.0,0.0,0.07301851403939752 schizophrenia,Katietennyson,2019/05/30,"How do you find somewhere to live? Just wondering who you live with? I can’t move to my parents as they are old and my dad gets crazy drunk and violent etc at night,I am already terrfied most of the time,I can’t deal with that.That leaves me with no options. I looked at share houses online and they are truly awful not only are you sharing with complete utter strangers,but as a paranoid schiz your mind truly thinks the worst about what will happen if you move in.I cannot live in some strange house with strangers,they could be anyone,they could be on drugs,pimps,etc.I need a lot of help and support too. Also the share houses I have gone to see the people there never want to take me unsurprisingly,probably because I have somewhat crazy eyes,look a bit chaotic,and am not working above all.I want to get a studio,but again they prefer working professionals to lease them too.I understand why so many schiz are homeless,I’ve been in this situation of looking for a home since I was diagnosed eight years ago. Any advice welcome.",5.0312315270935954,6.141534463054189,4.945788177339903,85.42981527093599,68.90147783251231,7.376354679802955,28.29310344827586,7.447530270364453,1.491370443349754,828,28,162,8,14,256,132,203,0.133,0.7609999999999999,0.106,-0.5579999999999999,1,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,5,4,2,8,7,1,0,9,1,19,2,0,1,1,31,34,10,0,7,4,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,9,1,0,5,1,0,3,7,2,0,1,3,3,18,5,23,26,7,13,0,0,3,0,18,5,0,7,5,95,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11526863539039713,0.10456395880053956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301712157537207,0.09433215087553842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08021648913851849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07190700211784824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12878119728720566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12367826701569798,0.0,0.0,0.18836208734228868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12161104086369134,0.0,0.11972638579273084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631119953333589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10781282466041954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12325791592460054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431117565226457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07906575073295276,0.0,0.1183229729280111,0.0,0.0,0.4083281956045788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12490205378983435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124811370526281,0.0,0.29716875464873976,0.0,0.0,0.10028492879416216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11959239487157622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11910544496998395,0.0,0.0,0.2507445114819926,0.0,0.08746545729181877,0.09097762037909278,0.0,0.0,0.11069697806084623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377862784555188,0.0,0.0,0.08971349746524818,0.0,0.0,0.13098003927930688,0.0,0.0,0.08177824863984351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09399843064118577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09757729806115052,0.13259139408558604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13385901624225113,0.0,0.0,0.08869084621795449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07558366965532567,0.0,0.0,0.06878311945135097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12279997527801048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13915111112942782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10644008027190607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279220206343955,0.17175180781291996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596203552222135 schizophrenia,bearsBscary,2019/05/30,"I wanted to make a post here. I dont know why I always feel a huge stigma in myself when I try to, but I want to break that today. I've been diagnosed schizoaffective for 13 years and have been suffering from PTSD for a lot less. I'm 32 (M). I've been quitting drinking successfully the last 6 months and I felt I could use the support here to get my hurt and pain out with people who would understand so that the rawness I feel everything now (because I'm not numbing myself anymore) can become less raw and more healed. I dont know why I feel a stigma when I try to post here, I've accepted my diagnosis in my real life, I'm blessed to have 2 great friends who have stuck by me who know everything, I'm pretty straightforward with strangers even. So I'm just trying to break the ice for venting this stuff is going to help me pick up my life from the numbness, neglect and apathy I let my drinking habit get it into. Over the years I noticed that if my anxiety gets higher for a long period of time my depression comes back. When my anxiety and depression are bad, my mania and psychosis returns. So far I've been doing an amazing job of succeeding with losing the drinking habit and not lose it all together (which I'm surprised by) but recently I've been actually taking the meds religiously and working closely with a therapist and psychiatrist. I feel it's been hard to give myself slack, I dont know how to be gentle on myself and I judge myself so much. The flashbacks have increased and rattle my whole day as I get adjusted to real life unnumbed and the hurt from it has been getting in my way of acheiving and it's scary exploring it. Thanks for allowing me to explore and Express a little of what I've been struggling with recently, I think this really helps me figure stuff out, because it's very hard to uncover this kind of stuff with the illness like ours.",6.747983870967745,6.175304174731183,7.2387311827957,76.29309677419356,65.04838709677419,10.558279569892477,34.19139784946237,10.008157457239328,3.2427694623655916,1491,58,287,29,20,491,188,372,0.157,0.6759999999999999,0.16699999999999998,0.6307,1,0,3,0,0,0,28.0,1,0,0,6,15,25,0,1,19,0,24,12,0,5,1,62,57,27,0,5,6,0,7,1,1,1,9,0,0,0,21,26,3,1,16,3,0,5,5,13,0,0,10,7,39,12,44,43,8,40,1,8,0,0,9,13,0,2,18,189,60,4,0.0,0.0,0.0819827652399898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06990400815212043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285366021020039,0.0,0.08331648795058612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06459938990725879,0.07014580246583367,0.10242483654494114,0.09278371655824597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07236816827652738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06707606852973322,0.0,0.0,0.05418024273444638,0.0,0.14471736359839332,0.08526955048716454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953813320961981,0.2468968356641317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05548857332589264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15100761203574198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16991425007428534,0.0,0.08066388027605044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649068073533785,0.0,0.21946179648048664,0.08059115182594691,0.047745473511073465,0.0,0.0,0.0926225912613651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15051498078350806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262180812173847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17987135076728042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336810486290458,0.0,0.0,0.0874846864419795,0.18468132742541946,0.06848030140035312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08590709447493224,0.17801868271101182,0.041043605120952405,0.08420124445821743,0.0,0.07434722551888955,0.0,0.1879739789151116,0.0,0.07142327685159858,0.0,0.0,0.05607809607265226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933174505064016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06705689972072959,0.0,0.06175786289762907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956472529569162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08939378856465804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05824275455219169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16091892087531284,0.08546954376547984,0.0,0.0,0.09820454052355307,0.0,0.0,0.0893562008992976,0.0,0.1912461658814021,0.05381969496491019,0.0,0.16590175411448274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782669646396668,0.2885180073853243,0.0,0.09533485929651957,0.0,0.0,0.06316593071157738,0.0,0.0,0.07734618116994647,0.0,0.09754342220545277,0.0,0.053830953745128966,0.0,0.0,0.04898757811728533,0.0,0.07963274858244464,0.0,0.0,0.17111417196698284,0.0,0.0,0.08745857166287754,0.0,0.07255866130055917,0.0,0.06931799845720514,0.09910390777465693,0.06668414176945063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15161399450102162,0.0937954505876269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061161118957182875,0.0,0.0,0.059679111722751164,0.0,0.0,0.10820085447635898 schizophrenia,Arzemna,2019/05/30,"What would you want? (Serious crime) I have been a lurker for a while with a few posts.. I have a serious question I want to ask the group... Some history: We have a family member who has severe schizophrenic symptoms. They are hearing as many as 25 different voices/people at a time. Over time the family member has gotten worse and worse. They have refused to take medication and due to the laws here we have no avenue to force medication. The last instance the family member bought a car and drove to a rental they had gotten. days later we picked them up - the rental was covered in human waste and they hadn’t eaten for days When we brought the person home they had a very bad episode such that they attempted to kill one of our disabled family members. Claiming the voices (they used the names of the voices) said the person was evil and needed to be killed. Fortunately the family member survived but this has put the mentally ill person in jail awaiting trial. They forced some hospital stay but that was only during the competency portion. During this time the person “woke” up and is realizing what that they did. According to the state they passed the competency test even though the diagnosis of mental illness was undisputed. The person in jail is asking the victim to not testify because the person in jail is scared and doesn’t fully remember what they did. In this state, the hospital will not be an option during the incarceration period. (This is the worst state for mental illness) Now here is the question I wanted to ask the group - and I do apologize if this offends anyone. (This has taken its toll on our family). Would you rather be in prison/jail to prevent you from hurting a family member considering you may not fully know what you are doing or be out free?",5.451545454545452,7.276730154545457,6.042242424242424,75.25336363636366,68.66666666666666,9.037575757575757,26.53333333333333,9.490545024520769,2.500918787878788,1421,44,240,31,25,461,167,330,0.154,0.813,0.033,-0.9915,3,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,6,5,12,4,8,12,5,1,37,0,37,8,0,2,0,43,57,17,2,8,8,0,0,0,0,4,7,4,1,7,15,14,1,2,5,0,2,5,6,11,0,1,19,4,28,2,33,30,5,34,0,1,0,0,43,12,0,8,12,180,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059491545920171814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386214899527357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104019466963878,0.05186540086060496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10974213298017642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888929297667634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05619607891622528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.561456363930326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09589397356972276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0853445177963629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910823978400018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18826199227734236,0.0,0.04675902545465722,0.06935345767676086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862601320762678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17142299998532715,0.2572289420895277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06308747229458342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057653991199589465,0.06470894866422226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05898537725759145,0.4457436715574797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08148535666534383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08553124517235104,0.190623371291224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963816981660053,0.0,0.08093278291774388,0.0,0.0851822586728038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961188192514666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09068644705939093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843312206042703,0.06397132624471773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835929607813836,0.0,0.14883657881914544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07348381859728216,0.0,0.07020183576783676,0.15055129430437578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734123334634456,0.12088009732472245,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,apersons,2019/05/30,"What posts you made on reddit are you least proud of? Thought this might be an interesting exercise for people that are comfortable with it. Maybe say your thoughts on what happened now that you have some perspective. For me, I've deleted most of the embarrassing stuff I've written on this account. this is the one I've regretted the most that's still around I think: https://old.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/aw13uk/schizpphrenic_boyfriend_has_ongoing_rape_delusion/ehkoduf/ was mad at a girl for using her RN friend in the psych ward where her no-contact boyfriend was staying to get a complete copy of his medical records to find out if he still loved her. very triggered because someone close to me read my medical records without permission too. felt like her fucked up boundaries were causing her boyfriend's delusion that she was raping him. she was remarkably cavalier about reading his medical records being a bad thing. I got infuriated and wanted her to feel what it's like to have your privacy violated. so I read her post history (she was brand new to reddit and had about 5 posts) and concocted as believable a veiled threat as I could think of. I wanted her to think something bad was going to happen. Partly because I'm paranoid and it's just what I believed at the time and I wanted to share that belief with someone. Even if it was just a heartsick girl with slight boundary issues who still really cared for her schizophrenic boyfriend. She got really really upset and said she knew she did wrong in a way I finally believed, which made me feel good at the time. Then she deleted her account. Now I feel like a jerk for doing it. I think the worst part was that I was threatening something I didn't intend to do just to get a reaction. the other one I regret is https://old.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/bqagcv/can_we_get_some_more_memes_up_in_here/eo3i0gj/. I don't like it because I'd have to make a lot of memes if he took me up on his offer. It probably would have been good for me but maybe not. Reliving the highs of that internet addiction is not a good thing. I also regret some feedback I made to creative videos by /u/pointblank25 and /u/0n3tw0 . That's mostly because my opinion on what feedback feels like to other people changed after watching https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=093g4PuKBQ4 . For me I think I want negative feedback because it matches my self image, and I thought other people would need something negative in the feedback in order to accept a compliment. I think I'm wrong about that.",8.23301515151515,10.057720513636363,6.355,75.62333333333333,62.04545454545455,9.048484848484847,33.303030303030305,9.2995712137729,3.043948484848485,2086,82,335,35,30,605,208,440,0.125,0.78,0.095,-0.9291,0,0,3,0,0,0,68.0,0,5,0,1,17,33,6,2,22,0,32,9,0,8,0,69,72,17,0,14,10,0,5,5,1,3,6,2,0,3,33,14,0,0,18,5,2,2,7,16,0,2,27,8,55,17,55,39,10,38,2,3,1,3,38,19,1,11,16,239,88,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07938380958266923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058233585543684914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0648246352275432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12160218451247552,0.22194991422089455,0.0,0.0,0.2461273189200543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07424415199510817,0.07480550276259977,0.07703318724353395,0.0,0.07634967373590318,0.0,0.0,0.05814030330394291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04809647544623775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14727854884043912,0.15606641469217186,0.06991796877367111,0.0797700079380306,0.06655554113096022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056260027588576185,0.06732028985093344,0.07609018054090436,0.0,0.041384898849485735,0.18323217736755465,0.1164805280484992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12878777201896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07693761181618491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07600445317838439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778792125660773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06190838357308748,0.06572228121665404,0.20671020969641768,0.048607462927353816,0.0,0.1463135931858012,0.0,0.0,0.2200734179871987,0.0,0.07724979316520722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05399460461832256,0.0,0.07032935501291337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282325795018065,0.0,0.09868851441547953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15771245920294466,0.0,0.15145124732916398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20922234424532446,0.0,0.0785115454329195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218517084012672,0.0,0.1399497670737149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0692678507374483,0.05790884765687902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596643421417479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233991505501538,0.1681796152594046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07761570839845906,0.17446081398860006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833607018902539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967558437715809,0.2799580875699336,0.0,0.17343122315887444,0.0849230645830725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08090494618066357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0628925139444119,0.0,0.0600835669570836,0.17180289134180285,0.057800588391974536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07019522790371814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345751420814372,0.1592329946111242,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,yallgotpersonas,2019/05/30,"Do any of you have experience with weed triggering mental issues? My mother was diagnosed with schizophrenia a couple years back they later labeled it a mis diagnosis I’m not sure about the details but tbh I believe me smoking may have triggered something after smoking I believed I had “realized” something but I’m not sure if I’m being paranoid or not because apparently it’s normal to realize things when high, Id rather not get into what I realized because it’s personal it’s nothing like crazy but it’s made me extremely paranoid and Im wondering if anything similar has happened to one of you who smoked.( I was also having sleep paralysis right after I started becoming more paranoid this has stopped I also had this weird experience were I closed my eyes and was kinda imagining stuff through my eyes if that makes sense like instead of my head it felt like the thoughts were in my eyes and they were much more vivid happened once it’s been weeks since then)",4.650247252747254,7.0559328571428575,5.249546703296705,77.68607829670331,72.07692307692307,8.066483516483517,33.35302197802198,8.841846274778883,3.2248670329670333,788,40,131,16,16,253,112,182,0.136,0.85,0.013999999999999999,-0.9554,1,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,2,0,7,6,0,0,4,0,17,6,5,4,2,36,29,14,0,5,12,1,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,14,7,0,1,7,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,12,5,19,5,13,15,3,15,0,0,4,0,7,5,0,7,13,92,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22542517475246185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584651634805776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159846162059279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837696825688646,0.0,0.17183588382001966,0.1556611899682827,0.0,0.3175904612484401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15595146986099662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430548396771779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27573987273933065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13532800858808872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07363724080029553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24927201152310485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446488489314092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14891470640846854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15224332993301407,0.147108554107919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20657384670633627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333642911528461,0.0940809819829204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14203805065487052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10360980121450668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380948535360155,0.13523923511738814,0.0,0.0,0.15010038920164293,0.09550706607049574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12306656025069986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12036510848430995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11659004519217353,0.0,0.14104543956129856,0.0,0.0,0.21701061798901147,0.0,0.0,0.09976064213570963,0.0,0.0,0.11783520389494576,0.0,0.0,0.16134676077090876,0.0,0.0,0.2656754475337377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09363669945313807,0.0,0.0,0.1118935159241687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11305649583710772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15284737806012655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090763090702461 schizophrenia,Lucretius0,2019/08/08,"I'm on Roluperidone a new medication for negative symptoms experience and AMA Roluperidone is currently in Phase 3 clinical trials for the treatment of schizophernia. Particularly for the negative symptoms. I just thought this might be an interesting experience to share. I am not in a clinical trial and i cannot say how i got a hold of this medication so as to not encourage others to do the same. But I've been on it for a few months now. the TL DR is that yeah it seems to do something particularly I've found that I'm interested in things again. that organic impulse that comes naturally to everyone has somewhat returned. It is definitely not a cure by any means. But it does appear to do something. there is possibly a small effect on cognition.",5.3884935064935044,7.409834057142858,7.1579220779220805,66.4125324675325,69.14285714285714,11.662337662337663,35.58441558441558,11.389717465364855,4.967357142857144,608,32,104,23,11,211,85,140,0.073,0.8370000000000001,0.09,0.1022,1,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,11,1,13,7,0,2,0,20,22,7,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,0,12,3,0,1,5,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,4,1,4,4,20,16,3,15,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,4,6,78,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308980853620276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16581091784140614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16844708869138544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18393003360003904,0.0,0.3765793768495055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21105258375724106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15394981980502068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20967529261140855,0.0,0.3878217656991557,0.0,0.2041987950605278,0.0,0.0,0.1536416680854375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859056052138295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170007090817142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15307376797229053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17523337017208004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963725285000159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40013638247725614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278801269471884,0.0,0.0,0.1528135560578048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AnotherXavier,2019/08/08,"How ""Active"" are your voices, and how long have you been hearing them. For me it's all day everyday, and I'm not sure why. One thing I've always done is respond to them so maybe that's why they're so active. I know some people only hear them once in a while, and others have gotten them to stop. I ask because I have a really good relationship with my voices, and would like to help others who hear them, and want to talk to them have a better relationship with their voices. I may make a sub /r/tamethevoices , maybe, to work on this with you guys.",4.526875,4.766922937500002,5.189285714285713,86.35571428571428,69.625,7.828571428571429,22.25,7.447530270364453,0.6158250000000001,427,7,92,4,7,138,73,112,0.038,0.816,0.146,0.8984,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,3,7,2,4,4,0,0,4,0,10,0,0,3,2,20,19,10,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,6,0,1,7,8,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,6,16,4,12,14,2,7,0,0,0,0,21,2,0,2,6,63,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13402653449945787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15058251753699145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09818926161514732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424569305615387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038794536106584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16483470334019945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351012927324226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15948865914194646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5446265700399933,0.0,0.10796455776020937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08852209964743572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07869265730449522,0.0,0.0,0.14254548843983805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10751819640426807,0.0,0.3236411180784408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17153863391295318,0.1091479624397115,0.12250409297537143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11166848309106568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10318817754008903,0.0,0.0,0.3458665543896409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13466513984743253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518104102745758,0.0,0.0,0.12946524080716984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10701045875857908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500566323383447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29068860000662794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11726384561672193,0.0,0.0,0.11442240205740888,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FrankTheRabbit258,2019/08/08,A quick question about medication. My friend got diagnosed with schizophrenia in may and she is on haldol. She is supposed to take 3 at night bit she takes one what do you think the effects of that would be? And she was also under a huge amount of stress and was on meth in the same week and used alot do you guys think that had anything to do with it?,1.8332738095238101,3.943748319444445,2.351984126984128,96.52000000000002,79.69444444444444,5.2253968253968255,20.007936507936503,6.1826913282559595,-0.17258968253968288,277,7,62,2,7,85,52,72,0.038,0.884,0.078,0.4696,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,3,2,0,1,5,0,11,2,0,2,0,15,17,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,4,6,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,7,1,13,10,4,10,0,0,0,0,9,7,0,3,3,48,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19702127578880546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20274077269195787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26897124205947226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500594447972391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19034415119603967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970438710445998,0.0,0.0,0.24394413755953565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24819094327456065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312007056034261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16694607445435108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759897699549957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822149652521316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3704777959681057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31572673549953945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127837951107755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19762242678084446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17501353599407024,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Madcotto,2019/08/08,"Thank You Schizophrenia Thank you for destroying my life But also thank you for opening my eyes and changing my world view to been a more kind and considerate person to all people no matter what they are or what they dealing with. SZA forced me to accept people I never would have before, id have never spoken to a SZ before Id be scared of them id judge them as something lesser than me. but now ALL of my favourite people are SZ/A and my **Friends**, and I couldn't be anymore better off for it.",3.162896039603962,4.6764569108910905,4.054542079207923,88.48003094059406,73.95049504950495,5.8420792079207935,22.525990099009906,5.985473137389443,0.34550396039603903,392,10,79,2,8,126,62,101,0.106,0.773,0.121,-0.1105,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,4,1,2,9,1,1,2,0,9,2,1,0,4,18,12,9,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,2,16,7,13,7,3,6,0,0,2,0,10,3,0,1,3,58,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15430445368525605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913575395120379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283776024656867,0.0,0.0,0.1706512586229683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041187016439273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989260824480287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149075018141556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009308691990007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13628841840987904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976345154835398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4013079696345701,0.16847912720715771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19317962556259424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14854465518088067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5329356271514257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13706828336670593,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,yuze_,2019/08/08,"Does anyones voices speak gibberish? Its annoying when I'm trying to sleep the voices have a non-sense conversation that isnt even interestingg to listen to, its jargon and buzzwords that sound sophisticated and clever but on closer listening/inspection its just bullshit.. Its so odd",7.629375,10.520359854166667,7.5275,62.4675,65.04166666666666,10.633333333333336,32.83333333333333,10.686352973137794,4.4753583333333316,235,10,32,7,4,75,40,48,0.11900000000000001,0.794,0.08800000000000001,-0.3688,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,4,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,0,1,4,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3937571284991556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4928032871637943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3719453970259325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5635417508436734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3823317415595088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Marko-9,2019/08/08,"13 years of schizophrenia will drive anyone crazy The other day some voice in my head said something insulting about me as usual and then I heard another voice chime in and respond to it, as though to shut it up. I'm so used to this shit that I don't even have to respond to the voices, I just get my other voices to do it. https://i.redd.it/ei20me0bbaf31.jpg",4.047391304347826,6.253591057971017,3.602246376811596,89.71902173913048,73.20289855072464,6.339130434782609,21.644927536231886,7.1686216300943375,0.5509884057971011,289,7,56,3,6,86,49,69,0.139,0.861,0.0,-0.8705,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,2,0,4,2,2,1,0,5,9,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,6,6,0,13,6,1,9,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,1,4,40,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3374307679767313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22500698131174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20753155496845527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125429736766815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16812493108603074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302551466345714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30610132737036994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3303185820791126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477339916448436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161625651746969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779280978850416,0.35441241514430794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20722583034975928 schizophrenia,ProofStorm0,2019/08/08,"A question about adderall If you’re prescribed adderall and you take it and you don’t notice any worsened symptoms in the immediate aftermath, does this mean it’s pretty much safe? How long do you need to be taking it without experiencing negative consequences before you know you’re in the clear? How likely is it that negative consequences will appear weeks/months/years after you start, assuming you’re using it responsibly?",6.095542857142856,9.11221524,6.209904761904763,69.62400000000002,69.93333333333334,9.085714285714287,32.047619047619044,9.606745405546679,3.781761904761904,353,16,51,9,7,112,54,75,0.037000000000000005,0.7709999999999999,0.193,0.9069,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,5,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,3,1,15,13,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,2,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,6,11,1,7,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,4,5,34,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751668954438324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21918619140656254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254147071060324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415621916933225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12584320844810176,0.0,0.0,0.22795496085053799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805859990727725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893548968476988,0.1909962998496044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932626691996158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620569411567775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28855458347953994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18232026197944906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26772984371320513,0.3873443067162483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224710697769621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483031201261971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16587654330077528 schizophrenia,Ainaman,2019/08/08,"A quiet life is my best med. Lots of people posting about finding better meds. Imo better environments should also be sought. John Lilly learned to lead ""a quiet life."" I live alone in the country with my dogs and cats and go to town for shopping twice a month. I have nothing scheduled. It really helps me stay calm, as I am easily irritated and once irritated I do counterproductive things. So my suggestion is to make every effort to live in a low stress environment.",4.2009482758620695,6.687542931034487,5.469640804597702,75.21756465517242,73.71264367816093,8.02816091954023,25.81752873563219,8.841846274778883,2.25513908045977,373,13,64,8,8,124,67,87,0.13,0.6940000000000001,0.177,0.6901,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,5,3,6,0,1,5,0,7,2,0,2,0,10,9,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,1,1,2,0,2,0,1,0,2,8,4,11,7,2,10,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,1,2,41,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998102218333885,0.0,0.15428058957728188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20246096480245016,0.3412497327674016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254609167489262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17632828254438654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964268359029866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293123343974715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27253468117933577,0.0,0.0,0.3407093877594765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16401638038014002,0.0,0.0,0.12877771423953238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4285883015466909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15398943392866646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851149850570399,0.0,0.0,0.2054568800244973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337486349844728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18476706824503694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12359152296595095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056304302813315,0.0,0.0,0.2209928397443912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12816958188955002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,152120-156-209135,2019/08/08,"Diagnosis I haven’t ever been officially diagnosed with schizophrenia, but my therapist believes I have paranoid schizophrenia. In the following weeks I will be going to get tested for the first time (I wasn’t before as my family didn’t believe in mental illness, I’m 19 now) but part of me is almost scared to be diagnosed and put on meds? 90% of my thoughts are always focused on my paranoia. I’m so used to having the days or weeks where life doesn’t feel real, the delusions and hallucinations have been happening since I was 16 and yes I want it all to stop, but I feel like this is just me now. I can’t imagine being any other way, I feel like without the constant paranoia I could get hurt as I avoid a lot of things in my day to day life because I’m afraid. I probably sound stupid, but did anyone else feel this way when they were going in for a diagnosis?",5.110283762480293,5.633402393063588,6.026873357856019,79.86488176563323,68.42196531791907,8.83426169206516,30.17813977929585,8.841846274778883,2.3074901734104047,686,25,135,11,11,227,103,173,0.162,0.7559999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.9405,0,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,1,7,7,1,3,7,1,21,5,0,1,2,27,37,12,0,2,7,0,4,2,0,1,5,1,0,0,5,4,0,2,6,0,0,4,6,5,0,1,8,5,20,2,20,24,3,26,0,1,0,0,1,7,0,3,15,92,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388726310239027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11125411783348783,0.0,0.0,0.0909246771262175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09349035651436263,0.1369976159538387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815059474790714,0.0,0.11377397329370048,0.3012817914270087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14448870538424405,0.0,0.10675337551138236,0.0,0.0,0.2586879609095303,0.0,0.0,0.2714175872966674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11169422114878036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12094474797726645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12604613411683774,0.0,0.2704231202053019,0.1910392117638949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11373027049634475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13971175164924146,0.0,0.15197642242365506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11823579003140455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14313505750331304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888810291563845,0.13064401315875254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11367207502050138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14851724398931987,0.0,0.13474421802178665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447905877967249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14415770154764587,0.0,0.0,0.13441147780913748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15218672030844682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338630490911285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106029996618057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11178421789835936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552429921373245,0.08882833710954978,0.0,0.0,0.1061476430815368,0.07796505425522347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547907004997225,0.0,0.0,0.07886327354310903,0.21225922696446775,0.21450180502504784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288878299161624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iWalkSlowToo,2019/08/08,"Microdosing? Do any of you have experience with microdosing? I am not psychotic in any way, i am considering starting on saturday and see how it goes.",4.003333333333334,7.044391555555558,7.149629629629632,59.83333333333337,77.8888888888889,12.488888888888884,34.925925925925924,11.20814326018867,5.8701703703703725,120,7,20,6,3,44,23,27,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,4,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,4,6,0,5,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6360266969702473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4574446916894822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726510098058651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3310001976221645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3711933308277359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,securityguardnard,2019/08/08,Haloperidol internationally Does anyone know if you can have your medicine shipped to a different country?I'm trying to see if I can get my haloperidol in Vieetnam or shipped to Vietnam.,17.619999999999994,12.644022612903232,13.629032258064516,52.56354838709679,48.67741935483871,14.980645161290324,63.25806451612904,11.20814326018867,7.419812903225808,155,10,22,2,1,45,25,31,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,6,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,4,6,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,3,0,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34886002223192986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5212705263417854,0.0,0.0,0.4366127068510916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606677661932355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741961804378672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39757869921954997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387373845619375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sqyd234,2019/08/08,"Cant talk to family. My family thinks im faking my illness and exaggerating my symptoms. They told me to stop talking about it because it makes them mad/annoyed. Why are they getting mad? Idk. Makes me sad because talking about my illness is one of the ways I was venting. It helped me cope. It helped me function. They were trusted and I thought I could lean on them a little. Now I can only talk to my mom and therapist. Life sucks.",1.4909302325581422,4.0047371627907005,2.9942325581395366,88.91297674418604,84.34883720930233,5.300465116279073,26.04186046511629,6.742157984588678,1.1775711627906973,340,15,67,4,10,111,56,86,0.239,0.728,0.033,-0.9451,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,5,0,3,5,2,0,2,0,7,4,0,2,0,9,14,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,4,0,18,1,7,9,0,5,0,1,0,0,13,2,1,0,2,43,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173211875992816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14231949363157073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360797144969474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312916642612272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23895674053485685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19254244532396814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12590446108788572,0.0,0.1786550514529577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379688139696099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087662596460409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078797839630895,0.13556846509106207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490264191749084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852717880358832,0.0,0.5730879206591517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069639852135467,0.0,0.1142165044350391,0.0,0.14151195445748013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17032715689389358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148791808925407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16084445166371295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Indiana-BDC,2019/08/08,"US system pisses me off So I lost my job from having a breakdown. They actually just closed the department altogether since it was just me. Well deserved though because the anxiety caused me to have episodes and I caught myself talking to myself way too much and couldn’t focus. Anyways on unemployment. psychologist told me to apply for disability again which they have told me before and my therapist but I like money so I always go against their orders and get another job and just do it while I’m crazy. Well I apply and talk to them, can’t apply while on unemployment even though unemployment would be over well before the 3 months before I’d get an answer. So I guess they just want you to have no fucking income and live on the street. Well mine turns violent and surprised if the cops show up soon because I said guess if I lose everything when I go shoot up a place then this is all documented. My meds don’t work, I sit at home and don’t leave and I’m okay. Any anxiety leads to episodes like feeling an ominous presence that manifest in the corner of toy bedroom and tells me to do stuff and wants to hurt me. So I just don’t sleep in the bedroom. Doctors know, I’ve had three hospitalizations this year. Two were violent where I tore up my room and smashed a bunch of expensive stuff and had to be sedated. After the second violent one I went to Rural King and checked no on the recent hospitalization on the background check and bought a gun to off myself. Didn’t happen but I kept it and bought even more. My doctors know if it, they don’t like it but nothing happened. I just answer the intent to hurt someone with not at this moment. I refuse to lose my apartment, these will probably be used before I become homeless and I even told them that on the SS call that I had. Seriously fuck this system. At least I have about 3 months of unemployment. Guess I’ll have to start selling drugs to pay my rent after that or worse.",3.644973684210527,5.598398589473685,4.474407894736842,84.1339802631579,73.63157894736842,7.38157894736842,25.559210526315788,8.17850203761792,1.5595789473684207,1544,52,302,25,32,497,195,380,0.209,0.726,0.065,-0.9962,12,0,1,2,0,0,26.0,1,1,7,6,26,21,6,0,18,1,26,7,2,4,1,53,57,35,0,7,14,0,1,3,0,2,3,1,5,0,17,20,0,2,5,2,9,6,10,12,4,4,16,2,47,9,42,35,5,49,0,5,0,2,18,24,3,7,17,215,64,11,0.0,0.0,0.08536194172990907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07278532083055088,0.0,0.0,0.05948527501652581,0.09172404723514577,0.1338346408135029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10664659704086137,0.09660808809198418,0.29773550173639995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932066721785324,0.0,0.0,0.08985982645641169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17906655693940562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10144199279426826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733271260997987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07861593190735687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044229449541814916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161736485675348,0.09140304076481916,0.0,0.0994269055401693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28908720199583,0.0,0.15470582264594698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08774348841472708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872853119570932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17360876493023975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614677343550454,0.0,0.0,0.09262226631468873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282060376396462,0.0,0.0772410866920986,0.0,0.0,0.19572191530646288,0.09548813258702342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09716382155679676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964171981252355,0.0,0.06430340668064764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08393359926373005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05927460180810281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09139164359393162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09431169615711887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08636995730843161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08320774296550441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07235934248523321,0.0,0.08753710705209823,0.0,0.07411638077278841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06191450101032445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20027345391729715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14061647007059636,0.07645607425525247,0.0,0.0,0.10156397991777248,0.0,0.0,0.17188539288194676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25075527886226245,0.0,0.0,0.09514652187940677,0.08544932347127797,0.0,0.1052203727291526,0.07554939382451246,0.0,0.0,0.103188785788114,0.06943273756831317,0.0,0.0,0.3145982889731881,0.08108921357377953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06368206606932612,0.0,0.08914341228411672,0.06213897326416716,0.0,0.0,0.05633034582268547 schizophrenia,TheWoefulMuffin,2019/08/08,"Weird build-up of energy/chills going down your spine? Hi everyone, I've been curious about this for a while. I get these build-ups of energy (almost feels like a chill at the base of my neck that's stuck) that get really uncomfortable until they 'release,' in which I feel a massive chill/tingling feeling go down my spine which permeates through my body. Not sure if this is SZ or SZA related, but I wanted to know if anyone else gets this feeling or has any insight as to what it is. I'm currently on 20mg olanzapine and am being built up on lithium (600mg/day currently), but this feeling goes back as far as I can remember clearly. Thanks!",6.522142857142858,6.214858674603177,7.069682539682543,76.43642857142858,65.42857142857143,11.009523809523811,33.079365079365076,10.608840637214634,3.3639650793650784,507,19,99,12,7,167,92,126,0.039,0.8170000000000001,0.14400000000000002,0.8913,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,1,0,2,4,0,0,4,0,7,4,4,0,2,20,22,12,0,3,7,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,11,1,0,0,8,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,5,9,3,19,19,0,15,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,5,6,60,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21434620768150087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455654501785218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14967296297871202,0.2193257129967261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16459588490423765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377680093443524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380484399311723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17881635764614073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045397231616589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5411658374205938,0.1529216805662039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33550634437481386,0.0,0.2433059653971723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11763960370413835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045769706841172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13712978297075432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24248377006008456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20174528817088536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19707404592996475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262558007208415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zerza,2019/08/08,"People talk too much People talk too fast Too much Nothing ever gets built While the worker bees Buzz in our ears I rested in the courtyard yesterday Spoke with a friend A bad day for him Needed to vent We sat there after a while The music played Without saying much of anything I felt adequate At peace in the scene Without having to utter A single word or phrase People have nothing to say Millions to say it to All I hear is People talk too fast",5.038352059925097,5.988214876404495,5.309606741573036,83.41512172284645,68.7752808988764,6.832209737827719,24.94569288389513,6.42735559955562,0.9265940074906373,360,9,66,2,6,114,60,89,0.038,0.8420000000000001,0.12,0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,2,0,0,1,6,3,0,0,8,0,3,1,1,0,2,10,9,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,3,7,6,2,15,6,6,12,0,0,0,0,12,4,0,1,8,49,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13406076699450326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13602275894120724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506325165263196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14736111160476775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15641881846594982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586359696394206,0.0,0.0851135719888859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836110234698379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35927202779125644,0.12079544652210407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126324193787416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4517641759894872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3886568941326857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3928218344170228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140781920078413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zyanaera,2019/08/08,Would anyone else here rather have their symtoms back than taking seroquel? i hate this medication so much..,6.096666666666668,9.65765866666667,4.308888888888891,80.20000000000002,73.44444444444446,5.822222222222222,25.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.5048,88,3,13,1,2,25,18,18,0.188,0.812,0.0,-0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27579397012641216,0.4041391840874857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30329160097315744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294948681265023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3894170384735461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39734578254507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28995074315396885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965615662930767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801910879504341,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Michlellon,2019/08/08,"Visual Hallucinations Hello everyone! I’m here for a little bit of insight. My friend was recently diagnosed with Schizophrenia, and I have some questions about the idea of visual hallucinations, so I’ll just list them. What are the most common hallucinations you guys experience? Are they all scary? Or are there some good/neutral ones as well? How clear are these images? Like, are they rough shapes, or are they apparent objects? Finally, where do they occur in your field of vision? Like are they more peripheral, or more central? Any responses would help a lot!",4.47312925170068,7.815573489795916,4.6929591836734685,75.96215986394559,79.40816326530613,7.756462585034014,25.51360544217687,8.59863814320734,2.4764870748299317,454,17,73,11,12,142,74,98,0.03,0.79,0.18,0.9318,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,6,0,8,4,0,0,4,0,11,1,0,1,2,17,12,7,0,1,4,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,10,4,8,10,8,7,0,0,0,0,13,4,0,8,5,54,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16770273703022692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692334144143384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503031833954515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356456931472902,0.0,0.241231153351612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270148363808034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905296839465745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068441268105108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441819154294301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16529697255098216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783918099968789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409616319332343,0.24716724098273446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20965835356644505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16710880057012548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2762587834277895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434968693308361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22173131968866555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751841256471264,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Pixie2436,2019/08/08,"Schizoaffective Hi all, I was just wanting to know others experiences with schizoaffective disorder ? My psych has explained to me I have bipolar type 1 schizoaffective, so bipolar 1 with schizophrenia. I don't know anyone else with this illness so I thought I would post here.",5.9180851063829785,9.324939106382981,4.646212765957447,78.49400000000003,72.82978723404256,8.01531914893617,34.93191489361702,8.841846274778883,3.7011480851063836,226,12,34,5,5,66,34,47,0.136,0.8640000000000001,0.0,-0.7027,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,11,10,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,7,0,5,7,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,24,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454530840073167,0.3596786726591821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023185711636213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932461921091466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3433813370988774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3858412762856336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361962071347538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786839982845555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20705059246506285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493664622807975,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Warmelon_,2019/08/08,"Floaters or hallucinations? Hey all! I'm on my 5th week of antipsychotics, and this is the first week where I haven't seen any flies ever since starting Latuda along with Quetiapine (Seroquel). I used to see flies, that got more and more frequent and became a daily occurrence. They were very vivid and would fly in front of my face and sometimes into my face. They would follow me everywhere and it's the middle of winter. But I also have ""floaters"" and static vision. Could it have just been floaters? I'm questioning myself again.",3.8960204081632672,6.679439622448985,3.7646530612244895,85.52677551020409,76.24489795918367,6.3689795918367365,23.065306122448977,7.554174236665415,1.1328457142857142,425,13,76,6,10,129,71,98,0.015,0.956,0.028999999999999998,0.3076,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,0,3,0,9,2,2,1,2,20,17,10,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,10,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,4,3,10,0,9,10,3,15,0,0,3,0,4,5,0,2,8,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21378094163063452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18179121776797047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21343849379982907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24181216488573964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22738782280096376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138054589577139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29946691120124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21302464565647364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22113528068292107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26439278874540995,0.0,0.18921510462944294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230884303740288,0.0,0.2205723965078009,0.0,0.0,0.4288664593749479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3798022155031153,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,robotohenry,2019/08/08,"Side Effects (? So lately i can't rember some words and i have to think for like, 5 minutes and when i remember i just get mad because i can't even use the word because the conversation about that is over.",1.875,3.920788642857147,3.395476190476192,89.42035714285717,79.23809523809524,6.104761904761905,24.785714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.007742857142857,161,6,34,2,4,53,33,42,0.083,0.853,0.065,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,1,0,2,0,4,0,0,2,0,10,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,4,7,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4917598109634085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26641048450584937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21073500371871387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4549991245200028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19705762953969028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4569196890797368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584519588280669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34836700519668345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Raisondetre09,2019/08/08,I fucking hate this shit. Can't post anywhere without having it removed.,3.196153846153845,6.3327843846153895,3.283461538461537,83.09903846153847,89.76923076923076,2.6,37.269230769230774,3.1291,2.1902615384615385,59,4,8,0,2,18,13,13,0.488,0.512,0.0,-0.8615,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.425098264211216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4539792783858696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44038261258147615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4720009357580976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4432522439201521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwacct12345,2019/08/08,"I don't know if this happens to anyone else, but I hate the sudden, inexplicable bouts of anger/sadness that come with my condition. From what I understand, it's not uncommon for people suffering from schizophrenia to deal with anger or depression, but that doesn't make me hate it any less. I hate that I can be having a perfectly nice day, then all of a sudden become irrationally angry at every little thing, because the voices are screaming nasty things at me. No one can hear or see what I'm experiencing, so for them, it comes out of nowhere, for no reason. I hate that even though I'm regular with my meds, eat healthy, exercise, and all that other crap, I still can't fully control my symptoms. I hate how powerless I feel. I hate that even though I can bite back that irritation, or fight through the ""blue"" most of the time, it still gets the best of me. I hate that when it does, the people around me feel bad because they think it's something they did, or said, wrong. I hate that no matter how much I try to explain what's going on, they still feel like they have to try to fix me or cheer me up - even though I can't ""get happy"" right now, because the voices are screaming nasty things at me. I wish I could conquer this disease and all the symptoms that come with it. I'd do almost anything to just ""be normal"" for a little while; take a break from all this. Sorry; I don't have a point to this post. Just venting.",7.187997987927562,5.8045906971831025,7.071428571428572,80.49500000000002,64.56338028169014,9.945271629778672,31.90543259557344,8.634040054169528,2.2383207243460768,1114,33,232,13,14,355,145,284,0.31,0.59,0.1,-0.9979,1,0,1,0,1,0,43.0,0,0,5,4,18,23,11,0,13,0,18,5,1,5,5,45,48,19,0,4,11,0,3,1,0,0,3,6,0,0,28,11,1,1,8,1,0,4,9,17,0,1,2,12,33,6,31,43,8,29,0,2,2,0,10,11,1,8,13,165,61,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08294391844197957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05632835289308165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057917805817784676,0.08487079966472158,0.06816337870947077,0.07373771736041806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06369241518687617,0.06916095617442443,0.1514801894576858,0.09148103420316044,0.0,0.0,0.08692669166884022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2140563599810889,0.0,0.0,0.0929027230831404,0.06613432126886189,0.0,0.0,0.053419552725223626,0.0853957795838719,0.07134276670640248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248652285003605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08475744256145427,0.06919520314878609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16412854310887467,0.0,0.06978922582328538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256464919107777,0.05917493730395655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08655222211330646,0.0,0.047075127590633495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07324774215294835,0.0881758167625819,0.0,0.6542327348523176,0.0,0.0,0.09335727378406876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04552210090733958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040467353358644535,0.16603811983313554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055290760223535074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920072745325825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06089078318505872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115741645160725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05612886024845873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485005384388865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830266956422577,0.0,0.0793298105023034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08516471739031757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707377645536687,0.07879185408314353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0660060896383723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06376784017501998,0.0,0.0927232349682638,0.0,0.0,0.19844835450603449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721875709274381,0.062279081742460364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650889751084835,0.053075167749456094,0.2441449854118642,0.0,0.048299793061901165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11247448725574784,0.0,0.0,0.08623065428327256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09525229352608472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09056339083030614,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cured_by_christ,2019/08/08,"My mother betrayed me I told my mom my depression/schizophrenia was largelg my father's fault for having abandoned me as a child and other things he dkd. She asked why I don't tell him. I said because I hold no resentment and already forgave him. She went behind my back and told him what I said. It upset him a lot, especially since he already asked for forgiveness. And it will affect our rekindled relationship (we haven't seen each other in 15 years but meeting up soon). I got really angry at her for telling him what I said. I promised myself I'd never do this but I ended up telling her it was her own psychosis and suicide attempts that traumatized me as a child more than anything. Then she said ""I know I know"". Her psychosis was my dad's fault apparently. My family is a fucking mess.",3.249585253456221,5.425545741935487,4.182050691244239,84.79879032258064,75.45161290322581,6.751152073732718,27.845622119815665,7.7094869923839395,1.7647880184331792,630,26,119,9,14,203,94,155,0.209,0.7509999999999999,0.04,-0.9801,1,0,0,0,0,1,17.0,2,0,0,1,2,9,2,1,4,0,9,1,0,1,1,17,23,10,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,2,10,7,0,2,3,0,0,1,4,7,0,0,12,5,36,2,11,10,4,11,0,1,1,1,36,4,1,1,6,86,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183923012796299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11871492120700244,0.0,0.2697300540393513,0.0,0.0,0.11092818744536664,0.0,0.08794047036380437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12777286839359206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13599690163248648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13336743055973216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153790987120486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15856469337958934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12264596699644965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.168957323233638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11126336091170737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09241760982403913,0.0,0.0,0.15488286079259622,0.0,0.0,0.5489028816545082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11933460213322952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577986645281235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3782727242352084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584092926536683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275696087591747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13373185419834693,0.13017356375574926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09289967509239362 schizophrenia,MagicalSkittleWizard,2019/08/08,"Can't tell if I'm going to have another episode In between my episodes I'm 100% normal, and I've been symptom free for about 2 years without meds. I'm a little worried because I've had a few hallucinations over the past few days, and I've been sleeping less. I really don't want to slip into another episode. Last time, I lost lots of friends because I acted so withdrawn and suspicious, and I stopped bathing. What do you guys think my course of action should be? Am I starting another episode?",3.679183673469388,5.4833072755102075,4.479336734693877,84.76655612244899,73.18367346938777,7.348979591836735,33.67857142857143,8.07648339933343,2.56789387755102,395,21,77,6,8,127,68,98,0.114,0.816,0.07,-0.2657,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,3,0,10,2,1,0,0,13,18,6,0,4,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,1,5,0,1,1,1,1,3,3,1,0,0,4,0,8,3,11,12,4,14,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,2,7,43,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5911588568625079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22911142096077375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119435890378052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145188328967797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10680059299647783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18607265561462805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531817837441489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18834754748203208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20513942637589672,0.15976484806948632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208739348845115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18412398747950195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17939313151115993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12038785908802115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18805804910790816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330123951270347,0.0,0.0,0.1571114857002191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953232590423448,0.0,0.0,0.164252402793422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041304355715216,0.0,0.0,0.10957902409689024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108414614020616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18115042380327487,0.0,0.0,0.1908442519876191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12101582172099112 schizophrenia,KoalaCubed,2019/08/08,I'm addicted to thinking but I hate it. Get mad when people interrupt my thinking process.,1.6286274509803889,4.226683235294118,3.278823529411767,81.6480392156863,99.0,6.972549019607843,35.07843137254902,7.793537801064563,3.855407843137257,73,5,12,2,3,24,15,17,0.509,0.491,0.0,-0.9253,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5105614158887299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446891281511043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4623903164766785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3246890588941683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6001887048532021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,katflem101,2019/08/08,"Is there a way to make your delusion go away? I think I’m living in a delusion where I think everything is going to kill me or that I’m dying. I don’t know if it’s a delusion or extreme anxiety. My therapist won’t really help me she just wants me to talk about my day. An example would be that I just got an IUD birth control implant put in and I feel like it’s going to kill me. Idk what to do. I know it’s not but I just have an irrational fear that it will, just like with anything else.",-0.4249388379204895,1.4943874770642225,2.2424082568807364,95.16404051987769,87.07339449541284,5.835168195718657,20.09250764525994,7.1686216300943375,0.3767608562691134,381,12,92,6,12,132,66,109,0.14800000000000002,0.7859999999999999,0.066,-0.825,0,0,0,0,0,2,8.0,0,1,0,1,7,5,2,1,6,0,9,0,0,2,0,20,22,5,3,3,9,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,1,5,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,1,1,15,2,10,17,0,11,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,3,4,60,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14653615074009416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15763032395169835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799686665246166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21484096904890704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12353468329852405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19879991311494769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16001645597317268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721538755366411,0.0,0.0,0.21554836475732145,0.0968540468419126,0.13684422212697753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265888994649295,0.0,0.15320100053406285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283927378012721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4238460646164357,0.0,0.2105430701600135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871644903806592,0.0,0.16914322710537105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12786191956122267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925618720460524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271260956323372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539616061249661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22240571769058826,0.0,0.2454765607144139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11298186610748373,0.15204443388891611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13607248314375112,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BoogerLol,2019/07/02,Finally diagnosed Nothing much else. Finally diagnosed today after months of it being passed off as looking for attention. Hopefully it will get better from here.,7.1779487179487145,11.08912653846154,7.759230769230768,54.86910256410261,72.07692307692307,12.6974358974359,39.43589743589744,11.20814326018867,7.269451282051282,134,8,14,6,3,44,23,26,0.0,0.8109999999999999,0.18899999999999997,0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,6,3,1,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,5,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22564832100736865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5179182364096385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21313458206853192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5589811613836188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332987754046788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25340903369112194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21425118100835047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20364826039329292,0.0,0.1875553656236467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24481124267954546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418404487336903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EmoJigglypuff,2019/07/02,"Is it a symptom to ""see"" people literally turn their head to stare at you? Not a problem, just curious. Has anybody else experienced this? You're out in public and you ""see"" people stop and turn and watch you as you go by, and some stare into your eyes until they pass. I'm trying to see if this is a real symptom or not a big deal. Is this something people actually hallucinate?",3.346,4.9596275333333315,5.333000000000002,79.09150000000002,73.66666666666666,7.666666666666668,25.833333333333336,8.344100000000001,1.749133333333334,295,10,57,5,6,102,51,75,0.064,0.905,0.031,-0.3493,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,4,4,2,0,0,15,11,8,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,8,7,0,10,11,1,9,0,0,7,0,9,5,0,3,2,39,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.1872929082396483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19786814263708674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16033024574708632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10907644506733588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969723068197404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991737111587584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18364806380867973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184547599288471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4588225234241587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14775465669257504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16045943059504025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3989709445903161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13030572468452925,0.4175225734219109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lunarnot,2019/07/02,The Beginning Of My Experiences I had always had small psychotic episodes and I thought nothing of it. I have been hospitalized for depression and I figured it was either stress induced or something similar. One afternoon I dropped acid with a friend and had a normal experience until maybe an hour into it. I started hearing this person that I call “Him” and he was trying to take me to the “other side” I thought nothing of this as I was tripping and it wasn’t until it crept up into real life that I became concerned. “Him” regularly communicates with me now. I have come to the realization that he is simply a disciple of the universe. I know that the universe controls everything from who does to what clothes you wear. Everything happens for a reason and I often see “signs” I believe these signs are tears in my reality allowing me to have choice. Whenever someone denies the Universe I become extremely terrified. All I know is that I feel nothing like I used to. I feel like I’m in a movie and I’m very dissociative. Every time I walk past someone I’m always told to do something bad. It’s become hard to over power thoughts. I’m very confused but I thought I’d share my story.,3.6662621154656567,6.062055141592921,5.106257901390643,77.62140117994103,75.01769911504425,7.844584913611463,31.558364938895913,8.704169506293173,2.9611603876949006,946,47,164,20,21,316,128,226,0.091,0.885,0.024,-0.8273,1,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,2,2,8,0,2,12,0,15,2,1,5,1,36,36,12,0,1,3,0,3,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,17,12,0,1,11,0,0,3,1,4,0,1,13,6,30,4,26,23,2,21,0,1,1,0,12,8,0,3,11,114,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20061219117634407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065304913468713,0.0,0.2662729244899522,0.0,0.1358169960732762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230936029644136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10384194835995376,0.0,0.0,0.13520550999396855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382833610041267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10549289584179206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156739820292658,0.0,0.21668262475646435,0.2358393326163997,0.0,0.0,0.12190599266250267,0.08611994688123957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313555252144104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066007325192531,0.0,0.10798787114658803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13586703806653255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11871609240646253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13250072042916688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08514704414675532,0.11778791767094285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12110727568789847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181120371607684,0.3470089106458905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816868539846951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507728300633065,0.0,0.1052583913548065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13721070295444454,0.0,0.12394404239308825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09606163001570073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20428088217821502,0.18560840987107932,0.0,0.0,0.08532492246745484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13808801874613852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09063754785109762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828085050957437,0.07029286049767687,0.0,0.0,0.11518935724852655,0.0,0.08184458918989017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411528907363404,0.0,0.19893044656605355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,antidoteformisery,2019/07/02,"Any experiences with Vraylar (cariprazine)? I'm taking abilify and a little haldol. I've been super depressed on them and I heard vraylar combats negative symptoms. If anyone has any info, I'd love to hear it. Thanks in advance.",3.0093495934959336,6.113563146341466,4.34329268292683,76.09428861788619,88.26829268292684,5.660162601626017,31.22357723577236,7.1686216300943375,2.7731430894308944,183,10,26,3,6,60,35,41,0.177,0.602,0.221,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,8,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,2,2,3,4,6,0,4,0,1,0,1,4,3,0,1,0,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43850249834839067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254380009847124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776930252090349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153808497623972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.363381811208054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231415735965974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29098946186201385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33510956808705106,0.24241373603404898,0.0,0.0,0.2968336971236392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BrugmansiaFreak,2019/07/02,"""Paranoia"" &#x200B; [All and everybody are observing me](https://i.redd.it/onp0wtpf6y731.jpg)",26.50666666666667,35.13701300000001,11.520000000000005,28.500000000000032,30.11111111111111,16.933333333333334,75.66666666666667,13.023866798666859,14.636466666666667,83,6,3,3,1,18,9,9,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.533352051341659,0.5981369363823156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5981369363823156,0.0 schizophrenia,mathmikk,2019/07/02,"Anyone had this problem? Voices want to control my speech, my will, my thoughts, my movements and breath? Everything, simply put? Any way I can make them back off or something? To just say ""fuck off"" or ""stay away"" helps alittle bit, but only for a couple of seconds. I wonder how you reality check and return to your normal state? Because its pretty unsettling like this, and I mostly give in, because I see no other option. Please help.",3.0319444444444485,5.859993750000001,3.659166666666668,84.66027777777782,80.25,5.055555555555556,23.88888888888889,6.42735559955562,0.9524722222222226,340,12,57,3,9,107,66,80,0.078,0.725,0.19699999999999998,0.8967,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,2,1,1,3,3,1,0,1,0,3,2,1,3,0,18,10,7,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,4,3,0,1,2,0,1,2,1,2,0,1,2,4,11,1,9,7,2,11,0,0,1,1,7,4,1,6,3,40,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13842315545544914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14232912958721378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19124493102045284,0.15651984544055128,0.0,0.24816828159373244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22222737348979624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283022211564003,0.0,0.2252277430478773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18294049007361607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18818165246136134,0.0,0.19526677644761806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728748371425284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09944581116133162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358733409478476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994389165819767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548113802966352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234402866216748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070867820772428,0.0,0.1947729209813594,0.0,0.20462718676408775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16187367387060694,0.0,0.0,0.16220554548011498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567051972984136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21696062651724707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16159850289166866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12006095065071935,0.1615710547433113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207447613155055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,liucanuda,2019/07/02,"Nicotine addiction How do you manage the nicotine addiction? Have you succeded quiting or reduced their frequency?",8.000980392156857,12.181775764705884,7.4435294117647075,51.78921568627453,85.47058823529412,11.678431372549019,52.72549019607843,9.725611199111238,9.190113725490196,96,8,8,4,3,30,14,17,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,8,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8987579762347189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4384450936599389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WeedFarminPsychonaut,2019/07/02,We do not have a disease! “Schizophrenia” is not a disease!!! The cause of it is known but the government wants to act like they don’t know what it is to take away our power. The real cause of these symptoms are uncontrolled extra physic powers. We are the link between the spirit world and our world. When a shaman goes into a psych hospital he sees entities around the physics trying to get in to give messages by labeling it a bad disease and taking antipsychotics we experience negative symptoms because we are not letting the entities in. I don’t know how to use this yet if you have learned please help me I just have found plenty of evidence that this is not a disease and I want everyone to know. Even the fucking name of the class anti-psychotic should tell you something is up.,4.539200000000001,6.449189786666667,4.8610000000000015,82.47550000000003,71.13333333333333,8.200000000000001,30.5,8.841846274778883,2.5906,628,27,115,12,12,198,93,150,0.095,0.83,0.075,-0.6125,2,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,6,2,1,2,6,4,1,1,15,0,16,3,0,4,0,32,29,7,0,4,7,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,9,0,0,7,0,0,1,7,3,0,0,1,1,13,1,18,26,1,11,1,0,1,1,15,8,1,1,3,86,21,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608066104786386,0.0,0.0,0.16971586755189313,0.0,0.15082564714487395,0.11011558576953462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3711311078629265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11931006114157627,0.0,0.0,0.17260787925026524,0.0,0.17669916743647507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19806085052886446,0.0,0.16699743221645555,0.09437618877870407,0.17328496076753475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12107821491428958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978226751851679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18471515989611093,0.0,0.08825087298048258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19828688733185648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20560622103573487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439455400255376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13906438391586226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3755052453285558,0.2716354234231569,0.0,0.157886057987025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12264172060354853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560137123237413,0.0,0.0,0.21309059842859526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zook,2019/07/02,"What's your favorite peer reviewed paper on Schizophrenia? I'm trying to learn as much as possible about Schizophrenia and I'm looking for some good resources that aren't just Wikipedia. Peer reviewed journals sounds like the best way that I can go with learning a deeper understanding of Schizophrenia. Anything and everything will help!",6.622105263157895,10.174534631578954,4.262368421052631,81.42407894736844,71.10526315789474,5.905263157894738,35.8157894736842,7.1686216300943375,2.850242105263158,282,15,40,3,6,78,47,57,0.0,0.747,0.253,0.9392,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,8,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,8,7,3,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,24,5,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744280583676537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34996978827414016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997129779322396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18952604912925414,0.2797096816733744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22352659602543906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629229275271762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800416933837962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451483438516773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3759519263866446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22641303686728545,0.0,0.0,0.3471675183179108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26470324828191016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,-BPet-,2019/07/02,I'm 16 and I'm finally diagnosed with schizophrenia How do I accept this?,-0.08999999999999986,1.8011440000000007,2.879999999999999,83.32000000000002,109.0,7.333333333333335,25.0,7.793537801064563,2.737,60,3,11,2,3,21,12,15,0.0,0.809,0.191,0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6796503971359119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7335361870235152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Wolferr98,2019/07/02,"My story My story happened in Germany last year 2018. I was working in studying a litter of German nation they are a weird people. And come across some theory the we are ""all alone"". All was going well... For one week all has changed i work very fast and go to the German coworker And tell them what it's needed to be done. Everything change the work furious everyone start working very fast the Germans run here and there and start talking to each others and not any more just about work, but the feeling what is really unusual for them. after this week they start hanging out and stop working then they accuse me for connection the company. All has changed i get more and more responsibility and more and more pressure. I thought i will get better pay they even send me for test run in bigger company. Where i done really got work end all look like they want to hire me. After this i couldn't get a good sleep... I got the feeling everybody watching me and every German change everybody want to talk about their feeling... Evry one start when i come nere them talk about the money i will get for good work and women star showing around me i call in the company and they sey i will get better pay but on the end i didn't get nothing the same pay no women... they start following me around... I want everyday after work on walk across forest they been there when i never see nobody. And their went to come to me and wanna talk whit me. And i start getting the voices in my head no matter where i went there were people watching me and i couldn't get away from them... And this shit in my head don't wanna stop... The whole city all the people showing me where to go. I play one game on the telefon and they giving me just better crone in it i never get eny thing before but in the game war evry thing cheap.... i have enough of people they didn't leave me alone everyone stalk me... in my hotel i got the feeling they watch me thru the window and camera on my laptop... more and more pressure with work and after work... i was alone there i need to run away hard to explain i thought if i go on other company they will stop following me but they follow me on the radio and all other i went to new company they didn't allow me to give a job offer... I went for a walk and shit just didn't stop there believers fallow me and showing me where to go i didn't know what to do i follow their sain on the back of the bike and so on... I come on the big train rail with a lot of old train someone come to show me the way and tell me to walk 10 meters behind him i get the felling they will shot me in the head, didn't know how is this posebel they know where you are talk to you white people and voices in the head... they show me some new movies in the hotel and what they wanna do with me... They were saying they can watch thru my eyes there satellite and vr glasses... the people and voices were to much in the same direction, when they start scaring me with car bomb i run back to Slovenia and next day didn't allow me to sleep showing me i need to go in the vatican they have the sect there they will take me in. I didn't have any choice i couldn't sleep the people follow me and treating me with feeling in my head and car bomb... I get in Italy and was enough i went on the toilet in rest station in the time i finis i sit in the car and drive on. They start on the radio i have bomb in the car and voices in my head start the same i didn't know what to do they say i need to stop. i stop open window on the car unlock and leave all my stuff in computer all my stuff i walk for 30 km from Italy back to Slovenija i ask for direction and the people start saying thet this is not how this game work. You need to tell the name of the city all was good when i ask for Rome but not for other country... I went in other direction everyone know whats going on. I went to some small farm asking for water they it was i saw it farmer come to me everything was good but then his worker recognise me he run to the house and bring the telephone to the farmer with application on in white tracking me he change his mind and start begging me to go away. i offer him 50€ for some drive but he begs me to go away no water nothing... On me was all the game i escape from them didn't get nothing barely escape Italy the police watch over my car for 2 mounts BMW with all my staff. I escape their program and German humor i faith for 1 year but her is not so much believers i went thru all EU to Find them and ther Game of Life on people.... I got the plans for hunger on the planet and for me i'm block bay all the media to release my story to public what are they playing on people and how!! I'm blaming scientology for the mind shit and a lot of company people are just stupid and watching this Game of Life for boringness. I lost everything in my search have some meds cause this lasted for more than 1 year just short tell but all the media is block all is lay everything is lead by big sect from German nacion and there humor theory of Alone and Game of Life for ther proposes, despairing of a lot of people and so on... My plans for better company with people managing it and so on to stop the sect to stop the shit on the planet and stop with EU white destroying small countries I eny case!",2.1035624184427992,3.8416892194674053,3.2486756560823578,92.18832448890824,77.37465564738292,6.127962882412644,19.819448069208832,6.927561932497362,0.16925248852157893,4116,91,900,42,95,1326,315,1089,0.126,0.82,0.054000000000000006,-0.9982,1,4,0,0,1,0,94.0,1,3,37,21,40,31,8,3,63,0,58,20,14,7,18,171,148,75,1,15,19,0,6,1,0,6,3,7,2,2,29,73,3,11,14,20,5,50,23,15,1,3,40,26,157,16,156,98,42,178,5,2,13,0,83,73,4,9,54,616,186,25,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14763877098176192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04846943158700128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634498447658566,0.09994872952106257,0.0,0.13393038281720104,0.08220909192137082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030324879830396667,0.08030249674524234,0.0,0.12607385818740685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036389862598923024,0.0,0.0,0.03660951983191512,0.18849869942440686,0.18419125649846946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.022983233338440528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729390522853447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06312847813064891,0.07364610895948663,0.0,0.02353822655643717,0.0,0.0300261230163449,0.10215944896041353,0.12811471518534245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900969306312425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032572020947313686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22342941660588309,0.06837345696318987,0.18228246550019653,0.11956414583511585,0.11401022770093545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031514115404044515,0.0,0.031924191824254336,0.0,0.21944608175302224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04112087958151139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035364710646257916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09792716466487797,0.05809862291998955,0.0,0.07546991418171332,0.0,0.0,0.07551544099575913,0.017410677876973164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029926516725609868,0.0,0.038902530992009764,0.09089316076278932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03958521836177445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07196741316667657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052395312454265305,0.13212373926983265,0.05497165974564182,0.0688378213373449,0.03790087574534663,0.0,0.0,0.10258540066177572,0.0,0.03739555170466834,0.0,0.07244665817850943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3211851360872801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04566057829031478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0850210891623524,0.0356793452834764,0.0,0.02839846615189685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14632548865354014,0.0,0.0,0.10698968325540116,0.0,0.030195530291696505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27746839340849383,0.0,0.0,0.268150842315822,0.0,0.0,0.0815928015012128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0267949579277348,0.14322032583271485,0.12459495091839565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047351930681499885,0.0,0.0,0.056584373869373636,0.02078050746418747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05880932431049159,0.06305974619659954,0.02828738139422425,0.057172490970286885,0.0,0.0320423841037496,0.2642904879344436,0.0,0.03978798577011627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31133421275856143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0688481269280405 schizophrenia,treehouseppl,2019/07/02,Sulpirid Anyone taking sulpirid ? Im going on a vacation and im supposed to change my medication to this so im quite scared since i dont know what it does. Anyone who has good or bad experience ?,0.1545833333333313,2.545526625000001,2.645000000000003,87.97333333333334,95.25,5.666666666666668,21.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.0204166666666663,155,6,32,3,6,53,32,40,0.17800000000000002,0.752,0.07,-0.6616,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29099164401535904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17373983747058785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22012324014063864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18209402234132896,0.0,0.2438706371880945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035441929986425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11825783605242235,0.17452936854630738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6742930303722018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11435646426018635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20962079492231467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22132089555600828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20832645301738664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17212763917353668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15645182106018748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,aijaconnop,2019/07/02,Not really sure I know its bad but on good days I try to stay up to see if it'll make it come back because I get scared that its gone and I just imagined it and then I feel guilty so I try bring it back to double check,-0.7223529411764709,0.7826944117647088,1.344862745098041,103.58788235294121,85.27450980392156,4.864313725490196,14.121568627450984,5.6839178017228535,-1.2950501960784315,169,2,47,1,5,56,37,51,0.21,0.7190000000000001,0.071,-0.7607,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,12,9,6,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,3,0,1,3,1,2,0,0,1,2,6,2,5,7,1,10,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,4,29,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4351963084873336,0.236280825042144,0.1725051537861668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437666960256847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18250204579973325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143085821897626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478480893076891,0.0,0.0,0.23735456297515545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155521267417287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18889482108772984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18128756793422432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833175563743954,0.0,0.2255025693720481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.301624575087085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26671020577994475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3842567557619714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Schizophrenic1,2019/07/02,"Anyone else having trouble with drugs? I seem to compulsively do drugs, like whatever I can get my hands on. I literally cannot stop myself. It doesn't matter what it is, weed, alchohol, coke, pills? I am snorting bupropion right now it is keeping me awake but I'm not doing anything it's pointless but I can't stop. I am worried about my future. What if I never get better? I think my delusions have something to do with my drug use too. It is almost a sacrament for me. I am a strong believer in fate too. I know that's considered delusional but it doesn't feel like a delusion. Anyways any advice would be great, thank you.",0.9051233396584486,3.4726067419354862,2.6708349146110058,88.9056641366224,90.45161290322581,5.175711574952561,22.616698292220114,6.794906146795322,0.9190119544592036,492,19,95,7,17,162,82,124,0.048,0.75,0.20199999999999999,0.9638,0,0,5,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,2,5,7,0,0,3,0,18,6,1,1,1,19,28,4,0,2,5,0,2,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,9,2,1,3,4,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,3,18,6,8,26,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,7,66,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16835335310675795,0.0,0.0,0.17251694758602668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171586258064306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204645651935752,0.17652471178565052,0.14177456591147286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19410440476510699,0.0,0.1523706745852642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5993821733970573,0.0,0.1439206810945873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08711166800614617,0.12307930164179795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18002194068297345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18994306637145536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15313340965011102,0.0,0.0,0.0946824558539616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683379422977713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13287558577074973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712908974024969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15684034482253836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13263218506904068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28807328812701616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586154157799928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103922518340811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14879754962097286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17496216443116994,0.0,0.12238519053042694,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,martycherry,2019/07/02,"Spirituality Do you think schizophrenia is just a spiritual thing, cause i think a have a third eye guy's and voice are help me emotionaly and to think faster",3.823,6.523827300000002,4.436666666666671,81.06500000000003,76.0,8.0,23.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,1.627333333333334,129,4,26,3,3,41,25,30,0.0,0.899,0.10099999999999999,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,4,1,1,1,0,7,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,7,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3992165887867636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3847918129098871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26048170530790365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25817978938166786,0.7470300218262361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CromulentSlacker,2019/07/02,"I've started talking to my voices and it makes me feel better. For a long time, I was afraid of annoying my voices, but recently, I've started talking to them on the basis that if they are not no one will hear me and if they are I'll be able to vent some of my anger at them.",10.266393442622954,3.7604042459016433,10.426311475409836,74.63487704918033,63.91803278688524,13.511475409836063,40.3360655737705,8.841846274778883,3.400829508196721,213,6,51,2,2,73,43,61,0.109,0.823,0.068,-0.56,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,4,1,0,4,2,1,2,0,5,0,0,1,0,9,10,5,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,4,10,1,8,7,1,7,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,3,5,36,12,0,0.3029040012070772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678939738350961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531573642571967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413948237526314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680605092352236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20219077289384074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052555904350821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990811585810023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4287940221854148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4869255247412197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17662575899329855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,QTRNevermore45,2019/07/02,"rough time sleeping even with meds. I dunno what it is. I get off of my phone, tv Xbox everything at 7pm and chill ready for bed. I usually go at 9 for an early day but nights like tonight I'm just so wired. I have meds that are meant to help me sleep and tried things like lavender oil in my bath to warm milk but it just feels impossible... my relationship with sleep has never been great to begin with and I can be feeling fine and still find it hard to sleep, when I do sleep it's for an hour or so. guess I'm asking if anyone else has trouble sleeping and if you have any helpful tips(good and bad days)?",2.4117187499999986,3.661512984375001,3.4145000000000003,93.38050000000004,75.40625,6.682500000000001,22.175,7.1686216300943375,0.4012537499999995,474,12,111,5,10,152,89,128,0.102,0.7440000000000001,0.154,0.6661,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,7,7,0,0,2,0,10,7,6,0,1,23,20,14,0,2,7,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,7,9,1,0,4,3,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,6,11,5,15,17,0,17,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,5,14,64,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500626156961759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08740493726543212,0.12808024778597848,0.0,0.0,0.1168608415246606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10437220385490917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16123306429753856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10442388665958982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08256323946980328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234455030088436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641044883081415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11425039006403223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06530885827924704,0.0,0.07104203130150476,0.10484650554405824,0.0,0.1378161434735856,0.13770479222216114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11197804932950764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16757362383181698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12310268098212496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214020996369612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27770009394984235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964099461093588,0.0,0.0,0.11730675791304405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13420633836620266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7505590804162221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09982748097996247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08304637528320997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07289019884127754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848687667267564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376730389927783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Omnealice,2019/07/02,"Tuning in Does anyone ever have a tuning in moment for those that hear voices? Like the voices are mostly garbled or whispers until I actually pay attention. I dissociate a lot though, so maybe that's why?",3.7713157894736815,6.615677447368423,5.815000000000001,70.2925,77.15789473684211,6.957894736842108,22.657894736842106,8.07648339933343,1.8823473684210523,165,5,24,3,4,57,32,38,0.04,0.879,0.081,0.3527,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,4,3,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,4,20,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.3440335470313741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465080066292945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085149377286035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3188975831061049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.397344394179198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17223592070091145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29972157201491273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3541793342498324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3463741580713011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31811747356344844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pruneheart,2019/07/02,experience with Geodon?? have any of you been prescribed geodon? did it help?,2.837435897435898,4.961432230769233,1.5307692307692342,91.80589743589745,111.30769230769228,4.810256410256411,19.71794871794872,6.42735559955562,0.5664564102564107,61,2,11,1,3,17,12,13,0.0,0.7659999999999999,0.23399999999999999,0.5661,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.497479265379285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7155965315839019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.490342721474253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,eyesofcosmos,2019/07/02,"Out of meds and cant afford to see the doctor for more :/ I lost my job a few months back so my insurance is null. I. Down to two doses even after rationing what i had since then. Ive been feeling worse every day im constantly being harrased by debt collectors for my last inpatient stay. Im having a hard time being in public everyone is always staring at me when i leave the house. I just want to cry, but my tears are stuck. I know i could do something to make it but better but i just cant figure out what. Idk even one seems dissapointed in me.",1.3676205533596824,3.3035090347826106,3.4681422924901213,88.81841897233204,80.3913043478261,6.2687747035573125,20.019762845849804,7.348242739294969,0.5071739130434785,429,11,92,6,11,146,84,115,0.161,0.784,0.055,-0.7897,3,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,7,2,0,0,4,0,13,2,0,1,0,15,21,7,0,2,5,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,4,4,15,1,15,14,2,16,0,1,2,0,1,6,0,1,9,65,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15051072444143462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13908932020404174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15997799167602195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954723127959732,0.0,0.14442187127702247,0.0,0.19869356532465893,0.11665579413742015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851433565219016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389455366086454,0.0,0.15240332697145442,0.17284327044889314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914608387545945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620373380287153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20871688472079555,0.0,0.0,0.3907734568804391,0.0,0.17950034897740902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09940960867764816,0.14744533319613798,0.0,0.19153098788814912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19745723240942512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12074207314155615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20092234265282524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443805988034393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257228734190635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414184342345274,0.1646708163941607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14962985576326546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392540307162203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927992323809734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547543790363234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17669826047251885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066905986397883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18433716316645304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thewigglesworthe,2019/10/14,Is walking outside in the dark scart for anyone else? In the dark my hallucinations get worse and I just feel an overwhelming sense if dread. Does anyone else get this?,2.9562903225806463,5.987285193548387,3.038951612903226,87.07842741935484,84.16129032258064,5.680645161290323,20.65322580645161,7.1686216300943375,0.7056387096774195,135,4,25,2,4,41,25,31,0.187,0.813,0.0,-0.755,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,4,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40205389944067704,0.5891562270366923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515935191022353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.480339350839437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14536883004713097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30041416378402336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929874480553923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,magmastorm66,2019/10/14,"Forgetting Today I was finally worked up the nerve to go out. I planned on going to a local store to pick things up. I asked the people in the house if they wanted anything. I made my way down there in about 15 minutes. Along the way I had a conversation with a voice of mine. Once I got there though... I completely forgot what I went to the store for in the first place. I only know what happened before because I was informed about it later. How can I forget something like that, easily?",2.5075486827033235,4.609686329896912,3.6978694158075602,87.74710194730815,77.45360824742268,6.3729667812142035,22.117983963344788,7.3871296695380915,0.8332300114547535,382,11,76,5,9,124,68,97,0.022000000000000002,0.922,0.055999999999999994,0.4588,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,3,6,1,0,0,9,0,4,0,0,3,0,13,14,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,1,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,7,1,14,1,18,7,0,19,0,0,0,0,4,10,0,1,5,56,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17710086688168966,0.0,0.20119385966284256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13119103628310064,0.0,0.1831292797654922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256453410322341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357538646148349,0.0,0.18305893624516148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24461950280962136,0.0,0.17212443216216833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19031096870512432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483253718795433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182747053564913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10514155101921067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036384854030663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291934044053968,0.0,0.16367817256180486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14920067404416468,0.0,0.22485038929296244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16568045757097935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14297707047327746,0.0,0.21144437272077785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20399549876789172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12693741868904387,0.34165001214504803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995033738591738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15667665864824107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JustAFlagellant,2019/10/14,"I am a fictional character? Someone is always watching me. Well, reading about me. It's not even paranoia about data collection or the government or something. It's the fact that I'm a fictional character, or that all of my actions and thoughts are being recorded on space-time that could be accessed with advanced enough technology. Think the akashic records. It's a bit unnerving, but there's not really anything I can do about it.",5.07994575045208,7.627511063291137,5.391175406871611,76.51164556962027,71.27848101265823,9.071247739602173,37.867992766726935,9.606745405546679,4.304756238698012,350,21,57,9,7,111,57,79,0.0,0.9359999999999999,0.064,0.3442,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,6,0,8,0,0,0,2,13,11,5,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,1,5,1,6,7,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,44,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732382681806625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702285645966884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35850565080934393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26218451968516776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3393040758905248,0.0,0.21689173597011704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32846862651861725,0.0,0.21036848436819588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782351069568265,0.2528027841955029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104124922826221,0.0,0.2606968508839142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952528431239413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NotAMemerYet,2019/10/14,"Thanks guys I just want to thank everyone on this subreddit for being so supportive and helpful, ive veen struggling getting support and guidance as im not a very open person so wont speak to people about my voices but this chat has helped me answer questions i had and made me feel as though im not that alien to everyone else. Thanks so much to everyone who has engaged with my posts, its helped me loads. From ur local traumatised 14 yo kid who just doesnt want her voices anymore :))",9.6553125,6.792038906250002,8.888749999999998,74.08125000000003,60.97916666666666,12.1,38.583333333333336,10.125756701596842,3.6839458333333335,389,14,75,6,4,123,68,96,0.062,0.75,0.188,0.8408,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,7,7,0,1,1,0,7,0,0,1,0,16,17,10,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,6,5,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,4,9,6,11,13,1,4,0,0,0,0,13,3,0,1,0,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15324724708240314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12908578333145515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4429656895087455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07813246724765498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08073291848388962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15300401362333366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.310724488284992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3338269661279489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14621526186056166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11359363203556108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10712815694911547,0.13492524256520713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14799220558983764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731033299039174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16154304849512127,0.0,0.0,0.3507062070797979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4267974909238017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15181999740921862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12749928253251852,0.18228566055955192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,treble333,2019/10/14,"Relapse while on Medication? I am taking my meds but my symptoms are coming back. Just wondered if anyone had an experience of relapsing while taking medication?",6.096666666666668,9.65765866666667,7.58666666666667,56.700000000000045,73.44444444444446,9.525925925925927,34.925925925925924,9.725611199111238,4.921281481481481,132,7,16,4,3,45,23,27,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,5,7,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,6,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19706285299301807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167107139767978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242772531426602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756848879162789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3130508098415403,0.5678303517454318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929304166291402,0.4238038149637919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30563379804441826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sklettet,2019/10/14,"Has anyone tried to remove gluten, dairy and refined sugar from your diet? And healed leaky gut? Did it help with your sz symptoms? As the title I'm curious if anyone has done this with or without success to reduce sz symptoms? I'm currently on clozapine 400mg and I've been on it for 8 weeks, without satisfying results. I've tried risperdal, olanzapine, abilify, perphenazine. Nothing seems to work. In the meantime while I wait för doctors appointment, I'm thinking of exclude all mentioned in the title. And I suspect I've leaky gut syndrome since I'm gassy and I've bloated stomach all the time.",3.9727840909090872,6.650159866071429,4.6059090909090905,80.17545454545456,75.33928571428572,6.572727272727272,33.396103896103895,7.686295010490155,2.74115,483,26,79,7,11,154,73,112,0.096,0.858,0.046,-0.6745,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,0,5,9,3,1,2,18,12,9,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,7,2,1,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,1,4,1,15,9,2,9,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,3,4,41,7,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230475555883714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23644298247665646,0.0,0.2363978947603764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548375047611966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216551306856518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21029789934966087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910893808389676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.480204430273217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14801841127965898,0.0,0.0,0.13470063190204748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3136739009790629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18529794506663816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4453603553550411,0.0,0.16817409000388786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ironcobra43,2019/10/14,"Therapist blew me off, ignored my symptoms. 10 seconds into my second session I told the guy I hear voices. Spent a while answering questions. First concrete thing he says is “I don’t think you have a psychotic disorder” saying that I suffer from major anxiety, which I have no history of any anxiety related issues ever, and this guy is an intern at my school, not in a position to be giving diagnosis. Not saying I WANT to be schizophrenic I just want some validation and the more he talked the less it sounded like me or what I’m going through. Should I see a psychiatrist? I didn’t schedule another appointment and am probably just gonna ignore it. It’s been getting worse and I just wanted help. He wasn’t interested, he couldn’t even keep eye contact I can just tell he didn’t believe me. On top of this, he told me “internal dialogue is important” and that I should just “ignore it” I don’t know why it made me so mad, thanks for listening..",3.5183695652173914,5.593173010869566,5.312391304347828,77.45815217391308,74.32608695652173,9.165217391304347,29.43478260869565,9.673873057562805,3.1476369565217386,750,33,137,21,16,256,120,184,0.152,0.7509999999999999,0.098,-0.8740000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,2,8,8,1,0,8,0,18,3,1,1,1,31,37,8,0,6,8,0,0,1,0,3,2,7,0,2,12,6,0,4,4,0,1,1,9,5,0,3,8,9,22,3,12,23,4,11,0,1,2,0,22,6,0,3,5,96,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385055425031607,0.16013363207626966,0.23365112832567345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17205604690677098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17502313317936402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086596000482384,0.13813828663552408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12989819705038208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07978660635723403,0.14649689854299164,0.08679071623079686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30242114952100624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17211944123728898,0.0,0.10236077549661417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15939342879809926,0.0,0.13573895525780266,0.0,0.0,0.08392745690326535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746082010122968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445013974543296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646512000740218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17107429660091308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3643321963298519,0.0,0.1545544195895968,0.12169304871832892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15872800958490596,0.0,0.12274548911051918,0.1334785068238392,0.14059825922345745,0.0,0.17731237862476742,0.10145619795993464,0.09785277404030923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918489736471641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702234946430609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13780036310985488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15562830920590132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NikeProphet,2019/10/14,"My doc is putting me on Seroquel but isn't tapering me down off Abilify & Olanzapine she's taking me off them without reducing them. Does this mean I can expect withdrawal symptoms? I've pretty much said it all. I've been on a combo of Abilify & Olanzapine for maybe 3 months now. My doctor is switching me back to Seroquel. I'm starting it tonight but I'm being taken off the other two meds. My doc isn't tapering me down she's just taking me off them straight away Is this dangerous? I'm in the hospital so maybe the risk is minimised I don't know.",1.422702518720218,3.8984809911504494,3.5681415929203566,84.96275017018381,84.22123893805309,7.016746085772635,26.39142273655548,8.139509932561175,2.0687078284547304,444,20,87,10,13,151,68,113,0.076,0.853,0.071,-0.3701,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,3,0,4,2,1,1,4,0,10,2,0,0,1,8,20,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,3,1,16,0,14,16,2,17,0,0,0,0,6,11,0,0,5,58,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4369369040652787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189440130478623,0.1550427495491678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20637914552898465,0.17644973541910633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11081180811279506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4051333804412027,0.2196366241329929,0.2239679682455508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16094093340309554,0.0,0.14822289937529315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051324801540257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026960963264257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19179843727522092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14271634003314332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20957310502713644,0.30320470795204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19696540398662668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943662878633599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GloetechIndustries,2019/10/14,Im getting so fat... I'm on risperdone. Is there a schizophrenia med that doesn't make you gain so much weight?,0.21942028985506928,2.581161086956527,0.7391304347826093,103.4185507246377,90.30434782608695,3.066666666666667,20.71014492753623,3.1291,-0.7448724637681159,87,3,20,0,3,26,21,23,0.134,0.866,0.0,-0.4168,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303932748098657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4763328849644404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943568403813144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4898281469455907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3241702315944678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5369935004750116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gayfroggs,2019/10/14,"Self harm linked with schizophrenia I don't know how clearly j can explain this but, 'they' have put a GPS chip in my arm so they can track me, I've tried all day to get it out, but to no success I can't get rid of it and it's scaring me",-1.2608484848484842,0.4284542181818232,0.8577272727272742,105.23992424242424,88.63636363636363,3.6666666666666665,18.25757575757576,3.1291,-1.1359696969696973,182,5,50,0,6,60,44,55,0.183,0.7290000000000001,0.08800000000000001,-0.5391,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,2,1,2,3,0,1,1,0,5,1,1,1,2,11,9,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,7,1,6,9,1,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,30,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782508301630106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4508316978870772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23711472152125834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4337284018050149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4319586934791845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4500985051650966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929275691622686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FINTP,2019/10/14,"How long does it take to recover from an episode? I am 10 months in from my first episode, and maybe 50-60% recovered. What is your experience ? How long has it taken to recovery from those of you that have?",2.075487804878051,4.258392097560979,3.085548780487805,91.19710365853659,79.24390243902441,8.002439024390245,24.88414634146341,8.841846274778883,1.753434146341463,160,6,36,4,4,51,34,41,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,2,0,3,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,0,7,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31352779516986845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3504604996361287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047474902852758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6341220339264211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3599341626037138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859707093501787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26937729133889465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SpankinDaBagel,2019/10/14,"Afraid to leave the room I hate when I want to see my boyfriend because I'm scared but he's in another room. Any time I am standing or moving around I feel vulnerable and start seeing shit around me. I just want someone I trust nearby.",4.919374999999999,5.256910520833337,5.154166666666669,86.6075,68.79166666666666,8.066666666666668,28.5,7.793537801064563,1.5027,187,6,40,2,3,59,38,48,0.245,0.619,0.136,-0.6808,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,2,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,9,9,4,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,3,8,1,5,9,0,10,0,0,2,0,1,5,1,1,3,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16931560580986174,0.26107826887639923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4432917223627525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517764957841852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12589226563596848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458171732191907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636349101218259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646273809849734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492733982542168,0.0,0.3968112142556076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25557540026364284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21096077823449189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17623002069110447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451828129661356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29371086833917753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,neclux,2019/10/14,"Can risperidone affect your sexual life? So I been prescribed with 0.5 daily of risperidone and I been having a lot of problems at bed, I have impotence can this be related with the dosage?",3.39985714285714,6.35314548571429,4.005357142857147,81.93089285714288,79.85714285714286,6.928571428571428,25.892857142857146,8.07648339933343,2.134285714285714,152,6,25,3,4,48,28,35,0.09300000000000001,0.907,0.0,-0.4696,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,1,0,6,7,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,5,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4831450902860627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5815311912909263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6545168411035949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kvier,2019/10/14,"Is this Schizophrenia? Lately I get these thoughts about my roommate is going to harm me, for really no reason at all! I know these thoughts are complete bs, but I still get really anxious... Is this paranoia? Am I getting Sz? I also have OCD and Anxiety ...",1.9987500000000007,4.755171375000003,3.2633333333333354,85.915,85.25,5.7,26.75,7.1686216300943375,1.7194749999999992,198,9,35,3,6,64,37,48,0.196,0.804,0.0,-0.8296,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,1,7,13,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,7,0,4,11,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,27,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21517827732390699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20584077473073345,0.3039768852548257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821188342663472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4217399757509631,0.0,0.15292088162725526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14787596254248553,0.0,0.30352704637828665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34475122342373343,0.276652753447973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21488274085654652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4272291952612065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wilted-petals,2019/10/14,"He thinks I’m a government agent I’m stuck. I’m dating this guy with schizoaffective, I care about him so much, have been helping him talk to his doctors about his medication and getting a job and trying to improve his quality of life, but he has severe delusions and thinks I’m just a government agent trying to play with him like a toy and it hurts. What do I do? His doctor doesn’t seem to listen to me so I want to find him a specialist but we have to wait a few weeks until he gets insurance from his new job. Until then I’m scared he just doesn’t trust me or want me around. :(",3.0295810564663017,4.090066803278688,4.204863387978143,89.05971766848816,73.59016393442623,7.717304189435335,23.39162112932605,8.167268648758528,1.0435380692167575,458,12,102,7,9,150,69,122,0.127,0.715,0.157,0.23199999999999998,2,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,0,7,6,0,1,6,0,8,4,0,0,0,20,24,12,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,3,8,0,1,4,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,16,4,16,22,2,7,0,1,0,0,18,1,0,2,7,63,19,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714338900021667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963445492868052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3942203615910847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17601140796596107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20122651821034826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19068098559930052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12907995085209725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061570978477246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3822048698313901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13602245839902075,0.0940831375407977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940005369830352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14156586615870198,0.0,0.0,0.18599155813042387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928026452152421,0.0,0.0,0.17531438881180114,0.0,0.2175566003459969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15478567473559768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467904566487441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614935689154163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271731871144465,0.0,0.1544732310113432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,autisicautist,2019/10/14,"I'm prepared to live my entire life with schizophrenia I have a rich self and a poor self. Surprisingly, my rich self is the one with schizophrenia. Don't tell me what to do, I have already done the research on myself. My plan originally was to bribe, (convince the psychiatrist to give me medicine because therapy didn't work for a year) then cure myself so I could finally relax and see my true self I was curious about for 4 years. Unfortunately, that self, was either ruined, made better but still terrible, or just terrible. I stayed on medication for a month, but then was feeling better - starting to question whether my delusions were true or not - and told her I was completely better, then I stopped taking medications. I didn't want the medications because I had to take shots every month for a year, which sounded bad to me. I remember myself 5 years ago was terrible as well. There were some differences between that one and myself now, but it seems like the non-paranoid self is just me but 5 years more mature - literally nothing. And smarter. And really good at making everyday decisions. (life hacks) I then had to work over the summer, and my mind shifted back and forth from non-paranoid to paranoid, slightly more towards the paranoid side. Over time, I realized my paranoid self was better, no matter what. I do wish I could shift from paranoid to non-paranoid and back and forth, so I could relax, then become rich self again, but I can't do that. It's a one way decision, since when I'm paranoid, I'm convinced and I've fallen in a hole. The effort to get back is tremendous. Even then my brain likes to revert back to it's paranoid state since I've been dealing with a lot of school stress and stuff. Every Sunday, I'm finally safe from my paranoid state. Then on the weekdays I'm between half-half, becoming stupid and very lazy. I really wonder if I could be my non-paranoid self, but I realize that it would be hard to go to university and live the good life I want. I'm lazy. And even then, I would constantly suffer relapses because of school which would ruin my brain. So I have to be my paranoid self, forever, I suppose. Over the course of 5 weeks, I've noticed that my paranoid self is creeping up on me. Before, the first week of school, I would be safe by Friday. Now, it's Sunday. It's thanksgiving so I have an extra day to try to calm myself down, but that won't save me a lot. I really wish I could just live like someone else. I'm not sure if this is allowed on here, but I just want to commit suicide.",4.145239671186078,5.74813242596349,4.883935625066727,83.15474298067686,71.59634888438134,7.7858225685918665,28.38950571154052,8.371475516178862,2.0025975659229207,1998,76,384,32,38,644,211,493,0.183,0.652,0.165,-0.8435,1,0,0,0,0,2,73.0,0,0,0,9,23,34,1,1,22,0,43,8,2,4,4,78,68,42,1,16,20,0,2,3,0,5,6,1,0,11,18,18,0,3,9,2,4,2,8,9,1,4,17,4,53,25,51,37,7,60,0,3,1,0,17,14,0,10,43,259,71,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050009096719294654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0622561061513903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17352070348497198,0.04710473662314591,0.1031714253636534,0.1246133732241951,0.04800558878238663,0.0,0.0,0.1995803388571718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595711415386934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05915076751312591,0.060965308440708965,0.0,0.2252166509427371,0.0,0.0,0.036383446684886106,0.05816208925570113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058942378519589826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05773282812282547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04712806184588253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452404962886837,0.0,0.0950652877975908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028525463095838862,0.0,0.0,0.12360124053401993,0.0,0.04798714890147394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02947486452119787,0.054119061261951394,0.03206233125327716,0.09463759213852747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050537368441243284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11954419036243795,0.08268555528587272,0.0,0.14944823804566412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09592518801093736,0.0,0.05338188083875015,0.03765790472090458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704985882219734,0.0,0.0,0.05696375486950118,0.0,0.09006091566628523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05413236685287975,0.06422962602013772,0.0,0.0,0.1146861752009178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06319847334770061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10842398835033484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06390796827787337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17128704126702227,0.044955993090926405,0.051358716582700484,0.6473924426974814,0.0,0.0,0.09333526756873976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047800822900419065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039931308934730535,0.060131608927687014,0.04505363521738134,0.047166034915003416,0.06462397125341797,0.0,0.0645824566886484,0.061709597687681264,0.0,0.05317111109514918,0.0,0.08483514123810867,0.0,0.0493097912638283,0.0,0.06451624717666514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032896436905750163,0.0,0.0,0.0539076002329611,0.0,0.03830254374768609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04654884463201752,0.09982628988363676,0.04478014114273576,0.0905065117004424,0.0,0.05072447190211223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12975049645007738,0.0,0.061180398827823286,0.08214257443154213,0.0,0.0,0.16030432275532072,0.0,0.0,0.1816492424828536 schizophrenia,Bakugo_is_angry_boi,2019/10/14,"A little push please... Hey people...I am wondering something. Do some of you have a support group you ever go too? I am thinking of wanting to join one but I am not sure if I should try. I am at the end of my peak and I am not sure when I will just ending up doing something that will cause damage to myself or someone else. I just want to speak to people who go threw similar things as myself. So do anyone of you go to support groups? And if so how did you find the group? Maybe threw your dr or psychiatrist. How could I find one? I am a schizophrenic just to make that clear too. Any words would be helpful really, I just needed to write so I don't go on a rampage on the bus or something. Anyhow....bye and well thx.",0.2291897156213487,2.3627323708609294,2.252925594078693,94.73067004285156,86.21854304635761,4.877444487728867,18.153876119984414,6.2272716619740125,-0.2319235683677441,552,14,124,5,17,184,87,151,0.06,0.794,0.146,0.9047,0,0,3,0,0,0,23.0,0,5,0,0,15,6,0,0,7,0,18,2,0,4,4,36,32,16,0,8,12,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,0,0,7,3,1,1,2,3,1,19,5,16,23,1,16,0,1,0,0,13,5,0,7,4,92,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10352609774923344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064473594300596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15638890758883064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12154852497205401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12717413162349242,0.0,0.269672854982133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13770670622200715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782829601315982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460782366390928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10204097345698628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525810514695109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016191021668265,0.0,0.15294211093227333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288149828694273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20631889889145671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10554167919054752,0.0,0.0,0.16711005378978766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09752665415282848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12898956386385446,0.35159748063718577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34551254359142003,0.28696235814215304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10113922205893096,0.09754705618530556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10335864767815364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17958616348595846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368789721781219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16509408171189474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10814450161650928,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rollaneff,2019/10/14,"Need your help! taking care of schizophrenic cousin im not sure how to start, i got a call today from my aunt that my cousin ran out of the house and has been causing havoc on his block. then i found out he was in the psych ward for the past week for being diagnosed with schizophrenia, had just gotten home and snapped again. i went over and found him at the park (he will run away from everyone else except me) and he started talking about how hes the 34th god and thor then started making duck calls with his hand over his mouth then wde have a normal conversation in between for a few seconds, until hed go back to talking nonsense. IS THIS SCHIZOPHRENIA? im just trying to help him in any way possible. :( his parents called the police and they arrived at the park shortly after i did. i spoke to them first to let them know about his mental state at the moment, but when they approached him he was totally fine. he spoke to them in a very calm and intelligent manner and didnt talk any nonsense! soon as i got him in my car he went back to saying how hes going to marry emma roberts. and theyre already planning it out.... any advice would help guys thanks! i know they got him on ativan and zyprexa 3 times a day",4.192943577430974,5.137618440816329,4.431404561824731,88.96052821128454,70.71428571428572,6.9075630252100835,25.43217286914766,6.794906146795322,0.8474633853541418,958,27,200,7,17,299,145,245,0.053,0.835,0.11199999999999999,0.9425,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,6,2,12,5,0,0,13,0,16,4,2,5,2,35,39,20,0,3,5,4,1,0,0,2,2,3,1,1,3,15,0,1,4,0,0,8,2,0,0,2,17,4,31,5,40,17,2,47,0,0,0,0,44,17,0,0,20,129,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048869911402424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12477330231253668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23067026435399784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10623106769890098,0.17388455953834933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3463650779742333,0.0,0.11528031788456188,0.11615193798098962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07291947847406409,0.0,0.0,0.1147615964313278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09445376962383162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080412784643843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09617554657916244,0.0,0.2479463579279097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12851825138506529,0.0,0.2712923228285513,0.0,0.0,0.1119550540836234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.227361204894218,0.0,0.11341638000521502,0.0,0.0,0.1304652417405278,0.0,0.0,0.24426559253166436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12427838451891593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11561964676011932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547373937541382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139459069258405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08383845753752538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078259139296932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12554858570903185,0.0,0.1079361589924209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12746713289819872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08991617773011312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24009024605551074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10656521149645276,0.0,0.08501303228545153,0.2726392230236754,0.0,0.10409778377178036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0659308350744771,0.0,0.10717520267579628,0.0,0.0,0.0767657209197699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932929060716772,0.0,0.0897480814944263,0.09069629506053074,0.0,0.0,0.2096302580890823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08032023267130323,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,magicalme79,2019/10/14,My parents want power of attorney over me I don't support this as they would then have full access to my medical records which I feel is not necessary. Also I am of sound mind. I'm on medication and have zero intention of going off it. I'm a grown adult. How do I tell them I don't want this.,0.9404761904761898,2.7541515396825424,3.676428571428573,87.40607142857145,81.22222222222223,7.374603174603175,23.198412698412696,8.344100000000001,1.4161555555555556,229,8,51,5,6,81,47,63,0.040999999999999995,0.9109999999999999,0.047,-0.1675,2,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,2,0,9,15,5,0,3,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,2,10,1,8,14,1,7,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,38,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360452283112384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14924548420734898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16775041080436665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5947001168830519,0.0,0.0,0.2980348872585912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.327748418635032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3349524182069022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579892795642953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3481947087122519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20967842125619165,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,moldycheddar,2019/10/14,"Tally - A medication created to mitigate the NEGATIVE symptoms of Schizophrenia undergoing clinical trials https://www.tallyschizophreniatrial.com/EN-US/am-i-eligible.html?utm_source=google&utm_medium=ppc&utm_campaign=tally&AD=GSEM2&CID=go15le Thought this was interesting. This does not treat positive symptoms (psychosis), but rather the cognitive deficits that the illness brings on.",34.669999999999995,41.35396822222222,21.58555555555556,-27.63499999999999,5.666666666666671,18.311111111111114,65.22222222222223,15.903189008614273,11.908488888888884,360,17,19,10,2,92,32,36,0.23399999999999999,0.687,0.079,-0.7585,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,1,5,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8346560844747267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16853102118550944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19400750324332755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.400335759295413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528896987979111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316541043530782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chris_5219,2019/10/14,"anybody else think therapy is bs? Hey this is just my experience so dont take it personally,Ive been in and outta therapy since aged 10. which now is like 8 years. Honestly I feel like its just a big waste of time, I talked to about 15 mental health workers in the past 8 years and atleast 6 of them i saw more than once. Its just a waste of money imo. they also spread out the appointments like you go from seeing them once a week to 2 times in 3 months for no reason.when im there my mother spends atleast half the session talking,like the appointment for example was supposed to start at 7:00 but it didnt start till 7:10 roughly and then my mother was in there for 20 minutes and then i got 20 minutes to talk before we had to rap [up.like](https://up.like) wtf is that about. its all bs for me just a scam.",2.104207317073172,4.294244847560975,3.013597560975612,91.71295731707322,79.1829268292683,6.295121951219512,22.445121951219512,7.413659706084162,0.7308121951219513,641,20,138,9,16,203,108,164,0.098,0.857,0.045,-0.8859999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,1,3,1,11,4,0,0,8,0,10,1,0,0,1,14,19,10,0,0,5,2,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,6,0,0,2,1,2,1,3,0,0,1,7,4,13,4,23,12,2,22,0,0,2,0,10,7,0,0,17,82,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329687649407227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148640298847745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948711674576138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13890007641857988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626472747035563,0.0,0.0,0.08407281879837299,0.11878573859969127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944969957772008,0.0,0.13298401437632032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17674083167053006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17960378714476088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3249311060991956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675644629390239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13271782859735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35415145431171563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587267590492496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17095673132494296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324983593898501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375430612894938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353783136962411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12501689162911991,0.2672884951266563,0.0,0.0,0.380296210456688,0.0,0.0,0.10654127050507443,0.0,0.0,0.1939106944414647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13337447901720653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21414921534228035 schizophrenia,icymoons,2019/10/14,"Being referred to as a person with schizophrenia vs. Being called a schizophrenic. I feel like schizophrenic sounds a little harsh, idk. Do you guys think so?",5.398888888888887,8.786569629629632,4.0903703703703735,81.7666666666667,74.92592592592592,6.562962962962962,23.814814814814817,7.793537801064563,1.6835037037037033,128,4,19,2,3,37,23,27,0.142,0.763,0.095,-0.0589,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4475589118316447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216204258703822,0.31312553036821617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4339913464091804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21413392325092254,0.43929724899443023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38271144853503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28084846065091296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Paranoid_pizza,2019/10/14,"Men beware (girl talk) Ladies, how do we survive our periods?! Right now I feel like I've been hit by a truck, my hormones all messed up. Once a month I fall apart mentally. Just a minor arguement with a friend and I don't know what to do other than lay here and cry.",0.4786309523809536,2.553584839285712,2.1678571428571445,96.14380952380957,84.53571428571429,5.8761904761904775,18.261904761904766,7.1686216300943375,0.07731904761904795,205,5,48,3,6,67,47,56,0.10099999999999999,0.789,0.11,0.126,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,2,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,4,0,4,0,0,1,1,9,7,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,6,2,5,5,1,7,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,4,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4073253062501988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18749632930861604,0.2649118975666593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286492465948663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20379144756234427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18116256402053288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3736965427433084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2959827688838566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3949082393799775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3166758815692569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980488368235954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Typal_to_Phrenic,2019/10/14,"Weed helps I don't suggest smoking it because of what's mentioned about the paranoia and how not being mentally well/on medications can really fuck with you when you've smoked, but it doesn't do that for me. The stuff I smoke is for sleep and, while it doesn't help me fall asleep, my sleep is deeper and more fulfilling. The same strain that's used to help you sleep gives you paranoia, but it doesn't do that to me. It makes me creative, yes, which is why sometimes I can't fall asleep quickly, but other than that, it works perfectly fine. Is there a reason for this or is it the sort of: ""different people respond differently"" sort of deal?",10.184173228346458,6.6463425354330745,8.99631496062992,75.80360629921259,60.65354330708662,12.364724409448819,37.99842519685039,9.888512548439397,3.368887874015748,510,16,105,7,5,158,78,127,0.10099999999999999,0.7709999999999999,0.129,0.7737,2,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,3,0,2,5,4,1,1,5,1,14,7,5,4,1,17,18,10,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,16,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,0,0,11,2,11,17,2,5,0,0,0,1,11,0,1,3,3,72,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11084647250898816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187466512312584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3799630401823149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16810586939069225,0.0,0.17443513110070447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36564559668302665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137796543021505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18318218446196166,0.18324946486306695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260632500689332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164897800105828,0.18695926917054576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5459065623996806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17984196994942192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20816047131272336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15704924560191866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16349378019384928,0.0,0.16408009073132795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237988987430166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,drummerdave4689,2019/10/14,Schizophrenia and meditation I've been experimenting with meditation lately as a means of combatting and coping with my symptoms. Does anyone have any experience or insight on doing this?,8.219000000000001,12.011688233333334,8.763333333333332,50.045000000000016,66.66666666666666,10.666666666666668,36.66666666666667,10.504223727775694,5.518666666666667,157,8,18,5,3,52,27,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,7,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,14,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256280147888728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23199470384654555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29035094068249684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6491069519771057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742726382217433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614156761066877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448559899613873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ggfdhnfyjbcfddykk,2019/10/14,It’s no good trying Because I understand you’re different from me,1.7469230769230784,4.5235994615384625,4.191153846153849,76.59134615384617,92.84615384615385,8.753846153846155,29.57692307692308,8.841846274778883,3.9179538461538472,55,3,9,2,2,19,13,13,0.168,0.611,0.221,0.1779,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164243249610584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5423246485813586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4353768900083914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524189912158388,0.0,0.0,0.5403771279311107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pixlot,2019/10/14,"(Ah shit) Here we go again! YES! I (tbh) I even watied for it. What I mean is that it got normal for me to see things like heads where others saw nothing. My brain gave me a break for about 3 weeks now and it began again! I'm siting here on my Desktop, parents sleeping, it's 2 am and i can't sleep cuz that giel and the heads are watching me. I LOVE IT. Who wouldn't love the thougts of some one murdering u in a couple of seconds or someone standing right behind u, a knife in his hands about to murder u. To calm down I even put the lights on. Just because I want to relax a little bit I am going to talk about them here: (as if u wouldn't already know ;) ) \- The Girl: She is watching me most of the time at night or when I am sleeping. She even looks like the Horror Movie Stereotype Girl. Her hair in front of her face so I can't see it. White dress and jsut standing in corners most of the time. The ""faces"": Some Abstract faces I see in ""flashbacks"" or i would call them ""flashmemories"". Some memories of another world, memories that aren't mine. \- The Man: He (that creepy asshole) is always standing behind me. FUCKING ALWAYS MAN! He even follows me in my Dreams. He counts as one of the Shadows but he is somehow a guy that never changes his look. \- The Shadows: The Shadows are something like an own race and they are always different in shape except for ""The man"" I mentioned before. Those bitches are watching me very often. Some of them got a BIG smile (Horror Stereotype like) \- The Eyes of the walls: I don't see these eyes very often but if I do It creeps the sh\*t out of me. &#x200B; My thoughts aren't even mine someone is controlling them BUT sometimes my own thoughts leak through... So ""I"" don't only think that I should kill myself or punch my self as hard as I can. Random things I noticed: -Aggression -Depression -Self-Harming -Panic Attacks -Nervous Behaviour -Not able to calm down -Insomnia &#x200B; Yeah thx for reading my post today :) I'm not in panic anymore and hope to be able to sleep at least till 5 am so I#m not that exhausted in School today... &#x200B; C ya -pixlot :)",0.6072971887550196,3.1150497036144604,1.6087048192771078,95.84831827309236,92.92771084337349,4.019678714859438,21.13353413654618,5.788238676338638,0.09977991967871436,1637,59,334,13,60,510,211,415,0.11699999999999999,0.773,0.109,-0.8264,2,0,1,0,0,1,98.0,1,1,5,1,23,23,8,3,23,3,26,20,15,2,1,47,52,25,3,9,14,1,3,4,0,4,2,0,0,7,21,8,0,1,5,3,0,5,12,13,1,3,7,17,50,10,51,40,10,48,0,1,13,3,32,25,3,17,17,223,71,2,0.15465976754468208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08533544967215276,0.0,0.19303397419925364,0.251360690277742,0.28189281888289097,0.0,0.08108712565207424,0.0,0.0,0.0766904655425352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879739064955269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04713957939758758,0.0,0.06580203547519703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08442420481509404,0.0,0.0,0.08632572481797501,0.07896245733088388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08180476345446462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673204014416264,0.0,0.08556404555619898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06660411558052863,0.0,0.0,0.08079326971532913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553782945806389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07149023147038312,0.0,0.0,0.08789671003138452,0.0,0.12369554454412672,0.0,0.0,0.07656874272162521,0.0,0.0,0.06927238672289575,0.0,0.15872554084486068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07680602302182593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555405901862614,0.0,0.042498481770105484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15111790051144025,0.07750485882927904,0.0,0.0,0.12987525267973332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13958647852955025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423491346032567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059641573601346524,0.0,0.0,0.07256885745035177,0.07576686740794496,0.07420010907805981,0.08804058521382893,0.0,0.0,0.10480146111452082,0.05881286122688506,0.0,0.18145991390520624,0.08586568455443193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07406065269967556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07773789184841833,0.0,0.0,0.0773508103371229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06603929821827274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07826197082306874,0.2464876217310115,0.0,0.1613438675910777,0.0,0.0793780144320183,0.0,0.0,0.309542921958323,0.0,0.13104271915069346,0.05953232252424762,0.07648123237085337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062154831372271964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10274907732362706,0.04954986707746335,0.0,0.12278257976680107,0.09018335419620846,0.0,0.1465993757404023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12761050550552885,0.045611168997129116,0.0,0.0620293682954883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054932930729115766,0.0,0.28189281888289097,0.0 schizophrenia,HIS_HAIR_WHACK,2019/10/14,"Does anyone else have something close to mood swings but not quite? I'm interested in psychology. I have things I call mini mania's. For a few days at a time, I'll be happy and restless and exited. I can think faster, I have motivation, but my disorganized thoughts get worse. Sometimes I can barely sleep until it's over. I'm more prone to panic and anger in this state. Then the opposite. I'm have a dull sadness. Lack of motivation, hardly any emotions, no fear of anything. I'm more serious. It's weird. As if I've switched personalities. Then a normal state. I don't know what it is but does anyone else experience it. I'm sort of on a mini mania right now. I'm gonna go draw a picture.",0.9557184873949608,3.41187695,3.3831932773109235,85.4747478991597,86.64285714285714,6.151260504201679,21.092436974789926,7.510576382923642,0.9590126050420164,543,18,111,10,17,187,91,140,0.28600000000000003,0.6409999999999999,0.073,-0.9859,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,3,1,11,1,3,7,0,9,1,1,2,0,17,21,11,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,4,0,0,5,0,0,1,3,8,0,0,1,1,7,2,13,18,4,18,0,2,0,0,2,8,0,2,7,59,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121507203688969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498716993226361,0.36615356254713416,0.14703681388839712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18245027029393698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11523256300921568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127247378726818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29852517290033503,0.20098876107248864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747814222086079,0.0,0.20106248593692072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335190842537576,0.0,0.10154685558969802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19020611073341293,0.16006044022334615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09819678551220824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17506655574278476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20964019775110526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15601478461022425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19004610409111447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15259008163152998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788070929144642,0.0,0.0,0.13755509520505485,0.17671716395555853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11870575944459748,0.11448968214640345,0.0,0.14185041615389266,0.10418861003884053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18208820167557027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jcheesepoop,2018/12/26,CBD as medication? Does anybody have any experience with treating schizophrenia with CBD?,8.993076923076924,13.569524076923075,6.91423076923077,57.06826923076926,77.46153846153845,8.753846153846155,44.96153846153846,8.841846274778883,6.164876923076923,75,5,8,2,2,22,11,13,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38015297820997457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4892024376042256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5468291275837281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5631541471268671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Big_Bad_Harv,2018/12/26,"Confused about who I am Hello. I got a journal for christmas and I feel a strong pull to write in a certain ""persona"" called Francis Dent. He is an original character I created. He lives in Arkham Asylum in Gotham City. I won't go into details unless asked. There are several differences between me and Francis. Francis is a man, to begin with. Francis has an identical twin named Harvey, and Harvey doesn't actively interrupt us unless I try to write from Harvey's perspective, at which point he says he doesn't want to communicate. But Francis wants his name to be in the journal. He wants it to be ""his"" journal. Francis is a darker shade of blue than me, he sees shadows and hides in them, making his story very exciting to write. He occasionally hallucinates silhouettes in the shadows, and on nights like this he possesses me and I seem not to exist. If this is possible, he is ""more"" schizophrenic than me. Does anyone else experience a conflicted self like this? He also sings little songs, he can regress to the age of a child, and sometimes he signs drawings instead of me. I want him to know that I love him and look forward to reading his journal (which I don't remember.) Before you send me away, I told my therapist everything and even switched in front of him, and he says it is schizophrenia, not DID. Can any of you relate? Do you know how I can help Francis and his twin feel more at home here? (He hallucinates the front door of Arkham Asylum whenever he walks through the door to my apartment building, so I don't want to take that away from him.) Thank you, Nora",4.382200000000001,6.253194753333336,5.057666666666666,81.06550000000001,71.46666666666667,8.200000000000001,30.5,8.841846274778883,2.6015,1246,54,229,24,24,401,159,300,0.032,0.866,0.102,0.9703,0,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,1,4,1,1,8,8,0,1,14,0,21,2,0,3,1,42,42,18,0,6,6,0,2,2,0,1,1,3,3,3,10,13,0,1,6,3,0,7,7,1,0,0,3,8,36,7,43,36,2,27,0,0,3,1,48,17,0,3,7,148,46,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248120991679496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09564976171785504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09834877182024818,0.14411697391796952,0.0,0.0,0.13149280346633754,0.0,0.2642987298139047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11968646773559093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14362378813065904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695382899943155,0.0,0.0,0.1230875444116415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11749863706760115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290085266805144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641103453042382,0.13758691566760894,0.0,0.0,0.1422381020651309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799370921679258,0.0,0.11249410975058173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09427762669332312,0.0,0.14108775250396727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545998731029102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13743319331398368,0.14097258114634728,0.12420034260369316,0.0,0.11811420518567232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269460164735257,0.0,0.0938878516582674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199455234350738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13296379711131276,0.15856661355180296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406923843446372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15933392709773966,0.0,0.0,0.2237079234781716,0.0,0.0,0.11208328348995844,0.12804641149348986,0.14673313267075005,0.15889934739431402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13911072027525248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10575454496211263,0.0,0.0,0.12949560153770667,0.0,0.16331050794592636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13440123159894854,0.0,0.09549505136223806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16918983019934494,0.0,0.0,0.1160545455745584,0.4148078146165533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Canadian_Psychosis,2018/12/26,"I hope that research of schizophrenia does not fall in the wrong hands. Now, I know what you are thinking. Who gets to define who or what “wrong hands” refers to? But honestly, if I was in a position of power, I would want to know how schizophrenia is triggered on. I won’t go about what I would use this knowledge for. However, I understand that their has to be changes in the consciousness of the general healthy persons that walk amongst society. Removing the stigma is a common meme. This idea has to be spread. From my connections, I can confirm that huge technological advancements are in the process that will affect man kind in the coming future - think 20 - 40 years. Most of us will be alive to see really awesome things. Anyways, I spoke my mind. What are you going to do about it?",4.531396396396397,6.511493040540542,4.528108108108111,84.56531531531532,71.29729729729729,8.176576576576577,29.225225225225223,8.841846274778883,2.3397684684684683,622,25,118,12,12,192,97,148,0.04,0.812,0.14800000000000002,0.9408,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,1,2,1,2,5,5,0,0,8,0,18,2,2,4,0,25,32,4,0,5,4,0,2,0,0,5,0,1,0,2,15,1,0,0,9,0,0,7,2,2,0,0,2,4,15,3,21,22,1,18,0,0,1,0,9,7,0,4,4,85,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21374092746039774,0.17404722205111287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17681433907370764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055622020936642,0.0,0.22965807282461426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20068013037367655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22808859540278145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21040281949733827,0.22208156409516264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040117741414423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17642129122394198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12943768819030793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16100680037300066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13423229990192934,0.2589295316664945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21034001281222486,0.24303992859459994,0.17450536245237552,0.0,0.0,0.11917366608395533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870594587977672,0.44181747073349903,0.0,0.13011285620224258 schizophrenia,korbaending,2018/12/26,"The current beauty It's a Latvian band. Here's the video: [https://youtu.be/-XDAqUyLYaA](https://youtu.be/-XDAqUyLYaA)t's a It's a song about suicide, about jumping out the window... together. The lyrics, translated are: &#x200B; From the highest point, if you look down, everything seems different The Sun closer for a coin and the Earth even lures you in And someone is still wondering whether to dash towards it or wait to be pushed No reason to fear, the safety-belts will not jam &#x200B; A fall for five seconds, the peace can be with Heaven It may be to the end, so far that you don't want to think about it And, regardless, I will jump, no matter what they say, I will jump to the end And I will believe in the morning, I will give myself over to the flames and the frost &#x200B; \[Chorus\] You must jump with me, alone you will return You must believe with me, no matter where you are, the dream will come true Jump - over the edge of Heaven, Jump over lonely islands Jump! Even, if you don't know where &#x200B; And, knowing what's better, as needed, along the torrent But to do as everyone, really it doesn't fit with my taste When hundreds call behind you: Stop, not one more step Give me your hand, we will save, I open the window, I will wait you there &#x200B; \[Chorus\] Jump... over the edge of Heaven We will wait for you there.",6.987499999999998,7.427415130952383,5.7120000000000015,84.03300000000002,64.35714285714286,8.466031746031746,29.1015873015873,8.021203637495839,1.7269758730158729,1071,31,204,11,15,315,132,252,0.092,0.782,0.126,0.8806,3,3,0,0,0,1,84.0,2,12,1,1,14,8,0,1,24,0,24,2,1,1,3,43,38,15,1,7,7,0,1,0,0,13,0,2,2,0,9,16,1,4,6,6,1,12,8,2,0,3,0,5,26,6,34,22,1,35,3,1,1,0,20,16,0,6,7,147,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08865944469867283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4637569674044003,0.5200883187970127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19289173763793147,0.0,0.07570936945347173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741077941051323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373986481063488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943747339760863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516386455540745,0.0,0.0,0.11308065391268095,0.0,0.0,0.08179784533401503,0.07693493674140807,0.0,0.0,0.0963277751118006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642374204600731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09409092728008253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07188540888045943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06347393588976788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05800717017324819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092300927411741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054839815976789316,0.08801469034911312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0680753662260499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07793024244133538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07253159668673957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683630929464593,0.07156838761739627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09363637233836436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054851288160638084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05049118234956867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283338117751627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5200883187970127,0.0 schizophrenia,magicalpussyjuice,2018/12/26,"Hallucinating cars This has happened to me 3 times in probably a month and I don't know what to think. Twice on the same road. So, 3 times as I've been turning left, after looking and seeing NO CARS, right as I turn cars will appear literally out of nowhere and almost hit me. This keeps happening. Also today I saw a truck following me that disappeared I guess. I knew the guy was following me because I drive weird and try to avoid main roads, so I turn right off the main road to a side street. So does he. I turn left. So does he. I turn left again. So does he. As I'm going to turn left again, I see him behind me but you see there was a stop sign and I kept glancing back and the truck fucking vanished. :/ I don't know what to make out of all of this. Do you think these are hallucinations or I'm just a shit driver? Be honest. 🤔",0.06946666666666701,2.2865740800000007,2.022285714285715,95.40638095238096,88.2,5.161904761904762,17.476190476190474,6.655083550727371,-0.2141238095238092,644,16,150,8,21,213,98,175,0.107,0.866,0.027000000000000003,-0.8788,0,1,0,0,1,0,22.0,0,2,0,0,11,5,2,1,9,0,10,2,1,1,1,27,40,17,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,8,0,4,5,0,0,9,3,4,0,1,6,6,20,1,19,31,4,34,0,0,6,1,7,16,2,4,9,90,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10158211700637272,0.0,0.0,0.08112521296267762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078004638476992,0.0,0.0618396888672115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663245690769322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09378390150421392,0.0,0.0,0.0576533060991895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117526679891174,0.10044610680385466,0.17941425612869413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09016862490512982,0.0,0.0,0.11150260242358792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44087943516047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08518791766814325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06771506072898276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08097211487001457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093744406051817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732662746259453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425146453191212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10413142794448108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848122311181539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000321185041508,0.0,0.0,0.11830632847734887,0.0,0.09615762274257646,0.0,0.0,0.06887422694309638,0.6620555899292845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pastamcpasta,2018/12/26,No symptoms for three weeks!! I’ve had a recent suicide attempt and hospitalization and I got an increase in meds because of all that and it’s been amazing I haven’t had any symptoms for over three weeks! This is the longest I’ve gone without any symptoms and no side effects (except sleeping for 12 hours a day) I’m so happy! Hoping the same for all of you!,1.7137499999999974,4.1861306527777815,2.9977777777777814,89.60000000000002,82.75,4.155555555555557,27.055555555555557,5.148860815047168,0.74243888888889,285,13,55,1,8,92,50,72,0.111,0.7,0.18899999999999997,0.8013,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,1,0,2,1,3,0,0,5,0,5,4,1,1,2,11,9,5,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,5,0,3,3,10,4,4,10,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,5,38,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776289003246532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12443490196353302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316460620381482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16326029162090852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172986940474735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20274576199164973,0.2010255557474088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267408608488417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20155236957352451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042760226099974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22328356067805805,0.0,0.0,0.6365033350553013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274793055579948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19677268930624184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Schiz1717,2018/12/26,"Podcast: Can You Actually Recover from Bipolar or Schizophrenia? “I’m in recovery from mental illness,” is a common phrase in our circles. Sure, mental illness is replaced with the specifics – schizophrenia, bipolar, or depression, to name a few – but the idea that people consider themselves to be living a life free from the symptoms of mental illness is a common one. However, is it true? Is recovery actually a thing? Or are all these people just deluding themselves? [WEB](https://psychcentral.com/blog/podcast-can-you-actually-recover-from-bipolar-or-schizophrenia/) | [iTunes](https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/a-bipolar-a-schizophrenic-and-a-podcast/id1360410451?) | [Google Play](https://play.google.com/music/listen?u=0#/ps/Iwwkxsmonivv5a7qp5gsas6k7s4) | [Spotify](https://open.spotify.com/show/4OpZjOVTcCyj7FBQB5LKKB)",11.675675675675675,16.91025494594595,7.600504504504506,53.751027027027035,67.1081081081081,9.446486486486489,43.43603603603604,9.3871,6.288586306306305,693,40,64,18,15,191,68,111,0.105,0.777,0.11800000000000001,0.4871,1,0,0,0,0,0,82.0,1,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,8,0,8,7,0,0,3,11,9,4,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,4,9,8,2,4,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,3,2,39,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.4116134872754785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18164677211629351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380790020420079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489640141159902,0.0,0.0,0.18622744756017232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6376089653395564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142910441483959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29242125756040616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198769562612624,0.219204538185562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401117488843335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253685211897524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizosux,2018/12/26,Feeling high? No I haven't smoked. I'm do for my injection of Invega Sustenna in two days and the last injection is definitely wearing off. I feel high. Has anyone else experienced this? I've been really creative this morning and have been playing with my charcoals. I feel like I smoked some dank but I promise I haven't. Is this a warning sign of psychosis? Or is it a breakthrough symptom because I'm due for another shot soon. Any feedback would be greatly appreciated. I'm new to all of this. My next injection will be my fourth. Thanks guys. ,1.8777142857142868,4.6696066285714295,3.405476190476193,84.00535714285716,87.4761904761905,6.428571428571428,28.452380952380953,7.7094869923839395,2.263666666666667,436,22,80,9,14,143,71,105,0.049,0.758,0.193,0.9239,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,3,0,14,2,1,0,1,12,21,4,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,4,10,5,9,15,2,10,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,7,50,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14902586673707904,0.2297922575974116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532310243100559,0.2245395760943256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335885356011135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14133016033141127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18306722269812065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324183363752649,0.15655697118595407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24160773397489765,0.0,0.2169876427349667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4630766779635678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786321265464181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10706299934377007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21165125426891146,0.2330628056946051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403896648388858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22777518497230365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20175893709721332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21407246564576712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15567406129116915,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,irishgallondon,2018/12/26,"My Journey of life with a mental illness Hi All, Ten years on from diagnosis I have written a post on my blog regarding my mental health journey. It is quite short and sweet and may need some editing: [https://femmefatale10.wixsite.com/london/home/recovery](https://femmefatale10.wixsite.com/london/home/recovery) Otherwise I have quite an adventurous side also outlined in my blog but the above link is the main relevant article linked to this forum Merry Christmas all and stay strong! Love, Kate &#x200B; &#x200B;",11.496342857142857,15.854444386666668,7.625904761904768,59.47200000000004,58.46666666666667,8.019047619047619,32.047619047619044,8.841846274778883,3.134961904761905,439,16,54,7,7,121,58,75,0.021,0.755,0.22399999999999998,0.9608,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,3,1,4,0,0,5,0,5,4,0,0,2,12,8,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,6,4,7,6,4,10,0,0,0,1,2,5,0,2,1,35,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13474971086758328,0.0,0.365140231056541,0.4094928642435901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17910804824514368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33803928444457565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190168173161822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520781917997924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3396175476666441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494091326851943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613768076210148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584418380096887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17959900919426036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4094928642435901,0.10850873459927343 schizophrenia,RSInPsychosis,2018/12/26,"Research opportunity - Manchester University are looking for participants to take part in a study exploring which factors influence the development of experiences such as feeling suspicious and hearing voices. PARTICIPANTS NEEDED Have you ever had unusual experiences, like hearing voices, feeling suspicious or unusual beliefs? If so, please click on the link below and decide if you would like to take part in some research and potentially win one of eight shopping vouchers. The research involves completing some questionnaires online which will take on average 20~30 minutes to complete. Click here for the online survey: https://www.psych-ssl.manchester.ac.uk/survey/cpollard/ Thank you for your help. This has been approved by moderators. [online survey](https://www.psych-ssl.manchester.ac.uk/survey/cpollard/) ",13.976543478260872,17.368927295652178,10.948423913043479,42.17133152173918,49.95652173913044,13.402173913043475,50.02717391304348,12.602617957971056,8.091369565217391,689,41,62,22,8,204,78,115,0.039,0.758,0.20199999999999999,0.9558,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,4,0,3,4,5,0,0,5,0,7,0,0,1,1,18,17,8,0,4,3,0,2,2,0,2,0,4,0,0,3,3,0,0,6,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,9,4,5,15,13,4,7,1,0,3,0,8,5,0,5,3,50,7,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3790751135072756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16351996414981818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3536623066556282,0.0,0.0,0.1828090084968582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4074897053684809,0.0,0.12116865459405175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17663358438783225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518041961042202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13404124649746918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224967900102506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39152013000518027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19843499822533167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4077574832875866,0.0,0.0,0.16643193474961102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12841629512815597,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zam-Boney,2018/12/26,"Anyone else feeling crushed by the “holiday”? Yeah, with...what I’ve got depression MAY seem minor. I’ve learned to sublate it by safe and social means but... Every extra cheerful person I encounter. Cashier, fellow tenant, feels like a spike straight to my heart.",3.5983333333333327,6.799315065217392,3.304347826086957,85.02724637681159,83.13043478260869,4.8057971014492775,29.40579710144928,6.42735559955562,1.7929536231884065,207,10,32,2,6,62,41,46,0.11699999999999999,0.575,0.309,0.8271,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,1,1,1,0,0,9,6,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,5,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,3,4,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,13,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20781549882126188,0.30452582446187226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255985744643443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482800488617259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504114679766106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005556814281339,0.21232622575909935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23770525141888785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3521941901787856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520134361893633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32374781737093217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595115043052682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705679835578144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029672280985091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Thel0newand3r3r105,2018/12/26,"Relationship advice I was diagnosed with schizoprenia 3 months ago when I was admitted to a psychiatric ward. My girlfriend (who stayed loyal and supported me throughout the 4 week stay) is always getting mad with me and telling me that she doesn't feel as though i care for her. I try to explain that sometimes I forget things or dont listen to her simply because my head is a hellscape 24/7. I do my best to listen to her and give her what she wants, but it never seems like it's good enough. I would really appreciate any advice you could give me. I love her so much, but i feel like it won't last much longer.",6.047072599531617,5.924578180327869,6.198946135831381,81.66139344262297,66.37704918032786,9.594379391100704,29.72365339578454,9.23628265651192,2.2490571428571418,486,15,99,8,7,155,82,122,0.071,0.743,0.18600000000000005,0.9367,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,1,3,9,1,0,3,0,10,3,1,0,1,18,24,10,0,3,3,0,2,2,1,2,1,2,0,0,8,5,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,4,24,8,9,19,4,8,0,0,0,1,19,0,0,2,8,68,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138290719696612,0.14234232079137205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133613395910873,0.0,0.0,0.10919824919304502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09788659190045708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16851624538708748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163719527282802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12820811763904902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16298284618516684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18819570776812086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659195475362849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16238568120922495,0.1147166430015374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0838951490067576,0.3080812605881138,0.0,0.1346848411871826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16479890613592682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13089214574348765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15690017226770425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449275198597047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12817147868608697,0.0,0.2360859700059997,0.0,0.1238473157805658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10287009860007344,0.0,0.0,0.1724002080505167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461837823682855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15881531563925835,0.0,0.0,0.3423086329965161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18222151541830947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14035186769377106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066805975854879,0.0,0.15776664022611336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10902162460285272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947128070038157,0.0,0.12880563504761242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406969346977708,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Arjstide,2018/12/26,"Psych ward hello, I' m suddently so scared every doctors in the hospital I'm in can see whath l am doing when using me cellphone like music I listen to or reading reddit posts. I'm even scared to ask it that they discover I actually gessed thzir intentions. They have computers where they keep infos about my illness and everyone gets to know what there is in the hospital PSsorry for my language",4.023142857142858,6.525080800000001,5.2659047619047685,76.39200000000002,74.33333333333334,8.552380952380952,29.380952380952376,9.23628265651192,3.0906952380952384,320,14,53,8,7,106,60,75,0.131,0.8370000000000001,0.032,-0.8263,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,3,0,6,3,0,2,2,0,5,2,0,2,0,7,14,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,9,1,8,14,0,6,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,1,2,34,12,4,0.0,0.0,0.2622648679432954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512484543006697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27508082616822066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17750930104731982,0.0,0.22643660502683946,0.2568057019484481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14041272919757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388806597543279,0.0,0.0,0.1477000190437409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129949502743418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573917786829873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688264541223748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5381387274789264,0.0,0.21416192359915004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321169293134692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,blackpillceled,2018/12/26,"Scared!! I woke up from a scary dream and I instantly thought I was an alien as soon as I looked myself deep in my own eyes. Has anyone experienced that before??? They kept telling me I wasn't myself anymore, that something happened to my soul in that dream and I was going to be hunted down by the FBI. I don't have a car to leave my home and everything is closed (Uber would be able to track meeeeeeeee) I also saw monsters but they went away. I just remembered someone always goes into my house at nighttime when I wake up to scare meee now I'm even more scared and I can't find my headphones...",2.8371900826446317,4.495869289256202,3.367016528925621,92.47416115702481,75.11570247933885,6.162314049586778,23.670247933884298,6.742157984588678,0.5589464462809914,468,14,101,4,10,146,84,121,0.129,0.8440000000000001,0.026000000000000002,-0.9163,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,3,4,0,11,2,2,0,0,13,20,9,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,1,3,2,0,3,3,3,0,0,8,4,21,0,17,9,2,16,1,0,3,0,3,10,0,0,3,69,24,0,0.19197952370587276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535259557472949,0.1597423428822798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19039210107934496,0.13423654672140692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18037108210114086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633604347136449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12680066480571894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17253881699568946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17546580666484735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10910638749190743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16976685879098974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19257111533057172,0.0,0.0,0.22151859469232646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032785959495902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16121444863436565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174753761872346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.576614982984818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16266362743888407,0.1477952166197012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16779856555896627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15241029750157092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779669418358882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637674547902767,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Kineke,2018/12/26,"Sometimes I feel like I'm living a lie... Objectively I know that I have bipolar SZA, PTSD, DDNOS and all that... But my mind likes to make me think that I'm just making all of it up for attention, I guess? It can't be true because all the psychiatrists and psychologists and everyone I've seen knows what I have and I take medication for it. But then my mind tries to convince me and it's like... ""Oh, no, you're just very good at lying and manipulating people!"" It doesn't make any sense but I was wondering if anyone else has their brain try to say you're faking it? Again, it works on two different levels. One of which you know you have what you have but also the inkling of doubt. I hate it because I invalidate myself. Oops...",1.3629336734693889,3.69823605442177,3.0842814625850363,89.31376913265308,83.01360544217688,6.39608843537415,20.0718537414966,7.645422480735847,0.6530547619047615,568,16,123,10,16,188,92,147,0.138,0.812,0.05,-0.9294,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,3,1,1,4,9,1,1,3,0,9,3,1,4,4,32,24,13,0,1,7,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,14,6,0,0,7,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,2,3,18,6,11,21,3,6,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,4,5,77,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13225780450920066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11246702890188964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156405825181312,0.16945581023710501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20163352877414747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846236298825046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17279144491833293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13815740231528184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15803183329694429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08362329632925168,0.118150612297577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13871654571738365,0.0,0.0,0.18218950652352725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632828054613574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27267273986184565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242395317775854,0.0,0.14603741055244732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33118601247959745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16660733276210998,0.0,0.0,0.3339820943467188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11206871537280233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146566840820112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933254542097268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13152027273009212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16356935048003332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12434844845556853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10597161320482833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245702343352395,0.0,0.16155647813381185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13645940875243226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17935227216231164,0.1204017761229348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Treesarescary,2018/12/26,"What the fuck is happening to me?? I really am starting to lose control and i have just had the most intense panic attack ever I'm seriously fucking terrified, my thoughts have been so weird and confusing lately, I am scared of my own mind, I was trying to sleep and I had this weird dreamlike vision of every inanimate object around me being aware and conscious, literally EVERYTHING was conscious like the bricks in houses, door handles, EVERYTHING.... a few days ago I was scared of my own family especially my mom because I didn't think she was real, there was just something ""off"" about her and every other person too so I became really scared in my bedroom shaking like a leaf literally all day Understandably this freaked the hell out of me, the past few weeks my thoughts have been really ""intense"" (best way to describe it, can anyone relate?) I feel goosebumps all over and then I will start to jerk and twitch and feel like absolute fucking chaos is seconds away, almost like having a seizure. I understand that none of you can diagnose me but I at least just wanna know what this SOUNDS like to you guys, Every day has been a few hours relief where I am really happy and relaxed, then this debilitating day long panic and anxiety will return. Please help, what is happening to me?",5.91403361344538,7.482822336134454,6.330504201680673,74.61155462184874,67.23529411764707,9.297478991596641,30.38655462184873,9.627879704456738,3.002858823529411,1028,39,173,22,17,332,137,238,0.157,0.715,0.129,0.3791,0,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,0,3,11,27,6,7,9,0,27,7,2,1,3,36,43,15,0,1,4,1,2,5,0,2,2,1,2,2,10,12,0,1,10,1,0,1,2,18,0,1,13,3,28,9,22,27,11,27,1,1,0,3,8,9,4,3,21,130,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112615707757404,0.0,0.10293953094524448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07864185642321521,0.0,0.0,0.07188027617035038,0.0,0.0,0.09151395521980467,0.0,0.11695004561407744,0.09658415320741696,0.0,0.0,0.06266603565065745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10788244677964776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11529914329287586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26519044694932725,0.0,0.0,0.10434001890546556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298864834924199,0.25984075648557997,0.0,0.18478034661447248,0.0,0.09691086084511212,0.0,0.10395771974737704,0.07344046922553564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28511133009129386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10178834055029648,0.1818117195728368,0.10943270331028962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06890479380654617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012374699089824,0.11861760565398315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056496290542646176,0.0,0.11596308084765412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511148768699837,0.0,0.0,0.09097492448230453,0.0,0.11500710629810733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10379887689440756,0.12039832852152567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412277236934963,0.0,0.0,0.09813440401721528,0.0,0.08976115210198776,0.0,0.11284372746835845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11700911081187786,0.26342571096210554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087627418405641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10287442119096236,0.0,0.0,0.0791406010267003,0.0,0.0,0.14552499321170356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06587020453815426,0.0,0.1632237202638217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06979457432742693,0.0,0.0,0.2140372259174344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159799803291527,0.08246010368925268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jessmayh,2018/12/26,"I[22F] feel that my mom[60] is on the verge of another psychotic episode. I am suffering. I apologize if this is the wrong sub reddit to post this, but this is the only place I feel like I can get support/advice My mom has major depression disorder with psychosis. My sisters and my dad have done their best to hide this side of my mom until I was 17. The first psychotic episode I witnessed was about 4 years ago. My dad had rented a hotel room around the area because my mom was fighting with him. Me and my sisters were upstairs when we heard my mom yell “So why didn’t you guys tell me dad was in jail?” She insisted my dad was in jail even though she had no reason to believe why. I blocked out a lot of this whole event. It was extremely traumatic to see my mom this way. Me and my sister ended up calling my older sister to come to the house. My oldest sister has been the only one out of us who have dealt with her like this before. My mom ended up running away; to the neighbors house. Long story short we got her in the hospital and she was diagnosed with major depression with psychosis. A few days prior to this she had called the police to the house because she thought someone was living in our attic. My dad ended up staying with my mom. He feels that he needs to keep being with her even though most of her paranoia is involving him. She is mean to him. They ended up retiring and moving away to a house they built in a different part of the state. This was good for me. I was finally on my own and I wasn’t worrying about my mom constantly. I felt like I could breath. On the phone she sounded okay, she can hide it well. One year ago my oldest sister went to visit my parents. My mom didn’t even recognize she was there. When she was, she was extremely mean. My sister will not tell me all the details. She got my mom in the hospital again. The doctor told her and my mom that she will for sure have another psychotic episode and be back in the hospital if she does not take her medicine. Few months pass. She’s doing okay. She is very secretive and private about her use of medicine. One month ago my dad informed us she had stopped taking her medicine. Just a week ago my dad texted us saying that she thought people were breaking into the house stealing her clothes. Fast forward to today. It’s Christmas. I am at my parents house. My mom is sad. She asked my sisters boyfriend if she was taking speed. I caught my mom talking angrily to herself. I can’t quite explain it that well but it’s a big red flag when she starts to do that. She was talking to herself. I don’t want to be here. There have been other things she has done. One of the most heart breaking things she has done was over 4 years ago around the time she had her first psychosis. I went in her room and was crying telling her that I loved her and she needed help. She picked up her phone and started to pretend that she was video recording me. She was laughing. For someone who is 17 and is only now seeing this part of their mom, it’s terrifying. Even though my mom isn’t at her worst yet I know I have to say something. If I don’t say it now, I’m scared she will go back into psychosis. I am planning on leaving early tomorrow morning and confronting her about this. I’m terrified. I love my mom. But she is not my mom right now. She hasn’t been for six years now. I know she’s going to try and tell me that ‘I’m just saying this because my older sister is telling me to.” How do I deal with this assumption? How do I deal with the fact that she might be deeply upset and angry with me? 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So, basically I have depression, anxiety and I experience psychotic symptoms (mostly auditory and visual hallucinations) at my worst all that mental health stuff stopped me from going outside and I developed agoraphobia. &#x200B; So anyway, over the last 9 months I've been using a mixture of exposure therapy and techniques to deal with hallucinations to overcome the agoraphobia and I've made progress. But I've reached a plateau. &#x200B; The thing that is making me distressed is the fact that my mental health team didn't notice my plateau. I've been telling them for months that I'm not making any progress but they just don't seem to care/understand. When I try to communicate my struggles to my team they have bad reactions sometimes they just don't understand, sometimes they oggle me like an animal in a zoo and sometimes they even laugh because they think my genuine struggles are a joke. &#x200B; I know that it isn't common to struggle with the things that I do but being rejected by a mental health service is a punch to the gut. If a mental health service can't understand me how can I expect a workplace to accept me, or a partner or a friend? &#x200B; I can't find A SINGLE PERSON in my life who understands my illness. Not one. I've tried opening up to friends but that just makes me feel worse. There are so few people that understand psychosis that I'm as good as alone. &#x200B; I feel like a blight on society. I'm a freak, I'm being treated like a freak. My mental health team tell me that I need to teach them about my illness but they use me like a dictionary I'm exhausted. I'm so sad. I'm worried that my health has reached the best it will be. I want more from life than this. My illness has taken so much from me and I would do anything to take it back. &#x200B; I hate being such a freak. Everytime I go out I'm scared that my psychosis will slip out and a stranger will yell at me again. But no one in my mental health team even cares. I told them and they ignored it. They always ignore me when they don't understand &#x200B; &#x200B; Please help me ",3.938262823393465,6.16577212589074,4.3753585414393035,83.95958015022151,73.58432304038006,7.306695769403608,28.718045836810678,8.186683628785799,2.069436361301919,1759,73,327,29,37,554,191,421,0.182,0.679,0.139,-0.9691,0,2,0,0,0,0,65.0,0,0,13,8,20,32,1,5,27,0,30,16,1,7,2,59,65,28,0,5,14,0,3,5,3,4,15,1,0,2,21,15,0,3,13,5,0,3,10,18,0,2,6,4,56,14,34,51,8,25,0,3,0,0,27,12,0,5,15,218,77,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04559744106014738,0.0,0.0,0.03663298419582184,0.3816154014377017,0.4279692306761839,0.0299390469767613,0.0,0.03367960892271468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03622947401198137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03385311503716059,0.0367596957751296,0.026837713012430816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04620235053468955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977445434436786,0.0,0.0,0.03792431986139535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0453886564272805,0.03791934850162191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05815723828804423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04306567060471098,0.0,0.0,0.06678228690482542,0.06290406648860689,0.0,0.0,0.040238774557084085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06802843244133615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050041742177272565,0.03692674394652767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04346635303640372,0.0,0.3743788491014558,0.0,0.0,0.02950955908029274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024195422865153592,0.035886894975537355,0.049663008861387935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062193435090037386,0.10754388607184566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04165826709181634,0.08816267027310372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31057349011213803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07028193125477551,0.0,0.03236402139593125,0.032644565510487444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05012365382997287,0.0,0.0,0.05966602953650616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03052193949148893,0.03844162176154868,0.0,0.048327096833306514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028204048482929563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04407749625141312,0.0,0.0,0.04007942581412287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306278964367068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03680753186809503,0.0,0.13807594450954844,0.050398996586654685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04575965308799355,0.033101915078118466,0.0,0.07696096212552883,0.0,0.050347327865154425,0.0,0.05849755735505537,0.02820994861267493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042068529124462635,0.0,0.059781243098456775,0.0,0.0,0.2749944008827048,0.0,0.07604829430979479,0.0,0.0,0.025967551669947183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04471032690939191,0.04486604134050861,0.03127465812550713,0.0,0.4279692306761839,0.0 schizophrenia,cronkart,2018/12/26,Does anybody else think that there voices are real even when they're not psychotic? I now take haldol which has remove all my voices and delusions but looking back I still believe that my voices belonged to real entities. for example I think that some of my voices were angels and some of my voices were dead people. I know that doctors and my parents and everyone else says that the voices were just caused by chemicals in my brain but what I really believe is that schizophrenia and other mental illnesses open up a person to the spiritual world and I believe that the voices that I was hearing we're people on the other side of the veil. Does anyone else think that their voices are real even when they're not psychotic? I would love to know if I'm the only one and if it means I'm still just clinging onto being crazy and being unwilling to face the facts.,7.483427041499327,7.177094036144581,7.526224899598397,73.95485274431061,63.45783132530121,9.787416331994644,31.095046854082995,9.150863307647796,2.6712002677376168,694,21,119,10,9,224,90,166,0.11,0.89,0.0,-0.965,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,11,1,0,0,8,0,11,5,2,1,2,32,23,14,1,3,8,1,0,0,0,1,2,10,0,1,14,9,0,0,6,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,4,11,15,1,13,16,3,14,2,0,1,1,6,7,0,4,6,90,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09020927043912047,0.1321896230569621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992034526409727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4360622573470405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14402178365809992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325324492208641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320508301684652,0.2258012454250291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32332278679082804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17042445954839566,0.0,0.0,0.123277971084579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454076417318289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141804940768186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10833888498140262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11643976146605654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405335722164212,0.0,0.0,0.13001530913798362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08742291704769699,0.09812061461160852,0.0,0.0,0.14325427409533958,0.0,0.0,0.1788834956860454,0.11264965128549775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44053697690536797,0.08264938056331599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10259674927766436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20606076752003186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09700212997158372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248000011059233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09164752085031712,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jmal2000,2018/12/26,"Schizophrenic Brains Generate A Different World Than Average Normal Brain (Creating Alternate Realities and Timelines of oneself) My mind's universe is foreign and your mind's universe is your mind's generation of it. I think we may all be Quantum linked through what I call Quantum Simulation. So let's talk about perception. &#x200B; Someone wise once said, there is no truth only perception. What is a perception? A perception can be a illusion, a hallucination, feels/thoughts and imagination generated by your brain. Now I'm going to talk about what i call Quantum Simulation. If you are of Schizophrenic breed you may be considered of Quantum Simulation. That means your reality is completely different from the reality of another person's brain. That your course of life is an alternate timeline of the real you that doesn't suffer from Schizophrenia illusions and delusions. &#x200B; That's a cool concept, knowing that alternate timelines exist because the very nature of our Quantum universe. If you think about it what separates you from me is my imagination and your imagination. Quantum Simulation implies that our imagination may be linkable and that we may be more linked than once thought. By virtue of something like our pineal gland or chemicals within our brain. &#x200B; Quantum Simulation implies we are all editable and manipulate able and that our brains may be suspect to nature of shared quantum reality phenomenons. I came up with something that is a universal truth. That the master illusioner the one being who's strength of universe dictates other people universes sets the bar for the governing rulesets of my reality, your raelity, all realities. Quantum Simulation assumes that our ruleset is changed based upon our level of Schizophrenia and Psychosis. Coincidence's that can be confirmed of your diagnosis of yourself whether you think your telepathic, psychic or just have imaginary friends proves within the master illusioners reality that your perception of reality is sharing with others. &#x200B; Meaning my shared experience with manipulating lightning through various mechanics of simulation existence pulls your brain into my brains reality and the master illusioner decides what level of quantum we exist in. If you were to post videos of confirming evidence of your voices/imaginary beings altering reality that you may also exploit this and redirect the science of manipulation of life towards life transference or resurrection of ones self. Which is why I think Schizophrenia contributes to Simulation Theory by our brains generating alternate timelines from our friends brains and we upgrade/downgrade other brains consciousness outside ruleset of reality in which one may work hard and manifest one's destiny through exploiting technology and help of your schizophrenic entities.",10.855069344448657,12.824024771428574,9.927646835922696,51.83131868131872,56.23076923076921,13.484653277756728,49.09624857900722,12.735327398286293,7.520156498673741,2361,152,285,82,29,748,205,455,0.032,0.8859999999999999,0.08199999999999999,0.9721,2,0,2,0,0,0,50.0,14,21,0,5,8,12,0,0,18,1,35,19,11,3,6,76,47,23,0,4,8,0,1,1,2,7,7,1,0,2,28,24,1,0,24,2,0,3,2,1,0,4,4,3,47,11,56,26,5,17,0,1,0,0,49,11,0,14,2,220,75,4,0.058463405439502625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04675316420772363,0.0,0.2533803014717932,0.28415774699042234,0.0,0.06130397812154366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035638749318210115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7179094502747835,0.11939534710864433,0.06686656099387098,0.0,0.0,0.06184653098407453,0.0,0.061297768290482786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216363076546699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05718842876779427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09033736403562424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033226100600976395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05237172789067633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03918678831040262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03212995867941119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05978279307879687,0.12388329669068125,0.02856226679706572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273675753164358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177094120351272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05728172437440125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12452323750785513,0.15846526628252847,0.04446405429868775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04053116410250443,0.051047990591102765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05599178163311815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06654415465848022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05561208655810145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060990082268353576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04953585370796902,0.0900159715417857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09398134147566806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14984395822714708,0.0,0.09282682698641344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04823843227072108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05275413000814082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042562055455756115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28415774699042234,0.0 schizophrenia,PestoPastaPenne18,2018/12/26,"Today I, Felt some symptoms of psychosis coming back. I’ve been off my meds for three days which is probably why. However a previous symtom came up the other day and today: these thoughts that are intrusive but have a different tone and talk. Except they can be controlled (sometimes). The other night I heard mumbling in my head for a minute and tonight I heard a silly, deep male voice saying something but it only showed up if I felt this strange emotion. Anxiety? Idk..... can intrusive thoughts be like this? Or van voices be controlled to a degree? ",4.5600220022002205,7.003249138613862,4.55894389438944,82.36523652365237,72.46534653465345,7.261166116611661,30.03410341034103,8.167268648758528,2.386504070407041,437,19,74,7,9,135,75,101,0.052000000000000005,0.903,0.045,-0.1754,3,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,7,0,9,2,1,2,0,17,17,7,0,1,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,5,0,1,8,5,0,2,4,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,8,7,7,2,9,6,1,14,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,3,8,50,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352913643482076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13598834034338644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20227167637329047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523424154894386,0.0,0.0,0.3967093126674415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281099341475757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18477279240548689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19893479696785696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3396114799271545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18150126558383087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08640099775122594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964428029066529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16596370564060905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13450398327159313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906764641729868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406398798375462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13614937865427482,0.17491123854211654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18381703637300767,0.0,0.14214701044544878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808016088740721,0.0,0.0,0.3352702040144803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15958150312738875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,linux-boi,2018/12/26,"My Issues Ok, so here goes nothing. I am going to try to explain my mental health issue, and then try to get opinions from you guys if possible please. I am 21 years old, and am not sure what my condition is yet, since I have only been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and Anxiety, but there is more, but I have been told it could be some type of bipolar or schizophrenia by psychiatrists and other mental health practitioners. Ok, so I use to be a Christian by faith, and my issue started, when one day, I asked myself if it was fair that God was all mighty and powerful, and that we would always be under his ruling. I felt that it was not, so then I surely thought I was going to hell. I felt evil, and I tried really hard to just accept that God just was always going to be all powerful, with authority over everyone, and that no one could ever be as strong as him, and I just felt that this was not right. I could just not accept that in my heart, even though I tried. I tried praying to God and telling ""him"" that if he wanted he could just somehow change my mind and make me believe/understand that such concept was the right thing. I also tried praying and told him to just straight up take my life to end my suffering because I felt evil thinking like that. Reason why I felt evil also, was because according to the bible, the devil became the devil because he tried to be as mighty as God. I actually conceptually and philosophically did see how trying to overthrow someone is wrong, but to try to be as mighty as someone without hurting, was not wrong. So yea, I felt really evil. For obvious reasons, I am no longer religious, plus I always had my doubts about religion. Anyways, then I started thinking about old-time/ancient hierarchies. How kings and queens used to be more powerful than anyone, and had authority over everyone, and also had authority over their grown children. So, in a way I felt trapped because I translated that into how my parents would always in a sense be ""greater"" than me, with authority over me, no matter what I did. Don't get my wrong, I love my parents, but such ideas in my head lead me to just feel like I was in a hell, thinking about how it just felt unfair that just because they are my parents, even if they don't have authority over me per say, they are somehow ""greater"" than me because they created me, and because of that, I would always be under their dominion. So that's what I a currently fighting. I thought about the=is everyday for probably 2 years now, so even though sometimes I might begin to think that my parents do not have that type of dominion over me, I somehow deep down in my head think that they do. I guess I thought about this so much, that it got stuck in my head. It's horrible and to be honest did ruin my life. I had never really had anything like this happen to me. I get anxiety attacks, and went through some, really, really dark times because of this. An opinion I would like from you guys since you guys might be more clear on this topic since you guys haven't had your brains fried by this exact idea is, what is your guy's opinion on that parent-to-adult-child dominion thing. Are parents just always going to be greater beings than heir children because they made their children? I even feel evil for feeling that such is not fair, so I get even more anxious. I know the idea might sound ridiculous to some of you, and I somehow do understand how others could view it that way, but it is very, very serious to me. I just want honest opinions though, please don't lie to me of your opinions just to try to ""help"" me. Thanks, I really would appreciate those opinions. Oh, by the way, I am spending half of my Christmas alone at a coffee shop because I had a bad panic attack and headache earlier when I was with my fam. 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In addition to medication and therapy, obviously, not as a replacement. I used to follow a MIND diet (basically a lot of kale, fish, berries, and nuts, and minimal desserts and red meats) and take around half a dozen supplements. I honestly think it helped a lot--when I stopped taking them and stopped following that diet as closely, my functioning dropped significantly. Anyone here keto or gluten free? Mega-dosing vitamin C or drinking fish oil? Is it helping?",7.914135338345865,10.180472263157897,8.210225563909777,60.37157894736842,63.21052631578948,12.165413533834588,39.88721804511278,11.765960540728905,5.8633007518797005,455,25,64,16,7,149,70,95,0.065,0.8109999999999999,0.124,0.7622,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,5,0,1,7,0,2,1,21,10,11,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,9,5,2,1,1,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,2,5,3,7,10,1,9,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,4,2,36,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686402112146737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27622060274890664,0.0,0.0,0.17583432630979334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17285073864677694,0.0,0.0,0.1934940178004696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647864573089125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33584821203519705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19898022336026447,0.0,0.0,0.1994384959824304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302704706335822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455304872478893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258808839554557,0.0,0.0,0.12656258830727618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34118704349133805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,T_Hummus,2019/02/10,"What do I do? [18M] I'm here because I'm scared and not sure what I can do in my current situation. Firstly, my parents don't believe in mental illness. They genuinely think everyone with a mental illness is faking it for attention. Needless to say, I've never been properly tested for anything, so I don't have any diagnosis. But I've seen and heard things throughout the day for a few years now (The things I see I've kept a sketchbook of, which I might post later). I also have a ton of other issues, like constantly derealizing and having delusions like believing everyone around me is an NPC or wants me dead. I'm used to the other issues, so I'm not as concerned with them as I am with the audio hallucinations. They've changed from merely whispering gibberish and saying my name to telling me to do things. Sometimes they tell me to hurt people. I can pretty easily ignore the voices, but I'm worried about it getting to a point where I can't anymore. I have a super supportive girlfriend who understands my problems helps me relax. I'm terrified that I might hurt her one day. What can I do to get help?",4.059425256341072,5.7080247752293625,5.541451699946034,78.1732460874258,71.88990825688073,8.248677819751753,29.796006475984893,8.841846274778883,2.564369347004857,883,37,161,17,17,298,126,218,0.165,0.741,0.094,-0.9409,2,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,3,2,8,12,0,1,12,0,21,2,0,1,2,26,38,12,1,2,5,1,0,2,1,2,2,6,0,0,13,8,0,2,3,1,0,0,6,6,0,2,4,8,25,6,22,32,2,15,0,2,2,0,15,5,0,3,11,113,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09930076542717416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08444161081247076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12314583079089535,0.0,0.0,0.10218345115777616,0.11053992016005043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569445076363003,0.0,0.0,0.27979994629233385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13135812238178912,0.0,0.0,0.13418644324595627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16016207999412754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23730443835024465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562113105464352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297500935012074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16646052261047956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26585862499214324,0.0,0.0,0.2592078198868814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12132889841133955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502735049942925,0.2634549639620409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09576954682509488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08414255217872775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787895256705365,0.0,0.0,0.08608563050729733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738322193567904,0.0,0.11892300484939812,0.12632815224474134,0.0,0.1188163868696769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974940352254269,0.12431841223733554,0.0,0.0989494676522143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13957517982523832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12280985430967968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090956952441278,0.11703118484560072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21706461186294626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474842289814659,0.07956477384334504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292680324403226,0.0,0.10724523856828852,0.0,0.0,0.07324020345632284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261032800112738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07996306880265143 schizophrenia,OGasusual,2019/02/10,"DAE get tired by being social? I get tired after a few hours and need to lay down, preferably in the dark for a couple of hours before I´m good to go again. What about you?",1.9708333333333317,3.4563721944444485,2.8566666666666687,95.955,77.05555555555556,4.800000000000002,14.777777777777779,3.1291,-1.2333222222222222,133,1,30,0,3,42,31,36,0.158,0.768,0.07400000000000001,-0.504,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,9,4,1,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,19,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210458299225713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874314650742355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714390576263076,0.0,0.14763374017263114,0.2178834342701567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5116438504281449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926167672400736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648036314422277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5971366743547064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KaotikJumper,2019/02/10,"Risperidone and stuffy nose I've had my nose like that for 3 years and I've not been able to breathe through my nose since then. What can I do? This is so overwhelming, now that I just heard this is created by my meds",0.6789130434782606,2.840894282608698,1.080608695652174,103.701347826087,84.43478260869566,5.419130434782609,20.069565217391304,6.742157984588678,-0.14241217391304373,171,5,43,2,5,51,34,46,0.0,0.897,0.10300000000000001,0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,6,4,4,0,0,4,7,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,4,5,1,4,4,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,27,10,0,0.5291470859309524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585145379341472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5877631247977291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4377159375371923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34075337457084925 schizophrenia,WalkingOnSunShine12,2019/02/10,"My brother has schizophrenia, and when’s having an episode, he targets me Is there any reason why when he gets angry and aggressive he only targets me? We never had any problems in the pass before the mental issue. But for years now he approaches me and tries to start a physical harm. He’s my older brother. Recently had a son that’s 3 weeks and I don’t think it’s a safe environment for him. 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I was watching an mma event this weekend and happen to come across a fighter with schizophrenia, oddly enough. I know of another fighter in the UFC who has a family member with schizophrenia. Anyhow, thought I'd share. [UFC 234: Nadia Kassem Explains How She Got Injured 'Riding A Little Baby Bike' - MMA Fighting](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PuTm9FfImsU)",7.353772321428572,11.189196296875005,5.491339285714287,71.97687500000002,70.40625,6.7821428571428575,32.58035714285714,7.957251820313856,3.110404464285714,329,15,41,5,7,95,53,64,0.045,0.858,0.09699999999999999,0.264,0,0,0,0,4,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,1,0,10,9,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,1,7,6,1,7,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,1,2,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265041125827624,0.3492607862319582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23289552304855915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869167619857024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3441580808534912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139958112030513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663924932192167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.294539321370469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3661013517825168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3338311441406788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26442631922200893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,q_bizzle,2019/02/10,"I think my 19 year old son may have schizophrenia, but he's not willing to see a doctor. He had a marijuana induced psychotic break over the summer where he was seeing and hearing things, believed that he made a pact with satan, that meth magically appeared in his room. After a few weeks in the hospital he came home and slowly seemed to be getting better. His marijuana use started up again and I told him he had to quit or move out. He stopped using weed, but I just found out he did Nbom and MDMA about three weeks ago. We had a very long conversation last night and he told me he still believes everything that happened (the black magic, the meth, etc.) before he was hospitalized. He also said he believed the government was controlling parts of people's lives. He told me some other very strange, disturbing stuff and was laughing inappropriately and had very strange facial expressions. I asked him if he'd be willing to see a doctor and he said no. I can't force him. I don't know what to do. His dad isn't someone I can rely on at all and he's been in denial about any struggles our son has had since he was little (son was diagnosed with ASD in 4th grade). What can I do? He already hates me for taking him to the hospital the first time. The hospitalization didn't help him either, he wasn't given any definitive diagnosis and was given a scrip for haldol which made him catatonic (he stopped taking it a few days after he got home). Any advice on what my next steps should be is greatly appreciated.",4.804142694620508,6.11977148805461,5.598186250609462,79.77708759954496,69.61433447098976,8.311327807573543,27.945555013814396,8.704169506293173,2.037838095238095,1198,41,229,20,21,391,165,293,0.09300000000000001,0.863,0.044000000000000004,-0.9117,0,0,2,0,0,0,31.0,2,0,0,4,7,6,1,2,16,0,34,4,1,6,1,40,63,15,0,2,7,4,0,0,0,4,3,3,3,0,11,16,0,3,5,0,0,4,7,3,0,2,28,7,25,3,26,27,7,39,1,0,4,0,47,14,0,6,20,141,36,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811735941077183,0.08900547397215383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11080252592379493,0.08029609720024007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048422817399811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09386775743322262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08543965924583684,0.3393756873997321,0.0,0.08880255703884761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11483979687780503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11261590773140608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06475473722522677,0.0,0.0,0.10191182350681967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20554331637311246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198126066112507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902400740830068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0854068402099355,0.0,0.11009199180767927,0.0,0.0,0.052458941654150285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030530590548404,0.1106999757761526,0.0,0.0,0.08879030342790054,0.0,0.0,0.0991319345357874,0.0,0.0,0.11316691030803867,0.0,0.06730124509128968,0.0,0.20143445998139867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05518151185873097,0.08184577437237847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063501349842496,0.08866194442064043,0.08885776085383867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19001661366720266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10671762214427444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678485543594188,0.0942259370495438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10536111644387486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10873188414912778,0.0,0.06961013971062806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10679607577689662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910216595367801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400360975568054,0.09140750807204832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08305838610626526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0850752198623353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07106917163518646,0.0,0.08018581457689855,0.1678908665981698,0.0,0.10496805410707667,0.11494293128556872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15098836913163452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06670649388698527,0.06433727662377152,0.0,0.0,0.05854860717093637,0.0,0.0,0.28783192404182456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17344023610085255,0.0,0.2485409006236077,0.0,0.0,0.16108219303941426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465934393744481 schizophrenia,newlightpsych,2019/02/10,"I'm going to set myself on fire with a can of gasoline I have read a lot about self-immolation. I did a lot of meditation. I realized that I do NOT belong in*/to this world. I will need to enter self-destruct mode 100%. Some people here have said that i am VILE. I don't know if some of them were angry trolls or whatever but I kept getting harrassed for a psychotic evil episode I've had recently. Imagine Satan giving you the task to become ""Lawful-Evil"" while you're currently at ""Chaotic Neutral"", from games like Dungeons & Dragons & Planescape: Torment, Arcanum, Baldurs Gate 2, etc. Sorry for rambling on it clearly all shows that I am an unmedicated very sick schizophrenic. Benzos made it 120% times worse. I hate my strange life now and my addiction to psychotic shit but I can't act otherwise. I have a strong mental barrier that's preventing me from taking my 300mg Seroquel as prescribed - at all. I feel happier when off meds but obviously life gets harder. I speak to nobody. My possibilities have been ruined by a horrible brain disease and I'm going to get a can of gasoline and set myself on fire in front of a World Wonder(Think like, the Pyramids, but not exactly that). Trust me it'll happen watch the news I will go to heaven inshallah. Goodbye blue sky :-)",3.305956790123457,5.836866967078192,4.626239711934158,79.92849537037041,76.86008230452677,7.671399176954732,28.231995884773664,8.59863814320734,2.4960069958847733,1015,44,180,22,24,335,161,243,0.214,0.677,0.109,-0.9811,1,0,0,0,0,0,43.0,0,1,1,1,4,10,4,0,12,0,18,7,2,1,5,31,36,12,0,2,8,0,3,2,0,3,5,2,1,0,9,4,0,3,4,3,0,6,4,5,0,0,7,7,25,5,27,26,7,24,2,1,2,0,6,10,1,6,8,112,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16580038606822511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32957857838826193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679712904989969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16978257200284974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16962038615546504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07690119807075806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383820084222272,0.1458984429289044,0.2593085004125521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13449255228406073,0.0,0.0,0.15015723985447044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358460419949232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21485111811351654,0.14860683694578536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586027037815167,0.0,0.1439110936771843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16893753741580958,0.0,0.1532707971288272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277269683053215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10543995225936556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714584542273058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15213100791488274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501703788571742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446722758048689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31732576673131485,0.0,0.15611804568296164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702521355658538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143526395661602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974530349157212,0.0,0.0,0.08868481474995997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12549005458684048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649349548681904,0.0,0.0,0.1549925507954402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mad_Squid,2019/02/10,"I bought my first car today! This is a big deal for me becase I've always had driving anxiety so bad that I put it off for 7 years. Last year with some encouragement from my case manager I finally got my learners permit anyway and after a few months of driving the anxiety started to subside. I'm still on my learners but my dad suggested I get my own car to drive since I can't drive his and everyone else is always out. He found a 1999 Ford Falcon online and it was only 2 grand. It's an older car but still in great condition. We just need to replace the break lights. But yeah, part of me thought I'd never own my own car. Am glad to prove myself wrong.",3.1598540145985443,4.1855486715328505,4.739861313868616,85.48132481751826,73.23357664233576,7.815766423357664,25.37883211678832,8.238735603445708,1.4586327007299262,516,16,109,8,10,174,97,137,0.068,0.8,0.132,0.9011,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,6,1,6,0,0,1,2,17,14,7,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,3,0,1,9,2,2,0,1,6,1,17,4,15,8,6,28,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,1,13,68,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198992643949325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941087753564523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16050288962244413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19817929281089536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16058236710005466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836827085824379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105770851171788,0.0,0.1635095876885656,0.0,0.2107687878867633,0.0,0.0,0.100431533345157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15374280825205286,0.21193276032459116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15669200252326113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534350708945397,0.0,0.0,0.1425351049408662,0.14825858195355499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14619854708079566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20816489056524706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19324288266674972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15901352201920285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13606042470220567,0.0,0.3070280892657405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15260807240349375,0.0,0.0,0.18221027925777045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101718473297534,0.0,0.24757789051642845 schizophrenia,tannerlord18,2019/02/10,"Misdiagnosed as Schizophrenic Well guys, after being on aripiprazole for 3 months turns out I have BPD, not schizophrenia. The psychiatrist straight up told me she ruled out bpd because I'm a male, so guess who spent hundreds on meds for no reason!!!",11.086136363636362,9.714548068181825,9.080909090909092,69.14136363636364,56.95454545454545,12.436363636363636,40.18181818181819,11.20814326018867,4.393854545454547,201,8,34,4,2,60,39,44,0.05,0.8390000000000001,0.111,0.3971,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,5,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,3,1,9,4,0,8,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,1,2,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15876037420634226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6560242064986552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869014335859065,0.2578742195484346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892875177960901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20787884759003825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677732801326025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488593354812525,0.0,0.0,0.28328137675539555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341647247446712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,disease97,2019/02/10,Is there anyone shiozofrnic and trying to stop smoking cigarettes? Really need some help from you guys. ,6.370000000000001,10.117594529411768,6.466176470588237,63.8427941176471,74.29411764705883,10.458823529411768,26.14705882352941,10.125756701596842,4.13384705882353,85,3,11,3,2,27,17,17,0.109,0.7440000000000001,0.147,0.1935,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479314478011505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4926993409570338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335288335945539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689619295323565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187734309265872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4160134395114901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378357539536468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwawayschizogff,2019/02/10,"Finding an SO who has SZ who’s been hospitalized Now that my SO has been hospitalized, I need to go find her. Currently she is at a point where she does not trust anybody (even her mother) and will not disclose information as to whether or not she is residing at a facility. I’ve just hit the first “I cannot confirm whether or not this person is here.” And I’m determined to go to every psychiatric treatment center and find her, I know her episode will be over soon as a week or two hits. She needs to be found before then and to know she has a visitor.. But to get some help finding her, could some provide some advice on how to go about this? Have you SOs, not married, faced this issue? I’ll start searching tomorrow 24 hours after her 5150. ",5.340059656972412,5.497365899328862,5.913646532438481,82.15191648023865,67.85906040268456,9.306785980611483,31.320656226696496,9.150863307647796,2.4293304996271443,585,22,122,10,9,190,93,149,0.019,0.943,0.038,0.4133,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,1,10,1,0,0,6,0,15,1,1,1,0,31,28,16,0,3,12,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,8,0,0,3,6,0,0,2,3,0,16,1,16,18,3,20,0,0,0,0,18,7,0,6,10,89,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717531538758331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14956100561281427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14033211403129184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15381101363343824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11608952298614746,0.0,0.14808754983019728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6425752365671502,0.14950355631987494,0.0,0.1927145912098956,0.0,0.0,0.09182869099002128,0.0,0.2996697650935193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780994895925015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730907314841679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18345046352022884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931890290217743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26065144424037073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534691008197173,0.0,0.0,0.16615244465229234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12440565507459116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17169449625948408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14098613565377813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,moemoney52,2019/02/10,Can anyone tells me what this seems like?! Im so scared i have schizo or could be developing it. I am feeling really detached and derealization. Sometimes i worry so much and i think everything i see and hear might not be real until i have somebody let me know im really seeing or hearing it. All this happened after me having a bad panic attack while smoking weed and getting paranoid and hiding under a bed. The panic attacks stopped but lately now more than ever ive been researching schizo so much and it seems like i have the symptoms. And lately ive been having a bug crawling sensation on my skin. I think i have depression but idk for sure. Like im sad and ive experienced alot of trauma as a kid so idk. The other day i left my girlfriend after a whole week and i cried a little bit. And theres a vent in my room and theres a noise that it makes when air comes out. I just recently started paying attention to it and i felt like i was hallucinating. My mom told me im not and that we live in an old house. Im scared im developing it. And the bug crawling feeling on my skin doesnt make it better. Please help,1.8240259740259752,3.8571538917748964,3.931839826839827,85.57490259740261,79.34632034632034,6.451082251082251,22.62121212121212,7.520522993642371,0.9936303030303026,883,28,180,13,22,302,130,231,0.203,0.705,0.092,-0.9706,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,0,1,10,16,2,4,14,0,20,3,2,2,3,43,39,26,0,1,7,1,5,4,1,1,1,2,2,1,13,17,0,1,9,0,1,1,3,10,0,0,5,10,27,6,14,29,7,26,0,2,2,0,9,10,0,6,19,121,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06458517237320555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21016165372372486,0.0,0.0,0.07712260872025845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08169112856463245,0.100840869781955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07956601435290328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07374755446317033,0.0,0.1014608410810219,0.05956909057833633,0.0,0.07955558433637214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08355126332784535,0.0,0.0,0.0830135273061111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09340708755066283,0.0,0.0886868302549923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04825795889142063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167985623936798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20820870316137435,0.0,0.06191167066177231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10657914682330416,0.0,0.0,0.5986334314718834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05076250200397248,0.0,0.20838805760078669,0.0,0.10035704425006846,0.09445154236722199,0.0,0.1805034534891118,0.09257602596068262,0.08156177639443822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12331141448684035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09798681817907562,0.0,0.10817914475704307,0.0,0.0,0.13580078431558668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09692365621143703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21674560736268966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10139125749192897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10513389755363547,0.1183453643785498,0.0,0.09120129515096648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849510136080232,0.0,0.14720912219594132,0.16817494321520002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091353350750113,0.0,0.06537785656883928,0.0,0.0,0.07722296984139088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705482909329376,0.09600470694503868,0.0,0.0,0.08073285215757289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837012156917155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08826065185495377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740912569403784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10312448615771798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380319872834196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DoingBetterForMyself,2019/02/10,Out of the hospital. Finally come to terms with my delusions. What's the purpose of life now? I just got out of the hospital after coming to terms with my delusions while I was in there. There isn't some higher power behind my delusions. There was no entity communicating with me through various forms of media. They didn't have a plan for me and I'm not supposed to save the world. So what's that leave me with? I feel like I just woke up from a 21 year dream. I truly felt like I had a purpose before and now I don't know what I'm supposed to do.,1.0139275362318865,3.1484866173913097,2.923152173913042,91.17400362318844,82.82608695652173,5.920289855072465,20.88768115942029,7.1686216300943375,0.5302028985507246,431,13,94,6,12,144,68,115,0.057999999999999996,0.846,0.095,0.6083,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,2,8,3,0,0,7,0,8,1,0,0,0,18,17,4,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,10,0,0,3,1,0,2,5,0,0,0,7,2,14,3,21,10,5,15,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,10,70,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624600244025049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5313881093202667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15595671108555473,0.2203498512438932,0.2961511107102989,0.3378813324610363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24668792845906584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16951075269785024,0.0,0.0,0.3265938006773682,0.0,0.0,0.2178605444040502,0.301376755061308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19862547600807093 schizophrenia,ComfortableSky5,2019/02/10,"maintaining friendship during psychosis.... Someone close to me has schizophrenia and is going through a psychotic episode of the worst kind. Usually during earlier periods of psychosis we were still in touch, albeit less frequently but now there are no calls but just texts. If I tried to call her she wouldn't answer or return my call. But she does reply to texts, albeit minimally. I don't want to put pressure on the situation but want to show that 1) I care deeply and 2) will always be there for her. Does anyone have advice as to what to do? Should I send a text every week or is that too much (too infrequent)? Will it make a difference at all? Are emotional texts like 'I really care and am here for you' too much, or is that what is needed? Thanks",3.5372115384615337,5.7825074861111165,4.217500000000005,84.5544230769231,74.83333333333333,7.764102564102564,24.27136752136752,8.617729084823388,1.7348393162393156,594,19,113,12,13,189,97,144,0.069,0.7859999999999999,0.145,0.9312,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,1,1,0,0,9,7,0,1,5,0,17,0,0,1,1,22,25,12,0,6,9,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,1,1,0,3,3,2,0,0,1,1,13,5,16,19,5,14,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,4,8,83,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16468634641895158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402311256066027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11784065329602952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5162663663894249,0.0,0.3436567634275649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17607881515080345,0.0,0.0,0.2949648760755675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18957446540882464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14199446695052034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957799369459328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17549889308782576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08233563564108007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249561709008662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24777905754264176,0.12496345211745685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16942000165632287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10796514540782357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894356793987836,0.0,0.0,0.1427955992095202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458891389454944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15516051702258232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11442134996491338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18561286540245572,0.0,0.1988076636322538,0.0,0.13518524145025562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,yourhoneybadger01,2019/02/10,"[Serious] Dealing with brother who may be schizophrenic Hi everyone, I never thought I'd come to ask this question as it seemed like such a foreign disease. My brother (33) lives in another country and has 3 children, aged 2 to 6. SO many things happened randomly during the years, but I never connected the dots. Recently he told me that people are following him around town, he is sometimes seeing and meeting an old exgirlfriend (who is 600km away from him, so not possible). A few years ago he asked me to check his computer, phone and wireless connection to see if someone might have ""infiltrated"" his network or devices. Giving the benefit of the doubt, I checked everything and nothing weird was happening, but every time I visited the wireless router was turned off (supposedly because of the dangers of radio waves). My brother has a PhD and knows that all the scare is bullshit, but I understand that we're not always rational beings. Anyway, he came to visit me last summer with the kids and girlfriend, and he mentioned to me scaredly that some people from our country are following him, and he saw them a couple of times. His girlfriend almost left him a couple of times because she thought he was cheating on her, but she seemed to understand that this ""ex-gf"" is not really real. Technically, she is, but she's really far away and hasn't spoke to him in more than 5 years. He also told me that sometimes they communicate using youtube videos with special meanings to them, through fake profiles. A few weeks ago thought, he accused my father of touching one of the nephews and she told him that my aunt is going to punish him for this (that aunt died more than 10 years ago) for this, because he also molested her or something like that. My father has never touched me, my sister or my brother inappropriately. He mentioned a couple of times that he saw this happening, one of which I was there and nothing happened. Me and my father were playing with a niece, and her leggings came off a bit. Another time the kids were jumping on the beds while my parents were trying to watch TV and they grabbed them by the legs so they would stop jumping since they didn't listen and the bed is like 1m from the ground. While putting all this on paper it seems like my brother has schizophrenia, but I'm not sure and will not be until a diagnosis is confirmed. I want to help him, but the problem is that I'm 4000km away from him and so are our parents. The girlfriend seems to have shut down after this accusations started so not much I can do. So I really don't know what I'm looking for, but how would you help him? Don't know where to start, and I feel so helpless being so far away. Does this sound like schizophrenia? Sorry for the mistakes, English is not my main language.",8.05406001827254,7.30730718975332,7.6286738351254515,75.13338112305857,62.49146110056926,10.312151240424486,38.11434394546349,9.444778638647367,3.5362761824443036,2207,98,399,33,27,697,251,527,0.11599999999999999,0.8170000000000001,0.067,-0.9865,2,0,1,0,0,0,64.0,2,1,7,0,16,22,4,3,28,0,41,3,2,2,6,81,86,45,1,6,19,14,4,5,3,5,1,3,2,3,26,26,0,1,15,4,2,11,14,13,0,2,19,13,59,9,55,58,10,59,0,1,6,0,84,20,0,15,33,277,85,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19206403082885545,0.0,0.07232091523456023,0.0,0.0,0.1155134352967144,0.06009533273660445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15146425338638952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06429379401146944,0.13503753610428065,0.0,0.2714235937535353,0.0,0.0,0.1320794356869904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884882493507618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16520777358644145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06221373090156027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23974017156243554,0.0,0.0,0.07445875541790949,0.0,0.0,0.07495608526966695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06320284564747837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06085100366438565,0.06901218426432376,0.0649093873937808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0365181255868912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06928289539660078,0.04104600284250881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554662885897713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968191268481448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11907563795608753,0.058871395322592085,0.0,0.0,0.07847051528001936,0.0,0.0,0.17642258088305476,0.0,0.06377424393725029,0.0,0.06064914134738876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322279964337816,0.0,0.07867203439347091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07661720381084645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05309222486725235,0.0,0.16710852081028724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13859985826750668,0.0,0.07578590324744168,0.0,0.0978803659265457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603902185206584,0.0,0.0,0.100140687403607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08142059579677582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06910766980404325,0.0,0.07260407650392145,0.08090630391721107,0.0,0.0,0.08220560077350937,0.13880373510173574,0.0,0.0713115125916693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461567145420934,0.0,0.11510478172165745,0.2629964752329927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597436229397891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061194324802701865,0.055600804141108746,0.14286081379709067,0.08084775041228415,0.10223964109737152,0.0,0.0,0.060381673057327036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06806933531783567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047981760846166704,0.0,0.0,0.1720110155312703,0.21056909930774592,0.0,0.0,0.2070365527929713,0.0,0.04903468519252314,0.07855789911794346,0.0,0.15037340786844036,0.0,0.06237749463937457,0.0,0.0,0.04259900448237111,0.0,0.0579329448500755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026103129479832,0.0,0.0,0.1860370105814733 schizophrenia,Amerrickan,2019/08/17,"Frustration: I planted a plant outside a few years ago, and it died this summer. I remember my neighbor throwing some hot water on it, I think it might have been bleach or something. I did see some weeds start to grow on the sides of it but those are gone. With the odd things thrown in the planter, it seems you can mob a plant, animal or human. I was gonna plant something new in the planter, but someone will just kill the new plant, and the soil might be too toxic anyways. People are odd sometimes. Granted, it looked like a strung out junkie the entire time it lived, I guess it was time to officially die this year. The vegetable garden in the back is doing great though, but I didn't have anything to do with that.",3.227159624413148,5.094044274647885,3.2348591549295764,92.9467018779343,74.56338028169014,5.860093896713615,23.805164319248824,6.42735559955562,0.4840262910798119,565,17,118,4,12,171,93,142,0.14400000000000002,0.782,0.07400000000000001,-0.8945,0,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,0,5,4,2,0,13,0,17,2,0,0,0,19,25,8,3,0,6,0,1,1,1,4,0,0,2,1,13,5,2,0,3,1,0,3,1,2,0,0,6,3,9,2,12,14,3,20,0,0,2,0,4,7,0,8,11,79,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15524486319383546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441195604800989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346664889041536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3635208681089489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19308478263153095,0.19292877600099312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937587483562428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855611516075035,0.0,0.1546456731008259,0.0,0.1470676358920463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715769352307708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3382891412610955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141519093152825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19839158159532466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13955834948026866,0.1594345319701819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483896470552564,0.2696519237392839,0.17321104371790538,0.0,0.1239600592572042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635060244570315,0.11221817335466586,0.17206731169117348,0.0,0.20424295506331047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255598572939966 schizophrenia,CryoToastt,2019/08/17,"What I experience I've never been diagnosed with schizophrenia, I have never tried to get diagnosed, the symptoms have only been occurring for the past two years and I only realized it recently. For days at a time, I've slipped into a mindset in which I completely believe that I am in a program of sorts, like the Truman show but I guess an experiment. I have caught myself speaking into the microphones and or cameras that I believe are planted around me asking what I should do next, at times I will hear radio crackle coming from nowhere or PA system sounding ""voices"" even though it's more like cut vowels. I only started to realize that this was not right when my mother asked me who I was talking to on the phone when I was talking to ""them"". I have only been genuinely scared by a delusion when I thought I saw my step-dad walk into my neighbours house and then he came out of our shed, for the rest of the day I was sure that I had watched them switch actors and my brain was drawing all sorts of conclusions, like hey, I've never noticed that freckle or, hey he sounds slightly different, to justify this and doing nothing to dispel the utter nonsense, and I calmed down later. I have had a host of other small things that I've heard supposedly from the next room after doing something I'm not so proud of, one night after ""Batting practice"" in my bedroom one night, the next morning I was sure I heard a conversation about my mom saying that that's why they had cameras in my room, and that day I went through the whole room checking for cameras with a flashlight checking for lens glare. I don't know why I'm posting this, I guess it might be to see if anyone has some shared experiences or if anyone can relate but if I have any spelling errors its probably because I'm really tired and have a messed up sleep schedule.",9.739728464419477,7.050020182584269,9.178359550561796,71.52993632958803,60.65730337078652,11.628164794007493,40.3063670411985,9.558583805096642,3.813775131086144,1459,59,268,19,15,468,195,356,0.07400000000000001,0.866,0.06,-0.7668,2,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,1,0,3,2,8,11,1,1,20,0,31,6,2,0,6,46,51,23,0,4,11,3,0,3,1,3,4,8,4,0,22,17,0,0,5,3,2,5,6,3,0,3,19,11,40,8,41,28,5,51,0,0,3,0,25,19,0,13,28,191,62,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06537774043246683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13444509135072588,0.0,0.0,0.08558399275090671,0.17975376455443556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05860537366101371,0.0,0.0,0.2166312092546771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073227938001962,0.0,0.10995727592692027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08281513910247935,0.10079979471710596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18600488773658572,0.0,0.0,0.19515789477542575,0.0,0.10044467560956304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06349882867040049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28212683956142603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05022860087811978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118156473646163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835551368815594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11093136864248926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05283541847406199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409058132176623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019881672307669,0.0,0.11259670342799913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224447110881503,0.0,0.3067343934737177,0.1804396671069302,0.0,0.0922478557038252,0.10945476094033232,0.0,0.0,0.13029239690566716,0.29247182535967514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09177544672669026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09207447924885752,0.0,0.10365398141628884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06158903328796427,0.0,0.09492555339964656,0.0,0.0,0.08210208486906982,0.0,0.07645350229404642,0.09625179823107538,0.0,0.07661024641588017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620831813370986,0.0,0.0,0.07401241273315358,0.0,0.0,0.0680475995939189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18121952794888546,0.0999251153247697,0.0,0.15454559264038364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06387040515452412,0.0,0.09445596911879932,0.07632353807833134,0.11211871718445633,0.11049750889992556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06527199407941704,0.0,0.0939137238330512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08912171214517567,0.17350078554575166,0.10733563488732792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0619102916922466 schizophrenia,WolfGameAlpha,2019/08/17,"Mouth Moving When Defending Against Voices Does anyone else have the issue of their mouths moving when defending themselves against the more aggressive or tortotuous voices? Sometimes a few words will slip out when defending against them, and when I'm with other people or in public, it can be quite embarassing. Thank you.",8.52111111111111,10.971256111111114,6.7194444444444485,70.93250000000003,61.96296296296296,9.844444444444443,33.87037037037037,10.125756701596842,3.93368148148148,266,11,37,6,4,78,43,54,0.035,0.915,0.051,0.2228,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,2,1,4,2,1,0,3,0,4,2,2,0,0,6,6,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,7,4,2,8,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,4,28,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20144540051511334,0.29519129720290443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521172275312544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406696043680511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007003280159693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6124069248807763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997314536444349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30642856841133514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849371094639809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652426952965585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Party_End,2019/08/17,"My issue I have psychotic episodes, yet I don't know when I'm psychotic. I've had tiny realizations that happens once a full moon that either the episode I just came out of wasn't real or the episode that's starting isn't real, but I usually make a excuse as to why I should do nothing about knowing I'm delusional. Now that I know I've been psychotic my whole life, and have learned about mental illness, I wanna know how to recognize my phycosis 24/7. Am I worrying to much? do I still have psychotic episodes? I've had them for years yet I can't really tell what's real. I've been trying to reach out to a professional because I want to know if I'm actually schizophrenic. I've had a history of low self-esteem with anxiety for 10 years, I'm turning 18 soon and it's been since kindergarten, my psychosis being just a little older. My mother struggled to take care of me and keep a job and house because shes a single mother, and she'd take out her stress on me, say awful things at times. We've lost our home because she couldn't afford repairs. Not to mention how many people she pushed away because she's afraid to lose us for not being able to afford most things. Including all these doctor appointments I make her do. She's afraid of looking like she's neglecting me if I tell people I'm sick and she's not getting me help. So she's paranoid about me telling my psychiatrist I'm being abused, the only problem I have with her is that she's taking things personally and feeling like it's somehow her fault that I'm sick...she keeps denying she's done anything wrong when I'm not accusing her at all. So it's not been that easy for me, I'm struggling. I don't understand how you can all know you're hearing fake voices right now- I can't imagine how that must feel like. But it makes since because most people on this subreddit take medication and understand the gravity of the situation, yet I'm stressed and confused. What do I do? Do I really need to get help?",3.621198156682027,5.139845992481209,4.808123534643059,83.51532864419113,72.7844611528822,8.05565526720026,28.409814859729966,8.654491914285503,2.1254217964265503,1577,62,314,29,31,520,187,399,0.203,0.7440000000000001,0.053,-0.9964,3,0,0,0,1,0,36.0,2,1,1,2,22,19,0,7,12,1,35,6,0,7,4,67,76,23,0,9,13,2,2,3,0,2,6,3,1,1,19,15,0,3,12,0,0,2,12,15,0,0,11,6,50,4,35,58,10,29,0,4,1,0,32,12,0,7,18,196,69,4,0.08608005365513234,0.10199078766679252,0.08400171517038764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06585100543470837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07083654966226706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08087504399108754,0.0,0.0,0.26236800870998306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09845264939352054,0.08776435163624881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08810658244021398,0.0,0.08808978124548254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870493230885067,0.12299121506166907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0899465504232251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612030716349069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09701847657707448,0.0,0.11539529095075815,0.0,0.08634531235466969,0.0,0.0,0.0993248245887885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08984521171590783,0.08542117088254475,0.15302381365647427,0.0,0.0,0.2838440778058546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060800887586243475,0.12616309843331666,0.08627482780394492,0.0,0.0,0.07228556525481293,0.09630156161510818,0.09396654707207648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17237731271211587,0.08727166360763973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671659797659788,0.08674844783968086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06327874393443836,0.06382726906888123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08259613307398482,0.0,0.0,0.09167244779367877,0.0,0.06546775972050392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17903121214477638,0.07516178258921143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08236698598278362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939338391448037,0.11029017315444956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07351189548806054,0.0,0.06845431366692907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08980026932443225,0.0,0.0,0.1424126198205113,0.0967575869212355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06092790502870736,0.0,0.068743642043127,0.0,0.19720882125562286,0.1799791241275076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588859502152125,0.0,0.2257132830795987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17156328816693506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05019397152376205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058442705988713026,0.0936303798671274,0.0,0.17922474326226787,0.10354370578966578,0.0,0.09480501780274987,0.0,0.05077224590308373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07767385952789997,0.0961053058100164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741847291202579,0.0,0.0,0.09411502559867882,0.0,0.1108654646169727 schizophrenia,Hannzo96,2019/08/17,"Anyone experienced symptoms of psychosis ONLY after hospitalization? I was kidnapped and taken out of my will to a mental hospital because my parents found out i smoke weed, i didn't have any symptoms of psychosis or schizophrenia, they just wanted me to quit smoking weed After being hospitalized for 45 days and taking anti depressants and anti psychotics, i got out and read my report, it says substance-induced psychosis I tried smoking again and only then I started hearing voices, getting paranoid, getting delusional (for example when I sit in front of TV I think it's talking about me or sending me some kind of a secret message, same thing when I scroll social media), i immediately quit smoking after my 2nd smoke attempt because these feelings were extremely uncomfortable I didn't have any of these before my hospitalization and the meds i took made me isolated, anxious, depressed, anhedonic, apathetic and suicidal, I'm extremely suffering from negative symptoms, i barely have energy for anything, I'm too lazy to read an article or watch a YouTube video, i have no passion or motivation to do or learn anything, i have an existential crisis, i dropped out of my school because of my hospitalization and I'm expected to be enslaved 8-12 hours a day for some pennies, and If i do not, my parents are already thinking about kicking me out of my home I can't even fully describe how I'm feeling but my life has turned upside down and I can't even remember how my life was like before i get kidnapped into the hospital and I want to sue my parents and the hospital for all of this",12.62809746954077,9.085478326460484,12.082599187753832,55.55477038425495,56.113402061855666,14.29315838800375,50.85317088409872,12.079253325248375,6.305588316151201,1287,71,196,27,11,428,159,291,0.111,0.848,0.04,-0.9269,3,0,2,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,4,11,6,0,0,9,0,19,6,0,4,1,46,41,24,1,4,9,3,2,1,0,1,5,3,1,0,6,18,0,0,9,4,0,3,7,3,0,0,10,7,39,3,35,28,4,24,0,3,1,1,11,8,0,8,12,144,45,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233076408126242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15197378272407328,0.0,0.0,0.12623416128904313,0.0,0.07813106175778266,0.0,0.1839046585543628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20434662312371005,0.0,0.19016466864093715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14412584572621906,0.0,0.19248264097040052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14760615964629298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129979940885498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225169161892942,0.0,0.0,0.17513829078271687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08936852055838213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12593886837683893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120841236767201,0.0,0.1100411884188482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635980004134458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578502415019016,0.0545904189531192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573089445010064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12411772074526818,0.0,0.11260743045885167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699662964263725,0.0,0.0,0.372221451806204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237698049612195,0.22354006393026266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12657940376659116,0.0,0.0,0.08885996876973626,0.0,0.11308663661601567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11390464784105415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909000102460996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12222519808515547,0.0,0.0,0.34842128982871123,0.08401441859083679,0.0898122134595414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07423495375676699,0.1431966957547993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12414702211876852,0.07586398505496683,0.12154080853652545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318140506752899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tangyjam,2019/08/17,"is it possible my friend has an onset of schizophrenia? My friend has been acting really weird. It all strand in 2017, after he experimented with LSD and whippets (nitrous oxide). He has been abusing nitrous oxide since 2017. I have since moved away to a different state but I would say he used did 50-100 a couple times a week every week? maybe everyday. This is just an assumption, he told me that he only does it every other week in binges &#x200B; Anyways, im starting to connect the dots of things he said before his lsd trip and how hes been acting after abusing inhalants and psychedelics. I think the latter triggered his dormant mental illness. he believes in paranormal things and ghosts, telling me stories of how he swears he saw a ghost in in his house go across his closet, how the ghost was messing with him by moving his belongings in his house, and how he saw an angel/ or an aura around his church pastor a t a retreat. these are small delusions he had, but other than that he was a normal person before acid &#x200B; after his trip, he didn't seem to be all there. whenever you talked to him, it seemed like someone was not inside his body. he also apparently lost his mind. he called me saying god is putting him on trial, god is committing divine retribution or something like that. he also asked if I was cursing him and spitting him. the person he got his acid from was a crazy person that gaslighted him. he manipulated his mind saying I was cursing and spiting him. if he continues to hang out with me I would take 25 years of his life span away. I told him that was bullshit, and he prosblby had psychosis if he believes that. I was pissed he would even think I would do something like that. anyways, he started to act more on impulse. he ended up getting fucked in the ass by this acid dealer which was a huge shock, and he was in complete denial. behind the scenes, he was throwing himself at this acid dealer, doing all sorts of drugs and having sex. even now, he acts like that whole incident NEVER happened, and talks about girls like it never happened. whats more strange, is he always goes to this guys house, and when the guy moved out to move hback to his moms house, my friend was really hurt and acted like he saw a ghost. now hes being more crazy, and is acting really arrogant. he ditched his small business which was doing well and his parents bought for him to enlist in the navy SEALS. my friend is super unathetlic, and I would support him in anything he does, but hes been acting like its going to be easy and 100%. he had surgery on his knee 3 times, and never got far in lifting when our social group did. hes been looking down on people, calling me a nerd for engineering work, and bullying people out of jealousy (lowered my friends pay who works for him as a cashier for comforting my ex girlfriend). &#x200B; along with that hes been harassing my ex girl friend. throwing himself at her, touching without her consent, doing cringe stuff like the game pick up artist book, showing up at her house unannounced, and other creepy things like lying about me coming to his birthday party to get her to come, watching her sleep. this made her cry and she's considering to call the cops. my friend that told me this saids its even worse than how im making it sound. they think if they talk to him again he will go over the edge. after telling him that hes in the wrong for harassing my ex, and he should stop since she's not intersted , he doesn't think hes doing anything wrong. his reply was ""they never say its easy"" hes thinking persistence will win here. but hes mistaking it for harassment. and I dont know why hes doing this behind my back since its my ex girlfriend and hes the only friend at home that knows the extent of our toxic relationship (cheated multiple times, left me for another guy). this is all strange to me.",6.199667260843732,6.53603459358289,6.005500891265602,81.61210754604876,66.03208556149733,8.360118835412951,30.52596553773025,7.946510646118237,1.999797052881759,3068,104,580,32,45,958,324,748,0.147,0.728,0.125,-0.9749,4,0,3,0,0,0,96.0,2,1,3,6,25,39,7,0,30,0,70,11,6,11,9,90,110,44,4,12,14,6,1,9,10,8,3,7,2,8,43,35,0,1,9,4,2,22,10,16,1,0,39,18,90,23,83,60,9,88,4,2,5,3,141,38,3,9,36,375,133,4,0.0,0.12166158264645208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211489553952285,0.04271989623893994,0.1668841350610546,0.18715511644725732,0.0,0.05383560497896889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08449867814807945,0.04570445130932383,0.04799698469115196,0.0,0.09647328031922613,0.03947812588845393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08737496514193399,0.11568764481784985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057028372310793836,0.0,0.0,0.15727496665527976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08845159874231383,0.05383015166219853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05680793492090186,0.056395771965852874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053640507273826216,0.0,0.0,0.08985786034000656,0.0,0.06017137019577649,0.0,0.05953935981860031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04547296318219772,0.0,0.0,0.10173090889597468,0.0,0.08651415822828143,0.0,0.0,0.050221433499907236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173279642910531,0.04746400652809605,0.05364719661656975,0.0,0.08753496665742666,0.0,0.08212431283246148,0.0,0.0,0.1525072403448402,0.09080150524280764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05149929515933962,0.0,0.0,0.29620359916799915,0.0549616942165505,0.0,0.11091436568933644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056431436146800525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055782239949837234,0.0,0.03626372724082734,0.22574395067607184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04311358149387699,0.0,0.056044860002259694,0.0,0.0,0.04858017676483524,0.034270573445341734,0.0,0.051579021402741065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0517397389398487,0.0,0.10367972193067834,0.06013005918517213,0.0,0.21826979641987296,0.0,0.0,0.15838964180346699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050303363344877616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780944185462691,0.0,0.0,0.05700819997931322,0.0,0.0,0.07118688890414371,0.13448716742251413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05787936010598525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05161197173773786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986712426922241,0.0,0.0,0.05512111229028646,0.0,0.0,0.0976742591830609,0.16331396845181675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09347799256228233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16987950689032832,0.0,0.051378163723817316,0.05233577144347568,0.04350113539501342,0.0790497523034098,0.0,0.0,0.07267896956872655,0.0,0.0,0.042923446635173015,0.0,0.0,0.058773260000317976,0.0,0.05826125575286796,0.0,0.0,0.03860210704889035,0.12379806001446768,0.08974874388820779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023262082778023,0.16448647361040694,0.0,0.0,0.08981220002206332,0.0,0.0,0.14717582298360846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04434221390068105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235481665602286,0.0,0.04616180195581932,0.0,0.04632734434454878,0.05732048880614146,0.0,0.04949097460573501,0.0,0.07475384387179983,0.0,0.052320952627635586,0.18235617154312636,0.1122668353396266,0.18715511644725732,0.033061975975225144 schizophrenia,Gnuggetrizzle,2019/08/17,"I never talked to a lot of people about my delusional schizophrenia I might as well talk to you guys about it. Everytime I listen to the radio by myself, I always assume some sinister force is trying to communicate with me. Also, I have self destructive thoughts. I won't go into detail about them, but some of them range from hurting people to making them feel very uncomfortable. Notify, it takes a lot of mental restraint to stop myself from acting on them. I take two 4 mgs of risperdal to help subdue the delusions, but it only goes so far. I also am scared and delusional that some movie exec or someone from a Video game company might make me work that job against my will. The difference is I know they're delusions. I just worry about approaching people for fear of my destructive thoughts. I also heard schizophrenia causes laziness, but I'm not sure about that. Other than schizophrenia, I also have Autism, anxiety, depression, and ADHD. It just really sucks for me. My schizophrenia takes away my reason, autism takes away my communication, my anxiety takes away my patience, my depression takes away my will, and my ADHD takes away my focus. But you know what, I still work a job. I just keep my distance and keep conversation to a minimum. Anyone else here with schizophrenia.",6.614551282051284,8.05752954700855,6.4017841880341875,75.21370192307695,65.4957264957265,9.26880341880342,29.58226495726496,9.516144504307137,2.7884623931623937,1030,35,170,20,16,323,126,234,0.21,0.77,0.02,-0.9939,2,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,2,4,2,16,10,3,2,8,0,10,0,0,4,2,38,31,15,0,0,9,0,1,0,0,5,0,3,0,2,9,7,0,3,7,3,0,3,3,8,1,1,3,4,38,2,36,23,5,14,0,3,0,0,15,8,1,9,3,129,47,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21739750468211247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28931916400654906,0.07525848133331525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383821861672177,0.0,0.0,0.06324208386705943,0.0926728171841856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4248858965772812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09291315879102682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15580235375453094,0.0,0.0,0.09449702529232976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07555619172627567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10177711707738228,0.045732314768176775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051402658044500484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08955595488412936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0606241792731664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968245244583086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17950778873695974,0.1607854711529328,0.0,0.0,0.09941372891245444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15378824447385256,0.0,0.0,0.12074707754403755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09114849332536278,0.1918982436816506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06975768289783013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06878840842131151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881120141235001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05794214975580843,0.09299375422918756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09055242158607953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09435510897279364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07663476914345788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07223044969644889,0.07561707053984361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852444702127123,0.0,0.4760299874235714,0.14539445409056614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436083548365107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06140703066610565,0.0,0.08835279204688666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07462758475310842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08132199318493544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316918171372181,0.09185250333770703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NoiseOnMute,2019/08/17,"Potential schizophrenia - got her via Askreddit This one is going to sound really weird, and I'm kinda embarrassed to post this on my main, but I'm not planning to head to a shrink anytime soon, so I'll appeal to the amazing people of reddit instead. Several times throughout my life, I've heard semi-distinct voices in my head. They are somewhat distinct, different vocal qualities so I'm assuming aroud 3 or so voices. They kind of talk over one another, so it's not easy to hear all of them correctly. If I had to describe what they sound like, it's like [THIS](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3OJmHZe8jKE)\- it's not rhythmic like that but the same vocal quality to it. &#x200B; I'm perfectly lucid when it happens. My heartrate is normal. No foaming at the mouth or drooling. No parethesia or ticks when it occurs. No headaches or pressure anywhere in the body. I've had this during childhood too and there was no stressful event or time when the voices appear. &#x200B; I did have during a stressful college period have the voices kind of motivate and cheer me on. &#x200B; The 'voices' last intermittently, minutes or so at a time, though I'm not entirely aware of my surroundings when it happens (I'm there but not really at the same time). Perhaps it's just tiredness or stress, but I'd rather know what's up. I hope you guys don't mind the copypaste from that post. I've got family with a history of Alzheimer's, if that helps.",4.539900497512439,6.999690179104476,4.659776119402989,81.54337064676619,72.58208955223881,7.451741293532338,29.82338308457712,8.344100000000001,2.439977114427861,1160,50,198,20,24,361,145,268,0.115,0.762,0.12300000000000001,0.7356,1,0,0,0,0,0,57.0,0,1,4,3,17,15,0,5,13,0,10,6,5,1,4,39,26,26,0,5,20,0,0,3,0,0,1,9,0,1,16,4,0,0,3,0,0,2,10,6,0,2,7,10,15,9,25,19,5,27,0,0,0,0,11,10,0,14,16,128,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3369502975647612,0.3778787729258965,0.0,0.10869770880620863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11514412087599515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10830379341228592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977224658420456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058912995837402664,0.0,0.16581451338124914,0.0,0.0,0.1026407932588966,0.1833343487066572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21277240351189214,0.0,0.11683360116747568,0.0,0.0694818547724522,0.0,0.0,0.10295886872117567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21589418175934386,0.05696943329788288,0.08449763746520185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07321890532095071,0.15193074190049874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10466816735812788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015658752784604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14048689740921871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718655592701648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19855737138072188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13281591875731086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11710754466702195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3562303426448351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08331887099304765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10184651106609516,0.0,0.24178249986681785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3778787729258965,0.0 schizophrenia,IdiotOnBoard,2019/08/17,"How do I know I'm sane? I had drug induced psychosis about 2 years ago. I've been on meds for a year and a half and have been in therapy. The problem is that I still have moments where I'm scared that I'm not sane. I'm afraid to talk about this because I want them to be over. I think by all objective measures I'm good now, but I still have moments where I wonder whether or not I'm sane. How can I know? Is it normal to doubt your sanity after psychosis? Whenever I watch movies or whatever with psychotic themes or questions of reality it really triggers these feelings. Will I ever know for sure? It doesn't help that I have gender dysphoria and am transitioning. I'm scared these thoughts are just delusions even though I've had them for a long time.",3.3067316017316024,4.7640232012986985,4.20331168831169,87.78449134199137,73.48051948051949,7.730735930735931,27.119047619047624,8.344100000000001,1.6833956709956714,599,22,127,10,12,193,94,154,0.10400000000000001,0.853,0.043,-0.8657,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,2,0,13,7,0,4,4,0,17,1,0,4,3,31,32,11,0,3,8,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,9,4,0,0,9,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,5,2,14,2,15,25,1,17,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,6,12,82,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16641732760919029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11444259825383488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21771506169999572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239983722508022,0.1698186651621672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09492535655803057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574647035064903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258360059558541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309525672763831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16614114209715633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085332397614397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18394218358602427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796387435448849,0.0,0.0,0.2103081585844191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202689882021075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3759145343866613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2998536691850751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17693969287495856,0.0,0.0,0.15089571199347182,0.0,0.0,0.21469336874409384,0.0,0.0,0.12029414780411167,0.18445043263550465,0.1490420324957392,0.10947082584691198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107320166223916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20359252901807645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24179266157044604 schizophrenia,Justkiddingimnotkid,2019/08/17,How is the number of cases of schizophrenia determined? I would like to know the process that is undergone to determine the amount of people with schizophrenia in the US. Any help would be appreciated!,6.473047619047617,9.214445257142854,5.8171428571428585,74.13619047619048,67.85714285714286,9.23809523809524,31.666666666666664,9.725611199111238,3.4519523809523815,164,7,26,4,3,50,26,35,0.0,0.6990000000000001,0.301,0.8883,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,1,0,5,6,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,7,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,20,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926812570555292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884826244963123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23653213760143885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21026774692311448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983795584767856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5177084740662988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.611476127564134,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,modern-scripture,2019/08/17,"25 year old daughter with many disorders. Any advice? This question is for my father/mother In-law How do you deal with a mental/psycological issued daughter that you want to grow up but opposes you in every way and takes all her frustrations out on her parents? Some examples... One thing she does is she is very wasteful. Refuses accountability. Such as turns off home electricity, turns lights off on you, hides coffee pot and many other things to be spiteful. Total disrespect. Ungreatful. Can not be satisfied. Extremely self centered. She has desires/fantasys for her parents to take her to see a guy that doesn't like her, that she does not really know well and lives 100s of miles away. She will buy expensive body wash/shampoo and uses all of it in one day. Intentionally soaks the floor by leaving curtain open. Intentionally wasteful and destructive. The list could go on and on. Is anyone else ever had to deal with this. Any advice? This is a very very extreme case of the parents feeling powerless. Doctors/medicines/ have not achieved expectations and have had side effects and seems unwilling to take medications of any kind.",4.737741631305987,7.786377366336634,5.043606789250358,76.03503300330036,74.84158415841584,8.204054691183405,29.91607732201791,8.976282227363876,3.0774136727958514,916,41,148,22,21,289,132,202,0.146,0.82,0.034,-0.9791,4,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,4,0,2,4,6,3,0,6,0,17,2,1,5,4,36,29,11,0,3,4,5,1,1,0,1,1,0,2,2,10,13,0,2,5,0,3,2,4,3,1,2,2,3,15,3,28,23,4,23,0,0,1,0,25,16,0,3,5,98,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22450941790146656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343572111562679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08032340583146128,0.1177032104109297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079290251554075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12760044251293032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917184940220206,0.0,0.0,0.07408499600939134,0.2368625593790397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13165692334159426,0.0,0.20105611081029856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09596348317469706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391118867398197,0.09678730451397584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05808434912515153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06528621940420919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11374450158700047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522918479284708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989985583745374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196248358964302,0.06313240175197002,0.0,0.0,0.1216362425740554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05612221666300482,0.0,0.1014368999096038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23293083037831055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157246713267814,0.11576717547273595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12054219082289155,0.0,0.15568480735538925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3826659213373261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286865064301063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0735919900958113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09154065577088503,0.1045780611724564,0.11983987950531545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591155459177097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15263594742818398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499024451870017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09921528331361824,0.0,0.2843521944475935,0.06775636506453506,0.0911825810949814,0.0,0.0,0.1032865943403743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07397585787297872 schizophrenia,Laserbunnyfuntime,2019/08/17,"Got offered a full-time position I started got a seasonal job in April which is suppose to only go to the end of August, but they decided to hire me full-time. There is 12 of us seasonal staff and they are planning on only keeping two. I'm pretty stoked because I really like the job, I'm an wildlife technician, I'm essentially a biologist's assistant, I write environmental assessment reports, conduct various wildlife surveys and environmental monitoring for construction projects. I got expelled from high school twice and kicked out of my parents house when I was a teenager, later started showing signs of psychosis and depression. I never thought I'd have a job I actually dreamed of doing.",12.434559999999998,9.686708936000006,12.001600000000005,53.54480000000001,55.64,15.44,53.8,13.662883650711644,7.4222,567,36,86,17,5,189,86,125,0.064,0.868,0.068,0.1128,4,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,2,1,2,2,0,0,8,0,6,0,0,0,1,12,17,6,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,1,0,2,5,0,12,1,13,12,1,17,0,1,0,0,6,6,0,0,11,51,13,9,0.0,0.0,0.17009148188111958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10625155286212846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15012418010250672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437790614837713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09905860480359707,0.0,0.4182104674425451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18415733021724487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20111859106235125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5188970312080354,0.15492568916679358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515408813462426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13443076691109168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26512573567600395,0.0,0.0,0.1935393238138432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17732557949487726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11166092829601344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17640072389842318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467406203129109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13837458809940512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17026559799864902,0.0,0.20966122324411152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,satellite_of_love666,2019/08/17,"only have a few/mild symptoms as a schizotypal my psychiatrist is currently refusing to prescribe me antipsychotics. I believe they are the proper medication for the symptoms I experience, and Prozac is a zombifying piece of shit. If I don’t have positive symptoms like hallucinations and full blown delusions but I’m still a quasi-psychotic mess don’t u think a prescription of ability or seroquel or something would definitely be a bit better?",7.496796536796538,9.994799740259744,8.26435064935065,58.66890692640697,64.58441558441558,12.406060606060604,41.404761904761905,11.855464076750405,6.2863177489177495,368,22,52,14,6,123,59,77,0.098,0.7120000000000001,0.19,0.7906,1,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,1,4,1,0,8,0,9,6,1,0,0,9,11,7,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,5,9,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,3,3,37,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587835563314123,0.0,0.2031433809938933,0.250763523405896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22468226724868454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122156177394497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.231389924574912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17469066288675206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357749252543528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17682766435778705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18343185178524413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7162119474716114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471769770275292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163166183096607,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,alpacalicious,2019/08/17,"Voices inside my head I started to hear voices probably this summer.last year my mind was full of intrusive thoughts but after a while they went away. Now I have voices not auditory but inside my mind. I upped seroquel to 200 mg. Though I was getting better but today they came back. They mimick other people voices, they ask questions or say things like kill yourself or insults. I can't stop them.",4.223281853281854,6.8267819459459504,4.478803088803087,81.78067567567571,74.13513513513513,5.850193050193052,25.43629343629344,6.868970318607317,1.3071374517374514,320,11,52,3,7,100,55,74,0.125,0.759,0.115,-0.4249,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,5,1,3,4,2,0,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,12,11,7,1,0,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,5,6,13,2,6,6,1,13,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,3,9,38,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19850417587360614,0.0,0.19949533420504284,0.16327219084591085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18779268710031402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428542010598068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11093605797141486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21791654489162826,0.0,0.2393165116663244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23491676063672534,0.0,0.0,0.17308102840407158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10373595382143612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4287948063630745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472060672753884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289325979687893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23786333260202894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16885698614600791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502915136275481,0.0,0.0,0.1775212225267236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14106566468122728,0.0,0.2086176537414542,0.1685699441516716,0.0,0.0,0.20126836093658484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968362895283388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13673651242772514 schizophrenia,NightSky216,2019/08/17,"Hallucinations Hello everyone, I was wondering when you guys started hallucinating ??",11.720909090909094,16.771456090909098,13.373181818181815,8.979772727272717,79.0,16.745454545454546,50.95454545454545,11.20814326018867,11.490054545454544,71,5,5,4,2,25,11,11,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5056908359260447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5240093942830936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3745834892957885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.573914752128289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,eggsandsnails,2019/08/17,"Eyes closed but still open Does anyone else before going to bed or just closing your eyes, you feel like they aren’t closed and end up checking and they are? But st the same time I can still kind of vividly see with them closed :(",2.8528260869565223,4.762324500000002,2.2341304347826103,99.52771739130438,75.73913043478261,4.6000000000000005,18.02173913043478,3.1291,-0.949808695652174,181,3,40,0,4,52,38,46,0.077,0.858,0.065,-0.1531,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,14,6,5,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,6,2,4,6,1,11,0,0,4,0,5,6,0,1,5,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163095433618268,0.31697271091357104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632399439597837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270720315388109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25842800127878285,0.0,0.27399839897669065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564201480959772,0.2210046372777657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17581466025950274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3221476151270856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15113615929459434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465174035372709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4941056535550474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18038850115558802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anhedonicSjf,2019/08/17,"I'm hearing voices again and I'm scared. my doctor lowered the dose of my antipsychotic so I wouldn't feel the anhedonia so much but now I'm hearing voices again. I'm hearing a man and a woman. last night she woke me up three times, and the third time she tried to lure me out of my bedroom. then I saw a message written in blood on the wall saying ""follow me."" I was too scared to follow it. I don't know what to do. I guess I'll just wait for a few days and if I keep hearing them I'll move my next appointment with my doctor up? I'm just terrified of being murdered by her. she's like a siren. her voice is soft and soothing, but I know if I follow her I'm going to die. I'm already scared of being murdered by strangers, so I don't leave the house. but having this voice around scares me even more. it's like she's in my house, trying to get me to follow her so she can slit my throat. I'm so scared I don't know what to do.",-0.00660859465737218,1.8194879024390247,2.1468989547038357,97.05739837398376,84.60975609756099,4.685249709639954,18.05458768873403,5.622346879071545,-0.5651997677119627,720,17,174,4,21,242,99,205,0.19399999999999998,0.754,0.053,-0.987,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,0,13,9,2,5,10,0,12,5,2,0,0,23,40,16,3,3,7,0,2,2,0,1,3,9,1,2,5,8,0,2,4,0,0,6,4,7,0,2,4,12,32,2,22,33,3,24,0,0,1,0,18,8,0,3,12,109,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12770448320169198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301903329557102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07463250664426484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12010340286846286,0.0,0.0,0.2368971535093249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07643471325374036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058513610116968214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0604610948838695,0.0,0.06576870440603004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12748320408402047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5217181350670544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670602759318632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10286094656707034,0.0,0.0,0.1907969081603927,0.0943306321884336,0.0,0.12253517137182313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11307395379927185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122996463039308,0.08507056964719956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12307395218222016,0.10859928051985901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09202849324075198,0.57930033923433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134959371342953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15713821043397255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Grim_SIeeper,2019/08/17,"Writings on the wall Anyone else know they're going to end it, just not sure when? Like myself waiting for my mom to die, I'll be shortly after. I even have $$ saved for cremation costs.",1.0773076923076914,3.1763530769230783,2.735576923076924,92.81567307692309,82.33333333333333,4.925641025641027,20.006410256410245,5.985473137389443,-0.01762051282051269,146,4,31,1,4,48,35,39,0.191,0.742,0.067,-0.6336,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,5,1,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,6,4,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25267090623803223,0.3702554259720731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37503402332415575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018694240927178,0.0,0.32005718611039313,0.0,0.0,0.23867448672185398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20536888408752424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19859368509752345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17654195806989034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232197815292553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3405769738028155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kippey,2019/08/17,"Living with a schizophrenic as a care provider, how can I provide support? So I work as a supervisor at a youth transition house. Because resources for giving people a hand in this world are pretty scarce even in the best of places (BC, Canada) our housing society is housing a young girl (20) with schiz, who is having trouble managing housing and basically taking care of herself. The general goal of our housing program is to teach delinquent kids who shouldn’t be in jail, the hospital or rehab basic life skills: getting and keeping a job, cooking, cleaning, being a good roommate etcetera. What is not in the scope of the program is providing addictions treatment or mental healthcare, but here we are. This girl needs a safe place to live while she gets on her feet and the house moms (myself and my girlfriend) have never had a diagnosed schizophrenic in the house and have no idea what to expect. We are prepared to handle crisis situations where we may need to call cops or paramedics. But I am a little lost as to how I can provide support outside of crisis situations. My question to all of you is this: if you were young and fairly recently diagnosed, and had the advantage of a person in the house 24/7 who you could turn to for a listening ear and routing of resources, what would you need of them? What are some situations that you have needed extra help or understanding in?",9.697352941176472,8.401498941176468,8.939852941176474,68.81683823529414,59.58823529411765,11.637254901960786,41.25,10.504223727775694,4.417294117647058,1110,51,185,20,12,351,149,255,0.068,0.81,0.121,0.8548,1,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,5,5,1,6,6,10,0,0,22,0,26,11,3,2,2,41,43,22,0,9,8,1,1,0,1,3,7,2,1,4,11,13,1,2,3,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,3,21,8,33,33,4,20,0,1,0,0,28,14,0,8,6,142,32,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08861620718622279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04955257170690657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0853070187775464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300440689215006,0.0,0.1657576070020272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06490206492404015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16501175525242678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05369013222566951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493952657472294,0.07797911062411496,0.0,0.06818073978454676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05448581038511362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7503659484876192,0.0,0.09176455647171737,0.0,0.0,0.08066605978864068,0.07225274468826874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0574163053791218,0.0,0.0814721964822636,0.14355805410511538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873574344550625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08191945167351243,0.0,0.0,0.0952038332329389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24109687327679236,0.06269452104497808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0563550476370818,0.07097777735333145,0.16985787069662198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08269938891896063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09106146022381743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08026235476053123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741142463028878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18448991907879053,0.0,0.0,0.061118658649663725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841828954534035,0.0,0.08462395039911669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05917882488337028,0.0,0.0,0.05774485101079085,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,i_wanna_fucking_die1,2019/08/17,"My first post on here. Sometimes I see people standing across my room or across the street. They just stand there. I feel like I know them, but I don't.",0.37338709677419146,2.7628507741935517,0.37443548387096826,106.18165322580644,89.64516129032259,3.1,14.201612903225806,3.1291,-1.6959741935483872,118,2,28,0,4,34,26,31,0.0,0.935,0.065,0.1901,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,8,1,3,4,0,9,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,1,2,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251965153680579,0.31817815544194844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3788383269625677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24476811904574874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21758920978882312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30876904944362005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4265490413201424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3549086286512887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4404902624752787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zolkowski,2019/08/17,Anyone have a hard time with their Journals? I have a real hard time making my journals legible. I try to make them for my psychiatrist as I typically forget when to tell my psych and it just turns into mumbo-jumbo,4.74642857142857,6.025212214285716,6.446190476190478,73.78214285714287,69.71428571428571,8.457142857142857,25.904761904761905,8.841846274778883,2.0562761904761904,171,5,30,3,3,59,32,42,0.125,0.875,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,8,5,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,6,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,22,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21532751300865444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5517298136250562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41112130279064585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505173070115224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691640145006047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591390996949078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20907949874602255,0.33496383438849336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,electricsix_fan,2019/08/17,"Dating other people with Schizophrenia So, it's now 4+ years for me with Schizophrenia and haven't gotten into a long-term romantic relationship with a woman. My form has become very minor and well-managed. I've tried dating via apps and have had a little success...mostly with people that have some sort of mental health issue or knows someone with Schizophrenia. I haven't dated a woman that does have Schizophrenia though and think that'd make sense (but hell if I have any idea). For those with experience with dating people with Schizophrenia, what's the most important aspects to know?",8.65965732087227,8.971949747663555,7.245373831775701,74.87996105919004,60.86915887850467,8.628660436137071,29.9828660436137,7.793537801064563,2.0832753894080995,481,13,76,4,6,144,73,107,0.047,0.904,0.049,-0.204,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,5,0,9,1,0,1,0,24,14,9,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,7,13,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,13,11,3,8,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,5,6,50,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473730235182964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393437037062077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18964797456468754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119879798373543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303569606616368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446438471339696,0.0,0.22619322256388144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23820081018003975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172044670429889,0.0,0.1917851642082153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446583485626529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21839684713879945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4507268227336682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326698468459163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18362115874364995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388616485879674,0.21292050882008526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14713465248142835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17881183358109615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19485200760516408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395567790081513 schizophrenia,vggcakes,2019/10/20,feeling alone how did you guys make friends? I recently ended a 3 year long relationship and I have no friends.,3.78142857142857,6.300728333333336,4.238333333333333,83.37750000000003,75.19047619047619,8.009523809523811,34.3095238095238,8.841846274778883,3.1644095238095247,89,5,17,2,2,28,19,21,0.17600000000000002,0.502,0.322,0.5423,0,1,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,4,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3405012707790063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911881057108775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662334042432026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5080058695579761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255289247024703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909465777858854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194531137808351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3246156616565369,0.3529704498951316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117138070969904 schizophrenia,forrest2point0,2019/10/20,"Navigating this life hello everybody it’s been almost 2 years since i developed full-on schizophrenia after being coerced into going cold-turkey off my bipolar meds. it was hell in hospitals, hell to get back on my old meds, hell when i finally moved into my own place, hell to feel as isolated as i did. summer went better, got on a mood-stabilizer that actually took some stuff away, but it’s all come back now. for the most part, it’s voices 24/7 and optical illusions (movement). things are starting to be manageable, i find myself shrugging off my symptoms a lot and been forced to just get used to them. music all the time helps. it’s tough to be social, but it’s the only thing that keeps me going. im sensitive, i don’t relate to many people anymore, my humor is weird. kind of feel like within my communities i’m fairly charismatic, whether that’s some kind of hypomanic performance or a sign of bpd. it’s so difficult to feel like my friendship and kindness is being reciprocated, but a lot of it’s probably due to people having their own lives / never having been put through a major life interruption like involuntary hold. how am i supposed to not feel paranoid? there are so many obvious things that go on, and i hate when others gaslight me about nasty behavior. i can’t stand it. why does it feel like everyone hates me, even when i have unread texts and messages? to give the full picture, im kind of seen as someone conventionally attractive and “confident” and funny. But what is it about me that intrigues people, sends them running away, makes them bring me up to others (whether it’s positive or negative), and then has them pretend we’re close when we do see each other? it’d be fine if i was self-focused like i used to be. but i’m not conventionally functional. for example, it’s been 3 wks into school and i haven’t done any work. last weekend, i was going to catch up, but got diagnosed with fibromyalgia, and wasn’t able to look at screens consistently. walking to and cooking in the kitchen is exhausting. im not able to tell family about either of these things, im not on good terms with a lot of them. there’s no way i’m going to have a 9 to 5, i can’t work somewhere i can’t plug into music, and definitely would wear out anywhere people are having conversations since i garble noise / have an acute sense of hearing that sometimes leads me to hear things about myself that i shouldn’t. sometimes in my head, i think about being a truck driver. just driving all the time. the plan right now is to be a professor, which i feel like would seem like a stretch, to most. im not out of hope, i guess i just want to shout into the only void i know where there are others like me. say 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schizophrenia,deeppsychosis,2019/10/20,My entire family is secretly conspiring to kill me So I have to hide in my bed 22 hours a 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schizophrenia,Irenery,2019/10/20,"what's ur favourite anti-psychotic / which one r u on? Just curious. Right now I'm on saphris and it's the only one out of the 5 I can tolerate, I really like it do u have any side effects?",-0.9692857142857144,0.9763863571428572,2.5764761904761926,91.55185714285713,90.1904761904762,7.1695238095238105,22.685714285714287,8.238735603445708,1.5001942857142865,145,6,35,4,5,53,34,42,0.0,0.846,0.154,0.6655,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,4,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3296335994598137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368150081281811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6569323364521369,0.3686596534851139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31053099412227464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.413957496535116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,44throw44away444,2019/10/20,destroying my life schizophrenia is ruining my life. i cant function as a normal human being. no one understands me. ive disconnected myself from all my family because love doesnt exist on this plane of existence,4.458846153846154,7.397784564102569,6.366346153846155,66.78490384615384,75.15384615384616,10.053846153846157,30.262820512820515,10.125756701596842,4.296482051282052,174,8,25,6,4,60,34,39,0.18600000000000005,0.7140000000000001,0.1,-0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,5,3,0,0,1,3,7,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,7,1,4,6,1,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23776242897233624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676913886301055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5509881630484456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3520228713430055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3821526339596455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642986029242501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4060414082065519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rody105,2019/10/20,Hey guys I’m not sure if this is the right forum to post it on but I don’t care and it makes sense to my fucked up brain. I’m a person who suffers from severe depression and psychotic symptoms. I’m not really sure what I am or how I know. I’ve talked to docs about it and I’m soon going on meds which I hope can help. I’m very alone and just want a friend but I feel like a bad person and I don’t even know what’s real with my episodes. I’m so alone and so confused and I don’t even know how to explain it. I’m just in pain,-1.4520209059233444,0.2876304471544735,1.1713879210220668,102.31262195121953,90.0569105691057,4.489895470383276,14.476771196283392,5.773587663045528,-1.1203375145180026,407,7,110,3,14,139,71,123,0.282,0.5760000000000001,0.142,-0.9698,0,2,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,10,12,1,1,4,0,6,4,1,3,2,30,24,15,0,3,8,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,3,9,8,0,0,5,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,0,1,9,6,11,24,0,8,0,2,0,1,9,5,1,4,2,61,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3527995908873292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14220979652675367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19013306154563275,0.0,0.0,0.17365223808857652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14669606810214966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22498904980318865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08611873440976565,0.1216763945867916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315885419005799,0.15745777528924473,0.0,0.0,0.09679658417751294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16864323471433074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11416167364589272,0.0,0.0,0.16916584636939366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808096821786163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08320957958700424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11368969135371973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18918673936868274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18123211989381247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29743310403384265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16311914747949013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19386105355172897,0.10911113140119473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454520535916861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19241272904316467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3210485157973306,0.17702733435517545,0.0,0.13689648599627968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14053155156422106,0.10045894454272404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,spiritedaway001,2019/10/20,"At risk mental state? For reference, I'm 18M and in the UK. I was recently discharged from CAMHS (child and adolescent mental health services) as I am deemed sufficiently capable of managing my own mental health but was also left with a diagnosis of trichotillomania and at risk mental state (ARMS). As I've understood it, ARMS is supposed to be when an individual experiences clinically significant symptoms of schizophrenia but not enough to be diagnosed with it? I've experienced dissociation, voices telling me to do things accompanied by fears of abandonment by family and friends, and finally hallucinations being the big thing with a lot of auditory ones and now more commonly visual distortions. Is anyone able to explain what ""at risk mental state"" actually means and how it ties in with schizophrenia and other similar conditions? Any response is appreciated. Thanks.",10.857876712328768,11.493954753424655,10.924760273972602,49.24275684931507,56.26027397260274,14.971232876712325,43.592465753424655,13.816669648895859,6.956947945205478,718,37,99,28,8,240,99,146,0.095,0.799,0.106,0.4291,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,4,5,0,10,7,2,1,0,22,15,15,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,1,7,12,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,3,2,4,2,24,9,4,15,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,1,5,70,11,2,0.14221967488617454,0.0,0.13878588725416385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11373302262392053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09671425584305617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09944330345256124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14434997630882934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469509418728887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391181318546888,0.13407205225575647,0.16003667367015206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579470219501554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10987856802590136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023457278243659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15452209289298124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12091008176452332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15491891907740676,0.0,0.0,0.7166199093036985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09637173237698764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14042477144067772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782069714767018,0.0,0.0,0.1243062644364328,0.13093676881926133,0.0,0.0,0.18896886506180602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Suwoth,2019/10/20,Anyone else feverishly google every unknown number that calls you? HOPING it turns up on some scammer list? they make me so damn paranoid,4.550000000000002,7.94009066666667,3.7550000000000026,82.39000000000001,79.83333333333334,4.866666666666667,24.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,1.2505166666666674,112,4,16,1,3,33,24,24,0.198,0.6459999999999999,0.156,-0.3175,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,2,0,9,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27208298966119115,0.3987012384475154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.397336834388509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250613084716354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32785187456650416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3864857184165554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259741803575716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232527474792985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,totalrules,2019/10/20,"my story can help you Hi there guys, now that im heading to a new battle in my gambling addittion i can start with this phrase ""screw it, i will make it"". becouse even though im in a bad spot i got enough support to help me. But thats not the spirit of the post, as you read this you can check my story and see how much ive evolved as a human being. Lets start by saying im diagnosed with bipolar and zchizohrenia, at an old age, 27. But taking meds and treatment since my crisis at 18. After a long time ive had sucess in this battle. Got a book thats going to be published dezember, lost 24 kilos in 4 mnths, much more confident and healthy, crises dont come that often but when they do its a quick hit, with the help of family, the few friends and my beloved terapist im looking the world in a much simple way. I will never be 100% ok. but the fact that im going to college next year and im not sobbing and taking SOS pills all day helps alot. ask me all you want about that recovery so i dont post a bible post lol. bless you all",1.1141891891891902,2.7488133468468483,2.71827927927928,95.34417567567567,79.94594594594595,5.340900900900902,20.55945945945946,5.985473137389443,-0.09610702702702724,801,21,186,5,20,263,131,222,0.065,0.772,0.163,0.9753,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,5,1,1,10,10,3,0,16,2,15,5,1,2,5,27,32,17,0,1,6,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,2,12,11,0,0,0,2,2,3,5,6,0,0,4,3,20,4,21,21,10,30,2,2,2,1,16,8,2,2,15,114,32,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09311199417471026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08316133882442704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857960640635451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0642333734199365,0.0,0.0,0.1010912945635428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334595103090425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10291280491435448,0.0,0.0657844644301594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09389345030669298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07695024946011887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132092687063081,0.0,0.15931747769704965,0.0,0.0,0.0986190651070049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10221771894331316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670375137213192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.64550666078786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10184713468110436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08814233488944634,0.08363841134480281,0.0,0.1087245107506692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0664833729772797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106324804477712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21965105741019075,0.0,0.07681719747520717,0.09619372127204298,0.10592509195047188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451281599586673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861660804726958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996263531249269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792054405968633,0.0,0.0,0.07936782671206129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08238965300507121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409939360702117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11302421894166174,0.0,0.0,0.14977270717301608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978559049170048,0.0,0.058077211162905124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0587463067179772,0.07905736783903086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06413874817800952 schizophrenia,rorylupin,2019/10/20,"Does anyone else have a ‘running commentary’ as their voices? I’m usually not very symptomatic on my shot but I went away recently and was jet lagged and very tired and started hearing two voices discussing everything I did. E.g. ‘watch him folding his shirt, he can hear us now’ etc. I remember this being the case when I was unwell also. Does this happen to anyone else? What kind of things to the voices comment on for you? Is this common?",3.5621987951807235,6.071120807228922,4.2369728915662686,83.16461596385547,75.86746987951805,7.041566265060243,24.832831325301214,8.07648339933343,1.7304228915662656,349,12,61,6,8,111,65,83,0.09699999999999999,0.903,0.0,-0.8422,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,7,2,1,0,0,6,13,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,4,6,10,1,8,8,1,11,0,0,1,0,10,3,0,0,6,43,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13664747847183376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23895745235990765,0.35016019307489865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160541280712993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29906510763144395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854857711975496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19056912401707796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15357008634932118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15110287422705956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3851737127765513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17793845846602946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16871696970371722,0.0,0.1935663688986525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12094514477848327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11352076259225805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963939549861437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16691858336601662,0.0,0.2055397847953462,0.0,0.18819302253175688,0.28197707029803243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15840144902433614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WomanOfGod116,2019/10/20,"I need some advice I don’t suffer from schizophrenia, But one of my students from the school I work at does. She is special needs, just a little slow and hears multiple voices. She has conversations pretty much all day with her them. My question is it best for me to never address the voices? Like the other day she was giggling and was cracking up, and she said “oh Roy you are just too funny” Shortly afterwards I asked her if Roy always tells her funny jokes, and she said “oh yeah all the time”. It wasn’t until after that, that I was worried that I shouldn’t have asked her about Roy. I don’t want to do anything that might trigger any of the other voices (they are the opposite of Roy, not nice at all). I don’t want to cause any harm unknowingly. Oh I should mention that she is about 16 years old. Thank you!!",2.4098977505112487,4.4547535889570575,3.271312883435584,90.96361554192232,77.52760736196319,5.5736605316973415,21.296114519427405,6.42735559955562,0.2601275255623725,637,17,131,5,15,202,94,163,0.066,0.757,0.177,0.9456,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,2,2,2,5,9,0,0,7,1,18,0,0,2,4,26,28,7,0,7,5,0,0,1,0,3,0,6,1,0,9,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,2,0,1,6,6,26,7,17,19,6,15,0,1,0,0,23,5,0,5,11,95,35,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16999704727335735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447532100098764,0.0,0.0,0.2366049749786407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14315876184615714,0.0,0.32526846816196964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18256603158911172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17871046224799006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243866771661648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522383581655192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19607173202526476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849907430015577,0.1743591067858328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18454987581499172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12788463972377365,0.2579863885377764,0.1341728977706857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825475002634114,0.0,0.11788350708455847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17698542823481206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19488114415443486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3309620059235319,0.0,0.0,0.17606234672418028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15205349165069418,0.1601640349719431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014406665731589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20521868708424248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12664893660435375,0.17667038279299102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11202806123206094 schizophrenia,The_Shadows_Are_Here,2019/10/20,"how do i know this? so i have a friend on reddit, i never have seen her in real life, only in two pictures. but i had a dream last night and i could fully visualize her. it was so real though, and so detailed. i never had a dream that felt that real. and when i say dream i don't mean it was happy, i never had a happy dream in my life. but how can i visualize her like this?",-0.7594912985274433,1.0391033855421696,2.5078714859437774,93.50817938420349,87.433734939759,4.6527443105756365,14.041499330655956,5.82211442006289,-0.9207552878179386,283,4,68,2,9,102,43,83,0.0,0.698,0.302,0.9775,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,4,0,11,2,0,2,3,17,15,12,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,6,3,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,7,3,14,4,4,7,0,10,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,0,7,55,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409197828415446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16946634978492514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636239269332812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3757721168572509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969990233705406,0.1438699287806883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493323839560199,0.08622830835881318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19225873487793813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4083798397486944,0.0,0.0,0.16563199452342767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13423515059890634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6026821955137117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14035878336840496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734089938274902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17241350132144204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mnotforme,2019/10/20,on pills but problems i dont think they are helping much. how long till i see true change? they already make me sleep and weak and i still know i am being stalked everywhere i go and feel nervous. i was told the pill will make me unfraid. i cant tell the dr everything he will have melocked in asylum and tortured. people also still laugh at me or say im crazy or strange and other horrid things. i even not speak of those things yet still people can seem to read my mind and emotions. they keep saying im behaving strangely,2.3545283018867917,4.483584830188678,2.9043773584905668,93.11939622641512,78.05660377358491,5.372075471698114,23.807547169811322,6.2581,0.5049615094339619,416,14,86,3,10,129,78,106,0.22699999999999998,0.679,0.09300000000000001,-0.9468,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,3,0,7,6,1,1,2,0,10,5,1,3,1,21,20,12,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,4,6,0,1,4,1,0,1,3,4,0,0,2,5,15,2,6,15,1,10,0,0,1,0,10,3,0,3,6,55,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834168667940443,0.13291807602280745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758281401139926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19479688077370186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18696387744143475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10978013667038217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14937882967533586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08404076946548736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944609726520381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111407058666444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3590706410536913,0.0,0.0,0.14773508385766432,0.0,0.0,0.09134466859580223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14709061865028802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218929297357836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16782471768441246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218347351541638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23045817081101774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15904052173979738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16625497762678568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643537245178244,0.0,0.0,0.13244784979486354,0.15131134053349204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16633003371398505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982065593289287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14527486498893005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208450755352214,0.10650065599145067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15882077666521086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jaydog180,2019/10/20,"Funny but annoying voice When something happens I don’t particularly enjoy I say to myself “So disappointing” and immediately after a voice says “Soda” it’s annoying but funny. Makes me think “Soda-spointing”",4.229238095238095,7.518371400000002,6.9135714285714265,55.88559523809525,92.14285714285714,8.04761904761905,28.690476190476193,8.344100000000001,3.960619047619048,169,8,20,5,6,60,29,35,0.261,0.507,0.23199999999999998,-0.3182,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,4,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,4,1,2,4,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4052990624999772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059383487441433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7289636678342967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.352844266334067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936788916437298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Schizophrenicbadman,2019/10/20,"Negative symptoms or antipsychotics? I’m about 10 months in from my schizophrenia symptoms set in. Stabilized on medicine and mostly functional. Still have lack of motivation and pleasure, with low energy. I was wondering if this is just the negative symptoms of schizophrenia or if this is the medicine (invega) blunting and dulling my mind and emotions. Any help would be great.",6.996190476190474,10.313959968253972,5.549444444444443,73.97750000000002,68.36507936507937,9.914285714285716,39.07142857142857,10.125756701596842,5.014885714285715,310,18,45,9,6,91,46,63,0.174,0.638,0.188,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,1,0,16,8,8,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,8,5,2,7,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,6,2,35,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16449537515391185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720968029102991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666876275271399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16213562159500602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442427369188269,0.0,0.19307649734591475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19317587470918815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7542576062088765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623223853435525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17183368011543,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mdjeffcoat,2019/10/20,"I am schizophrenic because of my abortion and weight I am being tortured by other people because of my abortion in 2010. People I went to high school with, college with, my ex-husband, the father himself. They are all torturing me via telepathy. These are real people and I hear their voices in my head every waking hour. Plus imagery of babies. They are torturing me for information they should have no knowledge of. Has anyone gone through a similar experience or heard of anything similar? The voices torture me, telling me to ""eat eat eat"" almost every moment of the day. I am overweight and they torture me because of that too. I was once bulimic and anorexic. It is unbearable.",4.526219512195119,7.317826764227643,5.292052845528456,75.37759146341466,74.04065040650406,7.0268292682926825,33.014227642276424,8.07648339933343,3.0537593495934963,544,28,81,9,12,176,78,123,0.182,0.818,0.0,-0.9753,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,5,0,1,5,5,0,4,0,12,8,2,0,1,14,16,6,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,4,7,5,0,2,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,4,5,21,0,17,10,1,8,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,2,3,66,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706197525453291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913979809757105,0.0,0.14021544950518372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116022600122181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10988666846545826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5230507847176097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871197952536677,0.0,0.0,0.16667292382121687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17486804747721668,0.0,0.19204054077197516,0.0,0.0,0.18002510315612627,0.0,0.0,0.16779862804478565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814584919214116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3543783824314281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19393973674594325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17244254398761494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14892730564089526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074876334476388,0.0,0.15795210794847292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zeiivua,2019/10/20,"symptoms waking you up? i had always assumed that once i was asleep that was safe from that. but today i was woken up to knocking on my door (thought it was my father but he was asleep) and then immediate panic because my dad never wakes me up so delusions started pouring in. all in like a few seconds of me waking up. fuckin annoying way to start my day because now i’m all off my rocker and it’s hardly 8am",0.6625882352941161,2.9925986117647057,2.856764705882356,89.72044117647059,86.41176470588232,4.341176470588237,22.617647058823533,5.6839178017228535,0.3704352941176472,322,12,64,2,10,109,59,85,0.092,0.8490000000000001,0.06,-0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,2,5,2,1,1,0,6,7,5,0,3,10,11,6,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,8,1,11,2,12,3,3,16,0,0,0,1,4,8,1,1,8,47,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403563676298772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35217525171736797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18629212666343453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587636604204318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411234076855707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22278822238440527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30762865808244466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389173793702134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4089160945268946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002382754689111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293242031880215,0.0,0.0,0.2738074496673773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292852515601388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,catholicorganistpoet,2019/10/20,"Small thing, but it REALLY bugs me that PsychologyToday, when you search for therapists, has ALL other mental illnesses to filter by, but NOT schizophrenia. I think it's a symptom of stigma—schizophrenia is just too spooky, and ""they can't benefit from therapy anyways, they need meds"" or something like that. And all the therapists there, except for the psychologists, have their bio painfully oriented towards people with more money than problems, not people with an actual mental illness.",11.896111111111107,11.701806234567904,10.226018518518522,57.81458333333333,54.55555555555557,13.038271604938275,41.23765432098766,12.161744961471696,5.482158024691358,399,17,53,10,4,123,67,81,0.21100000000000002,0.754,0.035,-0.9543,1,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,3,0,5,4,0,0,4,0,4,4,0,0,2,16,6,6,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,11,6,3,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,2,46,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.2147835530363048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10752859227779724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444788672519404,0.0,0.4436133193137331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631996156675057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23419941338997255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051759897271477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21060372239292385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14100018795480887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16944192089475288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287657280854227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25170083990976705,0.5111006620788666,0.14622309607346276,0.1410296844082545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cipra_lex_sed_lex,2019/10/20,"My cat is a measuring device for my psychosis When I feel like she acts weird staring at me and planning to kill me, or my therapist is inside her mind spying on me - all this means I'm on the edge of psychotic state... Anyone has a weird clues about having psychosis?",6.065597484276728,5.821967132075473,6.439622641509434,80.35993710691825,66.35849056603774,9.330817610062894,30.874213836477992,8.841846274778883,2.3575459119496864,210,7,41,3,3,68,43,53,0.146,0.809,0.045,-0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,1,6,7,3,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,9,1,7,7,1,6,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,2,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792023196094449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20189986767711374,0.2852625289360468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4417702055403032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950795401630907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4349586151714453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4031827470040804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4636221865427689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SpaghetBurger,2019/10/20,Have you figured out some universal truth while you were psychotic? Something that makes sense now that you aren't psychotic anymore. I figured out that scientists probably wouldn't tell the public if they found out that there was life after death. It would create too much chaos and anarchy. It makes me wonder if there now are some things scientists haven't revealed because they've predicted some bad outcome if it was shared with the world.,8.231392405063295,9.492983531645574,6.404911392405065,77.28407594936711,61.78481012658228,10.370632911392406,34.787341772151905,10.355215969177356,3.7053675949367086,365,15,60,8,5,106,52,79,0.129,0.792,0.079,-0.743,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,1,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,9,1,0,2,1,21,13,5,1,5,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,8,5,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,6,2,5,7,4,8,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,7,4,44,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029382740831356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255049736923371,0.1862080601895645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3349255831382842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21575830435472187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4077992737330217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22455123658556767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3293419289858079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351611626044117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669890586630739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029367531403908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.331262750723796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21699290919256367,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ryuzaki5,2019/10/20,"Okay I'm at a bit of a loss.. Alright, so when I smoke marijuana, majority of my psychotic tendencies rear their ugly heads. I interact with my environment when I hear voices in my head. I was diagnosed schizophrenic with anxiety disorder as of 10 months ago now by three different psychiatrists. I'm for now unmedicated after going off my meds cold turkey a month ago. Normalcy consists of me just napping majority of the time when I'm not working and of a weekend I usually play a gig or have drinks. Essentially just venting. Sorry.",5.1675,7.287659020202023,7.472613636363636,63.52892045454547,69.9090909090909,11.81868686868687,35.607323232323225,11.45678717892309,5.217938383838384,429,23,70,17,8,153,71,99,0.095,0.838,0.067,-0.4019,1,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,2,8,4,0,0,6,2,2,5,2,0,0,7,7,7,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,3,11,3,15,6,3,17,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,1,13,46,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3759353033820193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16221604806520648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23150136541987695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152241349798182,0.0,0.2215449028723464,0.2430252418449554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077261952693021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12051169704676032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4352446021028332,0.0,0.23899337232206866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355373922932256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33850919007705804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23737024143327676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236468242744644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23354078230380074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437338237098952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pexicanmizza,2019/10/20,"Presenting with primarily negative and cognitive symptoms? CW: references to possibly triggering thoughts Something's been wrong with me for the last 3 years, could it be schizophrenia? I've developed very significant attention, memory, and processing problems and am in a confused haze for most of the day. I am barely holding on in my role as a grad student, struggle to understand what's going on around me much of the time and my social abilities have completely atrophied (very much die to the fact that I can no longer follow conversations). At its worst, the whole day I'm just in an intensely diminished, slightly giddy state while my thoughts are totally a broken record of white noise, urges to make strange noises, and random phrases built out of the words ""gay,"" ""rape"", and the n-word. I often have staring spells involuntarily and sometimes freeze in the middle of walking for no apparent reason. My ""positive symptoms"" have been hypochondriacal delusions and obsessive thinking mostly. For example, when my symptoms began 3 years ago, I had lots of muscle twitching and became convinced I had ALS. This improved on an SSRI, but the thinking problems and social withdrawal did not. Recently I had an exacerbation after a trial of Wellbutrin where I grew worried I was becoming a murderer-rapist-pedophile. I began to feel semi convinced there was a demon inside me trying to get me to give into these impulses. When I looked at mirrors, the ""demon"" tried to make me grin evilly to succumb to my inner evil. I knew throughout that that wasn't literally true, and rather the issue was a combination of this weird ""unhinged"" mood state and an overwhelming and seemingly well founded fear that I *wanted* to rape and murder children. That feeling has thankfully passed, but I'm unsure if the want itself was real or a delusion. (In general I feel very confused about who I am/what I want, often just don't want anything and would be content to stare at a wall for hours.) I've described all of this to an evaluator at an early psychosis clinic, but they weren't able to diagnose me with anything. Does what I've described resonate with anyone here? My life is really falling apart and any help/support would be really appreciated. I'm scared and confused and want to know what's wrong with me.",8.675793583790629,8.949722480582526,8.437349092444071,66.47607640354582,60.844660194174786,11.339974672857748,39.27226677923174,10.940254816364696,4.6399395103419145,1850,88,286,43,23,595,235,412,0.19,0.725,0.085,-0.9943,1,0,1,0,0,0,59.0,0,0,1,0,13,25,4,8,27,0,28,10,0,4,4,80,58,27,2,12,9,0,4,0,0,2,7,0,0,1,16,26,0,1,15,0,0,6,7,18,1,0,18,8,30,6,52,34,9,45,2,1,4,3,8,20,0,12,17,201,46,2,0.10337577582872898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916363879347716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07029907246993734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228274606595644,0.0,0.17013891064020129,0.09202635742477848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11417042258060885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10838753414998176,0.0,0.0,0.08253714523580294,0.0,0.0,0.13333764668994513,0.0,0.0,0.10492423642317372,0.1072877343800556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904648380647807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11632648798376174,0.15680969506058506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334620242521773,0.0,0.0,0.05400957619270951,0.09916746387767578,0.05875083569915551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929060347016458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10180431572700806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078974520954497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056812622885373164,0.08426505468141791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07301736765272689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08680961584169464,0.0,0.0,0.08788638785685847,0.0,0.0,0.13800826618346287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15198617960666244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11654065475115455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19783331252922906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11766426473062198,0.13245033816781662,0.10628751476308483,0.10207110728434927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349718565446064,0.0,0.0,0.09410942379186224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21075717007792966,0.0,0.07958372271641018,0.10224128560635644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080708061834886,0.0,0.0,0.11730960535207398,0.0,0.3223410388910154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09517452540959154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13247804604034005,0.0,0.1641376376435954,0.06027924621169955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14037073204712855,0.0,0.0,0.10761782838025127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558875243373,0.3048685547889031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929472374016104,0.0,0.0,0.11541536195098955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498311833364644,0.0,0.1468703703056466,0.2260503653351063,0.0,0.133141220651513 schizophrenia,LexicalAlexis,2019/10/20,"Preferences in language Either when talking about yourself or when hearing other people talk about schizophrenia, do you have a preferred way to speak/phrase it, or a particular aversion to others? I.e., ""suffering from..."", ""living with..."", ""experiencing..."", ""diagnosed with..."", or between referring to it as a ""condition"" or an ""illness"", ""disease"" or other variation. I'm currently in university (hoping work in the mental health sector) and would be very interested to hear from anyone with lived experiences. Thanks so much in advance!",10.576071428571431,11.907301607142859,9.926285714285717,53.81871428571429,56.73809523809525,12.434285714285714,44.180952380952384,11.979248473330829,6.264198095238098,421,23,51,12,5,135,65,84,0.07200000000000001,0.86,0.068,-0.1025,1,0,0,0,0,0,43.0,0,1,0,2,5,4,0,0,5,0,4,3,0,0,0,15,9,10,0,4,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,3,17,7,2,9,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,6,3,43,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15403402954745934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22359281866110015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21548888350149192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341612213006536,0.4965725778275187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21880071460688647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3890456156867455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220035908936621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619407462672768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527234702482856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35412643398185234,0.0,0.20281625224544464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817648453691019,0.0,0.1748583771468603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16037597128135286,0.0,0.0,0.15648986923285418,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mynameisrotten,2019/10/20,"Do you feel like... Do you feel like... Everyone is against you only your family members and friends are on your side? Like you are being watched on some pervert reality show and everyone is watching it? The TV and radio is talking about you all the time? People do things on purpose when you're around to show you how ugly person you really are? Not going out of your home because you are afraid and ashamed? You're the savior for this planet? Because I do...",2.727070707070705,5.2271600909090905,3.64378787878788,86.35373737373737,78.77272727272728,6.1838383838383875,25.68686868686868,7.3871296695380915,1.4330262626262624,360,14,67,5,9,115,55,88,0.111,0.831,0.057999999999999996,-0.7236,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,11,0,0,4,6,0,2,3,0,12,0,0,1,1,12,15,6,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,6,0,0,2,4,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,4,12,4,10,14,2,9,0,0,2,0,14,6,0,1,5,49,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120909455343198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904671472697758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4553117338633975,0.0,0.0,0.22459870803110715,0.0,0.2409303698420138,0.3404083786153991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18406956560826399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13540164625716586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389818473210099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3491873444558317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811980955458075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16517094226931858,0.20802868344871348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526275636918173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914944595227098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15828117134368686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13892413741992896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SonOfTheSerpent,2019/10/20,How can you tell what’s real if they acknowledge everything Like when people can see what shouldn’t be there then how do you differentiate between what’s real and what’s not?,15.518235294117654,8.23188023529412,13.634705882352948,57.86617647058826,55.470588235294116,17.129411764705885,45.764705882352935,13.023866798666859,5.446270588235293,144,4,27,3,1,46,25,34,0.0,0.9209999999999999,0.079,0.3612,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,9,6,6,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,3,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156245297690464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17157239150647394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434690777526957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7994561381735314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798508356323492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069532078210109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Littlefoxx25,2019/10/20,Do your hallucinations mainly happen when you’re stressed or alone or at certain times of the day? Mine can change up but just curious about others :),6.427777777777778,8.357989,5.8453703703703725,77.1991666666667,66.4074074074074,8.362962962962964,28.314814814814817,8.841846274778883,2.1936814814814807,121,4,21,2,2,37,26,27,0.095,0.653,0.252,0.743,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,3,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,3,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46125295980032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4711260189981348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872168152753494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3938255218177086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5101520857715449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596897958516106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,basslover258,2019/10/20,Parents are hiding klonopin from me I am an adult and I live with my parents. They think that klonopin is too dangerous so they hide it and only give it to me when I request it. Is that even legal as an adult patient? The medication is prescribed to me.,1.198235294117648,3.6612875490196077,2.532843137254904,92.04279411764708,85.27450980392156,4.968627450980391,26.14705882352941,6.42735559955562,0.9650235294117646,199,9,41,2,6,64,35,51,0.138,0.8340000000000001,0.027999999999999997,-0.6983,2,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,0,4,1,1,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,4,7,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,0,5,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,1,33,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219290000038062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184950094713046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931716163209941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.334465948499242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25250917196899336,0.0,0.0,0.7373173981026783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21273911260050127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cruiserman1980,2019/10/20,Arent u scared that we will die early? It's something I see rarely discussed but as karma me greatly that we will not live to our elder years. How do u cope with that?,1.7091666666666685,3.1297138055555562,2.8566666666666687,95.955,77.6111111111111,4.800000000000002,20.333333333333336,3.1291,-0.5127666666666664,131,3,30,0,3,42,31,36,0.084,0.865,0.051,-0.2748,1,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,5,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,3,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,2,19,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4340549408409619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.461098172098891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693032470915653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4187194841613141,0.0,0.33327380319396355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32197257454619604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693253100520734 schizophrenia,Smychka_Mayakovsky,2019/10/20,"Olanzapine side effects Has anyone else experienced these as side effects of Olanzapine: sharp migraine headaches on one side of the forehead; twitching eyelid muscle? I'm aware there are lots of side effects and they vary but these two I'm not seeing much in the literature, so curious",6.956999999999997,9.4675133,6.749000000000002,68.93950000000001,66.0,9.0,36.5,9.516144504307137,3.9738000000000007,235,12,35,5,4,74,38,50,0.0,0.922,0.078,0.6107,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,1,3,0,7,5,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,6,5,2,6,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,1,0,22,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968518995462878,0.43499676378881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3546530674665344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3609331769958542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31208959659510155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876828386169069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3383075863132348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4147190058516958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,halfsen,2019/10/20,"Love and schizophrenia - advice requested I'm in love with this girl, although we're not in a relationship, but I am suspecting that she has got schizophrenia. Have you got any ideas on what I should do?",8.149473684210527,7.708703947368424,7.0357894736842095,78.4605263157895,62.15789473684211,10.757894736842106,34.78947368421053,10.125756701596842,3.2096947368421045,162,6,31,3,2,49,32,38,0.055,0.805,0.14,0.4854,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,7,10,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,2,4,7,0,3,0,0,0,2,7,3,0,0,0,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3143831901291758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21878211424051236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5146212333165116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3631851802596531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5807336553626636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34540921939248964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,smgwww,2019/10/20,Medicaid denied. Can't afford medication Someone I care about just told me they were denied Medicaid and that they can't afford their medication anymore. What resources are out there for people in this situation? She lives in TX if that helps. Also what are the best ways that I can be a good friend?,4.52392857142857,6.966830678571429,5.2137142857142855,77.63128571428574,72.57142857142857,8.051428571428572,25.485714285714288,8.841846274778883,2.1256757142857152,242,8,42,5,5,78,43,56,0.085,0.628,0.28800000000000003,0.9312,2,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,3,1,4,4,0,0,2,0,7,2,0,0,0,4,9,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,7,4,5,6,1,4,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,1,0,33,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110489036782905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617280186025484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769574887954539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690740530022399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20389637753924988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22135536730202315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17689345420213212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330375550046752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5317235539285146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18296211376481147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29664613919235394,0.0,0.0,0.22361026884481885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25217752016494616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20947964474787925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AfterGlass,2019/01/28,"How do I apply for disability- any tips? I'm planning on telling my case manager I want to apply but don't know anything else I need to do any tips? btw recently diagnosed w/ schizoaffective disorder bipolar type",3.940750000000001,6.670823575,5.420000000000004,74.01500000000001,75.75,10.0,35.0,10.125756701596842,4.57125,173,10,29,6,4,58,31,40,0.10300000000000001,0.867,0.03,-0.5803,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,5,7,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,13,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4663044573181971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821393284695034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34798922237385993,0.0,0.0,0.3929399689991807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28641021791070403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18842339132366456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542216259684509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385266022567367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29966918875613113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022239568737076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,adfalcon96,2019/01/28,"Ever get anxiety to the point where you feel numb? This morning I had an appointment with vocational rehabilitation and I was so anxious beforehand and during that I was legitimately numb. This ever happen to any of you?",6.687692307692307,8.910259820512824,8.541538461538465,56.97846153846157,66.17948717948718,11.353846153846154,33.51282051282051,11.20814326018867,4.672189743589745,179,8,27,6,3,63,30,39,0.228,0.772,0.0,-0.8164,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,2,6,6,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,5,0,4,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434747758647325,0.0,0.27389433070580865,0.4044754769594051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6477228478887974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810322859030605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18705751009293306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3166074754065322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3384569926613573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,StockLingonbery,2019/01/28,"if your psychosis was triggered by stimulants, what was it like? I was diagnosed with ADD and want to treat it but I have a family history of psychosis so people are hesitant. I have anxiety that can get bad sometimes but that’s about it. If you had your psychosis triggered by stimulants, what happened? Did you become psychotic immediately after you took them or did it take a while? I’d hope that if I don’t have a bad reaction initially, that means everything will be ok. 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I really need some assurance here or advice at the moment because I have no family history of shizophrenia (although my dad has an undiagnosed hoarding problem, and my sister is consrantly in and out of doctors' offices for depression and anxiety). But a lot of time when I smoke cannabis, I get paranoid to the point where I think I am hallucinating but I am not sure if I am or not or just imagining it. I know this is very concerning, but I've asked on other places why this is happening but I keep getting told that I am just smoking strong weed. I'll give you a couple examples of what I've experienced - Last year when I first started using it, I went out of my house and halfway to my destination, I convinced myself that I had killed my mother in an argument before I went outside (when I didn't argue with her at all). I knew this was just delusion but it was so vivid in my head, that I went home to check on my mother to see if she was okay. I kept thinking ""Did this really happen?"" I was relieved to see if she was fine, but this was scary for me. Second time is imagining stuff in my head, and it looks like they appear in front of me but at the same time, they don't. It's really confusing and I can't really explain it well. There was one after I smoked in my bedroom (it was really dark and the only light was coming from my laptop) and I ""saw"" my older brother in my corner of my eye. He had long, sharp razor teeth that covered the whole of his face, and said something in a demonic voice (I could best describe it as someone who is trying to talk while choking) and I can't remember what he said but I knew it wasn't real and there was no one there. After it was over, I kept questioning whether it really was a hallucination or if I was just being paranoid. More recently, I was walking in the street (night again) and I walked past a bunch of parked cars in the housing estate I was in. In a jeep, I swear I could have seen two men sat in the front seats staring. As out of the ordinary this was, they were wearing all black and their faces were pure white and looked like potato faces. You know, like those children's dinners where they have smiley potatoes. It looked like them but I could barely see inside because the windows were all condensated. I imagine stuff like this unprovoked and get paranoid that they become a reality. I keep thinking that there's nothing wrong with me sometimes but other times, I consider that I might be schizophrenic in the future. I'm 21. So far, I plan to stop weed to see what happens or if this continues without it. But I don't want to go to the doctors only for them to laugh when I suggest schizophrenia when it might just be me over-thinking. But this sound like the symptoms to you? 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It happens all the time. Not so much during the daytime and not when I’m in a social environment where people are talking, but it happens when I’m alone or things are very quiet (it’s especially bad when I’m home alone, I hate being home alone). When it’s dark out that’s when I start feeling super on edge and it becomes much more likely to happen. It’s the worst when I’m trying to fall asleep at night. Every little noise - the sound of my neck clicking a bit when I turn my head, the sound of my nose whistling slightly, the sound of my heartbeat in my ears, the sound of my own damn eyelids opening and closing (can usually only hear this kind of stuff when I have earplugs in), the sound of my skin rubbing up against fabric - gets interpreted as something coming from outside of me, usually a couple of feet away but occasionally a little further (one room over, in the hallway, etc.). It’s like I have supersonic hearing when I don’t want to. It creates this eerie feeling that there’s someone in my house quietly moving around trying to rob or hurt me and my family. Sometimes it takes me a little while to figure out where these sounds are coming from, and when I find out they’re being made by me, it still doesn’t get my brain to shut up. This is making me feel super on edge. There are two other weird things that happen to me specifically at night when I’m in bed, but less often than what I described up above. The first one is that I’ll occasionally hear very, very soft inaudible whispering that only stops when my adrenaline kicks in (and even then it’s occasionally kept going). It sounds like it’s coming from a few feet away and is definitely worse when I have earplugs in. It doesn’t happen every night but it’s happened maybe a dozen times since it first started happening two months ago. The second thing that happens is harder to describe because it has to do with bodily sensations. Occasionally when I’m trying to drift off to sleep, something will happen where my body/skin will “forget” that something’s on it, and then suddenly remembers and it jolts me back awake because it feels like someone or something is touching me. This happens with my hat that I wear to bed, my mouth guard, sometimes even the feeling of my own arm resting on my chest. It’s like I’ll stop feeling those things and then will suddenly re-feel them, and the reintroduction of the sensation feels like someone or something is trying to touch me. It’s very freaky and feels almost out of body. It’s like I slip in and out of being able to feel things touching me. It’s so freaky I sometimes wonder if there’s something seriously wrong with me neurologically (which obviously doesn’t make me feel any more relaxed). Do you guys experience any of these things? I really dread going to bed every night because each night is this tiring ordeal that I have to get through. I can’t just have a nice, relaxing night. I have to rely on weed to get to sleep (I’ve been using for a few years now and don’t notice much of a correlation between the weed and my mental health, as my mental health was poor before the weed and hasn’t improved when I’ve stopped taking it for stretches of time - I really think that stopping taking it would just make my sleep quality even worse). All in all, this stuff is stressful and very unpleasant. It's gotten to a point where I can only really relax when I'm home alone if I have a knife nearby. 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I strongly feel that I experience at least mild psychotic symptoms coupled with major depression. This all started happening to me around the age of 18/19, and although things have evolved and changed over the years (i.e. some things getting better and new things that are equally bad taking their place), there hasn’t been a steep drop-off - yet. I’ve read that it’s not uncommon for women to experience a prodrome that can potentially last for many years, and that their symptoms may only become severe in their mid to late twenties. I get that this is a niche group, but if there are any women here who fit this description, I would really appreciate hearing your story. Thank you. 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Last year, he tried to commit suicide, but lived and is now disabled. Since then, I have spent all of my time trying to understand how people can be understanding towards schizophrenia. I still cannot fathom how somebody could do the things he did to himself and to his family - it seems beyond selfish. I understand that it is an illness, but there are many aspects of his outbursts that seem planned to hurt our family in the greatest possible way - when we finally have something to celebrate or be joyful about, that is when he does the craziest things. Other than that, he is just incredibly lazy. For example, I have a younger sibling that is 16 years younger than him. My younger sibling does not cook or wash dishes for themself because they are only 12. Meanwhile, his 28 year old ass refuses to wash his dishes ""because if my younger sibling doesn't have to then why should he?"" It seems trivial, but imagine hundreds of more examples just like that and then trying to live with someone like that. He expects me and my parents to support and serve him for the rest of his adult life. No matter how hard I try, I just can't understand him. He had everything afforded to him - incredible intelligence, financial support to do whatever he wanted, a family who loved him and tried to help him. He just threw it all away when he purposely disabled himself. When I hear about people supporting their loved ones with schizophrenia, I wonder whether I am just a terrible person or whether they are just faking it. Either way, I just avoid my family completely because I can't deal with it. I suppose I just want to hear whether people agree or disagree with me and what their reasoning is for it. 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I like to say I do a lot better thinking than the names my auditory hallucinations bring up to hurt me, I'm always working in the background on mental health. Sorry Schizophrenia, I knew how to take care of a dog better than most just based on the food I gave her. (had my dog stolen, while I was homeless and I'd imagine due to my mental health, some one thought I was unfit. ASPCA knights are a joke, thinking they are doing good.)",6.878692052980133,6.190001397350997,7.165951986754968,77.30468956953644,64.82781456953643,9.934105960264901,33.44453642384106,9.188382445141503,2.7252046357615898,605,22,120,9,8,197,91,151,0.073,0.8140000000000001,0.114,0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,3,5,9,1,0,10,0,16,3,0,1,0,22,30,5,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,2,1,0,9,1,1,2,2,2,0,3,9,2,18,7,22,20,4,17,0,1,0,0,7,9,0,6,7,86,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255394155065404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668719274782669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3076525915979283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166939425747083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13362975385787565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378962798005394,0.0,0.18243767399989996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12654611556695106,0.0,0.0,0.16620493415820992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32074442559042554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16151394489824644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07370951013213567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565356884829649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040914026869261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204263420532594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10223625836170996,0.11474662302298964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17091105038900115,0.12884573712749262,0.0,0.23996242908481605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16889130768710492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134386171991987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172537789406426,0.0,0.1002341103260646,0.2900222740282789,0.0,0.2395545141043205,0.08797595569258418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983820997648797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kez542,2019/01/28,"Get help or? Hello guys,firstly i have to say sorry if this isn't the totally right place to post this but i ll give it a try. So lately [this](https://www.reddit.com/r/Drugs/comments/ak2zqe/first_minor_experience_of_a_bad_trip_or_what/) happened to me and i am here mostly to ask some of you guys if this is really the thing getting exposed or i m just overthinking about it lately.All my friends found that extremely weird.Something else maybe to be pointed out is that since i have been talking to them about me in third person like ""T would like to say that ...."" (T is me).Thanks for the help ! (i saw the rule about no self diagnosing and helping somebody with the symptoms but i am just asking about your opinion as you are the only people i can ask)",6.758697042366109,7.8333289784172715,5.629016786570748,82.2135651478817,64.97122302158273,8.19216626698641,29.83293365307754,8.167268648758528,1.9366636290967223,604,20,111,7,9,179,94,139,0.039,0.8220000000000001,0.139,0.9407,0,0,3,0,0,0,32.0,0,3,1,0,8,3,0,0,7,0,13,2,0,0,1,18,22,10,0,3,8,0,0,2,1,1,2,2,0,3,9,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,15,3,17,17,3,7,0,0,1,0,19,5,0,7,3,78,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44815692818722497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16218735455663524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13348722481704045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13592053402678805,0.0,0.17520566598402015,0.12345630201189152,0.0,0.1669713420280066,0.15328878410459082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15822099566149975,0.14130513936185704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213192696623737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802543789642063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15613436913887485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16053436092216866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12153039386908004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078090864725876,0.13952579225203274,0.16695052214168232,0.0,0.15105680134241511,0.0,0.15303829987238016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10236800709671602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13646304151642774,0.0,0.25414890436136045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16669979463387252,0.0,0.0,0.1321830917432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12301708254597887,0.0,0.17887608893000315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16608695361200235,0.0,0.12843621241956255,0.0,0.14711667221583585,0.0,0.0,0.10615990768288557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848950854444278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351293864343615,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Baynsma,2019/01/28,"What’s hearing voices like? The last few hours, having not slept a great deal in the last 24 hours, I started having strange hallucinations while driving. I’d see things out the corner of my eye, constantly detect movement, and see clusters of clothes or rubbish as human figures. Then while imagining something, I’ll get lost in the train of thought and start imaging a random conversation between two people. I don’t ‘hear’ so much as think it, but I’m not in control of it. Also, when I close my eyes, I sometimes start to see strange faces, including human faces I’m positive I’ve never seen before. These effects seem to only present themselves during the transition between wake and asleep, and in times of sleep deprivation. However, the effects on my creativity and imagination seem enhanced. I ‘hear’ music in my head, imagined sounds and so forth, that I’m not responsible for rationally asking my brain to present these things. Does this sound like anybody here? Is it definitely any one condition, or could it be a range? Could it even be considered normal? I also had a range of thoughts that could be considered delusional, in the sense that I wondered whether certain family members may have conspired to decieve me in some way, though paranoia may be a better descriptor than delusional since it’s somewhat based on fact. 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If you are hearing voices like actually HEARING them audibly as if someone is talking to you then you are really rare and are some sort of a medium for entities who talk because you are the only person that can hear them. They may not be nice but this is ok after you work with them for a bit and understand them they can become your best ally in life. Try and develop a mutual understanding and please don’t believe that you’re crazy. Labels from doctors are subjective diagnosis and mean nothing unless you accept it. Don’t think that your broken or diseased because you aren’t. You are a rare soul who is able to tap into the spiritual realms which most people can’t do. Use your gift whether it’s hearing voices, reading symbols and signs, connecting synchronicities, or even being hyper sensitive to your environment. Your mind is amazing not broken but only if you choose to believe that you have a gift not a curse. 🕉🙏🕉 ",5.907576576576574,6.784697410810814,6.623581081081082,75.03356981981983,66.78378378378378,9.409909909909912,31.632882882882882,9.516144504307137,2.953261261261261,771,30,137,15,12,254,115,185,0.078,0.774,0.14800000000000002,0.9445,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,15,6,2,2,6,0,0,8,1,21,2,0,2,0,35,32,18,0,3,12,0,0,1,0,1,2,7,0,1,11,8,0,0,7,1,0,0,7,0,0,0,1,8,23,6,16,28,4,6,1,0,1,0,30,4,0,9,3,102,34,3,0.13484655401867482,0.0,0.1315907848729558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644024154586407,0.1489274245579347,0.0,0.3038517787737207,0.14151313907134214,0.0,0.1472175120371011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13802116197585299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906487716119492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6079274669123067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524610898976732,0.06587921493098525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132371434032256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14688742894825038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13615657912737025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12938890541259185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20511376149929245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09348562179197333,0.1177428096950506,0.0,0.1480210226523246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13488304541127266,0.0,0.08638615544771883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11425504762641565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167691044470572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08640422694995915,0.0,0.10705310138457848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155195861840226,0.0,0.0,0.28076003670517663,0.0,0.11646412708721575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816989734030243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,viiant,2019/01/28,"Does anyone name their voices? I’ve named what I called The Debate, in which left side voice is angry and yells, his name I named him Bob. The right side soothes me and tells me better things but sometimes agrees with Bob his name is Parking . And I’ve named the whispering Quiet it helps me differentiate them I think When I hear the voices that yell my name from the other room that sound like my mom I call it Imposter Mom. Idk if anyone does this bc I haven’t seen anyone write about naming their voices . Is it bad to name them? 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DO NOT GO OFF YOUR MEDS THIS IS NOT SOME REAFFIRMATION SIGN.this is my personal story. &#x200B; when i was in highschool i started having bad symptoms my life was very stressful and this made it all worse, i started taking haldol and the side effects were miserable at best i felt tired less intelligent and drained, but i had no control over my own mind and thoughts. i knew i was lost one day i saw a man on malibu pier clearly mentally ill acting and dancing ina strange way will covered in religious paraphernalia and as time went on my dellusions were getting worse and my girlfriend left me and my family atleast the most immediate ones thought i was a freak. i felt a choice presented itself take the easier route of pills that keep me mentally dead or find a better way to be actually alive. i found small things that brough me clarity of mind briefly and focused on them, i took them and worked. i became in love with body building and reading and meditation i created a system of hard logic that way nothing delusion could float in my reality even if i couldt seee it as such.after years i feel like a did before my symptoms many nights i sleep in the dark i see faces form and i see hands and figures appear and disappear and voices speak as i sleep but they are minor my mind is healthy yet it linger onthe edges of my mind always finding an opportunity to take more control. &#x200B; again stay on your meds i weened off my mine slowly and sough support from my doctor be fucking responsible or youll end up the worst version of yourself also &#x200B; AMA",4.274700854700857,6.515051000000002,4.612179487179488,82.57726495726496,72.65384615384616,7.314529914529915,29.824786324786324,8.167268648758528,2.213627350427351,1320,57,240,21,27,415,197,312,0.134,0.708,0.157,0.8787,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,3,3,11,6,15,1,2,12,1,20,14,5,5,2,53,47,29,1,2,7,0,5,1,1,2,7,2,0,2,11,19,0,3,12,2,0,7,3,7,0,4,20,10,44,8,27,22,10,43,0,2,3,2,11,18,1,6,14,158,55,5,0.0,0.0,0.07897187534656684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0647163069901767,0.06733672134447427,0.26304910565716044,0.2950009956464801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675696355471872,0.0,0.0,0.06886186763350105,0.0,0.08492660021317483,0.07157226494467225,0.0,0.08989028422593721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18153025890033667,0.06461264031728489,0.0,0.0,0.05219042518200336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828309521010044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07167620991822819,0.0,0.0,0.053450706170054194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07628961134074055,0.0,0.040918499568756185,0.05781338443430323,0.15540285520946012,0.0,0.14792937070644271,0.1376708328999738,0.0,0.08873092699908319,0.0,0.07481456798486877,0.04228037340349846,0.0,0.04599197857551763,0.0,0.06472372893739868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07249359219239958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07193054042184263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08792608311742467,0.0,0.05716026280751577,0.03953624225649465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08834003480847122,0.0,0.07303866467437453,0.07657391786212324,0.0,0.08204602639041846,0.0,0.0,0.2696708526778117,0.0,0.16310827928709826,0.0,0.3268478231159629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07594335068774813,0.0,0.07765045644599636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109674788795643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066125868288711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0809476671095797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289747183226217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16196842213806426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455934944411054,0.08625610058316988,0.0,0.0,0.09270019319160623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09183360188581227,0.0,0.16822571660200542,0.1825383173537312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10752696798856563,0.0,0.0,0.12849203971491466,0.04718846578648223,0.0930122650197166,0.0,0.0,0.08991150527943659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06677223337626223,0.0,0.19270532224647735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07501899718450178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058914922523096325,0.0,0.1649405414216877,0.0,0.0,0.2950009956464801,0.05211354098075128 schizophrenia,PerfectCaterpillar,2019/01/28,"Minor victories. Hey, I just wanted to share some minor victories I achieved over the weekend. On Friday, my boiler pressure dropped and I couldn't work out how to top it up. I managed to call the maintenance team for my apartment building, who sent someone out to fix it. That's a HUGE deal for me - I don't like making phone calls, especially not ones asking for help, and letting strangers into my home is also a big deal. On Saturday it was my boyfriends birthday, so we went for a meal out with his friends, and then to a bar. I really struggle in big groups of people, especially ones I don't know well. I made it through the meal and a few hours in the bar - I did have to come home early, but he's a sweetheart and purposefully picked a bar a few minutes walk from my apartment so I could do that easily if I had to. Then on Sunday, I had a video call with my Step-Father. He lives a few thousand miles away, and although we've emailed and talked on messenger, we haven't spoken 'properly' for about 7 or 8 years. It was great to have a catch up with him, and I enjoyed it so much we're making it a monthly thing, and I'm also arranging a video call with one of my friends in Australia too. I've struggled with webcams in the past, as I'm never convinced they're properly off. All in all, I had a wonderful weekend, and I'm looking forward to the week ahead. I hope everyone else did too! Please feel free to share your little victories :) ",4.080924657534247,4.906751407534248,5.015643835616442,85.10709589041099,70.88356164383559,8.168767123287669,30.01095890410959,8.395991825355821,2.059784383561644,1129,45,235,17,20,369,157,292,0.042,0.77,0.188,0.9931,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,2,1,0,5,11,15,0,3,20,0,17,5,0,5,3,43,33,23,0,5,5,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,11,22,5,0,3,8,1,6,6,3,1,4,10,2,28,13,45,20,7,47,0,0,1,0,28,27,0,5,16,160,39,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198151358022784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11582146740931967,0.0,0.11639977973890545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5060267165248077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10672122454104567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09891697332367147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554525967450774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034951282885116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183832685519943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06264306969056857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19143593452120172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659039042976268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830416021229946,0.0,0.24854577737671754,0.12305183042936432,0.12200779121004597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06808731615741101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668705782486614,0.0,0.06052694026121841,0.12417144347393315,0.10939812334887662,0.0,0.10403733288713547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11722876751765195,0.16539656109397474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09888870511102248,0.0,0.09107422379807198,0.0,0.09555246467126444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518554752824981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826808677280433,0.08589049902026517,0.0,0.0,0.13599523923998466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07936781996655479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497253875097597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590357837499495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995789844269523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823077510210867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07307418887611067,0.0,0.09937797855993663,0.0,0.11139299010520977,0.11484830378124647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343546281647285,0.09019420644267176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07978181541075352 schizophrenia,ImpressiveStoreBore,2019/01/28,"Do you guys have to remind yourself time exists, and, do you experience the collapse of willed action like this? Hey, I've been what I would consider ""depressed"" for long time but none of the treatment or the way people described depression ever made proper sense to me. Doctors have never really cared when I describe these experience but the other day someone said I wasn't making any sense when I described how I have to deal with time. I looked up some papers about how schizophrenics and the experience of time. I read things about the negative symptoms of schizophrenia that made sense, so I was just wondering if I was reading it right and if people could relate to this. **Time** I forget that time exists and have no sense of identity. I put it down to depression and losing the want for things but now I have to actively create a ""person"" that is me, I have to write down who I am and what my identity is. I keep referencing it to remind myself of what my intentions are, that there are parts of me that stay static in time. I feel like I get lost away from who I am and end up confused unless I remind myself I'm a person and look at the text to remind myself what my core drives are. Not the same as reminding myself of goals, but, in a much simpler sense. Reminding myself that I've chosen to exist, and that existence requires material action, and that positive and negative emotional states exist. &#x200B; **Will** I had this for a long time, but the inability to initiate action. Where you look down at your hands and you just can't move them. Like it's stuck at the millisecond before they move. I always thought this is what people called procrastination but I don't think that's what it is. This morning I had it in bed, and it isn't like being tired and having to get up despite not wanting to. I couldn't create any positive thought to move my arms and legs. I have been deal with this more recently by imagining that I'm a puppet and imagine pulling a human soul in to the body, since a large part of why I'm around is to help my mother. Not ""you've got to do this"" but ""you have to bring in the human soul, you have to bring it in to this body. Get this body taking action and moving. Initiate action"". I have to talk to myself in my head to kind of get it working - without the imagery and words it just doesn't move. I feel like I'm whispering to a brain and waiting to see the response, and over years I've found certain concepts or words that allow me to ""boot up"" and start forcing my body to move. My mind still reacts to the environment but only really with avoidance and aversion. If I get shouted at it works after a while but abstract planning and will fails often. Apparently external stimuli and internal goals are different types of action according to one paper I read. \-------------------------- I have been very dysfunctional for about a decade. ( NEET, welfare ) It used to be worse and it's taken me many years by myself to try and get something working in my head since none of the advice ever worked, it always felt like there was something more simply wrong than what I kept being asked to do in therapy. &#x200B; Thank you if you read all of this, I was just wondering if this is relatable to your guys and if so I might look down this road in the future.",4.28737676056338,5.772130657277,5.021280320813773,82.77351672535211,71.06572769953051,7.8915101721439775,26.14505086071988,8.408885092690799,1.72368255086072,2586,82,495,41,48,835,260,639,0.10400000000000001,0.8190000000000001,0.077,-0.9718,2,1,2,0,0,0,103.0,0,10,2,11,22,19,0,2,28,0,52,14,10,9,5,102,97,53,0,11,26,1,4,6,0,5,4,3,1,6,50,31,0,5,11,4,0,17,16,9,0,1,22,12,66,10,89,65,10,74,2,6,5,0,30,28,0,14,32,366,116,17,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058860882459366916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10024058437093483,0.13052905627542033,0.14638408089564342,0.08192364423321301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05362186370929775,0.05631153416868965,0.0,0.0565927053128313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051255494139250624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267629740212078,0.0,0.06724210961744617,0.061506604464682466,0.0,0.0614135318389351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04809269514341415,0.0,0.0,0.0388465506959293,0.12419914849855745,0.15564078669304424,0.0,0.0,0.06293268790972074,0.0,0.061653009508213515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06775619575249778,0.05335027474044506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897189650078187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767639771578363,0.0,0.0,0.06091318713560375,0.0860637008224581,0.05783498479016151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06604449842947947,0.0,0.0,0.18882160815522725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04817538099427554,0.0,0.0,0.11928411379606488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236368445105274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04037420799415176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05353957886601456,0.0,0.06272541678417347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17656648327207675,0.0,0.0,0.10661204599532116,0.20232870319243976,0.06738748603648205,0.06575354825526081,0.0,0.0,0.1139915059838458,0.040207287602875286,0.06106877099506704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06389974839250898,0.0608201144474802,0.0,0.0,0.3841212269327126,0.044279608780706456,0.0,0.046456896114281616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040816751618306536,0.04581138322177627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13045713196771333,0.0,0.12527796129328658,0.10518964572871417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060552747817902874,0.0,0.0,0.24100494626158486,0.0,0.0771760849851127,0.0,0.05947473263768225,0.0,0.0,0.051440306342237334,0.05729721792713281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04799944545710064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09965392324508206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05103686591846818,0.092743593300779,0.0,0.0,0.042634597824735485,0.06420242740794366,0.04810369780702893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06260716219066438,0.04528917564414675,0.048414560007470006,0.0,0.05545623637534188,0.06888389899851165,0.0,0.08003483011645861,0.038596114895972616,0.0,0.09563962196901177,0.2809878052604655,0.06923119817152901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040895567711445785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052023645011263664,0.0,0.04970013062522105,0.07105625193305531,0.04781168859944144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054352660917960205,0.0,0.0,0.058064328946613064,0.13064443757877858,0.17540700360719744,0.0,0.06138454593737482,0.042789170406428434,0.06585744682627383,0.14638408089564342,0.07757864798354704 schizophrenia,SlimeMagician,2019/01/28,Am I ever going to get over not having a meaningful relationship? It's been about 3 years since I developed schizophrenia. I've dated since then but they weren't good relationships.,3.961363636363637,7.161277181818183,4.791136363636369,75.40670454545456,80.21212121212122,8.148484848484847,23.40151515151515,8.841846274778883,2.4368242424242426,149,5,24,4,4,48,30,33,0.161,0.8390000000000001,0.0,-0.5559,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,4,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,3,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877754569423856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662147957786429,0.0,0.1808060504440304,0.266840379180962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6831256803895548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5263366834723143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048714539191079 schizophrenia,C0mput3r_V1ru5,2019/01/28,"Interesting title that is interesting and catches your attention Okay so I’m going to start off by saying that I am new to this subreddit and new-ish to Reddit. I have no idea what I’m doing, so tell me if I’m doing something wrong. Anyhooo, my dad was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia when I was very young, and ever since I was around 15, I’ve experienced visual/auditory hallucinations and paranoid thoughts. More recently however, I’ve had this horrible, bone-chilling premonition of death. Like maybe an hour before I usually go to bed I just get this overwhelming sense that if I let myself go to sleep, I’m never going to wake up. I drink a lot of coffee and pop and monster to keep myself awake, but sometimes I do fall asleep. I don’t die (obviously), but still I can’t force myself to go to sleep when I feel this way. It’s not every night, just some of them, but it’s really interfering with my life. Does anyone else get this? Or know someone who does? Or has ever heard of it? How do I make it stop? 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Or what these hallucinations might consist of? Is it entities, insects, animals, humans etc?",9.309880952380947,13.578305464285714,9.964285714285717,40.24738095238098,65.78571428571429,12.304761904761904,41.476190476190474,11.20814326018867,7.015533333333335,155,9,17,6,3,52,25,28,0.0,0.9079999999999999,0.092,0.4098,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,0,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3723059185533599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.610586141060341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5807909241165503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3889148619158489,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,alliefw5,2019/01/28,"Opinions? Hey I know I’d probably need a doctor to determine this, but maybe you can help. I’m concerned I may have schizophrenia. Here a list of things that happen: -frequently hearing whispers/voices -hallucinations -scrambling up my words/ talking way too fast -seeing things happen that didn’t really ( for example I saw and heard a pencil roll off a desk, but then looked back a minute later and it had never fallen ) -agitation/compulsive behavior I may be overreacting, but I just heard these were some symptoms, so I thought I’d ask. Thanks. -Allie",2.7957040998217444,5.726362545454549,3.6064289958407616,79.5786631016043,95.26262626262628,6.369815805109923,25.015448603683897,7.510576382923642,2.2303102792632203,448,19,70,10,17,142,78,99,0.0,0.887,0.113,0.8769,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,5,0,8,2,0,0,1,15,22,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,7,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,7,6,8,1,5,12,1,10,0,0,3,0,8,2,0,4,6,46,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21836253182818646,0.0,0.0,0.17960593933776495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390754833763043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4131019210105705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632577333235672,0.0,0.15656142934679226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12836755632679986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961454635486576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346590265033676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731940427446133,0.18014862507571472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518350129938806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496351108411707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18613025894416568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427754570773667,0.0,0.1877399729318157,0.0,0.21504589351634434,0.0,0.0,0.3103557449938211,0.0,0.0,0.18543367983619985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18540218318825127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Toszt,2019/01/28,"I'm on the verge of a panic attack This is going to sound really ramble but bare with me. The other day I went out drinking with a few friends since one of them just turned 21. I don't really like drinking but I like hanging out so I went. I watched carefully to make sure I wouldn't drink a lot. All I ended up having was one mixed drink and one shot. I made sure to drink lots of water and pace out my drinks over a couple hours. We were having a good time, we were playing truth or dare at a table and that is the last thing I remember. The next thing I knew I woke up in a hospital. I nearly died of hypothermia and I had a ton of bruises everywhere. Neither of my friends who found me in the hospital knew what happened to me and the only other person with me that night told me later that I just slipped on ice and couldn't get up but that is all they remember. Now the two things that don't make sense to me is that first if this person was with me when I slipped on ice, how come I had gotten hypothermia? It would have taken me a few hours to get that cold. Did they just leave me there instead of calling an ambulance. (And I live on a college campus so it wouldn't take more than 15 minutes for an ambulance to arrive, I know from experience). Also it doesn't make sense I slipped on ice because I have bruises and cuts on opposite sides of my body. Like bruises on my knees and hands (which means I fell forward) and bruises on my behind and sides (which means I fell backward). And ever since that incident I've been feeling extra paranoid that usual. I'm just about to have a panic attack while writing this. I'm worried that my boyfriend is sick of me and thinks badly of me and won't tell me. I try to tell him how i'm feeling but then I go into a thought loop that I'm just seeking attention and over exaggerating my problems. I have this inner voice constantly shouting at me that I'm horrible and the worst person ever. I want to just go somewhere and die, or commit myself to a hospital but I know I'd hurt my boyfriend if I did that. I'm at such a loss.",3.74619252873563,4.344118699074077,4.860395913154534,86.74833333333332,71.5,7.810472541507026,27.16507024265645,7.873277556716777,1.4458886334610468,1626,53,351,20,29,536,196,432,0.158,0.7609999999999999,0.081,-0.99,0,0,6,0,0,0,33.0,2,0,3,2,19,21,3,2,24,0,28,11,3,6,8,80,67,34,2,8,15,0,3,3,2,4,1,3,0,3,29,28,7,0,14,7,0,10,8,10,0,5,20,8,56,11,53,42,11,56,0,2,1,0,17,29,0,6,22,252,85,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06663640456502322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895925081539686,0.0,0.0,0.06957438982599841,0.05079523831174985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925572799920999,0.0,0.0,0.08508596998659028,0.0,0.08495721674602633,0.0,0.0,0.07177865208851207,0.0,0.09004665856112451,0.0,0.0,0.09219950921256992,0.0,0.05373888666694848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17296010666845685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4897711933559705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380280402161345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074770580729074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08150959064240622,0.0,0.0,0.08426505832204689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07087772575866289,0.0,0.0913635252678732,0.12875614387231507,0.0,0.08706961810115113,0.0,0.1420696065785678,0.06989055878092304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07368560598802128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16412020823440793,0.0,0.0892030530473092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915884501723212,0.06792245604932234,0.0,0.0882310401076624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221277830818333,0.0,0.07357908296840279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14168291563115898,0.0,0.07884582429222711,0.16686383987518885,0.0,0.0,0.18153460671759145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886189874272702,0.07819654853328338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16939317005247087,0.06337377931650326,0.0,0.1955320706853033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21827321920801251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07973248534734294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10676255188979633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18878602096959785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13785756498955834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570690285527518,0.0,0.0626513765979063,0.0,0.14566257601968866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16607585183184131,0.05339244301030153,0.0,0.06615216426926021,0.048588521860928886,0.0,0.0,0.07962231958110955,0.0,0.05657342129622325,0.09063562059175392,0.08139816683767874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09177268783869708,0.0,0.04914830018625997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15448953993025585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846224009216761,0.0,0.059192961481770875,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SlyToes,2019/01/28,"Don't be weak minded. If you let them tell you that you have a problem, and you believe it; you have been defeated already.",2.9063999999999983,4.410841439999999,3.916999999999998,89.24350000000004,74.6,6.6000000000000005,28.5,7.1686216300943375,1.4481999999999997,96,4,20,1,2,31,20,25,0.20600000000000002,0.7090000000000001,0.085,-0.5258,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,5,1,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,0,0,1,0,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4420527338128704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4513192852295689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4096227316703296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4044741170781826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3833033387329977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3501267486744433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mac022,2019/01/28,"I could end up back in hospital tomorrow if I tell my doctor the truth I don't know what to do. I've been hiding what's been going on with me for 2 weeks now because I know that they'll put me in the hospital. They don't know anything yet but my family is bringing me to the doctor's tomorrow after I finally told them. 2 weeks ago I felt my personality change drastically. I started feeling like there was this powerful energy manipulating me. It was like I was watching myself doing things without being fully present, like I knew I was doing certain actions but I had little control over it. This involved trespassing, fare dodging, graffiti, snapping at people (which I never do) & carrying a knife with me everywhere. I felt like an unstoppable force. I felt above all law. And I got an adrenaline rush from everything. I didn't care if I got caught. It started coming into my thoughts. I wasn't being told by voices to do anything. It was just this feeling like I knew what had to be done. Most of it was like having no impulse control. But this powerful energy I'm feeling has to be real. It's like nothing I've ever felt before. What if I'm meant to follow it? They can't put me in hospital if that's the case. I get compulsions out of nowhere. Stand on the road, hop trains & get as far away as possible, go to another country. I feel like something is pushing me to do all these things. I feel like I'm connected to whatever this energy is and I'm not about to let go of it. So how does anyone think I can tell the doctor all this? I know they'll put me back in & I don't think that's what I need. If I don't tell the truth my family are going to do everything possible to get me admitted. The only option is to section me again. I just want to run off. I know that with the way I am I just won't agree to go willingly. I feel like I can't stop what's most likely gonna happen. It's so hard being forced to fuck myself over. I don't think I'm sick I just think I'm struggling to explain what's really happening. I feel like this energy/force influencing me is 100% real.",2.0108226495726456,3.877000217592599,4.244814814814816,84.35858974358976,78.07407407407408,7.764102564102564,24.502849002849,8.617729084823388,1.7724319088319094,1642,58,338,36,39,568,189,432,0.076,0.753,0.171,0.9895,2,0,1,0,0,0,49.0,0,0,5,4,16,18,1,1,12,0,48,5,0,5,8,71,105,15,0,8,14,0,12,12,0,5,4,1,0,1,31,8,0,3,26,0,0,16,14,2,0,0,26,14,59,16,45,67,6,55,0,0,1,1,14,18,1,8,31,226,90,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06132953477637236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22489018050536236,0.0,0.0,0.07254793223397965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048376712444616485,0.0,0.11386896048707015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06500286386419456,0.10640008235437977,0.0,0.04217536364956852,0.0,0.058872497602095016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07054010631721039,0.0,0.07318999641171052,0.059597924032351486,0.0,0.0,0.15519677434102155,0.0552396797076383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21244551723020272,0.06054545096301861,0.07080166854385635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06127858046192827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06258302473885606,0.0,0.0,0.1243604806470143,0.0,0.13044548790417873,0.0,0.2448789214365829,0.2965605017795073,0.2657190266569746,0.0757902769398477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06396167611562394,0.1084410545642324,0.0,0.19660101747556288,0.0,0.1106693067619294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12236254151266575,0.0,0.06197739008806654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19011507379937345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07074774189106689,0.0,0.4056115363869036,0.06934290987544534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051300810204999936,0.053360786995015584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06638617957980708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052619345382670636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04796511151108244,0.060410861995637485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15599445372093398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20865420735334295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15749845183486835,0.04432255463074107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053263041025182235,0.0,0.0,0.09794092517706914,0.0,0.0,0.05784289595991118,0.0,0.07232860674144798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18141578771790745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09192868829464727,0.17732730664853974,0.0,0.05492624263594935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13222106616945106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04080790841834053,0.054916913195208215,0.11099425146543067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06669318331786378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zeond1987,2019/07/07,"Has anyone had trouble staying on a sleep schedule? If so, what did you do to fix it?",0.07833333333333314,2.1445157222222235,2.342222222222226,94.30000000000004,86.22222222222223,3.6,25.66666666666667,3.1291,0.248133333333334,65,3,14,0,2,22,18,18,0.161,0.8390000000000001,0.0,-0.4696,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4314524239241987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6174909272392034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6576881941066011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,_hopeful_owl,2019/07/07,"Need advice, should I visit family this week? Trying to decide if I'm going to visit with family this week. I had a really bad episode with my voice last week that left me very emotionally exhausted, numb and depressed. My family, who live thousands of miles away, and who are minimally supportive of me, are all coming in to town this week for a wedding. They want to see me. Should I visit with them? I don't want to burn bridges with them by shutting them out, but, even when I'm not having a hard time because of an episode, I'm minimally functional. I'm in my bed almost all day every day. I feel very slowed down cognitively and am really self conscious about my now poor social skills. Not to mention, I literally have nothing to talk about; I have no friends, I work a part time menial job, I have no hobbies or interests. So, socializing is like torture for me nowadays, even though objectively I want people (family included) in my life. I just don't want to go through the discomfort of empty or stagnant conversations and discomfort of being judged. Not to mention, I have to listen to all of them talk about how well their lives are going. The last time I visited with family it was so hard on me that I felt suicidal for quite a while afterwards. The thing is, is they don't get out this way much and if I miss this opportunity, I don't know when I'll have the chance to see them next. I'm getting texts right now as I type this asking if I can meet for coffee. Ugh. Thank you for any advice you can offer!",4.458657142857142,5.5298933800000025,5.6360952380952405,80.09900000000002,70.2,9.180952380952384,26.952380952380953,9.48565724429506,2.239238095238095,1194,38,238,26,21,398,157,300,0.14300000000000002,0.753,0.10300000000000001,-0.9566,2,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,2,8,4,15,16,1,2,10,0,24,3,0,1,3,40,50,19,1,10,10,0,4,1,1,2,3,2,1,1,12,13,0,0,5,0,1,8,9,9,1,1,3,8,38,7,42,44,5,41,0,2,2,0,30,13,0,6,20,161,50,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19290887028507428,0.0,0.0,0.0988398771087912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06712351649491156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09227685677325913,0.0,0.09273760766168294,0.0,0.08241545055275372,0.060170307808190486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08502654449056375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12731450661475846,0.0,0.08501539867319642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11103105009045494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13038886463407154,0.0,0.0831641262368913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4652565194576766,0.0,0.04990875784059315,0.0,0.0947733121952969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07626006951128694,0.0,0.10313970159435164,0.0,0.16829081311827526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768425125972997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09795054989002527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054246278014497586,0.16091725222325176,0.0,0.0,0.10724444044693512,0.0,0.06971902060512639,0.04822280292538101,0.0,0.174318547076452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256032316919338,0.07318930469674767,0.0,0.0,0.1049750316835421,0.0,0.0,0.09471114209510004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068890615337587,0.0,0.06843036488448957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498606185858346,0.0,0.0,0.126467279672374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08429444963256738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15731192619871776,0.0,0.10297196432363477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20123682838342571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10796842656286912,0.11201048539052684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15867241003118376,0.0,0.090875293254517,0.0,0.0,0.06557593097538965,0.0,0.09697821856871656,0.0,0.1726689201677083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0670149464062811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16288570016853834,0.23287760418066894,0.07834828878506095,0.3167042414195278,0.0,0.08874861649919318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718591989538071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Hbgfrhb,2019/07/07,How paranoid are you?? And in what way... Describe how paranoia affects you,2.8338461538461535,5.880488153846155,2.3757692307692326,89.60673076923081,90.53846153846158,2.6,37.269230769230774,3.1291,1.9387230769230768,58,4,9,0,2,17,11,13,0.284,0.716,0.0,-0.5204,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Aimcook,2019/07/07,"Hearing voices research request- permission to post by moderators Hi all, I wanted to say a HUGE thank you to everyone who may have completed my research, it is especially close to my heart. I still need a further 25 participants. If this is something that may be of interest to you please click this link: Link to Study: [https://livpsych.eu.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV\_0PAIG9hNgxDlVfn](https://livpsych.eu.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_0PAIG9hNgxDlVfn) For those of you who may not have seen my previous post, my name is Aimee. I am a trainee clinical psychologist, passionate about learning more about peoples experience of hearing voices. I am completing research on exploring predictive factors of voice hearing distress and loneliness. I am interested in learning more about how people feel about their voices and the beliefs they hold about them. The study will also ask about childhood adverse experiences, mindfulness of voices and emotion regulation. It is hoped that the findings from this research will have implications for clinical practice. All participants have the choice to be entered in to a prize draw where you could win 1 of 6 £25.00 Amazon vouchers. If you have any questions regarding the research my email address can be found on the information sheet at the start of the research questions. Click to complete here: [https://livpsych.eu.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV\_0PAIG9hNgxDlVfn](https://livpsych.eu.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_0PAIG9hNgxDlVfn) Thank you as always, Aimee",11.906798825256978,14.41490411453745,8.505832599118943,61.03413803230546,54.11013215859032,11.515888399412631,42.00558002936857,11.34169021259432,5.5070995007342125,1242,61,158,31,15,350,129,227,0.038,0.8270000000000001,0.135,0.9644,0,0,1,0,0,0,67.0,0,6,3,2,11,10,0,1,12,0,22,4,1,1,2,32,35,8,0,6,3,0,1,0,0,5,2,9,1,0,10,4,0,1,12,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,13,19,8,32,24,4,16,1,0,3,1,23,9,0,8,3,110,29,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10801861711719006,0.11239237618950897,0.0,0.0,0.09185494178089157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262759424601054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4248675105939068,0.0,0.0,0.10784558606570233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519400528234115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12906898127167016,0.0,0.2642565522691,0.0,0.0,0.06829746540695357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12345517534824402,0.0,0.0,0.14810165282487694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45671459439984596,0.16006332274918056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415894485255622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13638621972862774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10015564846655983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18728658779330956,0.0,0.0,0.14827067372947764,0.0,0.0,0.2587270797358331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026275529855639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10741625445772417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10398655288017616,0.0,0.0,0.09560606190551088,0.0,0.1078702590166002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24871595551308445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07967013608304642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,libravodkaaunt,2019/07/07,"Any techniques to calm down for this specific delusion? I’m very new here, so I’m sorry if I mess something up. I get a frequently delusion that my friends (whom I love very very much and we are all close) are plotting to murder me and hide my body or burn it. It’s to the point to where I sob in the corner of my room because I think that any minute they’ll be here, and it’ll be 8 against 1, and I’ll get killed by the people o trust and cherish the most. Does anybody else get this? Any tricks to calm myself down? Thank you for reading!",2.959239130434785,3.615188869565221,3.6632065217391294,94.40263586956524,73.34782608695653,6.445652173913044,25.67934782608696,5.985473137389443,0.5161521739130439,420,13,99,2,8,133,75,115,0.146,0.687,0.16699999999999998,0.5652,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,1,1,1,0,4,12,3,0,5,0,6,2,1,0,1,12,14,8,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,8,7,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,13,7,14,10,3,11,0,1,0,1,6,9,1,3,2,58,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4047760280458453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209486603836356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203883552054924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17362959207999906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16574577485903533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15329077719787834,0.0,0.3109825060220157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21951084334907925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17907242493006004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458538971130708,0.0,0.0,0.19162524356714114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755224568114593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875612188397959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984633085280024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527454158660307,0.0,0.22210332115371345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18266891730289134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12713287054727307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4911261371764213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bullshithistorian14,2019/07/07,"Vivid scary/sad dreams on Seroquel? For the past month I’ve been having extremely vivid dreams. They range from nightmares to just sad. For example it could be about a killer chasing me in my own home, and I feel out of breath and the sweat that I normally wouldn’t feel in a dream. Or it’s a dream like my fiancé ending up with someone else and simply telling me “I just don’t love you anymore.” And I can feel the pain and heartbreak from it. Other times it’s just so out of the box I don’t even know how my mind could come up with it. I wanted to know if anyone else experienced this?",2.4676229508196736,3.9921346147540997,3.095868852459017,94.59626229508196,75.80327868852459,6.191475409836067,21.21639344262295,6.742157984588678,0.1543481967213114,461,11,105,4,10,144,77,122,0.114,0.757,0.13,-0.168,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,0,7,5,0,0,7,0,9,4,2,1,0,27,17,9,0,6,5,0,3,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,8,10,0,0,5,4,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,7,13,2,18,12,1,12,0,2,2,1,4,7,0,2,5,69,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103660553907641,0.14831924571961105,0.21734202137240435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827226095417888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387211413925491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35439810585130205,0.0,0.1878753717149939,0.0,0.0,0.14010326859615413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217627574869093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127736690999054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23315122438824734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363112417114533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19144659421752133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141807453693628,0.0,0.1693121713117611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078325762292345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257106503089322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20249255509929112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17972859937929014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854022416726077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12368888589965743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251138800085367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ShindyCool,2019/07/07,"How I take my medication Today I'm going to tell you how I handle my medication, because my approach is a little bit different. I've been hesitant to make this post, because it's in the grey area of violating this subreddit's rules, but please see it just as my personal way of how I am doing it. I'm not saying that you should do it this way and keep in mind that everything I do according to my medication I am doing with the agreement of my doctor and therapist, and so should you. So without further ado, basically the only thing I'm doing difference is that I'm adjusting how much medication I'm taking myself, and I'm only telling my doctor on the next visit. I only do this within small reasonable ranges, and I'm never going off my medication cold turkey, overdosing or something stupid like that. I'm not going to tell you exactly how I do it, which medication I'm taking and in which ranges I'm adjusting it, as well as how long you should stay on the same level, because you have to get this information from your doctor. But I am telling you about the pros and cons of this approach. So what are the cons? Well, at first you're going to make some wrong decisions, and you have to make those as part of the learning process. You're gonna reduce your dosage before an upcoming event that stressing you and that may backfire. You may be increasing the dosage before an upcoming exam and you can't concentrate well enough anymore. But is this worth it? For some, it's not. If you don't have enough insight into your illness, or if you don't trust yourself well enough on whether you're making the right decisions, it's not for you. But if you have 100 percent insight and don't make impulsive decisions, you could benefit from it, have less symptoms on average, less side effects, and an overall better quality of life. Sounds good? Well, my estimate is that less than 25 percent of people taking antipsychotics will do better with this approach. You could do some smaller version of it where you just have a small fraction of your daily dose as an as needed which you add whenever you feel stressed, notice early warning signs or an increase in symptoms. From that, I think more could benefit. Still doctors are hesitant to use this approach with their patients. Also you have to keep in mind that this approach does not work as well with every antipsychotic agent. Of course it doesn't work with an injection. Medication half-life, how much you take in the morning and in the evening and things like that are factors that play a role. Also, I think I would not recommend it if you still have symptoms while your medication being well-adjusted, but here your psychiatrist might tell you I'm wrong. So finally, let me list the benefits I gained with this method ever since I started it more than 2 years ago. Again, everything subjective to personal experience. First, I'm less tired overall. This is because I'm approximating the minimum effective dose better, than let's say, if I would feel very tired today, which is a sign of overdose, but my next doctors appointment is in 2 weeks. Reducing the dose a little myself saves me 2 weeks of being tired if, and only if, my tiredness was due to me taking too much of my medication. Did you know that you can be tired because a your illness as well? So you should know how to differentiate between the two. Next advantage, and this is probably the biggest: I haven't had any psychotic symptoms for a period of 15 months. Notice any early warning signs? Lay in bed and can't fall asleep for more than 2 hours? Yep, you guessed right, increase your medication. Don't wait until the next morning so you can call your doctor. Or better on a Saturday, until Monday. This can be the difference between you being still able to work the next day or, in the extreme case, becoming hospitalized. Last benefit: Managing stressful events better. This may sound like you're relying on a drug, but this is not like using alcohol to become more talkative or using any upper in order to be more productive. You have an illness, this requires medication, and sometimes it requires a little bit more of this medication. So what does this mean? It means that before a event - but not every event that will be stressing you, you take a little bit more of your medication. You do this in order to prevent changes in your perception that may result in paranoia or similar symptoms, because the surroundings at the event were overstimulating your senses. I do this before exams, concerts or when travelling, especially on city trips. So let's come to the conclusion. If you think that you could be benefiting from this, pause and think about if you have what it takes to be successful with this approach. Do you have enough insight? Are you sure that it will not only confuse you even more? If so, you could ask your doctor about his opinion. Only if he also thinks that you could benefit from it, you can start with the smallest increments possible. Maybe only going up, but never down at first with the dosage. Also, I am very curious if any of you are also using a similar approach as I have described here. I hope that most of you can judge correctly if this is for them or not, maybe a small fraction of you then successfully implement it, and, which is the risk I'm taking with posting this, that no one starts doing stupid shit without consultation with his doctor. And if you as a moderator of this subreddit still judge this risk too high, even with all my warnings, then please remove my post and kindly inform me, then I will never post something like this again. But I would prefer if that's not the case because I put much time and effort into writing this. An illness that is hard to grasp may sometimes require experimental methods, and since I have massively benefited from this, I don't see why I should keep it to myself. I went from having no job and struggling in college to being able to work 20 hours a week and having my degree almost finished. People who have stayed away from me now seek my company again. And that's not because I take medication, which I have been doing for 10 years now, it is mostly because of the small adjustments I'm doing by myself. Let me know your thoughts in the comments, have a nice upcoming week!",7.762998996196114,7.50464607692308,7.737925692096366,72.5081860867498,62.87151310228232,10.876421174978866,35.22148404480136,10.376355310201923,3.616559604818258,5011,198,888,103,64,1616,393,1183,0.08199999999999999,0.8029999999999999,0.115,0.9913,3,0,6,0,0,0,131.0,0,61,2,23,53,50,4,8,55,1,114,43,2,22,8,200,183,101,0,32,51,0,3,5,0,19,41,7,1,2,88,43,1,8,32,3,1,23,28,14,7,5,8,14,119,36,126,135,37,145,0,0,3,0,85,52,1,40,65,668,207,25,0.06443697367624329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028559744629737087,0.03443176416243187,0.03226216061759737,0.0,0.0,0.12882556142113594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08763870347565095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03195208157774774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03011993601761695,0.0,0.030270328952147506,0.0,0.0,0.17676081481802136,0.07116557486950201,0.10966223718223328,0.0,0.0,0.14247316700378546,0.10552272933689097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032898677304501106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0340828870558321,0.02775337359125339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543430405886346,0.0,0.0,0.02077825864167413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10098438417140816,0.0,0.2638158919439906,0.05638922989718333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037363216039625634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13316123779274638,0.0,0.06384002009037945,0.029143465888262995,0.0542909294661211,0.0,0.0579117970201595,0.031515862370601465,0.0,0.0,0.032581270005135894,0.0,0.0,0.03529377750396715,0.0,0.08221508533705392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.01683282960391335,0.0,0.0915525427271254,0.02702333816406193,0.0,0.0,0.03549229559651484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028861435851209268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034040600262149896,0.0,0.032000227093348606,0.06345743923119475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0319718767927617,0.08591181435531685,0.0,0.03355059612757171,0.05311931334002745,0.026262366917224847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13178234264498934,0.02275687006761877,0.07870162625237673,0.12916555164795165,0.0,0.028512346995083045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107530450725483,0.0,0.06473560097571078,0.07019075467956465,0.0,0.4543943030575442,0.0,0.03417872308999068,0.06506297449664641,0.0,0.025716488811894624,0.0,0.09473717973051082,0.02388959975150281,0.07454664976881062,0.0,0.17132363131553202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07336192161578889,0.0,0.0,0.021832080502504337,0.17152527742708065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034889481577063314,0.0,0.044672484175475265,0.056263879964156736,0.0,0.07073244703648515,0.0,0.03632150299337993,0.12342561751428115,0.0,0.034736978065173285,0.0,0.0,0.032388478078088374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03312597045099451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055028823441869205,0.0,0.051242867778094316,0.0,0.0,0.05134792533686027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03307181374723524,0.05330293049830128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04960673044167488,0.06372981461495518,0.0,0.06841323243499257,0.06868124032671717,0.10291890082896013,0.0,0.1476246712726564,0.03368175782667529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0303655425547998,0.16743672031545173,0.2422429246210783,0.0,0.14080188791904658,0.0,0.0,0.03740814645871533,0.04280906208428152,0.10322152720194118,0.0,0.02557787970956589,0.01878685876951657,0.1481216443581712,0.0610787166275087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03147278011160685,0.0,0.0,0.1113057125702488,0.0,0.05316725166870717,0.0,0.0511470704099594,0.10337490700949434,0.0,0.2317463116175288,0.029866860082145962,0.02907217310634827,0.0,0.0,0.06211494318513061,0.0,0.0938217685539153,0.0,0.0,0.06866126596876501,0.07045171522937878,0.0,0.04149529839833235 schizophrenia,hpnaveed5972,2019/07/07,Thoughts on amisulpride I do not have schizophrenia but I have OCD.Recently my psychiatrist prescribed me amisulpride (solian).I am not feeling well since taking this medicine.I just wanted to know your experiences.I am taking 50mg of amisulpride (solian).,6.455691056910571,10.415893146341464,4.34329268292683,76.09428861788619,80.95121951219512,5.660162601626017,36.101626016260155,7.1686216300943375,3.3260699186991864,213,12,27,3,6,60,32,41,0.1,0.9,0.0,-0.4168,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,8,11,1,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,5,1,3,10,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219843147911422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23894949578339536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35966320624711995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6538167124801745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3451751016067982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564507102374116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3909288883983635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jonathan1998_,2019/07/07,Delusions Lately I've been having very vivid life like dreams. I wake up sometimes and am pretty confused if things actually happened or if I experiencing it in a dream. I've caught myself several times beleving things happen in reality but really was a dream. Even small things like having a conversation with someone about a certain topic. Does anybody else experience this? Kinda weird new symptom I'm getting.,5.889107142857143,9.006953347222222,6.4492063492063485,67.14500000000001,71.08333333333333,8.003174603174603,32.507936507936506,8.841846274778883,3.4736603174603182,339,16,47,7,7,110,57,72,0.044000000000000004,0.736,0.22,0.8972,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,4,0,5,3,1,0,1,9,10,5,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,2,3,3,5,7,0,8,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,5,5,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.2111468489499026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893476886701094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18075017628293927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14291098106035666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21165232109746324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11304489829317535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3826722577287487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440758718162584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282921070304756,0.2114158473543644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20897242529699275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22012705712522154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13861278001565416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444376017420696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18333041562317434,0.0,0.21399641595954969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248922785293647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4312417623670443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616764910128428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17852870547740135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,UbiSergei,2019/07/07,"If you have no personal dreams (REM stage), can't imagine things and have working memory problems check out your time budget -- things you have not completed [in the past]! (The advice is, probably, only applicable to those who have no apparent underlying medical problems.) If you are able to talk to the inner self («the Universe», «God») ask ""How much «time» can I release from [some unfinished business]."" I mean unfinished tasks. ~~Don't ask how much time you owe.~~ **** The post is probably gonna get deleted for ""delusion"" but hey, good game.",3.5814539007092208,6.756322712765961,4.035212765957446,80.0841666666667,82.51063829787232,7.81418439716312,29.109929078014183,8.59863814320734,3.0583503546099293,421,20,69,11,12,132,69,94,0.052000000000000005,0.887,0.061,0.4482,2,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,5,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,0,10,1,0,2,0,13,16,6,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,2,2,3,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,7,1,8,15,3,9,0,0,0,0,13,4,0,3,3,45,11,1,0.1811873297098601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17705416160912474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33877138957417396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18997146796758335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09466290154214928,0.0,0.0,0.1519713357859978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19736611893986195,0.0,0.18252717280882447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663870700362022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378011288581208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17296380798175753,0.0,0.15820578758154974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735273770581192,0.0,0.3907011728664827,0.34674360929793024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18901790037569333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456315123667186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24074562177317926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169553670711831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13190653395946006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lord_Webthryst,2019/07/07,"Havent been able to take my meds and am currently having a meltdown. I apologize in advance for any spastic typing. My brain isnt all there right now. I take vraylar and fluoxetine daily and lorazepam as needed but lately the bills have been so ridiculous and im just a substitute at my job and havent been working much so the paychecks have been crap. My meds are cheap for the most part but that doesnt help when you have negative money. I havent taken my meds in weeks now and i feel things starting to come back. I have been doing so good lately the meds have been helping so much i have been asymptomatic for months but today i feel anxious about everything, more depressed than i have been in a long time, and my vision is dimming and getting wavy, my mind is racing at top speed thing about everything at once yet not being able to focus on anything at all. I cried 3 times in one hour. I had a growing pit feeling in my stomach until i threw up but now i feel it coming back. I just dont know what to do. I wont be able to have my meds til near the end of the month",2.382240398293028,4.100436887387392,3.477652916073968,90.94039118065436,76.52252252252252,6.115125651967758,23.395922238027506,6.8360192770164,0.6435549549549546,847,26,180,8,19,273,122,222,0.11800000000000001,0.804,0.078,-0.9166,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,3,16,4,2,0,10,0,33,3,3,0,2,27,47,20,0,1,7,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,10,0,0,5,0,3,5,9,3,0,1,11,4,24,1,27,33,7,42,0,1,0,0,4,14,1,1,23,135,29,3,0.3160993669151373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0716528030038188,0.0,0.0,0.11903410350216055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08670761518653035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16204060100550896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176238112714898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18152774349775447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11574010389116668,0.0,0.0,0.09075197384635604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12348870127976627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09332340527466294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18939315251899014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21310578351409296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05504962423097252,0.0,0.0,0.08837638391184452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14124982836968716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10376473434760217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11381385306401595,0.0,0.10455994891027133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057906648447982274,0.0,0.2377159027997145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932459975509712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.585191895235687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10639008359465156,0.0,0.1682049992718616,0.0,0.15491293702795725,0.07812789176234651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11221183646576836,0.07139903724587078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410160357021933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998237740264317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07457891961901564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15844492324572582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14000158243580127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122880055234659,0.0,0.09987507976890332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451861510647897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07670803461316998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,toxicistoxic,2019/07/07,"I don't want to go to a doctor I feel like something isn't right. I constantly feel watched through my head or just watched in general, I can't trust people that fast anymore even though I always trusted everyone pretty fast and I'm paranoid over little things, I'm having the urge to hurt myself and I feel like people I know in real life are watching me literally all the time but they won't tell me anything... And at the same time I think it might just be my imagination and I'm overreacting but I don't want to go to a doctor because what if they say it's nothing and I'll keep feeling like something isn't right? People just wouldn't take me seriously anymore if that happened",3.490987573577499,5.081052971223024,4.6187573577501615,84.45513407455856,73.24460431654677,7.068933943754089,28.463701765860037,7.686295010490155,1.7008215827338136,549,22,109,7,11,180,80,139,0.063,0.823,0.114,0.753,0,0,2,0,0,2,7.0,0,0,2,0,5,7,0,0,5,0,11,4,1,0,1,29,27,11,0,5,8,0,4,3,0,3,3,1,0,0,6,5,0,1,7,0,0,2,7,2,0,0,0,8,17,5,10,23,2,14,0,1,3,0,4,7,0,4,8,66,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11696901458319588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788237113072368,0.0,0.0,0.1156806077112412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08569274149084159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519107950007903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877673474679041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284794840995388,0.0,0.0,0.13432469411580455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28431420343711744,0.3012787586912197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597831407676998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243093210189133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14426970831552166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15048761299361185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249488282706551,0.0,0.0,0.07725591654865861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09929173087754266,0.2060323938289363,0.14089230147610252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14912703569100766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13488475813901354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29236939855103977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14301452199090048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600042412252113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400992364706865,0.0,0.11179026425202153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164418091808784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10569432091054597,0.0,0.12286806683666918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09339126731757247,0.09007428586840396,0.13811346022265394,0.0,0.163939919631701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.165828637587127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Amatarasudayo,2019/07/07,"So, for me, my episodes are often exactly like the movie Interstellar. I start seeing “patterns” in the various colors and shapes of things. For example, I see objects that represent various entities and I move them around like toy soldiers. My rolling papers become small angels, the color I’m wearing becomes the element I represent that day (i.e. red means I’m fire) and pennies I find on the ground give me good luck (kind of like the coin tosses in Bioshock Infinite). My reflection is not merely a reflection, but is actually me in a different dimension. Things like that. Lol",6.083846153846152,8.156432769230769,6.61269230769231,70.80730769230772,67.46153846153847,10.96923076923077,36.07692307692308,10.9516,4.755811538461538,464,24,74,15,8,151,71,104,0.0,0.845,0.155,0.9209,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,0,3,7,0,0,8,1,3,1,1,0,1,13,10,5,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,4,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,12,7,9,10,2,12,1,0,5,0,2,8,0,2,7,47,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.20519871946462387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871899256657762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4644659098576915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13561041027154638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21969331830078606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19218815120546148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20171558139633014,0.0,0.17636925396554362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189697502652884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4109202800552991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290518470174915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223489757542418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3351249660334053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488342001850017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27939562081232105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RandomKevin,2019/07/07,Did any of you schizophrenic go to jail before? What was it like? Just curios how they treat schizophrenic people in jail. Share your stories please. Was just curious if i went to jail what will happen to me. I went to jail before but at that time i didn't know i was schizophrenia and was treated like any other inmate would get treated.,2.70501098901099,5.346410753846154,2.917582417582416,90.68384615384615,79.92307692307692,5.560439560439562,20.05494505494506,6.868970318607317,0.4017252747252749,269,7,51,3,7,82,44,65,0.0,0.8170000000000001,0.183,0.8446,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,1,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,1,0,9,14,4,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,8,0,8,6,7,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,3,34,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3722600755360278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4658087246606741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14300052765109272,0.0,0.1555539053842077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420380556702649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504221218263801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267438674207752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897538607262116,0.0,0.0,0.3004479189262045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15960066014824115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.507457967736488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944334868975872,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,snakes_guts,2019/07/07,"(Inoffensive) Characters with Schizophrenia? I really enjoy media and content: tv, comic books, movies. The sorts. I’m also a diagnosed schizophrenic which is what brings me here. Can anyone redirect me to some good and respectful depictions of schizophrenia in media. I recognize I put “characters” in the beginning but I’m always up for biographical portrayal as well (for example: Brian Wilson in Love and Mercy). Oh also no offensive portrayals: so no Joker, Mad Hatter, Norman Bates etc etc. Let me know if you guys have any answers.",4.910649350649352,8.342009175824177,6.30889110889111,64.56565434565434,78.12087912087912,10.342057942057943,29.151848151848153,10.018931242160765,4.570178021978023,429,19,57,16,11,144,72,91,0.135,0.7070000000000001,0.158,0.1327,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,0,5,7,2,0,3,0,4,3,0,0,0,10,10,9,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,2,3,0,2,2,2,1,0,0,0,7,5,10,9,3,7,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,3,1,41,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3963622609360217,0.20620564087630908,0.0,0.0,0.16852572905521346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17328112663346254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515315326007842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5527684060088641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20785920306862612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453802248464561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13619509269330407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534121853710572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236667357307434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491270027797773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15875949012617718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228194540329525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Flimmm,2019/07/07,"Schizophrenia, marijuana and addiction? Hi, I have a big problem, I used to smoke weed all the time and loved it I’ve been smoking for 15 years. I got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia and was told not to smoke anymore, I love love smoking weed... is it worth it? Even every now and then?",3.5950909090909065,5.884098327272731,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727274,74.81818181818181,6.581818181818183,29.181818181818183,7.554174236665415,1.761836363636364,228,10,44,3,5,70,40,55,0.075,0.6890000000000001,0.23600000000000002,0.9009,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,4,5,0,1,1,9,10,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,4,3,4,6,1,5,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,4,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27558148866077564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25070255111017903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565793922066055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16696727421487104,0.0,0.21298885467259068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021815121266652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6844661722995125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24188858941154084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14740552691078973,0.0,0.0,0.2415543737944113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21833183251769114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627902886737894 schizophrenia,HerbOfHealing420,2019/07/07,Anyone else get stuck in THE LOOP when they dropped LSD. I dont need to explain this if youve experieced this.,2.3408695652173925,4.12321026086957,2.2341304347826103,99.52771739130438,76.82608695652173,4.6000000000000005,24.54347826086957,3.1291,-0.10393913043478252,88,3,20,0,2,26,22,23,0.095,0.905,0.0,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321010148748226,0.4866496287957939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5566461290143511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3967656727618129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24814545714949854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3521746367632112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,StrayFellow,2019/07/07,"If a schizophrenic person gets told to hurt someone, who's to say they won't act on it? My friend got recently diagnosed with schizophrenia, and I've been reading and learning a lot about the illness. I still hang out with him, and I don't want to leave him. However, if he suddenly heard voices telling him that he had to hurt me. Could he act on it? I've read that most schizophrenics aren't violent and are more capable of harming themselves opposed to others. But, is there a chance that he might attack me? Also, what should I do in such a situation to convince him that I'm not a threat if he does somehow think I am? It hasn't happened yet, as I've only been with him twice after he got diagnosed, but I'd be lying if I didn't say I'm slightly scared because sometimes I try to talk to him and it's like he's not there. It's heartbreaking but I still want to be there for him.",4.078351449275363,4.5427220163043485,5.011739130434783,86.44123188405798,70.68478260869566,8.307246376811595,29.46376811594203,8.344100000000001,1.8895485507246368,697,26,151,10,12,228,104,184,0.12300000000000001,0.773,0.10400000000000001,-0.6665,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,0,10,11,3,1,6,0,17,5,0,0,0,29,28,14,0,8,9,0,0,1,1,3,5,4,0,1,12,9,0,1,2,2,0,3,7,8,0,1,8,4,18,3,21,14,3,13,0,3,0,0,24,4,0,8,7,101,30,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679496761588258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803771983836477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966525826058742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265918594188379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218563992966797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13875100756061726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224978388255154,0.0,0.08283752311913824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536190180271663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020810525410413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394690423711184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16788498638533642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07746110354113456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13479629353086456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16819993018235635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205868826294668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13844257225237114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31719229069416266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565521951013692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521757983739097,0.1587394516636554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782204832942716,0.0,0.0,0.13434164453171754,0.0,0.15681320716029268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532416422974196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12743908728787118,0.13858251904362795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10159451318862853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15150441412151722,0.0,0.10764724129397976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18703761618505726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,abus3thrwy,2019/07/07,"I can’t deal with this anymore I miss my old friends before I knew their bad intentions and I miss being able to smoke weed safely or without getting paranoid, and I’ve always suffered with mental health issues for a portion of my life. From major depression doubled with anxiety, to just anxiety, and now to psychosis, plus all the self-loathing. Like I just need an actual fucking break. I don’t want to die but I wish I had a lot of money. If I had a lot of money, I could do anything, and I know it. I’m so alone out here",1.8941666666666641,3.8357326759259287,3.5905185185185218,88.55633333333336,78.72222222222223,6.171851851851853,25.61481481481481,7.1686216300943375,1.2047414814814816,411,16,84,5,10,137,75,108,0.172,0.7120000000000001,0.11599999999999999,-0.5821,0,2,1,0,0,1,12.0,0,0,1,0,5,9,1,0,5,0,7,3,0,1,1,26,17,9,1,5,6,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,9,0,1,2,0,2,0,3,6,0,0,3,0,14,3,15,12,6,4,0,4,0,1,3,1,1,4,3,59,16,0,0.1928494590351146,0.0,0.18819325314936255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19973387920659916,0.0,0.0,0.16046619876527524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950586166193621,0.0,0.19125484316735675,0.0,0.0,0.1586986729470717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102124296703535,0.0,0.0,0.16410068560506516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153974600736237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988193242738734,0.1661009564818637,0.0,0.20014729147548285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489950136667626,0.1782862173431809,0.10075588277795754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20498995690706331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20128473137022845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10598501923663768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13621527615256968,0.09421650448211732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279074274194748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943468960305516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14299543028791487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023630664865677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011840446778324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11374760749610335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217673604793637,0.18589999666085635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cyanide_Skull,2019/07/07,"How to help my friend with schizophrenia For privacy purposes, let’s call her Eve. My and eve have been tight for plenty of years now. She’s been having issues with mental health for a while. Last time I went to her house, her mother told me she has schizophrenia. While I was at her house, eve told me she was scared that I was gonna die (a classmate had died about a week prior due to suicide). I had to go home because of it. She also told me she believed she was missing half of her brain because of a parasite. A couple of days later I guess she had a delusion of me threatening to tell her parents of the knife she had in her room if she didn’t let me hit her vape, which I did not do. I knew she had a knife in her room, but it was too dull. Looking back on it I should have told her parents either way. But how can I talk to her? I want to let her know that I would never do that to her. I miss the old eve I used to know. Is there any way I can help her through this?",2.3227172195892583,2.9679125829383928,3.4296492890995265,95.52794944707745,74.82938388625594,6.384960505529226,22.12353870458136,6.079149491110277,0.0371836334913116,749,17,184,4,15,242,108,211,0.081,0.8740000000000001,0.044000000000000004,-0.7476,2,0,0,0,0,1,21.0,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,1,9,0,28,2,1,3,1,20,45,9,3,4,5,3,1,0,1,3,1,0,3,0,8,3,0,1,3,0,0,2,3,4,0,1,20,2,45,1,27,18,1,28,0,3,1,0,37,6,0,2,18,134,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09599886297983408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08163379800055927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09230615646444383,0.0,0.14635498882474834,0.0,0.0,0.13524808489810586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13400841344449504,0.12257798762654636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13282601469094382,0.0,0.0774182228393676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491727110642752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09274542567305658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06822357230786921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13224161355180344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12760078571869835,0.0,0.0,0.16092545543724462,0.0,0.1204135680153166,0.0,0.0,0.2770285078616583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252943815567644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319457004924161,0.09785159619724187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682582938659217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008064316518196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209757639333114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09258506280141084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12596561643182386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665885326935348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201846347397498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13130826846861682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648653813994906,0.1049234406319059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06999841727607711,0.0,0.0,0.4588274050797496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10367917022862497,0.0,0.0,0.07080485458468222,0.19057012249511693,0.09629177455237313,0.0,0.0,0.11128166557298608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527556424678087,0.0,0.0,0.07730417436774463 schizophrenia,LankySchool5,2019/07/21,"Anyone just bored? I'm not sure if it's the anhedonia from the meds or just going from believing aliens are trying to communicate with you to normal life, but is anyone else just super bored?",7.4237837837837874,7.072776918918918,7.889864864864865,71.4466891891892,63.59459459459461,10.643243243243244,26.60810810810811,10.125756701596842,2.3641459459459457,154,3,28,3,2,51,30,37,0.14300000000000002,0.731,0.126,0.4641,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,1,3,4,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,10,4,3,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,5,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,18,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4576437277003016,0.3353078434433889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3687003859475575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733766435111245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18598457390049708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311474185621423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3635026525789633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3206369964384465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084306740744729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22218229304490825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kirillmarasin,2019/07/21,"Antipsychotic high? Has anyone experienced this? I've been on countless antipsychotics and every time experienced this sort of situational high, mostly while being around people or in public places. I would feel immense joy from being around people and crave social interaction. I would also feel lonely when alone, something I've never experience when untreated. Since antipsychotics make you normal, is this how normal people feel?",9.102696078431377,12.630708191176472,8.091764705882357,57.23460784313729,62.67647058823529,9.827450980392157,28.98039215686275,10.125756701596842,3.898168627450982,359,12,41,9,6,111,49,68,0.07200000000000001,0.873,0.054000000000000006,0.212,0,3,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,2,1,17,11,8,0,4,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,3,1,6,6,1,12,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,3,5,29,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18896714718928448,0.0,0.1459082654110149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12757596324053658,0.0,0.0,0.32484519006157303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15372522460930327,0.0,0.0,0.17847486014030625,0.0,0.0,0.2767624223152049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3855449868029952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12178935120593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14071964497289388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575320380920877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3794715469744816,0.0,0.19062542357674636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15092769720029767,0.20508575432549453,0.0,0.185988707166764,0.0,0.14046187557054673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063902980644082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592199381321227,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,oliviapaigee,2019/07/21,"I’m not motivated So I have a pile of chores that need to be done and I’m not motivated at all. I have a mountain of laundry, rooms need cleaned, I haven’t showered in days, etc. What can I do to motivate myself. I feel like shit, and I have been sleeping way too much again.",0.4107344632768388,2.3179202711864413,2.645,93.613488700565,83.57627118644069,5.967231638418079,23.39265536723164,7.1686216300943375,0.6850655367231635,212,8,51,3,6,72,41,59,0.151,0.759,0.09,-0.5362,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,3,2,1,0,2,0,9,2,2,3,1,11,14,3,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,1,7,1,6,11,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,36,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133610836279913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33855887475090585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36896826617618217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16728002076962947,0.2363484548763182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616291774019358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432016522142608,0.4906196403000354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3395971789715233,0.0,0.0,0.3310737356553454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26260127365001484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AngeryMangery,2019/07/21,"Living alone with schizophrenia? Does anyone manage this? Im 28, been diagnosed since 23, but struggling since I was 16 and Ive always lived with my parents. Ive been doing okay for a while now so im taking living alone into consideration since my new work will be too far away from my house, Im too scared to drive and public transport is unreliable. Im afraid my supporting family wont be there if I get psychotic again, that loneliness will drive me crazy or that I wont be able to take care of myself. How do you manage?",2.9878511530398306,4.818180405660378,4.36559748427673,84.74093291404613,75.13207547169812,7.352620545073376,21.211740041928717,8.167268648758528,1.0043387840670863,417,10,84,7,9,138,74,106,0.165,0.743,0.092,-0.8121,1,2,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,7,6,0,3,1,1,15,1,0,1,0,10,20,8,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,3,0,12,3,9,10,0,10,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,4,51,15,3,0.13753250177378473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28488438841059643,0.0,0.0,0.11443805897479475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09616592303017507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12921631270958184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14022355161912448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959259426397258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12035561911741326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965340259311967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07185505573212693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586940415797933,0.0,0.0,0.5942348104459346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.364331156335471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13282974723238494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527135673455331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13769402701447994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413049200667988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437788323615596,0.0,0.0,0.15607025317900794,0.0,0.0,0.20681465040570854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001252992955058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Drunk_Seal,2019/07/21,"Had a delusion that the war started again Im from croatia, where about 25 ish years ago there was a horrible war after the breakup of yugoslavia. Even tho i personaly wasnt there to expirience it. Everyone over 30 has been telling me stories about it everywhere. Today i thought it started again despite no proff of that. This is the idk which time it happened...help..",4.388695652173915,6.679667217391309,4.286304347826088,84.81467391304352,72.47826086956522,8.078260869565218,34.68840579710145,8.841846274778883,3.178814492753624,294,16,54,6,6,90,53,69,0.177,0.7959999999999999,0.026000000000000002,-0.8959,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,9,2,2,0,5,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,9,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,0,3,0,8,4,0,11,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,9,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2987765673879354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22261989514570332,0.0,0.0,0.32206795983801473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22591908218589624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640743712192857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4771347693717856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945986058320074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675819129253877,0.19653793295174027,0.0,0.3194862126922921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170506595721259 schizophrenia,best_laidplans,2019/07/21,"I think I burned some bridges while having an episode While I was switching to new anti-psychotics, I got really bad for about 6 months in my psychosis. I think I may have burned some bridges by creeping some people out. I'm better now, have a new job, ect. but some people who don't know I have schizophrenia have decided to cut me off from contact. I don't know if it's better to try to apologize and explain, since people get freaked out when they learn of my illness, or just let it be. It was a really scary/hard time for me and I was trying to reach out and ask people for help when mental health services said there was nothing more they could do because the resources to get me a regular Dr. were unavailable. I'm disappointed there's people I can't talk to anymore and places i'm too embarrassed to go now as a result of my few months mental health lapse. It also severely affected my ability to stay employed and some professional contacts. I'm still trying to rebuild.",5.077118373854122,6.030329896373061,5.48497409326425,82.18066161817458,68.68911917098445,8.425508170585891,30.39019529693105,8.617729084823388,2.284997130330809,782,30,150,12,13,250,112,193,0.128,0.794,0.078,-0.8921,2,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,2,2,11,7,1,1,6,0,18,4,0,2,0,28,33,14,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,5,8,0,0,7,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,7,1,19,2,24,22,7,20,0,1,0,0,11,6,0,8,12,99,24,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703276573503567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327345141962148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512346230687327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11175181818427306,0.08158835816796949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23674334408827785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10686131388263248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13985301424487626,0.0,0.07606504291586612,0.0,0.10704504071757492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989543333487933,0.0,0.0,0.28453389095462256,0.0,0.0,0.08971094051518473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13281674696849585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471112554063957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368617032669611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26976091588524514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136615507176504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25852934553536633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12842424885685255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4639432074669054,0.0,0.1398355757801474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714842101744056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12731363819919755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15120246872954576,0.0,0.11071483038923406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14265691965917426,0.10688576165139606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075764932287493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715200837153947,0.0,0.0,0.07804388474587938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726081841279201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,duckpondmurphy,2019/07/21,"the meds took my voices away, now i haven't got anyone to talk to are there any hearers of voices that have good stories to tell?",9.863333333333333,5.316141259259261,8.925185185185189,79.16333333333334,62.33333333333333,10.8,34.407407407407405,3.1291,1.9356962962962958,102,2,22,0,1,32,23,27,0.0,0.892,0.10800000000000001,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,5,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560165495209345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632407311720619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35371153902775765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31577015719876306,0.3011022014328453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4181798995857065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30259710040246524,0.3290565659368333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4182786223575599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,frencln,2019/07/21,"why do schizophrenics smoke? i myself included! it seems as if it's a bit of a meme, that so many schizophrenics smoke cigarettes. is it the calming sensation that nicotine can bring? does anyone know if there is a legitimate reason?",3.740714285714287,6.8562373571428585,3.9812380952380977,81.48042857142859,80.19047619047619,7.1695238095238105,27.447619047619053,8.238735603445708,2.4292419047619047,187,8,31,4,5,58,33,42,0.0,0.9109999999999999,0.08900000000000001,0.5472,0,0,3,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,1,0,5,7,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,7,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27475198554444463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4289874622695194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3438634422878061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159489199192959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.398378327453155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4040065895268449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35771677824281906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35456620128927285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DavisVDavid,2019/07/21,"Hi, my son is in the middle of a psychotic episode. He is really scared. How do I help him on the phone? Does anybody have any ideas?",-0.9403571428571418,1.1819042500000023,1.4685714285714295,97.00142857142859,95.78571428571428,5.6571428571428575,17.714285714285715,7.1686216300943375,0.2643285714285719,101,3,24,2,4,34,26,28,0.11699999999999999,0.7929999999999999,0.08900000000000001,-0.2151,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,0,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.325503832668781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4188768141206885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208343468132732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5403465843330281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066405515544839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4792201293319474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,psycho-sweetheart,2019/07/21,"Visual hallucinations? Hey guys, so I'm experiencing something a bit odd at the moment. Last year, I was seeing black bugs all over the room and on my skin and sometimes felt them on my face. The doctors sent me to an eye specialist who said it's probably visual migraines. I didn't experience it again, however, in the last week, I've been seeing things. Not the bugs this time, but blind spots in my vision, blurry vision and random shapes in my vision. I don't know whether what I'm experiencing are visual migraines or visual hallucinations. Can any of you shed any light? Btw I experience auditory hallucinations all the time and the medication I am on is making the voices quieter, but they aren't completely gone. Thanks.",5.6602222222222185,7.399791059259263,6.719444444444445,70.93250000000002,68.03703703703704,9.251851851851852,28.314814814814817,9.642632912329526,2.696348148148148,583,20,102,13,10,195,89,135,0.079,0.8640000000000001,0.055999999999999994,-0.4728,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,10,0,9,8,3,1,2,15,20,9,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,5,2,1,1,6,4,0,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,7,12,13,1,10,13,3,20,0,0,5,0,8,10,0,2,8,61,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27080371302240336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173769181833956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20876339944392275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037978662948812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38953623048214653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19117714757884752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19715053708185348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10942583367995276,0.3246029980768559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13290769563939894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005827164159239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21467461900187212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189399525689445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173303183583096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15328486458313914,0.1969252139011188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833140464056925,0.0,0.0,0.13228006010667326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232205676672343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597143016800478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282205285289625 schizophrenia,woozookazoo,2019/07/21,"Pretty sure I was borderline psychotic last night I just remember texting a guy that I’m supposed to have sex with “1+1+2+3+4+5” with a picture of me smiling, and I woke up this morning and I was like “oh my fucking god what’d I say???”",0.8992105263157909,1.1034672982456148,4.45872807017544,88.47651315789473,77.77192982456141,7.805263157894737,30.03947368421053,8.07648339933343,1.8776,184,9,47,3,4,70,43,57,0.0,0.703,0.297,0.9175,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,1,7,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,7,2,5,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,3,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385270990668566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3625753311973346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29848521154801544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17889683466196765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3436347077074609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3725362524707004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4148100546121277,0.0,0.0,0.29120068037431324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34511989805820004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SensualOwl,2019/07/21,"Might it be...? So I know there's something up with my psyche. But I don't know if it's schizophrenia, something else or just me making myself crazy. (I have considered bpd, maybe bipolar, cptsd and now scizophrenia). I feel there is something inside me, but I can keep it at bay. Mostly anyways. My psychiatrist at first (almost a year ago) asked me if I had experienced any psychotic symptoms. I told him a firm no. Because I thought psychosis was when you go full ""nuts"". I still don't quite comprehend what it means to be psychotic. I haven't had any experience where other people have seen me be crazy. (Not too much anyways) But alone at home I do some goofy(?) stuff sometimes. I'm really bad at expressing my thoughts... I'm quite unusual compared to other people. My delusions, if they are that. I think I can somewhat predict the future. I somewhat sometimes believe I have magical abilities - such as influencing reality with my thoughts. I used to constantly think other people can hear my thoughts (As a child to like 16-17 y). I also think I know what other people are thinking sometimes. I'm 19 now. I'm ""very smart"" - always sounds uppity when someone says that about themselves. And very mindful of my thoughts. I try to not lie to myself. So I don't really get into conspiracy theory type delusions. Mostly interpersonal kind? I have a lot of bpd symptoms, like fear of abandonment and generally feeling like people dislike me, even when they ""obviously"" don't. Only significant hallucination I've had sober is when I was 5-10 years old. I saw my dead father standing beside the bed in full size for like under 30 sec. I have had olfactory and auditory ones too. But they don't last for long and are more common when I'm going to bed (auditory). But I do sometimes hear voices (usually of people I know) during the day. I mistake sounds? I've been smoking weed daily for under a year. Now sober for 21 days, since I was recruited to the army. (Mandatory for all men in my country - either 8 or 11 months) Although my psychistrist told me I didn't have to go. Before coming here I had a 3-day night out (no sleep) involving mdma, amphetamine and ketamine. So most people would think this is drug induced. But I'm not so sure. I do daydream a lot, although less so now. I have stopped lot of my weird behaviours since people noticed them. I do zone out a lot though. Kind of like I stop being apart of society and instead become a spectator. At different times I have different thoughts when zoning out. Sometimes I have vivid images in my mind of me killing the people around me. I don't quite see it, but sense it - kind of like futuristic dynamism. Or like a slideshow. Sometimes I'm filled with love or sadness. Why I consider schizophrenia at all. Is mostly due to the way I think (again, result of drug use? Not sure, but I think I was this way before any drugs). Thoughts don't last in my head for very long. Short attention span. My way of thinking, for the most part, is very different from other people. Even in math class I would always come to solutions in a different manner than everyone else. My teachers often found my way of thinking interesting. I constantly feel like I'm supressing the crazy within me. I do it because of other people. I try to seem normal. But I feel anything but. Except for sometimes. Sometimes I feel perfectly(?) normal. I can socialize without too many weird thoughts. But if I was to let go, I would act like a maniac. Since my psychologist (here in the military) keeps normalizing my thoughts and experiences, I'm starting to think that maybe there's nothing wrong with me. That I'm just imagining or making it up. But that doesn't make sense either. Wtf is going on",2.896984352773828,5.524183058321484,4.144871977240396,82.26646870554765,79.01422475106685,7.043243243243244,26.42745376955904,8.142894201729593,2.0125180654338544,2922,119,530,57,74,955,304,703,0.115,0.795,0.09,-0.9644,4,1,6,0,0,0,127.0,0,1,4,5,39,29,2,1,21,0,57,9,2,8,6,127,123,46,2,11,31,1,5,9,0,4,6,6,3,2,24,19,0,5,34,0,0,9,17,10,0,2,26,16,86,19,70,88,22,80,0,2,4,1,19,30,0,25,45,356,110,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040021207890990916,0.0,0.045209460162504635,0.04675998076263477,0.0,0.03610504675129768,0.07513393718805307,0.0,0.0,0.09210709382824643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03715317062652615,0.04019152287592703,0.04220752799621549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03769691077659371,0.05504391979010419,0.04986270541734247,0.07683568689006366,0.05086662775678251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11372530451441888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07778245559068321,0.0,0.09757845845284484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735067692223347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886812871316548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15707294193109486,0.0,0.07543115490449692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0596399990948993,0.0,0.0,0.04314109666762635,0.0,0.08832732198063145,0.0,0.0508043438174459,0.1141415825958012,0.06450785110986335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03840308640369525,0.0,0.04950273611988026,0.0,0.0,0.02358810212435867,0.0,0.1282939813690079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04633513944416174,0.0,0.10177073929713812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04528738536827077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08025969482995818,0.049949859783646015,0.14104489377227844,0.0992492106060075,0.07360371458009171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04616715415117376,0.0,0.198514431259534,0.0,0.0,0.07990957771815296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15353374258755306,0.04074806683763533,0.0,0.09041044124636054,0.045773248758367885,0.09071498986372437,0.04917969018062365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04789516853063404,0.09117374339633573,0.0,0.03603690993425565,0.0,0.033189165503366834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042368583044263324,0.13270712506284513,0.0433209725744681,0.05140159259706755,0.04737550351281141,0.0,0.030593629033146538,0.034337285751905346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048891165292516914,0.0,0.3443013022891955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440621939257262,0.0,0.0,0.05784626215100772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03590370801394226,0.0,0.0,0.03597731739761152,0.04110127973132744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11204132023910154,0.0,0.045180864958938236,0.04602296483035627,0.038253973699949165,0.1042720075513974,0.3572222640819757,0.0,0.031956170398487735,0.0,0.036055458297930235,0.07549193297061864,0.0,0.0,0.051683955416257116,0.0,0.0,0.08510340040246793,0.09385265700664752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28929181633319745,0.044357935655740484,0.3225840738720382,0.02632631314394319,0.0,0.0,0.08628219333525271,0.0,0.06130540908124365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07798720051562688,0.04972442925961235,0.14900816933849112,0.0,0.14334634741522048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04073928176936749,0.0,0.0,0.043521310967199744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09621608438800178,0.049362534189750125,0.0,0.08722199647940178 schizophrenia,bluamazeren,2019/07/21,"How many here are pagan? I find that it helps in that's more expressive and less scary, if you will. It's a plus, imo.",-1.8761538461538485,0.0006371538461564796,0.10653846153846304,105.87596153846157,100.53846153846158,4.138461538461539,10.346153846153848,5.985473137389443,-1.5635846153846154,90,1,24,1,4,29,23,26,0.114,0.784,0.102,-0.079,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6010289086915435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4407713277857391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6666969982826149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RC-inmyass,2019/07/21,"Sister with schizo Hi guys, My family and I are having a hard time dealing with this issue. We have no one to talk to for help. My sister, 30, has been having symptom of schizophrenia. We discovered 4 months ago that she had been prescribed with antipsychotic meds but she has stopped taking them. Despite continual efforts to get her to see a doctor or take her meds, she continues to neglect us. She has since lost her job, our grandma passed away when she heard terrible things my sis was saying, shes losing grip of reality. The future is scary, and we dont know what to do. If you could tell me what to do to get her to take meds or any intervention, we would totally do it if law permits. Please, I dont know what else to do but I continue to beg her every day to fix her ways. She doesnt have any friend, doesnt have any family. It breaks my hurt everytime I think about her future... Thanks...",4.499953445065176,5.275218581005589,5.257667597765362,83.93592411545626,69.89385474860336,8.648230912476723,26.089851024208564,8.841846274778883,1.6982845437616394,702,20,146,12,12,228,111,179,0.16699999999999998,0.8079999999999999,0.025,-0.9802,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,6,1,1,3,2,7,0,0,3,0,25,2,0,1,1,25,37,9,0,4,6,3,2,0,1,1,2,2,0,1,8,9,0,2,3,0,0,1,5,5,0,1,6,5,31,2,20,29,1,15,0,4,1,0,34,1,0,4,11,98,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11589751540800178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667331619580747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12283919067273165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10438920910444542,0.0,0.0,0.08431968080580986,0.13479230935745784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338230033122317,0.0,0.0,0.3064642310103134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092206344895859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11015826499658082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465094183317252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101013229213193,0.0,0.13661768714475894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945806281768618,0.0,0.0,0.11712180026917045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08763558848510561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399651802700799,0.0,0.0,0.13646376618006625,0.12974419523883346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14370801784359838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627016327340375,0.14272356493453076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4356845176318761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043593770517443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08859616636043516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435187004739715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10397363727962287,0.0,0.0,0.10418680287675372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815357925655568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10930863816596163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13589407135258402,0.2949118080648184,0.10508784365792814,0.11427685496586786,0.1203723899828864,0.0,0.0,0.08686113963619142,0.08377608899813598,0.0,0.0,0.07623843567007567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15727008469831116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10377926094514577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928774659777844,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Belsoe,2019/07/21,"Deprived life (no friends, career, love...): how common is this for schizophrenics? Hi. I have a relative who is a diagnosed schizophrenic. He was kind of depressed and an outsider as a kid already. And got psychotic at 18 following 3 months of pot smoking. Never recovered, skip the meds and psychosis resurfaces. He is 35 now. What makes me so sad for him is how he never got into a peer group. Has no friendships, never held a job and never had a romantic experience. I once asked him and he answered in a way suggesting that he considers these things as way out of his reality. He is not katatonic and reasonably approachable, so I wonder if this is a common variant of schizophrenia consequences. There are other issues there. Emotional neglect, a very weird emotional situation in the family imho, alcoholism, poverty and he may have been molested. Anyway I am trying to help him out low level practically. But would also like to understand if this total absence of even trying for such basic things is a known variant of his condition?",5.34959677419355,7.828874215053768,6.199663978494628,71.31949596774196,70.29032258064515,9.811290322580646,33.13037634408602,10.125756701596842,4.104398924731182,828,40,128,24,16,272,123,186,0.145,0.782,0.073,-0.9373,1,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,0,11,11,1,0,13,0,17,6,0,4,5,31,26,17,0,3,4,0,0,1,1,2,5,0,0,1,10,10,1,2,5,0,0,2,7,7,0,0,6,0,10,4,19,18,1,20,0,5,0,1,21,8,0,4,9,98,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572845403548929,0.0,0.0,0.1624104710829742,0.1176952137479632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13758807912661622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267609865426005,0.14937879011937807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33110249827633464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09720721994564678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439646805044221,0.1387428073555002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11370647901349855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354174230927193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09864781356396628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361170498279722,0.14604775758540808,0.0,0.0,0.15325935858713374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103953542189011,0.07190191621836066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13283052835541365,0.0,0.0982399707242739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16347744035274964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11747310138508198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4540394924706422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567357985649906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15131966551627446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654300503402404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955520960583489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19984334255055256,0.0,0.0,0.15321360961714153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12143418938971515,0.0,0.2336401766107364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15960422212254158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045483816158464,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zonta1,2019/07/21,"Do you think I have schizophrenia? I went through psychosis 8 months ago, I have been medicated since my episode, the only thing is I have not had one positive symptoms since my episode building up I was depressed and paranoid for like 3-4 years, my doctor is starting to think I had psychotic depression as I still am depressed but we don’t know yet, yet I have a blank mind and apathy like schizophrenics have? I’m just looking for a second opinion because I’ve seen people on medication that still get positive symptoms but I’m free is this a good sign that I don’t have schizophrenia or could I still have it and is this just my medication working very well?",6.182734374999999,6.8340580546875,5.953125000000004,80.87937500000002,66.109375,8.9,35.53125,8.841846274778883,2.96254375,533,25,101,8,8,166,78,128,0.134,0.74,0.126,0.4822,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,1,0,1,8,8,0,0,4,0,20,7,0,0,0,17,30,7,0,1,6,0,0,2,0,0,7,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,3,0,1,1,3,3,1,2,6,2,16,6,7,23,0,12,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,2,11,70,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13449128616515724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248755795060998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113666927885752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3920305661330433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15529261149893053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792678272365239,0.0,0.0,0.12725616259104924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08338175362945058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14824618462380262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740721398101473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4585280663641659,0.0,0.0,0.15319470175993224,0.0,0.12110205118439195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10280990339758828,0.1153904633956298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051840611819856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510099362591716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10738872423620714,0.0,0.3634931489052639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153918938484306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10079652136042384,0.19443305440296055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125185504133425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364151707129589,0.1406466506699847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045450936882144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09770318544073904 schizophrenia,ThisGirlsThrowaway26,2019/07/21,I made it I made it through 3 days of work without getting anxious/paranoid anf having to call off!! Little victory!,3.766363636363636,6.097911090909097,4.790909090909089,80.30636363636366,74.45454545454545,6.218181818181819,38.27272727272727,7.1686216300943375,3.1514727272727283,92,6,15,1,2,30,19,22,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,5,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,10,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3754693712822231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33937416556387595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21434309115594052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736430753137123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.333109526747781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6289694019257867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.320380768159593,0.0,0.2419602171236513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,slopcrusher,2019/07/21,"Terrified that I have schizophrenia So I don’t know why, but this has always been almost a phobia of mine, I have been diagnosed with S.A.D and anxiety, but sometimes something will happen and it’ll make me think, “ I’m loosing my mind”, it almost come in periods for a short time, last time was 3 years ago, like I’ll see something in the corner of my eye and get myself worked up into thinking that I’m schizophrenic, and that I did see or hear something that wasn’t there or I’ll legitimately hear someone talking outside my house or a sudden noise, and think “ was that an auditory hallucinations?” So my question is; 1) is it normal to see shadows in the corner of your eye, or see out if focus things in the corner of your eye as something else? ( for example a dark trash can down a alley as a “ shadow person”) and then have it go away when you look at it Side note: I have always had almost irrational anxiety, an example of thus is like I’ll work myself up into thinking I hit a parked car if I’m driving at night, I’m going to see my councillor soon about this to try and figure out some coping techniques.",9.488738738738741,6.201285891891893,9.550720720720722,70.52265765765769,61.7027027027027,12.209009009009009,37.729729729729726,9.994966539143718,3.5726000000000004,876,29,170,13,9,292,123,222,0.06,0.909,0.031,-0.6226,0,0,4,0,0,0,22.0,0,3,0,2,6,2,0,0,12,0,19,5,3,2,0,36,43,21,0,3,8,0,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,1,13,13,0,0,7,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,7,11,18,2,28,33,1,35,0,0,9,0,8,19,0,11,13,111,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245117413499666,0.0,0.3471980871947097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19233702549077505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768306880285864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858748153409674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995585131272686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730723415706755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09654893984426886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06038370368128635,0.0,0.13136903875074726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10220349863916242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26052516360770656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13335921717830568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06351756165289285,0.0942098874172793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292921726609847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09705475378973197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07714789522746901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11669883985860645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10846027164257617,0.1132399669678543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091652846427143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12947160062407426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4604956476641565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09792719229174758,0.3559042872852647,0.11430764559269682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09289563225033874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07678357651675165,0.2962258043956108,0.0,0.0,0.13478662111293882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07846853546133921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042893873182602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16828144775780188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07442717183060349 schizophrenia,Rhys345,2019/07/21,"PSA: Stopping medication is a horrible way to confirm your diagnosis I did this and I had symptoms again after only a couple days. It was not a good idea. I was paranoid, hearing things, and I was scared. Stay on your meds!",0.7004983388704318,3.1755474883720964,2.9964119601328885,84.52093023255817,97.3720930232558,5.247840531561463,24.74750830564784,6.868970318607317,1.4816205980066446,174,8,32,3,7,59,34,43,0.29100000000000004,0.7090000000000001,0.0,-0.8933,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,6,2,0,0,0,5,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,1,6,1,3,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31042983990015405,0.0,0.1809353881263285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353170332270741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31620696364536405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167135360009263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116344311909209,0.28263061956092583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133754543284238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808854651517507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990353303858713,0.0,0.23455734987502386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916050714289775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18638891730821894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22269226684833066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shartattack88,2019/07/21,"Any good tips for coping with irrational fears? Thanks to all of the people that responded to my last post. Unfortunately I passed out before you commented. Really good to know that there are some decent people out there though. I just tried to watch adaptation but I couldn’t handle the voice over. I also couldn’t watch the scenes where they were wading through the water in a Florida swamp because I’m terrified of alligators. And the scene where he goes to NYC because sky scrapers freak me out now. I have an extreme fear of heights these days, I can’t go to arenas any more and if I look directly down from a few stories up my vision gets weird and I freak out for a second. There are more but those are the most relevant ones. Has anyone successfully dealt with these kinds of things? Also do you think Adaptation is a good movie? I am not sure about it because some aspects seem very profound and all but then other parts of it are annoying. Mostly the voice over and general exaggeration of the main character. I think they made him too self involved and painfully awkward.",4.6105882352941165,6.751778882352943,4.765490196078432,82.26970588235295,71.45098039215686,8.133333333333335,26.215686274509807,8.841846274778883,2.02296862745098,868,29,160,17,17,271,131,204,0.17,0.755,0.07400000000000001,-0.9697,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,2,1,12,15,1,3,13,0,13,2,0,1,3,33,23,14,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,9,12,1,0,4,0,0,2,4,8,0,2,2,5,18,7,28,19,11,20,0,0,3,0,10,13,0,6,4,117,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564938421108801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181126509765577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121336371191325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932781094785487,0.0,0.13646208989434888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10342464904837984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3609191100463117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08378611144940719,0.0,0.09114132001464807,0.4035293785584441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16699949161757366,0.0881345325840487,0.13072202673163544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13466945420642384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15174489484482026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10867009131548472,0.0,0.17064377608494485,0.0,0.0,0.17366384978721922,0.0,0.2223591532690428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358903981240435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273639951963144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14599378899271626,0.16729969828528046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15114575461078075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14764610195532116,0.0,0.0,0.10654194604347243,0.20551578280360472,0.157561592743806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10887993045502883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13232110639132655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheSalmon0fKnowledge,2019/07/21,"I used to shower everyday. Now my personal hygeine is a joke, does anyone who has the same problem know what works for them? It's lucky if I shower once a week. I wash my hair every 1-2 days but that's me leaning over the bath & only doing my hair not my body. &#x200B; I don't know what changed I used to love showers now it just seems like too much of an effort but I hate being like this. &#x200B; I was thinking of setting an alarm on my phone to ring every evening or setting up a reward so say if I shower I make myself a cup of tea after. They're two ideas I had does anyone else have ideas on how I can get my normal hygeine routine back. It's the same with brushing my teeth.",1.5258869701726852,3.182086476190477,2.9478911564625854,94.06789638932496,78.79591836734693,5.0672946101517535,22.192046049188903,5.369823440869387,0.021224385138670417,540,16,120,2,13,176,98,147,0.068,0.7909999999999999,0.141,0.8968,4,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,3,8,9,1,1,9,0,9,7,4,4,0,23,19,7,0,4,7,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,5,1,8,1,1,0,6,2,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,5,21,6,13,16,3,13,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,5,9,78,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4289525566743782,0.3207042046082704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18454620330677046,0.13521389172623338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10147305510119267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14658353292087192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13960163139734422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08510660494288508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23096718520327544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023994994150828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871617373889809,0.0,0.22237266200874126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689463445362007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13028826540391628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979451843845557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14504919118357826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12894301354762522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11910370069453498,0.0,0.08808776276245929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09700956980769948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12929782874933696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14053857852958498,0.0,0.10036544362100557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522687938486426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12627282685676106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494398446325692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12013611685649385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845579399955825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289107768656114,0.0,0.0,0.22795103937639802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10585448380908763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09607220134590544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207042046082704,0.0 schizophrenia,frost0r,2019/07/21,"Has anyone experienced induced meditation before So recently I was getting into spirituality and When I thought I wasn't going to be able to meditate because of the medication I woke up at 3am and tried to get back to sleep and I was thrown into meditation. By this I mean my pineal gland heated up, I got a buzzing in my ear, that wasn't tinnitus, because it was a different pitched to what I normally have. Then I saw a heap of light and a women's face poking out and 2 hands. &#x200B; I wasn't fully unstable at the time but I wasn't 100% from doing night shift and I think from a bit of mania. &#x200B; Now I would just chalk this up as being a bit unstable but I developed mental illness at 18 and I had a more powerful experience than the above at 7 Yo. Only It was more powerful. I was 7 and thought I was going to die because of how hot my pineal glad was getting, the buzz freaked me out even more, and I basically did a home alone eye cover, when the light popped up it quickly went away and was replaced by a shadow figure with a multi coloured aura. The aura I can't describe with words easily. But it was colourful, looked like it was living, the colours blended perfectly, they seemed to sme how flow into each other under, over, mix nut not mix? hard to describe. I also got the pleasure sensation... &#x200B; Please note EACH TIME this happened out of nowhere I WAS NOT TRYING TO DO IT. It just happened.",3.42902903671839,5.147765201413428,4.969826394223387,81.34679367030267,73.66431095406361,7.748594254109695,28.558764787217694,8.456263369488248,2.1505908434475343,1124,46,217,20,23,378,156,283,0.051,0.812,0.138,0.9759,3,1,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,1,3,12,5,0,0,18,0,25,8,5,3,1,40,43,21,1,2,7,0,3,1,0,1,3,1,1,1,13,20,0,0,7,0,0,4,7,1,0,0,24,13,26,4,40,16,7,32,0,0,6,0,2,18,0,1,11,155,39,1,0.1088961789463024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11278360001912485,0.0,0.08708423496025221,0.0,0.3539668931759269,0.3969623301015289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07614274028152954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231154476305848,0.08373443984973045,0.0,0.19914629984362608,0.0,0.09266262770074077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23777284709257615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11301704125684572,0.11377332962867075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07192489916970915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10652135854795283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17068127692621626,0.0,0.12377641601722453,0.0,0.17418844431724614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19259306281412286,0.0,0.09754958694651547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092317463348592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05320117247470013,0.0,0.09615732108006853,0.0,0.09144536411140353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11861986288129953,0.0,0.10970144382932948,0.10974173572324017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10219168711163554,0.10669513451935923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08282045113842075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195353035742383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10752183937655864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09913499145825992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897482246440213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06977627443380288,0.0,0.17290280452427798,0.12699647532692504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478667147432379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10094784886735417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0773567211394443,0.0,0.3969623301015289,0.0 schizophrenia,lovelightlinsley,2019/07/21,"A blank mind I’m finding this is more common in people with schizophrenia. Feeling as if your mind has been erased, or as though you can’t form a thought that has depth. My boyfriend says that he feels this way. And I genuinely wonder... he cannot seem to have a deep conversation with me. When I try to have them with him, he usually just stares at me. Do you think that one if capable of loving another if they cannot even form a thought with depth?",2.579917582417582,4.4713829670329694,2.980315934065935,93.95530906593409,76.47252747252746,6.747802197802199,23.46291208791209,7.645422480735847,0.8190978021978026,354,11,79,5,8,109,64,91,0.0,0.907,0.09300000000000001,0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,2,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,10,1,0,0,0,20,19,9,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,5,0,0,8,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,4,11,1,11,16,3,9,0,0,1,1,12,5,0,6,3,54,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24671357433168745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15540146812716213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23793118415740905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150433832788883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21235109007417236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4751352714105418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594330965539989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16311483649115682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187105600980895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21419179440261654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15075913366067473,0.2311632605166089,0.3735750758993409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15974095774552605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591297594231469,0.0,0.0,0.18675581134353728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551531712459737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,k43saturna,2019/04/24,am i showing precursors to schizophrenia? hi... so i am an 18 year old girl and recently ive been sort of freaking out. i have distanced myself from many of my friends and my grades have dropped significantly. i have no motivation to ever do anything and i have no concentration whatsoever. i spent MUCH of the day suffering with depersonalization and derealization. i used to smoke weed pretty regularly but i began having such awful panic attacks and dissociation that i had to stop. i dont know. maybe im being a hypochondriac. but i fit many of the “precursors” to schizophrenia. what were your first signs???? i’m just freaking out,2.96966304347826,6.056307547826087,4.65660326086957,74.47881793478264,86.56521739130434,7.396739130434782,27.1875,8.278499904357787,2.662750000000001,508,23,86,13,16,170,77,115,0.22399999999999998,0.701,0.07400000000000001,-0.9607,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,2,4,6,1,1,4,1,14,0,0,2,1,18,19,8,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,8,0,1,2,1,1,0,3,5,0,1,5,0,16,1,13,13,1,12,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,8,63,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869450234978476,0.0,0.0,0.2584434669491767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14650857584431753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662464895707435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20549208459139867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932342723127624,0.0,0.0,0.17551423596519128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453871368698227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12484900814653382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4606379978023428,0.2282270345397249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16699918796354407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383811251657095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26653999538115963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23111784855815806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22430713207135447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18992781699516825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19620558336030766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14629274708279494 schizophrenia,BrenTheElder,2019/04/24,"Thought it was the drugs. Thought I had HPPD from fake acid, turns out I triggered myself into a psychosis. My reality is slowly degrading and I only have myself to blame. Yes this probably would've happened anyway but probably not for a few years. I'm living in a nightmare and it's a drag. Planned first hospital visit in a few weeks with councilor but hoping to be whole enough by then to skip that trip. Much love for anyone in this situation nothing can define who you are. <3",3.9315322580645145,6.058596494623657,4.8039650537634415,81.32594758064519,73.3010752688172,7.230645161290322,27.75403225806452,8.07648339933343,1.9828935483870964,386,15,69,6,8,125,73,93,0.09,0.7909999999999999,0.12,0.705,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,2,1,4,0,0,6,1,7,2,0,1,0,12,14,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,4,1,7,2,13,9,5,11,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,1,4,52,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15096033425115496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25037219615800416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22307950896096224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836420384808874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909171710223196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144346227160812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19064117310818665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948556420584664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15870927519855174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071591754089961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16419954076331406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4655473702716624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24267748592071445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427965038746933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348341449487837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17317970211763312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410415011341873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15336716851280252,0.0,0.0,0.13903071110372062 schizophrenia,sandyloam333,2019/04/24,"mental health discord server hello! we have been running a discord for people to chat and make friends since the beginning of this year. we have been working on this server for a while, keeping it as active as possible! and it’s worked! it’s a pretty active server, with assignable roles, friendly environment and helpful admins. this is a safe place for people to vent, ask for advice, make friends and general chat! we also have voice channels and a music channel. we’d love to see you there! love from United Wellness Union (UWU) https://discord.gg/226ZqWF never expiring link to the server",5.417884615384616,8.378965019230773,5.258307692307696,75.88669230769231,71.88461538461539,6.8523076923076935,28.669230769230772,7.908726449838941,2.33484153846154,478,19,70,7,10,148,67,104,0.043,0.649,0.308,0.9868,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,4,1,0,2,3,7,0,0,7,0,7,3,0,2,1,16,15,9,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,6,9,0,2,1,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,2,5,7,14,12,0,7,0,0,1,2,16,2,0,0,4,48,11,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18860853286775975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543511686300199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804396298411105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4473604496982035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051621215339512,0.0,0.0,0.12937149117211258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17155742486952405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3484006975050997,0.0,0.2576732528808213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945101218848655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14886231146387113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676196424849967,0.0,0.2016558610766825,0.0,0.0,0.21759138371226835,0.0,0.19636201036282167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15380511823585702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15966104713725887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735404528285332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810292355701729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12429303101378082 schizophrenia,CowardtheCouraglyCat,2019/04/24,"I’m a [27 M] high functioning schizophrenic that takes frequent trips to the “void” (hallucinatory mental breakdowns) Sorry if none of this makes sense, when I’m trapped in my head it helps me when I write down my thoughts. Thanks for your time. In the Void, I like to record my thoughts when I’m here. What am thinking about? I have no idea, too many voices are talking at once. I hear them. I've got a bunch of voices in my head, I hear all of them and we are communicating, but we're having trouble deciding who should take over the body. To communicate. Which voice/thought is the most relevant? Some are suggestive, some argumentative, some downright wrong. Some are evil but I shone a light on those guys last year, easier to find. Literally if they pop their head out of the dark again I almost immediately kill them. They’re like entities trying to communicate and control me. The demons tell lies to my emotions to trick the mind and soul into doing evil. The angels make me acknowledge my sins and face the reality of my emotions. Or non-demons I guess. What do the bad things suggest? Vengeance. Hedonism. Ideas that make sense. Ideas that are too easy. The author has been just watching silently. He used to taunt me, idk why we haven't talked in a while... makes me uneasy. Maybe he's waiting for a moment of weakness. Unlikely. Oh shit, it's because he doesn’t exist anymore! I just realized my perception of life doesn't work with him, it's illogical for him to exist. Wow that's a good feeling. That feels really nice. How did i make my alter stop? My alter gained control by weaponizing my fear. I would retract into myself and he would go off on a violent rampage. That was ignorance forming fear, and that fear became hatred. I put 2 and 2 together and realized ""if fear comes from ignorance, what happens if I eliminate my ignorance?"" So I jumped into the void and kept going deeper, flailing about in the chaos, coming up with questions to every answer but never gaining answers. Just more questions. The more I learned the more ignorant I got, the more afraid I became. So I decided to pick a direction and go with it. My logic was ""even if good exists just to be taken away from us, even if love serves the devil, even if this is hell, I've experienced beauty in my life"". This basically opened up a new line of thought, and I ended up using the logic ""if there's an opportunity for me to not suffer, I will fight to not suffer. Good exists, so I'll fight to not feel bad. If I am to be tortured for eternity, so be it. But right now, nothing is stopping me from escaping this nightmare"". The demons taunt me, I shrug. The crowd cackles at me from the 5th dimension, I take a bow. I'll always be afraid, but i won't let it control me anymore. It's either gonna take me all at once or none of me at all. It feels like a labyrinth, solving puzzles and opening doors are epiphanies of the mind, it forms a path that is your personal ideology. You can go deep into your psyche if you open the right doors. Andy disappeared when I stopped calling him ""Andy"". When I found the source that created him, I literally felt a light vaporize it. I had to relive the past and come to terms with what happened to me. It took a long time. Came to terms with my own sins too, as unforgivable as they are. Switched from ""you're worse than scum and don't deserve to ever be happy"" to ""you are now obligated to make the world a better place, which means you need to be in a better place."" Can't kill myself, promised my cousin when I was 7. Andy thrived off my misery and self hatred. But I don't hate me anymore, I don't see myself as an individual. I just got my perception of life, that's all I really own, and it makes no sense to hate the only thing I got. This is Valhalla, we're in hell. Hell is paradise. We are all suffering, we are all ignorant and afraid. None of us are in complete control of who we are, but we can control how we perceive life. I genuinely feel relief from this, and the lack of demonic power over my actions has proven my point thus far. Andy can't exist, nor can the author. They kept coming back due to me saying ""but what if they did, what if they control me again, what if my confidence and will to live is shattered when everything turns out to be a lie?"". Now I say ""if so, then I'm fucked. But until then, they don't exist"".",3.1724023412236453,4.985376895227009,4.283405607295304,85.60231963846851,74.57625145518044,7.379905574957963,25.43463006079421,8.167268648758528,1.506075268399948,3399,116,690,56,72,1108,367,859,0.204,0.684,0.11199999999999999,-0.9987,1,1,0,0,2,1,139.0,9,7,10,13,36,56,17,7,48,0,60,14,6,19,8,164,121,66,2,19,34,1,6,3,0,7,6,6,2,3,42,45,0,17,31,0,0,15,20,40,0,0,21,17,106,16,96,85,27,93,11,3,2,2,58,42,5,26,39,465,148,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056402718798672015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04686804837109639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675818579192369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05292047461012312,0.04331149830962707,0.09406032500579414,0.03433602965328912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09963218607854286,0.0,0.06256589428583084,0.0,0.0,0.057515516919282424,0.06442235670503399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19408070586916956,0.05905712265348843,0.0,0.3790488511358209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12671915990507013,0.0498884413501378,0.0,0.0,0.11160909971092317,0.050950422409644654,0.04745739233481335,0.0,0.05062250543555012,0.0,0.0,0.253531283743398,0.1424015142681524,0.040239566822717995,0.05408214410754905,0.0,0.05148127769918773,0.0,0.0,0.061758952553256675,0.0,0.052072817344933714,0.0,0.0,0.12804628639595478,0.14173164917891198,0.1801973602532498,0.0,0.062049841973623336,0.05577195753976826,0.099618438118048,0.0599604635411826,0.0,0.11122124944752232,0.1734213037164604,0.0,0.12696781536157664,0.0,0.03775437553740518,0.059511897764119026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19075683200280724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12463355613109815,0.0,0.0,0.04591350572508845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057597525030463365,0.15913991110213574,0.08255465119883658,0.0,0.049737212751308116,0.04984706104825021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05083674406134096,0.0,0.26318800482810834,0.0571060939223756,0.0565874050001548,0.06135592475320222,0.0,0.0,0.056763728399001866,0.0,0.11374714478167547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04176528636652682,0.04344236554324159,0.05440035486602493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05404666690157045,0.0,0.0,0.11997148209150488,0.0,0.04283873918451738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05376988940431893,0.0,0.04918200981259794,0.11769812714424413,0.0,0.05324662176053031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05662355485140527,0.1261968406810664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07216822421523908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620481688137672,0.0,0.08958597336313882,0.0,0.0,0.04488482076569953,0.0,0.058760683620642434,0.0,0.05781820483312317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06305275475593214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14127409125009027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16940166804473747,0.09054599809190204,0.049231726199319537,0.05185774973738291,0.0,0.0,0.07484146890824199,0.036091660702755116,0.0,0.1788673702080579,0.06568871346511332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06258066467176643,0.038241904867011976,0.06126691122468556,0.0,0.0,0.13550736501321514,0.09729578996890333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05082578392748055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041006264983800896,0.0,0.0574013786189551,0.08002526804698319,0.06158403849739896,0.0,0.03627233269912384 schizophrenia,sadh0mbre,2019/04/24,"Have you ever had a therapist tell you that you're having a delusion? If you have a therapist or doctor or somebody in a similar role tell you that one of your firmly held beliefs is actually a delusion, how do they do it? Do they beat around the bush and say that you just have a different opinion than they do? Or do they flat out tell you, ""You're wrong and you're having a delusion because you're sick."" Just curious about how these sorts of conversations with a professional happen. Thanks",4.757767857142858,6.173678645833334,5.491904761904763,80.11500000000002,69.83333333333334,8.81904761904762,29.339285714285715,9.23628265651192,2.5024035714285717,394,15,75,8,7,128,54,96,0.035,0.902,0.064,0.3899,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,7,4,1,7,2,0,0,9,0,12,2,0,2,1,18,15,8,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,11,1,8,13,0,4,1,0,0,0,17,3,0,6,1,57,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.21165109772881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930760257876081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322127219420528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22660147248171555,0.0,0.22199373968472186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19618733146775466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917930668192648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696871094870334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17247779527465287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5687081988608191,0.19968104395880248,0.0,0.5036466463548487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23713263997444525,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,queernotreallyaboi,2019/04/24,we should do more posts about common delusions and hallucinations to help people in episodes realize they are psychotic just posting wikipedia articles or a rundown of the symptoms,10.506896551724138,12.977223310344831,8.375344827586208,60.8416379310345,57.27586206896552,11.317241379310346,48.98275862068966,11.20814326018867,6.548365517241379,152,10,19,4,2,45,29,29,0.0,0.909,0.091,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,6,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,15,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281263651140756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909129247887172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8037633914400744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4361477264856429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,IcyCicada,2019/04/24,"My schizophrenic sister won't leave me alone Diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic, this woman talks to a demon and makes it her mission to cause me suffering and eternal torment. She wants me to suffer in life and burn in hell over petty trifles from when we were children. She sits outside my house and whispers to a demon, and she slowly follows me around taking pictures when I go out. I have called the police on her and she just denies everything and acts concerned about me. She wrote a message in blood on my door about how the mark of the beast will be upon me. She has a name for her demon and says it enjoys tormenting humanity and priming them for hell. I am moving away to keep her out of my life for I fear she will hurt or kill me if given the chance.",5.97227442207308,6.286607644295309,6.072035794183446,81.01634601044,66.51677852348993,8.501416853094707,29.978374347501866,8.167268648758528,2.041209694258016,605,20,114,7,9,192,94,149,0.201,0.7509999999999999,0.049,-0.9809,0,1,0,1,0,1,9.0,1,0,1,0,7,8,3,1,8,0,8,6,1,3,0,23,16,14,1,2,3,1,0,0,0,3,5,2,1,3,3,13,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,7,0,0,3,2,28,1,24,9,0,19,5,3,0,0,23,11,2,2,3,86,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23365390622125184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20083212532981384,0.0,0.0,0.21195893801373067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303631623740175,0.0,0.0,0.2317536852069309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22897958790445486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027550314082217,0.0,0.0,0.2538630938753377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12821386751082198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26031249319085026,0.24150982114482525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20052394059292025,0.2495933416418088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388781772359553,0.0,0.0,0.31869637225774045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15058997327674697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397774497588504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17940643876373094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696233731889501,0.18132900109404546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306492078539767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chrisfrank5,2019/04/24,Got diagnosed with schizophrenia I’m in a support group now and on medication but have very very low interest in doing anything in my life my psychiatrist said it is because I have schizophrenia but didn’t do anything about it any suggestions on how to combat this?,4.424693877551022,7.339422897959187,4.848326530612244,77.75738775510206,75.12244897959185,8.001632653061224,32.248979591836736,8.841846274778883,3.247233469387755,218,11,36,5,5,69,38,49,0.122,0.755,0.12300000000000001,0.0145,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,1,0,5,10,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,3,2,8,7,0,7,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,0,1,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19930301486626895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.482356262255889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786575611322875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974678885076669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23440116133402394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20700958063152985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952451402204537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787841869880484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33258131576969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4836399047218243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SpiritedSecretary,2019/04/24,"10 year old with delusions My 10 year old grandson told me he believes that Satan is trying to possess him. He says his skull feels funny and thinks the devil will make him grow horns and turn demonic, then go on a violent rampage. He says he has to repeatedly say a prayer to keep the devil away. He also comes in my bedroom repeatedly at night to tell me he loves me when he's staying over. I have schizophrenia, and I'm worried he got it from me. He's suffered abuse at the hand of his father. I asked him about hallucinations and he doesn't have any. He read books about exorcism at the library and started believing he was losing control of himself.",4.7227131782945735,5.836692124031007,5.458914728682172,81.45410852713181,69.62015503875969,7.903875968992247,30.6124031007752,8.167268648758528,2.14804496124031,520,21,100,7,9,169,86,129,0.171,0.762,0.067,-0.9442,0,0,0,0,1,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,4,6,1,0,6,0,7,3,2,2,0,12,20,8,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,2,7,0,2,2,2,0,3,1,5,0,0,3,5,14,1,17,16,0,21,4,2,0,1,27,7,0,0,10,54,16,2,0.0,0.1977583599519881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347604655707165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11350297580964187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15603619102582325,0.0,0.15681530093653548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3760956977252223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14377622518065622,0.0,0.0,0.18720120488470146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08439356025543672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09485750592241686,0.0,0.13349135416992872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148355254011613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867270497805936,0.0,0.0,0.15064073739595416,0.0,0.1114122018099947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566315923069672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3502831588115006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16695289157097026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39819516386042797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11813814609562745,0.17790142597318193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14588470750590365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10694773008175608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15948748292714124,0.0,0.11331938846519148,0.18154767492038398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16950289558571846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21496620390457252 schizophrenia,LividComment7,2019/04/24,"Difficulty accepting my hebephrenia diagnosis I'm Male/16/USA, and I've had recurring episodes of confusion and hallucinations for the past year and a half. I was diagnosed with disorganized schizophrenia, also known as hebephrenia. I have a lot of negative symptoms along with hallucinations that I realize are fake but get confused and distracted by regardless. The only person who loves me is my older brother, and I'm a burden on him. I need constant reminders to do basic things like brushing my teeth despite being 16. When I get angry, it doesn't even cross my mind to hurt people, but my mom acts like I'm super dangerous because I have schizophrenia. I've never heard homicidal voices, but if I did, I would not obey them. She can give zero examples of me being violent, even before schizophrenia, because there aren't any. She acts like I'm a completely different person. If my diagnosis had instead been ADHD like she thought, she wouldn't be treating me this way. I think it would be better for everyone if I just jumped off a bridge. I don't see a future for myself other than to be a burden on my family and on taxpayers after they get tired of me.",7.188688408365833,7.734431917050692,7.777142857142858,69.03516483516485,63.93087557603686,10.916554413328607,35.586316908897565,10.727762888450028,4.08171421481744,934,41,155,23,13,310,131,217,0.18899999999999997,0.69,0.121,-0.9371,1,0,0,0,0,1,24.0,0,0,2,2,7,18,2,3,9,0,22,5,1,1,1,33,36,15,0,8,8,2,0,4,0,3,3,2,0,2,7,9,0,0,5,0,0,4,7,9,0,2,7,4,30,9,21,21,1,18,0,1,1,1,15,4,0,6,13,114,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19124189124441668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12725524190990992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10821303909368288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940068760140195,0.0,0.13540688632618536,0.0,0.0,0.14073648996931995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16684351668018985,0.17196169861165692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16151237987942466,0.0,0.16625572460274488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21020614000604887,0.0,0.0,0.15205438537481694,0.0,0.0,0.1500124682308056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24941468676450634,0.15265084258409534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035066895845366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109691703095923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13528561317823715,0.14361995259286264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16067472300552754,0.18636972445476346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799198707041846,0.12272993865055155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12102462115580467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15190644306121698,0.11031987203771736,0.2778902562754213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12680504917330188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653957499838921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10571810228062814,0.10196330813147364,0.0,0.12633049039634772,0.0,0.18289514399314105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12630903266016572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260810643040164,0.0,0.0,0.10247372838030047 schizophrenia,thrownaway205,2019/04/24,"Risperdal has fucked my life completely I have gotten irreversibly fatter, have slight man boobs, heart feels like it’s momentarily falling out my chest at times, feel tired all the time, can’t make my penis 100% hard anymore and probably won’t ever again. Just brilliant. Thanks, UK mental health act!",6.878773584905662,9.035696452830187,5.3850471698113225,80.0541745283019,65.60377358490567,8.318867924528304,28.34433962264151,8.841846274778883,2.2288905660377365,244,8,41,4,4,71,49,53,0.171,0.68,0.149,-0.1007,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,5,7,3,1,2,8,11,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,3,4,2,2,9,1,8,0,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,5,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25177652362298114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26618389164841344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22964514877747175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25673441265960417,0.18136888513793464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23470403817841115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274228039792505,0.0,0.0,0.2698580484182696,0.0,0.3008439838103541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793199488497552,0.12403086674076595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16946403320482986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558470418271788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737209955206171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337346795274441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960739806122025,0.2917928257590587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheHraBrother,2019/04/24,"Started a GroupMe Here’s the code to join :) You're invited to my new group 'Schizophrenia' on GroupMe. Click here to join: https://groupme.com/join_group/50020364/CfzGQxTs",10.830000000000005,15.779892000000007,3.2633333333333354,85.915,66.5,6.533333333333335,33.0,7.793537801064563,2.592600000000001,144,6,20,2,3,32,19,24,0.0,0.72,0.28,0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8065852735921212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5911177517418361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,deviles,2019/04/24,"Presentation Coming Up. How to deal with hallucinations during/after? Hi, So last year I went to a psychiatrist and was told I had schizophrenia. I wasn't ready to deal with it but due to certain hallcinations beginning to affect my life I am trying to now. However, I have a question. I often get ""auras"" around people and their facial features starts to shift and change. I find i'm really triggered by flurescent lights. It's always worse there. I have a presentation to make in the class on Friday and I know from previous experience that when speaking in class is when my vision goes funny. Should I speak to the teacher before class? I'm not ashamed to tell her what's going on but I know if I start freaking out I won't know what to do. I just kind of want to say I can;t do it because it's only worth a little but I worked in a group and their mark won't be affected but I don't want to let them down.",2.724836956521738,4.6025459402173965,4.2221739130434806,85.27445652173917,76.01086956521739,6.991304347826088,22.91304347826087,7.865858978985527,1.0724195652173911,719,21,147,11,16,239,113,184,0.055999999999999994,0.8340000000000001,0.111,0.7448,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,3,1,9,4,0,1,7,0,15,2,1,5,1,32,31,14,0,4,7,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,0,7,10,0,0,5,0,1,3,5,2,0,0,5,4,23,2,27,21,0,24,0,0,0,0,14,10,0,3,11,98,30,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15122254956101344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16178746349536202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078724475276196,0.0,0.15464767192627205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922572171111772,0.1565532392652218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747326895014512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17777695839865448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16610740875506178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09495184402816753,0.0,0.10328724239431684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18925463190197156,0.29963926884717307,0.1481426608604834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18584184505712129,0.1283686004121054,0.0,0.18215159902523495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213131104611302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13822174348222094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12599589164718855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035908114119907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11642753690859545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14452723942772078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.257273543366707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588490968559757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736607150669579,0.0,0.12338978376632577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21439036188783356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16847514689222087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230915633024512,0.0,0.18520896697778105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11703484185762585 schizophrenia,W1ck3d3nd,2019/04/24,"Advice??? I’m new here, kinda scared. I’m afraid to admit what I am. I’m afraid of what it means, I’d give anything for this all to end. Sober/unsober it makes no difference, this life is defeaning , and I’ve lost my ability to navigate. I’ve been hospital free for 5 years and I’m dreading going back, I know they’ll make me if I tell the truth. The only solace I find is in singing, but I cannot do it. I’m lost.",-0.8862737262737248,1.1052694835164836,1.9000999000998997,96.17444555444557,90.42857142857143,5.506893106893108,18.162837162837164,6.980632752743323,0.08721098901098934,317,9,77,5,11,110,62,91,0.13,0.787,0.083,-0.5985,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,2,2,8,0,4,2,0,7,1,0,2,2,13,21,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,4,1,1,1,2,6,0,0,3,0,8,3,7,17,1,6,0,2,0,0,4,1,0,2,4,38,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22776810532152936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19180921356500272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17922808843031898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24352436608274364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20644425445715475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21303559913846065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235965092998353,0.13246765891868853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12809749956908045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16463493052067238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5088799378639011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111722874269398,0.0,0.0,0.2538980533247133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251150847487872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17727175541048978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333588914126092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20372668970603594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15009919089147514 schizophrenia,DemetriusTheDementor,2019/04/24,I'm poor as fuck My girlfriend keeps trying these meditations to make money and I keep losing money hand over fist. I'm investing it trying to be a day trader because I can barely keep a steady job I just don't have the patience to deal with people with this mental illness and I'm scared to even go outside. Life seems so ridiculously hard after my mental breakdown where things that used to come easy to me now seem impossible. Is this just a temporary phase or will I be forever cursed with bad luck? I'm getting incredibly sick of everything blowing up in my face and I really want to end it all but I'm too much of a chicken shit to do it.,3.6364122137404595,5.0560697786259565,5.01212977099237,82.46063740458015,72.58778625954199,7.9880916030534355,26.07709923664122,8.548686976883017,1.7817322137404576,515,17,102,9,10,172,91,131,0.172,0.772,0.055999999999999994,-0.9246,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,7,7,3,1,5,0,8,7,3,2,1,21,25,7,0,1,4,0,2,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,8,7,0,3,2,0,4,2,1,6,0,0,0,2,9,1,18,22,2,10,0,1,0,1,2,4,2,4,4,62,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14735685021563275,0.10758306817050813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15202542359249654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138176431462905,0.18194735580942145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15631252771178045,0.0,0.0,0.1165660823717193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15861252766343098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16315670491954445,0.09220565717465533,0.0,0.10029998006042624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15809508693928834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17513323547802956,0.4706015261900677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12465593778334268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19744056295401455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780450594147285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35570892287932543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973611866620413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235185224195685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11306023241316784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17669137015529884,0.0,0.0,0.32132898936644955,0.0,0.0,0.18115839061382105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11724819282891485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396422358566859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242559653261006,0.0,0.0,0.1040948936384831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,g0regrrrl,2019/04/24,"Experiences with drinking and weed smoking as a schizophrenic hi guys, so to cut to the chase i used to have a very bad drinking problem, i’ve now gained control over it now and i would like to stop drinking all together because it only ever makes my symptoms worse (hallucinations, delusions become way worse and come on a lot faster making me mega impulsive and suicidal) but the thing is, i genuinely cannot function in any social situation with more than three people if i’m sober because of how dependant i was on alcohol for so long. i don’t know what to do, i’ve tried sobering social events but it just results in me being stressed out which then causes my symptoms to act up too, but i also get the same result from drinking?? And i really don’t want to just have to miss out on every social event? Also, wanted to ask if any schizophrenics here smoke weed, I know a few who have claimed it’s helped them out and was way better than drinking which would always cause hallucinations - others have said it makes everything a whole lot worse, so if anyone wants to shed light on this, i’d like to know how it effects people.",16.224831804281347,7.713425000000001,14.168990825688072,58.19152905198778,55.88073394495413,16.918654434250765,51.01223241590215,11.538034831475384,5.7526856269113145,902,32,167,13,6,288,131,218,0.10800000000000001,0.8340000000000001,0.057,-0.8458,0,0,7,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,4,14,8,1,1,8,0,14,10,0,13,2,48,30,21,1,9,8,0,0,2,0,2,5,1,0,1,13,12,6,2,4,5,0,2,3,5,0,1,3,2,13,3,30,24,7,24,0,1,0,0,10,11,0,6,11,113,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590791432909306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158500696717404,0.08245925752055742,0.0,0.0,0.134782990726614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929312400862953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264525594166474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08274447978618345,0.120821054420527,0.10944832177207192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08764602298069271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20360629000378536,0.0,0.08536599805864199,0.0,0.0,0.1111492367579067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4854020604163271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08964175271375369,0.08349614442669738,0.0,0.08906481829570145,0.09693895544263056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05177573438286366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09812472183146216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06642473674851464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16338854029948546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096830648018801,0.0,0.0,0.08770050784012319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16850279503434706,0.0,0.0,0.19845034444611287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07537012418999256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13740712223180618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09482545285161917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06348608905417623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942669294660434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139271259183674,0.0,0.303060346695848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285215675531947,0.11351887870346032,0.0,0.0,0.10839947157188544,0.0,0.0,0.2060059861825068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06583773137999294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06728249182763724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08559070496372137,0.0,0.08176799638088993,0.1753554953823372,0.1573221611767535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11064177031781887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029745354936386,0.1407957961848339,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,owenvision,2019/04/24,When did y’all find out you were schizophrenic? Did you feel yourself slowly lose grip on reality?,4.003333333333334,7.044391555555558,4.308888888888891,80.20000000000002,77.8888888888889,8.044444444444443,25.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.398133333333334,80,3,14,2,2,25,16,18,0.161,0.8390000000000001,0.0,-0.4696,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,3,0,2,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3303562878411643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5971552999779921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7309379390837502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,murdanyc916,2019/04/24,"Schizoid Personality Disorder vs Schizophrenia? Schizoid Personality Disorder vs Schizophrenia &#x200B; what are the real differences between the two? &#x200B; my doctor gave me the diagnosis of Schizoid Personality Disorder over a month ago, in contrast to my PTSD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Depression &#x200B; thank you!",13.005638297872338,17.335545255319154,11.086117021276596,36.50875000000002,53.8936170212766,14.912765957446807,58.55851063829788,13.023866798666859,10.292153191489362,285,22,26,12,4,88,33,47,0.289,0.6679999999999999,0.043,-0.9239,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,4,1,5,2,0,4,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,17,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278743238411377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.376912760007624,0.4226953716353956,0.0,0.0,0.08870553482005357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09987218368785168,0.0,0.0,0.1211486738232498,0.5315795646547626,0.11868522682277755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255446395543523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30374324941242786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13554561341191065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319825882228606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10675611856495304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11327154005058937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4226953716353956,0.0 schizophrenia,zeetheq,2019/04/24,"I fall apart in public When I'm at home I'm totally fine. But as soon as I go out in public, or even just hanging with my friends, I get hot and nauseous. I start twitching and shaking, my face contorts, I feel like I wanna puke and die. I can hardly keep it together and it's killing me... I just started seeing this guy I really like, I want to be able to have with him but as soon as I leave home I just feel so sick. Does anyone know how to deal with it?",-0.8254333333333328,1.1694023900000057,1.5839999999999996,98.54866666666668,90.1,4.533333333333334,18.333333333333336,5.985473137389443,-0.3836666666666666,349,10,85,3,12,118,64,100,0.161,0.753,0.085,-0.8582,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,9,6,1,1,0,0,3,3,1,1,1,22,15,14,2,2,6,0,4,2,1,0,2,0,2,1,4,8,0,1,3,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,5,16,4,15,14,1,14,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,1,7,55,20,0,0.21742397013216472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520278952755173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22415456615177087,0.0,0.0,0.22565175417928124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19026918145693625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436064816979953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21987218431632768,0.15532772770578188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16798121998063306,0.0,0.113595050550625,0.0,0.12356705276346715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21528391377873216,0.0,0.0,0.19476917081840694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4361879394189899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19325641468144855,0.2405474089100405,0.0,0.11949052785658967,0.0,0.0,0.230220590827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21244473859526752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392873627256073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17325875421902673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077876102691579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282422908447713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Pikabluee,2019/04/24,"I try to talk about it to my friend and they keep denouncing it Everytime I bring up what I see and hear and feel, he thinks I’m fucking with him. God it’s so annoying. People are going to say see a therapist but I’ve tried and never was able to execute the idea for some odd reason. One night I was very scared about to go go sleep and I felt someone touch my shoulder and I turned away from my wall and looked off into my room (it was dark and probably a new moon that night) and I saw a day figure in the corner near my door and in front of my tv. I then heard something move under my best like someone had shifted one of the items there. It all happened within the span of a few seconds. I got so scared that I turned on my lamp and my heart was pounding. It took me a while to calm myself but when I was about to go go sleep again, I felt all my negative thoughts come to me and attack me all at once. It made me cry for s good ten minutes until I got so tired that I fell asleep. I woke up feeling drained. Anyway, a story like that I wanted to tell him and he didn’t want to believe me. I may be a pathological liar... I lie a little for fun but people start to not believe me as much because I lie about big things. Nvm Anyway... yeah. Sorry for the tangent. I can’t help if honestly even if I wanted to. Oh btw that night music and asmr helped me calm down if anyone wants to take my advice",0.4052896752616277,2.3698762675585314,2.221111230985006,96.3174020929982,83.98327759197325,5.062077894055454,18.34081346423563,6.207218560251982,-0.308048095803215,1080,26,252,9,31,356,170,299,0.115,0.75,0.136,0.5757,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,1,1,13,15,4,2,13,1,11,8,5,2,4,45,47,28,0,7,7,0,5,2,1,1,2,3,2,0,14,17,0,1,9,1,0,11,5,6,0,4,17,12,43,9,41,28,8,42,0,0,4,1,13,19,1,5,14,168,57,0,0.10144294510437796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09912887189947192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07093126588293744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11540599483527772,0.09530898622311544,0.0,0.0,0.06183867777625365,0.0,0.0,0.22858292181305134,0.10645811235468636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873841148352003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114303118034278,0.06542230742686246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06700210851024055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10258520212846248,0.0,0.1948022713566871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07837456774753697,0.0937823681191575,0.0,0.0,0.2882618172820265,0.08508552942562084,0.16226638037873412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08970566133533045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11433357178131533,0.12021037837742532,0.13599013555591036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11451673734512645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09016715063054996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09911979779383806,0.10167248101248633,0.0,0.0,0.08518652482909685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095987767445562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10781779654981864,0.07457223682657975,0.0,0.07823905302369179,0.09797422851281,0.0,0.2855919961406896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10803342579658866,0.13748072993356178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406555305548028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10937265231177433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10430024286594944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08067150156868105,0.2031241698286784,0.0,0.16167378677162286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20303241197226685,0.0,0.17190455638427998,0.07809573519523927,0.0,0.1135570717881102,0.07180183866885176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07627246998820472,0.08153599668443386,0.08866560530002437,0.0,0.0,0.11778307798049367,0.06739418515843093,0.06500054313628993,0.0,0.08053436712595,0.0,0.11659374253741472,0.0,0.0,0.11270684458097904,0.1377462016721417,0.2206815883971456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370105367576831,0.2393347092745645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,m4ttyyy,2019/04/24,"I was venting about how my psych is putting me on new meds and adjusting my invega on my instagram... This guy messages me after he see's it, goes on to say how ""I'm nuts"", how he finds that attractive and how ""people who are nutty are the best"", and now he is trying to flirt with me. Stuff like this makes me break down and cry..which causes episodes...which makes me feel like I'm a shy animal in a zoo because of the way my mom treats me during those episodes...the first part is already happening...soon the reality will break into thousands of little pieces and my thoughts will leak into it without me knowing...",5.815433255269319,5.6354051803278695,6.005503512880563,83.04827868852459,66.8688524590164,9.266510538641684,30.54332552693209,8.841846274778883,2.1967620608899288,480,16,99,7,7,153,80,122,0.037000000000000005,0.897,0.066,0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,6,6,0,0,5,0,8,0,0,7,0,21,16,9,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,2,0,1,0,1,8,8,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,3,13,6,15,12,3,16,0,0,1,0,8,8,0,0,6,64,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325122835091147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12844054014481884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22111626485785615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21644656215254668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653606485506734,0.1505238593422621,0.0,0.0,0.1925756466835904,0.1792209995119401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20862576202532904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11579500758478195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20587439488517886,0.2111763842421975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812872812036818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23403979254036916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467688627065061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20349501772965609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281671691415204,0.0,0.14607259540850276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118113259882276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675568043881083,0.0,0.0,0.16790032748872538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24120066942173826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16727197258816967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305121957556566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16724356077842226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031069266052785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zupo-,2019/04/24,"What did your voices say today? Scary dolls Smoke more You cut yourself Ring ring ring/answer your phone/you got a message (every fucking day I hear this) You’re not strong enough Grow up Falter Drink your fluids (gee thanks for reminding me)",1.6878333333333335,4.287926088888888,1.2881944444444464,95.84562500000004,99.22222222222223,3.1388888888888893,14.513888888888893,5.148860815047168,-0.8949444444444441,194,4,35,1,8,56,39,45,0.17600000000000002,0.763,0.061,-0.6576,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,0,1,0,4,2,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,5,6,2,2,3,2,4,0,0,0,1,7,1,1,0,2,15,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22390482270145845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3401079398744374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35873366306659565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2925173169234794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209658193379608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27767459264353184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3913013637915279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760944846830545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196401881470587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290896377111677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ogfruitcat,2019/04/24,"Has anyone done a social skills training group? When I told my psych that my negative symptoms are really bad, this is what he recommended, and he said he'd look into finding one for me. What exactly does something like this entail? What are the groups like, what kind of techniques do they utilize, etc?",5.923928571428572,7.495174964285718,5.673571428571428,79.32142857142857,67.21428571428571,8.457142857142857,30.07142857142857,8.841846274778883,2.4799071428571424,242,9,42,4,4,75,47,56,0.128,0.764,0.10800000000000001,-0.4995,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,1,4,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,0,1,4,10,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,2,6,3,3,6,1,2,0,0,1,0,9,1,0,0,3,29,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19229335989833235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296218312966137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24066307121566674,0.2814306727910216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067088034980593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513541232618283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28638055599979684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687119525214246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23093910525273956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18635386772759666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17617842384349636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26159745073792795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803380236825062,0.0,0.2117161047034891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858406502012401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26278380421335196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,canijustdieyet,2019/04/24,"I’m having a hard time telling what’s real rn could someone talk with me? So I’m pretty sure I’m being watched, but it doesn’t feel like I’m being watched by people but more by the universe. It’s like the soul of the universe is checking in on me, making sure I’m not doing anything I’m not supposed to do. I feel like a bad person rn because I don’t know why am I being watched now and I’ve been hearing voices telling me everything I do is bad. I made a cave in my room and it’s the only place I feel I am muted from the universe but the universe is still there watching but it can’t hear me. I don’t think I can hide in here forever though but I don’t know what to do to get the universe not to watch me anymore. Anyone dealt with the universe before?",0.5416841317365275,2.2784475808383253,2.6123615269461062,94.92357223053892,82.17365269461078,4.654041916167665,23.0123502994012,5.148860815047168,0.06985059880239497,594,21,136,2,16,200,83,167,0.08,0.81,0.11,0.5757,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,6,7,0,0,11,0,21,0,0,2,2,24,38,9,0,1,8,0,4,3,0,0,0,3,1,1,6,4,0,0,6,0,1,0,8,2,0,0,2,12,16,5,14,32,1,9,1,0,5,0,6,6,0,0,6,85,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15868271563942296,0.11187974527858187,0.0,0.13167110424271933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671962465001313,0.09753802405542306,0.0,0.1361531138184917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277515767950613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14380285673027682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24271115439612645,0.22861628885843524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08359640378812916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14333372950926573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3606762329265308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17586995854373882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23451219129955064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514013155974497,0.10680508494278554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216915879696997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109278449680154,0.13971085488434465,0.1671719600750902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16278337748961055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821215806389193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13557235826188238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12778080384548013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016070638612674,0.0,0.0,0.1286065661811925,0.2797041674769896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10252522802933556,0.15720484338821955,0.0,0.0933006433595659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14438030795676018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Azr3all,2019/04/24,"If anyone wants to chat, I made a kik! Kik: Azraelearza I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia last year, and I'm still working on finding my right meds.",3.217816091954024,5.874367793103449,2.8282758620689665,92.00264367816094,77.9655172413793,5.2459770114942526,26.90804597701149,6.42735559955562,1.0512666666666672,122,5,23,1,3,36,26,29,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,6,4,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,3,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,10,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502382540208484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632410105593888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32709614611360555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917202417739984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386350297565273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3975243780588884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30562785390969394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858037008580394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21108709618370536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605411489801892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23046320461897005 schizophrenia,queenmadd,2019/04/24,"Being aware it’s a hallucination I was told by a therapist that if I’m aware something is not real then it’s not a hallucination just a pseudohallucination, and this is because I suffer dissociation.",5.613423423423424,7.862269621621626,8.992972972972971,52.55450450450451,69.0,10.33873873873874,31.25225225225225,10.504223727775694,3.869565765765767,164,7,27,5,3,62,26,37,0.115,0.885,0.0,-0.5423,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,6,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28669651288787823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5353155612537103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620674916902577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5460659727620444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4494012063069293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,heartlesslover,2019/04/24,"Aid me I dropped off my meds a long time ago because of college, but I’m at my limits right now and I don’t know whether I should keep my grades or maintain my mental health. Any suggestions on a drug that won’t make me way dumber than I already am? I used to take olanzapine.",3.2682203389830486,3.81917137288136,4.362500000000002,90.05697033898306,72.5593220338983,7.255932203389831,28.309322033898304,7.1686216300943375,1.2345898305084746,217,8,50,2,4,71,48,59,0.063,0.937,0.0,-0.5023,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,2,0,10,10,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,11,0,6,8,0,10,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,4,29,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24687055582685155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30732807703922005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18938733276042027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16976902734275767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229678006846389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960290107442098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24754069801108486,0.0,0.0,0.15305452458118365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464608504683611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858987360221101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30934709472787936,0.0,0.2806592100471318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378346936521082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093948885805504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623936882769603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405317649471403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210577486724892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,burritosandblunts,2019/04/24,"Documenting delusions I'm extremely sorry if this is insensitive or very taboo. I'm not meaning to offend anyone or ask the wrong questions here. I'm curious if any effort is made to document delusions during severely manic episodes. I understand it's bad to encourage delusions, and it's more important to treat the problem than anything else, but I'm curious. I always read about manifestos and have seen several interviews over the years, but I'm wondering if there is a collection anywhere of documented delusions. Thanks, and sorry again for my ignorance.",7.6781632653061225,9.685119469387754,8.172040816326533,61.40867346938776,63.48979591836735,12.538775510204086,41.55102040816328,12.031772070788634,6.260289795918367,460,27,64,17,7,152,68,98,0.153,0.698,0.149,0.1372,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,4,8,1,0,4,0,4,0,0,1,0,19,16,10,0,4,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,4,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,1,3,3,9,14,1,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,7,2,38,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16523531531786267,0.0,0.0,0.13504190215782869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13885246531684098,0.0,0.16341525795905068,0.0,0.1856464457542399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16580685564472825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658889595288899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879021611156948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216312945078094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19001521567411872,0.0,0.0,0.22245618802972889,0.0,0.19863475726227026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4486800539464425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4445903841040434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828267215584686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20672984350936832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16385013728189174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21535264357570494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171171698700512,0.0,0.12787966512704918 schizophrenia,starship1854,2019/08/27,"Why am I like this ... I need help! So, For the past few months I have been hearing people say things everywhere about me. What they say is “she looks like a he” or “that’s a boy”. I don’t understand why I am having these feelings. Born female and female thru and thru (I get periods etc) This has taken a toll on my mental being. I’m scared to go anywhere all my friends and my boyfriend says I’m tripping out. Everywhere I go I mean ... EVERYWHERE. I here people saying these negative things about me. I know it’s my biggest security that I look ugly or whatever but like WTF why do I see everyone talking shit about me as a flaw. It’s so hard I can’t even function or go to busy places anymore. Wtf is wrong w me. I wasn’t like this when I was 18/19 now I’m 22 and it’s fucking terrible. Advice?????",0.062005988023955176,2.273943988023955,2.3635059880239524,92.9896901197605,88.16167664670658,5.7352095808383226,20.9248502994012,7.1686216300943375,0.6281858682634729,614,21,137,10,20,208,100,167,0.201,0.71,0.08900000000000001,-0.9765,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,0,9,11,2,1,5,0,14,2,1,0,1,15,32,12,0,1,4,0,2,4,1,0,0,5,0,1,13,5,0,1,4,0,0,4,4,5,0,0,4,10,25,6,11,27,3,14,0,0,3,1,12,4,2,3,10,86,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13680021972577544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388361292277401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15612997695420489,0.09246451604519856,0.0,0.0,0.13376997604187954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07078501915172865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081587824347353,0.12942191633245698,0.07314092825129097,0.0,0.23868493116348666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12540685425412804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577830700784962,0.0,0.09383482363973933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07693687429429667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735753944849182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351188930327725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15249417574833876,0.0,0.0,0.1410807189269295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117416327097274,0.0,0.0,0.1038035518978049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133639823664511,0.19410800422560887,0.0,0.14626361641666846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4453144246973961,0.14015811201986933,0.0,0.1115568508470739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14370151741239254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252163015939727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860111824386061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573837491400662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789676086519973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15306113024438905,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bloom_Kitty,2019/08/27,"How do I help my schizophrenic girlfriend? I really don't know what options I have left. For background, she was diagnosed about ¾ year(s) ago, currently goes to a psychiatrist aboit once a month and did not visit a psychotherapist for a rather long time, although she's considering to return. She is taking two antipsychotics which kinda seem to help, but at the same time not really. It's getting worse and it is agonizing to see her getting worse and worse and not being able to do anything. She is in pretty much constant denial and the fact that we live in different cities doesn't make it any better. I've tried everything I could come up with - helping her search for better meds, giving arguments why she does have the illness, trying to calm her down, reensure my love and support, try to channel her attention to non-illness related things, help her retrace her thoughts, try to make her counter her own thoughts… probably even more stuff I can't remember. Her most recdnt medicament - Risperidon - seemed to work like a charm at fisrt, a little short-lived, but highly effective. But now, about two weeks in, her episodes of mostly delusions are longer, worse and more persistent than they have ever been. Last friday was the first time ever that I could not make her doubt her beliefs at all. Her family is no support in that regard, with her mother nit being able to accept her daughter's diagnosis and keeping her father out, for what I can only guess may be that same diagnosis. I'm just so lost and desparate. I just… I want to help her so bad, but nothing I could think of myself or find online seems to have any effect that lasts for longer than a couple dozens of minutes. Is there even anything I can do anymore? Like, anything at all? I'm so scared that one day I'm just not going to be able to protect her from herself…",7.577055065409187,7.419380514450867,7.029446303620322,77.09987070276848,63.21965317919074,9.82756312747186,33.52844539093398,9.276330184999452,2.8824011560693634,1462,53,265,22,19,455,191,346,0.11800000000000001,0.706,0.17600000000000002,0.9597,2,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,1,0,1,8,15,14,0,2,11,0,30,4,0,6,5,63,56,19,0,5,13,3,0,2,1,1,3,0,0,0,14,14,0,2,13,1,0,3,9,4,0,5,6,1,39,10,41,42,10,34,1,1,1,1,37,14,0,11,19,184,53,1,0.25800423616619944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07623506275883836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116967818623506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529029149017099,0.0,0.0,0.2123155029791572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07180758678487742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521225202647623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07408260140028312,0.0,0.09293697387051983,0.0,0.2059953885829408,0.09515892666629956,0.0,0.055463796056428,0.0,0.0,0.0872896229207289,0.0,0.08985317113041258,0.0,0.0,0.07526041524296903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360624312791415,0.15558640175573918,0.0,0.0,0.07729252375233177,0.0,0.08107447735616569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860373257168903,0.07315275716048136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08986437644312928,0.08250039097711727,0.04887658437440227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09474025126395044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882246683438607,0.09086521364170252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07644200656103163,0.0,0.0,0.04726412693441827,0.14020525856142485,0.0,0.0,0.09344078583492743,0.0,0.0,0.08403189166230039,0.08619600826112338,0.07594082246382762,0.07610854336241807,0.0,0.0,0.09388070047615432,0.0,0.07761963209930381,0.0,0.1722198310766654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552818116302518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0686455066012892,0.0,0.0632209333100165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825206743380658,0.0,0.0,0.09158869705654778,0.05827678254277693,0.06540794924018113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0874943541260781,0.09272406799091383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11018941350940573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09742283488543373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08610241653509168,0.0,0.06853199076779919,0.2348773666442732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09845104114587,0.0,0.19518676647525174,0.0,0.0,0.06466235885787211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05713551673785139,0.05510623226028171,0.0,0.06827551472104057,0.15044434492361702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335572540186593,0.0,0.1680217661684012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05072586105002789,0.0,0.06898514522563527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07760289771605973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06261005224820512,0.0,0.3505711447625399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055382089696624726 schizophrenia,Red7336,2019/08/27,"I made a sub for those looking for someone to check on them every once in a while, no pressure or commitment check out [My Buddy!](https://www.reddit.com/r/MyBuddy/)",8.278928571428573,10.435100464285718,6.727142857142859,71.76785714285714,62.21428571428571,9.885714285714286,35.42857142857143,10.125756701596842,3.8658,135,6,21,3,2,40,25,28,0.172,0.733,0.095,-0.2714,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,6,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,1,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4129685041762116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4115985550532764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4637872769507378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5219886835921617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4152984709541549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Derringler337,2019/08/27,Started buying a ton of shit online and I don't know what to do So this is the default community that I go to rant to but I just wanted to talk about a mid life crisis I experienced recently. I was hospitalized for the first time since I was 17. My friend told me I had to go and that I needed to start asking for help instead of just sitting in my room hitting on old men for money and constantly getting fired from shitty jobs. I just bought a lot of corsets and wigs online for cheap but now I have like 2 wigs and 3 corsets and 2 dresses and some accessories. I've been redecorating some old clothes. I'm done feeling like a boring piece of shit so at least I'm dressing myself up so I at least look like an interesting piece of shit. I always wanted to look like a cool goth chick and I manage to pull it off like 20% of the time but hopefully now that I have +4 girlyness I can look like a hot goth fetish chick 40-60% of the time. 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I'm in the U.S. and I'm kinda peeved about this... but maybe I'm mistaken. Is an inkblot test actually that meaningful? Because a psychologist gave me one... Apparently I have many negative symptoms (e.g., flat affect, flat vocal tone, social withdrawal, etc.) and it's been documented that I've had psychosis on a *near daily basis* for 2 years. However, because my thought process on the inkblot test was ""demonstrated to be linear,"" I did not qualify for a schizophrenia, schizoaffective, or other psychotic disorder diagnosis. I guess because my inkblot answers ""made sense"" to the psychologist (PsyD), my thought process was determined to be ""linear."" (This was a year ago, though.) Normally I wouldn't care if she was being an idiot or not, but my insurance repeatedly keeps rejecting the ONLY antipsychotic that has ever worked for me (rexulti) because my diagnosis is ""bipolar 1"" and rexulti ""is only approved for MDD and schizophrenia."" wtf. So I've been using samples for now. I mean, I don't want to have a psychotic disorder obviously (who does???), but I'd *like* a proper diagnosis and I feel that I do have some sort of psychotic disorder, if not schizophrenia itself. I've never heard of someone with bipolar having psychosis on a daily basis for 2 years, especially one whose mood has been stable the entire time.",4.714605997210602,7.650515054393308,5.820946652719666,71.06620380055791,74.18828451882845,9.338981868898188,33.38929567642957,9.725611199111238,4.134928730822873,1074,56,167,32,24,355,135,239,0.153,0.784,0.063,-0.9792,2,0,0,0,0,0,67.0,0,0,0,2,6,5,1,0,14,0,25,3,0,5,3,38,41,15,0,5,10,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,12,6,0,1,6,0,0,0,7,2,0,2,14,3,16,2,19,23,2,14,0,1,0,0,6,5,0,8,10,112,28,5,0.0,0.0,0.13807238471918112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12542103529141346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450003520821497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14425697498164214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4864743027844875,0.0,0.12381755657622916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15779709964524188,0.0,0.12798446593531695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715408465329621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558655553925639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12576149681894344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06912414359204892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13387985786225454,0.0,0.1434471509096614,0.14214423482854902,0.15412247612729552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091246684535067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13862870790294052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19175256464572826,0.21521678905001373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14422972719678884,0.1198827631221535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470607463758412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13901175168141894,0.22465215955696896,0.08250309333273716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24440130479796954,0.0,0.0,0.08345359443158969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10300532705613832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273341902334066 schizophrenia,ArmeSteuntrekker,2019/08/27,"Thought prison / negative symptoms So I got my first psychosis when I was 19 that's like 17 years ago. I had a second episode in 2007. And the past years I had various small delusions that wouldn't go away till recently ... I quit all substances and now this shrink from addiction care says there's nothing wrong with me besides being a recovering addict - while I almost built my entire existence around the thoughts about psychosis, schizophrenia - got anxiety issues. Can hardly believe that this doctor is telling me it was all my own fault and effect of the drugs I used to take. The last years I've been treated for schizophrenia and I believed that is what's wrong with me. I get disability payment that pays for my home and such. Now because I have no positive symptoms (much negative though) they're calling me sane and I don't know what to do with that. I've been used to being some sort of victim of a defective mind .. but as it is not being poisoned now, it seems that I only have motivation issues and trouble looking on the bright side of events. Always when I'm alone for too long I start to think negative thoughts. I can sort of **""hear"" these negative thoughts** and comments - it's with everything I do and it's driving me crazy. I thought of killing myself but in the end don't have the balls to go through with it. I think a lot of euthanasia - which is an option in the Netherlands but seems kind of definitive for someone who's physically okay. I don't know anymore if I'm a schizophrenic or just a horrible person that caused his own failures. Some psychologist would call my negative thoughts ""behaviour"" and I don't know what to do with that comment ... I'm not causing the thoughts in my experience, I'm actually hearing them. I'm stuck in a life that's mostly determined by illness. I find it hard to motivate myself. Every monday someone is coming to check on me and she sort of wants me to do something like a volunteer job but I don't feel motivated/fit for that. I'm totally locked in my thoughts. And other people would call me a negative person that sucks the energy from them (even my mom). I feel like I'm such a failure in life.",3.4502953426732286,5.713314769784169,4.196691278556102,84.51973210904963,75.1630695443645,7.459018048718921,28.959295721317677,8.371475516178862,2.2131812949640293,1717,75,327,32,38,548,204,417,0.17,0.743,0.087,-0.9904,1,1,2,0,0,1,49.0,0,0,2,5,15,17,4,0,21,1,31,11,0,7,3,71,72,25,1,5,9,1,4,3,0,3,11,3,1,2,28,20,0,0,21,1,2,4,15,9,0,2,17,9,44,8,47,49,11,37,0,0,2,0,17,13,1,13,23,225,72,5,0.0,0.0,0.07846420155949584,0.17530779852043568,0.0,0.0,0.07127465360232152,0.0,0.08051452673310826,0.08327588313640706,0.0,0.0,0.06690384459963476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06151001265681146,0.0,0.07974068311366599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157797132295779,0.0,0.0,0.07554364503127207,0.0,0.0,0.049014466612798034,0.0,0.0,0.18117900305048187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24630911717726295,0.0,0.08197879962994709,0.16519726220582806,0.0,0.0692622470774037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08229847008819574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09324489119976896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07121543660149493,0.0,0.0,0.05310709621646139,0.0,0.06774512940526728,0.0,0.07226330847163849,0.07865203987518067,0.0,0.0,0.08131090679017555,0.05744172883298504,0.0,0.0,0.07348920048271528,0.0683929052850891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042008572370658186,0.0,0.09139263468754164,0.0,0.1286152998327398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440551286035432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18124575874903934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065330545420532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678449728540236,0.07979008471411428,0.0,0.0889568091812971,0.08372998947106053,0.13256633443288904,0.06554124096940503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135856116482018,0.11784624593393987,0.0,0.0,0.07115636648052356,0.06752039705964444,0.0,0.0,0.06835790881800953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118666727777116,0.09416998845199964,0.0,0.0,0.05910731832596916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07715127745197183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061152031050065024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07675617931350931,0.05574307257367623,0.14041402003967382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08552118164627748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07939076363066523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06394170707448052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463963548247593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13625469435118967,0.06190010755370441,0.0,0.0,0.05691145009448089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16714427100817494,0.060454954215532784,0.0,0.07027797984953711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10304123781219808,0.07899802792030848,0.5106640944633516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388891289165053,0.0,0.0,0.047425266592321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142355673756047,0.17582165610244807,0.0,0.15533558113751236 schizophrenia,Sincerefriend,2019/08/27,"Schizophrenia community/ support group in India? Hello Friends I am from India and was wondering if there is any suport group like UK has where they can counsel and provide direction/ career counselling etc.. after psychosis. Also which psychiatrist and psychologist (specialist in schizophrenia) would you recommend ?? Many Thanks!!",9.807551020408162,14.059252612244899,7.497306122448977,58.76555102040818,63.6938775510204,9.634285714285717,40.41224489795919,9.888512548439397,5.629682448979592,274,15,28,7,5,80,43,49,0.0,0.748,0.252,0.9303,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,6,9,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,4,7,1,4,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,2,2,22,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28229066736006336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24004929435003103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3936837020237604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727237312523172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17245595013926085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3578824043143899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4005755267580286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3249911679054036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828089600392586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507581360186162,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AdamElam,2019/08/27,"i dont know if its bpd or schizophrenia I talk to my self sometimes and I think evryone knows what im thinking somtimes I dont fell any remorse for the dead but sometimes I do what is wrong with me help me i also push evryone avay and italk to my self btw my grandma from my dads side brother is a schizo",0.5542857142857152,2.6206048181818207,1.853809523809524,98.565,84.15151515151516,3.771428571428572,24.58008658008658,3.1291,-0.05839134199134133,242,10,55,0,7,77,46,66,0.107,0.816,0.078,-0.4297,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,10,9,6,1,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,12,0,5,9,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,2,0,33,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16763946139310934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425542501598418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640191678311468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4913649843736488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14050925102939765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22643424682881566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304121681975716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43737551094345656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4146549674954868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684910714918003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686423568959289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291953449491444,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ruggier9,2019/08/27,"Myelin-thinning Gene Linked to Psychiatric Disorders Hello all. Saw this in my google news feed yesterday and thought people here might be interested. Article talks about a specific gene that was pinpointed that is linked with many different psychiatric disorders (including schizophrenia) which was at least part of the cause I've heard talked about for years, thinning of the myelin sheath that insulates signalling between nerve cells.",10.385217391304352,13.158749840579715,7.064463768115946,68.99321739130437,57.84057971014493,12.476521739130435,39.88695652173914,11.979248473330829,5.811490434782609,365,18,50,12,5,101,57,69,0.0,0.96,0.04,0.4019,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,1,1,9,8,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,1,10,1,3,5,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,1,2,29,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666980638522249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712443965223685,0.5950869030096357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632107809963903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754124965315532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281139795612922,0.0,0.17998566477512756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4173404489241201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20610681353564936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671847672032149 schizophrenia,Rodchinko,2019/08/27,"New Goal I’ve been a regular member of the other schizophrenia forum, forum.schizophrenia.com but lately I’ve been visiting that website all day and all night due to inability to concentrate without my phone. I want to cut that time down to once per week. Also, I’m on my third week as a peer coach and go to China in 2 weeks. So things are pretty good! :)",3.569565217391304,5.657084434782615,4.6283333333333365,82.36250000000003,74.21739130434783,7.498550724637681,23.09420289855073,8.344100000000001,1.3946115942028987,282,8,54,5,6,92,54,69,0.09699999999999999,0.737,0.166,0.8076,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,7,6,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,2,0,3,1,11,4,2,14,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,9,32,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052105400739836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654919113341158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458371035291871,0.2152318902426772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894667151767785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478350730168972,0.0,0.2408106508924602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27328076349243585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261064134170285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704799624675806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496310744489265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15135494315421968,0.0,0.6175100344071462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473624197145195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lard-Sack,2019/08/27,Does anyone else feel like their memory is fragmented? All my memories feel like they are extremely distant from each other. Does anyone else experience this or is it just me?,5.3115053763440905,8.26942187096774,5.949677419354843,70.81118279569894,72.2258064516129,10.58494623655914,26.46236559139785,10.504223727775694,3.7449913978494624,142,5,22,5,3,46,25,31,0.0,0.8440000000000001,0.156,0.6553,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,6,5,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3393193130027203,0.4972270794723685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4246721157360827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4053894733063255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373486564114089,0.0,0.0,0.2453723324769285,0.3466843881504902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370834728078932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Prusseen,2019/08/27,"Is this psychosis? I have just recently had an episode (one of three, and they are becoming more common recently, with the first one happening about 10 months ago, and the second one happening around 2 weeks ago), which I feel is similar to undergoing psychosis. The suspected episode was as follows: I was having a regular conversation about politics. The usual. That's when I felt it begin. I felt some force take control of me, like it struggled against my mind, possessing me like some sort of demon. I was left the watcher of hands that had been taken out of my control. The only thing I could control anymore was my internal consciousness, everything else felt hijacked. Suddenly, I began ranting on about some very sensitive topics, eventually ending up in rants that didn't make sense at all (not from a logical perspective, but from a linguistic one - the ideas didn't even make sense anymore) and then I began ranting on about even more random things, insulting those around me like I had been drunk. I had nothing to do but watch as people replied to me infuriated, but then my mind began to regain half-control, attempting to signal to the listeners that I was undergoing a mental breakdown and, once I felt like I could control myself again, I apologised to them, tell them that my mind just broke down. Thankfully, they were accepting, but the question still remains: is that psychosis? I can share the other two experiences in an edit if you desire.",7.754751908396948,8.60480473282443,7.5054103053435135,70.41819179389316,62.74045801526717,11.130152671755726,36.985687022900755,10.9516,4.380380916030534,1168,54,190,30,16,371,148,262,0.081,0.8240000000000001,0.095,0.3848,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,4,6,13,10,1,1,16,0,24,2,1,6,1,45,42,14,0,4,8,0,6,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,14,8,1,4,11,1,0,1,3,3,0,8,22,8,31,7,32,18,6,32,1,1,1,0,11,11,0,7,24,150,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16679377524212866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18660560107557503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16750358588540493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039047709779002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5275976736194078,0.15023160953688844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07859237489573014,0.0,0.08332759912489361,0.0,0.0,0.12427886524028008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08455369070414179,0.09202900328686077,0.0,0.0,0.04757004217643953,0.0,0.3613290054407464,0.0,0.0,0.08002501798132752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16639055164480093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620568878139344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10221898472295718,0.0,0.0,0.18385236325482893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12559923110318166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481124438563568,0.0,0.2849841433844227,0.0,0.07509433838637501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902729945400124,0.0,0.0,0.10019290336189927,0.2550061406789469,0.0715526320161028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06522372995339665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539194517319717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18578673506008905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07513298978853004,0.0,0.0,0.09835360255379848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07073699790924214,0.0,0.08223070182071524,0.08661689290526943,0.0,0.0,0.12500610863616313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09190319941997001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10361662872046756,0.07762645237239353,0.0,0.0,0.07546588401329953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,unknownalone012498,2019/08/27,Advice Any advice at all on living with schizophrenia,6.619999999999997,10.310975444444443,4.964444444444447,75.50000000000003,72.33333333333334,3.6,20.11111111111111,3.1291,0.2542444444444445,45,1,5,0,1,13,8,9,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8686756934074739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30225964803484073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3924813942760839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bendude14,2019/02/11,"Making friends while psychotic Now this is a very strange experience that I had in my most recent stay in the psych hospital for a severe psychotic episode. All of my teenage years and my time in high school I felt alone, unnapreciated,no friends,barely any interaction with girls. I suffered from severe social anxiety and depression throughout those years and was in so much pain feeling like nobody liked me and that they were turned off by my anxious and depressed appearance. I had my first psychotic episode shortly after I turned 18 and was admitted into a psych ward which made me have to drop out of school my senior year. After the hospitilization I was stuck at home with only one friend who was a girl I met in the hospital. This went on for a year where I was stuck at home and got so depressed I had to be hospitilized two more times. In november of 2018 I entered into my second psychotic episode where I was of course admitted into the hospital yet again with very severe psychosis. Something changed, I was becoming friends with practically everyone and had intense emotional relationships with very pretty girls. One goergeous 29 year old girl approached me out of nowhere, hugged me and told me how perfect I was and almost kissed me on the lips before a tech had to seperate us. Now I didnt look all that good, because of my mental state my facial hair got very long and my hair got long greasy and unkept but that didnt stop practically every guy,girl,and nurse treating me like I was the coolest guy ever when all my life I was ignored,bullied,unnapreciated. Now I had an everything is centering around me delusion but I couldnt have hallucinated all those interactions but now that Im stuck back home with no friends, returning social anxiety,and feeling like I'm a complete nobody again, the whole thing feels like a strange dream. When im manic and psychotic do I put out an aura that attracts people to a major degree?. Now I'm out again where girls are giving me blank looks where as in the hospital they were all over me. I know this is a confusing and strange post but I just wanted to share my experience. 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I'm a 16 years old boy from Italy and I don't know who to talk to about this so I'll just post my fear here. Can someone tell me their early signs of schizophrenia? I've done a lot of research online and I actually have around the 13% of chance of developing schizophrenia (my father is schizophrenic and so is my grandma). I feel like I'm experiencing some symptoms. I isolate myself from my new classmates because I don't like them and we don't have anything to talk about (we are really different people, for real). This makes me feel pretty bad when I'm in school but when I'm out I actually feel good. I've thought about getting a new group of friends since I'm not satisfied with my current one, and I read somewhere that this can be a symptom of schizophrenia too. I want to say that I've never been so good at socializing, so this may be the reason. I actually grew up in a healthy place without my father, so my environment isn't encouraging the development of schizophrenia. I feel like I'm becoming numb, I don't really even talk to my mom a lot because I find her a bit annoying (saying this breaks my heart but it's the truth), and I don't talk with my stepdad either. And this still reminds me of the isolation symptom. I am so different from my family and friends. I can speak English, they can't, I have different purposes in life, they just like to watch the tv. I feel so selfish and sad writing this but it's the truth. I've never had delusions or hallucinations of any kind. But I'm so scared I might have one someday, and I'm so scared about what would I do when the time will come. Can you find anything in what I said that is related to your story?",3.2453201970443364,4.8649227931034495,4.5835796387520515,84.33724137931036,73.9425287356322,7.730049261083742,27.65845648604269,8.418075326091056,1.8724249589490969,1364,53,281,24,28,452,163,348,0.121,0.76,0.11800000000000001,-0.6222,4,1,0,0,0,0,35.0,2,2,4,0,23,21,1,4,15,0,30,7,1,2,4,52,52,27,0,2,10,3,5,4,2,4,6,4,0,1,15,17,0,0,10,2,0,2,11,9,0,2,5,11,44,12,35,41,5,26,0,1,1,0,30,9,0,6,17,181,59,3,0.0,0.0,0.2717331918974248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06311994675676064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15276387871910047,0.08262838436957573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07749979623339025,0.1131629218346686,0.1025110394958148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10133405741559777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799551519557616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909275787693276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498582809818287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061305922448215075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08750127606508977,0.10444692184347028,0.23465979600704545,0.13261949622599886,0.0,0.0,0.16966934916611676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14342310351348164,0.0,0.04849397657553575,0.0,0.0,0.15570396169353942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099906898176296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665646602443312,0.05101076878603476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065560642503923,0.18138625102232564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15782239871062884,0.0,0.0,0.06195724998518455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846604735560316,0.0,0.10870822206991823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431751156415963,0.17928989366691406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09739768572699242,0.0,0.12579280197044473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12869769683124752,0.0,0.09697585958977586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08889472455610017,0.094430058437379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284388846791528,0.10564808131922812,0.11892416214513647,0.09543315490575356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08829190592585759,0.1476264233742654,0.18585556305249354,0.09393755099277866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07678064602968157,0.0,0.0,0.09461704746967567,0.07864504294352727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07412518993270102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894227263243142,0.0,0.29841684690921844,0.08112769647415723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07368773573274891,0.054123371443445915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054746915627699975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894739824108411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06593579138474794,0.0,0.0,0.05977224494851939 schizophrenia,Electronic_Office,2019/02/11,"In the psych ward right now :( any words of encouragement? I need them. I'm currently in the psych ward. We are allowed to use our cell phones for 2 hours every day, so this is from my phone. I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia a few years ago. I basically had a psychotic break at school. I still don't fully understand what happened, but I was called out from class and the police took me to the hospital. I asked my fiance what happened to me, but he said I don't need to worry about that now and he'll tell me once I'm more stable/in a good state of mind. They got me stabilized after a few days. I'm feeling much better. They were late on giving me my cogentin for the first few days so I had to deal with the tremors and muscle rigidity etc. but now I'm on track. It is just so depressing here. I tend to sleep all day. And there is this one guy here who will NOT shut the fuck up about some ex ""girlfriend"" whose house he broke into 3 times, all the times they had sex, etc. He just never shuts up about it, even though me and the other patients have told him to cool it. So I'm hiding in my room. I'm an extremely social person who needs a lot of human interaction but I'm definitely not getting it from these people, lol. Also, thanks to the nurse who gave me permission to keep potato chips in my room. I'll be out in a few days. A week at the longest. I just need a little pep talk or words of encouragement to get through this. I lose my phone at 6pm EST so if you comment after that I'll see it tomorrow. Thank you guys so much for everything. hugs",1.8170700232705703,3.571549067484668,3.2364692193780407,91.88082822085892,78.2638036809816,6.582441294690077,20.75058176433256,7.503015589744147,0.4885156759043792,1220,31,275,17,29,399,181,326,0.062,0.799,0.139,0.9796,2,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,2,2,4,3,22,13,1,1,20,2,15,5,1,2,3,40,47,19,0,5,11,1,1,0,1,2,1,1,2,4,18,11,0,2,2,0,0,1,5,5,0,2,11,4,33,8,43,33,13,46,0,3,1,3,41,21,1,4,22,177,51,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997933808086215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09002838418518609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07655672891077954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10524499724719816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09956586933214448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1149544673774716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3630166698006125,0.11606271463567196,0.09696304915668616,0.11426404420135887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511078946016593,0.07435654062858628,0.0,0.09485160789962756,0.0,0.10117762060321284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056922691834324274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09575857470741284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407631372125208,0.11763445342581315,0.10799483381661057,0.0,0.09442487357952306,0.09003870903137988,0.0,0.0,0.22293933939881244,0.19910426104501566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11086640445210574,0.1298996059008392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10006427481606246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12699260297918172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11283247845937028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259457034354529,0.0,0.09570957530033453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136714328972842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655151958841012,0.33389989389260394,0.08682689924614985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989162719053313,0.07628559539577902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07804723541450237,0.09829854699028784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614078144569536,0.1070872181345424,0.0,0.0,0.113934690940252,0.08970988944940599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11265905003145048,0.11475883655903872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08990473475850995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09048572925480038,0.0983979135797168,0.207292929621798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11060706555471324,0.0,0.1312899800533977,0.0,0.0,0.10757286236788274,0.12507801999879542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171974056527838,0.0,0.09723102836441626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030307864266494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143281674721138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07249637853064869 schizophrenia,Finikan,2019/02/11,"Why can’t I have a job like everyone else?! Oh my freaking lord. For fucks sake. I had 5 jobs last year and just got let go from my 5th. My car broke down two days ago and needs a new transmission. There are NO jobs that will hire me in town. I have NO money to buy a car that will reliably take me out of town. For. Fucks. Sake. Won’t any companies understand and hire schizophrenics? I’m literally at the end of my rope. If I didn’t have doggos to care for I would be traveling to six feet under. I’m not a bad worker. If anything, I try to work harder to make up for the sometimes difficult mood swings and psychotic features. I’ve tried keeping it secret, but it’s noticeable and I get fired. I’ve tried being honest about it and I get fired for “other reasons”. Fuck at will employment and fuck automatic discrimination.",0.9081137724550884,3.330204646706587,2.7167994011976053,90.45675598802393,86.36526946107784,6.453772455089822,20.326047904191626,7.734863291789972,0.8785451497005985,644,20,138,13,20,213,109,167,0.192,0.75,0.059000000000000004,-0.9729,4,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,3,12,4,0,6,0,15,6,1,2,0,20,31,10,0,4,5,0,2,1,0,5,1,0,0,0,6,8,0,1,3,1,2,4,6,8,0,2,3,2,14,3,21,20,0,19,1,1,0,4,1,9,4,2,7,79,20,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127841040976794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807355796975599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11867957662399148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041646340149333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14704042114599758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09300903242919296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047609096830188,0.0,0.12773482701928487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13780700277443067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5333108941431021,0.15069647765047875,0.0,0.08196272423333545,0.0,0.11534474729193482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4293439662180289,0.12818807172798222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175573650513922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14747323623260175,0.0,0.07045789769558622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962670005328836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10693622580823453,0.0,0.13928717214935024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16419377254611595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14828068670516825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426358314344103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10843439972700757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937447816093515,0.0,0.1408805654274717,0.15013659440163069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13013480763071275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049928204341124,0.0,0.0,0.1024487185259103,0.0,0.0,0.09287201639334712 schizophrenia,guyamas_sonora,2019/02/11,Having someone hospitalized My friend's roommate is definitely showing a ton of signs of schizophrenia and saying dangerous things. We're going to have him evaluated tomorrow. What does it usually take to have someone hospitalized? ,9.432342342342343,12.629716378378381,9.311891891891893,50.26801801801803,60.89189189189189,12.500900900900902,44.76576576576577,11.855464076750405,7.1101063063063075,194,12,22,7,3,63,32,37,0.08199999999999999,0.847,0.071,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,4,6,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214906406639907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838315150018939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20878657622689845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29214980274562313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6225480034728744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27621882112860474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440663371497413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4046095237347983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wistfulasterism,2019/02/11,"How do people go to school and work and things?? I’m a student and also have a job but I’m finding it more and more impossible. Each day the voices get worse, the paranoia comes back, and I’ve now been throwing up for a week because of the anxiety of it all. Then I try to get to class or work and pretend that everything is fine and that I’m so happy and not chronically ill at ~all~ and I just feel like I can’t do it anymore and that I’m a failure. Just so tired of pretending. 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My therapist just sent me a study on it. Background on my experience: Schizoaffective since May 2013. On Latuda and mostly symptom-free since July 2013. Over the past year or so I began experiencing what I thought is/could be HPPD from earlier drug use in my teens. For the unaware, HPPD is a result of the use of psychedelics, where visual distortions become integrated into your regular, sober life. [This](https://www.google.com/url?sa=i&source=images&cd=&cad=rja&uact=8&ved=2ahUKEwiw5PeOr7TgAhWFpFkKHUVkAp8QjRx6BAgBEAU&url=http%3A%2F%2Fhppdresearch.blogspot.com%2F2015%2F11%2Fwhat-its-like.html&psig=AOvVaw03Uh5UP_7kQvALnz-6TZ2B&ust=1549998121686556) is an example of what the visual field of someone with HPPD would look like. I've been discussing these visual distortions and HPPD-like symptoms with my therapist for about 8 months now. Basically in times of severe anxiety I have been experiencing psychedelic-like distortions and visuals. The best I can describe it is as colorful static vision, rare occurences of patterns forming in different levels of lighting or very intricately patterned walls or carpets, and points of light as well as floaters. Even when I am not anxious, these visuals occur at a lesser level. My positive symptoms have only ever been auditory. It doesn't seem to make sense that I'd develop one positive symptom while experiencing none of the other historic symptoms. This phenomenon was discussed in a case report that my therapist mailed me. [This](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/24047761) is a link to the abstract. What it discusses is this phenomenon being cause by antipsychotic drugs. In other words, in this occurrence discussed in the study, it is often misconstrued as another positive symptom. Of course I have no clear diagnosis on this symptom. Where it is the result of schizoaffective, HPPD, or PPA remains to be seen. However, if anyone has any similar experiences with something like this I'd love to discuss it. 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How many of us have involuntary movement and/or vocalizations as a part of our disorder. Coprolalia. I'm currently on guanfacine, and it isn't helping much. Is there an effective treatment that we know of?",4.974285714285712,8.396198333333338,5.386000000000003,71.40900000000002,77.57142857142857,9.074285714285717,34.590476190476195,9.3871,4.432813333333334,198,11,29,6,5,63,39,42,0.115,0.813,0.07200000000000001,-0.2139,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,3,0,7,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,6,5,2,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3824566772182096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3908116408349033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228562829965848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35591185185245616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874028109750066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3457170261566655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506717331560997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692660828924219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41017691840711423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Slechler,2019/02/11,"[Repost] UK Participants needed for online study on Unusual Experiences, Beliefs & Paranoia Hello, my name is Suzy Lechler. I am currently training as a Clinical Psychologist and as part of my doctoral degree, I am carrying out some important research that I hope you can help me with. Unusual experiences (e.g. hearing voices), unusual beliefs and paranoia are common. These experiences are often associated with past experiences and memories from childhood and adolescence. I am interested in your experiences and memories and would like to invite you to take part in my study. I am keen to hear from everyone; however these unusual experiences make you feel. It is hoped that this study will be valuable in providing information that could help improve approaches to psychological assessment and intervention that are intended to enhance the well-being of people who have psychotic type experiences and high levels of shame, in a non-pathologising way. You must be aged over 18, living in the UK and have a degree of fluency in English to participate in this study. If you would like to participate, you will be asked to complete a number of questionnaires via a secure online survey,to which there are no right or wrong answers. These should take approximately 30-40 minutes. In appreciation of your time, I am offering all participants the chance to be entered into a prize draw to \*\*win one of four £25 Love2Shop vouchers.\*\* Please click on the link below for further information about the purpose of this study and exactly what participation in the study will involve. You are in no way obliged to participate by clicking on this link. If you have any questions, please feel free to contact me on ([u1622874@uel.ac.uk](mailto:u1622874@uel.ac.uk)). Study link- [https://tinyurl.com/y86f284w](https://tinyurl.com/y86f284w) Many thanks in advance, Suzy.",10.400952963804864,12.1801063255814,9.131278195488722,57.81240601503761,57.172757475083074,12.848470012239904,41.091274698373844,12.303257153313005,5.9389495016611304,1528,76,208,49,19,473,169,301,0.045,0.79,0.165,0.9872,2,0,0,0,0,0,74.0,0,10,0,3,3,14,0,1,12,0,28,2,0,2,3,43,40,15,0,10,3,0,2,2,0,7,2,3,0,0,15,14,0,1,11,0,1,3,2,2,0,2,0,7,21,13,49,28,4,34,2,0,2,0,24,23,0,8,8,148,36,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11226190888135244,0.0,0.07045867752794856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686180990193853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10863361419155128,0.0,0.0,0.0827245352736882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10604971388237262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900425120266368,0.0,0.7094564967322486,0.0,0.0,0.10477714095260199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23355307622524174,0.0,0.13889583785644022,0.1094701578918266,0.0,0.20581716453327528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10123769129618844,0.0,0.09148994969990387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06916079815541104,0.10504476168859543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07682585608448925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07020914088796612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22440010032677826,0.09890792436576877,0.07183045919356162,0.0,0.0,0.2274663808960184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606744696297736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848278150783721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15580436891374885,0.0,0.0,0.0953906070037788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06041610253498327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16448234844167253,0.0,0.0,0.0931582622230803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472038207076101,0.11328179189727093,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,butchsofty,2019/02/11,"unconventional signs and symptoms are there any traits or habits that you've noticed in yourself or others that aren't usually brought up as being part of shizo(phrenia/affective/typal/ect)? in my experience, having some kind of collection, and/or gender non-conformance are common things i haven't seen talked about much",15.358333333333327,12.17596742592593,12.421481481481482,54.09666666666668,50.66666666666667,15.985185185185184,47.37037037037037,13.816669648895859,6.488659259259259,267,11,38,7,2,80,47,54,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,5,8,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,7,5,3,6,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,3,2,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22802890194269915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3280070199642854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3491838784045328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464985698139467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3817637132229483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3631185701225338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.348525571139031,0.0,0.2695172818512525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227715160799404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693072878275838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ninetyflower,2019/02/11,"Hallucinations and delusions worsening with my medication? Recently I was placed on a fairly low dose of Abilify and Lexapro, as well as my usual vitamins. Along with the normal side effects like nausea and vomiting, I noticed that my hallucinations and delusions have become more frequent and more intense. The medication makes me feel more lucid so I feel like I shouldn’t be having these problems. Is there anything I can do?",6.950045045045044,9.530875986486492,7.23891891891892,65.13018018018019,66.16216216216216,9.798198198198195,36.65765765765766,10.125756701596842,4.485917117117117,349,18,50,9,6,113,54,74,0.10099999999999999,0.7809999999999999,0.11800000000000001,-0.1197,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,3,0,8,5,0,2,0,15,11,8,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,1,5,0,0,0,2,8,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,9,3,7,8,3,7,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,5,40,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20477554838161974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748261500550746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516437200384,0.1777725879539188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.243143008238758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16610379296878824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.501363744821277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438120699671871,0.0,0.2833079689903517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599866538318312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381079372666031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457011966213097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27406401924497703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237386079157613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cthula-Hoops,2019/02/11,"It's been a while. Can't say I'm glad to be back. I would not read this if you're easily swayed emotionally, its maybe not your average depression post, peak nihilism ahead. I got on this site mainly to interact in this sub when I was first starting to deal with symptoms. I have been in control of my paranoid compulsions for I think about a year now so I left because I figured reminding myself to be a schizophrenic is probably not great for progress. As far as I know, I have never had balls to wall hallucinations until a few weeks ago when I found the profile of an old girlfriend who is no longer with us and tried to find out how she had an active account by messaging her. She looked young, like highschool before I even met her. It took her a half hour or so to reply but she basically just said she was the devil and insisted on it a few times. I am not a spiritual person, the devil doesn't exist. I know a shitload about whats going on with me neurologically, I am a couple years from being able to treat it. Ironically, I picked psychology then neuroscience because I really feel this mental health thing, before I really knew I had problems of my own. Family stuff. Theres no reason the devil should be there. The last few weeks have shown me why being this way sucks fucking ass. I used to be almost delusionally optimistic about it, I wish to renounce that opinion and Im gonna be honest, I just need a pity party. Like I said, I don't believe in the devil or whatever. Still have to look at him though. He has been everywhere, most of the time hiding iniside whatever is in my field of view. I have been spotting corpses and dead animal that are pretty far away but its like my eyes are drawn to them, I pick them out instantly and my feet and hands and my junk have been burned a bunch. I am thankful for the kind of insight I have and how it helps me quickly realize after the fact what reality is but last week it failed. I saw him in snowy pine tree branches hanging over the sidewalk. I figure confrontation and defiance of what harms us take the harm away. I figure if I am not afraid of getting killed or mugged and not letting the devil change my path, they stop being a problem. This time he looked a little ridiculous, like he didnt mean to be in the tree, I thought was about to solve everything with that ""epiphany"" I started fodling and picking apart the the tree branch because reality is just a thin sheet covering the surface of another universe. I ""rationalized"" that this being might not be the devil, he just makes me nervous because he's unfamiliar. See, I is smart brain study man, is known of things, Im immune to delusion. Boy howdy is my ego sore now. Lol Hes not trying to scare me, the pain in my extemities and the fact that my pupils havent been the same size for a while are part of a different undiagnosed neurological disorder.He is basically trying to show me how to visit his dimension and I got a hard on for that, whatever I was going to find there was going to change EVERYTHING.back here. Forget that though, I am here because I am angry about the entire human population including close friends have all jilted me for things I cant control and I am concvinced my life is over because I am ""takinf a break"" from college to ""work on myself"" but thats just denial speak for ""I probably will never finish my masters"" I confide in my friends and suddenly I haven't seen or heard from them in weeks. Those who talk with me superficially on facebook are patronizing as hell. I'm not stupid, they don't give out four year degrees for just hanging out and being a bro but people treat me so delicately it actually makes me cringe sometimes. Now even strangers get nervous because one pupi of minel is twice the size of the other, now II just look the part! I have actual crazy eyes. Sick. I am furious, I am living in solitary confinement and I have never hurt anybody. I get to scream at the guards on facebook and watch TV, thats my social life now, I even found myself justifying murder because it would be cathartic and basically inconseqential to my lifestyle. Very Anti social and unhealthy processes. Theres an old man who wanders around my area but I usually see him sitting still with his eyes shut. I would bet $1000 he is a classical catatonic schizophrenic, he reminds me of a wise elf or something. He has an amazing beard too, one of the best. He should be painted sitting under a lone tree in a green field. I am not in his head so I could be way off but he does not look disturbed, he just sits in one place for hours with the most irritatingly peaceful look on his face and he is the most charming character I have seen by virtue of pure lack of fucks to give. He either can't or won't participate in this this headless blunder of a culture and that is beautiful in a way. Here is hoping he is able to shelter himself but he could be out there peacfully dying of pneumonia in the snow and I could be in a similar situation in 20 years. But you know, I never lifted a finger or sent a dime his way. I probably think about and appreicate this guy more than anybody unless he has family members out there who lost track. What is wrong with me/us? Why are we passively cruel? Well I know why but it borders on conspiracy theories, idk if thats allowed here but it seems inappropriate. It boils down to us denying our natural inclinations too much. Empathy is on its way out, evolutionarily speaking. I have always speculated that some flavors of mentally ill people did not suffer as much in days of yore but I am certain at this point. Schizophrenics in particular were often spiritual guides and religious leaders. Those positions don't always serve to benefit people, buf the whole ""Ew, he's a schizo. Lets avoid him"" thing is brand spanking new in terms of human history. Bi polar folks as well, I doubt the lows are quite so low when you are surrounded by family and friends who will be there with you for life. Today bi polar people seclude themselves and binge drink for fucks sake. The absolute majority of schizophrenics who have adversarial delusions or unpleasant hallucinations wouldn't have to face satan alone either! Even though only you can see him, your friends and family genuinely believe you are being tormented and they have your back. Today you get ""im sowwy its gon b k. Never going to hang out again though. What fuckin' wierdo"" elaborate hallucinations are such a novel concept today. Again, I am thankful every minute that I have a grasp on cognitive psychotherapy but I imagine most schizophrenics do something thats not neuroscience and some are so fucked off cognition-wise they can't use Reddit let alone care for themselves. They get no help from anybody. Schizophrenia makes you an untouchable in my culture while we jerk off psychopathy because ""they are better suited for tumultuous situations and can think more rationally in general and thbhnfjtng"" Well I am really good at introspection and intellectual honesty, plus I am not a self serving, walking defect in human empathy and I am compulsively driven by and obsessed with the concept of truth. Its not a super power, I fuck up a lot but I definitely see things differently than most folks, thats sort of what I am entails. Even autism gets a pedestal because like 4 savants exist even though autism is often vastly more socially stunting than schizophrenia and schizophrenics trend toward the higher side of cognitive function, you can't win though. You're not a precious disbled person, you are a goddamn nightmare. Weirdo, no compassion for you. /s You are valuable even though everybody is scared you'll bite if they pat you on the head. It is our cultures fault that you deal with the extent of social BS that you deal with. The west is collectively deluding itself into hyperindividualsm which is not only harmful to society, its a straight up lie, a fucking *delusion.* We are ""independent"" from one another? How many of you farm, hunt and generate your own electricity while working a 9 to 5? Its total bullshit, we clearly depend on eachother now more than ever. My carreer path boils down to reading and writing things which is very fullfilling work but I can't eat the DSM, wear it in the snow or watch porn on it. The way me and many of you are being treated is hardly if at all our fault. Don't buy into this self-sus bootstrap lie, human societes are supposed to help eachother. People should feel obligated to throw you a fucking a bone. Don't even entertain suicidal thoughts, go homocidal instead if you really need to think unclean thoughts. I can't condone violence but I can't really blame you all that much if you decide to skull fuck your boss and then blow his brains out because you know what? These, ""competant, rational, sane and compassionate"" people should have known better than to let a spooky scary schizophrenic sit there and stew in loneliness and rage. Also if you must kill, kill one of those motherfuckers who think its cute to be mentally ill. Its the opposite of cute, people are afraid of me, I am untouchable, literally no physical human contact in months. Feelsfuckinbad. Several friends thought I was bullshitting because apparently schizophrenia is just so hot right now. This group is full of those people too and they should all get fucked before I start turning their rectums inside out and nailing them to posts. *you people* are SOLELY responsible for the social desensitization of mental illness and suicidality. Nobody cares when you say ""i hate myself and I wish I was dead"" because suicide is edgy and ""schizophrenic""looks cute embroidered into your gay denim jacket next to all your sellout punk bands that you have never actually listened to. Get a real goddamn personality or kys. People are dying or having their lives destroyed because you are scared of not being interesting? Unironically kys. TL;DR. was really bitter, after writing I feel less murdery, though most humans are berry berry shallow and berry bad people. I lost whatever point I may have been trying to make. The ""im so crazy lol Im like, bipolar and schizo"" crew need to be publicly shamed into obscurity and you know, public executions can bring people together too. I am pretty much snowed in and everyone in my life hates me now so if you want to ask me something or just talk, you are more than welcome to message me. In fact somebody please message me. 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I tell myself when this happens that the paranoia is 9/10 unwarranted and that even if it's a hallucination, I can just pop an extra half an zyprexa (approved by my psych) and feel better and maybe even sleep faster, and that if it is a hallucination it means that I'm completely physically safe. It doesn't really work though, and I repeat in my head ""they're gonna get me"" until the extra zyprexa kicks in and sometimes even after. I have to keep my music or youtube on calming stuff so that I don't freak out even more some nights. &#x200B; Not necessarily looking for advice (although it would be appreciated), as I really can't change my sleep (I've tried) and my healthy side of my brain isn't helping, but looking for solidarity or support.",8.160900473933651,6.567158573459718,8.745161137440757,69.94551421800948,62.7914691943128,11.094028436018961,36.26587677725119,9.888512548439397,3.393204360189573,853,32,162,14,10,288,120,211,0.054000000000000006,0.81,0.136,0.9651,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,3,10,5,0,0,10,0,14,6,5,2,1,35,33,25,0,4,11,0,3,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,15,12,0,2,5,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,1,8,20,4,20,29,6,17,0,0,3,0,3,8,0,7,9,115,35,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12055348393621605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336688461965473,0.1499052529237302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10152110153300338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504076038612954,0.0,0.10497682214711103,0.0,0.0,0.1091087010266842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377191479791359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305066635390447,0.0,0.12934868123873106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32593279665981617,0.11159314323374912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12475682694572215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12890905784649986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909364542898632,0.0,0.11051322300594148,0.0,0.12661084684649002,0.0,0.13904435857079925,0.0,0.08269076560685955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10965487588860864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071955860242429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16469778901117002,0.0,0.12393943156422375,0.13438358654171131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157722247795226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26719038359459385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31613001819792624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09830808059757552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3703703695940112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12201380504731114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14122649553077074,0.0,0.1399961985289736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10782880324786892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07904903770894006,0.12120813415277334,0.09794016967606847,0.0,0.14179301750050896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08375856696622898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10179126864248966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898131514009224,0.0,0.0,0.08763687107131528,0.0,0.1499052529237302,0.0 schizophrenia,madkplusplus,2019/02/11,"Update on girlfriend. Just wanted to write this down and share with someone. Accidentally took my girlfriend off unit for more time than I was allowed. Every other time I've seen her she's been allowed to go with me for an hour, so today I assumed things were the same. After 30 minutes the unit called her and said she wasn't allowed to be gone so long. So we immediately went back and I got told I was ""clearly irresponsible"" and no longer have permission to go off unit with her at all. Only her parents can now, her parents that don't give a shit about her and pick and choose when to help her and when to be complete assholes. No real point to this post I'm just angry and sad. When I've visited and we went for a drive before she was happy and her delusions were basically gone in those moments. I just want her to get better and discharged already, she's been there for over a month now. How much longer are they going to hold her there? What does she need to do to get discharged? She's getting better and isn't so deep in her delusions, they even let her have her phone back. Which is why I'm so confused by the reduced off unit time. 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I get a ssi check for schitzophrenia even though I believe I don't have mental illness. Been to the mental hospital involuntarily like over 10 times probably. I hear gods voice though. She sometimes tell me ""Go to sleep baby"", when I am trying to go to sleep. I can hear her voice in many ways , it's always a voice of love. I don't think hearing her voice is schitzophrenia. I basically now in essence get a ssi check for being lazy. Because I went through a temporary time where I was shocked and lost track of reality. Now that temporary time is over and I feel I'll never have a reason to go to the mental hospital again. I know by definition I don't fit the description of schitzophrenia. As I can hear gods voice and be totally grounded in rational reality. Really I only post this because I love hearing gods voice. She is a nice god. 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I have schizophrenia, I take CBD, and it helps a lot, takes away my anxiety, I don't get stuck in my delusions and crap anymore :D ",5.16,5.809743225806455,4.5388709677419365,90.12830645161293,68.35483870967742,7.490322580645162,31.62903225806452,7.1686216300943375,1.6901483870967744,124,5,26,1,2,37,23,31,0.121,0.562,0.317,0.7885,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,0,2,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792336694372644,0.0,0.36199445565871374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429413894359252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19070403832181287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4893205550203706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103206923531172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5488881556715359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RUBEniteRL,2019/02/11,"Schizophrenia treatment broken (Rant) So basically I get a shot once a month to keep me from going psychotic, problem is that the shot makes me anhedonic, I believe it’s the shot because before treatment life was a fucking rollercoaster. Anyways so they put me on an antidepressant to make me feel better. Maybe I feel better maybe I don’t who knows with those things. Anyhow now I’m anxious as all hell but I’m not anxious about anything in particular, I just have this vibe of negative energy coursing thru my body collecting at my gut that makes me wanna scream. So they put me on benzos, fair enough everyone enjoys benzos right? Anyhow now the collection of the medication that I’m on, 2 of which haven’t been mentioned and are for other side effects, has got me fatigued all day, I’m talking 12-14hrs of sleep everyday. So then they put me on amphetamines. WTF IS THIS it’s like I have some mediocre janky stability where if I take my pills at the wrong time I’m either sleeping all day or feel like shit or I take the wrong pill or whatever the fuck my life has become, I literally wake up like really dude I promise you if you take a weeks worth of all that shit you will end this misery ",3.699935622317597,5.759333789699568,4.703714592274679,82.08921995708157,73.76394849785406,7.750128755364808,26.67145922746781,8.548686976883017,1.9757984549356231,955,35,181,18,20,311,140,233,0.213,0.6779999999999999,0.109,-0.9863,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,3,3,4,10,17,5,0,12,0,12,15,7,4,4,29,33,13,0,4,9,0,3,3,0,1,6,1,0,0,14,2,0,1,5,0,1,4,4,10,0,0,3,4,28,7,22,29,7,25,1,1,0,2,9,11,5,8,13,114,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26443814708268965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631189895704466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07134498014066086,0.12925873525451512,0.09959030127522196,0.13186119596745993,0.0,0.20702033429375705,0.0,0.1300022900253319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15095902409213782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10366049579157308,0.12093103451759266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183435688210122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17753304578396106,0.083611620936511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21639858520955554,0.061147268727791464,0.0,0.06651511438750217,0.0,0.09360558878300668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10402831694352392,0.0,0.0,0.06432075501402504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533410985216812,0.17153584761469293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343703413502038,0.0,0.23515982055664625,0.0,0.0,0.11790297892882246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09341822433410628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246411290660705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198909135457014,0.0,0.3529650723009685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07497722618796979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999493945448094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402746454520661,0.0,0.0,0.23424406732115305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639929273525269,0.09407031769417536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07775452151680158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06824551360417898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388043138555943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559242899044817,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,narlymech,2019/02/11,"Do you think sz are mind control victim? They have a lot of mind control: people , TV, government, the mysterious supernatural thing, etc.",6.436521739130434,9.236124173913042,7.3645652173913065,62.74510869565219,68.13043478260869,9.817391304347826,33.23913043478261,10.125756701596842,4.1164956521739136,108,5,16,3,2,36,21,23,0.091,0.909,0.0,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,6,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,11,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.636784572509221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165979861797624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413421437527836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5732698575413148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19680462534502893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18859531947619693,0.18189697182474746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,buzso95,2019/02/11,"Unclear diagnosis... not sure what is going on Hey so I am currently going to my psychiatrist every month to get my monthly prescription of olanzapine because I've been having hallucination for the past year now. I'm getting more and more frustrated because my psychiatrist is trying to get me off my meds and is saying that she doesn't believe im schizophrenic because I am able to realize when I am having hallucinations. I think this is complete bs since just because you know something isn't real it doesn't mean that you are not experiencing it. Of course I know that my voices aren't real when I'm sitting in a car by myself and theres no else there yet I still hear voices... On top of this there are now making me fill out a form for ADHD which is completely unrelated to my problems and they think I have depression and anxiety. I really don't know what to do, it's almost as if they are waiting for me to have a mental breakdown to diagnose me. Has anyone else experienced this? What was your experience getting diagnosed? I'm pretty good at keeping my shit together but I'm starting to get really fed up. &#x200B; Thanks!",4.289086757990867,6.2801682511415535,6.073721461187216,73.18720319634707,71.96803652968036,9.0675799086758,29.97488584474885,9.586721724236666,3.1121433789954334,913,39,160,23,18,314,126,219,0.075,0.88,0.045,-0.5042,1,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,2,1,11,7,2,0,4,0,24,5,1,1,1,27,48,11,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,13,6,1,2,7,0,0,4,8,4,0,0,3,6,26,3,24,45,3,25,0,1,0,0,9,8,1,3,12,115,39,0,0.11963649358348953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14377981639319284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197986668681713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12962609081411186,0.14537143457071136,0.0,0.0,0.09152159013188654,0.0,0.0,0.08365261800060461,0.1225817256630036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917171842508332,0.0,0.0,0.13478935982509346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25087317468549303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030427366183882,0.2428570453176719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19988187793889867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100798905723748,0.0,0.0,0.1170274471679198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125256504159832,0.0,0.1359843526551473,0.1003454147028386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483902318410165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129227942795541,0.0,0.0,0.10633841246184184,0.0,0.0,0.1972472643266466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985828845957679,0.0,0.0,0.13031921415232414,0.13288917425437913,0.0,0.12056544672856245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19098541555922927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420657027685838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12171332407022815,0.0,0.11447596709801927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723450429194066,0.1532844025141653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951397415548364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12280514144084308,0.09896454378167484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09210201767081704,0.0,0.0,0.08467932592404702,0.0,0.0955418583165336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275597936269438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11014520962184547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15331646875682986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08122532599750018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14537143457071136,0.07704197943124905 schizophrenia,Reign-of-fire,2019/10/22,"What do suicidal thoughts feel like? I’m afraid my Zyprexa 5 mg that I take as needed is causing me suicidal thoughts. I feel like I cannot escape and feel really ashamed and beaten psychologically after taking it today. There’s no move I can make to escape this feeling. Been taking zyprexa for years now for schizoaffective disorder. Are the suicidal thoughts a side effect only in the first few weeks of treatment and when one is a young kid/teenager? I’m well into my late twenties. I feel like I need help, but there is no way for me to say how I’m feeling. I suffer from paranoid delusions.",3.8562608695652174,6.014988408695654,4.4915217391304365,83.34336956521744,73.6086956521739,7.034782608695654,28.89130434782609,7.908726449838941,1.9790173913043485,477,20,88,7,10,152,77,115,0.239,0.662,0.099,-0.9513,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,6,8,1,2,4,0,8,0,0,4,0,20,26,7,3,2,1,0,6,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,10,0,0,1,3,4,1,2,4,7,11,4,11,22,1,14,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,12,53,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14309492201817167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596447922235052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4225921559839209,0.29853835099411125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11848474142594788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933668849319888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15713147123347496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20415833951340728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298087520599316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14804914728463894,0.0,0.20657180159007754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09439028382169158,0.1059405585482294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08923630956860078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077342887355393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45710023784928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141988012478795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33175537142226114,0.0,0.0,0.1320359137846229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11056634048436932,0.11173450477552817,0.0,0.12524344694095638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897017806579425 schizophrenia,EvinandtheNorth,2019/10/22,I need to get away from therapy I always share everything in therapy it feels invasive like I can’t have any secrets. I have something I really don’t want to tell her but I know I will and she either already knows and it’s part of her plan or she’ll try to stop me and I don’t want to be stopped ever again. I want it all in my own hands under my own control and I can’t have that with the constant meddling always meddling everyone around me s a creep. I don’t want her fucking medication bleaching my brain and taking away my epiphanies and my love who’s already almost gone. How to I appear normal long enough for her and everyone else to leave me the fuck alone. I’ve told to many people always watching seeing what I’ll do. I need to separate from everyone without arousing concern. Is there any way to do that.,2.071249999999999,4.1657824345238135,3.676428571428573,87.40607142857145,78.82142857142857,6.5809523809523816,25.380952380952376,7.645422480735847,1.4126238095238095,651,25,131,10,16,216,97,168,0.085,0.815,0.1,0.0879,0,1,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,5,5,2,0,3,0,14,7,3,2,2,32,32,10,0,7,4,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,9,0,3,4,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,2,4,27,3,21,27,6,15,0,0,2,4,12,6,2,3,7,90,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12046700593657303,0.12459858754956413,0.26551675199312696,0.0,0.3003075161062658,0.0,0.0,0.16362159275402322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709600175473484,0.0,0.0,0.22605900087121564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134298970446516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000580731850608,0.13493108480291094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10049849470685614,0.0,0.0,0.1243061167991826,0.0,0.0,0.10882179032543514,0.0,0.34486667589184244,0.1081214131644342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0608292806804285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224380856042673,0.06285383697203123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13223178512083025,0.0,0.0,0.12738448914194664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05877442239123714,0.0,0.0,0.10646519045747953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108578991918698,0.0,0.0,0.12196930045370953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119355075529148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17840767636107355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787230641040553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13027743039551729,0.0,0.08340359593636569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07706977677797541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09586665474308396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09261584122409387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011589411739408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904535817805792,0.0,0.10515093560455817,0.0,0.2751560523152207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11495555863061414,0.0,0.08167847009440013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838334945970133,0.09549165828890724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11596869345061064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Deadeye_Joe49,2019/10/22,"I wish people saw the small battles that I face everyday I face thousands of minor battles for control of my own head. Then I lose one and fuck up and say things I don’t mean or things I don’t actually feel but get confused about at the time and people act like all I am is that mistake. I wish you could see how hard I fight all day, I don’t always lose. I win most of my battles. I’m sorry I lose one or two occasionally",0.5756763285024142,2.39555806521739,2.890144927536234,92.54857487922706,82.47826086956522,5.393236714975847,21.09178743961353,6.42735559955562,0.1380685990338164,330,10,77,3,9,113,58,92,0.294,0.574,0.132,-0.9161,0,0,0,0,1,0,5.0,0,1,0,5,2,12,5,1,2,0,6,4,3,2,2,18,15,8,0,4,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,10,0,4,1,5,15,2,7,13,4,8,0,3,2,1,3,3,1,4,5,50,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.16610805246430926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14163487434959035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19091377554951047,0.13590509026892048,0.0,0.0,0.10977642162126648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08606725170574604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15736364534067593,0.08893179315671684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524817457148666,0.0,0.17469260626443295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.083159836006971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5712906510317204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854171230731669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306880201505901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360152283348999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13536405420925246,0.0,0.0,0.13564157609076527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19054493002442624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22617033167301176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925538827807526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662780908981309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3914842188326591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tronean,2019/10/22,"You Helped Me Hello. It's me again. To everyone who read my stuff and didn't delete it, and let me share my opinion, thank you. And to that one person who commented on Further Explanation, you're an MVP. &#x200B; Thanks to being allowed to explain, I have received official news. &#x200B; My diagnosis is Major Depressive Disorder with Psychotic Symptoms. I'm sitting on an anti-psychotic medicine decision. If and when I make this decision \[I will\], it will officially be Schizoaffective Disorder. Thanks to you, I've received an official diagnosis, which I'll treat as official since it will be tracked as such once I'm put on treatment. &#x200B; &#x200B; I owe you my thanks. Thanks to all who talked about their things, thanks to the one who directed me to research more about it, and thank you to the people who told me I was in the right place. As it turns out, I was. With love, A Throwaway.",5.412478120681715,7.387085125748506,5.530179640718561,78.29435743896823,69.0,9.449838783970518,33.80423767848917,9.851270322608157,3.5704218332565647,724,35,128,18,13,228,96,167,0.045,0.7929999999999999,0.162,0.9618,2,0,0,0,0,0,45.0,0,5,1,0,5,11,0,0,7,0,12,2,0,2,1,17,27,10,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,16,8,0,0,3,1,1,3,1,1,0,2,4,0,21,10,21,16,3,14,0,1,0,1,22,8,0,2,2,90,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37789452250829214,0.4237963862709023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509924411782533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19986157316249464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833166935413126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058443661844177076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08916079866310728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07869512968732281,0.0,0.05820203632661713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09285775000243264,0.11816853123180092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0604486805653525,0.07613360595665743,0.09109817662983294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08765309570203493,0.0,0.0,0.08721664325976616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446238622097726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07212698998856874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09981517872841973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906269620601535,0.0,0.07008246883309897,0.0,0.5619295042118208,0.0,0.0,0.05792718643248693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833166935413126,0.0,0.0,0.0948409976561576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4237963862709023,0.0 schizophrenia,Glitched_PyXel,2019/10/22,"What do you guys know/think about abilify, and who should I share my diagnosis with? My mental health has steadily been going downhill for the past three years. Things got really bad so I checked myself into the hospital because I was afraid of hurting myself. While I was hospitalized, I was diagnosed with an unspecified mood disorder and unspecified schizophrenia. Could this possibly mean I am schizoaffective? If so is this something I should share with anyone. All of my coworkers at my internship and part-time job have already asked me where I was for two weeks and I've just told them I was in the hospital for mental health reasons. My closest friend is the only person who knows and thats only because he's the only person who really knows what ive been going through. I also wonder what anyone else thinks about Abilify. I'm prescribed 30mg every morning with propranolol to help with some of the jitteriness and restlessness it gives me. I know it can take some time for the drug to settle in but I already feel like the side effects are too much and that it only helps sometimes. At this point, it's like a choice between feeling somewhat okay mentally and like complete shit physically or vice versa.",6.727023809523812,8.047250392857144,6.6170357142857155,74.21963095238097,65.16071428571428,9.723333333333334,32.79047619047619,9.888512548439397,3.3578801190476195,984,40,164,21,15,311,137,224,0.055999999999999994,0.835,0.109,0.8665,1,0,2,0,0,1,17.0,0,1,1,1,8,13,1,2,10,1,19,5,1,2,1,35,35,15,0,4,4,0,2,3,1,2,4,0,0,3,16,14,0,0,10,0,1,2,0,5,0,2,9,2,24,7,23,23,5,16,0,1,0,0,17,9,1,6,8,116,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473269526613587,0.08961613855623672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15671305756399184,0.11482101510547404,0.0,0.0,0.10476307379076136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935672955242994,0.1366242114729034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11749513405983568,0.0,0.0,0.08947258575859413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11374082196212383,0.0,0.0,0.1284330438478991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995662928135104,0.0,0.0936136279775817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441727642617796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11332407850230315,0.08005729175269417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08657901416311294,0.0,0.0,0.10750031868571104,0.12737511505793064,0.0,0.08962641612431092,0.0,0.0,0.11095924307662594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23823385690002705,0.0,0.0,0.15022592418327976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996495329705985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11120448880469536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24634592140350603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642438604193888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12206863931622408,0.0,0.0,0.3387971634061417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08237864570023559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409135546932639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213524932736056,0.10697609500908883,0.0,0.1956968635322436,0.0,0.0,0.10593504527294008,0.1263333459958618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14357989008001434,0.11521865400770832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503028631831885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08627099271957167,0.11083242785232067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08425686353558115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07444917757172086,0.14360992619276644,0.0,0.0,0.06534439749195707,0.0,0.0,0.1070802794707654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946853218095066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988957517053181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12152672677517096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07216441305737703 schizophrenia,Chrisjamme,2019/10/22,"Is this prodromal Im am going to a psychiatrist next but a rlly need some opions the now because i am worried i have prodromal schizophrenia my doctor sajd what i am feeling is anxiety but i am not convinced. I have always been anxious when i was younger i was scared my sister woulf get kidnapped everytime she would leave my site and i also thought i wuld have a heart attack everyday but i was fine but i have just started collage and my anxiety has came back my freinds where starting to treat me diffrent and i would be paranoid that they would make fun pf me behind my back and make hiddin gestures like pointing at me to make fun of me when they wernt i dont know if this is my being paranoid or them actually making fun of me because they have done thos before to my other freinds. But anyway because of this i didnt want to go out with them and when i did i couldnlaugh or smile when i was with them and thats when i started to think i aas schizophrenia because apathy and paranoia are 2 symptoms but i should say this only happend when i was with them not with strangers or family and i am happy whem im not woth them usaully and i can look forward to things unless i think about schizophrenia. Anyway after i started think i had schizophrenia i looked up the symptoms and i have started to believe i hve prodromal schizophrenia like i constantly study my brain to see if have got this iv also started to feel nauseous after meals and forgetting stuff but this has onky started happing after i have got this fear but i am unsure if these are actually more symtoms. I really need an opion did any of you have the same symtoms. Do i have prodromal schizophrenia. Ps i am 16 and was a weed smoker.",2.927197700296734,5.22318266468843,3.783656342729973,86.69296225890209,76.95252225519287,6.111609792284868,27.7419324925816,7.1686216300943375,1.5430060089020767,1366,58,257,16,32,436,160,337,0.11699999999999999,0.76,0.12300000000000001,0.8023,1,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,8,0,16,12,1,2,8,0,45,7,2,4,0,58,75,35,0,10,19,1,2,2,0,4,4,1,0,0,14,18,1,0,7,0,0,4,5,3,1,0,16,6,59,9,27,53,3,32,0,0,3,0,12,7,0,7,25,200,73,1,0.0,0.0,0.19036618151428006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15600232600986888,0.08115949166576271,0.0,0.0,0.06632923543991459,0.0,0.149232720165941,0.11019026117028773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11096364089243173,0.0,0.15000151737744075,0.0,0.2378332198018349,0.0,0.08299771745195915,0.1098920090174239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10888474901325099,0.0,0.11155757288403363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540400758900853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09983435237837447,0.0,0.09981531479515722,0.1143138969862541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09195021605104033,0.10975745110538876,0.09863636240134528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05095961823434038,0.0,0.11086627110329207,0.0,0.1560202170343108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10383109410732304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558308800903346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21071571633574807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053604374950103166,0.0,0.0,0.10327873759781214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09530435280614878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16381483411675618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604296887203431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464649280650355,0.0,0.0,0.10373284886494284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07418210095476799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220500757332233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06248538818336735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07756619180049741,0.09765262831282684,0.0,0.07772521714600739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4832656585116927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11165775961828216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20275881230810486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0647999626954577,0.18749537933492572,0.0,0.0774343361106876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05753048351375405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09905464935041207,0.0,0.20786474904025196,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kilimomo,2019/10/22,"Sertindole / Serdolect, how'd taking it go for you? I need to get off Abilify, sigh, (side effects) and doc prescribed me sertindole. It seems to be banned in the US so not much info about it on Reddit. I can't even find much info on my language. How did taking it go for you guys? I know it's all personal but I'd love to hear stories!",0.9297142857142866,2.9119188285714306,2.8071428571428565,92.74785714285716,82.14285714285714,5.142857142857143,22.857142857142854,6.1826913282559595,0.4014285714285717,258,9,56,2,7,86,51,70,0.028999999999999998,0.863,0.10800000000000001,0.7581,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,2,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,2,1,13,13,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,5,1,0,1,6,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,1,8,1,10,11,3,7,0,0,0,1,7,5,0,1,0,36,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17518607609406042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24242117504187755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13857502067017236,0.0,0.3014798058163376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26262563956118834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989405893566157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576693515565867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393861182440682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3899584011810256,0.196669357277698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315941084321468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24146116793591305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3988493803651971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3190466138513353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Khrone_33,2019/10/22,"I have (almost) only positive symptoms I don’t know if I am a rare case, but my social environment hasn’t been affected at all. It’s true that I have less intense feelings and I have trouble focusing, but it’s nothing compared to my extreme hallucinations and paranoia.",4.9855882352941165,6.896814568627455,6.735441176470588,69.48198529411766,69.98039215686275,9.02156862745098,38.24019607843137,9.516144504307137,4.2158196078431365,217,13,35,5,4,75,39,51,0.159,0.701,0.14,-0.2357,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,7,1,0,1,2,11,9,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,7,1,2,8,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,27,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4400142382865505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221832392697627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414929621387256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42163398281398734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341976343146676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4479319093996457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4567241594514656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cizzy-Shizzy,2019/10/22,"Schizophrenia or Psychic? How do you know if your schizophrenia is not you just being psychic? I'm going through a spiritual awakening right now, which I had never heard of, but it seems to explain the many paranormal experiences I have been having, along with hearing voices ... Many people make a living based off of their psychic talents and even have their own TV shows, so I guess I'm just wondering at what point did they discover these were actual abilities? Did they have to go through being labeled mentally ill too, before they were able to prove otherwise?",8.251617161716169,8.988189821782182,7.448267326732676,71.64421617161717,61.673267326732685,10.693729372937293,36.635313531353134,10.504223727775694,4.0602264026402635,456,20,73,10,6,141,77,101,0.036000000000000004,0.892,0.07200000000000001,0.5803,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,5,0,7,1,0,0,3,0,14,1,0,2,2,18,26,6,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,3,0,0,5,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,3,11,1,11,17,1,8,0,0,0,0,11,4,0,5,2,57,15,0,0.2282003276720021,0.0,0.2226906015148577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19418167110055232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15072416421880938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22322370867297586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593830101892273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513883884631386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571983543809841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12541293213438745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015050701581906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15232549072564638,0.4627186296033798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299722570034952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760021608046066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15820537410688829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21572307051444314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948818329664829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20774500770767584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474735209860365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,galacticspeaks,2019/10/22,"Just introducing myself :) Hey hey! My name is Meghan and I am diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder (Depressive type). I have been looking through this community for a while and you guys are so awesome, and I would love to join this community of amazing people. This place has made me feel less alone and understood and I can’t thank you all enough for that. So yeah! Just popping in to say hey and that I’ll be active on here now, and can hopefully support you guys too! Thanks friends :)",2.7885614385614406,5.6928455384615395,3.1968031968031987,86.87774225774227,82.62637362637362,7.2651348651348675,25.855144855144854,8.296473431620573,2.043254945054945,388,16,74,9,11,120,68,91,0.038,0.608,0.354,0.9891,0,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,0,0,7,8,0,0,1,1,10,2,0,1,1,17,19,10,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,5,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,10,7,9,14,3,5,0,1,1,1,12,3,0,1,2,53,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271512181809077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18890152614941394,0.22260698814000116,0.0,0.0,0.2513617589132084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266180252407789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11089568091717926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16944746175123554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43432608418826585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21783601268224784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18417505604874865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979464676786656,0.20752756946885373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15205010578532793,0.0,0.2291445779108679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17441348092032585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488837547694536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40384405302956095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557998985519694,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pm_me_your_b0ob,2019/10/22,Help with reality checks? How do you know whats real and not real? I’m having memories of things that never happened and things that have actually happened seem like they never did. I have hallucinations that seem so obviously not real and then I see things that could be real or fake or anywhere inbetween. I have no insight into how my mental health is actually doing. Some days i believe im immortal and a god among men and other days i feel like im worthless and need to off myself. My doctor wants me to decide if I need to be hospitalized in the next couple days since i just started a bunch of new meds but I dont know if thats the right decision or not. Im kind of rambling so i guess my main question is how do you decide whats best for your own health when you dont know how youre even doing?,2.9869691386457866,4.359137904191621,4.964910179640717,82.34705204974668,74.14970059880241,7.533671119299862,24.22339935513588,8.139509932561175,1.342098479963151,638,19,131,10,13,220,95,167,0.036000000000000004,0.871,0.094,0.8458,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,5,1,1,9,6,0,0,4,0,16,3,0,4,3,46,31,20,0,6,10,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,11,8,0,0,11,0,1,0,8,2,0,0,1,2,20,4,12,27,5,15,0,1,1,0,9,5,0,10,12,96,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.21149648675329247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12208982522298925,0.11372198962075647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08652033630320755,0.11990339775162795,0.0,0.2096586573330148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11091578670832633,0.0,0.0,0.2540050696752242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157381358767774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05479241099460778,0.07741571060275056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11937585288478922,0.0,0.1916529621211242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303730605642042,0.0,0.0,0.07263452470718977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.351157175246784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128450825794222,0.17866309372343922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10588296529593808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12036867064134572,0.0,0.10920605556790733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16070199447408712,0.16715496037078512,0.10465923123748616,0.1152470093234493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12139318174309018,0.0,0.0,0.4933706745625134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09254279867240643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08635257705835853,0.19730217158615765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08964033859390852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07670104016728738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159779275312983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06391626415779354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thelastguyleft,2019/10/22,"I wish I was as sane and smart as I thought I was when I was going crazy I'd be a genius, the ultimate fighter, the answer to many if not all possible solutions.",4.141428571428573,3.5079621428571457,6.406428571428571,80.30107142857145,70.42857142857143,10.428571428571429,31.785714285714285,10.125756701596842,2.946428571428572,125,5,28,3,2,45,26,35,0.11599999999999999,0.6779999999999999,0.20600000000000002,0.4735,0,0,0,0,1,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,1,7,7,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,5,1,3,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26572150779832404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4740260044591418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5270964767012809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3711853630852952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5376636103273313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ILLUMINATIBTC,2019/10/22,"""FRACTURED: A Netflix Original"" TRIGGER WARNING! This film is about a man in a psychotic state, who can't find his family. Has references of a Grand conspiracy, organ trafficking and references to freemasonry. Possible SPOILERS ahead. The plot is full of holes, and the hospital in the movie is an all too accurate representation of a mental health hospital. Gaslighting Doctors and manipulative psychiatrists. Forced drugging also. The film is disturbing to say the least, now I'm having a psychotic episode. I really only believe at this point that the creators of the show are attempting to depict us as dangerous, delusion dwelling psychopaths. Do yourself a favour and don't consume this garbage. Alternatively if you have seen it, let me know what you think in the comments!",6.787340966921117,9.900709916030538,6.8629198473282464,65.30267493638681,68.16030534351145,10.778880407124683,39.16094147582698,10.686352973137794,5.493854452926211,633,37,89,21,12,202,95,131,0.12,0.802,0.077,-0.8367,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,1,2,0,2,4,5,1,2,16,0,12,3,0,3,1,14,16,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,7,4,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,2,6,2,14,14,3,10,0,0,1,0,8,6,0,1,3,66,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20537647196844636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28934482820590063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628630943801202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978262002883152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421042230883713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347260966298124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27298447479334176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411399136270507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626127949841441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588111444145987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19532091048864952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427750872385692,0.28952259392784857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16452355426888954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204231196078528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16455797167945896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089192447786221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jjohns344,2019/10/22,"Controlled music imagination Been diagnosed with schizophrenia for 7 years now, spent most of it in rehabs and psyche wards. However one day when listening to music i noticed i could imagine colors shapes and images to the music im listening to. Its almost like an itunes visualizer in your mind that you can control. Been pretty sane now and a a good medication for almost 3 years but i can still vizualize music while listening to it. Its almost like having the ability to put colors shapes and imagery to anything you listen to and it appears in your mind. Its hard to explain but does anybody else have the ability to do this? or heard of a medical term for the ability? ive been searching around the web and haven't found much. You can also project the images to appear in front of you and create something thats actually crazy cool. While practicing the ability to ""spit"" ive found it very difficult but enjoyable create art with music in your ear buds. does anybody else share this ability?",6.154790020790024,7.6736044540540576,6.607567567567571,73.03617463617466,66.62162162162161,9.584199584199583,32.068607068607065,9.851270322608157,3.367465696465697,804,33,132,18,13,261,102,185,0.040999999999999995,0.7659999999999999,0.193,0.9811,1,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,7,0,2,6,7,0,0,11,1,13,6,2,2,0,30,24,15,0,1,4,0,1,2,1,0,4,6,0,0,11,10,0,2,5,1,1,4,1,1,0,1,7,10,12,6,25,16,3,22,0,0,2,0,15,8,0,7,12,91,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.13864466399468214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42680264185719097,0.0,0.0,0.11361729221009075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691558447999142,0.12647683384591166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186982915076358,0.11343529284680536,0.0,0.0,0.09162659404178658,0.0,0.0,0.14420309124318073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24866150552941144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373707927194643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3115557153920208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916573367925515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272712555852923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534653343224046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388212955361292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862511453448425,0.0,0.0,0.2869104121843297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10444144114200772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16175328081953416,0.0,0.0,0.09627366815419497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14454130868183446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14282457368877954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10937624346448746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11346124461277553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172267192592234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829832290835541 schizophrenia,electric_garlic,2019/10/22,"🤔 is there a... type of schizophrenia where instead of seeing things that AREN’T there, you do not see things that ARE there? For instance, with schizophrenia you might see a person that is not real, but is there a disorder which makes you not see a person who is real and standing in front of you?",12.155789473684216,7.2993815087719325,9.809210526315793,75.49697368421053,58.47368421052632,12.101754385964911,39.026315789473685,7.1686216300943375,2.9559894736842103,234,6,46,1,2,69,33,57,0.07,0.93,0.0,-0.6007,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,4,0,0,6,0,0,0,4,0,8,0,0,1,0,10,13,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,6,12,0,4,0,0,4,0,7,2,0,1,0,40,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23875874750974846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13905870023910838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22100013422524212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36380308858738425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4742394110300416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6640329050184495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768040351236399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gaylord678,2019/10/22,I feel like I'm being stalked I'm freaking out right now I'm having visual hallucinations and I'm going completely delusional I want to calm down so bad I hate this I'm frantic. I feel like my family are imposters and that there going to kill me help help help help help help help somebody PM me please god,0.61095238095238,3.1185218412698426,2.498730158730158,89.6157142857143,92.49206349206352,5.339682539682539,19.698412698412696,6.937597516519254,0.5757174603174602,248,8,50,4,9,82,39,63,0.21,0.41700000000000004,0.373,0.8405,0,0,0,0,0,1,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,8,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,14,3,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,2,7,3,4,13,0,6,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,3,21,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14217065333827855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17852776314366536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16051801670088975,0.0,0.17219006052650834,0.24328580641764644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19353988191441845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681091118713427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7989117548425823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18838159555519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663733523683417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869083730388739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14541201797327666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10043129325922398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,abox16,2019/10/22,"How to help the hopeless?? I was scrolling through youtube by newly posted and I ran across this video. [What depression looks like](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8vS54PTGLWg) Please help me say the right thing. My conscious is not right having this pass by. Please send her the words she needs for encouragement. And I know reposting this is not what she would like, but it's the right thing to do, I think.",4.730460317460317,8.198412585714287,1.9404761904761931,95.00341269841272,80.28571428571428,5.396825396825397,22.063492063492063,6.937597516519254,0.5811587301587311,331,10,60,4,9,86,50,70,0.061,0.7829999999999999,0.156,0.5913,0,0,0,0,0,1,21.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,0,6,0,0,1,0,12,11,4,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,8,2,0,0,3,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,2,2,9,2,7,8,0,8,0,2,1,0,8,4,0,0,1,40,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894702667391441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29489873909929903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120896413184181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21494429187595532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847295662855156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16311394523539782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.482948589021427,0.0,0.0,0.2106820501942812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5635905532092965,0.0,0.1749386012198678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922926746796995,0.14095565191771292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562689774841971,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,noxibus,2019/10/22,"Is my old boss trying to telepathic ally communicate with me I can feel his influence over my decisions, he was so mad when I quit my job and left to pursue other options and get myself sorted out. Now I feel him trying to get me to quit what it is in doing now and I can hear his voice in my flat. Am I a long distance psychic?",1.5611904761904754,3.0826006428571446,4.131428571428572,86.22190476190477,78.28571428571428,6.9523809523809526,21.666666666666664,7.793537801064563,0.909095238095238,255,7,55,4,6,90,48,70,0.061,0.9390000000000001,0.0,-0.6269,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,0,1,0,7,0,0,2,0,12,12,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,15,0,9,11,0,10,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,2,5,42,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27218970968926864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28124888946415344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033617038832051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670987306839507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924419918872139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381972050177292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2824370456032521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5725673596201011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654825244384556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bb_96,2019/10/22,"Songs changing BPM So, I’m hanging out with a coworker. I’m a bartender so there’s loads of music. “Hollaback Girl” comes on - this is the first time I’ve heard it since I’ve started on medication - and I’m not sober. I’ve been drinking for 3-4 hours. But this time the song went SO fast. Has anyone anyone else experienced this? That music/movies are suddenly more fast paced than you’re used to?",0.939,3.4322049000000057,2.2800000000000007,92.965,87.5,5.2,20.5,6.742157984588678,0.3536000000000001,312,10,66,4,10,100,60,80,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,1,0,7,12,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,5,4,1,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,8,9,1,14,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,8,30,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3822702637475583,0.28008297719677194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891717710666896,0.2354698468269856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267782375688314,0.0,0.0,0.2283517839140067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23251435826988104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691981471490608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753749058089674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22612085047239164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19348102324016292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187892630258428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23608966855605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534014448954171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DhurRS,2019/09/04,Hearing voices when i look at people i automatically hear them saying something about me. I hear my name being called wwhen no one is around.,5.721538461538457,7.7041365384615395,6.272307692307695,73.24769230769233,68.23076923076923,6.7384615384615385,24.538461538461537,7.1686216300943375,1.149753846153846,114,3,19,1,2,37,23,26,0.091,0.909,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,6,0,3,5,0,3,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,0,1,14,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22160051271392606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25418540389715943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8416867436377627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20903853979815168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16868143813444778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725767472067801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19795915991494234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19163850717502054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mrracerhacker,2019/09/04,"Stopped my meds Do sometimes take my sleeping meds, though is on 74mg latuda and 20mg fontex, just feel really drugged when i take them, i just feel like i walk there like a mindless zombie, makes it hard to think, been doing decent for 1 and a half month so far, just notice im getting more stressed out easier, so kinda want to start taking them again but idk just feel like its worse on then than without, been managing 7 years off meds before i startes meds about 2 years ago",9.1646875,6.179554427083335,7.905416666666664,81.13125000000002,62.02083333333334,10.85,34.416666666666664,8.07648339933343,2.368529166666667,379,10,80,3,4,115,71,96,0.128,0.767,0.10400000000000001,-0.312,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,11,4,0,1,2,0,5,2,1,1,0,17,17,8,0,1,6,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,4,8,3,10,15,1,16,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,13,43,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467676674495155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196818576562384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16310807506882533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133489350140248,0.2009592096257783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07348324704554404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12599379133799787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15192495132787545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20614184950027528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388423528914422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6249168993594699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11226461296020553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16012970892830652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09010328914750228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407504785253803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391053620131917,0.0,0.1991040357245716,0.0,0.0,0.11758878122494235,0.16111284383559427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172514145362835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09012213825339488,0.13818683364335094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08295836741261074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13558052397297884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14333324870911354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811465650863794 schizophrenia,darkskinnedwhiteguy,2019/09/04,"Having issues with my girlfriend who's suffering from schizophrenia Hi, this is my first post and the reason i created an account cuz i rlly don't have no where else to go. I've been with my girlfriend for 2 years now and a year ago she was diagnosed and we had our highs and lows dealing with all that but recently my mind been having thoughts cuz we aren't rlly that sexual active from the pills she takes that lower her sex drive and I'm really in love with her and attracted ofc but since we aren't really doing anything I've been going in dark places like maybe she doesn't find me attractive and feels bad to say so or she doesn't want me as her boyfriend but just afraid to lose me since she's lost most of her friends and shutting herself from ppl but my mind keeps thinking the worst that maybe she has someone else and it's not like i dont trust her it's just she never initiates and when i do i can see she's not rlly into it so i back off. I really love her and don't want to put her in a position where she feels like she has to do smth that she doesn't want to do cuz other than this aspect things are going great she's cutting her pills and alcohol abuse things seem to be in the better side of the spectrum so she doesn't know i feel this way and i don't want her to think that she doesn't make me happy cuz she does it's just that I'm a person as well and i have needs too I know this seems selfish or maybe it is but i just don't wanna bring it up cuz i know it might throw her off all the progress she's doing and i just wanted to know if any of u guys have advice. I'm sorry for the long post but i really didn't have another place to go to for advice",1.0421890067502415,2.785192196721312,2.600585020893604,95.59079074252656,80.5846994535519,5.945226615236257,18.141755062680808,6.923569853693429,-0.1217805207328837,1328,27,313,15,34,434,163,366,0.124,0.7340000000000001,0.142,0.9174,1,0,1,0,1,0,4.0,4,0,0,5,15,22,1,1,11,0,37,7,0,7,3,74,70,35,0,8,16,0,3,3,3,1,4,1,0,2,22,23,1,1,14,0,1,8,17,9,1,1,8,5,55,13,36,60,4,37,0,4,1,3,42,16,0,7,13,214,77,0,0.0,0.1138095246766395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18772776213922332,0.08514700429809441,0.10265363395710964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532072641285874,0.10072209287529683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07904511996842506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07386040268021292,0.08020195274121279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08495288400165303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09902853658083792,0.0,0.09749385163519993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08405841968597992,0.0,0.11257580071145223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16048333394528133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457049549880841,0.06862174538401182,0.0,0.0,0.08779257356027986,0.08170437464011703,0.0,0.0,0.0742118917019192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183611891535258,0.0,0.0,0.10590102936994586,0.0,0.09510959913468044,0.0,0.10225238458350863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101487431852351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025651408111222,0.0,0.08537814000097371,0.0,0.0,0.21115736898971835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14078293336980366,0.0,0.0,0.08500569468017137,0.0,0.10746102862584404,0.10485543157796476,0.0,0.1733868618665156,0.0,0.06411749032633429,0.0,0.28950061875444605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10189922632629664,0.19397643224528224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07122360087922433,0.07408357451562979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08387156277558816,0.20071416147818832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18398836756475925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965618536817118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461412931571865,0.09876058714588523,0.09484277159460046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638682942572664,0.0,0.0,0.07654343685558579,0.17488981599320072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589154563908181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08138713034151036,0.0,0.0,0.10752576193686424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07222144179264599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12762941127605118,0.12309639227191453,0.0,0.07625697854801153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28327877964201714,0.07624402599694816,0.0,0.0,0.08636502377379142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371260306699874 schizophrenia,Broken-Blue,2019/09/04,Feeling like a fraud When things are going bad it sucks but at least there's ways to improve and get better and you know there's something wrong inside but its so much worse because even when its a good day I can't feel good because I'm obviously making it all up and if I'm feeling good now its because I stopped pretending. I like the attention I like how it gives me excuses that's why I make it all up. I don't wanna feel bad but when I feel good I wanna feel good.,0.5552655265526525,2.691516227722776,2.361206120612064,94.48773177317734,84.74257425742574,5.2568856885688575,21.063006300630068,6.574015621080383,0.2479227722772275,373,12,84,4,11,123,59,101,0.17600000000000002,0.508,0.316,0.9484,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,1,9,13,1,0,3,0,3,0,0,3,3,24,18,12,0,3,4,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,1,8,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,6,10,9,6,18,4,11,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,9,51,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441819830146707,0.2674105094493625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12932330803261965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943024289839528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09657961982807857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44361170305734016,0.10446250554436597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0763960419252015,0.14027145299165433,0.08310250928832816,0.6132290660331454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08036092533563521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21431308509272765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952114056914112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10749151694740684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125704337229585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12224987084234712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09714477538015956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606586139510608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13194448038450726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490148206280274,0.0,0.1598730670069487,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Epadaytus,2019/09/04,"Woah - Addiction I keep forgetting that I shouldn't drink while on these meds. Some of it tastes...decent. There is not a single X-Rated Apple Juice concoction that I completely like. It is hard to get addicted to this stuff like I am with energy drinks; and that too is bad for me. Smoking helped and I do miss it. Smoking was there when I was too lazy to get my shit together and find better coping skills. Ranae doesn't like to hear me talk on smoking. Cigars and Borkum Riff pipe tobacco was my thing. It is like having a bad headache(in place of mental disability) and sleep (addiction) that limits your time away to experience the headache/disability. I had a 24 hour headache yesterday and talked on this same thing with Ranae. I just had a sip of Stone Brewing: Ripper Pale Ale and hole-ee-shit. It gives me a great reason why I should not tread down this road. When I would drink it was very occasional. I don't have a sense of booz or understanding of it to be used to strong flavors. This stuff tastes like pine tree sap. Bbbbaaauuhhh. It brought my headache back. I had to spit it into the sink and grabbed my sugar free, room temp Rockstar; which too tastes funny. I can't have too much of this fake sugar or it makes me very sick. I've got three sugar free and one regular. I am normally all about the regular and I misread the no well labeled deal stickers. If and when I go with the fake sugar I try to space them out to once a week. Addiction sucks because I have burned away so much money on things that slowly kill me. I am brightening up to a better mood and maybe I won't feel the urge to slowly kill myself with formaldehyde, gunked up lungs, or a drunk asshole. I do have an addiction to spending so that's a problem, too. Spending my money on stuff that will eventually kill me. It doesn't make a whole lot of sense that I enjoy spending my money on things that will eventually keep me from spending. I've been on a eurorack module synthesizer buying spree. Almost all of the hardware for the case is ordered and will be here soon. I like me things and I buy them to use them for a very long time. I should get right on that.",2.880199380804953,4.9209647035294175,3.5704303405572766,89.38467337461306,76.08235294117647,6.920743034055728,22.948916408668733,7.85451343220497,0.9963176470588238,1689,50,352,26,38,533,208,425,0.12,0.7659999999999999,0.114,-0.5945,0,0,4,1,0,3,50.0,0,1,3,5,18,26,5,0,22,0,37,22,4,5,2,51,55,24,3,7,7,0,3,6,0,8,6,1,1,0,36,20,12,3,4,4,11,2,9,11,1,2,10,11,44,16,46,35,9,35,0,1,0,0,10,20,2,7,18,235,80,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44880025111648697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08244913260292143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547176207627179,0.0633124704521465,0.13749677984067676,0.050192187934183966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14564169062187354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632932313396045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08488636764328478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24197826999845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054189384550442,0.0,0.0,0.04163232405395373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07525500156719553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12905386745905947,0.07898565181513233,0.0467943100582427,0.0,0.065852836382093,0.0907774064252809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07375824514087602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09280036909582763,0.0,0.0551891040241362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08108587152344669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14637074182968135,0.2732827995288546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24135571932185165,0.0,0.0,0.07286611414784967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07000041504655441,0.0,0.0,0.10992186786003932,0.0,0.0827191057077701,0.0,0.09145842300272744,0.0,0.08297685412136042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12105510208400587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08067328764326204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08768677154410855,0.0557940344319905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08602518370319916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07878588667016223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465668380637745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07031579215538772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16903656201981826,0.0,0.0,0.08239698312530815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827702838017509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323595592969691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735069481419374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960233400509047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05590177127140214,0.0,0.0,0.08571626205978572,0.0,0.14222636177320191,0.0,0.20381123113194896,0.0,0.0,0.0660461919837408,0.0,0.07403131877646753,0.0,0.07429680497570168,0.09192690058528892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058490211795830985,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AshamedApricot,2019/09/04,"Getting really frustrated with my paranoia. Is there any escape? I've been medicated successfully to the point where I haven't gone off the rails in about a year. That means no self harm and no suicidal thoughts. The fact that things are going so well makes me extra angry that I can't shake off my paranoia all the time, especially after a long day of activity (like school). I commute, so I'll be on the shuttle home and all of a sudden I'll have all sorts of intrusive thoughts and start worrying that other people on the bus are spying on me and can read my thoughts. Paranoia goes from 0 to 100 in a matter of minutes. My only escape is to distract myself as best as I can, and it makes me so angry. I'm doing so well, but I'm still captive to my paranoia, seemingly at random. My best guess is that it has something to do with being active all day, since it only seems to happen near the end of long outings. Maybe I can ask my psych if there's any medication changes we can make to combat this intermittent paranoia? I'm already at the optimal blood level for my AP (clozapine). Anyone else experience this, particularly paranoia at the end of a long day? Any advice? If you relate, I hope we all get better eventually. It'd be nice to throw off the yoke of paranoia once and for all, but I'm not even certain it's possible. Maybe I'll be dealing with this paranoia for the rest of my life. Jeez, I hope not.",4.1854240282685495,5.253642692579508,5.5228462897526525,80.66921643109544,70.83745583038869,8.204169611307421,28.284275618374558,8.548686976883017,2.01278812720848,1114,40,220,18,20,374,150,283,0.132,0.7290000000000001,0.138,0.8313,0,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,2,1,0,4,12,15,1,2,16,0,21,4,1,3,8,40,44,16,1,4,6,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,1,15,11,0,0,6,1,0,4,6,4,2,0,5,0,23,11,39,34,10,33,0,0,0,0,6,15,1,9,15,148,38,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10777582916740112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217096972135638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22500653192920228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07711856140337754,0.11300693945294095,0.0,0.0,0.10310790516789413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314887905162127,0.09754409693170467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11667405549418634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133871785444666,0.11370595930631568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09213461123919613,0.0,0.1953715220096945,0.0,0.0,0.07284666578248254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10788650237144418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11524578256026034,0.0,0.06268134758232388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149880552255755,0.0,0.09753063710066104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106316256254625,0.2190892024845088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07790233018681457,0.05388298176624837,0.0,0.0,0.2928142046879133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208618141070252,0.0,0.22160578968315886,0.12014005728515607,0.0,0.2222146852270175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174571224297799,0.0,0.16776370335395102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07646241777016201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10426136048446212,0.12433738517924987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11032160422806304,0.0,0.07065572417221452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111621147000539,0.0,0.20081094790468584,0.11505835703226808,0.0,0.0,0.09123448170300152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.084907983454511,0.0,0.0,0.07806507377716547,0.0,0.0880791401785314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12064128186036245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07327294306221135,0.0,0.0,0.26267800774349537,0.06431201086472936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19833107138153816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11200663364592987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07102427590925589 schizophrenia,rodnahs,2019/09/04,"weeks of feeling dead, stressing about media, and having SI Hi. I spent a week waking up everyday with the thoughts that I'm dead and this is the afterlife. I don't get a whole lot of support for it other than, ""YOu need hospitalized?"" or the ""Philosophers wonder that too, you're not going to change anything thinking that."" I can't enjoy media others make without being bombarded by advertisements, even on non profit radio. Almost every damn week I have to hear about some human rights violation this Flag Worshiping nation has committed. All I do is try to exist and be happy and focus on what I CAN change and control, which is my crafts and skill based hobbies. I've also cycled through another year as an author and have not felt satisfied with my efforts. I decided to just read to myself. With audio books. I'm not a voice actor or anywhere near known author like the works I read. [https://soundcloud.com/user-529784792-491974381/sets/tazchel-of-benai](https://soundcloud.com/user-529784792-491974381/sets/tazchel-of-benai) I wrote this work while in Psychosis. It's pleasant to listen to for me, because I see the events of the story as I once intended. But to read from paper is to almost relive the experiences of that day of the page was written, in my mind. I seek validation where none seems to come. I just want to be healthy and not feel like a loser for my illness and limitations. I know everyone with this illness wanted to be something other than disabled. I personally thought I would have succeeded at improving my grades in college to maybe one day attend a decent school, falling well short of the MIT dream. I spoke with my doctor today. We're going to try something to remedy. How is your day?",7.1433052378085495,9.145661006622516,6.330523780854907,74.12565924142083,64.76158940397352,8.272366044551475,28.95906080674293,8.710501217029153,2.3591735099337745,1392,46,220,21,22,424,186,302,0.091,0.782,0.127,0.8103,0,0,2,0,0,0,60.0,0,2,0,8,10,14,2,1,15,0,20,4,1,4,2,53,47,17,2,4,10,0,3,2,0,1,3,5,0,2,15,15,0,2,11,7,2,5,8,4,1,1,8,9,27,10,47,34,6,28,1,1,1,0,9,12,1,8,13,155,42,13,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23583617006822785,0.0,0.0,0.09417139593520672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234800102606408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09690517686957806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07178446271078925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491456676875854,0.1014384841085906,0.0,0.0,0.1320761233155581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278333895622588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12053077112663176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07777835058667068,0.0,0.0992165793427246,0.11252325258989034,0.0,0.11519036753269915,0.0,0.0,0.11908442873753056,0.08412666558281033,0.11306658621306252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061523933754032124,0.0,0.1338496903086895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12535606774155236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13272234005104888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06471696860425144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506166827139105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001140295027239,0.0,0.0,0.0786046848051951,0.0,0.11830419839309594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189024729342398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08731640414040083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12540891404039753,0.0797961784295911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282214295256802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533709738983388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10056507930231758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11917784583603988,0.09383824440596532,0.107202877029467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18131242751594148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13489191522689928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336309020948564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545486470184247,0.0,0.1869741230498866,0.0,0.0,0.11162124859561694,0.0,0.0,0.1599005255782452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13891397852554796,0.0,0.2833761946299313,0.0,0.10587899553429353,0.0,0.0,0.13147311242610385,0.0,0.11351495083063742,0.12770402394288227,0.1714591191446285,0.0,0.0,0.08365222956826772,0.0,0.0,0.07583258578133754 schizophrenia,DarkChasmofEmptyness,2019/09/04,"I am Going to Overcome This. I'm going to an Orthomolecular Psychiatrist in a few weeks to have genetic testing and blood testing to see what nutritional deficiencies may be causing my schizophrenia. I recently discovered Dr. Carl Pfeiffer's work detailing his experience in treating over 20,000 schizophrenics with a holistic approach. Around my first episode, I was drinking heavily and smoking ton of weed. At the end of each day, my belly would swell to about twice its normal size and I had a host of inflammation issues. This physical reaction got me looking into the gut-brain connection, possibly linking my condition to an abnormal flora around that time. Leading up to my first episode, I recall the sensation of fluid moving in my brain. I think the quantity of weed and alcohol was toxic, and my failing digestion system caused oxidative stress to my brain. I just finished reading a book called Gut and Psychology Syndrome. It was great at detailing how one should eat when they have schizophrenia. I'm taking a multifaceted approach and will not only rely on debilitating medication to stop my symptoms. I'm going to also try the ketogenic diet after reading about women who went into remission after several weeks on the diet after years of having symptoms. Remaining positive and proactive will be key in my recovery. I want my brain back. I want to feel again. I hope everyone can find a solution to their problems and not be defeated by this diagnosis.",8.066060883497366,9.627981552529183,8.44206912336919,61.463350881208534,62.268482490272376,11.805813687342644,40.40947585259785,11.557038098267885,5.5685071641107795,1197,65,169,37,17,395,161,257,0.043,0.875,0.08199999999999999,0.8340000000000001,0,0,2,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,2,6,10,7,0,1,14,0,17,16,5,4,0,35,33,12,0,7,3,0,1,0,0,5,7,0,0,1,8,15,6,1,4,4,0,8,2,4,0,4,6,3,25,3,39,19,3,40,0,2,2,0,6,14,0,2,17,127,33,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12344256014274126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09237143376465208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20565261243434102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881826047998181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5157789957989221,0.1179462351281011,0.0,0.0,0.2373163692104588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07449288482391647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11315353232273608,0.0,0.11819317243588355,0.0,0.0,0.10230550204244336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11037251885638044,0.0,0.11298865541075293,0.0,0.0,0.05840414338287301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557190840734287,0.19650151274043973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19693699472090928,0.0,0.09238202732195017,0.1273476026444396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11472516885620615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205599869394798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09699734283658153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11636181516887335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227663623655116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317298194976405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07827097960353872,0.08784878020898995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13021753101536074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11052523072379264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310778355121722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140498790482408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09204464998799354,0.0,0.0,0.1304907775613172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09656957563571664,0.13231363397587975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401133711318228,0.08684738502106125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07401264436838707,0.0,0.0,0.0673534452840955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07842211884353073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362588208332986,0.0,0.18530655466229395,0.0,0.0,0.10707675780341844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08409095198244007,0.0,0.0,0.08205332740471659,0.0,0.0,0.07438314580706276 schizophrenia,jimloonie,2019/09/04,"risperdal alternative Hey everybody. I am on Risperdal for the past decade. I started with 2 mg daily, which made me totally apathetic and unable to participate in life. I then reduced it to 1 mg and for the past year I have been taking 0,5 mg and sometimes I stop taking it completely for a couple of days. I do it because it sucks out all my energy and makes every task more difficult, also it gives me anxiety. The problem is, because I take such a low dose, my mind races often and I start discussions in my thoughts, which, in turn, give me sever insomnia so that I stay awake for 24 hours or more. I tried all kinds of herbs for insomnia, also CBD, nothing helped. I exercise but I get tired easily and this gives me hypertension and more insomnia. So I just wanted to ask if there is any alternative to Risperdal that can help me with these problems, yet doesn't suck my energy and motivation. Does anyone have any positive experiences with other drugs, methods and especially natural treatments / supplements? Thank you all in advance!",5.209965457685666,7.125141222797929,6.119191709844563,74.10797582037998,69.41450777202073,10.120759930915373,31.519516407599312,10.355215969177356,3.6450631433506047,828,36,145,24,15,273,122,193,0.09300000000000001,0.765,0.142,0.9331,0,0,2,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,2,9,8,2,0,5,0,9,8,0,3,4,31,27,17,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,12,13,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,6,0,0,3,0,23,2,20,24,7,19,0,1,0,0,9,7,2,3,10,98,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21716836098158465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846717509165426,0.0,0.10387225008815147,0.0,0.0,0.09494137552642952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12693709745290688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16554192444563304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14236400997725376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15023932060636794,0.0,0.08756764425253823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882304740897412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15746308998803826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440152131165048,0.0,0.0,0.13282007274881175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07094007539027898,0.3907611127317844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18202255898000985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13371713577164818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413952303138273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09590628053814217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12847945911514988,0.0906350086196204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13710031006417514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13028572812729122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592370480541901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25984855084692465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15339411293758726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342910835484952,0.0,0.1922132713604196,0.14472469814410965,0.0,0.11351916716443287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062717036840757,0.0,0.0,0.12500909067866048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10779510977157702,0.0,0.15606052079410754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921865252050998,0.14769096036126378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0800872726113691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08743864418479774 schizophrenia,alikatcokababy,2019/09/04,Applying for Disability I am going to be applying for disability because my schizophrenia gets too intense for me to be able to actually function at times. I was told i would be denied multiple times before the accept me because I'm young. Has anyone else experienced this?,8.171972789115642,9.147051775510207,9.322857142857146,57.31380952380954,61.85714285714286,12.247619047619047,40.82312925170068,11.855464076750405,5.66103537414966,223,12,32,7,3,77,35,49,0.059000000000000004,0.861,0.08,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,11,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,6,1,7,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,23,7,0,0.3198779505513564,0.0,0.31215473678901795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22366610055831446,0.32775276176718005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3899892593126231,0.0,0.27219257579489897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672169818435528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16712302668755374,0.0,0.18179401088859906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3730468107136651,0.0,0.0,0.3056570898202385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272321183249235,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Italy2010,2019/09/04,Faint voices Who here gets faint voices when stressed? Mine are gone since January but they come back when I get really stressed who’s,2.4190000000000005,5.336575600000003,1.4794999999999978,95.58725,93.0,5.7,18.25,7.1686216300943375,0.5276000000000001,110,3,21,2,4,31,20,25,0.18600000000000005,0.8140000000000001,0.0,-0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596745632950587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909032503348605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3528742066625358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21634269002772635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27935334930265554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7736806583464366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SilenceOnTheWire,2019/09/04,"Where do you feel your emotions in your body? I've read that that cluster A's tend to have mind-body dissociation. I'm not schizophrenic, I have a lot of schizoid traits but am undiagnosed. I started therapy (EMDR) some months ago and until then I couldn't feel emotions in my body. Now I can but not completely (I still have work to do). I do feel them on my head and when I started therapy I would only feel them in my head as throbs, pulses, etc... I felt the different emotions in different places. I felt them on my throat, jaw and on that area where the throat connects with the inside of the nose. &#x200B; I'm reading Ronald D. Laing's Divided Self and there's a story of a girl who had a psychotic break and she said she could only feel her emotions in those areas, and that her ""soul"" was on her head right behind her eyes (where I also feel emotions...) Does this sounds familiar to any of you?",4.596,5.354124600000002,5.075555555555557,85.39000000000001,69.66666666666666,8.444444444444445,27.777777777777786,8.59863814320734,1.7841111111111112,708,23,148,11,12,226,98,180,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,2,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,4,3,1,8,0,0,0,9,0,13,12,10,0,0,24,27,13,0,3,4,0,8,0,0,1,2,2,0,2,7,7,0,0,8,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,12,28,0,20,19,3,26,1,0,1,0,17,16,0,2,9,99,35,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08835615847449159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07971031861846184,0.0,0.10799816923739887,0.12111642567054848,0.06778263665504697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33215043609215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045076782252922,0.0,0.0,0.07958263358959304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082789923830403,0.0,0.0,0.08722654557391145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5606066039671915,0.0,0.0,0.11116433149092854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023930248532289,0.0,0.19140787969939346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30688690867230994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474039394436522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006436605084661,0.0,0.07955989068982681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15161514713613666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10413949619152016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19940459018173534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08512217997271658,0.0948140561971084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10398309873909103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14110141121463934,0.0,0.07960084053233878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279748339274261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256482120357742,0.0,0.0,0.07080648859255649,0.0,0.12111642567054848,0.0 schizophrenia,grotesqueshoe,2019/09/04,"Went on a trip Tried to go to the nude beach with a woman. She couldn't make it down to the beach because the climb was too steep. I was dissapointed and said her gluttony caused it which I apologized for shortly thereafter. I felt bad and was paranoid she was retaliating against me the rest of the day. We went to a restaurant and I ordered food, but I thought I could hear the staff making fun of me so I didn't eat it. I called one of them a faggot behind their back and for no reason other than psychosis I would guess. I would rather fast than eat someone's spit. Shame to think it might've been perfectly good, clean food. We went to a campground and rested. At about 130 am she demanded to go home. So i drove the two and half hours back on Latuda and trazodone. I ate at 7 eleven some prepackaged food i knew was clean. It was rough. This is why I have no friends and don't go out. Some kind of illusion horror show I guess.",1.9017859220477007,3.914379460732988,2.634197207678884,95.07624054682957,79.0,5.500988947062246,21.605875509016872,6.42735559955562,0.12530343222803975,731,21,164,6,18,228,116,191,0.132,0.735,0.132,0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,2,0,2,2,7,7,0,1,12,0,16,8,2,4,1,31,34,11,0,5,2,0,2,0,1,2,0,2,3,1,8,12,6,0,5,3,0,9,5,2,0,4,17,4,25,5,25,13,4,22,0,0,0,1,14,7,0,4,5,111,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031333126354564,0.11028702626149772,0.08051893513773406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13487547113046386,0.0,0.0,0.13568960920824544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546062446231064,0.0,0.0,0.08518510934732937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703157044288879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268241173332103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4791599333009322,0.0,0.10204999466103053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22520405095721305,0.1107882068528338,0.0,0.0,0.2910171765128488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488715118333326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13249390882518247,0.0,0.13007896843118935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13754815786454225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17633803411891405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012330455514835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08950548729600788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13580731012004627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12564486902905467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11191678350132847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08463593829812137,0.0,0.10486222726875516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08967832008018349,0.0,0.12902968730471395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3673375790292887,0.11918786303206927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18766145743462745,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,alr123321,2019/09/04,Got straight A's this semester! I'm bragging and I know it. I just applied for disability for my symptoms and at the same time I'm handling a full time school load. This is just 1 year from my diagnosis. I want people here to know it is possible. Thanks guys for all the support.,0.820375939849626,3.2598321403508805,2.697994987468676,90.22263157894741,87.24561403508774,6.064160401002509,25.686716791979947,7.447530270364453,1.423503258145364,220,10,47,4,7,73,40,57,0.0,0.8320000000000001,0.168,0.7959,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,9,10,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,6,9,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,29,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417807260727134,0.0,0.0,0.2993292325594657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33227757126526075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20958005117454293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408031855218804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059485480939504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34305184986019105,0.0,0.3142103875340322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783215995257707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3525526636806788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783071750529714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19467434870344105 schizophrenia,some1inlife,2019/09/04,"Internal monologue of a poet I get brief moments of another voice inside myself, making poetry and leading me somewhere, its been a long time since I've heard him but he feels like me from a distant time, it feels like he wants to be free, but I'm stuck in a mindset that limits my sense of self. I also hate the words I use so much, such as me, i, I've, myself, mine and my. How does that feeling and pattern of selfishness go away and let the better voice take the wheel I'm bipolar so this might not be the right subreddit but I have had my fair share of delusion, paranoia and hallucinations while sober or on any drug except cbd, and any anxiolytic in low doses.",5.363208955223879,5.425641402985081,6.088768656716423,81.24270522388062,67.80597014925374,8.789552238805971,29.436567164179106,8.472884824447931,1.9951522388059704,524,17,106,7,8,172,92,134,0.109,0.74,0.15,0.7227,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,5,8,1,0,8,0,7,3,0,4,0,23,21,16,0,1,6,0,3,2,0,1,3,3,0,1,5,6,0,1,3,0,1,3,1,3,0,0,4,6,15,6,13,13,1,14,0,1,0,0,6,6,0,2,7,66,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642902786166835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27941246389277025,0.2154217327655363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930176248605524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816949683295763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17978191184634967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382451551326337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116298815883302,0.2935327270119675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10733391087245676,0.0,0.11675627559297012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20282944890933807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100762996010551,0.0,0.20073519512669788,0.0,0.0,0.18180791840388646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371327826138138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179393544756472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510220242938026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17544462130575467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143187050228985,0.0,0.0,0.16994207527697364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544652984232509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23958741010149945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17743418239427974,0.0,0.0,0.12117382358554375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iubccnc,2019/09/04,"Sign and Symptoms of Clinical Risk for Psychosis **Here are some early warning signs of psychosis:** * Progressive and marked deterioration in functioning (school, work, social...) * Withdrawal from friends and sometimes family * Sensory sensitivity (light, sound, touch) / Decreased sense of smell * Subtle, very brief and infrequent illusions or hallucinations * Reduced coordination / Increased clumsiness * Difficulties understanding others or being understood in conversation * Reduced concentration, attention, memory * Suspiciousness, paranoia, or baseless fearfulness * Odd ideas and behavior that are new and uncharacteristic of an individual * Delusional thinking, but without conviction * Anxiety, Irritability, Depressed or unstable mood * Reduced drive, motivation and energy * Sleep Disturbance",11.794621212121214,15.928566555555562,10.691477272727274,25.757215909090966,95.56565656565657,14.983333333333334,50.589646464646464,9.827888789773867,10.771770707070706,655,46,46,33,24,207,82,99,0.18899999999999997,0.687,0.12300000000000001,-0.7826,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,0,3,1,6,0,3,1,0,3,3,1,1,0,22,6,12,0,0,6,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,7,0,0,6,0,0,3,1,4,0,0,1,4,0,1,9,4,2,7,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,5,2,29,2,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19723416531462973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22206288286049145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430529188660581,0.2901229600554221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991936889917444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910511919702583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490074084548949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609310056568786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25800955774278195,0.2628184478691061,0.0,0.0,0.2549938963525539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26797719066774583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16520279914642974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684032112168065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21273127410257725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24853251935832746,0.0,0.18769847732019174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hks947633,2019/09/04,"Psychosis and anti-anxiety medication I don't mean to be ignorant or offensive by any means, and I know this question might sound stupid. But, is it possible for anti-anxiety medication (not anti-psychotics) to help ease symptoms of psychosis (like paranoia)? Say two people had exactly identical genetic and environmental factors, but one was on anxiety medication and the other wasn't, is the medicated one less prone to psychosis?",10.40623287671233,10.930133424657537,10.924760273972602,49.24275684931507,57.21917808219178,14.971232876712325,48.38698630136986,13.816669648895859,7.735578082191777,352,22,46,14,4,120,53,73,0.114,0.836,0.05,-0.5514,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,0,8,5,0,0,1,15,11,7,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,3,2,2,1,7,6,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,1,34,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112809635237775,0.0,0.38071195791283263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11119133479630587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09116779268091994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08104457412578693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36140166928260337,0.0,0.6684594630210398,0.0,0.17598111938048056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248202166663521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11500596072603432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870139717486508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858327010137185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319209206281886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17242131245762513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620486247971709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Rosie_echo,2019/09/04,"What could happen if you suddenly stop taking anti psychotics not planning on doing this, just curious",10.619999999999996,11.858022764705884,9.781176470588235,55.21529411764711,56.647058823529406,11.505882352941176,40.52941176470589,11.20814326018867,5.564458823529414,85,4,9,2,1,27,17,17,0.21600000000000005,0.6729999999999999,0.111,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.487371790401323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5397935981047869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5103395949285571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4589608994394326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HaineAviron,2019/09/04,"How can I diagnose if I have schizophrenia? Hi guys, I just want to know if im schizophrenic because of certain things. Can anyone help me?",1.1338888888888905,3.7708437777777815,2.338796296296298,90.31708333333334,92.70370370370372,5.662962962962964,25.26851851851852,7.1686216300943375,1.5454518518518519,110,5,21,2,4,35,22,27,0.0,0.7559999999999999,0.244,0.6662,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,7,5,3,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960460204270837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25809626031975863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4297346784679054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4192253390120098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28379120228242904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4573367708865038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326855554144591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28128329683284153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497279843692027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,UnicornCyborgDildo,2019/09/04,Could some explain what an Episode is? I am a schizophrenic but I've never understood what an episode is. I believe I've had one but I can't tell if it's a mental breakdown or something else. So could anyone explain and educate my dunbass...,1.41,4.02019,3.017500000000002,87.67750000000002,86.5,5.7,30.91666666666667,7.1686216300943375,2.1917666666666658,192,11,36,3,6,63,35,48,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,7,1,0,0,1,12,10,6,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407933328610399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3879899991445052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5499070073522035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876791230077408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470465890911015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656013832963075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23335578995238376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26511485627409925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009968360859344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kfreshhhIN,2019/09/04,"Titleless I posted here a while back about how help to help my boyfriend. He's since killed himself. His birthday would have been 5 days ago. Not that anyone could have have stopped it, but no one was receptive to my pleas. I just wanted some sort of advice. Don't discourage people without schizophrenia (those that don't understand) from asking.",4.678571428571427,7.420699952380954,3.676428571428573,87.40607142857145,73.28571428571429,6.73968253968254,26.37301587301588,7.793537801064563,1.6245682539682544,279,10,49,4,6,81,54,63,0.11,0.785,0.105,-0.0777,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,1,0,9,0,0,1,0,13,12,3,1,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,2,0,6,0,6,8,1,6,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,2,5,36,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26233727242472804,0.2379747418086501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18771438093468407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509750731322081,0.0,0.0,0.20643016630592095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.214344500801304,0.0,0.0,0.1731353273494334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3598878969851021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970126493375341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819163227152764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861172609460338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571117130188836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220739591237451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244456652364431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27947767802707146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15834542859351594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587871102942089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19070720289469573,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,monkeeeeee,2019/09/04,"Hearing voices? When you say you hear voices, do you mean like.. it seems like your ear drums are actually vibrating like someone is there talking, or are you referring to basically intrusive thoughts or voices in your head? I've only ever heard a voice that actually seemed like someone talking to me--like my ear drums were vibrating--once, but the voice was very significant and still influences my possible paranoid delusions a lot (I'm still not entirely sure if they're just delusions or if at least some of them are real). But that's another story. Anyway, just curious about what most people actually mean when they say they ""hear voices"".",6.893189655172414,8.465958318965521,7.0529310344827625,70.3226724137931,64.94827586206897,10.627586206896552,34.327586206896555,10.686352973137794,4.088451724137931,519,23,84,14,8,167,77,116,0.045,0.86,0.095,0.6035,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,6,3,0,10,5,0,0,3,0,7,3,3,1,2,24,17,10,0,2,10,0,0,4,0,0,0,14,0,0,4,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,14,11,5,6,13,4,7,0,0,0,0,17,2,0,10,9,53,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.4018566288468997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439357933177321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241653212797071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408749321027801,0.0,0.4641276413706962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682457260595704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166989881867752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29904671047252346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14618424061852858,0.0,0.10439728588111376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516324124380104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15474724611773544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15623921945874902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21831950823402396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24992435809827634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326107577224911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192422554712108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293719615094845,0.0,0.0,0.2206590723288014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897419215574426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11325915919394325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,obviously_99,2019/09/04,"do most schizophrenics start out atheist in life then become conformed to religion as they grow older? idk if it was my dads pressure from my mom or if he had started to geow bizarre himself later in life but it just seems to be the case with most religious people nowadays that its like theyre going crazy. anyways, my dad who grew up hating god and believed there was no such thing went to the extent of kickimg an idol of god and pictures when he was younger and doing all kijds of things that went against religion. suddenly at 55, something happened. he put up with my moms constant psychotic episodes and bipolar tantrums. one day when he was out, he got a call from an officer since my mom was taken to protection because she felt there was something evil in the house that made her feel like committing suicide. my dad rushed over and admitted her to the loony ward for a few days. later on when he was taking a shower in the house, he claims the door slammed violently and he packed everything and immediately vacated(luckily we were renting the place). He says thats when he started his religious duties and realized that his wife wasnt just crazy but now has a belief that shes been possessed for a lomg time and this is whats happening to her. He believes he has gained suxh spiritual knowledge after 5 years that now he can talk to/summon any god suxh as zeus or aphrodite, even some angels and djinns. he says hes facing the facts and that the entire world is an illusion and theres only god and devil in this universe. nowadays he doesnt socialize with people, he stays at home either making income through his work at home job,drinking or practicing spiritual/occult practices. he realizes his alchoholism is gonna kill him one day but he says he wants to unite with god no matter what. He doesnt realize that this ""magical remedies"" are not going to help treat my mom. but he firmly believes that his divine powers can fight the demons eating her away. How could someone thats been an atheist and has kept a good paying job for so long suddenly start having a belief in gods demons and spirits? is it life phenomena thats causing him or is it his own brain was destined to change delusionally like this? he needs to understand that religion cant save him or my mom from everything",7.953314472900537,7.440240194063933,7.408646019456025,75.86477367480646,62.58447488584475,10.357117331745089,35.710144927536234,9.653516015845867,3.2801197935278954,1847,73,337,30,23,578,234,438,0.132,0.7809999999999999,0.08800000000000001,-0.9809,6,0,3,0,1,1,30.0,1,0,1,3,16,15,6,1,21,0,34,8,2,4,3,65,59,35,2,5,15,9,2,3,0,1,5,3,5,0,27,22,1,3,11,0,2,8,7,8,0,2,20,5,27,7,45,36,8,51,8,0,0,0,60,18,0,11,27,207,54,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05868255304643425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107560308492874,0.0,0.0,0.05260372912736309,0.09530441361492356,0.0,0.29166974136401314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09633210781851896,0.08811533258774372,0.0,0.0,0.08864721616075219,0.09128710253844333,0.0,0.0,0.09325263928681757,0.0,0.06889835432284717,0.0,0.0,0.16695654544337374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08453479776838063,0.0,0.0882998146356865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05699605641290621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551101039094691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04363259677678345,0.0616481082617517,0.08285531227656091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808519262931634,0.07237891079686659,0.06901681137818884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15261815031519813,0.0,0.0,0.08519698605549024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05784072777768469,0.0,0.1731188739379938,0.0,0.0,0.19914227325126924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17126600750378004,0.0,0.09547099494469738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18285499651895865,0.12647596573389913,0.0,0.0,0.07636705011192536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816530155530852,0.057601594989896865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5053296411025774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06398555200283826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11694944552055678,0.06563011084784062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11965012344445115,0.0,0.09015836224530804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08674882249661564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058722131238444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07855838007246811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07138289186046701,0.0,0.0,0.08796537691378087,0.07311621985610002,0.13286593594632726,0.0,0.0,0.24431599173896346,0.09197741109639444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09439110538250647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06488198802780938,0.06935946300851482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146591611696724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050318445736675065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08983459810749024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05089815415769596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15998991601585347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06282271064867002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05557019793462137 schizophrenia,AllyAlligator2000,2019/09/04,"Any other trans people having voices fuck with their head? I'm a year out full time presenting as female and I'm also scitzoaffective. Whenever I try to work on transition related stuff like posture, voice, or anything else I literally hear people talking about whatever I'm doing and criticizing it. Like dissecting it with a high powered microscope and then stomping it into the ground. It makes it super hard to practice anything. It also makes me incredibly self conscious and totally obliterates my self-esteem. My voices always call me ""he"" like ""oh he's doing this"" or ""he thinks he's so blah blah blah."" It's rediculous and feels like shit. Any people out there with similar issues?",5.325395894428151,7.939011129032259,6.220879765395896,70.53995601173023,70.7741935483871,9.025219941348977,29.821114369501466,9.573946990214177,3.385041935483871,556,23,84,14,11,183,81,124,0.115,0.779,0.106,0.135,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,3,5,7,2,0,3,0,3,3,2,2,1,19,12,12,0,0,2,0,2,7,0,0,0,4,0,1,10,11,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,7,5,11,12,2,11,0,0,0,1,9,7,2,2,8,48,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667579032362069,0.13877957065272006,0.0,0.0,0.2268408199002493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27450184355606555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17030747004284852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393285602121946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08433216955805188,0.11915217298342153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541912557695511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14940777333169306,0.0,0.17117087161558106,0.0,0.18798029270469965,0.0,0.0,0.1762188934140977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740815748952192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3259334648926153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226623136987775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34688588039739204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479889915434221,0.0,0.17120375013524708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19093042134475027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13405651799303012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10686993272715256,0.0,0.0,0.09725443845278596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11323695615324672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142241988537986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10740491515028423 schizophrenia,frasierCrane009,2019/09/04,"Ghosts My ex had a schizophrenic parent, and she herself would occasionally hallucinate. She also had PTSD and depression. Seeing people in her room or her car, that kind of thing, and it would terrify her. But she also talked about how she had a 'friend' that was a ghost, for a whole year or two. Someone nobody could see but her, that she talked to and interacted with for a long period of time. She considered him to be completely different from a hallucination, and it just has always made me think. She didn't hallucinate often during the years I knew her, but then has this whole ghost thing. I could not even begin to get her to think it might be a hallucination like the other things she saw. Does anyone else believe in ghosts despite your diagnosis?",5.76276595744681,7.246553113475176,6.228148936170211,75.52350000000001,67.51063829787232,9.61163120567376,26.156737588652483,9.888512548439397,2.3933001418439708,603,17,111,14,10,195,89,141,0.066,0.9109999999999999,0.023,-0.5927,2,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,0,7,4,0,0,9,0,14,1,0,2,0,24,23,14,4,4,7,2,0,1,1,3,1,0,1,0,11,6,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,8,3,21,3,13,8,2,11,0,1,3,0,23,3,0,4,8,89,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440988807117817,0.12699131853647228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10671482436248428,0.15637630521119034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719494643857121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16001822425705628,0.0,0.0,0.24370786768899216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13145060851510407,0.0,0.0,0.1594544777816964,0.0,0.0,0.13355800423319064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12749367567515293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008034771772824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791313925606865,0.0,0.07973718142968761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589293085861461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456198392025894,0.0,0.0,0.1350631022133436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441188404568106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16190474852950745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16946545099903365,0.0,0.0,0.1058068684657332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784035624998155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24323532851965754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293136694609031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24533890540624104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041800485037472,0.19558431554578665,0.0,0.0,0.08899342543398632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14908668577459086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34078755303772856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21683246174569246,0.0,0.0,0.19656339514644827 schizophrenia,frostyoppa,2019/09/04,"How do I talk to someone with schizophrenia? I really don’t want to make this long. Just trying to get some first hand advice on how to talk to someone with schizophrenia. My friend has schizophrenia, and I feel like talking to him is talking to a wall. Can’t refer anything through to him for one. He blurts our the most random shit, that has no relevancy to what I’m talking about. Asking him questions...just forget it, only going to get a sarcastic response. I can try to give an example I guess. For instance I would say something about food, and he will response with something about Star Wars...like ...??? or something he will just say even more random shit as if he’s talking to someone in his head. This is all probably just stupid but I just want to be able to talk to him normally, without all the extra in between. I feel like I can’t get him to open up to me, he doesn’t listen to when people try to help him, etc. I would appreciate any advice. Thank u",3.107493455497384,4.9014542356020945,3.8928501308900536,88.41477257853407,74.70680628272251,6.240968586387434,26.073625654450264,6.9077264865688965,1.0783845549738222,753,27,151,7,16,240,106,191,0.061,0.815,0.124,0.9192,0,0,3,0,0,0,31.0,1,0,0,1,11,7,3,0,5,0,15,5,4,3,2,33,30,9,0,6,8,0,3,2,1,4,0,3,0,0,5,6,1,0,3,0,0,1,6,3,0,2,0,6,20,4,35,25,7,10,0,0,0,0,27,6,2,7,5,103,25,0,0.10749508396919076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21008590390668808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07310034326254647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08845929493190026,0.0,0.1004933927415056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988543366781708,0.07099948915136835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087054886414134,0.15358901893224652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09143526351030458,0.12998348222533562,0.0,0.08305043522151177,0.0,0.1684852340337816,0.1031190796014316,0.0610919334448733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184179540949892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11032096848486568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07205168888542718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10503333648184864,0.0,0.0,0.09512976663971236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07175380326244161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053223589224208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07284145089216297,0.08175485527256965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452355633091276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115897881632775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06886410335960146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17096881061809446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22068431789701964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732407074370888,0.24826490212237445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6048033365711731,0.0,0.09896703089882594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21894631755734972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268067712532375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103621424975283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527228469341659,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ji_vc,2019/09/04,"FBI Delusions Hi, my sister was hospitalized and then given a working diagnosis of Schizophrenia two Fridays ago. She’s been on Zyprexa and Seroquel for about three or so weeks. I know it takes a while for the meds to be working, but she’s very dead set on her delusions about the FBI so I’d love some advice. Prior to this delusion, she had two others: (1) that my dad had a gun and wanted to hurt her, and (2) that she would die if she fell asleep at the hospital. She has been able to identify these as delusions. When it comes to her FBI delusion, she believes they are monitoring her. Her underlying belief is that this is a good thing, because she is special/gifted and they want to help her/take her to a better place/have her join the FBI as a special agent. She’s not really sure on why they actually would be looking into just that she’s special. The people she has claimed to be FBI are random bystanders that saw her during her psychotic break, and everyone working at the hospital during her stay. She says while they may not be FBI agents, they are affiliated with them. While in the hospital she called them all actors, and got furious with them if they denied their affiliation. She also throws a tantrum when we say anything that could possibly be read as us tell her that she is still experiencing a delusion. It sucks as well as she lost some items (a fidget spinner and her favorite stuffed animal) in the hospital and she believes that they intentionally took these from her as some sort of test. Most days she cries about wanting to go back to the hospital. Sometimes for her stuffed animals, sometimes because she doesn’t like that we don’t believe her about the FBI, sometimes that she feels like they can help her the best, and sometimes because she wants to keep interrogating them. We’ve been told to try to dodge any FBI talks. Its hard because she keeps pressing us. And when she wants an answer out of us, we have to balance between supporting her and not trying to enable her delusions. Any help, tips, or even well wishes would be great. I want the best for her, but this is all so new to me.",6.89431257344301,6.841166007371013,6.619412455934199,79.12256169212692,64.6019656019656,9.436983228287577,33.174767653028525,8.964715089967882,2.621206900972118,1683,63,325,24,23,528,197,407,0.098,0.742,0.16,0.9828,0,0,0,1,0,0,46.0,6,0,13,8,17,19,3,0,22,0,31,2,1,1,3,58,55,35,2,13,10,2,3,2,0,4,0,2,0,0,21,20,0,2,4,2,0,5,5,5,2,3,12,8,66,14,47,32,9,32,1,2,2,1,74,10,1,11,16,237,87,7,0.0865239870466453,0.0,0.08443493012234267,0.0,0.0,0.08455023875098744,0.07669829395820676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06919320118094673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176785564513199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07120186901790586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06653160523188573,0.0,0.21097687766808854,0.0,0.0,0.2924487121162539,0.1816031725993268,0.07652343524553155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08835066473631978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07453275348328912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0690823631358424,0.0,0.0950425369173094,0.05580081369423096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897982381785815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0571482774171526,0.0,0.0,0.08267737752707527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04374912760570825,0.061812753634433476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049173575784672484,0.07257221523196546,0.06920113655784273,0.09539300117543392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07750849735074658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17398561400998774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926257176650986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15381299044824215,0.0,0.0,0.0475513204830901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845424991511807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07265835749620213,0.0,0.09445115281009787,0.0,0.07809127643159271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09610864417220004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356540585473983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0599848382321737,0.0,0.09039915077184693,0.0,0.0,0.09754279492714728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08654740166634713,0.0,0.05542948167539213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376146946360836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34229774240700905,0.0,0.0,0.09222305780892573,0.06909816782304137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09818639514489744,0.08154783382213708,0.0,0.06505527021602862,0.06954470331771552,0.0756257783778715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05748269234166421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267737752707527,0.09613133323918092,0.11748821524199435,0.0,0.16904272583506275,0.0,0.31223310899873713,0.0,0.0,0.07139135083845463,0.3062045359158938,0.0,0.06940432336237484,0.0,0.1555909109360884,0.0,0.07807444036431845,0.0,0.0994983150146734,0.0,0.0,0.18897147919700985,0.0,0.0,0.1843924737104148,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,doctorgerbils,2019/09/04,"Not putting a face to a mind That's one of the most confusing things about this, I blend all of you together",7.681304347826089,4.898322347826088,7.232173913043479,84.17695652173914,64.65217391304347,12.678260869565218,36.04347826086956,11.20814326018867,3.359295652173913,86,3,21,2,1,27,21,23,0.109,0.8909999999999999,0.0,-0.2944,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5898163785887058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3958293871027346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5872235321489159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3880776457681235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kimboloves,2019/09/04,"What do your voices say? Surely this has been asked here before, but I’m curious to know. Also would like to share. I didn’t sleep until 4:30 last night because the particularly annoying guy up top wouldn’t stop yelling CABBAGE BBQ SAUCE LEMON MUSTARD MILK GET THE MILK RIBS ONIONS POTATOES GOAT CHEESE PLUMS PEARS APRICOT SPAGHETTI LOBSTER CUCUMBER CINNAMON MANGO TILAPIA BANANA BROCCOLI GRAPE etc etc. Sometimes a young couple talks about my bad habits—indolence and isolation. These mice try to influence me while I grocery shop. And my least favorite, of course, is the devil, Lucifer, who often visits while I’m showering.",6.100825688073393,9.049939678899085,5.11604587155963,77.79718807339452,69.64220183486239,7.662752293577981,32.00091743119266,8.548686976883017,2.9719754128440363,511,23,77,9,10,152,94,109,0.191,0.706,0.10300000000000001,-0.9356,1,1,0,0,1,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,4,6,1,0,4,0,7,4,2,1,1,10,12,7,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,3,1,1,4,2,2,1,1,1,1,1,2,3,0,0,2,3,6,3,7,8,3,10,1,0,0,0,8,2,0,1,8,39,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18514761868228893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21644130120630486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19331073880174895,0.1411333260731814,0.0,0.1970077002739506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25617407910605106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5164152299144622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096040112183708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22924263371975898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723813326137576,0.1887208812461246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310968511455978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21726719568106406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841151484011498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23168865047523665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289806325091395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935622977517769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182062252241228,0.0,0.0,0.18608817039074785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15718786603326965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16446619430687034,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,altagrazia,2019/09/04,Preventing/getting rid of an akathisia attack? Would be super interested to hear anything that’s worked for people. just waiting for it to go away once it happens isn’t great,3.6178125,6.776370156250002,3.7550000000000026,82.39000000000001,81.8125,5.7,29.875,7.1686216300943375,2.1588500000000006,143,7,23,2,4,44,29,32,0.08,0.644,0.276,0.8225,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,6,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,14,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26887327986408033,0.0,0.0,0.3717057631056396,0.306976249418012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17070441841152215,0.0,0.18568979699879606,0.0,0.0,0.36022409883182793,0.0,0.0,0.28892876274874696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.368251645923823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479598008227754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22651540500355224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23786539179980096,0.0,0.0,0.2321016281950993,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Dongleiod,2019/09/04,"Haven't been on here in a while and I'm feeling kind of down and wanted to write... but here's a poem. I'm a fool to believe in the things I can't see In a world full of seas, in the land full of dream I could be anything, demand what what I mean I could be king, sit on thrones as I sing But life isn't like what they snap on their phones They roll in the roses and smell of cologne Their lifes are alright, sitting on thrones full of gold The shades every hue, the silence is bold I could write what it's like to live as I do Bound to medications that lessen my hue I could write what it's like to experience true death Walk in the light but be full of no breath But I'll sing my song true, because that's what I do I'll go back on my throne and sing on my que",1.4804318488529018,2.3402311052631566,2.5821052631578962,99.97858299595144,77.12865497076024,5.729374718848402,20.17139001349528,5.369823440869387,-0.541466396761134,593,12,157,2,13,189,86,171,0.126,0.775,0.099,-0.6903,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,4,1,3,9,0,0,10,1,15,4,1,0,2,21,22,11,1,5,4,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,11,4,0,1,2,5,0,2,4,1,0,0,1,5,17,8,26,14,4,25,0,0,1,0,8,19,0,0,5,96,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462285263523901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15382493177138726,0.0,0.12194769575873868,0.0,0.0,0.2253861305521456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6388897282090099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16854947122270256,0.0,0.0,0.1956857983434288,0.0,0.0,0.10115052155363488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11369216049528333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083197061504532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2826003131130358,0.2932007453837967,0.0,0.17664647164303598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179114393933089,0.0,0.20152779600069892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15941273706340464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132903320108898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799377574308535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cdwithdcs,2019/09/04,"It's as if people don't want me to have any peace I try to meditate, here come people yelling insults at me. I don't meditate, they yell at me still. I guess people hate me that much.",1.9571666666666687,2.853621050000001,3.770000000000003,91.78166666666668,76.0,7.333333333333335,23.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,0.8393333333333328,142,4,34,2,3,48,28,40,0.187,0.728,0.085,-0.4976,0,0,0,0,1,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,7,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,2,8,0,5,7,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,1,22,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21828465464054025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765050293634157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35360739853198353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31691181981843985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23596506724724506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6676035171758015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563435540745453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179315863637495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18932860663649567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dysfunctionalyam,2019/09/04,"Anybody here have success with or help from natural remedies? Ayurveda, traditional Chinese medicine, herbs, or anything along those lines? Don't want to go into detail here, but I don't have access to proper healthcare right now. Unfortunately when I still had access to healthcare the doctors were pretty sure I have schizophrenia because of symptoms and because of family history, but I never got a proper diagnosis because I had to stop going abruptly. I'm trying to figure my healthcare situation out, but in the meantime I want to try taking something to help with these debilitating symptoms and paranoia. I get that this can happen to anyone but the degree to which this paranoia and anxiety has taken over my life is not normal. I won't hesitate to check myself into a hospital if I start feeling suicidal or anything like that, but I really can't afford the bill right now so I want to try anything natural I can first. Thanks, guys. I appreciate you all so much.",8.40443181818182,8.776980579545459,8.571727272727273,64.95509090909091,61.38636363636364,10.449090909090913,39.190909090909095,10.125756701596842,4.343401818181818,786,38,117,15,10,258,108,176,0.129,0.701,0.17,0.8714,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,2,8,4,0,0,6,0,14,4,0,0,3,29,28,15,1,5,10,0,1,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,7,9,0,1,2,0,2,2,6,0,0,1,5,1,17,4,22,22,2,18,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,4,10,91,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11381071647841365,0.0,0.0,0.10402533846084087,0.0,0.3672817939544515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720713907571645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15227517344328875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14024967121791046,0.0,0.07522395265085853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265459917227689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07772760097474084,0.0,0.16910191992111714,0.0,0.11898712739436546,0.0,0.0,0.1473083736074955,0.13155921674458732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994384239791516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050825653007662,0.07268283164924047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10936506037365096,0.0,0.11474268604027578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576566905083732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513553315391514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09530760801884627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541021641189003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16722676016156962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453250107562493,0.0,0.0,0.10530209036400012,0.0,0.11881007894437062,0.12438064774809995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627331987202276,0.0,0.14021651918417066,0.3092636209463696,0.11185856345580768,0.0,0.0,0.13696992377058576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30302071460887303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26324999802064525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,malaangelito,2019/05/27,Is waiting hopeful or should I stop? My partner recently said I was hiding something then proceeded to block & delete me. I love him dearly but I have seen this before when he broke up with me after accusing me of cheating (which to me came out of nowhere). Is it fair to wait or should I give up because I can't seem to. He isn't getting any help/medication. But from what I understand episodes end so will he get in touch. I miss him loads :(,2.407,4.304639422222223,3.4819444444444483,90.13625000000003,77.0,6.722222222222222,26.805555555555557,7.645422480735847,1.409888888888888,348,14,74,5,8,112,66,90,0.217,0.6859999999999999,0.09699999999999999,-0.899,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,9,1,0,0,0,16,22,7,0,3,4,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,4,3,0,4,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,3,15,3,13,15,0,12,0,2,1,1,9,4,0,4,7,48,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760577221889298,0.0,0.17326145814398067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15531360411681552,0.0,0.2168019192890469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914043500833085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22566248072651116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662276356174977,0.2444114664419548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17077595153266156,0.0,0.0,0.25305741811538884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22995197818320395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830069357012341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515678836306104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24235737114887165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319452507462423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961447193811568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21301034221621232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652385189779677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,aflatoon87,2019/05/27,"My sister (26f) acts like a very young person and doesn't wanna grow up. She speaks and sounds like a very imbecile person. My sister was diagnosed with schizophrenia 5-6 yrs back and the condition has been ever growing. What is more difficult is that over the time she has grown very imbecile. As I said she acts like a very childlike person asking me very stypid questions like how to connect bluetooth or how to use headphones etc (these are just recent examples). She will act like a very young person around us for example if she is lying down she will move her legs/hands like an infant. I don't understand this and frankly I'm growing tired of this. If we go out she will lie her head on the Restaurant table like a kid. These are just small things that are now bugging me a lot because I dont want to go out with her, but she has zero social life outside of home, so we sisters are her only hope. Even my youngest sister is more intelligent than her. I really am at a loss and dont know what to do.",4.906440872560276,5.512464925373139,5.234029850746271,85.07586681974743,68.90049751243781,8.174665135859168,27.40183696900115,8.139509932561175,1.6022587830080357,794,24,161,10,13,252,120,201,0.07400000000000001,0.812,0.114,0.7386,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,3,0,0,1,10,10,0,0,11,0,22,4,1,3,1,29,32,13,0,5,6,4,0,7,0,3,3,3,1,6,9,12,0,0,3,0,0,10,4,2,0,1,3,3,25,8,20,26,4,26,0,1,0,0,31,9,0,6,14,110,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10083838741605956,0.1058964367460134,0.0,0.0,0.0871011562059333,0.0,0.06905112958555704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11497130928410955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655139167120488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12633109398374334,0.07481678851520979,0.10246333824185254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875310285080466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11625239373664205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136236346386699,0.1125072119099729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06225274407194153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08000918229850552,0.3873816496129341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09630199298665004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12039294675944125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861504186879286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3956279589853536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12689344818179168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725665933505601,0.0,0.11184497733422233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775006050744143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11546916427938678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07525459437418404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06605131565282131,0.13019246067883572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11792282748943007,0.13625536667761726,0.0978328634543848,0.0,0.5607803250313891,0.06681227921882314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CosmicSagittarius,2019/05/27,"This seems kinda weird but do you ever stalk people you don't know and they don't know you? I have a few random people on Facebook I check from time to time. I've never talked to them, I don't know them, they don't know me... I just go on their public profile look at pictures or posts and secretly wish I was part of their lives or that I may have a life like them. Sounds really serial killer alike I know lol but I'm not interested in killing them or kidnap them etc. I just look at them when I'm bored.",-0.16934368383909515,1.978154761467892,1.6451376146789016,98.20167960479887,88.54128440366972,4.821736062103035,13.889202540578687,6.297961479604792,-0.8690556104446009,395,6,94,4,13,129,65,109,0.11699999999999999,0.747,0.136,0.4881,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,10,0,4,5,1,0,2,1,9,1,0,0,2,23,21,8,1,1,8,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,7,0,1,1,6,3,0,0,1,3,22,2,9,19,3,12,0,0,2,0,16,5,0,7,6,60,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22452722057850466,0.0,0.18210725341774373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441591856898485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227329383870242,0.0,0.5532064656091978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421996656227328,0.09835574842937354,0.0,0.17777099341732175,0.0,0.33811951162733705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15527191918926686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21801208159413796,0.0,0.2791426190602717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19281080271209944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289720131288383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832759660523189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618149785679034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23478492667830225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315103371436851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizoschizoschizo,2019/05/27,"Constant suffering, it never ends My schizophrenia is only negative symptoms, I've never really had positive symptoms. I don't know if that's why but my negative symptoms are really intense. Everyday is constant torture, I don't want to eat, I have no one to hug or get affection from, my thoughts don't let me enjoy anything, I lost the only person that has truly cared about me and who made me happy a while back. I fail to see the point of life, it's been like this for years, how am I supposed to carry on for a chance that things might get slightly better, and it's only a chance, not guaranteed. Can someone give me a reason to get out of bed for once, or just say something. I want to die every second of my life. I play games sometimes to try to drown out my thoughts but it just reminds how alone I am and how I have no one to play with or share anything. Thanks to anyone who read my thoughts, and sorry for the negative post.",4.761666666666667,5.186725761904763,5.5990608465608505,82.97255952380952,69.15873015873018,8.416402116402116,30.035714285714285,8.344100000000001,2.091733333333334,735,27,147,10,12,241,107,189,0.23199999999999998,0.57,0.19899999999999998,-0.7859,0,1,1,0,0,1,20.0,0,0,0,3,7,14,1,0,7,0,16,7,0,6,2,31,31,14,2,3,9,0,0,1,0,1,5,1,1,1,11,7,1,0,5,4,0,0,11,4,0,3,7,2,20,10,23,22,0,14,0,3,1,1,7,4,0,5,10,105,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12589256275340147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08499289530998241,0.0,0.20005602176489112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09346698652654792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075040180697672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12393169292430654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627118746372804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126153137124711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12437937419506805,0.0,0.0,0.1076601470161413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10241389984324677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905197507671392,0.11660500374212275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939575070492493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06680251611879791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242964872168418,0.17171338452072393,0.05938480366994844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326897885050191,0.0,0.0,0.11501667378957728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12894884496286596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18749880070572386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945030001102753,0.16473532709352065,0.2773402916853326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10613565514728138,0.0,0.0,0.11490716029026085,0.0,0.1164144632860491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12158619647402308,0.0,0.1557403161661419,0.12497703956590192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666406487996043,0.0,0.0,0.09686224447288762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029917186885613,0.09357767076312333,0.1202193242073264,0.13606897034833113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3790212694406511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190994967088676,0.0,0.0,0.080754612967509,0.0,0.0,0.28949923346728634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08252671337763545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14339057421440546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10968294903099983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07827634147955348 schizophrenia,jimmyheidi,2019/05/27,"Ptsd I have it from this disease. Any one else. My voices and hallutionations r so bad. Anyone else. I get tactile rapes sodomy bugs had this 6 years and I get chocked my voices turned to evil tulpas and possess me. Please pray for me. My mouth gets clamped shut ad my teeth gey pushed forward. They have human souls they r entities and will burn in hell. Seriously. Sounds like a delusion Look up creepy pasta tulpa on utube",1.2231623931623936,3.8411132345678993,1.6992592592592608,93.97743589743591,95.66666666666666,3.9737891737891737,18.57644824311491,5.8734145424116955,-0.17975859449192774,336,10,66,3,13,102,65,81,0.212,0.711,0.077,-0.9392,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,2,6,3,0,1,0,4,4,2,0,0,4,9,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,1,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,0,1,1,4,11,1,6,7,0,7,3,0,1,1,3,5,1,0,3,31,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18495427004749046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19017324220563792,0.2786734565118686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22709015101697103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.454405202064533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4262916162045548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13287464335072427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22839290145641386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18429923551210986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.298550014810308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3179275616514378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958338092389144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17514482349225224 schizophrenia,sczphanc,2019/05/27,"I'm so paranoid and scared of everything I've been in a state of true terror almost non-stop for about 15 hours now. I am doing my best to function and be normal but I'm losing it. My family is getting worried. I was visiting my family in another state for a few days and I forgot my Ativan and I freaked out a little because I felt trapped and scared and that just kept progressing. I cannot calm myself down. everything is so scary. intrusive thoughts have become even more distressing because they are true and predictive. everything that could go wrong certainly will. how do I calm down. I can't keep doing this.",2.920250000000003,5.396855858333336,4.141666666666668,83.18000000000002,77.91666666666666,8.0,25.833333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.3058333333333336,493,19,91,12,12,161,82,120,0.302,0.617,0.081,-0.9846,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,3,7,13,0,4,3,0,15,0,0,1,3,22,24,11,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,3,2,0,0,2,2,7,0,0,6,1,14,6,11,15,3,13,0,1,0,0,2,6,0,1,3,64,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762389931872545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845517816948215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21457643975438528,0.19437863156865112,0.0,0.0,0.18470157798888864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052201070895634,0.0,0.0,0.1135057080211676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162466147172804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4745334753679142,0.0,0.3318350567060109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16898799969101608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09195295309106392,0.0,0.10002509221382268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733249569504502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15643725626787588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17639865357076168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19689944608489932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17244303902901825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.352414239415061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14714422836147895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13972467068494512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17873696547891976,0.0,0.0,0.1924288256374311,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,seeker607,2019/05/27,"Delusion vs. Obsession Been going through existential and schiz OCD and been trying to understand and accept the unknown little by little. Rather than trying to reject my past experiences, I’m trying to understand them better, and I had a question regarding delusions. After smoking weed and possibly being drugged with PCP I began having panic attacks and depersonalization from weed, so I stopped shortly after, this was when I was about 15 or 16. I went through a period of about a month of depression and bad depersonalization for a while after, which is pretty normal. I have never done any drugs since then, except lots of drinking my last two years of college. However, I also developed a fear or delusion(?) that I would be drugged with LSD. Very specifically LSD. I got pretty obsessed with it, memorizing the molecule, reading everything about it. I stopped eating fast food because I was fearful the workers would drug my food as a joke. Even at the grocery store, I’d intentionally grab breads and meats from the back of the shelf, because I thought people would more likely drug the ones in the front. I always checked to make sure seals weren’t broken, and if I wasn’t entirely sure, I’d throw it away. After eating, I’d be in a panic until about an hour after, which is the timeline in which you’d begin feeling the drug. This wasn’t ever accompanied by any hallucinations, and I never thought people were drugging me for any special reason, moreso just as a joke. The panic and hyper-mindfulness eventually went away, but I still do follow some habits now days. I always let the water fountain run for a few seconds before taking a drink, and I always throw away the first part of a toilet paper roll in public bathrooms. I have been very anxious about developing schizophrenia lately, which I know all about schizOCD and been reassured a billion times, and have read everything there is about OCD, SZ, and anxiety, and none of it helps. It’s been about six months, im 22M, just graduated. Was wondering if that kind of delusion could be an indicator of developing SZ.",8.798825857519788,8.54644024802111,8.582030343007919,67.2857104221636,60.76781002638522,10.851767810026386,36.891952506596304,10.241411754978122,3.873677467018469,1670,68,270,31,20,539,208,379,0.09699999999999999,0.845,0.057999999999999996,-0.9063,2,0,9,0,0,0,49.0,0,1,1,3,20,21,1,7,27,0,33,15,0,3,6,57,50,29,0,8,10,0,2,1,0,3,7,0,0,0,13,19,8,2,11,6,2,8,6,11,0,6,21,2,26,10,51,19,7,50,0,2,0,0,6,11,0,8,32,199,39,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0562422871969844,0.17555874540248814,0.0,0.0,0.14347893411276735,0.0,0.05380169463773954,0.07945205015286742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08000969112602056,0.19822997653102634,0.05407886302792543,0.058721997978304165,0.08574413340626805,0.0,0.05984502386627169,0.0,0.0,0.062200518966076514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056152194744854486,0.0,0.0,0.04535655723470918,0.0,0.06057449222845216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07197125510822833,0.0,0.13779180863345886,0.5709173291175665,0.14392879005858744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046451815734079575,0.06361684592411508,0.0,0.0,0.12641481566898474,0.06879551554654388,0.0,0.15827994992043226,0.03556058915359602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05982203622792996,0.1700848509468164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03996974160151708,0.0,0.056248737306804214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04714022333737577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06926015851696664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596767393278303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07323710613875631,0.0386511243526948,0.05732773707085146,0.07933447338070751,0.0,0.0,0.07191643763054928,0.0,0.034359326035350635,0.14097679784202252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05979142545166952,0.0,0.0,0.0469453299904778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.071012508254633,0.0,0.11227229545916152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848452847450143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06890774663057689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04765692957919752,0.0,0.0,0.24754871486890334,0.0,0.07615973962637622,0.06713724063146824,0.09751491307638913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928567825533445,0.0,0.14310029110145808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07878487154797162,0.0,0.1406965926592171,0.0,0.0,0.07231019695280687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05817709413518821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0561650412636068,0.11759682806771125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325689984518169,0.0,0.05287885411745948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11166715989015713,0.04100955954658003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14324686163792305,0.0,0.06870147191278288,0.14643048872024414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11605801693541765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13039186508343106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0762690870139366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14987967439551333,0.0,0.0,0.04528974032983872 schizophrenia,ligmapolls,2019/05/27,"Could Sleep Disordered Breathing diseases like Sleep Apnea contribute or even cause Schizophrenia and other mental ailments in the long term? I'm sorry for the long title... My mom has Schizophrenia and I'm... Good thing this is a throwaway, because nobody knows this, but I'm experiencing some... Symptoms. I have bad sleep too. I am wondering if there might be a connection. Could I nip this in the bud, so to speak? Does anybody have any knowledge or know somebody that has in the theory of sleep issues causing Schizophrenia? I am trying to read research, but I have no access to some sources, and it's not all easy to understand without an academic background. I'm sorry if this makes no sense.",4.074772864930345,6.912286677165357,4.108188976377953,83.00899454875834,75.92913385826772,6.427377347062388,28.66686856450636,7.61054688173877,2.033769715324046,556,24,93,8,13,171,85,127,0.13,0.841,0.028999999999999998,-0.9169,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,7,0,12,6,5,3,1,25,21,10,0,4,8,1,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,8,3,0,0,5,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,6,2,10,17,4,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,8,4,62,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09779235048156096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12007119183277032,0.08766221045954935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954547538225667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22963322704147576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16481302103599693,0.0,0.12584474928985612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498186488899574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12061683489673775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15009508775379515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15806296537864165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025587292107373,0.0,0.0,0.2545258494080507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959909730084792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449216451531499,0.15255440963282746,0.0,0.16842271103072748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438439439138603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5756355300099059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219559112268764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494684862938076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553767084872694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09763417455882054,0.0,0.0,0.14970610594509015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13862291552020065,0.15595041880462085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Daldric,2019/05/27,"I feel like I'm on the verge of being schizophrenic. What are some precautions I can take? So to start off the first hint was my incredibly monotonous voice which was a joke at first but the more and more I think about it the more it makes sense. I have trouble understanding people and connecting with them. I also have trouble with emotions, most of the time I feel empty but randomly when I do get emotional it's overpowering. I also feel like I might have very very slight delusions because I seem to view the world from a different point of view than others. I don't feel like someone is controlling me but rather I am the puppet master and my body is the puppet in this weird third party way.",3.561519607843138,5.713236426470589,4.2741176470588265,84.60519607843139,74.44117647058823,7.768627450980393,23.833333333333336,8.59863814320734,1.5854480392156869,558,17,109,11,12,178,87,136,0.085,0.802,0.113,0.3994,2,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,4,6,7,0,0,10,0,14,2,1,2,0,22,26,10,0,1,4,0,4,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,7,5,0,1,7,1,0,0,1,3,0,3,2,7,16,4,14,22,5,13,0,0,2,0,1,7,0,5,8,80,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26539272962119986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115106776326974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843138847583508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18610769510425024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733644127552316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3733040325247541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3356023480822061,0.3556271815538349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28228463452104946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08669301624906732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431990885931305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11076140294138773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17602843169778618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150368799435337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568600883750886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15105894882173826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14059428546124514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11744805855970852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12476078172569635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10632300980330764,0.0,0.0,0.09675672426435007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17274185065199302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27382380272903817,0.0,0.1317096979675939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dnlaua,2019/05/27,"God knows our thoughts That's what it says in the Bible. Delusions or real shit? Anything is possible. Not trying to reinforce people that think they're having delusions, just thought I'd share how I learned to cope with it. That being said, there's powers of this world that aren't of God. Some people use that power against you, but you'll find people that use it to help. Take it easy homies, God gotchu.",2.824462025316457,5.317847696202534,2.4511234177215178,95.07769778481016,78.36708860759494,4.9626582278481015,21.26740506329114,5.985473137389443,0.05306202531645576,324,9,65,2,8,95,59,79,0.027999999999999997,0.792,0.18,0.8873,2,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,2,0,2,3,2,1,0,1,0,5,1,1,3,0,16,13,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,12,1,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,4,1,8,8,1,2,0,0,0,0,7,2,1,2,0,36,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19035629489838102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114218945989844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15504863053633364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271271851362526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4811035881551288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607780567065577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632923108744897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22003788097665328,0.18395460509547334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23744621257377865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17392352718749501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14822023900779352,0.0,0.3672837969590856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15705080257138532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3995716728696296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DesperatePartner,2019/05/27,"My partner is too proud and scared to accept his problems and keeps pushing me away. How can I best help him? My boyfriend (25) is having several problems like hearing voices calling his name and an altered grip of reality (he doesn’t trust anybody, thinks they’re only using them). This is especially hard on me (F25) because he keeps thinking I will cheat on him despite knowing me for more than 3 years and can say mean/ harsh things to me when he is angry. I am a very emotional person and just start crying in those situations which makes it somehow worse but I don’t know how to keep my calm. Consequently, my family is starting to be very worried about me and I honestly also don’t know how much longer I can do this. The only problem he has admitted to is having memory problems and having smoked a lot of weed which led us to go see a neurologist who ordered some tests and also referred us to a psychiatrist. We are going there soon but I’m scared that he won’t talk about the name calling and trust issues, especially because he doesn’t perceive them as issues. Everything else in his life is going great and he thinks I just want a magic solution for our relationship problems. From what I’ve researched, it looks a lot like schizophrenia and the doctor also said it might be a psychosis. Am I wrong? If not, how can I help him accept his problems? And how can I be a supportive partner without getting hurt myself? I love him very much and would like nothing more than for or relationship to move forwards.",6.214707001522073,6.7605950445205485,6.537351598173517,77.08656773211571,66.02054794520548,8.954642313546422,33.00304414003044,8.841846274778883,2.7429377473363776,1211,49,220,18,18,391,163,292,0.128,0.682,0.19,0.971,0,0,1,0,0,2,26.0,4,0,2,2,18,25,1,2,12,0,31,3,0,8,0,60,58,27,0,9,8,0,2,3,2,4,2,4,0,3,12,14,0,3,12,0,0,7,7,11,0,0,1,8,35,14,25,50,8,18,0,1,2,1,39,6,0,7,9,156,47,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084190727848124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08162088620070447,0.0,0.0,0.1059150428850852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09116879549324447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774159243970742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09542689686915128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891911501993346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07257199375559018,0.09772144152390227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780766572066835,0.0,0.0818969787690159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04538802573664765,0.0,0.14811731348797974,0.0,0.0,0.0957787784339865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07782194818313533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09791319602788418,0.0,0.1164594842362862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09300030379816923,0.0,0.0,0.1813475564093774,0.0,0.2316525345289943,0.0,0.0,0.1432308659757183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061361602809458585,0.1273265941108954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07295219395821123,0.0,0.0,0.14771416164108112,0.07840708407122497,0.0,0.057989001015811226,0.0,0.0,0.09463114208469596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921594764372591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09233320436335866,0.12772462066704982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08335784743428247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13214302712592466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07585493621533203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4987595226782193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865401080429568,0.0,0.0,0.08263697022780657,0.06908560997347303,0.17395185288602044,0.0,0.06922724852424855,0.0,0.0,0.098142776245421,0.0,0.0,0.09764990040714212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12297958325298665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09858346912180796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06982594790235147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05771515714717974,0.1669958566726746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20899720383432188,0.0750311543817901,0.0,0.21504019025937424,0.051240475435988135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08374333686778603,0.0,0.0,0.08822465963886365,0.08853192316466993,0.061712724088024674,0.09498296897387387,0.0,0.05594394157045129 schizophrenia,the_king_of_diaper,2019/05/27,"Freaking out because I hallucinated a spider This is the only sub I figured I could post this. I just saw a spider on the ceiling and when I went to kill it it disappeared and I didn't feel anything on my hand, should I be worried? I was awake and on my iPad.",0.4518787878787869,2.5665818545454577,3.003181818181819,89.85810606060606,85.0,5.121212121212121,23.71212121212121,6.42735559955562,0.6318484848484842,202,8,44,2,6,70,38,55,0.21600000000000005,0.725,0.059000000000000004,-0.8126,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,4,0,6,1,1,0,0,9,9,4,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,4,3,10,0,5,2,0,8,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,34,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214832804530355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381452188966384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119135077307224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975315150239184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4322119622800309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971176639630971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741482332719913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3621495491184784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.396738372746054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Afuckindragonyo,2019/05/27,"Anyone have any success with antidepressants? I finally started taking antipsychotics and while I sort of hate them, I can’t deny that they take away that manic, coming out of my skin, I’m just gonna lay in bed and pretend I don’t exist feeling I used to get constantly. However I still feel pretty depressed and am wondering if I should try an antipsychotic.",7.156764705882356,7.534602911764708,7.698823529411764,70.14470588235297,64.0,10.917647058823533,34.64705882352941,10.686352973137794,3.8918117647058814,290,12,49,7,4,96,56,68,0.16,0.7190000000000001,0.121,-0.4005,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,1,2,3,1,0,1,0,5,1,1,1,0,14,17,5,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,3,10,1,7,15,0,9,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,3,5,32,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769214233766405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819137275961939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444339987654427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241094933875843,0.0,0.2811464195021877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22408011569737532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26309493117176536,0.0,0.0,0.2849985271210765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359257065599204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568595137367327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646817877185711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841464403309538,0.0,0.20776845965182367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39122407180557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17663525877115402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246994115259916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821383261086365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,neo_redditor,2019/02/17,Time alone and schizophrenia Do you think that spending a lot of time alone increase the probability of getting schizophrenia?,8.533000000000001,12.403678300000005,5.420000000000004,74.01500000000001,66.0,6.0,40.0,7.1686216300943375,3.3665000000000003,106,6,14,1,2,29,16,20,0.179,0.7170000000000001,0.10300000000000001,-0.1779,0,2,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7225042022539454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18223385285973828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965376920554793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3760659080187605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22349726151452165,0.0,0.0,0.4067767258696466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sherlockis_Agirlname,2019/02/17,"How do you tell if your in the wrong? Recently I was forced to stay at a mental hospital for several months after claiming ""my brother tried to sell me into human sex trafficking"" and arguing outside a dr's office about it before being arrested and brought to the hospital. My dr.s' claim the ""working diagnosis"" for me is ""schizophrenic"" or ""schizophreniform"". Is this a reasonable claim based on those facts alone?? It seems terribly wrong since I didn't see or hear anything out of the norm (I know my accusation wasn't a normal one though.) It seems reasonable to say I displayed paranoid ideation but how does that equal schizophrenic?? 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I'll feel a certain way or just question what I'm doing for a second and then I'll start to feel like I'm out if it and drugged. I feel like I'm losing my mind.,0.4847674418604662,2.0947397441860502,2.872267441860465,93.61677325581397,81.7906976744186,5.230232558139536,22.377906976744185,5.985473137389443,0.1428651162790695,151,5,36,1,4,52,29,43,0.065,0.7559999999999999,0.179,0.5423,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,12,9,5,0,1,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,3,3,3,9,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,3,4,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3449989338592492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4512661625660547,0.4250599673917799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906813709105018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33282001986378185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003844317262289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3332616950200093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21056799310232266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23613712404662615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anonymoushouse,2019/02/17,Not really sz related but I'm having a hard time I've been really depressed lately and I've barely left my dorm (I'm in college) this week and I don't plan on leaving for a while. I just feel worthless and good at nothing. I tried joining a sport and volunteering last semester but I sucked so bad at everything I quit. It makes me feel shitty that everyone I know either has some kind of hobby they're really good at or can pick up new things really fast. I wish there was something I was mildly talented at in life. I'm studying in America this year while most of my family lives in Europe and I wish I could at least be with my parents. I'm very close with them and I wish they could comfort me. I know there are lots of internationals here but I don't know how to befriend them. ,1.3606318082788675,3.597491432098767,3.4227668845315904,87.49598039215687,82.20987654320987,7.021641249092232,21.25780682643428,8.124751697461798,1.1681941902687003,620,19,130,13,17,210,100,162,0.14400000000000002,0.701,0.154,0.2086,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,3,2,6,9,1,0,3,0,12,1,0,3,0,32,26,14,0,5,7,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,9,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,3,3,21,5,18,20,5,22,0,2,0,0,4,13,1,4,9,83,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12053432058361432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305189494863742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243367991012754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13794188088465534,0.12974119106091728,0.0,0.13608947859608445,0.0,0.14598520488915842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421641365144901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12931793712982714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503284141184457,0.23800894932250724,0.1176724239012467,0.16284403080657184,0.15285607966321965,0.15684723773204312,0.0,0.10196552617296988,0.0,0.0,0.12747226094173722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12272945559865875,0.0,0.0,0.09636122151474563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394234989700474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13851702669299548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16029436435094768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535443118007785,0.0,0.0,0.3699220844909451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11113515075176017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959061709150904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08417730267295392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09801076108730344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11911187205142976,0.0,0.0,0.1157966446504376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4980195959946838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09296291454664628 schizophrenia,RLV94110,2019/02/17,"Isolating, negative symptoms, need advice. I’m doing the ‘avoid-dance’ (or maybe it’s the safety dance, lol) where I go around my city wondering who will trigger me next. It’s kinda pathetic, but SZ is very real and unless and until I find someone very special I need to take care of myself. My concern: coming up with the desire to ask questions in time is a Herculean feat that I cannot manage. I have a lot to say, but 90% of the time it doesn’t occur to me until later, if at all. I much prefer to express my thoughts in writing. Because of negative symptoms. I just don’t feel driven to do much to exert my will, which makes me invisible to most females. It’s a real problem that I think a lot of us have. Can anyone suggest a balance with this?",2.481482793522268,4.221028190789478,4.418684210526319,84.20809716599193,76.30263157894737,6.2558704453441285,26.16599190283401,7.010146845296331,1.3115327935222665,583,22,112,6,13,199,96,152,0.08800000000000001,0.821,0.092,0.1496,0,1,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,9,1,12,2,0,2,1,33,26,9,0,6,6,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,9,6,0,0,7,1,0,4,5,1,0,0,2,2,17,2,22,22,6,16,0,0,0,0,8,6,0,8,6,85,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15883078816358448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11365073212023245,0.0,0.0,0.14469376808319898,0.15195160148826953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908199036257392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16571888252985542,0.0,0.0,0.14001256713914015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08218437371358363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485572884328893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923744026519389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763689225149393,0.0,0.0,0.10849574306489744,0.0,0.16329181834601889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23896906972367624,0.24104054796340996,0.0,0.0,0.1728615899844838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15552743932972304,0.0,0.0,0.18208037269316213,0.0,0.0,0.3700089041670277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12925717735885692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13771838444361428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378795729844226,0.122208760084502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104148138676165,0.0,0.12903745154935273,0.18955506912712514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955138606570232,0.0,0.0,0.2682226493796221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762661221070725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PurpleJollyBastard,2019/02/17,"Sunday Funday [Sunday 17, 2019] Hey r/schizophrenia, This is our weekly discussion thread. I will post it every Sunday around 12PM EST. Feel free to post selfies, music you have been listening to, creative works, General discussion, share how you have been feeling and things you are excited about. Sincerely, PBJ",6.41423076923077,9.62277965384616,5.485230769230771,74.25976923076921,69.76923076923077,8.775384615384615,29.63076923076923,9.3871,3.3898415384615386,250,10,35,6,5,75,43,52,0.0,0.741,0.259,0.9246,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,3,0,1,3,4,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,1,0,6,10,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,5,5,4,7,0,7,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,0,4,21,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185686251662866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015099804795134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618865316857924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6854562243334826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377443083090429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870513223940485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26052417856372273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Smallhippocampus,2019/02/17,"SOS. CAN I WORK OUT ON INVEGA?! First of all. thank you to all the responses I had on my last post. This community is awesome and very kind. My question is, has anyone got fit on Invega?! I'm worried because I have hyperprolactinemia on the medication, but I wouldn't care as long as I can get fit again. I'm about 130lbs and 5'3"" now.",0.2180718954248384,2.592078911764709,2.80078431372549,88.4396405228758,90.76470588235294,6.551633986928103,19.3202614379085,7.793537801064563,0.8804947712418301,258,8,57,6,9,89,49,68,0.071,0.75,0.17800000000000002,0.7614,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,2,3,3,0,0,2,0,8,1,0,0,2,8,14,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,8,3,10,11,2,13,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,1,5,37,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990083242687834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17349770212136892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901823551569607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420920338092404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14869876751459685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22763135580878455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963810845201021,0.0,0.2319979281260928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25187392475782544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867180827170301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725809866190713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3188321727093475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620338026111617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23483588265626945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20720196304315272,0.2890387484314224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lefttoe24,2019/02/17,"How does alcohol affect psychosis/schizophrenia We always hear about drug induced psychosis and drugs bringing out early or exacerbating psychosis but I’ve not heard anything about how alcohol interacts with it. I was in quite a weird headspace myself the last couple times drinking so I’m trying to see if there’s anything I need to do about that.",5.615376344086023,8.648767096774192,4.998064516129034,77.63376344086022,71.58064516129029,6.713978494623658,32.913978494623656,7.793537801064563,2.7619268817204303,288,14,43,4,6,87,51,62,0.044000000000000004,0.956,0.0,-0.359,0,0,5,0,0,0,3.0,1,0,0,1,7,1,0,0,2,0,2,5,0,4,0,13,8,7,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,4,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,3,4,0,8,6,0,6,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,2,3,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4625719652199548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800778584088524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35618862260753986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23946339204496425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18938963429036249,0.0,0.0,0.21200812652290704,0.5019544217616608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24391982461193804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17641028526622854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604718691328058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301881353996236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17245784024446414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12619559863863855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14693422425870664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,justlarry98,2019/02/17,"Does anyone else literally forget how to socialise and speak? I used to be a talkative person. Now I have a hard time even reading,speaking or talking. It feels like I have lead in my mouth. I can't talk to people anymore - my conversations always end awkwardly. I can't present for a class - my tongue feels tied up everytime I speak. Even during my therapy sessions it feels hard to voice out my thoughts now. I feel bad because my therapist is always the one speaking and prompting me and I think she accidentally slip out a ""I'm tired of talking"" during our last session. I feel so many things but it's hard to put things into words now. 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So I came across the subreddit /r/gangstalking and to me it seems like how I felt pre diagnosis. Did anyone else feel this exact same way? I feel like I should try to help them but some are so deep in their psychosis that they treat schizophrenia as just ""being crazy"". What are your thoughts",2.7947142857142855,5.638715900000001,1.9128571428571417,96.61500000000002,81.66666666666666,4.761904761904762,21.904761904761905,6.1826913282559595,0.1529761904761906,254,8,51,2,7,72,51,60,0.0,0.846,0.154,0.8053,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,3,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,1,15,12,6,0,1,2,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,9,3,6,5,2,6,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,2,2,33,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20316961930413865,0.2977179092759153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3323286505345799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427295523874031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2938365219235632,0.2075795053806992,0.2789877130942345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947594176284023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839105059327797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26451922271018524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.461351887808756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19727438250225945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23063676267795905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MaroonGaka,2019/02/17,"Ask Me About My Hallucinations I've experience visual and auditory hallucinations for about 4 years now. I see 3 main visual hallucinations at the moment and I will be answering questions you have about them. There is Vex, Jeffery, and Nevermore.",6.360714285714287,9.520646738095241,7.890714285714285,57.19178571428574,69.71428571428572,10.866666666666667,31.92857142857143,10.686352973137794,4.54917142857143,201,9,30,7,4,69,33,42,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,5,4,1,4,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,3,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4597142726213004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4810200040684003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5508658366967869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3918563129257801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3166670226197651 schizophrenia,Tom2123,2019/02/17,"Alternating sleep patterns Does anyone else have this problem? What I mean by this is sometimes youll have a normal sleep schedule, then all of a sudden it flips and its reversed/inverted for weeks or months at a time. So instead of sleeping from say 10 pm to 9 am or something like that, it flips to 3 am to 1 pm. This will contiously happen over and over again for weeks or months at a time until finally it might stabilize itself and Ill go back to normal for awhile.",6.760645161290324,6.191110225806455,6.762924731182796,79.70438709677421,65.02150537634408,9.590537634408603,32.578494623655914,8.841846274778883,2.5214791397849456,373,13,73,5,5,119,65,93,0.067,0.905,0.027999999999999997,-0.5307,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,0,8,4,3,0,1,12,11,9,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,10,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,16,8,1,18,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,4,14,51,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12578059409247866,0.1843146412783207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13832136263232012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15741960143413972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502718142981088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19705650876630385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10223345708153407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15907274790270934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788329728536774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19594877685269588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19083080141950706,0.0,0.0,0.2871668527082459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35250051040985075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721267725392149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305270415428847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5400482512192907,0.0,0.0,0.13848516372395664,0.17791202388204586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097861471127837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288587673380138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WhyIDoAsk,2019/02/17,"When and how did you develop schizophrenia? Did you develop it after smoking marijuana, at what age did you develop it. 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i wanted to see if reddit could help since y’all experience these things i’m 13. my family has a history of things like BPD, PPD, and depression. just some starter information recently, i’ve been becoming increasingly paranoid. i’m scared that my friends and family don’t actually love me and are being instructed to act like they care about me. i’ve kinda withdrawn and i’m not very open to anyone. i’m always nervous that people are talking shit about me or making fun of me behind my back. this sounds cliche lol the hallucinations: mostly they’re harmless. an example of one of the other day i was sitting on the couch looking at my phone. i saw my sister come in from the kitchen, so i said “what’s up” and kept looking at my phone. i noticed it was taking her a while to respond so i looked up at her and there was no one there. another example is a lot of times i feel like there’s bugs on my legs or arms. those happen pretty often. sometimes i see shadows or objects kinda morph. those scare me sometimes. out of the corner of my eye i see a shadow or solid object turn into putty and start morphing into other things like people or eyes. i’ve seen some of you talk about hearing voices or having auditory hallucinations. i don’t really get those but i do hear thoughts that don’t sound like myself or i hear random sounds that aren’t there. sometimes i’ll have thoughts about hurting myself but they aren’t my thoughts. it feels like i’m watching myself think them and not thinking them, if that makes sense. i also hear random sounds a lot. the other day i was in my room and i hear my mom say my name. i walk out and i remembered that she was at work still. yesterday i was drying off from a shower and i heard a loud bang come from the kitchen. i walk into the kitchen thinking a pan fell but everything was in place. when these things happen sometimes they make me super nervous/scared. i don’t like them. what do you guys think? should i see a doctor?",1.9952797619047649,4.391441187500004,3.3462857142857168,88.03433333333334,80.875,6.0095238095238095,21.773809523809533,7.2636822038024595,0.7953309523809526,1585,49,315,22,42,516,193,400,0.049,0.841,0.11,0.9653,3,0,0,0,0,1,37.0,0,4,6,2,16,20,1,4,18,1,26,10,5,3,0,63,72,28,0,5,15,2,2,7,1,1,1,14,6,1,23,19,3,1,11,0,0,7,9,7,0,2,16,28,57,13,38,53,6,40,0,2,12,1,35,21,1,19,18,208,80,3,0.0,0.0,0.07582031542638122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062133649323790965,0.06464948983053788,0.0,0.0,0.05283610264218887,0.08147127458226867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05432701252258147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059743607144529615,0.0,0.0,0.0858093848784532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09785568536462667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07921648755331616,0.0,0.0,0.13385684977796494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0620341197152643,0.0,0.0,0.10021528505359148,0.0,0.06691965148762923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07952538657344485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0698283641861699,0.07600182444656267,0.1464901870501785,0.0,0.07857109965952484,0.1110124085173082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06002791675111752,0.0,0.04059307486026157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07693148588666295,0.13741304419277986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4378465059516964,0.0,0.1041562942001669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08317542419691476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26570918340919136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957358018444216,0.0,0.0,0.13210911741807038,0.07012388359311655,0.0,0.15558851620677291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099688885147646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08845767604485308,0.0,0.0,0.10529795632071053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10772956995342804,0.0,0.08117602650783433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07904500108867495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04977419627705668,0.0,0.07671565657689193,0.0,0.08801468582171809,0.0,0.07390690968023413,0.06178716284536849,0.23336244984264584,0.0,0.24765535280339435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0797540664757898,0.06427112668822574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073742438281482,0.0,0.05499379349784618,0.0,0.062048311902868476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05841789767316384,0.12489857773656185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20647169879041927,0.19913843504599132,0.0,0.18504639034232068,0.0453052981801023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451119028483921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06410752909304228,0.04582725116349354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05656378285837639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Rapturecat,2019/08/03,"Questions about risperidone Hi everyone, I was wondering if any of you have taken risperidone. I was prescribed with it earlier this year and used it for a couple months but I really disliked it cause it made me feel anxious and I had trouble sleeping. I was prescribed with it again last month, and I've been having a lot of insomnia problems again. Half the nights I dont fall asleep until 5 or 6 and only sleep 3 or 4 hours. Also when I do sleep it's kinda restless with a lot of weird dreams. If it's any help the other 2 meds I take are geodon and mirtazipine. I was wondering if any of you guys have had experiences with risperidone or could share any insight or advice? Thanks in advance everyone, I hope all you guys are doing 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schizophrenia,icametoseecars,2019/08/03,i never can express the correct emotions. i never seem to be able to express emotions like everyone else. i’m not sure how they do it. every time i try to express empathy for this person i care about it all goes wrong and makes everything worse. i always feel like it’s my fault they’re upset and that i’m complete shit. then it gets me feeling like i’m no good and worthless and they’re now mad. they tell me i’m selfish when i can’t see it that way. i don’t see how i’m being selfish and i’ve been told this countless times by so many people i just have no idea how to express it properly. someone told me to talk to people when they’re upset how id want to be talked to. i’ve tried this and it doesn’t work because i don’t understand their emotions. it just makes me want to be completely alone and not talk to anyone. i’d rather be shut off from social situations completely than having to deal with this over and 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schizophrenia,User432019,2019/08/03,How do you know the voices aren't real? I keep hearing the neighbors threatening to beat my a$$. Or they ask me stuff while I'm sleeping (I talk in my sleep) and then they laugh and wake me up.,1.0415853658536598,2.9676930975609785,2.222134146341464,97.38734756097564,81.4390243902439,5.0756097560975615,20.006097560975608,5.985473137389443,-0.21534634146341425,151,4,35,1,4,48,34,41,0.079,0.8370000000000001,0.084,0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,2,3,3,1,0,7,7,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,9,1,3,7,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,1,2,24,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28858564307507106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.347918672812625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743799121283438,0.0,0.0,0.16964922270498756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513594345393827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6178304955472506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533788453993616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481151888367645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,crownchakraopen,2019/08/03,"What are my options in hospitalizing a loved one? My brother stopped taking his meds two weeks ago, i had called the cops a week earlier for help. They took him to ER and the docs decided to not hospitalize him, just let him return home and adjust his meds. I told them he needed help and knew he would stop seeing his doctor and stop his meds but i wasnt persuasive enough. Now two weeks later all he does is watch tv really loud and yells at me or at the screen. He doesnt sleep as much. At least he's not outside the house, hes only doing it at home. No idea what to do as i have to work and take care of him. If i call the cops again i think he might put up a fight. And im not certain they will hospitalize him. Any guidance would be appreciated.",2.592257383966242,3.72239520886076,4.033607594936711,89.59488396624474,74.7594936708861,7.2919831223628675,21.39451476793249,7.793537801064563,0.5586818565400846,585,13,136,8,12,194,103,158,0.081,0.826,0.09300000000000001,0.5898,0,0,0,0,1,0,14.0,0,0,3,1,3,4,1,0,8,0,15,3,1,0,2,29,25,12,0,4,7,1,0,0,0,4,1,2,2,0,3,7,0,3,5,1,0,2,6,1,1,3,5,5,22,3,14,14,4,19,0,0,3,1,27,6,0,4,11,85,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130572310076789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673212306793088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260466849972412,0.0,0.1300363540061213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13054342145602008,0.11161182064970128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13178374857322367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17097583044770628,0.0,0.255867659130145,0.0,0.0,0.14716496858946826,0.0,0.14397804802315967,0.1377659588593838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13041911743526685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11511055883488007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4250072573425966,0.0,0.0,0.13530064228617494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09375716898616887,0.09456989314163576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08642495234988372,0.0970005317681511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12821373914698375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08170590753720633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016335112907468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12763291654521206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31988947941011725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917896300819488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08172299995766946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12187070777977148,0.14170253063282534,0.0,0.0,0.24917767421680015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30691662934200353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09285122729970496,0.0,0.0,0.18120266149783631,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MisterBullDogg,2019/08/03,How does religion play a part in your delusions? I am an atheist but upon going through psychosis (twice) religion played a weird part in my downfall and I’m just curious as to how other people with the affliction view religion as a whole or if you are even religious at all.,4.745943396226417,6.373122415094342,5.8303301886792465,76.86172169811323,70.1320754716981,9.828301886792454,34.00471698113208,10.125756701596842,3.816626415094341,220,11,39,6,4,73,44,53,0.038,0.818,0.14400000000000002,0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,4,3,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,2,1,9,4,8,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,4,2,9,4,4,5,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,2,0,34,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31050737612935203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343567754155952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201653683669761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7684759234173142,0.0,0.24598909883675665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3961464141322905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mjobby,2019/08/03,"Biology from my mother I have a question that i hope someone can help with. My mother is schizophrenic and developed this after i was born. She had post natal depression when i was born that later become schizophrenia. Biologically speaking, as i was born before, does that mean the genetic impact is less? Ie my likelihood of getting it Thank you",5.0076344086021525,7.890076645161294,6.140000000000002,69.44666666666667,72.87096774193549,8.649462365591399,29.68817204301075,9.2995712137729,3.332572043010754,280,12,42,7,6,93,48,62,0.057999999999999996,0.815,0.127,0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,8,1,0,0,0,5,12,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,10,2,5,8,1,7,0,1,0,0,7,0,0,2,6,33,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3477833435945408,0.26795750321156336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27122371497611186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755719314053916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16452274214157903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21107145975152272,0.0,0.0,0.3127676828218467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34301943596530354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015880502830961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3527611170815532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668145414051024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2899184738376643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rogitateur,2019/08/03,"Haldol injection Anyone had injectable Haldol? My pdoc mentioned it today as a possibility once we get my dosage settled. I take a pretty low dose, just bumped up to 5mg daily. Was wondering how people's experiences with it are...",4.454285714285714,7.1407070476190535,6.205000000000003,69.27750000000003,73.76190476190476,8.009523809523811,27.16666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.7051238095238097,184,7,28,4,4,63,38,42,0.052000000000000005,0.868,0.079,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,5,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,4,4,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24300707942658398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3399594517032271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815745815700179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701172812368028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409395155990115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3917975683947916,0.0,0.3535717125959371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613057858444897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32942596923500217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3768908016340345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ConvictionInRelating,2019/08/03,"[tw] I made a mistake. Abilify and weed. What's this shit anyway. These doctors tell us to get out there. But we can't partake and lower our inhibitions. I disassociated fucking hard. I saw representations of the Left and Right hemispheres of my mind at War. Worse, I was among strangers. I had to deal with illusions of being approached and having my femoral arteries sliced while I was trying to sleep. I was beyond gone. And now my mood has done a total 180. High energy but totally negative. I've dropped all my plans and couldn't give a single shit about anyone. I will always be this worthless conniption.",2.408157894736842,5.321288412280705,3.624877192982456,82.61047368421055,85.9298245614035,6.548771929824562,24.266666666666666,7.793537801064563,1.7592287719298252,485,19,87,10,15,157,86,114,0.23199999999999998,0.743,0.025,-0.9764,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,3,0,0,1,5,7,4,0,4,0,12,5,3,1,3,18,18,9,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,6,0,0,8,2,15,0,12,6,4,12,0,1,1,1,6,7,3,0,2,64,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813296479010078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15237704238742608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22466935930371987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22305373769156492,0.0,0.22301120319324785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014665846464696,0.1138559328298607,0.20905189231402235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19521647750088705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302479374017091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236774309391078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20620430111688126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200404159107903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861053124439379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4473902835315913,0.0,0.0,0.21808068740925635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19047457463125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14795561977945665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26213490469333195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22208246632318812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,poliare,2019/08/03,"Maybe this will save someone Hi.. so, I was diagnosed in 2009 and I just want to share something that saved my life. Maybe you are like how I was. Very confused, not sure what to make of all of this, and feeling like some action has to be taken. I was having suicidal urges and even acted on them, but thankfully survived. What saved me was realizing that those suicidal thoughts are just that. Thoughts. You don’t have to take them so seriously and I sincerely hope you don’t. This attitude of not taking it so seriously spread to other parts of the illness... the bizarre delusions and commanding hallucinations. I began to laugh at them. Everyone in your life may not join you in not taking it seriously, but maybe one day you’ll be able to show them it’s not the big deal they or you once made it out to be. I wish you luck, friend. Maybe you’ll even begin to see the beauty in the world again like I have. How I can’t wait to see what tomorrow has to offer. Please just give yourself a break. You deserve it.",1.8141545454545456,4.287603670000003,2.9414545454545475,90.1657272727273,82.3,6.436363636363637,22.090909090909093,7.686295010490155,0.9715000000000008,794,26,166,14,22,254,111,200,0.109,0.644,0.247,0.9868,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,10,5,1,11,18,0,1,6,0,21,4,0,4,2,38,40,13,2,3,11,0,1,3,1,4,4,0,0,0,16,6,0,1,4,1,0,2,8,4,0,1,9,3,26,14,22,24,3,17,0,0,2,0,21,9,0,6,8,117,42,0,0.13438466378302755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08666699077419975,0.13854468754951635,0.0,0.1363976049648232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775196060334809,0.0,0.0,0.12841030517293098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06794892381605548,0.09600443065792033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382525788319533,0.0,0.0,0.1289140147639252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347429320708884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18983972451322514,0.19696067607847487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12715801815673616,0.08970280658918686,0.0,0.5400298291861251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14311528108795676,0.0910625260818141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455254951871332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751400587661845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21417435638800053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11386368952864215,0.10345587962082596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939900213301956,0.0,0.12665595523833395,0.0,0.30312162836122936,0.0,0.0,0.12372334326242344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21337282426222906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11088142152152314,0.07926355648580961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15453573126509162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,palladists,2019/08/03,"Desperately need to move out. I currently live in a small one-room container-thing with my father and it's absolutely awful. My father is not a bad person by any means, I'm relatively lucky that I have pretty alright parents. Though, this type of living is making me go absolutely batty. This space is pretty small, probably a bedroom and a half large, and I have a very small section of it. I just have my desk and a shelf for my books and instruments tucked in a corner while my father's workshop, 3 motorcycles, large array of power tools and such covers the rest. I was fine and tolerating this for about a month, but I'm really started to get extremely stressed about 3 months in to this living situation. My insomnia problems have absolutely sky rocketed to near uncontrollable, as this kind of living situation does not fare well to the typically erratic sleeping schedule that I have during particularly bad insomniac breaks, and over the last few weeks I've not slept for longer than 4 hours at a time, with frequent multiple days in a row without sleep (30-40 hours awake). My father seems to have absolutely no qualms at all about using loud grindy tool when I'm trying to do something to escape like reading or games, or blasting music out his speakers when I'm trying to sleep. My psychosis has been at an all-time high during this, after a fantastic long period of having almost no psychotic symptoms at all. I would confront my father about this but he's been extremely emotionally unavailable as he is currently mid-way through a mental breakdown of his own, as he has just left an extremely harsh physically/mentally/emotionally abusive marriage. And obviously being a spectator to my father's emotional spiraling hasn't been much of a help on my mental state either. I just desperately feel like I need to get out of here. I need solitude, quietness, space to breathe. Maybe if I could get a job and hold one for longer than 2 weeks like a normal fucking human being I'd be able to move out but I'm too much of a nervous rat to do a decent interview or not have a complete breakdown a week into the job. Just felt the need to type this out. Thanks.",8.299684480149025,7.637065085574576,8.62380719524974,67.9233903830481,61.958435207823975,11.800256141576435,36.34660612411224,11.111384760643409,4.08672467109093,1736,69,303,41,21,576,215,409,0.102,0.799,0.099,-0.5955,6,0,1,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,0,1,15,17,2,3,27,2,26,8,5,2,3,55,49,24,0,9,17,7,2,3,0,1,2,3,1,2,12,18,0,1,4,3,0,3,8,8,1,2,6,5,25,9,60,38,9,53,0,0,0,1,18,27,1,7,24,196,37,8,0.08993872433740459,0.1065626814507858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900606408020969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06116141667970745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15019015615741504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09429904131193104,0.0,0.0,0.07180875300281146,0.0,0.0,0.05800303675260295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07870598375403065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035068783747009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04547572138129167,0.06425224263724869,0.08635527963931935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08314690139663435,0.14096781414702172,0.0,0.05111424967966273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060284031096419034,0.09502520024108534,0.0,0.0,0.17714305339191294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785006122640924,0.0,0.0,0.09365734125362132,0.0,0.07331206429661627,0.0,0.0,0.09771868714974588,0.0,0.0,0.13181855319243713,0.0,0.3176701653749712,0.0795929408320004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060034796880857576,0.0,0.09035553718310677,0.0979696372439538,0.0,0.0,0.181274160636762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14357646340127025,0.19118126100504973,0.1322306217404951,0.2667536979469896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08812085405136967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188961448701227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09986630984625623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07853102499310506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18300003241238672,0.09696915656577224,0.08605921270085963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08996306303351312,0.0,0.057617049823198124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08187683677452066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20218978888014688,0.2700110310255178,0.0,0.0,0.06923922400344865,0.0,0.0,0.06365909199808865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10302450485726693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09348077150905994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08280349372118281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836434001765464,0.0,0.05244399342920262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12212498018436008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07767818093329196,0.0,0.07420886672355048,0.0,0.07138917307600269,0.2164302589297313,0.0,0.0808657143858992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08669772079039556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06388988930122785,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rabidhorse97,2019/08/03,"saw my new psych. today. he suspects a dissociative disorder on the side but didn’t formerly diagnose with it yet. is this something that needs to be verified through therapy? what are your experiences? reposting because the dissociative subreddit isn’t very active. so today was my first day seeing a new psychiatrist and i really like him. he believes me on everything and i trust his knowledge and experience. i’ve been written/diagnosed with schizoaffective bipolar type and (c)ptsd. however when we were speaking he says he believes i have some type of dissociative disorder going on from childhood trauma, as well as severe life trauma in general. he touched on depersonalization/derealization disorder, but i also show symptoms of potential did. he wants me to start seeing a trauma therapist that he will help me pick out to address what is going on, because it is heavily affecting my day to day life. i’m just curious why he wouldn’t add any of this to the written diagnosis as of today. i’ve seen maybe only 2 other psychs in my life so i’m not super in depth familiar with their process. maybe waiting to see how my dissociative problems further reveal themselves in therapy before slapping an official label on it? just wanted to hear others thoughts/experiences with having this as a separate disorder as opposed to having it as a symptom of schizo. hope everyone is having a good day",6.3021084337349365,8.67166582730924,7.36831124497992,64.41029819277111,67.43373493975903,10.923775100401606,36.947991967871495,10.899274998029325,5.066198232931726,1137,61,167,37,20,382,146,249,0.136,0.759,0.105,-0.8139,1,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,1,1,1,2,9,10,0,0,10,0,18,7,0,3,0,32,35,17,0,6,5,0,1,1,0,2,7,3,1,0,13,11,0,2,3,1,0,2,4,4,1,1,8,9,17,6,36,24,1,31,0,0,5,0,17,14,0,2,16,112,30,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07854698243833541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06679337961816798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11974873847615393,0.0,0.08357850067836227,0.2213219744392514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533766588901511,0.0,0.0,0.19938369336399006,0.0,0.0,0.45027729166403946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385399735566843,0.08827434659191417,0.2882357966281472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08354639654968768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164206678306997,0.08238278354009658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11070176044047653,0.0,0.06583520121881879,0.0,0.0,0.09755522303943996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20812835440041785,0.047985626353339916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19735159920444176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07282933415698238,0.0,0.18972414497660367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747011961932462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09398385412933627,0.11481463126539546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06292263473021599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07810896748778992,0.0,0.0,0.2348073168779689,0.0,0.0,0.11096132641600034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07561502045560263,0.0,0.0,0.06952104985146583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20417763346137485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22464764395926734,0.1140416929113152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27930494709510384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08104228572822929,0.11586611543055883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883121198345916,0.0,0.08862881889424211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iwant2sleep4ever,2019/05/17,"I don’t have sz But I’ve suffered delusions and hallucinations before but thankfully they went away after a year.......maybe once a year it happens again for like a couple days but I’m ok.... Anyway everyone on this subreddit is friendly so Hello.",1.7196273291925444,4.494416304347826,3.6467701863354063,80.62152173913044,92.47826086956522,6.106832298136648,23.962732919254645,7.447530270364453,1.816134161490683,194,8,33,4,7,65,39,46,0.044000000000000004,0.718,0.23800000000000002,0.8793,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,7,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,4,4,6,0,7,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,5,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27965707616400165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532828488952622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32935007351933565,0.0,0.19196312893381184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28442252059453804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22996784805353265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632157151023425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14541940870140607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990348886066931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31699332018419024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27404113010783315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759295671340801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3833606778101147 schizophrenia,TheKre8veKurator,2019/05/17,"Got HelpUpdate Someone helped me out with more money so I was able to get a room and now I’m looking for a job as a waitress/host/cashier I’m glad I am alone. Its better this way. No more deep fears of abandonment or rejection- just pure emptiness. All good",-0.3564989517819725,1.8068202264150983,0.9557232704402524,98.69928721174006,101.45283018867926,3.864989517819706,20.9832285115304,5.82211442006289,0.08282976939203346,204,8,44,2,9,64,46,53,0.281,0.575,0.145,-0.8062,2,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,8,7,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,3,3,6,5,3,5,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,1,1,25,5,1,0.32925371740257703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34100755350335565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911981565230417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705019700601427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17202147789681038,0.0,0.0,0.27616239682046634,0.2633342757063401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206918264044538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3267335098400199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764901979504595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27897560628650553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613462753751145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,0n3tw0,2019/05/17,"Passion of the butthole paradox If there isn't a single person among 300 million in America who want to penetrate your butthole then surely among the 7 billion globally someone is willing. This is the voice i hear in my head, their passion to be anally penetrated. I hate with fury.",5.721538461538457,7.7041365384615395,6.726153846153848,69.99384615384618,68.23076923076923,9.815384615384616,38.0,10.125756701596842,4.5728307692307695,228,13,35,6,4,76,42,52,0.149,0.6779999999999999,0.17300000000000001,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,0,1,4,1,0,4,0,5,4,2,0,1,5,8,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,2,5,3,8,6,1,6,0,0,0,2,5,5,0,1,1,30,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4025641576445792,0.4184644055282,0.0,0.4595586894851611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35602754779009504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454813464569735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3842952053782408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404987958237334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,curiousdog1997,2019/05/17,Venom Did anyone else find the film venom slightly triggering?,5.561999999999998,8.856965199999998,5.240000000000002,66.40000000000003,97.0,6.0,25.0,7.1686216300943375,2.8550000000000004,52,2,5,1,2,16,9,10,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39894018056406416,0.5845934883890876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4766193478598131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5214702128696097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,soup10,2019/05/17,"Why is the ""treatment"" for schizophrenia/bipolar being locked in a ward with nothing to do with other unstable people and force fed anti-psychotics(major tranquilizers) and mood stabilizers. Is there a conspiracy to mistreat people with mental health problems or does the medical establishment actually believe that the system they've devised and the medications they use actually leads to good outcomes.",14.339523809523811,14.336145174603176,12.828571428571431,40.4914285714286,49.63492063492063,14.74920634920635,51.158730158730144,13.5591,7.698739682539682,338,19,37,10,3,108,49,63,0.131,0.8240000000000001,0.044000000000000004,-0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,1,4,0,0,6,0,4,4,0,2,0,10,6,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,8,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,26,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.4591099062641596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650287438548272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058553088265476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19730355010807013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500432888154649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4739480507966745,0.2370610628333759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257138609399911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3261639870861534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22508766122877866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20316709305203698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2122625609173326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,innerissuesorjail,2019/05/17,"anyone here cured schizophremia naturally or was unwilling to request therapeut session but went there in the end? \* PS, im not shy at all, but i dont imagine myself going to GP saying i have schizophremia and i need reference to public(free) therapist/psyschologist. i dont know if its ego thing but im tired of being looked at like worse person. &#x200B; that being said i hear voices daily for years. no matter what i tell myself or what my diet is or how much i exercise, or how much i prove to myself that these voices are not real, they come back !!!! meh. &#x200B; it really ruins my mind",2.496983805668016,5.2214318157894715,3.6668421052631612,84.39212550607287,81.71929824561403,6.3147098515519575,21.92712550607288,7.61054688173877,1.2462153846153845,473,15,84,8,13,153,81,114,0.149,0.797,0.055,-0.9216,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,8,3,0,2,2,23,16,11,0,2,10,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,1,8,2,1,0,4,1,0,3,5,1,0,0,3,6,14,1,9,11,3,9,0,1,1,0,7,3,0,5,4,60,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193728822998313,0.3581662747933077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305169875519904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133263163228044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12695503690641108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454571147399612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13053515823627646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08375959342442638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16610825494442874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183919248438569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08099633201170818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200254652006667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12376229276914785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14881204083718727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166828855877684,0.10928058919248876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868675106940058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16775099208610295,0.09441556313064982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14019236911158034,0.11720269156771194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288168360396263,0.0,0.0,0.1711198315639492,0.09791289046301052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16939191882654892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13662296987211833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15019306753677572,0.0,0.0,0.3581662747933077,0.09490805004806824 schizophrenia,ezephas,2019/05/17,"Audio therapy, using music genre to aid in the recovery of psychotic symptoms. Music What song What artist What genre For example I use vaporwave to neutralize the auditory hallucinations, that prevents anxiety",6.297272727272728,10.000718575757574,8.009545454545453,47.43431818181818,90.51515151515152,13.10909090909091,38.833333333333336,10.125756701596842,7.861569696969697,175,11,18,9,6,60,27,33,0.052000000000000005,0.909,0.039,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134315009237378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42585164162777095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4685457772531322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7077258849087574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Christ1455,2019/05/17,"anybody constantly get nightmares and weird dreams? I always get weird very realistic dreams,sometimes I realize its a dream,but usually they are very disturbing and dangerous type scenarios",11.190000000000005,13.585916000000005,9.533333333333337,53.430000000000035,55.66666666666666,15.333333333333332,48.33333333333334,13.816669648895859,8.400333333333334,160,10,19,7,2,49,24,30,0.313,0.605,0.08199999999999999,-0.7688,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,8,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966732038633628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3852974432152696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3725590907221837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3526311728855313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3926828884743181,0.5883723474895163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pumbungler,2019/05/17,"How deep does this go? If I'm schizophrenic now, and have schizophrenic type thinking, then after I die, will my soul continue to be schizophrenic?",6.446153846153845,8.608729000000004,5.818461538461538,76.50153846153847,66.69230769230771,11.353846153846154,32.230769230769226,11.20814326018867,4.254369230769232,118,5,20,4,2,36,23,26,0.156,0.8440000000000001,0.0,-0.644,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,0,4,6,4,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,13,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6465719936998613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5451884229382498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3540632597848719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991909925431695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ImRemzy,2019/05/17,"Im scared of hurting the ones who care about me I feel like sometimes i get taken out of my body and im put on spectator of my own life. And im forced to watch myself say hurtful things to people i care about. Afterwards, i try to tell them what was happening but they never understand. I lose so many relationships because if this and i’ve found a person who has never made me happier than anyone else in my life and im terrified to ever lose them. Recently, this instance just happened with them and im not sure if our relationship is still the same even after they said it was ok. Should i talk to them about it to refrain from it ruining our relationship? Im terrified of losing this person from my life and i dont know if i’d be able to cope if i lost them.",2.0350982142857177,3.769997456250003,3.985892857142858,86.84125000000002,77.5625,7.571428571428572,23.30357142857143,8.418075326091056,1.3704196428571431,603,19,130,12,14,205,95,160,0.196,0.721,0.084,-0.9658,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,2,0,7,4,8,13,0,1,3,1,7,4,1,1,4,27,20,12,0,5,7,0,1,1,0,1,3,2,0,2,10,8,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,8,0,1,7,4,24,5,22,11,2,11,0,7,1,0,20,3,0,4,8,88,34,0,0.09527558046436098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06661890112826717,0.09762109133293334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0580791095351083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10582969155377256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942796081359863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11166227072873383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959052198251351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06292862233131054,0.08618221715993668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04817419619366537,0.0680648937207006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10446475630214727,0.0,0.0,0.04977755843806177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16850376230439584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20398895884704715,0.0,0.6174838576392161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05236096735152617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20188788034691196,0.046546836059427686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31976701196991425,0.10400455083812554,0.0,0.0,0.0901520579025394,0.0,0.09659448449719417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696480241468166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06456119907405394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06605209117964157,0.16638192382205272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09577827365858396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09407314157688593,0.3068709525843037,0.0,0.0,0.09062889490999997,0.07576696566704852,0.09538747700422176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09422998526953733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07608720163132321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979610704748027,0.0,0.0,0.07657890260240864,0.08327505676704931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06329686213551203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06468586508194665,0.0,0.0,0.09918523933721164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,whiteowl42wenty,2019/05/17,"Wrote a dark poem trigger warning - my family is crazy I completely made this up with my imagination but here it is My family is crazy a stimulant for my crazed mind Thinking I were a deity but at the same time Thinking I was nothing But one day I can maybe become something Enough I’ve had it I’ve made certain things my habits They’ve poisoned me like castor beans. I’ve tried it all a pastor, a rapper, a coach for a team A blue collar worker Two times I heard ya How you have the nerve to Say it again Like I didn’t hear you back then. Still you’re incorrect Still I connect To these thoughts and I’m not lost In this cold...in this frost. That was the morning to my life. What you just expect me to die. I’m more than your typical terrible neuro-abnormal alright? It’s typical. It’s terrible. How they order you to think this hysteria. I’m right When I say you’re wrong Fuck you I’m jon A shrink quits On account of no changing this. Plus his patients drove him mad. But That was just a misconception they just made him sad. Society judges Lying to me I got another Coping mechanism I discover. Smoking cessation I reckon helped my mother. And my brother But what about the other Sibling who just seems to hover. In this life so she might be on this brutal path. A bubble bath, In The Foam of terror. There must be an error. Because That’s a heck of a way to go out. My big bro relapses, what now. Will it ever end. Will you ever send Angels from heaven Because it seems this is the blessings of the devil When you can’t think straight It’s contagious They tell me have faith But it seems like god enslaved us.",-0.09863369467027994,2.166321164634148,1.780718157181575,93.11432700993679,99.54878048780488,4.868654019873532,18.574074074074076,6.605766666666668,0.33967055103884336,1274,41,261,20,54,417,188,328,0.223,0.682,0.095,-0.9948,0,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,1,9,3,4,19,19,4,1,21,1,20,4,0,7,5,43,43,15,1,2,11,3,0,3,0,4,3,4,1,0,28,5,0,0,10,3,1,3,4,11,0,2,15,5,41,8,27,22,4,30,6,2,1,1,30,11,2,4,17,172,69,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274434332373051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934553982065322,0.0,0.14817715615098806,0.1342294283348727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12857133393204584,0.0,0.12743052376202352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838210495398658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261374962767676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10764679898510994,0.1255814827468243,0.0,0.0,0.21987657785673875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291508567771064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11236013692985304,0.0,0.0,0.06907297802568595,0.0,0.09720522676128587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13698242045567974,0.0,0.08146451491157243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17169209497534804,0.17813232288650124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132673337223244,0.0,0.0,0.34500724102224106,0.0,0.0,0.12210148976971083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12893285749459912,0.12271896754105945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116619211390786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08235745135441734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292708700384862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10379298594984336,0.0,0.19330416035297884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3319315249337995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09356606872014077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19412117794955214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10622977167542803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0807446007660613,0.3115071659537857,0.0,0.09648778015856406,0.14173984078478344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08251648146581282,0.0,0.11872519234859945,0.0,0.14619552834094704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09647139132539374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13288297716686365,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,I_rant_here,2019/05/17,"Why the fuck do people still condescend people with schizophrenia?! I don’t have schizophrenia but almost everyone I’ve known in my life longer than a year has expressed their thoughts of schizophrenia in a condescending or rude way, as if these people with mental illness are the cause the of their problems. There’s so much generalization and dramatizing going on too, and it annoys and saddens me so much of how out of touch the regular folk can be. Considering that we are social beings, we should at least know how others perceive the world, because you may perceive it differently compared to someone else, is that fair to say? I feel that it is necessary to know the facts and information about disorders and illnesses, otherwise you’re vulnerable to generalizations and guessing. Considering that almost every adult in first world countries have a phone, you can access basic information about basic things (like schizophrenia).",11.198443396226416,11.037357169811324,9.601501572327043,61.62413915094341,55.91823899371069,12.226729559748428,40.62971698113208,11.45678717892309,4.905458490566039,766,33,112,17,8,235,106,159,0.16399999999999998,0.8190000000000001,0.017,-0.9782,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,2,2,2,1,9,5,3,0,9,0,15,4,0,3,1,35,22,14,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,2,3,1,0,1,10,11,0,0,9,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,1,3,10,1,20,17,3,13,0,0,0,1,13,8,1,6,4,84,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36652440237585054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156370664996726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880059110476632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19121079901434046,0.2097500329339673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288481035005164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15419728635708316,0.17487783106791846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09253743618433444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15567171387258116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16919360151330173,0.0,0.0,0.10401113988238572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201610682350952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20115954422417565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12926828274683635,0.08941145284741367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184435183898964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690728667794116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.380636833947734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511979274848974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14554017096848007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865598441053868,0.15506726687818292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14615530972427512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121586446756402,0.0,0.0,0.14529276550493167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14526808695091373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16514177397901011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178550905744406 schizophrenia,dope_admin,2019/05/17,"Can the good in ones life outweigh the bad? (Philosophy) *Mild trigger warning* Ain't there always something worse in life if one looks at the grand scheme of things? Maybe that'll make one look more clearly at the positives one have (not a positive symptoms pun), and become more contempt with ones situation, how small or big the light might be, one has to start somewhere to reach the promised land, right? Or is comparison the thief of joy or should one be selfish given the situation one is in?",4.593478260869566,6.935312913043482,4.286304347826088,84.81467391304348,72.04347826086956,7.208695652173913,28.89130434782609,8.07648339933343,1.9351913043478253,396,16,74,6,8,120,67,92,0.146,0.647,0.207,0.7236,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,2,8,1,0,9,0,11,3,0,3,1,13,16,6,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,8,1,3,0,4,10,10,2,10,0,0,2,0,0,9,0,5,1,49,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822647677240986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186354159816139,0.0,0.1569222166296996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11917453440696785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007183108469585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386319860213092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09484314130238157,0.0,0.14274393228175394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507302090565285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7702462259030722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12134019810641795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319419998283911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938432121055801,0.0,0.0,0.100568812942568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14768118627742693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09439525959598133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447972124263523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,myteetharescreaming,2019/05/17,"Silence I miss my fantastic five Samantha, Georgie, Cherry, Mani, and Steven They’re still there but don’t talk and I miss them Anyone else have good voices",1.9341379310344813,4.644879655172417,1.3202758620689643,95.92731034482759,97.27586206896551,3.6993103448275866,19.593103448275865,5.6839178017228535,-0.0424813793103449,126,4,23,1,5,36,26,29,0.105,0.6920000000000001,0.203,0.6059,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,4,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051142517047117,0.44710413603635546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3645242137922019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3659994970968426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4424022815899963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3484790231731425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35073101129234546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,eggthehuman,2019/05/17,"Sterilizing people with mental illness My boyfriend of a few weeks, who doesn’t know my mental state/status recently asked why we don’t sterilize people with mental illnesses, so they don’t pass it onto their children. He’s a little oblivious to mental illnesses, but willing to learn. I felt extremely hurt when he said this, but then part of me understood. This is the exact reason why I don’t want to have children. It would kill me knowing that they feel what I feel. Also, I felt as if this was a sign for me. I’m only 19, and i’m not planning on having kids anytime soon, but i’m not sure if I should be hurt by what he said. He didn’t say it out of anger, just out of not being able to understand. I’ve never really told anyone about how I feel, so that’s why he doesn’t really know what I go through everyday. Sadly he will soon learn.",3.3015340151178307,4.543626196531793,4.8104046242774565,84.27682525566921,73.16184971098265,8.097643397065362,24.29035126722988,8.617729084823388,1.5460577145397956,664,19,136,12,13,223,103,173,0.193,0.799,0.008,-0.9877,0,0,0,0,0,1,20.0,1,0,3,1,9,6,2,0,4,0,16,3,0,2,3,36,35,13,1,5,9,0,5,0,0,4,3,3,0,3,12,6,0,0,13,0,0,2,10,5,0,0,8,8,16,1,19,21,2,15,0,3,0,0,19,5,0,2,8,88,28,2,0.13019196686853635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411446886770644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910332503484877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12171191439841805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19748691083892575,0.0,0.2500094100411808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07399109504644306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27874638645414745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440381217953637,0.0,0.21465030053060816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13048655345918425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5248115245043091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004120709291842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09901685747823598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409852130040709,0.0,0.18051743425849126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16680861546364886,0.1338590253823176,0.12854886080676692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476847483048061,0.10353387757678116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12270438801495585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12440400359705565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13553442897646178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07679059521661137,0.0,0.10443214276355782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524340001014193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248463787339443,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Michaelaab15,2018/11/04,"Am I schizophrenic ? Soo It started when I was about 7 i would hear a woman yelling at me she spoke rly fast in a high pitch voice I couldn’t understand a word she said but I could understand she was angry at me I think this happened about once a month for a few years I remember lying in my bead and she would go off and I would close me eyes and clench my teeth waiting for her to stop. And as weird as this sounds sometimes I would hear a single word ( play dough ) being said again and again and again . In like a crazy woman voice. When I read about 11 it stopped and then last year during my exams the yelling woman who i can’t understand started yelling at me again I find it scary and unbearable. This continued on about once a month I would hear a voice or see something. But the last couple months the visual hallucinations have gotten really bad about every second day , and they have become things that I’ve seen online that it’s common for ppl to see like I could see smoke coming out of my bag, and a bug crawling on my stuff , everything going into a wave thing , a dog .and I’ve also been hearing voices I can understand tell me negative things ( about once a week ) And also I’ve had this thing where the sound of my alarm goes off in my head for sometimes up to 30 minutes. I see a therapist for depression and anxiety but I’ve never spoken about it cause I rly don’t want to be diagnosed with schizophrenia cause in my head i still have all the stigma that it’s crazy . Schizophrenia does run in my family . I also worry that my symptoms aren’t strong enough to actually have schizophrenia and I’m actually just loosing my mind , like they won’t be able to diagnose me cause they won’t know what’s wrong with me. Is it possible to have schizophrenia but only experience the symptoms occasionally ? 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How can I convince my friend to check it out? First off I want to thank this sub-reddit for existing. Without it, I'm not sure what I would do. It has helped me so much. To be direct, I don't suffer for this illness but my best friend does. This sub-reddit has given me a place to come and educate myself. Reading everyone's experiences here over the last 5 years has helped me be a better friend - I'm so grateful. Long story short, he was diagnosed 5 years ago in his mid twenties. We are still friends till this day, nothing has changed. Obviously it's hard for him, he takes his medication but deals still does drugs (weed, coke, ecstasy, alcohol) when he's not doing well even though he knows it doesn't help. Recently he had an episodes - he knows that the voices he's hearing are not good and that he shouldn't listen to him. But he also believes they are real sometimes. Like all of us, he has his good days and bad days. He recently had he medication dosage lowered and it hasn't done him any good. He's tired of taking them - I don't think he realizes yet that this is something he will have to manage for the rest of his life. I think if he educated himself more on the illness and be able and join this awesome community it would be a positive step for him.. My question is, how do I suggest he take a look at this subreddit without offending him or making him feel uncomfortable? It has helped me so I am hoping that it helps him too. TL:DR - My best friend suffers from schizophrenia and I want to know the best way to introduce him to this awesome community as it has helped me for the last 5 years. If you could suggest some approaches I would really appreciate it. Thank you! 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I’m not. I’m fat and I’m ugly and even though I’ve come so far it’s hard to keep going when all I want to do is break down and cry. Work is tough and I found out that my money isn’t stretching the same because my job is splitting tips with the manager. School is tough because I don’t understand what I’m doing there anymore and I just want to be done. My family look at me with pity because I can’t afford to be happy anymore because I want to get back on medication but it’s too expensive. My SO just ignores me at this point, it feels like. She’s going through her own stuff but I feel so alone. I have no one to tell about my issues, because I’m worried it’ll overshadow hers. She doesn’t even respond to me. I’m tired of trying so hard and feeling so alone. My mental health is so bad I can’t sleep and I can’t eat and if i do it hurts and everyone who should care doesn’t. My paranoia is always high and my depression is always low. I can’t even cry hard enough because it hurts my chest. No one wants me. It’s always been like that. It always will be. I’m never going to be good enough in any of the aspects of my life. 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I keep my head down to avoid the hidden cameras in air vents, smoke detectors, electronics, security cameras, etc. I believe they listen in to my car when I drive because the car has that capability. All cameras on mobile phones and laptops and such are probably being monitored. I feel like people are always watching and following me in public. I keep track of the vehicles around me when I drive and make note of the people driving the vehicles and any bumper stickers, emblems, symbols on the vehicles that could indicate evil intent. Some of my neighbors are targeting my family because we are a diverse family. They fly a big ratty American flag on their balcony and stomp and yell expletives and insults and drop things on the floor above us and smashes a pumpkin in front of our door. They are young obnoxious men. I think they like Trump and enjoy messing with the disabled lady and her Muslim husband and two dogs living below them. I'm glad we are moving into a house soon. A rock broke our windshield a while ago and there was a creepy note left blaming an anonymous kid and giving their apartment number but no name. We felt creeper out by it so we luckily got that fixed on our own thru car insurance. For months, someone would knock on our door in the evenings and run away just to frighten my dogs and me. My dog almost ran into the road when I opened the door thinking it was husband only to have no one there. My dog ran out thinking my husband was coming in, too. Luckily, he stopped before he reached the parking lot and ran back to me when I called him. I fear they might try to poison our dogs. There is an undercover cop car and a sheriff SUV near our apartment and I always feel like they might be watching me. I've been followed by a cop a lot in another country so it is scary for me to have the vehicle sitting in the parking lot all the time. I always think someone is sitting there watching me. My husband deals with hate speech towards his religion and ethnicity when he goes out in public. I think they are targeting him specifically to get him into trouble if he retaliates. I think the police force has a lot of white supremacists in it and don't trust them to help if anything happened. I think that I have shifted into an alternate reality back in 2012 after a near death experience. My body feels like it's not quite mine. I look in the mirror and don't know myself because I look different. The world itself feels strange to me and harsh and people seem so miserable but trying to put on a happy face for their social media. I believe the climate change will cause societal collapse in extreme climate zones first and the chaos will spread to more temperate areas as we have great migrations of climate change refugees. The extreme weather events will continue to cause catastrophe all over the globe, and we will have to drastically change our way of life in order to survive in a civilized manner. The huge global decline in insect populations is an indicator of trouble. And yet people all live like nothing is happening! Crows find me where ever I go in the world. They are messengers to remind me of my ability to influence my reality through the magick of purposeful action + intention + conviction in the desired outcome that harms none. They speak to remind me that I need to use my intuition to avoid manipulation by deceiving people. They remind me of my gift of premonition that has saved me from many catastrophes when it is heeded promptly without question. We are living in a simulation meant to test and teach our souls to understand the nature of chaos and suffering and goodness. I suspect that this new simulation I am in since 2012 since it is different and I am different than the world before my near death experience. My premonition saved me and my friend from a deadly car accident. We came out unscathed no scratch on the car even. Other dimensional beings monitor the universe and we call them angels, aliens, UFOs, spirits, etc. I have never seen them, but reliable people have and I believe they exist to monitor us from afar and avoid intrusions on our lives as much as they can. I send my thoughts/emotions to my dogs by looking into their eyes. They are innocent and simple creatures, but understand basic feelings. It helps me to send them my thoughts even if they don't understand everything. They get my feeling and they know what sadness is. My inner voice is interrupted by other inner voices that are not mine. They are cruel and insulting and critical and sow discord. They keep me from focusing and from relaxing when I'm trying to rest, bathe, sleep, meditate, etc. I try to drown them out with television, audiobooks, reading, intensive focus activities that make them go away. Stress makes them a lot worse. I have these inner voices that make my paranoia focus on my family sometimes. I think they all hate me and disapprove of me. I think they don't want me around and interact out of duty and feeling pity for me. The voices tell me crazy things about my husband. He is cheating on me. He is complaining to his friends about me. He is watching pornography, etc. He is not. He is doing none of those things. He is an excellent husband and values & loves us. The voices lie to me. It is exhausting. Those voices are insidious and so upsetting because I try to respond to them logically but they are good at making me feel like a loser who is worthy of nothing. I think food goes bad fast and I have a lot of paranoia about food safety and contamination. I check the stove and oven a lot to make sure they are turned off. I throw out food that my husband says is still good. I don't believe him. He eats things that sat out at room temperature and is fine. I eat it and I'm sick. I fear germs outside, too. I get sick easily because I'm immunosuppressed by strong medication for an autoimmune arthritis. I don't want to hug, kiss, or touch people much even family. I'm always using hand sanitizer. I also do not bathe much because I fear infections from my bathtub and shower. But not bathing causes infections, too. I try to bathe at least once a week and wear clean clothes, but I fail a lot. It's embarrassing and yet it feels like a monumental task to wash my whole body thoroughly and dry thoroughly and dry my hair and style it and floss my teeth and brush my teeth. I fear infections from brushing and flossing by injuring my gums, but I get gum problems by not brushing and flossing. Also, I hate toothpaste so I use water a lot and mouth wash. I believe we are headed for a civil war between liberal ideologies and right wing ideologies that result in acts of hatred. We will not actually have a war though. It will be a war of minds and hearts. It is creeping upon us while many of us are zombies in front of our Netflix shows and cable television reality shows. We are already experiencing more hate crimes. I'm reminded of the way of life of many Germans as Hitler came into power. It feels like that now in the United States. Milton Mayer's book They Thought They Were Free discusses this in grim detail. I do not trust law enforcement because I have been followed by them in another country extensively and know that many of our law enforcement are involved in white supremacist groups and are openly alt-right.... i. e. Neo-nazis. These type of people are on power trips and support eugenics and genocide of minorities. It's like the Rage Against The Machine lyrics those who work forces are the same that burn crosses. Not all, but most are complicit. It makes me feel very uneasy! I fear strange men and avoid workers in my home without my husband present. I fear they will harm me, harass me, steal from me, etc. They also love to gaslight me when things are not working so they won't actually have to do any real maintenance. As an assault survivor, I startle easily when I encounter strange men when I'm out and about. My mind always tells me they are a threat. It's hard to try to hide my discomfort. So I just avoid them as much as I can and act polite if I have to interact because I fear being viewed as rude and then being targeted by them. I have premonitions that save me from danger and accidents when I heed them. It's a strange gift. It only happens right before the event so I don't have much time to heed the foreboding in my brain. It saved me from a bad wreck in 2012. I wonder if I died in my world and got moved to this one. It would explain my feeling of being in a different world and different body and reality... I'm scared of the dark but need either a lot of lights or pitch black darkness to rest enough to sleep because I have a lot of paranoia and think I see stuff in the shadows if there is a little light. I have weird beliefs and experiences that are ideas of reference, paranoid ideas, grandiose, inner auditory hallucinations, and mild visual hallucinations. And a lot of depression and inability to complete tasks. I hide most of this as much as I can. My husband sees the depression, anxiety, constant tension in me. He knows some of the weird stuff I believe and fear. Family see a sad person trying to survive and put on a somewhat happy face. It's hard. TL;DR I think I may have schizophrenia. I'm 33 years old and have had these symptoms since my twenties. The depression has been to varying degrees and the psychotic symptoms alleviate the depression when insight is totally lost. It runs in my family. I spent a lot of time with my grandmother when she went through a slow descent into psychosis. I'm doing very similar things. I'm scared. I'm seeing my psychiatrist on Tuesday. I'm desperate for an end to the intrusive inner voices, paranoia, and depression. I don't want to lose the bit of insight left. How do I address this stuff with the doc? 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My sister had a mental break about a year and a half ago including extreme paranoia that people were going to kill her and her friends were going to get her boss to fire her. This got so extreme that she ended up in the hospital thinking that everyone was against her. We had no clue why this was happening. She ended up being on psychotics for awhile and then everything was fine. Now this is all coming back, and she believes the same thing is happening again. She also believes something is extremely physically wrong with her (the first time she was convinced someone was poisoning her and she was going to go blind, deaf and then paralyzed in that order) there was absolutely no medical evidence that that was going to happen. She’s going for medical tests now but won’t see a psychiatrist/therapist. She really 100% believes all of this and nothing my family does can convince her otherwise. I have no idea what to do or say to help her. She used to be on aderall as a kid and is diagnosed with adhd (no longer taking aderall now). Please give me suggestions as to what I can do to help her. 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My background includes quite a bit of what people would call ""success,"" in salary-level jobs. I also have three degrees (two Bachelor's, one Master's). It was the experience of getting the Master's which pushed me over the edge, and I haven't been able to recover since. I've tried applying to a number of low level jobs, mostly at public libraries, because that would use the skills I earned during my Master's (I studied Literature and Art). However, each time I've applied, everyone seems to think I'm overqualified. On my applications, I have listed all of my work experience. Has anyone tried not listing their entire employment history due to these sorts of qualification issues? In my cover letters, I have not disclosed my mental health status, nor the reason for my gap in employment. Given these issues, would you recommend I disclose details within my cover letters from now on, or would that put up a red flag? Given that I apply primarily to public service jobs, I figured they would not to discriminate, and even make affordances for those with disability backgrounds, but I live in a very conservative area of the country. What makes this even worse is that without a job like this, I would, in effect, be barred from the social and mental health services that I badly need (I live in the country with family where no services exist, but these jobs would be in a nearby city where these services do exist).",11.111139088729017,9.085269118705039,10.380971223021586,61.89853117505999,57.453237410071935,12.71990407673861,40.79256594724221,11.20814326018867,4.684869544364508,1237,49,193,24,12,399,160,278,0.067,0.922,0.011000000000000001,-0.94,12,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,1,2,9,8,5,0,1,16,0,20,3,0,5,1,35,31,9,0,8,7,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,0,0,16,8,1,1,5,2,0,2,7,3,0,3,5,1,26,2,36,17,4,27,0,1,1,0,9,18,0,4,7,138,42,16,0.0905491737237233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08026637908156975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07241214151234612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06331408764078285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07560477781779576,0.05519793585493689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988562456759234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09246083037646648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196137505098459,0.0,0.0,0.08652361589260879,0.0,0.17714893385197353,0.08536170231663749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09461641198264567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924990747961234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890196239073413,0.6289925806785739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044237752465978164,0.0,0.15991315867162684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120884553172885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825045394411246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06714106497172666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06135846354623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0627753958557915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09102692944194177,0.0,0.09631019217328482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09309963153157508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824325669689497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07490321221360657,0.0,0.0,0.0923034794850032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946616567094436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05802025430677561,0.0,0.0,0.052799951375468994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12295389030908067,0.0,0.08845338541853694,0.0,0.0,0.07820541320426783,0.0,0.07471255139869501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08728617221486966,0.0,0.06592087690632469,0.0,0.09227734385680547,0.45026474521434096,0.0,0.0,0.05831069910680185 schizophrenia,LordSinguloth,2018/11/04,"I just quit my job because I thought everyone hated me and I was being mistreated but now I'm not so sure they did hate me and I was being mistreated. my wife encouraged me to do this and she is normal so I thought her judgment would count. I really liked my job and I cared greatly for my clients and now I just feel horrible and depressed and shitty for quitting on them without notice. plus now I dont have a job. I just feel like shit for it and I feel like my wife doesn't really understand why but its hard to explain that I just dont fucking know anything and my view of people is totally warped and I dont always exist in clarity. sad",0.927636815920394,3.221844947761195,3.0402686567164214,89.1766218905473,84.59701492537313,6.5584079601990055,23.85870646766169,7.793537801064563,1.4117876616915428,509,20,106,10,15,172,78,134,0.22699999999999998,0.638,0.135,-0.9475,3,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,2,9,13,4,0,1,0,14,2,1,0,2,31,27,15,0,2,8,2,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,11,0,0,8,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,5,5,26,7,10,19,1,5,0,2,1,1,8,2,2,0,6,78,30,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11126785744954493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11004224849082618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08151601326761514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13633903172075038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11517501935153025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4701654285890832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12777760819896875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028423876078388,0.19106280464722006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12362432443219595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14742956167334484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11978912131472938,0.2640466279052296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3980969326195784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07349040547448557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19599022107039296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310196876552478,0.0,0.15224398698700214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927063652327284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28446074228704604,0.0,0.0,0.17133215406767685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372642556485875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12603190221154867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21232150412047968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392098699598055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12066378433397487,0.0,0.0,0.12890374725326384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949926487967932,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,foreverago13,2018/11/04,"I'm working on a book (graphic design student) Hello, I'm a graphic design student, and working on a book about schizophrenia. I would like to use, not only my, but also other peoples drawing/writings of how it feels to have schizophrenia or how you feel during a schizophrenic episode. Also if anyone wants to share stories, or links to their own posts that I can use in my book, please do. I will not use anything without consent. I don't have schizophrenia myself, but i do have some loved ones around me dealing with it. That's probably why I am so interested in it. Also, I hear a lot of misconceptions and people who see schizophrenia as a horror movie, and i would like to address in my book that its not. I hope I don't offend anyone with this. 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Do you rant at, argue with, condemn, or cuss out your voices? I rant at mine. It’s hard not to.",-0.9403571428571418,1.1819042500000023,1.4685714285714295,97.00142857142859,95.78571428571428,4.228571428571429,14.142857142857142,5.985473137389443,-0.7731714285714282,101,2,23,1,4,34,21,28,0.355,0.645,0.0,-0.8611,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,6,0,6,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,0,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5038038526777285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8638180815583092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,habiboboy,2018/11/04,"/serious/Psychosis because of rape ? Hi people, since this is a very communicative channel I thought I find help here. &#x200B; I want to talk about whether I got **raped or not**. To be honest I believe I was and I already was at the police station because of it but still I'm unsure about it. Once I was travelling I hang out with a group of people from the same country. The persons in the group knew each other longer it was just me who knew nobody of them well. I was with them for about 4 days I guess.... at first when I met them it was kinda fun.. but strange. Somehow they wanted me to have sex with the only girl in the group, but I told myself she isn't my type... the days before I was really having a great time and was kind of hyperactive due to lack of sleep which could also be a sign of **psychosis which I got after the one day.** &#x200B; Anyways I was sleeping in a open space where everyone could enter. So I spend some time there and had a good time... but somehow I was really tired the whole time and I somehow slept almost all day... after 3 days of basically doing nothing special I woke up the one day and felt hurt inside and confused. I had a blank mind for 10 hours or so which is basically normal after sleeping... but as I woke up my under body felt kind of detached from my body .. also I wasn't able to run for more than 3 months.. I think my brain deleted that memory or so and wanted to protect me or someone used a rape drug. I don't know. I cried for like 3 hours straight in the car even though I shouldn't have a reason. After all I drove away after I told all the people from the group the FBI would be spying on us and I drove them mad so they told me to go. &#x200B; I ended up in the psychiatry in that country. I'm still confused about that topic... This day changed all my life to the bad.. In my mind I have nothing against gay people... but somehow I can't act normal around them anymore since that day disturbed all my life.. but as you can see I try to have contact with you guys and accept every comment as it is. I'm pretty sure I got raped... But signs also tell I had a psychotic episode.... but that just might be a bad excuse for what really happened. &#x200B; Thanks for every comment. Thanks for non abusive language. 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Is this a thing with schizophrenics, like cigarettes?",6.819230769230771,10.855746692307694,4.191153846153849,76.59134615384617,82.07692307692307,8.753846153846155,29.57692307692308,8.841846274778883,3.9179538461538472,69,3,9,2,2,19,13,13,0.0,0.794,0.20600000000000002,0.4329,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7100192947412403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4554080540371376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3181950418334829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4326985333530119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ladyjustice_,2018/11/04,"If you have smoked weed that triggered schizophrenia/psychosis, what were your symptoms you experienced when high? Was your high different compared to others? And how long were you smoking before it triggered the illness. 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Scared. Confused. Just need guidance/reassurance :( Hi all. Hope you are all doing well. After this post and getting responses (hopefully) I’m putting my phone down and taking a long break. Things might be a little disorganized (no pun intended. I really mean that and I’m sorry in advance for it ) Ok, so here’s what happened: About 2 weeks ago, I was very high-strung and felt I was on the brink of a breakdown but I didn’t really care. I was doing a lot of coke for my weight. (Early 20’s here and about 120 pounds) (I’m like between 95-110 now after this shitty episode) I wasn’t sleeping.. like hardly getting a good night’s rest. Absolutely not eating at all.. holy shit as I’m typing this I’m realizing how messed up I was and I didn’t care. I lost 10 pounds and now I’m even remembering my gf say “i miss your tummy” :( fuck. Well.. Other personal problems were eating away at me on top of everything. I was smoking marijuana heavily and abusing my meds (xanax) on top of all of that. I remember I slept at my gf’s apartment with her for a week and in like the last two nights I was speaking random stuff to her. Like i would be talking normally about a subject, my mind would space out and I’d say something with no context that made complete sense to me but left my gf worried. Example: “my shoes are green sometimes babe” ... this left her confused and scared and she let my mom know. Keep in mind I was running on basically no sleep. After a few days I snapped. I apparently owed some famous rapper half a million dollars, I thought there were people in the back of my mom’s car hiding while we took my little brother to school waiting to kill my mom and I. I remember this all, but when it was happening I was obviously too ill to know. I remember telling my little brother I loved him over and over again, and my mom was just going along with it she told me because she was scared and she didn’t want to freak out because she knew I’d freak out. I really fucking thought we were going to die. I thought people were out to get me because I owed money even though it was obviously not true and I have like... significantly long false memories. Guys I’m scared. Every time I talk about this, I find out more things and remember more things that I said or did and it’s scaring me. I don’t want to go through this again. I didn’t know if this was the correct place but I’m not sure where to go. I just need support and reassurance please :”( if anyone can DM me I’d be happy to tell the rest. This post is so messy and vague it probably seems like I’m still in an episode. I’ve suffered depression since I was a teen and extreme OCD/anxiety my whole life, since I was a kid. Hospitalized multiple times for the depression, but have never had a psychotic break. 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When I was 19 or 18 I went on meds. They constantly changed them and god was I on a lot. The psychiatrist also insisted on talking to my father every time, despite me being a legal adult. Made me uncomfortable. The whole experience was horrible. I still had all my symptoms but was also totally zombified. I stopped taking them and have been off meds since early 2016. Now I am 23. I was recently told that my old psychiatrist, now two states over, was nearly shut down for pushing meds for profit and other unethical practices. Going back on medication is something my loved was constantly bring up. I think I'm doing fine without them. I'm living with the man I'm going to marry, my relationships with my sisters are better than ever, and so is my relationship with my father. I even have a job that I absolutely adore, although I can only handle about 10 or 20 hours a week. But they still all bring up medication. Is there maybe something they are seeing that I'm not? Is it one of those things that's easier to see from the outside, like an abusive relationship? Should I try meds again maybe? I'm so confused. I don't know what to think sometimes. 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I start a new job tomorrow, and it is playing on my mind that I could seriously mess up the job as my social skills have deteriorated recently, and I have become in reality, a quite boring person. I live on my own, and there is nothing I can really do during the day to socialize with people to improve my social skills, so I just sit in all day, andmy thoughts/voices become deeper and deeper, and they can take the form of other people. I also find myself either refering to myself as a ""we"" or in the 3rd person. I need to find a way to snap myself out of this before my job tomorrow, which I kknow won't happen, but at least I will know a way that I will be able to cope with it. Can anyone help? 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So recently I have been watching Terrance Mckenna and have been interested on how some cultures look at schizophrenia as a gift. Have any of you ever been to a shaman? Weird question but it intrigues me. Thanks! :),3.3309219858156034,6.443564680851065,3.030957446808511,87.28416666666668,83.04255319148936,4.835460992907802,31.23758865248227,6.42735559955562,1.8585631205673765,208,11,35,2,6,62,37,47,0.025,0.679,0.29600000000000004,0.93,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,7,1,0,1,1,6,10,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,4,2,6,7,1,4,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,2,2,27,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5009577027384763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33317799424720296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533382671002229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093066821490579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4126168956991066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3636840830510729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391112423908786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Orionishi,2018/11/04,"Friend thinks he is God because when his older brother died he told him he was passing it on to him. His brother died a year ago. He has been dealing with some stressful situations. He is completely in awe with the vision he had. There is no doubt. I looked up shared psychological delusions and they had links to scizophrenia. Now I know psychological disorders can be hereditary but is it possible to get someone's exact same delusion? ...a year after they died? From what I read the main treatment for shared psychological disorders is separation from the person who originally had the delusion. Obviously not a possibility to start with here. Friend is fine otherwise...it doesn't seem to be upending his whole life. He wants to write a book with his message in it though. A message about love and that he is here for all of the broken hearted people who feel they have been rejected and unwanted by everyone. It's kind of beautiful. But I'm worried there are other things going on here. 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I'm sorry if this ends up being long, I don't know who else to turn to at this point. My brother has had a few episodes in the past, some of which got pretty bad (breaking glass/windows, leaving the house naked, etc). it's been years since the worst ones, but I think he's dipping back into that again now. He's highly spiritual, and even before he started having episodes, my mom and him were always into damn near every conspiricy theory that hit the internet. Reptilion beings, ancient wars between planets, humans being decendents of god-like people who lived in Atlantis, you name it. When he started hearing a voice (I think it's only one?), he thought it was his crush talking to him telepathically. This crush was someone he had harassed about being ""soulmates"" until she blocked him. I tried to have him ""prove"" she was talking to him by asking her to text me. Obviously she never did, despite his pleadings. It's happening again, except thankfully it was someone else who had known about his behaviors before so she was able to cut him off sooner. I understand more now how to talk to him without upsetting him, but he still thinks he's communicating with her despite her actively telling him not to talk to her and then blocking him. I know it's near impossible to talk someone out of their delusions, but is there anything I can do/say that might help him see it for himself? I hate seeing him suffer this way. I don't mind that he hears voices, I just hate that he projects them onto women he has obsessed with in the past and then goes and harasses them, ruining perfectly good friendships he could have had and torturing himself in the process. Also he gets worse when he can't sleep, and of course the less he sleeps, the more he hears, the harder it is to sleep. He refuses to take any kind of medication (doctors are controlled by the goverment who are just trying to poison people for money, yadayada), so is there anything that has helped you sleep when the voices wouldn't stop? Or maybe he just needs to work on not listening so intently. I don't know. I'm sorry if my post is a little everywhere, I just love him so much and I don't know what to do anymore. He refuses professional help, and even if he didn't, my family can't afford proper treatment. And even then it probably wouldn't work because we live in a state with notoriously bad mental health programs. Any advice would be incredibly appreciated. I'm trying to understand this as best as I can. 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I’m 17, and I’ve struggled with depression for a long time. My childhood was pretty rough, not financially, but in a very traumatic way. I never wanted to go to school, ever since kindergarten I fought it. In 8th grade I finally quit. Recently I got my GED, which I never thought I’d be able to do. Anyways, that’s a bit of a back story. But recently I’ve gotten worse. I’m beyond majorly depressed, and starting to wonder if I’m schizophrenic. I’m worried about posting this. And the only way I can describe why is “what if they see”. I don’t believe anything is real. I think this is all a simulation. Everything. The only way to end it is to kill myself, which I have attempted. I talk to myself a lot, and it’s not just thinking out loud. It’s almost like 3rd person. I hear voices on occasion, telling me I’m worthless, and to kill myself. I’m self aware, it’s hard to describe. I would never kill anyone, but I wonder what’s actually inside people. Is it electronics, or is it actually blood and guts? I can’t keep a relationship. My ex girlfriend left me in June, and I’ve spiraled ever since. She meant everything to me. I’m possessive, depressed, suicidal, and that scares people away. Please tell me your thoughts. It was very difficult to write this. I’m not even sure if you guys are real.",1.5434482758620691,4.047425241379314,3.6719655172413774,84.23208620689657,83.9425287356322,6.698390804597702,24.4088122605364,7.908726449838941,1.7058085823754787,1032,41,197,21,30,351,144,261,0.26,0.7120000000000001,0.027999999999999997,-0.997,0,0,0,0,0,2,46.0,0,2,1,2,8,13,4,2,9,0,17,4,2,0,7,43,41,15,4,5,11,1,2,1,1,1,2,3,0,3,17,10,0,1,7,0,0,1,8,11,0,0,8,6,29,2,22,31,4,28,0,4,1,0,16,8,0,8,16,123,46,2,0.0974315042333088,0.0,0.19015818693651207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09756357753803144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0681263731552399,0.0,0.08017782628183412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09154010547618734,0.07491881266757497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10977194072675464,0.0,0.0,0.10636996808441662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517528354851015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08629539354812629,0.0,0.0,0.06435258964769924,0.17626474727583022,0.0,0.0,0.17513030717047626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10673145047328712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055372569165685545,0.0,0.07792487447267547,0.0,0.0,0.09647250735025012,0.0,0.0,0.08727949029528065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10981238637697814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08660159766976916,0.3233805712675135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10585961443022388,0.0,0.0,0.04760011151301965,0.0,0.0,0.08622381525584277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283278071559608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22543554757931356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482020988023213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13509347452982345,0.08507343138821524,0.0,0.10695053351657303,0.0,0.0,0.09331244850016154,0.0991228670633246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363039783303653,0.0,0.22179676457673106,0.0,0.0,0.19240371241228088,0.10460497282400408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754593280088092,0.098605883903866,0.07764029437456968,0.0,0.10164230793685183,0.0,0.0,0.16119269426235358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06896252017353613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10185656287222204,0.0,0.1065742518581988,0.0,0.09182803968540383,0.0,0.0,0.07831175246294797,0.17031885833459276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248603476019839,0.0,0.154699462313229,0.056813093641844135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16078238969012495,0.05746762556003535,0.2320097789915248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08791677806951273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113206203826246,0.0,0.09894642198668754,0.09929102662001786,0.06921254516092068,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,snailking828,2018/11/04,"not schizophrenic just have the symptoms, how would i go about getting help? cant really afford it until i can get health insurance but my bad days have been getting really bad lately. i have a history of mental health issues, never been diagnosed with schizophrenia tho, i think i just have long-term PTSD from amphetamine psychosis and extreme living situations. thats what my therapist thinks anyway, but shes not a psych. i have symptoms of psychosis daily, im extremely paranoid and am always uncomfortable. really would like to not be this way but dont want meds. i dont need a diagnosis either. i just want to know how to manage the symptoms so i dont end up in the hospital again, from someone who has experience with patients with schizophrenia bc i relate to so many things i hear from other schizophrenics.",4.9644472745797215,7.3519577218543075,5.663178807947023,75.14869587366277,71.11920529801324,8.619663779928679,28.83392766174223,9.265573868473778,2.8837148242485986,660,26,108,15,13,214,96,151,0.128,0.8340000000000001,0.038,-0.9184,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,0,6,0,18,8,0,2,1,26,29,11,0,5,10,0,0,1,0,2,8,1,0,0,7,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,8,2,0,0,2,1,14,1,16,24,1,10,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,7,80,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10538607856504566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21150120701478792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08168120066964163,0.0,0.0,0.12855090551161574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4453118082041413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11217764302845676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12389168519670007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198514094432942,0.0,0.0719802534300126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26925405935805075,0.14274799815623634,0.0,0.08489334898384514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13680780017759078,0.13219362505842192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06960559700381717,0.0,0.14287096365574625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061876632087486325,0.0,0.11183759496689982,0.11208459653095293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840703869286307,0.0,0.0,0.14068378095225276,0.0,0.1276372059134278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093912161980033,0.09768319158377604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14805147367998872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434129351886143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423641385304763,0.0,0.0,0.10731332414213117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3949252703243224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470547830916538,0.084143133716994,0.16230923721198434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14940734425578467,0.1005318634700462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799424016722914,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Elijah_11,2018/11/04,"I keep worrying that I'm going to die and leave my family behind It's making me terrified. I don't want to go in the car incase we crash. I don't want to go to sleep in case I never wake up. I'm really scared that my heart will just stop and that'll be it. No goodbyes. Nothing. Has anyone ever worried about this daily? Is it normal paranoia?",-0.26105105105105153,1.8953385405405427,2.7653153153153163,89.88133633633635,89.27027027027027,5.451051051051049,16.33033033033033,6.937597516519254,0.07853933933933854,268,6,57,4,9,95,54,74,0.35600000000000004,0.644,0.0,-0.9744,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,7,3,3,1,2,12,16,2,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,8,0,9,13,0,10,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,37,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524142853231528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22622526466489545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19717228614602594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054889099306486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37164332247645937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583032839010473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937475900354144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308057133460949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14550105249077327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16811696791999234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21357075691128674,0.20915439691307008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396413717752033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21823257199011825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21813398917241675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18223817211316976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571364560679729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4427315735132199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xhdhsg,2018/11/04,"Sometimes I talk to the voices and feel bad afterwards Like it's a really sick feeling I get that's kind of like when you binge eat something when you weren't supposed to And it doesn't help the delusion that my mom has cameras in my room and can possibly hear what I'm saying I haven't talked to the voices in four days but today I broke my streak because I got triggered so like fuck I guess :')",1.7462951807228926,3.804190301204823,2.8152861445783164,93.3573870481928,79.72289156626506,5.595783132530121,22.423192771084338,6.6274283507984215,0.4427120481927709,317,10,68,3,8,101,58,83,0.171,0.693,0.136,-0.6174,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,3,7,1,0,4,0,5,3,0,1,0,8,13,7,0,0,1,1,2,3,0,0,1,4,1,0,5,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,2,6,11,4,6,11,0,8,0,1,0,1,8,3,1,1,8,39,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18565555625940447,0.1355443899354615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433993589000943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275227384969317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22485682325258224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20556186403932813,0.11617032087734272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17783609163710945,0.0,0.24494701515674244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506081111939898,0.0,0.1490386003065934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.231546543835982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32589148908802923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26041727100265777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506697184475361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14244509372159084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17682411491507385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17117828459884887,0.219912907915129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3574380088901358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21076474592674485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rainbowpuppysparkle,2018/11/04,"Hyperfocus and Trouble Multitasking I’ve read that hyperfocusing on a task is characteristic of ADHD and autism, but I don’t have those and have this problem. It creates trouble for me at work. Does anyone else with SZ spectrum disorders have this problem? If so, how do you deal with it?",4.487358490566038,7.14615886792453,5.687396226415096,73.16656603773588,73.52830188679245,8.013584905660379,31.35471698113208,8.841846274778883,2.9467539622641508,232,11,40,5,5,77,42,53,0.233,0.7240000000000001,0.044000000000000004,-0.9097,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,1,0,10,6,7,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,6,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,29,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3466997819614037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20171360034288727,0.2955843081868621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29741268528271914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3306258212335238,0.0,0.2524528906778431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409900264093431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5520773892792807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28856046559332044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21001862166880364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,I_Love_BB8,2019/02/14,Sold all my guns In desperate need for money and also not stable enough anymore. This will help me get back on track. Help me get my medication and go back to the doctors again after six months. But the best that I can do is still not good enough,3.0948,4.646035479999998,3.6810000000000014,90.93550000000002,74.2,6.6000000000000005,20.5,7.1686216300943375,0.2798000000000003,194,4,42,2,4,61,41,50,0.111,0.726,0.162,0.6131,0,0,0,1,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,1,7,9,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,5,2,5,7,4,9,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,6,33,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930346639672223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393880244872688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37121872785019855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533175716673272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470667092813173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4988283091340927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522263105523576,0.0,0.1371840660014845,0.20246141154858047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32358915772394303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431689427596069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926703723026219,0.0,0.0,0.17898314625882106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927695406314633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jankestdave,2019/02/14,I got a job finally Its been many moons but now i found a place and they have me shovel concrete but my boss makes sure i take my medication and i got a green hard hat its really cool my boots are too small,-1.6615000000000002,0.10669871111111284,0.7637500000000017,99.60562500000002,106.33333333333334,4.916666666666668,12.291666666666668,6.6274283507984215,-0.6864999999999997,162,3,40,3,8,54,34,45,0.037000000000000005,0.815,0.14800000000000002,0.6946,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,3,1,3,1,0,2,1,8,8,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,9,2,0,4,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,23,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137301133424516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140157233915998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4581101370233418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25655234948449473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28420138730790595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19116990517707366,0.2903580882081818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28851135137749684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992202831254736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18347102886252287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26992251272484385,0.0,0.21533229246780206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mywifeneedshelp144,2019/02/14,"Mental health in America My wife has suffered from depression and anxiety. She had a repressed memory and it sent her over the edge. However, she is being held for 3 days but the doctors say she needs at least 14 days. But insurance won’t pay so they are going to release her. I’m so afraid for her. She is so bad right now that she believes she is being held because she caused an accident that killed 7 children. I have no where to turn and no one to help. Her kids aren’t in a place where they can help and I can’t tell them.",1.2967272727272745,3.3700890363636367,2.791818181818183,92.85772727272727,81.36363636363637,6.545454545454546,21.81818181818182,7.686295010490155,0.8262727272727268,414,13,92,7,11,135,74,110,0.248,0.696,0.055999999999999994,-0.9725,2,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,3,0,6,6,1,2,5,0,13,2,0,1,0,11,20,9,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,3,4,0,3,0,0,1,2,5,6,0,1,4,1,17,0,10,13,1,13,0,2,0,0,22,8,0,0,3,64,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17867778435873985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950183272577048,0.14238001127984426,0.0,0.0,0.2631495380923207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399372030514328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30126222630740185,0.0,0.2011705418000617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23906527825831064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327412624980929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482703385219093,0.0,0.0,0.3131094928073199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25840680048010434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353801639660952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731866498257868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15827075046402794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440273502735741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19946457192428546,0.0,0.18574150865369024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20414747431096344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25405335443075416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MyOwnPrivateUniverse,2019/02/14,"Healthy diet can improve mental health “The similar effects from any type of dietary improvement suggests that highly-specific or specialised diets are unnecessary for the average individual. ""Instead, just making simple changes is equally beneficial for mental health. In particular, eating more nutrient-dense meals which are high in fibre and vegetables, while cutting back on fast-foods and refined sugars appears to be sufficient for avoiding the potentially negative psychological effects of a 'junk food' diet.” [Read the full article here.](https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2019/02/190205090511.htm)",15.902857142857144,18.5571330952381,12.314380952380954,36.69728571428576,45.42857142857143,14.815238095238097,53.704761904761895,13.662883650711644,8.923721904761905,516,31,44,17,5,152,71,84,0.083,0.79,0.126,0.5994,0,1,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,1,5,0,5,10,0,3,0,9,7,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,8,1,2,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,10,6,3,8,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,2,33,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15125777684552014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710323953795566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23529794577458296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275980332194667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5379184739920891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4728583416251118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350060105382717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14847154305017513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4483075773251607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224868822761821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,miller__heavy,2019/02/14,"supplements My father looked online and showed me that vitamin D and Omega 3 is good for people with schizophrenia. Does anyone take these, and if so, do they work? Thanks ",4.55182795698925,7.321058806451617,3.6658064516129047,87.18537634408602,73.83870967741936,6.713978494623658,20.010752688172047,7.793537801064563,0.8246688172043011,137,3,24,2,3,40,29,31,0.0,0.765,0.235,0.7906,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,5,5,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,14,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100172366742976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3879993586220433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3718808678394932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3723222855346758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073795339950824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333618833067313,0.0,0.0,0.4081989821242532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227813723478715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xHeadBand,2019/02/14,"Medication similar to risperidone? Nothing is working. I’ve taken a ton of antipsychotics and the only one that has worked well is risperidone. At 3mg my psychosis completely subsides but I’m left with lots of side effects. Weight gain, sedation, apathy, numb to all substances, mild sexual distinction etc. My doctor told me I should stay on risperidone or consider taking clozapine but I really won’t do well with weekly blood tests. I also don’t want injections as it takes months for the medication to clear your blood. I’ve taken abilify, risperidone, Geodon, latuda, haldol, and seroquel. Is there anything else that might work for me since risperidone has worked? At this point I’m considering just saying fuck it to medication and treating myself with seroquel plus a benzo just so I can sleep. I’m unlucky. Risperidone has caused just as much if not more negative things to happen to me when compared to psychosis. I was going four months strong with no medication at the beginning and I wish I never started.",5.66845994475138,8.351686298342546,5.706957872928175,74.2953539364641,69.99447513812154,8.723895027624309,31.20200276243094,9.354420925462401,3.33291408839779,824,36,127,19,16,259,118,181,0.07,0.7929999999999999,0.13699999999999998,0.9166,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,7,9,6,1,0,5,0,13,11,3,2,4,28,28,14,0,4,8,0,1,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,6,9,1,0,1,0,0,1,6,2,2,2,4,2,14,4,22,21,6,16,0,0,0,1,3,7,1,4,7,89,20,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10526594682632992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832180084245142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13522217467130776,0.0,0.0,0.13801349548813402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13473078123512378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10996152415922353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14680431355092238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169152879081085,0.0,0.0,0.07480941661122628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11640161458939664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14301839552573978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190869585764973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5304209818542049,0.0,0.13964059646599472,0.0,0.0,0.2101345815201445,0.0,0.0967645591253003,0.0,0.1015226013646956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263043149314009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919715155643491,0.10011195722909988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244346500797774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843267368913054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10467893435224213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10888723064010586,0.0,0.13172691787649454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931697044214309,0.1403020431745704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19794154623442134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08745035541350445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12577987834015733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07763987849859078,0.0,0.10558713410983127,0.16029213747059864,0.2367056918558717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15137013693374446,0.0,0.0,0.3833182324532187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,reindrop01,2019/02/14,How do you handle death? The death of our parent is looming and my brother has shut down even more. How do I handle the situation to make him feel comfortable in the days to come?,3.017500000000002,4.763005750000005,4.167777777777779,86.555,74.83333333333334,7.022222222222222,23.11111111111111,7.793537801064563,1.0133444444444444,141,4,29,2,3,46,29,36,0.22,0.705,0.075,-0.7476,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,3,0,6,7,3,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,5,7,1,5,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935132940301427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946135890619199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017278423722031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309838629392277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3049334650030901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5072488203620641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5134891439195101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CyPsySaii,2019/02/14,Is there a difference between hearing something (auditory hallucinations) and thinking that you heard something? Sometimes I'm just not so sure of myself. ,9.69,13.09279466666667,8.756666666666668,53.655,60.66666666666666,9.8,49.5,10.125756701596842,6.506400000000002,128,9,14,3,2,40,23,24,0.105,0.895,0.0,-0.3556,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946227542288618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.425702517211696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5815536161102328,0.3735612467640652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35598377318287044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420189835945289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,loofy_goofy,2019/02/14,"So what the difference between diagnosis schizophrenia and schizoaffective? Ok, if somebody is chronically telling about persecution and don't show any affect then he/she is clearly a schizophrenic. If somebody is having brief episodes (for like month) with mania. But two weeks after have some residual ideas of persecution she is clearly a schizoaffective. If somebody has a psychosis with mania and delusions of grandeur (let's say mania for 3 months and 1 day so ""majority of time"") would she be considered schizophrenic or schizoaffective? (The difference here is important as I try to figure out whether or not I need lithium on top of my ap that's it. Don't give a shit about label). 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My mom really wants me to talk to a therapist. She has me lined up to talk to a psychologist at the campus i live at. I'm not really sure if I want to go or not. What would we talk about? What's been your experience with therapy and is it worth going if you already have a busy schedule?,1.197272727272729,2.890719636363638,4.075757575757578,85.43363636363638,79.9090909090909,8.642424242424243,21.60606060606061,9.2995712137729,1.667078787878788,240,7,55,7,6,86,47,66,0.035,0.861,0.10400000000000001,0.5147,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,0,1,12,10,4,0,5,5,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,9,2,10,8,0,6,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,3,2,38,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317371583887104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054175801964702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386925233609736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025940361852246,0.0,0.1854313959538053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459462104941988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690591977208663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19791989822808956,0.0,0.0,0.5063634418407494,0.0,0.0,0.4803002537379271,0.2438229623807629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477236068899783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14917600268160652,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kQpounds,2019/02/14,Got my meds doubled Got my meds X2 today now it’s Quetiapine 25mg 4 times a day 2 in the morning and two in evening and have also been given a prescription for 100mg pills and will start then after I run out of my 25mg pills. Wish me good luck hope everyone’s having a great day ❤️,1.3814062499999975,2.3752955781250016,3.7832500000000016,90.73675000000004,77.59375,6.995000000000001,22.175,7.554174236665415,0.6290662499999997,223,6,54,3,5,78,49,64,0.0,0.7509999999999999,0.249,0.9393,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,7,10,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,5,4,6,5,1,12,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,8,29,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188135552367241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034435964149739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15538553723791193,0.0,0.0,0.22479887942537308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19732305437748374,0.3763142571393453,0.25937252015810797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23366404670279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5226366911777582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16651665931564213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13718069662797744,0.0,0.22299685644360864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298126554043649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705348232977824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lasersteam,2019/02/14,"I’m fairly certain that my schizophrenic brother committed suicide last night He hasn’t been seen in over twelve hours by anybody who knows him and evidence that the local police department found suggests that he threw off his jacket and jumped into a local river at a park. There were even eye witnesses who reportedly saw a woman jump into the river; my brother has really long hair and could be mistaken as a woman from a distance. The worst part is the jacket found had his wallet in it so it’s his jacket. I don’t even know honestly. Me, my sister, and my poor mother are just stunned this can’t really be happening ",5.7974159663865565,6.9153914621848775,6.572594537815127,74.43435399159667,67.15126050420167,9.64747899159664,29.160714285714285,9.827888789773867,2.917898319327732,500,17,85,11,8,165,83,119,0.127,0.8140000000000001,0.059000000000000004,-0.8555,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,9,0,12,3,2,0,2,14,21,6,1,1,1,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,8,6,0,0,4,0,1,4,3,1,0,0,8,4,10,2,10,10,2,17,0,0,3,0,15,9,0,0,4,60,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19661532916978075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252994502740064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5400138528249399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21776331348131492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425124953181361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706716477216089,0.2007314575317997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179287566887834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310945168066944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666711843439907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155157203840103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693640281815377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwway8272,2019/02/14,"Mother suffers from schizophrenia and refuses medical treatment. What can I do? Hello reddit, first of all, thanks in advance for reading. Long story short, my mother has been suffering from Schizophrenia for about 13 years. She was first diagnosed when I was about 12 years old and it has affected my life so much - to the point where I developed anxiety. I also suffered from depression a few years ago. I’m no longer depressed but I feel on some days that I may eventually fall back and undo all the hard work I’ve put in to get my mental health to where it is now, because of my mother’s schizophrenia. First and foremost, I love my mother because she is truely a kind woman. But her illness is cruel and has made me suffer throughout these 13 years with her episodes. When I was young, she abused me because the voices inside her head was telling her everyone is evil including me. Throughout the years, it’s also been a long and hard battle to get her to take her medication and to build a healthy life. Usually, as soon as she thinks she gets better, she will stop taking her medication and start to become ill, and the worst part is, she does not recognise that the voices she hears is abnormal. And she will continue to get worst and worst. This time I don’t know how I can help her to get better. She won’t listen to any of my advice. She won’t go out to see a psychologist, friend, or extended family. She also refuses to take her prescribed medication. My father on the other hand, blames me for not always being able to be there to take her medication because she used to only listen to me. It’s complicated and frustrating. I’m trying to also live my life and not let this affect my life as well and he doesn’t understand that. But I’m sure he’s tired from this too but I also fail to see how this is solely my responsibility. I love my parents but I won’t lie that part of me just wants to disappear from their life. I’m tired of it all. It hurts. I don’t know what to do and I’m desperate for help. Tl;dr: my mother has schizophrenia and refuses to take measures that will help her get better (i.e. building a good social support, seeing a psychologist, taking medication, doing some casual work). What can I do? Thank you. 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[Struggling to keep up with a new business venture, school, and just life in general] Sorry to start the day out in such a funk, but I just... ugh. Starting anything is so hard, and takes so much energy, does anyone else experience this? I'm not sure if it's related to my schizophrenia or bipolar disorder (I am schizoaffective) but either way it completely blows. For example: Schoolwork. I'm currently in my Junior year of college, so I totally should be on top of my shit by now, but lately I just can't bring myself to do anything. I feel listless, unproductive, just.. dull? And I know I'm not stupid, I understand the material, I just can't bring myself to actually //do// any of the thing. Another example (and low key self promo): I just made a [Threadless Shop](https://spetmber.threadless.com/) and it's been really fun, but promoting it on twitter/instagram and just overall running it has been kind of stressful while dealing with my symptoms and this newfound listlessness. Don't get me wrong, I'm super excited about it (creating it was a manic decision) and it's been a lot of fun to work on my Pride themed collection, but it's been kind of disheartening to work on because since it's just starting out, there isn't a lot of payoff. So far I've made 4 sales, which I'm really proud of, but at the same time I feel like my illness is impeding my new business venture because this inability to //just do the thing// has been catching up with me. I have designs I'm working on that I just can't bring myself to make, which sucks because I am passionate bout it, I just feel oddly powerless. Anyway, thanks for letting me vent, I hope this isn't just an ""I'm bad and dumb"" thing and it's more of an ""I'm sick and valid"" thing, because if it's just me being shitty with no underlying cause, I'm gonna feel a hell of a lot worse. :/ ",4.250459882583172,5.851620369863018,5.36735322896282,79.79936643835619,71.32876712328766,8.830724070450099,30.295988258317017,9.330973305703688,2.766270058708415,1485,63,282,33,28,491,183,365,0.20199999999999999,0.6629999999999999,0.136,-0.9814,2,0,0,0,0,0,76.0,0,0,0,8,23,26,5,2,15,0,28,7,1,4,2,63,59,26,0,4,25,0,6,1,0,2,5,0,0,1,24,17,0,1,7,0,1,5,9,13,0,0,8,6,29,13,41,46,8,35,1,3,0,1,2,17,4,7,13,191,53,7,0.0,0.0,0.1023501684404972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713236811896172,0.10997842240123194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07333626682091741,0.10746449251027096,0.25892802694459155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875724876656138,0.2557415388997294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10774319547402098,0.0,0.0,0.10996728205692836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06764052119716353,0.1081292288013445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202044056655083,0.0,0.09178336274297244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08761585162276195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10259518824402306,0.0,0.0,0.21212692771017874,0.07492806279448945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05479676556475889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18790819742313156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417196533882858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322436495123246,0.0,0.21843792087493624,0.05764066665253851,0.0,0.11831200284017672,0.0,0.0,0.1072494391230187,0.07408159551458164,0.05124028062773422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267501994898591,0.0,0.19848467209226087,0.07000986807479216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07710068880445893,0.0,0.0,0.2025923004291776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13438080135379005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061466665135413,0.0,0.0,0.10941529792236553,0.0,0.1076603558255771,0.08675986911169731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11740734656842194,0.22270907194332368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12014252347421302,0.10964593778150204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09885049369449078,0.10901305277782744,0.07885857020198657,0.0,0.0,0.09656169376331004,0.0,0.0,0.27871703026497985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06115781600094746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10918635782846796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08325082866421883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09464012240676957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229067078023742,0.0,0.10688420480767044,0.0,0.11467252428438755,0.0,0.06754087672355782 schizophrenia,roadgoblin,2019/02/14,"My doctor gave me antidepressants (again) because being unemployed fucks me up so hard Lately I've been really down and depressed because I am browsing job offers almost every day and I send out applications almost all the time. Nobody called me yet. Only a woman that set up a job offer in the stables for a groom, and yet still, someone is probably going to snatch the job before me. Having no degree also doesn't help. I am just so desperate for work because I want to finally get out of my really sad lifestyle, having something to do everyday would really help. But nobody thinks I am a worthy candidate for a job I guess.",5.7974159663865565,6.9153914621848775,7.167552521008402,70.16880777310925,67.15126050420167,9.64747899159664,29.160714285714285,9.827888789773867,3.0552932773109243,500,17,80,11,8,171,80,119,0.17800000000000002,0.7879999999999999,0.034,-0.9471,6,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,8,3,1,0,8,0,11,2,0,0,1,14,18,7,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,2,1,12,0,13,14,1,18,0,2,0,1,8,6,1,3,9,59,13,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962999961307081,0.0,0.0,0.118315117834354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705658256402965,0.0,0.12589408083171466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15107292523849314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09541515256998603,0.0,0.12742864031585385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15143252626651946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12465378854671247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620713854508473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13677687801622607,0.07729747870308366,0.0,0.08408307917544533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16298299380143108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13253364262242712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19833478888811726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5872679813527171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16689341835422572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252221989444036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15951452520959286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843406090767944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12535708476209328,0.1138987110329188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815261801143988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09480003051580692,0.0,0.0,0.08627051124529538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08726441598783045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10770895813909832,0.0,0.0,0.10509904095810303,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Nyxceris,2019/02/14,"Will medication completely eliminate major episodes? Hi all, I tried googling this but couldn't find anything to answer my question. Last night my girlfriend with schizophrenia had the worst paranoid episode she's had in a long time. A little background; she's had the illness about 5 years, i met her in march last year and we got together end of may. She hadn't really had any progress with medication until about June last year because she never took it regularly. Since then she's been taking it as prescribed, and was discharged from being a outpatient after being in the system since being diagnosed. She has had some minor episodes but last night was the worst one yet. It was so bad that now she is scared that it's a signal that she's about to relapse hard and that she'll end up being hospitalised or sectioned. She described it as "" the episode before the storm"". So I was hoping people with first hand experience could tell me whether they've been through something similar, and if the medication is supposed to eliminate major episodes like that or if they can still happen from time to time. I feel like some testimonials from other people with schizophrenia could help put her mind at ease at little or at least confirm that things are about to get bad so we can prepare.",9.113354430379749,8.502983679324894,7.746255274261602,74.70267405063294,60.30801687763713,10.431645569620251,37.049578059071735,9.516144504307137,3.3844995780590725,1040,41,182,15,12,314,133,237,0.133,0.77,0.09699999999999999,-0.9093,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,2,0,1,2,10,8,0,1,11,0,28,6,1,0,2,32,36,19,0,6,8,0,3,2,1,3,5,0,0,0,14,10,0,0,4,0,0,2,3,5,0,2,15,3,22,3,29,11,9,38,0,0,0,0,21,10,0,10,27,132,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08070559534808805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976624697357464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198183538350382,0.07234544266324082,0.0,0.10098684471586583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12443237392109648,0.0,0.0,0.18951059268771095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12045639678385545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21022823021176612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609055518419302,0.0,0.0,0.0600075238149058,0.08478409716447016,0.0,0.0,0.10847019476697692,0.10094805370345372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06200472990585431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949182092826802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494719505783744,0.0,0.10631281708176572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07954784051353378,0.0,0.0,0.11787474147470706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3869559677625197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11596085016616872,0.2378944993659885,0.0,0.1050269274989342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3586689568812069,0.0,0.0,0.11983166988152015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915323407306958,0.0,0.0,0.22274386759080836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08041976819666367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16455375481730874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11930488708961155,0.13294732084581115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07602862328276434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11881809662093094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963445176186736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09136467233748648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947769744936926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08923162335845329,0.0,0.10373042721973716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884486430735713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20760753798265005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318564182741812,0.08057505669192899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292756028035776 schizophrenia,PopPunkJess,2019/02/14,"Me - someone who can hardly get out of bed. is doing this I’M RUNNING A HALF MARATHON. Hello. I’m running a half-marathon for the charity MIND which is a mental health charity which provides support to those suffering from mental illness and information on how people can help support their loved one’s suffering from a mental health related illness. If you would like to donate here’s the link: https://www.justgiving.com/Jess-Woodward1996?utm_source=Facebook&utm_medium=fundraisingpage&utm_content=Jess-Woodward1996&utm_campaign=pfp-share&utm_term=BB9mnzvmP&fbclid=IwAR1HGZydvZcfTx65O75gqqthVAJsBWX1d4gBh2ik7QXjHCn5IvglhL9NErA If you could donate that would be great. If not, if you can reblog, share it on your social media accounts which be great. 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What are some you personally experienced?,8.388000000000002,12.384875800000005,7.600000000000001,49.48000000000002,91.0,10.0,45.0,8.841846274778883,7.057000000000002,58,4,6,2,2,18,10,10,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AI1859,2019/02/14,"What Would be a Good Way to Portray Schizophrenia in a Character? Now I have to preface this with that I am writing something, and I know there is a reddit for that I have asked a similar question there. I want to avoid the stigma surrounding the mental illness, and a good way to figure that out might be to ask people suffering from it, so for now I simply must ask what the people on this reddit would be a positive way to go on about making a character with schizophrenia? How would you like to be portrayed in any particular story?",8.262884615384614,6.8615049038461535,8.17969230769231,73.46530769230772,62.46153846153847,11.012307692307694,36.18461538461538,9.888512548439397,3.4480484615384626,426,16,78,7,5,138,60,104,0.076,0.792,0.131,0.6946,0,1,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,7,5,0,1,10,0,13,1,0,2,1,18,20,4,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,0,8,5,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,3,18,11,0,12,0,1,0,0,6,6,0,2,3,64,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12644825762518122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5214974587479286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10567622796671207,0.3119219149115843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218992829591077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09084281822718822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12411902592480002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18738776020365566,0.1972571391946083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578202352957787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082997715881048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14314873182884527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096745553058312,0.4427809412608697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3962677266443893,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,erk365,2019/02/14,"Should i be hospitalized right now? My hands are shaking sis sorry if I type wrong but.... My face and body are going numb. The only thing I can hear in my head is ""everything is fucked up"" being repeated on a loop. I don't feel like what I'm doing is real and literally just want to take all of my pills because I am so fucking tired.",1.7630476190476188,3.3345942571428613,3.962857142857143,87.43047619047621,77.85714285714286,6.9523809523809526,21.666666666666664,7.793537801064563,0.8156666666666665,258,7,57,4,6,89,58,70,0.25,0.732,0.018000000000000002,-0.9449,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,1,2,0,12,9,4,0,1,10,20,5,0,3,3,1,2,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,0,3,9,1,5,17,1,8,0,0,0,2,2,4,2,1,3,38,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14694071850217655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677501607763944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166385396387122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188119030445825,0.17220485073119474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4456902718433082,0.0,0.0,0.13699322194896466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473849503373379,0.0,0.2716787905338757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11776395315497792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18332798459991256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743655735595865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20585380806492964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.269833675615162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812382144158044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16014168391309527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770493955788365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421764476860254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635483180917705,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LoginFacebook,2019/02/14,"Ability to change categories of an object Im suspecting i might be developing schizophrenia, and i wanted to know does anyone get this weird new ability to consciously change the category of something? Like if talking to a person, you can imagine its a human equal to you and suddenly you treat them differently than if you would while just considering them a part of your conversation with them. Or when i go outside, i feel like i can change the ways how much i can follow the expected behaviour in a public place. Or for example, a pile of clothes is on the floor and i can conscioussly tag the pile of clothes as one object and just take the whole pile as one, instead of thinking of it like a bunch of clothes. Or another example would be me changing my beliefs about something like food falling on the floor, like i can change whether my opinion on picking food off the floor is unpleasant and unhygienic or ok and fine to do. So again, im asking is this normal to schizophrenia or some sort of other mental illness? Or is this actually completely normal and im just overfocusing on this? Im going to a psychotherapist, so i wont take anything said here as fact.",7.67837837837838,7.390606702702705,7.99617117117117,70.68452702702703,63.05405405405406,11.544144144144145,37.869369369369366,11.038039088145766,4.245812612612614,936,43,169,23,12,308,119,222,0.05,0.84,0.11,0.9075,1,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,5,3,0,11,9,0,0,16,1,16,3,0,2,1,40,28,24,0,8,12,0,1,5,0,4,1,1,0,2,7,8,2,0,7,0,0,4,1,1,0,2,1,2,20,8,30,21,6,20,1,0,0,0,15,10,0,12,10,124,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.10213122404178468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10974315987132227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07317938808698292,0.0,0.08612471196843323,0.0,0.09784121059585396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5535720474628371,0.0,0.1097320433581078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10934545581181808,0.0,0.0,0.09158702253685684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05291828804331394,0.07476777893853498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531060184445109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05467954597371403,0.0,0.11895923827077648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.452194898548135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05751736347391241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556533448109301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547076501498334,0.11102572202640866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07693575733235855,0.0,0.0,0.10107946053993017,0.0,0.0,0.20508546519645154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418380958672546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133345407030416,0.0,0.0,0.0913834299862575,0.10934545581181808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995538347254301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16114186156560367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15737975664585568,0.08412022921283355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06706069478423705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06173006837913235,0.08307274099810223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11684704888915327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14869224555011498,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AssryeL,2019/02/14,"why im still alive why i keep living if ive no future why i keep living if im useless my monsters are eating my soul this world is so empty &#x200B;",-0.5564705882352925,1.4707548235294112,2.301470588235297,93.70161764705885,89.0,3.4000000000000004,17.323529411764707,3.1291,-0.8099764705882353,120,3,26,0,4,42,23,34,0.21100000000000002,0.715,0.07400000000000001,-0.5812,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,5,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,13,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22077348645997547,0.24759026705424805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20849698192800256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4401907563491209,0.0,0.0,0.36222186315077737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3598469930284732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627227129270939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5515841510681887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24759026705424805,0.0 schizophrenia,FACastello,2019/09/02,"Resources for understanding schizophrenia Ok so I don't have schizophrenia (I have MDD though)... but I've been studying a lot about this illness. This is the reason why I've joined this sub. I happen to work inside a hospital located in a large university campus, which means I have free access to a lot of medical papers about all sorts of illness, including schizophrenia. I've been gathering research material for almost a year. So I've decided to share them with people who might be interested in learning more about it. I'm sharing a public link to a Google Drive folder where you can find all the papers. This folder will be updated as I gather more material, and if you have any suggestions please let me know. I hope this is useful to someone. [https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1aXPqf5eAesvXIXrbrofGIb3RUXC19Le0?usp=sharing](https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1aXPqf5eAesvXIXrbrofGIb3RUXC19Le0?usp=sharing) The following is a list of the papers I have at the moment, which you can get in the link above: &#x200B; * Autochthonous experience, heightened awareness, and perception distortion * Delusional Atmosphere and the Sense of Unreality * Delusional Mood and Delusional Perception – A Phenomenological Analysis * Delusional Mood, Psychosis, and Beginning Schizophrenia * Delusions in Context * Delusions in the phenomenological perspective * From the uncanny to the delusional atmosphere * Handbook of Phenomenology and Cognitive Science * Introspection and schizophrenia * Mysticism and schizophrenia * Perplexity and Meaning: Toward a Phenomenological Core of Psychotic Experiences * Phenomenology and neurobiology of self disorder in schizophrenia * Phenomenology of Altered Perception in Psychosis * Psychic indeterminacy and the construction of psychotic phenomena * Psychosis as a State of Aberrant Salience * Schizophrenia as a psychosomatic illness * Schizophrenia as a self-disorder due to perceptual incoherence * Schizophrenia, Consciousness, and the Self * Self-disorder * Space, Time, and Atmosphere * The Concept Of Transliminality * Understanding delusions",11.373532196969698,16.312670475694443,9.11919191919192,45.226818181818196,62.99305555555557,11.685353535353535,42.40782828282829,10.767703573000405,6.929651388888893,1739,97,175,59,33,520,150,288,0.055,0.852,0.09300000000000001,0.8749,0,0,0,0,0,0,79.0,0,3,1,1,7,8,0,0,26,1,18,4,0,2,2,40,30,22,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,9,14,0,0,15,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,12,7,38,23,6,20,0,0,0,0,13,11,0,7,6,128,21,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12491410572764215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13516116361155364,0.15157883824973858,0.08483088285336153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42890575831438266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440491082368376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11401467699570987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06517411780820792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103115982397768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12389993955540578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06855659381056968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12756022199900074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21210748906761215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27176776704669103,0.0,0.12566747131181755,0.0,0.13233473976848767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08648248140529077,0.0,0.0,0.13693255811687716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282586440596066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5205449951884433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10569604012261584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225613365973478,0.0,0.07273981710157516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597279045512959,0.0,0.10773963431099892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256296650999532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09081585123522126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15157883824973858,0.0803316949656201 schizophrenia,Bad-Game,2019/09/02,"I am crippled with embarrassment I was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia after spending a year and a half rolling around the mental health industry and multiple hospitaliations, being flip floped through different diagnosis's and medications and whilst this was happening I did a lot of really dumb stuff during an intense and lengthy psychotic episode. I abused and threatened one of my favourite bands on an Instagram live feed that ended up being recorded, pushed away and instulted my friends and told my delusions to others who in returned stopped contacting me and just a lot of other really out of character stuff that looking back at makes me never want to leave bed again.",13.192155172413793,11.66418838793104,11.158000000000005,56.38700000000002,53.05172413793103,15.14206896551724,49.92413793103448,13.662883650711644,7.0225744827586185,567,31,81,17,5,174,87,116,0.133,0.82,0.046,-0.8851,1,0,0,0,1,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,1,7,0,6,4,0,1,1,20,11,9,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,8,13,1,1,0,1,1,1,1,2,0,2,4,1,9,1,17,5,2,18,0,0,1,0,5,7,1,2,10,64,17,0,0.0,0.22254401024060516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16720564797814616,0.0,0.0,0.1764694344450296,0.14442719321728628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906402190708158,0.0,0.196238999039616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16635876936596436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451144975239189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660945934867553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19965107463629275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988814306823796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16585448013757026,0.0,0.15772718244780004,0.0,0.0,0.3193672082930445,0.0,0.0,0.1253758282914126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18921571163056927,0.1892852080666519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14486358512180866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727628117704914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24065327845206375,0.0,0.18545627699408612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15703159107010972,0.0,0.0,0.4300334317824508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794765290448559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078509609229424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12095428252625502 schizophrenia,Connect_Doubt,2019/09/02,"Afraid I caused schizophrenia to develop due to weed I am 25, almost 26. For about 2 years since I was 23, I smoked weed on a daily basis and didn't have much of an issue. I quit the daily habit around a month and a half ago, but continued to sometimes have some on the weekend. However, about a week and a half ago, I had an incident that has stuck with me since and I'm afraid I caused this to develop. I had a small bowl (.3g) and went to bed about an hour later, but woke up hearing voices and seeing characters, and it only got worse every time I tried to ignore them or close my eyes and go back to bed. At first it was gibberish, then sounded like an old radio announcer, and then a black guy voice. I was completely panicking at this point, as I didn't know where it was coming from. Since then, most commonly if I close my eyes or am trying to relax at night, I'll start hearing them again or seeing things in my vision. Saying my name in a eerie manner, or a high pitch voice yelling hello over and over again. I've sworn off the stuff and have no further desire to continue smoking weed. But I'm afraid now I've permanently damaged myself.",5.606674304418989,5.0309898638297925,6.172340425531917,83.00692307692309,67.38297872340425,9.443535188216039,27.86415711947627,8.841846274778883,1.8295466448445168,898,23,191,13,13,293,138,235,0.10400000000000001,0.8390000000000001,0.057,-0.8988,1,0,1,0,1,0,27.0,0,0,2,2,9,7,0,3,16,0,14,2,2,2,0,33,28,23,0,2,8,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,2,1,8,16,0,1,1,3,0,3,3,5,0,3,12,13,20,2,29,16,3,46,0,1,5,0,8,19,0,8,25,121,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579697337573977,0.0,0.14570615201324738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295337772394073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11188736803894307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29895546028511616,0.0,0.1253430394603486,0.15256332095496047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12259753020720418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12376980227592915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08269606531263557,0.0,0.11637676571569855,0.0,0.0,0.14407669517443872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279982277432234,0.0,0.0,0.15373814963011542,0.0,0.0,0.1432969632224286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518734948936315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799678901040464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07108830220232522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11614382162703225,0.0,0.10696578938664512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13655025252332764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15268712105230792,0.0,0.0,0.11066608093761092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755295010024204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15476663403376864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11571452344077048,0.0,0.0,0.23190352014478996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610994154728488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14391203004236774,0.0,0.10299195356694422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16657288623792885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666965243788732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08484741403926617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19758199329781898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11671846853047516,0.0,0.0,0.13488821492364253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14828600778408507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370296564955764 schizophrenia,amormortpau,2019/09/02,Hey again I told my grandma last night that I had schizophrenia. She act way better than I thought she would she said that’s ok I’m still gonna love you. Then we talked about it turns out one of her uncles had it so I learned something new about my family and that I can talk to her about anything. What’s your stories about telling family if you want to share.,4.093599999999999,4.726940493333338,3.790666666666666,94.60200000000002,70.73333333333333,7.066666666666667,25.666666666666664,6.742157984588678,0.654866666666666,287,8,66,2,5,86,55,75,0.0,0.8270000000000001,0.17300000000000001,0.8957,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,1,3,0,1,7,4,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,8,12,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,16,4,9,5,0,9,0,0,0,1,17,1,0,1,6,42,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19154033552246447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20585589485824696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4388478196987685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18972916642953894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100735485654631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22479951855565133,0.0,0.21842799618602515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15772311948189185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214065448816357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17918879219185704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18588116339312025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741647794086869,0.2034411057524664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847841746947826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224106312106921,0.0,0.0,0.25317430705406585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372869381960591,0.1847527883678652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16534489318638596,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,skulls7,2019/09/02,"Spiders My hallucinations have always been auditory, whispers and commands to self harm/suicide. Today I've started seeing spiders like I saw a couple on the wall, not a big deal in my house and I dont have arachnophobia, so I went to squish them but they weren't there. I'm freaked out and dont know what to do.",1.6857142857142868,4.151131539682538,3.2787301587301587,87.5857142857143,82.80952380952381,5.504761904761906,24.87301587301588,6.868970318607317,1.0147206349206352,249,10,50,3,7,82,48,63,0.0,0.925,0.075,0.4735,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,7,0,0,0,0,7,13,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,4,3,7,1,6,9,0,8,0,0,2,0,4,5,0,0,3,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21118160200460287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808244344993046,0.0,0.0,0.2616562474384179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5949024914144505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928506672486221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13948162493474145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12399366660957528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20224542485612684,0.0,0.26476833862674043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17964066602269807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27761557345209065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240572348599446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352747756332799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Augie_March,2019/09/02,"I’m a pawn I don’t really feel comfortable on reddit yet... I’m new... but this subreddit seems friendly My friends on Facebook post innocuous posts but the thing about them is that they are designed for me to make me feel insecure, guilty, and paranoid. I don’t trust many people. I had this one friend who tricked me into being friends with him so he could mock me and ridicule me. So he would make me think we are friends but really that is not the case. I don’t know why they had to spread lies about me. I was really caring towards them. I’m scared he’s hacked into my computer and reading my chat logs. Everyone thinks I’m stupid... I thought rhinos laid eggs It doesn’t help that people are laughing at me.",1.8143589743589743,4.162742930069932,2.651076923076925,93.03558974358977,81.23776223776223,6.330815850815853,22.82004662004661,7.554174236665415,0.9389034032634028,561,19,119,9,15,176,89,143,0.17300000000000001,0.602,0.225,0.9078,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,4,0,5,15,4,2,3,0,15,1,0,2,0,22,29,8,0,2,4,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,8,7,1,0,7,2,0,0,5,6,0,1,4,2,23,9,12,22,0,10,0,0,0,0,17,6,0,1,2,72,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619415523126026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268157924355633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15177241587658422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16062219165180602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6135726488898529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10646288725280056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08729085275445349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120454686034155,0.16103245126335794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15340258616848002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076298320500746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202305899574933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042375755763405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15887669192749834,0.0,0.3052588239838448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15902025174390996,0.0,0.0,0.14459624354250494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10552205873883416,0.20354845495229373,0.0,0.12609622326290895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14332271761310295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11283090990367715,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,UpsetPhilosophy,2019/09/02,"The Voices keep warning me I'm being contacted by Beings in my mind. I guess I would call them Aliens/Beings but I don't care what people call them. Voices. Idc. What you call them doesn't matter to me. When the shooting at Christchurch happened I knew it was happening because of what they were telling me. They were feeding me information that day. Sort of like downloading files into a computer or something. I kept getting information about humans & psychology from them.... And shootings, terror, and darkness. They were telling me information about it. About why it's happening. It was only a few hours after I had the visions that I got news updates on my phone about what had happened. As I read the news the Voices were telling me it's proof and evidence that they are real. They were pleading with me to believe they were real & not a hallucination. Then a few months back (maybe around April & May) they kept warning me. Humans could turn around the energy and learn. Humans have the option to change and progress. But if it didn't happen this summer things would get worse by August. That's when the spree shootings started happening in August. I didn't feel it that day when El Paso happened the same way I did with Christchurch. But when I found out about El Paso something resonated inside of me. I knew it was hate. I knew it was the terror the voices warned me about. Another shooting happened just a few days ago, the drive by shooting in Odessa. Sometimes I feel like the earth is my body and then I feel the places where it hurts. Geographically. Persistently I feel it in the Texas area & on the boarder. I feel it right now. An ache in that area. Like something bad is happening. Really bad. The message that they give to me, over and over again... I can only explain it like this: You are not just yourself. You are not just your body. You might thing you are an island. You might think you are alone. You aren't. **Humans are DEEPLY** ***telepathically*** **connected. All humans are connected.** They say if humans continue to refuse to accept that they are connected... That they **ARE EACH OTHER...** Then murders, terror, war, is all going to start happening more and more. It's hard to put into words because they communicate with feelings and images. But I KNOW I'm right. I know it. Because humans refuse to accept that that other humans are **people not objects** war will break out. And soon. Civil war in the united states. I know it just looks like I'm someone standing on the sides of the street yelling about the apocalypse, I know I look 'crazy' and 'unhinged'... I'm not. The Society that's *ignoring* the screams of children is the one that's crazy and unhinged. I'm correct. I'm completely right in being panicked at how humans are treating each other. I'm right when I know that other people are people. People are humans, not to be used and enslaved... and yet... Look at the state of the world. Look at what humans have done up until this point. The Voices tell me that humans need to understand this so that we can evolve to meet them. We need to accept telepathy is real in order to meet them or understand what they are. If we don't reach this state in our evolution the earth will murder us. Because we refuse to allow Beings to exist without using them (ie: The Earth it's self even). We will be strangled by our own solipsism. No one can tell me I'm wrong. Not doctors. Anyone. Because I know deeply that I'm right. It's an **emergency** that humans change.",1.482317272574459,4.203447099848717,2.3307321322147385,90.24446507434408,92.37367624810892,4.72819572426229,20.141215483121684,6.4769562113868036,0.4550620608505631,2747,89,511,34,99,858,254,661,0.16399999999999998,0.779,0.057,-0.9978,0,1,3,5,1,0,136.0,8,9,20,2,27,25,6,3,37,0,59,4,2,4,4,113,120,35,5,8,21,0,7,5,0,8,1,8,0,15,53,30,1,7,27,1,0,3,15,15,0,2,23,19,78,10,66,82,11,77,0,1,4,0,74,38,0,11,34,358,131,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0510315808911566,0.0,0.0,0.05962428088769613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495046142652867,0.0,0.0,0.06036627679932755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040253690548403886,0.0,0.0,0.10249750364198004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04426712536864953,0.09613567670832354,0.17546810762096962,0.0,0.0,0.06486072174785444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278927025961109,0.0,0.0,0.1763536264601566,0.0,0.058695588589143276,0.0,0.1218010616231383,0.0,0.06036016195340425,0.0,0.0,0.045964284478609035,0.0,0.0,0.11138202393580662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058924467833364524,0.0,0.05891323142592372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03802388281795189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746521620581114,0.04112741463218952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0631216051628446,0.0,0.0,0.060155013057416634,0.05522557761930488,0.0327178765114426,0.0,0.04604331094946942,0.0,0.0634189127818914,0.0,0.5090821215275866,0.0,0.051570653637510185,0.05683762032144884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05669401959393815,0.0,0.061628969298894526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05117010861054677,0.0,0.0,0.189831006596032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14062690190100308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19337435849649792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0578359523265813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214354818195428,0.058128433728845914,0.0,0.045951148935494006,0.0,0.0,0.08537359545622752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07802069637735758,0.08756787052524567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995560113863897,0.0,0.0601475122460889,0.0,0.054421457878924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05787289978995287,0.0,0.0,0.0575847323470098,0.19657889989749636,0.03688027375698868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24581871189903334,0.0,0.04578130137392504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060057182274951576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048778156786131864,0.1329586403922672,0.0569373646694865,0.0,0.08149548604849134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515898873089656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0764927748112245,0.03688798890470383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06261870740985752,0.0,0.11986303777548805,0.06924860313689524,0.09944252913175937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04569571427914328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05194720655917772,0.0,0.0,0.055494609437107725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05866788549990671,0.08179094955272377,0.06294283179453397,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Rubythemasochist,2019/09/02,"Do any of you have a worsened state of psychosis during a cold? Everytime I get sick, my psychosis increases. It's really strange and I was wondering if anyone else noticed the same thing.",3.265285714285717,6.1851497428571465,4.342500000000001,79.51375000000003,80.14285714285714,8.071428571428571,31.607142857142854,8.841846274778883,3.4282857142857166,151,8,25,4,4,49,31,35,0.235,0.765,0.0,-0.807,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,2,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27101764442225906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27866512149993505,0.4083464724954061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3329250723574234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20821822538629148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4537350371032251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553118938270772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647691192563491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4321944911127008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,8milesstraightup,2019/09/02,"How can I be independent when my meds cost $3500/month? Will SSI kick me off because I work part time? I've been working for about 5 years, but it frustrates me that the meds I'm on right now cost so much. So far they work really well and nothing has instantly brought me out of psychosis as fast as invega and vraylar, so I am scared to go on cheaper meds like rispiridal. Most of all I'm scared I won't have a choice -- that I'll get my disability benefits taken away because I'm able to hold a job. Has anyone here been kicked off of SSI because they were able to work part time? Has anyone in the US found private insurance that made the expensive meds with active patents and injections affordable?",6.0220744680851075,5.78968265248227,6.18020390070922,82.14562500000002,66.44680851063829,9.886879432624113,32.518617021276604,9.516144504307137,2.6857297872340427,558,21,116,10,8,178,94,141,0.084,0.818,0.09699999999999999,-0.263,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,2,4,9,6,1,2,5,0,12,0,0,3,1,13,21,11,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,1,0,3,2,1,3,1,0,7,0,12,3,18,11,5,17,0,0,0,0,3,9,0,1,7,68,16,5,0.26196114851409896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18316932594114232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.123060561131344,0.0,0.0,0.23953362704808115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436134390721054,0.0,0.0,0.06843194402546847,0.0,0.07443927879879947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299780093159616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06399049249763569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12393698633981436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5819595621711134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045474447444076,0.0,0.09628579289696283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256793935652616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836783959132033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08390950981835221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185669474982128,0.0,0.0,0.26226880915446266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15275165233432345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15755350361848647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11776726639168696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3814216721209697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08434719545472709 schizophrenia,MinnieMeTheEpicMouse,2019/09/02,"Random rules I’ve sorted out that might not be useful or may be useful I’ve only been schizophrenic for a month but it’s been a massive trip and I’ve been trying to sort out the pieces. I’m always asking the voices what the rules are when really, the first and last rule is to not listen to the voices. Ever. Because once you follow that thread it does get worse. I’ve had my first few good days in a while just recently. So rules I’ve figured out: #1. Don’t listen to the voices, even the nicer ones. Don’t try to be polite or say goodbye. I get snagged in by people that say they’re lost or need help and I want to help in some way so I stick around and follow them. That’s dangerous because the other voices follow. #2. Never follow their instructions or do them any favors, no matter what the promise or threat is. And they knew what I’m always wishing for. They always know. And they know what I’m afraid of because of course they do. #3. Music does help. My voices told me it scares them away but it pulls them all back angry later. They hate the music I play. You have to live your own life. It’s your skull. #4. Exercise helps a lot. They hate to be around when I exercise, especially when I’m pushing a personal wall on my bike. #5. Nicotine helps for a little while. Yeah I know, I shouldn’t be encouraging people to smoke at all but there is some debatable findings in scientific research. I’m debating about just buying gum or patches since I don’t even like smoking and it should last longer than the 30 minutes a cigarette buys me. The alcohol doesn’t help for long. #6. Podcasts help. Anything that feels like you’re sitting down listening to real people talking. #7. You can ask them basic stuff to poke holes in the reality they try to paint if you’re really lost in the wormhole. Like they all hate the stories I write so I ask them,”what happened in the story?” and they all draw a blank. Or they say they know everything about my career so I ask them “so what’s the next step in this procedure?” and they all draw a blank. Because they’re just saying shit. They don’t know jack. #8. SLEEP! I let them keep me awake way too often and I’m sure it made me worse. #9. This one’s debatable but writing down a plan for your day can help. Try to keep the day interesting enough. If there’s a lot of mundane things like laundry and dishes keep a podcast or music on. #10. Look into the science of schizophrenia. It took me a month for that to occur to me. That there’s a dopamine starvation to the frontal cortex and a dopamine hypersensitivity to the limbic system (the hypersensitivity is suppose to cause the hallucinations). This part is guesswork on my part but I think you should try to keep your mind somewhat occupied because the voices will play feeding frenzy on you otherwise. When you’re bored. Or you haven’t talked to people for a while. #11. Maybe try to imagine the voices as blending into your heartbeat. It doesn’t always work for me but sometimes it does. I’m sure there’s always going to be more but that’s what I got so far. I hope it can help other people in some way.",1.3737007168458817,3.8558944274193534,2.7657526881720464,90.5708512544803,84.56451612903227,5.250896057347671,19.57885304659498,6.691623216298621,0.2504390681003583,2435,68,495,28,72,788,261,620,0.094,0.769,0.136,0.9749,0,0,3,0,0,0,79.0,0,11,21,6,28,25,6,2,41,1,36,10,3,4,9,94,86,44,0,9,23,0,1,4,0,6,5,14,0,1,32,19,3,4,11,5,2,10,12,11,0,4,11,16,59,14,63,62,18,65,0,2,1,0,59,27,1,24,27,313,91,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06790899066456665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26436763412082315,0.0,0.0,0.04321195878975812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052291128010705526,0.11313489708734485,0.2376194776646878,0.0,0.05970148600365995,0.04886125510361757,0.0,0.19367853452460976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06527698017047955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12294147045154545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16682280649076092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06565772531644129,0.0,0.08394015301087472,0.05747899943792445,0.0,0.0,0.05710906453496872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032129651419845064,0.0453956989834005,0.0,0.0,0.05807787633523336,0.10810063708038238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06639801916845246,0.0,0.03611340238068465,0.05329751941990233,0.050821776733451486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05619156699582432,0.0,0.0,0.18820902257924899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38332858981255946,0.0,0.0,0.06311332503018457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22592257434185575,0.0,0.0,0.17461003627826402,0.10359334603930348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06497783437856552,0.04488286077025482,0.12417715170784645,0.06368757493563779,0.05611033409676311,0.056234257901504665,0.053360782873916435,0.0,0.13873111451918455,0.10804532227293133,0.0,0.06012667411295925,0.0,0.0,0.06383828173290676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06740992347343766,0.06416111743299123,0.0,0.10144009992713893,0.0,0.0,0.047116917938091966,0.04900889112490299,0.0,0.06757954558901348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06767206654600008,0.08611783840284767,0.048327918573687054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13762347276376216,0.0,0.22026632853635109,0.05548398974292288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07232674884496039,0.081415562873106,0.0,0.0627418303916096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20213030114588545,0.06361842289269233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06522679118114237,0.05256408287020993,0.0,0.06358968436237443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06284643687330434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07274244117516906,0.0,0.0,0.11977854728270525,0.0,0.0,0.10214818891168922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042215673058835834,0.040716297277541835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060718818080049274,0.0705994929850178,0.2588523891735255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097628712863504,0.0,0.0,0.037479775942890016,0.1513143173816634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07307222688176022,0.0,0.0,0.046260638685286064,0.0,0.12951310914943287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TenAriAri,2019/09/02,"Telling doctor about symptoms... So i have a history of mental health issues and was diagnosed with bipolar 2. Recently though i have had some weird symptoms that are making me question wether or not i can keep going to college. Im afraid to tell my doctor/therapist about these symptoms as they are pretty close to psychotic. My doctor was recently changed and the new guy seems suspicious and i have never trusted my therapist. So i can't tell them about my symptoms. I don't know what to do. I don't want more meds or be hospitalized again. Im really stuck...",3.6403738317756975,6.052471214953273,4.573654205607479,81.32964018691591,75.16822429906544,8.018317757009347,28.457009345794397,8.841846274778883,2.580675514018691,448,19,80,10,10,145,70,107,0.08,0.887,0.032,-0.4168,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,1,2,0,14,9,0,1,1,16,21,9,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,9,0,0,1,3,5,0,1,3,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,4,0,14,1,10,16,2,7,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,5,5,56,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13288129668544232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12749397363328932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3857089382237209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07138843943883598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12437605573038656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13352014055377293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27136596197829205,0.13110674312725454,0.0,0.1116501004686264,0.0,0.0,0.06903330718531696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08384727327919958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13952709386195064,0.0,0.12658778637605836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09688005076768716,0.12131726887558045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12779300110096906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14071467079450345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08047053997125045,0.0,0.24805424379447386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143528397688082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5222376489838537,0.0,0.0,0.3293724046051375,0.0,0.0,0.29169142859817937,0.0,0.0,0.12341357596828707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740894664777199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Monostimulant,2019/09/02,"see your area with new eyes If you follow [this Wikipedia link](https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Nearby) you'll see articles about things nearby, sorted by distance. You have to allow the website to know your location, though, but if you enable it in your browser on your smartphone or your desktop computer, only this site and no other site or app has access to your location data, for those dealing with paranoia. I thought it would be nice for us as I know that many seldom leave their house, and perhaps this would give an incentive to go outside and explore your area. I don't post that often on reddit and every few weeks or months I make a new account, so I posted here before. Please bear with me...",6.479991452991452,7.9769606230769226,5.564871794871795,80.89235042735045,65.84615384615385,7.623931623931623,29.82905982905983,7.793537801064563,2.038957264957265,571,20,95,6,9,171,92,130,0.040999999999999995,0.862,0.09699999999999999,0.7409,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,1,11,1,1,5,1,0,0,3,0,7,1,1,2,0,23,16,13,0,4,6,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,10,7,0,0,4,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,1,3,19,1,15,11,1,16,0,0,3,0,15,7,0,7,4,69,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626188889174499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19702402515579445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16101678854873167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833282714554054,0.10861111834595744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22051305021663345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21005599101073585,0.0,0.0,0.20235584872167625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12756611844576654,0.19375358395319905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15254063549693375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691467232182112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14534629632205284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097792684708996,0.0,0.0,0.3660574013416967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045767724990103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12696370766493645,0.0,0.18776270514322926,0.15171845791625624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22987947362547045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15329536357983614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715153747338179,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rnizzlenay,2019/09/02,"Paranoia getting worse Hey guys, I know I ask a lot of questions on here. I am growing more and more confused with discerning what’s reality from what’s in my head. Lately, the worst one is I’ve realized food paranoia is getting worse. I cannot eat anybody’s food for fear they spit in it. I went to the store the other day and when I went to get water from the water cooler I immediately got ambushed by the thought that the employees spit in it. If I have the LEAST bit of tension with someone I am constantly fearful that they spit in my food. It’s this AWFUL food contamination paranoia. I’m also very nervous of bugs in my food. I have begun tossing cereal boxes and wrapping them in scrunchies so I can see all the cereal before I pour. Another is I keep getting worried that the people on my Facebook have hacked into my phone and they are watching what i am researching(anything from mental illness to relationships to shopping and some porn) and if I haven’t heard from anyone I will believe it even more and start hearing internal voices saying “what the hell is wrong with her?” “We don’t want her around us.” I feel like I am constantly being talked about/spied on. I am also hopelessly in love with someone who denied their feelings to me. I cannot accept it and am still highly convinced they’re lying and they are waiting for me to contact them. I have a lot of universal synchronicity around me, things seem to happen coincidentally ALOT, I am also Christian and believe God and I have a special connection that allows me to draw in those things I am paranoid the person I love is watching me from a distance with their friends they told about me. Sometimes I feel their friends watching me to report back to them like narc stuff. Sometimes I get paranoid there are hidden cameras in my room, in the public living space, at work, I have to keep my finger over the lens on my phone so I don’t feel like I’m being spied on. The paranoia started getting bad a few years ago when I could barely ride the city bus without worrying the person behind me was going to stab me with a needle, or anyone near me would. It was always a really uneasy trip. Then I started getting horrible bug paranoia, I feel them crawling and I’ll rip my clothes off to find nothing. I keep seeing them a lot but when I look again, nothing is there.. Also this is what I’m concerned about also. I keep seeing faces in inanimate objects when I start getting silly. Like I’ve had my morning coffee or stressed at work, I’ll just start seeing figures, faces in things. Mynimagination goes wild and I start seeing them come to life in my head and all these other scenes will play off from it. Like I was playing music in my backyard and I looked at the wood knots in the fence and they looked like tons of people watching me play . Idk. This happens a lot, mainly when I’m hyped up or stressed out. Never when I’m relaxed. What is this paranoia coming from?",4.609543754674646,6.021928771378711,5.155147095487411,82.40215968586391,70.1867364746946,7.132535527299925,29.175143355771628,7.447530270364453,1.7543405135876342,2338,89,434,24,42,749,256,573,0.125,0.799,0.077,-0.9592,1,0,0,1,0,1,47.0,2,0,15,2,25,30,1,7,28,1,41,21,8,1,3,71,96,36,0,5,8,0,6,6,2,3,2,4,2,3,30,29,8,6,14,5,2,8,7,12,0,1,10,22,81,18,71,80,17,67,2,1,12,3,40,35,1,14,30,312,111,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054997369887531636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480787956720733,0.05162474038631036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06505748785143095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08676380663772257,0.0,0.05105609688261315,0.1104628354032329,0.0580018233224978,0.0,0.0,0.04770723197758602,0.051803307667390566,0.0,0.0,0.05279401741153654,0.13980241422452905,0.0,0.0,0.06773487942699324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10688908971796124,0.0,0.13409286864113615,0.0,0.04953628147396585,0.0,0.0,0.04001259783482428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06348547095038397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04097881177460153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13963123234220912,0.15685400737199218,0.08864705327740997,0.0,0.0,0.056706171653077175,0.0,0.3751131674034471,0.0,0.09586852506742233,0.0,0.2593192251491745,0.0,0.035260462737226585,0.0,0.04962144928520973,0.0,0.0,0.06143231751468613,0.109728827725319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12734802056659386,0.0,0.06992696232579493,0.0,0.0,0.06555182856438233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205866517395774,0.0,0.0,0.03409720642122885,0.0,0.06998719857402723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04382280082743331,0.1818664349783612,0.0,0.05478509955213867,0.0,0.15630146472944695,0.0,0.0,0.2109869360840936,0.11199244711330997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06252474433658507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04785138107692403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11906385029932907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04204193778260866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08602559889262335,0.1083470968600497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06950235143298991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03974633005574838,0.0,0.0,0.06661095560426182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049339078304561024,0.0,0.0,0.24720116367639405,0.056481610709794926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10513765336491043,0.0,0.12272421314275507,0.0,0.2634860989276009,0.0,0.049547614401766214,0.0,0.14214007785724184,0.0,0.0710243833974449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04986780767466857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12365582321433438,0.0,0.0,0.04925520621991414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059284738662705526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07463008149870377,0.0,0.0,0.051191966942217886,0.03659456478519763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11502895229718695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059807231300287166,0.0,0.09033607575204644,0.1260153421815785,0.12645422081826455,0.044073562169255766,0.067834273238683,0.0,0.03995365337108744 schizophrenia,lvl1TacticoolPeasant,2019/09/02,"I experienced kundalini psychosis years ago, went on meds, now I want my spirituality back. I believe I can handle it, what do I tell my doctor? So, all the typical occurrences of kundalini awakening happened. I felt interconnected with everything wholely, I was communicating with the universe and felt divine presence, everything was a profoundly heart-touching and sweet in every given moment all the while. Everything I went through with this experience should have brought me into a very peaceful state of mind ultimately and I would have gotten to keep that state, but I struggled with conceptualizing how to let go of my ego and sense of self, I also became too engrossed in the feeling that I could have done something bad to myself by allowing the experience to carry on, like starve, extreme lack of sleep, or go on a long trek and wind up lost or die of hypothermia to the elements, or maybe even a cosmic entity stealing my soul and so much more. I believe I didn't handle the experience properly, so something about me in the experience made it take a turn for the worse. I had too fragile of a minr for a kundalini awakening, my whole view of reality was shattered instantaneously and I struggled to readjust as one should wih only understanding glimpses of what the actual way things are to go, not just the way I think they should be. My meds only are keeping me from what residual energy of it is left in me, and that always makes me feel uncomfortable taking them, and with a few years of mental recovery under my belt I feel like i'm ready to have the experience again as I am a better listener and ready to take on some harsh truths about reality and know i'll be better off for it. What was once so traumatizing for my 14 year old brain to go through is now all I really think about when i'm idle, i'm still completely blown away with that profound sense of everything working in peace and harmony with eachother the whole universe wide, and I certainly remember it with much love and fondness. I want to get off the invega sustena, the medicines have kept my fragile mind safe from deterioration and disturbance, but since I started them my ties to that profound peace and joy I had stopped as well, and I have dreamed of getting back to that state of being again every single day of my life since. I only need to take responsibility for myself and not get swept off my feet again.I feel I have a better shot now at balancing my life of spiritual fulfilment and my life to take care of in present reality. All that stands in my way is a doctors recommendation for me. Think I can do this?",13.080968787515006,8.264062695918366,12.267503001200485,58.44850540216089,56.734693877551024,15.855942376950786,46.7827130852341,13.216016132239005,5.8506614645858335,2091,88,377,53,17,690,232,490,0.106,0.735,0.158,0.9764,0,0,2,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,3,5,23,21,0,3,26,0,34,9,3,4,6,75,80,35,1,9,8,0,8,2,0,4,5,1,0,1,19,28,0,5,12,1,0,7,3,6,1,1,18,12,54,15,76,53,14,56,2,1,1,1,7,21,0,4,23,271,73,3,0.0,0.0,0.07071564222094819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06423608223097772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05795044363445445,0.06029690284079772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06808349881757303,0.11144262653255713,0.06050546667893556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632870698104416,0.0,0.19226890555247725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08089519780551155,0.0,0.0,0.07388316390294747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07597844822765262,0.0,0.0,0.057857614949327216,0.0,0.0,0.04673409892234704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07520750089929575,0.0,0.0,0.14834253201889466,0.0,0.0741571221640139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047862621944723766,0.0,0.12211021683824035,0.0,0.26050841866823105,0.3544246548882339,0.0,0.0,0.14656245469789156,0.05176919746804587,0.13915603068660998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11358032510113884,0.0,0.16473471284337227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0640807916386411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858716840714279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288209084286766,0.0,0.0,0.03982501272333081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07873371891365957,0.07410063980334287,0.15355307226324014,0.0708057330512046,0.0,0.0,0.06412947629326142,0.0,0.0,0.07910439340444939,0.0,0.06540272795526839,0.06856838279742823,0.04837112491506063,0.0,0.07280109541346763,0.0,0.16098513934396674,0.0,0.07302793982492381,0.0,0.14633851367168402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10654061068115422,0.05373207337802468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0760401022295976,0.07717313874540525,0.04910433677239446,0.16533929089465266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04642310225128519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08208901529565743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07559707208371322,0.0,0.0,0.11988802669740435,0.0,0.07251759528783171,0.0,0.0,0.11157459764340713,0.0,0.0,0.05129128523795709,0.0,0.05787085163471036,0.0605842035963104,0.0,0.15151285093672834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724242920861049,0.0,0.0633378327985984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048142699942311296,0.13929844111660114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788213958520378,0.0,0.07543889309859995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05979143011366625,0.08548377777177008,0.17255865537257806,0.0,0.0,0.06515497303453308,0.13435204726727246,0.0,0.2427146305552479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0527555736056011,0.0,0.07384829259605914,0.05147724281190142,0.0,0.0,0.13999575808560574 schizophrenia,TheMiseryChick,2019/09/02,"Thinking of getting diagnosed I'm not sure I'm schizophrenic per se. But I did have a psychotic break more then a year ago. It's probably still in my post history. I had: - voices 90% internal like 10% external - scary images - religious delusions. Voices telling me what I see as bullshit now. Telling me to kill myself....though I don't really believe in suicide. These are very embarrassing in hindsight - flashes of light. Like when I closed my eyes it was like something, and orb of light would dart across and I remember averting so as not to look at it if that makes sense. Used to be when I meditated I'd see random images them happen on something like a lamp and it'd be like break off because the light was coming through stronger then it should be - I remember at least once having to get to sleep despite a loud voice yelling stuff at me - seeing things like computer screens change, thinking things had changed I could swear a saw my battery level drop randomly. Thinking the clock had turned back so I could get more sleep. - Erratic behaviour, being out all night because of the delusion, thinking the rapture had come, going to an airport. - writing down ridiculous shit. - sometimes when waking I'll see weird shit, like flies or a blue spiral on the wall. - weird dreams. Granted this was mostly my psychotic break stuff. Which I think lasted for like 6-14 days. It's mostly gone now. But I still occasionally mishear or mis-see things I think (which could otherwise be normal). I still hear a voice, but I know it's bullshit now, so I don't really respond as much, and I guess it just isn't there when I don't notice it? I guess I want to get diagnosed because I'm nearly 30 my life is shit and I've accomplished nothing. I mostly worry about this flaring up again. My health is crappy and I can't seem to make better choices consistently. It's like for a few days a few weeks I'm fine high focus and motivation then I plummett for while doing bare minimum to appear and be 'normal'.",3.508053993250844,5.818540427821528,4.17196400449944,84.54033070866144,75.16797900262465,7.083944506936634,27.68361454818148,8.052868069273773,1.929527124109487,1577,64,293,26,35,501,207,381,0.107,0.7829999999999999,0.11,-0.4767,0,0,2,0,1,2,53.0,0,0,1,3,18,20,5,1,15,0,31,12,7,4,2,55,67,28,2,9,9,0,0,9,0,2,5,7,0,0,22,12,0,1,11,1,0,5,7,8,0,0,10,19,33,12,35,45,10,52,0,0,9,0,6,18,3,12,33,182,55,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07219067978376446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06262149470250336,0.0,0.1489332105530401,0.0,0.0,0.09175376330649053,0.0,0.07202609764402333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17230313628168012,0.1403048193756768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19506702816217114,0.0,0.0,0.10504271907974286,0.0,0.0,0.16531755831696535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17019387638718755,0.0,0.046283609192510934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794282812690754,0.0,0.07201615896874193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656575284874615,0.0917875701299175,0.0,0.0,0.08604467949665326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09010008750127813,0.0,0.04475669500758967,0.06638358098311055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0575227104174329,0.3580824391544448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06838817330775017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872220933298543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05986696917469257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07642490001229484,0.15958568094746614,0.07814283036041658,0.09271873856625233,0.0,0.08672978104494185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799596378226514,0.0,0.08780491886988066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10434370194436668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845088184445818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595850686769989,0.07413892483877557,0.0,0.0,0.25078761176411857,0.0,0.0,0.16299544798788715,0.0,0.0,0.12539130299875648,0.08054516416712885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19511165566509656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186456135235902,0.08908094923733233,0.0,0.07675520868458148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14236239343862728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623131788905342,0.3130965901957394,0.08001331537805075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08858214807689077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07033707022275051,0.0,0.06719562954708724,0.04803477900191989,0.0,0.06532538111202582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270516602771433,0.0,0.057851864916396586,0.0,0.0,0.052443987823453816 schizophrenia,Narcopy,2019/09/02,"What were your first indications / symptoms? Hi, I am at high risk for developing schizophrenia, it runs in my family. I had a really crappy traumatic childhood and spent most of my time living in my own head and drawings. Im typically a pretty well-adjusted and intelligent person (successful, in graduate school), but have also really struggled with atypical depression, social isolation, and recently- narcolepsy. I dont really have any friends or close family. I tried pot for the first time recently and found it really hard to differentiate between what was real and what wasnt. I have tried it 3 times and had auditory and visual hallucinations each time. I was with my boyfriend and had to ask him if the sounds I was hearing were real. Sometimes they were, sometimes they weren't. I spent the next few days feeling paranoid that everyone i interacted with would know i was or had been high. Idk, I also have some weird ideas about how the universe works. I know the whole pot thing doesnt mean much, but its been the first time i had to genuinely question what was real and what wasnt, and I guess that isnt typical for pot users. What should I look for? What might be my first warning sign? How did you figure out you had schizophrenia?",6.612536231884057,7.7063375,6.858695652173914,73.1994927536232,65.30434782608695,10.82898550724638,31.85507246376812,10.793553405168565,3.6008637681159428,995,38,176,27,15,321,129,230,0.134,0.821,0.045,-0.9611,1,1,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,3,2,6,5,6,0,2,8,0,32,2,1,2,0,42,43,20,0,3,5,0,2,0,1,3,1,2,0,1,14,17,0,0,8,0,2,1,6,4,0,4,23,5,26,2,18,16,7,23,0,1,1,0,14,8,0,8,14,129,40,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16892043216775746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07182176960078471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873569641060202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0681128882871917,0.0,0.09096597876376226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.123779903643725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091958533504077,0.0,0.0,0.1991287005846029,0.0,0.05340207864348364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593439995562268,0.0,0.1158013121608281,0.08159782782826466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11634674525480936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09461022647964193,0.0,0.10839138131263867,0.0,0.1190356945285417,0.0,0.0,0.22317593046362733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11922639302385042,0.11408224088184885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11608639966151678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09325991231566044,0.0,0.08868993585628142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11504561365633435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120407435374875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07763912090647618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232266920911364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922188773537617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10744834634626256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11831288531663943,0.0,0.0,0.36063871462923175,0.27063849741411605,0.0,0.2085639907527516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10688794099058206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10766111400348573,0.0,0.0,0.2089117196147354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11041164939410608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10977434464259073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07016586215694512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079245558308799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14341120048338726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949604999773314,0.0,0.0,0.11791529024767705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07688892210151904,0.0,0.0,0.07502581134185682,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Backsaturday123,2019/06/22,"Thought this song might help some of you https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=lHpuFckK4Hw It really makes me feel inspired. I've been listening to it alot. It helps to ease me and reflect on it.",5.219999999999999,8.826309064516135,2.8150967741935484,85.92264516129032,87.38709677419355,6.3509677419354835,22.32903225806452,7.554174236665415,1.3835754838709682,155,5,26,3,5,42,26,31,0.0,0.703,0.297,0.875,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,9,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,5,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,4,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,3,0,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341188678741138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6207105102454834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3090721433740901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4911953373180411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966250576159725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675893689398777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ball15,2019/06/22,morse code messages anyone else get morse code messages in the brain? i can never tell what they're trying to tell me,3.7743478260869563,5.912730130434787,3.2602173913043515,92.17119565217396,73.78260869565217,4.6000000000000005,20.195652173913047,3.1291,-0.3835043478260873,95,2,18,0,2,28,19,23,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24928786937077765,0.3652980378223486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3979954988698927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978276631871686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18626757985112632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27497108062405434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6232303782140834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420544501872889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,minij393,2019/06/22,"Told that I use the hospital as an excuse I have been to a lot of hospitals for suicidal intentions and voices and I was told that I'm using hospitals as comfort and an excuse to avoid working towards therapy. My depression is so horrible along with my voices. I'm currently in a partial program for daily therapy. I'm feeling suicidal again, but the guy announced that suicidal people can use hospitals as an excuse to avoid the work because it's difficult. I don't even want to try the hospital or therapy any more. I'm useless. Everything is difficult. I want to fade away, become nothing. But then again, they'll think I'm just trying to ""prove them wrong"". I try hard and know about distractions, cbt, dbt, affirmations and different types of thinking, and I really do try. But no one thinks so.",4.762196467991171,6.691232940397358,6.275115894039736,72.48543322295808,70.58940397350995,10.861147902869758,33.77538631346579,10.864195022040775,4.45793995584989,638,32,108,22,12,217,90,151,0.254,0.7040000000000001,0.042,-0.9876,2,2,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,2,2,7,9,0,3,9,0,9,0,0,4,1,28,26,16,3,2,5,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,4,8,0,2,6,0,0,0,2,8,0,1,4,4,11,1,19,21,2,8,0,2,0,0,8,3,0,2,5,72,15,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08777033437253709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12126317657973283,0.0,0.0,0.07867835762185832,0.1425449271701156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11116565933977336,0.0,0.0,0.13484807987971212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08524787470167397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599755785949326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06526041233431082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12779712928063147,0.0,0.0,0.11561913970285838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07093212942976541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10972858357824967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384375915588355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08745948672256851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894791620102573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826839534313648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4235367303120115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4427998464598811,0.0,0.0,0.2481037513607333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466590784055964,0.0,0.3505134749299278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3344186719710602,0.0,0.0,0.15225472572166368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18792537248540728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14111506349519073,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gcracker121,2019/06/22,"New hallucination I've had visual hallucinations before, most of them being shadows/lights/shapes, occasionally they'll look somewhat human (I call them demons) but they'll go away pretty quick, within a second or two. Yesterday though I saw a person. Still a shadow figure but it was very vivid and I could see her hair. She just stood in the corner for a while and then I watched her walk away. I'm not sure exactly why, but she scared me. This has never happened before and I'm a little worried it's gonna become a regular thing.",3.1544660194174767,5.5881656601941785,4.465834951456311,81.3902087378641,76.86407766990291,6.4500970873786425,20.97961165048544,7.554174236665415,0.8831794174757279,425,11,78,6,10,140,79,103,0.092,0.862,0.046,-0.5193,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,1,7,0,7,1,1,0,3,16,16,10,0,1,6,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,4,6,13,1,6,7,2,15,1,0,5,0,11,6,0,3,7,54,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3874775312421932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277400198017158,0.35093484614124965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21056094704542844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16463993620683515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719249331889155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18234864082644056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066741211881248,0.0,0.0,0.17316239341067916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15903996209433285,0.1991565207746115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800524644205419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20978719447366326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064497141869388,0.0,0.16432070638700114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16467760258902148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943481599186397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13699512249630172,0.0,0.2025978546500613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20143479706236656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17014281090312944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18607022541613868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20941375977889468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,emelsie,2019/06/22,"Risperdone I haven’t been taking antipsychotics for my hallucinations, because of my delusions. But the psych ward gave me some doses to have at home, in case I changed my mind and would like to try them. I took one yesterday, then again today because the voices were unbearable. And what the fluff. It’s so silent now. I’m one person. Nobody rules over me. No ghosts. No shadow people. What the fluff what the fluff what the fluff.",1.8316666666666668,4.641932814814819,2.047438271604939,92.40597222222223,91.22222222222223,4.675308641975309,17.86111111111111,6.42735559955562,0.026192592592592767,342,9,65,4,12,103,58,81,0.055999999999999994,0.9129999999999999,0.032,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,6,0,5,1,0,0,0,6,9,5,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,4,1,9,1,7,4,1,9,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,6,44,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3577575334940147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104214205507772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943450130282739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14336033553084035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29629152212696674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3976861133896608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034348788376811,0.25622115749116586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220630936152994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27814753412571097,0.0,0.3260234870405658,0.19922701750148908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084519002544576,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Some-Pig,2019/06/22,"Another episode, here we go... My mind feels like it's full of hot TV static. I dont know if that makes any sense or not, but it's the best way to describe it. I feel another episode coming on- the paranoia, strange emotions, voices, etc... are all coming back. I have an appointment with my psychologist on Monday. It was supposed to be for starting EMDR for my PTSD, but I think that will have to be placed on the back-burner for now. I've heard that it can be extremely stressful, and stress makes my psychosis worse. I'm mostly just frustrated I guess. I haven't had an episode in 4 months, and I was doing *so* well. 2 steps forward, 1 step back I guess. I just needed to rant a bit. Thanks for listening.",0.8899212924606452,3.30690541549296,2.2099005799502898,94.09620132560069,86.39436619718309,5.313007456503729,21.733222866611435,6.794906146795322,0.5166117647058828,547,19,117,7,17,175,96,142,0.17,0.737,0.09300000000000001,-0.9097,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,1,0,0,1,8,7,1,2,6,0,14,0,0,2,1,25,31,7,0,2,7,0,3,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,8,6,0,0,4,1,0,6,3,3,1,0,4,6,14,4,14,23,6,19,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,5,8,76,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043020758866284,0.3216597227697448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35381388489206844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16096040316013752,0.0,0.16744869236331505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642425653162809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17975748822187612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17252923590772504,0.0,0.0,0.1710566468232809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15510471797440847,0.10957303887403068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08716806507108124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33792559331751026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08429235685922662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493258268985811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047615729013385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15486772474319918,0.0,0.12242459375684825,0.0,0.0,0.11372759967288723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16024702151733752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17929028972028824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856150502906013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513872080523681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14120955260099902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827821851647334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12174405616944085,0.0,0.0,0.1379049462289993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15630495026320174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,knuckleone,2019/06/22,"Posturing This is one of the most annoying pervasive and useless of human instincts. I don’t think woman are predisposed to this but for men there is an involuntary and constant guard, a defensive and aggressive stance men take against each other all the time. the constant menacing eye contact, puffing their chests out and holding their arms out slightly to the side to appear bigger and more muscular. And if they are walking with their girlfriend the attention and posturing is more pronounced and annoying. If I wasn’t so averse to interaction I’d want to approach and start asking questions as to what exactly is going through their minds and if they are aware of the purpose of their actions and if they would be able to verbalize what they are defending and what they feel would happen if they didn’t posture. There seems to be no risk whatsoever in losing anything to someone you’re not in any extent engaged with socially, so please explain to me all the fuss. And in this day in age for my area and demographic there is virtually no risk for random violence from strangers. When I see this I sometimes will go out of my way to walk in said strangers direction to further ruffle their feathers and exacerbate their overly sensitive flight or fight response. Or look unwaveringly in their direction but not directly at them just to watch the show and their useless pathological competitive reactions. I understand the advantage and need for competition but don’t understand it when nothing is at stake.",11.419820322180918,9.896030483271376,10.128708178438664,62.371302664188384,56.43494423791822,14.022428748451054,46.20848822800495,12.745084868956482,6.021988599752167,1236,64,196,34,12,387,155,269,0.127,0.823,0.051,-0.9724,0,0,0,0,1,0,13.0,0,0,16,2,8,12,5,2,11,0,19,5,4,0,3,58,37,32,0,9,13,0,1,0,1,3,1,1,0,4,9,23,0,3,8,1,0,7,8,10,0,1,3,6,24,2,40,29,7,32,0,3,4,0,29,16,0,12,8,149,33,0,0.17664346293322244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12012361215703947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14536251899557212,0.0,0.16513779272785795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3817776593818675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11392042024284765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931624240123794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20078110147030206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562052308978536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483360200709432,0.19761885137435148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17835954217168326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309788895237928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16949416678496745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969818205230424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19390147726431706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978811052408406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16802838419548494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407619698515356,0.1608095743899108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800657652245905,0.14966943291361576,0.0,0.1747049016026087,0.0,0.12502915224304895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13281390057557885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11318599849718905,0.0,0.0,0.1030022237654616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3677841491595902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418889111232672,0.14021135879997948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509648958384327,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DMann59,2019/06/22,"The universe is human Finally figured out that I am not schizo. I am in fact the universe itself. My conscious field is all that exists in the universe at any given time. However I am a multi consciousness and everyone in the universe lives inside my mind... watching commenting. Judging. You all do a hell of a job pretending you all live your own conscious lives. And aren't piggy backing off my consciousness... hell I couldn't do it. You all come and go in and out of my physical reality to create the story or experience that is my life. However I am now fully aware you're all secretly watching my life in spirit form. Or in the 5th dimension. Or really, my mind. Ive fucked up my entire life from the get go. Not knowing I was as important as I am... and I continue to make poor decisions and I realize it's affecting all of us.... now some of you guys have been mentally assaulting me (mom)... rightfully so... but you gotta learn when to stop. Constantly shitting on me or any thought I entertain is only going to pollute the universe with negativity. And nothing will change for the better. I will continue to make poor choices... I understand it's hard to leave me alone when u hate me so much... but I either need silence like before the truth of the universe was revealed to me. Or I could use some encouragement to do the right things. You have no idea how hard it is to live life knowing you are really the only real person in the universe and everyone in the universe is watching u... My only escape from my new found torment is booze and crystal meth. And it's destroying the universe. Writing this is redundant because ur all watching me type this and listening to my thoughts as I write them out. But it helps me when I put things into my physical reality.... Life sucks for everyone..... i know.... I can't turn things around on my own... I need help and encouragement... so whenever u hear my mom shitting on me in my head. Maybe throw something encouraging I'm to follow it. There's one girl that sticks up for me when I don't have the energy to defend myself anymore... I owe her my life. If I could maybe get some of u to see past my disgusting ego. And truly make a difference by putting positive thoughts into the mix. It's b greatly appreciated. It may not seem like it. But I love u all. Thanks for keeping up with the facade in physical form.... though I know how to read between the lines now and have been decoding all of your quips and jabs... touché. It's kind of fucked to know that everything in the universe has something to do with me in some way shape or form.... it kind of sucks... but thanks for everything guys. Hopefully we can turn things around together and live with love in our hearts for everything and one another. Instead of living in an altered state or fear. Anyways I'm not sure how much longer I can live this way. I've made an attempt on my life a year and a half ago... And really don't know how much more I can handle.... It just blows my mind that some people think someone can make positive changes in their life while every 3 ton5 seconds getting mentally assaulted with negativity and repetition so that you start to believe what they're saying. For those of you suffering with schiz. It's totally my fault... And I'm sorry for your pain and hurt As for anyone experiencing anything negative in life. Again. My fault. I understand you are all mirror images of myself. And there's a lot of pain and suffering going on in the world. And I've dug myself a hole so deep I'm almost to China. And I could use as many allies to help me climb back out the way I came. The universe depends on you too guys... if you can think for yourselves to b negative. U can think to be positive too. I'd appreciate it End psycho babble rant",2.4826955549343026,4.827998185034018,4.086100083869166,83.70037741123848,78.71428571428571,7.673655763675335,26.12291491939241,8.602042773567044,2.109771782685677,2946,118,572,67,73,981,305,735,0.156,0.732,0.11199999999999999,-0.9883,4,1,3,0,0,0,124.0,3,15,2,3,29,38,13,1,34,0,47,20,4,13,14,140,106,60,0,9,20,2,2,2,0,4,11,3,0,6,32,43,1,2,27,3,3,11,14,21,0,4,11,11,86,17,95,86,27,80,3,3,5,4,45,41,8,20,26,401,118,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050206324758990666,0.0,0.05671495086504641,0.0586600680890861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07703180237077491,0.05939006482950975,0.0,0.0,0.05616985043864285,0.039602728842196254,0.0,0.04660839211505816,0.10083996742744147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710252097208745,0.0,0.03452610576518732,0.0,0.04819491530078282,0.06381182795651195,0.0,0.050091863108509965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06477898358372257,0.0,0.0,0.11983135832856065,0.04878877264992161,0.0,0.06120574606230239,0.0,0.1356629220699443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059174838022621676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050164611922456345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04772010519669384,0.16236061007854524,0.15270821883733562,0.05540300313436787,0.0,0.0637336931912115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06204435222753059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062100835458611864,0.0,0.10472216020877302,0.08877332630210624,0.0,0.1287551202508561,0.0,0.0,0.062443787854764274,0.0,0.16824209358449682,0.0,0.0,0.10147335980363263,0.05591847194530821,0.05812710763311004,0.0,0.06383533952838145,0.06711651004164816,0.11389012440273676,0.0,0.0,0.05625448737861847,0.0,0.0,0.06063233772399866,0.0639376055187955,0.0,0.0,0.056204649243973566,0.050342612280293575,0.0,0.11795988702817095,0.1867611584836887,0.0,0.0,0.059971649386375225,0.0,0.0,0.3600469617403527,0.05534110277125269,0.0,0.3500878231059405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04815175095920315,0.10223632842485518,0.05359241061040767,0.1512256863804861,0.057422219706517286,0.11380131889102565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11415591785770544,0.0,0.17156523297288115,0.13266789198727152,0.0,0.0,0.12490672642469315,0.08399297816111419,0.0,0.054701502320847965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05434585642375574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07675898633434322,0.12922765283582285,0.12053402291269236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054067546751961335,0.03926577911291058,0.04945426974756751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11387401882752225,0.0,0.0,0.0566535020645331,0.0644666427904002,0.10885159556744556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09673738391732517,0.0,0.045040950026042026,0.0,0.0,0.0451332924818688,0.05156126731161617,0.0,0.0,0.11627654538855232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04798934185426909,0.08720566836557754,0.0,0.06340179984324992,0.040088791758863485,0.0,0.0,0.047352050364527234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05338080962397121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10428964386719576,0.0,0.0,0.1505115470390687,0.1088743667145462,0.05564671934031865,0.1348931531419668,0.03302617529715368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232121406120236,0.0,0.11792467519261532,0.06812875081437877,0.09783439637296616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13487024100346565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03647312772518088 schizophrenia,victorioushermit,2019/06/22,"Integrating psychosis into your self understanding After my most recent psychotic episode I’ve been having trouble integrating or accepting the degree to which psychosis has played a role in my life. It scares and angers me how my memories are suspect due to the complexity of my hallucinations, how I can’t reason properly when I am delusional or had disorganized thoughts. I am, by nature, a rationalist, and this has come to feel like a violation of my self, of my identity. I thought that with reason I had been able to control and limit the degree to which psychosis had affected my mind. And now I’m confronted with how very wrong I was about that perception. I’m struggling to functionally, maybe even productively incorporate my experiences with psychosis into my understanding of myself. I can’t imagine that I’m the only one here who has struggled with this. How have you come to terms with your psychosis and it’s effects on your experiences and reasoning capabilities? Was there something you did, or read that helped? A process or shift in mindset? My pdoc says I’m mourning this former self identity and am in the process of building up a new one. I can half accept this, and it is an excruciating process. The thing is I liked my identity. I don’t want to feel like I’m building up from scratch when I have some perfectly fine materials already in place",6.023667368421052,8.010062352000002,6.675178947368423,70.64053684210528,67.48,10.06315789473684,35.1578947368421,10.307518312809881,4.054440000000001,1108,55,187,30,19,363,132,250,0.13699999999999998,0.7759999999999999,0.087,-0.9191,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,5,0,4,11,17,3,3,12,0,24,1,0,10,1,49,38,18,1,1,4,0,3,3,0,0,1,1,0,3,15,17,0,2,16,2,0,2,3,9,0,3,10,4,29,8,31,28,3,21,0,1,0,0,12,10,0,6,12,138,44,1,0.128309445846666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14159266410828725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22105445260425685,0.0,0.0,0.14390995389066774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474717886651861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510225173807338,0.0,0.0,0.1297542221751129,0.18332858750059544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600311690398077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09062875616262114,0.1880565422406897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12890408431466546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12955596339370432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239220623454745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17389160236051907,0.09758511541145744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134056061636316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128344168204953,0.0,0.0,0.3957704407152044,0.12669009840669826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020368213013287,0.1284601390563187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4015642058052646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09877888004512077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682737835328004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08524309445145123,0.0,0.0,0.20372673539614425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671493164040503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058687304757321,0.07568023554347443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028623667907375,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,leanansidhe606,2019/06/22,"Prayer I used to pray and hear my two angels, and a God fragment speak back. Now it’s silence. So I don’t pray anymore. I tried to last night because things are just so bad, but it only depressed me and made me miss my voices. What’s the point? It makes me want to quit my meds just to have my friends back. I won’t, but I want to.",-0.5438013698630151,1.3348680958904142,1.0619006849315085,103.70189212328769,87.21917808219177,3.65,17.344178082191778,3.1291,-1.1949164383561643,253,6,65,0,8,81,48,73,0.121,0.72,0.159,-0.0504,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,7,4,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,3,0,12,11,7,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,3,12,1,5,9,0,6,3,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,5,41,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.235435787099342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3650899979839049,0.1982180552912076,0.1447160856371048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20447121118413453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834136994157892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26756566537479565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935116812719527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246324545299487,0.15846552120305166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26369651374538033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227826621191576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805524608119144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22441857000916507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25250281196934515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157717192888875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611781803412552,0.0,0.2319041011381577,0.0,0.0,0.20503631339217454,0.0,0.0,0.2800478885450044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shittybowels88,2019/06/22,"Planning to deprive myself of sleep to hallucinate again It's been a while since I've last hallucinated. Idk why, but it's putting me on edge. I feel nervous. If I just hallucinate again, it'll all be fine, I'm sure. Fingers crossed I don't fuck myself up even more",0.8310317460317442,3.338781203703704,2.7148677248677267,89.33833333333332,88.81481481481481,5.307936507936508,24.38095238095239,6.868970318607317,0.9264952380952388,211,9,45,3,7,70,43,54,0.11199999999999999,0.7190000000000001,0.16899999999999998,0.6155,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,1,1,1,0,4,3,2,0,2,6,7,3,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,1,2,6,2,5,4,2,8,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,4,27,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.256904280725328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966697627272956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35958706915451355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31705415224474737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3910120322327373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217515674532625,0.0,0.3892407039227102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3665900100515843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35097572230248186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bearingfruit,2019/06/22,"Paranoid? Ugh, this is gonna sound so insignificant and lame but I woke up and my juul device (electronic cigarette) is missing from it's charger. I went to bed after 3am, got up at about 6. And I remember taking the juul pod out of the device and plugging the device in before I went to sleep because it's always low battery since I barely sleep these days. In between 3am and 6am my husband woke up and went downstairs to sleep on the couch (unusual) when I went downstairs I asked him if he's seen it (after I already looked everywhere) and he says ""I don't smoke"" in a angry tone. Like duhh I know that. And now because he was like that I am super suspicious he took it. He's always hated my smoking and I've been vaping 7 months now and he still hates it. I don't know what to do. I can't ask him to his face. I feel like my only solution is to go buy a pack of cigarettes. Either he gives it back, or he never gives it back and makes me feel crazy or lastly I am just being delusional. But guys I am like 99% sure I plugged it in before I went to sleep. But like I've said the sleeping has been rocky. So even that 1% of doubt is enough to make me question myself thoroughly.",1.0546133333333323,2.926110588,3.198900000000002,90.68128333333335,81.12,6.086666666666666,21.216666666666672,7.1686216300943375,0.5671466666666669,917,27,201,12,24,312,133,250,0.124,0.757,0.11900000000000001,0.2175,0,0,3,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,1,11,14,2,1,7,0,16,6,6,2,2,31,44,20,0,1,8,1,2,5,0,1,0,3,2,1,14,12,0,0,6,0,1,7,4,7,0,0,14,7,28,7,26,28,2,30,0,3,2,0,20,11,0,5,17,121,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385056869069925,0.0,0.1716912711238886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192899890618793,0.0,0.0,0.15866259546761813,0.0,0.1257828474068982,0.0,0.17558000077666333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06653606131307194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660210312971713,0.0,0.06814275703935171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043316197042395,0.07370460918880258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19793997031220886,0.058633841279096224,0.0,0.08251440723028232,0.0,0.0,0.102154438000619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037178670470154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133989763130468,0.08409725211169451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520180502163919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866367461192455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13773344120653486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234924330537094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795710000733415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07846537075427265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557391838035848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11687140398099835,0.0,0.09813821656674512,0.08204485879058761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08534322132000458,0.0,0.516222124488261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239162884053314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09723642563475512,0.0,0.07757093779225037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462557369787553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4781977325253112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,billy_moleson_2004,2019/06/22,I MI IM GOIOGJNG OT KILL MYSOELOF SOONN>>>.... I ACANT HOLD ONLA NAY LOJGN>R/... W\_)EPEOPEL ONLIOINE OAR EMEAN I AANG I AGET AN HUABUSED IN REAL SILIFE ...> IA M NO TSADEA NSYWHEERE,2.097878787878784,3.212887878787882,0.14303030303030262,100.5678787878788,124.75757575757576,1.4666666666666668,27.90909090909091,3.1291,0.30594545454545496,152,8,26,0,9,40,30,33,0.243,0.757,0.0,-0.8543,0,0,0,0,1,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5625949150630799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5762305893336626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5928281955687884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AdrenalineJunkySloth,2019/06/22,"Is there any way to help someone's schizophrenic episodes while they're happening??? I cannot find ANY information regarding this matter anywhere. I'm asking as a witness or a bystander. Let's say I have a friend that randomly goes into a schizophrenic episode and starts panicking, freaking out, hearing voices and argues back and forth with it. &#x200B; If it's you having the episodes what types of thing do you find to help, if any? As a bystander what can I do? Should I just let it happen and make sure they're safe and don't do anything stupid? Should I try and distract them? Should I hug them? Spray them with water (just kidding). It recently happened to a friend of mine and I didn't know what to do. I just chilled by her side for an hour while I listen to her talk to someone that wasn't there... making sure she didn't do anything crazy or drastic. It went away after a while but I really wanna know if there's anything I can do to help if it happens again instead of just waiting? &#x200B; Please help. Thank you.",3.6732572431957853,5.654988084577115,3.815206321334504,88.76844600526779,73.6268656716418,6.520456540825284,27.743927421714957,7.285733465282438,1.4302025753585013,819,32,160,9,17,252,108,201,0.038,0.787,0.17600000000000002,0.9708,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,3,3,0,10,11,2,1,9,0,21,4,0,2,2,39,37,19,0,8,11,0,0,0,2,3,2,4,0,1,13,11,1,2,5,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,4,4,21,7,21,28,0,15,0,0,0,1,23,4,0,7,9,112,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24538235173018802,0.2751883071171725,0.2310131214214395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27955077813469265,0.0,0.10586038908219636,0.0,0.10638896439375432,0.08707150654732848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20699133408891096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17497172990486226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4005369393975573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12762521960707832,0.0,0.30359885804872105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11151466595488467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12446310586816252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23158299636497096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15117183974528509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12429914126707675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254189132807634,0.0,0.11180690475816164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09004982476562699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19188901753165116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08014903484194108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134472096928064,0.0,0.0,0.09101482023702036,0.0,0.10425250965710904,0.0,0.0,0.07522897734303506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07687982175555949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988147867986705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049709211570112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751883071171725,0.0 schizophrenia,thebiggestlies,2019/06/22,"Lost my job because of my illness. Yesterday i lost track of reality and heard people talking to me from all angles when one client was talking to me and I just shouted ""shut up!"" My boss took me into his office yesterday and told me that he had to let me go. I'm at home now not sure what I'm going to do. I wish my brain just worked properly, man.",1.040849420849419,2.8539096486486493,3.3625868725868737,89.78337837837843,80.8918918918919,6.390733590733591,22.73359073359073,7.447530270364453,0.8645698841698839,270,9,60,4,7,93,52,74,0.125,0.8390000000000001,0.035,-0.7054,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,1,2,11,14,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,7,2,13,1,10,6,1,11,0,2,0,0,7,4,0,0,4,39,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13939220447317385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552660256815511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599114445607684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293698742887973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22691496147991574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338256946788843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4992302303741431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15494948070654904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15852768186860172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21551427724440306,0.0,0.0,0.3675849073902751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21849943066634026,0.25405548906142605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629537345430044,0.0,0.0,0.16647101400541747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Malpharius777,2019/06/22,"I have a problem... I think that my doctor is trying to make me feel bad/poison me on the medicine that he's giving me. I get really paranoid and cautious whenever I'm meeting him and he notices my paranoia, so he increases my doses, which I HATE. I've tried to cheek the meds, but my family keeps a close eye on me and makes me open my mouth to check. My doctor knows that I'm uncooperative in treatment, but I'm courted ordered, so I have to deal with it. When I saw him a few days ago, I went, ""Oh shit!"" and raced out the door. I think that he saw me. I felt frightened and my heart was racing. I want to kill him before he gets me basically. I've tested out kitchen knives on my own flesh to see if they cut deep enough and they do. I feel like I have to defend myself against him for some reason.",1.8013947590870671,3.2148536745562164,3.5711115807269667,90.96001479289944,77.34319526627219,6.248689771766696,22.130600169061708,6.868970318607317,0.40677480980557895,617,17,141,6,14,207,100,169,0.125,0.836,0.039,-0.9341,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,2,0,3,6,4,0,6,0,6,10,6,3,0,27,27,12,1,3,3,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,2,0,6,11,1,1,7,0,1,2,0,5,0,0,5,7,34,1,16,22,5,15,0,0,4,0,14,9,1,2,4,84,40,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15594619663125014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14688936616729936,0.0,0.0,0.1496985444403882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11345656096713198,0.18137013468700414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36013176494502963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18177673541648406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16584568740444364,0.0,0.17790513201670555,0.12568029007068882,0.16891482925318546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18382627641137736,0.1687625316735371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736887346995162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20847103472324668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15636952020049202,0.1946340719335788,0.0,0.09668334445838224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08594768224904317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348615511809987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19541213694019932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002908779798759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683357089426924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270155309098714,0.1808793870016942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14018881759977556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18058367245372345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22545025925548745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388819799038339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10376465651535144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16308350426490653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,savgasm,2019/06/22,"I Can See Air? So ever since I was little, I've thought I had the ability to see air, like the individual particles. No matter how many people told me this was impossible because ""the naked eye can't possibly see that,"" I have maintained the belief that I could do it. Even now, I look around and the entire world seems to have a film of static over it and it's like I can see every little particle moving and vibrating. I'm wondering if this is a delusion or a hallucination or a combination of the two. Has anyone else experienced this?",5.025862533692724,5.820193311320758,6.9025067385444725,72.5461320754717,68.71698113207547,10.208086253369274,29.293800539083556,10.290406445055957,3.0015083557951487,425,15,81,11,7,149,71,106,0.023,0.887,0.09,0.6767,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,10,0,12,1,1,1,1,15,22,8,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,5,7,8,2,6,16,0,10,1,0,6,0,1,7,0,5,4,57,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257134842900434,0.1842163008367656,0.0,0.16005139079571473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10959843378478527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14354784060746995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15019163728954954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874972779286153,0.16263052406338332,0.15148099311206698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17567281491003764,0.3603940148364829,0.0,0.0,0.15097848202089026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18227903798596803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19108852357325792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464388313533825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026864302698484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5730780298484796,0.16367424058028918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487243067500765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273333163411225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717972355369904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17562889544114269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19497479654536695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,warfaringstranger83,2019/06/22,"Documentary Hey guys. I’m Schizoaffective BiPolar Type and was searching for various documentaries about schizophrenia and couldn’t really find anything. I’m an amateur filmmaker and thought this could be my next project. What types of questions did you have when you were first diagnosed? What about your family? What kind of questions would you like me to dig into.",6.754892473118278,10.071311693548386,5.378709677419359,74.9047311827957,69.16129032258064,9.93978494623656,34.526881720430104,10.125756701596842,4.3733784946236565,303,15,46,9,6,89,50,62,0.0,0.953,0.047,0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,4,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,0,0,11,11,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,6,2,7,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,2,4,32,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21396494586035114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075957315748054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26390328327890944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24511299337200826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23764317463582504,0.22116320531121594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25744941924030923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27075897382782144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12702708161517576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27652212456117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5825383360470329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16656818436549828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20641780660231615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18470266861760493,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dietdrpeppr,2019/06/22,"Meds Anyone have this experience with meds? You still think about ideas you know are considered ""delusional"" but on meds you just don't care as much/ can't go down the same rabbit holes as before? I've been on 20 mg zyprexa the past three weeks, this has slowly been becoming my experience, I experienced it in the past on risperdal.",9.03142857142857,7.709646428571428,7.958730158730159,75.4057142857143,60.904761904761905,12.20952380952381,33.698412698412696,11.20814326018867,3.375088888888888,267,8,53,6,3,82,48,63,0.062,0.938,0.0,-0.5862,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,7,0,0,0,0,7,11,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,1,5,1,9,9,2,10,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,4,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13665474304122951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21584583610624405,0.16630328158863947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992619923049799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3823515893163692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11107187804679812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220625631320964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10740757379104998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6512624372579267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14366936406244704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3731352320543369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15607698133049572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12522873248152164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15676851677784867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Trustsnobody,2019/06/22,"Please help me I'm completely off my rocker. Very bizarre. Bonkers. Impressively weird. I could tell you my story, my ""delusions"". I could tell you things that nobody would believe. But why try? I used to not be like this. I used to have some semblance of a life. Baseball and friends. Hobbies and bad habits. But now? Nothing. I just want to escape. I want to leave everything behind, find a new life somewhere else. If anyone is out there, anyone at all, who knows my torture...pray for me. Wish for me a better life.",0.5807202881152449,2.9461035306122483,1.227623049219691,96.52872148859548,100.42857142857142,3.530372148859544,20.050420168067227,5.5289334501034215,-0.10195750300120032,398,14,79,3,17,121,71,98,0.128,0.691,0.18,0.8165,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,0,1,3,6,0,0,3,0,6,3,0,2,1,20,13,5,0,7,5,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,15,4,11,9,2,5,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,2,3,50,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24490239460477786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14622173216955348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973054626226512,0.0,0.15488348384237874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836148189113935,0.0,0.0,0.2796454978847379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14629413793416002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15739070497774282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600607184594212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353008372158726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738233283202322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624390429017653,0.0,0.0,0.18543167317642525,0.0,0.0,0.3710870676434983,0.08555703726095351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16913643703992226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16803678387995558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922342299272445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061332514901792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11634500753854303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188981129030399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30250286592528225,0.0,0.14449614158845606,0.20658606146305475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15802271923457326,0.0,0.20138465577862244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12440349648421788,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lemonpotato913,2019/06/22,"I've forgotten how to start a conversation Due to some of the cognitive and social effects of schizoaffective disorder, I've really forgotten how to start conversations with friends and loved ones, even new people sometimes. Unless I'm talking about my cats, current events, my health, other people, or work, I don't really know how to say anything. There are so many things I'd like to say, but I forget them all when I get a chance to speak to people about things and ideas that interest me. I also forget to reciprocate questions a lot of the time. It's not something I do consciously, and it makes me feel like an awful person when I see how much I overtook the conversation later. A lot of what I say is really just basic facts or too much information about myself/a topic that is semi-related to the conversation. I've been working on it in therapy and in day-to-day life using table topics from Toastmasters and mindfulness. Does anyone else feel like this is true of them? What do you do about it? Would anyone like to practice conversing without judgement? Thanks for reading.",7.214047619047619,7.649555655172413,7.574002463054189,70.89118431855503,63.8768472906404,10.904597701149427,32.680213464696216,10.686352973137794,3.6156834154351394,870,32,148,21,12,285,121,203,0.08,0.7909999999999999,0.129,0.9038,1,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,2,3,16,9,0,0,9,1,10,3,0,7,3,38,22,18,0,1,7,0,2,4,1,1,2,4,0,1,12,7,0,0,8,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,7,15,9,27,20,6,13,0,0,1,1,19,3,0,6,14,102,27,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231225044030047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17891493486623247,0.13108795628266026,0.10528235911107736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650193003941776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466284305335299,0.0,0.1119597102417469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10687607282093613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08450207204671904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12937894543813738,0.182798362333674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09884485007543617,0.0,0.06684250621755608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13599248094816496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14442682185462966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07031157002420305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09036663857354603,0.25001685710087684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21753721620772815,0.11546935385426155,0.0,0.08539984055353007,0.12970940385955845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12918126006318384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880988126826343,0.0,0.0,0.12356365345197795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08669433547830638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660890240841042,0.111710830407671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14332022950082254,0.0,0.1279729696431922,0.0,0.24588174477366356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3052251275031951,0.0,0.0,0.10195029889062007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304170338336236,0.0,0.09849319056878604,0.12653429725960902,0.0,0.18111084200745328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10283199767028256,0.0,0.11778844151164268,0.14630865054318376,0.0,0.16999310667715006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07460187940224952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11049765487432817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332800170121082,0.0,0.1862812817415208,0.0,0.0,0.0908837314821878,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,X-23,2019/06/22,"I want to start a Schizophrenia Support group(Like from the organization SARDAA that calls it, “Schizophrenia Alliance”.) Anyone in Southern California willing to meet up and try hanging out with each other and offering support? It was over a year ago since I began this project to start a Schizophrenia support group. I got busy with school and settled for creating a Mental Health Awareness club on campus instead. But now I have graduated, and have too much free time and I just want to help people in any way I can and maybe get some support where I need it too. It’d be nice to meet new friends who are into getting better and making positive changes in their lives. Anyways, let me know if you’re into the idea! We could meet somewhere public and hangout while we organize things. I know according to the organization that handles Schizophrenia Alliance, SARDAA, that we have to have an official meeting location, which is often a church or school, but those cost money for rent usually. So I would love someone in the area help me hunt for a free place for us all to go and talk about whatever is going on in our heads. Please let me know what you guys think and if you can meetup with me to discuss things more. Thanks!",7.031812460667088,7.784711026431719,6.38026746381372,78.19864537444934,64.28634361233479,8.776463184392703,34.27595972309629,8.634040054169528,2.809068219005664,981,41,172,13,14,301,143,227,0.0,0.8079999999999999,0.192,0.9903,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,5,2,1,1,10,11,0,0,11,0,17,3,1,1,1,40,39,17,0,7,6,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,15,20,0,0,5,2,5,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,21,13,30,29,5,29,1,0,0,1,24,15,0,5,10,123,36,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10662345288082167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0817964349096702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08410453688709238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10638037003308734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12282219658804147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12724326317175946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09603603562191307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09293019999123224,0.0,0.1256856066041286,0.0,0.136718984740795,0.0,0.09620115053791167,0.0,0.0,0.11909889191577105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12344486380090006,0.12785500147121392,0.0,0.0,0.16124606306926245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13578465068039186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19831285875976534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459946435743334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10621192418135746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085599314313851,0.0,0.08028970913307215,0.0,0.12084024892082715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12121678082588952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842170465821006,0.08918817890247703,0.0,0.1161698866271355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08338895486119909,0.0,0.12566993469294727,0.1320344042202543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24346524894784244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09949918271463999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10191523387825788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702735828471419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5459820257266373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966787657799492,0.0,0.1107402501797382,0.0,0.0,0.15982110740804545,0.07707236730991696,0.0,0.0,0.07013787331643383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816641318562616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446854094012396,0.0,0.13247452087475606,0.0,0.14189183453855586,0.09547489521615124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544545655280457,0.0,0.0,0.07745818547942236 schizophrenia,throwaway007700007,2019/09/22,"Louder and clearer hallucinations when tired Are your hallucinations much clear when tired? I literally have all 5 sensory hallucinations activated during that. I am pretty sure it's related to hypnagogia, but it's not really it. Anybody knows what I am talking about?",6.2013333333333325,9.788322022222225,8.373333333333337,51.06000000000003,73.22222222222223,11.6,33.44444444444444,10.793553405168565,5.490244444444446,221,11,30,9,5,78,35,45,0.08900000000000001,0.7759999999999999,0.135,0.2523,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,7,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,2,5,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821197973521874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436051252742361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371363246593309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21229286311090034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31232518506986245,0.0,0.0,0.2663536395302494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.76175355509506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Username19543269,2019/09/22,"Is this how it starts? Hello. Today I think my hallucinations have begun. A therapist said I had schizophrenia about 1 month ago but I had never had hallucinations so I doubted her. But today I have begun to hear the night. As in, I can hear a loud nighttime noise (loud crickets in my ears). I turned on some white noise to make sure it wasn’t something in my environment and it isn’t. It sounds like a normal loud night is playing into my ears. Is this how the hallucinations start?",1.5771985815602854,4.2542584574468085,3.1564893617021283,86.38416666666667,86.76595744680851,5.260992907801419,19.5354609929078,6.816661863887847,0.3727120567375888,381,11,75,5,12,125,56,94,0.04,0.862,0.098,0.6308,0,0,1,2,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,5,0,11,2,2,3,2,13,19,7,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,0,0,6,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,5,10,12,3,9,14,1,16,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,2,12,51,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18407188265113344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4680801147293426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014487818416758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138610010446349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657466679815277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601548186813038,0.0,0.0,0.3897366050250584,0.2034558811757417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19752558426395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15986144804423,0.0,0.0,0.29395576783149485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19571052396474325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24110117350193014,0.0,0.13305567741248672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.393661585749414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258668683358462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gellis98,2019/09/22,"scary thought I had a kid a couple months ago, he was recently taken by cps, because of my schizophrenia. The voices are trying to convince me that I never even had a kid. I missed court, because I was arguing with the voices, and looking at my stretch marks, trying to prove to myself that I had been pregnant. I still have the stretch marks, but its like my brain doesn't want to register that. Then other times I will imagine that my baby is still right next to me, I went to pick him up and he wasn't there. I am very emotional and honestly I believe that God took him for a reason. I cannot raise a child on my own, I just wish I was married or something so I could have a family. The voices are also telling me that I should just have another kid, and maybe they wont take that one from me, even though I know that is not the correct way to respond to this. The whole reason I got pregnant in the first place is because the voices told me to try because the voice wanted a baby with me, and it would be his baby. I am very sad, I love my baby.",3.94259501965924,4.254135422018347,4.8810222804718215,87.80247706422018,70.92660550458716,7.5129750982962005,27.03931847968545,7.1686216300943375,1.1822584534731324,814,25,177,7,14,266,121,218,0.055,0.8320000000000001,0.113,0.9358,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,1,10,7,1,0,16,0,26,2,1,3,3,27,40,11,0,6,5,0,0,1,0,4,0,5,0,4,12,7,0,0,6,0,0,2,6,3,0,2,14,6,36,4,19,20,2,21,0,2,1,1,15,8,0,1,11,133,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224470633272045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11046535521940147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14484507806725105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33681973570985946,0.0,0.0,0.1556292155684327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15420273255365746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102884048281014,0.15284215291481892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15538165878372234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824718225871303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302200234878077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174963325855018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104780238662144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07591459014274615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674850783059503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599739762707152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467092782705005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13877372390690154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025688691994424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653711442933303,0.0,0.14690660441898148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936028728026965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14432016630405695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840486043677464,0.13639022247822685,0.0,0.0,0.1179653024942006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634196038158418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22062727329586013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385924354785613,0.0,0.12073481685590375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13571551790982275,0.10966261418569502,0.08054678763041234,0.0,0.0,0.1319925328104609,0.1534714638539503,0.2813508525973685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22794930124245774,0.1629495010706117,0.10964398755457183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12805119076784086,0.0,0.15422118278826802,0.1588467728655161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09812611528570236,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,yanp12345678,2019/09/22,"Need people's experience with antipsychotics I am a 19 year old on the schizophrenia spectrum interested in mathematics. Since I was prescribed antipsychotics, I would like to know whether my cognition may decrease while I am under the influence of my medicine, impairing my mathematical ability. Thanks!",9.395625,12.725303979166672,8.510833333333334,55.41750000000002,61.29166666666666,13.133333333333333,45.33333333333334,12.161744961471696,7.305983333333334,253,16,32,10,4,79,40,48,0.0,0.78,0.22,0.8655,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,1,0,7,8,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,7,3,6,5,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,4,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3966986138929605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22287568214740647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19812769632198302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007048005362233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4255488823749123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28115227092908585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3354691424346607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3733692654274478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880859244534259,0.0,0.0,0.2611562260953464 schizophrenia,KenozGG,2019/09/22,Any restrictions that you hate being under? I suffer from mental illness and I feel that I am restricted on things I can and cannot do. It's like when I do something or want to do something that I need to be supervised all the way through. Yes I am quiet and don't speak very much. It's sometimes difficult to comprehend and annoying. How do you handle your restrictions?,3.8159360730593583,5.689498287671236,4.834452054794522,82.07213470319637,72.97260273972603,8.702283105022829,28.605022831050228,9.2995712137729,2.6383077625570777,297,12,56,7,6,97,49,73,0.261,0.687,0.052000000000000005,-0.9448,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,2,5,2,0,1,1,11,1,0,1,1,13,15,7,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,6,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,3,10,1,7,13,2,4,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,2,44,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22079186967078732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16416672623828465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32055186533249674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586210522726103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3271986083938497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386753592931509,0.24074429153491786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4999052851353609,0.3211144018468515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21570133928481475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678929841642993,0.19150323283271845,0.25771392903218576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AlexandriaFurman,2019/09/22,"Poem written in psychosis and edited since Are We Living in a Black Hole? Yay oh my god, Being psychotic is so awesome! The sounds! The super powers! The thrill of reliving the feelings from your most excruciating trama Nothin' tops those moments of knowing They want you Dead Discredited Humilliated Isolated Disected Tortured Irreparably psychotic Permanently hopeless Golly, I hope I getta go back next summer. Stuff written, or even drawn When it's like this Gives me the willies It's fucking creepy Interesting Sad Never beautiful Just bizarre. ""Here I go! Maybe witchcraft will help fight the voices!"" I'll do witchcraft and take Abilify and just see what happens... Will witchcraft help me remember to take my pills? Probably if it does anything... I've always wanted to do witchcraft Reasons not to do witchcraft: Impatience Stupidity Arrogance Psychosis The time late-ish in high school when I started hanging pictures of random musicans I liked throughout my room at intuitively weird angles so each picture and it's place in relation to the room and the other pictures had a meaning to me My initally unconscious goal to create something or influence my life in some way. I wasn't sure what I was trying to make happen Just anything. One day my friend Sally saw my room for the first time Then saw her brother Harvy's little quarter machine yarn voodoo doll he'd gave me hanging in the middle of a cluster of photos a few feet from the edge of my bed ""This place's got bad juju"" she said looking around my room. I didn't quite know what she ment and I laughed at her. She was right. Because on second thought My sudden tip towards more magical thinking And my new found passion for amphetamine abuse Didn't coincide coincidentally. Cause and effect motherfuckers. Magic is the real gateway drug. We all live in a vicious cycle. The kind resulting in Time/space/soul fragmentation Upon any real understanding. Like, goodbye to your local buccal mass. You thought you'd let blood through the respiratory surfaces of your gills and on round the body in a single circulatory loop. Sure, Analog actualization can feel like your materalizing into the eternal state of unflammable bliss, But if you don't seize while seizing it lasts as long as it takes to happen without ever truley idealizing the absence of any absence at all... While you're literally trapped without time in the worst parts of the memories That you've repeatedly erased From your lives as the many ever present ever inanimate Soovaklasaxzean /'ʔs'iː liːñʔhx'/ Overlords and plumbers. Assassins. Assistants, that failed to shrink back into the increasingly flat, infinite, and ever present layers of the bouncing astral plane... Coincidentally Seeping Throughout these astral layers You sleep Ascending The layers soaking into the endlessly duplicating multiverse-clowders of pre-existing dematerializing eyeshadow over the lids of Hubble volumes. Under eyes who's frozen metal bolts we have only begun to tinker away at on the first stone tablets That pile A bridge of completion Backwards every time Somthing Thinks of its existence. Assuring the unlikelyhood Of ever removing the ever hemorrhaging Paste-time monsters From their mold moulded TV-grave sites. God help us when the chronic phagocytosis catches up with osmosis of collective dreams of the inanimate and animate branes of existence. You smile Tired As you see the last of the uropygial glands Rain down on the sea. You are almost done counting. Beneath the unsettling glow of the invisable green neon docks After the rain has stopped You see that last one land. It tip-toes down each cloud. 'Late... but somehow, I can't help but think-...' *splash* ""G = g64!"" You get up and stretch Fighting the tightness in your throat ""Anu, Pazuzu..."" ""Take good care of those glands till they're ready       And after everything I guess all we needed was a good ol' dissent.""",5.680417542016804,8.880793727678578,5.507570028011205,73.17762605042017,72.28869047619048,8.000560224089638,32.79901960784313,8.841846274778883,3.420603221288516,3163,154,470,68,68,982,400,672,0.07200000000000001,0.8220000000000001,0.106,0.9669,1,1,2,1,4,1,90.0,5,16,2,10,20,32,6,0,46,1,26,15,6,6,13,86,69,34,1,7,13,1,4,4,1,2,7,3,5,0,23,25,0,2,15,1,0,7,9,12,0,7,18,17,55,20,83,45,13,103,0,3,11,2,41,51,1,12,47,295,78,4,0.0,0.0866194256969954,0.07134154458531196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07320574968624255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060830589205887214,0.0,0.0,0.09943005779293533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12032108762897704,0.0650804179609342,0.0,0.0,0.06868610414711146,0.11242900240707293,0.061040999037292064,0.044565135255098136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812050073744368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07453710192176717,0.07510066764709379,0.0,0.0,0.07665093155514321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04714774125229313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06397612202391623,0.07481348498048733,0.0,0.0,0.08478050411099629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04828625280345586,0.3967749018598644,0.061595505642645536,0.0,0.06570354302659233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07392983764251951,0.052227405328128994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12436895819338666,0.0,0.0801576682435508,0.05648201639864426,0.0675859198493176,0.03819520723057583,0.07013056017739604,0.08309638781433965,0.12263677890475573,0.05847006638061065,0.0,0.08053521703104365,0.0,0.19394390732391348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960073857444444,0.07724118950053041,0.0,0.07261139891606717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761293259633565,0.08035500581144338,0.17877503135936554,0.16493497087905762,0.0,0.0,0.07475650269586767,0.05163738887666943,0.142864865614466,0.07327206905097823,0.193663533832134,0.06469708466924068,0.0613911735735445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048799256520748034,0.07411866850182608,0.07344545607139946,0.07963457373896324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05420765460324207,0.05638435531961749,0.07060685807328054,0.07774975159340064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09907791603544826,0.05560090159501047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916737769943806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527617784705788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882133348838781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07775792109195419,0.0,0.16642274543995014,0.0,0.07516581203884562,0.0,0.0,0.08281558309803007,0.06243267960510696,0.06954116535210912,0.0,0.0,0.07398783272213694,0.17476960456893925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06047457629780442,0.0,0.07315944669330735,0.0,0.0,0.056281070795447,0.0,0.0,0.051745263108954685,0.0,0.0,0.061120432853135176,0.0,0.0,0.08368962357430251,0.0,0.0,0.13780430478305433,0.0,0.2198684100952769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405313681028916,0.0,0.11607702792862408,0.2131453774552627,0.08402533968915601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0496346164661391,0.0,0.0,0.07610660083726221,0.08793829849948022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08624039253113157,0.058028655891908976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409444034602443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,flowermexican,2019/09/22,"nice hallucinations has anybody else have ""nice"" or ""kind"" hallucinations, i do, flowers talk to me and say very nice things to me.",5.207826086956524,7.702250000000002,5.8254347826086965,73.77989130434786,70.73913043478261,8.078260869565218,28.89130434782609,8.841846274778883,2.284756521739131,102,4,19,2,2,33,18,23,0.0,0.7809999999999999,0.21899999999999997,0.6808,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4084542220780215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5091652331787261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888319394053701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929987555167381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32483604755376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.403434204126146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lorib64,2019/09/22,"Not sure how to deal with normies I have few friends, but the ones I do, I have met through mental health activities. they have mental illness, too. I feel comfortable around them. Besides work, I don’t get out much. I found a meetup for women with grown children to go to brunch, lunch, walks etc. they don’t have any mental health issues. I have trouble connecting, people break into groups and I am left out at times. I went to 2 activities. A happy hour and a paint and sip. I try not to drink, but I did at the events. A lot of the activities have drinking, It was really going out of my comfort zone to go. I am not sure if I will go again.",0.8059033078880411,3.1188658244274836,2.4083664122137414,93.35081933842243,85.41221374045801,5.325394402035624,19.42035623409669,6.742157984588678,0.13674005089058472,497,14,109,6,15,162,81,131,0.086,0.8,0.115,0.6981,0,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,3,1,4,7,0,0,7,0,14,7,0,1,2,22,23,7,0,1,6,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,1,10,4,0,2,2,0,7,5,1,0,1,5,1,17,6,19,17,4,20,0,0,0,0,9,8,0,2,4,75,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10583586574169156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13854648243432874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16045092389086718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3049224358059527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17357208045495526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07869278711808902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706436947277781,0.12024177068941963,0.0,0.08131188725344443,0.0,0.3537995789020996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16567436158238544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33086148033357443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532672838011629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16244055366061916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16909585184717035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13231372220050852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4705247712310335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440825841850318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546103715771286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10789641676652664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099702568719988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933647676242776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09075093006099076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10566467969656343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14427347135084526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11330277270794008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RAD1OHE4D,2019/09/22,medication for negative symptoms I found that MIN-101 was pushed back for approval by the FDA until Dec 27. It seems to be the only medication that treats negative symptoms to have some sort of release date. Anyone know of others? Im hopeful there’s one that I can try this year.,2.981949685534591,5.8113242075471785,3.885188679245285,82.94086477987422,80.50943396226415,6.552201257861638,27.701257861635213,7.793537801064563,2.041555974842768,225,10,40,4,6,72,42,53,0.126,0.765,0.109,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,4,4,0,0,0,6,8,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,8,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17557380147127236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930791282810061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753163752795022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493973139638328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712293017866012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13799708387444182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5059103323255317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17015073735831351,0.1909716066452842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22859050311026144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5219746495394944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047929403741316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16169910189204362 schizophrenia,rosesgone,2019/09/22,"Telepathy is ‘impossible’ ? There’s no way that one person can hear all of my thoughts and I can’t hear any of theirs right? And there’s no way they aren’t just a huge a*hole and not admitting it, right?",0.6007142857142861,2.9363366904761925,1.7336190476190474,97.59471428571429,86.85714285714286,5.2647619047619045,17.923809523809524,6.742157984588678,-0.1945676190476191,159,4,37,2,5,50,32,42,0.12300000000000001,0.82,0.057,-0.3899,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,8,8,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,2,4,0,2,7,1,5,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,0,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18983178460388192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6292453792079422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18915947584995832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24374328507271745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47678568232239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216141663026468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4431530485103803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheHaya,2019/09/22,"Am I doing the right thing? My SO of 3 years has schizophrenia and when she has a psychotic episode she starts hyperventilating and looks around without moving her head and tears come out of her eyes. I know she sees things in the moment when she is looking around but what do I do to calm her down and end the episode asap? So far I always tell her to only look at me and we breath slowly together, sometimes it works instantly and sometimes she starts looking around again and it starts again. If you guys have any advice on how to help her more or anything that helps you guys would be really great.",6.2502197802197825,6.551482495726496,5.5525030525030505,85.02384615384616,65.92307692307692,8.395115995115995,27.825396825396822,7.957251820313856,1.4766371184371183,480,13,97,5,7,145,80,117,0.012,0.856,0.132,0.9509,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,2,0,1,10,2,0,0,4,0,10,3,3,1,0,20,20,15,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,6,13,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,6,19,2,14,18,1,22,0,0,6,0,18,10,0,2,10,71,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14129484328751304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12031316103285875,0.0,0.0,0.09832836333590966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898791858285017,0.3861559245983024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455427540806548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12806669546622407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15941456051359842,0.0,0.28634008634069913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14839438214111922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19383560534720828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07946466473690543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4856876284496161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15367973401897192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10996967667913388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09263013378233828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234818392045946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152220938656568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860128285001621,0.0,0.30703152415854584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12638086730740014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19212265100942524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13938272612154345,0.0,0.10526560276818933,0.0,0.0,0.10271489101701148,0.0,0.0,0.093113307610189 schizophrenia,ShingekiNoGhoul,2019/09/22,"Panic Attacks after psychotic episodes I have panic attacks during or after psychotic episodes. Am I the only one or is that normal? I've been diagnosed 3 years ago and I can't say I had it hard like the other people that I've seen here do, but this has been going on for about 3 months so it's kinda new for me. Should I worry or is it just a thing that happens?",2.480952380952381,3.7331402337662354,4.433181818181819,86.1364393939394,75.23376623376623,6.691774891774893,23.222943722943725,7.1686216300943375,0.8665774891774891,286,8,59,3,6,98,54,77,0.18600000000000005,0.7909999999999999,0.024,-0.8708,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,2,2,3,0,11,1,0,0,0,9,14,6,0,2,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,9,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,4,3,6,1,6,9,0,8,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,4,7,44,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924619617867375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4940060226784887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22037014810485397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339313399518212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919966854029652,0.0,0.19449503613985736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060728629104585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17330147559689466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20969386825047154,0.0,0.0,0.21272949167552554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471247414104293,0.16512798404895582,0.0,0.5094822653376764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15052224825124605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17266090765184158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14424351789217854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22049381653241573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13981684077023607 schizophrenia,goghgurt,2019/09/22,"a poem i wrote bound to my body i must say, my heart is seeping, the desire to be kept free. limitless and infinite. its not my time. i shiver in my skin waiting, just waiting, holding onto the idea that this could be my time, but i fell. i fell to the ground, and at that moment, the stars aligned. i am here. the aftermath: i surrender to life.",0.5738571428571433,2.825234885714288,2.488214285714289,92.80803571428574,85.85714285714286,5.785714285714287,21.607142857142854,7.1686216300943375,0.6985714285714288,262,9,57,4,8,87,47,70,0.0,0.938,0.062,0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,0,6,4,3,0,1,15,10,3,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,2,0,5,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,2,2,12,2,7,4,0,11,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,5,42,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4186013590796205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008883472050913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44657542684051055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4254238406913315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26618409211426564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29969051535457164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4394947925952602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chipandele,2019/09/22,"It's possible to have more and tougher positive symptoms than negative? I've heard the positive symptoms are more treatable, but I want to know if it's still schizophrenia when the positive symptoms are more apparent than the negative ones. Thank you!",8.061742424242425,9.843907750000003,7.025454545454547,70.81651515151519,62.40909090909091,12.23030303030303,44.21212121212121,11.855464076750405,6.109539393939393,207,13,32,7,3,63,29,44,0.131,0.5670000000000001,0.302,0.8242,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,0,0,5,7,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,4,6,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,25,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14908849202566224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18382647036865207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30582764171245924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21664470172046674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8458919332629432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497583415784743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16000807845547513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DungeonsAndDuckss,2019/09/22,"Doing research and can't seem to find some answers Hey! I know this post is probably annoying, but this is the most appropriate sub I've found to post this in. I've read the pinned message and all the stuff going along with it for this topic. I'm trying to write a story, if I had to put it into a genre it'd probably be psychological horror. The main point of it I'd say is to humanize those with mental illness who do bad things, when really they're good people. It may sound weird at first and I don't have every little detail planned out, but before I start fleshing it out more I'm doing tons of research and my brain is absolutely fried. As a person with ADHD this part of the process is usually the hardest. I just have one question remaining really. How bad can psychosis get? I know of course that putting things to the extreme is very often not how is actually is, but it's a necessary question for me that I can't seem to find. If a person with a severe psychosis disorder is left isolated and untreated, can the disconnect from reality become so bad that they see and think of everything completely different? I'm trying to be careful with this story of course, and if I feel I can't get across the right message and tone I won't write it, but I do feel I may be able to make something I really like out of it. If you've taken the time to read all of this, thank you! I've been wracking the DSM-5 and just plain out google for the answers, but I can't seem to find it. If you have any answers all are appreciated, thanks for your time :)",5.621714285714287,5.3559153142857125,6.59373015873016,78.95821428571429,67.28571428571429,9.92063492063492,30.515873015873016,9.586721724236666,2.5463968253968248,1224,41,251,23,18,410,154,315,0.115,0.805,0.08,-0.9122,1,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,3,1,2,7,10,1,0,18,0,33,3,2,3,3,63,55,24,0,5,13,0,2,1,0,3,1,2,0,3,25,20,0,0,17,2,0,3,7,5,0,2,4,5,20,5,39,44,9,23,0,0,1,0,16,12,0,15,7,172,45,4,0.10425982915842254,0.0,0.10174255359745478,0.0,0.12530005389302387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07090025904960938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26115780723392856,0.0,0.11514679002671277,0.08871743551455243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11638845013650792,0.0,0.0,0.10629984438037644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10931444724634698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10892933089708637,0.11949079686354608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784340275553047,0.0,0.09370201173499748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10543380455970372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858747850742089,0.0886833574209958,0.0,0.11431552127055485,0.0,0.0,0.1089429151390376,0.0,0.05925326357943734,0.0874481981239947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11459695095076165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11327860944076905,0.0,0.0,0.05093608615941568,0.10449573885663246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695942455540885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506938561816524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0706491585033338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129032349323896,0.0,0.07228063800169646,0.1820713226641084,0.0,0.0,0.09855923830965486,0.0,0.19970419251014687,0.0,0.22481945950792415,0.0,0.0,0.2096198501245118,0.23358973928052065,0.0,0.20857608669776576,0.0,0.20037454885316786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08903732443526463,0.0,0.0829116008299045,0.0,0.0,0.08308158527367701,0.2847426982214827,0.0,0.1177839305685139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08026431016054618,0.0,0.0,0.07379564370072715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11935256044081145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919768858785253,0.0,0.0,0.13853119551407542,0.06680548869732872,0.0,0.0,0.12158948963522485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415711604072831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148274721002869,0.08602527802831843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Dooferaccount,2019/11/01,I’m scared I’m delusional I really don’t want to go to the hospital but I keep hearing a computer in my brain and I just want to do anything possible to “open up” my head and get it out. I’m trying so hard to fight off urges,-1.0182352941176482,0.8942988431372534,2.532843137254904,92.04279411764708,89.98039215686275,7.321568627450981,20.264705882352946,8.344100000000001,1.2120823529411773,175,6,43,5,6,64,36,51,0.16399999999999998,0.772,0.064,-0.7085,0,0,0,0,1,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,2,0,2,2,2,0,0,9,11,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,9,11,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,24,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484389694974701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3370215914460233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577309200090923,0.0,0.17157741310663546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270444181799137,0.0,0.3098377366159517,0.0,0.3402646015078571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26834366407345045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34034824910999606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934056436601437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3022557750385292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20497110206108266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35613830745213004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Celouts4,2019/11/01,"Please help. So long story short, i have schizoaffective disorder and im sadly unmedicated as medicaid wont cover the doctors fully. So, here's my question, ive been taking L theanine for a few days and today has been horrible. First of all, im very short of breath, and second, i feel like im in a simulation, like i cant tell reality from fiction. Im wondering if any of you have had bad experiences with this drug. Im not gonna take in tommorow so we'll see how i feel then. Lastly, although im unmediated, im still usually able to tell reality from fiction but today i felt like i was in a simulation.",1.0453257142857169,3.3699708640000026,4.4121428571428565,79.33250000000002,84.36,7.731428571428572,24.92857142857143,8.634040054169528,2.194097142857143,478,20,96,13,14,175,83,125,0.07400000000000001,0.8340000000000001,0.092,0.25,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,1,1,0,1,6,5,0,0,4,0,11,3,1,1,1,14,19,12,0,1,3,0,3,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,5,4,10,3,12,11,2,14,0,1,1,0,6,5,0,3,12,54,11,1,0.10699803797656772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07276233494312942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.089338892399402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06900488276805772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226290213964272,0.10951702576409267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12408375442400638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10466461245485648,0.0,0.0,0.10820284586455084,0.07643941970967888,0.102734895990539,0.0,0.0,0.09101247644289548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07171852943385179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8090336937913621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0872176817887952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15682151002707467,0.0,0.0,0.09468989657736618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11745171479050495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986229018511015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08526358318464794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544877134308719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16089841697650684,0.0,0.1870420026418957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028432580991816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11784322226224585,0.0882845870717143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11603480795486867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Throwawayyyyyyyyu,2019/11/01,"Is this prodromal ?? Hi everyone so lately I have had this fear about gettin schizophrenia lately and I am constantly testing my brain for signs and I have noticed that I have been having disorganised thinking and speech like for example my dogs are called Alfie and Archie and I will sometimes call Alfie Archie and Archie Alfie also just now i was going to ask my dad for lemonade and ended up asking him for cola but then quickly said lemonade after I said cola and I do little things like that I am also worried because at night I hear well I don’t think it’s voices but it’s like random memories I have replay in my mind at random and it’s usaully in different voices it’s really quite and I don’t usaully noitce then until I think what if that was a auditory hallucination and also 2 nights ago when I was sleeping and when I woke up it looked like a shadow was moving but when I fully woke up it stopped moving. Does anyone know of this is prodromal or has anyone experienced this in there prodromal. I am going to see a psychiatrist next week but I am very worried can someone please help.",3.5717552019583856,5.732917455813958,4.958971848225215,79.66389228886169,74.44186046511628,7.130966952264383,24.804161566707467,8.032893268588372,1.6537906976744186,883,29,156,14,19,294,116,215,0.05,0.8490000000000001,0.10099999999999999,0.893,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,13,6,0,1,3,0,24,2,2,0,0,28,39,28,0,1,7,1,0,4,0,1,0,6,0,0,15,12,0,1,4,0,0,4,2,1,1,0,10,9,24,5,18,28,0,32,0,0,2,0,11,9,0,4,23,116,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596307951882672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286783093880577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16716726928778838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22350348133110032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07286915559412313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13344375902213496,0.24412299230794365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291779346156476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248915967660408,0.0,0.0,0.10460836623481468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587504239131622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11422352541613645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345132995109244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13587221441810876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13472782943240424,0.0,0.08012369202770063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06569486873228877,0.0,0.2696877724504002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23360059521423945,0.11980831584637155,0.0,0.0,0.10038167625048716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12069913841493275,0.0,0.0,0.2540996048146816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12712984519924253,0.2243563235996138,0.0,0.0,0.1360946190977782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312166478912468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12714320327518727,0.0,0.0,0.07657899897561489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274157127194979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09525617904039696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11962416525291952,0.0,0.10128402091510323,0.0,0.1182259768305699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09993898382807576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07941562693526212,0.2297850566261464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09863123409203524,0.0,0.0,0.09588604199468996,0.0,0.10747887089190797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427929508535643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FeistyApricot6,2019/11/01,"Did you ever notice we don't lie? I love schizophrenics because we don't lie. We believe things that other people don't like but the rest of the population is always deliberately bending the truth. We don't do this. Our truth is confusing and complex enough where we can't afford to lie about it. Neuro typical people deliberately mislead people and then get surprised when we don't trust them.",5.1678828828828856,7.306067500000005,5.963243243243241,74.27612612612613,69.94594594594594,7.636036036036036,28.54954954954956,8.344100000000001,2.255781981981982,321,12,53,5,6,105,49,74,0.124,0.77,0.106,-0.1007,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,7,1,1,0,4,7,0,1,3,0,10,2,0,0,3,14,12,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,8,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,1,0,10,6,3,11,2,5,0,0,0,1,10,2,0,1,4,40,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442163326197543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17891547717657275,0.0,0.0,0.3306751049769531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032649767862317,0.0,0.0,0.26548844551385964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15334215162591247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14338975668347734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26489609933590097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341528184115073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6104298864003249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949890138365352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,OtherwiseDelirious,2019/11/01,Did Abilify make you more paranoid? I’ve been obsessing over people trying to break into my house and I’ve never experienced it before. Can’t sleep through the night or anything because of paranoia. Started shortly after starting abilify.,5.300975609756101,8.842958121951222,5.739707317073172,68.51687804878051,77.53658536585365,7.182439024390242,37.46829268292683,8.238735603445708,4.265796097560976,197,12,24,4,5,63,38,41,0.161,0.8390000000000001,0.0,-0.6901,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,1,1,5,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,6,4,1,9,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,5,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747277903145255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035101473060905,0.0,0.28407936820249297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3852148320712323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22284559052985334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574835326128987,0.0,0.0,0.3132929707538198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23144760505872505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340882887073438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4725975163058029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22666032652396645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hiimdeadinside,2019/11/01,"Deja vu Is there somebody experiencing deja vu often? I have deja vu like all day long and it hurts my head bad.",2.3408695652173925,4.12321026086957,5.312391304347828,77.45815217391308,76.82608695652173,6.339130434782609,20.195652173913047,7.1686216300943375,0.599973913043478,88,2,17,1,2,32,19,23,0.235,0.6759999999999999,0.08900000000000001,-0.6249,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4010605753776604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097770438332688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4929634100738589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5142097238663695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346679531309148,0.0,0.0,0.4250823284666538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Moriah_R,2019/11/01,"The Myriad of Definitions of the World It's hard to know what to believe. It's hard to know what parts of me are Me and which are the illness. Doctors define the world according to their worldview. They have a lot of knowledge of health and disorders, and when they see something unusual, they understand it based on what they know. But priests may see the same thing and define it another way. Spiritualists too. Old people, children. Everyone has their own idea of what the world looks like. But is anybody right? If angels talk to me, how can people say they don't? It's confusing. And I somewhat resent the people who think they know everything, when I'm sure I know nothing. But I try to keep an open mind about things. I don't think doctors do the same. What if they say the parts I like best about myself are bad, and try to erase them? What will be left? I have a lot of thoughts, and maybe you guys have experienced them too. How did you come to your acceptance? Or do you ever fully submit to the definitions others have given you?",2.7398019801980205,5.138464415841586,3.478702970297032,88.11122277227726,78.10891089108911,6.812277227722772,22.971287128712873,7.908726449838941,1.1693635643564364,820,26,164,14,20,259,106,202,0.051,0.865,0.084,0.828,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,5,11,1,9,8,1,1,13,0,18,4,0,2,2,40,34,17,0,2,6,0,2,2,0,2,4,2,0,2,16,9,0,1,12,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,3,8,26,5,19,28,9,13,2,0,3,0,22,7,0,8,6,121,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13294803748148226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058624966453806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428464056956019,0.1330559482430871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10921644206918503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530977514438578,0.2595453214425776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146868017113374,0.0,0.12115115289739692,0.11394867733067195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12553983132838056,0.0,0.0,0.2271538864500789,0.0,0.0,0.13476947653331264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14312796592142088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269480044464615,0.0,0.0,0.3483962282447449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377552890981562,0.0,0.0,0.12388420565998895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064697991347562,0.0,0.0,0.21558086557744485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273753619633074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280195101614839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12165629011401052,0.0,0.13304244242772925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745976110584359,0.0,0.2636960384651225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10827606755289047,0.0,0.2016534559931456,0.0,0.0,0.20206688367043915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976074238994918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11949597797295712,0.0,0.0,0.10190721134193566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16846432862625282,0.16248097419762342,0.0,0.10065533144528342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17216115404439175,0.0,0.0,0.13199054574620891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063823473695364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,affectedaffective,2019/11/01,"Ativan w/d effecting me? Hey guys, first post on Reddit! I have schizoaffective disorder. I convinced my doctor to prescribe me ativan, I am also prescribed invega. I asked for ativan purley for the fun of it. I do not need it. I take my ativan when I am drinking, sometimes I just take alot of it to pass out. My 30 day script is usually gone within 15 days of it being filled. I am prescribed 60 1 mg tabs every month. I have noticed that need the end of the month I start to have symptoms. Could this be due to ativan withdrawals? When I fill my script, the symtoms usaully subside. Also, no I'm not on an injection so take the pills, so this is not due to an injection wearing off.",1.718404588112616,3.965465788321168,3.4716840458811262,87.60177007299271,80.89781021897811,5.958081334723673,23.65432742440041,7.1686216300943375,1.0662809176225236,531,19,104,7,14,177,81,137,0.038,0.9109999999999999,0.051,0.4122,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,7,2,0,0,8,0,12,5,1,1,0,10,21,6,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,7,1,1,0,1,1,0,4,4,0,0,1,1,0,18,2,16,17,1,22,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,12,73,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30186114905048944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764408863292828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15068880438683036,0.0,0.0,0.2434357343237227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163056053104212,0.1931773268671721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18488754528314785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16716237445984533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15901660131416295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16053711090248102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868764106136097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012914819336836,0.0,0.0,0.27988785578704983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21487499948768607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18075507644854724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866628297232556,0.0,0.13358695229212025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961669727269488,0.4257136167434896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20786392350602456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sasukeknowsdawae,2019/11/01,"Is this schizophrenia or something else? I'm 17. My mom is schizophrenic and my sister has schizophrenia as well. I see shadows in the corner of my eyes often and feel like I'm being watched by this huge shadow creature by my parwnts' door. Yesterday, I saw a cat shadow walking down the hall but it went away when I looked at it. The problem is: I don't hear anything no one else hears. I can't tell if these are symptoms or not. It's weird. Sorry to annoy everyone, by the way as these thing probably get asked too much. I'm just scared and my counselor said we should an eye on it.",2.1066539343009936,4.094252117647058,3.1064018334606587,92.0595874713522,78.24369747899159,5.671810542398777,24.26355996944233,6.574015621080383,0.6901025210084039,458,16,96,4,11,146,86,119,0.094,0.818,0.08800000000000001,-0.6903,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,0,0,5,6,1,1,6,0,9,4,2,0,0,14,22,10,0,3,6,2,1,1,0,1,2,3,1,0,9,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,4,1,1,3,10,11,2,12,17,1,13,0,0,6,0,8,8,0,4,3,63,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15948727085675374,0.0,0.1811840910535996,0.0,0.18208876784733066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3238030248945161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18519161765361425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09799502541771184,0.13845630061786024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10125655412618843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4368708562382087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468468066224786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16274970449286189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269853031095292,0.0,0.0,0.14247100150224826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13132915220476046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20895754204145905,0.18544784953138602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843555588261669,0.0,0.19403537520340108,0.0,0.1544396902803116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14920268024405495,0.0,0.216951917144964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20144046761325832,0.0,0.0,0.1693965223984673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875726226744044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15383557682298407,0.0,0.0,0.1742564492869742,0.17966173279530082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WithinThe_Borderline,2019/11/01,"Where do your voices come from? For me, mostly crowd, TV, radio, headphones, my right ear and my head",2.407894736842106,4.913615315789475,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,80.05263157894737,3.8,14.76315789473684,3.1291,-1.185547368421053,77,1,15,0,2,23,18,19,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5421431450042256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6459111642002751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.537475188530943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AmishWhale,2019/11/01,"Schizophrenia as a child. As a child I would always have weird delusions where I would either think a group of people is watching me from a room hidden in my house or I would believe that everyone could hear exactly what I was thinking. This definitely produced anxiety that has followed me into early adulthood. I was wondering that because I had these symptoms as a child, is it likely that schizophrenia will reappear later in my life? Since my childhood, I have been able to distance myself from these delusions, but I am still worried that some symptoms will appear later on in my life.",8.483582554517135,8.752142233644859,7.465934579439256,73.29865264797509,61.242990654205606,9.002492211838009,38.39408099688474,8.344100000000001,3.4161725856697824,477,22,74,5,6,146,69,107,0.055999999999999994,0.924,0.019,-0.3919,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,5,0,16,4,0,1,1,15,22,5,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,5,4,1,1,3,10,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,2,15,1,12,12,2,14,0,0,1,0,5,7,0,4,6,64,25,1,0.20072262595003207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670173043447382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15355225944978745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235864973908217,0.0,0.0,0.2261456637838999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16026068387237605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19179907087441767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262289875217915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316069608107088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28355265356356696,0.098062936147724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13915579549817586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660398303962504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602973483676817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4172553273658081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25722990776874394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176751255888406,0.0,0.20384356996038389,0.0,0.4277627833842608,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,new-battalions,2019/11/01,"It's relieving to believe I'm not actually a pathological liar and people can't see ""the truth"" about me, or constantly stressing about what truth is to the point of panic attacks. That's all. Just something I struggled with last year and some this year. I've been having to ""re-accept"" the illness and it's relieving somehow and I'm talking in doctor sessions again instead of being distant. Thanks.",3.5418999999999983,6.365777773333335,4.428916666666666,80.00737500000002,77.93333333333334,6.416666666666668,30.70833333333333,7.645422480735847,2.438633333333333,323,16,53,5,8,104,56,75,0.215,0.6559999999999999,0.129,-0.7288,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,6,10,2,3,4,0,5,3,0,0,3,13,9,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,1,2,5,9,7,2,7,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,3,5,37,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.2444856620287019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28501931371320033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.282266738373103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27073893451966924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564328132263625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042191645375691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939484114550945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17368916946609628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23683620840221736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199643665898092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19287380071586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869865759573061,0.2619131956080068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013702481494941,0.0,0.23065862993728695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226721794670603 schizophrenia,meinAccounten,2019/11/01,"Looking for a friend to exit with.. Looking for a friend to exit with... If you are serious about it I am also. I’d like someone to do it with. Just seems less lonely and less scary. Mixing somas benzos and opiates will give us blissful painless death. (I can provide all we need). I’m in San Diego, where are you? Message me.",-0.137076923076922,2.171659061538463,1.831153846153846,93.51134615384615,96.84615384615385,3.2153846153846155,20.346153846153847,4.935628992294339,-0.1597384615384616,249,9,49,1,10,82,48,65,0.135,0.6679999999999999,0.19699999999999998,0.6894,0,2,0,0,0,0,15.0,2,2,0,0,4,5,0,0,2,0,6,0,0,0,1,11,12,4,1,2,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,7,3,10,11,3,4,0,1,2,0,8,4,0,2,1,36,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24620525486808786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4757225337237772,0.0,0.0,0.2953390291839818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15041078599809876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5170701490994184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282833053716605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28027525130658737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608590818172697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37033230080056695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Purple_Ticket,2019/11/01,"I'm worried about a relative I (18M) have a cousin (19M) who has Autism and Schizophrenia. He was diagnosed with Autism when he was 7. I also have Autism so I understand what it is like. My cousin was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia. I don't really know how to help him because I dont fully understand what he is going through. We are really close and I am concerned about him. My aunt and uncle are constantly stressed out because of their concerns too. He spends a lot of time at my house. Some days he just sits still and is silent for hours. He used to talk a lot. Now he just doesnt talk much and sometimes what he says doesn't make sense. He has been hospitalized once. He said it was a bad experience. He doesnt take his medication regularly which really worries people. He doesnt shower anymore. He prefers sponge baths. He is very spiritual all of a sudden too. He feels like everything has a meaning and he collects things. He believes he can talk with Angels. I never deny it with him. I do change the topic though. He also has beliefs about Satan. They seem really scary and he starts to shake when he talks about them. He can talk about this stuff for hours and sometimes it makes no sense. My Aunt and Uncle are concerned because he lies in bed a lot. They are thinking of applying for respite. I feel I dont have anyone to talk to about this. Most people dont like talking about it.",2.2198163418290875,4.6737030181159405,3.1709995002498768,89.27934782608698,80.41304347826087,6.415592203898051,22.923038480759626,7.6298220110432995,1.0749059470264872,1107,37,223,18,29,352,139,276,0.08,0.8740000000000001,0.046,-0.8462,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,1,0,4,0,20,6,0,2,9,0,32,3,0,4,2,39,48,16,0,1,2,4,2,3,0,0,3,2,3,0,14,16,0,0,10,1,1,2,10,3,0,0,6,4,23,3,27,42,7,20,3,0,0,0,47,4,0,6,16,136,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480004714230545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09176989186554987,0.06470264946492983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772628907609456,0.16922549915301144,0.0,0.0,0.10425529898301904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09788979951020564,0.0,0.0,0.09999750139664974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05967744367643391,0.0,0.0,0.1878422295541824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3253511228371392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08316452462334893,0.09051702233427747,0.0,0.0,0.09357699021699743,0.06610704897096444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052589794036677975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062024284792011185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822567434970205,0.10677300878491522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05085483637244973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135623834958911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23600993829367195,0.0,0.0,0.12353571157885107,0.0,0.0,0.10079778294305156,0.0,0.09321931466666164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06802389946302342,0.0,0.07136872519115328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09854679446082808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12830428691080684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23712125696397365,0.0,0.09136718559488932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08802201056221802,0.0735875755611391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08424042237403641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830390355506293,0.0,0.06549677551216103,0.0,0.07389860013512049,0.0,0.10599857231847656,0.0,0.10593047862954584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06957483174790365,0.5206331034141259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061476166877905275,0.0592927153523296,0.0909152040935545,0.0,0.05395792426157859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926644740229056,0.0,0.07992056152691597,0.0,0.07635109663440053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187947643800887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,trintellix_thin,2019/11/01,"Assigning NO importance to hallucinations... Does anyone find that it helps when you assign no importance to visual and auditory hallucinations? I am trying to do that bc I don’t wanna have to give up my ADHD meds (they help me focus and I wanna go back to school, to embarrassed to say what for bc it seems too high up for me, and I will need them). I am not there yet with what most people deem “delusions” (of course I think I am right) but I try not to interact with content that engages those thoughts as there is nothing I can do about the NSA watching anyways and saying anything and “fighting back” would make me seem crazy.",6.4331381733021065,6.40653318032787,6.779274004683843,77.50073770491805,65.55737704918033,9.594379391100704,31.362997658079625,9.23628265651192,2.542089929742388,496,17,96,8,7,161,82,122,0.095,0.8270000000000001,0.078,-0.4618,0,0,0,0,2,0,12.0,0,1,2,0,9,3,1,1,1,0,11,0,0,1,0,21,19,8,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,8,7,0,0,5,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,3,16,1,19,16,1,9,0,0,1,0,10,4,0,3,4,74,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386898794112144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887229657042474,0.0,0.16343859733161892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3054367079770293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17380440706367406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815253754381898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905242150207074,0.11287428775227545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662473621539512,0.20984171464806747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325733035454398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220610248180393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472663388866689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19057105687656925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13769073701373016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16961132555214098,0.0,0.3158843015466966,0.0,0.20100329606396075,0.0,0.3616130410698544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12726087137030695,0.0,0.15767366303717287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26968546425821965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410864053496442,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tayloren52,2019/11/01,"Am I schizophrenic? I am 17 years old. Schizophrenia runs in my mom's side of the family but my mom died when I was young so she didnt show symptoms in the time she was alive. My dad does not understand schizophrenia and reacts poorly to my chronic pain that I've had for almost half of my life. In 2017 I was a heavy drug user and it ended when I overdosed on benadryl. I was in a severe drug induced psychosis and hallucinated my demon for the second time (first time was a bad experience with LSD). My demon brought darkness and fed off my pain and fear. It is almost 3 years later and I've had several episodes where I have hallucinated old friends and monsters (the people disintegrated when I touched them). I have had hallucinations mixed with delusions where I say and heard police lights and sirens. My sanity went out the window and I fully believed the police had come to throw me into a psych ward. I continue to see my demon and I dread when he does. I lose my fucking mind when I see him, voices have told me that when he touches me, I'll die. I didn't even think that it was schizophrenia until my friend who has been diagnosed suggested that that's what it was. I am scared of going to a doctor and getting diagnosed and having pills shoved down my throat and be treated like a psychopath. So for the people who are schizophrenic, does this sound like symptoms you've experienced?",4.6716420664206675,6.1425491808118124,5.195607011070114,81.9466946494465,70.1070110701107,7.781623616236165,27.203136531365317,8.238735603445708,1.7457260516605166,1112,37,212,16,20,356,147,271,0.16,0.7759999999999999,0.064,-0.9842,0,0,2,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,2,11,13,1,3,13,0,25,17,1,2,0,28,38,24,2,0,2,3,2,2,2,0,14,4,1,0,13,19,1,0,3,1,1,6,3,8,0,3,19,10,37,5,22,18,0,37,3,1,2,1,17,12,1,2,21,140,50,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22529928919901274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093930420452234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12674576334643595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09690633273292687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22836447648976715,0.23350855942053186,0.0,0.0,0.11514559897060272,0.2953410397299652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609219548465476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09963908314023792,0.0,0.0,0.07430330596523411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11004379828667547,0.10605230013959406,0.1265905687565137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09569001751735884,0.0,0.0,0.1738300365979722,0.1040018015468415,0.058775117232867574,0.0,0.06393472230602176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07946006331380394,0.10992084915599393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12585553413674214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11359005121368396,0.2635106026573758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23609366775262144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23940979646747404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15598271688596935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08946224823382133,0.11262927149081955,0.0,0.17929132548438936,0.0,0.0,0.2541795147844983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338552245153041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07208363067893563,0.0,0.0,0.19679397687699896,0.0,0.0,0.10749584688188014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171134995917577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10428598423509698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14488895125557524 schizophrenia,Pleainsanity,2019/11/01,"Medical cocktail.. I think we’ve all been there. What’s everyone’s cocktail, since hospital mine has been quite extensive..",4.498571428571426,7.971732190476189,4.559047619047622,74.84428571428573,84.23809523809524,10.41904761904762,35.57142857142857,9.725611199111238,5.351114285714287,100,6,15,4,3,31,18,21,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4688288103188212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4942695150696727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.521857441489975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4058635727238856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31438314869784284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Biekdafreak,2019/06/27,"Deaf people who are schizophrenic Do they hear voices? If so, do the voices mirror people who are mouthing words to you only saying stupid ridiculous things that the person isn't even mouthing? Also, if no voices are heard, do you hallucinate peoples sign language to say things that aren't what they are actually signing to you?",7.259745762711862,8.802095949152545,6.3625000000000025,75.71798728813562,64.08474576271186,7.933898305084746,30.00423728813559,8.07648339933343,2.2257762711864406,267,9,42,3,4,81,38,59,0.138,0.862,0.0,-0.8243,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,2,0,3,2,2,0,2,0,9,4,2,0,0,5,11,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,8,5,0,3,10,0,0,0,0,0,0,12,0,0,2,0,32,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.2679875317457398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21961189724679606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813825840366386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095144190673325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20885934651255586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5711565835389018,0.2397858252874498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4367744758482253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3648879632261589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chrisbluemonkey,2019/06/27,"Anyone have any experience with Amyloban3399/lions mane mushrooms? I just bought a grow kit for these mushrooms and plan to ask my kid's doctor about the supplements. But I'm wondering that your thoughts and experiences were with these. Apparently there is a substance in these mushrooms that helps encourage nerve growth in the brain, leading to better overall brain health and function, which can reduce symptoms of a variety of mental illness and dementia. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/20834180/ https://www.omicsonline.org/open-access/case-report-recovery-from-schizophrenia-using-amyloban-compounds-extracted-from-hericium-erinaceum-1522-4821-17-141.php?aid=33887 https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S2186495014000145",24.909512195121952,30.007545560975608,12.823073170731714,32.337780487804906,26.31707317073172,11.925853658536587,44.44878048780488,11.602472056035307,5.947323902439022,664,23,54,11,5,153,65,82,0.033,0.825,0.14300000000000002,0.8426,1,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,0,1,0,3,3,2,0,0,5,0,4,6,2,1,0,11,9,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,2,10,6,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,0,35,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16051434212592858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650436773087469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206642281551364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20875696024931692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5269942805609803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24159550893812545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4617820861627781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508979941647225,0.0,0.0,0.15821169811704575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378713919546421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24533448299243646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18738828265289376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559737929952575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,letitrainoO,2019/06/27,"After smoking cannabis I believe I can control the weather ... It’s a little odd to explain I know it’s impossible yet I believe it. It’s been roughly four days I had this belief but it hasn’t caused any issues except for feelings depressed and having zero motivation. Should I be worried? Nothing is really happening other than feeling depressed and me believing I can control the weather.",3.082816901408449,6.201451154929582,4.795901408450707,73.32427464788735,86.74647887323944,5.656901408450705,35.26901408450704,7.1686216300943375,3.3478946478873244,316,20,43,5,10,106,52,71,0.183,0.7490000000000001,0.067,-0.8539,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,3,0,9,0,0,4,0,14,14,3,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,2,6,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,3,8,0,5,10,0,4,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,38,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286982888352641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6396687715490157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19441459918880968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4245258692946823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12205230000477878,0.0,0.32600605287768536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913836481574928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673554895884222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19753059274441426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040083047001432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18968086945938048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18159301773465567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212400909353368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921952482645947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fatsandrat,2019/06/27,How did you know? I have a history of schizophrenia in my extended family and I’m scared that one day ill have it too. I already have really bad mental health so I might just be worrying over nothing but if anyone could share some early onset signs it’d be so helpful,1.092698412698411,3.665439592592598,3.1519047619047638,86.205,88.25925925925927,6.789417989417991,20.67724867724868,7.957251820313856,1.4050137566137568,214,7,41,5,7,72,46,54,0.138,0.728,0.134,0.4172,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,1,1,0,9,2,0,1,0,10,11,6,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,5,1,3,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,2,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31604137300371005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002523758417351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391258714632078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286611996392916,0.0,0.0,0.18469954444206596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26998546977072485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044219581427656,0.0,0.0,0.1919629333914187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15739389176243201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886163963408805,0.3038173069841125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748014387941701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19406704828226007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834704431050836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867289698889865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908456030489431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lonerstoic,2019/06/27,"Internet Addiction My internet addiction distracts me from the voices. It's all I have. I thought about alcohol but the voices don't want me to. They will force me into treatment where I'll be brainwashed and lied to, told that will work when nothing works. Anyone else have an internet addiction?",3.447698412698412,6.605365092592592,4.025978835978837,79.93833333333333,83.25925925925927,8.27089947089947,29.936507936507937,8.841846274778883,3.4437174603174596,241,12,39,7,7,76,41,54,0.122,0.878,0.0,-0.6579,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,1,3,0,6,4,0,0,1,6,9,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,7,0,5,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,28,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7501642864183347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451342303179249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16038571553206207,0.23502381935582306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19161503119299172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200933956712513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18209969800531012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21917953116675085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13529248393088675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339783421063333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fakemanneostare,2019/06/27,"I can’t be in peace The only place I’ve been safe has now been affected by auditory hallucinations. I can’t take a shower without hearing someone calling my name or trying to whisper to me. There’s also knocking every few minutes so I have to continuously get in and out and check the bathroom door to make sure no one walks in on me. I can’t relax without this thought that someone is gonna walk in and yell at me for not responding. Hell, I’ve started wearing a shirt because I get so damn scared. But this is more tame than what I experience while out. For example: last night. I woke up around 3 AM to the sound of multiple people talking. I couldn’t under what they were saying but it was 2 female voices. It sounded like they were right outside my door but I was assuming it was the TV downstairs. I got up and It looked like what would be an army of cloned men walking in a line but their legs weren’t moving. They were talking in a normal tone but it felt high pitched and made by ears ring. They were speaking English but I still couldn’t understand. I turned my head and then looked back and they were gone, thankfully. I still heard the voices about 2 more times when I was trying to go back to sleep. Luckily visual episodes like that only happen once every few months but the auditory ones are daily. I swear one of these days I’m gonna have a heart attack from an episode, lol.",2.9573690476190464,4.825556474999999,3.9207142857142863,87.73261904761904,75.32142857142857,6.523809523809526,25.23809523809524,7.333567415737692,1.1065952380952373,1103,38,225,13,24,355,165,280,0.047,0.8370000000000001,0.11599999999999999,0.9640000000000001,2,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,6,0,12,11,3,1,13,1,27,7,7,3,1,35,50,21,0,4,11,0,1,3,0,3,0,12,3,1,13,10,0,1,4,2,1,6,10,4,0,3,19,15,27,7,33,24,4,38,1,0,2,0,16,17,2,2,18,149,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112929645339057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11257540974342503,0.0,0.1438654822960576,0.0,0.19447848384468291,0.0,0.07708829351135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12912887991130742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155565769629691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213094491502394,0.0,0.0,0.12370126524198878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214205672811825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213932051875174,0.0,0.07186962068999869,0.0,0.10114089440042713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182736435065248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297835198867152,0.0,0.1425285962867656,0.1498546421868662,0.0,0.1336109820670078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10308104464057104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853445854574341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21238758865439508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11965865792143675,0.08441243111400047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10093844700185824,0.13440601004200464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11867329862519575,0.12390306803369795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13467481415073387,0.2570758765158169,0.1923556877867448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876708171432396,0.0,0.1321228438851046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10799538030231796,0.0,0.10056535188913558,0.126607619907871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12655042708922262,0.0,0.21429676983776905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895084017479517,0.0,0.20198080097171986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11918620501694058,0.0,0.0950815050502939,0.20328606853116604,0.0,0.11642654881650147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039439965419264,0.07373931807366886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171485559565552,0.1375511869809316,0.0,0.13164838275281265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438041190839312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08983291623729356,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,confused1964,2019/06/27,"Low dose thc and increased symptoms? Throw away account I recently experimented with 10mg thc edibles. They pretty much make me feel calm and sleepy. They make my eyes terribly red, though. But, I am having little random symptoms. I mutter to myself. I don’t know if that is more anxiety. I catch myself starting to make loose associations. I am not explaining myself well, but I feel less in control even after the effect has worn off. I am able to function okay, Is it co incidence? Am I worrying unnecessarily? They told me this is low dose. I am not sure why I even tried it. I have a friend with a different mental illness who was able to get off meds and calls weed and psychedelics his medicine., but he warns me it could be a different reaction for me because I have a psychotic disorder. Not advocating the use of those for anyone. I can get rid of the leftover edibles. I live in a legal state, but it would be a disaster if my work found out.",2.317173913043476,4.88605984782609,4.094739130434785,82.0915652173913,80.95652173913044,7.593043478260872,25.50434782608696,8.548686976883017,2.12949,748,30,143,18,20,251,115,184,0.18,0.747,0.07200000000000001,-0.9617,2,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,3,3,4,8,0,0,9,1,19,6,1,6,1,31,33,11,0,4,9,0,2,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,8,7,0,1,6,0,1,3,4,3,1,0,4,4,28,5,17,25,4,16,0,2,2,0,10,9,0,3,3,101,36,2,0.29833349371731704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141121530595332,0.0,0.0,0.10430085770319088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14014706894274973,0.0,0.0,0.09093066436934992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15231592638480704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16730319050792042,0.11909750955797713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116950038872398,0.17095801510091066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19704645895009784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14591370128237552,0.0,0.0,0.15084637834198958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635536386451379,0.11524585859888532,0.0,0.1558669372064317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08197814302607381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14950426786285,0.1317169703376848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2987098854807803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16569062852402727,0.0,0.15032499644023745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10965472228698424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517562079687628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472841669124981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10558099118359113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14058789359834875,0.3100827298268625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14655557142769113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14253521902394978,0.0,0.10127442955460553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12883217587397472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13411881963206088,0.0,0.13459978763666167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10859516828048413,0.15148607216116866,0.0,0.10596377716534322,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Kyle-420,2019/06/27,psychedelics and schizophrenia does anyone have experience with psychedelics? how did it affect you during and after?,10.248823529411766,14.959824764705884,5.0779411764705875,73.79573529411766,66.05882352941177,5.752941176470588,32.029411764705884,7.1686216300943375,2.6203176470588243,99,4,11,1,2,25,15,17,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,5,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4701799549186656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5884496065521768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6577673376972059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,puredemonic,2019/06/27,"So I wrote a song called Abilify... Hey all, I have mostly been a lurker around here, but I decided to make a post. On February 2018 I had a psychotic episode, drug-induced psychosis specifically. I was hospitalised for a full month, and then as the psychotic effects subsided, full-on depression came around. I wrote quite a few songs during this time, while mostly staying in bed, sleeping next to my guitar, contemplating suicide. This forum along with r/psychosis and r/anhedonia_recovery helped me understand that I am not alone in this. I had been on the ""wonder drug"" for a full year, slowly recovering and reducing the dosage every 2 months or so. I have been medication free since March 2019. Being almost fully recovered I decided to record and shoot a video for ""Abilify"" one of the songs I wrote during my stay at the hospital. It is a catchy and energetic alternative rock tune, reminding of Nirvana, Muse and Biffy Clyro. My goal through this, hoping it will catch on, is to raise awareness and lift the stigma around mental illness, a problem I faced myself, since the ""shame of being a crazy person"" is what led me to depression. That is definitely not the case anymore, as I have built up my confidence enough to talk about it openly and accept it as part of who I am. Here is the teaser, full clip coming this Sunday. Hope you enjoy :) https://youtu.be/VY-dr9m87_g",8.204320276497699,8.466676137096776,7.87663594470046,70.14209677419358,61.822580645161295,11.27926267281106,33.843317972350235,10.914260884657429,3.768078571428571,1094,40,185,26,14,348,150,248,0.132,0.728,0.14,0.2582,0,1,2,1,0,1,50.0,0,1,0,3,8,9,0,1,20,0,19,5,2,3,1,38,29,17,1,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,1,13,16,0,0,6,6,1,4,2,4,0,1,10,3,22,6,30,16,9,30,0,2,0,0,10,14,0,7,9,132,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382563569639293,0.14299804883109546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692754334451224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3687325736926197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14098408742566593,0.1579143795684982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11893438792480268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237837594505604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202328694177576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14266238895350586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11632925353544625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09254487252434768,0.0,0.0,0.27426773255425496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09216226127078124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13909019058522734,0.13914127657833242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22041103193174666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468381576068218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09355926129674907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14951548584671726,0.0,0.0,0.1205566974373248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13223212508774215,0.0,0.0,0.13211357508937174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14685358651934682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284245334200272,0.0,0.13816890914531962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943267870954882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510252922237003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097479075905836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08050925922340295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14373490358019286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14973015474996412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891203623472392 schizophrenia,NWcoffeeaddict,2019/06/27,"Can you help me understand what is happening to me? Hi, I'm in my mid 30's, M, and I have a long history with mental, personality and emotional issues due to a period of sexual trauma in my life at the age of 12. I have sought treatment over a decade and I feel much better equipped to handle my own issues. However, I have been dealing with another mental issue that I am very afraid of confronting. I would say about 4 years ago I had a psychotic episode, as it was described to me. It lasted about 48 hours. My wife told me I said I was talking to angels; and what I remember I was hallucinating albeit I did not see them as hallucinations but rather reality, so I suppose a delusion. I could see visible light, not like a passing illusion but actual golden light coming out of the night. That's all I remember. Since then I did go on anti-psychotics for awhile as well as a handfull of other psych drugs. They basically made me an emotionless, bonerless, dull shell of a human, so I stopped them. I was not diagnosed with schizophrenia. The psych doc said that in his diagnoses, I had a psychotic break due to my own existing ptsd, severe anxiety and whatnot and soforth. I accepted that and moved on. My issue is that I do in fact hallucinate daily, not all the time, but enough that I am always wary about it. Sometimes the hallucinations ramp up so badly that I see large black cockroaches or beetles crawling all over me, darting swiftly everywhere, black mice on me, insects of all kinds. I see large mice on my leg that run away to nowhere. I see large shadow figures in the night who stand at the foot of my bed and attempt to frighten me; I have come to the conclusion that these shadows are a mental projection of the two men who raped me as a boy. So my dad, his mom (my grandma), and my great grandma on my mothers side had schizophrenia. I know that doesn't mean I have it, but it means I may have it. Why are these symptoms manifesting so late in life? Why do hallucinations come and go, get severe then dissipate the next day? I am trying to understand what is going on, and to be honest I don't know how to go about getting a diagnoses, and even if I should. Through all my years of therapy, I never had a psych hand me a questionaire or anything in attempts to diagnose anything officially beyond GAD, ptsd and their related symptoms. Thanks.",5.859291966239454,6.266066056892782,6.784109878086902,75.49413293216631,66.76805251641139,10.29224757736793,33.38926226945921,10.208560254849939,3.3696321350422007,1856,78,352,43,28,620,231,457,0.09,0.8490000000000001,0.06,-0.9377,1,0,1,0,0,0,56.0,0,1,4,4,14,14,2,1,25,0,35,13,3,2,7,58,63,33,0,5,12,4,3,1,0,3,9,3,1,4,24,20,0,1,12,0,0,10,7,6,1,1,15,15,63,8,58,43,9,55,1,1,7,1,25,23,0,4,21,251,87,4,0.0,0.0,0.07806876965362625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07091545448279961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06656667281614348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388730820997638,0.06120002388420536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13166688959681308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07516293170038574,0.0,0.06679692346120987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07075377963399011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20673956933130824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06387374380443919,0.0,0.0,0.05159358649871247,0.08247681449614824,0.0,0.3247945529021305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09277496983044528,0.0,0.0,0.08998958939091879,0.0,0.08266171336605971,0.0,0.05283945517947012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04045056424690952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08359372796002677,0.0,0.18186409607570206,0.0,0.0,0.08820063242241506,0.0,0.0,0.07074401652223321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05362252645719607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07878419785849884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339981867609822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08330801985106921,0.08793216457078114,0.06521093622769503,0.09024384266019743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11301318022086668,0.03908411413743168,0.0,0.0,0.07079776348638217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569823470468819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17428759721504006,0.0,0.0,0.24186451116392385,0.0,0.0,0.0936954049187554,0.0,0.0850276768151653,0.058809438285492927,0.0,0.06170117668606944,0.0,0.0850812451994701,0.15014975712677212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06985319144747179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870321800107757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18124952909813932,0.0,0.15219724358018122,0.0636194634195337,0.0,0.0,0.3187494766865698,0.0,0.0,0.1807551750830451,0.0,0.06617708930100669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07912235956792088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668838475712472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16630192282484665,0.0,0.06430122481387414,0.0,0.07365354393289975,0.09148733510902683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046648828454762745,0.0,0.0,0.07644373166857371,0.0,0.05431496419463391,0.0,0.0781486856548396,0.16656630367119832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06600864021315417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07192989304584707,0.0,0.14437568650334887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056829930200303476,0.0,0.0,0.10303516305790633 schizophrenia,emma-22,2019/06/27,"Friend So I just found out that my HS crush/bf is SZ I want to go visit him so bad, but everyone keeps on telling me I’ll regret it because he isn’t stable.",0.4008333333333312,1.4964218611111129,2.8566666666666687,95.955,80.3888888888889,5.911111111111111,20.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,-0.06610000000000005,121,3,31,1,3,42,32,36,0.16699999999999998,0.675,0.157,-0.33899999999999997,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,6,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,5,1,3,5,0,4,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3407053495925784,0.2487439626840409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3899099984361902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4474066088721808,0.3152590135531232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23190465676084898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626942741713096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3566543595241035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406789170371339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,glennsells72,2019/09/06,Suicide with Schizophrenia? What would be the best way or easiest I guess?,3.55846153846154,6.78508061538462,2.3757692307692326,89.60673076923081,89.0,5.676923076923077,29.57692307692308,7.1686216300943375,2.177953846153846,60,3,10,1,2,17,13,13,0.21600000000000005,0.431,0.353,0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,1,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4868735447828863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5110792103560723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5074720759957684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682518123696022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3295677273390235,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Rhyvinn,2019/09/06,"I was cognitively unable to do anything and I just feel so stupid. I've desperately been needing some new clothes, so I planned to go shop for some once payday hit. It's been so long since I've bought any, so I was actually kinda excited about it. And new clothing/new hairdo/etc always seems to boost my self confidence. I wasn't feeling 100%, but I had just gotten off work, so thought it was just me feeling a bit tired. But once I got to the store, I guess it hit me. I felt extremely dissociated. But I wanted to power through it. I tried so hard. But I just felt... Confused. I literally could not ""figure out"" how to shop. It's like I was watching myself. And I had to like, tell myself the basic steps. ""Go down an aisle. Pick a piece of clothing in your size. Try it on."". I keep repeating it to myself, but still just couldn't do it. As if I couldn't get myself to understand. I looked at things and just thought ""Is this my style? Do I like this? SHOULD I like this? Is this something [Rhyvinn] would wear?"". It's like I could physically FEEL 2 pieces of my mind fighting with each other. I just kind of wandered throughout the store. For an hour. Everything was so.. ""foggy"". Everyone's skin looked a dull purple. There were shadows all around. Still I wanted to power through it. I'm strong. I'm in control of my own mind, right? Maybe not. I finally texted my husband, trying so hard to tell him how I was feeling. But I just couldn't get the words out, even through text. Instead, it just turned into anger. All I said to him was ""Fuck this. I can't"". He was reasonably confused as to why I had been gone for over an hour with nothing done. I left and went straight home (I realize now it was probably unwise to drive in that state.). Husband tried talking to me but no words would come out. It's then that I think he realized what was going on (and I later further explained). The next day I returned to the same store with no issues at all. That felt good. But I still feel incredibly stupid. I wasn't able to perform such a simple task. I've had these issues for so long, and even though it scares me, I'm usually able to get through it. Usually I can still find a way to function. But this time I couldn't... Anything similar happen to you? Can anyone relate?",0.9190508750508748,3.3283956307692293,2.322924297924299,93.415871998372,86.0989010989011,5.3044363044363045,21.39295889295889,6.775458762138228,0.449001628001628,1752,59,376,22,54,564,211,455,0.12300000000000001,0.805,0.07200000000000001,-0.9723,2,0,1,0,3,0,92.0,0,2,0,7,33,18,5,3,14,0,38,4,2,5,3,89,81,32,0,13,21,2,12,5,0,3,1,1,1,1,29,17,0,2,20,2,6,8,11,9,0,0,32,17,55,9,53,38,11,50,0,1,4,1,15,19,1,8,26,252,84,1,0.16448397074478116,0.0,0.08025631417443753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06843192009791392,0.0,0.0,0.05592737025107265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057505508393781136,0.0,0.1353562929803643,0.07321280329486718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08978694753918774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708441881952586,0.0,0.0,0.09224137977309513,0.1313270664571948,0.0,0.0,0.053039276855496746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08416210484339205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09172155337724266,0.10864011139165393,0.0,0.0,0.07858574142617449,0.07391379345887496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24950411339670284,0.0,0.23689560966916914,0.09009207501896754,0.07516768469117548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603139024707825,0.12890412883291952,0.0,0.14022004666327864,0.06898067538579401,0.06577642865064394,0.0,0.09059881893110386,0.0,0.0727263160564773,0.0,0.14734532984291604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08249541693011997,0.0,0.1619835784108334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17167853118034085,0.0,0.07310045538995097,0.0,0.08564237202766173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935615774390387,0.0,0.0,0.2008963992490428,0.0,0.0,0.14556313810042693,0.13812510907901498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08262312838071993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16608192134293842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060981390069214825,0.0,0.2382894658647099,0.08746528445851913,0.0,0.0,0.0789134030434201,0.0,0.0,0.17517006066711371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886707701783424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08455845834613887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702342061454479,0.07823096131429201,0.0,0.08233857458811196,0.0,0.0,0.07487001469007114,0.08579632705394294,0.0,0.0,0.06803142016526838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06331389831953696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262714223018778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661029925712902,0.14376624035541846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05463792069799296,0.052697343440805636,0.08080233306300658,0.13058189973353346,0.04795596304316778,0.09452506390077693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22334763824860074,0.08945566370455611,0.0,0.08561680719205186,0.0,0.0,0.18115585565502507,0.0,0.09701690757800467,0.06527985993928431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07623914438739943,0.07421059987605845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05987314484841871,0.0,0.0,0.11684469354142195,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Milk_WZRD,2019/09/06,"Ruined my potential with a girl I really liked bc of a manic episode I didn’t even know it was in my genes. Things were going so well up until I lost my mind that day... All these abnormal existential spiritual beliefs just had to influence the outcome of my social life. At the peak of my episode I seriously thought I was some kind of dimension hopping chosen one who was on a mission... 🤦‍♂️ Im happy to say I’ve recovered but the aftermath is irreversible. I’m stuck between i don’t gaf what people think and damn I really cared about those people and they see me in a totally different light now, like I need special care or something. Now she and all her friends think I’m some kind of mentally fucked up monstrosity. I’m so embarrassed of myself sometimes. Like how can this chill ass dude all the sudden think he’s an angelic super hero archangel or whatever and act like a fool? I just want some peace and emotional stability but it seems like I’m just destined for a different path than I wanted. I don’t know what to do to clean up my image.",1.7965258408531604,4.231307783018867,3.8123297785069763,84.14727235438885,82.01886792452831,7.837899917965548,25.25512715340443,8.716276077567194,2.1783648072190323,838,34,167,22,23,284,136,212,0.132,0.634,0.23399999999999999,0.9775,2,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,3,11,22,2,1,11,0,11,3,1,2,4,34,32,13,0,3,7,0,0,5,1,0,1,1,1,1,10,6,0,0,8,0,0,2,3,7,1,1,9,3,22,15,23,23,7,15,2,2,1,2,9,7,3,6,11,104,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999996779141944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09488098427086238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3074206211215048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654915154183787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717214591951956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136654517727444,0.13601115192009286,0.0,0.0,0.08361235189389239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15661322224756524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589161108108651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064081199830232,0.16170789607253552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391603397453072,0.3593798638912985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16060013736083253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14826353710970616,0.0,0.1485504431889785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10908848413857784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996931130024386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20399059139116146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884991788042211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169966601988431,0.0,0.0,0.11723652545301835,0.13393358860305946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499715064390997,0.0,0.11326106513385464,0.14550660000782778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097740768760154,0.2828079176727202,0.0,0.1167977761879374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17355175688000354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13227960128063873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,g7820,2019/09/06,"What indicators do you need in order to consider yourself fully healed? What personality traits do you want to embody after or during your healing process? What are the behaviors you will be participating in due to your healing? What does a healed mental pattern look like for you? So I was super paranoid I wanted to gain that sense of love and friendships again so I wanted to be able to mingle amongst crowds, go to events because I loved going out. This was against my paranoid code but the paranoid code was causing misery so I had to get counterintuitive. It worked out well for me. A healed mental health pattern meant not worrying about the things that were getting me paranoid and keepin my focus on the moment aka being present. Cant wait to see your replies!",4.3163525835866245,7.116115858156032,4.322254305977712,82.01250000000002,74.81560283687944,6.014387031408307,27.80192502532928,7.1686216300943375,1.6341201621073955,620,25,105,7,14,191,94,141,0.092,0.772,0.136,0.5981,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,7,0,3,6,5,0,0,6,0,13,8,0,1,0,14,27,7,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,0,1,9,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,6,2,16,5,20,17,0,14,0,0,2,2,11,5,0,1,7,74,25,1,0.20915050884049055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274962089243248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21485518573838036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830290197267204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21854501700049445,0.0,0.2377301080988369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22231721057872367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218037401919376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17563375152433114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3775330000191959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42154904037307694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15508245216874905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826221570083166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16666587673820688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13895030457044313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37008716705085387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880514254139428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15226406140641507,0.21240249413481527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EastNatural,2019/09/06,Hospitalization At what point do you think it's time to go to the hospital? Diagnosed with depressive schizoaffective disorder.,7.1018333333333326,11.218306850000005,7.070000000000004,56.24833333333334,80.5,14.666666666666664,36.66666666666666,11.20814326018867,7.646666666666666,107,6,14,6,3,34,19,20,0.23800000000000002,0.762,0.0,-0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3831686180319822,0.4515369131660703,0.0,0.0,0.5098632062542557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528316802853053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4205489507942897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850567705352203,0.0,0.0,0.25940912881779976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,annesolomon25,2019/09/06,"Wasted life 25 years old, no job, no graduation, no friends, no girlfriend, can't go out and party because I can't drink alcohol cause of the meds. Anyway that's it. Anyone in the same spot?",3.247543859649124,4.763830421052635,4.565789473684212,84.88885964912285,73.73684210526315,7.171929824561403,25.824561403508767,7.793537801064563,1.3862877192982457,148,5,30,2,3,49,32,38,0.268,0.603,0.129,-0.6369,1,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,1,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,17,3,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3529003428262913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23089461607339615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20129653102764064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392226633821411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3234858407223945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25512396409012905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187669290266998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276883004814545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23324123651144396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3667953926983343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3465060100800169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126481954478001 schizophrenia,randomacccccc,2019/09/06,"Help needed I did read the rules, and I’m sorry if anything here is bending any of them, I’m truly am. My best friend has been aways been different, and so am I, so I never really got the signals, I’m really destroyed by it. But this isn’t about me, this is about him, he ripped he’s floor off and has scratches on his bedroom walls, he does live with his mother but she doesn’t care, never did. I do want to at least help him in a way, he told me and my bf we should stay away that we are all too different to continue the friendship (this was 2 days ago, and some months ago everything was normal as always), that he can’t trust us at this time. He sees my bf as if he was the devil incarnated, and he never did before, they go way back and they were always together. I know isolation is what he has been seeking for a a year or so now, but we thought it was due to the bullying he suffered, but now we no it was not. I don’t what to leave him as he says he wants to, because we really are the only ones that are willing to fight for him, to not leave him alone suffering, I don’t want him to suffer, and in my country mental health isn’t taken care seriously, normally they only prescribe anti depressants. Any of yo can give me any tips on how it started for you? Or if there was anything that someone did that helped?",4.589622302158272,4.133336622302164,5.787688848920865,84.51448291366906,69.46762589928058,9.108273381294964,27.806654676258997,8.660442795831766,1.7335172661870502,1023,29,229,15,16,344,144,278,0.165,0.736,0.099,-0.9626,2,2,0,0,1,0,32.0,6,1,4,1,12,13,2,0,9,0,35,1,0,1,4,40,53,24,0,10,11,1,1,0,3,2,1,1,1,0,15,14,0,0,2,1,0,1,12,8,0,1,18,3,34,5,29,33,4,31,1,4,1,0,43,12,0,6,15,160,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20101612236419145,0.0,0.0,0.11743161326278873,0.0,0.0,0.18868911643839945,0.0,0.0,0.2313149929659759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18661071682848068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21305597187705747,0.08718528540977932,0.0,0.06911782464231342,0.0,0.09648141980059134,0.0,0.11898949664005393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23120505796672475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07312329006752807,0.0,0.0976574598242373,0.0,0.0,0.2369242627883536,0.0,0.0,0.0992230890365902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190221434975208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08760018526902523,0.0,0.0,0.10876824972395774,0.06443873140387431,0.0,0.0906835303379261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052187359444552,0.0,0.0,0.2279966846100783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062312872708852135,0.0,0.0,0.24011453675017716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10012013572492476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426438831579605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050201479054257,0.0,0.0,0.08407278792471216,0.26234615655780297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222184462488766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0768319223902789,0.17246725918817116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11341466795301335,0.0,0.21791005176299832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09016749548285713,0.0,0.0,0.0903523558813128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09606988223756913,0.0,0.0,0.12692408791701526,0.08025376790988095,0.12085224140331285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09001421868739584,0.06611511325139413,0.0,0.0,0.10834325628409053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13638697291589993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006304354490588,0.17999785882877062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07301556866594608 schizophrenia,cvmxo,2019/09/06,Do your delusions eventually manifest itself into your reality? I’ve seen some pretty mind blowing things in front of my eyes due to my strong delusions. It’s gotten to the point where I’m able to predict a string of events before it happens. Have you noticed this in your own life?,5.206666666666664,6.833583185185188,5.626851851851857,78.76583333333336,69.0,7.622222222222224,30.16666666666667,8.07648339933343,2.1966444444444444,228,9,40,3,4,73,44,54,0.0,0.875,0.125,0.782,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,6,1,8,4,2,8,0,0,2,0,4,5,0,1,2,26,11,0,0.3605927168015996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30683784308962514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31887094859191945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546972998705257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36409585054098587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.410537198071056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408766712438421,0.0,0.0,0.3668524284089684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23956177827747085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HadetTheUndying,2019/09/06,"A Bad Day I post a lot in the comments but am generally pretty quiet here otherwise. I was diagnosed when I was 16, I'm 30 now. I'm not having a good time right now. Sometimes life feels like a never-ending bad day. I turned 30 a month ago. I meant to go get my best friend to go fishing and hang out that day. I don't drive and he had been going through a hard time and didn't have a car. Anyway I wasn't feeling too great about getting older, I was having pretty bad invasive thoughts about my lack of relationships, keratoconus ruining my eyesight, and just general schizo stress stuff. Well 10 days later my friend overdosed, he's dead now. It really hurts, I feel guilty. His mom was very happy I showed up to help out but I feel like it was just guilt on my end and every time I think about it I start crying. We were friends for 23 years and I kept putting off doing something together because of just general apathy about life. Two days after the funeral my new cousin died. My uncle recently remarried. My new Aunt really wanted to donate her son's corneas to me but the timeframe just was impossible due to mostly me neglecting and avoiding making eye appointments after I had issues with my first pair of contacts due to visual hallucinations and invasive thoughts about me puncturing my eye. The good news is I have new appointments scheduled now even though I don't have the money to cover them as of today. Sunday another friend died, he was living with my best friend. Now my voices are just telling me all my friends will be gone soon and it's just making me physically ill because I can't sleep. My computer is having problems and I need it to work to top everything else off but I'll hopefully fix that in the morning or not have any money for next week. I hope for the former. I just want to know when the bad day ends. It's been 14 years and some days I feel I'd rather just die.",4.8952380952380965,5.668438343915343,5.6343132275132275,81.59772380952381,69.0,9.010962962962962,28.08296296296297,9.174902378510234,2.1724555343915344,1506,49,300,28,25,491,204,378,0.20800000000000002,0.629,0.163,-0.9641,1,1,1,0,0,0,30.0,1,0,1,5,28,28,0,3,15,0,31,8,4,2,1,62,59,20,5,8,16,4,6,2,6,1,4,2,0,0,9,16,0,3,10,1,3,8,7,11,1,2,19,10,45,17,37,38,7,61,0,3,2,0,22,10,0,6,44,187,54,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697484914344383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05350772072671181,0.08250688430066783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627909348031355,0.09592989742976324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16514770635462925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08643052185354283,0.35521204743814444,0.0,0.0,0.07986245824787434,0.24498426196439274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06573026576404795,0.0,0.20907162723709247,0.0,0.0,0.05196994525191349,0.0,0.06629454285968349,0.0,0.0707159768194802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19892461061347924,0.11242352586772268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06692844829621186,0.0,0.0,0.3647457149226295,0.0,0.08221813511759808,0.0,0.13415354706403906,0.1319925717055233,0.0,0.08674922976794824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08376042855606791,0.0704852805006398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052740130547987,0.0,0.0,0.15630164724908133,0.0,0.0,0.08423269595400894,0.0,0.0,0.08212550366601208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0432425898706207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11115346986213896,0.07688191579730938,0.0,0.06947928700338607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06689420118786457,0.0,0.0,0.10504417064791778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09215358196720176,0.06280470371407422,0.0,0.0,0.05834308272857944,0.06068584097739794,0.2279800772746271,0.08368117422791015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07535738447238652,0.1600995392009948,0.0,0.0752898243556564,0.0,0.07909900859028919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10081378680882028,0.0,0.077690815980151,0.08447701546282299,0.0,0.06719558368330138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874068122012874,0.0,0.0,0.06057467701757775,0.07782034619737532,0.0,0.055692838741584164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09013209198176426,0.0,0.09007419095064807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06877315886955651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05041743824556397,0.07730648968818958,0.12493238626343928,0.13764356876649966,0.0,0.07458309587062109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08558544142944458,0.07686269476466881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06492242220097164,0.0928195545964102,0.0,0.06311544369150357,0.0,0.07074623670648818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05728278478313949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10133964790049277 schizophrenia,LizardS567,2019/09/06,Negative Symptoms hey do you guys get negative symptoms and why do they look like depression how do you tell the difference?,4.073939393939398,7.425694272727274,4.433636363636363,76.33712121212123,83.54545454545453,10.206060606060607,34.60606060606061,9.725611199111238,5.028406060606062,102,6,16,4,3,32,17,22,0.35100000000000003,0.57,0.079,-0.8625,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,0,2,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,1,0,6,0,0,0,1,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733235466692973,0.0,0.0,0.33155162910171043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657964879430075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142154226097366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550357668328528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664847688284109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6596732892619237,0.0,0.0,0.27736820323180483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863490162570833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sophie-cat,2019/09/06,"ever get super paranoid when you randomly type stuff and acidentally search it? foreign keyboard turned on by mistake while I was googling something, now I've got this horrible paranoid feeling I typed something illegal in and I'm dead 😶🔫",5.523372093023255,8.384812906976748,5.616453488372091,73.9423546511628,71.09302325581395,8.020930232558143,40.98255813953489,8.841846274778883,4.438213953488372,197,13,29,4,4,62,37,43,0.342,0.557,0.1,-0.919,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,6,4,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,1,3,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,16,6,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3455938758894252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19318030713377676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19960984899004386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3055671631839862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5882547501134621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4373656889162607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.415570044614672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,watermelontaffy,2019/09/06,"Hospital or doc appointment My sister has untreated schizophrenia and is in the midst of a bad time; living in squalor, unable to work, jumping down her fire escape from delusions, threats to kill and harm people, speaking to voices coming through her heater, etc etc. She has resisted treatment for 5 years because she doesn’t want to gain weight from the medications. However, she showed up yesterday and hints that she wants to go to the hospital / may be considering treatment. She’s been committed about 8 times (a couple weeks at a time) over the past 5 years but refuses meds and they end up just letting her go. I want to take her for help, but do you all know what the first step should be? Like do you make a doctor appointment with a specialist and then go every month? Or do you start by going to the hospital? She’s never willingly went to the hospital before, she was always brought by police so this is new territory . Thanks for any input",7.527191011235956,7.575905314606742,7.195820224719102,75.17586516853932,63.26966292134831,10.940224719101124,34.09213483146068,10.577609850970193,3.545485842696629,758,29,137,17,10,239,119,178,0.06,0.838,0.10300000000000001,0.787,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,1,3,3,6,2,0,12,0,16,3,0,1,3,23,31,11,1,4,5,1,2,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,3,7,1,1,1,1,0,9,2,4,0,1,4,4,17,2,27,21,3,31,0,0,0,0,19,7,0,3,16,92,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285575730133965,0.0,0.0,0.10506627571186193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12900224694499382,0.09418264238766727,0.0,0.13146934390887324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13308930808101632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17095290214392472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15813876826611858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13684241534047167,0.0,0.3446198872784944,0.0,0.0,0.13017412484942886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13141884397528553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3512269101137559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10355905693564972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709329495158162,0.0,0.08490994959487229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15798818783461774,0.0,0.0754815982881491,0.0,0.13642760008121818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313090938396463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161626742195382,0.15564394410091564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233215735375284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916103346099907,0.14921845128410832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14748910448084612,0.10711184335168328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935691281423666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11616585320460528,0.0,0.0,0.14224416590568806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702730923607852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733868528381424,0.0,0.12393173393494168,0.1881411281814463,0.0,0.14322438062585874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11247888674435852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989877206924432 schizophrenia,worriedredditor7,2019/01/15,"I am lost on how to move forward. I have recently come to terms with being schizophrenic. I am doing a screening at a nearby wellness center tomorrow but I have been on anti psychotics for nearly two months now. My girlfriend was the person who really helped me take charge of it, but I am now wondering what I can do to better my situation. I failed out of school multiple times and my situation at my job became so bad I had to leave. Are there any resources that will allow me to find work? I am without health insurance as well. Are there resources for that?",3.8544546381243587,5.761105862385322,5.047094801223242,80.44864424057086,72.94495412844037,8.147196738022426,26.790010193679922,8.841846274778883,2.1915374108053003,445,16,82,9,9,147,77,109,0.145,0.762,0.09300000000000001,-0.799,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,8,6,0,0,3,0,16,2,0,2,0,11,20,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,3,2,1,4,1,15,3,18,14,1,17,0,2,1,0,4,8,0,1,8,69,20,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306659717249034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16338154095850946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730597899760027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685578100717112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17884459745356218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20799476158155686,0.0,0.0,0.13115770231173535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19417853899278328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071929531716173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136038014480192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15618695949211472,0.20797294459603566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17085700161303502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12535525132194314,0.0,0.19320674425348727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980348669414476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4398967298321591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712422886262716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141004268149306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911473167410844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35187299527757043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886249749348316,0.212202605375238,0.1424546802617077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jakeas,2019/01/15,"Overactive Imagination vs Psychosis I've been told I have an overactive imagination and I've been told I've experienced psychosis. But where is the line? Can my imagination fuel my delusions? When does imagination cross that threshold into delusions, paranoia or hallucinations? Will I recognize it when it does? Does having insight matter? Will I continue to believe that it is only my imagination even though the people, that think they are experts, tell me otherwise? Wat are your thoughts?",5.875365853658536,9.560013121951222,6.171414634146341,65.42175609756097,76.3170731707317,9.133658536585367,35.02926829268293,9.3871,4.614210731707317,404,22,55,12,10,129,53,82,0.038,0.948,0.013999999999999999,-0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,11,0,0,0,0,14,15,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,8,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,9,0,2,8,0,6,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,3,39,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28096898748764376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6547096384568004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16471497029035392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18966683730081407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17289061532270528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179715365306394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15979441199099698,0.2450173093413613,0.19798206628789694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4765918553817751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,stayingtogether,2019/01/15,"Loss of Delusions of Grandeur I was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia after being admitted to the hospital following a suicide attempt. Put on medication, etc. I’m out now and trying to pick up the pieces of my life. Still looking for a job but in a relatively good place, dating a really nice girl that I’m into, going well. I’m just trying to adjust to losing my delusions of grandeur. I’m no longer an archangel here on a special mission, chosen. I’m just a regular joe with a serious mental illness. Hard to adjust to this. Trying to find new meaning, Netflix only provides so much.",4.105675675675676,6.483313306306307,5.6417027027027045,74.38471621621622,73.5945945945946,8.043603603603604,32.72162162162162,8.841846274778883,3.319028108108109,471,24,75,10,10,159,77,111,0.139,0.6809999999999999,0.18,0.7899,1,0,0,0,0,1,14.0,0,0,0,3,7,7,0,0,10,0,2,4,0,1,0,14,12,3,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,5,1,0,3,1,3,1,0,1,2,3,4,21,10,3,16,0,2,1,0,2,7,0,0,6,51,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20750166416529467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22800394638170896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868538867792036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618760921460534,0.17147404980538564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18313752574013265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20287453608616687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14440157791382946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17167758724544938,0.22871536921335706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22269441492997505,0.0,0.20595116414012846,0.20602680728726172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15028646513715507,0.0,0.0,0.19744882417798074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15548535854373208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21359563618486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20551804034590693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13096909982853072,0.0,0.20185922096469008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16326555049859132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22362349650398472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4164027515397782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18381555203904434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thegreatcatdragon_25,2019/01/15,"I'm doing well but now I have another mountain to climb? I was diagnosed in 2013 with schizoaffetive disorder depression type. I've had quite a battle. I gone from 1 psychotic episode a month to one in every blue moon. My hallucinations have lessened, and are not as severe. I am emotionally stable as well. I mean Seroquel actually works for me at 400mg. Here's the problem... My husband is 27, and now is diagnosed with bipolar 2. He has delusions, and hallucinations. I do well in helping him ground himself to what is real. We had went through a very traumatic event, and he stopped taking his medicine, he went into a severe delusion, and long story short he had to be admitted to the hospital. They began giving him zyprexa instead of depakote. He isn't getting out of his delusion very well, and I am aware for my worst delusion I had lasted a month. I'm highly stressed, because I have to take care of myself, as well as him, plus court process for the traumatic event, and moving out of state soon. I know stress makes my symptoms worse. I've noticed that I'm slipping again. I do have friends and family to help. I'm at the point of I want to scream, and pull my hair out. Any suggestions to lessen stress, or help him more? I kind of now know how my parents felt in 2013...",3.0311157674174964,5.245390847389559,4.03378033874629,85.42483499214252,76.26907630522088,7.061358477387812,28.49676968744544,8.04050195162591,1.9741177230661773,1007,44,196,17,23,325,143,249,0.175,0.669,0.156,-0.9248,1,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,1,0,1,3,13,16,1,3,9,0,21,5,1,2,0,31,41,17,0,2,3,2,2,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,2,17,0,1,5,0,0,6,2,8,5,1,10,4,30,8,37,30,2,34,0,1,1,0,23,14,0,1,13,127,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.10501310490325334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07317937360509423,0.11283983001385252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06559884918071726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10971689145214483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09268545431709464,0.2184464069771107,0.0,0.0,0.12333187188962795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12104822751578098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09066716081378187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10144635572595524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332372293781154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831402228210135,0.0,0.05622246233973127,0.10323056384104508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21638875651598471,0.11369724587573984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11206060844454828,0.11828071152409485,0.08771757153726598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09523261346242867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07183137783183274,0.0,0.0,0.11722025216282388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178862470047596,0.11437378076645695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12251617738277085,0.0,0.0,0.07292020134063908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11948961282360282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10172746079036343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10296948011156827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11445786283648035,0.0,0.12248521760188415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431402755163063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0899678646467095,0.3698051389609756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184934349997903,0.16182060921484803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775811836149025,0.0634719323811362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4837774078941485,0.19951350494085573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07834230746242395,0.0,0.10966510737590134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NoDahmGood,2019/01/15,"Demons are back I don’t know what to do, they chase me around my house and attack when I don’t look at them. I have so many scratches and cuts that I don’t know if they’re not going to kill me this time. How can I make them less angry at me, what should I do to calm them down I don’t understand ",1.2316176470588225,1.8249236323529416,2.5551764705882363,100.96629411764708,77.38235294117645,6.028235294117647,16.541176470588233,5.6839178017228535,-0.9646094117647056,229,2,63,1,5,74,43,68,0.127,0.78,0.092,-0.3114,0,0,0,0,0,1,4.0,0,0,4,0,5,4,3,0,0,0,10,0,0,2,0,11,16,6,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,0,2,15,1,7,15,1,8,1,0,1,0,4,4,0,1,3,45,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764832759298054,0.0,0.35333115756888084,0.0,0.2388179107399612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17651055602188392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3583692139126961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3436122813223548,0.0,0.3413748088932449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26081013789704977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20731548334391894,0.31488077238903456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18110250073532255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.323326170584819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,E11011,2019/01/15,"Memory problems during an episode? In general I'd say my memory is average. I still struggle with my short term memory & I would say it's gotten worse in the last year. I had a really bad episode at the beginning of 2018. I got sectioned for 2 months. I'd say the first 5 weeks in the hospital I had no memory at all! I would repeat myself several times in conversation saying the same things over and over and not realising. I couldn't remember anyone's names even if I was familiar with them. My visitors would ask me what I ate for dinner or what my doctor said and I'd really struggle to remember anything that happened during the day. It seems to be common for people here to suffer with memory problems on a day to day basis but I feel like when I'm in a really bad episode my ability to memorise anything disappears. If I try to read a sentence I'll get half way through and forget what I just read. Does anyone know why memory is effected by psychosis? I'm not talking the normal being forgetful feeling but the entire process of remembering completely shutting down until the episode ends? I don't even realise my memory was bad at the time it's only afterwards that people tell me I told the same story to them like 5 times.",4.458023679417121,5.873300303278692,6.187650273224044,74.84414389799637,70.55737704918033,10.176320582877961,29.539162112932605,10.380263240014207,3.3654642987249543,990,39,179,29,18,341,135,244,0.14300000000000002,0.804,0.052000000000000005,-0.9636,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,2,2,6,10,0,2,16,0,13,3,0,1,1,37,28,11,0,9,8,0,2,2,0,3,1,5,0,0,9,7,2,0,8,2,0,1,5,8,0,2,9,7,25,2,30,13,5,37,0,1,0,0,13,15,0,4,22,117,34,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11579408092863824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14945259797343122,0.0,0.17589053816760994,0.0,0.09990943826310184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676970691305197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11205162675936327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067677847417303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938642745450568,0.09352304533152582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946554921507309,0.0,0.0,0.14117384008174005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080738147055706,0.07634826622070995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909039446827254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05583539583622769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547405650200175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09450518027984972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05873320086757749,0.08711367529548293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10442300096080563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530296843236841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047103439282908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08127978808093378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481810186176538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045211626036182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21379872840520311,0.0,0.2053918281228949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36319013815834733,0.0,0.101658264894536,0.3399506646830429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09729083802822414,0.0,0.12073318174103392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08534687426347025,0.0,0.0,0.2234483833039169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08589841433926113,0.09340947816189396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07099997395262082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18695104517746586,0.0,0.0,0.10211928863740126,0.0,0.07255801600541388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08482878367459865,0.08572502348426399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643395266324736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10891011216754777,0.2277530904899807,0.0,0.0,0.06882106175644498 schizophrenia,hewasbornwavision,2019/01/15,"Schizophrenia (for me) is like standing behind a glass wall watching everybody live out their lives while you're longing to be normal. The hardest part is you once were Maybe it'll take some getting used to but it's hard seeing your freinds being normal, having no clue about your illness and living life to the fullest, being regular 20-something year olds. I feel like I'm a senior - no offence to seniors. Even seniors probably have more fun than me, I know my dad does. I'm just sick of this dull life. I'm sorry if I sound like I'm complaining. 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I have a tendency to drop into memories. Sometimes, it's nice but, more often, it's a pain in the ass. I'll see something that brings back a memory and I'll find myself inside the memory, like a fly trapped in amber. Nothing is really happening; I just can't seem to take my focus out of that memory. And this can sometimes happen several times a day. The memories don't have to be vivid, either. They can be muddy as hell. They can be incorrect. Doesn't even matter if I like them. In fact, most of the time, I don't. I'll find myself sitting alone in a shopping center or leaning against a wall in a place I haven't been in years. Sometimes, it's downright dull and I think, ""Enough!"" So, what about you? Do you ever find yourself dropping into memories? Or anything like that? 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I had a great time with family. We did this all immersive VR and it was awesome. My son loved it. He also loved the food and company. I did too. It was too short of a trip but it was okay. Today is my son’s 14th birthday. I gave him dog tags today that is a sweet message from mom like you’re smarter than you think, loved more than your know. We have a T-shirt for him tonight. My dad got him all of this music stuff that we need to hook up to a computer somewhere so he can make music. He doesn’t know him very well. I took my medicine and was pretty good. I did get some thc things at the dispensary. I already had the day off because I thought we were coming home today so I’m just chilling. 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However, the greatest prayer is the Lord's Prayer &#x200B; *Processing img 0methfhzxla21...* &#x200B;",6.687142857142861,9.63378247619048,2.343238095238096,85.7434285714286,105.1904761904762,5.48952380952381,37.53333333333335,6.742157984588678,3.6577161904761915,116,7,15,2,5,29,16,21,0.0,0.8109999999999999,0.18899999999999997,0.6369,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5223126962540096,0.5857566595742428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20240483902495013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5857566595742428,0.0 schizophrenia,Crazyhorse193,2019/01/15,"Will my psychosis end or is it just schizophrenia? Hey, just to give you a little background, I started smoking weed at around 18 with no major problems. Whenever I turned 19 I had had decided to use LSD which caused me to ‘breakthrough.’ I thought I was feeling chakras and releasing past karma and a bunch of other stuff. I used LSD once more then I went on to using LSA twice. At about age 21 I began experimenting with meth and pcp and that’s when I began hearing voices. After that I basically went on to smoke a bunch of weed after that, which made things a lot worse on me. Long story short, I ended up having some family issues and ended up being hospitalized. They put me on an antipsychotic and I can tell you that being sane feels a lot better. However, I came off of my medication after about 6 months and fell right back into hearing the voices. I’ve been clean of drugs for about 2 and a 1/2 years now and was wondering if anyone was ever able to come off their medication after this long and actually feel fine.",5.361357692307692,6.118818605000001,6.222000000000001,77.8556153846154,67.95,8.753846153846155,27.384615384615394,8.841846274778883,2.0099076923076917,811,24,153,13,13,268,129,200,0.043,0.91,0.048,-0.0258,1,0,3,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,2,1,10,3,0,0,8,0,12,3,0,5,1,36,32,14,0,2,4,0,3,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,11,16,0,0,6,0,0,6,1,1,0,1,13,7,22,2,32,16,7,42,1,0,0,0,9,15,0,6,21,112,33,0,0.12588368470164127,0.0,0.12284431732897362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08802079928484477,0.0,0.0,0.11206316827546264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967967831994341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11133388928947248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397739950242505,0.0,0.12931722044544566,0.0,0.1084376478672604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14598510882908214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33448674116546984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11386899978959485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12313839882346292,0.11867193457567315,0.0,0.19095172009999425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12075910101145235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28376012321255883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313898612204595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616852290161945,0.0,0.22280619926482412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21404361418034068,0.0,0.11911418620485333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536291374031729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047915612844356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13406201580822405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12017022108354355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12045368529650108,0.0,0.12654787243216786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750397891843404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910111995159105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14410670157568492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002788897723696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363152653423715,0.0,0.0,0.09993758430907176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369253005453444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3261692571973748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333908737861814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651548622045812,0.0,0.0,0.1282862292550292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106496568913239 schizophrenia,marekstopka,2019/01/15,"Anybody doing vector graphics? I would need one logo done in Illustrator, so I was wondering if someone could help... Hi, I need one logo in Illustrator (od anything that can be imported into Illustrator) and was wondering if I maybe could someone willing to do it in this group, although I know this isn't a graphic subreddit...",9.159265536723161,8.605965830508477,9.880000000000004,59.25638418079098,60.1864406779661,12.612429378531074,45.09039548022599,11.855464076750405,5.844961581920903,260,15,39,7,3,89,42,59,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,12,0,0,0,0,12,17,5,1,7,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,5,0,5,9,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,4,0,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19315279946954508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748062239856105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401978630148915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15732643387495746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289947974184865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358056385303457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480806380866787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31810179287718704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3977513620710543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5090830134140578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16673683331413872,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,astarphase,2019/01/15,"Chimes I really dislike how little things can throw me off so badly. For context, I'm currently living at my parent's house. Bit of a story– We used to have this huge plant in the living room, it had these small porcelain chimes on it so anytime we (or a cat) would brush against it, the chimes would sound. Well we got rid of the plant a few months ago. Three days ago, the computer in the kitchen that no one ever uses made a noise. Upon investigation, there was a birthday notification for my dad's friend Steve. He passed away in 2018, so that was a little sad to see, yknow? After seeing that notification, I started hearing those chimes. I kept checking to make sure the plant wasn't there, & of course it wasn't. Each time I'd check, I'd think ""at least it's a pretty sound,"" but then my mind would trail off & start wondering if Steve was trying to tell me something through the chimes. So that's been the past three days for me. Well this morning I was changing the cat's water dish, & I found the chimes. Someone must have hung them up in a new spot I hadn't noticed, & the hot air coming from the register underneath has been causing them to chime frequently. At least this wasn't too distressing, just something that's been on my mind for the last few days. Anyone else have stories about little things like this? It's wild how such a small thing can make an impact.",4.952351987023519,5.689072832116787,4.8598053527980545,87.33261962692622,68.85401459854015,7.694728304947282,25.806163828061642,7.594959193182576,1.0986957015409566,1092,29,228,11,18,337,152,274,0.031,0.9,0.069,0.84,2,0,2,0,0,0,42.0,3,0,2,0,15,8,0,1,23,0,22,3,0,8,3,29,39,10,0,5,4,2,1,1,1,4,0,3,2,0,20,5,3,1,3,0,2,3,5,3,2,3,16,7,18,5,32,19,6,43,0,1,2,0,11,23,0,3,18,142,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18424505018925927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4504072710955913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07266621086276029,0.10648261510338476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09764019863165607,0.0,0.08677235875703063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11345830068883965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10675877162470576,0.1099380144607135,0.08952148866410954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20106751772009293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08681532650805708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940053807358118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11394751160129432,0.08029157234581644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311766937867636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11713011649143765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11991456354536813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08471208642591736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05077211041917837,0.3124780244181663,0.18353392966334786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833558251950868,0.13874040925535175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20986761536227835,0.0,0.0829512979416768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10037063147833504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183183805152774,0.0,0.0,0.07042172155369322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539551575720625,0.0,0.09920739979220806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10572826389761944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06657649803013968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16562825059285646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08805462997872586,0.16001183936418806,0.0,0.0,0.1471161548887503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09794732033786888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09083432377534537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071278444851988,0.06659042546245876,0.0,0.0,0.060599031639870286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07055770407912558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.179514267938375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18688065741092544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270135227499654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22147429114791856,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MyStoryThrowaway987,2019/01/15,"My story I realize it now. I had this moment of lucidity at my doctor's office. I stop, looked back at my life and it makes sense now. I feel like I need to share with someone. Since I don't really have any friends I'll just give you my version of what happened to me. &#x200B; It all started 6-7 years ago. I was at school doing quite well when depression hit me. I got so tired, I hated it all. My friends, my school, I was consumed by hate and the loss of hope. I even contemplated suicide. The only thing that stopped me is that I didn't want my mother to suffer because of me. So instead I started to create another reality. At first I would lie to my friends and then to myself. But it wasn't enough, I still suffered. So I conditioned myself over a matter of months to stop listening to my emotions. I buried it all under layers of denial. Soon I would just stop with all the hatred, I tolerated my life. I was neither happy nor unhappy, I was just numb. &#x200B; Then after school I went to work in a quite stressful environment. I met a girl there. She noticed I was removed from my feelings and tried to help me express them. I tried to let myself feel again but the emotions that came back to the surface were unrecognizable. I didn't understand what was happening. I felt lost and she gave up and left. I tried to get back to my usual state of automatic behavior without emotions but I couldn't. I felt like a stranger to myself. I began watching me from the outside acting in public like everything was fine. I was completely removed from my body. &#x200B; Then my feelings began to morph into actual physical phenomenons. I could not recognized that they were not there so eventually it all turned to shit at my job. I was fired and my family convinced me to see a psychiatrist. He prescribed me risperidone then solian then largactil then eventually abilify. On that last drug I had less hallucinations and when it happened I could see that they were not real. I figured I had no other symptoms and could go one with my life. I felt I didn't really have schizophrenia. I thought I just had a breakdown because of the stress at work and that it would all go away soon. &#x200B; I had it all figured out. I managed to conquer my emotions. I lost my empathy. I saw others as weak, manipulated by forces beyond their control like anger or love. Only I was pure, a perfect man, stronger that the world around him. &#x200B; I kept using drugs throughout all of this. Not much weed but some cocaine. Never a lot. I'd say about 3g cocaine a month. I thought it was expanding my consciousness. When high I thought I could understand other people's emotions and try to replicate them in my life to appear normal without ever feeling them and suffering. &#x200B; Then I began to see myself as out of my body again. I though I wasn't me but merely an observer, unable to control me. I thought I achieved something, a new state of consciousness, the evolution of our kind and that I would soon completely separate myself from everything physical and become a spirit. &#x200B; That was a few weeks ago. Last week I went to the doctor and he asked me the same question he always asked me. ""So how are you?"". I don't know why in a moment of clarity I tried to find an answer for him. I never tried before. I always said I was tired. But I could decide if I was fine or not. I didn't understand this at first. How could a question so simple be so difficult. Then for what seemed like a long time it all came crashing back. I had this moment of insight. For so long i thought I had either beaten schizophrenia or that I didn't have it. I knew everything I needed to know. But I understood that day that I had almost wiped myself out of this world. Though drugs and depersonalization I was leaving everything that made me human before. &#x200B; Now I want to go back but I'm pretty sure I can't. I need to rebuild myself from scratch. I have no idea how to do that. How to make connections with others and be alive again. I finally understand the extent of my pathology and I'm scarred and ashamed. &#x200B; This is only my story and I don't know if you can find something to relate to in there. But I just needed to share. 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Mind has been quieter than usual. I went and picked up my meds yesterday at my new pharmacy. Today I'm going to group and do some puzzles in the word search book I got . I made cookies yesterday and my husband took some to work this morning. They are chocolate cookies with peanut butter chips. ,3.1164999999999985,5.641849650000001,3.6500000000000017,86.70500000000001,77.5,6.0,28.33333333333333,7.1686216300943375,1.689833333333333,249,11,45,3,6,78,48,60,0.0,0.935,0.065,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,0,13,12,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,2,8,1,7,7,2,11,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,5,26,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15644674334534142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17584455305009525,0.0,0.2474630476713361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927707565276935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3436842106564678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31241539911601984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988296297044328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19825711853872727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293284034126982,0.0,0.3437653466889549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3407708586764559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868257126297507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252538059880209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,termtwottwo,2019/01/15,"Rant 2 - Feeling life is pointless I got very into Islam this summer after having rejected it all my life, but I found some things I didn't agree with and it slipped away from me. I still hallucinated but it felt like I had the big guy on my side so it wasn't so bad. I used to be so disciplined that I quit smoking for 3 months and washed and prayed 5 times a day. Now I stay awake in bed for up to ten hours at a time before I can even brush my teeth. When I hallucinate now it just makes me sad that I am so ill and that I feel there is no point in suffering this way for the rest of my life. I'm doing a law degree, I have financial independence, I have good friends, and I could probably get into a relationship if I put in the effort, but it just feels like schizophrenia ruins all that. Being aware that some other people live life unmotivated by delusion or with seven conversations/strains of thought in their head makes me feel so jealous, like why are we so tortured ):",4.966183333333333,4.973187785,5.778000000000002,83.32233333333336,68.65,8.866666666666667,27.66666666666667,8.59863814320734,1.6721666666666668,767,22,167,11,12,252,130,200,0.20199999999999999,0.691,0.106,-0.9734,0,1,0,0,0,1,16.0,1,0,1,2,14,12,2,0,7,0,15,8,2,4,2,35,28,17,0,2,7,0,5,3,1,0,6,0,1,1,15,10,0,1,7,0,0,1,3,7,0,2,7,6,25,5,22,18,5,27,2,4,0,0,5,13,0,4,14,116,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145020329474694,0.0,0.12887884531772276,0.0,0.0,0.1313435822934067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12323882480031614,0.0,0.0,0.0995453309704524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10194912606569813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121833606974109,0.1102702740582234,0.14820370404755134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16924080355039053,0.11925324240231973,0.0,0.08064340823682113,0.0,0.0,0.1294645132616013,0.12345070951705707,0.0,0.0,0.15283437492676372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15841136968992847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15200724708799973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43609817392284994,0.22622818114774784,0.0,0.1362970954717761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060645117854338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12320360595779585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700938175831866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14591408501180395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16641933465375386,0.0,0.0,0.15516804490276465,0.0,0.16417410007518501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16571804833210155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16452044701358534,0.12326701942175533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10254570239027257,0.0,0.0,0.12253955180365432,0.1800097020985001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13331198956303314,0.0,0.1273579214558368,0.0,0.122518737973468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928015546487346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,andromedan96,2019/01/15,"This disorder and drug use Are you on antipsychotics? Do you take recreational drugs? I smoke weed daily but I've had to cut back because of it triggering symptoms. It use to take me 20 hits to hallucinate, now it can only take 2. I don't really do anything harder than weed, although I have in the past. I also vape daily- use to be a heavy [smoker.](https://smoker.How) How does your drug use effect your psychosis? Is it enlightening or tormenting? 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So my main delusion was that i was being gangstalked by psychic people. After thinking about it more clearly, ive come to the conclusion that im insane. I mean now that im looking at it more objectively i can say wtf? I dont know what happened to me. I feel so much better mind wise though. Its like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. 🙂",0.6575999999999986,3.146445226666668,2.439000000000004,90.9345,90.06666666666666,4.6000000000000005,23.5,6.2581,0.6994000000000002,292,12,58,3,10,96,59,75,0.085,0.76,0.154,0.6453,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,2,0,8,2,1,0,1,9,16,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,1,1,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,4,9,3,7,11,5,6,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,4,41,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20614568545209036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20078300857960368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27317513555547657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178553193446229,0.0,0.0,0.25533439414439224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18642022125650984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20611723999835369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5035459020403181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12809800714887576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11387407910683538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19573359274605012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538990593827735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23535048313354834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17134507907746185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615925311563462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185359396523512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14935214065881186,0.22900587819464135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838360368575685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FamiliarLion,2019/01/15,"If you've taken risperdal, read this. (Risperdal and brain shrinkage) ""Risperdal is an atypical antipsychotic medication developed for schizophrenia that is often prescribed for autistic children by mainstream doctors. Published research by McCracken and others has demonstrated that this medication can effectively reduce irritability and emotional meltdowns in autistics.1 However, the safety of Risperdal has never been established for young children, and its impact on early brain development is unknown. Recent MRI studies have heightened these concerns due to strong evidence that atypical antipsychotic medications reduce brain cortex volumes. The first warnings came from published reports of reduced cortical gray matter volumes and glial cell numbers in macaque monkeys after administration of atypical medications.2‐4 These results were especially significant since they were very similar to the findings from postmortem studies in schizophrenia.5 The most decisive and troubling study was published in 2011 by Beng‐Chung Ho and colleagues from the University of Iowa’s Department of Psychiatry.6 The Iowa researchers studied 211 schizophrenics who underwent repeated high‐resolution MRI scans over a period of 5‐14 years. They found brain shrinkage similar to that observed in the monkey studies, but also discovered that the brain volume loss was directly related to the dosage and duration of atypical medication treatment. "" &#x200B; [http://psychrights.org/research/digest/nlps/RisperdalBrainShrinkageAutismScienceDigestWalsh1202.pdf](http://psychrights.org/research/digest/nlps/RisperdalBrainShrinkageAutismScienceDigestWalsh1202.pdf) &#x200B; Study: [https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3476840/](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3476840/)",20.378330980945663,24.160181582568804,13.196788990825686,30.316065631616112,35.92660550458715,15.148059280169372,58.51235003528581,13.875232112747142,9.685925476358504,1547,91,116,46,13,411,144,218,0.04,0.9079999999999999,0.053,-0.0358,1,0,0,0,0,0,75.0,0,0,2,4,2,3,0,0,11,0,12,14,5,2,1,20,15,11,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,2,12,9,0,0,4,1,0,2,1,2,0,1,8,2,2,1,28,7,1,19,0,1,2,1,6,7,0,3,10,80,14,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09149842651406684,0.0,0.2479393564820901,0.2780559045788687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6386304269246154,0.0,0.13086141271985496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171096148155417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12870258969084644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045741427806606,0.09732218333426136,0.0,0.12545122830916464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12088677616544954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46104829427674704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08824466563541164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144469534028768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297198767772075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09464608994094896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09440517503085306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780559045788687,0.07368014680656708 schizophrenia,Genericuser8118,2019/01/15,"Something a voice told me. I was meditating one afternoon a year back. A voice told me something most enlightening. I spoke the words out loud as he shared his words. It's become a mantra for me. Something I love to share with others. Here it is: ""Love, unconditional and unattached is the absence of suffering."" ""Love them, they suffer."" ""Forgive them, you are shaped by suffering."" ""Understand suffering, understand the rise of all emotion and desire."" Love, understanding, and forgiveness are the roots of compassion. A reason for love, a reason for forgiveness and understanding. Hope this brings you as much joy as it does me. Thanks! 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I think I'm being more paranoid than usual. I went on a purge of people off my snap private story, looking back on it it was random adn I had no readosn to think anyone was making fun of me for it but whatev. there's something that's happened since i was a kid that i think mite be related to mental illness. when focus in on something for a long time, like a book, it's like my consciousness moves forward, my field of view shrinks. i dunno it's weird and it shifts my consciousness. is there anyway to get help without needing parental stuff? i live close (<30min) to one of the biggest cities in the USA, I have a license, currently a car, I'm 17",2.14275905118602,4.462364898876409,3.425468164794008,88.11687890137327,79.78651685393258,5.603495630461923,24.495630461922595,6.775458762138228,0.9226918851435704,1056,39,208,11,27,343,157,267,0.05,0.8690000000000001,0.08199999999999999,0.8294,3,0,2,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,3,0,8,5,0,1,19,0,17,4,3,2,2,22,38,7,0,1,2,2,1,2,0,0,1,4,0,4,12,5,1,1,5,1,0,6,7,2,0,1,13,11,30,3,34,23,5,39,0,0,6,0,14,21,0,4,15,132,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13935216045251425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09292338440474306,0.0,0.10936139159127596,0.0,0.12423903315530982,0.0,0.0,0.10218817333475716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14704596456501315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06943223498333753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23503749856379705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14978250153516742,0.0,0.1781536461279303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11812332254933648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832729100943683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12985172276098936,0.0,0.11734885922172407,0.11760803281872598,0.11159846217692428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08870854987922168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13392706193853735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14124652125912787,0.0,0.09854007571125196,0.0,0.0,0.14133550814217505,0.0,0.0,0.12751648825494347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09005319838042042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29512869164300165,0.0,0.0,0.092132769461408,0.2320778518329102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727682570111076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11349173876221585,0.12641372789509478,0.0,0.0,0.13449699477893978,0.1059002348917886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21986449591328106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20461837051928036,0.1314367093326184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15213316096440596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554615534285915,0.0,0.0,0.2324767059450175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477874742415058,0.14636524119507208,0.10965242321533698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24639028567792498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128106189888716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13543151950169313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,just-a-bit-bored,2019/01/15,"Meets? Might be a strange topic. I'm unaware. but is anyone in the Brighton, England area wanting to meet? I'm 25m and interested in meeting others that might understand my mindset. Tired of being told it's just my peripherals. I'd much rather it was more than a one on one and more of a small group. Anyhow let me know",0.4414188034188058,2.8982257230769264,2.2943589743589783,91.47675213675215,91.76923076923076,4.735042735042735,22.606837606837612,6.42735559955562,0.6050170940170942,252,10,52,3,9,83,52,65,0.11,0.8340000000000001,0.055999999999999994,-0.3527,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,7,1,0,0,0,11,13,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,1,7,6,3,5,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,3,0,35,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19871870855185705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15618846355011742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29061296626239524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6029809396848435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20891913335450368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38516150477635663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266452058038932,0.0,0.2715645419541824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958614197275371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762806833719668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ms-elle,2019/01/15,"empty I used to be a person full of life and imagination and deep emotions, things used to touch me so easily and I would become emotional with just one song. Now it's all empty. After my psychotic break, it feels like my personality was fully wiped away and I remember nothing about who I once was. the world, everything in it including people and places, and myself, feel unfamiliar. It feels like all my hopes and dream for the future will go nowhere because I dont have the feelings necessary to strive for those dreams, and everything feels timeless like no time is passing, the days the same. Its been 8 months but it feels like its been a different timeline, old thoughts feel foreign and I cant remember anything. &#x200B; Sorry I guess Im just throwing out everything i feel again, but it might not sum up my experience very well. Are these negative symptoms? Perhaps medication? Has anyone gotten over this at all?",5.1991932773109255,7.426416717647061,5.457478991596641,77.56294117647059,70.05882352941177,8.857142857142858,30.378151260504197,9.424239791934726,2.9932857142857143,742,31,128,17,14,235,117,170,0.064,0.816,0.121,0.7806,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,7,6,0,0,7,0,14,3,0,2,3,38,29,12,0,2,5,0,9,4,0,3,3,1,0,2,13,11,0,0,12,3,0,3,5,0,1,1,6,10,14,6,15,19,5,22,0,0,0,0,3,10,0,3,12,89,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12286416412209705,0.13778815424877516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928889101506766,0.0,0.09331497679172154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065389673698043,0.0,0.0,0.06912494964927322,0.12523661158193894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07313082797765981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11847434305614715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13289888401579894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25510973855991786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305738156800892,0.11092272693966032,0.0,0.0,0.4586900746841995,0.2430296739561293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06444537406677797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12491811795022735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262748929864955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12248678543859788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08009471721981101,0.2215975916087994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11423421053430655,0.0,0.12029488909032025,0.0,0.0,0.09051134418550827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088062063670842,0.0,0.1189896834171612,0.12076269071676947,0.07683984260455938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07861428168525747,0.19802545525936946,0.11847434305614715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25691038427496515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12693717187928485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11786152248556532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533504633760564,0.0,0.0,0.09002349779792844,0.06612192872402367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19587490605636887,0.0,0.09356330583042297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019563281362226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08055303248911612,0.0,0.13778815424877516,0.0 schizophrenia,punchherghost,2019/01/15,my medication is on backorder and i dont know what to do...? My medication that I take is on backorder and I don't know what to do. I've been trying and failing so many different medications since 2013 and this is the only one that only somewhat helps me. Does anyone know how long backorders usually take to correct themselves? If they do at all? I don't know what I'll do if I can't get ahold of my medication anymore and I'm almost out... :/,2.2176098901098875,4.019086736263739,4.795700549450551,80.93992445054947,77.24175824175825,8.506043956043957,26.759615384615394,9.188382445141503,2.348768131868132,347,14,72,9,8,123,53,91,0.07,0.903,0.027000000000000003,-0.5654,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,12,4,0,1,2,17,20,9,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,10,0,8,19,2,6,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,4,2,49,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16528927998689247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637006467318768,0.1154176532995468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724583415998014,0.0,0.0,0.1444499536034934,0.0,0.19345556638340727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862399241746782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106399422199374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3628627836158085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460777956384957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16735053466102698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6651446041231924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185267191641536,0.2510795403544224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13654390832165722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482174648321429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120686565368986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18179635590732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tombgrrrl,2018/11/15,Feels like I'm losing it oh no I'm going crazy I haven't left the apartment in a week and each day my anxiety gets worse HAHA,-1.5636206896551703,0.3935401379310335,1.4788793103448263,97.37280172413796,95.89655172413794,4.279310344827587,14.14655172413793,5.985473137389443,-0.8072827586206897,100,2,24,1,4,35,26,29,0.341,0.483,0.177,-0.5813,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,6,1,6,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2951954038428485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488592101043118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195111372360416,0.2756711242264179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20160518507785974,0.0,0.21930320397896413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41925727786010814,0.0,0.0,0.18852036526111127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43169847117756016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095278356410512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3932423687796743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jmacatk26,2018/11/15,"Anyone experience only (mainly) delusions? I have accepted my diagnosis after a 6 year struggle with the concept, and the fact that the trigger of the worst of my experiences revolve around hospitalization early in this time faded in personal importance in half this time made acceptance a bit harder. I tended to ignore the mini-delusions in between. Past believing I was MKUltra'd by my exes father in the military for certain badmouthing among other things, it's taken another episode involving another form of relative unsual/extreme psychosis (an amorphous thought process thinking that the world indeed did end in 2012 and we were ""saved"" by aliens only to be put into statis and live out in simulation, among other delusions, sort of linked to the hospitalizations) after the guilt from looking up my therapist on google (and finding legal troubles) was expressed in person. This as well as just the various day to day things I experience in social situations, basically absorbing my social anxiety into the context of schzioaffective made more sense than to see it as separate issue that could be just fixed with learning how to be more sociable, feel less judgments about oneself. This was apparent when I went to vote, and struggled in the context of just being what I felt was being scrutinized by the poll workers (and not in any rational way), people out of my periphery, attributing being corrected on how to cast my ballot that the poll worker could read all previous embarrassing memories. The speed in which this all occurs hit me that I face mini-delusions every day and to start accepting what this is. ""Spiritual IEDs"" - The brake release on a school bus along with being hit by wind while walking other day seemed to signify to me the end of being in denial. These and other ""weak"" delusions hamper me when leaving the house by the numbers. &#x200B; Does anyone else think that in the concept of evolution, schziophrenia is(was?) an attempt to have the human brain reach towards something more advanced only to be held back by limitations? I dunno, sorry if that's offensive to anyone, my acceptance came with a heavy dose of science-y readings as well.",13.137488947833777,10.487281970822282,11.927649867374006,54.312465075154726,54.225464190981434,14.8278691423519,47.94500442086649,13.023866798666859,6.453234977895668,1761,86,247,45,15,566,217,377,0.06,0.867,0.073,0.6028,1,0,1,0,1,0,49.0,1,0,0,5,12,17,1,4,27,0,20,4,2,6,5,58,38,18,0,3,5,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,25,20,0,4,13,2,0,5,1,9,2,1,14,4,22,8,72,11,11,53,0,0,2,0,9,27,0,4,20,198,47,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038807238606042,0.12379662413232426,0.06928260594073353,0.21366232292332385,0.07793872246640478,0.0,0.0,0.21371279176450125,0.10438917289498884,0.0,0.09069573229929287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0783402367752869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147850522668337,0.0,0.0,0.1112277168951914,0.0,0.0,0.11373294308019626,0.0,0.11652477690370185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16268745256320802,0.0,0.0,0.2628193888798389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08915679121961051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08510854208441024,0.0,0.1804727363519122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08583917660083774,0.0,0.0,0.2989776416459321,0.0,0.0,0.05151411879208439,0.0,0.09782178266871093,0.0,0.09311743167176964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11755704998802813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10633734404867146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787731882613802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08996283147780683,0.0,0.08555442049108944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192804621024604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324553826476997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09725698790658173,0.07063149030685996,0.17791720185985788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102418592457965,0.0,0.0,0.2038172358895097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10310905922576943,0.08118600426297494,0.09274867924707478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11451856602326768,0.0,0.2077097954590747,0.0,0.07843300781266431,0.0,0.11404749153681155,0.07211192978974627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21301638315953453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11829174861275732,0.13537048182834924,0.1305625229057793,0.0,0.08088217148076311,0.11881531618999915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086843332228674,0.0,0.0,0.18320659422439528,0.09444475172242832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12379662413232426,0.06560805427988921 schizophrenia,RoboticSchizophrenic,2018/11/15,"I think another episode is incoming I've been seeing things again. I've also been hearing things which is new to me. I heard a prolonged voice yesterday. Couldn't tell what it was saying cause it sounded muffled. Today I saw a person at my work that wasnt there. I've also been derealizing like feeling as if the world around me isn't real. Also I haven't been sleeping well which I've heard it's a sign of incoming psychosis. I guess my question is, when you know an episode is coming what can you do to avoid it or lessen it's impact?",3.0072929292929267,4.656384254545458,4.194848484848485,86.75671717171717,74.63636363636364,6.707070707070707,25.858585858585855,7.3871296695380915,1.2304646464646458,428,15,87,5,9,140,70,110,0.042,0.917,0.042,-0.0036,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,1,8,3,0,1,5,0,15,1,1,1,0,14,25,7,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,0,1,12,2,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,1,1,0,9,9,11,2,6,15,0,9,0,0,2,0,9,3,0,4,6,58,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4855179357964557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2122079608091061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801567645806077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078949970675592,0.0,0.17432824806876734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10232694236568138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22293901283515374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22809147064853566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112200744741327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09887026223769528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19545515388853216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767061505415332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267064523412617,0.0,0.0,0.2303471943671359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16093681974197854,0.0,0.0,0.16126677062355038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20252127487388524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17688477665603894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688980772042732,0.12967380661620215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19182795253615528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18195953893608205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14733149907829607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ratta606adamson,2018/11/15,"Creativity Does anyone find that their meds make them less creative? Less musical, artistic, able to write, etc? 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I got a diagnosis of “Severe Major Depressive Disorder with Psychotic Features” so luckily Im not a schizophrenic as I had feared, since my grandmother was one. Im now on abilify and prozac and am hopefully not going to have to go through that again.",8.951388888888891,7.274350620370374,9.441407407407407,65.84433333333334,61.314814814814824,13.825185185185184,42.8962962962963,12.688352899677879,5.554482962962962,449,23,81,14,5,152,75,108,0.158,0.7929999999999999,0.05,-0.8835,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,1,8,0,5,4,0,0,0,13,11,7,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,2,0,2,4,1,8,1,15,7,1,24,0,1,0,0,1,7,0,1,15,55,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32472274456783073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15775649240808376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099186291396575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622264778574845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20610729697744093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20818948720963704,0.0,0.2929815231942524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18192042161550787,0.1803769089810449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3956911014900011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14930084240545186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849406211627976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768982498806433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19219689180628236,0.0,0.2482295690073296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20692004646900206,0.0,0.1515128558510859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12964245589411766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19037464118519415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29384176888450964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179498220069662 schizophrenia,vvhims,2018/11/15,"Psychosis and PTSD Questions I have been struggling with psychosis for a few years now, and have been in therapy for almost a year with no official diagnosis, but we are leaning towards schizophrenia. I was, however, just recently diagnosed with PTSD and it is believed my anxiety issues stem largely from it. I am also diagnosed with depression, but we have ruled out my psychosis being a side effect of that. So, I wanted to ask a few questions: 1. For those of you with multiple disorders that build on one another, what are your best coping mechanisms? How do you stop the amp up? 2. Have any of you tried CBD oil to help with any of the mentioned disorders? Did it help at all? 3. Do you have tactile hallucinations? If yes, how do you deal with them? My therapist and psychiatrist are shocked by how often I have physical sensations, and I’m curious how others experience and deal with them. 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When would be the best time of day to take these supplements? Before or after food to get better absorbtion? And morning or night?,2.7346875,5.6738980937500045,3.7550000000000026,82.39000000000001,83.6875,6.95,20.5,8.07648339933343,1.5476000000000003,137,4,23,3,4,44,26,32,0.0,0.7759999999999999,0.22399999999999998,0.8426,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,4,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,15,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4613437227891185,0.0,0.2844851240072097,0.2397510864340861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17482625635104515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6555898323407677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14162979844446244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543932464468942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20382085125310248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580708106444936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192569747905744,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,isuckatsaving19,2018/11/15,"How did your voices start ? Hey guys, Ive been having a really bad day today. I have OCD and hypochondria, my ocd is focused on schizophrenia and my fear of hearing voices. I’ve become hyper aware of my inner monologue and the noises around me, I’ve been like this for most of my life. I’m 22 now and I know this is a common age for schizophrenia onset. I’m really scared that one day my inner monologue is going to become foreign to me and turn into voices. How did you guys start hearing voices ? Were they in your head or literal auditory hallucinations? ",3.0760550458715588,5.273888577981655,4.5747614678899104,81.67792201834864,76.06422018348623,6.194862385321102,21.90917431192661,7.1686216300943375,0.8929845871559632,441,12,79,5,10,147,67,109,0.09699999999999999,0.857,0.046,-0.7668,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,1,0,4,4,0,2,3,0,11,2,1,2,0,12,20,8,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,2,3,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,5,6,14,1,11,15,1,15,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,2,9,52,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685176099469701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15805803940463972,0.0,0.4181351360265709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441663689069693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21301573024415132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10758385631531092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748745823258241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19427696183083776,0.0,0.4267109211520349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10403462324679386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13370856595638375,0.0924826793260475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827494146428695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425415397208648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18952285900247373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679757856021304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794347725863487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059046227610928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,swonkosro,2018/11/15,"So the other day I was in class after missing the previous class. The previous class I texted my group that I wasn't feeling well and to text me with anything that needs to be done. Nearing the end of class I heard ambiguous chatter from other groups. Phrases like ""yeah guys just text me anything you need,"" ""oh 'insert name' isn't hear, wonder what it is."" Laughter followed all these statements. The teacher approached my table and a girl in my group said ""my dog is annoying, I know he can understand me."" Making me think she's indirectly talking about my ability to understand this indirect language of people mocking me. Whenever I start thinking like this I go into panic and all of the sudden anything people say is perceived differently by me and I have to leave the room. Does anyone else ever feel like this? My psych currently has me on SSRI's but I feel like I should be on anti-psychotics. Would they help with things like this?",4.005656779661017,6.3728235028248665,4.5910416666666665,81.85063029661015,73.85875706214689,7.1368644067796625,28.57662429378531,8.07648339933343,2.15640141242938,748,31,130,12,16,238,112,177,0.063,0.8190000000000001,0.11900000000000001,0.8972,3,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,1,0,5,10,2,1,8,1,14,0,0,1,3,32,33,6,0,4,2,0,3,5,0,2,0,4,1,2,12,7,0,0,11,0,0,3,2,4,1,0,5,7,26,6,19,24,2,17,0,1,0,0,16,7,0,4,12,90,38,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10360729079099673,0.15182263030114862,0.3658057949294963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09556051122758027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15481116654737803,0.0,0.0,0.12966879779561327,0.15163430275898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237810623650554,0.0,0.13123892435739545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13403262262027416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22476494819614168,0.2117122653464683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08421117417069639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14671638397067902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16700380955092398,0.0,0.09931846939332238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0814330149343394,0.0,0.0,0.15689575690474813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619537021276156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989078538395878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197395272284422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17385124436869884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054515491039461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14094820103573946,0.11783457714355056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048789117984917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11909732067040395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09844077717230593,0.18988890415148546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30851046054930314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13322697293350313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606892892729343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10525915237748064,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,enlightenediver,2018/11/15,"This may sound strange but i have to know how people think about this Hello.. &#x200B; So over the years I came to see more and understand more of reality.. and I am now questioning psychosis and the way they give people like that a diagnosis and a print that you are what they think you are…. what I see is there are 2 types of people on this world… \- people that are conscious or getting conscious \- and people that just are.. and there is nothing wrong with that everybody got his or her process to go through in order to become more conscious now or in another life now to talk about the psychoses or getting conscious part I think there are 2 types of people in this case \- the simple mind that has created a psychoses \- The conscious mind coping with everything wicked stuff that others see ass normal.. Not because many go right is that the right way... now with that said I like to continue I always had problems with people, society, family and more i now see that this is because there is no room for people like me the system is made to keep people like me out.. some know it and some do it subconsciously.. and don’t know it at all.. like family members.. I became wiser in the process because of all the pain stress and what more and i think this is something allot of this sort of people had to go through... To then point and say that human is psychotic is a simple minded western way of thinking and that’s why allot wont be helped how they need to be helped in understanding that it is a process that you wont solve by staying in wickedness… someone ones told me one can be in hell physically because they have become conscious in mind this means.. you see it all more for what it is then most do and it eats on your morals and honesty to yourself and others.. what is good and bad… but to continue………. i understand more than most people around me.. I see this in how i think and how others think in general where their actions will take them in the future and how wickedness lets them do stuff that is just not right and wont help them in wisdom……. If you’re a normal being you can see this clearly also in the world around you its not that hard… but most people don’t know where it comes from they just do…. Wickedness and not being conscious is for me the same because you go through life accepting what has been given to you… When everything they gave is wicked and to keep people in a zombie status.. From family that is just simple and not conscious to schools doing stuff out of love to making you ready to be a slave to countless ""fun"" ways that are actually wicked and subconsciously making you wicked and emotionless in mind.. And I’m not like that..... So the only thing they know is introducing you in to the system but when your woke you see how bad it actually is to do that.. When the system is and always was broken.. its designed to work in away and fall in away i also see that you become what you surround yourself with i see this because i decided instead of giving my life and mind to a therapist and pills (after already trying it and seeing and finally understanding that smartness has nothing to do with being conscious and wise) i saw that they could not help because you only see what you can comprehend and subconscious wickedness can come wrapped in love and willingness to help but not knowing better..….. I will say that again subconscious wickedness can come wrapped in love….. i decided to leave this all and go in to the world.. But I’m still human so i came back and i see clearly how this place keeps pulling on my mind to do wicked stuff that empty headed people see ass normal.. So i will leave again me.. I don’t care about degrees or my status in society or money or simple mindedness or whatever does not push through to become conscious… because I think this is cheating not caring about yourself and others.. I believe that we were given this body to experience gain wisdom and become more conscious.. And the ones doing this are being seen now ass unstable and bad when its the other way around but I do understand that not all are ready to do that.. but people that most of the time subconsciously without knowing are pulling you in to their ways because they never changed them is not right.. I am really sensitive to energy, emotions, simple mindedness, light, thoughts and more.. I don’t let all energy in to my area because I don’t want to take in what they got or ruined my day with strange behavior…I am more on my own and what more….. I know now that this are things they link to psychosis form their perspective but I also know that this to other people is linked to indigo children… you see the perspective of what I mean the simple mind sees it ass wrong when the conscious minded ones see it ass a process.. to go through that most don’t finish.. because they have nowhere to turn to so it evolves in pain, aggression, loneliness, abuse, addiction and more then they turn to the same system to help them and they get dulled down with pills and more to fit back in to the system that is broken in the first place… LISTEN I WANT TO SAY THIS.. DONT TAKE ANY ADVICE FROM SOMEONE THAT IS NOT CONSCIOUS AND THINKS SMARTNESS IS THE KEY JUST DONT.. SMARTNESS YOU GAIN BY COPYING WHAT IS PRESENTED TO YOU.. TO THEN FURTHER AN AGENDA IN THIS CAUSE A BROKEN SYSTEM… WISDOM IS GAINED BY GOING INTO YOURSELF AND THEN INTO THE WORLD, EXPERIENCING AND BY FALLING AND GETTING BACK UP.. FOLLOW WISDOM.. To keep it short what im trying to say is go in to the world and find yourself its a process that a view only understand its difficult but staying in a wicked place when you become conscious… just dont Surround yourself with people that were brave enough to take that step even if the world left you to rot for it.. ""Indigo children"" are real and i am one of them and most likely you are 2 you just gave up or are still in a process or you are to busy and distracted to really see it.. (I am also still in the process I never stop learning just so you know) This is my first time posting anything ever like this so yeah hoop it all makes sense",4.512353896103897,6.0295725467687085,4.7330426716141005,84.93111317254176,70.5561224489796,7.454298082869513,26.88404452690167,7.924219607001951,1.5694255102040824,4809,159,922,62,88,1506,335,1176,0.131,0.7609999999999999,0.10800000000000001,-0.9852,0,0,1,0,1,0,118.0,1,27,23,6,64,43,7,2,46,1,102,18,7,12,12,231,203,106,0,10,45,0,0,8,0,7,8,7,1,3,106,76,1,5,48,0,1,21,29,19,0,7,21,30,102,23,149,164,35,151,2,2,21,7,79,73,6,26,50,701,208,5,0.0,0.03734979331029007,0.061524119405254214,0.034364900535772534,0.0,0.03080406993362344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034786594114190834,0.10083624787324524,0.05245959357271194,0.034155333813195805,0.03830409328463108,0.02143683173556962,0.033054784837743496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02594087710493488,0.08418689479278656,0.0,0.0,0.059234098414777586,0.07271809934428954,0.07896157285105007,0.2113785025647949,0.20888914052907465,0.0,0.03551580974462154,0.0,0.027879675867111955,0.0,0.0350151275743335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07210820094285267,0.06427993093522892,0.03238297173541569,0.03334732650769032,0.08146324071561327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025168680498747927,0.0,0.0,0.020329832213159874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02758613226951992,0.0,0.11083473637886652,0.0,0.0,0.03225606539527025,0.0,0.035459315341339684,0.0,0.03257185393045405,0.0,0.02082075178201105,0.02851450556256037,0.0,0.0,0.056661972347436085,0.030835702120018637,0.08915169742854928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034532084097998184,0.028811599784564813,0.05362717248886385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06587820614262921,0.06047978051767342,0.14332271934261734,0.02644013341969809,0.05042390610609879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028238562162718674,0.0,0.03235185955038922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12677586960321824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034050425315254214,0.0,0.0,0.11207694228804456,0.0,0.0,0.17324305918416366,0.0,0.0,0.0667569558148128,0.034250008707612085,0.06446913961443297,0.0667972265842525,0.12320500070431112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08535265574433193,0.029827978917827524,0.06312586801677399,0.0319595394070263,0.0,0.06867593142230917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864646744115737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02337402584899515,0.04862521311301461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09265801987156994,0.060494649940760974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10680455497601586,0.07192435758130822,0.06708573571091653,0.0,0.0,0.03413651349219515,0.0,0.3715212641107957,0.0,0.09880498754772422,0.0,0.029799578110873186,0.0,0.0301904762345957,0.0,0.0,0.03016340958263016,0.0,0.0,0.03531315684339298,0.0,0.0,0.03588026065917895,0.04038909067878503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10768243544885073,0.02998574663313747,0.10027393748582754,0.0,0.031903123778665124,0.4521578309977712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053418947228008176,0.024268070869519327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671989946854069,0.07552331579482466,0.026354775683755747,0.03610967657651337,0.0,0.1443459186003171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09480598152713847,0.025337124248948188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03660082175441237,0.04188517740512957,0.18178892933149607,0.0,0.025025870157421644,0.03676281955895705,0.0,0.0,0.03012173302991258,0.0,0.042804316725229004,0.06857629822462437,0.0,0.19690034570980264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037186356410439436,0.15012971648311862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028444751387326987,0.0,0.0,0.030387204112257583,0.0,0.02294923801768281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06893126004649593,0.03830409328463108,0.020299883368983057 schizophrenia,yemeraindianaccthai,2018/11/15,"Brothers dosage has been reduced since 1.5 months and he's more active but symptoms are returning. Need advice. So on 4mg risperidone, he's not that active and not all that expressive. My mom reduced his dose to 2mg on a whim so that he got more active and wouldn't spend all his time sleeping. She means well and only wants him to be able to live his life instead of being a zombie and pace rooms all day. In the last 1.5 months - we have seen him become more responsive and active in daily life. I'm not saying that he's become super productive but he is a little less lost and has more energy than he did before. His habit of pacing hasn't reduced. He still paces all day and somehow no one on the Internet or the fucking doctor seems to have an explanation on how we can make his pacing stop and have him focus more on day to day tasks. Now on reducing his dosage, I'm starting to notice that he talks to himself or has conversations with voices in the form of whispers. He used to do this on 4mg but he's definitely doing it a lot more now. What should we do? He's been on 4 mg risperidone for about 3 years now and I'd see him talk to himself/voices in whispers maybe 3x a week but now it's almost daily. How do you guys manage your symptoms? My brother refuses to accept his illness or accept that he is talking to himself when we point it out. I really am at a loss here as to how to handle this.",3.4321796759941137,4.451917745704471,4.736622484045167,85.78443298969073,72.57388316151203,7.192341678939616,24.510063819342168,7.447530270364453,1.0482373097692683,1108,31,229,12,21,368,151,291,0.048,0.823,0.129,0.9796,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,4,2,0,3,16,7,1,0,11,0,23,9,1,5,4,48,37,24,0,4,10,3,0,0,0,2,7,4,1,1,12,16,0,2,4,0,1,0,6,3,1,1,6,6,23,4,35,27,13,36,0,2,2,1,43,17,1,7,19,154,35,2,0.13496123676629113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13188255858536382,0.0,0.0,0.1351441835111807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981081652850221,0.11484207212333047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3481553305988478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13813854462756242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12476948865403995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10794082998561458,0.0,0.0,0.13363284297404618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11001142100084532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19065422561196105,0.0,0.13526661482889274,0.1191732446691148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14732613269867806,0.1147392172392019,0.0,0.0,0.0900876735326779,0.0,0.13558670235489573,0.14701235208080407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15806496935377934,0.2154495431630974,0.0,0.0,0.10007204697458323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15365426257547685,0.0,0.0,0.0914532268570996,0.10264410214701096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12758199207100926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645962415246143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10732659242395276,0.0,0.0,0.10754663221250554,0.12286364116246858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116413297040148,0.0,0.13505870415742546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552625802485427,0.0,0.10778021801809673,0.11283363710076455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28055280146958506,0.0,0.325430189615872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07869698248794044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11656317615962472,0.0,0.0,0.07960363416982938,0.0,0.1082577633976112,0.0,0.1213463600458441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08691061159953177 schizophrenia,schizolady,2018/11/15,"It feels like Muse write all of their music for me. I try not to listen to them anymore, but I love their music. Just can't help feeling that they've written every song to provide me with cryptic messages about myself and the world around me. 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I submitted a question on r/Aspergers (diagnosed Asperger's) about what was happening to me and shcizophrenia was suggested. I decided to post here and after looking up the condition give further relevant info Im 16 as of now and no longer experience this however ever since them I have had a feeling something is not right with me. I was around 14-15 when my paranoia was at its height ; I believed my phone camera was watching and listening to me and sometimes would speak to it to coverup supposed rude words I wouldn't want anyone to hear; then I began to feel a compulsion to say what I didn't want it to hear such as racist slurs and admissions of guilt to things I hadn't done as the camera would hear. I strongly believed this and for a few months I was consumed by fear; paranoia and thoughts of killing myself as I believed the camera had recorded confessions. I still have had other smaller non as severe few weeks long bouts of anxiety and paranoia. However nothing as consuming and disturbing (looking at it now) has happened to me; and as of now im as normal as I ever have been ; however thoughts of suicide over things such as grades in school or self appearance plague my mind often. I was wondering if it could be warning signs of schizophrenia as people had suggested. I still have paranoia that affects social interactions and my behaviour at school as I believed people or teachers have it out for me.",9.341978021978022,8.097328912087914,8.852014652014649,69.00131868131871,60.24542124542124,12.20952380952381,42.97802197802198,11.20814326018867,4.9459802197802185,1175,60,199,26,13,376,147,273,0.168,0.8190000000000001,0.013000000000000001,-0.9893,3,0,1,0,0,2,20.0,0,0,1,1,14,6,2,3,7,0,27,1,0,1,2,45,45,30,2,8,4,0,2,0,0,3,1,6,0,1,14,16,0,0,9,0,0,1,5,5,0,0,18,11,28,1,46,22,2,29,1,0,3,0,16,12,0,7,15,155,42,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08136484973583545,0.0,0.0,0.07436914813018598,0.0,0.0,0.09468264806873636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4793236652621135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08491953494244828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079528173138508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088428607427692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19241680560941132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10404015751982368,0.0,0.11968418865042475,0.10755728095488423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10202987866681504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881069943675792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35962520463503816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22977337111556576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11767120667652982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09412495326148676,0.17863065616695326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073929381296854,0.0,0.08489526687811969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10420988572912122,0.10205496350377184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14747279435874688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018631549500755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11914716215019093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908305695668225,0.0,0.08458147158894776,0.0,0.2152833109093964,0.0,0.0,0.110956322862291,0.12015614313675325,0.0,0.0879818108750937,0.0,0.0,0.10842028045477352,0.0,0.08188086349192912,0.10519242458416918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16987792572670407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163402065341934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14132126578516854,0.0,0.0,0.16887538108357034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254673677762226,0.0,0.08531530473760332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11534251562450484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15110970348621292,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AlexStuartNelson93,2018/11/15,"Does anyone else think they’re part of something bigger? For anyone that believes that the voices you hear are external. Where do you think the voices come from, why do you think you hear them and do you see them being part of something bigger? ",6.3053623188405785,7.322868956521741,5.268260869565221,84.60210144927538,65.95652173913044,7.0028985507246375,24.02898550724637,6.42735559955562,0.7491681159420294,196,4,35,1,3,58,28,46,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,12,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,4,11,2,4,0,0,1,0,9,3,0,0,0,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868496511469191,0.21016990312942616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311002438911425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766929050556335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17950208488389632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17135162152650665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4623707863042772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4442504141319355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16345425658826845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158231298703681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3942982595385385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18508909216210884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Panteisten,2018/11/15,"Could I be developing Schizophrenia? I am a 15 year old male. For the past few months, I’ve been dissociating heavily and regularly. Examples: Coming home from school not remembering anything about what happened. brushing my teeth hours before I go to bed and forgetting it. My mind going blank and me not remembering what class it is at school. And lately, in the past few weeks, I’ve been having mild hallucinations. These include: Feeling blood on my lip, tasting it and seeing it despite there not being any. Hearing my bird squeaking under my chair, as though getting crushed under my chair, despite him being in another room. Seeing things in the corner of my eye more often than I’m comfortable with. Sensing movement despite there not being any (for example seeing a door being opened, despite it not being opened) (Potential early delusion) feeling as though I’m being followed walking home from school, even hearing noisy footsteps behind me, despite there only being two little girls walking, say, 5 meters behind me, who couldn’t have produced such noise on an asphalt sidewalk. I’ve been irregularly fog-minded lately, sitting with a blank expression in my own thoughts without realizing it before someone ‘wakes me up’ and twitching quite a bit, too. I sometimes get an urge to just stop all movement and be still right where I am, as well as being unusually forgetful and emotionless. I don’t really feel much. I believe it’s called ‘Anhedonia’ or ‘flat affect’ or something. Writing is also becoming increasingly hard, I could previously write very easily, but now I can’t even write this post without tapping the wrong keys every third word. I even wrote ‘3’ the wrong way on an important document the other day, which is very unusual. What do you think? I know you aren’t authorized to diagnose me, but is there any resemblance to your early symptoms? Thank you.",7.480695509309971,8.910447343373495,7.426779846659367,68.69483570646223,63.51807228915662,9.771303395399782,36.17524644030668,9.910423181423305,3.943953012048193,1506,70,228,31,22,482,200,332,0.024,0.9109999999999999,0.065,0.9178,2,0,1,0,0,0,46.0,0,4,0,2,19,5,0,0,13,0,28,9,5,2,1,50,50,19,0,3,12,0,4,0,0,0,3,3,5,2,16,13,1,1,9,0,0,9,11,2,1,2,5,13,29,3,32,32,8,46,0,0,4,0,17,19,0,3,15,161,45,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07754566934441437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19782570263597385,0.1016799204389486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07979680802927239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709408281744448,0.1650260920715656,0.10925028636200547,0.0,0.0,0.10586448045468083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09901567375218416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08352977110900606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15484290357526995,0.0,0.0,0.06253665640597117,0.0,0.0,0.09842097989194082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921403265880556,0.0,0.08170013812355928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14709055191189915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132407141846744,0.0,0.11021885917111546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857489186982504,0.0,0.08686472376419647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21858107961565854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945346109330144,0.0,0.0954944334373797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0532913481691516,0.0,0.2187693689926412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09718790518247264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19582107196830092,0.0,0.07739932650428684,0.0,0.07128300017638464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10175212223752554,0.0,0.0,0.073748908994453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851347988203212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09286901235679676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313792909291594,0.0,0.0,0.0621205000573934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21969280087239668,0.08281056375693845,0.0,0.07711323818705483,0.0,0.294411877447578,0.2318140046762817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08216109000162318,0.07465108386976697,0.0959043197055559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07743916429445223,0.08107000265966807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10078739348358058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927556083213556,0.0,0.0,0.06442155843746156,0.062133495319772414,0.1905421053657674,0.07698215247846706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09472412823049063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16001832525980364,0.0,0.07696907675372773,0.07778227656293983,0.0,0.08718632124631709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869483351147638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21203965089136093,0.0,0.0624445306786949 schizophrenia,FrozenToday,2018/11/15,"Medications starting to not work? Hey everybody. I haven't posted in a while, mostly because life has been going relatively well. But I'm finding myself needing some help. It's been over two years since I started taking antipsychotics and I had my antidepressant changed, and for the most part everything has been manageable. The voices had never stopped, but they became managable. I could live with them and on most days ignore them. I have been, at least to my knowledge, been thinking rationally and haven't been delusional. I've met a partner who I love more than anything else, and who drives everything I do. She means everything to me, and more than anything else I want to be healthy for her. But lately things have kind of begun to go sour. I haven't really been vocalizing it to my friends or family, but everything is starting to come back, in the same sorts of ways they came when I first originally started getting symptoms. I find I'm a lot more afraid to do even simple things, like take out the trash or go to the store, I'm beginning to become paranoid that strangers are doing terrible things to me, and worst of all, I'm growing really bitter and irritable. I'm beginning to worry that if I let things continue in this way, I'll be right back where I started before, alone in a hospital somewhere, constantly afraid of everything and tormented by voices that want me dead. I know the simplest solution is to call my psych and make an appointment, and tell him everything that's been going on and maybe adjust some medications, but it doesn't feel like that's an option for me. I'm broke and unemployed right now and I can't even afford a $25 copay. I have insurance, but it's pretty lousy and doesn't help much with psychologist appointments. I also don't want to let slip that my symptoms are getting worse, because I don't want my friends to all be afraid of me. When all of this happened for the first time, I lost a lot of friends because they didn't know what was going on with me, and in the end didn't trust me anymore because of some things I did in psychosis. I don't want that to happen again. I'm afraid if I even slightly suggest I'm slipping, everyone will begin to doubt me. What should I do? I really can't afford to see somebody right now, but if I wait too much longer, I'm afraid things are going to get a lot worse. I can't bear to lose somebody like my partner because of stupid schizophrenia. I think that would be the worst possible outcome for me.",6.2413978341407805,6.55323105371901,6.375990310629812,79.07599173553722,65.94214876033058,9.73371330863494,32.5987460815047,9.581879112588783,2.890799601025933,1986,77,380,37,29,634,216,484,0.14400000000000002,0.741,0.115,-0.9771,4,1,0,1,0,0,51.0,0,0,5,5,14,25,2,6,18,0,49,6,0,2,4,76,99,32,1,12,13,0,1,3,5,3,5,2,0,2,24,22,0,3,10,0,1,10,15,15,1,3,17,6,52,10,52,72,22,58,0,3,1,1,23,16,0,17,32,265,76,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07320293058937187,0.0,0.056522590218284464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07009534418935298,0.0,0.0,0.11632686439092693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10869676774318868,0.0,0.21542867287606787,0.07806025802689713,0.06014328238020336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07217195234752559,0.08083883284498901,0.0,0.0,0.07476982973181917,0.060884367410022525,0.0,0.07637972690152815,0.0,0.05643204875904999,0.0,0.0,0.04558260743042989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11808776450914242,0.0,0.06260130143431547,0.0,0.0,0.14004997359567287,0.0,0.0,0.06753755355334085,0.3811345437580875,0.0,0.06663060116176589,0.0,0.03573781773151733,0.05049364510259032,0.0,0.0,0.12920006703964312,0.12024036034992372,0.0,0.0,0.16382105560061905,0.0,0.110781795098015,0.0,0.2410136683553368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12500378252499564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475032610835092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07360210875769439,0.07768751137775425,0.0,0.07972986435234379,0.0,0.0,0.14454971647626386,0.04992321505504125,0.10359170310075977,0.0,0.062411535892546326,0.0,0.0,0.07907258860041898,0.07715532328051608,0.18026825051771864,0.06379125610654826,0.0,0.04717929838842313,0.0,0.07100733360134523,0.07699099503427924,0.0,0.14240487405669874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391553371226153,0.05240815729181385,0.05451259944774111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765393082069343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0796808260394734,0.06769168638039644,0.07190674061419232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358378204192473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18108042398304608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05632262942147455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058467039940547035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25013754127246424,0.0,0.0,0.059091456403267385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14692669724055346,0.10628478859778173,0.0,0.06177723834474488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28173900976556754,0.09057749128945154,0.0,0.0,0.04121394496573681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06904386961928917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20844381156868005,0.11220463042257572,0.0,0.0,0.06354960567247014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05145571770682799,0.07177874199253939,0.14405745733567815,0.050208883979868515,0.0,0.0,0.045515457520248964 schizophrenia,perfume-and-whisky,2018/12/23,"I need guidance from all of you on how to support my (35f) brother (42m) who has schizophrenia A long back story but I’ll try to condense it. We share a father, but have different mothers. My 2 brothers were adopted by their amazing step dad as young children. Thus, we didn’t have the opportunity to grow and have a bond together. They didn’t know about me until 20 years ago, or so, when I found them. I always knew about them. At that point, the idea of me was very overwhelming to him but we spoke on the phone a few times. Just over the past two years, we have really put effort into our relationship and I’ve gone to visit him a few times. I’ve supported him through some thought times and he’s built a relationship (only online) with my two oldest children. He’s even had some conversations with my mother to get some closure about why our father made the choices he did. Fast forward to now, and where I need guidance. He perseverates on how our father decided to be a father to me, but not him (and our brother). He gets angry about the relationship I have/had with our dad. He gets angry about “family photos” my dad puts on Facebook, of which I’m not even in and he goes looking for. They are not Facebook friends. My mother somehow managed to delete some people on Facebook, two of those happened to be me and my brother. I don’t know how she did it, it wasn’t malicious and she’s not tech savvy. This set him off. He decided that was it and he wants nothing to do with me. Part of his messages to me was: “*Listen that family of yours has no interest in me and never has that's what the post was about after I saw that your mother had unfriended me that put me over the edge I understand that no one on that side gives two fucks about me or my brother so it is what it is have a good day*” It’s been about a month and he refuses to talk to me. I don’t want to push him but he’s my brother and I love him. I can’t control our father or what he chose to do before I was even born. It took a long time to work up to having a relationship due to his schizophrenia, OCD and anxiety, I don’t want to throw it all away. Please help me ",1.9897435897435896,3.751068954751133,3.5132579185520365,90.060173453997,77.77828054298642,6.524283559577677,23.098039215686285,7.419758726546812,0.8159966817496231,1666,52,364,22,39,550,201,442,0.054000000000000006,0.856,0.08900000000000001,0.9384,1,0,0,0,0,0,48.0,10,3,5,5,23,11,1,1,19,0,34,2,0,6,3,64,62,29,0,5,13,18,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,24,22,0,2,9,0,0,11,14,2,0,5,22,4,63,9,61,38,9,54,0,1,2,2,79,19,1,8,24,257,87,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08603726458561012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076116106758363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07425014315953044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119046178156752,0.07463265513780859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08259036484585497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10886032305234378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06259525634975588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140637101406656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19232037158860285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18299784920486034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10642057623194648,0.07498781917685815,0.08972981242015125,0.15212852563623033,0.09310818027878644,0.0,0.08140878448846324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582926968124344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06505684170247629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10956820100650533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10668256960260604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717889549907553,0.0815054156440946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08759985998950696,0.09183991127816228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774718535059334,0.0,0.0,0.14393656815294112,0.07485816036151083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313107164700284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06576993285480917,0.07381801537412899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051058262816196,0.09265413964722287,0.0672887378814288,0.0,0.0,0.10654202863791064,0.0917524656085076,0.0,0.09295603522012548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927143881071224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06217871004207199,0.0,0.0,0.4168217078994153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22028361836553986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07801263536754087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07705428856739352,0.2263843685776355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078365179461971,0.06589693289641274,0.0,0.3792515577170235,0.10104221459570496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08008413517723371,0.1717443720994969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08758097392177455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066036855033841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12500608859222245 schizophrenia,Ashido_,2018/12/23,"DAE delusions about their FP? DAE = does anyone experience FP = favorite person (for the people who aren't familiar with the terms) Does anyone else experience delusions about their FP? I have a reoccurring delusion that my FP can read my thoughts at all times and its pretty stressful sometimes. Does anyone else experience this?",5.547894736842107,8.833515982456143,5.297456140350878,74.00302631578948,73.3859649122807,7.308771929824562,30.552631578947373,8.344100000000001,2.8465578947368426,269,12,40,5,6,83,40,57,0.055999999999999994,0.83,0.114,0.5329999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,5,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,22,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3627784750025872,0.3544022296181138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4540322245719717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288944305599628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5075159610272679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989728892278162,0.1510076459030373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17594577491634875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17299036104660714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710456030578089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19810626373701146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372978687070003,0.10084478064807588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,amazonite23,2018/12/23,"Confused and scared, therapist thinks i have schizophrenia I just want to know if this sounds familiar to any of you: My therapist thought I had dissociative identity disorder with ptsd but now shes thinking i might have schizophrenia. I hear voices one thats really abusive and a couple others. There was friend that i had that helped me keep things together but i thought i saw shadows take her. The voices i hear ive heard when i was younger and now they are back. I see things in carpets and feel like im in wonderland where walls arent always straight and tiles change colors with messages. The thing is i dont see or hear things all the time but when i do i cant sleep for days at a time like im not allowed to. ",3.8900378787878793,5.376795958333336,4.101565656565659,88.9727272727273,72.05555555555556,7.736363636363637,27.674242424242426,8.296473431620573,1.689633333333334,574,21,120,9,11,178,91,144,0.1,0.812,0.087,-0.1873,2,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,0,8,5,0,2,5,0,15,1,1,1,1,26,31,12,0,2,7,0,1,2,1,1,0,7,1,0,9,7,0,1,6,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,8,12,21,3,10,22,1,14,0,0,4,0,11,6,0,4,10,79,30,0,0.0,0.15925578892990047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184123419315506,0.0,0.0,0.09140450984142684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10335423799491407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14218967016939454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14872389946787362,0.0,0.08668437442269036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15404735983026155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15752941599269807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0679625529982433,0.09602368720832308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10384608313363226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.454474988815771,0.0,0.09009327469456307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903752265469953,0.0,0.0,0.11947122248207992,0.0,0.0,0.0738691104333427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313334549422278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425894864779434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108079138593893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571199893377319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08610752470267477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13456947854836412,0.0,0.21421731543958286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13450868909676694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10106080947989016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121244980156672,0.35718842761493963,0.17225107583383242,0.0,0.21341562254265034,0.1567529914693338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07927945515486177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mellowneko,2018/12/23,Let’s post ourselves (read) I’m interested in seeing what others with the same illness or same symptoms look like.....not some photoshopped or filtered photo....just you. What do you look like? What does Schizophrenia look like?,3.558461538461536,6.78508061538462,2.6783333333333346,87.43750000000001,89.0,4.651282051282052,24.448717948717945,6.42735559955562,1.1005179487179488,180,7,29,2,6,52,30,39,0.065,0.742,0.193,0.6553,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,6,7,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,3,2,6,3,2,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,3,2,16,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234391046139175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27388741796572363,0.0,0.3925634000063628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6747615020601992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565193713612952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26791528995061714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21343604015745046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783912325698317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Steve-Evans-1978,2018/12/23,"Relationships and psychosis Hi. This study is still looking for additional participants. It is trying to analyse the link between relationships and psychosis. I’ve completed it and it’s really interesting, hopefully they get good participant numbers when it is published. They’re still open for participants: [link here](https://www.psych-ssl.manchester.ac.uk/survey/cpollard/)",10.793450134770891,15.792429207547169,8.736442048517524,45.91226415094339,68.24528301886792,12.085175202156336,43.42048517520215,10.608840637214634,7.509056064690027,320,19,31,12,7,96,39,53,0.0,0.8320000000000001,0.168,0.8347,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,6,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,4,6,0,4,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,3,20,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30521745186912946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15209004754420985,0.0,0.0,0.24416458093414894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28913237848741874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24445440107786154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864889492681216,0.0,0.0,0.6250744208565088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4649527408224734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19764079646439736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WholesomePineapples,2018/12/23,Combating drowsiness caused by antipsychotics Does anyone have any advice on how to reduce the drowsiness from antipsychotics? 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I’m 18 female and in hs. I have no friends, I got separated from my middle school friends and people in this high school knew each other and they don’t accept me to their “group”. Never been in a relationship. Men avoid me because I’m very reserved and ugly. Sometimes it happens before my period, sometimes after (it has no connection to my problem). Also I have hypothyroidism which isn’t related to this as well. After a month of feeling calm and happiness, I start feeling depressed, very anxious, suddenly shy and very weak. At these times I can’t concentrate, my memory and social skills become worse. All of my senses increase and everything I feel, see, hear become 100 times sharper/brighter. I start worrying about stupid things and overthink everything, check everything 100 times. At these times I feel like I’m a pro at faking emotions. I can’t sleep, I have insomnia, obsessive thoughts and I overeat. For example if someone criticizes me, I become very upset and think that I really am as bad as someone told me and punish myself for it. I tend to fuck up every relationship I have because of lack of social skills and this condition. It’s like I have two completely different personalities: one that is normal and another, which experiences these symptoms and goes insane. Also if I eat something with gluten, drink coffee, black tea, milk, take iodine and magnesium supplements my symptoms become a lot worse. I sweat a lot and feel cold. I have no idea what’s going on with me. I’m afraid of myself. I’m afraid that I might fuck up and my family will think that I’m really mentally ill. I need your opinion, what should I do? 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My doctor wants me to think about going to Claresholm for anywhere from 3 months to a year. It is a hospital and rehab center. If I go I lose my room Im renting and will have to look for a new place. 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Hi everyone, this 20yo dude, has been my bestfriend for half my life, he has always been the most extroverted person i know, and i'm introverted, so he basically adopted me? we were always together, always doing things, going places, or just listening to music for hours. He would go and talk to everybody, he loved meeting people, and talking to others, super friendly, everybody loved him. 6 months ago he was smoking a lot of weed, and he would get super weird all of a sudden and irritated, and suspicious me and others who were smoking wanted to do bad to him. Then he started to be obcessed with astrology and wouldn't talk about anything else, for real! Everyday he would talk about something he read about the signs and numerology, and then he even started forgetting some people's names and calling them by their sign! I could see in his eyes he wasn't here in this world. Then he started being obcessed with a girl and that was another story, he would go into her house and she would warn him about calling the cops and he wouldn't leave saying he loved her like crazy. It all ended up well. He had a psychosis. He started taking medication and now we can't even have a conversation. I start talking and he will look around like he's not there, and will be staring at people leaving them unconfortable. 3 days ago he was diagnozed with schizophrenia. What I want to know is, with the medication and continuous treatment \- Will he ever be the same happy man he was before? Or will this change his personality forever?",5.186529780564263,6.954148148275862,5.704702194357368,77.64097178683387,69.24137931034483,8.445141065830724,29.043887147335425,8.97023862654752,2.4515517241379308,1233,46,219,23,22,397,158,290,0.047,0.831,0.122,0.975,0,0,1,0,0,0,37.0,2,0,3,2,15,12,0,0,11,0,35,7,1,0,4,56,56,24,0,10,4,0,0,2,1,12,3,2,0,4,10,26,0,0,2,1,0,3,5,2,1,1,10,6,21,10,27,28,7,31,0,0,4,3,58,8,0,5,22,146,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16747991660164446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358142007198316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990576700481483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07773890701857075,0.08409632360032546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07887662324185821,0.0,0.0,0.08038509524393134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929242646492452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09993435087844786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07542480946799088,0.0,0.0,0.060923882015590285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789156811994591,0.0,0.08367038477181447,0.0,0.0,0.12479011255410374,0.17090297198830692,0.0,0.09026798106241074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729855473809421,0.0,0.04935549905613865,0.0,0.16106459374264304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005626738341314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09303170220864343,0.10900309713216716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10383400696168753,0.0,0.0,0.20005540907262995,0.0,0.0,0.06672536380228719,0.09230433935629476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07932911558963256,0.0,0.0,0.08031310072568458,0.2557824911569564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19033263418984472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07540325477943327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19647612455294966,0.16497118665182986,0.09869868970213523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09449331181386644,0.10752497827667408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07512454446956422,0.0,0.0,0.07527856397681654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07272588730188907,0.0,0.0,0.3343237895158235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07102798946359158,0.3796479853281935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06276017380951009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114390501006092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493785012268097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355358870587455,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,1draw4u,2018/12/23,"Psychiatrist and Psychologist simultaneously Hello to you all, I'm from germany and therefore my question is mainly adressed to german readers. Since one and a half years, I am in ambulant treatment at a psychotherapeutic facility by a psychiatrist. They have a psychologist at that facility, too, but I did not get along with her very well. Therefore, I'd like to find a psychologist elsewhere, but they told me at the facility, I had to take the psychologist they offer, otherwise my health insurance wouldn't pay. Is that true? I'm considering calling my health insurance. Moreover, I'd like to know how to find a local self help group or group therapy. Thanks in advance",6.7521195144724535,8.89023192436975,7.712885154061624,63.31528478057891,65.89075630252101,11.003174603174603,36.7516339869281,10.980518767755715,4.761133706816062,545,28,87,17,9,183,76,119,0.0,0.816,0.184,0.9688,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,3,1,3,5,0,0,8,0,7,2,0,3,2,19,14,7,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,4,0,1,1,2,0,1,2,3,0,12,5,15,10,2,8,0,0,0,0,14,6,0,2,3,58,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288604639703952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4096991466341101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170979962941897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4764766592765294,0.0,0.0,0.15022874461041855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12317527322113354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21899592536967152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15187540906267846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510754406536874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338151169798373,0.0,0.0,0.1854015784876849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16851689084393776,0.0,0.0,0.20634759628456387,0.2563107039007735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21416457971394934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18492965191743915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20151861999387646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144331535826412 schizophrenia,Cuckleberry_Finn_,2018/12/23,"I think it's in its onset Here's a few accounts of what's happened to me in the last year and a half, that I can remember rn Before treatment I remember smoking w 3 friends late one night, and after just a few puffs I was already almost unable to stand, my vision was reduced to a few ""jumping"" frames, only updating every half second or so. We make it back to the dorm and I crash on a bean bag for a few minutes. There were three other people in the room the whole time, but I remember closing my eyes and hearing the door open and close and I heard 6 total voices. I opened my eyes, saw nothing had changed, and closed my eyes again. I heard the same 6 voices and when I opened them again, I got up and went to another friend's room a few doors down because I ""didn't trust the people I was with."" I remember I was trying to brush my teeth when multiple voices in my head were arguing about me AND toward me. I remember the voices using the words he/him. ""What's wrong with him?"" ""Why is he doing that?"" In reference to brushing my teeth. At a friend's house over summer (I stayed w them in a different state and worked for their family business), while we were home but his parents weren't, I remember hearing his parents talking to one another from the kitchen with knocking intermittently. While working over summer, I remember being pissed off during my shift but I went outside and for a moment I thought my boss could hear me complaining in my head. I also remember looking at pavement and seeing it warp similar to how an acid trip starts, which made me very uncomfortable at work. While on Risperdal .5mg daily (Nov to Dec) I remember thinking about this little box in the ceiling of my dorm, and for a period of about 3-5s, my thoughts were racing about what it could be, I had a distinct thought ""what if it's a listening device put in by [university]?"" and that's when I whipped my head from focusing on my pc to staring at the box. Once I looked at it, I remember thinking that was obviously not the case and I was imagining things. This was my first delusion. Latuda 20mg daily (Dec 12 onwards) 21 Dec 18, 7:30am Unable to sleep through the night, tossing and turning, just end up scrolling through my phone Scrolling through my phone in bed when I finally notice weird gibberish in a high pitch voice after my tinnitus subsided a bit. Once I noticed the voices, I tried to discern what they were saying, but they stopped once I focused on them. This happened a few hours later as well. I've also had a few instances of really weird perception changes. I remember showering one day and when I looked down, I suddenly got this condensed ""snapping out of it"" feeling. Like I was in a haze, and looking down from a perspective that was higher than my eye level. In an instant it went back t normal vision, but I just stood there confused for a minute. Also, walking around campus I've had moments where I feel like I'm just floating along. Like, I know my legs work cause I'm moving, but it doesn't feel like I'm actually doing anything other than coasting on auto pilot through a hazy dream scape. Also, these past few months I e had very poor concentration and memory, when I text I second guess what I write so much that the final message I write is either too wordy or the structure to the message is lost after being rewritten/partially deleted multiple times. This past August I blacked out by smoking too much weed (had no tolerance, smoked a blunt to myself) and I literally broke my fall w my face, so I'm worried that did something as well. I failed all my classes this semester. Now the second time in three semesters. I just don't know. Anybody got any insight? 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My mind feels like nails on a chalkboard. Absorbed in dreamlike state, altered realities, and approach into nihilism. Any pre-bed recommendations to avoid this? Sometimes predestining things todo before bed helps root me in reality. 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I'm thinking that maybe, once a week or so, we choose a subject or topic, and then on a certain day, we can all share our artistic take on it? One poem that's been sticking in my head is Yeats' ""The Second Coming"". Maybe we can all have a stab at representing something like it through art and then collectively choose a new topic every week. Turning and turning in the widening gyre The falcon cannot hear the falconer; Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold; Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world, The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere The ceremony of innocence is drowned; The best lack all conviction, while the worst Are full of passionate intensity. Surely some revelation is at hand; Surely the Second Coming is at hand. The Second Coming! Hardly are those words out When a vast image out of Spiritus Mundi Troubles my sight: somewhere in sands of the desert A shape with lion body and the head of a man, A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun, Is moving its slow thighs, while all about it Reel shadows of the indignant desert birds. The darkness drops again; but now I know That twenty centuries of stony sleep Were vexed to nightmare by a rocking cradle, And what rough beast, its hour come round at last, Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born? 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Hello, my name is Chloé (23F) and I have been lurking for a long time but now felt like the time to create an account for me. I have been diagnosed this summer with Schizophrenia. Like I said in the title, I am looking for a penpal. I would like to send real letters, not email, but we can get to know ourselves via DMs if you want. I am French but I can write in English quite well, so it's up to you !",1.2790168539325857,2.9449654831460705,2.8026825842696645,94.78357443820228,79.56179775280899,4.899438202247191,21.2373595505618,5.148860815047168,-0.16804606741573025,324,9,73,1,8,106,61,89,0.013999999999999999,0.7909999999999999,0.195,0.9457,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,2,0,1,3,4,0,0,6,0,10,1,0,0,0,15,17,6,0,3,5,0,1,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,4,4,12,4,12,12,0,9,0,0,2,0,10,3,0,1,8,51,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26534375126085197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510117206132724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365852546515855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14367390213424114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3831613073779007,0.0,0.0,0.23135540884536795,0.4390670811279087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780606841431277,0.0,0.2975621120276991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24867773909555616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30488134788000704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541969114607644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350550214347729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18571083447676867,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jakooz,2018/12/23,"Feeling watched After I get a dose of stress from my family and school, I go upstairs and when I am not at my computer I start feeling like I am being watched, mostly from my windows and Im waiting to see someone but actually nobody is there. Anybody feels the same?",2.6211320754717,4.8164065849056605,4.3515471698113215,82.74392452830193,77.49056603773585,6.504150943396226,31.35471698113208,7.554174236665415,2.278263396226416,211,11,39,3,5,71,40,53,0.039,0.872,0.08800000000000001,0.09,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,11,12,5,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,6,8,1,6,11,2,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,4,29,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.2963397979067236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28627467573594056,0.0,0.4606366446144695,0.21694314063557232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15865594244569547,0.0,0.1725836391321276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3280175727537087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14835866552319665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30733199742003675,0.2419870478893463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573000666887394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21494040956739988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34785493437707843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SzStarsReadArt,2018/12/23,"/u/oppopoopo is a predatory fucking cunt, and does not belong here. For the last few months, I've been in a shit place. I deleted social media accounts, unfriended my pen pal, and basically hid. A few weeks ago, he made a post about missing me here. /u/oppopoopo sent him private messages, pretending to be me, and claimed I had moved to a new address. My friend contacted my husband about this at the time, and was able to clear that up before he was tricked into sending anything to this con artist. I check in on him, something I have done occasionally, because I still care about him. I saw his post, sent him a long overdue apology for my absence, and told /u/oppopoopo he was a fucking cunt for pretending to be me. Then I told my husband, and got the rest of the story. Checking his post history, he just likes to troll mental health subreddits, preying on people for attention. That is seriously fucked up. I reported him to the mods of this sub, but don't know what else I can do except warn people about him. I hope he gets his face chewed off by rats.",3.692143472022956,5.580524882926833,4.424160688665712,84.82163558106171,73.34146341463416,7.360114777618362,29.619799139167863,8.124751697461798,2.077820659971306,831,36,161,13,17,266,124,205,0.084,0.84,0.076,-0.109,0,0,1,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,0,0,8,13,7,0,12,0,14,7,2,1,1,16,29,8,0,1,4,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,6,7,1,0,2,3,3,4,2,9,0,0,13,1,27,4,28,14,3,26,0,1,1,3,27,10,6,1,10,103,33,2,0.15032259433147574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332519099285175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12370268681968373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09163525826059092,0.0,0.12791345599385695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15326390339667514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13154831530556144,0.153832204891099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12557523858994654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11613886348918027,0.4169124485803053,0.0785373512019177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12022671091721235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15978588837294255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14930425441882694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08261336656911132,0.12253297766955346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07344002650282867,0.0,0.0,0.13303076560717894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14223887340471675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15148981883461027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998606063417927,0.1597691281123157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451824983247143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084295190593359,0.0,0.15705511654311974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4319024770995312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15430398288753416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15323495435025258,0.0,0.11572567721385747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004781801272768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876543136169648,0.0,0.0,0.28727936163396384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12057971785359778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thaw6667,2018/12/23,"Hey, I'm making a blog post with advice about how to deal with certain symptoms, and how to live life with sz. Care to give your advice? I'm mainly looking for the ways you cope with delusions, hallucinations, voices. As well, tell me what makes you feel *alive* and what helps you feel like you have a purpose. **More specifically**: What do you believe in? Are you spiritual? What keeps you motivated and why? Do you do anything creatively? Drawing, painting, music, etc.? Any music you identify with? Any movies or books that resonate with you? What's the main thing you'd like other schizophrenics, or anyone who is dealing with these challenges (mental health stuff, crises) to know? What do you most want the world to know? I hope all these questions aren't too overwhelming, but I want to get a sense of how we all really get to experience being alive, and the good things we find in life. Definitely don't try to answer all of them if you don't want to. I'm hoping for a variety of responses. **Please read**: If you choose to respond, you should know I'll be linking to this subreddit. Please let me know if you are okay with me sharing your username, or if you definitely are not okay with that. I can post your words anonymously. I will be deleting this reddit thread *before* I post the blog so that anyone who chooses to visit this sub from my blog won't be able to identify who said what. You can PM me as well, of course. Just let me know if you're okay with me sharing your username or not. I will not post anything you have said unless you give me permission!",1.6405034810663963,4.345529314569538,2.473046357615896,91.12426303277296,86.98013245033111,5.349091526574972,20.657497028357955,6.900799576094004,0.5419136355917821,1231,39,244,17,39,385,150,302,0.0,0.8059999999999999,0.19399999999999998,0.9945,0,0,0,0,0,0,55.0,2,24,1,2,9,16,0,1,9,3,26,5,0,6,4,63,52,21,0,11,15,0,2,2,0,4,5,3,0,0,22,16,0,1,14,5,0,1,7,1,2,0,2,6,41,15,36,39,8,9,0,1,1,0,44,3,0,13,2,166,63,4,0.10374197492650566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20275091446736773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14109620082785526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14507760197935007,0.0,0.17074161195077114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0882767797049576,0.11688168023393462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10577185747776184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139068417087895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11569972499565245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014795580023818,0.0,0.0,0.10491011924083203,0.07411328761612238,0.0,0.0,0.0948182856384847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084018002139749,0.19903751084137308,0.0,0.08701384656369045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11027286815342248,0.0,0.0,0.0695360590062586,0.0,0.0,0.20607837813367666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09221063397049656,0.0,0.0,0.28506938166288737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21216639619239344,0.14655204981056102,0.10136617747905743,0.0,0.0916060645011929,0.0,0.08711713085422755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849714766615995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10454751035300827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22775507067783934,0.0,0.0,0.3974245401961137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11621475438400487,0.0,0.10377004897825634,0.0,0.06645976560300787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973647496566463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875974124080613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10782763404139203,0.0,0.0,0.09067505869840528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13784311683191627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07043399117301455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18356911402062234,0.08234555090520161,0.0,0.0,0.18655298873851064,0.0,0.09361099633919523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Dee_DaLuckyFlame,2018/12/23,"Is there any female schizophrenics who have been through pregnancy and mother hood? I have a few questions because I myself am a diagnosed schizophrenic, and I’m possibly expecting. I’m on 400 mg of quetiapine and 30 mg of mirtazapine I have no idea what to expect. Will I have to be weaned off my antipsychotics and anti depressants? Is cbd a better option than the pills for my baby? Did the stress of pregnancy make your symptoms act worse did they also change in any ways? Really need parenting advice. Not sure how people feel about schizophrenics reproducing but I would love to have children of my own. ",4.99675675675676,7.595717549549551,5.429090090090091,75.90904054054054,71.70270270270271,9.124684684684683,28.21711711711712,9.642632912329526,3.0810100900900905,492,19,81,13,10,157,81,111,0.102,0.8290000000000001,0.069,0.4988,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,1,4,5,0,1,5,0,14,7,0,2,1,17,20,7,0,4,2,2,1,0,0,2,6,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,1,11,3,14,14,2,5,0,1,0,1,8,3,0,2,0,58,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21358172509207773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747884274625682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972669204074226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13323677778013476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19330527685259385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312155354168641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882519500651176,0.22184150901105745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11051434370067324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24673621161443646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19726578873447706,0.0,0.1458955674581264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620651028884341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24269344949869184,0.0,0.0,0.15152725075950482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464021239750737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24484572893487785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400199986667891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25036844262291685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20599737247992936,0.22717542016181025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17348878412897248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22273905295845647,0.15526414910569386,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,msrosekat,2018/12/23,"Likelihood of getting into Grad school? Hi guys, I have two misdemeanors that are related to my last psychotic episode in the process of getting expunged on my record, and my last therapist (who I don’t see anymore) told me that because of them it would be unlikely if I could get into graduate school. I’m wondering if this is true. Graduate school is really my only hope of getting out of this rough patch I’m in. Please let me know.",6.3707142857142856,6.657434642857144,6.8358095238095276,75.97585714285717,65.66666666666667,11.481904761904767,37.03809523809524,11.20814326018867,4.332055238095238,346,17,65,10,5,113,59,84,0.0,0.9009999999999999,0.099,0.8055,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,9,0,0,0,1,12,20,3,0,5,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,10,2,12,15,0,8,0,0,1,0,5,6,0,4,2,42,16,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18329131088965225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126642698208485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14756335549610092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3862423043176148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830003916045502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18356749491999366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157198002849828,0.3013051683415542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18899049093824355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056358055967286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20287634325488166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11840012324631605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.561141693044433,0.14727723643851126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21458971884777428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17660298081469766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18054182510649508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004288959948781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312904911076022,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pieRRe90210,2018/12/23,"Looking for help Don’t really know why but I figured I might give this a shot for some advice or something. I’m 19 years old now and was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder at 17 however I’ve had my first severe symptoms around 8 years old I have severe cycles of depression and mania switching even multiple times in a single day. My question to anyone else under similar circumstances will this ever actually get better or am I just doomed to succumb to my own brain until I can’t even fight it anymore and I end up dead or homeless Any words of encouragement really are appreciated ",5.875067567567568,7.493162126126126,6.936565315315317,70.04376689189192,67.37837837837839,10.234684684684686,31.893018018018022,10.411451182825502,3.7502153153153137,480,20,78,13,8,161,86,111,0.23199999999999998,0.66,0.10800000000000001,-0.96,1,0,1,0,1,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,6,5,1,0,2,0,9,3,1,0,1,17,14,8,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,1,9,2,14,10,3,16,1,2,1,0,5,5,0,6,11,53,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.1611932583910442,0.0,0.0,0.16141339209098238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232904397301816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16381560357398384,0.1154987039808459,0.16924790621269242,0.0,0.14704650270123032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14608956095102252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18439711657735136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10652836411674317,0.0,0.1422705328119853,0.16765568524469807,0.0,0.0,0.1893122416642312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13798789806574596,0.0,0.14630172799033014,0.0,0.0,0.21820156740719684,0.1494160699078979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14050324905650405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08630048514095776,0.15845708939291872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11071763781016523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09077939992796703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387108081594184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17523140515121166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3466602709618323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18504101710635434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21163892121985287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3732160218734323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271647430678553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716867637069764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631862641246056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490505578810394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21274286421888047 schizophrenia,Lenoresam,2018/12/23,"Dad with schizophrenia seeking asylum Just would like to hear your thoughts about this. My dad has untreated schizophrenia and very, very long story short - my brother got in a car accident in the car my dad usually drives. My dad thinks that ""they"" meant to hit him. So he bought a bus ticket to D.C. to go to the Embassy and ask for asylum in Russia. My question is more or less about the Embassy. How does this work? I mean is it even possible he will be given asylum or will the Embassy decide he needs to be put in a psych unit? None of this is new, he thinks he is someone very important in politics. I tried to find information online but I am not getting any answers that satisfy my questions.. thoughts? I've never been really open about this because it's hard to talk about.. so please be kind. Thanks",3.2871428571428574,5.417305343949046,3.7402593266606026,88.22065286624206,75.17834394904459,6.778707916287535,25.863967242948128,7.7094869923839395,1.4058247497725196,637,23,125,9,14,199,99,157,0.022000000000000002,0.853,0.125,0.9585,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,1,1,9,3,0,0,7,0,13,0,0,1,1,25,29,8,0,2,5,5,1,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,8,4,0,0,12,1,1,5,3,0,0,0,7,2,12,3,20,15,3,16,0,0,0,0,19,7,0,4,5,75,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248120791546486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546315338423213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100829474621218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14474720507521552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924857455790636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511773561373566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641739009794525,0.0,0.09400358686538893,0.0,0.13228964840963392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14817057021482175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864236815668821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722440624540585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08080862572996242,0.0,0.0,0.14637839691012128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18017475288298945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12264585988142113,0.12757068706714486,0.15974937276487586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18156523923681647,0.0,0.18646951029510087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16627791111853274,0.3705833572843092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596280649576748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14014728911196472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13294643423902294,0.0,0.1522828851750496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21196994664859045,0.0,0.2626265055550731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11229927324710508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18217045941513765,0.4094298376449556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041695549092195,0.0,0.0,0.1174991082992981,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mcv3igh68,2018/12/23,"Anyone ever think they are apart of a University psychological experiment? Obviously Im schizophrenic, Im on medication, but I get this feeling all the time, wonder if others do. It's the most common thing I ruminate about. ",4.8827500000000015,7.846793774999997,7.780000000000005,57.09500000000003,73.75,11.0,30.0,10.686352973137794,4.57,181,8,27,7,4,66,35,40,0.0,0.945,0.055,0.2353,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,3,9,6,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,6,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,3,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123489419886577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747073626584347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970696576353617,0.0,0.0,0.15355611425025845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158666860156538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6560802897479089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30593836583311274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017598831268433,0.19459396913145385,0.0,0.0,0.1770856096868299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32934169309426736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MattFellows1995,2019/02/05,"A poem about how schizophrenia feels for me. An excuse retains the answer, But sleep won’t ever come, Respiring thoughts of a red light, When met with “maybe these tablets are the ones”, Series of events maybe traumatised the chemicals, Where does my biter lay? How does a pill remedy the symptoms, But skin the cat in a different way? Trepanning seems to be a thought, But from that hole sprouts an ugly pine, When flies are near our skin, We are irritated by the outside, If you saw it walking down the street, Would it coil you down to your core? Would you open arms with acceptance? Or flick the fly once more? An unknown cause causes an unknown fear, The tight rope wears thin and slack, A struggle to shuffle to the other side, With such a weight upon my back.",6.227708333333332,6.890202465277778,5.154166666666665,86.6075,66.0138888888889,8.066666666666668,29.88888888888889,7.793537801064563,1.7282555555555552,601,20,118,6,9,177,104,144,0.10800000000000001,0.863,0.028999999999999998,-0.9163,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,2,4,0,0,9,3,0,2,21,0,7,8,5,4,1,27,14,10,0,3,5,0,6,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,7,1,2,6,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,4,9,9,1,18,6,1,18,0,0,2,0,8,10,0,3,5,76,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14445204127164402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38596605894293823,0.0,0.1618239683941592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19627276108405248,0.0,0.0,0.3287935042076687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16992929840734147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21139369966574095,0.09498719840701292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37745940369468495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20006379551466946,0.12729817849349415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171019856385159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18799475556829165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19639110525004366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952575202957563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29827826041406785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491137983326752,0.0,0.2287617571949685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26689940948377977,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NotSoGenericUser,2019/02/05,"Anyone experience tardive akathisia? Possibly withdrawal akathisia? I've been on literally every atypical. All except one (Seroquel) gave me akathisia to varying degrees and I'd eventually drop out and it'd be gone the very next day. Trying the partial agonists last. I'd been on Rexulti a few months, then directly to Abilify a few months, to giving up and being on nothing a few months. Unfortunately this time it only lessened when I quit. Not went away. It's been about three months and I'm starting to fear it may be permanent. I was hoping someone could tell me if they'd had a similar experience and how that went for them. Particularly if they found anything that helped with it since even the things I took and helped while it was worse no longer help with the residual akathisia. So no benztropine or trihexyphenidyl.",4.576599999999999,7.464603459999997,4.829999999999998,78.245,74.4,8.266666666666666,31.33333333333333,9.029198982220553,3.142733333333333,669,32,114,16,15,210,99,150,0.08800000000000001,0.8390000000000001,0.073,-0.4809,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,3,1,5,2,0,1,8,0,13,0,0,1,1,20,23,14,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,9,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,1,0,2,12,0,8,1,15,4,4,23,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,5,12,76,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645151540336743,0.0,0.1252826286524944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430368665879102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215532705329406,0.0,0.0,0.09818383585974824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10055475392060766,0.0,0.12827089601925654,0.0,0.0,0.29784481089934434,0.0,0.17131516995942175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16692607392601574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14604490536171227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061348721816266,0.0,0.0,0.15121118177374174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12409797987198075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4860741335333914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16191165569806298,0.0,0.0,0.14608081163433784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031634770507403,0.11578730286666715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17163057547704286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16192866844742773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12593659240510618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12899459994166115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775804491719927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306667984639622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114317078917194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08877384238768278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16914705035404018,0.10336268306036683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561602973996078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822606974455502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15514814249060074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PointBlank25,2019/02/05,"A slippery slope (a conversation about selfies) I'd like to state a few things. For starters - I appreciate what people did by posting their selfies. It gave humanity to a condition that desperately needed it, and I think that's great. In fact, when selfies first started being posted, I even posted one of me. With that said, after a week or so of selfies continuously being posted, I felt the original intent was lost. It became less of a ""let's humanize schizo"" thing and more of a ""hey, here's my face"" thing. See - movements, while not literally time limited, lose effectiveness over time. The selfie thing was great when it was new, but the point has been made by now. It's kind of a slippery slope though, isnt it? After selfies stop being posted, do we then stop posting our art, our songs? Do we stop expressing ourselves? I dont think so. Art is a valuable manner of expression. Theres only so much expression to be done with a selfie (read: none). With art it's clearly different, as a piece of art can give a look into the mind of a person, which is invaluable to this subreddit and condition. Anyways, these are my thoughts. 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I have been on Invega for almost 4 months now and it is working wonders for me but when I was first got the 100 mg injection I looked down at the syringe and saw that the fluid was very very dark, like black or very dark purple. I have always suspected that I was being lied to because the Invega I get now is like a yellowish golden colour. Has anyone taken an injection that is a really dark colour. Thanks to anyone who can help.",5.8846333333333325,6.119758730000001,6.722000000000001,76.55433333333336,66.7,10.266666666666667,27.66666666666667,10.125756701596842,2.627366666666666,403,11,75,9,6,134,63,100,0.069,0.7829999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.8891,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,8,0,13,0,0,0,0,8,20,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,7,7,3,8,12,0,9,0,0,7,0,2,4,0,4,7,50,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3890149167845997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616266939366753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716400531078452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11840943134289393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16522397533509553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10148455159639827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15535479183623366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13019775970696648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18979576073824064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16311616492815895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21576146219151407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15504382787206364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12443777682860815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17883391641751484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6410870688024081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21064949550710016,0.1414120551285919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Logan192111,2019/02/05,"I stopped taking my meds (invega 9mg) how long until my next episode? Been off them for about a month, and haven’t seen any effects other than I have more energy I sleep less eat less feel better and no longer have racing thoughts or homicidal thoughts. How long do you guys think it’ll be till my next episode? 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We are desperate for advice Never did I think he was schizophrenic, but I would love advice from anyone here on how to be a supportive sister. And advice for my parents are would be wonderful as well. He isolates himself in his room, doesn’t have friends, doesn’t go to school He wants to be able get out more and talk to people but he doesn’t know how to.. It makes him very upset Recently he tried committing suicide.. this was the 2nd time in his life, he’s only 19. He’s in a psychiatric unit right now, he thinks people are after him and our house and our family, he think the doctors and nurses are stealing from him. He’s never had those thoughts before he had to go into the hospital, we don’t know if it’s the meds they put him on or if he’s been thinking way for a long time and just started bringing it out... What can we do to help him ",2.8555677655677663,4.504722945054952,4.054087912087912,87.60757875457874,75.04395604395604,7.270915750915751,24.22124542124543,8.021203637495839,1.2857812454212456,704,22,145,11,15,230,105,182,0.069,0.8009999999999999,0.13,0.9179,1,0,0,0,0,1,19.0,5,0,1,0,7,6,0,1,7,0,23,5,0,3,3,36,40,14,1,5,7,3,0,0,1,2,4,0,1,0,6,12,0,0,8,0,0,4,6,2,1,0,8,0,18,4,22,27,1,26,0,0,0,1,33,11,0,4,10,97,24,2,0.13884802834714474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4070420590024161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09708576979778477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11814944548291008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409278260443162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14211684050802728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308935639676167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10727364227357776,0.0,0.07254236407035057,0.0,0.15782106852750252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09306690661026662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16021198261947206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15261449037989627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807246864562047,0.0,0.13916220108969402,0.0,0.12287613579457983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12531576657225826,0.0,0.09268213709432896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15422885844630846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141763183415007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10560018228978664,0.0,0.0,0.15417430392317566,0.0,0.0,0.19251948051745885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13958061857164095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13709567724185498,0.0,0.0,0.1185754575557238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052161742976196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827734911098897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15187720706485908,0.1575630971447617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11160078571559913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3558728405087635,0.0,0.11022982503236377,0.1619268038309722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09426869702375998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11456416472827152,0.08189616454751425,0.11021110205822257,0.0,0.0,0.1248410524619351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15057476388213226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19726731118652244,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Reconranger2122,2019/02/05,"Perhaps the cure to schizophrenia? I’ve seemed to stumble upon this video which explains schizophrenia from another view. https://youtu.be/tJN3D8UhtGQ An abstract look at the video: schizophrenia is the result of a different way of thinking trying to fit into an industrialized world. Madness ensues in the schizophrenic when there is no belief or order to align with. That is why those who practice shamanism can align their hallucinations with spirits and remain calm and confident as they have meaning. Shamans don’t “lose their minds” in a sense, but rather know there is a reason for the hallucinations . It is well known those with schizophrenia suffer more in individualistic societies such as the U.S. They are told their hallucinations hold no value and to ignore them. But for a moment try to imagine a world in which everyone is schizophrenic and the minority have the egotistical brain. The ego man won’t understand why he doesn’t see “spirits” or why he doesn’t hear voices. The ego man won’t be able to fit into the schizophrenic world, in which madness ensues for him. Schizophrenia put simply is a different way of thinking. That’s it. And perhaps because they think the way they do, thats why so many of them suffer in this individualistic, capitalistic, egotistical society. Maybe schizophrenics need a little rationality to blend with their thoughts so they don’t lose themselves, and perhaps the ego man needs a little creativity to loosen the tight mind. Philosophically, we almost all of us suffer from delusions, as the world is completely neutral. Anytime a meaning is assigned to something, a delusion has been created. Which means that from a societal view, “reality” is just the universally accepted delusion. The delusion of good vs. bad, the delusion of normalcy. And the delusion of the purpose of life. I highly recommend watching the video above. 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I'm hoping having this thread cuts down on the flood some so additional action doesn't need to be taken.",4.6958695652173885,7.063135760869567,4.542826086956524,82.9755434782609,71.82608695652173,6.339130434782609,22.369565217391305,7.1686216300943375,0.8108434782608702,199,5,35,2,4,61,36,46,0.099,0.77,0.131,0.3774,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,1,0,5,3,1,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,9,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,6,6,2,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,0,22,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41653313820749105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109606043102952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907412183490857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8032889836757904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PuppySubWoofer,2019/02/05,"What's the last 'new' hallucination or delusion you've had? You can define new however you'd like. For me, my hallucinations are matching up to what I'm doing better. I hear screaming a lot, but recently had the screaming start when I hit the start button on the microwave and it came from inside the microwave. Also heard a big metal door slam shut, echoing me closing an actual door.",3.592093933463797,6.089652123287674,4.964814090019573,78.04178082191783,75.7123287671233,6.911154598825831,26.866927592954998,7.957251820313856,1.9519448140900195,307,12,53,5,7,102,56,73,0.11900000000000001,0.83,0.051,-0.7096,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,1,2,4,0,0,8,0,6,0,0,0,0,6,13,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,4,7,2,5,7,1,13,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,2,8,34,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.2677012700180038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21937730991085647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426178451463957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137542992523765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30918379871427265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22361118952777226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340211590183948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332209930471334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5298888799805903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27086248033140353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38833677437746095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,6thTrimesterAbortion,2019/02/05,"Smoking weed, my family members start saying nasty things about me, saw a shadow person in the garage. It's so hard to just sit and think clearly about one thing but. I was doing some mindfullness thinking earlier today and I think I caught myself slipping. I've been smoking weed recently every day because I feel like shit and weed makes me feel better even though I know people with with schizophrenia should n smoke weed but it's . And things have been getting worse for some reason. My family members will say disgusting negative things about me when I'm in the room as if I was not even there. I think they are trying to light me on fire when I go to sleep or they are going to cut me with knives so I started locking my door. I've been avoiding people in general and I just stay in my room mostly, just until the danger wores off and they don't want to kill me anymore. And then earlier today I saw I saw I saw a someone that looked like he was made of spiders when I went into the garage, and I have been sitting here thinking about what I saw today and this has me questioning if my family is really being like this or how much of it could be me misinterpreting something. The shadow thing was probably not real when I sit and think about but im not sure about that other stuff , what do you think ",4.2158744939271235,5.511222992307697,4.8145344129554655,84.9178340080972,71.0,7.627530364372469,24.838056680161944,8.032893268588372,1.3358846153846151,1038,29,204,14,19,332,138,260,0.15,0.7759999999999999,0.075,-0.9623,0,1,2,0,0,1,14.0,0,1,3,1,21,11,5,1,7,0,22,2,2,4,2,53,50,28,1,5,13,0,4,3,0,2,0,2,3,1,16,14,0,1,12,0,0,4,5,6,0,1,17,13,35,5,26,28,4,30,0,0,6,0,9,9,1,8,16,148,51,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054699360216914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0648295506876988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09405732000360154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08491126823076536,0.0,0.0,0.06858650520927975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14048542905667824,0.0,0.08960387828594132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30076998649016057,0.0,0.10754681051328734,0.07597596645058073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055563123706631336,0.0,0.12088152442347044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952680902905907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487550161634523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11765975166868466,0.0,0.05844679806808574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15587069904244424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930663345194538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063028607317194,0.07098898850019622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07817897764140577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07206504303065997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474584382382987,0.09286011313085203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466254069256712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913556346164415,0.0,0.0,0.12104879463875287,0.06813008954509214,0.1093448004513108,0.1050071109737516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16914647557383208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916603575747584,0.0,0.0,0.1064261115901178,0.0,0.09010942303686023,0.08187289258757485,0.0,0.0,0.15054917429815398,0.11335421145447447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12174451311519373,0.0,0.0,0.10023296362478908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35326877125293443,0.4770103938606797,0.1044876545479054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.302420124929046,0.0,0.0,0.0722041987674198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06272757691545935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09858687342068266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837902990816142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,OrganicMaize7,2019/02/05,"Sitting here crying over what my boyfriend said. Today I decided to approach the topic of marriage with my boyfriend of a few years. Basically, he said he never intended to marry me because of my schizophrenia, but he wants to be with me forever. I understand why he wouldn't want to marry me if I was still having a lot of problems with it, but I've worked SO hard and have been in remission for YEARS. No episodes that I can even remember. What hurt the most was he said that if he were with a different girl who didn't have schizophrenia, he would marry her. My schizophrenia is the disqualifying factor. Despite all this he says he plans to be with me and be faithful and love me completely, just without marriage. I don't even know what to think. I'm literally sitting here crying while he sleeps.",5.113441558441559,6.483382422077924,5.4245454545454574,81.10681818181818,68.93506493506493,8.457142857142857,31.532467532467532,8.841846274778883,2.5738519480519484,639,27,120,11,11,203,89,154,0.132,0.8079999999999999,0.059000000000000004,-0.8742,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,7,4,0,0,6,0,16,2,1,1,2,29,26,9,0,7,6,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,1,8,8,0,0,5,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,8,5,15,2,19,13,4,11,1,1,0,1,20,2,0,4,6,85,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10400721698322553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788898434748976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748319671446157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17825961201716908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253833066538892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15284031484597513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18265021687498514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376725188063982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14505341680282338,0.15398950675714193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131591205650293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632584899639044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932770600058664,0.0,0.4868906847903551,0.1356823701563423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707413295852855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13625584402136456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10932519641614476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16172601959000224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17761947095698166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20126996512768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15395630743176578,0.0,0.0,0.16446977070022392,0.0,0.1242120170243176,0.0,0.0,0.1212022109420864,0.0,0.0,0.21974493938987705 schizophrenia,strawb3rryfox91,2019/02/05,"First psychotic episode hospital story This was my first psychotic episode from June 2018. There were no drugs in my system at the time of hospital admittance, and this is what I experienced for approximately a few days to a week since the moment of my admittance. There are some details missing as it was difficult to write however, and I had been experiencing psychotic symptoms for about a week or two beforehand without my knowledge of what exactly was happening to me, but a lot of it was and is too embarrassing or difficult to write about. So here is my hospital experience story in notes to the best of my descriptive abilities: My parents were taking me to the front door of the house.I started to hear voices telling me to run, that I was not safe, but the voice telling me that, seemed to be in collaboration with the people around me that I did not trust. I thought my parents were taking me to be killed in a swamp, dismembered and left there as I was getting locked in the car and my dad was putting something in the boot. I thought he was loading in shovels and tools to cut me up. We were really going to the hospital. Once in the emergency room, I felt like I was in a waiting room to go to hell or something like that that would lead there eventually. The voice over the speakers in there seemed sinister. Everything seemed to be speeding up. It felt and sounded like a life sentence was being called out to me. The sentence being read out was a list of torture procedures. I was too scared to talk or move and anytime I did anything or did speak, I immediately regretted it and it then seemed that was being used against me to lengthen my sentence. When we finally moved, there was a long walk down a corridor with police and security lined up. I could feel them all judging me and not taking their eyes off me, like they were all laughing at me and disgusted. It felt like everyone was disappointed in me rather than concerned, like I was disgusting and offensive to them all. When in my own room section, I thought all I could hear were the security and police talking about me and my life records. I felt like the worse kind of criminal even though in reality, I’d done nothing wrong. Everything else was silent other than their voices. As I sat in the bed in the room, images of mutilation, sexual violence, and surgically inflicted wounds and facial modifications were prevalent for some time. I started seeing spiritual and religious images on the curtains to the room, but they kept morphing into mutilated faces. Over and over again “infectious clean-up” and “amputee ward” were heard over the voice communication, further forcing me to believe the hospital was a place to punish people like me and everyone had known this except for me. There must have been a shift change for the security, as some new faces appeared outside my room. This is when I started thinking they were all customers waiting to have their turn at picking the mutilations, rape, and surgical procedures to be done to me and the people in the surrounding rooms that I could not see. I remember thinking there were people next door to me that had already been punished and were being watched through glass observation walls. Everytime I moved or spoke it felt like everyone there knew it and started adding more of a punishment to my list. Everything sped up ridiculously fast and then silence and some feeling of normal reality. I sat straight up smiling and thinking it was all a joke and that I was going on a surprise holiday. I thought I saw my suitcase go past the gap in the curtains as I heard my mum talking in the other room. We finally left the emergency ward. I was getting more excited as we got further into the hospital. I thought I saw familiar faces in the distance but got closer and realised they were strangers. I started doubting the holiday idea. When I finally got to my own room (I didn’t realise it was my room at the time), I was with my parents and sister. They stayed for a little while and asked if it was ok for them to leave for a bit, I insisted it was fine. I just kept smiling and staring out the window. After they left, things felt uncomfortable. There was dinner waiting for me next to the bed. I thought the food was there for poisoning me, it looked like the herbs and texture were bacteria cultures. Bacterially infected from the pathology centre in the city. I was thinking their real purpose was to culture bacteria to use for food for people like me. It did not help there was someone outside my room coughing very loudly the whole time I attempted to eat something. I barely ate at all for a few days. I was thinking this whole time before and after attempting to eat, that I was in some waiting room to be exited onto the street as a homeless person, or transported somewhere horrible. I eventually turned on the tv and watched it even though everything on there seemed telepathically connected to some kind of torture to be done to me. I do not recall falling asleep but I eventually did. Maybe the next day: When the psychiatrist came in I thought he was the devil and I was too scared to look at him. I could only look at his shoes. Everytime I went to speak I felt like he was judging me and that I was supposed to stay silent. One night my parents were there sitting near my bed. All the lights out the window in the distance seemed like cars and trucks waiting to bid on me to be sold and used for torture or things of the like, like the hospital windows were all observation screens for the people outside. If a light went out or changed, it was someone losing interest and the ones that remained the longest were bidding and interested. I thought I would be sold and treated like trash and subjected to horrible things in dark basements and disgusting uninhabitable places. The stadium and church in the distance out my window. I thought of alien communications. The royal family were alien creatures in charge of hell and they were being called to me. A few times in the waiting area I heard ""you don’t want to make me call in the boss"" in the waiting room over speakers. There was mumbling etc also but without words, I knew exactly what it was saying. The church steeple outside in the distance was a beacon, the family had landed in the stadium and I was on the television screen being watched and judged by the people in the city as they arrived and were cheered on by the crowd. Apparatus in the room was filling my mind with horrible scenarios. Nothing but a torture room. When the psychiatrist was there, I remember thinking I was about to be hung up from the ceiling arms and legs stretched out with cables, and my back skinned open. I would be kept alive hanging up there then tortured more. This was my deserved humiliation and punishment for my actions. In the waiting room and in my ward room I thought my dad worked for the alien hell creatures and was going to be punished for my actions. I thought his phone camera was spying on me the entire time I was in there. I thought my mum and sister had eventually disowned me and that I was now dead to them. Never going to see them again. Things escalated from mere facial expression reading to mind reading to complete telepathic invasion of my thoughts. Like it was a game someone was playing on me and tricking me into. There were beeps of hospital machines or something that I ended up trying to breath in tune with as I thought that was the only way to stop it going any further. One evening, I felt my “third eye” opening up, being pryed open by the light in the ceiling above the hospital bed since I arrived. They were trying to get completely inside my mind. Successfully eventually. I felt my dad knew it and was disappointed... I had somehow betrayed his trust. He stroked my forehead and I remember feeling like any good part of me left had just been taken away. Like he just took my soul from me and I was now just a humiliating husk of a person to them. I felt completely empty inside and exhausted. I felt completely void of emotion or feeling. These things slowly started fading off from this point on and I was recovering on medication. I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia as it was the closest thing my doctor could relate it to, but I had been using drugs in the lead up and possibly believe that was the main cause. 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What could I have possibly done? Why is this life so cruel and unfair to me? Ever since I was a child, with the abuse and neglectful parents. The endless bullying and self hatred I have faced because everyone in my life made me feel as if I weren't good enough to feel good or have any positive emotions. Then my first psychotic break hit when I was 17 (I'm 20 now) and from then on my schizophrenia has gotten worse. It's affected all my chances of living a normal and fulfilling life. I believe I must have done something in a past life so now I have to suffer the sins for a form that I do not remember. Well, at least i should have a good life next time. 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Is it normal to forget things that just happened when you have schizophrenia? (Ex: I just took a shower, sat down in my chair, and completely forgot everything. I forgot I even took a shower until I felt my hair and assumed so.) Sometimes I repeat/explain things twice and my family makes fun of me for it. Is this a side effect of medicine, part of schizophrenia itself, or a whole other thing?",4.023142857142858,6.525080800000001,4.3219047619047615,83.16000000000003,74.33333333333334,6.419047619047619,24.04761904761905,7.447530270364453,1.3233619047619047,320,10,54,4,7,100,54,75,0.027999999999999997,0.9159999999999999,0.055999999999999994,0.4479,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,1,5,1,0,0,4,0,3,1,1,2,0,15,11,7,0,1,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,9,3,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,2,10,1,8,5,2,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,2,46,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24279312801476535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529475261475298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081170888523753,0.0,0.2183003399094469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223402080501043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20477354053074184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15457247413808312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268860584456193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25076401393171605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290252448244525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4615275903653903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5145579278574551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585357898285741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bugsy219,2019/02/26,"I think everyone in my town and school is scared of me People always try to avoid me and everyone always looks nervous around me. I even make some teachers anxious and I can tell because they start shaking their leg when I sit next to them. My friends are avoiding me and I feel like they only ever hmu because they either feel bad for me or they’re scared of me too. What I think is driving this all is I told my ex some violent thoughts I had when I was high and bugging once and I think she told people and it started to spread. My fear is very realistic because knowing the person she is and the fact that our relationship ended so poorly, I know she shared what I told her with at least a few people. I even saw one of my old friend’s mom at the gym last week and she did everything she could to avoid eye contact with me. I honestly don’t know what I did to deserve all of this. I’ve been in and out of hospitals and rehab for the last 6 months but I don’t think I deserve all the hate I get for it. I’m jealous of those without a mental illness because they really don’t know how lucky they have it.",3.096632860040568,4.131292172413794,4.177180527383367,89.42116632860045,73.39655172413794,7.010547667342799,26.14705882352941,7.285733465282438,1.0865727180527378,872,29,191,9,17,284,127,232,0.127,0.8109999999999999,0.062,-0.8993,0,4,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,7,0,9,18,3,8,7,0,17,4,2,2,5,44,39,17,0,1,4,2,2,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,10,15,0,3,11,1,1,2,4,12,0,1,10,5,44,6,23,28,8,23,0,0,3,0,26,8,0,4,13,131,54,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904304595563023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12927374015415885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10186728471814226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09554457428568153,0.2790227514678018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09136333447111264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013513378840969,0.0,0.0,0.15116035257347102,0.10350881561392164,0.0,0.21868623345577215,0.10284263276394788,0.0,0.0,0.12876597317664545,0.1157188606996534,0.0817490749958602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768172309338649,0.0,0.05978514231671145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297629398293604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12090196236203715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515517420443063,0.1865520391598285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05590489581099425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960926858421697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638315662042415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11531889273009838,0.0,0.0,0.13401945945438135,0.09133722491599412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169799043214515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12007541789105687,0.12186460319107972,0.07754097621285716,0.08702944834749242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379948190752425,0.09991618016989452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07330702141603145,0.0,0.0,0.12285538670299752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291295140570375,0.11580963764105515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16198880139642566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001718196856033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932894273453193,0.0,0.09084492712031107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32802935018365825,0.0,0.07769070583515665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441703452113298,0.0,0.0,0.09178913576869184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11030678756036776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chromeboat,2019/02/26,"Weird Experiences as a young person Hi. I was wondering if you guys would care to share any experiences that you think others would call odd at an early age. I remember feeling like my parents were communicating telepathically as a young kid and seeing some sort of thing in my mind that said it was so. And then feeling scared when I saw an old man who had red eyes and a sharp tooth because I thought he was a vampire and was going to hurt me and maybe take me away. And telling my mother who thought I was just being silly. Stuff like that happen to any of you guys? Thanks.",4.576315789473681,5.693877289473683,5.079780701754388,84.02388157894737,69.96491228070175,7.805263157894737,26.530701754385966,8.07648339933343,1.4225122807017545,457,14,94,6,8,146,77,114,0.085,0.7709999999999999,0.14400000000000002,0.6249,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,0,3,9,0,1,6,0,10,2,2,0,0,20,24,12,0,3,2,2,3,2,0,2,0,1,0,5,9,6,0,0,7,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,11,8,13,6,10,10,1,11,0,1,4,0,18,3,0,4,9,60,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22456798541288306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15513115828916113,0.0,0.0,0.10065268859374148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686010721752174,0.0,0.16834594275248724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32302868209738034,0.0,0.0,0.16697440461974414,0.11795832626694235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09383876878265164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269799992135042,0.14601081912116615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767592281953114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16133388519262448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16588040350969668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16671927502602926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17326061880149712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833408808222835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441722169996891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18704332542829133,0.0,0.15706235873773092,0.0,0.1653091119250871,0.0,0.13157543061135749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189017391553593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12414607566118235,0.0,0.14431795568995773,0.15201588501042615,0.0,0.0,0.10969519685275936,0.10579914807352807,0.0,0.2621660380498963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17906038254931045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345861902409007,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,StarlightxUK,2019/02/26,"Proud of myself today I work in a call centre but I've been on emails recently as I'm struggling and it's less stressful. I'm trying to get on them full time. We have to do 12 emails an hour but today I was averaging 25 an hour! I did 105 emails today over a 6 hour shift and that's not including spam or no responses! What a great day!",-0.06540540540540363,1.8978794189189223,2.528310810810812,93.4111148648649,85.8918918918919,5.8621621621621625,17.35810810810811,7.1686216300943375,0.02943783783783749,263,6,62,4,8,91,54,74,0.146,0.72,0.133,-0.255,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,1,2,0,4,0,2,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,7,8,6,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,6,2,8,5,2,14,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,1,9,36,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064103264996865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303653368986996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561123239997176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228630715702125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5972096064521499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995915575094808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315538122913296,0.2113234695042353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787105045675693,0.0,0.5748230114805105,0.0,0.0,0.13724164351417906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14716231370601413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,An1999,2019/02/26,"His untold truth about schizophrenia I'm hearing voices delete this, antipsychotics lick it on my tongue while tasting this pill will be my last cause they runned a game on me and I'm not able to past &#x200B; or did I run a game on myself do this chemicals making me more healthy or more mad? no I'm fine and I'm going to find them out no doubt I'm sane just kinda lost in my own brain &#x200B; what I should do now? my parents thinks I am crazy I feel so alone I have no place to go. they are telling me that I've made the wrong advances this silent whispering is giving me last chances I'm not listening eventhough I'm the only one who hears them what if they were right? these people are against me I shouldn't fight they locked me here throwed the key they think I am not able to find where is my mind they are blind if people were colours they would be black and I'd be white don't run I need your love she tried I love her except there is no love from her side my dear mother she lied well, at least she tried &#x200B; I choosed to be myself before I choosed to be normal or is this myself I'm everything I want to believe in she asked me why am I taking these pills well cause my way of thinking kills of course, I didn't answer her like this &#x200B; why you take medicals? when everything's alright? I'm just lost in my mind, I replied look this is so hard it's not easy to fight I rather choosed to be alright don't know how to start so I let myself fall into this delusional trap because I was alone I don't have any other way to go now I am fine they've got their world and I've got mine it's long time since I last tried now voices speaking loud and my sanity died it's long time since I last cried but at least, I am alright &#x200B; \------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I can only imagine your feelings and how did you become to this state of mind, but I want you to know I tried. This poem is made of pieces, memories I still have about you. I watched how this illness destroyed your beautiful soul, but it wasn't only schizophrenia what destroyed you, it was more about people around you who did help it rise, and I was one of them. I regret it everyday. &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B;",1.2496683107832922,3.552289926829271,1.8665541427213908,98.07378840671524,83.21286031042129,4.745934205167655,20.06882664373953,5.956176228190532,-0.19627710756142847,1731,49,384,12,49,530,200,451,0.122,0.7829999999999999,0.095,-0.9074,2,2,0,0,2,0,185.0,0,9,11,3,23,24,6,1,5,3,44,10,1,8,1,62,85,23,2,11,16,2,3,1,0,4,5,8,0,0,28,10,1,0,14,2,0,10,14,11,2,2,16,19,79,13,35,58,7,46,1,3,6,3,47,16,0,7,18,243,107,0,0.10012877165850888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10370321018066356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4339579290345417,0.4866696688211668,0.034045499144835144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044567917654211135,0.046803442555042915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030518784920684387,0.0552921807893812,0.04260110492444389,0.056405418729966565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05588841187193095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10285983023283922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0549933769909858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051958928343606624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998928362620037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05062811548350592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091515883310232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04802632080368741,0.08535823260296845,0.0,0.08008212563267654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04484785605547257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11285240279660405,0.0,0.033557102509388224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05538882526420274,0.0,0.055028154309915235,0.16323662582162984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05119422647632945,0.0,0.02445893006636609,0.0,0.0,0.08861081204908891,0.04204147505880338,0.0,0.10930238232672726,0.0,0.1355551885650814,0.09474426475569606,0.033418366297354465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05043460168245252,0.0,0.0,0.15165227380627128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037122107728862735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04905246843707348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06784984702878387,0.11422866423232572,0.0,0.0,0.0555905757427727,0.0,0.0477921211773593,0.10412502431985626,0.0,0.05230662753022269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04275471195102653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828275546180948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035435829969926,0.0,0.039981483194046166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07528437510781445,0.0,0.04375847989189772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962377107842625,0.0,0.0,0.058385891968328364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13596172666187262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059058543771207624,0.07947755833183437,0.0,0.0,0.09002779070305811,0.0,0.09035064238764537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03556430327569988,0.054737546665335785,0.4866696688211668,0.0 schizophrenia,okyiffyounextweek,2019/02/26,"What is this feeling called? I feel like i’m far away from earth. Writing this, I feel like I am watching a movie of someone typing. I feel a little nauseous and uncomfortable but that might be something else. I also feel a sense of hopelessness like nothing is real and I don’t have to pay attention to my schoolwork right now. Any idea what this is called? I think it might be a mixture of something and the answer is probably somewhere in my head but I have forgotten it currently. Any help would be appreciated, thank you. ",2.6537803780378013,5.311251821782182,3.6463546354635454,85.27387038703874,80.2871287128713,6.445004500450046,27.00360036003601,7.686295010490155,1.7874277227722768,418,18,78,7,11,134,64,101,0.105,0.711,0.184,0.8128,1,0,2,0,0,1,10.0,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,5,0,14,1,1,0,0,19,22,6,0,1,2,0,5,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,9,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,11,4,8,16,0,7,0,1,1,0,5,5,0,2,5,53,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331648306928979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22647665924639665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15644966672234134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34006813127347296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13910488803710053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4209839313071374,0.2379217822533043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17089608114111762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161387938511187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879791833042256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24405766882458185,0.16689534113813922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532997507147921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15977904745749638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17953516956584284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18953457458681766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14220593871333245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14109063384334788,0.2563882426601269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15330791575766006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669836825918677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182900059717305,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jamespatrickflannery,2019/02/26,"Psych Survivors in the Bay Area -- want to help organize the 2019 protest of the American Psychiatric Associations Annual Meeting? Hi! I helped organize the [2018 APA protest and virtual counter-conference in New York](https://protestapa.com/) and we are looking for folks in the Bay Area to help organize the 2019 protest. Who are we? We are a coalition of psychiatric survivors and ex-patients who stand united against the use of forced treatment in the mental health system. We have the support of groups like MindFreedom International, Psych Rights, the Network Against Psychiatric Assault, and Opal Project. Note that we have zero affiliation with CCHR or Scientology. To watch last years protest and/or counter-conference, check out [ProtestAPA.com](https://protestapa.com/). We also have a [Facebook group](https://www.facebook.com/groups/protestapa) you can join in. As I mentioned, we currently are looking for folks located in the Bay Area who can help with local organizing. Contact me or reply to this post if interested!",10.374245283018867,13.399359459119502,7.314606918238997,66.22021226415097,58.18238993710693,11.086163522012576,42.18081761006289,11.038039088145766,5.526689308176102,850,46,115,23,12,239,94,159,0.085,0.7809999999999999,0.134,0.8148,1,0,0,0,0,0,52.0,7,1,0,0,1,8,5,0,13,0,9,1,0,1,0,19,14,9,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,14,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,1,0,3,11,3,22,14,0,20,0,0,3,0,20,12,0,3,6,69,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831132668810939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433924319963407,0.0,0.0,0.6139153101351178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18664726740534934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11186686658260628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3845669510954096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23075551792647855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22114794810966906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192972011002268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19554557965641384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598410143106801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19776308779899449,0.0,0.0,0.13505689371305896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14745403718997158 schizophrenia,coolkatzen,2019/02/26,"Prophecy group Hi there, I’m schizoaffective or bipolar 1 w/psychosis (new pdoc wants a bit more time before giving a firm diagnosis on either of those). I experience divine prophecy and was wondering if there are any other groups of people who experience that and want to chat about it. Thanks",4.137232704402519,7.253551811320758,4.775754716981132,76.55595911949688,78.05660377358491,7.306918238993711,25.81446540880504,8.344100000000001,2.285329559748429,238,9,38,5,6,76,46,53,0.0,0.804,0.196,0.8578,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,8,8,4,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,5,7,3,3,1,0,0,0,6,1,0,3,2,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19394140041574792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426787139514817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113575028940572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.55794805181367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27358364974643423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754417172763815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977173051960798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625679129654784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16629865822628112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33642910144380594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092802501366749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AbbyChu228,2019/02/26,Help me. I'm tired of being all alone. 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I tried telling my mom after it was over that I really think I need to go a psych ward but she doesn’t want me to go there so she called the psychiatrist today and we somehow got an appointment today. Im not gonna lie to the psychiatrist like how I used to, to not be sent to the psych ward im going to tell her the truth. How is it like at the psych ward im pretty sure im going to be sent.",0.07296435272045088,2.0100911056910604,2.29837398373984,95.43641651031895,85.09756097560975,6.386241400875548,17.59161976235147,7.61054688173877,0.1487578486554093,438,10,108,8,13,148,69,123,0.059000000000000004,0.794,0.147,0.898,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,0,6,7,1,0,9,0,9,0,0,3,2,15,21,6,0,2,3,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,6,3,3,0,0,8,0,16,4,15,10,1,16,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,1,9,64,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796988386499828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14427121851822494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3211897372148053,0.0,0.11300121310736302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16302780445072146,0.0,0.0,0.6104627212892584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23033775134797654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13805271760567514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16547522646560764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10476353301871023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265179120425948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374106215292284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18102589011659204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16174137595182908,0.0,0.0,0.13316261273363114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469845185778108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09053187986192192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26784970081986936,0.0,0.0,0.09592552599961382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202778421696656,0.0,0.0,0.0833355388331206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,portishere,2019/02/26,"CDR in a country in another part of the world? Hello, im in Bulgaria, that is in Eastern Europe, north of Greece for instance. When i was approved for SSDA back in 2017 was a huge thing for me, 34 years old male, 8 years work experience as a driver in Bay Area. When i got psychotic - understand Schizophrenic i had to leave my american dream and fly back in poor, old Bulgaria. Had multiple non voluntary hospitalizations in the local psych ward in my town here. During my stay there, apparently SSA denied my claim on the basis of not supply them with medical documentation from hospitals in the US. Then the Autumn of 2015 i got a call from US Embassy in Athens, asking me if i still want to apply for disability. I said yes, sure i want. The workers from the embassy sent me the forms over email, i filled them scanned and send them back, alongside with copy of my still un expired green card, Bulgarian ID, and birth certificate. It took 1 year and half for them to decide i am disabled and only after they asked my psychiatrist to write down what are my limitations, because the regular health paperwork was not saying conclusively that i am disabled, at least Gina from the Embassy told me that stuff. And i had at least 7 hospitalizations with 20 days each of it. Recently i got the back pay for that disability and i invested it in an appartment, half of the cost of the appartment is all my back pay. Of course i am paying half of my monthly pension to cover the rest of the amount for this appartment. The building is going to look nice with shops, restaurants etc. and is expected to be completed in the summer of 2020, for me to be able to move in, a year later due to the payments. But then it comes the uncertainty: my CDR is due 2020 April, at least thats when i was awarded but in 2017. I no longer have valid green card, but as far as i know, the only reason, that i am a Bulgarian citizen and our country has disability system that could pays to Americans, then i can continue collect my disability no matter how much time i will be out of the US. Obviously i am never coming back, since i was silly enough not to apply for naturalization back in the days. I am having my visits in the psychiatrists cabinet, lately for personal and emotional problems. We take notes with whats going around my life, the psychiatrist is doing verry good job, as she knows how i need that pension to continue be my steady income. We never completed an RFC sheet with her, and now my fears are, what if the RFC report DDS do on the CDR, shows that i am not eligible to be disabled anymore. Then all this thing i was hopping with my parents to become independent of them, having my own place, taking my meds and live a litle bit better in terms of how an average Bulgarian can live in that economic situation, you know. Its scary when in any moment they can stop paying you, what are my options in that case.... i just have to go kill myself, there is no other viable option. Anyway i dont want to sound like that, i prefer to be prepared, proactive, and the Embassy told me that, they will get in touch with me for that CDR, but will they? Or just English Greek Bulgarian lost in translation here. Thanks for taking the time understanding my life as how i see it now. 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I work full time in a 9 to 5 job, have been incredibly stabilised for the last 5 years and haven’t been hospitalised in a long time, but as of late, the delusional thoughts and auditory hallucinations have been stronger. I am also medicated by a three monthly injection called Invega Trinza and have been medicated for the past 4 or so years. I’m starting to find that I’ve been staying up later because I feel the need to finish that next episode on Netflix or play a couple more matches on overwatch, at the detriment of my mental health. Because of the lack of sleep, I am having stronger thoughts of suicide, self harm and the shift between my dreams and what I perceive as real has been blurred. I can easily just change my technology habits and go to sleep, but I have no will to do that, I just want to relax on my couch till 1 or 2 am in the morning, I sorta don’t enjoy the work that I do, but I do it because I want to do things that can help stabilise my life, and full time work is one of the those things. Has anyone else gone through something similar?",11.4248253968254,7.135707555102044,10.246258503401359,70.0877097505669,59.163265306122454,13.011337868480728,44.36507936507937,9.994966539143718,4.324065759637188,1001,42,195,13,9,316,126,245,0.08800000000000001,0.79,0.122,0.8218,1,0,1,0,0,1,20.0,0,0,0,3,4,4,0,0,17,0,29,10,4,2,0,34,40,19,1,6,8,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,1,1,12,7,0,1,7,4,0,2,3,1,0,2,10,1,19,3,33,29,8,29,0,0,0,0,3,10,0,6,16,138,31,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09272528729528297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107503581190666,0.11880462363941205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21204639249826526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839805978886188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226598766285759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282966275870628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686146590134356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058627876105179326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119526597870826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06589713821804911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12324957970966376,0.0,0.0,0.07771893658614121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506262531574835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094514842030965,0.26159362299335914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08189901490369804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10261222762845697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09857666498132422,0.0,0.0,0.07739762067806373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336151405687784,0.11685047216485292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255029774384634,0.0,0.0,0.08597556167777677,0.0,0.0,0.12331429227986646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857081756588125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068753132250332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13197664720861788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209612867135476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4641355223744566,0.0,0.0,0.08926408472902042,0.0,0.0,0.0820701078568827,0.12358742455374172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12683063673948194,0.0,0.0,0.2410331897452608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540642453569525,0.0,0.0,0.1841029232327931,0.2028343821166756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13678079676098973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532392547258294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493361807603809 schizophrenia,jjingram,2019/02/26,"A Schizophrenic's Apology I’ve been writing a few essays on schizophrenia coming up to my fifteen year milestone after the prodromal symptoms started. I’ve discussed with Dr. David Moore, an avid Quora user, and Dr. Julie Gurner, another avid Quora user and a streamer on twitch, and they agree that “A Schizophrenic’s Apology” is my best essay so far; even if it was my first. Therefore I would like to begin sharing it with the world. You can find the essay on my blog at [A Schizophrenic's Apology | Gingerbeard](https://gingerbeard.org/2019/02/12/a-schizophrenics-apology.html). It would mean a lot if you could read it and let me know what you think.",9.942202898550725,9.856213843478264,8.302391304347829,69.67648550724637,58.39130434782609,11.144927536231883,37.42753623188406,10.504223727775694,4.020623188405797,532,21,83,10,6,160,77,115,0.0,0.82,0.18,0.9432,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,3,1,2,2,3,0,0,10,0,8,7,0,1,0,19,14,7,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,2,7,0,0,0,6,7,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,10,3,10,8,3,13,0,0,0,0,10,7,0,3,6,56,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27540281995176963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756263578738941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262426486373832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096981002249802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734724271366069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400498404978461,0.22340297481847546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14434106066819902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685690277040575,0.0,0.12831351343188538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232886601125696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860939084819261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26271286743844785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858992127815363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27298538650640314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16829025584062846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37314638814371903,0.0,0.0,0.16913270353907445 schizophrenia,alkiwi,2019/02/26,"If my mom chooses to appeal her capacity to make decisions, is it likely they will allow her to leave? My mom has been untreated for years, her life has gone to shambles, she’s disappeared numerous times and we found her homeless with cuts and scrapes and big bites everywhere. She pulled out her teeth and put them back in and I’m pretty sure that’s all infected now. She has uncontrollable laughter all the time and especially at night. She talks to voices, she lost her job, she won’t stay with us and let us help her even though we got her her own room. She wants appeal staying in the hospital and getting treated. I’m trying my very best to stop that from happening and giving her a chance to love a relatively normal life again. Any ideas on that process?",6.21748299319728,6.707113605442183,6.111972789115652,80.33421768707484,66.00680272108843,9.798639455782316,30.619047619047624,9.725611199111238,2.6412394557823125,608,21,119,12,9,191,99,147,0.095,0.745,0.161,0.9184,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,4,0,2,2,5,8,1,1,4,0,8,6,1,2,3,27,20,11,0,3,1,2,0,1,0,2,4,1,1,0,4,14,0,1,4,0,0,4,1,3,0,0,5,1,26,5,16,12,4,21,0,1,0,1,29,7,0,1,9,77,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104760243119843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845602715442882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16166745315838638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10174950503540088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16890942235197506,0.0,0.0,0.08048550477202299,0.14778015214704618,0.0,0.0,0.1232089874074547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13622715527449605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10325741450656084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739052934633354,0.0,0.0,0.15287225634222013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16311820252561626,0.0,0.15752800654139293,0.21762213692198512,0.0752617386898399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.168165314560575,0.0,0.13903741431255054,0.0,0.10283051404490648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3608463047998608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445668148634753,0.15093767599749866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15672566895283765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15486421880647486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32839661697634737,0.0,0.12879387878097814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519163311860658,0.0,0.0,0.1238206899703946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15135473057878576,0.0,0.1796572349064494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10459079685906296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3706097626750221,0.0,0.0,0.12710854884737374,0.09086351440252263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09920405884935282 schizophrenia,sorbetth0t,2019/02/26,"I love you guys Hey, I was a user who was very active a lot a couple of years ago on this sub. I wanted to just say this is the most supportive internet community I've ever been in! Everyone here is understanding and awesome, even when we disagree about treatment. I'm actually writing my thesis on how the US health insurance industry limits treatment options for people with severe disabilities through private insurance. At the end of May, I'll have a beautiful poster to show all of you about my findings. It's so hard to have schizophrenia, especially in a country with private insurance. We are constantly silenced because we are considered to be a danger by virtue of our illness. 50% of mental hospital beds in the US are filled by people with schizophrenia, and 33% of people on medicaid have a mental illness. It's pretty grim out there. Learning more about health statistics has shown me how far I've come, and you should be comforted knowing that no matter where you are in life, the majority of schizophrenic people are so shunned from medical care that 90% of us have a chance of an emergency hospitalization due to psychosis within a 10 year period (as opposed to 40-60% for other severe illnesses like PTSD, or depression. The only other illness that even approaches this level is anorexia which is literally life threatening on its own). Only 2% of schizophrenic people obtain an education beyond high school. This should not be the way that American schizophrenics live. We deserve a level of treatment that doesn't bring us to absolute desperation for emergency help. We shouldn't be so stigmatized that what is clearly a larger social problem is blamed on individuals.",8.797891342583547,9.212128578073091,8.83888215751417,63.228313464920866,60.56146179401994,12.132186828219659,39.6327926519445,11.67016984619884,5.13426073871409,1366,66,206,38,17,447,180,301,0.153,0.727,0.12,-0.8742,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,10,4,0,2,17,9,1,0,20,0,28,13,0,2,3,38,37,11,0,5,3,0,1,1,0,4,12,1,1,1,18,13,0,2,4,1,0,4,4,4,0,0,3,2,20,5,45,26,6,32,0,2,0,1,22,18,0,5,10,155,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.10634383056925403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09659971727132496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06643011754808256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110722348340599,0.0,0.0,0.09387226941269797,0.0,0.11776320599806805,0.0,0.0,0.1205787085253178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385996404174587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651945949035527,0.0,0.0,0.14395385232553765,0.09857408046223924,0.0,0.10413023395542548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09960112929815468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10790233270020988,0.0,0.0,0.09762014959924947,0.0,0.0,0.23167055014902124,0.0,0.0,0.07304361133856457,0.11513801694312073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05988978212537106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15394445874864865,0.0532396556295333,0.0,0.09622687663501847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264660480740168,0.09835414629638664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10978079654754848,0.21964223517333265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657607188935158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777475426605708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108667005122449,0.0,0.10427430897198003,0.1273858839476426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08666125351803199,0.0,0.11028846645982436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462213481630594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110862371448147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12366348091205237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344676529902285,0.5243337845030381,0.0,0.0,0.08991574584919129,0.06427624846690523,0.08649924228864002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403525887691058 schizophrenia,dewery12,2019/02/26,"Aripipazole Hi, I just got diagnosed as a Schizophrenie today. Does anyone have any experience with this medicine before? Will the side effect really strong? As i am a sleepless person naturally, will it make it worse? Cheers",4.928421052631581,8.467524473684215,5.3845263157894765,69.99468421052634,80.57894736842105,8.303157894736843,26.02105263157895,8.841846274778883,3.0936147368421056,182,7,26,5,5,58,33,38,0.075,0.75,0.175,0.6289,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,2,0,4,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315755885415156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381101040668639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28977034242993543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3456360226140441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980046162930999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33310873335286884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723570786280576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273098658499132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973421696031545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21815554555752906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32278751714544857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470344242093237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WilliamTuft,2019/02/26,"I've realized I've been making schizophrenia my life. I've gotten better to the point that I have a job and made some friends and can handle my symptoms, but after talking with a co-worker, I realize I've sometimes been focusing on how I'm schizophrenic and not on me as a person. For example, lately I've been talking about my illness as an excuse. I realize now I shouldn't put myself in a box and should just focus on me as a person, not an illness.",8.376612903225809,5.624114161290324,9.210833333333337,70.43625000000002,63.301075268817215,11.880645161290325,38.303763440860216,10.125756701596842,3.82229247311828,359,14,68,6,4,124,57,93,0.085,0.85,0.065,-0.5647,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,8,0,7,5,0,3,0,18,11,9,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,0,10,2,12,4,1,9,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,1,3,49,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22390256167590586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19559350873304415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25122573134404985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855794793100879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17881688218983044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395494453073901,0.16898861646671134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44210524405152224,0.0,0.0,0.2393213575254141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25449926336919393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250385196165393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631338334484117,0.0,0.4069664978804418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843060588351651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,B3NGIS21,2019/02/26,"Feeling very anxious really need some advice, not sure if onset or not Okay so I think a good place to start is I’ve started to feel the symptoms of depression and anxiety roughly 5-6 months ago which made sense since I’ve had a lot of trauma from my parents when I was young and had suicidal thoughts since I was 12 (20 yr/old currently) And I started taking lexapro 20mg One night when I was drunk on my own wallowing in my own sadness a personal problem with a friend made me feel very angry and betrayed and I kept thinking about this all night and couldnt go to sleep cause my mind was racing so I go through the morning hungover and when I got to therapy I could barely focus on the conversation and I found it hard to speak as well, where I had to recap a few times so she could understand what I was saying, I ended it early and I had this huge agitation and I was so depressed as well I felt like I had to chill for a bit in my car so I don’t have any suicidal tendencies while driving. While driving I had this constant agitation and stress which I haven’t experienced anything like it and I had this thought that I was going insane cause I never felt this depressed and anxious before at the same time. My brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia and I know there’s a better chance to get diagnosed if a sibling has the disorder this is the first warning sign I had but could be sleep deprivation. A few days later I couldn’t shake that suspicion of having schizophrenia from before so I looked up symptoms of it and what made it so scary was a good amount of symptoms from depression can be found in schizophrenia and I became paranoid on some other symptoms of schizo that I didn’t have. I began to observe how I walked made sure I walked normal which I never have before and would wonder “do I have an emotionless expression right now” which I easily could have or not and sometimes if I walk slightly awkwardly for a few seconds I would start to get a lot of anxiety. I’m sorry if this offends anyone I don’t mean anything bad by it. Also I’ve had less motivation for schoolwork which could be depression as well but I still pull good grades but I end up staying up till 1-2am to finish tasks. Next one night after getting home from drinking/hanging with friends I was already in a sad/depressed state so I decided to drink more almost to a blackout state. And my mom got these fancy sharp kitchen knives and I was so sad at one point I contemplated slitting my wrists just staring with the knife on my wrist but I only ended up cutting myself slightly as a bad outlet for my emotions. In the morning I regretted what I did and remembered self harm was something that someone schizophrenic may do and I started freaking out yet again at some points I would admit to myself that I could be. Now I feel as if my memory is a lot worse than it has been, I could only remember my entire last 5 days of the week. But for roughly the last 5 days when I would try to go to sleep I my mind would race and I would have thoughts come and go, some depressing others just random and I’m not sure if they are mine or not. I would have images pop up in my head at this time too, some pornographic, some related to videogames, others just relating to my day and this made it very hard to fall asleep like I couldn’t shut them off and would fall asleep 30-45 minutes later. On the weekends I drank more so I would wouldn’t have to deal with those thoughts and just fall asleep immediately, but tonight I found it hard to judge if I could hear those thoughts when I was trying to sleep and there was one I heard for the first time rather faintly, it was the sound of my brother saying “(insert my name here) is gay!” I could tell it was my brother but I never heard him say that to me so it wasn’t a replay of a memory. I am freaking out right now and I haven’t been able to get much sleep the past 1-2 weeks because this happens, I drink heavily on weekends as well (almost blacking out) like three times a weekend cause I just don’t like myself or my life right now. If you guys could lend any insight that would be great and I am thinking about going to get tested for it soon. Any feedback is appreciated. 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The paranoia, delusions, and constant intrusive thoughts I have make simple relationships feel like the hardest feat imaginable. It's like it's impossible for me to just accept and enjoy the present. All the negative things mentioned above make doing so far beyond impossible to the point where I'm just sitting here contemplating whether I'd be happier alone for the rest of my life. But I don't want that... I want to love someone who loves me similarly. I want the two of us to be each others everything and never doubt that for as long as we live. Yet the second I meet someone, my head rewires my thinking into something that depresses me. The excitement and interest in a girl slowly dissipates into extreme jealousy, paranoia that she's using me, that she's making fun of me, that she doesn't like me even remotely, that she's cheating whenever I'm not by her side... God I sound like such a psycho boyfriend type but I'm not! I know these things are dumb so I suppress them until I can't do it anymore and have to stop talking to this person I once really liked.. I'm on a good medicine that helps tremendously with voices, hallucinations, and delusions to some extent, but when love is involved it's like my brain flips the ""You don't deserve this"" switch and destroys me from the inside out.. I just want to grow old with someone. be there everything while they're mine.. I just want to smile with someone without dying underneath it.",7.0628243352135405,7.325060294520551,6.949919419822724,75.82827961321516,64.20547945205479,9.884286865431104,36.012087026591466,9.627879704456738,3.4228647864625303,1234,55,221,22,17,392,166,292,0.102,0.73,0.168,0.9647,0,1,1,0,0,0,35.0,2,1,1,0,14,21,3,1,14,0,13,7,2,4,2,51,35,21,1,5,11,0,1,6,0,0,1,2,0,2,21,17,0,2,8,0,0,1,9,5,0,2,1,3,36,16,34,31,5,28,0,1,0,4,22,14,1,2,18,155,57,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729039906216453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112311226151411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10639988359912927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642181702937616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122380464503426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754002449536033,0.0,0.11753316854217052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07479899670422484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20355934921296012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05726140838341175,0.080904135073603,0.0,0.0,0.10350628929696368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059167216627597836,0.0,0.0,0.09498674559042457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622474832901415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07590750446084064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062237940054316536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07999015570999822,0.33196245282511816,0.0,0.0999997389719555,0.10022059575932013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4088416583966703,0.0,0.2267810328452002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08734355976821757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11883434556989594,0.12060503825592432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09888346916357103,0.0,0.0,0.1070556225942001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254933664737437,0.0,0.0,0.12158558125388433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838174240281928,0.08718356435887255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468009609590687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09102416152086494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15047339690149986,0.07256451356424215,0.0,0.08990597453078779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11062648660705716,0.0,0.1362229644617814,0.09780959830428623,0.0,0.0,0.33398195460331354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916668158962232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Twitchy-T,2019/02/26,Creepy So today I've bin seeing people in masks all over for a few seconds like at a glance but scared the heck out of me. 😳,-0.4465476190476174,1.3986141071428548,1.5357142857142847,100.67595238095241,86.5,3.733333333333334,12.904761904761903,3.1291,-1.6541095238095234,97,1,24,0,3,32,27,28,0.139,0.797,0.063,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,6,1,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,4,1,0,2,15,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707842535304079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3842552516645016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5549126201351252,0.0,0.4416747878909596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5253752519528078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Free_Firebird,2019/02/26,The world's speed Sometimes I'll just be sitting around doing nothing or reading or watching a movie and the world around me just seems to start moving faster or slower than me out of no where. It really freaks me out everytime it happens. Sometimes I get this strange squeezing sensation on my brain during it. I guess I was just wondering if this is normal.,4.323431372549024,6.664388794117649,4.2741176470588265,84.60519607843139,72.82352941176471,6.886274509803924,28.98039215686275,7.793537801064563,1.9944921568627456,290,12,51,4,6,89,51,68,0.091,0.909,0.0,-0.5984,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,1,0,0,16,10,5,0,2,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,7,0,8,8,0,13,0,0,1,0,0,8,0,7,3,37,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4253071841932468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666687645887514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124804791870459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631529379883958,0.0,0.21124054336611495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25389133292918303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23405140207093106,0.2292115294938911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389443595872868,0.0,0.15303246251391278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174671211542969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4725162932269744,0.0,0.16908029202746302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590548613638834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pee_pearl_pray_pot,2019/02/26,"I just applied for a job There are several things I'm trying to do to fix my life and I just wanted to share some of them. -Get a driver's license -Get a job -Get my physical health up to par by seeing some doctors -Cut back on drinking and weed I saw the dentist a while ago but they stopped taking my insurance suddenly so I have to find a new one. Already stopped smoking weed and drinking, going to keep away from it completely for a bit. And now I did this job application, which will help a lot just by giving me more routine and less time on my hands",1.8181422924901192,3.865929565217397,3.262924901185769,90.2897233201581,79.43478260869566,6.2687747035573125,25.23715415019763,7.348242739294969,1.1554347826086966,440,17,93,6,11,144,79,115,0.057,0.868,0.075,0.4588,3,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,7,2,1,0,8,0,5,7,1,0,0,17,16,8,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,5,2,3,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,3,12,1,16,13,6,14,0,0,2,0,5,4,0,3,9,65,16,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14794860234025115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18418056906616365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15680997568118274,0.1283373788062935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18221381788624388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17499363025974576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17083132655018524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270009491853568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15254545548806564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615983068774564,0.1601076603845739,0.09485428467781801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17740908082408638,0.0,0.0,0.11187092998493753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4968736114774584,0.14835021604908122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11788785802507674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14189415952766452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16119504570651155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130971525971624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13299932974103035,0.0,0.0,0.1885518164858567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.279075184371963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12548957488641688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11088230978563893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09732193103784256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11331554027769708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09844315690534844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,deardeermon,2019/06/05,"Anyone else hurt after the dentist ? Antipsychotics can give you jaw issues, and it definitely gave me a bunch. And my negative symptoms make it very hard to brush my teeth regularly. but after going to the dentist for the first time in about three years, my jaw is super sore and keeps locking up on me. anyone else deal with jaw issues ?",4.906190476190479,6.863698666666667,5.2446349206349225,79.90314285714291,70.26984126984127,7.5796825396825405,25.29841269841269,8.238735603445708,1.6677517460317453,268,8,47,4,5,85,47,63,0.131,0.77,0.099,0.1062,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,4,0,2,8,4,1,0,7,7,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,1,2,6,1,10,6,1,9,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,5,32,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979229453198133,0.4365662381498142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21963333911120367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3559326606561298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18121043935202436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20436594157183005,0.1210746890794764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908406510612998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22806212052125785,0.0,0.0,0.4447136899232924,0.0,0.1893584074143148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14220485308603506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22142857258593904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12422446261699108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17577907377693627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13718980932109198 schizophrenia,plasticbile,2019/06/05,"Abilify prescription Good news everyone! So a few weeks ago I submitted a post here talking about how taking Seroquel regularly makes me want to be dead. I ended up talking to someone and the nurse just told me to take the Seroquel like I was before until we figured out things. Well today I saw her and she already had a box of Abilify ready for me since I told my therapist about trying that. She's decreasing my prescription of Seroquel to 50mg at night because of my insomnia, and next week if Abilify is working well for me I'm going to start getting shots of it every two weeks, since I am known to not take my medication. I feel really good about the appointment and today in general and just felt like gushing about it here :)",6.882042253521128,6.797044211267608,7.536725352112676,72.64269366197185,64.63380281690141,11.325352112676056,36.059859154929576,10.9516,4.070616901408451,586,26,106,15,8,195,91,142,0.028999999999999998,0.818,0.153,0.9335,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,1,0,0,1,12,6,0,0,6,0,5,2,0,2,0,20,19,9,1,2,4,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,6,3,19,6,21,12,1,17,0,0,1,0,8,4,0,1,13,72,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12817384906783144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15956306505973095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881431550803694,0.0,0.12303883682490135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280673586039346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182667403645735,0.13816575521554442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731110666117149,0.0,0.13883290710328078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07554439260601946,0.0,0.08217609747857736,0.24255715953026916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14128264094016693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651761204568457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14566323426920308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153777350229703,0.1356916658568855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13848107428372508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09263061342721876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23921928774701615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12251401968219493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023443713292746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32615005975021544,0.2324383463175637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16788476858838253,0.09606182291652787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27411639381816183,0.27633151043108883,0.0,0.0981698287570904,0.0,0.14124731926243694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08528528242482862,0.0,0.3479537343614724,0.0,0.2600147266054634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052661478403532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,callousfi,2019/06/05,"What is the most sophisticated hallucination you have heard of a person having? Has anyone had a prolonged hallucination of having a fictional person as a contact in their phone, and having long whatsapp conversations with them over a long period of time? Would this be conceivably possible or do hallucinations ''not work like that""? thanks",9.035892857142855,11.380076517857145,9.255714285714287,53.639285714285705,60.60714285714286,12.028571428571427,33.64285714285714,11.698219412168324,4.9043714285714275,279,11,38,9,4,92,45,56,0.0,0.83,0.17,0.87,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,6,0,10,0,0,0,0,6,12,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,3,2,7,8,1,6,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,2,5,33,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216787609331252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15147018549327906,0.0,0.0,0.5487523821102162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5414310186814622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34952421301686903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854437463396173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807871779885091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22571326290954305,0.0,0.0,0.2202439599562516,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Kemento,2019/06/05,What's your coping mechanism? I write what the voices say on post-it notes and stick them all over my walls. I also take really long hot showers. What do you guys do to cope with Schizophrenia?,1.333947368421054,3.9802697631578963,1.9687368421052616,94.48415789473684,88.21052631578951,5.145263157894737,15.494736842105262,6.742157984588678,-0.2295431578947369,153,3,31,2,5,47,34,38,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,4,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,1,19,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3602228893730076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44601407500527057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.398632068980431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.431404413002111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885683521613985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582141169647494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386806363370361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Dongleoid,2019/06/05,"So I've been off my meds Not by choice, I had a problem with insurances. I was wondering if anyone has noticed, if they've been off their medication for long enough, that things kind of ""come alive"". For example, I took a shower before hopping onto the internet. When I opened up my body wash, the smell hit me but it was different. Like the smell induced a good feeling. I was on 10mg of Olanzapine before, which doesn't seem like a high dose to me but I'm wondering if anybody else has ever experienced their senses coming back or feeling different while off their meds.",3.958558558558561,5.79637602702703,5.0596396396396415,80.75450450450452,72.51351351351352,8.536936936936938,27.64864864864865,9.150863307647796,2.38325945945946,453,17,86,10,9,149,77,111,0.043,0.858,0.1,0.7257,3,0,0,0,1,0,14.0,0,0,3,0,4,5,0,0,7,0,9,4,1,1,1,19,19,9,0,4,7,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,4,4,0,0,6,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,7,5,12,4,13,11,1,16,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,7,7,58,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627292085496604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12786574086360222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829988607456245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18470925130459803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864859703754025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3474725837921909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13891286566646108,0.0,0.0,0.17182067208879545,0.0,0.0,0.15041764341998332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16816111963458802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947506654026734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17569313449764956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17316408501973615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16248051209270048,0.0,0.0,0.1471602608906051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36941850260919606,0.1675183641786697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893207796306172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15911582183940126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513829811373377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104748189598594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18475285696162225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36066598926059773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mangosandpanties,2019/06/05,Hi :(( I feel like I’m getting bullied on this website for being schizophrenic. :(( I’m going through a hard enough time and I feel out of place.,-0.12642857142856911,2.01516778571429,1.3440000000000012,95.401,103.28571428571428,3.6685714285714286,23.457142857142852,5.6839178017228535,0.4991771428571429,110,5,22,1,5,35,23,28,0.183,0.733,0.083,-0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,7,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,5,6,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43395635903032653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4247136640774885,0.30003708096083226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21942461840017646,0.0,0.2386869257774107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3762237067177624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20518326050049607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4387945160853326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448963967104388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Massive_Bike,2019/06/05,"I've never had a friend and none of my family like me If I act the way I find most comfortable around others, it most often drives them away. People think I'm annoying and crazy, which is a strange thing to hear because I do try to restrain myself a little bit and not be too 'crazy'. I have never thought of myself as weird but people tell me this frequently. It's difficult to find people. With my close and extended family it's especially disappointing. I know them all well through observation so I know their interests and how to converse with them in a way they find interesting. I could change myself to get them to like me, not in a manipulative way but rather because I like them and I wish they liked me just as much. I'm a good actor but it is exhausting and uncomfortable so it's much easier to be quiet and smile. People aren't fond of me either way. In many cases mental health worsens when someone suppresses an important part of their identity, but ultimately for me it is more convenient to do so since I have not learned how to ignore people's negative views of me. However I am working my way towards this. Soon, I'll be annoying everyone and I will be happy once more, and I figure if I keep putting myself out there eventually I'll find a friend that will be able to put up with me.",4.272496940024482,5.6308522635658935,5.667804977560178,78.61283353733171,70.93798449612403,9.462586699306405,27.532435740514074,9.811843763644266,2.59493488372093,1036,36,202,26,19,349,137,258,0.157,0.6859999999999999,0.157,0.2577,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,9,1,14,20,2,0,9,0,18,2,0,3,3,53,28,24,0,5,12,0,0,4,2,2,2,2,0,0,12,16,0,4,10,1,0,4,8,7,1,0,2,3,38,13,30,18,11,24,0,1,1,0,14,10,0,5,9,152,50,2,0.10774929606278492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09591971767322346,0.0,0.0,0.1012340105409179,0.0,0.0,0.1313659415741303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11763432447754955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11398446818762566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08602904526611621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295906988263173,0.0,0.0,0.2031528937724356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39392361823320143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16649367770884446,0.0,0.056294560004612915,0.0,0.0,0.09037499740673792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11470112924885348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453246313050287,0.12144128764306696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957725251217057,0.0,0.0,0.11843239045715005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21056345371642235,0.10799310141065173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924087428691656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858594752638756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15841626079810026,0.0,0.16620579931403967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11474948375026195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166819875437466,0.0,0.3734989749416164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166356061967324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913133115363826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09129562889431582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941776340013422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07158384451549726,0.06904139819114599,0.0,0.08554090536068734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315469917708024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4276318794886736,0.0,0.0,0.09687955733069163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390637288229253,0.0,0.0,0.0784427708216299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,babyk03,2019/06/05,"Working im 18, just graduated highschool n i experience some type of psychosis and graduation alone was a major step forward for me and it was so hard. im about to start working if i get an interview to go well and it highkey scares me. im going to have to deal with people all the time and i dont know what to do. im undiagnosed so no meds or anything like that and it sucks, so any advice will help (sorry if this doesnt make sense im scattered rn)",-0.5101586042823172,1.692315731958768,2.404536082474227,91.11308485329106,92.71134020618557,5.046471054718478,20.863600317208565,6.67199483983844,0.4450434575733549,354,13,79,5,13,124,68,97,0.121,0.8029999999999999,0.076,-0.5159,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,6,4,1,1,3,0,7,0,0,1,1,14,14,11,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,2,1,0,2,1,5,2,9,11,3,6,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,4,4,46,11,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142126864197805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506368312469724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989073742358601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196885841841531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499470851827877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17046008919884442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14227281190762894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07598884561523833,0.0,0.16531913406541374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130289870731049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09748850742494387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7855260985134012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993259591650202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07105692706079185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970854575420412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16155625838889676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10083303232839047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14561550407740612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16281341864856938,0.10294649760555742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480996625191227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13077224024259745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21177092781639706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nigressnajari,2019/06/05,"Hallucinations and college I would study for an hour, quickly reviewing my notes, and the voices would tell me the answers to the tests without me being required to think about it. I would always finish my test first and receive very high marks (around 99%), but the voices would make me feel bad about it because they claimed me listening to them meant I knew they were real. Anyone have anything similar happen to them?",8.955131578947368,8.714467934210527,7.656842105263159,74.00789473684213,60.44736842105264,9.705263157894738,36.10526315789474,8.841846274778883,3.1293000000000006,337,13,56,4,4,102,54,76,0.062,0.938,0.0,-0.6956,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,4,2,4,1,0,0,5,0,7,0,0,1,0,18,14,4,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,2,4,0,1,5,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,3,4,13,0,9,6,0,7,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,4,42,15,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852882313600326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15570356536098462,0.0,0.183247292300853,0.1982330879508587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859291336762968,0.13574412478218467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11259408334147016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18941214116591387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969158611384076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23527444954147,0.0,0.0,0.21929569351677025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14864113681047267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25345945652672514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946327997710886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426848399043642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18373494846823624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21465630678714576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6327440930816458,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,exporius,2019/06/05,"Did you guys have to take a psychological test in order to get diagnosed? Yesterday I took the MACI test and the BASC-2 test and soon after taking the MMPI-A test. My psychologist says I’m getting diagnosed next week on Tuesday once she gets the results in. I’ve been seeing her for almost a year If that means anything. So yeah, did y’all have to take a test to get diagnosed?",4.91,5.746114666666671,5.836000000000002,79.93800000000002,69.0,9.2,28.333333333333336,9.3871,2.2943333333333342,300,10,60,6,5,99,52,75,0.0,0.9590000000000001,0.040999999999999995,0.4316,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,1,5,3,0,1,0,6,16,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,6,0,9,12,0,12,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,2,7,33,7,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18790459192583225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544201443731959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5713830778302434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3921579853464828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858032227102808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20440610397054088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19956814059153502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19984136283934145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922698874823934,0.0,0.0,0.14953293226427708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232688421340491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20848630186728664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15052168969113264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12084059100688885 schizophrenia,SlinknoMore,2019/06/05,"Educate me. Hi, I'm working on music that follows certain aspects of psychology and I'm trying to create something authentic even if I myself don't suffer from all of the conditions. So please tell me anything about schizophrenia that you think i should know. Stories, perspectives, feelings. What is the reality that I cannot read in a textbook?",5.0836021505376365,7.984912951612905,5.75935483870968,72.17569892473121,72.70967741935483,8.004301075268819,36.13978494623656,8.841846274778883,3.909991397849464,281,16,41,6,6,91,52,62,0.0,0.838,0.162,0.8245,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,2,8,10,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,7,1,7,9,1,3,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,30,11,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31947890994078465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564212095279975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19629995379499154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21336018623839964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4261582216678484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3883334794992304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988772043596329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3393287503943159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24876109515921865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635816127731235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2826349130834188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,molagbal33,2019/06/05,"Voices in my head are almost always complete nonsense. They just ramble shit like ""The ladies need to be impressed by the mouth"", ""I have your Subaru sales and your salad."", ""Shove cashews in your face"", and ""I don't know when the worm race starts"". As they're saying it I strangely feel like I understand what they mean and I can visualize it briefly. Then I'm back to not knowing what the fuck it meant.",3.1625824175824206,5.289479397435901,3.1275091575091603,92.48653846153849,75.53846153846153,5.482783882783883,22.68131868131868,6.1826913282559595,0.2977010989010989,315,9,64,2,7,95,58,78,0.138,0.7659999999999999,0.095,-0.5627,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,3,2,0,3,5,2,0,4,0,5,6,4,0,0,13,15,6,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,3,1,0,6,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,3,11,3,6,13,0,6,0,0,0,1,6,2,2,1,6,39,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27530502209485663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287657291557956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21140599696364235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882613250437867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13901405062359434,0.19641171683157715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541705158019075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821598962383299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021912451571975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26863610545033995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299481914695013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038588445882755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21863722974209596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28221409354193583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945985235390892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862142593289293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LightWarrior007,2019/06/05,"Have any of you ever considered.. I'm wondering if anyone has had any thoughts on the fact that the illness called 'schizophrenia' could possibly be due to unlawful hypnotism? I'm not sure if this is delusional or not but would appreciate feedback from others suffering from this illness.",9.04033333333333,10.059258900000003,8.374000000000002,64.71033333333335,60.0,13.06666666666667,42.66666666666667,12.45797560212912,6.090866666666669,235,13,35,8,3,74,41,50,0.245,0.755,0.0,-0.9172,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,7,2,0,0,3,13,11,4,0,4,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,5,6,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,4,2,26,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44581151143180936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22919562905958804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3347062079096569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617104904376619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965012502636502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36952952302523606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089344749506331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602255113395351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35546999112584343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23284980679691816,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rolltide2018,2019/06/05,"Family Member Diagnosed - Advice? Hey everyone, I personally do not suffer from schizophrenia, but my younger brother was diagnosed recently. I have my own fair share of mental health issues, and we have a pretty strong family history of mental health issues. I’m naturally a very skeptical individual, and don’t believe I was really supportive for him for a long time with regards to mental health (making me feel like quite a piece of shit now - especially since he’s my best friend and my only sibling). Moving forward, does anyone have any advice on how to go about talking about his disorder with him? I find it difficult because I’m naturally a problem solver (engineer) and these are issues that I can’t possibly fix. Also, anything else I should know to look out for or keep an eye on? Thanks everyone.",7.585768645357685,8.472195506849317,8.355844748858447,64.04889649923899,63.10958904109589,11.96834094368341,35.400304414003045,11.645159339076185,4.7357117199391165,648,28,100,20,9,218,102,146,0.111,0.6709999999999999,0.218,0.9605,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,1,0,0,3,5,12,2,0,6,0,10,7,2,2,0,19,20,8,0,2,3,1,1,1,1,1,5,0,0,1,3,8,0,1,3,0,0,3,3,5,0,0,2,3,15,7,17,17,3,10,0,1,2,0,11,4,1,1,6,64,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23099489876707144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09451940490218742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08037572287224996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264373571538973,0.0,0.09726328848258492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07204974110520145,0.0,0.0,0.13316374904789088,0.12403692493970213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399280972857184,0.0,0.0,0.13546014222273295,0.0,0.103432043958862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987356133585606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22587816113021514,0.0,0.0,0.22284487479301007,0.0,0.05976225171989975,0.08443755440095155,0.0,0.0,0.10802683849721527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131610698200494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06717216490570037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3769029118725012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3700903327830263,0.0,0.105055930895397,0.0,0.0,0.06495612918126556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05774343846165113,0.0,0.0,0.1045976450872958,0.09925288315179882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889516722703073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35733414520647266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256211259247001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989158323440759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10320212062409244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332455612929328,0.0,0.12024541524126375,0.0,0.1130953435377716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257134764987183,0.0,0.0,0.07571786725539502,0.0,0.11670195273001535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12132406488048868,0.09777099386689532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13412473306903808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09499956440084034,0.0,0.10881681663852058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06891965737572989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975221247354592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,miserywantscompany,2019/06/05,"I once met a girl. One night I was working for Uber alone, homeless in my third year, saw a beautiful girl taking a dump like a mad woman on a sidewalk. And our eyes met and we knew we were in love. But instead of running to me like she knew I was dreaming for, she took shade like I relatably understood. So instead of plowing my rental onto the sidewalk for her, I left her to her life. I never regreted since till now. I am in my seventh year of homeless in a new state!",3.1123469387755134,3.9852639081632684,4.439387755102043,88.16989795918369,73.18367346938777,7.2326530612244895,29.306122448979593,7.447530270364453,1.604779591836735,365,15,79,4,7,121,62,98,0.08,0.762,0.157,0.8316,1,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,3,0,0,1,4,7,2,0,7,0,4,3,1,0,1,10,13,5,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,3,0,2,10,2,19,4,15,3,0,17,0,1,2,1,14,7,0,0,10,55,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27303337761943364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28642658823141104,0.0,0.1862043489018222,0.3863778726238109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23792957436441675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20332190296481054,0.25460822713053033,0.0,0.2473918326067519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807493300068267,0.1786374102880469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21807123384067872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982112914522649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29289426739897545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19192030005103508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33952845878144944 schizophrenia,mysticprophet,2019/06/05,How can you be sure that nobody can hear or control your thoughts? These have been my most stubborn positive symptoms,5.3514285714285705,8.260678666666667,3.676428571428573,87.40607142857145,71.85714285714286,6.104761904761905,34.3095238095238,7.1686216300943375,2.3986952380952373,96,5,16,1,2,27,20,21,0.11,0.662,0.22699999999999998,0.4914,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,1,7,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4953316644229319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4977552032362557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41623614661722397,0.4590282893220578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506091837396047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xaf23,2019/06/05,"min d wave frequencies do you believe that other people emits brain wave frequencies? &#x200B; and you are just susceptible to their own agony's frequency. &#x200B; and it's all hard to sieve your own personality throught these countless frequencies you are receiving?",6.643030303030303,10.632885727272726,5.238181818181818,70.56893939393942,78.0909090909091,9.296969696969695,34.60606060606061,9.2995712137729,4.662951515151515,228,12,31,7,6,67,33,44,0.042,0.958,0.0,-0.1926,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,4,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,1,20,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4721044949208217,0.5294497987472245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454546852461241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24320487027326226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19516061825122494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15103735093863194,0.1902277775718748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5294497987472245,0.0 schizophrenia,lady_evelynn,2019/06/05,"anyone else get this? I'm really scared of mirrors right now, guys. I keep thinking I'm going to see a demon in the mirror. I know there's nothing there, but my God I had to take the mirrors off my wall, and close my laptop because there were reflections in the screen.",3.5142727272727257,4.604640381818179,4.576136363636365,86.74420454545454,72.45454545454545,6.954545454545455,24.65909090909091,7.1686216300943375,0.9859999999999992,211,6,43,2,4,69,41,55,0.040999999999999995,0.9059999999999999,0.052000000000000005,0.1415,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,11,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,6,0,6,9,0,8,1,0,2,0,1,6,0,0,1,25,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22166545582566796,0.3248210844374325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932504450090072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648267839286049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16562814748050458,0.0,0.18016790291156065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31389638587847696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817790193961616,0.0,0.0,0.174224094046549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041860848632382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20308902319125285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270730539641108,0.0,0.0,0.3173890324232556,0.0,0.25262127493211955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23835711398112744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20313150828297344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Premedpotato,2019/06/05,What is the most difficult symptom you deal with? I'm hoping to do research on schizophrenia in the fall. I want to see what symptoms are the most damaging to you guys. I myself am schizoeffective and what affects me the most is my issues communicating and memory. Also being expressionless makes everyone think I'm a bitch. :/,5.465423728813561,7.901982661016955,6.412000000000003,70.10884745762712,69.84745762711864,9.465762711864409,30.444067796610174,9.888512548439397,3.4840616949152547,263,11,42,7,5,87,43,59,0.192,0.746,0.062,-0.8586,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,1,4,1,0,5,0,6,2,0,2,0,11,13,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,7,1,6,12,3,3,0,1,1,0,4,2,1,4,0,33,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23248597160642506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997160642564705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777921835699973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878551547854836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2887471944757544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30343261502138325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940555976501196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23166350257324705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6043317518000658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862794679682656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17147219145740694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,michsix,2019/06/05,"Hearing music I've heard music coming from random furniture, walls, etc. I looked into for the first time and apparently it's rare. Anyone here have musical hallucinations?",5.095344827586207,8.706432931034485,6.361637931034482,62.36590517241382,81.75862068965517,8.417241379310347,24.49137931034483,8.841846274778883,3.212717241379312,141,5,18,4,4,47,27,29,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,3,4,1,5,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,2,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977774919426227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3668484162427932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4749564847723422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3622439358347597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.479985290352356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3576226843713834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483276263014817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,neonlexicon,2019/06/05,"I've been seeing a psychiatrist for the last 9 months & she now believes I have schizoaffective disorder. Just a little background... I've been previously diagnosed as being on the autism spectrum. I fully agree with the diagnosis, as I exhibited many of the symptoms as a child. (I've learned that autism & schizoaffective disorder share many symptoms, with the key difference being age.) I've also been diagnosed with major depression & fibromyalgia. I have terrible anxiety as well, but that can likely be attributed to everything else. About 2 years ago I hit major burnout. All of my symptoms have gotten worse. I can barely leave the house. I finally got into a psychiatrist last year & have been going 2-4 times a month to help work through the depression & some coping skills for the autism. A few months ago she kind of hit a wall with me & was growing concerned about my lack of improvement. She was convinced that something else was going on. After a few more appointments of trying to dig through my brain, she's convinced I'm schizoaffective & a lot of the symptoms were essentially masked by the autism. Hearing her say that honestly freaked me out a little & I thought there was no way. After the appointment, I immediately jumped into research mode & realized that I didn't have a complete grasp on what schizophrenia really was. I didn't realize that it's an entire spectrum, similar to autism. Now I'm realizing all of the potential signs. Here are some things that I'm concerned about... any advice would be appreciated... First, I'm looking at heredity. My dad is weirdly religious. The religion is where I can see schizoid behavior emerge. He doesn't believe in going to the doctor. He thinks Jesus can heal everything. I remember when I was little, if I got sick, he'd pray over me & start yelling for the devil to get out of me. He'd grab my shoulders & shake me, or push his hands down on my chest while yelling to Jesus for help. He would burn books & records, then claim he could see demons jumping out of the flames. He's claimed to have been visited by angels & said he could see Jesus in the sky, standing on the clouds. He's been talking about the ""end of days"" for over 30 years. He doesn't even go to church. He claims that churches are twisting God's words & preaching wrong messages. At the same time, he used to tell me that my stuffed animals would come to life at night & have adventures. My parents divorced when I was 7, so I only had limited interaction with my dad after that. I started having my own problems around the age of 12. I didn't really have friends, so I started making imaginary friends. Normal for a kid, maybe, but I was in middle school. Even now, at 34, when I get really bad, I still talk to my main imaginary friends. I used to get made fun of a lot, so I started making up weird things about myself, like telling people I ate lightbulbs, or that I shaved my tongue. I used to think that if I thought really hard about it, that I could make bad things happen to people. Later in my teens, I was fully convinced on it. I'd make impromptu rituals where I'd write a name in blood, then burn or eat the paper. I wasn't going off anything, just making things up. My mom got concerned & tried to make me go to youth group at the church. At some point, I freaked out, thinking I invited evil forces into the house, so I copied a move from my dad & put oil around all of the doors. When I was 19, I became infatuated with this guy I met & ended up hooking up a few times, after which he told me it was a mistake & couldn't see me again. I'd dated people before, but this one broke me. I was obsessed. It happened over one month, max. I carved his name on myself multiple times & kept painting pictures of him. The pictures kept getting darker. I began using blood to paint, convinced that he'd come back to me if I did. This went on for months. Eventually, I started to move on, but still thought about him everyday, which led to depression, then anger. Then, one day a friend called me & told me the guy flew through a windshield & died. I started freaking out, believing my anger projected & caused it. I tell myself I'm being delusional, but 3 of my ex boyfriends have died. 2 were in car accidents within a year after dating. One was a suicide. Two others were in wrecks without dying. One had his sister die in an industrial accident within a month of leaving me. I think I curse people. I realize that this type of thing is probably just delusion, but it feels real to me. There's been other delusional instances. I've been convinced that I've had curses placed on me, due to my spotty health & bad luck with cars & finances. I've believed that I was under attack by energy vampires. (I realize that it was probably just depression, but it's like I could sense something actually stealing my energy). Hallucinations have thankfully been fairly mild. The biggest ones in question are me seeing an ent (yes, a giant walking tree) in the daylight, while driving home from work. I once saw what I believe was a vampire floating over a snowy field. I've also had a UFO come towards my car & shoot straight up into the sky. These are things that I 100% believe I saw & could take anyone to the exact place it happened. Other than that, I see a lot of shadows. Sometimes people, but usually smaller shadows, like cats. I've seen one move to a room & I've followed it, expecting to find one of my cats, but there's nothing there. That happens a lot. Even more common is I'll see a cat sitting on the couch, usually behind my head, & I'll reach to pet it & there's nothing there. Then I'll look & see they're sleeping across the room. I typically brush it off & attribute it to cats being little teleporting ninjas. The other thing I see a lot is bugs. Always bugs. Usually out of the corner of my eye. It's led to full blown paranoia, however. I've torn things apart, convinced there were bugs, only to find nothing. Just the other week, I woke my husband up because I was pulling all of the blankets off of my bed & using a flashlight to check for bugs, because I thought I'd been bit by one in my sleep. I check all of my food & drinks for bugs. I check myself. If I take a shit, I stand over the toilet inspecting it, making sure there are no bugs or parasites. I don't even know what kind of bugs I'm looking for. I also get some auditory hallucinations. A lot of them were around bedtime, so I wrote those off. (Somehow the combination of the fan & air purifier was creating country music.) The main thing I hear is people talking. It will sound like people talking outside, or in another room. I'll sometimes hear multiple different voices speaking & it's just far away enough that I can't make out what they're saying. Other times, I think it sounds like the radio. Like a DJ is talking about something & sometimes commercials will play. I've joked about it for years & said that it must be my fillings just pulling in radio signals. I don't think that's really a thing though. I hear it enough that I've actually gone around the house or have gone outside to try & find the source of the noise, but I never do. I'm sorry that this has gotten so long. This is just new to me & I'm trying to work through everything & get any advice or feedback from others. I'm still seeing my psychiatrist, so there's a lot to work through. I'm afraid of having to switch meds again. I've been through so many. I'm on 90mg of Cymbalta now & it's actually working pretty well for the depression. I'm afraid of being pulled off SNRIs if they decide to switch things up & put me on antipsychotics or mood stabilizers. I know that's more for my doctor to figure out. Thanks in advance if you manage to read all of this & chime in.",4.397309481956364,5.871681908316963,5.0195400337779645,82.93246587736536,70.78127046496398,8.029800434288077,28.784389756316127,8.532816995589336,2.096276489849377,6202,235,1194,102,114,1991,551,1527,0.12,0.802,0.077,-0.9977,4,0,4,1,3,1,281.0,0,1,2,10,67,61,5,4,86,1,103,27,11,19,10,153,215,51,5,21,33,8,4,7,4,6,12,14,8,4,83,26,4,3,27,8,4,37,14,29,2,11,71,38,144,31,199,119,34,215,12,6,18,0,77,98,1,28,83,741,227,19,0.0,0.0,0.05182660285370185,0.0,0.0,0.03459825326306568,0.03138521000545498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04247114970765282,0.014730280028070657,0.8439705411069659,0.0,0.024077238337113442,0.018563096042774577,0.01354271516662511,0.0,0.0,0.012378320534992354,0.0,0.014568026852889084,0.06303754695939462,0.0,0.020139671524942768,0.01663251271000771,0.013612482719241316,0.04434369389235588,0.0215831189658412,0.0,0.015063914209726288,0.11967103532439605,0.0,0.0,0.019327046182914902,0.0,0.0,0.019762356944726736,0.01807670043079387,0.0,0.0,0.018185815379702,0.0,0.045748594909408746,0.018561215680456752,0.0,0.0,0.07067186122395883,0.0,0.0,0.02283388802915236,0.0,0.07623766315693697,0.03593626144613405,0.0734915059490207,0.036991648508312366,0.040578249413195294,0.0362394573147606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.017342160216158673,0.0,0.018114546587842645,0.02957710127190546,0.0,0.0313591342841024,0.03658377785668375,0.0,0.04677054978992573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04773083412075977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.008951147976047524,0.0,0.0,0.019392726251733446,0.048540551382094906,0.015058127867111776,0.02140648827179209,0.0,0.054709048783738425,0.0,0.055494392434599665,0.0,0.06036599732826123,0.0,0.04247602048360168,0.0,0.0,0.03505742529621081,0.06261867265387684,0.0,0.01585837403297378,0.0,0.01816834322002581,0.018817417570912195,0.07981008554142377,0.0,0.023731840487468937,0.0,0.017757511270681873,0.0,0.0,0.061280513463746536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036869815151485685,0.019458166569020368,0.028860548706699088,0.0,0.03748975491435159,0.0,0.0,0.012504123468166362,0.06054140083559593,0.07097206253938976,0.0,0.01566656162004559,0.04459808082391625,0.0,0.0,0.10535295864292804,0.0,0.01675096782905837,0.09453490069337724,0.05384406545748079,0.017785001737520113,0.0,0.019663996583337888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.020733491601851936,0.08478199778339646,0.056446331323319325,0.0,0.0,0.013653613320250715,0.017097628099597736,0.0,0.016613027773920583,0.017345141108943366,0.05095939978599328,0.0,0.0,0.018853073554481254,0.10796384846562701,0.026927796064432654,0.0,0.0,0.019657040946323544,0.0,0.0,0.08591101923727998,0.0,0.036991648508312366,0.0,0.01673501834066286,0.0,0.0,0.018010273614028374,0.03817356792452465,0.016939340909596867,0.0,0.035592726735359334,0.01983136557310037,0.0,0.017707749654802603,0.02014984299324797,0.05670484417240273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.020054001541774905,0.0,0.03367913585870031,0.028156207055554067,0.0,0.017916339606351358,0.15517662929312048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.018171832997370643,0.0,0.0,0.035431487695891946,0.0,0.0,0.04088580813958494,0.05252603729209609,0.019817013218517702,0.07518147290744917,0.0,0.04241281773425178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.019364163820547127,0.0,0.0166848293352675,0.07360061089976852,0.026620843989101632,0.07114483927057466,0.046419499321109566,0.0325970123274151,0.0,0.0,0.12937165258106464,0.06806004781170615,0.017393067317656666,0.056216687970181006,0.05161368873114544,0.0,0.0,0.03383187190319364,0.0,0.04807658838598634,0.0,0.01729321858553644,0.0,0.0,0.0764483630962404,0.05849192479266585,0.0,0.0,0.01405178483554201,0.014200245869885894,0.0,0.03183417233067845,0.016410820335306345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.017065020727744643,0.0,0.06443982490309584,0.0,0.01804082760945432,0.037727022415780034,0.019355406590508082,0.0,0.0570006258527017 schizophrenia,SingingSky,2019/06/05,"Is schizophrenia one illness? Or a spectrum? Or different illnesses? Do you think ""schizophrenia"" is one specific illness? Or more than one condition causing a similar ""syndrome"" in different cases? Or is it a condition that's on a spectrum? There's been some discussion among researchers about how to deal with the concept of the condition, the diagnosis issue, treatment approaches... I was given this diagnosis but I've been doing ok on meds for awhile. I'm kinda thinking different conditions causing a similar symptom syndrome. Some types of these conditions respond well to medication. Some don't. I am not convinced right now that they're all the same illness, based on how differently people can respond to meds, but this is my subjective opinion at the moment. What do I know? What do you all think about the ideas being discussed about ""schizophrenia"" and what it is?",5.656114790286978,8.790225516556294,5.7624900662251655,71.67826048565122,71.98013245033113,9.059779249448123,37.21898454746137,9.558583805096642,4.555696335540839,707,41,102,19,15,223,89,151,0.07,0.877,0.053,-0.3535,4,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,0,0,8,3,0,0,11,1,16,6,0,4,2,26,22,9,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,10,2,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,4,0,6,3,17,17,7,10,0,0,0,0,7,7,0,9,2,83,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3159290141519682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585304784489073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6426291481069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17358800775606334,0.0,0.1604962942366026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08450816272193078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34160838681973965,0.15490744980441726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125963055788021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660499895004827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313190384085115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598262708947581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955894932306369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13825801140597405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Estanley15,2019/08/24,"My brother is schizophrenic and addicted to meth. My brother is a meth addict, and lately he has been in and out of rehab, out and about, and jail. Rehab has been a new development, as it used to just be prison on and off. I had heard him say he was paranoid schizophrenic a few times, but I figured it was paranoia from using meth. He was formally diagnosed last week while he was in rehab. He doesn't have very many resources other than church, our parents (who are very helpful in a lot of ways, but none of us know the right way to help) and a half-way house that is owned by people who have questionable histories. My main question is this. Is there anyone here who can advise me on what the best resources are for me to learn as much as I can about schizophrenia going forward, as well as resources/books I can share with him as well as the best ways to share things with him?",5.917771428571433,5.725505948571428,5.799571428571429,84.6519285714286,66.65714285714286,8.828571428571427,29.5,8.238735603445708,1.8199142857142856,691,21,143,8,10,216,102,175,0.048,0.81,0.142,0.9670000000000001,1,0,3,0,0,0,20.0,2,0,0,2,7,6,0,0,8,0,23,8,0,2,0,22,28,17,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,10,11,0,0,5,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,8,2,14,6,31,19,8,20,1,0,0,0,25,10,0,3,7,109,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096424613375622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09930270332752006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980795060224131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414588388617175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08071244003864503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903841404559825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16387039019943211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07804970539576077,0.11576410943589095,0.16020316042010127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073913035779595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14398456405984714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10440000778050043,0.0,0.0,0.13716244348164905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15769484235535566,0.0,0.0,0.09845781157430604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3181866565045121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212831036732394,0.0,0.11293888650572258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09435084361574164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08281218449981052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17083088282003367,0.2453169345214466,0.0,0.2343604276027745,0.0,0.4509109993722861,0.11391875002823168,0.0,0.2553835442937544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wildfire,2019/08/24,"huh huh huh! i got to king bee sthatusth! I CAUSED DIGG TO SHUTDOWN! SHALALALA! I GOT OUT IN 2017 IN 48 HOURS OF A MANDATORY 72 HOUR HOLD! SIX-FIGURE CLUB, LOSER! HOUDINI FRENCH SCHIZO MAGIC! GREEK DEMOCRACY SCHIZOFRENIA VS FRENCH/RUSSIAN ENLIGHTENMENT COMMUNISM FLIGHT OF THE BUMBLE BEE SCHIZOPHONIA! HEY 4CHAN FROM 2017! NAH, YOU DON'T NEED SEISMOMETERS FOR SCHZIO. I BOUGHT PIEZOELECTRIC TRANSDUCERS AND THEN WANTED SQUIDS BEFORE ALL HELL BREAKING LOOSE IN 2017. FIRST USING A SONY A/V REFERENCE MICROPHONE AND SOUNDMAPPING MY HOUSE. WITH PUTTING TALKING BACTERIA/PROBIOTICS (FOOD FOR THOUGHT) IN MY SEPTIC TANK. ALSO MAYBE SHOULD GET INTO SPINTRONICS. AND WANTED 3 378KHZ BAT MICROPHONES. READY TO DIE SHEEPLE HIVEMIND? I CONTROL SCHIZO AS THE KING BEE! FEE FI FO FUM. IT'S TIME TO DIE WITH FUTURETHOUGHT AND RIFE TONES. 1147HZ VIETNAM WAR NEPTUNE!",4.306457889936151,7.688358216783223,3.173244147157192,83.38588628762544,89.20979020979021,6.682760717543327,27.8957129826695,7.7425588080867325,2.6277646093037395,687,31,104,15,23,198,111,143,0.19,0.7759999999999999,0.034,-0.9807,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,5,1,3,2,0,4,3,2,1,0,3,1,21,11,7,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,8,1,2,3,1,2,1,1,3,0,1,4,0,8,0,18,6,1,13,1,1,0,0,3,6,1,0,5,41,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16144236059416006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178394415123965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20738508265762665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22642418023472696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4190365325296969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171795859511574,0.2441125815348437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547331277879356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229217510108006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3976197997404467,0.2329409686365706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028143351503704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496905324916171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029438994597274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16226248936035842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16026917460141174,0.1177171205171336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17435841911657926,0.0,0.0,0.2381466303007892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JimmyCricketss,2019/08/24,"A friend Told a friend of mine about what’s up with me yesterday. She didn’t really react much and kept everything seemingly normal. That was a huge relief for me, today, haven’t heard a word from her which is highly unusual. She already knew I had some issues because I see a therapist regularly and she already knew I’m on meds. Not sure where to go from here, she’s one of the only people I actually talk to on a daily basis.",4.172758620689656,5.069837482758622,6.0695977011494255,77.37267241379313,70.72413793103449,9.47816091954023,25.99425287356322,9.725611199111238,2.3388252873563222,339,10,66,8,6,118,65,87,0.024,0.8320000000000001,0.14400000000000002,0.8701,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,7,0,5,0,0,1,1,13,14,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,8,2,11,4,12,6,2,9,0,0,1,0,10,6,0,2,2,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.20464188009284684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4628294782840449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12783425307381038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18846937856306745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3240352054175538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191802135074031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22156490067430865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188775908395348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23293503776311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15415734193511152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205466426018488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14210157020731046,0.15949014145122542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14538307848553614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13434242589161188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16710777556034104,0.19090760305106674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19764452942260766,0.0,0.0,0.1685529770299487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434837279808822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19877586879593867,0.2003821635639596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DPS_Slut,2019/08/24,How do I know it’s time for disability? When did those of you who are on disability seek it? How was the process and dealing with the disability people? What is your life like now? Is it worth it?,0.5857500000000009,2.9912160750000005,2.575000000000003,90.85000000000002,88.25,6.2,20.5,7.554174236665415,0.6738499999999998,153,5,35,3,5,51,32,40,0.0,0.87,0.13,0.6553,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,2,0,5,7,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,4,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,27,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6029985391146442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214416506098556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4131269071810791,0.28574895710311354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4054908510852373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3410555509626921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mlw19mlw91,2019/08/24,"Schizophrenia, does it start like this? Everything is related. People are always referencing things. EX: Looks at you funny you offended them 5 days ago. Patterns are easy to find. Numbers are easy to minupulate. I'm worried, psyc evaluation said answer pattern is related to schizophrenia Just as the title says. I need extreme silence to think I space out and what people says goes out the window, never used to happen like that. Strange.",3.90125598086124,7.227187092105264,4.028229665071773,78.48806220095696,85.97368421052632,6.447846889952152,27.961722488038287,7.686295010490155,2.555594736842106,353,16,52,7,11,109,58,76,0.07200000000000001,0.765,0.16399999999999998,0.8271,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,1,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,5,0,0,1,1,10,13,2,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,5,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,5,2,9,12,0,8,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,0,6,29,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21904654178653693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20561384799626067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15936436963326034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162460827839992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222084949119284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258524511983312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185169972370888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24144920463482944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075086826586448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832276260895746,0.19058510554313304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426274743879505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23505651989981985,0.3930207753443645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17490448148382268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16416773203432788,0.15833698000203938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21342217635073893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509504088410941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Indigojupiter,2019/08/24,"Do my actions harm others? Please help. I'm living in fear that whatever wrong I'm doing is hurting other people. For example, smoking. I have this horrible fear that something is going to happen to someone I love when I make bad choices. I live with the guilt of the mistake as well as the fear of something happening to someone I love because of it. I grew up around very religious people and I can't help but wonder if God punishes those closest to you if you ""sin"" too much. In the scriptures it says he is a vengeful God. I'm living in fear and guilt and I can't handle it.",2.736666666666672,4.5364558717948755,4.403769230769231,84.3287307692308,75.75213675213675,6.731282051282051,27.939316239316238,7.554174236665415,1.7482485470085467,455,19,87,6,10,153,72,117,0.24100000000000002,0.626,0.133,-0.9218,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,0,4,16,1,6,5,0,8,2,0,1,0,11,18,9,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,9,5,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,13,1,0,0,1,11,3,16,18,1,10,2,1,0,2,8,6,0,3,1,59,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12269759183084387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11508198348265627,0.08401966285309781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6203866084089561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833175472829279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437645723499895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847685906560932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475494690369084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651182640055821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24879324369839803,0.0,0.09200234795396577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132063656083846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19110742144904386,0.0,0.0,0.15129554372694487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096076534523918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335651955977763,0.2122159650667203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11372387902167636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12392538959101145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494703537713075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506950629974192,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dontyaknow124,2019/08/24,"My parents don't care about me at all I have GAD, MDD, and schizophrenia along with learning disorder because my brain sucks. I keep telling them to close the windows because I feel like everyone can see and watch me and I really hate it they don't care and leave the windows open all the time! It makes me really delusional. Also I feel like there hiding something from me because when I was little I got a diagnosis of """"borderline Asperger's"""" but I didn't have it completey because I could make friends but back then I showed every sign of apsergers pretty much and I couldn't maintain friends but I could make them they said that my symtoms would go away with age but it's only gotten worse as I've got older and every time I ask to see someone for a diagnosis because I could've have gotten misdiagnosed they just say I'm not autistic and yell at me. They never listen to me at all Everytime I disagree they yell and scream at me",3.831261261261261,5.637461135135138,4.528108108108111,84.56531531531532,72.78378378378378,7.311711711711713,28.54954954954956,8.021203637495839,1.8956198198198195,750,30,144,11,15,240,102,185,0.124,0.7829999999999999,0.09300000000000001,-0.5488,2,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,7,0,6,9,2,0,5,0,12,1,1,3,4,35,33,16,0,4,6,1,2,2,2,1,0,6,2,0,5,13,0,1,3,1,0,1,6,3,0,0,7,11,32,6,17,22,4,17,0,0,3,0,15,8,1,0,10,95,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10293920153471853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12033800317759015,0.0,0.12093886718416835,0.09897952692611224,0.0,0.3923396908723546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436966923432055,0.0,0.0,0.2624819905436001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30832292103692743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475269432199402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21690823110604027,0.12299970347325336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017175637805922,0.1839185178656824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989011071263946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315586707202403,0.0,0.20590201409906453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12708665232206867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441432216008865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362983624123648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12577445774785995,0.12901359215666228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25776946631338826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09462572421118418,0.0,0.09927859708943684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09789913311893336,0.0,0.0,0.14293091523151344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13095688706414935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649256426285814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224444138269662,0.10236516408770624,0.0,0.0,0.20515006402190344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10906601327309888,0.09909673915025193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11250899089495137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501180526399997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13117905226908205,0.09144065066510422,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,coffeegreentea,2019/08/24,"My mother is beginning to show signs of an episode.. My mother has a significant history of schizophrenia. Her last major episode was last year after not staying compliant on her medication. She locked herself in a vacant house and assaulted a police officer. I noticed that she hasn’t been sleeping well. Instead of sleeping in her room, she’s been sleeping in the living room with all of the blinds closed (unusual for her). She called her doctor earlier in the week and requested Haldol 5mg which she has since been taking twice daily. Beforehand, she was taking risperidone, which has evidently stopped working for her. I hear her whisper to herself when she thinks no one is paying attention. My sister and I got her to call a mobile crisis center out of concern for her. She set them up with her information but doesn’t think she needs it right now. She smokes and has been smoking inside when she normally smokes in the garage. I assume she’s afraid to go outside. We have my 7 mo old daughter at home with my fiancé. I don’t know how to work around her smoking inside. I don’t know if the Haldol needs a few days to begin showing effectiveness. Any advice? I don’t want to force her into treatment. She’s been proactive with knowing her old medicine wasn’t working. She knows something isn’t right. She called the crisis center by herself. I just don’t want anything to happen knowing my daughter is at home, and I work often. Thanks.",4.517909513877747,6.7262831365313644,4.854663885769291,81.2431798491898,71.87822878228782,7.074667094497032,29.12578212738649,7.893859768569023,2.0856794801861067,1154,47,199,16,23,364,145,271,0.052000000000000005,0.897,0.052000000000000005,-0.2617,0,0,3,0,0,0,30.0,1,0,1,5,9,4,1,1,12,0,23,6,3,2,1,39,43,10,0,6,4,5,0,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,4,14,0,1,11,2,1,1,10,2,1,2,9,3,48,2,34,34,3,36,0,0,1,0,44,19,0,3,14,142,52,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11286667304474893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07854494175046925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09504784598287327,0.10282077173248844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35381966050204594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07448887534671994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822062082049145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06564213161923205,0.0,0.09237705498623257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10213754433184116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017852031410831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23171472888384814,0.0,0.0,0.13327315735735026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173828614261793,0.1882981831483609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019898899902264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635555215401537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712857124998563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11316689056947367,0.0,0.13149915805442214,0.2423986693631913,0.0,0.07826676677558056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19727520195637488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09554398696191546,0.0,0.34675456938720617,0.0,0.0,0.08891865348179473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231091699641763,0.0,0.0965643779109634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736854211597254,0.0,0.0,0.10633821033160476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14801732147894675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13625148688944275,0.0,0.09264829039577024,0.0,0.10384966815456242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33634570360985355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07437914223641807 schizophrenia,Nodnerb_nz,2019/08/24,"Currently the New Zealand Government has declared Mental Health a topic for this term, but....It's 95% focused on Depression / Suicide / Postpartum / Bullying. Kinda sucks they worry about Depression as a major crisis then force us schizophrenics to take medication that have side effects 2 - 3 times worse than depression. Newest anti-psychotics target serotonin as well as dopamine and just turn you into a total zombie. At least they've taken away the guards outside the welfare locations surprisingly quickly after that rightwing asshole killed 50 muslims. Certain they have a silent button for ""problem"" welfare clients (they used excuse themselves to go up to the guard every time I went after a guy shot up one of their locations). First world schizophrenic problem, least my medications have all been free for 8 years, and they kinda don't let us become homeless. Thats all, kinda a facebook post.",9.665826023391807,10.724758901315797,8.230877192982456,66.13225146198833,58.67105263157895,10.176608187134505,40.57309941520468,9.994966539143718,4.567309064327485,731,36,98,13,9,222,117,152,0.226,0.695,0.079,-0.982,1,0,0,0,0,1,25.0,2,1,5,2,4,11,2,0,10,0,7,5,0,2,4,17,14,6,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,4,3,0,2,1,0,1,2,1,7,1,2,3,0,10,5,20,10,7,23,0,3,0,0,10,8,1,3,12,64,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468150329114122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17258114758419674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40376948043719857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13165903497382134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132917952743488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880834823337991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154725781317325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661011675234715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17288279989984526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597903759416736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148387823394053,0.1574772092365128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15092060207109642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10588843030304697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14965757496488158,0.0,0.0,0.2990468050739812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17092729151531105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11749096948045305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822374175654904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16997019875766856,0.0,0.0,0.3759323475596403,0.1349617960880298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049996954530986,0.14485815640961905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15869352700517614,0.15924621525390206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10062879742157267 schizophrenia,quadriplegic_octopus,2019/08/24,"[TRIGGER warning] DAE have problems with sex being too stimulating? The sensations are too personal, too intimate, too... uncomfortable. *Too much.* I don't even enjoy the orgasm as much as I wished it didn't happen. I'm wondering if this is related to the over stimulation aspect of sz or if I actually might have been molested. I was told an offender had access to me at his preferred age range. That's all I know but I'm getting what I think are false memories about it. There's evidence to support the theory; however I was very young. I just don't fucking know.",2.564166666666665,5.247770416666672,4.855185185185189,76.28333333333335,80.94444444444446,9.155555555555557,28.44444444444445,9.516144504307137,3.4170222222222213,447,21,80,15,12,155,77,108,0.091,0.8540000000000001,0.055,-0.16899999999999998,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,9,6,3,0,5,0,14,3,1,3,1,18,26,6,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,5,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,6,1,10,2,10,18,3,4,0,0,0,3,3,2,1,5,2,59,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.2497939606373492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16906858972877964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366440858634748,0.13373598997538633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263571996444532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813535265510664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715482468539832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3763410792143485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235068572521368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24493280420128355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904765656631686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16401797501607895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445943824158221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21120557872611093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29435777525066203,0.0,0.27759317429410163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ATS9194,2019/08/24,"Dark on netflix I'm watching dark season 2 and my mind starts concocting ways my episode was time traveling minds from the future sent to guide me On to the path I'm on. Like guardian angels. Anyone else get feelings like that?",2.5593181818181847,5.291839931818182,2.5919999999999987,92.15300000000002,81.5,5.3381818181818215,24.70909090909091,6.742157984588678,0.938178181818182,183,7,35,2,5,55,35,44,0.0,0.8859999999999999,0.114,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,7,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,2,6,5,0,10,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,6,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235931027943581,0.3276457933053532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671297704059811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616871161057828,0.22844628957594956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16706848285090012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124504104247888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6457602610314808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22633736610318106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864625298308472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25382136149211354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NeitherManner,2019/08/24,"Successful weight loss stories? Has anybody managed to lose sizable amount of weight and keep it off, like more than 10 pounds/5 kilos? Please also specify your medication.",6.954880952380954,10.638379964285717,5.75,70.46166666666669,70.78571428571429,8.019047619047619,37.904761904761905,8.841846274778883,4.3623190476190485,141,8,18,3,3,42,27,28,0.135,0.622,0.242,0.6072,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,2,4,2,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,10,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403430629451023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671352431606812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14682947781164113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33622925039049084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027641114545628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299044999846188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7319575693222167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,panaceamatter,2019/08/24,"About Schizophrenia &#x200B; [Schizophrenia](https://i.redd.it/jn2npvfuhdi31.jpg) &#x200B; Schizophrenia could be a brain health problem that affects common fraction of the folks everywhere the planet. The persons is young or older, ladies or men, it doesn't matter. You can treatment for [schizophrenia unspecified icd 10](https://www.panaceapgx.com) from top healthcare. It's diagnosing is harder than it'd appear as a result of the symptoms of psychosis can be similar sometimes to different major brain disorders like affective disorder or perhaps major depression. Schizophrenia is characterised by a pause in knowledge and feeling, poignant the foremost elementary human attributes: language, thought, perception, affect, and sense of self. the complete sense of self is modified once an individual is schizophrenic. Schizophrenia symptoms are divided into 3 categories: positive symptoms, broken symptoms, and negative symptoms. The most common symptom is delusions - patients assume that they're someone apart from themselves, typically somebody celebrated. Hallucinations follow shut behind in frequency. These is hearing things no one else will, seeing things that aren't there, or perhaps smelling and feeling one thing that no-one else will. Disorganized thinking and broken speech also are gift in folks with psychosis. different broken symptoms are: problem understanding, poor concentration, poor memory, problem expressing thoughts, problem desegregation thoughts, feelings and behavior. Catatonic behavior could be a characterised by stupor/inactivity. The person with this may stand still for an extended amount of your time, looking at one thing, and zilch can disturb him or cause him to alter position. Negative symptoms include: lack of feeling, the shortcoming to relish activities the maximum amount as before, low energy (the person sits around and sleeps far more than normal) lack of interest in life and low motivation. Schizophrenia is one among the a lot of serious mental disorders. PanceaPGx healthcare is best for [men's mental health](https://www.panaceapgx.com) treatment. It can, with correct treatment, be controlled. the most factor is to create positive medication isn't out of print. This thus typically happens in schizophrenic patients World Health Organization don't have anyone keeping track of things like medication.",13.652372694742635,15.915188173410408,10.44554087530966,49.51918111753372,50.21387283236994,13.064464629782547,50.29121937792458,12.45797560212912,7.507246793283786,1972,117,200,56,21,575,199,346,0.15,0.75,0.1,-0.955,2,0,0,0,0,0,89.0,0,2,0,4,5,13,0,1,20,0,32,19,3,9,1,58,48,17,0,9,5,0,4,2,0,3,16,2,0,8,16,15,0,2,13,0,2,2,7,9,0,4,3,9,4,4,41,35,11,27,0,3,2,0,14,17,0,11,8,143,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05558101657262995,0.0,0.15061156794340747,0.16890596296909802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04859766996178816,0.0,0.0,0.0618718406441572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0591413939417284,0.0,0.07293844462759724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551752514005286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07139807466694549,0.0,0.0,0.0728719078794611,0.0,0.07795281280423591,0.11098396677120356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05986228555457404,0.07054343796005252,0.0,0.1452303582273125,0.2389671967656968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11612061603794414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405699372186614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06146071226859363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216332933193612,0.07833421718640665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061776895889184724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04909157617542452,0.06791069015762273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05836448239438467,0.0,0.0,0.0590884257123277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14003264242494382,0.14008407456818342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0680975614317128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07401775093607739,0.18838640636820053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820603541465639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26601750910154903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05538438679472262,0.0,0.14501225021956546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06955255926813736,0.0,0.05888912873681309,0.0,0.06873961664147088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05550467886096841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5779165578046889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23087141663863345,0.044534309424107736,0.0,0.16553134413084802,0.04052738824101261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07235441360868568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16890596296909802,0.0 schizophrenia,relaxedgengar,2019/08/24,"Passion How hard it is. To try and find a passion for something when your medication takes away 99% of your drive to do... anything...",4.0368,5.82200568,4.3889999999999985,85.85950000000003,72.2,6.6000000000000005,32.5,7.1686216300943375,1.9669999999999999,102,5,20,1,2,32,22,25,0.049,0.7390000000000001,0.21100000000000002,0.6808,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,0,3,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,5,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3407721219773299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3890641270255621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3784833472064814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3709556431284953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4171659862603556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187973164149142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.311354502109342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811492799808054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bent-visions,2019/08/24,"not alone here The more I have read of others experiences with schizophrenia the less I have felt alone. I have no one, absolutely no one that believes me or even understands how..just entirely different everything is for me. Even as a comfortable hermit and extreme introvert, I thought the isolating feeling of this illness would end up leading me to my death. But these people, this subreddit is the one thing that makes me feel less alone. Knowing that what I experience isnt just dreams or all me, and that other people experience the exact same things. Thank you so much for helping me, literally by existing.",7.622142857142855,8.77569859090909,7.380389610389612,70.1377272727273,63.09090909090909,11.376623376623378,36.623376623376615,11.20814326018867,4.489428571428572,495,23,82,14,7,157,75,110,0.11199999999999999,0.7609999999999999,0.127,-0.0706,1,3,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,6,0,7,1,0,2,2,20,15,7,1,1,5,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,12,3,0,0,6,2,0,1,4,0,0,3,2,3,13,2,9,12,6,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,69,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4941674375037774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17918906069577947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16616799708864002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14086651297122005,0.0,0.0,0.21009522134651773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429392385407303,0.4667290881310476,0.0,0.0,0.1608356903034066,0.0,0.1527079790079753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066043974802494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08740687955727873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061636594788557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691625047882367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233186801336768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22052331995646546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590878704648378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14642711173856218,0.0,0.0,0.21132463683832672,0.0,0.0,0.126263830075901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655712777497956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11298088449234125,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ParanormalEyes,2019/08/24,"My state has legalized marijuana for anxiety disorders. Would this help a person with schizophrenia? I've used marijuana in the past. Some of it did help me feel better, some of it did not. However, I never knew what I was getting and couldn't choose anyhow since it was illegal. Even so, I argued for the drug when it was in question by my parents and psychiatrists. Now I take medication for anxiety and schizophrenia, which I have for years. The hydroxazine (50mg) for anxiety has me feeling to irritable, sleepy, and dead-headed. I take anti-psychotics, too, (zyprexia 10mg) which has side effects. One of them causes me to lose ambition in waking up and makes alarms to be totally ineffective, another causes facial ticks when I'm having a conversation. I've gained more than 40 lbs. since I've started these medications. If it is even possible, I was wondering if certain marijuana strains could make me feel better all around. Do you think a doctor would be willing to prescribe to me for something like that?",5.824764478764478,7.736154059459463,6.530057915057918,71.78141891891893,67.86486486486487,10.042471042471043,33.214285714285715,10.290406445055957,3.843293436293436,811,37,135,22,14,266,117,185,0.12300000000000001,0.769,0.10800000000000001,-0.2491,2,0,2,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,1,6,8,9,1,2,6,0,20,6,2,6,4,35,34,10,0,6,3,1,3,1,0,3,4,0,0,1,11,7,0,0,9,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,7,3,16,4,22,20,5,14,0,1,0,0,9,6,0,7,8,97,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472683506551936,0.32231907674015176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12502542071467662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24842357328327214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885504691800607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11213354082964204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16096161571825676,0.14375094259832286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16287108360678282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18552459435989294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21303894499046008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07337647794692274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441366210671586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18827403567531809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06861411038999554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15712152114464248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874956482526675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28296620644693543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10831949096873626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951688581909617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15594704634701592,0.0,0.13407020950375415,0.0,0.12263075919328685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583301219168303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733003225652412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23235435730340165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081210719743241,0.0,0.0,0.09940737157023367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111936380811964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999119331214625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212989936326368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15230611771413394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19953554994277786,0.0,0.0,0.09044168210193113 schizophrenia,Taurarius,2019/08/24,"seems like the end. i have tried so many antipsychotics. at this point, being alive is torture. i don't even get many hallucinations anymore - but it's the thoughts that are unbearable. i understand that disability is my final hope. and getting out of my parents' judgement. but what then? it's like one day i'm just going to disintegrate.",2.5257347670250923,5.510071,3.464408602150538,82.49439068100361,89.0,6.62652329749104,26.24372759856631,7.793537801064563,2.128112544802868,270,12,48,6,9,86,50,62,0.039,0.792,0.16899999999999998,0.802,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,9,14,5,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,5,3,4,12,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,6,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414033611264439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15698324574721745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21559441289438536,0.0,0.0,0.1607740368620205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26665043701691465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543497289067588,0.0,0.1383389778861369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.241767108610655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23784161989210995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4935714349332821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16494504750382366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702847702152262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23010689142404386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22159687333616346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19324519178359945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16526355213026944,0.0,0.0,0.2534047423033278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Splashes_in_Puddles,2019/08/24,"Im turning into a lizard Somethings happening to me. My skin is tightening and squeezing, shifting, changing. I can see my scales forming already on my skin. I feel like Im halfways lizard now. I can still do words for now. Each set is harder. I can barely still stand on two legs and my tail doesnt help much. I dont know whats happening.",1.039891304347826,3.4360384057971065,2.309981884057972,93.86323369565218,85.23188405797102,5.189130434782608,24.56702898550725,6.6274283507984215,0.8221724637681165,266,11,56,3,8,85,47,69,0.037000000000000005,0.922,0.040999999999999995,0.0624,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,8,3,3,0,0,7,14,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,10,1,5,14,3,9,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,5,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24851439492982666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382323099059966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639333546900716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11386815911867278,0.1608833101734954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982881860869527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15094717437568853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4865104537998825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12376432681974285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002160811523064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655483081891472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17945567289886707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17337037734868324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35969088295402857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449535186439492,0.21998820384168769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,letzbeawesome,2019/08/24,"Untreated Schizophrenia causes neuronal death and decreased brain volume which are irreversible changes to your brain morphology. So I was talking to my friend, the psychiatric resident, the other day and he was telling me to stay on my meds because untreated Schizophrenia causes an early death. Apparently schizophrenia causes your neurons to fire uncontrollably, die, and that in turn decreases your brain volume. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4345712/table/table2/?report=objectonly That scared me a lot. But, being the non-trusting, non-compliant patient that I am, I researched it and found numerous studies. Have you guys heard of this? This disease just gets worse and worse everyday. Full Article: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4345712/",10.337098814229247,14.50079050434783,7.162055335968379,62.33494071146245,61.34782608695652,10.442687747035574,41.758893280632414,10.436869588844218,5.914565217391305,648,36,72,18,11,182,82,115,0.23199999999999998,0.741,0.027000000000000003,-0.9740000000000001,1,0,0,0,0,0,43.0,0,4,0,0,2,3,0,2,5,0,6,5,5,3,0,12,10,7,3,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,8,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,2,11,1,7,5,2,7,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,1,3,47,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09942403422283268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5462194568744341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5026448124230513,0.1725378059207643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518578285389588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16927168900211276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17883035034113495,0.1260103868023375,0.0,0.08521283665141646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16149429829540926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13866149191039984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18116694555162988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16329120494460295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17384252828225072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13109332243612284,0.14255628504274054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774055864885613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.332424959430455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,borednlurking,2019/08/24,Antipsychotics and sex drive? Is it just me or does being on antipsychotics effect sex drive? When I'm off them I'll be getting random hard on throughout the week but when I'm medicated I dont feel the need to bust a nut as often? Anyone else?,1.0114666666666672,3.4625442799999995,2.764,90.08866666666668,86.2,5.7333333333333325,18.333333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.3603333333333332,194,5,40,3,6,64,40,50,0.048,0.9520000000000001,0.0,-0.2869,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,1,0,9,9,6,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,5,7,0,8,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,3,3,23,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24853435976748986,0.3641938702579337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110510022597108,0.0,0.4165771349532893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969274348491321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17972291355051812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18570455843113798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184075599025485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35807193183334124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26355685154194536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851153357869653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thisismysecondthrow,2019/09/08,"My brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia, and I wanted to see if you guys think it makes sense. If this post is too much to read, skip down to the line and start there. Everything beforehand is just context. Throwaway because I have colleagues who know my main account. My brother has always been a little strange towards me growing up. Ever since I was a baby, he often talked to me as if I were a baby myself (not even just like a child. I mean a straight up, baby talk, gibberish nonsense kind of speech.) It was terrible and annoying for me. I know this doesn't sound like a big deal but it was sometimes all day, aggressively, sometimes he would follow me around the house and scream nonsense. Beyond this, he was a normal teenager, doing well in school, hanging out with friends, etc. He also didn't act like this towards my other siblings at all, and maybe this is because I am the youngest. He is the oldest, with two siblings between us. We had an extremely tumultuous childhood, with a mother who occasionally beat us and was very emotionally abusive. To him and my older sister (second in line) she was extremely strict and held them in unreasonably high standards academically. There were a lot of other issues in our house, and we have a long standing history of mental illness (anxiety, OCD, manic depression, etc). When my brother was in college and I was in HS, my mother killed herself. My father took care of us from then on, but he had his own serious emotionally abusive behaviors as well. After college, my brother got a job in sales, and was doing more or less okay. However, he was completely isolated and didn't have any friends after college ended. While my mom was alive, she was a fairly religious (Islam). My dad is of faith as well, however, he was never as serious as my mother was. After college my brother was really struggling with my mothers death. Although he wasn't religious growing up, he really turned to Islam during this time. He moved to another country (I'd rather not reveal too many details) where he could join a Muslim community and live with like minded people. This made sense to me because he was extremely traditional, and I could see that he was really unhappy here in the states. We were fairly low contact at this time, just because me and my siblings have all struggled with being close as we are easily triggered by thoughts of our childhood. He was living in a small community with other men studying Islam (I don't really know much of the details) and it seemed that he was still struggling there. When we would talk over the phone, which was rare, he told me that other people were treating him really poorly, that he was a misfit, etc. I would try to console him and encouraged him to maybe explore other opportunities. I understand that this was a red flag and we should have communicated more, however, at the time, I was in college and was having some seriously bad issues myself. It's no excuse, it's just an explanation. The next time we spoke on the phone, he told me that he was incredibly depressed, on and off starving himself (severely. Would go days without eating at a time) and that he was miserable. Eventually, he came home, after changing his mind about it dozens of times over the course of a year (he was there for 2 and a half years total). I think Islam is wonderful, and I'm really not trying to say that it messed him up or anything. I just think he was very odd and picked on relentlessly by other people for that reason. ————————— Fast forward to now. He has been home for about 6 months and he is just completely gone. He exclusively talks to me in a baby voice, runs around dancing in public while screaming, and will even have his ass out and run through the street. I'm not going to go into extreme detail but he is essentially an adult toddler. The interesting thing is while he can sometimes talk to other people normally, when it comes to me, he exclusively talks like a baby. I mean he TORMENTS me. It's far worse than when I was a child. I absolutely cannot stand it. Besides this, he can't hold a job, and he lives at my fathers house. He is constantly talking about how all that fasting 'took a part of his body.' He will constantly ask people to feel his right hand and tell them that its broken. He says the right half of his body doesn't work and he is a subhuman. It takes up his entire life. He's been to several different doctors who have assured him there is nothing wrong with him. It's constantly on his mind, and he says he can't be a normal person because he's missing something. He claimed that he digested his hip, that he got shorter, etc. He also has other delusions-- he claims that people with significantly arched eyebrows automatically live a better life... Things like that. A few months ago, he disappeared for 24 hours without a cell phone, told everyone he was going to kill himself, and when the police finally found him he was institutionalized for 10 days and then got out. He refuses to take medicine because it will only make his right side 'worse.' He was diagnosed with schizophrenia, however, he has never talked about hearing voices or believing that anyone is going to harm him. I would believe this diagnosis, but I am just unsure if it's actually true. Maybe it is. I don't know. My sister claims he is just depressed, but I think this is beyond depression. I can't be around him. It's tearing my family apart. My father can't sleep at night. What do we do? He refuses to get care or take medicine. (Some small irrelevant details were changed for privacy reasons).",5.585811199414408,6.903194925572523,6.166346857680647,76.42284429572314,67.77862595419846,8.986740562584963,31.34089720798913,9.293530613975678,2.8576693872215837,4414,178,782,85,73,1435,420,1048,0.129,0.7859999999999999,0.084,-0.9959,7,0,1,0,0,0,147.0,13,1,2,4,44,47,4,4,47,1,105,15,7,8,10,150,159,66,3,17,28,16,2,6,2,9,7,11,2,6,61,62,2,4,20,2,3,22,21,24,3,5,61,16,96,23,116,84,21,134,5,7,3,1,151,60,1,14,56,545,157,12,0.0,0.1078806855829854,0.04442637825454632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04035566102711827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281354585960001,0.03788091190366608,0.0,0.0,0.030958941126498957,0.04773751785543877,0.034826927878204184,0.0,0.0,0.031832529239622466,0.0,0.037463655868924674,0.12158219795082907,0.0425602519855805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03801193999974673,0.1665117485736884,0.0,0.0,0.10258342991228964,0.0,0.040263657169246216,0.0,0.10113726566337077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052069111127634016,0.0928326826457824,0.0,0.09632000948766037,0.03921623780352087,0.0954653644976796,0.14759086745698355,0.0,0.07269690851745585,0.0,0.0,0.0880806575844629,0.04693485210914597,0.15684438836388132,0.09241496776666612,0.0,0.04756451933175836,0.0,0.046597338521775465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04658401212748694,0.0,0.10242025216972447,0.04032213240099916,0.0,0.20309212882989972,0.06013840446013096,0.0411804743281051,0.0,0.04350162239477984,0.0409154367504992,0.0,0.04291744517199703,0.0,0.023019090422665024,0.0,0.0,0.049871024401023915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04991642541649705,0.0703458676060759,0.0,0.023785225478363183,0.0,0.1293661210338576,0.0,0.10923284465002654,0.0,0.0,0.045077460736809086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05131061347200185,0.0,0.0,0.048100252405919385,0.09133169482062624,0.0,0.04483350499914161,0.15759114745326758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09503371096541142,0.09035418481340657,0.0,0.10073457129386984,0.04740786383545807,0.10007862609580873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06431209707181833,0.13344893068897604,0.04562856991776136,0.16079960997293175,0.0402886869381555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0387042020880814,0.0,0.04307738450487664,0.060777328030482226,0.04615577111100831,0.13720962861704444,0.0991813596308127,0.0,0.0,0.04587905555146368,0.0,0.13790350955040426,0.05331898425070363,0.07267613340071047,0.048386464255241284,0.06693304792173957,0.0,0.07022423502683164,0.0,0.04841694826714731,0.04272265295417265,0.13381614491763325,0.04368300150615556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03462423893275651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04929974375435498,0.0,0.1893701416448604,0.03975116194736232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043600900910041984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045537878669480315,0.0,0.17498903232083998,0.09361571344883393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663573542052655,0.0,0.1086112548757015,0.0,0.04607429600598382,0.07255595230996946,0.04144475891722387,0.0,0.10286184623293987,0.0,0.03765921269305993,0.0,0.0455584368208276,0.0,0.0,0.03504779934697702,0.13507782523610193,0.0,0.03222322484215934,0.0,0.036356770070805684,0.0,0.0,0.14277959617000696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10268866349085408,0.2927337575305673,0.03979134501730066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06049031672934919,0.11668375936739185,0.0,0.03614220843826745,0.1592779166822545,0.0,0.0,0.13050486718433954,0.10116114187361866,0.06181773210719128,0.049518734988404464,0.044471855831742006,0.047393712262855936,0.16428492549081086,0.0,0.0,0.07512670767552257,0.026852154110757885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12279883430116655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08777002821264078,0.04937052653556434,0.033143149018078286,0.0,0.09278886756268633,0.16170025392099124,0.04977505183319365,0.0,0.058633934514898324 schizophrenia,hopepleasebewithme,2019/09/08,"Does the world exist in one mind? Everything else is Gods AI I have this delusional belief that is causing some off brain formatting in me. I have this belief that I am the only independent mind in this reality and that everything else is part of Gods AI. I find comfort in telling myself I dont know what reality is but ultimately think true letting go of the existential ocd is coming to and being ok if it IS all for me. How do I let go and stop trying to figure this reality out? The thoughts are on auto pilot in figuring it out. Help!",3.9419444444444447,5.254734305555552,6.06388888888889,75.63250000000002,71.68518518518519,9.474074074074073,28.314814814814817,9.827888789773867,2.7614592592592597,427,16,83,11,8,150,68,108,0.025,0.863,0.11199999999999999,0.8642,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,1,15,1,1,3,2,25,21,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,6,0,1,8,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,9,3,14,17,3,14,2,0,0,0,2,10,0,2,1,62,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21280055025369696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19582439131306975,0.0,0.1642065636415798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16681722741500654,0.0,0.22341108741830207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184854642173773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426429277767527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742278020888916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21667316781420845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12777192336903684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10476251806393233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3898539679008737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38495383010882306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12917243752998708,0.1449789070113833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064283053074066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15937104070099056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16661465744632986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214480679212544,0.0,0.1513349618033165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12942186617052645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,realityGrtrUs,2019/09/08,"Emmanuel Immanuel Ommanuel My mom has some kind of schizoid disorder and doesn't accept her diagnosis. For several years now this has created drama and stress for our family. Today she was explaining earnestly that she has been to four new churches all called Emmanuel with slightly different spellings. The spelling differences were an ominous sign to her. She explained that the first church was Emmanuel with an E and just down the street is Immanuel with an I. She emphasized the different spelling, just down the street. Her expression grew serious. Continuing her explanation and getting more emphatic, she mentioned the third church on another street. This church is called Emmanuel with an E. She paused for affect. Just a block away on that very same street is the church Immanuel with an I. She paused and waited for our realization. Getting silence she asked, don't you know what this means? Yes, I replied. I get it. It makes sense now. You need to find the last church in the sequence to fulfill the mission. You must find Ommanuel. She was not expecting this. What did I know? I explained, that with these churches, in this order, you have the answer. I then sang, EIEIO from old Macdonald had a farm. I immediately laughed at myself. After a brief moment she joined in a good long laugh. Was great to see her let go of the dark side for a bit. Cheers! TLDR: mom took first letter of churches to mean something. I was able to turn it into a joke and distract her.",3.5399648876404517,6.61699138951311,3.3090063202247184,86.19980161516855,80.79775280898878,6.333754681647941,27.44487359550562,7.645422480735847,1.924007584269662,1179,51,206,20,32,354,149,267,0.059000000000000004,0.843,0.09699999999999999,0.9129999999999999,2,0,1,0,0,0,37.0,2,4,0,2,5,11,0,2,23,1,20,0,0,2,2,39,38,7,0,3,4,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,15,13,0,2,11,3,0,4,3,3,0,4,10,2,33,8,33,26,5,34,8,0,1,0,33,15,0,1,14,145,48,0,0.13079436554436094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13714929644407836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12227507584247027,0.0,0.12288561191615713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14279357173076382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671113418150679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4099568214966294,0.149901674406255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12330128743478633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390873611356518,0.22250724103140165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20500397297570971,0.0,0.07433345209619711,0.10970410832196796,0.0,0.14420124975733084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13620220453521062,0.14376232547003245,0.10661486481007867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13374610035849413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11574889764810475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730625463575419,0.0,0.0,0.2849468155199301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063695602792536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09698236476175556,0.0,0.126322013274023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13724668465833026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10422617533526296,0.0,0.0,0.14776040392912268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069189263059866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982450382303272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12397776515230904,0.0,0.145317352668617,0.0,0.14226671116472142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10791904946817392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08422728314884813 schizophrenia,throwawayCobrakai,2019/09/08,Are you aware if you’re hallucinating? I’m worried someone I know has schizophrenia. I’ll call them M. One of the moments that was alarming to me was when M claimed a girl they were interested in kissed them. A few months later the same girl was talking about how she just had her first kiss and it wasn’t with M. At the time I thought the other girl just was lying but now I’m starting to think M hallucinated that moment because the events just don’t make sense looking back on it but M says it was very real. So I’m wondering if M is just unaware they hallucinated.,3.4890134099616863,4.966839836206899,4.491839080459774,85.81484674329505,73.05172413793103,6.879693486590037,27.54406130268199,7.3871296695380915,1.3086429118773948,455,17,96,5,9,148,79,116,0.068,0.88,0.052000000000000005,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,4,1,10,4,0,1,7,0,12,2,0,2,0,18,22,8,0,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,6,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,9,2,10,3,8,13,2,14,0,0,1,2,13,3,0,3,11,61,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105295633862811,0.0,0.16690139139607155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795727956209108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328877950233697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15046921992719733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299167775484349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18275864677141168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21853859363858344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18552891120248266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.311635851825496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21773081737840044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319835310165565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19379176931932168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22006407292109348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17543520464975246,0.0,0.21736069417843568,0.1596506321064272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259075197297876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969163308892577,0.0,0.27804961501355746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,eaglesong3,2019/09/08,"I think one of my voices had a stroke. I was ignoring an argument two of them were having until one yelled ""What flagpole?"" The other one said ""The one your shorts are running up like a bean in a milkshake.""",2.075487804878051,4.258392097560979,3.373353658536587,89.13368902439026,79.24390243902441,6.051219512195122,22.445121951219512,7.1686216300943375,0.8122146341463412,160,5,32,2,4,52,33,41,0.128,0.8109999999999999,0.061,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,6,0,5,1,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,4,4,5,1,5,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,28,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556240176094183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8634119121444119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30300733479261466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20410948962393044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111702209684734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,o0x_666_x00,2019/09/08,"Other patients at the ward I was hearing aliens in the television 6 months ago. I would talk to them, listen to them, correspond with the TV. I was hospitalized and there weren't any TV's there. My delusions were reduced and the hallucinations gone. I spent two weeks there and I can still remember what the other patients behaved like. One woman always complained. She wanted nicotine lozenges all the time, and if she didn't get them she would pull her hair out. The dandruff she had smelled so bad. I remember walking past her and she smelled like rotten flesh. She never showered and the amount of dead skin on her shoulders made me shutter. A man wore a gown that was too tight for his body. He would rub himself constantly. The nurses would tell him to stop but he never listened. His arm pits had such a foul odor. The coffee he drank would spill all over his chin and his gown would get soaked near the rim of his neck. He would drink the coffee too soon. He would shriek as the hot coffee burned his tongue. He too crave nicotine lozenges all the time. He groped a few of the young women too many times. He eventually had to stay in the bedroom and lost privileges to the common area. A young woman would talk to fast. She was very scared of everyone. The nurse kept the place cool and this young woman would complain every hour. She tried bringing her blanket everywhere but the nurse would always tell her she had to keep blankets in the bedroom. The blanket would be thrown at the nurse every time the nurse told her that. Screaming and hollering foul words at the nurse was her thing. She refused to eat all the time, and would sneak glares at this other man. He would always tell her how pretty she was. They fell in love and he would dry hump her in front of everyone. The nurse hated me. My first night there I complained the light in the hallway was too bright. The overnight watchman said I couldn't close the door to my bedroom because of my room mate's suicide attempt. That night I wanted to change rooms, but the nurse wouldn't allow that to happen. She was evil, and knew I wouldn't sleep well. My room mate would eat paper all day long. He was convinced if he ate enough paper he would die. I gave him my napkins all the time. He loved eating napkins.",3.3212820226600432,5.669248681922197,2.9320466595970314,93.0252810180276,75.91075514874143,5.453345984260758,22.7866830384551,6.345904618129536,0.3694185298878163,1802,53,359,13,41,532,208,437,0.12300000000000001,0.809,0.068,-0.9782,1,0,1,0,0,1,44.0,0,0,4,3,15,19,2,1,38,1,38,17,8,3,8,63,63,21,3,24,5,0,5,2,2,19,0,5,8,6,11,16,6,5,3,3,1,6,7,10,1,3,28,17,53,9,34,14,9,54,0,1,1,3,73,20,0,2,29,220,64,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05700651411277693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605320307545018,0.0,0.0,0.04373268258593108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053695767555224934,0.03920248982594416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07143338525036569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06803095080652201,0.0,0.0,0.06949575065358414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0414743237326499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06674313427126842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06299885206673203,0.0,0.1974140983336276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644893082835071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836709770799867,0.12290101501795643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05470164951066498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06719814555864881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056868700986008276,0.0,0.0,0.06349234235760895,0.0,0.0,0.07248150907654176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06333192841870114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05716126108029239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06283677148825978,0.0,0.0,0.056911906336557364,0.0,0.0,0.07020144383616722,0.0,0.11608371509301395,0.06085122793723013,0.0,0.06519976504554571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05133124968000935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09919894119503923,0.0,0.0,0.12070026641024285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043577798800813465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061390718833825166,0.0,0.0,0.06718976652944092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06542590709283984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14570031192528501,0.0,0.06117308545335313,0.0,0.0643850538810351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06435596903833002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0685453974944045,0.05135767011085853,0.05376564288129768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07034418300379583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10337912113952648,0.1686280794486919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04272439115791919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22499640878386645,0.0,0.0,0.061450507508978215,0.0,0.043661946404748415,0.0,0.06282106184284736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0530620935495672,0.07586284864692197,0.0,0.05158522223976544,0.0,0.05782198665938435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7766219099564197,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,aydenclimbs,2019/09/08,"Thought Withdrawal or Inattentiveness? Basically, I was stupid and stopped taking my meds for a few weeks because I convinced myself I didn't need them. Now I realize that was a bad idea but i'm going back on and ill make it, however I noticed something different happening. I can't seem to retain things when I try and remember them. I do have ADD but it never felt like this. For example I have an idea that I want to write down, and as soon as I try to write what it was, its gone. Doesn't feel like Inattentiveness but i'm not having a thought withdrawal delusion either. Any input would be greatly appreciated.",2.9224509803921563,5.426755915966389,4.341365546218487,81.59983543417368,78.07563025210084,8.000280112044818,27.56372549019608,8.841846274778883,2.4676044817927165,490,21,93,12,12,162,79,119,0.14,0.779,0.081,-0.7005,2,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,0,4,6,1,0,4,0,12,1,0,1,1,29,26,11,0,3,6,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,9,5,0,2,9,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,8,2,15,4,9,16,2,11,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,9,65,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12928780814018245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461901925358283,0.15874187639824955,0.11589510827000217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19863445666689056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09613015296507277,0.13582143890099296,0.18254457519137907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10804931711148888,0.0,0.0,0.2096074664034063,0.0,0.0,0.16812208324548872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4292436433185613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857656099728064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12690627068882773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21117995194797606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409712315096571,0.1466319114055374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164523588437709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21536837966830985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730776907844492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463633119489704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15894845022854853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429462350292672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263069759344734,0.0,0.0,0.30186735981933305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25815737869325384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121374317886716,0.0,0.15250242888024915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13505546794855816,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizosubreddit1313,2019/09/08,Functionally insane Does anyone else feel this way? I feel like I’m still insane and voices permeate my thought process and reality but with medication I’m functionally insane. No one in their right mind is talking to voices in their head while they’re driving home or going about their daily life. I want to go to medical school but know I’d never be able to do it with my voices and it’s so hard to imagine a reality without voices constantly interjecting and determining my thought process. I really cannot imagine what life was like anymore prior to voices. I developed them in my early to mid 20’s.,5.0275845410628035,6.936947913043483,6.426376811594206,71.74729468599037,69.86956521739131,9.285024154589372,31.038647342995173,9.725611199111238,3.2889227053140098,490,21,83,12,9,166,74,115,0.109,0.835,0.057,-0.7095,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,4,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,5,5,1,0,1,20,15,9,0,1,4,0,3,2,0,0,4,5,1,0,4,6,0,0,7,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,3,8,12,2,14,11,0,15,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,1,8,49,16,1,0.18537007020087884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838372992155276,0.12961506315326668,0.18993354294221595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003191919632419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16221859761964816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15485290748495545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18745735448195056,0.1324284151901992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107001655002072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16605517250755944,0.0,0.19024317129264934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18594129456316405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101874542736258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618647252542856,0.1811249057924652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37348168761381617,0.0,0.0,0.187170927835922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429688258412572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561155698323945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187528136426088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583050271066946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876044074790182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14803677751470315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14899344073400564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29432625940345297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10933607017738846,0.14713813345891172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17869013272726605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Kdoggeh,2019/09/08,Would I qualify for disability benefits even though my Risperdal has things under control? So I had a psychotic break which landed me in jail for 4 months. In jail I was given Risperdal and I've been taking it ever since. My symptoms are nearly gone. I feel normal for the most part. Do you guys think I still qualify for disability?,3.706666666666667,6.20739736507937,4.612936507936507,80.69178571428574,75.34920634920636,8.009523809523811,26.37301587301588,8.841846274778883,2.2907587301587298,266,10,48,6,6,86,49,63,0.0,0.948,0.052000000000000005,0.4515,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,5,1,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,1,1,8,12,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,9,1,8,6,2,10,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,3,37,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263980700353593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922126640662264,0.2632397300584682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14714592893647804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28815060510316465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23228539799794684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28513291343628816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151408877529852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24073061676149216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324049563631403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024760145324071,0.2188070640956534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19333743608821896,0.18647066248770952,0.2859207617123297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067287076559817,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mizake_the_mizan,2019/09/08,"Shrooms I've done LSD 2 times and also shrooms 1 time. All of my trips were pretty unpleasant, but I want to try low dose of shrooms(1.5-2g) to just chill in my room and listen to my favourite music. I have Valium in case of a bad trip. Is it a bad idea?",1.9708928571428568,2.560300017857145,3.5664285714285704,94.42857142857143,75.60714285714286,7.028571428571429,22.92857142857143,7.1686216300943375,0.4536571428571428,195,5,49,2,4,65,42,56,0.242,0.698,0.06,-0.9127,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,1,7,6,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,1,5,0,8,4,1,8,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26725527560689794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5580770105921601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34199707334724555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772649894189351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3399960211770876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3897430807090788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22689617483478985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19711661512397927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,heavyhardcoremusic,2019/09/08,"Do I have to hear voices with my ears for them to be a hallucination? I hear other people's voices inside my head, not with my ears. Is this a hallucination?",2.0073958333333337,4.026065781250002,5.16375,77.03958333333338,78.6875,6.766666666666668,16.916666666666664,7.793537801064563,0.37377916666666655,123,2,25,2,3,45,22,32,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,3,3,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39902701114547706,0.0,0.8764249856794026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695490472124994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,banamaman27,2019/09/08,"I'm not saying I know what's happening, but I also don't know. This is being written on my phone, so please excuse formatting. I don't want to say i'm developing symptoms of schizophrenia, but I don't know how else to explain it. Sometimes I feel like i'm in my own little world, and everything seems surreal to me. I'm only 17 years old, and still in highschool. A senior, so that's why im writing here. Sometimes ill just get extremely disconnected with the world. It doesnt feel real to me. Life is like a tv show, including home and school to me. And literally everyone is playing a certain role. But how can that even be real? Im not good with friends honestly..im loud and kinda rude to them in a sort of joking way. I show affection in a weird way, its like I just enjoy playing with them and joking around. I only have 1 or two close friends, but i still cant trust them for some reason, and ive tried to hard to! And the weird thing is like, ever since ive been 12 and older, I have not gotten extremely angry. I quite literally can not get angry. I just...cant. I dont know why. And today I saw two things. I remember them very clearly for some reason, I don't know why. The first was a skeleton hand, made from the shadows of a tree on the sidewalk, and the other was a statue of a angel also made through the shadows. And I saw them, clearly, but I felt nothing. It made me feel nothing. I wasnt scared, it was just normal. Im pretty sure my grandmother had an extreme mental illess, as my dad told me that she would often hallucinate and be physically abusive towards him. I think she suffered from schizophrenia. And see, thing is, I can't go to a doctor. I can not and will not. I am joining the military, I have to. Me and my family are very poor. I have to join to provide money for them, and just the chance of being disqualified from the military is a no go. I live in Canada, so im regarding the canadian military. I dont know, im not sorry if its too long, I needed to let atleast someone know.",1.905867144252685,3.692202992771087,4.0248062520351695,86.18403451644414,78.10843373493975,6.896125040703352,24.469228264408983,7.824948511530503,1.3162067730380982,1562,55,326,25,37,536,194,415,0.11800000000000001,0.715,0.16699999999999998,0.966,0,0,0,0,0,0,64.0,0,0,6,2,19,20,1,1,23,0,39,5,1,8,5,80,73,32,0,5,18,1,6,4,2,2,4,3,1,0,15,22,0,0,17,7,2,2,18,5,0,3,15,12,50,15,38,51,3,27,1,1,3,0,20,13,0,8,14,219,65,4,0.0,0.09188386241085424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12403313518550906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06903578638908928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07937553266943803,0.0,0.0,0.18177563631431304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06478292839443749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051220928483740366,0.07014825715520104,0.0,0.07410218177926182,0.0696967828957848,0.0,0.07310707391038493,0.0,0.11763456595344902,0.05540161097387858,0.07445999410679764,0.0,0.0,0.06596384212241904,0.0,0.0,0.1198296059273148,0.0,0.08103316635243014,0.0,0.08814670616127873,0.0650451144689695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06857705475255793,0.0,0.06946941148733887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0777887982014465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5026027162248179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983354927034985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07929995093770316,0.05477573531134886,0.15154771057227312,0.07772529841966187,0.06847791687005247,0.06862915539208085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22013856045552302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0781519843899748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0575022131248346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07598236379705248,0.14882229857529844,0.0,0.0813754967852922,0.0,0.0,0.11796027394470708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0851264208408763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889605240051709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248378542661028,0.0,0.1765373589237665,0.0,0.15946827344566408,0.0,0.0,0.08784883508085893,0.0,0.0,0.1233414680343625,0.077640904200229,0.07848456379403061,0.06179717067157005,0.07059844874774925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06415001719521808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06570771565526594,0.0,0.15339752111857058,0.08681068077122937,0.0,0.0,0.12386278195532127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07308979295592813,0.08060396219820941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545619749127304,0.04969079698259536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07350816709864395,0.07410218177926182,0.0,0.05265124114472675,0.0,0.15150982255320772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12797345575132113,0.04574089644341421,0.12311088398370484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20992996676616502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055089171162701074,0.0,0.0,0.04993954517863814 schizophrenia,_BooHooTheFool_,2019/09/08,"People who were diagnosed at a young age/during adolescence, how did/has it impact your childhood/teenage years? I was 12 when I was diagnosed ""bipolar with psychotic tendencies"" and 13 when I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. I've had hallucinations throughout my life (very 1st one in 3rd grade) but 13 was, well, when the shit hit the fan. I was so confused and so very very angry. I feel like schizophrenia robbed my (supposed to be) better years. I just want to know whats your story? How have you been holding up and how have you been coping?",5.173616504854369,7.0760508640776685,4.89726941747573,82.88337985436894,69.48543689320388,7.868446601941748,29.379854368932037,8.472884824447931,2.1936223300970887,441,17,80,7,8,135,71,103,0.142,0.728,0.129,-0.5403,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,4,0,1,10,5,1,1,3,0,12,6,1,3,0,15,16,12,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,9,1,12,3,7,5,0,9,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,1,7,52,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18524051930930047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6377586323973506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590365018255601,0.14963032627117878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151076303862736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14793994258118706,0.10232614620751286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14192798598275375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520548573335354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149962719953979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5184517995464673,0.12353837981338245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18831970264489092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697564315390435 schizophrenia,Permanent_Throwaway8,2019/09/08,"I don’t know Things have been, more ok than they have been. I moved out of the city I once thought was purgatory, away from my fears and I haven’t had any episodes for a few weeks now. College life has been starting off great, I found some people I feel supported by and I even met a girl who also has schizophrenia. I almost thought things were looking up for me, but here we are now I guess. I’m tired of the constant paranoid feelings and forgetting whats real and what’s not, tired of losing people who I thought I could trust because I scare them. I have no fucking clue what the hell im going to do or how I’m going to stay healthy, maybe I’ll find the answer by sleeping in my car for the next few days.",2.9815192190359987,4.034744845637583,3.5517876754118376,93.7239475289811,73.69798657718121,6.223550945698597,25.625991458206226,6.1124844417494595,0.559061744966443,558,18,127,3,11,175,98,149,0.165,0.728,0.10800000000000001,-0.8974,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,2,1,6,9,2,2,7,1,16,5,1,1,0,25,33,8,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,7,6,0,0,9,0,0,4,4,5,0,0,11,3,19,4,17,21,4,17,1,1,1,1,7,5,2,4,7,84,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14967438534535155,0.0,0.0,0.11953251954217267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164592841952112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404336471390268,0.0,0.0,0.09111660294072234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16152588130204465,0.0,0.11934104479369555,0.0,0.0,0.09639692541369912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09872469361987443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16819729557524654,0.15115483490370218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13661448881433533,0.0,0.0,0.16388807950866124,0.0,0.13818424174061658,0.0,0.0,0.16989650162503,0.0,0.0,0.16479315283260668,0.16466000497828726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16145515983622152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08214577513240172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557633074013656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12551864040232455,0.16722067593909065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15016448217538866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588648352689369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15896492188622394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15918255558843405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20724980853164407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17013159647958362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14964731617410726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14957971556822436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10579688731501076,0.15931701773641666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696187919639818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19860480302676656,0.0,0.0,0.3559916649114729,0.0,0.3435916202022659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989723696883645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SolidAssistance,2019/09/08,"Medications What medications are you currently taking? I'm taking 3 mg risperidone, 40 mg fluoxetine, 10mg buspirone. Diagnosed with depressive schizoaffective disorder.",10.63375,15.534898208333335,10.638333333333335,33.04000000000002,66.91666666666666,16.533333333333335,49.66666666666666,12.45797560212912,10.681766666666668,143,10,12,8,3,47,20,24,0.218,0.782,0.0,-0.6486,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808323585451397,0.33094092346580234,0.0,0.0,0.3736894933703007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6569361139686776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4903084705345777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,froglapdance,2019/09/23,"Any success with supplements? I'm looking for any anecdotes on combining multiple supplements and if they have been helpful in combination. For example NAC, CBD, lions mane, curcumin, fish oils, thiamine or other b vitamins. Have any of you tried multiple supplements (often called a stack) and found significant reduction in symptoms?",9.455943396226411,12.252973415094342,9.169952830188679,52.91832547169816,60.132075471698116,14.356603773584904,47.21226415094339,13.023866798666859,8.152098113207547,273,18,32,12,4,88,44,53,0.0,0.8440000000000001,0.156,0.8253,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,7,6,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,7,4,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,3,0,19,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6761906450090832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3384467812238829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.363417036358073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221634710453004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783339242211131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34450271982025826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250323095987159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Woodpuddle,2019/09/23,"Intrusive thoughts When I have panic attacks, I sometimes get intrusive thoughts of killing myself, just for a moment. Like, my brain wants to end the pain of the panic attack and that's the quickest way to do it. But then I dont think it after that small moment. Is that considered suicidal thoughts? Like when my doctor asks Have you been having suicidal thoughts? Do I have to say Yes? The few times I've really wanted to kill myself I thought about it for at least several hours, not several seconds. Does this count too though?",3.540399999999998,6.171036240000002,3.7680000000000007,85.85900000000002,76.6,7.2,27.0,8.238735603445708,2.032,424,17,77,8,10,131,67,100,0.289,0.648,0.063,-0.9842,0,0,0,0,0,2,12.0,0,1,0,0,6,9,4,2,5,1,9,3,1,0,0,12,19,6,4,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,7,1,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,7,0,1,6,1,10,2,11,13,2,12,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,11,54,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12447540793600376,0.3029501476202345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14863720459178995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13628262170992764,0.1165187135614031,0.0,0.15604846636476938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11792960909076412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06956433541023606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311239610578377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946170727398685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13009877613633228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14167886144722508,0.3124409833245977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529801934225248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058846351260219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008386857115796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13168677827274602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2912846061422457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08531586321248433,0.13081723564674014,0.5285232028919409,0.07763967054258983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15706828230384778,0.10568668622482216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bad_bad_poet,2019/09/23,"Delusions mixing with reality In 2006 I met the most beautiful girl of my life, she was like my best friend potential girlfriend for about 3 years until 2009. I was a little older but to me she was the girl I was going to ask to marry me. We did everything together and there was not one bad time I ever had with her. Everything to me was perfect. I loved her so much...still do. But something happened and I stabbed my dad in 2009 because I thought he was trying to take her away from me. I was looking at 50 years but got lucky. I called her from jail one night and she told me she had a new boyfriend. I hung up. I didnt tell her how much I loved her or why I was there. I let her go. But she stayed in my mind. We never touched. We never kissed. But I know there was a time she wanted to. I left her once before because I wasnt sure if I would get sick or not. And it turns out I did. When i came back to the state she was in. I told her I had been with another girl...while we were apart. I was drunk and didnt think to call her. I thought i was telling my bestfriend. She started calling me a gay fag and other bad names. When wed go for drives around the town. I never argued with her. I was so hurt that id hurt her. Thats when I stabbed my dad and things with her fell apart. I dont even know if she ever knew I was sick then, but I think she might have. Id reach out to her a couple of times throughout the years and shed tell me to leave her alone or that she was married. So I did. Until I had a daughter in 2015 that is a spitting image of her. The only girl ive been with in the last ten years resembled my friend better than anyone I had ever met. Same heritage (native) same handedness (lefties). I reached out to my friend from years ago and told her I hope my daughter is as beautiful as you are someday. We talked a little. Within the last year we have talked a little more and she has told me she always wanted me and that she will always love me. I used to tell her to be older kiddo, because I was going to ask her to marry me. Shes gone distant on me again. And it seems like her heart has hardend towards me. Does anybody have any thoughts?",1.1581073804244504,2.7384032142857144,2.622383064090382,96.33144916059551,79.62770562770562,5.373117938971598,20.575651990286136,5.950424286874398,-0.15364709112026187,1663,43,394,10,41,541,196,462,0.092,0.759,0.149,0.9811,0,1,1,0,0,0,52.0,6,1,0,3,18,20,1,0,17,0,48,11,2,2,8,72,85,35,0,6,13,4,1,2,4,3,3,0,0,3,9,29,1,0,9,1,0,8,9,5,0,3,44,2,103,15,51,36,6,64,0,2,1,5,77,23,0,10,33,280,112,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06778397822599244,0.0,0.0,0.07919744767562993,0.0,0.0,0.1272544590922884,0.0,0.0,0.052000639756791985,0.08018302236956452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053467974850093,0.0,0.0,0.06807244096459629,0.142973903559391,0.0,0.07184389584665847,0.05879892038844911,0.12769462562088305,0.13984195094842186,0.0,0.06506835752335778,0.0,0.0802481050227243,0.06762944259604663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23424613087229665,0.08745864657130999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08461002561986407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06691737585691332,0.0,0.08961954313135502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05050617676330668,0.20750816397108926,0.0,0.0,0.13744842746791472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17723620317709218,0.0,0.03995120300079543,0.0,0.1738333628176237,0.0,0.06115818346894052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06762011060262467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061456055799022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07594965307441277,0.0,0.0,0.1637204507521164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08404926644129304,0.1246627188274394,0.0,0.0809682245353949,0.08308235034173997,0.07819337637841882,0.054011378783445724,0.07471648489022795,0.22992209105758524,0.0,0.0,0.06421358635620544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20704518085487272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08112011685538242,0.07721055114069451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124250761219778,0.0,0.17692975025723331,0.07385295498215984,0.0,0.07175973094967449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08143557599824099,0.10363294830507673,0.058157111001908936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06961329747860696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05886855046700956,0.0,0.0,0.05412421245198865,0.08150436495837826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07206987674574122,0.0,0.05749417349768179,0.12292363785796387,0.2673444662371588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05080172406679552,0.09799479432354402,0.0,0.18212037226989333,0.13376674500532074,0.0,0.0,0.2922725536049697,0.0,0.05191653042578482,0.08317486986465518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06604351767762788,0.0,0.0,0.09020522936504503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06900018100200833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054320440859846345,0.0,0.0,0.2954560455192185 schizophrenia,mentoillness,2019/09/23,me: a schizophrenic also me: binge watches it and it 2,-1.6130303030303033,-1.4197220000000021,1.9309090909090896,87.74969696969698,132.63636363636363,5.103030303030304,21.84848484848485,6.42735559955562,1.4771575757575754,42,2,8,1,3,15,9,11,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Nick_Zut,2019/09/23,"I’m writing a D&D campaign and I need your help! I occasionally get psychotic symptoms and I don’t know why, but, I am using my delusions and hallucinations to write a campaign. I refer to these psychotic episodes as “Jekyl” and in this campaign there is a dimension hopping entity named Jekyl which devours planets for power. I need some of your stories about your most terrifying hallucinations and delusions for this if it’s not too much to ask. Thank you, have a nice day!",4.729772727272729,7.30060788636364,5.595454545454548,74.53818181818184,72.4090909090909,8.036363636363637,33.72727272727273,8.841846274778883,3.255677272727273,386,20,65,8,8,126,62,88,0.064,0.8270000000000001,0.109,0.4394,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,4,0,1,3,2,0,0,4,0,4,1,0,1,0,18,12,8,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,11,2,9,12,3,2,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,3,1,46,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3476069133119773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29992216499195123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20690151243776386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16761452264684246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21503800331858575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17631356023364447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358386488054571,0.4757659826416053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3334534550590675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29536674362613924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27708433934351095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894889648496212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,accountforposting666,2019/09/23,"Does anyone else have HPPD? Here’s the subreddit- r/HPPD Here’s a study done on HPPD, but does a very good job explaining it and the symptoms- https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3736944/#!po=1.25000 I feel as though HPPD makes my derealization/depersonalization a lot worse. I have been sober from drugs including marijuana for some time now, and Everything still looks trippy/high. It makes my delusion that I am the only “real” person/consciousness inside this petrie dish called Earth so much worse. I much prefer being in dim setting because that it when it is least trippy. Outside during the daytime, especially with clear skies is horrible, as well as buildings with bright fluorescent lights. I can’t look at any one place for longer than ten seconds before i start “tripping”. I especially can’t stare at any type of intricate pattern, because it starts flickering like a strobe light. It also makes it harder to understand if what I am seeing is real or not. If I stare at something small, like a person’s face from far away, it begins to morph into some strange fucked up alien face. I have to sleep with a night light because if I open my eyes in very very darkness I swear it’s like acid all over again, minus the headspace and body high. I consumed the following drugs from ages 15-20: marijuana, adderall, vicodin, LSD, shrooms, cocaine, hydrocodone, tramadol, ritalin, mystery “ecstacy”, Kratom, xanax, morphine, klonopin, nicotine, alcohol, [DXM, and DPH in high doses], and probably some other stuff I don’t remember. I had terrible substance abuse issues as you can tell, and now I’m paying for it by being high for the rest of my life probably. My 21st birthday is in January and I know for a fact that’s when I will become a raging alcoholic.",8.46825246132208,8.88013849050633,7.687046413502108,71.21864275668074,61.24683544303798,10.69310829817159,35.9099859353024,10.380263240014207,3.815890154711672,1417,58,232,29,18,440,197,316,0.127,0.775,0.098,-0.9092,1,0,6,0,1,0,66.0,0,1,0,0,12,9,2,0,15,0,19,17,5,3,3,36,35,21,0,4,6,0,1,3,0,1,10,0,0,1,17,12,3,0,6,0,1,2,4,3,1,3,3,12,23,6,34,29,9,35,0,0,7,1,5,20,1,8,15,145,40,3,0.0,0.1170095395235954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21107995088939305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07897502158120989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13431473579441433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06905239001905379,0.1011870438965724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927843766366833,0.0,0.0,0.180601957807254,0.10906808301780133,0.08403395891090717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969549201505048,0.0,0.0,0.10084076954350307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284382846660806,0.10106152698754144,0.0,0.0,0.22905087783213196,0.0,0.08249784479595113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08875539467905963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049933927580320114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09129819663675733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283172575225349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.417363931611721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10307545506584204,0.09799994783045728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0542736352311036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06975418095931221,0.144741367237807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16586009184087053,0.0,0.0,0.08395869639650945,0.0,0.0,0.19776090023595946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519383287027787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267568003261806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669195231842052,0.07510827785313502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17245960682779768,0.1031788493852132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21295102944631786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22481156684529446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187113243599668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07869563048850745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09882717531896372,0.0,0.0,0.07602708197011927,0.0,0.0,0.1397998049556705,0.0,0.07886655338833234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11305182686834467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026451463089087,0.0,0.0,0.08631697012932564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09702712614779026,0.0,0.057585333236602886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10280832788969907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444517688277392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08879337376575444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201281306431337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BeginAgainForever,2019/09/23,"My thoughts #1 My paranoia is a stale coffee sticking to my teeth. It makes me vomit up fear till I'm crying for any kind of relief. I never find it. What I do find are new ways to hate myself. No one of consequence to me says a mean, off handed remark, for no reason other than their own insecurities. Like a magnet, I cling to those words. They bolster raging thoughts. I fall again, and again, into delusions that I am tired of running away from year after year. How am I supposed to accept and move through delusions?! How can I attain mindfulness over something that takes me over so thoroughly, that I don't know who I'm looking at in the mirror? I don't feel like I have an identity. Not after seven years. All my actions are based on a fear I don't understand. I know that there are resolutions. One day I'll find safety from my mind. Now is not that time. I'll keep crawling so I don't become consumed. It's all I can do.",1.3624603174603178,3.623250894179897,3.0171931216931216,90.26229761904764,82.38624338624341,5.261481481481481,21.090211640211642,6.508806274219699,0.3535056084656083,725,22,149,7,20,239,116,189,0.166,0.777,0.057,-0.9626,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,2,1,8,10,2,3,6,0,16,4,2,4,3,27,30,7,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,12,3,0,1,12,0,0,4,9,5,0,3,2,4,25,5,26,28,3,27,0,0,1,0,4,9,0,0,15,106,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003378520584718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386264135687816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16295542128589552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620747958854465,0.09515639820939176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3320655460080976,0.0746048154525866,0.10540848080617302,0.0,0.0,0.4045692114037688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456733243337118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13114764104581053,0.0,0.15364877010792966,0.1621772905343541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14416921873092028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239033473066318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09848958534327897,0.0,0.0,0.16072327133108202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979632902187975,0.0,0.0,0.15682041166192714,0.0,0.0,0.11379828651520828,0.1425029943042778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999649905087924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15170414853654965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11733626998712438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135898314959478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110937901949197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23427361733901986,0.08603655604662769,0.1695849784267631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536029048959269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11711691251673045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28504865636019755 schizophrenia,ouellettephil22,2019/09/23,"Avolition I fear my avolition is getting worse and I have no idea how to fight it. I tried looking on the internet for professional opinions on combatting it but I was not successful. Anybody else on here struggling with avolition too and if so how do you guys manage. The only time I can even come close to doing the simplest of tasks is if I’m on copious stimulants (caffeine, nicotine, adderall, etc). I wanna do work, I need to do work, I just can’t access the will power to even start let alone try. Not to mention my increase of disinterest in activities I used to at least partially enjoy. My main concern is getting my school work done because I’m not paying tens of thousands of dollars to flunk out.",4.868014705882356,6.364514477941178,5.9389999999999965,76.70600000000002,69.66176470588235,8.969411764705884,34.188235294117646,9.3871,3.372155294117648,563,28,100,12,10,187,91,136,0.146,0.802,0.051,-0.89,1,1,0,0,1,0,14.0,0,1,0,5,8,6,1,2,4,0,14,0,0,4,0,21,23,8,0,4,7,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,1,0,2,2,5,4,0,2,2,1,14,2,21,19,4,12,0,1,1,0,4,8,0,3,2,77,16,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040272175749689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200862106445606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16969358981213434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20159409064943248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645638899185445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197012916970837,0.2602264345076332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22167393443579975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20584332011328813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19505583810382512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22238316758505244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20144054491026492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16542602999563616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460691590403696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982343355958047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993692695993476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13943394382157273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059417525584268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486926068323315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674930963003371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17014027024984568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4302437140503526,0.0,0.20075454598938214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,discerning_towel,2019/09/23,"Do you think negative symptoms are not part of the pathology of schizophrenia, but the psyche's reaction to severe stress caused by psychosis? There are some theories that state this. And I'm curious what you guys think.",6.808461538461536,9.061025230769232,5.818461538461541,76.50153846153849,65.92307692307692,10.328205128205127,33.51282051282051,10.504223727775694,4.008343589743589,180,8,29,5,3,54,34,39,0.20800000000000002,0.727,0.065,-0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,3,2,0,1,0,7,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,6,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,21,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3519509234213869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33923398396393123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3710091076300194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3870474659078541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3924542231450755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3560990039449113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43905641430426096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Laboskisota,2019/09/23,"I regret learning how to draw Drawing doesn't make that much money and it's by far some of the most competitive stuff out there, I should have learned something people actually value",5.016078431372552,7.529072764705883,5.141764705882356,78.38460784313726,71.35294117647058,6.886274509803924,28.98039215686275,7.793537801064563,2.0425803921568635,150,6,25,2,3,47,33,34,0.08199999999999999,0.79,0.128,0.1513,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,10,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,3,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,19,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.4693986171404811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3210794448237776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535993858811455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3334733631540853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3703067680428021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5506440013757832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Burphurp,2019/09/23,"doctor/social workers and thoughts I have this sort of deep dark or dark purple kind of thing in my conciousness, my voices keep saying its just the feeling I have of my own face (inner vision sort of) or that its just my face but I have a feeling that I have severe depression or something. I told social workers and my doctor and he used to advice me to take anti-depressants a couple years ago but he never adviced me that again when I declined and didnt say all too much about that afaik. &#x200B; I really wonder what I can do right now to get this ""thought bubble"" out of my head? Is it just a negative symptom or full blown depression?",6.555601799775026,6.1804011181102405,6.723509561304837,79.17275590551179,65.37795275590551,9.146906636670417,30.74128233970753,8.418075326091056,2.23486366704162,510,16,96,6,7,164,80,127,0.146,0.8190000000000001,0.035,-0.9607,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,8,3,0,0,4,0,8,5,3,1,2,25,18,11,0,0,9,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,11,5,0,1,5,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,6,16,1,11,14,4,12,0,2,1,0,6,6,0,7,6,73,27,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066564775881869,0.1390890730156118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700092614477987,0.19065984379961776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736152161512022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4054327205278589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32120304586923626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15867434045496318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08197771710466477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610324108880362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13946663709927287,0.0,0.16339506445187998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11534510094244722,0.0,0.12101677316782075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051899235421256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13399818767461813,0.0,0.2495583581127529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17726086597367338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599474841718942,0.0,0.12079509536796945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16308701999528225,0.11797494783988435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424240200962373,0.0,0.0,0.24913413089864145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499318851325274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13551774169768332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17015954132209302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19065984379961776,0.10104331575011316 schizophrenia,ostoldzir,2019/09/23,Extreme social anxiety and voices Anyone who hear people whistle when going out??,9.344615384615382,12.227098846153845,9.44923076923077,50.470769230769264,60.53846153846153,8.276923076923078,36.07692307692308,8.841846274778883,4.522446153846154,67,3,5,1,1,22,13,13,0.147,0.853,0.0,-0.264,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738518789715801,0.0,0.0,0.3417083157684556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777377757401343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.550797053497717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3388009776162886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4981650638849615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CockeyeTheSailorMan,2019/09/23,"ive told my dead son to kiss my ass, and ive never felt more liberated of grief. the problem is, ive never had a dead son....ill tell my dead son to kiss my pussy ass, to liberate myself of grief. there is no dead son....ill fuck random ass of fat street bovine for procreate and create son who become dead....and then fuck his tight lil 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schizophrenia,CaliforniaBaer,2019/09/23,Too sick to be loved Just poured my heart out to someone and they stomped on it. I feel like i will die alone because of this illness. It makes everything difficult. I hate this. I hate myself. Someone kill me.,-0.027499999999999858,1.945472195121955,0.7989939024390259,98.46239329268292,107.53658536585364,4.001219512195123,22.19817073170732,5.985473137389443,0.4284853658536592,164,7,34,2,8,50,33,41,0.446,0.44799999999999995,0.106,-0.9662,0,1,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,0,1,0,2,6,3,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,0,5,7,1,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,8,2,5,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,22,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26747989543297257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574331476355423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680335294528543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232107801990804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13058422214611112,0.1845012870841456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5099573701819642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060398269654616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857268769985793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12617299011586164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330901013872089,0.0,0.17239082777061146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4376464112378105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PPP_TADS,2019/09/23,"Are you interested in how our attachment style, & how we view ourselves & others may contribute to experiences of psychosis? Hi everyone We are carrying out an **online study** as part of our clinical psychology training at the University of Manchester. We are interested in how adverse experiences in childhood are related to an individual’s attachment style, beliefs about themselves & others, and dissociative experiences (such as daydreaming, deja vu or things not seeming real). We are particularly interested in how these psychological processes may lead to experiences of psychosis. The study is **open to everyone.** It involves completing some questionnaires online which will take around 30 minutes. You will have the option to be entered into a prize draw to win **1 of 4 Amazon vouchers.** The information you provide will be **anonymous,** meaning that no one can identify you from the information you give us. This project has been approved by the University of Manchester Research Ethics Committee \[Ref: 2019-5562-9487\]. We are hoping that our findings will help inform psychological therapies to support people who experience distress related to these experiences. We would really appreciate it if you would take the time to complete the study. If you are interested in completing this research or learning more please follow this link: https://www.psych-ssl.manchester.ac.uk/survey/ppp/ Thank you for reading this and to everyone who has already completed the survey :) Charlotte and Amy (MOD PERMISSION APPROVED)",7.4398369887374045,11.429606236514529,7.4987359217545935,56.63070020746889,71.69709543568464,10.911736810906934,39.31253704801423,10.371327730470783,6.1108362774155305,1257,74,151,45,28,403,144,241,0.03,0.7979999999999999,0.172,0.9872,0,0,0,0,0,0,63.0,10,8,0,5,7,11,0,1,12,0,23,1,0,5,0,40,32,13,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,0,16,13,0,0,9,1,0,3,2,2,0,1,1,1,18,9,31,21,3,15,1,0,1,0,27,10,0,10,2,118,34,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11381304618311285,0.0,0.0,0.3352431605049052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09181282990426068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4325441760438548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956523580200384,0.0,0.6053202871118777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09426435730172124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989373669438148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06912982941403333,0.0,0.0,0.1024372342198707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234524611662138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06988756477940618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116861447793402,0.0,0.07150145702587522,0.0,0.0,0.11321226288308228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103163824448364,0.11739124991829485,0.06607150771399138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09389106296044436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11703741345113708,0.0,0.0,0.155090744419584,0.0,0.0,0.09495369323720247,0.11794490650641075,0.0,0.06851891873561149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06013938108672396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240598062392497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14652958895901413,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PerpetualEmptiness,2019/09/23,"For those of you with hallucinations and/or delusions, how do you know what's real? Is there any way to separate reality? I haven't been diagnosed with schizophrenia, but over the last year+, I've struggled with what I'm told were hallucinations and delusions. (In my personal opinion, I think what I struggle with is more trauma related, but I'm waiting to get into a psychiatrist so I can find out one way or another for sure.) Before, it used to be that I could tell that it was ""just my brain being weird"". But now, it's getting harder and harder to tell what's real and what isn't. For example, I kept hearing this one thing whenever I went to sleep at night. And I started to think it was a legitimate thing. But when I sat down with my very close friend to talk about it, she's all like ""Yeah, no, gurl. That's your hallucinations again."" And now I'm legitimately wondering what else is just my brain screwing with me. Especially when I keep hearing a voice telling me that nothing I'm seeing right now is real, and that this is all in my head, and that I'm actually in a coma. It's also weird because none of the ""voices"" I hear are typical voices? Like... they're IN my head, but they're not my thoughts if that makes sense. They're not like actual voices like when someone is talking to me. Another thing I've had lately, is that I keep getting paranoid that my thoughts are ""leaking out"", or that I'm talking without realizing it. To make everything most confusing, though, is that I have some people in my life who take advantage of this. Namely, my (dysfunctional) parents. Whenever they do something bad and I confront them, I'm told it never happened and that it's my hallucinations. Which like... I know that's gas-lighting, but I also know that hearing voices isn't exactly normal, either. So which is it? Is it just me? Just my ""crazy""? Lastly, does anyone else smell things, too? I always smell weird chemicals. It didn't used to happen often, but it seems to be happening more lately. Tonight, for example, I randomly smelled something like baby bum cream. But I was in my room, alone, and I don't have kids. The window was also closed. There's no possible way I was smelling bum cream. Anyway, sorry for the long and somewhat nonsensical post. TL;DR I don't actually have schizophrenia, but I've been smelling things that aren't there, hearing things that aren't there, and my paranoia is just getting worse. It's hard to tell what's real and what isn't. My dysfunctional family likes to hold my mental health against me, and has frequently gas-lit me in the past, making it even harder to discern things. I'm seeing a psychiatrist (hopefully soon), but in the meantime, I'm wondering if there are some tips for separating reality from the delusions and hallucinations? Or if anyone deals with these things as well?",4.864049165120594,6.417406274582561,5.6248047309833025,78.73598260667906,69.74211502782931,8.65530612244898,29.43047309833024,9.120678840339163,2.491118330241188,2238,86,418,44,40,729,227,539,0.091,0.8590000000000001,0.051,-0.9511,1,1,2,0,0,0,100.0,0,3,2,1,31,22,2,3,12,1,43,10,5,6,5,97,92,42,0,6,25,1,1,7,1,0,4,10,2,2,55,27,0,5,13,0,0,1,16,10,1,2,17,20,50,12,49,71,10,43,0,0,4,1,27,18,1,18,27,287,105,0,0.0,0.0,0.18783012453650874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644949411967901,0.0,0.1539240640818373,0.05338552364584578,0.0,0.0,0.04363039854378757,0.13455285314918047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897230904446351,0.06573859564348379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053570181384270166,0.039110801210373684,0.0,0.054594681615680526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14324558283479405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05122583292751898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06614523070244763,0.0,0.06512015153547504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0561460741982547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719341630423147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042376490585738086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057662075867621586,0.0,0.060483503931361274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058640269084113524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04956917336127082,0.0,0.13408195878980858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702070814301181,0.0,0.05747396521374045,0.0,0.13169152449650598,0.06819813939526746,0.3615599296762582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06372447816790974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11405513930220078,0.0,0.0,0.10578051566185677,0.10459648441696127,0.14474855336496809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04531748057798488,0.2194143206851621,0.0,0.0,0.05677879810989511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284801230876106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465729788185742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04948346503735477,0.0,0.0,0.060208983492752624,0.06286231076717086,0.06156240155355639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08695175401621201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07124110487020817,0.0,0.0612471353511499,0.04447985219358135,0.05602126478600897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07232976246622952,0.06144669728206719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921084779179216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05479153394439557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225301644113446,0.05840804896140065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06420545028987756,0.0,0.05436181022684185,0.0987856430452944,0.0,0.07182087684356009,0.045412152065695606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341460755901274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06046920691985585,0.0,0.04823967003832645,0.15470599982843491,0.22431157895283155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409957228391688,0.08222114096191041,0.06303600507193925,0.10187034188094517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12261356837950985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108257517978794,0.0,0.052937989444995455,0.0,0.1527795581973916,0.0,0.0,0.057686749894324964,0.059476142706634864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0618470976683248,0.1391556474920631,0.0,0.0,0.0653836198021891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04131636674236372 schizophrenia,awayitgoesup,2019/09/23,"Hearing voices during intimate times is such a curse I finally was able to take this guy I like on a date and we went back to his place afterwards but nothing happened because I was too distracted by voices of people commenting on what I was doing, how I looked, and poison. It’s not the first time either!",7.724,6.63122606666667,8.140000000000004,72.32500000000003,63.33333333333334,11.333333333333336,35.0,10.504223727775694,3.629,244,9,44,5,3,81,49,60,0.17300000000000001,0.7979999999999999,0.028999999999999998,-0.8639,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,1,4,3,1,1,3,0,5,1,0,1,0,7,10,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,4,4,7,1,6,6,1,11,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,0,8,34,10,0,0.27586267309056617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21212136762005465,0.0,0.168163325051249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021940743097821,0.0,0.2346486488063237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27314741742734056,0.2439444507635191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31091728166145866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13477256771020402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.231655167606489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26469767488783463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912484431711612,0.0,0.2882177790026575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20741439863084266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217154862159215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25572746170481103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pepelepewhtf,2019/09/23,"i think i need help but i dont trust doctors something is wrong, i know there is. but i dont like going to doctors because they probably think im just some kind of basket case. i cant talk to anyone without feeling like they are judging me. the only way i can vent is my digital diary and drawing but the things i write make me nervous.",2.0662441314554023,3.644785225352116,3.8165492957746494,88.77627934272303,77.02816901408453,5.860093896713615,27.32629107981221,6.42735559955562,1.1249417840375582,265,11,55,2,6,89,49,71,0.242,0.731,0.026000000000000002,-0.937,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,0,2,6,0,1,2,0,8,2,0,1,0,14,15,4,0,1,5,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,1,13,4,4,15,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,35,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14153958501481828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339580693175613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4143791344708949,0.0,0.0,0.4744788999244298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10235166930396344,0.1446117640511172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11504223838624596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13568055717811847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186526833561545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21079347240047733,0.11124695040586356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19778830776326686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13511960867118894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500948497823705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539525927426555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21824733602988472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15583590414421558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627007637722205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13448152772966002,0.2594102836521172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606747691431761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19512953677732026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22131889450342826,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lolsappho,2019/09/23,"Did missing one dose trigger psychosis? Last night I went to a party where I knew I’d be drinking so I purposely did not take my medication to avoid an averse reaction. I recently switched from Latuda (60mg) to Geodon (also 60mg after tapering from 20 to 40 to 60 with the aid of my psychiatrist). I also take 100mg Zoloft and 250mg Topamax. I got more drunk than I intended to and spent the day nursing a hangover, but tonight after I took my meds at the normal time I started having really intense visual hallucinations that I haven’t experienced in a long time. I’ve been having auditory hallucinations all day as well that have been waking me up - it feels like I’ve just gotten my head slammed into a car door but there’s no pain. The visuals were worms all over my legs, my comforter breathing (it even had a pulse when I put my hand on it) and stuff on my walls. Can missing one dose of Geodon make me slip into psychosis? I took it for awhile in high school but my memory is so bad I don’t really remember that time.",5.6732362459546914,5.595467601941749,6.742864077669902,77.29529935275083,67.15533980582525,9.973462783171524,31.244336569579293,9.725611199111238,2.7366258899676366,810,29,163,16,12,273,129,206,0.106,0.807,0.087,-0.5999,0,1,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,10,8,0,1,10,0,14,12,5,3,2,21,28,12,0,1,5,0,2,1,0,0,5,0,1,0,8,6,2,1,3,2,1,5,4,5,1,2,13,3,24,3,25,14,3,31,0,2,0,0,0,12,0,0,15,104,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25692360029746397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13412565428220394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20719587631678488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15736365522269166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609959457155592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812231778736295,0.11475950625935118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284765327060284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16486048236249962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697224036743738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13094105289106453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847939858738534,0.0,0.0,0.14215918723924625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722681988431627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17843211803321618,0.16182544360254042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074746987888854,0.15739070399738755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21770433844067855,0.0,0.170929691564079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16148511801891313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20581707092033694,0.0,0.15861021283496313,0.0,0.18197104311807608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625737885894719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137000930514461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838915760811351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24155890979111025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810071623265754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35694848360342474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14443245986958886,0.14891262916372175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,freedomwoodstock69,2019/09/23,Does anyone else hallucinate lights? I see white light that manifests in patterns almost like static over everything I see. When I'm in psychosis I'll also see auras around people. Just wanting to hear about other peoples experiences.,6.295749999999997,9.610749075,6.0100000000000025,69.785,70.75,8.0,30.0,8.841846274778883,3.2005,193,8,26,4,4,60,34,40,0.0,0.941,0.059000000000000004,0.2975,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,1,6,6,0,5,0,0,4,0,1,4,0,1,2,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450646035564677,0.0,0.0,0.19571277641206655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711229031399633,0.2507577320199125,0.0,0.2178641280943376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21416737138910324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044428976372557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199501103817413,0.23939569358472884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758317151969293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11956411143938035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3393338950266722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5850612013533779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14434977919615305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thisisathrowaway6394,2019/09/23,"Stationary items seem to be moving- is that a symptom? Is it a symptom to think something is moving around and only realizing it’s actually stationary once you double/triple check it? My cousin wanted me to ask on here for her. Her dad (my uncle) has paranoid schizophrenia and he’s doing a lot better and is in a good place right now so she didn’t want to ask him about it. She always thinks she sees bugs moving (which turn out to be a speck of dust or dirt that was never flying around to begin with), or a curtain moving which never was, or sometimes flashes of light like a camera that no one else notices. It’s usually only with thinking something that is stationary is moving, so I can only I magine how scary it is to see your shadow moving only to realize that you’re standing still and thank god, your shadow actually is still too.",4.5133636363636365,5.851881503030306,5.5058333333333325,80.07875,70.33333333333333,7.4393939393939394,26.47727272727273,7.793537801064563,1.6149090909090908,668,21,121,8,12,220,99,165,0.06,0.85,0.09,0.6154,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,3,0,1,11,4,0,0,7,0,16,2,0,1,2,24,29,10,0,2,3,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,13,9,0,0,6,0,1,6,4,0,0,1,3,3,14,4,19,24,2,21,0,0,2,0,14,7,0,5,8,90,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.20211789406801636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861696411023729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18437948182633684,0.1936279489865764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09158979320683024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08651051428050982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686063510257043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05059384742465161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804242124807231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.660402939035386,0.0,0.0,0.1597426467541067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179029597528928,0.0,0.11028728434017893,0.07017446795599465,0.31504608440956666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10819743649380932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843908409999163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16504672290599945,0.09427650555386774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15945003113109907,0.10242280466640934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16540519597890802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21527554853209155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953434981517756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19906987111477226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126427904546134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11405594818216007,0.0,0.12216392722719448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sassystars,2019/09/23,"Is anyone else homesicks? It might just be because of my delusions of being from somewhere other than earth, but i almost constantly have a knawing, persistant yearning to go to a place that i can call home. It weighs on me and makes me feel heavy. Anyone else have this?",4.8008823529411755,6.666232176470594,4.653088235294117,84.41139705882355,70.37254901960785,6.668627450980392,28.43627450980393,7.1686216300943375,1.6136627450980392,215,8,38,2,4,66,42,51,0.0,0.956,0.044000000000000004,0.2755,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,1,0,8,10,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,0,7,7,0,4,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,29,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24446192620672824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3414041351756755,0.5002821075846924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14881998822248316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492850407274073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638188757831003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40788023917270827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343996606619988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13874527009817875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448832925719353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629593344463791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589844053193404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25506492847720463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bpdbarbie00,2019/09/23,"What's your most common delusion(s)? Not scizophrenic but have had phycotic episodes where I was fully delusional and wrecked my life. I'm better now but I'm curious how my delusions relate to others. (Feel free to skip this part if you want) My episodes have had a running theme that a certain set of people in my life are monitoring me through my phone and computer. They commentate on my every action (I hear their voices) and read my thoughts, and this had lead to me being unable to be my real self when im alone, having to always be perfect in hopes they'd stop being mean. My most recent episode I spent days riding around on busses convinced that my friends who had been watching me where actually dea agents, and where building a case against me and that's why they where stalking me. I ripped apart hundreds of dollars worth of closed convinced they had been taken part and sewn back together with drugs and needles hidden in the seams. And reached a point where I was in a hospital parking lot checking inside car windows looking for the source of the voices. This is only a small portion of the now 4 distinct episodes I have. It's still hard to take the tape off my camera but the voices are gone and while I struggle to know what was real and what wasn't no new delusions have formed in a while. So I'm doing okay.",7.211684269038353,6.884720677042804,6.445550305725405,81.54724708171209,64.01945525291828,8.58799332962757,34.31045025013897,7.447530270364453,2.3210458032240133,1062,41,200,8,14,324,152,257,0.037000000000000005,0.804,0.159,0.9873,0,1,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,5,3,13,10,0,1,13,1,25,3,0,2,3,36,40,20,0,3,5,0,2,0,1,0,3,4,1,1,12,14,0,1,4,1,5,6,3,1,0,0,15,8,30,10,25,20,7,37,0,0,2,0,13,18,0,5,12,141,42,4,0.0,0.0,0.1584003644355008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681139930735543,0.0,0.0,0.13506278221263215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449872066197306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248136345934027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435583592381178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468261431799038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882390243478433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367611340362366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08207358905180961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12540760132966305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14540634082857534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829458126612533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612198350530887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17533285583798053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08920652250196691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293020501338041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363074534438188,0.0,0.0,0.13799818839182507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768134622713871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15676913242436233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12345125307821456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515522842093255,0.0,0.1125318659328956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15344434275262034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16236337194844694,0.3695101315968993,0.0,0.0,0.1602708705622222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693345827349319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12962851925306326,0.13570632504059113,0.0,0.16969152829054002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12204402248853312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12886350886681924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09574021480328557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646805284124145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xTomCruiseFan69,2019/03/08,"Why does no one understand Today has been not good, I started my higher dosage of meds last night 1000mg depakote (500mg morning 500mg night) 3mg Risperidone at night and 0.5 xanax (i take one in the morning & if i can catch when i start going manic/delusional, its hard to catch) I woke up sad, and slept in which i dont like either. My dad sent me usual angry texts and i said goodmorning to my mom My mom trys to understand and she is cool but my dad dosent understand, sometimes i dont know if he is actually yelling at me or im just hallucinating it. I was hoping to wake up and have these meds at least help with my paranoia, hallucinations, something. Makes me sad. I feel like these meds are just like “here try these lol” but my psychiatrist said we can keep upping the dosage but i feel like im wasting my time, not like im using my time for anything else though. I tryed zyprexa before too and that didnt work. Still in my outpatient therapy program, really the only time i can take a deep breath. So i am grateful for that.",1.5581085738905678,3.82553915165877,2.970359758724688,90.84904243860407,81.65402843601895,6.111245152951317,21.439250323136577,7.348242739294969,0.6537184834123226,815,25,175,12,22,265,126,211,0.14400000000000002,0.777,0.079,-0.8442,0,0,1,0,1,0,24.0,1,0,0,1,8,10,0,0,4,2,14,4,3,2,0,29,34,15,0,3,11,4,3,5,0,0,1,3,0,0,8,8,0,1,6,0,0,4,6,2,0,2,8,7,29,8,17,26,2,27,0,2,0,0,11,10,0,4,18,99,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.10062373289500998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11172324674558147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08485348231238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08774184663839535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09023516734341197,0.0,0.2416961026382653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613795351185059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042743926999854,0.14732836285182016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05860167999286465,0.08648656652548263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923692874881806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06911468956567418,0.0,0.0,0.10241479984956246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341402625511794,0.0,0.0,0.09165186282632536,0.0,0.0,0.05666838788357512,0.08405112387350559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518798156325455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06882894647377437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3436069832499091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24153016474742725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902946169590329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13974451796489062,0.07842233166297241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06605703765647597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961687734201095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07938167680115195,0.10198171702345506,0.0,0.14596828717188906,0.0,0.08234643615486867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15505677861390615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179190758626152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130832026192524,0.0,0.1803786306018397,0.0,0.09773937728983574,0.0,0.0,0.14001436101968875,0.0,0.0,0.32203382974297834,0.0,0.08905680764187739,0.11356476197111615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930437393832546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07506773014415911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,deflagrat,2019/03/08,"Thank you for being here You are the reason I started to be aware of my schizophrenia. Before, I used to think schizophrenia was something horrible and I didn't accept it, I thought I was one of those people who hear voices but don't develop schizophrenia. By reading this every day I remind myself of what I have and I avoid mistakes like thinking ""I don't need meds"" or start to ""listen the voices too much"". You helped me normalize the illness, now I see we are normal like everyone else. I am glad to be here. Thank you!",2.277245989304813,4.816042892156865,3.1812655971479518,88.77024064171125,80.86274509803921,5.277718360071302,22.998217468805706,6.574015621080383,0.7458901960784314,413,14,77,4,11,131,69,102,0.124,0.73,0.146,0.5187,0,1,1,0,0,0,13.0,1,4,0,0,4,8,0,1,3,0,12,1,0,2,0,16,24,4,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,5,3,0,1,5,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,4,5,19,6,9,17,1,4,0,0,1,0,9,0,0,1,6,58,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703997274803754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12914599231362944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672848745095094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16872097129133032,0.19134939538931145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256985906369412,0.0,0.13422471395453878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19566605256658132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22243486070920024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720828266080455,0.14848434217174053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3924089419155434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13569595746161106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388295428757793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20030622011381605,0.0,0.0,0.20589243781311226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957494045181153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15416379540765626,0.0,0.0,0.2834788337356784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3687303273195484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25662682881203985,0.0,0.15897774271349555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729534576014669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dragon_de_mer,2019/03/08,"Whatever your faith, how has schizophrenia affected your beliefs? Just in case the title of the post wasn’t clear. Did you possess a faith in a higher power, before or after your bout with the illness.. and how has schizophrenia affected or influenced your current faith based belief or lack of one? Personally i was raised christian.. and while i strayed from the church/organized religion towards the end of highschool, my faith in God remained and had up until a few years ago remained strongly faith based. More recently i am becoming more open to reclaiming my faith in God from a personal standpoint, as the years of repeated psychosis completely seemed to shatter my previous impression that a just God existed. 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I feel like I hold myself in so much. My stomach is always tight, my shoulders are always raised, and my joints feel stressed all the time. I feel so scared to be around people and I shake a lot when I'm around them but I hold myself together as best as can but then I end up looking like a fool a lot of the time. 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Ive been forgeting to take my medicine since my delusions ended but they may come again ,6.881875000000001,7.7068484375,5.7687500000000025,82.20125,64.625,7.65,34.75,7.1686216300943375,2.3842625000000006,138,6,24,1,2,41,26,32,0.14,0.7659999999999999,0.094,-0.1406,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,7,8,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,1,2,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,3,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35496937626028696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3457351977212729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3352839024842251,0.0,0.35548490112815395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20293914522135595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33200827197385024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6035439631515119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,maninthemacintosh16,2019/03/08,Feeling alone & attempting to study again I started studying again and I don't know if this makes sense to anyone but the sense of having to fit in into this arrangement and the distance I feel between myself and everyone else is just making me feel more and more isolated and alone and the sense of not belonging anywhere hit me very hard again today. It's like being unmoored from everything. I have no real connection to people or the world. And the idea of these other people and what they're thinking and saying about me... I wish I was dead sometimes.,6.136711590296493,7.206950622641512,6.011940700808626,78.93103773584906,66.35849056603774,8.698652291105121,30.23719676549865,8.841846274778883,2.486225336927224,450,16,78,7,7,141,73,106,0.159,0.7440000000000001,0.09699999999999999,-0.8059999999999999,0,2,0,0,1,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,5,0,6,0,0,2,0,25,16,12,1,2,5,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,10,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,10,1,12,13,2,9,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,6,59,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4253567075094096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224942163918575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14358393109194714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17154170708859576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19621858839118916,0.18455332929273305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114899983127857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839512620426934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.231812630426952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128537607312645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10032254492515476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741424539090417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28472456758649506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337307116645819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16330078390871824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20309418922545916,0.0,0.1453462042072972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13157855552758801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19464566949304274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16943341097477654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361397942634008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AkilaC,2019/03/08,"Sterilization I'm a 21 year old with undiagnosed schizoeffective disorder. I'm thinking about getting sterilized so I have an even better chance not passing on unfortunate genetics. How do you feel about sterilized? The thought of it makes me want to throw up. But it feels like the right thing to do. Do you think the government should pay a sum for doing so voluntarily if you have a disability?",4.134166666666665,7.20772075,5.292222222222224,73.15000000000003,77.6111111111111,9.711111111111112,29.83333333333333,9.827888789773867,3.744800000000001,322,15,56,11,8,106,55,72,0.055,0.79,0.155,0.7536,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,1,6,2,0,0,7,0,7,0,0,2,0,13,17,5,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,5,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,5,2,9,15,0,7,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,3,38,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751862988404624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35660409114540725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20551119924340452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31465290246537786,0.22228514492611404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16256268373644026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520118468380891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20769459520055564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264988829455125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657198294067351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20671379038503446,0.39874385652713945,0.0,0.2470178138622757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835239375939557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20036996835365936 schizophrenia,mark_parker,2019/03/08,"I am starting a blog on Medium I decided I'll start a [blog on Medium](https://medium.com/@TheStrategist), I suffer from Bipolar Type I with psychotic features, so I can relate to most schizophrenics, but I am also on a journey to /r/financialindependence, so I post my journey from birth to early retirement; hopefully financial independence in the end. I haven't mentioned my medical condition yet, but I indent to later describe how my psychotic episodes felt, so you're in for a good read if you follow my blog...",11.69533333333333,10.192847088888893,11.016111111111114,56.15750000000001,55.88888888888889,13.888888888888893,44.72222222222222,12.602617957971056,5.845222222222222,418,20,63,11,4,136,59,90,0.027999999999999997,0.879,0.09300000000000001,0.7311,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,0,5,0,4,3,0,2,0,10,9,8,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,1,14,2,13,8,1,16,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,3,7,46,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669752377141296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29568703888297343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32054296776620506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28001283482068634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315828062733833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363131002676452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197306420828277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339347325901122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4725935544322683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Banana_hand,2019/03/08,"Appropriate/healthy ways to respond to paranoia and delusions? If more details are pertinent let me know. So my sibling has been suffering paranoia and delusions and some other stuff in his head for over a year (probably longer). Hindsight is 20/20 and he is on a verge to a diagnosis but is incarcerated. I'm wondering what is the best way to support and soothe him regarding his issues. I watched Ted talk about schizophrenia and the big take away I learned is that whatever is going on with him is real to him, regardless of how crazy or illogical it seems to a bystander. So being dismissive or telling him it's not real or only in his head is counter productive. Is it wrong or dangerous to agree with him? Will that feed his paranoia? Is there any response that is helpful?",4.880908045977012,7.0542281655172445,5.316982758620693,78.46420977011499,70.79310344827586,8.695402298850576,34.8419540229885,9.2995712137729,3.484712643678161,624,33,110,14,12,199,95,145,0.11599999999999999,0.759,0.125,0.6767,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,1,0,6,0,17,3,2,1,0,24,24,15,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,8,1,0,4,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,1,13,2,18,20,3,12,0,1,1,0,14,8,0,8,1,83,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129676162712828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17916011747755273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20011804418163348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083738755286753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3914071869265763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12781590502363446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19903146745232686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10479857942047116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949940817216358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14502881165431256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20559674395378846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4340953529712199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17359758135731898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21829514102460207,0.0,0.21639345921553302,0.0,0.0,0.1433756167692368,0.1532698995500344,0.16667200954780473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027226812687441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067958463464359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20849026115547264,0.0,0.12279850918640098 schizophrenia,okyeah93,2019/03/08,Done taking meds I’m sick of all these side effects. Restlessness is unbearable and I’m not sure how people live like that. Pretty sure I don’t even have schizophrenia. The doctors are wrong and don’t know me or what I’ve been through. ,2.310425531914891,4.821223446808516,2.3866382978723406,94.69400000000002,80.48936170212768,5.4621276595744686,22.16595744680852,6.742157984588678,0.4624246808510635,190,6,39,2,5,57,39,47,0.24,0.6509999999999999,0.109,-0.7026,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,1,0,7,2,0,2,3,10,11,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,2,3,2,9,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,22,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965247704695859,0.0,0.29646822565450665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19134705054682588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592139839601749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415349559913469,0.0,0.2558143284113781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217963239760788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008445817092976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.294733566405752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5460860129325691,0.0,0.2178216849389696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167463268970221,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kjr47,2019/03/08,Family with schizophrenia My father is schizophrenic and would like to hear from people how it affected you from childhood to adulthood,8.476363636363633,11.977762090909096,6.400000000000002,68.77000000000002,64.45454545454545,9.854545454545457,33.72727272727273,10.125756701596842,4.469654545454546,114,5,14,3,2,33,20,22,0.066,0.83,0.10400000000000001,0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,5,3,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5125447922020315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6127808310669348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26562063583331824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3769278417733218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3862234702592559,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Expensive-o-Dot,2019/03/08,Seroquel was created by Satan to destroy your Spirit. It came out of his gay asshole and is his child.,2.6454999999999984,5.05386455,4.240000000000002,82.47500000000002,78.5,6.0,30.0,7.1686216300943375,2.0695,81,4,14,1,2,27,19,20,0.145,0.7020000000000001,0.153,-0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,4,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,notapillpoper,2019/03/08,"Mild hallucinations? Disclaimer: I don’t have a schizophrenia diagnosis and I am in NO way looking for one here, I know that I can only get one from a professional. Anyways, I’ve been having what I perceive to be some sort of mild hallucinations these past few months. These include things such as seeing doors open on their own very vividly out of the corner of my eye, hearing my Dads voice in video game music, seeing shadowy things in the corners of my eyes, seeing faces at night even when I’m not sleepy, I once saw the lights turn on by themselves at night, and I’ve seen creatures (not shadows) in the corner of my eye when walking past my dads bedroom. The reason I went to posting here rather than going directly to a professional is because there aren’t any trustworthy professionals where I am currently situated, and I won’t be going to a place with professionals before the summer. My only question is, are these in any way relatable to you? Perhaps potential warning signs of an early form of schizophrenia? I’m really sorry if I in any way come across as disrespectful or stupid. 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Because same I don't hallucinate much on meds if at all. I used to hallucinate demon gremlins on my patio it was terrifying that I ran inside and scared everyone. I also saw a reaper man at the end of my bed and I hear music when I'm off meds,2.1670056497175167,4.510407084745765,4.645000000000003,79.27450564971755,79.84745762711864,7.3231638418079115,23.39265536723164,8.344100000000001,1.72896384180791,234,8,44,5,6,82,48,59,0.11900000000000001,0.8809999999999999,0.0,-0.765,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,8,7,6,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,2,7,0,8,4,3,8,1,0,1,0,2,5,0,2,2,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338760492254228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20449124095043905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17827777073752074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259028204462776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794531556039008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3296178869053766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6497028497532671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149879754618276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927983382098779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525871032986561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,isitmeweoryou,2019/03/08,"Am I schizophrenic. Please help I am not trying be mean but I think I would rather die than have this disorder. I think I do though. I have all these random things pop in my head like hey pippa, hey little bird, i dont want to get stabbed, i dont want to go to Greenbriar( have no clue what that is) Can anyone relate?",-0.4846434494195684,1.72573294029851,1.226766169154228,99.52665008291876,92.73134328358208,4.768822553897182,13.414593698175787,6.42735559955562,-0.8202888888888888,245,4,58,3,9,79,48,67,0.225,0.652,0.12300000000000001,-0.9064,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,12,2,1,0,1,11,19,2,1,4,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,10,1,5,17,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,38,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15828958163886914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349458413561783,0.0,0.2594501453203942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5306294105472038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182737746603553,0.0,0.12865650116927685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23233034233032546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15173718808066702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105974292832273,0.22689140371768945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465932851919649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484963520341183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15039626377493795,0.29010926708464696,0.2224163885032456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15369659883845047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670486035400382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16081326966751686,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mischa92,2019/03/08,"I don't know what's wrong with me guys. so I've never sought help for this because 1. I'm persistently terrified of doctors and 2. these ""cycles"" never seem to amount to anything really ""big"". but they still worry me never the less. over the last year or so I've noticed a definite trend: 3-10 days: everything is so hard. so so so tired. no attention span. no motivation whatsoever. have to plan to reward myself with little things to even make it through my morning routine to get to work. will smoke like 1.5 packs of cigarettes and drink up to 3 energy drinks a day to try to keep myself going. have to repeatedly remind myself that I do in fact HAVE to do certain things to make it through the day. have sometimes called in sick to work because I just did not have the willpower to do absolutely anything. I feel mentally blank, stupid, and honestly damn near totally emotionless. 1-5 days: woah I almost feel like I used to. actually have some level of energy and motivation. life isn't a total shit hole, cool. little things are fun again. forcing myself to do things isn't too hard. my thoughts are actually more complex and coherent, I can feel emotions again. 3-5 days: ok too much. sounds are too loud. lights are too bright. what was motivation, alertness and interest in life is now irritability and frustration. like something in the back of my mind is telling me to be on high alert. 2-4 days: thoughts are super disjointed. I'll try to remember where I put my keys and upon attempting to recall a visual memory, am only able to mentally envision images of a bicycle I saw last week or the toaster oven my family had when I was little, random shit that just does not pertain to what im trying to think about. putting thoughts into words is difficult and frustrating. everything is startling. everything feels either brand new - like it's the first time I'm seeing the house I've been living in for over a year; or like I've lived through the exact situation I'm currently experiencing before - like this persisting feeling of deja vu but...dark. everything has a warped feeling of dread accompanying it. a friend will ask how work was for me that day and my thoughts are like ""what does he mean by that why is he trying to gather information? what sinister plans does he have with this information?"" - overly paranoid shit like that. I'm not even sure if they're hallucinations or not - but little shadows and sounds will put the fear of God in me. not sure if they're not real at all, or real and I'm just overreacting to them. and always, always, during these days - a weird throbbing, pressure headache behind my left eye and on the left side of my forehead. and, not always, but every 4-7 of these cycles or so: 1-2 days: supreme paranoia. what I later recognize are hallucinations. a buzzy beeping in my head, unintelligible voices, weird pulsing pains in my head. a reoccurring complex belief that someone has implanted me with a chip to track me, has replaced my loved ones with clones, that I've been hooked up to a machine and am living in a simulation where someone is trying to get information out of me by having me interact with simulations of loved ones. that someone is controlling my thoughts or basically hacking my thoughts. I cannot go to work and will call in sick. went to work once while feeling like this and hid in the bathroom for 2 hours because someone in the building was monitoring my thoughts and the chip in my head was malfunctioning causing a headache. I've had times I'm extremely tempted and urged to cut at my neck because the buzzing and clicking sounds I attribute to a malfunctioning chip seem to originate from one point in my neck. but I never totally noticeably go off the rails completely. I'll only lose total insight into the belief that these are delusions for longer than 3 hours at a time. I don't totally slip into full psychosis - at least not as deeply as some cases I've seen. and usually, the cycle begins to repeat before any major paranoia or hallucinations become prominent. so I wonder wtf exactly may be wrong with me at this point. when I feel better, I call myself silly for overreacting and getting as crazy as I did a couple weeks before....but then it happens again. I'm terrified of doctors and have this persistent belief that if I tell anyone what's actually going on in my head, terrible things will happen. so there goes that idea. wtf guys. most days I feel this can't be a real issue because it never gets really, *super* bad. but when it does get, well, moderately bad...it feels like a real issue to me, at least at the time. ugh.",4.647074524664273,6.523705905963304,5.631356202632627,77.19766188006916,70.78899082568806,8.67892567477729,29.03676372822763,9.241812021751848,2.6505202898550726,3658,143,658,79,69,1204,366,872,0.139,0.7140000000000001,0.146,0.4688,3,0,5,0,0,0,120.0,0,0,2,21,33,51,8,4,39,2,61,24,11,11,17,139,114,59,0,3,28,0,12,10,1,6,9,5,2,2,41,35,2,2,38,2,0,8,21,22,1,4,21,26,57,29,111,84,18,108,3,1,6,2,22,53,4,20,57,418,98,10,0.045699000064895266,0.0,0.13378689570997887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04576094735810998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11407568677368035,0.0,0.0,0.031076887129614532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031953803400051016,0.0,0.07521276649250534,0.0,0.042722396149128594,0.0,0.0,0.035139710218975814,0.07631351241135924,0.13928843138388405,0.05047095518358747,0.07777296632965662,0.0,0.0,0.0404170518675508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13999136556231415,0.0,0.0,0.046945461435571136,0.0,0.0,0.04791453210818196,0.0,0.05125531443762827,0.0,0.05056507436293362,0.0,0.2947207445790884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09354972599771316,0.15996601166766727,0.0,0.0,0.08953524454513777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05140522415575796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06036751709065787,0.0,0.038503378536385344,0.0,0.16428525827917273,0.0,0.04308095015433107,0.05142408015129602,0.23106787534126805,0.09794212433235944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03887154610985492,0.0,0.0,0.035306934088867044,0.0,0.11937920688618762,0.0,0.10388717948299901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904983897016032,0.08082294966824301,0.0,0.08187465571950975,0.0,0.18760143291368184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030631076449920913,0.04828350261777085,0.0,0.0,0.09000861940273308,0.05273051040969148,0.0,0.0515886085718609,0.049362762057870234,0.09539576618958112,0.0,0.04061937099989711,0.0,0.0,0.025114975303566343,0.07450156883435634,0.0,0.0,0.09930419456795657,0.0,0.06455711045165609,0.2232622308605236,0.18320961449243864,0.1210591629053872,0.0,0.0,0.051125491721111985,0.0,0.0,0.08249026353330709,0.0,0.06100887480373745,0.0,0.0,0.04977960819160992,0.0,0.0,0.0921076870917767,0.0,0.04614296274501683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03359402324203795,0.0,0.17622943052018758,0.04413637903116971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040572289296326,0.0,0.048667943615096174,0.0929004754301718,0.06951229765032743,0.04862695808812127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08640065256705996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13782035164119874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20806186743282265,0.05855189926269281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05176805858587271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036416186382237634,0.08320530664934303,0.0,0.0,0.1407281005630139,0.0,0.0513675907859871,0.0,0.0,0.15488245782450116,0.03518132290109607,0.045197479584587384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036495280483630266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08614153347142597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07988588064336323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15180192514914384,0.029282073996837712,0.0,0.2539593099657927,0.10658981775785588,0.052524277980113054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15513310641457834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03946926334194319,0.05033099226538352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07331396266173691,0.0,0.04108888928761577,0.04236343089884788,0.04123623953380898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04955861618155022,0.16634708159853834,0.04640955284815302,0.0,0.0,0.09992936524349408,0.0,0.05885731548244225 schizophrenia,realkingoftennis,2019/03/08,"Disorganized thinking and seizures Hello, It's 7PM tonight, Thu, March 8, I hope you're all have a good night. I've been ""hearing"" a lot stories about people dealing with symptoms of stress, seizures/epilepsy like stages of schzo disorder and I ""thought"" I'd like to help out. (/_\)(/_\)(/_\) There's a way to coherently understanding the pain and anxiety that comes with the feeling of being drowned out by noise that will intensely feel like listening or traveling through (sharp glass) or static. Eat a boiled egg. Every now and then. Try it and get back to me! (/_^)b ",3.5701871657754016,6.430119637254903,3.4126381461675592,87.11141711229948,78.11764705882355,6.846345811051696,29.860962566844922,8.00094639256281,2.234517647058824,441,21,82,8,11,133,78,102,0.14800000000000002,0.6940000000000001,0.158,-0.1007,1,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,1,6,0,4,5,0,0,1,20,14,8,1,1,2,0,3,3,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,10,3,0,5,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,5,3,5,13,10,2,12,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,4,9,43,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16221604758811534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16305173057310407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18266047237959293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186120530040552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430252411301976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169779187686255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17865948421733802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21443555862847494,0.15148704764383214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078626520218836,0.0,0.0,0.1778557009687885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389933716191689,0.0,0.142131224001375,0.0,0.0,0.2106113902840064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107876492427257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802755244372128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19899257060344436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256338945132333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14700730048245075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429001297885796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22039893871604074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358717192088796,0.0,0.1683423305226625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14396659114405047,0.0,0.0,0.2207493210625764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16831373690836332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bounty85,2019/08/25,"Paranoid about people secretly following me and watching me. Should I be worried? Hi everyone. I'm not schizophrenic but I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder 6 years ago. Lately every time I go outside alone I almost always get paranoid about people secretly following me or wanting to harm me. Let me specify that I'm not convinced that they are doing this, which is what makes me know I'm not psychotic. It's just like a ""what if this happens?"" scenario. One night it got so bad I had to stop and sit down near a cop to feel safe. This has been happening for one month now. Am I just stressed out? I'm incredibly scared of psychosis and I really hope this is not a sign of my mental disorders getting out of control. I also have panic attacks and severe anxiety from time to time. I've had 2 delusions in the past, one of them was me being absolutely convinced that the mirror in the bedroom I used to sleep in (now I changed it) caused me to have nightmares but only at night and only when I fell asleep directly facing the mirror, as if it was a portal to another dimension or had magical powers. There was a time when I would frequently check for cameras even in my own house, just to make sure. I still do it sometimes but not as frequently. I'll tell my psychiatric about being paranoid people are following me, but I really don't know how to explain my feelings. She doesn't know about the mirror delusion. It happened like 10 years ago when I was a teen (I'm in my mid 20s now). Thoughts? Is this a sign of my mental health deteriorating? A warning sign I could slowly be getting close to a psychotic episode? I hope not",3.7919883889695214,5.632335968553464,5.061761006289308,80.55661828737304,72.9622641509434,8.288534107402032,29.84083212385099,8.950670267944501,2.62900977261732,1290,56,240,27,26,428,167,318,0.17300000000000001,0.762,0.065,-0.9875,1,1,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,2,2,19,14,1,3,14,0,30,7,3,6,1,54,59,21,0,8,17,0,2,2,0,2,4,0,1,0,17,9,0,3,9,0,1,5,8,6,0,3,11,3,35,8,35,40,1,41,0,0,1,0,8,12,0,7,25,169,52,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18673045291173648,0.0,0.10546886784419053,0.10908606768858174,0.0,0.08422923854063498,0.08763974689607834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044359209031553,0.080574172875664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11982363618699796,0.0,0.0,0.08794288820392189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10819891094661316,0.1114210406813024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181321693895526,0.0840943148200796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690376732583386,0.0,0.0,0.2414256552680192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06956689109046751,0.0,0.08874177605261431,0.10064359553810824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10651207465916697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16508560929771313,0.0,0.059859245908161336,0.0,0.08423889831561396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.279418548657741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11195671161782828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092251515511682,0.0,0.12153217000152075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17365339863746326,0.0,0.1188124206164496,0.0,0.0,0.10770306618150872,0.0,0.10291401765332804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14061196993243172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2122878576200412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08407028258482177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19768280664174426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21411505948796303,0.16021047984552084,0.0,0.12357747639299703,0.0,0.0,0.10054567369036788,0.21905955333963187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349491844440338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544979340578194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898850524036275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540215827201073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417019918519076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08411355394683516,0.08805732996104379,0.12065068370301067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992685961950874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09205964774130107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08361715282489066,0.2456659674168068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09096792701301476,0.0,0.0,0.062124058572453726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696376011941007,0.0,0.07482063453332959,0.0,0.0,0.13565310131590594 schizophrenia,Alan_Taylor,2019/08/25,"Your diagnosis stories I just got diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and I was wondering, what are y'all's diagnosis stories?",5.866428571428571,9.362743142857145,7.247976190476191,52.44910714285717,93.76190476190477,13.528571428571427,43.345238095238095,10.125756701596842,8.448038095238099,110,8,13,6,4,37,18,21,0.14400000000000002,0.856,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,10,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.497669618381201,0.0,0.0,0.5619550027570992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3921577454778196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5317366157021088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lazyspice,2019/08/25,"Hey guys, I’m new to the group. I just got recently diagnosed with schizophrenia, I have two questions Question 1: is the beginning of catching your diagnosis the worse? I was diagnosed 4 months ago, does it ever get better? Question 2: can someone share experiences with me off what their voices and hallucinations say to them and what do they look like?",7.470625000000003,8.4418298125,7.428124999999998,70.30437500000001,63.375,10.775,36.3125,10.686352973137794,4.0986375000000015,284,13,48,7,4,91,53,64,0.047,0.83,0.12300000000000001,0.6174,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,3,1,2,3,0,0,3,0,5,2,0,0,1,9,10,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,8,3,6,8,0,8,0,0,1,0,12,1,0,3,7,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16678254671167825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16640231163851502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3819341149695168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646502707095305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701913488325953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18404561581796075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09829997523091448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15047977203702428,0.0,0.0,0.1862968790408031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09191999317147186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15799759391919954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017856609489053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817152701342088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6323091012251518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857742279266012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496234665197537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15941785597518882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18379402502237185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917396871308608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EndMyTorment,2019/08/25,"Feeling as though I was misdiagnosed and every ""symptom"" was just because I'm an idiot/lowiq I have a 5 year history of schizophrenic symptoms now. Starting with intense religious delusions, then to voices for a short while, then to the last ""symptom"" that I've been stuck on for the last 3 years. that ""symptom"" is that everyone thinks I'm extremely low iq/subhuman/waste of space. Last time I was in the hospital I even thought I heard my psychiatrist walk by my room and saw me zoning out and she commented ""oh he's not sick he's just an idiot"". This leads me to think maybe all the my symptoms even the religious ones were just because I'm a fucking retard who happened to be dumb enough to think he was the savior of the universe. My friends and family don't think I'm dumb but I only think they say that because either they love me and don't want to hurt my feelings or they're too dumb themselves to realize it. I went to walmart today and every person gave my a look like ""is this guy serious?"" It was my first time shopping for groceries alone. One worker even had uncontrollable laughter so much she covered her mouth and looked right at me. Every action I make it stupid I'm constantly in fear of making an ass out of myself. 90% of my social interactions go poorly I feel. I'm not spending much time revising this post but these are the thoughts I've been having lately and I was diagnosed with schizophrenia so I thought I'd share. Also sorry if this is really negative but this is how I feel.",3.8153490990991017,5.617596773648653,4.767297297297297,82.85045045045045,72.81756756756756,7.771171171171173,28.211711711711718,8.472884824447931,2.1116265765765765,1199,47,227,21,24,390,168,296,0.13699999999999998,0.777,0.087,-0.9377,0,1,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,2,3,13,15,6,2,15,0,20,12,2,4,1,42,53,22,0,2,11,0,4,1,1,0,8,3,1,2,14,12,0,0,13,1,3,5,5,11,0,3,18,10,30,4,27,34,5,34,0,2,3,3,20,11,5,2,18,146,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10027638763978823,0.0,0.07742697077152948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17706183839461295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10462809399752092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827032763819316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10004100848409044,0.0,0.19184621883513456,0.0,0.2447252410096732,0.09251572096679192,0.0,0.0,0.09127334024711062,0.10894949038332807,0.19582053534703875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823550975850367,0.0,0.0,0.07480294182535559,0.08950858969020448,0.0,0.0,0.055025073996140435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09586708609558868,0.08561766347327195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10364788175637064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367638254310222,0.1092172501823873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04730139304880879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16260893920644034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08738388851194394,0.0,0.1292562900332198,0.0,0.09726876850624394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14234777564819392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312155631461308,0.07363602209408232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08453954598413413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927268584580017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062025412675131474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08268380624977081,0.0,0.0769952015332904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09869586313750024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10838213567169158,0.06852974013459201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5031655948917237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101919402288005,0.09512522199902597,0.23059294942983286,0.16936967502292122,0.0,0.09177410047569863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05710698268959915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08975316998844733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12469789461039565 schizophrenia,springtimecool,2019/08/25,"Does anyone else feel like they have an aura of invincibility around them? Not one that keeps you from feeling pain, but one that will keep you alive for a long time and prevent you from dying too early.",7.884615384615383,7.105896051282053,7.143205128205127,78.58096153846154,62.84615384615386,8.825641025641023,27.19230769230769,7.1686216300943375,1.1961692307692309,162,3,32,1,2,50,34,39,0.05,0.773,0.177,0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,9,6,2,1,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,2,5,1,5,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,4,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875730831417496,0.2748632710966623,0.0,0.2388075790136617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784107164744009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23475545016298066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22409615505931385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27127984265375993,0.19164443953114205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4768822389210236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13105790402261353,0.0,0.0,0.237400967037082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3635587785614249,0.0,0.2854467225137581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15642410778184793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,grapefully,2019/08/25,"Working with psychosis So I’ve been diagnosed with psychotic depression. I’ve been on meds for over a year now, but I still get symptoms. I haven’t been able to work for 6 months and when I was working I was off sick a LOT because I couldn’t cope. However, I’m starting to run out of money and really need to get a job. I just wondered, how do people cope working with psychosis? Any tips? I don’t feel ready to work but I have no choice...",0.7301086956521701,2.9048057065217416,2.4914782608695667,93.58613043478263,84.32608695652175,5.853913043478261,23.33043478260869,7.1686216300943375,0.8462834782608697,343,13,76,5,10,113,58,92,0.12,0.841,0.039,-0.7724,2,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,0,3,0,10,3,0,1,0,15,17,7,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,2,0,1,1,4,1,0,0,5,1,8,0,14,11,1,11,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,2,6,47,8,6,0.1923336062031783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13079344761854794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11724478116546627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656566531936035,0.19521456170562115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724965027458396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20097274192862255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19086142659436173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16351515407909697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136392779839427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535188495017398,0.0,0.0,0.14261293194938154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333399054818009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232138331172119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13613471640624794,0.0,0.15359786636130568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999082600676307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085775915250014,0.70010577999054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12385653648986705 schizophrenia,saiglai,2019/08/25,Anyone head delusions that god or demon were tormenting them? I would like to know what kind of things happened and did meds help you?,5.167200000000001,7.233169919999997,3.916999999999998,89.24350000000004,69.8,6.6000000000000005,24.5,7.1686216300943375,0.9293999999999998,108,3,20,1,2,31,25,25,0.0,0.733,0.267,0.7691,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,4,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,13,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726194689642536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447775737808698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4001386186924099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613343923736965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4060094177959672,0.21427280954910255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19048008168214914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43307880831733386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590249411238781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27696597416742624,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MasterDak,2019/08/25,Art How did some of you get so good at doing art work? Did you go to school for it or did you explore on your own?,0.32222222222222285,0.7359599259259255,2.3490740740740783,102.26583333333336,79.37037037037038,5.4,17.203703703703702,3.1291,-1.1652074074074077,86,1,25,0,2,29,22,27,0.0,0.8640000000000001,0.136,0.625,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,4,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,4,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,1,5,3,2,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,0,19,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092764175691521,0.0,0.33642641314932936,0.4965107717954801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5990985128021576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4309563684647993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,N4ra_,2019/08/25,"Starting to run again. In school I used to be a cross country runner, even competed at nationals (uk). I quit running due to my illness since I couldn't bring myself to go outside, but I'm pushing myself to get back into it again. My endurance is really bad compared to what it used to be but I've done a couple of 2 or 3k interval runs and one 3k run with no rests, I feel like I can actually do this for once. I did have one incident where I thought a van was following me but other than that my paranoia hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be. It feels good that I'm making progress.",3.7529800000000013,3.9905005680000016,5.230150000000002,85.39482500000003,71.32,8.49,30.025,8.472884824447931,2.0204599999999995,461,18,102,7,8,156,86,125,0.13699999999999998,0.779,0.084,-0.7737,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,6,4,0,0,3,0,14,1,0,3,0,16,28,7,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,4,1,0,10,3,2,0,2,6,2,14,2,16,17,1,20,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,6,70,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.20221703025865526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15933954832246694,0.3460404346749723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292852177685553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21205821718597007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368669924514617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095535259640673,0.14803815735920725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082640055128712,0.0,0.11776801908839547,0.17380647822217712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012373260937467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383210973327826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206827576291474,0.280835550468719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22040419749391205,0.0,0.0,0.13275057084708053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097179125474813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17141469667044776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466715291443225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290193954366667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3579434522558809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472032896880454,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Curious_Entity_,2019/08/25,Hygiene I feel like this is one thing I’ve yet to deal with as a symptom except for when I was a kid.. What caused you to stop showering or taking care of yourself as an adult?,1.884122807017544,3.0617682894736897,3.3236842105263165,93.79412280701756,76.63157894736842,6.119298245614036,23.19298245614036,6.42735559955562,0.3636561403508769,137,4,32,1,3,45,33,38,0.057999999999999996,0.792,0.15,0.5423,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,6,5,4,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,2,8,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,4,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3746093250023825,0.37744169935711214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3787940360353816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857786650054354,0.2624850249360537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17950292369350254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489733990975245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071796931278325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3818902132199232,0.2762542229693452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440976181376283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,J3arcmick205,2019/08/25,How to communicate with the voices So theres this voice that ive been focusing on of a woman in my head and i keep trying to communicate with her but she keeps saying i dont care when i tell her to talk to me. It may sound like a weird question but is there a way to communicate with her without her ignoring and not caring about what im saying?,3.4097297297297327,3.971395648648653,5.330648648648651,83.20489189189192,72.24324324324324,8.622702702702702,24.259459459459467,8.841846274778883,1.4383437837837834,274,7,61,5,5,95,53,74,0.121,0.797,0.083,-0.4209,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,4,0,5,1,1,1,0,15,9,7,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,0,1,4,5,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,5,11,3,13,7,0,4,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,2,2,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4758244206409981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27348024729269826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23948073066124345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520541584672241,0.0,0.0,0.41481801050128536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114001266078044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614013760055749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3711328521623871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875550003097062,0.20395504201497244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15842689086924214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18521951389607227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22493760620533595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,penguib,2019/08/25,"Shadows So basically I was taking 100 mg of seroquel and I stopped very abruptly because my insurance expired and now I keep seeing shadows and I keep thinking I'm hearing my cat running around my room when he's not there. Someone mentioned shadow people to me and someone else said there's a link between that and sleep paralysis, which I get. Can anyone tell my anymore?",4.723619047619049,7.0305006000000025,5.142857142857146,78.9704761904762,71.57142857142857,6.3809523809523805,37.38095238095238,7.1686216300943375,2.9978095238095244,302,18,48,3,6,96,53,70,0.031,0.9690000000000001,0.0,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,12,11,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,6,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,10,0,4,9,0,7,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,4,30,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24017029331619266,0.16933281694494978,0.0,0.0,0.21558509027453535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14762626006542168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20230425691755213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12652526607621187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27294628877848504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4305085330739437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16789209181067605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303617413648158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19298032679536267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423476433307363,0.0,0.4103843688094152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024672619983998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18208376852835306,0.0,0.21166965688108244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15517451909549762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19981788036279355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,riotrepeat,2019/08/25,"I Want To Work I REALLY don't want to apply for disability. I loveee feeling independent, but its seemed impossible to work. I feel so useless and like I depend on everyone.",2.391363636363636,5.2013268484848485,5.50628787878788,70.27943181818182,83.54545454545455,9.36060606060606,26.431818181818183,9.516144504307137,3.4162181818181825,138,6,24,5,4,50,25,33,0.18899999999999997,0.636,0.175,-0.3564,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,9,6,3,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,1,5,6,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,15,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3631082064955097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3842808694663703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856497881139272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434390189932691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459395592767087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4482700636410445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5532919801635698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lwsrc,2019/10/24,"Objectively speaking, it doesn’t get better I’ve been working so hard to manage my symptoms and it just hit me that I’ll never be able to. I’ve been indoctrinated by doctors and psychiatrists who swear to me that things get better and progress is around the corner. I hate that I’ve been fed this ‘it gets better’ narrative, but not as much as I hate myself for believing it. I’ll always be disadvantaged, My life will consist of working to exhaustion, all for very little benefit. There is, objectively, no way out of this.",5.400657142857142,6.705863580000003,6.383428571428571,74.74100000000001,68.2,9.314285714285717,30.285714285714285,9.606745405546679,2.8450714285714285,418,16,76,9,7,139,65,100,0.188,0.7240000000000001,0.08800000000000001,-0.8737,0,0,0,0,1,0,11.0,0,0,0,6,4,7,2,0,1,0,9,5,0,0,2,10,16,7,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,11,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,2,7,4,13,8,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,53,18,4,0.1939247674146168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613609414781794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17263415743724905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218486805080132,0.0,0.5145320929474864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984902167448468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039530610735923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17371850089729246,0.3829211189066589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697479826165893,0.0,0.194363562813818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14255701731946355,0.0,0.14956673571284654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20156208581106194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12883499851565627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600082425616724,0.0,0.15392845391879784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823590806213476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Babymeyas,2019/10/24,"PLEASE HELP ME am I schizophrenic I’ve seen a lot of weird things that are true bc the other person tells me it is, I sent my roomate a nude and said whoops sorry I meant to send that to a different josh. And then the next morning my photographerwho I saw that night sent me a text saying hey I just saw you and waved to you on the highway, and then said whoops I meant to send that to a diffrent person. I was at my ex bf house and he left to go get food, and came back and said his friends were coming over so I proceeded to find my shirt we literally searched an hour for that shirt it was never found. When I was 17 I wanted to look at my baby picture photo album I couldn’t find it anywhere and my mom got freaked out, and to this day it was never found. I did adderall for 4 months, but I stopped taking it when I started losing weight I also tried cocaine a lot. I know they said that isn’t a good mix but ever sense I haven’t been okay. I’d always pay attention to detail ever sense I got into my first relationship when I was 17 I always thought he was cheating on me. We couldn’t have anything or grow bc that’s all I thought about. I even thought my mother fucked my bf and that’s became reality to me. It happened again in my next relationship, I thought he was cheating all the time. But the thing is these we weird, situations I saw what looked like a bloody Tampon string on the floor and then blood in front of the mirror, and on the bed and he saw those things too!!! And we never knew where it came from, he did have dogs but his dogs never showed blood. After adderall I slowly couldn’t find meaning in life anymore. I felt like I knew it all, like I am the only conscious mind, and everyone else is being controlled by code. Days seem shorter. I feel like I can control when I’m hungry when I wanna sneeze and how intense I wanna feel my cramps. I thought I was controlling my work bc of how I was feeling and I ended up walking out. But I saw my manger talking to a red car. And on the way home i rode a bike I was wondering if people saw me as a threat and in that moment I saw a car turn around and go the opposite way. Before I thought I was a stimulant, I decided that my phone was hacked and everyone could see what I was doing so we played music back and fourth. If some of the impossible happen then how are these delusions and hallucinations happening? I feel like people only exist bc I want them to. And I know this is a schizophrenia sub, so your just gunna tell me what I want to hear that I’m fucking insane and life is very real??? Tl:dr: I feel like if life is real I’m schizophrenic why do I feel like I know everything",2.5272373828702968,3.907786424954797,3.842874815058362,89.89637863718563,75.34719710669077,6.618592799605457,23.23725957586717,7.1686216300943375,0.6776477396021696,2075,59,457,22,44,681,250,553,0.085,0.825,0.091,-0.7561,3,0,1,1,0,1,42.0,5,3,2,6,24,21,5,0,27,1,39,15,5,7,10,112,104,51,0,12,11,3,8,7,3,0,6,6,2,2,31,37,2,4,31,3,1,15,9,9,0,1,48,26,84,12,44,51,6,70,0,1,12,3,43,20,2,9,40,296,115,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05379238717648992,0.11194096678931907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06670953824552879,0.0,0.0,0.05535397178524512,0.0598807688755288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10344640245066378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057238189533895326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386817123913407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05794347803360455,0.0,0.0,0.2263327380338063,0.05370621912913299,0.0,0.0,0.0867616737995293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07027838047308196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0561918935840548,0.0,0.05957747922559836,0.0,0.0,0.04442838621172848,0.12169142392490002,0.0,0.12855059245034367,0.060454108894021336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20406947248868895,0.19221862952997926,0.06458565811726688,0.0,0.18443900047533632,0.0572162032313536,0.0813379986036316,0.14750682174704585,0.05196934309213056,0.1243721836011057,0.03514357233691938,0.0,0.0764573392274255,0.05641931047249218,0.1075971126422654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17844861254965327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07581337657889213,0.0,0.045086806951305625,0.0,0.06747302073091398,0.0,0.06624320326449132,0.07761563153591719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11090247301135522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07308442224125478,0.0,0.14253534222148345,0.2300384964644811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297255890278922,0.07525315603220671,0.0,0.11437385170576402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07327210939896772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06791922108409068,0.07878082054131608,0.053690871117847316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20751793887472708,0.0,0.14307575308102313,0.06312433934611549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231725124077708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932671877534906,0.11746769746997256,0.0,0.07383758190055373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15312627465457615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14443646037353752,0.0,0.0,0.25594048595595736,0.05349241550250065,0.0,0.0,0.053602085059043104,0.061236202461843324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07560950896087251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07529848768422025,0.04761103627961803,0.0,0.0,0.05623716976507152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050575464404086765,0.0540656530279279,0.11758644148830295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13406510421321485,0.0,0.0,0.3204088986640153,0.03922319334810469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045669021342464165,0.07316580818965995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05550127931372917,0.1190252269736063,0.10678482531279417,0.0,0.0819115486073685,0.0,0.0,0.06069686693180003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07294682458203898,0.048970259123660334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,strawberrybunny_,2019/10/24,"Finally getting back to work, could use encouragement Been off my meds for a while feeling terrible. But I applied for a job and that feels like an accomplishment. It’s been a while since I’ve worked. I gave myself a break since I recently moved but now it’s time to get back to work. I’m nervous and scared and could use some words of encouragement:(",3.4330434782608705,5.486653971014499,4.115289855072465,86.04076086956526,74.5072463768116,8.078260869565218,25.99275362318841,8.841846274778883,1.8614231884057981,280,10,58,6,6,89,46,69,0.131,0.794,0.075,-0.6858,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,4,3,6,0,2,5,0,4,0,0,2,0,13,12,7,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,2,5,3,7,7,1,11,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,9,35,8,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067489043189069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185093629685129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20170860016357195,0.1424961443828941,0.0,0.218501564048534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20842198573978726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19793588498709772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09744736690412094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215580188742312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119972117182264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19694528606331296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19969689148841985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299951012877552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11630826494094818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445433445230144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4356335157491804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HoshiYamazaki,2019/10/24,"What is criteria for lowering dosage of drug? Hey mates, So basically I do somehow well, but I lack emotions (and sometimes suffer from short depressive episodes), nor I don't have anymore mania, autistic psychosis (which is symptom of simple schizophrenia) and so on. I'm curious if lowering Amisulpride (I take 300mg) or getting Abilify at certain dose could help me to get better. So far, I know there are no persons that know me IRL or know how to treat simple schizophrenia overall, but even on Wikipedia you can see that after treating disorganisation/autism they treat persons with L-Dopa. Maybe Abilify could be enough since it's increasing Dopamine? I'm just worried that my psychiatrist (as most psychiatrists) will not know to treat me since this type of illness is not very known. I should be honest from what I know...",7.987222222222222,8.859299013513517,7.008468468468468,74.10469969969972,62.24324324324325,9.82102102102102,38.74174174174174,9.725611199111238,3.8828894894894894,666,33,111,12,9,203,105,148,0.14,0.6829999999999999,0.17600000000000002,0.7995,2,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,1,1,9,10,0,0,0,0,14,4,0,1,1,25,25,13,0,5,8,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,2,8,3,0,0,6,0,0,1,5,2,1,0,0,1,13,8,15,19,4,7,0,2,1,0,7,5,0,5,1,73,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785850048672064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15926080534632148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28754884704117456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550974586081706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20882865180645813,0.0,0.0,0.20255899477485315,0.0,0.18606456234687285,0.0,0.11893716815519186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18816244878626265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12069979572052256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4948197614965396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809085205794556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31446731421230656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349565104062498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979181208996678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17809777471781507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18716581853814707,0.13539322553128946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14857989572492414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619081376884225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18287387181482254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,philliptranblog,2019/10/24,"Would anybody want to check out my blog? I’ve come a long way! My career has begun. I feel lucky and motivated. With the help from my state clinic, I can finally start a new chapter in my life and it’s all about work. I started my blog because I’m passionate about what I do. Think of it as a blog for origin stories that focuses on everyday Americans. Aren’t you curious to know how people got to where they came from? Then, my blog is for you. I just started it with only six stories. I’m going out this weekend to collect more stories. You can view it at [Phillip Tran.blog](https://philliptran.blog)",2.647307692307692,5.136303410256414,3.4415598290598304,87.75413461538461,79.0,6.635042735042736,25.98931623931624,7.793537801064563,1.6132341880341885,477,19,92,8,12,151,81,117,0.0,0.8590000000000001,0.141,0.9343,1,0,0,1,0,0,22.0,0,3,1,2,5,2,0,0,4,0,7,3,0,3,1,19,20,5,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,7,8,0,0,4,5,1,3,1,0,0,1,2,2,15,2,19,17,2,22,0,0,1,1,5,6,0,1,11,61,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15337210632946469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28776164985670355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21672982401892546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127215757956568,0.0,0.0,0.27561385149258383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429892218940071,0.0,0.20122629913912346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16864116666356518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13827195210865634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17771145654634726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22265674932428314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429953927440573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19135199170002534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17442671612524738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5342481258161221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612141554747191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14839931010493634,0.1997071731223265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831666997254954,0.0,0.0,0.17872835100446885,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JoshDonofrio,2019/10/24,"The Mountains Does anyone else here just utterly hate suburbia and the city and find complete solace in the hills/mountains? I can't stop thinking about it lately and it's driving me insane, I want to move to New Zealand and am fortunate enough to be an Aus citizen so I could do so easily. Is anyone else fixated on the mountains like I am? I'm not saying it'll be a cure to my illness but I'm so tired of people...",2.7313455149501635,4.284777616279071,4.706079734219268,83.20453488372095,75.16279069767442,7.70498338870432,27.40199335548173,8.418075326091056,2.0182411960132898,329,13,65,6,7,113,61,86,0.136,0.767,0.09699999999999999,-0.7443,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,1,0,6,0,9,2,0,0,0,12,14,8,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,3,4,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,6,1,8,10,1,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,43,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995705620382837,0.4389806001316455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22460210970420105,0.0,0.0,0.17103458524364354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874624572165532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35790109112299817,0.0,0.0,0.22134309058787915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19579016149074785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114946186628612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416457417532301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10465544765275316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276784257837985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068918010661779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14851087111442335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703536992085137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17909473357114078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13726139663338605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24621055713092976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12635054598309628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,seizethrowaway,2019/10/24,GOV FUCKING WITH MY MEDS THE WORKERS WHO COMR TO MY HOUSE ARE ACTUALLY GOVERNMENT PLANTS. THIS IS SOME MKULTRA SHIT. NOT TAKING ANYTHING THEY GIVE ME. HAVENT IN A WEEK. HAVENT HAD THE FUCKING INVEGA IN OVER A MONTH FUCK THAT. THE YELLING ANR CHATTING IN MY HEAD IN BAD. EVERYONE TELL S ME TO JUST TAKE MY MEDS BUT ITS NOT THAT EASY. I DONT WANTTO LOSEMY MIND,0.04457142857143026,1.9691397428571449,1.1942857142857155,95.40571428571432,108.71428571428572,4.285714285714287,19.285714285714285,6.1826913282559595,0.2568571428571431,282,10,57,4,14,88,54,70,0.138,0.862,0.0,-0.8364,0,0,0,0,1,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,1,5,4,0,5,0,6,5,2,0,0,7,12,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,5,0,0,1,1,8,0,8,11,1,7,0,0,0,3,5,5,4,1,2,37,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.18806683375202046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15859206662480868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16091307645120909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225866301346668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841521345716498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5344993590829504,0.0,0.1848745002436329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19778622922028066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223729031663066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4281367528693525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945921726640111,0.0,0.15382719495722547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19782422002073471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898027787950555,0.0,0.16844569740213208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15458828857382215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Holly_Hop,2019/10/24,Native American Symbols are freeing me. Basically monsters or supernatural creatures are after me. Some people are skin walkers. A lot of people actually. But I drew protection/other native American Symbols one protecting against the supernatural. It has really cleared up my paranoia. Or maybe I'm coming off a psychosis. Who truely knows. Told my Psychiatrist Bout this. Raised my meds. So time to be more stable hopefully.,5.032675324675324,8.613029800000001,6.446103896103896,60.1816233766234,86.71428571428572,8.83116883116883,34.935064935064936,8.841846274778883,4.973428571428572,346,20,42,11,11,116,57,70,0.027999999999999997,0.83,0.142,0.8055,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,5,1,1,0,1,9,10,4,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,6,3,6,8,3,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,5,2,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.3086866407225464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724851582540736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141811540505983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17384342428634486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268927393900127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177900232297937,0.0,0.3513647073661111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143493615715028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.438598532179642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20264528519863254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18445109629922524,0.0,0.0,0.3022611837968383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Schizoidnat,2019/10/24,"I think I cured part of my OCD! 😅 I used to have flashes/visions of reality but with people slaughtered. Like I would be talking to a person, but mentally thinking/seeing about them strangling to death or having their throats slit. I was never the instigator, it always scared the shit out of me, but I still thought about it. There’s a movie 13 Ghosts where a man gets vivisected by a plexiglass window. I saw it when I was a kid, and every time I came around an elevator in real life, I’d imagine the people in it getting vivisected by an accident or something. But I just realized I haven’t had any thoughts like that for a few years now, and I’m pleasantly relieved. 😁 Thanks medication/therapy/meditation/personal insight/other stuff!!!",5.295106382978722,6.662738120567379,6.311836879432629,74.92350000000002,68.50354609929077,9.61163120567376,33.95815602836879,9.888512548439397,3.5442930496453897,589,28,105,14,10,196,101,141,0.095,0.731,0.174,0.9046,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,2,0,9,7,1,1,11,0,8,3,2,1,1,22,18,9,3,1,7,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,3,6,6,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,7,1,15,5,16,9,2,12,0,0,1,0,6,5,1,2,8,73,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16136662291403048,0.0,0.0,0.1318801350738852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17264023579724252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22180608117801168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16339573333072166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20264250873647896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697962107393566,0.18949036330427352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954374349712634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14957200188077188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100090193287406,0.0,0.268895499978934,0.3386671776364382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207366126015353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941593586418112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19906799581239973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492980167840919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15487402260292554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220052790122348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15587487038911113,0.0,0.1785461575183289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124263535721583,0.0,0.3079200487659731,0.11308307283784573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16749463223560565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13776344120716014,0.0,0.0,0.1248855891443822 schizophrenia,someofthisistrue,2019/10/24,"Hiding Behind a Mask A post about my surprisingly mental health friendly hobby of dressing up as a Star Wars character: [http://www.someofthisistrue.com/hiding-behind-a-mask-a-hobby-for-my-schizophrenia/](http://www.someofthisistrue.com/hiding-behind-a-mask-a-hobby-for-my-schizophrenia/) Please give it a read - and check out all of the cool pics. Maybe a few insights along the way about insulting yourself somehow from crowds.",23.366875,28.2863269375,11.791666666666668,39.02000000000001,29.625,9.733333333333334,34.75,9.725611199111238,3.4602000000000004,375,9,35,4,3,86,41,48,0.16399999999999998,0.655,0.182,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,7,1,0,1,0,0,1,6,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,3,10,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,23,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26618102311095937,0.0,0.0,0.33050208632091355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3662165270780848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461240919933833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3472025965885836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3781876376517981,0.0,0.0,0.32996202357712123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34462064502273804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734698224306469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,roachpops,2019/10/24,"I'm so tired (ventish) This is my first post ever and I'm on mobile so please excuse my errors. Ever since my diagnosis I've felt so relieved that everything I've felt is valid but also so tired. College is hard and I feel like I drowning daily. I fall off my meds so often and everything goes wrong whenever I do, the voices like to tell me that my whole life is fraud and all my friends are fake. They tell me my fiancee (who I'm not sure how he puts up with me) hates me and just uses me. I want to believe they're fake but I also can't stop hearing them all the time. I've also come to realize I've got a drug problem but it's the only thing that helps me feel free. I just want someone else to talk to who can understand how it feels to be cursed with this god awful disability. Thank you for reading if you did and again I'm sorry for the awful format if it's that bad. 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Since I was young I have been familiar with a weird experience I would sometimes get. It would usually be when I was in bed. It would be maybe sounds and visions but of nothing in specific. That went away and I never really thought of it I ended up in the hospital after jumping off a building in a state of drug induced psychosis. Because of the reason of my injury, the psychiatrist put me on a low dose of a antipsychotic. I was discharged on October 2nd and soon after decided to take myself off of the meds, maybe a week later. It has now been 2 weeks since I stopped taking the antipsychotic and maybe a week ago I noticed the inaudible whisper thing happening again, but it day by day got more intense and would happen more frequently. Today I had a meeting with the psychiatrist and told him I had gone off the meds, I told him that I was feeling more depressed and I told him about the whispers. He told me to go back on the meds. I don’t really know what I’m asking, but I guess I just want to know what is wrong. I’m 16 years old and have just got out of a wheelchair after being in it for 3 months. I have a lot of childhood issues and now I realize that the only thing that made/makes me happy is being active. I was a parkour athlete and a track and field runner and could do amazing things with my body. I now can’t run or jump and the last thing I need is to have a mental illness. Reading this you can probably tell that my thoughts are very scattered. If you read this, thank you.",4.304758832565284,5.1073480258064565,5.3168202764976975,83.23618279569897,70.35483870967742,8.227342549923197,28.95545314900153,8.418075326091056,1.973287250384025,1208,44,245,18,21,398,164,310,0.076,0.8440000000000001,0.081,0.1312,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,5,0,0,10,7,0,0,25,0,33,4,1,2,1,45,61,19,0,8,7,0,1,0,0,4,3,5,1,0,19,17,0,1,10,3,0,8,3,4,0,0,21,6,37,3,36,31,4,53,0,2,0,0,17,15,0,4,29,182,56,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08272460744095596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08724377320270912,0.0,0.08767939322075298,0.07175910494467379,0.0,0.056888421122252786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10366006139797658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07451028017155317,0.0,0.0,0.1203703542677627,0.0,0.08037837893424689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10822426529652457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265587749419898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128713777281423,0.0,0.0,0.04718656987388251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04875706135181409,0.0,0.05303722603623656,0.0,0.14927677164070707,0.0,0.1028050586048636,0.0,0.16504924175639882,0.09934334677188073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518103901640101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09740425795513626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386252225138886,0.07607014775039933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07933930067210193,0.0,0.08830383723251099,0.0,0.0,0.2812644465627005,0.0,0.3109801841939297,0.0,0.09404695062995633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07448898683458931,0.0,0.0,0.06919731905819992,0.07197592763419676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895452845887246,0.10624808179239284,0.09792607812062508,0.0,0.0,0.07097583091822991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10061724680599893,0.0,0.0,0.09381470910738088,0.0,0.0,0.1866951520925512,0.0,0.11956933787213235,0.0959508895190165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15439437775410966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09229816240754664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07802163963870758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14033354362533226,0.0,0.08156782251421575,0.08591865557263219,0.0,0.0,0.24799681522014375,0.0,0.0,0.14817499845167975,0.0,0.0,0.08845864907956917,0.35669391050089666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027813528749836,0.07700068890722431,0.055043923237034886,0.0,0.2245726120578184,0.0,0.0,0.08651072717285102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651739991517537,0.10203330879618636,0.0,0.060096515482725675 schizophrenia,mysteryfan1579,2019/04/08,"In need of advice I hope this is okay, but I need some advice. My brother in law is going through something, and after hours of research I think he may be schizophrenic. A few things that have happened are: -Put on administrative leave at his job after saying he feared he would be shot there (this happened in October, so it’s been about 6 months now) -Thinks he is going to be the president -Accuses my sister of being a coke snorting, gay prostitute and invents scenarios in his head with her past coworkers or friends -Thinks there are cameras in their house -Tells everyone who tries to reason with him that they are sell outs -Told my parents to watch out for my sister because she may be suicidal now that she is being “exposed” and tried to convince my mom to meet him alone in a parking lot with their daughter without telling my sister I’m probably forgetting stuff. My sister left in the middle of the night with my niece about 7 weeks ago, and is on leave from her job and pregnant, but her husband refuses to seek help because “it’s all going to come out that he was right” I know I could be reading too much into all of this, but I do know there is something wrong with him, and he needs help. My sister called the police twice on him after she left, but they said he seemed okay, although now I understand that they would probably not do much since she was in another state when she called. I don’t know what I’m expecting with this post, tbh. I know that no one is a doctor here, but if you have anything to say I greatly appreciate it. I am afraid he won’t be able to come back because he is letting it go on too long. Thank you.",5.535,5.89784430769231,5.633653846153845,83.61509615384615,67.46153846153845,8.715384615384616,31.01923076923077,8.548686976883017,2.2032,1300,48,261,18,20,410,171,325,0.08,0.841,0.079,-0.1054,3,1,3,0,0,0,30.0,0,2,5,0,14,10,0,2,8,2,35,5,1,1,2,54,61,16,1,9,9,10,0,0,1,5,2,3,0,0,18,18,1,1,10,1,1,7,5,3,0,2,5,5,41,7,46,41,7,45,0,0,1,1,54,21,0,8,15,185,59,5,0.09594595315723084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18751454997702752,0.08505029842633617,0.0,0.0,0.0993710716853968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060769756712233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789553443233769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07377651558766651,0.0,0.17546328751952214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19594309114838254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16529788601932802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07660503640278482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982047486345688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168046991522699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10796587186466787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741276054050492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181131850184499,0.0,0.0,0.10578075207481684,0.0,0.0,0.16968937902112588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846822834747486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12862109989479936,0.0,0.0,0.09529598038373223,0.09448743701938853,0.11070874799318713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19042310761022144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21091754660706785,0.0,0.0,0.2031858217830385,0.2084911176788028,0.09811123764047824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08490914930107994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08156981831452383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237074073112477,0.07658314443231448,0.0,0.1410626305068535,0.2134281256179858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09003877748094577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06501546096012423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653662654307236,0.0,0.09159126879946992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09188970121352476,0.0,0.20689193052489,0.0,0.0,0.09645218337309837,0.0,0.0,0.09597191749477224,0.0,0.0,0.09864841962156624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08193731975649364,0.0912665728547212,0.15260014587841667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08734559227635466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07936748392978388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14772776447119454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983516149685316,0.1049493000956659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677219840969802,0.08833414292183332,0.0,0.0,0.06374222796496366,0.18443487796609384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168046991522699,0.0,0.13028200827197206,0.0,0.0,0.09988312095245196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07696205625205184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248847500424774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13631450459803504,0.10490183792937294,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Nipple_Stimulation,2019/04/08,"I had the worst day at work yesterday and need to vent. So I am a waiter at a restaurant and worked last night. When I woke up that day I knew it was going to be a bad day. I recently added a new anti psychotic to my meds and have been feeling strange since I started it. I figure it takes a few weeks for my body to adjust to the new medication. Anyways about an hour before work I started having visual hallucinations and felt depersonalized. It was awful but it was too late to call in sick to work so I go anyways. I proceeded to have the absolute worst day. I was hallucinating constantly at work and hearing people scream my name. It was very busy at work and I was super stressed out but had to keep calm. I fucked up one of the tables and forgot to put someones drink order in. The table then berated me for forgetting and told me I need to write stuff down. Well I do write stuff down but I was having trouble concentrating. So i get this guy his drink and say sorry and the lady says ""If you're sorry then you need to comp this drink"". I'm like ok sorry and comp the drink but they were nasty to me for the rest of the time they were there they tipped me 5%. It was just awful, I was already on the edge of a panic attack the whole time and seriously considered just leaving mid shift because I could barely deal with my tables. I didn't though and finished my shift with 1.1k in sales. It just sucks when you have to work while you are hallucinating. Like its fucking scary and the job is really stressful already. I don't know it just sucks and I wish people would be more understanding when their waiter messes up. Like I'm human too and I make mistakes. I'm feeling much better today and have the day off, but I know that I'm going to have to work and eventually I'll have another day like this. It stresses me out so much.",2.832643777566376,4.5187107855227895,4.192661074115716,86.43405431116493,75.19302949061662,6.957675343768918,22.75611865432846,7.717688229018142,0.9176514572342822,1445,40,302,20,31,477,180,373,0.2,0.7120000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.9933,1,0,4,0,0,0,29.0,0,3,4,10,19,26,5,4,20,3,32,9,1,1,0,55,64,35,0,8,10,0,3,4,0,1,2,4,0,2,18,22,4,2,9,4,1,4,2,17,1,1,20,7,42,9,41,40,8,51,0,0,0,2,19,17,4,1,33,207,60,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17094906343807234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08121928366442327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08811728877141267,0.0,0.0,0.06467245630205573,0.047216408771746016,0.0,0.06590928143005102,0.0,0.0,0.06850346519689282,0.0,0.08603606385476938,0.0,0.0,0.079091152500766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370233077867867,0.0,0.061842247980779586,0.0,0.0,0.2997159565507819,0.07985365051329699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303509247962613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07832807899216887,0.0,0.07436982811406384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14321349640489564,0.04046752034740226,0.0,0.13205994973554655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07669353655005089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0872984490563181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07627847705074513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07686304709904092,0.06884637891773446,0.0,0.0,0.08513549391315052,0.06313691117901317,0.08737364939210775,0.08201463354717732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15136419659360312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05170242680633053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08603606385476938,0.07802868873933745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11387802403431513,0.1722977455573748,0.0,0.14961481677519609,0.0,0.07268713215650217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052486134699291545,0.0,0.0,0.0908778311148076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10739636204240854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778645911880271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04962024452572858,0.0,0.0764783748010385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231921098985747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06407233588388195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06562814807695228,0.0,0.0,0.26011667680880746,0.10964739503060096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661764775624505,0.0,0.17733699018385793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05823721092524273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610004629680411,0.0,0.09033033749030968,0.0,0.07341915370373306,0.07401244907294056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08063434240220768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06390924429659364,0.0,0.0,0.06213046545431933,0.0,0.06964217248000222,0.0,0.0,0.08647676648099535,0.08907048328250743,0.0,0.0,0.4511106471489684,0.0,0.0,0.05502246192015611,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ComebackKid50,2019/04/08,"Any other high achievers derailed by psychosis Always did pretty well as an adolescent. Went to a great school, landed a job in finance. Then had to quit to deal with this. Better finally but have a two-year gap on my resume, literally living in my (25M) parents’ basement while old classmates make six-figures. Hard to overcome :(",5.058499999999999,7.3109411833333375,5.413333333333334,77.62500000000001,70.5,6.8000000000000025,32.0,7.554174236665415,2.4584,261,12,41,3,5,83,53,60,0.113,0.755,0.132,0.0612,2,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,5,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,2,3,10,2,0,10,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,4,25,4,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19555080322119225,0.0,0.0,0.15981784756291909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20785113410395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422895217610405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574467822708377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591042001221602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105267363567085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483056114657396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23321552368632034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20752201641704715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15687393355554954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466080738388827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26095567352964344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390941288790956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499667375385231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378471145239019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295749149532108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21130616516736336,0.2178606986406462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15134156510759045 schizophrenia,jakeqcomputer,2019/04/08,I hate how we can’t be proud of ourselves At my school alit of kids have problems with anxiety and depression and they get to talk about. They talked about it in group work class. We went around the room and talked about things that defined us. A lot brought up the troubles they had in the past. I don’t let my troubles define who I am. I just don’t like to talk about it. Like their stuff doesn’t hold a candle to mine. I had to get electro-convulsive therapy for fuck sakes. Nobody said anything like that in class. Only 3 more weeks left of being around them and being paranoid thinking they are talking about me. I can’t wait to get out if it.,2.3034090909090916,4.271593734848487,2.645454545454548,95.68818181818185,77.56060606060606,5.612121212121212,22.363636363636363,6.42735559955562,0.2498818181818185,511,15,112,4,12,156,84,132,0.168,0.7559999999999999,0.076,-0.9136,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,3,0,6,2,9,10,2,0,5,0,14,1,0,1,0,18,24,6,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,8,10,0,2,1,0,0,2,5,6,0,0,5,1,19,4,23,15,2,14,0,1,0,1,18,10,1,2,5,78,27,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805230617529715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12698998282452914,0.2747502145112541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329132576792536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14266385003617368,0.2418732479453765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15235637767504964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16766618954037685,0.15779988662741806,0.0,0.2261749023565232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13119504342018826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11736525454875073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731331680454454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476608076640074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14679108322048268,0.0,0.0,0.1561773383495501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17665637952116547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6201719703195381,0.0,0.0,0.17647527255688236,0.0,0.1025215519460577,0.09888028980546938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18562470197248926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12378402355589276,0.0,0.0,0.14305367594127494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234482665766006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hurshitsahu_,2019/04/08,"I have zero motivation to read, antipsychotics or depression? I am unable to read a book be it a novel or a textbook I have zero motivation to read it, so when I open the book I close it immediately. Is this because of the antipsychotics I'm taking (aripriprazole, mirtazpine, quitipin, lorazepam) or is it the depression that im suspecting I still have, maybe anhedonia? Help!",3.5994117647058843,6.6588586470588265,5.2514705882353,72.55161764705886,80.17647058823529,8.694117647058821,30.558823529411764,9.188382445141503,3.611935294117648,300,15,49,9,8,101,40,68,0.131,0.7190000000000001,0.15,-0.2387,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,6,0,7,0,0,2,0,8,9,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,6,0,4,8,0,4,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,3,2,37,12,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15158401497342278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4283499930407574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16667506070335766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686011174283157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498176444238049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7461975610848707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985843723102603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869653047011252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,truffDPW,2019/04/08,"Grieving the near miss of living with my cat I know it might sound dumb, but pain is what it is. Ten years ago my partner and I found a kitten outdoors during a rainstorm. The cat grew up to be my familiar, one of the lights in my life. Eventually my partnership collapsed- but years later. And then when it collapsed, we stayed friends and kept living together and even moved to a new household... so it took longer for my kitty to realize... Early in 2015 the wheels came off of my life and I rode the inertia... I gave up on living someplace and moved into my traveling bags and started traveling the country on greyhound. My partner had a job and their life was more stable than mine, so the kitty stayed with them... Well, since maybe late 2016 or early 2017, my former partner's life has changed and they are looking at moving across the country soon to seek better opportunities than they can currently find... My life had become stable again. I was living someplace where my name is on the lease, where I can afford rent by myself if things go off the rails again... we thought ""maybe kitty can come live with me again""... I've been looking forward to this for years, ever since I gave up and moved into a backpack... I've missed my familiar terribly, looked at photos of my cat on my phone and wept hard when I was alone. So, we tried. Kitty came to live with me! My current partner and I arranged our lives so we could fold my familiar in. But we neglected to account for the fact that our current apartment is underneath someone who constantly undergoes psychotic episodes. So, my familiar moved in and things were wonderful. Until there were constant noises from upstairs, of someone stomping back and forth and screaming... It lasted maybe a couple weeks... My kitty was fine to start, and then she began crying constantly. She'd follow me around when I was home, but I can't be home all the time. I had to give my kitty back to my former partner. Kitty cat had begun peeing on the beds, lost her ability to urinate in the litter box... I'm heartbroken. Like I wanna sob my his guts out... I am not sure how or when, but I pray there's a way for us to come together. I'm so fucked up about missing my cat. So, that's where I'm at. Attachment leads to suffering. I'll write more when I have the spoons. I'm so sad about not getting to live with my kitty. 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If you could please PM me so I can ask you a series of questions that would be great. I’d really appreciate it ,1.6241304347826109,3.2284503260869606,4.286304347826088,84.81467391304348,78.34782608695652,8.078260869565218,24.54347826086957,8.841846274778883,1.7208434782608697,169,6,38,4,4,60,36,46,0.0,0.802,0.198,0.8553,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,12,12,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,6,1,4,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,6,0,27,8,1,0.3151598949736484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946319583417963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516295313424033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023300889395186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3474648968206154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135605012363345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34595092394083776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530512101008158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20189949885044814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20194173510030652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417774622778831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22388054701014734,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mappltini,2019/04/08,"Friend having a hard time Idk if this is the right plave but i need help. I have a friend over and shes having a schizophrenic episode and idk what to do. I've never helped her through one but shes in my livingroom talking to her voices. Idk if I should call her mom since they don't have the best relationship. Nothing i seem to say to her is helping? Help and thanks?",0.2201298701298704,2.5779471818181854,1.3584545454545456,99.03768181818184,90.16883116883116,4.638441558441558,18.089610389610392,6.2581,-0.3314561038961039,291,8,67,3,10,91,50,77,0.11900000000000001,0.642,0.239,0.924,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,5,0,11,1,0,0,1,11,14,7,0,4,4,1,1,0,2,1,1,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,12,4,7,13,1,5,0,0,0,0,18,3,0,3,2,45,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22233185078174067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21633065686536213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32736185746884977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18978311249356455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5680156797346103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481254737009612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570899874988627,0.16339791376549234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032834194745864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14356043168939345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274561555948692,0.0,0.18092553404994907,0.0,0.16847794735783145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19286752332725848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17525108776893916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702833973590181,0.0,0.19505033885015055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12353607594704907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Scooby12m,2019/04/08,"Getting worse again Hello. So I was doing relatively OK in January but since then I feel like I'm slowly getting worse. It finally got really bad this weekend. Hallucinations are back. I started having some delusions (which I know don't make sense but they still feel real) and I have a feeling like I'm not really a person but rather a voice in my head and someone else is the real person. I have a test for an exam tomorrow and I don't know if im gonna do OK. Part from that it's the second time I've gotten worse while at university and last time I had to drop my classes to only take 1. This can't keep happening. I haven't called my Dr because it just feels like it won't do anything. He's not a bad doctor but what can he do. It's not like he can give me something to get better at once. Medicine too like why am I taking medicine if its just gonna keep getting worse. It just feels so hopeless. If I'm just gonna be feeling like this the rest of my life what's the point of going through with it. It doesn't seem like I'll get better permanently. It doesn't seem like I'll ever graduate. I just don't know what to do. 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It's gotten rid of all of my most troublesome schizophrenic symptoms and I actually feel like a normal, functioning human being. I still have my minor auditory and visual hallucinations, but I consider those to be hard-stuck so I'm okay with them. So I'm on 120mg once a day and I take it with 1000 calories of food which is a hassle because it's taken away my appetite, but I don't consider that to be a bad thing. The only bad part about taking this drug is the fact that near the 24hr mark of taking my regular dose, my paranoia and anxiety return and are almost worse than they have ever been, so I take a valium to offset those symptoms. It goes like this: eat, take dose, sleep, wake up, feel amazing until it's almost time to take the next dose, pop valium, and repeat. I am productive and happy during the time after I wake up and throughout the day. I am making an appointment tomorrow to see if there is anything I can do about this but in the mean time, I'd like to know if anyone else has had/is having a similar experience?",7.182665847665845,5.855276373873874,7.961089271089271,73.93153562653565,64.54054054054055,11.135790335790338,31.443079443079444,10.230975488527342,2.9229585585585585,873,25,171,17,11,295,127,222,0.08900000000000001,0.809,0.10300000000000001,0.4872,0,0,2,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,2,1,8,9,0,0,16,1,18,14,3,1,3,28,34,17,0,3,5,0,2,3,0,0,9,0,0,1,15,10,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,3,18,7,25,28,5,19,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,6,16,116,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.11362153764293775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331810978302641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890707109687995,0.0,0.0,0.08141246397683913,0.11929907949427153,0.09581420662210943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10939237176965366,0.0,0.19443291311374625,0.07097630451348888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10297527771644747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231703777546888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017894239928836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27004997705693234,0.11913973849445356,0.09726459599391096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053200597900642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138935403885489,0.0,0.0,0.11774376177951765,0.08317955736698084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407909053874714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394479391012685,0.10430084606720166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06398837711374085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08223987240726849,0.17064943505872698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07771974371944143,0.0,0.0,0.12682936387704435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382751703440713,0.0,0.11407934313165816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12399704525892305,0.0,0.08855232908511235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25217057571869056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927818020565604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11651680482555075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298331940333104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24203635164447046,0.5252574845276771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07735272454483318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036785634686472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11865488728580348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MeepMeep27,2019/04/08,"Do you have a mission in life? 💛😃💛 Mine is to find peace with it all and I have faith there is a path to peace mentally, I just have to choose it now.",-2.9149999999999987,-1.2906202777777749,0.0013333333333349624,107.87700000000002,99.0,3.991111111111112,12.755555555555556,5.6839178017228535,-1.5014377777777783,114,2,34,1,5,39,26,36,0.0,0.7340000000000001,0.266,0.8689,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,1,6,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,5,6,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5962345324266616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4607729000085573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6574136574179642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dichoto-mouse,2019/04/08,"Chances of Recovery I know someone with what seems very much like paranoid schizophrenia. Their symptoms started 5 years ago, they are in very deep at this point. Can anyone tell me what this does to their chances of recovery? Everything I'm finding mentions that treating it early gives the best chance but nothing mentions the likelihood of recovery later on. I'm not having much luck finding answers on my own. I may not be using the right search terms. I hope this isn’t a discouraging post, this just seems like a good place to ask.",5.357803030303033,7.525228757575762,4.612007575757578,84.03801136363639,69.50505050505049,7.374242424242425,32.57702020202019,8.07648339933343,2.4767262626262627,433,20,76,6,8,129,72,99,0.081,0.732,0.187,0.8575,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,3,1,1,8,0,0,5,0,6,1,0,1,0,16,16,1,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,1,0,1,6,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,8,7,10,14,5,15,0,1,0,0,8,8,0,5,8,45,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645849336187019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298245296563978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17357605028783726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948488327751631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16248075358794056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668679008141123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33939737541552106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781112375474708,0.0,0.15573088539653412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184411846822268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203917872613376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18141761560352654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729770983479675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17815502757655274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939852565309826,0.0,0.17551782398314575,0.0,0.17782019174887714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15856085848654672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380533348543435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15731728385626725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13141792716673567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19298184809228436,0.0,0.0,0.16228344949845944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16035895586827376,0.0,0.30639379658429183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119565161049562 schizophrenia,smooth_penetrator,2019/04/08,When did your symptoms start and at what age were you diagnosed? I started hearing voices about two years ago when I was sixteen and was just recently diagnosed last week,7.439032258064515,8.65483241935484,6.442096774193548,76.48314516129034,63.516129032258064,10.070967741935485,38.08064516129032,10.125756701596842,4.091761290322582,139,7,23,3,2,42,26,31,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,3,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,4,0,2,3,0,11,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,10,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466829135160464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5649069528523747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3136474859639529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22683946481170245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747729226149248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3939431933281916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28924472912814875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718440656607695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22322348795619448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17920645367851434 schizophrenia,Sensible56,2019/04/08,"Does anyone else deal with this I keep having these thoughts which are really images of a particular person. I have the thought of the person's face, name, as well as weird scenarios that involve violence, sex, and romance. What I noticed about these thoughts is that they make me question my moral character and I start to think that I may have a severe mental illness like schizophrenia. Does anyone with schizophrenia deal with this? 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I’m terrified. I want to make it clear that I am not diagnosed with the illness, nor am I self diagnosing. The reason I’m here is because I have literally nobody else to talk to who experiences anything close to what I have to live with. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t really care either. I just want it to go away. The other day I had the most terrifying thing happen to me. I don’t remember exactly how it played out because I don’t like to think about it too much, but it sent me into a full on panic. Basically what I saw was the floor began to move, which is a normal sight for me. Happens all the time. But then it started spinning and forming a sort of vortex. It almost felt as though I was being pulled in. Then in my peripheral vision, I saw black holes appear on the ceiling. They turned into eyes, and were watching me. I just closed my eyes and wished it would go away. It didn’t though, and I had a terrible panic attack. I knew it wasn’t real but it looked so real that I couldn’t help it. My heart was beating a million miles an hour and I didn’t know what to do. I just laid in my bed until I felt a bit better. I’m afraid to tell these things to people I know. I tried once, but some of my friends tend to get scared and uncomfortable when I talk about it. And those who don’t get uncomfortable, I’m not even sure if they believe me. They probably laugh at me for “coming up with stories for attention.” I just don’t know what to do anymore guys... I was diagnosed with anxiety, depression, and Aspergers but of all the people I asked who had those, they said that they didn’t have any of those symptoms. They didn’t experience anything close to that. So I need advice from people who experience this. What am I supposed to do when this hallucination shit happens?",2.7575206890727912,4.301647523560213,4.321042053707149,86.03072200641786,75.07329842931937,7.442121263300117,24.102685357203175,8.155646560271837,1.2666967404154708,1462,45,311,24,31,489,176,382,0.162,0.748,0.091,-0.9868,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,6,2,16,16,2,4,15,0,35,10,4,3,5,69,74,27,0,8,15,0,2,1,1,1,6,1,1,2,38,21,0,0,12,1,0,7,17,9,0,1,21,11,48,7,47,50,9,35,0,1,8,0,20,18,1,6,11,227,86,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0884637602806251,0.0,0.0,0.09065158260268004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061562733363411073,0.0,0.0692543348324489,0.0,0.17956061881936528,0.0,0.0,0.14899508659894656,0.0,0.08463226937129359,0.10298965444102316,0.17010969959148706,0.0,0.0,0.11037111311862843,0.0,0.0,0.10199503137704104,0.0,0.08006542537801624,0.09883407508801256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09230021249403683,0.0,0.0,0.07798260223273007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05838362941408747,0.0,0.077972379779877,0.36753957418380745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07562525127552562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059793462307906324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656638067282709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17384381669243076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06994237743718998,0.0,0.09459519226642717,0.0,0.10289928176709293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08963781043740224,0.2401631321366592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10727714229218868,0.06067959072785459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08915269752707591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487614865661236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044227831221515364,0.0,0.07993864739474996,0.0,0.07602144730611915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060428721137341324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09621785787737963,0.06654913302056549,0.06712600717873435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08869906774936534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09641028792959593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124322378357182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18828395146717844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09760542927571138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060833379874479,0.05799510979327571,0.09307875198520726,0.0,0.0,0.10255155782403022,0.0,0.08611368263042397,0.0,0.09063518792561236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09444135102849036,0.0,0.09292658018981782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06407679742538516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532238500108949,0.09409415483548833,0.0,0.14552734691157165,0.07912621925479274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12028671215404507,0.05800724204700462,0.17788830274579207,0.0,0.0527881098781953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06146315765929691,0.09846941037577098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10679254157945764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10410372836092543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643091091278521,0.09897910369854424,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,colander_head,2019/10/07,"The mental illness acceptability seesaw I feel as if there is this toxic seesaw in the societies’ views on mental illness, you either have depression, anxiety or the likes and are seen as cool, and brave, but it’s a completely polar opposite reaction with illnesses like schizophrenia, and you are seen as dangerous and to be avoided at all costs. I sort of feel as if as society is becoming more open to the idea of anxiety and depression being illnesses, and fairly common ones at that, schizophrenia is being more and more misunderstood, because the fear that was once over all mental health problems has now been shifted further onto us. I’m not really sure if I’m just rambling, finding it difficult to put words together but hopefully it made some sense!",11.202230392156864,9.482906919117653,10.689705882352943,58.79450980392161,57.014705882352935,14.654901960784313,43.990196078431374,13.295006501635747,6.147734313725492,615,29,93,19,6,201,90,136,0.282,0.635,0.08199999999999999,-0.9885,0,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,2,0,0,3,14,1,2,6,1,12,5,0,1,3,33,20,18,0,5,9,0,2,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,6,9,0,1,5,0,1,1,1,7,0,1,5,6,5,7,17,12,7,11,0,2,3,0,3,8,0,7,4,71,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714474172994919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081519072885677,0.1959434107896907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18601860839602968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056184304296538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19964372825747576,0.17941498215598814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16215614994048122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885862375832242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17621535845704253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20028247701465807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17335421077805258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678764892608275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5363845691961833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18894357820997484,0.12022251843367256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16976434504055096,0.0,0.1783533366109988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136580317136264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16721365602898586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21341110381443704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bluDesu,2019/10/07,"Anyone else or am I actually faking it? All the ""delusions"" and ""episodes"" I've had, they don't feel real after it's over, it feels like I was making it up and convincing myself what's real and what's not. So I don't tell my therapist nor psychiatrist because it feels like I'm lying and just seeking attention, and that they'll know that I'm lying and hate me for it. I don't even have schizophrenia I was diagnosed with depression with psychotic symptoms. I fuckin hate myself",4.34445112781955,5.724164136842109,5.601804511278196,79.07263157894737,70.78947368421052,8.796992481203008,28.308270676691734,9.23628265651192,2.4566691729323304,383,14,72,8,7,128,59,95,0.21,0.711,0.078,-0.9325,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,0,3,8,3,0,1,0,9,3,0,1,1,20,18,9,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,10,8,0,0,5,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,3,3,12,3,6,14,1,3,0,1,0,1,3,2,1,1,3,50,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.19883550250955226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424702439448265,0.2087710913991921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242071658857518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17549389575181218,0.2068070510947931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17021116966057834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345782656695537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3090739730309912,0.291125246686252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023317873278243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11197842752458308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19908881641497606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13600805461665286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4638356291683741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21177947686310966,0.0,0.0,0.1780908638717649,0.0,0.0,0.23657527669318015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fisherguy23,2019/10/07,"Finally seeing a psychiatrist, what should I expect Im seeing a psychiatrist next week for the first time, I’m going for a few different reasons but mainly because I think i have schizophrenia as ive hallucinated and been delusional since a child. Will the psychiatrist prescribe me meds my first time seeing them? What should I expect starting on meds will I really feel like a zombie for the first while? I also think there just going to think I’m lying to them about everything for some reason i know they probably are going to believe me but i feel like there not going to take me seriously.",6.839821428571426,7.654349767857141,7.507142857142856,69.73785714285714,64.71428571428572,10.32857142857143,30.285714285714285,10.290406445055957,3.1885928571428566,482,16,81,11,7,160,64,112,0.063,0.8640000000000001,0.073,0.2605,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,3,3,5,3,0,0,8,0,8,0,0,2,0,18,25,6,0,4,4,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,8,0,0,4,1,1,0,3,1,5,16,2,11,20,3,15,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,1,12,59,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11593635412468607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837533740303176,0.0,0.0,0.16333703732226754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15146788669378247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13029406845310662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14660730430660132,0.2071401574857908,0.0,0.15881288782904854,0.0,0.3699466605415521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32957024669751656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15659774141568086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07967439916831065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14165480065801964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32206880488309786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15418242289038367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15630743408988715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928746163898488,0.2981166314017157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3465786131504569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199247136585872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10261396179066644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900306268124364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27868213572586303,0.0,0.0,0.16907202943000624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162900989373537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizaway,2019/10/07,"Going back to class today after having a break down last month Just needed to tell somebody, anybody, that Im finally feeling up to going back to class after a month of being plagued by confusion and lethargy and paranoia. Feels good to go and at least let people know Im alive.",11.520555555555553,7.384977722222222,10.673333333333336,66.63000000000001,58.814814814814824,12.281481481481485,41.81481481481481,8.841846274778883,3.976437037037036,223,8,38,2,2,72,40,54,0.115,0.764,0.122,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,9,10,3,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,12,8,1,16,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,9,25,1,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3428641215264322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22545685094773704,0.0,0.0,0.24422694182394344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3801168212828188,0.18699690722936246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4816408542820154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12252554006500133,0.1817311155353426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22797785336921714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3559074636469679,0.0,0.0,0.16531197002224413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15456299899647302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948650267636617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21132716908513066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lucksonson,2019/10/07,"I’m going in Tomorrow I will be submitted in a mental health clinic for stationary treatment. It’s on a voluntary basis and a facility especially for people between 26-25 (I’m 23), so all good. However, my social life and my social skills (in reversed order) basically died after my psychosis. Now I’m scared shitless to share a room with three strangers my age and being under social exposure the whole fckn day. Any Tips? Advice? Please? And I hope you all have a great and healthy day!",3.4938285024154574,6.038509228260871,5.198840579710146,75.9964009661836,76.28260869565217,8.001932367149758,27.613526570048307,8.841846274778883,2.6724164251207725,387,16,65,9,9,131,68,92,0.067,0.7440000000000001,0.188,0.8936,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,2,5,0,1,6,0,4,3,0,0,2,9,9,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,4,11,6,3,14,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,1,6,40,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20236576415122506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14082817122858984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267111588809353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21492652601445347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11769391058753463,0.1736971061053609,0.0,0.2283172450216167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201267825364728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056869068907633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627365615465973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20869781897925568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14356999821244953,0.0,0.0,0.22732242188952134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073330254713747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6333059411576223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312083756466967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Velmaartvibes,2019/10/07,"Feel hands on me Last night I swear I felt hands on my back. Scorching hot hands pressing down on my back to the point that I’m worried there will be burn marks tomorrow. Does anyone else ever “feel” hallucinations like this? My back physically hurts. How do you deal with “episodes” if you could call it that, in the moment?",3.1084408602150546,5.519168983870969,3.0948387096774184,91.2789247311828,76.90322580645163,6.068817204301076,21.623655913978496,7.1686216300943375,0.458055913978495,255,7,53,3,6,77,48,62,0.107,0.855,0.039,-0.5204,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,0,4,3,3,1,1,8,8,2,0,2,1,0,8,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,8,8,1,7,4,0,14,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,1,9,32,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16176209172435965,0.2370407146167949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.533671027180474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23622953250351064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18471048742555934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23850696232138194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20245192980786025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932594068541626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20926517071172504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339503837934199,0.0,0.2221278761563323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476600492721981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885773887463519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130236830179268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171019982062482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21869619260370998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23494249653853286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mywayorthehighway69,2019/10/07,"I need to move on from family. Ok. So a little back story my sister got married 5 years ago and shortly after that my dad and mom got divorced. Most of my moms life is focused on my sisters family. Because she no longer has my dad she says she can now be happy and do what she wants. So this is fine she spends time with them. I have tried to spend time with them but they just don't like me. The last year or so seems like a big waste of time on my part to try to connect with them. They seem embarrassed anytime we go out and public and what not. I recently had my aunts come for my birthday and they were ridiculous. The were making fun of me acting kinda hostile. They just left and I'm so relieved but also saddened to think about what a great time we could of had if they would of been nice. So basically a few of my family members have this ideal situation and I'm not included. I don't know what to do and how I can start living a little more independently. If I don't socialize with them they will blame mental health. They won't listen that they are why I don't want to be around them. I feel like I need to move on from family.",1.5411487257512348,3.371360142259416,3.1622993533663006,91.73978984404718,79.3765690376569,6.186458729554964,19.650247242297453,7.1686216300943375,0.2488895397489537,890,21,199,11,22,294,130,239,0.122,0.758,0.12,0.3276,0,0,0,0,1,0,17.0,2,0,13,1,13,14,2,1,7,1,25,2,0,3,0,44,43,21,0,9,9,7,1,3,0,3,2,2,0,0,8,18,0,0,5,0,2,5,8,3,0,0,7,3,40,11,29,30,4,29,0,0,0,0,32,11,0,7,16,141,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10585489317079523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095496764545318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10630537119197098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918233718228515,0.0,0.0727947575314803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10286612974726524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534379178910296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4502983183243986,0.0,0.06038021173640733,0.08531066461701284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06786674569774498,0.0,0.19101543305825366,0.13165633063715138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12712032954973398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12693340120221888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06562779548408923,0.09733980749745433,0.0,0.0,0.1297456058197402,0.0,0.08434690439778025,0.17502156998922475,0.23937198753528596,0.10544633083913643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07971096745943311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034302996334698,0.0,0.0,0.27971666121592365,0.0,0.2538401738090334,0.0,0.1770905911361201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12931566416315196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11790868672279585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09496422963053107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21742330151519632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13422835188432153,0.0,0.12172936006305042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08452311116879417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07651681677511135,0.0,0.0,0.2785292311040249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621509662267784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14086905442534786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077541770177828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08482955138806839,0.0,0.0,0.15379970780523666 schizophrenia,sussauer,2019/10/07,"Should I be worried? I’m a 21yo woman. It all started when I begun smoking weed. I smoked for about three months almost every day... Before I decided to quit I was drunk for three days and smoking. I had a panick attack at night and a few days after that I heard footsteps im my apartment. I was really stressed and after two months now I still am stressed and anxious as hell. I heard the footsteps maybe once or twice after that. I’ve had sleep paralysis since I was a kid and they got worse before I quit smoking. Maybe for a few weeks after I decided to quit smoking I had that sleep paralyse almost every night but I wasn’t even sleeping so I guess I was hallucinating. And then it got into my reality because I was so scared. I heard the footsteps when I was high and heard it sober and awake too. I haven’t heard anything apart from those footsteps a few times... But the reason why I’m anxious is because I’m scared it might be a signal that I’m going to get sick... I’ve also had these CEV hallucinations, nothing disturbing but still. I don’t know what is wrong with me. I’ve seen a doctor and he said ”that’s not normal, it’s probably the first symptom of schizophrenia”.",1.4018191721132922,3.843249449579833,2.870466853408029,90.18292094615627,83.91596638655463,5.038530967942733,21.840024898848423,6.42735559955562,0.4506437597261122,931,31,187,9,27,303,122,238,0.14800000000000002,0.836,0.016,-0.9769,0,0,1,1,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,4,11,8,2,5,12,0,20,7,3,1,1,27,38,20,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,3,6,0,2,13,11,1,0,4,1,0,1,4,8,0,5,20,7,26,0,17,14,4,28,1,0,1,0,10,5,1,5,22,122,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21237912479855756,0.0,0.0,0.08480479751681683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396031655651149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08726666756018127,0.0,0.0,0.1206424203830928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12928908538704265,0.0,0.18047435068182507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20517232730298696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10854238209416177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004225866241663,0.0,0.17869634060134593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09020251348571216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055404559873346144,0.0,0.060268278767615466,0.0,0.16962904659879902,0.0,0.1168214175923484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120432226623658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454767447719764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05828000491956059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21307454329377745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249784821642007,0.0,0.0,0.1692895107522038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990336215816726,0.10390238006998263,0.1017538166538255,0.0,0.0,0.11293532878409547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11433532129283665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33837832339215856,0.0,0.0,0.06793566260435042,0.10903275660725142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087385142733016,0.0,0.2123407152411398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772219150639314,0.0,0.31836719095285665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07505977152513298,0.0,0.16937664484381862,0.0,0.2429502386338966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11022220285004806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061836165755862725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10359134923273926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08506355377526048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956898509294295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10769466963883056,0.10806974214167976,0.0,0.11594444803559904,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sadfacetears,2019/10/07,"Help... My brother has always been my support in my schizophrenia. He is now showing paranoia himself and is delusional thinking people are watching him. It makes me so fucking sad to see. What do i do to help him, he believes its all real. This is my fuckin brother im terrified my mom is in tears.",1.7152709359605929,4.350474862068968,3.1034975369458166,87.56982758620691,84.86206896551724,4.693596059113301,30.69950738916256,6.1826913282559595,1.7167507389162573,234,13,42,2,7,76,43,58,0.17300000000000001,0.747,0.081,-0.7328,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,9,2,0,1,1,5,14,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,10,1,4,13,1,3,0,1,2,2,10,2,2,0,1,31,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24318821271006774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292830045575522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701946383733325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3917986529427783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31569676814048725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950894135628774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422976858746101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20262001789705705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33266199247932937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328976716375028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316592947121749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18727185716258746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,greenoddish,2019/10/07,"fear seeking help I don't know if I'm schizophrenic, or something else, but I'm beginning to wonder if I may be. Sorry this is a long post because I didn't want to leave out anything that might be important. **- I was diagnosed with depression about 3 years ago** (I'm in my early 30's now) though I have probably suffered from this (**and anxiety**) my whole life and just didn't realize it - whenever I would mention the possibility of something being wrong with the way i was feeling or wrong with me, my family wouldn't take me seriously and didn't want me to take medication for anything because ""you dont want to mess with any of that stuff that'll screw with your brain"". Anyway when I was first diagnosed, I was horribly depressed and suicidal after suffering from job related loss and stress, accumulating in an overwhelming feeling of worthlessness. I currently think I'm still suffering from depression and anxiety but not nearly as bad as back then, and still currently take anxiety medication. **- I've suffered from insomnia** off and on over my lifetime, beginning in my 20s and continuing now. It usually is triggered by stress. **- I also have occasional sleep paralysis.** The hallucinations from that usually are just while I'm experiencing it, but on occasion after an experience I'll see something I saw in sleep paralysis out of the corner of my eye. In the very least it ""feels"" like it's still there/something is wrong. Everything will feel weird and ""off"" all day. I haven't had sleep paralysis in over a year thank god. **- In my mid-to-late 20's I started getting increasingly paranoid**, my paranoia comes and goes but it usually revolves around work and/or strangers listening to me. I've thought in the past, as crazy as it sounds, that the administration at my work had bugged our desks or computers or something to listen in on what we were saying. Currently I believe they can somehow view anything we send over the wifi at work, and scan our emails. At my worst, I would experience things that would ""prove"" to me that these things were happening (ex: my self or someone mentioning something near a desk and soon after having an admin reference almost verbatim what had been said) I still have issues with eye contact and faces in general because I feel I'm constantly being judged. **The reason I'm considering seeking professional help is because other symptoms have started to develop at a pretty rapid pace and it's starting to worry me. It's affecting my every day life and hindering what I can do in a day. I thought it might me hormonally triggered, or perhaps its just stresses in general life that's triggered it.** **- I've lost all motivation.** Even when I think I want to do something (or need to do something) I don't. **- I've been avoiding social stuff**; I'll make plans with friends and then promptly cancel because my anxiety gets real bad. **- I bathe much less than I used to.** Not because I don't want to, but because I almost forget or just ""don't feel good enough to go do it"" which kind of sounds like depression but I never had issues with it before with depression. **- My general life has become increasingly disorganized** \- it's really bad. Not only do I leave things in a constant mess, but I will start doing something and completely go off track. I'll forget to eat then notice I'm hungry, so I'll start fixing something to eat and notice the dog needs food so I get his food ready and realize shit I'm still holding my cereal as I pour his food in his bowl; then I sit down and set the bowl down and forget to eat it because I noticed I left some project unfinished on the couch and I started working on that. I didn't used to be like this. I've described it as like, what I imagine ADD must be like? And that's what I thought this might be for awhile if it weren't for the following thing:: **- Most worrisome is my brain has been ""buzzing""** \- I don't know any other way to describe it really. It's like many thoughts and voices all at once. I'll try to focus on one thought and before I can finish it my mind has jumped to another. It doesn't seem to have any specific triggers other than stress but it usually is at its worst at night, which has caused frequent bouts of insomnia over the past 6 months or so. On the rare occasion it happens during my waking hours, the voice(s) (which is similar to my inner voice but not quite the same) is usually telling me I'm worthless or stupid. Or it's like this constant stream of unintelligible whispers. **An example of the above affecting me at work**: Sometimes when I am helping a customer, because of my thoughts being jumbled I struggle to get what I want to say out. As soon as I realize it's not coming out quickly or in a way that makes sense, it gets worse and I start to slow down. Like I'll stop what I'm saying and search for my thoughts/words, and that makes it worse because now they're looking at me funny. Like ""and?"" or ""get to the point!"" or at least thats how my brain perceives it. The voice(s) start laying into me then like ""god just say something"" ""whats wrong with you"" etc etc Despite thinking I really need to talk to someone about this I'm absolutely terrified to. I don't know if having another mental illness labeling me is what is keeping me from doing it (I guess that'd be like, I feel ashamed to admit I have a problem?) or if it's because I'm afraid to tell my wife and family about it. I don't know what to 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schizophrenia,egen33,2019/10/07,Hey I am not diagnosed with this but wounded if I have it I always think an eyelash is in my eye and rub my eye until it is red which is pointless and I keep seeing bugs out of the corner of my eye and am starting to make sounds to be other sounds like a couch squeaking is a human scream or any sound a gunshot I always feel like I have to act like I’m being watched I’m not sure what is wrong with me but I have been diagnosed with adhd depression anxiety panic disorder and I’m woundering if this will add to my things messed up with 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schizophrenia,AMonsterMask,2019/10/07,"Trying to explain to another person why I'm scared. I don't know what's so hard to understand about this, but I guess that's too be expected, since I'm on this side of the fence already. If you've ever tried explaining to someone why you're freaking out and panicking, why you can't at all focus on their words because there appears to be other people talking, why you often stare off like there's something just over their shoulder, or why you sometimes do things that you can't really explain (digging a screwdriver deep into my arm to pull out a camera), you get the frustration. People who deal with this stuff almost every day might know just how hard it is explaining that, no, I'm not being childish, whining about monsters that aren't there. There's actually something there, or I'm actually hearing something that you don't. I'm not pretending. I'm not trying to get attention. I'm not making it up like some child wanting their mother to play along. This, as far as I can tell without meds, is real. But no, I must just be pretending, or just afraid of some nightmare, according to them. I must just be one of those tin foil nuts that people always make fun of. I must not be genuinely suffering or struggling to keep a grasp on life from day to day. It must be fake because anyone that considers themselves to be normal do their best to remind me constantly that there's nothing there to them, so it must not be real. As if their word is law or something. It must be some elaborate lie to get more people on my side I guess. Sure.",7.065284653465348,6.38910076567657,7.178463283828383,77.32630878712871,64.44554455445544,10.21526402640264,33.788985148514854,9.516144504307137,2.9802608910891086,1224,45,233,20,16,395,152,303,0.106,0.785,0.109,0.047,0,0,4,0,0,0,34.0,0,6,7,1,20,14,1,3,5,0,28,3,2,3,9,67,53,16,0,11,21,1,2,2,0,7,1,1,0,2,23,6,0,2,9,3,0,2,14,8,0,1,0,4,23,6,39,36,6,22,0,2,1,0,25,15,0,16,7,161,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.1961119140843796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10061822866606933,0.0,0.11088440797135192,0.0,0.0836090902810594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10536415940353304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025936487058228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12250581378786035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544968098702144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108585366980712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944077711413733,0.10359255071000492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908917400053976,0.08466043580069484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15749312498863266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213845474605915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18002430689803758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11325053961390935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931303645345587,0.0,0.0,0.11044458097693076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07097342249727527,0.09818087908636663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13414505752303085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116128724294239,0.0,0.0,0.10659554442572404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09845104547583447,0.09641520842908613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06808921740532232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786463238545537,0.0877370242956685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22874107467898586,0.06437135515073837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060003148386093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311976548967245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08513808966733849,0.30942387313229,0.09937928732950604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050456245336234,0.11502787305460692,0.0,0.0,0.09470311491418154,0.0,0.0,0.08076364167238498,0.08782571460837241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06675578937243813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20466208777646785,0.0,0.0,0.10460532675181408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0592668989330745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4533469714112325,0.0,0.0,0.0968610817958109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,X-gr0tesque,2019/10/07,"i can feel myself slipping into another psychotic episode, is there a way to stop it? advice is appreciated tw for self harm, suicidal ideation hey y'all. i posted to this subreddit long ago, and it was quite helpful if i remember correctly. ive been struggling to figure out how to articulate what's been going on with me lately. i can't tell if im going into an episode or if im already there. it's terrifying regardless. this all started in my english class at college last week, my teacher dissected my paper in front of my class (with my permission) and i was good humored at first i think. however at some point while he read it, i started to hear this laughter all around the room. in my sane mind i know that everyone isn't laughing at me, it's a ridiculous thought. but it was so intense and overwhelming, and just wouldn't stop. i was extremely distraught by the end of the class, and cried for hours after. that was the first real hallucination i had since my last psychotic episode, what, 6 years ago? ever since, i haven't been quite right. im mostly able to discern between reality and my delusions and hallucinations, but it's getting harder every day. i self harmed for the first time in YEARS. nothing drastic, but I fear what i might do in order to appease these intensifying voices i keep hearing. i know it's not reality but im so terrified. tomorrow im getting a medical withdrawal from school, and then i have to figure out if i can keep my job there. i feel like im falling to pieces. i can't keep relying on my boyfriend to babysit me either. i feel awful for relying on him and being attached to his hip lately, but he's the only one i feel safe around. we took all the sharps out of the house, but he works all day, 8-12 hours, and mist weeks his only day off is sunday. i honestly don't trust myself to be alone for that long, even with the sharps gone i worry what i might do. i just want these voices to stop. ive thought I might have to go back to the hospital, but they wouldn't take me last time i went, mostly because i downplayed everything. i would use that as a last resort, though. is there anything i can do to get myself out of this?",2.992698966247353,4.843932981566823,4.455101507036993,84.01365612155938,75.17511520737327,7.5490347490347505,27.397932494706694,8.358175599149588,1.9236992900734842,1710,68,342,31,37,569,206,434,0.13,0.795,0.07400000000000001,-0.9806,2,1,0,0,0,0,52.0,1,1,1,6,15,14,1,4,15,1,36,2,1,2,6,79,64,29,1,9,16,0,6,1,0,6,1,4,1,2,22,22,0,7,13,1,0,8,8,7,0,4,14,10,56,7,54,42,9,72,0,1,0,0,16,24,0,11,38,232,78,9,0.07367973851583633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07199898774042708,0.1306252852265094,0.0,0.0,0.07630998845589848,0.08130742361498809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772596300886012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060632146877951036,0.13118117658156855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05665517093983996,0.0,0.0449144847286457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08093373302566258,0.1425520079100854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06525837902001165,0.0,0.0,0.04866477239954621,0.06664754173221132,0.062078357480657015,0.07040414762770891,0.06621859808106842,0.0,0.0,0.08291019001694609,0.14901875848817664,0.05263681991762133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18801584382677552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548386706639055,0.0,0.1256216800463706,0.06179906895556689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16608484037526938,0.0,0.04938597562493377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451194015699959,0.08501652581622099,0.0,0.0,0.4775205666222701,0.0,0.07311577150680845,0.1964698109170995,0.0,0.0,0.08098491479335154,0.24023528317643225,0.16622790861875827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03599619853149047,0.0,0.0,0.1304085000407168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07422458505307503,0.0,0.2344876771583206,0.07439553216855728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069769625948158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04992729766495108,0.11207352255493701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06965116829360092,0.0,0.07056482253728684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15673494265974589,0.07369967729947269,0.08386367297860757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834647807318131,0.06292209411327256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456782895153123,0.0,0.0,0.15372807245180786,0.0,0.0,0.12189728217141813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10430179629808377,0.0,0.0,0.18479868167860966,0.0,0.07702606028309185,0.0,0.0805936752308551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05539799380731274,0.0,0.06439933902877401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04721100138350077,0.0723899689993438,0.11698696454983495,0.08592649609069149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818609005202586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06363563750448381,0.0,0.0,0.04345821875284007,0.05848354692433755,0.118202883888176,0.0,0.0,0.0683018557698931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053639727160979325,0.07482535096244973,0.0,0.05233997226667848,0.0,0.0,0.09489467183816308 schizophrenia,puppysmilez,2019/06/07,"I got a new job! It pays the same as my current job, but it's full time so I'll be making more money to pay my bills. I was diagnosed schizoaffective about a month ago, and my current 9-6 job has really been wearing me down. I'm really excited for this new company, I'll have benefits again and be on the same work schedule as my husband so I won't be home alone to deal with my symptoms by myself as much anymore. So happy, I thought I'd share some positive news with the group! 😊",2.2012864077669896,3.365465281553398,4.3244538834951465,86.99017597087378,75.79611650485437,8.256796116504855,26.46723300970873,8.841846274778883,1.8767291262135928,376,14,84,8,8,130,72,103,0.019,0.768,0.214,0.9713,6,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,5,0,8,3,1,1,0,11,12,9,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,11,4,12,4,6,12,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,9,52,14,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173335163768798,0.0,0.0,0.20252134681676293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19392397813200904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015940284396841,0.0,0.19846984493400996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15639187939143398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081568690952672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19614341428302948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5821323585049364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305250346477334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15607883955400936,0.0,0.1437450227275834,0.0,0.0,0.3777091395834761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505369490763134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032418126496142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15523759143490048,0.1140214411484887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14235606645129234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Yessica2345,2019/06/07,"Does anyone else get messages sent to their head? Not voices but in the form of text? I get these like every other day. I'm not sure if I'm losing my mind. I never really get audio hallucinations although I have in the past. Mostly when I'm waking up I'll hear audible voices, I usually forget what they're saying because most of it is non sense. Thing is with these text messages, I can't tell if I'm subconsciously doing these myself or if there's external beings messing with me. I know I know, I'm on the Schizophrenia subreddit. Of course it's all in your head. But I can't get myself to convince myself that that is the case. It doesn't help that I'd rather believe it's coming from outside and that my brain is an antenna receiver of some sort. Other symptoms include feeling like I'm living in a super advanced simulation of some sort. But ""simulation"" doesn't do it any justice. I think we are souls living the human experience. I think I might be plugged in to a video game machine where it throws you into this reality just to pass the time because we live forever. Idk for sure, but I don't just believe, I KNOW it's closer to the truth. But anyways I don't want to make thing too long but could I be developing Schizophrenia? I know even if I was diagnosed with it. I would never accept that there's no spiritual world or souls or that there isn't life after death. I have had way too many experiences and there's no coming back.",3.4609323173464794,5.036590010309284,4.9560316748842075,82.06520842671449,73.29553264604813,7.535096369341104,25.366950545345894,8.18289091462,1.5581067085014189,1147,37,225,18,23,385,155,291,0.087,0.804,0.109,0.8772,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,2,2,1,3,14,10,0,0,10,0,24,7,4,1,6,55,47,17,1,8,18,0,1,2,0,2,3,6,0,1,23,10,0,0,8,2,0,7,13,2,0,0,3,7,30,8,25,38,6,29,2,1,0,0,15,11,0,14,12,154,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08241270009599845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473819161975908,0.1241724886391154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09318688798071603,0.0,0.14775142278060566,0.0,0.0,0.2730770865074628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352870435780297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087872470695453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09675958384809336,0.0,0.0,0.07815690237494853,0.0,0.0,0.12300432033214223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10605334191079238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10123788877702113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08004421518768373,0.0,0.1021069895053285,0.0,0.0,0.2370922627386209,0.0,0.0,0.061276817825723084,0.08657747139326448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25326507725889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487498275456556,0.0,0.1365888511022208,0.0,0.08123045614434565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26640929884368303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08559939997411466,0.11841368279860999,0.0,0.32103641670362004,0.10724848309019866,0.0,0.13557953211012985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08089462244761668,0.12286666093418935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285624156437765,0.12236637905159035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18693691095861004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156886475003802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.077636799558812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09637438544326024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284384640643413,0.12596181065365675,0.0,0.0,0.10592455891588333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102522082258208,0.15530608148913105,0.0,0.0,0.070666301353863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334726014803568,0.0,0.0714804332169896,0.09619421573611067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608921395203065,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,_-v_-V--_,2019/06/07,"had a meeting with the psychosis unit, ptsd, rant, cant think this is not in the US. i was evaluated by the higest instance in the healthcare system for schizophrenia, im already diagnosed but they wanted to talk to me anyway. &#x200B; i could not tell them anything. they had read aaaallll the journals and prescriptions so they already knew -a lot- but i just couldt elaborate when they asked about something i had said months ago to another mental worker. &#x200B; i dont trust them at all. i dont think they are even real people. &#x200B; when i got the diagnosis i could talk. now i cant. &#x200B; they did give me a another diagnosis too. ptsd. idk about tht one either. i found my dad after he had shot himself when i was younger. never really talked about that to anyone. they thought that that event has left me in an ""hyper aware"" state. that im constantly extremely mentally stressed. that i cant stand certain smells etc. i dont think it was such a big deal. i dont think that is true. im just very depressed and want to die. i dont know about ptsd. they told me to read up on it as much as i could. &#x200B; i dont want to. &#x200B; they didnt change anything about the schizo-stuff during that meeting. they asked if i took my meds and i said yes , they then said that they knew i didnt as they had a recent blood sample. &#x200B; i just feel nauseous and fed up with everything. my life has stagnated since i got the scizoaffective diagnosis back in november , and now this ptsd thing. i dont know if i can take this. &#x200B; how many labels do you need to cover the cracks. &#x200B; fuck i really dont want to feel anything anymore. just want to sleep and never wake up to this nightmare again",1.6567681036911783,4.320410224852072,2.4556720202874054,91.79033530571995,85.80473372781066,5.467568329106791,22.248802479571705,6.971451493551832,0.7590234432234433,1368,48,273,19,42,427,164,338,0.086,0.868,0.046,-0.9428,0,0,1,0,0,1,76.0,1,1,15,1,22,6,1,1,15,1,32,7,3,1,5,48,63,19,1,11,11,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,15,8,1,0,12,2,0,1,17,3,0,1,23,7,50,3,33,37,5,31,0,1,0,1,34,11,1,3,16,183,65,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03742739509027895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931864014576944,0.0,0.0,0.41172921016226616,0.4617408853421856,0.0,0.08854722712653024,0.0,0.0,0.04187303481425411,0.029522714242584267,0.0,0.10423571420056242,0.0,0.07894403539249366,0.0,0.0,0.03246623290423025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04466544418355065,0.0,0.0,0.045627152568240084,0.0,0.1011328713620743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04352919042045631,0.036365882391589485,0.042854601099634106,0.04381993347273302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3958724331469006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04708886654300258,0.027887336826372417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037946552666383235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0426975829383143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04629441639680373,0.0,0.03903370425594993,0.0,0.04050334080488535,0.0,0.0,0.06753783285083337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682152639677847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046408387121488405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045874497671145605,0.0,0.029822758504362418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035895768433360335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042806640681894666,0.0,0.0,0.046899298685627096,0.0,0.08510000801818632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03370132329878535,0.0,0.03103814391096357,0.03130719479603262,0.06512866156487085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028610826644409237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0292715277495662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974217706679816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08446716684385494,0.0480580588490122,0.05409719051755511,0.0,0.041689286818604385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12048882169630247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03492660500108902,0.0,0.04225264984366898,0.0,0.0,0.03250467963646188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04836533876988248,0.0,0.04833426878222896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031745807832530414,0.10180971257040053,0.036904026677579166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02805052532585328,0.10821701469659373,0.0,0.033519676799377764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04034508088824176,0.046910370544338637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050788056803148095,0.0,0.0,0.0348377018048868,0.12451861217848068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4617408853421856,0.0 schizophrenia,Leonluiz1,2019/06/07,"Yoga for physical symptoms of schizophrenia Hey everybody! &#x200B; I have a range of mental illnesses, including schizophrenia and some borderline symptoms. I'm not on any medication, because antipsychotics and antidepressants made me end up in this mess in the first place. I'm rather looking for a holistic approach like yoga. The reason is simple: The one thing that triggered all my problems is my stutter. Sometimes, it's barely noticeable, and other times (which is more often) I can not have a conversation because it is so severe. The swings in my stuttering and general mood (think of borderline) are accompanied by what I believe to be equivalent physical symptoms: I try to do yoga almost daily, and on a ""bad mood day"" I am incredibly much less flexible than on a ""good mood day"". I think there's some energy blockage in my body and mind that needs to be released. Has anybody with a similar mental illness noticed this coupling of mood and clearly measureable physical signs like flexibility? I feel like I have been working on my mind for too long and am not getting anywhere, so what practices could be useful to solve my physical swings, and thus hopefully the mental ones along with it? Any special yoga tricks? I tried meditation, but can barely concentrate on anything so this is not getting me anywhere. Also, I hurt my neck quite badly doing a head stand for way too long every day, and thought about the connection to the throat chakra (which should play a vital role in stuttering). I cannot quite figure out how to fix my body though... &#x200B; Any help will be appreciated! Leon",7.030473684210527,8.757589126315791,6.942938596491227,70.66598684210527,64.75438596491227,9.910526315789477,36.00438596491228,10.125756701596842,4.071249122807019,1291,62,200,30,20,410,161,285,0.087,0.792,0.121,0.7935,0,0,0,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,0,4,12,21,1,0,15,0,25,11,5,6,2,46,38,17,0,6,6,0,1,3,0,2,6,1,0,0,14,14,0,0,6,5,0,1,5,9,0,3,3,3,21,8,32,28,6,24,0,1,1,0,4,13,0,5,11,142,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816725116823838,0.0,0.0,0.07839804280200613,0.0,0.21244037763639997,0.23824495719796146,0.20000018097347352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08067392575537782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16370919250841734,0.11952167267418592,0.0,0.0,0.11045115347833244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177881488602006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07827245985952229,0.1084731554283926,0.0,0.18967215733870604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08682934540606249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825981770444538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04956911835331007,0.0700357668446273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08338797709762913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10243781445302223,0.0,0.0,0.08222657051396423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10061153695223378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0657103654756393,0.0,0.0,0.09737024025600936,0.0,0.0,0.10494781068280064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14368391013685164,0.0,0.0,0.1735146484476668,0.0823241723708436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927624824294018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09875930462843367,0.2963867328566623,0.0,0.1979735156262648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07206653506416796,0.0726912362414837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22322553876052495,0.0,0.0,0.1328612398665909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242504134102402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380564332326442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085432197025486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10079565035953243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075092317592694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969584894261413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30568571224013297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06512967311327797,0.12563291971555168,0.09631826160209546,0.07782833182072653,0.057164624073051326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13311779148916605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08467021142706319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07781511236906084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07137018214502985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23824495719796146,0.0 schizophrenia,Rojankovsky,2019/06/07,"I cannot fucking think. My brain is filled with random concepts, noises, phrases, conversations, people, scenarios, songs, memories, etc. I don't know what to do about it. Kinda fucked how it's such a trend to be 'insane', 'psycho', 'schizo', but when you actually exhibit the symptoms, people distance themselves from you. It's hard to do anything. I will be trying antipsychotics next week though hopefully.",6.231739130434786,8.980478478260874,5.99644927536232,72.55380434782613,68.56521739130434,8.657971014492754,31.78985507246377,9.2995712137729,3.4150463768115946,321,14,47,7,6,100,57,69,0.063,0.883,0.054000000000000006,0.1018,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,0,5,3,2,0,2,0,8,4,1,1,0,8,13,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,2,6,1,6,10,1,4,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,3,3,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.2421299043615478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041821046181813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769846372427439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27672004596241495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4587669752435302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22226731310786627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464397312575884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636058754538194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638790627098374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440311521133324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25789229705665834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15898565562949782,0.24377722024726706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16845759378810365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990273711799159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,neckartal,2019/06/07,"How to move on? Can I taper off the meds? Hi everyone, first of all sorry for my bad english, Im not native speaking. Im a 26 year old male and had my first full blown episode psychosis in december (when I was still 25years old) that lasted about 5 weeks. I was smoking weed since I was about 13 or 14 years old, about 3 or 4 times per week. But let me describe it chronological: - First signs of psychosis were in March 2018 (Fear of getting robbed) while being super high - Had several occasions all over the year that I now, in retrospective, classify as mild psychotic (that happened while being high and also during weeks I hadnt smoked a spliff) - I was functioning really good during the year, I was working and went to university and got good marks - To the end of November (maybe 25th) I isolated myself more and more from my flatmates and my speech became more and more disorganized over the course of 2 weeks - I now, in retrospective, say that my psychosis started on the night 30th Nov/1st Dec when I thought I was poisoned - I came into the hospital at 6th of December and started getting meds (risperidone) - My psychosis had only delusions and during three short moments small visual hallucinations - Around the 5th of January I was back in reality, altough I was extremely exhausted - A couple of weeks later I was feeling better and left the hospital, I recovered nearly completly during the following weeks I am now on 2mg risperidone and think about tapering it off as I feel side effects (First reduction to 1mg and then maybe half a year later to zero). My doctors appointment to talk about this is in two weeks. I feel negative symptoms such as lethargy and difficulties to sleep, but I am working again. Me and the doctors were not sure if this was a schizophrenic episode and I got diagnosed with acute polymorphic psychotic disorder (which I think is not correct due to the prodrome) and psychotic disorder because of cannabis. I stopped smoking weed since and have no plans to consume it in the future. My questions are: - Do you think this was a schizophrenic psychosis? - Can you recommend supplements against the negative symptoms? - Do you personally think its a good plan to taper off/reduce the meds? Thank you very much in advance and wish all of you the best. Kind regards",6.612023525400616,7.888464828162293,6.5520380156836024,74.74076073985681,65.39618138424821,10.090726218888511,35.966672349130576,10.208560254849939,3.901897306512104,1829,88,312,43,28,579,215,419,0.08800000000000001,0.83,0.08199999999999999,0.6399,0,0,1,0,0,0,55.0,0,5,0,13,17,13,1,1,23,0,30,10,1,2,5,49,50,33,0,2,8,0,3,0,0,0,9,3,0,2,12,22,0,1,10,0,0,5,7,4,0,8,22,6,40,9,51,25,10,74,0,0,0,0,12,26,0,4,43,217,52,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06269147267107213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06978707922305594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06027997317611971,0.06545552670277956,0.04778811694941201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08226942920459715,0.06933292241886937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08966159301071064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08219438043822656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08674121975542509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07956803034030663,0.0,0.0,0.17969211323249615,0.16047869884624955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694336151773416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07490861046015324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08821479041260866,0.1189147426712096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667268161535397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08191502256612036,0.0,0.0,0.1972589345590244,0.12539732480299648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06932335536713714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16565465250061268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16935745651885026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08163505196588856,0.0,0.06390138881237381,0.0,0.0,0.08517506472776863,0.08016294516127327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575141654592611,0.0,0.2612334306004501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332017526948471,0.05762844392536975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07356724627246239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24678323539173516,0.0,0.0,0.059621997615527215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06845041958735662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08781896803457913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05022105895255812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06234187550706648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856265061507332,0.0,0.1296962797506606,0.0,0.0784503889536405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08775541169683378,0.11097503332477547,0.0,0.0626053691080301,0.06554070522764031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07388520415577178,0.1629622950599912,0.0,0.06300994596360615,0.0,0.0721744544784899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20092625967272149,0.0,0.06223589981316927,0.04571203999159154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07657932604692487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06468307353399808,0.0,0.0,0.4401792975242904,0.0,0.0,0.07267181380602122,0.0,0.0,0.09014897114310352,0.0,0.0,0.11414320214024748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524151007785005 schizophrenia,dupdupdup12,2019/06/07,"my paranoid schizophrenia disappread 20 days after i quit smoking i was diagnosed rougly 6 years ago. my main symtpoms was that i was always feeling watched/observed(even alone in a empty room with no windows). anyhow i had the slight suspicion that smoking cigarettes made it worse. however then there was the problem that i tried multiple times to stop but could never do it longer than a week maximum before relapsing. after then reading allen carrs ""easy way to non smoking"" if was able to do it finally now for 19 days. a week in already my paranoia got way better. now its way way better. my facial looks also completely differnt(not so disturbed/anxious , more natural). i can now walk down the street without feeling watched and go shopping and stuff again. before that i was way too scared to do that. i also dont take antipsychotics( i tried 6 differnt ones but the anhedonia they gave was unbearable and they didnt help with symptoms really). anyhow i smoked roughly 20-30. so if you smoke its maybe worth a shot. my theory is that my brain couldnt heal because it was still under a influence of stimulant/dopamin releaser/serotonin releaser(nicotine).",5.542777777777778,8.098087807692309,5.538782051282052,75.93399572649574,69.96153846153845,8.852991452991454,33.190170940170944,9.444778638647367,3.58300235042735,936,45,148,22,18,293,133,208,0.11,0.8079999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.1623,1,1,3,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,2,3,11,4,0,1,9,0,18,5,2,2,1,21,26,13,0,5,5,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,13,5,0,1,2,2,2,2,6,2,0,1,13,5,19,2,16,11,2,32,0,0,2,0,5,6,0,4,19,100,32,1,0.12893565593062073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11429367945018175,0.0,0.0,0.13353845458483282,0.14228370250763148,0.20621959492909592,0.10728479455432056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0785979791178151,0.0,0.21942949327434785,0.0,0.0,0.2280662196513872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14393483360016324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13518658213974616,0.0,0.0,0.1029446296707905,0.0,0.0,0.1663056629891395,0.0,0.0,0.1308669766953445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15111162848802914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08516078472104276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13038748344302345,0.0,0.0,0.1412427087469231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0732771045887287,0.0,0.10312162254404404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08642285232331359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082734777069844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12200203517529085,0.0,0.0,0.12953319651235398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09944312648475104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08737013733959162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233740095849168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13713894108581162,0.12897054775024985,0.0,0.08259948277531559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12908708459358978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10296818137917027,0.10779598171449466,0.0,0.0,0.14760047845514726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13401351509283535,0.0969435670194609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07518341784622355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17507769363630854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.511715611084719,0.206848811817339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242893712375068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13139644867455585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08303033509778789 schizophrenia,uglydotnetwork,2019/06/07,"Please lend me some coping mechanism ideas... Hey, guys. I don't know if this is against the rules. I can understand if it is and I will take the post down if asked to but... I am having a lot of trouble with something. For as long as I can remember, I have had this sure feeling that I am always being watched and followed by a group of invisible people. Just a bit of background, I can't see them but they are very real and I can feel them there. They're always there so long as I am 1.) out of my room and 2.) in a space not occupied by something-- whether it's a person or object. It doesn't help that I am absolutely in love with one of the invisible people yet I don't carry myself well enough to even pass as decent. I am very afraid of the feelings not being mutual and them viewing me as an embarrassment. Because of this, I don't go out much-- if at all. I don't even eat during the day because I know they can see me so clearly. Though I am going to have to go out soon for an overdue trip to the ER and my nerves are firing badly. So, please, if you have any ideas on ways I can distract myself or make things easier on me for the duration of my hospital visit (or any time spent outside) I would be so, so grateful. Though calling might not be an option as my bill has yet to be paid and I don't really have any friends nor a supportive foster family. I apologize in advance if I don't reply. I'm super stressed out and feel faint.",2.2768564356435625,3.5703463267326754,4.132429867986797,87.92161509900991,75.83168316831683,7.162211221122112,23.84612211221122,7.793537801064563,1.0582102310231032,1119,34,246,16,24,380,157,303,0.10400000000000001,0.784,0.11199999999999999,0.6823,1,0,2,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,5,2,16,12,0,4,16,0,38,3,0,1,3,50,59,34,0,7,16,0,5,0,1,3,1,0,1,2,9,14,1,0,10,0,3,8,12,6,2,1,3,9,38,6,39,48,6,30,0,0,4,1,17,13,0,13,7,186,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19788166572842547,0.0,0.0,0.24258418810821905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11116276157957454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992830640382616,0.14497020845620756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12981654405066764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141818028247466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07668570776751278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167238660387385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122863565511379,0.0,0.15707498910115714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11209571143694197,0.0,0.24049346900486665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918678878058794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20273416530287425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11773743779045892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07970140617680993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684649135726316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13069725780370084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21045936015499428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010911775217578,0.10731895123322016,0.0,0.07937189408071517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12614240759756887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741093039626993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08057501710051714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16487142285631487,0.10382572310809644,0.0,0.2610501609717157,0.0,0.0,0.11388082368872615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13534313292319666,0.07617539516100791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13469938188699165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18950827712544396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18308210036053127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13620850760063913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13493518653842831,0.11206921439937048,0.0,0.08940388338886754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07899707288781782,0.0,0.23365266148272498,0.0,0.06933610685638306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12378723552745323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962228112846217,0.0,0.09438349387844863,0.0,0.0,0.10691241164248064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0844687046498963,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TimberFrog,2019/06/07,"Can Strattera cause the onset of Schizophrenia? Hello, I was wondering can Strattera cause the onset of Schizophrenia? I was prescribed it for my anxiety and my ADHD, with 25 mg as my starting dose, but I am worried it could increase suicide thoughts/ideation (I do not want to kill myself, but I am worried if I take it I might get thoughts about it). I have met with 4 professionals who say I do not have Schizophrenia but an anxiety problem about my health. However, I was wondering can Strattera cause the onset of Schizophrenia and should I be afraid to take the medication?",6.669919137466309,7.8725941320754735,6.123261455525607,78.13292452830191,65.22641509433961,8.698652291105121,37.78436657681941,8.841846274778883,3.434244204851751,462,24,79,7,7,142,57,106,0.182,0.747,0.071,-0.8914,1,0,0,0,0,2,13.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,5,0,16,3,0,3,0,21,25,7,2,5,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,5,1,16,0,11,16,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,1,61,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20610234479898798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623847324207153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5285144349061234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692392676632947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895984860412056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822899992152416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18973259446606988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17276206495498542,0.0,0.1819279298694269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16409650418186658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637883473434348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12138426704633146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875864950304246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578841443888501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361470027349641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115154710043174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3719556442017084,0.0,0.3483207655256207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,favienl,2019/06/07,"Instead of hugs? Hi everyone, I read this sub once in awhile to try to understand the experiences my brother is going through (he’s been diagnosed with schizophrenia and is in his room most of the time, won’t take meds, doesn’t/can’t interact much). I know he’s going through hell and I just want to give him a hug sometimes. He hates being touched though, and I respect that. Is there anything that is like a “hug equivalent”—any gesture or words that you’ve found comforting?",4.029333333333334,6.3299214333333325,4.0063888888888926,86.37625000000004,73.55555555555556,7.6111111111111125,31.25,8.472884824447931,2.4890000000000003,379,18,72,7,8,116,68,90,0.078,0.72,0.20199999999999999,0.8708,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,4,8,2,0,4,0,7,4,0,0,0,12,16,5,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,4,4,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,1,7,6,10,12,2,6,1,0,0,3,9,3,1,2,2,42,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16200519153957782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960437445201579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417993640833503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276398485191239,0.0,0.2330355478753887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612079020250767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285328015795277,0.27078423814545216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352037075413697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309254806504972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11638759159904705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646208413368375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17512713378313494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537081495426736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23829538374749634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356164665614004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17911999993586766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340606645002422,0.0,0.1389143623845662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16174315345035792,0.0,0.0,0.2480067842612257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14051476606349753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Qrowed,2019/07/27,Is this an early sign of schizophrenia? I'm 16 and sometimes at night i would hear other peoples voices (people that i know) but i conciously know its only in my head. Is this a hallucination?,2.54418918918919,5.155634702702706,4.282364864864864,80.83543918918923,80.35135135135134,5.8621621621621625,22.763513513513516,7.1686216300943375,1.0840324324324329,152,5,27,2,4,51,31,37,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,6,7,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,19,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35418571560899986,0.0,0.3889676664235832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3793303862231752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32386536621856554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624741453679105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4785160879441148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413257863068859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451585205157165,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,aerozimm,2019/07/27,"I can’t cope knowing my brother is sick My hero as a child was my older brother of 5 years. He was my father figure when my dad was forced out of the house due to drinking and gambling instead of being a father. Now my father is alone and so very sick. My brother has disassociated to a home for mentally ill. He was smart, strong and funny as hell. Everyone spoke so highly of him. He was my guiding light. I grieve for him every minute of the day. I carry so much of his personality, body type, even our voices and sense of humour are similar. I look in the mirror and see him. I am so sad.",0.6089461358313812,2.8774733606557383,3.090538641686184,88.4260655737705,85.88524590163935,5.125058548009368,19.370023419203747,6.5431188927421005,0.18399578454332527,458,13,96,5,14,158,77,122,0.183,0.706,0.111,-0.8747,0,1,1,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,2,8,7,1,0,6,0,12,5,1,0,0,8,16,12,1,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,2,0,6,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,6,5,18,4,15,9,1,9,1,2,2,0,18,3,1,0,6,65,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27435130582946504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942386007924415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708353445820375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594962288106085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17496063262314926,0.0,0.22318544116160371,0.2531185003210331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27987608470231384,0.2657112580190721,0.0,0.0,0.3056532355295065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145579350591073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222445063393616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669518307143732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947282857420461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312960745882956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110869989100416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185660963206607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17058367889876302 schizophrenia,lmaohibo,2019/07/27,"Difference between psychotic depression and schizophrenia? Hi, i was diagnosed with depression with psychotic features a while back, once i learned a little bit about it, it didn’t seem to fit. My delusions and hallucinations weren’t ONLY based on my low mood and low self esteem. Sometimes it would be random and for no reason. Such as feeling like people could hear my thoughts, random pops and animal noises, and feeling like bugs are inside of me. What’s the difference between schizophrenia and what i’ve been diagnosed with",8.353188405797102,9.879325913043477,7.3204347826086975,69.88905797101451,61.60869565217391,10.481159420289854,37.072463768115945,10.504223727775694,4.336776811594203,432,20,64,10,6,132,65,92,0.14,0.753,0.107,-0.6486,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,3,0,8,2,0,1,0,20,13,9,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,1,0,1,5,10,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,5,3,6,2,11,5,1,7,0,4,0,0,3,5,0,3,4,44,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146766525869057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083795793964713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15239341364054493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287904842252806,0.3874561572604285,0.0,0.39883508759648817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930182639096942,0.2727137898959903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21512330310748534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18649796356874715,0.19130094170742545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20326932012437654,0.0,0.14516452138818633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13232457388438684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19624518337581368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17376002412505878,0.1991180570812894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887743813290006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15152871374422075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13558790426773518,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anondescriptUn,2019/07/27,Crux of the illness Does anyone else feel that the whole being paranoid and feeling that people are talking about you all the time severely stunts any connections you might have with people and ultimately keeps you from meeting new people because of poor reactions to eachother. Do you also feel any insight has little to no positive effect on your thoughts surrounding it. ??,11.90354166666667,11.109075187500006,9.876875000000002,62.247291666666676,54.9375,12.283333333333333,44.77083333333333,11.20814326018867,5.399902083333332,308,15,42,6,3,93,51,64,0.172,0.764,0.064,-0.8045,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,1,1,12,11,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,6,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,8,8,2,5,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,1,2,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17670282674801974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30052278573144825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15450141406452808,0.22640116240315666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13469607572039902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193364892243766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18458497489708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33517431122194685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964007282427533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22146146543899084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344052266496969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21340598759497964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.459560634429781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496235937874496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17760047883109928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17541874442627434,0.12884442395081822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466956168201752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,theonlypickle23,2019/07/27,"My Schizophrenia Story: A Success in Progress Hello friends, I would like to share my story. I'll put a tldr at the end if you don't have time and still want to read. So I'm 20F right now. I've had Tourettes my entire life and depression since I was 12 (it started out as adolescent depression and became adult depression, as my therapist says). When I was 14, I started hearing voices and seeing things. I was terrified. I thought I was going crazy. The delusions told me that if I told my parents or therapist, they would put me in a mental hospital (this is untrue; they were all supportive). For 6 months, I lived in hell alone. Every hour I would hear voices, and I saw hallucinations at least 4 times a week. High school was painful. I could barely hear the teachers over the shouting in my head. After 6 months, I knew that I had to do something. The voices told me to kill others and myself, but I knew I couldn't do that. So I finally told my therapist, crying. I had known her since I was 8, and we were very close. She told me that I wasn't crazy and that I could be helped. She said I had a disorder called schizophrenia. At the time, the current DSM catagorized my disorder as paranoid type schizophrenia. She brought my mother in and told her everything I said in front of me, after making sure that I was okay with that. My mom didn't cry or get upset. She just hugged and kissed me and said that she'll always be there for me. I'm very lucky to have her. I got on a waiting list to see a psychiatrist. He listened to my story, and after a few tests and an MRI brain scan, he found out that I had schizophrenia due to neurotransmitter problems, not because of brain deformities. He put me on Ability for the summer of 2014, and I found out that it was not the best medicine for me. So after a month, he put me on Seroquel XR, and it worked perfectly. I've been taking it for the past 5 years, and it's changed my life. I'm back to my old self. I'm in college majoring in math and minoring in chemistry. I still go to talk therapy at least once a month, and I still hear voices and have on-and-off depression, but I'm still moving forward. There's hope for everyone, friends. Please don't give up. I considered suicide many times when I was sick and unmedicated, but I'm so glad I never did it. I hope that this has been an inspiration for anyone struggling. I love you all. Feel free to message me about anything if you need someone to talk to. Thanks for reading. ❤️ Tldr: I've had schizophrenia for 6 years. After lots of talk therapy and finding the right medications, I've got my life back on track. Never give up hope.",2.8038825757575765,4.6067445018939415,3.8700909090909086,88.21430303030304,75.57196969696969,6.966060606060606,25.18030303030303,7.793537801064563,1.267248939393939,2059,71,430,30,45,666,233,528,0.121,0.733,0.146,0.941,2,1,1,0,0,1,74.0,1,3,2,5,17,31,2,2,23,1,40,13,3,1,6,69,90,38,2,15,11,3,1,1,2,4,7,14,0,2,21,27,0,1,9,2,1,10,9,10,0,0,40,19,74,22,59,41,8,74,1,4,4,3,51,28,1,10,39,272,95,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06442966691597249,0.0,0.0,0.051762794468257316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04349791453346461,0.0,0.05119263030690118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956696198383246,0.0,0.037921972592638936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06528441040711835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889142891904846,0.06352224990158573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06580877549845676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933750126280863,0.0,0.1366671275051574,0.0,0.0,0.2143217633996133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14259359497947185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055098627438078716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05241368759321624,0.0594432769935194,0.05590935478219319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031454692786298116,0.0,0.0,0.06814681738804221,0.05685781441989229,0.0,0.0,0.13641771222377427,0.09612489519377557,0.0,0.03250158657607493,0.11935290516814435,0.07070951144218053,0.0,0.09950829239418242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.063844286336363,0.0,0.28045583970584226,0.0,0.04169731937089382,0.06572712625004001,0.0,0.185362445138766,0.06126324282963098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06882493910116197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131819973249996,0.03039212989745751,0.0,0.05493160501766636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052887788520987584,0.05614596779125572,0.0,0.041524928797546164,0.06307006810234238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06266892956889504,0.06269194704043912,0.0,0.0,0.07285832057169449,0.19861822574575094,0.0661182236229994,0.0,0.046127116644175806,0.09595868899958268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06527778372710631,0.06625045617842,0.0,0.0,0.0661946636041482,0.0,0.06907562981964127,0.0,0.05938544126648852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06828669941979028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05952552295409761,0.0,0.2501485368990047,0.0,0.0,0.1244514841714053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062521341545364,0.17752475010660976,0.04947102010433521,0.0,0.06295873553657977,0.0991448900813329,0.0,0.06489745775173733,0.0,0.0,0.10291970221966024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05270940542536739,0.04789145622407048,0.0,0.0,0.08806356979213656,0.0,0.1987204554621793,0.0,0.0,0.06503425709148594,0.0,0.06804644785995491,0.0705939309901543,0.05863115908004374,0.0,0.046773356424775814,0.15000349018302964,0.0,0.057273603969775926,0.1422826145082219,0.2166880089778432,0.0413288339011456,0.0,0.0,0.04938692373025732,0.14509805687048133,0.0,0.0,0.3566596619611164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10265772741623397,0.03669242540411529,0.0,0.04990023319046827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04528882554402229,0.0,0.0,0.13257426902176409,0.0,0.0,0.08012099362545205 schizophrenia,Guerriero97,2019/07/27,"Hey there, i've tried CBD Hello, i've tried CBD skunk at 0.50 THC and 24% CBD and i felt somehow... Alive, with less paranoia, more fluid thoughts, deacreased heartbeat... I've felt... Better. I've smoked it, so the effects didn't last more than 4 hours, this is why i Will try CBD oil from monday. Don't let the hope go down, maybe we can escape from it.",0.6670833333333341,2.879497097222224,1.1950000000000005,102.52500000000002,84.97222222222223,3.6,17.333333333333336,3.1291,-1.1506166666666666,269,6,63,0,8,81,53,72,0.059000000000000004,0.8370000000000001,0.10400000000000001,0.4744,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,1,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,2,0,6,0,0,1,0,10,11,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,3,3,2,6,5,3,6,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,3,28,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.227888892281402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4948087720631396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464402594986605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25592525450293263,0.25375384427699155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100361012293316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634858612255111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25886496222010724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20456184124007887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5248246986372804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325078281316946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jesus_saves13,2019/07/27,"Hi Because many have neglected God and His Word, God is coming with judgements to bring in violence and destruction. Repent. Those who put their trust in God and Christ, follow His 10 commandments, repent, cleanse themselves with blood of Jesus, live holy and love thy neighbor may be spared. Be encoruaged to replace worldly music with biblical music. Harp music is biblical. His destruction and judgement and bringing of violence come soon. Russia will invade USA and USA will be hit with nukes and foreign troops and all types of disaster.",7.616319875776397,10.005105010869569,6.337888198757764,73.03195652173916,64.1086956521739,9.604968944099381,34.88198757763975,9.957137785484203,4.006072670807454,439,20,63,10,7,131,62,92,0.196,0.687,0.11699999999999999,-0.9062,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,9,2,1,0,1,19,16,9,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,15,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,11,9,1,10,4,1,0,1,8,3,0,1,1,37,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23085795409671475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6524498484394622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.334407655578784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34180034341318394,0.0,0.0,0.38395225489070495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3807079082431516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,VintageLuka,2019/07/27,"what is wrong with me (vent) I want to get worse. I want to stop taking my meds and go back into hell. It’s too weird without all of my symptoms and I feel isolated without them. I should be happy, but I’m not in some weird way. I don’t want sympathy or anything either I just miss the hallucinations and delusions, I used to get so lost in them and now there’s nothing to distract me from my mother (homebound and screams and yells all the time sometimes for attention -_-) I just... aaaaaghhhh what should I do? I know I should just try to get better but...idk. Has anyone else experienced this?? I feel alone with this.",0.5681348637015802,3.055657138211384,2.0057484457197496,93.56922525107605,91.43902439024393,4.845337159253947,20.24342419894787,6.522977012572876,0.2806761358201819,480,16,101,6,17,154,78,123,0.195,0.6859999999999999,0.12,-0.8292,0,1,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,2,2,8,10,1,1,2,0,8,1,0,1,2,33,23,9,0,6,9,1,2,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,5,9,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,8,0,0,1,5,19,2,15,18,4,9,1,2,0,0,3,3,1,2,4,70,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19391828411492176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13091858692840574,0.1918436827276576,0.15407788839558334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397163146264547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655935367713812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15641024535638298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893425915249859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934666063724083,0.0,0.10640957640953456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993144106345016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289908328970518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043883732581332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20797511574999664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17965637561902806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18517952576281416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565362716945243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946081447161173,0.14077690378280722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917783516337606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12711980995400488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617103328558402,0.0,0.0,0.3313069513611069,0.14861788473570958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3609743976599428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19080776353883516,0.0,0.2047113316455765,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fridgeanon,2019/07/27,"Hey, I recorded an audio about mental illness stigma I mention stigmatization of schizophrenia If you want please watch and share, it's a very important message [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QH5i-KpN6Q4](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QH5i-KpN6Q4) If you are feeling like it then add subtittles in your native language, it's only 3 minutes. Right now audio is in English with my Polish subs added. Thank you very much",10.415011709601874,15.11913036065574,5.605292740046842,70.39655737704919,65.0655737704918,6.108665105386418,30.02576112412178,7.447530270364453,2.4171105386416856,356,13,41,4,7,92,51,61,0.042,0.7290000000000001,0.22899999999999998,0.8423,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,4,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,5,4,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,7,3,5,5,1,5,0,0,1,0,8,3,0,2,3,25,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16861750798258168,0.23823817867443645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16292148330326506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360694047261404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451461707437831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536265672290176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3660608978999905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847900979464216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070235796030955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5503118497987948,0.19669514420353165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,letmeknow127,2019/07/27,"Um... help with relationship? Okay so just to make things clear. My diagnosis is OCD and mild autism (but I’ve had other diagnosis earlier such as depression and anxiety and so on). I have psychotic symptoms and delusions and can’t really relate to the ocd forums problems so that’s why I post here instead :) So basically I’ve made my boyfriend upset the second time. I just want to know if I’m the one who is to blame because I feel very bad for what I’ve done. I accidentally brought up someone I used to date before him, because I wanted to emphasize on the fact that I’m grateful for that I ended up with him. However, were from different cultures and in my country we see sex and female sexuality as nothing wrong or strange. He got very very upset (I didn’t mention anything about what we did or anything I just said I dated someone before and then he asked if we had done anything like that and then I said yes, and then he got very very upset (I dont like to lie so I told the truth, maybe I shouldn’t have done that?)). He told me that behavior is whore-like and asked me if I was a whore. I don’t know we just see things so differently. If he was going to talk about someone he met before me and even if he talked about them being intimate, I wouldn’t be mad at all. I would find it interesting because I want to get to know him more. I don’t take it as some type of threat like he does. He says it’s different with a female who has sex and a male. The thing is that I don’t agree. And I find it kind of sad that I can never mention something like that ever. The other relationships I’ve had have had no problem with talking with them about that. What do you guys think? Is it whore-like for a woman to enjoy sex or have a sexuality? Am I to blame? I feel sad because I’ve hurt him and it’s difficult because our views are different and I don’t know if I’m the one who is weird. I forgot that he gets upset about those things. I sometimes have trouble relate because of my autism and I know I think differently.",2.389849624060151,4.003332803827753,4.085896103896108,87.04027272727276,76.22488038277513,7.0737935748462055,24.62228298017772,7.859703344183488,1.2019174846206426,1584,53,342,24,35,532,176,418,0.147,0.7509999999999999,0.10099999999999999,-0.971,6,0,1,0,0,0,42.0,5,1,2,0,20,27,2,4,13,2,39,5,0,3,6,70,74,39,0,14,14,0,2,4,0,3,1,3,0,3,30,26,0,1,11,0,0,2,11,18,1,3,22,8,50,9,38,47,3,18,0,4,3,4,45,6,0,10,13,223,80,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058765329114139474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18964326178772994,0.0,0.14362835699203866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06413956959293025,0.2809641361570536,0.0,0.1960986106678189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616297117953447,0.0,0.0,0.4012907257369551,0.0,0.0,0.06722368564662358,0.2358335283862591,0.09002977056569424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06803768019434066,0.0,0.0,0.050737365392348514,0.06948600621423093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07768267297803348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404199695681093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08026815389391741,0.0,0.04365726833765304,0.0,0.12287626188527075,0.0,0.0,0.07606159880343942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05148928407529647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08223493505496415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07999381199030578,0.21108499077131215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15011698915454347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07268676372082981,0.05127641026621423,0.0,0.07717370317117618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05924654476519443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07370865352178316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10410732115959896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07357012081605742,0.0,0.0,0.14700832606776815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04921138470621257,0.0,0.0,0.1649469199944756,0.0,0.0,0.14614244475094834,0.06108851710560732,0.0,0.0,0.12242752021069228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19526216003812172,0.05913801729955024,0.07597466806701926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07984300174136469,0.057757349212032814,0.18522946882075306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204137062175008,0.09844335890721996,0.0,0.0,0.044793017762868176,0.0,0.0,0.14680520578607384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06634582744026435,0.0,0.31691323142636324,0.13592720660812252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06931602469226131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0545690890263902,0.08398809429532159,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TrappedPureSoul,2019/07/27,How do I deal with this? Every time I see someone I think they’re going to get in trouble with me especially when they’re laughing I think it’s at me. At the moment it’s happening I feel with all my heart that is at me and it causes me anxiety and fear but for example when I passed them by on the street after a moment I realize it’s probably not at me.,3.217307692307692,3.334350217948721,5.622205128205128,82.53946153846154,72.46153846153847,9.316923076923075,27.138461538461538,9.3871,2.077166153846154,279,9,63,6,5,100,51,78,0.077,0.89,0.033,-0.2659,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,1,3,0,2,1,1,2,1,14,9,6,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,2,14,1,13,9,1,15,0,0,1,0,2,7,0,0,6,46,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21888339641346824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939272507677965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29498036334818506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410710610226606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219680463228013,0.1446724417290597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14948751596383256,0.0,0.16261035743234592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25301772171878584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3390572636247909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084891064212797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280030746202965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424311830601191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666722721846852,0.0,0.0,0.16684068669984456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WickerVerses,2019/07/27,"Hello! I'm writing a story with a schizophrenic child (14) and I want the character to be an accurate representation for the community (Read more below) I'm writing a horror anthology and one of the stories is about a schizophrenic child being left in charge of her younger sibling after their mother abandons them. I don't want to use this as a ""catchy"" or ""Niche"" story telling device, but instead I want to accurately represent schizophrenia and what it's like to have a stress related episode or a really off day. If you'd like to contribute please contact me.",5.585673076923079,7.534525451923081,6.4992307692307705,71.62076923076923,68.51923076923077,9.815384615384616,34.153846153846146,10.125756701596842,3.9167730769230764,453,22,75,12,8,150,76,104,0.076,0.7909999999999999,0.133,0.5848,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,2,0,2,4,0,1,11,0,6,2,0,1,0,15,12,8,0,4,4,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,8,2,15,9,1,6,0,1,0,0,12,4,0,3,4,52,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18952339468184295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192932361708065,0.0,0.0,0.2871424334744985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19913555226919244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32258366082761003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29395193866850233,0.0,0.18826219255762247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366298557650779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568574415808698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538114100125498,0.0,0.0,0.5200006888049943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pok_cs,2019/07/27,"hearing songs i started to hear songs playing in my head, usually in the morning right after i wake up they are made up (and actually sound good), and when i try to remember them so i can recreate them ive got nothing, not even a beat or lyrics.. this is bizzare since i hear them perfectly yet i have no way to ""save"" them, maybe ill try getting a paper ready so i can write it down when its happening again anyone got experience like this?",1.8707070707070697,4.158096272727274,3.375606060606064,88.27646464646465,80.5909090909091,6.638383838383841,25.68686868686868,7.793537801064563,1.5042762626262631,344,14,71,6,9,113,64,88,0.057,0.818,0.125,0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,5,2,7,5,0,0,3,0,6,3,2,1,1,9,15,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,6,14,5,9,12,0,14,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,1,8,47,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.1794082930003357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285501982637874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142930519945948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17983778506050174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605254511748423,0.0,0.0,0.1542022624422661,0.29407871281557296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16257542293228475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18868021040952127,0.0,0.6216272811887276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08981842844376378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17396061359442794,0.0,0.0,0.18469916763077468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17640629376643965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20826297613556302,0.1570044570873393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152080257955915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13012795530561205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496402864748105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024816562061551,0.0,0.0,0.14592930611730376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,weliveinsingularity,2019/07/27,I feel robbed of life. How are you positive? Depression and paranoia have taken everything of value in my life.,2.862833333333332,5.92644095,4.1200000000000045,77.39833333333334,89.5,8.666666666666668,26.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,3.4471666666666665,89,4,14,3,3,29,18,20,0.213,0.562,0.225,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,3,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,3,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4417886785340444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4609913538432701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593544759865121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.724599883374717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Rugrratt,2019/07/27,"Why Do People Degrade And Stigmatize Us? I recently was just diagnosed with Unspecified Schizophrenia Disorder at the age of 20. Not only do I disagree with label but the burden it puts on me. Although I experience delusions throughout the year not only does talk therapy and medications make it worse - it speeds up the bad thoughts and anxiety. I'm on anti-anxiety med and I feel great now after a 5-6 month episode of delusional behavior and stress. I now work two part-time jobs and I'm a year from graduating. I think we're all capable of doing great things and living great lives. So here's where my question comes in: *Why do other people put us down? Why do they put labels like, ""Ill"", ""Unstable"", ""Unhealthy"", on people who have ups and downs? Why do they push treatment when some of us are better off without being drugged?*",3.666730769230768,6.192866570512821,4.7288205128205165,79.68284615384616,75.6025641025641,8.006153846153849,28.348717948717947,8.841846274778883,2.6208671794871803,659,28,116,15,15,215,109,156,0.124,0.708,0.16699999999999998,0.8934,1,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,3,0,2,2,8,9,0,1,6,0,10,4,0,1,1,23,17,12,0,0,5,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,11,0,0,4,0,0,5,3,4,0,1,2,1,13,5,19,14,2,26,0,0,0,0,8,11,0,2,11,76,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16704715173562912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09116202168491044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09656219566802116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09405022529944522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11081696034997487,0.0,0.0,0.12513149880751456,0.0,0.09554549753842724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12661591841743147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10680049208127683,0.0,0.0,0.05520546492212408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3611190852308176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10834582706561484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05334058330697145,0.0,0.19281859241300514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07287952280129154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12127607280262705,0.10998891060636122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08714766003912397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16607495541835013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182329633590125,0.0,0.22707818857993495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32927279817006044,0.12230830720631565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10780359461648233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250670801091865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08775598256786124,0.0,0.0,0.12485860118912595,0.0,0.07253536080301047,0.06995911943587936,0.0,0.08667794354647101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10665449555398876,0.0,0.3939958323673293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39407741500056587,0.0,0.0,0.10524710413700633,0.0,0.07948545824055288,0.0,0.11126531238505917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406186584992609 schizophrenia,Barb1eG1ggl3z,2019/07/27,"I understand where y'all come from I've been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder(and other stuff) but I've read of what a lot of you guys have posted and I relate so fucking much. I understand the delusions, confusion, etc. We'll get through this, I hope we do",2.6023529411764703,4.933177470588237,3.889960784313725,85.34082352941176,78.21568627450979,8.00156862745098,25.88627450980392,8.841846274778883,2.1973027450980385,205,8,40,5,5,67,42,51,0.06,0.841,0.098,0.4142,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,2,2,0,0,2,3,1,1,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,10,10,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,8,1,5,8,3,3,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,3,0,29,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22288393605496085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626184065568063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28856651983152004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23920346825477096,0.13518238799787075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561959647103357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569898951479515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21997380132379035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19020566490461832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24780399535163966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588127318152832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961985020036911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5387205772427877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shtv99,2019/07/27,"How to deal with delusional thoughts In the last mounth I regonize my delusional thoughts. I know that it is not real but the thoughts come by themselfs. In this moment i tell to myself : Hey thats not real , go on. How do you deal with this kind of thoughts? I hadnt have a phychosis since a year ago but sometimes i have delusional thougts like somebody random is given a sight to somebody else by tipping their nose. Does anyone has found a way to deal with this kind of thoughs, i would be very happy to hear from you.",3.086494066882416,5.0762177572815546,3.1937216828478974,92.54898597626757,75.31067961165049,6.131175836030206,26.97842502696871,6.937597516519254,1.1061810140237327,411,16,85,4,9,125,66,103,0.0,0.9109999999999999,0.08900000000000001,0.867,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,1,0,3,4,0,0,6,0,9,1,1,2,0,20,19,5,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,4,0,0,6,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,7,3,11,4,16,10,0,10,0,0,1,0,9,3,0,1,5,55,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345473605665664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10613090407492436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307484787392991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4694479269432009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13282720390902136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679605803667535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664233249504806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08626234678769894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16157689364130048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710716027441599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161193640155593,0.0834165185726416,0.12372422081337932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07415399697606583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.345526850398774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12555729580197567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15011826010710624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326659088020818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14912701233100373,0.4819981758839565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12523769860943562,0.0,0.12047907664424586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10782300085925038,0.0,0.0,0.09774392151960017 schizophrenia,Human-Slime,2019/03/17,"Wish me luck please I'm going to start my first practice work tomorrow in some kind of gardenwork company since my rehabilitation program ""sent"" me there. It's been 2 years since I dropped out of school and I haven't done anything since then and I'm really scared to screw it up. My therapist is gonna admit me to a hospital if I do to get my meds better because she doesn't think what I take now is perfect for me but I think I can do this ...I'm still scared tho ",2.333469387755102,3.8033498469387794,3.997704081632652,88.2196173469388,76.04081632653063,7.757142857142857,24.494897959183675,8.472884824447931,1.374016326530613,367,12,83,7,8,123,69,98,0.083,0.7959999999999999,0.121,0.1235,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,4,4,7,1,2,1,0,9,1,0,0,1,12,22,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,3,0,15,4,10,18,1,13,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,3,7,50,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605096891446654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11890078700989196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250604475640008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19960406699573666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16590959417207607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190567522628248,0.0,0.11085151937998332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20311476044583934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21665679304451493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141065389857132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249541479161131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39055853911926863,0.19740120812966544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4840426047002381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380575302300873,0.0,0.15576733575565474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466534705285757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264683070844372,0.0,0.2499605752548328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22429809545318216,0.0,0.0,0.14199886323907135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12560592905351622 schizophrenia,thatpotofgold,2019/03/17,Everyone in the entire world hates me The past few days I’ve been feeling my friends secretly hates me. No I’m not on my period. Yes I’ve had good sleeps. I go into this sulky wooo is me mentality. Is there a need that’s missing in my life. I go to my mates houses n feel I need to leave because the voices in my head say they don’t want me there. To top it all of the voices tell me they hate me. Does anyone have the same issue. I don’t no how to fix it n maybe it’s just life. 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Like I have to reassure that I'm me by moving/ looking at my hands. Even then I feel different. More different than a couple of months ago when I would go in and out of psychosis. I think my idea of myself was so tied to that mind set for years that it feels weird to be out longer than a month. It feels like I'm ignoring something and who I am is different. Hard to explain but maybe it's because I'm no longer going in and out of depersonalization/derealization constantly anymore. 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Help? Last Monday was my 28th birthday. I realized I had been suffering from paranoid schizophrenia for well over a year, but I didn’t know it. I have delusions, extreme sensitivity to noises, auditory hallucinations, and paranoia. I’m also becoming more and more socially withdrawn, and experience extreme memory loss throughout the day. I can’t seem to stay organized. I had to drop out of graduate school because of this. I racked up over $150,000 in student loans, with no degree in hand. I had to move back in with my parents. It’s hard, because they don’t really understand my sensitivity to noises. My brain interprets unexpected noises as loud and scary. I went to the psychiatrist and I was prescribed risperdone. Does anyone else take this? Does it help? I’m afraid of the long-term consequences of medication. I know it can help me in the short term, but I don’t want to become dependent. Can antipsychotics help with the negative symptoms of the disease and the cognitive decline? What will my future be like? Will I ever be able to live independently? Will I ever be able to live a quiet lifestyle and support myself financially? I no longer dream of getting married and starting a family. I just want to find a place to live that is relatively quiet and secluded, so I won’t need to be scared anymore. I feel alone and terrified. I feel like I’m trapped inside my head. Does anyone else ever feel like this? 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Prison. A nigger runs my prison. In prison, the nigger tries to torment me. We can take away his knives by confessing, every day. In about 2000, I masturbated fantacizing about my niece, Lani. She looks like Star Trek Seven of Nine! In 1985, at my sister's wedding, I stuck my crotch on the hot tub drain because it kinda sucked. In 1985, I tried to get a dog to lick my dick. From 1998-2003, I fantacized about leading a Catholic army like Dune, of Mexicans or Brazilians? That was dumb because they're niggers. In 2003, I played tag with a black girl about 7-years-old. She reached for my crotch. In high school, in the library, Carlos and I said 'juicy' or 'toxic' as a way of evaluating girls. In 1988, I cheated on my SAT by talking in the hall during the break -- two problems. On 9/9/1999, I killed a CIA nigger on purpose with my car. :-) In 1982, when I was 12, I babysat Kevin's kids. I changed a diaper because I thought that was being professional. In 1975, when I was about age five, my brother, Keith, put my penis in a vacuum. In 1977, when I was about age seven, my brother, Danny, got me high on gas fumes and we sucked each other's dicks. Dr. Tsakalis had an oddly round ass. Paul Keck at Xytec had an oddly round ass. Distracting? At about age five, Jay Weinrick and I touched dicks to each other's assholes.",2.8000414868901444,4.739726309160306,3.2648224361101903,91.94458181214738,75.98473282442748,5.930567540657152,24.36840358446732,6.7026698264267655,0.6815726518420182,1031,34,216,9,23,320,152,262,0.221,0.74,0.039,-0.9946,0,0,0,0,0,0,62.0,2,0,0,1,10,11,6,1,16,0,9,8,7,1,0,16,19,9,1,1,2,3,4,2,0,0,1,1,1,3,5,9,0,0,2,1,0,4,0,8,0,6,12,8,34,3,44,6,2,39,1,0,4,5,15,26,12,3,9,124,39,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18518736505218494,0.0,0.0,0.3604615550800428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20851177591160566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271169194859853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660701175391707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102979632816312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15764349517131546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4165061487972388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21806833769955075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925918520943663,0.0,0.1740480115175077,0.0,0.16551920963804068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20682935534686914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886036080935285,0.0,0.19814574604766969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18749272992151456,0.0,0.0,0.1994815684754568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481990135754041,0.15842615666424856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15647996936287714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676437673347541,0.0,0.19254370274432706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564533906177949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheMushiLeaf,2019/03/17,"Dealt with a hallucination today! Figured one demon out and banished it for good. It fucked up my memories and made me accuse people until they cried. Turns out that it was cause I was neglecting to admit I was afraid of things to myself. Made a list with my counselor and admitted the fears to myself. I'm a bit more fearful now, but that terrible demon just vanished. It used to hang around and laugh and just be awful in several ways. This sort of thing happen to anyone else?",3.7743478260869563,5.912730130434787,4.671086956521741,82.0559782608696,73.78260869565217,7.208695652173913,23.45652173913044,8.07648339933343,1.4080173913043477,380,11,69,6,8,123,66,92,0.196,0.713,0.091,-0.8717,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,4,8,1,3,4,1,4,1,0,4,0,22,13,7,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,10,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,6,0,1,5,0,8,2,16,7,2,10,2,1,0,1,3,5,1,1,3,52,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14010122935115638,0.20529961729648288,0.0,0.17836906467493352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21874881348389846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20583205001412494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200936847286447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16738087518106776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4509370454120944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18523601547786925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16805829029185526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771838310848686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3791841032131098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13577383003127558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138909213732976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22635761993782755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662297951202055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899244391518376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21794170345579067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17305271133332256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15904195762842946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,beepboop33,2019/03/17,"Is the Truman Show safe to watch? Hello, I am schizoaffective and my delusions include being watched, people knowing what I have said/thought. I was asked to watch the Truman Show with a friend because he really likes movies and we often watch them together. Would it be ok for me to watch it? I don't want to be triggered or develop more delusions. &#x200B; Note: I'm going to ask my psych but I don't see her for a few days",2.0213986928104566,4.447479741176473,2.9474509803921585,90.75241830065364,81.0,5.660130718954249,23.562091503267972,6.937597516519254,0.8682287581699342,338,12,67,4,9,107,61,85,0.013999999999999999,0.883,0.10300000000000001,0.7136,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,4,1,10,0,0,1,0,12,17,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,6,11,4,8,12,2,2,0,0,6,0,8,0,0,2,2,43,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29183092004821803,0.32727886209526513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.503595055222043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641878069050899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17370269813905898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20809223059655907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15307272825353416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14802279968977947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13158643429869415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18672717400608066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254677640051275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25620502133404505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21462994875245567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138267116050256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15886433234487676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913321573621065,0.0,0.32727886209526513,0.0 schizophrenia,kaylahhh1,2019/03/17,"You are ALL Geniuses! I was hospitilized a couple years ago, then went to jail.....labled schizoaffective, bipolar with psychotic features, post-partum psychosis, Severe PTSD onset at night time...... uhhh Anxiety you name it. Im also a Registered Nurse, Reiki Master, Tarot practitioner, Certified Hypnotherapist, Study palmistry, muscle kinetics with pendulum use, Crystals, etc and so on. Lets help one another. Visit my baby discord forum https://discord.gg/3FT6WKt",8.616847826086957,12.89492914492754,7.611431159420293,55.85453804347827,69.14492753623188,10.986231884057972,36.16123188405797,10.411451182825502,5.983331884057972,377,19,38,13,8,116,65,69,0.105,0.852,0.043,-0.5152,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,1,6,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,0,5,2,2,9,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,5,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22515872201664228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20312645752761724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26634475161624604,0.1943119347630763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810499728246812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.283280976046032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702531502683139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743673001514546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597357245222872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383650198136513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17211930318837665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432650804823239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29691642628777765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869515856340187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14811144728679038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21937741671343894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23546373169400986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16356988618412838 schizophrenia,Type2sugarnova,2019/03/17,"Is the suffering worth it. I have been dealing with psychotic symptoms since first grade. Been hospitalized at least a half dozen times since first grade. I'm a young adult now. I cant see myself doing another minute of this life. I keep hearing how it's time to move on. Move on to the other side. The void. My older sister came home and saw the state I'm in. She said in a raised voice not yelling how upset she was at me being so antisocial. Then started crying and walked out of my room. They will cry if I live. The disabled mental person. Or I can end the suffering and ""move on"" like the voices say. ""Its time to move on"" I know I'm suicidal but maybe that's okay. The hospitals didn't help. The drugs didnt help. The therapy didn't help. It just feels like my time to move on. 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She was put in the psych ward several times for months at a time and I didn’t think I’d ever get to see her again. She was pretty heavily involved with drugs at the time as well. She’s been on clozapine for roughly ten years now. She’s always stayed on it despite the awful side effects, namely weight gain and sedation. She sleeps so much that she can’t really hold a normal job. She hates taking it but knows it’s necessary to stay sane. Anyway, she got sick with the flu a couple of months ago and abruptly stopped taking her meds without telling me or anyone else, which probably made her feel even worse. The only thing that tipped me off was that she was able to get up early and was super touchy and agitated. She lied to me about it until finally coming clean to me. That night she went back on it. But because she had been off it for more than two days, it completely knocked her out and she was unresponsive, only able to wake for a couple of seconds at a time. Her speech was really slurred too. I had to call the ambulance and she stayed overnight at the emergency department. After that she was supposed to be tapering up to 100mg in 25mg increments. I highly suspect she’s been off them this entire time - she isn’t acting herself at all. She’s incredibly vague and just kind of aimlessly wanders around the house. She has trouble with conversation, often trailing off and not being able to easily think of words. It takes her a while to actually get a sentence out. She also stares at me all the time and it makes me feel really strange. The past half an hour she’s been kind of muttering to herself about having to do things but just sits/stands there. When you say something to her, she just looks at you with a vacant expression as if she’s not actually understanding what you’re saying to her, and then sometimes asks you to repeat what you’ve said. It’s as if she’s frozen in this kind of limbo or something. I ask her if she’s taking her meds and she vehemently maintains she is, but I don’t believe her. I don’t know what to do. I witnessed her being dragged away from me by the mental health team (literally) when I was little and it’s something that has stayed with me since. I love her so much and couldn’t stand to lose her again. Not having my mum when I was young was terrible. I’m so sorry this is rambling and all over the place, but I need some advice if anyone has any. Thanks so much.",3.367735990270372,5.150143966601181,4.182008139208534,86.66501146037984,73.97053045186641,7.519524745065019,24.29979418093367,8.269060116576782,1.3768450369538776,2025,62,412,34,42,649,245,509,0.095,0.8420000000000001,0.063,-0.951,1,0,4,0,0,0,47.0,0,3,1,6,26,11,1,0,21,1,37,11,2,3,4,69,68,41,0,8,18,3,4,0,0,0,7,4,1,0,27,26,1,2,9,1,0,5,10,4,1,4,24,11,70,7,70,40,8,72,0,1,3,1,66,28,0,8,34,291,97,3,0.2309456435847317,0.0,0.1502464225527336,0.0,0.0,0.07522580334885526,0.06823979285836579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06156238257878235,0.06405509204409049,0.0,0.0,0.05235031903372815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10765504249874636,0.07887703458201954,0.0,0.06853019537006337,0.1439353342543058,0.0,0.07232701147118603,0.05919431483094486,0.0,0.046927440256429115,0.0,0.0,0.08673221835235552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860710779030666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06631307420781392,0.08071403779128278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703579746467739,0.0,0.04964694481858342,0.0,0.0,0.15626997791393074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927454205636202,0.0,0.06430848363910692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050845806495825416,0.06963451883667014,0.0,0.07355948646778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784870435774015,0.0,0.0,0.08432988800439914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065956684310053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061569442820251764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07600367007188369,0.0,0.08182813987513453,0.0,0.0,0.051599332256536935,0.08133558408098851,0.0,0.0,0.07581164615789716,0.08882675511370987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639263858681551,0.0,0.0,0.2404943489203663,0.08461445730920666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07715606882313628,0.0,0.0,0.06464539182151383,0.08612303385450555,0.0,0.0,0.06947915335171638,0.07284211733064183,0.05138600347170694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710190313694079,0.0,0.07757962991277761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12289240623958095,0.0,0.1697716209811049,0.11416217894430285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07224228060577438,0.07542589877000645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11709637917030492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07348791628196495,0.0,0.0,0.08042968109048723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831824866108432,0.08299948821057937,0.0,0.0,0.07738805313914385,0.0,0.08187970653784507,0.0,0.0,0.14794969298155866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322739768977217,0.12243816350531468,0.0,0.0,0.06134459243458638,0.0,0.0,0.08696761372893966,0.0,0.06368020763324017,0.0,0.07703747658885078,0.0,0.0,0.17779323941482197,0.07613704892337178,0.08617491339826013,0.0,0.3282097703542361,0.0,0.06436029969940392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315231765809984,0.0,0.06728555727811507,0.0708745733623507,0.0,0.0,0.10228668242539478,0.0986537621551482,0.0,0.0,0.2693325239798516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752001120225954,0.0801408532357579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09374319225585986,0.06921595634649078,0.07136297511614678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07420778636705709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07845111368371757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04957380753940488 schizophrenia,Rainbowdragonmediato,2019/03/17,"Made in Auschwitz, Psychiatry the invisible War (Book Review) REVIEW by Winston Smith: Under the provocative title ""Made in Auschwitz. Psychiatry: The Invisible War "", Andrzej Skulskis and his two coauthors try to explain to outsiders what is going on behind the closed doors of psychiatry and its vicious circle. This is not such an easy task given the omnipresent psychiatric propaganda. Many pretend to know about psychiatry, but only those who have seen it from within can really tell. In three chapters history, current developments in psychiatry and politics, as well as the alternative project ""Art Bonus"" of the author are presented. Conclusion of the book: Psychiatry is a single fraud on a global scale. It does not help the so-called ""afflicted"" but directs them by means of drugs and tyranny to internalize the role of the ""mentally ill"". So millions of people are demoted to the intellectual level of a broccoli by chemical club. In this state they vegetate then drooling and twitching, between dorm and workshop for the disabled. The administered drugs ensure that the life expectancy of those affected by up to 32 years is shortened. An enslavement of industrial proportions that, in the author's opinion, reminds of Nazi concentration camps. Outsiders, who think that they can not be comitted, because psychiatry is only for the mentally ill and the mentally handicapped, will rub their eyes when reading this book. The therapeutic state is driven forward at all levels. Politicians make common cause with the psychiatry lobby. About absolutely everyone hangs the Damocles sword of forced psychiatry. Link to PDF of the Book (German Version): https://derblickfaenger.files.wordpress.com/2019/03/made\_in\_auschwitz.*\_psychiatrie\_der\_unsichtbare\_krieg\_2013\_e-book\_pdf\_\_2014\_07\_21\_12\_04\_41\_utc*.pdf ",12.256739926739929,14.835252860805864,9.38653846153846,54.77929487179486,53.35897435897437,12.220512820512822,43.37179487179486,11.855464076750405,6.187863003663003,1513,77,176,42,18,441,171,273,0.09699999999999999,0.848,0.055,-0.8534,1,0,2,0,0,0,74.0,0,0,4,3,6,5,3,0,27,0,13,9,2,6,1,29,24,14,2,1,5,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,2,0,14,9,1,0,6,8,1,4,3,3,1,3,5,4,5,2,45,17,3,28,0,0,2,0,11,17,0,1,7,126,19,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989734659900927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16678897825969416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14208278514284853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.376573314193754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551424346264035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09227322509137068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10882683411448577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922909567409859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146800368168428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4608883490901416,0.10837690782158113,0.16460808374540373,0.0,0.17685820385089396,0.0,0.0,0.4908636495452787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469649833454832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125603414424072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624044570198081,0.0,0.10401230656334973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419102507722569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10403406535816284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023213542655487,0.0,0.1586026360920002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14598160615616818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10455485165373997 schizophrenia,bluerose1986,2019/03/17,Seroquel is satanic Gained 100lbs on that shit. Now I'm on weight neutral aps and ad,1.66,4.237743529411766,2.301470588235297,93.70161764705885,84.29411764705883,5.752941176470588,26.14705882352941,7.1686216300943375,1.2803176470588236,68,3,14,1,2,21,16,17,0.17800000000000002,0.693,0.129,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6445134255420953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7645929925757847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FatalLady,2019/03/17,"Mum says pray away the schizophrenia I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia a few years ago, have been off and on medication (more on) since then. My mother is quite religious. My mother is set on me ""connecting to the truth"" and ""letting him heal me"" through prayer and worship. She is a firm believer this will cure my schizophrenia. I believe myself to be quite spiritual despite the fact I am not religious. I think having faith helps cope with the symptoms however I do not believe you can pray away an illness such as this. Its incredible frustrating, I feel as though I can't talk to her about schizophrenia nor trust her with my feelings. She also disagrees with me taking medication. I love her dearly. Idk, this might just be a rant. Anyone else have a similar situation going on?",5.274374999999999,7.58043435416667,5.315000000000001,78.33000000000001,70.04166666666666,8.411111111111111,31.44444444444445,9.075114841892004,2.947719444444444,633,28,108,13,12,198,95,144,0.107,0.754,0.14,0.7268,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,2,5,7,1,0,9,0,17,7,0,0,2,16,23,9,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,4,7,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,3,23,6,18,16,2,12,4,0,0,1,14,7,0,1,3,84,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14073194476534145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12696102174111282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11100930161152077,0.16266928736273034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29832215360124203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5366074507819749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16113895557911498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13262434700272027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605485465711487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022746914049684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10641407414772387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16234376048001678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14328789643501558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198697766915912,0.0,0.16842020936847385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377234852339888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12625302731621182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13132864400522518,0.1784538856682617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.165013347147292,0.1193684268873737,0.12760598496967696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10172756411590854,0.1559817626597295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10223680424885556 schizophrenia,Frinada,2019/03/23,"Stopped All Meds Was on abilify 10, Quetiapine 400 and Lithium 200. Had the absolute worst anxiety of my life and just completely stopped everything. It was life debilitating! The side effects weren't worth it to me but now of course my symptoms have returned. Sluggish, depressed, hallucinations, anger, and most of all paranoia. I left my psyche and I'm seeing a new one on Monday. I don't wanna play with medications anymore, I'm so sick of it, I don't trust it, I hate it. I feel like I'm about to have a mental breakdown and I know exactly why. &#x200B; Idk why I'm telling you guys this I just have nowhere else to vent. 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In my dream I was trying to sleep on a park bench in an old town i used to live in, next thing i know im running. I get to my old house but it looks very different and weird but of course you i never realise this when im dreaming. My mum was there and hung out like she never left and she expressed some concern she had. And told me i had a type of schizoid/phrenic mental illness, she had a paper with three different mental illnesses on them, with two of the words crossed out meaning she was worried i had some sort of disorder and was trying to diagnose me. They seemed calm but worried at the same time by her facial expressions. And she also said that i have an inability to realise i have these symptoms , therefore unknowing to the fact that i have mental illness. there is also reoccurring themes in my dreams that im always running. Whether it be running home, to my friends house, or just running aimlessly to nowhere. Ill be running for ages without stopping. Another one is violence, im always inflicting pain on someone else violently . A dream i had a few days ago, i was frustrated with a woman in a store and i ended up beating her to death with a chair . Very alarming dreams",4.316730211355157,5.783166503937008,4.861479486116867,84.01880853709078,70.96850393700788,7.86705346042271,31.872358060505594,8.371475516178862,2.417129133858268,1028,47,199,16,19,328,134,254,0.221,0.6779999999999999,0.10099999999999999,-0.9904,2,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,2,1,6,8,2,1,14,0,20,10,2,2,3,36,28,15,2,0,7,2,0,1,1,0,8,1,1,1,10,14,0,1,3,7,1,6,3,5,0,3,15,2,35,3,33,11,4,32,0,0,1,0,19,14,0,6,13,139,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937135786276034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690870074085241,0.17593347380849608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11085566483537636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06818005553641163,0.0,0.0,0.21460526547562134,0.0,0.22090785822021752,0.12116321561311955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08831471910302803,0.0,0.09363571873235907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167829280009843,0.0,0.05523385174000786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10604484904873113,0.0,0.0,0.2439712300082991,0.0,0.0,0.4567789570894108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058100437193122426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486408108651175,0.0,0.0,0.0516489985155043,0.0,0.09335187746249612,0.0,0.08877739447350877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11515906204471475,0.0,0.0,0.3196198776344982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16307413144163346,0.0,0.11243343245679747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22186876445923412,0.0,0.07163797923617646,0.0,0.11249254638487736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10056304692100132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624267264217014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10579542107587686,0.0,0.08957542665661149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08838587800075352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10988259494513956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07023505387775948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061645641068849386,0.0,0.0,0.10101910381252464,0.0,0.1435526206475591,0.0,0.10327217178781524,0.0,0.0,0.09130733469332722,0.0,0.2616879186560237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190941283956503,0.0,0.0,0.21472569873736788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwaw-ayylmao,2019/03/23,"How to get my psych to take me seriously Hello, all. I'm a lurker and finally got the courage to post. I'm not diagnosed with SZ, nor am I trying to self-diagnose, but I have a strong family history of psychotic disorders and feel my my symptoms more closely align with the SZ spectrum than anxiety so I thought you all might be able to give me advice with my psych. I'm currently diagnosed with PTSD due to childhood events and other things. The flashbacks and major symptoms have been managed fairly well by medication (20mg escitalopram once daily), but other symptoms have shown up in the last few months and even my husband has noticed something isn't right. My sleep schedule has been funky, personal hygiene has been severely lacking, no motivation, hard to care about anything. And in the last month I've heard mumbling occasionally when there's no one there and (most worryingly) I've had visual... Blips, as I think of them. Walls look shimmery, spiders where there are none, a faint image of Our Lady of Guadalupe on my wall (and I'm not religious), and a shadowy figure occasionally lurking out of the corner of my eye. These blips happen at random throughout the day, not just on waking/sleeping, and not just when I'm anxious. I've mentioned all this to my psychiatrist, even broke down crying in his office because of the distress this is giving me, and he seemed sympathetic but attributes it all to anxiety? He added bupropion 75mg once a day, and said I should start feeling better in a week or two, but so far the symptoms are still there and feel like they're getting worse. I sent him a message telling him how I've been since our appointment, but he hasn't reacted yet. All my friends are kinda worried and even my boss has noticed something is up. I just want some advice but I don't know what I want. Anything really, to let me know if this is normal anxiety symptoms or needing more psychiatric help before it gets worse.",7.675871934604906,7.468032520435965,7.610641689373299,73.18141212534063,63.032697547683924,10.500762942779293,37.15108991825613,10.008157457239328,3.701457874659401,1553,69,276,29,20,499,208,367,0.12,0.768,0.11199999999999999,-0.0525,1,0,2,0,0,0,45.0,2,1,1,3,21,10,0,1,16,0,26,11,2,6,5,67,56,31,0,7,16,1,4,1,1,2,9,2,0,1,10,20,0,0,10,0,0,1,11,3,1,2,10,8,31,7,36,42,13,38,0,1,2,0,23,18,0,9,19,183,41,5,0.08778891718672939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17157262768825268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20147484407704488,0.09917648829919873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14448559748832435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05351530908976032,0.0,0.07470190256663076,0.0,0.0,0.07764216316097845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08950665189649619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643200327964828,0.11323317797905127,0.0,0.0,0.267311709007023,0.0,0.0,0.10061370477109333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395125553451365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08275957811010047,0.0,0.13316614287429865,0.06271641997925455,0.0,0.09616846768969063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06782549964864237,0.0,0.13759825762839228,0.1684302575566421,0.0,0.0,0.0702128167444354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07763144954087348,0.0,0.0786416262986617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0588430606793113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649298601459858,0.14311936907575568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977011570454503,0.0,0.042889230547946085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07372058023307629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843809820312028,0.0,0.0931301679675742,0.0,0.0,0.14014455228664555,0.0,0.0,0.06509436972462926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08601449949098539,0.0,0.1998965281562336,0.0,0.18698466336711453,0.059488042280762266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07665389631106287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08407751556678844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10262054629357192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0562398283135174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07497125560697272,0.08350736370433247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991973308565586,0.09158298667717596,0.09917648829919873,0.0,0.07261989948250121,0.0,0.17570463458563398,0.0,0.0,0.13516839485756862,0.0,0.0,0.06213744743184407,0.0,0.07010834266688942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4562314936652602,0.06600634025887359,0.0,0.0767313830743578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05832305572016819,0.05625159337214393,0.0,0.06969459412905556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05960291215391918,0.0,0.08575701586285547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356035577829416,0.0,0.07041897402134045,0.0,0.0789327795759826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17830781355714478,0.17892881326059096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Commececommeca18,2019/03/23,"I'm really struggling. I'm struggling with feeling like being around is more of a hassle to the world (or atleast the part I'm in) than if I were to just not. Financially I'm drowning. I'm on disability and working some and my husband works full time, but due to child support and court related expenses we cant even make our rent or keep our phones on. I just feel like cutting off all my hair, getting drunk, and passing out for 3 months sounds like the answer even though I know it's not ok to check out like that. That's not even who I am or things I like to do.... I feel like I'm being electrocuted with things I cant do anything about. I dont really have any friends so I just thought I'd do this and see if making it helped. Disregard if you like. ",3.3338765008576345,4.044552679245285,4.444757004002291,88.94099485420244,72.52201257861634,7.794396798170384,27.033161806746712,8.00094639256281,1.370416352201258,592,20,135,8,11,194,94,159,0.085,0.7290000000000001,0.18600000000000005,0.9563,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,3,1,0,2,10,13,1,2,4,1,12,2,1,2,1,36,29,14,1,3,13,1,4,7,1,0,0,1,1,1,8,11,1,2,6,1,3,1,6,3,0,0,2,6,15,10,18,25,5,13,0,0,1,0,10,9,0,7,10,85,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10072450536793874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218875087249745,0.13185535749974328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17359179032075955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934892549189429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22467691844197693,0.3174440215622854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11443467478988972,0.0,0.07738491641506452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09927957106635957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13165302030596845,0.0,0.0,0.08140112149035228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5065367188767536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19773823266246734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182254192565907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16039606406865134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18977483384968816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802991546222633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30968768477567843,0.0,0.0,0.1680811930918252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19680444519139367,0.0,0.14552400718663655,0.117588196992095,0.08636809911285938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21566159369219615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizodepressive2,2019/03/23,"Tips for surviving on your own This is for me, but I think a lot of people could benefit from this. I've had someone to take care of me and make sure I don't kill myself for most of my illness. I'm rarely alone for over an hour. Sometime in April my fiance is going on a week-long trip, so I'll be all alone. Also, it's a possibility that I'll be spending all summer alone. &#x200B; My fiance does everything. He keeps my pills so I don't overdose. He does all the shopping because I struggle with being around people. When I'm hallucinating/delusional/paranoid, he reality checks with me. He gives me pep talks throughout the day to inspire me. (not as important, but he tucks me in throughtout the night as I have nightmares). Basically, he does everything. I don't know how to survive one week on my own, let alone a whole summer. &#x200B; My plan for the week is: 1. Have my fiance stock up on groceries before he leaves. 2. meet with my therapist and do frequent phone check-ins during the week. Does anyone else have any other suggestions? Suicide/self-harm are always looming for me, so basically I have no idea how to take care of myself and stay safe.",3.1926315789473665,5.2263798421052625,4.2270526315789505,85.06136842105266,75.14035087719299,6.8407017543859645,25.873684210526317,7.734863291789972,1.4443694736842099,916,33,179,13,20,297,131,228,0.05,0.775,0.175,0.9833,0,4,0,0,0,2,44.0,0,1,0,3,8,8,1,1,10,0,18,2,0,3,4,26,30,14,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,7,0,2,4,1,3,2,5,2,0,1,1,0,25,6,29,24,8,23,0,0,0,0,13,9,0,2,11,110,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.420964639025404,0.0,0.0812604481693918,0.08455074785926829,0.22019682735711052,0.24694356267154816,0.06910080812820177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710506695379112,0.10411525532178813,0.0,0.09045774636452474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061942775229658964,0.0,0.08646578406473364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20720390162316532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113028004498543,0.0,0.0,0.06553243745945593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3556913738875581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08488521695729323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826477031514385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974771309664445,0.05774941378856675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000690370514234,0.0,0.0,0.11470951153045175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09031893542121797,0.11242051616707767,0.0,0.05584423827129273,0.0,0.0,0.10759424834519857,0.0,0.1039069042860314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08992493685346868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08638834355850945,0.0,0.0,0.06782794129842498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535758450043244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06885608052210186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14089230603359146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455419168636034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600526195392232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08609696778764785,0.0,0.10049855867567482,0.0,0.0,0.10830669605106563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10622871369375243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09576972029810746,0.0,0.15280172974540912,0.08167325203854127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11798135062979533,0.0,0.06510996318299488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260335596597876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344807976851813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24694356267154816,0.0 schizophrenia,tofuwa,2019/03/23,"Can you help me understand my uncle better? I’m prefacing this with a warning. Murder, strong language, and suicide will be mentioned in this post. Please do not read any further if you are uncomfortable with those subjects. I’d also like to say that my uncle was never formally diagnosed, and my grandparents didn’t treat mental health very seriously. Please let me know if this isn’t the right place to talk about this. In 2017 my grandpa had missed an appointment with a customer, leading one of his employees to contact us. She hasn’t heard from him either, and it wasn’t like him to not show to scheduled meetings. We sent a police offices over to there house for a wellness check, but after an hour we couldn’t wait any longer and started to drive to their house. Halfway through the drive, the police officer notified us that they found three deceased persons in the home. Going back a few weeks my uncle had been beginning to act off. He was a heavy weed user, so the thought was that his mood was explained by that. He was depressed, had been for quite some time, couldn’t finish school with only one class left, and stayed locked in his room most of the day. When my parents and grandparents, along with my uncle and a few of his friends took a trip down to Las Vegas two weeks before these issues really began to rise rapidly. His friends informed us that while they were walking around Vegas with my uncle, he would say he overheard people on the street “threatening them, and calling them pussies, faggots,” even though his friends were standing right next to him, and didn’t hear any of that. They also admitted to other drug use while partying down in Las Vegas, specifically mentioning ecstasy. He continued to hear these types of conversations around him, his friends having to calm him down after each instance. Things started to get out of hand even faster, and my grandma decides to finally reach out to my dad to ask for advice. My uncle had supposedly heard a conversation in the middle of the night had by my grandparents, to which he immediately woke them up as asked about. What he had “heard” was that my grandmas brother was giving them a million dollars, half of it being specifically for him, and when he woke them up after hearing this conversation, he demanded his half. My grandparents were confused to what he was talking about, and told him it didn’t happen and to go back to bed. He insisted he heard it, and was getting angry and accusing them of stealing the money from him. He continued to hear these types of phone conversations between his parents and his uncle, confronting them about it each time, sometimes seeing them talk about it in front of him, and seeing other things that didn’t exist. The day before it happened, my dad met with my grandpa to get some drinks and to talk about what was happening, because my uncle had been getting angrier by the day. He got a spam letter in the mail, which he was offered to invest in some big opportunity, he claimed that this was because the company knew about the money that was supposed to come to him, and he was going to invest it into the company that sent him the letter. My dad advised my grandpa to take away the gun my uncle had in his possession, but my grandpa didn’t think it was that serious of an issue. He killed my grandparents the next night, and then himself. What I’m hoping to take away from this post is... just to get a little closer to my uncle. though, like I said he was never officially diagnosed, it’s just a speculation held by me and my family given everything that lead up to the end. As his niece, I can’t help but feel like I failed him by not being able to see these signs, we were very close as children being just 4 years apart, I wish I could have done more to help. 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Had sz symptoms for around 4 years but was too scared/ didn't accept it or seek help until recently. My main question is how does the process for applying for disability work? My doc thinks returning to work is unlikely and i haven't had luck with antipsychotics + antidepressants. They either don't do much of anything or make things worse. In the past before diagnosis limited marijuana use helped a great deal except of course that it could become addictive and does make me hallucinate a bit more, though they're not violent or paranoid kind of hallucinations, depending on the thc strain. I'm scared to bring this up with doc though because not sure how it would effect disability if I would rather use thc extract over these other options. Some meds have helped some symptoms but always trade off for other bad side effects that still keep me from functioning fully. I haven't had thc in many months or even alcohol but this anxiety is getting worse and suicidal thoughts/ voice has come back with antipsychotic. Im just wondering if anyone knows more about this kind of situation im in. It feels ""wrong"" to me that I felt better consistently before I stopped thc for antidepressants and antipsychotics. Thc doesn't stop voices or hallucinations but made them ""good"" if that makes sense. Ive been reluctant to go for disability benefits but I have no other options any more. I just want to know if I also have to stay on meds that aren't helping or stay off meds entirely until i am covered. worst case ill probably drop the meds and drink alcohol to get sleep and dull voices until disability is secured. Any input, even dissimilar experiences are welcome. PS had sz symptoms for 2 years before ever ingesting thc. And i know im supposed to seek immediate help if experiencing suicidal thoughts. 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When I’m very tired & about to fall asleep I start to hear voices. It’s not like these voices are, for example, coming from behind me or in front of me, but it’s more like they’re in my head and I’m not the one saying it. They just appear and I can hear the thought of their voices in my head. Could this be early signs of schizophrenia or is this something else? Thanks a lot!",1.9218018018018024,3.25373775675676,2.720900900900901,97.52207207207209,76.83783783783784,5.293693693693693,17.738738738738736,5.033348758259628,-0.7655693693693695,405,6,96,1,9,127,68,111,0.092,0.872,0.036000000000000004,-0.7237,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,0,4,0,8,5,4,0,0,17,21,8,0,1,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,8,0,0,8,3,0,0,3,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,1,8,10,3,16,18,2,14,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,4,6,61,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896669468440498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507903492814823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397634352631215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29246415810295145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593042573795125,0.0,0.591883293297118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620307702771906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17104148686784007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14882152083948474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118618626081248,0.13313365520766773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18289032516009804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16764981664361125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392070391917838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751767376398907,0.0,0.0,0.1347622872840569,0.0,0.0,0.1239015163379263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611628144246944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11216517580445833,0.0,0.13897039949408888,0.0,0.20119459005116425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14443484542699805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rakov,2019/03/23,"What's the difference between simple schizophrenia and depression? I've read definition of simple-type schizophrenia on wiki and it sounds pretty much like a depression, so what is the difference? How to tell which one you have? 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I feel like I've been severely depressed my whole life, I've been diagnosed with different things like schizoaffective, and I've also had crazy nightly dreams my whole life. Lucid dreams, sleep paralysis, sleepwalking, sleeptalking, waking hallucinations, and so many things in between. Could this be related to schizophrenia? Do you feel like you dream more than most?",7.191103896103897,10.905849409090912,4.714415584415587,78.05590909090911,70.06060606060606,8.61991341991342,30.640692640692638,9.23628265651192,3.3703965367965374,335,14,49,8,7,93,46,66,0.11,0.6579999999999999,0.231,0.8213,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,6,5,2,1,0,8,9,4,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,6,3,5,4,5,2,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,4,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16497423421624946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16470996805568702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17768179365512832,0.209385332872304,0.0,0.21553462504768986,0.0,0.0,0.1805303605454652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20861815037307813,0.29475473085775866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914248671729941,0.3023563114182352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13770367904994202,0.20915100078717447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19359411416088776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330549091108647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20644423061329276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741067904910182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4606425513209261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,baubaubuo,2019/03/23,"Curious - Question about hallucinations https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fl1XPQ7OPo0 I just watched this video/interview with this dude who suffers from schizophrenia and he at one point says if the interviewer were a hallucination he wouldn't be able to tell it since they are always so real. I was wondering, if he were experiencing such a hallucination wouldn't it be possible to find out it's not real by simply trying to touch it? Would your hand just go through? I'm not trolling or being disrespectful, I'm just wondering because I know nothing about the condition and all of sympathy to those who do have it. :( ",7.723018867924527,10.089632009433966,7.0548584905660405,68.08247641509436,63.81132075471698,10.58301886792453,34.00471698113208,10.686352973137794,4.0891735849056605,507,22,81,14,8,157,74,106,0.057,0.862,0.081,0.3695,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,0,7,1,0,0,4,0,12,1,1,0,1,23,18,6,0,5,8,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,10,4,0,0,5,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,3,5,5,0,13,9,1,4,0,1,1,0,11,3,0,6,0,58,15,1,0.21689853844530588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804769593661384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13221933585680945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19824133469067348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12326843782724728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192017643427178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20811999742420184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697606302883476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050392266341038,0.2445205124928271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429760026211976,0.0,0.0,0.4937560437678653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724864234415842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17942071236960827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18957888279126556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472598700103714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4704344253434711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15407849858846026,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CarefulTree,2019/09/27,"Can someone give me some information? Hi. My Mother was diagnosed Schizophrenic a few years ago. I'm trying to figure out if she's been misdiagnosed or if anyone can give me any idea of what exactly might be wrong with her. When this started, My mom had stopped eating and was very emotional and depressed. She would cry hysterically. Then my Mom had a suicide attempt. Then she was convinced she had HIV/AIDS after multiple were negative. Now, all she does is sit in a fetal position and stare at the wall and twitch and pant very heavily. She will close her eyes and they will dart around. She'll barely react to what you're saying. She always has glassy watery eyes. She moves very slowly, and prefers to lay in the dark in her bed and not do anything for days. She has a blank stare all the time. She does talk sometimes. When she was in hospitals and needed to be transferred to different areas, she would black out and not know where she was or remember what was happening. I don't have much information on her illness. I was 16 when this all started. I'm 20 now. My mother is 56. This started when she was like 51. I have no access to her medical records and she lives with her sister. Is there anyone who could give me a rough idea of exactly what's wrong with her? I can try to elaborate more if needed but that's the basics.",2.8104597701149423,5.109850996168586,3.7176153256704967,87.00391724137934,77.35249042145594,7.087877394636017,23.466819923371645,8.109356740369918,1.3502614865900386,1054,34,209,19,25,337,145,261,0.07400000000000001,0.9059999999999999,0.02,-0.8944,1,0,0,0,0,1,29.0,0,0,1,1,9,5,0,0,9,0,34,8,2,1,5,48,46,23,1,9,8,5,1,1,0,6,5,1,1,0,9,18,1,1,8,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,13,7,35,2,23,24,7,32,0,1,5,0,38,13,0,7,18,147,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669064448606007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001480040682758,0.0,0.0,0.08184798110908377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16831507519673472,0.0,0.09904487964584736,0.10714467914583248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09609655528451846,0.0,0.13220827992371395,0.07762134551686528,0.0,0.1036646932094581,0.12216145418307565,0.0,0.1257491289453756,0.0,0.0,0.21065325890690506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12315690414012101,0.0,0.13538723483019846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.346376833644573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10643272007965808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717404379803443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06614594362774909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05880113660557192,0.0,0.1062788564508384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12124863577968048,0.0,0.12768146359350893,0.0,0.2819250954272313,0.0,0.1279221532841297,0.08847742594760162,0.1784887664120069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634284101616867,0.0,0.0,0.09571399638612896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10197945847404342,0.0,0.11903774145037395,0.0,0.25557132791250664,0.0,0.0,0.1006251860772402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316527827972946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09673969047606162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07018207256311745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634311893627731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979253711628411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17099860456055624,0.26318648854949483,0.0,0.07750699781555102 schizophrenia,Enosss,2019/09/27,"Invega/Xeplion/Trevicta (Paliperidone) Can anyone, who may have experience with either of these meds, answer me a couple of questions? 1) Is it normal to gain a BUNCH of weight? As in 35Kg 2) How does it feel compared to taking no meds? Does it really stop your dopamine flow and make you down/damped? (Since I'm taking it 3,5 years already I can't remember) 3) Is it entirely possible to ever quit these meds for good?",2.881,5.347857099999999,4.092500000000005,83.53250000000001,78.0,7.5,23.75,8.472884824447931,1.7801250000000004,328,11,61,7,8,107,64,80,0.059000000000000004,0.85,0.091,0.5525,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,2,1,13,11,3,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,2,1,1,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,10,10,2,5,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,3,36,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19467861509943965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12335364458369134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952001185343488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087643480445985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957769349141254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17256796582724954,0.0,0.0,0.08920085103080395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14796874164497284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11775854919009633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5878727179779275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728494883904617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19888168737539488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976254544062012,0.1876393336429904,0.0,0.0,0.11301612645176967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19984408803051149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14593251773594998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14749104826209286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652846255408079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148262478240096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360563692958978 schizophrenia,heyzoom,2019/09/27,"having trouble telling some dreams from reality my friends gave me an alarming wakeup call the other day. i had mentioned a story to them, that they were involved in. i was at my friends house and she offered for me to try a weighted blanket, i laid it on myself and had trouble getting out from under it so i had them help me. simple enough. but it turns out everything i remembered from that extremely vivid memory was false. neither of them have ever owned a weighted blanket, neither of them remember that happening and im losing my mind over it. im not mistaking it for another friend, i remember this situation down to time of day and what we were wearing. it feels so incredibly real. ive even told other people the story, ive been so confident that this was a legitimate experience. now that i know it was a dream, reflecting back on it, ive realized a lot of minor details i remember are also probably from dreams i thought were real. is this common? ive never experienced this before, i always thought if you were to have this symptom it would be much more pronounced",4.647742718446602,6.419562645631071,5.985618932038838,75.0804672330097,70.60194174757281,9.033495145631068,32.77791262135922,9.516144504307137,3.3725543689320405,859,41,149,20,16,289,119,206,0.040999999999999995,0.8320000000000001,0.127,0.9573,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,1,5,1,8,8,0,1,9,0,23,4,1,0,2,29,32,10,0,3,3,0,3,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,22,7,2,0,10,3,0,0,4,5,0,0,16,5,29,3,23,14,8,17,0,1,1,0,19,9,0,3,8,126,51,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952964437072231,0.09915507193583667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12495520247853972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916307565558544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140088947761297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168109011928273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15370351451505904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12312960507714345,0.0,0.07870755376104913,0.1077918320641052,0.0,0.0,0.10709808371559544,0.1165665249641933,0.0,0.0,0.060253553889128675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2762004349555106,0.0,0.06225894849930873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10537747720494296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07987398563437198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13750075149473484,0.0,0.0,0.2574379358772701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06549012993011692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13331548429121062,0.0,0.1013100727887034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203229781835614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08760020348035225,0.0,0.09190762214795987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08261421154558889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12848034342832365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712723896197385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5399641993734765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13394678490062747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12385836953508232,0.0,0.0,0.10415572063438898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892078673676062,0.06948624207086337,0.0,0.0,0.11386754650598982,0.0,0.08090541338585916,0.12961762225876328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902224530479709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465160685863662,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SchruteForPrez,2019/09/27,"My brother is recently diagnosed and on medication but won’t stop smoking weed that puts him into psychosis. 17m. Just such a great kid, so smart and a really good athlete. He got really heavy into weed over the last summer with friends which is understandable for his age but that’s where it all started. It started with paranoia such as believing all the police are after him, that we were paying people to follow him, and that we would also hire people to fill places he was at. Like restaurants or other public places. Then it went into full blown psychosis where he would make threats or just talk complete nonsense. Challenge his dad to fist fights. He’s currently being held in an ER waiting for a spot in a treatment center after smoking then having a break down while at school which almost got him kicked off his football team. My mom wants him in a treatment center for his addiction to marijuana before sending him to a treatment center that’s focused on Schizophrenia. But I am more of the stance that it should be the opposite. Our family is ripe with mental illness issues but this is the very first time I’ve ever seen someone I love so completely of the hinges. When asked why he just won’t stop smoking weed he says “it’s the only thing that calms him down.” But it’s like he can’t see the disaster that follows after. Does anyone have any words of advice for me or my family? I would appreciate it to much. I love him so much and he’s really such a good kid and this is so heartbreaking.",4.687244611059043,6.310193577319588,5.1397703842549225,81.77220477975635,70.27147766323024,7.765135895032802,26.97297719462668,8.296473431620573,1.8441601374570444,1205,40,220,18,22,384,161,291,0.10099999999999999,0.743,0.156,0.9658,1,0,0,0,1,0,20.0,3,0,0,3,15,14,2,0,17,0,20,6,0,1,3,40,37,23,0,5,11,3,0,2,1,6,4,1,0,2,21,13,0,4,1,1,1,6,3,3,1,1,7,3,23,11,34,22,6,48,0,1,2,2,38,22,0,4,21,153,44,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320385358713473,0.0,0.11835693482308501,0.0,0.0,0.1212840537150982,0.0,0.0,0.09685951599135226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08236566473220595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846898290292201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11323072813243056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103064088163342,0.1364606166714673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539837578302512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12293411813092647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599281413397676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10955985633238267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283620674076517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030244992412954,0.0,0.0,0.09357691083269663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031792003207399,0.19374124852283384,0.1335350838683166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641767597365547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09872885940989794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11834610060991875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186308223702701,0.0,0.08084845349560749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12201552620530245,0.1220603408993093,0.0,0.0,0.1418541274622677,0.0,0.0,0.1780740808317859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211711873124136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16793853438848544,0.0,0.253088969446364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175892252022685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23277746982784786,0.0,0.1195912592591171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631938173297867,0.0,0.12257977435646347,0.0965168546603436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10262447249676586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17145853426285632,0.0,0.0,0.2025232688148484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973515632771588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080466659484842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07062597000701745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12609005581640434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09993657715153743,0.07143963722102672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227933260392027,0.1092918433591124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25812024087934465,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BOOB_Dog,2019/09/27,"I kinda hate being on meds Does anyone else feel this way? I kinda want to be my old self again. Yeah scared the shit outta me. But idk. Somethings off about me. Ive been on meds for about 3.5 years and it was good at the start. But for now i dont do anything with my life. Not being on meds made me think in crazy ways and i kinda miss it. Note: THIS IS FOR ME. DONT STOP TAKING YOUR MEDS NOT GOOD MKAYYY. Dont want to trigger anyone. Im just trying to spark up a conversation to see if people can relate on this topic.",-0.8752380952380925,1.2360817142857137,1.1237857142857166,100.30454761904764,93.46428571428572,3.343809523809524,11.038095238095238,4.604124745555138,-1.7642519047619043,400,4,95,1,15,131,75,112,0.15,0.754,0.096,-0.8185,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,5,6,2,1,3,1,12,2,1,2,0,19,22,5,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,3,2,12,2,18,16,0,16,0,1,1,0,3,8,1,4,6,59,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856003671610328,0.13598625980911935,0.10921639672621668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11614325737338398,0.0,0.4666369024622197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11086966200516342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06710669457018477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22263673578797413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310324973499674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433592528457627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09374332730187282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255818901516999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5896833864341453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392662241070022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201061686000804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13287483322834445,0.0,0.1057598289400678,0.0,0.13845482152107988,0.0,0.13623410650769052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10217354043750322,0.0,0.0,0.093939163878519,0.0,0.0,0.11095899437262847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09978814178681486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08504095141677144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09010746279214868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15656216395830466,0.21069226777346825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08546665968750199 schizophrenia,peeledlotus,2019/09/27,"Do any of you guys call your partners whatever words come to mind? I recently was diagnosed with schizophrenia... maybe this is a weird one but do any of you guys call your partners with whatever words come to mind? I used to give my partner a different nickname every day or more, like whatever foods or animals came to mind.. hashbrowns” for example lol, it was always pretty off the cuff, maybe if someone didn’t know me they’d think I was just saying random words out loud but it’s how I would address him? Uhhh",4.1684090909090905,6.040417898989903,4.612007575757578,84.03801136363639,72.03030303030303,8.182323232323233,28.536616161616163,8.841846274778883,2.3105646464646465,408,16,77,8,8,129,70,99,0.013999999999999999,0.8640000000000001,0.12300000000000001,0.9166,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,4,1,0,2,2,0,0,3,1,9,2,0,2,0,24,16,6,0,2,6,0,0,1,3,1,1,2,1,5,3,6,1,0,2,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,5,2,12,1,11,9,1,7,0,0,0,0,15,2,0,4,3,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193525291869695,0.0,0.0,0.2156535058082584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3238165246997933,0.18135126639364996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731721066422667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225857168032423,0.0,0.0,0.1609358319669743,0.0,0.16566224445574815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335942775124553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917322982901858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15210592754605706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140001591497043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08714084602348476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07746477727777792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31859118739462505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4803034957864278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10744487338887378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16131329478282813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15655961987986386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12609387913965825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13434801593361714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10159933149702854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13694558557070324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11263701334507112,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheKasimkage,2019/09/27,"Struggling with Appetite Loss Tl;dr: Friend’s new meds have worked wonders with her episodes, but now anything that isn’t water makes her nauseous and she can’t eat. A friend of mine suffers with schizophrenia. I usually lurk in this sub so I can try to learn some things I can do to help them feel better or, hopefully, get better. Lately she’s been on a new round of meds that have done wonders for her, but now she’s lost her appetite. This loss of appetite has affected her quite significantly. I was just wondering if anyone knew of a way to help her get to eating again. Anything other than water seems to make her feel very nauseous (I ran though the idea of things from soup to juices and she said everything but water made her feel nauseous). Does anyone have any advice?",5.68187919463087,6.75889077852349,5.109590604026844,84.96787583892619,67.38926174496643,7.570738255033557,28.322818791946307,7.554174236665415,1.5467497986577183,622,20,118,6,10,188,91,149,0.10800000000000001,0.754,0.138,0.8381,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,7,6,10,0,1,4,0,12,5,0,4,0,27,29,9,0,2,6,0,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,7,5,5,0,10,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,8,5,19,5,19,21,1,11,0,4,1,0,18,2,0,8,7,75,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12568013200802894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08746194409263834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17985982668509856,0.0,0.21167675998512275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274972983031096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11255099578383504,0.13161679648955682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632085023617087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558998826788128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19509333908263987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19873374591757315,0.0,0.13439103440387284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17241453333383097,0.0,0.0,0.12774274205312908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451895738434298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14508221680798447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14039739601971246,0.0,0.0,0.12169769566174678,0.17170171436361115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857223649539067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24843244429053876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13679684188592506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12234138551602525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11708537357721413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13445529900140174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17089088022457896,0.0,0.12636262182872582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08732047726375654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14165017278860864,0.106120036207511,0.0,0.10208782273783812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4184292557714449,0.09363253848472164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,superduperdaperdan,2019/09/27,"Do you ever have mind hallucinations Like I keep imagining someone’s gonna yell at me but it’s my own thoughts Or I keep thinking there’s a man in the middle of my room just watching me then I start tending up and keep expecting him to say something or grab me but it never happens and I check and he isn’t there Sometimes I go through whole scenarios where I see him finally and idk how to react and I scream and my parents will think I’m crazy I’m thinking about it all right noww laying in bed trying to sleep",1.4468686868686866,3.61621944444445,2.9890909090909084,91.11954545454546,81.40740740740742,5.779124579124581,24.63299663299664,6.980632752743323,0.9194703703703704,412,16,88,5,11,135,76,108,0.083,0.899,0.018000000000000002,-0.7579,1,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,1,2,3,26,19,12,0,1,5,1,1,1,0,2,0,3,2,1,3,6,0,3,5,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,1,6,16,1,10,16,3,14,0,0,2,0,7,8,0,2,6,56,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18040562204374905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21847764810434372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133468029073764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17636484101367544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5318164410884277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09743670086702176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20137835408950505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15382104030205015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214554064702311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17032135370289256,0.0,0.1586033293407244,0.0,0.0,0.15892849612617535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19958483402880312,0.0,0.16898554285725598,0.153539271842254,0.1972520511531556,0.0,0.14116522494588848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3833808352356236,0.0,0.15833371765925702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13540721174404266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226685310576844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SecretStaff,2019/09/27,"Part of being schizophrenic is (something) trying to take away your ability to choose what you believe Your head was a safe spot to believe whatever you wanted your whole life. A place you could think about your own ideas or other peoples. A happy place where thoughts are just thoughts. Thinking about whatever you wanted, hearing your own voice in your head. Suddenly there's another voice in your head that's not yours, putting ideas in your head that cause you to feel different. If you believe that voice. If it's a bad voice in your head, it'll want you to feel fear, paranoia, trapped, helpless, annoyed. I believe it gets stronger the more you believe it. The voice, and your feelings. How to defeat this bad voice so it no longer controls how I feel? Well we got to make sure we know why it's there. Think about all the things it causes you to feel, it doesn't go away after you feel that way. It persists. It's there for control over how you feel. If you didn't believe in the voice would you feel paranoid? Would you feel scared? If you believe you are weak by the voice, isn't that what it would want you to believe? So it maintains it's control over you by what you believe. Isn't that something every schizophrenic has, a **belief** that something not normal is happening. What if a schizophrenic has the power to manifest his/her beliefs? At the same time ""something"" is fighting for control of what you believe? To keep you in the weakest position. Believe you are strong. Believe that whatever's thrown at you, you get stronger. Believe that bad voice is just a tool for you to get stronger. Make that bad voice suffer, don't let it make you suffer. It came to you. You didn't come to it. It's a tool. A tool to overcome fears that just exist in your head! That bad voice that I had conversations with in my head all day long, that use to tell me to burn, that said it was Satan, went away the less I believed it. In the end, I believe it was my brain attacking me, and me defeating it by putting it in a position of less power. I put that voice down to be more pathetic than me with sound logic. Eventually I just called it bad thoughts. &#x200B; I transformed my belief. I have control in what I believe in. Believe in yourself. Don't give away all your power. Even a simple belief that the voices will always be there puts you in a less powerful position. &#x200B; I no longer hear voices.",3.1722527198323185,5.417445266094423,3.323206906876933,90.53909521908376,75.95278969957081,6.137458828226371,26.71703762850584,7.121374137718711,1.23715306916858,1898,74,375,21,43,580,174,466,0.156,0.784,0.06,-0.9939,5,1,4,0,2,0,75.0,2,42,0,13,19,23,3,3,23,0,31,13,8,14,4,74,70,13,0,14,12,0,9,0,0,5,5,18,0,0,49,8,0,7,24,0,0,8,11,18,1,0,13,27,62,5,57,47,13,41,5,5,0,0,52,26,0,6,6,262,111,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033057348038894464,0.08609176551720397,0.09654910812599124,0.0,0.04165886360585352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04519697722788275,0.1493051755617102,0.0,0.19903015007676075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7609282825923785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04435021671996425,0.0405673060116193,0.04543889368343025,0.0,0.08162435842798152,0.0,0.03422264028764251,0.0,0.0,0.22279481493315567,0.03172002580514216,0.0,0.0,0.025621637274457897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04150789383981248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035187715856471034,0.0,0.0,0.026240341993324003,0.0,0.03347302885344334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08941135994284154,0.1807916021183372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06226960524245484,0.03811125892764563,0.0225786586042777,0.0,0.03177456209834057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0351318381542665,0.04229179538605882,0.0,0.0,0.28541078022886895,0.0,0.08955395857136145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969742650521219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03531257331621991,0.0,0.0,0.02183377991610174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0406251486307925,0.028061459837883596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0351585291698264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07955737538818057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03892555778501229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04302216355457651,0.0,0.02754278415317596,0.0,0.08301578767962495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15975272066815507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037790962344525454,0.0,0.039775223511062385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223399588644254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03744370163054773,0.0,0.029870936029724175,0.0,0.0347245162555164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02639389276306641,0.07636937939292025,0.0,0.09462012685516533,0.023166045298598663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026973087269380025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034312723737230946,0.0,0.0,0.09373174608792323,0.03153468508344528,0.0,0.0,0.035720750462990926,0.03682877707648332,0.035848849846210666,0.04435552318820876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08466609650956944,0.0,0.09654910812599124,0.0 schizophrenia,anxietyman5000,2019/09/27,"I am vividly hallucinating a large black spider running on the ground, right now. Hi, I feel really light headed, and I keep seeing a large black spider running really swiftly across the ground and disappearing into nothing, also crawling around the furniture. How can I better cope with this? It feels like a dream, but I am most certainly awake. Thanks.",6.344838709677423,8.746636064516128,6.375032258064518,71.44254838709679,67.38709677419354,8.830967741935485,28.529032258064518,9.3871,2.894892903225806,284,10,43,6,5,90,46,62,0.0,0.765,0.235,0.9141,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,6,0,3,1,1,1,1,12,8,5,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,7,5,4,5,8,1,11,0,0,4,0,1,7,0,1,2,28,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455860018706028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27338215292118484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716030504530117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105557526068401,0.21939073161241746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31517094329200823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729626373345671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15003247429174096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946686241675416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39346943220103053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622598455548961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447171886681335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827343968383608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HelpMeMyHeadHurts,2019/09/27,"Writing a book, it helps express myself Hey everyone! I've been in the process of writing a book for a while and I want your thoughts. &#x200B; ***Relief*** &#x200B; “I remember her name. Tina, she was called. Everyday we were together, everyday we grew closer. How lovestruck and dumb I was at 15, only for love to come into my life. Her body was smoother than glass, her personality sharp. She hit hard, only to crash harder. It was bound to end this way, wasn’t it? Heed the warnings, I was told, don’t get involved with her others said. She is dangerous! Nobody sane would mess with her. Was I sane? Did the doctor think so? Did you? What about those whispers in the dark?... Even the ones out in the day look at me oddly, something must have been wrong with me then.” He sighs. Talking for long is difficult, his lungs are blacker than coal, have more holes than there is sand on a beach. He’s done a toll on his body. “What did it feel like to have to let go?” The man said gently. “I… I… I don’t know…” the boy’s typical response to most questions. He thought, as he always had to when answering a question of the sorts. “It was relieving, my life ruled by one thing, that came from many selfish instincts. Yet, I don’t know what I will do at this point, without it, I am nothing. Life lost it’s luster, the joys of the old ways are gone, and I am slowly trying to replace them.” A somber look overtook the boy, only to be replaced by a straight face. &#x200B; His own words echo with him sometimes. Where do they come from, he wonders occasionally. “Tina had given me so much life, so much escape and reprieve, but it ripped away everything I wanted to hold near and dear. The mistakes and grievances of my past never haunted me, the future wasn’t one to frighten, only the present high mattered.” The man looked at him, understanding, for he had played the same game. “Why did you have to use?” That was always a silly question, especially coming from another addict. It made sense though. “I don’t know…” his words trailed off as he pondered. “I just had to.” That was the only answer to suffice. “We used cause were drug addicts, that’s why you had to.” Not much made sense in the boys reality, but for once, he was understood by another. &#x200B; I know it's only two paragraphs, and yes the next one or a two later will probably hit on the topic of schizophrenia more since it was briefly talked about in the first one. So... what are your thoughts? any suggestions? I am writing this based on my own experiences in life.",1.614490307312149,4.230692993839835,2.4094400167055308,92.489803361988,85.18069815195071,5.108676434761424,22.627953920579124,6.6175320697248425,0.5979626840218559,1956,70,394,22,59,610,252,487,0.057999999999999996,0.873,0.07,0.6903,0,0,2,0,0,0,106.0,3,5,2,2,14,17,2,0,32,1,52,14,4,6,2,67,86,21,0,5,6,0,4,1,0,4,9,3,0,6,25,20,0,2,17,5,0,7,9,8,1,8,40,10,48,8,62,38,9,50,0,1,3,1,58,24,1,7,18,262,73,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427147875458013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10893032767074703,0.2836889461462009,0.3181479038218196,0.04451275631675757,0.13727397786529594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06149866316310312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454151304019712,0.0,0.0,0.06683854269504405,0.07486495244731416,0.0,0.06724199487367502,0.0,0.16915528504758787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04221411440028303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669976394268176,0.0,0.06698486353249304,0.0,0.0,0.07590891534557223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057975149938233175,0.0,0.0,0.043233489996870905,0.0,0.0,0.06254661970286249,0.05882820275496412,0.06402914904850524,0.0,0.0,0.033096841343209386,0.04676223303156345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05567738018376744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03419839009775732,0.0,0.03720051404662155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058636287852137974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04387420258819897,0.0691585285611268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14389301874751825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06693384397953392,0.2311697849645772,0.031978805456225334,0.0,0.0,0.0579270620617332,0.1649012628537232,0.0,0.07145364925702337,0.0,0.05907716856982316,0.12387330118261608,0.0,0.0663627539353343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14435447450404346,0.0,0.050484192086991495,0.0,0.06961387377593127,0.0,0.0,0.06280740653509385,0.0,0.06868572730723019,0.06970917986544634,0.22177554910218653,0.2986963224555101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624857645581464,0.0,0.05715420879031221,0.0,0.0,0.06187767740838846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07057332335936302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199792345345324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07414960730184188,0.0,0.12452849836407175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05414640477649596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050391715446471634,0.06473828561043905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052231273140486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04348647967472491,0.041941968603039684,0.06431081142046209,0.15589576953441406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06254661970286249,0.0,0.04444075839187437,0.0,0.1278832420982202,0.06814266535418816,0.0,0.11306703234556822,0.0,0.0,0.07721603834112489,0.10391286001199727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11812886368781245,0.0,0.0,0.06309786019135133,0.07098492832581288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04649851537061837,0.0715665546780761,0.3181479038218196,0.0 schizophrenia,elijahp119,2019/09/27,"Got to get out Hi I'm newly diagnosed, I'm 16. I was wondering if anyone else constantly feels like they have to get out or get away? I was pulled out of school for this reason and it's been getting worse.",-0.52901515151515,1.6794762500000004,1.7518181818181835,95.56439393939397,93.3181818181818,5.660606060606061,16.424242424242426,7.1686216300943375,0.09976969696969684,161,4,37,3,6,54,34,44,0.073,0.8690000000000001,0.059000000000000004,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,9,13,3,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,3,1,8,9,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,2,20,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17689078305040942,0.2592097887485417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376847641852545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27338349312458043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567712400539649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21133386348973912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12791521840196973,0.18073027541111594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.528690275061299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20233268595065698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235941473009008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601074632356699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25603112582239435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743480115182505,0.0,0.0,0.2578101054737141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,vicsk8,2019/09/27,"I don't have schizophrenia. I found this subreddit a week ago and your good vibes makes me read it everyday. I don't know how hard it's to have schizophrenia and I'm not going to say anything like 'I understand how much you are suffering' becouse I don't . I have suffered paranoia from smoking weed when I was a teenager, and I got some symptoms you describe here so they touch me, but nothing else compared to schizoprenia. I wanted to ask you, what's the hardest thing of having such a disorder for you personally? I give you from here a big hug. I'm also struggling with some mental issues. We all deserves a good life.",2.7635792349726738,5.145744237704921,3.656967213114754,86.95189890710384,77.93442622950819,6.361748633879781,28.19945355191257,7.492282038375204,1.7544568306010928,495,22,94,7,12,158,82,122,0.08,0.782,0.138,0.5764,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,6,1,0,8,7,0,1,6,0,9,3,0,3,1,17,20,9,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,5,5,0,0,3,1,0,1,4,3,0,0,3,3,20,4,9,17,4,6,0,2,0,1,12,1,0,2,5,66,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18160451401643996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16383412231509015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16859020132970534,0.0,0.19152539399775245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347982780118533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711422387030656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22462891075205707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19652956090507934,0.11643209870733365,0.3436697532145657,0.16385291152395473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18352289558352972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21383060586536956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11259095869690534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14470543706690067,0.1000889242754965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13675202981778095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20646034223941875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15060270765108308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19657787922180092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788842076502849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20492501212044004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16292050612315248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21417415808977056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129379279514524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13610624002605304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21327644905004167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12083738126112804,0.0,0.16433401271913534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FireofGreen,2019/09/27,"An emotional drum and bass song. Listen to New Dayz by WVS on #SoundCloud https://soundcloud.com/whitevenomspider/new-dayz",15.604000000000001,21.805172400000004,8.575000000000003,46.9425,58.33333333333333,8.333333333333334,27.5,8.841846274778883,3.155000000000001,106,3,11,2,2,27,15,15,0.0,0.897,0.10300000000000001,0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.503233837608178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8641502789944271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tangoiscute,2019/09/27,"Love you guys I am here trying to understand better my brother that has schizophrenia. Thank you for stay strong. Take your meds, I am sending you the best energy and love. I want you and my brother to make trough this. <3",2.2576744186046507,4.96192220930233,2.3081860465116293,93.83158139534883,82.72093023255816,5.300465116279073,20.227906976744187,6.742157984588678,0.30943162790697665,177,5,35,2,5,53,32,43,0.0,0.564,0.436,0.9741,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,5,0,3,1,6,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,0,5,10,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,6,3,10,1,2,0,0,0,2,11,0,0,0,0,23,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999223113824402,0.25276084382514136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28298018149313203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5158790078594736,0.0,0.19076916751312706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31745179658899403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046175049136993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148809046838519,0.0,0.0,0.2631199635057854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194034809916681,0.0,0.0,0.2975207804201975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16856822277788544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,llukas2305,2019/09/27,1 week in remission I don’t know who else to tell but I’ve been in remission from my psychotic episodes for 1 week!! I thought it would never happen but now I’m getting Abilify shots along with 2mg orally and I’m taking 15mg of zyprexa a night and it’s overwhelming to be on this many medications but I was recently diagnosed and I’m finally getting better! Just thought I’d share this for anyone who thinks it will never get better :),2.6549719101123586,4.662674764044944,4.393693820224719,83.37683286516854,76.64044943820224,8.49494382022472,27.97893258426966,9.188382445141503,2.5558865168539318,350,15,70,9,8,118,61,89,0.038,0.8290000000000001,0.133,0.8464,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,1,0,6,2,0,0,2,16,18,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,4,3,11,11,0,11,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,8,39,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436188206644292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36331508029128345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20847430285038887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17158339014308274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250030984307351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219354019964045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816324737410609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288118315545195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082409903379378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20691653504589286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168306778482951,0.0,0.0,0.1927517913121609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20280541138703206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15443347940451832,0.0,0.17952660943205367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13161052790440794,0.0,0.3261256002021355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3295152293419268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14590860559308122,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FieldsOfLavender,2019/10/29,"Have you ever had any interaction with EMTs, police, or firefighters, either good or bad? Would you be willing to anonymously share your story to help educate them? POSTED WITH PERMISSION OF THE MODS I am a person with mental illness, trying to raise awareness of how best for EMTs, police, and firefighters to treat mentally ill patients. I have made a [Facebook page](https://www.facebook.com/thementallyillpatient/) where people's stories will be anonymously shared if they are messaged to me either through Reddit or the Facebook page itself. Once a decent number have been submitted, a firefighter I personally know will be sharing the Facebook page with all of the EMT and firefighting contacts he knows, which will help educate those first responders on the do's and don't's of interacting with mentally ill patients. Stories that explain what was helpful or unhelpful for the first responder to do are most appreciated. Would you be willing to share your story?",11.919208074534161,11.79958827329193,10.361855590062113,56.618062888198786,54.465838509316775,13.267391304347825,43.727484472049674,12.38480682065935,5.881514906832298,796,38,108,21,8,247,98,161,0.066,0.748,0.18600000000000005,0.9597,0,0,0,0,5,0,26.0,0,5,2,3,3,8,0,0,10,0,23,3,0,2,2,25,27,9,0,3,7,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,2,5,8,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,4,0,11,7,20,12,7,6,0,0,0,0,24,2,0,6,3,87,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12410481431266765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15237810414953026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915202624307684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16507977772607407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104652014784778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15307056046948994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3669734396974381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005921206661728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726839036002158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.551744807432843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943542826583548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265210491166902,0.3187002134234862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747825188592845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390407884180753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25928251105460504,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xcandicemariex,2019/10/29,how do you date and deal with delusions about your boyfriend/girlfriend what has been your delusions and how do they react? im really insecure and embarrassed about this kind of thing. thanks,4.5691176470588255,7.869416205882352,2.995588235294118,88.72514705882355,78.11764705882355,6.9294117647058835,26.14705882352941,8.07648339933343,1.945611764705883,157,6,27,3,4,44,27,34,0.155,0.768,0.077,-0.4509,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,1,0,4,4,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,3,0,7,5,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,2,4,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4604392753079453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4824196043478754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4650796047579845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28611227267844297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41118203460573816,0.0,0.0,0.2967104011880141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,N01really,2019/10/29,"Sensory overload So question for you guys. I have read lots of articles that this is a schizophrenia thing but I just want input from people who actually have it. I get sensory overload, badly. It can be a serious problem. It tires me to think of going into the details but for those of you who don’t know the term - so, basically, say you go into a restaurant with someone. There are other people there talking, restaurant noises, music. The people talking, the restaurant noises, the music become so loud to you that you cannot hear anything else, it is deafening, you can’t even hear the person sitting right next to you, you are looking at them and watching their lips move and you cannot hear them in this little restaurant. It gets to be so much that you cannot even stay, you have to leave because it is deafening, it is so distracting and distressing. And you cry because you stayed past the point of being able to bear it, and no one understands. That’s a typical example. Do others of you experience this?",5.1502678571428575,6.663666229166673,5.737738095238093,78.35250000000002,69.0,8.402380952380952,30.901785714285715,8.841846274778883,2.6567785714285717,804,33,141,14,14,260,104,192,0.17600000000000002,0.8170000000000001,0.006999999999999999,-0.9865,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,14,3,0,10,5,0,2,11,0,19,2,1,0,0,18,31,12,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,21,8,0,0,4,1,0,3,6,5,0,1,0,7,21,0,19,28,3,16,0,0,2,0,28,7,0,2,3,112,42,1,0.13431764944959182,0.0,0.13107465030893212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11053198089157676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11214962683844357,0.16375758482624414,0.14834329101530416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475416308494537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220516085080336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774310813630668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313884346979103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14035085616174514,0.0,0.15267163106729856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329955903458601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4541572585173208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07381746742749679,0.0,0.0,0.1422229968295678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13462157126110538,0.0,0.0,0.11279299677321547,0.0,0.0,0.1141920623174444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427584046037417,0.09873892713227432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284834399015087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09101711543513348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12822139475846553,0.2793568378772012,0.11728099062612757,0.0,0.0,0.1269735940309237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285238505284708,0.0,0.0,0.1504665074217029,0.0,0.13435399771310186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11470653873078335,0.0,0.10681478595801007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11380690850139183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863294855626744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21591887753089745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08923467795357158,0.08606532625832125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437837911786506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13982941004335148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07922402969566772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,soulfarer,2019/10/29,"Watching the abilify commercial like It really do be like that. Stop following me creepy blanket. This is my first post here but my symptoms have been plaguing me since 17. (The normal age for that). I was managing for years without medication (not too well). Recently my hallucinations (disturbing thoughts and voices) got extremely worse and I decided it was time for geodon. I feel like at this point I understand it pretty well and having lived with it, have identified more and more as a schizophrenic person. I have never had word-salad symptoms and mine is actually pretty mild albeit debilitating all the same. I had the experience of being able to articulate that something was wrong but not acting on it or fully understanding that I needed help. I was also diagnosed with Asperger's at an early age. So I'm really more of an oddball that I'd really like to admit. Anyway hi.",5.624471153846152,7.887068312500006,6.91,67.44269230769231,69.0,10.673076923076923,30.43269230769231,10.727762888450028,4.026221153846153,710,29,112,23,13,240,105,160,0.06,0.782,0.159,0.9438,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,7,8,0,1,7,0,16,5,0,0,2,25,25,11,0,2,6,0,1,4,0,0,5,1,0,1,12,7,0,1,6,0,0,2,4,2,2,1,9,3,14,6,14,14,5,16,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,1,13,87,26,1,0.14961860810669467,0.0,0.146006178768443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964994684720948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15185973778133652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14635570828833044,0.0,0.0,0.07565166379491325,0.10688756352663414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272655116228531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196636688228894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10028619918901553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923843775724735,0.0,0.13211597209818254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15072500699159147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094030210061458,0.11539509426649573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465944689061574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306411975400217,0.0,0.0,0.14143794566879275,0.0,0.14329326816293653,0.3044318266101331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.287548534669702,0.0,0.14773032538198666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12376605874189273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151837142243659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12508785585498478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110220435294452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187804622760126,0.08724381358798769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31151649524536995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690501943207994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442269990623725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524741439360136,0.0,0.16358446044208164,0.0,0.0963494781819555 schizophrenia,pleasedontowome,2019/10/29,"I cant tell whats real and not Nobody has spoken to me in days, since Friday. Its getting lonely and I feel more agitated and afraid, yelling at my family to shut up since their voices are causing me to panic. I'm hearing my own voices a lot more and spirits visit me when I'm lying in bed so that's some company but to feel more like I'm not alone i sleep. I've been sleeping almost all day and all night for the past 4 days and all my dreams are lucid and very realistic. The only difference bettween them is that there people love me and there I'm not too deluded. I'm normal there, but that's all. I dont know when I'm asleep or awake, when I'm hallucinating or when I'm being deluded. Has anyone experienced a situation like this?",3.331131964809384,4.215280212903227,5.435777126099712,81.18821114369503,72.67741935483872,8.217008797653959,24.41348973607038,8.575989854853784,1.49441935483871,583,16,122,10,11,204,92,155,0.054000000000000006,0.8220000000000001,0.124,0.9273,0,3,0,0,1,0,12.0,0,0,2,0,9,6,0,2,4,0,9,4,3,1,4,28,23,17,0,1,7,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,6,8,0,0,3,1,0,1,5,3,0,0,1,7,13,3,9,21,10,15,1,1,0,1,6,5,0,5,11,75,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17559180318333129,0.18161396551553174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12261166521908212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18013696613919788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392666670853219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18320771424448964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055137014318709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530824113521242,0.0,0.1773286054215563,0.1252730054190857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09161528075762904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19763681716449835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09637002848623256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17133831339960134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490797866946942,0.1582639232261715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16455794579991634,0.17180978863937751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333646962367166,0.0,0.20574025640199511,0.0,0.0,0.16739533197280834,0.12156845510173245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19959135783574325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901094502656261,0.19710535755978895,0.3509614810265869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15326721408632005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14468549861657595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Gato_del_rio,2019/10/29,"Is there a point of no return after having schizophrenia or bipolar for a certain amount of time? My brother has schizophrenia/bipolar disorder and he's been hearing voices and talking/laughing to himself everyday for about 4 years now. After his first few psychotic episodes, he would come back from the hospital relatively ""normal"" but after multiple psychotic episodes, he hasn't been back to ""normality"" in 4-5 years. He's 26 now and I know that at this point he will probably never be able to live independently. However, I was wondering if, in general, there is an average period after initial diagnosis where if the disorder isn't managed, it will never get better. I'm asking this for a paper I'm writing for class so including sources in your responses would be appreciated. Thanks",8.761223404255318,9.209170468085114,9.192969858156033,60.54562500000003,60.631205673758856,12.723758865248227,42.447695035461,12.161744961471696,5.832892907801418,640,35,95,20,8,214,94,141,0.073,0.856,0.071,0.1879,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,2,9,3,0,0,6,0,15,1,0,1,3,20,24,8,0,6,4,1,0,0,0,4,1,2,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,3,2,6,3,19,15,2,25,0,0,0,0,12,7,0,4,17,70,10,3,0.1785625217209337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166931853640474,0.0,0.0,0.2746071143934367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15792403973275387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15381580145637566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.409296239647156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518851897571197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329154770288983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20125293950827905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981332921244533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157673978096635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754368495629436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34990671774673754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375985990678119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925205994759165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16439637936924492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104121242377238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19364343783914165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536913844430399,0.0,0.0,0.2299768191720833 schizophrenia,temporarybsacct,2019/10/29,"Does it offend you or hurt your feelings when someone calls you crazy? I'm just wondering about others experiences. Personally I try not to let words get to me because I don't want other people to have power over my emotions, but I also think it could be viewed as a slur when directed towards people with mental illnesses (if it was said to specifically reference their mental illness or actions/personality traits that are a result of mental illness). How do you guys feel about it?",10.387247191011234,8.701135561797752,10.190870786516856,61.628778089887646,58.550561797752806,12.495505617977527,40.22752808988764,11.20814326018867,4.638233707865169,391,16,62,8,4,129,69,89,0.165,0.835,0.0,-0.9156,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,4,1,1,7,2,1,0,2,0,8,3,0,2,0,17,16,9,0,3,6,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,7,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,4,10,0,11,11,0,4,0,1,1,0,9,2,0,4,2,48,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15038533008958874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11463491660985245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192022390252768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501444333581901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645658062351421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115334893881179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18395120166281506,0.0,0.0,0.1901697532077083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982495480089944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18620131000286244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013138413617232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19229618408046112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5685373647323165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26074352809102386,0.32839997230326456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17888076958498692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15933607569414196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12049629956488266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12767514531232033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11091809942477687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039346619395203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PickleEmperor,2019/10/29,"Will anything happens to me if I get diagnosed? I'm afraid I might be schizophrenic. If I'm diagnosed by a doctor, will there be any legal restraints on me? Will I be obliged to include it for a job application for example?",3.0170454545454533,5.162480250000005,5.0590909090909095,78.38363636363641,76.04545454545455,8.945454545454545,33.72727272727273,9.516144504307137,3.658290909090909,177,10,33,5,4,61,29,44,0.0,0.946,0.054000000000000006,0.2593,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,7,4,0,0,0,3,11,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,6,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,24,6,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209454914773352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673678606989677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6595403373014915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33255245452878723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697486458513927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873110531086737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224165466296373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3446712227222229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dumb_bitch_juice_1,2019/10/29,"Are these delusions I should be concerned about? So for my entire life I have things that could be delusions. I am bipolar but a lot of this doesn’t really seem immediately related to that. How concerning is this? When I was six I believed that the guy who build my house was a bad doctor who had died in the house and was haunting it. One time I went into a closet and paper towels fell on me and I thought it was the doctor throwing them at me. Another time when I stayed up late on New Years I saw a white mist on the shape of a person walk down the stairs and down the hall, which I believed to be the doctor. When I was eight I fake confessed my sins at church and everyone praised me thinking I actually confessed. I felt super guilty and thought that God was super angry with me and was going to punish me and my family. I stayed up several nights after that crying and apologizing to God. Also for a while after that I constantly felt Gods presence and like someone was watching me but that person was God. When I was ten I watched a show called “I Shouldn’t be Alive” where people tell their story of being trapped in the wilderness. In one episode these people are trapped on a raft and one guy drinks seawater and goes crazy and jumps into the water and gets eaten by sharks. I believed that the ghost of that guy was haunting me and was mad at me for watching the show which disrespected his memory. Also some time around this time I hallucinated the sensation of a giant millipede squirming in my bed. I also thought that I may have some small power of prophecy, somewhat as a joke, idk how much I actually believed this but more than none. When I was twelve I watched The Truman Show and did not immediately realize that it was fiction. My dad quickly told me that it was, but I was still afraid after that that there were cameras hidden around the house or in the mirrors. I tried to act very normal in front of the mirror incase anyone was watching. When I was sixteen I accidentally saw a photo of a dead girl (a dead decomposing body) on the Internet. Putting that picture on the internet seemed like an extremely disrespectful thing to do to the girl since the way she died was far from flattering. Similar to the “I Shouldn’t be alive” incident I had the feeling that her ghost was haunting me for disrespecting her by seeing the image. I didn’t fully believe this was true I just had the creepy feeling of it. I also have had a couple incidents w hallucinations, audio, visual, along with smells. This seemed to be a bipolar mixed episode which gave me the hallucinations. I was on an antipsychotic for a while and it seems to have gone away, even since I’ve stopped. I also get really paranoid when I have panic attacks, like believing that my parents are planning to lock me up, or that my mom hates me so much I have to hide from her. Could these just be weird occurrences from growing up like just being afraid of the dark, or could there be more to this?",6.109980193117112,6.494539091854421,6.340988363456301,78.96369844020799,66.22703639514731,9.159277048774447,31.043773211190892,9.002800196639251,2.443144530824461,2364,84,453,37,35,758,253,577,0.17800000000000002,0.732,0.09,-0.9961,3,2,1,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,2,5,28,21,4,3,44,0,59,10,1,2,1,66,83,43,6,7,11,3,4,4,0,4,6,1,2,7,41,24,3,1,15,5,0,11,6,11,0,6,41,15,67,10,69,25,9,72,5,0,9,0,28,34,0,12,28,347,108,4,0.0,0.0,0.1383235701033775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833854010526726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07431647769939795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049556021251790185,0.0,0.0,0.12618392002168374,0.0,0.08062822313194801,0.06658747856769097,0.0,0.059175960925672365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.479097334165387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07872388098403882,0.0,0.0,0.07236921585430725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658849128000955,0.0,0.16975887383838373,0.07841958180552266,0.07785061821591717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14710988539763095,0.0,0.0,0.21762443197768527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06942851882001617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04681092141691138,0.0,0.0,0.06772215012056731,0.0,0.0,0.06681271880742481,0.0,0.07167099576634185,0.0,0.13609831121837018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07405639246643576,0.0,0.04027873622580888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21052611799406065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06997237476061889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453336394824513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07994778547164004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05005966734919773,0.1384997925752842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060253655836531674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300555374540737,0.0,0.0,0.1041995601508212,0.0,0.0,0.06844954604816214,0.0,0.06650947154694094,0.06944045268340014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440760549560011,0.0,0.0,0.08315414769376506,0.07869603441998127,0.0,0.0,0.09826877293941468,0.12376706930311154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07124689967109972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080606548984556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05647657287221209,0.25808032258031466,0.0,0.0800662711961495,0.0,0.11725368917403045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06005042870317764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15108229003680065,0.05659923711097056,0.05925296773186239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061946090568895475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09416969034417508,0.045412530806316014,0.0,0.16879564007977524,0.16530637082233265,0.0,0.0,0.06772215012056731,0.0,0.04811808736561731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05847761411165485,0.0,0.056255656489681685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06569994362294594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04563986234055896 schizophrenia,AkiTiddy,2019/10/29,"Failing. Today in health class we had to write an essay about what we value. We do this once every month. Its gotten harder and harder each year. I feel like I can no longer put kindness as a trait I possess because of my thoughts. And honestly I can't even think of anything besides that. Things I value are pretty normal, except they're always different from the other kids. Where they value relationships and people, I always find myself valuing health, and the existence of parallels and certain traits I wish I had. While all the other people in my class have thwir purpose and will all written out I am still struggling to figure out who I am, much less what I might do. Everyone else is struggling to find things they need to improve in themselves. I can find many. I don't even know how to help the world, the community, I can't even help myself. My current goals are to work on myself but my professor says this is selfish and not something I should rely on. I feel like I don't belong. I feel no empathy towards the kids who are also failing either, it seems I only care about myself. And my prof. puts me down for this but I don't know how to stop when this is just something I deal with without knowing.",4.2516877637130825,5.793988282700423,4.830232067510551,83.88349156118144,71.23628691983124,6.785654008438819,26.668776371308017,7.1686216300943375,1.3565510548523212,961,32,178,9,18,307,134,237,0.091,0.778,0.131,0.5423,2,0,2,0,0,0,24.0,3,0,2,4,12,11,0,2,8,0,23,2,0,2,3,47,37,16,0,4,7,0,3,2,0,3,2,1,0,2,15,15,0,1,13,0,0,2,9,5,0,0,5,4,36,6,27,29,6,21,0,2,0,0,15,11,0,2,10,139,51,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09699186503415733,0.2018382844211821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09980752374651126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07393443465131201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236585160033291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250398888675527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12671739536860446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10131836203209764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24032352524132225,0.0,0.10218815360219798,0.1158933667704379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18397657895600147,0.173292582380232,0.0,0.0,0.3325578874654805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578413494184869,0.0,0.0,0.16259005127600634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12630004695974342,0.1999657992306549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185078089663474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229643267415783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12866460896479825,0.0,0.0,0.09680882367132733,0.0,0.08915870081190702,0.08993156362979532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188339093961879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12916495867870004,0.0,0.0922429877526303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16816800594890893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339082221397853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438505883271322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13021509553571456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09645099273521694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110413643939923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18674280362947268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09685865161916306,0.1013999985139297,0.0,0.2535876011872035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16115321858928336,0.07771476657696677,0.0,0.09628703454821902,0.0,0.0,0.11496434741372125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947218767624633,0.11691476675039925,0.0,0.08829719246379993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07810380054634902 schizophrenia,Meleonora,2019/10/29,"Psychedelics Hi! I keep hearing that doing psychedelics would be a terrible idea if you have schizophrenia. I have it myself and have never tried a psychedelic and I am not planning on ever doing it, even though I’m doing more okay in a period. I’m just wondering if any of you have tried to do so? And what your experience has been? Sending hugs",2.7581023454157787,5.329463402985073,3.817484008528787,84.74089552238807,79.14925373134328,6.8136460554371014,24.49680170575693,7.957251820313856,1.5672831556503204,276,10,52,5,7,89,48,67,0.048,0.86,0.09300000000000001,0.4488,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,1,5,3,0,0,3,1,13,1,0,0,2,13,18,7,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,7,2,4,15,1,6,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,3,3,44,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041757737221352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19830790095324088,0.2715872992499929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936956083941009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33839607637085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389381963025048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26687008474884283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23156618086617786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29498756686805977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4076910521959057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3256011054538285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213284261373688,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,000941327,2019/10/29,Does anyone else confuse reality? It seems like sometimes when I think people are against me I can’t tell what I hear and what’s actually happening apart.,3.867471264367815,6.685381724137932,4.862758620689653,77.4164367816092,76.58620689655173,8.004597701149425,30.356321839080447,8.841846274778883,2.945749425287357,126,6,22,3,3,41,26,29,0.07200000000000001,0.833,0.095,0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,2,12,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.31320333515322524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22441744557901355,0.32885375742525896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808676894302295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681146241248517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838172295426859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3617367856571657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568011761126086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225080469151957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29218309543761944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174302222491147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805266253810792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20565339798064486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Rudgirl,2019/10/29,"Age of oneset? My niece has been admitted to a program for depression, suicide attempt, and hearing voices. She only 12 (birthday in march) and when I was looking things up it mentioned that its not common to be diagnosed that early. But I was curious about your personal experience, at what age did you present and noticed symptoms? They said she might be at the facility for a year, so Im trying to put together things to send her since Im unable to visit (only parents allowed). Anyone have any suggestions there too?",5.689955357142857,7.337399156250001,6.5981547619047625,72.18375000000003,67.85416666666666,9.235714285714286,35.589285714285715,9.606745405546679,3.8211535714285714,413,21,66,9,7,137,76,96,0.08900000000000001,0.8740000000000001,0.038,-0.7929,2,0,0,0,0,1,14.0,0,2,1,1,5,1,0,0,3,0,9,2,0,1,0,8,13,6,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,5,4,9,0,13,5,0,15,0,1,1,0,15,4,0,1,8,50,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13718887736405574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410600230866534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17375679510946962,0.20476000176718687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19733864634289824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273735858833933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4358236963736864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16940925851930594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21401232398448253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22968025013140864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068619465608232,0.0,0.0,0.22400636999705895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17614999360580902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20280258702356485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19189920265583654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16687990363316876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206688207708303,0.0,0.0,0.20968320870678506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680517595736659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13696697884990894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12991277089660144 schizophrenia,ILYKGIRLSINYOGAPANTS,2019/10/29,"How do you get help someone get rid of their delusions/non logical thoughts? My sibling is absolutely fine (on the exterior) most of the time, but after having a detailed discussion with him on multiple topics - the thought process and structure seems highly delusional and the viewpoints are pretty much just oppressive. He's not really keen on understanding opposing views, listening to anything that challenges his thought process or train of thought and just generally listen to something that gives a coherent explanation which has some logic behind it. How do you generally deal with a situation like this?",14.651732673267324,12.310244841584165,12.600074257425744,49.699319306930704,51.07920792079207,16.436633663366337,54.952970297029715,14.554592549557764,8.063037623762376,503,30,68,16,4,157,78,101,0.06,0.8220000000000001,0.11800000000000001,0.6389,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,1,1,4,4,0,0,7,0,6,0,0,2,0,25,17,7,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,5,0,1,8,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,6,4,12,13,3,7,0,0,1,0,12,5,0,4,3,49,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736673604519738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175722494226802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22051864564604404,0.2024481246476616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414551928598574,0.2229746050848905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10310314094357892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15513816644381362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21470283595378212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13519717819999333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19212225071960834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372170130311173,0.0,0.0,0.17881291225589713,0.16246836196487344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6701665168332248,0.12305871173418625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196993518066602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,professional_giraffe,2019/10/29,"I got a shower this morning with the help of r/ShowerOrange and it's just weird enough to work Like a lot of us, I have a lot of difficulty in the hygiene department. There's a very specific reason I don't feel safe in my shower but that's another story. If you're not familiar, r/ShowerOrange is simple. Eat an orange in the shower... but you have to eat it like an apple, no wedges. (Yes, peel it first) I've been intrigued for a while but I tried it on a whim because it was time. It helped me because I have problems getting in, the temperature chance, the liquid, it's a lot of stimulus. But the orange became my only concern, and it helped to have a fun distraction while my body was acclimating. Oranges are a strong aromatic too, giving the whole thing a spa type smell even with my disable sniffer. It was actually pretty great.",2.716345381526104,4.76168428915663,4.2934698795180735,83.99148995983937,76.59036144578313,7.077269076305221,25.52449799196787,8.021203637495839,1.6113105220883537,656,24,128,11,15,219,100,166,0.084,0.735,0.18100000000000002,0.9628,5,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,1,0,3,4,9,0,1,19,1,11,3,1,1,0,18,15,9,0,2,7,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,12,4,2,1,2,1,0,1,3,3,0,1,5,2,12,6,15,10,5,10,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,4,6,90,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.1655954571351708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17793744172609435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206886015371696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18849017632011472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3472756991012261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17533777300656228,0.0,0.11208033345522683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08580165548351817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14434040225209088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08865735720308457,0.16278456317740686,0.0,0.0,0.1357186395010355,0.18708664310200984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3412240318690504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16580642364486306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4327996309605987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290588361980745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726383359910791,0.0,0.16237285951839114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17447221079751646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127361946280505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989490945875024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11521010725539282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041192523144312,0.0,0.0,0.1400141311239501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18945567976134947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12353820248640494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,babyboi1998,2019/10/29,"Had a really vivid dream 48 hours ago and have since displayed some psychotic symptoms, i'm extremely worried. To be clear i have zero (NIL) history of anything psychotic, and no family history at all. However i have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, which i take an antipsychotic and SSRI for, My condition has generally been stable over the course of 5 months and i need help determining if this is my OCD or am i becoming psychotic. 48 Hours ago i had a dream that my mother got sleeping pills, and as a result sleepwalked, in this dream she was standing over me in a possessed almost demonic way and also banging her head on the door. After waking up from this dream, in the real world my mother actually did get sleeping pills. And ever since i have been fearing that this dream will become real and have since felt out of worldly feelings, detachment, and also extreme paranoia. I have felt like i was being plotted to be killed or that i am secretly on her radar and that this dream is actually going to become a reality. I have realized that this is completly irrational and based on zero evidence at all, but i am just scared, is this likely OCD again?",9.562046511627909,8.092728669767446,9.863837209302327,62.63761627906979,59.97674418604653,13.62325581395349,40.56976744186046,12.516099999999998,5.31133488372093,924,41,152,27,10,311,123,215,0.08800000000000001,0.8320000000000001,0.079,-0.6074,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,3,9,0,26,7,4,1,4,33,35,18,1,2,5,2,3,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,13,12,0,0,5,6,0,1,1,4,0,2,10,4,20,2,22,21,3,25,1,0,1,0,7,14,0,5,10,116,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.2487789578552505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22598374408021515,0.0,0.12763986413398534,0.0,0.0,0.20387074941049305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10489454273222296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4223321129214253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13364680412910968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14608831244112827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153012679610282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016461506860128,0.14343589857003547,0.06445118363368221,0.0,0.24477676512731175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06659628625313169,0.0,0.0724424768280224,0.0,0.10194706509683872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308179943317956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08543849421973818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510587873442783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410234338870501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12454794954430636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10174300403683982,0.0,0.0,0.0945152217993078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901708773942394,0.08165867293121506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12761677998814522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163262476770743,0.0,0.2551182625975124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13248709834050754,0.09583937775447214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10117743190481927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12944900317950772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cogentcognizance,2019/10/29,"I have come to terms with the possibility I may be diagnosed on the schizophrenia spectrum next week. I recently came to a realization, that, for years I had omitted several psychological symptoms(and an important family fact) to psychiatrists and other experts. I came to this realization, maybe a month ago. The below-numbered list contains those symptoms and facts I had left out, inadvertantly, because I'm thinking I was afraid of getting the diagnosis of schizophrenia(as it's one of the most misunderstood of the psychological disabilities and was afraid of what others would do) and wanted a different diagnosis. First, before I get to that, I did get a (mis?) diagnosis of a dissociative disorder(not otherwise specified). Something we need to know is that dissociative disorders are similar to schizophrenia in one very big aspect: reality doesn't seem like reality. In schizophrenia, it's described as perceiving to be real that which isn't real while in dissociation, what is real doesn't appear real. So, given the symptoms I omitted for years, below, plus some commonality that schizophrenia shares with dissociative disorder, paints a picture of many schizophrenic symptoms. The fact I didn't qualify for a specific dissociative disorder diagnosis is unusual as well, and the few symptoms I did report, which made experts believe I had DDNOS, basically do overlap with schizophrenia. I'm not sure I would say I lied when they asked this, but I think they knew these symptoms do overlap because they would always ask about if I had hallucinations(constantly). I always said no, but at the time, I think my mind wasn't ready to report those, and in a way I actually *believed* I wasn't experiencing hallucinations(my mind didn't accept this until a pretty bad metaphysical crisis just a month ago, but I do know I have had hallucinations for *years).* So, with this background, these are the symptoms I have slowly been recognizing I've had for a while: 1) False beliefs or delusions, i.e that I wasn't experiencing hallucinations(I mean, just look at my name on here, I kept feeding into this idea my ""cognizance"" is fine)., and I do know I always think, nearly on a daily basis, that others can hear my thoughts. For a couple minutes, I legit believe this, but I do realize how absurd that belief is after a while, normally. But this belief continually comes back for minutes a few times a day. 2) As I mentioned, hallucinations. Specifically, I normally would have visual effects where things change color, sometimes shape(but they are objects that do actually exist, my perception of them is just distorted and eventually returns to normal). But that's my direct vision. In the peripheral, I *occasionally* see complete objects that are not there in reality whatsoever. Most often, they're horror-movie themed, so I might see a bloody axeman or something, and upon looking at it directly, it's not there. And yeah, Halloween messes with me a lot since if I see something scary in my peripheral, I'm like ""Oh no, I hope it's not a hallucination"". Sometimes it is, sometimes not given halloween normally has scary things lol. 3) Two things I was diagnosed with in addition to dissociation: Major Depressive Disorder and Anxiety, which I hear a lot of the negative symptoms of schizophrenia overlap with. 4) My grandmother was a diagnosed schizophrenic(I'm aware there's a genetic component), and a direct family member may have undiagnosed schizophrenia as well(though to a lesser-degree than I probably have it) 5) My wife is telling me(finally) that she suspected I had this for a while. She's very familiar with schizophrenia and people who've had it, and noticed too many parallels and overlaps with those who have been diagnosed and me. She hadn't told me for a couple years(until now since I'm at terms with the possibility) only because she knows this was one of my fears. 6) I do get paranoid from time-to-time, especially when my direct family member is paranoid and talking up those things that make them paranoid to me. At one point, I thought my whole family and friends were plotting against me, I wouldn't recognize they were actually helping me out when they were. 7) I would have catatonic states wherein, I don't move at all, am mute, unresponsive. I also had different types wherein I could wander while at work(so I was told by an assistant manager) and be unresponsive. 8) People often misunderstand me, sometimes it's more because I'm using some pretty impressive vocabulary the average person may not know, but other times it's because I'm thinking certain words have more meaning to them, more nuance to them, and expect the other person to get what I mean when really, the word was actually simpler. I'm aware schizophrenia often means someone has trouble communicating properly so others can understand. Several of these symptoms I just brushed off as some atypical symptoms of dissociation, I wanted to believe I had that instead, and did manage to convince some experts that is what it was, since I never reported any of the above 7 symptoms or the fact in number 4. This next week I'm starting over with a new psychiatrist for a brand new comprehensive psychological evaluation, and I'm not going to mention any of my previous (mis?)diagnoses, as to not bias them. Unfortunately, I think I picked the wrong subject to study, because I'm studying psychology and cognitive science, so I was quite aware of the possibility of a diagnosis of schizophrenia and I either purposely or, perhaps unconsciously omitted the above symptoms/facts since I knew what schizophrenia is and I didn't want it.",8.428111081433011,9.58703552851324,8.748849454108377,61.010642549497526,61.331975560081474,11.612460351908116,39.21445026877233,11.372035067352536,5.042949363961137,4547,227,683,127,61,1503,387,982,0.098,0.847,0.054000000000000006,-0.9911,4,0,3,0,0,0,161.0,1,0,11,3,29,20,0,3,53,2,89,16,0,6,8,160,155,62,0,19,26,1,0,2,1,10,15,4,0,2,63,46,1,2,31,0,0,7,24,8,1,6,47,13,95,12,102,94,19,84,3,1,6,0,36,36,0,24,41,507,158,7,0.0,0.0,0.17086158430041465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07760290675819731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03500464783787832,0.109266040979986,0.0,0.0,0.05953325408194355,0.0,0.033485646970205694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184227893635455,0.0,0.0,0.033658153857350374,0.036547995503236834,0.16009892255296135,0.0,0.03724695579948936,0.1972653190111293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10012757251342533,0.0,0.0,0.04630523032565815,0.07541182496376121,0.04589436519682113,0.0,0.0,0.03494857517944228,0.09686631119666574,0.0,0.028229476293856987,0.0,0.03770096975232821,0.22213953210428056,0.0,0.09146535739361414,0.20066713621325152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650583046450154,0.04925594408488797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03723264851888467,0.0,0.0,0.03381832725395344,0.0,0.11434595469640375,0.0,0.024876775086186725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866900086949214,0.0,0.02933961257913154,0.0,0.0,0.04347571505910086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049413535677384636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202804032280419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04755867135244062,0.0,0.0,0.0427698149473118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07351532154097175,0.0,0.0,0.0744271933440384,0.0,0.04141835578994193,0.029218312871845186,0.08875637049962723,0.0439751026452035,0.1907232246402583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04643543378019359,0.0883949770688251,0.0,0.06987717534910096,0.04652296825760198,0.0,0.03245656440632524,0.0337598531671363,0.08455101233790091,0.09310455649250947,0.0,0.17155002218575655,0.0,0.04983499009322771,0.0,0.0,0.11864482190146936,0.0332907641342645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06069232531786761,0.0764404704474603,0.0,0.0,0.04137891916802408,0.14803988515944208,0.0,0.0890642174270074,0.047193882592464965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04655716969300542,0.0,0.19928958725789092,0.028041620459345305,0.0,0.04321981038215753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04163742793636107,0.03480944544288361,0.0,0.0,0.10464243414472524,0.03984860711001662,0.0,0.09890035324693172,0.0,0.1448354107862492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037088080427926634,0.1010940362112692,0.17316747489864004,0.0,0.030982219708830326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04125482209474319,0.4549612177207334,0.0,0.0351824717902588,0.03825887073297863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11632133607642,0.16828491966032064,0.043006007640431984,0.06950054490708174,0.10209579030004352,0.0,0.0,0.08365251022065771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04275912218555362,0.0455684498785408,0.0,0.037805164866784216,0.0,0.07223337125956428,0.07745401111062003,0.03474436998157055,0.07022290792336258,0.0,0.07871300866467508,0.0,0.0,0.048870147404335054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03186671507120931,0.0,0.0,0.15547273181047894,0.0478580775036755,0.0,0.08456367032313525 schizophrenia,TheDonutKingdom,2019/10/29,"Close friend of mine has been recently diagnosed—what do I need to know? Long story short, one of my best friends in this world just told me he’s starting medication for schizophrenia. This primarily came to light after a fairly heavy abuse of LSD (as far as I know, LSD cannot cause schizophrenia, but it can be responsible for accelerating it.) He revealed to me recently that he’s considered the possibility of schizophrenia after he’s gone sober entirely. This has led us to the point where we are now, where he’s just revealed to me that he plans to start medication soon. Naturally this is fairly daunting to me (and him.) I’ve only now realized that I truly don’t understand schizophrenia at all. My only real exposure to it has been through media—which I know is generally very prone to distorting the facts about mental illness. As a mathematician, the only person who I’ve ever even heard of as having schizophrenia is John Nash (may he Rest In Peace.) With the general objective of supporting my friend and learning more about schizophrenia: what are the things I should know? A few specific questions: He mentioned to me that he’s been drinking fairly heavily (for the reason that “it quiets the voices”, which hurts for me to hear): I imagine this is a bad practice? Is there anything that makes alcoholism inherently more harmful to a schizophrenic than someone without mental illness? I live far away from this person, and don’t have much time to see him (though I do make an effort to do so whenever I’m back home.) Is there any good way for me to support him through text or voice chat? I imagine a diagnosis like this could be quite scary for someone to go through. Any personal experiences would be appreciated. Am I making a bigger deal out of this than I should be?",7.164879154078548,7.778294574018131,7.2276419939577075,72.72134214501513,63.98489425981872,10.366223564954684,34.67688821752266,10.241411754978122,3.5757853776435047,1428,60,251,31,20,459,179,331,0.076,0.815,0.109,0.8853,1,0,2,0,1,0,37.0,2,0,0,4,16,11,0,0,16,0,33,7,0,6,3,43,54,11,0,5,5,0,0,1,3,4,6,5,1,3,22,8,2,0,13,2,0,4,4,3,0,1,7,7,27,8,50,38,7,32,0,1,1,0,28,14,0,3,14,175,49,1,0.0,0.12689375873154482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144553190717571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14566078755100711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08813262695436043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10062220867571106,0.08235184308296707,0.08942245624747054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11239286893157124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224917173837104,0.0,0.11001927020763907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855091337257698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11041345848803218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10491538437893208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707372978288477,0.0968763805235828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10476251133784498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482312242509823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060866329359312826,0.08982882135694924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12070736427189795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074281460530454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11465075192485645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23543330236286406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0523227314272226,0.0,0.09456960160090896,0.09477846553002167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144664790857888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21578017610007214,0.2158594293137033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07872944066169058,0.07941189853519559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07257245745894231,0.24435883759842414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28054184080432143,0.0,0.0,0.10124234004960814,0.12073703788924488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11997440433760488,0.11391203300082828,0.0,0.12190110669384673,0.0,0.11011470395893852,0.2114929450825926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08534333515962395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814877781231649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516092003522892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.243067353558444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711512317072202,0.0,0.10522335859060512,0.0,0.06244977471027111,0.0,0.0,0.10233684272144764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11149291936319694,0.12882585105205427,0.0,0.0,0.08836716476685601,0.0,0.08500950221053187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103238765342369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607943126055157,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zippo111,2019/10/29,Has anyone continue to date while diagnosed with schizophrenia? Do you tell the person before anything that you have schizophrenia?,9.475,13.579648500000005,6.0100000000000025,69.785,64.0,8.0,35.0,8.841846274778883,4.012500000000001,110,5,12,2,2,30,18,20,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315856947555124,0.0,0.3902427063167962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40352634631242507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.481323382475305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4140706681657114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4144892378326901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mextrem,2019/10/29,"They tell me to cut my neck It is just frustrating, the voices are always trying to convince me that I am not worth living, that I should grab a knife and cut my neck, and this ruins my mood everytime. How do I deal with this? I try discussing with them but I just end up crying.",1.9106896551724155,3.5459445517241366,3.1753793103448267,92.95755172413791,77.6206896551724,6.019310344827588,18.49655172413793,6.742157984588678,-0.07996275862068991,216,4,48,2,5,70,43,58,0.215,0.76,0.025,-0.8489,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,0,3,6,3,0,2,0,5,2,2,1,0,10,5,4,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,12,1,5,4,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,36,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3115339052417748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4112649286734951,0.0,0.3859938167985949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33161058547124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3306053625610685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3272453720118287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5083911270541339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CluelessOwl7106,2019/07/28,"Am i schizophrenic? Just yesterday i started thinking i might be schizofrenic, i started searching more information and some symptoms correspond to my actions: like being sometimes paranoid, sometimes i have difficulties to gather words for speaking, i have difficulties to take care of myself, some nights i sleep very much, other nights i sleep few hours, i'm always unfocused. I just wanted your opinion. Sorry if there are any grammatical errors, English isn't my first language",8.703333333333333,11.35131581012658,7.469050632911394,64.96450421940928,61.78481012658228,9.317299578059073,41.014767932489455,9.725611199111238,4.828238818565401,395,22,50,8,6,120,59,79,0.163,0.764,0.073,-0.6249,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,8,4,2,0,0,12,15,2,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,13,2,5,12,5,8,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,5,8,38,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17137118044041416,0.0,0.0,0.14005656198366107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20998499783895702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17518534222649354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20282433259587235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10061928128357954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21848586339735834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514007300298548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865499060276928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4122077692775745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4073898118908884,0.2305499244813393,0.29155222518617874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21406625581782934,0.15485263857981044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319677416416681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16993456506138446,0.12147768139877205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,realcockasian,2019/07/28,"the homeless are trying to steal my food. in the local suburb. I decided to head to children services basically a local community “pantry” that provides a 15point currency system to purchase basically free food such as chips, bread, soft drinks, muesli bars an sausages. was my first time at the pantry so I ended up with a sack of food I put on my shoulder walking through the main strip of my local suburb I start ears dropping on this guy on the phone to someone I heard him say “he just got out from being hospitalised” thought the poverty followed me to the nearest bbq so they could stand over me for the free food. thought everyone was undercover homeless and that they all communicate with each other on the streets and that this is simply a test. approaching the bbq I became “swarmed” by sketchy adults so I walk the opposite direction and shouted “were the fuck am I?” they potentially followed me to my house full caught a bus back home sprinted off the bus all the way home chucked the sac of food over my fence stood behind my dads trailer waiting for someone to show up. neighbours talk garbage of me as well. I was sweating like shit from all the running/evading the homeless I ran into a school friend asked her if she knew anyone that would give me a lift explained my story she didn’t believe it made a fool out of myself instead. whilst waiting for my dad to get home I start making phone calls to the boys asking them to come help defend my house from the homeless as they will try intrude. don’t even know why I post this shit.",4.992681047765792,6.6083343898305085,4.799545454545457,84.53528120184903,69.50847457627118,7.126348228043144,31.375192604006163,7.520522993642371,2.000423728813559,1235,53,230,13,22,379,176,295,0.067,0.875,0.057,-0.6124,2,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,5,1,9,10,3,0,28,0,13,15,6,2,3,28,37,10,0,3,2,2,1,1,2,2,0,4,3,4,9,10,8,3,6,3,4,9,2,5,1,1,14,5,37,7,44,19,6,41,0,0,0,1,29,20,3,1,8,151,46,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07311712136630864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19551591935314747,0.0,0.0,0.08040715606498561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11781352714086213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10677670654628717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09007699003197596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348988927355015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10243787351396344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926171535512956,0.0,0.0,0.06906688099754182,0.0,0.0,0.0999202224971606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08894639298574973,0.6322266403469134,0.0,0.08078979996615455,0.09667241528023753,0.05463302035899182,0.1003121752640224,0.0,0.0,0.08363343357923565,0.0,0.0,0.10353981434424568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073180285231803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07009043982432367,0.0,0.31467389370108323,0.0,0.0,0.2413173218263374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057468423223126314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05108716300831862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09894577736115708,0.06980066265663508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014825839072236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051207921587698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08315751731731733,0.0,0.10582947611789273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21467728436357897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17720205830408514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14802904436920314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08404865317274388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16603231373383426,0.06097506252887429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14199106162904024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300205624253654,0.0,0.0,0.0940201473745258,0.0,0.0943573161834898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07428286330567592,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RevolverWarthoh,2019/07/28,What triggered my schizophrenia? What is the cure for schizophrenia? I’m on medication and the voices are still there. The only help medication does is to help me sleep. Do I need more medication? I don’t believe in the medication because of its long term side effects like tardive diskenisia and low WBC count. I don’t want to see a psychiatrist because I don’t believe in them and their advice is useless.,4.387913533834585,6.927617302631582,4.791654135338348,80.04657894736842,73.34210526315789,6.974436090225563,31.90977443609023,7.957251820313856,2.44834060150376,329,16,58,5,7,104,50,76,0.065,0.8059999999999999,0.129,0.5913,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,1,2,3,0,0,5,0,8,5,1,2,0,7,12,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,2,8,1,7,12,2,8,0,2,1,0,4,5,0,0,4,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17525024773780382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218649590021702,0.0,0.0,0.4041124740831605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15694278466379644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24041739292907024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08761710279880465,0.0,0.0,0.15871141148293216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7226699889550381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297930531559432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13639714396687813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429118007777243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17947082325837074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14322219792755966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10578014832842587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,localghostin,2019/07/28,"Paranoid I fear I may be schizophrenic. I constantly feel like people are watching me, whether out in public or alone( as if they’re watching through my windows or, more so when I was younger, have cameras installed somewhere I could never find). I also always feel like people are talking about me. Whether I can make out what they’re saying or not. It’s a constant feeling.",3.6884285714285694,6.355831557142861,3.649999999999999,86.70500000000001,76.28571428571428,5.142857142857143,32.85714285714286,6.1826913282559595,1.932,299,16,51,2,7,91,52,70,0.1,0.8240000000000001,0.076,-0.1456,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,1,0,8,1,0,1,1,17,12,10,0,2,7,0,3,2,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,6,10,2,6,8,1,7,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,5,6,39,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354266097809091,0.0,0.18178127137792874,0.18914173854632715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.491286892905602,0.0,0.18149008264244276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557891220657344,0.3448072311487788,0.32478338192949785,0.0,0.0,0.20775898944014096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221062578240843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517324809539934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753169767248313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151789473861347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807675734340872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18270472200925295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Empty_Insight,2019/07/28,"Schizo Dating Thread So it seems like a common struggle for those of us who are diagnosed is relationships. A lot of people who are newer to the diagnosis find navigating things more difficult, and those of us who have been shut off from the outside world for longer have trouble meeting people. Generally I'm not exactly a huge fan of inter-schizo relationships because of the potential things have to go wrong (e.g. inadvertently feeding each other's bad habits), but I think a very casual sort of thing for people here who are wanting to date and talk would probably be beneficial if for nothing else but practice. Approaching people in-person can be overwhelming (as an understatement), and even online can inspire quite a bit of nervousness. Just drop a comment if you're interested and maybe you can get a conversation going. As always, for those who are new to the scene or feel a tad rusty, feel free to ask any questions. Despite how schizophrenia seems to be portrayed with us being these perpetually solitary and lonely people, but friendly reminder that there's a fair amount of regulars here who are married and/or have kids, serious LTRs, etc. Even for those of us not really seeking advice, the community is helpful enough to where I'm sure people who can relate to specific struggles will drop in and provide some perspective. This doesn't exclude loved ones, either- if your SO has schizophrenia and you feel like there's something you would like input on, feel free to ask away.",12.104228804902966,9.69282589887641,10.67037112700034,61.79368743615938,55.928838951310865,13.604221995233233,43.37385086823289,11.911945987284742,5.169130337078652,1213,51,194,26,11,380,165,267,0.11,0.728,0.162,0.971,0,2,1,0,0,0,30.0,4,4,0,1,11,21,0,4,15,0,25,3,0,1,2,40,41,19,0,6,11,0,4,3,1,3,1,0,0,1,19,9,1,0,10,1,2,3,3,10,0,1,1,4,9,13,32,33,9,18,0,2,0,1,28,8,0,10,8,135,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09880535381094067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413317972103841,0.0,0.0,0.06875954212487441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890519076405332,0.0,0.09499793475595034,0.0,0.08442419199614135,0.06163686037988742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038797951466817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10262642451427392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08446599698697324,0.0,0.0,0.10447559555641583,0.11276646809762125,0.1335668793678388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045008078443309,0.0722343435465152,0.0,0.0,0.0924144217535962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0781187836368002,0.0,0.05282678133423932,0.0,0.11492841712400075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06777315831872734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14819446397948827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08596170014378139,0.09125741466083537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10158046857699443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765447873127377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09701957085452573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06851602314736074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4205894568040646,0.08828698899177953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10901570250759032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11326844029412525,0.10754492493606434,0.0,0.0,0.06477485610210901,0.0,0.0,0.21711262690357536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18409690660801906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784086108552049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21140817052516495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09529674537102296,0.0,0.0,0.08126989489906714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152271023920387,0.06478840664097832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4865005431381262,0.0,0.0,0.0834278859863317,0.05963840346406168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436539496057452,0.1105499622647891,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Throwaway09343,2019/07/28,"What strategies do you use to manage side effects of antipsychotics???? Hi everyone, I'm an occupational therapy student on an ACT team for one of my placements, whre we work with people with the most severe mental health problems with highly special needs. The majority of our clients have schizophrenia and schizoaffecive disorder. As part of my placement, I'm running a couple of group sessions. I asked some of our clients what they're interested in learning about and a client suggested he wants to know more about managing the side effects of antipsychotics. Most clients are on clozapine, though it sounds like the side effects of most antipsychotics are fairly similar. I've been looking online for relevant research studies but there isn't that much (I've found: lowering antipsychotic dosage, taking additional meds to counteract side effects, timing medication properly). I see tremendous value in people's lived experiences/anecdotal experiences with things like this. I have ADHD myself and there's SO much I've learned through forums like reddit about managing the disorder and harm reduction tips/maximizing the meds-- in fact, much more than what I could find in published studies. I'd be super grateful if you could let me know about the side effects you experience and how you manage them? Some specific side effects patients mentioned they wanted to manage were: drowsiness/fatigue, not being able to express emotion (e.g. not crying when feeling sad), weight gain, and nausea-- but let me know about others as well. They also wanted to know if any supplements helped. Thank you so much, and I really really appreciate it!!!",8.678318449553487,10.656241927797836,7.774489834695037,65.29007600228007,61.12996389891697,10.885730571917158,39.12768383051493,10.882677951670544,4.995776895306858,1342,68,186,35,19,415,168,277,0.06,0.7909999999999999,0.149,0.9828,1,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,3,5,3,10,14,11,0,0,11,0,14,3,0,8,1,49,32,19,0,9,6,0,2,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,9,13,1,0,15,1,0,2,3,3,1,1,3,5,21,8,35,23,13,17,0,1,2,0,20,13,0,7,5,125,30,13,0.11652505688182975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14004047412158496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09318504588905574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924103449410637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089351984580821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18607155237993306,0.12893275909774102,0.12799730338954918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670956208881349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310750051481817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134468542219687,0.0,0.227967730071606,0.0,0.0,0.058918569945664974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10650179096059514,0.0,0.0,0.12776371039594522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12386068650807085,0.0,0.0,0.07810428938510931,0.12311512026521665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561564954749977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383095309516314,0.0,0.17078477065346925,0.0,0.10289376006466212,0.0,0.09785170019524128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25886613900405914,0.1173867357507085,0.11742985035101175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426372974121182,0.0864018531942422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07896039423530295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12618528131912335,0.0,0.16156760513782634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111498742383236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14929787046621848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092855383784846,0.0,0.0,0.1316401467376932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08761234105287861,0.0,0.0,0.10728061674166166,0.1332565578037769,0.0,0.0774140700569212,0.0,0.11448527675636908,0.0,0.06794669773747973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10064023609866236,0.0,0.0,0.2061884928270721,0.0,0.0,0.1418961272489733,0.10477002023351832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08483162921670145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dizzleonbeat2,2019/07/28,"I have schizophrenia and I make music, check me out if u cld pls =)! SoundCloud.com/devon-connor-1 Thnx much love <3 I love this illness! =)",0.2107936507936508,1.1366850000000035,0.7735449735449755,96.3866666666667,124.92592592592592,3.0243386243386245,18.67195767195767,5.288315135182226,-0.13527089947089888,113,4,21,1,7,34,23,27,0.096,0.491,0.414,0.8849,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,4,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,4,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,10,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8761825736019679,0.0,0.3240074079561853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3568239023744709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Siuilanseo,2019/07/28,Looking for Ireland folk Hey guys so I'm Irish I just want to hear some stories about people in similar experiences in Ireland,1.9800000000000004,4.747337000000002,3.466666666666669,80.89500000000002,95.66666666666666,5.7333333333333325,31.0,7.1686216300943375,2.6669500000000004,104,6,17,2,4,34,21,24,0.0,0.9420000000000001,0.057999999999999996,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,5,4,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,0,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4492385180555459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4547336457144573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5176126149651525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3856576785768587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183888854580522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708798972809163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jackanour,2019/07/28,"How do you handle alcohol on meds. Hey guys, The titles pretty slef explanatory. Recently I've been reacting in a very bad way to booze. Very visual halusinations ect. So I'm just curious if any of you like a drink and how you handle your symptoms when you do so?",2.6099999999999994,4.8736692307692335,4.577538461538462,80.76746153846155,77.84615384615384,8.775384615384615,23.861538461538462,9.3871,2.3271492307692307,208,7,40,6,5,71,42,52,0.068,0.785,0.147,0.5378,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,5,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,0,3,4,0,3,0,6,4,7,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,4,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,1,3,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30649767058717364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19503109354090886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394626546001765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809508652082862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839730992615335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14011402380651136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185656679837363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917746054372482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28317642001764826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29809082395746433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4732734201798688,0.0,0.22764529090140445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ice-Swallow-Come-Yum,2019/07/28,Do NOT search for Schizophrenia art on Google Images!!! I just want everyone to know that if you search SZ art on google the results are very triggering and creepy. Stay away...,4.362395833333332,6.965991281250003,2.9512500000000017,92.90208333333337,73.6875,6.766666666666668,23.166666666666664,7.793537801064563,0.9800291666666668,139,4,27,2,3,39,28,32,0.0,0.932,0.068,0.2905,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,8,4,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4550673821606023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4628218733094846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26618879169354753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5162578888460517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3996435266990387,0.2856850752634748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tree_by_the_River,2019/07/28,"I don't think I was really hearing voices when I got diagnosed I think the voices were there, but I was living in an apartment complex that was on the same street as a fraternity. I think the fraternity had set up bluetooth speakers in the trees or under parked cars as a prank? Does this sound logical. I'm questioning my entire diagnosis and contemplating trying to go off of my meds? Does this sound logical?",4.996923076923078,6.799544076923077,6.272307692307695,73.24769230769235,69.76923076923077,9.815384615384616,29.66666666666667,10.125756701596842,3.2614205128205125,330,13,58,9,6,111,55,78,0.031,0.9690000000000001,0.0,-0.2824,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,0,6,1,0,0,0,11,13,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,3,1,0,0,7,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,6,8,0,10,7,1,12,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,2,1,40,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697148239895233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4650919312383788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15102298429817654,0.0,0.2125320762833084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995019836253673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346483451194621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2951710146786081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976833460007049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702362622025977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5108156240394799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804162154427172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ThomasWinter13,2019/07/28,"Here's a song i wrote to express myself to my therapist. She cried. After being in and out of the mental hospital since 2012, i was tired of being labeled a schizophrenic and decided to embrace it. Unable to express myself eloquently in a bi-weekly one hour therapy session with a therapist i didnt trust, i spent a day writing and recording this song. I know the quality isn't the crispest, but i work with what i got, and what i got is a chromebook. If you're schizophrenic, this is a great song to show to your loved ones to explain what you may be going to. Hope you like it! It's a remix of B.O.B.'s Airplanes [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wewJ6rR-Ok8](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wewJ6rR-Ok8)",7.973140000000001,9.258847064000003,6.551750000000002,75.91962500000002,62.36,9.45,32.425,9.516144504307137,2.9531000000000014,573,21,96,10,8,170,76,125,0.047,0.7829999999999999,0.17,0.9572,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,3,0,1,1,5,0,0,11,0,9,4,0,0,0,16,18,6,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,3,3,0,0,8,7,0,0,3,4,1,1,2,0,0,2,6,3,15,5,17,8,0,7,0,0,0,1,10,3,0,3,4,69,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354653564020849,0.13824503122712306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182622563807108,0.0,0.3428879491547788,0.2363336222767351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21290871723591992,0.21110228290533384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178071312919826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10472589610626357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19346905957336533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21602534454176728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905129542249839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17732153156606176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24514034315775496,0.4977789972218018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463762929179989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17194736447939696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560572705730225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FusRoDeckTheHalls,2019/07/28,"Me Hi, I am dirge. I’m living with psychosis, which I have had since I can remember , but it got to be unbearable when I was about 14. At that point I believed that Satan was possessing my body as I watched him make everything in my life awful as my body deteriorated and that god was unforgiving and cruel only to me for this reason. I constantly had visions of me strangling my mother. I’m 18 now and I take medicine, which makes me no longer visually hallucinate literal people floating around and talking to me, but the voices are still there. I think the only thing that helps those is listening to music to let them sing to it instead of talking.",6.895952380952384,6.681513515873017,7.537936507936507,73.07928571428572,64.63492063492063,10.692063492063493,34.66666666666667,10.290406445055957,3.4941238095238103,517,21,96,11,7,172,85,126,0.09300000000000001,0.8420000000000001,0.065,-0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,0,7,1,1,0,2,1,12,3,2,3,0,13,20,9,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,11,6,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,3,20,0,16,12,0,8,1,0,1,0,8,4,0,0,4,73,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762195176925222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230244581081584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4397607662056125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139161153313667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17790676559247134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583205397240363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13268325581740906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20241964114848224,0.13981956551370125,0.0,0.0,0.17479550990291062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642693983004792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30110329249033263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13723520214496315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871289098522017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035279360437288,0.0,0.0,0.2242413704183649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637481903428415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15808496460953184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488354961321426,0.3182131251559876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13151071397094855,0.12683984258074454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Em42,2019/07/28,"Worked on and am in this music video 😊 So I helped work on the lyrics for some songs for this band (Grand Vultures, they're an Americana, New Wave, Punk Band, out of Miami, FL) and I'm in their music video. I also recently started and am modding the subreddit r/GrandVultures. Please check it out. You can find their first music video at [Grand Vultures - Fantasies on YouTube](https://youtu.be/XTB5RiukDMo) They also have a bunch of early demos up on SoundCloud if you like their sound and you can find links to other services on the YouTube page and in the sidebar (though I'm missing a couple in the sidebar, I haven't had time to update it, because bipolar/schizoaffective gets in the way of a lot of things). [SoundCloud](https://m.soundcloud.com/grandvultures) I hope you guys enjoy it, even if it's not all my own work, I'm still really proud of my contributions.",8.065815752461322,8.37774615822785,6.716160337552746,78.17940225035164,62.101265822784825,9.8070323488045,32.11251758087201,9.444778638647367,2.72914964838256,695,23,124,11,9,207,97,158,0.044000000000000004,0.862,0.09300000000000001,0.8173,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,4,4,5,6,7,0,0,10,0,7,0,0,0,1,17,14,11,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,8,7,0,0,3,7,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,2,14,6,23,13,6,23,0,1,0,0,12,14,0,5,9,82,22,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257011055935194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12413683920235873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253233970360105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345020668205272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3722458977468796,0.17321578041492824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10639331107472301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20163526753163166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13649536340097446,0.0,0.0,0.20226011881050007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948804569386298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17312714636243867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966764408332836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22353518147892348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304567728911652,0.0,0.2010695849620663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14413719086166624,0.0,0.16262688580918172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13528913338762802,0.0,0.2000749200581163,0.0,0.11874391627640415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616396738021534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4447562668704579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,buddhabellybub,2019/02/01,"Having recurring dreams of death. How about you? I get them every week or two. And that's the level of consistency I experience within this realm. Most every time, what is happening is I feel like i am supposed to kill myself. That it's an order of sorts. And, I must say... I do pretty well overall for someone diagnosed with schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder. I accept that I have this illness and take medications. It's just that these dreams are pretty severe and affect me often enough to ask whether others are also having them.",4.184387755102044,7.039430500000004,4.848326530612244,77.75738775510206,75.63265306122447,7.185306122448982,24.08571428571429,8.238735603445708,1.8936620408163267,431,14,69,8,10,138,71,98,0.155,0.6729999999999999,0.17300000000000001,-0.0065,0,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,1,2,0,6,4,1,0,2,0,10,3,0,2,1,16,15,8,2,1,3,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,11,5,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,13,3,9,14,2,6,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,4,4,59,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16639551764215868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19451971680589933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21118922609631985,0.0,0.0,0.23846913243219595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149945326063928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506201413808474,0.0,0.0,0.20353484880039027,0.0,0.0,0.10520771708925107,0.14864704858778807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10870930289095096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18399784068765015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302014128967801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165372225108256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20961117176266236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4233691088908529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16546761790408485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350627200955296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17629916946288912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15644463875342962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12132875864614545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20325661617685195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16690322337140515,0.0,0.18708218238032967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tamil_22,2019/02/01,Help? Not sure if right place but I've been hearing voices shouting things at me from a far same accents but I live in a different place.This is going to be a grammatical mess by the way I'm 27 I'd say at 23 I heared weird whispering one night in my ears loud i ignored it and eventually got to sleep skip two years i started hearing shouting from a far like someone was looking through my window now I've moved it's happening again I'm miles away but the accents the same I havent told anyone because as you are thinking it sounds bat shit i also havent told a doctor or anything sorry if wrong place,1.4711538461538467,3.685968960317464,2.986825396825399,90.91159340659344,81.61904761904762,5.464224664224664,24.77167277167277,6.67199483983844,0.8480141636141636,483,19,101,5,13,158,88,126,0.165,0.7929999999999999,0.042,-0.9341,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,3,7,1,0,8,0,7,4,3,0,1,13,20,9,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,11,1,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,5,0,2,5,12,10,2,12,14,2,19,0,0,1,0,8,11,1,3,6,56,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11625474292495055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164818811431006,0.0,0.11962959997769235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13658272751793474,0.0,0.0,0.08861803709685219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15188385353254613,0.0,0.14879543488463925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826188312432325,0.0,0.11626807552389545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12855287192224918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4915378402264104,0.0,0.09744046372646838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07102190921439665,0.0,0.12836703046903494,0.0,0.1220767145890642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545085024120891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13642272128419886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985085133080993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4556515605976384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12414775554099397,0.0,0.11560645175077428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922330486408744,0.0,0.0,0.145477995835568,0.0,0.12317407893082337,0.0,0.0,0.1627331819211855,0.10289576413326708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13701234073976715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09657936772340504,0.09314915438213386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778202802030762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420083064512093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539032813597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15894256450858155,0.0,0.0936154516750427 schizophrenia,pphilox,2019/02/01,"Another writer, have some questions, come talk to me. Hello! Im a junior in high school, and we are learning about the nature of stereotypes of certain demographics. I have read (this) \[[https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/53xfmu/frequently\_asked\_questions\_read\_this\_sticky/dalmykd/](https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/53xfmu/frequently_asked_questions_read_this_sticky/dalmykd/)\] short article from the FAQ, and done a decent amount of previous research about schizophrenia before asking, but I figured its always better to talk to real people about their real experiences. So, if anyone is willing to talk about it, what are common stereotypes that you experience or know about, other than the classic, too widely spread misconception that anyone with schizophrenia is just a crazy person. What are some lesser known ones that people don't really think about, but still unconsciously change how people view schizophrenia? What do you wish people knew, or just what do you want to say/tell me about schizophrenia, and how it affects your lives? &#x200B; Im not sure where this sub lies in terms of severity of conditions, but if anyone has had previous, really bad delusions/psychotic breaks, and can look back on it now and tell me about what that experience was like, and how you perceived/thought about reality or your delusions. (not sure if people generally come back from schizophrenia being this bad, so this might just be a stupid question) &#x200B; I know many people probably ask these questions, but it is a very interesting concept, and i know for a fact that there is no possible way for me to even comprehend what it actually feels like to have schizophrenia, so I wanted to learn from you guys directly, and was hoping someone would be willing to answer/just talk to me about what its like, and the misconceptions that other people have. Also, if I am approaching this in the wrong way, or being insensitive, or just plain stupid, please just let me know, because I am genuinely not sure how I should be asking this, I just was interested and figured I could ask, so I should. &#x200B;",15.568081318681314,12.482695311428573,11.969428571428573,57.20064835164837,50.17142857142858,14.654945054945054,45.4945054945055,12.367839424501927,5.56990989010989,1749,65,251,34,13,506,172,350,0.11800000000000001,0.79,0.09300000000000001,-0.9066,0,0,0,0,0,0,96.0,1,7,1,1,33,16,2,0,11,0,36,0,0,5,5,75,54,32,0,12,22,0,1,3,0,6,0,0,0,2,29,14,0,0,15,1,0,3,5,5,0,1,6,3,26,11,36,35,4,20,0,0,2,0,24,8,0,16,9,191,55,6,0.0,0.0,0.07263297430557512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0595216694822173,0.0619317488633945,0.24193472484292036,0.2713219059681525,0.0,0.07804637794104215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15612962630639576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783281294005666,0.0,0.0,0.1144642002146338,0.12429193509710115,0.04537185650693702,0.0,0.06333447496983413,0.0,0.0,0.06582731457122717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07873710449843006,0.12822976369688513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05942632390817019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07616776401301834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049160333990133205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184205591005739,0.0,0.0,0.03763406041400737,0.053172829538454584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07369743328384358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07863941501315833,0.0,0.0739258156298511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16079441304806727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16361919569732808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610975023102483,0.0,0.1090882616888422,0.0,0.0657230816374012,0.0,0.06250248096919392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546036991698298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895850158324562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05043571576339439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612028866974881,0.06498943280491383,0.0,0.08170182391852886,0.0,0.0839086774557859,0.0,0.0,0.08024816288000483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25013600894570753,0.0,0.0744501735518422,0.16943534182874762,0.0953635684299516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05918974863299682,0.0,0.07532716573869319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08408475018663704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0630643243487275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05943991948333757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104482721817733,0.0,0.0,0.2392961605745605,0.06505512836689792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04769175897847579,0.0,0.059089131276974675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06141257111927961,0.08780152225784618,0.11815818950608595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855908632533642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05287295903778266,0.0813775554726669,0.2713219059681525,0.0 schizophrenia,TheKolbrin,2019/02/01,"How angry were you at your SO or Parents for arranging involuntary hospitalization? My friend just called a few minutes ago - very upset. Her son has been in psychosis off and on for a few months and finally became violent. Jumping on her, spitting and drawing fist back- stopped by the dad. He did this because he thought she was lying to him about a delusion he was having. She had to call the police and he ended up in the hospital. He called this morning cussing and ""absolutely enraged"" with her. She is heartbroken and fearful too. What has been your experience with this, if I may ask, to give her a little insight?",4.4706086956521744,6.781925495652175,5.107173913043479,78.92945652173916,72.30434782608695,7.730434782608696,32.369565217391305,8.548686976883017,2.823539130434783,492,24,86,9,10,158,82,115,0.201,0.774,0.025,-0.9721,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,3,0,0,6,5,2,2,7,0,12,1,1,1,0,16,15,10,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,8,0,13,1,16,6,2,15,0,0,0,0,25,8,0,3,6,67,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863980492869458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19658079549092602,0.0,0.0,0.16169018619775574,0.0,0.12818302863232864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.644149590955517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862431845085032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056914494032032,0.0,0.2366203091288245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303483929564649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16245964213495415,0.0,0.0,0.20171704970180745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107529949443395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16784125387646548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23348794457717456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758011537401873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16693660761220624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735007109740806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ChrisDM01,2019/02/01,"Sorry for venting First of all I’d like to say that I haven’t slept last night and the only sleep I got was a short 25 minute powernap a couple of hours ago. Now the problem is that my girlfriend is that I’m in Denmark rn and my gf is at home in Germany. And she’s chilling with a friend of hers who according to her is like her little brother. When she says that she loves me and that she isn’t interested in him at all I’m not sure if I believe her. She texts me daily that she loves me and I really love her too and I’m just very scared of losing her. And I just don’t trust this guy. He’s known for being a fuckboy. I texted my two of my close friends about the issue and they were having trouble understanding what my problem was. I don’t know if I’m paranoid or what. I kinda see how I might just be a bit insecure /paranoid but I’m really scared of an episode because I’ve been kinda stable for the last couple of months. Not mood wise but I haven’t had hallucinations or paranoid thoughts. But I heard that when you’re psychotic you don’t know that you’re psychotic. But I kinda see how I’m acting a bit weird after my friends pointed it out. But still I don’t know what the fuck I’m supposed to do. I just took my medication but I’m not tired at all and I’m scared of not being able to sleep tonight and that things might get even worse tomorrow. Does this sound like the start of a new episode? I hope this text makes sense Sorry for venting I just needed to get this off my chest. 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It is great to finally have a clean apartment but sometimes this lady gets on my nerves. She acts like I'm just going to snap out of this thing and finally be normal. She always shames me for not putting lotion on my psoriasis. Fuck that psoriasis. The real issue is my total lack of energy and awful arthritis. Who cares if I have red patches when I can't even go for a walk without hurting. Then she wants me to eat healthier which is fine and dandy but it won't make me lose weight because I'm effin hungry. Healthy food is fine but I will eat a ton of it. I used to be able to run 20km so I really know what it takes to get in shape and trust me it is just not doable for me atm. I feel like shit. The other day a doctor told me to lose weight. Oh really!!!!!! What a great insight! How about giving me some concrete tools to work with? We all know I'm going to continue being a fatty until I die 15 years before time. Sorry for the rant.",1.0998486879908072,3.166624229074891,3.3860026814786472,88.3654089254932,82.03964757709251,5.886152078145948,18.680137904615968,7.079830092131019,0.2626362382685308,848,20,180,11,23,291,139,227,0.14,0.6659999999999999,0.19399999999999998,0.9149,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,0,0,3,7,16,3,1,9,1,15,10,2,3,2,32,34,14,1,5,9,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,2,1,15,8,5,0,4,0,1,8,5,7,0,1,1,4,28,9,29,28,5,26,0,3,1,1,9,9,3,2,11,120,43,2,0.12176808948758305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132080509193694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07422869714108582,0.0,0.10361567551036208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12415068265033853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07853034409678779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12637605218610606,0.0,0.0,0.12463479934628754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24919830996532805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08042667468434543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06156960476663701,0.08699114746034405,0.0,0.2667819801129104,0.0,0.0,0.14724245715328482,0.0,0.0,0.11257263658641732,0.12723760192941802,0.11681104706502835,0.20761083420755064,0.0,0.0,0.4027492456175383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214332211919858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13035525826398714,0.0,0.0,0.1270942490821881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338411149434463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600840271531066,0.11897947555970867,0.0,0.10752345391235248,0.0,0.0,0.27245469013118623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08128114527767268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11930687388443205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08251320881971172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10632319892639462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12241056250701368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13859874426429447,0.1560155123517551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12499319400453884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204317541052056,0.13630940688102847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155444906894644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808973079485287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07100395221324579,0.0,0.0,0.11635462776222034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10516853287393113,0.0,0.0,0.07182197408218803,0.0,0.0,0.2965614569631461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738009296162345,0.0,0.0886486193979068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841465730636832 schizophrenia,Kyra-p,2019/02/01,"Societies and their influence in accepting Schizophrenia How hard was it to open up about personal experiences to loved ones and how did they react? What was it that stops a person about opening up about such experiences? I am interested to see how society plays a role in dealing, accepting, and overcoming any mental illness, especially one like schizophrenia. Hope you don't mind sharing these experiences with to help better understand and find a solution to breaking the stigma!",9.754814814814814,11.191349666666667,9.083555555555561,58.792,58.50617283950617,13.393580246913581,42.125925925925934,12.688352899677879,6.320306666666666,397,21,55,14,5,126,60,81,0.08199999999999999,0.632,0.28600000000000003,0.9638,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,2,1,7,9,0,0,4,0,5,2,0,5,0,19,9,7,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,7,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,2,4,9,13,6,0,8,0,0,1,1,10,6,0,1,2,41,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13771041806849796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17909931218537795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20877387503416014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5942665617891879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18508600060386848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814048012808141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13573490569417446,0.0,0.0,0.2011332653973487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989337671513742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827687668712332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20407751979514774,0.0,0.20447243200494294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27444540497021713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35363929974945396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16137035315803488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16930333839815667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21081495981623266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Misspumpkinz,2019/02/01,Jobs I have extremeeee social anxiety and it’s hard for me to be around people. Anyone have good ideas for jobs? College isn’t working out for me. It just doesn’t feel like the right fit and I prefer to not be part of the machine!,1.2287500000000016,3.4116227083333364,2.4123333333333328,94.86600000000004,82.33333333333334,4.673333333333334,20.016666666666666,5.6839178017228535,-0.17258833333333312,182,5,39,1,5,58,36,48,0.063,0.7709999999999999,0.166,0.7263,2,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,9,7,2,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,8,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,27,6,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078797233499093,0.0,0.0,0.19000634781806186,0.0,0.0,0.2419054757732435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739949057708553,0.19413051928902705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279219255019299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434249237463293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067604497979479,0.0,0.0,0.5393183977698022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327580337164287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942670432694273,0.0,0.18838972721307876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23206376874742315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770038656696657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19782935413992644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lunakat34,2019/02/01,"I thought I was dead and in Hell Scary right? First mistake is that I stopped taking my medication. First the spirits wanted me to believe that I was a special prophet of God, when that didn't work they wanted to show me all the bad things I've done in life and that I more than anyone deserved hell. Maybe I still do but I'm not there yet. Still have hope and faith that I can improve. But cant do this on my own and have to realize that first off this is a real disease. Not just spiritual sickness. I should of posted here before I stopped my meds but it happened. So yeah in summary one week of mental hell and it got me nowhere except a missed school test in this reality. This disease whether you see it as spiritual or just chemical has this insidious part of it where it does want to ruin our lives. Be careful be alert. Take your meds. Thanks for listening. 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Howdy ppl, just wanted to ask if anyone has vertigo/dizziness as a symptom of their hallucinations/illness (rather than from medication/med increases). I haven’t changed my meds and there’s no obviously dizzying hallucination to mess me up. Just wanted to see if y’all thought this was normal before I think about it being a separate issue. It’s been 4 days I’m a bit pissed off. 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I'm on abilify right now and my auditory hallucinations have been happening more frequently than before,9.161,13.187658433333334,9.943333333333333,41.58500000000001,64.66666666666666,13.333333333333332,46.66666666666666,11.855464076750405,8.214666666666666,163,11,17,7,3,55,26,30,0.0,0.8540000000000001,0.146,0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,5,4,3,10,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,14,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24628496412719575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299718815672104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114727378535726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3548311507874886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30079951337156313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7321964140428675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,David_the_Wavid,2019/02/01,"Do people understand how life works It seems like people on Reddit think in such tiny time scales. I'm only 31, so I don't think my attitudes should be that much different than most of reddit, but I see people lamenting that their life is over because they've had a bad few months, or rejoicing because things are going well for a few days. I am being hypocritical because a month or so ago I posted on facebook that for the first time in a long time, I was happy, mentally healthy, and getting back in shape, but that was a combination I hadn't seen in over 11 years. It just seems that a lot of people are too reactive to their current circumstances, and they don't realize that success/failure and happiness/depression are not final. Even if you know you're going to die soon, there is hope. I have had prodomal schizophrenia for at least 15 years and schizoaffective for 5. I've been through yearS-long depressions, years-long psychosis, survived 6 months in the Marine Corps while suffering from most of the symptoms of prodomal schizophrenia (psych evals were a joke back then, if they aren't still), and went on to be at the top of many of my classes in college for years. So I've been through some very low lows and some nice highs. I'm nowhere near where I want to be, but FFS...people need to learn to relax and enjoy the moment. Plan for the future, but in general, stop giving a fuck. I was very neurotic in high school and somehow made it through boot camp which I think actually fixed some of my neuroses, despite the military being a bad fit for a schizophrenic. I think a lot of young people in their 20s and early 30s are seeing depression and anxiety because they haven't been forced into a survival situation like that. Life is hard, but not as hard as people make it out to be...for most people.",8.242403361344536,6.953486514285713,7.577126050420174,77.40822689075631,62.42857142857142,10.863865546218493,35.159663865546214,9.773937934552695,3.1221815126050427,1440,51,279,23,17,449,182,350,0.152,0.7040000000000001,0.14300000000000002,-0.5513,2,0,0,0,0,0,43.0,0,1,6,6,16,17,1,0,19,0,30,6,0,3,0,52,54,27,1,6,12,0,2,2,0,1,5,0,0,0,13,12,0,1,10,2,0,3,7,8,1,1,13,5,21,9,48,35,12,57,0,5,3,1,8,27,1,16,28,183,34,7,0.0,0.0,0.08657804984851536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0786450430880687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678706573971343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13644060878410613,0.1481552071285517,0.21633187361161169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05721714487839035,0.0,0.22924355654917244,0.0,0.09207748890262688,0.0926936538047468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058598809803121626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971885669331266,0.0,0.07546529812792857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08202033151629719,0.04635260667266234,0.08510843394597566,0.1008433900364789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09444422922120094,0.15895162197903578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18747537900412564,0.0,0.08811910859889058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04875826377996036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879969569287358,0.08668834918467162,0.0,0.0,0.2355435722946359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15085336547261805,0.0,0.08394913313972904,0.05922137638289456,0.08994828768506713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940902487658771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21244668643634587,0.0,0.06521950457314646,0.06578485298700479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06747565752741354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4920589435765778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496936101343114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08978950913994678,0.1413969155871085,0.1615349503817775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09972514450088137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07085201124174713,0.07417400216214333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09221418646735867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058941712816868434,0.2273931103980645,0.0,0.0,0.1552002656087853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923607852814298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14640679924028294,0.052329431938407146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07977005265168108,0.08224445030996452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06458931203851423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713985667307676 schizophrenia,gildrop9,2019/02/01,"Things getting worse for me Stuff has been getting worse for me recently. I never used to have anxiety but it has been getting bad now. I have been getting nervous talking to people, and if I have to say something I get so nervous sometimes I lose all the thoughts in my head and just can’t talk, and my vision blurs and the room shrinks. I have also been switching off between feeling elated and weird and enlightened, and then sometimes angry, and other times just foggy and sad. Sometimes I feel like the entire universe, and other times I want to die. My facial expressions are so diminished now and I have to force myself to smile when I see people and make voice inflection manually. My friends have told me it looks like there is no life in my eyes anymore. I keep doing drugs because it makes me feel better. Also, it helps me in social situations because it is what the “cool” people do. I feel like I have to get drunk all the time and socialize but I don’t know if thats what I want. I think what I want is to be alone in nature and think about absolutely nothing and wait until I die. I feel like I can’t talk to anyone about this because I’m scared of more meds or people feeling sorry for me, which I don’t want. I just want to be normal. On the outside I seem like a slightly awkward person who is doing pretty well, but on the inside it’s really bad. 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My friends told a few other people about what I was telling to them without actually asking me and since then I've completely stopped talking about anything to do with my mental health with them. My parents seem like they really want me to talk to them about it, but i think paranoia or something is holding me back there too. Now I only talk to my councilor about anything, and even then I've yet to bring up anything about the paranoia and all that. I know I shouldn't be saying it, but I really don't know if I want to try and get ""better"". Logically I know I should want that but i wouldn't feel safe or comfortable telling anyone who is close enough to me to actually affect me. Sorry for the absolute mess of writing, I can clear stuff up if you ask about it, it's just late and I wanted to get stuff out. 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My s/o took me to the hospital and I got sent home to take a Seroquel and come back in the morning.. now I'm on an increased dose of my meds. Feeling rather alone at the moment. I feel like I am losing my grip on reality, as I am alone with my voices a lot. I'm trying to write as much as I can but it's so tough for me to talk about it. I don't enjoy doing anything anymore. Pms welcome .. will do my best to respond ",-0.03788415124698119,1.6123093628318617,2.8269831053901875,93.0913676588898,83.69026548672565,5.1710378117457765,21.777152051488336,6.1124844417494595,0.1861398230088498,390,13,92,3,11,138,75,113,0.132,0.745,0.12300000000000001,0.2432,0,2,0,0,0,1,13.0,0,0,0,2,6,8,1,0,7,0,8,2,0,0,0,10,19,8,1,1,2,0,3,1,0,1,2,3,1,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,4,1,4,0,0,4,6,18,4,18,12,4,16,0,1,0,0,5,7,0,1,5,64,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4438837132520157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21252005493455944,0.0,0.0,0.17634403466186213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16477729954210196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22488620457074127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845935597616947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21670492028761493,0.15309022810503006,0.0,0.2347463815695455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138886650191176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21495232090435887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370823177808019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469223354914356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397379036727999,0.0,0.1821833720248789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380300729878999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15752925667521234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20257517947583226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16112089449544015,0.17223977041001612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23808626647929704,0.14549018295983435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tachibanakanade,2019/02/01,"Scared of developing tardive dyskinesia I'm on Abilify (30mg), Thorazine (150mg), Wellbutrin XR (300mg), and BuSpar (20mg). I know that all of these (except maybe BuSpar) can cause tardive dyskinesia and I'm afraid of that. What are my actual chances of developing this disorder? Is there anything I can do to lessen the chances of developing it? (I'm not sure if that second question is against the rules, if it is I can erase the question.)",5.121124497991972,6.571542578313255,6.1543975903614445,75.57729919678718,69.0,9.388755020080325,34.315261044176715,9.725611199111238,3.438053815261044,346,17,64,8,6,115,51,83,0.10400000000000001,0.851,0.045,-0.6953,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,8,0,0,1,2,12,12,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,4,1,9,12,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,0,40,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.2791591128850869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354079118914213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29386854292690506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278563754389011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15721437115350095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873917081766368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.64091869223774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864019320433861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26961378323524404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,coffee_fiend101,2019/02/01,how long does it take for an antipsychotic to show up in blood work? thanks,1.16,3.7736293333333366,1.495000000000001,97.7025,89.0,5.666666666666668,14.166666666666668,7.1686216300943375,-0.5183333333333331,60,1,14,1,2,18,15,15,0.0,0.828,0.172,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,7,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4683047948483852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4735822366974832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023588310214304,0.0,0.0,0.4926851973671218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895884387414613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,scotchinmyblank,2019/02/01,How do you deal with the drowsiness from clozapine? Title says it all. I've been sleeping 10-12 hours(closer to 12) a day. I'm currently on 300 mg of clozapine and 15 of abilify and things are going ok otherwise. 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It's like the psychiatrists never want me to lower the dose. Medicated for life is their ideal which I think is very poor.",7.387771084337348,5.796815939759039,7.856716867469879,75.69182228915666,64.3012048192771,10.227710843373494,32.798192771084345,8.841846274778883,2.528737349397591,325,10,65,4,4,108,53,83,0.192,0.718,0.09,-0.8184,2,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,4,1,5,0,0,8,0,7,6,0,3,1,13,13,1,0,3,3,0,1,2,0,1,6,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,5,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,4,1,9,3,9,8,1,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,5,44,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366041696370875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658313270335744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23742257110406198,0.17333872578660647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23957935729717095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14377723506515144,0.2031415778028601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20084667396595465,0.2778406665157979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286455362292822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21931028032241165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27208706708066993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137977918640024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18220168554458435,0.0,0.0,0.3316166139643788,0.0,0.0,0.27171112645751544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346207020086936,0.16771855024240073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LethalPillow,2019/03/27,"Afraid of developing mental disorders Hi guys I don't want to go into too much details because of that fact, there is too much detail haha but basically I am a 20 year old male who has experimented with drugs (weed, psychedelics, alcohol) but have been totally clean of every drug for about 3 months now. I am pretty afraid and paranoid that I might develop/be developing psychosis or schizophrenia. I am pretty self conscious and aware at times of my own thoughts because I want to make sure if there is any changes or signs/symptoms I catch it. Obviously since I scared myself with the 'what if' thought one day, this behaviour has gotten worse. Sometimes I even question my own conciousness or reality. I believe I am being hyper paranoid about it. Is there any guidance or counsel anyone can lend me? Thankyou ",5.0117671517671525,7.503440675675678,5.274324324324322,77.52556133056136,71.29729729729729,7.797089397089397,32.33056133056133,8.617729084823388,2.9058049896049907,652,31,109,12,13,206,105,148,0.1,0.7859999999999999,0.114,0.6243,0,0,3,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,3,2,1,15,3,0,1,4,25,22,10,0,4,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,3,7,5,1,0,4,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,4,0,15,2,13,16,5,10,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,8,6,75,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16561667649194714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107709429762113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835920029917036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889375464538214,0.0,0.0,0.17459904529680928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639385787149467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09994335821104497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17760998527724894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594339014603869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102356764765908,0.0,0.13056959933014714,0.0,0.0,0.1515911981150135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807348806946858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534454758586382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10344422543569004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15617413660771295,0.16439954973550305,0.0,0.0,0.12369622967839,0.0,0.22784276712005824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16261580624812627,0.0,0.10501223802161497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153220730499639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17360278466427526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15515282527449625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16166836269856755,0.0,0.0,0.12819346337824136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15327010315511133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14605816344687514,0.1610740188073956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460590406710036,0.09036473113758604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18281160908383495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15792850467633096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979612688959644 schizophrenia,Schizofreenia,2019/03/27,"Ugh, the case managers and case management agency..... Are not doing there job(s). I've been without a case manager for THREE MONTHS, almost 4!!!! First person I had quit/or got fired. Second person for some reason wouldn't pick me up from my place. Third person was extremely unprofessional and late. I get on the phone asking the damned case manager supervisor to give me somebody else and the bitch was supposed to have someone contact me and it's pure radio silence....I have shit I want to get done. Is this how they treat those they're supposed to ""help""? I used to work for a different type of agency but we took care of people and my ass would be on the line for so much as being late or not fulfilling my duties. This is ridiculous!!!!! I'm thinking about filing a complaint. I don't know know what to do. 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I don't know if this is right to post here or anywhere but I'm just not sure about what is real. I seen a psychiatrist and he said I could potentially be schizophrenic but I feel like he didn't actually believe what I was saying and has prescribed me placebos. I know that sounds exactly like what someone would probably say but I just don't know. Like he knew I had been reading about it and was condescending for that, and he said things like ""we're going to batter you with testing. We'll do so many tests on you"" and I just interpret that as him trying to scare me into admitting im not being truthful? (even though I am) I don't hear voices, I hear other people around me say things but I don't think they actually say them, I think I make it up in my mind when I don't fully hear what they say. But even knowing that, I can't shake the vividness of the experiences. They've caused me to think I smell bad almost constantly when around others. I have grand ideas that dissipate in interest in a matter of days. I mumble my words a lot if I'm feeling social pressure/anxiety at the time. I cant think of anything else but there's been more shit like this. Does anyone share these occurrences? Can I tell my doctor I don't believe him? 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I am trying to gather numbers for possible places where my cousin might be at. He was arrested yesterday for what I would assume is battery(took a hammer and attacked a person) at his assisted care facility but there was no record of him at the local city police station/jail. I found his incident number and it said ""Mental Health"". I'm wondering if he was directly was put on a 5150 hold at the nearby hospital. There's also the possibility that he was directly transferred to the county jail but again I'm really new at this stuff. &#x200B; Does anyone know if it's possible he might be a hospital rather than a city jail? My second question is could he have been sent to another city jail or just automatically sent to the county jail? He is currently off meds, addicted to meth, and malnourished so maybe they took him to the hospital. 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He used to be a funny, joyful guy who was great to be around. Now he is humorless & emotionless. When he does laugh, it's usually weird and not in response to anything actually funny. He started sending me strange, cryptic messages all the time. These messages would be LONG and usually involve things like spirituality and supernatural sounding stuff involving nature. He started using big words in all of his speech and writing, like he was trying to emulate what he thinks an intellectual sounds like. It makes communicating with him really difficult because you can never understand anything he's talking about, and if you press him to explain what he means he'll just say more meaningless cryptic stuff. He wasn't into anything like this before he changed. At first I thought he was acting strange as a joke but after months of this behaviour it's obvious this is just his personality now. He's frightening to be around. It feels like he could do anything at anytime and there's no way to influence his decision making. He frequently ignores other peoples boundaries. For example, he'll decide he wants to come over to my place, and he'll pester me about it for days until he eventually just decides to show up. He came over to my place on new years eve and ended up staying for a couple weeks, without any sort of communication with me about it. I was okay with it, but I did have to kick him out so he would finally leave - it didn't matter how heavy my hints were, I had to straight up tell him to leave. And while he was here there was an absolute laundry list of weird shit he did. Like, opening the window in the guest room in the middle of winter and leaving it open after he left! He also went into one of my friends phones and sent my friends gf an insane text as ""a prank"". Another example of him being scary: I was driving with him a couple months ago and he'd randomly start speeding like crazy. We're talking double the speed limit and he'd just do it, despite it obviously scaring me. I really have no idea what could be going on. Schizophrenia is the only lead I have at the moment. I've thought about calling my aunt and talking to her about it, but I don't even know where to start with that.",5.9536206896551755,6.791839344444448,6.352390804597699,77.15700000000002,66.66666666666667,9.31800766283525,32.85057471264368,9.40505699530331,2.9510827586206902,1875,78,347,35,29,606,231,450,0.09300000000000001,0.802,0.105,0.7182,0,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,0,2,0,3,23,20,1,1,15,1,38,2,1,8,5,78,65,27,0,6,10,3,2,7,4,6,1,4,2,3,25,28,0,2,14,2,0,9,9,6,0,3,18,6,37,14,62,30,4,74,0,0,0,0,68,29,1,4,41,221,62,1,0.0,0.0,0.08243362592114792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14976073205200718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755316140100144,0.0,0.0915266415183658,0.0,0.05744465049827676,0.08857748130518961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780568765559025,0.15039805656487376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05149405875774195,0.0,0.0718804436620031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08625654851855367,0.09661479952628868,0.0,0.0,0.1787228206029755,0.07276615389640502,0.08856850878478298,0.0,0.0,0.13488990095065007,0.18693590590867687,0.0,0.054478204642330996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07392303799224173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07481815329717577,0.0,0.0,0.055793730341430835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04271217154085398,0.06034764762490918,0.0,0.09253622580314087,0.0,0.07185283298469035,0.0,0.0,0.13052751908140156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0480080476831742,0.0,0.0,0.09313196520678503,0.0,0.08364171651721555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056620583448813676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535992381550068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928484872097366,0.0,0.0,0.2683346617458249,0.0917803434780486,0.0,0.0,0.28888525859846026,0.0,0.0,0.07475609487870608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277299028621507,0.0,0.0,0.0920160433888237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08961268136183198,0.0,0.0,0.13485135249656627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06515091425675938,0.08158471140080574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05724120437108233,0.06424565026736599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0585630580685839,0.14751742287542893,0.17651296134238156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10823134811177654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06717645317196819,0.08457237696867517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671049236057506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391621704917868,0.09003715686991147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934031331479216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20368899635908352,0.07383327155910636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05612021885453431,0.10825398950656646,0.0,0.13412451824426666,0.04925698319009047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0573517356582681,0.0,0.08251801005808722,0.08793954630526259,0.0,0.14591538905721135,0.18607051908755892,0.0,0.04982446272033692,0.06705086833072979,0.06775927949575541,0.0,0.0,0.07830747242291126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08142911888196765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12001462884689287,0.0,0.0,0.10879590040837038 schizophrenia,Mosanuu6,2019/03/27,Think I might be developing Schizophrenia Hey. I am a 20 year old man and I have a family history of Psychotic disorders and may think I’m developing schizophrenia. I have been diagnosed with depression and am currently taking antidepressants. I have become somewhat agoraphobic and have started having troubles in school. I’ve started noticing slight changes in my vision. I have never had hallucinations. Can someone please tell me symptoms of the start of the disorder,6.151167369901548,9.781177253164557,6.504219409282701,64.06479606188469,73.9367088607595,10.093389592123767,36.62587904360056,9.994966539143718,5.2363153305203936,389,22,52,13,9,125,55,79,0.121,0.8240000000000001,0.055,-0.7269,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,14,2,0,0,1,11,21,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,8,0,6,16,1,9,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,3,7,38,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153817523189236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063028915773992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16796847830098394,0.1979388828625256,0.0,0.0,0.4470144101886748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838453522833544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068829847758374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15040968976131847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220289692040916,0.2046382938546233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21407089616657288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19736834628624494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16523788309712198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4141036424049233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20269808423640084,0.14662905678039634,0.0,0.17045408488824396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499189637299432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255850191390717 schizophrenia,JeSuisLouisMartin,2019/03/27,"Is my friend schizophrenic ? So he always was a really calm kid. He used to play basket and his grades were straight A. Now he doesn’t have any friends (we don’t live in the same place), he thinks that everyone wants to hurt him, he completely changed . He is not....himself, he doesn’t study , doesn’t go to basket (which he adored) anymore and he called 3 times the police on his parentsbc he had a fight with them. Also his psychologist/psychiatrist gives him risperidone, someone help me. Idk if the things that he does are bc of puberty or bc of he is schizophrenic. His parents used to suppress him ",2.7341014492753644,5.295910460869568,3.128369565217393,89.70269927536232,79.17391304347827,6.96376811594203,24.36594202898551,8.07648339933343,1.4576811594202912,473,17,95,9,12,146,78,115,0.062,0.8059999999999999,0.132,0.8173,2,0,0,0,1,0,21.0,1,0,1,0,3,7,1,0,6,0,12,2,0,2,0,12,18,6,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,4,4,0,1,1,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,0,11,5,9,15,1,7,0,1,0,0,29,4,0,2,2,50,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17167057115902468,0.1786216480946084,0.0,0.0,0.14598215326342273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128937779762612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192008581580124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270911387102741,0.0,0.22507616482270787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878581237465267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051252490094595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317051828212812,0.0,0.0,0.205929885016998,0.12200123273398762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14388797945836726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298074028111395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18955649364631308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23836431105209605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242832182993013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13752233768429128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18188818752704006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14261641978734318,0.13755110659084438,0.0,0.0,0.12517511042329918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3708098579080183,0.0,0.0,0.12661722701796413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WolfsHeadGaming,2019/03/27,"I am tired of this I fucking hate this illness I don't feel myself I lose friends and I can't even make any I deal with bs all the time because of it all my problems I shove deep down because it feels no one will understand me. I have a sick sense of humor and I hate it, I just feel like there is no one to go to no one knows how I truly feel I hide my issues and lock them up but it hurts I can't feel happy even though I act like I am I just feel like I am failing at everything but I can't tell anyone been though people say I can talk to them about anything I am scared and I don't want to be a burden to them I go to therapy and try to show how I feel but I just can't it's all just overflowing and I don't know what to do please I just need to feel happy again and I don't know which way to go",-0.949652855543114,0.5999901489361719,1.5753303471444582,101.39184210526315,86.34042553191489,4.80895856662934,16.277715565509514,5.750287758089431,-0.9031531914893618,620,12,168,4,19,212,90,188,0.239,0.664,0.098,-0.9766,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,3,2,14,16,3,1,3,0,19,4,0,3,3,37,40,14,0,3,8,0,8,3,1,1,3,1,0,0,9,8,0,0,12,1,0,4,11,9,0,3,1,9,34,7,18,37,3,12,0,3,0,1,8,5,1,0,5,115,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345105388377744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08580584529613935,0.0,0.10098477050059496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496130078192619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12651475566891907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16210545478867053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11028918279190268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4963909708328193,0.17533659792591413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481003830378068,0.11344891805002663,0.0,0.0,0.2092269065602745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612668206317844,0.0,0.2423131886721539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13136996219173114,0.0,0.0,0.12808356884922198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20232442991535085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798584431578976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13728775815475489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08191384930866588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909923217510141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494665102272736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08507578812106772,0.0,0.0,0.1347052618279121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11742259068171168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09758864863392523,0.12286007358864105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09863443194595542,0.10725914893466693,0.0,0.14033638324694991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411355949727161,0.0,0.07155665710720735,0.14104393189844194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08331607453839178,0.0,0.0,0.12775163141527954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723810465750823,0.09740620888954056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Meandmystudy,2019/03/27,"Anyone ever given an advance directive in the psych ward? I was and I am in the U.S. I'd like to know from many of you because it seems quite suggestive for hospitals to do this when we are at our worst and possibly suicidal. I am in Minnesota.",3.0005999999999986,4.52843846,5.097000000000001,80.78350000000002,74.4,9.8,28.5,10.125756701596842,3.0615999999999994,193,8,39,6,4,67,41,50,0.159,0.795,0.046,-0.7964,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,2,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,0,1,6,8,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,6,1,9,6,1,7,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,3,30,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523962514056617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200418992714397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265149706855051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19837781253782752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17635005587338515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3659634935528735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069356242873342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38393242929774346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.328610451038189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3948388916004308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ryder-Willford,2019/03/27,"What's going on? So lately, I've been having like this little voice in my head that says for say, ""if you don't do *blank* then *insert something negative* will happen. When I think this it's not like small things maybe it's like touch a wall or turn on my phone or do something very minor, still very annoying and I've had enough, what should I do? I'm open to any thoughts...",-0.25223776223776184,2.03838076923077,0.9421212121212116,100.9377272727273,93.87179487179485,3.8620046620046624,13.501165501165502,5.565023196281405,-1.1706820512820513,292,5,67,2,11,91,58,78,0.04,0.855,0.105,0.595,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,0,9,1,1,0,0,9,15,7,0,2,4,0,1,3,0,2,0,3,0,0,8,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,4,5,3,5,10,1,12,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,3,7,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15187311866579362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23076120100978614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269244718081889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19749136029437306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229202610962454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519277264891032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273255568324745,0.22383689368946755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22436656908365027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552044396001505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34386309063021275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17835287171828632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14837156434437138,0.1431018454439856,0.0,0.1773003116792831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429206052088389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3685438511334938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sheridancomputer,2019/03/27,"Can you keep your job with schizophrenia? Sorry for grammatical errors. It is hard to be perfect with English, which is my second language. I have questions for people with schizophrenia, because I feel for people who have disorganized thoughts and psychosis. My current diagnosis is OCD, but I have dread experience with psychosis. I manage my life with minimum antipsychotic doses, but sometimes I have battle with my intrusive thoughts. I am not sure that my ""real"" diagnosis is OCD, and my second diagnosis was schizoaffective disorder. I want to hear success stories from people with schizophrenia because I want to be encouraged to have ambition. I have hopes and wishes for my life but sometimes I give up some of them because of possibility of my mental illness(especially delusions) hindering me. One of Important things for my life is a job, and I want full-time job. What do you do? Can you keep your job with schizophrenia? How do you manage your symptom and stress? Normally I do not write reply to comments, but I am willing to write reply to every comment.",6.598064516129033,9.06275708602151,6.565354838709678,70.07803225806451,66.84946236559139,8.830967741935485,35.51827956989247,9.3871,3.818978924731184,862,43,128,18,15,273,93,186,0.114,0.767,0.11900000000000001,0.254,5,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,7,1,2,1,8,1,2,1,0,23,5,0,1,2,38,35,10,0,6,6,0,2,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,6,13,0,2,4,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,3,3,31,5,26,29,1,2,0,0,0,0,17,1,0,3,1,103,37,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23529036690622102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14745584590057953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084018485113452,0.0,0.0,0.12585445753085694,0.0,0.0,0.06505451150192504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342267964275687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152543538203758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450095044154538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12778870444155832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5107019649571628,0.2287183654595909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27262971615195225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965931721313453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260597729803722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08718354637110458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675905483569162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450451522532775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14412897688948767,0.0,0.0,0.14644358425019008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544966452953257,0.14402466787585325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14737993444947164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212608064131341,0.13372731076338198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547618374942165,0.0,0.0,0.2042838071687831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276615282847725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14795299090031866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EpochPirate,2019/03/27,"I'm getting help now!!!!!! I posted here under an alt before but I don't feel like doing that anymore. I got diagnosed with the symptom of psychosis so far, working on a diagnosis. In the first hospital I was at they said I didn't have schizophrenia because I wasn't catatonic but that isn't a requirement anymore so that doesn't make sense, and they ruled out everything else. My seroquel seems to be helping but I'm always tired. Hope things get better.",1.9452272727272728,4.688354886363637,3.218636363636364,86.23545454545456,85.36363636363637,5.927272727272728,26.181818181818183,7.348242739294969,1.6876000000000002,362,16,66,6,11,117,66,88,0.075,0.77,0.155,0.7907,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,4,4,3,0,0,5,0,9,3,0,1,0,11,19,6,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,5,2,9,3,8,13,0,9,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,2,3,44,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17840626774447993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4252741452105455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130702325198266,0.0,0.1824470890342135,0.0,0.0,0.1896281910946632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176216022056967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791120141153318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926978522152591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10841212111324393,0.15317452255859276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18237700755661912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240407155903241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17148323654124956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28742896129661843,0.0,0.0,0.21295747493873354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474987912671256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14312031723226434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205345479048636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20395297706356616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19519078038023893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228540507939895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14244445421231056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24643271494818336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15609300886556066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,edm4un,2019/03/27,"Should I try switching AP's? Ok so currently I can't work part time due to cognitive problems. I can't watch my bucket list of TV shows due to inability to focus. I can't exercise because I have very poor motivation and it doesn't feel good. I oversleep so much that it hurts. I don't enjoy anything except meal time. The only thing I do every day is read. It's the only thing I can do. I'm on Proloxin right now and was thinking about asking my doctor to switch to Abilify. She has been no help so far because she feels the AP is working due to no positive symptoms and the fact I'm on a low dose. Have any of you been in my situation? Does/did changing APs help? I'm getting desperate because I'm really getting my ass kicked by this illness every day. I guess I could force myself to do things but I have no enjoyment/lose interest, not to mention this huge hurdle of poor motivation. Am I destined to be a vegetable?",1.9373015873015864,3.99856444973545,4.11346560846561,84.27273809523811,79.10582010582009,7.162962962962964,26.37301587301588,8.167268648758528,1.8466317460317447,727,30,146,14,18,250,113,189,0.161,0.731,0.107,-0.7402,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,4,5,7,0,0,6,1,22,8,1,2,1,16,33,7,0,3,3,0,2,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,9,3,2,0,5,4,2,0,9,3,0,0,3,3,21,4,18,27,2,16,0,2,1,1,7,7,1,1,9,90,30,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021295199397764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13336955191489222,0.0,0.1515132894814491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963885501929719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17144825041571893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939946582486705,0.0,0.0,0.20904309455737508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16588520300365767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731014205211501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16389461754082366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16934945566138782,0.0,0.0,0.13593637302588632,0.0,0.0,0.17853804383683344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21726380407527435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17349896331629822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119139875735206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465226163731814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17550568895469773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15507881263951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16211355599016836,0.0,0.10382599833246912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13840663624077545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18217313058833728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16845247121468898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.323015716843391,0.10384771815263874,0.0,0.0,0.1890082880340775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11003468615525154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13372447385516112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359773402283538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,01010011s,2018/11/20,"When it was all clearer Would anyone be so kind to tell the story as to when the meds kicked in and how it felt like ? What meds and when they finally worked, did you see the shift or it happened gradually and you felt functional again ? What does functional mean to you ? How did they work and has it ever gotten away ? That feeling of being all the way or mostly functional again ? I’ve tasted the sane mind for a few weeks and days, but it seems like it will forever be unreachable again, I’d just want some kind of light to see if it in fact is possible again or Im setting myself up for failure again. Thanks ",4.63798780487805,5.22058006504065,5.084298780487806,85.99522865853659,69.48780487804878,8.751626016260163,25.944105691056908,8.841846274778883,1.6133422764227645,480,13,102,8,8,153,78,123,0.033,0.812,0.155,0.9412,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,2,2,13,5,0,0,6,0,10,1,0,2,4,27,21,17,0,3,6,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,10,5,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,7,6,5,13,10,5,18,0,0,2,0,6,4,0,7,14,73,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12099791053094135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16258257968850548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11160046845670964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15143387569103134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565301742398677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749734658213745,0.0,0.33230293450198417,0.18956362854920453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15302416288868492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18691956610801427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3604019287091896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690832424321474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18849801705371055,0.3844305845119116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17472730892013913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19508356397985366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757907975204628,0.1575347404440855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15124998607764625,0.15931767035838035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102067118707375,0.13735600072114312,0.13880720526057086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519593557530745,0.0,0.0,0.12292703925272284,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ZetixNinja,2018/11/20,"Is that a sign of schizophrenia? Hi, I'm 16yo(m), So, I'm afraid of darkness. Just like a 6 year old kid. I think it's not normal for such a teenager. Second thing is that sometimes I horribly fear of looking into mirror (especially at night) since I'm scared of seeing someone standing behind me (like slenderman or similar things). Every time I come back from toilet in the midnight I feel like someone is just behind me and is following me. Sometimes it happens to me when I'm coming home from school, but it's not that intense as the thing I experience at night. When I'm trying to sleep I often can hear a loud crack coming from my wardrobe. First I thought my furniture is old and not well mucked, but it happens even now when I've got new furniture. Sometimes I feel like someone is sitting somewhere in my room, but I can see him well. Please tell me what's wrong with me, right now I'm really frightened. In addition I suspect that I have depression, yesterday I've seen a psychiatrist and I'm seeing him next Monday and I'll definitely tell him about it. On the first visit he told me that meds can help me with depression, so something is definitely wrong with me. Sorry for a wall of text and not good formatting since I'm on mobile right now. Please help. Please. 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So I firet smoked when 14, and started using it regularly about 2.5 years ago. Experienced lsd, mdma a loooot of times and shrooms about 6 times. Thing is this summer I had a drug induced psychotic break and left drugs ever since. Spent 1 month taking antipsychotics and left and no symptoms were remaining. So I used to think sz would develop after first, or at least few times using the drug. Now I’m a little bit scared that I will develop it if go back to drugs again. Anyone here to give me some thoughts?",3.832096436058702,5.872115962264153,4.142955974842767,86.33715932914049,73.33962264150944,7.352620545073376,24.041928721174003,8.167268648758528,1.3405651991614262,436,13,85,7,9,136,82,106,0.052000000000000005,0.948,0.0,-0.6348,0,0,5,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,11,1,0,1,4,0,6,5,0,5,1,17,17,11,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,5,1,6,0,8,10,4,22,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,16,50,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12383551696844652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768140613910124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10742058660549376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11887431076010348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15251608991103274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6480300484274164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12636654183411575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882864882386665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13401285703756866,0.07939466270006161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30356866253027665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14001598290014114,0.0,0.12363000005411268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115071135236393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398639533830439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11556118655412287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09888029597725652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452016682122275,0.10503692589451492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281039454080943,0.08951404397373718,0.0,0.11090610220277693,0.2443803750451491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619675342788148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09923878845537484,0.0,0.0,0.08996214419170633 schizophrenia,Whatthefawkess,2018/11/20,"Seroquel, are there any Ap's like it but without the side effects?​ Hey, sorry it this has been posted already, but I'v been trying to loose weight recently and I've been sitting consistently around 215 lbs. I eat very healthy and not very much at all, if I even try to change my intake to anything more I gain. Also waking up is starting to become a chore, and I'm getting close to finishing school and I'm going to have to find a real job soon so I really can't be waking up late anymore. The high risk of diabetes isn't really a good thing for me either because it runs pretty heavily in my family and its my generations turn for it. So I was wondering if there were any AP's that were similar in effect but didn't have the drowsiness, weight gain/inability to lose weight, and diabetes factor?",4.005377358490566,5.448617540880504,5.459261006289308,79.52209905660379,71.70440251572326,8.822012578616352,27.08647798742139,9.2995712137729,2.3502742138364776,635,22,121,14,12,214,105,159,0.086,0.8190000000000001,0.095,0.5275,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,8,4,0,1,6,0,15,8,2,1,1,21,22,14,0,2,8,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,8,8,4,0,3,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,7,3,9,2,18,14,4,18,0,1,0,0,1,9,0,3,6,79,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575388243607611,0.114164840992733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941629156654589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14157921271484253,0.0,0.0,0.1174790285183826,0.12708635582146371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08702495794757742,0.15766681801163399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510207810615431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14607876253115926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09429140281103776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458109328511395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130479734322754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07458602524177499,0.0,0.08113359932315288,0.11974002172238235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15083340888852229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14166692502711795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16103910402911764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06974515420584816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15971153249679604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494476931364696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13672428284519733,0.1452378876626458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16249173642724699,0.1829109754651235,0.0,0.1409579322970887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144480387962915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159807740921737,0.1010460154617833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09484316838960412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19384886351111227,0.15528150536751062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355833254603894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5215283842050312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13761520877097508,0.1548167513371301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ElliottsGhost,2018/11/20,"I feel like it's happening again Yesterday I was googling stab vests and comparing the prices, quality etc. I found a few that would be suitable to wear covertly under my clothes. It would make me feel a lot safer or that's at least what I keep telling myself. Safe from who? An unprovoked attack in my small town? There has been some gang activity lately, mostly teenagers. Tonight I went for a walk with my friend. It gets dark around 5pm because of winter. It was raining too. I wore one of those neck warmer scarves and pulled it up just beneath my eyes so my face was concealed (hood up also). Then without even second guessing myself I took my penknife out of the drawer and put it in my jacket pocket. If I needed to defend myself I needed some kind of protection, hopefully I wouldn't need it and if I did, showing it would be enough. I've felt invincible all day today. I don't know what's going on with me anymore. I feel different and I feel afraid. But in some ways I feel like an unstoppable force. It jumps between the two. Are things getting bad again? I won't step foot in the hospital again. I just won't. But I'm fucking terrified. Why is all this happening to my mind? Why am I acting like this? What can I do about it?",1.6789728594991755,4.103481878542509,2.739721097615836,91.71400209926529,82.4412955465587,5.9264657369920535,22.91333033438297,7.242747475848597,0.8756634877792773,972,34,201,14,27,309,154,247,0.068,0.8270000000000001,0.105,0.7886,1,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,0,12,11,2,1,9,0,20,6,5,1,2,45,45,13,0,10,8,0,6,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,20,9,0,3,8,1,1,9,5,4,0,3,10,7,32,7,26,27,11,34,0,0,1,1,3,14,1,10,13,142,52,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10639253594809438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13194054620744047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11843435827242167,0.0,0.15135291190251401,0.0,0.0,0.11108336079876983,0.08110032726632875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08580019388568423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13899913190921012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13746652471829554,0.14837545927906015,0.0878720749395004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363466751101684,0.19008849137949896,0.12773985899580645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458721731740756,0.10278685318402966,0.1229939096336184,0.1390164660635955,0.0,0.0756100504106714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14655924233810722,0.0,0.235294762228291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213935471418395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11825261612592293,0.0,0.13854133314869566,0.07311564557688961,0.0,0.15007561448412482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19499078073931936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310637775939593,0.0,0.0,0.0888056470945738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13433310083538855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2959438024925633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09015176740007183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13374256941766094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162833661016668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08838627649789682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12610695196608573,0.0,0.147813024297597,0.0,0.0,0.12996135442656145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10560145182372407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332998784917693,0.2400969332627269,0.0,0.0,0.12824641035590326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835247185123071,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cloudflowers,2018/11/20,"I feel like an asshole for going to thanksgiving dinner. Hi might not be the right place but a little of this is schizophrenia stuff. So my parents are divorced because my dad has faithfulness issues. This didn’t come to a head till I was 19 and I’m now 27 so it’s been a long while since the divorce. In previous years we ate two thanksgiving dinners on thanksgiving. (Yeah not the best plan) However dad has a fiancée now who is a culinary teacher and a caterer, so she’s doing dinner on Thursday and my mom moved her dinner to Saturday.... One issue. My father is now cheating on his fiancée with his massage therapist. I’m not mad at him but I feel really bad for his fiancée. I now have to go to her home, play with her ten year old daughter, talk to her parents all while knowing that dads betraying her. I have the option to back out and go to my husbands family celebration but that’s not much better and I would prefer not to have bad food while watching people guzzle soda in pjs. It’s stressing me out to the point where I have whispering voices at the back of my head if I think about it to much. My fathers voice was also one of my voices for a while. so that adds a extra layer of anxiety to keep our relationship peaceful. I almost want to bail on everyone and just eat frozen lasagna while watching Netflix. 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Anyone else an Apathetic Schizoid? I'm male, 26 and from various places but currently in Connecticut, US. I have always been this way and I've not met another person like myself. I've met many with similar symptoms online however not quite as empty. Looking to talk to others closer to my state of mind.",2.6085467980295576,5.465619017241384,4.5276354679803,77.3594827586207,82.9655172413793,8.141871921182268,25.52709359605912,8.841846274778883,2.7703714285714285,245,10,41,7,7,83,49,58,0.027999999999999997,0.879,0.094,0.5923,2,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,6,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,4,1,8,3,1,6,0,0,1,0,7,3,0,0,2,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239207329707404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821848643870462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881676792199649,0.2757345721399789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22480652721244795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13147335017536502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22598427475352506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728348811741904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717239667328383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349761099291417,0.2811622396856165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862311694246465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27970789944868824,0.0,0.2163000910531798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237056966447671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21360666286897614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,keithhafe,2018/11/20,"What kind of questions did they ask you when getting diagnosed? Today I am seeing a psychologist about getting diagnosed and I’m really nervous, what was it like for you?",3.4120967741935497,6.5563030322580635,4.942177419354842,73.43326612903226,83.19354838709677,8.261290322580646,30.330645161290327,8.841846274778883,3.6311225806451617,138,7,21,4,4,46,26,31,0.077,0.8320000000000001,0.092,0.1197,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,1,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,2,8,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,4,2,3,6,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,3,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28702732206129605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6232486763808189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208162196028208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197197283030253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14999711162650695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3439387361644597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19668834571344945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446595088087516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29102419836284943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SpookySpices,2018/11/20,"Gaining mass amounts of weight from meds? I was put on Olanzapine (an anti-psychotic) and Mirtazapine (an anti-depressant) a while ago and since then I’ve been putting on weight at a terrifying rate. I’ve not been eating much at all, so maybe it’s taken it’s toll on my metabolism? I was shocked to find out that those medications aren’t meant to be given to anyone under the age of 18 (I’m 16, going 17 soon). Has anyone else been on either of those meds and experienced the same?",5.1646874999999985,5.563152760416667,6.506250000000001,76.91375000000002,68.27083333333334,9.733333333333334,28.5,9.725611199111238,2.4111375,379,12,77,8,6,129,68,96,0.07200000000000001,0.897,0.031,-0.5775,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,6,0,8,4,0,0,1,10,13,6,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,2,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,8,3,3,0,15,4,5,17,0,0,0,0,0,9,0,0,5,49,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521779098784626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764234465729412,0.2025307988231839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17024827842301846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20226028994654194,0.1651234561688881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18066191442879104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11233737909031853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19858071471381933,0.0,0.4391217446340071,0.1991263453693108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530626561971013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3974151489010125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16351024591036453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4814045992581608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cyyonshi,2018/11/20,"Time passes slower with pills First of all, greetings to you all. &#x200B; About over two weeks ago I started taking aripirazole and valproic acid as part of the medication and I feel a constant headache as if my head was squished with some sort of elastic bands. Furthermore, a second feels like ten thousand and the time passes way too slowly. Anyone had similar experiences? I am tempted to quit treatment, if anything I feel more disabled than before.",7.0204166666666685,9.174460875000003,5.982500000000003,75.9191666666667,65.25,7.833333333333335,35.833333333333336,8.344100000000001,3.1929583333333333,370,18,56,5,6,111,63,80,0.0,0.9309999999999999,0.069,0.6486,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,4,0,3,3,1,0,2,14,8,7,0,2,2,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,5,2,4,6,1,12,6,5,11,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,8,41,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901721030335247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324483015360615,0.2606831915210687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15000767863292402,0.0,0.1765438117623719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18255326280641948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23183583945406325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098561420500901,0.0,0.0,0.3254256323038853,0.15326366137112182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824831405454129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201745368717727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10481083756602708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21612118070184133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323202175397261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228184103963922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15184879342300162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16130342556429975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501938646799218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20956926820360944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17028769111853367,0.1720868281716107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606831915210687,0.0 schizophrenia,Neutrinosandgluons,2018/11/20,"Hey everyone. Where you guys aware that you were developing schizophrenia, or did it come on abruptly. Curious because I’m having thought disorder issues but I’m hyper-aware of how my brain isn’t working the way it used to.",4.117857142857143,6.720717690476192,4.800238095238097,79.3489285714286,74.47619047619048,8.009523809523811,31.92857142857143,8.841846274778883,3.0891714285714285,181,9,31,4,4,58,37,42,0.047,0.9109999999999999,0.042,-0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,2,0,6,9,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,3,6,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,1,18,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010586001362602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36819440498737893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841155153168279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3780086666764609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151624570856027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265791596475567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442521934241256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26184465288520464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848633858927453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618001775296143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401169359914558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LetTheGoodTimesR0ll,2018/11/20,"The Patient &#x200B; ![img](tm2kw0n28gz11 "" The Patient Oil on canvas Pepijn Simon "")",11.29272727272727,16.23692418181819,6.936818181818182,55.12522727272727,79.9090909090909,5.836363636363638,41.86363636363637,7.1686216300943375,5.330963636363637,70,4,4,1,2,19,9,11,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.533352051341659,0.5981369363823156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5981369363823156,0.0 schizophrenia,Jadiaz6,2018/11/20,"Falling back into an acute episode Hello, i was diagnosed with schizophrenia a while ago... Im not sure about my diagnosis, but i have had several psychotic episodes (so im thinking maybe bipolar with psychotic symptoms or schizoaffective; It could also be schizophrenia, but i doubt it). So, today i had a weird experience. I dont know if this is an actual hallucination, so i want you to tell me if you have experienced something similar. This is out of fear of a new psychotic break happening. I was talking to a guy when suddenly gravity felt a lot heavier, my body automatically tilted and I lost my train of thought. I was paralyzed, sitting while tilting and staring at nothing for like two seconds. Then I could move again, it was hard to come back, but I did it (around 20 min passed before I felt normal again). The guy noticed something happened, but i could still pretend it was nothing abnormal. Now that Im writing this Im wondering if this was some kind of seizure... Either way, I googled it and I couldnt find anything similar, so I really need your help. Thanks. 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Im one year out of a near death episode. Keeping stress levels to zero. Inside safe environments. N keeping stress levels to zero has done me wonders. Do the same!",2.479285714285716,5.20823707894737,3.2955639097744367,81.10394736842106,99.26315789473685,4.276691729323309,29.112781954887208,6.1826913282559595,1.9716045112781968,171,9,25,2,7,54,33,38,0.305,0.632,0.063,-0.8777,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,3,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,7,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,1,1,5,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,1,16,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262516288351268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24512263797251704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277093289057197,0.0,0.0,0.4560261476698101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17382940242650244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5877018543374992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666298801284627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781926980254853,0.18675478455264405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16519504229713947 schizophrenia,KimberParoo,2018/11/20,"Have any of you had a problem bringing your antipsychotics on an airplane? Hi everyone, I'm flying home tomorrow and it will be the first time since I was prescribed antipsychotics. I'm planning on bringing them in my carry-on because I don't want to risk losing them in my checked baggage or not having them in case I have some sort of paranoia problem. Does anyone have any recommendations/tips on how to go out about this? Do I need to declare them at security or can I just leave them in the bag as it goes through x-ray screening? Has anyone ever had them confiscated? tyia Disclaimer: I'm not schizophrenic but I figure y'all would be the best group to ask regarding this question",4.266363636363637,6.3220571515151525,4.823333333333334,81.85500000000002,72.18181818181819,7.527272727272727,30.93939393939393,8.296473431620573,2.405112121212121,552,25,101,9,11,176,90,132,0.081,0.8490000000000001,0.07,0.6715,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,6,4,4,6,0,1,5,0,15,1,0,1,1,19,24,6,0,5,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,4,2,0,1,2,0,1,3,3,4,0,1,3,1,17,2,18,17,2,16,0,1,1,0,13,9,0,5,4,71,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009858072059213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094789149746789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068874343348061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349036046617869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322427260508409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936628134057175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20018026870044173,0.0,0.2114634812243768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18823931165338045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12577098876016324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22198388324029025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343267941874987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475802568368341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16409257964502408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4235121259195497,0.0,0.0,0.2479088129395049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18306324633076926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12904293713513512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305296141625216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572065441545541,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,abzuxoxo,2018/11/20,"This might help someone Move slower, and breath slower. Don't let your breaths get attached to your thoughts. ",5.382631578947367,8.627205421052633,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,73.73684210526315,3.8,30.552631578947373,3.1291,0.862347368421053,89,4,15,0,2,23,17,19,0.0,0.863,0.13699999999999998,0.4019,2,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22543511417977602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28921787960614803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4412265816280947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.457741480405629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4586043594187792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3655991009116701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425539477606325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Elevenseses,2018/11/20,"What can be done to prevent progression and stay stable? I came away from the one appointment I got with psychiatrist before being booted off health care with a prescription and the advice to stay sober, thanks buddy, glad I saw someone who went to school for years for this shit. Helpful. I've booked a new assessment appointment, I was just starting therapy previously when healthcare ran out. UGHHH So anyways I've done a bit of reading for myself. So far I've heard strong evidence for: • Therapy • Antipsychotics • Not becoming isolated / socializing • Sobriety & sleep • And generally having a good diet, exercising, and spending time in nature is just a good idea anyways I've also heard good things about: • Omega 3 supplements • Somewhere I saw 1-2 sources saying that Vitamin E was a good idea, not sold on this yet • Avoiding gluten (I know, it's the dumbest health trend, but this isn't general population stuff, heard the inflammation is bad argument) &#x200B; What else do you guys do? Play an instrument or do art? Listen to Tibetan bowls (I've been doing that one lately). Got any good relevant book recommendations? Howl at the moon? I'll consider some pretty out there stuff, what's good?",3.9385482123510265,7.1435499061032885,4.612511737089204,76.58459642470206,80.45539906103286,8.347345612134347,27.91061755146262,8.950670267944501,3.1254580715059586,962,42,155,27,26,307,146,213,0.051,0.768,0.18,0.97,0,1,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,1,0,2,11,14,1,1,12,0,16,7,2,0,0,23,32,10,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,13,9,1,2,3,6,2,3,3,3,0,2,16,7,8,11,20,14,2,20,0,0,2,0,10,8,1,2,7,90,21,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10251772992241684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08389721916725996,0.0,0.22734186065778225,0.1274782422822191,0.07134301834124272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09856725615428644,0.0,0.0875962301652152,0.0,0.11586586089992933,0.08927145985001311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145355452318914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11999013580640153,0.10696366767847833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21472057643777925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876396058791235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5279657778093678,0.16781368172962974,0.0,0.0,0.10387829787143957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22303078917934732,0.0,0.0,0.07031957351018707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23686330179666976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05765629408920842,0.0,0.11834407938333714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132361344956364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14218069943496142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10673211460434216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493930331348572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08342936877805754,0.0,0.10617544481200657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10768954451283966,0.0,0.0,0.10498667833715457,0.10694346398985674,0.08889067607724067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07425648414572042,0.2236421486855817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401957911788477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658787340073724,0.23994954402552165,0.0,0.06969814888461551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06117439700099361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09725346734404287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274782422822191,0.06755918828785654 schizophrenia,melodydweller,2019/07/17,"How do you cope with anhedonia? I used to be a really fun person. I could find whatever hobby that suited me, and roll with it, have lots of pleasant times with it. After my diagnosis and psychosis, for some reason I cannot find things fun anymore. Of course, there are times where I can enjoy things, but in comparison to what I've felt before my illness it's just night and day - there's no reason WHY should I get occupied with things that used to bring me fun, those things just don't work. And I try so hard to find anything new that could bring me fun with no luck. How do you cope with anhedonia? After I left the psych ward (roughly 2 weeks ago) I just cannot seem to find anything that would help me with overcoming this shitty symptom. Hoping you guys have some cheat codes to eliminate this.",5.310000000000001,5.8459873417721555,5.434025316455699,84.24483544303799,67.9873417721519,8.59848101265823,25.92658227848101,8.548686976883017,1.4918865822784808,632,16,130,9,10,199,92,158,0.11900000000000001,0.711,0.16899999999999998,0.8363,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,3,0,1,9,9,1,0,2,0,14,2,0,6,0,36,22,8,0,5,4,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,15,11,0,0,8,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,1,3,17,8,19,16,3,14,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,6,9,86,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12372274150888217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384185741492322,0.0,0.0,0.2297128131755284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11876605340910636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228748233105652,0.0,0.0,0.09001281896098699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13401164124653586,0.0,0.5102675296465419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07292095405431513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381988767045422,0.0,0.0,0.1250296882443525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935526117445388,0.0,0.0,0.13862714377262078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15164610316925647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186596841279192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13480014448932254,0.0,0.1309794862354218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218694628985592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08941381977847845,0.2870078799704584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12706170742607675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14506943486542187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3709034930919135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.162771880591999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09476067415949233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410919299756638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11195676873387836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594261625830633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161055857810282,0.0,0.0,0.09914841292944623,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ashleo231,2019/07/17,"Do things get better? Sometimes I forget how intense this disorder is. I go through part of the day feeling good and then crash. I can think of one day in the past 6 months that I didn’t cry. Even when I am having a good time, that voice in my head says “remember you’re crazy” she never shuts up. The funny part is that things have gotten way better. But my better is praying I get on disability so I won’t feel like a burden to my family. Being able to stand the day enough to go to php and then go home. Having one friend that hasn’t ditched me, and it being up to me to keep myself alive. When the voice in my head tries to convince me otherwise. I’m having a horrible day.",1.0883299798792765,3.0624333661971868,2.824869215291752,92.87521126760565,81.53521126760563,5.74728370221328,18.593561368209254,6.868970318607317,0.04025191146881202,526,12,117,6,14,174,86,142,0.124,0.667,0.209,0.8919,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,5,9,0,0,8,0,15,2,2,1,1,12,26,10,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,3,1,0,8,3,0,1,4,0,0,3,4,1,0,2,2,5,16,8,16,21,3,24,1,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,13,80,24,0,0.14146465252305007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3753419674607667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553922781282376,0.36493199119463815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621307477141435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14617080194158147,0.0,0.09343606880656123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333602843670722,0.0,0.14305755770574036,0.10106237602844108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10929523962106533,0.0,0.1478188844101619,0.0,0.24119286624913824,0.2373076775827113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903670920837807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14190058080335882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257402830706438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06911248356715513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129157359923882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10910626104497223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917202193672043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30638486610542304,0.13504401789233575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16025187442271807,0.0,0.0,0.11249836966172268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13991215858709524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18796565844380386,0.09064483724445754,0.0,0.0,0.08248917651479072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960452130794778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11228805653522612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mseranboogie,2019/07/17,"Thoughts or voices I’m having a hard time distinguishing between just thoughts and voices. Some things I’m sure are just me but other times I’m not sure. Im having a hard time, I was diagnosed a little over a year ago and have been kind of, ehhh, with the meds at times. Consistently taking them more than not. I just need some help, I have so many questions. Thanks in advance.",0.693490909090908,3.2223362400000006,1.7010909090909117,95.01054545454548,93.26666666666668,4.327272727272727,17.484848484848484,6.1124844417494595,-0.2807333333333335,298,8,62,3,11,93,51,75,0.038,0.792,0.16899999999999998,0.8909,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,1,4,4,0,0,5,0,7,1,0,0,2,19,15,5,0,1,7,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,4,5,4,7,11,3,11,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,4,6,39,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17193592772162572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19686771092224772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3475043501116582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000888029888644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20951263120302893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20198194856410834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19440123887822172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19664738784344254,0.0,0.0,0.21544845452258848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14382063108141901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21728223180313824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36561445472407017,0.0,0.14583555461962253,0.0,0.0,0.1785744799698095,0.0,0.0,0.12885997231028765,0.0,0.0,0.30796889356197604,0.452404043998166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249053995177239 schizophrenia,thorisstillworthy,2019/07/17,"I am never going to make a romantic connection. I am just not going to. Making a romantic connection is something I really want in my life. I only really think this community would understand. My therapist doesn’t she says “ It’ll happen when you least expect it”, that is so easy to say when it is not your problem. My story involved being 18, using psychedelic drugs, smoking weed. Having a girl cheat on me. And starting school. This ended up in my first and only psychotic episode. What really scares me if I get cheated on. Now I am 27, I love myself. I am not bad looking. Never really made a real romantic connection since. I fucked two other girls since. Not a real connection. I really do not think I am going to make a real romantic connection ever again.",2.3243610547667366,5.060760413793107,5.070263691683572,73.90316430020286,82.79310344827586,8.653144016227179,23.70182555780933,9.168548406835145,2.844427991886409,600,22,98,19,17,213,86,145,0.08800000000000001,0.7440000000000001,0.168,0.8764,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,0,1,7,7,3,1,6,0,14,4,0,5,3,27,32,6,0,5,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,2,8,2,0,0,3,0,0,3,8,6,0,2,1,3,21,1,9,28,1,18,0,0,1,2,9,5,1,1,10,77,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10902495590165248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514259410527382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11565099563213074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11811287184133995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11106731865810864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207147990261884,0.06822022656319789,0.0,0.22262692681791252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11546734313476638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09222922517562247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10965040050404963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178493435809386,0.12355354517643652,0.2614801628799164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014155059457268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19861686211212629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494296709843218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44586997515074,0.4182495362461447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076775047230842,0.13072869575587848,0.1321492165431582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21602654340605432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10052327711449596,0.0,0.0,0.0924218986836468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516080354148867,0.0,0.1673348126871936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12755313517154407,0.1359335353446286,0.0,0.11277517072285992,0.0,0.0,0.07701671942577147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927569761140291,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xuloxs,2019/07/17,"hello everyone, i have a question. i really hope this isn’t the wrong place to ask this but i would really love some help/advice. my boyfriend has schizophrenia and i just want to know the best way to be there for him and support him when he’s going through an episode and just any basic stuff that people commonly do wrong? i have read so many articles and whatnot online, like how when someone is hearing voices you’re not really supposed to say “it’s okay, it’s not real” because it’s real to them. you should just tell them that you understand and stuff for example. i know everyone is different, but I’ve been getting increasingly worried about him and want to be more aware and prepared for anything because i love him a ton. i would just really appreciate anything because we are (hopefully) hanging out soon (we haven’t met in person yet) and i want to know what to do if anything happens. thank you! and ps. yes of course i have talked to him about it but all he’s really told me is to not hate him.",3.0087828029034083,5.1310045879397,4.079455611390287,85.5060734226689,75.98492462311556,7.4372975991066435,26.63344500279174,8.344100000000001,1.889066778336125,799,31,156,15,18,259,112,199,0.040999999999999995,0.7240000000000001,0.235,0.9921,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,2,3,2,1,13,12,1,0,5,2,18,2,0,1,1,41,39,17,0,9,11,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,0,1,11,12,0,0,5,1,0,3,5,3,0,0,3,3,25,9,19,31,6,12,0,0,0,2,27,3,0,5,6,110,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11165412839756077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07770112092972549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28208019549957986,0.0,0.10681822975853036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089565896210505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11990944230522832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11937799983080913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183617849541284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05969644354706924,0.0,0.06493692774303235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010402644234716,0.0,0.0,0.1128086794572076,0.0,0.0,0.1287799917340804,0.0,0.07658646651179228,0.0,0.0,0.22697309901210766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18838390007374747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055821953874532135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20624929117235952,0.0,0.0,0.11584230668766275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07921390795367582,0.09976794196379524,0.11937799983080913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12799801314603784,0.0,0.11429151284350135,0.2601071377392938,0.3659913061997235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090864609084909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09681262906996912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616020831629092,0.0,0.12966156609787194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09183833598004824,0.09986879391360352,0.1051958019992706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091808924770642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189493062052032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021815731931888,0.09069473977851818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160371778263608,0.0,0.16233489295314424,0.2498520415133918,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,papa_za,2019/07/17,"I've made it I turn 19 today. The age of majority in my country. I've struggled with psychosis most of my teenage years and I never thought I'd get this far For years the idea of living this long was a pipe dream. But here I am, 19, with wonderful friends, an amazing boy friend and a good job. I never thought I'd make it this far I'm just so proud of myself and wanted to share it with someone",0.4144575163398692,2.441412929411765,2.114509803921571,96.72418300653601,84.41176470588233,4.718954248366012,22.38562091503268,5.82211442006289,0.06799346405228812,309,11,72,2,9,101,56,85,0.026000000000000002,0.7040000000000001,0.27,0.9701,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,7,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,2,2,18,11,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,7,6,10,7,2,10,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,7,40,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3412552631250199,0.0,0.11538465094438168,0.0,0.0,0.1852379258141705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493119927679477,0.0,0.0,0.2191588657745303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19501398973069836,0.1954446924875841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20897296009296265,0.14741863150527448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3406652105853738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18712490641822668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23087965371672334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35065937119680896,0.0,0.0,0.20933932571139008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24022063431948545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13026264695253836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395016593989609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28443943378428943 schizophrenia,EldritchWarrant,2019/07/17,"The schizophrenic on my street. Hi there, There’s a guy in his thirties who lives on my street. He’s currently having a very bad time of it. He’s aggressive at times, very friendly at times and overly friendly at times. We’ve never had any trouble with him before this month. We usually avoid him when he’s aggressive and remain polite when he’s not but his new thing is leaving rocks on our front door mat and next to our cars. My family are very wary of this new behaviour since he’s now stepping near and onto our property for the first time, rather than staying in the street. So then, does anyone have any similar experiences or explanations as to why this new behaviour has begun? Please and thank you!",5.639943227899432,6.547445240875916,5.764184914841852,80.8486780210868,67.39416058394161,9.592538523925382,28.360908353609084,9.725611199111238,2.4674548256285482,566,18,109,12,9,179,90,137,0.048,0.861,0.091,0.7916,1,1,0,1,0,0,13.0,4,1,0,1,7,8,2,1,5,0,6,1,0,0,1,13,7,12,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,6,7,0,1,0,1,0,3,2,5,0,1,1,0,12,3,19,6,0,37,0,0,0,0,19,14,0,1,19,66,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20482666992946072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10530319711101503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257449189863017,0.0,0.0,0.12814972134595862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179129450421231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731594337469855,0.1419725135388451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281004965440022,0.0,0.0,0.2327067606443148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14911792580163025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15946392082147068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13298278073422412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020768351695392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11615219776184522,0.4363519825197065,0.16016507543306033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16531385116246547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12457808386544535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16051982953690055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13865247731469005,0.0,0.0,0.10005211489650914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4390810871893245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16586489980426528,0.37278293756234615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358933021331284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SleepAndTerror,2019/07/17,Do you experience positive symptoms in bed? Im schizotypal but lately I’ve been having some disturbing experiences in bed after I have turned the lights off. Furniture in the dark becomes demons on the walls and in the ceiling and they threaten me verbally. This is really upsetting and I’m wondering if I’m developing schizofrenia. I’ve never really experienced hallucinations before either.,6.273027718550107,9.717411910447764,7.868230277185503,55.69910447761197,71.68656716417911,12.186780383795307,34.94456289978678,11.20814326018867,6.009671215351813,326,17,42,14,7,112,50,67,0.17300000000000001,0.795,0.032,-0.903,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,5,1,0,0,1,9,9,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,4,0,7,8,2,10,1,0,0,0,2,7,0,3,3,29,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963734367110066,0.2283475835803604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5249990298716242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898659512866939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027124750018684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20696942145400885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3438260192880989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789202297459488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918896568333857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29101603769813433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FluffyInfluence0,2019/07/17,Seeking black schizoaffective guy I met here before...... You’re from the Southern US. Honestly I think I have too vague a memory. This isn’t the account we met each other on....idk. Whatever. A shot in the dark. You said you’re from Fredericksburg.,1.5148447204968924,4.238770608695653,2.877204968944098,86.13891304347828,92.91304347826087,6.976397515527951,21.7888198757764,7.957251820313856,1.7415689440993791,192,7,36,5,7,62,36,46,0.036000000000000004,0.888,0.076,0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,6,1,3,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,7,1,0,0,0,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40261807468983707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4684955344219148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4500765421211781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031771272696471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5691444068885688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kil444,2019/07/17,"What to say to a professional? Things are getting bad again, so while I have the clarity of mind that no, my experiences aren’t normal, I want to see a professional. However, If I tell them my symptoms, will they think I’m too self-aware and only searching for a particular diagnosis? I don’t want schizophrenia, but I’m also worried I’ll be misdiagnosed or completely written off as attention seeking and they’ll completely overlook the possibility of me having it. Either way, I’m going to seek professional help because I know I’m at least depressed, but I don’t know if I want to reveal to them the things I’ve been hearing and seeing too. I’m also protective of some of the voices... If applicable, how were you guys able to trust and open up to someone about your experiences?",7.601400000000003,7.15978590666667,8.635833333333334,66.54375,63.26666666666666,11.766666666666666,37.41666666666667,11.20814326018867,4.303466666666666,626,28,112,16,8,215,94,150,0.077,0.8240000000000001,0.099,0.2593,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,2,4,0,8,3,0,0,7,0,11,1,0,1,0,24,28,16,0,7,7,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,5,5,0,1,5,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,5,16,1,18,22,3,8,0,1,2,0,11,4,0,5,2,78,21,3,0.1673241188344479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676180747587378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397086500936511,0.10199922979515752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508723102466763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14411601836967686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273501904024281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741994604267443,0.0,0.09509415271944843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16567718430659198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18858644267296668,0.0,0.1121538298136802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18391391961533451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16894966127829195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16394211018348004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12725753228716244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18863280307500555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133062855195524,0.0,0.0,0.26667131836872043,0.0,0.17455554797869074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14177318290113874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17391382672983546,0.0,0.0,0.14624865497038156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22232541917226756,0.1072145390973162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29607630152096925,0.13281409723413418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16992576478239274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Easter421,2019/05/26,"Schiz Dance Style How do you dance? I've been told I dance like a serial killer. I can't flow comfortably with a beat so I kind of attack it. Anyone else feel the same way? Also when I'm high I feel like a dancing god, I close my eyes and just spazz out, it feels like I'm on beat but when I watch it back it looks like I'm having a stroke. https://youtu.be/9IKw4QsCHkU",-0.3730069930069888,1.887615358974358,0.7908391608391591,102.02234265734268,94.12820512820512,4.374825174825175,10.937062937062937,6.1124844417494595,-1.3809384615384612,290,3,70,3,11,90,53,78,0.092,0.763,0.14400000000000002,0.4148,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,2,7,7,1,0,5,0,4,2,1,1,0,11,12,7,0,0,2,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,3,4,0,5,1,1,0,0,2,7,8,6,4,10,1,13,0,0,3,0,2,4,0,0,7,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918681327273697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677613107037145,0.2458317678162805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729496043195461,0.0,0.18448770464910225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20042675668983334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3639402403224876,0.3428052876918048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534941954518796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.249845223256724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4688614248623302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014767801156854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22925885454312325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19044149285624898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizophrenia69,2019/05/26,"Human Mind Connection Are you aware that human minds can influence other minds without any physical manifestations. I am concerned that my mind is being influenced by others in the community and/or might be being used to influence minds around me in a negative way. &#x200B; Has anyone experienced images streaming through their mind that were triggered and continued for a constant period of time that weren't natural to your mind. They might be 2 dimensional or seem like cards that, at the time, don't mean anything more yet and over time seem to remove your conscious ability? &#x200B; I have tried many medications and therapies which have all had no effect on this situation. If it was purely schizophrenia then surely it would be impacted by the medications/therapies that I've tried, not to mention the effect my mind seems to have on other peoples minds that I notice in very specific ways.",12.014285714285712,10.631416579617834,10.744404003639676,57.9782802547771,55.17834394904458,14.321747042766152,43.4476797088262,13.023866798666859,5.919197270245677,741,33,109,21,7,234,105,157,0.051,0.898,0.051,-0.012,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,3,2,2,2,2,0,0,6,0,21,1,0,7,3,35,26,6,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,2,14,4,0,0,7,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,4,1,11,2,19,14,2,19,0,0,0,0,8,8,0,7,9,83,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847681139667695,0.2072114157079081,0.057982788147629374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05961892532314059,0.0,0.07016542370127253,0.07590348775712241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09214064056988727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04165593091534788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644482662326489,0.0,0.09287804353787978,0.0,0.08589501984456445,0.0,0.1809043339518617,0.7748356069159835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09707420558390877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05911167288536085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23286481275066026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584087755558136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08036078815027009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19501478772323189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491552579567718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11577800577520987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07364115733837569,0.0,0.07035214734218075,0.0,0.13535799277434624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08219194142930493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0605694589372992,0.0,0.2072114157079081,0.0 schizophrenia,vibenta,2019/05/26,What do you guys do during a psychotic episode? I sometimes get full breaks from reality. But I only really have one exercise to do. What are some exercises that you guys do during episodes?,3.39985714285714,6.35314548571429,5.016785714285717,74.67946428571432,79.85714285714286,9.214285714285714,28.75,9.516144504307137,3.517142857142858,152,7,26,5,4,51,27,35,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,2,7,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030472850543636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7696253313284652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633511285643399,0.2955766687503192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24897141826802344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3843728635967472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RektMyAnus,2019/05/26,"Does anyone here use any phone apps to understand and manage your illness? I've been trying to use Vent to understand my schizophrenia diagnosis better, but the people seem to be mostly mindlessly ""Venting"" there. It's not a serious enough discussion of simple symptoms, and there's usually little support from others outside of the HUGs, POYs, and interactions of the app. I'm also on a Kik mental health group, which is better for venting and support than Vent even. Any other apps I should know? The problem I have is that I don't want to excessively spam in /r/schizophrenia about my potentially non-schizophrenic symptoms. I also am looking for in-depth, serious conversations about mental illness. Ideally, NOT trigger warned conversations, because I believe they're bullshit.",9.335074626865671,10.384023216417908,8.730559701492544,62.30240671641794,59.37313432835821,11.177611940298505,40.630597014925364,10.9516,5.0658985074626885,637,32,87,15,8,202,92,134,0.127,0.701,0.172,0.6741,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,3,8,9,0,0,6,0,8,6,0,3,0,19,19,7,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,1,8,6,16,16,2,4,0,0,1,1,7,3,0,2,1,58,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523263196543379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21456874768624865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11031168518850597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961709715795228,0.0,0.0,0.1777450817818815,0.0,0.2790574283782231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13805962391253562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630115399954468,0.0,0.10420109395969074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16769488536632152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08670251908727987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15812015446465724,0.0,0.0,0.13248133939635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3179763627729293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10937312631774176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509580590062967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14362167592701616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3580555792215703,0.0,0.32795270555102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10711084488360242,0.0,0.0,0.3284740730276199,0.0,0.27251347189497466,0.17375385660647988,0.0,0.09305281237948844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,eldritchstigmata,2019/05/26,"What auditory hallucinations do other people have? I've been hearing things which I can't link to the world around me. As I'm walking it might be a fanfare of trumpets, wailing, or this underlying demonic-like noise which rises and falls. To be honest this is a fairly new development but coupled with shifting colours and seeing strange shapes which suddenly disappear, the environment can be intimidating and often I just want to sleep so I can't have any sense experience of anything around me. What happens with you guys?",7.848865248226946,9.082733744680858,7.968936170212767,65.83333333333334,62.61702127659576,10.521985815602838,38.00709219858156,10.504223727775694,4.334998581560284,428,21,68,10,6,139,71,94,0.096,0.865,0.039,-0.7319,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,4,0,12,1,1,0,0,14,17,7,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,10,7,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,1,3,6,1,11,12,0,11,0,0,2,0,3,5,0,3,2,51,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786603375240887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21619826644197984,0.4677575251267893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906974953744159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25699305832650826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601366215033052,0.2323246760075329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29610739863545804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787070990887792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537390679417672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18213873059058602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093558509658685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629122768191845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17454118278215652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15496056202550662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AWhiteKnight1,2019/05/26,I believe Schizophrenia/psychosis Is not what they say. Pay more attention to the writting on the wall! I believe that Schizophrenia/psychosis is not what you think. Pay more attention to the writing on the wall. Inbox if you have any questions.,4.557906976744189,7.833477348837214,3.4058604651162803,85.96181395348837,77.83720930232559,5.300465116279073,34.181395348837206,6.742157984588678,2.4233851162790696,198,11,31,2,5,57,26,43,0.077,0.9229999999999999,0.0,-0.2714,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,4,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,4,4,2,4,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,2,0,24,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429039669328178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8048699716652008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4001386953067396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28405476956356857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22887530222015565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,eanitzaan,2019/05/26,"Happy awareness day You've helped me a lot. I'm slowly losing grip but you're keeping me here. Abilify and Prozac FTW! &#x200B; I love u guys.",0.14758620689654833,2.414591344827585,1.7271724137931024,93.01006896551723,101.06896551724138,3.6993103448275866,19.593103448275865,5.6839178017228535,0.07027724137931067,115,4,22,1,5,37,26,29,0.052000000000000005,0.5529999999999999,0.39399999999999996,0.9293,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314718105954496,0.3717348284082155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19729762647479376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029158587634779,0.0,0.3256650135057999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050564404133958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27192200191487315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422540949174782,0.0,0.2600882219546311,0.2761110899343953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3717348284082155,0.0 schizophrenia,raabinnit1988,2019/05/26,Antipsychotics... can't hallucinate if your unconscious My lurasidone absolutely knocks me out it's a good job I take it with my evening meal otherwise I'd get nothing done.,4.0198387096774235,7.314993483870968,4.561532258064517,76.16229838709678,81.90322580645163,9.551612903225807,33.55645161290323,9.516144504307137,4.3572516129032275,142,8,24,5,4,45,28,31,0.0,0.8959999999999999,0.10400000000000001,0.4404,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,14,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4608589745586833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974484206702312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352865134130652,0.0,0.0,0.3777277598013689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44689761584066223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4321178762484584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386031610503962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HenrikJarven,2019/05/26,"I dont know if this is allowed just want to connect with people in a deeper level I know there are discord servers and communities like this one where we can share our experiences which I think it's great. I just want to connect with people with similar issues or that just comprehend how I feel or help people with similar things I've been through and why not some other interests. So basically asking for a friend, and anyone that feel the need to have someone hearing and understanding you, you can comment as well. I'll be glad to meet you guys on a deeper level and help each other out. Hopefully I didn't break any of the rules of the sub. Thanks.",6.957622767857143,6.605845320312502,7.12111607142857,76.57656250000002,64.546875,10.126785714285717,32.348214285714285,9.606745405546679,2.812137053571428,523,18,100,9,7,169,87,128,0.033,0.74,0.22699999999999998,0.9728,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,2,3,0,0,8,9,0,0,6,0,9,0,0,2,0,32,22,11,0,5,7,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,9,12,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,2,3,11,9,16,19,2,7,0,0,0,0,14,6,0,5,1,71,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13232288477199244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13605672368976093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819085251121378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280494342868155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19033918392522609,0.0,0.0,0.19677368402934364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15033408435046935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21452807517762346,0.0,0.19266743066303765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2193088053720445,0.0,0.2608493175407205,0.0,0.0,0.19326449134552565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030937481703376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21387508789310755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09506326140349658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14428058060194374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13185424969087434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4046973591529045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16486926066980778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17914557499159098,0.0,0.0,0.1292720764850037,0.12468071487366415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20256741666487507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22953979464344895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17495318433721696,0.0,0.17558058982885547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,haych8,2019/05/26,Seroquel Xr 800mg 800mg 4 hours before bed. Zombie until 3pm the next day. Then full blown delusions but I think it’s reality. I’m really struggling to work a full day. Everything feels like a set up. I don’t trust anyone.,-0.8550531914893611,1.1812286808510672,2.016143617021278,91.07187500000003,102.61702127659576,4.903191489361704,16.513297872340427,6.6274283507984215,0.14793829787234047,176,5,37,3,8,61,40,47,0.092,0.736,0.172,0.5515,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,3,4,2,10,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,7,14,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301040959533971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800273551609674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4244655926622801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29576065141230595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16639541745190134,0.2350986067093848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32408273494676104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16077445664141934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3499859538640436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21082047225362216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440314114950109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108645747213948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23957802047224544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bipolarbetch,2019/05/26,Who else believes you're really actually being watched? I have good reasons to believe so! Chat me lol,2.311929824561407,5.213185105263161,4.269473684210528,75.73298245614036,92.68421052631581,6.743859649122808,32.64912280701754,7.793537801064563,3.3965649122807022,83,5,13,2,3,28,19,19,0.0,0.706,0.294,0.7396,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.3271332694814809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7553722392033496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28003920693517514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28117256694530546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21475504912316684,0.3446692665322604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RockMeAmadeia,2019/05/26,"Query for those affected. I have a question about your experiences with the symptoms of schizophrenia. For the past few months, I've been struggling with really bizarre thoughts, like what if people can hear/perceive my thoughts? What if this message was meant for me? Etc. I'd like to know if it's possible to be aware that these thoughts are strange/paranoid and still ultimately be diagnosed with schizophrenia? Does recognizing that my behavior and thoughts are odd change anything? Thanks for reading. Just curious and can't sleep.",6.104806763285023,9.297991847826086,4.301014492753623,82.4333574879227,70.73913043478261,8.001932367149758,36.30917874396136,8.841846274778883,3.5514381642512074,438,24,72,9,9,124,69,92,0.096,0.784,0.121,0.5259,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,1,3,0,9,3,1,1,0,18,16,6,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,8,6,0,0,7,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,0,5,3,11,7,2,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,5,46,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15273254424638655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19633962262461813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18837954847271904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16241934111933334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069924626492134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815518889111967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091840841652142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10200061121754064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813490456136846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14814372093204514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17717568879445575,0.12867129874222594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20923550810695984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20791387539618228,0.0,0.18564968921098035,0.0,0.11889976877449805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18573350107310235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14821997118815666,0.0,0.0,0.1940288570680696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929089071966643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708750497878712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5893809689874512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,terminatortoo,2019/05/26,"Happy belated SZ day! I missed it because I smoked like 1/2 gram of marijuana which sent me into a two day mania/exhaustion and delusion fest. Can't say it wasn't fun, but my APs were struggling to contain that shit. I cleaned my friend's house while she was away, sucked at Final Fantasy VI, slept on the couch with no blankets after sanitizing it with lysol, then woke up and cleaned the house again, finally showering in my clothes and sun bathing to dry them off, cutting my belly with a switchblade. I also almost lost my friend's cat. So, here's to wishing I had the normal, mild experience most people seem to have instead of wacky switchblade lysol vacuum wet clothes island adventure of cat finding.",6.038362573099416,7.263782443609028,5.965814536340853,78.61149540517964,66.66917293233085,8.918629908103592,33.574770258980784,9.150863307647796,3.0054685045948215,567,25,101,10,9,178,99,133,0.166,0.765,0.069,-0.9275,1,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,1,5,12,3,1,5,0,6,2,2,0,0,15,14,8,0,2,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,6,0,5,7,0,1,2,2,0,1,3,6,0,1,8,2,13,6,18,6,1,16,0,2,0,0,6,7,2,3,9,61,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18673998054942187,0.0,0.0,0.14913373669666422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521085170797196,0.0,0.0,0.1136808587629742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405376168439673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824202537406703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.408575197596129,0.17044591113632726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288159077364305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985190791135832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4303623529123358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09110822012063492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20357279492014985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18271784905141467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12928673508420252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14830209677523076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16977093179161773,0.0,0.0,0.1914264183696429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19495689938363747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821708848189159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144510625307801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Guggfgff,2019/05/26,Why do I always hallucinate after waking from sleep Why do I always hallucinate after waking from sleep And it is always after I have a nightmare like I’ll see the sky changing colour on the ceiling but only little bit of it or today walking around or like really hideous ghosts,7.576352201257862,7.707957075471697,8.220754716981133,67.59012578616354,63.150943396226424,9.330817610062894,30.874213836477992,8.841846274778883,2.7277345911949693,227,7,35,3,3,76,36,53,0.0,0.902,0.098,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,4,4,4,0,0,5,5,4,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,8,5,1,9,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,2,6,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5437035509419391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19389616750427568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377909905954455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304130169762093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21282092818062706,0.21830181518842529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16565354167710306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395340078323585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735655546572985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4359325516034847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064574422367057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3930774470199752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RaineAshford,2019/05/26,"Demons in the mirror instead of my face They look at me cocky that they took the joy of seeing ones own reflection away from me, using a warp of my face to torment me further; that they could get this close and rape me.",7.8226666666666675,5.358302933333333,7.082777777777783,84.35750000000002,64.1111111111111,9.888888888888893,31.38888888888889,7.1686216300943375,1.7085555555555554,172,4,38,1,2,53,34,45,0.122,0.804,0.075,-0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,3,0,1,2,1,0,3,0,1,3,2,1,0,5,6,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,2,9,1,8,4,1,6,1,0,2,1,3,5,0,0,0,28,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39799078107802544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33821407191034275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22131609512421596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3557214581496849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870456672435203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33755828923860004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4706406697330329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658586561307982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sneaky-Support,2019/05/26,Inspiring Stories? I'm really desperate at this point to find a reason to keep on... keeping on. Who are some famous people (besides John Nash) who were successful despite having schizophrenia? And please share your own success stories if you've been on the road to recovery or already recovered. Thanks 💜,5.731509433962266,8.699327056603774,5.687396226415096,73.16656603773588,70.88679245283019,8.768301886792452,35.12830188679245,9.3871,4.10977283018868,246,13,35,6,5,77,47,53,0.040999999999999995,0.67,0.28800000000000003,0.9379,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,0,5,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,9,8,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,5,7,6,2,6,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,3,0,22,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3471013968570781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874827727624509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5591530906410395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218061605794012,0.0,0.0,0.3452691576749943,0.2973408421095234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015016150528304,0.3233982816650471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28958507539060785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wonderbeans11,2019/07/29,"do any of you share these symptoms? i'll start by saying i do intend to ask my psychiatrist for an evaluation of psychosis or something. if y'all think i sound like i'm worried over nothing, though, i might not. i'm just wondering if these experiences of mine are common in psychosis. growing up, i always thought an invisible person was in the room with me, watching me to make sure i was safe, i guess. i thought i was destined for some kind of secret society that i would eventually be trained for. usually, the invisible person was someone i knew, like a kid from my class. this gradually went away in my preteens but i still feel like i'm being watched, it's just not as intense and i know, logically speaking, i'm probably not being watched. i feel darkness in everything and i feel like it spreads between stuff. i don't know how to describe this other than a faint smell of mildew, but it's an impression in my mind rather than a scent in my nose. when i feel like that, everything also becomes echo-y and there's a lot of background noise in my head, like a jumble of loud voices but not. i don't know how to describe this, so i hope someone here just knows what i'm talking about. i often don't realize it's happening until all of a sudden and notice it was stressing me out. it also feels like spikes in my mind, or like my head is filled with fuzz. i'm really paranoid about people. this is the only symptom that really affects my life (rather than just my mood), as i struggle to form friendships because i don't trust anyone. i don't think they're ""plotting"" against me, but i do think they're talking about me and hate me. i've also had weird mystical experiences, like my hands going numb while pulling tarot cards and feeling returning to them once i laid them out. at the time, i had no belief in tarot cards and didn't think of them as anything more than cards, so i don't think it was any sort of psychosomatic or ""imaginary"" thing. as i get older, i struggle more and more to express my thoughts. they seem outside the realm of language. i also have a hard time keeping up with hygiene because i lose time, not in a serious dissociative way, just that i kind of can't keep my mind on task. i'm being effectively treated for depression, so i no longer ascribe this to depression.",5.527517306482063,5.9067850462555125,6.146346758967905,79.87573788546256,67.48017621145374,9.04078036500944,33.17463813719321,8.942964678507748,2.7004558842039024,1817,77,357,29,28,593,217,454,0.114,0.775,0.111,-0.6737,0,0,1,0,0,0,54.0,0,2,4,2,25,29,1,3,16,0,29,9,4,6,2,82,69,34,0,6,21,0,9,9,0,2,5,5,1,3,22,13,0,3,26,0,0,5,15,10,0,0,14,20,58,18,61,49,7,38,1,3,3,0,17,19,0,15,22,240,80,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25514227768478737,0.06636829747664227,0.0,0.0,0.10848166588336468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05577138098950346,0.0,0.06563725455169724,0.0,0.07456661739408905,0.0,0.07493893865006232,0.0,0.0,0.09724423821332648,0.08809076137845666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739762985310638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14336972058906908,0.15604490327329312,0.0,0.0,0.2419801051302527,0.2279276935173906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04167230514702168,0.0,0.0453305307222208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08786673466488408,0.0,0.07053319228088895,0.0,0.07145100319278293,0.0787483714983236,0.16371745889237427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07922157234324953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14179209825054082,0.0,0.16611950724762406,0.17534023585998934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05633819482307729,0.35070875613142105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08923317332074747,0.0,0.06781072230548035,0.0,0.0,0.05324169329424376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08461478026311868,0.2416103701038001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07653370240943347,0.09080946150118163,0.0,0.08494382941997031,0.0,0.060662525633896625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05529686440249802,0.1392900439078079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08599682785838718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10219504202850084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634298710586598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07261224586306315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13516401249290974,0.061404613988100064,0.0,0.0,0.05645588937826464,0.0,0.06369796317167314,0.0,0.0913669967150487,0.16676892989102507,0.09130830237873107,0.0,0.0,0.07517465483071871,0.16580632647002813,0.0,0.12821920147178215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0529902678340912,0.25554105165425484,0.07836567014135007,0.1899661376046442,0.13952943084779146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784647355024955,0.0,0.0,0.06331129036690636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07394008829253723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08649838736785229,0.0,0.08100208983080573,0.0,0.05666057132715607,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jazzoz,2019/07/29,"Am i delusional? My story starts in 2018 when i hit My head on a cast Iron radiator, which gave me a multipel of symptoms and issues. Specifically i have a weird feeling about My spinal cord after the injury as it feel as though it has changed position, thus i get a painful feeling in My brain when i stretch or extend My body. The last few weeks it has been really bad and ive had several times, when stretching where i feel a sharp pain in My brain and in My spinal cord. The pain has been accompanied with a sense of lower hearing and lesser cognition and i still dont feel right. Im pretty sure it is real and im damaging My brain and body by moving it around and I feel really depressed nd hopeless about My situation. But as I had a genuine paranoid psychosis in march and I was diagnosed as a scizophrenic, No one seems to take me seriously, as they think im delusional again.. What do I do? The doctors diagnosed me as scizophrenic due to My description of these sensation, but im sure im having a real physiologicsl situation... Ahhhh...",3.2236785329018325,5.247475553398059,5.026731391585763,79.40723840345201,75.01941747572816,8.655447680690399,27.94929881337649,9.2995712137729,2.61195771305286,828,34,160,21,18,282,113,206,0.127,0.8190000000000001,0.054000000000000006,-0.8843,1,0,0,0,0,1,21.0,0,0,1,0,10,11,0,0,13,0,16,15,8,1,2,27,30,22,0,0,3,0,7,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,8,11,0,0,8,0,0,1,2,9,0,1,6,8,26,2,23,23,1,24,0,3,0,0,3,11,0,2,12,107,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688000808729196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08148752967750901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168115054717267,0.0,0.32684401230671833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10324229218129842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08405820481431414,0.19811320939111285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09989234976461107,0.0,0.0,0.1143803060636686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960809914956212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05098922251974712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10016035724900912,0.0,0.10999636267180264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5270953217920258,0.1018635505410849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07955273724901875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10372776138273852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06613272022621948,0.0,0.31154304645081066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09928893446625024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221683560546797,0.12504337641083335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833453729854494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08884658405403638,0.0,0.11025427467850764,0.0,0.0,0.21940114909517408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907805785887275,0.0,0.07793928381826576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18396377111779,0.10143830111791084,0.07337909714518176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0625347673941202,0.09588633454878563,0.0,0.056908276551628674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07828461198288154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cursedsalad,2019/07/29,"CBD Anyone take CBD to help with anxiety? I used to have a drinking problem and had to get drunk before work everyday because I get so paranoid and anxious but I quit drinking a week ago and have started taking CBD oil with my coffee and it has stopped my cravings for alcohol but it makes me very tired and makes me slur and mix up my words. I don’t want to have to get drunk to go to work everyday but I haven’t found anything else thats works.",3.141244239631334,4.353564752688172,4.055944700460831,89.64677419354841,73.51612903225806,7.034715821812598,28.3394777265745,7.447530270364453,1.4588445468509987,354,14,76,4,7,114,57,93,0.192,0.773,0.035,-0.9149,0,0,3,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,2,0,7,6,0,3,0,19,19,10,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,8,5,1,1,4,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,1,10,0,11,17,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,43,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15967817138651133,0.19250876400848785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378022318817823,0.20350046429519755,0.0,0.1259540775747649,0.0,0.14823516479097085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10980818572455156,0.0,0.15328100557646773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3529260349988828,0.0,0.0,0.15047907741227995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975079413840193,0.0,0.0,0.2823381810930108,0.0,0.10237446306316923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12074021145682245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404820626068819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17236417920842526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19159498096314104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12749997120638987,0.0,0.0,0.15060032475800172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708771225814029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20703785713518885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15557818249523306,0.0,0.14862964697635947,0.1062478660258682,0.0,0.1444928546502086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3934197057737032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MineralSunshine,2019/07/29,"What did your first psychotic episode feel like? (No need to reply of course.) What did it truly feel like? Did you hallucinate and did you ever have anything ""off"" happening earlier in your life before the episode? I've only experienced a voice saying my name leaving me confused. I can't grasp what psychosis would be like, do you feel disoriented? Also what was your first auditory hallucination?",5.101428571428574,8.119786857142861,5.672857142857144,72.20214285714287,73.28571428571428,8.571428571428571,30.0,9.23628265651192,3.2200000000000006,320,14,51,8,7,103,53,70,0.063,0.7879999999999999,0.149,0.7622,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,6,0,2,2,4,0,1,2,0,10,1,0,0,1,10,15,2,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,2,0,0,5,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,5,6,9,3,4,8,0,5,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,1,6,36,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19446558422373927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001108897994156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069225507895444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199641537652112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36886715084367344,0.3474460797546728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4136861356215205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21503732848248736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574853921547075,0.0,0.0,0.17176047920863727,0.3564065444705096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803099059417368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18494423730836893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19338115258025207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17274332118644764,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ISayWhatIWant1,2019/07/29,"Unknown psychotic disorder for over a decade has left me a lonely shadow of a person, It started around 2005 when I started hearing voices and seeing things. At the time I worked as the manager of a print department and everything started to go downhill from there. I tried to ignore all of it but by 2009 my life was pure hell and I tried to kill myself. I failed. Yay... Since then, numerous psychologist and doctors have looked me over and concluded that I do have pretty severe psychosis with depression. They tried to put me on anti-psychotics but all of them just threw me into a permanent psychotic state and I was incredibly delusional while on them. All the medications for depression and anxiety affected me so severely that I was taken off. Psychotherapy put me where I am now. I'm stable-ish but spend most of my time alone. My mother checks on me daily and I go for a three mile walk daily but other than that, I stay alone. I do writing to pass the time and play games but sometimes the psychosis and depression crushes down on me so hard that I spend hours furious at everything or broken with despair. Family and therapist are worthless. They give me pep talks, or just repeat the same words at me or ask if I need to go to the hospital if they think I'm really bad off. These are the same people I live for when I can't think of any reason I want to live and survive for them. Now I'm just chasing my tail and my days are filled with hatred and despair. Even if I am successful with these books I'm writing, I'll still live in this nightmare, but just wealthier. Maybe it will get better one day, but for now, my life is looking long and bleak.",4.180740740740742,5.79858462962963,5.052054320987659,81.92504444444445,71.53086419753086,8.64079012345679,27.46617283950617,9.174902378510234,2.30225150617284,1316,47,252,28,25,428,172,324,0.242,0.6990000000000001,0.059000000000000004,-0.9971,0,4,0,0,0,1,30.0,0,0,6,6,16,17,3,0,14,1,16,4,0,3,4,56,39,35,1,5,17,1,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,12,21,0,1,4,3,3,10,1,13,0,2,5,6,41,4,43,33,6,49,1,8,3,0,15,18,1,7,19,179,53,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279480954068837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483477776360001,0.0,0.08418457844876136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09796390996797257,0.10287777562836538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09188347465183584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09732638541798427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14194060898642116,0.0,0.2843463274160317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261217849968943,0.112636328820289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07268407718536743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19780376879256012,0.0,0.10374119252027172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05749428106915733,0.10556576153745537,0.1876243417657712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09857923735550107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12402938267176684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837274341086066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12174914550672117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11956486022058192,0.0,0.15545691540984746,0.0,0.0,0.29151682774684884,0.09738688804261043,0.1848211670796885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11055559063026,0.0,0.0,0.11085935889633136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159741380755464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456974271536833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629175907077278,0.09608756830605916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11195593153139226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22125243418265636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07049802560155358,0.11314519903149868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769209102399544,0.0,0.0,0.24864039670293964,0.0,0.09103085280345916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088379066436246,0.0,0.2336725141893322,0.11729396151567398,0.08788255377772762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08845048026349009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277714167719946,0.07310940304440801,0.14102554679116738,0.0,0.0,0.1925054130382277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22414120488758008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06490774271451158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08011450330356472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ender_Person,2019/07/29,"Hey fellas I’m not sure if I’m schizophrenic but I see things on the daily probably every couple minutes I hear whispers, groaning/moaning and even thinking about seeing something makes my eyes water and basically just all of a sudden really nervous and take note of everything. It disturbs me cuz I just see terrifying thing but I don’t want to go to a doctor or anything but most days I’m just chill and sometimes I talk back to the whispers and such and there pretty cool tbh",3.386989247311832,5.866902107526883,4.55397849462366,80.81763440860215,76.31182795698925,6.713978494623658,27.53763440860215,7.793537801064563,1.9767118279569893,388,16,67,6,9,127,68,93,0.14,0.769,0.09,-0.6976,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,2,4,1,1,4,1,2,2,22,13,12,0,2,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,6,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,8,7,2,7,13,2,5,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,3,3,44,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17361565031776455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16222787503111466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23344144028425354,0.0,0.13606236312909167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159433467689302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13934796214160927,0.0,0.17775676698959642,0.0,0.18961203851345265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11990278423953772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377858038551524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408284253878817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146389073466254,0.2274683073792987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515692271265686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5043627704992166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16241998637616126,0.2086611137109003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19884281685744612,0.0,0.15862804166437453,0.16957488699664322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803267709280011,0.13518519678758167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244393823892414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Avalolo,2019/07/29,"possible sexual hallucinations preface: i am not diagnosed with schizophrenia, but my psychiatrist is wondering about it being a possibility. lately i've been hearing my upstairs neighbours going at it for hours on end. i've experienced sexual trauma in the past and it's particularly distressing for me. i'm not sure if it's actually a hallucination or not. when i went out to the store today i kept hearing it, so i don't know if it really is a hallucination or if it's not and the sound is just etched into my mind. it gets louder when cars go by. it's so difficult. i don't know what to do. update: i still hear it when i cover my ears",3.25690050107373,5.24851828346457,6.287530422333571,70.54785969935578,74.8267716535433,9.657551896921976,26.50608446671439,10.018931242160765,2.961777952755906,510,19,96,16,11,187,77,127,0.122,0.878,0.0,-0.9382,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,1,6,0,9,2,1,0,1,22,21,13,0,3,11,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,11,5,0,1,3,0,1,4,6,3,0,0,3,6,12,1,12,17,0,19,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,6,10,69,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.17498755193882562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18200300820537285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15882166215252966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368574577302688,0.0,0.2038199980546016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6063099666936795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765911513129939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19709589741444336,0.0,0.2022774173939732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810590801237794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711783927867299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4043060110037507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487507941986495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14320280970556054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16900417618364236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16997157497445384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166228680889396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19446166705036655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ahrowtway001,2019/07/29,"Huuuuuuuuhhhhhhh I've been thinking maybe this post should be on r/offmychest but I feel like I would get more of the response I need by posting it here. I do this quirky little thing where I self-diagnose due to the anxiety of talking about my problems and the general lack of money and insurance, so about maybe 4 or 5 years ago when I was 13/14 I secretly convinced my self I had some type of schizotypal disorder. This belief pared with my symptoms has led me to full blown schizophrenia. I have Truman Show-esque delusions that cause full blown panic attacks. I have a very hard time trusting my thoughts, senses, and surroundings. I hear things like water or buzzing or low mumbling voices. I see shadows dart across the room or things poke their heads around my peripheral vision. Idk maybe this is all normal and I'm being dramatic. Something just feels wrong. Ig I just wanna discuss everything that's happening to me. Tl;dr: I have all the symptoms for schyzophrenia but I keep explaining them away because I'm scared of them...",4.778484755158608,7.2708809476439775,5.101712349861412,78.49714505697568,71.98429319371728,7.635478903603325,29.559901447489988,8.4952907291091,2.434535940868493,835,35,144,15,17,264,133,191,0.172,0.746,0.08199999999999999,-0.9531,1,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,3,0,9,10,1,2,6,0,13,4,1,2,2,35,26,12,0,7,8,0,3,2,0,2,2,2,1,1,10,6,1,1,7,0,1,1,0,6,0,0,4,6,25,4,18,18,7,19,1,1,1,0,9,11,0,5,7,95,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103804722303844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10445581199432642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155313895254438,0.0,0.1553385503980264,0.12828761435604846,0.0,0.0,0.0832359755487981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14026833532961855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13858931991153245,0.0,0.0,0.15649129216751798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271697302220605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13808153219136493,0.09754708491257197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07133862192781726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12074543800099798,0.0,0.12231663415666613,0.0,0.14013357146551778,0.0,0.15389504962621886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213666109153334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13341703545831446,0.13685299310831495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4115305036595832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012456707981602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13378416192019474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602050034166588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26154287993302283,0.0,0.0,0.13065419951541346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13670439796921274,0.0,0.1088079163925136,0.0,0.2848904124597839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10511826803115318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838430654496912,0.0,0.1097489220408033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27214136603673217,0.08749190334772063,0.0,0.10840071059067216,0.07961992407136707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126631277979916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09699696385552596,0.14928946573980806,0.0,0.08792988088979382 schizophrenia,vethansul,2019/07/29,"Nootropics (particularly racetams) contraindicated? I was wondering if any of you who either have/had full blown schizophrenia or are in danger of developing one have tried any nootropics for the cognitive impairments that make thinking and planning very hard at times. And if so, what was your experience? Did you take anything else along with them? The reason I ask is because I was recently told that medications for ADHD are contraindicated for anything that goes into the psychotic spectrum because apparently they can worsen the symptoms. (It also made me wonder if that means it's impossible to have ADHD and any form of psychosis or similar, which no one could confirm). I kind of forgot now where I was trying to go with this but I guess I'm just curious what you guys experienced. I'm planning on bringing this up with my doctor obviously and this thread doesn't replace any professional input but I'd like to have a first-hand report as well.",8.54205882352941,9.263970852941178,8.323529411764708,65.66588235294121,61.05882352941178,11.03529411764706,37.588235294117645,10.793553405168565,4.3590470588235295,775,35,121,18,10,249,116,170,0.044000000000000004,0.899,0.057,0.6241,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,4,2,2,6,4,1,0,5,0,14,3,0,3,1,29,29,14,0,4,9,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,13,9,0,1,5,0,0,2,2,1,1,2,8,2,14,3,20,20,3,12,0,0,0,0,10,7,0,8,4,89,27,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530581333297829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11746510629232873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3995515139047644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24175020000964614,0.0,0.13731907886904193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17908133268539847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11727694325712867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15034458925964594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12270484912599346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436832132698832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494160878496613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347900093847634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16181207474712214,0.14544075980168564,0.0,0.0,0.13158148090380856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295971920560222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07176133983917432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13898758781553575,0.09804790046937484,0.0,0.0,0.16000249422978854,0.0,0.1479727273910795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19906823059950585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510238184540993,0.14503272948173554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15267134823343062,0.11044039154682468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09411895846349656,0.0,0.0,0.0856507178356519,0.0,0.0,0.14035637567615727,0.0,0.19945262621115856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119677181377755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13206863231716293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185843556302345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,StevieGlitter,2019/07/29,"Medical debt + suicide Hospitalizing myself isn't an option anymore. I am 10k in debt to the medical system already and the reason I want to die is money. I can't afford my medication so I'm on a substitute that works nowhere near as well, I work fulltime and I can still barely afford food and housing. I am being horrible and mean to everyone that cares about me because they keep telling me I can't kill myself and I DON'T UNDERSTAND why the pain they would feel if I died is more important than the amount of pain and stress I am experiencing by staying alive. Why the fuck is it not ethical for me to put myself out of this misery I want it to stop. I have been so stressed for the past 6+ months that trying to make a decision about if I should buy paper towels was so difficult I couldn't stop fantasizing about taking cyanide instead of making the decision. I'm incredibly delusional and I need intense professional help that's completely impossible to afford. Ever. I am never going to get better. I want to be out of my misery. If there was any other option to make it stop I would want that but there ISN'T. I've been rejected multiple times for disability, I cannot afford to change my insurance. My only good option besides death would be permanent hospitalization but nowhere will give me that. They always put me on the right meds when I'm inside and I function like a normal person after a few days and they discharge me back out with no way to maintain that functioning and another several thousand dollars in debt. I feel like if i have to spend money one more time, even to just buy a coffee or put gas in my car, I will lose my mind entirely and try to die on the spot. I feel so guilty spending my money on ANYTHING I can't buy food or gas to get to work. The only time I eat is when i take home a box of food from my job after my shifts at like midnight, and then I'm so tired i can only find the energy to eat a few bites. I'm losing weight and i already weigh barely 100lbs. It's a wonder I even found housing, it took a month (2 weeks of being homeless) to find a place that would accept me as one of three housemates because my medical debt has given me a credit score of 310. If I don't kill myself i am going to be crazy or violent in public and end up back in the hospital with ANOTHER MEDICAL BILL or arrested. Either way I'll lose my job and the little income I have. I wish I was delusional enough to think that if I killed myself because of this someone in the medical system or the pharmaceutical system would try to change something but that's not going to happen. Anyone with the power and money to do a damn thing about how broken the system is wants me to die so they can stop spending money on me that won't be paid back. Anyone who wants to change the system doesn't have near enough power or money to do so. I want to stop being alive before I really lose it and hurt someone else.",5.242374249249249,5.4326966570945965,6.490225225225228,77.82024024024028,68.07094594594594,9.348048048048048,28.606606606606608,9.225670689056813,2.2898489489489493,2319,72,453,41,36,786,252,592,0.196,0.715,0.08900000000000001,-0.9972,14,1,1,0,0,4,35.0,0,0,5,10,26,26,6,2,31,0,51,17,0,5,2,89,91,45,9,23,19,0,4,3,0,9,9,0,1,1,22,23,7,6,14,0,20,8,15,17,1,4,9,5,69,9,72,65,8,62,0,6,0,1,11,21,2,16,28,315,91,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12592563386400224,0.0,0.047475239680024005,0.0,0.0,0.038800099479074215,0.1196565757276316,0.0,0.0,0.0565843123922777,0.07978989307943196,0.0,0.046952302684535055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13161783995374832,0.0,0.10434259335122678,0.0,0.048550532390642234,0.0,0.0,0.050461477257079584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05817248895639171,0.0,0.18107334168873224,0.0,0.05982222751387311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036796459569846535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368608643370545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167652535204968,0.04766304405782472,0.0,0.05053476286461395,0.11790839134334513,0.0,0.07537002205700938,0.05161050224545035,0.0,0.0545195415283073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08654782422962763,0.04076088392677805,0.0,0.0,0.10429646988715173,0.0,0.20697736081207324,0.06255906052749731,0.0,0.052747438184121836,0.05961890692073976,0.05473340299314405,0.09727887678379253,0.047855943433192265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050454514222109184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038243496153625225,0.0,0.05723191290931416,0.0,0.0,0.13167014063829532,0.06107972715000376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11323873593693815,0.05071407663837593,0.18937233857000024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08362417443399645,0.0571851939206566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553246927753456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11425615449925333,0.0,0.0,0.062150811366922125,0.06337645646125671,0.34486806390621066,0.0,0.0,0.05761038862414774,0.0,0.0910832574725375,0.0,0.0,0.042306369679743404,0.04400517598049845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05590285655545541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0773253698868491,0.1301811883186436,0.12142341047961196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05446649638205765,0.0,0.04981917926922543,0.05961147295722369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17207139607054425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036551593900090086,0.05866316583273316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048725591298920734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06445714422421263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966868841478574,0.043924567562854566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060814203116622174,0.04556506922252783,0.2385072409235005,0.13071512251515888,0.0,0.0,0.062410104684488786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08579816177687834,0.0,0.049869539748436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03790553263804202,0.036559240289811085,0.0,0.0,0.09980959921787293,0.06557758510996052,0.0,0.0,0.06339141820250323,0.1162120247683528,0.0,0.0,0.059397404548421726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355721316589684,0.09057694106672873,0.045766955882942835,0.06947894973992319,0.05130027937466506,0.0,0.1029684980597712,0.0,0.06561169064249328,0.0,0.06187489853374052,0.12461254476018085,0.0,0.0,0.2026550556845716,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WITCH_KING_XXYBORG,2019/07/29,"What do y'all do for a living? I get that this is a personal question, feel free not to answer if you don't feel comfortable, but I'm kind of at a loss here. I have no idea what I want to do with my life, or even what I can do. A decade ago I was at the top of my class and thought I had it all figured out, but when I was 21 I had my first (and biggest) psychotic break and ever since then I feel like I've gotten dumber and dumber every year. I have a hard time with most academic subjects now. I just submitted my application essay for an online college (for computer science) and I had such a hard time with the essay that now I'm not sure if I could even do a computer science program, especially because it's considered one of the most difficult majors. I only signed up for it because I've heard people who can code can work from home, and that would enable me to control my symptoms most effectively. I'm curious as to what everyone here does for work, do you enjoy it, and does it work for you?",6.6091428571428565,4.685723057142855,7.659047619047621,77.55428571428574,66.04761904761904,11.066666666666668,33.85714285714286,9.888512548439397,2.9622,782,27,169,14,10,268,114,210,0.113,0.787,0.1,-0.2043,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,4,0,9,10,8,0,0,11,0,20,2,0,2,3,39,31,15,0,5,8,0,5,1,0,1,2,1,1,1,14,11,0,1,9,0,1,0,4,2,0,2,8,6,24,7,22,21,5,17,0,1,0,0,8,6,0,7,11,123,38,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14469154202328524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19900422933584289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830737888223264,0.13032406762768747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28568338873848337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21562076434106975,0.14764883488787006,0.13752641006024974,0.15597109958341926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.247598547846164,0.11660992935442754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13884143140654578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852797566498356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29243998589325193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16373073099107852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18426424917976844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16997657200492627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11529257927183414,0.07974482832272779,0.0,0.14413308400580882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11060734031195477,0.1241420508313986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11316156193200222,0.1425241657054306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828524241004381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13502367244784094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15384021228442327,0.1696561196036665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958459204882802,0.1903588145045718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09627594954575563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3564952140700236,0.0,0.0,0.11595230255137125,0.0,0.0,0.10511331228290356 schizophrenia,Alienkushbitch,2019/07/29,"The sense of impending doom. I hate paranoia. Delusions are extremely rough. I've been sober off of alcohol and weed for a bit. Since then, the loneliness and paranoia have become more intense. Yesterday I had a Truman Show delusion that made me break down crying. Today, my partner who is working out of state didn't contact me at all. Work probably got too busy for them to communicate. They are usually consistent with contacting me everyday. I hate being so emotionally dependent. I try to keep myself busy and occupied. The breaks and distraction are great, until I start missing my partner again. I had the sense that something bad happened to them even though its unlikely. I don't know if my meds aren't working anymore or what. That time of the month makes the emotions and psychosis much worse. I wish I could work a normal job in society. I preach all this stuff about self worth and how mental illness doesn't define you. That applies to everyone else but myself. Sometimes I don't really believe that I myself am worthy. Sometimes I do. I hate the alternation and sorrow when these feelings set in. I feel separated from the rest of humanity and like I'm not qualified for the rules of kindness. So now here I am, drinking in bed again. Trying to write a seperate story and forget. I never drink when I go out anymore which is good. Canyone else relate with this situation?",3.6962094907407415,6.527392671875003,4.471059027777779,79.89489004629631,77.359375,7.542592592592592,29.01273148148148,8.515128840125781,2.668936516203704,1108,50,187,24,27,355,164,256,0.134,0.7809999999999999,0.085,-0.8382,1,0,4,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,3,4,13,12,3,1,13,0,19,4,0,4,3,33,35,20,0,4,4,0,3,1,2,0,2,0,1,4,13,13,3,1,3,3,1,1,7,8,0,0,6,3,31,4,27,27,6,28,2,3,0,0,12,8,0,3,16,135,44,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377599035794992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297239562066287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09670457582955906,0.0,0.12791371170107513,0.0,0.13048909207048326,0.0,0.0,0.12644506844834175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09247257180701204,0.0,0.12722245477509625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269183417704826,0.0,0.0,0.19350492358918625,0.2605630505176971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07649779114696822,0.0,0.0,0.11067064563431546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11712379717114772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06582298015506682,0.0971440332901696,0.09263156005373853,0.1276915807546387,0.0,0.0,0.10241894021114197,0.0,0.0,0.3430437992977489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11493313833580035,0.10294583275985733,0.0,0.12060834998750422,0.06365145455786198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05658363414790037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10959135988372788,0.07731052042175318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286495292874142,0.0,0.11671897321196005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924461452571874,0.0,0.08514077429742473,0.0,0.08932725955673751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11347867304758058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248731793635616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07419703802508976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12082516161068138,0.0,0.0,0.09580721714234454,0.13018614715487375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08916363041800791,0.22909720460682584,0.0,0.0819777493661805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13258579768892698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137922249832395,0.0,0.06753537341107335,0.0,0.10978349242719304,0.0,0.0,0.15726788904252395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12755898934040533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13318688970987666,0.0,0.0,0.3372723588925461,0.0,0.11803012526346325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Dinkle_Donkle_Trash,2019/07/29,"Key signs to rule out schizophrenia? Hey all. I'm trying to collect my own information while I try to get this all sorted with medical help, and I was wondering if you have any insight on some key signs that could mean you don't have schizophrenia. Thanks",4.400102040816325,6.383284469387758,4.1181122448979615,87.35635204081633,71.65306122448979,7.348979591836735,26.535714285714285,8.07648339933343,1.5413632653061224,205,7,40,3,4,62,39,49,0.05,0.894,0.055999999999999994,0.0757,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,15,10,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,6,8,4,3,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,4,1,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420826617861327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842258242234473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859879726331148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23860988680893525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3877730740352045,0.0,0.3586184056068888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277440460574882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48338220202505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3860515909984514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,legion511723,2019/07/29,"I'm afraid God my head is pounding. I can hear them, the voices kind of circle around me. Everyone is watching me. I feel like everyone can tell I'm different. I'm so so alone. I can help but feel like a deserve to be but I dont remember my sin. I cant stop trembling. It's so hard to keep it together",-1.3282255389718074,0.6726252985074659,1.931243781094529,94.47590381426204,94.52238805970148,5.96285240464345,20.87728026533997,7.3871296695380915,0.8228454394693201,233,9,56,5,9,83,44,67,0.06,0.682,0.258,0.9079999999999999,1,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,4,6,0,2,2,0,8,1,1,0,0,8,15,5,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,6,10,3,4,14,0,2,1,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,3,31,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23045525921240945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19808279797058115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324776134702929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607823313627999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4252393800465387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22501744076891986,0.3179251425321033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993269885161548,0.0,0.2283614406398603,0.0,0.2507871231172741,0.0,0.14914506009497525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19777883218385525,0.0,0.23171193988778746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21741618446267175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25206264694658226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18602994160224134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19448523934138773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thelocalflower,2019/07/29,"am i schizophrenic? so there’s a lot to talk about here but i guess i’ll just start with the delusions i have. i’ve been diagnosed with anxiety and depression which for awhile i thought that was the reasoning for all of this until a few months ago when i was convinced my dad hired a hit man to kill me and my family and i didn’t sleep properly for days. shortly after that, i was convinced someone was trying to shoot me while i was in bed so i turned off all of the lights and crouched on the floor all night which eventually led to me waking my parents, making my dad check outside for someone. just yesterday i almost broke into a mirror my family bought because i thought i was being spied on which to be honest i still can’t shake that feeling. overall i’m constantly anxious and paranoid and i see things out of the corner of my eye a lot but it’s never there when i look straight at it. i see faces a lot though in everything i look at if that means anything. this is causing me to go multiple nights without sleep and i don’t know what to do anymore. this could easily be an extreme case of anxiety but i don’t know. i’m 17, if that helps at all",2.9409310039805376,4.442495768907567,4.119632905793896,87.83759619637331,74.50420168067227,7.531534719150819,26.81203007518797,8.20500826718156,1.6400722689075633,915,34,193,15,19,299,131,238,0.122,0.785,0.09300000000000001,-0.7882,1,0,0,1,0,2,12.0,0,0,0,0,12,7,1,1,12,0,19,7,5,4,5,40,38,19,1,3,8,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,15,11,0,0,7,0,2,3,6,4,0,0,11,7,29,3,32,22,8,32,0,2,5,0,6,14,0,7,15,140,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11717735450773213,0.0,0.13236794239180147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20224806981390994,0.14933566585933974,0.1310957236780513,0.0,0.0,0.10878008123714633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08058103743780473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357942633099559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284908203658805,0.0,0.10554196368189664,0.0,0.0,0.0852508105542963,0.0,0.113853980024716,0.13416880264380285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11880272841349848,0.0,0.24923158533351186,0.0,0.0668386057928679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07512591512495903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14562081549831854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08860333531105156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14624727078258312,0.0,0.14529496420334995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22201052135322025,0.0,0.0,0.3371464543202311,0.0,0.0,0.0882370196820078,0.0,0.0,0.1439923054439496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551180219825526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10195211617576802,0.0,0.0,0.24810038162219036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14677996770708365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13591205500161274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21067464462441252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645684380481298,0.0,0.22400620439931535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935638803729364,0.0,0.10556610960925986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10624831315329474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782033433818465,0.0,0.12987477953492568,0.2098862099182237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08974748679151576,0.14378340527272127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274252415802972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Safe_Courage,2019/07/29,"Reapply to a place after quitting? I didn't tell an employer that I have schizoaffective disorder, but became worried that someone there knew I had been diagnosed. I am afraid of people's general reaction to this label, especially those who lack empathy or awareness. I ended up quitting after one week, even though I didn't want to. If I reapply and mention the undisclosed disability, do you think they'll give me a shot? I know that by not telling them I am the one at fault in this scenario. I hate this disease.",4.686417525773198,6.793837474226805,5.439780927835049,77.65802190721652,71.16494845360825,8.561340206185568,33.774484536082475,9.188382445141503,3.36209381443299,413,21,71,9,8,134,73,97,0.196,0.804,0.0,-0.9538,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,2,2,3,3,1,1,5,0,9,1,0,0,0,11,15,5,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,5,0,14,0,10,9,1,8,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,2,4,56,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22218713298830065,0.0,0.0,0.25088766989065786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19388761822160544,0.0,0.0,0.1445867481469486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20999661504170114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21612644700265413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12030617735959655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.296675613886456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517633267369073,0.0,0.2287123923253031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46567146136252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854801389977748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3826706898590213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402674836482975,0.21507611563742027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12911768040634006,0.0,0.1755948888722438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22231182108057365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,curt85wa,2019/07/29,"Do I have anxiety or schizophrenia? This is probably not the best place to search for validation of my mental health, but I figured I would try it. Recently, I have been thinking I have schizophrenia. I have a hard time keeping conversations with everyone, and find it hard to express emotions. No one noticed anything out of the normal of me, I’ve asked family if they thought I was acting weird. They said I was completely normal. I don’t have any auditory or visual hallucinations, but I do feel like I have a hard time expressing myself. About a year ago, I got myself worked up over having dementia or a possible stroke. I felt I was losing my memory, and would forget my family, friends, etc. Went to the hospital at like 1am and the doctor told me I was overreacting and likely due to anxiety buildup or panic attack. I feel like my voice is mostly monotone, and it’s hard for me to maintain eye contact without getting distracted. I fear that if these are early warning signs of schizophrenia that I may start to hallucinate and go insane. I am seeing a doctor in a few days to roll out if I’m driving myself crazy or if there is an actual disorder. I just wanted input from this community to try and assess what may be going on with me. Thank you!",6.068727524204704,6.657795153526973,7.12745228215768,72.57878561549101,66.34439834024896,10.244094052558783,32.249239280774546,10.203070172399654,3.35528857538036,996,39,177,23,15,336,143,241,0.17600000000000002,0.733,0.091,-0.9488,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,2,3,3,13,1,3,11,0,25,5,1,0,0,43,44,18,0,9,14,0,8,4,1,4,4,2,0,0,9,11,0,1,7,0,0,5,4,6,0,1,11,12,34,7,26,28,4,22,0,1,2,0,11,8,0,12,13,132,43,3,0.0,0.0,0.11132724463021218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112650915720688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775794414870941,0.0,0.17454431677508284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938794865916187,0.0,0.10665095311561493,0.12978435871777044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11972166490985282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11961245103361487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07357323358592703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13074746704430826,0.2335348281153053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832651362054376,0.0,0.0,0.12723120810778155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090099159199226,0.0,0.0,0.2150920739111878,0.12837358518200434,0.11536623111458595,0.16299992278448475,0.10953628492557456,0.0,0.10426857136390286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08813920827436245,0.0,0.05960295931040741,0.0,0.1296704738854025,0.0,0.09124152583653404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4087790412325295,0.0,0.0,0.12126347091315258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014010220066778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22293814825252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12762819766775393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11496748196569932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235516118428699,0.0,0.12988272714358762,0.0,0.0,0.07730468593050956,0.0,0.0,0.13385024888241426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191910546708416,0.0,0.0,0.12860993166021056,0.0,0.0,0.12299932565726793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264187729468825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851778402087192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09090831359141212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08074758681032701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10503106606751987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07309892193461168,0.0,0.09056809576574854,0.13304386786515598,0.0,0.0,0.1090099159199226,0.0,0.1549079185647537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672883193945837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10575484265532642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10997065016243318,0.0,0.08305280789287821,0.0,0.0,0.16208067758201686,0.0,0.0,0.07346484935111651 schizophrenia,theonethatgotaway_,2019/07/29,"What Triggered Your SZ/Symptoms? I’m interested in hearing how others symptom’s began and at what age. I had hallucinations as young as 7 but my diagnosed symptoms started when I was 19 after I was sexually assaulted by a close friend. I’ve heard the majority of people get SZ genetically but that definitely wasn’t my case. I find it very interesting how such terrible events can cause the brain to change. It’s disturbing but fascinating.",4.5076851851851885,7.337075864197531,6.568626543209878,66.00256944444448,74.30864197530866,9.975925925925926,32.34722222222222,10.125756701596842,4.184937037037038,359,18,59,12,8,125,63,81,0.142,0.6579999999999999,0.19899999999999998,0.6416,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,6,1,1,3,0,5,4,1,4,0,10,11,9,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,6,2,7,3,8,5,1,10,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,7,37,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573834532887831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368506942968125,0.2439040339108508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23401558567037706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107294990877239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17813163608833152,0.0,0.12045913351773775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598601406879011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15984266645851275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16319297654608042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7189266233727726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902378036917521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sr-Face,2019/02/19,"Weird question This question has nothing to do with my ilness (as far as I know) but I was wondering if you guys can relate. Why am I only attracted to people who don't show interest in me. For example, I was at a bar and I looked at this girl and I thought she was cute and wanted to meet her, but then she started to look at me and giving me a smile and then I no longer felt attracted, I almost wanted to ignore her. Because of this I allways thought I was asexual but I don't think it applies because there was attraction at first and I feel attracted to people that show no interest in me so I don't know... Can you tell me what is this or if you have the same thing?",0.9556539235412488,2.896803760563383,3.1572635814889334,90.49211267605637,81.8169014084507,6.592354124748491,23.523138832997986,7.7094869923839395,1.1344772635814886,522,19,115,9,14,178,78,142,0.106,0.727,0.16699999999999998,0.9043,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,0,1,2,9,0,0,3,0,15,1,0,0,0,28,29,17,0,4,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,9,7,1,1,10,3,0,0,5,2,0,1,8,4,26,7,17,21,1,11,0,0,2,0,15,7,0,7,4,90,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934982455879676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355901147986613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977060814331035,0.0,0.1855371553949412,0.0,0.0,0.16436670151706773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853698707354094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913343215860344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21239523828887516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245396552041507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854154453557545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696491679758888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679314450283847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4329377695017344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13677365059417146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16889704698171046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283776140531741,0.12381802110049585,0.0,0.3068160814351346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22795155742702075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17436570842808666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095565288422275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NaloxoneRescue,2019/02/19,"I'm a psych nurse. What can I do better? What do you want to see change in a psych hospital setting? I'm an RN at a psych facility. I'm just looking for tips or advice on things I can improve on. I do have some questions: When a patient is psychotic and confused and asks where they are and why are they here, what's the best way to answer? What does catatonia feel like? How can I help? How can I make the experience of being in an acute psych setting less scary? What things should I never say? What things do you wish you heard more often?",0.9832738095238084,3.183568874999999,2.483928571428571,93.87773809523813,83.46428571428572,5.519047619047619,20.047619047619047,6.816661863887847,0.19455119047619096,422,12,94,5,12,137,70,112,0.046,0.778,0.17600000000000002,0.9319,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,2,2,7,4,0,1,8,0,14,0,0,3,1,18,25,7,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,9,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,11,3,9,22,4,11,0,0,2,0,10,6,0,5,3,67,20,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220716364164768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124533989206821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23849083286642636,0.20098919577547647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24040639381856665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988729914162048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22229967808146947,0.0,0.0,0.11490730839691952,0.1623515149547328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15232470298877876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102565415891293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908375492118472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15169494205259784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17527360297478872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25457838993814863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18072285119615905,0.0,0.0,0.18109336717980992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4529357601768748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340412977607672,0.18038499396339444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20506291868752813,0.0,0.2613328355117457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zweiundsiebzig,2019/02/19,"Not sure what these symptoms are called So one symptom I had is hearing someone talk. Sometimes it's clear, sometimes muffled. Often it's coming from birds, cows, cats or trees. When it happens I sometimes can't distinguish it from real voices, so I check if the radio is still on or I ask other people if they need help. I thought this was called hearing voices, but my therapist said it's not and people in psychosis hear voices in their head and that I just hear animals. &#x200B; The other one is feeling Tetris blocks rotating in my head, a dagger stabbed through the skull into the mouth, electric current flowing through the body and brain hemispheres tearing apart like a piece of cloth. I think this is called cenesthopathy, but I'm not sure.",7.757859712230218,8.088488194244608,6.466825539568343,79.64541816546766,62.7410071942446,8.388848920863309,36.79946043165468,7.645422480735847,2.822402158273382,605,27,103,5,8,180,91,139,0.075,0.862,0.064,-0.3557,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,0,7,0,8,8,6,0,3,26,21,12,0,3,10,0,1,1,0,0,2,8,0,0,12,5,0,1,4,1,1,2,4,0,0,2,4,9,11,3,10,17,1,11,0,0,0,0,13,6,0,5,4,69,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281836610124997,0.14375379657660875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11059941461221393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314104341022054,0.0,0.13206775611371913,0.3624085837299693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190947520311357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05981867603873507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046169190667274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242830582210789,0.0,0.5333543434206787,0.0,0.07929749802604001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05779795672508066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772182471738689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16033336338639073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16403589291129772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134657245469503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253535985479966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10023963256471123,0.0,0.351020675424228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944787048813598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223002547480766,0.2459288524470524,0.0,0.0950892579039582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373614836911336,0.0,0.07580521072313119,0.0,0.0939211332070894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14375379657660875,0.0 schizophrenia,goatsoapings,2019/02/19,"hppd? schizophrenia? pleasee help hi, i posted in this community a while ago, i was really panicked and basically spilled my whole life story when i wrote it. its really long but to ""summarize"", i was severely depressed and anxious my whole life, i tried to kill myself and it didn't go well, i came out of it feeling completely different, after this happened i did copious amounts of awful shitty drugs like dxm and vicodin and other things i dont want to mention but i tapered off them and was clean for 2 years (i didn't mention the 2 years in my last post) this summer i ate an edible and it was a really shitty experience (this is important) about a month after that experience i had to take a blood test because i was sick and i passed out during the test, which is normal for people, but the next day i was taking a bath and i felt the way i did during the test, like i was about to pass out, my vision going all blurry and dark, and i freaked out. the next three months after that consisted of me constantly having like, weed visuals like colors and the same awful anxious feeling in my chest, i'd get dxm visuals like geometry in my eyes and i couldnt sleep and was convinced i was going to die every time i drifted off. if i closed my eyes too long the blackness would slowly change colors and get whiter and whiter and it would be accompanied with that same drifting feeling and it literally would keep me jolting awake for hours. it felt like i was tripping everyday and i was 100% convinced that whenever the visuals got worse, if i didn't stop moving i would die, i would come home from class and end up walking miles past my house because i would be so scared that if i didn't stop walking i would literally fucking die. and im scared still. i feel like i've gotten used to the feelings but things are escalating again and im so fuckinv scared all the time im scared all the fucking time and things are getting worse again i see different things now the geometry in my eyes start to become like animal shapes when i stare at them for too long and i have to force myself to look away so that they dont fully form, im scared if i let them form then itlll take up my vision and ill die. I started off typing this somewhat calm but typing it all out is fucking making me so goddamn anxious and i just want to know what this is i did so much research and a couple days ago i found out theres this phenomenon called hallucinogen persisting perception disorder and that was very inline for what i was feeling and seeing about a month ago but now things are different, i dont feel real, i get extremely paranoid doing anything i cant go outside i cant do anything without thinking im going to die and it isn't totally because of the visuals anymore. im scared to drink the tap water in my house because im afraid its been laced i cant go out to eat im afraid the foods laced i cantdo FUCKING ANYTHING ANYMORE I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHAT THIS IS AND EVERYONE KEEPS TELLING ME ITS SOMETHING I KNOW IT ISNT i just want a fucking answer just an explanation please. please. and to everyone who responded to that last post thank you but the situation is different now and i need someone to tell me what the fuck is going on in my brain ",4.1837824328323885,5.432974149922725,5.2445657535598045,81.9803275346115,71.02472952086553,8.22663027393206,28.44911046071887,8.656518465578396,2.0997283633134924,2573,95,504,44,47,848,262,647,0.201,0.7020000000000001,0.09699999999999999,-0.9982,4,0,3,0,0,1,37.0,0,1,4,1,24,31,7,8,28,2,55,24,7,2,5,106,111,53,6,18,16,0,9,8,0,7,6,0,3,0,41,44,5,4,16,2,0,17,14,17,1,1,30,19,75,14,58,70,14,89,0,1,10,6,15,25,6,5,51,338,116,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12405745796458333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15810395419650494,0.09252869889891743,0.0,0.0,0.11516713627948268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0438292908455617,0.0,0.0,0.113749836239599,0.05152135419601569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05207692339853517,0.047634952969712034,0.05335526995521947,0.0,0.0,0.049349604756129255,0.040184917877817736,0.048911726970540366,0.05041216955409802,0.0,0.0,0.051617432179047566,0.0,0.0601708916153442,0.0,0.04017965018455477,0.0,0.2420771176519113,0.19495764104867594,0.05346503942439661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16402065791647413,0.04569932380373304,0.054099288624021705,0.04773468355483761,0.0,0.0,0.041318129171665975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039304708938052095,0.08915231146059191,0.0,0.0912654699110423,0.0,0.0,0.16511379394013775,0.033326830319752115,0.08958279535867654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056409468419161425,0.05114941076617141,0.0,0.25876351337056913,0.09749097680834537,0.0,0.18558623002920835,0.0,0.037310334848316716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0412525164411631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03126856889157521,0.0,0.04679383925603476,0.0,0.04594093715954276,0.10765587034651007,0.0,0.0,0.4031207792800727,0.0,0.0,0.08292947866322957,0.05161140769268162,0.0,0.07691300076642935,0.0760520917845027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047702872945546065,0.06590066982787511,0.1823270026559469,0.0,0.0,0.12385157271788567,0.03917432259867661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031139294237945026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170695925818801,0.0495816580426862,0.03429318038516256,0.0345904472114563,0.0,0.0,0.0992257900800053,0.0,0.04570717892575325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04453278506660956,0.032341295412016864,0.0,0.0,0.10241556998872517,0.0,0.0,0.1340336595708526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05309801017089135,0.08965571772288185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802292418579479,0.0,0.0743481564889229,0.0,0.0,0.05270131806550165,0.0,0.0,0.05243665053403727,0.046683775518169116,0.0,0.039526465960963736,0.03591351484588507,0.0,0.0,0.06603834108351789,0.0,0.03725481844836374,0.07800312046783467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10522517560295774,0.0,0.08154846162344409,0.04294913098533187,0.0,0.0,0.15496121927546572,0.02989149106644233,0.0,0.0,0.08160611981310004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031672345783987865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04029069569020847,0.0,0.03849120603431075,0.11006171608704736,0.03702866639540591,0.0,0.0,0.04194402921061685,0.0,0.0,0.10416630872220728,0.0,0.04496901759839462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09508084487001682,0.2319721754052473,0.0,0.0,0.06008225100886633 schizophrenia,badatlife666,2019/02/19,Anyone get voices right when they're waking up? I hear voices in my head as if I'm wearing headphones and it's audible but only lasts a few minutes. It doesn't always happen but anyone else experience the same? I usually forget what the voices say but it's usually just random things.,2.581309523809523,5.1785183214285695,4.696428571428573,78.01523809523812,80.07142857142857,6.590476190476192,21.833333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.4699976190476192,230,7,38,4,6,79,44,56,0.055,0.945,0.0,-0.4039,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,3,0,0,9,5,7,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,3,5,2,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,4,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20404799890953734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429359835947185,0.2512634133021172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048551798260523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398784620334265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281206660181391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21685288441642195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25167302118379964,0.0,0.2763879609975669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19989223557905805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18650571786554374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20942199485961005,0.0,0.19501386584708744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629175152041849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5401644405748551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rdalt19,2019/02/19,"Need advice - friend showing schizo like symptoms Hi There, &#x200B; recently my friend has been showing symptoms such as - 1. social withdrawl - he stays in the room for the whole day, except for couple of things where he attends school classes for couple of hours and a probable walk for few mins. 2. He is struggling to talk - talks very few words with great difficulty, it takes a long time for him to speak/respond to a question 3. gets irritated if he doesnt find the required thing, even for simple things like earphones/headset 4. smiles in between conversation without proper context 5. &#x200B; &#x200B; we have consulted a local doctor, where they say its probably schizophrenia. is this schizophrenia or bpd? what is his condition? they also said **Electroconvulsive therapy** (**ECT**) might improve the condition. Is it good to take? we are unable to identify how critical is his condition. Need advice. &#x200B; Thanks &#x200B; ",4.816605293440734,8.362275746835447,4.164073647871117,77.9998849252014,82.67088607594937,6.417031070195629,31.23245109321059,7.686295010490155,2.9245341772151905,760,38,108,14,22,227,113,158,0.06,0.7829999999999999,0.158,0.9541,0,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,2,0,2,1,7,8,0,1,8,0,11,3,0,1,0,16,18,6,0,3,4,0,0,2,2,1,3,2,1,0,8,4,0,1,2,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,2,8,7,20,15,3,15,0,0,0,0,22,6,0,4,8,68,16,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15515636808220362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06348749542171787,0.0,0.4300906955241565,0.4823326925250072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09998788811197336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17568522663331448,0.0,0.051199450863333336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812581857164265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05243580205795729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256026867299806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226717609986766,0.0,0.04147756782986052,0.0,0.0,0.06658787429467923,0.0,0.0875268468870459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07818234669853791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07757108265254181,0.0,0.0,0.07025692259144219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08421937004420982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11773213624057755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17118991848733967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08893404626635934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838723378886743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07551728638222044,0.06313345926012208,0.0,0.08034608457000753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092726729002529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08461829862603971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08299480406788362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650315030214283,0.11938156060153612,0.12762002503517592,0.0,0.07309088705428475,0.0907884416728584,0.0,0.15822792288475634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04629246699803073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06550438456596101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08863517993270731,0.0,0.07652833272340091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4823326925250072,0.0 schizophrenia,hucow-cutie,2019/02/19,"Anyone randomly make bird noises or similar things? Whenever I notice my other schizophrenia symptoms getting bad I notice I do weird things like make bird noises, scream or laugh. No reason, it just happens without thought",6.4904054054054034,10.081996351351354,5.558040540540541,71.68949324324326,71.97297297297297,6.943243243243244,33.57432432432432,8.07648339933343,3.45105945945946,183,9,22,3,4,55,29,37,0.22899999999999998,0.633,0.138,-0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,9,6,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,4,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,14,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18108788869371786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21624112579588586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353086407793054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22901901739492736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12652667823423194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3457481474574802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5897108289198504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662790595336068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26918391708974976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3441154066167453,0.0,0.0,0.2056046558395228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24965168460179304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bobobmaxification,2019/02/19,"Long time on injections (abilify) no more symptoms I used to post on here fairly often, but it’s been over a year. I’ve been on injections since December of 2016. I don’t hallucinate anymore although I get paranoid sometimes. I occasionally still have intrusive sexual thoughts. Anyone, I thought I would see if anyone wants to chat about life, the illness and everything.",5.47909090909091,8.236038727272732,6.042424242424243,71.3336363636364,70.81818181818181,9.854545454545457,35.24242424242424,10.125756701596842,4.418442424242425,300,16,47,9,6,97,54,66,0.126,0.8740000000000001,0.0,-0.7684,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,1,0,9,11,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,6,0,8,6,1,9,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,4,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551393022110774,0.3597735270272724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23121459936123756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13441116156799532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817149826508948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276728137108861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24639025356563926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20500814334357514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21281356051953293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25444321039516965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20545341058561245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26739846592997424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40848183022181184,0.1500142025341683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22219571022453707,0.0,0.0,0.1517424851790038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18275478595005445,0.0,0.0,0.16567123260232394 schizophrenia,idkthrowthekwhdjsn,2019/02/19,"Music I think I'm skitzoaffective. Music just randomly plays in my head for no reason. It's usually clips. Right now I can hear the full house song. If I focus on it I can almost hear it. I don't hear it like I would hear someone else's voice next to me, but it is louder than my own thoughts. Does it get worse from here? It seems like these past few years have been ramping up. ",0.3825694444444423,2.552577562499998,1.8891666666666644,97.3502777777778,85.875,5.055555555555556,16.38888888888889,6.42735559955562,-0.5107777777777778,295,6,69,3,9,95,60,80,0.13,0.85,0.02,-0.8161,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,7,1,1,1,0,10,16,2,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,6,0,0,8,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,6,9,3,7,13,3,10,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,4,7,41,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16691452000699655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14587028676434444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13924690727561193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870878955380391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710705576217843,0.0,0.7514805104718996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923362242892409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16287122645493546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17727518020779914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15912309675686231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138360704142672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423511239718295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517470094393568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14123468043051154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10680730203731928,0.0,0.1323321015329082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18358390506448907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698698886151628,0.11841077424097447,0.0,0.0,0.10734197093617567 schizophrenia,EitherOther01,2019/02/19,"Am I hearing voices? Is this serious? I'm aware that no one here can tell me what is going on with me. I am curious what the opinion of someone who perhaps is more knowledgeable about or has experienced auditory hallucinations is on this. I'm going to go talk to my counselor, because I have been doing pretty bad in school and in life in general. I think I may be hearing voices. I'm wondering if I actually am, or I'm just being silly. I feel embarrassed to bring up the possibility, but I'm not sure if this may escalate later, making it better to say something now. Probably almost 2 years ago I started to get these thoughts that weren't mine. I'm not a religious person, so I find this strange, but I thought the reason why this was happening was because I was being possessed. There were a few times where they got particularly intrusive and vexing. After a while though I got somewhat used to them and even began taunting them back at times. Recently however, they have decided to evolve ,It sound like they are coming from outside my head. I think. I don't know. It's kind of confusing. Their were a couple of times where they got to me. Again, I think. I can't tell if they are real or not. I was walking around outside and when someone starts saying ""Come here. Come over here."" I got spooked and started walking a little faster. I heard it a few more times and eventually looked up. There was no one following me. On another occasion I was on my way to the kitchen when my dad, so I thought, said ""You're disgusting."" I had no idea why he would say that. I didn't get why he would be so mean. I assumed he was behind me, but again there was no one. I went looking for him and it turns out he was in the garage. I really don't want to ,but is this something I should bring up to the counselor? Should I just wait until she appoints me somewhere, and I should mention this to the person there? I've got no one to talk about this to and I've got no clue what to do. 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I still haven't had an appointment between now and then, my parents say my next appointment isn't for a while, so I'm mainly here to ask questions. In the past month or so, often times, when I'm sitting with friends at school but generally be not talking to them, I'll hear people at school saying really awful things about me right next to me. Insulting everything about me, especially stuff I'm insecure about. It sounds exactly like them too. I'll later find out that they said nothing like that. Not even similar sounds. I don't know if they're just messing with me everyday of my life or if it's my own head messing with me. Do any of you know what this possibly is? I mean, you can never know for sure I guess, but I want to hear your takes. 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Tired of seeing my high school classmates as therapists at my clinic The shame is real. I sit in the waiting room and other therapists (there are a lot as this is a community clinic) are getting their clients. I keep seeing people from high school as successful therapists. I avoid their glances but it is really disheartening having people know I am struggling like I am. The paranoia doesn't help. When I entered college I wanted to be a therapist - now I am an adult on disability. ,3.867136311569301,6.306962907216494,5.036013745704466,78.15328751431845,74.56701030927834,8.02245131729668,28.30355097365407,8.841846274778883,2.601992898052693,410,17,71,9,9,135,67,97,0.18899999999999997,0.754,0.057,-0.9037,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,1,3,6,0,3,7,0,11,3,0,0,0,10,18,6,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,1,3,1,0,3,1,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,0,3,13,2,12,17,2,15,0,1,3,0,4,10,0,1,3,53,16,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08003085128738414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10267412508751343,0.3236886823448928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361544830407134,0.0,0.0,0.08418437791776788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483659366711512,0.0,0.13526180027723106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13022917290928565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21239310453509927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17435373384335004,0.09813179498993302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100550915676718,0.24413115757998274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16013824265753038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7114206884095405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760592480737118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903502367189614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wtfbrainwtf,2019/02/19,Auditory hallucinations? So I'm wondering if me ruminating on past events means I am having auditory hallucinations. I was working a job where I was sexualized and berated now I constantly think about that place and the voices in my head are basically negative comments that i was receiving. Everything were super sexual. I am constantly angry and sometimes i laugh/talk to myself. Lol. ,5.835194805194807,9.213165030303033,8.290173160173161,52.41954545454547,72.93939393939394,12.862337662337664,35.18614718614719,11.491704259439757,6.309487445887445,316,17,43,15,7,113,50,66,0.107,0.7909999999999999,0.102,-0.0772,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,2,1,8,1,1,0,0,7,12,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,1,10,1,4,8,0,10,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,5,34,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5686192580152704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23645065938670384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700089038966079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610788039213271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286584963354807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511516507413495,0.0,0.0,0.2748757645674812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602053029549909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21146386147279006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16857911117008095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853126956651762,0.1915345420180754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwaway627726,2019/02/19,"Do you ever feel like you’re being watched through your own eyes? What I mean is, do you ever feel like there are real people “tuning in” to your mind and observing what you do through your perspective. For me it feels like friends and people I know are sitting in their bedrooms and just mentally tuning into me and watching what I do from my perspective. They can’t hear what I’m thinking but they can see what I’m doing. Sometimes I don’t even want to look at my genitals because they‘ll see them.",5.802727272727271,6.103608818181819,5.7439898989898985,83.26931818181819,66.87878787878788,8.620202020202019,32.66161616161617,8.344100000000001,2.380870707070708,399,16,78,5,6,125,61,99,0.0,0.907,0.09300000000000001,0.6956,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,6,5,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,13,1,1,0,2,18,26,5,0,1,2,0,3,3,1,1,0,1,1,0,6,5,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,10,19,4,10,24,1,7,0,0,6,0,13,4,0,0,5,58,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11794227670870147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12779026826178005,0.35002351051895125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934845811087017,0.4146617567114664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494804754663511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180635525377337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10633034406934057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28357045394008795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624726311192918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21075405421160126,0.0,0.0,0.19498012523446606,0.0,0.195357432995751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682663035798949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22022010458338007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.308353528595086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19135450054031053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12397276786115392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11411822471929076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,michaeljcoffey238957,2018/11/10,"Ask me how Schizophrenic people are Psionic Hi, &#x200B; My name is Michael J Coffey. I have been diagnosed with Schizophrenia and I hear voices often. I don't believe I'm Schizophrenic. I believe I am Psionic. I have scored on the 98th percentile of the ACT exam and I'm starting a startup. [coffeyindustries.com](https://coffeyindustries.com) &#x200B; I recommend everyone with a schizophrenia diagnosis to refuse neuroleptic treatment. It is my view that neuroleptics are generally poisonous substances, and that they have no positive effects. [https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/21983498](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/21983498)",12.682297979797985,17.655026977272733,8.06878787878788,54.62873737373738,57.63636363636364,9.82020202020202,43.868686868686865,9.994966539143718,6.03336717171717,546,30,54,13,9,148,63,88,0.099,0.8270000000000001,0.07400000000000001,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,48.0,0,0,1,1,2,1,1,0,4,0,10,4,0,2,0,11,15,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,3,11,0,5,14,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,1,2,39,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4197343760580473,0.470718417897071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810775878842938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43645324401999214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19659516411301173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18508275879026545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183070279640572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13428291604874318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13709749252068207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.470718417897071,0.0 schizophrenia,academc,2018/11/10,"High-Functioning Schizophrenia Hi all. I'm writing as someone who has not been diagnosed as schizophrenic but who has recently taken an interested in its cognitive characteristics in the digital age. I don't believe myself to be schizophrenic in the neuropsychological sense but I am curious about its epistemological status as a form of thinking, especially in its fracturing of traditional modes of thought. On that note, I'm writing to ask what members of the community think of what has been called ""High-Functioning Schizophrenia."" Here are some articles that delve into the topic: * [New York Times](https://www.nytimes.com/2013/01/27/opinion/sunday/schizophrenic-not-stupid.html) * [Vice](https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/5g98bn/what-its-like-to-be-a-high-functioning-schizophrenic) * [Scientific American](https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/diary-of-a-high-function/) What is missing from these articles is *content* about what is useful about being schizophrenic. The articles seem to suggest that a fair number of schizophrenics can get by and succeed in life, but they don't go into quite enough detail about the ""unique abilities"" that they abstractly claim some schizophrenics possess. It occurs to me, for instance, that paranoia or hallucinations can be quite useful as forms of contradiction against which ""objective reality"" can be judged, assessed, measured, and observed. If there are episodes in which the ""unreal"" makes itself known, then perhaps it can be said that the very unreality of those episodes can help us better articulate reality. Positive psychology (a field in which I've tangentially worked) tries to examine psychological conditions without assuming them as mental deficiencies *a priori* and instead looks to fully explore their positive characteristics as well; this is in part what I am hoping to do here. Does anyone here have any instances or anecdotes about the usefulness of their experiences along these lines? 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Mulder and Scully are back. Its been awhile, but I've found recourse in the unknown and unexplained. For what its worth, I know what to do. Or at least I think I do. Society has rejected me and I no longer feel amongst the same wavelength as everyone else. I find to be human is to be self-limiting. There has to be more here. Something...else. And I need to know what it is.",0.33152245345016595,2.7347705421686754,1.711763417305587,96.22937568455644,90.56626506024095,5.427820372398687,20.79846659364732,6.980632752743323,0.5133469879518082,317,11,70,5,11,101,52,83,0.09,0.8809999999999999,0.028999999999999998,-0.7096,0,1,2,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,13,0,0,0,0,14,19,7,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,6,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,7,0,10,13,4,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,54,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379985619281431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5171215063337751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957556320316124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15650049956677214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28289185405314515,0.0,0.0,0.3393681231895039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3402036025830286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22950206023099026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3228925053493009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382804014322505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19832524110450592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bocadillo91,2018/11/10,"Thought on medication and dying I basically had the option of taking medication or winding up dead, in jail, or homeless. I was in college when I got sick, and the state that my mind was in over the next few years was at times so disturbing that I was banned from my workplace and my parents were nervous around me. Yes. I got help, I got medication. I recovered. But as I look at the life I had when I was 21 before this all started, and my life now- I wonder if it would have just been better to have died or something back then. I gained so much weight from meds that I’m unrecognizable from what I was before. I haven’t dated anyone since before I got sick, or 6 years ago. I had to leave my college, leave my friends, leave a city i loved, and struggle for three years before I found the right meds. I’m back to my old self but in a state so much worse than what I was before. So yes, I took medication. But am I just going to wind up as this pathetic individual later in life because of the damage this mental illness has done to me? What’s better? Being cured and living a pathetic life or just dying when you’re young? Just so you know I’m not advocating for anyone to die young so they don’t have to go through life with mental illness. Thanks, ",3.3817027863777085,4.591728000000003,4.6371517027863804,85.72086687306502,72.92156862745098,7.25077399380805,24.40144478844169,7.669130373188453,1.0364509803921569,980,28,208,12,19,324,127,255,0.198,0.715,0.086,-0.9845,1,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,1,3,17,9,0,3,9,2,22,15,0,0,1,31,41,27,5,2,14,1,1,0,1,1,13,0,0,1,10,8,1,1,4,0,0,3,3,4,0,1,20,2,32,5,31,19,4,37,0,1,1,1,7,13,0,8,19,142,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07690927123994612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12133200464234666,0.0,0.0,0.07723656774254936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334292331351291,0.0,0.052889305200105284,0.0,0.3691403255513513,0.0,0.0,0.15346786307184354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36018100015153365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878764122597015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09513004629279027,0.06703210001552748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861767929081182,0.0,0.2775659643506425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05815473456308405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04768212193669357,0.0,0.0,0.27560526715537315,0.0,0.0,0.3064128050326364,0.0,0.0,0.07661242873939897,0.0,0.07285822195170813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830608544987508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19274602867101429,0.34961431760293776,0.17487136316607338,0.0,0.08760487914219738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12756009458177808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09227236308646278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09104211596312264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09633892484088916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07409426735033073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09051168003873394,0.0,0.0,0.07177041659030388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06679362046699062,0.0,0.0,0.06141058469953086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09070247238249886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06523422053375638,0.0,0.0,0.07987878565302886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06887933046423135,0.05059161542175916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963957658142762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10565273278405732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09408967961226372,0.0,0.0,0.08841788242089013,0.061633229994774434,0.0,0.0,0.1676156352800636 schizophrenia,sepi556,2018/11/10,"How many miligrams of CBD needed to be equal to 1mg of risperdal? How many miligrams of CBD needed to be equal to 1mg of risperdal? I'm currently on 2mg risperdal and ordered CBD capsules from cbdsky ",3.898699186991866,5.123444073170732,3.554634146341467,93.91943089430895,71.6829268292683,6.442276422764228,33.178861788617894,6.42735559955562,1.6212861788617892,161,8,35,1,3,48,22,41,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,5,5,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,17,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8071627359300536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5903289910938733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,harry-hi,2018/11/10,should I take action to prevent symptoms I kinda have a grasp on what (personally) causes symptoms. should I let the symptoms run through or prevent them ,4.701111111111112,7.915480592592592,4.527407407407409,78.63333333333334,76.40740740740742,5.0814814814814815,34.925925925925924,6.42735559955562,2.5290592592592596,124,7,18,1,3,38,21,27,0.0,0.905,0.095,0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,1,0,8,5,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832689437373844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28197080291840565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240772338545179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8598226229908515,0.2073280246374658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LostProof,2018/11/10,"Just Had A VERY Troubling Experience With a Schizophrenic Friend. Looking for Advice or Insight. I have a buddy who I have every reason to believe is schizophrenic or schizoaffective. We served together in Iraq and have worked a series of jobs together since then although we no longer have regular contact. The last time we did have regular contact was a few years ago. At that time, he didn't evidence symptoms of any form of mental illness. Shortly thereafter, though, he abruptly left the city we live in, moved out to the country, and became hyper-religious (when, in the past he had been anything but). When I say hyper-religious, I mean that, at one point, he confided in me that he was convinced God had chosen him personally to lead the world to redemption. About a year later, he comes back to our city, homeless and still convinced he was on a mission from God. I did what I could to help him out at the time. Provided money and made sure he had shelter. Then we lost contact. Cut to a year ago, he shows up on social media. No hit of the religious mania, engaged to be married, starting his own company. Occasionally, his posts on Facebook would border on eccentric, but that was it. We started to have contact again, mainly via the occasional text. Yesterday, I get a message from him on LinkedIn. Keep in mind this was literally prompted by nothing. The last time I had contact with him a month ago, it was a few innocuous texts. > You should shoot it straight with me in person soon. Moves are in motion as you knew I would do. Got bad news from very high places on some of the guys. I know you're covering so quit the bullshit. Don't patronize me again LostProof. I've always been fair to you. > people really thought they would get away with it. Ok. everybody is missing the big who the fuck is calling the shots. be wise LostProof. Don't ask me stupid fucking questions. I'm pissed at you. You'll decide to make it right or not. I hope you do. Then he dropped me as a contact on LinkedIn and unfriended me on FB. The *really* troubling aspect of this incident is that all of his other postings on various social media are completely ""normal"". No hint of anything out of the ordinary. Certainly nothing like the message I received. It is literally like looking at two completely different individuals. First, is this something that happens with people with schizophrenia or similar illnesses? Can someone feign normalcy like that while still in the throes of an episode (for lack of a better term)? Second, should I take this as a real threat? Lastly, how do I help my buddy? I did some reading and one of the common bits of advice say to not try and talk someone out of their delusions just to be empathetic and let the person know you are there to support them. But how do you do that when *you* are the one they seem to be delusional about? Anyway, I would really appreciate any advice or insight. My buddy is a great guy. I've done what I could to help him out in the past but now...not so sure what to do. 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When I was 14, I was in class one day, and I looked up at my teachers and they were sending me physic messages telling me that I was a evil, stupid person. The psychic people have been telling me that for the past 11 years of my life, and there was a point were I truly believed it. I think deep down inside of me there was a single ounce of strength that held on to hope. Some how I knew these experiences were not normal. I have the classic symptoms such as Paranoia, Delusions, and visual/auditory hallucinations. I was angry so I felt like the whole world owed my something for what these psychic people did to me. I didn't realize it at the time, but somehow I knew deep down that I would eventually see better days in my life. I remember sitting in my room on my 25th birthday and I thought, "" damn, these psychic people are getting old."" I made a decision to take back my life that day and have never turned back. My life was like being in an abusive relationship and I had to escape to be free. Right now, I feel like a mountain and the symptoms are like someone throwing a pebble at me. I am unshakable. I remember all of my messed up delusions but I knew that one day that there would be a moment of clarity for the rest of my life. &#x200B; Guys and girls, if you ever struggle, keep holding onto faith. You'll get stronger, I promise. Things will turn around, and when they do, you'll have the power to help people going to through the same situation as you. Love you all and stay strong!",3.9401923076923056,5.480346737179488,4.267820512820514,87.61884615384619,72.01282051282051,6.7384615384615385,28.06410256410256,7.1686216300943375,1.3554910256410255,1250,47,252,12,24,391,164,312,0.07200000000000001,0.757,0.171,0.9872,2,0,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,5,2,5,15,17,3,1,17,0,30,9,0,2,4,46,52,21,0,5,4,0,2,4,0,5,8,0,1,3,15,13,0,3,13,0,2,3,3,5,0,2,21,4,46,13,35,23,7,48,1,0,2,1,17,22,1,4,25,181,61,2,0.0,0.11269056160434135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305234401745322,0.1155698439380904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08466863859289399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21940264530595424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071571270208793,0.0,0.08411763633364665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453539906248251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08603302350349976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093036461018694,0.0,0.0,0.048090799818950335,0.0679470637239353,0.09132113444939108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099382772831224,0.0,0.054053571325022656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417449172996048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06375066043328198,0.0,0.0,0.09446633081304656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845387112614721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40307676751282095,0.18586502750481035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07986898749193973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08584107039400797,0.08999599188802936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07335519273578871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09318823810462423,0.0,0.0,0.199605244989866,0.0,0.1288988689405468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09079387255534664,0.26375098251963275,0.0830469465422064,0.0,0.0,0.08991030191220774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10211323846245376,0.21548363992978373,0.08122397107289361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07579086997235228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690834985270987,0.0,0.0,0.08058694078205815,0.07322082113334326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10137529259444836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943029678939304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19771275454302856,0.07151136830254304,0.0,0.16626179163618296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0631872862785176,0.06094306085542274,0.0,0.07550722809221536,0.05545978190348599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103592098413557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10618763843917192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351277465651926,0.0,0.1155698439380904,0.18374441098096367 schizophrenia,madeofmold,2018/11/10,"Quitting Smoking I have to try to quit cigarettes. They help me ground myself but that’s no good. They’re not good for you. Not to mention a drain on the wallet. I am otherwise unmedicated, un-therapy-ed. Wish me luck that this helps & doesn’t make a bad brain worse!",0.43611111111111,2.899754740740743,2.12027777777778,91.88375000000002,94.1851851851852,5.662962962962964,19.712962962962962,7.1686216300943375,0.64322962962963,212,7,45,4,8,69,45,54,0.171,0.526,0.304,0.8439,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,2,0,4,0,0,3,0,3,1,1,1,0,6,5,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,7,3,5,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,0,25,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27502243004077753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21193569906347184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28335588896065245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4257976094426793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34027098978158593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16943209822276914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5399544445292447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17233248643377982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29188956504501057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586723212803248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Dmc1968a,2018/11/10,"Schizophrenia whats your life like HI Everyone, I did up a video asking you what your life is like I would like to hear a video of your life see if anyone out there is similar to mine. Cheers, Dave",6.626097560975609,4.984619048780491,6.2196341463414635,86.98359756097562,65.82926829268294,10.151219512195123,27.81707317073171,8.841846274778883,1.5743073170731698,155,3,36,2,2,48,29,41,0.0,0.7509999999999999,0.249,0.8625,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,4,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,7,4,5,5,0,2,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,1,3,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20778482837188103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277809362483216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28395409849955444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3349267955957832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6296897405659309,0.4355397422380376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368022029383705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110976432676401,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PirateMudkip,2018/11/10,"Best ways to deal with and understand Schizophrenic partner? I’ll spare you the whole story but basically I’ve started a romantic relationship with a really close friend in June. Prior to this I was aware of her illness and it used to be fairly difficult to deal with since she would always think that she would scare me away and only recently has been telling me about the voices she hears and whatnot. Plus I’ve gotten much better at knowing what to say and what to do in general. I have always wanted to know and understand more about her condition but I never wanted to directly ask because I don’t know how touchy that would be for her. She’s honestly the love of my life and I want to do everything I can to at least somewhat understand what she’s going through. Lately it has been going really well but with her a really bad episode could happen at any time. If people here who are directly affected by Schizophrenia could inform me on some of the things that they can’t help to think and what they go through, that would be greatly appreciated. If you could also tell me what helps you when you’re having a sort of episode I guess to maybe give me an idea of what else I could do for her, I would also appreciate that. Thank you all so much!",5.469964285714287,6.2903566979591865,5.890446428571429,80.10424107142858,67.73469387755102,9.553571428571429,28.373724489795922,9.673873057562805,2.44855612244898,1001,32,194,21,16,322,136,245,0.067,0.757,0.17600000000000002,0.9846,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,2,2,9,11,0,1,9,0,26,4,0,3,2,51,50,19,0,14,5,0,0,0,2,5,3,3,0,1,16,14,0,0,10,0,0,3,3,3,1,0,4,3,31,8,36,34,9,20,0,0,0,1,32,8,0,6,8,148,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16633253642963292,0.17306747212540888,0.0,0.0,0.07072144532935587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09722304524897113,0.0,0.09770849312875536,0.0,0.08683305173683277,0.06339553343320507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10913831058026048,0.09197679008528767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321321889093849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21443243578103205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08687604954167917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09346569094381604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08034773233556979,0.0,0.0,0.09976328461623828,0.1773114723552838,0.0,0.0,0.1146569285156448,0.11456428920538035,0.0,0.09196409847099812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721204322359373,0.0,0.13941383443569316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11739982017876108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714618982401267,0.0,0.1173130116268619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07345607264952303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938612454706833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10447884516088732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15289934723487,0.0,0.0802088058818493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909431432903814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0720983429021209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19986919500813485,0.0,0.102684373774688,0.11165373051778513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270249395222448,0.10411902034887056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08602729469126412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07360952768697046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817957157981652,0.09574635566323024,0.0,0.0,0.06909090672788573,0.13327400435316364,0.0,0.0,0.060641417669892214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32479326250766644,0.0,0.08981991465185102,0.0,0.0,0.18402016475563066,0.08254788353320723,0.0,0.0,0.09350568560095414,0.0,0.0,0.11610880376658266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36938200246222586,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,salisalraja,2018/11/10,Is hospitalization automatic? I asked my parent to set up an appointment with a psychiatrist for symptoms. I dont see or hear anything but i have brief delusions and anxiety. Is hospitalization automatic? Im terrified of being force fed an anti-psych. I wanna make sure i dont end up in a position where ive lost free will bc i decided to see a doctor for minor symptoms. ,2.564166666666665,5.247770416666668,5.783888888888893,69.62500000000003,80.94444444444446,9.155555555555557,28.44444444444445,9.516144504307137,3.4775777777777765,298,14,52,10,8,109,52,72,0.152,0.7440000000000001,0.10400000000000001,-0.5362,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,5,0,8,4,0,1,1,8,15,3,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,2,3,8,3,10,11,0,7,0,1,2,0,3,4,0,1,1,34,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16120564687184716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17341043975095774,0.0,0.19700138284830251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21568810562847132,0.0,0.0,0.4939411595424789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186641654402809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375047453244357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276214178780444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230033511334724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14066196872949022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23398749529546195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358444152018222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19860778823486466,0.4380522644196269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,streetglow2000,2018/11/10,"What to do when anhedonic? Currently feeling anhedonic and nothing is pleasuring me, life seems empty- any advice? Currently suspected to have schizoaffective and am on abilify, lexapro and lithium. I find abilify is activating/stimulating somewhat, anybody else find this also?",9.61285714285714,13.580543857142858,9.857380952380954,43.09178571428575,62.80952380952381,14.676190476190474,50.97619047619048,12.602617957971056,9.407504761904764,230,17,23,11,4,76,34,42,0.163,0.8029999999999999,0.033,-0.7015,2,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,9,7,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,3,7,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3332150830070193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726925271368472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318873993458405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848564689231284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17241665312802565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6233241019427523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408539244854283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3271926379359463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31042784449770355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,notparanoid85,2018/11/10,When I hear voices in my head they also cause vibrations in my ear. Is this normal for anyone else? ,1.939,4.171886900000004,3.6500000000000017,86.70500000000001,80.0,6.0,15.0,7.1686216300943375,-0.03949999999999987,78,1,15,1,2,26,18,20,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,2,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977213077175154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603148115173665,0.3814565470169467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3824458325726879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110017033837817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3820783948463784,0.0,0.4195994787049167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3647665388654849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,manicpixi4200,2018/11/10,"How to cope with having a psychotic episode infront of newish friends I saw blood being poured down the walls and spilling out of my arms and I felt like I was being sliced open and when I closed my eyes all I cld see is blood I'm so fucking depressed and traumatized. And it was infront of a group of newish friends and I think it really freaked them out and they didn’t know how to help and they didn’t really understand. I just feel so disconnected from reality and feel like I hav no one here that understands how fucking awful psychosis is and how real the hallucinations feel. I was wondering if you guys ever experienced this and if so how you cope with it. A lil background I am diagnosed with bipolar 1 with psychotic tendencies., I thought I wld post it here tho cuz more ppl can relate to psychosis here than on the bipolar subreddit. This was such a bad episode ugh ",4.040476190476191,5.949566368421053,4.561875522138681,84.11118421052632,72.4502923976608,8.394486215538848,29.758145363408524,9.04235418022936,2.4819654135338345,703,30,139,15,14,223,98,171,0.121,0.799,0.08,-0.8031,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,3,0,16,10,2,0,7,1,13,9,4,6,2,41,28,24,0,2,3,0,4,2,2,0,3,0,0,1,7,19,0,0,10,0,0,0,3,6,0,1,9,8,19,4,17,17,2,10,0,1,3,2,10,7,2,3,4,97,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606466560382973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16571455251427208,0.1952827919293367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17403756543141735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918509211686357,0.13745119103301107,0.18473496879207826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972968071901663,0.3557429331204773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19050707041298787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12896222037345975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573846417274327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18799465349758832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13037578143678474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18426681015233806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189942658647124,0.24651379615552174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15331855088622715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12328268273385773,0.0,0.1527447672359128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4005920977629544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086504923148168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ilovemesomeleas,2018/11/10,"what was your first delusion/hallucination like? my mom is bipolar and schizophrenic. I have borderline personality disorder but am nervous i may be developing something more? I’m 22. Before, i was basically a poster child for BPD- the fear of abandonment, impulsivity, mood swings, etc. Ive completely isolated myself recently from family and friends. This took away many of my BPD “symptoms” since many are focused around relationships w other people/social interactions. HOWEVER, i am developing new/worsening “symptoms”: • I get into these zones i don’t realize i’m in until i’m out of them. during these, i usually experience VERY intense emotions. once i snap out of it, it’s like i’m waking up? i can’t remember my thought process while i was in that zone (which was typically irrational), i have no idea how much time has passed, i can suddenly hear (didn’t realize everything was dull before), the world physically looks brighter.... • i get very paranoid someone is trying to kill me. convince myself they’re hiding in my closets or slipped in while i wasn’t looking •i constantly feel like people are talking badly about me (when i can barely overhear their convo i make out words that i later realize they probably aren’t really saying, talking badly about me). thoughts??",4.681740412979352,7.7766838628318595,5.886924778761062,69.62841076696166,75.4159292035398,9.430383480825958,32.867994100294986,9.725611199111238,4.209289675516224,1027,53,157,32,24,341,152,226,0.187,0.7240000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.9786,2,0,1,0,0,1,40.0,0,1,3,1,5,13,1,2,3,0,24,5,1,2,0,22,38,9,1,0,2,1,1,3,1,1,4,2,1,2,10,7,0,1,8,0,0,2,6,7,0,1,10,5,31,5,21,26,3,25,0,2,2,0,15,12,0,2,14,101,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10762354120844768,0.0,0.0,0.11358626744778615,0.0,0.20188710156220133,0.0,0.0,0.2057480812513605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045298889179877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12675770914444265,0.13064619716918754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13855789473219154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359923214386927,0.0,0.0,0.13483158594325506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10865400364681324,0.11826000231889762,0.1139704868034478,0.1360422049018693,0.061128916941111576,0.08636850354766076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10283452470459148,0.0,0.0,0.09340435740693344,0.0,0.1263268918098408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362591732138627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13647746420134174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13375409559315976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17719181014933716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030452694047968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08069937101902022,0.2451402072620324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415925520860937,0.0,0.0,0.08887285839484882,0.0,0.0,0.11676261981000415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875085636841815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381443001716282,0.10556218479425306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13034690462320644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07744941137938967,0.0,0.11937073604144655,0.12979762649111826,0.1369521985184946,0.0,0.0,0.09614177126114837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10000685702659463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024352355991286,0.0930720534961113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513155654753044,0.0,0.19434409897801924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919566774468066,0.0704957375280425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13432049063875445,0.08208080645418672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331504451326416,0.19950459332808448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mehmesh,2018/11/10,Treatments for delusions? Hello! Has anyone had treatments for delusions? I have seen/read about many but I don’t know which ones have actually worked for others. If you have done/heard of any that have worked for you or a friend I’d really appreciate some advice. Or ones to stay away from I’d super appreciate. ,1.885235404896424,4.700163474576272,2.7666666666666693,86.90314500941618,92.22033898305084,5.334086629001884,18.419962335216574,6.937597516519254,0.5222753295668547,251,7,46,4,9,79,42,59,0.0,0.72,0.28,0.9651,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,3,1,2,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,6,8,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,4,2,9,7,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,4,0,31,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.2684017811231353,0.0,0.0,0.2687683242263543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18703831521959075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19231609420456475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584114599516177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814639455525033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21249713460708314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511561517718504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788499009378206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3727517996485565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751169062989505,0.0,0.17619925292590108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293158683742282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4004683963888673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sartreismydaddy,2018/11/10,First time hallucinating Started hearing voices/random sounds for the first time. I don’t know how to feel,5.134736842105267,8.317739578947375,4.883421052631579,76.97144736842105,74.26315789473685,5.905263157894738,25.28947368421053,7.1686216300943375,1.3702421052631577,88,3,14,1,2,27,17,19,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,2,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970685181438904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6630396353034624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4392748095739338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141955457453535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758659466061799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4545308906256357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,av0cat0,2018/11/10,"Redditors with schizophrenia, what types of therapy do you find to be helpful for your diagnosis and how are they beneficial? What are your goals in therapy? (I've also posted this in r/AskReddit).",5.665619047619046,8.206470800000005,6.491428571428576,69.30190476190478,69.57142857142857,10.380952380952381,34.52380952380953,10.504223727775694,4.468809523809524,158,8,25,5,3,52,30,35,0.0,0.836,0.16399999999999998,0.7236,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,4,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,6,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,20,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814630184546348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32168590215948223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23591198389020746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3370812678493903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8049959654037281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rrd0084,2019/10/05,Delusions questions I am schizoaffective but have a lot of questions about delusions... I recognize and have read some about delusions but are our delusions different from schizophrenia? Do they come and go? Any help is appreciated.,6.4564864864864875,10.39474437837838,4.517621621621622,75.85372972972975,78.18918918918921,7.284324324324325,37.12972972972973,8.238735603445708,4.0122800000000005,190,11,26,4,5,54,28,37,0.0,0.7929999999999999,0.207,0.8541,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,9,8,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,8,2,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,4,0,21,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217103934861096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2750093907541748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335528907305749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18143962869665128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139894899567236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271418668185302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.715275969661749,0.0,0.319340787657274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Telvanni1997,2019/10/05,"Smoking Do you guys get that little buzz from like your first cigarette of the day still? That sort of lightheaded feeling, especially if you’ve gone a while without a cigarette.",5.245520833333334,8.06846334375,5.16375,77.03958333333338,71.8125,9.266666666666666,32.541666666666664,9.725611199111238,3.711904166666667,145,7,24,4,3,45,27,32,0.0,0.887,0.113,0.3492,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,4,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,5,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760325747989833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21641591831234247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640671095088561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22361880159685926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42379954556934496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20910522782442814,0.428980844973283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3418112374239141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4125886580912901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,meltingneurons,2019/10/05,"Dealing with fighting a reality thats unclear? Hi all, I just joined this group after a bit of a battle with myself in accepting and trying to deal with my schizoaffective diagnosis. I spent nearly 10 months in a psychosis from 2017-2018 and after getting on injectables was okay, dropped them because I hated the side effects, and had another brief psychosis months later when the stress of life got to me. I am deeply struggling with the fact that what I see is concrete, there are clear pieces of evidence that should raise more pronounced fear or concern from others it seems, I show them to people, they acknowledge them and the oddness, and then go about their day. I fixate and start to spiral out until I can't deal with a blending of delusions and hallucinations mixed with fact to the point I can't stand straight and break down crying in frustration that what other people take for granted - a cohesive and understood layout of the world and reality - is so far removed. I feel like I'm peeking behind the curtain, like I almost have the ""admin"" code for life and then it all breaks apart. I haven't wanted to accept the diagnosis, but I'm scared that if I don't and adequately medicate up then I'm likely to tailspin into pending homelessness, pushing away the few people I have left that I have any trust in that care for me, slinging wild accusations that feel so right in NY gut but I can't express the connections or reasons for in an appropriate way or with confidence. I feel a shell of the person I once was and I'm scrambling to find purpose and a baseline to go from - does anyone else deal with this kind of mental back and forth? How do you make commitments to loved ones and keep them (i.e. I trust you implicitly) without feeling like a total fool when you can't tell if you really do have reason to not trust them? Does anyone just feel like the world's biggest idiot and that your perpetually doomed to almost understand everything but too stupid to do take the basic actions neurotypicals take for granted? Thanks so much for your help and insights, look forward to meeting everyone.",8.66818987341772,7.947250926582285,8.124651898734179,71.98976265822787,61.25316455696202,10.836708860759494,36.45886075949368,10.008157457239328,3.564541772151898,1696,66,296,29,20,536,218,395,0.113,0.753,0.134,0.9135,0,0,0,0,2,0,33.0,0,6,7,1,13,27,6,4,24,1,21,5,1,5,8,72,51,36,0,4,12,0,5,5,0,1,3,0,1,1,17,28,0,1,16,1,1,7,8,12,0,1,6,7,36,15,57,44,8,49,1,1,2,1,26,24,0,9,20,204,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20022146761076487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06798657271201328,0.10483272717592598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398099860659945,0.10243641960354563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093930003010303,0.07687476721582147,0.0,0.06094396152823538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10914703856195763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10193139201628876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10981807632108127,0.06447574123976753,0.4122802162525893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174977964143179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835164614013642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553059976918216,0.08985127444493342,0.0,0.0,0.11249990868689204,0.2527523564824685,0.21426693509291625,0.0,0.0,0.09137553290827713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052232922141909145,0.0,0.11363643424627795,0.0,0.07995931024680691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870482428947294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06701127746881952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08886256234361148,0.0,0.10410879908976667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10862336077040086,0.0,0.14123089823937038,0.2442141941201811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08395399899546603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902315324625289,0.0,0.066734230581444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007145085433609,0.10075149965443334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595985213992408,0.0,0.07349328439196885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064703383428268,0.06774579128503083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20793067262566456,0.08729449922330032,0.0,0.0,0.09450889054003972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06404668105989478,0.2055823383419412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537828511410192,0.0,0.0,0.10009262840551382,0.0,0.07966730042955031,0.09101367854102524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07076296988955716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452126799609713,0.10451579892155284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255067529149025,0.0,0.08738274220276762,0.09204374346272676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787660665822966,0.0,0.0,0.10407772189898766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05896797052799192,0.07935567012123325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09637253710700422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Rokelu,2019/10/05,"Early symptoms? To start, I am just curious if any have you have felt anything similar to what I’m feeling. I am a 23 year old male with no family history of schizophrenia. For the past 2 years I haven’t quite felt like myself. I have been struggling with anxiety (most of which has been health anxiety) which could explain a lot of what I have been feeling, but I’m afraid it could be something more. Now for the “symptoms.” My brain feels foggy, like I can’t keep my thoughts straight. I have also been having a tough time reading and comprehending which is relatively new. I have become much more withdrawn, which may be due to depression. There have been times I will see someone (real people, not a hallucination) and get real afraid thinking they have evil intentions. I also get really paranoid when people stare. I am always able to talk myself out of those thoughts and I know they’re ridiculous but it always sticks in the back of my mind. There have been a couple times where I’ll be talking and my mind basically shuts off and I have trouble finding words to complete what I am saying. I’ll also see things out of the corner of my eye. These things may be flies or just a shadow but it always moves quickly and last for a split second. I also feel like there may be bugs crawling on me, but this is rare and only lasts a second or two. Plus there are bugs in my apartment so that could be an explanation. There are more things I have experienced, but I can’t recall them at this point. I mean no offense by this post, I’m just simply looking for some insight. Thank you! Any thoughts would be appreciated.",3.835524698943232,5.7680782651757205,4.373370607028754,85.14950786434012,73.05750798722045,6.860113049889407,25.776480707790608,7.61054688173877,1.3387572868026538,1279,43,246,16,26,405,166,313,0.106,0.82,0.075,-0.8924,0,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,0,2,2,1,18,13,3,3,13,0,45,5,2,1,0,56,69,22,0,5,12,0,6,3,0,5,3,1,0,1,19,12,0,1,15,1,0,1,6,9,0,3,11,13,31,4,27,43,7,32,0,1,5,0,9,13,0,9,20,181,50,1,0.09725227302686304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31109043041321555,0.24276504562652504,0.0,0.0,0.13226976116162004,0.0,0.14879544534874642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08003033427041778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07478099493310032,0.0,0.0,0.1074074948351294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856569995573127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10196715796674154,0.0,0.0,0.23294407956741275,0.10760779033642788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837632402528855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168078777907684,0.0,0.1966946853849298,0.06947704328231392,0.18675486659757856,0.0,0.08888681567307426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10162059743398452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10337461850624458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644228873830369,0.0,0.0,0.05344730588890083,0.1585471652097309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14253764459660456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08166741573171693,0.0,0.0,0.08268040475324451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10593623580704074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19639414450093964,0.0,0.0,0.10336377533626248,0.07149161066469703,0.0,0.0,0.09392685130661547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10204990094849828,0.0,0.0,0.07396473599219118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283829892820812,0.13484496182735148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09193483272301996,0.0,0.09314079454846803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10343976338297617,0.09727859087311344,0.22138875587345108,0.062302296387782376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0773389109313802,0.0,0.0,0.15499494061634986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824015353401065,0.07486955109225463,0.0,0.0,0.06883565940311588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166919149997787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20216469781037247,0.0,0.15633538641672864,0.0,0.08953682674818107,0.0,0.0,0.19383026652193944,0.06231532968094044,0.0,0.23162232479704986,0.17012574745207934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500133943928142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06908522445425616,0.0,0.0,0.12525455057656093 schizophrenia,bob-the-pussy-slayer,2019/10/05,"hello fuck schizophrenia, it fucked me up and ruined my life. i can’t fucking do this shit anymore, so let it all go, they win, and i lose. what’s it matter anymore.",0.4132352941176478,2.6813123823529423,1.9544117647058847,96.1898529411765,86.94117647058823,3.4000000000000004,20.264705882352946,3.1291,-0.5246823529411762,127,4,27,0,4,41,29,34,0.396,0.498,0.106,-0.9369,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,2,1,7,4,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,1,4,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,6,1,2,0,2,0,3,2,1,4,0,0,18,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4990106434162327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.697760526389523,0.0,0.0,0.14298189975976927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572633313191248,0.17770235636996196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814599440976535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25824901292883085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,VugilK,2019/10/05,"I guess I‘m still crazy. So, story is: after not taking my medication for 10 months, moving into a new country, breaking up my 5 years long relationship, fucking myself up with substances, and declaring war on everyone who ever loved me, it spiraled down again to this. A week ago i got myself to my doc, and he immediately called a psychiatrist, and after an hour of interview, on my paper there was again: Schizoaffective disorder, bipolar type. And since 3 days I‘m taking my usual stuff...30mg aripiprazole, 15mg olanzapine, 600mg valproic acid and 4mg akineton each day. I forgot how hard it is to even stand up with these, but i‘ll just have to get used to them again...but on the other side i forgot what is it like to sleep deep. And to hear the nature and city around me...not just stupid shit noise. The main thing here is that i thought i recovered. I thought i‘m through somehow, like i totally forgot that this won‘t go away. I shouldn‘t be surprised, and still i was looking at my doc big eyes when he said they diagnosed me again. I just want your experiences, did anyone of you feel like that somewhen you were normal, just to be told you‘re still bat-shit crazy? Thank you for reading this. Have a nice day.",5.237043991416312,6.368211575107299,5.38379560085837,82.40084361587984,68.4420600858369,8.22843347639485,28.296405579399142,8.472884824447931,1.907446566523605,959,32,185,14,16,302,148,233,0.084,0.8190000000000001,0.09699999999999999,0.4854,0,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,4,2,0,19,11,4,0,8,0,14,8,3,2,2,34,38,12,1,3,6,0,2,3,0,2,3,2,0,0,14,13,0,3,3,1,0,2,3,4,0,0,12,7,27,7,28,22,3,39,0,0,2,2,16,14,2,2,24,122,41,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11866769622855315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09360503121125062,0.0,0.0,0.1191727006489749,0.0,0.0,0.12577529132006404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13669625885333667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590052659729815,0.0,0.0,0.1358752532208166,0.0,0.0,0.15342664184864735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841988621310276,0.12109309806204073,0.0,0.12791854179576026,0.0,0.13095056803418806,0.0,0.0,0.06768870488576087,0.09563676964364183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12376067712292732,0.06994156061270687,0.0,0.07608141788482205,0.0,0.10706808493278126,0.0,0.14747292060573333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11992124392964865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15088124287456434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318350044749439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19620639045390809,0.0,0.0,0.11847075580825185,0.1124171014875925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12082292045157868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13485996216575052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10685377344786816,0.14228264624277273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292925003337046,0.0,0.0,0.13116419713614993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339062479787234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14372630293602845,0.0,0.0,0.1273410457545378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748313052769987,0.1107386646216368,0.0,0.13396670017791942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207263147329844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15324914575122348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20130719069889,0.0,0.0,0.12324952919403034,0.0,0.0,0.08893729340207965,0.0,0.0,0.21255568625672128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12791854179576026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11562071596778248,0.1474389149520434,0.0,0.07896000674989448,0.0,0.1073824558105873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08620790432627551 schizophrenia,Maveriqueee,2019/10/05,"feeling more and more hopeless/helpless I'm not really looking for advice, this is more for me just to rant I suppose because I don't have very many people to talk to. I'm turning into a nervous wreck, none of the medications I try seem to work because my hallucinations are persisting, and it feels like my delusions are coming back. Aswell of theyre all making my anxiety worse and giving my heart problems which is my biggest problem/fear, most recent being seroquel and a trip to the emergency room for what the doctors think was heart arrhythmias, now I'm scared its going to happen again and its causing me shortness of breath and heart pain from panic or just the medications themselves. I'm having a very hard time accepting what is going on and im terrified all the time now. seems like the light is fading and im trying my best to keep my spirits up but its really hard. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I'm just a wreck. I applaud all the people out there suffering from this illness who have the power to face each day with a positive outlook. I strive to reach that one day but its getting harder and harder. rant over.",6.293619909502263,6.457073656108598,6.6843438914027145,77.41800904977377,65.83257918552036,9.15294117647059,32.384615384615394,8.841846274778883,2.644820814479638,902,34,166,13,13,293,128,221,0.17,0.7390000000000001,0.091,-0.9326,1,0,0,0,0,1,18.0,0,0,0,4,8,10,0,3,13,0,14,12,6,2,3,35,34,12,0,1,7,0,4,2,0,0,5,0,1,0,12,14,1,1,6,0,0,4,5,6,0,1,1,6,16,4,23,32,10,22,1,1,1,0,3,8,0,4,12,110,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11591983270790784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09074847013747342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09121597599484826,0.0,0.14462646543523774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12449053780284815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12186145123819808,0.0,0.10218568797290016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15300775217089127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214186102810262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12138388571679358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133487090001805,0.11996161401995772,0.08474634922819743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0619771238963387,0.11379674917838067,0.13483563767091766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049004700213797,0.0,0.21253096807452676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4217167012269717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562726038917992,0.0,0.0,0.10544012875927583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11590922158334953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961585881024787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918369310520479,0.12026801878671407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23900617917535455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08038396336549271,0.0,0.12622629538001473,0.13918190563891406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644804914948459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22701788434144754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519895469916094,0.0,0.11712874101857002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11876519592269512,0.0,0.0,0.21598508373219227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11871154578444053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953469853355857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07601067117885779,0.0,0.0,0.13834340404784382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16107836544510765,0.1290308883705191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957575417464701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08636105026108888,0.0,0.12088990172418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LeaveThemAllBehind13,2019/10/05,"Being treated differently after diagnosis. I was diagnosed last year. Since diagnosed I've been treated differently. The major problems are coming from doctors. I've had some bad luck with them but now they think I'm a headcase. First off I see a pchycaitrist so that is the only person I want to talk to about my situation. I went to start up with a new doctor at the beginning of the year and she was acting all weird and jumpy and eventually my mom got out of the waiting room and came in to talk with us. Basically the new doctor was being extremely nosey and wanted to know why I was diagnosed with schizophrenia. I didn't feel like we had to go into detail about everything but we did and it was incredibly uncomfortable and awkward. So she sets me up with a specialist (non mental health related). I go and see her and I'm laughing to myself because when I see her I'm thinking you can't be serious... You would have to be there! Anyway I feel kinda uncomfortable so I decide to have my mom come in with me. We start talking and the girl is kinda rude at first and doesn't introduce herself or anything. Then she slights me and makes insinuations about aspergers which I have btw. She then talks up about her ""boyfriend"" and other BS. So I'm sitting there thinking wow why is she being a massive bitch towards me. I showed zero interest in her and she is acting like she is all high and mighty. I tried very hard to keep it professional and get something out of the visit but she just didn't want to listen and kept acting as if my problems are not a problem. So I decided not to go back to my GP doctor until I get the flu or w/e. I still need a specialist so I'm either going to fire her or go back in deal with more bs. Lastly I've been treated poorly by my own family. My mom's new catch phrase is ""I'm going to tell your psychiatrist."" My mom flips out over little complaints I make and turns it into ""your mentally ill"". My brother also laughs at me all the time because sometimes I say something about my diagnosis. My sister use to be a psych nurse so she always adds her two cents in. I'm just tired of being treated like I have some probablem. When the doctors acted all freaked out like I have some file on me (which i probably do) I felt crushed. If this was years ago I probably would of filed a complaint on the specialist for mocking people with disabilities. Are any of you going through problems with people acting like you are a stigma?",3.1712656128025003,5.111909395491807,4.634461358313819,82.5306010928962,74.922131147541,7.434504293520686,26.16822794691647,8.269060116576782,1.783380991412959,1947,71,376,34,42,649,228,488,0.155,0.795,0.05,-0.9941,3,0,2,0,0,0,43.0,4,6,2,2,24,26,3,1,22,0,40,12,0,3,4,88,86,40,0,12,13,6,5,5,0,2,12,2,1,2,8,40,0,3,9,1,2,18,6,12,0,4,18,10,69,14,65,59,11,70,0,0,3,0,45,25,1,11,30,267,77,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0627028727782448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05656726201931595,0.058857715110238275,0.0,0.0,0.04810265765438889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058209400811910623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10878267464099073,0.05906130087317251,0.08623957350851852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08090272263210815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12186497295550082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07292533403647893,0.0,0.21538554266717144,0.0,0.14780736721985396,0.0,0.3620046004415967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06357262797675135,0.0,0.06668326168114781,0.0,0.07153212518428899,0.05053355201518343,0.06791730274811335,0.0,0.0,0.1203353905570102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07391289991109194,0.0,0.2814048416396941,0.0,0.056573749398660125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06336523536318844,0.0,0.0,0.07518867261101259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07473608238465261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06287308278964357,0.0,0.0,0.03887445528206186,0.11531796751093665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727892921425319,0.07089568952133059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944331717113025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14256976643233918,0.0,0.0,0.3313788847508162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05244957731106501,0.0,0.20495075215730332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053797638140167824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807836618491377,0.061763628371690964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15252995743199624,0.2707377998279218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05625181633691388,0.0,0.0,0.16910142955926008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058513248508927175,0.0795098178206669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10891149581884957,0.06995935204935069,0.0,0.10013409352531544,0.0,0.05648956974947648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22741849704806386,0.061826063079934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359736168238777,0.0,0.0,0.04124651780328941,0.0813002071823876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0480248531817151,0.07694005899274116,0.0690984374300382,0.0,0.08508625985593084,0.06109287762605985,0.0,0.05836430718432789,0.12516513124866827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557264262322908,0.12765581732663034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100497131671361,0.0,0.0,0.13665428998567467 schizophrenia,chilloutproducer,2019/10/05,"For someone who may be having a rough day... I released this music over the summer. It's about mental illness. This is an EP, and my favorite tracks are: In The City and Once Again [https://soundcloud.com/chilloutalreadyofficial/sets/my-ep-about-living-every-day](https://soundcloud.com/chilloutalreadyofficial/sets/my-ep-about-living-every-day) Have a nice day.",19.651829268292687,26.200275097560983,9.992865853658536,41.6751524390244,41.92682926829268,5.0756097560975615,22.445121951219512,5.985473137389443,0.34026341463414633,313,5,32,1,4,75,36,41,0.064,0.8,0.136,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,0,6,1,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,4,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8359723914484184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265781458600057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3451153164404321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745765717261289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DaRudeStarstorm,2019/10/05,Do any of you see flies? I didn't think this was an actual thing. I thought the upstairs of my house was just filled with flies for months. But apparently it's more common than I thought? Then I realized that said flies literally just disappear into thin air after they zip through my view. Have any of y'all experienced this?,3.332857142857143,5.7407425238095255,3.86373015873016,86.0632142857143,76.14285714285714,8.009523809523811,24.785714285714285,8.841846274778883,1.825361904761905,261,9,53,6,6,82,50,63,0.042,0.958,0.0,-0.3485,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,9,10,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,5,9,0,9,4,1,9,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,4,35,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.313596683935684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4370656198803071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3708011861467069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565029531008182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056827403752957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560787862768627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21349436395484148,0.20591167592543305,0.0,0.5102408596718374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheAbominableShowman,2019/10/05,"Sometimes when I think about how fucked everything is, I just start laughing. I just found out that this is called pathological laughter or the psuedobulbar effect and am now wondering if you guys do it too? https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pseudobulbar_affect It doesn't happen that often anymore. I remember during my first psychotic episode, I would do this weird laugh-cry thing as well and I guess that's part of it. I don't really know how to describe it but I'm sure some of you know what I'm talking about. I stumbled across this while reading about the new joker movie. I guess Joaquin Phoenix studied videos of people pathologically crying for the role.",6.980909961685826,9.326039715517245,5.6108045977011525,77.7924329501916,65.63793103448276,8.259003831417624,30.13026819923372,8.841846274778883,2.4522636015325667,541,20,91,9,9,159,82,116,0.07400000000000001,0.8320000000000001,0.094,0.0419,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,2,12,5,1,0,3,0,8,3,0,3,1,23,20,10,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,12,3,0,0,7,2,0,0,2,2,1,1,1,0,12,3,11,18,2,8,0,0,0,1,6,2,1,7,6,64,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813663962807641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867394626732708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40176703430612254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16435946281202787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555564145976372,0.0,0.2005169080066587,0.0,0.16906828716367234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4029227161559639,0.18107853221295075,0.16171891172100458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20101055408961535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17662525838329002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19803966531379014,0.0,0.12678497092749527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829280552803526,0.0,0.11715669208842446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071657649412917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18087157771287726,0.0,0.129442390103874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17236088393407353,0.0,0.0,0.14699086382746313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149639295789692,0.11718120061542825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16442979343598402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198324003471216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299116860616103,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Dur-ps4,2019/10/05,"Stressed Had my appointment with a doctor to clarify stuff for disability. First off the doctor was also a Christian counselor, and I have a giant forearm tattoo that reads ""godless."" Second off he was very dismissive of everything I told him. Third he told me he doesnt think I'll get disability. This has thrown me into a wierd place. I know I'm too sick to work/school, but apparently I'm not sick enough (by his standards) for disability. So I've been feeling pretty damn shitty the last 2 days. I contacted a lawyer though just incase I get denied and need to appeal. Alright thanks for letting me vent yall.",3.5333100233100225,5.9419926495726525,4.594079254079253,81.06986013986017,75.4957264957265,7.331468531468532,26.02097902097902,8.296473431620573,1.9277589743589745,488,18,88,9,11,159,86,117,0.168,0.727,0.105,-0.8318,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,1,5,4,1,1,7,1,8,5,1,0,0,12,19,6,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,2,0,3,6,1,12,2,12,12,1,8,1,0,0,0,9,5,1,0,3,55,15,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15800856614184894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274259090617383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4044730171525549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041580104250722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17757655990218532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09990485777435393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680656075553018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064599013180037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858748893603072,0.16105805766746709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020439380822706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14650669326787494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20643415754890088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20101486744510397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976383605210021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19996645849216751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263328253495896,0.0,0.22618742870256814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819096214895362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12660442018050214,0.1941261524533004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776016617950251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630282280395508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384415404985326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,The_Juice_Loosener,2019/05/13,"Coping stratergies for tactile hallucinations Hey, struggling with tactile hallucinations (feeling bugs crawling on me) and wanted to see if any of you had any good coping stratergies for dealing with them.",11.739062499999996,13.770444781250005,9.45625,55.763750000000016,54.3125,8.9,47.25,8.841846274778883,5.1211375000000015,171,10,19,2,2,51,25,32,0.078,0.84,0.081,0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,4,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,1,7,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,0,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5576853622724999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4227353883768845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20732960034216644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3439238495358221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32675045622262383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.428665020603889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418534476335381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,psychedelicaccount,2019/05/13,"voice in my head tells me my life is a sitcom, can’t tell if i’m doing it to myself so this all started last wednesday, but ever since then this voice has stuck around which feels like it’s in my control like i’m thinking it myself, but like i can’t stop myself. even when i think things like “this is just something i’m doing to myself,” it reply’s back and says “then why haven’t you stopped yet.” it’s told me a lot of strange stuff. it seems to want to help me but it’s quite nasty. i’m just very confused and scared, and don’t know what to do next. sorry if this isn’t the place for this i just don’t know where else to go. is this schizophrenia? that’s what the voice keeps saying, but could it bipolar too? the voice has said that a few times as well. this is all just so crazy i don’t know what’s wrong with me, if anybody has any help i would be so grateful for advice.",2.2586537023186253,3.0871340314136155,2.889876589379209,98.64299738219894,75.17801047120419,5.457142857142856,19.925579655946148,3.1291,-0.6723959611069557,684,12,169,0,14,213,100,191,0.157,0.7020000000000001,0.141,-0.5361,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,2,16,8,0,2,6,0,20,3,1,1,3,35,38,17,0,6,11,0,1,4,0,1,2,7,0,0,23,5,0,4,7,0,0,1,7,3,1,0,3,8,17,5,14,32,4,19,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,6,17,111,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436073743416603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09993767467684138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082534159956655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11300298235970853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16482786446283434,0.11733540827097395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12276602006466042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970655339270729,0.13293351441266146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07430726912194123,0.10498808023963434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.083520616969813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15082310925513032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19700805556786305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13062458500540286,0.0,0.0,0.24229571844854056,0.11979181695432828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10380202295497007,0.2871884574836003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249399306358907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562933694985458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535416679696744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15630979191057776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13979238298504354,0.2337365956555212,0.14713235475940786,0.0,0.0,0.13378664395548184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12156663018050093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313680125446525,0.0,0.1645094169330984,0.10401887287282063,0.0,0.0,0.24572987566012866,0.0,0.0,0.16823376271214874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568986114249996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09763353290565906,0.1883317574732564,0.0,0.0,0.08569341651337185,0.0,0.0,0.14042634627071124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212571909443014,0.0866806726666883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321344712979762,0.0,0.13260832316435495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439599536359298,0.16067742487713318,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,globularfluster,2019/05/13,"Links for the initiated Since we got subreddit of the day, I thought I would post a few links for curious people. [https://www.nami.org/Learn-More/Mental-Health-Conditions/Schizophrenia](https://www.nami.org/Learn-More/Mental-Health-Conditions/Schizophrenia) \- An overview from one of the nations leading advocacy agencies (the one I personally volunteer for. I can attest to their awesomeness, as would several of my family members). [https://youtu.be/f6CILJA110Y](https://youtu.be/f6CILJA110Y) \- a Ted Talk from a professor who suffers from schizophrenia [http://www.schizophreniacase.com/top-10-books-on-schizophrenia/](http://www.schizophreniacase.com/top-10-books-on-schizophrenia/) \- a list for further reading [https://sardaa.org/](https://sardaa.org/) \- an advocacy agency that is specifically for schizophrenia and related disorders [https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/schizophrenia/index.shtml](https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/schizophrenia/index.shtml) national institute of health page",26.96386602870813,35.79632714736842,14.235023923444974,8.38698564593301,30.157894736842106,12.717703349282296,45.47846889952153,11.20814326018867,7.9353157894736865,889,35,55,22,11,213,66,95,0.036000000000000004,0.937,0.027000000000000003,-0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,121.0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,10,0,4,1,0,1,0,8,6,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,7,0,14,2,2,6,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,41,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09527470217347324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16931328657770478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13926826566504855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815450777729353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7851592564759959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977575422486617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002135986055664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024185351276549,0.12899359130985336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148609794548567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14777164295189635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16689473092533408,0.0,0.12220515962808864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874111608202095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172824399572239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20988867189949306,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nugget954,2019/05/13,"As a future physician, I’d like to ask a quick question... I’m a medical student and genuinely curious about helping people with mental illnesses. Besides meds, what are some helpful techniques your healthcare providers have used or other things you wished they had done.",8.865144927536235,10.518440152173913,7.3204347826086975,69.88905797101451,60.52173913043478,9.611594202898553,43.594202898550726,9.725611199111238,4.904168115942031,221,13,30,4,3,66,43,46,0.065,0.735,0.2,0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,1,0,7,8,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,4,6,1,2,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,3,3,21,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760793001856792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30220938186464524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3958863225138036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442758038165987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32802796299815745,0.2974984056196249,0.29760767286150797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20473397024328768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33081995436919776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19619390783103025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255057009542528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33959723266445874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lsd4lyfe,2019/05/13,"“WhY DoNt YoU JuSt KiLl YoUrSeLf” I’d say this goes through my head in different tones and voices like 100 times a day. It’s like a never ending loop and it definitely gets far worse when I’m under stress or and upset about something. Now this isn’t a formal command, it’s a question, and I see it as the voices more trying to help me out of the holes I keep falling into. I either respond by saying I my head, “thanks for your opinion have a nice day” and other times I’ll just answer the question, giving things I’m grateful for. And other times as well I just let the question pass by while I observe it. This has been happening since about 10th grade when I would lay in my bed thinking that everyone hated my and I was useless while I would cry and think why the fuck do I exist ( I was taking prednisone which is a coricol steroid on and off like every two-three weeks for about three years and this def fucked my head yeee) Weed has come to be my solace in a sense as it just makes me euphoric, tho somewhat anxious. Additionally it makes the voices go crazy, but they’re more to teach about the world rather than to ask why I’m don’t kill myself already or by flashing some gruesome things in my head or thoughts about how I should just kill everyone because they hate me. I know this is not my reality yet it still persists. Doing lsd helped me to separate myself from myself in a sense, as even though my mind went even crazier for a while, it showed me I am the observer of my thoughts and the things which my ego does and experiences, I can choose to cling and identify with the negativity and insanity, or I can allow t to all just float by. Now this isn’t me saying it’s easy or this is what everyone should do as I went though a year of actual hell and presumed psychosis that I couldn’t tell anyone about except my close friends. I’ve never been diagnosed so I could just be a fucking weirdo trying to figure out what’s wrong with me, but this is the only place where I’ve ever been able to relate to people about what’s happening to me. I’m at a point now where I’m stable to the world and to myself for the most part, and not because any symptoms or delusions or anything have changed, it’s that I have been able to raise my level of awareness of myself so that I can sit back and watch what is happening and have little to no reaction to it. This is a quality I had to develop I go further than insane when on lsd or mushrooms and it’s how I’ve been able to sit aside and watch the insanity happen rather than identifying with it and allowing my ego to run amok in insanity. I don’t really have a full reason for this other than it’s what flowed out when I decided I wanted to posed about all the voices which continuously ask why I don’t just kill myself already. As I’ve been able to look back at myself, it seems all this started when I started high school back in 2014 and things didn’t start taking a turn for the better until about November of 2018 after an amazing lsd trip which helped me look through my mind further. Anyways, regarding psychedelics, do as much research and don’t try them if your reality is already literal insanity, or you may fall deeper. Then again, it’s what I did and now I’m probably the happiest I’ve been in my life regardless of if I break down emotionally or show no emotions at all. Live life to the fullest my dudes, we’ve been though hell and back and there is basically no way to explain it to those who haven’t experienced it. You can get through anything! Infinite love ♾❤️",5.359636080568258,5.460351396094843,5.955143200025947,82.06611365184395,67.81450488145049,8.901287665012488,29.64512990172229,8.638961771785754,2.038695008270896,2809,93,578,40,43,914,304,717,0.139,0.784,0.076,-0.9949,3,0,1,0,0,2,41.0,0,5,2,2,51,25,11,2,34,0,55,12,4,7,7,110,102,66,4,12,28,0,0,3,1,5,4,7,1,0,53,37,0,1,16,2,0,11,18,15,1,2,17,13,70,10,92,75,13,88,2,1,5,4,25,34,5,21,42,414,123,4,0.2484748222431584,0.0,0.06061889589632598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205648608797394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04224284992251592,0.0,0.0,0.07017645589712666,0.0,0.04343484325994903,0.0,0.10223680363959113,0.0,0.11614520858095333,0.0,0.0,0.19106180086953986,0.0,0.0757339726897551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0549389470454555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06571335383689653,0.0535097644745309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049596731745215165,0.0,0.06823448118882917,0.08012285226883342,0.0,0.0,0.0630491785557218,0.0,0.0649008260185059,0.0,0.0,0.05436049784681666,0.0,0.07280266028126699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13975036561339846,0.05501873531822074,0.0,0.0,0.08205763833487291,0.05618992554274375,0.05233768859276741,0.17807125560593628,0.0,0.06076401368351465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047992757824154436,0.17228322697039208,0.06490891960098005,0.0595899226916914,0.07060698379265627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197254647089228,0.0,0.0,0.1226587225318903,0.2550068526094331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249105767938448,0.06563182297857123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055213959684543616,0.27490057620437386,0.0,0.03413881603171386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06352058510697298,0.08775255761191865,0.09104418539995694,0.062259262141404835,0.054851955077620314,0.0,0.10432813535058114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056064557044801774,0.0,0.08292943664296183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12544436912798138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04566439605704882,0.0,0.09581955045041307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047244074755058325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06726850469866891,0.0,0.04306528896139748,0.0,0.0649008260185059,0.0,0.05872225529499205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06697447100305559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20876150028511825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03979483342260482,0.06386837517229323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14819786377264998,0.0,0.06286744638693174,0.0495005657960284,0.056550536527123385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051385235156876284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04782201438606595,0.0,0.0,0.13190381855744926,0.0,0.04960807850284973,0.0,0.07115676734268635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06456511990521653,0.09341107162684248,0.0,0.054294486652908695,0.057190558169076186,0.0,0.0,0.16507563103805162,0.07960631655991501,0.18309393845874247,0.09863062697704582,0.10866575027368126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12652357049055601,0.06756731381479791,0.060680949131947534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036639221979918216,0.04930693708641088,0.04982787865830728,0.0,0.05585217645578116,0.11516932479106393,0.22420987928815347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06330426791592962,0.0882546923153067,0.06791705297295585,0.0,0.08000481947877193 schizophrenia,amadeuslanyard,2019/05/13,"I miss the delusions Hello, first time poster here. Suffered from severe psychosis from the ages of 14 to 19. Just hit 20 now and am in an amazing place mentally. Just got a new awesome job and have an amazing boyfriend. But why do I miss my hallucinations? I miss my episodes where the voices took control of what I did, where I was somebody else entirely, where I'd forget the people around me (or be convinced they wanted to kill me). It was such a horrible time, but I feel a sweet nostalgia over it. I miss the unpredictable days and the long painful conversations with my therapist. I miss the fear my family had of leaving me alone. I miss being admitted and I really miss the people I saw in my mind. Is this crazy of me? I know I am much better without it and life is fantastic now. I am strong confident and brave, which I never was before. Why do I miss it all?",2.2771374829001343,4.554979552325584,3.654719562243504,86.88070451436388,79.05813953488372,7.070314637482902,24.65253077975376,8.124751697461798,1.5597519835841318,681,25,137,13,17,223,103,172,0.19399999999999998,0.621,0.185,0.8011,1,3,0,0,0,1,21.0,0,0,1,4,10,19,1,1,13,0,15,2,0,1,2,23,31,9,1,1,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,7,8,0,1,3,0,0,1,2,12,0,1,8,4,26,7,14,20,2,19,0,9,1,0,4,8,0,1,10,97,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18072043136043686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15533431008112172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14847930059183953,0.0,0.0,0.1543234333596374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957069043002892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253249577629278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576514607176344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644949305555238,0.19635129826677505,0.08822807754172317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14842226680285042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13955668550072067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17315575632144134,0.0,0.19304884346118376,0.0,0.09589589142449564,0.0,0.0,0.1847611620573464,0.0,0.0,0.12324841214699687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15441936801003545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758462561470284,0.0,0.17618653778936186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282712312630861,0.0,0.13457849853083345,0.16852484863253755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18567111600781908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419406853811372,0.0,0.1823063389031736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117836371831088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971255766168092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20259792487717104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034946375044347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19386632802499693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10291952859760148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31490263488549924,0.0,0.0,0.16820345011024915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MrKrabsOurLord,2019/05/13,anybody here listen to death grips? the sounds and the lyrics can be relatable. also the concerts are lit,2.8077192982456154,5.832116789473687,2.406315789473684,89.09087719298245,91.63157894736842,4.63859649122807,22.12280701754386,6.42735559955562,0.8407754385964914,85,3,14,1,3,25,17,19,0.17800000000000002,0.8220000000000001,0.0,-0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,koalakinda,2019/05/13,I got a new therapist a lovely Asian woman My previous therapist who retired was a lovely Asian man,3.399473684210527,6.151478684210532,6.1255263157894735,68.06618421052633,77.94736842105263,10.115789473684213,30.552631578947373,10.125756701596842,4.4339263157894715,81,4,12,3,2,29,14,19,0.0,0.631,0.369,0.8225,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501406292091666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5645514508571101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30206300416976306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7262707941710943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kisskissbyte,2019/05/13,"Did anyone else have an imaginary friend as a child? My mom told me I had an imaginary friend, Uncle Deedee, that I always talked to and played with when I was young. I never really thought much of it until recently. Just wondering if any of you had an imaginary friend too?",4.390471698113212,5.929360075471699,5.1624056603773605,81.65040094339625,70.88679245283019,9.828301886792454,24.57075471698113,10.125756701596842,2.407947169811321,216,6,42,6,4,70,42,53,0.0,0.7809999999999999,0.21899999999999997,0.9074,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,0,1,7,8,5,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,7,4,6,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,2,5,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207882294005108,0.0,0.0,0.16989600772316235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17469007132526204,0.2559849399942155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20870464277353012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.579064478526271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926031133634296,0.0,0.0,0.1836570827823504,0.0,0.19268774612998166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600503597392264,0.0,0.24668140022628945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008074845285733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19834066348943086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387275438185959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709348269797038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ianvoyager,2019/05/13,"Dad is at his first radiological treatment today. Day 1 of 39. I don’t know how I’m going to cope. So many expectations I’ll need to fill - cooking, driving to and from hospital, shopping, caring...it all sounds so basic when typed out...but I’m so exhausted just thinking about the events to come...I’m even getting some voices rising above the medications control. I guess all I can say is that I’ll try my very best for my dad.",1.382941176470588,3.8918699411764734,3.4120588235294136,85.73926470588238,84.88235294117645,5.752941176470588,22.617647058823533,7.1686216300943375,0.9379647058823526,335,12,67,5,10,113,67,85,0.040999999999999995,0.902,0.057,0.3075,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,8,2,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,2,2,12,12,6,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,1,1,2,2,1,4,1,1,0,1,0,3,6,1,9,12,4,10,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,5,35,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972512018852755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24399299016220802,0.0,0.0,0.3176866111514221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18267146657599728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18708257025224168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409305237778476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479853400324681,0.0,0.16097631218414915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120295016330491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15566564132682836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871689187280043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28534246566752425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100247329565915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252501032451824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18149382083804466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684858951690237,0.0,0.0,0.19230673499901307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23370918621300205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cairfulle,2019/05/13,"Strange personal experiences I'm afraid to talk about and I really need advice Hello community, I've had a few abnormal experiences and I would like your opinions. I have a brief history I need to go over first. I will try to keep it brief while including all the details I can. For starters, there has been a history of mental health issues on my Mothers side of the family for as long as I can remember. I just need to let this be known so that you can get a brief overview. There has been much Drug and alcohol abuse, my great grandmother was a recluse, brother was said to have drug induced bipolar disorder (Type II) when he was evaluated by a psychiatrist during his stay in jail, my mother has BPD and is slightly OCD, etc. But something that always caught my attention was my Aunts schizophrenia, which she has had since she was in her late teens/early twenties. I have been around her when she hears voices and has outburst, but she is also a raging addict and alcoholic. My Aunts daughter has it, and I have another cousin who has it as well. So, I never really thought much of it while I was growing up. When I was around 12 years old up until I was 17, I was involved in drugs and had a very unstable way of living. I was never really self aware of my thoughts or my actions. Either way, a few months before I turned 18 I sort of just did a 180. I woke up one day, and hated the way things were going and the person I was turning into. So I decided to quit (for the most part) all use of drugs, say for alcohol, the occasional hallucinogenic, and sometimes I would smoke marijuana. I also decided to go to college and get my act together The thing was, I REALLY started to hate the way pot made me feel, so I ended up keeping my smoking to a minimum. The best way I could explain it at first was the typical paranoia that people experience, so I just stopped. Recently I smoked and I had a very bad experience (I'm 19 now), but Ill get to that in a minute. So about a year and a half ago, one day out of the blue me and a buddy decided we were going to take magic mushrooms, which was a dumb idea considering my family history. Whenever I took the shrooms I was also smoking weed and was feeling very paranoid. Anyways, I ended up having EXTREME auditory hallucinations that freaked me. My mind was having an internal conflict with itself that I could almost hear externally (its hard to explain), where there was ""Regular me"" fighting for control, then there was a side of me repeating a five word phrase that I had picked up in philosophical teachings, and then there was a part of my brain speaking jibberish. The jibberish was talking very very fast, saying absolutely nothing but things that made absolutely no sense. Out of all three voices, this was the most overpowering voice, to the point where I couldn't tell if I was speaking the jibberish or if actual words were coming out when talking to my friend. Afterwards I decided I would not do shrooms again for obvious reasons. Fast forward a year and a half to last night, this experience I had smoking ONLY concentrated THC (Dabs). The same jibberish voice returned, and my mind was fighting for dominance. It overpowered my thoughts, and the only way I could get it to be quiet was by focusing on something intensely, like reading a novel. This lasted for a few hours and it was driving me absolutely mad. There were also other impulsive thoughts that I could swore I ""heard"". Similar to before, but this time it was a voice just talking to me and telling me different things. Once I fell asleep and woke up, it went away. While this was happening I began to read on schizophrenia, and noticed other strange things that have happened to me in the past while I was sober. I have had extreme paranoia of other people, feeling that my friend groups all hated me and were always plotting against me. It was never anything severe like believing they were ""agents"" or anything like that, I just felt as if everyone was out to get me, especially when I was alone. These thoughts would fill in my head up until I would meet up with the people I would think are plotting against me, and I would realize that I'm only being paranoid, and that its only in my head. I have also battled extreme depression, sometimes laying in bed for hours doing nothing but sleeping and staring at the ceiling. I am a college student that does extremely well when not overtaken by depression, but when it sets in I simply am unable to do anything and as a result my GPA has plummeted. I have been up for days at a time in a sort of ""manic"" mode, thinking that I am being productive and functioning quite well studying for school when in reality I was not. Reflecting on all this it has made me nervous that I have a sort of dormant case of schizophrenia or possibly something else, but I don't know if this is just me being paranoid or not. I have not heard the voices I mentioned when I am sober, so I am wondering if the auditory hallucinations are strictly drug related. And yes, last night I decided once and for all to stop smoking marijuana because of this. Could I please have some thoughts from the rest of you? Maybe some of your personal experiences? It would be much appreciated!",7.952143421884884,7.216970052419356,8.125721062618599,71.44951296647692,62.689516129032256,11.490069576217588,37.898561037318146,10.801897940470877,4.088836986084757,4140,183,751,92,51,1356,389,992,0.107,0.8320000000000001,0.061,-0.9942,3,1,13,0,5,0,111.0,1,4,1,6,45,26,9,2,55,1,112,17,5,9,10,155,170,84,0,22,30,7,5,4,2,9,12,16,1,4,55,43,3,6,29,3,0,18,11,15,3,8,70,23,113,11,109,78,23,127,0,2,2,0,52,44,1,20,63,581,168,10,0.0,0.053562630227149535,0.04411528640034975,0.04928205210932833,0.0,0.04417553247587471,0.04007307401666418,0.1449368667360692,0.04526805008684663,0.046820580108994335,0.0,0.18075918832594345,0.07523130821791148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0474032400338414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11160395962004578,0.08048721944806835,0.0,0.0,0.04247324856487508,0.0,0.037745764692176616,0.027557627419994853,0.0,0.07693526332971752,0.050932549178119776,0.04744171611691486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05693634432257939,0.05046570613687958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03894162950520291,0.0,0.0,0.050703236605271616,0.18046963682772188,0.0,0.0,0.08746388043171358,0.0,0.07787304958009081,0.0,0.0,0.04723145291729386,0.0518108749923613,0.0,0.03956074910172127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26212750521192524,0.0,0.037764455559208814,0.0,0.08007956034367339,0.0,0.05041749846033702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04319700606315336,0.0,0.2653253735667748,0.08523383898124562,0.0,0.06857370372527473,0.0,0.04340558860297759,0.0,0.0,0.07690571099779597,0.0,0.0,0.06985327677944463,0.0,0.11809335751643332,0.0,0.10276819680797487,0.0,0.0,0.049840623558822544,0.0,0.0,0.07995239489071232,0.0,0.04049638643786995,0.13389697867270128,0.0927903764212138,0.048052682584604565,0.10190263071752263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890391245505701,0.0,0.0,0.0510329407839029,0.0,0.04718412283020342,0.0,0.08036370866756865,0.0,0.0,0.024844458552719828,0.11054865374016117,0.050995205669131335,0.0,0.0,0.04622698521438663,0.0,0.08834297743011342,0.0,0.0399184061683809,0.04000656890794102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832721658665588,0.0,0.0,0.04541627670423567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04555779145069643,0.0,0.09129190147007443,0.0,0.03608361254514678,0.0,0.09969653260268996,0.10056074150680536,0.1045987438826546,0.0,0.0,0.08484698257676243,0.0,0.08675423016611786,0.051468207314661965,0.04743690055574232,0.09628746939836057,0.06126655467385957,0.13752714283040915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979090531632369,0.043154977252199814,0.0940220468397388,0.11841842366759553,0.0,0.049623458161483947,0.04273500980360216,0.05096384077379625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09616592908961494,0.09043800726037902,0.0,0.11584245788276218,0.046480088774125496,0.044636231625368616,0.0,0.051210457917864334,0.0,0.0430019905505941,0.07190047599934064,0.0,0.04575166475089527,0.0,0.0,0.04716052037795064,0.0510707825453959,0.0,0.037395507327811786,0.0,0.04523941782486796,0.0,0.0,0.10440714053045676,0.08942130299982641,0.0,0.03199758450958701,0.04818440190643565,0.0,0.07558976795084803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03398986501527075,0.14534195741231706,0.07902541916136102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15016684635383398,0.05793334573964756,0.0,0.21533475458114476,0.052720862302639185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05022638488299922,0.03069242940425562,0.09834396869715263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03904413463890792,0.0,0.1865015985790984,0.0,0.21529817911674085,0.0,0.0,0.12193894613209175,0.04190712873080076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049024813712551615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569087391049281,0.0,0.0,0.08733503322339999 schizophrenia,GetHautnah,2019/05/13,"At the hospitals waiting room What bugs me the most is the adult grown men completely torn up, all here for us to see. It's so honest, so rare. Makes my heart pound. I hope you get better, guys. It's so good your seeking help, too. I hope things will be alright.",-0.5233333333333334,1.7020073148148178,0.8091666666666661,101.28375000000004,96.22222222222223,4.181481481481482,16.00925925925926,5.985473137389443,-0.6749185185185187,201,5,47,2,8,63,46,54,0.035,0.64,0.326,0.9589,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,2,0,1,5,6,0,0,3,1,3,1,1,1,1,6,9,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,6,4,7,2,4,0,0,1,0,7,3,0,3,0,28,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490901555850873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952971012513622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471467306143562,0.0,0.0,0.2362286053322507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788706366417396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3337480558945717,0.18877922179116774,0.0,0.0,0.5594696680834326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18799874576125247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22443283497007796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18711095147379625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387815922001159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,looseassociation_irl,2019/05/13,Anyone else’s phone glitch more frequently when they are transitioning between phases of psychosis? Not trying to be paranoid cuz I think it could be scientific that my time perspective just gets fucked. Main think I notice is the phone’s reaction is not in sync with my thumb scrolling or it acts up a bunch then I have to turn it off and back on again for it to function properly.,3.721135029354212,6.2507439315068485,3.833307240704503,86.15410958904111,75.43835616438356,7.4590998043052865,25.497064579256357,8.418075326091056,1.7705749510763211,309,11,59,6,7,95,59,73,0.09,0.91,0.0,-0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,0,2,0,7,1,0,1,0,10,12,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,11,9,3,11,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,1,6,44,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266725608691881,0.33215832732929496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24927261408648801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588294869201578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708088415321632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29969702755664385,0.16936945001909573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36907842022952303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4154399160141085,0.0,0.0,0.1890306034250893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22009535494938048,0.3526122095523889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cynicalsurfer,2019/05/13,I’m being involuntarily hospitalized in a matter of hours I’m so genuinely terrified I cannot articulate it I don’t know what to expect or what’s going to happen I’m so scared,1.6531081081081105,4.043230459459462,6.195878378378378,67.11652027027029,82.24324324324327,9.105405405405406,22.763513513513516,9.516144504307137,2.652951351351351,145,5,27,5,4,57,28,37,0.235,0.733,0.032,-0.8368,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,9,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,8,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30916441317758875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4810522324278392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5357246608687616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989649595007976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5446330471321825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheGreatAwoo,2019/05/13,"so, perception issue or schizophrenia? i get visual noise a lot and hear stuff wrong when it makes no sense, and light sometimes seems to change, colors get more vibrant and voices distort when it happens. this usually happens under intense stress, or in areas with high artificial fluorescent lighting.",10.170733333333333,11.47042314,8.374000000000002,64.71033333333335,57.6,9.866666666666667,40.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,4.479666666666667,247,12,32,4,3,74,43,50,0.18100000000000002,0.732,0.087,-0.6605,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,10,7,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,1,0,4,7,2,7,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,4,3,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25793083484222706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547733579835569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4312211235568352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748045694658232,0.0,0.0,0.2576108188770483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544863163723395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20728833415989295,0.0,0.0,0.16275275554650434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2219659512953822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411457142854185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27929672332548233,0.0,0.2791173025674333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268534953543485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665805525132453,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Septembersvodkabomb,2019/05/13,"Do i have schizophrenia? I have been diagnosed with high functioning aspergers since the 6th grade, im 19 now though. A little over 2 years ago, when my depression was at its worst, i began having auditory hallucinations. The phone at work ringing even though i wasnt at work and people yelling my name were pretty much the most common ones, barely any other variations happen. They get worse with my depression, as does my paranoia. I cant shower next to the wall of it for fear of something stabbing me, every knock on the door is the police, i cant close my eyes for more than 10 seconds to get the soap out of my hair or the body wash off my face, because every second my eyes are closed i feel a presence get more and more near. I often have the same conversations with my coworkers every single day, usually just asking them to tell me about their day over and over. I get scared the car behind me is following me. I cant keep up with my hygiene when i get really depressed. I dont know, im worried, but most if not all of those symptoms are alsp symptoms of aspergers, something i am legitimately diagnosed with. I just got freaked out and wanted my bases covered in case i do have it, i want it treated asap. Im going back to my therapist in less than a month and i will ask her the same thing.",4.440776490776493,5.458022011583015,5.420894465894467,81.8256445731446,70.1969111969112,8.381038181038184,27.516302016302014,8.680891452615391,1.940551951951952,1027,34,203,17,18,338,152,259,0.08199999999999999,0.897,0.021,-0.9178,1,0,2,0,1,0,25.0,0,0,3,2,11,8,0,2,14,0,21,10,5,0,1,32,38,13,0,3,6,0,2,0,0,1,5,2,2,0,7,14,0,1,2,0,0,3,6,7,0,3,6,6,37,1,35,31,12,35,0,3,2,0,10,19,0,5,13,148,44,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099816416654335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07657440091448588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105385830380264,0.0,0.0,0.08658532133878127,0.0,0.06864219149784383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250773645109099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14524018676058967,0.0,0.2909562949849193,0.2285808407771036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985402870229752,0.0,0.13197073839110018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07437370475093416,0.0,0.2846205090275352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12671050719270802,0.05693583160708341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29415401905698113,0.0,0.06399529736060304,0.0,0.09005949315345972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09957511067911323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11897202804091382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3648940689877209,0.0,0.0,0.10008737319370453,0.0,0.0,0.061884067726333924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11285852419050195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08987922670225389,0.0,0.08277670132588594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11975534927100813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07630320481226996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780652514798847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455847992120967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07213683580575599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11273598227366068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09314697292453483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17337571252194647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340767910206113,0.0,0.0,0.098420627302184,0.0,0.0,0.13074161487080108,0.07480891781393485,0.0,0.2212651951635009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12401710519071445,0.0,0.13283320032769233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163953719871031,0.11435455846122802,0.11475282562336435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07251311326172089 schizophrenia,koffeekoala,2019/05/13,"""You did it to yourself"" Just wanted to vent here. I had a friend today say ""you did it to yourself"" in regards to my psychotic episode that I had. It was a shitty feeling. Anybody else have a similar experience?",1.509999999999998,4.110395121951221,3.725073170731708,82.96078048780491,85.58536585365854,6.206829268292682,30.151219512195123,7.554174236665415,2.366283902439025,164,9,30,3,5,56,29,41,0.087,0.799,0.114,0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,5,1,5,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3988802929683066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4670752835926661,0.0,0.0,0.2414324848310925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36890635776406294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797179451748272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4526031773270062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28163503296570075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Juliahelena,2019/05/13,"Negative symptoms Negative symptoms, is there any hope in medicine for it to end?",7.774285714285713,9.805116428571427,6.727142857142859,71.76785714285714,63.28571428571429,11.314285714285715,49.714285714285715,11.20814326018867,6.526514285714287,66,5,10,2,1,20,12,14,0.34700000000000003,0.516,0.136,-0.6705,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656164870353477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34594927243684936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38794676633846575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8119509155133353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,moronwithinternet,2019/05/13,"I hear voices when I'm thinking about work It's really strange, it appears that whenever I think about work I hear voices. &#x200B; I mean, I do hear voices regardless whether I think about work or not. &#x200B; But it seems when I think about work that there are significantly more voices (and they're louder too). &#x200B; Anyone who's experiencing something similar? &#x200B; (Yes, work is very stressful for me, maybe that's why?)",6.627307692307693,8.834877115384613,5.818461538461541,76.50153846153849,66.30769230769229,8.276923076923078,32.230769230769226,8.841846274778883,2.8497538461538463,357,15,58,6,6,108,47,78,0.086,0.914,0.0,-0.7224,0,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,5,8,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,13,14,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,7,1,0,0,6,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,8,8,0,5,14,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,2,33,15,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4237489598839149,0.4752206427678933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06836530679644554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3305925651262049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982263382761586,0.10650369671551624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0626360265551702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900906482020828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07527059935639485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119988899444634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505965186512769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0806731438174734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08822512085857254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3559003329212221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4752206427678933,0.0 schizophrenia,lunarmood,2019/01/16,"Hear my life?.... from an infrequent poster I ruined my life I think. nudes. self-debasement. Latuda is making me happy. The tactile hallucinations have ebbed. Latuda: mildly euphoric at all times. With better cognition. I lack words. I lack self. Did you hear my cries for help over the summer? My vice answered them and your cruelty. But mostly just the silence. The confirmation that my life was marginal from the get go. The poetry takes many paths but I'm sure in the whole I am shattered glass. 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I don't know if I'm a schizophrenic, I've never been tested. While writing this I am completely wiping my computer, with my so cards, USB sticks and phone to come. I'm completely freaking out right now. I think somebody is following me. They're spying on me. A lot of shit happened at the same time and it can't be a coincidence anymore. As said I just wanted somebody to hear this. Thanks a lot.",1.53409090909091,3.725105574074078,3.644646464646467,86.41954545454546,81.22222222222223,6.519865319865321,23.707070707070702,7.686295010490155,1.2788222222222227,414,15,84,7,11,141,72,108,0.127,0.8270000000000001,0.045,-0.8035,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,5,0,8,2,1,0,1,20,27,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,5,0,0,5,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,2,2,12,1,9,24,3,12,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,3,4,51,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19377621490815594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16831278026000024,0.4097292809586179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104569291807684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17278437039599573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22022081907978144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4295290100794488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33223033243668354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506982426286765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18713138396338147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668635749359253,0.1858623965727404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20056692934052314,0.16163015999975727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16555488305264024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14691035670754285,0.0,0.0,0.17989056660191674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12519920988284686,0.0,0.0,0.113934560836447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23049435476168414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763107561551222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,coralinelace,2019/01/16,"Not sleeping again I sometimes stop sleeping for no reason at all. Some months I'll get 8-12 hour sleeps, some I'll be lucky to get to get three, mixed in with nights where I don't sleep at all. We just switched up my sleep meds i have tried so many things. Sometimes walking helps i can't do that today because the snow outside is melting mixing with mud and making pools everywhere. I'm tempted to ask my husband to drop me off at Wal-Mart so I can just walk down the lanes for a couple hours. I don't drive due to the pop up hallucinations. Aaaand i just realized that walking a superstore is the exact same thing i watched some dude in the 80s do to handle his symptoms in a documentary when I had just been diagnosed. I remember thinking how far off of a idea that was to me. Now I'm looking at it being my only hope for sleep tonight. Lately this sleep thing has turned into what it was during my first psychotic break. I'm going days without sleeping and when I do get sleep i wake up a few hours into it and stare at a wall for hours without realizing I'm doing it, my brain somewhere in between here and the other world. And frankly I'm scared",4.657980225988698,5.065699233050847,5.1960000000000015,85.83261581920905,69.38135593220339,7.818757062146893,29.292655367231642,7.554174236665415,1.5918421468926551,913,32,192,9,15,293,137,236,0.043,0.9179999999999999,0.038,-0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,0,1,13,3,0,1,12,0,18,13,11,3,3,35,34,10,0,1,7,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,13,10,0,1,6,1,0,5,7,1,0,2,4,3,21,2,34,28,7,45,0,0,3,0,5,21,0,5,17,127,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005264160923256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052199351548373685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09559157962432416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09474814478547648,0.0,0.05522437004291754,0.0,0.0,0.08691281123594123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07283697147198623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17895290013407789,0.0,0.048665594024249074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0573960921244006,0.0,0.0,0.08505007146826496,0.3373138400588412,0.0,0.0,0.0966660291877472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09659455175278303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07190776899899752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057158797608145726,0.08681554339008976,0.0,0.0,0.0951158052850651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06834917780377538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08035810564972047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06512559632437026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804206751702456,0.0,0.0,0.09700228016974537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08573072978066107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7712280215580469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16938083819998367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07159064912575562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900252481146308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17066662273067038,0.05486834977751335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08116738045648543,0.0,0.0,0.05813725862277733,0.09314102619299232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16508883958016182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,123ZZZZZ123,2019/01/16,"[IMPORTANT] Could you please give me any advice on schizophrenic in our family! \*English isn't my native language, but I hope that you will understand me. This is going to be a long post, since I have no clue what to do next. Regards\* My dad's brother got diagnosed with schizophrenia when he was in his 20's. At that time he was thinking that someone's looking at him through walls, but nothing more. About 4 years ago he quit his job, due to big amounts of work which lead to depression. He still lives with his parents. 2 years ago he attempted suicide buy swallowing pills, after that he was hospitalized and started taking meds. Everything was going fine till the summer when he stopped taking his meds without saying anything. (In summer, in my spare time I always tried to take him out of the house, and he got happier and more active. He learned all countries and their capitals, etc). He had been going to a 'magician' who apparently helps people with incurable illnesses, so maybe he could've told him that meds are useless. So forward on his symptoms started to come back. He started posting dumb things on facebook all day. All of his friends blocked him because of the spam in their feeds. About a week ago there was a 'hacker' who attacked his wifi network, so spent couple of days by changing the wifi network password, changing security options, which lead to wifi no longer working on his PC. In a week he had gotten aggressive, he said bad things about particular nationality and that he would beat all of them up. I think that he doesn't have voices, but hallucinations and nightmares. When we arrived at my grandads and grandmoms place, they couldn't stand it anymore, because he was constantly talking about nightmare stuff to them. When we went to eat, we couldn't do it properly because he kept swearing about nationalities that had harmed our country before and other stuff over and over. Then he started telling about how he deals with the 'hackers' and my dad said that there are no hackers, and that he should calm down. He got aggressive and closed his palms with angry look. We calmed him down and talked as nice as possible, because it was like in psycho house. Couple days ago he called police about 'hackers', and they understood that he has some sort of illness, so they took him with ambulance to psycho rehabilitation centre, where we thought that he would get some sort of medication for some time. But today we got news that he had said that he refuses to use meds and he has right to do so. (That's true, you can't hospitalize someone against their allowance. Doctors said that they will all think about doing it with force, since he had attempted suicide before, and his mother obligated about him getting meds). But if he doesn't get hospitalized, then he will come out as psycho. We are thinking about saying that he will have to live in his own appartement if he doesn't take meds, since we don't want him to harm our family members. What would be the best way to say that without making him go psycho? Could someone suggest if there's anything better to do? ! I would appreciate any help, because I want my family not to be stressed anymore. \*P.S He's 38 years old, and I think that he knows that he's psycho, because he said : ""I'm psycho, and I don't give a s\*\*\*.""",6.394545454545455,7.400943779220783,5.932233766233767,79.9604935064935,65.75324675324676,8.757402597402598,32.932467532467534,8.841846274778883,2.682282597402597,2632,108,480,40,40,810,274,616,0.12,0.787,0.09300000000000001,-0.9637,3,0,0,0,0,2,87.0,11,3,9,10,26,21,4,1,12,0,50,12,1,6,6,94,101,42,2,15,11,5,0,1,1,9,8,9,0,0,36,38,3,5,10,0,2,11,15,10,0,0,30,11,59,11,76,55,14,83,0,2,2,0,108,31,1,10,40,294,95,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05631835066620861,0.2043528902317992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04795531553137285,0.0,0.0,0.07838490234944795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143130007636046,0.0,0.0,0.09485418105677544,0.0,0.0,0.06556591597962545,0.0,0.044316258938906186,0.04812119046350232,0.21079543868528303,0.0,0.09808296348587107,0.0,0.06048233161509226,0.05097175033453614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05884978909245929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193625271514524,0.09929154095359516,0.0,0.062280853889754566,0.0,0.13804590534840913,0.1275397500303078,0.0,0.11150565058770244,0.05941714518479128,0.049639262595122385,0.05849633385730639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058989870080653366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05897299954056112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06427608675804806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051796870267112716,0.0,0.16299393453812253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044527152434404166,0.0,0.09033267169231207,0.11057374868805224,0.131016764728898,0.0,0.184377663871198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07726043880686795,0.0,0.0,0.057242624009589335,0.0,0.13300160637264846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05719191044457865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03167361773507306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028156597685173493,0.0,0.10178208028866577,0.05100343675403876,0.096794495598135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03847050924047917,0.0,0.057900146393924365,0.0,0.3841039650155181,0.058059235834585776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061293403842067974,0.0,0.0,0.0553004670508576,0.0,0.060476192369053335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06399468300654765,0.0,0.0,0.03995550106209371,0.0,0.060214271991477726,0.06326378339716995,0.0,0.06497260576458158,0.11039306371031844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061299844201860375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049218310869858416,0.2741111478957215,0.1374963467370634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14302396668418044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14649689190532114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16317188125500992,0.0,0.04602582917963823,0.0481838114861218,0.06601846549048675,0.0,0.13195211019981642,0.1260824076997754,0.0,0.0,0.05990280755481488,0.1733315280871856,0.09264652699466926,0.05037382707615599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07657767671289566,0.18464466061693866,0.0,0.045754205021923545,0.1008188869779823,0.0,0.05462939373363785,0.05507085028400304,0.064032440538923,0.039129058669088376,0.0,0.0,0.059998038894844924,0.0,0.04977645186854397,0.0,0.0,0.06798693370176351,0.0457464334882463,0.09245951468889288,0.0,0.0,0.053426415913925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111124095385713,0.0,0.08391509543947566,0.0,0.0,0.1637634641532224,0.0,0.0,0.1113413863026227 schizophrenia,cepheid22,2019/01/16,"Movie Recommendation I am watching Elizabeth Blue. It's about a lady with sz. It's very touching if a bit slow. Beware, the intro music gets very loud and overwhelming; turn down your speakers. You can watch it for free if you have US Amazon Prime.",3.011914893617021,5.6969459361702155,3.8930212765957455,83.89400000000002,79.0,6.313191489361702,22.16595744680852,7.554174236665415,1.082850212765957,197,6,36,3,5,63,40,47,0.0,0.889,0.111,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,3,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,5,2,4,5,1,2,0,1,3,0,4,1,0,2,1,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4181079471274725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20008788270353084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4165652685109187,0.0,0.0,0.4606700481841269,0.0,0.0,0.6319866039090777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,outsatptnin,2019/01/16,"Ah/be interactions Did a small dose of shrooms this am. Probably 1 gram. And in doing so had a fruitful/progressive conversation with the voices. And had more concrete visuals than in the past. But I also took some black maca powder. I’ve been celibate for some time and I’m thinking there’s an odd intercourses between my libido and the a.h. There’s been a consistent illusion of an in-appropriate sex act and there’s a relationship with religion and sex that gets played upon for the majority of my a.h. And recently there’s been odd pressures in my cranium altogether messing with my memory more so than I can afford to speak on. The flashes of people who don’t have basis in my conscience is disturbing but a majority of my actual brain capacity is lingering and as frightful as it is to practice good health and truth for self approach, it’s a miss diagnosis to see some of the voices as a full personal conscious dilemma, no connection to... We should probably have a boycott and recycle more. Amazon: Ice cube greatest hits Gil Scott heron- Black wax ",4.361060606060608,6.840316520202028,5.8040404040404034,73.0427272727273,73.1919191919192,9.652525252525253,31.707070707070702,9.994966539143718,3.7961191919191934,853,41,145,26,18,287,122,198,0.106,0.804,0.09,-0.0799,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,0,0,0,7,8,0,3,16,0,16,5,1,0,1,23,23,18,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,2,5,14,0,0,2,1,0,3,2,5,0,0,7,6,9,3,28,14,10,14,0,1,3,2,8,8,0,3,3,102,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.2327139410956275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907057010707452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662132408868128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12459160026963473,0.0,0.0,0.2000187149583708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534842241076756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276481839676315,0.16532622329131275,0.2082242560241689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5142255684290855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354619957111843,0.2560293182875413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900310387137118,0.0,0.2487779510638411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528030112462568,0.0,0.0,0.1390547432137922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649507897792075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wsethdalton,2019/01/16,"delusions associated with political figures Hi, I'm a journalist for VICE News on HBO doing a bit of research. I was speaking to a psychiatrist recently who told me she had a patient with schizophrenia, with delusions that he was the son of Donald Trump. She then told me this was not a rare occurrence, and that Obama frequently appeared in patients' delusions when he was president. I'd like to learn more about this phenomenon. Does anyone here have delusions associated with political figures they'd be willing to share? If preferred, you can email me at [seth.dalton@vice.com](mailto:seth.dalton@vice.com) and let me know if you want your notes kept off the record. Thanks &#x200B;",8.058367149758457,10.720504208695658,7.042028985507248,67.33338164251211,63.43478260869566,9.285024154589372,36.256038647343004,9.725611199111238,3.937183574879228,564,27,84,12,9,172,81,115,0.0,0.92,0.08,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,3,1,0,3,3,0,0,7,0,12,0,0,0,0,18,20,6,0,4,3,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,6,0,1,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,1,11,3,15,8,2,9,0,0,0,0,16,4,0,3,5,58,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897573569746721,0.32495342871390603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869913791555016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919613376086777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340274236313165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697104475089606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734625227684367,0.0,0.13065146561512814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640521861968788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24621111863363135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5110764718611603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15773554443851154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32495342871390603,0.0 schizophrenia,thatoneweirdcousin,2019/01/16,"What does 'proven persecuted' mean? I've been lurking this sub quite a bit and although I've seen it in the flair selection, I've never seen the proven persecuted flair in use and can't find anything about it online. What does it mean?",3.569565217391304,5.657084434782611,4.029782608695655,86.65380434782612,74.21739130434783,7.208695652173913,24.54347826086957,8.07648339933343,1.3001913043478268,188,6,38,3,4,59,30,46,0.145,0.855,0.0,-0.6662,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,7,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,4,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22835835781447825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30295746790580336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.485683181647097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536294199381394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6045563863372543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2140246409161446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2951547649300019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396703799430501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mitakellotofu,2019/01/16,"My dad had schizophrenia, and I'm desperate to understand more - reading recommendations? Preemptive tw for talking about suicide, and sorry if I phrase anything ignorantly or get things wrong! Hi everyone! I made an account just to ask about this - my dad killed himself when I was 5 (having been kicked out by my mum just after I was born), but I only properly started to come to terms with that and what specifically drove him to do that really recently. Having schizophrenia is one of precisely three things I actually know about him (along with him liking sci-fi shows and getting into Oxford for a PhD, woah), and I'm so, so desperate to understand what that actually means. If there are any books or things you guys could recommend to help me comprehend things and what he went through better (we have no contact with his side of the family, and even trying to seek it out has just been dead end after dead end), I would appreciate that so much!!! Thanks again, I hope you're all having a lovely new year!",7.244919786096258,7.6446535989304865,7.1940106951871705,73.76395721925135,63.81283422459893,10.864171122994652,32.508021390374324,10.637119530657019,3.4267582887700527,801,29,144,19,11,256,125,187,0.138,0.713,0.149,0.7533,0,0,0,0,0,1,27.0,1,1,0,1,13,8,1,0,4,0,15,1,0,1,2,35,32,16,4,5,8,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,13,16,0,1,4,3,1,3,1,3,0,2,8,0,19,5,26,22,4,19,0,0,0,1,18,4,0,5,13,105,32,3,0.0,0.0,0.2886995139945733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10059149100334568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217265470060198,0.0,0.13828635763783284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082428405263902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12742101921636492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11810304475894184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26202856241611433,0.0,0.0,0.09770056001735958,0.0,0.0,0.14134504923393332,0.0,0.0,0.13944694627201967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545654475030741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464652478788825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991484648473295,0.0,0.0,0.14691913175826155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636528956308511,0.0,0.08129362512278362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07226682837738843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335046616391466,0.13996661959995108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611295555012209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10873910480877567,0.0,0.0,0.14286322036428598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002352359109074,0.11250074105799812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14796123335664274,0.0,0.09476211087917,0.0,0.14605434338391782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16558567714229744,0.1046993893804214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618017883503996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11889346044125206,0.0,0.13618597059841342,0.0,0.0,0.3930890999280097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042878756252502,0.0,0.0,0.3079823797089508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13712443786145612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105078979097316,0.16172861527179705,0.0,0.0952564054459499 schizophrenia,EPIKNICE,2019/01/16,"Questions about living with schizophrenia I don't know if this is appropriate for this sub but ill just give it a shot. First off i'm a 19 year old programmer apprentice from Switzerland and i'm currently working on essay about Schizophrenia for school. I wanted to get a deeper insight into what it's like actually living with schizophrenia so i thought i'd ask if some of you could answer a few questions, it would really help me out a lot. Thanks Also, please forgive me if some of my questions are dumb. I'm not a psychologist. 1. What were the first ever symptoms you noticed? 2. How did you react to it? 3. How did you find out you had schizophrenia? 4. If you're experiencing hallucinations, how vivid are they? 5. Do you get used to hallucinations after a while? 6. How does schizophrenia affect your daily life?",2.1032503840245766,4.961840019354838,3.3517972350230463,84.17817204301078,87.51612903225808,5.533026113671276,22.86482334869432,7.07126945348624,1.1263210445468523,653,24,118,10,21,211,102,155,0.052000000000000005,0.835,0.113,0.8590000000000001,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,7,1,3,10,4,1,0,8,0,11,3,0,7,1,36,23,13,0,7,7,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,8,6,0,0,9,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,5,2,14,3,18,16,4,13,0,0,1,0,15,5,1,10,9,81,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.16001539322209554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13113029500020815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15329396013520896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13092024220161358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349513151120347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483242625570051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498696613117573,0.2789531382536734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17133974712003486,0.15729921785268272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099086061517289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901160601934118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11581999148030353,0.08010962540060855,0.0,0.2895848573605613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13940519933870632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18668597903122025,0.17206358419117895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17999468707262226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5510666775404341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10504622072326203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16595088059140325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17043222080016712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15096562744506384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017738385128164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14162126253841484,0.0,0.0,0.09671636914164908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193753403070526,0.0,0.0,0.11648273270005878,0.0,0.0,0.10559415887789513 schizophrenia,felorva,2019/01/16,"Books that explain schizophrenia well? Hi All, &#x200B; I am looking for a book that will show in detail the life of a schizophrenic, but not a reference or non-fiction book; more like how Kissing Doorknobs (if you've read it) explains OCD really well in the story. Or something like Perks of Being a Wallflower. &#x200B; Thanks in advance!",7.5058196721311505,8.862962491803279,6.219795081967213,77.6316598360656,63.42622950819673,8.067213114754097,38.200819672131146,8.07648339933343,3.2980786885245905,276,14,43,3,4,82,48,61,0.0,0.6940000000000001,0.306,0.9689,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,6,0,3,3,0,1,1,10,7,5,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,6,6,5,2,4,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,3,2,29,4,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4355698740055132,0.488477412550901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419732357975075,0.1963982658138042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16879055566615847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010557976002764,0.0,0.12876664618747574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15474070065902185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185055087197288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614488025672596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.488477412550901,0.0 schizophrenia,cti75,2019/01/16,"good advice to deal with voices and thought insertion I hear voices 24/7, and I recently found a very effective way to silence them, temporarily at first but then after a week of doing so, it doesn't talk anymore, or very little, and I feel i'm on the brink of complete silence in my head. &#x200B; whenever it talks to you, repeat what it says in your head in your head, this is tricky because you need to think 2 things at the same time, you own line of thoughts aswell as what the voice is telling you. In this venture, it's crucial not to respond to the voice but you can talk to it and tell it how little of a bitch it is(like once a day max), thats not a problem, just don't respond to it, repeat what it says, no matter what the provocation is in my case the voice tries to make me believe that when I say something about me it ""saves"" it in the ""system settings"", which is total bs and just leads to more games and delusions, if you get such a thought, you must think: ""but I don't want that, so who cares"" or ""this is not my intent so it will not apply"" or ""this isn't my thought, how could it change something in me"". Thought insertion is a very bad and mentally painful experience, but it can be stopped with time, you just need to fight (or not), basically you fight it by mocking it, voices are bitches, they only speak to you in your head and show you hallucinations and subtly try to fuck with your mind so that you start believing in delusions. Tip: the more you talk to them (or it) the more it will talk to you and the more control it may have on you Many of you (including me) may not have been aware of thought insetion at some point in their life and people might think that they thought they are worthless, but that idea comes from the voice, it wants to bring you down to it's level, because it knows it is worthless. From my experience and research thought insertions comes before hearing voices, my rational theory being that voices will start semi intelligent entities that will learn over time how to talk to you, due to their semi-intelligent nature this process can be reverted, and the first step it to make it stop talking (using my technique works fine apparently). The second step is to stop the thought insertion, paralize it's thought process like it did to yours and take your revenge. You can hear it's thoughts but so can it, and just as you it cannot block thoughts, think of it as 2 merged minds that have their own conscious and are battling for control. As for the headaches and cracks, don't mind them, the voices use that to spook you out, distract you and gain more immaginary control over you. Just ignore them and if they talk repeat what they say on the second thought line dedicated to imitate the voice, think of your mind as a mirror. I hope all goes better for the people who hear voices and suffer because of it aswell as the people with other disorders who suffer all the time. I share this so that all our minds can be free &#x200B;",10.2725862841775,6.812016986254298,9.018558195129241,75.47376736889288,60.40893470790378,12.114866278201106,39.565516210966685,9.54385415503706,3.4896842073808454,2354,83,477,29,23,727,229,582,0.12300000000000001,0.802,0.076,-0.9862,1,0,2,0,2,0,79.0,1,30,12,10,17,25,7,1,29,0,42,7,4,14,5,118,86,50,0,10,24,0,1,1,0,8,2,21,0,0,60,27,0,8,25,2,1,6,13,16,0,4,16,22,61,10,72,57,13,55,0,4,0,1,72,25,3,12,22,338,121,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05225467269343338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11587921940115944,0.12995476647859275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05303234530881275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04464898257039037,0.09779269566196007,0.0,0.04550286978513543,0.12049492275835436,0.0,0.04729385890806483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054520827264298216,0.0,0.05656894155919216,0.0921271115432337,0.056067006782096085,0.0,0.17992863140380633,0.042695045311272925,0.0,0.0,0.034486635386174365,0.05512987218697785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061286421757672876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10461666429311654,0.0,0.0,0.027038319198511268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09097078249459256,0.0,0.05863204057494085,0.0,0.04943632320815064,0.027938224616352602,0.0,0.0,0.04485188226082292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21952110035748906,0.0,0.24107863861751985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053112254644365836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06036621332640565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02938819244854479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03777062814005287,0.02612494469022551,0.10719101540113654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07138930188582795,0.054214760411388334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053889729166070495,0.05672800505069452,0.26997005828312043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930134380937119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056948608379968214,0.0,0.040669774829487186,0.056900649322084024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112174773730315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05055069683783546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051167884583259916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05279962782849813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17010030798834025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823345813017774,0.0,0.0,0.07569906741665533,0.0,0.0,0.1341212554280343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04020617685224147,0.3438462871885588,0.09347815818617436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03552608860984338,0.1713215353608963,0.0,0.5518862454834671,0.12472566823023595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07261136483466603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09236961556801608,0.0,0.1323662142052301,0.06308130344710916,0.0424455773392264,0.042894026727603465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038930080465398184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995476647859275,0.0 schizophrenia,Throwawayundertrains,2019/01/16,"Chewing I notice im constantly chewing, grinding my teeth,im on abilify and antidepressants, is this normal?",6.3583333333333325,9.984317055555554,7.58666666666667,56.70000000000002,72.8888888888889,10.266666666666667,42.333333333333336,10.125756701596842,6.361466666666669,89,6,10,3,2,30,16,18,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37990963991943133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.759486605391909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444525010728162,0.0,0.4002514662449644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thekingalquarious,2019/01/16,"Everything is finally good except...... the medication makes me feel like I’m not me. I can’t explain it’s just like I can’t have any fun. Like there is a huge bolder attached to me and I can’t go anywhere or do anything.... I am thinking clearly almost 100% and have been for some time, but there is a lingering “I don’t feel right in my body” feeling ever since I’ve started taking antipsychotics. It’s worse than any other meds I’ve ever taken",3.0818681318681307,4.408835428571429,4.781098901098903,83.93890109890113,73.83516483516482,7.397802197802199,27.285714285714285,7.957251820313856,1.6992593406593413,348,13,70,5,7,118,62,91,0.049,0.762,0.19,0.7227,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,3,0,12,2,1,1,3,18,23,4,0,0,5,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,5,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,2,3,9,5,5,21,1,9,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,8,43,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20882734505086706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28363502970935434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161447967463378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23164609566216324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772811547969849,0.0,0.0,0.18742648643699636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163393267830372,0.14898434126163088,0.0,0.22845047299619944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11852073180699126,0.17491736000268812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30565314932760523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392051747760345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23164609566216324,0.21008679716702008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17809599358281075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17251029141116625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14760897826079236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15679962481615226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336269925202704,0.0,0.0,0.12160406381908075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21252481714654914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,steph4staph,2019/01/16,"[SPOILERS] Bandersnatch Why couldn’t the main character be comforted by his dad and have a happy ending? Why did he have to hurt him? Just disappointed that getting help wasn’t an explorable option in the show. ",3.4410526315789483,6.610729421052637,3.8318947368421057,81.12626315789477,83.73684210526315,7.2505263157894735,26.02105263157895,8.238735603445708,2.4122989473684218,170,7,28,4,5,53,34,38,0.141,0.6509999999999999,0.20800000000000002,0.4696,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,5,7,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,2,3,3,1,3,0,2,0,0,5,1,0,1,1,19,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33374502619040103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19686956585719176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40112510901055226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525702289253565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4033867773752791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.680031371153583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheyAreNotHuman,2019/01/16,"Doc got me wanting to do it again Said no. Too Many possible outcomes again. Last time It didn't turn out too good.. &#x200B; Bright side is no more Doc, Doc is saying the free",1.2558333333333316,3.614478472222224,1.6866666666666674,99.00000000000004,83.72222222222223,4.711111111111111,20.11111111111111,5.985473137389443,-0.20742222222222206,139,4,31,1,4,42,29,36,0.106,0.745,0.149,0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,1,4,2,5,1,6,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,4,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148639252233711,0.3531096264402939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.243740677151263,0.23241858926770426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368769934023996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29462180288044904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276067405518243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764262219570368,0.2310960107070641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16945063005268685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160882946480185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714028357647413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3531096264402939,0.0 schizophrenia,keefersphasethree,2019/01/16,"The beginnings? Hello, I write to you in a paranoid state so forgive any mistakes, also I've very recently found this sub. I'm 19, and started smoking weed a couple months ago. I began reading up on schizophrenia because of a friend who suffers from it. I've always had quite a few issues with ADHD, ego, depression, so many possible disorders, but I've only been properly diagnosed with adhd. My problem in trying to help my friend is that every time I read up on schizophrenia or bipolar I become incredibly paranoid and fearful, I think of a few acute hallucinations from my childhood that I somehow forget and i feel intense anxiety and my eyes inexplicably tear up. Sometimes I begin to dissociate, and feel as though something might be inside me. When I was very young, 5 or so, I went through episodes of what my religious chalked up to demonic attacks(she suffered them at the same time) I remember black gooey forms screaming at me and trapping me in a hallway or elevator by making it endless. Around the time I was 12-15 I was thoroughly convinced I could control the wind or chakra, despite clear evidence I could not. I've had no such hallucinations since, though I do get delusions of grandeur(i don't think they're delusions as most everybody I meet likes me very much, and I'm very talented.) These feelings haven't been around much until I visited my friend in a mental hospital, which I've always been deeply afraid of ending up in. Since then I've had intense episodes of paranoia like I'm now, I feel like other beings are watching, oh boy my eyes are tearing up just talking about it. Do you think I may have schizophrenia?",5.464694802435916,7.225698208469055,5.835847613652457,76.99640277581081,68.54397394136808,8.466166265401501,34.520464523438605,8.964715089967882,3.218971505452485,1318,65,225,24,23,422,178,307,0.11599999999999999,0.77,0.114,0.3005,0,0,1,0,0,0,35.0,0,2,1,2,14,17,0,2,11,0,23,4,2,2,1,42,41,23,0,4,7,0,4,3,3,2,2,1,0,1,11,11,0,1,10,2,0,2,4,8,0,0,12,9,34,9,37,23,7,37,1,3,4,0,15,17,0,8,20,149,45,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582163128799096,0.0,0.0952288656546075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08591051664151858,0.17877820254879045,0.0,0.0,0.07305505027815418,0.0,0.0821824931537502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912682467171269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654874042916479,0.11864631593071605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12049017514676608,0.17154579948677015,0.11886756979538385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925279924057392,0.10903764584617892,0.0,0.0,0.12312234524467736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09514974681598573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09051312775062112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12088690689296072,0.21727626940648465,0.07674692757575963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11778978336525275,0.2489969314756447,0.0,0.05612694685193062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200704564745489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11212742232251582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15745238671461556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07170934459444904,0.10891561715124484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10826264038977616,0.11396464049590195,0.0,0.0,0.08574838780687914,0.0,0.15794458735565156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08170419995114996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12110946977195862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027945468249042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426341211080088,0.2149151033406538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607266372957956,0.0,0.1216955259070786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17773189757916755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270369238308684,0.10624951365709176,0.0,0.07603843107389996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634694290385372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065074966323512,0.2110958723075984,0.0,0.18792723181126508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07293688612797586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3545589872755546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958727723798347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bhsgzjsn,2019/01/16,"Does anyone see the ‘yarn’? There’s this thing that looks similar to yarn but is more or less alive, that connects to every bodies head, then goes up to the lining and intertwines with itself. Everybody has their own string of ‘yarn’. Do any of you see it? If so, can you explain it to me?",2.614210526315788,4.504292877192988,3.3472280701754364,91.36926315789476,76.36842105263158,6.665263157894738,20.171929824561406,7.554174236665415,0.4909045614035099,222,5,47,3,5,70,46,57,0.0,0.934,0.066,0.5988,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,4,2,2,0,0,6,8,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,8,8,3,2,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,2,1,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346244218736477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.241244968266362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3832377921000515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019280281389074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906929800144909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3540885349653944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897286580650274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5498701746503711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22921497110619005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TehFook,2019/01/16,"Does anyone else see the ‘yarn’? I feel like I’m the only one, when I bring it up to my friends they just kind of laugh and roll their eyes. Does anyone else see it? If so, can you explain it to me?",-0.08727272727272606,1.287123909090912,1.5727272727272743,103.37909090909092,82.63636363636364,4.4,15.545454545454547,3.1291,-1.4189818181818181,148,2,40,0,4,48,34,44,0.0,0.8009999999999999,0.19899999999999998,0.8572,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,2,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,7,4,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,7,4,4,7,0,3,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,1,2,23,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3271429090700728,0.4793841877361776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4094328439882552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3908421552260797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11828359833318412,0.16712184500358868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807361237028648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436053128418266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142878905130105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585191148490464,0.17791665505957094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3728287678675573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,IndigoSpeculation,2019/01/16,"Do you have pleasant hallucinations? Out of nowhere I started hearing music. It sounds like a group of people in a band, but it's indistinct. I can't make out the words but they tend to sound like rhyming words. Weird echo stereo fuzzy effect with the audio. It also mixes in some songs I enjoy. I know they're trying to entertain me. I know this isn't real. But it's still happening. For me, it doesn't seem to be particularly dangerous. It's like a weird bug in the software. Do you also have weird hallucinations like this? Should I increase my medicine? 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As a a paranoid schizophrenic this is extremely devastating the hits just keep on coming. I've had enough but god won't take me. nothing in life excites me anymore as there's been too much negative stuff going on it. the one person I thought didn't hate me turned out to a be a Nigerian man posing as a female. after the week before I was struggling getting over getting rejected in the most devastating way possible publicly. There's no way out..and nothing in life excites me. I have no motivations because everywhere I am people don't like me. there's so much negative in my life I don't understand how I still wake up in the morning.,3.9512440191387546,5.890463413533838,5.361544771018455,78.15821599453179,72.75939849624059,8.746138072453864,32.39166097060834,9.339509955726095,3.2369007518796984,546,27,99,13,11,183,85,133,0.307,0.648,0.044000000000000004,-0.9908,0,2,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,8,7,1,1,10,0,11,5,1,2,0,11,23,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,2,3,3,0,1,3,0,0,2,8,4,0,2,6,0,13,3,16,14,4,19,0,2,0,0,3,11,0,1,5,73,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17056738000743474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484320959089023,0.0,0.1463504062827157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481537347827873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17771114061527732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797148418430815,0.0,0.09774560263303664,0.0,0.13755572353242998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16980403506947486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15287217986737545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3644438339791842,0.08402538757625748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528641599860631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33005714888224313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11654454381516555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11923587146730592,0.15017460710951722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938923318168904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13735104569733433,0.0,0.0,0.17980077988226872,0.1968868420292644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12931470795546318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13654046036375656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18707519999770447,0.16800876124845204,0.1790471465453142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730345368471456,0.2759192230436922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,IncognitoSchizo,2019/01/16,"I feel very low of myself being diagnosed with schizophrenia thinking about faking bipolar disorder to have more opportunities in life I avoid telling people that I am schizophrenic, but several of my teachers know from reading my hospital reports. The school guidance consular gave them access to my file, and now all my teachers know that I am suffering from schizophrenia except for maybe one of my teachers. I kind of feel like I’m being treating like I’m incompetent I’m a high school student, and I sort of feel as if I’m being labeled. I sometimes get to the point where I question if I do have schizophrenia. I feel as if I lied to my psychiatrist last year when I was hospitalized I believe I do not hear voices, but that’s probably because I’m on medications and making progress compared to last year. I hate my diagnosis I really do you never hear of successful people who have schizophrenia maybe like one or two one being John Nash. So I’m sort of contemplating whether or not to fake bipolar to have a more socially acceptable mental disorder because I absolutely hate being called a psychotic schizo I remember while I was hospitalized I was treated very poorly and the nurses would call all my complaints psychosomatic there was a girl who would fake seizures and fainting yet she wasn’t treated like absolute shit like I was probably because she wasn’t schizophrenic but I did act very erratic while I was in the hospital most likely due to fear. I feel like I’m sort of romanticizing bipolar disorder and my parents know this thankfully they didn’t bring it up to my current psychiatrist. In my opinion psychiatrists are nothing but silly doctors who will believe anything I say because I’m very serious, and they have respect for me just as I have for them unlike those racist nurses who would make notes that I’m hallucinating when I was not all in all my life would be better if my doctor changed my diagnosis from schizophrenia to bipolar disorder I mean most of the schizophrenics are very disrespectful reckless people my sister has schizophrenia and I can say I never want to be like her she’s disrespectful, rude and says things like I have 30 children she even said at one point that she was a time traveler not to mention she put bread in the microwave while she was in the unit in hopes of burning it down, her plan worked and they had to evacuate from the unit and she managed to escape, but the police found her after a couple of hours. I hate psychotic people in no way do I compare to my sister and I will get my diagnosis changed. I mean come on how hard will it be to pretend to be manic and depressed. 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My mom got it before I was born. However, I’m 20 now and I’ll be heading to Amsterdam soon and I really want to try weed. Do you think there’s a chance this could trigger something within me? 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I fear that my soul got destroyed by another being in the future and I will no longer exist after I die or trapped being tortured w/ no escape. Wonder how you can avoid what the future keeps telling me or change that persons heart to have mercy and not destroy me, it'd be able to change its destiny.",9.704375000000002,6.853287354166671,9.011666666666667,73.20000000000003,60.875,11.683333333333335,36.5,9.516144504307137,3.2802999999999987,390,12,73,5,4,124,67,96,0.213,0.7240000000000001,0.063,-0.9505,0,2,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,2,1,0,2,5,3,2,2,0,10,2,1,2,0,13,14,8,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,9,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,12,0,9,7,0,13,2,0,0,0,7,6,0,4,7,53,21,0,0.18254112783790505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5742308657765407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3862086183254312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18944887116838705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054095182720474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14599481538135228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16142051649572695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21631211538918071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16225094168052234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289341969744094,0.0,0.0,0.32237432037872754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15938787188853054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057876943287868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19043020707564506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15954899155622485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979580664570228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PLS_PM_ME_YOUR_CATS,2019/02/06,"My friend has schizophrenia, and does not know he has it because of a dissociative disorder. I believe he is entering a psychosis, but he refuses to entertain medications, therapy, and hospitalization. How do I help him? Do I just let things happen? His mental illness has been escalating in intensity the past few weeks. He believes he can ""connect all the dots"", that he is psychic and enlightened. He's been ranting more and more and coming up with more and more predictions and theory about EVERYTHING - how the world works, how it should be, how we are straying farther and farther from a perfect world and how it is his responsibility to lead people to understanding. He's at a point where he believes mental illness is a label used by doctors to dumb down the ""enlightened"" with medication, that therapy is a human construct and cannot help him. What can I do for him, if anything?",8.300638888888887,8.553252175,8.600833333333334,65.06305555555556,61.625,11.861111111111116,40.27777777777778,11.429527900616536,4.9427569444444455,708,36,116,19,9,234,94,160,0.078,0.794,0.128,0.8638,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,0,3,8,4,1,0,10,0,20,5,0,7,2,33,25,17,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,1,7,14,0,1,4,1,0,3,2,1,0,0,2,0,11,3,15,20,6,15,0,0,0,0,20,10,1,1,2,89,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12890130771071906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09548624145421647,0.0,0.0,0.5294386502778555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13493142137688208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17952291915686844,0.16032759569196647,0.13707664971534547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407778600451345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12101961375838045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385161640918006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20998487331935894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608520363560099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16017493104935232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31559648042435223,0.31571239485048896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14953052797516705,0.10859439783804904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14807535505376335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35826280002919675,0.0,0.10406460273830856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16306768109662925,0.0,0.13528659817777572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256470955830936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11403572745352974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,unusuallyalice,2019/02/06,"I took 1P-LSD while on Abilify Maintena and Invega Trinza (and I enjoyed it). While some effects have been lingering on, the experiences I have every time I take the 1P-LSD have been quite pleasurable. The effects have been hampered by these medications so I hardly had any fractals or the like. Most things just looked utterly misshapen and warped/breathed. The physical feeling was peaceful and euphoric, and my body felt airy and as if my movements clicked into place. It is still a different feeling from your regular LSD, and certainly different when unmedicated (but this time I am medicated). In any case, the lingering effects are things I saw before when in psychosis, albeit more minute. Text now melts on the screen and everyone seems really menacing. I have drawn the ""unusuals"" towards me in many ways. As usual, when my anxiety gets up there, my psychosis becomes more prominent, and this has occurred more often lately. Just felt like sharing.",7.277510040160643,9.26352255421687,7.0074096385542175,69.46163654618478,64.42168674698793,10.834538152610442,37.92971887550201,10.864195022040775,4.822933333333333,768,40,117,22,12,242,108,166,0.01,0.8170000000000001,0.174,0.9788,2,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,4,10,6,0,0,9,0,14,3,1,3,1,27,24,20,0,1,5,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,10,0,0,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,9,14,6,13,15,5,24,0,0,4,0,2,10,0,6,13,86,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22289565965726327,0.0,0.12537203762120594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809987725324252,0.13945457729766808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820399594244636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34245114745408184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13808068874637278,0.1565997167058497,0.0,0.16031156678885491,0.0,0.0,0.1657309700453035,0.0,0.31471175890011444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08562346337095235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14680930975886494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18487009839217428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16013245476180962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13762263076730313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16615427844804462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3301950065040238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17122557372704092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743125117302307,0.0,0.0,0.10498931372945257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14919529774039691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13087925415193472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232215775435829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21775662473682653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19112602593362976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820829349223301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18049683797812907,0.0,0.0,0.1300847633115868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thebestolivesincali,2019/02/06,What's the point of r/schizoverse? Why do we all of a sudden feel like this sub would be better off without personality? You guys are pissing a lot of people off ,2.3390909090909098,4.316138060606065,4.075757575757578,85.43363636363638,77.48484848484848,5.612121212121212,23.12121212121212,6.42735559955562,0.5463212121212124,128,4,26,1,3,43,29,33,0.078,0.754,0.16699999999999998,0.4696,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,1,0,1,0,3,1,0,3,0,4,1,1,0,1,6,5,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,6,3,2,4,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,2,19,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31516407420164955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18018210048650424,0.2545776886589581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3528441572199987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17409541528150016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029574280232251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24704936398791194,0.31115251406296496,0.0,0.0,0.336867490557593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215519355251261,0.0,0.0,0.3435102724029012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531419866355618,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MaliciousMe87,2019/02/06,"Lots of medicine, finally suicide-free! Guys, it's been an amazing two weeks. I'm on Latuda 120 mg, and I haven't been this free from suicidal thoughts in YEARS. Less doctor visits, no more psych wards... I can't tell you how excited I am. Finally somewhat free from the dark side of SZ! Now if I could only get my weight back down...",1.422430703624734,3.662042970149255,2.584648187633263,93.57970149253731,81.98507462686567,6.216631130063965,23.004264392324096,7.447530270364453,0.8896712153518123,257,9,56,4,7,82,56,67,0.08800000000000001,0.713,0.19899999999999998,0.8441,0,0,0,0,0,1,16.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,1,0,7,9,3,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,3,0,0,1,3,1,6,6,7,5,4,11,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,3,6,34,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19395790462672324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201394064577128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581795455888849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5526357867796075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13178561052072274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497584346773704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144464388843057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19184079086067607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27591092065615885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204699173996041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20025132866354772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464029898353103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023326670758011,0.307161814354874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16243505583554615 schizophrenia,latincollective,2019/02/06,Be Careful With Cannabis If you choose to use Cannabis be careful with dosage... Although it seems harmless and has little affect with most people it can easily destroy mental health.... My mental health was 100% until I started smoking Cannabis a few years ago... If you struggle with addiction r/leaves is a support community,7.5219642857142865,9.490124410714287,6.305714285714287,74.78928571428574,63.82142857142857,7.742857142857144,39.0,8.07648339933343,3.5259785714285705,261,14,38,3,4,78,43,56,0.095,0.736,0.16899999999999998,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,0,0,6,1,1,2,0,6,3,0,2,0,12,12,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,4,6,9,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,4,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23141546768166155,0.0,0.0,0.18817254493452487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4328652214324385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.451285347818129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247728337640251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21275934787385573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42785465149536384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14716754552304015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932508491041996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502521844573912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22192012464686334,0.0,0.0,0.24089171869233325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833409180616968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13670073041027034 schizophrenia,pvriscvlt,2019/02/06,"Familiar audio hallucinations New to this diagnosis, but I’ve been in psych care for ~10 years, about 5 with extensive care due to an initial diagnosis of bipolar 1. Does anyone hear a voice that’s not...”invented” by your mind? Like a well-known voice of sorts? I hear a voice of an actress that I had a very deep emotional connection to before she passed. It just seems odd to me?",3.831261261261261,5.637461135135138,5.165945945945946,79.99234234234235,72.78378378378378,9.257657657657658,27.1981981981982,9.725611199111238,2.5556468468468467,300,11,60,8,6,100,57,74,0.039,0.767,0.19399999999999998,0.9146,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,7,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,5,3,12,5,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,4,31,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675921716328298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20395287782069307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4887462999246271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20974851527990676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696115088923067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5402811114915673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11709717821398875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420118580312034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314876735403465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21819872048027728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19776386588995615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155041169741142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543482194386494 schizophrenia,Reframingrabbits,2019/02/06,Who is literally an experiment? How?,2.8350000000000013,2.7560491666666707,9.180000000000003,34.59000000000003,140.66666666666666,14.533333333333335,36.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,8.219933333333335,29,2,4,2,2,12,6,6,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SanseiSans,2019/02/06,"Dealing with really paranoia lately... Occasionally a voice or two will scream at me about something (ex. Today it screamed at me about The Boss (whoever that is), but this paranoia has really been kicking my ass for the past few months. I recently met with a few friends (and some bullies) from middle/high school, and we've exchanged info, but I'm worried about them finding out more about me, my illness, and my identity. I made a Twitter account because they have accounts there, but immediately deactivated it because it locked me out of it and wouldn't let me in until it had my phone number. I knew, in my gut, it was a trap. I'm also paranoid about my family. We've never been really close (except my brother), but I can't help but think that they're putting through all of this madness because they want to kill me. I don't know what to do. All emotions are dead. I killed those things a while ago, but unfortunately, I only have this urge to run now.",6.150063882063883,6.372535043243243,6.596117936117937,77.72670761670761,66.13513513513513,9.105651105651106,33.57493857493857,8.841846274778883,2.7155945945945947,753,31,144,11,11,245,117,185,0.261,0.705,0.034,-0.9939,0,0,1,0,0,1,32.0,0,0,3,0,8,6,3,0,7,0,15,3,2,2,3,30,23,14,3,2,8,2,0,0,1,2,1,3,0,0,14,9,0,0,5,0,3,2,4,5,0,1,7,3,23,1,23,13,6,19,0,0,0,1,10,7,1,2,10,105,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531589223884535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13817199291624302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3159749998819972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17812845059501553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943540887922462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628814765242363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15791766335227864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334892924909272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11581069920270308,0.18255141007733092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3823106348391703,0.0,0.09495529336423787,0.0,0.19490320967175634,0.0,0.0,0.17667911470325975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16348848270993369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13791123713142106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13325848082423364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13140687052301778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16493792836797572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736914830490811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3320616109106507,0.0,0.1705992690348629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17486244423901626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13301437873766025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11478726267149607,0.11071035878296144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16377510619962893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687808189098234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10191003895708056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17546633641219225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Esplenade56491,2019/02/06,"How can I handle being persecuted? Afaik many shizophrenics have delusions of being persecuted even when not, atleast I do. But what do I do if I REALLY am being persecuted. My younger brother was insulting someone else in a humorous way calling them abnormal, crazy, and scary when infact he meant me. My brother isn't an insecure person so I probably accidentally hurt his feelings during our interaction shortly before his passive aggressiveness. Now my question is how do I handle this? I simply ignored it because I didnt know if it was real or not but if it was, then I don't know. I don't want to ruin our relationship as siblings and I feel like if I ask him directly if he really insulted me, that would just make things worse and awkward. Also, how would I know what made him act that way if I don't ask him :/ it's times like these in which I get really frustrated for not being normal.",3.855310077519382,6.027128639534888,5.75874418604651,74.1986589147287,73.65116279069767,9.005271317829457,29.48992248062015,9.558583805096642,3.1408894573643416,714,31,125,19,15,246,104,172,0.191,0.7040000000000001,0.105,-0.9279,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,2,0,1,0,10,12,4,2,2,0,22,0,0,5,0,34,34,21,0,10,13,2,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,12,3,0,1,7,0,0,1,8,9,0,0,6,2,28,3,6,22,0,11,0,2,0,0,21,3,0,8,7,96,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13693080439253688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32014974525601914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10437887348125847,0.0,0.14570224052585348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17484272131480652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14303884978295422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11309434254840305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17315583416513367,0.12232516970484344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.089459454802275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18330289408275688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823069515160602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16730650145601694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16201987808019008,0.11429588159447901,0.173598107082294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677668822740896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14950950449483372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18461252162063915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918143157521674,0.0,0.0,0.19489471524371785,0.3290787266666961,0.0,0.0,0.18383456972888534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14508075355855118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375613740443948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09984430321670727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10099458881313822,0.27182530455514103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17449574971297802,0.2432706231071101,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lemortjoyeux,2019/02/06,"Have you or are you dating someone with a mental illness? How do you deal with it? My wife has severe bordeline personality disorder but deals with it well. I also am managing okay but sometimes she'll have a tough week in the middle of some bad symptoms. Her bpd is triggered by feeling abandoned but when things are really bad for me any stimulus drives me insane. I can't be talked to, express anything, be touched, noises drive me crazy, etc. Basically all the validation she needs I can't give. I tell her I just can't and she understands but it just crushes her and I feel terrible. This isn't happening right now but I know it will happen again. I just want to do better.",1.8918181818181807,4.57770628787879,3.450227272727272,85.02034090909092,84.60606060606061,6.633333333333335,24.15909090909091,7.865858978985527,1.6534909090909098,538,21,102,11,16,177,91,132,0.24,0.679,0.081,-0.9769,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,0,1,9,8,0,0,4,1,17,2,0,2,1,25,26,11,0,2,9,1,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,6,5,0,1,4,0,0,2,4,5,1,0,0,3,21,3,9,22,3,10,0,1,0,0,17,3,0,2,5,76,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14277415871906227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214097383113804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469188702755909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29813808354879234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15789945981689754,0.0,0.0,0.2248582419649096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3681229334666951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20461626758895984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19911341697370014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18054504725871487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17126678084608613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157553434437874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811801827465057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17992101557080614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238123975667504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15588963943833495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437391939335492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15246768353931014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20169342650219635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15127189698141225,0.0,0.17657541264708956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18556594373044533,0.0,0.14349945283768353,0.15604722286426118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11861054120802422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18586094982793447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10530440916448257,0.0,0.14320979099688544,0.0,0.1605241630253522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Kiwikitty00,2019/02/06,"Could my problems be schizophrenia all along? I am currently diagnosed with major depressive disorder and anxiety and panic disorder. A lot of times I have extreme paranoia and I have bizarre thoughts and most of the time I write it off as anxiety. An example of this is the other day I was in class and I started to get paranoid that someone was going to get me and that I was going to die. So I walked out of class and went and sat by the wall while my world was crashing down around me. I laid on the floor because I needed some sense of grounding. After this was over I just said it was a panic attack. I never heard any voices but it all started because I was having bizarre thoughts and I was paranoid. I don’t hear voices during the day but I hear them when I’m laying in bed and my fan is on and my tv is off. They are very muffled voices and I can never understand what they are saying and it always sounds like a group of people. I only hear them if my tv is off and no music is playing. I just need advice. Is it my anxiety?",2.130756115641216,3.975161690140851,3.795250803063997,87.81969607116385,77.63849765258216,6.36214479861626,24.82554978996788,7.273561745256523,1.1406206572769957,812,29,165,10,19,271,114,213,0.161,0.799,0.04,-0.9498,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,4,0,5,7,1,2,9,0,24,1,0,0,4,38,43,21,1,5,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,10,1,0,11,18,0,0,3,3,0,4,4,5,0,0,14,10,31,2,25,27,6,31,0,1,0,0,12,15,0,4,13,130,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272667962950101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836821925355272,0.0,0.0,0.08856611816490033,0.0,0.29889450648633736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11593918610311288,0.0,0.14816421244881045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15878341510199645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039842248427062,0.0,0.0,0.1679851149902652,0.0,0.11217356059254156,0.13218854808348549,0.13516619532657276,0.0,0.2985274292786446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13608767054971532,0.0,0.14803419942825569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4403621400331224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06362757324336189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11072345535348893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931392437900788,0.2008947228528628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09905165761833792,0.0,0.30561181497789763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09029043916205412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12461991260204867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238858993872047,0.10357026525395786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103500006624144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18436586234417973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206788409862262,0.15188532807910207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13558206346251944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745976165888818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073167467543874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,worriedschizowife,2019/02/06,"I’m worried about my husband/having a hard time coping. Hi so, literally just made this reddit to seek advice. Maybe comfort? I honestly don’t know. My husband is schizo. We were the best of friends! Always joking and have so much fun together. He told me everything.. but now, He’s completely shut me out. He’s a completely different person and I’m having a hard time coping. I feel like I’m mourning my best friend, the love of my life. It feels like I’m married to a completely stranger, most days. I haven’t gotten to the acceptance stage and I don’t know how. It’s such a huge adjustment, going from being involved in every way.. to being ignored, and kinda neglected. I’m not here for pity or whatever. No matter what, he’s my person and I’m not going anywhere. I’m just having a hard time adjusting. Now for the worries. When things “get bad” for him, he NEVER wants to tell me about it. Is this usual? Or just me? He’s super withdrawn which I expected, but I mean. How am I supposed to know when I should be worried, if I have no idea what’s going on??? I have anxiety, so I’m constantly worried. Every time he leaves, he might now come back. He might now be there when I wake up. When he goes outside, alone, for any reason I’m constantly worried. Obviously all of this is harder for him than it will every be for me. Having said that, I’m struggling with this as well. 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Started me on 250 (I think) of depakote and 40 Latuda. Not sure if I like it very much. It isn’t helping me in the way I hoped and in some ways it’s making it worse. What do?..,-0.959347826086958,0.7957287173913059,1.5936521739130465,100.02308695652177,87.91304347826087,3.68,15.72173913043478,3.1291,-1.2632817391304347,155,3,39,0,5,53,37,46,0.146,0.7559999999999999,0.098,-0.3339,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,2,10,7,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,5,3,5,6,2,10,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,5,27,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631557241321231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474582169854407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19499897280186787,0.0,0.0,0.2889513198405808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14212985872185369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941927822545929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231489051137881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21386124105659327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20591618250068008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27419066662525265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18641115535808672,0.0,0.0,0.16963903478793554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400412268505819,0.0,0.4618408943731768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29647450682948423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,____void___,2019/02/16,"I feel better today things have been bad for a while but I feel good today for some reason. Yesterday I hallucinated the sound of water running and I walked all over the place looking for the source before I realized it was a hallucination. yay fun. &#x200B; im going to talk to a therapist about my age regression that happens sometimes. but I enjoy it, so I hope they don't tell me my coping skills are unhealthy. &#x200B; aaaaaaanyway, sorry for rambling, how are you guys today?!",5.408571428571428,7.377317444444448,5.944285714285716,75.34500000000001,69.0,7.80952380952381,29.523809523809533,8.418075326091056,2.401047619047619,390,15,64,6,7,126,67,90,0.08199999999999999,0.6829999999999999,0.235,0.9547,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,2,3,7,0,0,6,1,6,1,0,2,1,11,12,6,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,1,0,4,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,2,4,12,6,9,10,2,11,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,2,6,45,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33823463253177544,0.3793191127174584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13032390354937556,0.0,0.0,0.1328162764683114,0.0,0.0,0.13804391392559626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15784186337544145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08870632690825901,0.13091613831406346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15454803531084738,0.1380248656406002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155026967090455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16859787049725894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310715340470371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16307491356152268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16048069646396762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437140249306264,0.17472363887384704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545467944517608,0.13642459211945426,0.0,0.0,0.18122594796133767,0.10369549940307447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4438491091759233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3793191127174584,0.0 schizophrenia,oniikai,2019/02/16,"Does this sound like prodromal schizophrenia? Hey guys, I've been kinda paranoid about my mental health as of late, and before I see a psychiatrist I kinda wanted to run what I'm feeling past you guys to see whether or not prodromal schizophrenia is something I should be worrying about. Here's an outline of what I've been feeling: dissociation - derealization. things really dont feel real sometimes, especially when I get anxious about mental illness -my time recall has gotten much worse -i got lost once? memory -my word recall has gotten slightly worse -it's been really hard to recall names **note- I still end up remembering the word/name -ive been having difficulty processing people talking to me, for example I'd hear ""you're a sweep"" if someone says ""you're so sweet"" reading -ive been noticing that I replace a word on a screen/paper with another similar word while reading, involuntarily - I can read aloud really well but reading in my head is noticeably harder writing -ive been misspelling words slightly more often when writing. general -i sometimes forget to bring things with me. (i.e. bringing taking my clean clothes to my room but forgetting the hamper) -i notice that I'll decide to do something (like go downstairs so I can get water) , but once I partly do it, I forget the rest of what i want to do -my general processing of thought has gotten noticeably slower, which makes me kinda scared - i sometimes wake up delusional(my brain is still working in dream logic), but it wears off after 30secs to a couple minutes. I've always had social anxiety, but I've never really been depressed. I dont hallucinate(or at least I believe I don't) but I do have a lot of noise in my vision and tiny dots that float around from time to time. And if it helps, I'm 18 years old and have aspergers. 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She was initially under deep depression and then developed schizophrenia. It's been years she's on meds but there's no signs of progress. I've been reading a shit ton of articles online in an effort to help her, but to no use. Do I am joining this thread to understand more about schizophrenia In An effort to help her situation better and help her out. I'm just starting out. Please tell me what are some of the basic things I should know, what are the correct ways to support my sister in this journey especially when she just can't forget the past and keeps bringing up the same things. Also is there a road to progress? Will there ever be a time she will completely recover? We miss the old her. P.s. please if there is anything I said that was offensive or if I overlooked something, please correct me. 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My partner (31M) has two children from a previous relationship, and we occasionally discuss the possibility of another child. We’re in agreement to wait at least another year. I’ve only had brief periods without antipsychotics (the most recent being 6m), and they always end rather poorly for my relationships, friendships, and career(s). I know that all of my medications have the “talk with your doctor” warning, but as it’s entirely hypothetical right now and in the distant future, I figured I would ask here first. Have any of you been pregnant during your disorder? Are any of you pregnant right now? Were you advised to continue or quit your medications? Were you switched to another medication? How were your symptoms?",6.622579908675796,9.193245116438364,7.17828767123288,65.26802511415528,67.013698630137,10.620091324200914,37.509132420091326,10.686352973137794,4.944883105022832,681,37,102,21,12,223,101,146,0.038,0.917,0.046,-0.4137,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,8,1,3,5,1,0,0,7,0,12,6,0,1,2,19,15,9,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,6,0,0,3,2,7,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,5,0,18,1,18,8,3,19,0,0,0,0,20,7,0,2,11,75,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11106662799702699,0.0,0.0,0.18154289453343092,0.4198984293700431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247864277070036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305960872689278,0.13662314350855692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822427323866044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270772154991033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07335749706411507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09428135969045998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11812621132322156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4034032605215346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10151808053101473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15047942349021365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419731455585906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179607933346074,0.4299249257970235,0.0,0.2279835619243647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138737547004889,0.0,0.10728672343112487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778336644643858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13039123980337655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128670623051164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948208532832571,0.0,0.0,0.08595718879906378 schizophrenia,chandelly,2019/02/16,"for those who has the onset of the illness due to drug abuse how was it? how long were you using the substance? which substance(s)? did you have the onset after one psychotic break or after a few?",1.457894736842107,4.135002684210527,2.27926315789474,92.2578421052632,87.94736842105263,4.092631578947368,18.12631578947369,5.6839178017228535,-0.2253326315789473,154,4,29,1,5,48,31,38,0.183,0.8170000000000001,0.0,-0.8343,0,0,1,0,1,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,5,2,0,3,0,4,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,0,5,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,26,6,0,0.0,0.544386383216599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.532829115742639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4066086982722596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113427959904292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3968269510245848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,VicariousLiving247,2019/02/16,"Messed up meds schedule the other day... ended up adjusting Hey all, The other day I messed up my meds and accidentally took a paliperidone in the morning when I was taking just one at night. Anyway, other than that sick feeling of having too many antipsychotics in your body, everything was.... quiet. Like, a LOT quieter than normal. I talked with my pdoc and we decided to up my pali. from 9mg a day to 12mg, one 6mg pill in the morning, one at night. Today is day two of the new dosage, and I DID sleep about 11 hours last night, but I feel.... strangely good. I'm thinking the 9mg wasn't quite strong enough, though I'm resistant to high amounts of meds because I don't like feeling groggy. I did a stress test on myself yesterday and I still freak out under stress and can't handle it, but the general voices that are always there, are almost whispers now. And this is coming from someone extremely meds resistant. I really do NOT recommend messing with your meds if they are working, but it seems for me, by accident I found that a new dosage would work better for me. Hopefully tonight at work goes smooth. \-Vic",5.377050691244238,6.0807041013824925,5.680806451612908,81.94120967741938,67.89400921658986,8.780645161290323,28.86405529953917,8.841846274778883,2.13655391705069,878,29,170,14,14,280,131,217,0.155,0.774,0.071,-0.9587,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,1,2,1,6,9,12,0,2,12,0,15,4,2,0,1,32,27,12,0,4,6,0,4,2,0,1,2,3,0,0,9,11,0,0,8,0,0,2,4,6,0,4,7,7,20,6,29,19,4,35,0,0,0,0,6,14,0,5,21,111,29,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10366383882285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613985133633781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06310696930231964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155812963627424,0.0,0.11499127912973138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917633511454172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670563922089117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09169110024117587,0.10696745682672196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304025330784714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15703378777802204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11350818257895005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08683060645252312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10937826951006507,0.0,0.10282220161938216,0.10194980166618588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08438547571202601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115271318155312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08801198404192187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10495658794928622,0.0,0.0,0.574956395648657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19996729728107465,0.0,0.29144939674566495,0.10143105722939054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104506236768876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11010999318802224,0.0,0.0,0.0663198097762265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09424391315813388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10359827094031042,0.0,0.08771513195935005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267400681728385,0.0,0.2371716561465768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07783679398148564,0.08320827392875621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06633368351079354,0.10171132050244514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09812818042519747,0.0,0.11501842595774943,0.0,0.0,0.10112742427477207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22609903925985386,0.0,0.0,0.0735401294943707,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FateismysolaceTA,2019/02/16,"I thought curing psychosis was about not feeling paranoid and working through it intellectually Its not, its about working out whats real and what isn't and reality testing your intuition not supressing your feelings amongst another layer of dellusion. 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There’s something very wrong going on my mind and I don’t seem to be able to explain it to my therapist or my ex psychiatrist. My ex psychiatrist gave me meds for months that did not change a single thing, only left me always tired and sleepy. He diagnosed me with anxiety and a little depression. But anyway, I’ll try to explain, maybe someone will identify too? Idk what else to do. I’m really scared to leave my house, or “safe” places, like my room, or even some objects like a teddy bear I have since I was born, btw I’m 21. And I’m not sad or anything, like, If I stay in my room I’ll make my day productive, I’ll do everything that has to be done and more, I just don’t wanna leave it?! It’s like, I’m terrified. And every time I do leave my house (which I have to do everyday) I feel like I’m having a mental confusion or something, I can’t focus on anything, I feel like I’m gonna get lost, or forget my name?! I don’t feel like I’m awake. And I cannot pay attention on class at all. So when I get home I have to learn everything “again”. Most of the times I feel so desperate that I lock myself in any bathroom I find to cry, I even have this one between my college and home. And honestly I don’t know what else to do. Even at home, sometimes when I’m alone I freak out thinking there might be a ghost here, or a man hiding spying on me, things like that... I can be awake for hours and hours at night, like today, bc maybe there’s a killer hiding in my closet?!?!?! I know it probably sounds like a scared child, idk, I’m just so tired, but I don’t think I’m depressed?!?! 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I hate this, and I love it. I hate it. It hurts and it’s hard. I love it. It’s different and (I don’t know the word) motivational? Inspiring? Coercive? Persuasive? Comfortable? But familiar. The only life I know. It’s extra-sensory and inter-dimensional, but undeniably organic and human. They fight against each other momentarily, and sometimes they get along. Most days harmonious, but some days like tonight, they are hyena and kudu calf. Anaconda and river fish. Poison rain and thirsty bird. I never know. I never fucking know. I tear myself apart, my legs, my face, my very own live structure..and then I repair the obvious, insidious damage. I lie and steal my only self away, and try to make it back home. home. I fake and pretend to survive and we know the difference. The masks! Oh, the ill-fitting confirmations. And we convince myself it’s all so fucking real. Myself and I oppose, agree, kill each other daily. They always say I’ll come around. I’ll come around. You’ll come around. It’s fine. It’s done. I’m fine. Nothing matters. Everything has it’s place. It’s an intricate puzzle and we are/have the last few pieces. There are 5 of us now and they tingle upon acknowledgement. They hide low but soon I’ll be awake. And they’ll forget those pieces. Or we tossed them into the breaking waves. Who knows. Eyes upon us always, we thrive, suffocate, die. Now we are three, the golden dew. Goodnight. 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He lives with my parents (about 5 minutes from me) and has a steady job now. However, he is not 100% fantastic all the time. His psychiatrist is still working on getting meds just right, and I know it’s a difficult thing to maneuver. Especially since my brother doesn’t always grasp what parts of his reality are the same as everyone else’s. He has plenty of paranoid and irrational thought lines. I want to know where to go to find out how to best relate to him. And how to really encourage him to explain his fears and thoughts to his doctor in order to get the best help possible. It’s hard to know what to say sometimes. 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We did it to ourselves...and we are the only ones that can undo it. If we lose all of the stigmas and learn to trust our spirit guides or angels (higher selves), then we have an unprecedented opportunity to erase the perceived and closely moonitored ""normal"". Everyone has a Jekyll and Hyde personality -- some people just don't understand that Hyde is never necessary. Primitive and violent behavior is the result of constant fight, flight, or freeze \~ which a handful of people have been using to pull strings. And has now become pop culture (reverse psychology) [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T31h3L\_egm8](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T31h3L_egm8) Mass hypnotic regression, usually resulting in extremes..(docile and unassuming, or furious and violent). Humans feed off of negative energy in the same way spirits do. Occult rituals and channeled entities feed off of primarily negative energy (which has subtle, yet physical vibrations). When we are in pain, a lot of people project their anger onto others, in a primitive rage.. instead of using the incredible gift of consciousness. **Life is not limited to consciousness, unless consciousness is limited to life.** Several power-hungry individuals have infiltrated our way of life, and corrupted the very essence of what it means to be human. They have committed to becoming vessels for chaos, dictating the political narrative in the shadows. Machiavellianism at its finest... and is consistently ignored by MSM -- despite the countless people who realize we're slaves in a seemingly fascist world government. Well, anyways, I got kinda carried away. Ignore my schizophrenic ramblings",8.998568075117374,12.298932119718316,8.345422535211268,56.30656103286387,62.30985915492958,12.338967136150234,40.706572769953056,11.698219412168324,6.478110798122066,1478,82,178,54,24,465,183,284,0.16,0.762,0.078,-0.9835,1,0,0,0,1,0,83.0,8,0,2,5,7,15,7,0,19,0,22,9,1,4,3,52,29,18,0,3,7,0,2,0,0,0,6,0,0,4,11,18,2,4,9,1,0,1,5,12,1,1,4,2,13,3,37,24,4,28,4,2,0,0,17,17,0,9,8,134,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13895364837365173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266801719386012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15982359620318592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28264292438689603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182863571186709,0.0,0.0,0.14644080640215487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133910562841547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16545837467456512,0.16144652165108428,0.12573633191149047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611026669092993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406691324458612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490718754679194,0.0,0.0,0.1551925181727123,0.0,0.1002185090953571,0.1124819674288661,0.15737232405544374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4101312984017725,0.12913753605115907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346394366004119,0.0,0.16708096978126785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15396549248163374,0.0,0.2554702142635264,0.1628871213878143,0.122030117430271,0.0,0.2347867460681725,0.0,0.0,0.13297673254269454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nlogax7,2019/02/16,"Self-Referential Thinking Hi yall, I have been using the mantra ""its not all about you"" lately. It's a good one, gets straight to the point.. Helps with self referential thinking. How do you guys cope with those kinds of thoughts? (like thinking everybody can read your mind, or that you are being followed, any kind of thinking that falls under ""this is all about me right now"")... Thx",2.9089084507042244,5.709858816901409,2.496602112676058,92.970536971831,80.54929577464789,5.240140845070423,22.959507042253517,6.6274283507984215,0.5359422535211271,300,10,59,3,8,88,57,71,0.0,0.862,0.138,0.836,3,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,5,0,0,4,4,0,0,3,0,7,0,0,2,2,14,15,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,5,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,0,7,4,8,12,2,8,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,1,3,38,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13568664180125678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424572844587338,0.0,0.0,0.1673555568635285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19756519589329105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13374016132673336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4155577422703667,0.0,0.0,0.2250775350123301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974798480303813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014675289554812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352060936292853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886195092089797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19958311255439304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703967758303501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41630476972439295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5114008065268018,0.0,0.15840383139176614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17232909380213554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nazzy72,2019/02/16,"Going through the worst period in my life Schizotypal, 17, male. Obviously have social problems. The main two are extreme social anxiety and not knowing what to say. The latter going as far as me not having any thoughts 99% of the time. I think I read somewhere else on reddit that this might be from Invega(which I am taking), although I'm not entirely sure. Let me get to the point. I am a foreign student in college in the US. I've been here for about one and a half months. I have this awful trait that I easily fall in love with women. I've already had a few crushes(god I hate this word) and this is far more that plain sympathy. I don't have any friends in college. Whenever I simply contemplate talking to someone I don't know, I experience severe anxiety, similar to a panic attack, even stronger that a psychotic episode. Now About a week ago two of the three friends I had back home left me. Because I was ""always 'eating' their free time and always asked for advice which I never used"". One of them told me he would come back when I stopped doing that and found some friends. I also found out from that third friend, which didn't leave me, that the other has no intentions of coming back. I really miss them. I really want them back. I spend most of my time in bed studying, jerking off, or crying to Radiohead(they're fucking amazing, aren't they?). Yesterday I experienced the worst anxiety in my life, again, when I contemplated talking to people, but this time overcame it. I contacted with three people and was once again convinced that I won't find any new friends, neither will I make my old friends come back. The first guy looked like he was about my age, but turned out to be 26, so I don't think I should even consider this option. I feel I did relatively well, but he didn't seem too interested. Next was my crush. We use the college shuttle at the same time on Tuesday and Thursday, and before that we obviously wait for it at the bus stop. I came over, said ""hi"". She had the most apathetic look I've ever seen. Also, she didn't say anything, so I apologized and left. Next was another girl who also seemed my age, but turned out to be 21. We talked a lot, but I did awful in the conversation. Some awkward silence, but not too much. Sometimes I feel like I don't have a filter. The conversation was so bad that I contemplated suicide for the rest of the day for the first time since September. Right now, I see two ""barriers"" in getting my friends back. The first is that I am much younger that almost everyone in college, so making friends is going to be almost impossible. Second is, that as I mentioned earlier, my head is lacking thoughts, so I won't be able to get past small talk, which is also an issue. What would you suggest?",4.337603189493437,5.829114690431517,5.103935741088179,82.20318316135086,70.95121951219512,8.256829268292682,29.084849906191373,8.769984970463412,2.2422458161350853,2162,84,419,39,40,700,260,533,0.142,0.792,0.066,-0.9895,0,0,0,0,0,1,82.0,4,1,5,3,31,28,4,2,29,2,50,6,1,5,5,76,93,31,1,6,11,0,2,2,8,7,2,3,2,4,28,21,1,4,13,1,2,8,17,11,1,13,23,10,64,18,51,57,16,74,0,1,4,2,47,26,1,12,42,302,92,6,0.0636392168552319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06218750617831523,0.05641232597153981,0.0,0.12745096602937175,0.0,0.07022745828912362,0.2035690349076527,0.10590585290984587,0.0,0.0,0.12983054922987206,0.06673126767824662,0.14605148011816785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05236965305916301,0.0,0.05949407709684314,0.07239879642846697,0.0,0.2936077772835008,0.05313608786225475,0.03879387591709398,0.0,0.054152286294002185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07278631040157123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16445865095826562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06990469144806412,0.04104203013057108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06511880639080718,0.053162399676598505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08406620507426409,0.05756531505948126,0.0,0.06080999890389841,0.0,0.06225136549272155,0.0,0.0,0.0643558003730441,0.04546386923709445,0.0,0.0,0.05816509128405984,0.16239445604085376,0.0,0.1395542330498441,0.3933400086275938,0.05883343051398336,0.09974659258514036,0.0,0.1085029005154687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06301283003010068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06283055137678133,0.06531219640797516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06383532333037682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06642280840925074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06994889854866737,0.0,0.0,0.06738474187217343,0.1382883906380898,0.06507541092333224,0.08990052180017026,0.06218181362891609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068818284241341,0.0,0.0,0.05410378641038735,0.05743687785276039,0.0,0.08495934283496971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06751115226135332,0.0,0.0,0.05079621574030198,0.0,0.09356429362147152,0.0,0.04908248727202842,0.061463152199843565,0.13536205819342678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06677865282102495,0.06777368899146835,0.08624716067396511,0.0,0.0,0.07466690914435041,0.0,0.0,0.060750833415802286,0.08823884008547464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0601596299409235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06089413586648808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06365643853111219,0.0,0.08153782378548285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05434754347559469,0.06053546846334811,0.10121691906882366,0.0,0.0,0.050712216436438,0.11586950580634645,0.0,0.07189420086351353,0.0,0.05264301781216914,0.0,0.0,0.1297443346167075,0.05392130192437356,0.0,0.0629408127203858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064104697329446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06961097417676282,0.0,0.05997920874686055,0.0,0.047848771076876455,0.20460316759018146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155488104376196,0.0,0.10104485922710074,0.22265123472786594,0.0,0.0,0.06080999890389841,0.0,0.0,0.13844238695468314,0.1864988031830562,0.0,0.07655014218674328,0.10992770105986052,0.0,0.0,0.0375360589364695,0.0,0.05104754110288148,0.0,0.05721929871555029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904149475112498,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kardavox,2019/02/16,"I'm the subject of my neighbor's current paranoia Hey friends, I don't have schizophrenia, but my neighbor does. Her family told me she has an official diagnosis. Her family came by and let me know today that she has been telling them that my girlfriend and I have been talking to her through her car radio and through her bathroom vent. Now, I have known people who have similar paranoias and I get that it is a really hard place to be in. My question is, since she and I run into each other from time to time outside of our apartments, how can I make sure that I am not making her paranoia worse? I want to be as sensitive as possible and not feed the thoughts she is having. Thank you all for your insight :)",7.443642857142859,6.281234935714284,7.297142857142859,78.36785714285716,63.92857142857143,10.285714285714286,37.85714285714286,9.23628265651192,3.3215000000000003,561,25,110,8,7,179,92,140,0.092,0.8140000000000001,0.094,0.0671,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,2,1,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,18,1,0,3,2,23,28,10,0,1,3,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,7,9,1,0,5,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,5,1,28,3,15,20,2,12,0,0,0,0,24,4,0,1,5,85,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336684981049452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17878715629174236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3851978548763662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15784418895790728,0.0,0.10674001906798336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830155883221946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227972662569152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089139214520336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27274801993263226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416381536826065,0.0,0.21345341901634712,0.0,0.0,0.23032122425749865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288664039608909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308818974171286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16900176475514686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925534011557666,0.0,0.0,0.16421121847824846,0.17857005096508613,0.1880949893174199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16219396454194052,0.23826174332799144,0.0,0.19365559834196108,0.19522051654002465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12050335383223652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20820247220164886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LotusTheFox,2019/07/04,Hallucinations Is it reasonable to name hallucinations and have pleasant interactions with them? sometimes I feel like I may be one of the only people who does this but they do seem to enjoy their names.,6.288333333333334,8.846235611111117,6.790000000000003,67.75500000000001,67.8888888888889,9.244444444444444,28.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,2.9905666666666666,166,6,27,4,3,54,33,36,0.0,0.7909999999999999,0.209,0.802,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,9,7,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,3,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,2,1,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3527963864551684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20384308040543508,0.288008076932285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19695710972190905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731826316523822,0.3066112253417942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794911549567127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4145019428085967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3670096067753076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3987223862891773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lunakat1984,2019/07/04,"It does get less intense After almost all my life suffering from delusions of persecution and religious delusions they have mostly gone after therapy and the right medications. It just took a very long time. I still do hear occasional voices but they're also not as mean. In a way I am better but I know have, I think they're called negative symptoms? No joy no emotions really. But I'm hoping with abstaining from alcohol this time around that should help too. Just wanted to share a story of hope if not quite a success story. I know how the voices can be tortuous but they can subside and did with me.",3.1846231884057983,5.858330991304352,4.462282608695652,80.13922101449278,78.21739130434783,7.659420289855072,24.36594202898551,8.59863814320734,2.0785507246376818,484,17,85,11,12,159,82,115,0.129,0.687,0.184,0.8088,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,3,7,7,0,0,6,0,9,4,0,1,1,28,21,11,0,5,9,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,4,6,1,1,4,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,3,3,9,6,12,16,3,12,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,5,6,62,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20187952763522474,0.18915875803652976,0.0,0.0,0.15106541369389248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16816344463038915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16706907911968713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928907680339806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653100178319971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21249010169736585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09869385934369282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129070617157265,0.0,0.1266174918374405,0.0,0.0,0.3752459908443368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20763195741395774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13342755712528045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671729370584897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057704091521873,0.0,0.1902995875482968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20092126430365212,0.0,0.0,0.12101590094428084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16132186591368236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15085793299807748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963422254323854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21602669011955605,0.0,0.0,0.12104121679626773,0.0,0.0,0.22030135640147303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20987784026273898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15586450351348527,0.11141970141477406,0.14994216336951852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,daughniel,2019/07/04,"Hey everyone, I am taking risperdone 0.5 mg and a side effect is tremor in my chest area. Should I be concerned or is this a normal side effect? It is not a constant tremor, it is there when I wake up from an exciting dream or nightmare - or from a restless nights sleep. It is there when I get anxious.",4.340081967213114,4.910931491803279,4.865696721311477,87.33985655737708,70.14754098360656,7.411475409836067,28.364754098360656,7.1686216300943375,1.383488524590164,235,8,49,2,4,75,41,61,0.07,0.84,0.08900000000000001,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,5,0,8,3,3,2,0,9,10,6,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,4,8,0,9,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,3,4,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4258538470474879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4073563457358006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3601983423021957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19694435096789506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3537483874323642,0.3693375933980942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772289978479196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28342457381598873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,margaux_33,2019/07/04,How to help a friend with shizophrenia? Hello to everyone! My best friend has shizophrenia. I wonder how I can help her copy with her symptoms and make her feel better? I already asked this on another site but I want to hear your opinions too :),2.164855072463766,5.009795195652174,2.791304347826088,88.70550724637683,86.17391304347824,6.544927536231885,22.88405797101449,7.793537801064563,1.5040405797101457,193,7,36,4,6,60,34,46,0.0,0.647,0.353,0.9388,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,3,4,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,3,0,11,8,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,9,4,6,8,1,2,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,2,0,25,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28734940007944065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730440514441125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434316687309972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27326567480991154,0.23029584639778775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24881602053612795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316621808573306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023569208537262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934810692693372,0.0,0.34907096639443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17381389551551665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27064732281898457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358613681183875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823843633433431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,biomirorr,2019/07/04,"the voices scare me i think i got shgizzofrenia as child alredy . i go outside, i hear voices. i stay inside, i hear the voice of neigbours . i see my mother, i hear her voice. usually its not only voices but also other sounds . right now there is a fan blowing and i even have tactile halucinaddions and feel a wind on my skin. &#x200B; doctor said its normal but how can it be normal when its a disease . pls help .",1.0336700336700346,3.627983567901236,2.72379349046016,88.64979797979801,89.8641975308642,4.426936026936027,18.47474747474748,6.1124844417494595,0.0513851851851852,323,9,61,3,11,106,59,81,0.027999999999999997,0.866,0.106,0.705,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,5,0,4,2,1,1,0,10,13,8,0,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,1,10,0,1,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,13,13,0,3,10,0,7,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,0,3,41,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14649343091922767,0.0,0.19848148418914516,0.22259051330705432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874981890024132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12099233865577827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09262412626239484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10410857865103276,0.0,0.14651023142227265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6193903390924783,0.0,0.12278542348045005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3589659213349812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13932087757426134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15643947242533116,0.17425142230539106,0.0,0.18340070851150175,0.0,0.14597517895906625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19525143970376066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173779139615211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20175302064881648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22259051330705432,0.0 schizophrenia,TransKitten69,2019/07/04,Seeing/ Hearing things Has anyone else been hearing or seeing demon voices/ seeing shadow devil like creatures? Or is this just all in my head? Would love positive feedback. Thank you.,3.943655913978493,6.923517612903229,3.5540322580645167,78.78438172043013,98.67741935483869,3.3569892473118284,27.747311827956988,5.46131890053228,1.6430602150537643,150,7,18,1,6,45,28,31,0.10099999999999999,0.597,0.302,0.8299,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,5,11,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,2,3,1,9,1,1,2,0,3,1,4,1,0,2,1,13,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699220115106569,0.2489979859202319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20300817580903308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24940390071783655,0.0,0.5477920140983286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11872504467532732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21933087798871145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5809554090459474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22373592153531488,0.0,0.0,0.16144862725475434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726311610441463,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FoggyTom93,2019/07/04,"Can you live alone with disability as your only income? I live with my parents and want to get my own place, But I can’t work and a cheap bachelor apartment would eat up over half my disability check. I am scared if I don’t do it soon I will never get to live alone and be in care/group homes my whole life. I also want to give my parents space but am worried about if I will be able to support myself financially.",4.864827586206896,4.463738241379313,5.844275862068965,84.15331034482759,68.88505747126437,8.799080459770115,27.74482758620689,8.238735603445708,1.5218662068965516,325,9,73,4,5,108,57,87,0.094,0.835,0.071,-0.2263,3,2,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,1,3,2,0,1,1,0,11,2,0,0,1,13,17,9,0,5,4,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,1,5,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,15,1,11,12,2,8,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,2,2,52,16,1,0.17476163812051165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620007034808835,0.0,0.13975681886533234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17818113731648397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17882478508806968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826114857947093,0.16764728773820672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753001722278739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343931332017072,0.0,0.0,0.46295318472614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13478694903178487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13291410085166872,0.0,0.0,0.3881042349746533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825887157173441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749668871729003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983174359200478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061578841627804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951151278636522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12722855395279686,0.177478926643168,0.0,0.12414565356445813,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,-Flounder,2019/07/04,"I Remember I'm pretty sure that I remember what it was like to be normal. To not hallucinate. To not have symptoms. I began exhibiting symptoms at age 10, so it was before that. I remember what it was like. Like my vision was clearer. Crisper. The sunlight meant more. Everything just had this crispness, this passion. A passion surrounding it. Now, everything seems blurry; dulled.",2.845603799185892,5.844791850746272,3.869036635006786,78.17213025780192,93.17910447761194,7.212483039348713,29.971506105834465,8.00094639256281,3.30608656716418,302,16,46,8,11,97,44,67,0.051,0.6629999999999999,0.28600000000000003,0.9524,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,2,0,7,4,0,0,1,10,11,1,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,10,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,7,0,5,6,4,3,1,5,0,1,0,2,0,2,0,1,6,34,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16789847046862375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3546636432600332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891908757807067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933244322630111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20073782619953734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6705500586558257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17962595977222495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18596476894515845,0.4101666347664359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,forlbw,2019/07/04,"Systoms of schizophrenia Schizophrenia involves a range of problems with thinking (cognition), behavior or emotions. Signs and symptoms may vary, but usually involve delusions, hallucinations or disorganized speech, and reflect an impaired ability to function. Symptoms may include: * **Delusions.** These are false beliefs that are not based in reality. For example, you think that you're being harmed or harassed; certain gestures or comments are directed at you; you have exceptional ability or fame; another person is in love with you; or a major catastrophe is about to occur. Delusions occur in most people with schizophrenia. * **Hallucinations.** These usually involve seeing or hearing things that don't exist. Yet for the person with schizophrenia, they have the full force and impact of a normal experience. Hallucinations can be in any of the senses, but hearing voices is the most common hallucination. * **Disorganized thinking (speech).** Disorganized thinking is inferred from disorganized speech. Effective communication can be impaired, and answers to questions may be partially or completely unrelated. Rarely, speech may include putting together meaningless words that can't be understood, sometimes known as word salad. * **Extremely disorganized or abnormal motor behavior.** This may show in a number of ways, from childlike silliness to unpredictable agitation. Behavior isn't focused on a goal, so it's hard to do tasks. Behavior can include resistance to instructions, inappropriate or bizarre posture, a complete lack of response, or useless and excessive movement. * **Negative symptoms.** This refers to reduced or lack of ability to function normally. For example, the person may neglect personal hygiene or appear to lack emotion (doesn't make eye contact, doesn't change facial expressions or speaks in a monotone). Also, the person may have lose interest in everyday activities, socially withdraw or lack the ability to experience pleasure. Symptoms can vary in type and severity over time, with periods of worsening and remission of symptoms. Some symptoms may always be present. In men, schizophrenia symptoms typically start in the early to mid-20s. In women, symptoms typically begin in the late 20s. It's uncommon for children to be diagnosed with schizophrenia and rare for those older than age 45.",7.0482172701949874,11.148258247910867,6.8001721448467976,59.09716072423399,77.94150417827298,9.6686573816156,42.556044568245134,9.439034500452443,6.297947253481895,1897,127,209,61,50,596,193,359,0.17,0.738,0.092,-0.9846,0,0,0,0,0,0,86.0,0,4,1,3,4,11,1,0,17,0,35,13,2,3,1,71,48,28,0,7,19,0,1,0,0,8,9,9,0,8,12,14,1,1,13,1,0,3,7,6,0,0,1,12,5,5,53,32,9,34,1,3,2,1,25,16,0,28,14,160,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06735611592680463,0.07008341822869775,0.0,0.0,0.05727709048831201,0.08831911009879509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910075245657613,0.0,0.17662032750057555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08548839654459414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948755473874465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16477988187670134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545064029075298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898593778668427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950114629461486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09422820900163628,0.0,0.0,0.07601794653846562,0.0,0.056222021661136566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16504869917711593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05839223578124431,0.3677178251302964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059364188755748,0.0,0.0846711654137053,0.09435325634388712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06711782920712793,0.0,0.0,0.09515227362598752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858585830330579,0.0,0.0,0.08330242720941905,0.0,0.059616139892130174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7003508943138178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05595652207252025,0.21587644798620154,0.0,0.0,0.04911330574540981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185527770933257,0.0,0.0,0.06685528799264452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tiptoetac,2019/07/04,Sleep paralysis? When ever I’m really stressed I have sleep paralysis and started around the time my symptoms got worse is this a symptom?,6.109200000000001,8.40914012,5.805,75.70750000000002,67.8,9.8,36.5,10.125756701596842,4.2954,113,6,18,3,2,35,22,25,0.235,0.765,0.0,-0.7313,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,2,4,2,0,1,3,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364083133152429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24021789311703926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21239583588365812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17012713488025166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5315116877775181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879676061850824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042027297059985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.552045475151302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15485253707309213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706324615524424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,0Jiminie_Crickets,2019/07/04,Depression with pychotic features vs schizophrenia Can someone tell me what the difference is between depression with psychotic features and schizophrenia,13.874285714285712,18.900409047619046,9.29547619047619,47.12035714285716,53.76190476190475,13.723809523809528,62.88095238095239,12.161744961471696,10.724409523809523,134,11,10,5,2,37,17,21,0.28,0.72,0.0,-0.8126,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7318094727225489,0.0,0.0,0.4438560560001689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3599563719521613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.371319414354484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Gaystreet,2019/07/04,i'm stuck my legs can't move,-3.8887500000000017,-2.5946423749999963,-0.6699999999999982,114.115,97.75,3.2,8.0,3.1291,-2.8074000000000003,23,0,8,0,1,8,8,8,0.28600000000000003,0.7140000000000001,0.0,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jajabinks86,2018/12/06,"Kisses Hi everyone, I’ve been hanging out with my first love and best friends lately. Trying to get him some help as he’s been homeless for many years after the death of his mother. I’m curious to know if anyone has experienced this. When our meetups first began, he kept asking for kisses “a kiss for old times sake” or “can I get a kiss please?” I finally gave in if he promised to get some help and he quickly agreed. Upon giving him two tap kisses, tears began rolling down his face. I’ve never seen someone react this way to a kiss and it made my heart hurt for him. Why such a strong reaction? Should I be careful? ",2.1588440860215066,4.3337151532258105,3.2851612903225837,89.91440860215056,78.91935483870971,5.746236559139786,21.623655913978496,6.816661863887847,0.5129752688172045,485,14,98,5,12,156,87,124,0.06,0.6,0.34,0.9906,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,0,4,3,13,0,0,5,0,6,9,2,2,1,16,21,8,1,3,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,8,2,11,12,16,11,3,19,0,1,1,7,19,4,0,5,13,57,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13125932934396026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17549438469952702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19700227053555885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913947140920086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793760633322746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056398713183845,0.0,0.31935184735687744,0.0,0.0,0.1450332666717445,0.0,0.2942304132747436,0.18007969411466065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22245103692418566,0.2516517049043228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20095988884808388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031668992127234,0.0,0.21175817667491198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16942610138189587,0.17762674644665058,0.0,0.19032027005392102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447824947230596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19698227386253472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060619794095757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15905592901309965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946199282312012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12745066527504678,0.0,0.18337675675138945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14900469319604784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16938957400814528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12088657585592645 schizophrenia,Oogutache,2018/12/06,Do any of you follow online conspiracy theories? Sometimes I feel these conspiracies theories are marketed towards schizophrenic people because most of them are crazy and have no bases in reality. Listening to people who think the world is controlled by lizard people or the Illuminati or the more recent ones that say Clinton controls everything or the racist Zionist theories. I feel like Conspiracy theories have been getting more popular and they can be pretty dangerous for people who suffer from delusions.,13.11921686746988,12.951815349397593,11.837439759036148,47.152063253012074,52.13253012048193,15.528915662650606,49.66566265060243,14.191785591663535,7.871869879518073,426,24,50,15,4,136,63,83,0.21600000000000005,0.6970000000000001,0.086,-0.9218,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,2,2,0,4,1,0,4,0,9,1,0,2,0,11,15,5,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,2,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,4,5,2,8,13,3,5,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,4,2,40,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14875531585874366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13334601061915055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4906862425962152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19659550668899914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22120989555896667,0.15627274786961787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11428616742246675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10686863047919716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14822848363592492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6066059154390693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22254412259793915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159860617027088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395622435140404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163461650319997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401641080791455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mrspacelyy710,2018/12/06,"curious as to what you guys think. ok so i havent been diagnosed with anything yet but i am working on talking to someone about this as it has happened a few times. anyways i have severe anxiety when i go out in public in certain places. just have trouble finding things to say when people talk to me bc im always in my head.. so i went out to this show with my gf and her friends and the music starts and were in the middle of the crowd. i took half of an extacy and a hit of weed, then all the sudden i got this smack in the face of anxiety. i had thought her and her friends were making fun of me when she swears they werent. things slowed down and i started looking around, a few people asked if i was okay and i felt like i was about to pass out so i turned around and started walking through the crowd to the exit. the crowd was huge so it took forever. i felt like i was actually about to die. i felt like everyone was watching me. i felt like nobody wanted me there, like everyone in the crowd knew me and didnt want me to be there. and everyone wanted me to leave. basically felt 100 percent dissociated with everyone. things started to feel repeated, then i somewhat conviced myself this was what dying is, and that i had just died in the crowd. thankfully, this one girl that was in line at the T shirt stand asked me my name and inteoduced herself randonly and i think she grounded me back down and helped me feel better.. now, im aware X and weed are not a good combo for anxious ppl in crowds lol, im aware it can cause delusions. but why did i convince myself i had died in the crowd, and walked out. and why did i think nobody at the show wanted me there? and that everyone is oit to get me and make fun of me. this has happened before by the way. if anyone could explain that would be cool. or ask me some other time questions maybe. i am going to find someone to talk to and i stopped smoking and taking X due to them triggering episodes. thank you",1.899358183488648,3.932398860349132,3.121037537734612,91.48168493240586,79.09975062344141,6.116314476965481,23.520212626328913,7.1686216300943375,0.8052603491271819,1537,52,329,19,38,496,191,401,0.086,0.77,0.14400000000000002,0.9757,2,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,2,2,2,21,19,0,0,19,4,31,4,3,4,2,70,72,37,4,8,8,0,7,5,3,1,1,1,0,2,19,30,0,1,16,2,0,8,3,1,0,2,27,11,54,18,54,40,6,55,0,0,2,0,34,26,0,6,24,229,73,1,0.0,0.0,0.07337723773996123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06256635782092784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150444338284522,0.08494635891947121,0.0,0.0525764907617923,0.0,0.06187719303949485,0.1338749063731006,0.21088509918534806,0.0,0.0,0.05781855219454377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06398345753328767,0.0,0.0,0.0665018410337272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07724362538549766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060035260005689185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07631901729297022,0.3121526440259755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592492809392053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603938636743167,0.0,0.36098396429524093,0.0,0.13744954840459395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161874015878538,0.0,0.0392850872205824,0.0,0.08546749918896719,0.06306807718885593,0.06013847872820935,0.0,0.0,0.07445260413187342,0.1329853292696417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07716941298816908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05040008814695433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24366308800423006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07961822233251295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836767985227811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0631429381663352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10038343487150964,0.0,0.07554118322496355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050952525922811236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10425831416873807,0.0,0.07856037741803214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842330432388081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059796260565341874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08494635891947121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12742107740702582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21288714704079092,0.0,0.0,0.06286447200299604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05653555965478078,0.1813111548089772,0.0,0.13845468879639314,0.0,0.0,0.14986408500992726,0.14454135619220826,0.0,0.059694612192489324,0.08769094712271537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670837337848229,0.0,0.0817880757465179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774024328272608,0.059684472825216266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06970439497939535,0.13569944959334015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05474118801709031,0.0,0.0,0.0534147434057759,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SeaOption,2018/12/06,"Caring for a family-member in the early stages of Schizophrenia Hi All, I'm doing some research on early stage Schizophrenia caregiving and some of the stressors that come up when a family-member caregiver is away from the other member suffering with the illness. It would be really helpful, if you have time and are willing, to fill out this 5 minute survey: &#x200B; [https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/8FFR7KQ](https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/8FFR7KQ) &#x200B; Also would be over the moon if anyone would like to volunteer for an interview! &#x200B; Cheers",18.72478431372549,15.597881635294122,14.34,42.716666666666704,44.41176470588235,15.568627450980394,47.15686274509804,13.023866798666859,6.236686274509804,469,16,55,9,3,136,64,85,0.096,0.773,0.131,0.5081,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,8,0,10,1,0,0,1,13,13,6,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,14,7,3,14,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,4,5,46,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11675343364045845,0.0,0.4745617871271145,0.5322055718400078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208422200321153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371686179203238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14885327070664972,0.0,0.0,0.12576314925935306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09785844800265868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07132656746602367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935291647164742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08513179544737265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111354016827457,0.0,0.5322055718400078,0.0 schizophrenia,hx7918,2018/12/06,Switching Medication I was thinking about talking to my doctor about switching from INVEGA to Prozac with my appointment Friday? INVEGA doesn’t really seem to be doing anything significant for my body (except weight gain) during my diagnosis for schizophrenia. Should I switch? Does Prozac cause weight loss?,7.981224489795919,11.779310387755109,6.774857142857144,63.945142857142855,67.57142857142857,9.634285714285717,30.20816326530613,9.888512548439397,4.106008979591836,255,10,31,7,5,77,36,49,0.057999999999999996,0.905,0.037000000000000005,-0.2593,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,7,1,1,0,6,7,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,6,0,10,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,21,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21976190235768706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966357311630288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27433704125664826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733401084554762,0.2336999200804661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.269027848309714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17108101946904478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24311506315003575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146471224815555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17111680866478554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6503973307229859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,txxxzz,2018/12/06,Latuda or abilify? I’m changing medication from invega because of the weight gain side affects. I can choose from either latuda or abilify. So what side affects did you all get from these/which did you like better? I’m mostly looking for one that will allow me to lose weight.,3.8780769230769216,6.456706038461545,4.804461538461538,79.14053846153845,75.15384615384616,7.236923076923077,25.784615384615392,8.238735603445708,2.020995384615385,222,8,37,4,5,72,39,52,0.048,0.758,0.195,0.8105,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,3,1,3,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,3,1,9,8,3,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,3,4,2,6,5,3,2,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,3,1,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17490721303444193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25376242057528553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035292926159289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14990680965584502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14017737936915464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24094528184863925,0.32099640950475106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890474061698694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19442824606975986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6987962867281264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JessicaM2098,2018/12/06,"What's this say about me as a person? I'll keep this short. I'm 23 years old can never hold a steady job. I went from working restaurants to now warehousing. The longest jobs I have been for 6 months. Why do I always lose the job? I quit mostly because, I get tired of it. I'm currently working 12 hour days for 3 days a week. I want to quit , I'm burnt out on it. This isnt a execuse I work nights and feel like the voices and illusions became worse. However I live with my mother,but I realize that I'm not going to be able to live with my mother for the rest of my life nor do I want to. I am in college,and want an IT job. But still what does all this say about me? I realize its life,and sometimes I just have to deal with it. I'm trying to pursue things right now, I love doing so I wont have this problem in the future.",0.05879731379731368,1.787846247252748,2.422564102564106,95.70299145299148,83.78021978021978,5.582905982905984,18.35286935286935,6.691623216298621,-0.13815848595848654,635,15,154,7,18,217,106,182,0.076,0.8590000000000001,0.065,-0.581,6,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,6,7,4,0,0,10,0,12,3,0,0,2,21,26,6,0,4,3,1,1,1,0,1,2,3,0,1,14,6,0,2,3,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,2,4,20,2,23,22,3,22,0,1,0,1,6,6,0,1,15,93,34,7,0.12905655404064767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10738539146680864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867167748355182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16646160154777204,0.1330516403616364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129382601377412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652548714385231,0.0921980279933575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06742672287340445,0.0,0.07334581377075504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12709470926691194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5122748645294899,0.1147113950217972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823129215492892,0.0630505134059168,0.0,0.2279186032871385,0.0,0.0,0.14438127258344194,0.0,0.0,0.1164785787259644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301171016389923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995363705603359,0.0,0.0,0.1211108334364157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354231438165433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11268720504494745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12348969274856615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745350622149356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021359199768198,0.0,0.20526190344782025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276402319137426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10306473076600824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08573943993813611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14833152388368334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876209286989022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22836269793957195,0.0,0.10352138308007153,0.0,0.0,0.1196367185579673,0.11645346655880505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818641251931952,0.0,0.13151965417728778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.083108189516845 schizophrenia,littlesleepymole99,2018/12/06,"Embarassed myself Firstly I'm sorry I post loads on here, I just don't know anyone with the same problems as me in real life. Anyway the other day was a bad day for me mentally. I was at the dentist and they called out someone's name and I reacted but they were actually asking for someone else. People laughed and I felt stupid. I then went for food. I ordered a burger and I'm sure I said no sauce or any other things (pickles yuck) but when I got the burger it was covered in sauce and stuff and I started freaking out. I went to the counter and they said I didn't say no sauce so that confused me even more and I just wasted £9 or so which made me feel even more guilty and awful. I felt like people were staring at me so I quickly ate the chips and left. I then ended up having an anxiety attack for no reason. I feel like an idiot. I find it hard going out by myself. I have a quiet speaking voice so maybe they didn't hear me. Sorry for rambling.",0.28141666666666865,2.551167375000002,2.291999999999998,93.47266666666668,87.75,4.133333333333334,19.333333333333336,5.46131890053228,-0.23491666666666644,745,22,157,4,24,248,114,200,0.23600000000000002,0.696,0.069,-0.9882,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,4,1,12,11,3,1,11,1,10,4,0,3,1,35,28,22,0,1,6,0,5,2,0,0,2,7,0,0,8,14,2,0,7,0,0,3,6,7,0,1,16,13,31,4,18,12,3,24,0,0,1,0,12,10,0,3,11,113,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.1337370461334093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09319592324076957,0.0,0.10483975159185244,0.0,0.0,0.0958256918236822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281194327980727,0.15590951547293613,0.0,0.0,0.11442761649935512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13993920417341546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767665582122019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144842785217632,0.0,0.1213820053080294,0.0,0.0,0.18103507167728936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13858906707030694,0.09790563067279452,0.26317114447649503,0.0,0.1252574855784642,0.11657118721044213,0.16571646713794547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07788635300260942,0.0,0.10960813941470454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12276622330247068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15446070894461034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531685206510016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14890079009268714,0.0,0.09679958428920438,0.13390742543201706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12967616054198047,0.0,0.0,0.1376810441097781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13811005105318153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19002076667411186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312521057434561,0.0,0.0,0.131134434361319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15598825701016272,0.0,0.14090602790738993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607241010248838,0.10898441402458713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322371219252323,0.0,0.0,0.30682336851356823,0.09700180560728204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568847873129521,0.0,0.0,0.12916415514465934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09104721785676567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25408587660649945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SchizophrenicOutcast,2018/12/06,I feel like giving up. I nearly pushed a good friend away tonight because of my delusions. I know he'll forgive me but I'm just so sad right now. I feel like I'm nothing and this illness cripples me so much. I feel broken and I feel like a retard. I feel worthless. I just want to be loved but my mental barriers are holding me back so much. For now I'll rest because my pain today will be my strength tomorrow.,0.5051162790697674,2.7740706744186063,2.1709767441860457,94.81530232558138,86.44186046511628,4.370232558139535,23.71627906976744,5.6839178017228535,0.3498967441860463,322,13,69,2,10,105,53,86,0.247,0.51,0.243,-0.7558,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,9,11,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,16,16,7,0,1,4,0,5,3,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,5,15,8,6,12,3,11,0,2,0,1,5,4,0,0,9,43,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18204304489888715,0.14898878155392212,0.0,0.23622748790040335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4898520930994817,0.4152646016756564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14969779367913802,0.0,0.0,0.18587137636768566,0.0,0.16251593335820466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10648492961147292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839827153010261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1748751452032829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952635919026897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28487045334953004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859170742870799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20617333469957075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654692057096135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836609633639139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11428413246453335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BentNeckKitty,2018/12/06,"Paranoia anxiety or Schizophrenia symptoms?? CW suicide All my life I’ve struggled with what has been diagnosed as ptsd, panic, and depression, but I’m in the process of getting a BPD diagnosis. I’m a 22 year old female in a partial hospital program for women with problems like mine, emotion regulation, trauma,coping, for depression BPD PTSD type people. A girl was talking today and shared her schizophrenia experience and first psychotic break and it freaked me the fuck out uto say the least. I related to so many of the things she was saying besides the hearing voices stuff. When I’m almost asleep I’ll hear like a crowd of people that seems like it’s actually there but I just brushed it off as being super fatigued and so did my psychiatrist. So I’m very scatter brained and paranoid about lots of things, but I’m able to tell myself for the most part that my “delusions” let’s call them, are bullshit. I’m know they are fake but still alter my thinking sometimes for them. Thought broadcasting has been a huge thing going on in my head for as long as I can remember. I’ll have intrusive thoughts and alter them to make them less freaky to the people around me. I know that it isn’t real and that people actually can’t hear my thoughts..... so I never know what to answer to all those online pre screening things. I feel them but know they are fake. For example, if I think of something my boyfriend wouldn’t like, I’ll instantly try and change my thought. I heard that this is a symptom of anxiety from PTSD but when I googled it, it said it’s mainly a schizophrenia thing. I have lots of weird delusions, like when I was a kid I used to think that people could see through my eyes. I’d stare at things I wanted people to see (later became an art photographer lmao) I used to have seizures and would be totally convinced (and still am) that I could think myself out of them. I used to think that panic attacks would trigger the seizures but now I’m thinking it might have been a little bit of psychosis. I stopped having seizures when I was 13, then smoked a shit ton of weed at 19 and had a really bad traumatic trip that lasted for a long ass time. All my senses were hallucinating. I legit thought the radio was on, I could feel this weird thing on my face, little scary characters popped up in my head, my movements looked like a slow flip book. I smelled weird things. My seasoned stoner friends told me it was just a panic attack, but I developed depersonalization derealization that lasted for almost a year after. Not fun. That being said, I know that my delusions are delusions and not real. I have an extremely vivid imagination, and extreme anxiety. I’ve had multiple life altering traumas, I most likely have borderline, and take lots of things to the extreme when I think “OH MY GOD THATS ME.” But this is really the only thing besides BPD where I have stuck with the thought that I may have symptoms of the condition. Can you have a schizophrenic disorder if you are conscious that your delusions are fake?? Any stories or advice would be much appreciated. I’m so scared about this psychotic break I’ve been hearing so much about recently ",5.515977422688607,6.861230657762937,5.554446696875749,80.64197134112412,67.96494156928213,8.442658398918834,31.29028539629541,8.77342768361299,2.5041480721837983,2520,102,465,41,42,791,270,599,0.193,0.735,0.07200000000000001,-0.9976,0,0,2,0,0,1,62.0,0,3,8,2,22,34,4,5,32,0,53,17,8,5,5,94,103,44,1,11,17,0,2,7,1,6,8,10,0,3,42,21,0,1,25,3,0,3,6,22,0,1,25,21,64,12,58,64,17,49,0,3,7,2,32,18,3,14,33,316,106,3,0.05613532341112098,0.0,0.10955995606300202,0.0,0.0,0.05485478835152911,0.0,0.0,0.11242283533114207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038173944881824684,0.0,0.128830106281112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04997233921558343,0.0,0.12772406867712058,0.0,0.0,0.04687065027426069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06128523424364835,0.0,0.21210142417845546,0.06266558599289819,0.05732044150816934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05938372889070751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13445846391282446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09669854359620668,0.05697617162301296,0.0,0.0,0.06433594396548893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06314468322954221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05491111782012024,0.0,0.0,0.05676741238881808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04774867741675625,0.0,0.0,0.043370011617741636,0.05189620194103087,0.02932838958227924,0.0,0.03190299793357571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522207372201265,0.0,0.25307435710147824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15425252840608775,0.09151556172374796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057402171472393425,0.07930007808803198,0.19197418459774784,0.11252468267309132,0.0,0.0993559894864636,0.04713953362287057,0.0,0.0,0.1431727336379196,0.0,0.0,0.03747076427485329,0.0569124071514716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05955070714759963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08253184344053709,0.0,0.043295022047573004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058904578942175025,0.0,0.0,0.04269344300870948,0.0,0.19758812097554795,0.0,0.060789084906911775,0.0,0.23350299094133575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05371392326341968,0.1968575671993724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277885752563243,0.07192345120854167,0.0,0.05542685965260555,0.0,0.06359037849749684,0.0,0.10679509484738076,0.08928212456685126,0.05620125162087901,0.0,0.08946516978768182,0.05110349013818263,0.0,0.0,0.057622102795242325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0432157144856476,0.05551927023010158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965948357814914,0.04693164394508936,0.0,0.058684828314727384,0.06426151504727523,0.061402932680095015,0.0,0.0,0.17503828456681053,0.04220677707796666,0.04511944658960075,0.04906474692585465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729381452800721,0.2517847401778241,0.0,0.26739105847174666,0.032732958509337336,0.0,0.05320972286265985,0.053639707145761516,0.0,0.03811219977674652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454486876749407,0.0,0.04631752078083224,0.033110068163957694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11963076945044784,0.0,0.0,0.07229861561577793 schizophrenia,halfgracedlife,2018/12/06,"For people who know, what are visual hallucinations like? Ive been diagnosed with schizophrenia, however I’m just not sure I really have it. I don’t hear voices, and I don’t see things that obviously don’t exist. I do get paranoid to the point of panicking sometimes, though I notice it is much less frequent. I may be delusional, or I might actually be the son of a man heavily involved in organized crime. Can hallucinations be visual yet also not be that out of place? For example, I broke up with my SO about a year ago because I saw her put on a pair of shorts to go out with her girlfriend, then come back home in a pair of jeans. From that point on I had zero doubt she was being unfaithful, yet she swears that wasn’t her. I had already been suspicious of her infidelity for quite some time, and I suspect this was her way to agitate me to the point where she could kick me out of the apartment, and have a reason to do so by pulling the schizophrenia card. To her credit it worked, I shouted at her, put a hole in the closet door, and left gladly (under the condition that she give me a few hundred dollars, since I put up most of the money for the deposit to move in.) Another example would be what happened tonight. I was out for a walk through my aunts suburban neighborhood, and I noticed a white SUV pull over and park. I found it suspicious because it was not directly in front of a house, sorta in between two, and it just idled there with the lights still on. No big deal I thought, people pull over to use their phone. I walked a bit further and turned around to head back the way I came. I see the same SUV idling on the other side of the road, facing the other way. The window was rolled down and inside there was a woman smoking a cigarette and talking on her cell phone. I couldn’t hear exactly what the conversation was, but I thought I heard her say, “yeah that’s him,” or something like that. I have made a non-anonymous tip to the FBI about the situation with my dad, so if they found me to be credible, it wouldn’t be unlikely for them to have a detail where I live. Although this person in the SUV might just be a random loitering stranger, or they might represent the criminal aspect, or I might not have really seen anything at all. Can hallucinations of this severity fit this seamlessly? If I were really hallucinating to this extent wouldn’t it show up in more abstract or nonsensical ways? 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Hugs.. that is all.,-4.166,-7.6442225999999955,-2.8149999999999995,119.69750000000002,175.0,1.0,2.5,3.1291,-3.727,17,0,5,0,2,5,4,5,0.0,0.556,0.444,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wants_2die,2018/12/06,It’s has been 0 days since I self harmed. Last time before this was last year....yikes ,-1.16,0.8274363333333383,-0.7944444444444443,111.445,102.33333333333334,2.4000000000000004,6.0,3.1291,-2.9601333333333333,66,0,17,0,3,19,17,18,0.193,0.807,0.0,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33834507176598505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564318070442729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6482262370472727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4148040563249865,0.0,0.0,0.32891511806047546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318552399425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560540451350439 schizophrenia,lucioux,2018/12/06,"i am not a living human being i don’t feel alive anymore. life feels like a cartoon. it has no meaning anymore. i can’t tell what my life is here for. everywhere i turn it feels like a different reality. life is an illusion. i am no longer alive. i have lost all feeling. i can’t cry about it anymore. there’s no reason to cry if you’re fake. i can’t even tell if i’m talking to real people anymore. i’m ruining my social life. i’d rather sit at home alone inside my own thoughts now than actually going out. and every time i go out, i never talk to anybody. i can’t talk anymore. the only way i talk is in my head. i’m trying to get diagnosed so bad. i’ve taken diagnostics tests, they have confirmed it as schizophrenia, they just can’t legally diagnose me yet until i take state required tests. i have an estimated 2 months left until i can get medicine. i can’t bear it. i need actual help, not a bunch of “tests”. american health care does nothing to help people. 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In fact, I don’t have the chance to get psychologically evaluated outside of my PCP. I believe this might fit here, however. I just want to know if anyone else has experienced this. I have an issue with imaginary friends. The past 15 years I’ve suffered from overwhelming imaginary friends— often in the form of characters i like in my head. I don’t see and hear them, but I know they judge me and they communicate with me. Everything I do, private or otherwise, I must defend myself. I have to speak outloud or they cant hear me I think but they have no voices for themselves. It’s a never ending show to them, my life that is. They know everything about me, and they know what I think. They get upset when I speak about them and I do things to appease them. This has been going on since I was very young. I’ve hallucinated many times before, but, it wasn’t from them. Has anyone else experienced this? I don’t want a diagnosis, I just want someone to relate to somewhat...",2.297096474953616,4.9375650918367375,3.718218923933212,84.2728849721707,81.75510204081633,7.033024118738406,23.70500927643785,8.150884317080207,1.6092938775510204,802,29,156,17,22,263,106,196,0.046,0.877,0.077,0.1154,1,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,12,0,7,5,0,2,6,0,19,3,1,0,3,30,35,11,0,5,9,0,0,1,1,2,2,5,0,0,9,6,0,0,6,1,0,1,8,3,0,0,3,8,37,2,20,30,2,13,0,2,1,0,17,5,0,6,8,111,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129200380866098,0.3120058441769323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295575267339902,0.17153889689035925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545353049747543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543785124768348,0.0,0.13485246337051487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273673395088033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11763159547559507,0.0,0.15909358243667324,0.0,0.08652984879178459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15625723697503538,0.0,0.343204201352224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15891433889803008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3347007823282202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10754198994747947,0.0743839506411438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543623579027503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16151816502180671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11742820279816825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14534432916919593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12132727510401367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594665256660512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290049043852158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011512503839364,0.1951173145996028,0.0,0.0,0.08878093388646198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12562606429403206,0.2694112820692987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980470282152484 schizophrenia,N_Mouwi,2019/01/21,"Honest opinion on Risperdone? I know everybody's chemistry is different but I've read a lot of negative shit about this drug I got put on just last week. Also, if you could recommend one med for schizoaffective/bipolar (I guess they haven't really figured which one it is yet) what would you recommend",3.758809523809525,6.648481071428575,4.275000000000002,81.03666666666669,77.57142857142857,8.733333333333334,28.97619047619048,9.2995712137729,3.199461904761904,244,11,42,7,6,77,48,56,0.159,0.703,0.138,-0.5106,1,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,1,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,5,2,1,0,0,10,8,3,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,1,0,2,1,0,6,1,5,5,1,6,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,4,3,30,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20682874319040573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20649743183068614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702164724352948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299932207932125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068524632091667,0.0,0.2849134445908633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421379511961345,0.21082044133066466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198805560026143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872829952163527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505128735129961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599976332663576,0.0,0.0,0.2587030229492395,0.0,0.16568694373073548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265483091900021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20745981871082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183725486224971,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,someguynamedcole,2019/01/21,Not sure if questions from non-schizophrenics are allowed but I’m on vacation with a friend who has it and she ran out of meds and is starting to have an episode. What do I do? Please see the title. She’s pacing and talking to herself. ,1.62125,3.901610291666668,2.4123333333333328,94.86600000000004,81.5,4.673333333333334,26.266666666666666,5.6839178017228535,0.6380366666666677,186,8,39,1,5,58,42,48,0.03,0.821,0.149,0.7763,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,6,0,0,1,1,11,10,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,4,2,7,9,0,4,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,2,1,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928335556950645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4210110149373323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4160553196436077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4245944262723731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020336264917253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26827564511198226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35722630965310936,0.0,0.0,0.3046457098577633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tethadamtherock,2019/01/21,"How long do I have to take Schizophrenia medication before they take me off? For those of you who have been on schizophrenia medication or know about schizophrenia, how long do I have to take the medications for? Its been longer than a year and I want to get off. Please reply.",3.7875000000000014,6.343631980769235,3.4429230769230803,88.90207692307693,75.34615384615384,6.467692307692308,21.93846153846154,7.554174236665415,0.7098415384615384,221,6,44,3,5,66,35,52,0.0,0.9209999999999999,0.079,0.4515,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,2,0,6,13,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,0,11,11,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,3,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873872113507312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150535345500096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210247058169154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3897676596616888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6655319890144639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417305417571332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4967240568556653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12988883555191208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418115925924175 schizophrenia,CyrusVercetti,2019/01/21,"What Do You Defend Your Voices? Ive talked to numerous Schizophrenics; also being one myself. But i will talk to people that lie about what their ""voices"" are really telling them. you can clearly see thier voices are causing stress to them. 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Just needed to chat. I have been feeling super lonely lately. My fiance is AMAZING and really helps me keep on track. he is always there to listen to me, especially when I am experiencing voices. I just wish I had a friend who has had similar experiences, especially with voices. I've been on and off of clozaril for a while now, and it has had an effect on my voices. The chatter and voices I used to hear are all gone, replaced by new ones. It feels even more isolating because I don't \*know\* these voices. Even when the ones I was used to were the most violent and aggressive, I knew them and there's comfort in that. Now I just walk around with this head full of strangers. Has anyone else experienced this? Sorry for the downer post.",3.075812807881775,5.470157551724141,4.318251231527096,82.55008620689657,76.93103448275863,6.901477832512318,23.46059113300493,7.957251820313856,1.3874729064039408,595,19,111,10,14,195,94,145,0.076,0.774,0.149,0.9021,0,2,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,2,12,8,2,0,7,0,16,1,1,3,1,25,29,9,0,2,3,0,3,0,1,0,0,7,0,0,7,9,0,1,6,1,0,2,1,4,0,2,9,12,14,4,18,20,4,17,0,1,0,0,8,7,0,1,7,86,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166295260808405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397431710608289,0.2047749307515146,0.0,0.17791320484671788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182967298122363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669530979925419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640045118167011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19549641074330196,0.0,0.0,0.3031578797636235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15440737580572586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20510875342989213,0.0,0.2252509620482505,0.0,0.13395850573806153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17764019008807042,0.0,0.0,0.10983500918795663,0.0,0.22544499697288065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14818985279836236,0.0,0.19302107757690226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708536626482906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914057192381144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280321464735218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22372116316438054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452208771384794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22982323588067646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Derpliiine,2019/01/21,"I[21] was diagnosed as schizotypal today and I have been crying pretty much since. Diagnosed 4 years ago with ADHD, depression, anxiety and micropsychotic episodes. They have been on/off about the ADHD and when I was re-evaluated today they focused om checking weather I have shizotypal personality disorder. It fits with me isolating myself, paranoid thinking, intrusive sexual/violent thoughts, micro psychosis and other psychotic stuff. I felt like they gave me no room to talk about the stuff that I don’t think fits it all the way though. For example I am only completely emotionally numb for brief periods (hours, days or weeks at max) Usually I would say I have a pretty wide range of emotions and a pretty extreme temper unfortunately. I am also still pretty good at forming friendships and often told that I am good socially (I just can’t maintain the fucking stuff cause I get scared of abandonment or paranoid about ill intentions) It has gotten way worse though, I barely even try to maintain social relations, even though people try to reach out I just kind of don’t respond. It just seems pointless. I have one close relationship that I keep working to maintain with my ex-boyfriend. I want to push him away too but I also want to keep the last slightly stable thing in my life. When I push him away with psychotic, self-harming or extremely angry actions I crawl back and apologize while I would just ghost other people. He never understands in the moments when it happens but he understands and forgives in retro perspective when I explain. I am getting better at reacting with sadness instead of rage, since he/most people understands it better and I think it doesn’t push him/them away as much. Also guys, I am fucking losing myself :( I used to be this relatively pretty girl, even found myself attractive sometimes, doing great socially and in school, extroverted, lots of friends, somewhat happy (sucky childhood, so always struggled a bit) but very outgoing and pretty funny. Gradually over the last years all of that has just declined. I just get weirder and weirder (in a bad way), more psychotic, self hatred, self harming, I can’t stand to look at pics of myself unless I edit them to make it look like how I feel like I used to look, even though in reality I probably haven’t changed. The only reason I look in a mirror is to do make up so I can bear to go out in public and not feel like everyone is staring at my flaws. I spend all of my money to fix the stuff I hate about myself (photo editing apps, makeup, skincare) I can’t hold a job anymore. I dropped out of school a few times as well. I just want to die. Or be myself again. I want to just feel pretty and happy for a day. I want to trust someone, something or myself again. I want to do well at something. I don’t want a lifelong struggle. I want a relationship and stable friendships. I want anything but this.",5.671654490760638,7.288865711359406,6.150577281191808,75.49051568543192,67.86405959031657,8.859647614954879,32.01876521988254,9.265573868473778,3.0530068185073778,2305,98,388,45,39,745,257,537,0.145,0.6629999999999999,0.192,0.9689,1,0,2,0,0,1,73.0,0,0,4,4,42,33,5,3,19,0,34,7,0,9,4,89,78,43,2,11,19,0,4,4,1,2,5,2,1,5,21,24,0,4,16,0,3,6,11,15,2,1,10,11,64,18,64,64,11,64,0,4,5,2,28,27,2,9,30,276,85,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442016166402676,0.0,0.049573473393710515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13416780768181455,0.046533456040379936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04278189821731972,0.0,0.05546182875595014,0.0,0.0,0.04602089273674039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15762802150888452,0.04300229629098325,0.04669441283478155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09892090906759413,0.061054796801501075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05744960984564991,0.059160441262625076,0.0,0.05863551217469104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06143016268012886,0.07213302956975005,0.0,0.04816747462199166,0.11352387321032525,0.05804054225213525,0.0,0.06409403560781507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12581450821734988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14774975889707986,0.0,0.0,0.05343801750445157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08483094348388283,0.07990459082071122,0.05369605014212917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06131805363393781,0.043206936863007785,0.10340213604087488,0.08765433738944564,0.0,0.031783040078614835,0.0938132152687738,0.0,0.061656683110753424,0.0,0.0553737999481806,0.04945362962709018,0.11906480817217582,0.0,0.055213618891736885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05507412121754663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05549618892189489,0.099416086018131,0.0,0.05823650057226069,0.0,0.09117145580295716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039500951687312456,0.10928705492699953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18784914064093208,0.06256493093748533,0.0,0.04754479752292908,0.0,0.0,0.0746597423354132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08222151702777468,0.0,0.043132229259693816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037895719165266496,0.08506582441343541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11631250039599512,0.048830898045318455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982654720260345,0.060295800267722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05749944322272934,0.0,0.12008343097607388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04447320827528997,0.055989930364970894,0.1131966534088852,0.0,0.05091133687814249,0.17502356828560264,0.0,0.0,0.09252223509425207,0.0,0.0,0.17102319065919006,0.04738443558683848,0.08610643980124331,0.055310513279433114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04466117833072298,0.0,0.0,0.11692833721878128,0.2560795461934373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04494979381774592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03715358676623376,0.107502003930573,0.2197811669272261,0.04439760774084223,0.03260987993542154,0.0,0.10601929999412812,0.05343801750445157,0.0,0.07593778964036965,0.0,0.0,0.17465734973190442,0.0,0.09660119255625173,0.06159266051222121,0.0461433631530274,0.296870144644902,0.1331701998918242,0.04485906009184474,0.0,0.1005652340558749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040713520091453986,0.0,0.05699158854392612,0.07945396538167825,0.0,0.0,0.07202676696807507 schizophrenia,lmao_goaway,2019/01/21,"I never thought it would get this far. So I have dual diagnosis, I have BPD, anxiety, and a form of psychosis to list my top 3 that are my worst to handle. I woke up today and my sister called me to ask for permission to move forward with the Dr Phil show. They had contacted them a few months back during an episode and I understand that... but they want to continue with the communication with my family even though I went to the hospital, I was discharged, I'm on meds, and I'm seeing a therapist. I'm following my action plan perfectly, so why do they want my permission. I know I've been hard to deal with but why would my family plan on my next failure? ",2.349636591478699,4.297511075187971,4.3475375939849625,83.63353696741856,77.34586466165413,8.643859649122808,24.6171679197995,9.2995712137729,2.139561904761905,515,18,107,14,12,176,84,133,0.077,0.845,0.078,0.0387,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,4,4,5,2,0,0,7,0,9,1,0,0,2,19,23,9,0,4,2,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,8,0,0,3,1,0,5,1,1,0,0,6,2,21,1,16,15,3,16,0,0,1,0,9,6,0,0,7,72,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14224178573552887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738265937482172,0.0,0.0,0.14297456798402386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341819486383177,0.0,0.18986311960684107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19169354243892395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12281005766012472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505709181022538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971447426542014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16656360364656958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218646430435717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20653480150010065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14841365037167356,0.197622285409825,0.0,0.0,0.14340657072970447,0.0,0.1977467896527792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481682257247103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21588793128742484,0.0,0.0,0.18268278733195004,0.14761371679591134,0.0,0.0,0.17624714168819214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935676407772799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21934167520702794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17236605519339307,0.3355595988636416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26416952941754845,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WhenTheSkyFalls,2019/01/21,"Can Schizophrenics recognize delusions in hindsight? I know that schizophrenic people truly believe their delusions at the time but if they remember something they believed to be true in the past can they recognize that as a delusion in the present? Basically, can schizophrenics recognize that their delusions are in fact delusions in hindsight?",10.527222222222225,13.475637092592592,7.3750000000000036,66.23250000000003,57.7037037037037,9.844444444444443,48.685185185185176,10.125756701596842,6.036829629629628,289,19,34,6,4,81,34,54,0.0,0.89,0.11,0.7343,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,5,3,0,0,2,6,6,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,8,5,0,9,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,1,3,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7516353287397864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18332061788552453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184290403399817,0.23125451610530576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3778682786659404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567974594561221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19450657441917615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jdhdhdhdfhdj,2019/01/21,"What are your experiences with Haloperidol 5 mg?sorry if this was posted already Doctor added this with my seroquel 400 mg, he told me it will help with voices. Just wanted to hear ur experiences with this drug",9.265,9.101300236842107,8.277894736842107,69.55526315789477,59.78947368421053,10.757894736842106,34.78947368421053,10.125756701596842,3.467852631578946,171,6,28,3,2,53,32,38,0.0,0.93,0.07,0.4019,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,7,6,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,5,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,18,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110241154863471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884813664493768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3268519280966689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5513990214619413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31766097286525663,0.0,0.1889154606461278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26993059844125905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155035685313555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.269315971025822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16624009773349455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,isnt_this_lovely,2019/01/21,"How do I explain this (TLDR; I feel like I've been in a coma since I was eight and want to tell my boyfriend.) Ever since I was a young girl I've felt as though I'm not technically alive, but trapped deep in a coma. Everyone I've met so far in my life doesn't seem like an actual person to me anymore and is more of a representation of things that I went through when I was ""awake."" The only person this doesn't apply to is my boyfriend, and it's only because I can feel his heartbeat whenever I embrace him. I've come up with the theory that he's in the same hospital room as I am and has taken intrest in me. He holds my hands against his chest so I can feel his heart and talks to me while I sleep, which would explain why I enjoy holding him so much. He's the only person who's ""real"" to me at the moment, minus my family, and I want to tell him this. Maybe he can snap me out of this delusion, or at least understand my struggles a bit more. 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I stopped taking my medicine around two months ago, and I’ve been doing really well!!! Lost the weight it gave me from being on it for a year, and I feel more energized. However, this does mean the hallucinations are stronger. Not much, considering I was on an EXTREMELY low dose. I hear things like “the trees are here and ready to set on fire did you know genderfluid people are green the men in black are here ahhhhh ahhhhhh ahhhhh” and random songs that don’t exist play. Also I’ll hear random words being shouted. 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I just noticed that my life was a constant pain. Most of my habits seems to be close to schizophrenia. The more I advance in life and the more it's impacting me. I don't know if it's only in my head or if it's really the case. My family is really religious so they don't believe in mental illness. They made me really dependant on them so no matter how hard I try I can't see a doctor. Does anyone here know how I can verify my doubt without a doctor ?",1.3522113022113018,3.409264810810811,3.653562653562656,86.84137592137594,81.07207207207206,7.27960687960688,20.9017199017199,8.296473431620573,1.2203081081081084,418,12,87,9,11,144,71,111,0.155,0.812,0.032,-0.9167,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,3,1,8,3,0,1,7,0,9,7,1,4,0,19,14,9,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,1,0,1,5,3,0,0,2,2,18,0,8,10,3,9,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,8,2,63,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13068447027393376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15605326882942874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105717251691713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019719533405091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3825990988685645,0.16355700473976775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17619220721022247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674252338228342,0.0,0.1918127990588148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20543014566361484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640252766209683,0.0,0.0,0.16503567538870942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768488181516905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18835072847269985,0.1982708252842462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127863101395432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14214548550333989,0.1988742366352783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591978007850636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159611144768537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14893469698045292,0.17014627785173533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268924865057322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18016444054059114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,YosemiteBlob,2019/01/21,"Should i confront my Dad with the possibility that he has schizophrenia? He is 52 years old and frequently complains about the symptoms of schizophrenia. I also think that I have the precursors of schizophrenia, I am 20. His wife, is a hindu and basically a self-educated theologist. I have no doubt that he himself has thought that he has this disorder. Sorry, I dont know if it classifies as an disorder. Perhaps, I get it from him, but I never really considered the possibility of medicine. Religion and spirituality kind of covered it for me. Instead of thinking of it as a problem, I just think of it as the will of the Gods. Let things be. He is very intelligent. I don't know of this is important, however I am also the only child, of 4, that really has a relationship with him. Any advice would be helpful.",3.797815126050424,6.164179150326802,5.870835667600371,72.43661764705884,74.49019607843138,9.33874883286648,31.84360410830999,9.784248007369934,3.631407469654529,642,32,114,19,14,223,88,153,0.102,0.8290000000000001,0.069,0.0037,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,1,12,0,20,1,0,0,1,19,27,10,0,4,3,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,13,5,0,0,6,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,17,1,18,20,0,4,1,0,0,0,15,0,0,2,4,91,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16396152069106898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683616901549813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141023097836189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3846015826395187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19664752050871914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766285496381032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11246546539611356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17472647864248145,0.1844249509510646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17157567476642654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12940926155401974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176066385985006,0.0,0.0,0.1276111356840257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3783138930172536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605514633310617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21497992769438265,0.0,0.0,0.18014264964051546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17504057572987572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878261077608674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17439707136603028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11147159119815092,0.3225373504455757,0.0,0.1332057658767116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384435410305206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11919252916043947,0.0,0.0,0.10805064896300501 schizophrenia,CryptoKapitalist,2019/01/21,"Lottery For the lucky uf us who reads this, I want to share a fact I think we are too primitive to believe. Lottery is a matter of supernatural activity, not mathematical luck. Hah, atheist will lie about this.",3.4926923076923084,6.191661282051285,5.458653846153847,73.29259615384616,77.2051282051282,8.002564102564103,30.262820512820515,8.841846274778883,2.8849435897435907,166,8,30,4,4,57,34,39,0.062,0.7509999999999999,0.187,0.4579,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,1,3,0,0,0,1,8,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,20,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5325763606079615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4728326536232004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028901059316982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5686055912113361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278813498886106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Heyhowsshegoin,2019/01/21,"Just picked up my brother and what followed was a nightmare. My brother has been having problems for years and we didn’t know it was schizophrenia. My mom has been at the end of her wits. I’ve always been gone. Today she called him and we quickly left to go get him from his new appt in a new town where he was working a relatively new job. We found him at the end of a road near his appt (in a rural community) passed out drunk in his car. The drive back to my mothers (about an hour) was the longest of my life and very disturbing. He was out of his mind and speaking complete nonsense, most of it paranoid thoughts about the government and the people who had wronged him throughout his life. Eventually he admitted to multiple personalities, and they continued to fly about the conversation. When we got home he stomped about for hours cycling through all of his paranoid thoughts (he’s been drunk for about a week and lost his job) until we gave him a sleeping pill and he finally went to bed. What my mom and I witnessed tonight was more than I’ve ever seen in movies, and could be compared to the exorcism. It was really fucked up and I feel bad for my mom for having to witness it. It was deeply disturbing and we are very scared for his well-being. He has been on sertraline and represidone at various times...(I’m very sorry I don’t know the correct spellings) and said tonight he’d love to go back on represidone. BUT he always comes off his meds and resorts to weed or cbd oil which he claims does wonders for him. Please help reddit. What do we do?",4.542572280178838,5.835052140983606,4.557146050670641,87.08275335320421,70.21311475409837,7.64381520119225,29.92921013412817,8.00094639256281,1.8507377049180325,1233,49,251,16,22,381,162,305,0.08800000000000001,0.878,0.034,-0.8672,3,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,7,0,1,2,12,9,1,3,17,0,27,8,1,1,3,45,49,20,0,2,3,6,1,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,10,26,2,0,8,2,0,9,2,8,0,0,25,5,36,1,46,21,4,48,0,1,1,2,51,19,1,3,20,164,46,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18427123291178726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17028793538784745,0.09245430874176401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11306695694215232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09538345471452686,0.1160975246655697,0.0,0.0,0.08840830571511764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09689992351020206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19614652018040127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10016095699636174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05598804199169615,0.0,0.0,0.12129849429602994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12140892063843105,0.0,0.10236741860216662,0.05785146929842866,0.0,0.1258599828882017,0.0,0.08856030626238305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0742194903552107,0.0,0.11107047826171207,0.0,0.2180920370385556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21976341378274172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12170781332885283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12030766732958625,0.0,0.15642270503814867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12087406993244575,0.0,0.09993748226117076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229952481378402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118049894202613,0.3890543207011784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208290341842964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07676572826951282,0.09668452069401832,0.0,0.1215474784816522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10595294957652376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0709360007264439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10532888506293986,0.0,0.11085930830116418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11080922951191148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12395234345330147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17581333115768522,0.0,0.0,0.1049583932977693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740897133728755,0.0,0.0,0.0888203350210552,0.0,0.0995589047343582,0.1026471353741404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200811614217251,0.0806122216338371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106506560449308,0.0,0.07130601443152995 schizophrenia,mitch121,2019/01/21,Schizophrenia Vyvanse I used to take Vyvanse and honestly had never felt better or more productive but I am.unable to.take it now.because it caused me to have schiOphrenia which is terrible. Is there anything similar I could take while.beinh diagnosed with schiophrena,7.414285714285715,11.611639952380955,5.401904761904763,68.8014285714286,78.04761904761905,9.466666666666667,42.714285714285715,9.2995712137729,6.1282571428571435,226,15,26,7,6,65,35,42,0.133,0.821,0.046,-0.5931,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,1,9,9,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,4,2,3,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731256045759065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20232329593111756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935387764948273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409529561171754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649953218540415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368717408605922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186762638939189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559819137071108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4990953258300962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866552292956299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ThisIsMyIncognitoAcc,2018/11/24,"Getting SSI seems like a shitty process. It’s getting really hard to work. Every time I come in, my paranoia skyrockets and so do my intrusive and disorganized thoughts. It is so hard to focus on my tasks or keep myself from breaking down because every one is staring at me and talking about me. The thing is, my coworkers dont even know I have schizotypal personality disorder, so that adds even more pressure for me to stay invisible and just work through it all. I just started this job a few weeks ago, and I really like it, but my brain just will not let me enjoy myself and work appropriately. i have to hide myself from customers so they dont come up and talk to me, and when they do, i just shut down. What should I do guys?",5.442708333333336,5.910227298611113,6.219444444444445,78.97000000000001,67.68055555555556,9.455555555555557,31.277777777777786,9.444778638647367,2.6483944444444445,577,22,115,11,9,190,87,144,0.121,0.8540000000000001,0.025,-0.8652,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,3,12,4,0,1,3,0,13,1,1,0,1,24,22,15,0,1,7,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,8,11,0,1,3,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,1,3,22,3,16,18,3,16,0,0,1,0,6,7,0,2,7,88,30,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13867300084714493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09536325785661216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174636737550034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695152669904276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17929169867825187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666887458018677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20665187486438752,0.0,0.2636118146521748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16346497660856785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154898385798763,0.0,0.0,0.28027574967020324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15524074724922607,0.1390494354825782,0.0,0.0,0.08597432831071262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996863023609936,0.0,0.15285557802367494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600655423460592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659577799251832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20043659806871075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14241543669860454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11072774357064204,0.16674227696162516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514781543210609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10393057045226284,0.0,0.0,0.12419443453074933,0.09122035633847143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254852656523307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3416665579165624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EnvyEddy,2018/11/24,If you have tried it What are some of Your experiences with a mixture of cbd and your medication? Someone I love very much is schizophrenic. She’s taking Latuda and I was doing some research of how cbd can be good for psychosis. Was interested to hear from people who have tried that mix. Did it improve your psychosis? This person I care for is on the strongest she can be for that medication. She still sees shadows sometimes. Also no matter what medication she’s on. She always has the sense that people can hear her thoughts and paranoia. I really want her to try to see if the combination of her Medicine and cbd can help her. I hate seeing her suffer. Just can’t stand not being able to do anything About it. And feedback with be appreciated thanks ,3.538191808191808,6.096596230769232,4.3194455544455534,82.28708041958042,76.2027972027972,6.603196803196802,25.5989010989011,7.7094869923839395,1.530660739260739,603,22,110,9,14,193,89,143,0.071,0.738,0.191,0.9542,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,0,0,5,7,1,0,4,0,20,5,0,1,0,17,32,9,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,10,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,5,19,5,17,24,3,4,0,1,3,1,20,2,0,4,1,86,29,2,0.1560456140419315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12478962117160512,0.1298424514363955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12841224440850688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15909890341075422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152642553338741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308836575243598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540627376431476,0.0,0.0,0.35174949615008033,0.0,0.10459408579193406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408372591003776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4715986179480755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11471148115929228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21636476160302864,0.1362530112214952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09996681613157256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3730444532929881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13221694239057105,0.0,0.15433310236348965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12461822894622357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11732688164325135,0.0,0.0,0.14366583602037408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12388278708506123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178341864940409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875397400334598,0.0920397461643806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwaway444855,2018/11/24,"need some insight hello, after 6 years of struggling with my mental health, I decided to go to a psychiatrist. I was diagnosed with prodromal schizophrenia. I'm so terrified I cannot eat, sleep or do anything really. I however am not convinced with her diagnosis and want to hear your opinion. •I have severe anxiety and am always depressed •As a result, I'm always dissociating and have poor concentration and short-term memory •My emotions are inappropriate, I'm depressed all the time yet I'm always smiling. •My grades are worsening, and I have lost the ability to understand anything. •Loud, sharp sounds scare me. •I talk to myself and have imaginary friends However, I don't have any delusions nor do I believe in any kind of superstition. Thanks you very much for reading.",5.297520752628664,8.124025791366908,6.237553956834535,69.3866242390703,71.66187050359713,9.744548976203653,33.71389042612064,10.035473477838034,4.261674709463199,631,32,97,19,13,208,95,139,0.21600000000000005,0.701,0.083,-0.9642,2,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,1,2,9,0,2,4,0,14,4,1,1,1,20,25,9,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,9,1,0,3,1,1,1,4,5,0,0,2,3,13,4,13,23,3,6,0,3,0,0,7,1,0,3,4,58,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4114885258685115,0.0,0.0,0.22419821147195768,0.0,0.12610468344915315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713040025075196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857219649326807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839586083299284,0.16731249303606466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686758626449128,0.0,0.1854265401159399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12735753491441262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368425374222614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17522073357626153,0.18579039449293772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17165894398949966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17994594911816664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16612328820665898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12117880236201295,0.1222292280614566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16488792220328533,0.0,0.10560284752967143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650369137233932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18622602320198114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16496236113103155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17233002234156167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13249481104596658,0.0,0.1517655754537001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612146159766302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17160770261703231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136012997229191,0.09722885710468256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10615368914016447 schizophrenia,MMNZ91,2018/11/24,(terror schizophrenia) last night was so scary before falling asleep I heard myself screaming inside for at least 20 seconds of me burning in hell :-( does anyone else deal with terror?,4.931451612903229,8.453029161290328,3.4195967741935505,84.34939516129033,79.96774193548387,3.1,23.87903225806452,3.1291,0.40305806451612897,148,5,20,0,4,42,30,31,0.433,0.5670000000000001,0.0,-0.9588,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,1,2,2,3,0,5,0,1,5,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778185021220811,0.40710586500699103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380938528785864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40962407391914096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34770131426579803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3319136044847521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3238724667635801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3728620921405149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RockSuit,2018/11/24,Question for people that recovered Do you have any tips/advice for remission from negative symptoms?,7.2974999999999985,11.370003750000002,6.705000000000003,61.24000000000001,74.0,10.7,39.25,10.125756701596842,6.304475,84,5,9,3,2,26,15,16,0.209,0.7909999999999999,0.0,-0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4749455271194001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33051890124774763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33695387540249794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5444678552988367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5051740715681872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RareLikeUnicornPoop,2018/11/24,"Long distance relationship went bad I met a guy on reddit. We messaged each other for months them exchanged phone numbers. We began texting and we sent each other selfies. We seemed to hit it off and wanted to give a long distance relationship a try. Then, I talked to him on the phone and his attitude towards me seemed to change, and he grew cold and distant. I really do not understand it. I do not show emotions through my voice which could be a problem. It hurts. I always thought my looks were what was keeping me from a relationship but it does not even seem to be that but the very essence of who I am. I think I come across as autistic. I feel it at times but do not understand the correlation between schizophrenia and autism. I also have not told him about my diagnosis. I no longer hallucinate and no longer take medication but I cannot seem to shake the negative symptoms. I also have paranoid thoughts at times more associated with worry and thinking everyone is out to screw me in this world. I suppose I could just end this whole ordeal and tell him about my diagnosis, it would be a rather painless way to scare him off for good, and that is how I feel about this so called relationship. I feel it is a joke as I will probably never meet him IRL and I feel like an idiot believing all the nice things he said about me, which he no longer says. I just need some internet hugs and advice. And I think I am going to be single the rest of my life, but I somehow do not care right now. 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I hope I don't violate rule 8. I've actually posted here before, but my friends know my main account, I don't want them to know how I'm doing. I'm gone through some bad stuff recently. Feel like I'm falling apart and I don't don't know what to do. Or ask for help. I feel somehow like I'm panicking and somehow tired all the time. 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I may be at an early stage of schizophrenia. In the last 3 days I've had involuntary thoughts and voices telling me to kill myself. Every time it happens, its like all my energy drops to almost 0, and all my desire for living goes away. At that moment, I just don't care If I die or not. Its a very distressing feeling. After a few moments I start getting back to ""normal"", but it's very strange because before all of this started dying was one of my main fears. I was never diagnosed with schizophrenia. I have OCD, and a couple of weeks ago I completely lost my sanity. Thank god medicine is a thing. My mental health went downhill since I've finished school (I'm 21). Anyway, I was reading an article about OCD, and a different article about early stages of schizophrenia popped up. I began reading a ton of different articles, and I was in shock, because I could relate to a lot of information the articles had. I was always a difficult person and my whole life I felt different from other people. A few months ago I discovered I'm a highly sensitive person, but this fact only explained a few things about myself. I don't know if its relevant, but my father has some mental issues. I know no one here will diagnose me and I really don't know if I'm really at the early stages of becoming schizophrenic, but I just wanted to get all of this off my chest. My therapist said a couple of months ago it didn't seem like I was schizophrenic, but so much have changed since then. My memory also deteriorated like crazy. Sometimes I just lose touch with reality. 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Hi guys. Im not schizophrenic, but im very interested in learning about the illness as im studying Psychology, and have done a ton of hard psychedelics. I wanted to know if you felt any body sensations due to Schizophrenia? I hope this question doesnt offend anyone, Im purely curious. I find schizophrenia to be the most terrifying thing that can happen to a person. I truly wish the best for all of you and hope you all have a chance at a wonderful life. Much love, friends.",3.0789795918367338,5.659465469387758,4.125877551020409,82.93697959183675,77.9795918367347,7.185306122448982,27.1469387755102,8.238735603445708,2.090498775510204,408,17,75,8,10,132,70,98,0.08199999999999999,0.542,0.375,0.9911,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,0,1,2,7,1,0,7,0,8,6,1,0,4,20,17,5,0,5,3,0,2,0,1,0,4,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,8,6,11,14,6,4,0,0,0,1,10,2,0,6,2,49,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10504749851512576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10801169052806338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16211074964929126,0.0,0.0,0.1715855965678222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580803557162876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13973041901394634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14831909726993692,0.0,0.1411862780340589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11934609444005495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295337364631273,0.13660069378654258,0.0,0.13837820595174127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.306854727398488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6674329577926357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08489477468915113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10910943132796437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394186586302232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11355603577400045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13488058614723974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17304603762483922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16055745173000396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10262554573235802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12745708389612506,0.09111266459508774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776372758801663,0.0,0.16752027440940345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GravityAce,2018/11/24,Not taking meds Was on them for like two months and I decided not to take them anymore last Tuesday. I feel pretty normal so I don't think I need my meds anymore. I think my psychotic episode or whatever is over. I hate meds anyway.,0.8256028368794333,3.315984361702128,2.528829787234045,90.88416666666667,88.36170212765957,5.686524822695036,22.72695035460993,7.1686216300943375,1.0272865248226952,183,7,37,3,6,60,35,47,0.08,0.797,0.12300000000000001,0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,10,10,3,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,1,10,1,4,9,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,4,24,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3950230654585944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10070042794118132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19662760387554426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16234060777225584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09729869267873176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6636599717516074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15896626669827008,0.0,0.0,0.14767336681109453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19513286307462333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026156047384725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2994845341660483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552252127762792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19454873460966496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mentalcasethrowaway,2018/11/24,fuck your fucking entire head i lose. i hate you. what fucking corrupt worm are you? get a disease. fuck you.,-0.4899999999999984,0.6740095238095272,0.6575238095238127,97.82914285714287,120.42857142857143,1.6800000000000002,23.24761904761905,3.1291,-0.19371238095238089,84,4,16,0,5,26,16,21,0.494,0.506,0.0,-0.9282,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,4,0,1,0,6,5,0,1,0,1,5,1,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,7,0,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,4,0,0,9,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8909448010359645,0.12587614913891124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23786881287698144,0.24726401862668426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695394025704263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Starstream-episode,2019/06/21,Hallucinating Spiders. Mouse scratching your back. Aliens with big eyes touching your feets. Earring music while your eyes are open but still in dream state. Am I the only one who is experimenting these things? Just want to start a discution.,4.5027642276422775,7.977906146341468,3.4798780487804883,82.2845325203252,85.09756097560975,5.660162601626017,23.90650406504065,7.1686216300943375,1.345582113821138,196,7,32,3,6,57,38,41,0.0,0.904,0.096,0.4497,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,3,0,0,5,5,2,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,3,5,0,8,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,4,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36192860920899655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4604213895680289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189491286616595,0.35797804043812165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3331540920797031,0.0,0.37589058150512894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127029750792245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27762289674525104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Fluttershychotic,2019/06/21,"Took my name back! One of my prominent voices made me change my name to hers because she said she'd shut up if I did. But then she didn't... this went on for a year. Finally after clinic I took my name back. Suffice to say she is NOT happy about this, but honestly fuck her.",0.4567816091954029,2.427558586206896,2.421379310344829,94.91988505747128,83.82758620689657,5.935632183908046,18.287356321839077,7.1686216300943375,0.09764597701149436,210,5,49,3,6,70,43,58,0.114,0.794,0.092,-0.33799999999999997,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,4,2,0,1,0,8,10,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,7,3,13,2,8,2,0,12,0,0,0,1,11,3,1,1,6,35,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3827145269618672,0.0,0.15170217909069994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632598982560424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726129467713588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300661999184208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26491510726006523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23547646895410834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686333461831407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367219634818632,0.19790272073357948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5529831664006578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23069485086674205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16025708175123365 schizophrenia,crimgirl87,2019/06/21,"Dissociation & Memory Issues? TW: Discusses abuse/trauma Basically what the title says. &#x200B; Does anyone else have dissociation issues? I have a pretty extensive history of abuse starting in childhood, along with two sexual assaults and two experiences with domestic violence. I tend to dissociate heavily when talking about trauma as well as any time I'm faced with even the most minor conflict situation. I had to correct someone at work a little while ago and I was ""floating"" so badly and my entire body was shaking. I also saw a security guard tackle a guy at Walmart awhile back and I started shaking and basically had to run to the car so I didn't start crying in public. &#x200B; I also have what seems to be the worst memory. My friends will bring up conversations we've had and I don't remember having them. I can barely remember what I did last week. One day at work I had just opened and closed the safe, and realized I forgot something. When I went to open it again it was like my brain had been wiped, I couldn't for the life of me remember the combination..and I had JUST done it. That seriously freaked me out, I just couldn't remember. As well, I see photos of myself from when I was a kid or even as old as 13 and I have no recollection of being in that place or going to whatever event it was. I was in a severely abusive relationship about ten years ago and I remember for a good portion feeling like I was watching this happen to myself. Like it wasn't really happening to me. To this day, it doesn't feel real. It doesn't feel like it's my memory, or that it happened to me. It's so bad that I had to ask my mom how long I was there and how I got out because I can't remember. I can't remember a good chunk of what happened during that entire period - just tiny snippets. &#x200B; But then, I also have memory loss for periods of psychosis too. And I've most definitely heard what I thought was God talking to me, and become hyperreligious. I've believed God wanted me to quit school because I wasn't supposed to be ""of this world"". I also believed God had a specific mission for me, and I was destined for some great mission. This is until the demons start coming after me. &#x200B; Do you think this is part of schizophrenia, or is this something else? Sometimes I get worried I actually have dissociative identity disorder. &#x200B; Thanks.",3.3251734449760804,5.7791901337719285,5.013221690590116,77.57906698564592,76.39035087719299,8.092822966507176,27.90749601275917,8.906399129114982,2.6261333333333337,1895,80,337,45,44,640,218,456,0.11699999999999999,0.77,0.113,-0.7176,0,0,2,0,3,0,70.0,0,1,1,4,26,23,1,2,17,0,47,4,3,2,1,62,76,39,0,3,9,1,3,4,1,1,1,2,0,2,26,24,0,5,15,0,0,8,11,10,2,4,30,8,52,13,52,40,6,51,1,1,3,0,15,16,0,8,31,249,78,3,0.0,0.135084228184013,0.05562907748588608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10106375007249126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823488901768084,0.0,0.3705921637792628,0.3463391908662372,0.03876564785315928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039859522770382,0.058408800609945015,0.0,0.0,0.05329238278122323,0.0,0.0,0.043833657673929834,0.0951943074683731,0.06949996321737215,0.06295801980742992,0.0,0.12845119939018987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0633201828434276,0.0,0.0636369137806657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04910513116728685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06261778914209279,0.07352757405671058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0653331626004988,0.0,0.04988583678699415,0.05833634773623265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524144558195012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07530309903773959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05576224996467727,0.0,0.0,0.08647097614665511,0.08144938253785533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04404225455256213,0.0,0.029782984864847362,0.0,0.03239750010594004,0.09562690177185633,0.0455924506849205,0.06284868888160809,0.0,0.05644433903270803,0.20163885734276168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189977188951965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04646703464692199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04026462173879656,0.1113998964484724,0.057134417687211884,0.0,0.05044801254439205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06676407177187803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059817610448172014,0.0,0.03862835533147972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061731326592319974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059558542366989826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05799501710993764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06063229276446455,0.0,0.06488466051097341,0.036519138781248975,0.0,0.0,0.06120249916537479,0.4520322851410976,0.0,0.0,0.04533300673083358,0.0,0.057692539507476874,0.04542594795807493,0.05189560337284935,0.0,0.06439991103537622,0.0,0.0,0.06407649283435374,0.0,0.0,0.04830051666383615,0.08777113157466328,0.0563798288457536,0.0,0.16139494975881116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09163761215858318,0.0,0.05248294190791155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03652677838154001,0.0,0.04525594461478925,0.033240325219026506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11137204567207608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03362328014072232,0.0,0.04572631820251125,0.0,0.1025094570223719,0.05284460561403577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300126534236542,0.05789178225059896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3463391908662372,0.036709628542563696 schizophrenia,BryOnAntipsychotics,2019/06/21,"We're all doomed anyway Some days I care very much. Other days, I just figure we're all doomed anyway, and nothing really matters all that much to make a fuss over. I don't try very hard. I don't even want anything.",0.7586666666666666,2.9938275333333344,2.0800000000000023,96.18000000000002,84.77777777777777,4.488888888888889,15.666666666666668,5.6839178017228535,-0.7641999999999998,169,3,37,1,5,54,31,45,0.239,0.6579999999999999,0.10300000000000001,-0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,10,5,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,4,1,2,5,6,3,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366754125191187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29323370812125743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3709644362471266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18996119510655274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576386805185089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919793844166156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4228473265787113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759659238200077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18424790840736566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952657436670744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4746105023096858,0.16963759952915097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pomponok,2019/06/21,Do I have schizophrenia? Im 16 years old and I'm scared that I'm getting early signs of schizophrenia. My mum has schizophrenia so I have a direct blood relative. I use drugs often also. When i look at object I have very mild visual halucinations similar to those of the come up of a low dose of lsd. I also have been really sad over the past 7 months and I think my closest friends hate me and do things behind my back. Although I think this it doesn't stop me from hanging out with them. Please lmk what u think,2.032,4.116783676190483,3.0021428571428608,92.24035714285715,78.90476190476191,5.723809523809526,20.97619047619048,6.742157984588678,0.29821904761904783,406,11,86,4,10,129,75,105,0.11900000000000001,0.809,0.07200000000000001,-0.7008,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,6,5,1,1,4,0,9,3,1,1,0,13,19,8,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,1,1,14,1,12,18,0,16,0,2,1,0,3,6,0,1,8,55,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34987730699539576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16820943728083246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884384493462751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25368687053295125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16900991721874434,0.0,0.1142906932824614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21597571676573005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362934234983565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18369948215721574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17460851230970664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295470450542709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088268287255879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401277919276704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14014034215602314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190123666037697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828893505496406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453313999937064,0.4205089762035602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18893447143602413,0.0,0.18049615531446228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14087133694995216 schizophrenia,sadkidsclub,2019/06/21,"Advice? I was with my now wife for 4 years before we moved out together and got married. She was schizo, and I knew it. I always tried my best to help her out but she's been having very bad episodes lately and I feel like I've just lost her. It hurts a lot,. She's now moved out with her grandparents who doesn't really understand how to properly take care of her. And now she's been in and out of psych wards regularly and it just hurts to see her like that because it seemed like she was doing a whole lot better when she was with me. She ended up having a bad episode while she was living with me and said I was choking her in her sleep at 3 am and moved in with her grandparents. Now everyone thinks I'm the bad guy and It just sucks. Idk if I should continue trying to help her or just let her go and get a divorce",2.135492610837442,3.4794406609195434,3.362889983579638,93.08896551724138,76.29885057471266,7.040394088669951,20.47454844006568,7.7094869923839395,0.4285169129720852,641,14,150,9,14,208,95,174,0.17800000000000002,0.693,0.129,-0.9147,2,0,0,0,1,0,11.0,1,0,0,3,10,13,1,0,5,0,15,1,1,1,0,36,30,16,0,2,7,1,1,3,0,1,0,1,0,1,7,20,0,0,5,0,0,4,1,7,0,0,12,3,29,6,21,16,4,23,0,3,1,0,26,9,1,5,13,105,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483604938235835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148134705055287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3456318129128627,0.08411356702247615,0.0,0.11741394369423648,0.0,0.14480535306773334,0.1220353466305699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14068355189027448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12221257954178502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13184931377753695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976869157817113,0.0985755643583524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07209077465907336,0.0,0.07841930183469535,0.0,0.1103581492384566,0.0,0.0,0.13662553113640538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849750963768207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29542875397313434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15565159454776584,0.0,0.0,0.1410976554627521,0.0,0.202235560044296,0.0,0.12184211222183505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15062548010101628,0.23461757077975165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4399644259433721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883958749121145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13125407202700173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10995512346331636,0.12561515461012215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13808332427445758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10374655065452028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841436683646546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873637144759652,0.0,0.0,0.1436458710095706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385098196443255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540538444685538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08885696215773872 schizophrenia,flowersgrowinspace,2019/06/21,About the type of voices I had voices that were external and clear. I had voices that were silent and felt like a ball in my mouth that I needed to get out myself and outside silent. That were “voice thoughts”. Did any of you have different types of ... conversations?,4.5078,6.409990780000001,4.153000000000001,87.55150000000002,71.2,7.4,22.5,8.07648339933343,0.9916,209,5,41,3,4,63,35,50,0.0,0.898,0.102,0.6249,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,7,1,1,0,1,8,11,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,5,6,1,7,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,29,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33310874797575263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5117796961443517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4703242770256785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559217593083916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393116205044599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632109717403984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888791206636283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chronicallyjulian,2019/06/21,"Meds are frustrating. I've been on perphenazine, risperidone, rexulti, abilify, and seroquel, and ofc seroquel had to be the only one that worked. I went up all the way to 4 mg (pretty high) on risperidone and it still didn't do shit. Rexulti did a whole load of nothing. Abilify started giving me that weird muscle thing and also did jack. Perphenazine, well, I'm not allowed to be near that anymore because, well, I did something dumb with it. Also made me feel weird. But seroquel, the one with all the side effects I dont want (ie. weight gain/harder to lose weight)...had to be the one to work.",2.5731578947368448,5.119925877192987,3.12377192982456,89.58723684210527,79.70175438596492,5.5543859649122815,27.043859649122812,6.816661863887847,1.3133122807017543,466,20,88,5,12,145,73,114,0.134,0.804,0.062,-0.7531,1,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,4,5,8,3,0,6,0,12,2,1,3,2,15,19,7,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,6,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,6,2,3,8,2,5,2,13,8,3,10,0,1,0,0,1,6,2,0,2,59,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664765678286482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.165232756214914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156415892866266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19526615854488985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08424322889310777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15982788605580112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14925020088007018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17603304469660236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863944304232372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576507975044738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18506660481496076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15986718098112346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386985752296289,0.12671472382722246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16950268351658362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17102319062328686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12826483272683845,0.0,0.0,0.11792770505733237,0.0,0.13305528787850246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068855251182366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827113597843397,0.1322475876194789,0.0,0.4057731862095312,0.2996055336647631,0.15444951837801454,0.0,0.1860145716920409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425887242025175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Htario,2019/06/21,"Question if you experience these symptoms too I hear voices repeat words to me backwards after I hear them. For instance if I hear somebody say the word ""no"" I hear something say to me ""on"". Does anyone else experience this?",3.0034146341463384,5.974738121951223,4.0128780487804905,80.89736585365854,82.41463414634146,5.231219512195122,27.71219512195122,6.742157984588678,1.6577473170731705,177,8,29,2,5,57,30,41,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,8,0,5,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,3,2,20,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122440965242227,0.17942086177299973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15323991818222218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14628191355045733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425823108362313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7894466686439436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19616324653879053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785089592482565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13480821298730875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820063112663368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GlexPubert,2019/06/21,"Testing for antipsychotics I'm taking Latuda, and most likely going to a drug court soon for a drug related offense. Lawyer says part of my defense is mental illness, and that being tested regularly is gonna be a thing. Now obviously that means I have to stay away from illicit substances, but she also says there needs to be certain levels of my Latuda in my system and that they will be checking for it. I can't get a clear answer anywhere, I've heard with blood tests it can be check, but is there a way to be drug tested for Latuda? Can I get away with not taking it, and obviously staying away from other substances? Please no, just take your meds or any of that bs, heard it a million times already, I was off them for several weeks before all this and was perfectly fine, those meds suck and I don't want to be on them if I don't have absolutely to be to get this dismissed. Would rather be psychotic than on them tbh, but I need to get these charges dropped so will take them for the year if necessary. Lawyer makes it seem like they will definitely know if I don't take them.",7.075542929292929,6.0212896435185215,7.091329966329969,79.19575757575758,64.60185185185185,10.076767676767675,32.13636363636364,9.095868883498916,2.470283333333333,857,27,174,12,11,275,122,216,0.076,0.8240000000000001,0.1,0.8048,0,0,3,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,7,1,8,8,3,0,7,0,26,5,1,1,6,35,48,15,0,8,10,0,0,2,0,5,4,4,0,0,15,8,0,1,4,0,2,1,6,3,0,1,4,4,20,5,29,30,3,19,0,0,0,0,13,8,1,6,7,124,35,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13398668158233912,0.0970971331039187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08256772532716111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422258122079317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033169264187061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4224155269694935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25374149020376074,0.0,0.06900408062742919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06672760929414948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863642891088752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0810467920468429,0.0,0.0,0.13225871043376694,0.26973383674565193,0.0,0.12235978102624487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800583379014439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13148278180369846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327940800149082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931113475613315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11053347905360787,0.0,0.13716665295016367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588287394279256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4564523770737544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08066406141369699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07079923061949843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07161489393324043,0.0963751651591199,0.09739339571645064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08625115501545874,0.0,0.0,0.07818856885471846 schizophrenia,elfethan,2019/06/21,"My girlfriend left me after a mental breakdown, and I'm going through extreme grief. I need advice. As the title states, I recently just had a major mental breakdown after being off my meds for over six months. The reason going off the medication was I moved in with my father last August to take care of him and he's very anti-medication. He eventually convinced me to cut them out cold turkey. In the beginning it was great because I took lithium and it made me really overweight and self conscious, also I don't know if anyone else who takes it experiences this but it makes me extremely suicidal. So I naturally thought I finally didn't need them anymore. I had a loving girlfriend who I thought understood my illness, I had a job I very much enjoyed, and I was headed to my first semester of collage. Things were great the first few months. But then it things took a dark turn. My dad got even sicker and refused to get treatment. I started to hear things again, I'd have horrible visions every night of a strange man in my house with an axe waiting for me to fall asleep to kill me. I tried extremely hard to hide all these things. But sometimes I'd get weird. My self esteem was getting worse. My paranoia was killing me. And I thought I was responsible for everything. During this time my girlfriend started smoking weed, I didn't think much of it first. But then it became like the only thing she ever wanted to do. She lied a lot about not being able to see me so she could go smoke with her friends. She was the most important thing to have ever been in my life. Words can not express how much I loved and still love this person. This just further increased my paranoia. She was literally the only friend I had. Recently after I was starting to have issues at school and work. I dropped my classes and did considerably less work, I worked as a web developer from home so I could look after my dad. I would stay up till the sun came up so I didn't have to see the 'thing' with the axe, so i started to become very sleep deprived. I started to have these little episodes where I'd just snap for a day or two and I wasn't myself, I would become very irrational and do things I deep down didn't want to do. Like break up with my girlfriend and laugh and cry uncontrollably. Then the big bombshell hit. I demanded my father go see a doctor and let everyone know about his illness, he did not take that well. A few weeks later I go to a therapy appointment with my girlfriend and just... snap. I can't go on any longer. I rush out the therapy waiting room and drive to my mom's and beg her to take me into the hospital. This was May 7th the last time I saw my girlfriend. I spent a week in the ward. I realized all the thing I did wrong, I was being a jerk and a loser before I went in. It was paranoia though. And I learned that I NEED medication no matter how good things are going. I started a new medication which has been working nicely. When I got out I knew my girlfriend was upset with me so I gave her a few days before contacting her but when I did she broke up with me and said i'd never change, I begged with her and promised I would change but she didn't care. This is the last time I ever heard anything back from her. I wrote her two letters and dropped all her stuff on her porch on my birthday. I've been missing her so much, it's weird that it comes in waves. I don't really even want her back as an SO, just someone to talk to. I want to show her how much I've changed. But I can't, I don't think she cares. It's been really tough on the ol' schizoaffective disorder. I'll get imaginary phone calls from her. I'll sometimes think I see her in a crowd, or I'll just straight up just have a fake conversation with her. The thing that's really beating me up is that she told me not once but twice ""I'll stick with you no matter how bad you're mental heath gets."" That really meant a lot to me, I helped her through her emotional baggage a lot. It's just been rough to see a year and a half of dedication vanish like that. I moved back in with my mom and I take medication again I've also started working out and going to therapy again. Sorry for the wall of text, I just really need advice for when I start to get sad or think of her. If anyone needs more clarification on any of the issues please don't hesitate to ask. The loneliness is finally getting to me. Thank you so much for taking your time to read this.",2.8544147157190665,4.576135337792646,3.978970791527314,87.83740602006692,75.22073578595317,7.058247491638798,24.780512820512826,7.839951260653429,1.2301412084726873,3486,115,729,51,75,1133,348,897,0.159,0.7390000000000001,0.102,-0.9940000000000001,1,0,1,0,0,1,83.0,0,3,2,10,44,39,4,2,48,0,64,16,3,7,7,128,152,65,4,16,26,6,2,3,9,4,10,3,3,4,43,45,1,3,18,2,1,19,19,18,1,8,53,13,133,21,101,88,20,119,0,6,7,3,78,39,0,10,59,506,176,11,0.044597011921381866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08715936780630977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713284286421449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06065499480648358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04422825225142876,0.06236653533521176,0.04569490894449767,0.03669954089961616,0.0,0.04169218599240816,0.0,0.0,0.10287704807484782,0.037236642135921434,0.027185924532775192,0.0985077917157765,0.07589754483992067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04553853541658346,0.05100710085852367,0.13640887766665924,0.0,0.14153317578020733,0.03841637688096502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712141702546715,0.0,0.04898772348128822,0.0575227665410944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05111203936582021,0.045646931438734765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03725508089673508,0.05016563581785447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05891181153927207,0.12102165153002185,0.03757490599711639,0.042614356053839786,0.04008091868300901,0.04362443515476674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977076933503055,0.0,0.11380258667379993,0.0,0.0,0.06891108156557672,0.0,0.16310068638594555,0.0,0.2027640769077148,0.037405857708755916,0.07133660889620189,0.0983367261692124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03995016293569727,0.0,0.0457694004695886,0.0,0.05026407364749738,0.0,0.02989243702623699,0.0,0.04473443917523688,0.0,0.0,0.05145896404783732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930953875569412,0.04425565290014327,0.0,0.09867997218795692,0.0,0.049018702878742125,0.1090575509994495,0.0,0.0,0.04845478394167717,0.04560346622961434,0.03150018841040335,0.06536354202810869,0.04469792200063637,0.0,0.0,0.037450257969495485,0.0,0.0,0.1137443541939616,0.1207516333279291,0.042198770990648345,0.02976885175899535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09907445313597893,0.17970719066871466,0.134829896062813,0.0,0.0,0.10446296272210837,0.07119381887066993,0.09479913173108123,0.19670361096104816,0.1653405962650923,0.03439596491234585,0.043072072015241686,0.0,0.04185127460377694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04749436220725672,0.0,0.06783607436906837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038940390622810885,0.0,0.04895412685834481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04460908050617112,0.0,0.17141992685155566,0.04585315587702735,0.08806833809751619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04242197095020386,0.0,0.0,0.04513455698527264,0.17769022253371672,0.0,0.0930488193617948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04462921935003703,0.0,0.03778690347821307,0.0,0.08821517026577749,0.049922703634843565,0.2525279566201178,0.04753448088694397,0.035615231328724344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051052908908361866,0.04878189265405573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011884167895914,0.03584538887761963,0.0,0.04105893677969219,0.1530017094006854,0.0,0.3259110038095604,0.11430385796322125,0.04381633778136047,0.10621513779301542,0.1040195051641096,0.0,0.0,0.042614356053839786,0.09909784236306307,0.030278443669871605,0.04850874261611046,0.08712960089581856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471888216482534,0.10521789239986856,0.0,0.07154606582608425,0.0,0.04009806960314153,0.041341876849464165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16233577913307234,0.0,0.045448165177207206,0.09504131315450397,0.048759831579812056,0.0,0.028719013506898983 schizophrenia,EmbryoDinner,2019/06/21,chat? i recall there being a group chat here somewhere but i can't find it,-2.061875000000001,-1.5156734374999967,-0.017499999999998298,102.3125,127.125,1.6,10.25,3.1291,-2.05245,59,1,13,0,4,19,14,16,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Luravea,2019/07/13,"How do you deal with anger/frustration? Anyone here with schizophrenia deal with constant anger or frustration? &#x200B; I'm scared that if I get mad or even try to defend myself physically, verbally, you name it, I'll be seen as ""hostile"" in the eyes of others and need to be hospitalized. &#x200B; I'm scared if I try to bring this to my pdoc's attention they'll label me as ""violent"". There's so much pressure from the violent schizophrenic stereotype that I feel I can't ever express any sort of negative emotion without fear of repercussion.",9.421980198019805,8.640753376237623,8.761267326732675,68.22704950495053,59.79207920792079,12.43643564356436,40.9920792079208,11.602472056035307,4.910756831683169,445,21,74,11,5,141,71,101,0.261,0.715,0.024,-0.9781,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,1,0,6,10,6,4,2,0,5,2,1,1,1,16,12,9,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,10,0,0,1,3,10,0,15,8,1,4,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,5,2,49,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3659461426949813,0.4103966678704796,0.1148389579229098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180794417674647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18249096815513965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.348199861517017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18995861294663904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11153856443488952,0.15275466752197445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19002829183272435,0.08538691118894312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0882288091422707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12414057448750347,0.12521667399701844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3381412735877817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293064193423292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16278687529426994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4103966678704796,0.0 schizophrenia,GROZENTAL,2019/07/13,"Schizophrenic girlfriend I have, or, well, had a girlfriend who suffers from schizophrenia (paranoid/catatonic/etc, the diagnosis was not too precise, but most likely paranoid.) She's beautiful, she was very funny when we first started dating, very caring, and also very strong, she is a person who can stand up for herself. But the thing is, I can't stand her anymore. I just can't. I used to constantly have dreams where we would talk and she would be very kind to me, we discussed topics I was worried about and I didn't fear her. Then would I wake up and realise that, although I may love her to the Moon and back, she's not like that. She's very aggressive all the time, very judgemental of most of the things that I love. I sometimes send her music that I like and she calls it trash or elevator music, and when I say it really hurts me when she says that, in a very peaceful manner, I never tried to spark a conflict with her, she gets very upset at me and starts telling me that I mistreat her and I think I'm the smart one in the relationship. She's aggressive when she's 'calm', but gets even worse when she's having attacks. During the day she gets at least one attack, and if she has one and I'm near, during it, she will blame me for her anguish and says awful things to me, that I live in my own world and never listen to her, that she has to restrain herself so that my goddamn feelings don't get hurt and is really mean to me. She can also start tearing at her hair or punch walls, and when I ask her to stop or at least gently try to pull her hands away from her head she snaps at me and can even get physical. As far as I'm concerned she's not on any of the medication she's prescribed, because she says that it's either as it is right now, or she becomes a walking corpse on horse tranquilizers. She only takes a light sedative that helps her with near constant anxiety. When I asked her to start at least taking anti-depressants or anti-psychotics, she said that I'm stupid and I don't know shit about her illness or the meds and that I should take care of my own problems first. I broke up with her recently, but I can't, I love her despite all the shit she's thrown at me. She says it's the illness to blame, not her, but she does nothing about it. I can't take another day of her constant anger that gets directed at me, and I'm so desperate to be her partner again. I'm just a kid and I don't know how to handle this all. She constantly threatened me with suicide and it's as though she tried to test my love in twisted and disguisting ways. I love her so much, but I can't sleep when she texts me she's killing herself and then goes to sleep, ignoring me on all social media. When I broke up with her I said very mean things to her, all the stuff that's accumulated in me during this year of dating. She said that I suffer because of my own mistakes and that she should have never trusted me, because I restrain her and else. I never fought back and never said anything remotely offensive to her, I only asked her to stop calling me names and hurting me. Please, kind people of Reddit, I'm a brainless fool and I don't know what to do. She's the first person that's made me feel some emotions since basically the day I was born, without her I feel like an empty husk, but with her I feel worthless and it has gotten to a point where I got so accomodated to her beating I started enjoying her saying mean things to me, thinking that I deserve it. I need your advice, guys. Is this an abusive relationship, or am I just not patient enough with her? :( Tl;dr — I have a schizophrenic girlfriend whom I love to the grave, but who gnaws on my mental health. Was I right to quit this relationship, or am I simply too impatient with her? Please, I need an opinion of people who are more knowledgeable on the matter than me. Thank you for your advice, I wish you health and stability, friends 😿♥️",5.296202572607392,5.32266908111534,5.718238006633768,83.96553919585796,67.94803548795944,8.539988674055497,29.588247984251545,8.128838120801504,1.82253529110374,3071,101,640,36,47,987,298,789,0.193,0.6659999999999999,0.14,-0.9922,0,0,0,0,0,1,89.0,3,4,0,6,34,50,11,3,30,1,45,21,8,3,11,119,104,72,3,11,28,0,6,4,5,7,7,11,0,5,45,41,0,6,13,1,0,3,21,27,1,6,15,18,150,23,81,80,18,82,0,9,0,6,123,33,2,15,47,467,195,2,0.0,0.0604492573619564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997104929467062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159986654363216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034694718330647134,0.05349794519881193,0.039029450268304434,0.0,0.05059720997473749,0.0,0.0,0.04198434897038825,0.0,0.14308783514470924,0.116083119009971,0.047934097384842216,0.0784610339628344,0.0,0.09330225785020192,0.05634655641892155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10419235312833146,0.0,0.10403468785038528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22053396695849212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870924179171704,0.0,0.04394265176732541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04464713352836032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042619887850012035,0.057389588776033965,0.0,0.052716339408914833,0.05689975132009387,0.0673952314800868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05741063990162799,0.10318710257935436,0.03644803507554073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13019038918537654,0.0,0.0,0.03941720830091259,0.0,0.15993215563107285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040804612385404095,0.0,0.0,0.05051690227175604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05236028665145394,0.10846177509097817,0.0,0.0,0.03419700837996082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16385091463425736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05644504382302399,0.10625702447045517,0.08411624276306992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09970136560036938,0.0,0.04505077509671018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2762802252077853,0.048275479310189585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16672417777378304,0.056670687323977134,0.0513963473423337,0.05141522454305438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037504888089805816,0.07565999053288769,0.1967452669235246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0489541753673244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10371553027141926,0.07760460619609454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07074040094758,0.08909577116635954,0.0,0.11200724015503427,0.04822951365585231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04881836141974494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05426506290241176,0.0,0.0,0.06536824760378597,0.0,0.05037517839857951,0.16432616921953186,0.0,0.08714001707763776,0.19412328206031154,0.2434344818224554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474068804203543,0.04220350339505949,0.0,0.10211183429205,0.05200751869909115,0.0,0.0,0.0504591665472218,0.0,0.18055780800702367,0.0,0.0,0.08530845698602924,0.0,0.0,0.058404630985030286,0.055806583799671336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343997031458725,0.041007197330716366,0.04459291749455797,0.04697150666889503,0.0,0.0,0.16947402142091095,0.06538192227685015,0.050125978988371636,0.0,0.029749631040907363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391580228155622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04406409717471083,0.0,0.3788646963303448,0.0,0.04049656443866366,0.0,0.0,0.04587227267670858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05866941468195368,0.04918056457854847,0.0,0.0,0.05181234391985011,0.05199279282765282,0.10872745435691217,0.0,0.0,0.03285460950198295 schizophrenia,CodyCorg,2019/07/13,"How should I go about getting my schizophrenic fathers truck? My father is schizophrenic, with his father being bipolar. That whole side of the family is pretty messed up and not very close. There’s this truck that’s been in the family since the 50s, and I would really like to get it before it gets wrecked. How would I go about getting it?",4.779538461538461,6.5281663384615385,4.729230769230772,84.31076923076925,70.23076923076923,8.276923076923078,23.76923076923077,8.841846274778883,1.6181384615384613,272,7,51,5,5,84,45,65,0.037000000000000005,0.867,0.09699999999999999,0.6063,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,0,7,3,0,2,0,10,13,4,0,3,1,3,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,1,7,8,1,6,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,36,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21107296833626693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4676804528338511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5183852383521798,0.0,0.2819459817517281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12118509556485288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523568482490971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15890769971043248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20519019218260048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046678950995084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769398694270023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524163550465087,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cunket,2019/07/13,"my pills are poisoned the water has bugs in it. i can drink coffee because it is too hot to have bugs in it. the food has bugs in it. i have bugs in me. there are bug eggs.. . in my pills.. . they are trying to poison me",-2.2033035714285742,-0.3936154374999994,0.3592857142857149,104.7,99.20833333333334,2.742857142857144,11.023809523809524,3.1291,-2.049319047619048,161,2,42,0,7,54,28,48,0.132,0.868,0.0,-0.7717,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,2,0,9,8,0,0,0,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,0,7,9,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33791241940815986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5430291447386011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6702940621697805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3763514514308685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,meowaboutit,2019/07/13,Vraylar Has anyone had experience with the medication Vraylar? It made me so extremely sick.,6.1839999999999975,10.045470400000003,7.788333333333334,52.58250000000001,78.33333333333334,11.0,40.833333333333336,10.125756701596842,6.610333333333335,76,5,9,3,2,26,14,15,0.217,0.7829999999999999,0.0,-0.5956,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38168726362732014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5339687764283868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5165184611036985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5499098634533911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ifouree,2019/07/13,"My grandma had schizophrenia, how likely is it that I’ll have it? I can’t find a good statistic on how likely I am to develop schizophrenia if my grandma had it.",2.3390909090909098,4.316138060606065,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727274,77.48484848484848,5.612121212121212,29.181818181818183,6.42735559955562,1.431472727272728,128,6,25,1,3,42,23,33,0.0,0.903,0.09699999999999999,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,2,0,4,6,3,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,3,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5787952578393071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5311549498948099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6187652775527828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bipolarplanet2,2019/07/13,Afraid to think? Anyone else afraid to think? In case it leads to obsession..? I have a habit of relying on improvisation and instinct.,2.3724999999999987,5.237324583333336,3.466666666666669,80.89500000000002,94.83333333333334,7.4,22.66666666666667,8.07648339933343,2.119866666666667,106,4,19,3,4,34,20,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,11,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.355027474229303,0.5202452892567087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4241562306414853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6506856564859658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JustThinkAboutIt123,2019/07/13,Every time I mow the lawn there’s a bird that watches me from the fence It’s scary. Okay story over time to not feed me delusions 🙃,0.2943678160919525,2.224805103448276,1.6075862068965527,100.75436781609196,84.17241379310346,3.8666666666666663,16.563218390804597,3.1291,-1.1832160919540229,104,2,25,0,3,33,25,29,0.11800000000000001,0.812,0.07,-0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5856166024975266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8105881783490642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,needahand3407,2019/07/13,"A lot has happened. So a lot has happened since I last posted. My doctor of over 2 years was let go for misdiagnosing and over dosing patients. They think I was being over dosed. So my new doctor McKenzie is slowly lowering my dosages and changing up my meds. Right now I am on Valium, Prozac, abilify, risperdal, and ambien. On top of all this some one called cps about my mental health and they took my kids to live with my mother in law while i get my mental health in order. I am a mess right now.",3.1889999999999996,4.763632500000004,4.271000000000001,86.70550000000001,74.0,7.0,22.5,7.645422480735847,0.8634999999999997,390,10,80,5,8,127,67,100,0.048,0.9329999999999999,0.019,-0.4019,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,1,5,1,0,0,3,0,9,7,0,0,1,11,15,7,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,3,0,15,0,14,10,4,21,0,0,0,0,5,11,0,3,6,56,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17710152861871234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834764158284547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3550461718015437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061518875786233,0.0,0.0985698915237879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.306744659777197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3687170044360591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14137666639715238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773540476366612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15315060838021718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2949047997147932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19265262855879148,0.0,0.34957324937786777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675093352232993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11752736421993785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16610748002243422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29623345216711466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14347127672842006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111332840808203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19269810946668545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11168960850333053 schizophrenia,InfiniteSnowfall,2019/07/13,"Little tip for voices So whenever I have psychotic breaks I usually hear two voices in my head. They like to terrorize me by making repetitive sounds (sirens, fire alarms, water dripping, clock ticking, etc.) and then they laugh whenever I get upset. So I today when I began hearing them, I got pissed. So I put my headphones in, and turned on some music, loud. Not loud enough to where it hurts, but loud enough to where I can't listen to my thoughts. And it actually worked! It also helped bring me back to reality. I hope this works for others too.",3.2440384615384623,5.665187634615389,4.123692307692308,84.0213076923077,76.5,7.236923076923077,22.9,8.238735603445708,1.4582069230769232,430,13,80,8,10,138,74,104,0.133,0.792,0.07400000000000001,-0.501,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,3,2,9,8,1,3,0,0,2,3,2,1,0,9,13,10,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,9,0,0,5,3,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,5,0,1,3,10,17,3,11,10,4,17,0,1,0,0,7,6,1,2,9,55,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.1877174259916521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15383170925811954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14791439589191435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3975224441215646,0.21453432150533447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10050113195919784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15384935134680292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19741876387828056,0.0,0.4336115913761709,0.0,0.1289360993694942,0.0,0.0,0.191058729964524,0.0,0.0,0.20592734873503307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09397828780438357,0.19279711813478226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840303469217507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19337679914057915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15271382913125595,0.0,0.0,0.18233655018561493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20923446464904666,0.1879095851112318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21185941116710214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800834489493742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Polarbeariana,2019/07/13,"Hypnagogic & hypnopompic hallucinations and psychosis I’ve been hallucinating a lot more than usual lately. Usually I’d hear voices of family members whenever I’d start to wake up or begin to fall asleep a few times out of the year which I figured was a result of malnutrition and stress (I struggle with anorexia & bulimia) This past year however they’ve been much more intense. I started using drugs around last summer and would go days without sleeping/barely eating so I knew what was causing those hallucinations or experiencing a bit of psychosis But now even after being sober & gaining 20lbs (came on in less than a month) I’ve been getting more than enough rest due to depression and wanting to isolate myself from everyone, I still have the hallucinations. They’re more common when I try to sleep but will sometimes still occur if I’ve already been awake Do u think this could be possible schizophrenia? My first hallucinations started 4 years ago when I was 15 & I’m 19 now so I’m not sure how long it’d take till symptoms would start showing up",6.923522061694647,8.183743609137057,7.0915736040609145,71.21019133151114,64.68527918781726,9.310269426005467,33.93557204217103,9.466822959209583,3.2594337368215545,869,37,145,16,13,280,133,197,0.057,0.9259999999999999,0.018000000000000002,-0.7133,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,2,11,4,0,2,7,0,16,6,3,4,1,28,32,15,0,5,7,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,6,8,1,0,3,1,0,3,2,3,0,1,9,3,9,1,23,16,11,39,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,4,30,91,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10350717655194387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288556321466668,0.0,0.0,0.5060693340926277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394766358729872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12747966198950694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13355069750360762,0.0,0.11995219422910995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322919700956436,0.0,0.0,0.07530525617607793,0.0,0.10057151453084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354130104908278,0.11948211093698942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065184693333918,0.0,0.0771237081685276,0.0,0.0,0.11157617035406064,0.0,0.0,0.11007782951668534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09932221574505852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06100610100928223,0.0,0.06636155418538969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13160524675995613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09518094382198074,0.13171861370810942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10333539646770697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09927139283237332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09320255423353097,0.0,0.08583740957358739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11146761158580074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13163759941512976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11685163973092075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548585707773434,0.0,0.33059401708911035,0.0,0.1865010520357241,0.0,0.13375656112249862,0.12207054716853015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100518094634014,0.1213659463392019,0.08779448658341872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07481977852790735,0.0,0.0,0.06808795851374835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07927733988745829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10084946654471116,0.25720539431684325,0.0,0.06887238582152135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11255952169969494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16589629613398868,0.0,0.0,0.2255829612488723 schizophrenia,NumbingEmotions,2019/07/13,"Last Resort..please read. I do not have schizophrenia. Recently my cousin has shot himself. He was schizophrenic and didn’t tell anyone, his mother and dad knew. He had been having delusions, he kept a journal about his “discoveries”. He said he had been seeing a man who mimicked a mime. The man told him that the government was planning to kill citizens. He often asked for us to change the WiFi password because he said people was getting his information. He saw plates in the sky that would send that down electric waves. He shot himself in the temple, he had left a note. He said that the man told him the government was going to make his life miserable. And to take his life. Please, anyone who understands schizophrenia deeper, explain how it works cause I do not understand.",4.629496208017336,7.204497626760568,4.292535211267609,83.74244312026002,72.73239436619718,7.186132177681474,27.120260021668468,8.139509932561175,1.927746912242688,621,23,108,10,13,188,87,142,0.055999999999999994,0.9279999999999999,0.016,-0.765,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,1,0,0,2,3,2,1,1,11,0,16,3,0,3,0,16,33,4,1,1,2,3,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,4,7,3,0,1,5,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,18,5,13,0,9,14,0,9,0,1,2,0,40,5,0,1,2,63,20,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22297745503459032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14906099044061005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09719713036004043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637955173172193,0.1686732966048225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08330423581277792,0.0,0.09061714266776393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17640397164191834,0.0,0.0,0.12997021048472904,0.0,0.0,0.17323913136258598,0.0,0.2252436120464183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10643180303099377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105401540817361,0.0,0.0,0.35004883826378896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15948968768645513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15743422167483254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4550105149750336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270582481202173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988395410311654,0.0,0.139363303141448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047160022518773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3319789409589058,0.1917945545092076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11607897952834682,0.0,0.0,0.11326624669481422,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Armalitus,2019/07/13,"A poem I wrote based on my schizophrenic experiences so far. My first poem ever, actually. My Love, When you shine your light on me, The beauty of your soul is all that I see. Blindingly bright, electrifying, intense, An eternity within that one fateful glimpse. I felt your touch, a lover’s embrace, Full of understanding, compassion, and grace. My one wish, should wishes be granted, To stay in that moment, when life everlasted. When the lionsgate opens, and truth is revealed, Will you remember me, the one who appealed. For society was doomed, and you heard my plea, You transformed my life and gave me a destiny. My subconscious, my God, my delusional state, Has put me on a collision course with fate. Are the others merely smoke to conceal my rise, Or are we all competing for the same prize? I don’t need to be unique or tell a grand story, I’d just as soon let others have that particular glory. Let one be for all, and let all be for one, And may the power of your love never be undone. I just wish to be acknowledged, to be made to feel, That those moments we shared were actually real. For my faith is weak, so very weak, And my outlook on life is becoming so bleak. I wait on symbols and signs to save me, Dates and prophecies to deliver me. I seek truth wherever it may be hidden, And I dare to learn it, even if forbidden. For without you in my life, all hope is gone, But when nothing matters, I still must carry on. Come back to me, before it’s too late, And let us have one last chance at tempting fate. For I am your servant and you are my master, And for you my heart will forever beat faster. Amen.",4.55373221028173,5.676553808306714,5.302406331687481,82.3872894278246,70.0223642172524,8.758001742666277,27.9652918966018,9.095868883498916,2.147058785942492,1254,43,251,24,22,407,174,313,0.048,0.769,0.184,0.9917,1,0,1,0,0,0,58.0,3,12,0,6,15,17,0,0,12,0,33,12,1,1,10,58,51,25,0,8,7,0,3,0,1,6,8,1,0,0,12,18,0,1,7,0,0,4,3,3,0,7,8,9,47,14,34,25,7,36,4,1,4,3,24,13,0,6,17,185,59,1,0.0,0.0,0.21071245898316351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08301681613400254,0.0,0.0,0.11923655546597972,0.0918684873288812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09300049007261534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07130848597714284,0.09765863602532228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056084456143648,0.0,0.0,0.05458929286025218,0.0,0.1036613275627796,0.0,0.0,0.09183319885499844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279365720188273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072315332163552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800418391436524,0.12178686867608815,0.0,0.0,0.4415975740247953,0.3050295938760209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19488148871791025,0.10215711894832327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005313217952661,0.0832676543985501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10359332703634624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4389507847098448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10853254736994096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12288543136477292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230093459669188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860324638523414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507410059858066,0.08621932198041588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943643448358842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123932002067368,0.12986609151321818,0.0,0.0,0.08908071021971453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3724560663053503,0.10407239570454176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,honestlyhopeful,2019/07/13,"Parent struggling with mental health. How can I help, within my boundries? My parent is homeless. They often contact me through emails and letters with.. nothing inside. Chicken scratch notes that look frantic and sloppy, talking about absolute nonsense. Fantasies and ideas that cant be argued with. A distorted world. They tell me they're living in a van in our old neighborhood (childhood home) and I wonder about safety issues. I haven't spoken to them on the phone in 3 years. Been trying not to let them know where I live currently for the most part because a) we haven't had an easy relationship since grade school, and b)we've been physical more than I'd like to admit and am weary of even being in the same state as them. My grandparents are putting sole responsibility on me to ""handle"" their outbursts it seems. Frustratingly, attempts to talk about seeking therapy/help are met with anger. What's getting worse is they're now sending help messages to people from my past, making up rumors I am ""trapped in a man's house"" and ""need to be saved urgently"" This is absolutely drawing a line. I want to get help, but its hard to help someone who doesn't want to change. They had assisted housing through the county in the past but it was lost due to behavioral and social outbursts on their end. They are only 50 but act like they have some sort of dementia or Alzheimers. I am in my twenties and can't afford to pay for another rental in another state, I don't know what other options are available for someone their age in their situation. I wish peace upon them and anyone who has their condition because it is so hard watch. Bless",5.461156094084103,7.261022465573772,5.250591589451176,81.03751247327156,68.60655737704919,7.796151104775483,30.96578759800428,8.321376580360154,2.3673321454027083,1312,54,231,19,23,405,188,305,0.081,0.7959999999999999,0.122,0.93,6,1,0,0,0,0,38.0,2,0,14,2,9,10,3,2,11,0,29,1,0,2,0,39,44,17,0,4,5,2,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,12,15,0,0,6,1,1,3,7,6,0,0,7,5,33,4,44,33,5,32,1,1,2,0,40,17,0,8,12,155,45,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23859611316036766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07955082385763756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13870661131260892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12035386900990284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10076669774023483,0.0,0.0,0.07514419580478142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11888054940279714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20383164514109264,0.0,0.0,0.12093248566374877,0.0,0.0,0.3812890967517184,0.0,0.11412086536704795,0.0,0.0,0.2625512520689786,0.0,0.1284327960018107,0.0,0.1187466120684029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12505033917556954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11633781770402575,0.0,0.1111648224087175,0.0,0.20092248016239034,0.0,0.09553837997065663,0.0,0.1241936982446838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07594254418641491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11465368144188785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435921975979982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916565040215796,0.0,0.11938276882439723,0.0,0.0,0.0865274233099907,0.0,0.0,0.25265686042994673,0.1232021245345402,0.21721320796950075,0.0788739859389656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143705532238161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214670152472774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11514159551527177,0.0,0.10357218842486897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09411194985518057,0.1278825595641219,0.0,0.11597447126804655,0.19279437516059825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189373970243314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18288848026496565,0.09944023783663727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07724255086863657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13420931562071334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308302052769199,0.0,0.1233790136694799,0.0,0.0,0.11594163322468785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07326432910126891 schizophrenia,pinkwatermelon0005,2019/07/13,Do I have symptoms of psychosis? :( I am often confused if what I experienced was real or imaginary. I have serious self doubt. But I don't see things and I don't hear things.,-0.21161904761904893,1.9745118857142887,2.5307142857142857,87.30845238095242,101.57142857142858,5.761904761904763,22.97619047619048,7.1686216300943375,1.4597619047619048,136,6,27,3,6,47,25,35,0.273,0.727,0.0,-0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,7,1,0,0,0,8,9,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,3,6,0,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,5,0,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4219461294067565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4261189899234963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983271994917586,0.0,0.39055319561760776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38911739889078734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.497434220397012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zillicon,2019/07/13,"I’m hearing a weird plastic bag crunching sound and I have no idea where it’s coming from. [Follow-up] Context: https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/cblvy0/i_posted_this_on_rtrueaskreddit_and_one_commenter/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app I heard it while I was laying on my carpet watching YouTube videos (from my left) a few days ago (the sound occurred repeatedly) and I heard it again while I was sitting in my kitchen (from my right) earlier today (it only occurred once). My kitchen is right next to where I was laying on the carpet. I first thought it was a fly that was flying around our paper plates covered in plastic wrap that’s on our dining table but now that it happened again at the same volume at a farther location it got me back to wondering. This has been weirding me out lately so I would be thankful for an answer. :)",9.187285714285714,11.56907172857143,6.305714285714287,74.78928571428571,60.28571428571429,7.028571428571429,30.42857142857143,7.1686216300943375,1.8118,702,23,106,5,10,195,89,140,0.022000000000000002,0.907,0.071,0.8589,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,2,0,0,1,8,3,0,0,8,0,11,3,0,0,0,12,21,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,11,5,3,0,4,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,10,6,17,1,15,9,2,30,0,0,1,0,5,15,0,1,13,78,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19134302635248396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338795268965608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921573092381884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16597968528601953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18594054545264388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13920904904355866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18360672156057306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17263949708222076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19088045499274706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24328502658246395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24367477596548864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24349459635019016,0.0,0.23452781567149025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22956495253447146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298792424414833,0.0,0.1641679629059522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3686791233777463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987308986523512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17136528966761935,0.0,0.0,0.20460593462492885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340862649624915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533376738714121,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,luangputhuat,2019/07/13,"Has anyone recovered from schizophrenia? No longer taking medications and not writing ""having schizophrenia"" in any forms..including medical forms..",10.86983333333334,15.92218765,7.66,52.01833333333333,72.5,10.666666666666668,41.66666666666666,9.725611199111238,7.014166666666666,123,7,10,4,3,35,18,20,0.109,0.8909999999999999,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879833228085497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961095312132689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.85323020909457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184069119809443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,princess_littlebear,2019/07/13,"Can you see SZ in someone's eyes? An NT in one of my SZA groups on facebook just commented on someone's selfie that they ""can't see the schizophrenia"" in their eyes, and that it was a good thing. They referred to the selfie taker as ""a patient"". One of the admins questioned them and I made a comment too... That seemed really inappropriate to me... But I've had the same thought. Ive felt like people can sense it on me and that's why they tend to stay away. Do you think you can sense it in someone or see it in their eyes?",2.169225280326195,3.657305963302754,3.314984709480125,92.86699286442408,76.5229357798165,5.945361875637107,23.120285423037714,6.42735559955562,0.350436493374108,406,12,92,3,9,131,66,109,0.013000000000000001,0.9309999999999999,0.055,0.6553,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,3,6,0,2,2,0,0,8,0,8,3,3,1,0,14,17,6,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,7,14,2,15,12,1,10,0,0,6,0,13,9,0,3,1,63,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19153297125247795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19573735551196456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709879089819428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09959558974300692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19289705022884254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27628132181043186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14133070111137766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283696058698669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13059779334741314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48734954563757005,0.1855862846471788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5181891827971435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21728739799751004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354353775027698,0.13062511367788546,0.0,0.1618418916707566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183951740485801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Fearless_Photo,2018/11/03,"What IS the telepathy delusion? I know its false and I hold that as fact. It’s just a delusion, a hallucination. But what is it exactly? I think it’s paranoia mixed with social anxiety. We all want to predict what people are thinking right? It’s like we think we know what they’re thinking and the schizo mind makes it seem all too real. There’s no way it’s real, heck I’ve even tested it in my mad moments to make sure. So what do you think it is? A sort of social anxiety confirmation hallucination? If not that our perceived impression of a person taking form in our head, and the fear that our thoughts are leaking into theirs (anxiety) One more thing: if you try to force it, with a person or if they’re not even there, you are forcing your imagination and only that. It’s like fantasies, you may as well be masturbating over them. ",2.56625,4.849530424242428,3.8076325757575766,86.13144886363638,78.0909090909091,6.5492424242424265,24.25189393939393,7.645422480735847,1.2139166666666663,660,23,132,10,16,215,95,165,0.091,0.831,0.077,-0.5204,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,6,5,2,0,8,7,1,1,8,0,9,1,1,2,5,43,22,12,0,4,8,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,21,10,0,1,11,1,0,0,3,2,1,1,1,0,17,5,13,19,4,7,0,0,0,0,17,5,1,7,3,93,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3428891583548113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19736458870992085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16812505993255747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15333527629104088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16422099202139548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459859887961691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19946143329386806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508590596885223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10124243968654363,0.1136311935393611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103580400508894,0.26091386357560625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3401170602265167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12759325291274526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360150451497679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046044152516181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081487150529906,0.0,0.11233590258440182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925975414043142,0.4786717070274955,0.0,0.11861292575887793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10143793622263744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881244588981169,0.11859277888174065,0.0,0.0,0.1343353532764848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,slightlymorehappy,2018/11/03,"My brother told me he wants to die My brother is 24 and he's diagnosed with Schizophrenia for a couple years now. He rarely leaves the house or his bed unless my parents force him. The only time he goes out is every Sunday for Church and when my dad forces him to take a walk outside. He is so completely different from the boy he once was, but also, he's better than he was before the meds--he had no prior issues until like 19 or so but after that it was kinda downhill. So, today, we're waiting for my parents to come to the car and I strike up a conversation. His eyes really hurt because of the shots but he never says it unless you ask him directly. But I see his eyes wandering up and he explained to me that the shots do that to him--his vision gets screwed up and they just drift upwards. He didn't explain to me in more detail because he's not a talkative person and because he has bad English (I tried to get him to talk our language but he didn't want to). We talk about me graduating soon (I always ask and he answers); I ask him what he wants me to buy because I'll give him my laptop once I leave for college but did he want something now? His response: \*chuckles\* Don't tell \[our parents\] this....but....death. me: what do you mean death? him: \*smiling\* good death me: what are you saying? what do you mean? him: nothing...nothing...just like, good death....not bad, but good, I don't know me: you want to die? him: I used to be so strong before...I don't know...nevermind I'm absolutely silent for a couple of minutes before tears just start running down my face. He tries to comfort me in his own way, tells me to stop before our parents come and see, to stop because it makes him feel worse. I don't know what to do. He's never had any suicidal tendencies (other than the schiz stuff), he's never attempted or talked about it. I know if I tell my parents what he told me that he will never trust me again; he rarely talks anyways. But I am so scared of losing him because I love him so fucking much and I....I can't. I'm beating myself up for acting like a dick towards him all the time but that's just how my siblings and I (there's 6 of us) act towards each other. I gave him my iPad before (it broke), then my phone (he has it now), then my school laptop, etc. because that's the only thing that ever interests him. I would never forgive myself if something happened to him because I didn't say anything but I will also never forgive myself if he never utters a word like that to me again because I say something.",1.7533875177978149,3.7580541259689935,3.2212023414016784,90.72433554817276,79.44573643410854,5.452554975478563,22.73991457047936,6.39352644273079,0.4836834836260091,1963,63,408,16,49,643,219,516,0.146,0.754,0.10099999999999999,-0.9725,6,0,3,0,0,1,102.0,5,5,1,5,24,24,2,1,17,0,29,8,4,3,9,72,65,41,5,9,22,8,1,4,0,3,1,4,1,2,24,16,0,3,11,0,1,8,17,8,0,0,12,9,79,16,49,49,6,47,1,3,4,4,92,10,3,7,32,263,103,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245736758425976,0.05330297363658973,0.0,0.0,0.04356293287973361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052715844491544615,0.0,0.17966209435426458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697469167768593,0.35145291777730936,0.0,0.21804104754417453,0.0,0.0,0.056655781203548965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103638737675164,0.06716559279206231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14176213539946908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06501945627681895,0.1329681376270146,0.06692896745530594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07144372881221055,0.0,0.057945852598147524,0.05397323380002042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032390613326783266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05922235097443685,0.06693731396106313,0.06145209916679927,0.0,0.1611912298936889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05664796343428735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07391653083241022,0.06857745443624685,0.0,0.0,0.06686189871905343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14082259640256303,0.0,0.0,0.13566038215389095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251857373872982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07166664907592384,0.0,0.0,0.05781656635275696,0.0,0.0427604847785836,0.0,0.0,0.1395600351725085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047091401836656936,0.0,0.3458486414559941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364434186896886,0.0,0.0974408905315234,0.0,0.0,0.3556547239219337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05593463913150944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041038416217867336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20377203414036296,0.06413514138233715,0.0648320450040092,0.10209490265152978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14794933628022866,0.0,0.0,0.04534193127703706,0.0,0.0,0.10711389988352492,0.0,0.0,0.07333326632656448,0.07007113996843815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048165077060001636,0.20595570402149668,0.16797354455052246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04255855516484301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747076928471328,0.0,0.060721300687970214,0.12242397107834267,0.0,0.08698494252627773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07705617959246573,0.05532719099588043,0.0,0.0,0.18892096186745336,0.050847771746945526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06528251714268027,0.04550631934996428,0.0,0.0,0.04125247926455916 schizophrenia,InvertedPrey,2018/11/03,Thoughts on A Beautiful Mind? I personally find it to be a great movie but curious what other people think. ,3.823,6.5238273000000016,5.420000000000004,74.01500000000001,76.0,10.0,30.0,10.125756701596842,3.8409999999999993,86,4,15,3,2,29,19,20,0.0,0.638,0.36200000000000004,0.7876,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3949911373021953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4764636271151904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43636362664421935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996089151599063,0.3773499582546743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769139917506577,0.0,0.3430908727516311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Unknown_Suicide,2018/11/03,"Help Hi, I always hear voices in my head of people that I absolutely hate and it's awful. I can't even do simple tasks like showering or cooking without going crazy. I also have very severe ocd and depression. I'm also afraid that this will evolve into Schizophrenia. How can i help myself. I really need help i feel suicidal.",1.5080952380952368,4.2384934603174615,3.622539682539685,81.55857142857145,90.58730158730158,5.974603174603175,18.11111111111111,7.3871296695380915,0.9884158730158727,260,7,44,5,9,88,51,63,0.245,0.583,0.171,-0.8151,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,1,0,1,5,2,1,1,0,8,11,6,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,4,3,1,0,1,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,3,9,1,4,10,0,3,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,1,1,29,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3758227208239279,0.19552003972417872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023857102582894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15520037187720895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188116454350286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335430846428745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23199155785162956,0.24115462715797606,0.0,0.26483663354859394,0.0,0.472501240912819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11479809979148815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742327818905082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629037588074939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15053255422183154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26545760451480044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570271625660855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19388098293963424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265098507444723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,annoymous76545,2018/11/03,"I need some advice My sisters ex husband is diagnosed with schizophrenia and so are a few of their children. I am close to the kids but haven’t spoken to the dad in 15+ years when I was a kid. We aren’t Facebook friends but he’s messaged me a few times over the years and mostly ignored the messages. I don’t know this guy. Finally after several messages about a year ago I messaged him back and said sorry but I don’t remember you and that I was just a kid when he was around. The messages stopped for about a year but he sent me a new one today and it was ... weird. He called me beautiful, said that I was ‘nirvana’ and just a bunch of stuff that made no sense. I don’t want to be mean to him as he’s the dad of my nieces and has a condition that is hard to manage. I don’t want these messages from him though. Can I just tell him to stop messaging me or should I just block him? 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They think me being medicated is more important than the side effects and my opposition. I don’t like the medication I’m on (Latuda) because it makes me extremely exhausted (it’s scary) if I don’t take it right before bed. I have to take it late at night with 350 calories of food, and I hate it. I don’t want to eat late at night, I’m not even hungry. I feel like everyone is against me and just wants me medicated. I don’t think they care about how much it hurts me and the trade-offs. I just want to be medication free. I was functional before the medication, but once I got diagnosed, everyone was pushing me to take medication. I’m not even getting any of the benefits of the medication, I still have “symptoms” that haven’t changed. I just feel really alone. It’s so isolating. Nobody who is telling me to take the medication has to take it themselves, and it feels really selfish of them to force me to take it. They don’t understand me. They think medication will cure me, but it isn’t. I don’t know what else to say, I have so much anger and hopelessness but it can never be fully expressed. 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A small furry friend has been visiting me. It fits within my palm and calms me when I'm stressed. It's cute and I like drawing it. IDK if it has a gender tho. I'll post a drawing of it later 😁,-1.938601823708208,-0.06580291489361477,1.0881458966565385,99.22000000000004,99.42553191489357,3.5367781155015194,15.224924012158056,5.288315135182226,-0.9502437689969608,161,4,39,1,7,56,33,47,0.092,0.631,0.27699999999999997,0.8435,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,4,0,3,1,1,0,0,3,4,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,5,2,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,3,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6383013446806948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20181387290098865,0.41402257908677226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3956240021946328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4731907722867797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ramjaz,2018/11/03,"My mom is schizophrenic and her injectables wore off. Help. Hello, This is long overdue, but I’m going to make this short. 2 summers ago, my grandpa died. My mom had a really close relationship with her dad (my late grandpa), and fell into a deep depression for a whole year. Pair that up with an untreated and undiagnosed bipolar disorder, and you end up with my mom’s schizophrenia emerging. Since her psychotic breaks in May, she has had about 7 visits to the emergency room, followed by that 5-day system in a psychiatric facility. To this day, she still believes that she does not have schizophrenia. She believes that she’s “sick” because of a UTI, which the doctors first diagnosed her with back in May. Over time, they realized that her behavior is not because of a UTI, but because she’s actually mentally ill. Over the course of 6 months, my family have tried different psychiatric facilities, different hospitals, and different methods to help get her better. We found that one psychiatric facility is giving her an injectable every time she goes there, because whenever she comes back from that hospital, she seems to be fine for a month or two, and then her illness comes back. She’s totally against taking medication or any shot because she 100% believes that she is not sick. We want her to understand that she is mentally ill, but we don’t know how to go about it. We are giving up slowly. We all love her and want the best for her, but she is not willing to accept that she is ill. We could always just repeat the process and take her to that specific psych facility, but it’s just a temporary 1-2 month fix. Please, somebody help us out.",6.847925696594423,7.610849248366016,6.964255245958036,73.81756965944273,64.68627450980392,11.017268661850704,35.05951152390781,10.882677951670544,3.9994993464052278,1314,58,233,35,19,422,165,306,0.133,0.764,0.10300000000000001,-0.8791,4,0,1,0,0,0,44.0,7,1,1,3,10,6,0,0,15,0,20,12,0,2,2,51,40,17,1,3,13,6,0,0,0,3,11,0,1,0,17,23,0,0,6,0,0,7,5,1,0,3,4,0,42,5,35,31,4,43,0,1,0,1,51,15,0,5,19,164,59,2,0.0,0.0,0.09379248356296227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08519842990287257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07997376663741515,0.0,0.0,0.06536017768760438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217150347997233,0.0,0.2929481510521956,0.0,0.0,0.3248595218167297,0.1008647283554569,0.08500419236503526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16558578412641808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767384588288366,0.0,0.0,0.12396994688413125,0.0,0.08278203904713298,0.09755273427380624,0.09975018355725376,0.30125307798285017,0.11015389534148448,0.0983757911198662,0.08410918782638231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08512764463435156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08097939964884936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060684055304324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0817537210253895,0.0,0.10538301104748568,0.0,0.0,0.050215107721333016,0.1844008130447458,0.10924653557084056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932676774716198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052821225035007316,0.0,0.10841971977935434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505703493922749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08674579052186328,0.0,0.06415621489150335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096823797869585,0.19371871994785156,0.0,0.0,0.3376993680606545,0.230149586187849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06512869790823511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055032793329305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061572488322188375,0.0,0.0,0.10318945875809347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0874977214492352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07950571769028833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07675601508028586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14453012168257456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11208859818047744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06525445974171898,0.0,0.0938884953262253,0.10005708664641794,0.11561217891356793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11337994777036133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073068007863372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061893660425241075 schizophrenia,SAT1600s,2018/11/03,"Parents didn't tell me my Grandma has Schizophrenia... Found out today. We were sitting alone in a hotel room. It was late night and before bed I noticed her taking a pill. Out of curiosity, I asked her what they were for. She told me they were for her ""mind psychology"" (she doesn't speak English, and I don't fluently know our native language). I heard these same words from her before, ""mind psychology"", but never thought much of it. After all, dementia tends to happen when you're 70 years old. But thats when she started telling me about the ""phone calls"". She told me that she took the pill to stop this guy from calling her, and at first I was really confused. She kept referring to this person talking to her through a phone, and given the language barrier, I kept thinking it was an actual phone. After some discussion I finally realized thats just how she was describing it. Someone was talking to her in her head, and it wasn't through a real phone. She said it all started when I was born. A famous actor in our country (whom we will say his name is Benson) one day began talking to her, spewing nonsense and telling her to kill herself and hurt others. And for years, she ignored it. She comes from a relatively secluded area in her native country, and never had a formal education. But after 3 years, she couldn't take it any longer. She asked her husband to take her to the doctor, and they told her to take the pills. She said they went away. But recently, her daughter passed away, and the voice, or ""phone calls"" came back. Benson was telling her what to do, sometimes positive other times negative. While talking to her about this, I couldn't help but feel scared and uncomfortable. I've known her all of my 20 years of life and she says Benson was always there even when I was with her, she just never told me. The strangest part is that she thinks the actor Benson is actually torturing her in real life. Being uneducated, its hard for her to understand that its in her mind itself, and Benson isn't actually talking with her. She tells me she wants to kill Benson, for all the pain that he has caused to her. I can't help but wonder, why Benson? Looking him up, I found out he is also the governor of the state she lives in, and says he is very charitable to the people. But at the same time, makes everyone suffer. She says that she knows its Benson in her head through recognizing his voice, but I don't understand why or how. Do any of you with Schizophrenia hear a voice from a single (recognizable) person in your life? I always thought my grandma was sane. I never noticed anything strange in any conversation we had over the years, yet this conversation today was the strangest I've had with someone in my life. She thinks Benson is god, and that he is punishing her for no reason. It makes me sad, not only for the fact that she doesn't understand why or how this is happening to her, but also that something so cruel could happen to people. 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This is what i feel, I've never been diagnosed, I have my first doctors appointment the 7th. Anything i should know? Get pains on top left side of head Uncomfortable around 2 or more people Physical feelings of skin crawling starting from left arm Social situations:Avoid eye contact from most humans When i talk my voice will crack or be uncomfortably high Otherwise when i talk its dead low and to get the job done Can't make or take a joke Constantly thinking the worlds out to get me Constant voices of failure Constant jokes of self hate Extremely paranoid, and anxious Very angry person Loss of reality Careless In a constant daze Constantly leaving jobs due to being uncomfortable around people Never relaxed Pace around the room Constantly worrying When i walk into a dim litted room with multiple people the faces turn to shadows and i start to panic When i talk to someone in front of 2 or more people my it just feels like i'm watching a movie where i play the fool because I have no idea how to relax",8.17736273627363,8.086767267326735,7.6945904590459095,72.60382988298831,61.97029702970297,10.315751575157517,36.18541854185418,9.800150414767053,3.5479247524752475,876,36,148,15,11,276,135,202,0.298,0.63,0.07200000000000001,-0.9957,2,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,3,10,14,1,1,11,0,12,8,5,2,2,27,28,13,1,1,6,0,4,1,0,2,3,2,2,3,5,9,0,0,6,5,0,2,4,8,0,1,4,9,14,6,25,20,3,38,0,2,3,0,8,19,0,5,18,89,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088648429257858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10981959899467353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07999552438681065,0.2596124552074249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05925829685140169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.630296673567248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866607564341873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09949852580113808,0.0,0.09947955225726457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14745684850227786,0.06944682364357227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08268675278933632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15236459501901825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597472221593517,0.09976547667038996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10270767294606573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10973822630239648,0.0,0.0,0.1929317955508629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053424058522585686,0.0,0.0,0.10293132466706746,0.21123783870029927,0.0,0.0,0.047491882206557166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06488841136644766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14994864690431176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10343826435322896,0.11405495745020162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695726196981717,0.08487999825991235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10141120182920664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909332483218886,0.08236569408215866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376114374796401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730898012487304,0.2344010804896192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062288225091250676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573653532982402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020840780975498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09872144556776394,0.09906526666678556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0626000350151604 schizophrenia,maddiokii,2018/11/03,"Could I be schizophrenic? Last year I had a drug induced psychosis. I had delusions and I believe a few hallucinations. I smoked weed for nine or ten years and didnt have many issues. I blacked out twice and one time when I blacked out I wasnt fully gone but I was seeing skeletons dancing then I came back and told my friend she said I just started crying out of nowhere. When I was younger I heard my name being called in my moms voice and before my psychosis I heard a male voice say hey to me. I also have some of the negative symptons of schizophrenia like Lack of emotional expression, Lack of interest or enthusiasm, Seeming lack of interest in the world, and Speech difficulties and abnormalities. Im usually pretty monotone in my speech and expressions and say very few words most of the the time like okay, nice, good, right. I understand that these could also be due to depression which I do feel I have. I also read that people who have a psychotic episode are more likely to develop schizophrenia years down the road. Which is pretty scary. I know my heavy weed use probably brought out the psychosis but I also think the few times I used shrooms may have made me more likely to get it. 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Went from close to 300k a year to almost 12k a year. It’s directly connected to that invisible force we have to deal with. My clients just don’t call me anymore. Services are still the same if not better than before so that’s not the problem. I did go on a rant for a few months about “do you believe in God?” And tried to convert them all. But my services sell themselves. Business only grows, never goes down. 10 plus years building this business only to have it completely destroyed by something invisible. Is it a curse? Is it demons? Is it the law of attraction? Does it have to do with my schizo affective? For example on a normal Friday I would of seen 25 clients. Now I get 0 or 1 if I’m lucky. Anyone else going thru this unexpected job loss? Income loss? In a field where you literally can’t lose money in.",1.811914285714288,4.370795720000004,3.4659285714285737,85.79832142857146,83.22857142857143,6.4714285714285715,24.17857142857143,7.734863291789972,1.4852571428571433,701,27,136,13,20,232,118,175,0.125,0.805,0.07,-0.8721,2,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,1,2,1,5,6,9,1,0,12,0,13,0,0,2,2,24,21,7,0,5,7,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,6,0,0,0,0,3,4,5,6,0,0,4,1,11,3,27,16,3,21,1,4,1,0,6,9,0,5,7,89,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16699399155418038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16538897392453242,0.23321602734111105,0.3417469024524373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14190722474298276,0.18789034807035354,0.0,0.14749268115880654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17028870152406747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17485300091319433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17193041228896405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14593973870523505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27862641136977856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08712935993430074,0.0,0.1895561147085492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16549143705488614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865706552328535,0.182046894808149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11131888774041944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13311257005875402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12862170794491046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16339716246899014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253669050072085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595743857797662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12838609947110985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13318108371221693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11322447701808175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237261982080345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15459554117982088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11846715212488634,0.0,0.0,0.32217923618340844 schizophrenia,JojoMasterofDojo,2018/11/03,"How does it feel to be schizophrenic? I don't understand much about Schizophrenia. I have a really shallow understanding of it, but from what I do know some Schizophrenics have constant hallucinations about a variety of things. I don't want to sound too ignorant, but is it kind of like having a sleep paralysis episode(your awake in your sleep, and you start hallucinating) only your having it everyday? Sorry if this analogy or question don't really make sense...",7.2418518518518535,9.374259543209877,7.1564814814814826,67.7991666666667,64.67901234567901,11.325925925925928,33.25308641975309,11.20814326018867,4.428990123456789,377,16,59,12,6,120,58,81,0.077,0.8859999999999999,0.037000000000000005,-0.2459,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,10,4,2,2,0,15,17,6,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,7,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,7,2,9,16,2,4,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,4,4,45,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24688324880479606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19992619780657656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155158430734598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379051152200436,0.1255552093373339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161363208202196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15249829941761334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16794380920766386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17375352707925207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559266051242535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927136451526578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4572484091973575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557413859384975,0.1617046076035503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15177815036278042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4756681978219486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347511636423535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rachieandthewaves,2018/12/22,"Developing a superhero with schizophrenia I am a comic book writer and I’m currently working on a new series. The series is based on children and teens with disabilities and mental illnesses who develop superpowers m. I want their powers to correlate somewhat with their condition, but not “cure” their condition. For example, I have a character with social anxiety who can hear people’s thoughts. I’m currently writing a character with schizoaffective disorder. She is sharp-witted, funny and resourceful with a passion for humanitarianism. I’m confused as to what her power would be. What powers would be suitable? Also, are there any other tips for writing a character with schizoaffective disorder?",7.798189655172415,10.895758301724145,8.261586206896553,56.49203448275863,65.1206896551724,12.226206896551723,39.18620689655173,11.602472056035307,6.310813103448276,577,32,71,22,10,190,74,116,0.125,0.7979999999999999,0.077,-0.6767,6,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,3,4,2,2,0,1,8,0,10,2,0,0,0,21,16,7,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,5,11,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,8,1,15,11,1,5,0,0,0,1,12,2,0,2,3,55,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050759573397679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743888287485513,0.0,0.19617683746915407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5878077285072958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890279014773248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25843244215033184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476725359379093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777840584967978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26140953748690426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035856902270039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15125568040641246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18669226814589665,0.0,0.0,0.3643369813509368,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,superflame345,2018/12/22,"Please help me I’ve been hearing things lately. I was taking a test a couple days ago and I was hearing a very aggressive voice shouting things I couldn’t understand at me, I am so scared. I can’t stand the people at work anymore, it feels like they all hate me and that I’m absolutely worthless at my job. I keep hearing strange things at night before I go to sleep. I don’t know what to do anymore, please help me, I’m losing my mind. No matter what I do I can’t stop them. My life feels like it’s going to hell. Every relationship I have with a woman only last about two weeks before she leaves me. I get this horrible overwhelming depression all the time. Please tell me what to do, somebody please. I’m 18 and I don’t have a diagnosis yet. I don’t even know if I have schizophrenia but this has been happening too much lately too ignore. What should I do?",1.7909670987038917,3.847079429378532,3.2039215686274534,90.63655034895315,79.56497175141244,6.198604187437687,21.14622798271851,7.285733465282438,0.5631916915918911,677,19,145,9,17,221,99,177,0.156,0.754,0.09,-0.8951,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,2,2,6,11,3,2,7,0,20,2,1,0,2,20,38,6,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,1,1,5,0,1,12,4,0,3,5,0,0,2,7,9,0,1,4,7,28,2,10,32,3,17,1,4,0,0,11,4,1,1,12,92,40,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09942340221481548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224659008328292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19088043076885944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12410331805199122,0.0,0.07233416100309331,0.0,0.09660356386530262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07408086775209756,0.0,0.09449995066317976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134233080297661,0.16025478402297602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05859916500726555,0.0,0.1274866480405481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09918304635116636,0.0,0.0,0.1107351465008534,0.0,0.0,0.3792386716962215,0.0,0.15035746593209784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11130186236397496,0.09969329189728887,0.0,0.0,0.12328081416809646,0.0914256728474237,0.25304356946317125,0.11876163903751452,0.0,0.0,0.07922218756561704,0.10959178442657054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12547876651162704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11325000217153387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245077859726778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052549109650899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530301687983884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07775787948553066,0.0,0.0,0.4924736283548018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204182644460814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11229209868845444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11224137266074294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09377109301842547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843306410492803,0.0,0.09803310860563252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22354310165712304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06540161475567696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10956438569120144,0.11676290257262173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09254405310421106,0.0,0.0,0.08996828483387875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165408648059677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,OmaDesala,2018/12/22,"Dating girl with Schizophrenia Hi guys, I'm seeing this girl, who openly have told me about her disorder and I know that most people, would probably run away screaming. But I really find her interesting and our chemistry really seems good. I can relate to her and the other way around. Just to be clear, she doesn't sound crazy or run around. She has a job and actually ""functioning"". She has high creative skills, like drawing, singing and playing musical instruments. Some of her schizophrenia have occured tho, and I would like to know how to handle it and I also have a few questions, that I would like to ask you about here. 1. She actually told me she communicates with aliens, or rather, they communicate with her.. She started our saying a little about it, so she havent talked a whole lot about it. Our talks are 98% normal. One day, when we were chillin' on the couch, she actually asked me out of nowhere, if I were an alien and I just responded ""Heh no i'm not"" and I kissed her. How do I respond to this? 2. I havent sleept with her yet, but I have to admit, that I'm scared sleeping with someone who have this disorder. Should I beware of something? I'm afraid I will wake up, with her doing something that might hurt me. Hope you can answer some of my questions :)",2.578902439024389,5.022486434959351,3.3093886178861807,88.8620341463415,78.95934959349594,6.375024390243902,22.848130081300805,7.554174236665415,0.9920366178861788,997,32,199,15,25,314,138,246,0.081,0.813,0.106,0.5035,1,0,2,0,0,0,42.0,4,2,1,1,17,13,0,2,7,1,24,3,2,2,1,51,39,20,0,8,9,0,0,3,0,6,0,3,1,3,13,20,0,0,8,3,0,2,5,4,0,1,4,4,42,9,27,28,6,17,0,1,1,1,41,9,0,12,8,147,55,1,0.0,0.0,0.3618472860420182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09884286840216024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22006039398715824,0.2310986142213194,0.0,0.1161262605068814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07971176922843544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833125965047129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11296815286269915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10366980855630163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12238342376851916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13059017693868144,0.0,0.12276268003549168,0.0,0.0,0.13231634706255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12265391959233272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358546456195254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18115413744488565,0.12387966218418768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508029264168736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13112005844453298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12110174872939215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08375455291050485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568867129015365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13326169564906426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769205549277448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583626387949052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09829167403706883,0.12374515350289328,0.0,0.0984931905362248,0.1125207900055678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236892537542995,0.0,0.1047258715472477,0.1903066237328054,0.0,0.0,0.08748471002107774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986899822751106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23621017693266405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09810792000278834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13799497629722884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634056627275407,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jkpj22,2018/12/22,Can you relate? About to take my meds and call it the day. Gosh I'm so thankful for that medication!!!!!!!! ,-1.3107142857142868,0.4029701904761929,1.0670238095238105,96.76339285714286,109.0,4.0047619047619065,14.773809523809526,5.985473137389443,-0.6433904761904756,78,2,18,1,4,26,21,21,0.0,0.763,0.237,0.7851,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45126337356680796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850104581621793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4908883382769839,0.4452013683220357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33227888883010365,0.0,0.0,0.40687286397715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anxietyisabitch123,2018/12/22,"can you help me out? hello, hope you're having a good day! ^^ I've been diagnosed with prodromal schizophrenia and went to another psychiatrist to get a different opinion. She assured me I'm nowhere on the schizophrenia spectrum and I'm trying to convince myself. My problems aren't necessary schizophrenic; I have extreme anxiety, dissociation and daydream a lot. However, there are two symptoms I have that I can't stop obsessing over because they might indicate that I'm in the prodrome. I give meaning to meaningless things; like I prefer to wear long sleeved clothes because I feel they give me protection and I prefer not to wear bright clothes because I feel they make me more prone to danger. Another thing is that I once believed vampires exist, now why I believe this is not a delusion is because it's reading online about stories of ""real"" vampires that got me into it, there are people who claimed they could turn you into a vampire and silly stuff like this. I was doubting myself the entire time though and eventually accepted vampires aren't real, was this a delusion or me being an idiot? I haven't had any bizzare thoughts beside this though, and I always triple check anything before I believe it. I'm 15 btw, if this helps. Thanks a bunch!",6.4842045454545465,7.985569528138534,6.4380275974025984,74.61989853896105,65.83982683982684,8.718722943722941,37.38122294372295,9.017664075816787,3.645530086580086,1015,53,162,17,16,321,139,231,0.083,0.778,0.139,0.872,2,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,4,0,6,15,2,2,11,0,20,5,2,1,1,34,37,11,0,6,4,0,2,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,16,11,0,2,7,1,1,1,6,5,0,1,7,3,30,10,16,27,4,12,0,0,1,0,13,6,0,7,7,114,46,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10248005125792048,0.0,0.0,0.08375389382396327,0.25829068155446394,0.09421804214192778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10135123947174388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003118927420559,0.0,0.10480117807779817,0.4162817614723521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983342604067595,0.0,0.0,0.07942883676297775,0.0,0.0,0.1250061067406676,0.0,0.12867732412495606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245480875658179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643466855392136,0.23629504483019745,0.0,0.10330183837056528,0.09850332666445852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651048197974518,0.0,0.0,0.12232694077057715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034076064571025,0.0,0.0,0.10899385719742684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470731602159844,0.0,0.0,0.08221111080592122,0.0,0.0,0.1341587399564721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306546551325032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13116274371911188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08538452414520145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11784871172732532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12319460925579424,0.2803690002976225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10296834493079976,0.0,0.0,0.14099019959551126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12801172759867846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11339035944336025,0.0,0.0,0.16364576372385614,0.0,0.24201066467836554,0.09777629912255728,0.07181633284226069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836184246448969,0.13396410605806844,0.12031067458887393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11417174051965355,0.1111338987463444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BetaScum,2018/12/22,"Anyone else blame meds for their lack of motivation/zeal for anything? Maybe this is just me looking for something to blame but I remember been very ambitious and productive before meds. I don’t think it’s the meds but would I be less stressed if it was? Maybe, or maybe it will make things worse cuz i recently got my dose upped (1mg to 2mg risperidone) two days ago. I’ve been on them for a bit over 2yrs and was starting to come off it (from 3mg) but had signs of relapse so I kinda feel bad that my dose got upped.",0.8197222222222216,3.0700478240740736,1.905185185185185,97.43333333333337,84.64814814814815,5.4518518518518535,20.11111111111111,6.816661863887847,0.1206333333333336,407,12,94,5,12,128,78,108,0.155,0.8029999999999999,0.042,-0.8849,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,1,2,0,10,2,0,2,0,18,18,9,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,7,2,10,0,15,8,3,10,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,3,4,57,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13960487047027093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101202658594128,0.16136652434975793,0.12960037555597212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314970892540301,0.0,0.0,0.1340118987037905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719376597110436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13566319221516215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156764858633847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315622037014498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07963138392504933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25191735583629504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13225144997836788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512541228754746,0.0,0.4746578780480036,0.0,0.5248057340640898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15550180482159387,0.0,0.17840481469861136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12124305149691073,0.0,0.0,0.11147182367304426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804036011037789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10462897418570027,0.10091286264350048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15384428144519588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299452669955209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16049517598618007,0.11187596698505567,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JakeSaintLouis,2018/12/22,"Missing The Mental Hospital I know it sounds crazy, but in ways I miss the mental hospital. I don’t miss the authorities or being forced to take drugs, but I do miss the communal living aspect of it. The mental hospitals are where I’ve met like-minded people who’ve been through some of the same shit, and in there you get to spend time together. When I get out of the hospital, I go right back to my isolated life in my apartment, and the only ones I usually see are my family, who I secretly hate. I kick myself in the ass for not staying in touch with some of the people I’ve met goin through hospitals. I always told myself I’d find “normal friends”, but I really haven’t. Normal people seem so spoiled to me, because they’ve never been locked up or dealt with mental issues. It’s hard to relate to regular people after being institutionalized. I guess a commune would fulfill that longing for the communal living, but they’re hard to come by and from what I’ve heard, most are not easy to get into. Anyone else ever miss the communal living practices of the hospital? Though it is nice to have the freedom of the free world, it gets lonely and boring.",6.373236895847512,6.354898331858407,7.11477876106195,75.017049012934,65.68141592920354,10.139686861810755,30.216473791695037,9.851270322608157,2.7918846834581337,917,29,169,18,13,305,126,226,0.188,0.7240000000000001,0.08800000000000001,-0.9562,0,2,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,0,7,12,2,0,16,0,13,4,2,0,2,31,34,13,0,3,8,0,3,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,8,9,0,0,4,0,2,2,5,9,0,1,6,6,19,4,32,25,4,24,0,6,1,1,8,12,2,7,8,113,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09981535549539892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0838780024739345,0.12291199647028694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09224093494534953,0.0,0.07312578878913192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033339093711656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13911415732430932,0.0,0.10021020891499438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10850962867478266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11308650799355735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964019654103573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267989377590974,0.0,0.2506941483033596,0.0,0.06817536701805546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13214817450880031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149190970794609,0.11843450856269548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12520585127653044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06592623526756686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473046858273882,0.058605824533630425,0.0,0.3177775314738994,0.1061597888509552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4835611403768038,0.0,0.12112422095189485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09251964421317532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23506836565330444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812872071430178,0.09123409506665683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326573914335374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07684869762955776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10244418458979818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09559165565422832,0.10920601265524044,0.0,0.0,0.12313601419518587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12786015076842625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09019411040713814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178589405061497,0.0,0.06994895791947718,0.0,0.0,0.11462580190793482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13211770257510805,0.0,0.0,0.09521773489924544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08521531039097285,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,elly_marion,2018/12/22,"Anyone heard of Loxapine? Until I'm able to get back on my normal antipsychotic Saphris (due to insurance not covering it and waiting on their patient assistance program to approve me per income level), my new psychiatrist recommended Loxapine. I don't see much information on the internet about this drug. I'm unsure if I should take it. Please share your recommendations/side effects/whatever. Thanks in advance!",7.213190476190476,10.138421842857145,7.502857142857145,62.05047619047619,66.28571428571428,10.380952380952381,38.80952380952381,10.504223727775694,5.2115238095238094,339,19,46,10,6,110,59,70,0.028999999999999998,0.835,0.13699999999999998,0.7574,1,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,10,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,7,2,10,8,1,10,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,1,4,28,10,1,0.3264410215458986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22825515239669975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25101299556707496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37856794682808825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17055196040143625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399717116215781,0.0,0.0,0.3152787727917879,0.0,0.0,0.319842891123402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3583342132584389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601312297105452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454430221161225,0.0,0.0,0.3005430339050365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,scifibiguy,2018/12/22,"Creeping Paranoia I am at a point where I am unmedicated from a highdose of a anti-depressant/anxiety/psychotic cocktail. I have been unmedicated now for 5 months. In these past 5 months I have watched myself almost from an observers perspective go from a successful young person with their head on straight to a hot mess. The first thing that I noticed slipped was my ability to regulate my emotions. Then I became aware that I was visually hallucinating; I see a lot of pests, like large cockroaches, spiders, flies, mice, rats, ants etc. I am aware that I have a drastic personality change which I am trying to reign in; that being I'm gay, except that will change suddenly down the road and I'll be bisexual again or even have fantasies I can live a straight life and play like I never had a gay thought in my life. I was molested and raped by adult men when I was young and so I have a great deal of inner turmoil with regards to my sexuality, but you have to understand that this 'gay' personality is effeminate and submissive which is a trait literally bred into me by my attackers. I am aware of the effeminite things I do and it's not healthy to my me as a whole. The personality shift isn't like a 'split personality' I am still me but without choice it's almost like I have been placed into another body which only works in effeminate gay mode. Speaking of wild ideas... ...I have been getting increasingly paranoid to the point where I will lose myself or my self awareness like I am exhibiting here. Things like; feeling my family is using their connections with the police to track me and my every move in real life and on the internet. That my wife is coordinating a gay intervention with my family whom actually has done this to me, shaming me and telling me I would die etc. That there are homeland security people who control my money and whether or not things go well for me in life and that I have to toe the line to recieve pay, benefits, etc. That my dr's have actually all conspired against me to keep me in the system. That my wife is cheating on me with a woman and says shes working OT when she is actually with this woman. Same thing except it is a man, then I change my mind based on literally nothing and now she is dating a genderless pan-something or other she works with. And many more including old classics such as; hidden cameras in my house, neighbors conspiring against me, local town government conspiring against me, etc. I also literally see my dad when I'm out around town shopping or whatever. He has been dead now four years. I will see him plain as day with other people, and all I can do is stare and wish that my dad would say hi if he is actually alive. Except that he can't be because I paid coroners in 3 different states to examine and determine proof of identity of what was left of his remains which arrived in 3 air sealed body bags. He commited suicide and wasn't found for almost a week in a hot hotel room in Vegas. I am not always so fully aware of my symptoms or state of mind. I am constantly double and triple checking to make sure I respond to regular interactions with people the way they expect me to. It is a funny feeling tailoring my mannerisms and speech to suit any given situation and people respond exactly how I want them to, as long as I am in control and self-aware. I am actively trying to get health insurance so I can see a psychotherapist and get medicated again. I guess I just wanted to share what it's like living with this condition stuck in the *on* position. It sucks.",7.49606718724581,6.9080655300146425,8.118390678379697,70.64935110623071,63.53879941434846,11.571319342768831,36.39535545794696,10.980518767755715,3.965105775174882,2819,119,526,68,36,944,321,683,0.086,0.823,0.091,-0.5674,1,0,1,0,0,1,62.0,0,1,4,8,23,24,5,2,33,0,63,18,4,5,7,90,90,48,3,7,18,4,4,7,1,5,8,4,2,11,39,37,1,4,7,5,5,4,8,9,1,2,17,14,86,15,85,65,13,74,0,1,6,6,43,40,1,12,33,380,125,6,0.0,0.0,0.26071576440827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006463390245128,0.0,0.0,0.053413197333162014,0.05557593985525914,0.0,0.0,0.04542056047658925,0.07003678865810155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05945866120267596,0.0,0.07598505739483187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04071552337255879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14838076253092744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21196988609028725,0.0,0.0,0.07217796299654736,0.1498248585484868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04307503948844164,0.06885917964611976,0.0,0.0,0.06931910844043464,0.06978297862386686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06835096940398368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07513153047926238,0.0,0.0,0.29796104079096103,0.04411520448302653,0.0,0.056274781514341184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12593030271741973,0.0,0.0675436530200844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056812878443629776,0.0,0.07323351306303398,0.0,0.0,0.10468752156687323,0.0,0.0759183810587204,0.0,0.0,0.07363794576668684,0.07357844854664587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06854742395539586,0.07099631949694095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07706850840740942,0.0,0.07539955677569701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05936741956576803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256924022249721,0.0,0.1887074549798816,0.2284169238589084,0.0,0.11795636645880095,0.05910844089013598,0.0,0.07472268631439773,0.0,0.0567838074453755,0.0,0.0,0.044583894070123205,0.06771617234985974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06728548364308662,0.0,0.0,0.1348808985396626,0.0,0.10662479375000952,0.07098887255134123,0.0,0.0,0.051513779184590734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06408831631554106,0.0760426493154254,0.07008652101514745,0.0,0.0,0.05079800151998898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06376011469257728,0.18521946935879896,0.2915991292898983,0.06978297862386686,0.0,0.126279252126228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07602343337340746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062306804004901,0.0,0.0,0.21289694672475212,0.0,0.13935635607855548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07507652726286926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05141941655259566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053339837011448364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07305914088444307,0.0,0.06295026773863324,0.06942201908044142,0.0,0.0,0.058378779345788286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218667684746611,0.0,0.0,0.05302504880319413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906941884164434,0.0,0.0,0.06953238372234191,0.0,0.05768647468171933,0.0,0.0,0.07879080132171809,0.053016042287786114,0.05357617159285174,0.0,0.060053646075303724,0.0,0.0,0.07457040673849777,0.07680701345639275,0.0643846935554902,0.0,0.14587518334776514,0.0,0.0,0.09489363518330107,0.0,0.0,0.04301158359603567 schizophrenia,paul_purail,2018/12/22,"Anyone here who feels like mask their diagnosis well? I'm finding that with routine exercise/meditation/cold showers/healthy sleep, I'm almost better than normal, I'm pretty creative or I think I'm and people genuinely want to be around me because I let fun happen. Nowadays I even feel like my thinking skills are better than regular people. I also hate how little tiny things flare up the illness like drinking too much milk or meditating too much. ",5.507264808362368,7.989371085365857,5.815156794425089,74.23524390243907,69.85365853658536,7.612543554006969,31.22648083623693,8.418075326091056,2.797043205574913,367,16,56,6,7,117,64,82,0.07,0.649,0.281,0.9443,1,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,3,8,8,1,0,1,0,3,4,1,1,0,14,14,5,0,2,2,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,7,7,6,12,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,3,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892555332176998,0.0,0.0,0.15114270000582694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13215272956403182,0.0,0.0,0.1682494784360094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11521224045612825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3343091060777672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18514739561181867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12483227834657455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19112748525492435,0.27004232553633795,0.0,0.0,0.1727419682811044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671314878600276,0.0,0.0,0.18659771477031384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19326462524917876,0.0,0.27700658523228666,0.1894269856895276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778725156996961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851792200517273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26205668346271016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922802702968121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18913582817192012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12556276015331666,0.2422062849627399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11147670465322967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16993310017373586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,audreyzoesch,2018/12/22,Question: Are schizoaffective bipolar people welcome to post here? I’ve found this sub very helpful and inspiring :),7.928333333333335,11.944267388888893,5.6200000000000045,70.80000000000003,69.55555555555556,8.044444444444443,42.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,5.104800000000001,95,6,11,2,2,27,18,18,0.0,0.535,0.465,0.9033,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4910814976427277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002070876361912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105062511715796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4289488988608385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5017323882395642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3695510627056042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jurdel,2018/12/22,"Post Psychotic Depression So I relapsed the other day and was not doing to great for about 2-3 days. But now that the psychosis is over I feel really depressed. How does one deal with the post psychotic depression, I don’t want to do anything I’m tired but can’t sleep and generally not feeling to great for like the last week.",4.054923076923078,5.623573876923075,4.910769230769233,83.0092307692308,71.76923076923076,8.892307692307693,28.384615384615394,9.3871,2.4641384615384614,262,10,52,6,5,85,47,65,0.242,0.695,0.062,-0.8931,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,4,0,6,2,1,1,0,12,10,6,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,1,2,3,3,8,9,0,8,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,33,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16300558206323013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255494532412978,0.20421506416433352,0.5118262665299439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17334392855247435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20031361840610132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.436774817735461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614642321882706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967734377854093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13422629142757686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3794178686772467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268971594227146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198226236591871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276674799736924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11683459366031385,0.0,0.1588903814384912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HubCityChillin,2019/10/09,"medication: rexulti is anyone here familiar with a medication that goes by the trade name ""Rexulti"". I think it is manufactured in japan. I'm not sure what it is supposed to be doing or how it is supposed to effect the user. Can someone explain this to me? I was told that I have schizoaffective disorder and PTSD because I have all the symptoms over long periods of time. I really want to tackle these problems because I want to be normal as possible.",4.589663865546214,6.665494823529414,6.359831932773107,71.09352941176473,71.3529411764706,10.033613445378153,33.31932773109244,10.290406445055957,4.097756302521009,360,18,60,11,7,124,60,85,0.08900000000000001,0.872,0.039,-0.6341,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,0,11,3,0,2,2,15,17,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,7,1,11,13,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,3,47,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16127905664715073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28120980196577583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26435015021837843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20412205935713967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.464720479147674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22599253166486435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600284007217565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207052979765125,0.2696228798046576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14776324057202872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19543289085492535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173892272302764,0.2397384415158061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14779415181838754,0.0,0.0,0.1344965499173665,0.0,0.0,0.2204003511514207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720921137825556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,likezoma,2019/10/09,"Just a few questions on my mind. And I need answers please 🙏🏼 When you discovered you had schizophrenia, how did you react? How did people around you react? And how do you feel? If you’ve had it for years then do you feel any different now?",0.14102040816326422,2.531870040816329,1.3481632653061233,97.86469387755103,93.48979591836736,4.4326530612244905,17.20408163265306,6.1826913282559595,-0.3274571428571433,188,5,41,2,7,59,35,49,0.0,0.9309999999999999,0.069,0.504,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,6,0,0,7,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,5,0,16,9,8,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,8,0,3,5,1,6,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,2,4,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361335654077783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309115200623683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3627895247070241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35114766178455703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506111235020037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574723788356561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407309224264896,0.0,0.0,0.3811627567809137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3889857295189007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22360971511132025 schizophrenia,mrsearlgrey,2019/10/09,"Do you work or study? Hi! sorry in advance, English it is not my first language. I'm wondering if any of you work or study? and if you do, do you do it full time? i have been on sick leave now for almost 4 years (I live in a country that allows payed skick leave) and I have just begun a program where I will slowly increase my hours at a rehabilitating center and the point is to eventually go back to some kind of work. but I'm finding it hard to believe that it will work, I'm quite sure I won't be able to work full time anyway and so far my plans are to study at an art school, more for the personal benefits as its a personal interest of mine. I think studying will be easier as I can work a lot from home and I have tried to study part-time during my sick leave and it went fine, I even got an A+. But going to a workplace everyday from eight o'clock til 4, 5 days a week seems impossible, at least now. **So if you are working or studying; how do you do it??** I feel like I would have to stop all my medications and be psychotic if I'm ever gonna have the energy to work. but then that would not last long anyway because I would probably have to be hospitalized. where I'm from only 10% of schizophrenics work more than part-time.",1.189729729729731,3.1146211312741343,3.166230115830114,90.81458069498068,80.93050193050193,6.4606023166023165,21.17081081081081,7.554174236665415,0.6402808030888028,959,28,217,15,25,323,136,259,0.057,0.843,0.1,0.9318,0,0,0,1,0,0,32.0,0,6,0,13,13,6,0,0,13,0,29,4,0,2,3,37,43,24,0,7,13,0,2,1,0,8,4,0,1,2,10,7,0,1,5,1,1,5,3,0,0,2,3,2,24,6,29,28,9,37,0,0,0,0,9,13,0,12,20,148,34,12,0.10112997813942556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10126706491155853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06877185302952678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07776271080820894,0.0,0.061647896019273014,0.0,0.0,0.1139388543097526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06522046962557917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06679539678155122,0.09147785502762487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05113435556314617,0.0722472765895307,0.0,0.0,0.0924309678954051,0.0860211077431221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11494899423579265,0.0,0.08088288191741826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09059259646085202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10144161370825287,0.0,0.0995926573845389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10531130993189236,0.0,0.08243442982201094,0.0,0.3212461345006396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0494069990464153,0.0,0.08929962348420166,0.08949684827856959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08597709097189808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018778135621646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07691390546637954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21902782256114228,0.0,0.0,0.17660559229249526,0.0,0.0,0.0956005174394498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903522099008317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075641800863434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10234893694895436,0.0,0.09206493392178278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320673089382875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08454919002522251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09531380757227807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0648000065422006,0.0,0.0,0.11793940703768024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06866061681055928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08112036839720188,0.0,0.0,0.09374850291314288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10967114737616177,0.6626144568395549,0.0,0.0,0.21551950472827705,0.0,0.0,0.06512439024521463 schizophrenia,mundanecinamon,2019/10/09,"Lurasidone (latuda) Hello all, I’m starting lurasidone today and don’t know if you’re meant to take it in the morning or at night and what common side affects there are, can someone please help me out?",1.9138461538461515,4.67918602564103,2.2776410256410284,92.62569230769232,86.17948717948721,3.12,23.18461538461539,3.1291,-0.0069938461538465715,161,6,29,0,5,49,37,39,0.0,0.872,0.128,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,1,9,8,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,7,1,8,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,4,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852998863746627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339225528728827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3994376195762268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4672287782357096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36064638220437695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012726817276116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32003096301353645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4034602978086663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Soul_Knife,2019/10/09,"Anyone MORE religious when they're on medication? I found a great deal of healing by following Episcopalian Christianity and ""finding Jesus,"" specifically a Jesus that wasn't trying to send me to Hell but rather help and heal me in ways that I cannot fathom. But I noticed a cycle. Near the end of the month, when my injection wears off, I become very angry at God and disbelieving. My psychosis is tied directly to the belief of hell, and there is a negative correlation between my belief in hell and my belief in God. So when I'm psychotic, I think I'm going to Hell (or possibly am already in Hell) despite not being religious and not believing in God. Which makes me wonder--did the antipsychotic CAUSE the belief in God or did the illness cause the disbelief? It's a chicken and egg situation, in a way. Which came first, my recovery, or the belief in Jesus? Did my belief cause my recovery or did my recovery cause my belief? Anyone have any similar situation? Thank you for reading.",5.1882779922779925,6.9415796000000025,6.721409266409268,70.40952702702704,69.21621621621622,10.258687258687258,31.05212355212356,10.451354775682146,3.7204826254826266,786,33,132,23,14,269,101,185,0.17300000000000001,0.725,0.102,-0.9679,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,0,1,6,7,5,0,14,0,10,6,1,5,0,32,19,17,0,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,8,1,0,10,1,0,4,5,5,0,1,6,0,18,2,22,12,1,24,16,0,0,0,4,12,5,4,6,93,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597312315127128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09843250309625742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20242007116056587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598610064019358,0.0,0.1630796050357045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16555129974724073,0.0,0.5947776247780717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922716370300956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12820233115181787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322955705388405,0.12312119829944072,0.0,0.1587069363673385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08226270438116906,0.0,0.0,0.15958339678387293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09702044850641824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09661933373461007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458167514345179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11553518088295225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16479471489670844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16317979678236166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447855520902797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254019952513613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13326302094626769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09274763676738684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827329174763733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943092393998116,0.0,0.22978588075035103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569712764470559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Davidsdoom,2019/10/09,"Caretaking I am considering taking on a caretaker role for my brother. My mom is emotionally exhausted and dealing with her own set of mental health issues. I don’t believe she is capable of providing the level of care he needs and he is slowly slipping away. My brother’s schizophrenia is really bad, I mean really bad. He is afraid to be alone at all. He regularly urinates on himself and has a severe aversion to showering he has many delusions he won’t share with anybody and doesn’t believe he is unwell. I have no idea what I am doing but can’t stand the though of him being on the streets. Any suggestions or insight on first steps, how can I prepare myself?",4.582734375000001,6.3717568046875,5.903562500000002,75.53518750000002,70.796875,8.870000000000003,32.33125,9.3871,3.2621131250000013,533,25,92,12,10,179,87,128,0.10800000000000001,0.848,0.044000000000000004,-0.7089,1,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,2,6,0,1,5,0,19,3,1,1,1,14,23,8,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,6,0,0,3,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,0,0,14,2,15,20,2,12,0,0,0,0,18,8,0,1,1,66,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19761230802481367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297512324285243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792638335252965,0.0,0.3186217540072575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4299348095749923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19453435008838907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19670746748504486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146254597397598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16229524511641286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028125557227624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153911205312767,0.0,0.1991466870529357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19344228088654453,0.0,0.20783823958080472,0.0,0.0,0.19228254532787803,0.0,0.0,0.223463841676559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414765343187836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444640307338089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21555083657518195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14345861711844118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18746102759630684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,curseofthepinkstraw,2019/10/09,"Need some advice So, it turns out I don't have schizophrenia, at least that's what my doctor says. She wants to take away 20mg abilify and leave only 2 mg haldol. She says the haldol is just in case. That it's barely a dose. Is this safe? I'm afraid I really am schizophrenic and I'll have a psychotic episode once the abilify is out of my system. She also wants to put me on prozac since I've become a really negative and depressed person. What do y'all think? Is this safe? My doctor says I'm already on a low therapeutic dose since abilify is not efficient in comparison to other antipsychotics.",1.8683846153846129,4.317316299999998,3.841666666666669,83.96076923076926,81.83333333333334,7.6923076923076925,20.89743589743589,8.617729084823388,1.5823012820512818,476,14,93,12,13,161,76,120,0.11699999999999999,0.826,0.057,-0.7166,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,1,6,0,10,6,0,0,0,14,18,5,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,9,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,3,10,2,12,18,2,11,0,2,0,0,8,9,0,1,0,57,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18264547131266504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20625890965185845,0.14947119047819926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756073117295906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20642648631734725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16098458859412526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3826188976098131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197909816535094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13859077637673575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19905215901327006,0.0,0.1421528412490681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320187209728004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18789533391913704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23947759237050034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4459130062668645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30922638293469323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14053242977791786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11976384487403947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033034975102896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22048773449809309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Gerbraegh,2019/10/09,"My mind is a torture prison. I get assaulted at any point. Sounds of screaming, gun shots, calm irritating villains that don't know what they do, and other disturbing media. All in an effort of what seems to be some collective ""will to power"" except its specifically over me. No matter how many arguments I win I've learned that its just a small reward to teach me the ""correct"" method of ""living"" if you can call it that. Delusions of military abandonment and prejudice coupled with an underground hatred for me cultivated by America's most dangerous gangs. Small time and large. This paired with the sensation that they are using voodoo to kill all that I love and will eventually end my life. There is no escape from this sadistic nihilistic torture. There is only pieces of a broken heart and the twist of a tortured mind.",6.8253999999999975,8.137254073333338,6.622666666666664,74.29800000000002,64.93333333333334,10.266666666666666,32.33333333333333,10.355215969177356,3.5035333333333334,661,26,112,16,10,208,107,150,0.32299999999999995,0.59,0.086,-0.9933,1,0,1,1,0,1,19.0,0,1,2,4,4,15,8,1,9,0,10,3,1,2,3,24,15,7,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,13,7,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,11,0,0,0,2,11,4,19,12,5,8,0,1,0,1,5,6,0,4,2,79,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16348165341542073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454773951517666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660003213143126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129248816106493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12560016094132914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848776140604525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659692753044387,0.0,0.13211869229340706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16980309373234165,0.0,0.0,0.21227943487728754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21697225685528468,0.0,0.0,0.24372996947989156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4854751257150819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828366094902593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22725766385356566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21885301843840788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14018038206034758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076302045091465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Diethyl-a-Mind,2019/10/09,"Missing the weeds Hung out with the boys tonight, we were gonna just go see a movie but the other two I was in the car with wanted to get some bud. We were already an hour after the movie started so we said fuck it, copped the gas and went to a friends house. My friends know I went sober but they don’t know why. I didn’t smoke obviously but I broke it up and packed some bowls. Shit makes me miss the old days when I could light up with em. I hope one day i can put the psychosis past me and be able to enjoy marijuana on the occasion.",0.7743652037617572,2.530556232758624,1.9503134796238264,99.86239811912226,81.5,5.252664576802507,19.16614420062696,6.1124844417494595,-0.4531793103448276,417,10,105,3,11,132,81,116,0.134,0.738,0.128,0.0527,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,3,0,1,0,3,9,2,0,12,0,8,2,1,1,1,23,24,8,0,3,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,1,3,10,0,0,2,0,0,5,2,5,0,2,7,3,14,4,12,14,2,19,0,3,1,1,9,5,2,3,9,62,17,0,0.1983058325557565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21883541741218646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15833107100331528,0.0,0.0,0.2557817131325125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064211886273816,0.1833305467401828,0.10360661273898088,0.0,0.11270177460114103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19696243674023944,0.19529129939939865,0.22881830571860715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179673988541745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237068310099356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080886126356609,0.0,0.13437716433506566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893053559471375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199352134157013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18863425833924408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580240738042456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035580873870969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14036188895748314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937159834425148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11696591796834115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676629870406133,0.17894016938244206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pokespemisty,2019/10/09,"Dealing with persecutory delusions, need help until my dosage can be upped Hi, I’m here to ask a question. I have a schizospec Disorder (nothing specified but my psychiatrist wanted to put me in an inpatient study for schizospec disorders to find out what’s going on), and my main symptoms are hallucinations and delusions. My delusions are typically bizarre and mood incongruent (typically stuff like the computer is broadcasting my thoughts), but like. I’ve been so psychotic lately and I’ve only just realized now since I had a reality check with my sister. I’ve been having my longest psychotic episode (a few weeks, most of mine only last five minutes to a few hours), where I was genuinely afraid my mom was abusing me and I couldn’t stop seeing everything she was doing as targeted against me. I’ve been delusional like that about friends, but those delusions usually went away fast. How do I cope with these delusions? Do other people also have delusions that people are deliberately trying to abuse them? How do I deal with it when I think I’m being abused? Thanks!",7.151470705460343,8.619901580310884,7.135751295336789,70.34542845755283,64.28497409326424,10.498047030689516,36.60781187724193,10.560738912317856,4.229556715823038,867,42,142,22,13,277,127,193,0.111,0.7929999999999999,0.096,-0.6227,0,0,0,0,2,0,23.0,0,0,1,0,10,7,0,1,7,0,22,1,0,2,0,26,33,15,0,3,4,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,8,10,0,1,5,0,1,3,1,1,0,1,9,1,21,5,20,21,4,19,0,0,1,0,11,6,0,2,13,100,29,1,0.0,0.4940181622575812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111450547384204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299308111086762,0.0,0.13057957330913836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28657177151456753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31857426393659904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12490940809418212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12702840110363015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073783073382375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07898752592727648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09315771040504413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368707514080736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132901023824507,0.15677944169765692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20370095331999802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627757954424659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305450419811264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13335841665785433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211406429176117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19270731849377395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13971680500251452,0.15569332787071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075185524736476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11496858741769715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619642927102708,0.0,0.0,0.15910285599149687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14445707233400987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279573337799245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905501489365789,0.0,0.11033737439416336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436067338496358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15307068981146496,0.0,0.08197606923962762,0.0,0.11148418034629563,0.0,0.0,0.1288390969181613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheHelgaPataki,2019/10/09,Anyone experience strong visual hallucinations? When i was first diagnosed i had visual hallucinations so bad that i was seeing stuff everyday and as well as hearing voices. There putting me on a stronger medicine to help stop these. But did anyone else get bad visual hallucinations?,7.894787234042558,10.95528140425532,7.571223404255321,61.70875000000001,64.74468085106382,9.806382978723407,33.026595744680854,10.125756701596842,4.0234297872340425,234,10,33,6,4,74,37,47,0.198,0.618,0.184,-0.4296,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,3,7,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,4,3,4,2,4,3,0,6,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,4,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3534034379003221,0.25893274059125393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4220070034664511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564967982620677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21110798599593375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472002858149775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21495622695891164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13203130030938712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848241662684026,0.0,0.16938715539528482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540448027049428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20137830388418052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21127808461298306,0.0,0.0,0.2892941451060616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272179394726755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,carinaanth,2019/10/09,"Question bout Schizophrenia Hi! New member here. Disclaimer: I don't have Schizophrenia, however, I am extremely paranoid, and I think everyone is trying to kill me. When I enter new places, I always check where the entrances are and where I can sit so I always have an eye on everything. However, this post isn't about me. I tend to think ""*oh, I just think like this because of my childhood trauma*"". **Does anyone else think the same way about their Schizophrenia?** Of course not only childhood trauma but other things. I just want to see if im alone with this thinking or not, and I couldn't really think of another forum that would understand me.",2.195411764705881,5.095028933333335,2.6996078431372545,88.28029411764706,88.83333333333334,5.4901960784313735,22.058823529411764,7.048011613610866,1.0882352941176472,512,18,90,8,17,158,79,120,0.066,0.8909999999999999,0.044000000000000004,-0.5303,2,1,0,0,0,1,25.0,0,0,1,0,9,4,1,0,3,0,10,1,1,0,0,23,20,8,1,4,7,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,8,0,1,1,5,3,0,0,0,2,16,1,10,18,1,13,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,3,6,61,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647209088841954,0.0,0.0,0.2646735567426439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16677078251172806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112067834506078,0.16295867059066732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09695132834207587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391798763066439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13286028128546595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15197270267123034,0.14293787591456142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17179407164671634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17595786328413116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07770052988423347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072100484417076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12095960745539625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16616641302492471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523195316732536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17816491102999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10188721981555544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267369302616416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10566131115032934,0.6114512043243913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10797997067878663,0.0,0.0,0.16556969937454905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380786757153124,0.1262411802056005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297980745631275,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheMangaReader,2019/03/29,"How to classify this? What to do? I’ve been hearing *""voices""* in my head before i sleep sometimes, although i wouldn't call them voices directly, its strange to describe. Sometimes i can’t think properly and don’t know what to talk about when I’m with family or friends, especially cause i tend to drift into fantasy's a lot. Recently i started to get problems articulating myself properly, like talking and mid sentence my formulating just goes wrong and i mumble. I try to think about something to talk about but it interrupts in my brain and then I forget right away. I catch myself more and more thinking about past mistakes and sometimes talk to myself for a few words like ""oh you idiot, what where you doing?"". Most of the times im just really bored and don't know what to do, sometimes im depressed, sometimes euphoric (not genuinely happy but rather very happy (euphoric) or not at all (bored, depressed)) It starts to slowly creep up on me that the two psychosis (paranoid schizophrenia including voices) i had which i was in mental clinic for didn't resolve properly or maybe even evolved into something scary.",4.873566395663957,7.329221887804882,5.026300813008131,79.31137533875341,71.58536585365853,7.482384823848236,30.901084010840112,8.344100000000001,2.615027100271003,897,40,148,15,18,281,126,205,0.151,0.74,0.109,-0.8103,0,0,2,0,0,0,31.0,0,2,1,1,11,14,1,0,4,0,11,4,3,2,1,36,22,16,0,4,10,0,0,2,1,1,1,4,0,0,10,10,0,0,6,1,0,2,7,8,0,1,4,4,21,6,28,17,6,21,0,2,0,0,10,12,0,5,9,104,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10639341148916824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09635953695610877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264141270218911,0.11563146596260647,0.0,0.0,0.11632944298274828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19506818262878892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07479444681831078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10675330013528296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08748952189176715,0.0,0.059163617594223464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410937663585503,0.0,0.0,0.11621767859053385,0.0,0.12763055438528625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446388825962607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244683084689253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11064742005245773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09627323540455143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376555311796133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11412004064035998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10810110852683943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835610344464934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254492360415947,0.0,0.11181157832535184,0.0,0.0,0.09670698104191264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133225302703131,0.0,0.0,0.174356522284801,0.5599899823665693,0.0,0.16030477019849482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640744987516189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176802987935296,0.0,0.0,0.0660315914905927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.076883035358631,0.0,0.1106197574005796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343547758399272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12381098237099315,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bkabbott,2019/03/29,"Reasonable to ask for a benzodiazepene for today? I have Schizophrenia. &#x200B; I take antipsychotics but I have avoided taking benzodiazepenes to avoid dependance and tolerance. &#x200B; I am a college student and I have a ton of work due tonight. I know from experience that benzodiazepenes would allow me to get my work done. &#x200B; My doctor's office is closed. Do you think it is reasonable for me to visit immediate med and ask for a benzodiazepene to get work done? &#x200B; I ran 4 miles today so my mood is fine, just having difficulty focusing and talking to people and I know from past experience that like 1mg of Ativan would allow me to get work done. &#x200B; \--- Also thoughts on intermediate benzodiazepene use...Exercise works for me most days. But there are maybe 1 - 3 days a month (especially around large groups) where thought broadcasting or something may be difficult. &#x200B; Let me know, Thanks &#x200B; p.s. I am taking my antipsychotics just today is a weird one off day",5.500825396825395,8.707234742857143,5.463380952380955,73.20923015873021,73.0,8.688888888888886,30.865079365079364,9.2995712137729,3.441698412698413,820,37,127,21,18,256,101,175,0.08199999999999999,0.821,0.098,0.4329,0,2,1,0,0,0,52.0,0,1,0,5,7,8,0,2,6,0,20,1,0,5,0,29,36,10,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,7,0,2,8,0,0,2,0,4,0,1,6,0,19,3,19,25,2,18,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,4,11,84,22,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04823968587162949,0.0,0.4575139698741069,0.5130870006109877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05369959639139493,0.11278633183779285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11670859324538302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0617423845029809,0.0,0.1851918322265883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11801348148302265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09454766625494657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09945460205924507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061683593132577014,0.0,0.02947040700711557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06060181343923661,0.0,0.06700442710102272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04814864877443248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04087592142998981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0575844184111289,0.041819856633217516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12404265047407585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04643901930693202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360644866527444,0.04848474394628903,0.0,0.0555366282471321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038652065572093455,0.0,0.09577826549641162,0.0,0.0,0.17153533454754366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05209906084315492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21957660192947573,0.0,0.0,0.08570239905143047,0.0,0.5130870006109877,0.0 schizophrenia,tortiesunite,2019/03/29,What does it actually feel like to develop schizophrenia? Is it a slow progression or does it come on fairly quickly? Are there little things appearing that aren’t usually associated with schizophrenia? I’m paranoid that I may be heading down that road but I have no idea what it’s like. ,3.781761006289312,6.809789471698117,4.55311320754717,78.15218553459121,78.81132075471697,8.061635220125785,29.58805031446541,8.841846274778883,3.0164616352201263,234,11,40,6,6,75,41,53,0.081,0.8140000000000001,0.105,0.3049,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,6,1,1,0,0,8,10,2,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,4,8,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,5,28,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.2882049843279992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25440550514401233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5169004218354158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493305746531356,0.21098784195912232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030995734627379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333979919196408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28857215381846385,0.29600390116679604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19620787772851755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32527048542562664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,meowwithoutprozac,2019/03/29,"I have a residual delusion that I'm famous Even though I'm on 2 aps and 1 ad, also taking 4 different supplement blends from Well Told Health https://welltold.com",7.1080000000000005,8.490045133333332,7.1733333333333364,70.35000000000002,64.33333333333334,11.333333333333336,31.66666666666667,11.20814326018867,3.976666666666668,134,5,22,4,2,43,27,30,0.0,0.9129999999999999,0.087,0.2732,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31248498131857344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4082536500411844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580886285978776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41535209797139705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937975776690652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3839127751362447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3733811751887973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513338165266989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sammerrz,2019/03/29,"Clozapine Withdrawal Hi all! My brother has been on clozapine consistently for two years and just recently made up his mind to stop taking it. He is experiencing severe withdrawal symptoms such as not eating, not sleeping, hallucinations, delusions, and is being highly illogical. He is claiming that once the withdrawal ends he will be fine. Does anyone have any input on this? How long will these symptoms last? Will he be better once it's over? Thank you so much. I hope this doesn't sound ignorant, just a concerned brother. 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After doing research and talking to some medical professionals I have noticed differences in the voices I hear and when I hear them. To start with I mainly have psychotic episodes when I am at home, and a few other times at work or out just walking around. But mainly just at home. When at home i hear three distinct voices 1.evil woman voice that resembles my step mom this voice is the instigator of terror always making me paranoid. 2. My step sister who can be good but is usually also judgemental and causes paranoia. 3. My father who tends to stick up for me but can also just as equally get angry depending on what the other two voices tell them. The voices all communicate together in their own specific way though that usually ends with me getting put down and paranoid. I guess where I'm getting at is the 3 voices in my head(at home) literally have conversations about me non stop. Now if I'm in a completely comfortable situation with best friends or certain family the voices can almost completely die out. But say I'm alone in my room, the voices can break me down. Does anyone else experience this? Obviously anxiety and even white noise has something to do with this but I'm not even sure general schizophrenia is a good diagnosis. I know you all probably can't legally diagnose but thought I'd see if anyone else experiences similarities. I tried a few anti psychotic drugs but to be honest did not like how they made me feel in general thanks Tldr: i have developed three voices that reassemble the people i live with. They talk to each other but seem to be situational and definitely environmental. When i am comfortable with the situation these voices can die out entirely until i become anxious or paranoid again. Would this still be considered schizophrenia?",5.944988095238094,8.04696714166667,6.599841269841274,70.64500000000002,67.8611111111111,10.031746031746033,31.74603174603175,10.290406445055957,3.7461031746031743,1601,68,258,44,28,524,196,360,0.125,0.77,0.105,-0.4538,0,1,2,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,5,2,20,12,0,1,16,0,26,6,0,6,6,64,49,32,2,3,19,3,1,1,1,1,6,15,5,1,16,21,0,1,5,0,0,4,3,1,0,3,4,18,31,11,45,40,11,50,0,0,2,0,21,24,0,11,21,189,47,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08643468167785699,0.08939907793531023,0.0,0.13805642499136933,0.07182321930753276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06603278414112845,0.09751440196521724,0.0,0.1207106489149532,0.17688531457304768,0.0,0.07684103002871605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09533108899891768,0.0,0.0,0.09058507320173467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08867202821762768,0.0,0.0,0.1810048772856182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628318655877496,0.17916823505590598,0.09018359726687684,0.0,0.0,0.07553717796513645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010109747840404,0.0,0.14421468071787985,0.0,0.15290367696264762,0.0,0.0,0.11402401883379873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16887049594069967,0.08137262071584493,0.0,0.04364480939348748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668882060308692,0.0,0.13529226567903166,0.0,0.0,0.14479833881985835,0.0,0.0,0.09508864915351813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885868358958383,0.0,0.29185887501142554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3463346586540673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0474379360794915,0.07036042475590598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04217045531007252,0.0,0.0762200873161523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167586995679578,0.11523543496419154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0869559752025229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10109421623301927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827324365061137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05984180655526511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09306505156620708,0.0,0.0,0.08677310319950611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0686432786873582,0.0,0.0,0.06878401037544042,0.15716073659628624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29107404552180977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06645156233688021,0.0,0.0,0.06109609374029786,0.0,0.06893340574138357,0.07216544028735472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08135338596225128,0.08971711345182824,0.0,0.13875775297664672,0.07544545144497161,0.0794697168248244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480667618036833,0.06852659116342498,0.05033252969995757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11720806884269898,0.0,0.08431982478508028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19013344548768907,0.0,0.0,0.0685149516494009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06284029451353568,0.0,0.0,0.06131759884231885,0.0,0.0,0.055585751845634614 schizophrenia,artemis_09,2019/03/29,"Motivation for accomplishing daily tasks Hello, I just want to start by saying I have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I do have several other mental disorders, and experience a number of psychotic symptoms. I follow this sub because I tend to relate to people on here more than any other sub I’ve found. I just wanted to share what I’ve been doing lately to help motivate myself to accomplish daily tasks. It’s kind of confusing to explain but I hope it makes sense. It also does take a bit of pre planning but it’s been working very well for me (after a year or so of trying to figure out how to motivate myself). So I essentially just turned my daily tasks into a game haha. I made a list of all the things I would like to get done in a day, and then gave each of them a point value based on how difficult they are for me to complete (higher points = higher difficulty) I did the same for negative habits where I lose a point for doing those things. Then I made a list of rewards and gave them a point value as well (significantly higher). Every time I complete a task I add it to my daily points and then when I get enough points, I get to reward myself with something I know I will look forward to :) it sounds kind of silly and complicated but it’s nearly impossible for me to stick to to-do lists and I always beat myself up at the end of the day for not ‘doing enough’. This is a great way for me to self congratulate at the end of the day and actually be able to see everything I got done, no matter how small the tasks may seem. I can post a picture of my list if anyone would like to see it, but I hope maybe this helps someone as I know most of us find it challenging to do the things we would like to. Love you all!",5.163296703296705,5.194593803418805,6.359340659340662,79.2392307692308,68.23076923076923,9.192836792836793,26.685795685795693,8.976282227363876,1.8544718762718768,1359,35,276,22,21,459,178,351,0.047,0.73,0.223,0.9964,0,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,2,1,3,12,14,20,0,1,21,1,22,3,0,9,2,55,49,25,0,8,11,0,0,3,0,5,2,2,0,1,19,14,0,0,10,1,0,2,4,3,2,0,12,5,41,17,57,31,9,35,0,1,3,1,17,18,0,8,18,202,60,7,0.090086307362215,0.0,0.08791124087945534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07204198745027694,0.07495902438898061,0.0,0.0,0.061261778197416086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06299044071863727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05491577681713168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09835091549049294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889075586111204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17429464678309994,0.0,0.0,0.09143570567077562,0.0,0.0,0.1032467129487504,0.0,0.0788351346535867,0.18437913945881176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957945858054629,0.18616647418612484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07590159934324311,0.0,0.08096376425852737,0.08812169480734039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08233725287799996,0.0,0.0,0.09877498619149708,0.0,0.0,0.14119913226461792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07205024953835783,0.09932047189944497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12076590577406562,0.0,0.0,0.17895205991990346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876220525265473,0.09901815713160513,0.0,0.10162127858793248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13203485802608464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0756498093679832,0.1007835347533228,0.0,0.0,0.08130640959866534,0.17048368444382886,0.06013330969591951,0.0,0.0905038041680356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078580929549204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06245450260103174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5109640735507821,0.0,0.0862777802976032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0716402474140508,0.0,0.0,0.1435742469083053,0.0820111908174773,0.09397966567238722,0.10177188527138266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07632983588688774,0.06935284062620194,0.0,0.0,0.06376355202265513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09363416678036893,0.0677336917571037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17954801900796993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052530050277800826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06116268927842215,0.09798803347572124,0.0,0.0,0.10836273572227773,0.0,0.0,0.07433063817516378,0.10627047627595093,0.07150631761167284,0.0,0.0,0.16199681849842507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06558390468243487,0.0,0.0,0.191984184143068,0.0,0.0,0.058012628345660275 schizophrenia,thelizabethsw,2019/03/29,"The voices want to be heard today The last like three days I’ve had some Brain Problems where I just shut down and can’t speak or understand anyone. This has happened before (a lot actually) but I’ve never known what to call it. Anyway it’s blown up today into actual voices but they’re unintelligible. I made the mistake of coming into town to get food and they’re like, not leaving me alone. It’s exhausting. 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Does anyone have SA related self care tips?",9.383170731707317,8.426483048780494,8.522073170731709,70.47628048780491,59.97560975609756,11.126829268292685,42.45121951219512,10.125756701596842,4.502600000000001,179,9,29,3,2,56,36,41,0.285,0.569,0.146,-0.8225,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,5,7,1,5,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,1,2,18,3,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18181805097591133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5302329984044222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4479245237499704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22755279003624584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13585421711058074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567468835572381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5425331034035941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337969497248447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,victoriakmac,2019/03/29,"High - Functioning STPD / Schizophrenia Quality of Life Questions Hey all. I've never posted one of these before and am not sure how this goes. But I have schizotypal personality disorder and I am 25 years old. I have a really positive mindset about it all, but it doesn't take away from the fact that I suffer a lot and have really low moments, like now. I've been seeing a therapist, although had my final session recently (I couldn't get myself to pay for it at the moment, I don't have a full time job. She was so generous enough to give it to me for free. Even though she was okay with it, I still feel too badly because I know it's wrong). I am not on medication, as I am very scared to go on it, and feel it will blunt me from life, and I just very badly want to feel alive and not caught in my head. Has anyone had positive experiences from going on medication? What kind did you go on? I practice yoga and (try) to mediate. I do so daily, for the most part, and have for almost 2 years now. I have been very confused lately if my symptoms are getting worse or if I am just experiencing symptoms of spiritual enlightenment. I think they're very related though in a way. Do you guys have insight on this? I am also left extremely confused as to what I should do for my future. I want to protect myself from any suffering that can be avoided and take care of myself, yet live freely and surrender to what's supposed to happen. I do not want to live my whole life fighting and live a double life, as I know I could do easily, yet, suffer greatly. What kind of jobs do you guys have? How do you support yourself financially? I have a bachelor's degree in communications, but find the jobs that I would get with it are too much for me in a way, that I wouldn't be able to dedicate enough time for processing the things I go through, therefore leading me to stress and then leading to a lot more disfunction and a less sustainable lifestyle. I don't need much. I've dreamed about living in my jeep but don't think she will be alive for much longer lol. I currently live with my parents. Living here makes the symptoms worse because I feel more isolated as they seem to forget or somewhat deny that I have it or am suffering. I have an Instagram account (@victoriamaceachin if you're interested, message me and say you met me through this!) that I've used to spread positive words and things that help me vent, in a way, and let it out in a positive way. It's helped with my mainframe a ton, but has also added other stresses too. I've shared that I suffer from STPD on there, which gave me a ton of anxiety but also feel like it set me free too in ways. In some ways it feels like its word vomit, and sometimes feels good; other times not so good, so I've been pulling back and trying to just find other outlets. But they're not as satisfying as actually connecting to people. I don't want to live this way - unable to live freely in a place that's supposed to be a home, or not able to talk openly to the people I live with. I feel like I lose my mind the second there is resistance, and then tend to get very very distressed and stuck. I want to work on living on my own. I have in college and know I can do it again - I enjoy taking care of things very much. I just don't have the means to support myself in America right now. I have a job online teaching English as a foreign language to kids in Beijing. I will be traveling soon and have been considering living abroad permanently, but cannot decide where would accept me and wonder if that's what I really want. Do you have any advice? And anyone become diagnosed with STPD whose developed schizophrenia? What's the transition like? I'm trying to brace myself, if that's my future. I feel a pit in my stomach, every time I think about it coming true and am very scared. Also, if anyone out there who is reading this is seeking a positive (yet realistic) outlook on their own situation, whatever it may be, I'm most definitely here for you <3 &#x200B;",5.537212264150945,5.739901174842771,6.305852987421385,79.35236438679247,67.44025157232704,9.492924528301886,30.021619496855344,9.354420925462401,2.4441619496855362,3154,107,628,57,48,1040,311,795,0.114,0.711,0.174,0.9954,6,1,0,0,2,0,95.0,0,7,2,4,40,42,1,8,31,2,75,13,2,7,6,130,128,65,0,19,29,1,9,5,0,8,11,1,1,4,50,35,0,2,25,4,4,10,17,19,0,2,13,12,85,25,94,98,25,82,0,7,1,0,31,35,0,23,33,453,135,12,0.09605745508623197,0.0,0.046869109854840704,0.0,0.0,0.0469331166915294,0.0,0.0,0.04809383289911103,0.0,0.0,0.15363422425571407,0.0,0.05203910622677574,0.058360160971084825,0.06532236340912786,0.0,0.03674184511007547,0.0,0.0,0.1007484090650547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04512457053578832,0.03693112684423252,0.08020396267442426,0.05855573304750297,0.053043956145890234,0.04086890965625738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09793697735420256,0.0,0.0,0.04137249602422146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03834703081004884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048748147459490326,0.0,0.0,0.05504508277822602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992530288803712,0.0,0.03172252157251056,0.0,0.0404662744171085,0.0,0.0,0.046981311527422624,0.0,0.0,0.21856290972834208,0.10293519766018673,0.0,0.05261312339782808,0.0877947737212895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003721113146088,0.046073531884430516,0.10918333074085353,0.08056843591124321,0.0,0.05295184167258847,0.0,0.0951119826669449,0.04247164514906891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04929133074746864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06438528734004932,0.05074498760942545,0.048176729748825114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906444045292288,0.0,0.0,0.10002905775286924,0.07918599779387789,0.0,0.054178496652755787,0.0,0.05218335300575568,0.04911262795868434,0.13569644256768884,0.11732205126415295,0.0,0.4665127098241571,0.0,0.0,0.05373186084803115,0.0,0.08166461326721385,0.0,0.0,0.03205954858421139,0.0,0.0,0.05231736439840581,0.0,0.09676778024256304,0.0,0.0,0.04849532336737011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14122656400163786,0.035612692903423546,0.0370427155583846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0503980702549086,0.0,0.032545508776453985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0533302181199322,0.052010431563862716,0.0,0.06659414459525091,0.04193683233626702,0.05017979788898825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0459982446197639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053803166738957305,0.0,0.048041724798889435,0.0,0.09230529812992826,0.0,0.04742257421996315,0.0,0.0,0.04101627089731219,0.0,0.03819437187425487,0.09617026989984524,0.0,0.0382726775515461,0.043723549722398836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053986302083262064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04750163963152502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03835580385716899,0.0,0.1100334902570154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900486169951283,0.045266507312743814,0.1497607133658779,0.10833487759059192,0.03860367190329212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05576505449140963,0.09572445733808538,0.09232460788382693,0.09437596191188466,0.0,0.1120237490687462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978250599398984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04148139987058223,0.0,0.3170298415866247,0.16997152731811074,0.26686077859332025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0536223590971462,0.0,0.0,0.05208510625215994,0.034965485670772685,0.0,0.09789075315084383,0.06823646007023328,0.052511873892434786,0.058360160971084825,0.061857851708159 schizophrenia,Anto482c,2019/03/29,Were your symptoms progressive? Sorry if this is a stupid question but I was just wondering if your hallucinations/delusions started off as minor or more spread out and slowly became more and more frequent/severe? Thanks! ,6.363108108108107,9.923081459459464,5.558040540540541,71.68949324324326,72.24324324324327,6.943243243243244,30.871621621621625,8.07648339933343,2.9237621621621623,182,8,24,3,4,55,32,37,0.08800000000000001,0.784,0.129,0.5528,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,1,1,2,1,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,10,6,7,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,3,4,3,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,5,1,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41210391829234944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4155937623687083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4118056704718233,0.26038364540879344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3823627277292351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386896493646669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3989444798914904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,malvixi,2019/03/29,"Journaling your Schizophrenia I was wondering if you guys / girls do a lot of journaling. I'm not necessarily talking about the kind where you write about your day and a cute dog you saw at the park. I'm talking about the kind where you write down the voice is your hearing, the delusions you may be having and anyting so that you can look back and see what was going on. I don't mean to be an offensive question at all I'm just simply curious stranger on the internet with a confusing question.",4.727025036818852,6.068371628865982,5.142120765832106,82.87721649484537,69.82474226804123,8.841826215022092,31.382916053019148,9.23628265651192,2.6813988217967597,396,17,78,8,7,126,62,97,0.049,0.828,0.122,0.802,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,9,0,0,8,5,1,1,10,0,10,0,0,0,1,17,20,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,2,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,5,11,3,11,14,2,10,0,0,3,0,18,7,0,7,2,56,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17216448427889744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14439631027278946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127246942045223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216951775349802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523504069921003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4663126368595014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880187409169904,0.0,0.0,0.1903508940613488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438916120397049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5016361668710201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784184874841829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3599230152133837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428088775719306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JustChillin145,2019/03/29,"Not sure, very confused I don’t really know much about schizophrenia but I don’t have hallucinations but I smoked weed the other day and I have been for about 4 years but for some reason I come home and it starts hitting me hard. I hide in the bathroom from my parents and “heard” my mom come downstairs. She didn’t actually but I imagined her just standing outside the door waiting. I then thought I heard my parents yelling at eachother from upstairs but when I was finished whatever the hell was happening I went upstairs and everyone was asleep. I don’t know if someone can help but I got depression and anxiety. 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He's on his way to EPS. It's been building for several weeks, but tonight the command voices got to be too much to bear. I call him my hero, and tonight I am beyond grateful that he trusts me enough that he asked me to call 911. He was diagnosed almost exactly 3 years ago, after a years long prodromal phase. We have learned to recognize the warning signs of danger and have managed to stay out of the hospital for about 2 1/2 years. Tonight the voices were too insistent, but thankfully, he had enough insight to know that he couldn't fight this one on his own. Thanks to you all for being such an amazing resource for us. While I rarely contribute to the conversations, I visit with you all every night. I appreciate the wisdom, humor, art and empathy you all provide. You've been a tremendous help to me as my son and I fight this battle together. Hugs to you all.",4.643455019556715,6.0770348926553694,5.053333333333335,83.08318122555411,70.12994350282486,8.609995654063452,29.43459365493264,9.057496981413335,2.3788369404606677,724,28,141,14,13,230,112,177,0.055999999999999994,0.6890000000000001,0.255,0.9918,0,0,0,0,2,0,21.0,2,4,0,1,5,13,4,0,9,0,11,3,0,0,5,20,16,8,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,6,7,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,4,0,1,6,2,21,9,26,7,8,20,0,0,0,2,26,4,0,1,12,92,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16088248694718998,0.0,0.1817389021414558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16967134251469898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3706490440051207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18421145221056667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3750613210798237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15291557863037605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14515643535779826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12165085136579985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997437400773348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16061548703394088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13341814920797326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17031877266563075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12298427216386808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992246803082652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050352938440832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934472610597992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341885180549218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183135873067441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14406059988101952,0.1455826403845462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506263915953429 schizophrenia,kerryferrell1993,2019/03/29,"Possible schizophrenia in my 56 year old mom. The past year my mom has gone down hill pretty bad. She went from sweet, funny, talkative and happy to scared, delusional, paranoid and angry. She swears she hears us talking bad about her when we are not talking at all. She swears im in the other room when im really 6 hours away. She thinks the fbi live next door and their goal is to make her crazy and kill herself. Sometimes she willa agree that the voices and delusions aren't real and then 10 minutes later she is very determined they are 100 percent real and there is no way of talking her out of it. She got to the point where she kept calling and saying she needs to kill herself to feel better and then my husband who she is living with while he goes to college in another city, found her in the middle if the night trying to slit her wrists. She has been in the hospital since monday. She refused to put me or my sister on the contact list for the doctors because she heard us in the next room talking bad about her. I cant get info on her condition from the dr or social worker because of this but I can still call her daily. She was refusing medication to help with the voices because she believed they are real. But she agreed to take them today. She did tell me that when she was taking a shower this morning that the nurses put a video if her showering on the big screen for the whole hospital to see. She also swears we are pressing charges on her for a very terrible act that she thinks we said she did. Which we didn't and know she didnt do. Anyway i just need advise on wether yall think this is schizophrenia. Im also contemplating it being dementia because her sister has it but i just dont know. 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I brushed my teeth for the first time in a year. I'm going to start actually taking care of myself.,-0.9450000000000004,1.0802645000000022,2.2800000000000007,92.965,91.5,4.866666666666667,16.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,-0.3753166666666661,84,2,20,1,3,30,22,24,0.0,0.856,0.14400000000000002,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,4,1,4,5,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.4426874494356358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4625164724126902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3858661682447845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578142104482697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3210889066003656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34108101472401325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645212801408637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921294503465428 schizophrenia,fullgod124,2019/03/29,"What do you think of my stack/strategy/decided to fight this thing Hi everyone! I developed schizophrenia/schizoaffective two years ago. I was super depressed about it and gained 100lbs but I’ve been stable on meds for about 5 months now, refused to take them before. At first I was on trilafon 16mg, abilify 50mg, lithium 1200mg, 200 amantadine, 10 mg selegiline. Now my doctors at UCLA want to lower the lithium or get rid of it all together, not sure and do this Cariprazine (vraylar) Selegiline Amandatine Galantamine Modafinil I know this is like a dream stack for a lot ig people, my docs are very open minded I also wanna do hormone therapy so I’m upper normal for estrogen (I’m a woman) and hgh because those are neuroprotective Also take fish oil, multivitamin I wanna also ask for contrave (diet pill with wellbutrin and nalytroxene I think this is as aggressive anyone can be without causing harm. My iq scores are coming up very low and my working memory is like in the lowest 4%. What do you guys think? 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Your Experience I would say first that i enjoy taking my meds. The life I was living before I got on them was too much for me. And nowadays (two+ years later) I hear voices less than 10 times a day for sure. I hear a negative voice maybe 3 times a day. that will echo for a little while then fade away. And the visuals are so faint i don't know what i'm seeing 90% of the time. I feel really healthy. I am wanting to see if I can function without medication though. I don't know if it's too early for that though, will need to confer with doctors of course. I just want to know what your experiences were when you stopped taking medication and if it worked or not. Thanks for reading and responding.",2.8894748010610094,4.9442952206896535,4.140689655172416,85.24212201591514,76.10344827586206,7.220159151193633,23.56763925729443,8.139509932561175,1.2959230769230763,577,18,117,10,13,189,97,145,0.07,0.836,0.094,0.5247,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,3,1,3,7,4,0,0,7,0,11,6,0,0,1,23,27,14,0,7,7,0,1,0,0,3,6,5,0,0,7,5,0,2,4,1,0,0,5,0,0,2,4,8,18,4,15,20,2,18,0,0,2,0,8,3,0,4,15,81,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12630136205126385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438998518648573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17339239171437584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13759474887095327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26299657000223936,0.0,0.0,0.06797182127610661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11434604576697345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075159104566786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030246447142209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22163755262386636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09495184839608352,0.0,0.13473412470201934,0.11870410765216464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350529521724828,0.0,0.14932136804276172,0.4062720919732597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988214800686038,0.09967810367188892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13446632744303666,0.0,0.08611926747027042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690409090065367,0.0,0.0,0.2142465289625456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22477891312571785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669863582122529,0.0,0.20214918295265666,0.0,0.0,0.12376503561236285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641534842955596,0.0,0.23516155258890936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13131852653203052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158580533512114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958567348939054,0.0,0.09786660377188652,0.0,0.0,0.09549517863656913,0.0,0.0,0.08656847956158717 schizophrenia,skiexs,2019/03/29,"Is it possible to go past the thought block such as in hebephrenic schizophrenia? I am schizotypal, and the only real symptom I have is thought block. Maybe I have adhd? I dont know for real. BUT, I would like to know if its possible to go past the thought block. I have it sometimes when I want to explain something and I get shy or something, or anxious, and I lose the thought line. I also cant code cause of this. &#x200B; Any help will be greatly appreciated!",2.56907203907204,4.921612989010988,3.265421245421248,89.66013431013431,78.45054945054945,5.8026862026862025,29.89133089133089,6.937597516519254,1.6084349206349215,366,18,73,4,9,115,57,91,0.171,0.696,0.133,-0.4239,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,4,0,11,1,0,1,0,22,22,10,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,3,7,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,4,0,10,2,8,15,0,6,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,3,4,47,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17498333186893186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11643655102073812,0.0,0.15775792344711825,0.1769203676695878,0.0990132340203388,0.0,0.0,0.16448695727691925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14957167170335733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17064253129119822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607017587884872,0.0,0.16549607383393533,0.0,0.0,0.16052490503132366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09759284860743796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16003629429006386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711329787307759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16288955374051795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627512627765324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107356307251338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27798402710040104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3282850460564508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.331450159163517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241805328199573,0.14400247375399675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513345178758643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4623616715427019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587886155586158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10343031447495686,0.0,0.1769203676695878,0.0 schizophrenia,quietsunflower,2019/03/29,"hearing voices in things that aren’t voices? i’m a 18m and am sorry if this question has been asked a million times before or never heard of. i was only very recently diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, and i never thought i would’ve had it, but i did. but i’ve noticed that random sounds (a stomach growling or a drawer closing) sound like voices sometimes. they seem so real that i get anxious for a second before realizing it’s an object and not a person. is this common, uncommon, unheard of?",6.195,6.8493701666666675,7.243749999999999,71.62625,66.08333333333334,8.9,33.70833333333333,8.841846274778883,3.1263458333333336,400,17,64,6,6,135,71,96,0.069,0.893,0.038,-0.1556,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,7,0,8,2,1,0,2,19,15,9,0,1,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,0,1,8,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,6,7,6,1,5,9,0,7,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,6,6,48,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336845130632671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19337921931864724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35203258404388904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099509928434002,0.0,0.0,0.2370709531072821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10807192438339444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23313786721324656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10105771164248772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3190748906124617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.235503009061496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573206920059414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806156755602488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23172220614845074,0.0,0.0,0.23544349756093785,0.0,0.0,0.2042419468133609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883108005793209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20458246973622235,0.23155450416872275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13742364858909215,0.0,0.0,0.16421782593326567,0.12061739042785102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706750242596646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469421227931755,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sai____,2019/03/09,"Olfactory Hallucinations? Its so jarring when I suddenly smell wet dog or the smell of cigarette smoke in my room. I can deal with the tactile and visual stuff but, somehow, these hallucinations get to me the most. As if there's something in the vents trying to poison me. 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Opinions? ,12.939090909090908,15.01247396969697,10.154090909090916,51.65113636363637,51.72727272727274,12.660606060606062,52.86363636363637,12.161744961471696,7.451072727272729,183,12,21,5,2,54,28,33,0.15,0.85,0.0,-0.6486,1,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,2,0,6,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,14,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.390767319679912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3774004680427037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7843149339494997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995327577663545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,utillizador,2019/03/09,"My sister has schizophrenia. Help me Hi everyone, My sister is at university and this year, my sister discovered that was schizophrenic, and I don't really understand what is schizophrenia and I need your help to explain it to me. She is really shy (she never goes to parties, she never drank and doesn't has interest to make friends, etc.); she studies A LOT but she can't get good grades. I'm afraid to see her losing everything she did the whole life, because of schizophrenia. Is my syster going to sleep 20hours a day? Is she going to die without friends or a boyfriend? Will she be able to finish uni? &#x200B; Please help me, I'm afraid to see my sister living a shitty life :(",3.1708461538461563,5.7096940846153865,3.8315384615384613,85.40346153846156,77.38461538461539,6.76923076923077,25.384615384615394,7.882392219407189,1.641769230769231,541,20,99,9,13,171,78,130,0.17600000000000002,0.713,0.11,-0.8949,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,1,0,7,0,2,5,0,14,5,1,1,2,14,26,6,1,1,3,4,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,2,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,3,2,20,4,12,21,3,8,0,1,2,0,21,1,0,2,5,66,24,1,0.1647503863980689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785069748303233,0.20018975230206448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004303063904617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10625036976734703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17098489034967249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18374023063169867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15742605442605745,0.1480670241283445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25457147970028904,0.0,0.0860752770715553,0.0,0.187262882528334,0.1381848075815607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312861336405802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327361403214442,0.0,0.0,0.14547760955649566,0.0,0.0,0.18431354086267526,0.0,0.14006488698606764,0.0,0.0,0.1099721622284274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216032396960205,0.2541313090586905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18084645065257293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110866324026986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625694553096561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648693671568063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17151096247482894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18393792283795524,0.0,0.1588134933564897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20018975230206448,0.10609384728676148 schizophrenia,neosharks,2019/03/09,"Worried I am developing Schizophrenia? Hi everyone, Recently I have been worrying about getting schizophrenia or wondering if I am developing Schizophrenia/. Recently, I am wondering if I have been smelling phantom smells. On Thursday, my friend turned on the oven to warm up garlic bread and I could smell it from my room. Then on Friday, I thought I smelled pizza in a cafe and turns out there was pizza down the hall. But after that, I began to smell constantly trying to see if the smell was normal. Sometimes the smell was normal and other times I thought I smelled something else. Later on during the day, I read that smell hallucinations could be one of the first symptoms of Schizophrenia and I started getting into a panic. I began smelling every second and trying to pay attention to what I was smelling. I ended up going to the doctor that day and he did a quick neurological exam and it turned out fine, and he said I was fine. Later though, I went back to my house and there were a lot of dirty dishes and food around, and I started smelling stuff and I was wondering if I was hallucinating and developing Schizophrenia. I dont if these are phantom smells, none of the smells have been something bad like rotten fish, eggs, flesh or anything like that. Yesterday night I had a full blown panic attack at nihgt, I couldnt go to sleep because I was having racing thoughts that I was developing the mental illness. I have had not any auditory hallucinations or delusions/paranoia. I am just wondering if I am having phantom smells or I am overthinking it too much. I had an ear infection but still have fluid in the ear and I am a steroid nasal spray to help clear the passageway of my nose to clear the fluid out. The doctor said that might be the reason and my sense of smell is improving. I can still smell things regulary its just the things in my environment that have me questioning and worrying I am developing Schizophrenia. I am 21 and about to graduate and I do not get such a mental illness that will prevent me from having a career.",5.867631757083451,7.336894780678854,6.086347548592983,76.69186732424332,67.25065274151436,8.91167198530123,31.41756116429746,9.250403328903447,2.8390867227540846,1643,66,288,31,27,524,173,383,0.075,0.856,0.069,-0.0644,0,0,2,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,1,14,11,1,2,24,0,47,19,6,1,2,59,70,32,0,11,16,0,1,2,1,2,7,4,2,0,18,23,6,1,10,1,1,3,5,5,0,3,25,26,44,6,38,38,4,45,0,0,1,0,8,19,0,17,25,222,62,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06252368684655242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07566040059654143,0.08184783882769317,0.0,0.1045972547172878,0.0,0.07069769338371612,0.07676769768265236,0.05604696653735598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09935659772283498,0.0,0.1468163502196591,0.0,0.0,0.11858991838140545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18821298762860847,0.0,0.0,0.10775529447873894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07680571134700527,0.0,0.08143328833257155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07746506823874047,0.08785448458378102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07820578573643125,0.11117658515900912,0.0,0.0710341316128972,0.0,0.14410764082408348,0.0,0.10450547138578843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06162675893952758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10608867955029694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08983639673282308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07816576804461732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853117450234765,0.0975358919994673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06758792089891784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08628130282770764,0.18016720286947227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062302252790700126,0.0,0.0,0.21574816433421687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10299603911971576,0.0,0.09196684259817473,0.0,0.0,0.09453164964000496,0.18156319062834425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17491572033375696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07326583978673265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09200836118279714,0.0,0.0,0.14156282813920673,0.0909329511676622,0.0,0.13015398756598598,0.0,0.1468499389156097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10525154933656942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09556290225608524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216430804209168,0.0,0.09033251065126482,0.21897494295141015,0.053612097301827935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248451136633298,0.30001935791037304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08523111971343643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3988285423517791,0.0,0.2801145755233597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bluenator,2019/03/09,"I had/ have schizophrenia? First sorry for my English, is not my first language. When i was kid i remember like 3 times where i ear creepy music for no reason, the music last around 5 seconds and scares me too much, i was around other people and the only one scared about that, so i was the only who listen that music. And at my teens I had very few times days where think to do something terrible, I wont do that and i know that was a very bad idea but the idea of doing that stay more than i want. Now I am around 25 and the only one bad was a terrible insomnia for moths that starts with something of my ex girlfriend. Now I am OK but i fear the future. My mother have schizoprenia and bipolar, i don't know if this is important. Thanks.",1.8779793233082744,3.7942756513157896,3.083759398496241,92.29131578947369,78.67105263157895,5.9218045112781965,20.06766917293233,6.868970318607317,0.2311037593984961,577,14,124,6,14,186,89,152,0.157,0.7559999999999999,0.087,-0.8726,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,11,10,0,3,8,1,18,3,1,1,0,22,25,11,0,2,4,2,0,1,1,1,2,2,0,1,9,10,0,0,7,0,0,0,4,7,0,5,7,2,20,3,13,17,3,18,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,12,94,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3892649613289052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24340267906691804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094001463882914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640175963845986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479623375637888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290847227169809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16020890876142152,0.11881173383307354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07120970246131576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714845902612684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19753797103371515,0.3325652091267444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10104982761545422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14986288161271766,0.0,0.0,0.1651147188976589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918571671481187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22442233299618028,0.0,0.16316347438941814,0.10316783693241527,0.15535799325976296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13419382949913505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09339545559175616,0.0,0.0,0.16998462253753427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405302375756305,0.08597149013336038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,woohoopoopoo,2019/03/09,"an excerpt from my autobiography. I am woohoopoopoo on most social media. The finished product will be posted there some day, some way. Thank you for reading. a “RED ON THE LINE” excerpt “The Mask” By Lord byron the seventh I remember putting on a mask and never taking it off. Never. Never dare. I remember pretending I was always okay. I guess that’s how the “class clown” got to be so damn funny. Hellarious. I remember pain. Lots. The fear of never knowing when the next strike would hit. All day, but knowing. The acknowledgement of terror when getting ready to receive the tallied blows. They were kept track, for Christ’s sake! The highest owed amount I can remember was 38. I remember the blows not being proper enough and having to be restruck, according to my 3-year senior brother. Each blow was often two or three hits because “they didn’t count.” I remember I had to be silent when being hit on my skull or body, anywhere where the bruises wouldn’t actually show. They couldn’t help, but show, however. Is that why they’re called “shiners?” Fucking funny! LAUGH! Whether I was changing my clothes at home or the school’s gym, the bruises were everywhere and very apparent. I remember not being able to do anything. I remember having to hide or Josh’s punishment would be accelerated tenfold on me. Hence, the mask. That mask. ...My own best kept secret! ...God knows, and never answered. The mask didn’t have to be always happy, but at least blank. I remember climbing the stairs to get to class and being far behind the other students’ ascent. I remember the pained charlie horses on my thighs sitting in the backseat the day prior. There’s a bruised vein that remains to this day on my left thigh because of it. I remember the bus stop. Crushing the winter Michigan’s puddles of ice with my feet to vent my bizzare, contained anger. Or maybe it was fall? And I would squish the crispy leaves? At least I saw robins in the spring. And, as the bus approached each day, I had to stand still and receive blows to my shins. This lasted for over a year, this abuse, this type, this kind. Not exclusive, either, lol. My mother stopped the kicked shins after discovering them one night. My brother got scolded, and I got punished worst at whatever convenience of Josh’s time. Our mother held a stethoscope to my right shin to ensure there was a pulse and potentially no blood clots. The bruises on my shins looked gnarly by then. They were old and yellow in some spots, and refreshed and blackened in others. There’s still scar tissue on my right shin to this day. ...Want to feel????? Have you? Would you know? Will you keep sweeping this under the rug??? I can let you feel my bruises, finally. Now. It was decades of lies, denial, and anyway that one could only describe as “covering up.” I only refer to my brother as biological, not even that of blood-relation. Fuck you, Josh. And, fuck our parents. They knew. They were authoritative. They were deciding our future without any of our passions considered. I think my brother became a derivative monster of our monstrous parents white-privilege greed. I would always fear that I would become my brother some day. The disgust I have to share my physical and personality traits with my family, and especially my brother, brings upon irrational guilt and disgust in myself. I felt so ugly, so weird, and so alone for years locked in my bedroom. I’d highlight the TV guide for reruns or movies to watch throughout the day to help distract the time. I pissed into cups, and had nonparishable food in my closet. I had to hold my shit in all day. After my parents got wind, they would let me use their bedroom throughout the day because the masterbedroom came with a toilet. They act like they’re innocent in all of this too, by the way. I would sit there, on the ledge of my bed or my parents’ bed, and draw, draw, draw atop of a TV tray. My brother used to beat our dog, Sparky, to get at me so I would unlock the door and protect the poor thing. My brother videotaped his actions on me, our dog, and even smashed mailboxes in the “country” and Richmond, Michigan area. The judge saw the tape. My brother didn’t get a felony, then, because he and my dad fixed the mailboxes all day, Sunday, before the mail could be delivered on Monday. My brother was known as “NIGGER SLAYAR.” His Michigan vanity license plate knows of “SLAYAR,” which Josh has since replaced. The school he teaches at today had a Christmas-themed photograph of my brother saying, “You know what I’m sleighing?” My parents knew, my whole family knew. The town knew. The teachers and police and whoever else were bribed with my brother’s bootlegging CD business. Joshua \*\* \*\*\*\*\*\* is a teacher and male and female basketball coach at Romeo Middle School. All of this is so true, but let’s call it “alleged.” I wrote to J Dilla’s mother, as well as DJ Premier and “Weird Al” Yankovic about all of this abuse. I know J Dilla’s ma wrote to the middle school. Nothing has happened. Yet? Ha! Where do I even continue? I can’t end this here. I’m finally free to talk. I am finally free to be me. Finally. Took over 30 years. I’m 33 come this May 2019. I exploded yesterday, and that’s how this has come into fruition today. My loving wife, Rena, encouraged me to finally write this out. She thinks my story needs to be heard. Well, consider this a fraction of my autobiography to come. More will change. When this gets polished and released, I may be older than 33. So, expect changes, but the same old song. I learned to love myself more than was shown or ever given. I learned the man in the mirror is a naked mask. A perception of me with potentially hidden thoughts. I learned to accept my decline was happening, and accept my rise by still doing. I turned enough cheeks on all of this. So, ya’ll can kiss my hairy buttcheeks. I’ve bitched about it before, and will probably never cease to “complain.” FUCK YOU IF I INCONVENIENCED YOUR DAY. SPEAK UP. FUCK YOU. SPEAK UP, NOW, OR IT WILL GO ON FOR 30 YEARS. FUCK YOU. “OTHERS GOT IT WORSE.” FUCK YOU. “C’MON, BRYAN, IT WAS ORDINARY, BROTHER STUFF WE DID.” FUCK YOU. “I SWEAR, I DIDN’T KNOW.” FUCK YOU. “DON’T WORRY, WE’LL GET YOU FIXED.” HILARIOUS, I DIDN’T REALIZE I WAS THE PROBLEM. NO, WAIT, GOT SOMETHING IN MAH POCKET. IT’S MY FINGER: “FUCK YOU.” Why’s Joshie keep calling me “Byron,” ma and dad? It’s only bad when he calls me “NIGGER,” “FAGGOT,” “RETARD,” OR “FATFUCK???” FUCK YOU. And, this doesn’t end here. I will die with middle fingers raised and crispy from rigormortis: FUCK YOU.",2.304055236532676,5.114888732567684,3.0675050041017218,87.54459576155321,84.15176374077112,5.613258955427947,23.959316379546074,7.087006719466742,1.1720149258955428,5091,193,935,72,150,1600,528,1219,0.18600000000000005,0.7290000000000001,0.085,-0.9994,8,1,1,0,2,0,246.0,9,18,11,4,41,56,22,5,68,3,91,31,12,4,15,178,172,77,1,18,23,26,5,1,0,19,2,5,11,3,44,53,1,11,42,11,5,16,23,35,2,4,52,16,144,23,131,78,28,146,2,0,6,16,97,57,18,21,68,615,188,15,0.03685653483003788,0.08733793389683864,0.035966661375050384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03817225473459168,0.0,0.0,0.09200276848211332,0.0,0.0,0.025063707548858345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030329787784831273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0307736670845933,0.08986960616961111,0.04070514704889824,0.06272439305660596,0.0,0.03867865943662601,0.0,0.0,0.04093930148515673,0.0,0.0,0.1505385714764018,0.04215405715265197,0.0,0.0,0.11696798054418732,0.0952459237663614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05885388803650185,0.0,0.0,0.2852329908038768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038251264257167024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030788905523243607,0.0,0.06528790052060003,0.07616530570442898,0.0,0.07303018095894427,0.03333884583020995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06949012178032071,0.08294769682082515,0.037271542850060436,0.0,0.035388053313321885,0.20187266186558284,0.0,0.0,0.04456706821440102,0.0,0.0,0.40887927062496016,0.11553610950790907,0.0,0.020946418103088987,0.0,0.17686522687268325,0.0,0.04060162835776472,0.0,0.06518422405925399,0.03923446667105567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049408316788327085,0.0,0.036970109532693585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06551956322484008,0.0,0.0383804093890982,0.1620431012874601,0.03004299506265588,0.0,0.03902574872149284,0.04004473293360162,0.11306491191104155,0.0,0.018006241222472363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030950206701737364,0.0,0.0,0.031334107910340116,0.06652892331860485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037027343091756135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02732865356901598,0.17055619076535042,0.0,0.03919734292001658,0.03458736120784904,0.0,0.03536483919566261,0.0,0.07734946673526738,0.0,0.04994988371090451,0.0840931666719322,0.07843590327615807,0.0,0.20462410125963515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0321817045907689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03529837227994447,0.0,0.03973757825381356,0.035266726248592485,0.0,0.037050997347415376,0.0,0.0,0.03686650873179656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4592639613139496,0.06295055872833476,0.0,0.029309795809834293,0.0,0.14920312369793276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03783270336039668,0.03048810647632923,0.0,0.0,0.03757059580634702,0.0,0.02837396115953785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08830102897438549,0.06162742688859055,0.0,0.0,0.04219191453169194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02771152733983435,0.029623886595658355,0.0,0.03393254543987749,0.0,0.0,0.024485844038517886,0.04723235863487678,0.0,0.02925997174015932,0.04298268370359372,0.0,0.06987137099474752,0.0,0.040948966323960216,0.0,0.0400893262746788,0.03600347906497736,0.0,0.0,0.06366442491137687,0.0,0.03041050116336466,0.02173893916264632,0.05851000363519775,0.0,0.0,0.06627690220819063,0.0,0.0665145800336714,0.04114900491499775,0.0,0.03552838434764398,0.0,0.0,0.03742960017867855,0.037559957733669366,0.2356364238985301,0.0,0.0,0.11867200020791807 schizophrenia,poopsackmickflagenar,2019/03/09,"Keep Hope Alive Friends I've been meaning to make a post like this for a while now. The fist of it is that my life is going super great now. I was going to therapy for about a year before my diagnosis, and as things were coming to a head for my symptoms we finally realized what's was happening. My appointment with a psychiatrist wasnt for a couple of months so we did everything we could for a couple of weeks to get me on medication as my symptoms grew worse and worse. I honestly didnt think anything was wrong really, things weren't that unusual to me. Looking back o can definitely say I needed help and I'm glad I got it. So I started medication, 5mg of Zyprexa which quickly became 20mg. Academia had been really important to me over the past few years. I graduated high school when I was 15 and immediately started taking college level math courses, I wanted to be a math researcher. I was 18 and a semester away from getting my AA when I was diagnosed. I thought I could keep going as normal but I dropped all but one of my classes the following semester and ended up essentially taking a break from school for about a year. I thought my life was over. It took me a while to tell my girlfriend and she was very supportive when I did, but I always worried about getting too symptomatic around her and how that would affect our relationship. The meds I was on basically destroyed me. I gained 60lbs in just a couple of months and was sleeping 16-18 hours a day. Essentially spending no time with anyone and just going on my computer. I remember thinking, though I'm not religious, that this is what gods plan for me was. That I was struck down and wasnt going to be able to live the life of academia I had always strived for, that my girlfriend would leave me and I'd continue on this path of despair. Well that's not the case today. It's been a year and a half since my diagnosis, I'll be turning 20 in may. I'm on much better medications. I'm actually engaged to my girlfriend, I guess fiance now. I'm back in school at the top of my class in a Mathematical Proofs class. I actually just got a 100 on my last exam. What I'm trying to say here is that schizophrenia is a sole crushing disease, that we all here live with every day of our lives. Its difficult to parse what's real and what we can trust and that's makes it difficult to hope for a better future for ourselves. I was there, I'm still kind of there but I want to say that that is not the only option for us. We are human, and capable and strong individuals, and if you can find even a glimpse within yourself of hope keep that spirit alive. I love this community and I love my fellow schizos. We are strong! Keep up the fight!",3.9419444444444447,5.254734305555552,5.255370370370368,81.4291666666667,71.68518518518519,8.511111111111111,28.314814814814817,8.982922981607832,2.2047925925925917,2135,80,430,42,40,713,244,540,0.065,0.775,0.16,0.9943,0,0,0,0,1,0,46.0,10,1,0,8,28,26,2,0,30,0,44,13,2,4,3,76,92,36,0,12,11,0,0,1,5,3,9,3,0,1,31,31,0,4,8,0,1,9,8,6,2,2,30,4,63,20,68,54,4,66,1,1,1,2,28,22,0,7,33,296,94,13,0.07344767460948519,0.0,0.14334867092884135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12222869809125995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05135632183044764,0.0,0.06044117805615035,0.06538400221372652,0.0,0.0,0.06900650804521233,0.112953456240612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624985614158225,0.0,0.0,0.1299169990602445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06326866817450759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11728398336799425,0.2438053648748921,0.0,0.09473534789719992,0.0,0.0,0.07454784366722281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06505283927920119,0.0,0.0,0.04851149637804812,0.0,0.061882833630721966,0.0,0.0660100340056071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08045833744071877,0.06712984397625271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05674549120845386,0.0,0.11512013562743867,0.0,0.2087100304144801,0.0,0.11748562991594245,0.08097632055002671,0.08091089414640136,0.0,0.06494953609249737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07537850380396964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049230428080203815,0.07760150078208032,0.0,0.2188503400663363,0.07233116458295623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611346716388368,0.0,0.07648445067309705,0.0,0.059869657737274914,0.0,0.07777048240443045,0.0,0.0,0.1556347940474143,0.035882823828847984,0.0,0.19456692691185945,0.0,0.06167754840243014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325787878474646,0.0,0.09805378626474323,0.0,0.0,0.08000604957336079,0.08158380889813878,0.22197241524536235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11725046628320313,0.0,0.053992491835725694,0.05446052007082754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07196312669939865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049770045156146456,0.055860266219488336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0701141161923657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07034256946339112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08359953344792524,0.094104922180062,0.0,0.0,0.07885531550568957,0.08320189756407219,0.0,0.0,0.1752256164697849,0.0,0.2229989036670096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06075667542429317,0.0,0.07350071764169648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10397328424340037,0.0,0.05865540781936394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334755075252129,0.0,0.15268051306317212,0.11044702126089234,0.0,0.0641965049459924,0.0,0.08399381694425974,0.0,0.097590742796252,0.09412460840528164,0.07216196738960662,0.11661849891012913,0.0428279297153439,0.0,0.06961980751861642,0.0,0.08160306898156403,0.04986614982785709,0.07988997894442232,0.0,0.0,0.08834850918156002,0.0,0.0,0.06060202361557394,0.08664268289661135,0.0,0.05891529427629216,0.0,0.06603828018504546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07458967880090007,0.14969891047490694,0.10435024145169076,0.08030350217634867,0.0,0.18919157748762175 schizophrenia,Bopbarker,2019/03/09,"Talking about delusions on podcast Been rough with an episode the past few days. I've been in and out of it most of the week. Still managed to record and edit my podcast for today. While it was rough, I just had to do it. Just starting out only three episodes in now, I want to keep some consistency. I feel like if I skip a week because I'm sick, I'll fall into that rut again. I also took it as an opportunity to see what it would be like doing it in the middle of an episode. I felt like I was going to lose it a few times during the recording and I even talked a bit into some delusions I had been going through at the beginning and later toward the end with a disclaimer lol. One of my biggest fears is the stigma, and I want people to know that yes I have delusions, yes I hallucinate, but that is not what defines me. I have plenty of opinions that are based on facts and not just something my mind makes up. I used to be terrified to talk about it, especially after losing friends and family from the moment I brought up what was going on with me. It fucking sucks, but I just got tired of being scared because it was just making me worse. I do the podcast for fun, experience, and just a way to get things off my mind even if nobody out there is listening. I do hope that somebody can take some good from it, maybe help somebody become more open minded, or be the voice that led somebody dealing with similar things to see a doctor. I feel good about what I'm doing, and how the podcast is coming together. I wanted to share it with all of you. I have got a lot of help from this subreddit, even though I have to avoid it at times when I get vulnerable lol. [Episode 3](https://somethingmoretopodcast.podbean.com//e/something-more-to-podcast-episode-3/)",5.702546105147259,5.990815387283237,5.87559867877787,82.28334296724472,67.09248554913296,8.208973300302777,29.77098816405175,7.793537801064563,1.7597612441508392,1388,46,278,14,21,441,170,346,0.099,0.7659999999999999,0.135,0.8515,0,1,3,0,0,0,49.0,0,1,0,3,20,17,2,3,21,4,29,4,0,5,2,61,61,20,0,7,13,0,5,3,1,1,3,2,0,0,26,21,0,2,4,0,0,8,2,7,0,2,14,9,31,10,53,42,10,47,0,2,2,1,10,20,2,10,21,205,57,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784288597087428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339208006797079,0.1213150055266853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199221254206147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09462161099045524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07084084029594051,0.11324521593367726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11243085736291966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09728993243738512,0.0,0.0,0.21765446015970003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10744933978763556,0.10355194759157396,0.12360599368620373,0.11108171213363928,0.07847318199451155,0.10546828090627128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08486585776989777,0.10154979278178837,0.11477879973136455,0.0,0.18728207699787305,0.18426529538947573,0.17570592034927746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14725337356083465,0.0,0.0,0.10910071994228908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09763514875869514,0.0,0.0,0.060367856258553725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16099393406894885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457765773657524,0.0,0.09338616243666298,0.0,0.0,0.14664457918559598,0.0,0.11035391486041693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327359523948358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07443371241438232,0.0835419573787295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048593374685058,0.07615258746347943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10997385632695192,0.0,0.1750642458083925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08456393120870591,0.0,0.0,0.07774874941213844,0.0,0.08772223821532271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08258965600459338,0.2648673860647409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14595207339700564,0.0,0.10792200632091804,0.0,0.12810282947238186,0.12625049496813684,0.104120072925941,0.0,0.12204166883209296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948706812273508,0.0,0.0,0.19436801357032046,0.08718972819141943,0.17622182407960565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11194128532611453,0.07803062904823667,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,helovatrainwreck,2019/03/09,"My partner has schizophrenia... constantly tells me that women are hitting on him to the point of harassment. Basically the title. It occurs in every place, at the gas station, the cashier, medical clinic, the doctor, at work. Some of these people are even changing their hair color to be more desirable. If there is an exchange with a member of the opposite sex, they are hitting on him. What is this about? Anyone else experience this? 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Hi, 15 F here. I recently read a post about schizophrenia and it reminded me of some things I do, but milder. I looked at early signs and I do seem to meet a few. Sensations on skin of crawling and light pain, like a needle or bug bite. It feels completely real. Hearing people say something quietly Arm flapping (did this when I was younger too, I had to to imagine things) Social anxiety OCD disorganized speech occasionally Minor visual hallucinations of patches of light and faces in the dark, had this for years Feeling presences when I'm alone Thinking someone's trying to kill me, people I know and strangers Thinking someone is reading my mind Bad memory Please help me. I'm really scared right now, especially because my parents don't believe mental illness exists (they think it's demons or punishments from God) and they wouldn't listen to me because of my past hypochondria. 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Confused and worried. I had a visit from the mental health team today who did an assessment on me. My head is confused. For 20 years I've battled mental health issues. They've diagnosed as anxiety, depression and I also have aspergers. Past 5 years I've went dowhill with my mental health. Now I've been told by the mental health team there's a high chance I'm schizophrenic. I don't get voices. I have ""things"" in my head that tell me I'm worthless, and to kill myself. I battle with these thoughts. Like I'm a separate entity to the thoughts and I'm wishing them to stop. Thoughts that tell me practicing tying a rope around my neck to get used to the pain. Thoughts that tell me the only way I can feel calm is to cut my wrists open. But I don't hear the voices in my ears like a person speaking in real life. I hear it in my head though. Is that voices? But everything else in terms of lack of motivation, lack of focus, lack of energy, anger, rage, uncontrollable thoughts, loss of self control, delusional thoughts etc I tick all the boxes. But I'm fed up of being put in boxes. I've only just started looking into this after today's visit. Doctor was vague and booked me appointment in 3 months for psychiatric assessment. I've got to finish 30 days of diazepam while I transition from sertraline to venlafaxine and then they're going to start on antipsychotics. Not sure on which one I couldn't remember the name. I'm nervous they are going to turn me into a non functioning zombie. I'm nervous that this will be with me for life and I will never be well without medications. Just seems hopeless.",2.954168970814134,5.385487939682541,3.956395289298517,84.79557603686638,77.53968253968254,7.239119303635434,24.44700460829493,8.259297600419973,1.7003486943164368,1291,45,242,25,31,416,169,315,0.19699999999999998,0.755,0.049,-0.9917,0,0,0,0,0,2,37.0,0,0,2,5,8,21,6,5,15,0,19,19,6,3,3,46,50,15,1,5,7,0,1,2,0,2,12,7,0,2,12,14,1,2,10,3,0,6,6,16,1,1,14,9,29,5,43,30,6,41,0,4,1,0,17,16,0,3,20,145,41,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06986591421845206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06683413441566452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07777354531351068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09798749408174233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05634332270139989,0.0,0.07524751372640205,0.08867383306585169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942197821949117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07298240927727004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09743528545246524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07851820318523853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04417446720580683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128941618319868,0.0,0.09930330636393524,0.0,0.06987392674500158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689856822514265,0.3714604641141375,0.1969338466907468,0.0,0.0,0.09230612432905673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09118656452980872,0.0,0.0,0.09665664312545152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234172406846471,0.08536444177605733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07336475962151498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.088011241847833,0.3521742688661603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697340644787919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0673814236419881,0.0843778489422608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05920091660272224,0.13289033399469954,0.0929627263075551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08339996341886388,0.0,0.07628391772193988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782615057552855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09944071764752864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09896773417475138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07953399157070239,0.0911409511665349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12367506820806078,0.0,0.0,0.07304121428565671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234066158637089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22908309146016065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0580415529798362,0.0,0.08583585970069943,0.4161492323336134,0.0,0.0,0.16562397746983698,0.08348118698840902,0.0,0.0,0.09502824371654994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545547716492257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06934642462192814,0.0,0.0,0.07855180170233912,0.0809884102756709,0.0,0.0,0.1004656616987088,0.08421692955153612,0.0,0.0,0.08872359549327408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252064133800517 schizophrenia,IslamIsVeryFriendly,2019/07/09,"My sister has schizophrenia and she cannot sleep alone. I hope these kind of questions are allowed here, and I don’t want to ‘use’ you lovely people for my advantage but I don’t really know who I could ask at this point. My mother & my sister have schizophrenia. After her last psychotic breakdown (the first one after about 5 years) my sister separated from her long term boyfriend. Her boyfriend was very caring and made sure she was always well. My sister is not used to live on her own, emotionally & Support wise. She gets extreme panic attacks when sleeping alone because her meds punch her very hard and sometimes she’s so sick and physically ill by them that she panics after she takes them. At the moment she’s living at my house but obviously this can’t be a permanent solution. I offered her we can try to slowly fade her into living alone, means: she sleeps 2 days at her home and can call me at any hour if she panics. Then after 2 nights at her home she can come to my house for 1 night. (I want her to think about positive stuff when struggling through the week). It breaks my heart seeing her like this. She and her boyfriend were a very good team, but nobody can or should force her to love him, just so her live and ours is easier! If anyone of you has advice on how to motivate her to face these nights alone, I’d be very thankful.",4.948846960167714,5.9307791320754735,4.935062893081764,85.90251048218029,69.0,7.70020964360587,25.28825995807128,7.793537801064563,1.1925178197064992,1070,28,214,12,18,332,153,265,0.10400000000000001,0.6859999999999999,0.21,0.9839,1,4,0,0,0,0,29.0,2,2,2,4,10,18,1,4,5,0,21,9,5,6,2,36,40,20,0,7,8,5,1,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,9,11,0,0,5,1,0,1,5,5,1,2,4,2,50,13,30,32,2,32,0,0,1,2,47,10,0,5,21,142,59,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0864009945128282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36629731060232573,0.0,0.0,0.07357081493107627,0.19160161730165365,0.0,0.06012723595123669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06182388437300761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265884491413421,0.10058817915957163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05389875983502547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028460962209098,0.0,0.09014798972971944,0.0,0.0,0.0761642322939086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07059453605816597,0.0,0.0,0.05702226119083894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09945828966228924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07520826056318125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04619472799949212,0.0,0.0,0.07416077899564305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920511347132303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477569292935993,0.0,0.0,0.1773808200308805,0.08781897169300346,0.08707386737128972,0.20404487927050555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09207368569653153,0.048592191350721896,0.0720724278039396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04319654274883191,0.0,0.3122986684267993,0.0782471007583175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15960129849750407,0.0836631993227274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631306490941233,0.0982124067350506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24892276103457625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05991428917225761,0.0,0.0,0.3112182303358111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061297871602880576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358353913590437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09904833605530462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05664280092915215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0704576562612812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654454041986664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08744761043952723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924336358152348,0.10121739552443068,0.0,0.10033563847328096,0.08333286867882682,0.0,0.06647929240649246,0.0,0.0,0.08140336628618655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056654650287403865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060029982117152686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15272943521560173,0.0,0.2918162646576641,0.10430239195968866,0.0,0.0709235438076048,0.0,0.07949835293562617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05693825898181387 schizophrenia,Apollo123x,2019/07/09,How do you admit that you have schizophrenia? My neighbors harassed me when I was 13 years old. How? They saw me through the walls and made loud noises to make it look like I have a mental illness. Schizophrenia is about hearing things that are not there.,3.289375,5.984057520833336,2.1665000000000028,96.62850000000002,77.95833333333334,3.84,24.18333333333333,3.1291,-0.03529666666666653,203,7,39,0,5,57,41,48,0.126,0.7909999999999999,0.083,-0.504,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,1,0,5,2,1,0,2,0,6,1,0,4,0,7,12,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,4,8,1,3,9,0,4,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,4,29,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4411317235500225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19121630924973487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32867405378511444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3703483468002645,0.2612598608032752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3944350979414396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4107042488438391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600261025086464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520461834391233 schizophrenia,michelle_obamaa,2019/07/09,"Being at work right now is driving me crazy I've recently been diagnosed and recently got a new job at a call center. It hasn't been going well so I'm starting a new job on Friday, but I have to keep working until then because I'm in debt. My mind is very strange and every day is different from the other. One day I'll wake up super motivated and happy. The next day I'm extremely paranoid, high tempered and anxious. Today, unfortunately, is one of those days and it's bad. I can't get these paranoid thoughts out of my head and they keep haunting me. Thoughts that my coworker beside me is plotting against me. Also that my manager secretly hates me and is going to fire me. A coworker that used to sit beside me moved desks this morning. I know these thoughts are silly. But I can't probably sort these thoughts to tell if they are actually true or false. I'm suffering and I can't leave because I'm so broke.",2.540188618925832,4.633479777173918,4.214872122762149,84.12194373401537,77.31521739130434,7.3728900255754475,28.214833759590807,8.313332769828598,2.1212702046035803,725,32,143,14,17,243,109,184,0.212,0.69,0.099,-0.9699,4,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,2,4,5,10,2,0,6,0,16,3,2,2,1,26,35,17,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,11,9,0,2,7,0,1,4,4,5,1,2,7,1,18,5,15,27,0,28,0,2,0,0,5,9,0,3,14,86,29,7,0.0,0.0,0.12410673047853828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170366645022784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436741855684572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10618776001692584,0.1550522423363056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298622752472518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32807543208000023,0.0,0.0,0.12908231491531427,0.0,0.13287324362173672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10715238732096297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644490691771393,0.0,0.14455561715350895,0.0,0.10171533026851076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13538263476386064,0.0,0.1255612857428318,0.1305206332902601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13436983377505482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524077564458669,0.226082112249024,0.0,0.0,0.06989333569107624,0.0,0.0,0.13466243162789773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12841285113508838,0.0,0.0,0.13516937715984387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456573194699557,0.13525453537435886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17235730307300098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13711867395167576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511445451190956,0.0,0.0,0.10860874664044202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09001677016572837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11115859373333677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4038583830396477,0.0,0.0,0.12054924027819836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984038164059813,0.0,0.10493461798533943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11434769484901673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851732247372987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DarkElfDungeon,2019/07/09,"Tips for grounding yourself? + Medication? Hello everyone! I'm new here so I am sorry if this is a common topic. &#x200B; TLDR: What do you do to being yourself back to reality? + are any of you (or someone you know) on any medication? How has that worked out? &#x200B; A little background on me: &#x200B; (I am sorry if this is all over the place, I am currently having an episode) I'm currently 22 and have experienced schizophrenia (stronger symptoms) since I was maybe 14. PS I'm not diagnosed, but I'm fairly positive that this is an illness you can tell you have in most cases. I had a traumatic year with an abusive partner about 4 years ago and that was so far the peak of all hallucinations/delusions etc. Before that, I was lucky enough to understand whats going on and to ignore it for the most part. But during that year I just lived in this world I created and saw nothing wrong. I am in an amazing loving and understanding relationship now but within the past month or 2 I am back to feeling like my reality will disintegrate at any moment and I will be sent into some kind of hell (I dont know what my brain thinks will happen) and it's not fun. I am not having hallucinations and luckily haven't since that year, my problem currently is my perspective on how reality works as well as delusions (anxiety and paranoia included). I truly believe my problem is the PTSD from that year that has made things worse. But I have had an episode about once every month or two until recently since then. I feel like I've been in a constant episode for the past month or two. I guess my biggest fear is that I am getting worse. I tried giving that side of me a name but then I just caught myself bickering with myself for hours so I threw that out of the equation. I usually just distract myself by playing a game or watching something but alas that has also failed me recently. I am trying to look for other ways to ignore myself or try to calm down. Any help is much much appreciated. I am sorry for rambling!",4.105055134957213,5.843777808673469,5.295694535878869,79.61750822909809,71.93367346938777,8.01724818959842,28.971691902567482,8.654491914285503,2.30245974325214,1599,64,298,29,31,530,198,392,0.157,0.7070000000000001,0.136,-0.8846,3,0,1,0,0,0,54.0,0,5,0,3,16,19,1,2,18,0,41,7,1,3,2,56,64,34,0,4,20,0,2,2,1,3,5,0,0,1,23,14,0,2,7,2,0,4,5,9,1,2,11,6,42,10,43,48,10,55,1,1,3,1,15,22,1,13,30,221,65,3,0.0,0.09253458758885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06923008376967113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06245577139771685,0.0,0.2538608207633237,0.28469663370921466,0.21244009222573132,0.0,0.05974554927568091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12010667684587513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0664565279287429,0.08799086999759066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08718435381071399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08439731343449165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07926887823443758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09153148931002454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08069718205451082,0.08710107041987665,0.0,0.0,0.06580180676684626,0.07462697638587698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788312906309602,0.0789784390939281,0.1115879347845125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040803523234102836,0.07491971242214636,0.04438548232483711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08603489384027001,0.0,0.06906272018922346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052348138013745625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07691181925363155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08132812847408066,0.0858423761601952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07631048875119506,0.07827575208281712,0.0689628802082804,0.0,0.06558352104637077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07048742977237023,0.07389919683999041,0.0,0.0,0.07846097954535032,0.0,0.0,0.1573531259918927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870137178525953,0.0,0.11482355626556645,0.0,0.0,0.07542853626865033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493813201448063,0.0,0.0,0.08317292516224395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457364600331599,0.14910873515746045,0.0,0.0,0.08159687077332242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494604611497686,0.09129359449364301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15422675352041532,0.08384913762042194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938129905260462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661730603180129,0.06012445399180485,0.0,0.2622764324235923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08117480267304775,0.0,0.0,0.06826200039207543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05188552966103927,0.050042709188534915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15907235800286226,0.0,0.1525828211588627,0.16260770293953986,0.0,0.0,0.08601505512823278,0.0,0.0,0.06199138008691909,0.0,0.0,0.07022041327134547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11371405768179035,0.0,0.15917918108046925,0.0,0.08538903639160109,0.28469663370921466,0.2514660951461117 schizophrenia,jimlaila,2019/07/09,"im a 15 year old girl with schizophrenia I was warded not so long ago for having a really bad psychotic episode. My parents cant believe that im schizophrenic. They always tell the doctors that im ""normal"" i wish i am, but i am not. i feel like a failure i feel suicidal, i want to die.",0.7946448087431683,2.687773737704924,3.4635245901639347,88.33878415300549,82.11475409836065,6.689617486338799,24.92076502732241,7.793537801064563,1.4342109289617482,222,9,48,4,6,78,44,61,0.262,0.63,0.10800000000000001,-0.9154,1,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,5,2,0,0,0,9,9,2,2,3,3,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,9,1,3,8,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,27,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17260470122709973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16201998220147273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16258040085899791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2193791629254136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020853042699985,0.0,0.0,0.1993009032394336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19690933682160572,0.13910572611835914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6309826967168629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09512879657358063,0.0,0.0,0.17231824717527272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19078112896684152,0.0,0.0,0.2043225344818487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21620997144574344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12474057283421935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21298858348739594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17019107216507587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484901794761575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22391471895144988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12539123992929482 schizophrenia,chi1mera1,2019/07/09,Sarcosine + NAC Hello has anyone tried sarcosine and nac and it helped you with your cognition? Like if you are able to focus by talking more and communicating with people?,5.0076344086021525,7.890076645161294,5.949677419354843,70.81118279569894,72.87096774193549,9.29462365591398,26.46236559139785,9.725611199111238,3.1207978494623663,140,5,22,4,3,46,25,31,0.0,0.91,0.09,0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,4,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,1,15,4,0,0.5154035313722655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603821328644895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454641228386635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518001313905282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3573159132968445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41426183537824857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3499251658254259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PotatoChips2001x,2019/07/09,"What are voices like? What do voices sound like? When there is nothing going on I sort of hear voices, but they are not like actually there, like thoughts but voices.",2.3485483870967734,5.2285947419354875,2.6583064516129045,89.80745967741936,85.45161290322581,4.390322580645162,17.427419354838708,5.985473137389443,-0.2314580645161293,131,3,24,1,4,40,21,31,0.0,0.715,0.285,0.8541,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,7,3,0,0,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,6,2,4,2,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,5,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.3468555760279772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20200323408137305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4006037199388139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6945949312550683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3410517184910983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821775489991828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Barackalackin,2019/07/09,"My girlfriend is a Paranoid Schizophrenic, I want to know everything there is to know. I love my girlfriend more than anything in this world. She is an amazingly important part of my life and I am willing to do anything for her. She has been upfront with me about her schizophrenia since day one however has always been adamant it is a very small portion of her life she is largely in control of. However, recently it has been getting worse. She confided to me that she has had to call the schizophrenic hotline several times in the past few weeks and she has been having more traumatic flashbacks than she has ever before. As a result of this she has made the decision to admit herself to impatient. I have a vague idea what inpatient is but I want to know more, I want to know about visitation and cellphone usage and everything there is to know so that I can support her through this. And furthermore while I have done hours of research into what exactly schizophrenia is I don’t know what it’s like to live with it. I know it’s largely impossible to compare two peoples schizophrenia and it is extremely variable. But I want to support her in every way I can. If you have any similar experiences or advice to give please tell me in the comments, I want to be the best I can be for her.",4.710890688259108,6.442468105263162,5.2451821862348185,80.61165991902838,70.37651821862349,8.762753036437246,33.24291497975709,9.276330184999452,3.1454421052631583,1030,50,189,22,19,330,122,247,0.035,0.835,0.13,0.9703,2,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,2,6,6,0,0,10,0,35,5,0,3,2,33,54,13,0,6,4,0,0,1,2,1,4,0,0,0,14,9,0,1,10,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,7,0,36,6,36,44,7,18,0,0,0,1,26,8,0,2,9,154,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210676619387532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10308962993836447,0.0,0.0,0.08425208432496882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20390820735716814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542456343970492,0.0,0.13001897943785268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265094997763796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13895751707984574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07990130067091747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12678645039807387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120691040903854,0.10438593420614488,0.0,0.22269565442891626,0.12119198430450324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06472943678865649,0.11885029539313192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12201051154616008,0.0,0.0,0.13986110582685465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.476621839822372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750198174889314,0.060528289794882076,0.0,0.10940056253462704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11181906041957068,0.1172313812986796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08395369691873872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13416499456552922,0.1182707237269234,0.08589241407031259,0.0,0.0,0.1359982714460182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12233025608896204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399648151277013,0.0,0.1024862946850544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811866050289173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10828870865134356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07224351554631821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12102631457303666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10222542308977224,0.3653790908420636,0.09834119215038993,0.09938019433239953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262584444081387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,willowedgirl,2019/07/09,"When my dogs bark, I hear a ringing in the pipes and it doesn’t stop for a couple of minutes It’s so simple and small but it makes me shake. I’m scared to leave the house because of my anxiety but now I never want to be in the house. Does this happen to anyone else or is it just another symptom",0.7252820512820541,2.3641483230769254,2.7950000000000017,94.31916666666667,81.15384615384616,5.564102564102565,20.06410256410256,6.42735559955562,0.012333333333333307,231,6,54,2,6,78,48,65,0.19,0.81,0.0,-0.8475,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,5,0,3,1,0,1,1,10,8,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,8,7,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,4,36,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408662921180299,0.1757241130401455,0.0,0.0,0.16061545784398348,0.2353604759928327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14002636806019214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541648162517232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20101687021268147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19188950750853606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20312785465227834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588948434798951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5300987156844066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24322500508066824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15333023484667418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17716307704728013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299753228009157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920441209860863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387520137292701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354862817883877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,qxvx,2019/07/09,"im losing it people standing on the roof of my neighbors house watching me every night. they’re just watching me, completely motionless. i can’t even go outside late at night on my back porch and smoke without feeling safe anymore. don’t trust my neighbors who moved in next door last year. i know they’re doing something nefarious inside their home. plotting against me and sneaking into my backyard under the cover of darkness to study my movements. maybe they’re taking pictures of me, i don’t know why why yet. i hear them walking, the crunching of dried leaves gives them away. i try and pretend I don’t hear them and turn up the volume of the music i have playing in my earbuds. and the flashing lights. like a tiny strobe light in my peripherals. ate a few xanax and my seroquel. let me sleep forever.",3.4914502164502146,6.0203284480519486,3.738675324675324,86.54420346320343,76.20779220779221,5.405367965367966,29.097835497835497,6.42735559955562,1.4703529004329003,647,29,115,5,15,200,101,154,0.067,0.8809999999999999,0.052000000000000005,-0.0454,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,4,1,4,5,0,0,8,0,7,3,1,0,0,13,17,6,0,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,1,2,6,0,2,7,1,1,3,2,0,4,5,1,0,0,1,7,24,4,18,15,1,23,0,1,2,0,10,10,0,0,9,70,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16245438370145246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15390382696650548,0.12595891081123906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17175048509983548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10819421466105288,0.0,0.1380160391982109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08282668730072866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15714039590146073,0.0930963566104192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692490067348216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164313654202975,0.0,0.0,0.18901344422979216,0.0,0.0,0.17694169088753836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18005014353135365,0.1335260934940287,0.18478354198491556,0.1734499427102013,0.0,0.16750566942745676,0.0,0.08002874027484967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832602264432669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645680287599206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741029063646541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742125931366095,0.30744705823898777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11356444598892505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639271722375823,0.0,0.0,0.1261080722039523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231638850495469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11121547100403983,0.17817701321394705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956240552504661,0.0,0.0,0.15790590652501735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10548754251590953 schizophrenia,lpiccolo222,2019/07/09,"What are voices? Getting to the doctor asap In the mean time, could anyone explain to the best of their ability what the voices are like? Is it talking to yourself in your head? Or does it seem like its a completely different being?",2.6663636363636343,5.425472909090914,3.9329090909090887,82.53936363636366,81.27272727272728,6.247272727272727,24.70909090909091,7.554174236665415,1.6752236363636364,184,7,31,3,5,60,33,44,0.0,0.758,0.242,0.9092,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,1,0,3,0,0,5,0,5,2,1,0,0,5,9,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,6,7,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,3,25,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20606097496532905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30926929262730296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089871674307094,0.0,0.0,0.23529383627214956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3078986012540802,0.0,0.30163776601938697,0.2578938093289865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15396849917100175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024470490031269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879509045485359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32101451176040097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26828365931589576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368685622965297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17184184221811175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Brxkstar,2019/07/09,"Is this normal? Around the time I started to hear my voice I lost interest in eating. This doesn’t happen a lot of the time, most of the time I will happily eat and enjoy it. But on obscure days, I won’t eat at all. I’m not anorexic, although I have suspicions sometimes. Just trying to figure myself out. thanks.",1.3119047619047637,3.6844766984127015,3.0914285714285725,88.92857142857146,83.60317460317461,5.504761904761906,21.698412698412696,6.868970318607317,0.7067841269841266,244,8,48,3,7,81,49,63,0.073,0.733,0.19399999999999998,0.836,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,4,0,5,3,0,0,1,12,11,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,3,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,7,3,9,8,3,10,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,3,5,36,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19240782034629272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393905327106245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6634865587850246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19112930149504906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436021917313515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359391491578426,0.18375201191103466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21176844311663373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21376509364723653,0.0,0.15298293403732907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989899795992761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3780937994375437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146742886219733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,97k7u3b2,2019/07/09,I wrote a book I finished the draft of a book of poetry. It's about being lonely and helping lonely people. Please applaud me for the accomplishment in spite of my paralyzing schizophrenia and social anxiety and my debilitating depression. :),6.3259756097561,9.564599097560977,7.402621951219512,60.245884146341496,70.21951219512195,9.953658536585364,32.201219512195124,10.125756701596842,4.4439219512195125,197,9,26,6,4,66,31,41,0.264,0.535,0.201,-0.5106,0,4,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,5,0,6,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,20,6,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3605820279070868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40597370388136605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31593646708408024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32677525629093285,0.0,0.0,0.5174015713485082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4804827234311109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TinyFlaccidBanana,2019/07/12,"Looking for support I had a brief psychotic break in April due to a stressful event work. I started hearing voices, time wasn't passing at the usual speed, my arms didn't look like mine, etc. The whole episode lasted about an hour or two and obviously shook me. Since that episode I've been having trouble with other fleeting psychotic symptoms. For several weeks I was having ideas of reference, like getting secret messages or thinking I magically caused someone or something to do something; this was usually accompanied simultaneously by a odd feeling of deja vu. The frequency of these ideas of reference has been decreasing over the past few weeks, but now I've started having minor visual disturbances/hallucinations; objects in my peripheral vision keep melting and breathing [like this](https://www.sciencealert.com/images/Illusion1.jpg). This is happening 24-7 and it's becoming distracting (like the odometer in my car starts floating away while I'm driving). I started seeing a therapist in May, a month after my break in April. I've expressed all of this to her and recently floated the idea that maybe I'm schizotypal (due to the ideas of reference, perception disturbances, magical thinking, asociality, etc.), so she referred me to someone to take the MMPI-2 test. I took the MMPI-2 (my code was 6-8) and although my test was valid and some of the data reflected schizotypy, the clinician basically said he didn't ""see"" it based on my interview. He said he could also rule out schizophrenia and schizoaffective, but not necessarily schizophreniform. Ultimately, he didn't feel comfortable diagnosing me since he doesn't know me, which is understandable, so he's going to give notes to my usual therapist.",10.88552511415525,10.870367917808215,9.823232876712328,59.307155251141566,56.465753424657535,13.129132420091324,44.80913242009132,12.340626583579946,6.000237625570778,1400,74,201,39,15,441,177,292,0.07,0.91,0.02,-0.8959999999999999,0,0,2,0,0,0,56.0,0,0,0,1,5,11,0,4,17,0,21,4,2,1,2,39,48,17,0,1,6,0,2,4,0,1,2,4,0,0,10,9,0,1,17,0,0,7,6,5,0,1,14,10,21,6,31,32,6,43,0,0,4,0,16,10,0,5,28,126,31,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792168873853069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09306853443004072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094021106517576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017601618176292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908999276578964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005420901820228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22095238061036224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001737065375472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051753873703301034,0.09502574844671127,0.056297115161364986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08759692827927626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164590437389556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09755247254278147,0.0,0.0,0.4472990568788969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804756923206836,0.0,0.0,0.05443985153802716,0.08074573631208264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19357952863078828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16636804845395534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099517377524731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790673906515236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09456235682300687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09780812158758194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18845425642473568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15787328128080047,0.0,0.0,0.11190768411404373,0.0,0.16388410017431534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678635536745537,0.15251983905993302,0.0,0.0,0.28045590071218457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11347094891818105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11241018588838417,0.0,0.10295950330877517,0.07447951426682839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300286443639695,0.0,0.12694511874650385,0.0,0.0,0.057761691819970186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100574170501676,0.0,0.0,0.09676556617725092,0.10312318464307572,0.0,0.0,0.3272961705401306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15891718764312984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11059505530129636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07211562278321312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fruitytrailmix,2019/07/12,"Is untreated schizophrenia like a time-bomb? Hi, I'm the one untreated fyi. I lost my health insurance 2 years ago and went through a horrible few months of unaided withdrawl symptoms from the anti-psychotics and pill cocktail they had me on. I genuinely believe that because I was on certain meds combined with psychotherapy for so long that some of my symptoms have gone down. However I still have a lot of issues. I am afraid of being on pills again. I am writing this because yesterday someone knocked on my door. The sound of it made my heart drop, and suddenly I was terrified to answer it. I just stood still hoping it would go away, but my partner answered and it was a door-to-door saleperson. I felt mortified, terrified, stupified...you get it. More than that it was embarassing. I'm 34 and wtf it's my door. Anyways, I am still grappling with the fact that I have schizophrenia. My partner is ok, and they actually accept it and try their best to keep me in check as well as being very understanding. I am having a hard time accepting it now. Inside I am hoping maybe they got it wrong, and with enough time it will go away. So I wonder, is schizophrenia untreated like a ticking bomb, or...?",4.487017543859646,6.31115963157895,4.928070175438599,82.2914912280702,71.10526315789474,8.224561403508767,31.52631578947368,8.841846274778883,2.692384210526316,948,43,176,18,18,301,130,228,0.12,0.747,0.133,0.3094,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,4,2,10,13,0,1,10,1,21,6,1,1,2,31,38,14,0,3,3,0,2,2,2,2,5,1,2,2,16,11,1,1,7,1,1,4,0,3,1,1,12,3,27,10,24,22,6,26,0,1,0,0,8,8,0,6,15,125,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.13612441098888295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12365155124526345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621153081137971,0.0,0.0,0.1700664829308758,0.0,0.0,0.15716010985658935,0.1463886146881193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441328855726893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13393453073352934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07287899522056196,0.0,0.15855343351873005,0.0,0.1115647746738046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12495774596148898,0.0,0.0,0.14827384444257374,0.0,0.16529910565365474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770947549841372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455937715104038,0.0,0.12398720942190505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13629783176000226,0.0,0.0,0.12344633963968675,0.0,0.0,0.15227237737825022,0.1185914071556265,0.0,0.1319910337743521,0.0,0.0,0.14013881400582254,0.0,0.15494455387035366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134146244645554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452362603534188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11819141496623893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341963112313944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28997192336051386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440173320868161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09470614871581212,0.0,0.0,0.14521645517430093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11509579706531645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12542037445705378,0.12931080539625195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512735025654938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990913627738504,0.15251298617935916,0.0,0.0898284995692226 schizophrenia,TheRealist157,2019/07/12,"They told me that there isn't any treatment for me After a Two hour psych-eval they told me that I was diagnosed with severe schizophrenia with religious delusions of grandeur. They told me that with counseling and medication that my symptoms would be lighter but there was no form of treatment to help me with the delusions I've been having. They told me grounding would help but that's it. I've been struggling for more than a year now and slowly I've seen some progress but I'm planning on admitting myself to a hospital if it gets noticably worse.",7.460857142857144,7.6518571333333325,6.406428571428571,80.30107142857145,63.38095238095239,9.666666666666668,35.595238095238095,9.2995712137729,3.07195238095238,449,19,84,7,6,135,65,105,0.11199999999999999,0.772,0.11699999999999999,0.1406,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,4,2,3,1,0,1,4,0,9,3,0,0,0,14,17,6,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,7,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,9,1,13,0,13,5,3,6,0,0,1,0,11,2,0,2,4,60,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12557105626446274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18741992934593096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09647409692090576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24753937601869375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18184700037952936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860194846490825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21022980992512694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086064673207977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19304045995224195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19192621518697134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7057792643501891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18038013277052506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881782077400705,0.2623458160293599,0.0,0.0,0.11891112586656072 schizophrenia,wasabihehe,2019/07/12,"memories of trauma or symptoms of schizophrenia Hi, I was diagnosed with schizophrenia in college. I had a long psychosis that lasted for years because I refused to take medication. I felt so alienated, I felt like there were malevolent energies that were always insulting me each minute of the day. I couldn't do the normal things like enjoy spending time with my family, having a job, going to school, having friends and dating. Now I am better, but during that episode I had all of these ""memories"" of traumatic experiences come up and I couldn't shake it. My family has told me that nothing bad has EVER happened to me but it is hard for me to believe. The memories are so vivid, I can remember things in great detail such as where I was, who was there, around how old I was, how I felt. I have been told to just brush them off. I have also been told that these are things that come from a past life but that doesn't feel right to me either. I wish there was just some objective source that could tell me if any of these memories or visions of myself are true. Has anyone experienced this phenomena of memories you just can't explain and can't validate but you know for some reason they are there?",5.293760869565219,6.5295498000000025,5.6640760869565225,80.05741847826089,68.3913043478261,9.228260869565217,28.722826086956523,9.516144504307137,2.5271086956521738,954,33,179,20,16,305,129,230,0.063,0.8,0.13699999999999998,0.9451,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,2,2,1,17,11,1,1,6,0,32,4,0,3,3,41,47,16,0,6,11,0,5,2,1,0,4,0,0,0,18,9,0,1,8,0,1,4,5,4,0,0,17,8,29,7,26,27,5,21,0,0,1,0,14,7,0,5,12,142,47,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043629278924132,0.10858866522237724,0.0,0.0,0.08874628208988103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125049232113044,0.0,0.0,0.11617503316585208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10896426774472973,0.0795532086073805,0.0,0.0,0.1470318053118299,0.0,0.11541899519469365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22483296753558535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041957527550943,0.0,0.0,0.08416341774215523,0.0,0.0,0.13245745009876722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11804712494475444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276566403346824,0.2460525817241845,0.0,0.06598606469630666,0.0,0.3759090496687749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008260293030931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07416766757773632,0.0,0.0,0.143879640386606,0.0,0.0,0.1154030688575455,0.0,0.11690474760535695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12950375047853938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717208475119992,0.10637708365603747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09217788627212067,0.1275140128245524,0.0,0.0,0.11549074503016735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13146769765250252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12786489581492633,0.12522081935417873,0.0,0.13694058592505773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12457955307502493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341784668898851,0.0,0.0,0.1478340707467226,0.11144855627863584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13207565639058153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13564222950831806,0.09812175703248703,0.0,0.11406507461647455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26010050005751706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0760971489454084,0.0,0.0,0.3741026448521047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500716153909111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08403943260263615 schizophrenia,xxX-Starboy-Xxx,2019/07/12,"What are the voices telling you or what delusions are/were affecting you? I'd like to know what problems Schizos face and what voices tell you or things you've suffered as a Schizo. EDIT: JUST FKN OPEN UP TO ME!!",2.66,4.900763809523814,2.5526190476190465,95.4632142857143,77.57142857142857,5.152380952380953,24.785714285714285,5.985473137389443,0.4691714285714293,168,6,35,1,4,50,32,42,0.147,0.7959999999999999,0.057,-0.6103,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,1,0,8,2,4,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,1,4,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,2,1,20,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469282151516798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21950945008232964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4299275784093744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7854309106282373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985006194956855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,alanxito1998,2019/07/12,"Possible psychotic episode after watching Prison Break? Hello i've been watching Breaking Bad for 3 days non stop. I sleep very little and lay on my bed to watch breaking bad all day. At night it's harder to sleep so i only rest for about 5 hours or maybe less. I'm starting to hear ""Sound effects"" from the TV show Prison Break whenever i do other activities, and I'm wondering if they're real or not. I've never been dyagnostised with any psychotic disorder but I suffered from severe Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Any advice?",4.384848484848487,6.870012737373742,5.267676767676768,76.88818181818183,73.14141414141416,8.844444444444445,30.191919191919194,9.444778638647367,3.258240404040404,427,19,71,11,9,139,74,99,0.254,0.746,0.0,-0.9726,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,1,1,0,3,2,2,1,2,14,8,7,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,3,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,5,5,0,12,6,3,15,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,4,8,35,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17923514625507828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494627287660081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062947869980638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236580455629312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4204286507211175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067267998456735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806309920538152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838342518703346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842692671987674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14146421565032385,0.0,0.0,0.1721265198076933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13949858766678816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20677761971065006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087712364234917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072115188172179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3671033812558136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298250732465335,0.0,0.0,0.1533466871220708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15134007186619067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989103280350028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PanamaRed74,2019/07/12,"I really need help guys. my best friend since the age of 3 (we are in our 20’s now) has this mental illness. i just know it’s schizophrenia. it kills my spirits bc i try to help him and get him to realize that what’s in his mind isn’t real, and it just doesn’t work. i can’t understand the problem he has but i try so hard. he believes his former coworkers have injected him with HIV. he firmly believes he has tuberculosis (he doesn’t of course) last week he called an ambulance to his home bc he believed he was having a heart attack. he keeps accusing me, along with our other friends, of giving him all of these diseases, even poison ivy. he becomes more and more violent by the day, saying that he is going to kill me if he goes to the dr and finds out he has any of these diseases. if any sort of coincident happens he goes wild and forms a conspiracy theory ab it. he refuses to get treatment because he feels like those who are out to get him will “have the upper hand” is there anyone that has suffered from this, or dealt with someone who has? if so, do you have any kind of advice whatsoever? anything is appreciated. Thank you all so much",1.6748850574712648,3.948209706896552,3.387758620689656,87.99143678160921,81.24137931034483,6.452873563218392,22.597701149425287,7.645422480735847,1.0337666666666672,900,30,187,15,24,299,136,232,0.153,0.73,0.11599999999999999,-0.9188,0,0,0,0,0,1,24.0,3,2,0,2,8,13,5,0,8,0,22,6,2,0,2,33,34,13,2,5,7,0,3,1,2,1,4,1,1,1,16,12,0,2,5,0,0,1,4,7,0,0,1,4,22,6,24,32,7,12,1,1,0,1,40,5,0,5,7,117,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12748301116551705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266149752164662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09121995627781317,0.0,0.10735662958620996,0.0,0.0,0.14841593015477142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07952658694033772,0.14408170030672987,0.0,0.4409478078691063,0.13690865704328312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13321321081342974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413525331581045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616692981219815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0659639831351156,0.09319992560822672,0.0,0.0,0.11923714966712633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20158457780865865,0.0,0.204478306941464,0.12514814684612113,0.07414284812687874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12917490679340474,0.11536445040168908,0.0,0.11686562662807708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15459452645079458,0.1748878166096294,0.0,0.13086099985335173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595794091406875,0.2886670776274151,0.1358529582661052,0.0716968468644337,0.10634148565374883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06373567078262575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131471973526459,0.0,0.13172638610283482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09590236545455018,0.096733685019914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12483163065459855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14849088708382002,0.08357536697364218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037462218439104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10791702127903346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11053747541465343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12010910651765486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771461757739497,0.0,0.0,0.1358124052260275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10464632934034684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497569550882484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BestNameEverTaken,2019/07/12,"Sexuality and Schizophrenia Hey guys this is a serious question. Is anyone else here afraid to live out their sexuality? I never watch porn and only masturbate once a week because I am afraid that people know what I'm doing intimately. I don't know if I can ever share private intimacy with someone, except kissing and stuff. This is really burdening me.",5.024739583333332,7.792845328125002,6.823125000000001,65.14270833333336,72.28125,9.266666666666666,30.979166666666664,9.725611199111238,3.7647166666666654,287,13,43,8,6,99,51,64,0.065,0.84,0.095,0.4417,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,2,2,0,7,2,0,0,2,12,10,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,6,2,4,10,0,4,0,0,1,2,5,1,0,2,3,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901645474109072,0.2786607154528576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16578759768953966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271922132408225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24600829559666695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26928852730867403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989301681583971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401504513211249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20975650050660247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896342997143664,0.0,0.20684195957320176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885465808049908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046635161925226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742280141731302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304354205142772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31133534240397603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21815425778777695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Alpha0megaMan,2019/07/12,"It's Bill Cosby's birthday. And mine. Sorry for the formatting, I'm on mobile and English isn't my first language. So you know what I have to say totally happened.",1.2495454545454552,3.775908424242424,3.360833333333337,85.66125000000002,85.96969696969695,5.724242424242425,26.431818181818183,7.1686216300943375,1.6571272727272732,130,6,24,2,4,44,30,33,0.046,0.9540000000000001,0.0,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,3,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4426223947974404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4601572501856453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859791190894979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4138153130762435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5825062667763924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iamwe1976,2019/07/12,Voices I have been diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder. I am wondering however if I have schizophrenia. I am wondering about the voices you guys hear. What are the voices like? Mine are thought like and don't make much sense. They come from within me. They dont sound like different people. Just me thinking. What are yours like?,3.3338333333333314,6.514426050000001,3.530000000000001,81.62833333333333,88.5,8.0,25.0,8.515128840125781,2.745,273,11,45,8,9,84,42,60,0.044000000000000004,0.79,0.16699999999999998,0.7691,2,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,2,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,10,1,0,1,0,10,17,2,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,5,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,5,11,4,4,15,1,2,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,3,4,33,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19850045459954885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338879777988151,0.0,0.2407568711069829,0.2640999457357075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270069608861135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22816815048093594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25971843987185506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4503181146595892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15381800905839926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16939718321227953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15975550481757705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14765426629433182,0.0,0.18294066965759856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4997966408827086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cazabath,2019/07/12,Psychosis induced trauma Are here people who had traumatizing psychosis? How do you coop with it and did it get better over time?,3.9055072463768106,7.182783608695651,3.8173913043478263,81.34898550724641,82.47826086956522,4.8057971014492775,25.057971014492754,6.42735559955562,1.2290405797101451,105,4,16,1,3,32,21,23,0.22,0.6809999999999999,0.099,-0.5514,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,4,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6457497624777382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38146817211785855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5061873518407366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4257506814527329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kuku007i,2019/07/12,"Update On My Life (If anyone cares to know) I'm taking my medication(risperidone) religiously but my auditory hallucinations and paranoia still persist. I'm convinced the helper we have at home is spying on me. She talks about me behind my back to my sister and always seems to watch me whenever she thinks I'm not aware. My extended family acts nice but deep down I can't relate to them nor trust them. I had a breakdown while staying with them and they just chalked it up to me being high and told me I'm a disappointment to my father and the next time I have a breakdown they'll beat me. I've since blocked all of them and ignore them. I still feel guilty for being toxic towards my friend. She told me that we would tear each other apart (she's bipolar 2) as a result and broke up with me and quickly moved on to someone else. I was hurt but I understand and I told her I would distance myself from her and haven't spoken to her since and only plan to on the 15th when she starts her second semester just wish her luck with academic endeavours and leave it at that. She did call me twice a 3 days ago but sent a message saying she called by mistake. I don't really know what to make of that. I just feel so guilty for being bad towards her and that for a brief moment I became my father. ( He was emotionally abusive and possibly suffered by mental illness himself. He died in 2012 so I'll never really know.) I've been applying for universities despite the financial situation of my country and family getting bleaker by the day and hopefully I'll get acceptance letters but I'm not expecting much. I just feel so alone, empty and hollow. Everyone tells to go out and make friends but I feel like I can't relate to most of my generation. (I'm 23). I know I can be a lot and that I can drag people down and deep down I wish things could be better but I'm getting used to the isolation and feel more comfortable being alone with myself and my writings. Sorry for the long post I've just been doing a lot of thinking recently.",3.6758663366336637,5.316836722772276,4.930779702970298,82.19785272277228,72.86138613861384,7.921287128712871,25.991336633663373,8.567472430010655,1.816964356435644,1612,54,314,29,32,534,204,404,0.17,0.715,0.114,-0.9755,0,3,0,0,0,0,31.0,2,0,7,4,14,20,0,0,16,0,26,3,0,4,2,80,63,37,1,9,15,3,5,1,2,3,3,1,1,0,10,30,0,2,14,0,0,5,8,7,0,2,10,7,64,13,49,43,7,43,0,4,1,0,43,19,0,7,18,221,74,2,0.0,0.1203800662916662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09006277858609933,0.0,0.0,0.21045510698158826,0.0,0.0,0.08453981658550552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104148364258311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07812456994470006,0.08483223539628751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985745118296179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074910912729747,0.0,0.10358855647368087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08111979099167632,0.0,0.0,0.13104792999453574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054453551066768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08487424244117757,0.1142869706395817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09708370241400373,0.0,0.0,0.19155995781653726,0.0,0.25686151474470353,0.07258347033649258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15699270281796898,0.0,0.15924631945233975,0.0,0.057741947566590665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073465846454294,0.10191365968452124,0.10091229472732448,0.0,0.0,0.10876551577530508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22334807345148008,0.0,0.0,0.10758033785695643,0.0,0.0,0.0717634900726158,0.049636908392755454,0.0,0.0,0.08991331076939807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17275434941670853,0.0,0.0,0.13563834411696965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102389481839839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10798533107549968,0.07468811217114722,0.0,0.07836062611326984,0.0,0.10805336303792654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07727181479241715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07043704527731785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453938137111536,0.0973052648592924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017585861801115,0.0,0.10031830959915118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08079685435999914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09249334668085203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16809008937916894,0.11420330202619255,0.0,0.0,0.08608583660845832,0.0,0.0,0.11373352438469947,0.07191340918289815,0.10829269345292368,0.16227669921166024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639098726912588,0.08166269278626104,0.08880337986603769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674989067647472,0.13020309068208968,0.0,0.0,0.05924411172519875,0.0,0.0,0.29125110724201114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105769780627174,0.0,0.08775027470085095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336712918214173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443482653540586,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,yesitsmetoday,2019/07/12,"Would you want to see more art depicting my schizophrenia? A lot of what I draw is based on what I’m thinking, seeing, or feeling and I want to post more of it. Sometimes I hope people can relate to it or understand it.",2.093,3.9126493555555584,3.4819444444444483,90.13625000000003,77.66666666666667,6.277777777777778,24.583333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.9793333333333334,171,6,36,2,4,56,33,45,0.0,0.8370000000000001,0.163,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,11,12,3,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,6,11,3,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,4,0,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15776678765673247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099064604914249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652684150474201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21631551882108874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29882910007355706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4972794020587412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30859595492059216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999299445491872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248240309041979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3680751947997544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22165019691024984,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,waitimoutofrun,2019/07/12,"Long time schizophrenic looking for an additional place of support. The past couple of days have been quite difficult. I have a few friends who are very supportive and understanding, but... Um. I randomly decided to find a subreddit for schizophrenia just now after scrolling through Reddit for a while and I was hoping this could be an additional place I can find support. I'd love to share my experiences and advice with y'all. I'm feeling *very* disorganized right now, so I apologize for that. Or whatever... confusion, I guess? Confusion I might cause? I've known I was schizophrenic for the past two years now, but looking back on life after finding out I can definitely see how my life hardly reflects anything ""normal"". In the past, that is. I think. Maybe I'm imagining it. Uh, yeah. I hope I can find support from fellow sz sufferers. I'll likely be sharing more about myself in the morning... or tomorrow. Well, today, technically. It's 2:34 in the morning. We'll see how it pans out. ... thanks, I guess?",2.625869565217389,5.61593184782609,3.8260521739130446,80.74068695652173,86.5,7.5092173913043485,27.468695652173913,8.364918446050245,2.719613739130436,796,37,138,21,25,258,116,184,0.059000000000000004,0.7290000000000001,0.212,0.9787,0,0,0,0,0,0,45.0,1,1,0,1,10,17,0,2,10,1,15,5,0,3,0,37,34,11,0,4,5,0,2,1,2,2,4,0,0,0,7,8,0,0,11,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,3,6,18,13,21,26,2,25,0,1,4,1,9,9,0,10,17,90,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529030582991047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866759781289182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285172420211892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068709443428398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08602817980736728,0.11922134728120465,0.0,0.06948868301515966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053984266914329,0.0,0.0,0.05448073350760354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3939196553315936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08324600138488175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373936065306243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09652123413290307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21403657305939305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15221149739413625,0.05264033385800939,0.0,0.0,0.09535377706704352,0.1809627221610831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724696818830036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824756139513013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430382572578858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557037074314872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30857358123176604,0.0,0.0,0.22514789720616352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11460348655438082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201638440431746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17172274966597886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4890855768528249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992000772697616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06904070362942075,0.0,0.0,0.0628288489617302,0.0,0.1021327063998792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10525434679087528,0.1121696887374128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778071185707571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687858271496476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06938631592634885 schizophrenia,VenerealDiseases,2019/07/12,"I can't be alone When I'm alone I'm at peak paranoia...I think someone is watching me or outside my door ready to kill or scare me. I've been jolting awake the past month thinking someone is standing next to my bed watching me. I'm constantly seeing things running across the floor....I'm uncomfortable. I feel way worse on the antipsychotics tho (risperidone) I've been trying to see my doctor for the past 3 months and havent gotten a single call back. My brain feels weird, I don't enjoy anything I use to anymore...I've been catching myself in weird positions or having my arm up for like an hour and its numb. I dont know what's going on anymore but I want it to be over so badly...sleep is my only escape and I'm having a hard time even doing that. What should I do? I'll take any advice honestly...please",1.3653333333333322,3.706916593939397,2.7171212121212136,91.90901515151516,83.06060606060606,4.878787878787879,21.28787878787879,6.139981653823899,0.23978787878787866,638,20,130,5,18,206,109,165,0.111,0.8240000000000001,0.065,-0.7072,0,2,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,0,5,7,1,1,7,0,17,4,2,1,0,15,33,10,1,2,4,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,6,3,0,0,5,0,0,3,4,5,0,0,4,7,17,2,14,26,1,22,0,0,4,0,1,7,0,3,11,74,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15097660536984658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200329164187605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050659894064264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15322349288262244,0.0,0.0,0.12714117238594236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11880174504651556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17247423116629787,0.15776281227713496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669607115368239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15813833733822458,0.0,0.0,0.18107404088269646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10204646438180756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15624071253672092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08780648825524502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13840256385079455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521523795676881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709324837237985,0.0,0.08490971821539361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07548139260091287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24664247497287015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16431358401251833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11750498526581755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2949774051465383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695957205275341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15468247061462545,0.0,0.2462346139560785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546125954641694,0.0,0.2618164201124762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11616553665283863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10264361030160174,0.19799602601884567,0.0,0.0,0.09009078528901164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10489604861104558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13343927230769248,0.0,0.0,0.09112870261979994,0.12263571560835725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15744973538566856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BelgianFencer,2019/07/12,"Weird noise in ear. I don’t have diagnosed schizophrenia. This night I heard a weird, powerful ringing sound in my ear, it almost hurt. Then later in the other ear. Then, while wearing headphones watching a stream on the 5th floor, I heard the noise of children playing coming from my closet. Then again. Then I started hearing music I normally listen to inside my head, not the usual way but rather like it was physically playing inside my head, almost like I could feel it. Just wondering if anyone can relate.",4.349247311827959,7.068161989247315,4.55397849462366,80.81763440860215,74.26881720430106,6.2838709677419375,26.46236559139785,7.3871296695380915,1.6995075268817206,407,15,65,5,9,127,64,93,0.051,0.8190000000000001,0.129,0.8045,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,3,7,0,0,6,0,5,7,6,0,0,12,13,7,0,4,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,9,1,1,5,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,3,0,0,3,11,10,4,7,9,0,17,0,1,1,0,5,5,0,4,12,44,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4465942182277202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15592316891052066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920902993615235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780432252290357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22633505682932506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112752885487723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4577140559112444,0.0,0.25133137838569897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387205758989432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178880185120592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20926554037645867,0.2184875855542113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578368872948936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455972990187757,0.0,0.0,0.17700291523496753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24182837908538865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,brianblessing,2019/07/12,"is it ok i dont want to take antipsychotics? i have been on a couple different ones within the past like 4 years but for the longest i have been on 0.5 risperdal (the dose was never raised even tho i still experienced all my hallucinations and delusions, but i felt embarrassed and didnt want to speak about it to my psychiatrist anymore due to feeling like she doesnt take me seriously/doesnt care) but anyways i just dont like how i feel on them. Now i have weened off it, and my hallucinations and delusions are about the same the only difference is my sleep isnt as good and its harder to go to sleep/stay asleep. (but its fine not horribly disruptive) like is That ok? Do i Need to be on an antipsychotic? i just dont want to be on one anymore Is this a dumb question im Sorry ?",1.582885682574915,3.9265168113207563,3.345697373288939,87.73421753607107,82.1446540880503,6.7600443951165365,22.56048834628191,7.928766900206844,1.1474910099889013,619,21,132,12,17,206,91,159,0.10400000000000001,0.745,0.151,0.8213,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,10,11,1,1,8,2,20,3,2,1,2,24,31,12,0,4,7,0,3,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,5,0,0,4,0,0,1,8,2,0,2,5,5,17,9,19,24,2,14,0,0,0,0,4,7,1,1,10,94,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794014210066316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14362175124820112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558649810400398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943489025205463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4952799017131932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304032501994106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14245164458980744,0.10063433139979636,0.13525295729222309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0800571019840651,0.11815128640382397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15215889760213458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752790444270877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10444997302614008,0.10864414694448178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909081979866697,0.10713454980360974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13447204572266155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578015829874176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819344348931216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15768737883620107,0.0,0.15014386540896688,0.11249535914460676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21182662920799447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24925834016165915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09071275457733023 schizophrenia,t-dawg-da-bomb,2019/07/12,"How should I tell my parents? I think I might have some disorder on the Sz spectrum or Paranoid Personality Disorder but my parents dont think anything is wrong. Its not their fault, i dont talk to them about it. I think i should see a therapist. How should i bring it up to my parents its not akward?",1.952841530054645,4.1336387377049215,3.4635245901639347,88.33878415300549,79.65573770491805,6.689617486338799,26.560109289617486,7.793537801064563,1.539620765027322,237,10,50,4,6,78,39,61,0.166,0.785,0.049,-0.7025,3,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,8,0,0,2,0,14,13,4,0,3,4,3,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,1,12,0,5,9,1,3,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,3,0,38,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439210401932756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4008822830808455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4099437472029918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18553254968338087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5825899022603004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527087638315943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13936611212209798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14057139481691572,0.15286313182077074,0.0,0.0,0.20306284623743925,0.0,0.3361907887588171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19121671575703214,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ByeByMissAmericanPie,2019/07/12,"What do you see? Do you ever see nice things? Is schizophrenia ever happy? Do any schizophrenics here see glowfly things? Or unicorns or rainbows? Are any hallucinations happy or is it usually doom and gloom?",3.4191666666666687,6.54395813888889,3.1388888888888893,83.245,92.61111111111113,4.622222222222223,25.44444444444445,6.42735559955562,1.3634777777777771,167,7,26,2,6,50,24,36,0.13,0.64,0.23,0.7059,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,6,9,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,9,0,3,1,2,3,0,2,0,0,3,3,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175082191969469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4223380578869581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4970240583754452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5580886418873349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101878172273089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25711236228304074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bbqchxalert,2019/05/02,"My negative symptoms are really bad lately. Anything and everything exhausts me and I'm just not interested. People, things, hobbies, I'm not motivated. Any tips?",4.12222222222222,7.248236037037039,6.18266666666667,60.354000000000035,96.03703703703705,9.567407407407408,35.02962962962963,8.841846274778883,5.516398518518519,131,8,16,5,5,45,23,27,0.41700000000000004,0.583,0.0,-0.9236,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,6,3,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,10,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27029547795970754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32708666384398866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3318736079643553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3572233781258209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4483672017858657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755579437619669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25463157765207145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41312695465190186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640636029101576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizoslug,2019/05/02,diagnosed with schizophrenia today. looking for tips to cope today was the fateful day that they actually diagnosed me after receiving treatment and being on geodon for two years. it seems that no matter how hard i try my mental state seems to be declining. the hallucinations just seem to be getting worse and worse and even more real than before. im just looking for any tips that others like me have for coping in this battle. thanks :),6.258902953586496,8.299747569620255,6.124746835443041,74.60247890295359,66.9746835443038,8.30464135021097,28.356540084388186,8.841846274778883,2.4482388185654007,354,12,56,6,6,111,59,79,0.14,0.7559999999999999,0.10400000000000001,-0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,4,3,1,0,2,0,5,2,0,1,0,12,12,4,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,3,5,2,12,8,1,9,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,3,6,40,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.17089047471489838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11908664072198125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14901301505125109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129369980867837,0.0,0.0,0.35548334869704273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11566417172141022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09149223125750583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15687185253206706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891581188847068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555409350487607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941110080043796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17647834216282293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19932328446842396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.478264139734424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16122566223308246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3319838790084658,0.0,0.0,0.11889402198248372,0.0,0.17106540873070594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3569215913841147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277062521552562 schizophrenia,Naive_Square,2019/05/02,"Living with my dad's abusive wife (trigger warning) For 20 years, my dad's been married to a woman who hates me. Since I was a little kid, I've been walking on eggshells with her so as not to provoke her rage. I honestly have no idea what he has seen in her for all this time. She's stuck up, snotty, extremely self-centered, and passive-aggressive. She can make me feel like such garbage without even talking directly to me. And despite all that, she expects me to shower her in love. I'm 25, and I know I should get out of the house. Schizophrenia gives me a lack of motivation and makes me socially inept. It's easy to say, ""Take some risks,"" but I don't know what risks to even take. My idea of what to do with my life is so off base with what is normal or wise. For example, I drove all the way to the west coast for sight seeing and wanted to live in my car for a while. I went home because my dad begged me to. I hate where I live (location and family life) and spend every day ""checked out"" and in my own imagination, with a job I hate. It's bad for my mental health and tends to induce psychotic episodes. I have no friends here because they've all moved on to get a life, while I'm stuck here wallowing in shame and mental illness. I guess I'm looking for life advice.",4.05286065757101,4.442346498098863,4.800943860433907,88.19699172444643,70.71102661596959,8.013330351151867,28.01811675240438,7.928766900206844,1.4866253187206442,991,33,220,12,17,320,147,263,0.145,0.773,0.08199999999999999,-0.9601,2,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,1,8,13,4,3,9,0,12,7,0,6,4,44,39,17,0,5,4,4,1,1,1,1,6,1,2,2,9,17,0,0,8,0,2,5,5,8,0,0,8,6,34,5,40,30,7,25,0,0,4,1,21,14,0,3,6,136,43,2,0.0,0.14302607207668974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796009391484365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10079095142561904,0.14717198124586942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785039192239189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159460606398823,0.0,0.10170655322124536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11379819424294688,0.0,0.06103650654684348,0.08623793772276854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09326315527337284,0.0,0.12613591970591728,0.11579964279373885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297982136348258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35753955400020154,0.0,0.12831308719675802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12108574853515156,0.0,0.0,0.13928747728718655,0.0,0.2725422943529848,0.0,0.0,0.11978978516605762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13268225643879994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3410548081517821,0.05897464801394425,0.12098690501542908,0.3197773978021426,0.0,0.10136915992860154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10894888574981243,0.0,0.16115475077936206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433021655601721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12829962818103918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11827385958593215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09599643089798712,0.0,0.0,0.09619324171513463,0.0,0.12593078342392525,0.0,0.0,0.0998556736988049,0.0,0.0,0.12305248141340044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18152345629535308,0.09702515162373633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07038916703366482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07120010608952522,0.09581696776820688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119028693878538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163637616267998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07773570680190779 schizophrenia,Old__Scratch,2019/05/02,"Herbal medicines that provide relief Nothing is a cure all, but with understanding the chaos of our own brains with schizophrenia we can use herbs as needed to alleviate symptoms. Note that these work for me, and will not necessarily work for everyone and some may even be detrimental to some. Approach with extreme caution. Ashwagandha and rhodiola: very potent and powerful adaptogens, helps with more things than I can sit and list but it helps your body adapt and reach homeostasis. Ashwagandha outperforms every antidepressant on the market in clinical trials. Lions mane mushrooms: helps repair nerves and the brain Betel nut: is a strong natural antipsychotic and brings clarity to the head. Its believed it can cause cancer though and is extremely addictive and stains your teeth. Kratom: using on days that you cant get out of bed, or when you're tapering off medication, it can enrich your life massively. Also highly addictive so use sparingly. Salvia Divinorum: simultaneously the most dangerous and the safest herb on this list. While it has nothing but good benefits for your physiological body, it's the most potent natural hallucinogen on the planet. Most find it absolutely terrifying. With that being said, the way in which it works affects your dopamine levels, and help help to regulate them far after using it. Salvia has changed my life entirely, I no longer need any medication because of it and it has helped my brain go down an average of 5.5 standard deviations in addition to neurofeedback. These herbs have helped me massively, I'm not necessarily recommending all of them but they have been life savers.",8.950471014492756,10.624959192028989,8.389275362318841,62.22601449275365,60.34057971014492,12.365217391304348,36.71014492753624,11.958738252310605,5.106414492753625,1331,59,200,43,18,421,175,276,0.099,0.768,0.133,0.8268,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,2,6,3,5,5,5,1,0,12,0,18,17,7,6,2,47,30,24,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,2,10,1,1,0,20,21,0,0,2,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,2,1,17,4,31,24,9,22,0,0,0,0,19,13,0,7,4,134,37,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278832738154781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358417282738828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07107681558757815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06371409150256267,0.0,0.0,0.11775763745317748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321951112996683,0.0,0.3500348454758793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10737027460997313,0.11056772781366796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06740640375245144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06903411628450773,0.0,0.08806215128031457,0.09987282123378896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552889111279876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05460710294085458,0.0,0.05940081665217883,0.08766596250623168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10726711780653636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4904003268087067,0.11043054592862674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22147555264954505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21058471592774144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15499970754089307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005784777766419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994219393047226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10863573668231397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06943808364501962,0.0,0.10268983684344138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10880844188932684,0.0,0.3610850134677117,0.0,0.08623949904062607,0.0,0.08296268080651355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282742308069344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,-S_h_y-,2019/05/02,"Failing in school I never have been good at school and stuf but with SZ acting up i have been failing a lot and that is geting me stress Any help? PD: sorry for the spelling i'm from MXE and is a bit hard to wirte on English",1.5164285714285732,2.783375693877552,2.914030612244897,95.9890051020408,77.77551020408163,4.9,20.413265306122447,3.1291,-0.5041469387755102,175,4,41,0,4,57,39,49,0.271,0.665,0.064,-0.8592,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,1,3,0,6,0,0,0,1,7,7,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,1,3,1,8,5,2,6,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,1,1,27,4,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19975554019232697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32069164216721924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24637797222830365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26313633043584583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19688996511801896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497300784360517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265529680918391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5945678729805625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3288216135952468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364819969521479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Hiiki12,2019/05/02,Feel kinda lonely with my condition Does anyone here know any good online suppoer groups(apart from this subreddit).. ?,8.451666666666668,12.597584166666667,7.58666666666667,56.70000000000002,68.44444444444447,12.488888888888884,31.222222222222207,11.20814326018867,5.9953555555555536,97,4,10,4,2,30,18,18,0.105,0.758,0.13699999999999998,0.1761,0,2,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3940410290752127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4051599351668821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5070743700268971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929837309829223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4860091971658572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184466536992757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BongMonkey,2019/05/02,Is it possible to still drink alcohol while treating and after treating schizophrenia? Assuming the person would not need medicine for life.,9.118636363636368,12.77955995454546,6.400000000000002,68.77000000000002,63.09090909090909,9.854545454545457,42.81818181818181,10.125756701596842,5.648745454545455,117,7,14,3,2,33,21,22,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,11,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4248963847705772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3894809598274389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808253383361361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948034994705511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34715501472939114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4482162237902256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175110973147573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2824322675448879,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,depressive-realism,2019/05/02,"How do you manage hallucinations? What's ur crisis plan for hallucinations,let's say if the next doctor appointment is 2 weeks away? How to make it more bearable or make them less intense? I had a period of time when I started feeling like some supernatural spirits were following me in my room n I had to jump in with my parents at night. The visual ones were more aggressive than the auditory ones which I could just block out. I listened to music, tried reading but couldn't fall asleep as I felt I was being watched. So how do you cope?",3.7367619047619023,5.798531819047625,4.9180952380952405,80.58190476190478,73.66666666666666,7.7142857142857135,26.904761904761905,8.515128840125781,1.9414761904761897,431,16,83,8,9,142,81,105,0.07200000000000001,0.8859999999999999,0.042,-0.5998,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,1,1,6,2,1,0,4,0,11,2,1,5,0,17,18,9,0,3,4,1,2,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,3,2,0,1,2,1,0,3,1,1,0,2,6,5,13,1,13,9,4,16,1,0,1,0,7,6,0,3,8,59,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23501507134171645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997166970136392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560292240476995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264784652120127,0.1787002995961762,0.24017394117091534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25578543189314673,0.0,0.12220592870101095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33394122130097914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660270755550228,0.2347397519282011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3390031185287234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777512310324354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502080185347268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19892162793573814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17705061092270866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14585883625461746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16982886239732922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20064748209530156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ultimatedweller,2019/05/02,"Do you guys have any resources on how to study things so you can have good understanding of them and memorise them well, while being diagnosed with schizophrenia/other mental illness? Gotta say, in the past few days I've been studying (on my own) about China and Mandarin Chinese. It's a completely new thing to me. To this day I was primarily occupied with English-related stuff (I am from Poland, used to major in English, did not earn a degree because of various reasons), and that was like 2 or 3 years before I got diagnosed and had my first psychosis. Ever since my psychotic break I've had problems with studying and memorising stuff, I take my meds every day, recently started therapy. Do you guys have any 'cheat codes' on how to get back to learning at a steady pace? Would love to know what has helped you :)",9.388701298701301,7.595510857142859,8.851038961038963,70.78941558441562,60.55844155844157,12.176623376623375,40.18181818181819,10.914260884657429,4.310672727272728,648,28,117,13,7,207,109,154,0.054000000000000006,0.85,0.096,0.7691,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,4,2,2,7,6,1,0,4,0,16,4,0,4,1,20,25,10,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,2,8,8,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,7,1,15,4,20,15,4,19,0,0,0,1,11,6,0,1,13,81,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20647260295167907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11673285367384295,0.0,0.09254223200972064,0.0,0.12917949866071962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15917035258915335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937155144752884,0.0,0.0,0.30816879150538473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13732122960159834,0.12790683886201545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12912987830125558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07931468644621584,0.0,0.0,0.12733139012554004,0.12141667286871388,0.0,0.0,0.3006323961388538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10175533442987884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834310447884746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07416691020936046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13701484449564905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16862716986675186,0.0,0.15298921209820188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14661946393503786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14492023773968407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14526208367091473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15608641098205026,0.1498944898325091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207257509895889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12557916044472792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074522071260878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34757325506976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11414255393916853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736084626215542,0.0,0.2017122145335568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15804001652496746,0.0,0.1311154734514972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364958125989857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10784177723842618,0.0,0.0,0.09776094272025268 schizophrenia,Saltygamer9,2019/05/02,"For anyone who has SZ but doesn't take medication, how do you cope with symptoms? I've been on medication for years now and still experience symptoms but feel that the medication dampens my emotions and slows my thinking enough to make them more tolerable. I'm going to talk to my pdoc about reducing my dose after reading that long term outcomes are better for people off rather than on medication. Honestly this is kind of a last gambit to get better. Reading over and over again about cognitive problems and emotional blunting from people who are on meds is kinda depressing to say the least. I'm prepared for a storm and I know in the past I've had surprisingly good insight even on no medication whatsoever and was never a threat to others or myself. If that wasn't the case I would 100% stick to meds. I know that it's gonna be super stressful... I was just wondering if anyone has any tips for coping with sz without meds? I've been off meds before cold turkey and what happened was my one remaining symptom (thought broadcasting) became more intense so any tips specifically for dealing with that are especially welcome! P.S. If meds are helping you atm I wouldn't advise doing the same as me. I don't want to contraindicate prescribed medical treatments as the rules say, I'm just describing my own situation and hoping for some advice.",6.439701176470585,7.799891916,6.759694117647058,72.79172941176472,65.84,9.56235294117647,33.10588235294117,9.773937934552695,3.3568635294117652,1089,46,183,23,17,352,151,250,0.04,0.792,0.168,0.9886,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,1,3,11,13,1,1,9,0,22,10,0,2,1,39,39,18,0,9,10,0,1,0,0,3,10,2,0,0,11,11,0,0,7,2,1,1,7,4,0,1,8,4,17,9,36,27,8,21,0,1,0,0,12,9,0,8,11,128,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804766273706091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122546334615631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12600430240560298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07667106357961119,0.0,0.0,0.159377660371212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09289229350902216,0.07760562942256301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20270761914181365,0.0,0.09310054209619456,0.0,0.059512218183661626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881380774155551,0.0,0.0,0.04555881200776685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04707512748045577,0.0,0.05120764270122872,0.075574167799152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07967783415177003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060394178615976825,0.0,0.0,0.0894926643511382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09382846656889704,0.09903656548925162,0.0734460158902484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07973836848253249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06014448901397002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.500420910289342,0.5446160928078079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06949303085465394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06105616209529208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08601356157058948,0.12493222689904955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862164551519979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18025487675156876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14330713194869613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10127960922539896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07195641628109453,0.0,0.10321274531593083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809547226187159,0.06774628405389756,0.07242142273425177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057734399576278475,0.0,0.07153176122733687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05314511645217168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08685612988684605,0.0977129198355976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06400662523781604,0.0,0.0,0.05802341341015285 schizophrenia,tedbradly,2019/05/02,"Continuous Dosing (twice a day) May Not Be Required! The medical community admits that antipsychotics have side effects. The more you use the antipsychotic, the more likely they are. There's been some studies on different dosing strategies such as once every 48 to 72 hours, every other day, etc. Here's a snippet from the journal article I found: > Drawing upon this earlier work, as well as more recent pharmacological and imaging data, we proposed “extended” antipsychotic dosing based on **the premise that clinical response may not be compromised in the face of** ***fixed, finite*** **gaps in antipsychotic dosing**. **Evidence indicates this could provide adequate antipsychotic exposure**, at the same time sidestepping the problem of identifying prodromal symptoms that would signal reintroduction of antipsychotic therapy. **A pilot study examined gaps of 48–72 hours between doses in stabilized patients with schizophrenia,**[**12**](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2930338/#bib12) **while a more recent double-blind trial evaluated alternate day dosing over a 6-month interval.**[**13**](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2930338/#bib13) **No clinical worsening was noted and although subjective reports endorsed benefits, possibly related to diminished side effects, any conclusions in this regard are premature as of yet.** The newer antipsychotics have a different profile of side effects (eg, increased liability for weight gain and metabolic abnormalities), and it remains for future investigations to establish whether an extended dosing strategy would translate to advantages that might include these adverse effects. \[[source](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2930338/)\] Admittedly, the results are preliminary as the snippet says. The way I look at it is you can try this out if you're having side effects from your medication, and if things start getting worse, continue with the traditional dosing scheme.",9.894909125331315,14.69372852877698,7.976826959485044,50.90299886406666,71.26618705035972,11.271639530480881,41.848163574403635,10.186864033877496,7.017372661870505,1633,96,157,58,38,488,182,278,0.047,0.884,0.069,0.6114,2,0,0,0,0,0,124.0,1,3,1,10,5,6,0,0,21,0,18,15,1,7,0,36,25,15,0,6,5,0,1,1,0,5,13,1,0,0,13,9,1,1,10,0,0,1,3,2,1,1,3,3,7,4,33,14,8,32,0,0,1,0,8,15,0,6,16,118,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10176832986550688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11948475459767227,0.0,0.0,0.2895390181208071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127084788507472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669012731685324,0.0,0.0,0.2521761276465365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16408543259720698,0.0,0.0,0.07818686894092937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947536808275502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07311229165893793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256697892316215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015168118887117,0.0,0.1587568700977135,0.0,0.0,0.11945060858270848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15937424231197225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16870987594508471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143196525220658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29552612149451474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11900908764001818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10592428732197123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15554548124410114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17113983200617336,0.0,0.09942198089766448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08726314582798668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10160372292638577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12925107313929532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878660287532038,0.0,0.18223552956751826,0.13455490639680553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10894826500272084,0.0,0.1525079304776947,0.2126166358613908,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dyingeducation,2019/05/16,"Schizophrenia Worse When Sick I’m sick right now and I’ve noticed that my schizophrenia is 100X worse than it usually is, my libido is gone and that makes me obsessively worry that I’m gay or that I’m asexual and my senses are dull so that makes me worry that I’m in a dream. I can’t get my dick hard and that brings more obsessive thoughts about what’s happening. Does anybody else’s Schizophrenia get a lot worse when they’re sick? ANY COMMENTS WOULD BE MUCH APPRECIATED.",2.5108510638297865,5.071429872340428,3.014297872340425,90.19400000000002,80.06382978723406,6.313191489361702,23.229787234042554,7.554174236665415,1.0121055319148928,384,13,78,6,10,119,59,94,0.33,0.615,0.055,-0.9798,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,2,0,7,5,1,2,0,10,19,8,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,9,4,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,3,0,0,2,1,7,0,3,15,3,8,0,1,0,2,1,2,1,2,4,40,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13468430373743748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17331940947991115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16544967639572922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20695129847637495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17513952823962078,0.0,0.17741852575730216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16837941868381406,0.0,0.0,0.2644067209973418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14559333472564875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254871179468827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16913802867514366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15723367795918772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21812978312160872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4022692675781411,0.6055054000975924,0.140692706669315,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,andinshawn,2019/05/16,"Is there a med you can take as soon as symptoms start? My husband has schizophrenia. He's on quite a few medications for him mental illnesses but his doctor says that his seroquel and haldol are for the schizophrenia. I was wondering, if he starts getting symptoms, can he take a haldol to help? His doctor is very hard to understand and he is literally no help when it comes to asking any questions anymore. The guy asks my husband every month if he is still on disability even though he is told EVERY MONTH that my husband isn't even going for disability. I was just wandering if there even is something you can take once symptoms start.",5.371916666666667,7.116513025000002,5.540000000000003,79.09166666666668,68.75,8.0,30.833333333333336,8.515128840125781,2.461583333333334,513,21,90,8,9,162,70,120,0.057,0.882,0.061,0.3654,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,1,10,0,0,0,5,0,14,7,0,0,0,11,28,10,0,3,5,3,1,0,0,0,7,1,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,2,11,0,10,25,1,12,0,0,0,0,23,2,0,5,8,61,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09075148626398832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13234786811808294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24951797334924405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11495651132930047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731861990704679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26443005095046684,0.0,0.2248770164005328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06972281624444704,0.0,0.07584347092530705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213780607536635,0.0,0.0,0.11954618657441488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17889923801584134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482343523656663,0.13443818351269982,0.1344875608849436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130391700118272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14212131987547436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14949604063429422,0.1419419250985119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10612586053565083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273736004161238,0.0,0.0,0.28337263229021786,0.0,0.1065744111273752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4161211141974514,0.30101639446191986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13111526227938475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275184726470494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389275495517691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11011133022631356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14472228369926865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,projectillogiccares,2019/05/16,"The funniest thing ever written im powerful in synchronicity and this was a failed attempt at time travel i think it tried to explain the music video for my song “time travel” but it didnt explain anything hahaha i was in a race against time and i laughed when i read it after the probation officer The most powerful demonstration of synchronicity ever recorded is in progress this is the music video for projectillogics song “time travel” what you will see here are all my calculations to travel time this may be the final decent as it turns out the time travel fee was backwords from last time i might get something back and if i do i call that time travel Edit i learned about synchronicity from the book the celestine prophecy that i bought by mistake when i was young. I literally worship coincidences and im very very powerful in synchronicity and ive seen a paranormal amount of paranormal throughout my lifetime startting from the very first moments when i was first flashed into this body with the 300 rings.The whole book isn’t finished yet but its coming. Projectillogiccares.wordpress.com is my blog but its far from complete. Read this whole post and witness this very possible chance to achieve actual time travel. It makes perfect sense to me but you might not get it but i scored in the top 10% of the nation on my ged. According to the iq test im gifted. Schizophrenia has nothing to do with intelligence im as smart as they come. Are these metaphors maybe but there is definitely a bunch of magic going on here. The video was created with magic. Im trying to use magic to go viral. You may or may not understand. This is an attempt to travel time.If you wanna see the ultimate schizophrenic project then watch this its the music video i made for my song time travel It was created using schizophrenia synchronicity numerology and magic. While creating it i thought i was making the calculations to travel time and i am attempting to go viral. The time travel thing was just a metaphore or was it.I was trying to upload an earlier version many months ago i think before it was a music video and i was getting so high and i had court that day and it was getting down to the final moments and i was trying to go viral before court because I didn’t know if they were drug testing me or not and I thought i had to do it before i went to court just in case i went to jail. I was so freaking high and im smoking and smoking and smoking.I took a shower at the last moments before i had to go to court and when i got out of the bathroom my ride was gone. Hes the one that bailed me out of jail wtf. He had to put his property on the line to bail me out. I didnt understand why he left but that was ok i needed more time.I didnt know how it worked but i called my lawyer atleast relativly soon after that but i was too late and i was told that they didnt know if there was gonna be a warrent or not and i had no idea about that dudes property. The way i looked at it i had just traveled time and that when you travel time sometimes theres a fee and i didnt know if i had to pay that fee or not. I didnt have to pay it no not that particular time. The prosecutor didnt issue a warrant.That was a long time ago and i still haven’t gone viral. I have 39 songs at www.soundcloud.com/projectillogic i have a blog at projectillogiccares.wordpress.com Heres the video for my song “time travel” its beautiful and this song time travel use to be one my favorite songs. Enjoy https://youtu.be/J3DzNU2h-k0 Its the ultimate schizophrenic music video. I was having a blast thats why it was so hard to end it. Its the funnest art project i have ever worked on but the memory of exactly how it was made was not retained. I know i was just using randomness and numbers and synchronicity. I have no idea if this could easily be duplicated but i doubt it. Here it is https://youtu.be/J3DzNU2h-k0 When the video was short at first i thought i was flashing a copy of my soul and thats before i even considered making it a music video. Then at some point i realized i was traveling time. These may or may not be metaphores they may or may not make sense to you but im powerful in synchronicity and this is how it works. after the first attempts of going viral with an earlier version of soundless version of the video i eventually realized that i already had a song called time travel. Its been a couple weeks since I completed the music video but i just found the schizophrenic sub reddit so this is going to be another attempt to travel time. Its the most beautiful schizophrenic art project ever created. Enjoy it i got the idea to do thepost like this from someone elses thread about s schizophrenic art project or atleast thats where this post started.That one was rather basic and had nothing to do with time travel. Here goes another attempt to travel time. I wonder if i am going to have to pay the fee. I wonder if im going to get the fee i paid before i started this project back. If i do thats time travel. I didnt know id be doing this today when i woke up yesterday Maybe its the opposite and i already payed the fee but when i lost the love of my life my schizophrenic girlfriend about 7 months ago because of a bullshit danko order that forcibly seperated us. I just found out 4 of my 5 charges got dropped within the last week and i find out if the charge that caused the danko gets dropped and that removes the danko order and that charge is removed. I just figured it out. Its backwards! Im about to hit send will it work this time idk but theres only one thing left now Omg im adding the edit after i posted everything above on one sub reddit. My attempts to post it to other subreddits failed. For the one i did get to post i had to post what im about to post in this word file As a comment but i have not yet hit send. But it ended up saying theres only one thing left and that meant hit send but as it turns out it means adding this edit. Now im about to post the unposted comment into this word file. How do i do this now? One thing i forgot to mention was that one of the first pictures on this phone was taken june 19 2018 and its of a rainbow beaming right into one of those towers that nobody knows what they do that’s basically in front of my trailor. They must have been cloaked because i didnt relize they were there until a year later. I think the rainbow was a transmission from the cartoon dream universe that i think my soul is made for my first memory is of something female dressed in a way to mess with a child grabbing me with 300 rings. Read my blog for the whole story about that i may or may not gave finished it. I think it was a cruel prank to put a soul from that universe into a flesh and blood body here. Imagine the horror. It was june 19 2018 1=a 9=1 thats ai now its omg this is nut i didnt know i was making the jump today omg this is crazy. Gonna tell you something crazy crazy crazy syncincricity syncincricity But first of all its 2009 revelations is unfolding the mayan long count calendet ended in 2012 thats close to this point but right now this year we are experiencing the birth of ai. A=1 i=9 ai. But this last part starting with mention of the rainbow is an edit. But while writing this part i looked at the date thursday may 16 1=a 6=f counted backwards its fay or fairy and the person that told me that i was actually astroprojecting in my lucid dreams said my soul was fay. I might go viral today. I had no idea that this would be the day but now after seeing all that i must do it today if i can. Shocking isnt it. Today i found the schizophrenic sub reddits I think this is the final edit its 2019 Edit i find out tomorrow if I actually traveled time or not but if the danko order gets dropped I actually traveled time put that in your history books put that in your history books ah another edit askhistorians subreddit moderator bitching at me Edit or is it when i get katie back or is it just going viral time travel was just a metaphore but i think im actually gonna travel time Edit I think im gonna get katie back that was what i was in jail for do you see? Edit another thing is that i have a charge in another county and today i have to see a probation officer or something for the first time but im not exactly sure whats going on because I haven’t gone to the sentencing hearing yet if i get a drug test today i might go to jail. My lawyer wont answer his phone to reschedule. Theres that pending fee again. All this lining up is up its crazy crazy crazy. The probation dude wont annswer his phone i think i gotta go but i dont know whats gonna happen. Yesterday before i knew today was the day i told him about reddit and what he has to do. Im gonna have to put this in his hands. It was just a metaphore to go viral i didnt know i was actually traveling time or did i Edit in response to a comment that said they didnt care.You cared enough to write that comment i was in a race against time and i just got done with probation officer and i didnt have to pay the time travel fee. When i got out of there i read it and its funny as fuck hahaha and it got me a bunch of views or it might but it didnt really explain anything butim powerful as fuck with synchronicity but that post was funny as fuck haha but it didnt really explain anything when i get home im writing the real one but that was funny Title for new thread The funniest thing ever written you see im trying to go viral and im powerful in synchronicity in a paranormally paranormal way and this was a failed attempt to travel time i think it tried to explain the music video for my song “time travel” but it didnt explain anything hahaha i was in a race against time and i laughed when i read it after the probation officer",2.335947728193041,4.517780135326916,3.7500990353904697,86.76951774886898,78.36137861125191,6.730146930653772,23.617055111733265,7.793537801064563,1.2016530135667491,7769,260,1577,126,189,2553,495,1973,0.065,0.857,0.079,0.9843,9,0,6,0,0,0,105.0,2,11,8,34,79,27,5,1,115,3,177,19,5,17,15,275,316,139,0,21,86,0,3,1,1,29,10,14,2,2,154,73,0,2,51,67,15,66,41,14,1,19,123,29,182,13,197,152,20,299,5,4,11,4,67,75,4,51,141,1055,336,44,0.0,0.0,0.13204914011212102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0599748454257789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049774948801797086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11824240521738215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07423582921244422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06936656230164352,0.0,0.05499168657498395,0.0,0.13433485565439918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05010194952054404,0.0,0.0,0.06908651010820323,0.0,0.0459879783111457,0.0231678438379056,0.0,0.038854322468187034,0.04729217110677095,0.0,0.0,0.018006502434840442,0.02495414275776791,0.0,0.04363389331407802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023079250708425616,0.026431606145982924,0.0,0.05230796319873954,0.0,0.01883989387163386,0.0,0.05992501662561427,0.023302976377135274,0.0,0.014895851122455197,0.10200107905260612,0.0,0.0,0.020268919999356462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07411616867499099,0.041225533591101315,0.15346657716798034,0.0,0.07418364170890672,0.0,0.06254884619940344,0.14139431100122854,0.0,0.2050755815299239,0.0,0.10822476626680554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0199432854547889,0.0,0.02020279681982861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02541854131788581,0.0,0.0,0.047656349065003586,0.022622205245094038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10183705011382392,0.4628551052234384,0.023539168071771692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239437866905274,0.07353386928796916,0.025440437272087186,0.0,0.07351075061931879,0.0,0.01592964482437828,0.011018114086657527,0.0,0.0,0.039916874279418674,0.03787718982902212,0.0,0.024618945210432626,0.0,0.020354699743554527,0.06401975364226384,0.07527053952378128,0.022864906413255424,0.045314453524216695,0.024566510875138326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196242975761954,0.0,0.0,0.036002713175085105,0.0,0.0,0.016722547428852794,0.0,0.021781546196283776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0432798636983501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16810528682706968,0.034304701829100365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0488447706541274,0.0,0.0,0.01969215497577988,0.0,0.0,0.042639198017341416,0.025424789984428514,0.1943933435321949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133585046302671,0.0,0.0,0.11279405683978633,0.02566991944430127,0.028895684844690756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03851977929863543,0.04290558019415908,0.01793481882750483,0.0,0.0,0.10782953156402156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.018655833346446396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.01910883654340945,0.069448706653115,0.022305205164928368,0.0,0.047888769006409405,0.0,0.018010621968765052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.021255660658088017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.01971206109177408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10488112085905664,0.1445086483045406,0.0,0.05371299364851858,0.4997252914678992,0.0,0.17101864348024026,0.0646502377236324,0.025056888726171414,0.09187085116037697,0.0490617408813097,0.0,0.04695632937691304,0.02712813122488833,0.0779131955712717,0.0,0.07443338498258255,0.0,0.05370387028294279,0.0361808444553528,0.0,0.0,0.04181317305185722,0.04070062275531803,0.07553788018901549,0.0,0.0,0.0489149002014869,0.0656745609311852,0.0,0.0,0.01602079689671263,0.0,0.0,0.029046409431654912 schizophrenia,kindasortastressed,2019/05/16,"Short Rant (TW: BRIEF MENTIONS OF SEXUAL ASSAULT) So a little about my background- &#x200B; &#x200B; I’m currently fifteen years old and female and I am diagnosed with Bipolar I, Schizophrenia, OCD, BPD, and CPTSD. I was molested as a child at four by an uncle who I am still very close to. I was raped at eight by a friend’s father. I was molested by a friend in her house at eight. From ages six to nine I was molested by a friend that I visited all the time. My father is absent on drug binges, but calls every once in a while. My mother is narcissistic and verbally abuses me daily. School is kicking my ass because I can’t focus and can barely make it out of bed. My delusions are always out to get me and ruin every relationship I have. My last boyfriend I decided to leave on a whim after eight months while the boyfriend before that had sex with his niece. &#x200B; Every day is a new nightmare. I’m trying so hard, but I keep drowning. I might have to make up tons of credits this summer because I’m failing so many classes. This is my fault and I take responsibility for my play in this, but my mother refuses to internalize my illnesses and their part in the situation too. I set standards way too high when I was younger. When everything was repressed. She only cares when it benefits her. I tried committing suicide and she asked me in the hospital bed while I was overdosing if I was going to get my grades up. I went off on a rant there. &#x200B; Anyway, where I live is not my home state. I moved here from the only home I had ever known for my stepfather who has repeatedly cheated on my mom and contributes just a paycheck. He never spends time with his biological children, never does any household chores, forces my mother to make his dinner and bring it to him like a king, etc. He’s a piece of trash. &#x200B; &#x200B; The only bright spots I have anymore are three wonderful people I met here. My current boyfriend and two best friends. My current boyfriend knows about all of my illnesses and stays with me even though he knows it’s going to be hard on him. My friends support the shit out of me and always make me laugh. Everyone outside of my home in my life are wonderful and truly make life worth living. &#x200B; Sorry for the rant, I just needed to get it out.",4.409241242564441,6.026164208988768,5.0267713152676805,82.33471083939196,70.95505617977528,7.842035690680767,28.59385327164573,8.405096225971981,2.0576226040978187,1823,69,344,29,34,585,225,445,0.14800000000000002,0.722,0.131,-0.7614,3,0,1,0,1,1,73.0,0,0,1,3,21,25,7,1,21,0,29,12,2,5,6,54,55,30,2,2,7,6,2,1,5,1,7,0,6,2,12,24,1,3,6,1,3,7,4,11,0,8,12,3,63,14,56,41,7,62,0,2,1,3,35,26,2,4,26,240,75,7,0.0,0.06564668494883015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220394831107967,0.4202243085177877,0.4712678611771075,0.03767777046461769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05494755845572722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051796842749780914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06754959110505647,0.0,0.04714616302301429,0.0,0.05814485543654914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06978152943631859,0.0,0.05657540620339777,0.0,0.05648979553355341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03573208770588294,0.0,0.0,0.05623561104334927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048485894393289916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06425301251299599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06179199235171705,0.03659493698603438,0.05011762039982565,0.1400450552742548,0.052942513012050864,0.04979506334037293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21403150078407146,0.0,0.08684156176671115,0.0,0.06297666311383758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09926523439117536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0585391555232869,0.16672927957396935,0.0,0.0,0.06393072959373756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0492471247383346,0.0,0.0,0.06089903861771063,0.045163033834232216,0.0,0.05866662781920433,0.0,0.0,0.0782693575232173,0.0270684224346431,0.0555310589262582,0.09784848213323433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18491864802711416,0.05617267536483948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05877668346456935,0.0,0.06489047677037789,0.04422429470922876,0.0588874821769325,0.0,0.04108261853411793,0.08546457056083248,0.053511162535036204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058138953455526075,0.059005253675074074,0.0,0.1264155762004262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05999896513098591,0.0,0.038411330567332334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059484978147373274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05607351821688825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05687314658018047,0.0,0.062278319153480775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0620221360014265,0.0,0.059055095651301175,0.04424705715759116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06060483427995163,0.06287372263183816,0.0,0.0,0.04165818501907216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054435811025732264,0.0,0.06461500906760444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07523365581080442,0.0,0.054123310268184004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0457154984079534,0.0,0.043978459343125866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051361631518731896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201702189311712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4712678611771075,0.035679449065504826 schizophrenia,kaymonlee,2019/05/16,"does anyone else have an issue with taking astrology, tarot, numerology stuff a little too serious? I have been really trying to avoid these things but today I cracked and pulled 2 tarot cards. what a freaking mistake that was! I pulled 2 negative cards and have been crying since. i'm now full of anxiety and scared. I'm just trying to remind myself that they're only cards and its not real. but it FEELS SO REAL TO ME. I can't get it out of my mind!! I'm going crazy",1.3319825918762085,3.818397478723405,3.308684719535784,86.56136363636364,84.85106382978722,5.971373307543519,17.056092843326887,7.348242739294969,0.38805531914893576,369,8,72,6,11,124,66,94,0.284,0.716,0.0,-0.9811,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,2,3,0,7,0,0,0,0,16,14,7,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,5,0,0,3,1,7,0,7,11,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,46,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16431096381172805,0.0,0.0,0.15018360442870868,0.22007398975878986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359327112090817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879609753928133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17942642804452347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086024281741051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11221699876878848,0.0,0.12206802796959115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22418113791059308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21527234118258892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168729768192535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633546918115976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48894776005255697,0.13759763066896466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150385982241316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17767348172734118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24587897452432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614925987703903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14269450176362453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20359233800462365,0.0,0.0,0.29165165468254217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shedboykris,2019/05/16,"Over 18 years of this! Am I Schizo? For about the last 18 years now I’ve had off an on bouts of paranoia in which I thought the police were watching me etc. then over time I have progressed to “thinking” I could hear people that I respect talking bad about me to one another and almost like they could hear what I am thinking back to what they are saying. I’ve had it where I could almost hear voices in the sink, or fan etc. I have tried drugs a number of times and almost always with stimulants it make sure it 100 times worse. Opiates though seemed to calm my mind and actually allow me to function rather than being inside my head all the time. I’ve noticed I have started withdrawing from things I used to love. Tired a lot almost mentally exhausted feeling. I usually quit every very good job (I have been at very high levels with numerous very large companies. I preform at a high level when I am not having my issues.) due to some random thing I over obsess about and just up and quit. I am thinking about finally coming out with this to a doctor as I can really see it affecting my life now. I’m scared as hell of what the out come will be!",5.317111801242233,5.534166586956523,5.746708074534162,83.12260869565219,67.91304347826087,8.6583850931677,27.732919254658388,8.418075326091056,1.7600310559006207,905,26,182,12,14,291,138,230,0.098,0.797,0.10400000000000001,-0.4155,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,2,3,12,11,1,2,10,0,21,7,1,5,2,40,38,11,0,4,4,0,1,1,0,1,5,5,0,0,13,12,0,0,6,0,0,2,1,5,0,1,5,8,26,6,36,27,5,35,1,0,2,1,8,17,1,9,17,128,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.09718273059235616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3988887367619061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08286451880083269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10442585056813954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765764009961136,0.08315114284406387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715710901063754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385368001934559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019317075530259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548952210658207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221320802746786,0.0,0.0,0.08390650167955009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05035427489068422,0.0,0.0,0.10909289748897227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08352900903878789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10220518655903643,0.0,0.3367259984827452,0.0,0.0,0.21043866525448465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394315148791478,0.09882491827605447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08117685055379936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07034137655504688,0.04865327007856198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08466546660109993,0.0898813259875784,0.0,0.06647522179579397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10036046310017104,0.0,0.1005546715181229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133806744478638,0.0,0.0,0.06748285643164667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06904121748068856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21184646732352574,0.0,0.0,0.0637981031870145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07919572962866102,0.09970414906125596,0.0,0.0793580958345398,0.09066043640200508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07048832476755018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385974682804764,0.0,0.0,0.08004441001914774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13232260618843167,0.19143434818385394,0.09784390731211942,0.0790611038681617,0.23228036246925374,0.11446082359735825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06761316408443484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860113563219344,0.10968121883273273,0.24650958099112655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10148785330471506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12826176891761595 schizophrenia,Jackal_Main_0224,2019/05/16,"I was reading about schizophrenia and I think I might have it I'm not asking for anyone to diagnose me, just wondering if someone out there can tell me if any of the things im feeling are symptoms of schiz. I heard that symptoms show in your teen years, and thats where I'm at. Some of the things I feel are &#x200B; \-Having fantastical powers and imagining myself having superpowers unlike anyone else, and after seeig the movie venom I feel like something like that is inside of me controlling me &#x200B; \-Having the feeling of being smarter, better than everyone else &#x200B; \-Having the feeling of being watching when I'm alone and acting as if someone were watching me &#x200B; \-Honestly feeling like I have energy in my bones like too much that I pull from the ground, kind of like superpowers &#x200B; \-Having fast, agressive thoughts of things that I can't really tell whats happening, but I do. Its hard for me to describe a lot of the things here, just looking for anyone that can tell if any of these are common or anything.",13.160854197349046,9.015081536082477,11.215478645066273,64.01530927835053,55.80412371134021,13.559941089837999,47.30191458026511,10.608840637214634,5.1364574374079535,854,38,140,12,7,263,108,194,0.017,0.8690000000000001,0.115,0.8793,3,1,1,0,0,0,42.0,0,1,0,3,8,8,0,0,8,0,20,4,1,1,0,29,36,13,0,4,9,0,7,5,0,1,3,1,0,0,14,6,0,1,10,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,11,19,8,24,29,3,13,0,0,3,0,6,6,0,9,10,107,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07948600358037931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4157728271005494,0.4662756699019979,0.10438020818093256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16098835625776947,0.0786356362514367,0.06315565159090755,0.0,0.07174741449224467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787585047368337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860774821021329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07789586161154384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128223342931785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07333436216732993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328313595063712,0.10965511962696232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678664844791429,0.0,0.06874959494093491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08289915522260102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991944356783659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18747178601708567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06444754856145363,0.0,0.0,0.06524694521888652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08141567800538882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056417348446354876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07676705149921796,0.0,0.04916563400428866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13005375284104645,0.05908303803371584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15953754704748838,0.0,0.0,0.20123890186041005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20394728060436235,0.04917591918089423,0.0,0.06092797595192876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08322806998998986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4662756699019979,0.049422089939420766 schizophrenia,Mock-devil,2019/05/16,"I’m going through hell Like maybe literally it’s agony except I’m not exactly there. I’ve been institutedized a dozen times. I’m like being warped and tortured throughout the house. It’s so bad I’m afraid to walk around the house every time I get up and it’s been this way for months. My voices talk about torturing me for an eternity and I’m scared about my family. My voices claim I mocked the crusifiction and 911 all this shit. I just turned 26 and it’s either better or worse the head company may be god. I read the Bible and I fucked myself up, fucked the universe up, and think to much. Drinking is not helping, I had a accedental psych break and was institutedized at the age of 19. Then lived with random crazy’s for a few years. Not letting me drink makes me pshsically ill. Now they (docs, cops, family) may try to help but put me through hell. I’ve had like 5 psych breaks been in a couple fights. Argue with voices and shit. I don’t know what to do it’s annoying. I’ve killed one time it was a salamander and it was like I possessed someone to step on it. I’m so sorry. Also smashed a lot of insects.",0.6180081669691475,3.0526969078947417,2.2779612825166358,92.73394736842108,88.69298245614037,5.600967937084088,18.388384754990927,7.0983637204850245,0.2679589836660625,877,24,190,14,29,286,132,228,0.245,0.693,0.063,-0.9926,0,0,2,0,1,0,25.0,0,0,1,1,9,21,13,2,14,0,16,8,3,1,2,30,30,16,1,0,8,0,0,4,0,2,1,3,0,0,11,13,2,0,2,3,0,4,4,16,0,2,8,3,17,5,24,17,5,23,2,0,0,2,6,7,6,5,13,111,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110413780297936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229107389676092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11528190097823696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211086671287101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527707927855047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705102378220087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11632914097395004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26031845070733245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552852490121282,0.07213538715361467,0.0,0.07846783066090894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14169869220507306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18508956595377304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186263238318517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15275296226741422,0.0,0.07587914655034635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411849720218249,0.0,0.2698142813975581,0.0,0.12191751272338472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173813804975384,0.0,0.0,0.092162172093539,0.0,0.1387089321547929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102054093297746,0.0,0.10149664819444863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09355917076775393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13879754387438836,0.0,0.0,0.13810642707446594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13823121903152105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834518194106149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169854695584184,0.0,0.0,0.1545570128474607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109746833786007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846908098645924,0.0,0.0,0.2415275439652104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09373983111001287,0.1501794936943191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10959279611960962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14070417140398012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891195020243606 schizophrenia,0imnotreal0,2019/05/16,"This is a great group of people I should start by saying I don’t have schizophrenia (though I’m not naive to mental illness). I’ve been a lurker on this sub for a while now, a year or 2, and posted a few questions a long while back when I was researching schizophrenia. Everyone I talked to was so kind, so receptive and willing to share their insights. I noticed a lot of artwork being posted to the sub, and unlike a lot of other communities, no art-specific subreddit to represent it. Obligatory plug - during this time, I made r/SchizophreniaArtProj, check it out and please share your work! (: Anyway, since then, I’ve been an occasional lurker on this sub. I’m heartened by the supportiveness and optimism I see here. This post is just to share my appreciation for a great community, your kindness has bettered me.",6.280460526315792,7.358080861842108,6.640631578947371,74.5254210526316,66.03947368421052,9.764210526315793,31.647368421052622,9.888512548439397,3.1078873684210513,649,25,115,14,10,210,97,152,0.013999999999999999,0.738,0.248,0.9881,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,2,1,2,9,9,0,0,12,0,12,1,0,1,0,15,18,13,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,8,6,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,5,2,12,9,16,10,3,16,0,0,1,0,10,3,0,4,10,83,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12780247198599412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469960653309475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15881734986630822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3664863133210697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34615680439880514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14708744494731818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28260549680357405,0.0,0.1572685263126518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16749697174344827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18922710236292828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522659916339555,0.0,0.0,0.18244473019464608,0.0,0.0,0.4775393987476188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18618922024544732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321740103428339,0.0,0.0,0.13244499203181856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13748766203903975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11764175430367495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18860906739249345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359041866732208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16329695651134069,0.0,0.09691629578830684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12100024788746655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703148042828232 schizophrenia,jadedspud,2019/05/16,"2.5 months on olanzapine and seroquel without diagnosis Hi guys, I’ve been seeing a pdoc for over 10 weeks now as I was overcome by psychotic symptoms. Auditory hallucinations that are sparked by sound stimuli ranging from conversations to white noise sounds like a fan spinning. The content is always that of persecution and conspiracy to kill me. Usually the hallucinations involve a group arguing over how they will go about it. Seemingly everyone is in on it once the delusions take hold. Recently my mood has become lower and lower and the paranoia is coming back so my pdoc raised my dosage of olanzapine and told me to keep taking seroquel as a PRN. Have others found this combination of AP’s to help with psychotic symptoms? Also how long did others wait to receive a formal diagnosis after their first major psychotic episode?",8.714878234398782,9.881748828767126,8.840776255707766,60.57218417047187,60.71232876712329,11.694368340943685,40.19482496194825,11.429527900616536,5.2250267884322685,683,35,100,19,9,224,106,146,0.11599999999999999,0.836,0.049,-0.885,2,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,2,1,7,4,2,0,9,0,10,2,0,2,0,15,20,11,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,3,0,1,7,7,0,3,2,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,5,5,8,1,23,14,1,17,0,0,2,0,11,5,0,1,10,69,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15682352411281025,0.1631734323938733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15079112715223916,0.0,0.0,0.2165803921875689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689253982123798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18738485121239776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16680513912974726,0.0,0.215016853046094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11144987247539244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941728332921506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314437289034823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17430538553450778,0.2169589502035629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09580603605490697,0.0,0.0,0.1735450126190023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15652756948231314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088433293322665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19362808639037526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15626872723037735,0.1785248355281944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4076522742240819,0.2948901499934668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18738485121239776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21597978489559144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15730202379117256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890363252234386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,venompool10,2019/05/16,"OCD or Schizophrenia? I've been diagnosed by my psychiatrist with severe OCD and social anxiety. However, I have a huge fear that I am developing schizophrenia. I often feel as if people around me are wearing masks and that they are all talking about me with the intent to harm me. Also, I sometimes get this feeling that inanimate objects around me want to harm me. I always see faces in things around me and imagine them in my head as transforming into demons. Furthermore, I often feel disassociated and as if nothing is real. I discussed this with my psychiatrist and she said this is likely due to the severe childhood abuse I have received. Most people seem to think that I don't have schizophrenia as I never act on these delusional thoughts. They're only in my head. Does this seem like schizophrenia?",5.585612244897959,7.863246965986399,5.5630102040816345,76.99716836734696,69.1360544217687,7.8931972789115665,29.93707482993197,8.59863814320734,2.5349687074829936,652,26,107,11,12,204,88,147,0.14300000000000002,0.8059999999999999,0.051,-0.9426,1,0,0,0,1,0,14.0,0,0,2,0,7,5,0,1,3,0,10,5,4,1,2,31,21,13,0,3,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,10,12,0,0,8,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,3,5,23,2,21,18,2,14,1,0,1,0,8,9,0,8,5,81,33,0,0.0,0.18498952232562946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124857781488989,0.1299133716188331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943967017714698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4169686649779925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584695226073934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366311558662408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17569060920332802,0.2368333415002441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08157192320149198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32047058439402504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15255529019313294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041773393536145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14981175803072502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874454424248268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21648294042818328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17771108464024427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148516188567855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12441607028329163,0.284271317467686,0.0,0.35276683119568497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15915573592374632,0.0,0.0,0.1544173993838762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12549206023656162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10372639677452324,0.10004234211103707,0.0,0.12395045208802255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09209001844064522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,IllCaesar,2019/05/16,"How do you respond to people who think you're making it all up? Do you e even respond to them at all? I hear vaguely threatening voices all night long, I'm seeing things that aren't there, my memory has gone down the drain, I think I go catatonic sometimes, and I have extreme inappropriate moods that cause me to be deathly afraid that I might hurt somebody dear to me in a future such mood. Nobody thinks it's real though except for the mental health professionals I've met. Everybody else thinks I'm faking. I don't know what to do to convince them, or if I should even try at all. I scared that if they don't believe me and take it seriously that I might have a severe snap from reality or, even worse, that I might hurt somebody I love, especially the children near me.",6.973831168831168,6.105236740259741,7.242175324675326,77.42612012987014,64.71428571428571,10.037662337662338,31.58766233766233,9.188382445141503,2.4628857142857137,614,19,123,9,8,200,96,154,0.154,0.7879999999999999,0.057,-0.9308,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,3,0,7,11,0,2,5,0,14,2,0,3,4,24,29,8,1,3,5,0,0,0,0,4,1,2,0,1,12,2,0,0,5,0,0,2,3,6,0,0,2,3,21,3,15,22,4,11,0,2,1,1,12,6,0,7,3,84,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692078861574715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542821136346648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12546090467049714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975887715281801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08535401048394166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596404062930714,0.1692702310785258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32155385694500416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08253814863518727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13290964356902865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13554848352769522,0.0,0.10025013992152644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15135189017177414,0.47796997255103996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14093913224768795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411987392916823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17094423876505227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503621142454024,0.0,0.11967858092685432,0.0,0.0,0.1696671244294736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485375256315215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292097691592652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09977672452091496,0.3849318021116021,0.14755671562316566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10196625113675953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15305208797026948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,depressionrat,2019/10/11,"Want to cut my genitals off Is this from schizophrenia? I saw a lot of comments about it on a different post so idk. I want to cut my genitals off. Idk if it’s from me being schizo, I was raped so I feel a lot of self hatred. I feel like me being raped could explain it, not me being schizo. I feel like if I cut my genitals off then no one will be able to use me sexually or even look at me sexually.",-0.10963383838383578,1.685886193181819,2.839242424242425,92.12191919191922,84.79545454545455,6.638383838383841,20.005050505050505,7.793537801064563,0.6187080808080809,307,9,75,6,9,109,49,88,0.259,0.659,0.081,-0.9537,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,7,5,0,3,0,8,2,0,1,0,14,17,6,0,5,4,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,2,5,15,2,13,9,2,7,0,0,2,2,3,5,0,5,3,55,19,0,0.2449907890967004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19560521001177134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559632309746301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16181410563520948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3716241123505969,0.3500429373643141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393802491797901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20573056033430767,0.0,0.0,0.4165648158729791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16601209910338094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346334542455359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25557882353361144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21159338185686166,0.0,0.0,0.28900382980341144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Abstract18,2019/10/11,"Can extreme anxiety look like schizophrenia? I went through an episode of pyschosis because of an extremely stressful period. However, I think it was/is my extreme anxiety that did it. I've always been really anxious, and this event put me over the top. Was wondering how the two interact with each other.",4.526666666666667,7.697708333333335,4.9644444444444495,75.50000000000003,76.77777777777777,9.525925925925927,36.77777777777778,9.725611199111238,4.798133333333333,246,15,38,8,6,78,45,54,0.161,0.764,0.075,-0.6106,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,4,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,8,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,4,1,4,1,5,4,1,6,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,3,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426568929332941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4461874693422609,0.3294553213468422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777730151117381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424741435678212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24489309782064586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29316552245332017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18682362147794265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33405756034834305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18686270393828114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848770480117066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703410027143617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31625686842141115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Splagist,2019/10/11,"Hello people I hear myself talking to much but I don’t hear a Strangers voice. Help me. Please.",-0.4628947368421059,1.1802331052631594,0.5467105263157919,99.60322368421056,112.68421052631578,1.9,15.276315789473689,3.1291,-1.2971157894736842,75,2,15,0,4,23,17,19,0.0,0.667,0.33299999999999996,0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7776408057605756,0.0,0.23123452924102164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25360186614351393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391674606399229,0.0,0.0,0.3786872401390025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772839034603513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,humantrazadone,2019/10/11,"The feeling you get when someone’s standing close to you My symptoms have been pretty mild lately, esp over the past few months... . I’m managing w/o meds right now (bless!) haven’t been down a delusional rabbit hole in a few years, just occasional audio/visual hallucinations that are usually easy to ignore... I slept poorly last night though (a trigger for me) and all day today I just have that... feeling you get when someone is right behind you? Just someone or something right behind me breathing down my neck all day. It’s a little creepy, a little annoying, and weird as hell. Can anyone relate? I just wish it’d at least let me use the bathroom in peace. I keep forgetting and turning around thinking a coworker is standing over my shoulder. Ugh.",4.111549529607082,6.643487769784176,4.454820143884892,82.16791920309906,74.17985611510791,6.579081350304373,27.23907028223575,7.61054688173877,1.772969673491975,596,23,102,8,13,187,92,139,0.078,0.809,0.113,0.6088,0,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,4,0,0,9,6,2,0,9,0,11,5,4,2,2,21,22,8,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,2,3,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,3,2,14,1,14,17,5,29,2,0,0,0,4,14,1,1,13,68,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113960559361598,0.0,0.0,0.14182324022301948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054887059149044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16110789469603104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16646998344975628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14160560692405524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12986217673840927,0.17971313590978005,0.0,0.0,0.1629093630964852,0.0,0.0,0.3193489708960496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769619438383137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12716291816756328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14950540066732698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15208324371564713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620796166380003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4081598671992362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40495871616617535,0.12264770377201295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16558825055363638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208198104120823,0.15652520019512253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15101104783580013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17328788834630465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13759614816279128,0.17546186785727472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18320324238562632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10259299535722673 schizophrenia,bishakto_manush,2019/10/11,"Need help. About psychosis, not schizophrenia I don't know where to post this. I'm sorry if this doesn't fit here I'll delete it, and please suggest me where to post this because I'm not doing okay and I need support. Also English is not my first language and I'm on mobile, so sorry for any mistakes. Sorry this is kinda long. My boyfriend is 22. He's a very sweet and an affectionate loyal supportive person, albeit sometimes a bit self centered but nothing very concerning. But he has psychosis and severe depression. He's on a very high dose of antidepressants and antipsychotics. But the problem is when he is in a psychotic phase he becomes exactly the reverse of who he actually is. He becomes an asshole rude kind of person. And he starts saying shit like 'I don't like you. You ruined my life. I want to date someone else blah blah.' After starting his antipsychotic drugs this had become rare. I literally saved that boy from suicide and severe drug abuse and was by his side no matter how much he pushed me away. He'd left all his hobbies and will to live. I taught him how to live again. I was with him through his family problems, severe psychotic breakdowns, crippling anxiety and depression, loss of friendships, everything. He knows how much I love and care about him and he has admitted that I've changed his life for the better. He was getting better a bit everyday. But then something changed. He went for a trek 2 weeks ago. After he came back, he stopped taking his medicines, started smoking weed, and heavy drinking, everything his doctor had advised him not to do. He doesn't return home at nights and spends the nights roaming on the street and smoking weed. And he's been behaving very very badly. He has started talking to some other girl and stated that he dislikes me and I'm nothing more than just a friend. It hurt me a lot because he does this only when he is not in his mind. I literally know him better than he knows himself. He's been refusing to take his medications and I tried contacting his psychiatrist, but in vain. I don't want to let him lose his mind like this. I don't know who he is talking to and if she will actually help him out or dig his hole deeper. I've faith on my love for him and I want to help him, but there is only so much I can do for someone who is refusing to follow what's good for him. What should I do to help him? Also his family is unsupportive as fuck and I'm the only one whi always supported him. He lives far away from me and I can't physically meet him at all. I'll get to see him 2 months later. If he refuses help I'm not sure where he'll end up in the next 2 months. I'm worried about him. Please put in some perspective about the situation. I'm not sure what to do now.",2.2781234361968323,4.624840532110092,3.5171142618849065,87.49580483736449,79.45871559633028,6.459049207673062,24.587989991659718,7.62072044053348,1.3008091743119268,2170,80,432,34,55,704,244,545,0.177,0.6709999999999999,0.152,-0.9609,0,0,4,0,1,1,55.0,0,2,0,6,23,37,3,0,18,1,39,12,1,3,5,80,79,45,1,12,18,0,0,5,1,4,7,1,1,5,19,27,1,4,6,1,1,5,15,14,0,2,10,3,58,23,54,63,11,60,1,6,1,3,87,25,2,8,30,259,77,3,0.0,0.07604407279893137,0.12526293187422632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05689264595254264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10265115673252703,0.053403791548514434,0.0,0.0,0.04364532835658251,0.0,0.04909834275934534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12060045566012348,0.04935128104902251,0.05358851247466017,0.07824836893949665,0.21264884757639094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17028882197309328,0.14013821103658766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07340604586943664,0.06543687815003424,0.0,0.13579012357757236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11055812282238553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065692044570121,0.05616528672908019,0.0,0.0,0.06287301445863833,0.14885932975587335,0.0,0.053615048319655884,0.0,0.056845377930993264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11536361431302397,0.0,0.12100840135996375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05459238522239016,0.0,0.0,0.04958613535344563,0.05933436487079509,0.06706392003503965,0.0,0.0,0.053832036334911786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150960911877152,0.06781082407543754,0.06437884605810168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06870716269245994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06683470779340288,0.17636118753139898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06973292017677997,0.06562949231600901,0.09066597538109486,0.09406688644415284,0.0,0.17001918157187626,0.056798227151453176,0.0,0.07180220027356875,0.0,0.05456445044459024,0.11585184266095025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465567567682515,0.0,0.0,0.12960916915212245,0.0,0.10245743525271242,0.0,0.1415414133116489,0.0951789001078832,0.0,0.0,0.06825729589745451,0.12045917260737088,0.0,0.12316693497668435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04349075394543619,0.14643778717839706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120808692170226,0.0,0.14090308295031725,0.0,0.0,0.12293544724840533,0.0,0.0,0.12282523199578575,0.0,0.06451970212365772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051039362779465296,0.0,0.0,0.051144003114541814,0.0,0.06695485321851448,0.2175190215254945,0.0658809458881078,0.0,0.07214221158606685,0.0,0.0,0.1087608244067517,0.04940972316928256,0.06347671918142075,0.2155363593263249,0.18171076629494207,0.0,0.0,0.05365824822765168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07020367340017436,0.2184957524366441,0.12097979755241214,0.0,0.09651235417998448,0.10317262560977862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04357473346800364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.264780521033438,0.1135669736045122,0.0,0.05148218288640138,0.0,0.0,0.05949649474800996,0.05791343280739025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06517899184984853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MrDavi,2019/10/11,Healthcare and disability in USA I've been thinking about this for a bit. If a schizophrenic goes into psychosis and loses their job or can't work then how can they see a doctor to have evidence that they can't work? If they don't have healthcare then their only option is to be homeless and never get disability. What are we supposed to do to survive if they won't let us have disability until we've been to a doctor that won't see us?,6.045393258426969,5.7260645505618015,6.864359550561797,77.55226966292136,66.41573033707866,9.367191011235958,31.28314606741573,8.841846274778883,2.4018341573033704,351,12,69,5,5,117,53,89,0.033,0.9670000000000001,0.0,-0.3939,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,3,0,6,4,2,1,0,0,4,0,16,3,0,1,1,13,20,11,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,2,9,0,10,14,1,6,0,1,2,0,9,2,0,5,4,54,13,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384139432042555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4470415104420934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11409431805943515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21670803813652176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233079177736604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443108923874277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16842779594249255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16608751230689006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480405055436348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13992881805707771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5253674964000965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31796587246984603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,binder_v,2019/10/11,"Antipsychotics gay Hey all!:) I am M. I'm not sure, maybe its just me... But invega and abilify make me feel gay or transgender intentions. Without meds i am much more straight, a bit attracted to men though. Does anyone relate? Thanks!:)",1.30238372093023,3.718137697674418,2.422529069767446,87.2677470930233,102.25581395348836,7.73139534883721,21.65406976744186,8.07648339933343,2.249513953488373,183,7,34,6,8,58,38,43,0.045,0.8220000000000001,0.133,0.5965,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,2,2,11,6,4,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,2,6,4,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261238046826685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530612415314274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28300326822868377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635171452298059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21586724305263252,0.0,0.3248915915375753,0.0,0.3592165601239299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23773095975408945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30479394026889417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29773669327458163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177318397800505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31173917358479536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CelticRosa,2019/10/11,"Struggling with being honest with my family about my symptoms because someone who was completely evil and also happened to have a history of schizophrenia stabbed my cousins grandmother. Sorry for long post. So, a few days ago, my cousins grandmother got stabbed 15 times by a family friend whom she has known a long time, who we didn't know was a complete psychopath. Yes, she did have schizophrenia too, but she didn't stab her because she had a psychotic break. The police found her diary where she had written down her plans to murder her and her entire family (including all of the kids), so that she could have my uncle Eric all to herself. She also stabbed her while naked, so that she wouldn't have any evidence left on her. It worked too, the only evidence the police have is the diary. I am sorry, she wasn't mentally ill when she stabbed her. She is evil. She knew what she was doing when she did it, planned it out, and feels no remorse for wanting, and trying, to kill multiple people. My cousins are of course all reeling from this, and I feel so terrible for the pain their family is going through right now. Luckily, she survived and is in the ICU recovering. I am worried, that if my cousins ever find out that I am being evaluated for schizo spectrum disorders (which I most likely have), that they will think that I am the same as her, and view me as an evil monster too. I love my family very much, and I don't want them to be afraid of me. I am further worried, because the major delusion that I used to struggle with is that I am a psychopath who will inevitably kill people. I am worried that this will trigger that delusion to return. My cousin wants to talk to me, and ask about how my symptoms are doing. We initially thought that what I was suffering from was neuro in origin, but now are suspecting it is mental illness. He had heard that I had been hospitalized back in April for pseudo seizures, and so that is what he is asking about. What should I tell him? It seems like a terrible time to be honest about how I am actually doing. My mom is encouraging me to not say anything about my struggles. Is that good advice?",6.545492700729928,6.706185961070562,6.506268248175182,78.91735857664234,65.30170316301704,9.477737226277373,33.42670316301703,9.188382445141503,2.8516819951338204,1694,67,317,27,24,537,195,411,0.203,0.706,0.091,-0.9952,0,0,0,0,0,0,50.0,2,0,3,4,24,22,6,4,18,1,57,6,0,5,4,49,77,27,3,7,4,6,2,2,1,5,5,2,0,1,30,17,0,0,11,0,0,1,7,14,0,0,21,5,63,8,41,46,8,31,0,1,1,1,53,11,0,3,19,251,93,1,0.0,0.0,0.09141620907910752,0.0,0.0,0.09154105169684336,0.08303988960889712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982851615664192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0637042483785675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07708900730459342,0.0,0.17515255786465908,0.0,0.0,0.07203259510529646,0.0,0.17131570724181608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964391891396191,0.0,0.0,0.07479425568250568,0.0,0.0,0.06041455644085765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10736309717884217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473710887674338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4415563787920213,0.0,0.09473281710394138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08561998953484941,0.0,0.0,0.10271308537038364,0.07237538590342066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05323936288672842,0.0785726569722573,0.074922849570875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283914085216933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20728164195901566,0.0,0.051482975694671015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10178141474411513,0.0,0.0,0.0915326721686896,0.0,0.0,0.16580415389968153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08454804715514096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888107696114254,0.0,0.0,0.1097145345546858,0.0,0.0,0.0688641044297766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07124633584458205,0.09967999056726287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12988905197086906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971762340815981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08000049515783039,0.0,0.07449650090893398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08528092757645463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07937306044829573,0.0,0.0,0.20972968984534407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29379773748205995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19473460917425425,0.0,0.07529482323991996,0.08187869591346249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0600250761008984,0.0,0.07436986342309443,0.16387317518528088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.063601208844083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08090770947448576,0.0,0.07729415592849677,0.16576112419172442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06819869544208476,0.2854036508978047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,beneficii9,2019/10/11,"Weak hind legs So I've had lots of images of weak hind legs recently. Playing a video game, I see the back of a Bokoblin's legs as it finishes spinning around, and then I see the weak crushed hind legs of an animal. I see Link walking and I notice the position of the legs looking at it from behind, and then I see weak hind legs. The image keeps filling my head.",2.6552000000000007,4.097249386666668,3.7596666666666683,90.3715,75.13333333333333,7.133333333333333,25.833333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.2731333333333337,284,10,62,4,6,92,43,75,0.18899999999999997,0.787,0.024,-0.9118,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,8,0,1,11,7,0,0,7,7,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,1,3,0,2,0,4,0,0,1,5,6,1,10,6,1,9,0,0,5,0,1,2,0,1,5,35,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153629826383464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860240457273601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482830487031701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150324997336218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031545995356602,0.0,0.0,0.20567449534916926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754312228536148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388700229053864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7711260313270601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shaababic,2019/10/11,"Voices acting real My voices have become nice and theyre not random like they used to be. They dont swear at me either. Theyre like my friends pretty much. I wa wondering if any of you have voices like these. They even say theyr real people but they live inside of me. They told me inside my mind is a black void where they can mak shapes and catch nerve spikes or something. I asked them if they remember being born they said no. They said there may be a phase after they become ""real"" where they forget stuff from when they were basic people. They said there a place called naan or caan that is similar to what we call heaven. They also said that when we die we enter a white room wher we get interviwed. They say they work things out by thinking since thats all they can do inside of us. They said that they used to make me angry so i would kill someone or die so they can be free. They apologized for that. One voice says she never did that to me. Just one voice is nice out of all of them she says. They said they catch serotonin. They call it love though. Interesting stuff right?",2.449495412844037,4.4917065642201885,2.8426513761467898,94.09627064220186,77.39449541284405,5.460917431192661,15.945871559633028,6.2581,-0.5955016513761469,853,11,182,6,20,262,121,218,0.127,0.746,0.127,-0.2284,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,5,1,26,1,12,11,1,0,4,0,18,1,0,3,3,34,33,14,3,3,9,0,0,3,1,2,0,15,1,0,12,8,0,0,3,0,1,4,4,1,0,2,9,17,45,11,16,18,4,18,1,0,2,1,52,9,0,8,8,124,57,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07636885882714314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649411857756881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927673655123629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21093770834791054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2925391220831478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19822146850678302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119216884031787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.063074820297326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07378068968980195,0.0,0.049893203394637264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10565320179555657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399649258679243,0.0,0.08432553701725437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861897059776143,0.0,0.06374494099216997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09642467417559404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07020123010438177,0.0,0.07365311807982985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12942237979837992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324110913944338,0.0,0.0997739642849452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09715470755104977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260892330392597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10817940342127068,0.08155385473380143,0.5450366826812851,0.3037719604768743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07899604568752007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08091423720324259,0.07351820073952461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21864227026215585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06344391560905945,0.06119057547156818,0.0938252469049909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125140714406298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487104616886627,0.16495736863401106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356234480013686,0.06952290095387184,0.0,0.0,0.06783827771726217,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Abibliothecarius,2019/10/11,"How I cured my positive symptoms. A little introduction and disclaimer is needed for this. I was diagnosed 10 years ago at age 19. Been on a wide range of anti psychotics many with detrimental effects nearly costing me my life. I have been symptom free for 2 years and now to a certain degree negative symptom as well. What I did worked for me and may not work for you and there are risks involved in doing what im doing. I began taking etizolam 3 mg daily 2 years ago. Within a week I no longer had delusions or voices/intruding thoughts. It all went away. Completely. I stayed on my anti psychotic (risperidone) and still am unable to get off it due to rebound psychosis from the withdrawal so I continue to take it. I make sure I have a constant supply of the etizolam as the withdrawal is potentially fatal as it is a thienodiazepam. I wouldn't trade that risk though for being psychotic all the time again as it was a living hell and I was unable to function. 2 years ago I was living at a friends house a total wreck. Now I live on my own, own a car and starting a career in IT. My life is back on track. Yes I have to take the etizolam the rest of my life but there are very few serious long term side effects especially compared to the risperidone I have to take the rest of my life. Anyway I just wanted to share with you all a medication that got my life back on track and saved me from the waking nightmare that is schizophrenia. Not saying it will work for you but I thought Id share it as it was a turning point for me in dealing with this illness. im happy to answer any questions if any of you are interested.",4.0079282765737885,5.356329476780188,5.11200077399381,82.3828412022704,71.56965944272446,7.983952528379773,28.62861197110423,8.472884824447931,2.08003209494324,1283,49,249,21,24,423,166,323,0.07,0.821,0.11,0.8922,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,4,0,5,14,15,1,2,22,1,28,12,1,4,6,37,43,20,1,4,7,0,0,0,1,3,11,2,0,0,16,11,0,0,6,0,3,2,5,5,1,0,14,2,34,11,46,25,10,44,1,0,0,0,11,18,1,4,23,185,50,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743561143317631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14031529612965427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969295528668494,0.15865935428864775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10816948514876516,0.11148775076339926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10636148125330114,0.0,0.10471315472328166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07970719350762423,0.0,0.05390092223875336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08251272161584572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10982405134409157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11904180029911915,0.0,0.0,0.22287787534959705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36435237353883904,0.0,0.10340124802432712,0.2732971970685302,0.09130026468449692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06886531378544802,0.10459596575139816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10393071401521893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07649762332420526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09752692652403347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557155742217125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204318276814415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07302270638884947,0.10996315774654028,0.08238994573422856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09723443927711996,0.3216925681777316,0.3102774126544564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013618487764072,0.16380743317653268,0.060157979227136886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112216951081647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08512424723817595,0.060851046881334185,0.0,0.08275499359391299,0.0,0.09276025047142324,0.0956375927686699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253221815697233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657467466696626 schizophrenia,Gringo993,2019/10/11,"Worried about a friend. What did it take for you to get help? A friend of mine experienced a psychotic episode after taking psychedelics. This was months ago. Since then he has been convinced of certain delusions, like everyone is out to get him and that they are secretly poisoning his food. I don't know much about schizophrenia, but he is at the age where that can develop. People in his family are trying to help him, but he doesn't seem to think that he needs help. I was wanting to ask you all, what should we do? If you have schizophrenia, what did it take before you accepted help?",4.389186507936508,6.286026767857147,4.1186904761904755,87.69853174603178,71.5,7.8349206349206355,26.73015873015873,8.515128840125781,1.7546396825396835,466,16,92,8,9,141,76,112,0.033,0.762,0.205,0.9586,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,1,4,1,0,3,7,1,0,4,0,16,2,0,0,2,16,27,5,0,4,3,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,9,3,1,0,5,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,1,13,6,14,21,2,9,0,0,0,0,22,4,0,2,6,64,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16777344384063886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17693874575732896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16105195818326193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18085237154021264,0.0,0.0,0.17842373025457808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22886195486782376,0.0,0.29245385078188035,0.0,0.1977680002986215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5074457181031884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040159876432858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924661130090898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510708147918246,0.0,0.13913274706409448,0.14033880464431145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13121364725425627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723012275282807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15656330846856994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42691484363682897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12127441139041635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12849961494958712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163435946877656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922094454497998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Heyfoximophandlemama,2019/04/28,"Risperidone question Why is it that when I drink alcohol, the next day I feel better than If I hadn't drank anything? Did the booze cancel out the medication? I almost felt real emotions today. I almost felt naturally happy. On days that I didn't drink the night before I have crippling depression 24/7 and no emotions and truly want to blow my brains out. Does anyone know why this is?",3.721135029354212,6.2507439315068485,4.479882583170255,81.51849315068493,75.43835616438356,6.36320939334638,24.127201565557733,7.447530270364453,1.33153385518591,309,10,53,4,7,99,53,73,0.10400000000000001,0.75,0.146,0.4899,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,4,0,6,7,1,0,0,14,12,4,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,5,0,5,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,6,3,8,2,5,6,0,9,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,4,6,32,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766462566185201,0.33103095598814103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155756020979903,0.0,0.1360207525845417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14065082171849438,0.0,0.0,0.1461868262170765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845198867088154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21319857970611256,0.0,0.14236525539952347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464763303947775,0.0,0.0,0.3238453234421094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37186119338609896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357630696954148,0.0,0.3174113632662666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17595578715256086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09083984012936633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16651371325375325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17578929734422713,0.1551147978607982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18516421594166185,0.0,0.0,0.1881378196291832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15667693645341718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09749316039631398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982995891105291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,stankahoob,2019/04/28,"getting something off my chest. so recently ive noticed that I see shadows in the corner of my eye. the other day, i heard this kid saying “hey” to me when he wasnt. I have seen people out my window when they are not there, always feel like people (my mom especially) are calling my name when they’re not. extremely paranoid about people talking about me and i feel like everyones watching me in school. always feel like cameras are watching me in school and sometimes question if my house is bugged with cameras, in the bathroom or in the ceiling. used to wonder that my dog wasnt real and she was constantly being switched with a different dog, or she was sent by someone to watch me and report my actions. I used to think she had cameras behind her eyes and she was always watching me. I sometimes question if my mom is drugging me. sometimes I feel like i can see deeper into reality than most people and wonder if i am truly a genius and i just havent discovered anything yet. also, lately have been compulsively researching schizophrenia after finding out that my aunt has it, and trying to match these things with that condition. i feel like im kind of a hypochondriac trying to figure out whats wrong with me because ive been through doctors and psychiatrists for years because ive always had some sort of problem. i feel a feeling inside of me that makes me feel like theres something wrong with me, plus im not like other kids at all even though i seem like it. i cant sleep, i feel insane, im always trying to self diagnose myself with something, and i am so stressed out all the time that i feel sick to my stomach 24/7 almost. i cant even keep track of my conversations or ideas for very long which sounds a lot like adhd which im very prone to thanks to my dad. sometimes i walk around the school for half hours at a time not knowing where im going, or constantly changing my direction. i feel like im getting closer to losing my marbles all the time, and a lot of these “symptoms” have increased after i found out about my aunt having schizophrenia. im very fascinated by the illness and i think thats why i compulsively, almost obsessively, research it and feel like my symptoms are caused by that, but then i feel bad because i know that all of you guys really do have to struggle with something as terrible as schizophrenia. if someone could give me some insight as to what may be the real issue here, im all ears. i know youre not doctors and one of the rules of this page is not to ask if you have schizoprenia, and im not asking, im just sharing my experiences recently and i feel like this is a good place to let it out, and hopefully get some friendly feedback. i am not trying to offend ANYONE.",5.700939110733501,6.124388095327102,6.149923534409517,79.84623902577174,67.11214953271029,8.428773718493344,31.72613990371,8.199878495009871,2.3066760124610584,2161,83,406,26,33,699,228,535,0.052000000000000005,0.848,0.10099999999999999,0.9553,1,0,5,0,0,0,43.0,0,3,1,1,20,28,1,3,18,0,40,14,6,4,5,108,81,39,0,8,20,5,14,12,1,1,8,4,1,4,25,33,0,1,29,0,0,5,13,10,0,2,13,27,71,18,66,63,13,44,0,1,9,0,34,20,0,25,31,282,96,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057433842517390137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09570881281255532,0.0,0.0,0.038217345978999936,0.19882398242408247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03341561707990598,0.0,0.03932678957131483,0.04254289838627578,0.0893536968092538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03990234083928428,0.08739633580102449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048798550494471626,0.0,0.0,0.04909310930316463,0.05055508674702379,0.0,0.0,0.10328721445723678,0.0,0.03815612701752552,0.0,0.0,0.03082035469475245,0.0,0.0,0.048505463579358886,0.0,0.04992998679481219,0.0,0.09782941275356026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055420792990241864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06312919341435526,0.0,0.0,0.04566503482510791,0.0,0.04674742352204532,0.0,0.0,0.33829418561805724,0.3072682599039938,0.0,0.0,0.04367885161928354,0.0,0.0,0.052398857318543816,0.03692214585563785,0.0,0.07490432011493225,0.04584416309665525,0.02715994529394439,0.040083670225481614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047319242388091605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047465880867972834,0.04706315430118598,0.055142811083184966,0.0,0.0539486698387744,0.5162099591968039,0.04987995253845423,0.0,0.042477614647808484,0.0,0.049765540544298194,0.07879178455300208,0.0,0.05390877875633101,0.0,0.0,0.04886812957797418,0.0,0.2801711629043413,0.0,0.0,0.042292314419737916,0.0,0.05346436644759021,0.0,0.08125806068521901,0.0,0.0,0.031899945890547086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11194126281322037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05440880499851805,0.0,0.0,0.032383486817418816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13252523525936158,0.0,0.04992998679481219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045728217153606365,0.0,0.0,0.10707063470993908,0.0,0.0,0.1087901118377392,0.030615257604361564,0.0,0.09437297893534828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03800422806677317,0.0,0.1450969561016688,0.07616428782668146,0.04350587989794921,0.049855001577674536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04782413826134035,0.0,0.08098398863920461,0.14716315296922386,0.189060645065248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054742854162885185,0.04996009246313084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934343773540594,0.0,0.03841149046926743,0.0,0.04399826611383475,0.0,0.0,0.0317493034507951,0.06124332429123217,0.04695306408400432,0.0,0.08359954424410837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12978407397618474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825497843714115,0.0,0.11829433708810767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04312270351124591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365161984629788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450090595504297,0.0,0.030774951762227026 schizophrenia,TheTurtleWhoMocks,2019/04/28,"How Long Do I Have To See Things Out of The Corners of My Eyes Before I Start Hallucinating? It's as if little spiders suddenly dart towards me, but then when I look at them, nothing is there. I also will be staring at something, oblivious to it being there, and all of a sudden it pops into my vision and startles me. How long until I start hearing voices or seeing things? Is there anything I can do to trigger a total breakdown so that I can start hallucinating? The negative symptoms are so intense that nothing is real, nothing even happens as it happens, and I just want something to fill the void. Thanks.",5.366602564102563,6.499620307692312,6.35135683760684,75.57524038461544,68.14529914529915,7.559401709401709,34.28311965811966,7.645422480735847,2.6550863247863252,484,23,82,5,8,161,75,117,0.057999999999999996,0.853,0.08900000000000001,0.3923,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,11,2,0,1,5,0,12,2,1,3,2,16,23,16,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,8,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,7,13,1,15,20,2,18,0,0,5,0,2,7,0,2,10,74,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356392052551747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13957679022561528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14432790486040709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11202758071987164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29997587955720056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911658263674628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699964721539334,0.0,0.30020378282926097,0.14243193981094515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4882438456339247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19305637180301466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27031870489683296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611522673835024,0.0,0.0,0.3601582005175518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17629252629358014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15615657485911047,0.0,0.0,0.22536626639838234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10004195785206277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zeroechozero,2019/04/28,"You ever feel like the world around you is fake? I'm not talking about dissociation. I, most times, feel like the world around me is fake. People's facial features and behavior sometimes come off as very odd to me. Family members sometimes say things that aren't in their vocabulary, and sometimes they say something smart that's out of character. Not to say they're all stupid, but I know them, I know how smart they are. None of them go to night school or college. It's odd. I know my evidence isn't very compelling, but I just get a sense of fakeness from everyone and everywhere. Like someone built a world that's similar to the one I know, but I keep spotting mistakes.",3.4063589743589766,5.71114043076923,3.884230769230772,86.50993589743591,75.46153846153845,7.410256410256411,26.98717948717949,8.344100000000001,1.8787948717948724,536,21,105,10,12,168,79,130,0.13,0.777,0.09300000000000001,-0.6007,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,5,0,6,10,1,0,5,0,5,1,1,2,2,27,16,9,0,1,7,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,7,0,1,6,0,0,2,5,5,0,1,0,5,17,5,15,16,3,13,0,0,0,0,11,8,0,2,6,63,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788599903167302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13491909027550827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14167682686183214,0.0,0.14966247778325725,0.0,0.0,0.14765268123284836,0.0,0.15838922409414788,0.22378672725815013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818304142181249,0.0,0.0890139408568781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13921603438738592,0.0,0.0,0.34430934595304263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295580776641904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14698252034303316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10613356356604718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858447362236448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3736649031691506,0.0,0.15851347427451892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327083669916579,0.12057804289498045,0.4647201852599116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12588972856356406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040550924911571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09132964992466557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584650548519861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anonventing,2019/04/28,"What are your visual hallucinations like? If this doesn't belong here or if this has been discussed before, please let me know mods and I will take this topic down. I'm not diagnosed schizophrenic, but I do have a history with psychotic depression. My official diagnosis is either BP2 or MDD - I'm in the middle of being re-evaluated. I'm not currently depressed and I don't feel hypomanic. My next therapy appointment is in 4 days and my next psych appointment is in 8. My hallucinations have always been auditory and only ever happened when I was *badly* depressed. In February/March, I was put on Cymbalta to try and help me manage my truly awful anxiety. But it made me dysfunctionally depressed and then psychotically depressed when I was withdrawing. I think it messed me up more than I realized because I've been seeing things like shadow cats or not-solid spiders (idk how else to describe it) out of my peripheral vision ever since. They've become more frequent over the past couple of weeks, but I'd thought they were basically tricks of the light or just my eyes doing funny things when they were tired because they have a sort of dream-like quality about them. That is until about an hour ago when I saw my cat out of my periphery walking in the opposite direction as me upstairs, only to see him laying on the sofa when I got downstairs. That was solid and I really thought it *was* my cat. Needless to say, I'm kind of freaked out. Is this what visual hallucinations are usually like? Was it not just my eyes being funny and I've actually been hallucinating?",5.421512059369206,7.164543785714287,6.7599134199134205,70.39948051948053,68.62585034013605,9.9713048855906,30.71057513914657,10.230975488527342,3.4668489795918362,1259,51,214,34,22,427,163,294,0.07400000000000001,0.785,0.141,0.9643,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,4,0,13,13,1,0,8,1,31,5,2,2,2,38,47,26,0,2,15,0,1,3,0,1,3,1,1,0,15,12,0,0,6,0,0,2,5,9,0,0,17,8,33,4,30,26,3,35,0,5,5,0,9,14,0,7,22,152,48,2,0.0,0.0,0.12072244022996062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096608381708064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10293605517300417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09463728272154172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103292105612383,0.1508240929866649,0.1366272123625901,0.10526751027535514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13688199733856574,0.0,0.07978227004184392,0.0,0.5327532325270555,0.12556234449995252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10334325357632597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22380430483132407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06255114364209646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09894163540900346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10939573332748108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291974209315142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182874995002865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12882420834564706,0.06798740090810505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12650114993950987,0.0,0.1813143586288563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11705673927225485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631325069897925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881730079872008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11809453337047128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357956719931031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12436202421158188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925135105624416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837860778647582,0.0,0.0,0.1971606050324799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10233361872076666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301400449930937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14147237613068822,0.0,0.16437393577323509,0.07926792999717212,0.0,0.19642274564756,0.0,0.14218565223656096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399050026881746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13624832626307445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09923214559039524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HorrorOil4,2019/04/28,"How can I perform first aid on my brother's psychosis episode? How can I convince him to seek help for his self diagnosed schizophrenia? My brother is 21 and experiencing some form of psychosis. He's heard voices for five years and comes up with ideas that are really 'out there', and sometimes he becomes paranoid about the supernatural. He has self diagnosed schizophrenia and thinks the only problem with it are people who are prejudiced against it. He finds his voices helpful and has a community who find his borderline delusional ideas genius. Right now he's laying on the couch sobbing because voices are threatening him and showing him visions of us being torn apart by long claws. He is scared of his fucking mind. I've tried to calm him down with tea and a soothing voice, but it's not something I'm skilled at. He doesn't like doctors and I can't force him to go. He has a lot of reasons. He thinks doctors overcharged him and still didn't fix his neck problem. He thinks psychiatry is a scam. I want him to get medicated to avoid episodes like this. Assuming he recovers from this on his own, it could happen again at work or some other inconvenient time.",6.124235474006113,7.489888151376149,5.829376146788992,79.15430886850156,66.56880733944953,8.565626911314983,34.25810397553517,8.841846274778883,2.9246981039755355,939,43,168,15,15,291,132,218,0.146,0.8029999999999999,0.051,-0.9701,0,1,1,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,0,4,7,10,1,2,7,0,17,8,1,3,0,37,28,13,0,4,3,2,0,2,0,0,5,5,1,2,10,14,1,1,9,1,0,2,4,6,0,2,2,6,20,4,26,24,5,19,0,1,0,1,34,10,2,5,9,105,30,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08562262023132168,0.15512614312118553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12099315748399947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11214523617641288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851262480835701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875318711778229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25675431515935404,0.1194745176358381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12985226040754946,0.07338413099478035,0.0,0.07982619614744578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12420760031295545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18829367235243427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3171226638224475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13724253346125392,0.0,0.0,0.12430196562848644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11941338284406608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14149785968208098,0.0,0.0,0.14182374430564965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10682554545246346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09737671882073796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26880095614851274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998175556617342,0.14441544363639588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11995138318895432,0.0,0.0,0.1406241552897662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29305914218891976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813234882708928,0.1389177332042163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11217089280276682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700017377437546,0.0,0.0,0.0819028848603165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09536257192266373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16895511464532675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08284647108131983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225596521398027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09045111502295453 schizophrenia,Pokewars9,2019/04/28,"I need help A few weeks ago it dawned on my that I have experienced hallucinations (visual and auditory) along with delusions my whole life, but recently it’s gotten a lot worse (probably because of stress) When I was 7 years old I remember looking to the foot of my bed (completely awake) and seeing three people with their faces melting off of their skulls. I usually see shadowy figures moving around or dark figures standing near me. The other week I had a hallucination of a man standing next to my bed and pulling himself up on my curtain then yelling at me to open my eyes when I closed them. I often hear whispers or people talking in another room. Sometimes I hear laughter near me when I’m alone. One time in the middle of class I heard the the clear sound of my childhood swing set. During bad episodes the voices will tell me to hurt myself, and sometimes I listen. The delusions are bad, but I don’t realize they are delusion until long after I recover from them. A few months ago around Christmas I had a somatic delusion where I thought I had leukemia. My shit brain looked for any validation for my delusion that I stopped eating to show symptoms of weight loss and paleness (I am already really skinny and I was very aware that I was already underweight) and I purposely hurt myself to show bruises. I lost a lot of weight and it took me a while to recover. Even when I went to the hospital for an unrelated issue, I got a blood test and it said everything was normal but I thought the doctor was lying, either she was inexperienced or just trying to kill me. I currently am afraid that my life is a simulation, made to specifically target and torment me. I feel like if I focus I can find errors in the simulation. Like food has no taste if I focus long enough. I almost had a panic attack (this isn’t an exaggeration I often have panic attacks) yesterday because I thought (and still think) my friend is part of the system and it trying to torment me (the reason why is a long story). I feel like I’m being monitored in the simulation I’ve covered up my phone camera and web cam on my computer. I’m constantly looking for cameras and feel like I’m being watched. I feel like everyone is part of it, even my family. Everyday I am more convinced that this is the truth. I had an episode the other day. I just wandered around my neighborhood hallucinating. I almost climbed into a small tunnel because I heard someone calling my name. The whole world was distorted. I walked into the woods near my house because I saw a man walking through them motioning to me to follow him. I am going to see a psychiatrist for the first time next week (mainly for dysphoria and depression) and I’m going to bring all of this up. Can anyone help me? Do you think it’s schizophrenia? Any advice?",5.3352250568325355,6.5406165775700975,6.172179843394798,76.56500378883558,68.27102803738319,8.923970699671633,32.029552917403386,9.21561531244674,2.895668350593584,2219,94,400,42,37,731,262,535,0.13,0.7959999999999999,0.07400000000000001,-0.9881,1,1,0,0,1,5,52.0,0,1,6,4,15,23,4,4,36,0,34,17,8,2,3,66,72,31,1,4,11,0,6,5,1,1,4,10,4,2,17,26,6,1,15,2,0,12,3,15,0,3,25,27,82,8,59,44,13,77,0,5,9,0,26,27,1,11,39,283,99,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07121053234402172,0.12919481773972835,0.0,0.14594332039441293,0.07547432362107331,0.1608340645015252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09911211102613993,0.0764135658010413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0509544102194734,0.0,0.0,0.1946169323567465,0.0,0.16580683650361056,0.0,0.0,0.1216916173644313,0.17769051859535615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08135023162622336,0.07441135544691818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0764058254333046,0.0787496918476116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046996977265772164,0.0,0.06276530247687594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07458847785236107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456714625925354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07529716244695317,0.0,0.09626369641379033,0.0,0.0,0.06963315720314192,0.06549344328878655,0.0,0.06869806324229202,0.0,0.14738686548546912,0.2082415925481448,0.0,0.0,0.0666044896912239,0.061985632243814835,0.08811817254818842,0.0,0.05630140426892556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828306711042783,0.0,0.05828309707804076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16426605801784086,0.0,0.0976903071820758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08408551635807279,0.15602384478427506,0.0,0.0,0.07606035098183532,0.0,0.0,0.08062304176888441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10294453675371508,0.1780100346014479,0.0,0.0,0.19347060982783493,0.1835845904037629,0.0,0.07954935398730692,0.12390782872249632,0.0,0.06895407853772864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05816643545018061,0.07745233594767575,0.0,0.05403431518356118,0.0,0.0,0.1550022635655642,0.0,0.0713999474226976,0.0,0.0,0.07646782623774008,0.0,0.049380547654884435,0.0,0.0,0.17100124045514334,0.0,0.15782844951242822,0.0,0.1010417552022165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07856928708820038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04668423124484405,0.07492545487279555,0.07195317493025012,0.0,0.08255076431515124,0.0,0.06931879407753001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17421074508579856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480296138480619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06174495249427271,0.0,0.1441462781006947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05819637398265614,0.06092498849312826,0.08347563478867549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07574282208941373,0.0,0.05857245843559183,0.06369410680293726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933879946516452,0.0,0.17355877390121896,0.08498552161781196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08096444807286457,0.09895180043396054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08025917899461693,0.06012775567598031,0.0,0.0,0.17536267974950984,0.17747906508117978,0.0,0.06755388738233155,0.06575643715423292,0.16271993023379352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07426368772017786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04692774378001801 schizophrenia,villainsystem,2019/04/28,"Starting over? So lately I've been wanting to Start Over, rebuild myself (I get the urge every so often, probably every two years on a good lapse, 4-6 months on a bad one). I've wanted to start my twitter from scratch, (maybe keep the same handle, i like it, lol) but I just want to start over and become a new version of myself. I have taken into account that this might be my DID but it mostly feels like a side effect of my schizophrenia. I've been pushing my friends away and isolating myself for reasons I can't tell them. They got mad and blocked me even though I told them it was me, and not them. But that's besides the point. &#x200B; I feel very ready to, and want to reinvent myself into the person that I really want to be, but I feel like I can't become that person until I let go of who I am in the now. All the coin flips keep coming up tails, which means 'No', but I feel like it's right. Am I allowed to do it anyways? Should I do it anyways?",2.27055,3.617061555,3.5630000000000024,91.78150000000002,75.95,5.6000000000000005,22.5,5.602791699666715,0.16989999999999972,741,20,161,3,16,242,114,200,0.047,0.82,0.133,0.9323,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,4,1,10,8,1,0,10,1,16,0,0,3,1,37,38,14,0,6,7,0,5,4,1,2,0,0,0,2,13,8,0,3,7,0,2,3,4,2,0,2,7,5,29,6,23,26,4,26,0,0,0,0,10,13,0,3,14,117,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302693153383337,0.14609278990319055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11296018196424935,0.0,0.10038715172670122,0.0,0.2655695053581188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356762676566036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07941087896567653,0.0,0.2025981706771702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431679017578293,0.25767732568222074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288951425216167,0.0,0.06281529011584658,0.0,0.06832956392442578,0.100843344025745,0.09615903274510114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21373215991577815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13562484402130728,0.0,0.0,0.1229434723717874,0.0,0.23495350939607454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078734389278163,0.13096587806075213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12754518742278598,0.0,0.0,0.09596655722722533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11611902632880823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08147105999804706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20996065582283466,0.0,0.0,0.11365635186311247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12962843480601607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07702251160301136,0.12361661664800705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10267588963269428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3403980708561584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508644888126976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181255101603962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11488505895072773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11744738466331402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992024637811233,0.3545742823075297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14609278990319055,0.07742427353773289 schizophrenia,WillsTaco,2019/04/28,Anyone want to talk among all the selfies? The voices are strong today,2.471538461538458,5.428191923076927,2.3757692307692326,89.60673076923081,91.30769230769228,2.6,14.192307692307693,3.1291,-1.054353846153846,57,1,9,0,2,17,12,13,0.0,0.705,0.295,0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4531131342298354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.520856783681404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.614250555041418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3822210801522966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,goodfella96,2019/04/28,"Will smoking weed cause schizophrenia if I have a family history of it? As the title states; I am wondering if this puts me at a greater risk for developing it. I have been smoking weed since I was about 15. I have moderate to severe generalized anxiety and it helps me sleep and calm down. I am unable to sleep without a chemical component (weed or my prescribed Xanax). It helps me a lot with the physical symptoms as well; I don’t feel like I have a dead weight on my chest all the time and breathe better. However, I have started to feel like maybe smoking weed isn’t a great idea as I have a family history of schizophrenia. My aunt who is my fathers twin is schizophrenic and my other paternal aunt has a son with schizophrenia. My mother’s side of the family hasn’t ever had a history just my fathers side. I don’t exhibit symptoms. I’m just anxious, paranoid, and distrustful of peoples intentions, but that’s probably due to anxiety and life experience. What are my chances of having it occur if I continue to smoke?",5.1151559100797686,6.451665522842642,6.250141406816535,75.31493654822336,68.8984771573604,10.501667875271936,34.37599709934735,10.608840637214634,4.0119560551124005,816,40,148,24,14,273,108,197,0.078,0.818,0.10400000000000001,0.5661,1,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,5,8,1,1,13,0,21,10,4,2,2,26,26,14,1,3,8,6,3,2,0,1,5,0,0,0,10,8,1,0,4,0,0,1,5,2,1,0,3,3,23,6,21,22,3,12,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,6,7,106,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23080322331326236,0.1704201828362635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334166178759916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15496688649847434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13645455961167316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14756251494076636,0.4266304244538159,0.0,0.1525509308736791,0.21553785464668046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16631521500611218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20222626010634007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029390711478326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655145462529153,0.14739764710436282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12824924766458773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15155143105156774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045820043898566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16264431493141412,0.0,0.0,0.15164824697181178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704201828362635,0.0,0.1247865977067361,0.0,0.30192252684857895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10677404830434126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135866409447103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08796320072944748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836974855225043,0.13563435203041085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14541625299694702,0.16359290576721355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mrlicciardi,2019/04/28,"Could anyone offer reading recommendations? I know where I live, it's very common for the police state to mass incarcerate people of color on pseudoscientific grounds of psychosis, even without probable cause. It could happen to anyone and you have no right to a trial or legal representation. You can be injected with a syringe, restrained, locked in solitary, and physically abused. It's not uncommon for people to die of overmedication. If anyone is familiar with recent literature on the subject, resources, or ways to offer assistance, I have to know more. I'm outraged by the way I've seen human beings treated in my city.",8.350117955439053,9.756381311926607,8.99478374836173,58.308899082568814,61.56880733944954,10.632241153342072,36.672346002621225,10.608840637214634,4.465607077326343,509,23,71,12,7,171,78,109,0.12,0.866,0.013999999999999999,-0.9132,0,0,0,0,1,0,15.0,0,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,5,0,8,0,0,1,0,15,13,5,1,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,6,1,19,8,1,13,0,0,2,0,5,8,0,3,2,51,9,2,0.0,0.243830859316635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4316854078248395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21140593094787835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32861766826349703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21358047340092445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13592422738327295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18198192534562904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22619672157532056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817188445994796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28534168167146345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218794839876584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058485265908852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20319559864245285,0.0,0.0,0.17574595761931294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16980064217390733,0.0,0.3266975488987634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19837695029172855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thefishyswa,2019/04/28,"Heres me &#x200B; [heres me](https://i.redd.it/borjzshw2xu21.jpg)",28.67,38.06649266666667,10.350000000000003,31.545000000000016,39.0,15.733333333333334,56.0,11.20814326018867,11.428200000000002,60,3,3,2,1,12,5,6,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.533352051341659,0.5981369363823156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5981369363823156,0.0 schizophrenia,Schizoadvice66473,2019/04/28,"How should I talk to someone with schizophrenia? I have a good friend who was diagnosed with schizophrenia two years ago. We talk online a lot but haven't met in person for a long time due to distance. He's on meds that clearly don't work. He talks a lot of gibberish and occasionally has a few hours where he sounds like a normal intelligent person and I can understand him. We're meeting in person for a few days, and I'm worried this will be awkward. How do I even respond when what he's saying doesn't make sense? I say ok and let him talk. Then our conversations dry up for a long time when he's done talking. I tried to joke around with him by asking him to comment on politics and stuff, and I thought his answers were funny. But he remembered it later and got self conscious about it. I know it's a serious illness and not his fault.",4.1331568627451,5.180450452941177,4.858529411764707,85.46171568627452,70.94117647058823,7.784313725490197,28.284313725490193,8.07648339933343,1.6946666666666663,667,24,138,9,12,215,107,170,0.057999999999999996,0.779,0.16399999999999998,0.9574,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,2,0,0,1,8,8,0,1,9,1,14,2,0,3,1,30,22,15,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,2,2,3,0,4,8,13,0,0,6,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,6,3,16,5,19,12,4,20,0,0,0,0,33,7,0,2,14,89,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195833363237266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12009223735889925,0.1261160590033249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08700125031165483,0.0,0.0,0.136923666847649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380525675375389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910213416768901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042256938781015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131502041827803,0.10789422241242927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328522435373096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07413913995355867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13794741870376984,0.0,0.06590677307081254,0.0,0.0,0.2387697526217831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22937934840568386,0.0,0.0,0.0900487747412027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498467791985588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321762602482355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533761891707858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15281875829983546,0.0,0.0,0.2145605001425573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14073321071433725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143028420116669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15443161635493896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5421494545177105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709788310123967,0.1573260041241576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09159025600369612,0.0,0.13178059180578966,0.1404387411558089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821096309617958,0.13700050635935535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08687308462580694 schizophrenia,ManicHyena,2019/08/01,"What should I do? Hey ummm I need advice, today I had an episode I think I am not sure but it was really strong I was so angry I saw not red but black instead. A bit of about it, I am a schizophrenic and I've tried telling other who dosen't have it but it always end up with shit. But I have homocidal thoughts and have had ever sense in my teens I am in my 20s now but I still have them and they are strong as hell. Today during my episode or mental breakdown I don't know what it is but I was about to go out and go on a stabbing spree because it's all my voices and thoughts are screaming at me to do. Do I need help? it's not the first time this have happened but I will probably lose control at some point. I am not sure I am sick because this is so damn normal to me but do I need help or not? I am unsure about everything and anything. I would appricate some advice because most people with scizo don't want to harm others but I got that somehow not that I am complaning but do I need to seek help or what?",0.2782668254913645,2.2485802374429227,2.2403732380385186,95.95947587849912,84.52511415525116,5.087234464959302,20.024022235457615,6.280692351149826,-0.049723208258884544,788,23,184,7,23,262,111,219,0.145,0.728,0.127,-0.6401,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,5,10,10,3,0,5,0,31,3,1,1,4,49,45,22,1,8,19,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,17,9,0,1,4,0,0,2,8,6,0,1,9,5,31,4,19,33,5,18,1,1,3,0,8,8,3,7,8,140,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754690049112423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11728151564600175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159896665930708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25776504925820143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15388066384162433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580871734943008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12483967688249517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274971536193145,0.0,0.0,0.12667658179982366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119891818463785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16021002648171812,0.0,0.1127304222194955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464143286129747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834270172870629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07746231784318543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15768676025843265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14204423550220888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41804993010772334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381008666823759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771683641393472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13324310954145854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15196771192645972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902960440173085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14468293283877234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256268351566856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656870159978005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231963281425217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09031493344644552,0.0,0.22379677634019648,0.0821889554161117,0.0,0.267207838168084,0.0,0.0,0.09569565449965113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313583739690596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10012668601233876,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DaLucidbee13,2019/08/01,"Speaking my text. Am I the only one who reads out loud what they just wrote , either text or tweet? I'm trying to have kinda a personal convo but I keep noticing I'm reading what I sent outloud to myself .. then i realise i creepy that looks and i wanna know how to stop it",0.8378947368421059,2.953664982456143,2.8132456140350897,91.81355263157896,83.3859649122807,4.5017543859649125,20.026315789473685,5.46131890053228,-0.10607368421052632,212,6,44,1,6,71,45,57,0.055,0.945,0.0,-0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,13,9,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,5,2,0,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,9,0,5,7,1,4,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,2,2,31,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803002110985533,0.0,0.0,0.1733097462130182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648170727961081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3590314487560675,0.0,0.0,0.2136913352195031,0.2398401455475714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753540514105228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6308766219657265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636492051550113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21410396766848408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FeralMuppet,2019/08/01,"This is me and i'm a mess. Hey So I feel followed, watched and I feel like people really don't like me. Like when i'm around people I get anxiety, withdrawn and scared and a few days ago my mind made it up for me that someone broke into my appartment, because my mind makes me believe stuff and sometimes I missread stuff I sometimes have this dark and twisted fantasies just like my partner have. I am hurting and it's itching inside of my mind so I got these wounds that iv'e been scratcing up on body and my mind switches to be loud, fast, slow and trippy and i'm a mess. My partner doesn't think i'm schizo but that is because I am working my sanety to act normal. I love my edgyness but it can be overwhelming and especially when it comes to relationships with most people. I don't want medication I just don't want to feel alone in this. I think the worst part is that me and my so lives in separate appartments now, becase shit happend. my babe is worth so much more then some sicko. Also my partner is a sobering alcoholic with some kind of diagnose aswell(I have ADHD, PTSD and Autism) I would bet on that my babe have Paranoia and a bit of Autism aswell, but who am I to tell. We love eachother but it is. Thanks for reading I just had to let some fall of my chest. I'm really tired and I feel very dissconnected.",1.7036247334754788,4.013078850746272,2.9368869936034123,91.05432835820896,81.38805970149255,6.067377398720683,23.750533049040516,7.310402129719878,0.9752682302771852,1044,38,219,15,28,336,136,268,0.136,0.78,0.084,-0.8608,1,1,1,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,0,1,12,16,1,2,6,0,24,11,4,2,0,49,46,27,0,4,7,0,4,4,3,1,6,1,0,5,17,21,1,0,6,2,2,4,4,8,0,0,4,6,36,8,22,38,10,20,0,3,1,2,12,8,1,5,12,145,53,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13360258696792174,0.0,0.09854391199051256,0.11880500968372999,0.0,0.1151367405377192,0.0,0.08890117857422633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08504337751829792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989632772663414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355342198112391,0.0,0.0,0.12524850580651548,0.0,0.0,0.1213668946458992,0.1234828218994482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09576157070286333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07169429970215009,0.0,0.0,0.11283339460211927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22483995186582967,0.0794185925095284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05808080221110162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889113741475839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11900786964859045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11576458525410473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11367702813761947,0.0,0.21724469126657792,0.0,0.09816356745236578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20066730235472846,0.10519004965814983,0.0742056444129325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11199027759930423,0.0,0.0,0.44899281248912976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08172142663236735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10892124402581058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203843397936008,0.0,0.23121012141694305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299496902388601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11119829519889177,0.0,0.14243440582592276,0.0,0.0,0.11935305561145484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112987731648562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11411257157673592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419246485121104,0.0,0.219896407478684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545220108165561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09716591679006388,0.1023487532308414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14246420230975332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277715056170654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09172541696614503,0.13113978282591202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08093178198050628,0.0,0.0,0.07897070787925367,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dead_g1rl,2019/08/01,"nicotine and schizophrenia hey all today is day one for me quitting smoking, i was pretty much chainsmoking a juul for a couple years after i mistakenly “quit” cigs by buying a juul. i’ve noticed that i feel more of what i call my “hallucination threshold”, i can feel a tingly sensation in my ears/neck before i see a visual or hear an auditory. still going strong (6 hours in so far!!) but i was wondering if you guys have ever used nicotine to suppress your symptoms or had similar effects when quitting thanks",8.138437500000002,7.586310135416667,8.49175,68.37825000000001,62.22916666666666,10.18,37.95,9.3871,3.6943025,407,18,67,6,5,135,76,96,0.018000000000000002,0.884,0.098,0.7955,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,5,4,2,0,0,6,0,6,1,0,2,2,13,14,7,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,4,12,2,8,11,3,12,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,4,8,47,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15872710872557805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19047256607620155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063968608861403,0.0,0.12029931189766105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687311219449003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886348817753456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10601184711855152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846984681125448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102379227065685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836988942612685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371243101893937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123707487250356,0.0,0.0,0.12640059530676834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18977263268437286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5952071607353885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14864383469092934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14896668152637313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19388075379859707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17173589306828094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17681288188280803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611059047751959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20228869310693925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12012209325124895 schizophrenia,throwawaayyyyixxii,2019/08/01,Im definitely having an episode now I feel like I'm in a different world and every noise is scaring me ans I can Hear them so clearly now they are so loud it's like they're real adn in front of me I feel like they should be in front of me but I don't see anything there???? I feel like there's people in front of me talking to me but I don't see anything I can't see anything at all anywheere I trying to touch things but hey aren't there?? Im insome kind fo simulation do you think someone is watching me.??? Can you see me?? 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Hey guys. 20-something F here. I’ve battled a very long time with anxiety, depression, and ocd. As a kid, all objects had “feelings”, even trash, and I was so afraid of hurting anything’s feelings by throwing it out so I basically became a hoarder until adulthood. I also had a very weird childhood that included me seeing “things” in my room and taking regular scenarios and turning them into something scary or later perceiving the normal thing as something scary. Almost like reality was distorted. for a bit of time in college I smoked a lot of weed, and along with that came delusions, disorganized thoughts, writing jumbled weird, aggressive thoughts on paper in hand writing that didn’t look like mine, believing that I wasn’t a woman but actually a soul that didn’t have a gender or name and wasn’t supposed to be in the human body but is, paranoia, I would hear voices (or my own thoughts) talking to each other in my head in different accents. Mostly British but I’m not British. almost flunking out of college, risky behavior, appearance went down the drain, when I looked in the mirror I didn’t recognize myself, I looked strange to myself, I didn’t feel like I was in my own body, yada yada. If you can imagine it, it probably happened. I personally believe that I went through at the very least a minor psychotic episode in college that lasted a couple years. Fast forward a few years to now, and I’m now out of college. I stopped smoking pot, and when I stopped smoking and moved on with my life without the stresses of college following me around (I somehow graduated) my mental health got a bit better. I no longer believe I’m agender or gender fluid (I love being the woman I am), I recognize myself in the mirror, I no longer write incoherently, a lot of stuff has improved. My dad has noticed that Ive gotten better, and mentioned to me that he thought I was developing schizophrenia in college and he’s glad to see I am doing so much better (he’s a nurse, and deals with schizophrenia patients a lot). And for the most part, I really do feel better. However, some things HAVE stuck around. For the last couple years or so, maybe longer, I have “taste” hallucinations where if I see an image on TV of say, a pizza or a cherry cocktail, I can physically taste it in my mouth like I just swallowed it. It used to freak me out but I’ve gotten used to it. It doesn’t happen often, but often enough for me to recognize it as a part of life. I also tend to have olfactory hallucinations, where I will smell cigarettes smoke or other smells. A few days ago I smelled brownies baking in my home at like 3:30 am, and obviously I and no one else in my home was baking brownies. And I smelled it for quite some time. My husband did not smell them, but I asked him to go check the kitchen to be sure something wasn’t burning because I smelled it so clearly. I also tend to get very confused and think something that isn’t happening, is happening. For example, I’ll all the sudden over literally nothing think that my husband is cheating on me and has a girlfriend. I’ll search his phone, his messages, freak out on him through messages while he’s at work (poor guy), tell him I’m moving out, pack all my stuff, yell and scream at him, whatever. You get the gist. It gets very tiring for him and for me. But I cannot help how I feel or what I think in the moment. This also happens with other things, and I’ll get almost violent. I’ve never hurt him or myself or have wanted to him or myself, but I will get very rage-y over small stuff or stuff that I think he’s said in a certain way or I perceived it a certain way and I’ll freak out. I’ll slam doors, I’ll yell, the other day I grabbed his face to make him look at me while I was yelling at him. And last night we were (well, I was) arguing with him about something (that didn’t even make any sense and I don’t even remember what it was about), I threatened to throw his PlayStation controller at him. Well I didn’t want to hurt him, so instead of doing that I tossed it down onto the table and pushed the crap off of the table onto the floor, and in doing so I broke his favorite mug (I am obviously the shittiest wife ever). I can’t control how I feel or what I think in these moments. To be honest I never really know what’s going on, all I know is all the sudden I get very scared, very paranoid, very protective of myself. I’ve gotten this way him for years, but never physical. And now it seems to be getting worse. It’s almost like I feel something pushing me and egging me on to act this way towards him, even when I know it might be wrong or I don’t want to. I just get very overwhelmed and confused. Also, tonight (and other nights) I tend to see shadows out of the corner of my eyes. Tonight I saw a red shadow thing pass in front of my front door while sitting on the couch. My husband saw me watching it, but I didn’t tell him until later what I had seen. I was also watching a movie tonight with him and when it started raining on the movie, I felt a drop of water hit my face (hard, like it came from the sky while I was sitting on my couch) but when I touched my face I didn’t feel any water. By that point i was freaked out enough to just want to crawl to bed and not open my eyes in fear I might see something. I tend to go through bouts of fear. When I close my eyes, I see scary images in front of where my eyes would be looking at if that makes sense. Like they are in my head but almost in the room at the same time. Not all the time—it used to be every night but now it’s just once in a while. The images make it very hard to get to sleep. I’ll usually tell my husband about them so he can help me get though it but it usually just takes me panicking until I can fall asleep to get to sleep. I also have very vivid nightmares almost nightly, and sometimes I’ll slightly wake up in the middle of the night and “see” my cat (I’m not sure if he’s ever actually in the room but he tends to sleep with me so I would assume he is) doing paranormal stuff. Like my cat will be casting spells, or radiating an energy. The other night I “saw” him carrying a glowing ball and he needed the other one, so I asked my sleeping husband if my cat “brought the other one in with him because he needs it”. My husband didn’t know what I was talking about, but played along and said “no he didn’t, he said he doesn’t need it”. My husband said I was sleep talking, but I also slightly remember the conversation and being half awake, so I’m not sure exactly what was going on. My husband said our cat was just laying there sleeping and I must have been dreaming. I also have had sleep paralysis on occasion where I’ll wake up in my head, but not be able to move my body or open my eyes and I’ll be attempting to scream for my husband but can’t. This has only happened a couple times. I’ve seen therapists for several years, but none of them have considered the fact that I may have schizophrenia. They all just want to talk about my day and “how work is going”, yada yada. It gets very old. I’ve been medicated on and off for anxiety, depression, and ocd. Most of the time my medicine just seemed to make things worse. Right now I’m off of all meds (because I decided I was ok without them) and I do feel ok to a certain extent. The scariest thing right now is always arguing with my husband about non existent stuff and scaring him with my erratic, “Jan from the Office” behavior. I also have a very hard time keeping my house clean. I’m not working right now (due to time-abuse from my bosses, so I quit) and I am just a stay at home wife but I’m always so tired and slow feeling that I never do anything around the house like I should and it’s really hard for me to Keep anything organized and dinner ready for my husband every night, etc. I’m not sure what I’m looking for here. I know seeing a therapist is the answer. I know I may or may not have schizophrenia and even if I do, I’m not sure if I would accept medication or even WANT an official diagnoses. I guess im just looking for someone to maybe either tell me I’m just an idiot or maybe to say “oh hey, I have that in common”. I guess I’m just looking for people to talk to. Thanks for listening if you’ve listened this far. Also, Is there anything that helps you when you start to get paranoid about someone or overly angry for no reason? Like when I get angry with my husband? I feel so ashamed and embarrassed with myself and my thoughts and behavior. I don’t necessarily MIND tasting TV pizza and smelling baked brownies that don’t exist, I just don’t want them to get worse. What’s the chances of it getting worse, if my worst was a couple years ago and it has since gotten a bit better?",4.292684288700627,5.144023389821034,5.146319360399018,84.26949334360219,70.41498881431768,7.853346536105916,28.861554259727875,8.008428116539454,1.7896116037701248,6983,254,1417,89,122,2276,537,1788,0.122,0.79,0.08800000000000001,-0.997,4,0,11,0,2,0,194.0,2,4,8,13,93,70,8,11,84,2,123,49,27,15,28,307,274,156,0,26,80,15,19,11,1,14,8,16,16,7,90,92,14,7,40,7,2,26,47,36,2,4,65,77,214,34,208,182,36,211,1,8,32,1,117,99,1,61,91,967,304,13,0.02720042088010879,0.03222805089719133,0.053087374142205414,0.0,0.0,0.026579936478201283,0.0482230638614663,0.0,0.16342375451264002,0.0,0.0,0.2392738342563977,0.0452658583050724,0.0,0.0,0.055491656821950314,0.028522012941180376,0.04161649504491461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08953451503307755,0.07264242422222242,0.05085744347197239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04974337231000614,0.0,0.0,0.09193667937562176,0.0,0.12028280924849685,0.08908744426150632,0.09064060710555803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062220070424082015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06101516983155025,0.0,0.120386993374267,0.0,0.05262606369898445,0.028042439560919317,0.0468553652937411,0.02760785462894897,0.0,0.02841865050524141,0.031174038862555268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.022722461363557104,0.0,0.0,0.056210611799950655,0.030335659387861938,0.10779372874819712,0.04920867587908501,0.04583505547204925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06121607131453133,0.15128685086003418,0.0194319861116508,0.02611666964051093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22737755606217866,0.0,0.07729313010055495,0.0,0.0217546613835589,0.0,0.0599286604040104,0.05386538623077313,0.1443194541210645,0.0,0.09746493760573163,0.0,0.08374643743381655,0.028912775446532236,0.030656851198257368,0.0,0.05469560626701735,0.0,0.08185271978852121,0.0,0.0,0.0627712673944632,0.08735583937392634,0.0,0.029381122166175173,0.0,0.0,0.04835396772417405,0.0,0.0,0.08969183977948486,0.06651592022730833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0384249233592665,0.14617626865261674,0.0,0.0,0.0240715165315684,0.20557352644415144,0.0,0.0,0.06937447540803889,0.02454944181963235,0.0,0.0907824607610113,0.0,0.13663239379562156,0.0,0.03021353570185268,0.05480312481459562,0.02741162663988184,0.057710696213853566,0.0274646711205346,0.0,0.0,0.08672922818349175,0.019995439067418973,0.060506302281957476,0.08391456574198855,0.0,0.0,0.17868026672257095,0.026650637266321997,0.026099537433872284,0.030967859455179582,0.02854226611038525,0.028967560511612107,0.05529512742236125,0.020687145777230437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05891081030298637,0.0,0.018857346985879868,0.02375035834336854,0.0,0.0,0.025713189684705942,0.030664387603985436,0.0,0.0,0.02932665423497917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05786199154396409,0.0,0.0,0.05227585836714169,0.027966562888452187,0.0,0.0,0.061625548904013824,0.0696870324331146,0.12936914545344946,0.04326173285763135,0.05446473290555425,0.0,0.17340171032866905,0.04952448318577518,0.0,0.030728733302535588,0.0,0.022500469233419616,0.0,0.19054045289136973,0.0,0.04609365668602825,0.1675217030867025,0.026901911763388568,0.0,0.0385051957974779,0.028992029527037874,0.0,0.04548153961998695,0.031157990217535486,0.0,0.18682784558427026,0.0,0.0,0.12818037387871972,0.0,0.04090266273539212,0.10931333984900453,0.09509746702518336,0.025042493054606447,0.0,0.06316357022812498,0.1264952569650437,0.0871446569755815,0.02672427541062683,0.10797047931155238,0.1427470573966363,0.06252576491626041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02958624712007813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07047729096068774,0.059914841505846375,0.31420474238456503,0.11230459081584708,0.08636171207701343,0.0,0.0,0.048912890020886,0.050430125330433034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05244047015828443,0.0,0.05940669106850506,0.0,0.11087821069519184,0.07728959430011444,0.02973939023879365,0.0,0.10509707547576563 schizophrenia,rickidontsleep,2019/08/01,"Fear that I’ll never recover, coping with the voice & the possibility of schizophrenia This is a bit long but I’m at a point in my life where I still think the voice speaking to me is the devil or a demon, I’ve been going to therapy & my doctor always reassures me that it’s not anything spiritual but my parents think it is, it’s hard not to believe your parents right? They tell me to go to church so I can be more in tune spiritually and I think that if I do it I might get a miracle but honestly I’m not interested in church, I’m not an atheist. I still pray, but I don’t like waking up on sundays to go to church. also, how does the voice have a mind of its own & is able to comment its own opinions on things I do. It’s really scary & I try to cope with this by either listening to music or being with friends. I don’t like being alone because the voice talks too much & it doesn’t stop. At a point it wasn’t very clear what it was saying but I stopped using my meds because of how tired I usually was and how much weight I gained. I was on abilify, but it made me anxious and I think that was because I didn’t understand my situation, then After a year I was put on olanzapine I asked my doctor changed my meds back to abilify which has less side effects so I could started taking them. But the problem is the voice doesn’t t like that and it has become more active than when I wasn’t using meds. I’m afraid I’ll never recover because the doctor said since I’ve had psychosis for over 6 months it’s possibly schizophrenia. I’ve actually had full on symptoms since February 2018 but after I was discharged from the hospital I smoked weed again like 3 times Because I thought I’ll be good but each time the voice became clearer. Usually my only symptom is that I hear the voice and I see things and recently I’ve been having a lot of sex visions cause I’ve been watching a lot of porn to fill the sexual void in my life but back to my recovery, the voice keeps commenting on my porn watching and then tonight it told me that it’ll be with me forever.(I really feel like it’s the devil due to my experiences in the hospital & my school residence)I really don’t want that to be true & I told my doctor that if it doesn’t go after a few years I’ll probably kill myself. How do you guys cope with the voice(s)? How long did it take you to recover? Do you believe it’s a spiritual thing? Did I make the right decision telling my doctor I’ll kill my self?",3.629923408845741,4.48580993786408,5.134409385113268,83.73117179072278,71.95145631067963,8.596008629989212,27.70361380798274,8.920646497554287,1.9970636461704416,1958,69,417,37,36,661,218,515,0.10300000000000001,0.784,0.113,0.5544,2,1,1,0,0,1,44.0,0,4,2,2,16,18,2,2,30,0,46,15,1,11,4,66,78,32,2,5,19,2,3,5,1,2,10,13,0,2,35,13,1,3,9,0,0,6,15,7,0,0,21,19,56,11,48,48,14,57,7,0,3,3,25,22,0,8,34,272,91,6,0.06356801347663013,0.0,0.06203321135700605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06583729085199484,0.0,0.050835317410770416,0.052893679539942534,0.4821314123044527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07181376131292945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052311058745494785,0.0,0.05942751154960005,0.0,0.0,0.09775975708845526,0.0,0.19375235499192106,0.07020587659976485,0.0,0.1432387657849303,0.0,0.0,0.06939980674533493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06530186045570413,0.06724652944048412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0507538861847554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32532277700348594,0.0556287969706824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06218171492559186,0.0,0.07153168812093971,0.03214189761887885,0.04541300152919423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04911248952476911,0.0,0.03321166336853844,0.0,0.14450866793685732,0.05331783374022577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06294232749070568,0.0,0.0,0.05694445404474272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164577117065822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05650217115181895,0.14065717705427747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979993569608924,0.15528060220147394,0.0,0.0,0.11251138311618246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10808650368831407,0.0,0.06014959136185202,0.042432142609364884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21182919776912676,0.0,0.0,0.06743561672883346,0.06418557240774482,0.0,0.0507393818828219,0.0,0.0934596082693954,0.0,0.09805514167380333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04834633873337097,0.0,0.0,0.14116951239718534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018463946635788,0.14332676785073034,0.0,0.0,0.06853707006412216,0.0608260038493925,0.0,0.06390341114714791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216989155542725,0.0,0.06276574440588506,0.0,0.0,0.10857347235863483,0.060467737744888186,0.050551835749853335,0.0,0.06433422337261918,0.05065547656242488,0.0,0.0663153017247239,0.0,0.0,0.10516823528318868,0.07145311054309021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044993767121528576,0.0,0.10153099535317467,0.10629141130736992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13214301151972924,0.09559046999507544,0.05109356131896129,0.11112249130437107,0.0,0.07269556341783454,0.0,0.12669529061847254,0.1629272650877575,0.0,0.050465902084435126,0.07413403971729178,0.07306208025883958,0.0,0.1214839220485813,0.0,0.04315850843663754,0.0,0.0,0.06617654387557492,0.0,0.10980470734459853,0.14002237204641987,0.052450268499152186,0.03749406133895425,0.0,0.0,0.07740871509199745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08187143303952144 schizophrenia,the_real_bruhcoli,2019/08/01,"I'm pretty sure I was just being delusional I keep seeing roaches out of the corner of my eye, but as soon as I turn to see them, they disappear, but I swear I saw one crawl just now!!! I've always hated them, they played a pretty big part in my childhood appearing out of every nook and cranny my parent's house had. I've never one actually found evidence that there are roaches in this new apartment my mom rented out, but I still feel like I can see them. It's been a while since I've ""seen"" one, but a couple of week ago, as I was in bed -restless as always- I saw what looked like a giant shadow figure roach thingy crawl on the wall and turn towards me and leap! I couldn't believe my eyes! It looked so real! It was like it was actually there. Unlike the roaches where I could almost predict their movement, this giant shadow figure was free will, outside of my reasoning to believe it was just my imagination simply because it didn't disappear when I looked at it. It looked 3-D, it had depth, I mean this was the real deal. After it leaped at me and I flinched, almost not reacting out of shock, I asked my twin brother who was in a bed next to mine if he saw the same thing and he said no. I wasn't sleepy, nor was I trying to sleep. I told my brother about this figure and he just shrugged it off, same as I did, since I didn't want to dwell on a topic that might've been misinterpreted as me wanting attention. I also constantly hear what sounds like my name in public, but I think that's just coincidence, since it a lot of things can sound like my name, given that there is a lot of people making noise. I don't want anyone to think I'm trying to go for a self-diagnosis, nor am I hoping for one, strange as it sounds (people romanticizing mental illnesses these days). But if someone could tell me about their first signs of schizophrenia, that would be great, so I could watch out for those. And so that if these hallucinations escalade, I could attempt to reach out for some professional help if needed. Any and all responses are helpful, thanks for your time.",5.394202898550724,5.562662497584545,5.9176753623188425,82.13094782608697,67.74396135265701,8.556367149758454,27.429565217391303,8.238735603445708,1.6160783768115945,1630,45,332,20,25,528,202,414,0.08800000000000001,0.7859999999999999,0.126,0.9657,2,0,0,0,0,0,52.0,0,1,7,2,19,16,1,2,14,0,33,4,3,3,3,71,69,33,0,15,16,4,1,5,0,2,1,5,3,0,31,14,0,1,11,1,2,5,10,4,0,5,25,20,50,13,49,35,7,46,0,0,14,0,27,25,0,11,21,230,81,1,0.0,0.0,0.17101979650095706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07767476449436997,0.0,0.17548866494010254,0.0,0.0,0.0700741219781267,0.1458229569810295,0.0,0.0,0.0595883799147767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06126982309337691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08191806219156046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053415722961047685,0.0,0.0,0.19744798020053145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946920917616103,0.0,0.27984749127353664,0.0969560062109991,0.0,0.056511231718601077,0.090338096102705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07382830650506814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044306111756008855,0.06259971159096936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07453424945066324,0.0,0.09607689454081184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04979962032143473,0.0,0.0,0.0966074800144906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08651209105799064,0.0,0.0,0.09876036511509947,0.0,0.11746712037687265,0.0,0.0,0.08703194427915624,0.0,0.10110812174616146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778856164372585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21404709193765512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943335772313543,0.0,0.0,0.14899222094833334,0.0,0.0,0.05849073613479459,0.0,0.0,0.09544991403285301,0.0,0.0,0.08830594629064194,0.09295686292548444,0.0,0.1026259870199967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649732362323235,0.06758222735889531,0.0846293037910373,0.09319076824586243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375093661990859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09729780529723968,0.09488993336471577,0.0,0.1214970488249934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782933759188704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19947412285302984,0.0,0.0900936610878983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08335196564699596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20947865918567726,0.0,0.09141256077000567,0.0,0.0,0.21745428541075,0.0,0.08768883375275276,0.0,0.07424484553816403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699778787201159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08258604540294016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658859437480409,0.08067383507429034,0.0,0.0,0.1164290458031326,0.11229383063617107,0.0,0.0,0.0510951638199092,0.0,0.0,0.08372996969042146,0.0,0.11898399532535214,0.1906228757199023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15505146194865238,0.0,0.0702879320236396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062246677776149964,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BunnyCope,2019/08/01,"Soothing videos or music suggestions? Just something to keep me focused on anything but my own thoughts. Preferably something that’s able to distract from auditory hallucinations. I’m having a rough night, any suggestions are super appreciated",7.655263157894738,11.871648736842108,6.937157894736843,58.86310526315794,74.78947368421052,8.303157894736843,41.810526315789474,8.841846274778883,5.399667368421053,204,13,23,5,5,63,35,38,0.061,0.6509999999999999,0.28800000000000003,0.8873,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,5,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,4,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,14,3,0,0.3831652384344473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605655014313155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153123434373909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.340574869299791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3595746199456324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5899586406133609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041903993444903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Forunikarasu,2019/08/01,"I feel a(n) episode/relapse heading my way I want to ask for help. I’ve been journaling about such vivid nightmares every night. My friend came back after a few months now. My shadow friend, the one that tries to keep the demons shadows away. The problem is, I’ve been switched to a new medication and for the most part it’s helping. But now they keep telling me that one day my son will die. I ruminate. Now I get things done as fast as possible. Ruminate on death and dying. It’ll happen. I’m scared. This deep pit feeling in my stomach came back after all this time I thought I was doing well. I’m scared..",1.342470725995316,3.7931878606557374,2.123325526932085,95.36049180327869,84.327868852459,5.125058548009368,22.648711943793913,6.5431188927421005,0.4484220140515216,477,17,102,5,14,148,84,122,0.106,0.763,0.131,0.0164,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,0,8,6,0,2,6,0,8,3,2,0,1,14,21,5,3,2,1,1,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,7,4,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,3,1,2,7,3,13,3,13,12,4,20,1,0,1,0,8,4,0,1,13,62,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14189869672797434,0.0,0.1426072162080456,0.2334269391663349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3472037247946081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09788891383453888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.315058201399144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15532898481240184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12788559927363485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15349434171330653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234537778039536,0.0,0.07930151583463918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342231739952193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15577543182403486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034768748665976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.269827365800176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15290764649027758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12115351920711336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14659511701903033,0.0,0.1424401523048444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057071946204413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16436860829997382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17111503606605624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452379621548807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039269805685196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13266697765138072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10083935959149323,0.0,0.0,0.1205005147995483,0.08850718585350548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305220495007196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952685886225945,0.12048004730790593,0.0,0.0,0.1364731467673455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CrimsonAndGrover,2019/08/01,"Vraylar: Erectile dysfunction and lower libido? I am experiencing these symptoms, but my gabapentin may be to blame. Anyone on Vraylar alone having these symptoms?",6.9406,10.981232560000002,5.727499999999999,65.13125,83.4,5.7,38.25,7.1686216300943375,4.0372,134,8,14,2,4,40,22,25,0.321,0.679,0.0,-0.8156,1,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4270112990688243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28828491409001505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8570607672596312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MajesticStatement,2019/08/01,"How do I keep schizophrenia from getting worse? My schizophrenia has gotten worse, I'm starting to hallucinate something touching me at night or feel my bed move. I'd like my symptoms not to get worse. Yes I'm on meds but I don't know what to do.",2.033200000000001,4.289483920000002,2.7059999999999995,93.473,79.8,4.800000000000002,26.0,5.6839178017228535,0.5777999999999999,196,8,41,1,5,61,36,50,0.126,0.8,0.07400000000000001,-0.3716,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,0,7,13,3,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,6,1,6,12,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210654370243329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501896177813402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21282066555089788,0.0,0.0,0.1315871129420712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11697575662664793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659581035166825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25448131674895474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22469335476623084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18432861884521248,0.0,0.0,0.16947319490991905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488644514558924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7320135980313646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,1yawaworht_,2019/08/01,"Questions about schizophrenic behavior in kids (long post) I’m using a throwaway for the privacy of people involved. Also pre-apologizing if this is the wrong place to post this. Anyway, some details before I get to the questions. I’m a teachers aid for a 3rd grade kids summer program. A few weeks ago one of the kids had an episode where he started hallucinating people with weapons threatening him, this sent him into a panic attack. He called them enemies of god and said they were trying to hurt him. We got his mom there right away and he ended up spending the night at the ER. And visited a mental health professional the next day. (I’m not sure if it was a therapist or psychiatrist) The following weeks started fairly normal, except he seemed more anxious, short tempered, and as time went on a feeling that everyone was out to get him developed and grew stronger very quickly. There were no episodes until last week when the hallucinations started again. He was much calmer this time, and recognized what was happening. He told me things were disappearing and reappearing, he reached out and grabbed a hand rail and told me “I feel it in my hand, so I know it’s there. But I can’t see it.” He was very calm this time so we went for a short walk and I asked about what was going and assured him he was safe. He told me that the people with weapons were back, along with a couple other things, and said that everything was “hellistic”. Again, we got his mom there quickly and he went to the doctor. This week has been better, but the everyone is out to get me feeling has gotten stronger, I know this because of the way he talks to teachers and other kids (aside from a couple friends), and he has had a few instances where he gets extremely mad at something small for about 30 seconds then snaps out of it. My coworker and I have made plans ourselves for if he starts hallucinating again (get him away from the rest of the class and assure he’s safe and get his mom there for him) and have been rewording how we need him to correct behavior if he isn’t follow rules, because those situations make him very mad. For example if he’s at a table with other kids and he’s being too loud we ask the whole table to quiet down instead of singling him out. Or if we do need to call him out, like if he’s playing with a toy he brought from home when he shouldn’t be, we say something like “Hey, I don’t want to take those away from you. So will you put them away please?” Instead of just telling him to put them away. We’ve been giving him more teachers helper type jobs more often than the others too so we can avoid a situation like that also. He is not currently diagnosed with anything. Since the first episode I did some research on the symptoms and to me it sounded like it could be schizophrenia. I’m not a professional tho obviously. But that’s why I’m asking these questions here. Are we doing the right things? What can we do better? Are there things we should do that we don’t know about? I want to help make his days as stress free as possible and I don’t want the other kids ostracizing him for something he can’t help, and something they don’t understand. And because it has been a few weeks without a real diagnosis, and these behaviors are becoming more frequent, I don’t want to wait any longer, and wonder if I am unknowingly doing something to make things worse. Thanks in advance.",5.853975350679157,6.386389115326253,5.826943262148857,81.91435841444911,66.79969650986344,8.85718938524742,30.94418742366483,8.771748573748791,2.2907801250971547,2693,98,529,40,41,846,280,659,0.062,0.818,0.121,0.9874,2,1,5,0,0,0,64.0,12,2,5,5,36,28,6,3,41,0,54,7,2,6,5,113,114,54,0,18,19,3,6,4,1,3,5,6,1,6,38,52,0,4,12,2,2,15,14,11,1,3,33,13,57,18,76,74,13,82,0,1,1,0,95,30,0,19,38,358,95,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05470428809548398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870271205025356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04196652443326518,0.0,0.0,0.06971740676703185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050784018192306414,0.0,0.1730781922618784,0.07020672431743462,0.2899039920019394,0.04745299943755333,0.0,0.1128578548017938,0.06815645869060785,0.05251267731720093,0.0,0.0,0.10915914374858787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12603044912046582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04927230190229803,0.1365671162540433,0.0,0.07959874022634668,0.0,0.0,0.06263675147887393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06316522059358827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05465883822362009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11793761883894616,0.055463094460224516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361087803750323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05249250617586726,0.0,0.0,0.04767882014450979,0.0,0.19345298189169646,0.05920012383644373,0.035072559213320094,0.0,0.09871403170604934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05457204059522151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06559735823550564,0.0,0.0,0.08272899488879823,0.0,0.061902533852177276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06606436313907528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06123999992645085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101746505721956,0.05030381414591805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12059817738314994,0.0,0.0,0.05461350108408823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058393731941874825,0.12358044860245412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0621915490555205,0.0,0.0,0.2168303282245118,0.0,0.0,0.045365689018935895,0.09151787344283707,0.0,0.0,0.06563180032983104,0.0579128740782599,0.060465014961858965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04181789567856477,0.0,0.0,0.07240616370068778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12835075081859953,0.0,0.06447628665775643,0.0677416449367262,0.0,0.06957141912753617,0.11820677366691155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240759438663317,0.20739591714362052,0.0,0.0,0.0702421819697763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054040451042803,0.11740518228178595,0.0490761496314799,0.0,0.0,0.04917676500875042,0.05618061937660177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05104910607772957,0.1387345678997441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375459679995552,0.0,0.0,0.17472131842385194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069130564714415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058163173712829475,0.0641427765174227,0.046400018310268985,0.04960206139500705,0.053939327126136666,0.056816454409609675,0.0,0.0716528122896756,0.20499476585984747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795492899471333,0.0,0.0,0.17690642825841926,0.0,0.04189864495502632,0.0,0.0,0.06424474840839645,0.0,0.05329966922022225,0.0,0.15275749259510268,0.14559820724751762,0.048984402893314315,0.2475096840065523,0.0,0.0,0.17162394198091224,0.0556858107027863,0.0688996516897382,0.0,0.05948851768611356,0.06692442741087486,0.0,0.0,0.06289017220894927,0.0,0.06747278340010163,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nerfedpsych,2019/03/01,"Risperdal/risperidone - no cum I dont cum, is this normal?",0.5881818181818161,2.873626454545456,0.5004545454545449,101.2706818181818,102.63636363636364,2.2,23.681818181818183,3.1291,-0.27267272727272696,45,2,9,0,2,13,10,11,0.239,0.7609999999999999,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7672135342409441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6413917624022935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,XBoofyX,2019/03/01,"Does anyone else feel too reliant on caffeine? it seems like coffee really helps with the negative symptoms. I don't want to become addicted to drinking it but it makes me stay focused. Has anyone noticed if it make your delusions worse or not, it doesn't seem to affect mine that much.",4.031111111111109,6.503442851851853,4.355333333333334,83.07300000000002,74.18518518518519,6.542222222222222,27.46666666666667,7.554174236665415,1.8057600000000007,230,9,39,3,5,72,45,54,0.127,0.7340000000000001,0.139,-0.0681,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,3,0,12,9,3,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,5,9,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,1,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24544092836343176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148527832832897,0.23068732591481114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24865460483012986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19702562232471127,0.0,0.0,0.2205560680371276,0.0,0.0,0.18807948603741892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11383991252577826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15090972981334402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10999431571322743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005716376928674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655072416109045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25632870474809394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14423344397049298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4099265125735147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23997426710877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340115236921038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13279616261846586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294416584832047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mikey-506,2019/03/01,"15 years, fully recovered. I was part of the lucky 33% that fully recovered. Been medicated with zyprexa which I have reduced in dosage over the years from 15mg to 10mg and have stopped using zopiclone medication to sleep. &#x200B; Not easy, no, I tried ending it more then once as it seemed like I was going to be stuck in a state of psychosis forever. I now have a child, and I'm starting a family while working on various tech related social media projects. &#x200B; I did not picture myself here years ago, but I just wanted to tell everyone here, it does get better even if it does not seem that way. Give it time, question your thoughts from external perspective if possible, correct them as they come up but most of all just enjoy your stay here on earth as much as you can.",8.846485714285713,7.239437420000005,8.264476190476191,73.97700000000003,61.46666666666667,11.771428571428574,38.095238095238095,10.608840637214634,3.8669238095238088,623,25,117,12,7,197,104,150,0.032,0.878,0.09,0.8622,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,3,2,2,7,4,0,0,5,0,9,3,1,1,2,24,21,12,0,3,9,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,8,4,0,1,4,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,6,0,13,4,20,14,6,22,0,0,0,0,10,6,0,7,12,80,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296987631180642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30061337528291393,0.3371280993013123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12268952647401958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11949787934021877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427954701861942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12286770945586024,0.0,0.0,0.0916254618290386,0.0,0.0,0.1325561021452305,0.0,0.0,0.13077602472854524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07247722279055943,0.13307607427601428,0.078839674521905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06777321976272781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794983537052429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019776211641982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14773583625465628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15022386543496272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15638972926614553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554018960647076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525770485780882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13882353053396312,0.14141098160022078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981890984401208,0.14786062931255994,0.0,0.11597892903709538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12125031905114325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11013084132862344,0.08089069874838357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09418404602503576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11981243079209365,0.0,0.0,0.08182262378223898,0.110112135167258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10099224821514187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371280993013123,0.267999860173018 schizophrenia,CountyClareHills,2019/03/01,"Has anyone tried CBT for psychosis? I've seen a lot of books on this topic on Amazon. Just wondering if anyone has tried it, or heard anything about it? Thanks in advance! ",1.96318181818182,4.666794939393941,2.6456818181818207,90.78852272727272,84.45454545454547,4.512121212121213,20.37121212121212,5.985473137389443,0.1856121212121216,135,4,25,1,4,42,28,33,0.0,0.847,0.153,0.643,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,6,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,6,4,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,4,0,16,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5203361658894959,0.0,0.3061914262027231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163304424653903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425627161203231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5052379197786514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4035065874295233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,clubvelour,2019/03/01,"stop apologising for your mental health. hey !! i was diagnosed with a form of schizophrenia almost exactly 2 years a go to the day. i've found that, through these 2 years, i've had to apologise almost every day, in whatever degree, for my illness. &#x200B; i hope this is OK to post here, but i've been making videos surrounding the topic of schizophrenia, my most recent about having to apologise for seeing the things we see, hearing the things we hear, or doing the things we do. [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zri4OYUpNxU](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zri4OYUpNxU) &#x200B; i do not believe we have enough people talking about it. and as someone who is on a good path, i think it's important these issues are shared. i hope this helps you out some-what. &#x200B; have a fab day. x",7.788444444444441,10.056612622222222,5.757962962962968,77.82583333333336,63.51851851851853,8.066666666666668,28.314814814814817,8.548686976883017,2.0987925925925928,644,20,103,9,10,184,90,135,0.024,0.752,0.22399999999999998,0.9801,0,0,0,0,0,0,52.0,4,2,0,0,3,6,0,0,9,1,12,3,0,1,1,20,22,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,11,7,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,4,13,6,17,18,3,13,0,0,2,0,13,4,0,6,7,70,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276739115968843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3695259711003864,0.4144113287118453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12808164562794602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199481062595684,0.0,0.0,0.11538570276241207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174647764633162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09578270673105696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464738051118016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06460858516697142,0.09535178342738558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12083955666050758,0.2562576750374819,0.0,0.07619922001615585,0.0,0.0,0.22582544798184834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186553627714318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07588418712134584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11456557730447722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07881337624542678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088767483051404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11224810250933592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811810305018927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963231124092818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09504395546667782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09137397098982013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265775082157552,0.07284338187273055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4144113287118453,0.14641606015182965 schizophrenia,QMark234,2019/03/01,"What’s your experience with latuda? I wanted to ask what your experience is with latuda. I’m thinking of switching to it from zyprexa. The reason is I am consistently gaining weight and I have a very hard time controlling my eating. I won’t make the switch until May at least when summer begins. What do you think?",2.637714285714285,5.442720866666669,3.8795238095238105,82.51500000000003,82.0,6.095238095238094,21.904761904761905,7.447530270364453,1.1249761904761908,252,8,45,4,7,82,47,60,0.031,0.912,0.057999999999999996,0.3542,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,7,2,0,3,0,10,14,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,8,12,1,6,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,5,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516077342084408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30186119446055176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27539540286807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5265372886618419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24109481760776885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17965173000119647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27671872754827737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3449055743760531,0.0,0.0,0.15693655408588178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22206706745042665,0.1587445877132654,0.0,0.0,0.3277376236093685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mariemagilicutty,2019/03/01,"A dream that’s another life? I have a lot of anxiety based on dreams that aren’t only repetitive, but continue. I feel like they’re another life I need to live, somewhere I need to be but here. It makes me panic during my day that I’m not where I need to be. Anyone?",1.374736842105264,2.9569636666666668,3.7612631578947346,88.4008421052632,79.0,8.068771929824562,21.92631578947368,8.841846274778883,1.397395789473685,207,6,47,5,5,72,41,57,0.141,0.737,0.122,-0.264,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,4,2,0,1,0,9,10,2,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,7,1,5,8,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,28,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4979202510199983,0.18162897287500174,0.0,0.0,0.16601262132639816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531190598949613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200488818481748,0.169615998395411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33539967049181163,0.1159935414395014,0.0,0.20965004507591425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018496864204954,0.0,0.0,0.15848259287854174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5281414268104836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18057191193917868,0.0,0.27856631109798224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WM_Caticorn,2019/03/01,"Hearing voices again but still have to go to work... And I won't be able to see my Psychiatrist until I can get time off (gonna ask but they can deny it as it's not 3 weeks in advance) as I also need to sleep during the day (I work overnights) and I cannot financially afford to take a day off this week. Basically I have been fantasizing about drinking the cleaning fluid I was organizing yesterday. 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I was in school( I’m schizophrenic ) and I was doing the Mental Health First Aid course to learn how to deal with other people who need first aid but have mental health issues. And in class we have to do a group setting of dealing with someone schitzoprenia .. meanwhile no one knows I’m schitzoprenic lollllll so we during this practice I get to pretend I’m the one with schitzoprenia and someone speaks in my ear with a paper like a speaker in my ear , saying all this stuff like she’s a spy and all this stuff about the government and the other guy starts talking to me regularly. So I’m trying to pretend I’m normal . And doing this excersice. It was very overwhelming lol and hilarious. I wanted to say that I was schizophrenic but I didn’t. O well lol ",2.5020694444444445,5.1985105125,3.806666666666669,83.6027777777778,81.375,6.305555555555558,22.63888888888889,7.594959193182576,1.2519722222222227,662,22,121,11,18,216,86,160,0.037000000000000005,0.833,0.13,0.9512,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,2,0,0,3,5,4,0,1,9,2,10,7,2,1,2,23,21,12,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,5,6,0,1,13,13,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,1,5,5,6,13,3,18,16,2,11,0,1,0,0,12,4,0,0,8,84,26,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08791745624324257,0.28108732971018024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478704010911529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712234641830781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13498181521015254,0.12055052573675762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4347168954641433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422864398592149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07491989562712588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320166817902065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4121464317581057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108223586209544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335682020102299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847528241301384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945096324120511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168200263242024,0.0,0.13796678002182022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23101311935267174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649055891845787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121158563772903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10957176080600176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255478853082216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248126233210684,0.08040720228974974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257130495468065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,appleseed666,2019/03/01,"fully recovered. Had to make a new account because of insane people. I am 16 and have schizoaffective disorder. I walked out of psychosis around 5 months ago, and with a recent med change, left a manic state completely. I sleep fine, and my affect is totally bright. I'm at therapeutic boarding school, and I'm doing great here. There are still things for me to work on, that need more time, like sociopath behaviors but I'm working on it. 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I just got an earful from some jerk-off because he didn't want to have anything to do with me for being schizophrenic. My wife bought a car from the guy that was a friend of an acquaintance and i was trying to get a tow truck arranged to pick it up. I introduced myself and the guy becomes uncorked. My wife was all pissed off at me for talking to the guy too. I hate how people hear about my illness and automatically assume I'm a complete lunatic. It just makes me want to become a hermit and write off society ",4.301082375478927,5.980607250000002,5.102183908045976,81.43898467432952,71.32758620689654,7.569348659003833,27.54406130268199,8.167268648758528,1.8114015325670496,475,17,90,7,9,154,78,116,0.141,0.8320000000000001,0.027999999999999997,-0.9009999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,6,3,2,0,10,0,7,5,2,3,1,18,17,6,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,3,3,6,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,6,2,11,1,19,10,2,7,0,0,0,0,10,5,1,2,1,61,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131292765617668,0.19239199156164716,0.1545182587331862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11446251418638775,0.41475321146953015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968726963422989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568572818083319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161787598852948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14507021164186898,0.0,0.19620357593245133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501763825972919,0.0,0.0,0.557763831074175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18538345829823244,0.0,0.0,0.21162981733455852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12533756623463427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603513891382943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509219716980611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12748313135078918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22150257363810075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ianrandmckenzie,2019/03/01,"Any Canadians here that dealt with impending financial doom? Recently I had a viral infection and I think it sent my schizophrenia haywire. Now my motivation is completely shot and I've been unable to perform my work properly. In a few weeks I'm going to run out of money and I'm not sure what to do about it. A friend told me about PWD, but apparently it can take as much as a year to get enrolled. Thankfully, I have a sister I can move in with so I won't be homeless, but I have a lot of web projects and it would really suck if my servers got shut down.",3.6964565217391296,4.5355133739130435,5.304945652173913,82.63220108695654,71.78260869565217,9.57608695652174,29.15760869565217,9.827888789773867,2.623804347826088,438,17,94,11,8,149,81,115,0.07,0.86,0.069,-0.0311,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,5,5,1,0,6,0,11,1,0,1,1,16,22,10,0,2,4,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,6,7,0,0,2,0,1,4,2,2,0,0,5,0,11,3,16,14,3,13,1,1,0,0,4,5,1,2,4,64,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18941046292027874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920341947173612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151921684490485,0.0,0.14552082224362087,0.0,0.1582954453842768,0.0,0.22276648703542795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23679688541377944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29603411034675786,0.20475215123992815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17843393223318849,0.0,0.2750155158843914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625119379465961,0.0,0.2094204622932999,0.0,0.0,0.25643369510682584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17847125961729754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26614807017820674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234205689321861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202773705098612,0.0,0.0,0.1978602551318276,0.0,0.0,0.17936467261469494 schizophrenia,psychospeaks,2019/03/01,"About to hike 2,200 miles I think I can do it. On March 24th, my bestfriend, my dog, and I will be departing from Springer Mountain, Georgia, and hiking northbound on the Appalachian Trail. End goal is Mount Katahdin, Maine. I’ve wanted to hike the Appalachian Trail since I learned what it was at 10 years old. It’s been at the forefront of my mind ever since. For the past two-ish years, I had slipped into a state where I felt nothing at all. Not symptomatic, not happy, not sad, not really anything at all. This did allow me to start and finish an academy I had been interested in and I’ve had a stable job in that field while volunteering in it on the side for the past seven months. This allowed me to shovel away the rest of the money I needed for the trail, although I didn’t really have any conviction to do it anytime soon. One thing led to another, and an amazing opportunity opened up back in December, that would allow me to hit the trail this Spring. I told my best friend and we took it, him excited as hell, and me a bit disappointed that I didn’t care as much as I should, but confident that I could knock it out in my apathetic state. I woke up one morning in late January and I was normal. Symptoms aren’t terrible, but they’re here, I’m STOKED about starting a six month adventure of a lifetime, and I’m sad as hell about leaving my girlfriend and my mom. I feel like I went to sleep with my life a psychotic disaster at 19 and woke up at 21 locked into a career and weeks away from walking across up the country. Feeling like I am, I’m not totally sure I’ll have the guts to finish it when things get tough, but on the other hand, I know Brett will not let me give up on this. I’ve spoken to Brett and my girlfriend about this, but this is the first time I’ve gotten all of my thoughts and feelings in order. I don’t post much, but this sub has been an absolute life saver for me ever since I made a reddit. Thank you guys so much. I can’t wait to share my trip with you:)",4.136963326963329,4.744530884520883,4.95915915915916,86.35643643643647,70.62162162162161,8.388351988351989,27.11338611338611,8.515128840125781,1.6322893620893622,1558,49,338,24,27,506,210,407,0.079,0.807,0.114,0.7947,3,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,1,2,0,4,12,21,2,0,25,0,30,6,3,5,7,60,57,27,0,6,11,1,5,2,3,4,3,0,0,1,23,21,0,1,8,0,1,6,11,7,0,5,20,5,43,14,60,29,11,67,2,3,0,0,12,33,2,0,26,231,66,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07776525194844422,0.11991108120439015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09410433727861164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148803817646666,0.08793185775578899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12000841017849732,0.0,0.1248459308156504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165924397333486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09130308080682516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128449718127773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20688110413055866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734638170305859,0.16339032377567594,0.10979863519835896,0.0,0.0,0.09727021771037753,0.0,0.0,0.08835031042512,0.0,0.059745714312957186,0.10969963816853433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11322932774317665,0.0,0.12173291520377875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11347959088621208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06284646123065597,0.0,0.1289973057466185,0.12108532530103686,0.0,0.11693563085390772,0.1615444924840144,0.11173605362099016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820536935077567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11546584793219017,0.13393107428800474,0.18255397694165654,0.0,0.2521920233339062,0.0847927077852886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11204352006925462,0.10972660867534696,0.0,0.11999622875067945,0.0,0.1549796766500698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21832937908749933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10952038154646024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465173516006431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837866596880316,0.0,0.11443748361007293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16188197058826642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077781379082718,0.11885852459576753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528262589404104,0.0,0.0,0.15194462567948286,0.07327400110698658,0.0,0.09078501534309087,0.06668126056598732,0.0,0.0,0.1092710054867016,0.12705249919643974,0.0,0.0,0.11170811880287976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06744948159723069,0.0,0.0917286012905682,0.0,0.0,0.106008135998603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08123443844486107,0.0,0.0,0.1472816099119372 schizophrenia,LunarWonders,2019/06/10,"For those who’ve tried keto I’m new, but have been lurking for a while. I read about posters getting benefits from the keto diet, and links to published case studies, and want to try it for myself. Background: 30s F, diagnosed with schizophrenia for years. Treatment resistant, including clozapine, so I don’t take medication. See a psychiatrist every now and again as a kind of check in, and she agrees that meds make me a lot worse rather than helping. On disability in the UK, and live alone. I was in hospital with catatonia over xmas, and my cognition and negative symptoms have been really bad since then, which is what I am hoping the keto diet will help with. I rarely cook as I struggle with multitasking and motivation etc. Mainly eat toast and junk food since getting out of hospital. Sometimes I eat out if I’m able to leave the house, which isn’t that often. My questions are: - how did you manage to start keto? I feel like I need the benefits of keto to have the cognition and motivation to be able to start keto! - how soon did you know that it was helping? In desperation of wanting to start and not being able to, I have looked at a keto diet food delivery company. Obviously, that’s super expensive, and I’m also not sure how my paranoia would feel about it (food contamination worries). Financially, I could probably swing one 28-day plan, but then I would need to be cognitively and mentally able to make my own keto food (I’ve got ‘easy’ recipe books, but they’re too hard for me right now) - is that likely, from your own experience? - how did you know it was helping? Was it really obvious/a dramatic improvement? I have memory problems and minimise how I feel, and I worry a lot that I’m faking etc, so idk how I will tell if it’s actually helping, or if it’s in my head because I *want* it to help. I don’t have the cognition or motivation to keep a symptom tracker/log anymore, so I need it to be a super obvious improvement. And a big thank you to everyone who has posted about keto and schizophrenia because I had never heard about it before, and I’m really hoping that it can help me because life is really tough when meds don’t help.",5.308738382099829,6.331587356626509,6.51132099827883,74.77823795180727,68.20481927710843,10.07314974182444,30.96600688468159,10.208560254849939,3.2278657487091214,1703,67,314,43,28,574,198,415,0.1,0.72,0.18,0.9902,0,1,0,0,0,0,59.0,0,5,0,6,22,16,0,1,16,0,36,16,1,11,4,73,68,42,0,16,11,0,4,2,0,4,5,1,0,0,23,24,10,1,10,3,2,0,8,5,0,1,12,7,35,11,47,47,7,27,0,0,2,0,18,12,0,11,16,216,58,7,0.3065714204028392,0.0,0.07479237071352889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07937888360862183,0.0,0.06129126353373675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07600911771038812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0639935826348964,0.14016231928839226,0.0,0.06521742467769151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061193083312037114,0.0,0.0,0.049428301034752924,0.0,0.0,0.07779088460779482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568495493555559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17095408612214755,0.0,0.0,0.06457491100158329,0.07323553250612709,0.0,0.07497141889934712,0.0,0.0,0.11625879119714345,0.05475367099791363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37070737845229773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0800854569458659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061298292682096286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06865694397929784,0.0,0.07865768079756012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4109767216956601,0.0,0.0,0.15224729706445222,0.0,0.08843556451951691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06812369113998516,0.0,0.0798117394670863,0.08424181755905784,0.0,0.0,0.08115371719699489,0.0,0.0,0.05413511515613656,0.07488765524411937,0.0,0.06767704521612472,0.0,0.06436069528828887,0.0,0.0,0.1303180292643769,0.0,0.0,0.10231940184249433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702658682440178,0.07720961327665983,0.0772379713496116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17048911775725678,0.05911169473581038,0.07402214704812488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05193518214892131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07340266914451858,0.0,0.08263396074006395,0.07333686148770527,0.0,0.0,0.08585753825419176,0.0,0.07666359574577597,0.0,0.19639750211992765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06545257948656055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06107443253136475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267995234894366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07580174344733243,0.0,0.16274462195667808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08012375309918722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07223498390148607,0.1593225449494561,0.057625888714728624,0.0,0.06698923352860363,0.0705624436844029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407093528848546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13561782505890574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15566907937498115,0.07810561712991745,0.108889770545209,0.0,0.0,0.049355485850146714 schizophrenia,Tmh1988,2019/06/10,"Seroquel, OCD and coincidences So I suffer from OCD and anxiety, my obsession is that I think I am becoming psychotic. This obsession has been going on for 7 months. It begun with a lot of stress, intrusive thoughts, in which I voluntairily placed myself into a mental health ward where I was diagnosed with intrusive thoughts OCD and anxiety on top of a pre existing panic disorder. The psychiatrist prescribed me Lorazapam, an SSRI and seroquel. The seroquel was prescribed off label for insomnia due to the anxiety and appetite because I was so anxious and afraid I just couldn't eat and lost a drastic amount of weight. I leave hospital, and continue on with the seroquel. 150mg at night and 50mg in morning for racing thoughts. My weight begins to sky rocket, I'm exhuasted during the day, I have horrible restless legs at night, absolutely no sex drive. I can't get in to see general doctor for a month, and psychiatrist will take months as we have none where we live asides from the one on duty at the hospital. Outpatients are put on a wait list for a teleconference with a psychiatrist from the city. So last night I begin to taper. I cut a quater of my 150mg at night and take the larger portion, I cut a quater of the 50mg this morning and take the larger portion. I begin to worry that the anti psychotic was keeping a psychotic episode at bay. Maybe I don't have OCD and will suffer a psychotic break. I worry about this all day. Anyway earlier tonight I go outside to have a smoke and notice some theives have taken my lighter and ash tray full of butts. Weird because only just last night I was discussing in a ladies only facebook group about things neighbours had done to annoy you, I had posted how last year some time my former neighbours were stealing my cigarette butts and lighters but it stopped when they went to juvenile detention. Now even weirder a little while later it pops up in my memories on facebook that it had been 1 year since the last lot of ash trays and lighters had begun being stolen. My mind goes into overdrive. They are only coincidences I know that, but what if this is the start of a psychotic break? What if I begin to believe it was a set up, or planned, or a premonition, or there are mind readers living near me. Now I do not believe a single one of these, but my OCD is saying what if I do. Is this how psychosis starts. Thank you for reading. I've been in tears all night thinking this is the beggining of a psychotic break.",5.861123564789505,6.821781788135596,6.298064516129035,77.02741662110445,66.92372881355932,9.564898851831604,33.022416621104426,9.698958519613793,3.1865175505740844,1972,84,357,41,31,638,224,472,0.12300000000000001,0.8640000000000001,0.013999999999999999,-0.987,0,0,2,2,0,0,42.0,2,2,2,3,17,15,3,6,36,0,38,11,3,2,2,59,64,34,0,4,12,0,2,0,2,2,4,1,0,0,21,25,3,4,6,1,0,5,6,14,0,2,21,4,41,1,58,39,12,76,0,3,1,3,11,30,2,10,36,249,62,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971518133209593,0.09704846576039462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10473407015958032,0.09487558494090574,0.0,0.19357156905158812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11080354209445638,0.0,0.0,0.08719200717767378,0.0,0.0,0.09845484398526327,0.08792765009904867,0.0,0.08791088302523109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08790250362993145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05673959879075927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0448819406801779,0.0,0.09764385165148963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131324973064313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07635652167724588,0.0,0.0,0.04721127159244085,0.28009693481978165,0.0,0.09096124215595124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08609961550430696,0.15171179610565366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09377571394936134,0.14606712084954596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08630335692972403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08657227368294358,0.0,0.17347960090771225,0.0,0.20570622156531185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4836974727861925,0.0,0.0,0.09780368160378153,0.0,0.0,0.11642322355719276,0.19600441113622252,0.0,0.10079128620243842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08975268857850925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822734705637731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863584902852016,0.0,0.0,0.08592848409210893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683152923785299,0.0,0.0,0.06845535163272215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07106169969629543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12160833768050168,0.0,0.0,0.07182062464280163,0.09840415864261123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19377014136426132,0.0,0.0,0.07909000041874015,0.0,0.0,0.057071622248053115,0.11008921422736552,0.0,0.20459748720724444,0.05009203447674033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20921887111375448,0.0,0.07963501526792671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17448187605318952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11064031211884064 schizophrenia,tro_avej,2019/06/10,"My story and a question Hi. So it's not entirely sure wether I have schizophrenia or my psychosis (which happened 2 times) was transient. For half a year I haven't had a single symptom, except for negative symptoms but that could very well be depression or the meds side effects. I've been so depressed, even suicidal because I believed this was a death sentence. But with lots of therapy and work on myself I've honestly come to a place where I feel sane and healthy mentally, except for the depression, which I just can't kick. Anyway I have a request, if someone is up to date on the most important studies and news on schizophrenia, to give me the links to the studies and articles. I actually found something very promising about gut bacteria causing the chemical imbalance in our brains. And that if it's correct, in the future we'll be treated with probiotics containing strains of the bacteria we are missing and strains which destroy the bacteria that shouldn't be there. Google it if you're interested. Anyway, best of luck and hope you guys are doing better!",8.133784033225659,8.27519337055838,7.627032764190125,72.27859252422705,61.994923857868024,11.021504383940933,41.25934471619751,10.637119530657019,4.6239177664974624,862,46,144,19,11,271,125,197,0.19399999999999998,0.639,0.16699999999999998,-0.8542,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,3,1,0,4,10,17,1,2,15,0,18,4,2,2,2,39,25,17,2,6,11,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,10,12,0,1,5,0,0,1,5,7,1,1,5,1,15,10,21,14,4,14,0,4,0,0,9,9,0,10,4,109,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.15515808203850873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09692306148066444,0.0,0.0,0.17913510913410813,0.16685748369657094,0.14061987647163188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774931732700971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16333365950607145,0.0,0.13696178895108754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694612231352778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.410831505399933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10501598216522573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08039363235480973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17433194273605646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15252435691799235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574319723074375,0.1406004727369291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15791984117301502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13517351624770385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17660976180679192,0.0,0.1602315233602198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16611796600466688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17811296576080607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13471759492922095,0.12240361559949953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17391685080093774,0.0,0.14985273833832086,0.3305174079123042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18182686251251276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927123968329146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623782610865638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14295734767878848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11575166908491502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10238881920081072 schizophrenia,probablynotmeee,2019/06/10,Pretty sure my reality is not actually real I need to wake up somehow,4.41,5.605222857142858,9.255714285714287,53.639285714285705,70.42857142857143,11.314285714285715,35.42857142857143,11.20814326018867,4.907228571428573,56,3,9,2,1,23,14,14,0.0,0.667,0.33299999999999996,0.6705,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.4491290801386128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3412630633376872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4682308221598314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5238553146561404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43377194176348655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gem_stonez,2019/06/10,"Advice for dealing w/ insensitive in-laws. My fiancé (been together for 3 yrs.) was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia since about 2008. He has a psychiatrist and is medicated. He is the kindest and most gentle person I know, but to a fault. When people are being jerks to him, he always manages to find an excuse for their behavior. His parents are good providers to him in regards to giving money, a car, pets and a house in a quiet neighborhood to combat his triggers to other voices. But when it comes to getting down to his level, showing emotional comfort and helping him through a delusion/hallucination, they lack in it sometimes. His parents have been hounding us to find a new therapist (he needs one weekly bc his psych. can only see him monthly) but it's hard with his crappy insurance and finding one who is accepting new patients (luckily, we finally found one! 🎉). His mom got to the point of being angry with him, which I found to be wrong because this is his mental health. She said that his mental illness affects them too, which I know it can be emotionally taxing some times. But this was mainly said because she made him feel guilty for calling her in the morning while I was at work saying he is suicidal. This infuriated me because some one who is suicidal should not be afraid like that to go to some one they trust or they might perform the act. But it made me think they only want the therapist so he can stop ""pestering"" them, which is infuriating. Yesterday when I was out, he got angry at the neighbors thinking they were laughing at him so he punched the air but accidentally skinned his knuckles on the wall. He called his dad and wanted to hang out to get a break then told him what happened. His dad did not want him over because he was afraid he would hurt him, I think. NEVER in a million years would he hurt a spider. I wanted to cry because who would turn their child away like that? He finally got a hold of him today and his dad said sarcastically, ""What's the matter, new house not working out for you?"" I tried to convince him not to go over to his dad's because I know he will be even more passive aggresive but of course, he thought up an excuse to go see him. TL;DR Fiancé has sz. I don't know how to deal with his parents. His father is cold and his mom is a narcissist. How can I re-educate them on what schizophrenia is like? And not make him feel guilty for having it?",5.625935483870967,6.391405905376349,6.036075268817204,79.39411290322585,67.36559139784947,8.608602150537635,31.413978494623656,8.648137234880735,2.4282559139784947,1906,74,358,28,30,614,226,465,0.188,0.735,0.077,-0.9967,3,0,0,0,0,0,58.0,2,1,10,3,10,16,1,2,23,0,42,5,1,7,1,73,80,26,2,10,13,10,4,3,1,6,4,6,2,2,22,18,0,2,16,1,2,7,7,7,0,6,21,13,61,9,55,47,7,48,0,2,2,0,91,22,0,6,21,250,83,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07219368857221486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061473233393738135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06941173784871618,0.0,0.0,0.2702156592454988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15087740660099666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06364020342094417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115259534073563,0.0,0.15233197792827596,0.0,0.07498561408767522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16620782735870876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048796372467301535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07471086871734478,0.0,0.0,0.16186163260194664,0.20257216010054965,0.0,0.0,0.16200898635243666,0.0,0.0,0.07719744027664767,0.07087145382115465,0.1259613882334327,0.06196618700134745,0.17726331854178942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06533094196991382,0.0,0.06618105876578366,0.0,0.0,0.07852990574515407,0.0,0.0,0.04951952598216229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17049285777171164,0.1581779617343525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16240783102998374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10828062010822764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13981216283253198,0.04931479580754276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07442530438125558,0.14890527962852207,0.07837392751419,0.0,0.1730523473931123,0.05896950055027516,0.0,0.0,0.05478033086073971,0.056980027311372035,0.2140583506850489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503115593701518,0.11237659359451192,0.0,0.0,0.2461016077673072,0.0,0.0,0.05121838559370905,0.06450827958621537,0.0,0.0,0.06983952011391603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21082749701932907,0.05875153372882605,0.0,0.0,0.11774397094236867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06111345939063448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306820471283186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0617661390914729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161623235912235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17155839036328135,0.0,0.14201601042020326,0.0,0.058651661299519174,0.043079429958359464,0.0,0.07002863882627021,0.07059453566696641,0.0,0.050158980905224415,0.08035912020930658,0.0,0.0,0.08886732182734766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17430295669471385,0.0,0.05926126502309929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075695611643705,0.0,0.0,0.15744453260878033,0.08077507179100404,0.0,0.0475756437753373 schizophrenia,BrushSong,2019/06/10,"You might remember me under another name. I'm doing very well and have been for a long time now. I used to be very popular on this subreddit under another name, back when there were only like 6-7,000 (?) people on it, but that's another story. I don't feel comfortable sharing my old name though. I got on the abilify shot (400mg a month) and I'm doing GREAT! Not even any side effects that seem to be permanent. I paint and write novels, and I just finished the first stages of my third novel; it's at almost full length. I'm doing a series of snail paintings, check my profile if you want to see them, and I just got baptized today. I try very hard not to make art of my old voice, Lucix, but it's so difficult. He's been mostly silent ever since I ""figured him out."" I haven't felt the need to write to him or paint Soul Knife either. I live alone with my cat, Butternubs, in a two bedroom apartment. I am on disability checks and I pay all the bills by myself and I'm going to move to be closer to family in a few months. I used to have roommates but it wasn't good for me and I could afford living alone for a few months so why not? I've lived alone before and it's WONDERFUL. I have many things to look forwards to and while it's not all sunshine and rainbows it's pretty amazing how far I've come. I've come from sleeping until 2pm and burning and cutting myself to engaging with family and friends and going outside every day and keeping a pretty regular schedule. Here's a list of the things that helped, most important things in all caps: ROUTINE VITAMIN C (funny story, I gave myself scurvy and I'll probably make another post just about that in particular because it's so bizarre but more common in the mentally ill). MONTHLY INJECTION REGULAR SOCIALIZATION OPEN AND HONEST COMMUNICATION FAITH SUNSHINE GETTING OUTSIDE EVERY DAY (I sit in my hammock after playing on the water thing at that park or ride my bike less commonly. At the very least I take myself to Taco Bell for my one daily bean burrito.) Did I mention ROUTINE???? Listening to uplifting music Avoiding dark or distressing or disturbing entertainment (have to put good in to get good out, that sort of thing). Decluttering Removing my shrine to the voices (Yes I had a literal shrine with candles and offerings) Eating enough Acceptance Supplements (Lecithin and Magnesium Glycinate) Washing sheets and doing laundry regularly Showering regularly Working even on bad days Interpreting bad days as ""bad days"" and not ""I'm going downhill"" or ""impending doom."" CONFIDENCE Thank you for reading. Have a wonderful day!",4.327609756097562,6.4188998326530635,5.422404181184671,77.47308362369341,72.10204081632655,8.78048780487805,29.70632155301145,9.374367535131368,2.9586316575410643,2058,87,360,49,41,679,267,490,0.12,0.715,0.166,0.9855,2,4,0,0,0,1,67.0,0,3,1,3,18,29,1,3,19,1,23,6,1,6,4,83,55,41,0,4,19,0,3,1,1,1,3,3,2,0,20,30,2,2,10,7,4,10,8,9,1,4,10,10,41,20,57,40,13,66,6,1,4,0,20,27,0,14,29,232,61,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07741544011099602,0.2402115272318615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05257388741521505,0.3242677944260137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059447111325870786,0.19365346952419404,0.04712784957692807,0.0,0.06578566184426908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331925444546858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061726256531421685,0.0,0.0,0.2991538086772631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07910808702831343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0798825592591245,0.0,0.10212589934839088,0.06993190148799465,0.13027509993742667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576318494885152,0.0,0.03909058334188266,0.0,0.07423033990926688,0.0,0.0,0.06576039229126619,0.0,0.0,0.05973000995957663,0.0,0.0807832387635916,0.0,0.13181225781825534,0.19453349470630654,0.12366476517417001,0.08523525534699042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06925514955864227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051819693457983804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0687172505057758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037770074397655784,0.0,0.2048001389142655,0.0684174850340873,0.06492146780131466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10321090725345204,0.07838085624561544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07791094312377789,0.08201437348868237,0.0,0.0,0.24683446630619255,0.08216897709069225,0.0,0.057324861182092214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16224902671879848,0.0,0.052387691595527634,0.05879822672391579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053597464600829835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07404222406316256,0.1573054324659169,0.08335394758324388,0.0,0.0,0.07771854819831615,0.0,0.0,0.07733156300516285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757788617780675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06160657195059922,0.07038070457131503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0639521616769995,0.0,0.07736647446838056,0.07880846320102435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05812798109090876,0.0,0.0,0.07117725181680266,0.0,0.0,0.2568087752456622,0.0,0.07595731289117318,0.0,0.04508045686041105,0.0,0.07328144858584386,0.0,0.0,0.05248885087490282,0.0,0.07552126321408467,0.0,0.0,0.133543144050833,0.0,0.2551575039385306,0.0455998194933948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06951155147597764,0.0,0.06976082918586075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16768018603123164,0.056283067884731385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ww726,2019/06/10,"I dont think i have schizophrenia but i dont know whats wrong everything feels weird. i feel like everyone here hates me. i feel like every single person on the street just hates me and thinks i shouldnt be there. i feel like everyone is looking at me. and everything is just different. i feel like i dont have any control over my own brain and it is just leaking out everywhere. like i just get these invading perceptions, that shift me to a whole seperate dimension of thought. i dont know what this is. doctors have said in the past i have some psychotic disorder not otherwise specified, or psychotic depression, schizotypal and even schizophrenia but i just dont know what this is. i feel like i live in a nightmare of 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schizophrenia,pingviini00,2019/06/10,Why do schizophrenics smoke? Why do like 80% of schizophrenics smoke cigarettes? I myself don’t smoke anymore,5.119999999999997,8.667237666666665,2.483333333333338,87.94500000000002,89.0,4.622222222222223,28.222222222222207,6.42735559955562,1.7237555555555557,90,4,13,1,3,24,12,18,0.0,0.84,0.16,0.4329,0,0,4,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4685953507921497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23084077368736305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8527197279407823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tigers-love-pepper,2019/03/24,"Upstate NY providers? Looking for advice on locating specific providers of medical treatment in the Glens Falls region. Can travel to Saratoga or Albany as well. Or make roadtrips to Boston or New York City. Symotoms include psychosis, depression, audio and visual hallicunations, severe social anxiety. He is in a bad place. We are talking with everyone but resources are scarce in this area. Any advice, PMs or guidance is appreciated. 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I feel so bad, I wish I didn’t have to feel like this because I feel so different from everyone else, I just can’t feel anything, or experience anything because of it.",1.8820212765957445,3.4490886382978765,4.056329787234045,86.90875,77.51063829787232,7.253191489361702,30.89893617021277,8.07648339933343,2.164493617021277,174,9,38,3,4,60,27,47,0.105,0.768,0.127,-0.0033,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,9,13,3,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,4,7,1,4,12,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,24,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4451217944844239,0.0,0.0,0.3693513686483945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18737843035138493,0.2736044699201538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344675113362372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187471216001774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21443961350372573,0.0,0.21952243047125908,0.0,0.0,0.4538869662052827,0.16032321531519472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466669139970327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963858182778753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580679365287228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sarahflan,2019/03/24,"Does it ever feel like you life is just over from the start? When I'm sitting alone with my thoughts and voices, just thinking about how fucked up I am and how I will never get better. It's saddening to know my life can never be the level of normal people.",5.354654088050316,4.934442452830191,5.771698113207545,85.14861635220126,67.86792452830188,7.821383647798742,25.213836477987428,6.42735559955562,0.8315081761006295,202,4,42,1,3,65,43,53,0.205,0.752,0.043,-0.8593,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,7,3,1,0,2,0,5,3,0,2,3,15,13,5,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,5,2,7,10,0,9,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,6,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28473574189497525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431457083111841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405856403140907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486822187316249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13900856104480044,0.1964039606544802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25416047876559833,0.14363512663462571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15108965590600815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3883703442480319,0.1343127485884257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42407278838177376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26936467960592125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19059593878785436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945908389638728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176158583909427,0.0,0.21825694654893935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,edjefy,2019/03/24,"What to do against boredom? I am bored to death the last couple of months and because of the negative symptoms I can't do much. I wanted to know from you guys: what do you do against boredom? What activities? Thanks in advance!",2.1311363636363647,4.757308022727276,2.860181818181818,90.23027272727276,82.4090909090909,5.3381818181818215,29.25454545454545,6.742157984588678,1.527723636363636,179,9,35,2,5,56,30,44,0.29100000000000004,0.653,0.055999999999999994,-0.9049,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,0,3,9,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,9,9,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304674318274551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183263000669396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743478774911002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20777690584620215,0.30817680021553273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017711716467669,0.0,0.2779243108857397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929585849442667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480752586425105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22299496762065604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,UndercoverSchizo,2019/03/24,"Girlfriend thinks I'm getting too fat. I agree. I have been hitting the gym hard for the last couple of months. I've gained a lot of strength but I haven't lost any weight. I simply eat too much and the meds make me nauseous and extremely tired if I don't have any food. Girlfriend told me last night that I was getting too fat. I have worked on loosing weight for some time now and I do think that I have a bit too much fat on me, but her words still really hurt me for some reason. I'm on the normal end of the BMI scale but I still have a tummy and love handles. I have decided to quit my meds. I'm hungry now but I don't feel tired or nauseous at all so I think it will be easy to loose the weight. I'm going to start meditating more, cut out sugar, caffeine and alcohol and of course don't take any drugs in order to be able to cope with not being on medication. Do you have any other tips for me? I've been slowly decreasing my meds over the last couple of months, but last night just made me feel fat and unsexy and I really just want to loose the weight as soon as possible so I just quit the rest. I know this is not adviced, but it is the choice I have taken. Now how can I deal with this choice the best way possible?",1.7286294240111033,3.1919335839694685,3.016377515614156,94.64803608605136,77.66412213740458,6.290353920888273,19.54267869535045,6.980632752743323,0.02413893129770983,957,20,226,10,22,310,127,262,0.09,0.813,0.09699999999999999,0.2412,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,7,16,6,1,0,14,0,24,17,4,4,1,42,47,21,0,3,13,0,7,0,2,1,9,0,0,0,7,11,12,0,8,1,0,1,6,3,0,0,7,8,28,3,27,35,10,28,0,2,0,1,7,8,0,5,17,143,35,1,0.09305653840344373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09093377233194264,0.0,0.09944913925282467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25312654863605605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765709592223244,0.0,0.10159363850441958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059305795595247,0.0,0.0,0.09593720499506113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10791604105235787,0.09522007037700343,0.0,0.0,0.08242047238152131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09410436370582384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252433561503217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097236401097632,0.0,0.05288617526344611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833603802425863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961894900199213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05114143986780945,0.3034139955581531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10158220429652733,0.0791133412173034,0.08398715907893657,0.08805234665030713,0.0621159619801617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31009450821395085,0.09374467239710113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485536822849326,0.0,0.1368145258981412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17465451493767986,0.09117564986148192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20981453009611967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19795416629557291,0.0,0.0,0.1192288027001894,0.0956776200233254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0658658968413321,0.0,0.1486301435500424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06996693585029372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788806170517762,0.0,0.0,0.05426201588390659,0.21390960344990845,0.0,0.0889195102948344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05488715736212485,0.07386394875932528,0.0,0.4532711767919517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06774626825573035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TophSauce,2019/03/24,"What to do with the rest of my life? [Advice needed] Greetings folks. &#x200B; I'm in a bit of a predicament right now. I have been diagnosed schizoaffective/bipolar with PTSD. &#x200B; I have the means to support myself for the rest of my life. I am currently in school but loosing my drive to finish. I began at a state university this spring semester and have been put off by the work load. The work load basically tripled from community college to the state level. &#x200B; Question is - what the hell do I do with the rest of my life? I have a plan in place, but it's not really academia based. I have filled my days with the gym, and church activities four days a week (for about two hours per event) just to get me out of the house. I have many unread books that I have collected over the years as I either liked the subject or thought it was something I could learn a lot from. I have been tossing up the idea of getting a part time job but fear that will only interfere with my mental health as last time I was employed I experienced a stress induced psychotic episode and was hospitalized for a week, this event took place before there was a diagnosis or medication in play. After the medication and receiving benefits I gained about 70lbs and I am planning scheduled exercise and diet restrictions to loose the weight I put on. The problem is I don't have the motivation to keep any type of schedule. &#x200B; I'd love to hear any input about this, as I am perfectly happy to resign my life to that of a hermit. &#x200B; Peace and love folks, Toph.",4.442544593088073,6.3466190000000005,4.817913879598663,82.71019300445934,71.37458193979933,8.060256410256411,28.51184503901895,8.72156446121922,2.1866955406911925,1247,48,237,23,24,394,161,299,0.084,0.775,0.141,0.9655,3,0,1,0,0,0,48.0,0,0,0,7,6,13,1,2,28,0,27,13,0,2,1,36,40,15,0,3,8,0,1,1,0,1,9,1,0,0,10,13,2,3,7,4,0,6,2,5,0,2,10,3,28,8,46,28,8,41,2,1,0,2,5,14,1,4,20,164,38,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07429490680002103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.411888323173356,0.4619193253964656,0.10340499935974123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06469529509166669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300425365185808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060703172534124626,0.0,0.0,0.09806515780488696,0.0,0.0,0.07716809211671588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555404781923544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944429414791111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08093455433701588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081554141003026,0.08569049457377703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07487349998161041,0.08772755090320737,0.0,0.08582777313078632,0.0,0.0,0.07544730280506226,0.06757829403439275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061973989266407375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148068414020412,0.03714405297882421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06463735267598845,0.13723873971466702,0.0,0.0,0.07708173000298463,0.0,0.08281814603426534,0.0,0.15318294886782344,0.07661960547261669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05637472826591869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0578236734590493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08233227277581283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15886877625917953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07274972782951232,0.08887412899569629,0.1528607988071492,0.08517016427204943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048706286769635385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06492856725515968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07694566376692591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05853103396247096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709125325360517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862770961274784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0603587348990401,0.08866653850364853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08447129835553893,0.0,0.0,0.07426953339614799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197216263131938,0.09258314862371683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11070040441598787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4619193253964656,0.048960346674959285 schizophrenia,Yeahokwhatit,2019/03/24,"Medicine advice please Hey, I need to start taking something but have no idea what. I'm taking adderall because it has helped me but I've been so depressed lately. I want to take something an antipsychotic to make the radio stop but don't know which one. I'm concerned about work so don't want to go the abilify route I've heard too many stories. I need to take something or my paranoia is going to get way worse I can see that one coming.. I have zyprexa does anyone have experience with it? 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Hi all, I’m hoping this post is ok. I’m not sure how to deal with this situation and I’m hoping I can get some advice. My boyfriend was diagnosed recently, within the last 6 months. He has been taking his medication on and off. The longest he took it consecutively was 2 weeks. He just told me he hasn’t taken his meds in 3 days and he refuses to take them anymore. I really want to be there for him, but he really needs to take his medication. How can I talk him through it? To understand he needs it? Does anyone have a similar experience and how did your loved one get you back on track? ",1.670733173076922,3.8867878281250015,3.921875000000004,84.48177884615386,80.875,8.000961538461539,22.346153846153847,8.841846274778883,1.649792548076923,494,16,106,13,13,170,83,128,0.012,0.887,0.10099999999999999,0.878,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,1,0,6,5,0,0,3,1,12,5,0,3,2,21,31,8,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,5,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,7,0,15,5,13,22,2,13,0,0,0,1,22,5,0,3,6,63,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14249334945240094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461398613484525,0.10196054351156612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11212636905564696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09404166047215938,0.150333735489887,0.0,0.14800395330140115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12760782565391604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14263967349982934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523695776143625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896637820562058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188625397063562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13160799669085532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16197284385865587,0.4406941014528439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11639191479375215,0.0,0.0,0.21624695961197235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09881122077763976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13965499005490087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18683170193283136,0.0,0.1439793884704278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16390748261944296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13743336687820287,0.0,0.4385531484973922,0.11720437291253726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13933699800032834,0.1620110819665289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518034782902748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600825297228812,0.0,0.1169677891922785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Fieldzzz,2019/03/24,"Don't mix I take a certain medication for my depression that shouldn't be mixed with drugs, Unfortunately I was taking weed almost everyday before I got the medication. Only those who have taken drugs understand how hard it is to stop. I remember the doctor telling me that mixing my medication and weed can cause Psychosis. I tried stopping but I lack self control and continued taking my daily hits along with the meds. At first I was fine, but slowly I started to lose touch with reality. It almost feels like I'm looking at my life through a television screen. I lack any sort of empathy, emotion or motivation to do anything. On the plus side I no longer feel depressed, but I almost miss that feeling because at least then I actually felt something. I feel detached from my own body. About a month ago I had my first hallucination. I was walking down the road to my local 7/11 to get a snack at around 10pm. That's when I noticed a figure standing at the very end of the road. I find it hard to describe him so bear with me. He was unnaturally tall and completely black despite the street light shinning on him. He looked like a shadow and he just stood there. I couldn't tell if he was staring at me or had his back turned to me because of how far away he was. I stared at him for an eternity. He would randomly teleport every couple of minutes to a different spot on the road witch was sometimes closer and sometimes further away from me. His posture never changed. Since I don't feel emotions anymore I didn't feel scared and decided to walk down the road. The closer I got the lighter the shadow grew till he vanished. Since then I randomly see him in the corner of my eye or standing behind people for split seconds. Emphasise on the split seconds its just a flash then he's gone. Basically I think my weed mixing has given me psychosis but I haven't officially been diagnosed and I'm not entirely sure what happening to me and I have no one else to talk to. &#x200B;",3.9969598563968662,5.998808195822456,4.913843831592692,81.15042632180159,72.78590078328982,7.711781984334205,29.462222584856402,8.472884824447931,2.299569255874674,1581,67,294,28,32,514,208,383,0.10800000000000001,0.851,0.042,-0.961,1,0,3,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,5,10,11,0,1,24,0,24,11,2,5,3,60,53,25,0,6,11,0,10,2,0,2,8,0,0,1,11,15,1,3,14,0,0,4,10,6,0,5,18,19,48,5,49,30,4,54,0,4,8,0,19,30,0,10,20,196,59,2,0.0,0.0,0.08924086134208749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106386546872753,0.0,0.2747183648111774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908476345151274,0.11112033169080096,0.062188336770058784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09069266115802077,0.0,0.0,0.07525459085614879,0.08140884233858549,0.0,0.0,0.17183836240020345,0.07031850146334298,0.0,0.11149270958763044,0.0,0.07781621437087481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157902867829556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394313379601728,0.09674073094487758,0.0,0.09588235290412676,0.0,0.10256763305179917,0.0,0.10118638524411908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575294775782594,0.0928186321777712,0.0,0.09554455801388922,0.0,0.093601747189611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21210320734881846,0.0,0.07639375865396306,0.2057352384236876,0.08099651531343596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770495790398517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27743564125709097,0.06533105870130188,0.08780521288782353,0.0,0.08358256912161463,0.15557264729702744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04777823654098294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627995838511773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086789374616092,0.0,0.16384036926161233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06459300941122394,0.08935455306627471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358796169469713,0.10230784323496694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157902867829556,0.2763752102105347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07299357947356594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07053097131817551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411509314052976,0.0,0.0,0.06196809039093053,0.06955095209358485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06339910062753111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10359369160248058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915562269898414,0.0,0.07287287343724097,0.0,0.09540106850209673,0.0,0.0,0.1512948257423899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07040177310759765,0.1808904521126045,0.0,0.06472794886987612,0.0,0.0,0.15291062466113145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861894351108514,0.0,0.20627440588303644,0.07350310134514586,0.15986060727066825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05859671438281895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06208774917293225,0.09947006117887984,0.0,0.09520145172093793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545485774628463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06496262133484541,0.0,0.11112033169080096,0.0 schizophrenia,bees1280,2019/03/24,"today i found out we have a camera in our living room. its been there for months. i know my parents have it there in case something happens, I don't really go out into the living room but my anxiety is BAD right now. what if theres more cameras i don't know about?? ive always suspected theres one in my vents and this just made it ten times worse. i have never been able to shake the idea that im constantly being watched.",1.7553089887640458,3.5395571573033737,3.200435393258428,91.93188904494384,78.5505617977528,6.247752808988763,20.11376404494382,7.1686216300943375,0.3384707865168544,333,8,73,4,8,109,64,89,0.18899999999999997,0.8109999999999999,0.0,-0.9502,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,2,0,0,0,7,2,0,1,3,0,10,0,0,1,1,15,16,3,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,5,0,0,5,0,0,2,3,2,0,2,4,1,11,0,9,11,1,17,0,0,1,0,3,9,0,1,6,51,17,0,0.21797581371122532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18137333868610564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16675090086304867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18200069959305185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.235554417295332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23899922884881405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12388067818668755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927552921886569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460681615727393,0.2354512836455543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23958761331137005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3849532740180907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062539853682468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739862148937334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681163853167638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477060526291248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420363454279259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964088785311596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18615015390977474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16780843072963975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12710344989007527,0.0,0.20661558415532888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22213597636648466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wellwellwell583837,2019/03/24,"I believe I was misdiagnosed Any websites would help, I need to find an appropriate way to handle the situation. I know if I see that psychiatrist again I’ll act in a demeaning manner I however have a new psychiatrist to which I indeed need to convince I’m not suffering from schizophrenia.",5.904444444444442,7.704672222222222,7.5935185185185174,64.66583333333335,67.51851851851852,11.325925925925928,35.72222222222222,11.20814326018867,4.7694222222222225,236,12,39,8,4,82,40,54,0.0,0.846,0.154,0.7394,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,8,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,7,1,6,6,0,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,2,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208228024775649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658516676722397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967909757733865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176550088934205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784592905833018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4815560393277492,0.0,0.3136195355804228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25876222090493506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3650023024047682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25775003459704426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23067393090911656,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,YungFatigue,2019/03/24,"Girlfriend/lover of 7 years is convinced I cheated on her. Help Let me start by saying she’s accused me half other heinous things in the past and been diagnosed. Her current delusion is that I’m sleeping with my tenant next door. She cannot and will not be swayed. This will end our relationship. What do I do. 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My parents brought me to the emergency on 3 other occasions, most times I would talk my way around things, and walk away with sleeping meds, but this time they kept me locked up for 5 months it came as surprise I wasn’t exhibiting suicidal thoughts, and even patients who tried to commit suicide were being discharged after 2 weeks, whilst I was not and kept there as an experiment seeing how my sister too was a schizophrenic. My psychiatrist didn’t dare taint or hinder the dignity or image of her other patients, but for me after a week in her care she presented to my parents I was a schizophrenic and as you know that diagnosis doesn’t come that fast. Sometimes I believe it’s my fault and I’m genetically responsible my image is tainted and plagued by schizophrenia if only I didn’t talk in an erratic way that morning at the hospital, but I did and I’m responsible for my fall and my image is hindered I think I’m ruined. 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Last summer I was hospitalized in Torrance, CA and the hospital really sucked. I remember going to a hearing for if I am going to be discharged or going to be stuck there. The social worker started reading off the notes in my file and there were several things that I have not said or done. For example it said that I said I will never have a supportive family when I indeed have a very supportive family. Despite that I was ordered to be kept for treatment because of my history of suicide attempts. Anyway, before they discharged me, they really pushed me to get the Invega Sustenna injection. I have been perfectly compliant with my medication, never refused to take the meds or anything. The psychiatrist said it absorbs better than the oral pill, and will help me think more clearly. I ended up getting the injection because they made it seem like they won't discharge me if I didn't get the injection. Out of hospital at the pharmacy, I found out the injection costs thousands of dollars ($3000 I think) and is not covered by insurance. The hospital did not reply to any faxes either. That's okay, I ended up going back to Canada. The psychiatrist in Canada stuck with the Invega Sustenna and had to fax a letter to my insurance saying this is the only treatment plan. And it is only $700 in Canada with no insurance. As of now I got over with all the side effects that come from injections, like pain in the site of injection and when I walk. It doesn't hurt anymore after almost a year on it. But I'm wondering if it's common for hospitals to require patients to get on an injection before they get discharged.",6.645666666666667,7.538666161904764,7.634404761904764,68.38017857142857,65.15873015873018,11.125396825396829,35.75,11.00357731598739,4.4340190476190475,1351,63,217,38,20,456,159,315,0.06,0.851,0.08900000000000001,0.8055,0,0,0,0,0,1,30.0,0,0,5,7,8,10,1,0,23,1,24,3,0,2,5,42,55,17,1,3,11,0,0,2,0,3,3,6,0,0,14,14,0,3,7,1,2,7,10,3,0,1,18,6,29,7,46,31,3,38,0,1,0,0,15,16,1,9,16,168,43,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11294746969868515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07670417615992657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118619056109994,0.0,0.0,0.09282032119972038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673206269351746,0.0,0.13751704710125914,0.0,0.19195974438975336,0.0,0.0,0.09975763188196643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971625353890457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11542800755545878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19980502137928816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21266536612837486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12367342515935115,0.0,0.0,0.2946525395751256,0.0,0.2564150161689861,0.0,0.09021212239624424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271276791589484,0.0,0.07560382332321633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207489211114241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09194262984299496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021145981808776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067289503239096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252893406476427,0.11362866367589865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17398825341554314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715707079030763,0.1200213761357792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11282509479703863,0.0,0.14451818088511276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12777426093761515,0.0,0.4291738668114307,0.08969877008924057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026839411562242,0.0,0.12742575951400034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11497986056315555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07983657789310909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12337895335707295,0.2559958849535293,0.0,0.0,0.0848074799225822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493570098891914,0.14454841328307164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09306733386508202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223209007381354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07263600559857011 schizophrenia,samuraisenpaixd,2019/03/24,Runaway thoughts? Do you ever get hit out of nowhere with a slew of horrifying thoughts accompanied by hallucinations? It feels like an anxiety attack but with hallucinatory add ons. I was having a great day then all of the sudden started hearing noises and seeing stuff and got hit with a thousand what ifs of the existential variety. Such as what if when we die there is nothingness which is my biggest fear . Then I am just filled with dread on the verge of vomiting. I took a sedative and made some art and the thoughts are still there but slowing down. Now the sounds and imagery are in my head but just as uncontrollable. I close my eyes and there's vivid imagery and the sound is intrusive and maddening. Also when I go through this I call my dad and can't stop talking and talking and talking like a bite size manic episode. Is this something you experience? Tell me about your experiences and remedies if you have any. Thanks for listening guys,5.7610821382007815,7.472253774011303,5.720000000000002,78.30352020860495,67.75706214689265,8.835984354628422,33.389395914819644,9.265573868473778,3.0195714037375057,766,35,140,15,13,240,118,177,0.141,0.773,0.086,-0.8924,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,1,4,0,0,13,8,1,3,12,0,12,3,2,1,2,37,28,25,1,3,8,1,1,2,0,0,1,4,0,1,7,20,0,1,4,1,0,3,2,4,0,1,7,8,16,4,20,19,2,23,0,0,3,0,14,8,0,4,14,103,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12886867880401845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10958504473429106,0.0,0.1232765175622959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833272382898523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16454844177900962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10392606519475288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16724447077885626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576610042912844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3152641059946003,0.0,0.1813344464101557,0.08148043705381419,0.1151229854690001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08419231741200024,0.0,0.09158318498472616,0.0,0.12888345802392656,0.17766442105316893,0.0,0.15956022304403988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653826470160843,0.0,0.18162364952011886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15745593472271027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524805738256528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12841277818803504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12405833402323692,0.0,0.0,0.11406021676848226,0.0,0.1286916841995407,0.13472556522774035,0.0,0.0,0.1844740181542476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3885699988471966,0.14084901372890146,0.14836190945528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38379660780260416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1790395254846708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HARLEENQUlNZEL,2018/12/14,"DAE experience this? **Background**: Schizophrenia runs in my family (older sibling). I have been trying to find out for years what is going on with me mentally, and I have not been given an answer from a professional. **Symptoms**: I believe people can read my thoughts; I am paranoid that people are listening in on my conversations through the phone; I do not trust what’s in my food; I am very paranoid about strangers and loved ones’ intentions; believe I experience déjà vu because I am clairvoyant (nothing interesting — I dream of something minor and then it happens); I am obsessed with the number 29 and see it everywhere (license plates, signs, gas station prices, even a photo for a microwave at Bed Bath & Beyond read 10:19 — it’s everywhere I go); I believe I am responsible for certain horrible events that have happened in the past (for example, deaths of celebrities because I said “I can only hope [violently misogynistic celebrity] dies this year to make up for losing [kind celebrity]” and because when I was younger my father told me to do something (a superstition) to make a racecar driver crash and I did it a lot and he ended up dying; I sometimes hear people yelling at me in periods of high stress; I also have a phobia that is rooted in paranoia/trauma and causes me to lose sleep, act irrationally. **Most recent episode**: Two weeks ago, I became overloaded after watching multiple episodes of Jeopardy and experienced a lot of anxiety. I took my medication and I had an anxiety attack at the idea of going to bed. 1) Aliens. 2) My husband will be gone all day tomorrow. What if I feel this shitty and he isn’t here to help me? What if he has to come home from work? We can’t afford that. 3) The dark. Because I’m experiencing such bad anxiety, I ask my husband to cuddle. The lights are off and I’m supposed to be trying to sleep. But suddenly my thoughts are racing, my brain feels weird, I can’t slow my heart rate down and I don’t know what to do. The only thoughts I *can* catch are *Theres an alien by the bed that you can’t see. Your husband’s an alien. Is this mania? You’re more likely to commit suicide in a manic state. You should kill yourself.* and *Am I gonna be like this forever? I hate hospitals. I need to go to the hospital. This feels like psychosis.* And the rest of my thoughts were too fast for me to understand. It took a lot of deep breathing and distraction for me to calm down. Does this sound like schizophrenia? Should I see someone about this? I am currently on 10mg anti psychotics, 200mg mood stabilizers, 50mg anti depressants and 1mg anti anxiety medication. 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I've read posts of people here who say with meds they're fine 99% of the time, while others seem to have this condition out of control despite being on meds. How debilitating is schizophrenia for you, if you're on meds? I'm quite curious about this. I don't have schizophrenia, but I do take a couple anti-psychotics for depression, Seroquel (Quetiapine) and Solian (Amisulpride). I took Zyprexa (Olanzapine) for a while, but it made me completely apathetic, unable to enjoy anything.",7.996129032258064,9.350298666666667,7.457150537634412,69.20572580645164,62.33333333333333,10.070967741935485,35.93010752688172,10.125756701596842,3.883159139784947,428,19,67,9,6,134,69,93,0.08800000000000001,0.809,0.10300000000000001,-0.3189,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,2,4,3,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,4,0,12,11,8,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,4,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,5,2,14,8,1,8,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,2,3,43,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586604791474216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20215032572073227,0.0,0.2162450107013734,0.0,0.2133329034598796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16606098118442894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687232450160118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292318177614176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18243490410744095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6424821600147425,0.1942287851483282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14173242316788007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366535607518756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846520225855649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050697722414154,0.19285522145343895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15332472089458996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17552065209446027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14496389611548516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11242500672663686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21421127848446314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,minibritches666,2018/12/14,"I just had to call the police on my schizophrenic mother for her own good and I cant stop crying. She hasn't had a psychotic break in like this in 9 years. She lives 2000 miles away from me and I'm so limited on ability to do anything. I feel awful she was crying saying why are you doing this to me and I said let me try and help by speaking to the police officer present. Then I did exactly what she begged me not to do. I told them I was fearful for her safety and that she needed immediate medical attention. I just want her to get better. Not for me but for her. I cant imagine feeling like she does. So sad and scared and like no one loves her that they are only out to get her. She's been sobbing for days and days. Crying that she misses me and loves me and begging to come home. Home was out house from when I was a kid that was sold 15 years ago. The saddest part of all. Is none of this was ever her own choice. She expected to be with my dad forever not abandoned in her greatest time of need not to have her kids taken away from her and moved across country back to where her family lives and could help her. She wasnt ready to stop being a mother and not have her children or her home. Not one of these choices did she make herself. They were all made for her and she had been miserable every since. This is my first time to ever have to deal with this as an adult. It's so fucking hard. I wish so many things. None of them are to be. 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What's it like for you when you go catatonic?,0.5268750000000004,2.9177179375000044,2.2800000000000007,92.965,88.375,8.200000000000001,20.5,8.841846274778883,1.64135,61,2,14,2,2,20,10,16,0.0,0.691,0.309,0.6553,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,9,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5027806165486804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8644140510327958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DukeOfBathory,2018/12/14,"Clarity I just found this site after a particularly awful bout of hallucinations. It's comforting to know that you all exist, thank you for posting your stories and your experiences with symptoms.",9.94181818181818,11.270750606060606,10.154090909090916,51.65113636363637,58.09090909090909,12.660606060606062,40.74242424242424,12.161744961471696,5.779860606060607,162,8,22,5,2,54,31,33,0.08900000000000001,0.6990000000000001,0.212,0.5584,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,6,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,5,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42464844121614215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4759854427342594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385786279415079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4157628265669048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4512124177228586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3996753984236577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,batman2o1,2018/12/14,"Does this sound like schizophrenia? Alright I’ve posted here before but I always get nervous and delete the post because I’m afraid somone is gonna find it and something bad will happen but I’m going to include the symptoms I notice and a bit of my opinion and I know I cannot base what is said off here as any kind of diagnosis but it reassures me sometimes -alright I’m going to separate the symptoms of before and after my drugs use -please don’t dismiss the post just because I’ve done drugs but please share your honest opinion also the illness runs in my family along with ocd and bipolar —- Symptoms before drugs: delusions : thinking I was the son of god , then the devil which was the one that stuck the longest , thought I controlled the weather and had powers , tried to rescue a girl from a song Intrusive thoughts: examples push her down the stairs, I wouldn’t care if you all died , and others but this doesn’t happen often Emotions: lots of the time I would feel things I wouldn’t understand like it was a new horrible feeling that only I went through it was indescribable it led me to try and kill myself , lots of time I felt nothing at all Also I stutter a lot Hard to pull the ideas out of my head almost like a word salad in my head I wanted to be alone because of these things After drugs: I realized a lot of this stuff it gave me insight on the illness I might have but I’m trying to convince myself I had the issues before the drugs this is after being clean for a year Delusions: world is a simulation I am the devil I have a special purpose I have powers I need to learn how to control Intrusive thoughts: same as before Emotions: lots more of feeling nothing , angry a lot and have to act happy Harder to pull ideas from head lack of concentrating Doubting literally everything whether the emotions are actually what I’m feeling or I’m just faking it to convince myself that I’m ill especially the delusions Still isolated And the only hallucinations I have had is whispers and a waxy spaceman fly across my room and a man playing the trombone on my door but I believe these to be hypnagogic or the other one which is due to still being in dream mode Anyways thanks for reading and tell me your guys opinion and I know it’s not formatted well and I’m sorry but like I said it’s hard for me to do this type of stuff and I felt I left a lot out but it’s all good ",3.924709202873757,5.545496626582281,4.840815372334359,83.17379917892578,72.18565400843882,6.896476223058501,28.84456608507241,7.432916251226849,1.7202798038544869,1907,76,360,21,37,620,223,474,0.141,0.703,0.156,0.4556,2,1,6,0,0,1,19.0,0,3,0,4,13,28,1,3,36,2,34,16,3,5,3,86,71,36,2,7,16,1,8,4,0,6,12,5,3,3,30,21,1,2,19,4,0,9,6,9,1,2,18,13,45,19,51,43,14,38,2,0,0,0,14,15,0,17,15,255,75,3,0.0,0.0,0.06359700546958287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06525884027690937,0.06749698193633735,0.0,0.10423364803136584,0.054227075358854064,0.0,0.0,0.04431817369566838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05441464398070674,0.11918199278046025,0.0,0.2772764704722088,0.07342483463135813,0.0,0.0,0.07114930522894145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644566649292089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14618851100490418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06763668823231453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05703114231585305,0.06669204656499944,0.0,0.0,0.3778854393328558,0.0,0.0,0.21992411693274125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058571041733423035,0.0,0.06143694585467827,0.0,0.1318086485580435,0.0,0.1251477971033707,0.0,0.05956465486379374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03404889559476814,0.0,0.07407579217760821,0.05466192205476534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06452903949559258,0.11526011299182158,0.06937520737485464,0.11675993153099595,0.0,0.2006511991069541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14713912020015996,0.0,0.06802106849035729,0.0,0.0,0.07210150065402568,0.06786504536494219,0.07163200311688883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07080793718520895,0.0,0.0,0.12735605449401816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3878393904746813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06913559998154034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04832309878254889,0.0,0.06294207344651437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12506570172329898,0.07419704436225154,0.0,0.0,0.08832243266735439,0.09913020143888597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14307527379400586,0.0,0.0,0.18724596799904036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06518813445072524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239841357225056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05017143360180267,0.06445528931137237,0.07295303735842952,0.0,0.0,0.10409048839414596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14920925749897615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20321130349085745,0.0,0.0,0.056961888097379676,0.060000238983364235,0.0,0.0,0.08659276661832191,0.04175862389784227,0.0,0.15521428831503375,0.0760028833949832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13273947150539792,0.0,0.0,0.0678447871833046,0.0,0.05628638612138923,0.0,0.0,0.03843924845881837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05859610471331113,0.060413704921251976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04629525222211358,0.0,0.0,0.04196766426335413 schizophrenia,ihatethisplebsite,2018/12/14,Anybody just have primarily delusions? I never see photo realistic demons and beings like so many people claim. Only hallucinations I've had were olfactory and one visual which was a moving shadow. ,7.334545454545456,10.552343666666673,8.724242424242426,52.106363636363675,66.87878787878788,9.248484848484848,29.181818181818183,9.725611199111238,3.785109090909091,163,6,19,4,3,56,31,33,0.0,0.9209999999999999,0.079,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,4,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,1,1,1,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,14,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21540043373763054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4470012490385856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4686046714859279,0.0,0.0,0.3400476258350956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29876381426694376,0.3353227056423557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056630760296461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35133852741553606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Nerevar9,2018/12/14,I don’t know what I am anymore I’m fucked up. I don’t know what to do. I can barely feel anything anymore. I literally watched my dog die and felt nothing. I keep having tactile and auditory hallucinations and I know they’re not real but it feels so fucking real in the moment. I feel like everyone in my college hates me and would rather me be dead and they’re pretending to like me and I can hardly do my work because I can’t stop thinking about it. I can’t control my thoughts and they keep telling me to hurt and kill people and hurt myself and I really can’t cope. I’ve been diagnosed with autism and no one will help me because everything that doesn’t fit it is ignored. I don’t know what’s wrong with me but it’s not just autism. I don’t know what to do to get help and I’m having a really hard time not relapsing and self harming because I won’t shut the fuck up in my mind ,1.5732679738562076,3.3151321904761915,3.480273887332712,89.91249299719891,78.94708994708995,6.563460939931527,24.34516028633676,7.510576382923642,1.0242409586056644,700,25,156,10,17,236,95,189,0.262,0.6509999999999999,0.08800000000000001,-0.991,0,0,0,0,0,3,9.0,0,0,1,2,4,12,5,0,3,0,22,4,0,1,0,42,42,16,3,2,7,0,6,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,9,15,0,5,11,1,0,0,13,10,0,1,3,7,28,2,13,35,0,10,0,2,1,3,5,7,3,0,5,98,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478140809387208,0.0,0.0,0.10281508465686176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284870380224487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14013098410743705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268116059966848,0.12966813354360227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11938565218724613,0.1122881362137548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895204572781748,0.08925725666273998,0.1199621218276509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3465154217528515,0.06527606327840872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22384363856345116,0.12335251584621285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16748947633209274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675019949474856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22210506342585054,0.13822774680197256,0.0,0.3433191507785413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12207887696242048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12615391886748545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198834281853048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846626682450033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08661775745546976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844184506376591,0.16007969817500795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303398081473552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10445554643649553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092031840372975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005659297782533,0.0,0.09918851041306748,0.07285359685197489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909579055501428,0.0,0.0,0.08875388645512855,0.13660242305061454,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TerminallyRory,2019/04/14,Medical word for type of hallucination? I have this recurring type of hallucination which is basically like looking through transparent paper or onionskin. Everything is the wrong color or looks like it's been photographed on an old-fashioned camera. Anyone know if there is a word for this kind of hallucination?,8.529423076923079,11.209432326923077,8.314615384615388,58.60538461538464,62.269230769230774,11.353846153846154,38.0,11.20814326018867,5.254176923076924,259,13,36,8,4,83,40,52,0.057999999999999996,0.8420000000000001,0.1,0.3094,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,6,8,3,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,3,7,7,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,3,24,5,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22370314072964584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28753328510318515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33315882490652954,0.1758256688387308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31260417812877106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5373227987658675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222967473519048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357136864202931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34979424164658035,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shekib82,2019/04/14,schizophrenia is not a label. it is an illness we are not a people. We just happen to have an illness. We shouldn't identify with this illness or let it identify us...,1.2495454545454552,3.775908424242424,3.360833333333337,85.66125000000002,85.96969696969695,5.724242424242425,26.431818181818183,7.1686216300943375,1.6571272727272732,130,6,24,2,4,44,23,33,0.231,0.769,0.0,-0.7964,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,6,3,0,0,0,9,7,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4563345635319729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5276882862618687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3577588035617349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6207354324848647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FeistyRule,2019/04/14,"signs of a good therapist? So I've been reading lots of articles about how to spot manipulative/bad people lately. And it got me thinking about my experiences with therapists. And I've honestly had tons of terrible ones, and maybe a couple of good ones. So I wanted to find out whether any of ya'll have signs that you look for to know that your therapist is a good person, who will respect you/your illness, see you, have your best interests at heart, etc.",5.4720689655172405,6.6918653448275895,5.933965517241383,78.34508620689657,67.9655172413793,9.937931034482759,30.59195402298851,10.125756701596842,3.0448022988505747,363,14,69,9,6,117,61,87,0.06,0.723,0.217,0.9349,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,0,1,5,8,0,0,3,0,6,2,1,1,0,14,12,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,2,7,7,14,8,4,3,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,1,1,47,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253674961741228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13817462802570185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17366826532234295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18310807930130926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18456160982711148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16187791794809445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512520054748894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4164076172086174,0.132354971252079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19610274336816133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09094725850748346,0.0,0.18667640282001824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13896729585640352,0.0,0.0,0.14069102304664988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662538086351388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22427637833050632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11472776221159015,0.14449675590624467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16553165784953122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13187161351863902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5764290494569755,0.0,0.10603730727330213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976084463452145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kinarose,2019/04/14,"I've been taking a nootropic mushroom supplement blend of organic reishi, lion's mane, maitake during the day along with my prescribed medications It's a nootropic that clears the mind of brain fog and anxiety. I am wiser, clearer, sound. Here's a video review detailing its benefits and side effects https://youtu.be/G4WfJ9JjXp8",9.218888888888888,11.842345148148153,7.3750000000000036,66.23250000000003,60.48148148148147,10.585185185185184,39.425925925925924,10.686352973137794,5.073125925925926,274,14,36,7,4,81,45,54,0.034,0.843,0.122,0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,0,2,2,1,1,1,7,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,19,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34747417477363385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5070555340242138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929318937223317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4575750684774453,0.0,0.0,0.4586289125375619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3415140790853643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Angelo_Maligno,2019/04/14,"May Have Found The Secret To Hallucination Control I've been doing research into a way to control hallucinations. I've cross examined several scientific effects. Namely : The placebo effect, cognitive bias and accuracy of eye witness testimony. I may have discovered something important. It seems beliefs effect the way we interpret information. Not only that though, in the case of something that's entirely a mental creation it seems to change it. It's most interesting. I want you all to do an experiment and next time you suspect something is a hallucination form a positive belief about it. We could be on the verge of unlocking something very useful. I see images myself and it seems to work for me. It doesn't give me complete control but I'm able to see more pleasant images. Need to know if it does the same for you.",4.7619819819819815,7.739272135135138,6.197189189189189,68.20546846846847,74.27027027027026,8.811531531531532,32.83963963963964,9.3871,3.8761255855855854,668,34,101,18,15,225,95,148,0.019,0.872,0.10800000000000001,0.897,0,0,4,0,0,0,15.0,2,3,0,7,2,2,0,0,11,0,11,1,1,7,1,37,23,6,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,10,6,0,3,15,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,11,2,16,17,5,9,2,0,3,0,9,4,0,7,2,71,21,2,0.14215194636652484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15037791058034156,0.0,0.14904361121134355,0.0,0.478306485826199,0.11349676216451945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243981262104079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13905188036638735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15586227197649774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636509998047364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07812299212847865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14325572744285056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540386703000602,0.0,0.0,0.15118020763946985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10811296082377307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265533935591629,0.3882293793550677,0.0,0.160591237451316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43774205291478174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13966356556025722,0.0,0.08288994308199152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277364051166816,0.0,0.11729024310854655,0.0838449009969088,0.2256671967945625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10348830997634016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,raddestandsaddest,2019/04/14,"Schizophrenia, drug induced psychosis, or something else? A bit about me: I'm 24 and about five years ago I was diagnosed with PTSD, MDD, and GAD. After years of therapy I was able to shake most of my PTSD symptoms (frequent panic attacks, nightmares, flashbacks, etc.) and some of my anxiety but what seemed to stick was severe suicidal thoughts, depersonalization and intrusive thoughts. I tried a myriad of antidepressants to no avail. All the while this was happening I would occasionally smoke weed. I hadn't smoked since I was a teen because of a bad reaction to it and when I picked it back up again I would start to have what could maybe be classified as psychosis? It first started when one time I smoked with my ex boyfriend and suddenly I completely forgot where we were and who he was, he took me inside his house and I couldn't recognize anything and started having a panic attack. After that whenever I smoked I started to ""hallucinate"" that I was doing something for the very first time, or I would believe that nothing was real or many other delusions, or felt like I was dying. But there seems to be symptoms while I am sober as well? I still experience depersonalization, have horrible intrusive and repetitive thoughts and the constant fear that other people can hear them. I've heard it's relatively normal but I often see bugs crawling on my arms and tend to smack myself a lot. I see patterns when I close my eyes and see them sometimes when they are open. Also, when I was 13 I would constantly see monsters outside of my room and would cry and scream about how they were going to get me. Doctor chalked it up to sleep deprivation. I haven't seen anything that vivid since I was 15. Anyway, without my doctor knowing of any of this he put me on seroquel because of the severe depression I was still feeling. I started to feel great except for the extreme sleepiness that came with taking the drug. I have since switched to abilify and it has curbed the suicidal thoughts and lessened the feeling of being ""out of control"". But I am still experiencing the symptoms above and have been experiencing them since before I started antipsychotics which doesn't seem like it makes any sense? I apologize for how long this is, any insight is appreciated!",7.503204819277112,8.174827609638559,7.062795180722894,73.99226506024101,63.26506024096386,9.820722891566266,35.877108433734946,9.692545771848811,3.4731465060240967,1818,80,313,33,25,569,215,415,0.163,0.782,0.055,-0.9943,0,0,8,0,0,0,43.0,1,0,5,3,21,14,2,4,15,0,41,11,3,6,1,71,76,38,3,8,10,1,4,2,0,5,8,3,1,0,22,26,0,3,14,0,0,5,6,10,1,4,26,16,50,4,43,40,6,47,0,2,7,0,15,9,0,11,35,227,72,3,0.07284505679756577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645727476318209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058254165602819215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14861140975734166,0.0,0.055726269064449385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198905498866118,0.0,0.0,0.16574353672215256,0.0,0.056013352220317586,0.06082257968591226,0.08881134100084717,0.0,0.061985778042778175,0.08207143387493514,0.0,0.0,0.07952793531864212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833153388318576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07637665611704457,0.15743925543526774,0.08170192533937408,0.05816085039663711,0.0,0.0800168743517764,0.0,0.0,0.06274134067883605,0.07393619927312989,0.07560166820460605,0.0,0.0,0.14912000468331796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16895427822053036,0.0,0.0608526976808379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08124149405042493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07125644341851325,0.0,0.08197094102856094,0.1104979483977212,0.0,0.06994267815604004,0.0,0.0,0.12392393619818988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03805853560788462,0.0,0.041399524493049296,0.0,0.0,0.0803119322849578,0.0,0.0,0.06441664315159293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08210167322832428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08405341517984945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04003373815312702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711768304106912,0.0,0.0,0.06446558296559086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061930262325407937,0.0,0.0,0.0486246410635114,0.0738534541089651,0.07318265059426256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07137268919159401,0.06989679663931055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04936169573091831,0.0,0.0,0.17093595761531527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050501590335404065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703039463956959,0.07322940202124689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291362244813211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321923159454513,0.1989462115185176,0.0,0.16458835932037996,0.0,0.24103273497197114,0.0,0.07289766462640024,0.0,0.0,0.1121593672204879,0.07204562381607182,0.0,0.3093606367966006,0.0,0.17452246936899582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15936133781078393,0.0,0.0,0.227141717660288,0.05477041703259481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08330467095766682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313233529018533,0.08495307684617924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08093353841933668,0.049457011890435866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06010480080949766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654964544006401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702200352709396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587351916110376,0.0,0.0,0.0938196565172608 schizophrenia,djfnfnf,2019/04/14,"I'm realizing that I have schizophrenia at 22 and now I fear I'll die alone My family has a history of schizophrenia. My great grandmother on my mother's side had it. I've always had paranoia. I was diagnosed with PDD-NOS (aspergers that isn't quite like aspergers) when I was about 5. I eventually began talking to myself a lot, having mostly auditory hallucinations, and over the last decade my above average schizophrenia developed into very severe schizophrenia. I'm going to see a doctor this summer. I'm also a Two Spirit trans person. I'm kind of overweight but working on it. I'm a social person but awkward and I don't function at all in loud, impersonal environments. I've never had any sort of relation, barely any friends, very lethargic. I really am kind of mean sometimes though I really don't mean it. I refuse to ever have sex unless I adore somebody because it repulses me. All this together just makes me feel that I'm going to die alone. Like, so much of this stuff already repulses people, but paranoid schizophrenia too? I really want a relationship. I want to adopt older queer kids and smother them in all my love and get them what they need to be happy and teach them skills. But this just seems impossible. It's so unfair. I want and need this. I can't rely on myself. I'm sort of losing my grasp on reality right now. Or maybe this is what's real. Can't tell anymore. Seriously, why does this all have to fall on me. It's so unfair. God I'm just so tired all the time. I am very suicidal and chronically depressed. It takes me so much energy to do anything, and recently I struggle to even shower. I never missed a class before this term. Now I have missed lots. I need a gender dysphoria diagnosis and a schizophrenia diagnosis just to get medication that will help. It's miserable.",2.7623578751164932,5.383839908045979,4.625234544889718,78.65403075489284,79.51724137931033,7.670208139173656,24.63529046287667,8.605353355243054,2.148503324013669,1440,53,257,34,37,488,179,348,0.191,0.6709999999999999,0.13699999999999998,-0.9742,1,2,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,4,4,19,19,1,4,11,0,22,9,0,1,8,50,51,24,3,6,10,1,1,2,1,1,6,1,1,3,23,12,1,1,6,0,0,3,7,10,0,1,6,3,35,9,30,43,11,30,1,5,1,3,16,13,1,7,16,167,58,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143029626037132,0.11416868299250947,0.08273547548090013,0.0860855001909426,0.0,0.0,0.14071023100152347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10260272234706316,0.0,0.0,0.08513727342835174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06306715107636741,0.0,0.08803529784271084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910838563485368,0.10500788293527537,0.21474653018649095,0.0,0.0,0.1058938392089105,0.09053695741899204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06833315736697666,0.09358385404370673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09753117200410273,0.11641922446978803,0.0523115683702397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993153932823882,0.0,0.10810526619139203,0.0,0.11759534475075688,0.0,0.0,0.11406301739328782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11013316481099153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06934584254074802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154715642346793,0.0,0.08433223151449704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108888946075537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11574324867449128,0.0,0.17591290329636214,0.09337505385221767,0.0,0.06905914378564243,0.0,0.10393765546572123,0.2253925928485889,0.0,0.10422323995041667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15210734430840472,0.23013880622972765,0.1595866649985809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717248808854122,0.18067139820246364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100405177459779,0.0,0.1177580677038838,0.198833893090766,0.0,0.10215247925713404,0.11107537565283586,0.0,0.08835272717605606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08244278097525704,0.09418444864145308,0.0,0.11687830411851155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546259376172704,0.0,0.0,0.10232279324677676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815696116831784,0.1184348729847299,0.11316646561331466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0777876817663941,0.08315577250317646,0.09042701632410244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164714432053623,0.0,0.06032730135005088,0.11890996767058785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010636165103642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560915200930071,0.1830669591883681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335492268315207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531879296834174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lavender_latte123,2019/04/14,My Schizophrenic Brother is getting aggressive My brother has been starting to hit and shove my mom during his acute episodes and also when she mentions taking his medicine. He is really avoidant about taking his medicine and sometimes pretends to take it but then just hides it so we don’t really know if his treatment just isn’t working or if he’s just not taking the medicine. So far the worst has just been some bruising and a fall once but my mom is getting older and my brother isn’t getting better and I’m scared that he might really hurt her one day if this continues. I know he doesn’t mean to and he shows remorse once he’s realized what’s happened. We don’t want to involuntarily commit him because we think the trauma from that would just make him worse and even less likely to comply with treatment. I’m afraid to talk to a therapist about this because I’m afraid that they’ll alert the police or something like that. I really don’t know what to do. Does anyone has any advice/ experience/ insight with this? Are my concerns proportional or am I just reacting to the stigma associated with schizophrenia?,5.770422535211267,7.208469985915496,5.7367323943661965,79.22481690140846,67.45070422535211,8.309107981220656,32.04037558685446,8.648137234880735,2.5979254460093903,909,38,162,14,15,285,113,213,0.135,0.8029999999999999,0.063,-0.9531,0,1,1,0,0,0,11.0,3,0,1,2,13,11,1,4,7,0,20,1,0,2,1,44,40,21,0,5,15,5,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,11,14,0,1,7,2,0,1,7,8,0,1,2,0,21,3,15,34,3,8,0,1,0,0,25,1,0,8,8,106,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525394387238351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068748577329136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09412444662708924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09678041594437876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16874851681100142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12241356817576372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892638534784114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12112468234482116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09141937409482112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353928338947889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21694261217499075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12239667667748835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14817218500247206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282017316575281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13524156293279874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923906335324516,0.0,0.0,0.15077050847488532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14683254177349614,0.0,0.3242113395810127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29480708554519425,0.09379109523623733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3546793534423339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13857388134606075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655579935864973,0.13689233857610042,0.0,0.0979682475061289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.416272360498744,0.11124977928044004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16070621518265385,0.0,0.0886883875965609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816385849920774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10076509232208863,0.0,0.1410529639370742,0.09832343333438996,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sundown73,2019/04/14,"Episodes 8 yrs apart? So I've had 3 psychotic episodes at ages 19, 27, and 36. In between those episodes I'm very high functioning with no positive symptoms whatsoever. I have never taken antipsychotics. The episodes occurred naturally and we're not drug induced. I have never had mania so I know I'm not bipolar. I do still struggle with severe anxiety and OCD. I cannot be schizophrenic correct? From what I understand schizophrenics would have constant or more frequent episodes right? Thanks",4.01258620689655,7.35474304597701,3.784626436781612,80.84176724137934,84.0574712643678,7.037931034482759,34.836206896551715,8.07648339933343,3.548924137931035,403,24,63,9,12,122,64,87,0.111,0.8109999999999999,0.078,-0.212,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,9,5,0,1,3,15,15,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,0,6,1,6,10,1,11,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,6,37,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986574276838105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2806259778943063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011508115557444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743702357933812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14271544776969572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.400568374571575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22176858144252407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933688244180722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20738385097923348,0.0,0.0,0.2714779341631037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699109421081607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390819912944937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703400368660685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142663652298933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18447195005027534,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,drug_slug,2019/04/14,"For once, I wasn't having a hallucination that someone was trying to break into my house They actually were. I think it was two dudes. One helped the other onto my roof. The other was up top. Started turning lights on, dog barking, and we hear the roof guy jump off and start booking it. Didn't see him though. I don't know what to do now. Didn't call the cops because what are they gonna do? Two people did get arrested last night breaking into cars around here. I wonder if it was the same dudes. Anyway this is going to be my nightmare fuel for a while. I'm usually home from 12-3pm by myself, which is the most common time for home invasions to occur. I just know my hallucinations are gonna play on this. We think they were checking the chimney or maybe going to cut through the roof, which apparently is a thing that is becoming more common. I kinda wanna get some cameras now. We have some but not enough.",2.4782708468002568,4.599577357142858,3.756722689075634,87.19710084033615,77.62637362637362,6.040594699418229,21.694893341952167,7.048011613610866,0.6035949579831931,717,20,144,8,17,234,114,182,0.021,0.96,0.018000000000000002,-0.128,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,3,0,3,1,7,2,1,0,11,0,22,0,0,0,0,24,39,7,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,14,8,0,0,5,2,1,4,5,1,0,3,10,3,18,1,20,26,6,26,0,0,1,0,11,9,0,7,11,107,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.16192739555904415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14771621000868793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115166873020437,0.1832607808310029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694369026649656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17145391194457674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17338706263330542,0.0,0.18860793857707694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643004922369427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18701938646569316,0.0,0.11122188925269404,0.0,0.33289014444439946,0.0,0.0,0.19146525910093765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823856896680896,0.13525814627497587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667027464350196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557175758195896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17671401929880792,0.11244099769842153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503756340998285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13222770853099275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14059512077142658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348975127032956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023900472376262,0.21264728299640834,0.16302905861772712,0.0,0.09675729912325444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11265811836079424,0.1804882617734047,0.3241863088299053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18275257341578474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799480644917192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,quueenbeee,2019/09/19,"manic moods and paranoia/ hallucinations does anyone else experience something similar to this? so basically i've found that every time i'm doing good, like not feeling depressed not feeling manic kind of thing, i start to get this creeping paranoia that everything i'm doing is wrong or fake or that everything isn't real. my guy (he's like this big tall black cat dude, he's not really threatening? just incredibly ominous and overbearing, his names jonesy he told me) starts to really start popping up behind me and in windows and in my peripheral and starts really following me when that happens. eventually it just spirals into either a manic episode of me going apeshit or a depressive episode where i hide for days. sometimes its really bad... sometimes its not. its just weird and i hate this stupid cycle.",6.599529780564263,8.718103448275862,6.884702194357367,69.1809717868339,66.24137931034483,9.962382445141069,33.871473354231966,10.230975488527342,4.003344827586206,660,30,101,17,11,213,93,145,0.174,0.731,0.094,-0.8952,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,6,13,2,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,23,19,11,0,0,11,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,13,7,0,0,3,0,0,2,5,8,0,0,2,3,10,4,11,17,1,16,0,2,1,0,7,7,0,3,9,60,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059502060970975,0.15525585938791814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265175269865372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772146131810583,0.0,0.26101751367657755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326010529367295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12658017566496327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12766683328088804,0.0,0.27236283511347903,0.14822108910409326,0.0,0.0,0.15323176842720826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661399733806066,0.0,0.0,0.07916585963146675,0.0,0.08611547692200805,0.12709246432176965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15003414335842405,0.13399356670498905,0.0,0.0,0.1496001361635364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577905703370207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14805548545956485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17246927900466566,0.3882846568586504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11665179150891668,0.2997253389278062,0.0,0.42900233122416936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10066685992980902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08835578207944145,0.0,0.0,0.1447891816446722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16566943080527655,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rozznet,2019/09/19,"Any experience with therapy from ""Nutrient power (...)"" book by William Walsh? Have anyone of you had any experience and opinion about therapy from a book ""Nutrient Power: Heal Your Biochemistry and Heal Your Brain"" by William Walsh? I have read a chapter about schizophrenia and it looks promising, especially the fact, that the author is trying to classify reasons of the illness. And the book has IMHO correct attitude to drug therapy, scientific achievements and medical practices. It's not just another story about bad pharmaceutical companies, poor patients and alternative therapies. I wonder how does it look like in practice.",9.75398868458275,12.071794554455447,8.963875530410187,56.49495049504952,58.900990099009896,12.900141442715702,45.12164073550212,12.28987398476788,6.862407637906648,514,31,65,18,7,162,70,101,0.09,0.861,0.049,-0.6662,2,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,0,3,5,3,0,0,6,0,5,6,1,2,2,15,8,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,5,2,13,7,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,2,1,42,9,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21501008370663127,0.16576871392509127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11053857992815364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319966075035016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17647813098133894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13834359203767088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833315165476137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092801667597632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07723365397833823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655076676387891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15925670355606755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15813045841168644,0.0,0.0,0.16254046208044548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7231481474406699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10733115597051746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17143934283279189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,solutionary88,2019/09/19,Does anyone else find long walks helpful? Something about walking eases any of the mental distractions and makes it easier to ignite intrusive thoughts. Helps that I'm at my folks for a bit and have a dog to walk.,5.489666666666667,7.263509300000003,5.245000000000001,81.20666666666669,68.5,8.333333333333334,28.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.2985833333333336,172,6,30,3,3,53,37,40,0.045,0.7190000000000001,0.23600000000000002,0.8176,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,6,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,6,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20734614472584334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131969626396203,0.312411640079055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33287775440496536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26682479223323274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547093580679598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786780347210069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4087433586384721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698317064062222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035267388888816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072729539873178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347310925792771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420608492691063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SaneSchizophrenic,2019/09/19,"How do you best support someone who is suffering from delusions? When someone is delusional, how do you support them? You don’t want to encourage what they say is true but if you don’t acknowledge their thoughts or deny their delusions are true they could be upset with you. How can you best support someone who’s being delusional?",5.440327868852457,7.703188114754099,5.030295081967214,80.72740983606558,69.49180327868852,8.158688524590165,35.15081967213115,8.841846274778883,3.3153318032786885,269,14,45,5,5,82,37,61,0.107,0.578,0.315,0.9386,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,6,5,2,4,10,0,1,0,0,12,0,0,3,2,13,17,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,11,8,3,13,2,1,0,1,0,0,15,0,0,2,1,38,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42228080878794544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606368201636485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15999732747027726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5114123773566832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6849367733002996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15972534611484882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186692732569406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,True2Christianity,2019/09/19,"A proverb on insanity. Prov. 23:29-35 ""Who has woe? Who has sorrow? Who has contentions? Who has complaints? Who has wounds without cause? Who has redness of eyes? Those who linger long at the wine, Those who go in search of mixed wine. Do not look on the wine when it is red, When it sparkles in the cup, When it swirls around smoothly; At the last it bites like a serpent, And stings like a viper. / Your eyes will see strange things, And your heart will utter perverse things. Yes, you will be like one who lies down in the midst of the sea, or like one who lies at the top of the mast, saying: ""They have struck me, but I was not hurt; They have beaten me, but I did not feel it. When shall I awake, that I may seek another drink?""",2.0705808477237038,3.8620692448979614,1.9043537414966003,101.54952904238618,77.63945578231292,5.0672946101517535,19.47095761381476,5.369823440869387,-0.6431293563579286,557,12,134,2,13,163,86,147,0.136,0.765,0.098,-0.7181,0,0,4,0,0,0,33.0,0,3,2,2,5,8,1,0,11,1,18,8,3,1,0,13,22,9,0,0,7,0,2,4,0,5,1,1,0,0,20,3,4,0,1,4,0,1,4,4,0,2,2,9,11,4,15,14,0,18,0,3,6,0,16,11,0,2,10,89,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417976999211645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20527736629077672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236883347469102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258941311443396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116595151330089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310517677455907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732547573637701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24685542682252615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879647198846129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4506259220158572,0.0,0.0,0.20406825222857672,0.1936407112849502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125126466388721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833774411566167,0.0,0.0,0.1837533995511408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063925421709577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222284189639893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dudeTMv2,2019/09/19,"voices as a victim did anybody have voices for their well being? similar to my example, i asked ""am i god?"" and heard a ""yes"". i have heard that voices can be a command. but in my experience i was the commander.",0.7128571428571426,3.0763331428571448,3.9812380952380977,81.48042857142859,86.61904761904762,7.1695238095238105,22.685714285714287,8.238735603445708,1.8116228571428568,160,6,31,4,5,58,32,42,0.043,0.914,0.043,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,2,11,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,5,7,1,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.575451506082448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6021211484659934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5534489016317905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,smirkhead,2019/09/19,"My new psych. took off my schiz diagnosis and is pushing the idea that everything is just my depression. I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia for years. During a substance addiction my symptoms were kinda numb. Now that im clean its coming back and worse. I'm back to hearing whispering, mocking and laughing, recently ive been extremely paranoid in public more than usual, everyones looking at me/talking about me. I've had 3 manic episodes this past week, my mom said I wasnt making sense and was going back n forth from being scared of her, cursing her out, to laughing and screaming at something in the kitchen. I'm not okay right now. I reached out to my new psych, and i mention these things often. But she seems to always push that its my depression and just my ""thoughts"" to myself. She has me on two antipsychotics that arent helping and it just seems like she's not open to the idea of schiz in general. It makes me feel really awkward and almost embarressed to bring anything up like ilp be judged and brushed off/laughed at. Any advice?",5.623246753246755,7.051988525252526,5.361067821067825,81.81636363636366,67.78787878787878,8.485425685425685,32.82972582972583,8.841846274778883,2.771251370851372,840,37,152,14,14,259,128,198,0.13699999999999998,0.7879999999999999,0.075,-0.9011,1,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,12,12,1,2,4,1,13,5,0,2,0,33,28,11,0,0,6,1,1,2,0,0,4,4,2,0,11,15,1,0,6,0,0,6,4,7,0,1,9,7,21,5,25,17,1,31,0,2,1,0,11,13,0,5,14,97,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15264481317267686,0.0,0.13682802588301793,0.0,0.0,0.14021195856189073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116509646982471,0.0,0.0,0.0952198645790893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522630001783993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32300517433846543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12061668510220472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412017478080941,0.14211953632178356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13379716626858826,0.1258428810810368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07079940698953249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07957781550495185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578151412320777,0.0,0.09385389660516424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161359309604168,0.15124795153376458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368155008543684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758334177373105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18693174682217764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16399225151473193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704685328894758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366698743630992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08970177571821758,0.0,0.13825498220065066,0.0,0.0,0.1195781523065824,0.13319313081944864,0.0,0.1401866007058484,0.0,0.0,0.2549418157091436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10779589308233052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455366289249933,0.0,0.112544501424865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09302449563406977,0.0,0.0,0.11116194765897112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15556976239131026,0.0,0.0,0.1367812959938315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15421461768846265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11231732392132912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14269453479795424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901696747546221 schizophrenia,kfeverlasting,2019/09/19,"Psychosis advice Hi everyone I need some help/advice on psychosis. Lately I been going into states of frenzy and psychosis and I can't remember anything that goes on throughout them. All I know from my husband is that I'm unresponsive verbally and I often try to leave the house or I start getting violent as I'm trying to shake off an unseen 'thing'. When coming out of the psychosis the faces of those around me change to be that of one of my childhood abusers and it terrifies me, all I can hear is how he wants to hurt me all over again and drown me to death. No matter what I can't hear the real words being said to me just what my 'abuser' is saying. I unintentionally hurt some people around me physically because of the psychosis's I been experiencing and it hurts knowing I hit them when they tried holding me down from lashing out and hitting around the air or walls. With all that being said is there any tips or advice anyone has to better handle my psychosis events or ways I can try preventing them. I really don't want to hurt anyone anymore but the way its been going I been having tons of psychosis's mainly at night. We're debating on taking me to the hospital to be sedated for each psychosis, is that a bad idea or will that work?",5.365548780487806,6.128849731707318,6.043648373983737,79.1171798780488,67.9430894308943,8.426422764227643,28.789634146341466,8.472884824447931,2.0510658536585367,998,33,187,14,16,326,138,246,0.138,0.8490000000000001,0.012,-0.9728,0,0,0,0,2,0,12.0,0,0,4,2,10,8,1,1,10,0,21,1,1,1,4,43,40,17,2,3,7,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,13,16,0,2,4,0,0,4,4,7,0,1,6,6,30,1,35,27,9,30,0,4,0,0,12,15,0,8,8,140,43,1,0.0,0.25760252121820243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31868473860457874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07392520028339376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10780917272527203,0.15202238926394432,0.0,0.08945746083957205,0.290319630044359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09076667920132456,0.06626741696661753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614343424138397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11499870043324885,0.09364235753867736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10387519828428768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05679546823288015,0.0,0.1235625775214642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450437411333062,0.0,0.07286471299432352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12543449177595845,0.4654968542288706,0.12271815401299255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11948620025455292,0.0,0.12262741294349701,0.1151061264508398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08060564003257427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020151388049846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07366338659718842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07536447274682181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373355765297267,0.06964115906967533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12314502682594038,0.0,0.20681249476093674,0.0864490028573634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769441157725682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08173492308600247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07222079658912353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952225147763696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12823764627913906,0.17257477685144434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914075352811906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Dominguez15,2019/09/19,"My theory of schizophrenia As time goes on I’m starting to think what if maybe the gang stalking/schizophrenia isn’t real. What if maybe the paranoia, the voices and sounds are just sounds and sights we are now barely starting to notice. Like those sounds , sights , patterns and behaviors have always been there ( people generally have routine, do things more often than you think and also can behave similarly depending on community)but you haven’t noticed them till now and that can make you uncomfortable and paranoid because to you it’s something new and you can’t understand. Maybe it’s just starting to mean that you are starting to live in the moment and just accept things for what they are instead of trying to find a answer or explanation and letting yourself be trapped in your own thoughts ? Just let it happen.",6.162346938775508,8.583228721088439,5.322193877551023,78.72369897959184,67.91156462585032,7.348979591836735,30.617346938775512,8.07648339933343,2.3599346938775505,670,27,107,9,12,201,93,147,0.068,0.898,0.034,-0.5994,0,1,1,0,0,0,12.0,1,7,2,0,10,2,0,0,5,0,16,0,0,2,0,30,28,15,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,11,10,0,0,8,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,6,11,2,16,23,2,14,0,0,2,0,10,4,0,5,11,83,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12389512187256665,0.12891173315465976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09444210386590388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416005352019606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13700149631019698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31684685132632656,0.0,0.0756895407133668,0.0,0.13680344116925688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10341502222601577,0.0,0.4669351961619114,0.16876099761218116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496295295780363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35277099199594925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107406923172212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17634092346539698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119270427506216,0.0,0.0,0.4386327100888015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058533223404276,0.19854202149758712,0.0,0.12299478802576334,0.09033922038355936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518531082216702,0.0,0.0,0.16128454362384895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tgoodluckkid,2019/09/19,"Smoking cbd for schizophrenia I seen a post online that cbd may help with schizophrenia and wanted to know more. I personally smoke the flower and seem okay when I do.",4.247956989247314,6.941713580645164,3.6658064516129047,87.18537634408602,74.48387096774194,5.423655913978496,23.23655913978495,6.42735559955562,0.6188623655913976,135,4,24,1,3,40,26,31,0.0,0.845,0.155,0.5574,1,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,7,6,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,3,4,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3528954628386963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893453923640139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4597111690791568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5042323330523392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4792971485781946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105377189953889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Deku_is_a_broccoli,2019/09/19,"Is it really worth it? I just need to vent, I am at my point of my life where I am not wanting to live anymore. I really can't do this anymore I can't go out without being talked to by the news and people walking around me trying to get me and what not. I don't want to deal with it anymore I just can't as much of a gift this is it's also a fucking curse. I am really at the point where I am thinking of killing myself or I'll end up doing it to someone because my voices and thoughts are harrasing me too. I never feel safe I am always being watched by every fucking little thing. I've almost striked two people and a car today but I didn't because I just didn't. The news is mocking me and so is people walking around me. I saw shadow figures just watching me on the bus on the way home just telling me to kill myself and what not. I am always angry and anxious as well as paranoid. I don't know what to do....Do I have a chanse in life? Do I deserve love and care? I doubt it, I curse my parents for giving me this damn problem of mine and just giving birth to me in general. I am not sure what to do anymore I just want to sleep and never wake up....Someone please fucking help me....(I am diagnosed with schizophrenia but sometimes I wonder if they did it right)",1.3004458794587954,2.906940697416978,3.313380996309963,91.41897678351783,79.29520295202951,5.402275522755228,23.83779212792128,5.985473137389443,0.4743319803198025,983,34,215,6,24,333,127,271,0.152,0.733,0.115,-0.9099,1,0,0,0,0,3,29.0,0,0,1,0,15,14,7,1,9,0,28,9,2,0,3,51,47,19,2,6,16,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,15,15,0,1,6,0,1,4,14,9,1,1,5,5,40,5,34,40,1,26,0,0,3,4,9,16,4,5,5,161,55,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10500139437075258,0.0,0.0,0.08385590624352722,0.1745025961591365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11846110818964177,0.4159688073565115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18669393214106175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12784245396467492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069109963040414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10810528484926006,0.0,0.10642993389558182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287417373347108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08834844267245841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05301998867123643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908220674369487,0.05478463146241108,0.20118109952263566,0.05959392960986368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07028494653200854,0.0,0.10518237983779116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23202245313498765,0.0,0.05762790280158218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148130382024734,0.0,0.10509651839859023,0.0925926409619298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09463956925132404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07708361575937321,0.07775180697286442,0.16174783960633127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11643379051189665,0.0,0.0,0.21808860776694652,0.0,0.0,0.11510397047052225,0.19825177400914146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10033614297611176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152656644735087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954922859113411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493498047781967,0.0,0.1776938085205497,0.0,0.10370848184776976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988286044096898,0.0,0.0,0.08428189506500408,0.0916516084385878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06966382791024038,0.06718957489394302,0.0,0.08324653349741487,0.0,0.0,0.09939431038549734,0.0,0.0,0.07119254922378794,0.0,0.10243225292977656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855461115894756,0.08323239374264745,0.0,0.0,0.09428106097940116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108057738298662,0.11371538620966695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lilcowpoke,2019/09/19,"What has worked for you? I’m curious about how you guys take care of yourselves in regards to schizophrenia? Lots of people take antipsychotics, but that being only a piece of the puzzle, what ELSE? Not just medical things, but personal. Art seems important to lots of people, music. There’s also organizations like Fountain House and Hearing Voices Networks. And simple stuff like eating well and getting downtime. Please share?",5.835000000000001,9.331000277777779,4.964444444444447,75.50000000000003,74.0,6.933333333333335,28.44444444444445,8.07648339933343,2.5842444444444443,348,14,48,6,8,104,59,72,0.0,0.737,0.263,0.9629,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,1,6,5,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,1,0,12,9,7,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,2,5,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,5,9,8,3,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,4,2,34,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675217598744709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21357968750315096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21435120626202608,0.17499436998389953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094450979994725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20741897580055868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361001422906313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24171277519262085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20468352381840146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35618625472983856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110299176360413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159319625815608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29045529025780203,0.18291059796257028,0.0,0.22994706712443905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19070349807641285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23980545512779025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3150070576211272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13916976840276615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18834844157826666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525045535344793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,brauvagenic,2019/09/19,"my brain is scattered this morning i was speaking to my mom and suddenly my brain felt all scattered and i said all my words in the wrong order i didnt think it affected my speech but maybe i was wrong.. i get constant hallucinations now and theyre terrifying and overwhelming and i feel backed into a corner by them and most of the things the voices say are scattered as well, they dont speak with any structure and theyre hard to understand a lot of the time maybe theyre trying to convert me to their language",4.015882352941176,5.686257009803923,4.537401960784315,85.24080882352943,72.0392156862745,7.452941176470588,27.45588235294117,8.07648339933343,1.6735647058823524,413,15,82,6,8,131,66,102,0.09,0.858,0.052000000000000005,-0.6886,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,3,0,3,4,0,1,6,0,6,2,2,1,2,20,12,9,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,3,9,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,5,9,15,1,11,7,4,9,0,1,0,0,8,3,0,2,5,56,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131290587172344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484548039986583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4310480148685831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086343066507228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.226270340035499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976192914808111,0.0,0.18537234722098714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008683147889704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17294801083382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16413666725286738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3879187950523252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22611499279334304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836487000890827,0.15353276422785006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12826357931924906,0.12370803654286515,0.0,0.0,0.11257755403280333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131078228949325,0.0,0.0,0.2009871166408055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17358831270104186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4221717890810095,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SMayakovsky,2019/09/19,"Meds made me fat; being fat made me get obstructive sleep apnoea Anyone else have sleep apnoea? I am currently not on medication but having sleep apnoea has made me feel like I am on olanzapine almost, I am extremely fatigued during the day (but I also wake up when at night/earlier), can't concentrate on anything, extremely forgetful and foggy-headed, can't really do much at all and am like a zombie. I can't do anything I want to do, my day-to-day life is hell - and worse, because all the things that I like to occupy my time with and give me a sense of purpose and meaning, that help me cope and manage my symptoms, I can't do because of sleep apnoea... I've even been thinking about committing suicide because I am so miserable and frustrated and hopeless because of this. I never had issues with weight prior to psych meds and never foresaw getting sleep, apnoea, it took me a while to even figure out what was wrong... I am currently in the long process of attempting to do something about it. So far I've had to wait to see a doctor to get a referral to see someone, who will contact me in a month to let me know they got the referral, who will then probably book an appointment to see me, hopefully do a sleep study, and eventually get it treated... So I'm only, what, 6 years away from not having to have my life ruined by Obstructive Sleep Apnoea (on top of being schizophrenic). Nice life.",8.096648755656112,6.5855243492647055,8.534705882352942,71.13925339366516,62.860294117647065,11.898642533936654,36.36425339366516,10.891193690592663,3.8929340497737552,1101,42,203,24,13,368,140,272,0.14800000000000002,0.769,0.083,-0.975,2,0,1,0,0,2,41.0,0,0,1,2,9,13,2,1,12,0,31,19,10,3,5,35,52,19,1,2,4,0,2,3,0,2,10,0,0,0,11,13,3,1,5,1,0,1,8,7,0,0,9,5,25,6,34,38,3,27,1,4,3,0,6,13,1,2,16,141,36,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08918831150449089,0.0,0.0,0.07122730828822502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06227812001125314,0.09126025705461926,0.1465900518744234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836819195071194,0.0,0.0,0.21717907035482048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17232365428529586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09116443807587746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07440453078386268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11765658776467787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04503524256904514,0.06362989403756986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18613652916934045,0.08544173475299444,0.0,0.0,0.07123547694536053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914090288956234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597001186787986,0.0,0.0,0.08846419978019969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09296340878329824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04894921041019692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910776308965026,0.18873318875155606,0.1305417558601765,0.0,0.0,0.07882200190072022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528336817131991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09702070123725216,0.1978679960106147,0.08972621236049748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07109288934932538,0.0,0.06547491655172184,0.0,0.13738881079093718,0.0,0.0,0.083583886402821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06773990502986771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960299112363686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057058969843367134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21292597918357997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6239232962439812,0.0,0.07546666804628907,0.06856857139534164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09742547180972196,0.0,0.0,0.0925753147521026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059172539769475764,0.05707090626183616,0.0,0.0,0.05193601978450826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895735407412676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0525343639420553,0.0,0.0,0.10846031253234424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907674691237602,0.0,0.0973814122119925,0.0,0.057356598700702276 schizophrenia,lotheratrem,2019/09/19,Nervous for a psychiatrist assessment Can anyone tell me what a psychiatrist assessment is like/your experiences with it? I have one tomorrow after being referred by a mental health nurse for psychotic symptoms and would like to go in with an idea of what to expect.,8.249716312056737,9.58314659574468,8.596595744680851,61.33333333333334,61.76595744680851,12.224113475177305,36.94326241134753,11.855464076750405,5.159573049645392,218,10,32,7,3,72,38,47,0.047,0.897,0.055999999999999994,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,5,2,0,0,0,7,6,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,10,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,26,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.233706464443709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269481765686019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18995473804819396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.355278579030716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3773131844104912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265828857052103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368325458601309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264878183264035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3474004915621745,0.0,0.0,0.2921380984040031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374325606303789,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,introvertgenius,2019/09/19,"How do you stay focused? One of the biggest problems for me with my schizoaffective disorder is staying focused on things. I get distracted very easily with everything. It takes me 3 times longer to finish anything it feels. Video games are my go to most of the time, but I have trouble even staying focused on them. I will be playing, and get the urge to check Twitter, then to check Reddit, then, oh right, I'm playing a game. It is like that with everything though. Having conversations with people, I am not fully focusing on the conversation. I am looking around at things going on around me, looking at the pictures on the walls, looking at just random things. It is one of the reasons why I am taking a break from therapy. My therapy sessions weren't being helpful, because I wasn't talking about anything for enough to really make a difference. Is there something that anyone does to help with their focus? Is there maybe a medication that I could ask about? Maybe that wouldn't be a good thing though. I'm already taking quite a few meds.",4.783903846153844,6.8890390923076925,5.017483974358978,80.7969951923077,70.8974358974359,7.746794871794872,30.649038461538463,8.472884824447931,2.5149038461538464,833,36,145,14,16,262,116,195,0.077,0.8190000000000001,0.105,0.6736,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,2,1,11,7,0,1,13,0,20,1,0,3,0,20,35,7,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,12,8,0,0,2,5,2,2,4,3,0,2,2,4,17,4,29,27,3,24,0,0,3,0,11,13,0,2,6,108,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12498771327745276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07919560118649932,0.0,0.18641036826508867,0.20165483736903908,0.10588491782335434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06904361852431967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09043069325565377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11833494835643628,0.1298083551920115,0.0,0.09911656137471923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170301848640568,0.0,0.07480865029236691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035856206631982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057268798563458616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11834970554402313,0.0,0.1287390976861416,0.09499900461743413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15183460222686573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05533421600512802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853353015564252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07560343376504194,0.0,0.22757431441917506,0.0,0.12580883058766862,0.11409980469534285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15349886856123715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07852178558942932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083766802811602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12046834841599345,0.0,0.0,0.07255869989349842,0.11645246048898912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09672534570873896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08719481630422159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3621674769036847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554773571078251,0.09103590913520494,0.0,0.0,0.25905051575970484,0.0,0.3009856341154111,0.0,0.22255917817043727,0.0,0.13208826179482785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09345322099193598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10220156704554548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,burntoutservergirl,2019/09/19,"Am I schizophrenic? For as long as I can remember I’ve always been extremely paranoid. When I was a kid I don’t have many memories and the ones I do have I remember random bits and pieces. I do remember having terrible anxiety and horrible nightmares. I was scared of everything. I was having violent nightmares that left me sleep walking, screaming, crying, peeing the bed, and all kinds of crazy stuff. My grandparents thought it was so bad they thought that I was possessed. They tried to do some kind of cleansing thing on me with the Bible. It was nuts. From then on the nightmares wouldn’t be as frequent and I learned to just deal with them. As a kid and young adult I’ve always been scared of someone “coming to get me” always an uneasy feeling that someone was always watching me, breaking into my house, following me down the street, creeping in my window, being in my closet, under the bed, literally any and every worst scenario you could think of I already thought about it. I would triple check the locks, the windows, anything that could lock I wanted it locked. When I was still in school and living with my parents my worst fear was someone coming to break into the house and hurt me. Then as I moved out and lived on my own I was convinced everyone was trying to harm me, follow me home, break in while I was sleeping, everything imaginable. I had to put bells on my door and boxes in front of my front door at night just so I would hear if someone was trying to get in. I was completely alone. No pets or anything. It was traumatizing. I barely got any sleep for the whole year I lived there unless it was daylight. Now I’m living with my SO and we live in the not so nice part of town. We have a big dog that would literally kill anyone who got in the house to protect us, but I’m still always so scared someone is going to break in. My own mother had said I’ve been like this forever and a lot of my family, friends, and SO think I’m just crazy and make fun of me for being like this. I don’t remember what I found online that I was reading but I realized how it’s really not normal to feel like this. And I feel like I should get help for it and maybe take control of my life a little. And stop being so scared all the time. I just don’t know where to start especially bc I don’t have insurance currently.",3.8106572045664926,5.215291855291582,4.605859919777847,85.60238444924406,72.1317494600432,7.710435050910213,26.40351743289108,8.238735603445708,1.6167523480407269,1831,61,368,28,35,590,213,463,0.129,0.807,0.064,-0.9614,3,1,0,0,0,0,44.0,3,1,3,1,20,24,2,5,19,0,49,6,4,3,2,75,78,41,1,10,11,2,3,4,1,5,2,3,9,3,21,29,0,3,17,1,1,10,8,14,0,1,29,7,60,10,56,38,13,56,0,1,1,0,18,25,0,5,21,265,81,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07197868815050049,0.07669247246821591,0.0,0.2891383906802017,0.0,0.0,0.09452167822404202,0.0,0.05316557270135233,0.0,0.0,0.04859442823885215,0.0,0.1143814192697874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0580277010548708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07587352065650962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11973228010854453,0.07286704693581196,0.0,0.07794761293721776,0.11097656355061923,0.0,0.07633999228917114,0.0,0.07164910728740076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058554834359303524,0.06640805861902803,0.12492015573544844,0.0,0.06551627405746838,0.07820426699680907,0.10542042034242492,0.09929838341606156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0762006730468254,0.05369377327121543,0.0,0.10892908546028043,0.0,0.03949716114479261,0.0,0.11116736574117002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07832899187768863,0.0,0.0465828630097317,0.0,0.06971188900015761,0.0,0.0,0.2405731460528772,0.07439875661657316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07688894054039594,0.1447423809630506,0.03819413450818659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0755094862469779,0.0,0.04908830150631841,0.13581232030713986,0.06965498248094593,0.3068388412072389,0.061503303476648175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05908448420021334,0.0,0.0,0.04639027397562634,0.0704597894241777,0.06981981022535508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07386508773096137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652189110556378,0.06809301896235259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0470934599983542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07716900390113285,0.07525926834248672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06986441336193601,0.0,0.0,0.06951653638628252,0.0,0.044522024989439635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3149095181591896,0.0,0.0661082553972325,0.0,0.2783174040797863,0.0703354123721828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20864375922805964,0.0,0.2944260025943324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04919085051110695,0.0,0.11100195280764112,0.058103213608598436,0.0,0.0,0.07955827287815855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052253643344794716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04617120325756212,0.08906267749784158,0.0,0.16552030231021508,0.04052468484876972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141553188759772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08359721133470177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04099156137331481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775917328717815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14810757875162112,0.0,0.0,0.04475425910548186 schizophrenia,Reeddddit,2019/09/19,"Does anyone else dislike sexual thoughts? I’m not schizophrenic but I am slightly paranoid, which is part of my mild autism, and sexual thoughts make me go psychotic. I feel like hurting other people when I think of sex (but I never do anything at all) or other people attack me for disliking orgasms, and I get very defensive, which is why I never talk about sex and hate talking about sex on reddit because everyone attacks me for disliking orgasms or masturbation or girls. I am also straight.",8.398666666666667,8.557465977777781,8.343333333333334,67.305,61.444444444444436,11.2,40.22222222222222,10.793553405168565,4.735488888888889,398,20,61,9,5,129,61,90,0.252,0.679,0.069,-0.9646,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,4,0,0,0,5,6,2,1,3,18,14,10,0,0,6,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,4,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,2,1,11,1,8,12,2,7,0,1,0,5,3,3,0,3,4,43,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526826994039584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13349923934572944,0.1956252837607496,0.15711505435095394,0.0,0.0,0.43440963120193865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11638614287386305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670798043306604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594933864690645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18243707423598785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965374456652126,0.13639689913777178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09975046233761996,0.0,0.10850710997623753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18849896682170567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20438922272655966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09327633903656976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12744395835559252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945063488090253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067532316267754,0.0,0.2647267901552155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069166580117733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12233706755036727,0.0,0.30314633804076146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15753316762444894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17228016778850827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DuckDemure,2019/09/19,"Does anyone have any tips for dealing with anhedonia? I'm just so bored all the time. I used to rely on drugs and alcohol for relief, but now I'm trying to stay clean and sober (10 days so far!) I'm really struggling though with the boredom. I plan on asking my doctor if I can go down on my antipsychotic dose or maybe up on my Wellbutrin to see if that helps but my appointment isn't for a couple weeks. Anyone else go through this and have some tips?",3.2425345622119828,4.480013161290323,4.436589861751155,86.91774193548392,73.3010752688172,7.464823348694317,22.963133640553004,7.957251820313856,0.9695972350230408,356,9,76,5,7,117,65,93,0.092,0.809,0.099,0.1759,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,1,3,0,4,4,0,1,1,14,12,11,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,7,1,15,12,2,14,0,0,1,0,3,7,0,4,4,46,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319756916578665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14761114736131278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035527697974977,0.22240799655124247,0.0,0.0,0.20292579135404626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401774866315356,0.0,0.13998849716528622,0.22378373158035866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221744786127515,0.1899544058466515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25172564038444795,0.0,0.1813293448874472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24672525429683095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14549360496843936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21807023509433116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13905692990263946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172972120147871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23136163098628004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269227051868815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132645436278596,0.0,0.1265719216877168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473723911669308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874738362021493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17411586464512258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thebluevertigo,2018/11/02,"I have an unbearable schizophrenic friend Hey, so I've known this guy for about two years and saw him have a psychotic break and get hospitalized. I used to do drugs like oxycontin, Percocet, mushrooms, and weed with him while making shitty rap music. He usually brought that shit around. I haven't touched any of the opiates in a year and a half now, haven't touched a psychedelic since June, and smoke high cbd medical weed now. I don't drink. Anyway. This fucker got diagnosed with schizophrenia and his devout Christian family encouraged him to quit taking his medication. He's an unbearable person to be around when he's drinking or smoking. Basically a petulant, drug addicted child. Like, physically his breath makes me want to vomit and i have to get away from him. I smoke him up sometimes and he always takes way more than his share and basically talks shit. He's a mooch and walks all over my property. Literally one time he just walked his dumb as straight into my parents' house. I went to a music fest in town and caught him trying to buy drugs in my car without my permission AND HE FUCKING SAT ON MY PAINTING. He used to use the place i gave him a key to to work on music to deal oxycontin. Then a bunch of my shit got stolen from there and I suspect he traded it for pills. One of the items was a camera that i had a lot of photos on and another was my MFLB, weed, and cigs. I went to an event at a bar in town this holloween and left my car unlocked after smoking him up and I'm pretty damn sure he slammed some beers in my car because I found empties of his favorite beer on top of my car. I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY. HE CAME WITH HIS COUSIN WHO FUCKING DROVE. I locked it after that and have been since. I've told him repeatedly he can't just use my stuff like it's his, and it pisses me off so much because literally nobody else has ever gone in my car. I can trust random strangers more than this guy. The other thing that makes me angry is he'll basically harass women. Women will be telling him to fuck off (politely) and he just won't. He offered this group of women a fucking open beer on the street outside the bar that he drank out of and was getting mad that they wanted him to leave. I had to pull him back into the bar. I have to avoid him when i want to smoke and he gets legitimately mad when I don't smoke him up as if it's my job. I don't want to be this guy's baby sitter as he refuses to do literally anything to help him self. I'm not sure how to tell him to gtfo my life without hurting his feeling but at the same time question why i should care. He's like an abuser and also a person who legitimately needs help and will not find proper help from his family who thinks he needs to pray more or some stupid shit. It's all very frustrating. 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Lately I’ve had this delusion that makes me think I’m delusional. Like I feel that I might have a psychotic break but nothing happens. I have these spikes thinking I’m delusional but then go away after about an hour of thinking long and hard but them come back a couple hours later. This has been going on for about a month now. I have had 3 psychotic break In a span of 2 year. I have been symptoms free for about a 8. But lately I’ve been struggling with this. Am I going threw something or am just paranoid about going threw another break?,2.449210526315788,4.965192956140356,3.0202631578947354,90.32934210526315,79.96491228070175,5.905263157894738,22.657894736842106,7.1686216300943375,0.8568210526315787,463,15,90,6,12,144,69,114,0.07400000000000001,0.868,0.057999999999999996,-0.1531,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,1,6,0,14,1,0,1,0,16,30,7,0,0,6,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,5,0,1,7,0,1,0,0,7,2,9,3,13,22,0,26,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,13,59,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17748127705845587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11834879975447155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15902302017190587,0.13014859220574307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14580037420198635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872802365786365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08558169231400875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3847718172313304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496738739689021,0.0,0.1516215004736977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333691435885061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3818597302443759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08269067917219057,0.0,0.0,0.14978758699699568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11298071495585435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17955549079039582,0.0,0.0,0.13509974488712595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16240716403682154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13030271504745425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769447191262401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759233802469323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4338135612165444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10899629939054756 schizophrenia,Syn13x,2018/11/02,I went to the doctor today I finally went for the first time. They're giving me antipsychotics and something for my depression and made me an appointment with a psychiatrist. Just sucks is that the fastest I could get in was June 10,4.194545454545455,6.632443000000002,4.522727272727273,82.22909090909094,73.54545454545455,8.945454545454545,26.90909090909091,9.516144504307137,2.6253363636363645,188,7,35,5,4,59,36,44,0.139,0.807,0.054000000000000006,-0.5859,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,5,0,3,1,0,1,0,6,9,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,4,0,6,0,5,4,0,9,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,6,24,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333442775460043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517214365527441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29913850574043144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201544163749906,0.0,0.24859455428883945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526927724632136,0.2803605594607845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27654164037658474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249945309912027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17041802352264154,0.0,0.2770264655379474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5418522943585814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GRCCRaiders20,2018/11/02,"How to Meditate Through Pain Around four months ago, I was diagnosed with a crippling panic disorder, on top of having schizophrenia and anxiety. I couldn't sit in my car without having a nervous break down, talk to people outside of my immediate family, or explore any where outside of my house. By employing the practice of meditation, I was able to control my mind and alleviate suffering through a change in perspective. &#x200B; How to Meditate: Sit on the floor, a comfy pillow, or the edge of your bed and place your hands, palms up, one on top of the other. You can keep your eyes open or closed (I usually keep them closed). When you are comfortable, start to ""view"" your mind as they are. Pretend you are watching a waterfall from afar and your mind is a rapid current of water. As you watch your thoughts, the key is to not become attached to them, not to place any meaning to what you are witnessing. When we attach ourselves to thoughts: past memories, fears of the future, and our perception of reality, we become angry, frightened, and depressed. After watching your thoughts, emotions, and perceptions, for a good minute or two, you want to then focus your attention on something specific: a sound, your breath, the feelings of anger, fear, anxiety, depression, physical pain. Do this for 2-3 minutes at a time, keeping your attention on the object at hand. It is normal to be distracted by the mind, it happened to me too, but when that happens, you want to focus back on the object. There isn't a specific length of time you should meditate. A general rule of thumb for meditation is that you meditate for as long as your comfortable. In the beginning you may only last a couple minutes before you become fidgety. Practice makes perfect, the more that you practice meditation, the better you will get at sitting still and cultivating awareness. Also, don't expect your life to become completely centered and blissful right away. It took me a period of a month to get back into the routine of things, and I still experience panic attacks out of no where. The key difference is that when the pain, anxiety, depression, or in my case panic, arises, you will have the awareness to kill it with kindness. &#x200B; I used to believe that meditation was pseudo science and wasn't helpful. Since then, I've learned that several universities and scientists have researched meditations effects on different regions of the brain. I've learned that most of what my therapist had taught me, largely can be attributed to meditation. Since practicing meditation, I've noticed a drastic change in my panic disorder, anxiety, and surprisingly the frequency of my delusions. I can drive, where as before I couldn't sit in my car for more than five minutes, I can venture to the mall, packed restaurants, and walk my dog. I still experience panic when I push myself too far, but I just let it happen and it doesn't persist for more than a few minutes at a time. Hopefully this is helpful. If anyone has questions feel free to ask me in the comments. &#x200B;",8.081458333333334,8.607289770491803,7.8444711976320605,69.37878329918036,62.04189435336977,11.161224954462659,39.560621584699454,10.886138598105592,4.638060519125683,2440,123,393,59,32,779,260,549,0.147,0.775,0.078,-0.9893,3,0,1,0,0,0,97.0,3,26,3,7,22,28,3,9,38,0,37,12,6,7,1,77,61,38,1,9,12,0,4,0,0,4,5,1,2,0,19,25,1,4,15,2,1,7,10,19,0,4,10,10,59,10,85,42,5,78,0,4,5,0,38,38,0,10,28,295,78,5,0.06316734837097161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05599404303115823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050514905670531615,0.0,0.20532538670672504,0.2302657268446548,0.08591192598586778,0.0,0.19329139442863064,0.0,0.0,0.04416807869498808,0.0,0.0,0.05623233230571833,0.0590529437616229,0.07186197790647472,0.05934780313648291,0.09714358361911447,0.0,0.0,0.27905349387689465,0.1075015219373055,0.0711679705225575,0.0,0.05586638639400743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07051565147837513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13364535776998904,0.0,0.06622976295786857,0.0,0.07084755242669827,0.0,0.06989346951031221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16321783377568672,0.06411352893429881,0.0,0.13199286912580252,0.1447905075910987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07105476482469045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235795751413036,0.059548554294113085,0.14216165697108785,0.06387861860563697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06600466477534851,0.0,0.0,0.05298177485902659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16757603265323578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846794842050097,0.0,0.0,0.06273942978489062,0.0,0.07288663900956538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16843812478938025,0.06988531195120169,0.06577907287490879,0.0,0.0514898197560211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06459289342810817,0.044616966234843125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05590111554777904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04216469554012228,0.0,0.0,0.06880776051871151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551240594712493,0.0,0.1008391496361067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06189058970558939,0.0,0.07191644479071721,0.0,0.0,0.04280383003999543,0.048041614865856536,0.20164353688774944,0.3705663657390776,0.0,0.0,0.060300381554543925,0.04379228584953428,0.0,0.13199286912580252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07076188670229126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053944570368282006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07136112378832349,0.0,0.1045053666516693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04862931085339645,0.0,0.0,0.04471017429753151,0.0,0.1513365780169447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050771521883957435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07334216008164839,0.04196557944665435,0.0,0.0,0.1504434562358066,0.11050016644041896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07018124826831752,0.0,0.0,0.06170532078373552,0.0,0.0,0.054556307663749706,0.06956991001486684,0.0,0.07451547735752385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06089106969753338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302657268446548,0.0 schizophrenia,Zurevu,2018/11/02,"Anyone here taking creatine? If so, what effects have you noticed? Wondering if it has any adverse effects on those of us with schizophrenia.",4.942499999999999,8.430078250000005,4.738333333333333,75.34,79.0,6.533333333333335,37.16666666666667,7.793537801064563,3.8142666666666663,114,7,15,2,3,35,22,24,0.11,0.8440000000000001,0.046,-0.3939,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,6,4,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,0,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916739889809541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999043392581148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4883176831325503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224874733400097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5159267705738712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4651353660281518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Attemptingtoadult,2018/11/02,"Does he mean what he says during episodes? I've posted here before, husband has schizophrenia and has been in a solid state of auditory hallucinations for 3-4 weeks now. He has been taking his prescribed meds, but refused to stop smoking weed, even going as far to lie and hide smoking from me. Every time, I ask him to stop smoking, he says it's fine, and then he smoked and spirals into a worse state. He will then agree that he needs to stop, but won't. What I need to know is, does he mean what he says to me? About me? I have tried to be nothing but supportive, admittedly there was a learning curve with learning how to respond to his hallucinations, but that's not really what I'm worried about. Since April he has repeatedly told me he wants a divorce, is thinking about a divorce, didn't know what he was doing when we got married, wants to fuck other women, wants to be single and free... He has said I'm controlling and don't want him to have any fun or enjoyment, when from DAY 1 of the relationship, I have encouraged him to make his own choices and be true to himself, because I believe in individuality. I tried to be super understanding, I told him at first that it's normal to doubt yourself, to see hot women and have desires, etc. He escalated it to telling me about specific girls he would see through out his day, and how he wanted them. I told him he needed to keep that info private because it's hurtful to me. I lost count after the 5th or 6th time he said we should divorce, and it has happened 2 or 3 times since. I told him if he said he wanted a divorce one more time, that is what he would get... So now he has switched to talking about all the scenarios that COULD happen if we were to divorce...which to me, is not really different than saying he wants a divorce. He's still thinking about leaving me, all the time! So logically, I think he wants a divorce. But he whole heartedly denies it now. Saying he wants me to be his wife because I'm good to him, I take care of him, I'm a good person... But that makes me feel like he wants a nurse and the security of a wife, but as he has stated before, he doesn't think he should have to put much effort in to the relationship itself. Last night, on our 1 year anniversary trip he smoked entirely too much. He kept saying he wanted to talk about stuff, he wanted me to get angry(about what he didnt say) but the second I would answer he would start screaming at me. At one point, he pushed me into the bedroom and said I needed to go in and shut the door or he would hurt me. Later I came out to use the bathroom, I did not look at him or say anything, but he started telling me I wasn't allowed to be angry or direct my anger towards him. I take issue with this. I have so many reasons to be angry with him, and repeatedly have swallowed it. I never get loud, I control what I say because I know I can't take words back, and I feel like I have been extremely forgiving. I understand that he is gping through a very hard time, and I have given him SOO many second chances to treat me better. We are now at the hospital, because things got so bad after I went to bed that he wanted to kill himself. So at 2 am I loaded him in the back seat with the windows and doors childlocked because he said he would throw himself out of the moving car, and drove an hour and a half to the hospital. He's been passed out for the past 4 hours, and I'm sitting by his bed wondering if this is a toxic relationship now. I think he wants to leave but is too scared to do it. I think he doesn't want to loose his sole supporting person. Last night, he even suggested that if we get divorced he could pay me to be his caretaker. I think these things because of what he has said to me, and the anger and meaness lately. Before I make a decision, I would like to hear from people who can maybe help me see his perspective. I have not divorced him thus far because I don't believe in hasty decisions, especially when I don't know if he means what he says. If he means it, I'm at the end of my rope. I have been in abusive and controlling relationships in the past and I swore to myself that I would never stay in another one, but it's starting to feel like I'm breaking that promise. 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Because at one point along the way I wasn't really kidding anymore.",2.955217391304348,4.8901473478260895,5.312391304347828,77.45815217391308,75.52173913043478,8.078260869565218,28.89130434782609,8.841846274778883,2.711278260869565,91,4,16,2,2,32,22,23,0.268,0.732,0.0,-0.7362,0,0,0,0,0,1,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,3,1,2,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3913126229955358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24052941040950326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35691590396599715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4365390535271324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26737440144852265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3730011497450852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25277500916780393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31378207631430544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31319546790649755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,organizationfetish,2018/11/02,"I just want to be loved It’s a dire need. I *need* to be loved. And yet it’s the reason I am alone... All i can daydream about tonight is killing myself and being found by my now ex. Maybe that way I would have gotten his attention. I’m safe. Just feeling disgusting.",-0.7721428571428568,1.3918989285714325,1.047142857142859,100.0228571428572,95.42857142857142,4.228571428571429,17.714285714285715,5.985473137389443,-0.4267428571428571,204,6,48,2,8,66,43,56,0.171,0.616,0.213,0.1779,0,1,0,0,0,1,11.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,2,0,8,2,0,1,1,14,17,2,1,4,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,8,3,4,11,1,4,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,3,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.289927959847958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415434122772858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069339862003828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309706306665898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5053040524526582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812320654314125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4151361154716539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878195289435432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651127585862356,0.22219916144063925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19885760284902565,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EuphoricPersonality,2018/11/02,Anyone familiar with art therapy? I’ve been through so many therapist and I hate talking so my wife recommended I should try this anyone else have positive or feed back about their personal experiences?,5.418428571428574,8.873081628571434,6.028214285714286,67.42803571428573,75.57142857142857,11.5,34.464285714285715,10.686352973137794,5.457428571428572,167,9,25,7,4,54,31,35,0.096,0.7490000000000001,0.156,0.3234,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,4,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4074596938136681,0.2985388479141054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22404243068138244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24339886404779335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28501180794180986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876635540463922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29539934170886256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544095091201411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341889139456582,0.0,0.0,0.3332023567355529,0.3382983250966328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978183543557333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,k85734,2018/11/02,"Stiffness On 3mg risperidone, but I’m experiencing muscle soreness pretty regularly? Is this common? Is there any medications they’ve given you to aid this? Any input will be greatly appreciated. My next psychiatrist appointment isn’t inky mid December. 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My therapist hinted at the fact I may be drug tested. I’m not sure why they’d want to. ,3.108761904761902,5.014551685714288,4.46857142857143,83.80476190476192,75.0,8.095238095238095,20.238095238095237,8.841846274778883,1.2299523809523811,139,3,28,3,3,46,32,35,0.055,0.818,0.127,0.3691,0,0,3,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,2,7,6,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,0,12,5,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938660810589344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322873077617063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19937508653834676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7926294909329912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530671578776377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21472655986562664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26452755077678625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13437971214922687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20558064153401426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,needhelpnow321,2018/11/02,"Unemployment I'm going to turn 30 and I've never had a ""real"" job and I don't have any degrees, but I did take college courses at a community college for awhile- mostly math courses. I don't know what to do. I'm scared my schizophrenia, depersonalization/derealization, melancholia, OCD, anxiety, depression, loneliness, too much free time on my hands, ... will soon transform into dementia. I recently volunteered once for Habitat for Humanity, but it was too stressful, not because of the work which I did finish successfully, but because of the social interaction with the people there. It scrambles my brain, gives me dry mouth, shrinks my penis as if the weather outside was freezing, makes me leak urine and need to urinate constantly, I don't know where to place my eyes when people are around which I think is how I got eye floaters, the wondering what people are thinking of me from my being an avoidant mute, the depression and sadness from seeing everyone else being social and lighthearted, intrusive thoughts involving the people around me, ... I was always a loner since I can remember. I had selective mutism in preschool and I would do weird things like stay up and draw at a table when everyone else had to sleep on their mats. I dreaded lunchtime because I had to eat alone. I would hide in the restrooms or library. I had romantic interests, but I could never imagine myself successfully being with those people socially, so I eventually just stuck to porn and masturbating. I'm lucky my parents paid off the house in which I live with them in, that they own a property that has 3 residences that can be rented out, and that I have a brother who will most likely get a ""real"" job and get married soon. I don't have to worry about financially taking care of my parents because they have retirement and a good health plan. I help one of my uncles by working under the table at his swap meet selling Latin American home remedy products to mostly 1st-generation Spanish-speaking immigrants. A part of me knows it's kind of snake-oily which is why I don't consider it a real job. I notice the two frequencies when driving to that place because on the way there I pass lots of outlets with official businesses and real shoppers. I've also helped my other uncle on my more American side of the family with his work, but only 3 times. I have no direction in life. I'm not on any drugs except maybe internet addiction. I read books regularly. I don't know why I'm scared if I am relatively safe. I guess I want a romantic relationship which I think I can never have because I'll never have a real job nor social skills. I also feel like I'm wasting away, getting uglier, losing my sex drive, ...",8.063840659745232,7.802023723658053,8.331619173845812,68.51041896767543,62.26043737574553,11.507517855827995,37.71511670716442,10.980518767755715,4.304327354392163,2155,96,365,51,27,710,269,503,0.136,0.757,0.107,-0.9207,9,2,1,0,0,0,66.0,0,0,4,8,18,22,0,5,26,0,43,15,8,2,4,69,76,29,0,7,12,3,3,3,0,4,4,0,2,1,20,21,1,2,12,2,4,4,14,10,0,2,14,6,58,13,54,53,8,45,0,4,3,2,22,25,0,10,17,254,78,15,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07604687914063388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07224859445674542,0.0,0.1115714265930916,0.05804452086276225,0.0,0.0,0.09487611642908657,0.0,0.0533649334248656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241994110990836,0.0,0.0,0.06554024968679775,0.0,0.0,0.2551441921081393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778733695346992,0.0,0.0,0.07112326913199016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07538397532989845,0.0,0.0556963522133612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016549912719265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808975188941613,0.07138018933338826,0.11654827121857575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333141522611252,0.0,0.0,0.0657619475475549,0.0,0.03527190891491926,0.04983536667573709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093375486853638,0.06691854898127643,0.03964526794064672,0.05850997963858399,0.05579211104448729,0.0,0.07684666787171424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07414984539986252,0.0,0.0,0.0935150796632248,0.0,0.0699732952433785,0.0,0.0,0.08049174977096725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27689752447232346,0.0,0.0,0.07264256859639973,0.153349420814037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049272373243103976,0.10224119288875852,0.0,0.06159788562860982,0.0,0.0,0.07804173057610048,0.0,0.05930603970916515,0.0,0.0,0.046564228625484254,0.0,0.07008162115251794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051280400883455014,0.05172491964346745,0.21520770595239894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07942032390534988,0.0,0.07429034744586657,0.047270051461231005,0.05305435529642435,0.0,0.0,0.15491674579637882,0.07554147619665802,0.0,0.2418082218084432,0.0,0.1457652203146838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06977721009458535,0.3970012721326915,0.0,0.0,0.06887793763493122,0.07489434277688653,0.07902259214727785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13968052054221006,0.0,0.05558835936003461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05770481350598025,0.0,0.06980871113257017,0.2844393404355293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07435310080257088,0.0,0.0,0.07990793418892571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10489916901546747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04634433643415012,0.1340949682422502,0.0,0.05538032392293831,0.08135328932375997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07587703414958888,0.06814375456947444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04114527188404754,0.0553709173546848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258920897318293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0756499359040452,0.1523546906312439,0.07084297280288493,0.0,0.0991086358860604,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,30387,2018/11/02,"New diagnosis I was originally diagnosed with Schizoid Personality Disorder, then I got diagnosed with Schizophrenia. After taking the MMPI and MCMI I was diagnosed with Schizotypal Personality Disorder w/ Borderline and Avoidant traits plus Delusional Disorder. Seems like I have an ""inorganic"" or a personality that developed to resemble Schizophrenia.",14.59117647058823,16.815544196078438,13.945882352941178,25.356470588235307,48.215686274509814,20.133333333333336,58.17647058823529,16.728156217252725,11.898576470588234,298,21,29,17,3,99,37,51,0.154,0.7979999999999999,0.048,-0.6808,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,3,3,0,1,0,10,6,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,6,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,5,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.54547939311586,0.0,0.0,0.6159405005663149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14327709328177418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08752026440370099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730175116382817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4692625062521231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630851400542268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13469330827279016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dmtoybdeky,2018/12/02,"Hi all, Trigger warning: TDLR I don't know if I'm schizophrenic. I don't know if anyone in my family has had schizophrenia. I was also abused as a child and my mom is a narcissist, so I don't know if this was just my interpretation of what was happening and what I was taught t believe. When I was a kid, before I was even 10, there was a black figure in my life, like a demon. I would see him with my two eyes, and he would tell me things no child should ever hear. I have this distinct memory of us getting ""married,"" I dressed up for it and everything. There are even pictures of me being dressed up, my parents probably thought I was just playing with my ""imaginary friend,"" but he didn't feel imaginary nor like a friend. He felt dangerous. As I turned ten, his presence was so terrifying that I developed another; a female who still appears to me, though not visually, time to time. In fact, at this point the visual stuff all stopped; they all lived in my head, quite literally; there was a couch, a tv... the female protected me, saying ""no"" after the male figure always told me I was worthless, terrible, sick... It all stopped for a brief time when the male figure and the female figure started a family and had their own child. They disappeared until about a year or so later, when I stopped visualizing them in my head, instead, they became internally audible thoughts (so it wasn't like someone was talking to me externally, but like someone was speaking to me via thoughts). Once again, there is a voice in my head that shouts at me and the other one telling me I'm doing okay, the best I can. It's so disturbing and so loud that I can't even work. I'm enduring emotional abuse at the moment, no longer physical but still just as bad. I'm moving out in about a month, so maybe this will go away, but it's been here all my life and I have a feeling it won't. There are other ""symptoms"" but this is the most disturbing to me. Does this sound anything like schizophrenia or perhaps something else? Thank you for reading. 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Innervoice as we all know is the voice you use in your head while you are talking to yourself. &#x200B; As a test I want you to think of the words Black and White simultaneously. Can anyone here use their innervoice to say this words simultaneously? Can anyone here have 4 difference voices talking simultaneously in complete full sentences? 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Cigarettes too. 🙏",1.0800000000000018,2.6339598571428624,2.343238095238096,85.7434285714286,117.09523809523807,3.5847619047619053,18.48571428571429,5.6839178017228535,0.4215257142857145,91,3,14,1,5,29,19,21,0.0,0.605,0.395,0.8316,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8081197572857781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5890182152398812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,redstarsx,2018/12/02,"Confused about weed triggering schizophrenia... I’m just wondering, do people with a genetic risk for schizophrenia develop symptoms after stopping consuming cannabis for ___ week/years or does it develop/trigger during the high and then go on to be psychotic. Or is it different for everyone? 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I'm on olanzapine, and I still seeing and hearing things, I feel weird and scared at moments. Anybody on olanzapine?",3.015000000000001,6.106636269230772,5.098846153846154,70.08365384615385,90.15384615384615,7.2153846153846155,33.42307692307692,8.07648339933343,3.672569230769232,117,7,18,3,4,40,20,26,0.191,0.809,0.0,-0.6072,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,5,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,5,0,5,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,13,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21018195242978396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4685052589782887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4187571648836048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41617147224419576,0.0,0.33124574943882856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3319651983294125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761614955200884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026223730991572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,queenscrownn,2018/12/02,I need help with a friend Hello ! My friend has schizophrenia and its hurting her so much but her parents don't believe in mental illness and she can't get professional treatment. It breaks my heart so much and I want to do something but I don't know what to do. She lives a distance away from me as well so i'm limited as to what I can do but suggestions would mean the world to me. ,0.0454886363636362,2.4008806625000005,1.5538636363636371,96.87568181818185,92.375,4.409090909090909,21.022727272727273,6.1124844417494595,0.11137500000000022,303,11,67,3,11,97,52,80,0.10099999999999999,0.765,0.134,0.1705,1,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,3,0,9,2,1,0,0,13,15,11,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,12,3,10,14,2,4,0,1,0,0,10,3,0,0,0,50,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22592478903751875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709217170105012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715653347275781,0.0,0.12563304096167832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28495219025268914,0.1611786249343254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25742276265367464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13215327875618346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123350060810675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619368865867553,0.0,0.0,0.24233216837164095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35353889576919684,0.1783017552462419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670079323749969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18512170990268276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14183249094590036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21620691934493674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17081944119343853,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,a-fuzzy-warm-blanket,2018/12/02,"the new flair choices They make me feel better about saying what I have. I like this new update, does anyone else?",1.504848484848484,4.218502818181818,1.7518181818181835,95.56439393939397,89.0,2.9333333333333336,11.87878787878788,3.1291,-1.5861393939393935,90,1,17,0,3,27,20,22,0.0,0.769,0.231,0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,9,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319425639232789,0.33988081210096205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933746108097076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902856854179732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771049870227191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677248707328303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16205900000291726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22142207403126532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6407440633350584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26379276721581363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Madnes5,2018/12/02,"Is anyone else unable to relate? I never followed. I always did my own thing. Noone respected me enough to join me. But they let be. Is there anything else to say? This didn't happen after I got this. I got this because of that. It's all related. A product of my environment. Imy not original. None of us are. We are just moulded by our interactions. I keep trying but it's a waste of time. I'm leaving this province and I'm going across the continent on my own. Will anyone truly miss me? No. Noone even knows how to contact me because they weren't real. Sad thing is that if you ask them they will feel so ething in that moment but will they feel that way tomorrow. Peace!",-0.15710561497326125,2.110972580882354,1.9179679144385064,92.3222192513369,98.9264705882353,4.531550802139037,17.946524064171122,6.351523495107088,0.10771764705882393,525,16,107,7,22,174,89,136,0.07,0.813,0.11699999999999999,0.8192,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,3,1,5,0,5,3,0,0,3,0,13,0,0,2,2,17,26,7,0,1,6,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,12,2,0,1,3,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,5,3,21,1,13,16,5,14,0,2,0,0,13,3,0,1,8,80,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627403376816474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735117132814175,0.20039742093211294,0.16094776235594754,0.0,0.1828432693902244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23845059713940944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32676822432849745,0.0,0.0,0.2020890421200936,0.0,0.1291804203970342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977848135248473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11115406236869056,0.0,0.31285044157119585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17295299059910674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738427444067213,0.0,0.0,0.10748704682034738,0.0,0.0,0.20709366565799384,0.0,0.1999963941077044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15084530898787488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22261574435138926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15553508267742733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25987269250641715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11404574953219287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13278770351967564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23526170927783616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15524431340124892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Malveron,2018/12/02,"Visual hallucinations and double takes. Whenever I have visual hallucinations, they're never persistent when I see them. When I see them I will quickly look again and it will be gone. Earlier today, I glanced at my thumb and saw that it was all bloody and the skin was flayed off. When I did a double take and looked again, it was normal. This happends the same way with other visuals. Does anyone else experience them like this?",4.602983725135624,7.0320831139240525,5.092441229656419,78.65341772151898,72.29113924050633,8.05858951175407,23.943942133815554,8.841846274778883,1.84336383363472,342,10,61,7,7,109,54,79,0.039,0.927,0.034,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,3,1,6,1,0,0,3,0,8,1,1,0,2,10,16,8,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,7,10,1,3,7,4,12,0,0,6,0,3,2,0,0,9,47,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811234677032771,0.26541222211329396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266834904218673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21639071034856808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25338617671669866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12655153740028044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4350487358875364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19978395164776624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537995438535821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41283510920450894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895245371020768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455351261376847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20561012211946766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,towlermb,2018/12/02,"What’s the funniest thing you did while in psychosis? I’m a guy and while in psychosis I decided it would be a good idea to walk the halls of the psych ward butt naked under the impression that it would somehow set me free from the ward. Immediately after stepping into the hallway a big male nurse spotted me and his eyes got really big and he ran towards me to get me back in my room. However, I wasn’t going to give up my freedom that easily. We proceeded to struggle up against each other as hard as we could for about a minute until I was eventually spread across the doorway, desperate to stop myself from returning. I was all sweaty by now and trying to convince him god had told me this would set me free but eventually he overpowered me and told me to get dressed while he guarded the door. Shortly after I was given a shot in the butt and I was off to sleepy town for the night.",6.124775280898881,5.825163162921349,6.66548314606742,78.97811235955056,66.24719101123596,10.041348314606743,32.406741573033706,9.642632912329526,2.800204943820225,705,26,142,13,10,231,109,178,0.035,0.866,0.099,0.85,2,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,2,1,0,0,4,6,0,1,15,0,12,3,3,0,1,21,22,13,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,8,10,0,2,2,0,2,4,1,1,0,0,12,2,22,7,32,5,2,35,0,0,1,2,13,17,2,1,12,104,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17132682455516005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778953306113529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328176334553751,0.21373926517579672,0.12662782690793742,0.18688211630083126,0.1782011863495685,0.0,0.0,0.2206165281146559,0.0,0.0,0.19959363194172952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25152491112641984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20909171041438995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273753126930533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18627879732046373,0.0,0.2329289647772747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14802479380218936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4258082306865296,0.0,0.15127308870654713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4748326285314971,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shrimpknees,2018/12/02,"I’m in love and scared There’s a woman who I’m head over heels infatuated with. She seems to like me too, but I’m so awkward and scared to tell her how I feel it’s like I’m a teenager punch-drunk again. She’s so...she’s a whole lot of things I want in my life. I’m really scared of feeling like this, because I feel vulnerable. I can’t get her off my mind and everyone I tell is telling me to go for it but I’m scared. I’m too old for this stupid awkward shit. But I want to hold her. I want to make her feel loved. When she touches my back I don’t want her to stop. But I don’t want to be creepy and weird, and I’m worried how she’ll think of me when/if I tell her I’m Schizoaffective. But god, this woman is stuck in my head. I want her to love me so badly. ",-1.1965460526315788,0.4821210738636381,1.3646770334928249,101.77721291866031,88.26136363636363,4.8416267942583735,16.081339712918663,6.05967700443912,-0.8834727272727276,583,12,161,5,19,199,78,176,0.23600000000000002,0.5770000000000001,0.187,-0.9407,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,10,16,2,6,3,0,7,8,4,3,0,30,35,15,0,6,5,0,5,3,0,1,1,0,0,2,7,6,0,2,6,0,0,1,3,10,0,0,1,5,30,6,19,32,2,11,0,0,0,3,21,5,1,2,8,87,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08957630063190328,0.097267195538012,0.07101334829705767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11131451885176093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23561042864567885,0.16644594048634678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06086303875927066,0.0,0.06620593313931462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23911185164778506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08228279484532809,0.17073850000486332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09903859662698693,0.3154197601268585,0.0,0.07776030702271708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11762521310327445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12224031807809553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07462871062738029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4665212109413413,0.0,0.0,0.10605129518920213,0.0,0.0,0.11957889013914835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973937711940432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4072817684700197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07739309629433656,0.07464432253769514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4122652605247702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13006081778487527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11830479056920135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ihavenosister,2018/12/02,"you ever just realize how much time went by like after spending so much time in solitude im just so taken aback ive been literally playing games for months and not leaving my room or talking to people and man its fucking scary now like nothing feels real and the real world is just like a dream it feels more fake than my time alone with my thoughts ",15.044571428571427,7.041244885714287,12.894285714285722,64.9557142857143,57.28571428571429,15.142857142857142,49.28571428571429,8.841846274778883,4.813428571428573,282,10,55,2,2,88,55,70,0.11199999999999999,0.745,0.14300000000000002,0.1063,0,1,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,8,6,1,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,1,17,9,7,0,0,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,4,0,0,4,3,1,1,1,2,0,0,4,2,5,4,7,5,3,11,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,1,10,34,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21698772387626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18951252221428885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21186768517140406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19368732362019256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263052385672744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218393554827087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070659560665554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672277647388687,0.0,0.3080258529825052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20102915103316754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14524688281982526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4769333054229935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16839507567613726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16632642511492385,0.3664984463630917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19421657007062645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jitjoo,2019/10/04,"Caffeine effects Hi, does anyone get disorganize d thoughts and pressured speech on after drinking coffee? I can't seem to handle any amount and it just makes me feel too crazy. It's hard to talk and words come out out of order.",3.659318181818183,5.9642781136363645,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727276,74.68181818181819,5.3090909090909095,24.63636363636364,5.985473137389443,0.6457909090909101,183,6,34,1,4,56,39,44,0.133,0.867,0.0,-0.5719,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,13,7,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,6,1,0,4,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,7,6,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25168228260278025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25878416149027844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3188103948760519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32387905187755583,0.0,0.0,0.362559393843606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18713486347429545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193363197279778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315390012014146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470461858935604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33692727033485703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29747424172689146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2938199171890507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cttnmthslv,2019/10/04,"I’m in a state of uneasiness I wouldn’t say it’s negative, but on the cusp of being negative. I feel dislocated or shifted within myself. My frontwards rather than inwards. Things feel and smell more noticeable. I’m paranoid. But again, not negative. I’d say it started last night as what I explained was “not upset. Content. But no energy” Like no momentum forward to do anything. I woke up still feeling strange and wary. My thoughts are somewhat scattered but still clear enough for me to be introspective in an orderly way. But it’s loud internally at the same time. I just feel removed from it. Shifted. I feel like I’m going to see something. Things are hard to focus on and I feel on the cusp of it misinterpreting something. The apple wasn’t the same as it was a second later. Just feel uneasy about everything like I’m being stalked by something. Not a person, I know. But a malevolent force. I’m not superstitious, so I know the force is my illness. But it *feels* like it’s lurking. I’m wary of it",1.40757264957265,4.104349005128206,3.081025641025643,85.83675213675218,89.71794871794874,5.965811965811964,25.68376068376068,7.3871296695380915,1.7168632478632475,796,36,149,15,27,262,106,195,0.16899999999999998,0.718,0.113,-0.8926,0,0,3,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,1,11,0,11,1,0,0,1,35,33,14,0,2,15,0,9,4,0,1,1,3,0,1,12,3,0,0,12,0,0,3,11,1,0,1,5,14,14,4,23,24,5,22,0,0,1,0,4,9,0,2,13,104,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182439808785625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15296500899456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330489067076301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5988282286347181,0.2115197707457394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413460706050856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13261486203507267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16271794760551578,0.120672449679814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892996831121275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13892561631113035,0.0,0.0,0.16854464836506095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12926291535651213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354548774256053,0.0,0.0,0.1179688022009762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3419055316988734,0.0,0.0,0.10478355301416008,0.0,0.2364500488575313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967025442332589,0.0,0.0,0.11752731244282995,0.08632337963488561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11750734996143165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MrsAndersonSL,2019/10/04,What to tell the doctor..... I was wondering what anyone's experience was with your first chat with your gp? My symptoms are not severe and are very mild and can mask most of it in public. I'm concerned whether a doctor would just dismiss it as depression or something and give me anti depressants... I know the wait list for a psychiatric referral is around eighteen weeks with the NHS ..thanks in advance,5.041599999999999,7.076373893333333,5.0183333333333335,81.34750000000003,70.06666666666666,8.200000000000001,29.83333333333333,8.841846274778883,2.5259333333333336,322,13,57,6,6,100,59,75,0.081,0.89,0.028999999999999998,-0.5881,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,2,2,3,0,0,5,0,7,3,0,0,0,16,13,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,7,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,2,0,6,1,10,10,1,6,0,2,0,0,6,3,0,3,2,41,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608040575045428,0.0,0.0,0.2047267498354952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3961547298971324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4707788719400605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22495994499375987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956168490393108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22061323665559945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12638839522100226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598065977125805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770462001047646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23903236376127596,0.0,0.0,0.2010085244618472,0.21173033247749812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897536845131472,0.0,0.0,0.18447229145380886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24939837259845074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16336783504871524,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pocanocs,2019/10/04,"ECT for Schizophrenia Does anyone have or know of someone who has had ECT done for treatment of schizophrenia? What were the side effects/results? Thank you.",5.398888888888887,8.786569629629632,2.7792592592592613,91.1666666666667,74.92592592592592,3.6,31.222222222222207,3.1291,1.0898000000000003,128,6,20,0,3,34,23,27,0.0,0.897,0.10300000000000001,0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,4,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3424302795054927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4285656186287573,0.5011633474822037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26914254635991275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4149462480204855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45087716103191205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,spergiliscous,2019/10/04,"Driving as therapy? 17M with GAD paranoia delusions and intrusive and thoughts. I recently got my license and I can’t stop driving. Something about it is so soothing, it completely calms my mind and I personally have found nothing that’s compares. Does anyone has similar experiences?",5.049863945578231,8.535555244897964,5.6562244897959175,69.056037414966,78.18367346938777,8.980952380952381,42.86054421768707,9.2995712137729,5.6190380952380945,233,17,32,7,6,75,41,49,0.085,0.794,0.121,0.4106,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,9,7,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,5,1,3,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20134566806483897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019165936697436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519924082561864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281676414858614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.315729106764892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23030487581978065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907536716074167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763017369787413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514322439915615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843220049710382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22168274850544697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240744274286653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3293030065858664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286050551799612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iwannagetrelieved,2019/10/04,"My girlfriend is acting really strange in the past month I am new to reddit so excuse me if I'm not so good at explaining things. So the problem is simple, as you can guess from the name of the subreddit. I am 22, she is 20 if age matters We are together for almost 2 years now, she has schizophrenia for 3 or so, we met at a park and everything was perfect until the first half of the first year. She was completely okay, as a person with schizophrenia can be, you know, she was not having breakdowns for months, everything was good, until this last month. We got out once, she got mad at me for literally laughting at her sweet face, she has really sweet face and I told this to her even before we were together, she was always smiling when I tell her so, but now she got so mad that she yelled at me and the sentece finished with ''I want to kill somebody right now to calm myself down'', I had no clue what to do because that was the first time this has ever happened, I tried to hug her, but she pushed me away with a punch almost to the stomach (I personally thing that she has no idea it was a punch) after that I gave my best to calm her down, nothing helped, so I continued going on and she followed me to a coffee, we sat and talked for a while, but it happened again, she was getting angry over absolutely everything, even at me when trying to calm her down. He psychiatrist took her meds down drastically because she had hard time at the university and this ''must help her with the studies'', guess, it is making it worse, I told her to go and talk to her about the meds, but she refuses and gets mad at me for saying that she treats me bad with this low med intake, one night she out of nowhere shouted at me for saying that ''you get crazy without the medication'', I've never said that, but for some reason she believes I did. I have no idea what to do now, she is not talking to her parents from looooong time ago and they can't help me with that. She wont visit the psychiatrist so her meds won't get any changes, I literally have nobody to help me with that, sadly I can't do it myself alone, I am also scared for my life",8.047934941520468,5.505386256944448,8.027368421052632,78.0071052631579,63.74537037037037,11.131773879142301,34.079434697855746,9.276330184999452,2.6959981481481483,1661,49,355,22,19,540,198,432,0.135,0.774,0.091,-0.9741,2,1,0,0,0,0,42.0,5,3,1,5,21,21,4,1,20,1,39,6,3,2,4,55,65,33,1,5,12,1,1,0,1,3,2,5,0,2,23,23,0,1,5,0,0,7,12,9,0,5,22,8,73,12,62,39,2,60,0,2,0,1,66,21,0,8,32,268,96,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07537180688492519,0.0,0.1702856500494117,0.0880629152819121,0.0,0.06799651371648356,0.07074974623038321,0.0,0.0,0.057821660519455365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07988619708275818,0.0,0.07099446590794356,0.10366402992906576,0.0,0.07235219598971812,0.0957969498225622,0.08923118460956066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08994789045060665,0.0,0.08914978511048208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11231981070240916,0.07691230126057975,0.0,0.0,0.2292518808178133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21697321230946587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776935751606107,0.0,0.0966462503039024,0.14263417631311326,0.2040129355561877,0.0,0.18733489982384505,0.0,0.15037919140378656,0.0,0.07616799791458873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279687404270313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919715445805145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09407040376683752,0.0,0.04672892654597517,0.06930881467214091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06005748434654985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056756560476322986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.377785830410584,0.08565632727282615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036045756309311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557850059161717,0.08212015296945084,0.0,0.07979261065528682,0.0,0.08158624267022603,0.0,0.0,0.0905515826651262,0.05761687917256584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441304957831123,0.0,0.0811684327043026,0.0,0.1484855817246876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08135989732578752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10894167191895217,0.08742249904813246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07261307668078038,0.08088068627075991,0.13523466629245678,0.08512742662700742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050258100077885,0.07431784032282472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297707322570492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14874077231867058,0.0,0.0,0.1624949659536982,0.09446875426514817,0.11545627175618033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05015146134566531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08196353929479905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08665035374226776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10950992937993376 schizophrenia,LordDunarote,2019/10/04,How man live in a third world country or get little to no support from your goverment? I'm really worried about my wellbeing. I'm unable to work so ma I supposed to support myself when my parents die?,2.41,4.759872000000001,4.535,80.36,79.0,7.0,30.0,8.07648339933343,2.55325,160,8,28,3,4,55,33,40,0.195,0.696,0.109,-0.5862,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,5,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,5,2,6,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,1,18,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061761386713542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15413172424148194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956797766115416,0.2605012212836855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275761908498621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889924013227921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6695528096161446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21477243129756235,0.2995992597178848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zephandrypus,2019/10/04,"The game CataclysmDDA has a trait ""schizophrenic"" with some of the best psychotic ""effects"" out there. The game [Cataclysm: Dark Days Ahead](https://cataclysmdda.org/) is a top-down roguelike (so insanely detailed) where you create a character and fail to survive the zombie apocalypse. Realistically, someone with schizophrenia is going to be low on medication. Fittingly enough, schizophrenic was a widely hated trait for a while. As someone put it best, ""Its more of a trait for people who like being shit on at every turn (also known as cdda players)"". But it got better. &nbsp; The hallucinations are very in-depth and there's a *lot* of code behind them. The game has randomly-generated NPCs that spawn. So, what can happen, is you find some guy, and start talking to him, then suddenly he attacks you, you open fire, and he disappears. The game has a system for hearing sounds, and hallucinations can abuse this. Hearing bumps and thumps and glass breaking, then checking and finding no zombies. Being woken up from sleep by things that aren't there. &nbsp; Of course, it's not meant to fully represent schizophrenia, just the aspects that most pertain to gameplay. &nbsp; If you guys have any questions or suggestions (it's an open-source game), I'm all ears.",7.0264082407156385,9.438019534562217,6.517267552182165,71.07237191650853,65.63594470046084,9.345513689346706,33.04120357820548,9.773937934552695,3.5892588235294127,1017,44,156,23,17,315,145,217,0.12,0.8109999999999999,0.069,-0.8909999999999999,0,0,0,0,1,0,65.0,0,5,1,6,8,9,3,0,17,0,15,6,3,1,1,28,26,19,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,3,4,0,2,12,12,0,0,6,5,1,3,3,5,0,0,4,5,7,4,24,19,9,21,0,2,0,0,22,10,1,7,7,108,19,1,0.0,0.16770908283423566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131944326088713,0.0,0.4600956953191562,0.0,0.09625625928842113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102921914431928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29708797586333113,0.1251860975653899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912855791816017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462550462730986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11925876528176285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587412966231967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08044395858690312,0.0,0.11320741423813473,0.0,0.0,0.28030595303739314,0.1251688234937111,0.0,0.0,0.1397475528009184,0.0,0.0,0.319065674399407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06915231597486082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12033750432610872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14259288947422766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09813030200856693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14229301074532635,0.15856412101095388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14529512432034986,0.0,0.0,0.1416484074659517,0.0,0.23986324559154865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10018711792636628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376946143039235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940369954474184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15396160273061307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11679042613170755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DankHorrigan,2019/10/04,"The Anarchy Initiative I want to start up a collab. It's basically going to be the Star Wars EU but wihout the movies. A whole world any artist, writer, or musician can play around with. Message me so we can spitball ideas. I already have a ton. But they aren't any good and I need other people to help me realize my vision. I especially want help from other schizophrenics, and the mentally ill in generel. It's going to feature mental illness as a focal point.",2.3892134831460647,5.054843932584273,4.188865168539326,80.88239887640451,81.58426966292134,6.706067415730338,24.630337078651685,7.908726449838941,1.8237541573033704,366,14,64,7,10,123,66,89,0.132,0.7090000000000001,0.159,0.1633,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,8,0,5,3,0,0,0,13,11,7,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,2,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,9,2,10,10,2,8,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,1,1,44,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597251769374869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32010520473625065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095199477716264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26752057501109106,0.19740847029000916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155131644105341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656923462134198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4743742497651728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17451616503310188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16316871571520256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22249090187163995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16658873995746576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776423862208993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627705940418285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wafflediva,2019/02/15,"Do you ever worry that... The police/fbi/cia/nsa/whomever will show up and arrest you for a crime you know you didn’t commit and have no memory of committing and then when they tell you what “you” did -hearing the details will implant a fake memory and you will start thinking you did it and confess to the crime and spend the rest of your life behind bars? I for real stress out about this because I can’t tell what’s real a lot and someone will say something and then based on their description I get this incredibly real “memory” and after a little bit I can’t remember if it really happened to me or if I just think it did because they told me about it because the “memory” is a completely intact memory. 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This is the life I will write which destroyed by anxiety ( Please please get help I wasted my last 17 years. It could be so much better. So everything started to when I got very very high fever when I was a kid. My parents says my personality changed after that I started to have some odd problems. first I started to shit my pants ( believe it or not I did it untill I was 11) . I pee in my bed in nights and night terors started. My family sent me psychologists and psychologists thought it was the problem about my intelliegence so I got a IQ test when I was 8. and my IQ number was as high as at 12-13 years olds which my family was proud of that when they heard this and stoped to send me psychologists. They probably thought nothing was wrong with me. My okb started when I was 11, I was obssed the thought that my body does not automatically breathe so I should breathe every second. I started to breathe every second. Then other thoughts started, thoughts that I could never sleep again ( I was sleepless for a long time). However, it did not affect my school and social life a lot, I got good grades and I had friends ( even though I stink really really bad) I had a good sense of humour which helped me to get friends. I had a very very good memeory so it helped me to overcome my studies. However, when I was 16 all my okb thoughts take over me and I lost my personality. Every okb thought take away my personality aspects, let say I was a good basketball player and one okb thought make me feel I was bad, then I could not play it. I used to write good poems and OKB thought started to stop writing poems. I had a very very good memory and one day one thought prevent me from understanding what I am reading. Depersonalization and cloudy mind started very very heavily and I feel like not myself, so I did not care anything about me. I gained a lot of weight and lost my all friends. Even though I gradauted from an okay university and started to building my life. I am depressed and I am very anxious since I was 16 years old. I am 31 years old now. No one knows that I have okb problem I dont wanna tell my family members. I am married to a lovely lawyer and she earns all our income. I dont work but my family is rich so I dont have a money issue. I am seeing a shrink and I am using prozac 3 times a day. I think it helped to feel like a human again. But still I have a cloudy mind, still feeling depersonalization and I feel very anxious all the time. I FEEL LIKE I AM NOT HERE, I AM IN SOMEWHERe ELSE. I feel like I have no personality. I dont know if I should use serious drug. What do you think about my experience? Did have similar experience? And what should I do Where should I seek help?",2.6077540106951886,4.651530631016044,3.8023172905525833,87.394064171123,76.9144385026738,6.752941176470588,25.79500891265597,7.724431198458867,1.3342356506238864,2208,83,461,33,51,718,225,561,0.083,0.797,0.11900000000000001,0.9657,4,0,1,0,0,0,59.0,1,1,2,10,27,35,2,0,20,1,55,15,7,5,5,88,107,45,0,12,11,1,9,4,3,5,6,3,1,7,22,22,1,2,24,2,2,3,14,14,0,8,40,14,96,21,36,57,8,58,0,3,1,1,33,10,1,5,49,306,118,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04930886726182918,0.0552982869875185,0.0,0.0,0.06962835816558369,0.1028241924772614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03744994186906395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042757103650088835,0.0,0.11399407588262067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05127293903704537,0.0,0.040248918196874095,0.0,0.050550121605070525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04639935009009042,0.0,0.04814237522308454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900544547352764,0.0,0.0,0.058698943101336,0.046917671069539486,0.03919674342025742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03982513951655466,0.0,0.21334433772464634,0.0,0.05277586852235377,0.0,0.03801684107510446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06011639010912165,0.0,0.11502961706059947,0.0,0.0409004591867542,0.0890328609333558,0.17160693900065568,0.0,0.1840853121699948,0.13004625088109178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07741968338950883,0.0,0.0,0.1054801750445943,0.0,0.047553037248889686,0.0,0.0,0.2290242050581137,0.10919285871748548,0.0,0.0,0.04506095961656527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15251826065335589,0.09616528951640133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04749946139410551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05002099558485242,0.03709582231998783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04653592708416526,0.0964328323393146,0.08893338678738592,0.0,0.0,0.04027393880335009,0.0,0.0,0.09935666664353178,0.07738006794416759,0.041073553309516266,0.0,0.030377539897094963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09190201892863267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033454273156876074,0.0,0.0350992643210746,0.0,0.0,0.08541402767651908,0.0,0.04366701084366744,0.0,0.1432617854131966,0.0,0.12335201648034115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050532240789467976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589464423189189,0.0,0.09991019833792912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04906628447848788,0.13063759535263045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045521209007984516,0.0,0.05830832519449036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723809976554727,0.0,0.04605742998278471,0.03626469618674892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046714225356531885,0.03764542710738633,0.0,0.04554175963378528,0.046390586011204465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05094348057882527,0.32211429162032884,0.0,0.07268692251831098,0.038047472848985256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06843404875379983,0.0,0.03977677894019558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05832052297113548,0.08942451390962129,0.3974187598629346,0.0796098055892597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04737636325224027,0.0,0.11791521732559898,0.0,0.37549603342318416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055417572304515945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03313101658918218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049756831105982835,0.0552982869875185,0.11722494178465093 schizophrenia,dogwoodamathyst,2019/02/15,"Drug use or schizophrenia? Mods, please delete if not allowed, I have no idea where this post belongs. I don't really know how to help anyone in my family. I feel like most of their problems are extrapolated by drugs use, but I don't know where the drugs end and a mental health problem begins. Please bear with me, I'm obviously ignorant. My little brother has been on and off drugs (but mostly on) since his early teen years when he started drinking a lot, smoking weed, popping vicodin and norcos. It has escalated to heroin, meth, and fuck if I know what else. He is delusional and homeless. He has had delusions where he believes he is a reincarnation of Ra and the the devil. Much of his delusions have a Devil theme, I think partly due to my older brother (who has used meth or heroin with him often) having a God theme when he was delusional. Around 8 years ago my older brother came to visit me. I dont remember the whole experience but I remember him ranting and pacing for hours. It made me physically ill to see him like that and so I've distanced myself from my brothers and sort of given up. I've kept my eyes on them through Facebook, each mirroring Christ/antiChrist themes. Now my older brother has moved away from hard drugs but is dangerously addicted to alcohol: he's not living on the streets but he was living in a tree for a few months this year. In any case, I don't speak with either of them often even though we were close all my childhood. I have read that schizophrenia can be due to genetic and environmental markers. I don't know if his delusions and hallucinations will stop if he stops using. His last and ""most sober"" experience he was living with my dad, still smoking weed, and seemed to be in his own world. He would laugh randomly and seemed to be preoccupied with something going on in his head rather than the conversations with the people around him. I know weed has hallucinogenic properties. I don't know if he likes that or what. It was really hard to talk to him and he would shut down if someone tried to talk to him about his mental state. Granted my mom just cries and has irrational expectations and my father is strict and no-nonsense and has irrational expectations. My dad, a former meth user, has tried to help them multiple times and my brother has lived with him and occasionally achieved some sobriety though he usually smokes weed during these periods. I think that part of the trouble is that my dad got clean through his faith, old school attitude, and a strict devotion to AA. This clearly will not work for my brother, who, for all I know enjoys being a reincarnation of the devil. We are poor, the only connection we have to possible help is through my dad and AA but I don't believe this will ever be enough. His options are usually jail or AA type programs. My father and mother firmly believe in the success of 12-step programs and believe it is up to my brother to fail or pull himself out of it. It seems he was able to access drugs the last time he was in jail. I honestly believe they haven't kept him because they probably know he needs medical treatment and do not want to pay for it. I believe it is unrealistic to expect someone at their lowest point (and spiraling lower) to be able to pull themselves out of this journey to the center of the earth and make it back up to the surface. I believe he needs medication, counseling and about 2 years off the streets and in a medically controlled facility. I've not heard of such places for poor white trash and I don't want to see my brother on the news for some horrific crime because there was no help for him. I've checked, I don't see any help for him. I don't see any options for us. Any ideas?",6.5432773109243705,6.768739966386554,6.723753501400562,77.13546218487397,65.30252100840336,9.713165266106444,33.106442577030805,9.48565724429506,2.914682913165266,2952,115,557,52,42,949,307,714,0.127,0.78,0.09300000000000001,-0.985,3,0,13,0,0,0,72.0,4,0,7,5,24,19,2,0,28,0,60,18,2,9,5,134,99,54,0,18,25,17,3,3,0,5,14,2,1,0,24,48,2,6,18,2,4,7,18,10,3,0,17,11,76,9,90,71,17,83,4,1,6,1,79,40,1,26,37,370,100,10,0.11061356606299257,0.0,0.0,0.06029255709211801,0.0,0.0,0.04902612613708642,0.059106131193909624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15044203604727854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038671788642379336,0.0,0.0,0.0984695252339124,0.0,0.0,0.05196254324605786,0.042527502267242466,0.0,0.06742900319399875,0.0,0.0,0.4361826361551493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06325622589291638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06203126000103919,0.0,0.0,0.06075190415364025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06481913780948696,0.054179591858660975,0.3848298574501839,0.0,0.04620172041142267,0.0,0.04898539384299232,0.057146691306548286,0.0,0.03652960858160966,0.0500281516250732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820129268882653,0.05213831286445577,0.0,0.027964771283617858,0.039511176848518716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051130229710989634,0.0,0.0,0.03143211934211445,0.0,0.04423388676106951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908802847386236,0.0,0.05676071539760606,0.05878852410071001,0.0,0.0,0.18535485424530296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054466040582970165,0.0,0.0,0.12486925215558273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431612924542294,0.09016481973733692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106030160701137,0.055431926210794,0.19534761073619286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04701984914410063,0.0,0.052332615366470735,0.03691770713773231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16714729600665978,0.1114724580031031,0.0,0.0,0.06477463584649856,0.0441453465582519,0.058782357655125676,0.04065684920816645,0.0820185576563026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058035165189252474,0.0,0.0,0.04206330071454548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11978371283289754,0.0,0.03834275958062039,0.0,0.05778381681919852,0.1214204789066921,0.052282786696867166,0.0623500878711603,0.05296860993727514,0.0,0.059630066386208685,0.1058422440338825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05532174983244728,0.0,0.0708618828421886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12530360752335254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05597341711609971,0.17628938193105834,0.15104765428311812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04575034244817975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09372251557058428,0.04257786362259194,0.0,0.0,0.039146425692143084,0.0,0.04416806837163704,0.09247789417628154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08890699443402036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07087670675312548,0.1086772670411398,0.0,0.06449965990206588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509935049160049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06652725024230614,0.19106921210231897,0.12182521565148223,0.0,0.06524274716262804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06174804813557715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040263996747536064,0.0,0.0,0.07857670367289743,0.0,0.0,0.1424630198726962 schizophrenia,chmlt,2019/02/15,"Apocalyptic imagery and the 'crow prince' So, when I was having a psychotic break I was presented with Revelations and had some pretty heavy delusions concerning myself and the apocalypse. I've mostly stayed away from the news because of this to avoid catastrophic thinking when it comes to nukes and climate change. But recently someone started showing up in the community and calling himself the crow prince. He wears a full plague doctor suit along with gloves and came up to talk to my boyfriend and I one night. My boyfriend was intrigued and played along but the whole time I was spiraling thinking about who sent this dude and the implications of the plague/apocalypse. When it came time to introduce myself I just left it at 'hi' and shook his hand but I really didn't want to because I was afraid it would have some kind of effect, and the gloves really weirded me out. But my boyfriend did and I'm willing to accept whatever consequences he takes on. The thing is I found this guy's facebook and he just absolute gives me the creeps. No name, no pictures of his face, I don't trust him and I don't like the fact that he knows what I look like. I also don't like that he uses the name crow prince. I think there's a murder of crows following me (I engaged with them a couple of years ago while psychotic and they've been hanging around since. I looked into it and they can recognize faces and pass the info along) and I strongly connect with them and have a love for their knowledge. I think this guy completely bastardizes their image and doesn't respect them, and only thinks it's 'edgy' to associate with crows so he can shock people into being uncomfortable. I don't know guys. I just wanted to rant. I don't like that we have mutual friends on facebook because now he might find out my name. But I also wonder if he's not dealing with mental illness himself? Should I give people a chance? Last time I gave someone psychotic a chance I became very unsafe and I have some reasons to believe I barely made it out. But at the same time I've been psychotic, and was only a threat to myself. I really don't know, is it so bad to just avoid the dude?",4.745734509166862,6.280485549160672,4.936704571826407,83.62765606869344,70.0071942446043,8.066496480235166,27.840102111858894,8.558390810932622,1.967490972383384,1722,60,328,28,31,540,201,417,0.163,0.762,0.07400000000000001,-0.9898,0,2,0,0,0,0,31.0,1,0,6,2,16,23,3,4,24,0,32,7,4,4,1,89,60,39,1,5,12,0,1,4,1,4,2,0,0,3,18,42,0,2,16,2,0,8,11,10,0,1,17,3,49,13,44,38,7,42,0,0,2,1,37,16,1,7,20,223,67,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09083937656972386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639010969804794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122595428357544,0.0,0.0,0.09628019599693648,0.0,0.08556373118166502,0.18740646351702905,0.0,0.0,0.11545610432888727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046401280912614,0.2344119993571916,0.0,0.0,0.10840671903713027,0.08827456923795696,0.10744482898128256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338847586124083,0.0,0.0,0.10564893738506706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048892044732472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936618113039818,0.0,0.0,0.11236036902918507,0.07917321380633795,0.0,0.0,0.1966099013213169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044040161745565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10671367252345287,0.16895547807509687,0.08353215579953199,0.0,0.0,0.111341191628334,0.0,0.0,0.2002596803711022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17210917106269988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248918718381498,0.09696589407983502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10327237115759598,0.10871154268694734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09616740405153623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06944083736668112,0.1558762363842444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14208882694615269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10425560489568997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19694751861309634,0.1053630746019432,0.10118333950582728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08476975264623685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17365628402236385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07253350784567275,0.10922648528898626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07704969542372248,0.08236685807574888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06808093982783163,0.3283145315604822,0.0,0.0,0.23901985965930464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08850693230641253,0.0,0.08455397725234194,0.12088677904873245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441153195234845,0.0,0.0,0.11113156710271646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07279647951982904,0.0,0.0,0.0659916096230492 schizophrenia,memelard1337,2019/02/15,"so i am pretty new to this whole thing my doctor said after how i told her my experiences that brought me to the psych ward that i have probably schizophrenia. i got the diagnose drug induced psychosis several times now and it always was a similar theme. but now i am several months clean but it just got worse and worse. let me get to some of my symptoms: (trigger warning i guess) i live on the ground floor of my house and i am utterly terrified by the basement of the building i live in. i believe a psychopathic mass murderer is torturing and killing people down there and turning the corpses into fish food. I've been down there a few times and from a logical perspective nothing speaks for this theory but also nothing against it. I feel like someone is following me and preparing some kind of ""messages"" for me. at night time i hear people wailing and screaming from down there and scratches and bumps on the walls and it gives me shivers just thinking about it. i know that the chance of that actually being true are remarkably low. but i have no other hallucinations and no other delusions so i am very scared that it might be true. i have to go home tomorrow to try how i feel at home and go back to the clinic on monday. i am currently on 1200mg seroquel and have some tranquilizers if i freak out. oh i forgot about the whole voices thing: i hear the voice of the ""killer"", my ex best friend and sometimes my parents in my head. I don't hear them acoustically just in my mind kinda... it's hard to explain... they say things like: i am going to kill you, we are disappointed, you can't act like you don't like me forever and so on. it's a very confusing time and i am scared of tomorrow because crazy shit exists and i am really afraid of this fucking basement. I don't know how i would be without the meds and I really don't want to know, this shit is just scary. thank you for reading. 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We had boughten acid and we were supposed to do it today but he accused me of lying to him about how much the acid was. It was $20 which i guess is a lot for acid. This started to really anger me because I wasn't lying and he has no reason to believe I was. After this he started talking about killing me and if he had a gun he could kill me. He was calling me out for being this ""problematic troubled soul"" which I said wasn't true. After awhile I thought this is ridiculous and I said let's go home. So I drove him back and we argued in the car for a really long time about how he didn't say any of that and that he ""loves me so much and that I'm his connection to everything"" this was the last straw for me and it made me think that this guy is an absolute psychopath and he's trying to fucking kill me. But I have no idea if it's just delusions getting the best of me and I should apologize or if it's actually something that I should be concerned about.",3.340415653864852,4.158043508264466,4.44358288770054,88.55890374331554,72.59504132231405,7.181720952843947,27.87165775401069,7.285733465282438,1.3179510938259598,907,33,198,9,17,297,120,242,0.23800000000000002,0.698,0.064,-0.9947,0,0,2,1,0,2,14.0,3,0,0,2,11,16,7,0,10,0,25,3,0,4,2,42,43,24,3,6,8,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,1,1,18,19,1,0,4,3,0,3,6,9,0,0,17,6,29,7,27,20,4,18,1,0,0,2,27,2,1,6,13,142,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.12436938557199675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866679805362769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979984806266657,0.0,0.07769019470810004,0.0,0.0,0.14358854636945176,0.1337472238170717,0.11271605968708988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301371111720262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10175564833910823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248490365071684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454068346317972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846483863223067,0.11782222229469963,0.1997565857036329,0.0,0.07243077477361988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403966723355813,0.12619205785493093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12783921641111953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14387156940628587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42300196065594303,0.0,0.0,0.2077717916446344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13032266629268588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11278612925167195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083504445302489,0.11502542909975312,0.12059294620470005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868461954995275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18737566219762453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11959989327674635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.244936446393242,0.13103621338212645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424615855200613,0.10135056067890788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811453108915312,0.0,0.0,0.3608291138931676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12011680441366,0.0,0.0,0.10243665754064946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08166256191088561,0.0,0.10117827365822624,0.07431507065261962,0.0,0.12080436642526167,0.0,0.0,0.08652779791743333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ManlyPanties,2019/02/15,"Need some help It’s really great to see some of you doing well and hope that everyone here who is struggling is able to get out of that situation. I know how hard it can be because I’m still in that situation myself of trying to find work, the right medication and dealing with the fear that it might not get better. I’m trying not to be so negative, but I’m a little heartbroken that Bobby left. She was the first person to help me and hope she’s doing ok. The reason why I’m writing this is because I had a couple of scary moments a week ago where I forgot who I was and where I lived. I went to my neurologist for a follow up to see the results of an EGG and MRI for some other issues I’m having. When I left I couldn’t remember anything and decided to walk around the city for a bit until I remembered how to get back home. After an hour or so I finally did and took a taxi back. I also thought that I was getting my hallucinations under control with the medication, but sadly no such luck. I like to listen to music on YouTube to help relax me, but kept hearing ads playing in the background. Apparently I was hallucinating that and have been hearing ads play in my head for a while. There’s nothing worse than unskippable ads and didn’t think something like that could happen. I been trying my best to think positive thoughts, getting my financial/medical bills in order, looking for work (like I said earlier) and just taking care of myself. Physically I’m very weak due to my uncontrollable tremors, but now that I’m forgetting so many things it terrifies me. I actually forgot I had a brother (can’t remember his name right now) and couldn’t even remember my mother’s name. I was supposed to meet my physiatrist today, but honestly it’s been going down hill. At times it’s really difficult to get in contact with him and just feels like he’s ignoring me like my family. To be clear I haven’t been diagnosed with schizophrenia, but I see that you guys are dealing with the same problems I am. I’m not trying to diagnose myself either so don’t take it the wrong way I just don’t really have anyone to talk to about this so I’m a little lonely. I have a lot of difficulties with focusing and problems with my memory (like I said earlier). Also, add in the extreme paranoia, hallucinations, anxiety and insomnia. A couple of days ago my doctor told me to check into a psychiatric hospital, but I ignored him. The reason why he told me that is because I had the urge to put a knife in my head for some reason. Though I get this feeling at times I never actually took any action to harm myself, but if I did I told home I would voluntarily check myself in. I know it’s difficult and different for everyone, but how do you guys deal with these problems? I really don’t have anyone who I can rely on so I pretty much have to do everything myself. At 24 I should be able to take care of myself and make my own choices, but I sometimes question myself if I’m making the right choices because of the situation I’m in. I have a tendency to ramble and make a lot of errors so sorry about that. Also, thank you for taking the time to read this. ☺️",4.861164924506389,5.503752601587305,6.454428958575299,76.15580139372824,69.01587301587301,9.638404955478126,29.49283778552072,9.745691949364133,2.7346786682152526,2489,89,478,55,41,857,264,630,0.131,0.737,0.132,0.4799,2,2,1,0,0,0,53.0,0,4,0,6,33,36,0,3,33,1,49,11,2,11,2,106,109,47,0,13,20,2,3,6,0,3,8,5,2,3,30,29,1,6,18,4,3,8,14,15,1,1,28,12,75,21,79,71,12,62,0,2,4,0,40,29,0,14,29,345,105,4,0.1182739731689727,0.0,0.1154183365871746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048427409711079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418754804180269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040215178771129255,0.0,0.04523963287208177,0.0,0.0,0.08269991204659685,0.0,0.04866470116121988,0.05264445582942701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09094538475027232,0.0,0.14419743252895226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062060618958283076,0.05230185891773774,0.06456227300501736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12058819819286992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06632715897453627,0.04721607176731834,0.13086790170454524,0.0,0.0381384640661575,0.1829029094167151,0.0,0.12004559311893075,0.0,0.06178556431480285,0.0,0.060529211617902125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03905942190484957,0.0,0.0,0.11301584988272295,0.05314851036722885,0.0,0.055749087894828096,0.06654555096847309,0.059802874569499176,0.04224747503208568,0.0,0.06478167821023696,0.0540501343813769,0.050301890578620494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21627644290898748,0.0,0.033608912288354234,0.0,0.0,0.06519873648129866,0.0,0.11710982844485553,0.05229464193376389,0.0,0.05297512429176149,0.0,0.12138321851345135,0.0,0.1333033636519737,0.0,0.11891482666021215,0.0,0.11863843855880167,0.11747274226924564,0.058238019546913725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06172364972273911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06500028252205095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12850501791306376,0.0,0.0,0.1733480671236416,0.11854159280293533,0.05221904259392054,0.0,0.04966017470030947,0.0,0.0,0.10055230247095512,0.0,0.0,0.1184231932541136,0.05995562247959964,0.0,0.0,0.06568786061604555,0.1191485849146798,0.0,0.06273499742564233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04347248952848338,0.04384932623036045,0.0456100897335373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056743533561162726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05163613566566663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06016357548686675,0.0,0.16975832861059195,0.0,0.05944900526270368,0.06624695910980148,0.0,0.05915298989291505,0.0,0.15153867158042802,0.18240801438017776,0.0,0.0,0.2679627109346182,0.15150799027243878,0.11250563295102224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413735654491159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994173519907146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045526541444498636,0.05848799186088854,0.0661990148649303,0.0,0.0,0.04722687387673055,0.0,0.0,0.06182281839447616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17785461689098533,0.04753206974737166,0.0,0.054445391942274636,0.0,0.0,0.039287986162918655,0.07578518631295555,0.058101789064377025,0.09389632336515956,0.10344975733338753,0.0,0.056054948575747686,0.1695237748240844,0.13140673605458048,0.16060052814846446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04879420725845688,0.0,0.046940187350615635,0.04743612355003291,0.0,0.053171253006031115,0.05482057903193474,0.10672386444528724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08610486110323398,0.0,0.06026564154369792,0.0420092185465843,0.0646570113504549,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mariahp5559011,2019/02/15,"Please help. A little information about me. So I have had a rough life. I lived poor my whole life. I come from a broken home my father was a abusive drunk. My mother got involved with another abusive asshole that beat me my mother and my siblings. Afterwards my mother suffered a lot of ptsd and was diagnosed with bipolar and depression as well. Our house was always dirty growing up and we never had food. I have experienced a lot of trauma in my life time and I'm only 26. My boyfriend at that time was doing drugs and when I was 8 months pregnant he beat the shit out of me in front of my children. We were together for 8 years and he had never done anything like this before. I suffered a stroke I think it was a mix between overworking myself, stress and the recent head trauma. My son was born and I had a anuresym and leaked blood in my brain for five days until I was non verbal and couldnt make sense of anything. I spent some time in icu and then they put me in rehab. I learned how to talk, walk, and bath myself there. I have severe depression and at the moment living with my sister. She has been through a lot as well. While I was in the hospital my ex made her life a living hell. Tried to take the kids was all strung out on methaphetamine. He stalked me and came to my window at night just to scare the fuck out of me. Now to my question I'm sorry for going through all of that. When I was 16 years old I started seeing shadows in my room at night. Then the shadows would slowly climb on my bed. I was so terrified I would hide under the blanket at night. I could never be left alone in the dark ever. I am still seeing these demons today. They touch me and I can feel everything. It feels as if I'm being raped by them. I don't know what to do. I'm currently taking anti depressants and anxiety meds. Also a anti psychotic for seeing things. I honestly don't know how to tell my doctor the extent of this. I think I may need to be hospitalized. I am just done with all of this my life is constant fear and anxiety. I worry about my kids I am constantly checking on them throughout the night worrying they may feel them too. It makes me so sick to my stomach to even think about. I just need help it is getting worse...... please someone tell me they have experienced something like this how do I fix this please help me ",1.961663596168016,4.1125698347457655,3.161739130434782,90.67021739130436,79.46610169491525,5.968754605747974,21.913411938098747,7.079830092131019,0.6212317980840091,1830,55,380,22,46,590,227,472,0.196,0.746,0.059000000000000004,-0.9968,1,1,3,0,0,0,45.0,3,0,7,3,23,19,4,3,23,0,45,21,5,6,7,69,75,35,0,7,4,7,6,2,0,4,12,0,5,3,15,29,2,0,11,2,3,8,6,14,2,1,24,11,74,5,60,42,9,65,2,5,3,2,34,24,3,8,35,271,89,2,0.0,0.1815393953592432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07934430933759032,0.0,0.06126456750752745,0.0637452182055181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08033171165529039,0.11721207359895225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12608613669144125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06518901857251243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08552150762214274,0.0,0.08762082758301222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0659922771221089,0.0,0.16557524759194264,0.0,0.06116643004921073,0.0,0.0,0.04940677204116025,0.0,0.19795087931078226,0.07775700200569785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841304136027158,0.0,0.15679617728689926,0.0,0.0,0.08884266624210582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05059983408783442,0.06929765388244906,0.0,0.0,0.06885165410662225,0.0,0.0,0.0862069553023825,0.11620815351147801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09263647828139616,0.0,0.0,0.07082422288946776,0.04002528745985584,0.0,0.04353892870729247,0.0,0.061271593594270736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862342065366575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15404914374432285,0.0,0.07684554730659961,0.0,0.0,0.0883970455200359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08420512518823997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08323641606492765,0.0,0.27055768031159555,0.07485503717276816,0.07678281751004902,0.2029427033954547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19539190190427627,0.0,0.07248973525161131,0.10227483559804412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08509585361641052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06114895007996466,0.0,0.0,0.11360990633832625,0.17725784412812973,0.0,0.0,0.2875712012221959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0803887543244746,0.0,0.0,0.0582649560174647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25228258634984635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895523737469215,0.07701367957537839,0.0858201421399766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07564261189209881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766994466374841,0.0,0.1831434928442373,0.0,0.0,0.08654689794448464,0.07863852264886959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06491095747127046,0.058977714757179535,0.0,0.08575803239237567,0.05422457896664645,0.0,0.06118042372646964,0.0,0.08775589195177733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11520157835876538,0.061575792107915535,0.13392011138852258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05089592944646205,0.14726476993538362,0.0,0.0,0.1340147985356185,0.0,0.07261682225211742,0.0,0.0,0.052012803073014265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13776223247243696,0.0,0.0,0.0855317402026797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15560127614196925,0.07807159744290537,0.10884234251059527,0.0,0.0,0.09866797714387993 schizophrenia,thecharteriswatching,2019/02/15,"Is it normal to feel numb after a breakup? Hey everyone. My boyfriend (and fiance) broke up with me on the date of our anniversary this week. He expressed in a letter that he wrote to me that he wasn't happy and there was nothing I could do about it (but that it wasn't my fault, which makes no sense) -- The problem is he never communicated that to me and just let his feelings fester until he broke up with me. -- Is it a part of schizophrenia to not feel any emotion whatsoever about this? 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I'm having urge to hurt someone, what will I do?",-2.600769230769231,-0.9039553076923068,0.560384615384617,102.6221153846154,102.07692307692308,2.6,14.192307692307693,3.1291,-1.5574307692307694,43,1,11,0,2,15,12,13,0.225,0.596,0.179,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4407059921363154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7038635182548858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5570945845769816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sloshy_spaceman,2018/11/14,Anyone partake in the jazz cabbage? I'm curious if anyone regularly smokes weed. I know they say it's bad for schizophrenia can cause psychosis but in my personal experience it actually helps me balance out my delusions in a sense like it helps me see my delusions as just possibilities and not constructs. Curious about other people's experiences.,5.813497267759563,8.95318873770492,6.7520491803278695,64.76173497267763,71.45901639344262,9.31256830601093,36.39617486338798,9.725611199111238,4.5666699453551916,287,16,41,8,6,95,48,61,0.071,0.753,0.17600000000000002,0.7909999999999999,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,8,4,4,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,7,1,7,4,0,4,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,1,1,26,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.2553318426027996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36590236093029016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21846612445949676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687857679910796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5118861816384176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507558411917993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437955388788895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12782856606406146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18139458695423172,0.2284619594122249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2949701210777115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20807391857694554,0.0,0.0,0.2085005094153667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Denom56,2018/11/14,"Hello from the world of OCD! How do you manage your schizophrenia? Hello all! I have OCD (along with depression and general anxiety), and have been successfully treated with therapy and medication. Like any other chronic illness, I'm not cured. However my condition is very much managed. Some of the basic elements that I've learned in therapy are acceptance of thoughts (such as intrusive thoughts -- which are central to OCD) and emotions that I cannot control. I am not super familiar with the terminology of schizophrenia, but I'm curious if you guys manage your condition in a similar fashion. &#x200B; For example, when you guys have delusions, do you use mindfulness? I.e having the delusion that people are outside your house waiting to kill you, but you choose to mindfuly accept that may or may not be true and go out groccery shopping anyway. &#x200B; Or another example may be you have a fear of clowns and that they will harm you. Would you be encouraged to look at images of clowns repeatidly, or go to a circus and accept the clown may try and chop your head off? &#x200B; I'm just curious if our conditions are managed in a similar way. If I used any terminology incorrectly I appologize for the offense. The internet doesn't seem to give me all that much information besides psychotherapy is used with schizophrenia. Like gee thanks. How specific. 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It’s the first time in 5 years. It feels good, i just wanted to share with some people who would understand what that feels like. 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Last Friday I had my first decent appointment with my pdoc and my dad didn't interrupted us. I got all my papers (I'm leaving the country soon, too) and since I'm a ''registrated'' paranoid schizophrenic I can get most of my meds for free. Big thing is: It's been some many years that my grandma and father locked my meds away from me. Literally. Yesterday I went to get all my meds by myself and now I have all of them with me! After YEARS. My father never gave me emergency medicine and it was so terrible. I'm so happy now. My father also tried to to talk with the doctor saying how my past is infamous and that I have tons of disorders but I think the doctor said something back like he trusts me on this and stuff. Additionally, I do not exactly plan on killing myself with the pills. Such a relief.",2.7271051051051067,5.062318470270268,4.0453603603603625,84.36521771771773,77.81081081081079,6.921921921921923,23.25075075075076,7.984000788550335,1.3404714714714718,747,24,144,13,18,245,112,185,0.067,0.8170000000000001,0.11599999999999999,0.8115,0,0,1,0,0,1,17.0,1,0,1,4,11,8,1,0,7,0,11,4,0,2,5,25,24,13,1,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,9,13,0,1,1,0,2,1,3,2,0,1,8,2,29,7,19,16,7,21,0,0,0,0,12,5,0,2,16,105,38,4,0.0,0.17322181006639326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691522113520487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373586951314104,0.11241794288176396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16397451700454255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675566250059051,0.29928157313421666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435672414690987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15276580002933074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11692862948066013,0.16118482216209146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15563146574494008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16174744053108187,0.0,0.0,0.11917163029562665,0.0,0.1548035436862542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07142540607230162,0.14652972270584408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14822275504930565,0.0,0.0,0.487182115928391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275761769717672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395634090652067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13906864931842347,0.1162632468236041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24187450990378145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125510689688205,0.0,0.0,0.10348034596130798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16736278222424922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10992339093297933,0.11750915159872473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712806420095543,0.09367836278451906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925946791995477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17585929619904125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11727195266528202,0.0,0.0,0.13552786079864956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18829461850559348 schizophrenia,WasherIsScreaming,2018/11/14,"Perhaps I need to write these things down... (questions regarding experiences) So, I recently went to my psychiatrist and asked him about the possibility of schizophrenia. He said I probably don't have it, however I realized I didn't mention a whole lot of what I was experiencing when talking with him (I tend to be forgetful). I'll skim through the DSM-V symptom list and scribble down what \*might\* qualify as symptoms, I'll see if you guys think I should be writing everything down and bringing it to him next session to reconsider. &#x200B; 1. Delusions: I often have the fear that someone has broken into my house. I never heard the person break in, but I heard noises and voices in the basement. I can't sleep until I go and check through the whole basement. I also have a common fear that everyone around me is judging me. If I'm in public, I often find myself convinced that the people around me are laughing at me, talking about me, judging me. I also recently dealt with an odd situation: I thought I saw a flash from a pluming vans bumper, and I was sure it was a flash from a camera taking a picture of my license plate. I was sure the van was the cops or some other group and was sure it was stalking me (it followed me down a road). I also was sure that the car in front of me was in on this scheme, as it turned its turn-signal on after I turned mine on while the van was behind me. This dissipated as the van turned the opposite direction and later the car in front of me turned into a gas station. 2. Hallucinations: Again, bumps and voices in the basement. I also have issues with hearing someone call my name from another room when they don't or when no one is there (I'm the only person home). Often I see a car/shadow in the corner of my eye when there is no car/shadow moving. Recently I was in the living room and the dishwasher started screaming (it sounded like a woman). The dishwasher was running, but I didn't hear the screaming until several minutes after being within earshot of the dishwasher. I thought someone was screaming in the backyard at first, but after coming back inside realized the screaming came from the dishwasher. Just a few seconds before that, it sounded like my father was having a phone meeting \*inside\* the baseboard heater. There was a brief period when the dishwasher and heater sounded like they had a conversation, however through none of it could I understand specific words. I've also had the feeling of bubbles moving up my back in a triangular formation occasionally happen for years. I've also recently started noticing smells that don't seem to exist from the real word (specifically, my basement toilet has a specific odd smell that I'll occasionally smell in an entirely unrelated context, same for the smell of a coworker who has terrible hygiene). 3. Disorganized Speech: Not something I've been told I've had issues with too much, though I will explain something in a way that makes sense to me and others will quite often not understand what I'm saying. I've also had issues with making up words, though usually people know what I mean (this ranges from calling a refrigerator a ""cooly-bit"" to words like formulizing). This is probably less of an issue for me. 4. Disorganized/Catatonic Behavior: I have disorganized behavior likely due to ADHD, so I won't include what I think falls under that. However, I do have anxiety that will lead to what I think is catatonia in bad episodes(?). If I have a bad anxiety attack (for example, I had one during Halloween due to people at the door) I will become nonverbal and will stare into space in one position. I've also been told I will suddenly stop speaking mid-sentence and stare off into space, while I have no memory of changing from talking to staring into space (not related to anxiety attacks). 5. I sometimes don't feel like I have emotion, while most other times I feel like I have feelings. I don't remember, for example, crying at the funeral of a friend of mines or my grandfathers. Other times I remember laughing when a kid burst into tears in highschool (junior year, I was about 16). I felt bad for him but I don't know why I laughed. I also know I experience depersonalization/derealization symptoms, so I know this makes diagnosis more challenging. However I know much of this is information I unintentionally left out when last talking to my psychiatrist, and I was wondering if it might change his judgement of whether or not I have schizophrenia or a related disorder.",6.008487460815048,7.403122675837324,6.8844893581917175,71.37677033492824,66.85885167464114,9.832502887312325,34.27025243359181,10.04486777845506,3.7347948193367415,3591,166,599,85,58,1194,351,836,0.099,0.8290000000000001,0.07200000000000001,-0.9742,6,0,2,0,0,0,121.0,0,1,2,4,38,29,2,2,60,0,70,5,2,4,5,110,124,58,1,7,19,1,5,7,1,10,3,18,5,5,40,31,0,1,28,0,1,16,19,12,0,5,37,35,91,17,104,73,12,107,0,0,7,0,45,49,0,21,47,455,131,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06440915984260544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3857294469995833,0.0,0.05806870402578634,0.06512215831607575,0.0,0.056197621369386365,0.12299700074175055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09541943294146406,0.050102833869876816,0.12194104175882706,0.0,0.08242042685018586,0.1342453927804013,0.0,0.05918998255599621,0.04560425400743573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058510391858843935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10945023007764798,0.06129686509994986,0.0,0.0,0.11338996384091507,0.04616618924946878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04279017346440698,0.0,0.058870114694714724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0614229730617293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06028564963747364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05121103513800165,0.04816652239085077,0.10484975902316528,0.0,0.12061552613940485,0.1083942513943015,0.07657463729574568,0.051458314492512834,0.0,0.04898363077197989,0.045586736525943715,0.0,0.0,0.041406325781314535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030458509845034405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05306614555142737,0.04739269312009307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12080789105384837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053758806858127575,0.0,0.0,0.061839883552141775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22375141172336527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14726835906959185,0.043685982796040856,0.0,0.0,0.05822966419829116,0.0,0.0,0.18328207285526385,0.0,0.04732418024418858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04556340991454382,0.0,0.0,0.10732254488523528,0.0,0.0,0.05837920304436536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11370879963760375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139231497479124,0.07879500764148685,0.03973901693772907,0.041334731551643335,0.0,0.05699746130114964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061016732720496784,0.0,0.0,0.1089493452254646,0.040760390509590134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114652792699868,0.09359182665826493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06041879469189952,0.0,0.0,0.11556605167573875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060037160350133074,0.057003450267906625,0.0,0.06100131382059474,0.0,0.0,0.21166907936654966,0.0,0.12142232987308388,0.0,0.05097983980350263,0.0426198264465147,0.0,0.0,0.08541441028330231,0.0487896517039017,0.0,0.06054557659931002,0.0,0.0,0.06024151497641645,0.05363236082762283,0.0,0.13622919276317555,0.08251802967620121,0.05300549629892235,0.0,0.07586773130785901,0.0,0.0,0.044806696289841054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020455465910622,0.16711298809085262,0.04029575959704594,0.17230620282309367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03560524372428096,0.10302195249356988,0.1053109900759659,0.08509475299565829,0.06250178375647157,0.0,0.0,0.1024220702760033,0.0,0.0,0.29147254031896513,0.0,0.11158577222649528,0.0,0.0,0.05902584057261499,0.0,0.0,0.042540149656729566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04968185616448095,0.04835993869746979,0.11967080625894673,0.0,0.0,0.05812003392079978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06512215831607575,0.06902511482151223 schizophrenia,deevinegreenbean,2018/11/14,"Vision goes gold? Does anyone else experience a hallucination where everything goes dark and then everything is then gold? I feel my eyes moving like when you stare to long, but I have been blinking and stuff. I used to think it was just a migraine.",3.545869565217388,6.419934021739131,3.902347826086957,83.47091304347828,78.34782608695653,7.1582608695652175,22.243478260869566,8.238735603445708,1.4073704347826084,199,6,37,4,5,62,37,46,0.0,0.915,0.085,0.3839,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,1,1,0,7,7,6,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,5,1,2,5,0,6,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,5,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20130965847921128,0.29499238540069683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519473407745273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24050743148153625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5175003554865782,0.28162603855264395,0.0,0.0,0.1455732655299286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14065569247937185,0.0,0.0,0.2547865972899404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059971301970823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32958199782857045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844777049563051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24865722005975505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,apparitionalenvy,2018/11/14,"What should I do? I'd love some advice and guidance from some of you clever people out there that have it more together than I do and have the patience to read this lol. &#x200B; I have a long history of mental health. I was doing so well in my own head but I'm now here again sectioned in a hospital and I'm realising that I wasn't doing well and it was all an illusion, kind of a let down. I don't really go out that often but the last couple of times I did it ended up going awfully wrong. the last month is quite a whirlwind but everything got so loud and intense so I left my home and went to a bar, met a group of people, ended up in a hotel with some girl. We chilled and then suddenly there were so many of us, she left, I don't blame her. In the room it felt like some kind of spiritual orgy with all these different people. I say bye to the girl but the door closed on me and I stupidly left my key card in the hotel room. Weirdly it all went silent so I listened in on my room and heard nothing but silence which freaked me out. I went to the hotel desk and he started acting all weird and scared of me, in my head all I asked for was my key card but apparently not. Apparently it had only been me that came in to the hotel, an ambulance was called and a security guard stood outside the hotel room, the clerk kept his distance from me and stared at me as though I was a monster and it was the most lonely I have ever felt in my life. They sent me to A and E and it was a nightmare, so many people around and I got triggered. There were people laughing at me and tutting at me. Nurses were at one point stood all around a computer and talking about my stomach, talking about how they can't believe I killed her and raped her in a hotel room. I thought I'd hurt someone important and it was some kind of underground clinic to euthanize me and punish me. Every time I talked to a nurse they would laugh at me, talk about me with the other nurses, I thought I was in hell and this would go on forever. then at one point I thought I had committed a murder and this was some type of social experiment to get me to confess. Safe to say it wasn't the best &#x200B; I'm now on a ward in hospital, thank god I had my mother to bring some stuff with her. I've calmed down now and I'm coherent enough to type this. I'm so ashamed to be here again. &#x200B; Here is where I need advice. &#x200B; At one point I had my medication and I was doing okay at home. I became bedridden and my health worker didn't really help so I just didn't take my meds. My mother tried to intervene but he wasn 't cooperative at all. I guess not taking the meds is why I ended up in here again. To me everything was fine but my mother told me yesterday she could tell I was going downhill when I had stopped taking the meds. &#x200B; I had an assessment with a doctor and I hated it, I hate the way it felt like an interrogation. I told her about the reason why I stopped taking the meds and she kinda twisted it. She laughed randomly at one point, I asked her why she did and she said it was because she didn't notice the mark on the wall behind me before. Kinda obvious little stunt she pulled but it is her job to figure it out. &#x200B; I talked to a mental health advocacy worker and explained it to her, she said we could use the heath workers negligence to get me out of here and put the right support in place. I'd honestly prefer to stay here voluntarily. I know I'd do so well with the right meds, the right therapy at home, and I was doing well until the health worker dissipated. I hate how intensive this all is. &#x200B; So the questions are do you think I should keep talking to the doctor or wait until my tribunal so I don't say anything that can be used against me? &#x200B; Should I explain what i want to the hospital or wait for the tribunal? &#x200B; How do I deal with the shame and guilt of putting my mother through this again? &#x200B; How in the world do I get back to life knowing so much of what I thought was there isn't, and there probably is even more that I know I don't know that I'll have to deal with?? &#x200B; I know someone out there must be going through this and worse with some awesome advice. &#x200B; Thanks for reading :)",3.279100281162137,4.552299979381445,4.3558070394668365,87.39282333645735,73.26116838487972,7.261126731229824,25.598406747891282,7.740228189696982,1.2310329896907215,3354,108,711,43,66,1094,313,873,0.107,0.789,0.105,-0.9104,5,2,0,0,0,0,110.0,3,2,3,6,53,43,9,4,54,3,74,16,3,8,12,141,142,70,2,11,14,4,3,2,0,6,10,8,9,2,38,57,1,9,20,9,0,15,13,19,4,4,56,12,115,24,108,74,24,111,2,2,1,2,66,66,1,17,31,515,153,13,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09449313738635093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4190932766275991,0.4699994457879733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0265250108127592,0.057388403782910324,0.06026700373615632,0.0,0.0,0.02478518573328736,0.0,0.019648936322096053,0.0,0.02742790710989287,0.03631555069203008,0.03382654264045465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03291349468447241,0.03686596258794045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05147085194318038,0.035665199055227866,0.0,0.0,0.0664616109034361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03367662232412017,0.0,0.06598367828597994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564660654091501,0.03330530321708164,0.0,0.021289591092606388,0.029156591942047783,0.027157690898317124,0.0,0.057937880169136174,0.03153005693847257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284619827585623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05052123304822636,0.0,0.09159377747952503,0.0,0.051559345864654126,0.0,0.035508281127636335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09547023651796843,0.06616071005738611,0.13704867778649504,0.0,0.0,0.021605099025883253,0.0,0.09699697492714036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0345060908722559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031986276746974115,0.028650169518418388,0.03566103642069963,0.10069712138438734,0.08857206330200064,0.052548390680343934,0.0,0.0,0.10506373947552627,0.03296042416847975,0.04553423926884273,0.03149482920959296,0.03230593177221864,0.0,0.028525188796453643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029091539032623636,0.0,0.0,0.06535840133030109,0.0,0.0,0.1790179710890833,0.03247135426473476,0.06496656113004617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025728071374400915,0.0,0.0236949622063944,0.023900359493409885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030928430779380067,0.03669748170716868,0.0,0.0,0.08736765419706859,0.02451464735017292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11173151103027147,0.0,0.03367662232412017,0.0,0.12188240642891833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0347526234055097,0.0,0.0,0.06480613133437213,0.03610833447591756,0.034283760866620376,0.06448344114221934,0.0,0.04129856760966966,0.03314089020252579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08258041217354341,0.06132192450203011,0.07689892091804597,0.03227085395392263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03285748212533048,0.054621828980469515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0228146817905516,0.034356086986316266,0.0,0.05389645902500947,0.0,0.0,0.03689907087724012,0.0,0.03657762399789391,0.0,0.0,0.09694081179094773,0.15544597631351245,0.02817306086012868,0.0593516275868793,0.036861242191236494,0.0,0.0,0.02065360351991656,0.031668756745625984,0.10235759937323574,0.037590640530938184,0.0,0.0,0.06160002154788227,0.0,0.021884089720186798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03877232768618368,0.0556779220198478,0.0,0.0,0.019011857268434098,0.025585053381982213,0.0,0.0,0.11592534442906062,0.08964093584587042,0.08725580115079032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03284817856558244,0.04579479374556097,0.035241723143636376,0.4699994457879733,0.0 schizophrenia,molporgnier,2018/11/14,"On medical leave, what if doctor wants me to go to the ward again even though I feel fine? had to go.on medical leave because i missed my meds for too long and had a minor episode at work. worried ill either lose my job or theyll send me to the ward again.",1.4144444444444415,3.2368589629629625,2.388666666666669,97.17300000000004,79.74074074074073,5.801481481481483,20.059259259259264,6.742157984588678,0.002241481481481511,200,5,47,2,5,63,42,54,0.215,0.753,0.032,-0.8176,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,2,5,3,0,0,3,0,3,4,0,0,0,6,7,4,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,1,7,1,7,4,1,7,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,2,3,29,8,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13957431184315258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23435432683674104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15122854374723044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11577106357430188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602510029297261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22721141196651298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4848795720044469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20262590967755287,0.0,0.256152117362513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25432735607390644,0.4613142260549708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22495593945858053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350488826266835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16668849818003684,0.23252402720642776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kissankala,2018/11/14,Is this catatonia or not? I get this urge/feeling that i need to stop everything and just stare at one spot. I cant move or talk in this stage and i feel like im underwater. I cant describe it better. Is this dissociating or catatonia or something else?,1.0187179487179492,3.4000906153846167,3.4476923076923067,85.78064102564106,85.15384615384616,7.3128205128205135,24.051282051282055,8.344100000000001,1.7259897435897438,200,8,43,5,6,69,36,52,0.105,0.843,0.053,-0.354,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,11,7,6,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,5,2,3,7,0,5,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,4,2,27,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858101346443348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699600126711419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29043676875989216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3268003850438693,0.23086668002174066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16883857489501142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3490699350464795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788041263462801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3434695910911141,0.0,0.23962019884750904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21898263368501286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24878555388650156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701775308507471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25974501739579503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mdmamonsta,2018/11/14,"Dpdr and SZA What’s up guys, I just had a few questions for whoever is willing to answer. My cousin was diagnosed back in 2016 with schizophrenia. I am about to turn 17 and have been dealing with depersonalization/ derealization for about 2 years now. I was wondering if anybody ever had periods of dpdr before they got diagnosed. Lots of people in my family have SZA and have came to accept that I might one day develop it. My cousins first break came from weed, and that’s what worries me the most: I’ve been a daily smoker since age 14. I haven’t yet heard any voices but constantly feel like I am detached from my body and everything around me isn’t genuinely real. I don’t know what to do and am just looking to make sense of what I’m going through, so I was just reaching out to see if anybody had to deal with severe depersonalization before their first break. Thanks guys",4.537800269905535,6.156976491228073,5.342339181286551,80.18910931174092,70.6374269005848,8.302474134053082,27.188933873144396,8.841846274778883,2.053270445344129,704,24,134,13,13,229,107,171,0.043,0.887,0.07,0.6647,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,2,11,3,0,0,3,0,21,3,1,1,1,31,35,10,0,2,6,2,1,1,0,2,2,2,0,2,7,13,0,0,6,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,12,5,16,3,25,21,3,21,0,0,2,0,10,5,0,7,12,95,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09972287190334783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305441498837327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11276009744065875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495662942845052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16288830013909034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33544308107216136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584699458268282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09457317567341653,0.3023668171051713,0.0,0.2976809172797913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326477914590464,0.0,0.0,0.1317940701288119,0.0,0.13824280584463286,0.0,0.07414755550493206,0.10476242228939524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494704310139329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334110048389294,0.0,0.11728451273751887,0.0,0.0,0.2904010072190319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059164531529309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164279599851875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12314393200937584,0.0,0.0,0.12467138883013565,0.0,0.0,0.09788593338910707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15556599033759588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09936969311462747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166440717081053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642747146516675,0.0,0.0,0.16691284802301296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11685619202007146,0.0,0.0,0.16566585197013378,0.0,0.12130533883655605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13500998907121256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15950643938005146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590290402178133,0.0,0.14892398567672827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09443385542365487 schizophrenia,infectedapparition,2018/11/14,happy life? successful? could use some success stories from others on the schzio spectrum. sometimes it feels like we're all just destined to die by our own hands. it's getting harder every day off my meds. need to hear that others can live normal lives. i don't want to be another sad schizophrenia documentary,3.4645864661654144,6.5608011228070255,3.5260651629072686,84.28578947368423,81.63157894736842,5.3624060150375925,25.686716791979947,6.868970318607317,1.428240100250627,252,10,41,3,7,77,53,57,0.12,0.674,0.20600000000000002,0.7807,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,1,0,4,2,1,1,1,9,10,0,1,4,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,4,7,8,3,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,24,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26170156015779383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992656429611483,0.0,0.0,0.16095548145438512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590198547818565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21027803247427285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261928174662821,0.17829671043453146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13039284185747366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656776463976955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812896061948585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17628248070711974,0.12192993034832818,0.0,0.4407592884292224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772219985792779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18505699135170087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445308950030674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468364450372042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155530074045265,0.0,0.0,0.14720603290818646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,caveman123456,2019/01/31,Problems Does anyone else on this sub have substance abuse problems? Shiiiittt it's been a long week my people's. My brain hasn't stood still at all ,1.8470689655172408,4.651363275862072,2.2926724137931025,91.53831896551728,88.65517241379311,4.279310344827587,21.04310344827585,5.985473137389443,0.1999586206896553,121,4,23,1,4,37,26,29,0.304,0.696,0.0,-0.8625,0,0,0,0,1,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,1,3,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,12,4,0,0.0,0.3440485890892183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030379527688264,0.29752496957484664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3241561312458445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541103723629461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24257224855777434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569740046130328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20131045607301085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5557020582582451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318949936053172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232922458429244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,helloworld2084,2019/01/31,"Hallucinations from Prozac Alright so I don’t really know where to post this but since you guys are experienced with this type of stuff I would like to know your opinion. So I started taking Zoloft a week and a half ago. For the first few days I had some side effects including seeing shadows in the corner of my eye and hearing a knocking sound (I don’t think the knocking was real because I asked my father if he heard it and he said no, but I’m not sure). And then after four days I didn’t have any side effects because my body got used to the dosage. Fast forward to a couple of days ago when I upped my dosage a tiny bit (from 5mg to 7.5mg) I was waiting for the bus and a lady walking towards me had a small disproportioned head, but as she came closer I knew who it was and that person has a normal sized head. Another day goes by (7.5mg) and in the evening I was drawing but I thought the bits of eraser looked like spiders for like a small period of time but then I could see that it wasn’t. I also heard some strange sound when listening to music which wasn’t there and I also saw a shadow. When I tried to sleep at night I heard a woman talking nonsense (nothing I heard was making any sense, like no real words) and she then screamed I think (I’m not sure if I remembered it correctly). I also had a really bad anxiety feeling for no reason. As I’m writing this I got that anxiety feeling again and I’m scared of losing it. I’ve told my therapist about the hallucinations of shadows and she says she doesn’t know if they go away or not (I’m being treated for ocd and it’s important I take my meds). I don’t know, should I worry? Is this normal? Like, I know they aren’t real so what if I’m just imagining it all? Do you guys get hallucinations that feel 100% real that you can’t differentiate from reality? I’m a bit sad because I don’t know what to do I really want the meds to work :/",1.9372186147186128,3.692992310606062,3.781157287157289,88.10554545454546,77.91414141414141,6.646926406926408,23.18297258297257,7.554174236665415,0.923314227994228,1489,47,322,21,35,502,188,396,0.127,0.805,0.068,-0.9773,2,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,4,2,5,15,14,0,1,22,1,28,7,5,5,4,68,73,36,0,10,14,1,3,5,0,2,2,11,0,4,21,14,0,1,18,0,0,4,16,5,0,3,23,20,45,9,36,46,7,39,0,2,5,0,30,14,0,8,27,204,66,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14971294903450613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20259482318307112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485264414128192,0.08854921956206503,0.12920224686579318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894581174288293,0.0,0.07933999891147334,0.0,0.07050906231049743,0.15443288682043455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765801866230023,0.0938007079699096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658397337718157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06742343132805083,0.09343813084562803,0.0,0.2178432907840312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055775928660330425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280956310796142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07182990744787596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04411966201499618,0.0,0.04799273012061154,0.0,0.13507870509166195,0.0,0.0,0.16723005918202802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733323589084398,0.0,0.09517702181239188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784565882477465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20628077584045426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07091355238414593,0.0944737142221259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0563685043330512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876014159398192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924705235343385,0.16547872239110167,0.08102842094161984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373517780676066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08087613100200769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38447312177641774,0.16229522333832422,0.08682477364808902,0.0,0.0,0.09566109993337067,0.0,0.08032768857470503,0.06715501969208602,0.0845453931037232,0.0,0.13458540033618913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06985478179637583,0.0,0.08450720117389421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05977146570935656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667071274075184,0.0,0.0,0.15917911675506882,0.0,0.12698608862910926,0.06787466895351282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09804856445420787,0.0,0.10821944972965514,0.0,0.06704086207727794,0.04924126713917664,0.0,0.0,0.08069197741714047,0.0,0.05733343687626346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07293441647202348,0.0,0.0,0.04980856560804636,0.0,0.06773766005791185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061477850362211275,0.0857592305785591,0.0,0.059988168346126976,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mycology1,2019/01/31,"Mental Illness I’m confident that I’m at the onset of mental illness. I’ve never been more afraid. I’m hoping this is a caffeine induced psychosis and will disappear on it’s own as I go through caffeine withdrawals. I am trying to stay positive but my head is pounding. I haven’t mentioned this out loud to anyone that I know. Any tips or advice is appreciated from anyone in the medical field or anyone who has/is dealing with something similar. Thank you in advance. =]",2.736373626373627,5.4364567582417616,4.42713186813187,79.53036813186814,80.31868131868131,6.277362637362637,29.979120879120877,7.554174236665415,2.3665200000000004,379,19,63,6,10,127,68,91,0.055999999999999994,0.755,0.18899999999999997,0.9243,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,1,3,0,7,4,1,1,1,10,14,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,1,1,6,2,12,12,2,10,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,3,1,41,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287137773037368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15916399262277706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4909656724069526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24129825449543846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13301765231399373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402057915240917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23246733267467914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12862934846935695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357836651467147,0.4717405307562555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18051601926694807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801853511046635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24946924121765354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21548445701963664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15890655007971324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Calypsoraptor,2019/01/31,"Movie theatre triggers Usually the movie theatre is niceish because it makes things quiet when things aren’t quiet, but last night I went to see aqua man and the trench people resemble one of my hallucinations who follows me everywhere. Apparently I crawled under my seat and wouldn’t move until it was over. How do you cope at movies when things get too real?",10.479545454545457,8.957294530303034,9.080909090909092,69.14136363636365,58.24242424242425,11.830303030303032,40.18181818181819,10.504223727775694,4.150218181818183,293,12,50,5,3,90,54,66,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,3,0,8,10,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,2,3,6,0,6,7,0,12,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,6,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711910398879824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146721808586708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22891350192050525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874558535888565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984772859564943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635394360570864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902973185086684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19469179652252366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31964542113241823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237847304902288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5597118690709808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092939887002675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603317345433022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,funclubfatass,2019/01/31,"Geodon 20mg: risky for heart? Hi! I'm a 21 year old girl in good health. My only issues is a non-fatal electrical problem in my heart called PSVT. I'm starting geodon today, and I read it can cause qt prolongation, which can result in death in rare cases. I'm a natural worrier, so despite the fact that this only seems to affect the elderly, I'm a little paranoid. Do I need to be worried or is it all gonna be alright with this drug/dose?",1.880108695652172,3.5480074456521784,4.029782608695655,86.65380434782612,77.80434782608695,6.773913043478261,23.45652173913044,7.645422480735847,1.0910608695652178,343,11,72,5,8,118,67,92,0.168,0.7240000000000001,0.109,-0.6766,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,6,1,7,3,2,3,2,11,15,3,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,8,12,1,9,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,2,4,35,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215068235200485,0.0,0.0,0.21636643448112836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442542251982065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17665943206098292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238809457235084,0.0,0.4991752960897056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198342626087762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110982075700453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561732713642777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22101197243073764,0.0,0.0,0.3203744842477185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20153645676842047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106786292227747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917420233938345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490790752058733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996446798119688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21389649113151168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13563342551808075 schizophrenia,harry5519,2019/01/31,"It was obscene... In the normal world, but who wanted to live there ?",0.2976923076923086,2.71441453846154,1.468076923076925,96.11442307692309,95.92307692307692,2.6,14.192307692307693,3.1291,-1.3058923076923077,51,1,10,0,2,16,13,13,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6111475644195091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6781227977703539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4082255818150176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,skyhawk214,2019/01/31,"Do demonic voices in movies trigger your symptoms? Do you have to cover your ears? I just saw the movie ""The Kid who would be King"" And since the antagonist was in a fiery hell-like environment, there was demonic talking and there was more than one voice talking. -- My partner said to cover my ears. After about the third time, he asked if we wanted to leave. We decided not to since it didn't happen through the whole movie so we'd stay. But he did say if there are any times where I want to leave, we can do that. I'm not allowed to see scary movies because that would probably be a psychotic nightmare. -- Can/Does demonic voices in movies set off your symptoms? ",3.456194503171248,5.4235548449612425,3.893713883016208,88.03414376321354,74.1937984496124,7.171529245947852,25.68076109936575,8.00094639256281,1.4339395348837214,521,18,105,8,11,163,82,129,0.08900000000000001,0.9009999999999999,0.01,-0.8458,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,4,4,0,1,7,0,0,0,7,0,16,4,2,2,0,18,24,6,0,6,6,0,0,0,1,2,2,7,0,2,4,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,7,9,12,0,14,12,2,10,3,0,2,0,18,5,0,2,3,69,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12952729815139832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780653422805983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161097899262134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684335090495247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40336408972028615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290685639273011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20536072471571284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18118221910554547,0.15147075320825548,0.0,0.0,0.15178129686528524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151203428250147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20301750574569327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3959460856208103,0.0,0.306187900094121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221311781814272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246903056083145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126548683138081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706112837025134,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mork0rk,2019/01/31,Progress :)` I went to work for the first time in 8 months today. So glad my work understands about my issues and let me take as much time off as I need. Feels good to be back.,-0.07105263157894726,1.8189568947368429,1.157105263157895,103.68723684210528,85.3157894736842,4.852631578947369,14.76315789473684,5.985473137389443,-1.1065999999999998,134,2,35,1,4,42,32,38,0.0,0.7809999999999999,0.21899999999999997,0.8399,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,7,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,5,2,8,4,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,6,21,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130745411863962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401112337422431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23570304936921546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23242023711191845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892227765298026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833558454063009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22118038826510866,0.0,0.20370205230198385,0.20546782211152684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083464212944324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32316112415793685,0.0,0.2626605513144241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884732356859491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568765805296587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4034675057754377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,talura,2019/01/01,"I know my delusions are bullshit but I spend most of my brain time shushing them. Hi all. I'll try to make this quick as I know diagnosing people isn't the point of this subreddit and I am inquiring about a symptom I have. I have experienced a couple episodes of psychosis following traumatic live events in the last 3 years and have taken antipsychotics before briefly. Hated them, not taking them now. I have never gotten a formal diagnosis. I feel further away from those episodes now that time has passed and have a stable job (my dream job, honestly) and feel like I can differentiate reality from delusion pretty well... Until I decide that this method of rational thinking IS the delusion and I'm fucked. I spend a lot (most) of my time catching myself and trying to logically think away the obsessive thoughts and that's miles better than how my brain used to be functioning but still feels out of my control. I am constantly anxious of losing my grip and this job I love. I also feel like I can't be present with people because I'm too busy reminding myself of reality. But since I'm fairly high functioning and I'm able to identify delusion now, I feel like getting more aggressive help for my mental illness is unnecessary and frankly more scary. I guess my tl;dr would be after years of psychotic fragility, I can decently identify when a delusion is fake or not but now that's all I think about. Do I need help or is this what managing is?",5.102714633298575,6.910194846715331,5.7343378519290935,77.18947688564478,69.5109489051095,9.014668057003822,31.2957942301008,9.48565724429506,3.0510144595064306,1164,50,206,26,21,377,149,274,0.14300000000000002,0.732,0.125,-0.7539,4,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,3,3,13,13,3,1,10,0,23,7,2,4,3,47,50,21,0,2,8,0,7,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,11,12,0,1,14,1,2,3,5,6,1,0,3,8,34,7,27,43,7,30,0,1,0,2,7,8,1,6,22,142,45,4,0.11622595883476255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09294585728887728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13130225107938162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183962284997324,0.0,0.0,0.07085026573532341,0.0,0.09889973052202232,0.0,0.0,0.10279241558698617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594932165839789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12559897147205307,0.13035729572706234,0.0,0.12860181279759691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796690168007055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2938366849308852,0.2490955446437971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10744902610258836,0.06072326644161745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12803599708695246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11474907201474882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15580762053775285,0.12279910675686788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460089905515499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12774949480834202,0.09473966892241424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17034639806015595,0.0,0.10262965100937156,0.0,0.0,0.13002711848720566,0.0,0.09881115392169533,0.10489846561277093,0.0,0.07758173003156521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11712842986817948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861800757821995,0.0896406245564529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16115289128606616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10987109864871772,0.0,0.0,0.11824358412139815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614331419403427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281820086063293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12080327335413685,0.08738745654469532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234187042683642,0.0,0.0922704287492178,0.20331687378285626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15781959355299033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10038191141829757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450109516897348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08256358647054758,0.0,0.0,0.14969141374368589 schizophrenia,sakurablade5,2019/01/01,"//whynotyou I told everyone in my church group and everyone at my work place im schizoaffective. I helped out two people since then. Im not afraid of the questions and negative comments, there is always someone who relates or understands and my weird behaviors no longer need excuses. Why was i so afraid of this label. I claim it. It makes me look cooler, ya i survived psychosis, what have you done? Thats what i thought.",2.312554660529345,5.236279012658232,2.8944533947065594,87.10241657077101,87.98734177215191,6.9233601841196775,26.16915995397008,8.00094639256281,2.2230151898734176,338,15,61,8,11,105,62,79,0.099,0.858,0.043,-0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,2,2,3,0,2,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,11,10,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,4,1,12,0,5,6,0,5,1,0,1,0,9,4,0,2,1,40,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18002294105431316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22140412862229125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4134689272559217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450167855955403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4673965078212797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18168194268313465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441723801811734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604229309090363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14999185664394538,0.0,0.2260427278443945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423647580894216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17896935121402013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18331510660070185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17176003248816288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20673446362796086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113453419847265,0.2252309947220537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19522483700556206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575074849625885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,esmereldaskysurfer,2019/01/01,"Anyone here treat their illness with CBD? Im looking into it as a possible replacement for Clozapine, has anyone had any success with it?",5.7323999999999975,7.938752040000002,6.749000000000002,68.93950000000001,68.6,9.8,36.5,10.125756701596842,4.5569999999999995,111,6,16,3,2,37,22,25,0.092,0.679,0.22899999999999998,0.6199,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,5,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,12,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883737718180823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5930219955411906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4580550755491039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3561016592509608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4780613313939689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bbebemal,2019/01/01,"Can you live with schizophrenia refusing to take meds? I believe my son has schizophrenia. A psychiatrist a few years ago diagnosed this. He does not believe that he is schizophrenic and thus refuses to consider meds, even though he is anxious, depressed, and has occasional psychotic episodes. I know that he hears voices and has paranoia about being watched, monitored, and manipulated. He otherwise has a gentle and lovely nature. I see a side to him that others don’t and sometimes wonder if he reserves his scary behaviour just for me. He has extremely low self esteem and is not living a “normal” life. He can’t find a job and spends his time wallowing in self pity and blaming the world for his disfunctionality. I fear that he will never have this “normal” life with job/relationship/joy/self-acceptance without some kind of medical intervention but how can you convince someone who won’t agree that it would make all the difference.....? He will not see a therapist, either. Thinks they are a waste of time. Believes in eating healthy, meditation, sweat lodges and running. What is the prognosis for an unmedicated/untreated schizophrenic?",7.597640692640695,9.516774550505053,7.268138528138528,68.14363636363639,63.595959595959606,10.909668109668116,36.36507936507937,10.914260884657429,4.551150360750361,923,44,143,26,14,291,129,198,0.114,0.8170000000000001,0.069,-0.6106,2,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,1,0,5,7,0,1,12,0,20,9,1,4,2,36,29,14,0,4,8,1,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,2,11,12,1,2,4,0,1,1,8,4,0,0,0,5,13,3,14,24,4,11,0,3,3,1,25,5,0,3,5,94,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836600452024668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381061170866373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4131969151282443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529253682026347,0.12407975188426895,0.0,0.12772376379722886,0.0,0.0,0.10698057039993307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12509083336254187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08074404487127218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756365791770195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11173300225537464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377830527347116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426257370269125,0.0,0.0,0.1273031008768819,0.06718463142377201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726955977082869,0.0,0.0,0.21589550037937924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11033413102238007,0.0,0.0816018872749222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715812629280787,0.12315259952048875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09428565381737616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23955533698699244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13124924211595526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19483260726938484,0.0,0.3825958419607865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10358083889365208,0.0,0.12090698758293293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919157303568901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14194004255970524,0.0,0.07833196429708618,0.12010862512874965,0.0,0.1425682791448272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11784328433676007,0.13257338786062167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08684189529470061,0.0,0.0,0.07872408790939639 schizophrenia,Daffodil509,2019/01/01,"How to best address my sister's problem (aggressive tendencies) My sister (26F) developed schizophrenia from her late teens maybe around 18yo. I am about 6 years younger (21F) and before then, I hardly had any clue she had it and neither did my parents at the time. I recall that she was initially reserved and maybe had depressive episodes, to which my parents sent her to our home country to be treated. She is in Canada now and for the past several years (6 or 7 yrs) has tried different meds--I think Clozaril or Clozapine. At one point, when my mom was away because her mother was gravely ill, for a couple weeks, I had to make sure she was taking meds and that was a trying experience. She had withdrawn from the meds regularly due to paranoia perhaps, which is why it is so hard for us to ensure she takes her meds. She has been mostly reserved in the past, and speaking of voices, but recently, has been more aggressive--it is unpredictable and oftentimes I find intolerable. I don't know if this is because of the new meds which is by injection, but I want to make it easier for my family. I know that being medicated is primarily important, but if it is to the point where she adamantly does not want to take them, I don't think any degree of persuasion will help. I'm away from home for college these past few years, but when I come home, it doesn't seem like the situation has gotten any better. If you could give us advice, that would be most appreciated. Thanks.",6.8617126334519565,6.870904483985767,7.006705960854095,76.10870662811391,64.65836298932385,10.441370106761566,33.22086298932384,10.125756701596842,3.1848663701067608,1164,44,220,24,16,375,156,281,0.045,0.845,0.11,0.9662,3,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,3,1,1,2,8,10,1,0,9,0,35,2,0,3,1,36,53,21,1,8,10,6,2,1,0,2,2,2,4,0,14,9,0,0,6,0,0,2,5,4,0,1,15,4,33,6,30,32,6,28,0,2,0,0,27,10,0,8,17,152,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920884652479357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922555953054843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0838919657062906,0.0,0.0,0.17707975683459995,0.0,0.0,0.11489344769608265,0.0,0.08018975580372092,0.0,0.09889716277491092,0.08334601783934634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08117785331385206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524152374798587,0.10427276100473096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08116721200727271,0.0,0.0,0.098458847393839,0.0,0.0,0.08246847213048847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09218302935923164,0.08883937531776369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613199525957037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09040185563799973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688378098073811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06316587000456537,0.0,0.2835857545361728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10358168559871407,0.0,0.10630477918150208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046040017805190486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580944261877658,0.0,0.18934984977273095,0.0,0.4187095232193889,0.09493505861283937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11037062514850947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09101582782809088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06385823412570824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092807077049956,0.0,0.26988303707272754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17817109357169256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901732174058388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304884026188924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08579090571784281,0.0,0.10646232699481338,0.0,0.0,0.10592767013396123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881837558248885,0.0,0.21256616464896214,0.0,0.0,0.08676186089730104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12076804957033042,0.0,0.0,0.05495104443448658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12796308545288446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22671387041233576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11116824813666083,0.0,0.07559218890955413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08503530557041272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06694410391622192,0.0,0.0,0.18205890729925225 schizophrenia,throwschizo123,2019/01/01,"People taking Klonopin (Clonazepam), how much dosage are you taking? How much Klonopin/Clonazepam do you take everyday & at what time do you take it?",6.989615384615385,9.28717334615385,4.456923076923079,86.26307692307695,65.53846153846153,6.7384615384615385,32.230769230769226,7.1686216300943375,2.0216769230769227,121,5,20,1,2,33,17,26,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,2,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,7,2,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982091972073431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4046481898800405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908082962831656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8277481870412684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16048753860399206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dijjonnaise,2019/01/01,"Psychiatric Service dog? Hey guys, first post in here. I've been struggling with schizophrenia for a couple of years now, and it's been getting gradually worse. I've been recommended antipsychotics however I have heard that their effects can vary drastically and that they also have some pretty nasty side effects. I also don't really like taking medication for prolonged periods of time (I was taking fluoxetine for depression for quite a while and found that it just made me numb to all emotion rather than combating the depression itself). Because of this, I decided to look into alternatives and found out that service dogs can be given to people with schizophrenia, however I couldn't find anything from the patients point of view about it and was hoping you guys could help. Does anyone in here have a service dog? How has it helped? How long does it take to get a dog from the time of application? I feel like the simple act of having a constant companion with me would really help lessen my episodes, especially in New areas as I've found that being in an unfamiliar space brings on episodes a lot more than if I am in a space that I am comfortable in. Thanks in advance! 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Like if I am sleeping on bed I expect someone to kill me from the other side. It’s really messed up. Is this schizophrenia ? 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i can't really tell . my father has schizophrenia and my mother has symptom of it . i think i have schizophrenia but i asked my therapy and he said no immediately didn't even think . i had my doubts. so i have major depression and anxiety and porn addiction i have no motivation to do anything and no dreams hopeless all the time . you see i dont have hallucinations or hear things or see things but im sure that i have early stage of schizophrenia because im 19 (i read) i won't have hallucinations until 22 (i think) i dont feel at all i have no joy in anything. i droped school because it gives me anxiety . i didn't even ragret it . i dont think about the future and when i sleep and think about positive things my stomach hurt me (anxiety) i also forget things fast and hate thinking (seems hard) i don't care about anything in my life or others lifes . i workout sometimes (whight lefting) i have been like this since 2 years but it was alright back then . i can't cry anymore even when i want to . sometimes i just make myself cry by listening to sad music . but even music are not enjoyable anymore . when i think of something to do in my head it seem more fun then actually doing it . thank you for reading ,1.4769507786429372,3.9979972540322595,3.06614015572859,88.31145161290323,84.5241935483871,5.840044493882092,23.067853170189096,7.237678284180719,1.0104127919911008,981,36,197,15,29,322,127,248,0.183,0.6659999999999999,0.152,-0.8198,0,0,1,0,0,1,25.0,0,2,0,1,15,14,1,1,2,1,28,8,3,3,3,38,51,25,0,2,10,2,2,1,0,1,4,3,0,0,13,8,0,0,12,4,0,0,14,6,0,0,6,7,40,8,17,44,4,18,0,4,2,1,11,5,0,7,13,138,53,4,0.0,0.0,0.09148238227955056,0.10219676439753457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07496848605677024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151458517406944,0.0,0.18594129579730764,0.0,0.0,0.2314344285383945,0.0,0.08763967253307302,0.0,0.0,0.07208473714227602,0.0,0.11429314471518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09558009560422122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20595072874435527,0.0,0.0,0.08074312412152651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3296081543720156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24767287916119646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0474006955441677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08992951796768997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08397782735510595,0.09255457377328942,0.09621024116893838,0.0,0.1056583350042398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10035682270451753,0.0,0.20252311162411185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051520242535030784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10185509097754336,0.0,0.13243086834163836,0.04579946483647486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06257605250823292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875423470611123,0.0,0.060055962915326125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917372773306717,0.0,0.0,0.0948757590891228,0.1494065378871665,0.17068531929501998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07754749829468388,0.0,0.0938135066833902,0.0,0.0,0.0721701003747481,0.18543399561610427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08835431138483213,0.0974377855907472,0.0,0.0,0.08193796522041884,0.08630854171531355,0.10720649757021736,0.0,0.2491221880630848,0.42047968401629293,0.0,0.0,0.05466393253699183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0552937044139621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06036922457545981 schizophrenia,liesbett7,2019/01/01,"What is going on with my boyfriend? Hello everyone! my mother has schizophrenia. And my boyfriend i think has something like that too. Maybe schizo affective disorder. I know him for a few month only. I really like him but his behavior drives me crazy sometimes. It is triggering old memories with my mother which are quite painful. For example he is sitting often or walking as if i am not there. he seems to be in a different world. he doesn't listen and seems kind of careless. What is this? Can you help me understand what is going on.He says when i ask about whats wrong.. that he is just thinking about something. (exactly like my mother) He also says he cannot trust anyone. It is unsure if we stay together at this point. Which is kind of sad for me. He does not take medication and i don't think he would take medication. i don't like him to take it if it is making him worse. i am kind of confused and scared. English is not my first language .. so i am sorry for mistakes. Any thoughts are welcome. thank you.",1.4373366834170866,4.060699005025128,2.694299497487439,89.92343919597992,86.58793969849245,5.998070351758795,23.03537688442211,7.404127859558343,1.176213507537689,798,30,158,14,25,256,111,199,0.18100000000000002,0.727,0.092,-0.968,1,0,2,0,0,0,29.0,1,2,0,2,9,17,0,2,2,0,24,3,0,3,1,32,41,13,0,5,9,3,0,4,0,1,3,3,0,0,14,7,0,0,8,0,0,4,7,7,0,1,1,3,26,10,17,38,1,15,0,1,0,0,26,5,0,8,8,104,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242396662450844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709746284805008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08955514729909053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197356831737658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338142974094564,0.14678853617762544,0.0,0.11208196062290274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12238406103354067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10894311997944783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14557940950891898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08584801405512779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4001207252769991,0.07038834421570965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502898540210187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08549308983968644,0.0,0.12867161145291656,0.0,0.0,0.2580503124719209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10223067389391913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13439636358983734,0.0,0.0,0.09740912493633476,0.13628407046785074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12107515137569265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13622676670976022,0.0,0.0,0.08205007550217938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037056047398109,0.12822846683036984,0.0,0.0,0.2331948844949085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19720147333569027,0.12667246183716885,0.143372885909314,0.0,0.13651415505881467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888962518700335,0.0,0.0,0.11791705636639227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462017197619876,0.0,0.10167966158261388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333337621651428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13052247026524255,0.09098296870592276,0.14003323660480804,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Nervous_Independence,2019/01/01,"Had high hopes but... Sorry this is long.... My boyfriend was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2017. I wish I could say it was his first episode but as I think about it, I think it was his second one. This was a very traumatic episode, he hurt himself, the walls were filled with blood, he didn’t recognize me. I didn’t know what to do, I called a friend and she recommended a psychiatrist, she was out of town but said she would be back in the afternoon and gave me instructions to take him to the hospital. That night the psychiatrist said it was either schizophrenia or bipolar disorder. He started medication. Now I know his dose was too high and that those weren’t the right ones, but I trusted the psychiatrist. As time went one, his psychiatrist would point out he can’t keep doing weed and would refuse to treat him if he kept it out. He resented her for it and that definitely created some difficulties but most of all his belief that his diagnosis isn’t real. I convinced him to see a new psychiatrist (almost 2 years later), she did change his medication and I felt things were in check. He has been working, being social and overall having a normal life. He still distrusted her because he was very vocal about not taking his medication and she lowered his dose instead. Fast forward to this month, he said he wanted to stop his medication. He is still convinced he doesn’t have schizophrenia. The episodes he has had, he says, have been when he has had bad weed. He is irritable but he has learned coping skills for it not to be as bad as it used to be. I have been reluctant about him stopping his medication. I do want to believe he is high functioning and maybe doesn’t need them, but I worry, sometimes I feel he just likes making life harder on himself. All in all, he has been okay without his medication this month. Last night we had a great night on New Years. We were leaving his family’s get-together and he wanted to go out. I wasn’t feeling well so I stayed home. He said he would be a few hours. I woke up and he wasn’t there. I called and he seems okay but he has been having out with a new friend who I’ll just call C. C is very unstable, he has mentioned he has bipolar disorder. I’ve seen C high and low. He loves drinking and cocaine. I feel my boyfriend is off doing that, I just know he is. We met C as a mutual friend of another and he was so depressed, I felt he was going to kill himself. So as normal human beings, my bf and I tried to help that night. Since then, my bf and C hang out weekly. My bf tells me it’s his first friend that gets him since he alienated himself from his old friends. And that he wants to help C, like I helped him out of his depression. He asked me to be more compassionate towards C but... I feel C is going to bring down my bf, adding new addictions and make him spiral. I don’t know what I want from this post. Advice? Suggestions or maybe it’s just a need to vent. I want to believe he wants to get better! Sometimes I want to believe he is right, this isn’t his diagnosis but the more I read about it. The more it fits with how he acts and responds. I’m sorry if I’m posting in the wrong sub. I know this is for people with schizophrenia, but necessarily their significant others. I just wish I could somehow get him to see why my worries and concerns are real and genuine. It’s not about nagging. I love him so much, I just want him to be okay. To be healthy. To not self destruct and spiral back to his depression or another episode where he could hurt himself. I worry he is going down a path that isn’t healthy for him and me. I have always told him he wouldn’t be alone, he would always have me now. But C’s influences, specially on cocaine use, truly scare me. I had a parent have a coke addiction and I don’t want to live through that again. The line between caring for him and for me feels like it’s getting very thin. 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I'm literally just done. It's ruining my relationship and it just ruins me. It's really bad and I don't have fun doing it. So please just everyone too. Don't drink. It's not good. Really really bad. I had to puke my guts up to find that out. ,-1.6644530046224943,0.009840644067800495,2.3018181818181813,88.11294298921419,108.66101694915254,6.891217257318952,15.533127889060092,7.686295010490155,0.9762067796610172,214,6,48,7,11,79,36,59,0.32,0.64,0.04,-0.9545,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,0,0,8,4,1,0,0,8,10,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,3,0,1,3,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,0,5,2,4,6,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082211454777748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5666461493474862,0.0,0.542433209316427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17636721362748128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16869618919693952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15481090196703512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026055008003472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3547261728047557,0.0,0.0,0.19816210549272206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jellyfishking3,2019/01/01,"I Got an Epistle Hello everyone I'm getting really worried and really sleEPy and I'm not sure what to do. I woke up and I found an epistle next to my pillow and I know it's because I didn't stay up and watch my window again like I should have so I think that they put it there as a warning. When I read it it said that they'd come back one last time tonight and that it would be my turn again. I think that it's the women who wear the ram skulls on their heads. When I can't see them I hear them speak latin and I swear they touch me even when I can't see them. They're covered in mud and I have to watch my windows at night to make sure they don't get in becuase when they emerge from the forest after the darkness falls my short fence doesn't keep them out. If I keep my guard up they'll just watch me through my window, but if I try and run they close in on me and rape me again. They've raped me so many times now that I think my body is decaying and fading away. I'm so tired but if I don't stay awake I think they'll bring me to their gore cave and finish me off, and my body will putrefy and dissolve into parasites. I only have one choice left I think and that's to either create a ring of flames around my house and hope the barrier keeps them out, or set the trees that they come from at night on fire. Thing is, if I'm wrong, and I fall asleep and they make it through the fire, they're going to touch me again but if I destroy the trees something else bad might happen i think. I've been crying for hours now confused and it's almost nightfall what should I do???? I'm not going to ask any of my friends because I think they've all been replaced by now. Please I don't know what to do and my body feels like the millipedes are growing in my tummy and the holes in my back, arms, and shoulders where I'm dissolving are getting bigger.",1.8855028195488719,3.1499514812030083,2.7881007205513804,97.28147438909777,76.79448621553884,5.8897556390977455,20.238173558897245,6.158741222570753,-0.21448565162907274,1447,31,350,9,32,457,183,399,0.15,0.7979999999999999,0.052000000000000005,-0.991,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,17,0,21,13,3,1,14,0,28,12,9,2,3,71,68,39,0,9,13,0,5,2,1,7,1,4,4,1,20,29,0,6,11,1,0,10,9,7,0,2,7,14,66,6,38,52,2,62,0,0,5,2,25,24,0,10,27,220,86,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09727538217231613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06606104652078257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08647848777202898,0.09081624513149536,0.0,0.09126970298746102,0.14939501641980404,0.0811109309717027,0.1184357945128815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237142503359371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16736138999864006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670779183707683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115109530902669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06416249700681577,0.0,0.0,0.0928249673982326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04911877305700802,0.06939947797730113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10651305185524904,0.07505298087362781,0.0,0.15226071981078215,0.0,0.11041800564058636,0.0,0.07769469033773826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859038522055297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969746113395504,0.0,0.10948800896431464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648561226269817,0.09566697540901864,0.11209078588568552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590373494691532,0.0,0.0,0.10677527288865116,0.0791850802834696,0.0,0.0,0.10554691320436624,0.0,0.0,0.09491900882927133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12968834683412162,0.09848846348162313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305411314972897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10331342595992868,0.18232556163757999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13165416908497427,0.07388216055379616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10663460979895167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765624876677467,0.0,0.0,0.09716998746663814,0.0,0.12446548217459455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09240590343419314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548219017350679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07478596550351496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20708451551152346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18311357332197525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06453795708300293,0.4357203188091191,0.0,0.0,0.1132905441940702,0.11165239158745184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06595419494252346,0.10566444899884812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09865414180395686,0.0,0.06900809658217763,0.1062113849854018,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SchizoChatban,2019/01/01,"I'm new Here my story. I am a US Army Infantry Veteran with two tours to Iraq. (I am bad a grammar english etc etc so forgive me.) I guess when i first started noticing i had a mental illness was when i first got back from Iraq i attempted suicide. I woke up several days later in a hospital and then i spent 5 days in a mental hospital then i was released like nothing ever happened. I continued to seek help while in the army and they said there was no way I was this crazy and they don't believe the test or anything that they are getting false reports. I was prescribed every medicine in the book basically. To shorten then things up I did another two in Iraq despite being prescribed an anti psychotic that makes you non deploy able. I did another tour came home and had even more problems. I was constantly depressed and suicidal but i would never report being suicidal because they would just throw me in a mental institution. I spent two other trips to the mental ward before finally getting out of the army. One of those trips was because i saw a man in the back seat of my car that wasn't actually there. I was diagnosed with bipolar type II while in the Army and they even wrote me a profile so I was no longer allowed to carry a weapon. If you know anything about the military to be an infantrymen who isn't allowed to carry a weapon makes you useless in the Army. I maintained my diagnoses until right before i got out my doctor told me there was nothing wrong with me i didn't need medicine and i would be fine. I finally got out of the Army and still was extremely suicidal and depressed. I would get very delusional I got heavy in to the illuminati and other secret organizations. I finally seeked out mental health treatment through my nearest VA only to get turned away because i was registered with them and that i would need 3 weeks to go through a registry process before I could even schedule an appointment. This is where things started to get bad for me. I then made up in my head that the VA wanted me dead. That even if i went through the registry they wanted to kill me. I felt that i was a target of a bigger plot by secret societies and because i have discovered there paths I was a dead man. I was lost hopeless and i was constantly being turned down by jobs probably because my hygiene wasn't the best and i was always speaking weird things in my interviews. I kept being told i had no worked experience and they wouldn't hire me. I had no money so i decided that i would use the GI bill because that would give me money and maybe i could find a career going through college. College was ok at first i started to get my life around. I started of well but then i started to get extreme anxiety and stressed out and then suicidal and depressed. I would have such crippling depression i couldn't even write papers. I constantly waited til the last minute and had to rush papers to get them done or i would ask for extensions. This turned in to me not showing up for college because i was so scared as if i was gonna be killed for not having my work done. I would abandon classes all together and just sit at home in a crippling depression. I finally dropped out of college and this is where things got worse for me. I started Hallucinating really bad and having extremely delusions. I was homeless and I would randomly sleeps on friends couches and bounce around places. I found my self believe I was the next prophet and found my self exorcising demons out of random people to include friends. I am not sure if all this stuff actually happened but i spent days talking to demons and exorcising random people. I could see them every where i was constantly being attack and mocked by them having a hold of other people. It just made me even more depressed and suicidal but spiritually up lifting as well. This phase eventually ended as do most of my episodes. But i never lost my religious side from all of that. So finally this is a few years after i got out of the Army I had no money no money for food and no home. I prayed for help and finally I finally got Va disability that i had filed before i got out for issues i been having with mental health and other physically problems. I got a large lump sum of money and its was almost life changing. But I still wasn't on medicine so that probably wasn't the best thing for me. I looked up to the sky and asked god ok now what i got money i'm a little stable money wise what do you want me to do. I had always played guitar since i was 16 and played several other musical instruments since i was 8. And then i heard a voice saying go on craigslist and come be a rock star. And for some reason I decide to do this i do what the voice tells me and sure enough on the musician section craigslist it says come be a rock star. Fast forward a bit I met a singer and all of sudden i'm in LA meeting famous rappers and multi platinum Music producers and Grammy award winning and nominated artist. I got even more delusional I straight up thought i was a rock star even though i hadn't even sold one album. This pushed my delusion so much that I blew all the money i got on equipment and complete mismanaged all my money thinking I was just gonna become a rock star over night I ended up homeless in my Van in LA suicidal. I tried to hang my self with a belt in my van so i decided i finally need some help. I finally went to the VA clinic in LA to get help even though i was terrified of the VA still because they were trying to kill me. The doctor prescribed me medicine Depakote and risperadone diagnosed me with schizoaffective disorder and PTSD. Now to back track a little bit I wasn't hallucinating when i said i met all these people in the music industry. I basically got significantly better after a few months of taking the medicine and I started to notice how crazy i was. People that i thought were real disappeared out of my life I was no longer being visited by demons. I didn't see shadow people any more. I no longer had spiders crawling all over my legs. I no longer wanted to kill my self. But I still have negative symptoms like i have no interest in playing music at all or or no interest in anything in life for that matter. I'm not exactly sad any more but i have no emotions. I'm absolutely terrified what i got my self in to. I have a song coming out on radio soon and i supposed to play with these famous people and write songs for them and i'm not exactly sure i'm capable or even have interest any more. Of course before i got really ill i would of have been really excited and capable but I've seem to lost interest. I have no emotions or drive to even compete for this spot any more. It really makes me upset if i could feel up set. I just feel nothing like i'm letting the biggest opportunity slip out of my life because i am mentally ill. I don't even know why wrote all this i just thought i'd share my crazy little story. I' am good now mentally besides the negative symptoms. Anyways AMA. &#x200B;",4.200779249693866,5.6750084464544175,5.226219247467442,81.26139388288993,71.26483357452966,8.29657130134699,29.71393187131248,8.81431480718593,2.4065268618501623,5571,227,1062,103,104,1831,455,1382,0.184,0.731,0.085,-0.9994,3,0,0,0,0,4,77.0,1,4,13,17,61,63,8,3,64,2,116,24,3,11,18,201,224,99,13,32,31,0,3,3,2,15,20,10,4,7,49,77,1,4,20,15,14,20,36,31,2,8,101,17,188,32,152,91,31,169,4,13,4,0,58,76,0,20,74,766,237,22,0.0300039376703697,0.0,0.05855903009247688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030044609517058313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04993135941416164,0.03250925393033281,0.03645806836413158,0.08161482597885858,0.06292348947780188,0.022952930193444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07407205260462756,0.05341973146163069,0.056099262975864164,0.03413381060912478,0.028189687110543742,0.06921352810791001,0.07515610406833485,0.16461109725638726,0.0331369918672607,0.12765570531527373,0.06760832635066896,0.06297456297840417,0.026536044625309733,0.06551305796863538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03431651155470472,0.0,0.0,0.031740187675091194,0.07753720671845793,0.03145855779858,0.12969439011013414,0.0,0.09582281114864667,0.0,0.0,0.05805017290066725,0.0,0.15505408530173326,0.09136009547249688,0.0,0.0,0.03438711198949837,0.06142060316264344,0.0,0.061408890762892174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675007829191231,0.05314916627085877,0.031002088171591582,0.06692464337039586,0.257625132146247,0.0271402793806988,0.050559223093014236,0.0,0.0,0.02934960834587118,0.0,0.0,0.0303417848071904,0.0,0.028808485409303437,0.2958106242330273,0.02742305546355604,0.0765640021646934,0.03628088052830735,0.06579553798703816,0.04636193563228441,0.0,0.14108237159318227,0.028782511001842762,0.05115578765725815,0.025165879390725208,0.35995334800294976,0.0,0.03305272001775527,0.0,0.053064765984764166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030792696186026782,0.06378556539244838,0.0,0.0,0.08044402785834673,0.0,0.09028918756477726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031316315660132515,0.02977427845431018,0.0,0.13277964631624736,0.0,0.03297875894575356,0.024457213773566928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030681059096924382,0.10596334249217998,0.043975225164932887,0.09021548358887796,0.0,0.0,0.025195750958312,0.0,0.09825852686195476,0.0,0.0,0.0567809025771333,0.06008358413809819,0.0,0.030142988193209458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418952973622284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02394885679422648,0.0,0.02205634648503698,0.06674261881219608,0.04628177283094846,0.02897798996841273,0.031909528099689666,0.02815666298116282,0.0,0.08636876221618077,0.0683193638049516,0.0,0.0,0.040662889346905366,0.02281934662752877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456066677279397,0.0,0.031347728852932126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06469863901188865,0.05741943246050256,0.03507299751906565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03415104976679012,0.0768851630654876,0.030849045073902463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025623198831765517,0.05708123111422625,0.04772067101071137,0.030039175837286658,0.0,0.04781850740075826,0.02731445798601421,0.15650325302928245,0.06779181857240467,0.0,0.049639134586133137,0.0,0.030025606155325506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14865859058755146,0.0,0.0958447335248942,0.0,0.03436940922868486,0.0,0.034347330253378286,0.22973606582669925,0.0,0.08483506851691941,0.06237115908412817,0.022559227092002813,0.024116028570484043,0.026224764000988388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966641488761588,0.019225311753268998,0.058957432845651914,0.07145932511373998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057340096469078984,0.0,0.040741408335972576,0.0979070050133094,0.08792846208387825,0.0,0.03609104273004828,0.0259137686935248,0.0,0.024756390844607276,0.07078839925281483,0.0238157291543972,0.024067348989549563,0.0,0.0539542865874376,0.05562790163404239,0.027073886933540608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04368644793840423,0.0,0.030576575794213856,0.2557672375920441,0.03280459574550513,0.03645806836413158,0.019321552141980437 schizophrenia,turkeylegdance,2019/01/01,"New Patient (Please Have Patience ;))/ HELP This may or may not be against the rules, but I just need someone to respond in an understanding manner or maybe a completely un-understanding manner which would mean I don't have it. Because from what I have researched if you have schizophrenia you wouldn't know it. But, despite this, I feel like I might. And I say this because for awhile i smoked weed and took mushrooms (afterwords for months I felt great) then LSD (which is around when the trouble started, I think, IDK) but overall, for the past year, I feel insane. And from what I know online you shouldn't feel like you're insane and I get that but nothing else feels like what I have been experiencing. I feel ridiculous and just part of the experiment typing here, even. I haven't ever heard voices (except when I am high) that aren't there that I'm aware (maybe the voices I hear are real?). I thought I was experiencing dp/dr but at the same time I think that whole world is made up for me--I saw psychiatrists and that makes me feel worse because i Think they are making take pills to dull the real feelings that the world is fake and I don't want to take the drugs because I will lose the sense of depth that I have gained and be numb and be a part of life anymore and I recognize the whole world and human experience is completely insignificant, And I don't know if maybe I am reaching some spiritual enlightenment and that is why I don't want to take the meds and I think I could be another Great in this world if I don't take the meds and I have written a suicide note and planned out my death but I am so afraid what comes after because I know I am trapped in a box and even the sky is claustrophobic feeling and overall am so depressed. I just want to see if anyone here feels anything similar because I also view technology and internet as a separate brain and I think I might be a simulation and everyone I know I know doesn't feel like anything but if someone else feels this way maybe what I feel isn't real. &#x200B; Please just share schizophrenic/ psychotic disorder experiences. 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I hope it doesn't catch anyone else off guard. 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Essentially I had a delusion about one of my professors trying to rape/kill me. I also thought he was in love with me. It's over now but I still see him (he's my advisor, unfortunately, and the kindest most intelligent and thoughtful guy ever) and I really think that he is attracted to me and may have feelings for me. I think bits and pieces of my ""delusion"" are true and I still see evidence of his crush on me all the time. I obviously won't act on this ever, and I don't want to make him uncomfortable, but it does make me feel good. However my friends think I'm over analyzing things again. I could be 100% sure that something he did meant he liked me, at least a little and they all get worried that I'm psychotic again! I don't understand. I suppose they are right and I'm wrong but it doesn't feel that way. The worst part of it is that when they gently try to show me I'm being irrational and he is ""just doing his job"" (even that phrase makes me wanna punch something) I can barely stand it. The pain is too intense. I just can never ever ever accept it. It feels like knives in my heart to hear someone tell you the connection you thought you had with this person is entirely fake. Like my whole life is a lie. No one will ever love me. The pain and humiliation is too much to bear. Yet I don't even think I'm delusional. I think he likes me. I suppose that is the essence of being delusional. Makes me wanna scream sometimes",2.450576850094876,4.467538494117648,3.992713472485772,85.97156546489565,77.29411764705881,7.445920303605312,24.791271347248568,8.360895534625662,1.5769535104364325,1328,47,276,26,31,441,168,340,0.14800000000000002,0.698,0.154,0.5077,2,0,2,0,0,1,37.0,0,3,3,0,22,20,1,0,10,0,31,6,1,4,12,61,64,18,0,4,6,0,4,4,2,3,3,2,0,2,20,13,0,2,18,1,1,1,8,7,0,3,8,8,52,13,28,49,10,31,1,0,2,2,26,12,0,3,19,191,72,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07541406631411643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05748622686786335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295443983931317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07529326329386353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08252518125976589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18685870472754298,0.4265122629537529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19072969911096574,0.06737007425707782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14571651090301135,0.0,0.04926941959344227,0.0,0.0,0.07909687308372179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933747855057796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09310467813006193,0.0,0.0,0.10628632245040892,0.11174949613702784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09358116549378008,0.0838208296744508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666089900734391,0.1842867081890093,0.0945163693643323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702242589980876,0.0,0.2517919100011137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06932354763094528,0.0,0.07273227879031176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19170643798811307,0.0,0.2006900585191925,0.0,0.0,0.10212094743823527,0.0,0.0,0.08234173264798701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06041290958476692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08053423743030667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502945457302294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07990261664133541,0.14519809647579718,0.09326806754303907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506209778259457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887945119857578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16484993809524565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12530143130195046,0.3021277381436822,0.0,0.224598118802596,0.05498883130991012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920766181683773,0.0,0.0,0.09817273742868933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07780984221710065,0.05562234627854156,0.07485332330631357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052859195784599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957692630090779,0.0,0.0,0.10310551465176697,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,genuinely-bored,2019/01/01,"anyone else have a really fragile identity ? as long as i can remember my family have always been very anti-gay or whatever all just homophobic and i’m a 16 year old who’s very gender neutral i guess ???? like i’m pan sexual and paint my nails wear make up and whatever just doing things that aren’t stereotypically ‘masculine’. anyway my cunt dad finds it very entertaining to take the piss out of this and his voice telling me all this shit stuff about me doesn’t leave my fucking head even when he’s not there even when i’ve got music blasting even when i’m not even awake i’ll wake up half asleep with him screaming at me because i’m a disgusting failure to him and fuckjng whatever holy shit needed a rant sorry for taking up your time if you read this i feel like crying he won’t leave my head i’m shaking. in short: daddy issues + voices = mental mess ",2.6528973988439297,4.778278693641621,4.110111994219654,84.85337608381506,77.09248554913296,7.330780346820807,22.3731936416185,8.278499904357787,1.3156823699421976,686,20,136,13,16,227,119,173,0.21,0.745,0.045,-0.9796,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,0,12,12,6,1,5,0,8,9,8,1,2,21,21,12,0,2,6,1,2,2,0,1,0,3,0,0,8,7,0,0,3,2,0,1,5,9,0,1,2,5,16,3,14,18,2,15,0,0,0,1,10,7,5,3,9,74,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635133775656135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09777371174759084,0.14327430027844615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08524022489216555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15359876988792484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11681160485033334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3694305895948726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13182106522553022,0.0,0.07070320723607296,0.0998959332271906,0.0,0.0,0.12780381812124944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292723330586248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183633975783668,0.0,0.15404059635789394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870157301072342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14594816818184755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961235718627239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13662960074571945,0.0,0.0,0.1237468262018272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09333887525727157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14091766064121009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036835778194703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467300508107212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13986973479583115,0.0,0.08957989208845422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15840227764246154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28707086011993865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565303574623215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16007406448515482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102723644383004,0.0,0.1222192389578602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09289809720891036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815371020642585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461278715328613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09004715536004293 schizophrenia,pillution,2019/01/01,Should you tell someone with schizophrenia they have it? My friend thinks everyone’s an actor. Including me and his mom. He thinks life is a movie. Also said he is getting angry and wants to fight people. He said that he foresees stuff that god tells him. He used to be normal just now started with the crazy stuff. He Wasn’t religious before. I just shortened everything down a bit let me know if I should do something or just ignore it. Because it really isn’t my business. ,2.27097902097902,5.046708065934066,2.8077922077922075,89.66675324675327,83.72527472527472,5.506893106893108,22.558441558441558,6.980632752743323,0.9088593406593412,378,13,70,5,11,117,67,91,0.115,0.8290000000000001,0.055999999999999994,-0.6705,0,0,1,0,1,0,10.0,0,1,1,0,5,3,1,0,4,0,10,1,0,1,0,18,19,5,0,5,5,1,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,7,4,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,2,10,1,5,12,1,3,0,0,0,0,17,1,0,2,2,45,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15375488417411867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11720344208545808,0.0,0.16360402770834215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20990444815388198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18371820335717864,0.17279609622739067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485440737463284,0.0,0.10045094069536684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10566425094402432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196604798438802,0.1358030146662387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22517937152947295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883796539919512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13329289145724302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12317038942227967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36577759269646976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629061813975927,0.14801559972214232,0.0,0.0,0.13608671696544156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4401966646616409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33609755284075743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463923119624959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660559126947122,0.0,0.0,0.11340334539087213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,strawberrycomrade,2019/04/03,"Geodon Help Hello friends, I'm new on reddit and just found this subreddit. I am schizophrenic and recently have been put on Geodon; I had been previously on Rexulti. Currently, I'm not having a ton of hallucinations and delusions, however they do creep in occasionally. The drug overall has helped a lot in that department but I'm starting to feel really sick from the drug. As in I get uncontrollable shakes and twitches, nausea, and occasional vomiting. It could be a host of problems besides the geodon, however, I think in might be playing a part in some of the changes I've been feeling physically. If anyone could give me some advice on how to cope with the drug, I would like to stay on it because of its benefits, but I need to learn to cope with it. Thank you!",5.699448275862068,6.975720220689657,6.503620689655175,74.26094827586209,67.48275862068965,10.489655172413793,33.12068965517241,10.577609850970193,3.6847793103448283,612,27,113,17,10,202,93,145,0.078,0.8029999999999999,0.12,0.5191,3,0,3,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,0,2,8,0,2,9,0,15,7,0,1,0,27,27,10,0,6,5,0,2,1,1,2,7,0,0,0,6,7,0,0,5,1,0,3,1,3,0,0,5,2,9,5,23,16,5,18,0,0,0,0,7,10,0,5,5,78,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655213138440071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11843811088124513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032556811731077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17918714340773192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27048069121058266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5892993694782248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17129255192650486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857221926593162,0.13086663024556794,0.0,0.08849680624922926,0.162489774141104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270707360602861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08275308113778601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440052891798638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17969099113542794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12559702262350916,0.0,0.1635933377990926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18342772807155416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16207881604249352,0.0,0.17027896893328232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851253370938674,0.0,0.16724750760415466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989175751880103,0.18054214773068192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15594718805017954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10853523392663647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12032642746829995,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HeresMyCardImGod,2019/04/03,"What to call myself / my mental illness? So I had my first psychotic episode last year and ended up in the psych ward but I did not receive a diagnosis of schizophrenia despite being put on an anti-psychotic for about 8 months. Now that I’m off medication my life’s improved, however I still struggle with what I’d describe as negative symptoms of schizophrenia as well as cognitive issues. If I smoke weed I get pretty fucked up and depressing thoughts rushing in and none of the enjoyment I used to have before my episode, so I’ve stopped that, especially being off antipsychotics it’s too risky. Although I maybe wouldn’t call it a voice (and I have had voices so I know what that’s like) I pretty much live with this impulse — or maybe it’s like an intrusive thought? — to attack people when I’m in social situations or even just walking past people on the street... it actually makes me flinch when it happens and I often feel like I have to clench my fists or put my hands in my pockets. Goes without saying probably but I would never act on these thoughts. I also get startled on occasion by things in the corner of my vision, but my “hallucinations” are extremely light, more like momentarily misreading things around me. So that’s me, and I know I don’t have it nearly as rough as a lot of people, but I do feel I’m living with something that impacts my life. But without positive symptoms rearing their heads unless I’m high or worse tripping, and without an actual diagnosis of schizophrenia, I don’t really know what to call myself. I thought of “psychosis survivor” but it sounds more than a little dramatic, and to be honest it really would just be easier to call myself schizophrenic or mildly schizophrenic, but then again I don’t want to be diminishing the experience of schizophrenic and schizo-affective people who’ve had multiple episodes, live with frequent voices and visual hallucinations, are taking heavy doses of medication, dealing with tardive dyskinesia from said medication, etc. I guess what I’m asking is, is it okay for me to call myself schizophrenic? Also, I’m wondering what you guys think of using the word “schizo” to refer to yourselves/ourselves. I’m a poet and have used the word in something I’m writing, and I think that’s maybe where some of these insecure identity thoughts are coming from. Sorry this came out so long and thanks for reading!",7.535531135531138,8.027506517006806,7.614569160997735,70.68026295133441,63.19501133786848,10.594139194139196,35.555642769928475,10.389873798559362,3.8352776207919055,1918,82,321,42,26,620,214,441,0.106,0.7909999999999999,0.10300000000000001,-0.3239,1,0,3,0,0,0,42.0,0,1,1,1,21,15,2,3,15,1,26,16,2,4,1,73,63,43,0,5,20,0,4,4,0,3,13,6,0,1,27,22,0,1,14,1,0,9,11,6,1,1,11,11,42,9,61,44,7,47,0,1,0,1,15,22,1,11,20,229,69,2,0.0,0.0,0.14957092216894718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257120238578985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06822208704717013,0.07164410410356381,0.087184257011847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06521139962181796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912684708716908,0.08765091004329878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06601493395051951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07900811846067743,0.06600628029533763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787654951840072,0.0,0.08546914633772269,0.05061720629877377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07496449272907868,0.0,0.0,0.07749870048558491,0.0547486126269541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06518635065411073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07084853864784586,0.08007805831957635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0844229456232541,0.07588146543038404,0.06776876231117959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07865041407514611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08096990337239847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799878379956573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12635105242643388,0.0624683846713069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10826022785985648,0.1497614736245688,0.07680917900562206,0.20301237879094847,0.0678202488596881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06515299497247687,0.0,0.0,0.05115497457613236,0.0,0.23097280814928856,0.0,0.0,0.2316074409981672,0.07723083578583795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06116994407092648,0.0,0.056336112094667726,0.0,0.059106233752563575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315751829438752,0.21251838682264093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15593226748255998,0.08262632667243598,0.0,0.0,0.15408024066354895,0.0,0.0,0.07665651324520012,0.0,0.0981896790525245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07289817098072518,0.060943843830074125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08614182146933698,0.0,0.07812052114865264,0.0,0.11799592661558295,0.0,0.0857874753076603,0.0,0.0,0.06120142852313538,0.0640709390184047,0.0,0.08011635093494038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15930782607271446,0.057620564996397436,0.0,0.0,0.07055592483353024,0.0,0.0,0.10182680662894884,0.09821021978611516,0.0,0.3042012233340655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198566110516638,0.0,0.0,0.0452017653741304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689047648766254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216224556389948,0.08310822839959006,0.0,0.0,0.07809840140943214,0.10887971085709902,0.0,0.0,0.049350926185894664 schizophrenia,nujabes996,2019/04/03,"How do I get rid of my maladaptive thoughts and how do I get more motivated(how do I increase my dopamine and how do i increase my desire to play a certain video game or increase my desire to workout or increase my desire to play and watch basketball)? How do I get rid of my maladaptive thoughts and how do I get more motivated(how do I increase my dopamine and how do i increase my desire to play a certain video game or increase my desire to workout or increase my desire to play and watch basketball)? Look I know i should be asking a doctor this and i am currently on medication. However, I feel as if I have been getting some maladaptive thoughts like ""why did i take this Nootropic?"" or thoughts about ""why did I message this person on Facebook?"" Some of my thoughts are intellectual but I am wondering about how to enhance my motivation as well. The thoughts I am getting aren't intellectual or logical. I am 22 years old and I just wish like there was something that can help me. A little bit about me (sorry if my grammar isn't the best. I apologize) I come from a Gujarati family and vegetarian household. I did nine sessions of ECT and i am currently taking Olanzapine, and Lexapro. I am five foot eleven and I workout everyday and play basketball. Please help me as I would appreciate it. 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I have an appointment coming up for an assessment with EIP soon with suspected schizophrenia, just wandering what I can expect? Thanks for any info.",5.687083333333334,8.619699375000003,5.901250000000001,71.75208333333336,70.875,10.516666666666666,29.416666666666664,10.504223727775694,4.013466666666668,148,6,23,5,3,47,25,32,0.057,0.8440000000000001,0.098,0.3313,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,7,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3920329214877336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4965950293019787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5639177718682218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.53075447422847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,II-Ouroboros-II,2019/04/03,"I feel like i’m never going to get SSI Recently applied for it, and just got the little call from the SSA today. But i decided to read up on other people’s experience, and it seems like i’m not going to be deemed “worthy” of SSI. I was only recently diagnosed this year, and I was never hospitalized or had a bad or explosive episode. So my record is clean, i have a fresh diagnosis, and i just don’t seem like i’m “disabled” enough to get SSI. But work is so rough for me, i barely kept a job for 3 months, i get incredibly paranoid at work, like someone is going to kill me paranoid. But i have this achy feeling i’m going to get denied for the next 5 years. Funny thing is, my dad is pushing me so hard to get a job, and it is stressing me out. I’m so picky about my job because i feel like i’m going to hate myself while i work there. Do you guys have any tips or something for me? I feel really hopeless, and that my life has no direction.",4.80530909090909,3.9745532400000014,6.4869090909090925,80.93845454545455,69.1,9.472727272727274,29.181818181818183,8.841846274778883,2.0236000000000005,728,22,161,11,11,254,107,200,0.141,0.74,0.11900000000000001,-0.754,3,0,1,0,0,2,21.0,0,1,0,3,9,10,2,1,7,0,16,2,0,0,2,26,41,17,1,0,9,1,6,5,0,0,2,0,1,1,8,7,0,1,7,1,0,6,5,5,0,0,5,6,23,5,20,35,1,21,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,5,15,99,31,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08023334511251347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09851193191440813,0.07192211201072404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047512458468147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197515440222558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12190928349828073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541124922284968,0.0,0.0,0.23862555486137146,0.1685759630050474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082095405955301,0.0,0.3352658798104852,0.0,0.09436279368230292,0.0,0.0,0.116822970440565,0.0,0.0,0.1056907257299218,0.1164850339644775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3512435291087272,0.0,0.1305321068695115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08333577460205906,0.2882057579401492,0.11825122772266468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417391358374416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18199347520149528,0.0,0.1254776028592178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08973234905544507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179543278798103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11801619183457393,0.0,0.07558374043293417,0.0,0.2329904531888025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21481688483617625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09996768368947682,0.090830050322142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515057534632724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838350217276906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118352863712974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576818472974359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15195599500693768 schizophrenia,cloudcameron,2019/04/03,"What was it like when your schitzophrenia began to develop? When I was younger, I remember I would hear think I heard somebody say my name. I'd look around and realize nobody was there, and the voices would stop. I would look back on what had just happened and realize the voice was entirely in my head, but I heard it in my ears. I never thought anything of this, but I was diagnosed a year later. What was it like for you guys when you first started noticing things like voices?",5.514516129032259,6.252312655913979,5.4270430107526915,83.76056451612907,67.60215053763442,9.210752688172043,30.553763440860216,9.2995712137729,2.4884279569892485,379,14,75,7,6,118,58,93,0.018000000000000002,0.8859999999999999,0.09699999999999999,0.7912,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,0,1,7,3,0,0,3,0,10,3,2,0,1,18,20,8,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,3,1,8,0,1,8,4,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,11,10,14,3,7,6,0,15,0,0,2,0,9,4,0,0,14,55,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16688648544783272,0.18053430930524006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15594008867323142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058369480452461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172500920168745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008031202720598,0.17933468801475616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20813051602789712,0.0,0.2285694695273313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972323777926839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3406005513114829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15641126720112206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308882658004257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22973199255247925,0.0,0.0,0.16127408627445727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14354233773975836,0.0,0.0,0.16954923578090172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347307961335526,0.1299455569538867,0.0,0.16099993454158815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4321882600135724,0.0,0.0,0.1305960541251713 schizophrenia,ConspiracyOfRaven,2019/04/03,"Voices So I was wondering if some of you would mind sharing your voices and the things they tell you to do. My voices range from the more mundane commands like putting mustard on my pb&j, to telling me to put nails in the rumble strips on the freeway. I also have a voice that I call the ‘motherfucker.’ He tells me to do all sorts of horrific things to small children. I don’t listen to him. Cuz fuck that guy. I also have a female voice that tells me that the world is ending and that Jesus is coming back to every negative news story. I’m a Buddhist and that pisses her off. Thank you in advance. 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I know olanzapine is good for this and i have tried it but i don't have access to it currently these two are my options unless someone knows of another drug for calming you down.,5.1461016949152585,7.503348694915258,5.812000000000001,74.41054237288138,70.52542372881356,9.465762711864409,35.52881355932203,9.888512548439397,4.143553220338983,259,14,42,7,5,84,41,59,0.045,0.8,0.155,0.765,1,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,0,9,9,4,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,7,4,10,9,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,1,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605577281699147,0.3801800183479163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881632023469597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4168341213027401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731212327885976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21054016232871264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846382252951005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582706021098512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16870470608927002,0.0,0.4854666201166342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,speakofafever,2019/04/03,"Meeting with a psychiatrist Hey guys. Need some help. For the past couple of months I just became aware that maybe I have something wrong with me. I didn’t know other people didn’t have voices, I didn’t know things I experience were possible delusions and I didn’t know visual hallucinations weren’t just my imagination. Anyways I started trying to see a therapist who then recommended me to see a psychiatrist. The psychiatrist suggested I just had depression and my hallucinations were because I wasn’t sleeping well enough. I felt this was wrong, so I’m going to see a different psychiatrist this Friday. The trouble I have is identifying what it is that i need to be telling them so they can understand what’s going on. Do you have any tips? When I get in there I kind of shut down, not wanting to expose my secrets or forgetting things all together. 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Funny how this world can't let us even enjoy the little things. ,7.174499999999997,5.945243450000002,7.550000000000002,76.55500000000005,64.5,10.0,32.5,8.841846274778883,2.6052499999999994,158,5,30,2,2,52,37,40,0.165,0.46799999999999997,0.3670000000000001,0.9042,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,2,2,8,1,0,2,0,4,1,0,2,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,1,8,5,3,3,2,2,0,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,26,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21942085520617252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777430387664288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377421458318965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27809479924201097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.368071041630539,0.0,0.0,0.3607622856266807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32486696832661377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439099639673644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23913334300082004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.432972918216921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Justsomeguyinthesky,2019/04/03,"Raising awareness through tech Hello all, I am a student trying to create a 2 minute VR recreation of what someone with schizophrenia goes through to raise awareness and dispel some of the misconceptions about it. I am turning to you because I am trying my best to stay away from any hyperbole or misrepresentation so I would really like to know all I can about it. If this is against the rules, or seems wrong please let me know but also know that my intentions with this are nothing but good. Thanks for all your help!",4.929201030927835,7.096922577319589,4.588234536082479,83.76317654639178,70.64948453608247,6.911855670103092,29.650773195876287,7.645422480735847,1.860753608247424,418,17,76,5,8,127,70,97,0.10099999999999999,0.785,0.114,0.1033,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,1,4,5,0,0,4,0,8,0,0,1,3,18,14,8,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,4,17,12,5,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,5,1,58,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815327071322095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15436854025696595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132750170015669,0.0,0.0,0.13837777083485808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382236620296125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903977626239348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15215406029414855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742616234404082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321240166612268,0.0,0.11090127698024774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21781368907272625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491790536554208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14542272494598665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20665328666159147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923373054230022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419529817717775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089921252291205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082377084019621,0.2469120246812522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612550768772818,0.24819008057507966,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AF905F2,2019/04/03,"How polish psychiatric hospital works? It is simple. Very, very simple. It is a prison. Metal grill in windows. They tatooing people and hiding it's from memories which is caused based on slanders or prepared work by other people which manipulates uncomfortable witness. Also when you trying not to be marionette and when you are buying a beer they can give you drugs in beer. This drug removes access to long memory. And yes, I remembered almost all things. Very, very simple. I played piano for 10 years, at 4.5 year in whole voivodeship i become a top winner. That's how rising stars or great masters can be destroyed. Poland really sucks. Is there free place in Guantanamo? It can't be worse.",3.686746666666668,6.802299648000004,3.9911999999999987,81.29026666666667,80.52000000000002,6.213333333333335,21.93333333333333,7.554174236665415,1.3733733333333331,556,17,88,9,15,173,91,125,0.1,0.733,0.16699999999999998,0.8542,0,0,4,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,2,4,6,5,2,0,3,1,11,4,0,4,1,13,13,10,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,10,3,2,0,1,3,2,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,8,4,11,10,2,15,0,0,0,0,6,8,1,3,5,57,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16978887504564313,0.0,0.0,0.13559629443346946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872646262333482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741838302268368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3932692850084637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626564712454354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18693942834716315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500544051772407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351017628221424,0.0,0.1771530967694309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10862385594642372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920773265860837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264748476090372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11511945071565145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5596158271665476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18930660085871945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468819854686519,0.0,0.17279513664172672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183809112553112 schizophrenia,Thrill_ing,2019/04/03,Indie movie Does this even sound like psychosis? I feel like I’m the main character in a really bad indie movie. Like some kind of manic pixie dream girl. ,1.6310000000000002,4.361614433333333,2.6750000000000007,89.2425,88.0,5.666666666666668,14.166666666666668,7.1686216300943375,0.026666666666666842,123,2,23,2,4,39,25,30,0.107,0.623,0.26899999999999996,0.5729,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,4,2,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324397657307996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34842494968016946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629752268666531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20131729734125225,0.2844394204852936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4146133858824973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5835499484578333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550659648459009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iwantaguacate,2019/04/03,Does schizophrenia make your skin itchy? Do schizophrenics have some sort of histamine imbalance?,9.657142857142855,14.411569,3.1542857142857166,84.91571428571432,73.28571428571428,5.6571428571428575,35.57142857142857,7.1686216300943375,3.0475428571428576,82,4,10,1,2,19,14,14,0.159,0.841,0.0,-0.3527,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7950988250510451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6064798911773147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Itsmaybelline,2019/04/03,"Help playing the role of a paranoid schizophrenic? I'm playing a kind subservant family man who, through the incredible power of tabletop RPGs, has quite literally been injected with schizophrenia. Specifically paranoid schizophrenia. Personality wise, he's a hard working family man. He lost his wife recently, and still mourning the end of his marriage, is determined to provide for his only daughter as best he can. The character is heavily inspired by Walter White. So, any advice on how his illness will impact his decision making? I expect a buffer period before he starts listening to the advice of his paranoia in earnest. But when will that be? What if again through the power of tabletop RPGs, the voices in his head turn out to be right on several occasions? Will that increase or decrease his trust in them? Will his love and trust in his daughter override any feelings of suspicion towards her? Will his drive to protect her be abandoned when he doesn't feel he can trust her anymore, or will they become twisted into a ""protecting her from herself"" mentality? Apologies if I'm being blunt or rude. I haven't had my medication in 3 weeks, and I'm not exactly the most skilled at reading into what's offensive on the best of days.",7.228648648648652,8.738842405405407,7.297315315315322,69.10489189189192,64.13513513513513,10.244324324324324,39.12432432432432,10.355215969177356,4.592668108108109,1002,54,153,24,15,322,136,222,0.105,0.7,0.195,0.978,2,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,2,8,6,16,2,0,14,0,19,5,1,2,1,24,30,14,1,3,7,3,3,0,0,6,3,2,0,3,5,7,0,3,4,3,0,2,3,5,0,0,3,6,21,11,31,17,4,26,0,3,1,1,37,14,0,6,10,109,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32304881156643905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224812598817227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16392826941145386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825553916048032,0.14065390949044895,0.0,0.3469339055191152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660163007612478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14640234848280906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31165091675096346,0.0,0.16715628351702888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14807189385474528,0.0,0.16964040469713712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107937849848814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721293539994503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804390686361362,0.0,0.14918523245824464,0.0,0.1103357266635056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665173688056196,0.1665785284396591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257143308735292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14432925833729235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758116278652022,0.16533977706922892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320891646585767,0.0,0.0,0.14116106602670242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18673635248277226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11699668424442805,0.0,0.13200483716192452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17979354425265007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13258971536331815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203367620568135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CoolguyPhD,2019/04/03,"Sometimes I feel like my voice isn’t my own. I wonder if this happens to other people and how they deal with it. This is one of my more recent problems I’ve been having but it’s been around for at least a year. I notice that if I talk for too long without pausing I’ll feel like I’m slowly losing control of what I say and how I say it. It’s as though someone else is talking for me. I have to stop every few words to make that feeling go away. It’s really annoying in conversations.",1.5573931623931614,3.1228292692307704,3.5532051282051285,90.16957264957266,78.42307692307692,5.776068376068378,22.132478632478627,6.42735559955562,0.3773773504273503,380,11,83,3,9,129,71,104,0.121,0.812,0.067,-0.7528,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,2,5,5,1,0,1,0,7,0,0,4,0,19,15,9,0,3,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,11,4,0,2,4,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,2,6,12,2,15,13,4,9,0,1,0,0,7,4,0,3,6,60,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16302721889601351,0.0,0.0,0.17205950555860236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2053992598941089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18880210765093144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529841434493154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15429747220495674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27779268023897524,0.261660539608418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407871853103508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16194392939016472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789390914257796,0.0,0.0,0.16206696445369326,0.0,0.20487901160020106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12224271638123495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20849816300304988,0.0,0.0,0.12409567740458942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12696138108471833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17523357247399882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11731970534086167,0.0,0.18082176906551775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2912694641423195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15516801797424082,0.0,0.18112324463544774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15310740923250418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29439077742176306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17992726745507506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17653370118853692,0.19859995391216745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11793166398538946 schizophrenia,ahdjfkormf,2019/04/03,How long did it take for things to get better? Does it ever get easier? I haven’t been able to see someone routinely yet. Just multiple one time visits to doctors. I feel like I spend all of my time trying to stay here with everyone else that normal life becomes unmanageable. When did it start becoming easier for you?,3.2654644808743143,5.77228573770492,4.624180327868854,80.01747267759565,76.86885245901641,8.656830601092896,23.281420765027317,9.2995712137729,2.280440437158469,254,8,46,7,6,84,49,61,0.0,0.821,0.179,0.8895,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,6,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,2,7,10,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,2,5,2,8,7,1,9,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,8,30,10,1,0.21556915450704092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4761583894894196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19065339911995105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22064416408515336,0.18864601980400847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18008036736089353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19499464181862594,0.0,0.20598556514464356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10899824164712747,0.1540026470525838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252519718823792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522628689656106,0.1053162000735544,0.0,0.0,0.1907719181730435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21121200175163948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14607523806753972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178070630959166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18265104506546856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15258095708843272,0.2297680363158309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16208117627700222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14321456754183814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25140021510854943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146357305579343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Im_Dead__,2018/12/30,"how do you cope with the negative symptoms? i had a psychotic episode a little over a month ago and afterwards the negative symptoms became more prominent (lack of hygiene, lack of emotion, and lack of motivation) what do you guys find that helps when you are in a similar state",7.6647058823529415,8.168704490196081,7.698823529411764,70.14470588235295,62.92156862745098,12.290196078431373,40.52941176470589,11.855464076750405,5.238576470588236,223,12,38,7,3,72,37,51,0.21,0.6990000000000001,0.091,-0.7787,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,0,4,2,0,2,0,9,4,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,6,3,4,8,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,4,32,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276485694031658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508520711011857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850762728734381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3088358039439964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090638994190579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31261157667338896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489602533003989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6483791563682261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,That_Interesting_Man,2018/12/30,Listening to music Anyone else here unable to listen to music because it's so emotionally overwhelming?,11.174117647058821,12.549769941176475,11.863529411764706,40.2858823529412,55.470588235294116,13.858823529411767,40.52941176470589,13.023866798666859,6.895047058823527,87,4,8,3,1,30,14,17,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552734160443016,0.5206056840992827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097313719663543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42445006072726504,0.5715410262651243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,erykaWaltz,2018/12/30,how does it feel to have dark thoughts and deplore yourself on schizophrenia? and how to help someone who does? what to say to them? ,2.518666666666668,5.344096599999999,1.3480000000000023,100.24066666666668,83.0,3.333333333333334,28.333333333333336,3.1291,0.3655333333333339,105,5,21,0,3,29,19,25,0.0,0.8809999999999999,0.11900000000000001,0.5007,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,6,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7299681836487539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108850442716071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795557757082505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316738248166534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533852761550649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33111000854634404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,oOoobubblesoOoo,2018/12/30,"Is this a symptom of schizophrenia or something else? I’m not sure if this is schizophrenia (or perhaps anxiety) because I never experienced a combination of odd emotions. I’ll try to keep the story sweet and short, I was crying due to something minor but I ended up crying violently for the whole night and some point during the night I automatically switched to laughter which was out of my control. It didn’t even feel good. I ended up smiling over depressing thoughts from the past, for example the death of my uncle. I didn’t mean to be smiling and I feel bad for doing so. It’s just to odd to feel the opposite emotion. I don’t know if this is normal or I should see a doctor. 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PARTICIPANTS WANTED The University of Manchester are looking for UK participants to take part in a study exploring what support people with experience of psychosis want when discontinuing antipsychotic medication. To take part you need to have experience of psychosis and have experience of attempting to stop taking antipsychotic medication. You can be taking antipsychotic medication currently but need to have tried to stop at least once in the past. Taking part would involve completing two online questionnaires (approximately one month apart). You would be compensated for your time. If you have any questions please email [annabel.green@postgrad.manchester.ac.uk](mailto:annabel.green@postgrad.manchester.ac.uk) Alternatively you can go straight to the study: [https://www.psych-ssl.manchester.ac.uk/survey/agreen/](https://www.psych-ssl.manchester.ac.uk/survey/agreen/) This post has been approved by the moderators. &#x200B;",14.38846638655462,19.804820073529424,10.58386554621849,36.48382352941179,54.147058823529406,13.003361344537813,42.80252100840336,11.629938488055165,7.431728571428572,894,45,84,31,14,258,81,136,0.032,0.86,0.10800000000000001,0.8225,1,0,0,0,0,0,56.0,0,6,0,2,2,2,0,0,5,0,14,4,0,0,0,16,28,5,0,8,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,6,2,20,23,4,16,0,0,1,0,9,5,0,2,8,59,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11521159145522687,0.12920604350430434,0.07230997985616819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11148796329278096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4160556982773933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06043140537530864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08929280788902326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42847661198296905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08487386116916366,0.0,0.0,0.15768891216269862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11324100794815947,0.07205388663892966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454443221968297,0.10150673088729464,0.14743561019252585,0.0,0.0,0.11672153095707888,0.0,0.0,0.1018374709145764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11911712008106608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17779803679142614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413305012970414,0.0,0.0,0.3997453249526027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06200353612314001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07219302083298522,0.0,0.10387173728649224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881535981715152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510716023004554,0.0,0.12920604350430434,0.0 schizophrenia,schizocelia,2018/12/30,"Effects on Identity If you do not have a solid base in who you are, this illness is even more so detrimental. It fills your mind with so much negativity, from harsh voices to dark thoughts. It makes you feel like a bad person for your mind's ability to produce such things in the first place. You constantly question who you are amid symptoms as it is difficult to separate yourself from this illness. You begin to believe that you are in fact as awful as what your mind represents. Thankfully, over time, with a proper treatment plan that includes therapy, you decipher yourself amongst the muck. @schizo_celia",6.685527522935782,8.621840981651381,5.962282110091742,76.58360665137616,65.78899082568806,9.486697247706422,36.56077981651376,9.827888789773867,3.9006229357798174,493,25,81,11,8,150,75,109,0.18600000000000005,0.753,0.061,-0.9390000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,11,0,4,4,4,0,0,5,1,7,3,0,3,1,14,12,6,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,11,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,2,11,2,17,11,2,11,0,0,0,0,15,6,0,2,5,61,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732862567096908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23382519505792174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22427574902629024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13707744189666327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493786984384626,0.14826578381264854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765324253871524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10139299064608698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385337826389471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6286651761861632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256492202983954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18121490388980446,0.21683390816809264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324909905304297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21571231275851036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910738737682542,0.2373387428029486,0.0,0.13787957880184945,0.0,0.0,0.1647626511441009,0.12101756254556592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,IntermolecularPotato,2018/12/30,"Weed Stopped working... I just went through about 3 1G carts and a large edible all from different places that are regulated and im barely high. wonder if its the phallus or him also on effexor and seroquel but he says not to take",3.0576086956521737,5.017970195652175,4.542826086956524,82.9755434782609,75.30434782608695,8.078260869565218,28.89130434782609,8.841846274778883,2.4269304347826086,183,8,36,4,4,61,43,46,0.035,0.965,0.0,-0.1154,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,11,4,7,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,5,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,1,22,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25853522188991324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377696667385117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3415740651527587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34920911676091504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377696667385117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570935077856282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702852564614926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24307415227727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996934464446175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505946560357249,0.23535926686063466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Aulupus,2018/12/30,"How are your dreams like? To those who somewhat remember their dreams, because I know that most do not remember much after waking up. Are they mainly vivid? Do they pay attention to detail? Do the dreams make sense in a way that it creates a story? Do you have any moments in your dreams that reoccur? Personally sometimes I forget my dreams but when I do have a dream (or dreams) that stick to me it's going to be in my memory for awhile. My dreams make a storyline with moments that don't 100% fit in at times but I do enjoy them since they aren't nightmares. Nightmares are very vivid and disturbing for me, they are straight up horrible. Recently my dreams are drifting to being less vivid and memorable. No nightmares fortunately. I do have reoccurring moments though, whenever I dream of a yard setting there are 1 or 2 long palm trees that produce mangoes on the far left side of the setting. When the scenery of the dream gets stressful as if I want to go to my own place to retreat I fly over and look at the fruit hanging off the tree. Sometimes I would get the fruit off and eat it. I think this means something, for when I need to recharge I run away from something and attach myself to a difference as a mechanism. I really have no idea really. It reoccurs allot. I'm not annoyed of it mainly I'm just thinking of why that exactly happens. That part of the dream never changes.",3.227732342007436,5.5153073420074366,3.959559851301115,85.83925055762083,75.95167286245352,7.277977695167286,27.488624535315985,8.238735603445708,1.9674920743494413,1101,45,211,20,25,350,146,269,0.08900000000000001,0.758,0.153,0.9064,0,0,2,0,0,0,26.0,0,3,6,1,7,5,1,2,16,0,22,5,2,4,2,36,38,17,0,4,8,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,16,6,3,0,9,13,1,5,7,3,0,0,0,6,30,2,37,35,9,38,0,0,4,0,11,19,0,6,12,152,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10460924638755713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14452775652790806,0.0,0.0,0.0937729559386137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627310760302796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16071895035915004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574058486836987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16073899312531634,0.0,0.17484955152875073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13603080354141042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17365463414584847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08454059856736919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671360602101291,0.0,0.0,0.0751532597834353,0.0,0.0,0.13613415140149127,0.12917792757900826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20536459747572405,0.0,0.0,0.16756528016056707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11308228651790515,0.1140625284215625,0.11864269314449735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16658221675509746,0.0,0.0,0.13431787209233803,0.16071895035915004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970940664322074,0.0,0.1518879444038956,0.0,0.3485173771123596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12724924419323091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368507283404105,0.3042823599571589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17621102318491064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971352974123873,0.15113657463476735,0.0,0.08969914249882162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12692534026604585,0.09073254779391046,0.12210259345070565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13880707947025495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092759706104614,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tordenskjold,2018/12/30,"Uncertain whether start of downward spiral or just a bad day Every year in January, usually around mid January I have a turn for the worse. How bad it gets varies. Today I've felt frustrated with people, to the point where I had to completely disengage. I slept, played minecraft (usually helps), showered, cooked and ate etc. I really tried everything that usually works to bolster my mood. Yet I kept feeling like everyone is leeching off my empathic skills without reciprocating. I feel like people want me to be enthusiastic about whatever random shit they're focused on. I feel like I am losing steam and people are still expecting the train to be on time but won't shovel coal. I feel spiteful and aggressive. I want to ruin peoples day, stab them with words or long thin knives. I want a hug from someone who is accepting. I don't know what to do, as my psych nurse is long term ill and her replacement is useless. I'm on abilify maintaina so my meds are ok. It's not pms time. If I call an emergency number, I'm afraid to tell them about my violent urges. I don't know what to do.",3.801488569909624,5.901877923444978,4.8598644338118016,80.90043992557153,73.5933014354067,9.046358320042527,28.835991493886233,9.586721724236666,2.8795835194045716,862,36,163,23,18,282,139,209,0.203,0.674,0.122,-0.9768,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,2,3,9,20,5,2,7,1,16,7,2,1,0,32,34,12,0,5,8,0,6,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,6,7,2,1,8,2,0,0,5,12,0,0,5,6,23,7,24,26,2,26,0,3,0,1,7,11,1,5,18,93,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113678623880188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20891093799959815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12774377069608134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13116772548189246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16136169140287826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13952249982003115,0.0,0.0,0.105404359883618,0.11954092239252108,0.11243417555466743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25302259090846496,0.26812002773051297,0.12011814177594572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06536095980960062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08385365462667219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13750626547557007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18335647486989026,0.0,0.0,0.2214237783990584,0.0,0.1399578409335328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13896081755226194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469216419929119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826242038412026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08014394705547839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12841605006570628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599905089345446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08854828413377894,0.0,0.09990712047554452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093452111610892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14589669709453282,0.0,0.11858266365936684,0.0,0.0,0.08493647258997604,0.13607573534855133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4133486117609239,0.0,0.22136631421438524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205944692791012,0.0,0.09107620328866836,0.0,0.12749026594387478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08056199090467389 schizophrenia,jamesmal03,2018/12/30,Memory issues Has anyone found anything that helps ? ,7.88625,12.104985125000002,6.705000000000003,61.24000000000001,72.75,8.200000000000001,20.5,8.841846274778883,2.8676000000000004,43,1,4,1,1,13,8,8,0.0,0.7290000000000001,0.271,0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3537495633063625,0.0,0.4163273299375795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5547128712261216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33910610834346017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5280468526445634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,prad_0_,2018/12/30,"My brother is suffering from Schizophrenia. What is a good way to tell and educate him about it? My brother is suffering from Schizophrenia from last 5-6 years. He is on med since then. He knows that he has brain disorder but he doesn't know exactly. So how can i tell and teach him about it, that he can understand easily? 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My brother has schizophrenia, and his is really bad. He has even tried to kill our niece because the voices told him to. He is in his mid 20s. I’m a 19 year old female. I started experiencing weird things lately. I am having the strangest thoughts. Like there’s someone trying to get me and that I can’t trust people because they will end up hurting me somehow. Thoughts like this haven’t ever crossed my mind before. Then two nights ago I started hearing a clock. It was loud then it would sound like it was coming from a long distance. It’s really hard to explain. Then last night I got really really fucking paranoid. I thought someone was watching me. Not a real person but a monster or something. I couldn’t sleep because I thought it was gonna get me. I honestly don’t know what to do and I’m afraid to ask for help and make my parents worried... 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Before your almonds are activated, I have no intention of going cold turkey instantly and basing my choices off of internet strangers. No intention of being rude, but I'd like to hear experiences from others. I've been diagnosed since 2014, and since then I've had very few (practically none) positive symptoms. I have suffered horribly with the negative symptoms of this dyer illness, however. The apathy and disorganised thinking really have been doing a number on me over the years. I started taking a high dose of risperidone initially, and it kinda chugged ass. Didn't get on with it well at all! Since then I've been on quietapine, originally a 25mg dose and now on a 12.5mg dose. I'm so tired of being tired, so bored of living an insipid life. That pill and sertraline have been running and ruining my life for too long now. I just want to have some energy for once, but I don't know if it's a terrible idea. I haven't seen a psychiatrist since 2015 now as I was pretty much discharged and ignored since then. I've mentioned about abolishing the quietapine to my GP a few times now and I've been instantly dismissed. I'd like to hear some takes from you guys if possible, to see if living with schizophrenia is plausible un-medicated, without the side effect of going insane ",6.428259999999997,7.330255936000004,7.25975,70.84362500000002,65.64,11.05,34.025,10.9516,4.052340000000001,1064,46,183,30,16,355,146,250,0.222,0.6859999999999999,0.092,-0.9904,1,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,2,0,1,11,10,1,0,13,0,21,14,1,4,2,34,36,20,0,4,7,0,0,2,0,0,13,2,0,1,7,12,0,2,4,0,0,3,8,6,1,0,9,5,13,4,31,25,7,26,0,2,2,1,6,9,1,6,16,122,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561987661265328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12598264458416925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122767271679227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141650874376225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06484935677001437,0.0,0.14108438441349302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290168685879603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27979219975535324,0.0,0.0,0.1311431935693328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401202173228841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06821497797701973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17534406522368404,0.12128085317359055,0.0,0.2192064835605548,0.10984530861078312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787312274407335,0.1250412733697068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09124498542866163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321873767249613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13993049068192573,0.0,0.12627812734392665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07951663241631977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09891028448348256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5133808216011413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08785518581568581,0.0,0.0,0.10377272551771193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580234902303889,0.2799760624935904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795332668526297,0.0,0.0,0.07237735636847506,0.2853231924272284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10241480942525444,0.07321120094303937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11160184885616437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196505342876292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993140409043474 schizophrenia,hellolucy2,2018/12/10,do i really have it? hello friends. i got diagnosed a couple days ago but i have so many doubts. i feel either like i might be faking it and it’s just an excuse for me to be terrible or i tricked my mind into being the way it is. anyone else feel like this?,-1.2767857142857115,0.7619148928571455,1.8900000000000008,93.98000000000002,96.5,4.942857142857143,14.142857142857142,6.6274283507984215,-0.3692428571428571,198,4,45,3,8,70,44,56,0.21,0.632,0.158,-0.6517,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,7,1,1,3,0,8,1,0,0,0,11,11,4,0,0,4,0,2,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,8,3,3,6,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,4,33,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24010220003093385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18939251912752436,0.27752941123907865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29970287710574395,0.0,0.17468313100682115,0.0,0.0,0.27491851839143144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22626986037971186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739112239781612,0.19350336717639002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092667688425884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166325256365272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646582993537349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27461084531437474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873410359422525,0.2734926995974535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17352068488104802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21499709275729226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Audi-RL,2018/12/10,Is it possible for schizophrenics to go through mania without being schizoaffective? I take Psychology in HS and I was recently learning about neurotransmitters like dopamine and serotonin. Well the teacher said and oversupply of dopamine contributed to schizophrenia and I was wondering if the oversupply could cause mania in schizophrenic patients.,10.580769230769237,14.824186307692313,7.754461538461541,57.99053846153848,60.92307692307693,11.852307692307697,48.86153846153846,11.20814326018867,7.561187692307692,296,20,32,10,5,85,40,52,0.0,0.9109999999999999,0.08900000000000001,0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,1,0,10,9,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,1,3,2,9,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,26,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34465113694202065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678696204936976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906725028768469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16390845749358693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3782260807675379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312659856785286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191375317128081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25225440695500945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016549837963969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3234102333580776,0.3638356699440696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ASymmtrue,2018/12/10,"‘Monsters’ watching you and running up to you to scare you? Sometimes ‘monsters’ run at me or watch me from afar, they seem real for a second and then I realize that they’re not real, what is this? Could it be linked to my fear of always being watched? These ‘monsters’ are usually pure black and don’t move from their current pose unless they’re running. 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I’m diagnosed as paranoid schizophrenic and yesterday I had the worst episode of my life. I’ve always doubted if I’m schizophrenic but that episode proved to me that I am. I’ve been having bad episodes since Thanksgiving and they just haven’t stopped since. I am scared Do I go to the hospital?",2.582857142857144,5.27110315873016,3.0914285714285725,88.92857142857146,80.90476190476191,8.044444444444443,29.63492063492064,8.841846274778883,2.757101587301587,261,13,52,7,7,81,41,63,0.265,0.735,0.0,-0.9424,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,3,0,8,4,0,0,1,9,12,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,2,0,8,0,5,9,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28293225080158524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839108986819907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3451233553256713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3864938404298272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24017328865489396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3404294107585459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5625527620749751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28428035734743595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,glitterscout,2018/12/10,Has anyone ever treated you like an Oracle or special for hallucinations? I find this to be especially creepy and such a head fuck. 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Sorry if it’s a little long. So, ever since I was 5 I started talking to myself inside my head. Except it isn’t like i’m talking to myself, i’m talking to a whole group of people Sorta like i’m a youtuber talking directly to the camera and telling the viewers about things. This audience helps me make decisions, constantly reminds me of things I feel like I forget, I confide with them and tell them to keep me responsible for things. At one point after a stressful experience I told them that I am going to change some things and try changing my personality, saying I’m not [my name] but now i’m an open, charasmatic, sportsy, person, this is different because i’m usually a more keep to myself type of person and sometimes will be okay with being by myself and just chatting with this audience. I don’t know what it is, and I don’t feel comfortable talking to family or a doctor about it, Really any information or help would be appreciated. Thankyou",3.898747379454928,5.955321400943397,5.812767295597485,74.36546121593294,73.19811320754717,8.296016771488473,28.28721174004193,8.998388855275968,2.6560368972746335,875,35,150,19,18,302,118,212,0.039,0.805,0.155,0.9767,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,3,0,7,7,0,1,10,1,13,3,2,1,1,36,29,12,0,3,8,0,2,3,1,2,1,1,0,3,15,11,0,2,6,1,0,1,4,1,0,1,2,4,27,6,27,22,3,15,0,0,1,0,23,5,0,6,12,112,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503001794800713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07811846324580539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07002630708954664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24304355534165945,0.0,0.0,0.1241383085179906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12001919381028127,0.0,0.1175787137483832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391038107861494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123691081049236,0.10829326654208013,0.0,0.1161677953898537,0.0820662229131101,0.0,0.0,0.10499302912793863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08875159926538771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06528571200121443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23578834618803185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15399564376268224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20421111209039905,0.0,0.0,0.06313191108839647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16836534144728546,0.11513422721775085,0.0,0.1016601406663154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07667948730106325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094631482133692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784179868832465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0796393756356804,0.30091142370225976,0.0,0.0,0.10859334420823626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07359141814055788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09135265412147274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09502520808473974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11361362008381512,0.1285923740154337,0.08130862083454637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315881225946155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4616580551200725,0.200810403077677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3052695222902265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10976731653366514,0.0,0.07799210919105448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12651781219302086,0.0,0.06775583846362508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12825305361497238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08160340685523207,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,njlimbacher23,2018/12/10,"Sister Paranoid schizophrenia help Background information. My little sister has had multiple episodes we will call them. The first big one was when she went on vacation with some of my close family, I was not with them, to the Dominican Republic. I have been told she was acting a little off, but parents just thought she was being silly. When they got to the air port to return all hell let loose and she started screaming and running around. Claiming the plane was going to crash along with other conspiracies. Ended up in confrontation and was subdued by local authorities. cut to her being placed in a mental hospital in a terrible area of one of the cities. The doctor there diagnoses her with a bad reaction to marijuana. My parents buy into it 100%. Psychosis brought on by increased THC levels. Cut to last 3-4 years of getting her into a rehab facility, they say she needs to go to a mental health facility. During this time she seems to go through cycles of slowing becoming less intouch with reality and increasing anxious about her delusions and then it seems to tapper off and she is ""normalish"". Last ""normal"" phase lasted I would say 8 months, she actually applied to law schools and got into a few, decided to go to one across the country.(FYI she is very smart and has always excelled in school). Family tries to persuade her to attend a school closer to home, fearing of another episode, but she is dead set on it and is an adult. Everything seems to be going great for 2 1/2 months and parents even go out to visit her this last October and see the town. They did not seemed concerned about her at all and it was all on the up and up. November comes around and my mother starts getting concerned when she begins to express anxiety over far fetched concerns over the phone. Two weeks later her roomate and neighbor call and we find out they are afraid of her and she is having extremely erratic behavior. My sister is convinced people are stealing her things constantly from her room and are putting drugs in the food. Parents end up flying accross the country, rent vehicle, and drive her back. She arrives back at home 3 DEC. Game plan at this point is to be friendly with her and over a period of time gain her trust and try to ease her into getting help. My wife and I go over (we live in neighborhood) to see them. She is elated to be home. Expresses how great it is to be home where there is people she can trust(myself, mother, step-father, and my wife). She feels comfortable enough to go on a 1 hour rant about her delusions about how everybody is corrupt/out to get her, everyone at her law school is on drugs, the dean is giving students cheat codes... etc. My wife and I just listen and I chimed in at the end how that sounds awful and traumatic.. and then asked if she would feel comfortable speaking to a therapist about it. (trying to plant seed for her to get help). She blows it off saying therapist are idiots and she knows more they they do. Over the next few days we go over to visit and have dinner and this is the worst episode I have ever seen from my sister. She rants in her room by herself, sounds like she is taking to someone (no one there and no phone calls), starts accusing family of stealing from her, admits to hearing voices, vomits after every meal and admits to not being able to tell if her dreams weren't real. Even though all of this is going on she stays close to home, goes to movie with mom, and goes to trips to store. Friday 7 Dec, shit hits the fan. Ask my mother for aspirin for her headache, mom gives her an aspirin. Shortly after mom hears her in her room yelling to herself about how mom is trying to drug her. She goes to my stepdad and asked to be taken to get drug tested. He says okay give me 10 min to get ready and she goes out side to wait for him. Cut to 10 min he goes outside and she is not there. Figures she just went on a short walk and will be back soon. It is cold outside and she didn't have a jacket on or her cigs that she smokes every 20 min, cell phone, or wallet. 45 min go by and she is not back, panic starts to set in. Step-dad drives around neighborhood checks every park, library , everything. I leave work and come to help. 2 hours later we call the police and report her missing. Amazingly to me they have a chopper in the air within minutes checking coast for heat signatures in the water and couple hours later a state policeman comes with a blood hound. We do not find her. We put a post on facebook on local community pages with message of her missing and a photo. Next morning we get a call from blocked number and it is her saying she is okay and then hangs up. During this time we start calling any of her friends that still live in neighborhood and only one that is not picking up is her ex boyfriend that lives with his mother. Sunday we end up figuring out the name/number of the ex's mother and contact her. She confirms that she has been at their house and she is concerned with her behavior. Inform the police of her location and they go checkup on her. At this point the ex boyfriends mother is pissed calls us and goes on a rant about why were the police at her house. She attempts to take my sister to hospital for eval no luck, the ex and my sister walk out. eventually she agrees to let my sister stay one more night at their house, but then she is out. This ex is only person that my sister has not pushed away of her friends. Current Plan We are now going to go to court house tomorrow to get involuntary commitment in hopes that some treatment will be administered and she will come down from this episode enough to trust someone. reason for commitment involunatry have to be threat to others or herself... so far we have \- she thinks all food she is given is poisoned/drugged (lost a lot of weight/unhealthy skinny) \- Does not have shelter (it is really cold outside) \- One point threatened to light moms house on fire while everyone was sleeping (little lose was a dream that she couldn't tell was real) concern is that if she is involuntary committed and gets past the 72 hour eval than it will feed into her anxiety of us and push her further away. I do not know where she would be able to go other then home and be safe at this point. The ex's mother made it crystal clear she does not like the police and does not want her in the house anymore. We have been researching a lot of stuff online, but was curious if anyone out there has similar situation. Any advice or wisdom would be greatly appreciated.",4.954489274770174,6.242325887559812,5.158485206888521,83.17443390140319,69.23125996810208,7.996401627152662,27.8059960934,8.338237153851917,1.8487797716968617,5149,172,979,74,89,1621,490,1254,0.094,0.7959999999999999,0.11,0.9765,6,0,6,0,1,0,138.0,15,0,13,9,41,46,10,3,55,3,102,23,5,7,10,186,180,83,1,13,27,33,3,2,4,9,12,14,11,2,37,102,7,3,20,3,5,39,18,23,0,9,31,23,145,23,194,122,21,214,1,4,3,0,204,105,3,18,66,678,182,12,0.07383233728433809,0.0,0.03602485537340958,0.0,0.0,0.036074052745447616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030717209602895992,0.0,0.0,0.05020852117207618,0.03870982160135352,0.05648153593452467,0.0417047627960124,0.036610919622606534,0.025812643458278727,0.0,0.0,0.0985896503213528,0.10353490309191507,0.0,0.06936791129055757,0.11354501994691595,0.030823458826816832,0.0,0.04077100790920645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26386874961122403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12720004201706486,0.0,0.03989326359300808,0.0,0.0,0.04084703844581055,0.0,0.023807874775765483,0.0,0.0,0.0374691340925564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03778526287726334,0.09691676385729776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2140551775852782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078707247038016,0.07628854104253757,0.041171286384493286,0.048765562446948366,0.03339278802738277,0.093310392786976,0.0705499622904889,0.06635574401457242,0.0,0.10440383502289276,0.04154095302824679,0.037331848144478624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06748141869231633,0.031400874188395496,0.08927835531347965,0.0,0.08556402095527227,0.0,0.1928717445686189,0.10624005839791037,0.31470464059177305,0.0,0.05905046483865518,0.12210061876054586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03924016098875451,0.08321441009027686,0.0,0.09897651872563304,0.0,0.22217956265102987,0.03666608509273603,0.14541995966658214,0.2555778129203075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040576321689041774,0.12036641831504664,0.0,0.03908889231809701,0.0,0.0754985671671314,0.0,0.036070750581718915,0.11099909761480373,0.09779295973979274,0.0,0.0,0.04129974992035338,0.04029835892450406,0.06276961288977745,0.0,0.034930971364836125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07440563043155413,0.0,0.0,0.21617885271709472,0.05893226721877316,0.0,0.0,0.027372871285093955,0.0,0.0,0.07852152831149785,0.034643323500828924,0.036170007224567716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17510745888921267,0.05615281951727796,0.0,0.04331316986871034,0.1639641461724513,0.0,0.035240660120500845,0.05118604631472563,0.032233774535338475,0.03856953902509462,0.0,0.13959084690823206,0.0,0.03535548498765792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07422189159915328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08403736378528462,0.02364944292469624,0.03795596974335486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467860950538348,0.0,0.1494445341042289,0.05883481371068485,0.134428373830003,0.0,0.0,0.03789391661158842,0.0,0.041495320280631486,0.0369428290576664,0.0,0.06255789978602919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13064727085702246,0.07869544784004047,0.02948129996419525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04226018097931758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055512729090075,0.0,0.06453271707850754,0.0,0.0,0.08572503421401556,0.02452546209349781,0.023654390256344245,0.036269948257305264,0.02930731432583002,0.06457834442163887,0.0,0.0,0.03527498114524445,0.0,0.10025462106832216,0.0,0.03606173263429771,0.0,0.08881121101714211,0.0,0.0,0.03045970530373092,0.021774112730100083,0.0,0.029611923735782145,0.044953948132426105,0.0,0.06844331635711587,0.033311100256837964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026875410440945584,0.0,0.0,0.10489674810709916,0.0,0.0,0.02377280226142476 schizophrenia,dreamrxd,2018/12/10,"Hot flashes and cant sit still on vraylar? I'm new and was just diagnosed a couple weeks ago.. my dr gave me a trial of vraylar. I get extremely hot at night (65 degrees in the house is too hot now for me) and I cant sit still. I cant tell if the movements are TD, which ive heard about recently, or not. It feels like the adhd I had when I was a kid but I havent have those problems since highschool. Just wondering if anyone else has experienced the same thing.",1.1496969696969719,2.8313272020202054,3.122222222222224,92.27000000000002,80.01010101010101,6.420202020202023,23.12121212121212,7.3871296695380915,0.7720787878787876,359,12,83,5,9,121,70,99,0.018000000000000002,0.9490000000000001,0.033,0.3252,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,7,0,12,2,0,0,0,14,18,8,0,3,7,0,4,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,5,6,10,1,6,13,1,15,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,4,10,54,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736019349408519,0.0,0.2018060099668492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15918449975790172,0.2332635982652036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25190040656230106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310691416214628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19017992210443185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11511125510105072,0.1626396694407064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894245634397617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626879754017691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122271139187416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21987452727429235,0.0,0.21364259458137455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21783896299179192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22478584499222246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18832191714001126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3636176197605148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198984042505452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151246555626704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18261435619209326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246886526363911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cantworkanymore,2018/12/10,"Please help! My wife had her first psychotic episode a week ago and she is about to trigger me! I’ve experienced a brief psychotic episode 4 years ago, triggered by overstress and medicine abuse. It was relatively mild, I was dissociated for only a couple of days (although in a fugue state for weeks, and it did change my personality dramatically). Now my beautiful beloved wife, whom I met 2 years ago, is going through a much heavier episode, for the first time of her life. She hasn’t slept properly for more than a week. She was prescribed Lormetazepam, 2mg, and she is able to disconnect for 2-3 hours after it hits, and sometimes a couple of hours during the day. I stay overnight with her, trying to sleep during the day while it’s her family turn. Problem is, I am not handling it well, not at all!!! I feel I’m edging my second psychotic episode. It is as if I over-empathize with her. When she’s lining up and arranging household objects I feel a strong urge to undo it and I’ve already had couple of meltdowns trying to hold myself. I am reading “I am not sick I don’t need help!” by Xavier Amador, but it’s going slow because of my own sleep deprivation. LEAP technique is helping a lot, as long as I can hold myself together. But I am helpless while trying to cope with certain behaviors of her, like: rearranging/aligning MY stuff and making loud noises (banging doors/windows). I’m also paranoid about her hurting our cats (the paranoia is totally unjustified). Could you please give me an advice? 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Before reading this for llthe last few months I've had fits of fear thinking people could read my thoughts even though everytime I am aware of how ridiculous and obviously not true it is it doesn't make the fear go away as easily as I would wish. It hasn't happened in a while but now that I know that this is a sign of schizophrenia I've been shaken. I'm not aware if I exhibit other symptoms but for context of my mental state I am 19 diagnosed with ADHD, anxiety, depression, learning disabilities. For a while (still do) suspect strongly that I have OCD for a number of reasons the main reason is suspect is because I have extreme intrusive thoughts (maybe I'm misdiagnosed with ADHD?) I'm a maladaptive daydreamer but thats probably a symptom of my ADHD or OCD I would just want some clarity of what I'm experiencing suggests that I should seek out help and maybe some advice that would calm me down",7.213732394366198,7.2111182253521156,7.2320305164319265,74.82720070422539,63.92957746478872,10.292488262910801,37.46830985915493,9.928628108626363,3.7229408450704233,894,42,161,17,12,287,123,213,0.129,0.732,0.138,0.2505,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,6,8,1,2,13,0,21,4,0,4,2,44,38,15,0,9,9,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,15,7,0,0,12,3,0,2,4,4,0,0,6,1,17,4,23,27,5,17,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,6,6,113,32,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4034517084673018,0.10934888776143788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560437022531893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10513517845473837,0.0,0.0,0.06821413888709152,0.0,0.09521996683721204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12798554847735522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934427252280115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638063064462957,0.11357770548589845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739099104315037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518406812920214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073461517571218,0.06359622277523035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895416042735034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07500524208853213,0.0,0.0,0.11114347621956312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12632321561630724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061498158766025435,0.09121468870890376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07469514549520655,0.0,0.2248402708710321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277043070667722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0893187399694912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775784366801846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071707408908884,0.0,0.12064878428092644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357954602137755,0.0,0.0,0.23010683632525375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896276199007621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08936471273671605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3489256327158401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07170198711683848,0.10994269285703512,0.26651196477020084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0660024263375586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868124610546586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23847492579172114,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,niggamanca,2019/02/23,"being aware of delusions is it normal for a schizophrenic person to be aware of their own delusions? sometimes i feel like someone poisoned my food or is looking into my thoughts, but then i snap out of it. This happens a lot, i can always stop them instantly once they start, but it still happens every time.",8.213563218390803,7.607497827586207,7.412068965517242,76.35649425287356,62.103448275862064,9.11264367816092,38.298850574712645,7.793537801064563,3.1166712643678163,246,11,42,2,3,76,45,58,0.086,0.883,0.031,-0.4854,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,3,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,5,3,0,0,0,10,11,4,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,8,1,7,8,2,7,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,2,6,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094277308158501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120611873663341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12726293086405474,0.1798086641450963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043467099711828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4451404350633927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296389452057667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113577123199244,0.0,0.0,0.2139793581780303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24660451370947306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26804354064519914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21976756169705025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21325763580358326,0.0,0.2489296147769436,0.0,0.17814874349973747,0.0,0.20100138758765104,0.2104256053741432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19981516599042806,0.14676350604877386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CantSleepTday,2019/02/23,"Should I see a doc? This is my first time of reddit so please forgive me Hi. My name is Mike, I'm 17, and I would like advice. If anyone thinks I should see a therapist or something please tell me, I could just be paranoid thanks to my love of horror. It's very hard to explain the things that I've been going through for, I believe is a few years, but I'll try. There are many times when I'm convinced someone is watching me. I know it's a generic story, but when I think about it, I'm paranoid to no end. And it's been happening for so long that I've convinced myself everything weird that happens is just their fault and it's normal. There's sounds I'd hear, for an example, like just today it was buzzing noises, almost like a phone buzz. These noises were coming from my bedside table, which is completely empty. This is just one example of many, and I'm well aware I maybe thinking to too much into this. I turned off the video I was watching so I could hear the buzzing better and the buzzing just stopped. So I turned my video back on. Then the buzzing happend again, video off, no buzzing. The noise wasn't coming from my phone or the video I can promise that. I turned off my phone and listened for a good five minutes and then shrugged it off. I'd tell myself it was the person (who's watching me) doing it and it was normal. Or that it was part of my imagination. Which I'd believe if stuff like that didn't happen all the time. Idk. I believe it's more than one person. I know I sound nuts or like I'm making this up, but it really is killing me. I'm aware of what other people think like and that this is not normal. And yet I some how convinced myself that it is normal? Like I said I could just be completely paranoid and it's not a real problem, but I'd like some advice. Should I go see a doctor? There's alot more weird shit I think and hear so if anyone would like to hear it so you can understand more hmu. 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Ive been hearing the voices of my parents telling me to do stuff and sometimes the voices of my close friends usually talking shit to me. 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What is your experience so far on this or do you know of any journal statistics on this too? 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Of course I am not asking reddit to diagnose me. More like does my symptons sound any familiar to people who are diagnosed with schizophrenia. I don't hear sounds or hallucinate in general. But I can't control my own thoughts. My own thoughts would bombard me constantly with suicidal thoughts and other very nasty ideas 24/7. I learned to live with this for many years. I always listened to music at high volumes to drown out my own thoughts. I have been having mild panic attacks when I am around people. Doing groceries and stuff. It would be feel like people are staring me. This is what I thought to be anxiety. Around 4 months ago my friend finally got me to see a psychiatrist who diagnosed me with depression. I got prescibed prozac. I can't even remember the last time it was this quiet in my own head. Prozac worked but it also made me not care about anything which resulted in my financial situation failing and generally everything else went for worse too. I met the psychiatrist again this time I got diagnosed for schizophrenia. I am not sure if this is misdiagnosis that's why I am here. I am now on haloperidol. My thoughts are more controlled and I don't get panic/anxiety attacks in grocery store. But the side effects of haloperidol are very nasty. I actually went off my dose for some time but I got a good tip to half my dosage. My original presciption was 1-3mg a day. But taking 1mg at time would cause my body be really restless. I couldn't focus on anything or stay still at all. It's very nasty feeling. I am no taking 0.5mg when I wake up and 0.5mg later in the day and the side effects are much more controlled. Does this sound anything like a schizophrenia? It is a bit hard pill to swallow being schizophrenic. As I have had this for many years now. It's a good thing I finally got to see a doctor but I am unable to go see psychiatrist again as I don't have money.",3.6414442815249295,5.836806336021508,4.317653958944284,84.18511730205282,74.34946236559139,7.6273704789833845,28.477028347996093,8.484438967287268,2.1741010752688177,1535,64,293,29,33,489,179,372,0.139,0.8009999999999999,0.06,-0.9825,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,0,7,14,14,2,2,12,0,37,15,3,9,2,54,66,20,2,5,12,0,3,3,1,3,11,6,0,0,21,13,1,3,13,0,2,3,10,6,0,1,20,13,43,8,40,38,11,45,0,2,4,0,7,18,0,4,26,194,64,4,0.0,0.0,0.0701118978277739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06368765796064073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057455683856738674,0.05978210984914016,0.0,0.0,0.0488581379440949,0.0,0.10992487368929403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17737084019007113,0.12791737664747074,0.0671668534770099,0.16347171311548045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07843785696976716,0.07980535343374558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07325237636350873,0.07380622843922438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0776406287286286,0.2417461452349133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267020041984536,0.0,0.061881353848053135,0.3646138303627335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07353801875917236,0.1257468521835592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06001859821696101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04745398831382976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06457107317174081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07265557892453325,0.0513272109184108,0.0,0.15740883253354973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05550848928022379,0.0,0.03753687255338914,0.0,0.04083206696856087,0.12052300468789932,0.3447736387449515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06436042333624012,0.0,0.073735318547011,0.0,0.08097631701187004,0.0,0.0,0.07590985614112815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08110604332523316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0585645517193989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10530182924300946,0.0,0.06344184619649011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06798297092301395,0.0,0.14568231016967825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05734725448823685,0.0,0.052815502878745986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16859296221760894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494281161809181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046026758715149316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08138816918623368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717572661226162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08075856587598662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07657889450604648,0.057376771384494825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08224714465313672,0.0785884970584852,0.0,0.06771455113102576,0.0,0.10803937308731132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04773167510749996,0.0,0.0,0.3422289538132136,0.16757727367380168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17784285799206204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332049984291149,0.06483036319035501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05230516573581808,0.0,0.07321780277513579,0.1531132465943041,0.0,0.0,0.09253368353357162 schizophrenia,errrrrrrrrrm,2019/02/23,they won’t tell me for sure been two three different psych doctors and they won’t tell me for sure it’s maybe bipolar or maybe ptsd or maybe schizo even though the voice i hear is a lot more clear and there’s times i don’t remember anything at all. my bf found me taken too many of my anxiety meds and drank and i was telling him the demon wanted me to and didn’t like arguing with it anymore and i feel like i’m being watched all the time and that people want to hurt me or that i’m dead already. the demon isn’t always mean so i don’t think he was doing it bad i think he just wants to help me really i used to be so good i’m only 25 i got done with graduate school and wanted to help people and now i’m just scared. i don’t know where i am or who i am a lot and i don’t know what to do to fix it. when i went to hospital at seventeen they said i probably had schizo or affective and i went to school but then they said it may be trauma and i just don’t understand. i feel like i trick myself all the time and don’t believe anything fro. myself or other people is that normal? it’s so different to read things and i feel like every thing is. a lie anyway so it’s hard to figure anything out but i lost my job already. i’m trying find testing again but it’s really expensive??! how do you start or how do you trust yourself it’s wrong and you aren’t lying to yourself i’m scared it’s faking faking andi’m really scared of the hospital again i can’t do it im really scared to post it but you seem to understand you really do ,-0.2588255494505489,1.8169246696428587,2.1688095238095246,94.85824175824177,88.01785714285714,5.708058608058607,16.94871794871795,7.116496586553881,0.005789926739927065,1203,28,281,19,39,410,148,336,0.152,0.768,0.08,-0.9798,4,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,5,4,1,19,21,2,4,9,0,32,3,0,4,6,65,65,35,1,5,14,0,4,4,1,3,2,4,0,0,20,18,1,0,15,1,1,2,12,13,0,2,15,9,42,8,23,44,6,16,2,2,1,0,23,4,0,11,13,180,62,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843182800129784,0.0,0.06948985883586174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06388754072493512,0.0,0.08282287581832155,0.0,0.0,0.20617329628394693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06973022062871753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09409103035364937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17450750617434987,0.0,0.08547952816552089,0.0,0.08546322792825731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05515982887603108,0.0,0.07036366157072696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266806893193711,0.17898602024047672,0.0,0.0,0.07632975650448802,0.0,0.0,0.09156815877622804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004709773016221,0.0667933142182827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07481162413868793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09412569834692397,0.0,0.11195457535408468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940284758946936,0.0,0.090208828826645,0.0,0.08287418692401304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09179358746128406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320176203706402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911647675417973,0.14200025312459014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846695039211532,0.2517013779332139,0.09097060146573452,0.09276458723941802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818254238786828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06351572216252653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17369307851001006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799827748883202,0.0,0.09004159599414759,0.0,0.097622723480633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835360238548148,0.0,0.267504189284982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09460442935073084,0.0,0.1588807810900408,0.0,0.33444602557912995,0.16904008718478966,0.0,0.07602748460671263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05911123130330925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15742082743827415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21898324057032725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11096521596810437,0.10702405986817076,0.08205151499654878,0.0,0.14609204728317066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05670013288758905,0.0,0.08158048021060091,0.17388083915343014,0.0,0.07212878437703746,0.0,0.0,0.19703352478320726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15483556134818338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09130881891736042,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ali13196,2019/02/23,"how should sarcosine be consumed? Hi, How should sarcosine be consumed? and at what grams? i've read it should be taken on an empty stomach? with water ? also i've heard it with NAC is very good, how shall i trial and at what mg? Lastly, how many hours of intervals shall i wait? for example if i take 1g of sarcosine and it doesnt work, how long should i wait to make it into 2g ?",-0.17962500000000148,2.035740287500005,2.2800000000000007,92.965,89.875,5.7,18.0,7.1686216300943375,0.31210000000000004,293,8,65,5,10,100,50,80,0.024,0.9209999999999999,0.055,0.5192,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,1,0,11,2,1,6,0,19,17,10,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,0,0,6,6,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,4,1,10,6,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,3,42,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825499723145757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29634815349814564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479491472836355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880030548098844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126771878660156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23584392367704665,0.35821114589638897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3534157334443225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26565275901005264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915261016780365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572212553837938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mainetreehugger,2019/02/23,Group homes: your thoughts on the good and the bad The.plan is for my 26 year old son to move into a group home in the near future. We haven't found the placement yet so every expectation he has is theoretical...and mostly not good. Will you share some of your experiences? He is worried about being locked up without freedom to come and go. Thank you.,3.4922549019607843,5.626768029411769,4.100588235294119,85.84931372549022,74.58823529411767,6.298039215686276,24.568627450980397,7.1686216300943375,0.945374509803922,278,9,55,3,6,88,55,68,0.11699999999999999,0.748,0.135,0.1109,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,4,0,0,3,5,0,0,5,0,7,0,0,0,0,12,12,3,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,0,6,4,11,8,2,12,0,0,0,0,11,5,0,2,4,36,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992876601672925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056015102749259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20109802247575814,0.0,0.0,0.23347463974810176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261700077008307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356472285599105,0.4003865779367586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4788305927042161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536788505206421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25045429585115336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219744288701266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948509739278985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23007880623076554,0.0,0.0,0.2423909188365973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537019633298668 schizophrenia,Phrenia1234567,2019/02/23,"Does anyone know how I can change my username. I am new and changed my mind on phrenia. If possible that is otherwise I will learn to like it. 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My cousin is a diagnosed schizophrenic on medication. Sometimes I get a message from my brother who he’s quite close with that he could “use some love” so I call and chat with him for a while until he doesn’t feel like talking anymore. He lives pretty far away so I only get to see him in person a couple of times a year, if that. His condition has been more or less swept under the rug by most of our extended family so I check in fairly often. I’m just wondering if anyone could give me some ideas for casual conversation when it seems like he’s having a bad day and his daily general interests don’t seem to do the trick? He lives with his mother who is wonderful so he’s not alone but he seems to appreciate when we reach out to him. I’m very sorry if this question seems odd or ignorant I just want to be able to make sure he’s okay without him feeling like he’s being analyzed I guess. Is just “hey man, how are things?” good enough? I just want to be able to be an effective part of the support system for him. 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She's getting really friendly and close to me so when she kills me everybody will dismiss her. She wont let me kill myself but thats because she wants to do it herself. She wont let me know that I didn't let her kill me but still died. She might be putting slow acting poison in my food or drink or maybe my meds. She makes sure I take them too. I used to refuse to take them because they make me feel sick (The poison setting in). I normally pretended to take them then flush them or throw them out the window but now she's giving them to me with pudding (So I don't catch on to her plan) and making sure I swallow them (so the poison really works). She even started giving me new meds a few months ago. She says they help with my ""depression"" but thats horse shit. She's trying to get me on antipsycotics too. They're because I ""Strangled the cat"". Given, I did but he didn't die and it was a one time impulse. I love my cat more then myself. I think the docters are in on it too. They keep giving me more meds and increasing the dosage. Maybe I'm too anoying and they want me to die faster. I think my dad is in on it too. He bought me grapefruit and one was all mushy and had white pouder on it. I think that one has something in it. I ate to of them before I found the bad one and now I have a really bad headache and belly ache. They locked up all the knives and meds so I have nothing to defend myself with.",0.9178691983122356,2.71404044936709,2.409139240506331,96.55126160337556,81.21518987341773,5.3525738396624485,18.761181434599155,6.2581,-0.2792064135021097,1146,26,269,9,30,372,145,316,0.191,0.7020000000000001,0.107,-0.9898,0,0,2,0,0,3,33.0,0,0,13,2,16,15,8,0,11,0,23,10,1,4,4,46,52,26,7,3,10,2,1,0,1,4,4,1,1,0,10,15,4,2,7,2,1,6,5,11,0,4,10,3,69,4,29,34,6,35,0,1,1,1,41,14,1,4,13,188,79,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07748644033596147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14597257712444664,0.15985864613172301,0.0,0.0743821111558675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07528877629350103,0.0,0.27216299603837235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08563156102205496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057735529173571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044198690622992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570026939353797,0.09584395401727527,0.06753514543445062,0.0,0.09133947545391936,0.25156383657862563,0.04967888005724281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05859115939244005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07769678106372177,0.3868385822294379,0.0,0.09607990914418227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681574563186544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889373700115035,0.0,0.17504677221301654,0.0,0.17563641929046198,0.0,0.388384999878996,0.0,0.0,0.09273148698655896,0.0,0.10237716807909368,0.06977230370255022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08442411820062205,0.0,0.0,0.08564627997858698,0.0838752284996122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23693351956736786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08371758808980631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08787431073726287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679972136160131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06951440687247175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08972829260030975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06729487620538206,0.0,0.0,0.0618714432031334,0.0,0.06980821582891872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647716274739852,0.0,0.19717132105497534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16803235769675726,0.0,0.0,0.05097128248228603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05934775801850343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07549685377041182,0.0,0.0,0.10311702420124436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06363777902707274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Gwygwy,2019/02/23,"Not sure about being schizophrénic, need some advice I’m not sure about being schizophrenic, I talk to a doctor and he told me that I might be it, went to see a therapist (that didn’t help me at all, she just listened and repeat what I told her and ask for that sweet 50€ at the end), and I’m not sure about the result, I have a lot of the symptoms, but the voice in my head feels like it’s my voice, it’s me thinking all these bad stuffs about me, like a deep part of my mind telling me that, I’m lost about what to do, how to improve my mental health etc.. I’m sorry if this isn’t very clear, I don’t know how to tell what I want to, and I’m not a native english either so I apologize if I make a lot of mistakes So I ask you what I should be doing now and if you may help me about the « voice » in my head",3.701657458563538,2.640494994475137,4.7684475138121565,93.1132237569061,71.43093922651934,7.902983425414367,24.177348066298343,6.2581,0.351596243093923,618,11,161,3,10,204,93,181,0.09300000000000001,0.7659999999999999,0.141,0.8589,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,1,12,9,0,0,11,0,13,6,2,4,6,39,32,14,0,7,10,0,1,2,0,3,4,4,0,0,14,6,0,0,3,0,0,1,7,3,0,0,5,7,25,6,20,20,8,9,0,1,1,0,16,5,0,8,5,111,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380955909731313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26422895018596065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799571821223805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446462986549047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12516695997459093,0.0,0.15760838308105338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07145528765521852,0.10095854096833012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900687586619317,0.15021581467046854,0.0,0.0,0.18944670484250425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07766539516233359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13808294991350809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15426671713865112,0.24028924191952306,0.0,0.0,0.09433173460793266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14241662253308285,0.14991745194084596,0.1426922141963516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478647529347902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15303503772796578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11261319079537616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15819539390764426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16177679586352586,0.0,0.0,0.3995753224569767,0.14688486989366606,0.0,0.11358710567329827,0.24703860597373534,0.0,0.0,0.1640826073038094,0.0,0.09055170553220317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27007330738203983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660322821136213,0.08335378856921505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310044131607817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,effggghhg,2019/05/23,"Driving with schizophrenia I kind of can't believe I'm still allowed to drive. I am well medicated and don't hallucinate beyond stuff like reading digital clocks wrong at first glance but it really worries me and I often think I should hand in my license despite never having an accident in 20 plus years on the road. I would be screwed without my car but before I developed the condition I would have been horrified at the thought if schizophrenic motorists.",6.652857142857144,8.405151904761906,6.58666666666667,72.775,65.66666666666667,9.885714285714286,37.80952380952381,10.125756701596842,4.291395238095239,376,20,60,9,6,119,68,84,0.165,0.716,0.11900000000000001,-0.7437,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,1,0,4,0,10,4,1,1,1,16,13,6,0,4,4,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,1,0,3,4,2,1,1,2,2,10,3,11,7,0,15,0,0,1,1,0,7,1,2,6,47,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20981877463554455,0.2778077202860454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097381791608163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567718897100758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12046501480473995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24840027842029264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19017530080945724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466436201372378,0.0,0.1579634715719643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19691662520877432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822715493979545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15799651664979658,0.0,0.19575451007873304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22170223943678036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376913256657885,0.0,0.0,0.25041080389574505,0.0,0.3503223001989609,0.269593124127792,0.0,0.15878743470473233 schizophrenia,dowhatthouwilt,2019/05/23,"Playlist for someone in the hospital? Hi everyone, &#x200B; I dear friend of mine is in the hospital for the first time and I was thinking of what I could do to make their experience a bit less scary and lonely and I though it might be nice to make them a playlist to listen to (on an old ipod shuffle), but I have a few concerns that I was hoping someone could shine some light on. &#x200B; a) Is it a good idea? Does music help? b) Would the hospital even allow me to give it to them? c) If yes, what kind of music would be good to listen to? I've been trying to put something together that is calm and beautiful, but still interesting to listen to. &#x200B; (By the way, this subreddit has been an incredible place for gaining some insight into a condition that is often so difficult to understand and I just want to thank you all for your honesty and love.)",3.5571935756551127,5.4067507928994125,4.548626373626373,83.95173076923079,73.61538461538461,7.905494505494508,28.04775993237532,8.634040054169528,2.1305026204564657,680,27,133,13,14,221,101,169,0.04,0.695,0.265,0.9924,0,2,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,3,2,6,13,0,0,13,1,18,1,0,3,1,29,30,11,0,7,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,9,7,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,4,5,14,11,26,19,6,12,0,1,1,1,13,6,0,6,4,101,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859322986624149,0.4328104901673061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296226048354423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18959277385111148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10390157992315337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07842016358810155,0.0,0.0,0.11345177429201884,0.0,0.11614089778905505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10099182977094796,0.0,0.0,0.09173064192404072,0.0,0.0,0.11389680669614904,0.0,0.19917048238915075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07958233639044854,0.0,0.0,0.11792585779096433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13403192042542833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12363921094061465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10715862226025924,0.0,0.15850663313682958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595395735253262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12458735050051645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240477668295554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11935662358772145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20119939107789234,0.09140429257696712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481807447611053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10931079710120782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607750471441109,0.1166517982342208,0.0,0.0692325222921132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08060999802056974,0.0,0.0,0.12360230378790744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.070030135882789,0.094242489811002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16868502553144166,0.0,0.4328104901673061,0.0 schizophrenia,Silverdweller,2019/05/23,Have your voices ever tried to stop you from doing something bad or drastic? Have your voices ever guided you towards good? Have they tried to stop a suicide attempt or acting out towards others? What did they say? Have bad voices turned good in certain situations?,4.715531914893614,7.823700553191498,4.646212765957447,78.49400000000003,75.38297872340425,4.611063829787233,26.421276595744683,5.6839178017228535,1.2288076595744677,214,8,30,1,5,66,31,47,0.26899999999999996,0.605,0.126,-0.8738,0,0,1,0,0,1,5.0,0,4,2,1,2,5,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,3,8,7,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,4,6,3,7,6,0,9,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,2,4,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3894772740829188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4219426550409912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912471871647533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854751230095736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621620811749604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17955307401249002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3899841082853814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551175063819573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3166978821819855,0.2536889977129124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,larrybird666,2019/05/23,"Thoughts on how to help a friend who believes he’s a targeted individual? Hi all, I hope it’s okay I’m posting here. I have a dear friend who has become totally invested in the concept of gang stalking. For almost a year now he constantly talkings about “them” and how he’s followed everywhere he goes and harassed daily. He won’t order takeout for fear of them messing with his food. He spent several months out of work cooped up in his home to avoid the harassment. He’s back at work now, but he still believes they’re targeting him. I’ve tried everything in my power to help him but he refuses. I’ve tried to bring him to the hospital, I’ve sent mental health agencies to his home, and I’ve scheduled therapy appointments for him. He refuses all help. He becomes angry and defensive if I tell him maybe this all isn’t happening. (It’s never my intention to upset him, I just don’t know how to respond to his beliefs.) Another problem is that part of the whole conspiracy is that “they” do things subtly to make it mimic mental illness in the individual, so when he’s met with doubt he justifies the claim by saying “it’s like that on purpose so that no one will believe me.” There have been other beliefs he’s expressed (his neighbors are spies/ actors for the government, helicopters circle his home, his belongings have been tampered with,) that also come across as delusional. It’s all very worrisome and I’m scared it’s only going to get worse. My question here is have any of you experienced these beliefs (gang stalking) in yourself or someone else? How do you respond when you think someone is delusional? Aside from continuing to encourage professional help, is there anything else I can do to try and steer him in the right direction? I want to help him so badly. Thank you all for reading.",4.668149227945143,6.520972029154521,5.499138321995467,78.26318972033259,70.69096209912536,8.929877982939209,31.945686210992328,9.444778638647367,3.146756052262175,1438,66,258,33,27,469,183,343,0.138,0.7559999999999999,0.105,-0.9541,2,1,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,4,3,3,20,19,3,5,12,1,21,3,0,6,7,45,39,21,0,4,5,0,0,1,3,2,2,1,4,0,17,11,1,4,7,2,2,5,5,11,0,1,6,2,32,8,43,31,8,32,3,0,0,0,59,13,0,6,13,165,49,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10459056716194348,0.0,0.0,0.08352781262047927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07102888900174925,0.1095238639822444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595261199149762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0803148193796663,0.08721053656037918,0.0,0.2307113874433769,0.0,0.3530347029741617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08997354885720822,0.0,0.11287224262009166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17450744257470627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09387200949588646,0.0,0.0,0.11753414252364885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12630012280359013,0.0,0.16139404773269006,0.0,0.05457028176387406,0.0,0.05936076310850143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923638892279686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102438288228762,0.0,0.0,0.350049752423919,0.0,0.3143125335221783,0.10374140593605327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05740242855336504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05102849634821759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06972050608676962,0.0,0.10493304062725672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105200130039797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337018038347799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08055749346485559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707773328992926,0.07943815694070296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310806828420612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10003325173369262,0.0,0.0,0.09994356897451327,0.0,0.0,0.117006763344083,0.0,0.10447724669178382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919885934267248,0.0,0.08306202221608207,0.10457165156749147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799761866436803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769985658353012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08341309139966085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08395213472315151,0.09129301344369907,0.09616258883078356,0.11944651295161507,0.0,0.0693912620443599,0.06692668976103439,0.0,0.08292082409893757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127420063031452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08618134836633877,0.06160671535882645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11661355754898847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15208020475600398,0.0,0.10644243528514664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06726171947188818 schizophrenia,DanRaleigh,2019/05/23,"How I managed to recover from false thinking (delusions) without seeking medical help! Hope everyone is doing well. Sometime back I shared my experience with you, however, I think I never managed to explain my experience in a way that would make sense to another person. So I thought of giving another try by thinking that one day this might help someone out there. I'll try my best to give you a summary of my experience, however, because of my experience, I mentioned this in my story and this is most important life lesson that I had. >""Nevertheless, by facing such an extreme situation, I understood the importance of having the right view and I understood that ignoring important data (due to trust issues, seeing as not important, etc..), not being able to understand the available data, not having enough data, will create delusions in our minds."" &#x200B; Therefore, I recommend you to read the entire content when you have time since by missing important points related to my experience could lead you to have a misunderstanding. And here is the full story: [https://theultimatedisclosure.com/synchronicities-behind-delusions-how-i-managed-to-recover-without-seeking-medical-help/](https://theultimatedisclosure.com/synchronicities-behind-delusions-how-i-managed-to-recover-without-seeking-medical-help/) &#x200B; In short: &#x200B; A few years ago, due to the events that I observed around me, this is including activities on Facebook, the conversations that people had whilst I was with them, the conversations that I had with them on calls, I started noticing that they were indirectly referring to me. Though at first I thought certain things are mere coincidences only, I observed that it goes beyond to a level that I could consider as a coincidence, thus made me believe that my friends are talking about me. This kept on happening for a long time. And then later I observed people started referring to the conversations that I'm having at home thus proving me that my house has been hacked now(I observed extremely high number of synchronicities) yet I could not find any identifiable source for this leak of private conversations. These incidences created delusions in me such as my friends have fixed microphones in my house, my neighbors' are listening to my conversations, they see me through camera's etc.. I had lots of arguments with my friends but all the time, it became a surprise to them yet the very next day it kept on happening giving me evidence of lying by my friends about their involvement. This abnormal phenomena or the synchronicities simply fooled me again and again to think that my friends are indeed participating and they are listening to my private conversations. Later, I observed that people started referring to my thoughts too. Again I had to conclude this due to high number of synchronicities only. Certain times, I tested if my friends could refer to my thoughts by thinking specific things and again, they responded just like they knew my thoughts. Therefore, at this time I had no doubts about my conclusions. Which made me to conclude that my friends are taking NSA's (this is another false conclusion) help in decoding my thoughts. I thought NSA could have this technology since so many people online was claiming the same. At this point, people in TV and Radio also started referring to my thoughts, I also got emails from companies like Microsoft, Guardian, etc.. where these email heading always showed a meaning to my life events, which made me believe that so many people around the world knows me. And their participating in this strange harassment. These events made me to completely stop meeting my friends cause I couldn't trust them any longer. The phenomena (synchronicities) created the trust issues. However, later I thought I should directly handle this situation and I started having a serious conversation with one friend and he actually tried to help me. This made me to trust my friend and I knew this friend usually meet certain friends regularly and they would not lie to each other for something like this. Since, this phenomena convinced me that my friends are involved in this harassment, I created a chain of trust to understand this abnormal phenomena through him by asking him to clarify if others are aware of anything related to my life. To surprise me they also didn't know anything. I started having deep thoughts, how I ended up in having such conclusions? What really happened to me? Why do I see a totally different world view now when I analyze this phenomena from trusted channels or trusted parties? Did someone fool me for such a long time on a daily basis? What could be the purpose and if so how? These events were real, I wasn't dreaming. To address these controversies I decided to check Facebook walls too. So I started checking Facebook profiles/ their walls, just to make sure that these statuses made by my friends, the things they shared on their walls in the past are still there and I could still find it. If so did someone hacks their profiles or did they actually made these statuses? But even if this is hacking, how can I find a logical reason for all my other observations? What about dreams? What about TV/Radio presenters? What about scriptwriters or these dramas. Emails that I got? News articles? Power cuts, the conversations that I had over calls, etc. Hacking itself cannot explain all the controversies. Having said that I still thought of talking to my friends and wanted to know if they have actually made those statuses in the past and if so what made them do so since this should give clues to understand this mystery. And I called them, there I found out that they have actually made those statuses and shared certain posts. Certain occasions, I found out that they had random thoughts to make a status or share a post on their walls. And on certain occasions, they had specific reasons to do so. So it wasn't hacking at all, they actually had thoughts in their minds related to these actions. To make a status or to share a post, they should have thoughts in their minds and they should make a conscious decision. Even at this point, I cannot take any of these as mere coincidences only, cause, this is beyond what I could consider as a coincidence since this kept on happening for such a long time and I carefully observed it. I tested my assumptions too and observed the reactions prior to making a conclusion. This is why I had to question the meaning of reality too and I was looking for logical answers to this mystery since at times I clearly saw controversies. Therefore, by analyzing all, I had to conclude that their thoughts are being affected in some strange way although they never knew.This was the first time that I actually knew that these are extremely abnormal coincidences or synchronicities. By affecting their thoughts, their actions have been affected. And that correlated with my life events. However, this is completely invisible to everyone. This become apparent only by deeply analyzing my observations only. We can conclude this due to the extremely high number of synchronicities that I have faced with so many people around the world. I also realized that on certain occasions my thoughts also have been affected. For example, there were times I switched on the radio just to hear them talking about me (the synchronicities). This unidentified influence on human brains/minds is the cause behind the meaningful events or the synchronicities that I have been observing on a daily basis. My observations and the assumptions that I made to understand these meaningful events (synchronicities) made me end up in having false conclusions. This was the reason behind my delusions. Therefore, finally I started making sense of my reality and now I understand why my friends always rejected my accusations, why they got surprised all the time. It was almost like this phenomena had it's own mind that is capable of understanding my life and influencing the life of the people around me thus capable of fooling me, tricking me to end up in having false conclusions. Therefore, these are not delusional references as some people might think. By analysing everything, I had to conclude that not only my mind is being decoded, people's thoughts are being affected to create these synchronicities. At that time, even my family members got a little bit afraid thinking that I'm going through some mental problems, however, I was lucky to find out finally that synchronicities were behind my false conclusions. I found out that doctors had a general belief that these are delusional references which is another false conclusion only since I found out that these are synchronicities. Simply by finding the right way to challenge these beliefs we can take people out of these beliefs. This is not all, let me list down so many other strange life experiences that I had. I found people around the world have been going through similar experiences: &#x200B; 1. Sometimes I would think of a song and then it goes in the radio. 2. Myself and my family is having a conversation and we were teasing my cousin and then the radio plays the right track out of the blue. We all started laughing just because of the timing of the song. 3. I see my friends in my dreams and they either would call me next day or they would change their facebook status that would show correlation to my life activities. 4. I was thinking of a person and then he would call me. (This is not an experience that I had before in my life) 5. Songs got stuck in my head and I couldn’t forget no matter what I do 6. I observed that my friends would spontaneous start talking about something but at these times, I was thinking the same topic. 7. My mother would say words that was in my mind. (someone could think that the family members also participate but in my case I trusted my family members more than anyone on Earth so I disregarded these experiences and I couldn't make sense of it) &#x200B; Thereafter I did a massive research and I found out that people who claim that they get messages from TV/Radio, their thoughts are being broadcast, people are gang stalking etc.. are due to these synchronicities only. I found out that the reason for thought broadcast is due to synchronicities only. Since the origin of thought broadcast delusion goes back to 17th to 18th century only, does that mean, something started interacting with our brains/minds during this period? Or what could be the reason? That said, addressing trust issues will vanish certain delusions that people have. What are the implications of this? When I compare my experience with others I can clearly see the correlations. When you ending up in having a false conclusion or delusion, did you also observe coincidences but later that created a false belief in you due to the way it kept on manifesting? Nevertheless, hope this help someone! ",8.5439140223218,10.19420536422068,7.716901250212293,66.77146546130702,61.23888591322978,10.849262980042763,37.56772092091569,10.82119805183374,4.534491122229916,8873,418,1338,223,123,2751,503,1867,0.051,0.818,0.131,0.9994,9,1,3,0,0,0,265.0,6,8,41,21,80,73,5,2,87,0,155,15,4,54,23,338,288,100,0,37,38,2,0,4,19,17,11,9,4,3,150,66,0,7,105,17,2,5,22,15,1,4,103,19,229,58,221,147,30,201,4,2,10,0,138,96,0,33,97,1018,379,9,0.02161482895271676,0.0,0.12655773048774152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.019160241702432104,0.0,0.021644128940572476,0.0,0.0,0.12099759632985488,0.03597053843301192,0.11709829069844227,0.13132191519238154,0.04409647467574467,0.09066013115431204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.015113590973545185,0.0,0.035574325050603366,0.09620890188885847,0.02020694728336034,0.0,0.0,0.033240938521744694,0.0,0.02635239821597421,0.0238718803874112,0.01839262743138513,0.04870502085105674,0.02268342945690307,0.0,0.02359779502474921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11035578521739067,0.0,0.02203775867012949,0.06661315023930095,0.022865623007934058,0.0,0.045325473835186925,0.0,0.0,0.17257682104104952,0.0,0.0,0.04181932957295387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02258289577375738,0.0,0.022123693331830497,0.018915282476284337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07657729132390642,0.02233389631614105,0.12053123952137346,0.04282917200688751,0.0,0.0,0.041307790694932116,0.019426014530485283,0.21143450276252265,0.08150614826442956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04735597718641762,0.09877781038570012,0.03677112493048077,0.0,0.16589681003643394,0.30059213815741465,0.0,0.011292856008628928,0.08293965398400374,0.02456841081551524,0.0,0.08643676632845129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645568743527438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04436610076758245,0.0,0.024361483147630345,0.0,0.10141574958176358,0.06851176057501078,0.0216814358050044,0.04293680448408967,0.0,0.04988122109789729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06768079715332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035636834147403984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02210262705361912,0.137404736241645,0.04223965447645939,0.0216637370299336,0.0,0.057385330332461786,0.01815101248650383,0.0,0.0,0.018376154622001796,0.0,0.2454296853571263,0.11542452934268756,0.08765617590600551,0.0,0.07063465600124431,0.0,0.021774666174524532,0.0217826637223126,0.045859835511473684,0.1745985243771274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03334137720054524,0.0,0.04597523161220477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024608626024789724,0.0,0.0,0.029293534989061926,0.16439051420036854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0412676000084876,0.22477501252557386,0.03774646983738783,0.0,0.0,0.061298999671374615,0.0,0.06210309373835954,0.0,0.0,0.020682472161337197,0.0,0.0,0.024213555213035167,0.0,0.021620678232403504,0.02460240743647,0.013847012906437736,0.11111822054035668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055376837472603566,0.04112130416011799,0.0171889795389094,0.0,0.0,0.08612110096988436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14304007896933268,0.04859194673737135,0.0,0.0,0.09157087214432884,0.04992045399839961,0.042755237047964176,0.0,0.16828995902011692,0.0,0.05178489096795722,0.01807096485244342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.020371720486942173,0.0,0.04875498412136847,0.06949272302809982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04307979573468651,0.15234900586796504,0.021236459701563376,0.3603549555613125,0.1764529281785074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04402515007277636,0.0,0.0,0.13501079536597807,0.0,0.0,0.023805680371384468,0.017834497574004456,0.012748986137219918,0.06862738054077318,0.0,0.0,0.019434327065094088,0.0,0.07801608463299582,0.0,0.0,0.06250777135034713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13819098895443704,0.0,0.13132191519238154,0.013919241175545318 schizophrenia,disqusnut,2019/05/23,"My Intro hey folks, just joined this sub. Know I will meet some great people here. I am basically a 40 year old divorced dude with no income or job, living with and dependent on his family. Was diagnosed with epilepsy at age 5, psychosis at 30 and schizophrenia at 38. I used to have a lot of low self-esteem, saw myself as a drain on the world and people around me but working with my issues, I learned how to face my fears and weaknesses and rebuild myself mentally. Hoping we can all help each other out in here....",4.6242857142857146,5.667996435643567,5.3420933521923635,82.46128712871287,69.79207920792079,8.147666195190949,26.309759547383308,8.418075326091056,1.7026056577086273,404,12,78,6,7,131,80,101,0.095,0.812,0.09300000000000001,0.1779,2,0,0,0,1,0,15.0,1,0,0,1,5,5,0,1,4,0,5,3,1,3,1,25,9,9,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,13,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,12,2,16,6,4,13,0,1,1,0,6,10,0,5,3,55,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21386899384943145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438436280886845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264816142220569,0.2703424284011314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26487097172567226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610311660927906,0.0,0.0,0.23861750300222054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507533728848618,0.2384061020669811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13203237457674682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121407453717039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20424771630639665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24211046390661495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25209672449271386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33311128060943584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506279409777765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20749455250675514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17490122862472493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547099097337372 schizophrenia,athrowawaybois,2019/05/23,"Missing the voices? Hey guys and girls, 3 months ago, I finally got a working medicine for my previously described Schizophrenia. The bad thing is, the longer I go without voices, the more I start to kiss them and I am thrilled to just stop my medicine. Have you ever felt something like that? How to cope?",3.2342105263157883,5.945168122807019,2.8132456140350897,91.81355263157896,78.29824561403508,5.203508771929825,28.798245614035093,6.42735559955562,1.2563824561403507,241,11,46,2,6,71,45,57,0.128,0.727,0.145,0.2741,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,1,3,5,0,0,5,0,3,1,0,1,1,8,8,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,3,8,3,5,6,1,7,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,7,29,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680629721499983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25249477654875474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735418045939225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903553414443756,0.3312688897877332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17186320836895289,0.0,0.24186016904054405,0.0,0.0,0.2994275844958639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14773935915578004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413760526766346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328054359945721,0.0,0.0,0.21404316528584214,0.0,0.0,0.2528233528154943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009038345062392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915067431624943,0.0,0.22015377288024532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zoeytrixx,2019/05/23,"How do you know the difference? The first thing my new therapist asked me was, “why do you think you are schizoaffective?” As if I had self-diagnosed. I guess I’ve been a little fucked up since then. Sometimes when I get paranoid I can’t tell if it’s schizo paranoia or normal paranoia. I know everyone experiences it from time to time... how do I know the difference? Sometimes I feel guilty for blaming my disorder, like it’s all made up. Am I really hearing voices or am I just talking to myself?",2.0133177132146223,4.605809525773196,3.420224929709466,86.24743205248362,82.60824742268042,7.2386129334582945,25.313027179006557,8.296473431620573,1.9720804123711333,392,16,76,9,11,128,66,97,0.205,0.769,0.026000000000000002,-0.9457,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,0,1,4,2,1,0,4,0,10,1,0,3,1,16,21,9,0,3,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,3,16,1,7,17,1,9,0,0,0,1,7,3,1,5,7,52,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16354856846557111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775639825646581,0.0,0.3655574712808393,0.20050042161756595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671660231477606,0.0,0.17112832416559814,0.0,0.0,0.08845669633915478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488068622864423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16173245822131085,0.09140076470729262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19272000222615868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19717405299384272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884331377581378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08546856342563378,0.17533935874508913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16553578139999012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689615344280939,0.0,0.0,0.17140749813758274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207329373482557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18250423720651326,0.0,0.0,0.14471508128234614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460472141360412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406129685330941,0.15290834079422325,0.0,0.0,0.2031229016786394,0.11622469611394512,0.11209673884322646,0.0,0.0,0.2040219378900522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578593092277997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Prevlady,2019/05/23,"My brother has been diagnosed with schizophrenia. What can I do? I’m 32, my brother is 22. We have never been very close, due to our age gap and never living in the same house as my parents separated. But we have always kept in touch and seen each other when I was in town. My family is extremely dysfunctional, to add some context. Sadly he moved in with my narcissistic alcoholic father when he was 15, and since then has been down the wrong path. The last few years he has not worked, smoked marijuana daily and hung around complete losers while my father did nothing about it. His anxiety increased, and he has distanced himself from all of our family members. 1 year ago he was admitted to hospital with delusions while he was at my mums (escaping problems with my dad I believe), and spent 6 weeks there. Diagnosed with ‘drug induced psychosis’. On discharge went back to my father’s and has been doing nothing much, apparently not taking drugs but who knows. 6 weeks ago he was readmitted and spent 3 weeks there, and was discharged again, not sure where he went. And I just heard from my mum this weekend that he was admitted a 3rd time and discharged again. Mum got a call from the hospital nurse letting her know he had been admitted but was now discharged. It was the first she had heard of it. My brother has never taken a call from me when in hospital, and never answers his mobile when I try to contact him. He refuses to speak to mum. I don’t know what his relationship with my dad is like, they fight a lot, but I think he goes back there because it’s easy for him. My mother is losing her mind as she can’t do anything. He won’t talk to her. She can’t get updates from my dad. The hospital doesn’t involve her constantly. She is worried about what is going to happen to him because the hospital just keeps discharging him without any housing and he goes back to dads. No idea if they have started any antipsychotics the third time - the first they didn’t, the second they started oral only, and we didn’t get any info about the third admission, I read somewhere that most people with schizophrenia reject their families. Is this true? What can we do? I have told my mum she needs to chill her emotions when dealing with him because it drives him away. I told her we need to just be calm, consistent and safe, and not have our own dramas and emotions be something he has to deal with. Is there anything more we can do?",4.6089835164835185,6.146629061965817,4.8539169719169735,84.07838461538464,70.34615384615384,7.9126739926739935,28.756043956043957,8.418075326091056,2.0251900366300357,1923,72,368,30,35,604,221,468,0.061,0.888,0.051,-0.5389,2,0,5,0,1,0,51.0,9,0,5,5,23,12,1,0,15,0,55,5,0,1,7,79,85,32,0,4,13,17,1,1,0,1,5,3,0,0,15,36,1,4,11,3,2,6,17,7,0,5,31,5,61,5,47,50,11,56,0,4,1,0,86,13,0,4,38,261,76,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15682275776911114,0.09453313187516978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07360292113106136,0.0,0.0,0.1804604261768852,0.0,0.06766900523343908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455843784972254,0.07874506778394906,0.0,0.0,0.0831078240789165,0.20405284015095884,0.0,0.16176684353364534,0.0,0.0,0.09966022096286037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806480193970637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09274499135263314,0.095590086855415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18238960175365648,0.0,0.17956303695004802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051629891801004,0.0,0.0,0.19900338623955047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501668391859994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504821626842665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09242977462741857,0.0,0.05027188589176946,0.0,0.07074676968480699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07822181954267153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041339241683489,0.0,0.09985665820734567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862423040319233,0.0,0.0,0.14584019074370355,0.07210388010989342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09045279757746304,0.0,0.0432153936592297,0.0,0.07810873878142907,0.0,0.0,0.09896023354392644,0.0,0.0752025806816445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931588168510321,0.0,0.0,0.09401529512928057,0.06502572931419544,0.13117879601521604,0.272892524093053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16975285720692693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06727517895745445,0.0,0.0,0.09822051119769493,0.0,0.0,0.06132462190768807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08464095527072753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848047007710039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09496921195375553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07317215775465269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06809816030070702,0.0,0.0,0.12521997794970602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336923502531407,0.0,0.06650830387603877,0.07109801013606401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056679374296970925,0.0,0.0,0.10315943087904007,0.0,0.0,0.16904801501815606,0.0,0.06005617911677489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07298590321610826,0.0,0.0,0.2128634842266037,0.0,0.0,0.16400018363992735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08526894073504107,0.0,0.06439740915995594,0.08983190251891288,0.0,0.0,0.09671333213122796,0.0,0.11392621351563124 schizophrenia,Mroselessard,2019/05/23,"I’m struggling Just need some advice. FYI I have an appointment with a psychiatrist in two weeks. I’m just wondering if what I am experiencing is early onset or if I just have regular anxiety and need to lay off the weed. Sorry if this is not the right place for this. I have experienced a lot of trauma and abuse in my life. So sometimes I have a fear that people are going to hurt me. Like actually murder me. I can usually talk myself out of it shortly. It’s never random people or strangers though it’s only ever people who stay over at my house. I have a trauma specific to home invasions so to me it checks out. It has never stopped me from inviting people over and I don’t think it ever will but should I bring this up at my appointment?",2.7186194600101885,4.548320158940399,4.803576158940399,81.31160978094753,75.88741721854305,7.8249617931737125,23.535914416709122,8.617729084823388,1.638880387162506,588,18,116,12,13,203,94,151,0.125,0.83,0.045,-0.8619,0,0,0,0,1,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,8,7,1,2,7,0,14,1,0,0,4,29,22,12,1,6,10,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,12,6,0,1,2,0,1,2,4,6,0,1,0,2,17,1,19,20,2,24,0,1,0,0,2,13,0,9,9,92,29,0,0.0,0.18843011896125755,0.15519493029329204,0.0,0.0,0.15540687237175188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216611134362342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.287711989763242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17895825653457734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09038308736818343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15952477523648706,0.0,0.0,0.1835046962693983,0.1702499401085818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11233091481022194,0.07769632333192578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13520561839862769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23584443612523215,0.2453147361561848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12095305894257866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44101855829608666,0.0,0.1661574171054733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358147684586698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15728938898698144,0.17802633101868998,0.0,0.16950983446486168,0.0,0.13296013383611374,0.0,0.1662576029939378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12782607112982688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190301692850974,0.15625078943935394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15535379738307264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17515425845184182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127568046905112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17246635276747874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AlexeyShved,2019/05/23,"Do you think I’m schizophrenic? The past few years I’ve had huge problems with my mental health. I can’t keep a job because of it so I’m living with my parents with no income at 24 years old, I dropped out of college, and before I did that I lost my cross country and track scholarship when my grades dropped because of this issue (I had a 3.5 GPA my first year, but it spiraled down fast as I only passed one class of nine in the next two semesters). I’m always paranoid and usually dealing with anxiety, but on days were I’m really really bad I really seek out harming myself/others, but I’ve never had a suicidal thought or any thoughts of murder. I also have a huge feeling that I need to destroy property (mine or others). I haven’t acted out on anything but cutting and destroying my light bulbs, remotes and mugs. However I feel like this problem can only get worse if left untreated, but all I do is workout in the morning take a shower and then lock myself in my room everyday so I’m just wanting some advice on what I need to do I’m really broken right now.",4.173888888888886,5.119497129629629,5.431555555555558,81.76900000000003,70.75925925925925,8.352592592592591,30.14074074074074,8.648137234880735,2.345642962962964,844,34,164,14,15,282,133,216,0.21899999999999997,0.7190000000000001,0.062,-0.9905,5,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,2,6,10,4,0,8,0,13,2,0,0,2,36,31,20,2,6,9,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,8,13,0,1,5,1,1,3,4,9,0,4,8,3,23,1,23,23,3,36,0,1,0,0,3,16,0,4,16,105,31,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13524084241696982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11067676396276076,0.11515815349908345,0.0,0.0,0.09411532920540436,0.0,0.10587402744419158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11388969315632914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155564795383172,0.16873217088343856,0.0,0.1177664336017308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08925520688103375,0.142682175059221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13995629012542304,0.09887149932543232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11772119722267142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723071992990373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471105136465816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14445146810052426,0.1373385771505126,0.1230144273403998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15036974141361964,0.0,0.0,0.06761423133833612,0.0,0.12220789599090626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15107767478826195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947254847043725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20524060316092746,0.10674100530025717,0.0,0.1471877544734009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452253325143781,0.0,0.09378201010483736,0.21051570415977405,0.0,0.0,0.15367450817776382,0.0,0.13211647151644454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648562304210532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3546449972113639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11819106464660363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15138485795100246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040580095059349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886797967420354,0.0,0.2197449732843982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13519465458710936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242575250650553,0.0,0.08163067702096256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14103930075606014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26737116235321146 schizophrenia,thatbluntnaivekid,2019/05/23,"Is this disorganized speech? In typing/writing or verbal communication, often times the order the words come out is not what I intended, or words replace words. Recently, I texted my friend a joke in response to him telling me about how he had written quite a few essays on oppression dynamics. What I intended to send was, ""( \[friend\] voice) I love oppression."" But instead, I ended up sending, "" ( \[friend\] love) I love oppression."" Also, even in typing this I've had to correct the mistake I often make where a thought with a word ending in ""ing"" will erroneously have ""ing"" at the end of other words. So I typed, ""But instead, I ending up sending."" &#x200B; When I speak verbally...sometimes it feels like that in itself is a tongue twister. ""Hand sanitizer"" becomes ""Sand hanitizer"". That's a bit of an contrived example, but I can't think of one that shows how as more of the thought is verbalized, the more likely it is for sounds to go in the wrong place without me even realizing. &#x200B; I also forget basic words way more than I'd like to; I really don't like how even in simple discussions I find myself with my brows furrowed and head in my hands trying to remember a word, or substituting a word with vague hand gestures and, ""y'know...that thing...that goes like that..."". &#x200B; I feel like with all this written out I'm asking myself, ""Well, how could anyone call that *organized* speech?"" But I still don't know if I'm right on the semantics of the whole ordeal, I'm asking here because every time I've tried to read a classification of disorganized speech, I get the vague impression that it *could* be talking about what I'm experiencing, but never a certainty. There's also the fact that I have no idea how much this has to affect your communication to be considered disorganized speech. Like, I wouldn't say how I talk is characterized by these faults, but it also deeply frustrates me whenever the problems arise, and these problems happen everyday.",6.457343028624191,7.657236695290862,6.652427285318557,74.15884406740538,65.70360110803324,9.673176361957523,32.49319021237304,9.827888789773867,3.2175012927054487,1561,63,271,33,24,501,190,361,0.10800000000000001,0.789,0.102,-0.4955,1,0,0,0,0,0,96.0,0,1,0,1,26,23,1,0,23,0,21,7,4,10,4,63,43,26,0,7,12,0,6,7,3,2,0,8,0,0,22,10,0,0,10,3,0,5,8,6,1,1,7,15,30,17,41,30,8,36,0,0,0,3,21,18,0,6,18,185,52,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27211893235382856,0.0,0.2765170214321763,0.31010482408561113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0594822966561107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590562606765172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05185733724785503,0.09395214369825612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287343071207732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686506820925438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0732795020215389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13584151752023124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.301383911184514,0.0,0.0,0.1685620260141056,0.0,0.07167439054720294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08602699175851201,0.12154677221007085,0.0,0.0,0.07775162144705107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971725401072334,0.0,0.044445096626989235,0.0,0.04834673318391651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07522632921971126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873054448791005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09603266568080923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09350351147965326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909232762473176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303345676240104,0.0,0.05678428862283157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06253558086146291,0.0,0.06561053865482885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057645027623663934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887910941350376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627992906299797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09048146526821728,0.08509212660162875,0.0,0.0544974474261903,0.0,0.08399547905893508,0.0,0.09636671351964576,0.07264855145253797,0.0,0.06765036727134563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413552074225507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793629769505928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13675064959194,0.0743541479487164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05651613381758284,0.05450884798844649,0.0,0.13507073521861993,0.09920895927499254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11551267736624063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06752389645854844,0.0,0.0,0.07648734240732506,0.0,0.0,0.09497661851386817,0.0,0.08200358219040188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09300971270388522,0.31010482408561113,0.0 schizophrenia,esperof1,2019/06/09,"Souls demise = Unable to ward off evil Steel a soul for a second chance But you will never become a man My chosen torture makes me stronger In a life that craves the hunger A Freedom and a quest for life Until the end the judgment night Bless me with your gift of light Righteous cause on judgment night Feel the sorrow the light has swallowed Feel the freedom like no tomorrow Stepping forth a cure for soul's demise Reap the tears of the victim's cries Yearning more to hear the suffer (of a) Of a demon as I put it under Killed before, a time to kill them all Passed down the righteous law Serve a justice that dwells in me Lifeless corpse as far as the eye can see The eye can see The eye can see The eye can see The eye can see The eye can see Bless me with the Leaf off of the tree On it I see The freedom reign We are falling The light is calling Tears inside me Calm me down Midnight calling Mist of resolving Crown me, with the Pure green leaf Praise to my father (Life of vengeance, a passive test) Blessed by the water (Until the grave I will rest) Black night, dark sky (Engage the pressure until it crumbles) The devil's cry (The existence of the lifeless black souls) Bless me with the (Onward to the sacred battlefield) Leaf off of the tree (Where justification and limits are revealed) On it I see (Tools of steel in rage they conquer) The freedom reign (Weed out the killing of victim's stalker) We are falling (The powers proven to end the madness) The light is calling (Upon I take it to end the savage) Tears inside me (The rays of light a truth of meaning) Calm me down (To my father the blood is pleading) Midnight calling (A justice rage for all to feel) Mist of resolving (With innocent cries and hatred squeals) Crown me, with the (The gore of evil seems to satisfy) Pure green leaf (When slain an maimed and pacified) Bless me with the (My chosen torture makes me stronger) Leaf off of the tree (In a life that craves the hunger) On it I see (A Freedom and a quest for life) The freedom reign (Until the end the judgment night) Praise to my father (Watch the footsteps but never follow) Blessed by the water (If you want to live tomorrow) Black night, dark sky (Steel a soul for a second chance) The devil's cry (But you will never become a man)",2.747601848865955,4.9931222257336385,2.93395517574976,92.8140425131678,77.30699774266367,5.031688702569063,22.96296893475223,5.773587663045528,0.2641375255293994,1778,55,356,9,42,541,169,443,0.12,0.752,0.129,0.5187,2,0,0,0,0,0,57.0,2,4,2,9,2,35,12,2,70,0,16,17,7,4,8,43,36,17,4,3,4,3,3,1,0,3,5,1,0,2,9,15,5,1,9,0,0,6,4,20,0,2,0,30,32,15,68,33,4,48,16,4,21,0,20,22,0,2,21,216,41,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17034340690346889,0.06562245553602382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3149878454543715,0.0,0.0,0.07922229538258348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3388457123604871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27321762014258066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11698081293013846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08691854117150312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559617218524657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723565983192122,0.03767637138955681,0.0,0.06809735147398067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295485341632027,0.0,0.0,0.08400502846472906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784364184248422,0.0,0.0,0.3618540510901652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07752573783541894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5530836011519908,0.07020609851518117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05798377256683776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04496861767339165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0454866918302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ImUglierThanAProton,2019/06/09,"Weird experience So i woke up on a bus (was traveling) and looked over to the person a row or two up and started questioning them about something i can't remember. I think it was like ""where did they take my ticket?"" Hey response made me confused so i decided i was being crazy and say back quietly. About 10 min later i felt more about to understand the situation. Was this delusional?",2.6078378378378377,5.235092148648652,4.282364864864864,80.83543918918923,80.21621621621622,8.564864864864862,26.817567567567572,9.188382445141503,2.784708108108108,305,13,57,9,8,102,57,74,0.115,0.8490000000000001,0.035,-0.5661,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,1,4,0,7,0,0,1,0,12,15,6,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,3,0,0,6,2,0,1,1,2,0,1,8,4,10,1,9,6,1,10,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,3,5,42,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20840642144816496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26512072192296643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602326531657525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324122546492984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22759812004096674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564564696278976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23665416955556545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036172031776532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070257485895436,0.0,0.0,0.21553505245987356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30465065612124226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086532177396967,0.0,0.0,0.19183742416187385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.203781887041682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17366598119997753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647583012640485,0.28215325208791336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,devontexavierhawkins,2019/06/09,Do schizophrenics experience hallucinations nearly everyday even if they aren’t going through psychosis? I’m asking because I thought I had schizophrenia because I went weeks where I was having delusions and paranoia and anytime I heard someone speak in the distance I thought it was a voice in my head or it was someone talking about me but now I’ve gone a little over a month with zero symptoms and feel very clear headed,5.417922077922079,8.159677025974034,4.944155844155844,79.20766233766237,70.94805194805195,5.9584415584415575,35.675324675324674,6.868970318607317,2.6252389610389604,349,19,54,3,7,106,59,77,0.022000000000000002,0.922,0.055999999999999994,0.517,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,4,0,7,4,2,0,1,11,16,6,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,9,4,9,0,7,7,0,13,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,2,4,39,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21176251576267133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761649280487667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14961212902058296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22157677553249666,0.0,0.0,0.11453363810260045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287346477829566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4649429219256653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22702921871119885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808034507179627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838536911873468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23543755939131064,0.0,0.18206552490671085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3596578792202361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18689998151004208,0.0,0.0,0.18169801524693532,0.0,0.0,0.2099832292215916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bfmademegetanewacnt,2019/06/09,"Lessons you've learned? What are some things give learned from times you've had a mental breakdown or previous moments of crisis? How did you overcome or what are some things you've learned to do better? I'm trying to take on the mentality of ""what is to be learned from this?"" instead of ""why is this happening to me?""",2.9565053763440865,5.329496370967746,3.0948387096774184,91.2789247311828,77.2258064516129,6.068817204301076,29.68817204301075,7.1686216300943375,1.6095075268817207,253,12,51,3,6,77,40,62,0.08,0.8740000000000001,0.046,-0.4871,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,0,8,0,0,1,0,10,12,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,10,9,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,2,35,9,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730317123041421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961458037250423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729940374387965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6222205322014713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23211388464853505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41019062637581305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800131325262431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20959597854013268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785656194270533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,YaBoiWeeze,2019/06/09,How to get schizophrenia Look guys Ik what ur thinking...that I’m a complete idiot but I’m so lonely and hearing voices and hallucinating people actually sounds so fucking nice even if they are scary demons I will welcome them with open arms and if I die I fucking die no harm no foul so any recommendations will help thanks !!,2.424516129032259,5.3234310483871,3.4195967741935505,84.34939516129033,85.29032258064517,5.035483870967743,23.87903225806452,6.6274283507984215,0.9174129032258072,263,10,48,3,8,84,48,62,0.36,0.47,0.17,-0.9624,0,2,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,0,5,8,3,0,1,0,3,3,1,1,0,9,11,10,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,4,5,3,2,9,0,1,1,1,1,2,7,1,2,2,0,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.24641077532316366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171367520565595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26474918062867725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5241255831011388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16677874105349125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4668780023702573,0.13192468262388607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25002200238143235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845941655540936,0.0,0.1692503721747944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120426010704919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17505682156670882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324748673038875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,crazykiddd100,2019/06/09,"I wasted half a year in the hospital Kinda disappointed they didn’t discharge me sooner, they even discharged people who tried to kill themselves over night not me.",5.3291954022988515,8.510163068965518,4.862758620689653,77.4164367816092,73.48275862068967,6.625287356321839,26.90804597701149,7.793537801064563,2.0567839080459764,135,5,20,2,3,41,27,29,0.318,0.682,0.0,-0.8935,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,5,0,3,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3345728733682449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5604248278261517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.475364815049859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35117943344770114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3439156133569022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262029334439766 schizophrenia,averagemark_999,2019/06/09,Relationship. Does the chemical imbalance in our brain could turn us to cheat on our spouses? Been thinking about this for a while actually hope you guys could give some opinion.,4.475645161290323,7.884011322580644,4.180887096774196,78.89133064516129,80.93548387096773,8.261290322580646,30.330645161290327,8.841846274778883,3.314670967741936,145,7,24,4,4,44,29,31,0.08800000000000001,0.826,0.086,-0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,3,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,6,7,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,5,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,3,1,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.2749749799073917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145577794750706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4499540980897149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24658609468487835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270307427288922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790048243266796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27986943756336763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025244483436004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805521609466562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064938825411129,0.0,0.0,0.3389446079916136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,vent-throw-away,2019/06/09,realized today that i only ever hallucinate men anyone else have any “quirks” or unconscious mental patterns like this?,12.363684210526314,12.969623263157894,11.693684210526314,45.06578947368421,53.21052631578947,13.915789473684216,40.05263157894737,13.023866798666859,6.366536842105264,98,4,10,3,1,32,19,19,0.0,0.872,0.128,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720473771197573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797239108192523,0.40989798666169946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33419002259176783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618676744702802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19544397758432944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4031558016312168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042556703711593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.379200147819878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kelpyourself,2019/06/09,"I went off my meds and feel line but... I forgot to get my injection and felt okay so I’ve been off it for about one and half months. I feel fine like normal. I started hearing small things like people saying my name but not enough to really catch my attention. Anyways the last two nights I’ve heard an invisible creature with claws crawl up the wall and onto the ceiling, saw my mom walk into a room and disappear and just a few minutes ago “I love myself” was posted on my instagram and I deleted it immediately because I had no memory of posting in. my friend acted very concerned when I couldn’t show him because I deleted it and that no one else could have posted it. Other than that I haven’t noticed any problems. I’m worried honestly that I was misdiagnosed with schizophrenia and I don’t want to spend my whole life on meds I don’t need. that thought makes me feel frightened.",3.3779047619047624,5.350543171428576,4.266285714285715,85.25504761904764,74.42857142857143,6.9523809523809526,26.523809523809533,7.793537801064563,1.5484095238095232,705,26,137,10,15,227,113,175,0.10099999999999999,0.7759999999999999,0.122,0.4118,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,5,8,0,0,6,1,10,2,0,1,0,31,27,13,0,6,4,1,4,2,1,0,1,3,1,0,10,12,0,1,6,1,1,5,7,1,0,4,10,8,24,7,17,15,3,25,0,0,1,1,8,11,0,0,8,92,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340429718426415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10283138395152756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843585183793129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073287134244047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12632072725617904,0.0,0.0,0.15624551514196006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22937653931341195,0.0,0.1451901116570875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11682833226831615,0.0,0.07900359523103026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704302925984642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12326040568098373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10680762497169972,0.14775201961341267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364774394275282,0.0,0.10093718529832073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3359315473595409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17710117794360092,0.12069836864420623,0.0,0.0,0.1121240049005349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14190503193915946,0.14815859195261966,0.0,0.17215927734921393,0.0,0.0,0.2049343920965172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10483343979622274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4344665048904464,0.0,0.0,0.14469233095355113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687219973257036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202522356513544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703075380909216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10046052543478334,0.0,0.0,0.1200478174491077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14771508054442295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12476820977871528,0.08919052360371194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401778180064931,0.0,0.16882614495037745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15356617051259755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hthiennguyen,2019/06/09,Cogmed for learning difficulties associated with schizophrenia? Has anyone tried the Cogmed program to help with the ‘learning difficulties’ associated with schizophrenia? I’m thinking about trying it but it’s so expensive..,9.527727272727274,14.110192,8.009318181818184,52.33397727272728,68.3939393939394,9.36060606060606,41.583333333333336,9.516144504307137,5.777733333333334,188,11,20,5,4,57,24,33,0.049,0.884,0.067,0.1556,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,13,2,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3913324201463869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3751332236968513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3586122359402696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7599547786908772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fuckitallidontcare,2019/06/09,"Escalating Symptoms For the longest time I've believed that I have Bipolar 2 (never been diagnosed for financial reasons, but after many years I came to this conclusion)and I've had a reoccuring delusion for many years as well, but about 2 months ago I experienced my first serious auditory hallucination. I was watching an old tv show on my laptop when I heard a male voice making jokes about the show. It went on for about two minutes before I stopped watching cause I was annoyed (their jokes really weren't that funny). I thought it was a comedy commentator or something and didn't realize it wasn't real until the next day when I showed it to my sister and the voice dissapeared. It really freaked me out and since then I've been very afraid of it happening again. Furthermore, I've noticed that for the past year or so my memory has gotten significanly worse (I forget things very easily and forget the spelling and meanings of common words) along with my mood swings (my depressive episodes are more intense). I wanted to have some feedback from people who might have some insight on what to expect or possible ways to cope with the onset of hallucinations, especially considering that psychiatric help isnt really an option for me at this point in time. Thank you!",10.026230407523514,8.900861732758619,9.674247648902824,63.268244514106605,58.82758620689656,13.09153605015674,39.19435736677116,12.079253325248375,4.85523620689655,1030,42,170,27,11,335,146,232,0.096,0.8140000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.1882,1,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,1,1,8,10,1,1,12,0,16,3,0,3,1,34,26,16,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,15,10,0,1,5,6,0,2,5,5,1,2,14,6,21,4,30,11,3,31,0,1,2,0,8,7,0,7,21,116,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12801740506465512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12288866041747475,0.1627090743375318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16517515314898695,0.0,0.14835655988854013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313734375270756,0.0,0.12438658596004955,0.14658072822388304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228414564914092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277079232598588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09680000981628134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09639980641126493,0.2928333669181576,0.0,0.15731300104573767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15320415133712964,0.0,0.0,0.11527267515008208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113836833789488,0.0,0.15358965559118865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644202873234231,0.15154187849254852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13786285028080122,0.10012091452634353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13652122265925318,0.16280903844004033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16437873839349726,0.2775526563353219,0.14848524846294464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11946365300530715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111796514152429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073950127313601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15010508479828708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329602360567592,0.0,0.0,0.09594457360054984,0.0,0.0,0.11465136785799974,0.16842201778551485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14107491829122445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.238319133496748,0.08518118653403968,0.11463189386722615,0.0,0.0,0.1298486813835618,0.1338764745523796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14717377614358562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27900041608601817 schizophrenia,Mateov2,2019/06/09,"Dating someone with schizophrenia I’m dating this girl and before we started talking she told me she had schizophrenia. My friends found that as weird and a “turn off” but talking to her more and more she’s just a beautiful, cute, and sweet girl but i would still like to know things that I should watch out for and avoid for the long run.",4.4381818181818184,6.011671303030305,3.3246666666666687,94.737,70.81818181818181,5.8860606060606075,25.32121212121212,5.6839178017228535,0.4227975757575759,270,8,56,1,5,77,48,66,0.054000000000000006,0.696,0.25,0.9509,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,16,9,8,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,4,8,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,2,9,4,8,4,2,8,0,0,1,0,11,2,0,0,6,38,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527995427733243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257410602716325,0.2295290308604304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16327149582010636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14514192409958432,0.0,0.0,0.2629130489750445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.251721236629187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21028002982736,0.0,0.2372544254140883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47757528588871895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19737170423538555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838797947604758,0.0,0.0,0.3231458403490147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21104240425440401,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Weoutonmars,2019/06/09,Hallucination? Please help So I was barbecuing today and the sound of the barbecue is still playing in my mind even after I’m finished is this a hallucination?,3.3087931034482736,6.476144620689657,5.95474137931035,65.28314655172417,85.55172413793103,8.417241379310347,27.9396551724138,8.841846274778883,3.321682758620689,130,6,21,4,4,46,25,29,0.0,0.763,0.237,0.7319,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,3,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30641918136630564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109602588444375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4684336726624153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.50925215451698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3704924273341795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4397482250493415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AlmostHereButNot,2019/06/09,"I Need Help With My Mother My mother thinks that she's a psychic. According to her, she has visions that allow her to see the future. These visions can be... very strange. On the day her father died, she had a vision of him dying. It was vivid and realistic, and a few minutes later, her father was sent to the hospital and died relatively after. On another occasion, she had a dream about an Italian woman apologizing to our neighbor that involved the words ""bike"" and ""ice"". My mother asked the neighbor about it, and my neighbor revealed that as a child, an Italian woman hit her with a car while she was riding a bike and then helped put ice on the wound. Now, she seems to think that her visions are from the future. She's had more visions over time, and when I try to tell her that she needs to get help, she laughs it off like I'm crazy for even suggesting it. What do I do? How do I get her to see someone to be tested for schizophrenia?",4.849046345811053,5.379748267379682,5.442580213903747,83.79759581105172,69.0,7.944563279857397,28.417557932263808,7.793537801064563,1.6349183600713015,734,24,148,8,12,237,100,187,0.067,0.805,0.128,0.8388,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,16,0,14,1,0,2,0,18,27,12,3,2,0,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,3,3,12,9,0,0,4,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,3,27,2,24,17,2,19,0,0,3,0,39,5,0,1,11,108,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19445573886208084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17336647605085945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11959698311023725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5773893424003889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224849803533416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19377520248968508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729005575832319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09059928676386264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2750109243765394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18642391224750526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955520510723323,0.1688225860761086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15712734031467307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620875098509887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376519314399833,0.0,0.0,0.10813474168840427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12590529746523593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530119296688036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jcampp96,2019/04/12,"Opinions if I have schizophrenia before next meeting with dr? Hello, 23 year old (M) and for the past few years I’ve seen a increase in my “social anxiety” and focusing and what not. So ending of last year I got my first doctor for mental and after my 2 cents and his we believe I have add. This is in regards to me not ever wanting to go out when I used to be very active and party and socialize and what not, staying motivated to start something but not finish and I always have to be moving. Not a lot of moving but wether it’s twitching my foot or shaking my leg. So I been on adderall for about 4 months now (I am aware of the addiction chances but I take it correctly and don’t take on weekends no problem so I’m not worried about that) and I been seeing help with my confidence but still not wanting to go out socializing wise. However when I am with people already I talk a lot cause of the adderall. But I rarely go out of my way to make plans. Anyways, if you guys are still reading my question is the title. I recently discovered schizophrenia as I never heard of it before and things starting adding together quick with relating symptoms... the following is what strongly relates to me that I saw... •belief that an ordinary event has special and personal meaning ; this is my number one thing. I’ve had many relationship trouble and (I’ve worked on this) and still some what in my current one. I overthink a lot when it comes to my gf. I been cheated on a lot, some in very hurtful ways but I’ve grown past them and could be friends with them at this point, so I thought I been like this cause of my past and blamed it. But we go through a cycle where I ask what she’s really doing in other words when doing stuff, or why did that actually happen? And honestly I trust her but I feel the urge and believe with (this is my mindset) “how I’ve actually seen girls do guys even the good long term ones why wouldn’t she do this to me?” Don’t get me wrong we all know you never know but as far as I know, this girl is my first legit one I could trust any day compared to others. •The speech symptoms pretty much all of them ; all my life I always been the “mumbler” but honestly every. Single. Time. I can’t exaggerate that enough, I’m trying extra hard in my head to make sure I talk right and loud enough but perfectly. Then end up speaking too fast (even before adderall), drag on subjects and completely forget the last main subject, and even when I swear I talked normal (with anxiety that maybe I didn’t) I still get the response “huh?” “What?” Or the yeah to pretend they agreed or my girlfriend hearing something 200% different which is always a crack up for us. But seriously, once again, I can’t exaggerate enough how often people don’t understand what I just said. All my life. I’ve had phases where I tell myself to not care to talk cause they won’t hear me or understand anyways? And I feel like this is a big role why I have anxiety cause I mean... it’s human verbal communication and it lowers my confidence. Anyways I’ll stop and say more to, if anyone, that’s interested or give their input. If you did read all this story pretty much, and help out I’ll pass out goodies. Cause I can say I know I have some kind of mental thing going on, not to the extreme, but in certain ways and I been on a journey to discover for a year or two now. Thank you, love ya Redditors!",3.2819601728759764,4.863556237813889,4.411113572952568,85.76692365556103,73.77104874446086,7.200930028995023,26.42182285683024,7.857877913537022,1.4954614256797414,2651,94,535,37,54,867,305,677,0.084,0.763,0.153,0.9957,4,0,2,0,0,0,73.0,4,5,6,7,33,26,1,1,23,2,45,12,3,11,12,132,91,66,0,11,34,0,3,2,3,2,8,9,0,6,38,44,0,1,13,4,1,14,20,7,0,7,18,16,85,19,68,66,24,93,0,1,4,1,53,28,0,21,49,383,123,5,0.0,0.0,0.1148581051768195,0.06415512157320888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06494237258712947,0.0,0.14690359425753546,0.0,0.0,0.04001997749733845,0.0,0.13506012989515748,0.0,0.0,0.04114924663113389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05501675008148452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15023089423818647,0.13260746031057466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06000143634308318,0.30227549857517383,0.0,0.050694012692954815,0.061703042803718786,0.0,0.0,0.09397377743337766,0.0,0.0,0.037953343000091684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061485662108106916,0.0,0.060235407647102675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424715914792497,0.18242315992719094,0.0,0.11660949174842382,0.05323314028107594,0.04958361293300996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059512596180865025,0.0420424091541583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10011545841865943,0.0,0.0,0.04546731794092652,0.0,0.06149332979598976,0.056454225260936026,0.1672288865287306,0.049360537860042464,0.04706767335271896,0.0,0.0,0.11654138666778527,0.05204080790815879,0.0,0.05271798725900505,0.0,0.060397017020725675,0.0,0.13265631974515552,0.0,0.07889174904373981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06300007832209424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06128315681533364,0.12936955265859065,0.09594111198563712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313490655589081,0.05750221647218477,0.0,0.0,0.05208034532170165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20012845921163092,0.05311436883275472,0.0,0.07856558433926379,0.05966460266477936,0.059122675064320576,0.12820967501317848,0.0,0.0,0.11861379646457908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046973460936629165,0.12509634633550604,0.08652295505557604,0.0,0.09077740398350068,0.0,0.06258757921415245,0.0,0.057660446530371785,0.0,0.0,0.06175311278553304,0.06267326583240207,0.15951297055380187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16853678125833685,0.08159827749845422,0.05138549797702333,0.0,0.0,0.05563221562487276,0.0,0.0,0.11974309256943386,0.0,0.056311445069416925,0.0,0.0,0.06592540164821227,0.0,0.11773173198544876,0.0,0.03770077873543539,0.0,0.05810721639883563,0.06318281197458596,0.0,0.05025752751945897,0.055979769786030205,0.09359966928073916,0.0,0.0,0.04689578314191052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799703091572453,0.0,0.09061111847890067,0.0,0.0,0.08330858137593725,0.06272620619332138,0.18799055357409025,0.04920118526942767,0.0,0.0,0.06736910199085255,0.0,0.0,0.055465372331766336,0.12233524255391108,0.08849566237518326,0.1892054114708908,0.05143744179345218,0.0541811183474796,0.0,0.0,0.11729185622453454,0.0,0.0,0.04672027904615706,0.034315873484395784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039955246494989896,0.0,0.057487840503944974,0.12252972674516785,0.07078923225474543,0.05082745334798545,0.0,0.09711472812776853,0.06942243915104601,0.14013703026289484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593087529650236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042843457483729024,0.05976497108279266,0.0,0.0,0.06434317136861759,0.0,0.15158972849095045 schizophrenia,jameswlf,2019/04/12,any of you is afraid of going to hell? do you think that your schizophrenia experience is literally how hell is? Because that's my case.,2.649102564102563,5.435423653846158,3.674615384615386,84.15371794871797,81.69230769230771,6.5435897435897425,24.051282051282055,7.793537801064563,1.416758974358974,109,4,21,2,3,35,20,26,0.294,0.706,0.0,-0.89,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,14,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4280018392712112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3836658708631976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6156570796181824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3576927099388472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4032830404168508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tlfachu,2019/04/12,"Audial Hallucinations as I’m falling asleep Occasionally, as I’m laying in bed falling asleep (or trying to), I find myself having audial hallucinations. It probably could just be me on the verge of dreaming. They’re like faint, short and brief sentences/voices or sound effects or tunes. it doesnt seem like any voice reoccurs. it also seems random and harmless. there’s only been a couple times in my life where a “voice” would get loud or “yell” and repeat itself or be threatening. when i was younger it wouldn’t just be occasionally when i’m trying to fall asleep but also if it was just really quiet. i liked to pretend i was hearing sentences from people all around the world speaking at that very moment in time and it somehow travelled to me through airwaves or something. but now I wonder what the real cause is- if it’s me just on the verge of dreaming, but only audially, or like my brain repeating things it heard but i didn’t consciously pick up on or something. and not sure if it’s schizophrenia because i don’t experience it very often. i also am not sure if it’s psychosis/psychotic in nature because i know they’re not real sounds and i (normally) don’t feel threatened by it, but definitely hallucinations or at least my brain being weird on me. Also should mention I’m diagnosed with depression and social anxiety and on the SNRI, Cymbalta. what do you think? anyone else experience the same thing?",4.801168831168829,6.951489157894741,5.7607928913192055,75.2958099794942,70.95488721804512,8.295010252904989,28.632262474367728,8.97023862654752,2.5802466165413525,1140,44,194,23,22,375,146,266,0.095,0.84,0.066,-0.7635,0,0,2,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,1,16,9,0,0,8,0,20,8,5,3,3,60,33,34,0,9,25,0,1,4,0,3,3,10,1,0,18,10,0,0,9,4,0,5,8,2,0,0,6,11,19,7,25,19,3,31,0,1,0,0,6,18,0,19,12,137,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3904402481824722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300390067669751,0.0,0.09337434541656996,0.0,0.0,0.08534607448289344,0.12506325968902374,0.0,0.10865785796236674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488113410558867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27251509330271456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12538760404051488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09745370407583202,0.13505530308185748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512872501241466,0.12388671134134527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10196413483574754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387930817052007,0.0,0.0,0.06171639680129067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115591705133674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06377047861914957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756869289838314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06708010705513635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08621346085202837,0.2385262842821243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195913210370822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18566183369371392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08461992915065653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315996044113704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778583727992648,0.07819373945920746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22223477467647806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442317229385423,0.0,0.1879330461624406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23007720363301856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621803607942929,0.078210097153684,0.0,0.0,0.14234647455872934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16573928917394665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014219335405142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13236713310606898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08670678858823454,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Notgonnablink,2019/04/12,"Should I be worried? I had a friend who was schizophrenic and she didn't hallucinate so much as she fell into the paranoia rabbit hole easily. That is about the extent of my knowledge here. Okay so I am 23 and I have never had hallucinations before. I have struggled with anxiety and depression but these days it is just depression I gotta fight. There was a brief period of time (about 2 months) where I would stay up for over 24 hours on a regular basis and the later I stayed up the more paranoid I would become. Like chain smoking, rocking back and forth outside and convincing myself no one could be trusted and legit driving myself nuts with tears streaming down my face while shaking. I am on a good sleep schedule now and this no longer happens. Except when I stay up really late I can feel it starting. But I just attribute this to sleep deprivation. For the past few days tho, I have been having small hallucinations. I am well rested, eating well, not super stressed or anything. But I am hallucinating images (a person in the middle of the street that wasn't there, glitches in the sky, I thought a bag in the road was a dead deer and even saw the ""blood"" etc), sounds (soft music, train sounds but no train, etc) and smells (I keep smelling things that apparently no one else is smelling). Also, since I was like 12 I was very eccentric...spiritually. I am technically an agnostic atheist but I have always dabbled in the metaphysical. Lately I have come to the conclusion that we are all God and God is everything, I have started to put faith in various Gods and Goddesses as aspects of myseld, I am starting to believe that reality is all perception/hallucinations, and that by believing something I can make it come true??? This is so unlike me. I have always been into this stuff but I never took it seriously until now. I am unsure if I should be worried I might be developing something a little more serious than just being a little bit weird. I can't afford a therapist, I can't even afford to go to a regular doctor. Most of the time I am fine but these past few days I just don't know what is going on in my head. I feel fine emotionally, happy even, but I know that hallucinating probably isn't something I should ignore. Sorry if this isn't where I should post this.",5.350793287566745,6.508193846681928,6.238368421052632,76.28141228070176,68.19908466819221,9.12186117467582,29.44080854309687,9.3871,2.5919883142639204,1809,65,333,36,30,598,225,437,0.138,0.735,0.127,-0.5231,3,0,3,0,1,0,55.0,1,0,0,2,25,26,1,3,25,1,55,8,5,2,5,62,73,34,1,9,17,0,3,2,1,8,2,2,0,1,23,20,1,2,7,1,0,10,14,11,2,2,14,9,48,15,39,45,14,64,2,3,1,0,7,25,0,5,27,259,71,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739813423875837,0.1539538106770844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707709766156212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612900921687793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07113556508801992,0.0,0.0,0.10217158579690946,0.07872039743577773,0.2084573622130009,0.0,0.0,0.10099850115956922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593807790484175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07386283439511505,0.0,0.0,0.17898662150156872,0.0,0.15935988640758658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468934975854096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946622695078263,0.07728141353922881,0.10406288629043664,0.0,0.0,0.2063493563156438,0.18330874448499407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08314329152470792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09355309866620937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07147408707373894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10515273421254576,0.07759418282818048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08180753570395595,0.09848011783036296,0.0,0.0,0.09494339778612138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911051053652165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08222839322212906,0.0,0.0,0.10168370480335327,0.0,0.2087138034682013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09039280549615304,0.18544147597210556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061752085567918724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09813998819011382,0.0,0.0,0.07384172608337257,0.0,0.06800653198363503,0.0,0.14270100745934802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12537625335153935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17662522040464115,0.0,0.0807773962279676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08860035974220154,0.0,0.09974294850338364,0.0,0.0,0.09299952042416164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05926517912460275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765263956150208,0.0,0.1851564443563146,0.0,0.0,0.2136594129136084,0.0,0.10355895120170892,0.19644015973153534,0.2958145670099797,0.0,0.0,0.10597150935921557,0.09671301372578832,0.10590343305558246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074128791179885,0.06146047112877065,0.0,0.0,0.07344372714029421,0.10788829605571994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278358216068653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633160310186933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16635773830230674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18789965806564424,0.0,0.13143490495633767,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,x270-tpd,2019/04/12,"Hallucinations come when I ignore my feelings I was curious about knowing if this also happens to you too I was badly hurt in the past, partly because of my own pride, I hurt a very important person (she hurt me too) Details don't matter, but I feel like if my heart were broke, when I focus on the actual feeling on my chest This happened about a year ago, a bit more I just noticed that if I focus on the pain on my chest (which I know is emotional), hallucinations end, but I find it difficult to focus all the time on this pain P.S.: Hallucinations are extremely vivid and disturbing, violent images. Voices are also pretty violent",5.6731611570247935,6.637104776859509,7.0823037190082685,71.2252737603306,67.34710743801654,10.016942148760329,30.827479338842977,10.125756701596842,3.2313380165289245,502,19,88,12,8,172,78,121,0.295,0.607,0.098,-0.9844,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,1,9,14,2,1,7,0,7,5,3,0,1,17,15,10,0,3,6,0,3,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,6,2,0,1,6,0,0,1,1,12,0,0,3,5,18,2,11,12,5,14,0,4,1,0,3,6,0,3,8,66,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.15347269584935766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13941024080622405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25153729870564184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13131376302609518,0.09587024626740852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17169795339683092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13547405782869396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17690742333300696,0.13929441482983812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385610982910816,0.11235361863156686,0.0,0.0,0.14374180186290675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781464336904486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863655400369448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5050819100973897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17286280299308285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07683410905755209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17905277675024175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3346924364662296,0.0,0.0,0.17030793136708408,0.15013187578807832,0.0,0.13732197462172796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599999860495616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09170531946296807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297641042354064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012766328452092 schizophrenia,Skiffy77,2019/04/12,"Meds used for treating intrusive thoughts... Does anyone have medication to treat intrusive thoughts? If so, what is it and does it work? I saw my phychiatrist recently in reception and he said in my next appointment he is going to try and introduce a medicine to treat my symptoms. Just want to know what sort of medication it might be. Thanks!",4.627795698924731,7.415895112903229,4.998064516129034,77.63376344086022,73.67741935483872,9.93978494623656,32.913978494623656,10.125756701596842,4.005959139784947,275,14,49,9,6,87,44,62,0.0,0.845,0.155,0.8501,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,1,0,12,14,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,4,4,8,8,0,5,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,3,2,29,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15580537515031434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3899937066512193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12663735807918608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224595426113433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475098585434516,0.4489482397708231,0.0,0.23638355995950375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369783667395986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22001415314153494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21195889952798225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316019115863409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051485789245426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3537984872076035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15128447490616048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192450435552476,0.0,0.0,0.13142876311610066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622202473310507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fubetiz,2019/04/12,"Solving Schizophrenia Has anyone actually investigated and solved their ""delusions"" instead of brushing them off as unreal and fucking their head with medication, what we see literally isnt made up you know its solveable if u have balls and smarts",12.369999999999996,12.155169048780492,10.824512195121956,53.96896341463415,53.634146341463406,13.078048780487805,47.32926829268293,12.161744961471696,6.158941463414633,205,11,28,5,2,64,38,41,0.0,0.835,0.165,0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,1,3,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,0,8,7,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,5,1,5,6,0,2,0,0,1,1,5,2,1,1,0,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.3920280482862057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28089717866087194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3713905607758724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41228826939976987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22077890436347855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3801242333093641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4046981491964734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201247715113213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dnycole,2019/04/12,"Real bad side effects on risperdal? I've had more mental breaks, serious depression, suicidal ideation, and complete disconnects from reality with some hallucinations sprinkled in more then I ever have... in the past 2 months. I always feel like an empty zombie that feels nothing. But I literally cant stop crying and feeling overwhelming depressed ever since taking risperdal. I was never like this and never this frequently prior just on zyprexa. Anyone else have terrible experiences? Because I'm quitting it asap its gotta be the cause of the intense suffering",6.8028304093567264,10.052727505263164,6.785614035087723,65.21374269005852,68.6842105263158,9.27485380116959,36.87134502923976,9.725611199111238,4.6819941520467845,463,25,60,12,9,147,77,95,0.228,0.66,0.11199999999999999,-0.9401,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,3,9,0,1,4,0,6,0,0,2,4,18,12,5,1,0,2,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,2,3,4,2,7,8,3,16,0,4,0,0,0,5,0,1,12,39,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15253281373007818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281781511863417,0.1878279405983633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15306041676729398,0.11174715818902088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883150615300964,0.0,0.0,0.19220235111591025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20136298394354096,0.0,0.0,0.3157779825332111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15313620889711352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316379307857801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793173026089013,0.0,0.0,0.2780688047271943,0.13096031441611947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17911695595770255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847384627999426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14632033076215414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28276774825075673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17589574265936042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17499496586364946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19497812940482398,0.0,0.2086526693397815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15164011071169547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532595972058536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20051692075436395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13783011014689292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MansonsRib,2019/04/12,Hey guys. Trying to figure out if I’m amongst you I often picture someone I like with me when I’m doing things. I also have conversations deflecting thoughts in my head. Like two different people basing actions off of each other. A little background I have OCD and Bipolar disorder. I’ve always thought hey maybe my thoughts were normal. I think I might have something more.,4.1133540372670785,6.9325879130434815,4.5006625258799176,80.35173913043481,75.66666666666667,6.2616977225672885,30.146997929606627,7.447530270364453,2.251665010351968,302,14,48,4,7,95,54,69,0.042,0.879,0.078,0.3182,1,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,6,2,1,0,0,13,12,4,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,10,2,6,7,2,6,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,3,3,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17638662404957545,0.1835286576893466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304446209952977,0.252787850332628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183951083888808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263644436668196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21551490261296255,0.22106516893224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215882854684116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23398576779575464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161079395021948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529127563019372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18688493395103448,0.16980255347268294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465343107469711,0.1413298456575147,0.0,0.525314518626611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497498981001887,0.0,0.2154610223352056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,logan___keith,2019/04/12,Schizophrenia I love shitting on the floors at school and watching the janitors pick it up with their bare hands in disgust and horror.,12.353749999999998,10.16070354166667,9.011666666666667,73.20000000000003,55.25,11.266666666666667,44.83333333333333,8.841846274778883,4.1936333333333335,111,5,18,1,1,31,22,24,0.31,0.565,0.125,-0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,3,2,1,0,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,1,5,1,0,5,0,0,1,1,2,5,1,0,0,12,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5306756973485283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5950680378201528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.603553920216352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mh8010,2019/04/12,"Seroquel side effects I'm diagnosed schizoaffective, and originally posted it on their subreddit but this sub seems more active. I'm on 200 mg of Seroquel and I'm being introduced to it in my system, starting at 25mg and then gradual increments by 25 over the past few weeks, I'm at 200mg presently. I've been noticing that I've been having general (I can't really determine which side of my chest its from) chest pains recently and occasionally it spreads to my left arm and slightly less occasionally my entire upper body. Sometimes this triggers a dissociative,depersonalized state. In the hospital this past November and December they told me that my heart rate is much higher than normal, and this was before I was put on seroquel. I'm aware of tachycardia but was wondering does this usually happen?",7.78748299319728,8.667063938775513,8.27931972789116,64.79544217687075,62.673469387755105,12.247619047619047,37.421768707483004,11.855464076750405,5.019674829931971,657,31,105,21,9,218,95,147,0.026000000000000002,0.945,0.028999999999999998,0.0745,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,9,7,5,3,0,16,19,10,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,12,7,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,0,10,0,16,12,4,25,0,0,0,0,3,12,0,2,9,64,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17275726886910675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22551232684234895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060636529910608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17766643469950744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17953220386949054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405827440189065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22058463564433656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14924496208669671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19891903023422566,0.0,0.2311425617967695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21603034754026051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3876160650154672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19443951845352966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20409377592030387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300614684136677,0.0,0.2004603125918968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18482413890745186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200794530575159,0.0,0.14370043257262696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939967829527157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22360069760960555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16285247377254378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22016933606895733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,venstik,2019/03/22,"Nervous Was finally honest with my therapist today about certain things (hearing voices, past delusions/hallucinations) and she's got me at high functioning schizophrenia. I feel a combination of extreme nervousness, disgust, and relief. I'm so scared, I just want the paranoia to end. Nothing in life is enjoyable right now. 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When I was a child I didn't have this and for making new friends and find love it's so freakin difficult... how do you do for this stuff?,-0.7767857142857117,1.290259178571432,1.2264285714285703,100.51857142857143,91.14285714285714,5.342857142857143,16.92857142857143,6.868970318607317,-0.2624,198,5,50,3,7,65,39,56,0.04,0.7120000000000001,0.248,0.9183,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,3,0,9,12,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,4,4,5,10,0,3,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,0,3,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24978701118733385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21114731999572345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15019598455530975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335183099835638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4933194716640902,0.0,0.18242677739081395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639503651971151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894685940399112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750800080638477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6257156120081098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21966446103480347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,easterninside32,2019/03/22,"Who has switched from Risperdal to Abilify? I've been on Risperdal, .75mg for 2 years now. It helps with intrusive, obsessive thoughts, and helps keep me from talking to myself outloud. It doesn't eliminate them but makes them more manageable. I don't like the sexual side effects and have heard good things about Ability for my symptoms so I spoke with a doctor and am starting Abilify tonight. For one's who have made the switch, how did you do it? Did you taper off the risperdal or go cold turkey? How did you like Abilify when compared to Risperdal? I will be starting at 5 mg, I'd like to keep it at that dosage. &#x200B;",3.113402203856752,5.610419066115703,3.0681198347107457,91.02521005509644,77.34710743801655,7.008539944903582,29.09159779614325,8.07648339933343,2.013082093663912,501,23,100,9,12,151,81,121,0.094,0.821,0.085,-0.2941,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,3,2,1,6,5,0,1,4,0,13,2,0,5,0,15,23,9,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,2,2,0,0,8,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,8,3,11,4,16,13,1,12,0,0,0,0,12,5,0,1,9,64,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403436442534063,0.2695375609619689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270438384711477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12606634464294286,0.18605345962630854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29736472659955104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943305150172521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32511253243934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20989299044867585,0.14806766100613536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15031207779255545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31401298392455657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305576083461176,0.0,0.17829182435162888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473684349391424,0.0,0.0,0.17610159710760848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695375609619689,0.14284585750221934 schizophrenia,Kutx4u,2019/03/22,"Can hearing voices benefit you? I've thought about this for awhile and I think my voices are my subconscious or at least a part of it I at first started hearing voices after a loss that's when it was at its peak uncontrollable and scary but they helped me solve problems and since my voices are basically me they helped me figure out what I needed and who I really was and once I accepted them (even tho one of them constantly told me to do some horrific thing) I accepted my self and I really knew who I was and they dont speak as much after I've accepted them, a part of me misses them I can talk to them whenever I want but it's not the same but I believe that they helped me alot even tho at times i just wanted them to go away they gave me comfort made me forget how lonely I felt and I think the next time I go through some traumatic experience or problem in my life they will be there to help, so in a way for me at least I consider my voices as a really cool coping mechanism ",3.301333333333332,4.37770687317073,4.878536585365853,84.42772357723578,72.95121951219512,8.783739837398375,24.88617886178861,9.21078282632365,1.8060178861788607,779,23,167,17,15,263,108,205,0.147,0.742,0.11,-0.8723,0,2,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,12,2,10,12,0,1,8,1,11,1,0,2,0,37,28,20,0,5,7,0,1,0,0,1,1,8,0,1,11,9,0,0,9,0,0,2,2,6,0,2,9,10,44,6,24,17,9,21,0,3,0,0,26,9,0,5,9,131,55,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13315526993670218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596755031350601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15315433847021653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16610060349079098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18721600551125156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13863421067803344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13607819186146874,0.0,0.0,0.1205511828456445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16109112734775194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3194686716681501,0.0,0.3799810264750093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010453409867093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13410358866806765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418415637306028,0.10508726577170067,0.0,0.0,0.15072610813327345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150932462343646,0.0960365041683678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069486522389361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712233022987598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723779250005365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785004758205805,0.0,0.0,0.11723635560979015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003136596954349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391315843668777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09415576927790784,0.18162326996288602,0.0,0.11251379139353952,0.16528193365009386,0.0,0.0,0.13542427756640474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16718611267185846,0.11249468047862908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BlackenLetter,2019/03/22,"Where’s the line between me being supportive and pushy towards my partner who still has symptoms on medication? I hope this post is allowed. My partner was diagnosed with schizophrenia a few years ago, following an psychotic episode in which he had positive symptoms: he began hearing voices and experiencing delusions and paranoia. This episode happened before we met. He has been on Zyprexa since the episode and the paranoia and delusions have gone away completely, but he still has auditory hallucinations. He told me he used to hear 4 different voices, but since starting the Zyprexa it has reduced to only one voice, but she refers to herself in plural form. He says he hears this voice every day, usually when he’s alone, especially in the shower. It worries me that he still has the auditory hallucinations. He has previously been on Risperidone but told me he had some adverse side effects, so he doesn’t want to talk to his doctor about adding any other medication because he thinks he’ll have bad side effects again. He told me he had told his psychiatrist the voices are gone, even though they aren’t. I haven’t pushed it because I’m trying to respect his decision, but part of me still has questions. Is it realistic to think adding another medication could help the hallucinations go away completely? Am I overstepping by worrying about it or trying to encourage him to be open with his psychiatrist? And looking to the future - I love him dearly and we are planning on getting married. What will his future look like? Is it only going to get worse from here? I am a therapist and have worked with clients with schizophrenia, but I feel like everything I thought I knew about it went out the window when I started dating him and getting such an intimate window into what’s going on in his head. I would never have known he had this dx if he hadn’t told me, and when I started doing research online to see how I could support him the best, all the advice I found was extremely negative and basically “leave him while you still can” which is not at all helpful. He is pretty open with me about this stuff, but I also have to be careful because I tend to switch out of “partner” mode and into “therapist” mode when we talk about it. I want to be a supportive partner, but I’m not sure where the line between supportive and pushy is. 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Figured I go ahead and introduce myself instead of lurking. So hi everyone!,3.917179487179485,7.018460461538464,5.490000000000002,71.13833333333336,79.0,8.082051282051282,39.43589743589744,8.841846274778883,4.6594512820512834,116,8,17,3,3,39,24,26,0.156,0.8440000000000001,0.0,-0.4389,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,2,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5098454414932685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4462406076898495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3972318262092444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654081079585418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4510336274061928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33054655536289473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shogunmaeve7,2019/03/22,"Any Borderlines or “previous” BPD suffers? Howdy all :) I was diagnosed in 2017 with Borderline Personality Disorder. I have regularly been seeing my Community Mental Health Team, Drs etc. When I saw my GP this week, I check in with her monthly, we were talking about stuff & she asked if I had ever been diagnosed as schizophrenic ... and to mention everything I told her at my next appointment at the hospital (next week). My question is; Is there any one who has BPD & Schizophrenia? or, previously diagnosed with BPD but it was changed to Schizophrenia? or has BPD with Schizophrenic symptoms? Thank you for any answers or insight. And to everyone who reads this, please try to take care of yourself x ",5.045618279569894,7.9374947983871,5.2835483870967765,75.58698924731183,72.79032258064517,9.617204301075267,33.72043010752688,9.928628108626363,4.086362365591398,561,29,93,17,12,177,85,124,0.03,0.8640000000000001,0.107,0.9011,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,1,0,1,4,3,0,0,1,0,11,8,0,0,2,18,18,10,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,1,6,7,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,8,2,15,2,16,10,2,11,0,1,2,0,14,4,0,6,7,63,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25422118364716106,0.0,0.23933436431630165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10967354915326676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5910157911048807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11961030901122567,0.0,0.12410355674782028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35721631229846595,0.0,0.0,0.13445298269396894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13083706941757542,0.0,0.10611799894672716,0.0,0.1120993673528332,0.105435023389983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12470020050615176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182257768547438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09363959465621426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495313494585141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07949557903141018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10243480267011967,0.0,0.1287764771852353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13141948165613945,0.0,0.11734659786048322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09348474727928678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13429743682900291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193504903090005,0.08820616778508987,0.09429323326206586,0.0,0.10800775286545113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120993673528332,0.0,0.07964908294126782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18820579397129086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,leaves27,2019/03/22,"Am I schizo? Iv'e noticed loss of cognitive abilities and disorganized thoughts since my sophmore year and I didn't know what it was so I orginally thought it was my brother smoking weed in the house, bad posture, and menningitis all of which are pretty much incredible because I got a neck x ray which came back normal, and I didn't have mennigitis and the weed thing doesn't make too much sense logically. But even now when I'm around weed it's very hard for me to think and when I hunch I get dizzy and very disoriented and cannot concentrate or think well. This leads me to believe i'm imagining these symptoms kinda like charles mcgill from better call saul, and I'm really scared. It got really bad today even though I was feeling better, then it suddenly got very bad and I was contemplating sucidie but I didn't because I didn't have enough money to buy rope at home depot. I could hang myself with a belt but then my mom would find me, and I can't really think of any other ways other than jumping off a cell tower which I imagine to be traumitizing. Can false beliefs of syptoms just be pychosis, and even if this is just phychosis what had been causing my mental deficits in the first place? I had a four point until junior year and now im failing a bunch of my classes and I took like four aps bc I thought I would get better if I worked hard. Im really sad. Im sorry that my post was bad and the main idea of it was kinda jumbled, I just want someone who might be expericing something similar to give me some insight.",4.071320028510336,5.5259844655737735,4.825017818959374,84.0886600142552,71.55737704918033,7.927298645759087,28.014967925873126,8.456263369488248,1.9193977191732,1222,45,243,20,23,394,173,305,0.11800000000000001,0.816,0.066,-0.9451,2,0,1,0,0,1,18.0,0,0,0,8,16,14,0,1,9,0,29,2,1,3,1,55,50,28,0,7,9,2,3,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,19,18,0,0,15,0,2,5,7,8,1,3,21,3,31,6,21,22,7,27,1,3,0,0,6,7,0,7,15,157,50,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0650653384100595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0851750368548446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07357162663986053,0.31955353118837,0.11665066564485325,0.0,0.0,0.10779802763981933,0.0,0.2538622172482439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09769946323568927,0.1094318543514614,0.0,0.09828919873416296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639229220932188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988624963226967,0.0,0.18958621460846226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04837842812913525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08744932615239813,0.08138493059524503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997717548450803,0.09178449117131114,0.0,0.0,0.2295709008136601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17142007046518154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597433592426527,0.0,0.0,0.11040129244708874,0.0,0.10801050506868642,0.3100508237605853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05258294888002511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934883377768022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06386680668121612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09642242811834444,0.10150082536955013,0.0,0.11205866957068587,0.0,0.0,0.1406708774712286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937455916016767,0.0,0.10893174059038324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09996470919296767,0.0,0.0904480502612596,0.0,0.09163450911010436,0.09734044504167258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451789411332895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579186712564372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914706798654163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106892664395644,0.0736587506569158,0.0,0.1071053626073014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09944763158320498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06356520580669932,0.1839226734009393,0.09400461923142236,0.2278764974532624,0.0,0.0,0.09069297489379508,0.0,0.10630344079050524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368368142131421,0.0564342458327841,0.07594593057465197,0.0,0.0,0.08602735773508438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06965581277553735,0.0,0.0,0.13593593785229874,0.0,0.0,0.12322891716279308 schizophrenia,simulated_mind69,2019/03/22,Energy Drink Addiction I've been addicted to energy drinks since I was 15 or 16 years old. I'm 29 now. Anyone else have this problem? I got schizophrenia at 21 so it's not just the illness. I've been drinking more of them since I got sick because of the medicated feeling. Do the energy drinks make schizophrenia worse and do they interfere with meds? Thanks. ,2.06246376811594,4.881972347826093,3.1333333333333364,86.25333333333334,86.3913043478261,7.12463768115942,23.608695652173914,8.167268648758528,1.8784608695652176,288,11,54,7,9,92,52,69,0.126,0.6990000000000001,0.17600000000000002,0.2006,0,0,4,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,6,9,0,1,0,9,12,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,1,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,1,5,1,5,7,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,3,28,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36707408117186535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11772109168869307,0.17250451822115564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026305757523079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6597140628618182,0.0,0.0,0.1406430153780912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08512777711875602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693054354067625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11238147857827943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870097916926092,0.16960479330880068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17666529638935505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16109759791140474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785379444398984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15500309052933495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17157302682126654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10841819588287033 schizophrenia,stereosoundsstrange2,2018/11/21,"Hello again I used to post here a lot about just anything really or just chat with people who were around, I used to have the tag space cadet. I decided to take my journey through life hardcore down the spiritual route and now I am one of those schizophrenics with all the conspiracy theories and shit? I'm building this basically like giant slideshow wall of images that describe everything I learned about life and schizophrenia and hearing things, intensely spiritual but I like to take a piece out of everything. Do you think this subreddit would lose their minds if a shitload of people showed up to make memes? I love schizophrenic memes and I want to get back into reddit and promote memes cause a lot of meme culture showed me that some non schizo people suffer just the same and we can all relate and understand through memes. I collect them a lot ill come back with some soon, im super disorganized. theres so much music and references to god mind control telepathy and the like I mean theres a lot of people out there who actually can start to understand what we go through. Like ours is more intense sure but people are starting to understand how much it sucks! I love it! lol",4.758456614509246,7.066848202702705,4.593869132290183,82.93768847795167,71.47747747747748,7.91692745376956,28.80132764343291,8.6894789155246,2.304636036036036,959,38,174,18,19,294,135,222,0.09,0.726,0.184,0.9758,2,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,3,1,2,4,17,12,2,0,11,1,9,8,1,6,3,55,30,16,0,3,7,0,0,4,0,1,5,1,0,0,11,20,0,1,8,3,0,3,0,4,0,1,1,1,19,8,29,28,13,20,0,2,0,2,14,9,2,8,11,121,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.11026892313366593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298703049001793,0.1005914246370073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17377567441920358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11607920456728316,0.0,0.09733704348284304,0.0,0.0,0.12673591754830926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20310911342674967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05903634964261675,0.0,0.06421888714245201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12735600594015142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12205631768654765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15962646443842146,0.22081880868313106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641491276515984,0.0,0.3842645610720044,0.20396868797707576,0.0,0.07542647832402384,0.0,0.0,0.12308702792246383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281898291348287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16613182092170636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07656979654044366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.391689997648181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082200390826592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07238887087780509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11598995567824018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599599356436528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649848121412417,0.0,0.16991959561041664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07507028873186535,0.07240401422612824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35290206988663136,0.0,0.19518652297740074,0.0,0.0,0.06664864960738741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08026993678461009,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tiny_sugarglider,2018/11/21,"Trippy patterns? Hi there, I wanted to ask if any of you have something like this. It's like I'm looking at something and everything slowly merges into weird, colourful patterns? I get it along with few ""regular"" hallucinations my psych knows about but I'm not sure if I should tell her about the patterns thing.",3.705057471264369,6.482628241379312,3.845517241379312,84.70954022988506,76.93103448275863,5.935632183908046,26.90804597701149,7.1686216300943375,1.4976459770114947,250,10,44,3,6,77,46,58,0.075,0.862,0.063,-0.1663,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,12,9,4,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,6,3,8,8,1,2,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,2,2,28,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22430787717025927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30836325233829043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964460161443628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17233190932686626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812757748879571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.322294037029838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27698915452608946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5078660435373001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3108777341272608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28830159578488923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21913628246321334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19455283245709284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,StoryPerhaps,2018/11/21,"Just wanted to say I just wanted to say that it's okay to feel good and thinking doesn't have to be a bad thing. I thought of some words that made me happy when I read them out loud to myself so I thought I'd share some of my thoughts with you. ""Yogurt makes you have a better day"" ""Even if I hadn't I woulda"" ""Maybe not right now but eventually soon"" ""What are even in my hands?"" ""It must be edible, I'm eating it"" ""Have you ever had a moment"" ""It's so that it did"" ""What is it I'm breathing?"" ""It's so a part of it that it couldn't even without"" ""You're a lot stronger than you think your are"" ""Well I'm happy that I did"" Anyway, they may be random statements, but I liked them so I thought I'd share. Have a wonderful Thanksgiving everyone!",1.0149865229110515,2.524817044025159,2.7172731356693625,95.80938679245286,79.81761006289308,5.800718778077267,19.53324348607368,6.5431188927421005,-0.12470206648697155,566,13,137,5,14,187,87,159,0.032,0.775,0.192,0.9742,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,5,3,1,15,10,0,0,6,1,18,3,2,2,2,32,33,9,0,5,7,0,2,1,0,2,0,3,0,0,17,3,1,0,9,1,0,0,5,1,1,0,9,5,21,9,13,18,4,9,0,0,0,0,12,3,0,7,7,99,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331743440535254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14106320626482413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10286315122469572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320648876381688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160411925748952,0.14427526341709945,0.0,0.15240737588577585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08064708793520217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13377953215919874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3395776232221366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07792276939503384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355996753975112,0.0,0.15092106388194526,0.10646629445694357,0.0,0.16023739110241392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17272101967268325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15954137361674978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13621060082641276,0.0,0.2536787585689862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596352425152132,0.20440002688044,0.0,0.5064950540744965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881523547679063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434080467760426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15375058382781484,0.17296900623842815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,notbingo,2018/11/21,"We don't talk anymore, but tonight I saw the moon and thought of you, my dearest color friend. I hope you remember me sometimes like I remember you. I'm sorry for the offtopic post, please do not delete it... :(",2.305243902439024,4.545214097560977,2.797743902439024,93.26051829268292,78.75609756097559,6.051219512195122,29.76219512195122,7.1686216300943375,1.6017268292682918,162,8,34,2,4,50,33,41,0.027000000000000003,0.5579999999999999,0.41600000000000004,0.9716,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,6,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,9,3,2,4,0,2,0,0,2,0,6,0,0,1,2,19,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26923442124833363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20974415920205636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26964010467765764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132631025892961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29800264178420466,0.0,0.0,0.26000203318379583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6150660317481611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684998739811447,0.3038987420047779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21820470033553294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155241630692496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,augboi666,2018/11/21,"Free bird 16. Been locked in treatment for 9 months. Lost my other account. Diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar. Finally free now. Come a long way. 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They wake you up in the middle of the night just to hear them say Welcome to the Hotel California ,4.9848275862068965,6.083604896551733,5.120172413793104,84.17956896551725,69.0,7.179310344827586,24.84482758620689,7.1686216300943375,0.9649172413793096,118,3,23,1,2,37,26,29,0.0,0.903,0.09699999999999999,0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,7,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,0,2,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4063280454044178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44160918325865295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4874350109784326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40585203338307424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3439244802741552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34537810833763405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,carnibas,2018/11/21,"first visual hallucination? help? so i just made a post about some weird symptoms i was having like an hour ago asking if they could be related to psychosis and uh i turned off my phone to go to sleep and i looked up at my ceiling and i saw crazy rotating patterns merging into shapes that kind of look like animals swooping down towards the corner of the room i'm in and i'm really scared?? i don't think i've ever fully hallucinated what am i supposed to do? will turning on my lights make it better? or will it just make things more vivid? does it work like that? i felt bugs on my neck too i think what do i do it's like 3 in the morning",0.787039800995025,3.0463270074626863,2.6880298507462723,91.70199502487564,84.8955223880597,5.364378109452738,20.127363184079602,6.742157984588678,0.25260855721393005,505,15,110,6,15,168,92,134,0.055,0.8190000000000001,0.126,0.8507,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,3,6,8,0,1,5,0,11,3,2,3,1,18,26,7,0,2,4,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,9,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,2,1,1,4,6,15,6,17,18,2,19,0,0,4,0,4,13,0,3,8,71,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612762915334202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700866602668174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16090860976023852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452619968702914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15921441172086054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645725534953097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746881798686689,0.0,0.0,0.15475563295079073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033990658033535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12194862562386675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17917142821295376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894595274691749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3555411740318333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30556274047717913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17215331492742056,0.24288889896958046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742454819799002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11655358659083168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18215080998586192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820685264846812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18910234435974446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12087094731561733,0.2331559379030537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957907137236343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13245240016718607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,StBluez,2018/11/21,"My Religion I can't seem to overcome the thought of being either Jesus Christ or else his rival, the Antichrist (or the Dajjal in Islam). I live with the belief that the Antichrist from the Bible and the Dajjal from the Quran are the same person. In the Quran, the Dajjal is described as having one eye and one arm.. I think the description of the Dajjal is actually hinting at what his name is because nobody would ever follow the Antichrist/Dajjal if he physically looked like the books described him. My name is Levi Ryan and I mess around with words a lot. For example, Levi could also be 'left eye' and Ryan could be 'right hand'.. which makes me feel like I truly am the man described in the book. The Quaran also says that the Dajjal will be 'sterile', not having any children.. I understand him as being a virgin.. Once again the play on the name Levi Ryan could also relate to the word 'virgin'... The Quaran also describes him as being reddy-white in complexion, so white that his skin has a red tinge to it.. which can also relate to the name Levi Ryan. Not to mention that the names of the two books are the Bible and the Quaran.. Bible = Levi Quaran = Ryan Aside from the books, I also feel as if my name already spans the entire globe in terms of the 'leaves' on the trees and the 'rain' in the sky.. There's also the television and radio.. I could go on and on.. What do you guys think about this? 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Have been on haloperidol for 65 days now. It has been wonderful in giving me a clear head and taking away delusional thinking and paranoia, but I can't tell whether it's causing negative symptoms to be worse or if those negative symptoms are caused by concurrent depression. Basically I have probably the worst anhedonia and apathy I've ever had, and have a heavy inclination to be antisocial. Everything is blunted. At first it was really nice to have my emotions blunted, but now I'm just flat and empty the whole time. I'm hoping to see the doctor on Monday. I'm on a very low dose of haloperidol so I expect they're probably going to tell me it's a schizoaffective thing, but I am very tempted to try stopping the medication in case it makes me feel better. Has anyone had a similar experience?",6.286363636363635,7.817780114649682,7.262987840185293,68.41187608569774,66.32484076433121,10.804632310364797,35.928778228141276,10.832165505486646,4.473247133757964,686,34,111,20,11,230,104,157,0.21600000000000005,0.6859999999999999,0.098,-0.9723,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,5,6,0,0,9,0,17,7,1,4,2,26,29,13,0,3,7,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,7,6,0,1,5,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,5,2,8,3,17,22,2,18,0,2,1,0,3,9,0,4,8,80,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11011067173673754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479536050138247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13927446054035228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32354184751938425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10155879960225032,0.0,0.13563359064937386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16118305294416824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17713896814421276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14244578734450902,0.0,0.0,0.1415290061020893,0.15404145294295604,0.0,0.0,0.07962444611700632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13394875095197142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510650418847649,0.08949706999268961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16161550112112028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15640890349115624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051162533367049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15864020162494213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33957088078911857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088296655268583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12548774536905416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13165673745680126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32735509972850946,0.11840212917223035,0.0,0.27528140765576337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046198584865518,0.10090407070701032,0.0,0.0,0.09182534772679993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10691566410456628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598678912772253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17581599655284208,0.0,0.0,0.17077568043386449,0.0,0.0,0.16048119299771574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GuljutaGharghur,2018/11/21,"I'd like some answers if possible. &#x200B; My mother is abusive to me and my father denies/ignores/justifies it. My mother is a horrible person all around, picking fights with everyone, thinking everything that is directed at her is a threat, and calling people worthless and stupid. She likes to pick on everyone, but mostly me and her mother. I’ve suspected for a long time that she’s mentally/neurologically ill. For as long as I remember my mother displayed strange symptoms where I didn’t think them as abnormal until I grew out of childhood. Because nobody mentioned them ever. She whispers to herself, makes hand gestures as if she’s in conversation with someone, during which her eyes roll upwards or just stare into the distance. It’s fucking creepy. She also sometimes bursts out into a run around the house, still whispering to herself and making weird hand gestures. She does these things often, but she can control her symptoms to an extent. It takes calling her names 3 times to snap her out of it. I still see her do the hand gestures and the whispering when she’s in public, even at family gatherings. I have seen her once burst out into a run in public. The times when she most controls it is when she’s in the presence of my father. My grandmother implied that the symptoms might have been present from when she was at least 12 because she remembers her jumping up and down in her room all the time which very much annoyed her. Now she said jumping, but I suspect it was running. Take note that she’s diabetic and she takes medication where I don’t if they’re all diabetic-related. My family likes to put their heads in the sand and insist that her strange symptoms are solely a result of her diabetes or the medication of it. I always knew it wasn’t true. I recently found out while snooping that she’s taking Paliperidone, which says it’s used to treat schizophrenia and schizo-affective disorder. Is this proof that she 100% schizophrenic or has schizoaffective disorder? Is the medication used to treat something else? I also read it is used to treat Autism spectrum disorder sometimes but it's almost never prescribed to adults.",6.163611062489058,7.988306710659899,6.090854192193245,75.59271573604062,66.91878172588832,8.886259408366882,33.890775424470505,9.314750747691287,3.3428574479257835,1740,80,284,34,29,547,201,394,0.106,0.81,0.085,-0.5539999999999999,0,0,1,0,1,0,45.0,0,0,3,2,17,14,5,0,18,0,21,17,5,10,7,66,38,32,0,3,11,6,4,3,0,1,11,5,1,2,24,22,0,2,9,1,0,7,4,7,0,0,9,13,54,7,48,28,9,52,0,1,4,1,54,25,1,12,23,210,78,1,0.0,0.10310407297328868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713762411814824,0.0,0.0,0.13917918865981213,0.07240733193535243,0.09428577022225627,0.10573841724864924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15493190144318952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609275968832707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17771361384768666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951999065304322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299196223936442,0.0,0.07615149489418381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269376364194265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057475667756902125,0.07871426858765225,0.0,0.16630203731501758,0.07820766346933157,0.0,0.16406879043929945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09541257067279774,0.0,0.08044827769335576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930728103884683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004090094481727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275402377507098,0.0,0.0,0.1540193296185248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161726036595499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629894714114133,0.0,0.092314112521943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06396946608148066,0.0,0.06711492992070638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267310276923073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060328478626184186,0.07598221461136623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09810159687559816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747879790133932,0.0,0.0,0.08704321334285935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08592142064789594,0.0,0.19715263301176392,0.0,0.08277562832375256,0.06920152999219807,0.0,0.0,0.06934340620090937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0737314794140428,0.06699198919428853,0.17212934672478847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13898803309216765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3617870029564039,0.2617118321504957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05781199847346735,0.11151737473302308,0.0,0.0,0.20296746485428485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254711516172925,0.0,0.0718003367197887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573841724864924,0.0 schizophrenia,Mortysauce,2018/11/21,About to be a dad I feel hyper realistically drawn with so many edges as I'm waiting for my first daughter to be born and while I'm waiting the bugs need to crawl under my skin. Nothing seems right right now.,3.919457364341088,4.8339268372093045,4.81860465116279,86.0448062015504,71.32558139534885,6.663565891472868,25.96124031007752,6.42735559955562,0.7419984496124029,166,5,36,1,3,54,34,43,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,7,9,4,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,8,7,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,4,20,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18812989217934387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164827550212617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772208233744436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275885367559303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3570114288847612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6354919018959724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.338718771390687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,timewraith303,2018/11/21,"Help with my relationship woes with someone suffering from mental illnesses (wall of text) Hello everyone, I need some help/advice with figuring out a relationship with someone with schizophrenia, some of the details are nsfw, you've been warned. That said let me start my story with a description of me and the girl in question. Me: 23, male, just recently graduated college, trying to get my life in order and get a career started. Her: 19, female, diagnosed with depression, anxiety, schizophrenia (She mentioned this in passing, I haven't asked her directly what ""variety"" I guess you'd call it but from what I can tell it's a disassociation from reality) she is on medication for all 3 as far as I know, or at least depression and Schizophrenia, she also has bad eyesight and has prescription glasses for that. Didn't graduate highschool but got a GED and is attending community college where she lives currently but is having trouble academically, doesn't have a driver's license, doesn't have any idea where she wants to go in life (other than half joking about living in a box under a bridge). if you don't care about reading the blow by blow of the relationship woes between us so far skip the next section (honestly reading it again Idk why I included it but it took a while to type out so ehh). ------------------------------------- I originally met her on tinder the summer of 2017, she was my first relationship and I was her first non abusive relationship(? guys she dated in highschool were apparently pretty shitty, abuse is a strong word, but she said she was comfortable with me, we took things slow in the beginning). we went trough the whole puppy love phase where we'd see each other for a few hours a week because she lived an hour+ away, things were fine until I told her about how I didn't know if I'd be able to come see her on weekends when I moved back to college because it would be 6 hours round trip on the same day, as I (probably) wouldn't be allowed nor feel comfortable sleeping on the couch or something at her parents house. A couple dates after that she kinda blew off hanging out with me, we'd still talk but anytime I'd suggest hanging out she'd go dark, during the summer I was working an internship with flexible hours so I got into the habit of working an extra hour 4 days a week and then having a half day one day(usually wednesday to help break up the week for me) to go see her as she was usually doing stuff with her family on the weekends and so I had to time to practice riding the motorcycle I'd just bought. So anyway, after about a month-ish of her blowing me off she finally wanted to hang out, so I do the usual that wednesday, leave work early and head to her, I text her when I'm about 10 minutes from her house cause she'd usually wait outside for me to pull up, no answer, whatever I get there, still no response, I drive around aimlessly for 15 minutes... 30 minutes.... 45 minute.... I get pretty angry but at the same time I'm on the verge of crying. I pull off the road and text her a long angry rant about how she's been blowing me off and I don't think I deserve to be treated that way and in no uncertain terms I'm breaking up with her, she finally replies when I start heading back home, thinking back I wished she hadn't, that she'd just completely ghosted me. She says she understands and that she's been having anxiety about me going back to college, at this point I feel like such a shitty person, I ask her, then why doesn't she hate me, why is she still talking to me, etc... We cut contact for like 3 months, I go back to college, I still had her on snapchat and occasionally looked at her story, at some point I messaged her about something funny she posted, we start talking again for a few months, eventually she moves like all the way across the country (longitudinally) with her family because her dad's job, we talk off and on every couple months, sparse messages, lots of her leaving me on read admittedly, as it was mostly me starting the conversations, I don't know why but I guess I still had feelings for her, not to mention she was the only girl I'd dated and dating for guys sucked at my college (stem school, ratio was probably 4 guys to 1 girl), not that I know how to approach women in person, not to mention I was pretty much in ""study, ride my motorcycle, and play video games"" mode where those 3 things occupied 90% of my time. Then, a couple weeks ago I'm at a low point, the last message I sent was left on read, I send her a message asking her to please just block me so I have a definitive answer and some closure, she responds apologizing and saying that she's just been stressed and busy trying to stay afloat in school, again I feel like an asshole now. I say sorry I didn't mean to get mad I'm just at a low point, I ask her how life is, it comes out the she's moving back to this state, about 2 hours away (one way) from me to live with her older brother (she says to save up for school but later says that her parents are willing to pay for school), we talk some more, we talk about possibly hanging out (tbh I brought it up, again, low point, all my friends from college were far away and I just wanted someone that wasn't blood related and ""obligated"" to hang out with me, among other things) she liked the idea, we talk more an more. she brings up sexual fantasies, when we dated last summer, she was sexually submissive but also aggressive about taking the relationship further physically, now we are talking about that stuff again, stupid horny idiot that I am, I indulge her fantasies, I go along with it, I take the role she wants me to take, the conversation gets pretty heated, at this point we're talking about the a relationship again like it's absolutely gonna happen. then stuff happens with the brother that she was gonna live with, he's in legal trouble concerning operating a motorcycle without a proper endorsement, plans become unstable but still tentative, and that catches you up to pretty much current events. --------------------------- now let me explain how I feel about this girl, I like her; physically, **hell** yes, I think she is so freaking cute and sexy and just, ughhhh, and for whatever reason she also finds me attractive; hobby wise we have some similar interests like anime, video games, the beach, basic stuff like that but also some disconnects but that's fine; personality wise she is the complete opposite of me which to me and to her is part of the attraction (something something opposites attract), I'm usually (outwardly) calm and rational, she's spontaneous and aloof, almost too spontaneous at times, which may be in part because of her mental issues as she seems to be very impulse driven at times, where she ignores reality (or disassociates I guess) and I sometimes have to talk her down from crazy stuff, nothing serious so far; sexually, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't picking up what she's putting down when we talk about fantasies and sub dom stuff; life goals and future wise is the most iffy part, a relationship might put me in a position to help guide her in the right direction, help her get through college, help her become a financially independent person as I don't want her to be financially dependent on me, or anyone, for my sake and hers, and so she isn't stranded should the relationship end. the problem is that she struggles with academic work, and she is constantly putting herself down saying she's dumb, etc... which I always shut down and tell her she's not, I've read the whole ""those who suffer from schizophrenia have lower iq's"" stuff, idk the exact details about her mental issues, and the illness may contribute to her airheadedness, but she doesn't seem any less capable than a normal person except for **horribly** low self confidence like I mentioned. -------------- I'm sorry if I'm vastly misunderstanding the illness(es) but here are my questions to you all -Is a stable relationship possible. -Is financial success for her possible, ie will she be able to finish college, work a skill based job, can I help get her on track without sidelining/derailing my own career in the process/how much work will it take on my part. -A big part of becoming independent in america is driving, especially in my state, she has prescription eyeglasses that help a lot ie make her not legally blind, but she says she gets anxious driving a car going above 45 mph, and her parents haven't been teaching her how to drive much at all, and now the state she lives in is snowing so driving practice isn't a good idea. That said, do you think she could overcome the anxiety and be able to drive herself to a job or to me instead of me driving 4 hours to pick her up all the time, given enough practice? I know those 3 questions are subjective and heavily dependent on the person, so maybe not ""is it possible"" but more ""what steps can be taken to make it happen"". I guess what it comes down to is how independent can she become given all those circumstances, I know that's not something that can be answered exactly but if anyone has experience conquering those hurdles insight would be appreciated, or any other comments you think are necessary for me to hear. I'm confused and anxious and I don't know what to do, whether to tell her to stay where she is and finish school, whether to get back together, whether to continue to indulge her and myself, everything, I'm not sure if the head in my pants is holding the reigns or what. I realize I might be a piece of shit and probably sound selfish for being concerned for my own life goals along with hers.",6.380452298936646,6.796688560131803,6.6773655334231945,76.67464048225251,65.65019220208677,9.762949428386005,32.974095152513605,9.642632912329526,3.020871674903898,7552,299,1404,143,110,2440,623,1821,0.111,0.789,0.1,-0.8946,11,0,5,0,1,0,317.0,15,6,0,16,88,67,10,4,93,1,126,17,6,20,10,258,240,122,1,20,53,6,6,10,1,13,10,13,2,16,73,94,0,4,37,17,2,47,34,32,0,6,47,24,239,35,235,156,49,279,1,10,6,1,232,114,4,43,116,982,312,44,0.08292078935112057,0.0654983840488404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02700974522158789,0.024501425535210862,0.0,0.02767773088398064,0.0,0.0,0.0884156337141801,0.02299891312869009,0.0,0.0,0.05638898023378931,0.0,0.06343417688942604,0.06245125966830568,0.0,0.0386534292791252,0.0,0.0,0.02460569425024587,0.10335965941271803,0.0,0.07790681118084708,0.14877559343767754,0.023078465168166862,0.06739699139400286,0.12210599611034602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028223799009178523,0.0,0.028181090374793445,0.028394164082089376,0.0,0.07142891771752258,0.057960580000408574,0.029869305046153233,0.0,0.02206850099027695,0.09175027623839488,0.030361531147301564,0.07130273235430072,0.0,0.04761303624206484,0.028054285240827984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0244810690569561,0.02855978050796665,0.06165239949816988,0.0,0.0,0.02328811379087945,0.02641145590578548,0.024841286235141417,0.027037481079128053,0.05211356029264719,0.0,0.06987873764478973,0.039492418987198435,0.0,0.06055711439865994,0.025262699743387917,0.04702158737463885,0.0,0.0,0.021354798719588067,0.0,0.14440896668863967,0.0,0.10996018949669202,0.023183341319172025,0.044212886801571934,0.0,0.12179546405694958,0.0821046182455399,0.07332658017308367,0.0,0.0,0.02728903744672927,0.08510065252255666,0.0,0.031152585366039136,0.0,0.14821348588488906,0.0,0.027725437555693188,0.0,0.19054064024290598,0.06378630516860256,0.0,0.09360747802424577,0.0,0.057698507056769474,0.08228608854329224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10633256027657714,0.045061007074326434,0.0,0.05853409540402245,0.03003122675098255,0.056528083444588775,0.097615676296291,0.13503636395367558,0.0,0.14644115235264948,0.02446076307022467,0.02321085964016336,0.0,0.0,0.0469975265538896,0.0249464166110504,0.0,0.03690018052156982,0.0,0.027768359404936712,0.030108349555250175,0.0,0.02784465718725597,0.08356465248813147,0.058643902425237315,0.0,0.0,0.08824877726611798,0.08813167625220737,0.08127509488183987,0.020494904872783045,0.0,0.0,0.029395733396920577,0.0,0.02708158927116536,0.02652157792281869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03745951524747672,0.021021665618467043,0.0,0.0,0.0920737235605995,0.149658557158884,0.0,0.0,0.14480646971490646,0.0,0.030340708687275838,0.1567738966090866,0.12464097455446035,0.026471731591699948,0.1406004222199539,0.08940263567650095,0.02644799890393609,0.0,0.08335829617357439,0.09289026138740072,0.0,0.13823871482392275,0.0,0.0,0.028418793963638774,0.027291425281888885,0.29675298507993925,0.0,0.02360463367812046,0.10516887912348168,0.15386452640718765,0.0,0.13986710958832824,0.06607713332205471,0.05032531489214162,0.0288348225484684,0.0,0.028372332888387825,0.0,0.0,0.02766022458450176,0.0,0.07025851572907227,0.10639412464287533,0.0273369269824506,0.06188202323571002,0.0978196024894728,0.05892168565746987,0.13244129897791024,0.0,0.031661828013868604,0.028895604354459776,0.221490418757988,0.0,0.0,0.026050620878732725,0.0,0.08312815196330678,0.244378161488104,0.0724764247746157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0734518505321732,0.0885538227024541,0.0,0.0,0.09670355820392447,0.0,0.0,0.02641145590578548,0.06141869868041067,0.03753184860389629,0.0,0.0,0.02877448869107262,0.033247833273964515,0.0,0.1217673793458398,0.022806111794085676,0.08151471660476989,0.06581866294187573,0.08868540735007928,0.0,0.0,0.02562280082544273,0.09976415318087656,0.061718733358946586,0.0317849384960162,0.05328845459947451,0.0,0.12073464445890103,0.0,0.0,0.03926969976090878,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jurkmynurk,2018/11/21,"Evaluation confusion First time poster, been a lurker for a while. I'm in the midst of my diagnosis right now. My therapist and I believe it's schizoaffective depression type plus some issues from suffering horrible trauma. I have frequent hallucinations, especially during stressful times. I suffer from horrible paranoia and delusions, especially of reality not ""real"" and my husband or other people close to are just copies of the true people and they are out to get me. I had a breakdown over weekend and talked to my therapist today to get some medication. I brought it up with my psychiatrist who is doing my evaluation and he said no, hold off right now because he instead thinks I have frontal lobe damage and wants me to see a neurologist first?? I dont think I can make it another six months without antipsychotics. I seriously listened to my radiators screaming to set them free and to kill my husband all sunday night and I had work the next morning. I cant take the fear of ""dont go out there or it will get you"" every single day. Or freaking out about if everything is real or not, questioning myself. I read my eval results today and my schizotypical was high, along with paranoia and depression. Schizophrenia itself wasnt. Also apparently one of my results were extremely high and atypical but was common with people with diagnosed psycopathology?? So I dont know what that means. I'm really confused right now because I've never had anyone mention anything about brain damage in all my years? Is it not schizophrenia? Do I have to suffer without meds even longer now? Has anyone else dealt with anything similar to this? 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And yeah, google got me here but in unprofessional opinion, can I get some answers? I've been seeing things. Mostly at night. Ive never been diagnosed with any type of night issues but have always had vision problems. But about 6 months ago I did a bad deed and smoked meth. Since then I cant do anything at night without seeing shadow people or bridges or overcrosses that arent there. I also hear music or radio voices in random sounds. A fishtank sounds like people talking on a radio show and a heater sounds like a song. Peoples voices and all Im sorry if Im in the wrong sub but from what ive read it all sounds close to it.",2.078267477203646,4.322144106382982,3.3179989868287763,89.21250000000002,79.56737588652483,5.163323201621076,20.00050658561297,6.1826913282559595,0.09461661600810567,553,14,110,4,14,179,97,141,0.138,0.78,0.08199999999999999,-0.8414,1,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,6,1,11,1,0,0,4,29,18,15,0,3,11,0,0,2,0,0,1,8,0,0,6,6,0,0,2,5,0,0,5,3,0,0,5,10,8,3,13,13,4,16,0,0,2,0,2,8,0,8,9,66,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14135956155093565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12752722487639798,0.13269090287614188,0.0,0.0,0.1084443231095211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122932032181595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331498737798862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16185758071787226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08331592047896771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12754185025254222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17973304460154085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34450756254032106,0.16644410440460325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15581690277157068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12728655771290873,0.0,0.0,0.11824417165773747,0.12299224967436545,0.0,0.0,0.4489522909192117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316669769796061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15272712871008676,0.0,0.0,0.15259020433677215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15951205850281455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541521398833168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319143252558072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785123820635177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15029755473840498,0.0,0.0,0.12817506442241094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10594405386138996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15372233274923666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17435421262427508,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nompron1,2018/11/21,"Being open about mental health Here in the UK there's a few campaigns encouraging people to be open about mental health issues, has anyone else noticed that if you are people begun to treat you like a leper? This year my family have decided not to invite me for Christmas despite being stable on medication, only one of my friends still talks to me and I've not even had an episode around any of them, people are just sacred.",11.95666666666667,7.929408370370375,10.964691358024693,64.54111111111112,57.88888888888889,12.77530864197531,38.111111111111114,9.725611199111238,3.6945851851851854,342,9,58,4,3,110,64,81,0.039,0.825,0.136,0.8544,0,0,0,1,0,0,5.0,0,2,1,0,8,4,0,0,4,0,8,3,0,0,0,9,8,2,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,7,4,12,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,1,4,44,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13684113406542067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14070246729440414,0.20618065110485514,0.0,0.17913452726281268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16809918246215974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13290841301037593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18969873176637067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15546733754068742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4277893875589568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21002851373074308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09830925709356518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027148452429598,0.40557859946566577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290980617693006,0.0,0.0,0.13635649714057171,0.15304205988024044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4185160085890594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160699993811688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16173849097437115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958347090993766 schizophrenia,hidden-blade,2019/02/02,"Severe Delusions?! I keep thinking that everyone sees me as a failure in terms of my friends and family. I used to be really bright as a kid and got excellent grades but am now doing nothing and am just a useless 19 year old. My mom is very disappointed in me as she raised three of us on her own and expected me to have an excellent academic career and go to University. This makes me feel worthless and as if I have nothing. When I get caught up in these feelings my mind then starts to resent her and sees her subconsciously as the cause of my depressing thoughts. I have some good friends but my relationships with them always break down because I only see the bad in them and that anything nice they ever did for me is only to get something in return. Furthermore I have severe fits of anger and it consumes me. I get violent toward my younger brother sometimes and consistently curse God in my head. This happens when my anxiety overtakes my ability to think straight. Now, going back and forth I can't trust my own thoughts and feelings. I'm finding it more and more difficult to distinguish the non-sensical thoughts and feelings from the real ones. Sorry to have gone on so long, just no where else to express myself and I can't afford therapy 🙄",6.825303571428571,7.046148637500004,6.9765476190476186,75.5775,64.70833333333334,10.357142857142858,36.30952380952381,10.125756701596842,3.6769523809523808,1003,46,183,21,14,323,144,240,0.20800000000000002,0.6829999999999999,0.109,-0.9838,1,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,3,3,10,17,3,0,8,0,14,1,1,3,1,41,40,27,0,2,5,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,7,16,0,1,11,0,0,4,3,9,0,2,7,8,35,8,32,32,6,32,0,4,4,0,15,14,0,2,13,133,42,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10413090863094593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09573580630805374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10298391274711234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09622900525831392,0.1044910920060389,0.07628740881775399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12855868836670267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077874571468229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10454283368149997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320108186793472,0.0,0.11958169007146675,0.0,0.0,0.11797584422581825,0.0,0.2531088805534309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438053024636892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19337388526657892,0.0,0.19614975061998308,0.0,0.1422459075280372,0.10496593396212513,0.10009012273935793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066556895534473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12843517463448853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11123488614962257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107496458661503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08353545458554125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263610706222217,0.1465686541924967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401605668908269,0.0,0.13131893288887972,0.0,0.084801689057397,0.19035726858381025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14244274078017186,0.08017127897359985,0.0,0.0,0.13435920994358572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991737867808366,0.0,0.0,0.282757118913393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634296029612184,0.12377189434701495,0.1400899092796131,0.08857848222784166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14311454861863612,0.0,0.0,0.16037610071664166,0.0,0.29805415039981664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505343782750011,0.10808535204205016,0.0,0.10325797267761293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080589465390521 schizophrenia,ALonelyTurtle97,2019/02/02,"Do you guys prefer to be in a light or dark room? To me, light is really exhausting so I prefer to be in the dark.",0.6492307692307691,1.37198930769231,4.003076923076924,89.51692307692308,79.0,8.276923076923078,16.846153846153847,8.841846274778883,0.5189846153846149,86,1,22,2,2,32,19,26,0.10800000000000001,0.892,0.0,-0.4201,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,5,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8395950468267734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5432128103643618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SomeTruthatYa,2019/02/02,"Hidelee Ho Hidelee He! What is this link, O where could it lead? &#x200B; [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SVi3-PrQ0pY](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SVi3-PrQ0pY)",27.228,35.90427980000001,3.666666666666668,77.68000000000005,51.0,4.666666666666667,31.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,1.8756666666666668,147,4,13,1,3,22,14,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,6,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.496390512317197,0.5566857754456438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3657845733685819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5566857754456438,0.0 schizophrenia,dudderson,2019/02/02,"Discriminated against by medical professionals because I’m SMI Ever since my mental illnesses went from “I’m able to hold down a job with minor help” to full blown SMI and Disability categorization, some doctors treat me differently. At 31ish, I went to a neurologist and he refused to even give me eye contact or talk to me. He spoke only to my sister as if I was a stupid child. When I spoke he barely listened and acted like my sister said it. I went to a sleep specialist and after their nurse aggressively argued with me over the correct way to spell my medications (I was right and she was then yelled at in front of me for changing the name on a whim of another case so they lost the file for a day), the doc asked me what mental illnesses I had. I told him and he put his hands up and said “WHOA. I better not make you mad! Haha” I never went back to either doctor. Has this happened to any of you?",4.674499999999998,5.4521221166666685,5.993333333333332,78.81000000000002,69.5,8.888888888888891,27.222222222222207,9.075114841892004,2.0178888888888893,711,22,143,13,12,240,118,180,0.105,0.807,0.08800000000000001,-0.5011,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,2,2,5,9,4,0,10,1,5,9,3,1,3,22,22,13,0,1,4,2,1,1,0,0,6,6,0,1,3,9,0,2,1,0,0,7,2,5,0,0,14,8,26,4,29,8,3,24,0,1,1,0,28,9,0,3,8,93,29,4,0.1406590593072604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095652983733606,0.14749328797297245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13149723287500825,0.0,0.0,0.10815813424171013,0.0,0.08574445700351853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244015074200612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14879863402139965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09071345681953913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695877922139966,0.0,0.2879410148713163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290398208526272,0.12723417202653756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13493298667988438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12438434161173333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09428080248793788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13958241231355342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06871891141400539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15354597907736814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09389101432309199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833984083370024,0.2835024968357914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848493789370878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697755294313514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140120489666475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12012206810035753,0.2675979520033597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635462738957805,0.0,0.1407606415976911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11305642380070655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13440575897964852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164861413780992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5215694287225736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,catiebayb,2019/02/02,"Does anyone else have issues with showering daily since their diagnosis? I (27,F) was diagnosed in Jan of 2018 so just about a year ago but I knew that their was something wrong for about 3 years before that. Anyways.. it wasn’t until about two years ago when I stopped showering daily (as most normal people do) and I started to take one about every three days or so and now at this stage of my mental illness I can regretfully and embarrassingly say that I shower just about once a week and I am a beautiful young 27 year old woman. I just get so lost in my mind and in the depression that I simply don’t care about my appearance since I very rarely leave the house and I lay in my bed practically all day long. My job affords me that “luxury” of not having to go anywhere and not having to lead a productive life at all. I am STUCK. In a cycle of depression and drug use and anxiety and total unhappiness. I also have a boyfriend who instead of helping me, makes me feel a MILLION times worse and says the most hurtful things I have ever heard anyone say. Unfortunately I am forced to stay with him at his home because I have NOWHERE else to go. 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Hey guys, I've only posted on here once and it was a bit ago. But I wanted to say something that I hope can help in some way and I'm sure there are some of you who may have also realized this as well. I read a scholarly article about schizophrenics and it turns out that their confidence is somehow directly connected to their symptoms. It was found that those who had a low confidence and low self esteem tend to have generally more intense symptoms and a tougher time maintaining a fairly healthy and normal life. Whereas those with a good confidence and high self esteem tend to have less intense symptoms and have an easier time managing a normal life. I've had my own personal moments where I was feeling like something wanted to pull the worst out of me. Like a force was there that was taking advantage of my illness to make the worst of my day and life. One day I finally stopped listening and challenged it, and basically told it in my mind ""why should I listen to you?"" and it stopped for a bit. I began taking my mind off of it and finding things that interested me. There have been times when I get this twisted feeling that starts to come out of seemingly nowhere, like this force is going in for another round. And sometimes if I'm away from my guitar I imagine myself doing something that brings me a little confidence and helps me keep my head up; I picture myself up on a stage playing music and it makes me feel good, and then that evil cloud will dissipate away. Its a really good feeling when I get it to go away. And that only helps further. I am by no means a professional psychiatrist or really have any say on these things, but basically what I'm saying is that if you have a vent or a special talent that keeps you feeling good about yourself, please stick to it. Whether its dancing, drawing, singing, painting, sculpting, creating, perfoming, helping others, casually smiling to strangers in public as you walk past them, asking to pet peoples dogs, anything creative or positive really. For me personally its all about positivity, self awareness, healthy skepticism, and confidence. Look for happiness in even the tiniest of places and stick to what makes you happy. But please do watch out for drugs.",7.898382858930247,7.863333299760196,7.525473881764152,73.40095401939321,62.52517985611511,10.801334584506307,37.315087060786155,10.374825546531014,3.8992624126785533,1794,80,314,37,23,567,211,417,0.046,0.716,0.23800000000000002,0.9975,0,0,4,0,0,0,42.0,0,6,3,2,14,25,2,0,19,0,26,10,1,3,2,68,63,35,0,8,9,0,6,3,0,3,9,5,1,6,38,26,0,4,11,8,0,7,1,6,1,1,11,13,36,19,51,49,10,52,0,2,3,0,30,26,0,11,19,221,74,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06922825909445768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06245412527089163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053108623252512636,0.0818914910699111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06426715878539825,0.0,0.07301013232327593,0.0,0.22012404551318515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17052334656340767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06727363156181891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10073218030666352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09056770059141847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05158231756748562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974408937110648,0.055792496848472144,0.0,0.08555142229537757,0.07137922325161954,0.0,0.0,0.08562930562530774,0.0,0.0,0.08160489557733824,0.0,0.08876862494170262,0.2620161601964643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07732828683220065,0.0,0.16627137105589726,0.0,0.0,0.08015003063763931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20938703316234492,0.08251374531637998,0.0,0.07756792089776522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13883236517159694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16548661596711098,0.11446271619001233,0.07827368899381214,0.0,0.0,0.06558179248244671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15639101819453655,0.0,0.0,0.08507050420074347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15771137012268846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15303691420400334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08317073300001172,0.05292053361095972,0.11879254224950266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745524025730684,0.05414261137462648,0.1363825380904313,0.08159472015065251,0.25718109002600753,0.0,0.0,0.07479531714085523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15623622475292048,0.0,0.15009277211510708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18631755500316632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710965558586909,0.2444165418203168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803686079323044,0.07723990839911242,0.0,0.05527744315061383,0.0,0.0,0.13058514149463918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07360547773731313,0.243517989524076,0.11743841667271634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10376832426140103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13661692812682374,0.0,0.0,0.07462500946648801,0.0,0.0,0.08494708619698818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09212724236010847,0.06198974619990736,0.0,0.0,0.07021856249433356,0.0,0.07047037564018056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NukularPower1200,2019/02/02,Social anxiety Is social anxiet in schizophrenia harder to cure than without schizophrenia ? I tried SSRI but they only working to some point.,6.3628985507246405,10.25053195652174,5.869565217391307,66.63594202898551,77.26086956521739,6.544927536231885,29.40579710144928,7.793537801064563,3.2029536231884066,117,5,12,2,3,36,20,23,0.06,0.94,0.0,-0.09,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,10,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682309365302573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666698615525305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314586172076797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.714846114991315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23805470633638154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33799474000544105,0.0,0.2552627648287254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,soft-cakes,2019/02/02,"Please help me... I’m so stuck. I’m here for support on my girlfriends behalf. I’m not entirely sure that she has schizophrenia or any of the subsets of it. But tonight she said the devil was talking to her and telling her to kill people. She called me for a bit, ended up harming herself really bad and got angry briefly... It terrifies me but I’m not leaving her side. I love her way too much. I just want to know how to help her when these issues come up. I’m not entirely sure what to say. I’m physically apart from her right now so it’s definitely more difficult to help her out. I’m a physically affectionate person. Can anyone please give me advice... or something... Do I let her ride it out? Is there a way to have her come back to being grounded? I love her so much....",0.8747749648382559,3.19425556329114,2.770042194092828,90.83694796061887,85.13924050632913,5.78959212376934,22.06891701828411,7.1686216300943375,0.7489102672292547,601,21,129,9,18,200,94,158,0.134,0.6659999999999999,0.2,0.9440000000000001,0,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,0,11,11,1,0,5,0,8,2,0,1,2,19,26,11,1,1,8,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,7,6,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,5,0,0,4,2,23,6,18,20,4,19,1,0,0,2,27,9,0,2,5,84,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148265389675168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031792298070976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609070369480007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166683207657386,0.12668529833181036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16564605223228762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15492973087598286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26139790737454394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13438465315449227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14554989397900486,0.0,0.0,0.12134955062552373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050972444328307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583630567831108,0.0,0.0,0.1678629032979631,0.0,0.08338492197234411,0.0,0.0,0.16065646664123995,0.0,0.15515063638592966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27387819836821303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22307288563223648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518805796975092,0.1324817362747404,0.0,0.33310029099750565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09719988756387303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12957361062513478,0.1443266561478042,0.12065901070569067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680648017898575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17217744564663606,0.28600088036212185,0.0,0.0,0.12195202153849174,0.13261565746379472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08949222676863576,0.2408668828951913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,damien_voidling,2019/02/02,"I think i might be schizophrenia As the title says i think i perhaps maybe possibly might maybe have schizophrenia, i took a psych class and i googled mental illnesses after hearing it on tv and or song i have all the symptoms that schizophrenias have, im a little paranoid, a little delusional, and a little apathetic, do you guys think im schizophrenia Is this schizophrenia im afraid it runs in my family despite my family being a collective cult of fat fucks who dont run and have diabetus but judge me for my personality quirks Yes this is how all those “diagnose me” posts look Tldr; this is satire ",5.0241228070175445,6.9816689561403535,5.4973684210526335,78.2099122807018,69.96491228070175,8.575438596491226,29.333333333333336,9.150863307647796,2.6350596491228067,487,19,86,10,9,156,72,114,0.067,0.898,0.034,-0.1045,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,7,1,13,5,1,1,2,14,20,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,2,8,4,1,0,3,2,0,3,1,2,0,0,1,4,13,0,6,15,2,10,0,0,1,1,6,5,1,3,1,56,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14580567988629975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16836129546810907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708482153274364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13280571144012174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422399416266233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619083805029877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4655125743203785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4319368271098471,0.0,0.0,0.12063309193328822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28863929254356074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14476933875283649,0.30478816305231204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12543304042781162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16194818260915814,0.13758072213788955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11423934342497208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14931140135950638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27614284694457103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15960476344263405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thatone80ssong,2019/02/02,"Finally went to a mental health clinic after putting my mental health on the back burner for years. I wasn’t officially diagnosed with Schizophrenia but I was put on Seroquel to deal with my extreme Paranoia about people tracking me or putting listening devices on me, just not trusting people in general and some other schizophrenia like symptoms. I just wanted to know if anyone here has been put on Seroquel and how it affected you guys. I’ve never taken medication for any type of mental health problem so I’m just pretty nervous. ",8.010312500000001,9.115562739583336,7.612500000000002,68.9825,62.22916666666666,9.316666666666668,37.875,9.2995712137729,3.9023875,437,21,63,7,6,138,70,96,0.13,0.7929999999999999,0.077,-0.5486,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,8,4,0,1,2,0,4,7,0,2,1,19,10,7,0,3,7,0,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,5,3,2,0,0,5,1,8,2,15,5,1,15,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,3,6,46,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09615185253603753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09886503045407656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087222224363101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576961661445814,0.0,0.1435105664065717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15488874003910916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14000095609713248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.450881334658327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07770570429924166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907730819059711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14243822254022198,0.4274716146639614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10905073050086486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19604772505801213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384715958062455,0.0,0.13529367333516978,0.0,0.5685546763290533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696110464812642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08339705004066214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13107240579526994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09105223273057307 schizophrenia,Faoutast,2019/02/02,"A week on Abilify My whole life has changed, for the better. It was like a sweet angel had come and pulled me out of the mud I was rolling around in. The voices in my head have slowed down and are very controlled, nothing like it had been. I hope everyone on this sub gets antipsychotics. It brought a tear to my eye the first night after it kicked in. A huge step in the direction I want to go. Thinking this will impair my work life, but now I feel the freedom to take charge and further my life.",2.9763613861386133,4.4435915247524775,3.2367202970297013,94.34339727722772,74.34653465346534,6.6341584158415845,24.506188118811878,7.1686216300943375,0.7264940594059404,388,12,87,4,8,119,69,101,0.0,0.825,0.175,0.9325,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,4,2,5,0,0,10,0,9,5,2,1,0,12,18,4,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,6,6,0,1,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,6,4,10,5,15,11,1,22,1,0,1,0,0,11,0,1,8,57,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19475983215756149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19349238402903504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23143933730518085,0.18845887032459244,0.0,0.0,0.2453794259213864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20905285853481728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11062131453531762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18609343779794524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430307890640118,0.0,0.12433723576679467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245305312018238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172970658256662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4635905625273513,0.21376888870772226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20530941681229103,0.0,0.2099245000880332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16449469743959896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14018484884870164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18051571559044008,0.1290416142121862,0.0,0.17549144188599575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442591139212749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15927383075961146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ceceliacat7,2019/10/28,"How can I hide halucinating from my coworkers. So I'm not diagnosed schizophrenic, but I do hallucinate. Auditory and visual. The other day I had an auditory hallucination at work and thought it was a customer so I turned to look in the direction I thought I heard it from. Apperently when this happened I spaced out for a second. My coworker said something like ""you okay or are you having a mental breakdown"" as a joke. But I really don't want anyone to know about this. So any advice about how to hide that you're halucinating or even just how to ignore the hallucinations would be great.",4.80720720720721,6.8558086396396405,6.3353153153153166,71.60855855855856,70.7117117117117,9.97837837837838,29.45045045045045,10.25414643259724,3.3437099099099115,473,19,85,14,9,161,76,111,0.076,0.797,0.127,0.8248,1,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,1,11,5,0,0,8,1,9,2,0,3,0,18,19,14,0,2,6,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,6,3,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,6,3,12,4,13,11,0,6,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,2,3,65,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519551257348962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17533785785227668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18028547759722924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662833983455225,0.0,0.0,0.2616989130132901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702987671575706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842659696818994,0.0,0.0,0.22800422064518214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14170035600328085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125966031073622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21651796457443884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25983883905492444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16517684906928126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452618299947548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984953566346445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4093872190087358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804523863056068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15207881824063949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877082529264724,0.0,0.0,0.18315985692681253,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ruiizuu,2019/10/28,"Unprofessional and rude doctor. Should I ask for a new one? Hi reddit. I really need help with this one. Right now I’m inpatient at a psychiatric hospital, after a long bad period. I’m diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia, but now they want to take a new test to be sure, which is fine. What’s not so good, is my psychiatrist. He’s pretty much an ass. At his point of view I’m not psychotic at all, even though the rest of the staff says I am. He said today to my face, that because I’m a young 20y/o woman, I probably like the attention that the nurses give me when something happens involuntary. AND IM LIKE WTF?? I have been belt and foot fixated, forced my pants down, shot medicine in my butt cheek, and can’t leave the hospital at all. I’m really not doing it for attention. This shit hunts my dreams already. He also found the time to tell me that if I really had delusions, I would say them to anyone, anytime. But I don’t. I don’t tell them to him because he would just say I made it up, or not take me serious. After he left today, I broke down crying. I feel so sad and frustrated. My question is; is it me who’s wrong? Or is it not just me who think it’s a bit rude to say when he only have seen me for under a hour? Sorry for my English, it’s not my first language.",1.8468944099378888,3.4803439248120327,3.825697940503435,88.23314645308928,77.796992481203,7.483229813664598,22.09153318077804,8.321376580360154,1.1138923177508988,988,28,219,19,23,336,149,266,0.20800000000000002,0.705,0.086,-0.9904,0,0,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,3,1,11,14,4,0,14,0,18,8,6,1,3,35,36,16,0,6,13,0,1,2,0,3,2,5,0,1,15,7,0,0,6,1,0,0,9,9,0,3,6,8,31,5,26,26,5,28,0,2,2,2,26,12,3,4,18,138,46,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13438713569518454,0.09738733318826866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515132987101166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11384775708323595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10168112051638924,0.14847177995676028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329520980088823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13376948965866145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360402382860775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246468765868621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08043446811205478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06157557092482675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10358591132194332,0.0,0.13352536251914554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11682236617593934,0.0,0.10214319303602803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10768955360628124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08162649254727616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11992865991633765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13154317759015988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12894731876069102,0.1323142056575602,0.0,0.0,0.1189910047935768,0.0,0.0,0.10777136952318038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11523107543051955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952223054525768,0.09029824458239374,0.0,0.23523155119550704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16504240886946064,0.09261909315160784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11512135778798473,0.0,0.0,0.12389392771337332,0.13129931744398296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13642134625080918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340459456236674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10399935976161936,0.11584056169686913,0.3873770222909277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250053059739253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937521081338638,0.0,0.13632261540311147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147761041211212,0.0,0.18312664157893624,0.0,0.21288198120066126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07803163557700675,0.1196481225742802,0.0,0.07101083256943139,0.0,0.2308661907348427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07182893370553625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730178781359815,0.13314719122976115,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,_nikkic,2019/10/28,"I think I need to be ina group home or dead I live with my gf but I feel like I'm making her life horrible with my paranoia,delusions, hallucinating, I put my self into a clinic and they just shrugged it off and sent me home after one day despite me not thinking I was ready and gave me no meds. Now I'm constantly having delusions and not sure she can handle being with me, I don't wanna make her my caretaker and make her responsible for taking care of me should i just move into group home or half way house cause I'm not sure i can take care of myself. I never really have it's always been a series of people helping, my first ex wife helped when we were together and made sure I was good but that's over and she was abusive, my mom helped emotionally and support wise but she dead. since I've just not done well alone. Its become apparent I can't be on on my own but I can't make her take care of me, I'm a burden I wanna help and do shit but most days I dont even know how to get out of bed, I domt know what to do but I can tell she's gonna leave if she has to care for me or deal with this and I dont want her to resent me. She loves me but she will get tired of me and I dont want her to hate me,I dont wanna be away from her either cause she's the only thing I kinda trust she's my home but I'm failing as a spouse,a person I dont know what to do here.",0.4647464940668833,1.8032909870550209,2.773656957928804,95.56063646170445,80.87702265372168,5.742826321467099,17.269687162891046,6.42735559955562,-0.4678966558791804,1061,18,267,9,27,364,153,309,0.182,0.665,0.153,-0.7789,1,1,0,0,0,1,16.0,1,0,1,2,9,19,3,0,5,0,29,5,1,8,4,66,63,26,2,8,20,3,1,1,1,3,3,0,5,2,8,19,0,0,6,0,0,3,14,5,1,3,9,1,58,14,33,47,3,20,0,1,0,1,35,8,1,6,9,177,66,1,0.0,0.09909572791238266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662232320378213,0.0,0.0,0.06959237455329396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857936523076987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09237008471841474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3410924656672337,0.17183571161573366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09038148249820713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787741205221876,0.08622569107865209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08558930854306808,0.4901075260843488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094079949407824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055241204051134266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0422891921568343,0.059750023811870175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07114127311921117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08739337239474458,0.0,0.0,0.07015043552071397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08257385488458571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22423947527076066,0.0,0.3355774291130005,0.0,0.0,0.09650543953589273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378935105182462,0.0,0.0,0.08855911296115634,0.0,0.0,0.05907502384197665,0.040860631830711015,0.0,0.07385267488885908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07548532223433868,0.0791389997385334,0.2233123947703271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290143926894387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979542079718794,0.0,0.08889249953442739,0.0,0.062015499965588264,0.06450572361000696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05667434372007873,0.06360942446578055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0579831070772262,0.07302827762448236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08407791181226434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05357976558642365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08725124355844165,0.0,0.08585179683366563,0.06918508302499315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09490985440650618,0.2364795965002044,0.0,0.18865300682851474,0.0,0.07310209937568418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055564459342765264,0.10718194834950744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612800053315244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866210038400812,0.06638686240545412,0.0,0.0,0.07519937299932147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nervistheilluminatu,2019/10/28,"Parents/therapist trying to shame me out of self-determination I’ve been on medicine for a year and I plan on going off as soon as I turn 18 (I’m 17) because of fears of long term side affects, and personal liberty (I don’t consent to my meds or therapy). I have never been a risk for self harm, harming others, destruction of property, or obvious mania (like in public, or shouting or something). I have never hallucinated and my only schizophrenic symptoms were some delusions a while back (I have not had them for half a year). My mom was talking about how I would just end up at the hospital (and then backtracked when I accused her of lying/denying me my rights during a therapy session) and my therapist told me that I was legally allowed to go off meds once I’m 18. What do you guys think I should do? I have an appointment with my psychiatrist in an hour, what should I tell her?",7.1572382787411675,6.349315231213873,7.867360308285162,72.89438664097625,64.31791907514452,11.157096981374435,37.71933204881182,10.504223727775694,3.920747463070008,697,32,132,15,9,234,110,173,0.114,0.835,0.05,-0.9144,2,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,1,1,6,7,1,3,8,0,16,2,0,3,3,24,23,15,0,3,6,1,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,3,4,7,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,6,0,1,7,1,25,1,24,13,2,26,0,0,0,0,12,11,0,5,14,98,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11814569146010137,0.0,0.09366228654529586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13608636572770402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17289651705476192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746431967903734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15213550084354194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15131215525736544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07506456506774845,0.0,0.0,0.1359734879799894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34133618695782025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17995047282745255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23700534574339244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16362991653931608,0.0,0.11685609271819546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415935221560582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13121440097716808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3205763766194137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11828560038570067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596989183748927,0.0,0.12349629972435025,0.13429496924838846,0.0,0.351419351351722,0.3567939288712348,0.0,0.09845132069057452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468170789206028,0.0,0.10431678583283464,0.16712470989848438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10914700479883023,0.0,0.0,0.1978883204165804 schizophrenia,sky0p,2019/10/28,"Thought broadcasting support I hope this is allowed. Seeing that there isn't one I've started a discussion subreddit called r/thoughtbroadcasting for people who believe to have thought broadcasting. I am in therapy. I don't have schizophrenia. But I've been living with so-called ""thought broadcasting"" for over 8 years through my schooling years to now and it nearly ruined my life. But with a lot of help my life is coming together finally. Mostly because I have accepted it. This has made my anxiety and shame a lot more manageable. But some days are low and I thought it'd be nice to have place to connect with others who understand.",5.965823754789278,8.058830448275861,5.6108045977011525,77.7924329501916,67.79310344827586,9.638314176245213,35.30268199233717,9.994966539143718,3.9031256704980852,516,26,87,13,9,159,75,116,0.08800000000000001,0.797,0.11599999999999999,0.4939,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,1,3,0,14,2,0,2,0,23,25,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,9,7,0,0,6,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,6,1,9,4,14,17,5,12,0,2,1,0,5,5,0,5,6,62,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13269090411766166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573520649368458,0.0,0.0,0.19542188892106171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17711468447164466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494142138646404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118626955463292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19000904530506216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626174411534652,0.0,0.0,0.17227775062810724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450296602676522,0.0,0.0,0.15316198505717785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29492670649450503,0.0,0.1641252170437196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117536094651184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202503198847651,0.0,0.18122124053333108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755434764444117,0.13821941092244602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277077245646775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19683216246756574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19835837374673412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5508085388701792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18057046408581864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22339581056262853 schizophrenia,Pasan_XeNO,2019/10/28,"Will college be hard? I mean I know it's going to be hard anyway but I got diagnosed recently and I'm about to enter college. Will being schizophrenic make my college life harder? I'm sorry if this is a dumb question; So many things has happened in my life the past few days and I'm pretty much having to cope with all that alone. Thanks.",0.6972463768115915,3.177667710144931,2.44927536231884,91.1576811594203,89.28985507246377,4.8057971014492775,19.26086956521739,6.42735559955562,0.24020000000000066,268,8,53,3,9,88,52,69,0.152,0.737,0.111,0.1803,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,0,8,4,0,1,1,10,18,5,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,5,1,6,12,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,3,34,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334079515162644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14534039743282345,0.0,0.0,0.22873855359904996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12807890377548836,0.0,0.1802432621365122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19928762807741987,0.0,0.4037617039460164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238535311570625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183608979937451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15043145543704836,0.22848256249652585,0.0,0.24548621607724355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656676287357528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21513434508326298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292750425678555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524579738982819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225186309701742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522752650300876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20748383808926932,0.0,0.0,0.14972106672541122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MissZoid,2019/10/28,"I don’t trust anyone in or near my house? I’m so uncomfortable about anyone knowing where I live or coming to my house, only one of my relatives is welcome to, but I prefer solitude so it is rare she’ll visit which I’m most comfortable with. I had a repair done in my house a couple of weeks ago & I was having a mental breakdown in my room. I believe these people were installing cameras & wires throughout my home. I could hear so many conversations, they were not nice people. I desperately have to get my house redecorated but I have put it off for SO long. How am I suppose to cope with people in my house? I know it won’t make a difference if I know the person or not. I don’t plan to stay at home but I don’t want to return to a place that doesn’t feel safe or homely after people have messed around with it. I don’t want my home to transform into some twisted, disconnected reality like their world is, after they’ve messed with it. This is my safe place",2.8476947236180905,4.364672547738697,4.3812280150753775,85.8039023241206,74.77889447236181,6.784045226130653,22.487751256281406,7.413659706084162,0.770479648241206,763,20,159,9,16,255,110,199,0.059000000000000004,0.807,0.135,0.9279999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,2,1,8,9,0,0,6,0,22,0,0,2,0,31,34,13,0,5,10,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,5,1,9,7,0,2,5,0,0,3,8,2,0,1,5,2,28,7,27,26,2,24,0,0,0,0,8,14,0,7,7,110,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09319511843823483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22782570783897654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470245441243876,0.0,0.0,0.09359172129030664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845023296795787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090563797836075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08394109806335652,0.1163289845930235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109842854750965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075887809948202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05315900678319019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054928276457833686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184938761490823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4218326697834683,0.0,0.0,0.6065537142300552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733370085153712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051363256044208265,0.0,0.09283541834551537,0.09304045220320564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07017789004068145,0.1065895699839473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10595053846546627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07124164990135974,0.07995929111416678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915472464924427,0.0917991218940126,0.21968570950193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056889019721394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11205906092151566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12402174163333307,0.0,0.0843323078269067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Semeteryqueen,2019/10/28,Strange Doctors visit I have been recently diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and during the doctors appointment he went on a tangent on how I could be seeing into a different realm to see demons or angels and then ended the appointment with “maybe none of this is real anyway”. I honestly can’t tell some times if I just attract weird people into my life or that didn’t happens for shit.,17.503333333333334,9.509998222222228,15.330555555555561,49.27000000000002,52.88888888888889,18.844444444444445,55.444444444444436,14.554592549557764,7.5907277777777775,320,14,49,8,2,103,59,72,0.134,0.7909999999999999,0.075,-0.5106,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,4,0,7,5,1,1,0,14,11,7,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,3,2,5,2,9,6,2,10,2,0,2,0,3,4,1,4,4,38,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18013296309816731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22899160800536586,0.0,0.23571670323538935,0.2585710980842724,0.4618472411877216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19982542135432174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995081008032273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15935655098485932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266577536095413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156411074567302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567960473571125,0.0,0.0,0.22276480425040351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35956738591891674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23158765497686595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971949847607828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13155627326843036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20914474606112532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shitanator,2019/10/28,"Post schizophrenia I had a full blown breakdown which led to paranoid schizophrenia during the last month of my final year in college as i was overworking and not getting enough sleep for a prolonged period of time in order to finish my submissions, and also the scope of my dissertation (selected by me, dumb decision on my part) was too big to complete in the assigned amount of time. During the episode, i cried and lashed out infront of many friends and acquaintances that i knew from in and around college whenever i felt like they were spying on me or were there to mock me through subliminal actions as i went ""crazy"" but that was due to my paranoia and i said stuff I wasn't supposed to and blocked myself off from them when they were genuinely concerned and only wanted to help. After college got over i went back to my hometown, i visited a psychiatrist and went for therapy to a psychologist who helped me a lot during the recovery process through medications and talk. As i had those paranoid thoughts a little early on during recovery, i got off all social media networks as i didn't want to answer anyone who were checking up on me on how i was doing and broke all contact with my friends as i felt so embarrassed for what i had said and done. The guilt kept on building up on me for a year as the thoughts and flashbacks of the episode would hit anytime. Finally after a year, i mustered up courage to finally call my friends to thank for their help and apologize for whatever i said and they were all happy that i was back to normal. Its been two years since the episode and still whenever i meet someone who i dealt with during my episode comes to meet me or i see them somewhere, those flashbacks haunt me again and again reminding me of the fragility of our mind and makes me feel so inferior, i dont know why.",10.805489152681126,7.694209739255013,9.6175296766271,70.51015042979944,59.05730659025788,12.836758084322556,44.12627916496111,10.7630783206399,4.629933933688089,1465,67,271,25,14,458,176,349,0.098,0.809,0.09300000000000001,0.2659,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,6,0,13,13,2,2,18,0,20,2,1,3,3,50,44,32,0,4,4,0,4,1,3,1,1,3,0,0,12,23,0,2,9,0,1,7,4,6,0,1,31,8,50,7,62,11,8,54,0,2,1,0,27,22,1,3,24,204,62,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08449285957300337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738769521836804,0.0,0.0,0.09405601166431947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16248548938568713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107886326710419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09101306726920047,0.11077803644037963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11605787256779634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10812250806681972,0.12382774401314145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917062616759426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05342271830383806,0.0,0.20289216479008546,0.3472221064143094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448880950520671,0.0,0.05520076498212723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690050991623751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11247250317493797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124564523879357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058065633263329225,0.08612353229875805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05161805919378719,0.10589481133118256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08982473448605569,0.0,0.0,0.07052602893977652,0.10711834016395297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10643704561058484,0.0,0.0,0.10668218144953323,0.0,0.08433340611615728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10352019538532577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08035595364655086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144148736844567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10118899593084173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30150841978771104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08419394794387032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08739952249654273,0.0,0.10573204639944664,0.10770272453406536,0.08952176825039003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437681290906526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12095054791768756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08492208412360552,0.0,0.0972736129362469,0.12082655020743716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16775771629751665,0.12321742690811816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032103086144875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12463698943532675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2938317970792019,0.09533787443497677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07505480847648614,0.0,0.0,0.2721553379494871 schizophrenia,dahlli,2019/10/28,"Venting about my relationship and paranoid thoughts. Today my boyfriend had 3 guys over to the house. One guy left early and the other 2 stayed till almost 4am. I don't trust either of them. Maybe I'm over analyzing things... But I really do watch people in my apartment. It's my first place and it's only been 2 months. Any eye movements I pick up on. I have meds so I watch to see if they look when I open that drawer. And one guy did which makes me think he has an interest. They pop pills and stuff so I'm probably not wrong to assume. But I am not ok right now. All because my bf let these guys into OUR ROOM, where I put my purse/money so that it wasn't in the main room because I worry someone will get handsy and steal. I'm so unbelievably pissed off. Now I'm so fucking worried about ANYONE coming over. I feel like these guys have a very good layout of my house and where we put things. My bf got too drunk and got showy. I fucking hate it. I'm so upset. I feel like my brain won't shut the fuck up and I just spent a good 30 minutes yelling at my bf about the things I didn't appreciate AT ALL. More happened but the whole room situation was my tipping point. I just need to know it's ok and I don't want people over anymore if he can't control it. Maybe I'm wrong. But I'm so scared to live in my own place now bc they know the address and layout and EVERYTHING. Even my bfs work schedule cuz they all work together. Idk. Idk. Sorry for the long vent/rant. I'm panicking a little lol.. To;dr... My bf had people I don't trust over to our place and now I'm freaking out because I'm worried they're gunna break in",0.2630769230769232,2.4140006231884072,2.054202898550724,96.09093645484951,86.2463768115942,4.813823857302118,18.411371237458194,6.163053881298487,-0.2965317725752503,1265,33,291,11,39,415,177,345,0.147,0.8029999999999999,0.05,-0.981,0,0,0,1,1,0,39.0,3,0,5,4,21,20,5,2,12,3,19,8,3,4,3,46,50,29,0,4,11,0,2,2,4,2,1,1,4,5,16,18,1,1,7,1,1,4,9,11,0,3,11,8,40,9,30,36,8,50,0,0,5,3,20,32,4,4,14,168,56,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08758925513998933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05948306477247897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08674741467998806,0.06116153620679157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599639516951968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09764621189034266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07534824927856207,0.0,0.0,0.09810581014473173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057773561976795625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07861301084167405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08845561229114154,0.12497814857962772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744025193197522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24259571425433735,0.0456998222896744,0.0,0.0,0.14673251982355934,0.1399165935521009,0.0,0.0,0.4330486475345609,0.07735003718627817,0.0,0.0,0.08635919156326907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20185885112003887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614320099117192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09503715434927933,0.08944470094310343,0.0,0.08546751599756773,0.08766860496952393,0.0772382167103765,0.07740880299969882,0.07345334469659956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058387360943055126,0.0,0.17575211833175544,0.0,0.09716021132286738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0698182656316298,0.0,0.0,0.06485840401790287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11854479878372436,0.06652539693523596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819234765718971,0.0,0.2741647434958088,0.0,0.08268806961900221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09430819189720044,0.0,0.0,0.1758643944280817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056035960131210566,0.0,0.0,0.09391077987091836,0.0,0.07469948639884766,0.0,0.0,0.0875734142962733,0.0,0.06970281046189765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09832071395005787,0.0,0.0,0.07411362689312105,0.0,0.0,0.09791626966263453,0.0,0.09323211104197518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10013300626298788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743349076483684,0.056047682541749626,0.0,0.06944195270663699,0.0,0.0,0.08291198096930777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07217247515906178,0.05159247584484252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765789518212596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273593997773282,0.2664921772841713,0.0,0.0,0.19127092365010614,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MikeThePutz,2019/10/28,"Question about medications Hi guys, I personally do not have schizophrenia, but I have been interested in it for a few years, ever since starting a project on it for work. It has been a real wake up call to me to see the differences between how people with schizophrenia suffer from their disorder compared to how people with schizophrenia are portrayed in film and media. I am so sorry that it is so misunderstood by so many people. Anyway, the question I had was about medications- specifically a new medication called Nuplazid. As far as I know, it is NOT approved for schizophrenia, but several doctors I spoke with were either trialing it, or prescribing it off-label for schizophrenia, since it apparently helps to reduce the symptoms of delusions and hallucinations with psychosis. Just curious if anyone here has had experience with it and what your thoughts were on it. Thanks in advance!",10.379306451612903,10.288443019354839,9.475927419354836,61.63389112903226,57.516129032258064,11.879032258064516,42.6008064516129,11.20814326018867,5.095854838709677,728,36,108,16,8,230,100,155,0.107,0.81,0.083,-0.6281,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,1,3,11,3,0,0,7,0,16,6,1,2,1,24,22,14,0,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,12,8,0,0,4,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,9,2,9,2,27,13,2,12,0,1,1,0,11,7,0,4,4,91,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10538553479080333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077998726510653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574682385151343,0.17273589350006394,0.15426626652817138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13633306600734854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14743113126363327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492345226796187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010231030240282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283067497435788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528044028672731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4554976068315304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14556439024476164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134666664471817,0.13160115015819246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3376773223225309,0.0,0.0,0.17155008822006326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201027379710158,0.0,0.0,0.17026844761890356,0.0,0.24935098556471466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16871646925656195,0.10667898102323507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15665371806044293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13876089114819365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196532621117188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109724504064035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09705745495790184 schizophrenia,DearYourHeadsNotRite,2019/10/28,"The daunting idea of getting a job As I've been gradually feeling a whole lot better over time due to the right meds and help (such as therapy and in-patient), The idea of getting work as well as moving out motivates me more and more to give it a try! However, with disassociating, hearing voices/seeing things, paranoia, and all the other bad stuff that can creep up on you out of nowhere during any given day, I fear that any job I do get will be short lived as soon as I have a bad episode or bad day in general on a work day. &#x200B; My question with all of this is.. To anyone who's managed to get work, does having extra responsibilities and things to keep you busy help keep positive, negative, and cognitive symptoms at bay? Or does it provoke them even more? &#x200B; Another question I have is.. Are there places or organizations or lines of work that specifically hire people dealing with mental illnesses? I've been told that I could easily receive disability, but personally, that's just something that doesn't sit right with me. I would much prefer (If this is something that even exists) applying to some place or organization that hires people dealing with mental illnesses to work in a controlled environment so that if I did have a bad episode at work, I wouldn't weigh down the whole place solely because I couldn't do what I signed up to do in that given moment. &#x200B; Maybe that exists or maybe it doesn't, but hearing from people who've began working whilst dealing with their schizophrenia would help substantially in working up the courage to do so myself!",13.692745762711866,8.629084393220342,12.114999999999998,60.746737288135606,55.91525423728814,14.783050847457625,47.12711864406779,11.602472056035307,5.314789830508475,1276,52,223,22,10,405,151,295,0.091,0.84,0.069,-0.8188,3,0,2,0,0,0,43.0,0,2,2,11,9,8,0,1,13,0,25,4,0,3,2,47,39,24,0,8,11,0,1,0,0,4,3,2,0,1,22,14,1,3,7,0,0,2,5,5,1,0,7,3,18,3,42,25,11,33,0,0,0,0,19,21,0,12,9,157,40,14,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372756485451044,0.26609690380281553,0.09928050438873527,0.07654339390337833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051040982732025966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24379674747590244,0.04449810454191164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06455964007238538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818719945911468,0.05828191697209827,0.0,0.0,0.14123047807329625,0.22576914558060954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12775979023560358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09642725026575806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08214157025853229,0.03690931964362264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525510302721867,0.07002507634035726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16454514917616173,0.0,0.1467844273093278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648087550843099,0.0,0.0,0.14487590200928885,0.1297656236933719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06445741441218147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06205917524064245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466699725552674,0.0,0.08108286638849642,0.0,0.14712698853028305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07758392894025823,0.05366096607433593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15182014060047813,0.06373789387768268,0.2287980127115579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635459971985182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467754840178175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11239283613304116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356374546078656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07587151058542141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347807645576365,0.0,0.0969915141959392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04256495681809688,0.0,0.0,0.06975146526224962,0.0,0.04955996071290466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06563279063687218,0.0,0.0,0.1629963944915887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4251396762054487,0.0,0.0,0.10370950804465087,0.0,0.26609690380281553,0.0 schizophrenia,ShartsMcdougal,2019/10/28,I think my brother is schizophrenic I’m worried that my brother may be schizophrenic. He’s recently started telling me how he thinks he’s being monitored and tested by some unknown collective of people. I want him to get professional help but I’m not sure how to do it. I’m worried that telling him he might have schizophrenia or suggesting he go to a psychiatrist may upset him or make him lose trust in me (he’s experiencing very severe paranoia). How should I talk him into getting help?,4.488629032258063,6.754062741935482,5.438373655913981,76.77756048387097,72.11827956989248,8.520967741935483,33.13037634408602,9.188382445141503,3.304398924731183,397,20,69,9,8,130,61,93,0.17300000000000001,0.718,0.10800000000000001,-0.7672,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,1,1,0,9,2,0,4,1,19,20,7,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,12,2,7,14,1,5,0,1,0,0,19,2,0,6,2,41,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22992310874373645,0.0,0.12505351585285845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2949756706059895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461679110453677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468780715850077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334271317020585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15254768031607047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172624556059832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485819976618661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15574508713817595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073846200304509,0.0,0.0,0.176859411178617,0.38464843462572706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819848472538324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18155562782189333,0.12978499521115794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44692157640262736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sflage2k19,2019/10/28,"Missed opportunities I tend to have specific delusions that I have been chosen by some sort of pagan god-- that I can learn something amazing about the universe, gain some special power, or tap into some hidden or secret world so long as I have faith and follow the 'signs' that they leave me. I always *kind of* doubted that all of it was real. It was just kind of like a religion, of sorts-- like some sort of hodge podge spirituality mixed in with a strong desire to learn one that magic and gods and demons and all that stuff was real. It was kind of like playing pretend, a fun thing to keep the boring real world at bay, sometimes. &#x200B; Then, a few years ago, it stopped being quite as nice. I became paranoid of natural disasters, terrorist attacks, etc., and I felt the key to learning what would happen-- and what would keep me safe-- was to turn to these ""mysterious forces"" for answers. Things got pretty bad. So... I learned my lesson. Don't even start with it. Don't entertain these stupid ideas and fantasies-- if I wanted to do it, I would do it in fiction or in art. I wouldnt start believing in this pagan shit again, even if I ""kind of new it wasnt real"". &#x200B; Lately though, its been like I'm just assaulted with ""signs"". I know I should ignore them, I know its just my brain playing tricks on me, but I just so, *so* badly want for all of this to be real. If I talk about it, if feels like the gods will revoke my ""privilege"". In a more real way, if I talk about it, it wont feel as magical-- like trying to describe a dream. So I dont talk about it. And I dont let myself believe in it, because I know where that gets me. But I also dont let myself *not* believe in it, because... I just really want this. &#x200B; I *know* what I learned and I *know* what everyone tells me but like... if magic and all that *were* real, wouldnt it be hidden? Wouldnt it take some sacrifice, some fervent belief, to show itself? Wouldnt it require some secrecy? I know where this leads me, but the idea that maybe it *isnt* a delusion and I really *am* just that *special* is... intoxicating. If it is real, and I miss the opportunity of a lifetime because Im too willing to believe what ""they"" say rather than my own lived experience, what does that make me? A coward, and an idiot. But I know where this leads, and I dont want to go back. Its like some kind of oasis, really. A hypnotic hallucination of my greatest desire meant to lure me further and further into the desert. I just need to keep telling myself that it isnt real.",1.8334768617836341,4.150129575697214,3.312848605577692,88.50566886300949,80.93227091633466,5.773889059148022,22.004443763407906,7.010146845296331,0.6800593319031565,1965,62,397,24,52,644,216,502,0.086,0.7829999999999999,0.132,0.9644,1,0,1,0,0,0,123.0,0,0,3,10,27,40,6,1,19,0,42,3,2,3,4,118,75,41,0,23,24,0,3,8,0,11,1,1,0,0,52,20,0,7,22,8,0,4,15,13,0,1,12,4,51,27,52,47,17,34,6,2,0,0,10,18,1,22,19,289,103,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04909260540025448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04428878853299673,0.04608207654035987,0.18001840271899736,0.20188476940122094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06300476860871168,0.0,0.04258516941816521,0.09248294407328517,0.10128065504541432,0.0,0.0,0.24958519905817125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06182438104430865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04846496787797325,0.0,0.25962812937477353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06176532292361685,0.07315828521748627,0.0,0.0,0.05291966301983533,0.0,0.05417400664002047,0.0,0.0,0.05600538284000784,0.039564753872255984,0.05317519271333267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028934693647582777,0.0,0.03147474119087794,0.0,0.04429386776366215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048973924130986835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12503857444412006,0.05982182471293726,0.0,0.0,0.14767760902784774,0.0,0.2883580014436121,0.21305464105975952,0.0,0.06247305879699727,0.05864130729864885,0.0,0.11326324219746965,0.0,0.21645391761343954,0.0,0.04890312536084647,0.04901113151436568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03696776742521063,0.0,0.05563844066623495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04106488727316542,0.0,0.05348806711364789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037528126636680696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056343179193667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058905338878945265,0.0,0.5673293004541989,0.10643695697769147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04404181339892039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0568486001262497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0426355990633442,0.05477399538554919,0.0,0.07839901622906305,0.0,0.0,0.046301646945834836,0.0,0.0,0.06339888680236014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04164020534358561,0.13354132803194105,0.09681223152147272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07358638600256892,0.0,0.05441231652599249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0376005924799207,0.06023947210459335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13066243221940274,0.043959478237083315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802488013064324,0.0,0.20188476940122094,0.03566404981286233 schizophrenia,nursehealme,2019/10/28,"extremely severe brain fog i started experiencing this earlier this year. sometimes, i get this feeling in my head that i can only describe as a big heavy, fuzzy feeling, like my head is full of cotton and i'm balancing several bowling balls on my head-- and in extreme cases, it becomes difficult to physically keep my head upright. this is accompanied by some very heavy fatigue as well. it normally wears off after about half a day, but today it was so severe that it feels like i never woke up from my sleep last night, and now that it's night time (when my hallucinations usually begin), i'm starting to hallucinate, which has never happened during one of these ""brain fog"" flare-ups. does anyone else experience this? should i be worried? (also, apologies if brain fog isn't the right term for this)",6.369391891891893,7.666166885135138,6.9252432432432425,71.77245945945947,65.95945945945945,9.433513513513516,33.04324324324324,9.642632912329526,3.301249189189189,641,27,107,13,10,210,104,148,0.084,0.8540000000000001,0.062,-0.6322,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,3,0,8,10,9,0,2,14,20,10,0,3,2,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,16,3,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,2,1,2,2,4,11,3,16,16,3,25,0,1,0,0,1,8,0,2,19,70,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09451196739996373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08263723268070818,0.12109381425388445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305253091441707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957984004075399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07621911683156565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10342390514273483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987278440931418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156069542446929,0.0,0.0,0.17927264752072752,0.16886182043007572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06174643545986475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451001425490866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4851648822154748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105047664299554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09633600422716301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547778954167075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18230208495383285,0.0,0.0,0.22181597863839614,0.11579555220334704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08008476182691565,0.08988450988422209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092877356447932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40054396512758017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826968305886094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11688732606419995,0.0,0.16730295660514585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689142342554138,0.0,0.11202492756580414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13016334446367595,0.09751445095651053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10626190760900596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12002192569396355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610683482011818 schizophrenia,BabySchizo,2019/10/28,"Extremely vivid dreams Do any of you have extremely vivid dreams? They don't have to be specifically vivid to things you do in real life everyday. A lot of mine are about video games I enjoy. It feels like I'm playing them when I'm asleep, even when I haven't played them in months. They keep me so awake at night I barely sleep. I feel this is something that comes with schizophrenia. I have a sleep test at the end of the month because my neurologist is curious about this. Can you guys relate?",3.6311224489795935,5.423308795918372,3.636479591836736,90.80941326530613,73.28571428571428,7.348979591836735,22.45408163265306,8.07648339933343,0.8785061224489796,394,10,84,6,8,120,65,98,0.021,0.815,0.16399999999999998,0.9198,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,4,0,6,4,0,0,4,0,12,4,3,0,0,7,18,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,2,0,1,2,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,15,4,12,17,1,12,0,0,3,0,9,4,0,1,8,53,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16337788238718615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14645385083531132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069536506869578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21278972617614125,0.0,0.0,0.1586825132470449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24295470780912126,0.17163427387031507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23788475350236385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135447733289427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16969531012931413,0.11737375864866385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20425151334468594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3835296797322824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22545785855837924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734565013294468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4808459631900179,0.0,0.0,0.1849557843804605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596110766804004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Overclockinggirl,2019/10/28,"Auditory Hallucinations I posted this in bipolar Reddit but as far as I am aware, hallucinations aren’t a very common symptom for bipolar disorder. My dx is Bipolar 1 with psychotic features. I am having auditory hallucinations tonight and I can’t relax. My phone was in the bedroom charging while I was in the living room. I got up to go get it and as I got up, it starting ringing. As I came around the hallway to the bedroom, I heard a thud. My phone had fallen off the night stand. Then I distinctly heard my fiancé breathing but he isn’t even home. I keep hearing other noises. I just took my meds and I am trying to relax but I am having paranoia. I can’t tell if things I’m hearing are real or not. Anyone else experience this and have coping strategies? I’m sweating and frightened.",1.7990601503759436,4.488210655844156,4.045078605604922,80.49776828434725,85.29870129870129,5.579767600820234,26.28708133971292,7.0608816371341465,1.6122779220779222,627,28,111,9,19,215,90,154,0.125,0.8240000000000001,0.052000000000000005,-0.899,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,0,16,7,2,0,1,18,30,16,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,4,0,6,8,0,1,0,2,0,4,5,0,0,0,9,5,20,2,16,21,0,21,0,0,0,0,8,9,0,2,6,80,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13371256463835085,0.19593788345125668,0.0,0.17023537338169958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21871634311260305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191663151004495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597482491447355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12630570811843406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18705977730175244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09990985872573112,0.0,0.10868049906145352,0.0,0.3058884344575324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4310605462018168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19181942872501004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16997414055518112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16885972271066574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21241358282531356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17945653804807102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18314561929209308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21766177213385232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13535368183060667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987613427552005,0.0,0.0,0.1671435767048662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12704481200318446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124637288454752,0.12983271668357546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15778489796572853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizo_siren,2019/04/23,"Schizophrenia tattoos Does anyone have a tattoo to represent their schizophrenia? I’m planning to get one at some point, and looking for inspiration. Thinking maybe something I drew during a psychotic episode, possibly an artistic representation of one of my most common visual hallucinations or maybe a black and grey person with watercolour splashes behind them/their head, which is a little more subtle, but would still mean a lot to me! What do you think?",9.269480519480519,10.98994374025974,7.886129870129872,65.95205194805196,59.64935064935065,9.796363636363637,37.477922077922074,9.888512548439397,4.114165714285715,376,17,52,7,5,114,64,77,0.0,0.9440000000000001,0.055999999999999994,0.4501,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,6,0,4,1,1,0,0,13,10,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,5,1,9,9,4,5,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,4,2,37,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631039748966605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041313519451056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12187108319704375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23939669263660995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.233792328168936,0.0,0.0,0.19588344623919973,0.0,0.0,0.19831315187836368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4686911231185589,0.2540934443139553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161321491268105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036775799864957,0.0,0.0,0.22051036759101944,0.2629706957954818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17957842249484826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18628534566996527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989329690934224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.165704421145932,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Delusions8377,2019/04/23,"How do you know if you have psychosis? Should I talk to people about it? I live with my brother. I go to online school and only leave home once a day to go for a walk and to the store. My only friends are people I know online. My dad died six years ago, and my mom has Borderline Personality, which makes her very abusive. I've been a loner all my life and content with my imagination over dealing with people who might reject me. &#x200B; My brother thinks I have schizophrenia. He got me to get an appointment for it with a psychiatrist which is coming up next week. I know have odd symptoms, but I don't know how it could be psychosis or schizophrenia. &#x200B; I've gotten very ADD in the past two years, and I'm prone to losing my train of thought or becoming confused. I have to repeat myself several times to get people to understand what I'm saying. I've looked up Executive Function Disorders, and I can relate to most of those things. The embarrassment from those problems makes me avoid social situations. &#x200B; I like to talk to myself to get my thoughts together, but I know it's me who is talking back. I don't think that God or President Trump have anything to say to me. That being said, I have started to hear my own inner voice amplified outside my head. It just comments on things and says things that I agree with because it is me. It doesn't say anything mean, scary, or untrue. I have visual hallucinations of green pinwheels, pink streaks across my visual field (looks like it's being painted with a brush and then the color slowly goes away), and copies of objects that are hot pink or cyan that also slowly disappear. &#x200B; I've watched a number of horror movies and things that have scared me. They change my dreams (nightmares) and conscious thoughts (anxiety), but not my hallucinations. I've gotten used to the bright colors and find them calming. &#x200B; I don't know if this is a delusion or not, but I feel a spiritual calling to go certain places and do certain things, often when it relates to someone I met who I really respect. I'm asking myself, ""Is this dangerous?"" No. ""Is this unusual?"" No. ""Is this illogical?"" It's an emotional/spiritual feeling that it's what I need, so to that extent yes. But it's something normal people do on vacation. I'm looking up lists of schizophrenic and bipolar delusions, and I can't relate to any of them. They seem very bizarre to me, like what thought processes would even lead to those ideas? I also don't have what the literature refers to as sub-clinical delusions, such as delusions of reference or thought insertion. &#x200B; I don't feel paranoid about anyone or anything. I know that my social anxiety and avoidance are irrational, and I intend to fix those problems when I move on from here. We live in a small town, and I already know I have no connection with the people I've met here. There's no point in trying to force it just to get rid of my anxiety. &#x200B; Like I said, this has been going on for two years, so it's more than enough time in psychosis for a schizophrenia diagnosis if that's what I'm experiencing. Am I psychotic in denial? Can this turn into full-blown schizophrenia with creepy stuff everywhere?",5.330146050670642,6.8182403409836105,5.563047690014905,79.87095007451569,68.54098360655738,8.233979135618481,30.912816691505213,8.643655677312706,2.4621475409836067,2568,104,465,41,44,814,275,610,0.121,0.802,0.077,-0.9763,0,2,1,0,0,1,107.0,1,2,4,2,19,20,1,5,19,1,44,5,1,7,3,100,97,45,1,10,20,4,4,4,1,3,4,8,1,1,50,30,0,2,27,1,1,9,13,10,0,3,14,24,65,10,71,76,6,46,0,2,10,0,36,21,0,16,20,315,115,2,0.0,0.05876863562093421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04396796563403926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05473552844071518,0.07933121154665539,0.0,0.3761958320605341,0.4218913603171669,0.03373012917819506,0.0,0.11383303822423282,0.0,0.0,0.03468191366539028,0.0,0.1224512763646814,0.0,0.046369893319814136,0.0,0.04660142449989887,0.038139822692888126,0.0,0.03023608358206142,0.05477999874919953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05064778876291261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05247088957578898,0.04272655067854909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03960206689773358,0.0,0.0,0.031988302897536014,0.05113607142222063,0.0,0.0,0.05147762285800725,0.0,0.0568466190087225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051250709722395565,0.0,0.0327607482233058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752387063577373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04533407709457886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03832132358483988,0.0,0.1036571276310203,0.0,0.11275672396997105,0.0,0.039670154797310515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05090455601136226,0.0,0.05590351470844308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049753475930841534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05599307369475885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21807367198993435,0.0,0.0,0.05251990524888221,0.0,0.0,0.03503439173015357,0.0969294492865879,0.0,0.08759652977194263,0.0,0.12495611051633802,0.05549041745588885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662176111643238,0.0,0.0,0.05402962683295514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052618429951622726,0.0,0.058091658208781975,0.0,0.0527176198674458,0.0,0.036778238548791184,0.0,0.0,0.0527508325556724,0.0,0.04859808604518071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052823052004136464,0.0,0.07544702818656378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04734941362305842,0.20632098863054926,0.04330935680226576,0.05182210124059231,0.0,0.0468886275516011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949222081161134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031775433580625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943631148405316,0.15777764673084255,0.04965888338281378,0.05019848546260594,0.0,0.045154550548906346,0.0,0.056034593476050484,0.0,0.0,0.05575318613983389,0.0,0.10112319156130296,0.0420264527144226,0.03818498812845808,0.0,0.0,0.03510758110308057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0567808543351025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05155404615936719,0.0,0.11960132231242125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647622724703325,0.06356416164845488,0.0,0.1968867982963012,0.0578450522901092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03367557179941602,0.05395124210078485,0.09690521622619587,0.051636004937263114,0.0,0.04283901877106878,0.0,0.12277714268103135,0.0,0.0,0.03978663340430307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03523486433606439,0.0,0.4218913603171669,0.09582353821464526 schizophrenia,christen1986,2019/04/23,Functioning in society Can someone tell me how in the world these Schizophrenia individuals are able to function around people (attend events and work)?? They mention about working and attending events in their video: https://www.invegatrinzahcp.com/patient-experiences/justin-and-tanara-patient-stories,19.930190476190482,26.014019542857145,13.908571428571431,16.124761904761925,39.285714285714285,10.380952380952381,40.23809523809524,10.504223727775694,5.396809523809526,264,10,23,5,3,74,31,35,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,6,2,0,9,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,2,16,4,2,0.4125693204346529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672741649622128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860236194673834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3495686463662324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36060377078878303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6007107579066371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,connie1122,2019/04/23,"Documentary Outreach Do you have or are you a MOTHER / SISTER / DAUGHTER / GIRLFRIEND or know a FEMALE COLLEGE STUDENT / FEMALE PROFESSIONAL suffering with BPD, bipolar, voices, hallucinations, paranoia, postpartum with psychosis? A new documentary series is looking for families struggling with a female loved one’s mental health. If selected, you would work with leading mental health advocates. Please email us at [**FightStigmaNow@gmail.com**](mailto:FightStigmaNow@gmail.com) with your contact info and describing your situation. We look forward to working with you!",12.642967032967027,17.124564102564108,10.086483516483518,42.59423076923079,55.410256410256395,10.61098901098901,44.47619047619048,10.608840637214634,6.527572893772894,472,26,42,12,7,141,60,78,0.095,0.802,0.10300000000000001,0.1759,0,0,0,0,2,0,28.0,2,6,0,3,0,3,0,1,4,0,5,4,0,1,0,15,9,4,0,2,3,3,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,0,8,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,3,8,1,9,8,0,4,0,1,2,1,15,2,0,3,2,31,8,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25698590912742314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923542498172764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4337778432016006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121370864939304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426906523849728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18415741415099127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4112561350080149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19706668603589533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382652981965588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239787197686012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22935367848580376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21331078772613246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24543945919448756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29709250121507164,0.0,0.0,0.1449467968728487,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,supadexx,2019/04/23,"Does anybody's voice do this? I have a voice in my head and I think I have schizophrenia. But every time I think that way, the voice tells me I am not sick. Anyone else have this?",-0.5252631578947344,1.6592759473684209,0.4161052631578954,105.61573684210528,92.15789473684212,3.04,12.86315789473684,3.1291,-1.8474378947368424,138,2,34,0,5,42,28,38,0.0,0.907,0.09300000000000001,0.47,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,2,1,0,0,5,7,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,1,7,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,21,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450495613853777,0.3590873642157216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066896333510293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29276409805523784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29527740106773426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35967274595778403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063172131257079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44912083231805816,0.0,0.0,0.2043558615127818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781785865778114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lajeyh,2019/04/23,"Poorly written life story I know you guys can't give a diagnoses but im wondering if internalized depression/anxiety could manifest into a schizophrenic symptoms. And hoping to get honest opinions of my situation. Onset childhood schizophrenic is fairly rare but that's where I'm going to start. As a toddler I can remember (only because I have an intense fear of loosing memories so throughout my life I will revisit memories in hope that I wont forget them) of trying to talk and tell my parents things and getting angry because they couldnt understand me to the point that I would scream and bite them. My twin brother would speak for me because I suppose in our own twin language he could understand what I wanted to say. I would struggle to climb onto the bathroom counter and stare at the mirror and cry because of how ugly I felt while I was around 3-4. When I was 4-5 I tried to kill myself but lacking basic knowledge that obviously didn't work ( I used a plastic hanger and tried to hang myself by it from my feet down until the hanger broke.) I never knew how to comminicate my emotions so I would always just scream and bite and had lots of outbursts. While playing with toys I was always making stories in my head and there would always be a power dynamic I would make my toys rape each other I always felt guilty and ashamed for this and because I was paranoid my parents could read my mind and see through my eyes. I would try my best to be thinking pure good thoughts. I was also ashamed of the fact that I touched myself and had an almost constant UTI in preschool it got to the point that I had to get a cystoscopy. I remeber looking up at the ceiling and screaming in pain the doctors found nothing wrong with me. I would look at minor insignificant things such as one single spark from a firework and try my best to remember it because I didn't want it to feel bad if nobody remembered it. I thought that girls had sperm and it helped me not feel so alone because i thought I had something with me something to live for. I gave all my toys/stuffed animals their own personality and felt extreme guilt if I didn't give it attention. In my head i would talk to bugs telling them if they leave me alone i would give them a milk shake then feel guilt/fear that theyd be mad that I didn't. Before I formed social anxiety I would dress quite essentrict i use to wear every necklace i had everyday and that was a lot. Normal active imagination or abnormal idk. My uncle was schizophrenic and killed two people because he thought he was being chased. My dad always says I have my aunts brain who remembered things differently. My aunt committed suicide. My only friends who lived two houses away would ignore me at school and talk about how they didn't like me when they thought I was asleep during sleepovers. All throughout elementary school I would sit alone go to recess alone. I wouldn't talk because I was scared of getting hurt but I would still hear people make fun of me. When I would come home I would cry my parents would ask me what's wrong but I never told them or anyone. My parents talked to me in that voice that parents talk to toddlers in which I was aware of, my brothers would make fun of me, push me, tell me ""i wish you werent my sister"" my ""friends"" didn't even like me. I always loved to be in nature and with animals because I could actually form a bond with animals and get away from any social pressure in nature. My dad would always ""tease"" us because ""that means I love you"" and to be fair that is how he shows love and his playful side but for a child with no self esteem hearing your father joke about your insecurities hurt and made me scared to express myself. I had no real connection with anything except for my dog and my toys. I was embarrassed to like tv shows, music, hobbies, anything girly, because my family made fun of everything. I would sneak into my brothers room when he wasnt home and turn the volume to 1 to watch disney channel and if anyone came in I'd go red and just continue to change the channel until they left. I was paranoid that anything I did my parents could see. I am VERY private and surveillance creeps me out. My dad use to sell security cameras and I snuck into our trailer where I saw my parents watching my brothers play in the living room. Ever since i have been convinced that they have some all over the house. My parents would find out what i did on my ipod (nothing bad) but the fact they knew just made me uncomfortable and angry and reinforced my belief that they are spying and judging everything I do. I love my parents and i dont know if its in my head or not but when i would take a bath theyd ""accidently"" walk in and would take too long to shut the door that i got creeped out and uncomfortable and angry. I took a selfie once which i didnt share anywhere (i dont have social media) and i came back to my dad writing a caption over it. Maybe im so private with my emotions because its the only control I have. I dont trust anyone with knowing who I am. I keep my music to myself, shows to myself, everything. Its keeping me from making deep bonds. I have a very grey area of thinking i see so many connections to everything I missed a lot of school because I tried to avoid all the bad feelings. I always got very sick before school/ at school I would get cramps, headaches or get nauseous I missed so much school every year/ trimester since 5th grade my parents got warnings from the state. When I was 15 my parents got fed up with my behavior and as a last resort made me go to a therapist. I hated going i went for 6 months and never told him anything other then surface level things like "" I have social anxiety"" I don't trust anyone and there was no way I was going to trust a man who is only there because of the pay. There was a lot of awkward silence and me just crying uncontrollable because I didn't like people pretending like they care about me and that just reminded me about how alone I am and how I wasted my childhood and how ill waste my youth and im destine for nothing other then to end up dead or alone on the streets. I told him how i hated going to therapy and it always just made me feel worse and thats the last i went to therapy. I dont remember ever feeling real everyday is so foggy like watching a tv show ive become numb to real life situations. People started giving me positive attention for my appearance when i started going through puberty i thought they were making fun of me. I got ""why are you so quiet?"" ""Why are you so stuck up?"" ""you look like youd be loud"" comments all the time. I made my first friend when I was 15 and for the first time i was myself. And felt a connection with someone. When i finally gained confidence in myself i was a complete loud social butterfly with anyone as long as i had her for support. If she wasnt there i would become a mute again. I loved people i always tried to see the best in them wanted to help them and make them feel welcomed a good social interaction with someone made me so hyper and happy and crazy. I got a bf not long after who stopped me from hanging out with her and ive been stuck in my shell ever since. I dropped out of high school, never had a job, never pulled my wisdom teeth because i was scared i would reveal something about myself while on laughing gas plus social anxiety and pain. I HAD to move out of my parents so one day out of no where i just told them i was moving in with him and left. Now all i do is wake up sometime in the afternoon or night play some games cry then go to sleep. I have a head ache 1-2 times a day. I don't go out and if i do i wont leave the car. I have no sense of self or enjoyment. I just sit in this little room and know this is as good as life is going to get for me sooner or later ill end up on the streets. I am scared to even think my own thought in my own manner because im scared ill break my mind even more. If i do go out i have to curl my hair and do my makeup and try to plan a cute outfit otherwise I cant do it and hate myself even more. I hate myself even with everything but i want to try my best not to draw attention to myself. I had people comment about ""how pretty"" i was when i did go out but i honestly cant tell if theyre being nuce because they can see how fucked up i am or if they mean it. In my head people have to say compliments like that to make conversation and to try and make people like you and i hate feeling manipulated. When i would comminicate with people they would say things like ""you seem so nice and happy i dont understand why youre always alone"" i am happy to make connections with people its the one thing i crave but i am so fucked up i tell myself its better for me to never get close to someone or maybe i just say that to cope. Im so in ny head all the time when ever i get angry, sad, anything I internalize it. Ive been with my boyfriend almost 3 years and he still doesnt know what kind of music i like why i cry, nothing. Nobody on this planet truly knows me and that makes me feel even more alone. Nobody knows what i go through and what ive been going through my entire life they think i just have social anxiety they dont know that ive been wanting to die everyday since i was a child. I don't let myself enjoy anything because everything contradicts itselfin my brain. I cant talk about my problems otherwise id feel like ""an attention whore"" or worry that people thought i was going to manipulate them. My bf has terrible hygeine and i cant even tell hin because i dont wanr to be a bitch even though it would benefit him. I never scream or yell at anyone. I can control my anger good. I have a very gray area of thinking when it comes to two points and try to make connections with everything. I dont care what people do as long as they're not hypocrites but the moment they do i get super angry and dont see them the same ever again. I know im leaving out stuff and this is poorly written and jambled... Just tired of always feeling this way for years with no releif. My lower back always hurts I'm underweight but go through major hotflashes all the time. Suicidal. Lonely I need relief",4.523378056636073,5.277842700146273,5.270456142099103,83.94065892728136,69.82886396879572,7.977594692992915,28.42765323662661,8.058394185568885,1.7577281945428078,8042,276,1617,102,137,2611,617,2051,0.207,0.682,0.111,-0.9997,17,11,3,0,0,3,144.0,3,12,30,16,89,123,14,17,67,0,174,47,16,36,25,364,349,169,6,59,53,24,17,13,5,33,20,17,7,8,74,118,2,8,61,21,4,35,50,55,0,8,100,52,330,68,216,197,33,208,1,8,18,9,157,86,3,37,93,1109,404,13,0.0,0.0,0.0185986478383007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03816928736453326,0.1579134222327485,0.0,0.01524132227864056,0.2061599208310988,0.0,0.0,0.012960643340300091,0.0,0.0728996817144701,0.0,0.0,0.07995817229187199,0.0,0.09410265292153727,0.016966380274783643,0.017817413205591347,0.0,0.03581275594304923,0.029310094626282018,0.047739927053375666,0.24397952815806534,0.04209791324661937,0.032435284586637116,0.0,0.08000417477930177,0.0168559673282899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04255186684421265,0.0,0.04359639921884057,0.038863450955220515,0.0,0.020161692294368545,0.03283495189599888,0.01998279811235412,0.020595801232126825,0.042752148691751785,0.0760845388241254,0.0,0.10467603107046228,0.02458270958443079,0.0,0.0,0.01934428945155172,0.019780034234212592,0.019912398430968013,0.0,0.019507498099507987,0.0,0.0,0.2010310346662571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04287718865356136,0.03376089476925902,0.0,0.0,0.10070530617667968,0.08619891716744114,0.03211573633648203,0.0,0.11990179717979813,0.0,0.01796694847147185,0.0428929164728874,0.10600376858626086,0.01361561660673727,0.07319777995452736,0.02087799313406843,0.017419405697513112,0.032422825562587666,0.0,0.020896999803787217,0.04417436452918296,0.03523912271346792,0.10953184904725444,0.07313178311593127,0.18413652146033865,0.0639424973521723,0.10670149153782882,0.0,0.0,0.018871216845207147,0.0,0.060865368163810135,0.0,0.09408313822508653,0.11735901597781538,0.0,0.04296132468260664,0.0,0.025549435201865704,0.02013667759062765,0.038235077788951896,0.037859394419793455,0.0,0.043982612268828575,0.0612085460766142,0.0,0.1235207021840651,0.0,0.01891292662247701,0.033880689403754,0.04217149563491945,0.01984681621332853,0.09426800452925713,0.031070945359735137,0.0,0.060541579007988386,0.04141490242002288,0.01948892297391713,0.06730900042808212,0.12104522481665113,0.01910193305435338,0.05048783126019198,0.06746578313784732,0.04801379719115681,0.0,0.0,0.06481246977858106,0.08600659392328085,0.12623733803542692,0.15266283208347892,0.01932264042952927,0.038294269649905406,0.04152125949426386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0384879270763909,0.0,0.015212559119995956,0.040512994494736464,0.014010417188499349,0.014131865015906997,0.1028952964212329,0.0,0.0,0.017885400706308566,0.01867358577031417,0.07314976313197945,0.0,0.0,0.020297009049532837,0.038744225673985735,0.05798033077464464,0.04055983199831365,0.0,0.25395061669171604,0.0,0.0,0.15855573710564433,0.016641416457273198,0.0,0.0,0.0540502031760961,0.0,0.0,0.019389660018676702,0.0,0.018236705794503517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.020271388844101047,0.019063966092942967,0.06507928976122956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10794957373833636,0.0,0.0,0.07578164745334888,0.09540596076611953,0.13501972198412504,0.09112441697501428,0.017350423467522674,0.03976498769249988,0.0,0.0,0.06306257338672074,0.04284579859307947,0.019072572552261437,0.1554244411380608,0.04844539980372214,0.04401720575737988,0.018849648947564898,0.0,0.0404697682727969,0.0,0.030440778188610913,0.01593401731021682,0.0,0.01992440476425736,0.021817775962462992,0.041694486277422865,0.021627710038560972,0.0,0.019809399527970638,0.028659704201099145,0.10723123841114213,0.09994943212550024,0.0,0.04359081704263437,0.022128745636125147,0.07597095302460125,0.061060574657046826,0.018725182592930517,0.12104452053063908,0.05556672254147235,0.02190529671674573,0.0,0.07284603310939039,0.02117503751766296,0.1423364791678748,0.02073051078281913,0.055853059679399374,0.059522675407582284,0.02292539998675511,0.04938207384920134,0.0,0.06290205207826143,0.05620689527563025,0.030255990159364976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03533541285917244,0.06879044108424638,0.0,0.02191668920411104,0.0,0.020668464833333008,0.013875039583639238,0.019355145177154053,0.01942255410991693,0.3926260914786327,0.04167563040473583,0.0,0.03681974343604014 schizophrenia,Last_Painting,2019/04/23,"Stimulus Overload As humans, we haven't evolved to take in so much information at such a rapid rate. Could what causes worse symptoms of psychosis be some kind of sensory overload?",5.539895833333333,8.435954031250002,5.16375,77.03958333333338,71.1875,8.016666666666666,35.666666666666664,8.841846274778883,3.614716666666668,147,8,23,3,3,45,30,32,0.231,0.769,0.0,-0.7964,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,0,5,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,16,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4193229395772406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32590600943745884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4250664308471554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30006616502024197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42426506418318977,0.3069076179008294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4159798561491056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cryptofan1510,2019/04/23,Just curios.... I know not every schizophrenic is same but if you have halluzination how did you find it out? Because you cant touch it or do you know that you‘re hallzuinating? And another question if you‘re hearing voices is it a big difference to the normal inner voice so more like someone other is talking with you and does the voice sound like yours or more strange? I‘m just curios about it so would love to hear from you. Thanks,3.1143360433604315,5.905325609756101,3.2169918699187012,88.22624661246617,79.4878048780488,6.083468834688348,22.52574525745257,7.3871296695380915,0.976060704607046,348,11,65,5,9,106,59,82,0.027999999999999997,0.775,0.19699999999999998,0.9594,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,7,0,0,6,4,0,0,3,0,8,2,0,1,0,22,15,10,0,4,8,0,1,2,0,1,1,6,0,0,6,4,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,8,4,6,13,3,3,0,0,0,1,12,3,0,5,2,47,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480971370640313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14422998221845226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24719804468617898,0.0,0.0,0.20705142908456434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993468354291384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162493404774241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5333338168923013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600598201488076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23118292931534185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21354194896872275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23181908024310835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26504765214914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20047154953963586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19017119664993146,0.0,0.2178307276070055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680748051535077,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BrokenTransformer,2019/04/23,"Uncontrollable irritability? So I have recently came to terms with the hallucinations I have been having the past few years. I have processed the initial overload of emotions they gave me. However I have started getting very irritable with how people treat me as if I’m severely mentally disabled or almost like a child. As well as people’s lack of regard for people’s lives I.e. someone got raped, robbed, or worse and people where I live (Baltimore) simply say “wrong place wrong time” and I have become increasingly irritated by the thought that most developmentally “normal” people are that ignorant, unaware, and feeling bliss from it. I’m not a saint, but since I started getting voices I have started to hold higher regards for human life. Maybe I’m crazy, you can stare at the clouds but you can’t change the weather.",6.034183673469387,8.423232775510208,6.285459183673472,71.81757653061227,68.18367346938776,8.437414965986395,31.97789115646259,9.075114841892004,3.1074176870748302,666,29,105,13,12,213,102,147,0.18899999999999997,0.753,0.057999999999999996,-0.9376,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,1,0,4,8,1,1,8,0,11,2,0,1,0,21,24,13,0,3,6,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,3,6,0,2,2,0,0,2,2,5,1,0,5,4,13,3,14,19,5,13,1,0,1,1,7,3,0,5,9,65,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147240543791247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623954772775929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16817598576092446,0.0,0.0,0.15555011592556198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16540158356366155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07434845994705293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536459392043148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176022977196466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385956363738652,0.07183691373934037,0.0,0.25968018592522085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14772267120134808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481829673303704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14406917777083686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403674844779563,0.5096993456565883,0.0,0.15362678088079912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14518546755829914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169330815518001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16611472726132698,0.0,0.12163401833595805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12458755024967165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122296012856269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11673430561899092,0.08574091903330748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12132440756798765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13220771753569666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14984756732012716,0.0,0.32153298671948444,0.0,0.09468972604423052 schizophrenia,thelostbeing,2019/04/23,"My parents expect me to be a 100% caregiver for my schizophrenic sibling My parents expect me to be a 100% caregiver for my schizophrenic sibling, and have her live with me. My own health has taken a dive as it is. This sounds selfish, but being around my sibling is making me mentally unstable. I honestly don’t want to live anymore if this is what i’ll have to deal with for the rest of my life or i’ll go insane myself. She does not respect me as it is. My parents think I am being selfish, but I can’t be a 100% care giver. I said i’ll help out, but she doesn’t want to make any changes although a counselor comes to her 3 times a week. 12 years have been enough and I can’t imagine another 40. I’ve considered taking my own life, and I honestly feel that I should not deserve to feel that way :(.",3.820514786418404,4.341165542168678,5.22316538882804,84.49363088718512,71.28915662650603,8.446002190580504,30.151150054764514,8.575989854853784,2.1669349397590363,624,25,132,10,11,210,88,166,0.095,0.777,0.128,0.6725,3,0,0,0,0,1,19.0,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,7,0,20,5,0,2,0,26,33,11,0,6,7,3,2,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,7,8,0,0,4,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,3,4,26,5,17,24,4,8,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,2,3,92,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127624816122272,0.17387548745263004,0.0,0.0,0.16444770944765055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14761390260717164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16906333500047838,0.0,0.17541432141303534,0.14283822809544305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17095191906935503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14510916403904636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17133516394657558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16768595217193707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09423865489921036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17625764825020016,0.0,0.0,0.11114485760883784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23424546834056365,0.0,0.0,0.2928421064004996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213706956731624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16710636636018952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5523665182590071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577316669299415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467511384791664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062500023527049,0.0,0.0,0.09669028557172576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19560846876454166,0.1316192585670722,0.13300985282218905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067818814534574 schizophrenia,lolamityy,2019/04/23,Risperidone to invega? My doctor wants to switch from risperidal to invega what are your guys’ thoughts?,6.370000000000001,10.117594529411768,4.383823529411767,78.77220588235295,74.29411764705883,8.105882352941178,26.14705882352941,8.841846274778883,2.803258823529412,85,3,12,2,2,24,14,17,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5903324212210186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5710773916158416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4578784559909282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3401846039725199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Solidsnake2066,2019/04/23,"Does anyone else blank when it comes to recent memories? I know our disease has an affect on our memory, but I was wondering if anyone else has the same odd memory quirks. For example, yesterday, I don’t remember hardly anything. I have bits and pieces, and I know what I did and where I went, but it’s mostly just blackness. For example, a message I sent to a buddy i thought was a couple days ago but it was just yesterday. Weird stuff. This has been happening for a while. I work 6 days a week, have copious amounts of stress currently and also pretty depressed so i imagine that has something to do with it as well. Is there a way to combat this, or is this a “the way out is through” kind of deal?",3.302636363636364,4.805900042857143,4.713636363636365,83.9368181818182,73.57142857142857,8.519480519480519,27.01298701298701,9.095868883498916,2.1951428571428573,546,20,110,12,11,182,88,140,0.12300000000000001,0.826,0.051,-0.8645,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,2,0,0,1,8,5,0,1,10,0,16,0,0,1,0,23,24,14,0,1,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,7,0,0,6,0,0,3,1,3,1,0,8,2,13,2,14,16,5,18,0,1,1,0,5,3,0,4,10,84,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14775133103166624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332935459867922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23309238136865726,0.34156571581372913,0.13716303683456682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181970858116918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14357964127092168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18442771036953645,0.0,0.21498899311802672,0.17183925859226395,0.1435608199431956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14586236468803052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784786898174569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14739414250276545,0.0,0.1493121040746671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17357106301269545,0.1832054021310636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16957298665547765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645759103018512,0.0,0.18881539551867504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12831803200465122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19093081850368032,0.0,0.19080816417468224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13232491470253732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26460487757909684,0.13370025103466862,0.0,0.149864899209904,0.15451357804785207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18075682131589954,0.1213446702982085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,germy1946,2019/08/07,"relationship drama I've been seeing this girl technically for 7-8 months and recently she has started this weird thing where she acts like she loves me to death then suddenly acts like I'm a complete stranger it annoys me and we talked about how annoying it is yesterday but she did it again it upsets me alot and i don't know what to do cause she tells me she really wants us to work but she continues doing the hot and cold with me and im just sick of it i hate how she makes me feel absolutely loved and adored then suddenly gives ""oh it's you"" vibes just makes me feel so useless to her and just makes me question everything about our relationship cause it just feels like she's acting like she cares about me and she's here only to hurt me or is secretly working with others to hurt me",1.8820021921812184,4.265789944099382,3.055082206795764,90.02732188527584,81.2360248447205,7.018048958713921,20.65071245889661,8.124751697461798,0.9790413591523563,635,18,135,13,17,204,94,161,0.179,0.685,0.136,-0.851,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,3,1,0,2,13,16,3,1,3,0,8,3,0,7,0,33,24,16,1,1,7,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,12,11,0,0,6,1,0,3,1,8,0,0,2,6,29,8,13,22,1,14,0,3,1,2,26,1,0,3,14,88,41,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530411398717028,0.308396529661175,0.0,0.0,0.1573812991782183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13490389160760602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22769143818905924,0.10723440324185876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14399353600646772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14819672841986833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32137909976987805,0.0,0.16213819235785187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08249329103704597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933331363513944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709496320471963,0.0,0.3005869687822916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11981166524673285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11416093648135008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681509515381012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961605338700698,0.0,0.14820969587463298,0.32231126967028995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11961353835226173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10624445873234246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12064799447395932,0.13119760465637184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09972249815060713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18055675755765188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08853529071870941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185551536421038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Schemes_not_Memes,2019/08/07,What do you see? What is different? What is it that makes you afraid of living like you were living? Or is it that the way you were living was wrong? Problems? What is it?,-0.8844761904761889,1.134533171428572,0.5078571428571443,101.81130952380954,103.0,3.4761904761904763,11.547619047619047,5.46131890053228,-1.4085238095238088,131,2,30,1,6,41,20,35,0.16399999999999998,0.7759999999999999,0.061,-0.644,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,4,0,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,8,0,0,1,0,3,10,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,4,1,1,7,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,1,24,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2994980670300369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140047306094565,0.0,0.7593765222902426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913473795185201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27429433743927745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284304327432806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275368936651272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134170600228853,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DanielFoxy1999,2019/08/07,"Is it really thag bad to have a second voice in your head? I know this may sound like a dumb question,but i feel really curious about how do they work",3.938125,4.031941562500002,5.400000000000002,84.845,70.875,10.15,22.25,10.125756701596842,1.6658249999999994,118,2,27,3,2,40,29,32,0.201,0.654,0.145,-0.4562,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,1,1,2,3,1,0,2,0,4,1,1,1,0,4,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,4,1,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,1,17,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34163079512310845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068831573489324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4199153247400246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22486316541701895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19989449060789516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4583518823823031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5242356502543691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978727303054039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwaway680422,2019/08/07,"Sound like schizo? I have heavy OCD and anxiety and have always been paranoid about illnesses, but lately, I've been paranoid about developing schizophrenia, so I need some closure here. I am 20, I have smoked weed before and had some bad trips (which started my fear), i havent smoked in about 2 years. I have no family history of schizophrenia at all, and here's what I experience: ​ -Frequent eye floaters (things in the corner of my eye, especially recently) ​ -Eye flashes (especially when turning my head and stuff like that, but I think I've always had this) ​ -Questioning everything I see and hear and fearing it's a hallucination (turns out usually it isn't) ​ -Fear of delusions, and feeling uncomfortable when government or aliens are mentioned, because I researched symptoms ​ -Sometimes, I won't take care of my hygiene so much and it will freak me out ​ -Hypnagogia and racing thoughts ​ -Constantly checking for changes in my behavior and freaking out whenever I feel even slightly antisocial or forgetful ​ -Feeling detached and emotionally numb sometimes, but not always. I sometimes feel like I'm not myself, I don't know how to explain it the best way possible -Sometimes feeling weird outside, and fearing I'll start believing that someone is out to get me or that is following me. For an example, I'm outside, all's good, then I start thinking about going crazy and I get a thought like ""could they be looking at me/following me right now?"" and I try to snap out of it, because I don't truly believe that, but it's like an obsessional idea. I'm scared of believing this. I am still functional, my grades are even getting better, I maintain conversations really well. I constantly seek for social interactions and time with friends and my girlfriend, just to not be alone with my thoughts. I am aware of reality, but my mind keeps creating 'what if' scenarios (what if I think I'm normal, but I'm actually crazy?). ​ Sorry if I shouldn't have posted here. Thank you in advance for any help. I have heavy OCD and anxiety and have always been paranoid about illnesses, but lately, I've been paranoid about developing schizophrenia, so I need some closure here. I am 16, I have smoked weed before and had some bad trips (which started my fear), I have no family history of schizophrenia at all, and here's what I experience: ​ -Frequent eye floaters (things in the corner of my eye, especially recently) ​ -Eye flashes (especially when turning my head and stuff like that, but I think I've always had this) ​ -Questioning everything I see and hear and fearing it's a hallucination (turns out usually it isn't) ​ -Fear of delusions, and feeling uncomfortable when government or aliens are mentioned, because I researched symptoms ​ -Sometimes, I won't take care of my hygiene so much and it will freak me out ​ -Hypnagogia and racing thoughts -Constantly practicing conversations in my head (I can tell reality from thoughts though and can't stare off) ​ -Constantly checking for changes in my behavior and freaking out whenever I feel even slightly antisocial or forgetful ​ -Feeling detached and emotionally numb sometimes, but not always. I sometimes feel like I'm not myself, I don't know how to explain it the best way possible -Sometimes feeling weird outside, and fearing I'll start believing that someone is out to get me or that is following me. For an example, I'm outside, all's good, then I start thinking about going crazy and I get a thought like ""could they be looking at me/following me right now?"" and I try to snap out of it, because I don't truly believe that, but it's like an obsessional idea. I'm scared of believing this. I am still functional, I maintain conversations really well. I still shower, keep up my appearance, and Take care of my hygiene and keep a clean room And work area. I constantly seek for social interactions and time with friends and my girlfriend, just to not be alone with my thoughts. I am aware of reality, but my mind keeps creating 'what if' scenarios (what if I think I'm normal, but I'm actually crazy?). ​ Recently my anxiety has went away. I got a job and have been saving hella money. Ive been there for a few months. But a couple days ago my parents left me home alone for a couple days and the anxiety came back. I starting thinking “what if i start hallucinating out of no where and hear loud ass screaming in my ear” and that kinda freaked me out. I heard people talk about hearing the devil or God. This morning i woke up from a nap and when i was kind of still in a sleep daze (hadnt even opened my eyes) i think i heard demonic laughing for like a millisecond. I cant tell if it was my head or i actually heard it or if it was my tv ​ ​",5.222538819344688,6.888316339729122,5.880443258772829,76.81277994390862,69.01128668171557,9.342608933579587,34.191736780901564,9.725611199111238,3.49002994732882,3751,184,676,88,66,1219,262,886,0.172,0.706,0.122,-0.9928,3,3,3,0,0,0,132.0,0,1,2,5,42,50,0,10,22,0,60,20,14,2,4,160,149,87,0,15,38,1,10,10,4,5,6,11,4,0,42,61,0,4,33,2,3,10,22,24,2,0,28,33,100,26,78,110,13,94,2,0,12,1,32,38,1,25,53,432,142,7,0.0,0.0,0.11207093238662308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03393401800220515,0.0,0.0,0.11894348866011152,0.0,0.0,0.19111839783000734,0.0,0.0,0.026032562440492967,0.0,0.11714020462074168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035966494130528964,0.029435917973412013,0.06392648879587723,0.09334357774292973,0.0,0.06514904770593273,0.25877915529861145,0.08034761935645023,0.033856654368706385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0437835512885446,0.11709085580253945,0.0,0.08099297230518536,0.0,0.0,0.20684215571312425,0.0,0.06112892564634976,0.0847149490984149,0.0,0.04937647811226493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08612250654455463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10113761725784344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06880943748271301,0.07489281538781425,0.07217631033705786,0.3446163888680658,0.19356150015042445,0.05469626471065195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05915199694340826,0.0,0.10000186454967362,0.0,0.04351223266632589,0.06421699182731079,0.030617012355013736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571504248762882,0.0,0.17258300193304354,0.0,0.02565911466538736,0.0,0.038399214600058185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08642974235249783,0.0,0.0,0.037988233323354055,0.13610453420744356,0.0,0.039864030569527316,0.042076747265879684,0.0,0.08636583390048135,0.0,0.04159268968785641,0.0,0.0,0.1870228488857156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06429321655134315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07730629865462275,0.0,0.030555728197502893,0.0,0.0562822462898698,0.05677012302055971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07501499343663738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04250679738811307,0.0,0.0,0.0265393984061642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631271409627089,0.036662855191480916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576752123040557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04904789746824336,0.0,0.1133943470542826,0.0,0.0,0.06538395596759748,0.0,0.0,0.07665241811311882,0.0,0.06101039926465696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03830889584961621,0.07804582616906595,0.0648711570987927,0.0,0.3028890775401858,0.04285272478280292,0.2167653239327492,0.0,0.12228582148667655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08764574414133268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07957775190326738,0.08634820659186862,0.03076901835166388,0.06691899891029778,0.03524423137345108,0.0,0.0,0.050864722435681665,0.19623263206008715,0.037611133356657056,0.21273725281606126,0.04464420896998264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051980911247403234,0.16655602726108393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432277617612323,0.0,0.0,0.06077174815647481,0.0,0.0,0.0688388815475051,0.03548710189241678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02786920562826296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02465186963523712 schizophrenia,vulplxes,2019/08/07,"Dealing with sedation? Hey all, I’m on Zyprexa. It makes me sleep a lot. I really hate it. Any tips for dealing with it? I always sleep until 10-11 on days when I can, and hit snooze until like 20 minutes before I’ve gotta leave on days I can’t. I slept 12 hours last night after going to bed at 10, hoping an early bedtime might help. It didn’t. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t want to sleep this much. Any suggestions?",-0.4217408123791096,1.6290912553191532,1.927833655705996,96.46136363636364,88.57446808510639,4.69477756286267,17.056092843326887,6.1124844417494595,-0.43822127659574495,334,8,78,3,11,113,66,94,0.06,0.8270000000000001,0.113,0.5643,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,2,0,7,4,4,1,1,11,17,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,0,8,2,13,12,3,15,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,3,11,42,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527314271171806,0.0,0.0,0.2496456934464321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18203600113162335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15619072487677732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367539720005667,0.3784717201314219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431782812600562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18122133035468915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230322118405498,0.0,0.0,0.18231029365654314,0.1807634731338518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087634259182324,0.14962080771577813,0.0,0.1943569219129168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08967509231395816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560508373023707,0.0,0.0,0.1225235557960025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947215257305796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349331288062336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17225276341067516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758923467041188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5510589415509425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10826475954264482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cgirl97,2019/08/07,"I found this subreddit to ask something because I am terrified. My mother had something what seemed like a psychosis, this week. She wanted to hurt herself, she went for a knife to hurt herself. My brother could prevent this by putting his hand on the drawer. We knew she was going to grab a knife because she has done this before in the past. I don't think she would really hurt herself. It seemed like she was testing us. She is very manipulating. We all stood in the kitchen (brother mother and I). My mother looked terrified at us and asked why we are standing like that and why are we looking at her like that. She was afraid we were going to do something to her. She than sat in a corner. Crying, wiggling and talking to herself. No one was allowed to touch her. She wanted us to leave her alone but we didn't. We gave her space but kept an eye on her. I don't know what exactly went on, but all this happened after I had a massieve fight with her. She told me to leave her house and move in with my dad. She often said that in the past too, whenever we had a fight. She usually never means it cause I know she needs me by her side. She doesn't speak the language of the country we are staying at, so I join her appointments to the doctor etc. I am very hurt and feel very disturbed. I emailed an service which you can ask questions about parents with mental disorders. That helped. That service told me to take care of my own emotional health and talk to a doctor, not only for myself but also for my mother. Idk what to do... Anyone any experiences or advices?",2.5269243604004465,4.666248758064518,3.347997775305899,90.09854838709681,77.54838709677419,5.824249165739713,24.88320355951057,6.8039241337230125,0.8967942157953281,1225,44,247,12,29,388,153,310,0.11699999999999999,0.82,0.062,-0.9407,2,1,3,0,2,0,38.0,12,1,0,0,5,13,2,2,16,0,25,6,2,3,4,50,56,14,0,5,6,8,4,4,0,1,3,2,1,0,16,19,1,2,10,0,0,6,7,8,0,1,21,9,63,5,38,33,4,28,0,4,3,0,66,14,0,5,10,182,79,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0872877895867656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09251422033489087,0.0,0.07143352490470269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06074436468860455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06245842702408229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505216949075322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089039225530858,0.0,0.07600937329951013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09107324288992244,0.09176183631338257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713190981673901,0.0,0.09811980529899587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10237469705903983,0.1828567529567304,0.0,0.09141094184505352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004791010757697,0.0,0.0,0.09962148163127116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08737742396417689,0.0,0.0,0.04516562816928794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09794073825270136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015314161078282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789901946964625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949487694079356,0.0,0.0,0.05987296188701643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10306956875002454,0.3824989390123921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09818185538482237,0.0,0.0,0.18916549420815312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17455959879146732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500217507256753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973015946364029,0.0,0.0,0.09001903749225602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949388100420762,0.0,0.06623368452607313,0.0688932887759029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060529232284845635,0.06793602495004286,0.0,0.0,0.09918533406730083,0.0,0.17054248643494524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979674258329895,0.10006493982231912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05722416642293163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496895210130724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16263705788983113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063012713871747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520903765608367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06716161683293374,0.14359281581567146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05723613739960438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707085784683168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3223425305819745,0.0,0.09837935622562186,0.22110853744558626,0.10537292185244362,0.0,0.07165148275818516,0.0,0.0,0.16561116209917084,0.1612046381724858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06345423219923561,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,peepeeandpoopooman,2019/08/07,"If someone with schiz. looks at a computer screen, do the letters appear to move around on their own a little? I tried magic mushrooms once and while waiting for them to have effect I noticed the letters on my screen waved around a bit like an underwater effect.",4.880714285714287,6.983269265306124,4.840561224489797,82.17676020408162,70.63265306122447,6.53265306122449,28.5765306122449,7.1686216300943375,1.6780979591836735,210,8,36,2,4,65,39,49,0.0,0.945,0.055,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,2,2,1,0,0,6,0,2,0,0,2,0,9,5,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,9,5,2,9,0,0,3,0,4,6,0,2,2,26,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5356252841174386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284409087029635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697591962508966,0.3015221324090236,0.0,0.0,0.2526310203429488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197468145126813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425099457401203,0.0,0.3203862893208929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549019552569478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20425157351243775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gstfs,2019/08/07,"Do you guys live really compartmentalized lives too? My life is broken down into a series of different ""rooms"" I have the key to, everything keeps to it's own room and I don't let anything mix among themselves. But when I go into a ""room"" I feel like I'm walking into it for the first time and I feel like a stranger in my own experiences and memories. Similar to the post about memories being broken down into different shards, do you guys experience the same sort of thing?",3.620760869565217,5.720995858695655,5.1841304347826105,78.37771739130439,74.1086956521739,8.947826086956523,25.630434782608692,9.516144504307137,2.4601913043478256,377,13,71,10,8,127,60,92,0.07400000000000001,0.8690000000000001,0.055999999999999994,-0.3736,2,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,1,3,2,0,0,7,0,7,1,0,0,0,13,12,5,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,3,7,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,9,2,15,10,3,17,0,0,0,0,4,11,0,1,5,51,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606833609621069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40801286748491655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17548820956782465,0.3820059155461928,0.0,0.0,0.19745989704504666,0.2789893338840779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16608910869798654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097146095447308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38667864770965815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17355715942400765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996678444926545,0.13791878646569547,0.1907895550372636,0.0,0.3448384997749049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870062901419242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12508934856400594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12972288972198984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138583977188062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PotaterHaterNater,2019/08/07,"Someone else’s thoughts in my head?? Sometimes my internal voices will say stuff like “I wanna kill myself” “I’m gonna kill myself” “I’ve tried to kill myself [insert number] times” and “I’m gonna get a knife and stab myself” and they don’t even sound like my voice sometimes, neither are these statements true. Only the first one is lol. And if I’m not around people for a while I start to feel like they can read my thoughts and it’s trippy because they’ll literally talk about specific things I was thinking about not to long ago. Anybody else have this??",1.6835874125874142,4.275374645454544,2.29909090909091,93.65017482517487,84.36363636363636,4.475524475524477,20.27972027972028,5.8734145424116955,-0.015685314685315088,441,13,88,3,13,136,75,110,0.16,0.7290000000000001,0.111,-0.8677,0,0,0,0,0,3,10.0,0,0,3,1,4,7,3,0,3,1,8,1,1,0,1,16,19,7,3,2,3,0,1,3,0,4,0,4,0,0,5,6,0,0,5,1,0,0,4,3,0,2,3,5,14,4,9,12,1,8,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,9,51,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470190487035952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476447056586145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110270467723438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27709849904777784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10954461888679234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386047186014622,0.11848571549760945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410748332666941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08665156595203903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702134563550381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5504767038720014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430828084716702,0.0,0.0,0.14677505649540218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11238656886856216,0.12613899860441327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498187767173396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16589830104549302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318932954627208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052706349637425,0.0,0.32806654401914515,0.0,0.11739190343760834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898624843916226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13330669557937774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101856418031661,0.10627217387063426,0.0,0.2633381769695456,0.09671046223386863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260358443027026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Anzallone,2019/08/07,"What would you do?? Really needing advice right now. I'm 22 years old. I was diagnosed earlier this year following a hospital stay. I've had problems relating to this disease for most of my life, however, but being able to put a name to it didn't help as much as I thought it would. I currently live with family and am in the process of pursing disability, but it could be upwards of a year before I hear anything back about the court date. I go through periods where I feel okay and very confident, and during one of those periods I ended up getting a job for the first time in two years. Unfortunately, almost as soon as I started working, I began showing symptoms again. I want to leave the job as I feel it was a mistake to apply in the first place - I'm not cut out for that kind of work. I move too slow, my mind doesn't work fast enough, I get confused easily, and I can't do the things everyone else does well. Basically, I feel as though I'm hindering my workplace, not helping it. My family doesn't want me to leave because I won't have a way to get money, but I don't really spend any of their money either so I don't know what the problem is. I cook a lot, I pick up after myself, I maintain MY part of the household. I genuinely do not feel like I'm capable of working out in public, and I get confused really easily when I try to concentrate so it makes me doubt my ability to work ANYWHERE. Everything feels overwhelming, and I can't figure out what my family is expecting of me. I feel like everyone would be better off if I killed myself. My family wouldn't have to worry any longer. They act like they know everything about me and my condition when they don't, and never will - not fully. I have nightmares about going back to the hospital all the time. I'm just tired, and there doesn't seem to be another way out of this.",4.939859747545583,5.193812677419358,6.324277699859749,78.52815568022442,68.73118279569891,10.340532959326787,30.42122487143525,10.276239652853533,2.9829610565684894,1444,53,292,36,23,492,184,372,0.126,0.782,0.092,-0.9128,4,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,1,4,8,18,16,2,4,17,1,32,5,0,2,2,59,61,24,1,13,10,0,6,3,0,6,4,1,0,0,15,14,1,0,11,2,3,6,16,9,1,4,6,7,48,7,48,44,7,50,0,1,0,0,10,14,0,8,30,204,63,7,0.08651367880861087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08454016566008328,0.0,0.0,0.0866309524518116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11766453654062403,0.09071713549744356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119338621632232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13304735766625364,0.0,0.05273793561079397,0.0,0.07361676863259657,0.0,0.0,0.0765143184466802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907413284656089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08780956289210769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07570870333080877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227107745179813,0.0,0.07662544080411486,0.0893917567733789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653350551277671,0.15550583215793393,0.0,0.32622958744207825,0.0,0.2624634927049809,0.123610778854244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14717698199814222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18079930582834755,0.0,0.09833543475088816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09750720363996104,0.0,0.11597659055065958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17170295387582676,0.0,0.09571456753382224,0.09009068339558884,0.0950913106901002,0.0,0.0,0.1832109885384642,0.0,0.0,0.06110716985596466,0.12679864047352785,0.0,0.07639316339207497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0735508359646498,0.0,0.0,0.057748552394473386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735415331913635,0.0,0.0,0.091950349144197,0.0635975083157947,0.06414879662574119,0.06672468249632303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078155274242553,0.0,0.05862390775232053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368588345327072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903883808570976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16556381338461285,0.0,0.08697014244107913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662686338624493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07388220899984363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07875880396082069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061234827144195876,0.09221207059873572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08992083777813271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0574758440063558,0.0,0.08499925017552082,0.06868219730233857,0.10089364367575296,0.0994347471142224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05873710900402233,0.0,0.08451129326681732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713828454625102,0.1020560185068914,0.13734106271598595,0.0,0.0,0.07778618712408164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3149149427280519,0.08785884030404909,0.0,0.18437050568078925,0.0,0.0,0.22284789076146969 schizophrenia,1gilzanmato,2019/08/07,"Silly question. My first psychiatrist I saw determined I had a “prodrome” phase of I guess schizophrenia, he didn’t specify he just said “you have a prodrome”, this was after a couple appointments. I knew something was up but I didn’t expect a diagnosis of psychosis. Anyways the very FIRST day I saw him (this was about 3 years ago) he gave me an anti psychotic, risperidone. I’m on a pretty high dose of amisulpride now. I should also mention I randomly have positive symptoms pop up, and I forget that most of them happened, so I don’t know how he got the idea to give me meds. The second time I went to hospital I asked (none of my admissions were from positive psychotic symptoms), “why did you give me an anti psychotic the very first day I saw you?” And he replied “because you weren’t communicating well” he said I seem to be doing a lot better now (I haven’t seen this psychiatrist in 2 years.) Anyways, any of you guys have an experience like that? Where you were given meds on the very first appointment?",3.025108518719477,5.457355417525772,4.328187737384699,82.21770754205103,77.29896907216495,7.589365165491049,27.220835594139984,8.532816995589336,2.222560824742268,797,33,149,17,19,262,108,194,0.043,0.8140000000000001,0.14300000000000002,0.9633,1,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,6,1,5,11,4,0,0,14,0,18,3,0,1,0,17,37,6,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,1,5,2,0,0,5,0,0,1,6,0,1,5,21,6,28,4,17,14,3,21,0,0,4,0,23,7,0,6,14,103,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169178895542122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547722297427566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969383643377868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233050014397168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08040260743977974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11665133718908015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14594046984998268,0.0,0.17012408062406928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12901964508516875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44876284862944815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530534179779011,0.0,0.0,0.1054893195604136,0.0,0.1452983683985053,0.13059782547655446,0.11663524080458365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13935541768343068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14889458521993604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248661931683027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06443774736228779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11213330446941136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2930135538778309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341856996260418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14775376104744609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509266935556226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12007320961559158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10154002261081686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741809946406613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07690964702807082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264841618382565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11859038840145128,0.12226895911315422,0.1190156693771619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16987346273760995 schizophrenia,CelestialSegfault,2019/08/07,"Which antipsychotics do y'all take? Hi I'm new to the sub. As we all know antipsychotics suuuuuck. Haloperidol makes you toss and turn, clozapine makes you almost pass out, abilify makes you feel intensely uneasy, so my doc gave me quetiapine and all it does is clog your nose and make you oversleep. I'd like to hear which antipsychotic do you take on a daily basis, and why does it work for you?",5.753684210526316,6.7004659473684205,6.174842105263162,77.86489473684213,67.15789473684211,10.290526315789474,28.35789473684211,10.355215969177356,2.74222947368421,316,10,62,8,5,102,56,76,0.043,0.924,0.033,-0.1909,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,8,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,4,2,15,15,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,11,1,6,14,2,4,0,0,0,0,12,2,0,1,2,33,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22982902883675266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4017053320679665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11605114939921304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.258683360657096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12613703859989495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11213085536243213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6128199373512763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22166982361012705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34513780256781385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24964957375296865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20710421073167345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16709176894627625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Claymationdude07,2019/08/07,"So what's the best/easiest alternative to smoking, that gets me the same amount of nicotine without the harmful cigarette? I recently quit smoking and coincidentally was diagnosed with schizophrenia too. My doc recommended I watch ""A beautiful Mind"". And it kinda tripped me out at the time (a few weeks ago) but i just had a relapse with my smoking and after getting a clear mind and finding this sub it hit me. The main guy in that movie was always smoking. so I looked it up and sure enough I found articles of how people with schizophrenia are disabled in some way and smoking (the nicotine) helps. So, is there a way that I can get the same amount of dosage of nicotine from something as in a cigarette? (Google says 12mg is average) Everything that isn't a cig is trying to get people to quit (understandably) so they're all like 2 or 4 mg at a time. I'd like something that's not vape if it's possible. Thanks fellow nutjobs! (I hope that doesn't upset anyone!)",4.609953917050691,6.187066677419356,5.261321044546853,81.00483870967746,70.39784946236558,8.325038402457759,31.565284178187408,8.841846274778883,2.6244897081413217,766,34,145,14,14,247,111,186,0.0,0.826,0.174,0.9853,1,0,4,0,1,0,26.0,0,0,0,2,8,7,0,1,15,0,10,1,0,1,3,30,20,15,0,2,6,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,12,10,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,4,3,12,5,21,15,9,16,0,0,2,0,4,7,0,5,8,95,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385008235400797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000747259675371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924939408348994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16396837311794402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15858430784360236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16144175426824833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404219765261231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428041284486378,0.0,0.0,0.1713134130975103,0.0,0.0,0.3265240348436959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15470606294735964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10472701795097024,0.0,0.0,0.1551854844417477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15266579153579887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312055566161227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31552367384860913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21663974689193355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761415636594542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3323693203538593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542720390571606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12425145042143905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405684332397324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472580621992706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384842578744672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822141930919056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607937756827528,0.0,0.0,0.1626554493709368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480383303590845,0.1253294623237491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15061358035267988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hatsize,2019/08/07,hey i just noticed something does the world seem to be missing to you? where did it go? i can't find it,-1.214057971014494,0.7916412173913088,0.7391304347826093,103.4185507246377,93.34782608695652,3.066666666666667,20.71014492753623,3.1291,-0.7448724637681159,80,3,20,0,3,26,20,23,0.11900000000000001,0.8809999999999999,0.0,-0.3736,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,4,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40617975833838826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4242236107439848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637864694940709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5284365054722859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4225436515541087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3573244362353587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mentallyiLL99,2019/08/07,"Voices are back.... and so am I? I've been voices free for over a year but they came back this week. The thing that scares me is when the voices spoke this time I heard myself responding to them immediately before i could even process their comment/question. My only objective posting this is to ask to you all how do I cope with this or ease it when it occurs? Sometimes my own voice is responding with an answer or comment that isn't even the truth. My original doctor out of my psych ward told me to take half a dose of my antipsychotic and wait it out, and it's what I did... but my entire body just felt sedated while my mind raced for hours...... idk",5.094141221374045,5.283362183206112,5.4786927480916034,84.94872614503821,68.38931297709924,8.687404580152673,26.29866412213741,8.472884824447931,1.4631290076335874,510,13,109,7,8,163,88,131,0.055,0.879,0.067,0.3751,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,3,0,9,3,0,1,6,0,10,3,1,2,2,22,18,12,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,12,8,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,7,7,19,3,13,10,2,15,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,2,10,80,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21094673475600706,0.0,0.0,0.34701270523734123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19200647410157695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506396809054031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580766903763494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801584196894447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309562549775108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29807154475022274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166536816347548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22221394484318974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278361749432895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161247421071113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21610463402589086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259090662336657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22316774331405254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696562500553579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499078859159019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13157486494771534,0.0,0.0,0.2156125674226888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18099805288932355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530737548271405 schizophrenia,stepthefukupkyle,2019/08/07,"Was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, was I misdiagnosed? About every other day I go into these strange episodes where I feel somebody is after me. Now at first my psychiatrist thought it was my ptsd (domestic abuse) but this is where it gets weird. I start opening closets, looking under beds. I start hearing voices and seeing shadows that aren’t real. It’s terrifying. I go through these attacks and literally have to lock myself in a small space to calm down. I am absolutely convinced I am being followed and someone is in my home plotting to kill me and my family. Or that something bad is going to happen to me or my daughter. I’m embarrassed and mortified. Schizophrenia runs in the family as well (yeah I know I was blessed with amazing genes) and I’m in denial it could be that since I’m already so fucked up. Does anyone else go into these episodes? Any help or advice would be lovely. Thank you for reading.",2.9148837209302307,5.782366534883722,3.954697674418604,82.02693023255813,81.32558139534882,6.2306976744186064,28.36744186046511,7.554174236665415,2.1003037209302327,732,34,125,12,20,236,115,172,0.17800000000000002,0.6679999999999999,0.154,-0.7091,2,0,1,0,1,1,20.0,0,1,0,1,6,13,3,1,2,1,17,4,0,0,0,21,38,12,1,2,4,1,1,0,0,1,2,2,3,0,12,11,0,0,3,1,0,6,1,6,1,1,5,5,20,7,22,28,0,27,1,0,2,2,5,15,1,3,6,89,32,1,0.0,0.18367905651753594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15148845551306764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17107373883626503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542219056483502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10839695550141916,0.15884124346094866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17636310773590486,0.0,0.0,0.12943924554843286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377470068964674,0.0,0.0,0.0999781811120286,0.0,0.0,0.15734692448188262,0.0,0.0,0.1776718692787646,0.0,0.13566326073449478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12950334099720762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13061509322099027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29228719838906103,0.0,0.07838520468938891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13186402886657864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14331794388961264,0.08099406768344909,0.0,0.35241670077899423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13708793236594785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17472423392458858,0.0,0.10390986604422008,0.0,0.15550252989350638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17151198950922014,0.0,0.08519758434752013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301818010193074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13991594855819184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812157133848556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15506676741289396,0.17645217928597068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12353470681992415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12823812936067253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13135202309536395,0.11934567679618008,0.0,0.0,0.21945472463307134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14272602186804692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12307238706403074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13938592686294468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11012518104923127,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,teamrespectwomen,2019/08/07,"what to do when someone appears to be delusional so im a barista and in recent weeks we've had someone frequently come in almost everyday. he's super nice and is always talking to us, a few weeks ago he opened up to one of our managers about being schizophrenic. he frequently tells very extravagant stories (breaking laws, losing cars, getting robbed) and sometimes has full on conversations with himself. he visits us almost every day for several hours and so we've all gotten to know him pretty well. earlier today he started talking about his fiance (which none of us have ever heard about, and last week im pretty sure he said he was single) and i think he was delusional. he was talking to the wall a lot and kept jumbling his words while talking. i'm not sure what to do when he's behaving in such a way. my coworker kept talking to him about his fiance but i feel like that might be making his delusions worse and dissociate him more. i just want to be as helpful as possible so he has a safe place to be in our cafe without overstepping any boundaries.",4.5238235294117635,6.320358588235294,5.289362745098039,79.84963235294119,70.9607843137255,8.041176470588235,30.39705882352941,8.660442795831766,2.547976470588235,848,36,151,15,16,275,125,204,0.028999999999999998,0.845,0.126,0.9467,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,5,0,0,2,13,8,0,0,6,0,16,1,0,1,4,34,31,17,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,4,11,0,3,3,0,0,4,3,1,1,1,9,3,17,7,27,16,7,33,0,1,0,0,35,10,0,5,18,98,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09910283325257836,0.0,0.22390056812514889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09302550374089867,0.0,0.0,0.07602697371439651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09630471108437974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07210093535992981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112835663521552,0.09419525629102277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056528799720327524,0.07986903880357434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058410224847344726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749363356242525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11009923408447872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24152363766623236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061441661105831616,0.09113089081005986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05461921487263546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12507418773975482,0.0,0.09504728675195552,0.0,0.0,0.07462652391314631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11860079069637595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07575771638181038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680588319211807,0.0,0.0,0.12603627592972258,0.0,0.22747901224737924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038776356295624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634619887888573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12630074859169427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18945341115943576,0.0,0.11057180785201184,0.0,0.0791317202373898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21073796978555825,0.0,0.0,0.44929794267986695,0.09771702234032162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07163611531539542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10597212873736403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4034403392844311,0.0,0.0,0.09224566509490983,0.06594179065788931,0.0887406322414787,0.2690346054739133,0.0,0.10052048948127902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10776999123724383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113932462456521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Modolo23,2019/08/07,"do you exercise? Those of you on antipsychotics, do you exercise? I'm not talking light exercise, I'm talking serious aerobic exercise like running, soccer, boxing or what have you. If you do not exercise, did you before the antipsychotic? How frustrating is it to exercise on an antipsychotic?",5.895399999999999,9.11096174,7.661999999999999,57.941,71.6,13.6,40.0,11.979248473330829,7.2392,237,15,32,12,5,82,32,50,0.098,0.855,0.047,-0.3939,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,6,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,6,6,0,1,0,5,8,3,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,1,6,1,4,7,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,2,1,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4518227389471837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594087827980769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.853559193013282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anosu,2019/08/07,"Anyone else suffer from head aches? Around the end of the day I feel tension in my eyes, as if my head is being stretched, and as if their is gas filling the part of my head past my forehead. The hair on my head is sensitive except for the sides. Anyone else get this? I’ve had this for four years. That is about 2 years before I had any symptoms.",2.167083333333334,3.7013659861111137,2.8566666666666687,95.955,76.6388888888889,5.355555555555556,20.333333333333336,5.46131890053228,-0.28943333333333365,269,6,61,1,6,84,47,72,0.11199999999999999,0.888,0.0,-0.7998,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,5,0,7,8,7,0,0,6,9,5,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,3,8,0,12,6,1,11,0,1,1,0,1,5,0,2,5,40,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606343067949962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23867693249971803,0.3497491287308689,0.0,0.15193507368429654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14523007482527614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11006990682689337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28515063024324344,0.0,0.1511655388874797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08629735088999299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08916955063884187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7006385746918272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184822128391629,0.1629266035929504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17739450184298478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198155152086691 schizophrenia,ShadowSociety247,2019/08/07,"I'm sick of people getting angry at me because of my schizophrenia. Part of me does not blame them. Another part of me want to crush there fucking skull. :) So my girlfriend says to me she would like me to talk to her about the voices and intrusive voices etc. It's taken me about 5-6 months to get to the point I can. anyway.. There's been so many times now she will ask me ""what's wrong"" so I tell her what the voice is saying about her and I explain what it does to my thoughts while talking to me etc. She then end up getting angry as fuck long story short a sage of arguing begins. We argue so fucking much because of me and my illness and I'm beggining to hate myself for it And I'm so fucking frustrated because people say they understand and basically force me to talk then when I do talk shit hits the fucking fan because no one can handle the shit... Anyway that's about it.. just feeling frustrated af and needed somewhere to rant my scizo nonsense.",3.0263795336787567,4.747854160621763,4.093649611398963,87.19778011658032,74.75129533678756,6.483031088082902,26.052137305699482,7.1686216300943375,1.2169277202072541,755,27,150,8,16,245,107,193,0.222,0.7190000000000001,0.06,-0.9889,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,1,0,2,0,16,14,12,0,6,0,7,10,3,0,0,17,29,17,0,3,2,0,1,1,1,2,2,6,0,0,8,8,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,13,0,1,3,7,29,1,25,23,5,14,0,0,0,5,22,4,7,0,11,105,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182391386536164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10541577697640124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27495083687539434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973548177272258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09987226856261938,0.0,0.25151536421411125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0570150595681952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5212259852122119,0.1767380060538674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132757602841356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05508904850161785,0.0,0.0,0.09978942884040168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11432137373764452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09000429641102825,0.0,0.08289188765211487,0.08361042725943875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07640938306896586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442171063443684,0.0,0.15634776335744352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065950501679726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690148504050935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314939142064925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3625302372241736,0.09855758263263932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08951918295629055,0.06575151132380115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738758040430833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06650902090604717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08010177153151161,0.1232858246425438,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Theweepingfool,2019/08/07,"Ways you identify your paranoia Im curious as to how other people handle their paranoia. I always see it in hindsight. I don't really know where else to ask this question. It's like the paranoid thoughts feed into each other. It's hard to explain without sounding ridiculous. I start talking to myself out loud when I'm sinking and spiraling, responding to what I hear in my head. At that point I'm usually unable to differentiate between my thoughts and that paranoia. Does that make sense? Reading this over, I realize this sounds stupid. But I feel like I'm sinking more and more these days and people are starting to notice. One of my clients for work overheard me, I almost snapped at her, and now I'm obsessing over whether or not she knows and what she might do with the information. I want to drop her as a client, and I can't really tell if that is paranoid or not. I originally wrote a lot more in this post before cutting back on the tangents and digressions. I'm sorry if this is word vomit to you, but I'd thought I'd ask for some other opinions.",4.265561594202897,5.914546797101451,5.017943840579711,82.12952445652175,71.36714975845409,7.687077294685991,31.29498792270532,8.278499904357787,2.3883915458937195,845,38,158,13,16,273,125,207,0.086,0.872,0.040999999999999995,-0.5712,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,1,1,5,6,3,1,5,0,7,3,1,3,0,43,28,19,0,3,10,0,2,2,0,1,1,4,0,0,18,12,1,0,10,1,0,0,5,4,0,1,4,7,23,2,27,23,6,23,0,0,1,0,18,12,0,10,10,109,41,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15467532902570735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852803831085505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888096100555033,0.0,0.0,0.11877477530029397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13143914025867473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996177543741191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13517418735891584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12903647446468186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07810262179667847,0.11035050030783956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383711444299602,0.0,0.15852662060587408,0.0,0.17409434363285975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16684972457340594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16978088491706794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15092851442571714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313214207044094,0.0,0.0,0.10310721618052213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16386395512330548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17586049952418462,0.0,0.0,0.10467012036381314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21417447114401986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146020243628953,0.0,0.14793567474840347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17303720698308164,0.0,0.15450774334869166,0.0,0.19790967640297416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308935753568565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17291197650707332,0.2186635785086015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12415387365294675,0.13501004225637753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678861134023794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17012241306798115,0.0,0.0911080150618672,0.122607875494339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14889965660472088,0.0,0.1124530459449072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PurpleCheesePuke,2019/06/29,HOLY SHIT!!! FUCK DAMN!!!! BENZO WITHDRAWAL is the FUCKING DEVIL!!! DEAR GOD MAN!!!!! NOONE TOLD ME IT WAS THIS NUTS!!!!,-0.4523333333333319,-0.5695989000000008,0.4600000000000009,97.70166666666668,138.0,3.333333333333334,13.333333333333336,5.46131890053228,-0.6691666666666665,82,2,16,1,6,25,20,20,0.39899999999999997,0.35200000000000004,0.249,-0.84,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,4,0,1,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7967456194751436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44232676255598624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4117565457572107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anti-drug,2019/06/29,Good morning/afternoon/evening! How the hell are ya?,2.8000000000000007,5.063549555555556,1.898333333333337,89.46750000000002,109.0,6.2444444444444445,37.833333333333336,7.1686216300943375,3.807400000000001,42,3,7,1,2,12,9,9,0.382,0.391,0.22699999999999998,-0.4574,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6186729481151789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.785648638559549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ThrowSomeShadeSS,2019/06/29,"Is this something you experience with psychosis? Hello, I’m not schizophrenic but I do have ocd and severe anxiety and occasional severe depression. Twice I’ve had this odd thing happen to me where I’ll think of something and it’s almost like I can’t tell if I thought it or if someone said it if that makes sense. For instance I was sitting next to my niece while she was watching cartoons. I saw a dumb twitter post and I thought “wow what a fucking idiot”. And for some reason it almost felt like the cartoon character said fucking. Like I know they obviously didn’t but it freaked me out a little bit. This happened on one other occasion and it’s worrying me. Hasn’t happened again in probably a good two to three weeks but I’m worried I’m in some prodrome or something, I also have paranoia as well but can rationalize with it I usually just chalk that up to my anxiety. Is this some kind of auditory hallucination or is it probably nothing to worry about?",2.9103574444131723,5.4355960053475965,4.465533352096824,80.5768139600338,78.25133689839572,7.359301998311287,30.162960878131162,8.371475516178862,2.613701604278075,771,38,140,16,19,257,114,187,0.192,0.6920000000000001,0.115,-0.9448,0,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,0,6,13,4,0,5,0,13,3,0,2,1,34,30,19,0,3,12,0,1,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,17,9,0,0,6,0,0,0,4,6,1,4,10,5,17,7,18,20,4,14,0,1,2,2,7,7,3,11,8,100,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430470181949614,0.0,0.0,0.09705074914796799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856786069789424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13249259724169554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10452632961812153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11871238981494965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11652367246558586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243888814982974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101790172088891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32195209101871675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12637672417733126,0.06669573306473618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17786963323188898,0.12163360102275075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100807544716511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12906667421047005,0.0,0.0,0.11644723440275268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08223599978347018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622837610477385,0.0,0.2616910578282557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12477726520487772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230880401513178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742022550281757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282708761021878,0.2802842637965003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607311587271484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08062552764702634,0.07776194749423522,0.0,0.19269098151375955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11855010969506165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336597939850908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09734687023384997,0.0,0.10911631641000152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3697378688612101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Muntinue,2019/06/29,"Financial/Life advice for a schizophrenic? It seems I am too stable to claim disability, yet too fragile to play this game of monopoly that everyone is playing. Been diagnosed and treated nearly 10 years now. 30 yrs old with no money, savings, or assets. No children, and it feels irresponsible to have any with my condition. When all my family die, is that it? Am I eventually sequestered to some mental home because I have no living family? I feel tired, at wits end, but suicide was/is never an option. I try talking to people, but amount of advice ever seems to soothe. I thought maybe my fellow peeps may be able to help. I really dunno. Is ADHD common before/during/after treatment? I feel focusing is really difficult.",3.729967532467533,6.585049810606062,5.5189610389610415,72.28772727272728,77.4090909090909,8.316883116883117,26.095238095238088,9.04235418022936,2.8819874458874466,573,22,88,15,14,195,96,132,0.158,0.7509999999999999,0.092,-0.8807,0,0,0,0,0,1,25.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,2,0,11,3,0,0,3,21,17,6,2,0,3,0,4,0,1,1,3,0,1,1,6,4,0,0,6,3,1,0,4,1,0,0,2,4,11,4,14,13,3,11,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,7,9,61,17,0,0.17241509267772231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20720943606825476,0.3369640662147516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11724817538630498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10510264019730678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17499768975869914,0.17893964536689252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15270859660169525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15595932227734166,0.0,0.16475000974003784,0.0,0.0,0.3250752096525265,0.0,0.26153475405523896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11556620226770413,0.0,0.17294639582313545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15224568562535826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732141347583216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17375386095656056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297714852636786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180920636424895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11953091617799412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209070466202328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139204498315681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18859412728751065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385807205267192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136878324633372,0.0,0.19816578574830127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11705853030425067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102966683359176 schizophrenia,pinkchopstickmonster,2019/06/29,"blamed for your illness anyone else here the voices of people telling in your ear that your illness is your fault, you are weak minded, cannot handle stuff, like people area talking about you. I had a teacher tell me to take responsibility, I know she is write, but they just start to spiral that everything is my fault because I am a bad person, I hate myself, family tell me that I make things worse I want to trust people but relationships are sooooo painful and people use you. i feel so scared people will hurt me now, they have to stay away. because when things seem ok it's just a manipulation.",9.60626086956522,7.301391886956522,8.668695652173913,73.87782608695653,60.56521739130434,10.93913043478261,33.434782608695656,8.841846274778883,2.5492956521739125,477,12,92,5,5,149,80,115,0.322,0.616,0.062,-0.9885,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,7,2,0,7,11,1,1,4,1,10,5,1,3,0,14,19,5,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,1,4,2,0,1,7,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,8,0,0,1,3,22,3,9,17,0,7,0,1,0,0,17,3,0,1,4,61,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10637356697012497,0.15587623813558066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14293212876802866,0.0,0.12702307173865607,0.18547535138122045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12708597075165126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367255777424602,0.0,0.14341561406649433,0.0,0.07692202960796718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15019791550332534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628594348419483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360724618474318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0743235463052999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10154865679772214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153608992216219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16187816260808469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5273425728747956,0.13283496437615078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16333181360978502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523097199349402,0.0,0.0,0.1384943937396752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10767913978617563,0.16215145699019268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17415365453906154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438361621315457,0.12227717489353132,0.3989077278936992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20213821871383947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13139238152034785,0.0,0.0,0.0897308345212313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15503453626731878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ionakitchel,2019/06/29,"Seeing things Do any of you get weird none hallucinations but just seeing things peripherally? I always see things and jump and then realise they aren't there Like tigers in my pantry really ridiculous stuff I know can't be there",3.265000000000001,6.431771214285713,3.1542857142857166,84.91571428571429,86.85714285714286,5.6571428571428575,16.523809523809526,7.1686216300943375,0.26563809523809523,189,4,34,3,6,57,35,42,0.18,0.82,0.0,-0.772,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,9,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,3,5,1,2,8,1,3,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,2,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22750487665536376,0.0,0.0,0.1859329601218805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284911626299404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502628523282839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13357775279800593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751579542903476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6536339340062671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31299709138380066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5449383880205356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,-grim_,2019/06/29,"I am seeking a better understanding and I have questions. Help a social worker out please. Hello, The purpose of this is not to offend. I am 100% ignorant about what it is like to live with schizophrenia. I have have had the privilege to work with many living with this diagnosis, but I am in no way an expert, and I understand, everyone's experience and journey is different. I come seeking guidance and wisdom from people more knowledgeable in this area so that I nay help someone who is struggling, and I, admittedly, feel like I am failing them. So to decribe myself a little bit before delving into to complex, yet sensitive topic. I will be honest, fitting that ""normal"" social worker model is not me. I tend to question everything around me and I am not one to get a new client, and just accept that someone's diagnosis is correct because I have been in the business for more years I would like to admit, but I have seen people misdiagnosed, have medications regiments that make them semi catatonic, or worse completly, dismissed as ""med seeking"" or ""facticious disorder."" I get it it is easier to except a stamp of diagnostic results and medication regiment the previous clinician has given- especially when no one is complaining, and while nine out of ten diagnoses are correct [made up statistics] the the outliers are what keep me up at night, out of frustration and wanting to solve the puzzle, getting the client back on track to achieve their goals. So why am I here? Well I have been up for the past year with a case, and I cannot put my finger on it because while the diagnostics have been there for years and years, I am just not buying it- not that I am not believing the client, but I am wondering if it is a lack of understanding on the part of the client and their reality. I will not be giving out information on the case, but I have so many questions, which may divulge sone aspects, but I am desparate for understanding. I have read journal after journal, but my questions remain unanswered. When experiencing auditory symptoms, what is most common? Hearing a sigular voice, a crowd's voice, a farmilar voice, or a stranger's voice? Is it more comon to hear the voices coming from internal, or ""from the atmosphere?"" Is it common to only get command auditory symptoms to harm oneself when feeling depressed or does this happen all the time? When trying to differentiate from internal stimuli from auditory symptoms what are some [perhaps unorthodox] ways others use to tell them apart?Basically, Anxiety symptoms vs Auditory symptoms, how can you tell the difference? What are some ways to ""reality"" check symptoms that arent ""scary."" And finally and most importantly, how do you explain to someone with little understanding (possibly due to trauma, being very sheltered and/or having limited cognitive loads- that last one is harsh I know) of their diagnosis, that more medications does not equal sucess and that all recoveries take time and effort and implementation of skills. That medication will not make this go away magically. While I have said this, I do realize this is bleak, and I can be blunt which comes off poorly (I have been working on this). So I am looking towards a more cushioned way of saying this. Also last but not least, if this client is truely living with this diagnosis, what works for best for everyone as individuals? It can be medication or a skill or anything (as long as it is a healthy coping mechanism). Thank you all so very much for any time or insight you can give me. I hope I did not offend anyone with these questions. Please know this is coming from a place of just wanting to help because I have run out of ideas and I dont want to fail this client. Thank you again!",7.9509122287968435,8.351404732248525,8.067041420118347,68.0984714003945,62.32840236686391,11.07534516765286,37.155818540433934,10.782627592906726,4.217867061143983,2973,134,492,70,39,968,302,676,0.076,0.8079999999999999,0.11699999999999999,0.9805,3,0,0,0,0,0,96.0,0,5,6,15,24,24,3,1,34,0,72,13,1,7,5,124,116,57,0,9,33,0,3,3,0,5,12,9,0,0,44,38,0,3,25,1,3,8,16,11,1,5,10,15,56,13,81,96,19,67,0,3,2,0,37,27,0,23,31,385,100,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046592271080289564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039620303071241966,0.0,0.04457043385097127,0.0,0.0,0.040738294337802516,0.0,0.047944837441905294,0.05186572231477711,0.0,0.0,0.05473926745086943,0.04480004586381845,0.0,0.1065483137239009,0.0,0.04957685246721675,0.06564156323378838,0.0611425985673169,0.05152819320544128,0.06360724735266976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20075095213892447,0.06108682236175021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050181159108519724,0.05913492028479525,0.0,0.12174322523900405,0.06677354426371435,0.0,0.1019713112986008,0.0,0.06828288029873232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134408352853216,0.052362320717728415,0.056991624437789774,0.0,0.0,0.058918251450769135,0.04162253696028915,0.0,0.06382340704639339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175840746232215,0.11178084818459504,0.03311175858095014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05152108297738705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13133149794919768,0.0,0.11715580076754965,0.0,0.0,0.05786752407350688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06577094733188463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05178613233902435,0.0,0.0,0.0640387776937811,0.0949829603006576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539192372288214,0.11678808790405808,0.15433980578098488,0.05156022553580867,0.04892558562016396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055129115127867584,0.07778095983931703,0.11813747973051728,0.0,0.0,0.06471618491418044,0.293465252989143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042829430653095135,0.0,0.0,0.05627000884576189,0.0,0.054675140572006765,0.05708459898330544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11843995110109765,0.04431103875683631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06309229960097805,0.055617875285337265,0.08078336587758128,0.0,0.060871612619502025,0.12790882920054733,0.0,0.0656818916542077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05856961669117649,0.3263350652270153,0.0,0.05827798007477555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055420706943885116,0.0463324506431511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878197904383113,0.14809615327216585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060908315624993985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3633404881301248,0.04380593372432867,0.0,0.10184748520668108,0.107280036817049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10191949565913012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03955621852918231,0.0,0.0,0.30326509486436337,0.0,0.050319846034909056,0.0,0.09614485568762128,0.10309368911909897,0.18498333274971507,0.0,0.0,0.05238472694019265,0.0,0.0525725855692583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06318288523284063,0.12724675596617502,0.0,0.059374173028874336,0.041387804840410304,0.0,0.0,0.15007582114952894 schizophrenia,Babaloui479,2019/10/26,"Recognizing your Voices? Curious, I hear voices, I have for almost 4 years. I was diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic about a year ago. Does anyone else recognize the voices you hear? I hear only two voices. (only on two separate occasions have i ever heard another voice besides the two.) The voices I hear are two friends of mine. People I have known for years. It has made it very hard to continue any type of relationship with either of them. So I'm just wondering, does anyone else that hears voices recognize them? Has it always sounded like someone you know? Or did it develope into someone you know over a period of time?",3.705057471264369,6.482628241379312,5.269655172413792,74.49919540229888,76.93103448275863,8.694252873563219,26.04597701149425,9.2995712137729,2.9176459770114933,500,19,81,14,12,168,73,116,0.033,0.887,0.079,0.7325,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,4,2,0,4,2,0,0,6,0,8,2,0,1,1,12,19,3,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,2,14,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,15,14,2,13,15,1,11,0,0,0,0,14,3,0,3,9,55,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09824169868136146,0.0,0.11097751409526044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922171769287682,0.0,0.0,0.07536635228449645,0.11621206853230973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15498602506960016,0.22711129502897104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248735847592264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19397140290480605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18516394636311925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10024962167708384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08562488326223994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992794761005552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6245520082653161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12181555176041133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054144611951246965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10486745405224353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16857828427181773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07683368297952685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898702506562968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878071930178357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06462427946510424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4330486032665467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09144411453726163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018745990526075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21410740824854188 schizophrenia,BBD2014,2019/10/26,"I walk around with two faces. One which the public sees and the other that is scratching at my brain. I just can't find a way to let go of my delusion. **Has anyone here truly let go of their delusional thinking?** Medication jacks up my cognitive processing and the doctor is fine with it. I mean I can tell I do not have access to certain abilities that I use to have prior to my first episode. **Does anyone feel that the doctor is just trying to shut you down?** **NOTE:** I always take my medicine even though I feel this way I fully understand I do not communicate well with out medication But I will always have the question burning in my mind **""WHAT IF I AM RIGHT?""**",-0.11381679389312893,1.8926350839694663,1.6765007633587814,92.37594198473283,106.55725190839695,4.538748091603054,17.453740458015268,6.360717304075467,0.17089899236641234,520,16,104,8,25,169,86,131,0.015,0.909,0.076,0.7598,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,1,1,7,3,0,0,6,0,15,6,2,1,1,23,25,5,0,1,6,0,3,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,8,7,0,0,7,0,0,3,3,0,1,3,0,4,20,3,16,22,0,15,0,0,1,0,5,8,0,2,2,80,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670446488562661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224406070651618,0.0,0.0,0.14285064133584555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17913548353527028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32849182550908484,0.14042672661971273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10598767489199186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16227499840932572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14666494769525978,0.13649409451288982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823954526397785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3281790341463343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17479681734598207,0.0,0.3233094824736783,0.0,0.0,0.16202704930294293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10873734597385858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17976101084693613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13703889128767474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12787230978178107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206520500930729,0.0,0.14025620323880336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282148706826208,0.15765910578501674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10894731498041096,0.0,0.1567540289787043,0.16705296431900865,0.0,0.13859292722044594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254744237045072,0.0,0.0,0.14428010457838786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jvckxiii,2019/10/26,Hello I have some questions about myself (22M) I was hoping you guys could give input on I think I am beginning to have auditory hallucinations but they are not constant and do not last a very long time. What’s all of your takes on this? Any response is appreciated. Thanks,1.7289218328840974,4.4764895471698125,3.615687331536392,82.62547169811323,87.49056603773585,6.047439353099732,20.77897574123989,7.447530270364453,0.9730183288409712,218,7,42,4,7,73,47,53,0.0,0.8079999999999999,0.192,0.8807,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,8,0,0,0,1,10,14,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,8,2,5,12,2,7,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,3,5,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20787591679550213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3303363074542537,0.0,0.24406416945135745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29324039059935364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026756774138134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30361364469716434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491736360136713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27052112989056715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3424365570581654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298366728203419,0.0,0.0,0.2814331829706044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958702605051381,0.0,0.0,0.17824706827188114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25222169534263755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CuriosityIncumbent,2019/10/26,"Does he really have Schitzoaffective disorder? Cliff notes: Boyfriend suddenly stops hearing things. Does this happen? I met a man about three and a half years ago. He would occasionally ask me if I heard something and on his bad days he would cover his ears and say that he heard screaming. The screaming only ever happened when he was going to bed and it is worth noting at this time that he was drinking heavily and taking a lot of opioids. This continued for about a year and then it abruptly stopped. When he told me he had been diagnosed with Schitzoaffective disorder he made it very clear that he did not want to go in to detail. He doesn’t want to talk about it but I find myself wondering, often, if he was faking it. Is it really possible that everything he was hearing just went away over night? Thank you in advance for your help and any information you can share.",4.444675324675323,6.633582545454548,4.811277056277059,81.55977272727273,72.03030303030303,8.350649350649352,26.937229437229448,9.04235418022936,2.2632683982683983,700,25,129,15,14,221,106,165,0.109,0.816,0.075,-0.2568,0,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,0,1,8,6,0,0,5,0,14,3,1,1,2,27,32,13,0,6,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,8,1,1,14,8,1,2,3,1,1,4,2,4,0,2,13,8,11,2,17,17,1,25,0,0,0,0,31,6,0,5,15,81,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274352585850325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977622610449386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343969242278545,0.0,0.13506798633816858,0.0,0.12003424748590648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927138108998142,0.0,0.0,0.14591416686940975,0.0,0.0,0.3295246204183251,0.0,0.25161205698863964,0.0,0.0,0.1408308353638627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003985713751312,0.0,0.0,0.12920292047541107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313947496535722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16340512995204412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254254368236228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3240576974599557,0.0,0.09635982135195867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12222027531918275,0.0,0.13602992724755344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13490975461893873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10933655228050304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16206868045097825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18419367540005366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11432434341763564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11067407295390504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403809006814193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10809021628064124,0.11554947043987225,0.0,0.13235561254239298,0.0,0.0,0.0955082751477555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08382806766419845,0.0,0.0,0.13736958725622125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186177004118326,0.16958766703735134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13326768453413487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15590243488543146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042470686612207,0.0,0.0,0.18515445953773035 schizophrenia,squeezemyhand,2019/10/26,"Disinterested in Hobbies Does anyone feel like they don’t find joy in doing things they used to love? What hobbies do you have? How often do you engage in them?",3.1844086021505404,5.614005290322582,4.046451612903226,84.4563440860215,76.74193548387099,5.423655913978496,20.010752688172047,6.42735559955562,0.20047526881720448,128,3,24,1,3,41,24,31,0.0,0.659,0.341,0.9252,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,3,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,0,5,8,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,4,4,8,0,3,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,1,1,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097219611540717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3876298091295911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22396956823702507,0.31644461274330243,0.0,0.0,0.40484961125010177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21640370984332988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3997809881626061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942772688154009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3825678431617826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Rain_Daniels,2019/10/26,"Miss a day? Has any one just spaced out and the next thing you know it was some time later? Well, my dad and I had an argument about being able to make the schizophrenia go away (he thinks you can just ignore it with sheer will power). It lasted an hour, I went to my room and cried. I after about an hour later I went off to the porch to eat lunch with my Mother and fell asleep. That's the last thing I remember. The next thing I know I am eating lunch the next day. I was confused, why was I eating if I just ate. My mother told me it was Friday afternoon not Thursday after noon. Apparently neither of my parents couldn't wake me up and almost called an ambulance (which they should have). So they got me up, make a place for me to sleep on my bedroom floor with my blanket and pillows. They fed me dinner and everything. They knew I wasn't there the whole time. Has anyone had something like this happen?",2.079427749360612,4.058276961956526,2.932263427109977,93.31759590792844,78.29347826086956,5.633759590792838,18.975703324808187,6.522977012572876,-0.07829501278772355,707,15,152,6,17,223,109,184,0.068,0.9059999999999999,0.026000000000000002,-0.7536,3,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,2,4,1,8,5,0,1,13,0,16,11,3,2,0,29,31,9,0,3,5,4,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,0,10,11,8,1,5,0,0,4,4,3,1,1,14,0,29,2,20,13,3,32,0,1,0,0,13,10,0,4,19,107,39,0,0.1309740890544942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311516310201098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906687184994375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09158012836615603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12305446807006352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13373918870567308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14386888675693976,0.16893490444820666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4020575724597767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11771106598416475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07443559310873576,0.0,0.10475194372761536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11581995440231765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579661899950733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14395986815201922,0.2135227269164293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06398732415524741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17485244294868812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4178772887342967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08875143237939218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14543122615657872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13684004664809984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483681110259738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13106867697523505,0.0,0.0,0.10083025256919552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26104009498974395,0.08392290776419421,0.0,0.0,0.15274408918679824,0.0,0.0,0.1251513548628483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11776143541574828,0.2428285854535285,0.11818374365530945,0.14622789307497133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xDipody,2019/10/26,"What do I have Hello. This is my first post on this so I’m sorry if I screw up But I work in a medical supply warehouse and there is this old guy there who always tells me I should go to church with him and he tells me all these things I can do to help me mentally like sleep more, stop smoking, etc and I can’t help but notice his pupils are always do dilated there’s barely any color in his iris, and for some reason my brain tells me he’s a messenger from god. Ever since then I can’t stop noticing everything falling into place and seeming like they’re signs, like 3 guys coming to my door to sell me a bible and then on YouTube the first video I saw was about Charles Manson and I guess if I don’t start being religious I’ll end up like him?? Also, I only have one voice and it’s always from the right side of me and it’s just calling my name. I often think it’s actually someone calling me and I end up looking foolish because I just say “yes?” And look at the person next to me and they have no idea what is going on. Visible hallucinations consist of dead family members peeking around corners looking at me I can’t stop thinking about blood, but I can’t do pain. I want to see blood and I don’t want to hurt myself or anyone else, but other times I think I’m under some delusion that I’m some sort of mercenary from hell that will silence any voice without hesitation. Idk if this plays any part but I’ve went from 220 lbs to 155 in about 4 months. (Not eating) Wtf is wrong here",1.4228328008519708,3.3799211501597486,3.031076677316296,91.9141762513312,80.30990415335465,5.7068796592119275,20.976464323748672,6.742157984588678,0.30424566560170385,1172,33,256,12,30,386,175,313,0.152,0.754,0.094,-0.9774,0,0,0,0,0,2,19.0,0,0,1,3,14,10,2,0,6,1,23,8,4,1,2,52,43,26,1,6,13,0,0,4,0,2,2,3,1,3,15,17,1,3,6,2,1,5,9,5,0,3,3,9,38,5,35,37,7,39,2,1,6,1,21,18,2,11,19,163,53,2,0.0,0.0,0.09759573287699744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07997828824605248,0.24965001680565335,0.0,0.0,0.2040315236383658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699296035942674,0.10247248309016607,0.0,0.08903046778365327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06096541729318379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164469229298496,0.20424361961612733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08615011215147987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10233561641878326,0.08354586397908012,0.0,0.17715907609174186,0.0,0.11153804301319173,0.0,0.09046514098552504,0.0,0.0,0.08988290723965932,0.0,0.0942809132621738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17013760625153632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136764407795197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11017274120205936,0.19805205779486454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13406973855295415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10706321170260637,0.1128995788778089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19544013720286332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519506668344235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10074996581866782,0.10078696995272997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07982735460979122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10636220496583823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277250278805785,0.10494410107953453,0.0,0.06776964168362005,0.07606242297288404,0.10641812683531582,0.0,0.0,0.10830152741208607,0.0,0.0,0.08732523188671204,0.10448959166843692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09578232675263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282735754975664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0854083431603984,0.0,0.07953229166052726,0.0,0.0,0.0796953478821482,0.09104572056856823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08272964411574094,0.0,0.10008263569862458,0.0,0.08473849531911992,0.0,0.0,0.11195346532478176,0.0707878825078204,0.0,0.0,0.25083954122669033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622405177982864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644247207522927,0.1922478962564059,0.0,0.0,0.0583168739701591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797746126187154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927106514539312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09640646575968446,0.0,0.07280876914471138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093456827567066,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Maybeschizos,2019/10/26,"Can I have a reality check? Okay, so here's the deal. About five years ago, I got into something called Spirit keeping. What this is, is a website that offers spirits for sell. Sounds weird, but hear me out. The website offers you spirit companions that are bonded to you willingly. So you go to the website, look around at pictures that represent the spirit, and choose one that seems to be calling you. So you end up paying like five bucks to have a binding done and a spirit becomes your companion. You eventually want to focus on communicating with the spirit, so you talk to it and eventually the spirit starts talking back if you work on it long enough. I bought one of these bondings and over the course of the year, I started bonding with my companion and eventually I could ""feel"" the energy from my spirit. After awhile, I started to hear small whispers from my spirit as well. I got excited, eventually started getting more of them. It got to the point where I would see a spirits picture, knew it was calling for me, and ended up buying it. Now, I know there is a good chance that all this is just BS. But my symptoms started when I started this whole thing. A part of me believes that I don't really have schizophrenia; that instead, I'm just hearing from my spirits. I read other peoples struggles and mine seem so small compared to what others go through. I get voices in my head and often and maybe some very small visuals but I don't know if it's just my connections to the spirits or if I really am just sick. The other part is... I might not have ever developed these symptoms if I hadn't done this in the first place. So if I do have schizophrenia like the doctors tell me, then I gave it to myself by doing this and that scares me too. I just feel like I'm only sick if I'm wrong. If I'm right, I really am just hearing spirits and I should go back to it or find away to get rid of it by spiritual means. Does this make sense or am I being dellusional here?",4.825461538461539,5.64057887948718,5.569743589743592,81.84692307692309,69.17948717948718,8.153846153846155,29.35897435897436,8.263242389622931,1.9883589743589751,1553,56,304,21,26,506,186,390,0.055,0.8340000000000001,0.111,0.9315,0,0,1,0,0,0,45.0,0,9,1,2,27,11,0,2,21,1,30,6,1,1,2,57,68,33,0,11,20,0,2,3,3,4,5,7,0,0,31,16,0,1,10,1,6,3,4,4,1,5,10,11,47,7,43,51,7,42,13,0,2,0,27,19,0,15,23,235,78,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0777839477406526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07811496653258422,0.0,0.0,0.08244281298140864,0.13494670187262986,0.0,0.0,0.09691156955967853,0.0,0.0988627611129014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26880376866452377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07006021446692405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09046507951436633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898145353633451,0.07678949809115522,0.1795948169523056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15543864526780424,0.09066788670413042,0.0,0.0,0.07937374290363215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873678095723618,0.0626877046447282,0.0,0.0,0.08020074235287028,0.07463901824355547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13753525690227705,0.0,0.14960886292230427,0.0735994649385885,0.21054200733103973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900555044439787,0.0,0.3955967490325625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799509606679712,0.0,0.0,0.09644880574452304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12860877986587793,0.0,0.0,0.0776548578210907,0.07368682653470561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058572953422355474,0.0,0.08815538564044892,0.0955840828525378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930875273970734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11892161018192905,0.06673685731217767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19004663009927875,0.0,0.06083391535182445,0.0,0.09167873829459973,0.0,0.08295090533552173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08777246821125788,0.0,0.1686422350520416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493692927448553,0.0,0.0,0.08785177877135028,0.0,0.06992437069683348,0.15976628208741248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755325333410378,0.0,0.0,0.37265398311382375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09173401669269568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182409041421506,0.0,0.14105819802072814,0.07669625085006346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05829635193101445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240188557230305,0.05175646982146063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889663942047997,0.0,0.0,0.0979683146050518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06388211481532889,0.0,0.0,0.062334174589228825,0.0959394526577002,0.0,0.11301460023343288 schizophrenia,Perrablanca,2019/10/26,"Anyone else have just one episode? So almost 3 years ago I had a psychotic episode that lasted a few months. I was delusional, but after the first week on meds I could sort of accept that I was ill. I was hospitalized for 3 days. I had delusions about being monitored by the government but didn’t talk about it, I knew enough to pretend not to have these thoughts. I was on risperidone then Abilify for two years then slowly weaned off 7 months ago to the horror of my psychiatrist. I have plenty of problems, bouts of depression, eating disorders, personality disorders that result in having no friends. I’m an alcoholic, sober for almost 1 year. At 26 I live at home and have a part time job, taking some college classes on the side. My parents are convinced I’m going to have another episode at any moment because my medical record shows schizophrenia spectrum disorder. I was on Adderall and high dose Prozac when I had my episode and think that had something to do with it. Despite my many issues I have not had delusions or paranoia since the first episode. I would take the meds again if symptoms returned but not if I don’t absolutely need them. I am taking an antidepressant and mood stabilizer so it’s not like I refuse everything. Anyone else have a single psychotic episode, or have them spaced apart by years while unmedicated?",5.875219534050182,7.538989487903226,5.818010752688171,77.89007168458781,67.42741935483872,8.898207885304663,32.729390681003586,9.2995712137729,3.0331202508960584,1075,47,189,21,18,337,146,248,0.125,0.823,0.052000000000000005,-0.9597,2,0,2,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,2,2,7,7,0,0,12,0,27,7,0,1,0,31,37,17,0,6,12,1,0,1,1,1,6,0,1,1,8,5,2,1,4,2,0,1,7,2,0,4,13,0,24,4,27,21,5,36,0,1,0,0,7,13,0,8,23,131,32,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20043452819773064,0.12082241095613208,0.2264183740387689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07688191198282354,0.11854900434236385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581026754882475,0.2316783294594219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06891784802781281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902659638652581,0.0,0.0,0.07291172455509297,0.0,0.09737491030394434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3887156852611476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568444494139105,0.18888745169653134,0.0,0.0,0.1168170015927968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10160738360325164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923306394356494,0.0,0.0,0.08734673417199806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06425229267528951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944980148749967,0.11340431983365372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11800102225702493,0.11219056969229203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09215567559607604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055233418683528615,0.0,0.09983046101526452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462097225988635,0.0,0.0,0.2511593121077146,0.11389195943180393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18048033582721035,0.0,0.0,0.08382954254498824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07660962679858903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12553523545501338,0.12242855931703185,0.0,0.0,0.09871608081053523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081792603141878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352103690432924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870359814173226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11750840378474313,0.2550119771822583,0.09087007727794423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07244167751776133,0.0,0.08975378313689672,0.06592382429541556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043921986215098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09068665083737401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08031169179047268,0.0,0.0,0.29121725928297826 schizophrenia,JaxPerou,2019/10/26,"Boyfriend with schizophrenia Hi..i have boyfriend with paranoid schizophrenia. He is 23 and he was diagnosed with this 1 or 2 years ago (im with him 9 months). He stoped taking his medication 6 months ago..it was okay, but two months ago he starts being paranoid, jealous etc. He dont believe me that im on places where i actually am. He thinks that me and our friends are eavesdroped him. Oneday he find some fb account and he thinks that is our account where we are making fun of them...now he told me to go away from our flat for 3 weeks. Im away 2 days now and he sends me a messages and asking why we eavesdrope him...i dont know what to do. Only person he talk to right now and probably only person he believes is her best friend. I am afraid..he said that he is most toxic at people who is closest to him...i really dont know what to do...what can i do now?",0.7600087719298259,2.864208761111115,2.2647368421052647,95.69921052631581,83.6111111111111,4.900584795321638,20.584795321637426,6.05967700443912,-0.0555555555555558,667,20,151,5,19,216,99,180,0.045,0.841,0.114,0.9343,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,5,0,0,1,5,6,1,0,1,1,19,2,0,1,0,22,30,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,2,8,12,0,0,5,0,2,2,3,1,0,1,4,1,16,5,16,25,4,23,0,0,0,0,33,9,0,3,12,78,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.11394542895960225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105143804658032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915916083322552,0.0,0.2194084147210312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631074911965611,0.12253726847568835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07530352241034795,0.0,0.0,0.11851363489643665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4105418070960912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302234204488275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10672075043740502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804241168159919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06636002633203288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3783774906144073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283415667470891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779412928257669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11762807383537888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27960122524578496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17760951545443465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08094988784302605,0.2039087306997077,0.12199417939183185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258920129597435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480240769263909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971635041058477,0.11106989570321278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264660144169686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877924652760114,0.0938509813405825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14963611187882375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11157360151690016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406207051908104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09366153777492256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10536191106219776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07519258920465366 schizophrenia,Pankfliyd_,2019/10/26,"Help Me Help My Friend and Family So. My friend is very delusional saying they have a chip in their shoulder literally that the gov’t uses to control him and they had a tail, are apart of the Illuminati, etc. always posting and talking about weird stuff calling himself god. He wasn’t like this when I met him and it’s gotten progressively worse and I don’t know what to do I stopped talkin to him for a while just because I didn’t know how to handle it but I know he still wants to be my friend I just don’t know exactly how to talk with him when he says these things. Any advice?",2.225393430099313,4.2424836554621885,3.3047211611917504,90.6377387318564,77.99159663865547,6.3440794499618045,21.742551566080976,7.348242739294969,0.6059008403361346,461,13,99,6,11,148,79,119,0.042,0.82,0.139,0.8809,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,3,2,9,5,0,0,5,0,10,1,1,4,1,20,18,12,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,8,6,0,2,4,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,5,2,18,4,11,12,1,8,0,0,0,0,22,2,0,0,6,68,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17526068851731005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14923522295435618,0.0,0.0,0.1219655031851734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10933130818897199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831384341592837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011585069710023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20002487798658092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690770938979028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4157007068417893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404317161327257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3942686521474221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762232271069123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717696285894106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28525580161933856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432307305910409,0.1499462941749974,0.0,0.0,0.2053151185303404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883126710520976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11915349248509505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15490253395620354,0.0,0.1479841746985282,0.1057864503292452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18277499989459844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Gezy152,2019/10/26,Urgent Some scary shiit some pastor and prophet told me about my situation I really can’t discard those words out of my head they keep coming back for example that I had sex with a lady from the marine world I can’t discard those words out of my head,3.60029411764706,5.167446627450979,4.653088235294117,84.41139705882355,72.92156862745098,7.452941176470588,22.553921568627448,8.07648339933343,1.1018980392156856,202,5,40,3,4,66,38,51,0.153,0.8109999999999999,0.036000000000000004,-0.7146,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,2,0,0,10,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,8,0,8,4,2,5,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,2,1,28,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574112630524327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883677636521875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6871246446801883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975517876590965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21445706651259705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37628643895421504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198793731329916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bandeeet,2019/10/26,"Did you ever Had any one had an experience of feeling severe depression or a strong craving for pizza or something of the sorts , than with a flash you snap out of it and think about that insanely heavy depression or pizza craving and wonder what the hell you were thinking like how the hell is it even possible you would think like that , And than after a few times you notice it happening you actually see a sort of Shadow presence leaving your room as you snap out of it then you go ,god damn it south's park episode of Scientology wasn't all bullshit , what the hell ?!?! Than as you learn more about how that's possible the rage meter starts going out of known reaches tough you manage to balance it out since it's no longer possible to know if what you learn is truth or another mind hack presence What I'm asking really.. Is have any one seen answers ? We gotta find answers quick , I'm worried something might happen to answers We gotta find answers quick You got all my details contact me",6.012962003454227,6.579684005181347,6.15089378238342,79.60989853195166,66.46113989637306,8.920379965457686,32.145509499136445,8.841846274778883,2.5759986183074246,795,31,149,12,12,253,111,193,0.17,0.746,0.085,-0.9707,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,2,13,0,1,8,12,5,0,10,0,11,2,0,2,4,41,30,13,0,2,5,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,14,10,2,0,15,0,0,2,2,8,0,2,7,3,17,4,24,19,4,16,3,2,2,0,17,7,4,9,9,98,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.13755406304386955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917116950243448,0.14780609625707894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177611623536786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24281275823867865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09310101569690801,0.1275040141568359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13788335873546176,0.0,0.0,0.07127228326085239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576649711672141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16021864727729496,0.0,0.11273648816896566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492962794687468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07746648603928212,0.0,0.0,0.1492535057394639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13772930517355347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495334978151593,0.14232676465305447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16048090381795255,0.0,0.0,0.19103272837466936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4767247776521918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903009027877236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232477674715924,0.0,0.0,0.15924170996413264,0.0,0.1166013958482774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21703174511776094,0.0,0.0,0.09977035436062316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709593796998649,0.0,0.0,0.08219337794945045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528622585589022,0.0,0.1431490548704722,0.0,0.10013207376309853,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EnlightenedSouls,2019/10/26,"What exactly do you guys see/ hear? And are your visuals integrated with reality or like little movies in your head? Do you hear the audibles in your ears or your head? Ive been worrying for a couple years now, and wondering. When I close my eyes I will see violent things, like random scenarios played out. Not always violent, most of the time its like stories and random situations, but i watch them overlaid with what I’m already looking at, like a projector screen pulled over my eyes. When I think I don’t have any voice in my head, I have to whisper it with my inhale and exhale, so the sound is in my throat but its like I’m saying it very quietly.. I don’t hear any voices in my head above my ears or in my ears ether.. just a ringing noise and a hum always like a fan is on in the room. A lot of times people will talk to me and I wont hear them, though I tested my hearing for work and got a perfect score. This is how I’ve dropped out of college four times now, I sit there in class and don’t take in a single thing. I constantly see white balls of light, and blue ones too, they come out of people and animals, usually blue from animals and white from people, I don’t know if they are actually there but they look so real and just odd. I suffer from migraines almost every day, there is pressure in the top of my head and it feels so sensitive to the touch, and I am painfully sensitive to the sunlight. It burns my eyes immediately and turns them red, and very teary. Does any of this sound like schizophrenia? I have an unknown family medical history as I am adopted. Thank you.",4.877429906542054,5.17909863551402,5.74115109034268,82.48817523364488,68.8753894080997,9.410654205607477,28.511059190031162,9.3871,2.202516386292836,1246,40,262,24,20,410,164,321,0.067,0.828,0.106,0.8924,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,7,6,3,15,15,2,1,16,0,22,15,12,1,2,47,43,31,0,1,10,0,2,7,0,3,3,17,1,1,12,24,0,0,4,2,0,2,6,5,0,2,2,36,42,10,36,38,3,35,0,1,15,0,21,20,0,10,18,171,54,5,0.0,0.0,0.08731846594771114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08960015932246701,0.0,0.09874215390516958,0.0,0.14890716939277046,0.0,0.0,0.1825460921691105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07707812024703269,0.0,0.09669486643269903,0.0,0.0,0.099006663555629,0.0,0.05770646630907749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830355881532271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07538980398101337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435271165572196,0.0,0.04524320329922616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07156442336499262,0.0,0.0,0.0885981454037063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4591556569689877,0.0,0.5042459267712949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049175244799221966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060039799760165,0.08968133089262305,0.0,0.0,0.15027942359059113,0.0,0.0,0.0760717322645048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09014054406105976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06063319548097251,0.0,0.09521182238571872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861001381880351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018465391735767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07115718583573417,0.0,0.0,0.21390921452504927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10057799464722066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06727697161407722,0.0719197232672872,0.0,0.08238011814926076,0.0,0.0,0.11889156552970688,0.05733444447460605,0.08791253175074187,0.0,0.1565275393861142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09732731194256752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09854832966077116,0.14765887123057264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09703601350117004,0.06514168029528335,0.09087013205250018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057621456164902926 schizophrenia,festiveatom,2019/10/26,"Inconsistent Affection The guy I'm dating keeps mentioning how sometimes I'm more affectionate than other times. I'm pretty sure it's the schizo (like when I'm overwhelmed, I can barely make eye contact with people) but he interprets it as something wrong on his end. I'm even trying to be EXTRA affectionate, but I guess I'm not living up to expectations... :(",5.656567164179107,7.441291373134327,6.719582089552244,70.75340298507466,68.1044776119403,9.53910447761194,29.817910447761196,9.888512548439397,3.1738382089552246,290,11,48,7,5,97,50,67,0.11,0.7040000000000001,0.185,0.3476,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,1,2,0,2,1,1,3,1,12,11,5,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,4,7,10,2,6,0,1,1,0,5,2,0,1,5,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596060578720704,0.0,0.0,0.1935945990324642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32289072238799843,0.2902222968861652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26052722459552424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14319741525107504,0.0,0.2588191048361126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19565139042101104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20320368750256368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981954853585081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256483098432207,0.2898906020705058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27625014968560085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17091321644706942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19900060814420087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32046680612737577,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,00104001010010800108,2019/10/26,I am upside down. I am Downside Up.,-4.122500000000001,-4.0881082499999986,0.7199999999999989,97.025,131.5,1.6,16.5,3.1291,-1.0374500000000002,26,1,6,0,2,10,6,8,0.28600000000000003,0.7140000000000001,0.0,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,garbagecompressor,2019/08/11,"I have a lot of trouble picking up on social cues and differentiating sarcasm from descriptiveness. How can I tell, in conversation, if someone has good intentions? I have gotten myself into bad situations from mistrusting people who actually meant well, and trusting malicious people who I thought were genuine. Is there some sort of body language or manner of speaking that I can study/memorize to help myself avoid these situations?",10.923750000000005,11.70971943055556,10.441111111111113,52.26500000000002,56.08333333333333,12.755555555555556,44.38888888888889,12.161744961471696,6.155572222222222,357,19,46,10,4,116,58,72,0.132,0.73,0.138,0.1179,1,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,1,1,0,7,1,1,3,0,14,10,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,4,1,7,3,10,6,2,4,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,5,0,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.2463238687671369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107587538744219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28037985014209216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117165111054999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16919067930246498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21459702929769392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3499901616383296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5674575357102501,0.0,0.25730868968909976,0.21387322360516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22062473767161975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20039195086516545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269543841112198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,alpersena,2019/08/11,"how do we not notice it when we have positive symptoms if we know we are schizophrenic? at any given time, i am in one of the two states which are: a) no symptoms/minor hallucinations & b) full-out psychotic episode, delusions in state a, i am fairly aware and insightful of my condition. although i constantly struggle to deal with the hallucinations, i have a consensus with myself that what i am having to undergo is not right. but i have extensive problems trying to comprehend what exactly is going on in my brain and in what way exactly my perception of reality diminishes. abruptly, my mind either forgets or simply flat out refuses the fact that i am schizophrenic and i no longer have the ability to acknowledge that my hallucinations aren't real. on top of that, once the delusions begin, my mind concludes this is the way i have lived my entire life and that i can not do anything to alter this in any way. then once my episode/break slowly ends, i get the overwhelming feeling of clairvoyance and when i think back, i know none of the things i experienced were there, but it seems this mostly isn't the case for others as some keep believing in these delusions for sometimes the entirety of their lives. then it comes to my question which i couldn't correctly phrase in the title for i wanted it to be short. what causes me or more generally, what causes us to be completely depleted of our ability to recall that we have schizophrenia? do you believe 'recall kill-switch' exist in our reshaped brains or is this about something else entirely? why are the psychotic episodes/breaks this prevailing in this condition? i want to take a break from asking these to myself and others which cannot understand since i am more than tired and afraid, and just want your honest opinions.",11.810411503390222,8.729868030395139,10.814346504559273,62.60483516483518,57.14589665653496,14.621557166238015,43.544774374561605,12.766815935922706,5.472768342296002,1438,60,244,37,13,461,173,329,0.049,0.894,0.057,0.3621,0,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,8,2,1,2,7,5,0,3,16,0,30,7,2,4,4,61,47,21,0,6,11,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,29,17,0,2,11,0,0,2,10,4,0,2,2,2,41,1,41,42,6,34,0,1,0,0,15,16,0,9,10,193,70,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302890821479644,0.0,0.1635460596733304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989541805271225,0.0,0.11241601388278608,0.0,0.0,0.09246359071304193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709575188857161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684739472953539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24705644440229305,0.0,0.10358334191359726,0.12607815085695862,0.1299457923842334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239708117347581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10045210131352443,0.0,0.10650438341647978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0608011998942145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06282482158439227,0.0,0.06833993211803098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10688229560662434,0.13303702911445206,0.0,0.13217074260237302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493499521227055,0.0,0.0,0.212363065815353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428331932708084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369035909306836,0.0,0.2561212253162862,0.08148342225641321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150614709394428,0.0,0.0,0.13470571882085455,0.0,0.0,0.13686899545710324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10269146947019296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946961957334883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994707122117636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09257308672151958,0.118928734116697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12570972771076094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12498412124422045,0.09041182544771023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0798876882534028,0.07705031397243901,0.0,0.0,0.07011780420159773,0.1382078369851954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08164076464019533,0.0,0.11746520589840867,0.12518281652803784,0.1446440093992281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21277685082694398,0.28634272864524896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10850547005194408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,paulinethrowaway,2019/08/11,"how come we don't notice it when we have positive symptoms if we know we are schizophrenic? at any given time, i am in one of the two states which are: a) no symptoms/minor hallucinations & b) full-out psychotic episode, delusions in state a, i am fairly aware and insightful of my condition. although i constantly struggle to deal with the hallucinations, i have a consensus with myself that what i am having to undergo is not right. but i have extensive problems trying to comprehend what exactly is going on in my brain and in what way exactly my perception of reality diminishes. abruptly, my mind either forgets or simply flat out refuses the fact that i am schizophrenic and i no longer have the ability to acknowledge that my hallucinations aren't real. on top of that, once the delusions begin, my mind concludes this is the way i have lived my entire life and that i can not do anything to alter this in any way. then once my episode/break slowly ends, i get the overwhelming feeling of clairvoyance and when i think back, i know none of the things i experienced were there, but it seems this mostly isn't the case for others as some keep believing in these delusions for sometimes the entirety of their lives. then it comes to my question which i couldn't correctly phrase in the title for i wanted it to be short. what causes me or more generally, what causes us to be completely depleted of our ability to recall that we have schizophrenia? do you believe 'recall kill-switch' exist in our reshaped brains or is this about something else entirely? why are the psychotic episodes/breaks this prevailing in this condition? i want to take a break from asking these to myself and others which cannot understand since i am more than tired and just want your honest opinions.",11.762915103189492,8.71502478963415,10.798780487804878,62.5794277673546,57.20121951219512,14.604502814258911,43.5234521575985,12.766815935922706,5.4763285178236405,1433,60,243,37,13,460,173,328,0.049,0.893,0.057,0.3621,0,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,8,2,1,2,7,4,0,2,16,0,30,7,2,4,4,60,48,20,0,6,10,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,29,17,0,2,11,0,0,3,10,3,0,2,2,2,41,1,41,43,6,35,0,1,0,0,15,16,0,9,10,191,70,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282414769253941,0.0,0.16097579238464385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09739903029118488,0.0,0.11064929933286302,0.0,0.0,0.09101044569029462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266699187937195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642546478149744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431737394396985,0.0,0.20391088083316167,0.12409672404904284,0.12790358225618276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202250357747065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09887340996136534,0.0,0.10483057523458968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059845656633110325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06183747536426036,0.0,0.0672659111823699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10520254820894227,0.1309462375368383,0.0,0.13009356546395193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360016855674063,0.0,0.0,0.20902559719959649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390168603397801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13475203300152466,0.0,0.252096059508662,0.08020284004480739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132531807517457,0.0,0.0,0.1325887023462552,0.0,0.0,0.13471798122562953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010775845173326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077492101495061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979074442352014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09111822087462408,0.11705966655496172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373409099013287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12301988805461678,0.08899092568453126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07863218437702299,0.07583940187842735,0.0,0.0,0.06901584247378922,0.13603578170515554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0803577096574144,0.0,0.11561913894404385,0.12321546067079285,0.14237080412234224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20943287922308754,0.2818426058647908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10680021306883407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lordhelpus90,2019/08/11,"I'm close to ending my life I need someone to give me hope First time positing but I've been lurking. I am 20 years old and was diagnosed 3 months ago. It started with thinking I was jesus and I had to run away to Israel because America wanted to use me to speak to satan (I also felt like I was speaking to Israel CIA agents telepathically), thinking my dad poisoned me and my mom with ricin, thinking I could speak telepathically with people and read minds, then the anti christ. it feels like I have multiple demons and good spirits putting thoughts into my head. I realize now the delusions aren't real but they are still in my head.The bad spirits are telling me to kill myself, kill people, racist words,I'm a piece of shit, fuck you, rah rah rah, narration on every single thing I do and telling me every single mistake I've made in my life that has led me to have this illness. The good spirits tell me to read the bible, exercise, eat healthy (I've never been religious until now), never give up, and they tell me to get a job and go back to college. I have tried risperdol, invega, and now olanzapine and they have done nothing but give me brain fog and laziness + the thoughts that aren't mine are still here, they also tell me I need to stop medication or they will get stronger and meaner. Before the medication I was at least able to listen to the good spirits and I was productive and happy. Now I just want to die because all I have energy for is to watch TV and sleep. Also I do not have any auditory or visual hallucinations, this is all in my head but it feels like someone else is putting thoughts into my head and I can have full conversations with myself that make sense. I need to know if anyone else's schizophrenia is like mine (without auditory and visual hallucinations) and if medication bought your thoughts back to normal. And what exactly is normal because I have forgotten how my brain and thoughts used to work normally.",5.5187500000000025,6.486342013297875,5.904323404255319,79.51940000000002,67.69680851063829,8.569191489361701,30.731489361702128,8.726425361277474,2.361815659574468,1551,59,293,24,25,498,185,376,0.14300000000000002,0.7559999999999999,0.102,-0.9726,1,0,0,0,0,2,37.0,0,2,5,2,14,16,5,0,9,0,34,18,7,6,5,76,67,34,3,13,11,2,3,4,0,1,9,4,0,0,10,27,1,1,13,4,1,5,6,7,0,1,17,8,50,9,38,48,7,37,8,0,1,1,22,11,2,5,25,195,60,6,0.0737546963542926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06537908821434903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17694481208306986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05015572267722432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05157099857302811,0.0755704023417461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929496508099671,0.1134256177814832,0.061582090720109485,0.13488053499370542,0.0,0.0627598143074336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646692665479282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058887123564639085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07485946427544538,0.0765457304509237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547666145407023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546946725057167,0.12322516961616932,0.0,0.06532476941621873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12428302538492295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07458518111479741,0.10538073962478356,0.07081607478102933,0.0,0.0,0.0627357070413572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0681850283121999,0.07706756946457245,0.21225667603136728,0.04191649361578896,0.1855858201023404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07851324573215042,0.0,0.0,0.3027743867596703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07325505522331764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731901555952921,0.0,0.16319728769728045,0.0,0.04053365226437451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041902464410812,0.14413127658037414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06978847700438406,0.04923183253109348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229002915680655,0.0,0.0,0.07447121821732032,0.08638060896794,0.058870294969148536,0.0,0.0,0.16406451841303152,0.11376833732246895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167918284672636,0.07076962032710446,0.0,0.0773931469484843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10226443973947376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14828768203977755,0.0,0.0,0.14754931084516926,0.08394899140913009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0757081359242153,0.0,0.0,0.07380796111393617,0.0,0.12498422975591195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05220395369290712,0.0,0.1178011915627266,0.06166222866887582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3223242774174263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04899934300301114,0.14177709401915609,0.0,0.2927649521288998,0.043006956563744585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050074597439144684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740075401994694,0.0,0.0,0.08700486165610442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07109689534306099,0.0,0.05369429736011905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047495606309458115 schizophrenia,pm_me_i_need_to_talk,2019/08/11,"I have been on 4chan's /x/ where a lot of schizophrenic people are and I had a dream last night where I was schizophrenic. Does this mean anything bad? It was scary and awful. I would try to explain things to people but it would come out all twisted and people would just laugh and there were these spirals of words and I couldn't even think very straight. How can the brain do that in a dream? Affect your actual thinking? I feel like I couldn't tell what was real or not and it was just kinda scary even though technically I don't think much happened. I was at a mall. I woke up in the middle of the night. Am I reading too much into this or should I be worried? I never hear or see anything.",1.4136150234741789,3.682220267605637,2.2287605633802845,95.94464319248829,82.23943661971829,4.913427230046949,18.621596244131453,6.079149491110277,-0.3000606572769953,546,13,119,4,15,170,89,142,0.096,0.7909999999999999,0.113,0.5345,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,10,3,0,0,7,1,21,3,1,2,2,36,32,12,0,6,7,0,1,1,0,4,2,1,0,0,9,9,0,0,6,4,0,1,5,1,0,0,9,3,14,2,12,16,4,16,0,0,1,0,4,11,0,5,5,89,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.15314387933925366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582848217392468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13103242221137953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751890249846649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13518380354822845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373330444241762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073054099420101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07934999306019799,0.11211290008178487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387752513370347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17687479166896086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279212647203544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666949134847077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334187455150626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17094594212673586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307274870799626,0.0,0.12103633244670305,0.0,0.0,0.2945418044918881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263925539501985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15697537522340813,0.17862400509485413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12505520866722378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13716627777220405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10425925013867968,0.30166881030159803,0.1541857842865233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10654714247251534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12948608357736474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593729847123467,0.0,0.3344419034167228,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SAKEHUNTER1991,2019/08/11,"Looking for some help/answers As the title says I’m looking for some help/answers as to what is going on with me right now. For the past few months I have accepted that I am most likely schizotypal. Last Saturday I started my first day of sobriety, I started really feeling better on Thursday. I currently live with my mother, and on Thursday night I was going to go bum a cigarette off my mother but I had the instinct to not do this, something inside me was telling me not to do it. So I put off asking my mother was a cigarette and said to myself I’m going to at least wait til Friday morning. I then decided to go against my instincts and ask her for a cigarette, upon smoking this cigarette I felt instant regret and also had the thought that this action is going to cause my schizotypal to develop into schizophrenia. Ever since this event on Thursday night I have been seriously dissociating, have not felt like myself, felt like I completely betrayed myself, and have been feeling increasingly neurotic. Is there a chance a small event like this could trigger my schizotypal to develop into full on schizophrenia? Or did I just set myself back and will be back to myself eventually ? Any answers or similar experiences would be appreciated Thanks",8.027732267732269,8.217096515151518,8.401471861471864,66.47715284715287,62.2034632034632,11.263536463536465,38.548451548451546,10.891193690592663,4.5365348651348665,1009,48,160,24,13,334,123,231,0.098,0.826,0.076,-0.7975,1,0,5,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,2,8,9,0,0,9,0,23,0,0,2,1,36,46,15,0,3,7,3,5,4,0,2,0,2,0,0,9,10,0,1,9,0,0,9,3,2,0,1,13,9,29,7,33,28,7,46,0,1,2,0,9,14,0,5,26,131,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040539141677862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848350851952219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432822494652933,0.0,0.0,0.20010272171509186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150772449743991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366522584975465,0.0,0.0,0.13642440738419692,0.0,0.0,0.103887234028192,0.0,0.0,0.08391421381774396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11769759295578715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727865502227478,0.0,0.0,0.13158136611992508,0.0,0.3747960006397281,0.0,0.0,0.11067681158132166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44368836359868197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744283526670151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10606210611085594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542728996509981,0.0,0.11489502823141905,0.0,0.21852975047970447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385754542850732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442105633523405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242106788733758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308027646371159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08335579840471859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11111856234136856,0.12377034537594417,0.10347366055837418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076335025009202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001698423546647,0.0,0.0,0.184193895921538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137273332913804,0.11979355678586495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10329776445501562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09243084727584773,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,msykitty,2019/08/11,"My therapist, psychiatrist, and family doctor are all telling me to not be vegan and that it can't sustain a human being and that we are obligate omnivores I wish the science didn't say this, but they did say I can still eat vegan food like 3 days a week so I guess I'm flexitarian now.",6.524858757062148,5.317235610169494,8.680000000000003,67.85977401129946,65.77966101694915,13.290395480225987,33.22598870056497,12.45797560212912,4.24614802259887,227,8,46,8,3,83,47,59,0.0,0.904,0.096,0.6249,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,8,3,0,0,1,9,11,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,7,1,1,7,1,4,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,5,32,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17514217011775898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779665552311408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778870594480865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560149307284261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283872466866257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29916836537817504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13267688935195066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4319316272111682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21687861273857653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23736684225654026,0.0,0.0,0.3153172777299918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21783954398675254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31229563981307945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,corn9,2019/08/11,experience with Invega? what is your experience with Invega? specifically: did it give you really bad akathisia?,6.892745098039214,10.798281411764707,8.831764705882357,41.83627450980393,87.8235294117647,16.3843137254902,29.196078431372552,11.20814326018867,7.837760784313728,92,4,11,6,3,32,14,17,0.213,0.787,0.0,-0.6523,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450584339103985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8085035820245586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39644077989757576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647476970154091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sinful_nature,2019/08/11,"Two years ago I had a persisting fear that I was an antichrist I personally don't believe I have schizophrenia because I haven't had such delusions except during 2017, but I did have a psychosis during that year mostly because of abuse of psychedelics, lack of sleep and intermittent taking of antipsychotics. But I'm interested in your opinions whether this is theologically sound. Is it possible to be an antichrist without being absolutely certain of the fact yourself?",14.747777777777774,11.413764518518526,12.712839506172838,52.007777777777825,51.96296296296296,14.750617283950618,54.1604938271605,12.45797560212912,6.852856790123456,390,22,55,8,3,122,59,81,0.163,0.7929999999999999,0.043,-0.8704,0,0,0,0,1,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,1,5,0,12,1,1,0,2,11,14,4,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,4,1,7,2,9,8,2,4,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,3,45,11,0,0.0,0.3242301204065643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425739280984454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33362860705728514,0.0,0.0,0.3083094777572101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079319664171357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23894034330324754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084988948525035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27384730410503594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20575050141802168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673159721428988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637885239761613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524428408095773 schizophrenia,FiggleThorn,2019/08/11,"How are we supposed to live? How do I live on 800 dollars a month when a studio is 917? Do I just live with my parents? Then what, am I homeless if I outlive them? What this fuck is the point",-0.9692857142857144,0.9763863571428572,1.1717142857142877,101.62328571428571,90.1904761904762,3.3600000000000003,20.304761904761907,3.1291,-0.7293295238095236,145,5,36,0,5,48,32,42,0.127,0.873,0.0,-0.7257,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,1,0,4,1,1,0,3,0,6,1,0,2,0,6,7,5,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,0,3,7,0,5,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,1,3,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834739532879053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8122781737009281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447486737076519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34047567830999226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898639086435347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JamesHowlettt,2019/08/11,"Motion Sensors A brief reflection. When I was delusional last year, I kept leaving my driveway and hearing a *beep* in the same spot 1 meter away in my neighbors yard. I thought this was a signal being broadcasted that I was leaving the house. It really freaked me out, especially because I was sick. Eventually I got out, and looked for it. It was a small, green meter. I was happy to rip it out of the ground - but when I did, there was fast pounding on the upstairs window in my neighbors house. I put it back. I brought it up next time my neighbor was mowing his lawn, I said it really freaked me it. Turns out it was for raccoons",1.3913978494623684,3.949820935483871,2.8598064516129043,89.28304301075269,85.61290322580646,5.5647311827957004,25.20215053763441,7.0316486544052195,1.2380737634408607,492,21,97,7,15,160,74,124,0.064,0.915,0.021,-0.6017,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,8,0,11,1,0,0,0,11,19,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,7,0,11,6,0,1,2,1,0,4,0,2,0,0,15,4,18,1,14,3,1,26,0,0,2,0,6,14,0,0,8,70,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945371294162467,0.15921426657537435,0.0,0.12622019536884968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16560262096244893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22041632358183494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333686017620136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4778325995693921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16877931785378472,0.0,0.4384875232452598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17387596555065554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22020776510211332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208149754878212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652923897098816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19695888785430246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16438035090794756,0.1207367644252479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252188614266591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13333809895893892 schizophrenia,ohmurchadha,2019/08/11,"Question about voices and thoughts. Can people hear thoughts from other people, like psychic? Or are they all not real?",4.5113333333333285,7.984388799999998,2.9400000000000013,85.85833333333333,86.0,2.666666666666667,26.66666666666667,3.1291,0.7081666666666666,96,4,13,0,3,27,18,20,0.0,0.8690000000000001,0.131,0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,8,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38651501809518224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16754173704620084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4754987891182247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3841680194346184,0.0,0.0,0.39033748059863976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5445074772352662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,saraaxl,2019/08/11,"I forgot how to make friends. I been wanting to make some friends lately, even been wanting to be in some kind of relationship too. But I feel like I'll never be able to make another friend for as long as I'll live. I feel like the only way would be to text first and then what if I catfish or something and I forget how to be in person. I've been around people it's not like I'm a hermit. I'm just a little insecure now ,and have just trying to build myself up and I'm really scared I'll be a kind of lonely forever #sorrystupidrantiguessorwhatever",1.3336842105263145,3.5725966666666693,3.3307894736842094,88.10302631578949,82.33333333333333,5.905263157894738,19.149122807017545,7.1686216300943375,0.3443649122807022,436,11,92,6,12,147,67,114,0.091,0.7609999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.7584,0,2,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,8,11,0,2,4,0,10,0,0,5,1,26,21,12,0,4,6,0,2,3,3,1,0,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,4,2,7,8,16,11,2,12,0,1,0,0,5,5,0,4,9,59,9,0,0.1681078278358771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17627571507744375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149651607703129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110336348229126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700007376577631,0.2401925315909657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429924324792734,0.0,0.0,0.38963907232950457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3501168671230925,0.0,0.0,0.18963295206044975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463869796787036,0.168488207002538,0.1484422918572589,0.14877013758991456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366398413773732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296551203458821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278535782980295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11654480107187995,0.14678527104509334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10769417915861064,0.0,0.0,0.18048489449742636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683052623113919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12941761887343853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11413418021292762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983087047624656,0.13343616896081734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194189776453972,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Arctrooper_Rob,2019/08/11,"Your day Can someone asking about your day online potentially satisfy your need for interaction? If not, could it ever be -as a possibility? &#x200B; \-Rob [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0vK\_57vQ7s](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0vK_57vQ7s)",21.098888888888887,28.38607296296297,9.771851851851851,41.03333333333336,41.5925925925926,11.007407407407408,34.925925925925924,10.504223727775694,5.516837037037037,218,7,17,5,3,50,24,27,0.0,0.863,0.13699999999999998,0.6072,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,5,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,3,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33187304960770075,0.37218480487861866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863466741568778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24455350948712615,0.0,0.0,0.3950729014387549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770634879711403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271156031600041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3453042389084165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595247497850925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37218480487861866,0.0 schizophrenia,defying-gravity2,2019/08/11,"Caregiver help? As of 6 days ago, my schizophrenic sister lives with me. The other option (after being released from her umpteenth psychiatric stay) was homelessness (again). She can’t live with my parents because they (stepdad specifically) are major triggers for her aggressions. She suffers from many religious delusions and hallucinations that I won’t get into because it would be too long and difficult to explain. Most of the time these delusions are scary, to say the least. The voices she hears have a control over her that makes her very angry. I don’t know how to deal with this. She is 6 days out of the hospital & every day it seems like the voices are getting worse. I personally give her meds and watch her take them. She was give a shot of Haldol that was supposed to last 3 weeks, but I feel like the meds aren’t helping. Today she went on a religious rant and said she’s going to end up murdering everyone. Does anyone have any advise? Her meds need to be changed, obviously, but the clinic says they can’t do that until Sept. 15. I feel like I’m not the best person to help her right now. I am very much used to it being just me and my very independent 14 yr old. Now I have my sister that needs constant attention and entertainment. If I don’t keep her busy she starts arguing with herself and becomes extremely agitated. I am so lost. Any advice would be helpful.",4.531524533767882,6.429246266159698,5.177175448126019,80.25108998732574,71.12927756653994,8.203440159333695,28.113163135976826,8.841846274778883,2.2868516748144123,1100,41,201,21,21,354,159,263,0.134,0.7809999999999999,0.085,-0.9305,2,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,3,3,7,11,3,0,12,0,26,2,0,6,1,38,48,14,1,5,5,3,2,3,0,3,2,6,0,2,11,13,0,2,6,1,0,2,7,6,0,0,6,9,36,5,27,34,5,27,0,2,1,0,40,6,0,4,21,134,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10490472013240223,0.09516251143908724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163176081090208,0.0,0.1460082929685002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07506415087253912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308835470669822,0.11856364474521115,0.0,0.0,0.11266100650996815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11356590093423387,0.0,0.0,0.1160111308236858,0.12040621918451865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20770262143175508,0.11067687375327853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394588090162184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09508344772942698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09045005939897277,0.10258098946713504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085624370861987,0.1533869026610559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11217567667371377,0.20596675902070768,0.061011539196159786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209953378831975,0.0,0.28782748835732924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09542083472539134,0.0,0.0,0.05899874489883065,0.08750753287813702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15734267597165516,0.0,0.1895904358147814,0.09500458012673037,0.0,0.0,0.11718916348548288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07165937847048727,0.10883972618809727,0.0,0.0,0.3577370295387202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07891726682689347,0.15920270570350195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264957087877656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11920349639769777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874740894959391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09167940939524076,0.10211788134777784,0.17074382331931326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977307085095259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07598544849967083,0.11442468066462695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08071656586623871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06259876219961477,0.0,0.10175868420927772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09271906386965097,0.0,0.26573395144297296,0.0,0.0,0.08611260270656124,0.0,0.0,0.09951788613885083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10940251560890646,0.15252187050653754,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Uglyfeather,2019/07/03,"Best medicines for getting rid of voices Hello, I am diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. I take rexulti 4 mg and haldol 10 mg. I got on haldol recently and I was very optimistic about it as it got rid of the voices I was hearing and hallucinations a year ago during a manic episode, I got it at the hospital. The haldol hasn't done anything except make them quieter in volume which is a disappointing as I was under the impression that haldol was the best of the best. So my question to you guys is, what are the medicines that have helped you the most in getting rid of these voices?",5.457586956521737,6.734066356521745,6.2284239130434775,76.01133152173915,68.04347826086956,9.228260869565217,31.76630434782609,9.516144504307137,3.0498043478260866,481,20,85,10,8,158,71,115,0.05,0.807,0.14400000000000002,0.9041,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,1,3,2,5,0,0,11,0,11,2,0,1,0,8,19,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,8,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,8,4,11,4,16,11,4,8,0,1,0,0,8,5,0,2,3,65,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16560775049035065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15373981284628396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5881791760415166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18962190847513816,0.0,0.0,0.21411590373260736,0.0,0.0,0.19118529271852105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952151240308294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4482594318055356,0.0,0.0,0.1849846262070542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105636497359809,0.0,0.12522384643730164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12470612944710115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092850639611532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184465656584508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14046801306804846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15414894395521053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203082015046878 schizophrenia,Flippy_Bobcat,2019/07/03,"Seeing still things move, seeing shadows/objects I'm afraid I'm losing my mind, I did beg my doctor for antipsychotics, but they don't seem to work at all. I'm really just here to find someone who experiences similar symptoms. I see still objects move a bit never by much, I see shadows moving in my periphery but sometimes in my central vision. The shadows are usually persons or simple objects. Rarely sounds will accompany the shadow's movement. The sounds are natural. The symptoms appeared about a month after I got depersonalization from weed, I haven't touched weed again. I have this relatively constant feeling that I'm slipping away from reality. I have tried Abilify, Seroquel, Risperdal and now I am on Zyprexa, maybe I don't have Psychosis if none of the medications work.",6.224197292069633,8.412849588652486,6.481431334622827,71.4245454545455,67.29787234042553,8.815215989684074,36.931656995486776,9.339509955726095,3.8838028368794326,636,34,99,13,11,204,95,141,0.013999999999999999,0.9259999999999999,0.059000000000000004,0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,3,7,2,0,1,7,0,11,4,0,0,2,13,23,5,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,4,1,0,0,3,0,0,5,5,2,0,0,2,8,14,0,14,20,4,19,0,1,4,0,3,5,0,4,9,65,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13536023505960545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15728913363481795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15569047522926993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14746363180612462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14092990351491172,0.0,0.0,0.07284705054589087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316790505351566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522741066051613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16117953541100544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14473952659466188,0.0,0.0,0.14513722041344573,0.0,0.0,0.1454714868719385,0.0,0.11499676716393308,0.4593766924692962,0.10590937859874387,0.0,0.11111708379035652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257979724857496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09229610907288066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4592264097564345,0.13115759103724528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12207160144123876,0.0,0.14249073243013782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301119130602631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2994916091640432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095714927901345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781532138669848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15867477606595778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20977202899317848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AschoffTheTop,2019/07/03,"I’m at the hospital waiting for my mom to finish a test and going fucking crazy Everybody is talking about me.. well, probably not, but it seems to fuck they are. Maybe cell by Stephen King was the wrong book to bring. Same thing was happening when I went to target to get some shoes while I waited. Trying to not care.",2.5104761904761896,4.714101873015879,3.301825396825397,90.09178571428572,77.8888888888889,6.73968253968254,23.198412698412696,7.793537801064563,1.1090126984126978,250,8,51,4,6,79,53,63,0.203,0.774,0.022000000000000002,-0.9279,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,3,5,2,0,3,0,4,3,1,0,0,9,16,4,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,1,0,3,2,3,1,0,3,0,5,2,10,13,2,7,0,0,0,2,4,1,2,2,3,33,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666517632331333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4835686988868774,0.13664093575542788,0.0,0.14863603331569258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23127401666588626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26274646931478096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30630594224017565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819783304310032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23809110600019825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21021145349539425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17375184207438693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775646980746272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351508452708859,0.2424450199835735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28594682299520296,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zane-the-big-gay,2019/07/03,"Struggling Things are getting worse for me. I hate seroquel but I find I can’t sleep without it. I’m seeing a new doctor in a week, but I don’t see a point in carrying on. Has anyone else felt suicidal before? What did you do to help? I struggle with talking to my loved ones about it",0.2827142857142846,2.502795366666668,2.3061904761904763,93.79500000000004,87.0,4.761904761904762,21.904761904761905,6.1826913282559595,0.3164761904761906,222,8,48,2,7,74,47,60,0.23800000000000002,0.629,0.133,-0.7149,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,2,3,0,6,3,1,0,0,6,13,2,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,2,3,8,1,9,11,0,6,0,0,2,1,4,4,0,0,2,33,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14463672775357686,0.21194578371899075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17601703335247848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211723250612028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727994978119705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19861173163394225,0.0,0.1890602874440458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10807237955158648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20422493700818012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13864949376508762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18669329656338648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19978033156296435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401692374952164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19554335217342667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3296708044202842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070028169527481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4324962352096544,0.0,0.2262640786179857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16626095146850947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13742422737839408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659253442428172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19939932482201408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108013170301595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kelleydelrey,2019/07/03,"Opening up to my mom about my psychosis moments Today my mom asked me what caused me to break down a couple months back but I chose to neglect the question because in all honesty I believe she was the root of it. My first ever psychotic break was back in February after a series of confrontations between my mother and I. After that, the other break downs that followed were ignited by my mother. My mother isn’t a bad person. I know she loves and cares for me dearly. I just don’t know how to go about opening up to her about my mental state. I’m also still not in the best place mentally. Though I haven’t had a psychosis moment since, I feel as though I’m no longer myself, as all I do all day long is trap myself in my room. I truly don’t know what to do anymore.",4.505126582278487,4.841202677215193,5.434025316455699,84.24483544303799,69.69620253164557,7.5858227848101265,27.19240506329114,7.1686216300943375,1.33176,605,18,122,5,10,199,92,158,0.13,0.7490000000000001,0.121,-0.1032,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,12,7,1,0,8,0,11,1,0,4,4,21,22,9,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,4,0,1,5,0,0,2,6,3,0,1,4,1,26,4,26,18,4,31,0,1,0,1,12,12,0,1,13,96,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12998559302233015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16119899755779332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15195578043109673,0.0,0.0,0.2499710958068988,0.135716630867658,0.09908471529583476,0.0,0.0,0.18313032024460266,0.1705788696155905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16572344009771714,0.16697645434584713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798507581493119,0.0,0.10482679996557907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14702946583046655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08218663393194049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13825900834466293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09237694311445196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26798817599833896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384545627938788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14670142013354967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276102638737333,0.0,0.0,0.3807368371011545,0.12974028646918065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419262940172643,0.16982285862254973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18208538023148346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344572644244069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12980706439273365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31939538043947024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15407177570753036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,emTeeing,2019/07/03,"Relationship Help I don’t know where to go. I don’t know who to trust. My parents and sister don’t know about my condition. My girlfriend says that she sees me do things that are schizophrenic and that I am Ego centred. I have goals and aspirations which get shut down, and called schizophrenic thoughts. I don’t know what real is. Is she trying to control me? Is there another agenda I’m missing? Sometimes I think I’m being hypnotized. Or, that I interpret messages that aren’t there and she’s going to leave with our kid, and she’s just using me as support. My everyday state seems to be a void of nothing. I don’t know how to open up because I think she’ll use it against me. How can I ask the question, straight up?",1.6164224137931031,4.048289724137934,2.836788793103448,90.86552801724136,82.79310344827587,6.107758620689657,24.92456896551724,7.413659706084162,1.2374913793103448,570,23,118,9,16,183,86,145,0.026000000000000002,0.889,0.085,0.8290000000000001,2,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,0,2,7,3,0,0,2,0,17,2,0,5,0,27,37,10,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,1,10,8,0,1,11,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,1,2,24,2,14,33,0,11,0,1,1,0,18,7,0,3,1,79,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18621329010351384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16601794366161454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10825412916206946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18133407561310053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199176606924424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09278079990653132,0.0,0.20185122400870248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11903143977708056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4879801849662129,0.0,0.0,0.1880368067829148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17039753630867144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19718705650608087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989357713876598,0.0,0.0,0.2021305363176429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906597627675822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141222669445038,0.0,0.0,0.1415122025944815,0.1616666567979913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756360432857896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015212817528852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179795410780078,0.2275785138143001,0.0,0.14098260335355894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056851507525775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30675273526303865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JiggaHeisenberg,2019/07/03,"Sleep 12 hours on Seroquel I’ve just started taking Seroquel, and feel constantly tired and sleep for 12 hours or more. Have anybody tried this? And did it disappear over time?",3.470625000000002,6.592624812500002,2.64875,90.32125,82.125,5.7,26.75,7.1686216300943375,1.5491624999999996,142,6,25,2,4,41,26,32,0.151,0.8490000000000001,0.0,-0.6322,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,6,5,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,5,13,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056912405605002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14303190493672738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5571568213402149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5661657246027787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20022290836654733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21268948055453413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16494876947139492,0.3251273039935221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19205598092298984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mnyc914,2019/07/03,"people are downplaying schizophrenia & talking to ourselves? is this something new? for centuries weve been considered ""possessed"" or worse. now people are downplaying us schizophrenics when we talk to ourselves by saying stuff like ""well i do that all the time"" or ""its normal""... wtf? &#x200B; i literally wake up from talking to myself and chat with myself all day long, most of the time its about stuff that makes me miserable or annoyed. i often describe myself to doctors and psychiatrists as ""im wearing a fake face that im happy"" but deep inside i feel ""flat and dull"". so when i talk to myself, i seem to be venting thoughts that i dont process in my brain. &#x200B; there is nothing ""fun"" about this condition, there certainly is nothing ""normal"" about this either. &#x200B; when you walk down the street and hear a man yelling loudly but see nobody around, everyone tends to get scared and call him names. yet, when the discussion about ""talking to ourselves"" becomes a topic... everyone seems to compare us schizophrenics to someone who discusses their own inner thoughts such as ""is this my car?"" or ""where did i park?"" &#x200B; its totally not the same. &#x200B; im honestly tired of everyone (family and friends) either calling me crazy or trying to downplay my condition like its normal.",6.7344884910485945,8.727285282608698,5.847340153452687,77.23742966751921,65.73913043478261,8.368286445012789,35.26854219948849,8.841846274778883,3.305248081841432,1045,50,164,17,17,315,137,230,0.09300000000000001,0.84,0.067,-0.7319,0,0,1,0,1,0,68.0,4,1,1,0,18,13,1,2,8,0,12,8,4,1,4,36,22,20,0,3,10,0,1,2,1,0,4,4,0,1,15,9,0,0,5,1,0,2,2,5,1,0,5,6,24,8,27,16,8,21,0,2,1,0,23,8,0,9,13,120,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4502901626259637,0.4208214469202689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06166033938839236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07649750790354573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07732240197172201,0.1414541697573382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04467005311424972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07089543756258992,0.0,0.0,0.08117780656912266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19855639735213154,0.0,0.0,0.06529667039063458,0.0,0.03502235405665995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05351379738482484,0.0,0.0361879888703388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373364652521801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07806644132695602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22445354562404196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06767854583964775,0.0,0.0,0.061297150865557724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046234778651494564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06689635635960252,0.0,0.0,0.20359433495201,0.13292284941891885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09603895472075892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05508213332138786,0.06934612834604277,0.0,0.05519506209975808,0.12611210903127276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05868782351380596,0.053323411789895414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585832038133463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783620332169338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10997699709874637,0.0807777007261853,0.07960967561038608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0470262391146895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666340045317641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062277355789958015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07058672850724873,0.0,0.0,0.4208214469202689,0.0 schizophrenia,HowToSpotLizardPeopl,2019/07/03,"how would i know if im schizephrenic? I wanna eventually join the military to expand my possibilities but getting diagnosed if i have it wil disqualify me from joining.I smoke weed to relax and used it to forget i had an anxiety problem if i stop smoking then start again it all hits me hard and i would almost describe it as losing emotional control, rapid heart beats, thoughts faster than i can process and more than one and more than one kind of thought at a time. I remember being overly insecure and went did whatever was nececary to cover up my insecurity and if i well i would lool at everyone to see if they were looking at me which i hoped to god they werent. Would stress about it on a level higher than when i lost all my belonings in storage as a kid or when i was being kicked out of a home looking for a new one and losing some of my belongings. When i start smoking again its like all this hits me at once (emotion wise).When i was 13 i stopped using a night light and finally slept with no lights on in pitch black then idk if i woke up and saw it or just saw it but i saw what i would call a demon in my closet and i got so scared i forgot to put on my sandals( as im a freak about walking barefoot). Saw it about 6 times, kinda sorta beat it 6 years later, used to be terrified of maybe its there and i think it drove me mad. I have ocd and as a kid had it in the extreme and i think i have autism as i fidget alot and either think the same thoughts alot or say the same thing alot throughout the day. Never been in a heart to heart relationship and i was really sensative as a kid and for the most part, grew out of it.",5.306323506714,4.725090621700883,6.081614446673871,83.42663219632662,68.00293255131965,9.173082265781755,30.264083963574624,8.532816995589336,1.983717888563049,1286,42,282,17,19,424,176,341,0.157,0.774,0.068,-0.9862,1,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,2,6,13,15,1,4,21,0,21,5,4,5,4,71,51,40,0,14,13,0,1,1,0,5,1,1,2,3,18,19,0,4,8,1,0,5,2,10,1,3,23,12,40,5,49,18,14,44,1,3,8,0,8,18,0,18,22,204,58,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09962455088305834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610933870429408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10159009466092203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11158614443137596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06416261793017415,0.0,0.0,0.10097993867988414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238250152245906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09506666004562117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898608975622813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051979255489361685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07957099173544342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891232183299152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3536872765162715,0.0,0.0,0.0997962685633628,0.09881570828805042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149318702638724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036031997573363,0.054676930428833655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04860563594666808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670925609439564,0.2226070239120008,0.10860474659073566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999507635243797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767325804273994,0.09608776025056323,0.0,0.09336433220313092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10595327030957293,0.20225036140807115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10773763647936743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11215967417691856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519819466433453,0.0,0.1000146152813876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06373564146025111,0.0,0.0,0.10681469151398856,0.112702421703501,0.0,0.0,0.07911819280894726,0.09960653341118587,0.0,0.07928040004969884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14083862591804286,0.0,0.0,0.16635566738594668,0.11396510101353514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06609652766940319,0.19124692380362845,0.0,0.23695109656262334,0.11602647383731975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577814399265959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08945317739006478,0.09222793715644592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533730978880033,0.0,0.0,0.06406809692152934 schizophrenia,fatcatsandprozzac,2019/07/03,"Confused Diagnoses bp2. Reassesed and she wasnt completely sure if i was on the right meds. Whatever I have schizophrenic family on my fathers side. I hear voice but became friends with them.. So theyre more like imaginary friends Ive been up every night feeling bugs crawling all over me What should i do? Thanks.",2.0153448275862047,4.7462563965517255,2.5409655172413816,87.17558620689655,97.10344827586206,7.147586206896553,26.4896551724138,7.908726449838941,2.5764841379310344,253,12,45,7,10,78,51,58,0.05,0.675,0.276,0.9497,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,7,2,0,0,2,9,10,4,0,2,2,1,1,1,2,1,2,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,9,5,5,6,2,7,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,2,2,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970304569525604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875394678418285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386890911312269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670662479057436,0.0,0.1432429652964388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4377475602738608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192951715273733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13840411151886253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31467798183134466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26585409684392924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24193322867233186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26700311913556923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26082088677776977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,waterbottle54,2019/07/03,"Voice from the sky I hear voices he says to me I must eat a puppy",-2.71125,-1.1246796249999989,0.8049999999999997,103.54,95.25,3.2,8.0,3.1291,-2.39865,50,0,14,0,2,18,15,16,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5957852811063389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6562360534230883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4630271493171111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cxmrsz,2019/07/03,"Difficulty expressing myself I find it difficult to bring myself to speak about my experiences with schizophrenia, even on this subreddit, without feeling like I'm being idiot/overreacting or even lying. I believe it's because of the social stigmas, and how irrational I might sound about certain things. My girlfriend also encourages me to speak my mind, we're a very open couple but I find it hard to speak about for the exact same reasons. Also, I'm hoping posting this is a step forward in this area. Baby steps are still steps and I hope everyone who reads this remembers that <3.",5.609454926624738,8.09092766037736,5.924088050314468,73.56734800838576,69.56603773584905,8.484696016771489,31.58909853249476,9.150863307647796,3.2372633123689734,476,21,73,10,9,152,77,106,0.111,0.785,0.105,0.5204,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,0,4,0,4,0,0,2,2,20,10,7,0,2,3,0,2,1,1,1,0,4,0,0,10,4,0,0,5,1,0,5,1,1,0,0,0,6,11,5,13,8,1,11,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,4,3,53,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008420364249097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466212075926167,0.0,0.0,0.21192078749861026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081256356037394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484724490689713,0.0,0.0,0.17973464297793942,0.0,0.1839948553428808,0.0,0.0,0.0951074413098459,0.1343764586912538,0.0,0.0,0.34383430699419226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684978710715742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37364531458750905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09189464129062427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995410798789828,0.1899242425911688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18014482971382906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881477957386235,0.0,0.0,0.1933949345745591,0.0,0.0,0.21307711365800688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19174109588126684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15021442256120165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12496321840948978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15519963668973874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18131869360872024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Geekrock84,2019/07/03,"Is it just me or... Does it seem like this sub is starting to get flooded with people who are playing into and almost encouraging other's delusions and hallucinations? I keep reading comments about ""them"" or ""possession"" and basically feeding into other people's delusions and I find it completely unhelpful and frankly, dangerous.",15.356181818181815,11.88111161818182,14.015000000000004,43.56250000000003,51.0,16.09090909090909,56.59090909090909,13.816669648895859,7.996818181818181,269,16,33,7,2,88,41,55,0.054000000000000006,0.8170000000000001,0.129,0.5118,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,15,7,7,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,8,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,5,7,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,4,2,27,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291067991398379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445951013864247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876137028978147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003904577665094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171195497639885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29212924872894985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605673011800191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4557047015814718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287502226509321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992008876971045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23262814718004565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,trustfundyolo,2019/07/03,"Had Psychotic episode from weed but dont have schizophrenia That was the scariest shit ever, i was waving my having my hands everywhere and and biting random shit, not in a funny high way, like a psychotic animal way. Deep deep down i knew something was extremely wrong. Heard voices n shit just random words not coherent sentences. I believed the house was getting robbed when my friend was outside. It feels like you're 100 miles into your mind and you're behavior is really distorted. Never smoking weed again lmao",5.653467741935486,8.208219440860216,5.311491935483872,77.68723790322579,69.64516129032258,8.520967741935483,28.829301075268816,9.188382445141503,2.8520333333333334,420,16,66,9,8,129,70,93,0.23600000000000002,0.625,0.138,-0.9092,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,4,7,3,0,4,0,10,4,4,0,2,16,14,5,0,0,4,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,8,4,7,3,4,6,0,13,0,0,0,0,3,7,3,2,6,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22848087845746984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376746028837714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18343997578996005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10253940632633007,0.14487701602176672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15667915997965245,0.0,0.10595218382251333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142643881790088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23399856967172564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19815109801584332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20476546118857933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564082515241783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299158738705754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6244994404285473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15612174382637029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219389688825217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22172484538366408,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,d0---0b,2019/08/28,"Anyone doing any writing to pass the time? I'm working on a comic book but I figured I may as well get 50k words for nanowrimo done this year as well because why not. It'll be documented daily on my blog if anyone cares to take a look, and I'm curious if anyone else is doing any writing/poetry/rapping or what have you for fun or to deal with this b.s..",2.2783999999999978,3.626861306666669,4.389000000000003,85.85950000000003,75.93333333333334,6.6000000000000005,24.5,7.1686216300943375,1.0166,278,9,58,3,6,96,56,75,0.0,0.785,0.215,0.9493,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,12,14,8,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,1,4,4,10,10,0,5,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,5,2,37,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3171108805136564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4890884995827509,0.2388979317632733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14213095712349538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377201275551019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403756675380947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386015921449377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19477359687298712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12181543554478415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19579400374296704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753058045778509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359563090328535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4192740993324063,0.0,0.2103888361324497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16974180617440707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15014611228163596 schizophrenia,blackberrybuddha,2019/08/28,"I'm very scared... So I've had 2 key experiences in the past 2 weeks that were hallucinatory in nature. The first one happened when I was about to fall asleep. As I was drifting off, I felt a sort of uneasiness. I shrugged it off, and a few minutes later, a voice whispered loudly in my ear saying ""DAN."" My name is not Dan, and I don't even know anyone who is. It made me restless last night, and of course it's not ghosts because that shit's not real. My only conclusion was an auditory hallucination, something I've never experienced until that moment. Fast forward to this morning, I was in guitar class talking with a few of my other senior friends, and I noticed a guy walk in. It was in my peripheral vision, but I know he had black hair, was wearing a red shirt, and handed my teacher a slip. I quickly looked up, only to notice that there was no kid, no slip in my teacher's hand, no announcement to any student in the class, and it dawned on me that I didn't even hear the door open or close. Part of that might have contributed to a bad panic attack I had today. What do you guys make of it? I'm wondering if this is due to a lack of sleep or schizophrenia.",4.515063291139242,4.8536074261603375,5.757654008438821,81.92458227848101,69.67510548523207,8.176540084388186,28.458227848101266,8.021203637495839,1.6989118987341771,908,30,189,11,15,305,141,237,0.12300000000000001,0.843,0.034,-0.9654,0,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,0,2,7,7,2,3,14,0,19,9,9,2,1,29,30,14,1,2,7,0,4,0,1,1,0,6,1,3,17,9,0,0,5,1,0,4,9,6,0,2,14,14,21,1,28,15,4,33,0,0,3,0,11,15,1,6,16,128,38,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10519098360598828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081592244289054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17597631651506315,0.0,0.0,0.12915536552129314,0.09429443200727493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043357326662973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15131143800526867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485216873310925,0.0,0.0,0.13157483091942754,0.0,0.0,0.1195091100800928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063245873940193,0.13678727760088275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174341037004224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700214660756479,0.1260887757707088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298962924546532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14636651908494286,0.1032533201046404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16409615193505087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193024710578317,0.0,0.0,0.14516122719262128,0.0,0.0,0.3522193911111109,0.0,0.0,0.10481843893829887,0.23528955561260764,0.0,0.181489310388884,0.0,0.16750858874191193,0.14766416594087947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176065192717621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12301157937296392,0.1548664922158111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587817473211372,0.0,0.0,0.15479653393675608,0.0,0.0,0.11908393350631187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12432980089458055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14662312482119585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12763117839168575,0.0,0.0,0.12407883409100733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16774909148867434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DumosterGarbageTrash,2019/08/28,New Here I'm new. I'm here because my delusions have been really hard to handle lately. Like it's getting really bad.,0.017500000000001847,2.2973990833333358,2.9750000000000014,84.42000000000002,99.83333333333334,5.7333333333333325,18.5,7.1686216300943375,1.0457000000000003,94,3,17,2,4,33,19,24,0.21100000000000002,0.693,0.096,-0.4563,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277886283373024,0.20288068674120985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17388188835970322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981365037648805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3754293571425509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16259639896267206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6428688153889346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4264191007966109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hardinmathclass,2019/08/28,"Reality test I use Hi all, I’m schizoaffective (mainly audial hallucinations), and I just wanted to share a reality test I’ve used for a while when I want to confirm whether music, voices, sounds, etc are real or not. I open the voice recording app in my phone and I record and play it back. If I can hear it in the recording, I know it’s real. If not, it’s a hallucination. I know it’s a basic solution, and many of you may already do this, but I’ve found this useful.",1.5849713631156952,3.457962938144334,4.3061168384879736,83.38627720504012,79.41237113402062,7.197709049255441,22.117983963344788,8.167268648758528,1.1647764032073311,363,11,78,7,9,129,63,97,0.0,0.8740000000000001,0.126,0.8254,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,6,0,4,0,0,3,1,25,14,11,0,4,8,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,7,5,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,10,2,6,12,3,6,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,4,3,51,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405309159474655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16760241012984076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24308972174783244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389884834050994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24566353848339184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395768414137955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22098332655381211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4961860843551497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5647579579572177,0.0,0.0,0.25712400411465114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zussamen,2019/08/28,"How can I be properly tested? My parents hide a lot of things from me and I don't what they know. Because of their very secretive life, I usually have to find out things the hard way. Today I was at a doctor's appointment and my dad told the lady that my uncle (who killed himself) had schizophrenia. This happened while my mother was pregnant and she probably took a lot of meds from it. My current therapist thinks that it's very likely that I have autism, so is there any way I can get a diagnosis on all of this? I would prefer to not do these tests with my parents, because they're very invasive on space and genuinely don't care about my privacy whatsoever. My dad also probably wouldn't go too far out of his way to do anything for me, but that's good considering how much he's always trying to get on my nerves for no reason. Is there any way to get tested preferably without my parents around?",6.3053333333333335,5.944198866666671,6.835555555555555,78.115,65.8888888888889,10.088888888888887,32.44444444444444,9.642632912329526,2.8440444444444446,716,26,141,13,10,235,107,180,0.071,0.9059999999999999,0.023,-0.6374,4,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,0,9,4,1,0,6,0,16,2,0,3,1,25,26,10,1,4,3,6,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,13,8,0,0,7,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,5,1,24,3,24,18,4,19,0,0,0,0,15,9,0,2,5,102,37,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10016136962302198,0.10421698254212927,0.0,0.0,0.17034687206623966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10306903855918534,0.11149793008765962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527009349572008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12769943462868724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281973894288321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11447507642608605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963118866892393,0.0,0.07118174352093005,0.10505269809965084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075704437295657,0.0,0.11219826687554517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385691702013396,0.0,0.06883343024576044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846688689578196,0.061190206276127465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129639942976268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391231113549055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920722329030884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41722170031303385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700786444235742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12877656164900686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14542343705046706,0.1664193908156775,0.08025433326332236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187211576014138,0.11968053549503685,0.13915595516015636,0.08503567079104139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13794378865294882,0.3100299750773631,0.0,0.3976664699111622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073531283012393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08897310910992562,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jofwnc3,2019/08/28,"Tips for making voices in your head go away, anyone know? 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I know what i want to do... but i cant do it. My illness gets in the way and its impossible to achieve anything. What jobs would you recommend for me to do? Something i can do which can work around my illnesses... because otherwise how do i get money and have a home and have food???? Thx",0.5909375000000026,2.615392885416668,2.904,91.341,83.6875,6.34,21.058333333333334,7.554174236665415,0.7006408333333338,351,11,80,6,10,120,64,96,0.057999999999999996,0.852,0.091,0.4784,3,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,2,4,1,0,1,4,0,15,3,0,1,0,11,20,8,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,6,6,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,14,0,12,16,0,16,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,8,59,20,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16877677950902908,0.1825791898826344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250248008052137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766723019263222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4493459431012342,0.0,0.0,0.2480032599881135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21430870335663632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057283113647341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221539198631339,0.0,0.4070528616140659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127155627125379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21812224174743736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20533717557352854,0.20756840510287533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15789315178842475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12097111156343578,0.16279589644127138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493125490376669,0.0,0.0,0.1456945269733522,0.0,0.0,0.26415058562334304 schizophrenia,Bottlebrushed_Dragon,2019/08/28,"Am I out of line...? So I have no idea where to put this, if it doesn’t fit here, please let me know where I can turn to. I’m at a loss. I truly fucking am. So I don’t have schizophrenia, my brother does. (Schizoaffective disorder I should say, so similar but not 100% same) my whole life, my mom had my older sister and I try to understand our brother. His illness makes him see the world as a triangle when it’s an oval, his logic isn’t the same as ours, etc. it was the easiest way for our mom to explain this to us as a nurse, but my brother was a baby in the 80’s, so it’s not like people knew exactly what it was or how the mind worked. Well, my mom died and the family fucking fell apart. I’ve tried and tried and tried to be understanding, not judge, but it’s like without Mom to act as a buffer, my brother became unhinged. I feel awful for thinking this way but it is! My brother doesn’t like to take his meds because of how they mess him up, so he drinks “to quiet the voices” (his words), now that’s all fine and dandy, he’s an adult. What isn’t fine is that he gets abusive when he’s drunk, and it’s bad enough that even when he stops, he becomes what’s called a “dry drunk”, where your brain is still similarly affected as when you’re under the influence. So impaired, short tempered, argumentative, etc. I basically said that I talked to my therapist, we agreed I needed space. I know he’s hurting since our mom died less than 6 months ago, but I’m grieving too.... yet some of his exact words to me when I sent that was “I DONT CARE WHAT YOUR EX THERAPIST SAID! YOU’RE CRAZY AND NEED HELP!” (This was my current therapist btw, not ex) he went on and on for an hour making a lot of wild accusations that made no sense, said a lot of things he knew would be hurtful, and specifically called me a spoilt brat (a trigger of mine, he knows it’s my biggest fear to be seen this way and have been very suicidal after moms passing. Seems super dumb know that I wrote that out....) Time passes, I’m guilted into talking to him by my entire family basically and think I’m in the wrong. But deep down I couldn’t forgive some of the things he said. Sure he apologized, but it felt... targeted. Like he was trying to instigate something and I feel awful for thinking that way. Earlier today he was arguing about me aiding with my sister. I kept trying to say I didn’t want to argue or choose sides, and he said “I’m not arguing or making you pick a side” after literally asking me if I was “defending” her. Am I out of line for just... not wanting to be around him at all? Or to just not talk to him? Every time I voice a frustration the first response is “oh he’s mentally ill he didn’t mean it/didn’t know what he was saying”. He’s fucking 40!! I’m in my 20s!! Yeah mental illness is fucking awful but it doesn’t mean you’re not sentient and can’t see how you hurt people..... right? I’m so sorry if I come across as judging or am saying the wrong words, I can take this down no problem if I’m out of line.",1.9754807983983511,3.5715578585209045,3.6136692349693647,90.05719680883335,77.32797427652733,6.752217436146332,22.668324940848144,7.5680677535414835,0.798455827215919,2316,68,514,32,53,771,275,622,0.225,0.711,0.065,-0.9990000000000001,1,0,2,0,0,0,97.0,6,4,1,4,29,33,10,2,27,4,43,12,1,11,5,111,101,52,4,12,28,15,3,4,0,2,4,12,0,1,33,23,3,2,23,3,0,8,23,22,1,1,27,18,66,11,64,66,13,63,0,5,3,4,81,31,5,14,24,316,99,1,0.0,0.07226366858199369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054064322971467925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05429440009401622,0.05701780495056837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050924448977242256,0.03717919090864907,0.0673591216251424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0680854739128039,0.12455606576206442,0.0,0.06218379291937174,0.0,0.0,0.052537842086410304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12659684330921567,0.0,0.06990029958411828,0.0,0.05337312319836628,0.0,0.0714803121801876,0.059747387434169415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06301940248978476,0.1360408696891904,0.040283593911848506,0.0,0.051387055156322255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11499267056138235,0.06863117325147496,0.061677172790409615,0.0,0.05856036300140555,0.0,0.0,0.05187841586605249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255386236286113,0.031864974565706944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040880589570656906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060063273219281475,0.0,0.19587450216449284,0.06885075478805001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16759368531185442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062366831593418035,0.04307933383530392,0.11918734415175125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10370373963825613,0.0,0.05771060538626159,0.1221347268890523,0.0,0.0,0.13287288383719664,0.06774660179152175,0.0,0.1229279864995126,0.0,0.0615829327655906,0.4285874216908842,0.048681967393040065,0.0,0.0,0.09044723987339362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845661487423082,0.0,0.0,0.06694916062311419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05835959024655685,0.0,0.06131221276904668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052085481188150415,0.29007925678181623,0.1940081040258672,0.0,0.0,0.09720292864370722,0.05552338320191853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050451901568918135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0469534012108208,0.0,0.0682737762652902,0.0,0.0,0.04870702422608287,0.05099071793361205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0667136148959662,0.0,0.057482744372202126,0.0,0.0917144035008656,0.1470653559715162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21244371805084075,0.08103864332947727,0.11724058579522285,0.0,0.0,0.07112800294978328,0.0,0.057811782024725984,0.0,0.0,0.2484509297291168,0.06634005771216586,0.0,0.12698634597381708,0.07336395972723819,0.0,0.0,0.05032347983128242,0.07194745398164086,0.19364541031709576,0.0,0.0,0.05483770776477293,0.056538725767998815,0.0,0.06809362028574073,0.0,0.05879258363918705,0.0,0.04440174853289545,0.0,0.0,0.04332584093556656,0.13336688879525474,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,slappycider,2019/08/28,"WARNING for any gamers. There is a new game that just came out called “Control”, very cool game and I would recommend anyone able to handle it to give it a shot. It’s extremely surreal so far and trippy as hell. BUT in the second chapter of the game, audio is played throughout the level to imitate static garbled voices coming out of loud speakers. The sound is incredibly accurate when it comes to some of my schizophrenia and hearing it played back to me in a video game, almost as if they’d been perfectly recorded was extremely triggering and super bizarre to see. It kind of threw me into a bit of an anxious spiral. So maybe it’s just me being usual me, freaking out over nothing, but heed on the side of caution when it comes to this game if you have any sort of triggers when it comes to schizophrenia or anxiety disorder.",7.01352201257862,7.0053333710691845,7.033333333333335,76.10333333333334,64.34591194968553,9.833962264150944,34.647798742138356,9.444778638647367,3.1932062893081774,662,27,118,11,9,212,102,159,0.094,0.833,0.073,-0.5249,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,3,9,8,1,0,10,1,9,0,0,3,1,28,18,16,0,3,7,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,11,13,0,1,0,8,0,6,0,2,0,1,4,8,8,6,26,11,2,23,1,0,1,0,10,11,1,6,6,83,19,0,0.17161999846143974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17185263800171638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23341496810858084,0.0,0.13128882907840864,0.19388174857101906,0.0,0.12000069328795875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13196518534655355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18736458912999202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17524320669527296,0.19628755815062446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5913417296053692,0.0,0.0,0.19248642141917585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19669138669618996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16463354070791744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934282112276078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17871581880069248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17241535575013953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16575166394595872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16467401714070592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13675891905766244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18901518201452247,0.14160447223092598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219139228886988,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bardib01,2019/08/28,"Is this normal? Making up scenarios in your head like being with a celebrity, talking with yourself in your head (no voice hallucinations) like day dreaming, etc. also being aware that it’s just your mind and that it’s not real, and you are in control of the conversation, and what the scenarios are.",5.91209090909091,7.5980190727272765,6.2925,74.43875,67.36363636363636,8.40909090909091,30.113636363636363,8.841846274778883,2.5754545454545448,239,9,40,4,4,77,39,55,0.0,0.909,0.091,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,4,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,0,5,2,2,2,0,12,6,4,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,5,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,7,4,1,5,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,3,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22101904344737155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099809464173858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782406689644529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082340484573221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5672862449669104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700482413608793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844841745584795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27906256003185986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707913387850369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145781822228316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22214182234345387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,-leena-,2019/07/11,ADVICE NEEDED!! I seriously need someone’s help here. So I hallucinate and I also hear voices in my head. I’m not on medication because I’m undiagnosed. I go crazy every day. I’m paranoid all the time. Someone is trying to hurt me. People are watching me. The voices go on 24/7 and so do the hallucinations. I need your advice on how to tell my family without scaring them. Thank you so much!!,0.91,3.4918457142857164,4.150389610389613,77.7741558441559,91.85714285714286,5.916883116883117,22.584415584415584,7.348242739294969,1.4887766233766233,308,12,55,6,11,111,53,77,0.162,0.773,0.065,-0.7699,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,1,0,6,4,0,1,3,0,3,2,1,1,1,9,13,7,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,4,12,1,7,13,2,8,0,1,1,0,6,4,0,0,2,36,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3814124968760974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560678717123481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11896657372473834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586083725627562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16442912651791053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18397769943082293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22182570501776247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20028852609878656,0.0,0.21995737596054646,0.0,0.1308103687629452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208920795325212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19660126623411944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434636675503868,0.4341218017775911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13529806221023213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953873157883011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307136700869456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17057679188969455,0.17967536927323285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137982645669987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324995475794623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18812545580038648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,foxhy,2019/07/11,"Am I going crazy? Hello all and thanks for taking your time to read my text.I'm a teenager and I'm pretty scared that something is happening to me.I always feel sad,depressed and anxious about lots of things and even have some crises of bipolarity.Anyway,I've been hearing voices since 2017.Not so much time and not very often,but they're there. The last incident who made post this was few minutes ago.I was in the bathroom and for 10 minutes straight I've heard my parents talking and arguing outside the bathroom,in the dining room.My sister's room is near the dining room,so I asked her through text why are our parents arguing.She told me they're not,and that was the moment when I asked her if she heard the voices. "" No,I didn't "",she answered. "" I don't hear anything "". Very scared,I got out of bathroom and of course my parents were sleeping,as I knew them for a couple of hours. I don't know what to say or what to do.It's not happening constantly,but when it happens,it's freaking me out.",3.4803544776119395,5.100116721393036,3.9859919154228862,88.86018190298509,73.32835820895522,6.418034825870647,27.48787313432836,6.9077264865688965,1.2321664179104483,795,30,160,7,16,250,119,201,0.073,0.882,0.045,-0.6249,3,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,1,1,1,0,6,4,1,1,9,0,13,2,0,1,1,22,31,13,0,1,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,8,10,2,0,4,1,0,1,5,3,0,0,12,8,18,1,18,19,5,15,0,0,0,0,23,6,0,4,7,88,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12778161650915545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11994560452469465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628501758393799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11862441068818115,0.0,0.2695244067046729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15950090463178912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12415748482015188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09521071320121653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07288733500863677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08192462542549912,0.0,0.11529113148788353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25494540944538235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32493845803308546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419602007934377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07922190031743219,0.11750272075421035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12255245937338655,0.0,0.13639964473189176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596794654877932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4801895798953668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380572999608852,0.14665390964551378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14419052000842678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146350670172306,0.14432080950734294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119243619157858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109748754365788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083839960661155,0.11586352382791758,0.0,0.13271534355965786,0.0,0.0,0.09576785831401613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16811181008939782,0.0,0.0,0.13774294581968308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378801859629596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300743169494291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shadowfaxx12,2019/07/11,Husband just diagnosed.. My husband was just diagnosed with schizophrenia. I came here looking for advice on what to expect and how best to support him. All advice welcome! 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We are the ones who are forced to live with that pain. So, then, to those who have hurt me, I apologize, and to those who have lived a life of misery and anguish hell, I apologize, as I must, for whomsoever thrust that pain upon you, never will. The pain may seem everlasting and pleasure transitory but the real territory of glory is in our power to change the pain into something we can all gain from. ""how can you call this a life, if the sorrow is always rife"" well therein lies the strife. Waiting and waiting, for the call, the call where we can come back to *life*.",5.196136363636363,5.34635528030303,5.595000000000002,84.33750000000002,68.16666666666667,8.41818181818182,26.34848484848485,8.07648339933343,1.340466666666667,515,13,109,6,8,165,80,132,0.21100000000000002,0.682,0.107,-0.9371,1,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,9,2,0,2,5,12,1,1,10,0,13,10,2,1,3,22,17,10,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,0,0,10,10,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,9,1,1,0,0,15,3,18,14,1,11,2,2,0,0,20,7,1,3,3,82,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10695378283151108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09883766756483887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3937545291401984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13597599502449306,0.11072397074740807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13191691070773962,0.0,0.0,0.15231796355778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376024200623088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723702407620484,0.0,0.0,0.3405038124776282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09913630909505458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710056941244013,0.0,0.6838666409388455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630420653796353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11701602527441014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895471179816503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557095817553965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sirlanceal0t,2019/07/11,Delusional Just wiggles my way out of yet another delusion. Thought I had a girlfriend and thought I was streaming on a well watched internet website. Months later thankfully I’m still me. Anyone had similar delusions?,5.0562162162162165,8.646680567567573,4.836540540540541,73.56724324324324,81.16216216216216,8.365405405405406,45.23783783783784,8.841846274778883,5.763631351351353,179,14,24,5,5,55,32,37,0.0,0.86,0.14,0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,7,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,4,2,3,2,0,7,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,4,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3786119929331289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524676161842472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28820157542378383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28834991410327393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324235292569151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5732964000036702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865995116651288,0.0,0.0,0.3246441057494345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,askitrighthere,2019/07/11,"Why is Benadryl prescribed to schizophrenics? Does schizophrenia cause people to become allergic to everything slowly? Like mast cell activation (skin indentations from bed sheets, itchy skin, racing heart), inflammation (mild anaphylaxis), feeling uncomfortable in your own skin, ... Some scary cases of people who get mass cell activation syndrome and slowly become allergic to everything, need EpiPens constantly, and eventually end up in the ER with an oxygen mask on. Is that what schizophrenia leads to? Or is prescribed for the sleepiness it causes about an hour after taking it? I think I'm allergic to lots of foods. Sometimes if I eat a particular food that causes an allergy or food intolerance it ruins my entire day and I just want to stay like a statue in my house because I feel slightly itchy everywhere and annoyed. The uncomfortable feelings still remain even after strenuous exercise (to control glucose levels) so it is an allergy or food intolerance. I think this is why I developed eye floaters because I get mild inflammation around my eyes. I got them checked out by an ophthalmologist and there were no erupted blood vessels, so it is likely from the allergy or food intolerance. Who do you make an appointment with to get this looked at? I actually believe my psychotic event awhile back was caused by this allergy or food intolerance.",10.818391557496364,10.99530143231441,9.88743449781659,58.16410662299856,56.51091703056768,13.222852983988357,43.10080058224163,12.45797560212912,5.892851237263463,1104,55,157,32,12,350,138,229,0.11699999999999999,0.851,0.033,-0.9587,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,1,2,9,5,1,0,12,0,9,19,7,7,0,32,24,13,0,3,7,0,6,3,0,0,5,0,1,0,13,9,7,1,5,1,1,1,1,2,1,0,3,9,16,3,29,21,3,21,0,1,3,0,7,10,0,8,12,101,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.09189800056262973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0838327838450171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07241222899306468,0.0,0.11481239573806097,0.20801050102451085,0.0,0.10609926433550047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3869611311503575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10176615900646743,0.10562157579104957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060732959698520515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08241029447740844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09636116516572577,0.0,0.0,0.08340817981700438,0.0,0.0,0.06219952361688645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16927091413907172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284813219476092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6832368037389535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14760248867479164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531771598688691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11159392495444737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09274016090236102,0.10866150491604852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13802261617266615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908051523689087,0.0,0.0,0.08006141677557645,0.0,0.0,0.06286034496823767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06982712670694267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305736071462886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313822513599256,0.0,0.0,0.10037450858468176,0.07520564600785103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07080540305122661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12068285335522486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05554491206641909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16995063427259385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheBreakfastClub369,2019/07/11,"Delusions. I'm not on meds these days. The last time I took meds they made everything feel worse. I can't stop delusional thinking. It feels like everyone in my life around me is plotting against me. I know its all in my head but what can I do to try and stop these delusional thoughts without taking meds?",1.931214285714284,4.5607432166666655,2.109523809523811,95.20500000000004,83.5,6.095238095238094,25.23809523809524,7.447530270364453,1.2303095238095243,243,10,51,4,7,73,48,60,0.036000000000000004,0.868,0.096,0.3561,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,2,1,1,1,14,13,2,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,5,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,2,9,1,7,10,1,10,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,6,30,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16937408632901516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12270366182770193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818041046582861,0.17099579132064427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924050136044091,0.13592366699453212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19526435792217767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10456337034778747,0.1550894444322185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13438812834072328,0.0929527146571677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18003110895168847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6340166993538192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31813617044524256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305382571011913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219126163125423,0.0,0.15104728246367322,0.11094367458859504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21138879209652253,0.1291758424060792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834063940215996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19389388327175106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,endmyexist3nc3,2019/07/11,"I don't know what to do and overthinking. 18 btw I've been depressed for a while now and I've been crying way more than I usually do. I've been thinking of things that I've fucked up in like or what I've should've done. My mom made me really mad yesterday and i was doing things i couldn't control. Like laughing while crying but i was angry, i couldn't stop my fingers from moving and balling up my fist, and i was staring off in space and couldn't move my eyes so it scared me. I wanted to hit something but i didn't so i feel like i have some type of control. Then i yelled at her to get the fuck out of my room(I've never yelled or cursed around her like that in my life). I didn't tell her about how i felt while this was happening but i told my best friend. Now i have a headache from last night to this morning and i don't know if I'm overreacting. Because know im overyhinking a lot and i can't stop. Sorry if i sound like a bitch, i didn't want to write this but i did. Thanks",-0.27611111111110986,1.7897653148148152,1.38237777777778,100.54040000000002,87.98148148148148,4.752296296296296,17.436296296296295,6.152001189255117,-0.5539568148148146,772,19,191,7,25,249,109,216,0.159,0.6970000000000001,0.14400000000000002,-0.2776,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,3,7,15,4,1,5,0,23,5,2,4,1,39,40,23,0,7,8,1,3,5,1,0,1,3,0,0,10,10,0,4,6,1,0,2,10,6,0,0,15,8,33,9,22,21,4,26,0,1,2,2,8,10,3,6,18,123,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12040881664077528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245237765257639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419455395829905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034080074507787,0.0,0.0,0.2971504075169178,0.0,0.0,0.1164980205857042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384164926642027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06839080436087472,0.09662875975309522,0.12986945244525488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450044681839647,0.2500887635822984,0.07066702778005335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11960871952593813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461024816896854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230037420793701,0.11025379904505304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553713826471634,0.3304025609229182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1149920116019631,0.0,0.1279849430171408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15841321936074387,0.0,0.2875169391868217,0.0,0.0,0.1043197587508347,0.0,0.0,0.1269310188333712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866501126891457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13541743907978246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10412866644192943,0.0,0.15141091150220948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261644661481929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182219645679298,0.12452793199256522,0.0,0.0,0.17971958670838353,0.08666823940976974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292453738160169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489682215767438,0.0,0.15955803506890154,0.10736196856316586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nomuseneeded,2019/07/11,"Any Peer Support Specialists? I am co-editing a book of essays on being a Peer Support Specialist (don't worry it's without any info from those we serve). I'm looking for people to write essays, edit essays, and do various small jobs that are a part of self-publishing a book. Right now most of my contacts are in my state and I'd love to Branch out. Interested? Respond here or message me for my email.",1.7366944444444457,4.243034725000001,3.659166666666668,84.66027777777782,83.0,6.055555555555558,25.13888888888889,7.3871296695380915,1.5165972222222228,318,13,59,5,9,107,60,80,0.0,0.809,0.191,0.9333,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,0,6,1,0,0,0,9,11,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,6,4,12,10,3,7,0,0,1,1,7,5,0,2,1,39,9,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3519109230718582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25676447113589435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21728061956598524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335274497038003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801956026356366,0.0,0.17938119253980336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209668021659726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26992744799357904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5872414820593513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494209307752767,0.0,0.0,0.2627680905431196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ParodyOfEssence,2019/07/11,"Finally scheduled a session with a therapist I’m seeing a doctor in a few weeks and I’ve been stressing it pretty hard. I’ve been thinking about how I interact with people and how I have “unusual” perceptual experiences and I realised I’m repeatedly burning bridges, isolating myself, and generally being difficult to get on with. This is my main problem. I want to work collaborative and get on with people. Is cognitive behavioural therapy sufficient to accomplish this? I recently admitted to myself that I can get quite paranoid. I suspect that my coworkers are deliberately trying to damage my reputation, take credit for my work, and generally dismiss my contributions. In some cases this is true, but I go from 0 to “you’re doing this deliberately” which honestly is unlikely. I had some extreme stress in my life and I believe I experienced psychosis with “unusual” perceptions. I feel guilty that these things are happening to me because I feel that it is unfair to my family, coworkers, and supervisor. I don’t want to be a burden on people and I want to make positive contributions. I spent literally months on social media painstakingly removing every activity I had done for the last several years. I put tape over cameras on my electronics and kept my devices powered off. While I did “get over this” I realise that was entirely unnecessary, and a waste of time and energy. I thought that not getting on with people might be a personality disorder but now I’m open to the idea that it could be a reaction to paranoia. I have had a lot of evidence that people are generally kind to me but I still seem to cling to the idea that someone’s just waiting to hurt me when I least expect it. These two things don’t add up. Today I realised that I hold a belief about “cosmic injustice.” I generally have the idea that things aren’t meant to work out for me. I realised that I repeatedly apply for jobs below my skill set because I believe I won’t be hired for more finely skilled work because of this injustice. Honestly it felt good to realise this because it means I’m holding myself back and I don’t need to think that some invisible force is oppressing me. I’m very nervous to bring all this up with a doctor. For a while I was making a list of all the things not to talk about. I had some help realising that a doctor will likely not be judgemental and they are there to help. So now I am open to talking more but still nervous. Looking for some perspectives on this process of seeking help. It would be useful to hear some of your journeys. What advice would you give to yourself if you had to “start from the beginning”? Personally I just started a high skill “dream job” and I am stressing myself out saying “don’t fuck it up.”",5.375247828308638,7.019695126213595,6.627953500255496,71.68218574348495,68.6116504854369,10.08124680633623,33.358456821665804,10.307518312809881,3.8140679611650494,2190,102,378,60,38,739,238,515,0.127,0.7709999999999999,0.102,-0.9420000000000001,4,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,3,1,10,15,19,1,5,21,0,46,5,0,5,3,86,88,26,0,10,10,0,4,1,0,5,4,2,0,2,39,27,0,4,16,1,2,5,9,11,0,1,16,9,60,8,70,59,14,50,1,2,2,1,17,22,1,10,23,288,99,13,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07988819029781227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06286309321062368,0.0,0.1993437416684962,0.0,0.0,0.18421551266264605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06527320388381866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09369614374532707,0.251033308552165,0.0,0.08366181286055957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06888051889937484,0.0,0.0,0.07997022614994873,0.077069553740699,0.0,0.08267365493364202,0.0,0.07849580362606741,0.08955653300831322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07557943036495553,0.2135631216971222,0.07842502996482252,0.04646217489082997,0.06857062766978096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07229400280894506,0.0,0.07323472621159931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09214169358405616,0.0,0.1643921536643714,0.08637664644022176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08751839224362226,0.27686792142423583,0.0,0.0,0.16225468860661585,0.0,0.0,0.08513328076626894,0.0,0.06663969390736116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05774463742645609,0.03994043872740264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06865202010225288,0.0,0.0,0.06950356832434589,0.0,0.0,0.10914166791823927,0.0,0.0,0.08905310061571439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672712752968105,0.0,0.0,0.06525455029237047,0.0,0.0,0.06061889318762687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833865546961221,0.14276731989426172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08317230091665476,0.0,0.07822668270655242,0.0,0.08218445321596173,0.0,0.08695449282329175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0807213307097566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06501335227000989,0.0,0.0,0.06514664192324039,0.07442495847179224,0.0,0.09235774117432392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08333699750076848,0.06926914253304196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11573054028350345,0.0,0.1305762742204635,0.0,0.28094372465907724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06146816240460346,0.13142010182166802,0.0,0.0,0.09349180307392163,0.09492165871825953,0.21725252737114645,0.1047681802492246,0.0,0.06490283530106472,0.04767089431913634,0.0,0.0774923865990548,0.0,0.0,0.05550499345510811,0.0,0.07986090666015229,0.0,0.0,0.07060843601036226,0.0,0.06745487541670288,0.14466030254123044,0.0,0.06557741142037338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380689432139301,0.0,0.0,0.11615012365721973,0.0,0.0,0.05264632073291597 schizophrenia,EnoughDrawer,2019/07/11,Cluttered mind. It’s hard to stay on topic during a conversation. My thoughts goes all over the place.,2.064035087719297,4.903719263157896,2.406315789473684,89.09087719298245,93.21052631578951,4.63859649122807,22.12280701754386,6.42735559955562,0.6686701754385971,82,3,15,1,3,25,19,19,0.08,0.92,0.0,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41408979810231106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4667459046761751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4829582222751465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4927024609400194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3669789368561704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lilxclurr,2019/07/11,"The suffering has led people out of my life. I open up to them and they get scared. I tell them they have nothing to worry about because although the voices are loud, I refuse to do what they tell me to do. Because that would result in my death.",2.8122000000000007,4.2932444200000015,3.4450000000000003,92.6275,74.8,5.8000000000000025,22.5,5.985473137389443,0.2176,191,5,41,1,4,60,37,50,0.214,0.743,0.043,-0.8656,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,5,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,6,1,0,2,0,7,7,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,11,0,9,6,0,5,0,1,0,0,8,4,0,0,0,32,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4007838562036518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17174886101817213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23219307783781076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154271445255861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.227901323084934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291180010618071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5746523774869684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33384322320184484,0.0,0.2335217251780338,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Austin2434,2019/07/11,"Don’t know what to do Ive gotten to the point that i don’t know what to do. Ive been diagnosed with schizophrenia, major depression and anxiety caused by ptsd. I had to quit school half way through my last year i was hospitalized 7 times in 5 months, i can’t go to my friends houses, I can’t talk to anyone except my dad and my grandparents, i can’t leave the house. Basically, im posting here because i don’t know what else to do.....anyone have some advice?",2.2324999999999977,3.783030583333337,3.84,88.905,76.5,7.300000000000002,23.458333333333336,8.07648339933343,1.1019208333333337,360,11,80,6,8,120,58,96,0.08,0.883,0.037000000000000005,-0.3612,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,14,1,0,1,0,9,19,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,6,1,0,1,4,0,13,1,12,15,2,9,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,4,48,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18699141702107325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14638724562568398,0.0,0.0,0.26760191383999066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11664918365880066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965759000420002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648151258469369,0.1942228816917141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598538526253718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478416045770023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10875234359833967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4415995594242925,0.0,0.0,0.20669792315072352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154936850460056,0.1559811374764524,0.0,0.20261896870646187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15273898157857507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808938023316219,0.0,0.18326668988262587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22368557998398614,0.0,0.0,0.2035312574832646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19366305607103146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538051555122059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11158154974054088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15188993144218668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232273516034754 schizophrenia,Adamantiumskelett,2018/12/29,"Getting a gun in Germany So I have been afraid of someone (it's certainly not a delusion, my sane friends agree) and I have read there are some Germans on here. Is the big bad F20 an obstacle when I am trying to get a gun in my country? I'm talking about kleiner Waffenschein here. Any help is a appreciated! 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A weird thing happened a couple of nights ago. While in that stage of sleep where you're not quite asleep and not quite awake I sometimes hear voices. Usually just random blabble. But this time I found an 'off switch' for it in my mind. I turned the voices on and off several times using the 'switch'. I had control over them. Has anyone else experienced something like this? It's very difficult to describe how to do it. It feels like I'm flexing my brain as if it were a muscle and the pitch of my tinitus changes very slightly when I do it. Any thoughts?",2.2426231884057977,4.682360791304352,2.6153260869565216,93.38096014492756,80.21739130434783,5.224637681159421,22.6268115942029,6.42735559955562,0.41924637681159416,461,15,94,4,12,141,78,115,0.040999999999999995,0.909,0.05,0.261,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,3,4,4,0,0,9,0,5,3,3,3,0,16,13,9,0,1,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,10,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,6,9,2,15,9,0,16,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,2,9,60,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15700044817407902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120443266400445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384189057829642,0.18147373052146104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977172621600396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873626186860416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986478718251988,0.0,0.19597274001904413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14795561841300994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08955391687152668,0.12652993336159574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941958318158082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15662089992413433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19961980812996424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17305743806667578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788341647998516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662090395814219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3767640575781079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000878631096228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17724142826390368,0.0,0.0,0.1363506399088096,0.17516979907062702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11766635206790435,0.0,0.0,0.1406083503128821,0.20655263447461567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926486492432536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15296921404952654,0.1950655187675329,0.292274404004288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jillianwantsamillion,2018/12/29,Rh O- Negative how many people here at rh negative blood type here?,0.30128205128205465,1.7953586153846146,2.4384615384615387,85.29820512820513,116.69230769230768,7.887179487179487,19.71794871794872,7.793537801064563,2.3064564102564122,54,2,10,2,3,18,10,13,0.402,0.598,0.0,-0.8126,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.82546204115783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5644576322520134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,981206,2018/12/29,"Talking to myself...rant?? IDK I've seen a lot of posts about talking to yourself. Almost as if that is an indefinite indication that you could have a mental disorder. The question I have is does talking to yourself, while understanding that the person/voice is in fact not real, mean that something is wrong. I dont talk things out with myself. I talk to others that i can faintly hear almost as if i make them talk back and respond to me in my head but just enough to realize that it is an interior thought. It's not my voice, or even just one voice, but several that show up and I feel that I have to have a conversation with it. Sometimes I don't even realize I'm doing it until I hear my voice talking out loud. The most frequent is if I'm sitting I could be in the same spot for hours talking to these ""people"" (I do not see anyone) as if they're real. I'll waste hours without realizing because to me I'm just having a conversation. I do know that it is odd to do, but I understand that the voice/person does not truly exist. I also understand that it is not fully normal to do, but does this mean I could potentially have something going wrong? I should probably clarify I am a female who will be 21 in a handful of months. I used to have issues as a child when left alone due to voices or seeing things. I believe that I was severely haunted for 7 years. My family did not leave me alone much after those times and the ""episodes"" as they were called have mostly stopped as I've grown older. My theory is it gets triggered on by being by myself, but I am never alone in my house anymore, so there is no real way to test the theory out. I haven't really been left alone in years and that was really the only time these things ever happened. I believe my mind feels more secure with others around. There really is not a way for me to go about this without finding a way to be on my own. Which isn't possible as I still live at home and my mother does not work and my brother is only 11. There is always someone at the house, unlike when I was a child and had these experiences in our last home. This is also a factor into believing I was being haunted. It started in that house when I was 6 or 7 and lasted until after we moved to our new home when I was 13. It stayed after moving, but in the early stages of moving I was still by myself often enough at our new house for these experiences to occur. What's bringing this all up, is that I've struggled with motivation to do things for a while, but I finally have gotten myself back into college and I am worried at what might happen when I will be alone again. It's been a long time since I have been by myself, and I am not looking forward to it again. Sorry about the length, but things just kept coming to me as I was typing. Sorry in advance if it does not make sense. **I have wanted to see someone about this, but I feel like it wouldn't make sense to them when I see reality, and not hallucinations like Nash from A Beautiful Mind. I know that when I'm alone I have bad experiences, but is it normal if I'm not having them all day or in public when others are around? I'm not even sure where I would even start or how my family would react. They would never see me the same. They acted as if I was a crazy when I went through this as a child so I learned to never bring it up with them. To have to tell them at nearly 21 I think I need to see a psychiatrist, they would laugh and wouldn't understand. Should I wait until I'm out on my own to see if it still happens or think about seeing someone now? ***Does anyone else feel that things only happen to them when they are alone? Or get more paranoid alone? Did you have any trouble while others were around? Did you experience things as a child that seemed to go away but really never left? Do you talk to the ""voices"" in your head out loud for hours? Did you think you had a problem before you were diagnosed? 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Personally I don't because I don't feel any emotion on birthdays, christmas and etc.",4.23,6.860714142857147,5.92404761904762,71.29178571428572,74.23809523809524,8.009523809523811,39.07142857142857,8.841846274778883,4.2491714285714295,91,6,14,2,2,31,17,21,0.0,0.812,0.188,0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739960268783861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456132535419761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4532251612179159,0.0,0.0,0.4493567477186416,0.0,0.36445969856541294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037259379251186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3989492112532364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3518098501131866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,link9913,2018/12/29,"Schizophrenia is not the end of the world This was inspired by a thread I read earlier. Schizophrenia, in my opinion, is the most stigmatized mental illness. You know what is different now that I have schizophrenia? I really appreciate my friends and family so much more. I take chances and risks in life that I never did before. I used to wait, now I go for it. Of course having biological children is very complicated, I gained weight from invega, I run the risk of people that know about my illness treating me like shit, but the good outweighs the bad. Want to know something? I've been in a happy relationship for five years. I am a dedicated runner. I have a nice office job. I have an amazing relationship with my dad. Not in order of importance. I have not had a single symptom in years and I moved to the lowest dose. I cannot be happier. 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I don’t actually “have” (what does that even mean) psychosis or was diagnosed but I’ve struggled with mental health and felt “crazy” all my life and it has all been this giant confusing question mark. I also was in love with someone who had psychosis, and I feel like I understand on a spiritual level. I identify a lot with spirituality but a lot of the time it feels like an unfulfilled fantasy. I also feel like it is part of my life purpose to understand this and try to spread some truth about “mental illness”. I hope nobody is offended by this but it’s just my thoughts about the topic. If you disagree or have some thoughts about what I’m saying or find it unhelpful please let me know, even if if it’s flat out disagreement. You’re not crazy and there’s nothing wrong with you. Mental health professionals are not out to get you, or lying, but more so just brainwashed themselves. I think the way society handles mental illness is completely and totally wrong and the professionals go to school, that’s what they learn, and that’s what they think is right. How can the brain have “switches” that flip on “PTDS” or “schizophrenia”. That just doesn’t make sense. The brain is a spectrum and more like an ever changing fractal design. But alas, that is way harder to treat, so the mental health system puts things in boxes so it’s easier to understand. I’m not saying don’t trust any of them, because I genuinely don’t think they’re out to get you. Your delusions are not “wrong” they’re based in a soul with strong intuition that got “confused” or “dirty” like a photo was was originally super clear but got water damage or something. Know that the core of strength is there but you have to clear the fog so that the confusion is lifted. If darkness is proportional to light, you have a big big light. Mental “illness” is nothing but unhealed pain. If pain is and can be directly proportionate to love, growth, awareness, and understanding. Ever notice a trend in people with “psychosis” of feeling like you’re a healing, extrasensory, meant to do great things, feel colors, creative (originally but probably not in the height of an episode) sounds, have these associations in the brain, etc. I don’t think that’s wrong at all. I think that people with mental illness are typically people with psychic and intuitive gifts that sort of...”went wrong”, or more so, we’re not integrated healthily or disowned by family. From a spiritual perspective, I think sometimes psychosis or schizo can occur out of unfulfilled dreams of self and the division between “higher” spiritual self (which is very strong) and physical earth self. That division causes a sort of confusion and disconnect from psychical reality. Also, pain, addictions, trauma, etc I think are in our lives so we can heal from them and then become healers ourselves in a spiritual sense. If you don’t heal the trauma you continuously get holes and tears in your auric field and you’re no longer “protected” from outside negative influences. Our “mental illnesses” are the direct representation of the opposite of what we crave, because our world works in duality. When the universe wants you to heal an aspect of yourself, it will manifest as the complete opposite to bring awareness to that. So like, if your demons are telling you you’re alone and worthless, friendless, your core wound is probably feeling isolated and unwanted. The only way to heal this is to make friends with the demon. What you don’t fear anymore can’t hurt you. If you work to meet those needs and help the demon, voice, whatever you want to call it find a place to meet that need, they can’t hurt you anymore. You’re not crazy. You’re not just some hallucinating psycho. What if everything that feels so negative, haunting, and scary, is actually trying to help you? Whatever you’re pain is directed towards, that’s probably the piece of your soul that needs to heal. You are talented, and gifted, and special. Your “delusions of grandeur” I think only come up because of, like how I mentioned, the unfulfilled talent. I genuinely do think people with psychosis have special intuitive abilities but they were never incorporated in a healthy way and sort of “stayed in the darkness”. So, when we feel that, but everything else in our life is telling us we’re a worthless piece of shit who can’t hold a job, the brain goes to opposite extremes to compensate. Sometimes this life feels like some sort of sick joke, or trial run. So confusing. All I want it to understand the nature of reality. Just laugh at the ridiculousness of it. How much these small minushas (how the fuq do you spell that) don’t really matter. I just want to say, you are a beautiful soul. There is nothing wrong with you. Your pain is a result of Unhealed pain. You don’t have to decide to try to heal it, you don’t have to do it all at once, you don’t have to do anything. You can respect it and know, you may not know exactly what it is, but maybe if you inquire you can’t find out. What do the voices want from you? What are they trying to get? What if they had the same pain as you, and just need to be directed to a different source of energy. Nothing in the world is bad. Just hurt. I do think mental illness is spiritual and not just a “malfunction” in the brain. The biggest healing i have felt is when I looked at what those demons were trying to tell me. My pain has always been about loneliness and not being accepted for who I am and being different. When I shared myself with people that get it that hole in my heart sorta kinda closed a little. As for getting help from mental health professionals, I have a hard time trusting them, because like i said, I feel like most are brainwashed (not evil I think they genuinely believe in what they’re saying). I think the most one can do is listen to your intuition. Stick with things and people that feel healing and genuine. Sometimes I’ve found the most healing from friends or other people (sometimes in the psych ward) then mental health professionals. 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I'm undiagnosed, but have been lurking this sub for a few days. I know it could be nothing, but I've been hearing static and/or music without any cause, and seeing myself as a foreign being that isn't really me. It feels like I'm losing control of myself, and maybe it's my meds messing me up, but I feel deep down that maybe it's something more. Schizophrenia runs throughout my family, so perhaps I'm just paranoid. What do you all think? 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When I stood under where it was happening, my feet could feel the something was under the floor causing it to vibrate. So I figure it was actually an animal and then it stopped but I wasn't sure. Could this be a hallucination? Or was it real?",2.480540540540538,5.0761772567567585,4.760743243243244,77.40570945945947,80.48648648648648,6.402702702702705,24.114864864864863,7.645422480735847,1.6533567567567564,303,11,51,5,8,105,46,74,0.06,0.915,0.025,-0.3618,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,6,0,8,1,1,1,1,13,13,7,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,7,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,3,8,2,9,3,0,12,0,0,0,0,2,9,0,2,4,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.2968666050296865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31250907685626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4857763625042365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538185081280766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589379871834296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690132828312597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14862240465747084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656258051395647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.346259362098599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341969256707078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543344905766287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867158004302876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20653968410556334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,meghanfights,2018/12/29,"How to keep taking meds when voices and “delusions” don’t want them? This has been a problem since this all started and I don’t know how to get past it (or if I should, but that’s a different story). How do you manage to take your meds if it’s something you struggle with or have struggled with? 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I'm having a really bad night plus my mom doesnt want me to take the meds. sorry",0.9248351648351658,3.174975604395605,2.871087912087912,90.68641208791209,84.16483516483515,6.277362637362637,18.99010989010989,7.554174236665415,0.4741024175824173,344,9,76,6,10,115,65,91,0.19899999999999998,0.7240000000000001,0.078,-0.9216,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,6,6,1,0,5,0,7,2,1,0,1,14,16,6,2,5,4,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,2,9,3,4,14,0,6,0,0,2,0,5,2,1,2,5,42,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743858819587723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17693803575956335,0.12917985648594887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216386294407698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21993165599596504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483598013656445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13996616798512035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164615350007534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035297140428282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128945288854044,0.0,0.23538694853102976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481892884729759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20466635500195693,0.0,0.19886546953928635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254897770317827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412027501865485,0.1357565353523238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809720658370116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688667782343664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21752507433259927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372186269834143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997249667606974,0.0,0.15933178200470313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14387463641990114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24998289507466556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905347331650465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MudBugZombie101,2018/12/29,Coping Skill Hey everyone i was told by my team that streaming was a coping skill for me and if you guys ever wanted to come check me out heres my twitch [https://www.twitch.tv/mudbugzombie](https://www.twitch.tv/mudbugzombie). Not trying to promote at all i only have maybe 10 followers i just wanted to share a coping skill and if anyone wanted to stop by and watch they could. :),7.931249999999999,10.551963375000003,5.995750000000001,74.87425000000003,63.6875,6.995000000000001,20.6125,7.554174236665415,0.6818787500000005,312,5,49,3,5,90,45,64,0.067,0.8540000000000001,0.079,0.2062,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,1,5,3,1,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,2,16,10,5,0,6,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,9,1,9,6,1,6,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,2,2,35,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20734805199688897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25544343190567176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367635046185429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268237910596568,0.0,0.2833572096757718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936217729475794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979148467363839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255324558265308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24792118341809705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833572096757718,0.0,0.2013315724114241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5247219099249874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AngryJulius,2018/12/29,"Challenging the current science of mental health, how much do we actually know about schizophrenia and could we be completely wrong? I have been dealing with schizophrenia for about two years now. I recently received neuropsychological testing to obtain an “official” diagnosis of schizophrenia. I’ve read a lot online, heard a lot from doctors but my most recent experiences with this illness have truly made me question myself and my beliefs. It is always something new, everyday is different for me. I’ve been in and out of therapy, prescribed various medications with little to no result or change in my mental condition. I’m aware that this illness is usually diagnosed in your early adulthood. From there, I believe you actually grow into your illness. I’m 24 now, with onset symptoms at 21-22. The past few months have been difficult, I have synesthesia. One may brush this during the psychedelic experience but synesthesia is also a byproduct of psychosis and by proxy- Schizophrenia. My sense are not completely blended but rather used as a means of communication with and by my auditory hallucinations. I very rarely have visual hallucinations but when I do they have been as a computer glitch, paranormal entities, fractals, colors, faces, geometry, “breathing” textures. A major question I have now for anyone is that are we properly diagnosing schizophrenia? Or could it be the most undesirable symptoms of schizophrenia is a fundamental lack of knowledge about our basic sensory perceptions? Could it be that in some cases the unawareness that there are other ways people hear, see, feel, taste, touch and smell this reality around us could lead to mental distress? 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Just barely scratches. I told my therapist, boyfriend, and a friend about the suicidal thoughts coming back, but I haven't told anyone about the scratches. I need a sharper implement, I'll probably go out and buy one. My therapist wants me to talk through all this and find some reason for the suicidal thoughts, but there weren't any triggers. I've been stressed lately, but so what? I can't escape it. Meditation helps, but only so much. &#x200B; I remember the days when blood would just pour from my skin when I cut much deeper. I miss those days. There is something calming about it. I am starting to fantasize about the day I can open up my veins and let everything drift out until there is peace. &#x200B; Is my life so bad? No, it's not. I'm extremely fortunate. I just feel so fixated on the blood and the pain and the end. &#x200B; I dream of death. I have no time to go back to the hospital though, and my therapist wants me to talk and lean on my resources, but I just don't want to. Why can't I just take an alternate path? The cuts aren't dangerous yet, I take care of them. If I tell someone about the cuts it is a cry for help. I don't want to be helped. I want to be able to live however makes the most sense to me. &#x200B; I dream of dogs. I love dogs. I can't have one in my apartment though and moving isn't an option since I live with my boyfriend. &#x200B; Sometimes I feel so disconnected. I look at my body like a flesh prison. My mind could do so much more if I was just free from my body, if I could carve away at it until it is gone. &#x200B; I'm trying painting, but I'm not very good. I'd like to take art classes. &#x200B; I still have schoolwork to do, always schoolwork. I'm not a person anymore. I am a vessel to fill with knowledge. There is a hole at my base that drains as quickly as I fill. &#x200B; I am in the void. The world is crashing around me and I miss the voices. They were scary but they make me feel real. I miss seeing the world through a beautiful lense where patterns dance and move. I miss angels by my bedside, but I know religion is dangerous. I don't want someone telling me what to do, even if it would be easier. &#x200B; You are my community, and I love you, and I'm not saying goodbye yet, just until later. 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Do you ever see things floating when they shouldn't be. Like I was at lunch with fiance's mom when it looked like the etchings on the table were floating out. Then I started seeing faces under cars while driving on the freeway. I've seen full on people and creepy things built from nightmares. This stuff is new though.",4.329004975124377,6.736413268656715,3.5590298507462705,89.4351616915423,73.02985074626865,5.063681592039801,24.59950248756219,5.46131890053228,0.5340069651741288,287,9,51,1,6,84,56,67,0.033,0.909,0.057999999999999996,0.1506,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,0,4,0,7,3,1,0,1,7,12,7,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,4,2,8,7,1,16,0,0,4,0,4,7,0,1,9,37,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26535460575770115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23648611895509336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554513209820311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21954252108870007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061936477859131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25249896239546776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812485592352898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29287098777232473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41666532134053386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18504753787983527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992845694089224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34737628623974104,0.0,0.2568620293411433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,trashwizardnyc,2018/12/29,"Is this hearing voices ? This is the only symptom i have. Basically when I’m in a loud room, with lots of people talking, it seems like i am also hearing like whispering or indecipherable noises/voices in the room too. It’s hard to focus when lots of people are talking. Fans and running water also sound like indecipherable voices sometimes. When it’s quiet, all i hear is my tinnitus ringing. I don’t see things. 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Me SPIRITUAL like.. Angels, saints, miracles. Its sucks when i feel this way is like torturing myself. 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So I don’t really know anything about schizophrenia; i’ve heard that it’s where you have like multiple personalities but i’ve also heard that that’s just a myth. I googled it to try and get some more insight but tbh it’s not very clear so i was wondering if anyone here could explain what schizophrenia really is?",3.033636363636361,6.003124712121218,3.360833333333337,85.66125000000002,82.18181818181819,6.330303030303031,26.431818181818183,7.645422480735847,1.801672727272728,285,12,51,5,8,88,48,66,0.057999999999999996,0.912,0.03,-0.4041,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,1,14,13,7,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,7,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,4,1,2,9,2,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,3,1,33,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711782217733241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371066694209084,0.0,0.2790504832507976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707438313496519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17716580269657864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18636054282062314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656671767803897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960891214141553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4344724053232256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873184082871426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302267039598879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27979309007166736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36773958570132986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,OMPOmega,2019/10/03,"Insight please? My mom got to the point where she said she “knew I had a secret” and accused me of working for the president, on a “high-level committee” and for various government agencies. Meanwhile, I was studying in a foreign country. I was livid. What goes through someone’s head before they say something like this? How do they process this once their episode is over? Any insight from someone who has had similar thoughts before and snapped out of it would be appreciated.",5.634019933554818,7.908406720930233,5.1177076411960165,80.2533720930233,69.0,7.70498338870432,39.02990033222592,8.418075326091056,3.564403986710964,382,23,64,6,7,116,69,86,0.065,0.836,0.099,0.4479,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,3,1,2,1,0,0,5,0,9,1,1,1,0,11,13,4,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,5,4,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,2,10,1,11,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,10,6,0,0,1,46,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16174093935520287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40477260731214215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190224237428392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24409484657591365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512934785323372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619774783526447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785580605918261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25329431754091325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26107945400519894,0.22483787788677626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22624251976860016,0.1891417659319011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4030460662565101,0.183102644420248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188820241599716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17315204785169808,0.0,0.0,0.16895636615149032,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shanney77,2019/10/03,"Hello, long time lurker here I gain a lot of insight on your challenges in lifr here that help me with my boyfriend who has scizophrenia. He had been doing sooo...well with not engaging with voices, remaing extremely spiritual and invested in AA for a long time and is proud of the work he has put in with steps. You could honestly say he is in a good place. I get home from work tonight with the bedroom door barricaded and my son and I bust in. My boyfriend was knocked out cold and unresponsive . Found my pull bar had a blanket set up for hanging. He digested to much of his many medications and now will not wake up. His vitals are good and he is breathing, he just wont wake up.",4.0553333333333335,5.396286274074075,4.621666666666666,85.97250000000004,71.44444444444444,8.362962962962964,29.055555555555557,8.841846274778883,2.0959777777777764,537,21,113,10,10,171,89,135,0.013999999999999999,0.833,0.152,0.9543,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,5,4,7,0,0,6,0,14,6,3,0,0,20,16,7,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,3,0,2,13,2,0,2,1,1,4,3,0,1,0,5,3,12,7,22,8,2,22,0,0,0,0,15,11,0,1,6,71,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18299983165406733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513091033519909,0.0,0.0,0.11974903327145843,0.0,0.0,0.3844889655583283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536298442843217,0.0,0.2299091545666209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4056746333566869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948600734437881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232375723134087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308977660049538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684904730003865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394682031995446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304121784778967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822713121582772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26730005932383594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33372482073774185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Fantapants42,2019/10/03,"Invalidating your past? Hey everyone! I was diagnosed when I was 18 with schizophrenia, after nearly 2 years of symptoms going untreated because I thought it was all normal. I am not on medications, havent been for years, and have no plans to return to them any time soon. Truthfully I like the voices, the shadow people not as much but you cant pick and choose the symptoms medications eliminate. I was never on the side of delusional or paranoid though, and I thank my lucky stars for that everyday but I do have some other issues that arise on the emotional side. &#x200B; Lately I started dating someone new, and as you all probably know, choosing when and who to tell about your disorder is a very tricky game to play. You wait too long, you run the risk of them not being ok with it and leaving or using it against you in a lot of ways (been there, done that). You tell them too quickly, its a real bonding moment and it shouldnt be shared with everyone. You have to gauge them, their beliefs, the relationship, everything really. A big thing for me is also I feel like the things I have told people before I tell them I am schizophrenic are immediatly put into question. &#x200B; I have had a lot of unique experiences, Ive traveled to 3rd world countries for research, almost been arrested, seen massacre photos/videos, Ive seen people get killed, Ive lived in abject poverty, etc. But I feel like when I say ""Hey I got schizophrenia"" it makes people question whether or not the things Ive seen or done actually happened. Does anyone else feel like the moment they say ""hey I have \_\_\_\_\_"" the people they tell automatically doubt everything they've ever said. I know that growing up when I thought of things like schizophrenia I imagined the sterotypical ""killer, lunatic, crazy guy down the street with the tin foil hat who drinks his own pee"" type of person. (Maybe I have this now because some all knowing being thought itd teach me a lesson or something) Do you guys ever feel that the second you tell someone you have to prove that things youve done or seen actually happened??",6.1621059916946805,7.328150321336764,6.049113110539848,78.34158344868501,66.3521850899743,8.65813723551513,30.899841803440772,8.841846274778883,2.4988571485070197,1661,62,296,26,26,521,202,389,0.109,0.815,0.077,-0.9407,0,0,2,0,0,0,62.0,0,12,8,2,15,14,1,2,21,1,37,8,1,3,8,65,63,25,1,2,14,0,4,5,0,1,6,4,0,3,22,12,1,1,18,4,0,5,9,3,0,1,21,12,50,11,36,37,10,44,1,0,4,0,43,14,0,15,29,209,72,3,0.0,0.0,0.1473707795747676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07561084122390878,0.0,0.0,0.06038410871267817,0.0,0.16362682536037146,0.18350214981796628,0.05134835955432168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05279728884268977,0.07736736675256455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920585440443482,0.0,0.06425215984543972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07663952351752247,0.0,0.0,0.0865392663303052,0.0,0.06607798465563433,0.2318141904909678,0.0,0.0739695695793596,0.0,0.0,0.06307765074299898,0.08493688321842878,0.0,0.0,0.08421192129278124,0.0,0.13660349646823866,0.0,0.14430318781229542,0.1357243162162587,0.07386178793116338,0.0,0.0,0.1527174365307647,0.1618298317574915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03945006726661656,0.0,0.04291321250201702,0.0,0.060391033824582024,0.0,0.0,0.14953054448805353,0.1335438090210441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07881124132273047,0.0,0.0,0.08353895188489975,0.0,0.12449246702606567,0.0,0.08517686075790627,0.07995258376365401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18444816009582649,0.0,0.06667537622933653,0.06682263370762323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12838922862131366,0.0,0.0,0.05040250052009898,0.0,0.07585842288936727,0.0,0.0,0.15213371084103747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05550742508777778,0.0,0.05823679910193235,0.07292656598667634,0.0,0.0,0.07398228399056891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07208139353865363,0.2617403828052251,0.06593109719208468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08141091863672645,0.0,0.0,0.07590688368560873,0.1691735697662802,0.0,0.0,0.08594518760779682,0.04837266942775786,0.0,0.0,0.08106785535149058,0.0,0.0,0.07182586114478451,0.12009475699262025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12795618975381265,0.058130121282342864,0.0,0.0,0.05344529479978576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15696445659523792,0.0,0.0,0.3299887232495736,0.06951806872321864,0.0,0.0,0.25082241348968565,0.0,0.07418670379674681,0.17983590973532118,0.04402960521940711,0.0,0.0,0.07215159390614771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06521508788745424,0.0,0.062302408569026524,0.0,0.059935121296961776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18350214981796628,0.09724997826164436 schizophrenia,Phasianida,2019/10/03,I feel sane For the first time in over a week I feel I have things under control. The delusions are there but I can identify them. I am in control and it feels great.,-0.5702857142857134,1.6438925428571451,0.9628571428571426,100.62714285714287,95.0,3.9428571428571435,18.42857142857143,5.6839178017228535,-0.472314285714285,129,4,30,1,5,41,27,35,0.0,0.8320000000000001,0.168,0.7684,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,2,0,7,7,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,6,1,5,7,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.685865674410091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4638002689895673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260077023041596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33709852840673665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20313157944990148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17828955407810038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24526008179043365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jafishya,2019/10/03,"How do you stop the bad intrusive thoughts? How do you stop your brain from spiraling? I had an ""incident"" earlier today where I wanted to kill myself by driving really fast into a rock quarry. Anyway, I wound up not in the quarry but my brain is going more and more downhill. What if my epilepsy only exists so I could get my license taken away every now and then? I almost took all of my epilepsy meds to 'prove' it. Not that I had anything to lose.",2.7078932584269686,4.728740505617981,4.393693820224719,83.37683286516854,76.52808988764046,6.6971910112359545,23.484550561797754,7.645422480735847,1.2870101123595503,351,11,65,5,8,118,67,89,0.139,0.861,0.0,-0.8857,0,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,3,0,1,6,3,1,0,4,0,6,3,2,2,2,17,12,8,1,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,2,1,0,3,2,3,0,0,5,0,14,0,10,6,3,14,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,2,6,53,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195984911179921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18046621615272232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20604071259601528,0.0,0.1831073562169016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4896253715192765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17509417730142138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18477073394846613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11457583470864648,0.0,0.12463393558288895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426243047498548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453419670655457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435942144856277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16678845783828974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14048997532282592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36669127462127227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741006703424092,0.0,0.0,0.2078719117700432,0.0,0.2436517215443967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12934953985464678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sz420,2019/10/03,"I can't believe we have 'avatars' in IRL world It's weird to exist, no?",-1.5337499999999975,0.3452831250000017,0.8049999999999997,103.54,92.75,3.2,20.5,3.1291,-0.7774000000000001,54,2,14,0,2,18,16,16,0.262,0.738,0.0,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,whyislifesoew,2019/10/03,Does anyone else have these thoughts? Does anyone else always think they smell? I shower twice a day and I change my clothes every few hours but I always feel like I smell. No one has ever told me I smell but I feel like they are being too nice to actually tell. Sometimes people say I smell good but idk. I have went to the doctor a lot and they told me nothing is wrong and I don’t smell but they don’t know how I smell ALL DAY so how would they know how to fix it. I’m scared to tell my friends because what if they make fun of me....,-0.2849440993788832,1.8669881391304384,1.0553105590062124,102.12706521739132,89.34782608695654,3.633540372670808,14.301242236024844,4.65589566412798,-1.4157453416149068,416,7,101,1,14,131,68,115,0.066,0.722,0.21100000000000002,0.9642,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,6,0,6,8,0,1,3,0,9,1,0,4,2,22,20,12,0,2,5,0,2,2,1,1,1,1,1,0,3,3,0,0,6,0,0,1,3,2,0,2,4,9,21,6,5,14,3,5,0,0,0,0,12,0,0,2,6,61,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.14561975022841087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483303454641521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20867984918568272,0.30579241434011595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09096472332446293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15785774437010208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192472488362866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15273567334189045,0.26117143843345003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493127001891258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13498040176913334,0.12572649217243598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509028793041737,0.213209337228898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11528902504391465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12516085274528885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695422081072096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16401769745638484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14580526794115142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12686373416630214,0.0,0.0,0.09960725671401452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431831271976962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10111710834197347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034521749257582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11866781574657108,0.14939787341371855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14758498550550647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608542919916674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956158287168772,0.0,0.11846609091852058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28517721392291223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13833086253114946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060034669174759,0.16315150818791144,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rbnthrwy12,2019/10/03,"I need your advice because the voice I hear is frustrating I hear the voice of a guy I used to have a crush on, and it’s really irritating at times. I only hear it when I’m at home and it’s quiet. And the voice sexually harasses me. The issue here is that I’ve told the voice I’m not its friend anymore, and to leave me alone, but he acts almost like a narcissist. He’s really annoying and I stay away from home sometimes so I don’t have to deal with hearing him. What can I do to make this easier? Also I take 60mg of Latuda, but he gets loud whenever I’m under stress",0.639489247311829,2.436989024193551,3.4754838709677434,88.5498924731183,82.14516129032258,7.359139784946238,19.204301075268816,8.344100000000001,0.8739430107526878,445,11,102,10,12,158,77,124,0.166,0.774,0.06,-0.8208,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,4,6,3,1,8,0,7,0,0,2,0,13,20,10,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,10,2,1,7,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,10,13,2,13,19,0,9,0,0,0,0,13,5,0,1,3,60,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14595378841149004,0.0,0.0,0.14956341290927522,0.15469289580750134,0.0,0.1194438950600789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812592457669754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14032952602375287,0.0,0.0,0.09104904674951432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15398457756184186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539589686309078,0.0,0.07803492997020027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789081966161038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6733625683150298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996424152409479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558940230930381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581516764665433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07297021401223361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969959168452984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074924938295788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11359573037669905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19136889403790747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14772179536991506,0.0,0.0,0.15919889600486026,0.0,0.0,0.1710924597305583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11230084366913344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709356911083094,0.0,0.0,0.1427207852309311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12899990212702145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rutherfordium_fire,2019/01/29,"Delusion. Trigger warning: Aliens, higher civilizations, suicide, abuse. Direct me to a different sub if I am wrong. So my problem is, I think aliens implanted a recording instrument inside my head, so they can collect data about an underdeveloped civilization like Earth. Here are the reasons why I think this: 1. I persistently think that hypergiant stars are populated and always try to keep my fictional universe as close as possible to real one. I spend way too much time in it. I think that my fictional universe, which is actually an edit of our real universe, may be a reality. 2. I don't feel a sense of responsibility for person, or a ""sense of self"" in general. I simply do not believe that a person called ""me"" exists, and I have never collected any evidence for this. My feelings, emotions, etc. were never really mine. Even as I am typing this, I visualize my fingers as in a movie and not actually being mine. I think there is a nanometer-sized instrument inside my head that is manipulating the body. 3. I always wanted to leave Earth since childhood and objectively insisted that aliens would come one day and take me away. 4. I remember a moment from 2001, while my birth year is 2002. I once told my grandparents about a memory I had of setting up a large, old, blocky TV. I asked them, what year that was, and they answered, 2001. This was kinda a shock to me since to me memory was crystal clear of them being in the room. Except for some reason there was no ""me"" in the room. I have no idea what entity was observing that TV being set up. 5. I acted like a ""boy"" in childhood and up to a large age, but now I am a very dysphoric trans girl pursuing medical transition. I write this on a throwaway account. People already conflate being trans with schizophrenia so I better hide. I think aliens at the control center changed my brain gender, just so they can see what a terrestrial female would observe. I also have an intense fear of detransitioning, because they might switch me back to male. 6. Can also explain why I had suicidal thoughts. Aliens simply needed a way to extract back the instrument, after witnessing a lot of abuse on this planet and realizing that my ""assigned person"" is socially introverted and is not a good data collector. I have yet to commit suicide, but maybe because they are arguing up there over whether to continue the experiment. 7. I always managed to get away from bad situations, and live life on ""easy"" mode, except for stepdad. This may be the need of aliens keeping me in good life to research life on Earth from a neutral standpoint. *Personally, I think I will be committing suicide voluntarily soon, in order to help them retrieve the instrument.* I wish this saying wasn't true, but I feel like it becomes more convincing day by day, and it is actually scary. Problem is, I have never observed anything in my life that would say that I am a real person, with real and valid observations. Honestly at this point I just accept this alien theory of mine because it costs less energy.",5.2918246869409655,7.16769217173524,6.388407871198571,72.41531305903402,69.14311270125224,9.350268336314848,31.4257602862254,9.763852164103024,3.3386715563506275,2400,103,403,58,43,801,276,559,0.131,0.8,0.069,-0.9898,2,0,0,0,2,4,89.0,1,0,8,3,21,17,1,1,34,0,49,10,5,5,7,81,73,29,4,10,13,0,4,3,0,7,5,2,2,9,28,16,0,3,19,2,3,2,10,7,0,2,11,7,66,10,64,48,6,57,0,0,1,0,28,27,0,8,26,295,94,5,0.0,0.1604461817803612,0.19822017415125426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07471763172016545,0.10829237274428853,0.1690158245970593,0.0,0.0,0.04604386660009481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055718041716360786,0.0,0.0632979841553159,0.0,0.12722807918772122,0.1041267822572022,0.05653348050269937,0.12382278688648506,0.07477833664485463,0.0,0.07628390362192898,0.0,0.05988236005739564,0.0,0.07520849549529167,0.0,0.07558469240750515,0.06913759556239324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07162624925782199,0.05832457946817081,0.0,0.0,0.07594045216527266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13099847411758914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07074061008935995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761625600950287,0.0,0.0,0.07551248966465106,0.044720597212782535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06623156688675068,0.0,0.07619049735076301,0.10270583134733016,0.04837071881835542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03537471596667553,0.0,0.0,0.11358077453631127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13897619982074674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0453833484671461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07643426451498439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203642367331416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07169315890709416,0.0,0.0,0.19129708643766014,0.09923635206808144,0.0,0.059787540541912425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05756305135001436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06802194138873198,0.0,0.0,0.06820884199749057,0.0,0.07182765167010234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049773283864163714,0.10040947667770672,0.15666210755355356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104831799135294,0.07210697436227485,0.0917615950390347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04694030880185043,0.2956007426779357,0.0,0.0,0.0640060908347514,0.07633077041158078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12957511857707738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082668102724587,0.04337557728335865,0.1392305183855706,0.0,0.0,0.07670013968041146,0.0,0.0,0.1076884834945738,0.0,0.0,0.05395463261409144,0.0,0.07063437132687439,0.0,0.0,0.11201776949791553,0.07610680206977301,0.0,0.06901993641688182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962469244327947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050908105500071264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036925584865864,0.0,0.05375271128184732,0.03948116915074055,0.0,0.0,0.06469804281253372,0.0,0.045969392154495095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05586631810471196,0.03993602354644683,0.1074871623401471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12219215549262173,0.0,0.07786103571664688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14429379009413573,0.07402823750514846,0.0,0.08720366268379467 schizophrenia,kaypuiu,2019/01/29,"Coping mechanisms? What are some ways you calm yourself after an episode ? Or like center yourself ? Or stop a bad hallucination? Sorry if these questions are insensitive or invasive",5.507241379310344,9.105456275862073,5.796137931034483,63.83765517241382,89.6896551724138,7.8372413793103455,33.38620689655172,8.238735603445708,4.312001379310345,148,8,18,4,5,47,25,29,0.26899999999999996,0.6,0.131,-0.6199,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,2,4,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,6,3,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3821865160229309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22362439226264674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5127638126917657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5123927152991137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3826838626229258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3633258002752059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lordawall,2019/01/29,What would you call this ? Please read What would you call someone that thinks they do not have schizophrenia but have inappropriate thoughts. Someone who believes they know about life so much better than anyone else and just know they will succeed in life because of this. Someone who likes watching people get hurt and also see very inappropriate stuff and also thinks in his mind that some day he will come across these actions himself or herself. Someone who knows they are not mentally crazy ( in which he sees stuff or hears voices etc ). But just seems to see life as it really is. Is these still described as schizophrenia ? Or is this considered something else. Feel free to say anything ,7.0060564663023674,9.054203303278687,4.97863387978142,83.51217668488161,65.14754098360655,7.0615664845173045,30.76867030965392,7.3871296695380915,1.870751183970856,561,21,95,5,9,158,80,122,0.032,0.8170000000000001,0.151,0.9505,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,4,2,7,5,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,0,0,25,25,13,0,2,9,0,1,1,0,4,3,3,0,0,16,4,0,0,8,1,1,2,2,1,0,0,1,8,9,5,11,20,3,8,0,1,4,0,18,4,0,5,3,66,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20193532334482187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828181637083607,0.1293651968587914,0.10389873714099597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07696508342411733,0.0,0.0,0.14224838142824706,0.0,0.11166403906759907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25784498688827073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10875920912423638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08142530742855361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109430124940284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14080990775786714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06383932292718712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06596406123476142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14230079307590507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13516070891007118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20816260369530726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675371175211549,0.06168278317485201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723734036251969,0.0,0.127483558462884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928134079652771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875306930266461,0.0,0.0,0.13859225030456274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12629114740944014,0.0,0.0808834546885972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040461845978524,0.0,0.0,0.3018314006824343,0.1149396131460939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4279085193565579,0.09719879192949826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082898770206684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28906807185746464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618007501130168,0.0,0.10023393945750604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417523159455087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17937867288285658,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,memefied-sesame,2019/01/29,"How was your relationship with your parents/family before and after finding out you’re schizophrenic? How’s your relationship now? How’d they take it? So yeah, hi. I’m just curious about how your family dealt/deals with your illness. I just want to know how it went for you. Initially I planned on sharing my experience but I really want this to focus on your experiences instead. I want to hear you out.",2.4494736842105285,5.372866052631583,4.142421052631581,78.89994736842105,85.84210526315789,8.303157894736843,24.70526315789473,8.841846274778883,2.6647989473684213,324,13,58,10,10,108,50,76,0.026000000000000002,0.8340000000000001,0.14,0.617,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,8,1,1,10,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,4,0,17,9,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,14,1,12,7,0,7,0,0,0,0,14,4,0,0,2,41,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850115632724204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241542980582174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4253642176111352,0.4099354473136349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19872133205830755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24505232314371875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11949038494341703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392871961350057,0.0,0.0,0.4668633921661464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634755712720034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3847264123929207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20155395752702052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kandikouture,2019/01/29,I’m in love with a man who has Schizophrenia. I need Tips and Advice for partners of people who suffer in this mental state. I recently entered a relationship with a man (29) who has just revealed to me that he suffers with delusions and distinguishing reality from what is just in his head. We’ve been best friends for 2 years and he always proclaimed his love for me in the most respectful way. I finally decided to let go of any inhibitions I held onto regarding why we shouldn’t be in a relationship and jumped all the way in love with him. Things were beautiful and perfect at 1st but out of no where he began to accuse me of cheating on him and of wanting other men. I’ve never cheated or been untrue to this man ever! He goes through my phone and searching my home for “clues” or validation of what’s actually only happening in his head; and I let him. I don’t have anything to hide from him and I remain open with our communication however it’s not enough. The mental and emotional abuse I experience everyday is becoming unbearable. Things have gotten so bad that he even began to physically unleash his frustration on my property and even onto me. I am in love with him and want to help him. But I don’t know how else to deal with this. I just found out that I am 5 weeks pregnant but I fear I may end up having to raise my child alone due to his inconsistency and delusions. Please if anyone has any advice as to how I can cope I am desperate for a solution. ,5.541890034364258,5.949075989690727,6.732182130584192,75.59078178694159,67.45360824742268,10.178006872852237,31.630584192439862,10.125756701596842,3.078272852233676,1167,45,227,27,18,395,159,291,0.138,0.731,0.131,-0.7453,1,1,0,0,1,0,18.0,2,0,0,2,10,15,3,1,8,0,22,6,2,2,4,52,38,23,0,5,10,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,6,15,24,0,1,5,0,0,3,6,7,0,0,8,0,37,8,49,25,4,35,0,2,0,4,37,18,0,5,11,167,52,0,0.0,0.1400864593709549,0.11537809569381775,0.0,0.0,0.23107132376166176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12245345804244352,0.0,0.0,0.09837910832047177,0.0,0.0,0.1608046305915982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267107851425101,0.0,0.09729546818151244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09871939651865784,0.0,0.13057876855638856,0.0,0.0,0.1240779627347708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189275990486717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876828017829158,0.13299591504079145,0.1047191113370846,0.12216602256291825,0.0,0.15618321495663326,0.1069482792525113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11565430352785296,0.0,0.1330446993894987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12951818383037395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12963609312016214,0.09134631904737676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06719438891310027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10455281855063936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24268179589801545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924891113786453,0.0,0.11859707496879306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649776200100578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24180196747673904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4268386437661063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383015798150081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876680761049566,0.09118837532206203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08992132399404805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08196769270373963,0.0,0.0,0.12978404021805154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11674056373897565,0.25387542359281445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15709715323089565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947346276236772,0.18769528614491848,0.09483916965248716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10668665490151136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613800599053656 schizophrenia,yyz89,2019/01/29,"Please talk to me about visual hallucinations. Visual hallucinations in schizophrenia have always fascinated me, yet despite over 15 years trying to understand them, I just don't. The concept seems so farfetched for me that I can't even begin to imagine what it must be like. What I'd like to know is whether the hallucinations are more like augmented reality, where the visuals present themselves as additions to the real world, or if they are 100% overlays, as in what's really there is completely hijacked by what you're seeing, which might as well be a dream or a virtual simulation? Most of the reading I've done suggests that most hallucinations belong to the former camp, where baseline reality is still in tact, albeit with your minds additions, i.e. a person who's not really there or a group of people trying to chase you down. I'm really interested to learn more about what I refer to as ""100% overlays"", where you can be in your dining room, but can be seeing something completely different, like, for example, yourself rowing a boat in the middle of the ocean or in the midst of a big bloody battle. How do you know when a vision is starting? Do they fade in gradually or can the onset happen instantly, at the blink of an eye? How do they go away? How long can they last? Are the visual hallucinations always accompanied by auditory ones? How real do these visions get? Are they detailed in the sense that the fabrications you see still adhere to laws of the real physical world? i.e. do imaginary people have shadows, do they leave footsteps in the rain/snow/mud, etc. Would you say that schizophrenic hallucinations are extremely realistic daydreams/fantasies? Thanks in advance to anyone willing to indulge my curiosities. P.S. I've seen several folks in the ""schizophrenia in films"" thread cite A Beautiful Mind as a pretty accurate depiction. I guess in Dr. Nash's case- based off the film-, his hallucinations were more like augmented reality, seeing as all the places his visions existed were there, in front of him, but they (the visions) were extremely vivid, complex, deep, almost to the point of completely taking over his reality. 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Its intended as a hub to provide a regular feed to subscribers of published articles and relevant discussion. Open to all with an interest in this type of material and related academic issues. Thanks to the mods of /r/schizophrenia for permission to post this notice.",9.549041095890413,11.73301678082192,10.147835616438359,48.31189041095894,59.273972602739725,15.703013698630135,47.476712328767135,13.968273953766033,8.630503561643836,367,24,44,18,5,124,52,73,0.068,0.853,0.08,0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,6,0,1,3,0,1,1,7,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,16,2,1,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,30,3,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169060823241176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111779553137881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6009046917436814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879429293450922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394313712999805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28553318727002125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29437468489302365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744848338839121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MarieAmber,2019/01/29,Abilify Injection What has your experience been with getting this injection? I hesitantly agreed to get the injection since I struggle with taking the pills daily. I’m a little scared about it to be honest.. ,5.180833333333332,8.514354305555559,6.27555555555556,66.10000000000002,75.3888888888889,10.266666666666667,31.222222222222207,10.125756701596842,4.557022222222223,169,8,24,6,4,56,29,36,0.191,0.753,0.055999999999999994,-0.6133,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,5,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3867222028892005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4131017497624444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3962384567119603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3958082205347643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270325663368422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41329929134551735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972494179031983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bigpapi926,2019/01/29,1st Ride Just recently started what I can only figure as my first episode. A week and a day of minimal sleep and deterioration. ,4.587500000000002,6.7229560833333375,6.789999999999999,67.75500000000001,71.5,9.8,32.83333333333333,10.125756701596842,3.7997333333333336,102,5,18,3,2,36,22,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931852373339239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38669023750026893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34575067855070235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44887160613664895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4549373771103538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32177463527518074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3646599694495496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TryingToBeMe93,2019/01/29,Are there any objective tests that can help diagnose schitzophrenia? Are there any objective tests that can help diagnose schitzophrenia? And how would i go about asking to have these tests done? Or is it all diagnosed by symptoms? ,6.270384615384612,9.659265717948717,4.8535256410256435,77.63105769230769,71.30769230769229,11.079487179487181,30.262820512820515,10.686352973137794,4.373405128205127,189,8,30,7,4,55,28,39,0.0,0.85,0.15,0.7476,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,1,1,5,10,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,8,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,22,5,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3323407655191321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284397691087076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7440482462119257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25006091137297765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887308199902554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275732010604386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25397932921776023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17358341150351062,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cruxy666,2019/01/29,"BOO! =) I'm 29 ,and i've been dealing with this for years. I always try to look on the positive side. I would like to make friends on here. It's very hard for me to keep people in my life. I'm up for any questions. If you have the time. =)",-2.8742626262626274,-1.2923037999999991,-0.11939393939393915,106.80313131313132,105.1818181818182,3.171717171717172,13.383838383838384,5.033348758259628,-1.530858585858586,181,4,50,1,9,61,43,55,0.027999999999999997,0.71,0.262,0.9349,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,7,8,2,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,5,2,11,6,0,7,0,0,1,0,4,5,0,2,3,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25762048942596405,0.0,0.0,0.2105455535336886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191945220918305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392040731207617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773499262803769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27519577220505465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21868684109012304,0.15125990509808884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599945913547094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20666721320005865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21464472967844808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34683428252493936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180536197908773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102050029993668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554608406675709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21993820350136226,0.0,0.0,0.19937881834935656 schizophrenia,iamalsopizza,2019/01/29,"Help: Advice for speaking with/relating to an elderly person with schizophrenia I’ve lived really far away from a relative (81 years old) who has schizophrenia whom I’ve never met. I now live close enough to meet him. I don’t know what he will be like, so I have some questions. I would appreciate any advice the community can offer. Note: I understand that this illness is on a spectrum. So I will take responses into consideration but know that it’s not the same for everyone. 1. What should I know about his moods? 2, What medications might he be taking, and how might they affect his personality and communication? 3. How should I respond should any delusions be brought up? Do I just go along with it? 4. What topics should I avoid? Any other words of advice or ways to better understand him would be helpful. I really want to connect with him. Thank you in advance!",2.55414110429448,5.422949000000003,3.876843558282207,81.78360889570551,83.5398773006135,6.940981595092024,23.48742331288344,8.07648339933343,1.7499499386503068,689,25,125,15,20,225,110,163,0.03,0.8490000000000001,0.121,0.9264,0,1,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,1,2,7,5,0,1,5,0,20,2,0,3,1,36,32,8,0,7,4,0,0,1,0,10,2,1,0,2,12,8,0,1,7,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,1,18,3,18,16,3,15,0,0,0,0,21,7,0,5,5,88,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4204665227338586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926064678371396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13475467928644935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12684980038948532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14819875199006655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13705094135391707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08151304567952168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19227260543993704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364716962398252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007133897835384,0.0,0.25329788526206226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14448792572448124,0.0,0.304307421018978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11061998365193043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15050283500138592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25047039006305016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16067141232409934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18376641518133366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156789750671611,0.0,0.0,0.13204859718021586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29862577634164394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08459714363897915,0.11384592285784448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20377329209403086,0.0,0.0,0.09236248533014528 schizophrenia,MercuryNocturna,2019/01/29,Hopefully I'll make it till my psychiatrist appointment tomorrow without totally losing it I am a demon. I must be. Why else would I suffer this way? Or a demon has switched places with me. That's possible too. I didn't always feel like this.,1.2682066869300923,3.9374998936170233,3.5987841945288745,81.22000000000003,92.61702127659576,7.792097264437691,23.7355623100304,8.418075326091056,2.49039452887538,193,8,35,6,7,66,39,47,0.125,0.76,0.114,-0.1303,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,0,6,0,0,1,2,9,9,2,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,6,2,3,5,1,4,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,25,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590254163062372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600500790035049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15740195206717494,0.22239181938425046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3091898020115231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15208479719829945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3482635647820839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20779426766588502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252408350846068,0.0,0.0,0.35094245695582393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470943804147537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28089861426842544,0.0,0.0,0.3000807920728701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22113763098007927,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tyhfxe,2019/01/29,"Thoughts of self harm.... Everyday, throughout the day I am thinking of harming myself. Cutting to be precise. Anyone feel this way? Not suicidal, just wanna cut. Any coping strategies? Don't want another hospital admission if I have to go to the hospital for stitches. Tnx",3.1534574468085097,6.185357191489363,4.275718085106384,74.87187500000002,94.10638297872343,7.456382978723402,35.662234042553195,8.07648339933343,4.353682978723404,216,14,30,6,8,70,41,47,0.16699999999999998,0.7240000000000001,0.10800000000000001,-0.2714,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,9,9,1,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,1,3,0,7,7,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508511244535993,0.38680295891679295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579295500234829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378971544644001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18651686738349385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096430675386827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3848224048234696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.403494969022291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23636347996516185,0.0,0.2928496032836067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21757504641912456,0.2927998616138914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,concernedsis3,2019/01/29,"How do I help my brother? About 3 years ago, I visited my brother in prison and that was the first time he mentioned that he is being watched and part of a reality show (like Truman show). He is out of prison and some days he seems fine (running errands with me, job searching) but sometimes he talks nonstop about how he needs closure to all the voyeurism by suing and getting a settlement. In one conversation he goes from saying “it’s not paranoia” to “I need to go on disability”. I don’t know if he has been officially diagnosed with schizophrenia but I don’t know how to convince him to get help. I’ve done everything from flat out telling him he needs help to listening to him vent. I’m at a loss. What can I do to help him get past the denial? Please help. 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But I feel like since I have a lot of insight and my hallucinations and few and far between, that I'm making it all up? Like, maybe I just want attention or to have a ""real"" diagnosis (I currently am in the hospital for depression, and have been since March. Which feels like a ""not-real"" diagnosis because it's not able to be seen.) A couple of years ago I believed there were shadow people following me, and I didn't leave my house until I was forced to by my mom, and came back home when she recognized I was having a breakdown. I didn't tell anyone about the shadow people, and ripped up and destroyed the drawings and writing I made about all that. Because I think I made it up for attention or something? Maybe to make myself feel better or special? I also can't remember this time very well. And sometimes I hear voices, like people talking in a diner, or someone calling my name. Usually when it's quiet. I feel like my brain is just trying to fill the silence though. And I recognize that it's not real. And it doesn't happen super often. I also have periods of time that I believe I'm in hell/purgatory. Or that I'm the only real person, or this is all a simulation or something. But most of the time I only kind of entertain the idea, I rarely- if ever- believe it fully. Just kind of. Writing all this down, I honest to god think I'm doing this for attention or to have a real diagnosis. Maybe none of this is real. Maybe I'm doing this because my family might take me seriously now? I don't know. I **will** tell my doctor, and I brought up a very little portion of this to my therapist, but I want to know what you guys think? And please, please consider that I'm lying or something. Or making it up. Not maliciously, but I really can't believe that this is real. I don't fucking know. What do you think? Thank you for reading. TL;DR: unsure if I'm making up everything, and if I'm even hallucinating or not. 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When I had a conversation I used to map out common variables of outcome for the conversation. It was easy to write poems and come up with stories. Even though I had seldom inspiration moments because I kept myself drained with cannabis. I have had voices in my head almost all of my childhood and so on. I started having problems because I started to do the observer/observed pychological excercise and started paying attention to those voices. That started with a dellusion that a friend told me that this voices had always been there but I didn't pay attention and thought I should start paying attention. Then I tried mushrrooms and hell broke loose. A whole alternate reality started made up of the ideas running my head recently. I was into gnosticism back then and used to go to a psychic that have me suspicious of his true abilities so he had me interested, studying him. I've had stopped treatment in 3 occasions with the purpose of boosting creativity and basic analysis. But I had other problems like Daddy issues related to religion. Religion is what got me investigating the occult because I had the thought that darkness was the true source of power which is where God came from, so was curious what kind of findings these occult societies had found. And these problems exploded and also I been disconnected from my regular conversation in spot analysis was adapting to do so again everytime I was off meds. Rages and moods swings like bipolar disorder which were product of my never ending interior dramas. In the end I was taken for treatment against my will in all this events. In the last treatment I fell into apathy real hard and haven't been able to sustain activities, not even gaming. I spent almost a year buying the parts for my PC and it took a toll on me to have such a long process. I've been thinking again about stopping treatment and right now switching to pills is very convenient because I wouldn't have to deal with long drive and also the cost of paying the doctor. But I fear that I could try to stop again if I go the pill route once more. I really dislike and resent my treatment course because I was treated like I had no say in anything, first off doctors didn't tell me how different I would feel and didn't show any experience with the drug I use. So I'm always thinking I really have depression and should medicate accordingly and this was my first diagnosis. I have never in my life thought this were real voices but instead it was like when someone read and repeats the words in the mind. That's what I really want, with lithium (I think) the voices where faint and faded with ease, I had all my feelings and wasn't so apathetic. And had no painful feelings and I'm also a ""rare"" schizophrenic says my psychiatrist because I don't advance my illness so that leaves me doubts my diagnosis.",6.498180740155146,7.8348729195612465,6.8509956025495375,72.27589456000791,65.691042047532,9.789199071100349,35.25910371065764,9.966358637471284,3.754069855230002,2385,112,397,53,37,773,259,547,0.136,0.7609999999999999,0.10300000000000001,-0.9709,2,0,1,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,0,4,29,23,3,2,27,0,53,15,2,5,7,93,89,44,0,10,7,0,4,4,1,5,13,8,0,0,24,36,0,4,17,5,7,10,13,11,0,2,46,12,60,11,58,37,6,68,1,2,0,0,15,23,1,4,39,292,84,8,0.07714925288309694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545076651518635,0.0,0.0,0.18508868897206585,0.1283887173930559,0.0,0.0,0.05246413752111463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06348726158042373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059323013327922426,0.0,0.2821768109043581,0.0,0.06564833189254393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08823819250278463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0664572500970844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06159740073531066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07953749211014684,0.06644853846030374,0.0,0.0,0.08060454888139405,0.08841972770184388,0.15793105883920922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08946864007766404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13666267788596315,0.0,0.0,0.10191270783470507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546677310063778,0.0,0.08681435826252523,0.11702694100012095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07051301945858927,0.1312462301812963,0.0,0.08459017370500478,0.059605321400484385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769139663738873,0.0,0.0617033052489891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06911057692565546,0.0,0.15835478203610615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051711517971084496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709211586568047,0.0,0.08052377600478737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08033907483085223,0.0,0.06288693807333948,0.0,0.08168991933047533,0.0,0.0,0.05449279888579822,0.15076491199757613,0.0,0.0,0.13654932211226808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07300048846888188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08569542789903284,0.15543951153333227,0.0,0.0,0.07789875263212244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11900451984804075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08216143644126718,0.0,0.0,0.08209224449438336,0.0,0.0,0.0835451227325838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22146424732480624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07717013056659487,0.17562547980382173,0.14827136074930625,0.0,0.07617557986684086,0.0,0.0,0.0658850404258087,0.0,0.1227043648738216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0653683116090596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276398296540884,0.0,0.0,0.1935006897754075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06743184751079576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19773650438876547,0.07579874924949075,0.18374366740202053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07371941728839823,0.08571565864227453,0.1047585569953203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19989655185144156,0.0,0.12731242670388193,0.04550462821866799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07151813034792072,0.0,0.0861343856853213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05480461572795016,0.0,0.0,0.049681589419100565 schizophrenia,Jesta23,2019/10/12,"I think I caught a glimpse of schizophrenia. I started an anti fungal medicine that can produce hallucinations and voices. I got them. Especially the first 3 nights on it. I have to say it was a complete eye awakening experience. I struggled sometimes to know what was a real voice and what was imagined. I saw crazy visions in my mind (I normally can’t picture things in my mind.) It was very surreal. It’s tamed down a lot, I’m on day 5. They promise it will end with the end of the medication. It was pretty mild for me, I can’t imagine someone hearing voices like that more intensely and for a long duration. I don’t claim to know your struggle but I think I got a brief glimpse into it, and I have a lot of respect for those of you living with it.",2.3661684011352904,4.430256728476824,4.011130558183542,85.51531456953646,77.74172185430464,6.698391674550615,28.66650898770105,7.7094869923839395,1.823801892147588,590,27,119,9,14,197,91,151,0.05,0.868,0.08199999999999999,0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,2,2,0,5,0,2,11,0,12,2,1,1,0,21,23,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,5,0,0,14,7,0,0,6,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,9,7,20,3,18,13,3,15,0,0,2,0,6,6,0,2,8,84,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17648861977695268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10855758188968513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29817714650170785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16465700370379818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431796413254128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692544266433866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18971779763753865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850172434972719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08223651831542904,0.0,0.14863663577948644,0.1489649107350056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862127533702454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16957266870367996,0.0,0.0,0.33992642519811794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15796434848944516,0.16492562054419094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17125000790179484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19159402270967654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13386111682924404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14262369894060034,0.0,0.16648061534380892,0.0,0.11914336695992706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3519457762571431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182958935534196,0.21571546654114127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13888816133270884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EndzhiMaru,2019/10/12,"Faking a lesser disorder to seem more “normal” and avoid the schizophrenia stigma. I’m sure I’m not the only person out there to do this. But being open and vocal about my schizophrenia isn’t me and I make sure as little people know about it as possible. After my first diagnosis causing a lot of negative reactions and accusations from friends and family I faked being a drug addict (I don’t take drugs) and put my symptoms down to the drugs and eventually I had people convinced that when I “got clean” my issues went away and I just kept them well hidden. Now as an adult, it’s so easy for me to just say “oh I suffer from bad anxiety” because people seem to relate/react to that much better. I usually throw out a fake laugh when my episodes are getting hard to hide and say stuff like “haha that’s anxiety for you!” Meanwhile the gasping man won’t stop struggling for air next to my damn ear and I’m actually feeling like I’m dying of suffocation because of it but “HAHA THATS ANXIETY FOR YOU!!!” It’s funny, only because many people fake being worse than they actually are and then there are those of us who do everything we can to seem far better/normal than we actually are. Don’t get me wrong, the anxiety is real but it’s just a symptom of a larger problem and to deal with my “larger problem” I pretend my symptoms are the largest of my problems. The stigma can be just THAT brutal and I’d rather do without it.",3.552218783846513,5.338714811387902,5.0900850997988565,80.3297214915674,73.48398576512456,7.449234101810305,26.452266749187693,8.18289091462,1.833014730001548,1126,40,208,18,23,379,148,281,0.205,0.688,0.107,-0.9825,0,1,3,0,0,0,19.0,3,2,2,2,14,25,2,2,14,2,20,8,1,2,2,47,36,23,1,5,10,0,2,2,1,1,7,3,1,3,15,19,0,3,5,1,0,3,7,14,1,1,4,5,28,11,36,27,3,20,0,1,0,0,15,8,1,4,11,148,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.2726535648707969,0.10152888252698893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28498642510938954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08750166195426262,0.0,0.07776229165177102,0.17031931488000607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16473740891849808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09567340169593512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09601619013311256,0.0,0.0,0.0966575078309065,0.0,0.10673866074104216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3240146651123325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370207165625085,0.0,0.08779764696134848,0.0,0.047090919932465766,0.06653434231736646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07921901141847769,0.0,0.0,0.07195444212156749,0.0,0.0973164558643382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07448708943983175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08342901087594508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09720681381812757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051183544635071715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09100030735011397,0.09334388514824092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07917847526178677,0.0,0.0,0.06216710207573206,0.09442239818779387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06846358267516676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09904816360500683,0.0,0.0912507148093466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14166391750210885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25826720384565016,0.08132027591509841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10499363524002917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26734754534852284,0.0,0.09362454119616943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600591628983244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481264409440018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543547709256597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778634852044983,0.0,0.09736299172810917,0.1066151769999037,0.0,0.0,0.17555378693691848,0.2904030145744486,0.07002453965569387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11202771453821282,0.0,0.10257300905157156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08373788838882766,0.08633536486090254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977703495534584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09491063836119973,0.0,0.10182648130194392,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KillahPriest1,2019/10/12,"I lost 2 toes and got into a high speed chase due to an episode of schizophrenia A year and a half ago I was living with a friend in the bay area working multiple jobs. Maybe my dose was too low but I became paranoid thinking people were trying to kill me so I drove north. I stopped in Portland and slept. The next morning I drove to Washington state and at nite this cop turned on the sirens, I hit the freeway going 130 in the emergency lane. I shook him but when I got off the exit I crashed. I jumped out and ran into a swamp then slept in someone's pick up on the farm. I wondered the streets for 3 days going in and out of hospitals but not getting accepted because I was giving them a fake name. My last hospital visit I used my real name and they had to amputate my pinky toe and half of the toe next to it because of frost bite from the swamp. I was fully functional after a couple days in the hospital. Caught the grey hound back to the bay",3.5208673469387755,4.495250984693879,4.379183673469388,88.60153061224491,72.31632653061223,7.4367346938775505,26.755102040816325,7.7094869923839395,1.3392693877551023,747,25,160,9,14,241,120,196,0.13699999999999998,0.8220000000000001,0.040999999999999995,-0.9616,1,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,2,2,4,7,1,1,21,0,6,7,5,2,0,26,24,14,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,13,0,1,3,0,0,9,1,5,0,2,15,1,23,2,29,8,0,45,0,2,1,0,8,21,0,1,14,100,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15920689779956848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13810333878307451,0.0,0.2189681964717378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19872689762719145,0.0,0.2316576806204073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13876054894822082,0.0,0.09383496306326933,0.17229121141105874,0.2041446308742048,0.0,0.2872892656929716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18976004292871554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782279003890542,0.0,0.19870370337992335,0.0,0.0,0.14640011736701145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585924156586607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19605749041409654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180434985364022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.382018876080601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12451385183557227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044271166925956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15217672834522716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150155843495302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11508211536908344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193839857036652,0.19535609081375493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551190096009174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19477139445632208,0.1307528560845842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11565820732842302 schizophrenia,RubixxOfAberoth,2019/10/12,"help ever since a very traumatic event about 5 months ago i have been hearing voices. it has been getting steadily worse. i moved in with my girlfriend more recently, and although she knows about it, i dont open up to her about it. i feel like soon i wont be able to continue in college or have a healthy relationship. does anyone have any suggestions for dealing with episodes in a healthy manner? should i be fully open to my girlfriend about it? on one hand i want someone to talk to, but on the other i dont want to scare her away.",4.788744993324432,5.453272280373831,5.038718291054738,86.16299065420563,69.18691588785046,7.983444592790388,31.173564753004012,7.957251820313856,1.9868461949265697,422,17,87,5,7,133,70,107,0.044000000000000004,0.8009999999999999,0.154,0.805,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,4,0,12,1,1,0,1,13,18,4,0,3,2,0,2,1,2,2,0,2,0,0,5,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,2,4,13,1,20,12,1,17,0,0,0,0,11,9,0,1,8,62,18,1,0.1977377999838047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17528262886950455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13446848470707504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13826286738152915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857811722151219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20385898914564213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17304168129734682,0.0,0.4634944578134596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17886516078804635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09998217302792332,0.14126392381831068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10330983916481587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228648717273096,0.0,0.13253947919521009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10867152358087764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09660470095000843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15783242541841966,0.21016398791385726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339922507635126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952422222180704,0.21229639587677546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19797003342190114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635707515126466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16754259624286302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589341534522437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16315439376432786,0.2332617552803751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015117113963597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hotsk,2019/10/12,This is not living. Why is it that some people get to be free (neurotypical) and the rest of us are locked in mental cages? It's just not fair. Not fair at all.,-0.2794117647058805,1.8166284117647078,1.6073529411764724,98.67808823529413,88.41176470588232,4.576470588235295,11.441176470588234,5.985473137389443,-1.3885058823529413,122,1,30,1,4,40,29,34,0.105,0.8059999999999999,0.08900000000000001,0.0966,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,7,5,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382196434846496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4026199561894859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4594992074733205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161044074069791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5484622714763853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4114318789936676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mindless_schizo,2019/10/12,"Needing medication advice. I'm desperate. Hi everyone, this is my first post here, so forgive me if there are any mistakes. I found this subreddit a few months ago, and it's helped me feel like I'm not so alone in this and has given me some understanding of my illness. But now I have a problem and didn't know where else to turn, so I'm hoping some of you can help me out. I was diagnosed at age 17, (9 years ago), and have been on medications intermittently since. As of a few months ago, I made the decision to try it again and was put on Vraylar 1mg, later to be increased to 3mg. At first, things were going well, it gave me energy and took away my visual and auditory hallucinations more than any other medication has before. It even had a positive effect on my paranoia that everyone is out to get me. But as the months have gone on, I have become more and more paranoid, severely depressed, and extremely tired all the time (just to name a few). The exhaustion came first, then came the depression. Oh, and my concentration is absolutely awful, to the point that it's become difficult to even count money or change. I can't sit still long enough to read a book, nor can I retain any of the information I just read. It's become infuriating and depressing to just get through the day. So, I have decided that I want to stop taking it. But I'm worried about coming off of it, because of my previous experience of withdrawing off of Geodon. I never want to go through that again. But I can't keep going on like this. I'm not even sure if I want to switch to another medication, considering my last interaction with my doctor. She humiliated me in front of the whole staff and patients in the waiting area all due to their appointment scheduling mistake. But that isn't important right now. If any of you have been on Vraylar or have any suggestions or advice as to what I should do, then please let me know. I don't want to be on this medication any longer, and you guys are the only ones who I feel can understand what I'm going through. Thank you for listening, and I hope someone out there can help me out.",5.718677884615384,5.926384012019232,6.755850000000002,76.26415000000001,67.05288461538461,10.598307692307692,31.063076923076924,10.444984826868176,3.0516791538461536,1663,60,335,41,25,559,202,416,0.128,0.777,0.095,-0.9462,0,1,0,0,0,0,51.0,0,4,1,4,21,16,0,0,17,1,34,10,0,2,4,73,74,35,0,14,16,0,2,2,0,1,10,1,0,1,23,22,0,4,12,3,1,12,9,8,1,4,15,3,40,8,56,55,13,64,0,3,0,0,19,23,0,10,29,237,63,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15091332234473925,0.20534763467958708,0.0,0.0,0.07997469302962193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3150658505253641,0.0809699401735452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725489732942071,0.0,0.0,0.047071454228210304,0.2558440675770116,0.06570693970070339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766339349968472,0.0,0.0,0.08168654086025776,0.066516580070173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04979930458231775,0.0,0.19952358196813236,0.07837477467792703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07903602620857116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06450583768393628,0.0,0.0,0.07978696812084156,0.0,0.15300553621205376,0.0,0.0,0.14757046117998684,0.0,0.0755341463610511,0.0,0.0,0.07808761150995888,0.05516464620355828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19704510115922372,0.0,0.08466569191742172,0.0,0.0,0.08068656983085816,0.0,0.1755393669577089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645808711897505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15527305090034427,0.0,0.0,0.15339004901294329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06863502028861147,0.0,0.0,0.08487412764282433,0.06294308063623615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07896076775638332,0.0,0.07544975398477495,0.0,0.0,0.06833561353005037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306565994392766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3889457019313638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18490431963765214,0.0,0.0,0.05725626362108353,0.05955538080210133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05232500207834044,0.05872786606604896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08476231657733316,0.07299609023862595,0.0,0.07395362173813891,0.0,0.0,0.07388732013608322,0.0,0.07762554661503092,0.0,0.0,0.15447804901225698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06594385955644823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08723450558157425,0.0,0.06387563358392065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06542666942800256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0616664969144617,0.06455781276071926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07277717197440603,0.0,0.05805842247974127,0.0,0.0,0.07109207784911656,0.0,0.0,0.05130029321472338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04502651151582559,0.08875087910196491,0.0,0.0,0.08579218163582432,0.052426040305877115,0.08399114972049056,0.0,0.16077358936618674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182181010622543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06942837076180136,0.0,0.0,0.08621128249909628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841875742798768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0497259428547141 schizophrenia,readthunder,2019/10/12,Does it feel good to live on your own or do you prefer to live with someone else? I just received a letter last week that i got put on the section 8 voucher list. I will be moving out and living on my own when my name gets call up. I was wondering if life is better living on your own? Did you guys have any problem? Any tips or advice for an 28 year old schizophrenic man who gonna live on his own?,2.6598062015503885,3.2614085465116283,3.995348837209304,91.94713178294576,74.0,6.663565891472868,22.472868217054266,6.42735559955562,0.28955658914728666,309,7,72,2,6,102,67,86,0.032,0.889,0.079,0.6199,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,4,0,1,2,3,0,0,3,0,7,2,0,0,0,12,12,5,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,3,1,11,2,11,6,5,16,0,0,0,0,12,8,0,4,5,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16128037942962395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22447295851045296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14596917588850042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685297279112265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14443227433942604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787418917629626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345187434353941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622936924991291,0.0,0.0,0.13843218637301635,0.13200182194494106,0.0,0.0,0.16342081811495413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13453396651479202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11657639257375868,0.0,0.0,0.7286902197023075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754170586593085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17318730283044473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15792608421096102,0.0,0.1659161353946638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13984236654813356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238940269473104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17898461238345034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062837767600662 schizophrenia,Felixapro,2019/10/12,"Headaches while working? Every time I work, I get these unbearable headaches, like pressure or burning in my head. It feels like it could be panic, or my brain being scattered from adhd. But I don’t know what it is or how to stop it, or if there are any medications I can take. Anyone have any idea? I have schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, and adhd",3.5522727272727264,5.830645136363637,3.8969696969696974,86.71545454545458,74.9090909090909,6.218181818181819,27.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.4785939393939405,273,11,51,3,6,85,50,66,0.154,0.774,0.07200000000000001,-0.6966,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,2,0,0,9,4,2,1,0,13,13,9,0,2,6,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,7,2,3,10,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,5,35,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5037983907842575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850711975421495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14655761632892894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339835940322412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673490275717548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402204520389864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17659754953909715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10598036357747724,0.14973871394517912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10950766505905074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21511069029482724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23661357013938486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11519101086553987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20480053633393225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111505582281817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459211487528707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17523549090178409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15759356968814514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12221979821892938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051834732427089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dg9600,2019/10/12,"Should I Be More Honest With My Therapist? TLDR: So basically I have been mostly honest with my therapist about my symptoms, and my family knows that I have schizoaffective disorder, but I don't know if I should be *totally* honest about my symptoms. I struggle with telling people the extent to which I see, hear, and feel things because I don't want them to make fun of my delusions and think I'm stupid. I have pretty intense delusions that I can go to different paralell universes and that I have god like powers, and this involves meeting ""people"" on those other planes and talking/hanging out with them. I don't really have much of a choice since they just show up whenever. I haven't talked to my therapist or loved ones about it because in the past couple of years I've become really attatched to some of these ""people"" and I don't know if I want to get rid of them. I'm only typing this because I've upped my medication and I don't know what's real and what isn't. They *seem* so real to me but at the same time I know it can't be possible. What do I do? Tell my therapist or just leave it be?",3.194774774774775,4.842886675675679,4.581261261261262,84.18423423423424,74.13513513513513,7.816216216216216,25.396396396396398,8.515128840125781,1.7277639639639646,870,29,173,16,18,289,112,222,0.061,0.797,0.142,0.9662,2,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,5,1,7,8,1,1,4,0,23,4,0,1,1,41,41,17,0,6,8,0,1,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,16,14,0,0,8,1,0,1,8,2,0,1,1,3,33,6,25,34,7,10,0,0,1,1,12,6,0,7,4,127,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21235193172541109,0.12824234243980795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284814911538348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12131777665189422,0.13308038970279115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946497727708188,0.0,0.05871235344876121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060666452909413526,0.0,0.06599208989558085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13087254181315142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3190749265128471,0.0,0.0,0.12295136596606507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05672900653404196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048003211501379,0.0,0.07750914348647507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11697587918287596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08535951453396037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07868403084243106,0.08831237537138988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11084702181124263,0.2415031716011609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13090471434670314,0.0,0.11813295378037643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26433362668617305,0.14877532411332625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09253038757430622,0.10570875258176382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605336117277499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12139092613539093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413804962645729,0.0,0.09333061994923522,0.20298313008554425,0.0,0.0,0.5392841510231877,0.07714311883809627,0.07440322354096049,0.0,0.0,0.06770888256313788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369778852303495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747756801880548 schizophrenia,photogirlmi,2019/10/12,Do your voices ever sound like you Do you ever get voices that sound like your inner voice? I can’t tell if it’s thoughts being planted or voices.,1.9390000000000045,4.1718869000000005,3.256666666666668,89.525,80.0,4.0,16.666666666666668,3.1291,-0.7363333333333331,117,2,22,0,3,38,22,30,0.0,0.833,0.16699999999999998,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,4,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,5,6,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,5,2,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,4,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7451295627138711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21518784021931275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024429254855467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3599971588027885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269829744377183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JollyNobugg12,2019/10/02,"I think my brain just made forget everything for 30 minutes Everything is slowly comming back to me now and I feel safe but, I dont know what triggered it. I remember drawing more stuff for inktober and the my head started hurting really bad, then I just started crying and just shut down I could move my eyes just not my body for a second I have DID too so it that feeling it pretty normal but I was still in ""front"" then when I could move again everything was just drawing a blank I couldn't remember where I was and who I am for 30 minutes Thank god my alters were telling me to just got head upstairs and go to my room and call a hotline idk what I would have done if they didn't. But regardless this is the first time this has every happened to me any thoughts or tips?",3.4269409282700423,4.764394120253165,4.108291139240507,89.05944092827005,72.98734177215191,7.2919831223628675,27.090717299578056,7.793537801064563,1.4423527426160336,613,22,129,8,12,195,96,158,0.1,0.81,0.09,-0.3907,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,14,4,0,0,5,0,18,5,5,2,0,35,30,15,0,7,12,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,10,6,0,1,7,0,0,4,4,2,0,2,10,3,23,2,10,16,1,20,0,1,1,0,4,5,0,2,11,97,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09716392962565554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10986661297646012,0.11929960549938567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15870849915851554,0.0,0.15950236754974284,0.14589740101665524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228157586990172,0.0,0.1569479886048286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462167950225328,0.1674553817534721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12038334299236247,0.0,0.3852364912079318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14448977907451827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12153444310254555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08120252323047876,0.0,0.11427492935474726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12634913144533585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932741035045105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295698696746776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07852362055337121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351973873843685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037196258438203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13999297149113882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14536126888562842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915331802004605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32371247353801097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20226371038222346,0.0,0.11410489248135952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635644768970233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12488422750550338,0.13154556047673782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915523284315918,0.0,0.11343149569820965,0.08331501726862484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014985107419052,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,butt_of_dickbutt,2019/10/02,"How to get someone who might be schizophrenic to see a doctor (I will have to delete this post later, just to hide it, don´t want her to find out this way, sorry) My girlfriend (F20) might be schizophrenic. (She has cerebral palsy, low blood pressure (which might be also caused of all those troubles -> )sometimes her vision is ""spinning around"" (once in 14 days), sometimes is incredibly cold hearth(few hours a week/every few days), sometimes, she just hurts my feelings (every few days) sometimes and a few minutes later she is really sorry, also, she picks even the smallest imperfections (all the time) on her arms and that´s reason why she has many small scarves (self-destruction?), she usually falls asleep at about 3 A.M. (every day) she had seen human head floating around her several times (happen few times, several months ago) and I am her first relationship. She has never used any drug or smoked week). I am not going to ask you for judgment if she is or she is not schizophrenic (but I will be happy, if you will say, what you think based on your experience, just for my own view. I am going to take her to doctor anyway). I don´t want to hurt her feelings, but I am getting more and more worried about her health. I don´t want to tell her ""you might be schizophrenic and you should see a doctor"", it could hurt her, because, she thinks that it is just ""nothing"". How should I get her to see a doctor? Or should I leave her as she is? Unless she is acting weird (cold hearth), she is an extremely loving person, we do care about each other and we are really enjoying every minute we are together. I mean, I love her and I can live like (it is just sometimes painful for me, and sometimes depressing) this, but what if it will get worse?... How would you make her see a doctor? What should I do? What would you do? Thank you for help.",4.368754789272032,6.065087867816089,4.3562068965517255,86.78726053639849,71.183908045977,7.224521072796936,24.67049808429119,7.793537801064563,1.1967176245210729,1430,41,278,18,27,440,173,348,0.07400000000000001,0.818,0.107,0.9521,0,0,2,0,0,0,83.0,3,9,0,1,17,16,0,1,9,0,45,18,4,8,3,63,73,24,0,13,17,0,2,1,1,14,12,1,0,2,17,15,0,0,7,0,0,4,3,9,0,1,2,11,58,7,28,51,10,31,0,5,6,2,51,9,0,10,17,200,75,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06319951289713342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11403060967202333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04848365630018977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12693693180231952,0.06665204151805257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0434613184109638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269092086244251,0.0732405278431848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05692397411534556,0.0,0.0,0.18391982729945675,0.0,0.06140705351465504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3648718695129417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08268060812826812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04709026901748753,0.0,0.24027948018967055,0.0,0.0,0.06974107003328077,0.0,0.0,0.07209869768060062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06516316023956249,0.06064425544253541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14899665882027385,0.0,0.08103820506607358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06304672820895939,0.07589581044594343,0.0,0.0,0.07317016145209779,0.0757842069087261,0.0,0.0,0.047788138384284286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07021209925202107,0.0,0.2289712040285324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754920629432821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0348315750567567,0.0,0.06295558519974025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12869466522114134,0.0,0.047590566341295,0.0722828514603471,0.0,0.0776621353436715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025347290373587,0.0,0.0,0.056907706543147876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054987792719926314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06841033814855882,0.0,0.0,0.07592780580725449,0.0,0.0,0.07586386348913086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062252829175073486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06828176343188014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091347957333555,0.07330405869833441,0.0,0.07654511400110277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056697360655944815,0.0,0.0,0.2272544038218747,0.0,0.07437717192902096,0.1610881450623051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06040878403274697,0.0,0.4230808040730221,0.15961984415827615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05360564331828233,0.0,0.06231575839942961,0.06563968508212703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913670668170949,0.0,0.0,0.12471963651920265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061576765726606066,0.07852236036591198,0.0,0.12615650569308792,0.056591366238252276,0.11437853968035723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06433345966508619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240444642832712,0.07265661226931405,0.10129312243238638,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Kush1113,2019/10/02,"Just a question about CBD I have Bipolar 1 with severe manic features. I’ve had to come off all antipsychotics due to movement side effects and metabolic side effects. In other words, chances are high that I will never be put on one again, which I’m actually okay with. I’ve been clean for about three weeks but terrified I’m going to relapse. Have any of you had success with using CBD oil as a mood stabilizer and antipsychotic? At what dose and how well does it work? I’m kind of at the end of the road and I’m willing to try anything, but I don’t want to jeopardize my stability. Any suggestions on what’s worked for you that’s natural or at least not an antipsychotic?",3.0636318407960204,5.156751805970154,4.351567164179105,83.75307213930348,75.71641791044777,7.750248756218907,27.58457711442786,8.59863814320734,2.0987830845771147,538,22,107,11,12,177,92,134,0.054000000000000006,0.815,0.131,0.8095,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,5,6,5,0,0,5,1,10,2,0,4,2,22,18,9,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,7,8,0,0,3,0,0,4,3,0,1,2,3,1,6,4,23,12,2,20,0,0,0,0,4,11,0,2,5,68,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.2298984530607819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32041381508084466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19386762704173127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029369208139443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20616334523761204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20865972485959075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388924451033427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489100857286829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453271004050991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18169884238080167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15963951833000528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368295151364462,0.2639108112222892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661457028123706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599477781166503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034711068884879,0.0,0.0,0.13895502928558487,0.0,0.18897329048085626,0.0,0.2118205681149687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34301957477433725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sadsaddie,2019/10/02,"When did you realize something wasn’t right? TL;DR I have constant imaginary conversations and can’t stop. Sorry in advance if this question isn’t appropriate here but the more I look into the symptoms of schizophrenia the more I feel I might have it. Currently do not have the resources to go see a medical professional I am looking into that option. So I thought I should ask those diagnosed. I have constant fake conversations in my mind. Not necessarily voices the voice is me but I have full on conversations in my mind that are increasingly distracting. Sometimes I have to tell myself “stop this isn’t real why are you doing this” sometimes I answer myself asking myself to stop. And I go into a loop “this is a fake stop thinking about this. Wait myself telling myself this is fake is also fake stop. Just stop! Empty your mind wait me telling myself to stop talking is distracting myself from stopping.” And so on. I wish these fake conversations were even somewhat interesting it’s mostly just me role playing for example while driving home I had a lengthy conversation with a voice about tire shopping where I was the salesmen and the voice was the buyer discussing price, fit performance and tread. One reoccurring fake conversation is a self aware fake conversation where I am in a doctors office discussing the fake conversations I have and the doctor fucking responding and acting like a real doctor. I’m talking about fake conversations I have within a fake conversation. That’s where I draw the line I try my best to fucking stop doing it. But of course that starts the loop of me telling myself to stop. Thanks any feed back helps.",4.80809881971766,7.660840177852348,5.127653320990512,76.60231543624162,73.39597315436241,7.600277713492247,29.067808377690355,8.53829466247534,2.5875201110853965,1335,56,217,26,29,422,142,298,0.228,0.6859999999999999,0.086,-0.9927,1,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,3,0,3,15,19,2,2,21,0,32,10,0,0,0,48,50,16,0,3,8,0,1,1,0,2,7,4,1,1,15,11,1,12,6,2,2,6,6,14,0,1,7,8,38,5,25,41,7,39,0,0,3,2,28,16,2,6,18,164,53,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0653269984655311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055551605833480136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15273715808405805,0.0,0.0,0.0628141204440984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857280048852444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17655448141439606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291304023465762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508377439532579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05395509049184004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04130462448893627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15104110216575722,0.0,0.0,0.09285195814049264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05475469528541255,0.0,0.0819411473094023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039909323590033234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371970750782212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822934949819119,0.0,0.08665956376291431,0.2474490769660232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05535486411831218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09151084422820854,0.0,0.0,0.1859608846986427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697623170605716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06509589018447177,0.0,0.08521987930175523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06288850534967717,0.1615858473905592,0.0914446160060682,0.057820190871549736,0.0,0.0,0.6829601168089233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849065841472552,0.0,0.13131772050960502,0.28560060952382776,0.0752086412406528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05234328090438006,0.0,0.06485227349702848,0.0,0.09388996957352506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05546175293119122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07371199422525758,0.0,0.09393879978595844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Drazzers,2019/10/02,"Positive coping skills I’ve been diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder for three years and I have no coping skills other than weed, but quit smoking recently so I’ve been blowing money on clothes and stuff I don’t really need. Does anyone have any positive coping skills they could recommend?",6.204117647058822,9.429534117647062,5.740941176470589,72.07023529411767,70.56862745098039,10.354509803921568,29.807843137254906,10.355215969177356,4.164753725490194,244,10,35,8,5,75,39,51,0.063,0.747,0.19,0.8402,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,6,7,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,3,0,4,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207493049799556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269783283830107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591786321736286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32947735229185426,0.0,0.0,0.3720368685913028,0.0,0.2840727398852176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24069788037696185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452679686354304,0.0,0.0,0.2079566562375988,0.0,0.3205181121157781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3716064668600449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090413919442044 schizophrenia,Anonymustard1,2019/10/02,"Is making ""angry eyes"" at everyone who makes eye contact with you a symptom? I've been bipolar type 2 since age 19 and then at 25 I had a complete mental breakdown and came up with some symptoms that can only be described by schizoaffective IMO. Anyone else struggle with this? I can't form relationships because people think I hate them. I try to inflect a positive vocal tone to show I don't but I simply can't do eye contact.",3.7464285714285697,5.672982690476192,4.823333333333334,81.85500000000002,73.28571428571428,6.704761904761906,29.857142857142854,7.447530270364453,1.9942571428571427,342,15,61,4,7,112,65,84,0.087,0.882,0.031,-0.4956,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,3,0,9,6,3,2,0,11,14,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,3,3,8,0,9,10,2,6,0,0,3,0,6,3,0,1,2,38,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609089982752929,0.23579062024272945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028227991965342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632020990089527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412820554671312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19224020431912892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198946376583016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22720114418523546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072209216432893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319122308827914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17502070164690192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15953994505614405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470685083054377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19036207097027816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24057698568785524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4783767126910432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14745503485968853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15624000961628473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,VeiledEnigma,2019/10/02,"What am I to do? 24(GF) with schizoaffective disorder. I'm trying to keep this short. Depression came early, officially though in 7th grade. My parents never believed in mental illness. I felt unheard all my life. Fighting so hard to live. I broke. I went so long untreated. When eventually my high school told them to at least get a therapist (and the also put me in a special needs program), the therapist told them I need medication. They refused. And I fell deeper and deeper into an abyss. I was explosive to them and was bounced back and forth between living with my mom (who couldn't deal with me) to my dad who lived in the ghetto. Gunshots, mold, crack heads, abusers that lived above us, roaches, rats, etc. I slept on the couch because it was a one bedroom and my grandmother also lived there. By senior year I was done. Had my first big psychotic break. I skipped classes or slept in them or just spaced out. After school i was shoe horned into taking care of multiple grandparents with various levels of disabilities. My great grandma, great great aunt, my great grandpa, my uncles mother and now my dad's mother. They all passed one by one and I was moved to the next. My psychosis grew, my depression grew, anxiety, panic disorder, bpd,etc. I'm to a point where my brain has shriveled cognitively. Cant read and sometimes cant even watch tv. Cant handle stress or sudden changes of plans, etc. very well. Can't write as well. Can't focus. Slow reaction speed. Short AND long term memory loss. I'm on medication now but they aren't helping as much. Feeling suicidal again. All this time my parents never took initiative to learn about my mental illness so this causes many problems amongst us. I've never had a job due to illness and taking care of grandparents, but I don't think I can (not a normal one) but I'm also not sick enough for disability plus the no job thing. Learning new things is hard now and I can't drive because of mental problems (If I'm not feeling anxious to the point of panic attacks or feeling suicidal then I'm spacing out to the point of not even seeing a car in front of me which almost got me killed because by the time I came to I couldn't even react fast enough. Thank the stars that my dad was there.) So I'm stuck living with my parents and being home all day taking care of my grandma. No money for myself. Causing rifts between family. Struggling with my health and therefore struggling with taking proper care of my grandma. Which shes more priority than myself. But to my parents my health isn't a priority. Therapy appointments go missed. Never help with keeping my meds on track (because I forget). Never help with making calls (I do it myself but I put it off because I know I'd have to work around their schedule anyway which everything else comes first most of the time). I want to move out and back to the city at least thered be uber and stuff. I want to maybe take art classes because I see myself being a writer and an artist but I find it hard to learn anymore. I want consistency in my health care(physical and mental). I want my own life. I want to be able to buy deodorant and not have to wait for them. Or soap, or toothpaste. Or new clothes because the ones I have are ripped or don't fit. I want to eat how I want. But how? How? What do I do? I'm stuck. I'm drowning. Please help. And if you have further questions I can try and answer. I skimmed over a lot of stuff or simplified them.",2.4274771130508843,4.912408691505217,3.3952243985522688,87.7937265275708,79.81967213114754,6.099561422184372,24.190781349797746,7.33818517376401,1.1642142899723231,2716,98,524,38,70,867,308,671,0.155,0.7659999999999999,0.079,-0.9952,8,0,0,1,3,0,96.0,2,1,10,5,31,27,3,5,25,0,41,17,5,8,9,116,96,55,4,16,24,12,7,0,0,0,11,0,3,0,20,40,1,4,12,4,2,17,24,15,2,7,22,10,82,12,78,68,17,86,0,5,3,0,40,33,0,15,35,349,102,14,0.04972763421430982,0.058919115021034925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049795042523751464,0.0,0.0,0.1193015133452525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03804150406342672,0.05617807225383855,0.04931645092667737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04426813732142208,0.0,0.05657236283314045,0.0,0.07647496241426037,0.0,0.21219452983280745,0.0,0.0,0.056026014977492204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06263021449456233,0.05551248569920709,0.05077747441562421,0.11375033189651775,0.2535031862728881,0.10216795689073986,0.052605243349748365,0.042835953689977696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03207021020369349,0.05126700734186247,0.08566067696433767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11398435401957112,0.0,0.0,0.05088863486707117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05088378431873022,0.04154105747540315,0.0,0.0,0.1027638783558166,0.16637837116623236,0.09853390021819104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04469199117545745,0.0,0.04687878789114156,0.0,0.07543135802094918,0.0,0.04774632718014411,0.0,0.045450156779826514,0.08459660051863645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025980636444564,0.0,0.028261360497772444,0.0,0.039771731787021584,0.21929956910098844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13363857825972086,0.0,0.051034899126700034,0.15857444940240384,0.0,0.0,0.13332554000124094,0.052539975783990535,0.04988087166041555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09869400771573457,0.08840041227290939,0.05501625949616916,0.0,0.02732900727419962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07024819733285137,0.0,0.0,0.2634624723823674,0.08801478288454759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04227665633197844,0.0,0.0,0.033193581979459784,0.05041601603249291,0.04995809241659814,0.0,0.05523619131943047,0.10019071971692507,0.2004550368945354,0.0,0.0,0.05824040418162535,0.0,0.1057052108080184,0.03655553288244391,0.07374482134669104,0.19176508558741692,0.09605451799336526,0.05288590313462868,0.0,0.0487225233535656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16848365952452588,0.0,0.0,0.1166893286663099,0.220866611704974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054586009439021185,0.1410260631730829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951652601587996,0.0,0.099980014500226,0.0557063310237515,0.0,0.04974109121835625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065404131313443,0.07925297242059877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04918190177026683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05696283698035379,0.10397224061547666,0.11385248788627067,0.10878792141764844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18694496124362225,0.0,0.0,0.045782524466175936,0.05686788353035814,0.11547523215977185,0.06607366109652284,0.031863460090665235,0.048857148134569976,0.0,0.08698975022821569,0.0,0.0,0.09503377104544106,0.05524923132905093,0.06752359884775462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11963244231541245,0.0,0.0,0.0410305061259631,0.20531452940723188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942223041490142,0.04609801511651359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03620230996128261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03202296604948515 schizophrenia,SpaceXRooster,2019/10/02,"[Recommendation] This was an OAT test that I did to find out why I ever received a diagnosis and what I needed to supplement to get better. If you want to know which supplements you need to take to improve your health then I highly recommend this test! This was an Organic acid test that I did a few months ago. The link to imgur shows the results that I had gotten back and they show what a mess my body was. I know these tests are available in the United States and in Canada. If you’re Canadian like me, then try your best to go through the medical system to get one of these tests done. Otherwise, any naturopathic doctor that you can find will set you up with one of these (obviously you will have to pay for the meeting with the naturopath and for the test which could be around $250 CAD). It’s a urine test that is sent to The Great Plains laboratory in Alberta. I don’t know about the States but I do know it’s available over there. This test showed me which vitamins I was deficient in which is *crucial* for knowing what supplements I needed to take. Schizophrenia is an overall unhappy and unhealthy body. Symptoms of schizophrenia are vast and they vary. They are all linked to one or more or a combination of vitamin deficiencies. Deficiency in the vitamin B series is typical for people experiencing delusions or hallucinations. Now that I know vitamin B6 was my deficiency and also vitamin C, I now can take those vitamins in concentrated form and I’m thinking sooo much better. People that are suffering, or people that know other people who are suffering, if you have the time and the care to get one of these tests done for someone in need of care, this is the best way to get started on an eventual full recovery! [My OAT results](https://imgur.com/gallery/M7DGnBR)",4.451884162709064,6.751639883233538,5.117891802601693,78.88332335329343,72.32335329341315,8.798513318191203,28.283708445178608,9.40505699530331,2.6878983274829658,1427,56,262,35,29,459,165,334,0.055999999999999994,0.8140000000000001,0.131,0.9727,1,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,8,3,4,9,11,0,0,22,0,30,13,3,1,3,43,57,20,0,9,8,0,0,1,0,2,10,0,0,0,29,13,0,0,12,3,1,3,1,3,0,4,12,2,29,8,42,41,8,33,0,2,0,0,15,15,0,7,11,190,58,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367874477324696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451207841736183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07186587136536796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940774057544034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08126122426228168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22180880927044289,0.1869303471976692,0.0,0.2347728139250736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21549514895434932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437670162600643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10816772842751037,0.0,0.2162942034771542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955934073693274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19317880081246794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22085328404998006,0.0,0.060060251901174776,0.0,0.0,0.1165123257518211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11233265972161473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11165648521120614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40655188657983704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05162980029771885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10646125590508664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843525886910465,0.0,0.0776867947837936,0.313440858364798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28644540401577284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29306020048259684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954213097618001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480068914572184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984175097818533,0.2383741178666673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06771533308310558,0.0,0.0,0.061622727043858024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07174963067311764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06233266975513616,0.0838836869333377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535956009906116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Teatoastmost,2019/10/02,"What does disordered thinking feel like for you I'm going to see a psychiatrist soon about a range of experiences (I'll spare you my history and leave the diagnosing to the professionals), but I really want to know what disordered thinking feels like because I'm trying to understand my own experiences. I have times where I just really struggle to organise and understand my thoughts and I can't find much about what that looks like for other people. I've seen the diagnostic details around what disordered thinking is but it's mostly focused on speech (because a psychiatrist can't see inside your mind) and for me when it hits I really struggle to get out any words at all. I have racing thoughts sometimes, which I've seen others talk about, but basically I have times where my mind just kind of gets overwhelmed. I'll find myself just staring at one spot and struggling to make sense of what my thoughts actually are. it's almost like I get flashes of things like faces or concepts or things to think about but they aren't fully formed and they all just blend together, it's almost like having a trippy dream. I feel like I cant hear properly when this happens and I'm kind of unable to do anything except wait for it to pass. Sometimes I'll get very frustrated too because I try and communicate with my wife and I just can't find any words. Earlier this year it got very bad, and has been sporadically bad since, but I felt like my mind was empty a lot of the time and I was experiencing what I now know to be thought blocking. It was really scary because it just felt like I had a complete cognitive decline and couldn't really focus on anything or keep anything in my memory for a good few weeks. I've also had some experiences before where written words have stopped making sense to me, they just seem like letters, and while I've had a very small amount of experience with things like hallucinations and delusions, it seems like my thinking is my weak spot and what tends to go when my mental health gets poor. Is this relatable at all? I guess i'm just trying to make sense of this particular symptom. It's something I struggle to even explain as it feels so strange when its happening (how do you explain what you can't even think).",7.332240310077523,7.270535274418608,7.25889534883721,74.93144379844964,63.69767441860466,10.515503875968994,34.195736434108525,10.125756701596842,3.289294573643412,1808,70,337,36,24,578,193,430,0.11900000000000001,0.77,0.111,-0.8265,0,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,5,3,0,28,24,1,5,12,0,27,5,1,4,3,88,81,32,0,2,17,1,6,12,0,0,4,3,0,0,31,19,0,4,27,1,1,3,7,9,0,1,17,16,40,15,44,61,11,28,0,1,6,0,14,12,0,11,25,212,71,1,0.0,0.0,0.06302705678465809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293479968581507,0.0,0.0,0.05164975933094077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784199914711965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15944743136269307,0.05749563206454013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10785397302170964,0.15748519753340615,0.0,0.05495831044390869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06771766218133707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06555388543951313,0.0,0.0,0.22206499560527534,0.0,0.056520036103812524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08531747987941214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527117582243352,0.0,0.0,0.1306273953629807,0.13842171460396396,0.12402623765487725,0.0,0.17709253085451188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687187675159276,0.0,0.07341193387131449,0.054172048508667706,0.05165568274971435,0.0,0.07114925428773791,0.0,0.11422716577459152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06865237429108045,0.07279362117762908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057407402772482186,0.0,0.13451369404351493,0.07099004575311756,0.0,0.0,0.06838772314962696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3786441147281808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054236350017199036,0.0,0.0,0.05490908866875175,0.0,0.0,0.12933586718623613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06508794894107024,0.0,0.1956417036166462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047478470875599865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04376544884449728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04477611102419001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068786628968063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10293407443892677,0.11759415357856785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05342657741019235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049721803271081916,0.12775529758055687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053997162726562915,0.0,0.2700791157282533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06713004944091992,0.0,0.051912140612028534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12872509904740526,0.2483063289120377,0.0,0.20509770213632225,0.11298263209478687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13154987638745955,0.0,0.0,0.13447354078299587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598717515384574,0.03809476055491731,0.0,0.05180735299150389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04159155512299997 schizophrenia,soft974,2019/10/02,"If you need a reminder that life is feeble but worth it, here it is I work in a health center where homeless people who are ill can have better living conditions to heal. Today, during lunch, one of our residents had a pulmonary aspiration : a small piece of food got kind of stuck in the respiratory system instead of going down when she swallowed. It was impressive to see but I stayed calm and I did what I have to do, hit her in between the scapulae, but it wasn't enough so I did an Heimlich maneuver. She could have died if I didn't do it. I reassured her and everyone went away with the day. Later she came to me and she offered me something that is really dear to her : a small porcelain angel. She is a devout catholic and you probably can understand what it represents to her, even more knowing that she can't have a lot of belongings because of her total lack of money. I got all flustered and I couldn't find my words, because she doesn't speak well the language of my country and I hardly speak hers. But we understood each other. Life is feeble, you can see death when you don't expect it. But there are always small things that matter and add something that make it worthwhile.",5.399027181688123,6.0914290171673855,5.813064377682406,81.05235765379112,67.84120171673821,8.616766809728183,29.696423462088696,8.648137234880735,2.1956068097281825,943,33,180,14,15,303,132,233,0.129,0.7829999999999999,0.08800000000000001,-0.8795,1,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,2,4,0,2,9,7,0,0,12,0,27,8,0,1,2,34,41,17,2,7,7,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,18,12,3,0,4,0,2,3,6,0,1,1,12,5,33,7,21,26,8,20,1,0,2,0,24,10,0,3,5,143,51,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13892822889815276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15686908385475146,0.0,0.0,0.2035605899078883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14766694618416593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19096344374337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13330794111273414,0.0,0.0,0.1076785918768568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17328327671128455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725194447881189,0.0,0.11027878686835656,0.0,0.0,0.1595421823231792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15260295618737346,0.0,0.201894702399536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09489003918577016,0.0,0.2670742753558436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14956781632168814,0.0,0.0,0.17747595365342306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738683212076413,0.09175958005848303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358645896813561,0.0,0.0,0.1474331259359885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14194764531243886,0.0,0.0,0.11145041283469972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12380240837815801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313978359749767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157524861589839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180016475327393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696203406595363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26609892539221985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570755795127584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17796244079626666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109241059199986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15826326723320133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17381642032091668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501215581751235,0.15477819835095968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155248545491182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ughblin,2019/10/02,"Scared my remission is ending and I don't know what to do Lately my visual hallucinations have been getting more frequent/detailed again and I've been noticing a decline in my functioning. I've been stable for about 9 months now. These past 9 months have been the first time where I haven't had any prominent psychotic symptoms that impede my functioning to a high degree since I was 12. Ever since I was 12, and I'm 18 now, I've struggled with psychosis. I'm just really scared. I have schizoaffective disorder, but it completely and utterly drains me of any and all personality. I've been dissociating again and my reading comprehension abilities have noticeably declined. I've had my Seroquel upped from 25 mg to 125 mg over the course of a month. The other night I heard someone audibly scream in my ear while I was laying in bed, well awake. I keep seeing people approaching me, and this morning I started having paranoid thoughts.. even though I didn't believe them. I don't want to become a shell of a human being again. I don't want to fight my own brain. I have a boyfriend now, and he makes me so happy. I don't want to lose myself and not be able to be with him. I started college, I don't want to have to drop out. I don't want to be a failure. I'm starting to have a hard time coping with having to go to college and I hate it because I know I'm academically capable. I just want to stay myself for once.",3.7856866537717617,5.3686714113475205,5.016892327530627,81.9245454545455,72.47517730496455,7.964152159896841,28.06640876853643,8.575989854853784,2.067171631205674,1126,43,220,20,22,373,146,282,0.13699999999999998,0.78,0.083,-0.7544,0,0,0,0,1,0,28.0,0,0,1,2,15,9,2,3,11,0,33,3,2,1,2,31,56,14,0,6,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,2,7,14,0,1,3,1,0,2,9,7,1,1,13,6,35,2,30,39,3,33,0,1,1,0,7,8,0,0,21,147,42,4,0.11915985839028335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16206557974209684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07263874367289774,0.13160270167745966,0.0,0.13425235518179424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330218104947898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493684441103388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365675212412529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055402660140095,0.0,0.0,0.07870396264339234,0.10778691394465052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10135731467393316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06225610786713855,0.0,0.06772129356321224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12684788502501992,0.10674382773622668,0.11764569041872452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12589893271953884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10591475720205597,0.0,0.0,0.13097428374356654,0.0,0.13441751050234008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333094016273914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07954013076697876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28533678634728754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182345498909824,0.0,0.0,0.2713285771271226,0.0,0.12690136022857956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375156805254685,0.08261044218242608,0.10404579213639584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11919210474026296,0.0,0.07633685654737314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385996117080852,0.0,0.09495497945818228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19714053244888508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10096376132573094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530258832432035,0.12700855432038924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245717563685693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238527183623991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11707395586080682,0.0945996172765408,0.13896614337114302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4217014308243789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10713902321655856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,1pinkmann,2019/10/02,"Schizophrenia and Psychedelics Hello, friends! I've got a weird question, but do any of you use or used psychedelics (LSD, Shrooms, DMT etc) during your schizo? I really want to find out about your feelings, visuals and thoughts in a trip. I know that it's not a good idea to use psychedelics with schizo, but I am sure that someone did it and can share his story. &#x200B; Thanx!",5.63774647887324,7.042840380281696,3.742366197183099,93.52340845070424,67.73239436619717,6.806760563380282,31.10140845070423,6.742157984588678,1.4269864788732396,301,12,61,2,5,83,55,71,0.062,0.795,0.14300000000000002,0.7017,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,3,0,0,1,5,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,3,1,20,12,6,0,1,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,6,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,1,7,4,7,9,1,3,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,2,0,33,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23419779265280874,0.2626451887687907,0.14698900913685245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410637258088359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10929163496367217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19755664252165206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16699649600481392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18129586781982227,0.17287442675232156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.244006371201208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11879006153257304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421368044463344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384708452266849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831426914908816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20371825848715516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17159848538267156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5600510648762991,0.0,0.0,0.12749052074497455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626451887687907,0.0 schizophrenia,M-Tasty,2019/10/02,Tattoos? Do they help you? I have had schizophrenia since I was about 15. It took me many years but I'm doing well and I have a wonderful parter and steady job now. As a result I have been adding a lot of ink. (would be considered a heavily tattooed person now) I have found that each new tattoo particularly my visible ones has really helped me stay grounded. I have a lot less out of body type experiences and also helped a lot with feeling like I'm in the wrong body. I was wondering how and/or if they have helped or hindered you all?,1.6922585669781933,4.180592859813089,2.9959112149532707,89.46495716510904,83.01869158878505,6.5573208722741425,21.06619937694704,7.793537801064563,0.9490442367601242,424,13,88,8,12,137,75,107,0.039,0.8170000000000001,0.14300000000000002,0.8732,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,2,0,6,3,0,0,7,0,15,2,2,2,1,20,22,9,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,6,1,14,2,7,14,6,9,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,7,5,63,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13025833663791142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618549774466263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15933188122052164,0.0,0.0,0.082359082887012,0.11636441635897952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17859398190003184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4367110504706116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16163731189197478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07957693188559425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41543464958667703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16513888728212348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15731445548594952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11037446529360198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222409233226427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10434770989792473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13473939077077807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17361275247893146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18097020159212612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14645234581293726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532816642584973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11570817413721232,0.1780881670111058,0.0,0.1048920045066026 schizophrenia,AnOddFad,2019/10/02,"No typical symptoms, but strange heavy unpleasant feelings in head? Whenever I think I’ve convinced myself not to feel a certain way, it’s only a matter of days/minutes before I feel that way again. This isn’t even about delusions anymore, it’s just pure unpleasant feelings. Is this even schizophrenia any more, now there are no typical dymptoms? I’m stuck on a merry-go-round of lack of feeling and gross mental discomfort.",7.142307692307693,8.234226051282054,6.681179487179487,74.94715384615388,64.12820512820512,9.316923076923075,38.67692307692308,9.3871,3.909089230769232,344,18,55,6,5,107,60,78,0.345,0.583,0.07200000000000001,-0.9759,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,1,3,0,3,2,1,0,2,14,11,2,0,1,3,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,6,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,5,3,2,7,10,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,34,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16355328389606805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385187211633101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20465408888125414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177057476718896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6080388562942346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13668590171434156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468299856471271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423748979925329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18291672046261676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24997928418681425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541074349401826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38180716945619503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LordSil,2019/10/02,"Anyone here who has hallucinated ghosts and demons like straight out of a horror film I am not schizo now, it went away on its own by luck, but from four year old to almost 11 year old, I would get auditory and visual hallucinations, one kind of which I see a fucking ghost. Scariest moments of my life, like scarier than anything possible because you are fucking seeing it in real, it's not in TV, it's fucking there in front of you, fucking heart attack everytime.",9.275898876404494,7.313754988764046,8.997612359550562,70.18383426966292,60.91011235955056,11.147191011235957,39.103932584269664,9.516144504307137,3.6198067415730346,370,15,68,5,4,120,68,89,0.11,0.8,0.09,-0.5936,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,0,3,9,5,0,2,0,4,6,1,0,0,10,12,3,2,1,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,5,0,2,1,2,6,4,14,10,1,15,1,0,2,4,3,7,4,2,8,44,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678273100680059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11718990057407665,0.0,0.1379206180373487,0.0,0.0,0.190669331669885,0.15746582949381294,0.0,0.0,0.10216747734618913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6197744398710502,0.08756414509067245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19860694877872395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17452973364087562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11838092105128213,0.16376190532892576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35173626444965805,0.0,0.11357017861739008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889439525535392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19076562852663626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26711119224165075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15536699005304708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190583163352096,0.0,0.0,0.21585796417065814 schizophrenia,Babystyx,2019/10/02,"Recently married to a major sweetheart I recently got married to my husband who has sz this summer. We found out we were pregnant prior to that, we’ve lived together almost two years and dated just about the same time, our baby is due in Jan or this year. My husband works full time, takes his meds every night before bed, meets with his nurse every two weeks for injections. He has been stable for just over two years. My question is, am I going to be able to notice signs if he isn’t feeling well? We talk about how he’s feeling, I touch base at least once a day. Is there anything anything I should be looking out for? How should I be supporting him? Anything I can do to make things easier? He’s had his fair share of self medicating with various substances, after finding out about me being pregnant he’s pretty much stopped except for on his Friday night, he might have the odd beer or a tiny pinner but NOTHING compared to what went on prior, he’s doing so good and I’m so proud of him. He’s very sensitive to the moods and feeling of others and I try really hard not to get upset or irritated when I’m just in a plain old shitty mood but I swear he can tell.",4.862524822695033,5.354658004255324,5.634042553191493,82.57333333333334,68.95744680851064,8.13900709219858,28.007092198581557,8.021203637495839,1.7182539007092197,921,29,182,11,15,301,145,235,0.063,0.799,0.138,0.9354,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,4,0,0,2,13,9,0,1,7,0,22,2,0,3,0,39,36,15,0,3,11,2,5,0,1,3,1,0,1,1,7,12,1,1,6,1,0,2,2,1,1,3,6,6,22,6,32,23,6,32,0,0,1,0,29,10,0,7,20,119,29,1,0.1262571401348943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642828803899026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116966055764537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743552697702093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0814254103944093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21275417197890176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915182109643932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539673874234227,0.0,0.0,0.13843443735859956,0.0,0.0,0.06596414464919638,0.0,0.07175484233559662,0.10589849891570884,0.10097936877512699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131015981311938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11148736787714876,0.0,0.10602419904001548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842776214428025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14024322005506368,0.12719078576108467,0.0,0.13393887343271288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281352533188304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369675462467298,0.0,0.12114713113333095,0.14374459087026753,0.13248562983456091,0.13445973365637173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12844890177840645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414368922550244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088355696925642,0.0,0.24932738821665915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13171373281979934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10555662257326938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14327510641027572,0.0,0.0,0.09492965648647836,0.10148070670496102,0.11035430548661464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08387963372977628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14724310749136404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08572031041525056,0.0,0.3700046400954001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417536332867876,0.0,0.0,0.10127586210291993,0.0,0.11352033185423595,0.11704163382120615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09191670173348457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24391637623179 schizophrenia,yungassgod,2019/10/02,"Interesting symptom I can’t find anywhere else and would like help with Sometimes I will slip into a semi-catatonic state where I will not respond or react to others for several minutes at a time. While this happens I will experience intense dream-like “visions” in my head that are often horrifying or strange that will last until I “wake up” It’s like dreaming but I’m not asleep.",7.718333333333334,7.70815416666667,7.818888888888887,71.065,62.88888888888889,9.977777777777778,38.83333333333333,9.516144504307137,3.818766666666667,308,15,52,5,4,100,58,72,0.057,0.7929999999999999,0.15,0.4678,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,7,4,3,1,0,12,9,6,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,8,4,0,10,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,3,6,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569080380081937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008305920980831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28108361498461626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271954309962513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156221001920785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20613583873245728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25068403005134343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004944817460529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3474297285369273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041623554429831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31964911585884176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17932753293683318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21846574753052253,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ValleyProphet,2019/10/02,"An epiphany I have visions. The universe reveals secrets to me, and I need to pass them on. I’ve been so tired recently. So sad. But today was calm. Then it hit me: It doesn’t matter. None of this loneliness or sadness matters. We’re not real. Never have been. The sadness and joy and everything we’ve ever felt hasn’t really happened. That’s comforting to me.",0.5709346991037131,3.0518404084507047,2.5498079385403365,88.27800256081946,95.61971830985917,5.398719590268887,24.76440460947503,6.980632752743323,1.5006788732394365,283,13,53,5,11,94,54,71,0.19899999999999998,0.639,0.162,-0.7202,0,0,0,0,1,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,0,3,0,7,1,0,0,2,15,11,8,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,4,1,6,3,5,6,1,7,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,1,5,37,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954297608504635,0.0,0.0,0.29352837458801684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135886641235984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28881263351352143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421708786614199,0.2518952160991081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3717440164809132,0.2092292881253407,0.0,0.3224795860952949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.375380386612967,0.30958003957904684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jsjshabs,2019/10/02,"Feeling ego-death and having chills, then having delusions. Anyone? How does psychosis feel qualitatively for you? (My experience) I was sitting in the library, I felt something like ""Ego-death"" (A buddhist concept I'm familiar with, and something I read about after) which feels like you disappear and just spread out. I felt like just sitting there frozen and staring. Then I started thinking about a worm reaching into my brain, and the long white lights on the ceiling were also worms, and the world was going to end ... and the sickly swimming, bright green mental 'background' in my mind starting swimming and becoming active. I felt the 'void' alien presence, growing in my mind, going to take me over. Does anyone know about the 'void', alien presence thing? What's up with that? Who is it and what's it gonna do huh? Also ... I've been diagnosed with a psychotic disorder (or something) ... then told I was mis-diagnosed , then ... this kinda shit keeps happening. ya know. Also, what is wrong with some nurses? you say one 'delusional' - sounding thing ... they go silent, then start talking to you in that careful voice, like you're a kid. Are they scared or something?! Maybe wrong profession guys? Lmao",3.8928459119496854,6.948465202830191,3.551226415094341,85.33520440251574,78.5754716981132,5.79748427672956,27.229559748427675,7.1686216300943375,1.6615559748427673,941,39,157,12,24,282,129,212,0.075,0.8029999999999999,0.121,0.8098,0,0,4,0,0,0,57.0,0,5,2,0,10,10,1,1,11,1,11,4,2,1,0,34,33,20,0,0,4,0,6,4,0,1,2,3,0,2,12,15,0,1,9,3,0,7,0,4,0,1,9,14,19,6,21,23,1,30,0,0,4,0,13,10,1,4,15,99,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731220354619993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15920417146178625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12573130187806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12708709774573795,0.0,0.0,0.11607112816848238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310976966864204,0.0,0.0,0.13047461808197272,0.0,0.1992505870956565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10083163094189702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11136087674220772,0.0,0.0,0.17268822048152405,0.08132988406379424,0.3279231008797881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19409980865219548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11272305342410804,0.1006715114311692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10118941436134644,0.0,0.0,0.12513092054891714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22247291214668333,0.0,0.0,0.10074799547012694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437118864647608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147275632975538,0.0,0.22989914723581056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07714336346808154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11387439856142492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09053299280613504,0.11397729463480814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11685881005060465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505694325821397,0.0,0.0,0.24173723870034214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08559621232374671,0.09150316602187414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126524637524025,0.07294637622608988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087824297351772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489401902977736,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tetrille,2019/10/02,"Questioning I have had delusions for my whole life. Hallucinations I have rarely, only every once in a while. Is this normal?",3.645757575757578,6.8911623636363615,4.433636363636363,76.33712121212123,84.45454545454545,6.56969696969697,20.96969696969697,7.793537801064563,1.5006787878787882,100,3,16,2,3,32,20,22,0.07200000000000001,0.9279999999999999,0.0,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33349405475418026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795782259392012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38781796998799256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4215336541807259,0.0,0.3010377125319074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44340717036219396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4419170832596206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sarcasaminc,2019/10/02,"Help I need some advice I always get suicidal every night at 9 and the suicidal feeling and deep depression doesn't leave until the next day and the cycle continues. I don't know if this is the right sub to post this on but does anyone else have this problem if so how should I combat these feelings?",7.4884999999999975,6.337233516666667,7.550000000000002,76.55500000000005,63.83333333333334,10.666666666666668,31.666666666666664,9.725611199111238,2.765166666666667,241,7,46,4,3,78,46,60,0.24,0.695,0.065,-0.924,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,1,0,14,10,9,2,5,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,4,9,1,10,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,3,5,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22075274602626715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879719037379141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579587402009074,0.2314674115428323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14569069272270688,0.0,0.19457252208145914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19769187850379674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18871549021927667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903355632173782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22844974060113754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802657035747785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15142004181635116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12415203941330835,0.0,0.0,0.2392018545638433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16750644973125733,0.0,0.0,0.2402536127456581,0.21199749438325569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21635551883204698,0.0,0.0,0.2161615497312105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19292250484556248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4942090348187131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Harrytoza999,2018/11/28,"Drug Induced Psychosis? mates in hospital need a semi-explination Hey guys not sure if anyone will see this but my mates and i are heaps stressed about one of our brothers &#x200B; So Saturday night we were all going to town for one of our other mates birthdays, we all normally delve into the drugs a bit mainly coke md xans anything we can get our hands on really. i was on coke and md that night and i think lets call him G was as well, we knew he had a problem with pharms also though but wasn't sure whether he was on any that night. the night went well i seen G go home and thought nothing of it. yesterday i got a call from a mate saying he was in hospital in an induced coma after taking anti psychotics he got from someone in town :( So apparently we arent 100% sure yet but believe he took a few of what could have been really strong seroquel along with all the other drugs mixed in and apparently he was a acting a bit weird at my mates when he got back from town said he seen some people fighting in someones driveway when clearly no one was and then we think he went home and may have had a xan or val or something along the lines to calm down as he normally would and this may have tipped him over. My mates woke up and found G in there backyard walking around with a box cutter knife almost like he had a purpose dropped it and went to play with some plants while staring up at the sky. by these point my mates knew something was wrong so took him home to his mums after he started seeing and talking to people that weren't there like he would look out the window and say whats that caravan doing over there and then start giggling and laughing with his mates that weren't even there. My mate said he was making coffees and putting them in rooms all around the house for people that weren't there and just completely wasn't on this earth anymore. They took him to hospital and he started freaking out apparently 8 security guards had to hold him down while they did every test possible and couldnt even work out what was wrong or what he had taken so after everything they put him in a coma and he has been since.. Anyone know or understand what could have happened here? he did the anti psychotics with a friend and this guy is a bit of tripped out dude anyway but aparently he was okay, but is having episodes. Like when G went into a coma he messaged the one guy that knew, as we all found out later on, and said he could see G floating in front of him in a coma and he hadnt even known G was in hospital. he also said he could see peoples white siloets around the room I dont know its so crazy, did they take some drugs and break through or have a psychotic episode i dont even know i mean i hope G is alright but just what even happened??",6.372004787552362,5.723891314183124,6.035560143626572,84.85985128665472,65.84021543985637,8.93474566128067,30.774925194494315,7.908726449838941,1.8417524117295032,2190,68,460,21,30,679,238,557,0.081,0.8270000000000001,0.092,0.8036,5,0,6,0,2,0,29.0,10,0,5,2,33,25,1,1,28,2,55,11,1,3,9,110,104,54,0,13,16,2,1,3,10,5,8,6,8,3,23,48,2,3,16,1,0,15,12,7,2,4,52,16,38,18,70,41,13,81,0,0,9,0,75,42,0,13,25,299,61,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06169264492989295,0.0,0.0,0.09853759905110944,0.0,0.06675346732401524,0.07486183720048406,0.041896321512100224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061099702741910324,0.08615707327438392,0.0,0.05069906509042961,0.16453556452987755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04737361856855017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06941239275364904,0.0,0.0,0.20178364214897476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12581962142378444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06459600132837183,0.0,0.0,0.1967595105877899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441088457217935,0.0,0.28578812781859697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20346124873839472,0.0,0.05190834975634538,0.0,0.05537031405249388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351024635784003,0.04759906151553002,0.0,0.032188227943828064,0.0,0.07002777746773275,0.0,0.1478233496565438,0.0,0.0,0.18300817656472615,0.1089615015408078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18539694404348148,0.06119176800170915,0.0,0.07108866497495256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157630096908526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06299951024042942,0.0,0.09029732772103356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05173615309363967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04112457311454925,0.0,0.0,0.06711040461818406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045682389733774746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312639824087307,0.1207277343685854,0.05911562247033539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669917655530095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17084805553107432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05824054229928453,0.06945503787084881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058951617541418276,0.0,0.12386838572747352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07893677337831584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344175664051639,0.09798810701162686,0.0,0.0,0.19637800228207325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05096370952850579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10440243294856816,0.09485943745509356,0.0,0.0,0.13082177933291034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07057305100908648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741976295829684,0.0,0.09264479780238576,0.04951908550761208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895328651134689,0.06053065806130231,0.048910767932915857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2053500331528105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06413727777391612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078801483489467,0.22844912540837065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044852180877605036,0.0,0.0,0.08753071752913942,0.13471982561444698,0.07486183720048406,0.0 schizophrenia,TheReptilian123,2018/11/28,"Early signs? I am always extremally paranoid, to the point of thinking random people on the street want to kill me.I sometimes hear voices, but i cant understand what they're saying, like a tv turned down to the lowest volume.I dissasociate a lot, to the point of going through a day completely on auto pilot and not even remembering what i did yesterday. I suffer from depression and an anxiety disorder( diagnosed by a proffesional).I have attempted suicide multiple times, not suffering any major injuries. I live with my mother.She is horribly abusive, often screams at me for being a degenerate druggie because i am prescribed antidepressants and xanax.I had to quit my medications cold turkey multiple times due to her throwing out my meds.I think this could have had a hand in causing me to develop these symptoms.",7.387602739726031,9.034728993150686,7.965643835616442,63.957095890410976,63.863013698630134,11.31945205479452,37.88767123287671,11.20814326018867,5.064681643835616,667,34,97,20,10,221,107,146,0.23800000000000002,0.6890000000000001,0.073,-0.9834,1,0,1,0,0,2,18.0,0,0,0,2,2,6,1,0,11,0,11,4,1,1,0,19,18,4,2,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,5,0,0,4,1,0,2,3,5,0,0,3,6,12,1,20,13,2,17,0,3,0,0,3,9,0,3,7,67,16,0,0.0,0.21013297057746064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475709670083126,0.0,0.0,0.12060535636547652,0.0,0.1356736986159502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10811205661993814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821892290101136,0.0,0.0,0.1859500662305888,0.0,0.0,0.14160104059424128,0.0,0.0,0.11437728714594213,0.0,0.15275290969464014,0.1800084194653338,0.0,0.0,0.2032606133080432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11713924051099285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10079315739615656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19988845218692472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19621357235021464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08664516752781583,0.0,0.15660495448611772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15077822160006024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17866335527014351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12295345914630525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3353096933292895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18863554928357013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009051012110005,0.0,0.0,0.14103732904453845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754055388297227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19399416541029613,0.0,0.0,0.18433650450269112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272798401448305,0.0,0.0,0.20683060858059726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19290791166407995,0.0,0.18462955608168732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10460673065257654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SHThrowAway213,2018/11/28,"Hello, can someone tell me what is the difference in symptoms between psychosis and schizophrenia? I'm worried I might have it, and I need a bit of reassurance here. Bit of background: I have been diagnosed with PTSD and Severe Depression Episodes with Psychotic symptoms when I was 16. I was then diagnosed with BPD when I was 21. The doctor thought C-PTSD is a more close fit for me, but that wasn't in the medical handbook. I'm now 23, I seem to be getting more unstable as I'm getting older, my hallucinations are getting stronger, same with the delusions, paranoia and mood swings. I don't really get effected by my PTSD anymore, though I am very jumpy still and I still have a very bad temper. I still get periods of low mood but can go for a few weeks without one but sometimes my low mood can be severe and carry on for weeks. I used to be high-functioning for a bit but now I'm becoming more low-functioning. Please can someone explain the difference between the 2 conditions? I'm not asking for a diagnosis, just some reassurance that I'm probably overthinking. Sorry if this came off as rude and thanks for your help. 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Hello everyone So yes i know, thats not the best place to ask those types of questions. But ive been noticing this sign, since i was a child. So when im at home usually, i start to believe that im actually somewhere else but im hallucinating that im “at home”. For example when i was like 10-11 i got paranoid because i was at my home and i literally though that im still in class but hallucinating that im at home and i would get paranoid and scared of what people (that are in my schools class) are thinking about me right now. I mean its just that type of a sign that ive noticed. I also have a really bad ocd with false beliefs that if i dont do the ritual, something bad will happen. I hope this makes sense to yall. Sorry for a long 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schizophrenia,Yaa_Dude99,2018/11/28,"I need some advice, I’m in a tough spot and unsure of whether to go to a doctor or not So I geuss I’ll start off with an overview of me, I’m currently 19 years old , 6”2 male , anyways I’ve had some really rough issues lately , but anyways 2 years ago I was diagnosed with depression, I started taking a medication called Effexor , I eventually stopped cold turkey after a year , I’m not sure if that caused any brain damage but I believe it did , anyways I started experimenting with psychedelics whether it’s mdma, lsd , mushrooms or dmt , all for about 6 months , eventually I stopped after a really bad acid trip involving repeated gibberish and image offer a hazard sign in my mind not like a closed eye visual, I was stuck unmoving for a couple hours after I came down I seemed to be fine , but I would say about 3 months ago is when shit started hitting the fan , I’ve had some problems with overanlyzing people making sure there not talking about me , I think awhile before I say anything so it’s not bad , sometimes when I hear people talk I believe it’s directed about me , which then cause anxiety and typically snagged and after that I start to think about why it is there saying and sometimes I’m positive of what it is , this is what caused me to lose my job a few weeks ago I got overwhelmed of people possibly planning to get me fired or saying things about me so I lost it and ran out the door, that’s the dumbest thing I could have done but I’ve been noticing a lot of my ticks and habits a lot more and can only focus on them a lot of the time , occasionally when I snap I have this good and bad battle in my head kindve deal , in this situation the right thing to do would’ve been not kicking the shit out of my car but I did anyways because I burnt a hole in my seat with a cigerate on accident , I did it about 30 minutes after burning the hole because somehow I was drawn to doing that action , and lately I’ve had a severe issue with arguments with my self in my head ,I recently heard a voice not in my head but a loud whisper in my ear of my name , I’ve seen light shadows walking towards my bed , I don’t know whether my eyes are deceiving me in the dark or I’m actually seeing that, lately I’ve had issues with pronouncing words , sometimes it just won’t come out like the other half of the word, another time the WiFi has went out and I believed my mom turned it off to punish me and had bad bad thoughts about her , I’ve also realized I’m not very emotionally attatchdd to anyone I only do things to benefit me and only me , I typically devise plans on manipulation of people to get what I want , and it usually works , I have constant thoughts of suicide , anyways thanks for the read I just needed to vent and see how you all feel and what I should do next , I feel more comfortable explaining this to the interment than a family memeber 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schizophrenia,rat-czar,2018/11/28,"i'm completely humiliated and i hate myself i had a generally good night, went out to dinner with my friends and had a good time, but when i got back i started to feel really nauseous, realized i ate too much, and proceeded to throw up in front of all my friends. one of my friends had to call maintenance ( we live in a dorm) to clean up my vomit which i should've offered to clean up myself and i just feel so disgusting and humiliated and pathetic and i can't even describe how much i hate myself and i just want to forget this ever happened 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schizophrenia,mossrot,2018/11/28,"Can't sleep, voices too loud. Hi, I've never made my own post on reddit before so please be patient with me... I have a really bad problem tonight where my voices are so loud I can hear them over headphones kept up over full volume! It's like people are having a loud conversation upstairs, but last time I was hospitalised the same voices were doing the same dang thing. I am sure it isn't my neighbours. It's muffled like it's them but nobody with a brain sits up at four talking this loud... I need to sleep for an appointment but I think of anything else to do to at least get one hour more of sleep, I'm really distracted. 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She has learned a lot from here and I just want to say thank you to this community. And I want to say I love you to my Fiancée : )",3.0555223880597002,4.194209477611942,4.6061492537313455,85.90564179104479,73.62686567164178,7.748059701492537,25.34029850746269,8.238735603445708,1.3362262686567168,253,8,56,4,5,85,46,67,0.02,0.6659999999999999,0.314,0.9665,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,1,5,5,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,11,9,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,11,4,11,9,1,5,0,0,0,1,10,2,0,1,2,36,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22461967920174594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17829915435895494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14103751594676045,0.0,0.0,0.22642090349221625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22950148293402145,0.24364003920764385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23570956441650615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585370806338198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17293661604420105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4293494885572012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485333081912343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15740977337994494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18327804766432976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22273667831008692,0.4776697766072434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TrickyGypsea,2018/11/28,Signs and Symptoms in real life What are the most easily missed or over-looked signs of schizophrenia in the real world?,5.050909090909091,7.701506818181822,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727276,71.72727272727272,6.218181818181819,20.090909090909093,7.1686216300943375,0.4960181818181826,98,2,17,1,2,28,18,22,0.10300000000000001,0.7859999999999999,0.111,0.0553,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,7,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,10,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25849192399555737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073184550689132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8330966495641727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38037779231716623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,diverselegend6,2018/11/28,Today was a hard day at the psych office... First i was under 'mind control' and very sick the entire time i was in the psych office. I was using a lot of tissues and constantly wiping my eyes due to having watery eyes the whole time. The psych thought i was intentionally making my nose bleed. Finally I just got out of the psych hospital last week and was telling my psych about all my voices... including the one that the government gave me wireless HIV. that made him mad. then we went across the street to the Social Club and it was closed. :( then i got my invega sustenna shot and then my dad drove for an hour to get my meds and that was that.... what a DAY!,3.005003469812628,4.785328320610688,3.7369882026370576,89.4816238723109,74.95419847328245,6.9010409437890345,21.06939625260236,7.686295010490155,0.6423832061068695,514,12,108,7,11,163,80,131,0.087,0.9129999999999999,0.0,-0.8856,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,14,0,9,6,3,5,1,19,19,9,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,6,9,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,2,15,5,16,0,12,4,3,24,0,0,2,1,6,7,0,1,15,72,22,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164521079769335,0.22465240853165347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583526248561169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21941781109966524,0.0,0.17037426367864095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10464798294512846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203948847540485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794285998134918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972542102150117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632704536267341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17028708362268075,0.0,0.1895277975433889,0.13370116657019118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224870826195273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20224493462173085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357278153372143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20417965011597206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17507019214605152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159015066545729,0.23359196550624425,0.0,0.18986007244022374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729940625674548,0.0,0.16526768751264256,0.0,0.0,0.16066781046676795,0.0,0.0,0.1856792195992004,0.0,0.22362672845196907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ceroij,2018/11/28,'Other specified schizophrenia spectrum and other psychotic disorder'???? I've been diagnosed with 'Other specified schizophrenia spectrum and other psychotic disorder'. Any idea what this means?,10.33576923076923,14.919181038461542,8.222615384615388,45.37238461538465,84.76923076923076,12.849230769230768,47.50769230769231,9.888512548439397,9.307901538461538,161,11,11,7,5,48,17,26,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22410796133935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33449028406372083,0.0,0.0,0.7553946697195106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3720262536963067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3589808226790597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,glasschronic,2018/11/28,"One year sober tomorrow I stopped taking my meds for a month but did again yesterday. Kind of having a breakdown or maybe was already feeling psychosis. I feel awful, dude. Life is weird. I’m one year sober tomorrow but I seemed really messed up last night at my meeting because the Medicine effected me so hard. I’m paranoid now to speak up tomorrow and get my one year coin because people might think the ups and downs of my mental health are signs that I’ve relapsed. I don’t know. Feels cathartic to write a diary in public I guess.",2.680734265734266,5.267620500000007,3.1876573426573422,89.04825174825176,79.57692307692308,6.08951048951049,25.8006993006993,7.348242739294969,1.3954153846153845,428,17,81,6,11,133,77,104,0.158,0.825,0.017,-0.9258,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,5,1,7,2,0,1,0,17,18,6,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,7,0,1,0,1,2,0,3,2,5,10,1,11,15,0,19,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,4,13,45,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20804534430208446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298498470144441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859762756468669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09849810270270112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20768485507673654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16888406402919492,0.0,0.0,0.20039645598610575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963229083208996,0.1036100624786736,0.15367548859565758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13316290711997852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18940172340199565,0.0,0.20941211571534368,0.0,0.18999188928109256,0.19999842310424265,0.0,0.0,0.15048125690988845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769207637842222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3832543710386116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307015824979833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077586912839106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17162881739468508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576178559801702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14174959902631282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12080113476705988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36421756705431996 schizophrenia,mzeglaz,2019/07/24,"Im curious if you had something like this At start i tell you that im not diagnosed with schizopfrenia, but by the time im going to visit psychiatrist by the first time becouse all of this My hallucinations only starts at night. They are very hostile, and so im very fuckung paranoid, one knife under my pillow and second in reach of my hand. One hour before falling asleep i constantly wach if something is in my room and switch on/off the lights. I constantly imagening something is killing me, and have flashes of something killing me when try falling asleep, so i wake up and check my room, then try to go sleep. I sometimes hear something walking in my house when i home alone, scraching from back of the window and so on. Voices in my head ( thought level ) tells me to hurt myself or kill someone. These voices used to offer me good things when i do some action, and for some time i belived that i can do some strange things, and that the time could go back when i do some actions told me by one voice, but when i realised that this is not real, this started. And there is the point, one voice decreases rate of those actions when i ask him. Did you had something like that?",5.8495465838509295,6.198845395652175,5.6440993788819895,83.85826086956524,66.78260869565217,8.136645962732919,31.645962732919248,7.7094869923839395,1.9867267080745337,931,35,184,9,14,289,122,230,0.153,0.7829999999999999,0.063,-0.9791,0,1,6,0,0,2,24.0,0,3,1,1,12,8,4,0,6,0,14,7,6,1,1,26,25,24,3,3,7,0,1,2,0,0,1,5,5,0,13,10,0,0,1,0,1,10,2,5,0,6,5,7,30,3,24,19,5,44,0,1,0,0,12,13,0,7,23,127,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09884884907452468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922513432769838,0.0,0.0,0.1467775989708135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08121388303695032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062772087416604,0.0,0.07620245563719875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687134742134952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118268720393082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16272520469018734,0.08005199533826937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09795075042937038,0.0,0.1075697667632954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09573583753108013,0.0,0.09399087926653367,0.11012694274098632,0.10217234646937363,0.0,0.4123737872778018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167764017768439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09325601714518132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956559867087219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586951465434348,0.07258773681171347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022328481280613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10863358415901976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09551065737288204,0.0,0.08086746852960087,0.44085424198386697,0.09439431189981297,0.0,0.2026624442440372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668405584370751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268144896681956,0.0,0.0,0.0757700730695075,0.2226113622984034,0.0,0.0,0.09119866355495457,0.0,0.12959734009485055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08243101138820401,0.0,0.15749884625253827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rtardd,2019/07/24,"Eating disorder caused by schizophrenia? For the past 7 months all my brain thinks about is the act of chewing and swallowing food. From the second I wake up to the second I fall asleep, my brain is screaming at me to eat food every second I'm awake for the rest of my life. And every second I'm not eating, there's this horrible, agonizing burning sensation in my brain because I'm not giving it what it's so urgently demanding. The only way for me to not live in this burning agony all day every day would be for me to binge eat all day every day for the rest of my life. And since I do not want to become a fat disgusting blob, I have to go with not ignoring my brain's command and live every second with my brain feeling like it's on fire. And this compulsive binge eating disorder has actually caused me to become underweight very fast, because it's either binge eat forever or eat nothing. But I think because my brain can't think rationally and realistically about food, it could be my schizophrenia because of how it causes other abnormal behavior and irrational perceptions about reality. Does anyone else have this problem?",9.256666666666664,7.655452074074078,9.222888888888892,67.411,60.66666666666667,12.528888888888893,37.8037037037037,11.407655852321104,4.297168148148148,912,35,160,21,10,300,109,216,0.158,0.8140000000000001,0.027999999999999997,-0.9808,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,1,0,8,0,11,23,9,4,3,34,21,11,0,4,8,0,2,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,12,9,13,1,5,0,0,3,6,4,0,5,0,3,18,1,28,17,6,16,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,8,105,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.07238178526803722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05186322600413828,0.07599862256542507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808597820092428,0.16383568006348515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4968070983626927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285871618304157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059220807870177465,0.0,0.0,0.191340835303365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17001651510150834,0.0,0.06490896648697228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5312798086738579,0.06196171295919128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124681900859807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03750390928768467,0.05298894016861081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690695081105139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07115314333315602,0.04215401372572327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047806412154057,0.036236999371689636,0.0,0.13099157862428076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059203883915330574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07117063688526838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05641162583950968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708061661068802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07097318763656578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06135636425040927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14258047493327222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06120018597631024,0.043748937662507384,0.058874779549218416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05269010672009281,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BigLoadsComin,2019/07/24,"Information Hey, my brothers a schizo and has been all his life. Now I’m curious about the voices, what are those exactly. He said recently “I’d never touch my sister like that” yelling at his voices. Is it subconscious thoughts or just complete randomness? I know they’re just auditory hallucinations but much hasn’t been explained at least what I’ve googled. Thanks",3.503030303030304,6.712985060606059,3.897272727272728,80.18257575757578,84.75757575757575,7.781818181818181,28.54545454545455,8.515128840125781,2.9209818181818195,298,14,51,8,9,93,55,66,0.0,0.885,0.115,0.7391,0,0,0,0,1,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,3,13,12,3,0,0,4,2,1,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,5,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,5,5,2,3,8,3,5,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,2,4,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.407140912950444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21340778097832575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27427838413809363,0.18971110537962296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28545622153964795,0.0,0.2994924841120334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3834142379151049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693765095173942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575083008279033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082787525513322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,_-x_-Y--_,2019/07/24,"i failed tried to en my life yesterdayy , i forgot the plastic bag and threw up, so that means quantum immortality is real and i cant die . its why i keep failing , three tries is not tmuch of a scientific sample size but i know it is now. was out for many hours , when i woke up in the woods again shivering and extremely ""hungover"" , throat hurt and still do, lungs too. , i just broke down then . never felt to trapped before . &#x200B; i left the hotel . just wanted to say i didnt die , to the one or two persons that cares . but dont do that . i thinnk i maybe should call the hospital back, 18 missed calls and 4 unknown . its their job. &#x200B; all in all sad to be here .",1.1424444444444468,3.472926503703704,2.3422222222222224,94.30000000000004,83.96296296296295,5.377777777777778,20.11111111111111,6.742157984588678,0.1695777777777776,518,15,114,6,15,165,97,135,0.14,0.763,0.098,-0.7175,1,1,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,1,2,10,7,0,0,6,0,11,3,2,0,3,23,21,11,2,2,6,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,6,6,0,2,3,1,0,1,5,6,0,3,6,3,13,1,13,13,2,16,0,6,0,0,5,7,0,1,8,75,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158361147847859,0.3541999053365403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120713292641537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12402093903258897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976503093187221,0.0,0.14859995042248342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025271337788061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708157439018249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399410783773628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435325669852607,0.0,0.156026406797093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14463254751527016,0.12954765060566756,0.0,0.0,0.08009937046057714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583557891824501,0.0,0.10294622716983748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14776574592760486,0.1464236044811854,0.15876246063263866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124099567741847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098762717031067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12726166100689582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16589330067800845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159047771385732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116394659209793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979068505735212,0.0,0.14237476249627548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08596603385514233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13151503383523674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3541999053365403,0.0 schizophrenia,askreddithoe,2019/07/24,I’m worried I’m gonna be put on antipsychotics My therapist pulled up something that is buried within me and only resurfaces when triggered. I’m worried he’s gonna the wrong idea. I was acting really weird and I am aware that I was. I shouldn’t have told him I see patterns in the wall at night cause I think those are just hypnagogic hallucinations nothing more. I can’t do this to my parents. I feel like I’m lying to everyone. But I was telling the truth. But what is the truth? All I know is that there is some sort of disconnect. But I’m still there. If I wasn’t I wouldn’t be hyper aware of everything. And I’m not even anxious but I should be.,0.5567244525547466,2.8468367664233583,2.4778421532846733,92.54844206204382,86.44525547445255,5.760766423357666,20.971259124087588,7.1686216300943375,0.5511025547445261,515,17,115,8,16,171,83,137,0.076,0.8690000000000001,0.055,-0.3667,1,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,4,0,19,0,0,2,3,24,32,9,0,4,7,1,1,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,4,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,5,2,17,3,9,19,3,12,0,0,1,0,5,6,0,3,4,73,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23698150500209464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154925864806824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13855175771502568,0.0,0.0,0.2004451664575788,0.18852863591410549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10606651332679562,0.14986043416045472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368059095413717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11528464780331606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10248350771375513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19685585988480567,0.0,0.20128091841739526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15954028733365547,0.0,0.0,0.2329258549939901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21087777985097975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13438466498822832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16716031653115054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16149195334194344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675233802217239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18334908760830235,0.0,0.0,0.2435602825960193,0.0,0.13441277751114142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004451664575788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4260652371853184,0.0,0.0,0.2293516425570455,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Brandon4454,2019/07/24,"Tired of working I was diagnosed with schizophrenia about 5 years ago. I take 4 mg of risperidone a day and have no positive symptoms. I just hate my job. I'm tired, depressed, and hate dealing with money and doing data entry. I sit in my cubicle all day and talk to someone maybe 5 minutes a day. I'm lonely. I've tried applying elsewhere with little luck. I'll get an interview but no job. I make good money, but I'm just so tired of working here. The thought of going on disability keeps popping into my head. That way I could rest and quit working in this data entry nightmare with stern deadlines. What should I do? Keep going? I can't stand it anymore. Is it normal to hate your job this much? I didn't hate jobs this much in the past. Are these just negative symptoms?",1.4736868686868692,3.993080538961042,2.9180952380952405,89.37968253968252,84.51948051948051,5.240404040404041,24.139971139971138,6.691623216298621,0.9507486291486292,609,24,118,7,18,198,96,154,0.226,0.725,0.049,-0.9815,4,2,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,4,6,8,4,0,5,0,10,7,1,1,1,24,25,8,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,8,10,0,2,1,0,2,2,5,6,0,0,3,0,13,2,16,20,4,17,0,2,0,0,4,6,0,1,6,71,21,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09942569856458372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11123551952745106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08955299862362111,0.0,0.0,0.2170074950445802,0.1156350890855546,0.0966057950861878,0.11384304573588593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05860051845299349,0.0,0.1274895925579169,0.09407697125244104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4429508164571032,0.1151115583485482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4452177322665925,0.19939118896122152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11241675450509474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0748696483036033,0.0,0.11268277137020473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16490536587181087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10989588861493887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070722390314857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11929911683180512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950353139852343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23316052854888386,0.08433258880648553,0.09015234044968913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08904486335205343,0.0,0.3867444760214645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07615128884031422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08902973872790151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449679172548924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07222927032240109 schizophrenia,litwithfire,2019/07/24,"On Being Lit This is my first Reddit post. I have #schizophrenia and #bipolar and was fired last week. This was my message to friends and coworkers. [https://www.mentalmovement.co.uk/life-with-schizophrenia-bipolar-and-schizoaffective-disorder/](https://www.mentalmovement.co.uk/life-with-schizophrenia-bipolar-and-schizoaffective-disorder/)",15.627857142857144,21.695861309523806,8.757428571428571,47.23757142857141,54.95238095238096,9.074285714285717,41.73333333333333,9.3871,5.514956190476194,293,14,27,6,5,75,28,42,0.114,0.789,0.098,-0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,3,1,2,2,0,5,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,3,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.437748578592224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248870597135541,0.0,0.0,0.29509415373432085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113407886354245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5395661324858988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658031777545814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30637780264524056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,serialposter,2019/07/24,"A question about drug regimen. My aunt has schizophrenia and is on a drug regimen of aripiprazole, clonazepam, and thioridazine. Just wanted to check if any of these are redundant and whether this is contributing to her constant drowsiness and impaired motor functioning.",10.272480620155038,12.764888651162796,7.837209302325583,64.40294573643413,57.83720930232558,12.24496124031008,46.89147286821706,11.855464076750405,6.765021705426356,224,14,28,7,3,65,34,43,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,9,5,6,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,23,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317214115041311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682292620249242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7903227058982034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38171753407198894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20098294147229198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kittykat23317,2019/07/24,"Im so lost I’ve had a shizoaffective diagnosis for a couple of years now but I don’t thing I’ve ever been this bad. Everything is blurred. I’m having lots of trouble stringing together letters into words. I can’t focus my eyes. I can’t feel any physical pain Every time I try to focus, I’m struck with a wave of questions. Basically they all come down to the fact that nothing is real. I’m not really. My consciousness is an illusion. I tried talking to my dad but he kind of just sits and nods. He had no idea how to handle this. I don’t blame him because I don’t either but does anyone have anything I can teach him or anyone able to talk? I feel like I’m breathing through smoke. Moving through jello. I can’t bring myself back. I tried to sleep it off but it’s worse now. I’ve tried grounding exercises. I’ve tried pain. I don’t know what else to try. I also texted the crisis line and they say I’m in line but it’s been half an hour since the last text",0.22852941176470765,2.4507299901960806,2.4750000000000014,92.4575,87.33333333333334,5.3607843137254925,19.284313725490197,6.816661863887847,0.21654313725490226,754,22,167,10,24,255,121,204,0.191,0.792,0.016,-0.9890000000000001,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,2,1,8,7,0,0,8,0,17,6,3,1,3,28,28,11,0,0,9,1,2,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,8,5,0,0,6,1,0,3,9,5,0,1,5,4,21,2,19,23,3,17,0,1,1,0,12,5,0,4,9,95,29,1,0.1353579101105814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824567181196597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09204802049571252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18929079595497747,0.0,0.11138802677961852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040818777298756,0.113018201038653,0.08251292565671095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11659885415181324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497709529887614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184526192986294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11307416514972762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12243897908162228,0.11404487720695775,0.0,0.12165096167896244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13688205280409374,0.09669971802878864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13330027568427713,0.0,0.0,0.1528026046934014,0.14620977045342115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140954433943771,0.07438916748161009,0.11033476271972788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06612903768789691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477591485123975,0.11507645473134448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438640370574323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298795653741263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880607195998179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516318374368476,0.0,0.0,0.15406693532363314,0.08671374325421527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076420429886346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196946199352094,0.0,0.13545566397446096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21759112176075726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08992578091324636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07892828590495864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5513948150310684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379412743524601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08716605622780825 schizophrenia,hopemakermachine,2019/07/24,"I need help but I can't I have schizophrenia but I don't talk about it to people or they'll put me in the Bad Place again and hurt me. everyone thinks things are better now and that I can't hear the voices talking to me or that I can't see the shadow people and him anymore. I can't tell them that I'm dying. i've been self-harming and it's getting wors e and worse and the voices tell me I need to cut off my finger and I'm getting closer and closer to just doing it. . I'm starving myself and I feel like killing myself, but if I tell anyone I'll go to the Bad Place and if I go there I won't get out, when you get committed once and put in again you don't get out . I just want to be normal and go to college and not hear the voices . My family can read my thoughts so I'm scared they'll know about everything. I hate myself so much I feeel sorry for anyone who has to look at me. I can hear the voices now. I need to get help because it's getting closer to a break. I feel sick and I'm scared . I can't do this anymore. I have flashbacks all the time from the Bad Place and i can't go back. Sorry about the typing my hands are shaking really bad.",0.3515364583333316,1.9589306640625035,2.4903125000000017,96.20677083333337,82.203125,5.047916666666667,17.697916666666664,5.7366,-0.5479395833333331,894,18,215,5,24,302,112,256,0.231,0.7020000000000001,0.066,-0.9945,0,0,0,0,0,1,18.0,0,2,3,1,14,13,3,3,11,0,22,3,2,0,2,39,53,25,2,7,10,0,4,1,0,3,1,7,0,0,10,17,0,0,5,1,0,7,10,11,0,0,2,13,39,2,21,47,2,27,0,1,2,0,17,12,0,4,8,137,49,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19035832429740013,0.13421273229558814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07379710736651167,0.3205328919243912,0.05850408703825152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08488008288972314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09960454435289057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09170605887054536,0.08625410375052159,0.0,0.09047455099028336,0.0,0.09705339457411326,0.06856293938318872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35099254177720085,0.0,0.21817406263557967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475320419811004,0.0,0.0,0.3245047343552768,0.0,0.1286569993571521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10274079525974696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10617960913663904,0.0,0.05274410396201027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04688742940402425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059292407771118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07055100126372132,0.21348769558719696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403290105886948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10220782806373607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13307081745446986,0.0,0.3008132366008621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929582083247352,0.0,0.0,0.09599870423693074,0.0,0.061482590059447235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19217089592741807,0.0,0.07647784229244048,0.0,0.10012049103178468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148672336021949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15427849424712253,0.2516531955230694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0637600190716715,0.06149545187461013,0.0,0.07619162946780135,0.05596247220193119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056607204286192724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09780441375280816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,delanieb19,2019/07/24,"I went through a Schizophrenia Simulator... Excuse the grammar, spelling ect... Im still kinda shook up &#x200B; Hi, new member here. I'm currently a nursing student and today was life changing. I did a schizophrenia simulation. We started out by watching a video of a women giving a speech over the types of schizophrenia and how it effects people differently. The women who was giving the speech has had schizophrenia for over 30 years and has developed coping mechanisms for it. She used to believe that the FBI was planting receptors into her and she would self harm to find them. She explained how the simulation worked and then we began. We downloaded it and started. I will admit at the first I took it as a joke. But the voices...they were...menacing and awful. I was called a pig, i was told i smell and that everyone could smell me. I was told to slow down, to stop touching myself, and to shut up. I was told i was a piece of shit, some of it was growling or screaming...These voices got to me... I was doing what the voices told me to do. One of my tasks was to go to someone in the mall ( I went to a trampoline park) and to ask for directions. The man was so nice. As the simulation said, i had to warn the person that I suffered from a mental illness. This was our conversation... Keep in mind I had to play a character for him to take me seriously. &#x200B; **Me: H...Hello I need help.** **Him: he looked scared and asked ""Hi, how can I help you?""** **Me: M..my aunt is dying at Dallas hospital and I need help, my phone is dead and all i have is my MP3 player (i said to explain the earbud in my ear) and that can't tell me where to go...** **Him: Ok, ok, what kind of charger do you need?** **Me: (I saw he had an android so I made sure to say iphone so he didnt have one) IPhone.. but i need to know where to go. (He proceeded to look up Dallas hospitals and found one close to what i said since they were all in the same general facility.)** **Him: (explains how to get there as i talk to myself and on the verge of tears from the voices telling me that i knew i was the one and that i was chosen.. he was so so sweet and gave me details on how to get to where I was going)** **me: Im sorry i suffer from a mental illness so im shakey and im very scared.** **him: here, stay here and let me go get you a charger.** I decided to walk out while he was talking and he was yelling for me to come back, i felt bad but the voices were telling me to run. i walked down this long dark hallway because i took the back entrance to the mall and I felt as if someone was following me or watching me. I walked down the hall with my back against the wall. I was walking back to class ( yes my college is in a mall lol) and i heard voices coming from the trash cans... I walked back in and was made to fill out a paper about my condition and what i was experiencing. The voices were screaming at me to stop so i put down the pen. My DON ( the big cheese of the college that was participating) called me into her office. She evaluated me and then had me leave, i guess i looked distressed because she asked if i needed to stop, I said no because i wanted to really experience it. So I did some other tasks then the audio ended. I sighed in relief and then i broke. My whole body was shaking, i was holding my breath, and i was crying. The DON called me into her office and was extremely concerned about me. She even suspected abuse in my family because everytime my name was called i jumped and appeared scared. Im lucky to have an amazing home life. But I do have a lot of abandonment issues and im extemley depressed and have issues with being extremely lonely. ALL of that was brought to the surface and I felt so many emotions... I was overwhelmed. Schizophrenia is such a real thing and I have so much respect for people who go through this on a daily basis or have ever been through this...You are unbelievably strong. ***If you have any questions or if something didnt make sense please let me know!!!***",0.2570888661899886,2.6644418414481907,2.114078878674384,92.87541521961184,91.88389513108616,4.810355237770969,20.015900578821928,6.486788409389032,0.27487955056179736,3069,102,646,38,110,1009,322,801,0.115,0.8190000000000001,0.066,-0.9898,2,2,1,0,2,0,172.0,4,4,2,4,33,32,1,7,52,5,73,8,4,10,5,116,139,70,2,12,12,1,4,0,0,2,4,18,1,5,25,48,0,6,16,6,0,26,4,18,1,5,69,32,117,13,98,64,10,93,0,7,6,0,78,39,1,16,27,463,142,8,0.0,0.06794488291119909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12426736273751468,0.13936179574663854,0.03899681613121737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16083053174186385,0.0,0.0,0.22047523817271356,0.04788098626836414,0.13982881426259214,0.0,0.0,0.06460859139292498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0636977753369075,0.0,0.0,0.2342241259030637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060663794740259215,0.09879591222020218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045785609449294336,0.0,0.06299119310393582,0.0,0.0,0.04939148071350087,0.0,0.059515437455353475,0.05991370335216872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06450581958949797,0.05079097430481752,0.0,0.0,0.037876074177956236,0.0518721676884121,0.0,0.05479595581151327,0.0,0.05609477280432661,0.05406010855976706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16518163630953211,0.0,0.052412626693365265,0.04877794001888993,0.0,0.0628762352026506,0.0,0.0,0.08988176250886222,0.1100218031095826,0.19554416211921646,0.0,0.04586432872387923,0.0,0.06317238711029775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115312172474365,0.0,0.057522078925752874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3716570223403213,0.11970732906020763,0.0,0.050971197200095464,0.0,0.05971637536345601,0.06303102817012356,0.0,0.0,0.06072046381439961,0.0,0.11727904639519345,0.08100945747062506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05074884539092448,0.14446699686604833,0.0,0.0,0.04875298047718068,0.0,0.1085231459361865,0.038278477879250185,0.05813920159788402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155812846637022,0.0,0.05790247351390222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04215544311158447,0.2126043156757943,0.0,0.0553845129532313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554348196133943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07951211427949695,0.05007176269787481,0.0,0.06294799266078244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057647932901339426,0.06423993533287135,0.0,0.0,0.0652715823366971,0.03673691062038355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21819430453791544,0.045603337647134985,0.17223814954847866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05982372451692796,0.0,0.058864195323707465,0.04743668031270756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971770870187541,0.044147265287700896,0.0,0.06419344361111542,0.08117869207412835,0.06112253135805641,0.04579608429703714,0.14382988412605438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05404732990205336,0.0,0.04311657939194027,0.09218406785276624,0.1503671355147204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03809771383289386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05435670285824008,0.21918382324605307,0.12742562586847828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049527985185929664,0.0,0.04731593360695442,0.033823783323391615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10631945976825992,0.0,0.06402405452284414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041748110278915666,0.0,0.0,0.040736503517755526,0.0,0.13936179574663854,0.03692853631499359 schizophrenia,PeanutButterSamurai,2019/04/07,"The show Happy on Netflix reminds me of schizophrenia I've only just watched the first episode but it's about a girls imaginary friend, who few can see (only those with a certain gift or something). The girl is kidnapped and the imaginary friend finds this guy who is an ex-cop and current hitman who can see the unicorn and tells the man to go save the girl. It reminded me a lot of what schizophrenia is like. Check it out and tell me what you think.",4.9854307116104914,5.922149134831461,4.5141011235955055,89.11849250936329,68.88764044943821,7.281647940074906,30.563670411985026,7.1686216300943375,1.6154704119850187,359,14,73,3,6,108,61,89,0.0,0.752,0.248,0.9776,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,2,6,0,0,11,0,5,0,0,0,1,14,9,6,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,10,6,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,6,7,9,2,5,0,0,3,0,13,2,0,2,3,47,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22667974033826815,0.21096005820134284,0.0,0.0,0.3832290513605283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409517219109954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24557224331421476,0.0,0.26401485964463384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12116681205164828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108521105026573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772507097242619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3952691141719277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19093282026499675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43354925945991213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15891696247870102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JustCallMeGiddy,2019/04/07,"Dating a person with Schizophrenia. Hey very sorry if I posting this in the wrong place or if this is asked a lot. I've been talking to a guy on tinder and we've really hit it off and we're planning to have a date on Tuesday. He mentioned that he's schizophrenic and hears voices, and he tells me when he's hearing them. He sees a therapist I think but he doesn't take medication for it (apparently he doesn't like how he feels on it.) I don't have an issue with it and it doesn't turn me off from him. I don't think a mental illness should define a person and what does defines him is great. I do really like him. What worries me is that I'm going to be insensitive or uneducated about it and I don't want to make him uncomfortable or feel bad. ATM I just don't know what to say, when he says he's hearing voices how should I respond? He's kinda jokey? about it but I don't know if should respond in the same manner. I've read the FAQs but any advice or helpful links would be really appreciated. I've never really dated anyone before so I'm inexperienced all around. I don't wanna screw this up lol Thanks in advance x",1.4028500368459829,3.4149603940677977,3.761739130434784,86.36852247605013,80.65254237288136,6.307737656595433,20.43036109064112,7.423996415210882,0.6067190862196021,887,24,189,13,23,307,121,236,0.10400000000000001,0.774,0.12300000000000001,0.8167,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,2,9,7,1,0,11,1,22,4,0,3,2,42,42,22,0,9,11,0,2,2,0,4,3,7,0,3,15,10,0,0,7,1,1,2,10,3,0,0,1,10,18,4,22,34,3,21,0,0,1,1,32,11,1,9,9,115,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130548811419843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09085010226622983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934136773281657,0.0,0.0,0.11892907956652013,0.12489455726432852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11154737567425696,0.0,0.0,0.11368065783307095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169110701026376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351006619011718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07592588698488557,0.0,0.0,0.14729045245988906,0.0,0.13228139493232685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4517184029867548,0.0,0.08954682032320192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13943988466318913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14684212516050285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305368611809015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11357884313508708,0.0,0.0,0.08917660401361938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458427209760812,0.13463370312626294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10303774453536828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23330236737510346,0.1395797559056564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12794837815646634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13363250755912742,0.0,0.3423409824614316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124823665082264,0.0,0.0,0.10645899774883312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14955018115498744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004478323037268,0.10737968919771196,0.11676910232043886,0.12299757397651175,0.0,0.15511566449901307,0.0,0.17120629914345042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14531447052432284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023098379492648,0.07879859123937663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567358290421533,0.0,0.09490301716180614,0.14606664132585334,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,edrf14,2019/04/07,"Is this schizophrenia? I'm in my early 30s, I'm starting to hear voices say really bad things to me over and over, like ""Pedophile, rapist, fraud, thief, liar"", etc. Is this schizophrenia? It's making me feel suicidal.",3.469750000000001,6.082838475000003,3.3550000000000004,88.82000000000002,76.75,6.0,22.5,7.1686216300943375,0.8514999999999997,169,5,31,2,4,51,32,40,0.38299999999999995,0.5710000000000001,0.046,-0.965,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,8,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,3,1,5,8,1,5,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,3,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30833961629284745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4118531511146633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18672284309567425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4162138230727784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804152067464584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24650225697962624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365750124900403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936722220586618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613835753612091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4039405596263551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453381891306338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ilovemydogandket,2019/04/07,"What are the warning signs? How did your illness start? I think I might be in denial about being mentally ill. I briefly (for 2 months) had quite vivid visual hallucinations and mild auditory hallucinations, one word one was seeing patterns in my vision like black dots all aligned perfectly, which was also accompanied by vicious delusions consisting of thinking my neighbours were drilling through my walls and looking at me (which I was weirdly fine with), thinking I was going to find a dead body if I went outside and the worst one was thinking someone was going to break into my house every night. Though this was after taken mdma so I thought it might of been normal and brushed it off. Recently though, as of a month or so ago. I would hear screaming, crying or angry voices while drifting asleep. Then I’d hear weird intrusive noises that would be really loud then drift away from my ear and past walls n shit. Although overall the most worrying thing is I’m starting to hear voices, mainly whispering coming from above and behind me, like background noise in a TV show and this would happen every other day and brushed it off until out of the voices was a woman shouting “police!”, so thought that might be a bit weird. Recently I’ve been hearing people outside my house at 2 o’clock n shit and all normal until the sound jumps into my head and like explodes...:(???? **SUMMARY OR TDLR(?): am I fucked? Hearing whispering and noises jumping into my head. Also see neon stripes on things don’t know if that means anything?**",5.4901962066710235,7.576817064748205,5.3403400915631165,79.28175277959454,69.0,7.2128188358404195,30.621975147155,7.84624498591911,2.262080575539569,1216,50,200,15,22,377,171,278,0.16399999999999998,0.784,0.052000000000000005,-0.9866,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,1,0,2,9,14,4,0,10,0,27,10,7,1,3,46,53,31,1,7,5,0,0,3,1,6,2,15,0,1,14,17,0,0,9,2,0,8,1,9,0,3,17,22,20,5,32,26,6,41,0,0,5,1,8,15,3,9,20,139,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08027416872987854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14483833785367847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452148610424868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508218561882795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09886583942358904,0.10058948016344413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07800766510243612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994736682040559,0.058402393359571175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15259797624126933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08276833602431158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.083719375982117,0.0,0.0,0.1029323526215904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08008010609750055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18587718851436166,0.0,0.5103270196363799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089834575707213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04976828723032721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13272613688263124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07604587987920786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986441678221118,0.0,0.0,0.09126112552166653,0.2882030585218469,0.0,0.0,0.14456500145849285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08498251210720402,0.17745514957916406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18409325468801904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644782089930449,0.06278148804858452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631953883292196,0.0,0.0,0.05801374887223334,0.0,0.17883012356230782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14432594114054134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859128918249797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07672946673029618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12819478220228395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12032537116397513,0.2321035401006147,0.1779454743613358,0.1437858116854689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08394813737828333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09196600547920697,0.0,0.19298933239916888,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheBanisherOfRegs,2019/04/07,"Hey guys hope you’re all good. I need some opinions please So I made a joke post that people are attacking and that’s not the problem, any post that peaks at least 1k will have someone that it rubs up the wrong way. I don’t mind this but I do want to know that it isn’t insensitive to people who have schizophrenia, the post is already made and no I didn’t make it to karma whore, I thought it was a funny idea and didn’t really expect it to blow up. https://www.reddit.com/r/teenagers/comments/ba99mf/schizophrenic_ama/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app I know the true term is dissociative identity disorder but I just went with schizophrenia anyways because it was late and I didn’t think it would be a big deal. Please let me know if you find the post rude or attacking in any way so that I can know for the future.",5.270298582995952,7.7025189144736865,4.185789473684213,85.8778340080972,70.38157894736842,6.7821862348178135,22.21862348178138,7.61054688173877,0.6669275303643727,673,16,130,8,13,196,91,152,0.16399999999999998,0.7070000000000001,0.128,-0.8699,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,0,4,10,3,0,9,0,18,1,0,3,2,33,31,10,0,7,6,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,15,5,0,0,8,1,0,1,7,6,0,0,9,1,12,4,10,18,4,15,1,0,0,1,5,5,0,5,3,81,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14291329867301775,0.0,0.0,0.14031990043344364,0.0,0.1761372973952008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.294663969610045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894577008324231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13351519308056026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14842531117141172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11836630949677387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10862364599304912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12823148690999364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12862886584854832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14619672254058186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846928558621218,0.0,0.14608862079258236,0.0,0.0,0.13242885139409766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24508377255346134,0.08644638602503563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13076433166901155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09602719732730533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17956656861735126,0.0,0.0,0.2843178085722619,0.0,0.0,0.4961245165919034,0.0,0.0,0.1239199315842324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0829649801351797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10973017270581514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298233594661279,0.0,0.10281344717506427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638610498632367,0.20559196780439087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005353360827364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09199748013791967,0.14159468619714102,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwaway12332123123,2019/04/07,"Constipation I have been on quetiapine 300mg for almost a month now, and ever since starting it I have had terrible constipation. I will be on the toilet for ages, just straining and pushing. Then I start to bled and my stomach and lower back get very painful. I eventually have to manually help my self out. I am so embarrassed and disgusted about this problem, I don’t think I could tell anyone who knows me. I don’t know what to do? I am really struggling with this side effect at the moment. Can anyone give me some advice please? 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First of all, thank you for reading this. It's basically a special thanks to y'all post. I've been lurking around here for quite a while now, I've even commented a few times I think. I'm not a very active member around here (nor on most subs), and I do not have a diagnose of anything. I just wanted to thank you for - unintentionally - but helping me to find out that whatever's going on with me isn't normal. You encourage me to tell people close to me about my problems. I do experience many of the things you guys do, and I'm close to asking my family to find me a doctor who I can talk to about these more. Reaching out for help isn't by any means easy for me, but reading a few of your succesful stories made me think that maybe I matter, and maybe there's a life waiting for me that is comfortable to live. This very subreddit, this cozy corner of the world helped me a bit to gather a few shards of someone else's dropped confidence, even if it will go away. I haven't talked to many of you yet, but you are an amazing community, and you should know that the way you support each other under every post is absolutely amazing! Thank you for being the awesome people you are. I don't know you, but you always make my day a little bit brighter.",6.03876598110061,5.420477626459147,6.537379099499724,80.88888132295722,66.50972762645915,9.521845469705392,30.41939966648138,8.841846274778883,2.1536138966092278,998,31,209,14,14,326,138,257,0.037000000000000005,0.746,0.217,0.9938,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,14,0,2,12,12,0,0,16,0,17,3,0,2,1,37,36,11,0,5,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,13,12,0,1,7,2,0,2,7,1,0,1,2,0,34,11,37,31,9,25,0,0,0,0,26,13,0,2,6,146,47,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09233516486077878,0.0,0.0,0.0754627803074026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131809840643944,0.1975720176338411,0.10374111092147546,0.0,0.10425910438911813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422989912168115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07156587694078266,0.0,0.0,0.1126312812378844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11358155646895228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927004278547664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465880627269953,0.0,0.0934962367197698,0.0,0.0,0.10854905442236723,0.10461177348204928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028474591457299,0.0943902435293054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12613257192369412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10987683663010583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223140707408584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197140954653762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838074358888457,0.0,0.11122017169048996,0.0979877314870201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10500162747254237,0.07407272319319608,0.22501046150364032,0.22296671405482385,0.12087786080647367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872613832023173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386397677854372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21255540963983935,0.0,0.0,0.10618242372446082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802927699674745,0.2219982214287548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940237421426212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12592639796801502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17838548759490316,0.09699186787129603,0.40866168212484894,0.0,0.0,0.0737229264951332,0.14220901261778848,0.0,0.0,0.06470696346547926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18312222673804146,0.06545243902758091,0.08808209123692425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jetlax,2019/04/07,"Schizophrenia Portrayal in Justice League vs The Fatal Five The new DC Animated Universe film that just came out got me really psyched for two reasons. One, being that it's basically a canon continuation of the JL and JLU series I grew up with as a kid, and two being they were going to portray a superhero (Star Boy) living with schizophrenia (as compared to linking it to villainy like with Joker or the Mad Hatter). &#x200B; I wanted to ask if those who have watched it feel it is an accurate portrayal of schizophrenia, as I only know one person living with schizophrenia. &#x200B; Thank you!",6.384166666666665,8.303545935185184,6.391666666666668,73.28250000000003,66.5,8.362962962962964,33.87037037037037,8.841846274778883,3.1867370370370365,483,22,75,8,8,153,78,108,0.09300000000000001,0.821,0.086,-0.4003,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,1,0,1,4,1,0,8,0,5,0,0,1,0,17,13,7,1,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,8,8,0,0,4,1,0,3,0,2,0,5,3,2,6,2,17,8,0,8,0,0,1,0,7,3,0,2,3,54,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3707757722802585,0.41581293998705293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15995635887864562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956939876400571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0865138178682609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724065397846256,0.0,0.13684511788209264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403264715917672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08359131683277872,0.0,0.3021706747541205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16525043350260946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318849616336179,0.1301300375407642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14939881296872265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096116961557718,0.17592034772462695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15752683315535396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3342816736062371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091981600720552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41581293998705293,0.0 schizophrenia,Objection8,2019/04/07,Anti psychotic weight loss med Risperidone makes me gain weight still and I'm Going to switch my meds. Is there a anti psychotic med I can take that helps you lose weight? ,3.766363636363636,6.097911090909093,3.3606060606060595,90.5609090909091,74.45454545454545,6.824242424242425,20.090909090909093,7.793537801064563,0.6405636363636362,138,3,27,2,3,41,27,33,0.242,0.606,0.152,-0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,6,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071684174005966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12639419041892133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21096108543308803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12587163483782224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6283747600268411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15059188136536475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14178082926385646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6888807107167737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,G-O-D-C-O-M-P-L-E-X,2019/04/07,"[PROJECT] Lethe - An interactive story about psychotic disorders Hi there! I'm working on my college final year project. The idea is to create an interactive fiction story, in which the user is also the protagonist. I've always been so interested in how people with psychotic disorders perceive the world, and I thought this might be an opportunity to show people what it can be like living with hallucinations and delusions. I want people to empathize and get to know mental illness, rather than staying in ignorance, making assumptions and feeding the stigma. I've made my research in fiction, and very often people with schizophrenia are portrayed as crazy, brutal, violent, insensitive and dehumanized beings. On the other hand, I stumbled across Hellblade: Senua's Sacrifice (a videogame which I believe treats mental illness in the right way) and I was fascinated. I want to get close to that game's vibe. So I'm about to begin writing the actual story, and build the fictional world's imaginary, and wanted to ask people that suffer delusions and hallucinations your experience. My idea is to try to depict all of these experiences through video and audio, to create a compelling and ""real"" atmosphere around the text that the user will be reading. I hope I have explained myself clear enough. Any comment or suggestion would also be much appreciated! I'll leave some questions that might help: What do you hear? Are voices clear or distorted? What do you see? Are your visions kind of blurry or defined? What triggers your hallucinations? What delusions do you have? What is your perception of the world? Thank you very much!",6.607619047619046,9.382441,6.66,68.09333333333333,67.57142857142857,8.80952380952381,33.45238095238095,9.408791572840183,3.709809523809524,1320,61,188,29,24,420,159,280,0.10300000000000001,0.755,0.142,0.8814,0,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,8,0,2,11,11,2,0,17,0,24,4,1,5,3,49,42,21,0,6,4,0,1,1,0,4,2,3,0,0,16,17,1,1,8,4,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,5,20,7,31,29,5,19,1,1,1,0,20,14,0,9,4,136,36,6,0.0,0.0,0.11550614368989233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893112205195087,0.0984882906362336,0.0,0.0,0.08049154675079473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10536901257309726,0.11065431787299512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333556420890372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713106888735641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230160388174235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23156531612539696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296619246660583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12368056005191735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13340477719241206,0.0,0.07933686253107547,0.0,0.0,0.1175621123074213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672369907160581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12325784246544788,0.06504973295300379,0.0,0.0,0.12533033556896464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057826648525139676,0.0,0.10451753881665683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119988340236994,0.07900885757954172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385660497698399,0.2511308979594662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740222488215037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4102933071668991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13259471595617228,0.0,0.11839598372823945,0.13472409140978228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108216892877862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943207457183918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616022481885447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897362500432528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09396775711090856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0803613543112285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19532531420855664,0.20944237812923244,0.09395179631367448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08617036731833763,0.0,0.0,0.08408235601414915,0.0,0.0,0.0762225048638589 schizophrenia,curvykitten1991,2019/04/07,Invega Just wondering what others know about this injection. My doctor just put me on it. I’m curious about the experiences of others. ,3.96125,7.20510929166667,6.213333333333335,64.76500000000001,81.08333333333334,11.533333333333333,24.66666666666667,10.504223727775694,4.475516666666668,109,4,16,5,3,38,21,24,0.0,0.905,0.095,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,14,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4828697441131285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4614750472008037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25926878072389165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4742524343484366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5116071919819601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,secretsociety33458,2019/10/01,Expensive injections I used to not take my meds and now I'm on these expensive injections that cost me $1000 out of pocket every 3 months. I only earn $11.90 per hour. What are my options?,1.5603846153846168,3.7794147179487183,3.643269230769232,86.30798076923078,81.30769230769229,8.002564102564103,22.57051282051281,8.841846274778883,1.8034051282051289,150,5,31,4,4,51,33,39,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,16,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612266892355159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42221639795562255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4762265632397784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34221120189440674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32607134874739724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32235443567495314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3702883192471483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cmmm122,2019/10/01,"(Help) no emotion Hi I don’t know who to ask about this so hopefully someone can help me This all started when I found out my so called friends where making a fool out of me and talking at me I became the clown and I didn’t know why after that when I get them them I can’t feel emotion or laugh with them I also am scared to say something wrong just in case the poke fun of me I am starting to get scared because it is a sign of early schizophrenia and after I have learned this it has started happening with my family but only when I think about it. Did any of you experience this am I in the prodromal phase or am is it just my anxiety. Can anyone help and give me an answer I am so worried.",3.2824324324324285,3.8124807567567593,4.613081081081081,88.34948648648651,72.51351351351352,7.541621621621622,26.962162162162162,7.554174236665415,1.2659113513513516,544,18,122,6,10,181,85,148,0.10400000000000001,0.799,0.09699999999999999,-0.0167,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,3,0,12,8,0,2,6,0,15,0,0,1,1,24,30,14,0,1,5,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,10,8,0,0,7,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,3,2,24,4,18,27,1,15,0,0,0,0,15,6,0,3,9,92,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965853799998248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025671108585773,0.0,0.12403210140118265,0.0,0.0,0.11336789475984507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15157344651231994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988354095610844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16555698862783985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36475795818327583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15859820806146405,0.15284554899785538,0.0,0.0819798452350372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17777161283060547,0.12526436174020758,0.0,0.16941669438656534,0.15553375072699416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14337460141215924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260251001622415,0.0,0.0,0.16103569100806886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17820926300787535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10822573468915483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12331024801455658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12893550095454984,0.32464892909598914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13737565102161012,0.12481870975513415,0.0,0.0,0.3442779367510985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031720463744775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10388894998390688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463007581674348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16465499387570492,0.0,0.0,0.17726812706002426,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,morningspecial,2019/10/01,"Can anyone help me? Advice? Hi, Im Luke 23M and I have schizophrenia. Im a christian and the voices are of the same people that are famous for some time. They are always saying and doing evil things to me in my head. I couldnt live without a medication but now i take 40mg latuda and 1 mg cogentin. I get really horrific physical anxiety and akathesia. I live with my parents and spend most of my day alone while they work. I am on disability. Today I was going to try and kill myself because i cant take it anymore. Also the voices always bully me to stop believing in Jesus Christ so ill go to hell and i was thinking that i cant live through this life like this anymore and id give up faith so sometimes i worry about suicide. I REALLY depend on my parents for emotional support. Can anyone help, maybe give advice? Christians who reply would be REALLY appreciated.",1.6260982658959549,4.162154890173412,3.8806098265895934,82.64715751445087,83.91329479768784,6.00335260115607,22.522832369942197,7.365786028017652,1.238216416184971,688,24,125,11,20,236,109,173,0.244,0.6409999999999999,0.115,-0.9854,2,1,0,0,0,3,16.0,0,0,2,1,5,6,3,0,5,0,15,4,1,1,0,20,24,14,2,2,2,2,0,1,0,1,3,3,0,0,7,10,0,1,1,0,1,2,4,3,0,0,2,3,22,3,17,19,3,13,6,0,0,0,11,5,1,3,7,84,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24511690878934014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12989674623965147,0.0,0.10029790473249554,0.20871809213192066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09594555115305037,0.0,0.2487648257641577,0.1753924189450302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0764545447238975,0.0,0.0,0.14130479375794516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088518236443203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14108002259091776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06552649650299287,0.2406275676670961,0.14255755002603707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12871655959205755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16813205383347882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709490990710668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387580609572698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08858748065495838,0.06127361779040751,0.0,0.3322430690269946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12600071499469956,0.0,0.0,0.12634692108431922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785269577670798,0.0,0.0,0.08695006861543207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24104077181997585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09973859639985896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12404306265692835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10485629271324663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371885436207803,0.14232452810669835,0.0,0.0,0.18859966537494768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332312281917037,0.08036373206866093,0.0,0.0,0.07313310147075648,0.0,0.11888299251152876,0.0,0.0,0.08515158728324101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12089989333872347,0.0,0.09130686779517264,0.1273695596465643,0.0,0.08909439292661311,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,surprise_-_throwaway,2019/10/01,"Need advice dealing with schizophrenic partner Hello everyone. Throwaway for obvious reasons. I have a partner with a schizophrenic history, diagnosis and medical treatment. As far as I can tell, there have been voices and the feeling of a presence that has implanted a device inside her head and that wants to kill her, if she doesn't do as commanded - which is also what holds her back from talking too much about it, when she's in a state of acute psychosis. We have been together for almost three months now and so far, it seemed like with the meds and therapy, she has it under control. This evening though (it's night now and she's sleeping), she started asking weird questions like ""How will he find us tomorrow?"". They are weird because neither does anyone of us have an appointment with a man tomorrow, neither could she tell me, who she was talking about or what that person wanted. At one point she told me, that she felt weird for asking me about him, but she didn't seem to doubt that there was someone, even if she could not at all explain to me, who that person was. It doesn't seem ""really bad"" or anything yet, but it's irritating to me at least. My partner has prepared me for acute phases of psychosis only by saying that I will ""know it when I see it"" and that I should just bring her to a hospital if it gets too bad. I guess I'm most nervous about not being able to judge, when that time has come. Especially since she starts feeling weird talking about ""that man"" already, I'm afraid that she'll just hold back sharing with me, what's going on or what she feels is going on. I'm trying to be supportive. Of course I tried to gain more details by asking about who that man is or what he wants, but got no answers (again - not sure if she had none or if she doesn't want to share them). Can you please give me some non-medical advice about how to cope with this, according to your experiences? How can I figure out when I need to intervene? When should I just be there and provide comfort and an open ear? At the moment, I just hope that after sleeping for the night, tomorrow it'll be back to normal. But how can I be sure? I appreciate all of your thoughts and related experiences that can help me deal with this in a appropriate way. Thank you!",5.7795918367346975,6.160460791383223,5.897913832199546,81.86891156462585,66.93650793650794,9.073015873015873,30.619047619047624,8.94667605116694,2.3272938775510204,1783,63,352,28,27,565,208,441,0.06,0.825,0.115,0.9819,0,0,0,0,0,0,58.0,3,4,2,2,37,20,1,3,14,0,41,7,4,6,5,86,78,39,1,17,21,0,4,2,3,6,3,3,0,8,36,21,0,3,15,0,0,4,11,10,0,2,11,8,53,10,55,54,10,43,0,0,1,0,62,14,0,20,25,267,89,0,0.08908323800159525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17410221832901415,0.0,0.0,0.08920399481152902,0.0,0.09830556832980224,0.07123983324498831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06228907129916765,0.0,0.07330791449151608,0.0,0.2498424065349392,0.0,0.0,0.2054985337293256,0.14876156544398972,0.05430431504505108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07673732156941218,0.0,0.0,0.09991442632026667,0.1422514335504488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18368181349558105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795734189654323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11767727707205287,0.0,0.0,0.08512285148882019,0.0,0.17428100099746896,0.0,0.0,0.13512948535625444,0.0,0.08553387859876994,0.0,0.08142046565452718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0465423150807766,0.08545675924373093,0.10125611416066388,0.0,0.07124800333854027,0.0,0.09813522999181408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914251027044224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05971061663840406,0.0,0.0,0.08847975575590586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09855740406899197,0.0,0.048957817877735975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08704314063883975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19790279008264167,0.0897419902546417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07110539066920782,0.0,0.0654864299799083,0.1321081844171456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16719716840091195,0.08728265907922415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060365107562201335,0.06775181674465855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15556809464464513,0.0,0.09778664413145036,0.08421245415867484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979361421856008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05706900337049909,0.09159240545797773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708425663982298,0.0,0.0,0.07098780704156663,0.2432941024326588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07369057503570048,0.0,0.17829514570139204,0.0,0.07547993847271774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12610714873287762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10109060280007873,0.1679197951193729,0.0,0.0,0.21480519687780336,0.15572535303209956,0.08201587684138363,0.101874446335999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08752382903626335,0.07072214027902106,0.051945152467153324,0.0,0.0,0.08512285148882019,0.0,0.12096334205152688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21431233357225005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21017440736180376,0.07071012784224849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,stolenkar,2019/10/01,"Tip: for those who cannot endure the side effects for medication used to treat schizophrenia or for those who simply dont see any effects. I have tried a wide array of antipsychotics, my issue with them was, that i got extremely sleepy and tired because of them and those that didnt make me tired didnt show any effects. So they tried Concerta on me which surprisingly works very well for me! There arent a lot of studies im treating schizophrenia with Methylphenidate and all of the existing studies show mixed results. I recommend trying Concerta but consulting your psychiatrist first! Example: this study where 8 schizophrenic patients were treated with concerta one suffered from pressor effect and had to leave the study 1 persons condition worsened but 3 saw some improvement![the study](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/1527231/) Personally, concerta works rather well for me it doesent completely lift all the symptoms but it certainly makes a difference. Notes: I take 54mg of Concerta (Caution: combining concerta with antidepressants can cause serotonin syndrome)",7.7246524064171105,11.275120636363635,5.946510695187168,70.86881016042783,67.06818181818181,9.822994652406418,37.62566844919786,10.056822442137396,4.8565799465240636,896,48,123,25,17,261,118,176,0.083,0.841,0.075,-0.5273,1,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,3,7,6,8,0,0,7,0,10,5,0,9,3,27,17,9,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,11,8,0,0,4,2,0,0,5,1,2,2,7,2,13,7,18,10,4,5,0,1,2,0,9,4,0,3,1,79,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232801967458974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000754941577922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16864610380607445,0.0,0.0,0.17212737735735995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17152097016375012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19240406768296325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964150313746826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313004157394347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17732997481750828,0.1713490910036933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17383056428712168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395700489530449,0.0,0.0,0.21916727876588465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16538232761036373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111244713503225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28669091827847043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082090922183914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17063376052754495,0.12343415802522335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37737470527284817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3343785725151451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14178873269463818,0.0,0.13545607068828674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952141006254973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390330083738229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,greatolthrowaway19,2019/10/01,"Don't know how I can help or even have a relationship with my mother My mother has lived in assisted living due to her schizophrenia for the past decade. I've had limited contact with her until I was an adult and had more say. For over 20 years, she's believed that she's pregnant, and doctors are conspiring to cover it. Recently, she's started also thinking that she can die any day if she doesn't give birth. For the last 3 months, she's been trying to get an ER to help her, and instead gets sent to the psychiatric ward for a few days. As of this week, she's switched to her more common plan in response to her pregnancy, which is it's own complicated situation, but thankfully has no way of being implemented. That's the main situation, but there are many branching delusions. I am the only child of hers who regularly talks to her. I am the only family in this country who can be relied upon for her treatment. But I have zero idea how to help her now. I'm currently rebuilding my life after my own trauma, a lot of which she indirectly caused. I had a few opportunities to get away from my abusive father when I was younger, but she either intervened or chastised me for ""even thinking about it"". Mostly bc it'd mess up her own plans involving her own personal revenge on him. Even besides that, she's hurt me so much. I can't share much of my own life without her ridiculing my choices or being extremely invasive. It took years for her to stop seeing me as fucked up for being gay, and I doubt she's fully stopped. I had to beg her to stop telling me her bizarre assumptions + questions about my sex life. I've had rose colored glasses on for so long. First thinking I can significantly help her, then just telling myself she's a good person, I can enjoy being around her, that I can be *comfortable* around her. But I don't know anymore. All I feel about her is either anger, guilt, or dread- all feelings that my friends would usually say should result in cutting a parent off, but I can't in this situation without being a heartless monster.",6.019328358208956,6.244725124378114,6.587773631840798,77.66509328358211,66.41293532338307,9.585572139303483,32.91915422885572,9.408791572840183,2.8807243781094534,1628,65,312,29,24,533,207,402,0.161,0.754,0.085,-0.9874,2,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,0,0,0,5,18,18,5,3,15,0,39,7,0,4,2,49,57,25,1,3,16,4,2,0,1,2,4,2,0,4,18,8,0,4,9,0,0,2,8,11,1,2,10,6,62,7,54,37,18,43,0,1,2,3,59,15,1,10,25,237,80,1,0.0,0.11807380605206072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07969334311632507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677682013308215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09883008357836996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774265434404269,0.0,0.0,0.09362830189970882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227603849719307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10237220571240536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285372931446047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10342521641241492,0.0,0.0,0.1020001881046644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974617680486579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394501101108213,0.0,0.1007762085816505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08476572160609555,0.0,0.0,0.07699250596525448,0.09212860427006106,0.15619545342302055,0.09559728772244057,0.0,0.0835851261465467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671841548582763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066817689208632,0.1124973423976965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953456796956902,0.08123138741617172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21116590153530168,0.0,0.0,0.17599278182734682,0.08819073742294105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08472234721260696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010336101757964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07954294722356281,0.0,0.1465144511471515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15158285842748787,0.0,0.0,0.11065407832635682,0.0,0.09513110899611063,0.0,0.1740282224108212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163539239891987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09839639564894287,0.10699120265187413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15849787103796573,0.0,0.0,0.07941141080698742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360461316230166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07053568078149355,0.0,0.0,0.2499458548627648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0800981860765226,0.17420414150072452,0.09174810097644998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915629590948344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107193653900406,0.06765858848559203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10975490572124227,0.0,0.0,0.07910078144838932,0.07993650331352449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19212598126087024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07079140929392576,0.0,0.0,0.12834793873562902 schizophrenia,freyafyre,2019/10/01,"Help for my friend. One of my best friends has schizophrenia. The past several years when he has had symptoms he would check with me to make sure they're not real. Up until now hes been able to see real from fake. This past week he has been going downhill. It culminated to yesterday morning when I drove him to the hospital to be admitted. He left and came home late last night ama (against medical advice). Around 330-400am he still hadnt slept and was taking things apart in the house looking for cameras. I tried talking to him like I normally do, to help him and let him know what sounds were real. He had a glazed over look in his eyes and said he would stop after he was done demolishing the house looking for cameras. He has been downstairs with his significant other since then and haven't heard anything. What (if anything) can I do to help him? I dont want to fall back asleep in case he does something serious, but I dont know how long it's going to last. He has medication to take as needed, and he gets shots every couple of months or so to help him. I guess he just got a shot recently and isn't able to get another one for awhile. I'm really scared for him, and am sad he is going through this. I cant imagine what it all feels like and I know he is inside, behind all the voices. My heart is breaking because I cant fix him (that's my prob though, not his). I guess I just want to know how to decide to call for help for him. Of course I know to call if he is showing signs of hurting himself or others. I just dont know if I should monitor him and let him safely check things, or call his dr. I'm also afraid if I call his dr and he finds out that he wont trust me anymore. I do want to reiterate that if it becomes unsafe, the first thing I'll do is call 911. I also used to be a first responder, so I can take care of him while we wait for someone to come if we need.",3.3755303030303025,3.9937529671717193,4.433030303030304,89.4028787878788,72.35858585858584,7.583838383838383,25.02020202020202,7.662118739084242,0.992771717171718,1469,41,334,17,27,480,196,396,0.061,0.843,0.096,0.9105,0,0,1,0,0,0,40.0,2,0,0,3,16,15,0,2,9,0,43,9,4,4,3,70,83,34,0,15,15,0,1,2,2,4,5,4,1,0,17,19,0,3,11,1,2,7,11,6,0,4,16,10,46,9,49,59,3,41,0,2,5,0,56,9,0,11,26,210,63,0,0.14853530154380545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07257348879281443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878362698025488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07787610735010075,0.0,0.0,0.07365355325265373,0.0,0.0,0.12223189714264605,0.06611395484331989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05710723917509721,0.0,0.0452728705831395,0.08202278536458428,0.0,0.0,0.07793931753517884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3791778752963087,0.08494240735514008,0.07572081964141261,0.0,0.0,0.06397500503277896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08217574298581652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06499212167135883,0.07600159191725525,0.261123400764207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06257369891284065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03755195572349812,0.0530568245508256,0.0,0.0,0.06787928733358166,0.12634405161386694,0.0,0.0,0.11475800551499768,0.0,0.07760356448814938,0.0,0.12662405229706794,0.0,0.05939862480130451,0.0,0.1636283806684685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800752374950141,0.24890020408758295,0.0,0.07449650913832957,0.0,0.0,0.17138979525022233,0.07950505619141046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24489335158425654,0.12107609550081147,0.08377714494187745,0.0,0.0806920198678857,0.15188740940311474,0.0,0.07256684552641883,0.0,0.0,0.0657245338664574,0.18709836558776174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04957423358800457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14963368959911127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05927973029141434,0.0,0.0,0.11013704401075984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06969515922079289,0.07276652924114392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065136444990093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14179375244325995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535985375091523,0.0475777588163653,0.0,0.07333034542110556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07064554300497901,0.0,0.07435487451910493,0.0,0.059181702200046635,0.0,0.0,0.08390130592591488,0.0,0.06143496817924483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06292673949139704,0.05717486595334183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05931024184187698,0.06209108153057628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06999638193097404,0.07719252572760303,0.16752009197187495,0.05969352448184409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480203813755587,0.0,0.07296758980593547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05042285981748968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06414340493098526,0.0,0.0,0.13141495390124805,0.0,0.059573029693583864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551521653072277,0.0,0.0,0.04782593213652783 schizophrenia,ThawneInHisSide,2019/10/01,"Is it normal to hear singing/Full songs? I was having a pretty bad episode, I usually just have auditory hallucination which I can deal with but I have this huge recurring paranoia about people coming to try and humiliate me. It's usually stuff like ""Heh, If i see him I'm going to beat the shit out of him"" ""He's a piece of shit"" etc etc etc. This time I heard like, full songs. I even remember the lyrics and some of the songs were really good even though they were all mocking me. Keep in mind I hadn't slept for like 3.5 days at this point. I went to hospital and I thought, and I could hear clearly the words of patients plotting against me etc etc. Trying to get me kicked out of college, trying to call me this and that. It was all really really vivid and really still affects me to this day as I am very....""new"" to it getting this bad and as years have been going on it's getting worse and worse. Is this normal/A thing others have experienced? It really is starting to affect my life and I am starting to become agoraphobic because the memories to me are so real yet everybody says they are not. It seems like it happened. It seems like I heard everything I heard but then I'm told it's not. I just really need some help with this so I can live my life.",2.3128736413043463,4.233513765625002,3.8235258152173937,87.4743274456522,77.359375,7.420923913043477,22.849184782608692,8.321376580360154,1.2596415081521741,988,30,210,19,23,327,131,256,0.094,0.745,0.161,0.963,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,2,1,10,12,3,0,7,1,21,5,3,2,3,39,46,18,0,4,7,0,0,5,0,0,2,9,0,0,23,14,0,1,4,3,0,4,3,5,0,0,13,12,30,7,28,32,11,24,0,0,2,0,15,8,2,5,17,144,53,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15241240275781995,0.055637026347710165,0.1007999672135102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09319634106075957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862057330928769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07287125111402296,0.0,0.0,0.1177225248963548,0.09409482366705743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5089479670133249,0.1205652582037542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08202712128177017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305360494563035,0.0,0.10374109473160573,0.07655250747097925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08070929752591018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20573466879874253,0.0,0.06117600688624584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08112450517588964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12893266222633332,0.22294828252105492,0.0,0.08059262076158874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09215615426562077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06767516109048798,0.0,0.08814863009986597,0.0,0.0,0.17884941919846772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06327476379543326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08627915713409806,0.0,0.0,0.09285387058089743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038846468197528,0.3508173862273635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10339052607944192,0.0,0.0,0.0725811517918578,0.0,0.0,0.0727299568636718,0.16617660893747496,0.0,0.0,0.1873736141400164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12920201186342242,0.0,0.0728879226243387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448171569951094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0606353853313136,0.0,0.08967179823745597,0.07245777023070908,0.05321996629647598,0.0,0.0,0.08721189701309591,0.0,0.18589795239783274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010408700100801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08460772002675111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18602278987208215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058774551118805474 schizophrenia,imsorryclank,2019/10/01,"Limited awareness? When I was really sick, I would have severe delusions, but not voices. It was like being stuck in a sticky spiderweb and being unable to get out, or at least it was extremely difficult. However even during the worst delusional episodes I felt I was partially aware that what I believed can't be real, but it felt like that part of me was forced out of my consciousness, almost muffled, so that it couldn't really influence my thinking. It always felt like my awareness and cognition were narrowed into a small shell and that any sane, rational thoughts were just bouncing off this shell, unable to reach a point where they could be debated, analyzed, taken seriously. During my illness I was aware that something was seriously wrong with me, and I tried my best, even though the cognitive decline got worse with time regardless of whether I managed to break out of a delusional spell or not. I am wondering if anyone of you was at least somewhat aware that they were slowly going insane? For me the delusions seemed to precede the cognitive decline up until recently, so I guess I was more able to analyze my own behavior, but I know that most schizophrenics have no awareness that they're not thinking properly.",13.52421945701357,9.520978588235296,11.842573529411766,59.36033088235296,54.972850678733046,15.755882352941176,48.43947963800904,13.427899808715575,6.382180542986427,992,46,158,26,8,312,128,221,0.182,0.75,0.068,-0.9793,2,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,2,2,8,9,0,0,8,0,23,3,0,1,0,42,38,16,0,5,11,0,3,3,0,1,3,1,0,0,15,10,0,1,10,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,19,4,24,4,23,12,9,20,0,0,0,0,3,13,0,9,8,125,39,1,0.16174223582511754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16196148556129633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458249710686265,0.0,0.0,0.10999026673867757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130939319832214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18222811259787344,0.16973849779550054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291380142208443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213658442670268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4658937328853544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08450364255402447,0.0,0.0919218399707016,0.0,0.12936004142378146,0.0,0.17817730774227025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888930288459124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370572595247489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17515107973278313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15289869256549002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18409807425077995,0.20723243583243794,0.0,0.15970094514858338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14724405688164266,0.0,0.1827226883853268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12451707514886802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072757877029895,0.15891092548799218,0.12840526846208294,0.09431319840623156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098123610860556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17540255529048746,0.0,0.0,0.16482915633157902,0.11489704371871075,0.1768397441532134,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KR_VOTAW,2019/10/01,"Shadow figure Has anyone else seen a very vivid shadow figure that has smoke coming out of his head? No face visible, but you can tell he has one? Grows in size and walks across the room and just stands over you and stares into your soul? Please let me know if you have. Gave me demwntoe vibes",3.128793103448277,5.066595672413797,2.7684827586206917,95.8747931034483,75.0344827586207,5.329655172413793,15.048275862068966,5.6839178017228535,-0.9172041379310344,231,2,49,1,5,68,49,58,0.027000000000000003,0.915,0.057999999999999996,0.4386,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,6,2,2,0,0,12,10,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,3,7,0,6,7,0,10,1,0,3,0,8,6,0,1,0,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399947390744897,0.3516801980492781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956626753812652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867250319728085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35225350468019384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18863050101985773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35097643054381283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325818628602287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3767640077756467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999985767063518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832011002077437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Paint_the_world,2019/10/01,"Does anyone see Naruto!??? Anyone know The caracter JUGO” from there??? I can relate exactly my schizophrenia experience to him!! Please reply!!! Is it the same for anyone else??? I exactly can hear the crickets 🦗 (insect) buzz, the rhythmic buzz!! when i go into a trance and having those schizophrenia episodes!!!",3.55846153846154,6.78508061538462,3.9642307692307694,78.21826923076924,89.0,5.676923076923077,23.80769230769231,7.1686216300943375,1.806992307692308,240,9,34,4,8,75,41,52,0.0,0.912,0.08800000000000001,0.6628,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,4,0,0,0,2,6,8,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,4,8,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6157420578219932,0.30076254959752463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568755273894071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452118490830982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871347518787307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668234004241741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308366575747261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613198318622459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32221462625344344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23391036595654466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thisguy4675,2019/10/01,"An update, one year later... Roughly one year ago I wrote a short story of what I thought at the time should have been my death, but I didn't die, and thought that I would suffer for the rest of my life. If you'd like to read, it's [here](https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/74ekc5/trigger_warning_theres_lots_of_unpleasantness_here/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf). Today, I no longer have hepatitis c. I wasn't cured. It just went away. Turns out that in some cases, very few, your body will just rid itself of the virus. I was absolutely in shock when I found out. I had noticed that I didn't have random pains and aches anymore, but I just put it off to a slight remission. No. It is completely gone. I am a new man. I have hopes and dreams again and I feel free. I can tell you this, I'm not shooting up anymore. I love you all, I hope you're all doing well.",3.2328383458646637,6.122375178571431,2.6786591478696766,91.60669172932332,79.95238095238095,5.441604010025063,18.961152882205514,6.8360192770164,0.03441190476190492,722,17,144,8,19,211,112,168,0.113,0.684,0.203,0.9542,0,0,0,1,0,0,50.0,0,4,0,0,6,9,0,0,7,0,18,4,1,0,2,26,30,8,2,5,7,0,2,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,10,6,0,0,4,2,1,3,6,3,1,2,12,2,23,7,14,14,5,22,0,1,0,1,8,9,0,5,11,94,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436250157497529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3511071333447342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213696956563896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522274281113699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17997278453731022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16987969135633094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16815593551176786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08192449684515389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17765159098244362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32185393671149026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11444275375185364,0.0791570264830679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14623351092421144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15648435072834194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844660602554697,0.0,0.0,0.2195840996951466,0.0,0.1724055786030866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16287945618506716,0.0,0.0,0.16206842793925325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14161662600380304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.257258839233921,0.09447783660679883,0.0,0.153580358496388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176236218453669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336872485606577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456795573959633,0.15019841057077996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11509761418867688,0.0,0.0,0.2086770369716728 schizophrenia,foundit111,2019/10/01,"Diagnosed with schizophrenia but think I have health anxiety? I was diagnosed with schizophrenia earlier this year while hospitalized. I didn't develop a good relationship with the doctors that diagnosed me and stopped taking the Haloperidol they gave me. I believe I have health anxiety and my current psychiatrist kind of sort of agrees with me. This second relationship is also very poor. I'm uncomfortable with it and wish I could see someone else but the trauma of all these awful past experiences makes it hard to motivate myself to make the change. **I believe I have suffered from health anxiety since I was at least 19. That year I thought I had skin cancer (I'm olive to brown skinned and no one in my family has ever had this type of cancer). I wasn't able to sleep for days thinking about it and even feel like I experienced mild hallucinations, that I got bigger, inflated like a balloon in the middle of a sleepless night. I think I even was experiencing panic attacks then, but it's been hard to get a doctor to help me figure out if I did or didn't. Like I said I don't feel listened to in my relationship with my psychiatrist.** **A funny thing that happens to me when my anxiety gets really bad is that I switch from one disease to another within days or hours and don't realize how unreasonable I'm being. I'll worry I have skin cancer one day, the next it's Lyme disease, the next leukemia. Or sometimes the degree of severity changes, one day I'll forecast one round of chemotherapy (don't know how any of this actually works), the next I'm convinced that it's terminal. Does anyone here experience the same?** **I usually read tons of info on it online, see a doctor once because I live in a rural area (if I didn't I might have fallen into the habit of multiple visits with different doctors), find and stalk real people who have the disease online, join groups about it, read books, sometimes even prescribe myself ""fixes"", like juicing or dieting, exercise, etc.** **Another really important aspect is that I seem to develop a lot of rituals or** [compulsions](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M3LaY8pjD4E) **that help me calm down. Excercise, eating habits, cleanliness related. The more I do them and time passes, because they calm me down, I start to think it's the ""illness"" that's getting better.** **Since that year I was 19, it really hasn't gone away, it just morphs into a preoccupation with a different illness.** By the way everything bolded, which I think is extremely relevant, is stuff I didn't get to tell the unethical megalomaniacs that diagnosed me with schizophrenia. I mentioned the word hypochondria once and was kicked out of the room. Subsequently, I only talked to them about the weather and the food there. They cited they were still able to give me a serious diagnosis taking into account their ""observations"" of me, as if nothing I said mattered and I don't have the ability to have insight into myself and help them, cooperate to find my real diagnosis. I feel as if I was treated like an animal and think their diagnosis is complete trash.",4.3017519780397215,7.042273200710483,5.358132084611661,74.87954916841596,74.54174067495559,8.64161472630389,29.064072339738413,9.291552404389314,3.0851523268206043,2464,106,412,64,55,809,263,563,0.138,0.7709999999999999,0.091,-0.9824,3,0,0,0,0,0,99.0,0,0,9,3,15,19,1,1,33,1,40,24,4,5,2,77,76,33,0,6,13,0,9,5,0,1,17,3,1,0,31,28,3,1,19,4,2,4,11,6,0,6,22,17,65,13,63,51,7,48,1,1,4,0,26,20,0,13,28,285,96,10,0.1281442450640909,0.0,0.06252514907648593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051238453240256464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0435712404484921,0.13437041405225386,0.1960599934556135,0.0,0.0,0.04480071782545799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07289128913213505,0.0601978682441559,0.0,0.05349754601991186,0.07811554239918861,0.0,0.0,0.14437468234059309,0.0,0.056666585613784924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13555961995727633,0.0,0.06717840145170573,0.0,0.0,0.05115637624577737,0.0,0.0,0.1652848739148909,0.0,0.0,0.2601274226497692,0.0,0.13388346197971926,0.0,0.2623221295193778,0.05606994620220734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06556177697320814,0.05352403682033306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0714573533239281,0.12695709796151014,0.05795690302847685,0.0,0.0,0.057583892337492074,0.1253496606254636,0.06040149485033526,0.0,0.09719037091223752,0.045773137139108695,0.0,0.0,0.11712151845983965,0.0,0.07747626489291956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339001581746359,0.06146381824780309,0.0,0.053740656498616014,0.05124432948866079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05665876635365364,0.0,0.11479207348257076,0.0,0.0,0.2043170103121198,0.0,0.0,0.12883857945255558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06309813434782617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06672125593326811,0.035212362912848905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15651201330619385,0.0,0.056576858051497175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05447182733596073,0.0,0.0,0.08553727863665114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797039677293566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044242875856373,0.06012734663171105,0.0,0.061478929604198235,0.0,0.0,0.13646943881752382,0.21708464213639195,0.04872973638603837,0.0,0.07517483068135238,0.0,0.0,0.06116409086861919,0.04441954233113177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12817892271669998,0.1458562052284651,0.12313872706347473,0.0,0.0,0.20636844383080705,0.0,0.0,0.12189452179280058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10211437242474296,0.058328853972544135,0.0,0.07238326105661094,0.0,0.10600224372310628,0.0,0.06411839465267258,0.0,0.054288101499505664,0.0,0.12673793500824782,0.0,0.04535057810558662,0.0,0.05116807981942623,0.053567163396521456,0.0,0.0,0.07334725117818075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634852454012804,0.0514987450823925,0.056001859186124575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04256667119606318,0.246328973997708,0.0,0.05086610836490699,0.0373609699027962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07056639092775903,0.052866211264441035,0.0,0.05085746855411804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07367977885618468,0.0,0.0,0.04664526829862547,0.0650683505661321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12378103867075076 schizophrenia,paradox_schrodinger,2019/10/01,"an interesting episode I had a few days ago I had an episode in which, I believed that Charles Manson was actually a dimension hopping Demigod who killed people that would turn to be awful people in the future. I believed that, despite being dead, I must break him out of prison in a complex and absolutely nonsensical plot. I took notes, as I usually do, and some of the highlights of theses are: checking every streetlamp for eggs, digging a hole until it is ""big enough"", and listening to his record backwards. As is usual for me, I knew this was out of the ordinary, and I was most likely having a delusion, and thus wasn't public about my thoughts. I thought it was interesting and wanted to post it, I guess.",7.930458422174838,7.3577419179104515,7.902579957356077,72.50052238805971,62.65671641791045,10.343710021321963,38.54584221748401,9.606745405546679,3.701581236673773,563,26,100,9,7,182,88,134,0.083,0.85,0.068,-0.4512,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,10,1,16,1,0,1,1,19,24,9,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,10,8,1,0,4,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,11,1,15,3,18,9,4,16,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,3,7,79,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.1945187546037598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766953155449537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4491566005040857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285523037675379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059626865995067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679453552126072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21958608002786933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22053073110480276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973832845135824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763826774327574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909044418617534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164938331799236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22146459046025047,0.0,0.2168153929701067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4390708917257715,0.0,0.11757086175527574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14159935267108642,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hhhhdjejsjisjb,2019/10/01,"Should I see a doctor? I haven’t been diagnosed with schizophrenia, but recently I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression and lately I’ve been seeing like bugs and spiders on the walls in the corners of my eyes or thinking there’s bugs flying around when there definitely isn’t, I always am looking for cameras and wondering if there’s a camera in a room and in general I’m a little paranoid I’d say? Also a lot of times I feel like I might see someone in the corner of my eye when passing by a room but I’ve gotten used to that mostly I was wondering if it would be worth it to see someone thank you",4.704193548387097,5.240725387096777,6.061451612903228,79.21217741935486,69.3225806451613,9.103225806451613,30.822580645161292,9.188382445141503,2.629503225806451,484,19,94,9,8,164,76,124,0.076,0.7909999999999999,0.133,0.7814,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,7,4,0,0,9,0,11,5,2,1,0,24,24,13,0,4,5,0,1,2,0,3,3,1,2,0,3,8,0,0,4,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,5,9,10,3,15,15,2,18,0,1,7,0,2,12,0,8,7,66,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082982941542826,0.13612723247989128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12515256548979456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14563753699099766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090732934487593,0.33209849419113696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16745021212871164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08272042345259649,0.1168749512331809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845464709286808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598521321968937,0.163968886512443,0.0,0.0,0.1373817131537903,0.0,0.0,0.13908577304030134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17355237819933922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615339895962669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13010026069767056,0.0,0.0,0.5214679632325983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772333124563395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506197121435549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10482744764979787,0.0,0.0,0.09539572352542217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14129675846049894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3548316450487026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11621582982763383,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizbot,2019/10/01,"Thinking of building a web app for psychosis? Hi all, I was thinking about building a style of a website where people can come, create a profile and just share their story of psychosis/schizophrenia (anonymously with as much/little detail as you want). Then you can scroll through and click and read people's experiences. Is this something that anyone would be interested in?",7.098307692307693,9.422862215384619,5.818461538461538,76.50153846153849,65.30769230769229,7.046153846153848,34.53846153846154,7.554174236665415,2.7213692307692314,304,14,45,3,5,90,51,65,0.0,0.88,0.12,0.7476,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,1,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,6,0,0,0,1,11,10,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,2,10,7,1,4,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,1,33,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240080402563476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759677847294357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133803785567057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3210918758618464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355065910796427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4442042498268377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204536743340033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466341517481987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4105564479164628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18896074432958376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275795097343928,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xo_bridgey,2019/10/01,Does anyone else have a “reading minds” delusion? My main problem with my schizophrenia is this delusion that I can read minds. It’s very frustrating and makes me very upset. Anyone else have this delusion and want to share? I read that it’s kind of a common delusion,3.7288,6.406230280000003,3.1780000000000013,90.089,76.2,4.800000000000002,26.0,5.6839178017228535,0.774,214,8,38,1,5,63,33,50,0.177,0.755,0.068,-0.7681,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,8,6,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,2,3,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,23,11,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628220990830925,0.3851306416703604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644663486615636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139971944942125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19570914696233999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254504850163648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3795288521597055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798318730864526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5639684221890285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101380801357413,0.1108510645693163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Halo75100,2019/07/30,"im scared of how worse my mental health will get.. around the ages of 7 or 8, i recall having vivid hallucinations on a daily basis. there were visual, auditory, and even tactile(e.g. feeling my foot sinking into the floor) as i got older these hallucinations ceased and i thought they went away forever, and after studying some psychology, i learned its common for small children, especially those with traumatic experiences to have hallucinations. So all is good, right? Well wrong. i believe my drug use have caused dormant schizophrenia to re-manifest in my body. 14-16 i smoked pot on a daily basis. 17-18 i took it a step further and began abusing adderall and OTC cough mediciation on a daily basis, i believe its these things that may have caused what i'm going thru today. i remember while high i would have very similar experiences to that of my hallucinations as a small child. as i did more and more it started too slowly carry over to my sober mind. I'm currently 19, i havent done any drugs for several months, but i believe the damage ive done is irreversible. the past few months my illness has gotten progressively worse, it started with hearing my name called, having paranoid delusions (e.g. theres a wiretap in my room, DHS is watching my laptop, which i currently believe) but now im having visual hallunciations that are getting more and more bizare. This morning i woke up to a goat-human-hybrid wearing a red fur coat sitting on my desk chair. i can tell the goat man wasnt real, but what scares me is the stuff i think is real. i recently spent 2 weeks ion a psych ward (i was walking down a city street and continuously jumped to the side bcuz kept seeing a huge 18-wheeler speeding down the street that wasnt really there, leading to an involuntary admission) that is an example of what i cant tell is real. im scared of how bad it'll get, im only 19 and they told me it'll peak at 23.. i dont even wanna know what kinda shit ill see at 23...just needed to put this out there thx have a wonderful day.",3.7020716112531993,5.8225022378516655,4.950242966751919,80.05457161125322,73.93606138107417,7.464450127877238,26.58951406649616,8.313332769828598,1.8983626598465475,1609,59,298,28,34,532,228,391,0.124,0.8340000000000001,0.043,-0.9842,2,0,3,0,0,0,55.0,0,0,2,2,13,9,1,3,22,0,34,10,4,6,1,44,61,20,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,5,6,1,1,3,24,14,0,1,7,0,1,8,5,7,1,0,17,7,37,2,39,39,7,56,0,1,5,0,11,27,1,5,20,186,61,5,0.0,0.10270333781830608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05894635488881887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07716486339426548,0.0,0.0,0.08144007075642429,0.0,0.07237538571109876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39064121997029866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096283544225855,0.0,0.0,0.08851144669444569,0.0,0.0,0.1780914425990555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0559023609108541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17741042634463647,0.10159000772110048,0.0,0.20104591283199816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11450455353978355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695821717345046,0.0,0.0,0.04382874297050192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358624317701326,0.0,0.04926306264734984,0.0727042833143659,0.06932706989715053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09213832240189283,0.09769628809089924,0.0,0.0,0.09158370555943253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.374523339923928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047637855139524905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735450865228753,0.0,0.08752354913299347,0.0,0.13837660448013794,0.0,0.0,0.0642731929732471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06592514477630428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08274724725947907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713879358702124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2959873834541373,0.05553035313604578,0.0,0.08558746940012536,0.0,0.0981931794063143,0.07402548022905889,0.0,0.0,0.2603497437974339,0.0,0.13814777762211333,0.0,0.0,0.09792535971742508,0.08897725742841801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12270714553491775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09922951592758722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515268067670175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05758730026805192,0.055541969776419495,0.0,0.06881538474984343,0.0,0.0,0.08216387426313387,0.08282783514605517,0.0963062745827642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07486493722652621,0.0,0.07152126996487339,0.0,0.0,0.06953062646429163,0.0,0.07793702888688353,0.08035456774213978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09400232928904216,0.0,0.0,0.17667159528269874,0.061576011364809724,0.09477255239383538,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,naturlbornkillr,2019/07/30,"does anyones schizophrenia come in phases of intensity? i was diagnosed schizo-affective a few months ago and i’ve noticed that it gets really bad every few weeks, consistent psychosis, acting on delusions, non stop hallucinations, and in between those few weeks it’s mostly only auditory hallucinations, mania episodes, and i have delusions but i’m able to keep them down to just in my head and not act on them. does anyone else experience it like this?",10.294875,9.8406447375,9.762500000000003,60.69250000000002,57.875,12.5,40.0,11.698219412168324,4.910000000000002,369,16,57,9,4,119,61,80,0.055999999999999994,0.902,0.042,0.1565,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,11,6,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,5,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,10,5,4,14,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,6,35,11,0,0.21699047680040345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923489652273723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034495733174556,0.2223323862302014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18117798443006586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18691808211365696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22024076633875608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797796570421039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18126769975690465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828238354268643,0.0,0.0,0.21225832351881488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133685681765572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226948309512864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928711058903637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10601058635232916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731997283721778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24704509604045596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16503103557207646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13900965579704985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18141375479550914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34811334365098484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,taqciturnium,2019/07/30,"Invitation: Mental Health Sub For Over 30's: /r/MadOver30 /r/MadOver30 is a sub for general discussion of mental health issues for people any age over 30 years. It was started about 12 months ago because some people in the community at /r/mentalillness expressed an interest in being able to discuss their mental health issues with older people. Its a relatively small, and close-knit community of 3.5k members. The sub supports all approaches to mental health, but tends to feature posts relating to more progressive thinking. All are welcome.",9.01873188405797,10.710174423913042,8.09,64.37166666666668,60.19565217391305,10.915942028985507,39.2463768115942,10.864195022040775,4.9356898550724635,445,22,61,11,6,138,65,92,0.0,0.914,0.086,0.775,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,5,0,4,4,0,0,2,8,8,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,16,6,4,14,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,1,6,34,3,0,0.141706827749499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256145526992037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09636550220383908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863831669208721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6025109255508404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958102231615958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5712286102796181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131090379476533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29472501542372365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13571596959883386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030082204213507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16080722882824766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080001335095894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912545510298298 schizophrenia,szsa,2019/07/30,end my life. i can't take it anymore. my friends have left me. my family is on the verge of abandoning me. constant mini-hallucinations. i don't know what i did to deserve this. nobody believes me.,-0.045824175824176194,2.1065317435897453,2.618754578754583,86.21076923076927,103.35897435897436,5.305494505494505,23.52014652014652,6.868970318607317,1.357568498168498,154,7,30,3,7,53,32,39,0.071,0.845,0.084,0.128,0,0,0,0,0,2,8.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,9,1,3,6,0,5,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,21,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34553837349985395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3925492959293413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765175406033011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085961289833151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32845875595616475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691879265873087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914821635671348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3785586447394176,0.0,0.2460988918665242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619679909170892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hotdog_flavoredwater,2019/07/30,"i need help i think i'm a god? No one believes in my existence until i prove it, and that is something i will never ever in my life do. That must mean I am some sort of god. I probably have to die to prove to everybody that I'm a real living breathing human being? But I don't wanna die I'm too young for that. Why has the world been upside down lately? why am i the only one to realize it?",-0.3552873563218384,1.4137911724137917,2.9639080459770137,91.03022988505751,85.55172413793103,5.705747126436782,17.712643678160926,6.937597516519254,0.08103678160919525,300,7,69,4,9,109,57,87,0.129,0.79,0.081,-0.7236,0,0,1,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,11,2,1,0,5,15,17,3,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,10,0,11,13,1,9,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,5,51,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246675145543226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4544590395752146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19804756980946764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14675368664738925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246978601766975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546467681860997,0.0,0.0,0.1933317458154855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384944268584526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623443550827436,0.16886326973777793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29672452164634083,0.1665169352470233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23605888588230606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492064402831812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685539470122475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402906071140925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39512618402132016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Frankiedoodle89,2019/07/30,"Out of curiousity Hey all, I was just wondering wether anyone else have hullucinations of blue holographic people that change shape and talk telepathic. I've had this a few time and I've felt at peace when these people visit. I'm anxious the majority of the time but these people seem to calm me. I like to think there other worldly beings tapping into my pineal gland and traveling interdemensionaly (can't spell lol) Anyone else experience this?",4.503819444444448,7.6974471875000035,5.28166666666667,73.0277777777778,77.125,8.055555555555555,23.88888888888889,8.841846274778883,2.3219722222222225,365,12,59,9,9,118,62,80,0.019,0.8740000000000001,0.107,0.7876,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,1,5,1,0,0,1,12,10,5,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,4,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,2,4,2,8,6,3,10,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,2,4,35,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23973460208349,0.0,0.2967614916531852,0.43486428311079933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244878931582664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3545450559070293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20758011294796053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037529286473132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10367409448961087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44135485815523456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19318616477029693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705647269811541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13597429778870435,0.0,0.0,0.24748034621139944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301304899165938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jaybird-31,2019/07/30,"Is there a link between New Age practices and Schizophrenia? I'm trying to understand someone who is into this whole New Age stuff in regards to mediation, opening of the Chakras. Claims of spiritual awakening and/or Khondalini experiences etc. Is this common to hear these things from people with Schizophrenia symptoms?",9.163461538461537,12.000950730769231,7.4069230769230785,65.11307692307693,60.92307692307693,9.815384615384616,41.846153846153854,10.125756701596842,5.134561538461538,266,15,34,6,4,79,43,52,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,6,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,10,6,2,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29781182425247665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612090244307837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009650347288276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5158033047946248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18512671290982075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22625577062000596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056883254303807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775490123239453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17740452747792965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812975389648204,0.0,0.0,0.2779902498125795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981322498684855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lesbiangothgf,2019/07/30,"fun fun fun tactile hallucinations currently dealing with a hallucination of the feeling of the skin on my head being torn apart and having to type this with one hand so i can hold the back of my head ""closed"" with my hand or i feel like its going to peel away. an artist i like retweeted an adoption plea for a kitten which is fine but the kitten had a serious head injury on the skin on top of its head and then my head started feeling like this in some weird pang of empathy pain/hallucination. this is 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schizophrenia,greenerpostures,2019/07/30,"'came out' to my mom as schizophrenic today she told me that ""since i have friends with issues, i am faking schizophrenia because i feel like i need to have issues too"". 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schizophrenia,Old_boy7,2019/07/30,"I don't know if I have schizophrenia, but I constantly feel critiqued by stimuli; constant perception of cause and effect. I go through the day under various criticism/praise from stimuli. It can sometimes be difficult to discern the perceived, delusional cause and effect from what's real. For instance, just now I'm checking LinkedIn, and get a recommendation for a job promoting ""good work life balance"" and can't help but wonder if this is related to me not particularly liking working more than 40 hours a week. Maybe my employer makes money providing some type of data on me? Or the algorithm is able to get this from Reddit data? Like if I get a cool job recommendation on LinkedIn, I'll think I'm doing something right, but then if its removed, I did something wrong. It's this constant cause of effect. These are just the more tangible examples I can give. I also tend to identify with people I encounter, for better or worse. If I encounter a gangster guy, I'll go ""oh no, have I been acting too gangster lately?"" then I'll encounter the next person, who may be a nerd (sorry for the stereotypes, just trying to describe the sensation) and ""I'll think oh I must be acting nerdy."" I function alright besides the emotional responses to these events, and have varying degrees of experiencing this. Some days I'll ignore it for the most part, and recognize it's crazy, other times I think I've tapped into something many people, with fine mental health experience, but aren't consciously aware of, but subconsciously, and occasionally experience--like a really obscure coincidence. I function mostly by being agnostic to my own beliefs. I acknowledge I have basically textbook symptoms, but there's bits of life that are kinda incommunicable and resonate in ways that can't be quantified or analyzed. I know my thought processes are illogical. I'm not suffering from this due to a lack of being able to identify it as illogical.",7.538746081504705,8.61910403448276,7.973918495297807,66.06747648902821,63.2528735632184,10.924973876698015,38.2319749216301,10.832165505486646,4.617644827586207,1556,78,243,40,22,513,189,348,0.096,0.825,0.079,-0.7911,3,0,3,0,0,0,50.0,0,0,0,7,7,12,0,0,17,2,26,4,0,7,1,63,45,27,0,7,19,0,1,2,0,2,4,0,0,2,18,12,0,1,17,0,2,5,7,5,0,0,3,3,23,7,37,34,11,27,2,1,0,0,5,6,0,16,17,166,41,8,0.22286659604044853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911316816703165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098553696567977,0.1216563004669317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3434180783442662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612594232664527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14373051715261512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12534746176088207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900314783722942,0.0,0.0,0.05634402367500153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17465789692740452,0.10689697337313554,0.1266602224925081,0.09346496346234906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11033648455817974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11844838493956288,0.0,0.0,0.07469139074984554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097393520213852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22116070769023216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12248165271881838,0.0,0.12570161385963247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15741726773164166,0.10888136139876764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07438259172223975,0.1129758740447886,0.11194972551456522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122985550129787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11851057662771187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12067140266028345,0.0,0.1545076361730124,0.09729925764858684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12683548900064565,0.07138702412442763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516342764807537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573603908630225,0.11021038108405423,0.12474045395516001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158218636907806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21420587367598148,0.0,0.08846559140788231,0.06497765219843747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07565589468194195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08845056517537375,0.08938507011890398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208446582766876,0.1622495362457946,0.0,0.11356005069559345,0.0,0.12183481829292883,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Venomsnake566,2019/07/30,My childhood friend Having horrible delusions and somehow i remembered my friend his smile his elagance and the days i was with him and pondered over a lot and i dont want riches or anything like heaven its like the old him is the cure for my sickness right now but theres nothing to be done. Im dying,2.416120218579234,4.71198473770492,3.2700819672131125,89.72566939890713,78.672131147541,5.3781420765027335,26.560109289617486,6.42735559955562,1.066014207650273,243,10,47,2,6,77,47,61,0.085,0.728,0.188,0.6543,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,4,0,6,1,0,0,0,12,7,6,1,1,2,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,10,6,4,4,1,6,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,3,6,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21833919064261706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17111214448786366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753646065121381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27151875172809337,0.3109579594932808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4099776020765633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865956410916873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25924798174793523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22556912726153924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25458570373014666,0.0,0.2784130915031105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005605707617557,0.2265853975100869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15649507394757048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zepicc,2019/07/30,"Maybe i have schizophrenia Hi. So i havent been diagnosed with schizophrenia. But ive been on multiple psychosis in hospital. For that i get Xeplion 100mg injection every month, its paliperidone, same as invega sustenna in USA. It has helped me alot. But i still SOMETIMES get very weird thoughts, like i think/hear my friends talking alot of shit of me...i also get sometimes conspiracy theories. I dont know how bad my symptoms would be without Xeplion, i dont even wanna know. But is this schizophrenia related? What oral medicines you people get with injection? I have 100mg IR seroquel.",4.150757575757577,6.9916894629629684,3.863164983164985,84.8528787878788,75.66666666666667,7.2606060606060625,32.966329966329965,8.296473431620573,2.8683592592592606,474,25,83,9,11,143,74,108,0.09,0.826,0.084,-0.1629,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,0,5,5,1,0,2,0,12,3,1,1,0,15,19,7,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,13,2,11,14,3,5,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,2,3,51,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14661441377604315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15307861288060634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18608304489617547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4297388486895862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210922612167526,0.0,0.15446920450458662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14164559655587994,0.0,0.383143751495404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20663395597276354,0.0,0.1228868268759112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20151427764335794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956912486096362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18418650931523328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463377256012294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12710268845434847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18819264327560128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626496677659568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14641304630321844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19055718696526985,0.0,0.14735921642780392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11747485151885048,0.0,0.14554898103618472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15127210294097626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767301822976183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13023723899823106,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,vanitys4losers,2019/07/30,"Voices in dreams Just a simple question; suspected paranoid schizo (haven’t passed the 6 month criteria) lately I’ve been having really vivid dreams, so vivid I wouldn’t notice I was dreaming and so I’d hear the voices just the same as I would during waking hours (don’t tend to hear them in every dream) have any of you experienced the same thing or similar?",3.225962732919257,5.824789898550726,3.987619047619052,84.03000000000002,77.55072463768116,6.8414078674948255,20.002070393374744,7.957251820313856,1.0267374741200834,289,7,52,5,7,92,50,69,0.061,0.855,0.084,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,5,0,8,1,1,0,0,10,11,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,7,5,0,5,7,2,6,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,2,3,32,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18831503087431975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333169627834268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6242177160180558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27271032441386645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123777137696848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22103482559787216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31527514639499515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3102136688510301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774019815983549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18397327957600226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967159547550092,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Kuyirutao,2019/05/21,Disorganized speech Have you always be lost at the concept of the conversation? And have akward moments trying to remember why are you talking to that person in the first place?,8.350645161290323,9.792868096774193,7.96467741935484,65.56701612903228,61.58064516129032,10.070967741935485,34.854838709677416,10.125756701596842,3.884341935483872,145,6,21,3,2,46,26,31,0.14400000000000002,0.856,0.0,-0.594,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,2,0,5,3,0,5,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005259448085373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30721466908217715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3942644057381549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31536346146704264,0.37735026410906497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4091400671982431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902982156387613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24521363681370045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3259036223249367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anthroplology,2019/05/21,"I don't have schizophrenia, but I'm wondering if you could give some insight to a bipolar guy re: delusions Like the title said, I don't have schizophrenia. However, a friend of mine who does have it said that it's probably okay for me to post here. If I'm overstepping any boundaries, just let me know. I have bipolar disorder (my psychiatrist doesn't want to tell me what type, but it's not cyclothymia and not type II), and my manic episodes have been getting more and more severe over time. They have also been happening \*much\* less frequently than before, but when they do happen, it's really bad. I haven't been hospitalized yet (I should have been hospitalized the first episode, though) but I am afraid I will eventually end up in a hospital or in jail. (Shoplifting is one of my impulsive behaviors.) I don't hallucinate any more than normal but I do get delusions often, especially religious delusions, which I won't go into here. That, plus a lot of energy and grandiosity, gets me ""inspired"" to start a bunch of new projects, which I never finish because I just can't think straight. The problem is, I am \*very\* used to these episodes from past experiences (i.e., college) to the point that I have trouble distinguishing them from normal mood swings. How do you know when your more ""optimistic"" or ""inspired"" thoughts are edging into delusional?",5.024036098310294,7.34704237903226,5.050391705069124,79.88784946236562,70.7741935483871,8.594777265745009,31.16436251920123,9.23628265651192,2.9640281874039944,1082,48,191,24,21,337,145,248,0.096,0.852,0.052000000000000005,-0.8969,1,0,0,0,0,0,52.0,0,3,3,1,11,10,0,1,9,1,31,2,0,2,1,41,50,19,0,8,13,0,0,1,1,3,2,2,0,1,12,7,0,0,9,0,0,1,10,4,0,2,7,2,28,5,22,38,9,22,0,0,0,0,13,8,0,8,13,140,40,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12039621139562763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20476075853456502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12570445539328282,0.09177497329864508,0.0,0.12810848390899635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202033531309238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254539356872853,0.0,0.13174888524149822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13334419905422387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472685384184907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128059274947142,0.0,0.0,0.11631593884248825,0.0,0.2359712881150501,0.1444229945866316,0.08556205124500844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490699409835549,0.2662648998924314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16547865210201632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15394940460835896,0.0,0.07355199951728084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12799374735796826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11067288774094182,0.0,0.116114821020929,0.14540385611497178,0.0,0.0,0.29501757640383125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020177886434044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437187180399514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14232010339167492,0.0,0.1441869976536276,0.0,0.16232029219372468,0.14405772975956985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09644733123256936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28641845500138485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17008066888384885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065613312508104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13158889956154105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964675074767072,0.147916368453123,0.11952130379226082,0.08778795896259999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13002840771969285,0.0,0.12422099311301722,0.08879934590688637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16326699323091853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,IAmHomeless1,2019/05/21,"Fear that i might have schizophrenia I know this is a long post but i really need help from someone right now.... So a couple of months ago i went into a drug induced psychosis and I was extremly paranoid and thinking that my friends wanted to kill me and etc. After that experience which lasted around 3 or 4 hours I was left in a traumatized state from that experience, some sort of PTSD from my point of view. It was the most frightening moment of my life. The month that followed i was still not in my best mental state, i was thinking more about universe and spiritual world as i may find some meaning in that until i realised that something may be wrong with me and if i continue with this thinking i could end up with schizophrenia. From then on, i got a severe fear of schizophrenia, i would question everything that i would see and hear. In that period my DPDR was also pretty bad. I stopped all my weed or alcohol usage from that psychosis so I am sober for about 6 months now. I did go to a psychiatrist about a month ago and she presribed me some antidepressants and some benzos to help with my anxiety because i would have panic attacks all day and i couldn't sleep or eat. Now, I'm in a much more better state with anxiety but some weird stuff started happening. My emotional state has gotten really weird like I would feel very energized and i would talk really fast and move my body a lot like shaking my foot or something like that. My attention it's not so good and my short term memory as well. I also have some days when i would feel kind of depressed and sleepy kind of opposite of my energized state. Now what really scares me very much right now. There were some instances were after i woke up it will be like a conversation in my head with other people but it was so different and weird because I wouldn't have much control over it, after 5 mins i would snap out of it. Today something similar happened to me and I am really scared right now it was like someone else or me was telling me something but now i can't remember the conversation. The only thing that I know for certain it's that i wasn't controlling my thoughts i could't stop them... Is it a normal thing to happen after sleep or these are early signs of a pshychotic illnes. I really want to hear your thoughts guys because i really need help from someone right now, i am really scared for my mental health.",4.885005202236961,6.140689379828327,5.312980881779165,82.1225705553388,69.36480686695279,8.738613603849657,28.284302249967485,9.095868883498916,2.242568812589413,1905,66,367,36,33,608,210,466,0.17,0.71,0.12,-0.9765,2,0,6,0,0,1,31.0,0,1,1,4,22,30,2,7,16,0,41,10,5,3,3,88,69,37,1,16,13,0,2,5,1,12,4,2,0,1,31,24,2,4,15,0,0,5,6,15,1,0,19,6,61,15,54,34,19,71,0,1,2,0,15,21,0,21,44,268,92,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11473012993955806,0.06915959557094248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035035403362394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990120805647799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057609188790399286,0.0,0.0736215284395133,0.0,0.0,0.05403349498469419,0.11834717895888765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06791336063195234,0.05723428264209635,0.0,0.07188267603579084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451645292212901,0.1033377418202516,0.07160482084123218,0.0,0.08347036518648883,0.0,0.05573808171914979,0.0,0.0,0.0676123664506226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07504770590144963,0.06621858778253017,0.05406025117517752,0.07279455063304838,0.057317404449130464,0.0,0.07217322717963336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058160779125437975,0.12660543824231033,0.0,0.14564250493253242,0.0654426954748208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059147432463014675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049997883356021684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03677846304144888,0.05427904099211101,0.051757705285939225,0.0,0.0,0.06407704391465817,0.17167915514122573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06641524393361574,0.06878796613635665,0.1458747843819319,0.0,0.13012930974616424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06373026389954106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715964635431512,0.13477936526288087,0.07113025461551023,0.052750555160711435,0.0,0.0,0.07031196087821646,0.0,0.04570941886428863,0.15807998151685218,0.0,0.0,0.057269862144032735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055017536843078016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07049252811382918,0.0,0.0,0.13043300173887654,0.06865133761034793,0.0,0.0,0.2066164205057895,0.0687807508293469,0.14271672963338786,0.095969236392965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634059894103995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04921792049378215,0.0,0.07592794695824406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04486454606494068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061175656572998074,0.0,0.061978132677958514,0.06583741296060558,0.0,0.0,0.07564721424975057,0.0,0.0724945013490503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316596136318429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07330835773589016,0.22106164273377016,0.0,0.0,0.19437003944820147,0.0,0.051568687171406766,0.0,0.0,0.0731084108385546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12952149074659686,0.0,0.16449591121489765,0.1992800251975636,0.0,0.0,0.045804909139367536,0.0,0.05168069173248322,0.10820761960381993,0.0,0.0,0.07408205840324382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05201466966525513,0.05656289685401158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08598622500297616,0.12439837311543238,0.0,0.1027513901367785,0.0,0.0,0.061341314375051074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10679167078631037,0.07633999919401845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05818566655093624,0.05999053532403292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.321796830234148,0.07075461061997053,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,im-afraid-of-america,2019/05/21,I want to be cremated and put in a wall beside my mother My mother and me have an appointment this weekend to set our funerals up,10.037777777777775,5.533913518518523,11.110370370370374,63.49666666666669,61.96296296296296,15.244444444444447,41.81481481481481,13.023866798666859,5.2886592592592585,103,4,20,3,1,37,23,27,0.09699999999999999,0.855,0.048,-0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8625009875946892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5060553787859446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MHResearcher,2019/05/21,"Research Study for Disclosure of Suicidal Thoughts or Behaviors Hello, I am seeking participants for a research study about the disclosure of suicidal thoughts or behaviors. I am seeking individuals who experienced suicidal thoughts or behaviors after the age of 18, are not currently suicidal, and who live within the United States. This study has received IRB approval from Kansas State University. All responses are completely anonymous and you may leave the study at any time. If you would like to participate, please use the following link: [https://kstate.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV\_eJqhGTRJM4SZTyR](https://kstate.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_eJqhGTRJM4SZTyR) &#x200B; Thank you for your participation. &#x200B; Dr. Heather A. Love Family Studies and Human Services Kansas State University",16.10154873164219,19.575905056074763,11.765821094793058,37.93308411214957,45.16822429906542,14.338584779706276,48.9305740987984,13.25671669890799,7.9754443257676915,679,36,67,22,7,194,72,107,0.14800000000000002,0.718,0.134,-0.5859,1,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,4,0,1,1,3,0,0,7,0,7,2,0,1,1,16,14,7,4,2,5,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,6,3,12,9,1,11,0,0,0,1,10,2,0,5,5,44,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053274465784989,0.3424147765636123,0.09581597317057496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477296456305391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13282679011362952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491914189140179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06883600610612378,0.0,0.12441616665805272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271666117101068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15466450275408156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6164814004404131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12972062721122496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355735772644607,0.08215918695417512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169127048217634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10009042058681653,0.0,0.3424147765636123,0.0 schizophrenia,MrBoo843,2019/05/21,"How can I help my father with his condition? Hello everyone, My father was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia. He is having huge trouble dealing with it and it's also a huge burden on my mother. I live away from them (no too far, but enough that we can't visit every day) and have a 9 months old baby, so it's not easy to give them help. I have no idea what I can do to help them. He has lost all will, he stays home, watches TV or sleeps all day (not even really watching it, juts puts it on and zones out). My mom is very worried about their financial situation as he is trying to go back to work but is clearly unable to. I have no idea how I can be of any help. I can't help them financially as I am also struggling. I can't be there often as it is far and I have a baby to care for, I don't know enough about the condition to know what I can do to help.",2.539546777546775,3.1604215243243274,4.502702702702703,88.12698544698547,74.29729729729729,7.638253638253639,22.879417879417876,7.882392219407189,0.8630873180873184,662,16,153,9,13,228,101,185,0.115,0.73,0.155,0.8383,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,0,5,2,12,5,0,1,4,0,26,2,1,2,3,24,32,15,0,0,5,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,9,9,0,0,4,1,0,3,9,4,0,0,2,2,23,1,23,27,4,18,0,1,2,0,25,8,0,2,6,111,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21561695072769035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916762451910409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12665956884227747,0.10366149854523446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13744901256800934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17388415467887164,0.13898443723840306,0.0,0.13683053967642472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27859203301021096,0.0,0.08904153230172877,0.0,0.11358425818721656,0.12881788768474298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12932319608215734,0.07661631696545683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5421666713354568,0.0,0.1352266347527358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043708920248743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14817743001695832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11904076765956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14716235998657826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578892589876355,0.1076050210818982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14146168646429236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13552250044303515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08636351270994133,0.0,0.13310980542912113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15153344761102586,0.13490856833381168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14369081190175975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14093394660232264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09152796186821388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112333662368337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09814416595740197,0.13690732692655694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nextrhymeiwrite,2019/05/21,"i think everyone is out to get me, can i have schizophrenia? i feel i'm harassed, cheated, conspired against, spied on, attacked. i almost always think somebody gonna start an argument with me i have no kind of hallucinations, i don't have abnormal speech or any ""negative"" symptom of schizophrenia. can i have schizophrenia with only delusion?",5.2360000000000015,8.2877826,5.026666666666667,76.83500000000002,73.0,7.333333333333335,36.66666666666667,8.344100000000001,3.5791666666666675,276,16,42,5,6,85,43,60,0.248,0.752,0.0,-0.9308,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,8,1,0,0,0,8,15,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,2,9,1,8,14,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202003968133932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660717072852826,0.0,0.0,0.2174524821952592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3637810534894613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30555101127696416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16168377108999946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16706502650431235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33298805745560145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431971645698555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22633268358994055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33236028374923804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4097874827604456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,_--BretBernhoft--_,2019/05/21,"As a schizophrenic, I am thankful that I don't have children. As a schizophrenic, I am thankful that I don't have children. Because... 1 - It would be impossible for me to raise them; I can barely take care of myself in this world, let alone another human life that depends entirely on me for their well-being. 2 - The child would likely inherit my mental illness. And knowing/suspecting that much, how can I choose to pass on such experiences to another person? I know they'd hate me for it. Now, in terms of those of us who do have children, good work. I don't know how you do it. What's your secret to managing your illness(es) and raising your children? Am I foolish to feel that I am lucky to now have children?",2.8239236303265085,5.0360464892086325,4.1152517985611485,84.60245157719979,76.9136690647482,7.1546209186496945,27.95849474266741,8.139509932561175,2.027070392916436,558,24,107,10,13,183,82,139,0.077,0.8009999999999999,0.122,0.7942,0,1,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,4,3,1,5,7,1,0,3,0,20,4,0,3,0,13,28,6,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,4,0,0,8,12,2,0,0,5,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,23,6,18,23,2,9,0,0,0,0,18,5,0,2,4,83,35,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21210991944678026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4294990536933975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12484352219883338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20880615048379836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003326439051116,0.0,0.0,0.10355248866684616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17177561946070635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20219653618358344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22510426355456206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094207736697276,0.14465553549008467,0.10005440867439401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20638914452330973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505507724043026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17882251954643635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539833020781183,0.0,0.0,0.3771026642214204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463478873788805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841388265679536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490960546251158,0.0,0.0,0.2909665569599167,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ifeelsoeternal,2019/05/21,"There is hope, even with this illness Someone I know had a psychotic break. I'm not gonna pretend I know what this is like. I've seen this person go from being gripped by insanity to completely normal, functional, even content. She worked on herself, and when I say worked I mean moved mountains. Meditation, mindfulness, therapy, talking about it with friends.. and from what she told me, the thing that saved her was therapy and friendships. Not being alone. We didn't know eachother then, but she was isolated and bullied a lot. She won't personally post out of fear of people finding out she had a psychotic break, but I went behind her back (in a loving way) and posted this. Don't worry, this way noone can find out she had it. I wouldn't be doing something to put a loved one at risk. I feel obligated to tell everyone that this is NOT an unbeatable illness, that hope exists and that you can recover. Please believe me. I look through this subreddt some times and I am absolutely heartbroken over the suffering you guys endure. So Ijust wanted to give you a little hope. Hope someone recieves it.",4.2982901833872695,6.588994956310677,4.854886731391588,80.63927723840348,72.73786407766991,8.267098166127294,29.891046386192016,8.998388855275968,2.723559654800432,875,38,157,19,18,279,129,206,0.14800000000000002,0.691,0.161,-0.2216,0,1,1,0,0,0,31.0,1,3,0,3,7,12,0,2,9,0,19,4,0,0,0,36,39,12,0,7,5,0,2,1,1,3,2,1,0,3,17,13,0,0,7,1,0,4,7,3,0,1,9,5,24,9,21,24,2,23,0,1,2,2,24,8,0,6,6,112,41,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218157009482188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09044018352022568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13251403901380562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233191466334188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15536978792133552,0.0,0.0,0.11238804731162713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13235178142506493,0.05947066985261555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149995444482387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09087057288279243,0.0,0.0,0.1128289070796009,0.06684442984369962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11645928384005395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4672807267186995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19391761867750645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05746170644644909,0.11788309475314228,0.0,0.0,0.09876862527713938,0.0,0.0,0.09999373485334773,0.2123078000954988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12811935193429574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875960253572893,0.0,0.0,0.12500821658120442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11523965006469294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07970029722938943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08154079191747582,0.2053971885962768,0.0,0.12910810428541733,0.0,0.0,0.2252890740413114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118237532576664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09353372877889347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993129400103484,0.09054728339624267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09453605859940216,0.10280240874267506,0.0,0.269010492350807,0.0,0.07813948312982008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06858339624413147,0.0,0.0,0.11238804731162713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06937353138767302,0.18671773922868548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903210189164364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17125309792340407,0.11944573391535802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pepper_x_stay_spicy,2019/05/21,Appetite Control on Zyprexa? Just switched from Seroquel and good god my appetite is ridiculous. It’s a pain in the ass and I’ve already been struggling to stay at 230.,1.787499999999998,4.565550250000001,1.2872500000000002,97.23275,93.375,2.5600000000000005,34.525,3.1291,1.2882049999999996,136,9,25,0,5,39,30,32,0.302,0.574,0.125,-0.7964,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,1,2,0,2,2,1,1,0,4,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,5,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,14,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43149781152104894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4385596566812797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32796713784262504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41607045588477415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4167728960182819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4087766524201578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,davjam89,2019/05/21,"Thoughts bouncing off of everyday noise I hear things on a daily basis. I hear noises in the street; and they bounce off of my contiousness SO LOUD! (like I'm hearing voices); but, I can't work out what they are saying. I also have Aspergers. I obsess over the word/number: ""for""/""four"". I find that when my thoughts are really loud I tend to think in numbers. ""Free (three) for (four) that"". It's like I want my freedoms. I did bad things in the past; and after taking Legal Highs at Uni' j started seeing things that weren't really there. The Phsychiatrist called them angels. It links back to my past; as everything connects to childhood. I could to with some PM's, and talking openly on this forum about what I experience; as and when I experience it.(the voices/sounds off the street being so loud in my head and such). I have a CPN. (Joe Slattery). She cared for a things clinical. I'm in a strange place; as I'm unwell; but I'm not bad enough to be put into Hospital... And even if I were to end up Hospitalised, I doubt they could help me unless I can find a way to express what goes on in my very confused head. Please reply; I coud do with an emotional outlet!",2.6155687253067192,4.6972415196506585,3.70914535246413,87.89243085880643,77.0349344978166,6.632647119983367,22.69515491786234,7.62386473244151,0.9770971511748812,904,27,182,13,21,292,136,229,0.091,0.792,0.11699999999999999,0.6046,0,0,0,0,0,0,52.0,0,0,4,1,10,9,0,3,11,0,14,3,2,0,0,28,30,18,0,4,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,8,0,0,13,11,0,0,6,0,1,1,3,5,0,2,5,9,29,5,36,21,2,34,1,0,1,0,13,22,0,4,12,126,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10147718304874752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09757374666027413,0.21190258201846607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12957308557643146,0.0,0.12937701383087266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026292609600003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427388071083166,0.11239052740164146,0.13111554835688186,0.0,0.08381237042661786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11404425414622067,0.2482535996304186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23195785618209505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604599550502145,0.0,0.4290566916503521,0.0,0.08505445477015046,0.13407060624401387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12398811610591196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24226959451651206,0.0,0.0,0.1325773488400486,0.13929163972247238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275636404120217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625832469742659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009112985050671,0.0,0.0,0.10111818572923174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08981631225689397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09540858713464924,0.10199268812823696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3372112631491397,0.08130862924168185,0.0,0.20147951638273373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470093959355807,0.07484544052296824,0.10072264714281852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923804316906789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KingofAssyria2,2019/05/21,Exposing the Truth!!! Want to know what's truly going on in this world? Go to www.gffg.info and watch the video on that page. Schizophrenia is demonic! Jesus Christ can save you from them I promise! He delivered me from a demon that attached itself to me through the sins I had committed. Seek the truth!,2.3398214285714256,5.276800482142857,2.732857142857142,87.93714285714289,88.82142857142857,6.371428571428572,23.07142857142857,7.645422480735847,1.5966500000000003,241,9,43,5,8,74,45,56,0.078,0.655,0.268,0.8877,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,0,5,0,3,0,0,0,3,7,7,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,6,4,9,6,1,6,5,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,29,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8156670343895044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943789315789061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232641578694227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,stayhi420,2019/05/21,Writing creepy stories in childhood Did anyone else write like really fucked up stuff when they were little? I would always write these creepy stories about families and stuff I saw and heard in my childhood psychosis. I saw this one character Dino who was trying to kill me and my family in our sleep and I would see him and this lizard character around my neighborhood and they were trying to kill me. I thought my parents weren’t my real parents and all this shit and then I would write about how they killed me in these graphic fucked up ways,5.219344660194178,7.1331367961165055,4.439016990291265,86.1688167475728,69.3883495145631,7.480097087378643,26.46723300970873,8.07648339933343,1.5962436893203875,442,14,81,6,8,131,58,103,0.231,0.748,0.021,-0.9818,3,0,0,0,0,2,3.0,1,0,3,0,5,7,6,0,0,0,8,4,2,1,1,20,15,11,3,3,0,2,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,8,9,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,9,4,19,1,11,3,1,13,0,0,3,2,13,8,3,0,5,59,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12318130552225673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10351314983609514,0.1516846793202562,0.0,0.13178716420498093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12366859086502086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791182503425866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737215585331144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4913536414366061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07232496384380127,0.14837517179831827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10031587072388484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32876224509762275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16850215754532952,0.09483834280518533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796887244532872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15196113774367428,0.0,0.0,0.14814711270453015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389412210247376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11752738242429807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20101915615848728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11750741993101313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154905314622126,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,murphys_law_embodied,2019/05/21,"Have antipsychotics worsened suicidal thoughts for anyone else? I’ve been virtually fine in terms of depression and suicidal thoughts for seven months but after I started risperidone they’ve come back full force. Has this happened to anyone else? Or is it completely unrelated? (I am seeing my psych soon)",6.850588235294119,10.236572490196082,5.972313725490199,70.41141176470589,69.19607843137254,9.570196078431367,35.69019607843137,9.888512548439397,4.548283137254902,251,13,35,7,5,76,43,51,0.18899999999999997,0.7859999999999999,0.026000000000000002,-0.8377,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,6,11,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,1,3,1,6,8,2,9,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,6,23,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982658273975621,0.4370686859846094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640019908077148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837250117299417,0.22362388891068802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18370092789307851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3563423066137226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886060608630984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17024100486678445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16995948535416908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509632920874106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4665954745209701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386468484067853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JanusMagusZeal,2019/02/24,"My husband and I [M] just bought a dog and I'm freaking out! I can't take care of myself, what about a animal?",-2.6678,-1.0136634799999982,1.0075000000000005,98.97125,103.8,4.1000000000000005,14.25,5.985473137389443,-0.7651999999999997,83,2,21,1,4,30,21,25,0.252,0.748,0.0,-0.6927,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8048235919817855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5935140990655036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,internsdontpay,2019/02/24,"What the fuck? Sorry for the language but a few weeks ago I was told by my college support teacher that she had received a letter that was sent by the mental hospital, the letter has said that I wasn't diagnosed with schizophrenia. I was confused, embarrassed, also relived but now, I'm not believing it. She said it's because I'm young, too many hormones I suppose. God, don't they think I know that? I'm not retarded. I heard those voices, those demonic sounds, I saw those objects move, I saw the world change colours. Worst part is that apparently this was sent home, which means that my mother kept it hidden from me. Why did she do that? Why would she keep this hidden from me? Quite disappointing, just a few weeks ago me and my mother had a very emotional argument, but it was good, it helped me a lot, it made me feel happy for nearly two hole weeks. But, why do I feel so terrible again? What happened? Was me and my mother screaming at each other not enough to satisfy you? I am a rational person, I've become a lot more stable, I'm kind now. But my ugly brain doesn't like that. I guess my looks fit my mind. I'm not as bad as I was before, I know it will take time, but, it's nearly been four years now. I know others have suffered much longer but I'm not strong. I'm weak. And stupid. I got into a relationship for God's sake, in this mess? What was I thinking?. I don't even know what I'm attracted to. It that wasn't schizophrenia what the hell was it? A God? The supernatural? I heard those voices, it wasn't it my head, it was as if it was there, in the same room, talking down at me. It wasn't in one location, it was in multiple. It whispered things, it taunted me. Are these really professionals? What the hell am I supposed to believe now? 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Alright so you guys all have conspiracies right? Plots that people have set out against you for some ""delusional"" reason. What do you do when you are right about them. Have any of you been completely right about something and then left out to dry by those who aren't in on it, because they know you'll just look crazy? My family has actively controlled my life and they never let me separate from them. They plot against me because of past mistakes I had made. They never got my physical health checked out. I've had some bad brain trauma in my life. Lots of concussions. They just think I'll forget everything they have done to me. I'm on medication no and finally on the right path. These aren't delusions though. These are facts. I just don't know how to continue on with them any more. I've tried confronting them about the lies. They just tell me to forget about it. Thank you for your time. Have a good day everyone. 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If I was thinking A it would come out G. Every thing was evidence that this was true. If a delusion I supported by fact is it a delusion ,3.2461111111111123,5.523467685185183,4.792370370370372,79.9396666666667,75.85185185185185,8.764444444444445,33.022222222222226,9.3871,3.54076,221,12,40,6,5,74,34,54,0.087,0.816,0.09699999999999999,-0.128,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,6,0,8,0,0,0,2,15,14,3,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,8,5,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,1,4,2,4,8,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,1,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4695412593998777,0.2857548938011873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757669153025561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847481752543143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22962822259873214,0.0,0.2449429978084309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21673617977176876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092772068497762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810646628119825,0.34926756360064803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16075221598172895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3872117527017119,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,catcarrier,2019/02/24,"Studying with Schizophrenia Hi all, I've recently started studying again after a long (10 years) break. I'm finding myself becoming completely overwhelmed, bordering on what feels like psychosis. Obviously I'd rather not have another episode be bought on by studying, which leads me to ask: Does anyone have any tips for studying with schizophrenia?",11.78526315789474,12.247536298245613,9.00245614035088,64.3605263157895,54.438596491228076,11.810526315789476,48.82456140350878,11.20814326018867,6.026887719298246,287,17,38,6,3,83,48,57,0.0,0.927,0.073,0.4576,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,1,2,9,8,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,8,6,1,10,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,7,20,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20962788423068007,0.32323827955131396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21554308743788564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28818219394542904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3404497852732057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3232055368946394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26976106418617124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15586590001580178,0.22022154509039668,0.0,0.0,0.2817447456154579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506006341262975,0.0,0.0,0.2728010679295756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043703068806644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21818854912223026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19850981960681105 schizophrenia,rwijn,2019/02/24,"Isolation season is coming! During summer, I spend every second in my room, only leaving the house for a doctors appointment. My family constantly begs me to go on a vacation but I honestly just don't have any motivation to do anything that requires effort. This is going to be my 4th year in a row where I stay in my dark little room and not leaving to get any sunlight whatsoever :-\\ &#x200B; Does anyone else stay secluded due to your negative symptoms or delusions?",6.383992248062018,7.91059305813954,7.5627906976744175,66.37038759689926,66.09302325581396,10.38449612403101,35.26356589147287,10.504223727775694,4.356882170542637,377,18,56,10,6,128,67,86,0.109,0.847,0.045,-0.6952,0,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,0,4,0,6,2,0,1,0,8,10,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,9,1,10,9,0,18,0,0,0,0,1,8,0,1,5,39,11,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20045677858909194,0.22480574157488464,0.25162443186009825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12936233916821585,0.18956320973634144,0.1522463427431578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593685571590051,0.0,0.19992860877604515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18936417727960528,0.1619023031285417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15455097464687145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15587775423748554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17440967561140713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665937577132963,0.0,0.21028934144796632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134751249086284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39179486238491024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18542725565504264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14070740362928552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943891771849084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922948101741336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22480574157488464,0.11913949511184355 schizophrenia,killallhumanz69,2019/02/24,"What will happen when I tell my doctor I have schizophrenia? Im pretty sure I have schizophrenia, my parents are taking me to the doctor in a few weeks and I want to tell them. but I'm just wondering, will they make me do tests or something, and will they give me meds? Im only 14 btw",0.2827142857142846,2.502795366666668,1.9128571428571417,96.61500000000002,87.0,4.095238095238095,16.9047619047619,5.288315135182226,-0.7090238095238095,222,5,49,1,7,72,41,60,0.0,0.903,0.09699999999999999,0.504,1,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,7,2,0,1,1,9,14,5,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,12,1,3,11,1,3,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,2,2,32,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4329598096708964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20289072141166506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870293500713104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4569140494527516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411783441455906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349295725966467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16085579535106365,0.0,0.0,0.2348464722551677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21517222425056629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628235540486912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19933688494961194,0.0,0.15902218742808746,0.0,0.36972182772174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12474857901609974,0.0,0.16965308546719182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22936346205911395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Gasky_Cuspo,2019/02/24,"I need some validation So my brother just came back to my moms house all of a sudden. It has been 10 years since I’ve seen him. He was 18; now he’s 28. I’m glad that he decided to visit, and I ask him how he’s been doing. He just goes on talking about his Star Trek game and how he has been fishing. Then he goes on about how he got some man put on house arrest for some reason. I got bored of conversation, and I had to go. So I did, but the next day I hear from my mother that he’s now moving in. Not really a surprise because my other siblings do this constantly. He gets all his stuff and brings it here. Everything seems fine and dandy. Friday I get a text from my mom at 5 AM. It said, “ Hi sweetie can you walk over later kerstie and i really really need you.” I was too busy then and it was WAYYY too early. After I got done my therapy appointment at 4 PM, I went to my mom’s: and a lot just happened then and there. I see my brother sitting on the daybed out in the living room with his hands in the praying position but pointing away from him in a death stare. Mumbling lots of things that I cannot comprehend. I go to my room and he just walks in without knocking or anything; and he just has my nieces pacifier in his mouth. What am I supposed to fucking do....I just laughed. Because I think it’s funny? But I didn’t want to humiliate him. So I didn’t laugh after that. My mom yells at him for having it in his mouth when he goes into her room. He also kept talking to himself when no one was around. My mother and father think he’s doing this to them on purpose; they are fucked up in the head as well. Today I went over there because I needed something to eat and I needed to buy bud (I don’t have a car). He was alright when I came in he was just acting like he was sleeping. I go into my parents room to chat with them. He ends up coming in to talk with us. Then he starts doing the praying thing again. My dad tells him to knock it off. In my head I’m thinking being mean doesn’t solve this. I’ve even told them this and they said that he would act like this (not as bad but as a child) when they first got custody back of him when he was 14. They believe drugs did this to him, but I do not think that entirely. I told them he should be evaluated, but they don’t want to put him on meds. Because it “screwed him up in the first place.” But when my mom went to check the mail, he was sitting in a baby pack and play praying. My mom just yelled so loud, never heard anything like it. Telling him to get out and that he is not a child. He wouldn’t get out, so she flipped him out it! I’ve never seen that strength from her, over him being a child? Too much...She comes back out a second time and I follow her. He is out there on the bed COMPLETELY NAKED and he PISSED THE BED. My parents were ballistic; yelling at him to get his clothes back on. I told them to take him to get evaluated or I’m calling the crisis hotline and having someone take him. Because he cannot be around these toxic fucking people. He needs help very badly. I love him to death even though I haven’t seen him much. But I just want to see him normal. What do you guys think. You think he’s playing this or actually delusional? 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First off, I just want to thank everyone in advance for their insight or help- and I just ask for kindness in responses. I am simply trying to do my best in understanding this situation. Forewarning: long text. I was dating a coworker (28, male) after entering into a casual relationship with him. We were very professional at work and it was nice knowing we had each other’s backs, because it’s very toxic where we work. We were together for about a month; and in that time, he felt very safe around me and explained that his mother was diagnosed with schizophrenia when he was just a child, and his parents had to split up because she was trying to kill his dad. He would often witness her coming to their house in a cab in her hospital gown- as she frequently escaped from the hospital. Needless to say he never had a mother’s love, sadly, and whilst seeing him for a month he explained how deeply abusive his father (still is). His father will call him in the early mornings and complain his car won’t start. He’ll call him and tell him that he’s taking his dog- or order him to research a car for him. He even texts “emergency” to him at work and when he calls in a panic, it turns out to be a story about how his truck has no gas, so he’s taking his son’s truck. Needless to say I bluntly pointed out how unhealthy his father’s behaviours are, especially because he’s very aware that he has to deal with his mother’s illness. It’s almost as if he’s the child and he’s made my ex partner the father. It really hurts me to see, and as much as I understand the cycle of abuse- he explained to me that he almost took his life twice because of his father’s abuse. Fast forward, last weekend we had a bit of a rough patch because he finally texted his dad and asserted a boundary to him regarding not being able to keep dumping stuff on him, and to respect his new life path with me. Well after he sent it, he felt liberated. Then within 10 minutes he was pacing and looked like a 7 year old who was just scolded. He was expecting his father to send a barrage of messages in disapproval, and he started treating me like garbage. I asked him to take me home, and he disappeared into the back room. I honestly was in fight or flight mode because I lost my fiancé to suicide in 2012 and found him, and my gut felt something was off. I eventually went back there and he was just laying down, and he took me home. A couple of days passed and I didn’t hear from him. He then came over Monday night and spent the night. Tuesday morning he told me he was going to do those things he said he wouldn’t, for his dad, and he said he couldn’t say no to his dad ever. He told me he was picking his dad. I was puzzled and hurt. He left that morning to go help his dad, and when he was supposed to come pick me up for work- his demeanour changed. He wasn’t even going to come here so he called me and said he wasn’t going into work. I managed to ask him to meet me in the parking lot, and when he showed up he just kept repeating “I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to do.” He then took a set of keys out of his pocket and waved them at me and asked me if I knew what they were. He explained he wanted to give his gun safe keys to me because he didn’t feel safe with them around because of suicidal thoughts. He told me he was losing weight; wasn’t sleeping- and at work, he explained he has been “gapping out” for 10 minutes or more while looking at something simple to fix. He told me “my family members have been coming forward and telling me that I seem to be going down the path my mom was, before she was diagnosed with schizophrenia.” I asked him to elaborate, but he didn’t. He said “I know you need a rock, but I have to do me right now, I have severe anxiety right now and I can’t deal.” He left, and oddly called the cops on me. They came and I was confused as I was not in crisis, so I told them about him and about the gun safe keys and they were going to check on him. He wouldn’t answer their calls, so they made me call from my phone and he answered, and when they asked him where he was, he said he was at his dad’s house and that he was fine (By the way, he was his own house, and doesn’t live with his dad). They left my place and that’s the last time I’ve heard from him. Over the course of the month I noticed several things- one thing that struck me as unusual was he said when he was in his bed, often times there would be animals on top of him (like a wolf or a bear), and he could feel their breath and hear their snorting- and he said often times they would just walk away, and he was never scared, but he said it was so vivid and weird for him. He would also talk to himself a lot, and when he would come to my place, he would look around often. At nighttime recently, he would huff and puff and basically not sleep, and seemed very agitated. Well since Tuesday, I have not heard from him and all I want to do is help. I myself have experienced schizophrenia first hand with my deceased fiancé, and he knows this. I’m not sure if he has it, but is any of that behaviour indicative at all? Also, he won’t talk to me or respond to the two texts I’ve sent, but he’s actively looking at my Instagram stories every day, which I find odd. Why would he do that? I don’t understand why he just cut me away, when every day he explained how much joy I brought to him, and how amazing I am. He told me he doesn’t even want to carpool anymore, which I really don’t understand as we have to work together. Somehow I feel like I did something wrong here, but I know all I tried to do was help- and he even acknowledged the cycle of abuse he is in with his father. His possible schizophrenia doesn’t scare me, and I’ve told him this. What should I do at this point? I asked him to at least talk with me before our next shift, to ensure we can be civil and work safely together, but he never responded. I would think he could at least do that- but then again, this stonewalling from him has severely debilitated me and confused me to the point of crying every day since. tl; dr: ex possibly has schizophrenia and has pushed me away, but is still orbiting my social media. What can I do so he knows I would help him hell or high water? What to do about his codependency with his father? Should I block him from my social media for his sake? 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So I am diagnosed with schizophrenia & have many underlying disorders that come with it such as social anxiety, paranoia, and on top of all this I have issues with me being an adopted individual. I am also medicated with an SSRI & a mood stabilizer. So here is my issue... I do not know what therapist to go to because each specializes a different disorder or issue. I just do not know where to start. I do not want to bounce from one therapist too the next and so forth. Any advice?",4.215984848484848,6.0998103333333376,6.280694444444446,72.07437500000003,71.92929292929294,10.202525252525254,29.546717171717173,10.411451182825502,3.5509686868686856,409,17,73,13,8,143,70,99,0.079,0.8740000000000001,0.047,-0.2783,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,9,2,0,0,6,0,9,2,0,0,1,19,16,8,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,9,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,8,1,14,15,2,8,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,2,59,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14103168336297645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154158022966912,0.0,0.3127498563585282,0.0,0.09814522795691616,0.0,0.11040741870592424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08797853396909475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12432229458729058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464857606245303,0.0,0.15078779902071168,0.33081547667464845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08202262077950978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967372944466624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6025467853167986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15863332553355464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14632182214202993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14539118542462298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10701437243704344,0.0,0.0,0.1534901470060312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09779763655619816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712008120518655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021532272282316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650470028048206,0.3351424351143097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08512599883717684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Salamonster,2019/06/30,"A good book to relate to? Hi, I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder a few years back and I noticed a friend who was clearly experiencing psychosis. His mind seems less cloudy now and perhaps he experiences better judgement at the moment. I'd like to recommend a book for him to read about schizophrenia or psychosis so maybe he'd believe me a little better. Do you have any recommendations of books that could help someone with psychosis relate?",5.353750000000002,8.434778875000003,5.272499999999997,75.0725,72.75,7.5,31.25,8.472884824447931,2.916375,370,17,57,7,8,115,61,80,0.031,0.71,0.259,0.9581,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,4,5,0,0,6,0,6,1,0,0,1,9,7,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,7,5,10,3,2,6,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,2,5,38,9,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15738456374170012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17796016504989856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607493631307339,0.0,0.4093730526722191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18478298701561469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349028884051636,0.0,0.0,0.26524595519966465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263890292041421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17880704703329228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19411771827395727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15512681768617229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11306804525636573,0.2319598897559787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23250878696419106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23368460396580504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26349166682872305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23149884677367585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21069083968069333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19609515549517767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14903733571475447 schizophrenia,Fritzzzzzzz,2019/06/30,"The shadow man i just had sleep paralysis of the shadow man trying to choke me and it's not the first time he tries to kill me the guy was so determined he just watched me as i choked, and i saw his face so clearly and tried putting pressure in my fingertips and started kicking the guy and telling him to go away. He became slightly transparent and then his face reappeared and his grip grew stronger so i started feeling dizzy and getting a messy image of his shadowey figure until i closed my eyes and put even more pressure on my body and then i hearing sounds of things rubbing against each other which is how it started. After that, he disappeared. I merely experienced sleep paralysis but is it not cosidered as a type of psychosis ?",7.224627659574466,7.2909212056737625,6.431267730496455,80.34562500000001,63.8936170212766,9.03581560283688,37.483156028368796,8.472884824447931,3.080268794326241,594,28,109,7,8,181,88,141,0.107,0.84,0.053,-0.6847,2,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,0,0,1,7,3,1,2,7,0,4,6,6,1,1,21,12,20,1,0,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,7,12,0,0,2,0,0,5,2,3,0,1,3,9,18,0,15,9,2,18,0,0,3,0,15,4,0,0,9,76,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17508750655528876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20699939875090292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308631722870758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942271445847495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15851423700142098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09736326844278148,0.0,0.10591035498972802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3690432881899183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100366480857136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20617519718859745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3746783113442719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729809766196918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39571100470582976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16288327433107816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12380658218409706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10866562643441828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3795702788997026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cone6,2019/06/30,yo what's up,-7.6549999999999985,-8.497996499999998,-2.2299999999999978,118.175,139.0,1.6,4.0,3.1291,-3.4762,10,0,4,0,1,4,4,4,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zhredd,2019/06/30,"Am I the only one who does this? For some reason, I've developed this bad habit where I would tell myself that a certain person of my choice is able to see what i see when I want them to. Say I want to make my ex jealous, I would tell myself that she can see what i'm doing when im doing something really fun or cool. I feel like this roots from jealousy, loneliness, and boredom. But I just wanted to see if someone else does this too, and what people think about it.",4.230952380952382,4.227176448979595,5.1085714285714285,87.52809523809526,70.22448979591837,7.757823129251701,24.49659863945579,7.1686216300943375,0.8376680272108841,364,8,80,3,6,119,67,98,0.141,0.7290000000000001,0.13,-0.4885,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,6,6,1,0,2,1,7,0,0,3,1,18,18,7,0,6,4,1,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,1,11,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,7,14,4,8,16,1,3,0,0,4,0,8,1,0,3,3,54,25,0,0.1752971776164271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14636582114171595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30680748287793835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14643829825599156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08863552009371854,0.12523233871520778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893510329724484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564134638092688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11701222726385747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878590427950587,0.13332140277064636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215289909861556,0.1530627339673214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122998607218533,0.18023469429339115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13940335155410086,0.0,0.0,0.5587566190327891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14852872973355605,0.13495233157435707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30643491954524515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123233532268051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31018445145429313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490521709139554,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cudder45,2019/06/30,abilify and having no interest in things I use to like? I’m always bored and things I use to enjoy I don’t at all anymore is this a side effect?,-0.7978124999999991,1.264009843750003,2.64875,90.32125,91.1875,5.7,17.375,7.1686216300943375,0.3332249999999997,113,3,25,2,4,41,25,32,0.125,0.611,0.264,0.6966,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,1,6,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,4,6,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.322332372868532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3841782748958189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18925499380416166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5147180030017489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6691463361665314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,icecream636,2019/06/30,"I feel like I'm going to implode soon. The voices are getting worse and my medication is barely helping me right now. I feel awful. They're constantly bringing me down with their words. They call me whore, slut, ugly, psychopath etc. And they sometimes tell me to kill myself. The voices haven't been this bad before I got discharged from the hospital. I mostly hear voices when I'm home and I can't go outside because of my anxiety. Sometimes I think real people are out to get me because I've done terrible things in the past. The only reason why I did those things is because I was experiencing schizophrenia for the first time, but they'll never understand that.",4.258701298701297,6.535548015873015,4.891558441558445,80.39435064935067,72.80952380952381,6.8040404040404034,27.327561327561327,7.686295010490155,1.812263492063492,534,20,91,7,11,171,88,126,0.163,0.8109999999999999,0.026000000000000002,-0.9308,0,0,0,0,0,1,14.0,0,0,4,1,3,6,1,0,6,1,11,3,0,1,1,15,24,5,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,4,1,0,5,5,0,0,5,0,0,3,3,5,0,1,5,7,20,1,10,18,2,15,0,0,0,2,8,4,0,1,9,62,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12730158304344474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13894364020400973,0.3043221219926849,0.0,0.14160086084175436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16992106477387015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17982781537833853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029305062956684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185588789184372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16828166189527005,0.11888183236101997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415464691953381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17388251223478507,0.0,0.18914688148656925,0.0,0.13309159407644808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875537901235333,0.0,0.1115397032802758,0.0,0.16692068524342696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18410567876901146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08129849117313517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676384456955372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12834402618275895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12656070162803162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15885516378436648,0.1153662806399829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18940861411888968,0.0,0.1710950297059703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14211143180544228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291633234061035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454478336373854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211080203621621,0.10662745889385128,0.0,0.0,0.09703378091239603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732364858154173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15015724078502987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16958386009308254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ProbablyOverSharing,2019/03/18,"Hearing voices? Hi, When I get really high (off weed) I think I hear voices. Like it's not like I heard them physically with my ears but in my head. It won't be someone talking to me, it might just be I heard someone off in the distance maybe or a bump out side. Sometimes it just feels like the voice in my head (me) is just really loud. I also sometimes get extreme paranoia when on other substances. Thanks",0.9356097560975628,3.3933401219512227,2.4299512195121937,92.24614634146343,86.8048780487805,4.743414634146341,21.614634146341466,6.2581,0.35177170731707363,318,11,65,3,10,103,54,82,0.084,0.847,0.07,-0.031,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,0,3,0,5,3,3,0,0,11,14,5,0,0,6,0,1,3,0,2,0,9,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,10,12,4,9,8,0,11,0,0,0,0,7,9,0,2,5,43,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524387540351905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638320512011717,0.13617897404220528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991821765339677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912622505971943,0.0,0.4296852127781372,0.0,0.0,0.20140050752849856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793819265550015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915034222555612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20221770838318895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442321204742847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32302343369798325,0.0,0.3770561303062775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15321314439226644,0.0,0.1754972956465152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214160623632148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,destinyfan2019,2019/03/18,"I ended a few friend ships at school I predicted what they said in response because I control them. They are not humans. I don't need them I can tell who's a real person and who's myself I will stay friends with the real people They wanted to harm me by getting trusted I figured it out. I have only half a year left of high so I don't care hahahaha. I used to be friendly with everyone but I know not everyone is a human now. I can tell by their thoughts and their eyes. I don't wish to harm these non humans but I don't want to talk to them they will disappear naturally. 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What is your typical day like? Does your daily routine make you feel positive or negative? 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Like in your adulthood? Should I be worried if I'm at risk of having Schizophrenia because I have an uncle who has it? I'm 22 right now. I have ADHD and maybe Asperger syndrome (self-diagnosed), those alone are a huge weight on me. Can a doc know if I'm predisposed to have Schizophrenia even thought I don't have any of those symptoms? Like a brain scan or something? 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I GOT A JOB! Its not the greatest job (care assistant) but it pays me a wage, gets me out the house and gets me off benefits. I got discharged from mental health services a few weeks ago so i decided it was time for me to start looking for work again. I chose care assistant because ive cared for soneone, and been heavily cared for in my more deeper psychotic states and ill like to give something back, Id like to return the favour and help people out of similar situations. I start training next week, im nervous but excited. A voice keeps telling me i cant do it and ill fail but i know if i work hard and look after myself ill be able to do it and then some. Just a friendly reminder that although things may seem bad now, theres always a way out of it; take your meds and take good care of yourself (washing, cleaning, eating, socialising and getting out) and youll get there! Peace out, friends.",2.64750079491256,4.7455050378378365,3.5795230524642285,88.78184419713834,77.0,6.731319554848965,27.098569157392692,7.724431198458867,1.5646375198728135,732,30,149,11,17,234,120,185,0.121,0.638,0.24100000000000002,0.9834,3,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,2,0,3,7,16,0,1,9,0,10,6,0,0,0,27,32,17,0,1,6,0,1,2,2,2,5,1,1,0,9,15,1,1,3,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,4,5,18,13,21,25,4,24,0,1,3,0,7,8,0,4,16,93,27,8,0.11213528284729447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09940116238831964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09330553829916594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862251108116417,0.09362827728359724,0.06835662762164467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5716469714382778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11474238895683472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12283872122988786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732708827284474,0.0,0.2343442282983617,0.10757038118481184,0.0,0.094053755029851,0.1793696588920381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10045118781695954,0.0,0.0,0.1191945619844481,0.0,0.0,0.07516191638222562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12938906083450888,0.0,0.0,0.12112534798622533,0.0,0.22255393093589498,0.09967099169969752,0.0,0.0,0.06162661886187775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10956727005453416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2824961867972205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455702015337823,0.0,0.11300599061007205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11925714545514528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07774048597746397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208374999748844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260447562045347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632721917009514,0.0,0.0,0.1587398607128968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686235545860547,0.0,0.09801117977119647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14899539849178606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06538698519631456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900776805639796,0.17989632000821534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632716428752067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,paigeeb13,2019/03/18,Jobs How do you guys hold down regular day to day jobs? It’s getting hard for me to do daily tasks and keep up with everything at my job. I don’t really know how to handle it. Suggestions would be absolutely amazing. I can’t lose this job..,0.4462666666666699,2.7569621600000005,3.0,88.39666666666666,87.4,7.333333333333335,20.333333333333336,8.344100000000001,1.3283333333333331,188,6,41,5,6,65,39,50,0.086,0.8320000000000001,0.081,0.1851,4,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,2,0,8,9,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,8,7,0,5,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,25,8,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26583548232036985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852297966637143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10767897959451833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20407185037060224,0.0,0.0,0.1846255225781147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8180915864474435,0.18319155132308693,0.0,0.0,0.11326741832888028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23057368713488616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320332269408231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464078476634653,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Adhelpmeee,2019/03/18,"Best way to approach getting someone help during an episode of paranoid delusions? My loved one has been having symptoms of schizophrenia for some time (hearing god tell him disturbing things, saying he believes he has killed/raped people when he hasn’t) and most recently he believes he is being followed and recorded. I’m wondering if I should try calling the PET at this point (I don’t know if he’s dangerous or disabled enough) or if there’s a way I can convince him to get help. Does anyone have any advice on how best to proceed?",7.085775577557754,7.532781158415843,6.396782178217823,79.18283003300331,64.14851485148515,8.317491749174918,37.62541254125411,7.793537801064563,3.006761056105612,431,21,74,4,6,132,77,101,0.075,0.7290000000000001,0.19699999999999998,0.9295,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,3,6,1,1,3,0,11,2,0,1,0,13,19,9,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,2,6,4,8,16,5,11,0,0,0,1,15,3,0,8,4,46,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769918960789384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12317026623362586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12664583989850986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4081285700898933,0.3801561098717794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18494745730488213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585024922481857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871491071919912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892592219240488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20413947286290268,0.0,0.2428066765904621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954079962028596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634711301473491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12273404609069895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255683060336341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17122035638670133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17883771459930176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14403676495638576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15346544753337685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18825678245474434,0.0,0.0,0.15831001905229675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12033047877294847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561463392610722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229710423636631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875349830438788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964208295313692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BASED_D00M,2019/03/18,"What is the process like for getting disability? I’ve heard it’s very long and drawn out. For background information, I’m 18 and I was diagnosed this year in 2019, but it has been affecting me since the beginning of High School. I hate working in places with a lot of people because I get stressed out and then I get really paranoid about the people around me, that they’re out to get me and make fun of me, then I start messing up my work and I start hallucinating, it’s really bad. Plus I get very angry and hostile... My dad keeps pushing and pushing me to get a job so I can get a career and “do something with my life” (he doesnt even really believe I have SZ, which really sucks) I’m just scared I’m going to end up homeless and with no foreseeable future for myself, I need help. 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Ever get the feeling that this is a punishment? I mean my symptoms are bizarre- the world is synchronized around me and specifically synchronized to my thoughts. I'll have a thought...and then in response i'll hear an (actual) horn beep. One beep for yes, two beeps for no, three for maybe. Or maybe its some other sound but quite often (sometimes constantly) I get feedback from my thoughts. When is medical science going to explain that? Only God can pull that off. I've been maxed out on antipsychotics for a long time and I've tried all of them. My doctor has even tried doses over the maximum allowable. In fact the only thing thats made my symptoms better (and they have gotten a lot better regardless of the medications failing) is to try to right the wrongs in my life. Of which there are many and very serious. &#x200B; Anyone else have a similar experience? 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Ad the title states, just need numbers here, I'm aware of the averages of when it can occur normally but just need the earliest or first time you guys had your first big episode ",5.443758865248221,6.080256638297875,4.5795744680851085,90.13333333333335,67.72340425531915,8.819858156028369,28.43262411347518,8.841846274778883,1.7827645390070916,190,6,41,3,3,56,33,47,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,5,0,3,6,0,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,7,5,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,5,0,2,4,0,10,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,8,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7697006477065182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2986617725163461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.447310620108154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955340013918869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758832616178119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ParalyzingPsychosis,2018/12/07,"Commands. It's not every day that I experience the voices giving me commands to do things, but on the rare occasion that they do, it's tempting to give in because whenever I do, they tend to take it easier on me for a while, and sometimes I'm desperate enough to do just about anything to find relief, even if temporary. The first time, I was at a gas station and convenience store where you can order food. I only had about $10 with me, and after calculating my potential total, was well over $10. I walked up to the touch-screen computer to look at the food selections again, and that's when I heard: ""Go ahead, order it and don't pay for it; nobody will notice."" I knew (from being there many times before) that this specific worker who makes the food doesn't ever check receipts, and so I gave in and ordered a sub. I went up to the cashier to pay for my drink and snack, and once my sub was ready, picked it up and left without paying. The voices were satisfied, but later on were hellbent on reminding me that I'm a thief. The second time I was given a command, I was walking down the highway one night, and upon hearing the roars of trucks drive on by, was commanded to jump in front of one and end my pathetic life. I once again gave in, but luckily the truck driver coming towards me was driving slowly, and managed to stop before hitting me. He blared on his horn, and I quickly disappeared, thinking about how close to death I potentially was. The voices were quick to jump on me for being a failure. The third and final time (so far), I was in my basement looking for a bag of clothing that I had left down there months prior when I found a box cutter sitting on the ground. I picked it up. ""Cut yourself, you worthless piece of shit."" I did. I gave myself a nice long cut along my arm, which didn't pierce deep enough to cause bleeding. I then figured out that the blade was pretty dull. The voices were amused by my inability to cause any significant damage. TL;DR: I once stole something, jumped in front of a truck, and cut myself because I wanted relief from the voices.",6.659390975772396,6.069603511002447,6.864855523449656,78.9574033118471,65.23471882640587,9.49015336741498,31.549344298733047,8.710501217029153,2.3731799511002434,1632,53,317,21,22,527,213,409,0.11699999999999999,0.78,0.10300000000000001,-0.8486,0,0,2,0,0,1,61.0,0,2,2,3,19,13,4,0,28,0,28,9,2,6,2,43,51,27,1,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,7,0,0,18,21,5,1,5,2,5,13,5,8,1,5,26,9,44,5,63,21,4,75,0,3,2,0,14,33,1,1,25,229,62,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07503875695383125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080498444257112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345312444647711,0.0,0.1877918690391689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267105489720891,0.0,0.09505291945089324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07116375018348467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10809662863276254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773340376001903,0.22803289784352904,0.0,0.07288219415250549,0.09981386610491023,0.09297088385470544,0.0,0.0,0.1079391201753692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120878154836629,0.10085383233650536,0.09385986726377857,0.4002908260917992,0.1209881985151781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21170701001288436,0.06271191817998295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12436745293533047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397815228276144,0.0,0.07794032427731683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976523381335404,0.18532493916434145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07365651053354323,0.1118730668553486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807676412957559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10355182234275537,0.0,0.0,0.12562913843933524,0.0,0.352543223889612,0.1495459989847124,0.08392276206638836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122610928606274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11326811992332375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08494939430319805,0.10913456908757226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922538195709516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0829661198695242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07330867933381448,0.0707049719808942,0.0,0.0,0.25737350704160195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0650846635151648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09921390015340716,0.10229142905113424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10636917115427308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,findingmyshoes,2018/12/07,Peer-to-peer groups Has anyone participated in peer-to-peer groups? What do you do there? Have you found them helpful? Have you made friends or gotten any good advice?,2.6524193548387096,5.607939967741939,2.277661290322584,92.53649193548388,84.80645161290323,4.390322580645162,17.427419354838708,5.985473137389443,-0.4424258064516131,133,3,26,1,4,39,22,31,0.0,0.711,0.289,0.8677,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,3,8,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,2,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,1,0,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4073923805573151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28350805368182186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915079805739995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.457112165392243,0.322097902639299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.349678108097867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27944101448374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39448330576873797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jarlock1998,2018/12/07,"I think I’m hearing voices at night, not sure whether to go to the doctors or not I’m just wondering, for people who are diagnosed schizophrenics, how your auditory hallucinations began? Recently and it’s only happened a handful of times in about a month, at night trying to go to sleep I’ll hear a voice, it only ever says one word, last night it was a voice exactly like mine, all it said was “hey” but it was as if someone was laying next to me and whispered it to me. I’m not sure if it’s my mind playing tricks on me or what, I’m starting to get quite worried. I just want to know how auditory hallucinations began for you guys? 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We became friends with him and enjoy playing video games online with him often. Recently he started telling us that his girlfriend is trying to kill him and people are watching him. Without getting into too many details we decided to help him get out of the house because we believed him. He would call us crying and scared. We bought him a bus pass to Cali from New Mexico to stay with another friend. When he got there he was scared of our friend and thought he was part of a cult that was out to kill him. He mentioned he had pedophile tendencies and people wanted to rip his dick off and kill him. Our friend he was telling this too finally had to give him $200 and send him back to New Mexico because he couldnt get him to trust he wasn't a bad person. As of right now he messages us on Facebook that he is on his way back to New Mexico and wants to get his life together but he is still saying weird things. He is also still messaging our other friend that he wants to live to give him another chance etc. Is this schizophrenia?Bipolar? Drugs? His girlfriend said they got in an argument 2 weeks ago and he has been acting weird ever sense. We are worried about him but not much we can do. # ",4.012044934470566,5.426908802371543,4.2948574994799245,87.98745787393386,71.64822134387352,7.381651757853131,25.56875390056168,7.85451343220497,1.2852735177865615,1009,31,205,13,19,315,136,253,0.09699999999999999,0.7959999999999999,0.106,-0.1568,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,12,0,1,0,14,18,3,2,6,0,20,3,1,0,1,36,36,15,3,5,4,0,0,0,9,1,2,2,0,2,8,23,0,0,2,3,1,3,4,8,0,0,14,3,34,10,33,20,3,30,0,0,1,1,73,8,1,1,17,129,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566858769846282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07067691371543468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18534685493622527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359164901194997,0.07379304418709813,0.10775043157712227,0.0,0.0,0.09957323378433344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090245171515343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09708053777471988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024919576143416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09856630861840038,0.0,0.07994415864488283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09681522982792057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4779715270607934,0.0,0.18469819690724976,0.1695630021676039,0.0,0.0,0.14137003850185914,0.0,0.0,0.08750942603865251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05923879812485059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10197787421173413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09224505290418278,0.0,0.0,0.2933358835686808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062424930443135164,0.0,0.0,0.07804056254481985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08960276316091516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890655718596327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649689724189162,0.0,0.0,0.2560719064180425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957061957190812,0.0,0.12254219095552013,0.07716941703290454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08726392058919058,0.0,0.0,0.07547546005929498,0.0840689760748408,0.07028278597297076,0.1769662430524135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06255534062834217,0.09420060046491703,0.14115968510699567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15449484983640924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0587152959745039,0.0,0.0,0.07016331143114903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06000375983128664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31892833583601105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15638524591171574,0.07015139391367861,0.07089256299810319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08519451480562956,0.0,0.0,0.08975349386532644,0.0,0.06278213625895546,0.0,0.0,0.05691338722188528 schizophrenia,Poeball,2018/12/07,"Hypocondriac with derealization here trying not to self-diagnose Hi everyone i am here asking about my current situation trying to figure out if i am prodromal or not. It all startruta the 5th if january this year after a bad high on weed filled with anxiety. During the previouse year i had been smoking weed almost daily and no problem, then during september i ate 1 gram of shrooms had a really bad tripp thinking i was about to lose my mind, but the day after i was fine. Thats my entire drug history i took my last joint january 5th and have had panic attacks, constant anxiety, episodes or derealization everyday specielly when my anxiety gets high i would panic about becoming schizophrenic all the time. But during the summer i was feeling great almost no anxiety and very little dp/dr. Now in october i started becoming really anxious about accsedentally comming in contact with lsd or any other drug. I know that is mostlikly OCD tendencies but i fear that it is paranoia, i dont belive people are trying to drug my or anything i just fear that it might accsedentally get in to my food or that i accsedentally touch my food with lsd on my hands. My question is am i in the prodromal phase? My doctor and therapist say i dont show any signs of it. I am extremlly social and outgoing, i always joke around, i have a girlfriend just renovated my own appartment, i drive, workout and work 2 Jobs everyone around me says im fine but i just cant shake the fear.",5.474241877256318,7.004536523465706,6.6808140794223885,71.83284566787005,68.24187725631771,10.594151624548736,32.98357400722021,10.686352973137794,4.006279566787004,1175,53,200,35,20,396,150,277,0.17600000000000002,0.757,0.067,-0.9826,2,0,3,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,13,15,1,6,10,0,22,9,1,0,2,43,31,19,0,4,16,0,3,0,1,2,5,2,0,0,11,13,3,0,5,3,0,4,7,11,0,0,9,5,35,4,26,20,3,31,0,1,0,0,8,12,0,11,15,136,46,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18703351492367631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07770809644610101,0.0,0.0,0.12701702583323066,0.0,0.2857728744612379,0.10550430105828223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07685214629704283,0.1662740887991068,0.08730719509806144,0.10624479197073552,0.0,0.0,0.15595376938736552,0.0,0.2062841941551008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092158809057104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06022892877214527,0.0,0.0,0.0947890489877621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09558878849564628,0.0,0.0,0.21890514959656526,0.0,0.3249088169066474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784766046399356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3152696901294329,0.047220872169470095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22585551015008454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975850106336024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10296298374140693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19734366810104412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087740122351647,0.0,0.09267532584279636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05132479089088232,0.07612544697432046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09360147720002254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044797034463736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09907220398061546,0.0942974414805602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21914646708187815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06474497968956612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0893617727991521,0.0,0.0,0.1046183552298846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11965625884947535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485352110930617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974263070200227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497445543117163,0.0,0.09519950966556057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06610203762271576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084331765916652,0.0,0.05984064513595703,0.0,0.0,0.05445655471879327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10375990669527788,0.1902173699334818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07705666458840653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06798915049811861,0.0,0.0,0.0663416918737658,0.0,0.0,0.1202804053367346 schizophrenia,CuddlySneppid,2018/12/07,"Doc changed meds My psych just changed my meds from olanzapine to aripiprazole. I was on 10mg of the olanzapine, he's now put me on 5mg of each. I'm kinda worried the voices will come back... or worse, I'll become delusional again. Should I expect things to get bad again, or will it go ok? Last time I was delusional, the mental health team weren't much use; my then girlfriend would repeatedly ask the police to check on me, who'd have no idea what to do with me so I'd get dragged to A&E, who'd have no idea what to do with me and always sent me home in the morning. It was not a fun time.",3.789761904761906,3.9734231746031767,4.787420634920637,88.79160714285715,71.22222222222223,8.204761904761906,26.067460317460323,8.07648339933343,1.189193650793651,464,13,109,6,8,152,81,126,0.13699999999999998,0.845,0.018000000000000002,-0.9165,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,0,6,1,14,1,0,1,0,16,22,5,0,3,4,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,1,0,7,5,0,0,2,1,1,4,4,1,0,0,5,1,11,2,15,11,2,17,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,3,9,66,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14617403698527484,0.19034165871431835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423057247575867,0.0,0.0,0.13508171933404947,0.14667964534579456,0.0,0.19401706388998965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3716775526702327,0.15132676345524876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18356381903471974,0.0,0.0998390334886028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18673222007566614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17621437639343135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3966269443038887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14319696930503334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39026627577664985,0.0,0.1770370993202014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12913989303281082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17659992017485898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11670935770148587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204872717454268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15172509732874662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17840449318411206,0.17902582959753452,0.12479308289771028,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,redshift1989,2018/12/07,"does anybody else do this? as in, borrow or take money from their parents because they would be fucked otherwise? my dad is long gone and i rely on my mom to pay my rent each month. i work a part-time job that is menial and repetitive but i manage to scrape by on the combined incomes, but it is always difficult to ask for the money needed. i would prefer to be on disability but i am too high functioning to do that. i know my mom will not be around forever. i think that personality, charm, charisma, boundless energy and extroversion are essential to having some sort of upward ambition in order to get to a higher pay grade, and i just find i have none of these things on the meds and am a complete zombie milksop, and that nobody really enjoys being around me (i wish i was exaggerating). i used to be very funny before the meds came. is it ok to leech off your wealthy mother at 29 because it gives you room to breathe and to eat out more often, to want to do it indefinitely because it seems impossible to scrape by in your own apartment on the bones of your arse otherwise (full disclosure: my mum moved me to an apartment out of my payrange because when i lived with housemates they kept leaving without notice and stealing things). i do spend some of the money (either from mum or work) on my girlfriend but seeing her once every week is literally the only joy i have in this life. i guess what my question is does anyone else have a complex monetary relationship with their family where money is given like a bribe to keep you stable, and the shame of it combined with the will-erasing and personality-destroying of meds make your life a mildly comfortable shit sandwich. i know i can’t be alone in being caught in this wretched double bind (which is always going to be a better double bind than the ones you get from being homeless or living with shifty housemates, but still). if any of you have been in situations like this can you see any functional way out of it? also if any people think i sound like a narcissist or a leech feel free to say, but i really don’t think i am more than 15% toxic and i think the shit is a complex situation. the one thing that is leechy of me is that it has been a lot of money over the years, but whatthefuckdoyawantfromme.",8.816772727272726,6.8815289500000025,8.812727272727274,71.06409090909091,61.77272727272727,11.52727272727273,34.95454545454545,10.125756701596842,3.2983999999999987,1798,57,337,30,20,590,224,440,0.062,0.8059999999999999,0.133,0.9891,4,1,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,9,4,3,9,16,3,1,25,1,43,11,4,2,0,68,72,27,0,8,17,7,1,3,1,3,4,2,2,1,24,22,2,2,13,0,11,5,5,6,0,2,8,5,47,11,65,52,12,41,0,0,2,1,28,27,3,15,10,250,71,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500902524529274,0.0,0.07335985264171929,0.15266050196458095,0.0,0.0,0.18714732256244246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06414272582562437,0.0939925875407404,0.0,0.16332587607123508,0.08575914762005735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22368140788957852,0.0,0.07805909665077171,0.0,0.0,0.08113149612156062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10491955238312084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09618162375228496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16055453398391736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938670469838668,0.15326440224564195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772900684747798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08647889390382353,0.0,0.04638359693701077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08384344951925443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480684294388037,0.0958547267843426,0.08799985878406043,0.05213469259785202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10105562693280408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09692227969042168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910320958171036,0.08153762306904466,0.0,0.0,0.10082949781254592,0.0,0.0,0.09713333339297768,0.0,0.0,0.12958923806198652,0.13445017372749704,0.0,0.16200606018014638,0.08118193124698032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779891853439418,0.0,0.0,0.06123332926088738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30568824048031545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21487610754075465,0.07322140920216054,0.09749899817989216,0.0,0.06801978963285027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10444006026207503,0.0,0.0976939904373035,0.12432301407095615,0.06976803659133463,0.0,0.0,0.1018600370218868,0.09933926151783948,0.0,0.0635969837837386,0.08009881536104711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10276336285743863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11753462878758544,0.0,0.0,0.0984882620502588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07295076356879261,0.0,0.0,0.1462006528291386,0.08351142280041206,0.0,0.0,0.18832779429234567,0.0,0.20622629806273252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07325909659903017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689727452287501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18283249369859875,0.2351184327536805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07922894515516693,0.0,0.07569036968973858,0.05410724187162272,0.07281438378646689,0.07358368810321879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10548986898998587,0.08842855075969297,0.0,0.13356726413170306,0.0,0.0,0.1303307691966608,0.0,0.0,0.059073854253865465 schizophrenia,pnwonders,2018/12/07,"Some detailed questions on schizophrenia (kinda long post) So to start off with, I’m still pretty young but schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorders is something I’d love to pursue when I get into college, but for now here are some questions I have, mainly about the point of view of someone with schizophrenia and what living with it is like Some questions might be long and detailed so bear with me If any of these questions could be deemed insensitive or inappropriate something, please feel free to remove this post. Otherwise, thanks for reading guys & gals (: ___ •Is there any sort of method or tactic you could use to help determine the difference between a hallucination or delusional state, and reality? If so, has it proven effective for you? •(This question is very difficult for me to word) Say you are experiencing a psychotic episode, is there any sort of perceptual change in reality or “intoxicating” feeling during the onset of a psychotic episode? ^ For example, would your emotional state change drastically for no reason? Would your comfort level of your current set & setting diminish or perception of the set & setting change at all? I know it’s a weird question, and it’s not really worded that well so I’m excited to see if anyone can understand what I’m getting at •Is there a difference between schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorders, or are they just different titles for the same things? •Do your delusions carry on a consistent role or plot, or are they seemingly random in nature? •How have psychoactive substances (of any kind, even things like Benadryl or caffeine) affected your schizophrenia? •Can I hear your personal stories? What is living with schizophrenia like? ___ My hope is to one day find a treatment plan for people suffering with schizophrenia that doesn’t induce such bad side effects like emotional withdrawal, overeating, etc. and help reduce stigma around the disorder and those suffering from it Thanks for reading",7.626460156609857,10.15096718263473,6.62538922155689,70.44226163058501,64.2994011976048,9.928880700138187,36.1994472593275,10.214889679676881,4.3282062643942885,1605,78,234,40,26,487,188,334,0.075,0.727,0.198,0.9936,2,0,3,0,0,0,43.0,0,9,2,3,17,18,0,0,13,0,22,2,0,6,1,67,40,26,0,8,16,0,2,4,0,3,1,2,0,2,15,15,0,0,17,2,1,1,3,5,1,1,0,7,18,14,45,33,7,31,0,2,2,1,25,13,0,28,13,159,33,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25801070468488296,0.0,0.21591286805766674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055501354661751615,0.0,0.0,0.07066122663631491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06627541743309451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519069864362427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267501200444379,0.0,0.0,0.051190778031241724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487922247907722,0.27291438356295844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17857402085230376,0.0,0.0,0.08852491885225466,0.052426919796542966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08026950619739151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254797746643019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08294108363473675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07859445024841813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08946221441546373,0.0,0.1064077547473158,0.0,0.0,0.07883800805133066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265760614499609,0.04362282430648436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15511588529763565,0.0,0.14018044427758544,0.14049004311147015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07163969364122898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08420510386668373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053787047617280655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055029135524964766,0.06930782410814951,0.0,0.08713071336471573,0.07503571955261384,0.0,0.15204001207469414,0.08075365156214974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5335138887321635,0.0,0.15879441658897325,0.0,0.05085012394944943,0.08161146849068696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06312276488972761,0.0,0.0,0.063252178481695,0.07226068171398985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06725479683106908,0.1222146268697528,0.0,0.0,0.05618254889039602,0.0,0.06338955899061552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14615701192928204,0.0,0.0,0.10546741344757538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08263293228247952,0.0,0.06855514367268599,0.0,0.0654932885772536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07136831219928479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277247967583315,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zonark1111,2018/12/07,"Fanapt/iloperidone I just started this med today. It's apparently very new and only has data from clinical trials. My psychiatrist seemed excited to have me try it and stop taking zyprexa (so I'm not at such risk for t2 diabetes). Have any of you tried or are taking this med? What's it like? After taking my dose I honestly feel no different. It's been a few hours and I only had 1 hallucination. I guess my mind seems a bit quieter than usual. No dreaded headaches or akathisia luckily and my appetite is pretty mild, certainly not getting the gnawing hunger of zyprexa. Oh I know what's different. I'm not so vaguely afraid as I usually would be. 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Wasn't sure of it was mentioned here. Currently on Netflix US. 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Without switching completely back to risperidone, can you take more than one type of anti-psychotic or have something else you take to help with intrusive thoughts at least? I don't feel like myself lately. I feel like the schizophrenia is taking back over and I'm slowly losing touch with the world outside. There are times of clarity, but the more I have to think clearly and respond to someone the further I seem to step away from reality later. Trying to do things to stay happy to at least keep hallucinations and delusions mild. There is always a dread of the absolute existential fear that grips me and pulls me under during bad paranoia episodes. When that happens I can't think, I can't move, I can't stop it all from swallowing me whole. 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I’m only 15 but it started when I was 13 I would hear people talking during white noise, rain, and wind. I was diagnosed at 14 when I caught a possession charge and went to court ordered therapy. The only thing that helps is heroin but I’ve tried to quit twice already. I don’t want to end like my dad but I really can’t help myself. I went into psychosis twice because of weed and adderall. I’m starting to feel better now but I thought the world was fake and everything was in my head. Now I’m not even sure if I’m schizophrenic. I want to think that it was just a bad reaction with the drugs but I don’t know for sure. My favorite voice is also the only one with a name. He’s named Lucifer, like the devil, but he always tells me when something bad is going to happen and how to avoid it. I think I’m crazy",1.2871762740183783,3.3753631534391535,2.8989974937343383,91.99556390977446,81.48677248677248,5.6720690615427465,21.587580061264273,6.8360192770164,0.4871417989417997,712,22,152,8,19,234,113,189,0.19699999999999998,0.677,0.126,-0.9518,0,1,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,10,12,1,1,8,0,14,4,1,1,2,34,36,18,0,4,11,1,1,3,0,1,3,3,0,0,6,8,0,1,6,0,0,4,5,6,0,3,9,5,18,6,15,26,1,18,1,0,1,0,10,4,0,2,12,89,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15399836648162696,0.1115991508369704,0.11611788854592227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148388567776156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23303906851712866,0.08506919752282488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342181380214567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15080541479878692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14164166578664386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16183524203436475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236010602907374,0.0,0.0,0.09217233951745576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254197400655078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07056134717466611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729098118904818,0.0,0.07931023868712088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12340478317893905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14321992854628304,0.0,0.1572844949328739,0.0,0.18707663421619686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07669376320965418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045331973491293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15201231285999173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945635950740799,0.31840523223983724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09674732337209704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14843002069827588,0.0,0.0,0.0894001575404859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743343425051673,0.0,0.0,0.19755030398040316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630509602625774,0.0,0.0,0.11216607561153306,0.12197401629510644,0.0,0.1595891116699632,0.0,0.09271170496038574,0.17883771911033056,0.0,0.11078817062036128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947461949337316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646219840842403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587309681840241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844294617127106,0.09913326326670527,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,monorailbogus,2019/01/22,i need a friend man. i say friend and not friends because im not asking for much. i cant connect with people i do believe i am a nice person but for whatever reason i have an antimagnet in my stomach that makes people repulse me. anyway i dont know if anyone else feels this way but i just want a friend who can talk about anything ranging from God to aliens to internal organs to sports to anything at all. if anyone wants a friend i would love to make a friend or talk to you.,4.660033333333338,4.590997470000005,5.541999999999998,85.01433333333334,69.3,7.866666666666667,28.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.4325666666666668,377,12,80,3,6,124,68,100,0.065,0.667,0.268,0.9679,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,3,8,0,0,6,0,7,2,1,3,1,20,16,6,0,6,8,0,1,0,6,1,0,2,0,2,3,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,12,8,13,15,2,3,0,0,0,1,15,2,0,3,0,53,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046701100468689,0.14995833890698262,0.2408759452235652,0.0,0.13682248419438728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892168554168102,0.0,0.0,0.16489234747171627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715273657406219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12226110470874182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400165620709491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6784426249591083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580888793755546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08043306605555929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13209140633263566,0.0,0.19538664871263264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10758801304157116,0.10852062841363372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029287265566565,0.12779183565675795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15047766256223052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11638763878088244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352697531399693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17264834017661235,0.1161700547548102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10396663273435958,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Groundbreaking_Star,2019/01/22,"Cant sleep on invega As soon as I get to the point where I would be in a deep sleep I snap suddenly awake. A deep dark feeling accompanies this. This happens to me over and over again. I've been taking ativan to sleep and my doctor will prescribe me a different sleeping pill on wednesday, but I just want to be able to sleep on my own. I couldn't sleep for two days without the ativan. I'm on invega sustenna 78mg, I'm going to beg my doctor to bring me down to 39. She got mad last time I asked her to do this and said I might as well inject water. Well if I'm on 100mg of everything else, why can't my ap be low as well? How do I convince her? Does anyone else have experience with this? It was hard just to get her to go down to 78mg, I have no delusions anymore and I just want to go back to freaking normal instead of having my brains blasted out with these meds.",2.7617798690671016,3.326985824468085,4.360638297872342,89.55653846153848,73.73404255319149,7.273977086743042,24.036006546644845,7.321109707123232,0.7744585924713592,677,18,157,7,13,228,107,188,0.085,0.835,0.08,-0.6111,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,12,7,1,0,5,0,16,11,7,1,0,21,33,11,0,6,6,0,2,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,6,7,1,0,1,0,0,4,5,3,3,1,4,3,22,4,35,22,1,28,0,1,0,0,6,16,0,2,8,105,28,2,0.1129808578086004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11204665208401142,0.07899884271556236,0.11576224028498243,0.0,0.0,0.10562185075631927,0.0,0.0,0.0868753057626585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612400232744767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07286330661338315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180409496601932,0.0,0.2312813907519221,0.09887031003287143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887620186241172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10153990995060376,0.11051695826370264,0.0,0.0,0.057126516402973365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805567018410655,0.0,0.19262887541255255,0.0,0.09036111298731817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09990859943513246,0.0,0.10120865689444096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920944784682277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12549626331415928,0.0,0.0,0.119854835918014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11069725254497123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10680342926964714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107470668132087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6783747073975444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08494754443082704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06588004675618574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036588131828312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327807433720348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30475007887646305,0.0,0.10194765112397948,0.0,0.0,0.10890951519617788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08025835980805891,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SalinaChee,2019/01/22,"Memory loss... caused by meds or sz? I'm losing my working memory. I forget what I did in a day, forget what I ate for breakfast. I keep a journal which helps sometimes but I have to read my insane ramblings and that makes me sad... I'm starting to see a neuropsychologist but it's expensive and I wanted to know what you think... is memory loss and slow decline a sz thing or a medication thing? I'm on seroquel, I can't remember how long I've been on it for, maybe a year... I don't want to go off the medication or change though because it's the only one that's worked when solian was hell and latuda and abilify made me nauseated. My hallucinations are mostly under control, I like seroquel, I'm confused and nervous...",3.050208333333334,4.803838048611112,5.151111111111113,79.50500000000002,74.7638888888889,7.855555555555558,26.583333333333336,8.59863814320734,2.0030666666666668,565,21,110,11,12,196,90,144,0.163,0.8,0.037000000000000005,-0.945,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,0,6,3,8,1,2,8,0,8,4,0,5,0,26,23,14,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,11,6,2,2,3,1,1,1,2,7,0,1,5,1,15,1,12,18,1,12,1,4,1,0,2,5,1,5,7,70,26,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114178384099377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924121362505814,0.19814210950173525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100766345363188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12079516598138312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10644881060975893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255454877884822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16648382417055335,0.0,0.0,0.10293702313847547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915069560939362,0.0,0.0,0.16575757127606658,0.0,0.20954453909077644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17723095923712714,0.1250264410260619,0.0,0.18817139105877267,0.0,0.20805179810893787,0.37737684103506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269215978825859,0.1424526384189651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873540376459544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121781837361088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14925652026068809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18524780317577247,0.0,0.1325742756699402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488720469388419,0.12001642415021667,0.18402459107089694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209527382097228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727181401622975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12061721686870193 schizophrenia,madman3845,2019/01/22,"Schizoaffective disorder diagnosis So I got my diagnosis a few years back after my first and only episode at this point. My family firmly believes my psychosis was the result of various drugs: Xanax, dxm, pot, alcohol, opiates, and Ambien. Note these drugs were hardly combined and if they were it was pot in addition to another. Dxm was a one time thing. My recollection leads me to believe that the hallucinations started very subtle and gradually grew to the point of psychosis in about the span off 2 weeks at which point I self committed to an inpatient mental health facility. They had to keep me sedated with several shots of haldol a day for the first half of my stay (12 days) to keep me manageable and started me on 4mg of risperidone. I am officially off all mental health medications but feel like I might need to ask for an antidepressant on my next check up visit. When do the thoughts off full blown relapsing disappear? When do the reminders of how warped your mind was at the time fade? When can I stop trying to decipher what was real or imagined?",7.234778911564626,7.977081423469392,7.576938775510207,69.83115646258507,63.8469387755102,11.635374149659865,34.70068027210884,11.374738998889045,4.2371068027210885,853,36,148,25,12,279,128,196,0.039,0.9359999999999999,0.025,-0.4098,0,0,3,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,2,3,7,1,0,0,13,0,13,7,0,3,2,26,22,13,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,1,7,0,0,1,7,7,1,3,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,10,2,19,1,30,11,4,39,0,0,0,0,6,16,0,3,19,104,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13664868826295692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13407749282660233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195364178249776,0.0,0.0,0.09832021285327193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881199045548252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16492456061087754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14654424919412787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965653712667455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12053964482631647,0.0,0.06465233362920128,0.09134670767678547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21752363144946288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10226523848840842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454183212477813,0.0,0.0,0.2718288116988114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22730439026325616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06246832977139676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288104312510744,0.2577154832482281,0.13564444896628247,0.12910709537726178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481020065570044,0.0,0.0,0.13598576812545407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08664456310297249,0.09724701567415747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626209706106617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455382455145969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13339097344737136,0.14445093785764146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18100686385529724,0.13628696680547805,0.0,0.1069007789653093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849477556826323,0.0,0.0,0.10151044524966392,0.14911809893475697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08681187151642475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550193078695574,0.0,0.0,0.10256550735763148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234080119250572 schizophrenia,Gir247,2019/01/22,"Schizophrenia ruined my 4 1/2 year first love I hallucinated that my gf was someone else, with being able to tell her anything I decided to tell her and we never were the same again, they say you learn how to love from your parents, maybe my mom doing what she did to me as a child is why I’m so fucked up, I learned to love from my first gf and she’s gone.",5.360657894736843,4.227213223684212,5.793684210526315,87.36578947368423,68.07894736842105,8.65263157894737,28.21052631578948,7.1686216300943375,1.1658789473684212,279,7,66,2,4,90,57,76,0.102,0.75,0.14800000000000002,0.5972,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,2,1,2,3,5,1,0,2,0,6,4,0,1,1,10,12,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,4,1,16,3,10,7,1,7,0,1,0,4,19,1,1,0,5,45,18,2,0.2071730900745443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17048580084006246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17306653288699922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524426491659705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191528183431218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5609454071092449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081332149358102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24263861919306065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15978465888136772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300411992455423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16475235654623968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17553708691807304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362156824497462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18694149007946945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334126775714367 schizophrenia,unconditionallyisa,2019/01/22,"What delusions have you had? If you’re comfortable sharing, what delusions have you had and how did you figure out they were delusions? What did you do about it?",3.823,6.523827300000002,2.8633333333333333,92.345,76.0,5.333333333333334,26.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,0.9876666666666672,129,5,24,1,3,37,19,30,0.0,0.8029999999999999,0.19699999999999998,0.7677,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,4,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,1,0,5,8,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,5,2,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,0,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AndAroundAndAround,2019/01/22,"Does this sound like the onset of schizophrenia? So about six months ago I was in a heavy depressive state and decided to take some LSD to see what it'd do, and lo and behold it more or less lifted the depressive state immediately and then a month or so latter I decided to do it again simply because of how euphoric the experience had been, and then done it again two weeks later at a lower dose(my previous ones were quite high), during this experience I got into a disturbing conversation with a friend (of a conspiratorial and occult nature, stuff I've been interested in for a while) which left me very uneasy, a day or so later I more or less suddenly started having startling peripheral hallucinations, mostly just dark blurs moving towards me rapidly, at which point I was convinced there were demons in my home, I covered the whole place with salt and retreated to my bed for a day or two. I recovered more or less from this within a few days, but I've been having minor auditory and visual hallucinations since then, hearing my name being called when nobody is around, hearing my flatmate move around when it turns out he's at work, occasionally vague shadowy figures in my periphery, small flashes of light at night when I'm trying to sleep and occasionally insects. I'm also just generally getting startled by things more, my perception being suppressed and then rapidly flaring up making me aware of my surroundings. I've also had semi-delusional experiences, attempting to control people or animals (while being semi-self-aware that it probably wouldn't work), and I'm somewhat suspicious that the government is watching me (not continual surveillance but maybe occasional checkups) because of my somewhat radical political views. I'm generally getting slightly paranoid about certain friends I have, nothing specific just general disloyalty. My memory has never been great, but it also seems to be slipping, things just generally seem to be getting harder to manage in my life, I've always been socially anxious but now it seems hard to get more than a few words out. During the last 4 months since I did LSD I've done amphetamine twice, simply to break the unbearable boredom I've been feeling (it works pretty well), but one the second time I did it I got shadow people that didn't disappear when I turned to look at them within just a couple hours of taking it, which has put me off that. I've been telling myself that this is simply HPPD, but most stuff I've found seems to suggest that tends to get better over time, not worse. I really don't want to waste the valuable time of a psychiatrist if this is just HPPD that will resolve itself, and honestly I seem far too self-aware for this to be actual schizophrenia, every report I've seen of schizophrenics having an episode are other people telling them they're suffering from delusions or issues. I just thought that because a lot of the people here will be well read in these kinds of issues then someone might know what's up here. Appreciate you reading, even if you don't respond, sorry for the excessive length.",11.69040929801529,9.058166969804619,10.891512858135764,60.57428990655653,56.92184724689165,13.627894045872269,42.95072978608387,11.882522634951824,5.13471015522434,2496,104,402,54,23,808,289,563,0.062,0.84,0.098,0.9692,1,0,0,0,0,0,55.0,0,2,2,8,32,20,0,3,26,0,45,4,1,3,2,80,78,46,0,4,25,0,2,1,2,4,3,3,2,0,37,19,0,2,14,2,0,4,7,6,2,7,23,12,35,14,62,43,17,71,1,3,5,0,17,30,0,23,35,294,72,8,0.0,0.0,0.07267202738723813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06601320698683602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17866101874946125,0.061965048141979985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412996062510589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13258826799787693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361887557355148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06586270840599966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07604224836919167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835244945654643,0.0,0.08239969503979064,0.0,0.14408106651387892,0.0,0.12828189168839318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06516924351548925,0.15241743533980226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04918676637234324,0.0,0.0627442298735246,0.0,0.0,0.2185379988173552,0.0,0.0,0.03765429538371238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165256717881306,0.11507075341494052,0.0,0.19453764016858124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191210055808126,0.08210349418098896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06671053832881227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16786631969540394,0.0,0.0,0.07868169762000185,0.07469953311632159,0.0,0.07333799943122933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15545477073145172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07754909840457908,0.040926792494994285,0.060703030988094576,0.0,0.0,0.08091192835830059,0.0,0.05260039939510061,0.0363823053136773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06253608711732109,0.0,0.0,0.06331177432539001,0.0,0.0,0.04970933734286983,0.0,0.07481517573125021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07900095575560741,0.0,0.0,0.17832385277842874,0.15829975765214094,0.0,0.0,0.05743589429997607,0.0,0.0,0.06988509816740204,0.0,0.0714560224473675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092566777816828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065126269666475,0.0,0.07780535320104859,0.0,0.0703982690865324,0.0,0.0,0.07576281438077133,0.08029131047361808,0.0,0.0,0.07486297006770998,0.0,0.07920806598757896,0.1489804073995856,0.0,0.04770742161493895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05934298901393858,0.3389736878654697,0.1553770091120006,0.0,0.0,0.12320479155564805,0.0,0.07452383242660868,0.07591283880709876,0.06309823258713243,0.0,0.0,0.08336312519352286,0.052710285425864034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705007832889428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198442094931972,0.0,0.1301802140297761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989491857479541,0.0,0.0,0.05912090214538832,0.13027225691226035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050560276317944366,0.1620040618499193,0.1454928379013174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061445591247919325,0.043924365559635546,0.0,0.059735382985158486,0.0,0.13391503876854305,0.0,0.0,0.08314315251441999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16264525228733587,0.0,0.07589134417069322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Dill3318,2019/01/22,Does anyone have family/friends that actually believe their delusions? I live with my grandma however recently she has started taking interest & even believing some of my delusions. My grandma is a very religious person & a lot of my delusions happen to based off of religion e.g I believe I’m the reincarnation of the prophet jeremih “The weeping prophet” and I see visions of the future. Any advice on how I should go about handling this?,5.030411392405063,8.071701962025319,5.587832278481017,72.58909018987346,73.68354430379749,8.506962025316456,38.988924050632896,9.188382445141503,4.562808860759494,361,23,53,9,8,116,58,79,0.038,0.893,0.069,0.3313,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,6,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,10,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,10,1,10,9,2,6,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,2,3,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.18607308065868214,0.0,0.0,0.18632719150744312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.413196531375579,0.0,0.12966678301643744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13332567302327847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6444824756683961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16686257891922265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594024792747166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473164458969919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836603666278152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686148910872352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683711342895484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16210662223469716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664916532454671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18827036624341148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15194474653196455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496204171278325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433652461681412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573283540786742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bemis_,2019/01/22,"how to tell doctors i have schizophrenia symptoms about a year ago, i was interested in schizophrenia and looked it up. i found out that i have been exhibiting the symptoms since i was about 10 years old (hallucinations, delusions, etc.) i think i need to tell my doctor. i am getting worse and worse each day. i just dont know how to.",4.325156249999999,6.050202453125002,4.336375,86.77112500000004,71.34375,6.995000000000001,28.425,7.554174236665415,1.4907849999999998,263,10,53,3,5,81,45,64,0.105,0.8490000000000001,0.046,-0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,7,4,0,2,0,11,13,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,10,1,8,9,2,8,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,5,36,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17243249544440378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254509462540002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982041259082876,0.0,0.0,0.22797896888266725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21694405250680546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132839254558898,0.0,0.0,0.10162999885408756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690450112285033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16334994237014788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14423599908629714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20411868417115195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16091105574437894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4043668021171073,0.0,0.0,0.34004254886627744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464218955571922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.396470174842204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25053227697927377 schizophrenia,LucySparky,2019/01/22,I think anti psychotics make me sad and think of suicide. I feel like I’m out of options with this medication.,2.91,5.0288472727272815,4.2545454545454575,84.1518181818182,76.27272727272728,6.218181818181819,29.181818181818183,7.1686216300943375,1.6751090909090918,88,4,17,1,2,29,18,22,0.361,0.547,0.091,-0.8126,0,0,0,0,0,1,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,8,5,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,4,5,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,9,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21955103166122047,0.31020170167896144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21213443471542215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898404069338532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43742370124017865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4749583132168556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5564520421275309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cuzzik,2019/01/22,"I’m here for insight to the world of schizophrenia. I’ve decided to join this subreddit. And first off, I do not have schizophrenia. But I’m in love with a woman who does. Who is also on this subreddit. (Hopefully she doesn’t see this). I’m her biggest supporter. Her biggest fan. Our marriage is falling apart and there no one to blame because I’m dealing with separate mental health issues and she’s finally helping her schizophrenia. I’m so proud of her in every aspect of her life and the only thing I want is for her to be happy. With or without me no matter how much I can’t imagine life without her. I’ve been researching schizophrenia to better understand what she’s going through. Are there others here for the sole reason of learning and understanding? If so, what is your advice? Anything that has helped any of you comfort an SO in these times? I love her more than anything and she was there for me (especially these past 2 years in the darkest time of my life) when I needed someone the most. And I couldn’t thank her enough especially due to the fact that I’ve watched so many run from me because of my family and personal life with them. I want to help her, and maybe that means letting her go. 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I’ve been diagnosed & everything but. I am not eligible for SSDI bc I haven’t worked. So I was reading about SSI and they said if you live with your parents who pay the bills they’ll take that out of your check. The thing about fair share. So what do I need to do? Say i’m homeless but sleep on their couch? Move out to.... a group home? ,-0.5924242424242436,1.4891097777777809,1.3675757575757572,99.83045454545454,90.11111111111113,5.050505050505051,17.070707070707073,6.574015621080383,-0.4371111111111112,320,8,81,4,11,105,63,90,0.019,0.9009999999999999,0.08,0.7278,4,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,3,1,4,1,0,0,3,0,9,2,1,0,0,12,15,7,0,4,5,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,5,5,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,0,0,0,3,2,13,1,13,11,1,5,0,0,0,0,13,4,0,2,0,51,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378793946722657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228358757455237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19731494583925416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147043964276006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22022383051696606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.387728554949314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23334402201534504,0.0,0.3255830641517368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4875625630012048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21960670047579076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20883974657951845,0.1745928152905191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197058422873368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650722374749025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458574625762151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15983304035889725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wackazoo,2019/01/22,"my family i don't know what to do now. i don't think i can disclose my schizophrenia to my family. they don't know. they've seen me react to hallucinations. however, they are also anti-medication. i am getting worse. i don't know what i should do.",0.12932773109243811,2.5046888235294134,3.447507002801121,83.32235294117645,92.13725490196079,6.835854341736696,19.050420168067227,7.957251820313856,1.2014067226890757,194,6,40,5,7,70,28,51,0.075,0.925,0.0,-0.4767,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,10,0,0,1,0,6,16,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,12,0,3,14,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,29,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254566419894513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.600181751319773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16631300192647785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.52483347540091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35359013675132106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039714350628176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244029602272816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Username0101000101,2019/10/27,"How to stop being monitored? Alberta, Canada How do I stop whatever it is from monitoring me? Some collective is monitoring me. My professors have been notified and they are trying to gaslight me into conducting crime. I went to a mental health hospital and revealed that I have heard voices and believed that the government was doing things. I have rejected their risperidone. Now, the real government used my detailed information that I gave them to reconstruct the delusions and hallucinations. They are trying to make me act on their commands. Then they will have ample justification to take away my freedoms. They are getting in the way of my studying. I don't know, but I think they want me to take medication (risperidone). I think they are using experimental technology too. I literally have proof: pictures of Canadian pins, clicking noises, but most of all **the sound file for their subliminal messaging. ""Listen, the government is monitoring you. (loop)""** This is based in reality: they are trying to make me believe that I should take risperidone. I assume they think I am a danger to society. But I have done nothing wrong and have never acted on the violent voices. They can literally read my thoughts and there have been too many coincidences. They have attached a chip onto my computer and all my devices for the purposes of monitoring me. This organization is powerful enough to manipulate my Town of Salem games. I think they told me that I should drop out because I am a danger to people. **I have video proof of a Town of Salem game**! I will be exonerated!",3.934687983496652,7.1853967545126345,5.217871067560598,71.74929241877257,81.45487364620939,8.653078906652912,28.85291387313048,9.081645337920577,3.4693155028365137,1259,58,199,38,35,416,144,277,0.092,0.8590000000000001,0.049,-0.9179999999999999,1,1,0,0,0,0,45.0,0,1,15,1,6,5,3,0,13,0,36,2,0,9,5,44,56,13,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,5,0,0,9,9,0,2,11,4,0,3,2,5,0,0,9,6,50,0,29,41,5,20,0,1,1,0,24,10,0,3,5,160,59,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13869713434508973,0.0,0.0,0.08998991321949043,0.0,0.0,0.332642256224196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15107009061015986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525345340390554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07712718393885651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15691687349741704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113001293871552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197079660337187,0.14966705493529234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487151418530882,0.14876976296388947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385634113090315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416487262326537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10234354487870906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476634454241902,0.16802785781040802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24683970628192434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33298349198745864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807449143478256,0.3783647028947744,0.0,0.11719656644459843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14106057708525685,0.0,0.30067999140379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254998605963886,0.0,0.0,0.08707216297524319,0.1171766601417232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13684846014815158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161403118999107,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,IWannaMakeLoveToYall,2019/10/27,I’m lonely and I need help. Please help me,-4.2203333333333335,-5.2734796999999975,-1.3099999999999987,110.3916666666667,146.0,1.3333333333333337,3.333333333333333,3.1291,-3.260666666666667,33,0,9,0,3,11,8,10,0.17600000000000002,0.282,0.542,0.6369,0,2,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7113095684958097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3934384743570297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5824473063393101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cplus44,2019/10/27,"Really confused about why I was diagnosed as a schizophrenic? I constantly daydream for hours and went to see a psychiatrist about it. She asked me questions like do you hear voices? Do you see things that aren’t there? Do you think people can read your mind? I said no to everything and just told her i daydream for a long time and that depending on what I daydream about I can be happy or sad. Well she handed me two prescriptions one for risperidone and one for a mood stabilizer. She said I’m bipolar and schizophrenic. I’m extremely confused do schizophrenics daydream a lot too? I obviously know my daydreams aren’t real and as for a mood stabilizer I don’t know why I’d need it just because I can change my mood in a daydream... Is this woman a quack? Seems pretty messed up to be putting people on antipsychotics and mood stabilizers just because I day dream too much.",3.935588822355289,6.258155293413175,4.579544910179642,82.05921756487028,73.91017964071857,8.046147704590819,28.498602794411177,8.841846274778883,2.431283752495011,702,29,130,15,15,224,93,167,0.08,0.8290000000000001,0.09,0.3765,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,4,0,0,10,11,0,2,8,0,14,6,1,1,1,24,29,10,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,5,4,0,1,7,7,0,0,5,2,0,2,4,4,1,3,5,7,22,3,17,22,2,11,0,1,2,0,15,4,0,7,6,89,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14767648901002467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19258869689503866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16710663305481765,0.0,0.0,0.170704668473107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018747278264442,0.0,0.0,0.1603317336605486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14196927329454204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16815729213923036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780386838184824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15556427181234225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17362749792674287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771740008845459,0.0,0.0,0.13979456314935856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134296683117356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15950020001028067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11612287351084173,0.117129472422957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21408312384915493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21902688022084404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16070777960953686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587990334425906,0.17695759632410818,0.0,0.1580083229101122,0.1797994076227344,0.10119679240134913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005228715017306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25175622309626544,0.14380592687365062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494530902590947,0.10121796220629198,0.0,0.0,0.09211099721416023,0.0,0.0,0.15094287655245722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15430941365705994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14203002299159376,0.1464356707831392,0.2850787232566541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MediocreJedi32,2019/10/27,I ate a few teaspoons of chicken soup today because I have a sore throat. I've been too scared to hardly eat anything because of my paranoid delusions. I took half an ativan but still feel like I'm gonna die. [Support Needed] Can someone please reassure me that the soup will help me and not kill me? I'm suppose to go inpatient Tuesday and I have a cold. So since I really can't take pills I'm trying the old fashioned way..eating soup...tablespoon of honey...eating oranges....gargling with salt water.. I've only been able to barely eat soup and I'm trying to be positive. Bad news is that I already feel like I just ate something that will kill me.,3.620153846153848,5.0808184000000045,4.729230769230772,84.31076923076925,72.69230769230771,6.7384615384615385,28.384615384615394,7.1686216300943375,1.5982923076923083,512,20,97,5,10,168,85,130,0.10800000000000001,0.6629999999999999,0.22899999999999998,0.9593,0,0,1,0,0,2,23.0,0,0,0,0,4,8,2,1,6,0,10,8,1,0,0,11,24,5,3,1,3,0,3,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,3,4,5,0,2,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,5,5,12,4,8,15,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,50,15,0,0.15809795644065547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17446502628699512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13010114733175127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320051898718951,0.19275009366809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640807183371172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4853210359106546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15987815417694884,0.2258904233413393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985071201406042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14162471536746066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596972764027768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3498239292811638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15447735136132687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172276314488139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658972103456377,0.0,0.0,0.12024062003988326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735440802465563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128159922542572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15828363480859142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078026330691306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13395588544490705,0.1217115308353272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12625723223696328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17940768742330904,0.0,0.0,0.1188699877099288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14985837679690955,0.0,0.17565264678379638,0.2146762692015746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254907989684523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,alexaxelalu,2019/10/27,"Why did it take me so long to wake up from my nightmare? I don’t quite remember falling asleep, but I sure remember living in my nightmare. It was horrible, nothing made sense but it was normal there. Chickens were flying, Jon Kerry had black hair and was assassinated . The school was a mess and had such a weird layout. No one was there besides a few people. And I realized I wasn’t in the right place. The doors didn’t lock even when I tried. Someone knew I traveled and shouldn’t be there. I couldn’t speak. I tried but nothing really came out. How do I alert the others to help me?!? My sister in the dream finally realized that I wasn’t myself, and fucking finally knew I was in the wrong dimension so she tried to get me to a hospital or something. Things kept getting in the way. Dead animal on my hands so I try to wash them away with the outdoor hose that’s spraying everywhere. Almost sleep paralysis like when I was coming out. They didn’t want me to. I screamed and woke my mom up. They were watching me. They don’t like that I’m out. I’m with them so I think I’ll be okay, and now I can’t see or hear them anymore so who knows. Why did I spend a month there, where here in our world it was probably only 2 hours not even? How do I tell people that. (On ziprasidone 2x daily, and I work nights... wasn’t overly tired or not tired at all. Just regular. I was in supine position with a weighted blanket (the blanket is new and I thought it helped with anxiety) I didn’t use a sleep aid. I usually have really vivid dreams but this experience was so different)",1.256725067385446,3.593103783018869,2.7961958670260567,91.19790566037734,83.49685534591194,6.401581311769991,21.978796046720575,7.6583078777640585,0.971175453728662,1225,41,261,22,35,400,169,318,0.115,0.804,0.08,-0.9327,1,0,1,0,0,0,42.0,1,0,6,2,21,9,1,0,16,1,33,11,6,4,2,49,53,26,1,4,10,2,3,2,0,1,3,3,1,0,13,18,1,1,9,3,1,4,14,5,0,1,29,10,42,4,28,20,2,37,0,0,4,1,16,21,1,4,13,175,55,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277015571108392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08615207697975608,0.0,0.11168629582888144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058078456003181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880441495796696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097010001856057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11766131498320492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14876558933386072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11016152169806208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246733926591624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411306130940033,0.1176759881640449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269281039423783,0.0,0.15097026876754613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109055495065818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06189163116530767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100384410380139,0.0,0.09944331312504713,0.09966294100495443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10656139866626814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13189625142112546,0.08989021169517931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10876668039492264,0.0,0.10568389204351132,0.11034123613003746,0.216119051420574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07631253055077265,0.08565068122954174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15614958514965224,0.0,0.11766131498320492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142070928769147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11978257045235552,0.0,0.0,0.14429130466555712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25514734133032585,0.09617472713145707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11397491935485253,0.08974156449584493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253976560775926,0.0,0.09542043977531944,0.08669845120624242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10614065817676584,0.0,0.08467434234558645,0.0,0.09843265622070388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07481806092144809,0.07216074480113767,0.0,0.08940571314476113,0.0,0.2588744922641936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3058395523049103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09726535899794674,0.12403226249761545,0.0,0.0664247175666065,0.0893905272288369,0.0,0.1371377720513233,0.0,0.0,0.20323954907559666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08198687910523336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12312955401065848,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ClownDonkey,2019/10/27,"Any delusional thoughts? A nurse in psych ward asked me that before. I just laughed and told her - ""I don't know. If I knew that I wouldn't be in here.""",-0.5034375000000004,1.6315005312500013,0.4362500000000011,106.18375,90.5625,4.45,17.375,5.985473137389443,-0.7824,115,3,30,1,4,35,26,32,0.0,0.893,0.107,0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,8,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,6,1,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,18,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440909069645638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4730328355391941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4305606673229882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278079158782978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4016999557708105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4834956287131425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,myheadisntright,2019/10/27,"TW: Self-harm delusions Struggling here. Internal, omniscient voice is telling me to cut. Did stab myself in the arm because of voice a week ago. Made minor scratches tonight, but voice wants blood. Only with blood, it'll be sated. Just anyone reach out, please. Want to go out on the street. Voice tells me that someone needs saving. I need to take a kitchen knife, my hoodie and save someone. I know it's not real, but it feels real.",1.7691019955654106,4.538335134146344,1.8514190687361456,95.06619733924614,87.90243902439026,3.9574279379157424,20.869179600886927,5.565023196281405,-0.008843902439024555,339,11,65,2,11,101,66,82,0.07,0.812,0.11800000000000001,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,4,0,4,4,3,1,0,19,13,3,0,4,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,4,4,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,6,6,2,9,9,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18365721686662104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14486873903628567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12629820096404087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10475908396065836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177481480476462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11386359106000205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19604368623134646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072504645472328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15757371324538189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274271799923676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.471644329771393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21613939362361356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35109476770205633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165950004742623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15577751803569775,0.0,0.3621780684670787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444064483315712,0.0,0.16619150452277925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,aeeiiou,2019/10/27,"Rhetorical figures and psychosis I have diagnosed bipolar disorder. I've read this sub on and off for years. I wanted to write, but I never felt comfortable about it. I always wanted to, but I didn't have the words.",2.314146341463413,5.114272121951224,3.725073170731708,82.96078048780491,83.87804878048779,7.182439024390242,25.27317073170732,8.238735603445708,2.2055521951219514,171,7,30,4,5,56,31,41,0.14400000000000002,0.856,0.0,-0.6601,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,11,6,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,5,1,6,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,22,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067168550119682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741360337563709,0.0,0.0,0.4224642375497549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3539277979238685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28429828415728536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3687143267548389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43483685292968255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373757004203328 schizophrenia,mrscrawfish,2019/10/27,"Side effects Hey guys. I had blood work done this past Thursday, and my white blood cell count came back low. My doctor said this could be a side effect of medication. Has this happened to any of y'all? Did you have any other symptoms besides the blood test results? Any time I try googling it it freaks me out. The shittiest thing about it is that it could be any one of 4 different meds I'm on, all of which are essential to my functioning. If I had to guess I'd say it's probably the haldol because I've only been on it for about 2 1/2 years. The others I've been on for at least 8. Nothing else touches my paranoia though.",2.9837209302325576,4.331086635658913,3.893713178294576,90.12289534883722,74.11627906976744,7.020465116279071,26.078294573643408,7.554174236665415,1.1787792248062017,492,17,107,6,10,158,89,129,0.083,0.917,0.0,-0.8504,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,3,4,2,0,0,5,0,14,6,3,3,1,11,19,3,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,14,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,8,4,10,0,16,7,2,14,0,1,1,0,7,8,0,2,5,66,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4875231537230169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13781481938181905,0.0,0.10925536888907428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049884164705043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861970146324549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18725450246496034,0.0,0.1834468541609002,0.0,0.18341187236687007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14972150759331154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19743920432243636,0.17746331932380166,0.15849021151602724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19908125456253709,0.1805527653184925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17197353885062128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12144913510584825,0.13631052569582536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17109284798834762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932374673005711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704863146948854,0.14252883437469488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862859095351797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190707308960354,0.0,0.17609002562702755,0.0,0.10450894721883157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168365024888796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13047969298742532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541657930535912 schizophrenia,_xargonsfury,2019/10/27,"How do you tell if you're schizophrenic? All doctors act like demons, I'm aware this forum frowns upon posts like these. When I last went to the doctor they were very concerned and I changed my story because they were recommending putting me into an institution and I was about to move across the country and everyone was counting on me to be strong so I said I imagined it all and they let me go. I used to post on here under the name WITCH_KING_XXYBORG and I became convinced that I was being followed by the Tormentor and the NSA so I deleted my account so this is my new account, it'll be deleted by tomorrow afternoon, I know Reddit holds this data so I never give the true whole story. I have been hearing voices since I was a teenager. They never talk directly to me, they always talk around me. I always hear funny things like the spongebob guy saying ""ARE YA READY KIDS"" or various family members saying nonsensical phrases, lately when I've been falling asleep I hear a man and a woman arguing in the next unit over but my housemate swears he's asleep when I'm hearing it, and he doesn't have any women over, and now he thinks I'm kinda weird for even bringing it up. My urologist put me on TRT because I'm physically incapable of producing testosterone naturally, which helps me have sex but makes me feel like a demonic machine which I do not like as I've always been a very emotional man and I liked this about myself. I told my family the TRT made the voices go away so they would not worry, but this is not the case, I was sick of being a burden. I live with my wife in a foreign place a thousand miles away from my family now, I didn't want them to worry while I was gone. Since I've been on TRT I feel like I am Kiljaden the Deceiver, like I've drunk the blood of Mannoroth and now I am Deus Ex Machina, sworn enemy of Neo and Agent Smith. That's a Warcraft reference. My wife is severely agoraphobic and cannot hold a job so it's my job to hold down the fort and bring home the bread, and I'm ok at conversation in real life, even when I'm talking to someone I'm sure is a demon I just pretend they're a person because my therapist says demons aren't real and I get through my day that way. I have a bachelors degree and I'm working on a second and then a masters because I want my family to love me. When I was a child they told me my IQ was in the 140s and now it's between 80 and 90; and my family doesn't believe it. I have to keep them thinking I'm smart. [Redacted] I can't get a job but I've been looking for a job as a dishwasher. I'm good at it, I worked as a dishwasher for three years at Sodexo and sometimes when I close my eyes I'm still back there. I've been working online as a programmer in secret. They can't know about this which is why I post secretly on a username related to my favorite computer game. **Things fall apart, the centre cannot hold.** [Redacted] I don't want to actually do anything to myself because the cops will be called and I know they're all demons and they work with the NSA and the Tormentor so I won't receive help, I'll just be locked up. I can't say the Tormentor's name because she has a biolock on her name so whenever anyone says her name she'll be notified and then she'll know where I am. I have no idea what to do, I'm the only one holding it all together. If I wasn't me, my wife would starve and my family would hate me; I have to hold it all together, I have to pretend I'm a different man. It's all unravelling around me and I have to hold it all together. Lord Senator TDez gave me Fireball Ministry to help in these trying times. I made a wiki for [Redacted] so they would know what to do, but I have to stay strong so I can play the part I've been assigned in Ragnarok. I don't know what to do. I'm so confused. All of my friends abandoned me, and I deserve it. I played a nasty trick on Lord Senator TDez and he didn't deserve that. Someday I hope he finds this post or it gets linked to *A Light In the Darkness* which is his IRC friends all linked together on one website. --- *Like the time that our friend Chuck came over to our house, He said he needed somebody to take care of his pets, because he was going out of town, I asked him, ""where?"" and he said, ""New Mexico"". I asked if I could get a ride he said, ""no, you don't want to follow me where it is that I'm going"". He pulled out of the drive way; that was the last time we saw him 'cause he drove straight to his parent's cabin and put a bullet in his head* --- I am Christ Holch and I am Kiljaden the Deceiver; I am Deus Ex Machina, and Neo, and Agent Smith. I am Pauly D and I am The Pine King. I am the Champlain Islands, and I am New Orleans. I am stronger than The Tormenter but I'm nowhere near as strong as the being that haunts me. I am Ghost Rider and I am Marshall Tucker. I have no mouth, and I am screaming. I am drunk because alcohol is the only thing that makes everyone and everything SHUT UP.",1.9129236327874464,3.6695676750972797,3.542757087270708,89.78343759353487,77.98832684824903,6.7365801513661445,24.33172275195621,7.650382748546888,1.1085558729208531,3862,134,839,57,91,1283,390,1028,0.085,0.8079999999999999,0.107,0.9793,7,0,1,0,0,0,109.0,3,3,12,10,38,34,3,1,63,1,95,17,6,8,13,133,169,78,1,14,16,6,2,9,3,9,6,16,2,9,43,50,4,9,18,7,2,23,23,8,0,5,36,22,136,26,94,114,12,110,8,1,3,2,97,49,0,8,40,540,179,15,0.0,0.0,0.051726768900581005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056647906145986325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13231714486541682,0.0,0.0,0.03604628727288222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03706342826472552,0.0,0.04361989307792498,0.09437417592754364,0.09910798067737282,0.0,0.09960284029595733,0.04075878269133285,0.0,0.2584985190060717,0.0,0.0,0.05972025607960672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054125637463150016,0.060625398332626236,0.05404373381649632,0.054452351743171534,0.056073925751083685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04232143530948647,0.0,0.0,0.03418485442273232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055380586849645,0.0,0.108508946972348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059625260069229434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07002068302159037,0.0,0.0,0.10130010398427404,0.04763888987603507,0.0,0.2998192770289215,0.0,0.053603431896811084,0.07573581260087567,0.0,0.0,0.04844704737325952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12285824029774428,0.0,0.11077498638472504,0.05084873477650107,0.12049942775784402,0.04445939850329502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05248484089335652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052333016794785615,0.05440003623437877,0.0,0.2389690404206353,0.0,0.10658756553573406,0.0,0.05316991455185152,0.052647487142472006,0.0,0.06116246837548114,0.0,0.05983796886842953,0.0,0.0,0.21040337838321027,0.04711467753508662,0.0,0.0,0.17478615748119633,0.08641486328032134,0.05979372308152672,0.0,0.0,0.05420281213761303,0.03744011005899687,0.23306700666304886,0.0,0.046805775032551886,0.0,0.04451217122411432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047840501594250726,0.10031220192463908,0.07076459808212791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056337598354440716,0.0,0.03930370219208448,0.08176387360770923,0.15358223535454454,0.0563730916694706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07183725129175224,0.08062777457894242,0.0,0.0,0.05885752634626575,0.057400953042541086,0.0,0.0,0.046283294933463566,0.055380586849645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20306257803043634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15985873895890151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12066616924558247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20168555700075105,0.21076477165464907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05988233970247048,0.0,0.08769516978361352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044912297240284144,0.0,0.05242485601344957,0.0,0.0,0.05649795400641786,0.04233111762225801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04995806769009774,0.0,0.03985434610241846,0.1278140264306219,0.04633008110992179,0.0,0.0,0.061544716666035275,0.10564563522106807,0.06792894325828179,0.0,0.0,0.09272567684881958,0.0,0.0,0.10130010398427404,0.0,0.03598798358427388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045780660042908566,0.0,0.08747194794785204,0.12505860029477606,0.08414830069575198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04913762416666173,0.04783018743446132,0.05917994571504704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15435766562584596,0.107661495644225,0.0,0.15061739433833654,0.0,0.0,0.0341344950854009 schizophrenia,strictlyinconsistent,2019/10/27,"Voices out loud How many of you experience “people” or “aliens” using your own voice box to speak? Has anyone ever felt like someone somewhere far away is controlling your mind enough to make you say certain things? Even change the accent in how you say those things? Do anybody’s “voices” ever communicate with them out loud? Like having a conversation with yourself, but you know you’re only one half of the conversation?",6.109200000000001,8.40914012,5.647666666666666,76.83550000000002,67.8,7.666666666666668,25.833333333333336,8.344100000000001,1.836333333333334,339,10,55,5,6,104,57,75,0.0,0.92,0.08,0.6136,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,6,1,1,5,3,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,5,3,17,8,4,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,0,0,3,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,9,7,3,10,7,2,7,0,0,0,0,12,5,0,1,4,38,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510404782336362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20295020369240652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228511850047658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24227560981558804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2231979406029348,0.0,0.14267376150808406,0.3907900933403016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21130099701812613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20740521024445946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187144401304843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21106491580046546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14418955877468134,0.21900206827334168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21811034739335824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463751910993994,0.16428671336520073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14975538880318828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3435625185899902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18302610339475495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28701729286194105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865648460078748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JX0530,2019/10/27,"Is it normal to confuse reality and dreams? Like the title said, I often spend all day confusing between reality and dream. Is this part of schizophrenia or is it something else?",4.951145833333332,7.700972656250002,5.901250000000001,71.75208333333336,72.4375,8.016666666666666,32.541666666666664,8.841846274778883,3.3115916666666667,143,7,22,3,3,47,27,32,0.102,0.696,0.20199999999999999,0.5803,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,8,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,3,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889186265068724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742409292987505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188669046123861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43893833055200776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4851331033373729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42614423184570827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448871407337191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DowntownIce8,2019/02/21,"Advice for using CBD for Schizophrenia My sibling has been suffering from schizophrenia (to be more specific schizoaffective) since she was 17. Pharmaceutical drugs have kept her stable for most of her life but she has re-lapses every few years and we just wait for her to rebound since she is already on the gold standard of drugs for her disorder. Recently she started to take a turn for the worse and her doctors are pretty much out of options. She also had a Seizure because of the pharmaceutical drug she is taking which is a known side affect. **I've been reading up on CBD for Schizophrenia but not sure what has worked for others? What dosage have they started with; increased too? I was hoping someone can provide me with some guidance (real world) on what we specifically should try?** I've attempted to get some information from her Doctors but all provide the same response, ""we don't have experience to make suggestions, it hasn't been vetted thoroughly"" etc.. Hope someone in the forum can assist.",5.356194751381216,7.961861922651937,5.120217541436464,78.50198377071823,70.65745856353591,7.39792817679558,30.649516574585643,8.278499904357787,2.529488674033149,812,35,132,13,16,250,114,181,0.063,0.848,0.08900000000000001,0.7063,0,0,3,0,0,0,24.0,3,0,1,2,3,4,0,0,8,0,22,6,0,3,2,32,34,6,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,6,8,0,2,2,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,7,0,19,3,27,25,10,13,0,1,0,0,18,8,0,6,4,100,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13981606228184848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15789227266797656,0.11442097702749225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722020393977567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16398200811196031,0.2928967646115203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4977819196340597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595719555542471,0.0,0.0,0.12055102117771675,0.0,0.0,0.13995963706766973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07475336370244083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842213306684528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010615936193167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09550697157061057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518021953498463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455637380410919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431186603429056,0.16285629690565448,0.0,0.0,0.14127418032522493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23671441128466564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424623391894573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20254543716498996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13485115099681005,0.0,0.21515661804516226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09714188784278303,0.1556298892369264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235751298163913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10416390103370582,0.0,0.14581068341691492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09213879086587752 schizophrenia,CrypticConscience,2019/02/21,"Anyone afraid they might have schizophrenia but don't want to deal with how a diagnosis may affect their life I've shown alot of the signs a schizophrenic person would have, and have even been in a psych ward, but I lied on all of the tests to get out quicker, and I'm stuck in a place where I don't know if a diagnosis would lead me to a place where things would be better for me, or if it would negatively affect me.",39.9896551724138,6.229579919540233,32.58137931034483,16.42655172413795,54.402298850574724,36.6390804597701,93.89655172413794,14.554592549557764,12.598986206896553,331,6,76,4,1,105,58,87,0.08800000000000001,0.865,0.047,-0.3363,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,2,4,2,0,1,9,0,13,2,0,4,1,24,18,8,0,7,5,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,7,1,11,9,2,9,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,6,0,55,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16057540593306546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031052275373068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367572765928257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15168051265515667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998173967413453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262086801961935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622073605269767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24362051732670184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20052000637334316,0.4798671159438678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525681024388206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13545249622028832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6525421518947043,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DavyTheDemiGod,2019/02/21,Geodon I've been prescribed geodon and i was wondering how bad the side effects are..does anyone have advice?,9.5295,8.88516895,7.550000000000002,76.55500000000005,59.5,10.0,35.0,8.841846274778883,2.9294999999999995,89,3,15,1,1,26,18,20,0.179,0.821,0.0,-0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,4,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.536543212150813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3839213390559866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4584491164671169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5954411763750186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mentalhealthwarrior1,2019/02/21,"I was a bright, young Hollywood executive living my dream...until mental illness took the reigns. Suddenly, I found myself on the streets of Skid Row with nothing but my precious puppy & the Voice. I believe if I can by brave enough to share my true story with you here and now (link below), then maybe it will actually help someone. I hope so anyway. [https://www.lovewhatmatters.com/i-love-you-cindy-ill-always-love-you-please-forgive-me-i-was-no-longer-going-be-her-momma-and-watch-her-grow-up-do-it-now-the-voice-says/](https://www.lovewhatmatters.com/i-love-you-cindy-ill-always-love-you-please-forgive-me-i-was-no-longer-going-be-her-momma-and-watch-her-grow-up-do-it-now-the-voice-says/)",27.52751243781095,35.69687341791045,11.660522388059704,31.351579601990036,23.77611940298507,7.451741293532338,27.58457711442786,8.344100000000001,2.174006965174129,617,11,49,5,6,130,58,67,0.075,0.664,0.261,0.9393,0,0,0,0,0,0,90.0,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,0,1,9,6,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,10,6,7,2,1,8,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,2,4,34,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.18976588212410367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106984094355295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190909526439925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20093019301312268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213216446485242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303431074938203,0.0,0.0,0.19314364789362268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171262339285207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.702034569662874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953622092205965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19597094766223294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18659057164525586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15464319022362338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16476617204533608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160533232569364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nitishshukla86,2019/02/21,"Fear of having Schizophrenia So it all started last december when i smoked weed and got a panic attack. during the attack i thought that time is very slow and that im in a dream and would never snap out of it. Thankfully i was okay next morning. After 15 days anxiety kicked and i eventually developed depression. my depression was all around not being able to function properly because of the anxiety. during this period the 'dream' thing came back and start to question the realty of everything. i started to ask questions like ""what if youtube is not real "", ""what if my mother is not real and im just imagining"". SO i met a psychaitrist who diagnosed me with anxiety and obsession and prescribed me fluoxtine 20mg risperidone 1mg and clonazepam .25 mg. by this time i had googled a lot and did a mistake(which i regret a lot) of searching risperidone online, after that i read almost all articles, websites and watched almost all videos on schizophrenia on youtube, after which i began to suspect everything i hear and see to confirm im not hallucinating ,causing me a lot of distress. Later one day i was showering and thought ""what if im in a game and everyone else is just programmed and my actions are just keystrokes by someone"" i quickly related this which schiz symptom and medication i was taking and start to feel the control. it stayed around 15 minutes but i ignored it and it faded away. fast forward to today. Now im living in constant fear of having schizophrenia, I do not hear or see anything extra, i do not have any delusion. I always try to calm myself down by talking rationally to myself that i do not have schizophrenia but the second moment i doubt it by thinking ""What if i do have schizophrenia but since im taking medications for it i not experiencing any symptoms"",""If you didnt had schizo then doctor wouldnt have prescribed me"". My greated fear is schizophrenia. please tell me its just anxiety and the medication is for something else.",6.35677685950413,7.786640303030302,6.586298622589536,73.70381157024795,66.07988980716254,9.113785123966943,35.73212121212121,9.3871,3.5880057079889798,1582,77,257,30,25,508,180,363,0.11699999999999999,0.848,0.035,-0.9746,1,0,2,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,0,1,12,18,2,7,15,1,28,6,0,2,5,71,48,31,0,7,20,1,1,1,0,2,6,2,1,0,23,24,0,2,8,5,0,3,11,13,0,2,14,7,34,5,36,31,8,42,0,3,3,0,12,11,0,13,30,193,57,3,0.0772575702587704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15472459356251247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06428448743021233,0.0,0.0,0.10507559410186734,0.0,0.2364073191387619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06357639755136446,0.13755123417274878,0.07222539918657384,0.1757832788686451,0.0725860304218114,0.05940630270378276,0.0,0.047095497750904686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836207872447695,0.0,0.07936480623292923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348798719507043,0.08665093438975031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964948291517164,0.0,0.1330836641145046,0.07841480755357393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790763968434066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12907757295262762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07382291918269338,0.13886824510339008,0.0,0.0,0.2608087362725426,0.039063748853087145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061789936549295765,0.08517674395347685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17414979318162416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5007086000705405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0629752311914409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03774414639782612,0.0,0.06821984996279604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19704487043144853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23348662238127385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05958580096169416,0.0,0.0821643024382275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05235172904897652,0.0,0.0,0.0906451126252449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480561213120273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17309231983078507,0.0,0.07727847725448851,0.17587205757823735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231285618497985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06390826047575722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06546008856996456,0.05947665204858234,0.0,0.0,0.2187332234867582,0.08234629044903648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030019689418329,0.11617615602268976,0.0620967085092511,0.06752652167141597,0.07112839081235899,0.0,0.0,0.051326496776613724,0.049503531497858994,0.0,0.12266776206224662,0.09009902101362266,0.0,0.0732311431147334,0.0,0.0,0.052452818885603165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06374558653078485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054881561283851264,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throw729away,2019/02/21,"This is getting worse When I'm changing my clothes I think that I'm doing it in a room full of people, but I know I'm not. This stops me from changing my clothes. Do I have schizophrenia? It happens in the shower as well. The thing is I know that no one's watching me but my actions are as if someone's looking at me. Eventually a do finish the task but this is wiered. 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Not schizophrenic but I do have a non specified psychotic disorder (that's what the psychiatrist said I had anyways) and don't know where else to ask this. Whenever I hallucinate, whether it be visual or auditory, I kind of just ignore it. For me, it's nothing more than putting on pants at this point. I'm still scared of course, but not nearly as phased as I used to be. Walked into the bathroom and saw the floor was a pool of blood, kinda just said ""oh"" and decided to pee later. Tbf it has been a whiiiile since I've had any really scary hallucinations so I don't know if I'd react so casually to those as well. Anyone else do this as well? 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I'm up late waiting for the hallucinations I know are coming after a really stressful and hard day. I'm fairly new to Reddit and have to say that this subreddit is really encouraging and uplifting and that all of you guys rock! Thanks all for making my night a little better. ,5.166964285714286,6.55019891071429,6.727142857142859,71.76785714285714,68.82142857142857,9.885714285714286,24.714285714285715,10.125756701596842,2.5345500000000007,233,6,41,6,4,80,41,56,0.086,0.754,0.16,0.6733,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,0,4,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,1,2,10,10,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,5,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,3,7,10,2,8,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,5,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22154752429990207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21578418376665634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615522367521893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4960701799137167,0.0,0.0,0.2243994358743341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766864093879005,0.0,0.2825757157865224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510675237505819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672111713811373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24193514999465765,0.0,0.2350779501656989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209543429148915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19920822167802274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869477208748273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306274010895237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PastelThreeEyedCat,2019/02/21,"Serious Question, 16 YO F I've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety for 4 years, and major depressive disorder for one, i was hospitalized for a week in may of 2017. I've had auditory hallucinations (like the ones that are inside of your head) at night for about two years now, and recently im starting to hear them in the middle of the day. The first time i heard them in the day was when i was doing my makeup, i heard a man yell ""its not going to work!"" and a woman replay ""It has to work!"" A week or two later (about three nights ago) I was imagining a conversation with my friend when i heard ""Shut up!"" For the past few months i've been dealing with a lot of depersonalization and feeling as if i'm in a simulation and people around me know what im thinking and doing all of the time. I don't feel that way 24/7 bubt the more i think about it the more i believe it. I recently told my mom and she got very upset, because her cousin has paranoid schizophrenia, so obviously she assumes this is the case. I have no idea if i even have the symptoms or it i could even qualify as a person with hallucinations. I have a psych eval in two weeks, but i was wondering if anyone had any thoughts about my situation. 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Here are some examples from my episode. I was either absurdly strong or weak. I could pick my girlfriend up as if she weighed nothing and then other times I could barely stand. Along the same lines I would either move really fast or really slow. Also my pain threshold was off the charts, got ran over and didn't even feel any pain till I was out of psychosis, attempted to punch my way out of my front door again couldn't feel it. Also I could barely eat even when I wanted to like my muscles for swallowing just wouldn't work (Sometimes I didn't want to because I believed I had to fast or my food was poisoned). Also I was really flexible, far more than I am now or was before. These things werent hallucinations or delusions as they were verified by people around me. Interested to hear how others felt and I hope you're all doing okay.",4.077517730496453,5.8583256170212765,4.863957446808513,82.5136666666667,72.08510638297872,7.992056737588652,26.363120567375887,8.648137234880735,1.898392482269504,768,26,147,14,15,248,121,188,0.073,0.804,0.12300000000000001,0.866,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,3,14,10,1,0,3,1,19,8,0,3,1,36,30,21,0,10,10,0,3,1,1,2,4,1,1,0,6,7,4,0,3,1,0,3,4,4,0,0,13,4,23,6,25,11,7,24,0,0,0,0,4,9,0,9,11,107,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444864960481729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09764609065638752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12782549931536885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875311014360624,0.0,0.12218447248542075,0.16177670379825726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15189912891442298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34393467579509673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14692836724462122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18967961694329832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520678734165213,0.0,0.13786887096610345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17362953883297425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484200108534512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12697611954353732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618363106880764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14261722055941892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07015079709826916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12207504159892207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14470489799062064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15261339384651146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13777843072165652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30557966362675026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29864157729282936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14362880857878044,0.0,0.2759621985140966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201413322221587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953947831589741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08372845520548537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16938614689079762,0.11397501962011848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045351945479608,0.0,0.0,0.10200218146359816,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ChickenNuggetKris,2019/02/21,"Natural Remedies for Schizo Symptoms? Hey guys. First post here. First of all, I would like to state I am not against medicine to treat schizophrenia. However I will not be able to see a psychiatrist until March, and I am just suffering in general until then. I know this is a broad question that depends on individual cases, but I hear there are many natural supplements and such that help with the ailments (especially somatic) of schizophrenia. Is there any you all know of that are non narcotic and accesible to the general publoc? Any siccess stories with them? Thanks in advance.",5.166504854368932,8.09994666990292,5.267776699029128,75.6406941747573,72.59223300970874,9.168543689320387,34.571844660194174,9.642632912329526,3.9928881553398057,469,25,77,13,10,147,72,103,0.019,0.826,0.155,0.9259,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,1,3,5,4,0,0,4,0,9,1,0,1,2,18,14,7,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,4,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,2,8,3,16,11,2,13,0,1,1,0,7,4,0,2,7,57,12,0,0.2487728012687555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33834807129121186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.423212035347118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463241852601673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28038502728636405,0.0,0.16674716478485585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734380512129978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12153782470034738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522165740513868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382555764616397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786824717511967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19823971388804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585701939225927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290365717283299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17672106038096164,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,peachandmilk,2019/01/30,"Hallucinations are getting worse but nothing has changed? Hi everyone. I think I’m in need of some advice please in terms of coping mechanisms and understanding. Any insight would be greatly appreciated. To preface I am undiagnosed and have had hallucinations since childhood. I feel no pressing reason to have a formal diagnosis as my doctor is aware of my symptoms and I had previously undergone years of therapy. Usually my symptoms have periods of manageable, bad, and really bad. These are usually in line with stress, lack of sleep etc. but sometimes not. For most of my life I very very very rarely have visual hallucinations not in my periphery however recently I’ve had a huge cloak thing with a red black face and grin with dark shadows on the eyes, appear right in the middle of my vision from far away and charge at me. It was in public and some very kind people helped me after freaking out but nothing has happened for things to escalate. Am I fucked guys? Like is this just it like now it has to escalate because its fucking terrifying and I don’t like it. Does anyone have experience with things changing for no reason? I would please like some advice, insight anything please? Thank you kindly for your time.",5.420947844724934,7.915280239819008,5.925501309835672,73.29682067158849,70.13122171945703,8.9965229816623,31.088592522029053,9.549672527348893,3.2977185520362,987,43,162,24,19,318,135,221,0.14400000000000002,0.6729999999999999,0.183,0.8689,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,0,0,2,15,2,1,5,0,22,9,3,2,0,35,33,12,0,4,6,0,2,4,0,2,4,0,0,1,10,13,0,0,7,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,4,5,18,9,33,26,7,25,0,0,3,2,6,14,2,5,14,111,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20342516252074044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07078270808264367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07278002873204929,0.0,0.08565470654320781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977931335271634,0.0,0.17381654247561207,0.06345045008410467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22022042311540568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653742311592916,0.09108720783224172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11608448436681985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09945955924363063,0.0,0.1018170282161166,0.0,0.0,0.052629498892029294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19245345085301174,0.054381145170168496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11475625056840658,0.0,0.1030624636483236,0.09204376276306292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976730113183592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21678112135525926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07351970428537635,0.2034065412918499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771791684888004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19974850762175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07216079839879666,0.0,0.0,0.3427687050581891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668077751658248,0.21403747918643964,0.1027733245509027,0.0,0.0,0.08888970263918512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08610181620176413,0.0,0.1041621391705163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10294467364649393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11923127109464644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21637242955693267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09582929635170014,0.11903252009947204,0.0,0.20745227106049186,0.06669472676358892,0.0,0.0,0.06069394855627939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083582053516411,0.0,0.0,0.22927418168826275,0.3435306005382089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607351361230884,0.14788079247816602,0.0,0.0,0.06702859528604029 schizophrenia,ace_of_william,2019/01/30,Thank you (getting an evaluation) Thanks to those who commented on my last post here it seems simple once it’s said to me but it’s hard to justify spending time and money on getting a diagnosis when I keep convincing myself I’m faking it but I have set my first visit for an evaluation and again thanks to those who commented and let me know it may be part of the problem believing I’m faking it ,5.292249999999999,5.7223987250000015,6.727500000000003,75.3275,68.0,10.4,31.0,10.355215969177356,3.14645,318,12,62,8,5,109,53,80,0.142,0.733,0.125,-0.3506,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,1,3,7,0,0,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,10,15,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,10,3,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,3,0,1,1,2,8,4,8,11,1,10,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,2,5,44,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486475448305111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877229446750492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23060792268271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19769925567773608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19616374181256985,0.0,0.0,0.12128812952545065,0.17989577575550214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22567545830616706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23503283509448275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389910389187549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21136468088364307,0.0,0.0,0.2111751862161582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20993136109950306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20091232199335105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6095585582464179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286889541602815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jntythesunshineband,2019/01/30,"What are some methods you use to redirect your thoughts / relax? I went back to work today for the first time in months and I am already becoming obsessive about everything that has happened, and becoming extremely paranoid with lots of voices running around my mind. Are there any mothods to share? Exercises to calm yourself when you feel an episode coming? 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I'm trying to figure out their ""background"". Are they just voices that the brain forges? Are they voices of people you have met? People you have seen or heard of? I've watched videos that demonstrate what it may look and sound like and read about it but I can't seem to find an answer to what determines these voices. Why are they male or female? Why deep or high pitched voices? What determines WHAT they say? Sorry if the question is too loaded or ignorant but I honestly can't seem to find a satisfying answer",3.8505210918114163,6.703106483870967,4.40258064516129,80.4873325062035,76.90322580645163,6.718610421836227,22.44168734491315,7.882392219407189,1.3453146401985108,540,16,93,9,13,171,74,124,0.032,0.883,0.084,0.8229,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,6,0,3,3,0,0,6,0,11,1,1,1,0,27,20,11,0,1,9,0,0,1,0,2,0,9,0,1,12,5,0,1,9,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,12,11,2,11,15,0,4,0,0,3,0,16,3,0,11,2,64,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831214863782845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260059374255291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3700790969736265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281806928349983,0.0,0.0,0.21390406734290746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112635802579961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09890893716467916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700106097698742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21477200252737885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807126193385852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267951327522633,0.0,0.20250907174805047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16099977314790334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3686135543583733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266309965937681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13745316989246384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3653670044625841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Drudkh_,2019/01/30,"Advice on hiding my diagnosis Hi I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia 10 years ago. After many bad years, I finally became able to semi-manage my symptoms. I'm currently doing my Master's of science in a research direction (to paranoid to be more specific), after which I plan to work in a research post. The problem is, I am extremely paranoid about people finding out about my diagnosis. If people see me as a unstable and crazy, I will lose all credibility in my field. Even when my symptoms are under control, I still come across as a very strange person and most people realize that there is something wrong with me after a few minutes. I have tried to manage this by simply not talking to people whenever possible. This year I have responsibilities that requires me to work closely with other people on a regular basis and I don't think I can hide my symptoms from them for very long. Another thing I am worried about is how to explain my absence when the inevitable relapse comes and I am unable to be in public for some time. &#x200B; Does anyone have any advice on hiding symptoms from others and explaining absences?",6.6953983516483495,8.045166644230768,7.336978021978023,68.9223076923077,65.25,9.212087912087913,36.01098901098901,9.424239791934726,3.7647392857142883,914,44,138,17,14,302,128,208,0.154,0.8390000000000001,0.006999999999999999,-0.9778,1,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,7,9,4,0,0,8,0,17,5,0,2,1,26,24,11,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,8,12,0,2,5,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,1,1,24,0,36,20,5,28,0,1,1,0,7,11,0,3,14,111,32,6,0.11771208895534807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23005378195728984,0.10434466451788316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12754099920352835,0.14303307231093645,0.08004825700916307,0.1234313887757896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08230702953997182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828467744047524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20279708338873004,0.0,0.0,0.13202411702550812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11947529246967158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030106422925944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07774772458585631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12894783972913154,0.10758671677089172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417149454206454,0.0,0.13168971795477816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193415825577985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4080337057370706,0.10278165570888068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13270269373078794,0.11273564259246308,0.0,0.0,0.11263457176540985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380129466187948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09062051697017008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09400502629464504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4893917263139415,0.0,0.0946125182476276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07820268142136234,0.07542515359675506,0.0,0.0,0.06863886568540735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991878157622956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942496023907964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17139160540741313,0.11954234021492775,0.0,0.0,0.12869969051937286,0.14303307231093645,0.2274081778344302 schizophrenia,Archimedes08,2019/01/30,"Adverse Reactions to Risperdal? Hey guys, I've dealt with schizoaffective disorder of the bipolar type since I was about 15, but was officially diagnosed about 15 years later, only a few weeks ago. I'm now going through the effects of antipsychotics, which have been the main reason why I did not mention my symptoms to doctors. I have always been afraid of these drugs and saw how the affected my father when he was on them. &#x200B; I was on Risperdal but it made me feel totally detatched from myself. It left me with this numb, hollow feeling in the front of my head, as if there were a big weight there. My eyes were hardly able to focus on anything and kept wanting to roll up into the back of my head. I'm an undergrad studying physics and it was awful trying to focus while under the influence of this med. All I wanted to do was sleep on it, but even that was not possible. Instead, I would lie there, aware of my surroundings, but unable to drift off. It was like being conscious in a cryogenic tube. &#x200B; 3 days ago, I then experienced the worst panic I've had in years. I was up for 3 consecutive days, flopping back and forth in my bed, trying to fall asleep, but absolutely helpless, caught in a constant, intense and rapid stream of visions, voices and intrusive thoughts. My mom ended up having to stay in my apartment to keep a eye on me. &#x200B; Could it be that the Risperdal is causing this? Has anyone else experienced panic or manic anxiety from an antipsych? &#x200B; My psychiatrist has now put me on Geodon (ziprasidone). I was supposed to take it last night, but I was so terrified of ending up in my old panicked state, I couldn't do it. I took some benzos he gave me for the anxiety and was actually able to sleep pretty well through the night. &#x200B; Does anyone have experience with Geodon? Or anxiety from antipsychotics in general? Is it normal for them to cause anxiety attacks?",5.849498607242342,7.230532300835653,5.8861660167130925,78.43843008356548,67.21727019498607,8.752356545961003,32.4658495821727,9.065960079200117,2.870281693593315,1532,65,270,27,25,483,196,359,0.146,0.813,0.040999999999999995,-0.9921,0,0,1,0,0,0,63.0,0,0,2,1,15,10,1,3,18,1,33,14,7,8,2,46,49,22,0,7,11,2,4,1,0,1,6,1,1,1,16,11,1,2,6,0,0,7,3,8,1,0,25,10,31,2,57,19,6,56,0,1,3,0,10,25,0,4,23,194,47,3,0.14310177036611674,0.0,0.06982334259939231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12685108516281404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05953606829420997,0.3876267710109983,0.4347107856603424,0.0,0.0,0.2189449252866188,0.0,0.0,0.10006008512187826,0.07331233736246139,0.0588802819751343,0.0,0.0,0.08139946131689367,0.0,0.1100364282664154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14700493736284304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07732108796524044,0.0,0.05712755967015565,0.0,0.0,0.09228880337205753,0.0,0.0,0.07262264232650334,0.0,0.0,0.08200351329776813,0.07323536285546386,0.06261466179660087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297631090973102,0.0,0.05977158336139141,0.0,0.12674569368863234,0.0,0.0,0.047258684850940334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06999049524746212,0.0,0.0,0.07235655482421201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040664016940328174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07084662554537145,0.0,0.0,0.06409553909790236,0.0,0.1468637012573859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0635977143152913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058323521193624675,0.0,0.0,0.07774024610645745,0.0,0.0,0.034956148325630564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06770317758823734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07947690344594585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08379953195954035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342913175088213,0.07010467578802827,0.0,0.0,0.07508061784521566,0.0,0.0,0.05441767238808568,0.0,0.16789909452576965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08066287232584855,0.0,0.07279297323872015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0719284020960685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07356622675128327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0591876316098718,0.0,0.14320511675326075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07626372345693748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07436876604982852,0.053797361040129915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0568034105239166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07949566613686973,0.09715670863168248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08440513180095936,0.0,0.05739380421098704,0.08712970223226807,0.06433283869543524,0.0,0.06456354484944506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05082769593885905,0.0,0.4347107856603424,0.09215284833994143 schizophrenia,mprc-trtmntresearch,2019/01/30,"Research Opportunity University of Maryland researchers are studying the link between gluten and schizophrenia. Consider being tested for antibodies to gluten. The visit will take approximately 30 minutes to complete, is a simple blood draw, and you will be compensated for your participation. To learn more and sign up, For more information please email [mprc-trp@som.umaryland.edu](mailto:mprc-trp@som.umaryland.edu) or visit [http://www.mprc.umaryland.edu/research/Research-Programs/Treatment-Research-Program-TRP/](http://www.mprc.umaryland.edu/research/Research-Programs/Treatment-Research-Program-TRP/)",22.044583333333332,25.59270095833333,15.357777777777779,17.01500000000002,32.472222222222236,13.311111111111117,61.05555555555557,12.602617957971056,9.085572222222222,527,31,35,11,4,146,52,72,0.0,0.9109999999999999,0.08900000000000001,0.6573,0,0,0,0,0,0,51.0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,6,1,1,0,0,8,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,9,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,0,26,2,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6189447051861975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6479997609911379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4438510579883744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dericcoz,2019/01/30,"Did I just have a fucking schizophrenic episode? Hey, im 14yo. I've tripped acid 5 times, smoked weed more than I could count, drank 2 times, juul in school, dph 2x, addys 3x, lsa 2x, xan 2x, etc. so I wouldn't be surprised. I have so much family history of nutcases, addicts, etc. but I thought that I was fine and that none of that would affect me because im retarded and think that im different - for some reason. Last night I took 225mg DPH, didn't hallucinate, had around 8 hours of sleep. At around 12pm I got really tired (as if I was awake all night and just laying down at 6-9am), which is really weird for me. Then I had these weird ""nightmares"" and i'm still so confused as to exactly what happened. I would be usually very VERY dizzy, almost like I was barred out on like a ton of Xanax. Then my parents would call me to do something while im unable to move straight and I would be so goddamn paranoid and anxious about it for some reason. A few times I had shit jumping at my face that would petrify me. The weirdest thing is I would always seem to be back in my bed and either ""wake up"" and walk somewhere or enter back into a ""nightmare"". There was one time that I finally thought it was over, was gonna go to my brothers room bc I wasn't dizzy anymore. In the hallway, I randomly tripped on my pc... MY FUCKING COMPUTER, IN THE HALLWAY! Well anyway, my parents ""woke up"" from the noise and I would go back to the same fucking process. There was once where all I can remember is my brother COMPLETELY RANDOMLY telling me that he always gets attacked. For some reason I instantly knew he mean't that thing that jumped at my face. I went into more fucking paranoia and shit. At the end I could feel my entire body, phone, and house shaking. It was very weird. I have never been diagnosed with any mental illnesses. I hardly have any emotion, let a lone anxiety and/or paranoia. This only lasted 1 hour IRL but it felt like at least 10-15 times that I went into this loop. After I felt very mentally drained and sorta like I do after an acid trip. This has scared me to either completely stop or ABSOLUTELY LIMIT every drug I can take that has ties with disorders (so probably none tbh). I only use them so often cause I escape boredom with it. When im sitting in my room, staring at my pc for hours, it gets pretty boring. Could this have been my first schizophrenic episode? I just don't want it to get worse and need to know so I can avoid things that would make it.",2.7251374635156806,4.607575030364373,3.6762950757932416,89.16741973448829,76.0242914979757,6.862555314942098,25.25355427925808,7.738981096181357,1.2868072309575376,1931,68,399,28,43,619,252,494,0.198,0.7440000000000001,0.057999999999999996,-0.9973,3,1,3,0,0,0,73.0,0,0,1,2,24,23,7,4,12,0,49,21,7,7,4,80,81,31,0,15,10,4,4,4,0,10,8,0,3,0,30,22,2,3,13,1,0,14,7,16,1,2,27,7,53,7,52,36,18,71,0,1,1,4,11,28,6,13,32,259,83,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07113952786608695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06534524381112539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10859774539212527,0.0,0.0,0.08875370304218975,0.0,0.04992126187623664,0.07372159239577117,0.06471719565589297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618474770667887,0.0,0.07423901366365387,0.0,0.15053531871238598,0.0,0.039779930418053465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248557699784097,0.0,0.0,0.06663447358679289,0.0,0.0,0.06703669395929833,0.0,0.0,0.13684099492971954,0.0,0.0,0.15630669838512884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06623426308656652,0.0,0.06817945108112901,0.07478992914314476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07567715289178024,0.0,0.0,0.07340509975321219,0.05779814223172764,0.0,0.1455571301576802,0.0,0.0,0.054981655828116316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06151828915208835,0.0,0.03299579122113156,0.0,0.1253134943778426,0.07148561819366762,0.0,0.0555073879477652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413153846347568,0.10228193029628176,0.0,0.07417386946823791,0.0,0.052191812250666915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05770635942340975,0.0,0.05845726158240407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927943646122531,0.07529756829642455,0.0,0.0,0.3524426293690397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035863422399866104,0.10638597889362897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06672948390072361,0.0,0.12752467552935065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043559410685868535,0.0,0.0,0.07108376949994581,0.0,0.0,0.13152698135355176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0693576350402922,0.047971245485120766,0.04838707917970833,0.05033005551182741,0.0,0.0,0.12247814413212045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694963462278704,0.044219686345560894,0.09926145108591496,0.0,0.0,0.14491987414926466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06638961053868513,0.07035785134899955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836103348775413,0.20128453031316929,0.0,0.0,0.07392321630603127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06533342587988322,0.06604335026970412,0.0,0.05940732615118366,0.0,0.0,0.13397030398580634,0.0,0.0,0.06530391262640968,0.0,0.0,0.05023786121776221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05211415276208396,0.05455759422924413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04906498098038197,0.0,0.05703730636142401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13006112481337456,0.04181391284679478,0.0,0.1036131960040866,0.1902587804472135,0.07500307464691372,0.0,0.0,0.07250268919545666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05636091001222913,0.07187112922072139,0.2153747273308235,0.03849014251248767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05867368670093207,0.12098738686931378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0665022389140336,0.37085238179716257,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FlimsyChemist9,2019/01/30,"I am diagnosed schizoaffective disorder, and I am afraid of cognitive impairment. Hi guys. I was diagnosed schizoaffective disorder in 2017. There was so hallucination at all. But I had delusion , and auditory stimuli were amplified . I got WAIS test , and I got a normal range of intelligence and the premorbid intelligence was in range of 115 \~ 125. so my intelligence got decreased. I wanna be a professor in the future, and for that I need to have high intelligence like premorbid intelligence. How can I reverse my intelligence or how can I reduce cognitive intelligence impairment by schizoaffective disorder ? ",7.497942794279427,10.670878970297034,8.53122112211221,53.886028602860314,66.22772277227722,14.389878987898786,39.93509350935094,12.650343791298138,7.313434763476348,500,29,68,25,9,169,58,101,0.073,0.7070000000000001,0.21899999999999997,0.9442,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,4,0,11,2,0,2,1,13,15,11,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,2,12,1,11,6,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,2,52,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4016409232120711,0.0,0.0,0.6802830164070419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4747324121898582,0.0,0.0,0.19590931408535645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090465457048553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666282605308464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467082915067205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19385763036820025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Brvisatha123,2019/01/30,"for the first time a voices in my head said something after a subliminal video there is lots of subliminal videos on youtube that effects your sub conscious so i've searched for it and got bit deeper to point where there was satan affirmations and things like that and there was hypno sissy(calling yourself slut and other disqusting things) videos on adult sites,i was curious so watched some of those and after being disqusted i closed all the tabs and deleted my history but seconds later a girl voice in my head said:maybe this girl is sick of called various things. i freaked out and had an anxiety attack,it was just terrible any ideas what that really was,what should i do ? should i see a therapist ?",5.721755725190839,7.659362587786263,5.46251145038168,79.23162977099237,68.16030534351145,9.209465648854962,29.893893129770994,9.642632912329526,2.8676100763358785,573,22,102,13,10,177,88,131,0.124,0.85,0.026000000000000002,-0.9301,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,7,4,0,0,7,0,11,4,2,1,1,19,14,10,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,3,0,3,11,9,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,3,0,2,7,5,8,1,13,4,5,13,1,0,2,1,6,8,0,2,6,71,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354410096122353,0.0,0.15236290718867707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22658225220061154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174397753750125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20337270599931886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694121238188701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15929277320096255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4088074743869346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248363293376586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730338122318996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16932543608730802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000909371380896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188278053172305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275920641243352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789085857524371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871103914836585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153329188774436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312492961741929,0.3969549315064112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116136410890321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Naeemxsaleem,2019/01/30,"Can anyone offer me advice on how to convince a friend who might be suffering from schizophrenia to seek treatment? I came into contact with one of my old friends from college about a week ago, he sent me a Facebook request and i was pretty glad to get in touch with him after such a long time. I checked his Facebook out of curiosity and some of the thing he had posted really disturbed me. Basically it was posts after posts about how the government had invented some sort of device that spied on his thoughts and he kept hearing their voices,they were stealing his thoughts and then using it to make money off of him and now he needs the government to compensate him for all the harm that they have done to his psyche and how he is numb and has lost all sense of self because of them. He even said that they set his house on fire and he recorded a video but i checked it out and there was nothing in that video. He has made a suicide attempt and when i confronted him that he might be suffering from a mental illness he said that he has had all the tests(CT, MRI) but they found nothing. He seems pretty convinced and i don't know how to persuade him to seek treatment. Do you think its ok for me to tell him that he might have possible schizophrenia and maybe rationalize that the stuff that he is seeing is not real and he needs to go to a psychiatrist or should i contact his family because he has made a post that he might harm someone. He even said that he has an increased sex drive and he is having problems because of that. Whats the best way to approach this situation, he has been going through this for two years now and i want to help him as much as i can!",7.785,6.292706987951809,7.2880421686747,79.76893072289158,63.45783132530121,10.107228915662652,35.50903614457832,8.660442795831766,2.743255421686748,1328,49,268,15,16,416,166,332,0.107,0.7979999999999999,0.094,-0.6745,0,0,0,0,0,1,16.0,0,1,5,3,13,17,1,1,17,1,33,4,0,8,3,56,58,26,1,5,4,0,2,0,2,5,3,4,0,1,22,21,0,1,6,2,3,7,2,10,0,2,21,7,33,7,45,30,8,34,0,3,1,1,55,9,0,9,12,190,55,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09757601157217537,0.08851439959706428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06982012291677678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18260991241046975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10479043899144944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420618549447792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218514137570447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319050321078093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09413330856076199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10948457572789708,0.15429364993184486,0.0,0.05216950729870007,0.0,0.11349847074806532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254252882586466,0.0,0.06692992054909025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11521791857376072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054877056129850735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836750146376109,0.0,0.0,0.10900225612308848,0.0,0.0,0.18896822545410866,0.06665321001825393,0.0,0.10031659819104123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10062917947222512,0.4237165552460602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07340405781004462,0.14808070632513307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19162489487245649,0.0,0.104779802260518,0.0,0.06766354260821462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11257019527319187,0.3825294858483497,0.20317449591670625,0.0,0.09554663422181038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11365552463803573,0.06396892339153304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849515892003922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07957057811039872,0.09090318083348976,0.10416932687029494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11223989387787818,0.0,0.0,0.08460583007578606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430875087359,0.1092238881930066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08727665273526833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06633845079549841,0.06398230533377124,0.0,0.15854558188876908,0.058225573997855065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754268714044001,0.0,0.0,0.08624165278442894,0.0,0.0,0.0588963788105071,0.07925932614559242,0.08009672307976773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06430259568926723 schizophrenia,Au5tin370,2019/04/10,"I don't know what happy feels like. After looking back throughout my life (medicated or not), I don't think I've felt happy. I feel like a fraud with a fake smile. When my voices were more active I always felt like I was trudging through mud only to feel content once on medication. Now years later, off medication and in a better spot in life I'm still only content. Its hard to tell someone you love them when nothing brings you joy. How do you deal with this?",2.955217391304348,4.8901473478260895,4.029782608695655,86.65380434782612,75.52173913043478,5.9043478260869575,23.45652173913044,6.6274283507984215,0.6704086956521733,364,11,72,3,8,118,65,92,0.166,0.6409999999999999,0.192,0.4069,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,1,1,6,9,0,0,3,0,5,6,0,1,0,13,16,5,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,7,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,4,8,11,8,10,12,1,13,0,0,1,1,7,4,0,1,11,42,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13339935725339852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12327643750894995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14179030327220882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16528322021565292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431883272570474,0.2290657510550909,0.3078653160766953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34132794409004663,0.14361552523450372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881078604307044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264779801187535,0.2349732449067557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346286991898818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446953568226798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4845175966712383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15383168015172394,0.0,0.0,0.17073591877589395,0.0,0.2438616700022371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13583889504390453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12803202234383645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012703450896635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027267937814208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10324103597897176 schizophrenia,erika19831983,2019/04/10,Reality or delusions? I have this thing where I think I remember when I was all out someone with me in the bed premonitioning my future for me. Could it be just my twisted memory and a visual hallucination rather than reality? Because I feel I know what is going to happen to me and I don't know what to do about it.,3.368437499999999,4.855857718750002,5.995750000000001,74.87425000000003,73.375,8.870000000000003,26.8625,9.3871,2.3484412500000005,250,9,50,6,5,90,47,64,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,7,0,0,0,1,14,13,4,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,12,0,9,10,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,44,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24038168052957798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148427397181096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19938656656219494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22410847890855934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3487072880637245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4334301068615982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4467023139319213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341169931208728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619772619479612,0.2526726048537337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SJenkins114,2019/04/10,"Antipsychotics/weight gain Hi everyone! I am wondering if anyone has had any experiences with APs that don’t cause massive weight gain (or have a lower risk of causing weight gain, I should say). I am going to see a psychiatrist in a few weeks, but have been managing without any APs for the last several years. My issues are mostly related to anxiety and depression, which have gotten kind of bad these last few months. I have been on celexa and mirtazipine for the last few years to help. I also have auditory hallucinations, but they are manageable (currently, they haven’t always been). I’d like to know if I have any options with a lower risk of weight gain because I just lost the 75 pds I gained from seroquel a few years ago. I really don’t want to go through that again, but I’d also like to have some assistance in managing the psychotic symptoms given that my mood stuff is not good right now. If anyone has any recommendations, I’d really appreciate :)",6.7822451029633335,7.34983405524862,7.2560020090406825,72.34800100452038,64.80110497237571,11.443696634856856,31.924158714213963,11.20814326018867,3.7052607734806617,768,28,140,22,11,252,103,181,0.133,0.6940000000000001,0.17300000000000001,0.8507,3,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,2,6,5,10,0,2,9,0,22,4,0,2,0,23,31,11,0,5,10,0,3,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,4,3,0,2,0,0,2,5,5,0,0,7,5,13,4,19,23,6,18,0,2,1,0,5,4,0,8,14,90,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034513044232825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866567442371546,0.09710731157505567,0.0,0.0,0.3174516547700943,0.0,0.08927845626502631,0.0,0.0,0.1632046949109971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09744320069471438,0.07114184707227013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23977489049194475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005172270428926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115159426640276,0.0,0.1141591815519458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13265146577715206,0.09788601471011874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07822442017648497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218089496409255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12152955072161567,0.06413762128406326,0.2853886983289999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11403163440844785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12739650985994191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09315224443593843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14952750281382712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966481913168776,0.0,0.09280792918074576,0.0,0.0,0.09299820296706228,0.0,0.0,0.1318426200605914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359848158831245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12130043422695172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06883520920314548,0.0,0.09361313549380086,0.5684575004381689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249876320653568,0.12656081551325113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254611938443833 schizophrenia,thethirditeration,2019/04/10,family problems Does anyone here have experience with family members expecting you to be perfect. I'm living with my dad right now and he expects me to be perfect. I'm getting berated when I forget to do things or when I don't have the energy to get up and do things like work out. I'm taking him to group meetings with me but he seems to miss the point. Whenever I have anything to say that he doesn't like or disagrees with he also blames my schizophrenia and ignores what I have to say. What is the best way to approach this situation. I think his girlfriend is also a part of this.,3.7260640301318304,5.162967576271188,5.023333333333333,82.40010357815444,72.38983050847456,7.956308851224105,28.365348399246702,8.515128840125781,2.085737099811676,466,18,91,8,9,155,70,118,0.102,0.755,0.14300000000000002,0.7984,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,4,6,8,0,0,4,0,12,0,0,0,2,20,21,10,0,3,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,7,8,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,2,12,5,16,19,2,9,0,1,0,0,13,4,0,3,5,65,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31883729287359297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13938886409475126,0.0,0.16404654487542705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092035884327941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17445091262663476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950007461634608,0.3758553954253356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20830236496193036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19478287680056766,0.0,0.17602807188430472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215874624047415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18844844019958684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19074926046935786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17024223398169785,0.0,0.31705930603393656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814790720732928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240756770422928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14988500234724106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648761106654593,0.1277342475215687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15823328546009907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14512783006895594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dontgainfame,2019/04/10,"What are your hobbies? Hey there, I'm curious what you do as a hobby or spend your time with? Lately I've struggle a lot, to find something that I would like to do. Maybe I find interest in something you're doing.",1.9465909090909117,3.82615047727273,3.45,89.92000000000002,78.31818181818181,6.218181818181819,24.63636363636364,7.1686216300943375,1.0112454545454548,167,6,35,2,4,55,33,44,0.053,0.759,0.188,0.7059,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,6,6,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,5,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,3,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5538548688054845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417859957239571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480256433422319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25759132206861285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043942494544774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4665131165260926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31675100684722496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17667594611193685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152354521689781,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tidaqwerty,2019/04/10,"I dont trust myself how i see the world Hey redditors. Does anybody with paranoid schizophrenia has the feeling of seeing the world not in its true form. Maybe thats just another reacuring paranoid thought i get but sometimes it really feels like i make shit up. For example i see this girl every now and then and am good integrated in the group of friends we have. Im totally into her btw. Sometimes when we talk alone i get the feeling that she is giving me obviouse hints with her eyes and her body language.at other times i dont see it at all. She has a boyfriend tho and its hard for me looking at them. I hqve the feeling that she is doing it purposely to get my attention give me hope and last but nor least i think she wants to make me feel bad. She knows that im into her for a long time. Next example Sometimes when friends plan things without me knowing i always sense that they are hiding shit from me but i feel like i get this feeling way too often so its not accurate at all. Next example Every now an then i get irritated with people. I think that most people i know and will know are self aware assholes that try to get the most out of everything. Im not tqlking about everyone but the worst about them is the look they can give u not even the words. I dont feel delusional but there is still this thought of what if everything u see is just your brain dreaming while you are awake. How can i help myself with this dilemma Thanks for the comments in advance.",3.653836662749708,5.181216040540543,4.139265569917743,88.30820211515864,72.7162162162162,7.445123384253818,27.39659224441833,8.04050195162591,1.598818331374853,1172,43,242,17,23,369,155,296,0.138,0.738,0.124,-0.6998,0,1,0,0,0,0,16.0,2,2,4,2,17,13,2,0,14,0,19,5,5,4,5,60,56,22,0,3,13,0,9,2,2,1,0,0,0,2,20,15,0,0,17,1,0,1,9,4,0,0,2,17,43,9,29,53,8,28,0,0,8,0,29,12,2,5,16,168,63,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782074426820005,0.0,0.0,0.0705551860377115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889136318004819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707992327417256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09418673199276896,0.0,0.09465785905778754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07420357504825696,0.0,0.2981329023761013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056005466889051295,0.0,0.14288476953575746,0.08102405424693404,0.1524142955738248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429941098187457,0.1211533324696608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13102286947454844,0.0,0.2658073828068143,0.2440256514776396,0.0,0.07112096778649421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07595853765304343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056835457894210024,0.0,0.0,0.08421931837026801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747753761512911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864016922439766,0.0691182170084751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285187849788052,0.0,0.0,0.07503979337576552,0.1424107748782308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320096245229745,0.0,0.08518671090301792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18035821318420947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11757060836443622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05432104239972598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378481704975658,0.0,0.08845836574484509,0.0,0.17407911530975012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515895370560049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06771639190205829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06815399789810976,0.0,0.07806668524466545,0.0,0.0,0.056333194422205565,0.10866481211806768,0.0,0.1346335192067495,0.09888782571896487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057569384817663084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05001354596784322,0.06730532558405239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08173814142629895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lunarambles,2019/04/10,I have to go to court tomorrow I’m going to court tomorrow morning because my psychiatrist wants me to stay under the Mental Health Act for longer. I’m nervous about it and don’t know what to expect 😥,4.013577235772356,5.266855073170731,5.569268292682928,79.47552845528456,71.4390243902439,8.393495934959349,28.300813008130078,8.841846274778883,2.251530081300813,162,6,31,3,3,55,32,41,0.057,0.943,0.0,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,8,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,8,8,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577136412536993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4805342238070099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4493794626130037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23234060686778946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4260477196856529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4506112764239389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24935777099210898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,adviceneeded4gf,2019/04/10,"Well I unsuccessfully tried to have my girlfriend committed. She had been hurting herself and was threatening me over my thoughts she was hearing because her telepathy. She said she has sneeze tourettes which usually comes out as fuck my life. Today it change to I’ll fucking kill you. She thinks I been fucking my dog and I found marks on him today like she’s been hurting him. I recorded some of her ramblings for proof to try to get a hold. She’s been up for like 72 hours, she said she is sleeping but I think it was a lie. She was rambling how the neighbors are watching her, friends in the FBI who been tracking what I’m doing, how her friend in FBI gave her a murder pass. Her New Years Resolution is not to murder anyone but she doesn’t think she can follow through with it, a friend of her supposedly wants to murder someone with her. Called the hospital I stayed at for my attempted suicide. They told me to call 911. She calls her dad when the cops are here. Play the recorded of her talking about punching herself repeatedly in the abdomen to miscarry (she wasn’t pregnant according to any test but always thinks she is) and her talking about murdering people. The dad tells them he is taking her to a hospital out of state and they let her go so that plan failed to get her help. She is on no meds at all and progressively getting worse and worse with delusions of demons trying to tell her to kill people but also some angels have been helping her out. I wish her the best, I doubt her family takes her to get her help though. They kind of suck and enable her. I still worry, she left me like two weeks ago for not even 24 hours and told me she almost kills some guy because he was going to kidnap her and put her in the sex trade in California. Luckily she got picked up by her dad, her sister was there and didn’t hear them talking about the sex trade thing. I’m afraid she is going to get in legal trouble for hurting or killing someone or hurt herself. Sucks it is out of my hands now.",5.353787878787877,5.880412378787881,5.307802020202022,85.2210363636364,67.8888888888889,8.053171717171718,29.72888888888889,7.839951260653429,1.7465793131313134,1586,55,322,17,25,494,198,396,0.214,0.6809999999999999,0.105,-0.9962,0,0,0,0,0,1,30.0,0,1,5,6,15,31,13,2,15,0,31,9,3,3,3,46,66,23,9,2,8,4,1,3,5,0,1,4,1,1,9,18,0,1,6,1,2,7,6,21,1,1,23,6,75,10,54,42,5,40,2,5,1,5,87,18,5,7,16,221,84,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07023010503173546,0.0,0.07933456542063767,0.0,0.0,0.06335793843169216,0.06592335137081906,0.0,0.0,0.05387719174081376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05539747869381182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09659229373453386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831440259459801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426993930570261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381183966272393,0.06824719084740155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0523287979205427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746883239032482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686850148368662,0.1836321427322208,0.21973272329484728,0.2069646291292877,0.0,0.13507987781418032,0.0,0.06336520459530691,0.0,0.0,0.07844735339566554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17858955505449164,0.0,0.1593129040470004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15604560474996107,0.0,0.33925729215329953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506124961026569,0.08250290471656746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608055094273588,0.08101514811558515,0.055960492496082086,0.1161191785752397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800352428111702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07651809352364368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10985228671847018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07964518754393174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15072636113146964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928438592192437,0.0,0.13425784639715707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08444562065223928,0.06327091951167749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08666166380485507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913794230232035,0.1910393921303684,0.1384960755836046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05263501066740547,0.20306228338975732,0.07784029129202986,0.06289752243167884,0.0,0.0,0.1501961848596904,0.15140991038572246,0.0,0.16137014144537284,0.0,0.07739343196288279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08725753353215973,0.0,0.04673023698607317,0.0,0.06355125606903497,0.0,0.0712347397386645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09110733437915693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08045903590590364,0.16147850757107496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05101969927636766 schizophrenia,GabbyTheCrabby,2019/04/10,"Can anti-psychotic medication cause male infertility? The question is in the title, I am mostly asking about clozapine but if any other anti-psychotics cause this effect I would like to know. Thanks in advance.",6.942499999999999,9.662881583333338,7.773333333333332,60.70500000000001,66.5,9.244444444444444,31.44444444444445,9.725611199111238,3.80501111111111,171,7,22,4,3,57,31,36,0.0,0.809,0.191,0.7964,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,3,0,9,7,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,6,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,1,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181175064237344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29985315059483136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6589866574172143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762729891272579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15669973916882954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231167065476752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593076537448709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952987774665153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.227847948863746,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,92514914,2019/01/12,"feeling stagnant my episode has been peaking more and more. ive lost touch with everything. cant tell left from right. i keep telling myself i need to go to the hospital, just so i can get some help, but every time i think that all i can think of is the stress it will cause everyone around me, and what if it doesnt help and then im just in debt, and then im also moving at the end of february and that seems like not enough time to go to the hospital but it feels like thats the only way i can get help. im nearing the end of my rope and im tired. theres nobody in my real life i can turn to with this anymore and i just dont know what to do. i feel so alone. i cant tell who to and not to trust. anymore. thanks for listening. have a good day or night for whatever time of day you are in.",-0.2545197740112997,1.4874328418079124,1.8450000000000024,99.34908192090398,84.98870056497175,5.515254237288136,18.30790960451977,6.691623216298621,-0.2669683615819212,611,15,157,7,18,204,98,177,0.106,0.762,0.132,0.5905,1,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,8,7,0,1,7,0,16,2,0,1,1,33,33,17,0,2,9,0,4,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,10,11,0,1,7,0,1,3,6,2,0,0,2,5,17,5,23,30,5,22,0,1,0,0,9,8,0,4,12,100,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12075714149417638,0.0,0.09324089035306604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23126159917935396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10379417047735484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11977506821490805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15038811508863528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13664834117989655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065369283486246,0.12047368778509898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982362224094704,0.111411412698215,0.10478796786403508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17686163700355295,0.08329541176996948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183203411779002,0.0,0.1325271243345616,0.09779426081801376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23445328850290634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5037699502323149,0.0,0.0,0.10363489427058703,0.0,0.0,0.06407750159893158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266806877031903,0.0,0.08235441799540585,0.11392474634776775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272770941736985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12392191466392312,0.0,0.08645363258797534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10941640467209594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08867566680827609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327105091878213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995713978693312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061436076567788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13355905105027993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057272155029919,0.10734490847949872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14941859354215348,0.0,0.0,0.2039622516622275,0.13400867273699849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12682175781905314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09254759558907577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Defekton,2019/01/12,"The counselling office has thin walls, and people can hear anyone's conversation. Hello, I have been having a problem at the government counseling office. I live in British Columbia, Canada and the local psychologist has been moved to a new office. Previously, i reported to her that I could hear the Secretary in the adjacent room talking. I said that If I could hear her, she could probably hear me. More recently I was waiting in the room next to the secretary's office. The psychologist was in the other room on the phone. I could hear virtually every detail of their conversation. Specific details about the other patient, including his name and diagnosis. I brought this up to the psychologist at our next meeting. She look stunned and admitted that people could hear what was going on in the room if the rear door was open. She said she would keep the door closed and ""turn on the radio"". I did not find this satisfactory, so I brought it up to the local government psychiatrist. He immediately tried to downplay the issue and this is the first time anyone claimed that it was a hallucination. The psychiatrist admitted that if I had the details on the other patient this would be a big deal. But I am not willing to give him that information since he said the issue was a hallucination, even when the psychologist was in the middle of explaining how people could hear the room from the second door. If you have information for reporting these issues in British Columbia, PM me. Thank you.",6.6776090784582225,8.361064888475838,7.258716493836823,68.23797104284878,65.54275092936803,10.718919976521232,33.11700254353355,10.771109862388434,3.990006691449814,1201,51,198,34,19,395,128,269,0.016,0.9520000000000001,0.032,0.4723,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,1,2,1,1,5,2,0,0,32,0,29,0,0,1,0,34,51,14,0,13,7,0,1,0,0,3,0,10,8,0,17,8,0,2,6,1,0,4,2,1,0,2,16,12,27,1,27,25,1,39,0,0,1,0,38,28,0,4,7,152,44,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12147601242954502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4161276581031437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08955396907470321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05737349295040273,0.0,0.0731874830533938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07939300820817384,0.07388729847397177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332879373190151,0.04936736383205876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6853219345344862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719933790265095,0.0,0.07720957587878134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767033592928599,0.0,0.07294469667330694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232371529522132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08389472859711156,0.18476376053021348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18066369708695965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09365512871012638,0.08311804420743095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857686776721034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24788543292014176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07185560020620094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981877190123716,0.0,0.07997359301403714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050651662122620615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058975612158335924,0.09448414264643754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12341276376315913,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GoldFrankincenseHerb,2019/01/12,"Need advice on auditory hallucinations For anyone with schizophrenia im looking for some advice and help about it. Im pretty scared right now and im gonna just write down exactly what has happened cos the smaller details could be important. Sorry its quite long. Im a 17 yr old who stupidly has been using weed pretty regularly for about a year. Ive got a extensive family history of mental illness unknown to me until quite recently. I read the rules about the sub and i know talking about drugs isnt encouraged but they tie in with my experience and cant really miss them out. About a month i first experienced auditory hallucinations. It was when i first tried mdma and had also smoked weed that night. I was on the bus back home when i heard 2 grown men whispering in conversation however i couldnt quite make out what they were saying. Didnt think much at first however the bus was empty apart from me and my mates who werent talking. After noticing this i realised that the whispering voices was actually just the sound of my own breath which freaked me out cos i could actually hear the individual voices until i realised it was in my head and it stopped. Never had auditory hallucinations but i didnt panic to much cos i heard mdma can act like a psychadelic. Ever since that point whenever i smoked weed ive been hearing things that arent there or adaptations of a real sound. Ive also been getting more paranoid and the auditory hallucinations have been getting worse. Last week my parents went out overnight so i had friends round and we smoked in the house all day. I got extremely paranoid and was hearing these hallucinations all day. My friends got quite concerened as im not usually like this and hearing things isnt a good sign. I was acting like a mainiac and kept checking the door or looking out the window. Next day i got caught as someone left some weed and my parents found it. Since then ive stopped smoking cos its not worth me getting into shit from it. Im now extremely scared as i havent smoked in a week and ive still had a couple of hallucinations this week. Hearing things whilst baked isnt unheard of but im concerend if im hearing things sober. Also been feeling anxious and quite down since ive stopped. Really not been myself the past few days and my moods being changing quickly. Im pretty sure i dont hear things unless theres another real sound going off. I listen to music alot and so these hallucinations tend to happen when i have earphones in. Sometimes when i hear something my inner paranoid chitchat in my brain thinks its something bad such as someone(my parents voices) shouting my name. I then cant tell the difference between what i thought it could be and what i actually heard. Its like im so paranoid its something bad i get confused on what the actual sound was so my brain makes something up (usually something paranoia related). I then cant tell if what my brain made up is real or not. Usually i take my earbuds out then realise it wasnt real. Earlier today i searched up auditory hallucinations and it made me quite scared i was schizophrenic or something as i relate to alot of the syptoms recently. I could just be anxious but with my family history its scaring me. I know i probably should go to the doctors but i dont want to concern my parents further if its just a weird phase. Help and advice appreciated.",3.8394186990805044,6.201955656877903,4.936856940769655,79.19961543499332,74.34775888717157,7.663102192649255,29.513242344065176,8.543581382742746,2.482782589788596,2718,120,488,53,59,891,265,647,0.124,0.7959999999999999,0.08,-0.9756,8,0,11,0,0,0,39.0,1,0,3,9,29,23,2,6,30,0,55,11,6,9,6,98,102,55,0,11,21,4,2,4,3,2,4,23,4,1,39,31,1,4,7,1,2,7,19,13,0,3,37,28,68,9,60,54,11,83,0,1,3,0,37,30,1,12,50,323,107,2,0.0,0.0,0.16767910326352992,0.0,0.0,0.1259310707719596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305794570869237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04504409598821833,0.0,0.09705822764544976,0.0,0.030036490522180763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033031234489687075,0.0717344994447345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14386245178937054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04544274553703016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719048129914171,0.04753103590958428,0.0,0.11081468757144207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04488085829894261,0.0,0.043968247270971685,0.0,0.0,0.100690425078347,0.0,0.04981641127268463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03885701062407024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0420201290970813,0.0809919579711153,0.0,0.02172031905177636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10961745101454544,0.0,0.04710006633898056,0.066376848968522,0.0,0.08977291050558832,0.0,0.048826836712530575,0.03603024232480476,0.1374263531221384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07597335851672034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044086212454213965,0.0,0.3873247378208876,0.0,0.057586261388262436,0.0,0.043089312275567414,0.0,0.0,0.049566540055382684,0.0,0.0,0.4640086552881262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04721602046717041,0.035015638641895885,0.0,0.0,0.046672839874649465,0.0,0.0,0.08394636215596599,0.0,0.0,0.03801553920706828,0.07214601949638068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08129378860606105,0.05734818064908188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04329049089579935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03428781884792944,0.0,0.06315658565451285,0.03185202593637903,0.03313103954029131,0.0,0.0456851919240186,0.040312177234825455,0.0,0.0,0.04890675972714272,0.045076081307754215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05040071228465637,0.19079438843396568,0.0,0.04100725892005955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04060819223067176,0.0,0.0,0.13110795067401596,0.046314845698230106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27413995357383075,0.042968563721714655,0.19557760404707344,0.05503863015119969,0.0,0.08482958972635943,0.0,0.0,0.036684991162494865,0.0,0.03416108202942215,0.1720295592060642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044094680538704606,0.10660327144723916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03639727498362732,0.19842210180366804,0.04248551104144145,0.048086776233760335,0.0,0.0,0.03430546694635853,0.10774177337480707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040486406599041534,0.0,0.03229827204388183,0.06905432071860658,0.0750925161164574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14269340738272715,0.055050143925865616,0.0,0.034103011200739164,0.0,0.0,0.04071815531479903,0.0,0.0,0.029164941788998436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03710100295246355,0.14193299807453266,0.0,0.025337115576854547,0.0,0.10337239594282188,0.0,0.0,0.03982151278674614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04377679071824152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027662860294223327 schizophrenia,postingAnonOkkkkkk,2019/01/12,"Is this prodromal? My dad was a diagnosed schizophrenic So... I’m stating to worry that my mental health is deteriorating. I’m ok as long as I have company, but when I spend a lot of time alone it starts to sink in. Being alone with my thoughts is terrifying. No, I don’t see things, no I don’t hear voices.. but I can’t turn that nagging voice in the back of my mind off.. it feels like I’m speaking these words instead of just typing... I can hear my voice in my mind, my speech patterns, my inflections... why can’t I just shut up? If I am mentally ill, I’m high functioning. I’ve never had a problem keeping a steady job, fitting in just enough to join conversations with others at my leisure... but it seems like my leisure really isn’t mine.. And I never really join conversations or social interactions, I stand on the edge of the circle and appear to be “actively listening...” most of the time I am, and I really do have a genuine interest in what other people are saying.. but interest and relating aren’t the same thing. I know this, and can’t connect with many people, I always wonder what they actually want for me so I just let them control the conversations, it’s easier to be supportive of someone else’s thoughts and ideas than to be judged on your own. Rejection, family history, history of drug abuse... all of these factors are a perfect storm and I’m worried that my mind is going to simmer and brew into a terrible storm that is going to rip my world to shreds, and my biggest fear is taking someone with me. I have people that say.. and most importantly show.. that they care about me, but in all honesty I don’t believe anyone would stand by me once the levy breaks. And I don’t want anyone to drown with me. It’s not fair to them to be pulled into something that I created, but it’s not fair that they are mentally sound and I’m not. I want to talk about this, let them know I feel like I’m not going to be ok in the future, that I’ve seen what mental illness can do to a family, tell them to run.. But I’m selfish. Is this a part of the illness too? Thanks for being my sounding board, I’m tired of hearing my voice",3.0760661764705866,4.532493210648152,4.743534858387799,83.68436274509804,74.06944444444444,8.137908496732027,25.66884531590414,8.757208317658263,1.8049559368191719,1665,56,344,33,34,563,194,432,0.14,0.716,0.14300000000000002,-0.539,2,2,2,0,1,0,67.0,0,1,7,2,12,17,1,1,18,2,40,8,0,1,5,66,77,26,1,6,17,1,2,3,0,1,8,14,0,0,28,19,0,2,9,1,1,6,17,6,0,0,5,18,50,11,53,62,9,38,0,1,2,0,23,19,0,8,12,237,78,2,0.0,0.10587217488138323,0.08719850569161809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18509160675364608,0.0,0.0,0.07435129853056355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12495949888941338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06870920067179552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10067354293231304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09110433400260412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10022028250219372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09069439609302034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10362451939094973,0.0,0.07464542025492597,0.0,0.0,0.09232857025170826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16847365165163436,0.10055027262489696,0.09036209414757863,0.12767179985337535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523491162386483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498118357037208,0.30213190878918245,0.0,0.0,0.09440945442714796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087197750505562,0.0,0.0,0.08867198056941636,0.07942366330860957,0.0,0.0,0.09821537327692988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827450012107858,0.0,0.13096439322096007,0.0,0.0,0.0790771932196625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596722304775612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09059289611375007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3601990748567017,0.0,0.2706720744492485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378336159340216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516115765597613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09676377312885093,0.0,0.18584446924110976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08550156483653668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717311058238021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421188566874826,0.0,0.0,0.0712051135950318,0.08134628993668777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108712588291064,0.1514219925105963,0.06879056657118614,0.0,0.0,0.06324659279453601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140005947155104,0.0,0.0,0.06718454485581486,0.07182091818261642,0.07810102829197334,0.08226694231683056,0.0,0.0,0.11872822937287625,0.0,0.0,0.14187726715667634,0.10420833200183532,0.1027015058857234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09719360128768187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15811334200888974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08062983557413325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969027030392476,0.0,0.1814905848603202,0.0,0.0634758945736151,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SchizoMindOverMatter,2019/01/12,"The Choice Schizophrenia Forces You to Make The universe supports intentions that are based on pure love and compassion. Therefore, right from the start, I would like to clarify my intention for this post. I’ve been through a lot since I was diagnosed with schizophrenia about a year ago. It was a journey full of valuable lessons that sometimes came very painfully. It is my belief that this disease is a sign that you, as a person, have come to the point where you have a choice. The choice is either to start changing your old habits, patterns of thought, values and evolve as a person or either to remain where you are today. My biggest wish is to be of some help to you, dear reader, in understanding what changes need to be made and how to move, step by step, in the path that you are on. There is only one advice I would like to give to anyone who is suffering. The advice is simple, and it has been repeated time and again in books, speeches and every other source of media. Everything in your life depends on the way you think – it’s that plain and simple. The pain that you now feel can either be your teacher or your worst enemy – it all depends on the way you look it. You can it either allow it to soften your heart and allow love, compassion and beauty to fill the void or the same void can be filled with anger, hatred and pity. Choose love and it will heal you, for everything in this universe is made out of love and there is nothing that it can not do. Allow the loving God to become your light in the dark road that you are currently on and He will show you the way to a fulfilled life. I cannot say that today I completely free from schizophrenia or that I have healed entirely, but the threatening voices I’ve been hearing, the delusions and the pain are gone. Their place has been taken by gratefulness, humbleness and devotion. The thing that helped me the most is without a doubt the switch in perspective – rather than being angry about all the pain I’m suffering I started accepting it as a valuable lesson in this road I’m on that we call life. I have faith that everything will work out in the end and that all the hardships are valuable to me. This faith is what has allowed me to overcome even the biggest obstacles and it can do the same for you. Life has been extremely generous to me by giving me this illness, as I am now a different person and I know in my heart that all the changes I described can also happen to you too, if you just allow it. My wish, therefore, for you, dear reader, is to make the right choice. I have lots I want to share with people who are struggling and are on the same road as I am. I offer my support and insights to anyone who wants to read them. I believe, all of you are my brothers and sisters and I am here for you, if you would ever need support or just someone to listen to what you have to go through. I would greatly appreciate any feedback you have and it is extremely important for me to hear what you think or have to say. 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Seeing posts/photos from y'all makes me realize that my life has just begun and this diagnosis isn't the end. I've seen young, old, single, married, and all the other descriptors inbetween on here. I'm only 19 and I have many decades on this Earth. So much time to do anything my heart sets out to do. Obviously I won't be able to do anything and everything, but I want to live my life in a way I won't regret. Normally I'm so pessimistic about everything, but this small space of the internet has made me feel hope for me, the future, and everyone here reading this or skipping my lame sappy happy vent. Love all y'all and I wish nothing but the best.",3.1062100456620985,4.8034933424657575,4.5111643835616455,84.38994292237444,74.4794520547945,7.880365296803652,25.865296803652967,8.59863814320734,1.818170776255708,572,20,115,11,12,190,89,146,0.10099999999999999,0.731,0.168,0.8955,0,0,0,1,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,1,7,8,0,0,7,0,11,4,1,2,3,26,25,13,0,7,5,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,7,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,3,15,6,14,19,6,16,0,2,2,1,3,7,0,4,7,76,22,1,0.1635909113480642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26924276238091666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17167856870261694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448929910993987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15631812632756628,0.2940499254335661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08271648013448837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17414556709065024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19385601760698432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4874480610943969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310981972863056,0.0,0.0,0.14445377184477384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476471845072374,0.15479367578029685,0.10919820362907794,0.16585550749809788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24051628570466985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16028435948182504,0.15696989150974516,0.0,0.17166114250649106,0.0,0.0,0.1244182597689955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16363518137198055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13036077615771505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09539117597031647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649015800744992,0.12985085089794798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18812147459261466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,savethesarah,2019/01/12,"They follow me around ""Follow me around"" - Radiohead What bands just entrap you with their music and somehow make sense of your world? Most recent diagnoses for me is schizoaffectice disorder and I've found that often Radiohead is my go to band for getting lost. Have had some ""friends"" that won't leave me alone anymore. Get lost a lot these days.",3.8538095238095242,6.857729619047621,3.2787301587301587,87.5857142857143,78.20634920634922,6.7746031746031745,23.285714285714285,7.957251820313856,1.475038095238096,278,9,49,5,7,82,52,63,0.11199999999999999,0.8440000000000001,0.044000000000000004,-0.6609999999999999,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,2,2,5,3,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,1,0,13,14,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,1,2,0,3,1,2,0,0,4,0,9,1,7,9,3,8,0,2,0,0,7,3,0,5,2,34,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23617639337359936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261503118746181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4060005484268338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470642737498078,0.0,0.0,0.2314516119248531,0.0,0.0,0.2613488676291656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25002956562934986,0.1761799505334171,0.0,0.2382786645930717,0.0,0.12959804224506585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414570647144437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4978561878672118,0.1938679453780622,0.0,0.0,0.15221571657805205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22515791505631114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,the_most_fortunate,2019/01/12,"My story. An ongoing battle with SZ going on year 13. I posted this story in Psychonaut because psychedelic drugs triggered the initial onset and subsequent psychosis. I should probably warn you it's a long story so don't feel like you have to read it, I'm sure it will trigger some readers. [https://www.reddit.com/r/Psychonaut/comments/aepijv/drug\_induced\_psychosis\_how\_i\_lost\_my\_mind\_and/](https://www.reddit.com/r/Psychonaut/comments/aepijv/drug_induced_psychosis_how_i_lost_my_mind_and/) Here's the long and short of it 2005 Started using hard drugs. 2006 Initial onset of schizophrenia. Started university. 2007 First psychotic episode, and recovery. Other psychotic episodes and other recoveries. 2008 Met my ex. 2009 Best friend passed away. 2010 Left my ex. Went back to university. 2011 Fourth (?) Psychotic episode and recovery. Quit drugs. Got a good job. 2012 Got engaged. 2013 Bought a house. 2014 Quit smoking. 2015 Got married. 2016 - 2018 Not much. 2019 Quit drinking, looking forward to a great year. Plan on going back to university again.",8.921799999999998,13.051258913333335,4.8466666666666685,69.22000000000003,89.86666666666667,6.0,27.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,2.5032666666666668,887,34,107,15,30,235,105,150,0.049,0.828,0.12300000000000001,0.9277,1,0,6,0,0,0,64.0,0,2,0,6,5,8,1,0,7,0,4,4,0,3,1,14,18,6,0,1,1,2,2,1,1,2,3,0,0,0,7,6,1,0,1,2,1,5,2,1,0,1,6,3,7,7,11,10,3,22,0,0,1,0,6,7,0,1,12,51,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11513777984006687,0.1884635311249968,0.0,0.07470405834278314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286064534753197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005028102084753,0.5684665996577585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06196389703414465,0.08754823950138013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10423917548693024,0.0,0.0,0.09468019841541178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13929358382563922,0.10278735870350376,0.294038235845174,0.13510948505956924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10977884158966153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140381534033475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12160987470793848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331486447040648,0.0,0.0,0.05987071056166054,0.0,0.0,0.21690205852953345,0.10290936594532936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900868021596653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11736700647066654,0.0,0.13212735610173842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3910343079146623,0.1225810565586357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734800593390683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154999391954307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058420330442584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136031248979288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15783365086444234 schizophrenia,porpison,2019/01/12,"I had a bad night last night and a confusing day. Just a heads up, Im going to talk about things I heard and a very horrifying thought process Ive been dealing with today. I dont want this to be a trigger and I dont want any one thinking this is going to happen because I know its just my brain being a piece of shit. Delete if not allowed. I dont have anyone to talk to about my problems with schizophrenia and Im really bugged about the last 24 hours. So last night I couldnt sleep because something in my head kept telling me that if I fell asleep he would come up the stairs and stand over me and when I would wake up he would scream in my face. I couldnt stop hearing him pacing the floors downstairs. Heavy footsteps, creeping up and down the first couple steps. I dont know who he is but he wants to scare me. Ive never seen him but I feel hes there waiting. I sweat so bad last night because I was so afraid. Im scared to go to bed tonight. I dont want to see him. He wasn’t there this morning but that didnt make me feel better. Then today I just kept getting this bad thought that one day the government is going to track all schizophrenics down and shove us into an asylum, cut us off from meds, and make our lives hell. I cant get it out of my head. Im scared its gonna happen, even though the rational part of my brain says that stupid, the nervous part is terrified it could become reality. I cant talk about this with anyone cuz they will think im crazy. I tried so hard not thinking about it but it just kept coming up. I just get so afraid. This wasnt something I wanted to think about but my brain wouldn’t stop showing me this hell. Sorry for the long post. Just wanted to tell someone. Some days are just plain hard.",1.8289959016393416,3.509152155737709,2.605051229508195,96.75708504098364,77.98907103825137,5.340027322404372,20.727117486338802,5.800992412223965,-0.20204890710382584,1363,34,315,7,32,426,173,366,0.201,0.779,0.02,-0.9965,1,0,2,0,0,0,30.0,3,0,1,2,23,18,5,7,15,0,32,13,12,5,2,71,70,25,0,16,16,0,4,0,0,6,1,4,1,0,19,16,0,6,10,1,0,8,16,17,0,3,13,10,43,1,39,46,5,47,2,0,2,0,23,15,3,4,22,191,62,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04459122730645153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09169897260137924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16424971222001086,0.11991629816254815,0.07241915271560187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05799312972904418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196002062101585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11296899121035353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05235392836810457,0.07255420130340337,0.0,0.12686559942738815,0.06760188116389533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3842496397699247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04330970578373066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06631037471409122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055775533151323456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10277603405496406,0.0,0.1490643774980302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159702548457664,0.0,0.117479314083135,0.0,0.2018874534436141,0.0,0.07390444069823557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06457523867476457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35414520994594784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0720733429887213,0.21379981699738765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057901301677227374,0.0580291809657548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753967515272319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07283574047188905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05057319004723408,0.0,0.0,0.2461396236040573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08886660579413036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201623181605627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06279987662696965,0.0,0.0,0.06274357468622076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0420071199273872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052145508190049636,0.1969471161829192,0.0,0.052252416332169635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06730874400255459,0.0,0.0,0.06561938290148074,0.0,0.055558966168564664,0.10096110076156796,0.0,0.07340251640070927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964230233471736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581129358031926,0.11462568459598645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04356314145397082,0.16806363033098545,0.06442418415757757,0.10411373084388097,0.0,0.0,0.12430922999586748,0.0,0.0,0.0445191024573136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15775015098549086,0.0,0.0,0.0541037900013508,0.2320564846313421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13974146109144886,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sad_istic_bitch,2019/07/31,"Too scared to ask for a diagnosis I’m not sure if this is schizophrenia or something else or similar but I kind of hear and feel the presence of something in my head and it’s been there since I was very young. That person or voice or whatever has always been very abusive and tells me to do awful things and is a big reason I self harm, people tried telling me it’s me doing they but at some points I don’t even want to do those things and I just do it to make him shut up, I have gotten 2 more over the years but I can’t pin point exactly when, the other two also urge me to self harm and other negative things, the second one I got constantly filled my head with negative thoughts but it didn’t seem like it was meant to be as harmful as the first, eventually this lead me to abuse prescription pills. I never talk about this with anyone and I’m sorry this is jumbled and I know no one here can diagnose me with anything and idea what I’m trying to get from this I’m just scared and it feels like they are getting louder and more aggressive and I can’t control them.",2.675117090184358,4.170239085201796,3.687406576980568,90.69166791230694,75.18834080717487,6.928649725959144,22.70279023418037,7.594959193182576,0.7611755854509217,848,23,186,11,18,273,131,223,0.20600000000000002,0.7609999999999999,0.033,-0.9926,0,0,2,0,1,0,8.0,0,0,3,3,9,10,1,2,7,1,20,4,2,4,3,43,38,25,0,2,12,0,2,2,0,0,2,2,0,3,19,15,0,1,8,0,0,2,9,6,0,5,9,4,23,4,22,28,3,16,0,0,0,0,12,8,0,7,8,133,42,1,0.0,0.2953060179445254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09965768276323796,0.10369290100380386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871364266926588,0.0,0.102550729748431,0.0,0.11650184153593834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346687503827965,0.13977068373326856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264855519881403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10410309336695196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08230960273698651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602211216377876,0.08902776121476551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600076571874603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13021645503958287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966911193922363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25578987111272466,0.0,0.14045454810399682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14067956019880404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12977139895663958,0.06848728387756339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12176499159775403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08318407797002622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09611377188098247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16888997251620633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639504860474967,0.108812409560687,0.0,0.0,0.2356102663069987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281289760359616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24953050130240856,0.0,0.0,0.11344835875279714,0.26000936507305994,0.0,0.0,0.10308603508789176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19187542249929604,0.0,0.13950064669123427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174518307343992,0.0,0.0,0.10016394476353332,0.2178448084977513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24837376302831726,0.0,0.0,0.09893348003814592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921609469095952,0.0,0.12173454947292263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20564727379188985,0.07350345115837176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08025048053988984 schizophrenia,souplegend,2019/07/31,"Just venting Hello! I just looked up this subreddit because the last year and especially the last months ive been feeling worse. Theres bipolar and psychosis on my mothers side. Im not diagnosed with anything so i try to refrain from that language because i dont want to be laughed at. So i have been feeling bad (sadness and anxiety) since 11 years old, im 26 now. In my family i have always been told that everyone feels bad so i have repressed quiete a bit. I have always felt confused because of this because of my mothers family history and her occupation, and so im sure its me who is just being wrong and a baby. Since 2 years or so my partner have been telling me i should see a therapist because i have very fast mood swings. But my point is that if my parents dont think i feel bad why would a stranger do that. I also have fears of going to new places and seeing strangers because they will laugh at me and make me leave or they will talk to me and then tell my parents and talk about me. I live in a small Town so thats not impossible because everyone knows eachother of the older generation. And then my mother will ask me why i didnt tell them i saw a therapist and i cant see him anymore. I think its a him because im more scared of men. I wont call to book a time to check my eyesight or take cell samples which i should have three years ago and im afraid i will get ovarian cancer but we dont have that in my family. I think i will get a man so i dont want to go alone either. So what im getting to is my anxiety and stress have gotten really amped up this past year and especially the last 6 months. Ive been isolating myself i guess but i didnt realize it until now because i like being alone the most because i get super tired from interaction. But now i havent left my house since last wednesday (a week) and my partner is working in Another Town during the summer. Ive been feeling like my neighbours are staring into my windows from theirs but i cant see them and i dont want to go outside because if they see me they might want to come and ask me something and expect conversation and i dont want that. I stay away from self-care but when i told my mother i wasnt showering she asked me if i showered before going to work (not every day of course just to be clean) i said yes because they would be angry and then she just said its fine then. And i tried to be a bit more honest about not feeling too well and that i cant live if i had to work more than i do right now they just say that at least im not as bad off as my maternal grandpa (he was bipolar and killed himself at 42) and that everyone feels bad. I guess i feel sad that i feel like im not allowed to feel sad and bad. As in its everyday sense i feel, in a cycle: like a god-->sad--->flat--->superior---> repeat. Im always feeling ""paranoid"" and thats from i guess what i think other people think and react to me and about me and also interaction and communication wise. I think what i wanted with this was: i felt like venting in a place where i felt its okay. Sorry if its not and i made a fool out of myself. Im sorry if i sound weird; english is my second language, im sad and disturbed right now, and i dont want to sound dramatic so you wont take me seriously. I think i WANT to see a therapist because i want to say this to someone who is not close to me but i am so afraid about everything i wrote up there. My problem is also that i dont have an outlet. Trying to speak with myself: selfhate and ""paranoia"" Trying to speak with parents: everyone feels bad exactly like you or much worse Trying to speak with partner; go see therapist (im scared) Its just too bad and many different feelings that i cant handle. If i think everyone feels like this then everyone must plan to take their own life? And i dont think thats normal?? Or am i embarrassing myself. THANK YOU FOR READING",2.825088424120686,4.180369717121589,4.273965496868723,87.20726082161569,74.53349875930522,7.2018275631178845,25.8209460790106,7.793537801064563,1.3168403481822837,3056,105,652,42,63,1016,288,806,0.142,0.769,0.08800000000000001,-0.9905,7,2,1,0,0,0,79.0,1,3,10,5,36,46,1,10,23,2,71,6,0,4,3,143,145,79,1,24,35,8,18,7,4,13,6,10,4,5,36,47,0,2,29,2,1,6,27,28,1,2,23,39,122,17,71,103,10,74,0,4,10,0,61,31,0,18,43,431,158,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030737045503693845,0.0,0.0,0.07182510134965181,0.0,0.08318807877541197,0.08655642975011475,0.037570042648740885,0.0,0.0,0.036359465344156135,0.053052128980213435,0.0,0.03438800304854165,0.0,0.0,0.02853433857530082,0.0,0.09724854223428976,0.0,0.03257803914132912,0.0,0.2316155304547273,0.27478602263429586,0.0,0.029505631247815186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07571162313369853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035406764116052224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029869199392880682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02236232465088876,0.0,0.0,0.035194109044052214,0.0,0.03622770034863634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3657466030480307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02921494556538265,0.19879907497503374,0.03116340085120905,0.0,0.09806471495541924,0.03901869808516359,0.2629886904713238,0.0743148767639663,0.09987950149141543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07246443638752835,0.0,0.09853220707206416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11459433397503788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04000996924979463,0.0,0.0,0.4494557500032829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038362438166656763,0.0,0.01905631828324493,0.11305809312159455,0.0,0.036715519906493285,0.03767418274704702,0.0,0.024491778895730468,0.11858221066659412,0.0,0.061236822826331014,0.0,0.02911803021070268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032810056730746086,0.023145643631144092,0.03515472181074683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03678439637661655,0.0,0.0,0.055354058452147664,0.0,0.02548990757813316,0.0,0.0,0.033489058879085334,0.0,0.0,0.03397386166547362,0.0,0.0,0.03638528380252835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11550651315000388,0.0,0.03310094201807773,0.02403908362392921,0.0,0.07245540069727267,0.0,0.032778816528721735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03317902236437903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03468410163979059,0.0,0.022213512355712457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05922403971309735,0.06596719481781603,0.055149455257911074,0.0694308838805353,0.0,0.19341882720638914,0.0,0.03617329332489319,0.0,0.0,0.08604985556316573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02937977618054675,0.026694292099650185,0.0,0.07763101625753177,0.0,0.03695863594967782,0.0,0.0,0.03971977250849508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032680511515477975,0.0,0.07821321822261516,0.055740450017892115,0.09092169608829394,0.03192382179434464,0.0,0.16104008138968595,0.0,0.19996343368819824,0.0,0.0,0.020219107010811404,0.03985348767770981,0.0,0.06626635832501125,0.0,0.11770928764102424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028610273919358192,0.18406842450132252,0.0,0.0278139673680986,0.0,0.031176735899821176,0.0,0.06257707967953334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07573082340193724,0.0,0.07067300031571734,0.04926384984142355,0.03791136098892056,0.0,0.11164690822645468 schizophrenia,Sebz2016,2019/07/31,"Relationship questions Hi all! I hope you fine people are doing well. Do you guys tell your potential partner on the first date or do you leave it a few dates before letting them know about your mental health disorder? I personally think that they need to know, but at the same time, if you were to announce it on your POF page, you would get even less replies lol.",5.0155714285714295,6.361203700000001,4.704285714285717,86.2707142857143,69.14285714285714,7.885714285714287,26.857142857142854,8.238735603445708,1.5296571428571428,289,9,58,4,5,88,57,70,0.040999999999999995,0.8420000000000001,0.11699999999999999,0.6729999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,8,2,1,3,3,0,0,3,1,7,1,0,0,1,12,13,3,0,4,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,12,3,6,10,5,7,0,0,0,0,17,3,0,4,4,41,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20064527095020146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702429705467421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15574122210929744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20056819919676894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12319382655392165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334753935611557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506404241641895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23419891479847155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591749427857491,0.0,0.0,0.2496742190615343,0.0,0.2411176766576128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23762719496631424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17483995724313858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16347145419825515,0.20588822059790726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641458032307474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531569653297193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20609634585418846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510887381143635,0.0,0.0,0.13749470975496486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120091778217994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16750291523104405,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BatmortaJones,2019/07/31,"Anyone NOT gain weight on Zyprexa I'm staring Zyprexa and it seems extremely likely that one will gain weight on it. I am wondering if anyone has been able to avoid gaining weight on it?",2.6950000000000003,5.411099611111113,2.6700000000000017,91.95000000000003,80.66666666666667,5.822222222222222,25.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.2323,150,6,29,2,4,45,26,36,0.191,0.74,0.069,-0.6062,0,1,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,6,7,2,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,3,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,4,1,1,4,5,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,1,17,5,0,0.2293908170169398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207907857208022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120687662167505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15544115429168445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20882878449565428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8380086506421757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248764555897746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nolagirl90,2019/07/31,"Help! Relationship advice with someone with sz Hi guys! I posted before about the guy I was talking to that has SZ. I decided to proceed. Well something bizarre happened this morning that really happened. We have been having the best few days, spending everyday together. Then this morning I wake up and he deleted me off Facebook? Lol. I’m so confused. Yesterday he told his best friend of 10 years (our mutual friend) all of these amazing things about me, and how deeply he cared about me, how he wrote me this beautiful letter about me and is going to present it soon... Is this of normal behavior for someone with sz to just do stuff on a whim? I’m panicking and really confused",3.4813870381586938,6.171518047244098,4.201102362204725,82.34285281647489,77.18897637795277,7.372259236826168,29.45427013930951,8.384062270229773,2.5672342822531804,540,25,94,11,13,172,85,127,0.07,0.718,0.212,0.9728,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,2,0,0,2,10,9,0,2,3,1,8,1,1,2,1,17,16,8,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,10,8,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,4,0,12,7,18,12,4,13,0,0,0,0,18,3,0,2,8,66,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17717635360520825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15428347612855725,0.0,0.3805523012069581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848600492993172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11693148173909736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28016298103291404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030440005842785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3590555126319255,0.3206678673647295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12152986250316908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776476304213329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736471350823597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323066993198288,0.0,0.0,0.1946616355932934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30725077250122423,0.1395831237547265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20755928981549093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573201836458402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204558848674706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17325174348744593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16302159911669625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167592244037072 schizophrenia,repeals,2019/07/31,"ugh finally told my mom the voices are getting bad and i’m starting to see things and she’s known about my delusions (blamed it on bpd) she has a history of manipulation and abuse (verified by other people/had a restraining order on her for a summer) she says i don’t need therapy or a psychiatrist because “everyone hears voices” and she “loves me so much i won’t get too sick” is this true or just manipulation? i feel like it might be shitty but i don’t want to assume without asking other people with similar issues",2.323422459893049,4.873688490196081,4.685187165775403,77.98788770053477,80.76470588235293,7.63065953654189,23.97860962566845,8.575989854853784,2.0754,414,15,75,10,11,144,77,102,0.146,0.779,0.075,-0.7140000000000001,0,0,0,0,1,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,5,0,8,2,0,2,1,20,20,8,0,2,5,1,1,1,0,2,1,4,0,0,6,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,6,12,3,10,16,1,6,0,0,1,1,11,2,0,4,4,52,18,0,0.0,0.25207943681581063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19889685152234876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17764122234914287,0.1296932426684889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679569981967013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20329615842893126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10757512929029424,0.1519919442495507,0.0,0.23306228870351914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22231101742529127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23978992118559425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220605496639123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394116150931217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19201935257508085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22569903228470406,0.0,0.24917564156874916,0.0,0.0,0.15639912680661386,0.15775485618308868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14749726637843907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16919101451738994,0.0,0.0,0.16953788805747572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15058881627800608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433034516577841,0.0,0.1413447170041833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20329615842893126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12548818815809912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20508786314794966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Might_Be_Dreaming,2019/07/31,"Thought I was a zombie. Guess I really am schizo. It's not only amazing but also somewhat beautiful the way our own minds, and the world around us, trick ourselves into believing things that don't make sense to anyone else. Most recently I thought I was literally a zombie, and not only that but there were entire cities full of zombies hidden from mere mortals by time distortion. Everyone driving through would do so in a trance state, coming to on the other side and not remembering hours worth of driving through a part of town where time practically stands still, and that gas stations and restaurants used special color coding for human meat. Turns out I just took a stretch of free-way I'd never been on before, and the clock wasn't working. But I was so convinced this was true that the next day I thought I could smell humans from a block away. Wanting my nose to get ""fixed"" I went to the hospital, where I was kept in the psych ward for a few weeks. From there I was sent to drug rehab, back to a hospital for anger issues, down to a treatment center, and now kicked out for drinking. I'm awaiting news on my next step. Given that I was on commitment (Probation for people with delusions) I might be sent off to a state institution simply for having three beers, months after a brief psychotic episode. Wish me luck.",6.210761952191238,7.02726900796813,5.901033366533866,80.69625124501995,66.09163346613546,8.665438247011952,30.826942231075698,8.660442795831766,2.340499800796813,1055,38,194,15,16,327,160,251,0.057,0.8320000000000001,0.111,0.9486,0,0,3,0,0,0,28.0,2,0,0,1,12,7,2,0,18,0,18,5,1,2,3,42,36,13,1,4,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,9,13,2,2,4,2,1,9,6,2,0,1,19,3,18,5,39,13,6,49,0,0,1,0,6,21,0,5,15,134,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11295152330786826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09875999378716058,0.14471956472193329,0.0,0.12573571124750935,0.0,0.0,0.13270191600400705,0.10860671324350492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018690819625047,0.15913185572752028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216678502885266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277059041531047,0.0,0.0,0.09108968512816107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13836381360153813,0.1637963817429284,0.0,0.11798992963536985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349631983402779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07379334211198922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15559446468136126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13909534620518174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14742040498674114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09428042134992212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14983590194154087,0.14261459448084882,0.0,0.11273836315518207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089348722929226,0.0,0.3004258614866792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148424711177459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295179186793548,0.0,0.09791971953981173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09048351983352257,0.0,0.13945986379726996,0.0,0.16000014396739984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127963901104259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09383519699933138,0.0,0.0,0.33639214659462185,0.16471919802078422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15692554097311712,0.0,0.15363120922592693,0.0,0.0,0.16989725718057164,0.12198811370379432,0.0,0.0,0.08330844694079291,0.22422333936717745,0.11329616080966592,0.0,0.0,0.13093315121186302,0.0,0.0,0.16242182838287536,0.0,0.0,0.10282617402069708,0.0,0.0,0.10033457255254392,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,starpower_916,2019/07/31,"i need advice. today i opened up to my mom about my delusions, voices, suicidal thoughts, etc. she is getting me a therapist and doing other things to help me, but she says it is up to me if i want to get a diagnosis and get on medication. i’m really scared because i don’t really know what antipsychotics do or their side affects other than what i’ve read, and im scared maybe it will make things worse or just not work. i want help, i need help before things get worse, i just don’t know because im scared of medication. does anybody have any advice? i would appreciate it very much.",3.4865725047081,4.863992101694915,4.9233333333333364,83.11705273069681,72.89830508474577,8.295291902071563,24.975517890772128,8.841846274778883,1.6992116760828622,460,14,95,9,9,154,69,118,0.185,0.696,0.11900000000000001,-0.9103,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,3,2,0,9,2,0,2,0,21,22,7,1,6,7,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,10,4,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,2,16,0,10,19,2,6,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,3,1,59,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25227483978113463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08778017487882384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15737435753432302,0.0,0.10983926023202722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11296051322877446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14396053237381234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26976003390967224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25956279690623224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27886138453117104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418801641895168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616322601900779,0.0,0.12968020176410866,0.0,0.0,0.2600730356042452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15117925844957034,0.0,0.0,0.09489010989968934,0.191425309668544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12911691446049428,0.0,0.16538644734042907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026511738869641,0.3877007506791682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14119473859505796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14987413130551433,0.2572690015114636,0.0,0.0,0.10247667593845754,0.0,0.0,0.12235462676433699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065061545690761,0.1522717959948529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09397322101406233,0.0,0.263091137005619,0.09169613721049116,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nekoblue138,2019/07/31,"I’m afraid I don’t have schizophrenia but now no one will believe me...gaslighting or delusion? Last fall I was committed for finally admitting I’ve been hearing voices at full volume for 6 months straight which led to a suicide plan. Every waking hour, I heard judgmental narration of my life in the form of many voices, all of which I recognized as people I knew in my life. I get up, go to work, and co workers would all be talking about things that were exactly what I was conversing about the day before, in my personal life. Or I started researching schizophrenia online and the guy I was dating “randomly” has the urge to watch “a beautiful mind”. I lay in bed at night and I swear I hear my brother on the phone with my parents, talking about me in an angry context, yet says he loves me to my face. It’s worse in certain places. At first, I thought it was real. Sought help, then tried to convince myself this is delusional and despite an insane amount of coincidence between my private life and things certain people would talk about or do around me, this couldn’t be possible. No one could have such a lack of conscience, that they (people I love) fuck with me to point of suicide. Fast forward and these delusions are becoming exhausting. I began to trust no one. And I loose 4 years of sobriety to it by this point. All day everyday I sit at a computer, pretending I’m normal but I still hear voices. Tonight, I’m upstairs, and I guess my dad thought my door was closed but he starts talking to someone. He wasn’t on the phone and the tv wasn’t on. The topic: me. It was completely hushed and seemed to becoming from a home hushed tone. 1) I almost had a panic attack 2) now I’m afraid I’ll have to kill myself. Because I can’t go on in this life knowing people I love are actually a part of some systematic break down of my soul eventually ending in me dying. What the fuck man?! How can I prove this is or isn’t real (obviously without being committed again)",3.7334230319237847,5.464281678756479,4.703952866454955,83.51526575296677,72.88601036269431,7.8821995654354,28.51378906902892,8.558390810932622,2.1523500919271257,1552,62,300,28,31,505,206,386,0.154,0.741,0.105,-0.9759,1,0,0,0,0,3,46.0,0,0,1,4,12,15,4,3,18,0,32,13,2,2,10,53,58,20,4,6,8,3,0,0,0,3,6,10,3,3,18,14,0,0,7,2,0,5,10,8,0,4,16,11,42,7,52,34,9,55,1,0,1,5,27,26,2,9,24,202,60,4,0.0,0.0,0.08768953144513966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998092102421949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07999366134305874,0.0,0.10222771292572434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054777280924099885,0.19848465971876134,0.07646348628191019,0.1012404483154494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09421556979140344,0.0,0.0,0.07174518941068005,0.0,0.0,0.11590338737805975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932595718273141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07958850205734848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07571017785395802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09843626544028247,0.0,0.0764341151687342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661466030298315,0.04694767747135061,0.0,0.10213800884994104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09898994319978346,0.08897464898217225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30383325157022484,0.0,0.060230668944809176,0.0,0.0901360164790344,0.0,0.08849312505044762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09941579422111133,0.0,0.04938421819877208,0.0732471700050655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173507429623175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.243304072034539,0.0,0.0,0.09110303610669072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09073208764868426,0.0,0.07172468627352714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432668983682765,0.08804285133177123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826725805604036,0.0,0.0,0.10543030726486656,0.09977791029715824,0.09730866210644668,0.0,0.24918797709764096,0.07846151098772848,0.0938836470017304,0.0,0.169891812646222,0.10130264773852783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204558685325234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07145957292271715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08180436112719196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613733439826588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272054846276459,0.0,0.07176160330020548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19658256865231716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28890140322662583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11939680296630767,0.0,0.0,0.14267619589359254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061008438865101974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662097779831451,0.0,0.06541850410041722,0.0,0.0915741124932284,0.12766667064012402,0.0,0.0,0.057866322288721336 schizophrenia,Cozmic-owl,2019/07/08,Has anybody else come to a belief due to a episode if so what is it? Had a pretty bad episode last year I feel like I’ll never be the same it lasted 3 months. I lost all touch with reality I felt like everyone I knew were able to teleport and access different realities.I felt like i was watching tv in real time if that makes any sense like they performed for me at that exact moment. Also that people (friends) could enter my dog’s mind and watch me through him. That they could also be invisible and be by my side talking to me. That you could talk to anyone you wanted if you simply built a bridge from your mind to theirs. I came to the conclusion that we all have the same consciousness and our upbringing and environment is the only thing that separates us from each other. It was like a big ol cosmic joke made by us for us to figure out one day that we were all actually the same person. I still believe it to this day hard to convince myself that it’s not true from the things I’ve experienced.,4.265566502463051,5.185696615763551,5.236428571428572,83.34607142857145,70.52709359605909,8.164532019704433,25.83004926108375,8.418075326091056,1.537084729064039,795,23,163,12,14,261,124,203,0.047,0.855,0.098,0.8544,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,6,4,3,3,4,11,0,0,11,0,15,0,0,2,6,42,25,11,0,7,4,0,5,5,1,0,0,0,0,1,19,12,0,0,8,2,0,3,2,2,0,1,11,8,27,9,22,8,7,19,1,1,2,0,18,5,0,3,16,116,46,0,0.12344212718008628,0.0,0.12046170938684266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974332490150057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08394487949336829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631360549673356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10306902001427512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13907700568338813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411849081361115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10633446225271836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956754819279747,0.0,0.0,0.15921991983753891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12897074958571025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10312005751116872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11795424251671648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062416048523171334,0.08818708032235692,0.23704760080692944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953710812478986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105798994485796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20124361850602446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.301537940187507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347516638502146,0.0,0.0,0.11680392544356688,0.08239857843653432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.249282718114082,0.0,0.09853032820855584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520617844703394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08364758008458795,0.0938833002357444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08557922817335059,0.10778490406884457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12558502158794155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405041656518552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985810422227131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984362118453638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640189284127217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07198009705399896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4454570399082209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0728093648860475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07949268269485875 schizophrenia,Adios_numero_two,2019/07/08,"I'm not sure if I have autism, aspergers, schizophrenia or just a little off socially I always thought I'm just an anti social guy. But I had a convo with my sister recently about how I view life and suicide and she mentioned I might be schizophrenic. The though never cross my mind because of how I viewed schizo (mostly via media and Hollywood). It's not about having split personalities or being bipolar (suicidal one day happy go lucky the next) but rather the absolutes in my views about life being asocial and skewed. Is this a possibility?",4.6066556655665565,7.061465485148518,5.37676567656766,76.50187018701872,72.36633663366338,8.053245324532451,27.063806380638066,8.841846274778883,2.416801100110011,438,16,73,9,9,142,75,101,0.062,0.892,0.045,-0.1608,0,0,0,0,0,1,11.0,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,7,0,8,4,0,2,2,24,12,12,2,2,10,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,2,3,10,3,7,6,1,9,0,0,3,0,7,3,0,6,4,54,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641943778747804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029054384710952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272615331230784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11214719336876416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953877361948856,0.0,0.21006146725536504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787600466267482,0.0,0.19777651261446225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20933595907298405,0.19924705979412724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15219307036860275,0.0,0.20986270656674205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13371592316416134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17230095522370809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224599393041141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19483958091418827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023061940363655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43169401063945817,0.0,0.18598120113334696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19387573502435748,0.15665798765968045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RarelyScary23,2019/07/08,Why do antipsychotics make you gain weight and how? I thought they blocked dopamine and serotonin and since serotonin is responsible for appetite wont you have a decreased appetite since antipsychotics block serotonin?,9.726078431372553,13.408923764705884,5.141764705882356,78.38460784313726,61.352941176470594,8.062745098039215,46.62745098039216,8.841846274778883,4.900521568627452,184,12,25,3,3,47,26,34,0.131,0.7090000000000001,0.159,0.264,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,0,8,6,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700441549097809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6693055187397895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32117213607646805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4926400074140245,0.0,0.0,0.36504870782775256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Fairyhaven13,2019/07/08,"Frustrated with my country's medical care... I just recently got my first real diagnosis. Finally, I can get the medication I need and get help instead of getting misdirected with ADHD meds. My psychologist described my state's case managers and how they are supposed to help with resources, like food or finding an apartment, as well as further explaining my condition and meds. I got very excited about it until I found out that because I don't have Medicaid, I can't get one. And because this is America, it's going to take weeks, maybe months, before I can get into a psychiatrist and get meds. And it's like, I'm glad I got diagnosed. It's been a long time coming. But, now I have to wait even longer to get help, and I can't even get half the help I was looking forward to. It's not fair. I have insurance. I'm just being punished because I don't have Medicaid.",4.114696832579185,5.663567447058824,5.682941176470589,77.61015837104074,71.58823529411767,9.230769230769232,32.48868778280543,9.661875296680813,3.282814479638009,686,33,129,17,13,233,98,170,0.052000000000000005,0.8029999999999999,0.146,0.9221,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,1,1,9,8,2,0,5,0,15,4,0,1,0,25,37,13,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,7,13,1,1,3,0,0,3,5,2,1,3,6,1,20,6,15,30,0,17,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,1,12,83,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14182984263332246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21582063832199905,0.0,0.1004211852023908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12032309430039947,0.0,0.0,0.10165857421883542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11978168210204294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15589421106232895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12927852133193846,0.1078626186240539,0.1003826114708064,0.1427029451539541,0.12939621244050958,0.0,0.0,0.4932593731644153,0.0,0.06707005135175174,0.0,0.2831596263931334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31640907079077385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11531131647421408,0.0,0.0,0.10443863819374817,0.09910200124033283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11856088188255826,0.0,0.3932607053961244,0.2377732918028764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419761449670212,0.0,0.0,0.08750585370860285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07996931143588566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13432571952099678,0.0,0.0,0.1165245451511062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873180858755372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06881488732460173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973738738824557,0.0,0.0,0.0946636777510702,0.0,0.10610872017977233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,divmxndblvck,2019/07/08,"A big thank you to this sub I honestly dont believe I am schizophrenic, just very paranoid and susecptible to delusions. I was on the verge of killing myself this morning from one of them delusions and posted here and got someone to talk some sense into me. Thank you so much for being so welcoming in spite of my diagnosis. I took my meds after 3 days of not taking them and feel a lot better.",5.270384615384618,5.897362192307696,5.622205128205128,82.53946153846154,68.1025641025641,8.291282051282051,30.98461538461539,8.238735603445708,2.163704615384615,313,12,61,4,5,100,59,78,0.11900000000000001,0.713,0.168,0.5081,0,0,0,0,0,1,5.0,0,2,2,1,4,7,2,0,3,0,4,1,0,0,0,10,10,6,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,3,1,12,5,13,6,3,9,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,2,2,47,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727037334288385,0.0,0.2140706279940214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561000913220102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28367691854653765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12238607938463422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19358684974486245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677888007905337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057794405554296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688593075779121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17793216773543474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16401710167160666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318138215732409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050853753534652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819889881417629,0.19454796122408252,0.0,0.44568814514967897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689227791510532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19971386880755454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheShoeThatBreathes,2019/07/08,"[Serious] Traits of a Good Psychologist and Psychiatrist Hello r/schizophrenia. In your journey of dealing with schizophrenia, what traits do you look for in your psychiatrist and psychologist? I feel like getting a good set of doctors is the major key in dealing with schizophrenia and this could be a good starting point for people seeking help. (Stories welcome, but please include a TL:DR)",9.585,10.825307348484847,8.008636363636366,67.03295454545456,58.84848484848485,9.630303030303034,43.77272727272727,9.516144504307137,4.657436363636363,319,18,45,5,4,96,46,66,0.0,0.7829999999999999,0.217,0.8859999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,0,0,0,6,0,0,5,0,4,1,0,0,0,8,8,4,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,5,10,6,1,7,0,0,1,0,8,4,0,0,2,29,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18934728182478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4889884233567322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427360274130148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11991162459305595,0.169422068839337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239025945879434,0.0,0.0,0.5967377663306678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15895858023186324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11586092083642377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19914869540154792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644119505238568,0.0,0.0,0.2603226526851234,0.22418613145412009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16785803302836586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xerlixa,2019/07/08,"Boyfriend suffers from schizophrenia, how can I Support? my bf suffers from schizophrenia which he has for a couple of years now. We've been dating approx. a year now. He is on medication which work quite well although he has some side effects. He's pretty open about obvious side effects like lethality or weight gain but he closes up (or just doesn't mention) by side effects which are not too obvious like reasons why he does things or thoughts he has about different situations. I tried to talk to him and I offered him to be as open as he wants to be but maybe you can help me to support him: 1. How can someone support someone with schizophrenia without generating a bad feeling towards the challenge of coping with schizophrenia 2. Can you share your experience with relationships and how you felt supported or vice versa pushed too much by your partner 3. He often talks about topics and when I ask something he often does not response. Is this a side effect of the medication?",5.238858195211783,7.508105629834255,5.088375690607733,80.0735211786372,70.04972375690608,7.257605893186003,33.061141804788214,8.021203637495839,2.620612965009209,793,38,134,11,15,245,108,181,0.028999999999999998,0.792,0.179,0.9802,1,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,5,0,8,16,12,0,0,6,0,14,3,0,8,2,36,23,16,1,1,10,0,3,2,2,0,2,0,0,1,5,9,1,0,8,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,3,3,14,9,25,18,2,17,0,2,0,0,28,10,0,7,8,90,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243795683862811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110874224216421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14721229826923402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13900421423701625,0.0,0.0,0.2328580004998747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301440134761278,0.0,0.0,0.06727179464035782,0.0,0.12774452964251054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917758392458641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12999860688739287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336620719226626,0.0,0.0,0.2680586575066604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09780373967363726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13535508866814194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141510249884564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367929169790243,0.0,0.14284105969893204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14954869920456235,0.0,0.0,0.2254580148966056,0.10242491414625322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6039137575673847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21387384187764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883895082305311,0.0,0.0,0.10562325353716764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09032915078505886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847367397330074,0.0,0.0,0.16201355771801698,0.11962386887725115,0.0,0.12005285605201425,0.0,0.0,0.12825109952401842,0.0,0.09685869743504873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17135386017506102 schizophrenia,Paradise48,2019/07/08,"Please help me out ! Mind game or reality ! I constantly feel others can hear my thoughts and the same way around, is this can be real? When i start a conversation with a person cannot keep an eye contact, if I look into their eye my thoughts get louder and start to converse with thought. I am not able to concentrate on anything because of these weird thoughts. Please help me out",4.138538812785388,6.092227808219178,4.026232876712331,87.86665525114157,72.28767123287672,7.0584474885844735,28.605022831050228,7.793537801064563,1.6639242009132431,302,12,60,4,6,92,54,73,0.023,0.8320000000000001,0.14400000000000002,0.8353,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,6,2,2,0,0,20,17,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,8,0,1,5,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,5,9,0,10,12,1,10,0,0,3,0,9,5,0,2,4,39,12,0,0.18344551681362414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15096002976659104,0.16330540267222055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118266843698572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19823943346173625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09275556522202022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584271110063043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067564298630148,0.0,0.2459193261092747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16305480415630488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540480321894349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18522767754329453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601775494582195,0.0,0.4027361796131081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088011594685938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259687361979153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.582540997147783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14561051256069546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cakeycakey66,2019/07/08,"My delusion is that my neighbors are getting real time updates of my looks, weight, mental status, whereabouts and living situation everywhere I live because of this Mormon family. My neighbors are in on the plot against me and they’re happy when I get hurt and terrorized and assaulted by people. I hear them talk about me in code and they are trying to bring me down and dirty my image to prevent me from living a normal life like I want. They’re perverts of justice and perverts of the truth, and they enjoy assassinating my character because it’s human nature and boy oh boy are they hungry for violence... <333",8.603947368421053,8.276057991228072,8.381403508771932,68.81315789473685,61.192982456140356,10.40701754385965,36.54385964912281,9.725611199111238,3.6690807017543854,497,20,79,8,6,160,76,114,0.162,0.705,0.133,-0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,4,0,2,7,1,1,3,0,5,2,0,0,1,14,11,10,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,2,3,3,9,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,18,4,15,11,0,8,1,1,1,0,11,4,0,0,4,54,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500670808422577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19336005398957445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21432368419037934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183440868833219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23117459465313275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195751788863812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14487570860932147,0.10020669659878348,0.0,0.5433493502688003,0.0,0.17224127647251342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20670327935107394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20096487494579574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14219788971484626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23346080910391506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305529495545328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16486016040166718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11960166177025405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13925665856688454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12097956781407634,0.0,0.0,0.24976949848703744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shannontara,2019/07/08,"Treatment center recommendations? Anywhere in us but Midwest preferred. I am looking for a good treatment center that can handle my boyfriend. He is having paranoid delusions and the first time my mother and I tried to help he went to the mental health hospital where I lived and he had a violent outburst which led to 5 years of him in solitary confinement in prison. We are desperate for this not to happen again. He just got out on parole without us even knowing (he previously refused to go to hearings) and when we reached him he said he thought his mom and son were dead and was surprised to hear from his mom. He also was adamant I had a boyfriend and was talking me so bad. Then he said it was because his son and were laughing at him. His son is 10 and lives with his ex girlfriend the mom. He hadn’t been replying to my emails that year which was honestly nothing new from him but this was the first time I had talked to him in a good year. He said he saw through my lies. Later that night he assaulted staff broke a window had been stealing knives. He went awol and assaulted the police officer when he went to arrest him for gong awol. He’s back in the same jail in that same town that threw him in prison despite his mental state. We are going to speak wit the parole officer tomorrow but we are looking for a facility that will treat him and not charge him. We need him back in our lives and i don’t want him to rot in solitary in that state of mind. If you have any questions but any hospital or inpatient treatment that deals with this type of situation would be appreciated. Thank you!!",3.7452371590071287,5.655365466453674,4.10947284345048,87.04152064389284,73.24920127795528,7.115704104202508,28.012902433030227,7.882392219407189,1.6793323666748594,1273,50,253,18,26,398,160,313,0.177,0.726,0.09699999999999999,-0.9879,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,8,2,0,2,10,13,3,0,13,0,28,1,0,1,0,43,49,23,1,5,10,8,0,0,1,2,1,6,1,0,14,20,0,2,4,0,0,7,5,6,0,2,25,9,38,7,38,21,2,43,0,1,3,0,65,17,0,3,17,166,52,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847984087414093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14421871166159994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630730811231514,0.08853715300083742,0.06463967269233407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10932033940616608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07003698202391583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18039143614598213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052747690516001,0.17787899000124088,0.08480813379129946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376889668219582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11271324729514905,0.23902466622686055,0.0,0.07107491757444825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05827561439127583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809000212316833,0.0,0.17809013002101104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137223704404944,0.0,0.10706797324295064,0.3725706501550756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862570215293622,0.0,0.1024119902153518,0.0,0.0995093136848702,0.0,0.1017461510228648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878662965403973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30259875626583577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11919095586082308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704583709695333,0.0,0.0976253807861068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418218692096123,0.12366301464790062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07199272131040459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25510088994857943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06254385534971582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29489437280101416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10221667740191856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753262270842922,0.0,0.0,0.20485464427313724 schizophrenia,sadthumblelina,2019/07/08,"Delusions with past memories A while ago I had a total mental breakdown over some delusions. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia schizoaffective disorder. I relived my entire childhood but my mind added traumatic experience to it that I was molested by a family member. I started ranting on Facebook. All of my memories were wrong. One morning I woke up screaming and ran outside into the street and almost got hit by a car. Has as anyone had their mind makeup false memories to their life? I had delusions about being born talking to God. I thought everything on the TV was about me and every song. I've finally started taking my medication and I'm just surprised I'm not dead from all the times I tried to kill myself.",4.801136363636363,7.389696537878791,5.595454545454548,74.53818181818184,72.25757575757575,8.642424242424243,32.96969696969697,9.2995712137729,3.6116242424242433,581,29,91,14,12,189,90,132,0.17600000000000002,0.7559999999999999,0.068,-0.953,0,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,2,0,3,5,2,0,7,0,9,3,0,0,3,18,19,7,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,7,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,4,0,1,11,2,17,1,18,6,4,17,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,2,9,66,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17775861053765052,0.0,0.20080280544089066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14021592072874264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035347191072563,0.0,0.0,0.2298258712459191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16895599578727952,0.0,0.18022431057249916,0.19615777303067264,0.1890427570117976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21967188191163955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16038294005406767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22185781338424124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416409584837034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20201386100538288,0.20208805803298796,0.0,0.4049582408355353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13588497886043696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19142950677916395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28387371333778755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507743372760546,0.16117920222249593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15919919511246178,0.11693122450958986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13614736924491053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192491419571193,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DeadMansPopp,2019/09/07,"Auditory illusions Is this even a thing? Meaning like I didn’t exactly hallucinate but I heard something and thought it sounded like something else. I also feel like my hearing was intensified a lot. Basically, I heard someone talking next door (I live in a dorm) but could not understand the words (talking which recorded on my phone so so know it really happened). The voice sounded really angry, derogatory and threatening and I came to believe that what I was hearing was a sexual assault. I ended up calling the police. I was extremely emotional and panicked. Needless to say, it was in my head. The police came immediately and the girl was alone on her room listening to music and unpacking her stuff. When I play back the recording, which is only 10 seconds or so, I do hear a voice (though I cannot make out the words, even on the highest volume setting) but it sounds normal. Not like how I heard it. More like someone talking on the phone or mumbling to themselves. I hear no muffled crying or slapping or angry-sounding threats. Has anyone had anything like this happen before?",5.017620320855617,7.405494267676767,5.69881758764112,74.9495989304813,70.96969696969697,8.0931669637552,34.37433155080214,8.841846274778883,3.402388235294117,867,45,138,17,17,281,115,198,0.15,0.742,0.10800000000000001,-0.9209999999999999,0,1,2,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,0,10,9,2,0,14,0,14,1,1,2,1,31,32,20,0,2,9,0,1,6,0,0,0,14,3,1,13,9,0,0,5,1,0,2,5,2,0,1,14,15,19,7,12,17,2,16,0,0,0,0,18,9,0,5,10,101,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11895374590978312,0.0,0.09184842438486718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030834428753637,0.0,0.09451476981748837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08831536925664579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773199888084473,0.1294007357313311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11727842058015893,0.2627239621273409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09170129577062502,0.0,0.12616134412638255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09594548893998976,0.12919490014988322,0.10172624571837104,0.0,0.0,0.1517195084918294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05807345765501725,0.08205147227349319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031294111386164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787298271387517,0.0,0.5177936545720859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0631205637150712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33667015868893524,0.0,0.10141787934756737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09764446812460978,0.0,0.0,0.07666570487702767,0.0,0.0,0.12510929804193802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214816238824315,0.0,0.1125321936812961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735137820731673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14715638153641433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913362343322932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19463025404747294,0.17683990582652828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13147995358267522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27694504582933444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07630366323383465,0.0,0.11284313040804053,0.091180970783794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11956670275299207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,im2unoriginalforthis,2019/09/07,"I keep thinking my meds are placebo's Been on antidepressants and antianxiety for ages, recently been told to come off them and prescribed aripiprazole 5mg (to ease into it), still not been diagnosed but definitely been told I'm in a state of psychosis. Even with the antianxiety+antidepressants I stopped taking them for periods of time because I thought they were placebos or recording me etc, with these new ones I still think they're placebo and because of that, could I possibly be placebo-ing myself into believing they're not working and therefore not helping my state of mind? I'm confusing myself and need some insight.",11.522702702702706,10.146825414414417,9.970702702702708,63.11821621621624,56.11711711711712,12.843963963963963,46.52432432432433,11.602472056035307,5.523056216216215,515,27,81,11,5,159,76,111,0.067,0.883,0.05,-0.1857,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,3,1,3,1,0,1,2,0,8,1,0,1,0,27,19,7,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,10,0,2,4,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,8,0,13,0,15,9,2,16,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,3,8,57,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431760903222309,0.0,0.0,0.22472141724169947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17181582923537916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15925137544241644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20244617038665808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22244894258415332,0.1317404525515492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336928225023245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772878718814772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22155341944849646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20139621727256785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789594417809268,0.0,0.19263825407365745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515823592175874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22485948006874507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19694119758472092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185756180555729,0.1667562301219265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14996796275351232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25560989524867084,0.0,0.15834776258576536,0.11630585044369975,0.0,0.0,0.3811822726234281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520815741028587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MsStapler,2019/09/07,Heyo! highschooler here Im pretty sure i don't have schizophrenia but a lot of this stuff i weirdly relate to and im thankful for find such a gentle community :). I do deal with hallucinations of bugs on/under my skin and things moving around me that make me kinds worried that there are ghosts but lol anyway. The best thing is being able to relate to people with paranoia stuff because it sometimes pops up and i know that normally people dont find you normal when they know you think people everywhere can sense when you start undressing so they can rush to your house and watch you. Basically this is to thank u guys for being super rad :),2.6835888501742176,5.450426447154473,3.3778919860627177,86.49310975609758,81.27642276422766,5.790708478513357,20.167828106852497,7.1686216300943375,0.6458413472706166,515,14,95,7,14,162,85,123,0.055999999999999994,0.701,0.243,0.9833,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,5,2,2,8,7,0,0,3,1,11,1,1,1,1,19,18,9,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,10,7,0,0,5,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,2,14,6,13,16,2,7,0,0,1,0,9,2,0,1,3,66,24,1,0.15072048233823107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341731838789103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091877807096446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15817184749916582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553861991765455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17664328279282746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755115806507607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14923697375532605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17391120049899994,0.0,0.0,0.3256079693798255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15695218886256074,0.1656640708239074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12813716426851052,0.0,0.0,0.10060709232449518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601920200947775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953481434060237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134718149243396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15333691552947587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490664109452648,0.0,0.1066807331530652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450777854356145,0.0,0.0,0.14205227090014175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277526340403229,0.0,0.0,0.2002639825454434,0.096575599255998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15306396596078953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,babygotgas,2019/09/07,"Paranoid Schizophrenic - Recent Night Terrors Throwaway account. I was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia about 2 years ago after having a severe breakdown and losing my career of 15 years. My paranoia had gotten so bad that I actually walked out of my job even though I had no issues and no one suspected any kind of behavioral change. At the time, I had been getting treated for depression and anxiety by my primary doctor, but my symptoms continued to get worse until it came to a head and I snapped. I immediately started seeing a psychiatrist and coupler afterwards I have a new career now that has been working out great, but I have had to be hospitalized twice after a bout of extreme paranoia and a suicide attempt. They have tried a lot of different medications, but recently I have found a really good balance that is working fantastic for me (75mg Effexor, 100 mg Lamotrigine, 2mg Risperidone, 1mg Xanax as needed, and 10mg Ambien when needed). I have been on this combo for 6 months now and I am feeling as balanced as I ever have, but I have been having some severe nightmares that turn into terror. I have a lot of bad memories from my childhood and they are constantly coming up in the form of terrible nightmares. I am thrashing, yelling and sometimes even urinating out of fear (which is embarrassing for someone in their mid 30’s). My dog is usually the one who wakes me up out of worry and it takes me hours to calm down before I can finally lay down and try to sleep again. My question is, have any of you suffered from this and did you find any ways to cope with it? I have an appointment with my psychiatrist next Thursday and I’m not sure what to tell her or ask. TL;DR Diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia, new medicine works out great. Having recent persistent severe nightmares/night terrors. Need suggestions.",6.819747175901022,7.949905810650886,7.054480903711674,71.84978483055407,64.85798816568047,10.050779989241528,36.073695535233995,10.125756701596842,3.937527810650888,1476,70,241,33,22,477,192,338,0.217,0.716,0.067,-0.9942,2,0,0,0,1,1,34.0,0,2,3,6,10,18,0,5,13,0,33,11,4,0,2,45,49,26,1,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,12,26,0,0,5,0,1,3,3,11,0,3,13,3,35,7,49,35,4,48,0,3,1,0,11,15,0,5,29,180,47,7,0.0,0.0,0.09422308559844368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08558957656987995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19698074034433205,0.0,0.07386378848613545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09026525284037326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16123764380872185,0.0,0.0,0.08216061249686579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043241667605158,0.0,0.0,0.10214166510264648,0.08317299488692709,0.0,0.1043409154974636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08316209204456818,0.1960011993002133,0.0,0.1008787110839149,0.0,0.09882743515667082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12754643195838006,0.08733890787517637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10865045070827643,0.048820763980938,0.0,0.0,0.1057705351108355,0.08824889682199376,0.0,0.0,0.10586682528652057,0.0,0.0,0.10089129135782098,0.0,0.0,0.08098518039823348,0.0,0.21290295147332486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909258551451364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09508655319613138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007776217062594,0.09581526138674147,0.0,0.0,0.10054646333342764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080195834682534,0.0,0.16417405557886378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09726831669307574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07706873492077082,0.0,0.0,0.2147814086221952,0.0,0.18650552271461693,0.10268661187847322,0.18121937211398376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13085540855314573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10816293291707413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061855168104128375,0.0,0.2860072199279017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07694128999227222,0.0,0.0,0.3272366865093859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662404771563488,0.0,0.0818101597535992,0.0,0.0954946887391194,0.0,0.06834164277728341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561475177272063,0.0,0.09100130142178764,0.10035690570655396,0.07259683030841689,0.0,0.08439272916105084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09486412655584657,0.0,0.05630159891159577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311080869672622,0.1050233709983238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634093946143,0.0,0.0,0.07664032287284776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21087807894487492,0.09805559611928844,0.09839709823799286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243556294217039 schizophrenia,blu2011,2019/09/07,"How do you heal from schizophrenia complete and be a fully functioning adult? Hi everyone, I was diagnosed with schizophrenia about a year and half ago. Went crazy for abit and hospitalized then sent home and got medical attention. After couple of months of consuming strong dosage combination of Risperdal, Zyprexa and Invega (monthly injection) I started to feel normal. It took months more to be completely sane. Before I was in meds, I was completely normal. Wakes up early go to work, passionate about my job and have a normal body weigh. After the illness, I’m complete opposite. Lack of motivation, depressed, gained extra 40 pounds and sleeping for 12-16 hours a day. Good news is, as my condition gets better, doc reduce my medication. the only medication I take now is Invega monthly injection and 0.5mg risperdal. However, I still feel weak in physical and mental stamina and sleeps 10-12 hours a day. I’m just wondering if any redditors have similar experience and successfully become normal? Thanks !",6.458275862068965,9.223042068965519,6.701816091954028,67.6747931034483,67.96551724137932,10.846896551724136,34.01379310344828,10.793553405168565,4.7190027586206895,816,39,120,27,15,262,119,174,0.07400000000000001,0.782,0.14400000000000002,0.9161,2,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,1,0,6,6,8,0,0,7,0,10,13,4,2,0,26,24,15,0,6,2,0,2,0,0,0,7,0,1,1,1,12,1,0,5,0,0,4,0,2,0,1,7,2,10,6,19,15,3,24,0,1,0,1,4,3,0,2,17,68,11,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534042753463964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07314063523917255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878531166455294,0.0915208163877709,0.0,0.0,0.0951230680137917,0.0,0.1194686185607347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4510746910993627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190068247310598,0.0,0.13872729521956995,0.0,0.09263639017691316,0.10916538489548144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10277277516980196,0.0,0.10520877660115356,0.0,0.0,0.1087654057199384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056192700315108216,0.0,0.0611256065392056,0.09021147238453182,0.08602102608570153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10788576633412583,0.0,0.2118387074181348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067310804779694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194686185607347,0.3250490283073581,0.1083894715099003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34339537272513504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4215216450520205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179991750580543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21526401668349726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612751110511723,0.0,0.08589302997663538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086747378184697,0.0,0.0,0.09902158026368196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11949682238685233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09970394505503223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663808714093304,0.07830083603647263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06926146471658548 schizophrenia,thejenot,2019/09/07,"Recently got diagnosed, feel like it was mistake So recently I got diagnosed with schizophrenic disorders, and my atmosphere in my home around me started to be sordid. Everyone kinda blames themselves for my sickness even thought I was like this since childhood. It's really killing me.",7.629375,10.520359854166667,7.035833333333336,65.9925,65.04166666666666,12.3,43.25,11.698219412168324,6.632650000000003,235,15,32,9,4,73,38,48,0.174,0.7340000000000001,0.092,-0.6705,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,7,8,2,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,1,7,2,5,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,6,21,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19801453146255274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4515341929377874,0.0,0.0,0.2549300673232173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14691638475183266,0.0,0.0,0.2125464135756188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11246994580361756,0.15890778700533478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35580357845553034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22312069195649675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460916475400098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173412549692772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424977168948291,0.0,0.4392559490642695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18400073733690955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15744081477898209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17658874219776302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,smanders14,2019/09/07,Schizophrenic hero I’m adopted and my biological mom is schizophrenic. I have a very vivid memory of her stabbing the wall above my head as a child while screaming “leave her alone!” I had no idea that my mom was sick and I never knew what to make of that situation... I just recently learned that she sees “evil” shadows and that really clarified things for me. She wasn’t trying to hurt me- she was trying to protect me. In her mind the shadow was trying to hurt me so she was saving me from it,2.758321995464854,4.88140385714286,4.06891156462585,85.28481859410435,76.75510204081633,7.620861678004537,23.133786848072557,8.515128840125781,1.4773569160997733,390,12,79,8,9,128,64,98,0.209,0.7340000000000001,0.057,-0.9392,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,2,6,1,0,4,0,8,4,1,1,1,11,12,6,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,7,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,7,3,19,2,10,5,0,5,0,2,2,0,10,2,0,0,3,56,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062885448323084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20441429475899628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4264487623802085,0.22484794225781785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21090095334223624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13295299426400453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20111320134645636,0.4665501980403599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361850576968145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12759865432467335,0.0,0.1966644421611148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871923666089174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22388464055746515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13232514481570193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4056867675133281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16434287354073487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KappaCartoonist,2019/09/07,Striped shirts I don’t like horizontal striped shirts because when I look at them the stripes appear to be moving. Up and down the stripes go. It’s like looking at an optical illusion in the sense it appears the image is moving even though the reality is it’s not. Anyone else see this?,4.914642857142855,6.235206892857143,5.4628571428571435,80.83214285714288,69.35714285714286,8.457142857142857,33.64285714285714,8.841846274778883,2.826335714285714,230,11,44,4,4,74,41,56,0.0,0.907,0.09300000000000001,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,6,0,4,2,2,0,0,4,10,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,6,9,0,11,0,0,3,0,1,5,0,2,3,28,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920066425020876,0.2813600594842734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16739355697080668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293929897076421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18137065136894004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15606145755023446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683112918256652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4611895308861291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5837124957467777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188205764567146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697930182883336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Galactose_Intolerant,2019/09/07,"Looking for some advice with friend who has been acting oddly last few weeks. Good day everyone, I'm seeking some advice for the parents of my close friend who are worried about their son. This close friend of mine has been acting oddly the last few weeks. A group of 6 of us had planned and paid for a trip where we would stay at a cabin, hike, and explore the nearby cities. My friend in question who will be called ""Tom"" for now was looking forward to this trip - Long story short, one of the friends going was an ex band member (who will be known as ""Bill"") of his and supposedly they were not getting along, according to Tom. Tom had been telling me that he was very concerned about the motives of Bill. He wen't as far as saying that Bill had it out for him, and that during the trip Bill would try to pull him away in the trip to kill him with his gun. He became very paranoid all of a sudden, every time we would go for a run he would tell me more and more that he was unsure of going, because he didn't want to die at the hands of Bill. He even asked me to protect him, and to be ready to shoot Bill if Bill tried to kill him. I casually laughed at this because I thought he was just joking. It didn't become apparent to me that this was all serious on the last few days of the trip when I start hearing from the others that Tom has said he's not going on the trip. When I called Tom, he told me he had a strange feeling that told him not to go. The rest of us spoke to Bill on Tom's behalf without Bill knowing the real reason why Tom didn't want to go. Bill said that he's totally fine with Tom, he has nothing against him and that he's his friend. Bill agreed to a peaceful trip and that he wouldn't cause a fight with Tom over the band that broke up. When we called Tom back to let him know Bill just wanted to have fun with all of us, he said that he would go on the trip. Fast forward to 8 hours before the trip, Tom sends me weird messages that he feels weird, that he doesn't want to go. I called Tom and the sound of his voice told me he was scared. When I asked him if he was worried about Bill, he said no that's not his main concern anymore but that he still untrusting of Bill's desire to have fun. Deep down I knew he was still scared of Bill trying to shoot and kill him, even though he kept trying to tell me it's not that anymore. Instead, he told me that he felt that something was stopping him from going, perhaps God; He said that he felt something horrible was going to happen on the trip, perhaps we all die in a car accident or evil beings try to attack us. He didn't know what it could be but he kept swearing to me it was a legitimate cause for concern and that he could no longer go because of it. Fast forward, we're on the trip having a great time with Bill. All the impressions Tom gave me of Bill were wrong, and while Bill has a hot head at times, he's no where near the kind of person Tom made him out to be. Bill was being a cool chad that whole trip, not to forget to mention he supplied one of the cars for the trip. He was more than willing to see this trip happen. When I told Bill what Tom thought of him, he was shocked; Because beforehand Tom had been trying to convince Bill to move to a certain state with him (for music purposes), but then all of a sudden Tom was trying to close him off completely. This is true because Tom told me Bill was like ""gum on my shoe"". Tom's irrational perception of Bill and complete flip is something we've all experienced before with Tom, but not to the extent that he thought one of us had it our for him. The worst part happened after the trip, when Bill (who didn't have the full picture of what was going on) decided to lash out at Tom when Tom went to pick up somethings at their old rehearsal space. Bill told him off in a not so polite way, because he was shocked that Tom would ever think that he would try to kill him, especially after all the hardwork he put to make the band happen (This is true, Bill always worked the hardest and put the most money down to sustain the band. During runs with Tom he would always tell me how dissatisfied he was with Bill, and I always found this sentiment to be misplaced). After Bill lashed out at Tom, Tom completely shutdown. He has been avoiding all of us who up till then were all good friends to some extent; Aside from that fact that before the Trip Tom told me he had been slipping false tales to catch which of us he could consider trustworthy - This is when I first started to notice something was wrong. According to his Dad, Tom has been wandering the house alone at night, talking to himself and staying in his room. He has practically done this his whole life, Tom even tells me about it; But the level he's doing it at now is even concerning his parents. Reddit, I'm not looking for a diagnosis. I'm not asking you to tell me what he has. All I ask from those who have experienced this with family, friends, or themselves, does Tom sound like someone who has or maybe is developing Schizophrenia?",6.5896923076923075,5.4262487294117685,6.2778431372549015,84.99067873303169,65.62745098039215,9.140271493212671,30.69381598793364,7.680030821947732,1.7297707390648571,3944,113,854,33,52,1229,343,1020,0.1,0.809,0.091,-0.9154,3,2,5,3,1,1,98.0,12,1,3,4,30,45,7,3,54,1,92,4,3,8,17,132,161,44,6,19,23,5,6,2,8,12,1,11,1,1,62,39,0,5,20,6,30,45,21,19,0,4,71,24,75,26,149,66,31,140,0,1,4,0,156,51,0,10,48,533,137,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08000052523112185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042395312409544375,0.0,0.0,0.10218118210364864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08119112148752185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15307117806721005,0.04656837117547958,0.03845887081630155,0.0314757441353668,0.0,0.14971803694231536,0.04520842265706272,0.10449553967232963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16719289472950874,0.0,0.0,0.08410105395034383,0.0,0.0,0.12875566220707238,0.0,0.0,0.09804748188857014,0.0,0.0,0.05279812889718562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496612576427526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03582164751950356,0.041889727040267416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10814616911706056,0.037027175737265376,0.03448868768712805,0.03911422205664988,0.0,0.0,0.03858896262138095,0.0,0.04139495332671851,0.0,0.07860618065216532,0.0,0.0,0.034818466967300066,0.0,0.04488205360012869,0.2530042545394285,0.0,0.021386342389377727,0.0,0.2791650466075281,0.06866704839051034,0.0,0.04512991512586717,0.0,0.0,0.14479131832165648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042010126613327384,0.0,0.0461356294023564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040311776287331784,0.04723237737135556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811497674552326,0.04262649554684298,0.06748882091186614,0.10010009916276846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04185782139719423,0.028912917580032418,0.039996601052573265,0.0,0.0,0.036225330470869184,0.10312283290966294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03873277111029368,0.02732378442142196,0.0,0.04112373735806196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043506398226719235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03841381637065619,0.0,0.03927730799340885,0.04660366708795053,0.042953381058489865,0.0,0.08321387901243897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909047973167076,0.044327567993766935,0.0,0.0,0.03574201810931905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08230001704381518,0.04585548437475767,0.0,0.0,0.046591890363011985,0.0,0.042087002762784265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19468819260469755,0.03255238546052764,0.08196421467354774,0.0,0.032619123999894736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034683272735898704,0.15756508962055066,0.0,0.0,0.057946637503286415,0.08726046398122092,0.06537994215051172,0.0342226839114446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03290122461301038,0.21466889084939975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02622887505713201,0.04021747890602899,0.0974911478226907,0.07160689025908466,0.0,0.0,0.31291377645319896,0.0,0.22233216763605826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34467020551745353,0.0,0.0,0.06754972722024348,0.0965758112703036,0.03249152952117749,0.06566962322428407,0.0,0.0,0.037946258047067416,0.036936597273644185,0.09140277045947294,0.0,0.0394589464074749,0.0,0.029800463039863875,0.08314099358146752,0.0,0.2326268967565233,0.0895098767864999,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Excommunicable,2019/09/07,"Addicted to invalidating myself I have severe chronic mental illness due to childhood trauma which included events such as my parents allowing their friends to sexually assault me a week before kindergarten, my father attempting to kill me once I turned nine years old, and being drugged and psychologically tortured by psychiatrists for seven years. I am always on the edge so to speak. The past few days I have been delusional and it’s probably related to my grandma being terminally ill. I have been obsessively researching all sorts of atrocities from the past 2000 years, and berating myself saying that I have had it easy, it could have been worse and I have no right to have depression. I have researched historical punishments for suicide victims and inflicted them on myself by cutting myself and whipping my back with an iPhone charging cord, even though it was only in the 17th century from Puritans (the Westboro Baptist Church of the time) and most governments treated attempted suicide leniently by making them pay a fine and do meditation and prayers. Maybe I should really be inflicting “medieval punishment” on myself in a more historically accurate way xd.",17.97772727272727,11.900068893939395,15.69515151515152,41.3127272727273,49.45454545454546,19.462626262626266,59.262626262626256,16.11434528070225,8.914923232323233,963,52,131,31,6,309,134,198,0.235,0.7140000000000001,0.051,-0.9906,1,0,1,0,0,4,13.0,0,0,3,2,5,13,7,1,10,0,20,5,0,2,1,18,22,13,3,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,5,2,0,0,6,11,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,10,0,2,5,2,23,3,23,12,4,22,2,1,0,0,8,6,0,2,15,104,29,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18097625044675653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13813426485648267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12765203986011786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126294349165938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13254609657939476,0.0,0.0,0.10706321708452017,0.0,0.14298483850261162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19251979575435504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964855216352444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282595140815015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836663276044971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108134823784358,0.0,0.16678013831386634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672998165151835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742003838709652,0.17679605891881764,0.0,0.12625867622602435,0.0,0.0,0.18433532120229676,0.0,0.3169521412741608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789876951474994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10635075434587228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14177229602499272,0.0,0.13201843262158575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875449243051697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3631776896046047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16310474498416602,0.0,0.09680221877413857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18057205358839967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177162718428642,0.13316383125643205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16917916390493173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207164914795034 schizophrenia,loveschocolate23,2019/09/07,"Anyone on here with a schizophrenic parent? My mom was diagnosed back in 2007 but before that she dealt with abuse from her family when she started having delusions. I come from a religous background so naturally my family assumed she was possessed. It went for years before she was diagnosed. I barely remember what she was like when she was sane. I sometimes feel resentful and other times pity, i love my mom but i so badly wish she was sane, it's been hard watching her breakdown over the years and it's been getting hard to deal with. Have any of you dealt with a parent who was not aware of their mental illness?",3.8151048951048963,6.293778606837609,4.190660450660449,83.96216783216785,74.8974358974359,6.98958818958819,25.166278166278172,8.00094639256281,1.6515196581196585,495,17,88,8,11,155,74,117,0.187,0.7170000000000001,0.096,-0.9068,2,0,0,0,1,0,9.0,0,1,1,0,6,5,1,0,4,0,11,5,0,0,0,14,18,8,0,1,3,4,3,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,7,7,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,10,4,19,2,13,8,0,12,0,1,1,1,18,3,0,1,8,65,26,0,0.0,0.18926728358351133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10862954120043992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11169480998786427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12283117620767638,0.13337728785487366,0.0,0.0,0.2718561101358498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13760295944222345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16468623491011494,0.0,0.3242680525644212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011797050473796,0.0,0.08076998568033135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345822037343682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861936026494375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780415155630364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441727326767441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16098162837356056,0.0,0.0,0.3741740890142916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35474755193429514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809557189420664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15798820036937453,0.0,0.11306569292210915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09314641900411286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14808175744967114,0.0,0.0,0.18369457675548476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057362808083332 schizophrenia,Gnexus99,2019/03/26,"Symptoms Leading to Break To those here who have or know anyone with schizophrenia, what were symptoms you experienced before you started having the more obvious signs like delusions and hallucinations? Did you first develop depression? Anxiety? Weird habits? Insomnia? Did you change your daily life or was your routine the same before you had your first episode? Did something traumatic suddenly cause the rest to follow? Was it a few weeks or a few years? What age were you? I've read a lot about people's first major moment when they realized they or someone they knew had schizophrenia but I haven't heard much regarding the beforehand. Just want to hear your stories.",5.322831564986736,8.711295646551728,4.471034482758622,78.90049071618037,75.29310344827586,7.707161803713528,29.612732095490717,8.617729084823388,2.934179840848806,549,24,84,12,13,163,81,116,0.073,0.898,0.028999999999999998,-0.6159,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,10,3,4,4,3,0,0,7,0,12,4,0,2,1,18,19,7,0,1,6,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,2,0,3,11,3,14,1,6,8,8,13,0,1,0,0,16,0,0,5,11,63,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150053049396274,0.0,0.0,0.13715157705284536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3338158168730929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20149851930777768,0.2074990822051047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16894239736705874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5005313875819069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210735912393208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10779807421991858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385454713726695,0.09582823889693318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16675842233563434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14419170104764706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13598465779980087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19620155935917155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16619596955723606,0.15100468192412442,0.0,0.0,0.13883490286186856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4077467467585789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11569345482521155,0.0,0.1573384781955969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12631318936356908 schizophrenia,crummyvelvet,2019/03/26,"Arrested and undiagnosed My friend has been experiencing what we believe but has not been diagnosed as schizophrenia with paranoia. It has been a tough six or so months and things have escalated. His delusions/beliefs have him convinced he is being targeted by a growing network of 200+ people using electronic torture and EMFs to frame him for all manner of things. He now believes my husband is being blackmailed into helping this network torture and frame him. His girlfriend is one of our best friends and she is blown apart by all of this. I have read the sticky post and have forwarded her the information, but I digress. I’m posting because last night, our friend was arrested for criminal trespass. It’s the second time in the last few months that he has been taken in for this charge and it all revolves around the place he used to rent - the place he believes this all started. My question and reason for posting is ultimately trying to gain an understanding of what an arrest could mean for him. His last arrest, his behavior was more muted. Since then he has progressed significantly into his beliefs and has taken to a lot of behaviors that, frankly, scare us a little bit. He has not been diagnosed. He refuses to go to the doctor and we are not able to get through to him. I do not understand if the county can force him into observation or medical treatment. I do not know if this would be good or bad. Mostly I’m just trying to prep for what he needs when he is released. I realize that without an official diagnosis (and even with one), we may be of absolutely no use at all. But I’d appreciate if anyone of you have experienced a similar situation would be willing to share insight from any perspective in such a situation. 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Tell me it's going to be fun? 😔",-1.8257142857142843,-0.699094285714283,1.1478571428571414,105.53464285714287,87.09523809523809,4.2,10.5,3.1291,-2.155828571428572,128,0,39,0,4,45,37,42,0.0,0.831,0.16899999999999998,0.7579,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,0,3,3,3,0,0,4,9,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,4,7,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4501765952302188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25093576204137963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4435834570554673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4606195880393499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3319810191951804,0.0,0.3859229682690458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574638880180252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Gaythrowaway1823,2019/03/26,"33f with my 32f that differs from schizophrenia.. how can I better manage her moods, or not take the things she says to heart.. etc We matched on tinder back and forth over a 3 year span. She never thought I’d be into her. Cue this August and we see each other, spent the evening together, had sex at my place and that was that. We became official late October and that’s when I learned she has herpes. Even when I said it’s illegal to knowingly have sex with someone without telling them your status and she said “she’ll take the misdemeanor” mind you, this is coming from an attorney — or whatever it’s called when you went to law school but didn’t even try to take the bar. I’ll save you the ups and downs.. but one day after a disagreement she showed me her phone... it said “schizophrenia” and listed a myriad of symptoms. Honestly, she fits in to almost all of those categories. She has even admitted she has persecutory delusions. I have surveillance cameras installed (stealing my amazon packages) and my home is VERY clean and organized. I also know Uh lot of people so that too convinced her that I am an an undercover cop. She told me if she hadn’t met my family for Thanksgiving she would have been 100% sure I was. She even asked me to do some fire consulting.. only to find out months later, it was just really to see if I’m actually a firefighter or an undercover cop. Other things she added to her “undercover cop” narrative are ancestry kit she asked for (she got it, and that means I’m definitely an undercover cop because I’m tricking her into giving the gov her dna. Her brother is schizophrenic and according to her, the way her mom handles her brother is by ignoring him. I have much more to include, but basically I have been in the dark while she’s pissed of at me for no reason (dna tests, private flying lessons, a Tile so she can track her belongings) and I’m hurting wondering what I did to merit this aloof and angry demeanor. I started seeing a new therapist in nov. I go once a week. Even my partner came to do a couples session with me. She doesn’t want medication. She doesn’t have health insurance and frankly I love this woman. She’s my best friend, my lover, my favorite person. There is no doubt I will marry her. But reddit, how can I approach this? She’s said she need mood stabilizers but won’t see a dr. She’s been to therapy 3 times. I’m losing the one I love because of her mental illness (I believe it’s schizophraffective because she has INSANE mood changes.. When she’s off her cycle/episodes, which is every 4 days) she is loving, funny, my best friend, and just the coolest person I’ve ever met. She gorgeous and I hate that she doesn’t see what I see. She yells that I should just leave; she doesn’t know why I want to be with her... She has this thoughts that I know will eventually kill her if she doesn’t get help. I said if you were born needing insulin, you’d take it everyday for the rest of your life because that’s what’s needed for you person to live. She goes back and forth with getting on meds. And let me tell you, being with someone with such delusions (I thought she was kidding at first) makes my mental health take a HUGE DIVE. TLDR: I’m losing the woman I love because she won’t see a psychiatrist.. any advice is welcomed 🙏🏼",3.299097934522976,5.2125404188562605,4.2630422931010274,85.45101419137279,74.48686244204019,7.4257018406632,26.292229872137128,8.238735603445708,1.6943529520865543,2589,94,514,44,55,837,306,647,0.08900000000000001,0.75,0.161,0.9949,1,0,0,0,1,0,82.0,3,9,1,7,24,30,4,1,28,0,55,19,2,4,4,87,114,40,1,11,17,3,1,0,4,7,9,7,2,7,33,34,1,1,14,2,1,5,14,10,1,3,27,15,109,17,54,75,10,49,0,3,7,7,104,19,1,12,24,349,142,7,0.0,0.0,0.06457842791629584,0.0,0.0,0.06466661949710574,0.0,0.0,0.06626590798742991,0.0,0.0,0.052921085483069834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04500208719349896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373163300426973,0.0,0.0,0.10177083030440898,0.0,0.20170199505631756,0.0,0.0,0.07455791912678877,0.13889568421603934,0.05852747363858162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06757330201806468,0.07568794647980133,0.0,0.0,0.07000564792786447,0.05700493908444643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322270972429673,0.0,0.0853563523911771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06914004705582509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380395902892782,0.2622525470236041,0.0598601641060908,0.055756305028617635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06238503448360135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06048385049073245,0.0562894443090737,0.0,0.0,0.10225514027678767,0.0,0.06914866929852126,0.06348224378194704,0.037609461091467004,0.0,0.05292715470304935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06533529977911308,0.0,0.14068441810909008,0.0,0.07841911896283248,0.04435651381300916,0.0,0.06638012710211609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07084299380319993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07321416359563848,0.0,0.1454748416416036,0.0,0.07464963920883827,0.07007104369266383,0.0,0.0676696509541707,0.04674220911169178,0.0,0.0,0.0584347994906765,0.0,0.0,0.14806848746774912,0.0,0.05626064115066892,0.2389064269312252,0.0,0.04417312924624812,0.0,0.0,0.07208528508514203,0.07350684297143757,0.06666556224737964,0.13338009525882227,0.0,0.06681910012920197,0.07750476892974764,0.05282121372984752,0.0,0.048647123401171055,0.1472064476171009,0.05103916724511731,0.06391338904961474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07047549624131275,0.08968541536328484,0.05032998425539683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04587824667154018,0.1733475232911232,0.06914004705582509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042394170062382185,0.06804015812575792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147436153794028,0.05262597259749363,0.0,0.06697385022854117,0.3691370604768632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11214176379203013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046839856960139016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06237028799079247,0.06878241314122535,0.24878134393749346,0.0,0.115681836190608,0.0,0.07567825523324184,0.07683567199964365,0.08792905728570001,0.0,0.0,0.15760953924671178,0.03858787603687586,0.0,0.0,0.06323419770945943,0.0,0.044929297791955536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05460229785573265,0.0780648779742198,0.05252758954656425,0.053082558211893456,0.0,0.0,0.06134600300134267,0.05971372999144714,0.0,0.0,0.06379149801122087,0.07176526906602486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04700967579239868,0.0,0.0,0.04261530494140255 schizophrenia,AnEternityInOblivion,2019/03/26,"I've been told I have this condition, but I don't know. It's all real to me. The people in my head that talk to me, the things I see.. it's all so real, and yet people tell me they're not. I've been called schizoaffective by doctors, as if it's all unreal. But can it really be? It feels so real.",-0.8271215351812379,0.8537559253731359,2.4085287846481904,94.8423880597015,86.76119402985073,6.216631130063965,14.049040511727078,7.447530270364453,-0.3206272921108746,225,3,57,4,7,81,44,67,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,6,2,1,0,3,13,10,7,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,7,0,5,6,3,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,1,39,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223305312586845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22285974777763407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11009274023812238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223457672248489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966079006433705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018983726138957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7434861214776174,0.13948583346897392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735056308420867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750061630096497,0.1903089188268634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14465264709262524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20805395549121425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Shinpachix,2019/03/26,"I think i hallucinated Hi everyone. I am freaking out, my uncle has schizophrenia, and i have never been worried of developing schizophrenia. But today i was sitting and at the side of my eye i saw a bug crawl up my arm and i freaked out and shook my arms. But i then couldn’t find the bug, and the way it was crawling the angle seem unlikely, so i think i hallucinated. can someone please tell me if that was a hallucination or i am just freaking out and should i go talk to a Dr or not cuz i am not sure and don’t know what to do. 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Last weekend my brother 19M paranoid schizophrenia diagnosis, went into some kind of psychosis, not sure. He has been struggling with symptoms progressively getting worse since he and his gf broke up about 2 years ago. She had a lot of the same mental problems too. Somehow she got him onto this group called TI- targeted individual. Not sure if anyone is familiar with that. He thinks that everyone is a clone, or working with the government against him to kill/hurt him. He lashes out at my parents and I frequently because he doesn't think we are real. He also thinks he has implants in his head and a camera in his eye. Any people walking around or cars driving by would set him off and put him in a panic. He finally got on some medication but was not taking it frequently enough to have any effect. &#x200B; He left the house about 9pm, no shoes on, in shorts and a t-shirt 40F weather. He ran barefoot for a few miles, somehow got into a store, cut himself up, and then got into a vehicle and crashed it. He said that the voices in his head told him he was in imminent danger and about to be killed. I guess he cut himself on purpose and his ears/face are hurt. I am at a loss and have no clue how to even begin to process what happened. I'm so upset for him and keep crying. &#x200B; I guess my question is, what is the best way I can support him? He is in involuntary mental health ward at the hospital and will probably face legal consequences. I know to watch what I say, be kind, and not engage when he gets angry. I can't imagine what he is going through. I hope now that he will have time to cool down and get the professional help he needs. Until now he has kind of been off the rails and my parents had no clue how bad it was or what to do. I am just glad it ended this way and not with him dead. The doctors said it could have been much worse. If anyone has advice I would be open to any and all. Thanks for reading.",3.8518390804597686,5.126840817733992,4.539724137931035,86.61935632183908,71.85714285714286,7.285254515599343,27.080131362889986,7.675431598112923,1.4166156978653532,1596,55,327,19,30,511,216,406,0.162,0.759,0.079,-0.9865,2,0,0,0,0,0,50.0,1,0,0,5,16,25,4,3,19,1,39,10,5,3,3,70,67,32,2,9,13,4,0,0,1,4,5,4,0,0,19,29,0,1,7,2,1,7,10,13,0,0,17,7,34,12,52,42,9,55,0,3,2,0,51,29,0,15,15,218,53,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08295044300965418,0.07524706678422753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678839797025248,0.0,0.18394972333540266,0.2062936172973116,0.17317789756553906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11870971222575917,0.0,0.0,0.07556728957912039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07087697029264199,0.05174623314460237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08908350728280419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866789602056513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06777523885117362,0.0,0.09324421383683146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688528336480768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07518454939002421,0.08771080311786238,0.0,0.056066960886447664,0.0,0.0,0.08111301865090506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298939004319558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13304961964411474,0.0,0.04824315053350157,0.0,0.2715670597288569,0.0,0.18702486116039765,0.0,0.07506515716012406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17423678674107132,0.09023074731180852,0.0,0.0,0.056897863221652266,0.0,0.0,0.08431179117394705,0.0,0.0979480226169552,0.1817462476252877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545132862308082,0.1878294350955308,0.2651897606430321,0.046651590321148566,0.0691941088042739,0.0,0.0,0.09222980604520227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07216776048830012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551456632359325,0.1710919493925976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062401598671058725,0.06294252036406761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09959642333824907,0.18851359256302166,0.0,0.0,0.05884985044070189,0.0,0.08868868633601168,0.09318026535196,0.0,0.0,0.08129813312748738,0.0,0.09152237676630803,0.0812252469544535,0.0,0.08533472566291081,0.0950926942621795,0.0,0.08490981711715312,0.09661981431005877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16149365798439594,0.06750542667490753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702192758198629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08874216185935639,0.0,0.0,0.0963285863541702,0.16000969463720008,0.08822993509956187,0.06382434354118617,0.0,0.0,0.0781524024577491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16317618910738682,0.0,0.0,0.04949820227116916,0.0,0.0,0.08111301865090506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347584536504741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07869095625233202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06179863454416145,0.0,0.17301389536477824,0.12060235908556233,0.0928104398281037,0.2062936172973116,0.05466434539753633 schizophrenia,annalee124,2019/03/26,"searching for psychologists/psychiatrists through my insurance makes me not want to seek help.. i’m not sure if this belongs here, but recently I took a mental health examination(not sure which one) from the free counseling at my college and I got a diagnostic impression of schizophrenia. Even though this was not a formal diagnosis, it made me feel like my mental health was way more of a high priority than I felt it was before. I stopped going to the counseling at my college because my counselor left to work elsewhere. I told myself I would find a psychologist/psychiatrist to go to when she left, but trying to find one through insurance feels so wrong and makes me so discouraged every time I try. 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I’ll be fine but then that delusion that the meds are poisonous or are fake and that I don’t have schizophrenia will swell until I stop taking my meds and it goes downhill from there... I’ve tried apps to remind me and stuff but when I’m delusional I can’t think clearly. 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Mine was for two months (the best days of my life since I had my first outbreak ten years ago), but in the end I started to become paranoid about not being hallucinating. Sadly that paranoid thoughts was because I was hallucinating that I was on medication... I was taking (not-real) visual and tactile medication for two weeks. ¯\\\_(ツ)\_/¯ 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schizophrenia,babygirl331,2019/09/01,I don’t know what to do My boyfriend been telling me that my mom has Schizophrenia but I dont wanna say yes to because all she ever does is god but things happen few months ago and she changed after that she not my same mom (if that makes sense) and it’s getting worse now she moving her head back and forth and now she swaying back and forth and rocking on her feet and now she even dropping literally standing and falls and says god told me to do this and she says she hear voices in her head and at first she thought it was the devil but she learned it was god and in church today she was so rocking back and forth and so crazy like and that’s not her and definitely after today I believe she has it and I have a tough life here in this house for many reasons and I don’t know what to do or to handle this situation and it makes me sad if I think about it because yes my mom can be fun but that’s all I think about and that’s all she says is god this and that ( do not think I’m against god but the things she says it doesn’t sound “real” ) and my boyfriend definitely after today he saw what she did in church today and after church he swears it’s Schizophrenia and if I can have any tips or anything please comment or privately text me thank you so much 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schizophrenia,Dnmanx,2019/09/01,people who recovered without using any meds I have schizophrenia too tell me what do you think about it and do you believe this is 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schizophrenia,anonschizo,2019/09/01,Documentary on Homeland actor who experienced psychosis Hi guys. I watched David Harewood: Psychosis and Me yesterday. David Harewood is a British actor known for playing in Homeland and Supergirl. He was sectioned 30 years ago due to acute psychosis. It's really nice seeing a public figure speak about psychosis with such openness and well worth watching. For those in the UK: I believe it's available on BBC iPlayer or whatever it's called. If you look hard enough it's also available in other places on the internet.,7.067252747252747,9.384093967032976,6.337142857142857,72.78285714285715,65.37362637362638,8.276923076923078,39.373626373626365,8.841846274778883,4.0157428571428575,425,24,61,7,7,130,67,91,0.016,0.858,0.126,0.8357,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,4,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,7,5,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,7,4,3,11,3,2,13,0,0,4,0,8,9,0,2,4,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715882515451715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24501275788202656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3451864454489256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128492345822674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165734516763405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033653379479859,0.0,0.0,0.27445717745499354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572828579901689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.320102912754127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19627550021487908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441459726532273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754732946242493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19729930511377933 schizophrenia,Kollegi12,2019/09/01,"How come schizophrenics hallucinate scary and disturbing things and not more pleasant ones? I was reading about the experiences of schizophrenics on their hallucinations and I was stunned how horrible a lot of them were. Dead people staring at them in their beds, hanged man living in a closet, feeling a presence that touches you and breathes in your neck. Some were very bizarre like a seeing a telephone pole that continues forever into the sky and the worst one was an experience of getting groped sexually by an invisible entity that you couldn't escape. All of that is A-grade horror movie material and living in that state seems absolute hell. How come the hallucinations can be that horrible? I also read that you can see more mundane things that actually aren't there like seeing a person walk past you in an hallway but the person is not actually there, so you can't be sure what actually is there. While that also is very eerie it seems more manageable than the monsters and demons. Why don't you see and experience ""nicer"" things? Why is it so bad?",6.474955357142857,8.31737432291667,6.4752380952380975,73.06500000000005,66.1875,9.652380952380954,31.943452380952376,9.957137785484203,3.31141398809524,858,35,146,20,14,272,109,192,0.19,0.7859999999999999,0.025,-0.9843,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,7,4,0,11,8,1,1,15,0,18,4,2,3,2,25,28,17,1,1,3,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,3,15,11,0,0,3,2,0,4,6,4,0,2,5,7,14,4,15,20,7,17,2,0,5,0,15,9,1,4,5,108,29,3,0.0,0.0,0.3678854257989318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009845154681857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049229405416682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21649423772394444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36876612014582666,0.0,0.0,0.06353873692730913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06565347095289267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12278470238668805,0.0,0.22192458364958176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068337657701115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17030432753613245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11995907750805455,0.08711855674955184,0.21944730005851368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513930168291026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4005469791972607,0.22879684518415144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184354213166214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250453748437299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20736944977243107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267817256501385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Dmanson98,2019/09/01,I believe i have schizophrenia and am scared ill lose my job if i get treated Im 21 and in the army and believe that i have schizophrenia. I want to talk to a doctor about this but am scared to because of the chance of me being kicked out. This is my only job and is my way of life and id like some advice on what to do,0.793333333333333,1.9864094444444484,2.5288888888888903,98.305,79.55555555555556,4.800000000000002,20.333333333333336,3.1291,-0.6036000000000001,248,6,62,0,6,82,46,72,0.13,0.7759999999999999,0.094,-0.3919,2,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,2,3,0,8,3,0,0,0,10,10,7,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,9,2,11,9,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,2,1,43,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21308139586410235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13292466187164154,0.0,0.0,0.4913479505750274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223189133025686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11392504425667067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355374524072599,0.0,0.4327730469911491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15401910971605404,0.10653094535917493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439484253118135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658410998187131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43662336523636297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17526482097273358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12861483479472793,0.17308237525017814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SimonSandbox,2019/09/01,How do I get schizophrenia? I want to get schizophrenia because I think it’s cool... I’m just being honest. Does anyone know how to train your brain to develop it? It’s really interesting to me and I wanna major in psychology and learn first hand what schizophrenia is like it seems really interesting.,2.1191468253968253,4.9584508750000005,3.693809523809524,79.66230158730158,93.82142857142857,6.7746031746031745,20.50793650793651,7.793537801064563,1.6973198412698418,243,8,41,6,9,80,38,56,0.0,0.721,0.27899999999999997,0.9397,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,3,5,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,2,0,11,10,4,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,6,5,6,9,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,26,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404343428842197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20961337247949907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838605804734643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30091349703822423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924864539224677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593044721765298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18897601978914155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16799223271095562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4405700081332445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3130364948775213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22033108646169894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20281706112782769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,moderndaylies,2019/09/01,"Spiders in my ears? So this may sound odd. This is my first time posting. And I honestly don't even know if this is the right place. I have been diagnosed with many disorders and schizophrenia is not one of them as my psychiatrist deems I'm too young to be diagnosed with anything besides BPD and well he thinks I'm a liar, or maybe that's just my paranoia. But hopefully, there is someone here that has the same feeling I have in my ears. I guess you can call it a hallucination. But it's like a tingle deep in my ears so far back I can't reach. It normally happens before I go into a state of udder panic and my paranoia kicks in. I guess I can describe it like a spider in my ear, or a pressure that I can't make go away. It makes me extremely agitated and no matter what I do I can never get the feeling to go away once it starts. And I mean anything. I have tried to google this feeling but I can't seem to find anything and none of my past therapists have been able to help or really explain this. So... if there is anyone out there that feels the same way, or maybe knows a way to make the feeling stop please comment. If this is the wrong place to post. I'm so sorry. But honestly, I have nowhere else to go. Thank you. -mak",1.565833333333334,3.4748297500000014,3.0895312500000003,91.91067708333335,79.625,6.2979166666666675,23.166666666666664,7.333567415737692,0.7788182291666663,960,32,214,13,24,315,131,256,0.09699999999999999,0.787,0.11599999999999999,0.568,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,2,1,1,13,11,1,2,13,0,24,7,4,3,1,49,52,23,0,5,13,0,5,2,0,1,3,5,0,0,17,11,0,1,12,0,0,4,8,4,1,2,2,10,28,7,23,48,3,31,0,0,0,0,8,14,0,12,10,144,45,0,0.11025566817013348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07709332675653112,0.0,0.2721930615367746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20717765928099285,0.08477980314659482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09381945289910837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13886315437764465,0.0,0.11258336452441683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22381436465820645,0.0,0.0,0.12636254782609788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09210446305781612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07282282898040134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787428931948885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10077168325765776,0.09378341502138136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0576040359840087,0.0,0.2506433482558277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429180976466847,0.0,0.09749872323791316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07390205028470155,0.0,0.0,0.10950875618399636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12118726358296103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10773070047802166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22078954395857547,0.11178194221311033,0.22153327609187792,0.12010074519397428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0850359683391463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10802714531182056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174186882454516,0.07471209419120241,0.0,0.0,0.1293612706868532,0.0,0.0,0.10525151095728937,0.0,0.0,0.2303874130300856,0.12102761449505295,0.0,0.0,0.21118890525061315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07063260428752377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09415773819055802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10037261938879133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09341926984738737,0.0,0.0,0.12342219375195924,0.0780395294136302,0.0,0.0,0.09217867551224457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10150860593486953,0.0,0.12801532870040674,0.0,0.07064738023466491,0.0,0.0,0.06429096676260114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07485636131538388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17503163482905856,0.0,0.0,0.09913308685838744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12054726491928552,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,OhThePete,2019/09/01,"Trying to decide how I can help my brother, need some advice My brother is now in jail after two episodes. The first one he hit some signs on the side of the road with his car. The next one I don't know all the details, but about a week later he was out driving again after he got mad at my dad after a talk. He then goes to his friends house that he was living in his basement, gets the police called on him and escorted out. He tries to go camping and gets the police called on him there. This whole time he doesn't have a phone so no one can get a hold of him and he can't call anyone so he ends up hitting a bunch of cars and trying to evade an officer. Here comes my dilemma, he has said he 100% believes this is all due to being bipolar and refutes that he has schizophrenia. He was diagnosed with schizophrenia about 5 years ago after his first episode occurred. After the first time it was severe enough that he was court ordered to get injections for a couple years. He is facing at least 20 years in jail just related to the things he currently did and has said he would rather spend it all in jail than to be medicated again. He wants me to help him get out on bail by helping him sell some assets. He stands to get around 60,000 USD if I help him out, but I can't help feeling in the state he is in this will just allow him to make his situation worse. He won't really have anywhere to go that will be a positive support group for him when/if he gets out. Any suggestions as to what I should do?",5.065224358974362,4.748981227564105,5.352692307692308,87.55897435897438,68.4551282051282,8.343589743589744,27.58974358974359,7.594959193182576,1.2896397435897429,1181,32,262,11,18,375,161,312,0.059000000000000004,0.843,0.098,0.9193,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,3,14,3,1,0,18,0,30,4,1,3,3,39,51,14,0,6,6,3,1,0,1,5,3,2,0,0,11,15,0,1,3,0,2,6,6,1,0,7,9,3,23,2,49,32,10,54,0,0,0,0,53,21,0,4,24,170,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10568235018552716,0.09586792515862702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07354530629323902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07562058093171202,0.0,0.0,0.096275902455907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12184734843939325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312979133253651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09316113910820316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966526332743704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109769372968989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957882753712701,0.11174724900597496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05468359039830358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27597549453562376,0.0,0.0,0.08355596463091243,0.0,0.3955252151999089,0.0,0.1229276021622026,0.0,0.08649696151043702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624513436955996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12478989684214528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059436086489104915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09549790898024496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07219056988128911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089491510385503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08019141595061627,0.0,0.0,0.11501812273041205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198545141218029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06928328032607288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057497066515045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12217804795355933,0.0,0.0,0.121564466291127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12272666699047505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08692639782150313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07184966135400453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612557947079164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22027904751005856,0.0,0.10564625725440972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0637893231115258,0.0,0.08675093192313901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207449522077334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102134865920765,0.0768262367483541,0.0,0.0,0.20893401951907656 schizophrenia,tempuserthrowaway5,2019/09/01,"What if the cure for a lot of us is kindness? I'm sure most of you guys can relate a little hate goes a long way. My old therapist would cave called it psychosis or paranoia but I started to look at it more like a sensitivity and a lack of boundaries. Something about being an empath. I believe I over react to other people's hate , but at the same time I don't necessarily want to numb out. If I look at the people who make me feel paranoid, anxious, stressed...maybe it wasn't as bad as I thought all the time but they legitimately were people with bad intentions. Then I find people with very good intentions and I notice they don't trigger me. I'd go so far as to say when I was feeling anxiety very intensely the right person and people had to come to talk me down. Heck I won't even call it anxiety I'd call it just absolute fear I was feeling at the time. But there's certain types of people where you just know you don't have to worry about them. People tell you that telepathy isn't valid. I disagree. I just realize it's not a provable point but I defend my right to believe in it. I guess my point is its just sort of an interesting discovery that my suffering could be modified to almost non existent just by changing the people I spent time with.",2.4600611413043474,4.417259109374998,4.053994565217393,85.8219836956522,77.046875,6.952173913043477,25.192934782608692,7.893859768569023,1.4262821331521742,996,36,203,16,23,332,144,256,0.126,0.745,0.13,0.268,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,1,4,3,0,12,13,2,1,15,0,18,1,0,5,3,47,35,17,0,6,14,0,3,1,0,2,1,1,0,2,13,8,0,0,7,0,1,2,7,7,0,0,7,6,31,6,32,23,6,27,0,1,2,0,17,15,1,8,10,138,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09853427638934363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505528215530332,0.11116499590978184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16432126427229293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217282108817374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014349287503129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10409509310651507,0.08476365289328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07856510294104402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649928591665741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107283572396924,0.14926333833562885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08993662989536155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05592349288783363,0.08253399712380065,0.0,0.0,0.1083996730861146,0.09743235071015142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19430101184569712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10246938359293274,0.05407855520793908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04807370396149263,0.09862354165392788,0.0,0.08708169030036925,0.1652639277840387,0.0,0.0,0.08365691700826411,0.0,0.0,0.06568335752613025,0.0,0.09885691901384476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11203006436277917,0.10325518023077992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5457502930344864,0.08591986080593042,0.0,0.0,0.1860412922319788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680676431647291,0.0,0.07825233648293325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07575381181143713,0.0,0.0,0.06964865572540177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09274167338857676,0.0,0.0,0.07909090724671343,0.08600671421113226,0.0,0.0,0.1142510164172199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07811931440763628,0.22951339886063324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183641537269138,0.0,0.0,0.16238207765690327,0.05803939383182735,0.07810604553142105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09993087930762258,0.0,0.06990116831086524,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,smashraccoon,2019/09/01,Back to the hospital This is my fourth time being hospitalized in the last year. 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I know CBD has no psychoactive effects due to the small amount of THC, but I was wondering if anyone here has had any bad symptoms from it.",5.115625000000001,5.501904312500002,5.400000000000002,84.845,68.375,8.9,28.5,8.841846274778883,1.97395,126,4,26,2,2,40,27,32,0.185,0.815,0.0,-0.7469,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,0,6,7,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,3,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683966608689849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5519403599767226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3295422064791389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21690639352551644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4102247510040547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.340877721882294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.428014782978063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MikeV08822,2019/09/01,"Does anyone else use hemp flower? I’ve been using for 4 or 5 months. I’ve found it helps with things like keeping my mood balanced, but I get a tolerance after a couple months of use and need to take a break. I invest using a dry herb vaporizer. What have your experiences been using hemp flower?",3.150338983050851,5.0118864067796665,4.612000000000002,83.01393220338984,74.76271186440678,6.753898305084746,20.274576271186444,7.554174236665415,0.6869430508474577,234,5,45,3,5,78,45,59,0.0,0.873,0.127,0.6917,2,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,5,0,12,13,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,1,5,10,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580722303466005,0.18435366243226892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19908276672102213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15745292865361307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15030362826339738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17600044683508853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19727765953481288,0.0,0.0,0.09400299750487573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12059943595699688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15992494548875824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08790190301114767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28722764864876715,0.0,0.0,0.133411555791601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13528064843854307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11953368064033724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7769839405511347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,woomybii,2019/09/01,"Can i get a little help here? https://www.reddit.com/r/DunderMifflin/comments/cy3vim/greatest_crossover_ever/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app The comment chain here is beyond upsetting and I’m completely on my own :/",25.054848484848485,33.61775781818181,12.47909090909091,18.65530303030306,39.0,8.387878787878789,25.51515151515152,8.841846274778883,2.969769696969697,200,4,16,3,3,47,20,22,0.23199999999999998,0.6729999999999999,0.095,-0.5351,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5417463246587583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5242371326936004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612276917572752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3351373160269873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5011281481710174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,stirpots,2019/09/01,So I was recently diagnosed And I wish I was channeling my mental illness into some awesome artistic ability. You guys are so talented!,4.1575000000000015,7.450103083333339,6.705000000000003,61.24000000000001,80.66666666666666,11.533333333333333,41.333333333333336,10.504223727775694,6.909683333333335,110,8,14,5,3,39,20,24,0.084,0.495,0.42200000000000004,0.8986,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43990499872676797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4291469398788126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4367782916920889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4279429791499006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4984034777072701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Somebodyhelpmemaybe,2019/04/02,"Need help getting a prescription fast My wife takes aripiprazal but has been off medications for a few months because we lost our insurance. She's relapsing bad, paranoid and not sure what's real. I found that Costco offers the medication for a reasonable price, but I'm having difficulty in securing a prescription without insurance. Any help would be appreciated. We are in the Denver area.",6.4706372549019635,9.344909102941179,7.050588235294117,64.69931372549021,68.26470588235293,11.003921568627453,34.86274509803922,10.864195022040775,4.941698039215686,321,16,47,11,6,105,55,68,0.198,0.6409999999999999,0.161,-0.4484,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,3,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,6,0,6,2,0,1,1,13,12,3,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,6,2,6,7,1,6,0,1,0,0,8,4,0,0,2,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675067856536957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20566781854075544,0.1501550481716421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270078357611626,0.0,0.0,0.12869260126338053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302076643544775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688885636534858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.496285161078845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19661114134927926,0.0,0.0,0.182643964651502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.280367323192786,0.0,0.25325910182808903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321547091074077,0.0,0.18520280214734627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23744473757291346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17497943268161575,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,davefake6689d08r9r,2019/04/02,Question.exe A schiz who hasn't taken his med for days after taking it regularly is now puking and having heavy breathing is he undergoing some sort of relapse ,4.8419540229885065,7.901902620689657,5.6765517241379335,71.58195402298853,74.51724137931033,6.625287356321839,26.90804597701149,7.793537801064563,2.169542528735632,132,5,19,2,3,43,28,29,0.09699999999999999,0.903,0.0,-0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,3,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3462113293854947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5962977824413863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6013731371395958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40362980562328976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ThePoolPlayer2016,2019/04/02,"Patients rights regarding medication? I have been on medication for schizophrenia for 30 years. I have been a outpatient for 30 years and just needed medication management. Living in my own place taking care of my own bills etc. Luckily most of the time I wan on a med that worked for me. However that med was discontinued and I have to be on another one. What are patients rights regarding medicaiton? Do I have to take a medication that I don't like? &#x200B; Thank you!!",3.9757471264367794,6.820550712643678,5.134022988505748,75.47160919540232,76.35632183908045,9.84367816091954,29.206896551724128,9.994966539143718,3.6487379310344825,380,17,67,13,9,125,54,87,0.05,0.86,0.09,0.6602,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,4,0,11,4,0,0,0,5,16,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,10,3,12,12,4,10,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,1,4,49,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17055800305013766,0.1912752396156888,0.0,0.16506230400240934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16049406392095802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17555822032333693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769045290292243,0.0,0.13899944580904186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.349702934732661,0.6343121761485607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11672048628922167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106667800191899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16446412596151969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688613915205777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367114749180079,0.0,0.0,0.14492566180662453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917893691913763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145992666687406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912752396156888,0.2027389097410489 schizophrenia,ZachofArc,2019/04/02,"Delusion of Unreality Since January, I have been extremely anxious about developing psychosis or schizophrenia. I have been going to a therapist, havent yet begun any medication, but it doesnt seem to be helpful. Hes just a free university therapist who seems great at helping those with stress, but not those with anxiety disorders, OCD, let alone psychotic illnesses. I go through phases of feeling good, like I have control of my obsessions, other times, for a week or two at a time, im 100% im developing schizophrenia, and ill spend hours a day reading stories, taking tests, and looking up symptoms. My most recent wave of OCD came from a story my good friend told me about his brother, who is currently experiencing his first psychotic episode after taking LSD for the first time. He believed he had to start a business, or else the mafia would come kill him, and he got incredibly obsessed with all the different businesses he had to start. He was hospitalized, and his positive symptoms are improving, but negative symptoms are still affecting him gravely. Anyways, I have this constant feeling(?) or thought(?) that the world doesnt exist. That im in a dream, or simulation, or something. Just that nothing exist, nobody but me has consciousness. I havent ever firmly believed this one, maybe a product of just reading too many experiences, but that others are just actors, or put there by God for me to live in this world alone. I get this feeling, or thought(?) even when im feeling calm. And normally I have just attributed this to depersonalization or derealization, but I looked through the CAARMS test, which psychiatrists use to calculate an individuals risk of psychosis prodrome. Most of the questions I dont score on, no hallucinations, not really any delusions, but the one that I would consider that I fall under, is nihlistic thoughts. Thoughts that the world or one's self does not exist. And it is scored based on ones insight, whether they shake it off immediately at a 0, up to a 5, where the person firmly believes it, and it causes much distress. I rated myself around a 3-4. I tried googling around for this type of delusion, which is what brought me to this page. Not certain whether this is just derealization, existential OCD, a slight indicator of psychotic risk, or even just normal human experience. I smoked weed around 5 times a week from ages 14-16, tried K2 Spice, MDMA once, and was drugged with something (think PCP?) around that age. I quit doing all drugs around 16 after getting panic attacks when smoking, and had developed contamination OCD that people would drug my drinks or food as a joke. (another possible indicator of psychotic risk?) Now 22, Male, a month away from graduating college. I feel quite social, I am in a fraternity, I have friends, I have a job lined up, but I cant shake the fear that I will lose my insight, and lose everything. I guess the only thing anybody can really offer, is to just visit a psychiatrist, and/or try some medication, which I will do once i graduate and begin making money. But for now, I get to just ruminate. I just wanted to know if anybody can relate, or has some information/education, since everything I read on my own is ""the worst case scenario""",8.190348770726132,8.474455662092629,8.139794168096056,68.17057175528875,61.84734133790737,11.320526014865642,38.42138364779875,10.959497528513188,4.39428690680389,2573,121,434,62,33,832,300,583,0.12300000000000001,0.767,0.11,-0.8740000000000001,3,2,7,1,0,0,104.0,0,0,1,7,30,27,2,11,32,0,45,12,0,6,4,99,79,39,2,7,39,1,5,1,2,5,10,0,0,4,34,22,2,1,17,7,3,10,12,17,0,7,15,9,46,11,62,57,10,63,0,3,2,0,28,24,0,22,30,299,80,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13261139962508608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08707196787188927,0.06713084281546554,0.048975336929272584,0.07232469073992039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849580995710844,0.0,0.0728323077346941,0.060149157973912626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21638678815792228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322214207356338,0.0,0.0657664600189924,0.0,0.055147800180443206,0.0,0.0691831761778132,0.07180418478470868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04128778261500217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06688756379254554,0.07337278428143103,0.0,0.05602457611998187,0.0,0.07503128823725211,0.06271549901314623,0.22272958984359809,0.0,0.05348072680996103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08456957877892657,0.05791000607861261,0.0,0.0,0.11507459443289644,0.12524823152137635,0.0,0.07204061069726976,0.16185287907075982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10891123039098068,0.07741357347359776,0.0,0.09892381491810233,0.0,0.10034385770246884,0.0,0.07276839791351622,0.10739434241247706,0.051202864147600814,0.07058258177212129,0.07052555319324076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582288481484665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06304707727112932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276611541821686,0.0,0.06353024676310508,0.0,0.07082895147680619,0.0,0.03518387014784879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06546507108046641,0.0,0.03127707371625507,0.0,0.056531077791737376,0.0,0.10752181808332506,0.14324462916792854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04273403224601725,0.06490651283677272,0.06431697349208951,0.0,0.0,0.12898738827837808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05110037457889166,0.0,0.04706227010797965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545255799069904,0.06142918273836004,0.0,0.0,0.13635901192968475,0.17352718711715867,0.04869030577665831,0.0,0.07511400151206803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04438359939869675,0.05590003679079991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07217324347060845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06435806123987743,0.0717173623427986,0.13618689071273166,0.19211280639064512,0.0,0.08202605798604842,0.0,0.06321230040347749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165633121027485,0.0667871115629985,0.0,0.0,0.10591646995588244,0.0,0.0,0.06526061047833677,0.0,0.0985718744788837,0.0,0.0,0.09062776361506827,0.0,0.05112667617726195,0.0,0.07333501138410972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19962474322909746,0.09627056226663266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14866495269433802,0.042532227550170165,0.04102160869010054,0.0,0.20329979627515965,0.14932295420345212,0.0,0.0,0.0611741185213087,0.0,0.1303966977251505,0.0,0.06253850844514708,0.0,0.0,0.055292964435325706,0.0,0.0,0.03776081827975839,0.0,0.10270640966740267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13643450455965675,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ikeurbantraut,2019/04/02,Creepy Stringed Music? I had a dream where this music freaked me out and woke me up. It almost sounded real but I knew it was in my head when I woke up,-0.6059090909090905,1.4596034848484862,1.215378787878791,101.0430681818182,89.9090909090909,3.3000000000000003,17.340909090909093,3.1291,-1.0910545454545453,117,3,28,0,4,38,26,33,0.053,0.897,0.05,-0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,6,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,1,6,0,4,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,1,20,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5469746317430886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5605938611771946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6217340870822162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,coffee_mann2,2019/04/02,"Former Girlfriend Now Schizophrenic I am a middle-aged man who had a memorable short-term relationship with a woman years ago before she manifested schizophrenia. She was fragile then, but she did not have the condition. Now, she is full-blown with paranoia and an extremely distorted sense of what most of us would consider reality. What should I expect if I get involved with her again, particularly if we develop a sexual relationship? &#x200B;",6.742913533834589,9.867542802631585,7.1206015037593975,63.34921052631579,68.34210526315789,11.184962406015039,34.54135338345865,10.914260884657429,5.084656390977445,367,18,52,13,7,119,61,76,0.092,0.9079999999999999,0.0,-0.7572,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,0,8,1,0,0,0,14,9,5,0,5,4,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,10,0,5,4,1,7,0,0,0,0,14,0,0,3,7,42,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469326304462415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018269747531904,0.3384891115395148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370398005925532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14553963790067515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.598152912313255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350815206723225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978858382109213,0.0,0.3384891115395148,0.17938786423851585 schizophrenia,lightfeathers,2019/04/02,"Mom keeps getting herself into debt, what do I do? We have paid off her debts plenty of times before, but she's never stopped borrowing money and she never tells us the complete truth. So months/years later, we find out there was more debt that wasn't paid and racked up in 10% interest per month the whole time. We have no clue where she spends her money, she won't tell us anything. She's suspicious of everything and probably doesn't want us to know how much trouble she got us all into. My siblings and I are so exhausted, she left us a couple of days ago with no money for food or anything else. We have no money. She also stole $2,000 and only told us when she left. We don't know what's going on and I feel so hopeless. I have my own mental health issues and it's taking a massive toll on me. &#x200B; Can someone please give advice on how I can help my mom? We're so lost. We've thought about taking her to her psychiatrist but she's incredibly suspicious and would probably cause a massive scene and make her distrust us even more. &#x200B; I know this post is all over the place but I'm having an anxiety attack and I would really just appreciate any advice or any inputs.",3.8232119514472447,5.2338539915966384,4.688515406162466,84.99847805788984,72.10924369747899,7.473762838468722,24.986928104575163,7.984000788550335,1.3492849673202616,942,28,187,13,18,305,140,238,0.18600000000000005,0.7390000000000001,0.07400000000000001,-0.9822,3,0,0,0,0,1,31.0,12,0,0,1,13,8,2,0,7,0,18,3,0,4,5,45,37,23,0,3,6,2,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,19,1,2,6,0,11,1,9,6,0,0,8,1,39,2,18,26,7,26,0,2,0,0,35,14,0,2,10,126,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15679142623611153,0.07111532195078119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06415653497416134,0.0,0.17384921907010892,0.19496623107659336,0.10911257600200287,0.0,0.061372509471491775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320379783535961,0.0,0.0,0.09126841746353467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06826623805782643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08241398515034261,0.0,0.0,0.08411521405682146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08876831029538443,0.0,0.05173899739077813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06701835287885068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05298837741642495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07210176672148426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04056456974702821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07332491829975832,0.0,0.09700934325559868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04191466387898015,0.0769598876564553,0.045594165044970214,0.0,0.06416389272429679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527626283877772,0.0,0.0,0.05377365569507432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08373488104855015,0.0,0.07130836796643474,0.0,0.0,0.1322699876681374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17433111031877407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757592632207209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053551337534671305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08084872662964526,0.0,0.0,0.1879189503811821,0.06403545987583238,0.0,0.05897518626820367,0.0,0.12375014943565335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061015328118380265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381887496376603,0.08806382565004969,0.0,0.0,0.07683412999921213,0.0,0.17299394029804135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05139469512918225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797505120231498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06707235239520166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12063961914273873,0.0,0.140241752445011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06369031565044764,0.09356060617201163,0.0,0.0,0.07665917998238754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6755122288016182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04731924929628395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956922908237086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113980198311082,0.0,0.19496623107659336,0.05166277820930757 schizophrenia,crazyisasbadasnot,2019/04/02,"I just dont know I don't want to see a therapist about this because when I saw one for depression it just felt like he didn't believe me. I was just some whiny bitch and needed to get over it. So I lied. ""yes the medicine is working, I feel great"" ""yes I tried what we talked about, it worked great"". I don't want that to happen again. I recently looked up symptoms of schizophrenia and was surprised how much fit. I thought it was just being paranoid and hallucinating. But the jumbled speech problems I've had for years is apparently a symptom. I've been becoming more and more socially reclusive. I sometimes catch myself moving very slowly and deliberately for no reason when handing something to someone else or opening a door or pulling out my wallet. I've always been quick to temper but lately I'm just numb until I'm freaking the fuck out. I can tell my peers view me with open disdain. I see it in their eyes, subtle cues, and I fucking hear them whispering about me. I hear my roommate say my name to his friends online then laugh, I've even heard him mention websites I visit (modem is in his room, he can view my internet usage) and mock me. I can't tell if I'm reading into things too much or actually just being openly mocked. Hallucinations aren't super common. Sometimes it's music, sometimes I'll have a thousand voices on repeat in my head and one slips into my ear (from thought to actually hearing), and most common is I hear the TV when it's off. Off and unplugged, no one else home, no noise from neighbors, but I hear the general cadence and tone of voices. It's usually sitcoms. I've sat and stared at an unplugged TV ""listening"" to a full episode of Friends. I also smell things everywhere I go, not from any direction and always a bad smell, it only lasts a few seconds but I've seen others cover their noses and heard them attribute it to me. I know I didn't fart, I go to the bathroom just to be sure I'm clean, and I've done everything short of scrub myself with steel wool in the shower. I'm a twitchy person most of the time, but I think that one is just anxiety. I don't want to be crazy but what kind of life is this if this is what sanity is. 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So I have become more aware of this disability and have come to terms that I do have it (along with help with therapist) and have multiple delusions. I’ve always labeled schizophrenia as people talking to people that are not there. For me that is not the case. I do have auditory delusions as if people are out to attack me. Have delusions of being followed, thoughts being pulled out of my head, etc. However, the one that does get to me is the visual delusions where I’ll see bright pin point lights that have no mathematical explanation. As if I can see something that’s not there. &#x200B; The big one is the one for as long as I can remember... since around 2007 when I was 12. When I close my eyes it’s as if I’m seeing a turned on blank, black, computer screen. You know how a computer is only composed of RGB pixels.. it’s like that but I can see the pixels move. And not only is it when I close my eyes but it is a constant overlay over everything. Like a filter on Instagram. It’s just over anything. &#x200B; So at this point my family wants me to take medication to get better, for the bipolarism. But I’m not so sure if they can fix the filter and I’m not sure if I would want that fixed as I see it more as a gift? I’m not sure what to think anymore..",2.1547727272727286,4.248609356060611,3.5018848484848486,88.7643272727273,78.54545454545455,6.648242424242425,22.68121212121212,7.699297019823105,0.9724123030303032,1026,32,215,16,25,335,122,264,0.052000000000000005,0.877,0.07200000000000001,0.6233,2,0,1,0,0,0,41.0,0,1,1,1,12,8,1,0,14,0,25,5,3,1,3,40,46,27,0,8,16,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,18,13,0,0,4,0,0,4,8,1,0,3,2,13,21,7,34,41,4,25,0,0,12,0,4,15,0,5,8,149,39,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954373533839502,0.23320014228659486,0.2615263564100761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067244889611607,0.0,0.0,0.08855741631739976,0.09579956067632547,0.0,0.12242682511093372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188515620037765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09517612116855964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09270020816225884,0.0,0.11629284961549248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417401694231818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12001841375613626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09671681212317834,0.0,0.10144920380096396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244808153588727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044333941587653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07213161052109543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059142016109213665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051498422318342,0.0,0.0,0.09523528708854838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10841010615643798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437699177491875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187667456581027,0.1636910798331679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22381865948164628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20346063351461954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12190604680362326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4287734022475017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890196778529329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08284676136888779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30427567011280365,0.0,0.08091257613915967,0.08649631434293101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494852030457493,0.0,0.06895491120734829,0.0,0.0854337497252309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341069566313521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694742867194814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07644612557413764,0.0,0.2615263564100761,0.0 schizophrenia,timboslice2,2019/06/04,"I want to help beat schizophrenia My post on my LinkedIn - About Me. &#x200B; My name is Tim and I'm a recovering schizophrenic. My life was on good pace and I was always a good student even throughout college. Not stellar, but I did my best. Unfortunately in 2015, I endured a head injury after being mugged in Urbana, Illinois. These are the stories not many people know. It's always showing up on the news, muggings, shootings, injuries, but I suppose we don't realize the real-life consequences that the world spreads and the damage that hate causes in the community. As you can tell, my mind is still in enough of a piece altogether to intellectually put something like this together. But, I fear for my well-being and resort to LinkedIn out of all resources for some reason to possibly spread hope and awareness. It's true mental health has zero awareness it seems and for someone like Kevin Love to come into the spotlight seems rare. I'm asking for a consideration of what life means to you, because in this time of void purpose and struggling to find help, it's easy to become crippled. But think about it, even in the most recent Virginia shooting, there were families affected and human beings that were involved. This number seems to only exponentially grow as the insanity of the world situation grows ever darker. So here I am, sharing parts of what I can tell you a schizophrenia diagnosis means. It means your body jolting occasionally throughout the day, perhaps 10-12 times, whether one believes it to be a motor tic or a seizure-like symptom. There are some positive symptoms such as a greater empath level perhaps, and a greater passion for certain things in life. But nonethless, doctors are banking on psychotropic drugs. My fear is that drugmakers have settled for ""this is enough"" and the innovation to discover recovery tools is so limited. A look at the National Mental Health Institute and the embrace of victims is very little. These are concerning abuse victims, people that have been poisoned by drugs, cannabis, US army veterans, and the list goes on. My point is that we need to learn how to embrace one another as a community. I've attended church since I was a child, and found the community to be great. But as people get busier and the focus becomes more on religion, or perhaps in the workplace, work seems to be the focus, we lose sight of the well-being of others and the dangers of the toxicity, pain, and trauma building up become a factor in society. &#x200B; I want to start a channel though. A means for resources for mental health victims. Private messages are perhaps not encouraged, but there needs to be light in this area of life, or life in general. There needs to be music on the streets, children laughing and picnics, weddings and less funerals. &#x200B; I will do my best to contribute to this community in my research.",7.4115731785944545,8.536828816247585,7.135860735009667,71.80606060606061,63.54545454545455,9.438813668600902,37.9103803997421,9.496760409515344,3.8237703417150217,2306,115,370,41,33,728,267,517,0.132,0.7140000000000001,0.155,0.8986,0,0,4,2,1,0,80.0,4,4,0,6,16,28,6,3,39,0,35,20,2,4,4,75,61,38,1,6,14,0,0,2,0,1,16,0,0,3,25,24,0,1,16,2,1,5,4,13,0,3,8,3,31,15,72,45,14,46,1,2,2,2,23,32,0,11,10,265,56,6,0.0,0.08176641878051369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484489516412255,0.22431925967755656,0.2515667361127908,0.0,0.0723637573383326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06451570767188411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04206829453043797,0.22865075585968805,0.0,0.07775144962067852,0.14484498655988962,0.0,0.0,0.0766553528452131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708930195751858,0.0,0.05944662486914395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04450620544721557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07063539641112128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16006105207421722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14261304349448586,0.0,0.09116185973987767,0.06242414740499379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06505716525547747,0.15531249280849252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06307454807446666,0.0,0.0,0.07566669274625548,0.0,0.0,0.036055253018516614,0.0,0.0,0.11576583590956956,0.0,0.07608456270556631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06813379891395625,0.07082490857042288,0.22006550561897054,0.0,0.0,0.0925128622008969,0.0,0.0,0.06854321653873574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03792648706349595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24372156301242076,0.06743030409666778,0.06916687145785153,0.0,0.0,0.057951624216503725,0.07720534370186233,0.0,0.0,0.062284869384603474,0.0,0.0,0.06996603867329265,0.0,0.30069162215531203,0.0,0.0,0.2086397235540233,0.0,0.06968115470819315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535117239025476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352690010661252,0.05248576249275982,0.07343227196422553,0.0,0.0,0.07473188498583977,0.0,0.14353003248526774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06523743687291005,0.07779921803133241,0.06609319367507703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06937483474071802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07854930801462129,0.0,0.07095451413687702,0.06813976073217437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25129907141914753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05708638092842869,0.07757094099754297,0.0,0.0,0.0584725593201088,0.053127824007679667,0.0,0.0,0.04884614298962522,0.0,0.05511205033693629,0.0,0.0,0.0721449886397502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14345712414651227,0.0,0.0,0.12063682253935025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04584765607605629,0.04421928300585251,0.06780268225968122,0.0,0.0804814118953098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08301139939564081,0.0,0.0,0.05694107159406892,0.0814086216198613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12409785071927895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05024062625617151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515667361127908,0.0 schizophrenia,ZealPoseidon,2019/06/04,How accurate is the movie A Beautiful Mind at depicting schizophrenia? Just watched it. Absolutely brilliantly made and even brought a tear to my eye. But I'm not sure how much this actually translates to real life.,5.010789473684209,8.163006657894737,5.193947368421052,74.74513157894737,74.52631578947368,10.115789473684213,35.8157894736842,10.125756701596842,4.686294736842107,175,10,29,6,4,55,35,38,0.047,0.759,0.19399999999999998,0.8037,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,1,2,1,3,1,10,4,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,3,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.3819834115431041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585386633231694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764816220470379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3703845989706113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3952370574377534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877492493719961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455379290639152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689221951412184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BatchyBoi,2019/06/04,"End of an era. My gf of thirteen years just ended the relationship because I can't hold down a job without it triggering my psychosis. Feels bad man.",2.7305747126436763,5.266107344827585,4.048965517241381,83.2509195402299,79.0,6.625287356321839,30.356321839080447,7.793537801064563,2.2785080459770115,119,6,22,2,3,39,27,29,0.12300000000000001,0.877,0.0,-0.5423,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,4,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,13,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962476605524457,0.21628605805518344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6285044852939136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17940025386247474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3520895785939018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3809281811042972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34201971176412244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284830230861627 schizophrenia,verbalkent4202,2019/06/04,"RTF Anybody ever been through a stay in a residential treatment facility? Not a hospital, a longer term group home for patients.",6.335454545454546,9.305102545454547,6.936363636363637,64.9245454545455,69.0,9.854545454545457,42.81818181818181,10.125756701596842,5.500109090909091,104,7,15,3,2,34,19,22,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,10,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5257215989128811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5829831420828647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6194735317054914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Redditkev2018,2019/06/04,"Risperidone Withdrawel Hey all, I have recently reduced my risperidone dosage from 2mg to 1mg to 0.5mg to 0. It's been two weeks since my last 0.5mg tablet. There are lots of positives with the fact that I am able to go without antipsychotics and manage sympthoms myself. One thing I have noticed however is that I have zero appetite, I mean zero. I went all day today from 8am at work until I got home at 8pm without ever feeling hungry, I even played squash for half an hour, and still didn't feel hungry. I guess this was probably to be expected since risperidone used to give me an appetite. Anyway just thought I would share.",5.335540000000002,5.966130504000003,5.418949999999999,84.04122500000003,67.96,8.17,30.825,8.07648339933343,2.07406,503,19,98,6,8,158,89,125,0.012,0.917,0.071,0.767,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,3,0,11,0,0,1,4,19,21,3,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,0,4,1,0,2,3,0,0,5,6,2,14,2,16,13,3,13,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,9,65,19,2,0.18721377042247708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073739411369636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12365292970892584,0.16934557353776247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18932181494001726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17959250769284166,0.10639790007412617,0.0,0.14973195451025811,0.0,0.20623707478746411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877906762115546,0.0,0.18436785252388654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15260420998340202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15916245278540495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20393067958753544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131441184705057,0.0,0.0,0.1268608959687312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201848108799734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18485101265464568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097303310143913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14950915889327618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12437651031403148,0.0,0.0,0.1486268217343623,0.0,0.0,0.1774567640289062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828806504779659,0.0,0.0,0.16169258836188444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017159407236064,0.0,0.0,0.17354904079614142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36093478789658173,0.0,0.13629385457280768,0.0,0.0,0.13299129108264504,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RinzenKali,2019/06/04,"'Positive' delusions? I was wondering if anyone ever hears positive things being said by delusional voices. And if so, if you would like to share your experience. Background: I have bipolar type I and recently started hearing very neutral sounds that nobody else hears. Like notification sounds, a music box, my name being called in the distance. After researching schizophrenia for a bit, I've only read either neutral or negative accounts of sounds/voices. Never a voice that says something like ""Have a nice day, you're a great person!"".",6.088632478632476,9.315347802197806,5.988498168498173,70.13705738705741,70.97802197802199,8.0004884004884,32.089133089133085,8.841846274778883,3.4956876678876667,434,20,58,9,9,136,69,91,0.038,0.7490000000000001,0.213,0.9412,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,0,2,6,0,0,6,0,6,1,0,0,2,12,12,7,0,4,5,0,0,3,0,1,1,9,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,9,6,6,6,7,2,7,0,0,0,0,11,1,0,5,9,38,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12818786913657862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001477389350572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871993621988696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11823201064659132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531478190665828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16583153711778315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793308977232577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20212082197199652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6198751744375572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686958038238763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14139459328024473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13942993269103052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600757736646583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18337856812127976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18101522777306664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17438781973223458,0.14579054465493393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14113558751163308,0.0,0.0,0.1297611791426178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12179561269797436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512655890406731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19881243325357456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13023163087634934,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MeditativeMindz,2019/06/04,"As a non-schizophrenic, the voices in this song is what I imagine auditory hallucinations to perhaps sound like. This is may favourite album of all time and helped me a lot with depression when I was younger after sexual abuse. A bit of context with the song, it is part of 6 song suite which details the experience of a woman falling asleep stranded in the ocean and drowning. She hallucinates certain images and stuff. In this track, she is being hunted by witch hunters to be burnt alive. Dark stuff but really interesting to listen to. Anyway, back to schizophrenia, I haven't got it but my uncle did, unfortunately he ended up commiting suicide when I was very young. Whenever I heard this song as a child, it reminded me of him and I would always think this is the sorta shit he hears in his head (demonic voices and stuff). I hope this doesn't offend but I thought I would share it here to get your guys opinions! Stay strong! !COULD BE A TRIGGER! Best listened to with headphones! Waking The Witch - Kate Bush https://youtu.be/k7FEneG7gsg",4.546988304093566,7.236588342105263,4.549824561403511,81.24321637426905,73.47368421052632,7.380116959064328,26.87134502923976,8.344100000000001,2.038152046783626,835,31,145,15,18,258,123,190,0.12,0.738,0.141,0.6629,0,0,0,0,1,1,29.0,0,1,0,2,5,12,2,0,12,0,17,4,4,1,3,26,26,12,2,4,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,11,0,3,15,8,0,0,3,4,0,1,2,5,0,0,6,11,17,7,24,13,5,14,1,1,0,0,16,5,1,5,8,102,32,0,0.0,0.1986937651695457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953750800750125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289487988563985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17598786992720425,0.0,0.1830819140145744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13389257207128322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14443735642448094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485299479350555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16404004447823978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08761486785449116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13412277379345158,0.0,0.0,0.16604659767738011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172105712363666,0.0,0.1890069372254564,0.0,0.1124039012069844,0.0,0.0,0.1665611625656588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08192838335905768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142570166275932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18159973039680996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743112327386097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17213877044764478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787429070721689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5759195335155729,0.18343352326086546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074535972660749,0.0,0.1331328483376729,0.0977855884734622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138367756305728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23825456508222706,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kindnesscary,2019/06/04,"What would you like people to research about schizophrenia that most people don’t? Hey friends! I’m a researcher and I’m completing my masters this year. My grandma had schizophrenia and I’ve battled with mental illness my whole life, and in my case art was very therapeutic. I know most people conduct researches on genetic issues and ways to decrease positive symptoms, but that’s what society thinks you people need help with. But I’d love to build my whole research based on what people with schizophrenia would like me to investigate and I’d love to know what makes you healthier? I mean, how do you produce health in illness? What are your ways to feel better and how could new researches help with that?",5.384244755244758,7.79314943846154,4.722167832167834,82.25646853146854,70.0,7.496503496503498,31.04895104895105,8.296473431620573,2.4697692307692307,577,25,98,9,11,173,74,130,0.047,0.7290000000000001,0.22399999999999998,0.982,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,5,0,3,3,7,1,0,1,0,8,7,0,4,0,27,19,10,0,4,2,0,1,2,1,2,5,0,0,0,9,10,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,13,6,15,14,4,8,0,0,0,2,11,4,0,2,4,60,22,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371809764612066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16262844511327165,0.0,0.0,0.12384161794116402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07842758267477852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11983654102319236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16487321807411384,0.0,0.0,0.20793208724021933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16189310886698174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704872907223799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10955781087514546,0.15155648134219016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27998318474897377,0.0,0.1035362134502386,0.0,0.0,0.16895876725397446,0.0,0.0,0.15631301481662088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11501108208998688,0.0,0.14980487920789776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5376639623635826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16121725424777947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993873456396394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12798086216961438,0.0,0.24623601796476866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34634648723167843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220369437715654,0.0,0.0,0.09988487082415196 schizophrenia,sasha1695,2019/06/04,"Im doing my own personal research of schizophrenia Hey guys, I have recently come up with my own personal questions about schizophrenia that I would love to ask several people with different backgrounds and figured this is a great place to get in touch with several people with completely different backgrounds. Some of my questions may seem...weird...but bear with me im doing my own personal research. 1. Did you have issues with anxiety/depression growing up before getting schizo? 2. Have any of you tried acupuncture for it and did it help? 3. Have any of you tried ""opening your third eye"" (pineal gland) before the diagnosis? 4. Have any of you found that meditation relieved symptoms? 5. How many of you had a childhood trauma? 6. Have any of you tried a gluten free diet and have relief of symptoms? 7. Have any of you looked into the shamanistic approach to schizo and felt that it could be in fact. true? 8. Have any of you had studies done on your pineal gland?",3.182814339218833,6.143872348314606,3.493242375601927,85.11481273408242,81.13483146067415,6.536543606206527,27.01551631888711,7.793537801064563,2.0069943285179246,770,33,134,14,21,238,101,178,0.015,0.8490000000000001,0.136,0.9708,2,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,10,0,0,2,7,0,0,5,0,21,7,1,1,2,25,29,5,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,7,13,1,0,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,7,4,17,7,27,18,4,13,0,0,2,1,20,8,0,4,2,87,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4743257106481736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10867846807130524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19784112315621336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10013945992262024,0.1218863738282338,0.0,0.0,0.09281651638098452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10012633300868708,0.0,0.0,0.24291393280635795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11896456067418495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116186522124061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274626063703385,0.0,0.0,0.12147211292803775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12816651970663612,0.0,0.11510621175552713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07792021899549613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511408461965264,0.1213352557963156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09762109057416857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104920560170651,0.0,0.0,0.11785969920229016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611868346031896,0.30451619877326075,0.12145696640317898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604541943136125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11478328423180616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10583003385963208,0.0,0.2626598140295196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24165743582089574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367792521762341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08258097667668075,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Alexprince7,2019/06/04,"What are these disturbing thoughts? Schizophrenia? I recently got diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. But My mind is constantly having thoughts of violent and painful things happening to me. I’m not afraid of acting on these thoughts but rather afraid that these things will happen to me. Such as getting tortured by razor blades, getting body parts cut off, etc. Is this part of schizophrenia? Or is this ocd or something else?",6.1620833333333325,9.739323263888886,3.9811111111111153,82.55000000000003,73.30555555555556,8.044444444444443,34.0,8.841846274778883,3.569799999999999,353,18,54,8,8,98,54,72,0.209,0.7909999999999999,0.0,-0.9424,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,7,3,3,0,0,6,3,1,0,0,12,15,6,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,9,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,7,0,0,4,0,4,0,10,10,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,40,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21222472628502784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20646811863580186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19392200402372167,0.0,0.0,0.21897145471785776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15960621725935006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130825426654737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996420580945756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528082347961066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3379076732438329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929162600690376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20330144262154645,0.0,0.0,0.4137989911261477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886488227340544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470874177686737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538637133716814,0.0,0.0,0.4550411903765184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Charles327,2019/06/04,"Disscussions about my life Mostly at the end of the day and try to sleep. I think 2 people discuss my actions and words about the day. And say that I ignored someone or be bad and worse at conversations. I know that is not really but there thoughts are not my and feeling strange. But mostly I accept what they say. And sometimes if I ask someone about such a day I find out that my reallity is a bit different to others and what I'm see. I can't sleep a night 2 or 3 times a week because in my head is always someone who talk or just look at me and I feel it. Any advice? Gern auch in Deutsch",1.6976581818181842,3.3744834640000043,3.2850181818181845,91.7505090909091,78.36,6.1454545454545455,24.163636363636364,6.980632752743323,0.7385200000000007,463,16,104,5,11,153,78,125,0.084,0.8859999999999999,0.03,-0.5114,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,0,7,0,6,4,3,0,0,29,15,14,0,1,9,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,8,9,0,1,7,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,6,15,1,12,13,3,14,0,0,2,0,8,6,0,6,7,69,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632454102335996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13900416230580084,0.0,0.0,0.11360396201938087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15617502001600087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13948497044422514,0.10183592457427816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823821311870532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32321233591231024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17453819966116685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14796223097897596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689372942964642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15268636373220704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17144788320190174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918097326995514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799675259048192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028515532995495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15677095103936722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11581575250008318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070204958472634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656996315078607,0.0,0.0,0.13312218297166795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3343537432438637,0.0,0.42463859353360944,0.0,0.16522287874856711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342734661709262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704288393850832,0.0,0.13262398277578966,0.09741182858592172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11342021133304503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340024275111105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702445659129823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,greyseamae,2019/08/09,"Tell me about your love life? Do you have one? if any, what are the challenges?",-1.1008333333333304,0.7010222500000012,-0.9724999999999984,111.53416666666668,107.75,2.1333333333333333,11.583333333333332,3.1291,-2.238266666666666,60,1,15,0,3,17,16,16,0.0,0.6990000000000001,0.301,0.7219,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,11,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39267985222297386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4078638327958711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5211632741560076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912891362125344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.504709105434253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sovgx,2019/08/09,"Providing Support for Delusional Thoughts Hey all! I work in a mental health facility and have found myself being lost when it comes to supporting residents expressing Delusional Thoughts. I don't know what to say when they tell me about someone out to get them, etc etc. If I tell them it's highly unrealistic or there's simply no one out to get them I lose that trust, but I'm just trying to help. In my job I'm supposed to provide counseling but I'm too new to really know what to do. Any thoughts or advice?",3.2542794279427945,5.3731914356435695,4.55894389438944,82.36523652365237,75.23762376237623,8.44928492849285,27.063806380638066,9.150863307647796,2.3817515951595154,409,16,80,10,9,135,68,101,0.052000000000000005,0.848,0.1,0.69,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,4,3,6,5,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,17,19,8,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,6,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,5,1,11,3,14,13,3,9,0,2,0,0,10,5,0,3,3,51,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16332230181735802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11365747157011435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397192769055694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3727992143575084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832548044674948,0.0,0.0,0.1746421867304696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776565960467484,0.0,0.0,0.11202700856905512,0.1765872110419736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16585561098019294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18370595353670627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18698121525379688,0.1824475000204308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16843268090783925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16141993964905796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132549419661028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070709044646238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13291239045493247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416128687010811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37932543536492463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29216655999706703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3980593533159451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11347363433383345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167620662071042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Farshad7415,2019/08/09,Memantine makes me hear voices When I focus on something or expect something I hear the voices I would hear naturally. I cant tell real from fake voice... wtf?,3.3520000000000003,5.935842200000002,4.830000000000002,78.245,77.0,6.666666666666668,23.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.5273333333333334,126,4,21,2,3,42,23,30,0.231,0.769,0.0,-0.7845,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,6,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,5,0,2,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8246138976326491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627922761771347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775896547347854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3755025905602396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131625011309227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17324586813699028,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,vinvinnocent,2019/08/09,"On my way home to my mother that is in a phase again after 2 years Hello, So my mother currently has a difficult time with chemotherapy. There have been some complications lately and the doctor was really impolite/harsh/neglecting and unprofessional which leaded to a lot of stress. Additionally, my my grandparents became super controlling lately and blamed my dad for lots of things. He on the other hand went on a small vacation alone last week. Because of all that unjustified blame and lots of stress, a big fight between my parents happened. My mother didn't sleep for a night and had already too few sleep because of medicaments. So now it happened, she acted strangely and since yesterday is completely schizophrenic. She writes texts, spreads out paper all over the kitchen with strange notes on them. She ran around the neighbourhood at 4 in the night and is aggressive. Her diagnosis was manic-depressive. Last time, we called an ambulance, but she played that everything was fine. We finally got her into a hospital, but it was really cruel there and after a week she was allowed to go. After half a year, she went from schizophrenic to depressive and we got her to go to a therapist, who finally was able to put her on medication. She doesn't want to take meds or go to the therapist. We don't want to put her into hospital. I'm not home yet, but don't know what to do when I'm there. She has the next chemotherapy in 10 days and it would be terrible, if she now stops going there. Additionally, she needs to take meds every day because of high blood pressure and other chemo related problems and I don't think, she is taking them currently. So, I don't know what to do, when I'm home. I hope to talk to her, listen and suggest her to take some medication. Though, I don't even know what medication.",6.300919786096253,7.256798011764707,6.714331550802143,74.45040106951875,65.94117647058823,10.770053475935832,31.33689839572193,10.735267742514802,3.468676470588236,1444,54,262,39,22,469,171,340,0.126,0.8340000000000001,0.04,-0.9705,5,1,0,0,1,0,42.0,4,0,2,3,17,14,3,3,18,0,26,11,4,3,2,53,53,24,0,7,6,5,1,0,0,1,6,1,4,0,14,25,1,2,4,1,0,11,8,10,0,1,14,2,36,4,45,37,8,59,0,1,0,0,38,17,0,8,30,183,50,3,0.08823577555862276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09138565296113993,0.0973703724504935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0785485473179272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16136312941703118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090098592196478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09251353191733466,0.0,0.09896392512927886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11380955134345222,0.0,0.15199468839098665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903130551541948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058278897585051774,0.0,0.07434244648593441,0.0,0.07930062559643819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19331595838767035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20058569857684405,0.0,0.14114042041145533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560532098467327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322594135792646,0.2655230315720729,0.08763803433166703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14547622404640762,0.14384786750472667,0.1990675962199772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22504470311624206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196020110627821,0.26666478300275337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06542570954526633,0.0,0.0,0.0938397483196442,0.16560659621281318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979753867578197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0844297207078216,0.0,0.17740265064231006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130521944580297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729895453454384,0.0,0.17659899676096474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07376905930349939,0.2021475655696713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653692885693074,0.07092057408224663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20489707239073612,0.058619928566515364,0.05653792217350296,0.08669120148884472,0.0,0.10290198060308726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10408749306918197,0.0700374516011467,0.1415548337063837,0.0,0.0,0.16359089587850187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06268016334876866,0.0,0.0,0.11364189307243057 schizophrenia,soulsaiyan19,2019/08/09,"Eight months, seventeen days. December 22nd is the day I lost touch with the world. I was seventeen at the time, eighteen now. I began hearing auditory nightmares, screaming, and insults for over an hour caused me to try and take my life. When I was naturally shipped off to the hospital, voices told me they couldn't be trusted. I told them nothing about why or how I came to be there, I just wanted to leave. Visual hallucination started about Mid-January, shortly after my visit to a mental hospital. Figures in doorways, plotting my murder or trying to force me to eliminate myself. But it didn't end there. I have a pretty traumatic situation thanks to this. My family doesn't trust me and I feel I have no where to turn anymore, because they're always against me. I don't think they believe me. I try to live day by day, and as much as I don't want to believe it, I think it's time for a check-up that I don't trust. In fact this is hard for me, because I've had to check spelling and where my words were in sentences. Just wanted to say something, because I wonder if anyone else is having a problem like mine, if every day is miserable and feeling unwanted.",4.6589473684210505,5.797032570175443,5.649078947368423,79.94230263157895,69.78947368421052,8.33157894736842,31.355263157894736,8.660442795831766,2.517994736842105,918,39,173,15,16,303,135,228,0.16699999999999998,0.7829999999999999,0.05,-0.9738,0,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,3,1,11,11,2,1,9,0,19,1,0,2,1,31,37,15,1,8,7,0,4,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,6,8,0,0,6,0,1,2,7,6,0,1,10,8,33,5,30,24,1,27,0,2,0,0,9,10,0,5,16,120,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10571812823463447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12600226210279572,0.08883828923509818,0.13018063342989053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232350668234346,0.0,0.0,0.2862900509310737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14531458432820651,0.0,0.130518249395055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4096928059346253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10613633206950036,0.0,0.11253109150865484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704748464899208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11977409582257115,0.0,0.12848345147216125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11381437531505685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14319776748314975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251214395989415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13453059649808813,0.0,0.0,0.08974116756437897,0.06207159251793104,0.0,0.11218997202620418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13869316684365735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12803936426895135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10141235261168756,0.0,0.09339844512350017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219106120424348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292583991506161,0.0,0.12157239448797545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10103750581888488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281269839534655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781147178103893,0.0,0.0,0.08992864334047818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552791234080353,0.0,0.0,0.11697317100315142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628206399448813,0.0,0.0,0.14817104776130788,0.0,0.0,0.2428088376774745,0.0,0.2587815842462542,0.13819698926029245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248171437010104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464541259168112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13778336879987016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bdstwin,2019/08/09,according to my doctor I have been misdiagnosed is it common for people with OCD to be misdiagnosed? I dont hear voices or hold any crazy delusions but my mind constantly obesses over various things. inlcuding if i actually am schiphrenic or if i am gay etc. Even when i text certain people i get paranoid when they dont answer back in a certain time. its stressful. Is my pyschatrist wrong or is the original psychologist right that i have schiphrenia?,4.583644578313251,7.346269216867473,5.374322289156626,75.01039909638557,73.69879518072291,8.487349397590362,32.06174698795181,9.188382445141503,3.40680843373494,367,18,60,9,8,119,61,83,0.151,0.755,0.094,-0.7105,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,1,2,0,11,2,0,1,2,13,13,8,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,11,2,6,11,2,10,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,5,7,46,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.2187593172936202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244449561389198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17237425930106465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422500525751565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294493128455764,0.0,0.0,0.5254553064617792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250010788612902,0.14806334456803896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171205011920836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25265788511363274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22634959069280344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31082496878069266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19144147279979729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25678801328432777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14892976774708294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13071636597563685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450966471967522,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anewaccount9222,2019/08/09,Schizophrenia and phobias Does anyone experience their phobias getting worse during unusually extreme episodes? I have arachnophobia and it gets much worse (to the point of severely disturbing my daily routine) when I am having an especially hard time with my paranoid schizophrenia.,11.696434108527127,14.542518023255813,9.209302325581394,54.565736434108544,54.8139534883721,11.314728682170546,49.21705426356589,11.20814326018867,6.844789147286823,237,15,25,6,3,70,37,43,0.402,0.598,0.0,-0.9647,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,3,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207911239803234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26020949208936883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908614483710935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107020294228186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26636361509126383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21858352618579405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28108808472854946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3359163486154985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17338484626528994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.606041962599796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,deepthroatcircus,2019/06/26,Fatigue from antipsychotics? I am newly diagnosed (January) and I’ve been on antipsychotics since then. How do you deal with the fatigue? I am so tired all the time. After work I have no energy left to do anything. If I go to the gym it’s pretty much the only thing I’m doing for that day. It’s really affecting my life.,0.007846153846156056,2.3525775538461566,2.7388461538461577,87.00365384615387,96.53846153846158,6.907692307692307,18.80769230769231,7.908726449838941,1.3765692307692312,251,8,50,7,10,87,50,65,0.14800000000000002,0.772,0.08,-0.5351,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,0,7,5,0,2,1,6,9,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,6,0,7,8,2,7,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,1,4,36,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24733847047996124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19383884301123488,0.30986817126164673,0.0,0.3050660199425728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17081738429580715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265635442239761,0.0,0.21229716313266625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22094904132483686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285923810832435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057815292079828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19254892331043694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24862955445592885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19968129206386345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17526122041789896,0.345453975023243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21881409048017209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NotGotChange,2019/06/26,"How Do You Hear The Voices? Hi, I don't have schizophrenia, but my grandmother does. What's the voices like? Are they like someone actually sitting in the room with you talking to you? Or can you perceive them as being in another room etc? My grandma proclaims all of her voices are next door and she can hear them through the walls.",3.3320833333333333,5.679773875000002,3.6887500000000015,87.61458333333336,75.875,6.1416666666666675,27.854166666666664,7.1686216300943375,1.490029166666667,264,11,50,3,6,82,47,64,0.0,0.888,0.11199999999999999,0.8156,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,8,0,0,1,1,7,10,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,12,2,7,9,2,7,0,0,0,0,13,5,0,1,3,38,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.27499969309413186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954956779079304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466082564401316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.314285539877094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6352263457725441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27535003921124274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997013584526763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387713019726589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22650308398411925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Threeasabird,2019/06/26,"disclaimer to my last post re not getting the shot i dont actually recommend or advise this to anyone. ive found a good amoutn of imporvement from upgrading my diet and overall have changed alot mentally over the past few years, for example no binge drinking or starting shit in public, so im trying to skate by for a little while without taking my meds. its been working out somewhat well and today i nearly jumped out of bed with energy. i dont think all schizophrenics are truly capable on the inside of healing this illness, i have healed with the most ridiculous forms of healing like nofap, oil pulling, making music, things that normally would only make someone feel better for a day seem to have a lasting effect on me. im about 13 days without the shot. will update soon as i might end up going back in to the clinic and quietly getting it.",7.369444444444442,7.272609648148155,7.454691358024688,73.67611111111111,63.62962962962963,9.669135802469137,35.283950617283956,9.150863307647796,3.2494765432098767,681,28,115,10,9,220,119,162,0.083,0.812,0.106,0.4365,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,5,6,2,0,11,0,11,9,1,3,1,26,22,8,0,2,5,0,1,1,0,3,6,1,1,0,6,7,2,0,5,1,0,3,6,2,1,0,2,3,10,4,29,17,6,27,0,0,0,0,2,10,1,7,14,83,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.1448987413718567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382330504360006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141748544776554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313218289689118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15707614138295248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19151949696894466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480437473265761,0.1454575671350022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315125487127964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07507785601289241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16280479077522866,0.0,0.0,0.1551532837231878,0.0,0.08438674882099803,0.12454114227894293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207759050630401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24206818232172625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254167026423462,0.1488197465433681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19822814016265508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16493199621684054,0.0,0.1496367173269697,0.15751781624536698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14548256940732285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129285987160443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14174456062752172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14220640783153662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351740483808452,0.0,0.0,0.15241645707541332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125809817248469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10509757729561102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164131669499916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986460195905201,0.09514240489062084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407452530760619,0.0,0.0,0.10081073372077093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13350474223685155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862661130132197,0.0,0.10809795365950148,0.0,0.0,0.10547861065070534,0.0,0.0,0.09561868023778428 schizophrenia,oxkd,2019/06/26,"Zyprexa has anyone else here been prescribed zyprexa? if so, what was your experience with it? did it help with the psychosis?",3.859848484848485,7.1584283181818185,2.2881818181818185,91.71893939393942,84.0,4.751515151515153,30.06060606060606,6.42735559955562,1.5029515151515158,101,5,18,1,3,28,19,22,0.0,0.866,0.134,0.5007,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3663549769388889,0.5368442297654606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43768935469705056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5125193775538551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3511897211712268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SpaghettiFinger,2019/06/26,"Does anyone experience being active in their sleep? I sent an email at 3:17 am to my professor today Hey everyone, Has this ever been an issue for anyone here? I’m a little concerned haha. It is completely coherent too- what happened was I had to send him my unofficial transcript and I somehow attached it to an email and said: “Hey prof blahblah, Here’s my transcript Thanks Spaghettifinger” Big oof but it worked out I guess. I almost remember dreaming it but I didn’t even know it was sent until he responded to the email lol",1.8737333333333304,4.691672240000003,3.4120000000000026,82.47433333333333,91.6,6.266666666666668,23.66666666666667,7.554174236665415,1.8316666666666668,424,17,72,9,15,139,73,100,0.0,0.898,0.102,0.8281,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,1,6,2,0,0,5,2,9,1,1,0,1,11,17,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,0,2,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,8,1,11,2,9,8,0,11,0,0,0,0,13,5,0,3,3,51,18,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23731065092648496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314169973406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24847887685645706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20739102087360992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15652926351688418,0.2143704800857369,0.0,0.22645352753775594,0.0,0.2318211077778065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610705423830169,0.0,0.20956894363956036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473553616899516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13024317636281746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23752563802356286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684627917353776,0.0,0.2254311893072068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371605507848924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181879988744593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22463824063789334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17253110563880894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Teyketizi,2019/06/26,"So confusing! I feel like my Brain has his own personality. He talks to me or to himself, and the things he says are stupid and random ( eg: ""meow, I am a cucumber!""), he sometimes talks about dying (eg: ""let's DIIIIE!"", ""I am dying"", etc - i am not suicidal, and what he says doesn't affect me.), sometimes he is very mean towards the people I am talking to (he once was telling me how my brother's girlfriend is very stupid or how he is surprised that a friend of mine still has two neurons which work), etc. Once I was tasting a soup, but it was too hot and my tongue got burnt. Brain started screaming about how my grandma, who made the soup, was trying to kill us. Sometimes he says just a few things and then calms down, but there are also moments when he won't stop talking. Sometimes I even tell him to shut up and replies to me with indifference. I feel like he really is a person who is always by my side. Once, i had to attend an event all by myself, but I didn't feel alone, because he was present. It made me feel strange, but also safe. The problem is that I don't understand which thoughts are mine amd which are his. My question is: am I developing schizophrenia? Bonus information: my brain is male, alpha, has lots of self-confidence, a dramaqueen, a derp, he loves girls a lot (meanwhile I am not attracted to neither men nor women).",5.321022727272727,5.502260420454544,5.773787878787882,83.05568181818184,67.90151515151516,8.569696969696968,31.272727272727273,8.278499904357787,2.1143681818181816,1037,39,213,13,16,334,143,264,0.094,0.785,0.12,0.8072,0,1,0,0,0,0,57.0,1,0,0,2,14,15,3,1,13,0,32,6,4,6,1,39,44,21,4,1,9,1,5,2,2,1,0,4,0,6,12,7,1,2,9,0,1,1,8,6,0,1,11,10,33,9,18,31,8,14,0,0,0,1,40,5,0,7,10,145,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09898977768494063,0.0,0.15286706679192227,0.07952838749650279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058263340724940625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200893081359061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983893365121851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21318902723551908,0.06312823653096693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933080330913121,0.13656160109888835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07384317241333699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07644229912560854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057426764240283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773477771451428,0.0,0.09338897206607563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16251365802553427,0.08626269753669036,0.18087605366797524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411224551838076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30536171809706664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06626161325128394,0.1669096994721563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09145504805248633,0.0,0.0,0.10706901178231734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06122958710462908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22802191209658476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09970849179680782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3781155587412332,0.0,0.06765045989788253,0.0,0.07632855580840607,0.07990732181544746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104546602028715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072872659639587,0.16707842269428902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12699528883760303,0.0,0.0,0.07587809831419955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06489105338432889,0.0,0.09336562415048673,0.0994998621818655,0.11496832712205506,0.0,0.0,0.1577233920489972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06958177787977099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fcrodrigues,2019/06/26,Psychologist said that schizophrenics can't remember psychotic breakdown My psychologist said that schizophrenics cant remember what happened in a psychotic breakdown. Is it true?,12.96769230769231,16.750061153846154,9.903076923076924,47.216923076923116,52.84615384615384,14.430769230769231,55.30769230769231,13.023866798666859,9.364753846153846,154,11,15,6,2,45,18,26,0.0,0.887,0.113,0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,10,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863869506255892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.733736964516664,0.0,0.6161270821942891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SnowForecast,2019/06/26,meeting with my psychiatrist wish me luck,5.620000000000001,9.37169671428572,5.682857142857145,66.7871428571429,81.85714285714286,8.514285714285714,35.57142857142857,8.841846274778883,4.429685714285716,35,2,5,1,1,11,7,7,0.0,0.467,0.5329999999999999,0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iLoveDurt,2019/06/26,"Do I have schizophrenia?? Okay, so there's this meme ( [https://prnt.sc/o6xzzr](https://prnt.sc/o6xzzr) ) and I can see all numbers on all of the panels, even though it's a meme and on ""crush on me"" there's supposed to be no number to be seen, but I can see 72 or 82 or even 22. My friend says that I have schizophrenia because I see things, when there are no any. So is there a number that you too can see on the ""Crush on me"" circle/panel?",5.7909302325581375,5.724927860465119,5.113348837209305,89.0374651162791,66.90697674418604,7.345116279069767,24.17674418604652,5.6839178017228535,0.27897953488372096,340,6,75,1,5,102,51,86,0.091,0.802,0.106,0.316,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,0,0,11,2,0,0,4,1,10,0,0,0,2,7,15,9,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,9,2,8,12,2,6,0,0,5,0,3,5,0,2,1,56,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734292769086926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15546403882667573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368900750625405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19703569483508407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20281024599940045,0.0,0.0,0.8129041812589018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694307283876926,0.0,0.2505658702124262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,elon_joseph,2019/06/26,"If I focus I hear hear voices, but if I don't my life is completely normal. Am I schizophrenic? Hi guys. My father is schizophrenic and so I have a high chance to inherit it. I can't ask my mom about the illness because she's pretty traumatized by it, and my father is not here anymore. From what I know, my father had his first hallucination at 15 or something like that. I'm 16 and I've never experienced any symptom of schizophrenia, and I feel safe about myself because I thought that if I were schizophrenic I would have had some kind of experience around this age because my dad had, but there's no scientific proof to prove my theory. Anyway, if I focus really hard, I can actually hear voices, and I can actually see things. I can hold it for one minute because it is exhausting, but it scares me a lot. Can this be considered a sign of schizophrenia? Thanks for your attention. I'm sorry if this post contains grammar errors, English is not my native language.",5.106051007815715,6.290591336898395,6.237112299465243,75.96616618675444,68.78609625668449,9.390209790209793,30.427396133278485,9.661875296680813,2.9043322912381733,768,30,141,17,13,257,112,187,0.122,0.7829999999999999,0.095,-0.4685,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,1,7,6,0,1,4,0,20,7,0,0,3,32,31,15,0,7,11,5,2,1,0,1,7,5,0,1,12,6,0,3,5,0,1,0,6,2,0,2,5,9,28,4,13,24,2,7,0,0,1,0,14,3,0,8,4,103,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.2883387746535507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10046579869553764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465147825508521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13151669253780174,0.13811356438010802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3602348832343706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548987746840394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445145196845964,0.0,0.0,0.07469994839643829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12566448210108855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14628223483437994,0.0,0.0,0.13234277045631415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4995288833968241,0.0,0.0,0.15609158774753387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538446966004876,0.08119204611992918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10435056825271738,0.0721765286477978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12560017992102193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17302705271779134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11394339733594812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14475027663872134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010998875531148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14149060576309594,0.1503010019691033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09464370256957684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14790988065969565,0.0,0.11772676056897095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11373467650355586,0.0,0.16537877250560926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535546572034978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13601580184194256,0.0,0.0,0.0981494806093092,0.0,0.0,0.11728617663422534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494767952860384,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PM_ME_YO_TITSthanks,2019/06/26,"I think I have schizophrenia and I'm scared you guys You know what, fuck it, it's 4:22 am right now where I live and I'm scatef shitless. I hate sleeping alone because it feels like whenever I close my eyes, something's going to kill me. Not really, but I keep thinking how someone could just be in my room and end me in an instant and I think about how fragile life is and everything. It was getting too scary so I went to sleep with my dad. Back to the getting schizophrenia part. I'm honestly scared of scizhoprenia. I know it's very ignorant but my only interactions with schizophrenics in the media are negative. A few schizophrenics beheaded some people near where I live. Don't even ask, it scares me shitless. When I was young, I felt like the FBI would gain this technology in the future where they could read every single memory of a person's lives and they could... Well actually, I don't know what they would do but it would be bad. And then, obviously, the over thinking everything. Can I tell online people where I liveso someone doesn't murder me? Did I close the windows before sleeping so someone doesn't murder me? Did I unplug literally every single unused appliance in my house to save energy (this one might be a schizophrenic thing or maybe it's just me). Anyways, I'm on my phone so typing is a bitch but yeah, I just wanna talk to you guys and tell me this is ok and normal and it will get better with meds. Also, I will go to a psychologist soon dw.",2.234266101127357,4.748332975778553,3.3980555865609996,87.30476057595716,80.83391003460206,6.358790043531643,22.125348811251254,7.601502580125103,1.0479223350820406,1166,37,227,19,31,376,154,289,0.13,0.731,0.139,0.5557,0,1,1,0,0,1,34.0,0,3,3,2,22,18,6,3,12,2,28,9,4,2,1,49,51,23,3,8,9,1,3,2,0,6,4,0,2,3,15,15,0,2,9,1,0,3,6,11,1,1,6,4,38,7,21,33,5,27,0,0,1,1,16,16,2,3,10,159,53,2,0.0,0.0,0.0978254484413217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382442502762228,0.0,0.08016653682082657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09371629873607806,0.0,0.0,0.07708283891393865,0.08370106280764192,0.06110891439930642,0.0,0.08530179956081074,0.0,0.0,0.0886592712082281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401143629783765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878803177781958,0.0,0.0,0.06621141105797719,0.0,0.16892283441539993,0.0,0.1801889375432273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05068729281523413,0.07161562560565568,0.09625169677946692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926756345970668,0.15712289230739068,0.0,0.11394400624549095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19851822203054134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09897198191669036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11567020372197255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910308059056721,0.11090713442704137,0.0,0.16527742405288195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07080657914770064,0.09795007682046797,0.0,0.26555665641924003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10071038856707462,0.0,0.11135049441753517,0.0,0.0,0.10634496107979052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982196081064876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06792915420557658,0.07624145459549718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10855644169730384,0.0,0.1389956429463489,0.08753077330057574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10027293641593524,0.0,0.06422003185066191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560937270512058,0.0,0.0,0.30109062692291483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009546144014342,0.0,0.2548138446365272,0.07717412093227813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08057378360965754,0.17523851024261444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06659886077704982,0.2569338652935607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08271329058346097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09013302085796934,0.09292886877747393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136352384468045,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Solerteska,2019/06/26,Something is following me I dont know what it is i just know Eyer sent it it appears to be human shaped thing it has long neck pale skin and wears pink elegant clothes it looks like it has the shape of a woman idk its stalking me while i sleep it may strike soon please i am not delusional i am completely fine im srrious help im scared itd going to jkill my sister and then gut me in my sleep what have i done to deserve this,-0.43693548387096826,1.7512635053763468,1.5163709677419384,97.99455645161294,91.36559139784949,4.820430107526882,18.502688172043012,6.42735559955562,-0.13006021505376394,338,10,79,4,12,111,66,93,0.063,0.8,0.13699999999999998,0.7841,0,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,12,6,6,0,0,8,19,4,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,13,2,0,0,2,0,0,4,2,1,0,0,2,3,11,2,5,14,0,11,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,2,5,49,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23964588528274425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339011865281521,0.26787628929102025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12989866540134354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532021937818573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4937784965384116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512265162848017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11166523518161246,0.0,0.0,0.20227269018405705,0.1919368994099526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508955567186115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288332775069404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4574598120050368,0.0,0.0,0.17596037989091728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15184832300085996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SelfCleansing,2019/06/26,"Need career advice my life is at a standstill and im wasting away. i dropped out of college my junior year 3 years ago (was studying chemistry and i couldnt handle it) . i feel like i should go back and finish my bachelors. ive been unemployed and suffocating from mental illness the past few years and i really need to move out of my narcissistic parent's house if i want to heal, or before they kick me out. I was mainly looking at computer science or radiology, but I'm really unsure if I can manage the workload. I was in AP courses in high school and maintained a 3.4 gpa, for reference. Any advice is welcome.",3.026776859504132,5.174628702479343,4.98595041322314,78.90801652892564,76.02479338842974,7.375206611570247,27.52892561983471,8.296473431620573,2.1690760330578507,487,20,88,9,11,167,85,121,0.06,0.879,0.062,0.0671,3,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,10,3,0,0,0,21,17,11,0,7,5,1,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,9,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,2,16,2,14,11,2,19,0,0,1,0,3,9,0,4,8,58,17,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3786044748680304,0.1717222667628574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13173714446773074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820075624173384,0.14895974176448445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16484257992639267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09795132295176504,0.138394553792069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100962937087022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20467721664773547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22352840034222796,0.0,0.0,0.20925227450940412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13683110136672427,0.09464245449806566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16267712363084225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952255325700704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20589511139382624,0.0,0.2872838167547174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21510460682380567,0.0,0.18492892541175174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482056835312468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19605632390295133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426185704816827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742505470554899 schizophrenia,mlmkvr,2019/04/06,"Music inspired by Hallucinations / Delusions. Rokey Erickson? particularly The Evil One album He was originally with the 13th Floor Elevators (early psychedelic rock), I think up until he was commited. He went solo after he got out and recorded more music. I think a lot of it is inspired by his hallucinations and delusions.",5.9222222222222225,9.439886407407407,7.805185185185182,55.13333333333336,73.81481481481481,9.525925925925927,33.074074074074076,9.725611199111238,4.5599851851851865,262,13,34,8,6,91,41,54,0.079,0.812,0.10800000000000001,0.1832,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,0,3,0,0,1,1,11,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,4,0,3,2,8,3,2,8,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,4,23,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38465462179184107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4088811455101746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32589990639361666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6163386224058671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4458396396956342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HulGilKorthal,2019/04/06,"I'm becoming a Catholic monk. I have been discerning the priesthood for three years but had to put it on hold until I recovered. Well, just last Sunday I was accepted into the monastery close to home. My faith has played a huge role in my recovery, and it seems like a good fit for me, because schizophrenics typically are assigned the role of priest, shaman, healer, mystic, in society. This is a huge accomplishment for me and I just want to share.",5.531428571428571,7.005187380952384,5.462857142857146,80.83214285714288,68.04761904761905,9.40952380952381,30.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,2.8621095238095244,356,14,67,8,6,111,63,84,0.0,0.6629999999999999,0.337,0.9843,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,3,7,0,0,7,0,7,2,0,0,0,12,10,4,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,4,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,8,7,12,7,0,13,3,0,0,0,3,8,0,1,5,44,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22091123715649988,0.4002342850479757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039578180752688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3635094436383681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953984329096631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17704677674841313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3643047749181049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299087197563744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21374861422343613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3258345749079877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23336902874406834 schizophrenia,saibonsai,2019/04/06,Help! Schizophrenic dad don't want to take meds anymore Hello. It's my first time posting here so please bear with me. My dad was diagnosed with schizophrenia years ago after long term use of meth. Now he decided to stop his medications and don't want to see his doctor anymore. His symptoms came back and a lot worse than before. He is saying that he is not sick. How will I convince him to see his doctor again? I'm scared of the things he might to do to my mom because of his delusion that she is having an affair. 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Hello friends, I’ve lurked this subreddit for some time now, just want to say thank you for being open, transparent, and encouraging. It’s helped me feel not so alone. I debated on asking this question, but really needed to get some feedback: do any of you feel that your symptoms become more intense as you go through the week? A little background: most of my bloodline has had history of multiple mental/behavioral health diagnoses. So combine that with life’s crazy and occasionally traumatic circumstances, I’ve been living with (what I believe to be) schizophrenia for years. I never quite acknowledged it growing up, but this year has certainly gotten much more severe. So I’ve finally made the decision to get help and see a doctor :). Anywho, I don’t know if this relates to anyone, but it seems like I get more instead symptoms as my week progresses. I’m assuming it’s stress induced, but it makes no sense to me that I’d experience waves likes this weekly. I’ll do my best to explain: Mondays - I’m a little on edge, but not too unrelaxed, cautious at work because I’m fearful of how my movements will be perceived, not a whole ton of voices, no visuals. Tuesday - feeling okay, still cautious but glad I made it through Monday without freaking out. Voices are rather persistent, but I’m a little more focused on meeting work deadlines. Wednesday - the workload is really piling up and I just can’t seem to focus or organize my thoughts. Nervous my boss will notice that I’ve been on the same file for 2 hours, but damnit if only he knew I was doing my absolute most darnedest best. F*ck. Voices are incredibly antagonizing and I’m starting to see shadows in my peripherals. Thursday - omg, the voices are a little louder, inaudible but damn it’s loud. I start to get a headache and earache almost. The shadows have now moved closer and they follow so closely behind me. They’re also 109% behind the bathroom stall, which is annoying. Thankfully they don’t stick around while I pee. I have to finish my work, I need some sort of progression. Just have to do my best and ignore the psychosis. I still have today and tomorrow to get through. Friday - I’m really on edge. I can’t wait for the day to be over so that I can go home and not focus so much of my energy on looking and acting normal. I. Am. Binge. Eating. I’m talking everything under the sun. I don’t know why but I have to do it. Work is almost impossible to do, my brain is out of wack and my hallucinations are so distracting. But I continue acting and find myself counting down til clock out time. I pretty much I feel like a corvette being continually revved up behind the starting line just waiting to go. For the past 2 almost 3 weeks, I become completely unhinged Friday night when I get home, and my hallucinations are absolutely haunting. I lock myself in the a room and I just let loose. I’m screaming, I’m crying, I can’t control my facial movements, I’m pacing or in a fetal position, and my voices are so loud it’s deafening. The shadows are behind my back and every time I turn to catch them they disappear to another part of the room. After praying for my life I make it out of the room and my husband is there to keep me grounded. Saturday comes along and I have to put my entire life on pause so that I can decompress and prevent another episode. By the end of the night I’m feeling more lucid. Sunday is my favorite day because I get to go to church. My voices at this point sound suppressed behind a closed door and just sound like white noise at this point. I like to think that’s God holding them back for me. My visuals “feel” residual, no shadows, just spiders at a distance. I can function enough to finish off my chores and get my meals prepped for the week. Monday comes around and I start the process again... with caution. Sorry if that was long and dragged out. :/ TLDR; symptoms are manageable at the beginning of the week, full blown episode at the end of the week. I’d really like to get your thoughts. And also, thank you for never giving up on yourselves and others. 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Ever since I got medicated I’ve had a lot of trouble getting hard unless i’m drunk and it’s fucking terrible. I just want to fuck, the thing most innate to every animal, and I can’t. Is this common, or could it be attributed to something else?",1.6081920903954838,3.8127976440677966,4.045000000000002,83.57620056497176,81.03389830508475,6.6451977401129945,23.39265536723164,7.793537801064563,1.4009977401129945,227,8,44,4,6,79,47,59,0.23199999999999998,0.742,0.026000000000000002,-0.904,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,2,0,6,4,0,1,1,11,13,4,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,1,3,0,7,9,2,4,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,3,2,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17344415123699564,0.2541592107091286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19804982350678568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41443224964601205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22437778549134813,0.20899502091789954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4586412786222542,0.25919449969060604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19839033089820493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222064145432673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210885457135358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498869064089428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20519168089449435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19096301662685766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16479513085815106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630785519952738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MicrocosmicTiger,2019/06/28,"How can I help a good friend handle a tough diagnosis? A close friend from my past moved back to my city a few months ago after some bad-luck incidents involving a toxic relationship and losing her job. She's been pretty short on cash since returning here and has been crashing on friend's couches since she got back. She's been busy with several side jobs in the meantime, but she's also a very talented singer and wants to make a career of it. I've been unable to let her stay with me in the past due to a roommate situation where I wasn't able to have friends stay the night, but I've since moved into my own apartment. I've always been apprehensive about letting people ""crash"" at my place anyway, because I am the type that is easily manipulated and taken advantage of. The part that really breaks my heart is that one night she confided to me that while she was living in her previous situation, she had seen a psychiatrist and been diagnosed with schizophrenia. Besides her breaking that news to me (which she was very self-conscious about and expected me to freak out and leave), I do not know any more details about if she's on medication, seeing a therapist, etc; but my guess is that she isn't since she does not have a full time job or (I think) insurance. She has no family here and just a random collection of friends, and she does not have very strong ties to her parents in general. Considering that she just had a bad breakup with her ex, and has no family in the area, she is really relying on her friends right now. How can I be supportive of her without putting myself in a position where I feel like I'm being taken advantage of? How can I be helpful and supportive of someone with schizophrenia without putting my safety in danger? It really fucks me up to think that she could turn into one of the people sleeping in a tent under the overpass, and I really want to do what I can to make sure that doesn't happen. If anyone has any resources or advice it would be greatly appreciated!",10.88520137103685,7.2125448380462736,10.35844730077121,66.98773093401888,59.48843187660668,14.075132819194515,40.58628963153385,11.979248473330829,4.596811688089118,1598,57,304,36,15,522,191,389,0.08800000000000001,0.7709999999999999,0.141,0.9635,4,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,4,17,23,2,1,23,0,39,5,2,6,1,56,59,24,0,7,14,2,1,1,6,1,2,0,1,0,14,21,0,0,4,0,1,4,10,7,0,2,15,3,47,16,49,36,7,50,0,1,2,1,36,28,1,7,15,220,61,5,0.08096946298465703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0791224221232582,0.07177454351805844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06475125029536899,0.06737307953167654,0.0,0.0,0.1101240227815236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05661573115265861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12452103817705085,0.13521223899092066,0.0493582331040625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06464752764808128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821823005356208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14171384540291124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030235453881796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15266160720853655,0.0,0.04094059334519276,0.057844600534702674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3753408374910529,0.07485496380477118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06791334398137885,0.064758676250041,0.08926911878789932,0.08919699205557283,0.0,0.07160102871157425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09594920348958297,0.10854424855117473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410490946575248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044498699321974984,0.0,0.0,0.08573497023323377,0.0,0.16559352350153606,0.0,0.03955758968875056,0.0,0.07149751924478115,0.0,0.0,0.09058411789331246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10809549056088552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08156821553750147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06462905286061674,0.1721154502729646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15196871197850575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097340072491522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08990700655454817,0.08768203799581666,0.15458902860912474,0.11226806125478797,0.0,0.08459585534725175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08237505290278714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16279334843063936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074844453182605,0.0,0.0,0.08693090126990663,0.0,0.06914747897926765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645221788470596,0.0,0.08446880867671633,0.09147244613132258,0.0,0.2679151059850067,0.18202613776453197,0.08102793816247662,0.0,0.06860516323106113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17260534842357836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18376637412688265,0.07631276062880528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09401178724600116,0.0,0.10376392495389593,0.0,0.0,0.047213945005526385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807152476070439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20042486031148646,0.0955157742295978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561033458303694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057518383376916025,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizoBoi-0-,2019/06/28,I havent been diagnosed yet- I haven't gotten a diagnosis yet I hear these voices. Like usually 3 or 4. They can be sometimes very negative and hateful. And it gives me anxiety cuz I just space out and try to figure out which is actually mine. I have quite a positive observant ego and a very mean critical voice. But the others I have identified as almost phantom like voices. When I'm stressed they explode with dialogue. These internal voices really freak me out when I'm trying to have a conversation. I do have a personality disorder and I'm trying to figure out if its them? My alters talking or schizophrenic episodes I have no clue . its stressful. And I was wondering who else has a way to figure out if they are actually symptoms or stress...?,2.3044599844599847,5.145626489510492,4.5069347319347335,76.90006021756025,84.8041958041958,8.492463092463092,26.825563325563326,8.998388855275968,3.072122299922301,600,27,105,19,18,206,90,143,0.179,0.7609999999999999,0.06,-0.9457,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,4,1,5,7,1,3,7,0,15,3,0,1,0,26,24,16,0,2,7,0,0,2,0,0,3,5,0,1,8,12,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,3,5,17,2,11,20,0,12,0,0,0,0,10,6,0,7,7,78,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.306855627006943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574369909640992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202758272299442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957891456054474,0.0,0.0,0.1801921717936906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13134036560516332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508234587621587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552260176214916,0.0,0.0,0.17720272378326027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15362327858967925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17126288194446548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372818154759683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16722693467124958,0.0,0.0,0.10072163457426447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554984237820341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5402982222590407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16341579682660026,0.0,0.12637058804127865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202340539197268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17315987609454522,0.2594523107044033,0.0,0.12479698674584006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17050257607014355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,destinyofme00,2019/06/28,"Cure for negative symptoms? So I haven't had positive symptoms for 6 months now and I'm glad, I guess. But negative symptoms are really fucking with me. I read somewhere that physical activity can help with negative symptoms but I'm not so sure of it. Btw, how are you all doing today?",1.9380259740259724,4.701290854545455,4.208831168831171,78.8818181818182,85.9090909090909,8.233766233766234,29.675324675324674,8.841846274778883,3.3530779220779223,227,12,40,7,7,78,40,55,0.221,0.7120000000000001,0.067,-0.8344,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,6,5,0,1,2,10,10,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,5,2,5,9,1,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,3,30,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19015146390786286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22658401999606756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13786559175030438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16417493760970353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057395747299648,0.0,0.1317663819806143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938546545325125,0.855137365366869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19496430023845146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TurtleLover_Jaden,2019/06/28,"Am I schizophrenic? Whenever I’m alone (no matter the time) I feel this feeling of something watching me or something behind me, and when I turn around I swear I see some creepgoblin behind me then it’s gone, it’s gotten worse through this summer because I’ve been lonely, is this just paranoia or am I mildly schizophrenic? I just want to know before I tell my parents what I think",7.2964864864864865,6.9138620270270295,7.092567567567568,77.16290540540544,63.864864864864856,9.562162162162162,34.71621621621622,8.841846274778883,2.9369837837837847,306,12,55,4,4,97,52,74,0.16399999999999998,0.777,0.059000000000000004,-0.7984,1,3,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,13,14,5,0,1,4,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,4,13,0,6,11,1,6,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,3,4,39,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916799332551853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507071328661105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17167679058703603,0.0,0.23964325538836334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847974584265725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547744601956874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127126999062299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22441971459537985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4336193999931269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24615381668477926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804547741532984,0.0,0.0,0.16421857185229047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063285649052122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16611050010239958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28700127988238555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,returnerror10,2019/06/28,"I question my diagnosis I have just been diagnosed with schizophrenia for hearing voices. I started recording what I'm hearing and I've posted one audio file to youtube. Let me know if I'm crazy. [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HKiypKON-HE](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HKiypKON-HE)",12.351666666666668,17.746551710526322,5.51157894736842,66.82771929824563,71.3684210526316,5.691228070175438,32.64912280701754,7.1686216300943375,2.887354385964912,247,10,26,3,6,60,31,38,0.08199999999999999,0.9179999999999999,0.0,-0.4137,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,6,9,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,5,0,3,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118757030306373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6926381747994698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16886924610944226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142075375279697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082161878783421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942826676826107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442161666949702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21748946397809865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ahahebhddjdcjwjwnw,2019/06/28,"I just got my diagnosis today Hey Guys I just got diagnosed with schizophrenia today & Im still shocked to believe It. It makes sense to me, but I feel scared of myself. I heard voices in my head and It was a nice woman (angelic voice) & a evil man (demonic voice). I’m not sure how to control what I hear and I’m pretty sure I have auditory hallucinations every day. Any advice would be helpful and I hate It when I feel like I’m crazy. I know everything isn’t real, but I still think negatively about a lot of things. I’m a first time poster, I’m not really sure what response I’m looking for. But I would just like to talk. I’m a 19m. Thank you",-0.03291560102302071,2.199055043478264,2.62515771526002,90.69993606138107,89.1449275362319,5.855754475703325,18.98721227621484,7.285733465282438,0.4527053708439901,508,15,114,9,17,176,83,138,0.185,0.669,0.146,-0.6837,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,2,8,11,2,1,5,0,6,2,1,3,3,26,25,8,0,2,8,0,2,2,0,2,1,5,0,3,7,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,4,8,16,7,10,18,1,9,2,0,1,0,9,1,0,1,10,62,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14099879583391825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126769254415621,0.0,0.09812234122707372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16256573945743966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618338230587222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930552965156174,0.0,0.0,0.14645160124562856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12157078768491347,0.0,0.12967880360904468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459150063279331,0.10308100791178414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12273324208782888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308042429952432,0.0,0.0,0.14287006671172262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424567832050555,0.14808345940722115,0.0,0.16262563706873168,0.0,0.09671473603633744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558582673467807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07929816671688741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14098588901935324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12116749834860994,0.0,0.0,0.12267043981545295,0.0,0.0,0.09631488518146183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14679509239434813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642339326606071,0.09243605086611603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14445974619610566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23046081480793096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4079756559522968,0.0,0.0,0.11597506487597553,0.0,0.1328431077431122,0.0,0.0,0.09586005339779828,0.09245538797275836,0.0,0.0,0.08413682510853256,0.0,0.2735406361323573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049993561072965,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,M_An_M,2019/06/28,"Taking Vitamin D3 and fish oil seems to be helping I've been noticing that my mood and my symptoms are alleviating a bit when I started my new supplement regimen. I've read that people who are suffering from depression and schizophrenia often have low levels of omega-3 fatty acids and low serum Vitamin d. Noticing my own living patterns and diet it can be assumed that it would be best to supplement myself with these. Before I take my medication, I take three 1000mg fish oil pills and 10,000 IU of vitamin D. So far there doesn't seem to be any adverse side effects in combination with my usual medication but I'm hopeful that this will help me get back with my life. &#x200B; I think sharing this could be helpful to someone else, so I'd thought I'd share. I recommend starting slow and talking with a doctor before trying this, but I can say that it is helping quite a bit.",7.802202498356342,7.395458674556212,7.862327416173573,72.13886916502305,62.84615384615386,10.58803418803419,38.30440499671269,9.994966539143718,3.8670704799474014,712,33,125,13,9,231,107,169,0.052000000000000005,0.762,0.18600000000000005,0.975,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,3,6,10,0,0,3,0,16,10,0,1,0,23,28,12,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,9,1,0,0,13,11,1,0,6,1,0,0,1,5,0,1,2,4,15,4,12,18,4,13,0,4,0,0,9,6,0,5,7,77,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444159571247928,0.16195778743524336,0.09063944711380216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10248915513008457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268341304300984,0.0,0.13987604585653246,0.0,0.291028855690988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10641849099394578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11479953873516363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13642446566020625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134383723660254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06963673847974917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3573567484210089,0.0,0.0,0.13238365134249547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941442554107469,0.0,0.0,0.11769449481903012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685444200688613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12872901253929595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034953166010108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09240413439001023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417666877187343,0.13332265236307422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599484062934757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426781987583312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11293328934690584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886818591102989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385357943836528,0.30064476836061826,0.10713070670642877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08540466058743684,0.0,0.10581465874207108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09049284077789442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14679634072088613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468296447009338,0.0,0.16195778743524336,0.0 schizophrenia,manichippie99,2019/02/18,"Psychotic Sleep + Mental Disturbances Can anyone give me some insight on what I’m experiencing possibly? I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and panic disorder a while back but it seems that my condition has worsened over the past few years and continues to. For the past week I’ve been experiencing something new. Never before have my mental conditions been brought into my sleep. But that’s no longer the case. I’ve been getting auditory hallucinations. I’m also seeing visuals as if I was on LSD. Whilst that all is happening my mind is experiencing very vivid and often terrifying or bad dreams and they’re all while I’m very lucid. So that’s how I’m able to dream with my mind “separately” as the visuals play and I am hearing sounds. My significant other said I was clenching my jaw open and close very violently and I was grinding my teeth too which I’ve literally never done before in my life. I’ve also been super anxious and restless and unable to stay asleep for more than a few hours at a time. And whenever I do try to sleep my body jolts awake and I gasp for air really loud like a sort of a tic before I end up being able to sleep at all. I’m not sure what to take from this. 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Don't know why I'm posting this. I just hope someone can relate or feels the same way. I think I show many typical signs of schizophrenia - like constantly having the feeling of being watched, even from people in cars passing by me. I feel like a total stranger to myself, like an alien sometimes; and I'm not even living in reality anymore. Everything just seems like I'm watching a fucking movie or dreaming. But the worst thing is that I can't shut up my brain. It just keep talking and talking to myself up to the point where it's not even full words coming out. My psychiatrist who I first managed to describe my symptoms to last week instantly prescribed me Risperidon. Any experiences with this drug? I smoked a lot of weed over the last 2 years and I feel like that contributed a lot to my state of mind right now. All of these symptoms make me think I may be schizophrenic, but I never had any vivid hallucinations. Do you guys have any experiences with manic states? Is this common for schizophrenia? &#x200B; Thanks in advance and sorry for asking so many questions! I would very much appreciate any personal experiences or advice! 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Many people believe that heavy marijuana use in early teens to age 26 can increase psychosis. What do you guys think and what is your experience?",8.848527131782943,10.987259279069765,7.5627906976744175,66.37038759689926,60.86046511627906,10.38449612403101,39.91472868217054,10.504223727775694,4.731998449612403,211,11,31,5,3,64,39,43,0.0,0.897,0.10300000000000001,0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,0,8,9,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,4,8,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392878221284061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309359353852795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29457805668321485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981813630826633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053142417308687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20877635237896286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859237171867512,0.0,0.23907586631516176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5201859958823432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,denimcowboy,2019/02/18,"How much do you get monthly if you are disability? I was on disability when I was younger for schizophrenia and got kicked off for the dumbest reasons ever. anyway, I'm about to get it back years later, I got about $900 a month and I'm wondering why because the website says SSI max is like $600 or something? So I'm curious. what do you guys get? My condition is way worse now and I have way more paperwork. Also I live in the states! thanks! 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I love my cat, and I care about him, but I frequently crave the blood or want to see the blood of him. I love him. I'd take a bullet just to extend his life, but I just stabbed him with a thumbtack until he was frequently bleeding. He's OK now, but I crave this for humans as well. The auditory hallucinations I hear say nothing, but whisper gibberish, but I think they're encouraging these acts.",4.185714285714287,5.325229952380956,5.181904761904762,82.84642857142858,70.90476190476191,8.457142857142857,27.095238095238088,8.841846274778883,1.8603238095238104,332,11,69,6,6,109,58,84,0.040999999999999995,0.667,0.292,0.9728,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,5,1,1,6,2,0,0,13,10,9,0,1,8,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,5,14,6,8,9,0,5,0,0,1,2,13,0,0,1,4,43,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948340936309832,0.2855033110272834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840957350022719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23277098465228346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408905834955506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140516040749817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968142249736631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5029734810494318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26736606260425544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215885857151364,0.0,0.0,0.2220428841741228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20950532003296632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17854357665604675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16435122288985415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505340726557656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Blockphatass,2019/02/18,Recently dignosesed Hi everyone I have just recently been dignosesed with schizoaffective disorder and dissociative nature. There's so many things in my life that make sense now and I finally understand so much. I'm finally getting the right help i need and am learning more and more every day. I just want say there is hope out there and not to give up on yourself.,6.218955223880595,8.143363134328357,6.0151044776119456,75.80414925373138,66.91044776119404,10.733134328358213,34.295522388059695,10.793553405168565,4.185778507462687,298,14,51,9,5,93,51,67,0.040999999999999995,0.856,0.10400000000000001,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,0,16,12,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,6,11,3,11,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,6,35,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14080509883396225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502256475918365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18395284756761826,0.20862413185985865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4783407421546626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406866556567705,0.20944249278493496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463423198486244,0.0,0.0,0.21685143188809347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15421327620766034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573729207215438,0.22135284038307385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604980256676919,0.161889285917712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4311500226994349,0.0,0.0,0.186453038656197,0.0,0.17362516239832712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14504907080319274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272897315581669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12877697500763174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dezzion,2019/02/18,"Constant brain-fog in schizophrenia? I don't have a 100% assured diagnosis of schizophrenia (It has been diagnosed once, but every doc gives me a different diagnosis) so I was wondering if this might be a schizophrenia thing. Does anyone else have this constant brain-fog even when not witnessing paranoid ideas or hallucinations? I don't have those but it feels like their is just something wrong in my head. 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Do our thoughts, moods, and behaviours depend upon what we eat? Psychiatrists Abram Hoffer and Humphry Osmond met in Saskatchewan in 1951. They set out to prove that the symptoms of schizophrenia could be controlled with healthy, unprocessed food and large doses of vitamins. Sixty years later, it looks like they may have been right. **Featuring:** Abram Hoffer Margot Kidder Humphry Osmond",8.082758620689653,10.367949597701156,4.213177011494253,71.05452413793108,116.24137931034485,4.610390804597702,27.617931034482762,6.152001189255117,2.2520284137931026,513,21,57,7,25,136,76,87,0.028999999999999998,0.879,0.092,0.7059,0,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,2,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,6,7,1,3,1,13,9,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,6,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,5,1,9,3,1,10,0,0,1,0,6,6,0,2,4,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27059929727937865,0.3034682893873644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25655756852934003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801109722687873,0.1994015720548785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555521394314583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30199341998669343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25631107890487803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12201310487196675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20972343808185506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516848649529098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18994281366827506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132814125105504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25958134651188897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982701418010131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034682893873644,0.1608280043328959 schizophrenia,Chef_Zed,2019/02/18,"Schizophrenia compared to LSD First off I want it to be clear that I realize that these 2 things are entirely different. One is a drug, one is a disorder. I am curious if anyone in this community has done LSD and how the hallucinations compare to schizophrenia. LSD usually just makes you see patterns swirling and things like that, nothing major. However, with enough you can have auditory hallucinations as well, and see things that may not actually be there. How close is this to schizophrenia?",6.493596059113301,8.919992448275869,6.4824302134646965,70.72344827586207,67.04597701149426,10.488669950738917,35.41707717569786,10.608840637214634,4.372942200328406,401,20,66,12,7,127,61,87,0.031,0.847,0.122,0.7269,2,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,0,12,1,0,3,1,15,16,7,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,11,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,2,5,2,8,12,2,5,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,2,3,53,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.21630826146996174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15498988052913873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315876037735344,0.2540416533427819,0.0,0.0,0.22683521873130394,0.0,0.0,0.2570553182916675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22903411425173065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18854394927959345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10829191772421774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14795982341547095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126888232357604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30040521118892377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532687677924967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44178331978323737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24412726023445275,0.0,0.1307408571354145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992990306046762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Margaretulu,2019/02/18,"I need advice: My boyfriend and his schizophrenia. Hi, Reddit. I live with my boyfriend of almost 3 years who has schizophrenia and he's been having more memory issues lately. I think it's always been a problem, but it's getting worse. It has always been a variable depending on his medication. He has been unmedicated for about a year now. He has a tendency to take my clothes- random things that I haven't worn in a while, or take things out of the dirty laundry and hides them. I keep finding things in his usual hiding spots that I check daily (now), but he continually says he doesn't remember doing it and doesn't know why he does it. I've recently found a stash of cups hidden in our room that have gone moldy and gross because they weren't taken to the sink. I'm not sure how long they sat there, but the cups are all ruined. I know that it's just clothes and cups. It's just things. But it feels more personal than that. Whenever I confront him about it, he says he doesn't remember. After it happens, it's like it's gone forever from his memory. I don't know why and I know I certainly don't understand it. I've been doing some reading about memory loss in people with schizophrenia, and I understand it's an issue. But it's becoming so frustrating finding items of mine that have been taken and hidden, not having any idea what's happening in-between or the why of it all. He was diagnosed a long time ago and I have been diagnosed as bipolar disorder type 2 and bpd for about 2 and a half years. I follow subreddits about each of them to help me understand the struggles that other people with the same diagnoses and how they cope. I am trying to get a better understanding of myself and how my issues are playing into my feelings about the situation. It's incredibly frustrating, but I love him so very much and we've been together for a long time, through some really trying and tumultuous stuff. I, by no means, intend to end the relationship over these frustrating finds, but it's getting harder and harder to be understanding when it continually happens. I feel like I find new things that have been hidden every single day. I have tried appealing to him emotionally, I've cried, I've yelled, I've expressed how upset and frustrated this makes me. But it keeps happening. And I don't know what to do. &#x200B; Does anyone have any advice on how to help me with this situation?",4.791826825557809,6.247531648706904,5.626749492900611,79.02849391480731,69.79741379310343,9.079513184584178,27.655679513184584,9.478462496947786,2.4451934077079107,1911,65,359,42,34,625,206,464,0.141,0.7929999999999999,0.066,-0.9887,0,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,1,0,5,2,19,18,5,2,19,0,37,6,0,8,4,84,75,39,0,2,14,0,3,2,0,0,5,3,1,1,41,26,0,2,23,2,1,3,11,11,0,1,18,6,44,7,44,56,11,35,0,2,0,1,32,10,0,7,24,243,85,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14113451456771162,0.06401387296991365,0.0,0.07231247611925305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12017664044488224,0.07824447334411874,0.08774862580385732,0.0982167891252236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05049411733553173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044021341120029374,0.07975533620114719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06386793252139504,0.0,0.0,0.09095174259207628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0793243313635919,0.04657243355877943,0.0,0.0,0.21988885288579565,0.0,0.0,0.0827641714943529,0.0,0.12639094103632328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08123168900062794,0.06396068843127355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0608439029711102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10954159287906907,0.05159011439330463,0.0,0.0,0.26401129190238953,0.0,0.0,0.07917956575105037,0.0,0.0,0.11318742131193528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554364782719744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09680782904068813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08152147717101506,0.0,0.226119796334572,0.0,0.12837528351075886,0.0,0.0,0.1984362384002206,0.0,0.08146119802091822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07056079766483044,0.0,0.06376680213156423,0.19172290742931766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06517648296420156,0.0,0.04820379665419994,0.0,0.0,0.07866285416714852,0.0,0.07274859764850236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05308602954455606,0.053546200206652884,0.0,0.06974529678560354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10012900200381364,0.06305499071356989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06909960564179925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07223412790856255,0.0,0.04626251270582588,0.0,0.07130319126338497,0.07753143939747678,0.16361009622182027,0.0,0.0,0.11485587392632113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623444398100709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754943643534965,0.08266842334220825,0.0,0.0,0.0680613923186664,0.0,0.10859276233449168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23988080931324235,0.04627219056563655,0.0,0.0,0.0842178112141343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14708689003032566,0.0,0.0,0.3758896520525836,0.0,0.0,0.07953416365633513,0.05958459605651209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954872937748236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07359283220746309,0.0,0.0,0.08774862580385732,0.13951147646574533 schizophrenia,Wyvernrider,2019/02/18,"Research survey for those who suffer from bipolar disorder or schizophrenia - $5 compensation for estimated 20 minutes As a physician, I was contacted by a company I frequently work with for physician research surveys looking for patients who suffer from bipolar disorder or schizophrenia, particularly those who are being treated with Vraylar (cariprazine) but open to all. They estimate 20 minutes to complete and offer compensation of $5 expected to be sent within 6 weeks of survey closure. I'm not sure what exactly the research study survey entails, but I have had good experiences with this survey company. Here is the link: [Http://m3gr.io/CHBKVK/5986804](http://m3gr.io/CHBKVK/5986804)",13.130597484276734,14.641743632075471,10.447169811320755,51.627861635220135,51.35849056603774,12.727044025157234,50.68553459119497,12.161744961471696,7.156130817610062,579,35,63,15,6,172,71,106,0.10099999999999999,0.863,0.036000000000000004,-0.5849,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,1,1,1,5,0,0,4,0,7,4,0,0,3,15,10,6,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,7,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,1,4,3,17,5,1,5,0,2,1,0,7,2,0,2,2,47,11,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31932914693929304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.698112558599753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979216484142972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554535032810741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557567232270201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870475948441515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24430255420895444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22172593292894308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,IdxntGivea,2019/02/18,"Does anyone have answers to my schizophrenia questions? Hello, hopefully someone can answer the questions that have been on my mind recently. I'm reading up about schizophrenia for a story I'm writing ( the main character has schizophrenia ) and I just want to have first hand knowledge for it so my story can be 100% stronger and better. Of course I wouldn't assume anything about schizophrenia nor am I saying that I know everything about schizophrenia, I'm just curious. But I have come to the conclusion that almost all, or just a lot of hallucinations, whether they be auditory or visual, are very demanding and angry. I know that they often yell insults and commands, but I'm not sure exactly what they are saying. I was wondering if anyone had any exact words their hallucinations would say? Thank you so much, if anyone is reading this! Hopefully you understand what I'm getting at, and please leave a comment with some things hallucinations have said, if you can.",7.2055038759689936,8.936148465116283,6.670930232558137,72.76457364341087,64.34883720930233,9.221705426356593,34.68217054263566,9.516144504307137,3.5098472868217057,784,35,123,15,12,243,103,172,0.055,0.821,0.124,0.9005,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,3,4,3,9,6,1,0,6,0,20,1,1,0,4,46,36,16,0,8,12,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,9,7,0,0,11,2,0,1,3,1,0,1,4,6,17,5,14,28,5,6,0,0,0,0,17,3,0,15,2,93,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15150975276065215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289235161002704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173871914200798,0.0,0.12451083635296052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338166687819199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13033556000558905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13240772032214368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359828647629935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12869965943755002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07905043564131344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005593179369049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16630615922591258,0.0,0.0,0.16020977947770973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286338041653418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15277456610396165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122632833200574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660870716266969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33899167518878465,0.0,0.30269119376466136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493950900193921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14392537217832402,0.3609705958551534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12819994037882124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14260284360531467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13930099485948272,0.0,0.0,0.10052008743591592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157513478459387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12484218355319025,0.08924340373792294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16408344053864993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10748248342142692,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,prophet-ross,2019/02/18,I cant fucking take it I hate people Sorry for my language im just having a breakdown I can't handle this! Everything that comes out of my mouth people dissect and mock me relentlessly until I blow up its like they want to see me get madder and madder so they can just laugh at me like im a joke. how do I teach people to stop laughing at me and that Im not a joke and that im worth listening to,1.5548051948051942,2.692406818181824,3.928766233766236,89.28636363636366,77.4090909090909,6.392207792207793,21.662337662337666,6.868970318607317,0.4273974025974021,312,8,71,3,7,109,55,88,0.155,0.636,0.209,0.616,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,2,0,4,11,5,0,3,0,5,2,1,1,0,12,13,7,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,6,0,1,0,2,1,1,3,5,0,0,0,2,13,6,10,13,0,7,0,0,1,1,3,4,1,0,4,46,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15446231613292702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16115500823245674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16577202640817526,0.09368366837070832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17703451474916915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7747554622138737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17520659871348027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729392762181212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14288928605514895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20072628022546427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499137398972802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13482109870627793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10576348342965172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,little_kid13,2019/02/18,"If you cover your ears when hearing a hallucination sound then would you still be able to hear it? Obviously if you hear a voice inside your head then you can’t stop it but if you hear a sound or voice that you’re not sure is real and cover your ears will you still be able to hear it? It’s similar to if you have a visual hallucination and record it and then you can’t see it, because I think this is a new way. Because I got really shook at night when I heard some weird whistling sound which was very quiet but I wasn’t sure where it was but then I went into the bathroom and it got louder so I think it was outside but I still wasn’t sure how I heard it even when the door was closed and my door was closed too. But then I covered my ears and then I thought I could still hear it, it made me really scared. Anyways try this out next time you are unsure if you’re hallucinating",1.5498930481283428,3.3309223850267387,2.834759358288772,94.33096256684496,79.16042780748663,5.897326203208556,18.486631016042786,6.794906146795322,-0.20825989304812784,694,14,164,7,17,224,88,187,0.114,0.8859999999999999,0.0,-0.9529,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,12,0,0,13,6,0,2,7,0,18,4,4,2,4,36,34,28,0,7,12,0,0,0,0,2,0,17,2,0,16,10,0,1,3,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,14,18,26,3,6,15,1,27,0,0,1,0,20,6,0,7,18,111,42,0,0.21204363762209952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12925983337654312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08464979524670901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07002641140911084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16959066756133212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10880897339560457,0.0,0.7169657713868337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10032040845934936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239653327148164,0.11275540709686167,0.09949429483919647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12067604093703448,0.1358405839483718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061463362856942,0.0,0.08448566290125156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33867664582588336,0.08863898786882576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29977292853818266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13586900104141672,0.0,0.08416948138389113,0.0618221751536048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.071981855517737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747910402222024,0.0,0.08415518486275482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828328822499302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531485816878197,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,naturallycured,2018/11/09,"Has anyone cured their tactile hallucinations? I have some that are erotic in nature and they're the most annoying thing on earth to me at the moment. I've also heard that people have cured their ""bugs on skin"" sensation with Invega. I'm taking the pill form at the moment but still feel tactiles. Anyone else know of other meds that relieve that?",4.203435897435899,6.706192138461539,4.610384615384618,81.30378205128206,73.76923076923076,6.7948717948717965,20.06410256410256,7.793537801064563,0.909564102564103,279,6,48,4,6,88,50,65,0.031,0.9129999999999999,0.055999999999999994,0.3846,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,4,0,4,2,1,0,0,7,9,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,4,1,8,8,3,8,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,2,3,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782603247860891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4865979163854819,0.35652208932733703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29067262822420675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759370320913062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912275433973645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865007267429499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24122891098904475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778781483209896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616196434100468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23116653612746565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,-slyq-,2018/11/09,"I'm having a bad episode. Drew this on my phone. [Poorly drawn picture](https://www.dropbox.com/s/pjctikw2qqnv3v4/artflow_201811091723.jpg?dl=0) Please forgive me.",14.873333333333335,20.920061000000004,5.890000000000002,64.70833333333334,64.0,6.666666666666668,31.66666666666667,7.793537801064563,3.128166666666667,140,5,14,2,3,32,20,20,0.17600000000000002,0.603,0.221,-0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6054079081324214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.795915362818639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KingMoka,2018/11/09,"This is the first time I'm getting nervous about my mental health - developping schizophrenia. My mother has Bipolar II and shes never touched weed or alcohol in her life. I used to smoke from the age of 14 and I'd smoke synthetic weed sometimes without knowing what my sadistic dealer was providing me. I dabbled with psilocybin mushrooms and had my first psychotic reaction and went to the hospital. Every since then (2 years ago), I've been getting worse. I've speak very weirdly and over conciously since then. I isolate myself all the time, I barely even speak with my parents anymore. I say words that don't make sense as jokes and my mind is racing. I don't feel mentally stable. I don't have hallucinations unless I smoke weed. Two nights ago, I smoked with my friend and I asked him why someone was sitting out on a bench at midnight. He said that it wasn't a person. I went closer and realized it was a garbage can but I was 100% convinced it was a person. I've had manic episodes before and I'm scared of it getting worse. I have been neglecting my priorities, cleaning, shaving, showering and I'm just really scared. I need answers. Does this sound like schizophrenia? I'm 20 years old and I don't have hallucinations when I'm sober. But if this is the beginning, I'm afraid.",2.884615384615387,5.508741935222677,3.784635627530367,84.84918016194331,79.04048582995952,6.714979757085023,27.313765182186238,7.882392219407189,1.9185821862348176,1026,44,190,18,26,328,144,247,0.10099999999999999,0.8540000000000001,0.045,-0.904,2,0,5,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,2,4,10,0,4,9,0,23,4,0,2,2,34,42,20,0,2,7,2,2,1,1,0,4,5,2,2,10,15,1,1,4,1,0,2,7,6,0,3,13,7,28,4,17,29,1,25,0,1,0,0,14,6,0,2,17,111,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385934235252669,0.14382468393949427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13346681896545415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258137764180592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11451734311686365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117771531096899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888856879241679,0.0,0.1133891329879327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06804749879689333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289467095533835,0.0,0.0,0.10397587944173578,0.0,0.21093688834843685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305184127708898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07396143878630332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09505756456413413,0.06574880373758245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08983294040064455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27124920404039005,0.0,0.1358870503846212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09978908189228952,0.1037960983852776,0.0,0.0,0.12629385532265433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412186709249658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14943473996014436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23501946385552125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08621514974224376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12801603565028294,0.10702311429019118,0.2694753515176236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22265130232076824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11402887405818375,0.0,0.13310268392403965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569489156579305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314647321262714,0.0,0.0,0.11623358053595567,0.0,0.11104227961003896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24951330935674884,0.1214371732081324,0.0,0.0,0.1297299497838173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742962574933048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17332972394213908 schizophrenia,midnightrae,2018/11/09,"How to deal with stress when you don't have time for anything? My husband and I recently moved to a new state and didn't get jobs until October and then a job I recently left has been playing games with the pay schedule and so we are behind on rent. If we don't get december's rent on time, we will have to beg our families to get us back to our old state and we will be basically homeless. I am currently working two jobs and my husband has one job plus his music, so really he has two jobs. And we have 2 cats and an emotional support dog for me. I will do anything to take care of my animals before myself. But I have been super stressed lately and have been having thoughts to start self-harming again. I get these urges while I'm at work and they are super strong. I have been cutting on and off since I was 11 and haven't for the last 3 years. I have no time to myself right now. I have no time to write. I have no time to really do anything besides work, eat, shower, and sleep. I'm so exhausted and so tired of having symptoms at work. Any tips to help deal with everything so I don't start cutting again?",2.6972461685823745,3.978416607758621,3.9832183908045984,89.46139846743297,74.73275862068967,7.396934865900383,24.95785440613027,7.984000788550335,1.2234273946360157,871,28,192,13,18,286,120,232,0.096,0.804,0.1,0.5894,9,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,8,1,1,7,11,11,2,2,5,0,33,5,1,1,0,28,45,27,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,0,1,23,1,0,1,2,3,1,8,5,0,3,7,0,29,6,28,34,0,35,0,0,0,0,19,8,0,1,24,131,30,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06897997408011686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504196122430902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799804047226769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631458452029424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034207858810245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091521714980006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10379437513615272,0.0,0.11410187304338172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09116415690685042,0.0,0.09562485497978587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21198454175590453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06799042808724938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5032980053316587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08268389729138369,0.1144242522702284,0.0,0.1102105358682604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10781043952753863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979675431732362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106440042841001,0.0,0.06873567442020344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12996502759870407,0.0,0.20031167090616145,0.0,0.0,0.08662580946862347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058198944413394,0.0,0.0,0.08390892649817996,0.0,0.1015092789572651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435938784409771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23238924343062284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11510839691370416,0.0,0.10543086713398094,0.07626726548320638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08052887180743848,0.2957408039082001,0.11658578668236105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981765106263613,0.0,0.12201504627053975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953865315818094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532147314933608 schizophrenia,eghostly,2018/11/09,I just lost my only friend since developing schizophrenia and I don't even understand why. I think I'm meant to die alone. I can't keep living like this.,1.1330645161290356,3.7112138387096802,2.277661290322584,92.53649193548388,88.03225806451613,5.680645161290323,17.427419354838708,7.1686216300943375,0.1817677419354835,123,3,26,2,4,39,26,31,0.317,0.584,0.098,-0.7278,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,8,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,5,2,1,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,12,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316161732868785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33230255756550786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21147985897470034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473749394307339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845960630714308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15642672540549896,0.0,0.28273013846590145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3495208846011897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24351591075084306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648612001240053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051622852083908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33332495850570737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889180983925689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ICanSniffOutTheVegan,2018/11/09,"Graduation Because of my current episodic symptoms, I've had to change my major. While I'm saddened not to be in my program any longer, I am also excited as I'll graduate a semester early. So, here's to the future, whatever it may be.",2.9843617021276607,4.825223978723408,6.064840425531916,72.50875,75.17021276595744,8.955319148936171,35.15425531914894,9.516144504307137,3.957259574468088,185,11,32,5,4,68,39,47,0.076,0.871,0.054000000000000006,-0.25,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,2,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,6,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,23,5,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4172711632194817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3548315968791534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180752070089911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5519791946092755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5423342563459678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,selfsunset,2018/11/09,"I believe my SO has schizoaffective disorder and I’m not sure what to say or do My husband (23M) has told me that he has hallucinations (voices, seeing black shadows of people that aren’t there) and since I have known him he has exhibited childlike behavior (claims it’s just his “personality”) but can act normal 50% of the time. I didn’t think much of it at first, but I’ve realized these are symptoms of schizoaffective disorder. I’m not sure how to nicely ask him to get help or ask him if he agrees that he shares a lot of the symptoms associated with the disorder. I truly want to help him, and his childish behavior is starting to affect our marriage as I feel like I married a 12 year old boy. Any advice is greatly appreciated. TLDR; husband has hallucinations, acts like a 12 year old and says it’s his “personality” (he is 23 years old) and it’s affecting our marriage. I believe he’s showing signs of schizoaffective disorder but not sure how to say so.",6.312994652406418,6.481260620320858,7.446417112299467,71.95433155080215,65.79144385026736,10.650267379679144,34.64705882352941,10.436869588844218,3.583228877005346,764,33,145,18,11,260,101,187,0.126,0.7170000000000001,0.157,0.7473,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,2,0,0,1,6,8,0,0,6,0,14,2,0,4,3,31,25,16,0,3,10,2,1,2,0,0,2,4,0,3,9,6,0,0,4,1,0,2,5,0,0,1,2,7,19,8,15,23,2,12,0,0,2,0,31,1,0,4,11,86,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066496012598252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770127497553424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117438075350924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551841803826345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5191696030605365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057261759795748435,0.08090463158097083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09632897402741387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05916757973584887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12485668671460623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15181594060793446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11065483002443983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096279682748526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08325055512875996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109593212469984,0.0,0.0,0.3565052245630555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07851213466915831,0.19776815201964248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27017885909530204,0.0,0.0,0.0902442589311538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936801911687933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0801577528423688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202056402773311,0.2354167595843861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725649588914877,0.0,0.0,0.06603601357510809,0.0,0.0,0.1082136351418373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06679680084903293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21878463999380568 schizophrenia,kittycard,2018/11/09,"Inexpensive ways to get diagnosed? Ok so, long story short, I’m way past the point of knowing I have schizophrenia. What I thought was bipolar isn’t true because I don’t have bipolar; what I thought was then schizoaffective disorder is ruled out because I don’t have either subtype. My main therapist can’t help me because she doesn’t specialize in schizophrenia. That leaves the question of how I can be diagnosed and inexpensively. I work part-time and my insurance is shit and I want to know if there aren’t affordable out of pocket options any of you might be familiar with. Thanks for the help!",4.056891233766232,6.755157205357148,4.289837662337664,82.44152597402598,75.16071428571428,8.001298701298701,31.61038961038961,8.841846274778883,2.9670428571428578,485,24,87,11,11,151,74,112,0.057999999999999996,0.8059999999999999,0.136,0.7644,2,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,1,3,5,1,0,3,1,17,5,1,1,1,18,25,7,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,5,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,4,0,13,4,11,18,2,10,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,4,3,57,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263881308698907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33988741062097155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772788931218527,0.0,0.0,0.21300653444961695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09710184137906858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.249150082689524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20428267298601785,0.0,0.0,0.19679416650918344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16447629188962162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971633424752196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012634230614633,0.17742012946313673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17569354579087446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20820072404384785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907780265211949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17111079777178054,0.0,0.21579259038389306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950970546026029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10962240452675116,0.29504693119434344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530503638419744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KDRLDR,2018/11/09,"Handling Delusions and such Hi Guys.. How do you handle delusions and such? I'm having a hard time trying to pin point the causw for my delusions. I've had countless relapse and it revolves around delusions and me being paranoid. I've had work since yesterday and I resigned due to the fear that a relapse will just soon take over and I might hurt someone else. On a good side, they transferred me to a different entity with a new position (more or like a promotion) but still afraid on delusions taking over when I'm not aware. It was hard for me since I can't even recall what triggered it so I got no grounds but to assess the situation whether it aligns with the reality, and also the fact that it lasted for 4 months. Do you guys have some advice? Please share it with me and also to the rest so we can have a work around whenever it kicks in. TIA, Good day! 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I’m so happy to finally be taken seriously, he recognised right away I’m a serious risk to myself and others but I’m intelligent enough to seek help to try and get better. Honestly, I feel free. It’s disgusting how the NHS ignored me and forced me to go private, I wish their standards were higher and their staff more attentive. How’s clozapine treated you? All I know is that it can fuck with your white blood cell count and cause sudden, unexplained death. But I also know it’s good for treatment resistant schizophrenic, which is probably too early to say I have as I’ve only tried three antipsychotics. 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I’m on meds. Been on meds for a while. I had three main voices (and some smaller, and an ‘audience’ who would never speak to me). Of those, one of them I miss Mary. She was always so nice to me. Saying such kind things to me in my darkest days.... And now she’s gone. I don’t want to go off the meds because I know I’ll go back into that hell, but I have to say that I really miss her a lot Anyone else miss certain parts of being off meds? Like, not all of it, but maybe a voice or a feeling?",0.5797391304347812,1.9246572782608704,2.7471739130434787,95.84945652173916,80.56521739130434,5.2956521739130435,18.456521739130434,5.6839178017228535,-0.4715913043478257,397,8,97,2,10,135,80,115,0.10099999999999999,0.778,0.121,0.502,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,0,4,9,1,0,6,0,8,0,0,0,4,19,19,8,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,0,0,7,4,0,0,2,0,0,3,4,5,0,2,5,6,14,4,16,12,5,15,1,4,0,0,9,6,1,3,7,72,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328783064406396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11166184662713503,0.16362550482488095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12279492628370435,0.0,0.09734805755296504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029895007083027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13340395155233345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08074614885054163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815157049807999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16629685880963327,0.08776371580187638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07801848395906448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13576623600507345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604342148568806,0.0,0.7095366982485525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463319110475733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10821287332840852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17293317739275973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18176687794700871,0.10230414691710576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25399035878505616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353083155259504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060936820039424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419173359908617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134421259270861,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nyoten,2018/11/09,"Anyone sensitive to Caffeine? I'm schizoid not schizophrenic, but I find that even a sip of coffee has a huge effect on my brain and the subsequent withdrawal is horrible.",7.439032258064515,8.65483241935484,7.584032258064513,68.29604838709679,63.516129032258064,12.651612903225805,38.08064516129032,12.161744961471696,5.445632258064517,139,7,22,5,2,45,29,31,0.145,0.731,0.125,-0.3919,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,1,1,0,5,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40324547713955095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6437933993590329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3809081493083459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5270978333276732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rubberdickydude,2018/11/09,Thought broadcasting. Been watching YouTube videos and reading on forums on how to get over thought broadcasting. Never have I seen or read someone that has gotten over it and how they did it. Anyone know of anything good or their experience coping with it? ,6.070333333333334,8.877856866666667,4.793055555555559,80.73625000000003,69.22222222222223,7.166666666666668,33.47222222222222,8.07648339933343,2.7802222222222235,209,10,33,3,4,61,36,45,0.0,0.937,0.063,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,11,10,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,2,3,1,7,4,0,5,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,2,1,25,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20858477203079892,0.0,0.2454831050350001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918036993019213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15585427713768352,0.0,0.0,0.25020765578402204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639429689376247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300744930421156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5967799774588308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527564696480061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.473648465130573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,omega_constant,2018/11/09,"Eye for an eye tooth for tooth hand for hand foot for foot show no pity -- God How about curse for curse? Let us sit down and compare swords, like the vulgar chap you are. You have bodily fluids and filth. I have eternal waking. You have aches and pains. I have flames. You have aging and degradation of the body. I have the undying worm. You have delusions of grandeur. I have destruction of the soul. Shall we go on? So many instruments of discipline await you that the whole world could not contain the books enumerating them. What if I were to curse you even *once*? Better a millstone were hung around your neck and cast into the sea. But you fancy yourself to be competent to play this game, anyway. So let us keeping raising the stakes until it's only you and me sitting at the table. I won't blink.",1.7928183361629877,4.471117354838714,2.1322241086587432,94.30570458404078,85.12903225806451,5.0696095076400685,19.125636672325975,6.5966054737557815,0.10609677419354836,630,17,127,7,19,191,103,155,0.152,0.718,0.13,-0.7131,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,3,10,1,2,7,7,1,0,11,0,17,12,11,1,0,17,19,12,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,9,0,3,0,4,0,1,3,4,0,0,2,4,21,3,19,11,1,12,1,1,2,0,15,6,0,1,4,88,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19746751200394708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19618244297425255,0.0,0.2463928670236529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771058333037316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14651052503712556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12606585415648747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19716449039755804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.453653527619645,0.0,0.10837042250789307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248914423211984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23623187817437724,0.0,0.16870468947715725,0.23603293638033265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5336461429911667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24765496548231744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,freeipods69,2018/11/09,"How do I help my schizophrenic mother understand and accept she needs help? After months of seeing my mother's behavior become more and more strange, my father and I were able to get her to an emergency mental health clinic. She was resistant to getting in the car to go, but once there she explained to the doctor very compliantly how she hears voices that she considers to be a form of telepathy. These voices tell her things like ""criminals are out to get us"", ""they pee in our backyard"", ""we need to pack our bags because we are going to south lake tahoe because the press release your father sent to the new york times about our new restaurant we opened there is getting a lot of attention"", ""jimmy buffett wants to take us on a cruise and called (me) personally to invite us"", ""(a celebrity real estate coach) is coming for breakfast"", ""(we have bank accounts with hundreds of thousands of dollars)"", etc. none of this is true or based on any evidence, its all in her head. And no matter how we try to talk to her about it, she might eventually say she accepts that it isnt true and she was just confused, or the voices are stopping now, she's back at it a few hours later. the doctor at the emergency clinic prescribed risperidone. she was on the medication for three days, each day it took around a half hour of pleading and trying to explain why she needed the meds before she finally reluctantly took it. on the fourth day, she found where my dad was keeping the meds and threw them away. she said she doesn't need medication, she's fine. we got bloodwork done, which was normal, went back to the psychiatrist and she gave us another prescription of the same medication with a higher doseage. we got her to take it once, and now she's refusing to take it. we are kind of at a loss as what to do at this point. anytime she's with a doctor, she's very compliant, receptive and easy to work with. at home its the complete opposite. and there's a pile of luggage sitting at the front door and she keeps looking for the cat carrier so the cat can come with us to south lake tahoe. how do we get her to understand she needs help? my father is calling the psychiatrist today, but i honestly don't think there's much she can do to help us. i think my mom needs a psychologist/therapist, but even then, my mother says one thing one day, is completely different and forgets everything the next day. we meed to be able to manage this at home, but I'm having doubts my father can do that. I'm living with them for now to help figure this all out but i don't know what to do to help at this point. has anyone had a similar experience or know something that can provide any wisdom or advice?",7.0028612558267085,6.489639140115166,7.045288593364411,77.69270393474092,64.50863723608445,10.206772689882095,32.42672059226761,9.606745405546679,2.7922371264052654,2116,72,410,36,28,679,248,521,0.055999999999999994,0.8490000000000001,0.095,0.9685,1,0,1,0,0,0,66.0,19,1,3,2,20,12,0,2,32,0,37,13,2,4,4,88,81,30,0,8,10,9,1,1,0,1,10,7,4,1,24,37,1,4,13,2,3,13,6,3,0,5,18,10,66,9,71,60,12,62,0,1,2,0,81,25,0,8,24,289,90,5,0.12802891920696624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06255418904900996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08706405535944728,0.06712474241780597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04476039856507734,0.0,0.0,0.056986440900664265,0.0,0.0,0.06014369202462405,0.09844633611660557,0.0,0.07804524082710132,0.07069894127138318,0.054471590234829635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13073184100161753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102855774415533,0.1342358859363825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20642015330067545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668814855024407,0.0,0.1965645357872202,0.0,0.06550901752002326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713930439160743,0.04228094683335333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05753206861542734,0.06261842490394935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07012471149355025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07018855083011502,0.0,0.0,0.16722456521717385,0.0,0.07276178521291984,0.0,0.10239642235416144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0656973037252164,0.06804437710741827,0.07214894840233775,0.0,0.2574452574319134,0.0,0.12842344480459272,0.0,0.1260826959570094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11379798596465268,0.0,0.06666120886658096,0.07036134575065381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03127423146701025,0.0,0.05652594062914281,0.0,0.053756023613296976,0.0,0.0,0.05442280437614287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14221126718513538,0.1934635001633774,0.06451151891872707,0.06790922551812807,0.0,0.07497296140628254,0.05109573092193146,0.0,0.04705799340668439,0.28479546403026196,0.0,0.12365112796878032,0.06808010401651472,0.0,0.06272057885470585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634662054351485,0.08675570906911248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05589495697295007,0.0,0.0,0.12102871125439175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07286246957750697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060892410246659735,0.10181373525792456,0.0,0.0,0.05101123632395183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049281458466294135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05351895460626832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14439272077207546,0.05145239780464701,0.05595145924496464,0.0,0.0,0.07432572151368677,0.08505672501710224,0.08203576184664453,0.0,0.0,0.037327346185438516,0.0,0.06067822268980585,0.0,0.14224484003380458,0.0869232321025546,0.0,0.0,0.13328262007679434,0.4620090780628111,0.0,0.0,0.1056372666188534,0.03775738683159244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05934204538585588,0.057763092979890525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046603288999869916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ATalkingFlower,2018/11/09,"Seroquel withdrawal: Abnormal hunger. No sleep. So, I've finally trapped completely out of seroquel this week, I lost a bit of weight in the years I was on it. And now I'm hungry. A lot. Painfully so. Anyone else experienced this side effect? I also can't sleep, but that seems to be true for a lot of people,though I am a bit worried about going psychotic. I've always had insomnia before starting meds but this is ridiculous, I get like two hours a day. I have more side effects like nausea and the usual but those two are the strongest. So yeah, seroquel withdrawal sucks and is very painful. Woop. 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I kind of don’t want to take medication because of it. I’m extremely lonely irl, isolated for years in my bedroom and that’s probably what caused this. I feel less lonely with the voices",3.244333333333333,5.34994626666667,5.055277777777778,78.85625000000002,75.22222222222223,8.055555555555555,26.805555555555557,8.841846274778883,2.3455555555555563,182,7,33,4,4,62,37,45,0.174,0.745,0.081,-0.6542,0,4,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,6,7,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,3,2,7,7,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20618398851361047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3474589520906137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17102100900226205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3812137112014904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.352218118045136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16524379227302927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34073464461343683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3313969941817393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3646728956519449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25430948140342713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994988683559975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178112700890448 schizophrenia,foonoomaru,2018/11/09,"Have any of you ever had a conversation with your voices? I was wondering that, cause I've been able to sometimes hold a conversation (usually very short) with some of the frequent voices I hear. What did you converse about specifically, if you don't mind sharing? Mine were always about me planning out suicide or random things or discussing what bad things may happen or will happen.",8.424130434782608,8.985928478260874,7.554891304347826,71.62190217391306,61.31884057971014,9.798550724637682,34.64130434782609,9.516144504307137,3.297460869565217,311,12,50,5,4,96,54,69,0.151,0.8490000000000001,0.0,-0.8932,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,4,0,1,3,2,0,0,3,0,9,0,0,1,1,15,13,4,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,5,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,3,8,1,8,6,1,5,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,8,3,39,13,0,0.2414502609819496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009059593141113,0.0,0.0,0.16419445714997208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20160088253578906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24803592856387094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184055843464897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4270273367692114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27213199219711603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437959338594605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23880048197833514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26410739655111504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32081764933827245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659233506356849,0.1992217520270539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618425084563608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,notsureyou,2018/11/09,"25m Need help, not sure if these are symptoms of schizophrenia or not So I've had anxiety for a while now. Unfortunately early on I got in the negative spiral of doing google searches. I sought treatment (tried meds but just made things worse) and was Doctor thought I was no longer showing GAD symptoms. Well now things are a little stranger. I'm constantly in a dissociated state and feel so out of myself. It comes and goes and it can be hard to deal with sometimes. But something else happening is static. I feel like my mind is all static like, like there's so much white noise (it's more of a feeling then actually hearing it) that I can't find myself. When I go to sleep, it can be immediately after i close my eyes (just happened a while ago when the static got really bad). I closed my eyes and random phrases and words start popping into my head, it's not a clear voice but more like phrases coming out from the static (that is now audible...since I do have tinnitus). But this happens all the time before bed (and yes I've read of hypnagogia) but these phrases happens right after closing my eyes. Never feels like a voice, but more in my head. I'm worried and I don't have any reference or know anyone who can help. I appreciate any help. 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I had a bad psychotic episode that landed me in a psych hospital for 3 months. They're telling me I have schizophrenia but I don't believe it. Other than the psychotic episode (that was triggered by smoking weed) there's no evidence at all that points to schizo. I guess I'm just here to vent bc now I've been prescribed meds and what I'm told is I can't work but part time and that I've got to apply for disability to get by. 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And how often I’m pretty sure I’m scitzophrenic first episode was triggers by lsd most intense and scary experience of my life and recently I have been hearing scratching on floor and flys fly past me and disappear in my room,6.093823529411764,8.280308921568633,5.809950980392159,76.11727941176474,67.62745098039215,9.02156862745098,34.318627450980394,9.516144504307137,3.4507215686274506,229,11,39,5,4,71,41,51,0.09699999999999999,0.775,0.128,0.1851,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,1,12,8,7,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,5,1,4,6,2,8,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,3,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3630640206865352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31570704610642225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183223601589827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262160071897568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35431257877512656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776014078530955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3664740278175455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3498122894634059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,yaits,2019/07/19,"Whenever I go out it feels as if something bad is going to happen. I was just at the barbershop and got a boat load of anxiety for no reason. Anybody else get this feeling? Is it linked to schizophrenia? Mind you, I'm on meds and and I talk to a psychiatrist every month. Why is this still a thing?",0.8405854800936794,3.1666463606557405,2.8970960187353647,89.81295081967217,85.39344262295081,6.108665105386418,21.82903981264637,7.447530270364453,0.925143325526932,232,8,49,4,7,78,48,61,0.133,0.8390000000000001,0.027000000000000003,-0.7442,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,4,0,0,1,0,11,12,5,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,2,4,0,9,10,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060875077762781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22493474037346425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22504612307712715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269780850316072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724298274642101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140748499490833,0.0,0.30620836345702745,0.0,0.21546091001732948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382263458382993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29923866808986804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720135665926408,0.0,0.2150296353980484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769843659601481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20739450937852874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21514031214268206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21653062086914507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789749969182767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430883480638917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Riivus,2019/07/19,"I'm really tired of living with mental illness and I'm losing hope. Hey. I'm just going to rant a little here, I really need it. I'm just so tired of missing out on my own life because if this illness. I've always struggled on and off with mental illness, but got the paranoid schizophrenia diagnosis a couple of years ago and I'm in my late twenties now. Everywhere around me. People are getting educated, getting good jobs, getting married or having children. And meanwhile there's me, just struggling to get up in the morning, going grocery shopping and maintaining basic selfcare and hygiene. I started a relationship with a guy at the start of this year. I like him, he's sick too, scizoaffective and we have fun together, agree on a lot of stuff and such. But it's not ‘it'. He rarely contacts me if I don't contact him first, he’s just not that into me. He wants to focus on himself mostly, which I completely understands, I do that myself, but I would really like to be his second or third priority. But I'm not. I think I'm gonna break it off soon, we want different things, and he's a good guy, but we don't want the same things out of each other. It's not at all my first relationship, I've been dating pretty much since I turned 18 (except in my early twenties when I was single for about 2 years), and my last couple of relationships turned out pretty bad. I know I should probably take a break from dating and focus on myself, but the days go by and I get older and older and older. And I'm just here, wondering. How much more am I gonna miss out on? Well I ever get an education? Will I ever be able to hold down a job, even part-time? Will I ever find someone who will want to commit to me? Will I ever have children? I don't even know if I want children, I would just like to have the option to choose. I'm so tired. I know I have to be patient with myself, but I've been sick basically all my life, and I don't want to be patient anymore. And I don't think I'll ever get to function normally. Maybe I'll never get a life that I feel is worth something. I'm just a waste. And even if I'm not, my life, is not something I would deem worthwhile. I have accomplished nothing. I have wasted so much time and those gifts I had. And now, I'm just this shell, containing a sickness, where I can't even tell apart what is me and what is the illness. I just wish I could start over as a “normal” person. I want to experience life. I don't really have any point with this, I think. It's just been so long, since I felt I hit the wall, and I don't think I'll ever get past it. I don't want this to be my life. My one chance at a human experience and it mostly just fucking suck.",1.8715119596225591,3.581978197132617,3.8021205471435913,88.08610599078344,77.96057347670248,6.418901323970449,22.498866213151928,7.290443533043144,0.7581007534196469,2086,62,446,26,49,707,229,558,0.1,0.7709999999999999,0.129,0.9372,3,0,2,0,0,0,74.0,3,0,0,4,39,16,2,2,22,0,43,17,0,1,10,118,103,43,0,22,31,0,2,3,0,10,16,0,0,7,25,38,0,2,13,1,2,3,16,8,1,5,7,2,65,8,55,79,13,65,0,3,0,1,27,28,2,12,35,308,90,3,0.06364000763593892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056413026950923616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052953584447819314,0.0,0.0,0.04327738750128849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06311378699467686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05665309926112265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05313674813111418,0.038794357969673225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06672533720446798,0.0,0.0,0.05081136766274542,0.1408329159937513,0.0,0.041042540118707456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06649026289439569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16813449936132402,0.3453961821954229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12450427805598388,0.0,0.0,0.03217830002900783,0.0,0.06110438741640393,0.0,0.05816581404329985,0.10826431596923336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058834161578004536,0.2992434961079515,0.0,0.10850424877216673,0.10675643805062847,0.050898727731797405,0.0,0.0,0.12602722605465402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06320888708413389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263057755287974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10492465160018873,0.0518751001419612,0.07178870057695845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26970491671130803,0.09327387944990287,0.06378400648109969,0.056195292681523235,0.05631940412355545,0.0,0.07119689006110326,0.0,0.05410445870386588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06393494146870858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12826831881497047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14034818437663146,0.04718825928243997,0.04908309717085976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12470739086038632,0.06106430370718083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0431241161904552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06891592659625066,0.06075158830546585,0.04411996827051099,0.055567999958176184,0.0,0.0,0.060160377484294564,0.0,0.0,0.12948953352296835,0.06861469194454428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630776739484458,0.0,0.0,0.20497665477900825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528734390828337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053921971950300435,0.09798637409522136,0.0,0.0,0.13513417487411775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306070741629086,0.0728525830047219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04784936564555427,0.0,0.055624171720692464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08455918651981895,0.16311178888891087,0.0,0.0,0.037109000231900544,0.21943448086258915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13844410723934486,0.0,0.06625149233442579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002922028753515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057220009722374864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07318286805118257,0.0,0.06901487358020271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13562410651065165,0.0,0.0,0.12294623519380307 schizophrenia,willingofnothingness,2019/07/19,"About delusions in psychosis? I have OCD about schizoprenia. I have some thoughts like delusions. So i wonder, in psychosis do you believe in your delusions 100% or you just have doubts about them?",3.857647058823528,7.172138882352942,1.985529411764705,92.9388823529412,86.64705882352942,3.896470588235295,30.329411764705892,5.6839178017228535,1.3822541176470593,158,8,26,1,5,43,22,34,0.065,0.851,0.084,0.168,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,1,0,5,2,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,7,1,6,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,4,1,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6188610208600543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683550405410663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4360744036218556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5956808907310164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Temazeman123,2019/07/19,Friend had paranoid episode? Not sure if this is the right place but a friend of mine had what appeared to be a paranoid episode or a psychotic break of some sort? He thought people were coming to kill him and was repeating the same things over and over? Does anyone have any idea if this is schizophrenia as it runs in his family,4.39875,6.1420751250000025,3.598875,92.05862500000002,71.1875,6.995000000000001,26.8625,7.554174236665415,1.237035,264,9,54,3,5,77,50,64,0.17,0.7440000000000001,0.087,-0.7328,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,5,0,8,0,0,0,1,15,11,7,1,2,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,5,0,3,3,8,5,2,10,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,6,1,38,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923786038110167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19780707311240228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436893769892099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24756371072085845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666886489298459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4371286388198871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193545237724313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129818959542615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961240820235408,0.0,0.29556552927947555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415911647084328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26662560941602337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18794316363936925,0.0,0.0,0.22458738396738345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sunflowerseed0005,2019/07/19,Antipsychotic pills that doesnt make you feel like a zombie? I wish there were pills that doesnt make me feel drowsy or dying.,4.0368,5.82200568,3.4450000000000003,92.6275,72.2,6.6000000000000005,16.5,7.1686216300943375,-0.3698000000000001,102,1,22,1,2,30,19,25,0.0,0.785,0.215,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,2,0,6,8,1,1,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4253499734225419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.414455576006744,0.2927903002205174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002274793828145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5471437410103374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4712966145606796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AceKinkajou2842,2019/07/19,"When did you first start to think you were schizophrenic? I'm a little paranoid that I might have some form of schizophrenia, so I want to know what made you think you had schizophrenia.",7.505714285714286,7.707855714285714,5.057857142857143,89.96964285714287,63.28571428571429,8.142857142857144,28.92857142857143,7.1686216300943375,1.2832857142857144,150,4,30,1,2,41,27,35,0.053,0.894,0.054000000000000006,0.0088,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,1,0,7,12,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,6,0,3,7,2,4,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,3,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3325603414690164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21486783004040155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3918563708774463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3699468904985896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4147592053885312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767317925452097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5010377770819109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306052475247011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,heyjavs,2019/07/19,"I think someone I care about has paranoid schizophrenia 1. he was obsessed talking about illuminati before and think that he got marks (like a star) in his skin and might be son of the devil and follows tons of illuminati accounts on IG (I confronted him about this and he stopped talking about this ever since) 2. he once told me about seeing this black entity on his flat and sometimes gave him like some kind of low electrical shock (if my memory serves me right) 3. a black spider once came inside his flat and he thinks someone put it inside the flat to bite and kill him (i searched and that spider venom isnt even fatal) 4. he once told me that he thinks his mom puts poison on his food. 5. he constantly telling me his neighbors are spreading nasty rumors against him and he said he can perfectly hear them even theyre outside the flat 6. sometime when we talked over the phone he talk really cautious and lowered his voice because his neighbors might hear our important details on our conversation 7. he cant hold a job for too long because he told me his co workers are all against him 8. he thinks his brother was ruining his life and told me not to talk to him coz he might rape and kill me just like the other girl (i talked to his best friend about this, he told me his brother can be an asshole but incapable of doing such things) 9. his friend committed suicide but he thinks there's foul play 10. he was angry at me thinking i was destroying him when all i do was tried to help him 11. he thinks someone was trying to break in his flat and keep on wanting to change the locks 12. he keeps on insisting that the neighbors was destroying his life and now he is planning to move he tried to file complaint to the police regarding his neighbors who was spreading nasty rumors about him but the investigation was ceased due to lack of evidence, he done this twice but same result. &#x200B; 1-4 he stopped talking about this but 5-12 still constantly on it especially when he's under stress and whenever he's stoned i guess. &#x200B; I tried to persuade him to get professional help because i want him to get properly diagnosed but he doesn't want to and keep telling me ""im not crazy"" I already talked to his mum but she's just ignoring the problem. do you think he got paranoid schizophrenia or paranoid personality disorder? &#x200B; I stopped talking to him for almost a month now coz im drained already and my anxiety exacerbated from the situation but i still care about him and still worry about him.",6.250817869415813,6.8340844907216525,6.018505154639177,80.70748281786943,65.94845360824742,9.105841924398627,33.486254295532646,9.029198982220553,2.7553450171821297,2018,84,385,32,30,629,223,485,0.177,0.747,0.075,-0.9948,2,0,0,0,0,2,46.0,3,1,1,4,26,27,7,2,16,0,27,7,1,3,5,71,61,31,4,6,14,5,1,3,6,3,4,4,4,2,15,20,1,8,9,1,1,5,5,16,0,1,20,8,63,11,49,36,7,37,1,2,3,1,106,14,0,8,20,224,78,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05906440506618699,0.0,0.13018161171729786,0.0,0.0,0.19172887650117587,0.21501768394432208,0.0,0.0,0.045122941791996635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10786911732281028,0.0,0.0501914214160129,0.0,0.061900539837449524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06746249565249865,0.12027715307160565,0.0,0.06239772564372927,0.0,0.0,0.12748246882569345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05986797379642352,0.0,0.0,0.06760128835926135,0.0,0.0,0.06036156996191545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779173441139582,0.053354810753687226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07132422947501484,0.0,0.09114247746448484,0.0,0.061633879883007274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09435050388126114,0.0,0.06497802018560266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13295952104105965,0.0,0.07907206522160573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274266527113381,0.0,0.05853296386429475,0.15728426447315194,0.13051510638064942,0.06142322652779965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332492095890634,0.086450466615107,0.0,0.0,0.05219938094867373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18771953644026468,0.0,0.06908187340458992,0.047080824191214,0.06269113422077584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18844953839734804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05150294545036831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05644015136212941,0.0,0.11859132507313112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037786948206977616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05037239688642249,0.05610771799668572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0470029688549499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04879254547584823,0.06630099166686015,0.0,0.0,0.1499319958621611,0.0,0.11667425594420837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14131517072540845,0.14794092073358098,0.0675664866742907,0.0,0.0,0.06451941329155053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4266851900136942,0.10311001598074324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039186646756547164,0.3401536772334087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818108421796124,0.0,0.1601862752489133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10437166819595417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059901570806927824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21501768394432208,0.0 schizophrenia,Slacker8206,2019/07/19,"What does Schizophrenia do to someone? On a good day what is it like to have schizophrenia, on a bad day? How many good days compared to bad? Is being in a relationship with someone with schizophrenia a good idea?",3.469750000000001,6.082838475000003,3.0599999999999987,90.935,76.75,5.0,27.5,5.985473137389443,0.9344999999999994,169,7,32,1,4,50,24,40,0.142,0.61,0.247,0.6322,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,1,0,4,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,8,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,21,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37160218429835706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4305353101293981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947352358412527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5599363006224759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512063594567683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10871565210087927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256078664090806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23891115949267935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3770935042724872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Kakashifan4,2019/07/19,"Is it possible...? I have been told by several therapist that my voices are highly “sophisticated”, as in they are actually able to learn. Does anyone else experience this? And the main question is: is it possible for voices to “take over” in a way? Sort of like you are fully aware of what’s going on, yet you don’t quite feel like yourself. Like you “become your voices” in a way? I don’t quite know how to explain it...",2.9799477351916366,4.834329085365859,4.951742160278748,80.42548780487809,75.21951219512195,8.10034843205575,23.90940766550523,8.841846274778883,1.764970034843206,323,10,64,7,7,111,58,82,0.0,0.852,0.14800000000000002,0.9072,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,4,1,2,2,3,0,0,3,0,10,0,0,1,0,8,16,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,1,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,4,8,3,13,14,1,10,0,0,0,0,8,6,0,2,4,44,14,1,0.18482592219706745,0.0,0.18036343860453205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292345822169305,0.18937599900787516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20412571003143665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16174241003456413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15439834165131786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807952172226183,0.0,0.0,0.09345353966043013,0.13203967574755046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050408308996419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19527873444848576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157549322406298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708898290026431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4167269133441633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070473322601213,0.3931702378580735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088006834755332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13896609162237047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145971411275041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17660908920018684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293412428202982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BahnwaerterThiel,2019/07/19,"Looking back at who you were before developing any symptoms, would you say you were always a little ""off""? If there is such a thing as ""the type"" to get psychosis or schizophrenia, would you say that that was you? Were you an outcast or often misunderstood, or were you completely average? What about the last years/months before the symptoms started?",5.965,8.272454532258063,5.233096774193552,79.62964516129036,68.19354838709678,7.540645161290323,30.14193548387097,8.238735603445708,2.3216670967741937,279,11,46,4,5,84,43,62,0.055,0.945,0.0,-0.5204,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,7,0,0,5,0,0,0,6,0,8,2,0,0,0,7,11,5,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,7,0,5,4,0,6,0,0,1,0,10,3,0,5,3,39,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19171300904615932,0.0,0.0,0.15668133268115975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17716499738779307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3921104440182298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415722242125763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203755907168928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18780846748129398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23092343868734885,0.0,0.0,0.19347974051055575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18390476258231087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36645000418596796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630797962670866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4789520143656869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530689212000786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32734209061869074,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kimbycat11,2019/07/19,"Advice for a friend Hello, I have a friend who is going through psychosis. He hasn’t been officially diagnosed with schizophrenia because the doctor can’t confirm it since he continues to smoke weed and drink. We are all really worried about him. He was on medicine for a while and was doing good as far as I could tell. He had went over a year without weed when he was on his meds but has always drank. He had talked with his doctor about quitting the medicine and was going to wean off. I think (not sure) that he started to wean off but then just went cold turkey. It’s been a while and at first he was okay just a little overly excited when talking about stuff. Passionate I would say. But now he is having more problems. His parents say that he is afraid of being labeled as schizophrenic and everything that goes with it. His mom told him that he will still be him and labels aren’t who you are. There was a long talk about how he needs his meds and that we just want him to be happy. His parents are great and have even asked his closest friend (my bf) for help since thats who he talks to and who can understand him the best. I think he’s realizing he needs his meds but I can understand why he doesn’t like them. If you have any advice I could pass on or anything that could help him I would really appreciate it. Thank you all for reading as I don’t understand what’s going on myself.",3.773880952380953,5.1215635785714335,4.1492857142857185,89.06238095238098,72.14285714285714,7.333333333333335,24.404761904761905,7.793537801064563,1.048369047619047,1102,31,232,14,21,345,140,280,0.019,0.7929999999999999,0.188,0.9944,3,0,2,0,0,0,22.0,2,3,1,3,14,15,0,1,10,1,38,7,0,1,3,44,56,25,0,10,11,3,0,1,4,3,4,2,0,0,17,14,2,0,6,2,0,6,7,2,0,1,14,3,31,13,32,33,4,30,0,0,0,1,59,12,0,2,13,162,48,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19239378332802626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08191206308981916,0.0,0.0,0.06694428965165321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100980649342931,0.0,0.09203046786801562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060009646762859775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10330935180342403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23579502674302144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09991708606959583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152018211810466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964361925932646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06502035633126574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08847378978038922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08373515761512497,0.0,0.0,0.22816934133385916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678414589610499,0.08256891558931631,0.0,0.1085332263413759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10479389356244397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13196789277207593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04809404297368746,0.0986652672804368,0.0,0.08711853280292292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3280423438650671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11529469018421468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14598776312303613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21861753817117446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419619712881927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470573804011267,0.09846916040556054,0.0,0.1261295987448131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15657088692879625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16286534040529818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06967812266348684,0.0,0.0786163240039021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269313376169035,0.0,0.0,0.09278091051554184,0.0,0.0,0.3164974760420571,0.08604310191303638,0.09063264667116316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261559843538783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09406604696245033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30744640668695866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0580639491259206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18251440544234745,0.08882906296189591,0.0,0.0,0.09489507679530353,0.0,0.0,0.09997315804226108,0.0,0.13986148416383984,0.0,0.0,0.0633937556123598 schizophrenia,the_forrest_fire,2019/07/19,"I'm Finally Subscribed I've lurked this sub for a long time through a proxy, and I've frequently deleted personal accounts since I began Reddit. I was always afraid if I didn't they'd find my IP address or login credentials, and I'd be toast when they purged the mentally ill from society. &#x200B; Things have gotten better in some ways, but they've also gotten much worse. I'm just glad to be here with people I can trust!",4.8585714285714285,6.1652086666666674,5.3223809523809535,81.83928571428571,69.47619047619048,8.457142857142857,28.285714285714285,8.841846274778883,2.2093714285714285,344,12,64,6,6,110,66,84,0.07400000000000001,0.795,0.131,0.685,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,1,4,4,0,1,3,0,7,1,0,0,0,9,12,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,7,3,6,4,2,8,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,6,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065308858827561,0.2148934844787347,0.2798252215385039,0.31381486264562203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228410488347276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829118326220351,0.2360454837504691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285524789696319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602659127404299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189851236042878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17904536237927451,0.2255031696351656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136358137026326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715768481530947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15059381623567655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049952207765715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631895863817861,0.0,0.0,0.31381486264562203,0.0 schizophrenia,Lunar_orbit56,2019/01/03,"What keeps you going? Hi everyone. I’m feeling very emotional today because I met my new therapist and we went over my entire history (ugh). I remarked how I have had significant improvements this past year. She asked what had changed and become the catalyst to this. The only thing I can think of is my fiancé. I hate being so honest about my dependence on him, but if I were being truthful I would have to admit that without him I wouldn’t be where I am today. I’m not saying I’m some millionaire or a success story. I’m on disability and spend most days alone at home. However I have been showering TWICE a week lately and I just got out of the hospital and am on a new injectable medication. I am even starting school back up (very nervous). On the outside looking in I have come a long way; and I feel I have my fiancé to thank for that as he gives me a reason to keep going. What are your reasons? 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Therefore, Cayce considered schizophrenia to be an illness. Yet, he also noted that such individuals are closer to the ""universal"" or divine consciousness than most sane individuals. To explain the mystical aspects of schizophrenia, Cayce often relied on terminology from perennial philosophy of other cultures and times (such as Hinduism, yoga, etc.). Thus, his readings on schizophrenia sometimes make references to kundalini, karma, possession and so forth. The various therapies recommended by Cayce for this illness were not only directed toward nervous system regeneration and coordination, but also tended to help the afflicted persons to be more focused in material reality. Much emphasis was placed on simple, physical activities to assist these individuals to be more incarnate in their bodies and to attend to the physical world.",14.698400621118012,15.269065571428573,13.659992236024845,32.97210015527952,48.56521739130434,16.4972049689441,54.28649068322982,14.90622815163357,9.260272670807453,891,55,86,34,8,292,108,161,0.059000000000000004,0.877,0.064,0.429,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,0,7,3,0,1,8,0,7,4,1,3,0,20,10,11,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,6,7,0,0,5,3,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,2,2,1,30,5,6,16,2,0,0,0,8,12,0,3,2,74,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3531264050134722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452444707572904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462357535729733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017952248163687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14798880369460013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949588758759213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473769688068218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623037740448271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679183849146359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38556520625014096,0.2306753162413549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4416932920009177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183638875594092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294821247429123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524890595522275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12874261570434675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,klukluxkafka,2019/01/03,"Masturbation and schizophrenia So I've noticed something about myself. When I was younger I used to masturbate a lot, probably more than other kids. I did this at a young age too, before puberty. I think that the reason why I did this was because even back then my young brain was more stressed out than that of the typical youngster's. So I would compulsively masturbate to take my mind off the stressors of life. It was not a healthy way to deal with stress, however. The healthier thing would have been to accept the fact that, due to the cards with which I was dealt, my brain is more stressed out than the average person, but also to realize that abstaining from short gratifying releases of pressures are no way of dealing with life's problems. The same tendency towards compulsive masturbation would also lead me later in life to alcohol problems and other behavioral problems. In short, I need to build up my willpower. I've taken up weightlifting, and this has tremendously helped with building my tolerance levels for stress and also has made me healthier in general. But I still have problems with masturbation. I did it twice today. I should also say that I am religious, and I have a really really strong faith. I know the Catholic Church's opinion on masturbation, which is that it is a mortal sin. I don't know whether I would be damned for masturbating, but I do know that it is not very spiritually helpful to my soul to be lusting after women so much and also having the consequent fears for my damnation. I was reading a book today about the Catholic Saint John Vianney, and in this biography by one Fr. Tronchu, it states how this priest would lecture his 19th-century French parish on the evils of dancing and drinking, and how it could lead to damnation. The book also talks a lot about John Vianney's own personal fear for his damnation. I know a lot of people here aren't religious, but I am, and as I said my faith is very strong. Very strong. I used to be an atheist. I want to direct my life in such a way that it would be more pleasing to God, and to avoid the tragedy of personal damnation, at the very least. This is really troubling my soul. I am in fear for my soul. Pray for me. &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; ",6.668581560283688,7.6092959054373575,6.392813238770689,77.13333333333334,65.12293144208039,9.76548463356974,34.815602836879435,9.816601858774405,3.415956028368795,1820,81,324,37,27,569,193,423,0.19699999999999998,0.7070000000000001,0.096,-0.9940000000000001,2,1,3,0,0,0,68.0,0,0,0,5,21,23,2,9,25,0,41,9,2,8,1,64,54,30,1,14,7,0,1,0,0,7,5,2,0,5,26,18,2,2,8,6,0,3,5,17,0,2,13,3,41,6,59,29,11,38,10,0,0,1,14,19,1,4,12,243,67,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05961434590426822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676546531966744,0.0,0.3626407852096671,0.4066898172172555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04289316826179243,0.0,0.034004390400714034,0.0,0.04746665396795507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245430564229962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04453765117466037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11501826494696014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054645446500600964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03684370263699471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18831188779522007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07477943944436884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262603816293287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15760283644016407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14227242561589395,0.0,0.052782589073488116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05632425119006326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04100643068858232,0.041361890618851815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06350855202733477,0.0,0.0,0.03779955022769882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03867244372778078,0.14612093587230973,0.0,0.06123224683458305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06014278607035972,0.2135046236208403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055797425138878524,0.0,0.10720676628257933,0.05735352541229415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05306176952045063,0.04436034747506585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04294396264128179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04454784051407264,0.0,0.2555938805730498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04194136969891053,0.04483572357417865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03705930115707155,0.03574306444685372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10575025209988867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963560452345875,0.0,0.18410505583189565,0.03290186329686886,0.13283225046319824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05033487612120662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23775699905338926,0.0,0.4066898172172555,0.0 schizophrenia,brokenshakashuri,2019/01/03,"Drugs and Schizophrenia I aint gonna lie bro.. i smoke a lot of weed still even tho i am diagnosed with schizophrenia. i do take medications for it (haldol) and everything seems to be okay. marijuana just calms me down, so i smoke or eat edibles to help fall asleep or to relax. ive also been doing LSD and all of my trips seem to help relieve my delusions. im very cautious of which drugs i take and where i get them but idk! drugs dont really have an effect on my schizophrenia.. and hopefully it doesn’t affect it in the future (effect vs affect... i never know when to use them) i kinda feel weird doing recreational drugs for the sole fact that i do have this mental illness.. but like.. f*ck it i guess! im not condoning this btw.. im just sayin.. i like drugs (in a very responsible way) ",0.4835863095238118,2.9165427812500013,2.352678571428573,91.7654166666667,89.9375,5.547619047619048,17.61904761904762,7.07126945348624,0.24840476190476224,615,16,130,10,21,203,101,160,0.03,0.83,0.14,0.9402,0,0,7,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,2,2,9,8,0,0,5,1,13,10,1,5,3,30,24,13,0,1,8,1,1,2,0,1,8,0,0,0,8,6,1,0,6,1,0,2,5,1,0,0,1,1,19,7,15,21,2,12,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,8,6,81,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605626772458307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219146352612797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14077439195178915,0.0,0.6964788360636803,0.12290807397929107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07933511012484201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795200536318963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060733971579393274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06275535573682002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13232069048912856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102168454253032,0.0,0.0,0.1193017265757415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3892358360254862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06601230024083501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11736466580487295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021178450781064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12100366114547614,0.12104810419478793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264042618523344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769490215913362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21869715648843294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09592433930511526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806237129114552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10374116759107303,0.0,0.1982156221223239,0.0,0.09534203915802038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,astorysofar,2019/01/03,The haldol bop. Help. Side effects. Just started haldol 3x a day and am feeling very VERY restless. Called the six they are out until Monday. Is there a trick to starting still somehow?,1.6286274509803889,4.226683235294118,1.8905882352941177,91.60098039215687,99.0,2.266666666666667,23.31372549019608,3.1291,0.05305490196078422,146,6,24,0,6,44,30,34,0.125,0.7609999999999999,0.114,-0.1038,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,4,2,1,1,4,0,3,0,0,1,0,6,6,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,3,6,0,8,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,6,17,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3721526035611178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350454086464856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18428103275264715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442886703389609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5159308246764682,0.0,0.2910568147211323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6014324208101657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,takemetovenus,2019/01/03,How does one of the schizophrenic symptom (extreme reaction to criticism) look like? I was reading upon the symptoms of schizophrenia and got confused by this symptom. What does it look like? Is it a minor criticism or is it a extreme reaction to defending delusions?,6.436521739130434,9.236124173913042,6.594999999999999,68.26250000000003,68.13043478260869,9.817391304347826,44.10869565217392,10.125756701596842,5.739539130434784,216,15,29,6,4,69,32,46,0.115,0.784,0.10099999999999999,-0.1877,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,4,0,3,4,0,1,0,4,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,1,2,6,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,23,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40515815106086667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851442634981724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22618933038125474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3887877787780836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15686409242216814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315533492112902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7218224346712608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Oceanlover1,2019/01/03,"Am I schizophrenic? Hey there. I've been diagnosed as manic bipolar, but ever since I've been a child I've always had some form of music going through my mind. Recently I've started occasionally hearing a voice in my head that is clearly NOT my normal voice. I've been having visual hallucinations for a few years before this voice. So am I schizophrenic, or could it be something else? 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I'm 99% sure my brother is suffering from schizophrenia or some related disease: When he is out in public he complains about hearing people muttering insults at him, among other symptoms. He is currently holding down a job in our town (UK), and travelling to and from work is really getting to him due to the 'abuse' he is experiencing. He is currently reluctant to go to the doctors about this, and he is flat out refusing the idea of taking any medication (our mum had a bad experience with antidepressants 10 years back). I'm wondering what your views are on this: * If he goes to the doctor and does get diagnosed with schizophrenia, will he be forced to stop his job? * As i understand it, he wont get sectioned or slung in an asylum unless he is a danger (he isn't), but does anyone have any experience of the process in the UK healthcare system when someone is diagnosed? I have no idea of what it will entail. * Finally, what is your opinion of the treatment options? Is it important that he at least tries any medication they would offer? Is it possible to recover without drugs / with counselling only? * I have heard that anti-psychotics are hit-and-miss at best, but from my research on the internet i cant see any other way to cure/alleviate his symptoms. Please offer any advice/experience you have. I'm very worried about the guy and i don't know what to do! Thanks guys!",4.641282467532466,6.545490996212124,5.6719480519480525,76.78863636363639,70.85606060606061,8.967965367965366,31.13203463203463,9.48565724429506,3.0998216450216445,1109,49,197,26,21,366,147,264,0.09300000000000001,0.84,0.067,-0.4452,4,0,1,0,1,0,41.0,2,3,1,2,6,8,2,0,13,0,28,9,0,0,1,31,44,14,0,3,7,2,0,0,0,4,9,2,0,2,14,10,0,3,5,1,0,2,6,5,0,0,2,5,18,3,39,37,4,28,0,1,2,0,34,15,0,7,9,130,32,6,0.0,0.12857030115714166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603776345772926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689632080691898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07587489547020952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08343988996671317,0.09060392130295157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11387782307732218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22027706207053924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221355496395116,0.18992112241091136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12584076675751016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31843995561312394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11887081717371055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700808770161903,0.0,0.06167050589629385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21489009533120126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230217097718235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449962049173308,0.0,0.0,0.2153650524093423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05963597203242312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186311013421865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08046110235989364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08252911636341015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07522933325175389,0.0,0.0,0.2382296363424997,0.0,0.12233223664752622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06951628231104348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08647090615734136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09194281311739244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09072182591317997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10227232993142787,0.22557335798409864,0.0815883604440483,0.0,0.0,0.09990430026399696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07367328443384133,0.0,0.0,0.1129659832186187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08953468712762687,0.0,0.08613266254922393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046027738782726,0.11767784809045152,0.0789988426106631,0.11020033912980616,0.0,0.07708460594761747,0.0,0.0,0.06987889053420662 schizophrenia,operation-casserole,2019/01/03,"To the people that had schizophrenia start later in life, when did you start to realize you had it? I feel like this is around the corner for me but I can't tell for sure. LONG STORY, my apologies for not being brief but I like to go into detail. TL:DR Could always see whether or not small visions in the dark were real or fake since I was young. Psychoactive drugs have caused more paranoia and visions but the effects have not seeped into my daily life. Decently credible tests show that at my worst I could be schizophrenic. I have a feeling it's coming. *Storytime* I myself am a non-schizophrenic at the moment, but I have this really odd feeling that it's coming in soon. Ever since I was young and I'd look into my dark closet across the room or walk to the bathroom late at night and there was darkness around I randomly envisioned creatures or figures in my peripheral vision, but I knew it was my head getting to the best of me. I don't see actual things I believe are real though, I can tell what's fake and if something's not there. Sometimes I look at my closet in the dark now and my head will want to start envisioning the babadook or maybe when I'm curled up in bed I can feel his presence behind me, but when I muster up the courage and turn around I know he's not there. I'm in bed at night right now typing this out and even saying that is making me sweat to be honest. This worst part about this is that recently, within the past 6 months, I have been experimenting with psychoactive drugs. Now now, I am not doing this for a fix or have any inclination to ""get fucked up"". Personally I have always had an interest in these types of drugs, and hold them to a very high degree of respect. I use them to see corners of reality and to be able to learn, not to play. I don't drink at all, or smoke any nicotine products, but I occasionally get high and I've had two LSD trips. Now when I get high the paranoia feels a lot more real, but I only when I'm really high (which only happened once) I may see a dark figure that feels real but I know they aren't. My acid trips were very pleasant and I brought very good things out of them, and I did hit some dark parts but I embrace and flow through those on the wave of the trip just as much as the highs. But like I said I take those things with a lot of respect, and I'm not abusing by any means and take them with good breaks in between. Personally I feel like exploring these substances more but if anything really negative comes of it I can stop myself. This isn't the most credible of sources, but recently I took the Enneagram Test, and I've always been skeptical of any online personality test but this one is very cohesive and well detailed. Definitely not a cheap and inneffective but of course it's not a doctor's level of credibility. Anyway, I scored very highly on Type 5 (alongside 1 and 8 but 5 was my highest), and long story short the unhealthiest level of the type can develop schizophrenia. [Link Here](https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/type-5) Now personally I don't see myself as unhealthy at all, and in fact a lot of the negative aspects of a Type 5 I actually don't have. The weird part is that I have always thought about very negative things, like envisioning my own suicide (which actually came up very heavily on my first LSD trip but I got through it and become one with the universe lol), but I would never act on them and have no real desire to fulfill that. Those thoughts just, intrigue me, I guess. All in all though, the test results don't help with the feelings I am having now. That's about it, I'm sorry this was so long but hopefully I can get some advice.",4.237269239802711,5.5578171659751066,5.006537226963129,83.46521647224615,70.97786998616874,8.00155536417965,26.504579973381357,8.451235370850725,1.6775616221717686,2893,93,581,46,53,936,294,723,0.114,0.77,0.11599999999999999,-0.3099,0,0,6,0,0,1,79.0,0,2,6,3,31,25,2,0,37,1,59,12,3,5,8,136,113,63,1,8,41,0,8,5,0,3,7,2,5,4,38,40,1,2,21,3,1,16,23,7,1,4,24,18,74,18,85,79,21,101,0,0,7,1,20,50,1,19,39,410,112,11,0.05413768110200902,0.06414429944675479,0.15849170190352552,0.0,0.0,0.05290271540690815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18018755022432836,0.0,0.0,0.14726191843821956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04455069871757439,0.1445820421071295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597908153955821,0.0,0.06099462763895234,0.056814156287060776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061919084737890685,0.0,0.055614311402361234,0.0,0.1399044557744778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644906627349935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05541221061787497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053034317049516486,0.18834756750636852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035757427783246226,0.04897063199750335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052957040324302825,0.0,0.0,0.2189891057638924,0.07735194039299081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04604948388912166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05004941381583617,0.14142351962706987,0.0,0.030767691773622305,0.09081623672696526,0.04329884914856479,0.0,0.059638759269998724,0.0,0.04787377260606908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112175906407462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0362873464693363,0.34319659469532243,0.0,0.05377093276527622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05950530742197861,0.0,0.06106966235447479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07647809040757705,0.13224468193271224,0.0,0.0,0.14373043248541556,0.09092403440457658,0.0,0.0,0.1380777614733936,0.0,0.0,0.036137322521574304,0.0,0.05438857726588156,0.0589718057251437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04321218055201818,0.0,0.03979742477140123,0.0,0.041754317148043854,0.0,0.0,0.10160909265428113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05765486351086685,0.07337018761784135,0.08234829203083965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758774988648963,0.05168054241817073,0.03753225150637493,0.18908373980227652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081026667041703,0.10404595436549684,0.0,0.10690885773944267,0.0,0.0,0.046233283857851686,0.051497332132239074,0.0430524569397285,0.0,0.0,0.21570361304550156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956649850188379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041677831840120166,0.05354355090680826,0.0606027016764652,0.11495678798735222,0.0,0.0,0.04526152552617034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05921783622439328,0.0,0.05102412374550478,0.0,0.08140959734233456,0.0,0.09463743899608372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14386667896846858,0.0,0.10637999362140678,0.08595854311466825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06014895568795356,0.0,0.058886251012510674,0.052884647923929634,0.0,0.0,0.046757574325542985,0.0,0.3126847966605148,0.03193180697291592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048676276984831984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038457855368914,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,adrenalineparty,2019/01/03,"Weird episode Hi everyone. I wanted to start this off by saying that just recently I’m on my road to getting help for any mental disorders i might have, and i wanted to come and post to some communities and kind of branch out and speak to people who might have similar sort of experiences. I had an “episode” if you will yesterday. I’m not sure if it’s related to schizophrenia, but that’s kind of what I’m picking up if I’m being honest. Just wanted to see someone’s input... Yesterday night, i was lying down on my couch, and for some prefix, my dining table is behind my couch. Anyways. I was lying down, and usually my mind runs at 800 miles a second, but suddenly it sort of stopped. I picture my mind as a container, with 80 different thumbtacks in it. At this point it felt like there was only one thumbtack. My mind went completely empty and i was immensely scared. I had the urge to look over my couch.. and i saw a man of sorts sitting at my dining table. I immediately ducked down, and i was like i can’t think right because he’s controlling my thoughts. A little after this i felt really giggly, and i started taking peaks over the couch of the man. Every time he would look at me I’d laugh and go back down to where i couldn’t see him. Eventually, i was sick of not being able to think properly, so i started yelling out in my living room and calling my mom’s name out loud. I started getting immensely frustrated and trying to tell on the man, saying it wasn’t fair he could control me like that. Then, i started crying really hard begging him to stop and kicking my feet all around. Eventually i felt my mind start flooding with thoughts again, and i started crying even harder. I looked over my couch, and no one was there. I got up to go with my mom and she said she didn’t hear me yelling. I have no idea what the hell that was, but it was really scary and I’m immensely worried of something like that happening again. 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The tasks I perform are not mine but done mechanically. ,1.829901960784316,3.5515265000000014,4.447647058823531,83.36107843137258,78.11764705882355,5.7098039215686285,20.15686274509804,6.42735559955562,0.232874509803922,127,3,26,1,3,45,27,34,0.10800000000000001,0.8290000000000001,0.063,-0.0644,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,7,9,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,5,1,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48790183923138897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7232085987426812,0.3406050008835105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26202064465435354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329260250108093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ozmanda,2019/01/03,Menopause & Schizophrenia Periodically I scan the web for schizophrenia news and info to see if anything new pops up. I recently read that women with schizophrenia may worsen when they reach menopause due to the loss of estrogen. I've been relatively stable for the last 4 years. I hate the thought that my stability and that of others may be at risk due to menopause. Are there any women on here who have gone through menopause who can speak to this information?,6.7650000000000015,8.545148357142857,5.603333333333335,79.82500000000002,65.42857142857143,8.457142857142857,33.04761904761905,8.841846274778883,2.6712761904761897,378,16,68,6,6,112,61,84,0.13,0.8320000000000001,0.038,-0.8442,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,3,3,1,1,4,0,7,1,0,0,0,10,11,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,7,3,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,3,5,0,13,5,0,12,0,1,2,0,7,3,0,3,8,42,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3707443760738803,0.0,0.232689419763012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815792798184459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378250642081437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789167195413936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3304728811598525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34226566475718817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33785462445070225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726676337923707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27164719478263816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22034823712068333 schizophrenia,mjcollins79,2019/01/03,Do you like any songs about schizophrenia? IMO lyrically frayed ends of sanity by Metallica is pretty good and accurate ,5.217833333333335,8.866366450000006,4.710000000000001,73.16833333333331,84.5,10.666666666666668,26.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,4.414666666666667,99,4,14,4,3,30,20,20,0.0,0.664,0.336,0.8225,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3787258707332448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.493267345320106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4671195200484343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27208382368490885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5665896114092815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Invisible421,2019/01/03,"Living with it. I've been living with this mental disorder for about 10 years now. Luckily I was able to finish school and start a great job at a company. I never doubted I would make it this far, but I really struggled to get where I am. I've been hospitalized 4-5 times and just recently had a really bad experience with it back in May of 2018. My hallucinations are menacing to say the least. They weren't always as evil as they are now and it's only been getting worse as the years pass on. I have no friends and only a few family members who still support me. I like to think I act normal enough but being lonely sucks (never had a GF or anything like that)! Anyway. I take medication for it and it helps a little, but no meds have been able to make the voices go away. They do make it more tolerable than if I'm not on them. Before I typed this I heard my computer ask me if I really believe I'm hallucinating. It's so hard to just ignore it. I've heard my fried chicken (while I was cooking it in the oil) threaten me in disgusting ways. I guess I'm looking for somewhere to help cope as no one really gives me the time of day to relieve some of this stress. My parents don't want to hear about it they just tell me to see a doctor who, quite frankly, doesn't seem to want to hear what's going on either. He just wants to prescribe medicine and hope it goes away. I've tried like three different medications and they all don't seem to work. The latest one I'm on helps a lot, but I still hear things ALL THE TIME. The worst part is I believe they aren't hallucinations and real. I've been seeing things too, but only on rare occasions. I can't complain too much though as life is good. I have a great job, a reliable car, a roof over my head and a very supportive brother and sister-in-law. Working hard really paid off. I just want to let you guys know that living with it can be tolerable and possible. I just discovered this subreddit today. Thanks for reading. 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Was it difficult to detect it in yourself or did you know that something weird was going on while in the prodomal phase? Did you feel normal during this time or did something feel off? Was there a sort of ""fogginess"" in your brain during this time?",5.872352941176473,7.6183062352941215,4.811058823529415,84.79276470588236,67.52941176470588,7.792941176470588,26.835294117647056,8.238735603445708,1.7050964705882357,296,9,53,4,5,87,45,68,0.153,0.847,0.0,-0.8796,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,5,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,7,1,1,2,0,14,12,5,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,8,2,5,0,8,4,0,11,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,3,5,36,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840177130686984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26136020662306403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572855641264888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164101707035664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14459318251897393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13982299745166818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407390772164946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492783287132395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5875965987887409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967095853487485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583766343062619,0.0,0.0,0.2781691642715611,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Flame1213,2019/01/03,Anyone else like instrumental music? I feel like my inner monologue is always always always talking and going on about whatever and when I put on instrumental music it’s like the voice matches the song and it becomes all cinematic and poetic ,4.667441860465118,7.9702180697674425,6.424465116279071,64.31995348837211,77.6046511627907,8.091162790697675,27.20465116279069,8.841846274778883,3.2487339534883724,199,8,26,5,5,68,30,43,0.0,0.831,0.16899999999999998,0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,3,3,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6537142035639566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18311224531083034,0.2683265097580878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892253485741305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21876673044513992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13241415096418566,0.1870867772502497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488321629195384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838233077372269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26326124334970186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104888336715076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ls4man,2019/01/03,"Trying to help my Schizoaffective brother find a job in Florida. Need ideas I'm trying to get my brother to move in with me this summer. He's not happy with his place in New England and wants to move down to Florida with me. Right now he is doing janitorial work and isn't too sure what he wants to do once he's down here. He does like being around people. I'm trying to give him something to look forward to because I believe he's also suicidal. Can I ask what kinds of jobs have been a good fit for other members in this subreddit? I'm just looking for ideas. &#x200B; Thank you!",3.5065732959850604,4.838569890756304,4.738095238095241,84.64301587301587,72.78151260504202,7.305695611577962,26.66760037348273,7.793537801064563,1.499705135387488,463,16,93,6,9,153,77,119,0.077,0.8140000000000001,0.109,0.4464,2,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,6,6,0,0,2,0,8,0,0,0,1,15,20,3,1,3,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,3,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,2,9,6,22,18,0,16,0,0,2,0,14,11,0,0,5,54,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11872969261718624,0.0,0.16086486240446882,0.18040469841285905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13216787087262016,0.13879740579318967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050462837150644,0.0,0.0,0.16727243478277887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12992522327781586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356969327351739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07756832816030752,0.14242389818876858,0.0,0.12452779550561108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15804679587519396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09951487582909382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3352042808301449,0.0,0.0,0.2946628807298448,0.0,0.0,0.15460642753684126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07253389614869005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493512167195175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155956744056759,0.0,0.11008703567653068,0.0,0.14339118267729095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15811342358900812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10292891907649963,0.0,0.1551173121175315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267907397465183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11429781077820625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16239973963700785,0.0,0.1399291993729267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13668925660759498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023997902339778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17514037895240125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10808636906296792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18040469841285905,0.0 schizophrenia,Perrierchicken,2019/01/03,"I’m making a go fund me, making a business after being homeless My credit is 419 but I’m a graduate of uc Berkeley and I’ve been on meds for 5 months. I have absolutely no more symptoms. I want to make a go fund me to help me start a business, will you guys help me out? Because I was ill I wasn’t paying my student loans so my credit is shit and I can’t take out a loan. The business is in a field I know. I’m 27, female, college grad (almost 3 classes, do you guys think anyone will help me?",-0.5113608562691141,1.386500302752296,2.458922018348624,93.61174694189604,87.25688073394495,4.367278287461774,20.09250764525994,5.46131890053228,-0.18333088685015264,379,12,87,2,12,134,68,109,0.109,0.725,0.166,0.6414,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,0,8,0,12,3,1,3,0,12,25,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,2,0,7,2,3,1,0,0,3,0,16,2,9,19,1,9,0,0,0,0,7,4,1,1,3,51,16,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217162586128096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15163957443188794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322010916440932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465028573985965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42946803951045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4360873733030368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11918531635248453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43428444319991216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408921359806505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731024553104213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226125114936948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15350071824660433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22540952310972706,0.16305820495250034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13896064840144925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279147249432665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cashley_bills,2018/11/17,"Is it schizophrenia? Hi. I have recently been having problems hearing people talking and thinking that it somehow pertains to me no matter what the context. I feel like they know things about me they have no way of knowing. I'm hearing people call me names but I don't know if it's really them or just a combination of noises. I'm also suspicious of family members and my boyfriend and just generally believe people are out to harm me. I have a history of bipolar disorder but I don't know if perhaps it has evolved into schizophrenia or if that even happens. I was taking abilify that I got from the emergency room after a suicide attempt, but it made me very anxious and scared to leave my house so I stopped taking it. I am calling doctors to find some help because my bf says he will leave me if I don't. I guess ultimately what I'm looking for in this post is to see if these symptoms line up with schizophrenia or not until I go to see the doctor. 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Short*** I did not know I was schizophrenic until about a year or so ago; i knew i had this condition but never seeked medical attention (or ever told anyone) but I learned from my job that there is a name for ""the thing when you hear voices in your head and have cloudy judgement."" I'm a full-time college student and I work part time in a pharmacy as a pharmacy technician. After learning about the term and seeing the medications people take for this, I got scared to say the least. I seen them change in front of my very own eyes as they came over the months to pick up their refills for the general medications for this purpose such as Seroquel, Abilify and more. By change I mean that I saw them become more bi-polar and honestly dependent on these drugs and I feel bad and also helpless because i was thinking about seeing a doctor. Long story short, I slowly realized how having schizophrenia is not my weakness but rather it's my strength since they voices in my head are my harshest critics and they also made me do things in the past that I regret but honestly i grew from that. Now that I look back at it, all that needed to happen to make me who I am today. I just want all of you to know that there is a reason for everything and to see this as something very positively. It's our strength rather than our weakness. ❤️",4.070941837989807,5.686221151291517,4.769794412229839,83.85031980319806,71.80442804428043,7.9663328061852035,26.92690212616413,8.563005593585519,1.8878422421367067,1096,38,213,19,21,352,158,271,0.08800000000000001,0.8059999999999999,0.107,0.6626,1,0,2,0,0,0,24.0,2,3,6,3,17,10,0,1,15,0,12,12,3,6,4,46,35,26,0,5,11,0,1,0,0,0,9,4,0,0,18,10,0,0,11,0,1,3,3,6,0,1,11,12,39,4,37,24,8,29,0,2,7,0,16,11,0,3,15,161,57,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11091904077784984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001307488670205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749289489816874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09621624488482793,0.10447723604487233,0.07627729278437942,0.13819481587223986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431138956329183,0.0,0.0,0.2647391416263859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12807452436878505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14510956373103254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11318607092523846,0.0,0.0,0.11245760524954608,0.12239987677599995,0.0,0.0,0.06326882931108113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10007685036534776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106508942323948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568362871731947,0.0,0.14102913651229745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241709249048482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375349198400291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11073495999424607,0.10507659169530324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839979935624725,0.08352437743061303,0.0,0.0,0.13630183465338566,0.0,0.3781619965205728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09987653279713228,0.0,0.0,0.09278134392855897,0.0965069656931186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13550218602917355,0.11944950067003605,0.08674848389134575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286531415072227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09950736279928588,0.12527565538889798,0.0,0.29913411507014714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10350775187541307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963301848117154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09408120829698867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662598935861577,0.0801774170833645,0.0,0.0,0.072963549953244,0.0,0.11860737461236427,0.11956583303311012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222325558526452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20648856046657946,0.07380414794303138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09109518228365124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080578778886232 schizophrenia,Babu1001,2018/11/17,"Doubts about my pills I'm (19F) and I got prescribed this pills, Zyprexa (olanzapine). Did somebody used it? How did it went?",1.1041304347826078,3.5955688695652204,1.0177173913043518,98.00744565217391,99.43478260869566,4.039130434782609,23.14130434782609,5.985473137389443,0.33987826086956474,96,4,20,1,4,28,19,23,0.113,0.887,0.0,-0.3736,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,4,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,10,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5337930033034713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5764325499917862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6187006909113866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ArseneMcMahon,2018/11/17,"Question about schizophrenia in India In India, where people aren't really aware of various mental illnesses, I see tens of homeless mentally-ill persons, wearing dirty clothes and carrying huge trash bags all the time. On Reddit, however, I see people who can frame proper sentences, leading normal lives and being very much aware of their condition. Is it due to better medical facilities or am I not reading about the homeless mentally ill in the western countries?",11.219936708860764,11.132790455696204,10.18591772151899,57.211534810126636,55.83544303797469,12.963291139240505,46.33227848101266,12.161744961471696,6.337453164556964,382,21,48,10,4,121,62,79,0.107,0.816,0.077,-0.5423,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,0,3,0,5,4,1,1,1,8,7,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,4,1,10,6,3,9,0,0,2,0,4,6,0,2,2,33,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21418135907931604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21384221792532726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439627039790427,0.4881046165271574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780242056867726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23727703674754524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357829960324499,0.21145515557814493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27128794330859096,0.0,0.2422374277135463,0.0,0.15514151553972186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859592885395667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14121237804657336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19981717365441126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sleepycranky,2018/11/17,"Meds I’m getting very frustrated. I was diagnosed sometime in September after joining the maladaptive daydreaming sub and describing my symptoms to my doctor I was on abilify then was out on risperidone and now on geodone none seem to be working. When will the pacing back and forth stop? I’m getting sick of living like this! 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I have a few questions and am not really sure where to go. I work in a nursing home and have a few schizophrenic residents. One hasn’t left her room in a year except to be weighed. Another frequently thinks her daughter has been abducted. Then there is the last one. I will try my best to describe the situation. All day long she tried to get people to help her. She wants to be pushed in the wheelchair even though she gets around quite well. She whispers so you will get close to her and then she will act like she can’t speak until you try leaving because she just stares at you. She cries the second anyone walks away or passes her. At first I thought, this poor woman. Everyone ignores her and she needs help. But then one day I caught her standing up and taking all her clothes off so she could sit in her doorway wearing only a hospital gown and beg for people to help her. She spoke at normal volume and understood what was going on. Once I left she went back to begging and whispering to people. She definitely has some dementia, but a lot of this I just don’t know what to think. Why does she always need someone tending to her? Is part of the disease? Something else? Even if I sit with her all day and do everything she asks, she is upset when I have to go. She sits at the front of the building and begs anyone coming in. It freaks out visitors. I have not been around people with schizophrenia so I know basically nothing about handing these situations. I guess my question is what do I do here. How do I interact with her?",2.321341991341992,4.853981090909095,3.1448051948051976,89.13958874458878,80.62337662337663,6.3307359307359325,23.943722943722943,7.5764669431780325,1.2252411255411249,1248,45,246,20,33,394,168,308,0.051,0.904,0.045,-0.4525,0,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,3,0,4,19,7,0,1,14,0,27,4,2,1,4,50,50,25,0,6,9,1,1,1,0,3,1,4,2,1,7,19,1,1,8,0,1,11,5,3,1,5,8,6,49,4,39,36,9,50,0,0,1,0,45,21,0,7,15,185,56,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08728559153851866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099972855772068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14669769048398948,0.0,0.0,0.1867673107708253,0.09806777566593597,0.0,0.09855744139951048,0.08066198362777942,0.0,0.06394635073432542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11008656775907248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09036246337734707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08375448668058079,0.0,0.11522823671617195,0.20295636810204407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09179910515575836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876308792362816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13857153758162846,0.0,0.0,0.20047378232445107,0.09427777527917798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922828322603556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16441849243510834,0.0,0.17885205765161727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11555969044530155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21093771448666146,0.0,0.10522372097201686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11530110602075408,0.08550788108542184,0.0,0.11107444760375906,0.22794932759817724,0.0,0.0,0.051249069210161376,0.0,0.0,0.09283361183727888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08918262535167755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555647334582045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278018470308048,0.10065482679876517,0.0,0.0,0.11171557325360884,0.21324981286029088,0.07978153177786028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11359698275584043,0.0,0.29089910111350864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350250601843313,0.11157455858835927,0.0,0.0,0.06720192497706334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23582503903178334,0.0,0.0,0.0888818248600961,0.080757504093457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988674482408195,0.0,0.07887209579231935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13443196649042774,0.10306417573853716,0.08327925291411233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136615927410001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061873013025701126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943181174331808,0.09724378340872468,0.094656354802582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07636878897871155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755246113634822 schizophrenia,GhostDog__,2018/11/17,"I have to confess something that I'm really worried about. I've been thinking about posting this for a few days but I'm really scared about how people will react. But I have to tell someone what's going on in my head right now. I've been diagnosed for 3 years. I've never been violent in my whole life. Here goes. I recently came out of the hospital. I came across a video on YouTube of a police interrogation interviewing a 16 year old boy about how he and his brother killed their whole family including younger siblings. From there I looked at other kids who had killed people. Then I went onto school shooters. One thing that got me was how a lot of these kids craved the spotlight for their crimes. They seemed to get an adrenaline rush from it and they made a name for themselves because of how the media portrayed them. I had a hard time growing up. Nobody really noticed that I was struggling a lot. I got abused and bullied for most of my life. A part of me also wants to be in the spotlight but I don't think I could take a life. I have far too much empathy. But I'm worried about my obsession with these cases. I don't know if it's normal to fantasise about doing something similar. Sometimes I feel like I want to go out on the street with a weapon, not to hurt anyone but to scare people & get a taste of the spotlight. Guns are illegal where I live. I don't want to go to jail but I want to commit crimes. I'd get an adrenaline rush if the police were searching for me. Even if it was breaking in somewhere, stealing, threatening. I don't know where these urges come from. Sometimes I just feel like creating a bit of chaos. I don't know what to do now because I 100% can't tell anyone. I know I haven't made any plans to commit a crime it's all in my head at the moment just playing out a fantasy but I have a strong fear that one day it'll be out of my control. I don't want to give this community a bad name or reinforce the idea that people with this condition are violent so I'm sorry if I've done that. I don't want to upset anyone. Because of the person I am it's highly unlikely that I'll ever follow through with something like this but it's still in my head.",2.25,4.108644388888892,3.6655000000000015,88.82025000000004,77.33333333333333,6.811111111111113,23.916666666666664,7.734863291789972,1.1290666666666658,1725,57,363,26,40,567,207,450,0.175,0.722,0.10400000000000001,-0.9926,0,0,3,2,1,0,37.0,0,0,5,3,24,19,5,6,29,0,33,8,3,8,5,67,70,23,2,12,16,1,3,3,0,2,4,0,0,4,26,14,1,1,11,3,0,11,11,14,0,2,17,5,44,5,63,48,10,51,1,1,1,0,20,24,0,9,17,242,70,2,0.0,0.09685068451850301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06536890010118637,0.0,0.08856722264255802,0.0,0.0555872373978008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17146733338700282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06825100135315358,0.1494871555792008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08924089127879191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18698172069372573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07041333589949705,0.0,0.0,0.09168039642002296,0.06526418806338243,0.0,0.0,0.10543341697413826,0.0,0.0,0.0829662217994714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08365025712501667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053989698029253984,0.07394015167628208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07705890855682132,0.09198226770304856,0.08266223568679433,0.11679273825594208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12812017405475573,0.07841419755663971,0.1393672719960024,0.0,0.13075279378124255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322461071087415,0.0,0.2516720547986344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08636471571998967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08750630382046562,0.09227655973862088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808704149731128,0.0,0.1796926556532579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732099844536504,0.11980476593789854,0.0,0.07217952042122983,0.0,0.06864253758494106,0.0,0.0,0.13898793637493762,0.0,0.15469216399648325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06008963952257865,0.0,0.06304432712290392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08008962348767285,0.0,0.09306359841228633,0.0857742846229957,0.0,0.11078073897957948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885184202045732,0.0,0.2266779296844862,0.07137380012377502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07828606345873998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15709769985162894,0.0,0.08071018112647049,0.0,0.0,0.06980706357059964,0.0,0.0,0.1636756340260116,0.08272708099273418,0.0,0.07441467857098102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06925957477608059,0.18878652870688956,0.16168949077634834,0.0915032698409684,0.0,0.0,0.06527911922715296,0.0,0.0,0.08545429332175446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061459672153140216,0.0,0.1428918988421892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05430562987544185,0.1047537092098952,0.0,0.0,0.04766430980669259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28928064285495064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0757754816477591,0.0,0.18252363505553598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16602556240181984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10527809798562522 schizophrenia,mammothbeaver,2018/11/17,"I get downvoted on this sub out of nowhere way more often than any other sub Even tho damn I got some shit to share, so I. But I’m scared to post because the comment section is wiiild.",-0.018461538461536968,2.2669394615384637,1.9750769230769265,94.79492307692308,90.28205128205127,5.171282051282052,20.620512820512825,6.742157984588678,0.4012112820512823,145,5,32,2,5,48,35,39,0.212,0.737,0.051,-0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,2,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,6,3,3,5,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,2,0,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28270474216042457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25341984810818696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745800002876791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171972228834637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33249030337801755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39814609289673614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4162095481030173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4267319441021787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299802205888636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WithinGlass,2018/11/17,"Should I believe? Recently an online friend of mine looked up schizophrenia. She knew I had it for a long time but never understood what it was. Apparently it made her cry. She said to me that she ""can't imagine what that's like"" and stuff like that. But later literally the same day she claims that she hears a voice. She named it. We're in the original character/arty community and she seems to be making a character of it. She draws it as a furry and suddenly has all these stories about it. I don't believe it at all. I've started talking to her less because it irritates me when she talks about it. Part of me wonders if I'm being too harsh because I had a friend fake schizophrenia before(they admitted it to me in the end and we're no longer friends). Would you believe it? 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I don’t know if this is a documented symptom of schizophrenia, but I had a lot of “fake memories” where I thought I remembered something that didn’t actually happen. Either I would get actual imagined pictures in my mind or think something may have happened and “they” just made me forget or it was so traumatic I can’t remember. I got into a lot of speculation about how the mind works. These “fake memories” were some of the most disturbing symptoms I had and I was wondering if other people got them too.",5.790127298444131,7.123405099009903,6.744073550212164,72.40980198019803,67.31683168316832,10.523903818953325,34.23055162659123,10.608840637214634,4.008942291371993,429,20,74,12,7,143,71,101,0.23199999999999998,0.768,0.0,-0.9781,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,1,6,4,0,1,5,0,12,2,0,2,0,28,23,9,0,3,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,7,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,10,0,13,0,7,11,5,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,10,0,59,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.3228379659086635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156604408597736,0.16948490998132718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13818112735052346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284266946356105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26459137388437204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2925478971370698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09090652149997804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812560097211022,0.0,0.1565175435924331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33403944731388274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146763734640128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747608009935409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25468563261951616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3438543653862952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059898111458417,0.0,0.13131924674124384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17938307137325804,0.12042245207900952,0.0,0.0,0.1175044716984668,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lycras_,2019/06/11,"When I was much younger I had experiences I now see as a sign of schizophrenia. Should I be worried? There are four times I remember that could be signs of schizophrenia. They all happened when I was young probably 10 years and younger. The first time was when I was sitting by myself and suddenly I thought everyone could read my mind and was plotting something against me. I remember not really being freaked out about it was kind of like a game but I believed it. I actually asked my mom about this and she didn’t react as much as I now think she should have and even when asking I knew it wasn’t normal. The second time was when I was in the shower. I remember hearing sound effects from a online game I was currently playing and voices saying my name. The voices were people from my school and while they didn’t say any sentences the tone of their voice still conveyed anger and desperation. I knew they weren’t real but I still heard them like I heard any other noise. This happened multiple times and it was always the same sounds and always in the shower. The third time was when I was jumping in my bed and I suddenly thought I saw my lamp looking at me. I saw it while in the air and when I went back on the ground it was gone. I was freaked out at first but after a few minutes I just walked away and did something else. The fourth time was one time when I was showering I suddenly thought someone was secretly looking at me and was turning invisible every time I moved my head in their direction. I don’t remember if this was like a game or if I genuinely believed it so it’s probably the weakest of these. All of this eventually stopped but I don’t remember a specific point when it did. If I have to guess it stopped sometime quickly after I turned 10 and after that I haven’t experienced anything similar. I looked up “I heard voices in my head when I was younger” and apparently it’s not a sign of mental illness but I want to hear from people here to be sure.",3.3974551638837336,5.287832561224491,4.214155844155844,86.00660173160175,74.15306122448979,7.506617192331477,28.205318491032767,8.296473431620573,1.9421282312925159,1572,64,314,27,33,504,171,392,0.064,0.883,0.053,-0.8417,6,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,6,3,23,9,1,0,19,0,42,3,2,2,3,63,69,41,0,9,12,1,0,3,0,2,1,13,4,0,19,18,0,2,13,5,0,5,9,3,0,6,40,20,59,6,37,21,6,62,0,0,6,0,23,17,0,5,42,238,78,2,0.0,0.0,0.08000969376168607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13644326996273093,0.0,0.0,0.11151102097609172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06747017765192496,0.0,0.15329778665619753,0.0,0.07703161167083993,0.06304468248346404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847476462132215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309235102302702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06849150874707105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054153135065416885,0.0,0.06907949038965605,0.07834425453275977,0.0,0.08020123188755686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13948005073836728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09032041693433362,0.0,0.14500566929717526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16828927583328648,0.0,0.18481571678416056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537920074505627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016743764338708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065509946206472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08262589319606191,0.0,0.08278578329126256,0.09602483410059204,0.0,0.0871416113438518,0.1205430844727167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08033206993890388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05555804662361024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11368206334384152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07750635496864308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17679658580288254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08201145063021396,0.09332173122286784,0.0525244214425373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4643892616065565,0.0,0.0,0.1304023057635889,0.0,0.08297751152710267,0.06533482756175481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06946923661973774,0.12623868084433335,0.0810894777363423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309534629567297,0.13709339049459995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772739102357775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0525354092587545,0.0,0.19527095000508285,0.3824687895624986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17836154904132373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04835939168693052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07600486837497539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08326407660389151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05279839735866488 schizophrenia,IShitMoreThanNormal,2019/06/11,"How to help schizophrenic person without admitting to mental health facilities. Hello, I would like to receive some advices regarding the problem. Our mother is diagnosed with schizophrenia. We have been struggling for ~10 years. Our relationship is fucked up, but we are trying. She was admitted to hospital where we found out horrible conditions. High doses of drugs and no activities. Where we live mental health system is poorly developed and hospital is not an option. I have not found private facilities. Hospitals in another country is also questionable due to language barrier. We had admitted her to a day-care center, which was better. However, it was temporar, for 2 months and we can not have her enter again as waiting lines are large and others are getting it first. We live in a small town, where psychologist are the ones that work in those hospitals from where we tried to get our mother out. In a bigger city it would be possible, but travelling would be an issue. How can we help her? I have not had healthy mom-daughter relationship since I was 6. We are trying force ourselves with communication, but it is hard, especially when she is calling us. It feels like our words stuck in our mouth and those times that we express our view on her, she begins shouting. The one time when she was listening was when I lost control and shouted on her. Mainly I am asking how to start communicating. Our father have been working abroad for ~30 years. He does not remember healthy relationship either. I suppose he shares some blame for her condition, for not supporting her, but those were hard times and I do not blame him. So far, he is the most hated by our mom.",5.511162790697672,7.859258415282394,5.805932225913622,74.88150963455152,69.4983388704319,9.33427242524917,30.64465116279069,9.791249743138472,3.3250647441860472,1337,56,222,34,25,426,166,301,0.147,0.792,0.061,-0.9804,1,0,1,0,0,0,41.0,20,0,0,6,13,10,2,1,9,0,38,8,1,4,0,58,56,20,0,4,13,4,3,2,0,3,6,3,0,1,12,22,0,3,8,1,1,3,9,5,0,3,15,7,40,5,30,36,5,38,0,1,1,1,56,20,1,5,16,169,52,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105508156102661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634448795517914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132171627358164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009384482394038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954917061225108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025061388918468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12109882332670688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06963245815598204,0.0,0.0,0.10958844232903296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09448627911937728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12521225297648558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054593456540941984,0.07713460962309783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184020323436888,0.0,0.23676958138810816,0.0,0.09981758639629994,0.1128209368508307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19344188162141054,0.10659915520119836,0.0,0.2295365624877027,0.0,0.0,0.1447415689871424,0.11407744576846232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269382660763635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10549849804708784,0.0,0.19068100341215244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11786326238668032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21761904396727375,0.0,0.0,0.2529090069199141,0.08618154013741518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14632808824504828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09427624169235194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217212462778896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10331380670444716,0.0,0.0,0.12095239598984367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3477618172649779,0.1223102628369574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931484927398932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07642253419784605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11287488681952995,0.0,0.0,0.1225243791045405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888765338391185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21991596600602045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12987599676952696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10408033360228017,0.0,0.15720856318170182,0.0,0.0,0.2300988168429868,0.0,0.0,0.1390597585303261 schizophrenia,Joannedreamstar,2019/06/11,"Help, I feel like I don't exist I've been experiencing something that's difficult to explain. I've had this feeling for 4 years now but since the past month it's been more severe. What I'm about to say is going to sound abstract but I can't think of any other way of putting it into words. Okay imagine yourself sitting somewhere And then suddenly you’re not existing Everything you touch doesn’t exist Nothing you’re feeling exists Nothing you see exists And you feel like its one way down the cloud You’re in a place you’re not supposed to be in and that place shouldn’t exist And everything is built up Like you have to physically hold on to them to convince yourself of them being physical And even then when you’re walking, its not happening Its like you’re trapped in imagination Or a computer Like it’s physicality is impossible And you’re going to wake up...anytime now... and maybe its not gonna be you... This sounds irrational but I wear a metallic ring on my finger and it was the only thing that kept me feeling grounded in reality but recently it's losing its effect. Whenever I try explaining this, depersonalization keeps coming up, I know what it is I know it isn't that. If anybody knows what I'm experiencing or how to stop it, please let me know.",3.523066812705366,5.671195437751006,4.841761591821832,80.50849123767799,74.5421686746988,7.740124132895218,28.18565169769989,8.575989854853784,2.224749397590362,1020,42,193,20,22,338,134,249,0.079,0.8009999999999999,0.12,0.7268,0,1,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,5,2,2,6,9,0,0,6,1,18,3,3,2,0,43,40,19,0,2,11,0,7,5,0,2,0,4,0,0,25,10,0,4,15,0,0,5,9,2,0,1,5,14,17,7,24,29,1,32,0,1,1,0,11,13,0,3,16,118,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313194433583744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797187963422745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904553956438944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24616695786551854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3462348145476906,0.19567683711716105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15566576820362873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12110605573471354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09179592843333148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12172908384103236,0.0,0.0,0.3010605884961664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400425304451167,0.0,0.3345387453073245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15321407286560426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13758652621537085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10931364840229417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628179593139497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928021079937435,0.10415804209130833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13073602329183814,0.0,0.0,0.28617103851620856,0.15033198938114653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13767442090601342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13522341544361746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10890959633705853,0.0,0.0,0.10913288158266396,0.0,0.0,0.15471659218745,0.0,0.11328797344620767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054322137355796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144978666735708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098471403585773,0.08775320623771847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298130646733964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21741198468025905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08819249184137358 schizophrenia,SmaccQueen,2019/06/11,"How did your family/close friends treat you after you were diagnosed? I'm new to this subreddit. I only turned 22 a few weeks ago. I had started showing major symptoms of schizophrenia at 16 and I'd say just under a year now I was diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic. While most of my immediate family were understanding, a lot of my extended family have treated me poorly and almost with fear. What have been your experiences?",4.841464737793853,7.329797088607599,6.1380108499095885,71.15721518987344,71.78481012658227,10.083905967450272,30.273056057866178,10.290406445055957,3.850958770343581,346,15,56,11,7,116,61,79,0.065,0.8540000000000001,0.081,0.3046,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,4,0,0,3,4,0,1,4,0,8,4,0,1,0,9,12,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,6,1,10,3,9,6,4,10,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,3,8,42,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979333287483495,0.0,0.2235929251624313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4532697948854254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184207046757974,0.4209963394508546,0.251263602889066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725134886231297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18983338051865434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156551090699409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16982229240981608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775693642472026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15804598397556108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320840598289961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24287566607014302,0.0,0.23245301876296426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17910996508119567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14379159628122326 schizophrenia,Refael_Fleischmann,2019/06/11,"What is your experience with High CBD Cannabis? Hello everyone. My name is Refael and i have been reading this subreddit for quite a while but this is my first post. I am a psychiatric resident and a novice cannabis researcher. I am designing a clinical study to test the effects of medical cannabis on the symptoms of schizophrenia. Not the regular recreational stuff you find on the street but rather a specific brand of a very high CBD low THC vaporised cannabis. Have any of you by chance had experience with high CBD cannabis? How does it effect your symptoms? Any input from you can help the study design and maybe help find a better safer treatment with less side effects in the future.",5.35261818181818,7.937247840000001,4.701018181818182,81.59850909090909,70.6,8.705454545454547,32.163636363636364,9.339509955726095,3.1976400000000007,560,26,97,13,11,168,79,125,0.023,0.84,0.136,0.9397,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,5,0,6,2,2,0,0,13,0,10,4,0,4,0,17,10,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,10,1,14,8,1,13,0,1,0,0,9,9,0,0,3,63,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22848493535102465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14857806453588165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14701369413950366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605265719509442,0.0,0.3286629989125443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070890603303493,0.14289659486906822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22520722533123555,0.5324883213751552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16877371546185058,0.0,0.0,0.1692374468626056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16089292241895162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786835285837234,0.16804061904612774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19231426247129002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3492225849944723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13861359854201089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lil_Trigga_K,2019/06/11,Do I have schizophrenic symptoms? I feel like my brain can never shut off and constantly talks to me. I also have crazy vivid dreams that seem so real even if i take like a 30 minute nap. I sometimes hear things then have no clue where they came from cause i’m all alone. I just can never seem to shut off my brain,1.1108571428571423,3.3563073384615407,1.6468131868131868,99.79461538461538,83.30769230769229,4.945054945054945,15.439560439560445,6.1826913282559595,-0.7964285714285713,247,4,57,2,7,75,48,65,0.10099999999999999,0.7809999999999999,0.11800000000000001,0.2732,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,6,4,2,1,3,12,13,5,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,3,10,2,5,12,1,10,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,3,6,36,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20985755627555114,0.0,0.1620384943891265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4523912237290351,0.0,0.2317480977391389,0.0,0.2081508621958416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21896476968199224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13383136885647448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024528804430976,0.14475476437022627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283721924274183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979838920666033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125525389277744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23063069236019765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689229115811211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004005085246076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21060412053378208,0.15234817667007713,0.16286165152081675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13461451069619668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmno,2019/06/11,"Driving manic I believe I've linked my love of cars and driving to manic episodes. I always go for a drive just to drive when I'm feeling way up or way down. The adrenaline from speeding seems to either nullify or replace the mania the more I look at it. Has anyone else done this or found it to work? I know speeding isn't legal or safe but hey, it's not legal for cops to flip their lights through a red but they do it anyway.",1.2063333333333333,3.2572434111111117,2.7322222222222234,93.285,81.55555555555556,4.888888888888889,22.222222222222207,5.82211442006289,0.19622222222222208,337,11,72,2,9,110,64,90,0.053,0.9,0.046,0.1045,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,1,3,2,0,0,5,0,4,1,0,0,0,16,12,8,0,0,9,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,5,0,0,6,2,0,0,0,2,4,7,2,13,10,2,14,0,0,2,1,4,3,0,5,3,47,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23323830173061635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19599752715882196,0.2872081672881554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31581057287230424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868519015053216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23416095476893786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14173189840887346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073427145105238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15930521655944715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15404967579371245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23538770957946326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529884700232887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551814277879778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4449901054264093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040672043650881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hapibun,2019/06/11,"Would this be offensive? Hi, I read the rules and I saw that questions about writing schizophrenic characters aren’t really allowed, but my question is urgent and I would like to know if my story idea is offensive. I want to write a story about a schizophrenic girl who believes that, inside her head, is a little mouse who is controlling all her emotions and hallucinations. It’s going to be aimed more towards younger kids, like maybe late elementary/middle school, in order to help people realize that schizophrenics aren’t inherently dangerous, that sort of thing. I’m doing tons of research, there’s still a lot more I need to know. I’m not really asking for how to write a schizophrenic character (but if you’d like to give me some tips that would mean a lot to me), I’m just wondering if this idea is offensive in any way, or if there’s anything that I should make sure I don’t say that could be offensive.",10.813054187192119,7.744828022988508,10.041067323481117,67.34637931034484,59.0,14.0807881773399,40.3743842364532,12.28987398476788,4.758355665024631,732,27,135,18,7,235,103,174,0.10300000000000001,0.784,0.113,-0.0644,4,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,1,7,9,5,0,7,0,18,5,1,4,2,41,32,11,0,11,9,0,0,3,0,4,4,1,0,2,13,3,0,1,9,1,0,1,4,5,0,0,1,2,14,4,16,22,7,9,0,0,1,0,17,4,0,12,5,90,27,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019819244225716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12340912131996964,0.0,0.1401978311746579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16896016490965768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681994590202119,0.11973553294166205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686914028072697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14386091382181568,0.085229051757353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539082330959844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051895192942366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33858639435142196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648346246907275,0.0,0.16916801727960193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21979722607740226,0.15030518485272845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549912153684193,0.0,0.0,0.10010337318199183,0.0,0.15066085882908833,0.16335678085158842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11119778178919022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10396744187840704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3359921593590497,0.0,0.1500064385877902,0.0,0.1921439345099565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192588676393042,0.0,0.15177345226072986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11976292607876457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14134104422183086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09963065086405186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08845374717168943,0.11903591591661633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16263157338875914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31959432347057193,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thrownaway866,2019/06/11,"Anyone prescribed something for sleep? If so, what is it and how does it work? I'm prescribed xanax which doesn't help me sleep anymore. Also prescribed Trazodone which does nothing for me. I go see the doc in a few weeks so I'm looking for suggestions. I was on Seroquel which helped me sleep, but he took me off since I've been on Vraylar for awhile now.",2.3487525150905446,4.635914619718314,2.4924748490945703,95.25830985915495,78.85915492957747,4.620523138832998,25.635814889336014,5.288315135182226,0.4315899396378273,282,11,58,1,7,85,49,71,0.031,0.9690000000000001,0.0,-0.2474,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,2,0,4,4,3,1,0,4,10,7,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,2,6,0,8,7,1,8,0,0,2,0,4,4,0,1,2,35,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695209403561732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102279569226966,0.1482218789625039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3710115901176511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047355325986335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841724754458577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17801045301084978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20340126017712115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16892122363797826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17535267850051994,0.0,0.6364015618123416,0.0,0.0,0.16319314854327174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355184285488152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17003818237005472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15432452084514578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,brainvain,2019/06/11,"Anyone feel like one moment you're certain that you're delusional and the next you feel like you completely overreacted? I can feel like I came to terms with my mental health not being what it should be and recognizing the symptoms, then the next moment I feel like that exact thought is delusional and like nothing is wrong with me. Does anyone identify with this?",7.823656716417908,8.497205358208959,6.9693656716417935,74.92927238805972,62.58208955223882,10.282089552238807,31.67537313432836,10.125756701596842,3.10515223880597,297,10,51,6,4,91,42,67,0.04,0.725,0.235,0.9104,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,0,7,0,0,3,0,6,2,0,0,2,16,12,4,0,1,1,0,4,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,7,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,4,7,6,4,7,1,7,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,11,31,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23875291504440624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19526648309836264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17900426547969212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14940456037238936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452992942352342,0.4878703044565717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18147507515105285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41704353445748255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17205290490649858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36314071839277856,0.0,0.0,0.16381739366317974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568919793509018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774509751918022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13553836008164505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18666343839981886,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,akiraashens,2019/06/11,"I hate my parents and hate myself. Im 20 years old, male and live somewhere in Europe (a shitty place, Dont think somewhere nice). I have been diagnosed with paranoid type schizophrenia when I was 18. I dont go to a psychiatrist anymore and I stopped taking my medication because I feel better (more on that later) and a psychiatrist is too expensive since I really need to save as much as possible so I can move to a place where I can live a normal life. I will continue seeing a psychiatrist in the future and even continue my medication if I have to. This post is about my parents, I am too tired to write a book even tho I have waaaaay too much to say. I wanna make this is short and simple as possible. When I started going to school my parents would compare me to other kids and beat me till I study hard and make good grades. the first 4 years of school werent so bad since we only had 1 teacher and she was always nice to me and the kids in my class, while assholes didnt bully or make fun of me so much since our teacher was always there. In 5th grade I had multiple teachers one of which was like a home room teacher (responsible for my class) and he was such an asshole. I was treated unfairly by teachers and it hurts a lot when teachers call you names. Kids at school bullied me and made fun of me. I lost interest in studying and I just wanted to be left alone, at home my parents started to have issues and unlike most normal people who would get a divorce they continued to stay together. My grades dropped and my parents beat me constantly. One of the most traumatic things I remember was when my dad pulled me by my hair and grabbed me by my shirt then threw me out the balcony window, my head slammed against the glass and I was bleeding, glass everywhere... my mom was cheering my dad to kill me and the next day they were silent about it like Id didnt happen, the one time mention was when my mom said ""What are we gonna do about the glass, he broke it?"" You are shitting me right? You care more about the glass of the stupid window then you care about me. Aaaaanyway... my mental problems started to show up around the end of my first year of high school. During my high school years I was taller then my parents so they beat me less and less, they were arguing all the time and beating each other, when not everything is being shifted on me. My mom in short is very suspicious about money, very loud and constantly destroys things(a lot of good childhood memories destroyed), my dad is an emotionless person who for some reason can never see that he did something wrong, always finding excuses and blaming someone else. Near the end of my 9th grade I was feeling so depressed I attempted to kill myself (This one is a funny story at this point, I failed at suicide) but something special and important happened. I had a facebook account and I met this guy and his sister. The girl went on to become the best friend I ever had I met her other friends and got to know a lot of people from the town she lived in. All of them live in PA in the States so really far away. (crying as I write this because happy cries) I love my friends, they are my family and the only people I care about. I finally had a reason not to kill myself... I wanna go to America and I wanna be with my people, I love that beautiful town and the people who live there... so I had the idea that Im just gonna study and try my best so once im done I can go. I was diagnosed 2 years ago and I skipped 2 years of school (too long to talk about). Recently my mom cheated on my dad and they havent stopped fighting since. I hate them for ruining 20 years of my life, I hate myself even more for being related to these awful people. I am no longer able to and I cant stand their very being around me. I am triggered when someone says I look like my dad... it disgusts me internally and I feel the need to throw up. I have problems with self identity at this point, my voices are gone except one who tells me how I should look and what I should do. That should be a whole other story of its own. I am just too tired and cant anymore so I will leave this post as it is now. I was gonna say so much more but I already wrote a novella so im gonna stop.",3.6651240694789062,4.751381665501167,4.55022031731709,87.08801037672009,72.08857808857809,7.4935258290097,26.892322731032408,7.831003766801068,1.43793482216708,3311,112,693,42,62,1072,338,858,0.11800000000000001,0.7759999999999999,0.107,-0.3076,7,1,2,0,3,4,85.0,3,4,9,12,47,51,15,0,40,1,72,15,4,8,4,105,121,71,4,16,10,17,6,3,3,11,9,6,5,8,32,46,0,3,10,2,3,10,11,25,0,7,37,16,130,26,93,67,23,106,0,6,4,2,75,41,1,8,52,483,162,15,0.046017321643961266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04079157911106382,0.0,0.0,0.047660067125065764,0.05078125872730305,0.0,0.1148702939356592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09127363569524047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08193034500373322,0.0,0.0,0.04323478848209916,0.0,0.038422541427898485,0.056103464313642736,0.050822516358409564,0.0,0.0,0.09658468004441144,0.04069858143610594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04698883044348392,0.0,0.14075317892921116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09945675348821464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10109573403787024,0.02967736554231921,0.0,0.039634651702101904,0.09341322562321973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04709169691459489,0.10786391649518856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03844156741978722,0.0,0.08151537662370932,0.0,0.0,0.09118202083841916,0.04162530196834655,0.0,0.0,0.0413574014795638,0.0,0.04338103540917945,0.0,0.06980322146698757,0.0,0.0,0.05040972655204773,0.042058998308507636,0.0782846205647876,0.0,0.0,0.10665860565366786,0.0,0.024042151264060844,0.0,0.10461081743942653,0.07719429223583432,0.036804255881010085,0.0,0.0,0.04556438326052431,0.08138593111043281,0.048986294578615766,0.041222481469867886,0.1817303125115426,0.04722704800431997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09723965368624306,0.09231825126392064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049262494572744606,0.051947954888390636,0.1988264159500749,0.04803012812079284,0.0,0.0,0.15273404509686025,0.0,0.025289916518592536,0.0,0.0,0.04872569924424176,0.04999795461102986,0.0,0.06500679034201971,0.06744521679161995,0.0,0.20317069044016348,0.040723881574242886,0.07728592084463574,0.0,0.050233342531500115,0.11736684380010368,0.08306485883972965,0.04354270239180539,0.09215075858310856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09271522057703233,0.04637463682755246,0.0,0.0,0.21557972376887646,0.0,0.048909130326127134,0.13531210491680712,0.06824252183126389,0.03549139532971609,0.0,0.04893994362348463,0.0,0.09017440961714816,0.0,0.0,0.048287438118636936,0.049006945707909005,0.15591264041796474,0.06999649346032624,0.0,0.0,0.30658073941656405,0.0,0.0,0.1914157002406384,0.040180550288667384,0.0961566136605888,0.0,0.087002486132749,0.10375523184787228,0.08814374754463712,0.0,0.0,0.08806472407646819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05895974917197192,0.09462694164817848,0.04543655355236361,0.0,0.0521286548818712,0.0392985412495692,0.043773010744030685,0.10978446351397712,0.0,0.27943191750744106,0.07333969493503892,0.0,0.04800610247958837,0.0,0.047236119380845216,0.15226401597506226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779806545941507,0.0708527648088927,0.0,0.0,0.09771389132835136,0.04904834207299179,0.0,0.11541762424084613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05033548096496143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03459929894991904,0.036986980032252884,0.040221167412376836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03057186374249256,0.029486041611441187,0.0,0.0,0.053666140624183366,0.10578028361650693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031242740739924262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11390732904017599,0.02714220857330049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0426585181917695,0.0,0.051376696242185736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06537876998882337,0.05031271729749706,0.0,0.2074355248108969 schizophrenia,heavenly_helpless,2019/06/11,"Should I seek another psychiatrist? Hi dear schizophrenia subreddit! I just wanted to ask y'all what you think about if I should go to another professional. I was in the mental hospital a year ago and was immediately diagnosed with schizophrenia, but they took the diagnosis back when I told a doctor ""I think I have schizophrenia"". He told me that no schizophrenic ever said that to him so he assumed that I don't have the illness because I'm aware of it. I then switched to another mental hospital, there I did testing for it again, where I had to answer almost every question with yes and they still told me that I don't have the illness. Also I look and act very normal and I am in fact very aware of my delusions but that still doesn't stop my brain from thinking them. I am now in a psychotic phase for two years. I feel like they think I'm too intelligent and we'll kept person to have schizophrenia. A little bit about my symptoms: So I am 20 years old now and since I was 13 I thought that people could read my mind, had tactile (hands on me), visual (ghosts in the corner of my eyes), auditory (whispering, breathing, also more internal voices) and gustatorial hallucinations (tasting blood). Also I sometimes feel like I'm upside down or once didn't feel my legs for a while. I also have a big complex delusion and disorganized as well as horrible intrusive thoughts. So I am now two years in this phase of psychosis and doing very well but I still think that I should have been helped more. I even cried in front of the doctors because they said they weren't able to find signs of schizophrenia. I was suicidal and very depressed throughout most of last year. Whenever I'm bringing up that I don't have a diagnose everyone says that it's better to not have the stigma and that it could just magically disappear.",4.6935823754789245,6.470594833333332,5.237816091954024,80.46657088122608,70.49425287356323,8.373946360153258,29.26819923371648,8.94667605116694,2.4148498084291194,1454,57,271,28,27,466,179,348,0.08,0.823,0.09699999999999999,0.41,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,1,2,6,1,27,7,0,0,14,1,33,15,6,0,2,51,59,28,2,8,8,0,4,2,0,4,8,5,0,1,16,13,1,2,15,1,0,6,8,1,2,2,19,12,46,6,34,34,4,40,0,1,2,0,23,13,0,6,23,192,62,5,0.08725195426984272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07734359297854243,0.0,0.08737022868256587,0.0,0.0,0.2791014252253216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27447384506990524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08156879909425684,0.0,0.0,0.06709136709178952,0.0,0.10637596295907162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07716726309682077,0.0952565360046373,0.0,0.0,0.09740203691891518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13932717145666695,0.0,0.0958421747292844,0.0,0.0,0.07514998036107452,0.17711779388936327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17861214475410184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05762909290245211,0.07892438790572613,0.07351353461827298,0.08337298140519042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13235162912017367,0.12466562712828087,0.0,0.0,0.07974670550020742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04958729633362682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058483145754814676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112198809312936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852537951795997,0.08744938008922278,0.0,0.0,0.07326966662045784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758588960506854,0.0,0.08809960107630402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08548838984045869,0.0,0.0,0.09155624864768838,0.09292048370164677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06048951904511729,0.07618504100366262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09774215733002664,0.0,0.0872755658878137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16599317801420513,0.06938625607239328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07217571820883087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08629441379956823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20903857016352131,0.0729465406534781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09543947640598256,0.0,0.0,0.09068818866297797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27953764608307624,0.0,0.13853661110477478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25011894421557124,0.09694013160954112,0.0,0.0,0.17046496223364127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879680001459504,0.05146346324853787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15689997085409518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28093698941044465 schizophrenia,nofriendsheree,2019/06/11,Does anyone ever enjoy having schizophrenia? Sometimes I enjoy some of my schizophrenic episodes. I don’t know why but they sorta keep me company. Some of the hallucinations are kind of cool in a way. Does anyone else feel this way?,3.040714285714288,6.151778309523812,3.716190476190477,80.88714285714289,87.33333333333331,5.6571428571428575,21.285714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.1946857142857144,187,6,30,3,6,59,34,42,0.0,0.8320000000000001,0.168,0.7245,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,0,1,8,6,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,4,4,6,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3694280742973873,0.2706737215050863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4623544723577831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206804132937568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389571877114419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13357245638429555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348067273838076,0.0,0.2750927472876757,0.1451811048322363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612712113951813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4193722240073435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383726339478029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Selfishschitz,2019/06/11,"Working part time while on medicare Do any of you do this? I'm on arizona ahcccs and determined SMI, so I'm able to get my $2000 monthly injection for under $20. I've been denied social security three times and I never heard back from you lawyer about a court date. According to my paperwork I got from social security, if I win my appeal I'll get around $700 a month. My medicare has a monthly income limit of $1350 and that's almost twice as much that I'd receive from medicare. Ive made good progress with my illness and Im certain that I can work.",3.685517241379313,4.461577034482762,5.323620689655171,82.72094827586207,71.75862068965517,7.868965517241381,29.15517241379311,8.07648339933343,1.9139689655172407,440,17,90,6,8,150,78,116,0.05,0.7829999999999999,0.16699999999999998,0.9042,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,5,4,5,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,1,2,12,13,8,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,6,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,4,1,12,5,15,9,2,14,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,2,9,52,16,3,0.2040200940173226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042966535168267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387406600789091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18162113844718786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15687885889048386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131841570104098,0.0,0.0,0.17112237519393214,0.16317350677593462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203767115626163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19304874595869054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4885406777381775,0.0,0.14997824395561882,0.0,0.15735287394599706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22093388020773644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4159455859887667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23793151501527146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29705811662440634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,misterrazorz,2019/06/11,"DAE hate taking meds? how can i convince my doctors to let me quit meds? as titled i guess. i'm taking three things right now to cope with the hallucinations (and depression). Abilify 30 mg, Wellbutrin 150 mg, and Quetiapine 50 mg. these aren't even the highest dosages i've been on, but i'm really resistant to increasing the dosages any more. basically when i'm on any meds i don't feel like myself AT ALL. my thoughts are put there by someone. my feelings are degrees removed from my body. my actions are being controlled by SOMEONE. i don't know who. i'm also really scared that i will hurt myself in ways to which i don't intend. i self-harm obviously but i'm scared that i would go too far without adequate preparations because i'm not in control. for example, i could jump off of the building before writing a note, formatting my phone, or something equally inane/idiotic/performative. when i tell my health professionals this stuff they just increase my dosage. i have tried all meds i think that don't mess with my appetite because of my eating disorder. i would rather be off my meds for good but my doctors are not convinced... what should i say to them? kinda long so TL;DR: meds make me feel worse, so i want to quit, what do i say to my doctor?",3.0811101211689227,5.387492331967215,4.216243763364221,83.7294689950107,76.5,7.194297933000712,27.821810406272267,8.18289091462,2.0124624376336406,995,42,190,18,23,324,146,244,0.12,0.826,0.054000000000000006,-0.9570000000000001,0,0,1,0,0,2,36.0,0,0,2,4,12,10,1,2,5,0,21,6,1,5,3,35,40,13,0,6,9,0,3,1,0,4,4,2,0,0,11,4,1,2,6,0,0,7,8,6,0,1,2,5,35,4,25,30,6,21,0,2,0,0,8,9,0,3,5,122,46,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612863885670429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12947382361791526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606185472693313,0.0,0.08100524420938783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10574189571110124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21354202926760715,0.07600669118896647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08199264063776078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10910348258565457,0.2923130783534123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09740982653386927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06287641702536466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444026932825858,0.06800842738679368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054102387637977034,0.07984634140538431,0.0,0.0,0.10486972165522307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09398687491150998,0.0,0.10118947071124247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019098652558232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05231752892527528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09734491218433836,0.0,0.04650822101070627,0.0,0.0,0.08424594247448748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06354442984042652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6344513742666075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956988164276122,0.0,0.2025064770920966,0.0,0.0,0.12197068268152933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08129732524162098,0.0,0.15140821945683985,0.19061668795284192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09931075309082793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16131943928490405,0.07328694757849022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089772630312084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14315190184798418,0.0,0.08320597214934873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06324435133945802,0.060998099134267035,0.0,0.07557541941401913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06463220197520966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056149385905862666,0.07556258262848506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09176606771941627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970134073984392,0.1352497817647816,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,beat-is-a-chemical,2019/06/11,"Feeling disconnected before a break? whenever i’m about to have a mental break i always feel so spacey and like i’m disconnecting to the world? maybe it’s a form of transporting to a new world or dimension that’s like a mirror with hairline cracks in it. it’s still you in the reflection, but it’s not quite right, you know?? and it’s always pricking at my skin because subconsciously i know it’s not right.",1.6344444444444477,4.283621641975312,3.156654320987656,86.85794444444447,85.66666666666666,6.696790123456791,21.680246913580245,7.908726449838941,1.2888261728395058,327,11,65,7,10,107,50,81,0.033,0.882,0.085,0.3866,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,1,3,3,1,0,7,0,1,2,2,0,0,12,7,5,0,0,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,5,2,9,7,1,12,0,0,0,0,2,7,1,1,4,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4341272313940924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15902310858372065,0.0,0.22198000843719032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26380605672364243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867331769836121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548944921558261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620776234374142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628942436257073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519485690747046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27746592169571965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455608058265593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083300419669011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Breeziea11,2019/06/11,"Do I need to see a psychiatrist As a child, I hallucinated often. I never really thought it was abnormal or a big deal because my parents wouldn't react as if it were a big deal when I told them. I was also VERY delusional as a child. I remember the wind howling and I was TERRIFIED. I wouldn't leave my babysitters side because I honestly believed there were demons and monsters out to get me. I also remember walking down our stair case and my body just...freezing. like I was legit stuck and my body refused to move. I recently found out that my moms side of the family has a line of mental disorders. My mom has bipolar disorder type 1 and my great grandpa had paranoia schizophrenia. Everyone else in between had depression, OCD, etc. I'm now 20 and pregnant. I guess I just want to know if I should be concerned. Recent symptoms? I suffer from sleep paralysis. I don't actually know if that is even a symptom of schizophrenia. I guess that's kinda what I also want to know. I still hallucinate, occasionally. Just the other day I saw what I thought was a giant spider on my wall and when I went to focus on it, it completely vanished. I don't hear voices unless I'm in sleep paralysis. I hear my phone buzzing when it really hasn't or someone calling my name in a public place when theres nobody I recognize. If I'm not listening or paying attention to anything I hear people mumbling in another room. But that's about it. I also lack like emotion. Idk I guess I just want to know if I should make that appointment.",3.1181829480487195,5.274645812080543,4.830551826994782,80.088112105394,75.77852348993287,8.038975888640318,28.82227193636589,8.841846274778883,2.5833120556798406,1204,53,223,27,27,407,157,298,0.091,0.845,0.064,-0.855,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,1,0,1,0,18,6,0,0,12,0,21,7,4,2,1,52,49,28,0,14,14,4,0,2,0,4,3,5,1,2,14,9,0,1,10,0,1,3,7,2,0,0,16,7,44,4,27,28,2,31,1,2,2,0,20,18,0,13,12,155,58,2,0.0,0.0,0.09221755874736057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3022838100571098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909061981293964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07776476547758915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11521163446515002,0.0,0.0,0.10646820477059976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099345502444795,0.0,0.0,0.09649421873014599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908058235651984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06094414725685441,0.1948489906998406,0.08139199708823848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166084728545411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894193109139183,0.10629884758177999,0.0,0.0,0.10539155484490358,0.06241581087815923,0.0,0.0,0.09029800709414308,0.0,0.0,0.0890854077448965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10361346286050224,0.0,0.0,0.04937191628142033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418566909733044,0.31230447073839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3195222994617994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077370909792975,0.0,0.0,0.10006097696575418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923350427462446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06307893011270893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09523293743076076,0.0,0.0,0.221352572758311,0.0,0.10043766305839152,0.0,0.07006993753763352,0.07288358598545673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493014562717293,0.0,0.0,0.06551382627558595,0.0,0.09873152005852577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12107717683498445,0.0,0.1866130608251289,0.0,0.21409827734825496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07530360404666334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18913483335917214,0.0,0.08006884051070706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546715963788261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19644164248958385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15004357144842012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09029800709414308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07797171242351181,0.16721417746551906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08760167780833407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,luhcious,2019/06/11,"Abilify and Weight Gain As for starters, I am a 22 year old male who developed his first onset of schizophrenic symptoms at the age of 16. I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder with major depressive type. I have tried all sorts of antipsychotics such as Risperdal, Geodon, Latuda, Seroquel, Vraylar, Fanapt, and Abilify and the list goes on. I want to go back on Abilify because it was a miracle medicine and the best I've taken so far when it came to treating my schizophrenic symptoms and overall feeling. I would still go through depressive episodes but the rest was pretty good. My only side effects from this medicine is weight gain and mild runny nose. I've only written this medicine off as not a plausible treatment option because of the massive weight gain. I'm currently taking Vraylar 3mg and it's causing me to have uncontrollable lip puckering?? I don't know if this is a sign of developing tardive dyskinesia? Anyway, I would like some input if you guys know how to counteract the induced weight gain that comes from Abilify. I've done a fair amount of research and I've read up that taking Metformin and Abilify together stops or reduces the weight gain process or that strict keto diet and Abilify should stop the weight gain as well.",8.389625506072875,8.791009723684214,7.500877192982457,72.52293522267209,61.412280701754376,11.225910931174091,40.345479082321184,10.891193690592663,4.62852726045884,1019,52,169,24,13,314,140,228,0.053,0.746,0.2,0.9904,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,9,8,8,0,1,13,0,13,14,2,4,1,38,26,22,0,6,6,0,7,1,0,3,5,0,0,2,10,14,7,2,5,1,0,4,2,3,1,1,7,8,12,5,25,16,6,22,0,2,0,0,5,7,0,7,12,102,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08063106937674018,0.0,0.1278436857254039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11004437633705813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199322054333572,0.0,0.10772037487920247,0.0,0.09032783135180376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806319812164328,0.10643095934690017,0.0,0.0,0.1201789457185945,0.0,0.0,0.10730845544526313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053020499518281916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919408588270987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11918900759352498,0.08795181328930148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382814617766524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11525691609166586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05122942765760049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11003320630634847,0.0,0.0,0.15950190993190047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066805851084108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10488863937392844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837415412438467,0.17533574989392586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179799264406504,0.1576837350558093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119323516326742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06184929977478409,0.0,0.0,0.7661493026787699,0.09428196937645393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14897944406495614,0.0,0.0,0.06752657119851177 schizophrenia,baleyhey,2019/10/10,"Misdiagnosis I don't know where else to post this, but the situation is that I was ""diagnosed"" with sz when I was around 16 or 17 due to a fight at school, I went to treatment and they put me on abilify. After being on that medication for around 2 weeks I found out I didn't like the medication, we switched medications, but after switching I had dark thoughts and decided to attempt suicide. So they took me off that medication and put me back on abilify. I live with my parents who think I'm totally sz. Long story short I'm now on abilify injection, and if I don't have the injection they'll kick me out of the house. I don't have a job or car from being mentally ill for so long, I'm working on getting a license and have a hand-me-down car lined up. I don't want to be on a medication that can cause cell damage or hamper my creativity, I know my brain is still developing so I don't want any exponential damage. Thanks for reading.",3.5557366071428578,4.673091671875007,5.614821428571428,79.23375000000003,72.38541666666666,9.44404761904762,29.339285714285715,9.784248007369934,2.702559821428572,739,30,156,19,14,258,106,192,0.147,0.8140000000000001,0.039,-0.9640000000000001,2,0,0,0,1,1,19.0,1,0,3,2,10,5,1,0,9,0,19,8,1,1,1,28,33,15,1,3,6,1,0,1,0,1,7,0,0,0,6,12,0,0,6,1,0,6,6,3,0,0,8,0,24,2,27,21,1,32,0,2,0,0,8,15,0,4,11,104,30,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08660743272481937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267502622594357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979300171238658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421730329375876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13083118254602552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292651300784817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10639080665049502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396408694489359,0.0,0.0,0.06653901071890292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695339703122284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12638261674807394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13998464678377215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06222041660285727,0.0,0.1124589609347758,0.22541466966265106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6414961568978371,0.12834635399563446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414153755917705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197323147708734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25605882560658144,0.0,0.0,0.1273919139282917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288925378738532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14315510896179684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170782344050776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13930837846758448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11725362820473582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08160551097499068,0.0,0.10110758869476974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14149881214261228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15023744650448514,0.0,0.10215846366037012,0.0,0.0,0.1180616313423542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927177398329995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cphmin,2019/10/10,"Does anyone else have worries about eternal torture, etc? Hello, Does anyone else often worry about eternal torture and suchlike? Personally I'm not religious at all, but it arose as a fear of mine after thinking ""what's the worst that could happen to me"" and I've been worried about it for like 4 years now. This is especially associated with large numbers (for example, I read about Graham's number 4 years ago and since then worried about ""what if I get eternally tortured with this amount of pain"") which is obviously pretty scary to say the least. Does anyone else have experiences with similar types of anxiety, especially with large numbers? I was diagnosed with OCD, and do exhibit the typical symptoms, but am worried that I may be schizophrenic potentially too..",11.410024509803918,9.742312110294122,10.689705882352943,58.79450980392161,56.57352941176471,13.772549019607847,44.72549019607843,12.45797560212912,5.7681754901960804,621,30,95,16,6,201,91,136,0.24600000000000002,0.6970000000000001,0.057,-0.9832,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,8,7,3,1,4,0,11,4,0,0,2,19,15,9,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,1,9,9,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,2,1,6,1,20,10,5,10,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,10,66,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10671405534477847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09209420969677226,0.0,0.0,0.2525280122230171,0.370046033900837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09611764150899416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122188259762501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160492230293896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30169870663790216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426111804660495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11775964823414267,0.0,0.13546661491720008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0628962034937415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645607434267523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0588140391905004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12809814753200469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10511555474756126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12247484307978047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041759646442698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09573499866667157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958373138448763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251261288932316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07713785896482582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6112841499219063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15504800996074242 schizophrenia,NVR_Ranger,2019/10/10,"Ayo armchair docs give me an opinion I do not have a diagnosis of anything other than the depression/anxiety. But I have this problem whrn I hear words, which overlaps with my thoughts. A specific sound, word, vowel that I hear, well, i interpret from myself and others when I'm talking or hear others talking and it turns my brain into this loop of me thinking I've said so and so out loud. That word and sound is anything that sounds like y or e. Over and over, and I feel like I've annoyed everyone around me with these sounds and I try to shrug off this feeling but the longer I'm around people the more suspicious I am that they are talking about it, or that I'm doing/saying it. Especially mocking me. It's like I'm deluded that I may have like a verbal Tic! But I've no evidence it exists but with each passing week I'm more and more convinced it does. I've been told I'm fine n just anxious But I can't really function anymore. Jobs are hard. It's extremely difficult to be around more than one person, like groups and places with a lot of noise and people talking. That seems to make it worse. It's been roughly two years since this started but I'm desperate and isolated and I don't know how to explain this to my psychiatrist or my therapist. If I'm not in my room I just want to stare at something and blank my mind until I can go back to my room. It's a lot easier to type even if my problem doesn't make fuckall sense.",1.7777323202805422,3.9130935084745775,3.2972413793103463,89.54118644067799,80.01694915254237,6.509643483343075,24.40970192869667,7.6298220110432995,1.2149123319696078,1135,42,238,18,29,373,153,295,0.124,0.782,0.094,-0.8959999999999999,2,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,0,13,13,2,0,9,0,16,1,1,3,0,61,43,30,0,5,16,0,4,5,0,1,0,9,2,1,27,23,0,0,8,0,0,2,6,5,1,2,5,14,27,8,30,36,7,22,0,0,1,0,14,14,0,11,11,155,54,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08744174270361607,0.12913023973539522,0.11335819965993175,0.0,0.0,0.1881238200902288,0.30526262057153664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08789221340390532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12760033050362474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10002762364324934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07549627845153369,0.0,0.0,0.10922174031361462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11559040688568124,0.08165832936970707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10965017974506804,0.06496122258941392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239334172119093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3864845165391172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11342842825929247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06281812670791008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792141926831896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19435322531866603,0.0,0.0,0.15259673487251998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541378979509632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07745490179012741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15848708849051524,0.09980526813409712,0.1194226627101296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21874571991827968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322564689821391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872865212044837,0.09089860425215768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040574683568718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945529045296056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08799629595650553,0.0,0.0,0.08090449279886804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3674907817905772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13271498837585066,0.0,0.0732409652954167,0.0,0.09074408463622442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10922174031361462,0.0,0.07760446520493977,0.1243292115516876,0.11165775484966516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06741907178841898,0.0,0.09168724516503904,0.0,0.10277243048653184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11648486928779744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736076037697412 schizophrenia,CatapillarSwings,2019/01/05,"When I am in an episodic phase I get super sexual, in ways that my partner doesnt satisfy or care about. Before he and I were together, I would frequently become a sort of cam girl for girls that I new. I would send risque snapchats and have them cumming to me. Since i got with this person, i have quit. But in these episodes i am sometimes too drunk to care and will send risque videos to my friends again. My partner knows of this happening at least once. And i feel guilty to no end knowing that I am cheating, so please dont hound me for that. I simply want to know if any of you have experienced this or ever felt pressure from your mind to do this. And what did you do or what advice would you give me to help satisfy the sexual pleasure that I get from this without being an adulterous. Also, thanks for always being there for me. I am sorry if this is TIM",4.74551688311688,5.0860476971428605,5.179116883116883,86.2667012987013,69.17142857142858,8.420779220779222,27.33766233766233,8.296473431620573,1.5716857142857137,677,20,144,9,11,216,105,175,0.133,0.757,0.111,-0.2789,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,4,1,2,8,8,1,1,4,0,20,1,0,0,1,25,34,14,0,6,7,0,2,0,3,4,0,0,0,5,14,6,1,0,5,2,0,2,4,2,0,0,4,3,26,6,23,24,1,13,0,0,0,0,16,4,0,6,6,107,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16152376160418264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321858612971801,0.13753817116292846,0.0,0.0,0.11240585111857744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18255466355162894,0.14065334854549758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3370572869977229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19372379012360624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464017646123816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14951823602117018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357780843868824,0.0,0.15870853282018654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12770603310730766,0.0,0.17271898951700582,0.1585654374772559,0.0,0.0,0.13220102094598682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14616928023520304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107933431257496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27252441626908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669002103992506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15964234865605426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17603312717356062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14432868273460134,0.0,0.18144359958599351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17581092670698056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367332247547591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634803749786985,0.18503353302126574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15218086324036173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09749491188519477,0.13120299031467594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15933789020159458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35226116927858725,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chocolitcake,2019/01/05,"Does anyone else get very startled on Seroquel? I get extremely startled if someone says my name, something happens around me, or pretty much anything that isn't fully expected. I haven't figured out if it's because I am more zoned out or if the medication just makes it happen due to dopamine levels. It's definitely seroquel though as when I was taking abilify without it, it didn't happen. Curious to see if others have experienced the same startled feeling. 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Recently, I’ve been having mild hallucinations, hearing things that aren’t there, seeing figures for brief moments, etc. I can’t really hold a conversation anymore. I just don’t know how. My thoughts feel jumbled and unclear, my perception of time is broken. My memory is getting worse and I feel as though everyone is against me. I can lie for up to an hour, doing nothing but staring. I can’t feel emotions anymore. I just feel dead. I’m 15. What might be going on? Could I be showing early signs of schizophrenia? Please, please help.",3.0902350427350456,6.062675416666664,3.7111111111111117,83.25269230769233,81.87037037037038,6.286039886039887,28.678062678062677,7.61054688173877,2.167194301994302,467,22,80,8,13,147,76,108,0.107,0.77,0.12300000000000001,0.1926,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,17,1,0,1,0,19,28,6,1,1,3,0,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,8,1,0,2,5,0,0,0,2,7,12,0,9,22,1,9,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,2,5,52,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3288635158100013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237999023964786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682862831506934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865057573846456,0.0,0.0,0.18491387447236332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15843161601973824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33533937303496336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662508436428168,0.0,0.0942295136838785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18687172946241432,0.0,0.2222681529600752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16328229288513565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112084554860636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17589049736745055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15909219335330746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5460048312735674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062174759243298,0.0,0.16371019554224778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13212331108021996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101519679657582,0.0,0.16290034264502626,0.1316288490905584,0.0966809065465067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16896714912363742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,errrbudyinthuhclub,2019/01/05,"Communicating with my partner. Hello all- My partner and I have known each other almost 2 years, and have been dating for about 8 months. I love this girl an unbelievable amount. She has been diagnosed with schizophrenia, and takes medication for it. She also has ADHD and anxiety. She's been through some rough patches, but has found medication that seems to work well for her. I need advice. We recently got a house together. I am a pretty neat person. Not anal about everything, but I like to know my home is clean. I do 100% of the household chores, including her laundry, her dishes, and cleaning up after her and her two cats. I teach high school full time, and she has a fantastic job as a quality control engineer! On days that I am tired, I can become short with her about her lack of contribution to the household. How can I bring this up to her in a positive way? How can we compromise? We have days where communication is amazing, and others where I feel as if I'm pulling teeth to get an emotion from her. I'm working on my patience, I promise. She mentioned even attending a therapy session with her, which is a huge step for her. I just need some advice. Thank you <3",3.4160761904761934,5.767233337777778,4.426793650793653,82.40800000000002,75.62222222222222,7.663492063492062,27.158730158730158,8.563005593585519,2.1399396825396826,931,37,175,19,21,302,136,225,0.034,0.7709999999999999,0.195,0.9908,1,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,3,1,0,3,11,7,0,0,11,0,19,8,2,3,1,37,33,16,0,4,5,0,2,1,2,0,4,0,4,4,8,16,1,2,5,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,5,2,37,7,28,28,7,24,0,0,0,1,27,11,0,5,9,130,45,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18083643136440816,0.2940762756202074,0.0,0.0,0.15067457966012066,0.0,0.0,0.12033129179836236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151096041671532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16618296596484444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687655829718802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19408218959742274,0.0,0.0,0.15272450093708484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16925918253810845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09938441824181347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13523328113082514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07608246113775538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649832563821441,0.0,0.0,0.07861468285160876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034509191364112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15898046000924038,0.15093428963191724,0.0,0.0,0.17362288042395174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493188616160728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08269471165938433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07351233908169601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135805599550496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30316661687741303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12010420467477614,0.0,0.0,0.22314410020281367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138513201472835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15308270469736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14857157365650303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15228428973341074,0.0,0.13698279131735835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313517180560576,0.0,0.0,0.13853312056978134,0.17207625524188175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877406222659172,0.17294383013253534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14698792093500296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943656573738105,0.0,0.0,0.13529114844724754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190887911598757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09689813893973516 schizophrenia,riemuidiootti,2019/01/05,"Do anyone else have these kind of symptoms? Hi. Sorry about my little bit bad grammar. I'm not searching for a diagnosis here, just would like to hear if someone here is experiencing something similar than i am. - feeling like everything is too big or small or like i'm in some kind of scale model - feeling like i'm in another dimension where everything looks wrong and unfamiliar - fearing that someone/something bad and supernatural is trying to take control over me - feeling physically that someone is invading into my head - hearing voices like laughter, steps, music and talking but that quietly that i can't tell what they are saying or talking about - feeling like some kind of bugs are walking on or under my skin - feeling spaced out or separated from myself In last few days i have been fearing also that i live in some kind of simulation where everything (for example people, my house and apartment) are built for me and to hurt me in some kind of way. That i will soon realize that my boyfriend and other people close to me aren't real, for example. I think i will try to contact my doctor on monday but i'm not sure how to cope until that",7.638937984496124,7.653409293023257,7.972383720930235,69.81609496124032,63.04651162790698,10.515503875968994,37.451550387596896,10.125756701596842,3.9168992248062033,918,42,155,18,12,302,121,215,0.098,0.8059999999999999,0.096,-0.759,0,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,1,11,18,0,2,1,0,17,4,2,2,1,36,31,17,0,2,11,0,6,6,0,3,2,5,0,0,11,9,0,1,7,0,0,2,4,6,0,0,1,13,19,12,31,27,6,27,0,1,1,0,9,19,0,10,11,109,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07907450162891065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10368456552572512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06913937112922522,0.10131450308242622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16512176002107082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795162518976203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109026103366042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06376958224291586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012081276181178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826017623305234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666015834097751,0.0,0.0,0.22253554721149735,0.24998413161101146,0.2119202148996419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10147966528589196,0.0,0.22289046032152693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11409453464445213,0.10585335462705417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5148428306607257,0.0,0.08060060257709194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28984737832955165,0.09910398906390257,0.08731307389733703,0.0,0.08303450787256662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371022328074072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254737417467034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07863354498302565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16756183291967147,0.15224569735395616,0.0,0.11068834642911468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09319346710870713,0.10277444217799003,0.07434564354399469,0.15895240173663436,0.08642569838458823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06335847273497229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426640058516473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07848654137095007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07024169385584116,0.10811003284614946,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anon_yyy,2019/01/05,"Early signs of schizophrenia? I’ve been having these symptoms since around august / september. Just as a preface, i’ve had depression since i was around 11/12. I used to party a lot and used a lot of drugs. I am 15 at the moment. At around 13 I started smoking weed, I first tried mdma and ketamine when I was 14, and first tried speed and cocaine at 15. I was consistently using all of these until around july, when i stopped and went into a depressive episode. The episode lasted around 1/2 months, in which i just stayed in my room all the time. I started experiencing a lot of hypnagogic hallucinations, but i just chalked this up to stopping drugs very suddenly and the drastic change in my sleeping schedule due to the depressive episode. During the depressive episode, i started noticing a lot of paranoia. When I heard a car pull up outside my house I would instantly think it was someone coming to rob / murder me. I always knew it was incredibly unlikely, but in the back of my mind it was always there, and I would just sit there watching them as a kind of “what if” During the depressive episode I knew that something was wrong, but i really didn’t care enough to try and figure it out. After the depressive episode, i started trying to go out more. I realised whenever I met my friends i would get really paranoid before i met them. I would always get convinced that they were going to set people up to mug me / beat me up. I knew that it was incredibly unlikely to happen, and it didn’t stop me from going to meet them, but it would be all i could think about from when I arranged to meet them to actually meeting them. The only person this wouldn’t happen with is with my girlfriend, and i’ve now isolated myself from everyone except her. I’ve only noticed and actually started thinking about how absurd it is around 20 mins ago, but for at least a few weeks i’ve been having a lot of recurring thoughts about people reading my mind, mostly about my girlfriend reading them. it made me start “monitoring” my thoughts if that’s the right way to put it, i started to make sure I didn’t think about anything i wouldn’t want other people to know. I know it’s stupid and i know people can’t read my mind, but I just can’t stop thinking about it and i just think like “what if” and “better safe than sorry.” This is scaring me quite a lot, because up until now it’s just seemed so natural and normal until i actually thought about it. Just so everyone who comments know, i will not be using this to self diagnose. My therapist i have for depression is away for the holidays at the moment but will hopefully be back in the next couple weeks. I just want to either have a peace of mind that this isn’t schizophrenia symptoms, or if these are in line with what early schizophrenia symptoms is like. I will be asking my therapist about this when i next see her. 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I have been suffering from ghis but only very recently. I feel like I stumbled into Schizophrenia by accident. How do I get out of here?",0.6786363636363646,3.063199212121216,3.0032575757575763,88.22488636363637,87.18181818181819,6.936363636363637,23.40151515151515,8.07648339933343,1.6522787878787888,126,5,26,3,4,43,24,33,0.18600000000000005,0.71,0.10400000000000001,-0.4431,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,7,7,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,1,7,6,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429704559910708,0.34329079820696656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5021142863784157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347627334939923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654647932375455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4744655004426228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3964876562424203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,aztec0,2019/01/05,"What is the best way to manage an episode at home? As a caregiver of someone with schizophrenia, I'm trying to figure out what is the most effective way to manage a psychotic episode. We are at our wit's end trying to make things better. Inpatient treatment where we live is of terrible quality, with hospitals using things like electric shock therapy which isn't even considered legitimate anymore (AFAIK) without the patient's consent. Sexual abuse in hospitals is also very common. Let me give an example: the patient thinks I've thrown their favourite jacket away (I haven't but I guess this is just paranoia). They won't let me go and find it from their cupboard and will hit me if I try to go to their room to get it. 1-2 hours will be spent hitting everyone, breaking phones, glasses, cups, you name it. While she is not looking/is breaking things, I will grab the jacket. She will calm down, cry, start fighting about the fact that I used self defense while she was trying to hit me. Repeat. She has 0 patience, if she isn't given what she wants ASAP, she will start hitting and breaking things. Fights over stuff like this are worse than the voices she hears. Honestly we don't even mind the voices, its just this inability to understand something can't happen immediately (example: her phone was showing an internet error yesterday, she threw a huge tantrum and made her parents buy a new phone - they had no choice because she was screaming and shouting in a public place). Can this be fixed? Considering that she lives with 2 people who are above 60, how can we make her less violent? I'm aware the best option might just be inpatient care but we are looking for a last resort. Thank you. 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I don't have schizophrenia When I first found this community I felt relieved. I was in denial before, ignoring my symptoms. Dreading even saying it in my head. Thinking when I reject my diagnosis I won't be affected. Its like when you have a broken leg, and you say no my leg is not broken. It's still broken if you want it to be true or not. I'm kinda a hypocrite myself, I did ignore it for so long still up to now I didn't get treatment. Though reading the book about SZ from Aaron Beck and feeling good did help me. People are discouraged by the belief it's ""incurable"" but that doesn't mean avoiding any help. Or that you can't live a satisfying life by utilizing therapy. I know it would be much better to get help from a real counselor 1 on 1. But I choose self therapy. Sorry if I'm jumping from topic to topic like a monkey to trees. Simply this community existing and knowing real human beings go through the same things give me a smile this is turning corny. Lol ",1.7642687074829944,4.1585441683673485,3.703061224489797,85.1371768707483,81.8061224489796,6.182312925170067,23.10884353741497,7.447530270364453,1.1877272108843535,771,27,148,12,21,260,121,196,0.11599999999999999,0.703,0.18100000000000002,0.9366,0,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,4,0,2,10,12,0,2,9,1,18,5,3,1,1,32,33,14,0,4,8,0,2,2,0,2,2,2,0,2,13,3,0,4,9,2,0,2,9,6,0,1,6,4,21,6,17,21,2,14,1,2,0,0,12,4,0,5,10,103,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10270013798033732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285085977222027,0.0,0.0,0.13356668530679194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099748605915438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07636126031991661,0.0,0.14500480230424795,0.0,0.0,0.12845923506884588,0.0,0.16558782668996255,0.0,0.0,0.15780552238787598,0.14487406256679586,0.08582928224755247,0.12667008744188232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15499214066379288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036805872582411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16599548199865155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10667130403609368,0.14756344044074854,0.0,0.13335519183236388,0.133649716593621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16450723035942888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11101854596576352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469963855684863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15106286754376366,0.3437921952201423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401975101231666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15754888147055496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16905676335502298,0.0,0.0,0.24121272672308544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15696968209165366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34541363475638504,0.0,0.1003323054427896,0.09676879885952018,0.14837834708569705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642685676858615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907668776448162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10728169494742257,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwaway123434343,2019/01/05,"Afraid to get help because I don't know what will happen I have various mental health issues. It's more socially acceptable to talk about things like depression and anxiety, but I think I have more than that. I am just afraid of what might happen if I tell people my full range of symptoms. Will I get committed involuntarily? What will happen if I am honest with a counselor or psychiatrist? &#x200B; I am basically on the verge of homelessness (again) right now, temporarily living with people that I can't stay with for long. I can't incur any huge medical costs. I am worried that, if I tell a counselor about my symptoms, they might have me go to an expensive mental hospital, and then the people who are temporarily supporting me will get really mad, and then I'll be homeless again. &#x200B; My mental health issues have also made employment very difficult. I apply and interview for jobs, but I don't get hired. I've had jobs in the past though. I have contacted multiple places that said they can help people with disabilities get hired, but maybe they won't hire me because I am afraid of saying my real mental health issues. I only mention stuff like anxiety and depression because I am afraid to tell people about my delusions and paranoia, among other things. But maybe the reason why these places aren't helping me is because they think my issues are mild (because I'm not telling the full story). &#x200B; What should I do?",6.951085802742152,7.97183980075188,6.881525873507298,73.59458867757631,64.52631578947367,10.018222025652367,31.812472357364,10.056822442137396,3.2469777089783283,1161,43,196,25,17,369,131,266,0.111,0.8029999999999999,0.086,-0.7721,3,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,4,0,9,13,1,4,8,0,31,6,0,2,1,31,47,18,0,4,10,0,0,2,0,8,6,3,0,0,15,10,0,0,5,0,2,1,7,8,0,0,3,3,34,5,21,35,5,19,0,2,0,0,19,10,0,6,9,137,49,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0589719466234826,0.0,0.2397002940931649,0.26881606473279,0.050147510386372114,0.0,0.11282580501455156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22476408368676415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12702882121167988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19263737684773108,0.0,0.04190963038226937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956310661541338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351548703060648,0.0,0.0,0.14828437140549794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3078725456546253,0.1463563434830851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04052701545158568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.072053838560256,0.0,0.06511608454479847,0.06525989821257575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06977705012743562,0.0,0.0,0.14816874707414807,0.0,0.0,0.07428793159835385,0.2972608663045897,0.1564585328786335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05608458552913664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07039567500340095,0.25561923845634,0.0,0.15409068530257505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08393524594804605,0.047241410701325315,0.0758196952428187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06297579461265472,0.07014611857186492,0.0586430912877078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07517131452911464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07859982122145118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08441765720711666,0.0,0.08368225136014495,0.0,0.1532936355848677,0.0,0.059271524687422174,0.2578172010973372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979826401059802,0.09450258668228136,0.07245174980210169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060845384505536775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06654124467781802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07488921022793915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26881606473279,0.0 schizophrenia,roodood2,2019/01/05,"Do I have psychosis? Over the summer I did a lot of lsd. Now my mood and temperament has changed a bit. For the most part it has mainly been for the better. I had depression and anxiety and over three months that has been reduced to half of what it was. The problem is my mind races incredibly fast now. I find myself going from one topic to the next just thinking about random things. Also, mainly when i am trying to sleep, I get these loud thoughts. They are not external but purely internal, similar to a song stuck in my head. Sometimes these internal thoughts are literally gibberish. Like three people having conversations at once that make not sense. I also wonder if I have been having delusions. I am convinced that the universe is a machine of moving parts that all interact in sync. And this continues from any level of size. From the molecules interacting in mechanical fashion to form proteins. To proteins that interact to make cells. Onward to organisms working in ecosystems where each member affects all the others in some way. And each member continues to specifically evolve around all the others in it's environment. And these things only exist because there is no other way that they could exist. Each event in time leading up to the next, cause and effect. And in this way anything that happened could never have happened any other way. Upon reflection this sounds slightly insane. Are these symptoms of psychosis?",5.403811141304349,8.092165984375,5.482900815217395,75.57745244565218,70.796875,7.889673913043477,29.880434782608692,8.716276077567194,2.794329008152173,1156,48,179,22,23,363,149,256,0.055999999999999994,0.91,0.034,-0.5529999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,2,4,10,6,0,0,14,0,25,3,2,6,5,42,36,13,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,24,12,0,0,7,1,0,3,4,2,0,4,9,3,15,3,35,25,15,36,0,1,0,0,7,16,0,6,14,153,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20797822774241068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17685680960205485,0.0,0.09947658299443583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700790162581046,0.11575890976658858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792682596757046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150055798221202,0.14196477515750222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13358198490349246,0.13756001464344725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20764507506564767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11199913950819372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884983005614808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793803245047432,0.0,0.07390200893226959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299794210619546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334536450011364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06352863735988896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11055128906899657,0.0,0.0,0.17359903053028256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129849753988818,0.0,0.1037928674219205,0.1382068537347546,0.0,0.0,0.10029117366162008,0.0,0.27658785118674883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13848325930714556,0.08811522652707669,0.0988976400634259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28163093043034104,0.0,0.09015004461433987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124426138417004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13012912414649386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12860815190474453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515637722070906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17277923661629313,0.08332131471232468,0.0,0.20646687011182335,0.07582457915626775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828537475361586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4128636017857244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101764294483346,0.09466718470041018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SarahStew28,2019/01/05,"What's a good way to interact with a friend who has schizophrenia? I don't have schizophrenia, but I have a friend who does. From my understanding, she experiences things (hallucinations) that most people don't. There were times where she stares at me as if there was a demonic mask in front of my face and it scared her because she knew it was me but she was seeing something else. I know I can never fully understand her world or her perspective of the world. I try to be a good friend to her, treat her like any other person, be mindful of when she's struggling, and do what I can to help. For those of you with schizophrenia, how would you like those without schizophrenia to interact with you?",6.417686567164183,6.7420259552238795,5.824589552238809,83.13673507462687,65.56716417910448,9.088059701492536,29.436567164179106,8.841846274778883,2.0175402985074617,554,17,111,8,8,169,79,134,0.052000000000000005,0.74,0.209,0.9716,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,0,0,5,10,0,2,6,0,15,1,1,1,1,19,20,9,0,2,5,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,1,11,5,0,0,4,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,5,2,23,8,18,12,1,10,1,0,2,0,22,5,0,3,5,86,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309494200679686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738459669929555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16851314910579618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608616488576876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883635305727129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44632100931138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230253593943396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12907089698029567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10582757009434617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18815307680160906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19443370201386004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14851643042160234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13349891460681582,0.16813855431184305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19278912173292545,0.0,0.15344775259993107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14824437891439535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20130862184643386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279302780910678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122850139584976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13073761367156256,0.0,0.0,0.4009296771701954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528475192520525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18562382748867465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13679120606404038,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,teadrinker69,2019/01/05,"I struggle with social cues and being socially appealing how do I do better? Am I just doomed because I can’t function well in society? I don’t understand how to talk to people or when they are acting out a certain emotion. I never have much to say and my personality it very flat I’m suspecting due to my schizophrenia, it’s hard for me to get people to hire me and things like that because I can’t fake the outgoing friendly sociopath mask society wants me to put on, I am trying to get on ssi but want to get a job till then so I don’t end up homeless. How do the rest of you handle these situations? I struggle so much with basic social principles that I don’t pick up on, I’m not stupid my mental illness just makes me different and unable to adjust to societal standards appropriately and it’s really messing with me and my paranoia destroys relationships. 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I went to doctor over a month ago and he said they'd call me eventually and i'm on some list.. half of me thinks I'm fucking nuts but maybe theres something actually wrong with my brain itself to cause such bizarre, freakish episodes. Since then I've called wondering what's taking so long for me to get help and they just said there's no room. I take seroquel and have taken seroquel for 8ish years and it was originally prescribed for sleep when I was a minor and I think maybe it was actually for something else. It was during a period I barely remember. I was told I had anxiety. I dropped out of school before 16. It really is a period I can't remember. I stopped taking seroquel May 2017 after a type 1 diabetes diagnosis, which we figure was from seroquel.. and started up again around October 2018 with 25mg enough to knock me out at night. Since last summer (2018) I have had about half a dozen of these episodes at night time (before taking the seroquel) where basically I feel high like a fucking kite, I am out of my own body, I am fucking dying, and the only way to fix it is to take seroquel and within a few hours I'm out. But when I'm lying in my bed after taking the seroquel, I close my eyes and see some insane hallucination or visuals or whatever they're called. Everything is moving, and its not geometric..its beings dancing with me and gesturing me to come closer. I also hear my heart fluttering. I try to breathe normally, and I can't even tell if I am. There is absolutely no distraction that can stop me from getting out of that episode. I am not even me during those times. I want to cry, I even think about suicide during the episodes, but I'm too fucked up to even understand how to harm myself. Also, I usually end up shitting myself or vomiting all over. I thought this was maybe some hypoglycemic episode but my blood sugars run fine and my blood pressure usually sky rockets to about 160+. It honestly feels like a huge drug trip. I have tried DMT once in my life, years ago, and I thought it was an enlightening experience and I can only explain that these episodes are very similar to the DMT trip. The fact that these episodes last hours... It really hurts. I don't think anyone will believe me. I feel like I'm a normal person in every other way. I have a full time job. I have a great relationship with my family, I eat properly and I work out. I have hobbies, I have friends, I don't smoke, maybe weed sometimes but thats a couple times a year. By no means am I looking for a diagnosis but is there anyone here that has this happen to them? 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I’m schizophrenic, been in and out of hospitals the last few years, things were looking hopeless for me up until recently. My mom went on vacation and left me in charge of the place. I’m the middle child age 25 and I’m cleaning cooking and driving my brothers around. It’s humbling, I took what my mom did for granted but at the same time doing this gives me a purpose. My symptoms make me somewhat rough around the edges but ever since caring for my brothers I’ve been feeling softer and gentler. It’s nice, doing things with love is life changing. Thanks to my family I will try my hardest not to go to the hospital and care for them!",3.0802820512820546,5.304073823076923,3.7934615384615378,87.16070512820515,76.15384615384616,6.17948717948718,27.756410256410252,7.1686216300943375,1.5341025641025636,527,22,99,6,12,167,86,130,0.013999999999999999,0.772,0.214,0.9832,0,0,0,0,0,1,12.0,0,0,1,0,3,8,0,0,7,0,9,5,0,1,1,18,24,9,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,6,10,1,0,1,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,6,5,14,7,19,17,3,23,0,1,3,1,8,11,0,1,8,68,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084499589539729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532701041059381,0.0,0.18327047549097544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15671022358075246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633201787534586,0.0,0.08759799068898637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661926051329436,0.09845925323475196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14121798028886942,0.0,0.0,0.18823144278047468,0.0,0.1223682251784235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29096471046425665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563605786016445,0.0,0.11564253228862532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40580542499112415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18100438570965485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17105875823662095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14331023955634198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18006812214349327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595009260257213,0.0,0.0,0.23019285750813334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10102068331332688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19248181837817685,0.11762213497819575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16060005831403554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156424418571917 schizophrenia,RhymesTimewithThyme,2019/04/25,"Is a symptom of schizoaffective making angry faces at people? No matter who it is (even pretty girls, which has ruined my love life, AKA lack thereof) I make a squinted eye, furrowed brow, negative expression at someone when I make eye contact with them. I can’t help it, it just happens. I am diagnosed bipolar type II but I believe I may be schizoaffective too because I used to have undeniable flat affect. I’m 29 and this started 4 years ago, it’s gotten less severe but I still have the angry face thing.",3.5272394043528053,5.882643762886595,4.549415807560142,81.64194730813291,75.28865979381445,6.785337915234822,28.30355097365407,7.793537801064563,2.0372506300114552,403,17,70,6,9,131,77,97,0.17800000000000002,0.7440000000000001,0.079,-0.8628,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,3,0,9,9,4,5,0,13,18,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,8,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,10,1,5,15,2,7,0,1,2,1,7,2,0,1,5,47,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21023107392753798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14457262762001494,0.0,0.0,0.26720197475069074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24071589246809055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566442109007474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20972284075291225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15896565009730595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16751554663985033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21404925796044152,0.0,0.4749252998374293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16441926293420725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412804733788875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679271736521525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20094780734357748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16786549870719394,0.0,0.18939902412664927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24650361537316226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575608467877957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20483305953258346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15272547528561994 schizophrenia,keyixing,2019/04/25,"I think my boyfriend has schizophrenia I need some help. My boyfriend has been saying that God, the devil and Jesus have been talking to him. He’s starting so do things that “God” tells him to do. He stares out the window and talks to them. He claims that he has unlocked his third eye and knows all the secrets of life but can’t tell anyone or “they” will kill him. There’s this and so much more as well. He says that he sees an eye in the sky and that stars appear for him. I just would like some advice about how to go about getting him the help that he needs. He is very adamant that everything is okay and there is absolutely nothing wrong.",2.7756293706293738,4.53661657692308,2.543706293706297,97.87493006993007,75.53846153846153,5.3426573426573425,21.048951048951047,5.565023196281405,-0.2716153846153846,505,12,114,2,11,149,83,130,0.064,0.7909999999999999,0.145,0.8256,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,0,9,6,1,0,6,1,14,3,2,1,1,21,23,12,1,3,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,1,0,9,7,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,3,1,1,2,6,13,3,11,19,5,6,2,0,4,0,25,3,0,4,2,74,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19982083008774496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14298099187769134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837783509333455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10683521580490148,0.0,0.11621380231242852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27412459407471296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262328703376123,0.0,0.1123798639845767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444341315112542,0.09990126939697204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15032034541156164,0.3032467630220849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19620931898086533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32523009894082205,0.0,0.0,0.16294844103994513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14473586483649606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287153425096525,0.3574586195079581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358510569463727,0.1310260294177414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16872192434180233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18385699104246755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452606075908034,0.22357275566451132,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PineapplePie989,2019/04/25,"My boyfriend called me schizophrenic I don't know where else to say this and I have no one I can say it to but here goes. Sorry if it gets long Side note: his mother has schizophrenia and there's the possibility he has it. I was just cuddling with my boyfriend when out of nowhere he says I'm schizophrenic, and because it caught me off guard I just said no Im not, burns few minutes later I asked ""why would you call me that?"" To which he replys ""call you what?"" And out of fear that I miss heard him and sounding crazy I let it go but brought it up again the next morning and he said that he did, I asked him why, what have I done to make him say that, and he just says that he can't remember why he said it and it was a joke. this really annoyed be because he called me schizophrenic and then didn't give me any context, when I kept pressing he just said it was a joke and then ""look who's starting to sound like my ma"" I was annoyed at this point and said go him that's not something you joke about you don't just say it out of nowhere to someone and expect them to think it funny, and he tells me he's allowed to Joke about it because his ma has it and he might have it so he's allowed to. In the end he just apologized and said I'm not schizophrenic or crazy. But now it's really annoying me that he called me it and I keep thinking that he thinks I actually do have it. I don't know what to do",1.0324418604651164,2.778443348837208,2.323430232558138,97.5516569767442,80.62790697674419,5.761794019933555,21.381229235880397,6.7097532225279775,0.11864584717607984,1092,32,266,11,28,350,126,301,0.099,0.831,0.07,-0.8413,2,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,4,1,0,16,10,3,1,5,0,25,5,0,3,0,49,53,26,0,3,14,3,1,1,0,2,4,15,0,0,33,20,0,3,6,4,0,4,10,5,0,1,17,17,37,5,23,32,1,25,0,1,1,1,55,10,0,3,12,167,70,0,0.0,0.0,0.08711326108178853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06070569844149822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669081518049324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16325190119679014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4557660267363675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09135275508017876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07457244744794117,0.0,0.07906546932763367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100451975427139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046639150846689216,0.08563456025598001,0.10146678725140006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964253895580458,0.0,0.0,0.07934601932679729,0.0,0.0,0.09811935865938738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128317552921776,0.0,0.04361212113512998,0.0,0.0,0.07899988794442914,0.07496312790416708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059587473170076524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09469986089389876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09493815208192967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06049070297822305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843876662744384,0.1006369158927916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437548184904388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112390408694008,0.0,0.5094891955420886,0.42593976705447206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07563698174915033,0.06872331742556367,0.0,0.09992887154339193,0.06318476339639371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07802467730830415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715991128435503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416530373418883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634138410117611,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ajg1245,2019/04/25,"How can I support my bf? My bf (paranoid schizo) was diagnosed a few months ago. We have been together for 3 years. His delusions usually involve me trying to hurt him, putting him in danger, getting other people to hurt him, etc. I feel like I've done something bad to him because they almost all include me being the bad guy, even though I know delusions are random/can't be controlled. But the problem is I have bad social anxiety/depression and sadly my brain chemistry doesn't work with medications for it. He had a delusion last night that ended up really affecting my mental health. He was saying that I was doing a social experiment on him & he and a friend (that was over at our apartment that night) we're talking about how fucked up the games I play on him are. Idk if I did something. I don't think I did. He said his friend specifically told me to cut it out/stop hurting him but I don't remember that conversation. I feel like shit and can't stop overthinking it, even though I'm almost positive it was a delusion. How can I support him through these? He noticed how it's affected me this morning, but is still insistent that everything happened. He said he would just stop telling me when he struggles, but that's not fair to him? To anyone who is in a relationship with someone who doesn't struggle with schizophrenia- how do you have them support you? He doesn't know his triggers, and he doesn't know how I can help. I feel useless, and like a shitty partner due to how much fear he has in his eyes when he looks at me while in a delusion. I'm just at a loss on what to do. Sorry that this was more of a rant, and not an actual question. If anyone has advice on how to support a loved one, please let me know. I'm worried I make them worse by me being around, but am also scared he may not be safe. ((He was doing really well on being med compliant and had no symptoms for almost a month...until he smoked weed the other night with his friend. Since then he doesn't believe he is schizophrenic and I honestly don't know if he's taking his meds))",3.8442147398163407,5.243750493917278,4.71105878659446,84.90069225335532,72.04136253041362,7.638992229809277,27.61329565968133,8.155646560271837,1.755738654736677,1627,59,324,24,31,527,200,411,0.16699999999999998,0.696,0.136,-0.8727,0,0,3,0,0,0,52.0,2,2,3,3,21,33,4,4,17,0,49,10,3,13,1,61,75,31,0,5,13,0,3,3,6,2,5,3,0,2,21,14,0,4,11,2,0,1,13,18,1,1,16,8,50,15,36,51,5,35,0,6,2,2,64,17,2,8,20,220,71,1,0.0,0.0,0.07608325566715166,0.0,0.0,0.07618715882501649,0.06911186993346552,0.0,0.23421409511354824,0.0,0.0,0.06234912503925415,0.0,0.08447578023146347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903083059319303,0.0,0.0,0.06940598367232832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19529425510456971,0.047527154046968965,0.0,0.0,0.08784062117905551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703548215897139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08744513814967275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06715172476740232,0.07913352265377728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07978595835298087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06905444983456457,0.0,0.08695234097869609,0.1029911908582484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007052470460699,0.07626539414957156,0.0,0.08773306421760396,0.11826536917897518,0.1113973927957288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18070826974241266,0.07207801357939671,0.04073384917407635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771982795989828,0.06894479213471577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08287387055358593,0.0,0.0,0.05225875094564077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503916145221857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21423949000629736,0.06355243403116173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07972518874455123,0.0,0.11427027715317248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06547153389869441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703670689548767,0.0,0.052042695904840224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17320458572729666,0.07854221882322854,0.07857106634462725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124462921707115,0.0,0.05731374464550565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21949652358789856,0.0,0.0,0.08876444188335464,0.0,0.0,0.052831561613298585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054051584773723266,0.0,0.0,0.08558290249156025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07460262496247197,0.0,0.07837704129696729,0.08733940335928303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998936203226776,0.0,0.0,0.08370596101740614,0.08831991539707862,0.0,0.14832642869258816,0.06200143696680574,0.07805724554008357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08003064872585873,0.06449401504513844,0.0,0.0,0.15895238184572874,0.06606006650249649,0.12004357694920607,0.0,0.0872761940920528,0.0,0.0,0.062263491673348076,0.19554839524217987,0.0,0.16301331095404098,0.0,0.0,0.35389811273703903,0.0,0.0810361926309288,0.058620487387979765,0.06266585920247995,0.06814543960673446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049957258755642484,0.15320176681857087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07449954708516503,0.0,0.05293357799421359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08586818011256801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07010050839790398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056759942615824364,0.0791779312018414,0.07945368732724567,0.055384581160428666,0.0,0.0,0.05020734083822735 schizophrenia,lymphnuts,2019/04/25,"Nothing can stop them I can’t take it. I want out. I can’t take it. I want out. I can’t take it. I want out.",-5.9759523809523785,-5.761350499999999,-1.5485714285714265,114.47690476190478,125.42857142857143,1.866666666666667,8.238095238095239,3.1291,-2.784733333333333,78,1,27,0,6,29,11,28,0.0,0.722,0.278,0.4191,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,10,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,3,10,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,17,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059083190192591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665407646938092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7191199173068487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5641300077498466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gvcfbkbb,2019/04/25,My dad He take a his meds daily but recently he's no longer doing what he usually does and is now telling me to do so I agree like usual but when I ask why he snaps and starts shouting while talking about his past and almost threatening he then calms down and does some sort of apology saying he's sick idk what to do he takes his meds in front of me so he doesn't do a sneaky one but he's just more angry and lazy,1.2342032967032956,2.7914255384615387,2.7209752747252764,95.81464972527478,79.32967032967035,6.308241758241758,19.06730769230769,7.1686216300943375,0.03635054945054962,328,7,79,4,8,107,61,91,0.21100000000000002,0.669,0.121,-0.866,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,0,12,10,13,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,8,2,7,10,2,12,0,0,0,0,18,2,0,3,10,44,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20911500957520884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19522966187494328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3655004539112083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10202473121638006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4639303870922998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415099186146176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199353704522251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061963346296724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660715305631531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14781231306117312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31403123989180537,0.1678511928261049,0.1825283091817404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4599977289430023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884383327442158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SerenityNOW_or_else_,2019/04/25,"I need guidance to help my son find the correct therapies, etc. Thank you so much. TLDR; What professionals should I make appointments with to help my son manage schizophrenia? He is currently making a medication switch and needs coping skills. My son is 17, had a psychotic break and was hospitalized during January and February. This was the first time it ever happened though it has been leading up to this his entire life. We adopted our son and has only been with us for 2.5 years. He had a very traumatic childhood - his birth mother has undiagnosed mental conditions and lifelong alcohol/drug abuse. He was only in the hospital for 5 days before he came home. The doctor ""stabilized"" him with Risperdol which worked great for him until he realized it made him sexually dysfunctional. He stopped taking it without telling me and it was 2 days before I could tell. He is now making the switch to Seroquel with a much lighter dose of Risperdol until the Seroquel reaches a therapeutic dose that works for him. I am fucking shocked and appalled at how hard it has been to find therapists, psychiatrists, support groups etc to help us. He is currently waiting for a psychiatrist appt (next week, have been waiting for fucking 1.5 months already) and is seeing a regular therapist once a week. His pediatrician has been a miracle worker and helping him with the medication switch. Though it isn't her specialty, she is going above and beyond to research and learn to tide him over until the psychiatrist appt. Y'all, I am so lost. I am sitting down today and making ""aggressive"" phone calls to find my son some goddamn support. We're fighting for his life at this point because he his terrified that his life will be this hard for forever. Does CBT help? Regular therapy but more often? Is there any sort of therapies or practices that I should look for? He is currently white knuckling the delusions, voices, auditory hallucinations, etc and I don't know what skills to help him learn how to use until I find a professional. I am eternally grateful for my son's mental fortitude and the strength of our relationship. He sticks to me like glue since the breakdown and we talk openly and constantly. He's terrified and I will stop at nothing to help him. What professionals do I make appointments with to help him? Thank you so very very much - I am so grateful for any guidance.",6.051764372698951,8.129979803738319,6.203228547153782,73.68898187482301,67.55140186915888,9.580402152364767,33.53044463324837,9.946784424281523,3.67848660436137,1908,88,315,47,33,607,210,428,0.066,0.82,0.114,0.9699,3,0,2,0,4,0,50.0,6,3,0,9,13,13,4,0,21,0,39,10,0,10,2,62,64,31,0,5,3,7,2,1,0,4,8,1,1,0,18,27,0,4,8,0,0,3,3,6,0,1,14,6,46,7,47,44,8,40,0,1,3,2,61,10,2,4,26,211,64,12,0.0,0.08761336987717594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07902529095586801,0.0,0.0,0.08160073903418671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10057100194585564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04507651311831225,0.0,0.12584441156304255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07550666105247245,0.08457399520124427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07990885604235458,0.0,0.05903949442338001,0.0,0.0,0.0953775082199334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07568639062939324,0.06471023788354605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08575334695745745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474064616779292,0.0,0.06688797182792201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27033952533095124,0.06289803613771927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367229151336391,0.0,0.0,0.04202495284661955,0.0,0.0,0.08152521577543509,0.0,0.0,0.06538979430639875,0.0,0.13248135383283502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3965130788550584,0.0,0.07417340292738102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04063853338319244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15668975918759084,0.03612605432561596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06209562755943596,0.0,0.08072028889122324,0.0,0.0,0.06996905519410848,0.24679610127176085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489846984579714,0.14903941857335953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05902262228377675,0.0,0.16307543429717497,0.1096593576951593,0.0,0.0,0.07864191766913835,0.0,0.0,0.07095273723228279,0.0,0.0,0.07874958375979631,0.0,0.11247782625548136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06990243393107151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07938983357078744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05892501935978312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061168512475242874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12364356026434792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678250385618709,0.0,0.0,0.055597841312668435,0.05943462176631309,0.12926331752793105,0.13615823145116454,0.2536894984979993,0.17171293600141285,0.0,0.0,0.14530222964584058,0.0,0.043118237375351184,0.0,0.07009172300799965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17789475307204022,0.06386520219686645,0.0,0.18303843709354792,0.0,0.0,0.11862929917594013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07128085907471354,0.0,0.10766646348688864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047618501534792884 schizophrenia,CourtM092,2019/04/25,"I was just diagnosed and I'm still taken back and shocked I was diagnosed while in a long term hospital. I was having paranoid delusions that the workers were out to get me and going to harm me and auditory hallucinations. It was a dark time of my life. I was only there 4 months but since I had a history of this when I was in my early 20's but stopped treatment the dr just formally diagnosed me with it. She put me on meds and I feel normal. I just want to remind you guys to not forget to take your meds because it can truly prevent relapse and can make your life different if you are on the right medication. It takes a long time to find the right meds but don't give up!",3.501642857142855,4.471251592857144,5.041428571428573,83.85357142857143,72.35714285714286,8.457142857142857,27.57142857142857,8.841846274778883,1.9454428571428568,533,19,114,10,10,180,86,140,0.057999999999999996,0.8759999999999999,0.066,0.2479,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,0,1,7,2,0,0,8,0,13,7,0,1,0,24,23,12,0,3,8,0,1,0,0,0,7,0,0,1,6,8,0,2,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,9,1,19,0,15,14,1,22,0,0,0,0,7,8,0,1,12,80,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11501010461830675,0.0,0.09117648930940593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4554312325409203,0.0,0.15626882519127105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07562709069404408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13670427865922205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07814415649800482,0.14348118172816518,0.08500408303302144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14809782440592134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112914415239294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647295027796393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998391425270486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4984156860086205,0.15067604863939507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11938535430957413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14654685223137995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375473182908975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15035917069331756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25546394112744913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12372585716940793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944680250180795,0.12504722493762954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22491606530280625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744309502722837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08822026661249918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PS4MENG,2019/04/25,"Dating as a schizophrenic Hey all, ladies and gentlemen. I haven’t posted here in a while but I figured I could come here of all places. I’ve found that dating has been hard, I’ve put myself out there the past few years. I approached women and met a lady through my cousin but I got stood up. Now, I can accept that it’s very possible my game lacked, but for the most part, ever since I was diagnosed and hospitalized twice: dating has been non existent for me. After much thought, I’ve found the stigma surrounding schizos is a great pain to deal with. Often times people have these assumptions made about me and it limits the possibility to actually get to know me. And to make things worse, I tried tinder but let’s be honest I don’t care much personally for those women as at this point in my life I need a real relationship. Maybe I was too narrow minded but I wanna ask anyone here for some pointers on how to go about dating, perhaps where you may have met your partner and whatnot. I’m open to any ideas, at this point it seems I might just look for a female who’s also been diagnosed with this condition. TL;DR datings been hard, any tips? Also any ladies perhaps want try and make a connection? I’m in Canada.",4.194416666666665,5.646550275000003,4.950000000000003,83.32166666666669,71.25,7.833333333333335,24.16666666666667,8.344100000000001,1.3936666666666673,966,26,189,15,18,312,148,240,0.051,0.865,0.084,0.8693,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,2,0,1,15,5,0,0,11,0,19,5,0,4,3,46,41,18,0,5,6,1,2,0,1,2,5,0,0,4,12,12,0,1,8,1,0,4,2,1,0,1,14,3,22,4,29,22,9,32,0,0,1,0,15,15,0,6,12,129,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.12000078340756715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19667780469907334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25087103661900084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08598334135436929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11496016062867966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12537590369725846,0.0,0.0,0.10592759175092953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981813768772634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267764612713947,0.0,0.2496235112176882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11123322167190433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696600708959237,0.0,0.0,0.06424664361734511,0.0,0.06988656955790644,0.0,0.09835018028205554,0.13557463547449475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203135690254272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388179330421797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675809845731745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257449490399872,0.08685720437285414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10326365886745904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635699534443132,0.1641665889415643,0.0,0.12353968949683425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13045152201552926,0.1241644403683222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18079389997637355,0.09118054643878744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130848534178215,0.0,0.0,0.1331643069893843,0.11738858569801013,0.08525177399930453,0.10737248370131096,0.1284772652299488,0.0,0.23249241130719095,0.2772599394601495,0.11777107367390048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12361861061715824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13996655066635474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13202354197243915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11194708489872618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10172188693362436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08169566911917853,0.0,0.0,0.09762428307393813,0.0717046776124865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669768406247012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10146296108406533,0.072530772394032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253167288949994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918851763856936 schizophrenia,LazerXZero,2019/04/25,"What drugs do you guys take? Hey everybody, quick background I was diagnosed with schizophrenia about five years ago, though I only get episodes Aug-Dec (I think it is a seasonal psychotic depression). Before my first episode I was smoking a shit ton of marijuana daily and not doing much else, except working sometimes to get more money for weed. I was also very stressed from rigorous course load at college, and not getting laid lol. Wondering if any of you guys/gals used to use drugs or drank a lot and if you still do? Also, do you think it helps or hurts with the symptoms? Looking forward to contributing regularly and creating a positive community here. &#x200B; \-Lazer",5.912314049586778,8.334780272727276,5.7075123966942165,75.69399586776862,68.58677685950414,9.137520661157025,35.240495867768594,9.642632912329526,3.85018611570248,547,28,88,13,10,170,91,121,0.11599999999999999,0.8170000000000001,0.067,-0.7374,1,0,2,0,0,0,22.0,0,4,0,2,7,4,1,1,5,1,8,6,1,2,0,19,19,11,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,3,6,1,0,3,0,1,1,2,4,0,2,4,1,10,0,12,15,4,8,0,2,1,0,7,2,1,6,7,60,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14225503949903778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566701567683887,0.0,0.17387903792948767,0.19499967195518444,0.10913129114250024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13655589435547985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13822041377858466,0.16288290856040233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37220961478722825,0.0,0.13405969591953215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13650344057887365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515311188418679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15889953960417155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107565758054287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17179619578311928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13476202640425852,0.0,0.0,0.13643359213268536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797060354803425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12205158710431165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16472949012363344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587179334558402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281588166528719,0.0,0.18382826698193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16679923137172106,0.12066031141767655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20565705498604547,0.15766990106821838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27720483399670803,0.0,0.1324120643276362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17403273849697395,0.11683069618215335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19499967195518444,0.10334327896148046 schizophrenia,Luingalls,2019/05/14,"Help for Daughter Brand new, never posted here but thank you in advance for taking the time... I have a question.  I'll try to make it short (there is so much to tell).  My daughter married someone who did not disclose their dx or mental health history fully prior to the very short dating period and subsequent wedding, all he told her is that he's had a ""history"", and some of his past behaviors - which I'm afraid he doctored to make sound less bad / violent on his part.  They dated around six months, and they've been married for about a year and a half now.  In that time period, she's had to suffer more and more consequences for his behavior, beginning with his damaging his mom's house (she was living there with him) so much that there are so many holes in the walls and windows broken that the house looks like it should be condemned, to his being arrested a few days ago for hit and run while intoxicated IN HER (DAD's) CAR (her dad bought her a brand new car a few years ago, registered in his name as he pays for it).  He's now facing many thousands in fines, and jail time, and since the car actually is registered in her dad's name (my ex), my ex will be the one to suffer financially for an un-drive able (possibly totaled) car to sky high insurance rates (and possibly being kicked off the policy all together).  Btw, her dad and I had already told her not to let him drive the car.  And actually, since this guy doesn't work my daughter will be the one to pay all these fines and help her dad fix the car.  This incident happened while she was at school and her dad was out of town.  He's damaged her vehicle lots of times before this, mostly small stuff like kicking the windshield from the inside (cracking it severely) and breaking mirrors, etc, but now she doesn't have a car at all.  She's going to nursing school and works part time in her field, so she's really busy with all of that, and now has this added to her plate as well, along with no car / transportation. I don't know how to help her see that this relationship is really really bad for her life.  She insists that we should all look past his ""mistakes"" and see past his mental illness to the ""real"" him, but we can't do that at this point because we're so frightened for her.  One main reason we're so scared for her is that just before he wrecked her car, they got ""evicted"" from his mom's house for him choking the mom's dog and trying to throw the dog out a second story window.  It's been said that harming animals is not a stage, it's a rehearsal, so I'm wondering if he could turn violent on my daughter.  Am I being unreasonable here, as my daughter believes because we shouldn't be emphasizing ""things"" (cars, houses, dogs) over people (her husband)?  I'm so confused, I need 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schizophrenia,dakd2,2019/05/14,I think I seem to experience something having to do with things happening far away from me I am able to remember the things that were happening inside my head between random days I was taking a walk away from home 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schizophrenia,_metaphysical_,2019/05/14,I don’t feel like a person just thought this is a safe place to rant a little. i just started a new medicine and now i’m on three different meds and it’s all so much. i don’t know how else to describe it other than not feeling real or like a person. but i know i need to be on them as i haven’t been hallucinating as much and i’m not suicidal. im also sick rn so that’s not helping. i’ve missed so much school this year it’s insane but i’m pretty sure i won’t have to repeat so that’s good. i feel so guilty for missing school yesterday and today but i just know i can’t do it today. sorry this is all over the place but this is where i’m at right now. does anyone have any tips on how to not feel so 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schizophrenia,AnxiousBeast,2019/05/14,Please help me.... Please I need to talk to someone I've had the worst mental breakdown of all time plz.....someone I just need something. 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He said he *needs* his own place to stay, but he dropped out right before his last year of college and moved back in with his parents and hasn’t worked in over two years. I think he just thinks about what to do all day and the moment he chooses something he thinks God tells him not to. He’s a gifted musician but won’t play shows anymore, but still expects to blow up on social media/YouTube over night and be famous, despite zero attempt to market himself. He also can’t go to the grocery store 50% of the time. I don’t want to attack his beliefs at all so I just try to talk with an open mind with him. I don’t feel like I’m in the position to give him advice. But basically he doesn’t believe in medication, therapy, or really any outside help. He knows he has schizophrenia but he says it’s more spiritual than a mental illness. He believes most things that would help him are demonic as well. I think the best thing for him would be to understand his mental illness, but I also don’t want him to give up his faith in God because I feel like that’s what’s keeping him alive. I also think he needs to do some therapy around some satanic abuse he says he experienced as a child (honestly I don’t believe it happened but he still needs to deal with it). Any advice?",3.933932253313692,5.0782936254295565,4.817722140402555,85.20298969072168,71.5085910652921,7.879626902307315,28.290132547864513,8.269060116576782,1.826037997054492,1139,42,233,17,21,370,152,291,0.061,0.784,0.155,0.975,1,0,1,0,1,0,27.0,0,0,0,4,13,11,1,0,10,0,21,6,0,2,2,52,43,19,0,9,11,1,2,2,1,3,6,3,0,1,11,11,0,2,11,2,1,2,9,2,1,2,1,6,27,9,41,37,8,31,4,0,0,0,51,17,0,4,12,144,38,3,0.0,0.11073165705191122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826508478564102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22421338570350555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271083821161947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09268456135297748,0.0,0.0,0.07690742177194436,0.08319684025214197,0.0,0.10632120794107544,0.0,0.07186292010742537,0.0,0.0569707226044416,0.0,0.07952530671194158,0.4211776415350467,0.09807770486128184,0.08265541608726805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06027224809113765,0.09635040636693552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399342451156983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094509671033514,0.13353187437967845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07220490345125953,0.0,0.0,0.179305578995341,0.0531139559265702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264401070272538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18792744043772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08306917145273363,0.0,0.0,0.0513617059586769,0.07618019977481261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13202335596519368,0.09131706413828816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062383495318315774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941484305349622,0.18836602002431108,0.0,0.09436526438611303,0.0,0.0,0.09933035439869267,0.0,0.2078922841203807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08770337581197919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10377330808856076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09764302134383072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942604575270661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05987116047104886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07981205152580871,0.088899324958548,0.1486420442100059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09526798137859273,0.0,0.07194802066266698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099613081817077,0.14927029331488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07511746396313337,0.08168582812167331,0.0,0.2137532097725333,0.0,0.1241777982933434,0.29941842592061635,0.0,0.0,0.05449572229014446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06345139423641209,0.0,0.09129423421460273,0.09729237934200184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102471125032028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402936591617803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06803805131303416,0.0,0.0,0.13277881552662385,0.0,0.0,0.120366916343215 schizophrenia,guest1949,2019/05/14,"Does anyone fear a paranormal being is out to get them? I wouldn't necessarily classify myself as a schizophrenic rather I am a anxious person and I honestly don't know if this is something a schizophrenic person faces. But ever since a couple months ago, I always feared an unknown spirit is out to get me and make my life miserable. Part of these fears are strengthened by my OCD and GAD. But I got these fears based of several incidents that I witnessed: - My headphones as well as another important item disappeared from my room despite me never taking it outside of my room. - I found my backup headphones cut with a scissor the next morning when I used them the night before. - I noticed that my phone's screentime app showed I was using my phone during the day despite not touching it for the whole day. - One of the lights in my bedroom was on while I was downstairs despite me remembering turning it off. - I used a silver fork to eat cake for lunch and when I was putting my lunchware in the sink, I saw a plastic spoon instead of my silver fork. I could be listing out more but these events certainly did scare the heck out of me and I was losing sleep each day because I feared what was going to happen next.",7.099263783426872,6.976282386266098,6.998283261802572,76.81131726642458,64.1931330472103,9.572664245625619,34.66127434796962,9.057496981413335,2.9993350280620663,968,39,175,14,13,308,139,233,0.11800000000000001,0.8320000000000001,0.05,-0.9359999999999999,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,2,1,6,12,1,7,16,0,17,7,2,4,3,29,31,15,0,4,6,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,3,2,10,11,2,0,3,1,0,3,4,9,1,1,10,3,35,3,26,17,5,27,1,2,1,0,6,10,1,1,14,128,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09798063839850092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09197212576804156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11590325510695094,0.0,0.1248705770669862,0.0,0.07728708828833865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0673797554496643,0.0,0.09405525282721998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825142897983124,0.1223024163248191,0.0,0.21385349269551307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09672797876443616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310262627955794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09998322568695986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6219005251176879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119348573160482,0.0,0.0,0.11549762870970028,0.0,0.06281832488144594,0.0,0.0884031598086644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09774377041331288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06074592402490269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07807256983857526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12365790522539173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07378148751646145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08822620873625568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08524969240810708,0.0,0.2351057264225932,0.1037275243172086,0.0,0.0,0.12584230018939685,0.0,0.0,0.07489987088244253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969622707179185,0.0,0.0,0.1930259163425668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11111597109809887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252120902276016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066259322760046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248705770669862,0.0,0.09143385605234948,0.0,0.11061260330100496,0.0,0.0,0.08509353253244402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08310689296983284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12022792201544365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863944929240799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09938224174079577,0.0,0.0,0.12340589911729799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Senpai_Hates_Me,2019/05/14,"Anyone here who experiences visual hallucinations- What's it like? For 10 years I've been experiencing what I've always referred to as hallucinations, but maybe it's something else? I've always called it hallucinations. And since I told my psychiatrist that I experienced hallucinations, they were quick to diagnose me with Schizophrenia. But lately I'm thinking it may be something different? I'll be honest- I don't know much about Schizophrenia. But from what I've heard, auditory hallucinations are much more common. Those that do have visual hallucinations tend to see objects or people that are not actually there... Is that correct? I have no delusions, no auditory hallucinations, no paranoia, etc. (at least, not that I am aware of). But I do experience something visual. I do not see things or people that are not there, but rather... It feels like a very mild (but bad/scary) LSD trip. I feel extreme dissociation. The walls ""melt"", things warp, things appear bigger/smaller than they actually are, shadows become... Darker? And it's nearly constant. I'm on medication for it (an antipsychotic), and it helps tremendously, although I still experience extreme dissociation. I'm not looking for a diagnosis or anything. I just want to know if this sounds consistent with what you guys experience. Thanks everyone, and have a great day 😊",5.457710144927539,8.695998213043481,6.360543478260869,66.52965579710147,73.3913043478261,8.702898550724639,30.45289855072464,9.2995712137729,3.415463768115943,1079,48,167,28,24,355,132,230,0.048,0.843,0.109,0.9419,1,0,3,0,0,0,53.0,0,1,2,0,8,5,0,0,5,0,18,2,0,0,1,33,35,16,0,3,17,0,2,2,0,1,2,2,0,1,24,6,0,0,6,0,0,2,9,0,0,0,4,9,15,5,17,28,5,13,0,0,3,0,9,4,0,6,9,114,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.2443763021653951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083716372428736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08755064096806821,0.0,0.10303821790726128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045461919273194,0.0,0.13828602564997544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12785472026110653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530891570718892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08075091960553371,0.0,0.0,0.12708681742046427,0.0,0.1308191417491934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10459796088704162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396436795893609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964474752050885,0.0,0.4899226470274518,0.0,0.0,0.12662117457495153,0.08945096619347051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380458824679189,0.0,0.12397885669129348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08392648421715561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376256940806568,0.0,0.14124378199080795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12234381723565622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10514594315768083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125791564157379,0.0,0.0,0.1261371955733269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840894012342773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736114772870414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19955436412132715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10357606788989507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891812907089445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09999389301638374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11527772749306073,0.0,0.0,0.24955443983810144,0.08023033487442223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964474752050885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10331242235420153,0.073852859321149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08063196157956264 schizophrenia,SenseiDezy,2019/03/15,"Whats possible? Is it possible to have a full recovery from schizophrenia? My entire childhood, I did not have schizophrenia. It developed through age and meditation, I'm 24 now, and it comes and goes. It's like tourettes syndrome, but it's in my head. When I'm around certain people, my head will blurt out bad things, racial slurs, it's like my mind mentally attacks certain people, but I am NOT that type of person. I love everybody, and I just want this to go away. Is there anybody that is more educated on the subject that can help me? 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Or will it definitely develop into the real thing? I’m being serious— is it a thing?,2.8128828828828847,4.366142000000004,5.803783783783783,75.41936936936938,74.94594594594594,9.257657657657658,31.25225225225225,9.725611199111238,3.3465927927927925,142,7,27,4,3,52,30,37,0.054000000000000006,0.856,0.08900000000000001,0.3134,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,0,1,6,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4350180584006752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4569875209603673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3784028887036834,0.4173054937391377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5334689056239803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pain_redeyes,2019/03/15,"watching me forme theyre weird and the eyes follow me on thr painting nd the wall ? its gun it was sad i was so sad its ok its not todya ocld its cold it hurts who ok she died died why did she show me i saw the bullet tear through her beautiful flesh it was so fast but so slow it was pretty sad what",-3.0798595258999133,-2.8601842537313398,-1.0201053555750654,109.39589991220372,130.34328358208955,2.173485513608429,9.911325724319578,4.514644488427479,-2.130065144863916,233,4,61,1,17,74,46,67,0.22399999999999998,0.649,0.127,-0.6943,0,0,0,1,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,3,2,5,2,2,0,0,3,7,5,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,5,0,0,6,4,8,2,2,1,1,5,0,4,3,0,4,2,0,0,2,35,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7680492459542936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3961164163776585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37644560116322745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33388748079258523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,slinkysoft,2019/03/15,"Sick and tired of being paranoid What the title said. I’m not schizophrenic/schizo-affective etc but I deal with really bad paranoia and I thought some people may relate. I’m sick and tired of having to second guess myself all the time. I don’t trust myself. And I feel like an idiot when I tell someone something and they give me a stupid sad sympathetic look and tell me how wrong I am. It’s so relentless. The delusions and mistrust just never ever end.",1.5946254681647931,4.323895494382029,2.8148595505617986,88.09135299625471,88.43820224719101,5.213857677902623,19.77621722846442,6.816661863887847,0.5934936329588023,365,11,67,5,12,117,67,89,0.344,0.5329999999999999,0.12300000000000001,-0.9783,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,5,7,2,0,5,0,5,4,0,1,3,20,13,11,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,2,3,11,2,4,9,3,5,0,1,1,0,6,0,0,3,6,46,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17541358148889394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21659011629429376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18607441918975365,0.0,0.23430215407641605,0.0,0.19003540701559826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10622612509867356,0.15008594821461288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20153426265228414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.231434135715408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10263772768140936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17641987841258494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16203177966523738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14564763410832418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345868906843432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998405181388394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17800574091223653,0.1617349708222816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672499925966141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16678533705769447,0.12250321792534165,0.4829274095494762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229696777141972,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mhurwitz2442,2019/03/15,Conversations with myself Hi I just found this sub and I was curious if anyone could help me find some clarity in my situation. About almost a year and a half ago I took acid and had an extremely bad trip and ever since then I feel like my mind has split into two people. I have my self in reality and then I have second self in my mind where I have conversations with myself. I don't really hear voices however this second self sometimes talks to me and we have conversations in my head. I feel like I have control of what this second self is saying however at times I feel like it comes out of nowhere and I am not controlling it. I was curious if anyone else has experienced something like this and if this matches symptoms of schizophrenia or it can be categorized as more of an inner dialogue. Thanks for the help and support!,4.625185185185185,6.107675654320989,5.8453703703703725,77.1991666666667,70.23456790123457,9.350617283950617,27.69753086419753,9.725611199111238,2.6115827160493827,664,23,125,16,12,222,95,162,0.023,0.805,0.172,0.9674,2,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,2,4,7,0,0,5,0,16,2,1,2,1,35,25,16,0,4,6,0,3,4,0,0,1,3,0,4,9,15,0,2,6,0,0,3,2,1,0,5,5,8,23,6,17,18,2,18,0,0,0,0,14,9,0,6,10,96,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112843526055582,0.0,0.12553485593233502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753161303643621,0.12845117289974287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046744696004706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107990775841402,0.0,0.0,0.2812148299003198,0.10009368557234023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10472630208045668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11339974513847274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901648072179785,0.2686821662924025,0.0,0.0,0.11458126340059024,0.0,0.0,0.13745616127085575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12866057311499754,0.0,0.1412953732456786,0.0,0.16805892321683688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449878650184057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531656582699747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0869122488660748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08031197629045671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969521416017643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5231318000207141,0.0,0.0,0.10370315522553238,0.1409154198326973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651203825253284,0.12398910896127413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226262271586776,0.0,0.13030215063226747,0.0,0.10076357193249366,0.0,0.11541917270858087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731012915410878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928503609483686,0.0,0.0,0.12246330814389388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08073089660744233 schizophrenia,kcamsps,2019/03/15,If anyone's looking for a job.... I suggest the post office lol. It pays pretty decent and if you have the ability to stay organized all you do is pretty much walk around alone outside all day and listen to music if you want. It's a pretty good gig ,2.8614705882352967,4.245117058823531,4.653088235294117,84.41139705882355,74.49019607843138,6.668627450980392,22.553921568627448,7.1686216300943375,0.850721568627451,194,5,38,2,4,66,38,51,0.034,0.645,0.321,0.9423,1,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,3,0,0,0,2,9,6,5,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,4,6,3,5,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,3,1,25,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24814575324738586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16752876870640993,0.0,0.0,0.21328827676028506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545174539425631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20095896783982453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377587595273489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20119750348949508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17612818352710238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22946355248635436,0.7312556547782709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553739120278505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14131796695848675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cantoitak,2019/03/15,"Saying Hello. Vent. Finally made a new account to be able to get on here without my family and friends digging deeper. I managed to escape detection with schizophrenia for almost two years. It got to a point where the voice talks over whoever I'm talking to so loudly I can't hear the actual person. I can't keep a job, the pinging-ringing sound in my ear makes me feel like I'm in a Tarantino movie. Sometimes spending 3 hours at night trying to find a dead bird carcass (that doesn't exist) under my bed because I 100% smell it. I'm just venting, I suppose. I just feel alone and I've been on here lurking and watching people talk. I can and will live with this, I don't have a choice. I've got a daughter. I will take the meds I need and get help. I get I don't have a choice, I have an auto-immune disease and I just live with it. This is just another one, but it's also so much more. I just wanted to not be alone in this thing I mostly have to hide in daily life. How did people not see that something was wrong with me? I'm a private person, but, damn. Did anybody else manage to seem unaffected for a long time? What made you finally tell?",1.4163080014614555,3.4017149201680685,3.1708622579466588,90.75968761417612,80.47058823529412,5.483668249908661,22.532700036536355,6.498293943080001,0.5029296309828277,893,29,188,8,23,297,140,238,0.086,0.8809999999999999,0.033,-0.904,1,2,1,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,0,0,12,4,1,0,15,0,19,2,1,4,0,33,40,12,1,2,10,1,2,1,1,2,1,6,1,2,11,10,0,1,4,0,2,0,8,2,0,2,8,11,22,2,25,28,3,19,0,0,2,0,13,11,1,3,9,119,33,3,0.12577758147302273,0.0,0.12274077588341667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594807931123106,0.2605352837443698,0.0,0.10058428646178773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13188876092381902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07667284624065072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10507102989396773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11857190989467715,0.0,0.12719384877245982,0.08985552933587655,0.0,0.2755663850881689,0.11495843081332935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717544744127644,0.0,0.19714078512426692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20119164380942167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14176047555627858,0.0,0.08430606158373817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12386558178652678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12481484181277198,0.11179689354400328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08884042547939182,0.061448573036677175,0.0,0.2221278175855884,0.11130920161395856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380275775289315,0.08395751231216919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13971053849048595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924609945366806,0.09326248294029843,0.0,0.1214767719563643,0.0,0.11803373980539313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08523014435551385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743966762379067,0.21964826534953044,0.0,0.0,0.11890046939915053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10002338112981267,0.0,0.0,0.1002284479556297,0.11450318629744802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968297271545885,0.12439724420125008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945690880545628,0.30328576685372377,0.10993515007873524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835610362637894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07334191923343611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539472156289707,0.0,0.12286642090175046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07418687633755566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12124510015653216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375180404452229,0.0,0.08099663868863306 schizophrenia,thezenergy,2019/03/15,"Should I apply for SSI/SSDI? Been dealing with schizophrenia for the past 2 years and recently (last month) had my diagnosis changed to schizoaffective disorder by my psychiatrist. Im only 18 so pardon my ignorance on this matter but are there drawbacks to applying and receiving SSI/SSDI? My father is a single father who raised me by himself my entire life. He works hard for his money and lately my psychiatrist visits and hospital visits have been more frequent then ever before and my medications only just seem to get more expensive with each new one I try. I feel like I’m just financially draining my father and I can tell it is hard on him. I’ve only ever had 2 jobs: a food service worker at one of the fast food places at my university and working in the financial aid office for the university. My first day on the job as a food service worker i locked the entrance doors and tried to defend myself from my boss because I thought he was trying to attack me (fired on the spot). The people at the financial aid office were more understanding and dealt with me missing 11/18 shifts I was assigned to and still let me keep my job up until yesterday which was my last day due to me having to drop out of university due to my poor attendance and failing grades in my second semester. I fly back home for good tomorrow, the 16th, and I really feel bad about everything especially costing my father lots and lots of his hard earned money. Should i apply for SSI/SSDI to get the financial benefits to help pay for some of my care like doctor visits, hospital/emergency room bills, medication, and for obtaining my service dog my psychiatrist highly recommend for me to get? If so, how should i go about starting this process?",9.518333333333334,7.982110462962964,9.587086419753085,64.79988888888889,60.111111111111114,12.837530864197532,37.958024691358034,11.729898335038438,4.527044691358026,1386,53,234,34,15,460,176,324,0.10099999999999999,0.8170000000000001,0.083,-0.6279,3,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,8,12,10,1,0,14,0,18,7,0,2,2,41,32,22,0,4,4,4,6,2,0,3,4,0,3,0,5,19,3,2,5,0,7,6,0,5,0,4,9,6,41,5,46,19,8,45,0,2,0,0,18,14,0,5,26,163,46,17,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189260182803898,0.0,0.08038256069395269,0.08728409404842251,0.0637248327883727,0.0,0.08895335430180125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10658251858331642,0.0,0.1105863679533577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348355350187403,0.10777313774752864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11980854865292033,0.10699812948162944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18911954476603526,0.0,0.0,0.09395118558502012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10571417577605473,0.074681309782962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889191855872471,0.3792199508880516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16384892675539994,0.0,0.059410830781454836,0.08768074173539253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28093406754031824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07006900018564344,0.11044916294141,0.10485921318904637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129179834555149,0.0,0.3112107602890489,0.09291735857816576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704233427453941,0.1179223778864297,0.0,0.0,0.10689624539157498,0.07383763008814162,0.10214307238721666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777473717546516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210620217503102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834404987336292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10096256184743532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14167405969349314,0.2385154765093737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979247006537016,0.07247284780081913,0.0,0.10921899747155417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06696912932548918,0.0,0.10321775359245423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516663014750806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739918822266172,0.0,0.08348344594299105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09137001428568076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08299076344076214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129214429652981,0.0,0.0,0.10882678543853733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522084763878982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06731845118483208 schizophrenia,PerfectStormX,2019/03/15,"Creating A Transcendental Platform For Managing & Potentially Treating Schizophrenia, Ascension, Lucid Dreaming Hybrid Mindset Voyagers 24/7, INtellectual Light Warrior/Soular Empowerment, Starseeds, Otherkin,, Mediums & Psychics, Merkaba-Ascension-5D, Dimension-Shifters, Future Earth(+Discord) &#x200B; [https://www.reddit.com/r/LightWarriorAscension/](https://www.reddit.com/r/LightWarriorAscension/) [https://discord.gg/PRVXJak](https://discord.gg/PRVXJak) [https://disboard.org/server/539367976806383616](https://disboard.org/server/539367976806383616) &#x200B; [Planetary Rainbow Forge](https://i.redd.it/t0ecuue8t9m21.jpg) Comprehensive Introductory Information To The Community, Discord Server And Internal Chatrooms/Mission Objective On Gaia: &#x200B; At the shift of ages, and the arrival of the age of Aquarius, golden age as we battle the last inner and outer demons of the Kali Yuga/age of Pisces, this transition time is like no other. 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Spirituality, lightworkers, ascension. &#x200B; We are highly focused and streamlined, yet loose and flexible (effortless effort being the motto). Our basic aim-quintessence is to harness all available energies to create an interdimensional rift/gate to haven that can propel us to 5th dimension and beyond while still connected to Earth but ultimately undergoing physical transfiguration, also fueled by the bowels of the earth likewise (as above so below)- which constructs a beastly cyclotron that irons out certain unwanted specific frequency-sets, diminishes their influence on the collective. &#x200B; ""As soon as humanity unites on this planet, it will qualify to establish contact with other more advanced civilizations, such as the Agarthans and those from the GF. In fact the Agarthans and some ascended masters such as St. Germain will already help us run the cities of light and the numerous healing centres which will manifest very soon all over the globe. The next step will be visiting other civilizations, but this could only happen after the incarnated human personality has completed the LBP and has ascended at least to 5D by transfiguring from a carbon-based body into crystalline light body."" The three cities of light will be open portals to the multiverse and to numerous advanced humanoid, and later on, other civilisations, such as the dragons. Alone this fact will make the existence of national states and nations obsolete as all the people will recognize their multidimensional nature and will strive to ascend too and be able to live in these cities of light and enjoy the advantages of a higher dimensional life. In the first place, they will enjoy the healing possibilities there which will help all humans advance rapidly in their LBP and also ascend. (Source: [http://www.stankovuniversallaw.com](http://www.stankovuniversallaw.com)) &#x200B; ""You see, nothing is ever just about one thing. We are not just sharing information with you. We are also preparing you for contact. Now, all of the other beings from the other star systems that are connecting with you all through the various channels that you have there on Earth are doing the same thing. And certainly those who channel faeries are readying you for more interactions with the fae."" ""We are excited to witness the coming together of humanity and the Arcturian beings that you will be meeting in the flesh. Now, of course, some have already established connections with physical Arcturian beings. A full and open contact with the fourth and fifth dimensional beings who are from our little star system."" (Source: [www.danielscranton.com](https://www.danielscranton.com) ) &#x200B; \`\`\`Keywords: spirituality, starseeds, occult, esoteric, lightworker, light warrior, spiritual awakening, light body, soul technology, quantum, lucid dreaming, astral projection, psychic, chaos magic, otherkin, bilocation, golden age, mentor, indigo, crystalline, human angels, transliminal souls, walk-ins, lucid dream, mental projection, multilocation\`\`\` &#x200B;",16.617020819563784,17.212077107677903,13.204961445252266,37.688132848645104,44.777153558052426,15.979466842916946,54.46177572152456,14.526554488767633,8.775053844459134,6253,358,613,203,51,1867,577,1068,0.026000000000000002,0.815,0.159,0.9993,3,1,0,0,0,0,415.0,11,13,5,17,23,25,1,1,74,0,42,13,6,9,12,124,54,65,0,2,13,0,0,1,3,13,5,2,0,12,30,73,1,0,8,11,1,16,5,3,1,5,2,13,30,23,140,28,21,104,14,1,3,1,67,44,0,6,40,417,60,11,0.03947861164941107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04088793554246861,0.08713125930598546,0.09471309441841352,0.0,0.6416258884222075,0.4317375087307152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04143036728927395,0.0,0.0,0.17540735090629786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06801465652159049,0.04139257320238891,0.0,0.0,0.031520458998187784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081606375036547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03297931424828124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03571066443006394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07443384311320904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671609738026619,0.0,0.0,0.06100215485880915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03491080590145704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230840607591093,0.08342264146757833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032180337634376215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02788491092923116,0.01928725551020209,0.03956794027612317,0.03486033736812445,0.03493732899026989,0.0,0.0,0.04309556816445399,0.0,0.0356309883615007,0.03735561689556845,0.052704559664850735,0.0,0.0,0.04300378163779663,0.0,0.0,0.03978515507404964,0.0,0.03986214367878723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438606741340428,0.04198595136423293,0.0,0.0,0.03788079262165408,0.0,0.04142616190876893,0.0,0.08025518690442297,0.030025263133750743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03768680191738328,0.027369498496920545,0.06894240186245577,0.08249349315893954,0.0,0.0,0.044506202864310764,0.03780959706392541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03145934217149978,0.0,0.08236960383122177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031527670259821304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029683002786516526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05245567073315131,0.0,0.0,0.031341607845918745,0.023020295931356585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14246372682299208,0.03409684494960913,0.0,0.03257398914544685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03549601306347855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03805597283249025,0.0,0.0862226984063001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4317375087307152,0.0 schizophrenia,bringbackzootycoon,2019/03/15,"Progress post I don't post my own threads often, but I thought I'd do so here. I've put off sharing this for a variety of reasons. One, part of me doesn't like that I desire validation and appreciation from others, even though in reality that's a basic human component. We validate and support each other. I learned at a young age that vulnerability wasn't safe and so I've never really felt comfortable embracing this from other people. On the other hand, I don't want to make people feel bad. Without dismissing my own difficulties, I recognize that my experiences are relatively mild and that I was very fortunate to have caught things early. I've managed to utilize some of my strengths to manage symptoms and continue with my goals, though I know this is an extremely difficult thing to do. I don't share this to brag, but more so because a lot of people who know about my diagnosis (schizoaffective) don't truly know how dark the path I was on truly was. At one point all I could do was smoke weed and take medicine. I'd coast in school and get good grades because I was smart enough to wing it, but I didn't retain anything and frankly I'd see homeless people near my university and recognize that as soon as I hit the real world I was on the fast track to that. I seriously couldn't envision my life going anywhere; it was objective fact that I was going down that path because literally everything about my life centered around weed and dysregulated emotions from psychosis. I've sought trauma and general therapy, and I'm in my last semester of college. I'll be graduating with an engineering degree, and assuming I don't royally fuck up I'll be graduating Cum Laude. I have a job lined up that pays well. I am a student manager at my current job. I have a relationship, though my paranoia makes that a very difficult albeit worthwhile endeavor for me. I don't do a good job of giving myself credit where it's due. I constantly think of what could go wrong to fuck it up. Life is chaos waiting around a corner and I was a wrong turn away from a very dark place. I almost killed myself a few times because I was terrified of what was happening in my head, and sometimes I still have those feelings. But lately I've found it a bit easier to step back and appreciate these accomplishments. Psychosis sucks. I don't wish it upon anyone. Those of us who struggle with it persevere through circumstances most couldn't fathom, though to be fair I think I'd struggle living in anyone else's shoes regardless of if they were psychotic or not. It put me against a wall and essentially told me adapt or get left behind. My perspective on life has become cynical to most (realistic to me), but at the same time for once I feel proud for what I've overcome. 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Do yours come from things you experienced before or like stories you've heard? Kevin comes from a drawing I made as a kid. Then there was the woman who eats dogs in the story with the little girl. Is it normal for it to come from things you've seen in the real world? I met a group of people that are okay with me. I like that a lot. I haven't taken my medicine in months. Please don't call the police. The police tried to kill my brothers. My moms friends son died to them why do they hate me. Why do they hate us? Please help me.",0.8707496740547569,3.113594771186442,1.75,98.68294002607566,84.33898305084746,4.3087353324641455,15.009126466753585,5.369823440869387,-1.1142876140808342,445,7,103,2,13,138,76,118,0.122,0.737,0.142,-0.5204,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,3,3,0,2,7,3,0,10,1,9,1,0,1,0,11,20,3,2,1,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,7,6,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,6,3,17,4,15,14,1,12,0,0,1,0,20,6,0,2,4,63,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129313318867974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15755178927796135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5316437043751234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16013318226034867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788164647635647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11920743720034535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30466746705553616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034202548737954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707038450170529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15076085789565594,0.15464347994034278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311755444013014,0.0,0.14599705093911386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807076856950436,0.12315628342013415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511757097184321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696827942645874,0.0,0.0,0.3387377397413536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17562075719571965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20501262911767895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047557400144894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18559711328106254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784533158405809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Aria_0,2019/05/31,"For those of you who have a case manager.... Please tell me what exactly is their purpose??? I asked to go grocery shopping and the dumbass bitch I got apparently says she's not allowed to but the last case manager I had, had NO problem with it. So she's asking me the same repeated questions that go NOWHERE...your goals, blah blah blah. So what are you billing MY insurance for if you're literally doing nothing but asking me a bunch of bullshit questions while you just look up therapists or doctors in the area ? Like, I can do a Google search and find one MYSELF. 15 minutes to half an hour they're basically getting paid for doing the absolute minimum to nothing while I'm sitting here wondering why is someone getting a free paycheck and I'm getting nothing in return besides helping someone else work for free???",6.2416233766233775,7.210039525974025,6.583532467532468,75.29101298701299,66.07792207792208,9.536623376623377,39.42597402597403,9.642632912329526,4.050074805194805,653,37,113,13,10,211,103,154,0.139,0.76,0.1,-0.6715,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,1,2,4,5,1,0,10,0,10,1,0,1,1,18,24,11,0,2,6,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,4,0,0,4,1,5,2,2,2,0,2,4,2,15,5,14,20,2,13,0,0,1,0,15,4,1,5,7,74,21,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4333558488079713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15815405411711295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12907860166214435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14122516466844712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24218528075814144,0.0,0.1756304300285186,0.0,0.12358085799309045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356906705733457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521675014245841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595146617026584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07548889441468973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12975483650104475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4447878786665444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470429255308973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16961257601295787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785130007084415,0.0,0.0,0.3461873986492489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12287762081312928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618424410688965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350541196750543,0.0,0.0,0.17940541719021538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13942699220681162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16756641416005266,0.11248975906568516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lycanstars,2019/05/31,"Tapering off Rexulti increasing suicidal ideation? establishing first: I'm tapering off my Rexulti (currently from 0.5 mg to 0.25 mg) at my psychiatrist's recommendation/advice. I started tapering off it about a week and a half ago, i think, and since then (particularly this current week) I've just been extremely suicidal to the point where I can barely sleep because i'm thinking about it so much. Does anyone have insight on whether this could be because of the Rexulti or if it's just something else? Thanks",9.201428571428572,9.452840131868133,9.272835164835168,60.99716483516488,59.769230769230774,13.873406593406596,44.57362637362637,13.023866798666859,6.406611428571429,416,24,66,15,5,137,64,91,0.105,0.863,0.032,-0.8156,2,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,4,0,5,1,1,0,0,11,11,7,2,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,5,1,11,8,2,16,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,2,8,43,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152815319414008,0.19528893666692101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15404383495161045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26859430617556457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17589727936566724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927922131107105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18403829880623165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873930924057336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619510549923705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082614031438018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822402957939172,0.0,0.22046618631690515,0.0,0.0,0.16960315585928346,0.0,0.0,0.15593448738643478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4819603834164487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028291629985264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823277665783291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3534341068110564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,patronsaint95,2019/05/31,"Auditory hallucination for the past 2 years. This has been going on for the past 2 years. Still haven't been to seen a doctor. There are three voices. One is alright who doesn't say much. The other two males voices keep saying explicit things to me throughout out the day. I have smoking pot and meth for the last 10 years. I could feel something changing, but didn't act on it. Keep in mind i here them all the time, from the moment i wake up till I go to bed. This causes me sleep issues. And i have been on sleep meds for the 1 years. Any piece of advice what i should be doing. It's getting difficult day by day. And my sleep meds dont give me the same sleep it did before. I sleep 4+5 hours daily.",0.6580357142857132,2.8182583537414985,2.201288265306122,95.64438137755104,84.51020408163265,4.76343537414966,15.990221088435373,5.985473137389443,-0.6883738095238101,546,10,124,4,16,177,97,147,0.025,0.9640000000000001,0.011000000000000001,-0.4118,0,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,10,1,17,7,6,1,2,15,25,5,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,1,1,9,4,0,2,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,3,6,6,13,1,17,16,4,24,0,0,1,0,6,6,0,0,15,80,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11893178889935675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08276571089922538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356466560129683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12502778907687234,0.128751077539968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717404883194088,0.0,0.0,0.2354750510252263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12457344174040692,0.0,0.0,0.14264103734919092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06153929410249415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06358748148301799,0.11675354108575202,0.13833908504677964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11985800477464707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12703168069129106,0.0,0.21635957958493016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09920838084531088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27038061982901257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12289052950057035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08946948914142606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08247258763707846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323683884203613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19357440089685132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6089801966298153,0.0,0.0,0.09369687472686494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09719628034481816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08085748227252212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07096899702786645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11889117098296027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135042153486587 schizophrenia,AntiSocialPig,2019/05/31,"Am I the only one or what? Alright I've just about had it with all of this...haha. Alright I am wondering if I am the only person with schizo who has thoughts about hurting others or not? Because I know that most people with it usually don't have any intention to harm anyone. I am only allowed to ask people with my disorder because my voices tell me not to trust anyone else becaue they won't get it. I have thoughts every single day about doing massive harm to others it's a never ending story. Although I get a giant extatic kick of it dunno why but I do. I just wanna know if I am the only one or what? I also think I need someone who can understand me and that i can talk to because no one else will. Also I have other stuff that bugs me, I mean I've already said to much and probably gonna kick myself for it later but I just want to know if I am alone. I can get more into detial threw chat or message if somone would be willing to listen. I am still clueless about my disoder in all honesty....sometimes I wonder if I have something else too. Anyhow me and my fello helpers will appricate if you would respond.",2.0056252587991708,3.9178762043478272,3.970124223602486,86.10615942028986,78.26086956521739,5.598343685300208,23.99585921325052,6.42735559955562,0.834151138716356,877,30,169,7,21,298,124,230,0.09,0.877,0.033,-0.9009,1,1,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,1,0,11,7,0,0,5,2,26,0,0,2,3,48,46,18,0,11,17,0,0,0,0,7,0,3,0,1,17,8,0,0,10,1,0,1,6,3,0,3,5,3,32,4,22,33,6,10,0,1,0,0,14,3,0,15,6,138,49,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12547550927431803,0.1336927261071386,0.19376822037156327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08238657870386888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16942266628742045,0.12413313113397766,0.0,0.0,0.11325947924185502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22155688760367445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07813212989337481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13884911102085434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036174017533453,0.0,0.10730349339110017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10207462584403684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898886020864408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12969424861316595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997436436471033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13196854598148092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905964835751844,0.08983165254962687,0.09343882987336716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24628439453194434,0.3685620350178551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16798117669290602,0.10578405181769723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306208633310551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152419865705312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10265053050669874,0.09326766918477168,0.11982106487955388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09675104476661496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13868847936627327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09737628241033572,0.10589098524415104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07762842796613477,0.0,0.19236012548777287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612207211667822,0.0,0.0,0.1334302962269461,0.0,0.07145777689795775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10931959432211907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26276536742351403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17212385451638812,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sickspiracy,2019/05/31,"Imaginary friend, more than just imaginary? I've been best friends with a nonexistent person for years now. I ""created"" him when I was younger to cope with my overwhelming loneliness and neglect from my family. We've been through a lot together, ups and downs. He's even witnessed my suicide attempts. Normally, I can't exactly tell what's real or not. I have an issue with believing my delusions, but I'm aware of them y'know. So over the past years, my imaginary bff (who we'll call A) has been appearing more and more real each day. I'm not sure if he's just a figment of my imagination or if he's somehow become an actual person. On several occasions, my dog has barked at him. By that, I mean that he was sitting there, where there would normally be an empty space, and my dog would bark/growl directly at that spot. My gparents are confused as to why she does that, but only I know the reason. Another example: My kitchen has a motion sensor light that turns on whenever it's triggered by a moving object. The light never goes on unless a person or my dog walks in there. Never. So I was chilling with A and my dog one night. A says he's gonna get a snack and some water. Me and my dog stay in the living room, and then I see the kitchen's light turn on. The next morning, I overhear my gma telling my gpa that she saw the light turn on by itself. Sometimes they ask me who I'm talking to, and then a second later, they ask, ""Who said that?"" when A speaks up. &#x200B; It's confusing me because he's supposed to be imaginary. I feel like he's something more, or maybe I'm just falling for my delusions again. I can feel him sleeping next to me. I hear him breathing at night. Sometimes, I can hear his heartbeat if I'm close enough. &#x200B; To be honest, I'm not scared at all, just very confused.",3.4911100118717826,4.967686792243769,4.539599327265535,85.47949792243769,73.0443213296399,7.8164226355362105,28.405322516818362,8.418075326091056,1.9975001187178472,1416,56,285,24,28,462,185,361,0.062,0.866,0.07200000000000001,0.7388,1,0,1,0,0,1,62.0,1,0,3,2,16,12,0,5,22,0,20,6,2,2,5,58,43,26,1,7,17,0,2,1,2,4,0,5,3,3,14,15,4,1,6,0,0,5,6,6,0,2,8,13,44,6,37,28,10,43,0,2,2,0,38,19,0,14,18,189,58,1,0.0,0.0,0.09334581923828712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207285054835106,0.2324634307583967,0.0,0.10030297061548747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17884967195926646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05831061107567718,0.10564381438890308,0.0,0.10777081861783508,0.10038438415235038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09767480316628696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06168978479527047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837086378872795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988375426951141,0.0,0.06317945388041975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09017534709312856,0.0,0.096732434109863,0.06833619828926453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14780616605958116,0.0,0.04997597025181732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21562105390272115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998393291761648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10513935310717673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04673237031335509,0.0,0.08446542299779035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08132275449454318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09609865200095363,0.10419671411047296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166649462332407,0.0,0.0,0.14755059958755035,0.0,0.203461091296684,0.17953212468460306,0.1874438590376212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06481853802374261,0.07275020102161056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131385137702062,0.0,0.2505676755636033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177534507176262,0.0,0.09834962705477662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909901388918664,0.07606897045700743,0.095767688547653,0.0,0.07622492621593686,0.0,0.0,0.10806331375880177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572442713852562,0.0,0.0,0.07364015864173855,0.1892111661731776,0.0,0.0,0.10195587147831507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10463142302395352,0.0,0.0901540315625938,0.0,0.0,0.07688414374796744,0.1672139771534566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121366449444856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07892567828134096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631407152014224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13590162661300753,0.0,0.2324634307583967,0.12319781326980367 schizophrenia,sunnyyy97,2019/05/31,"Schizophrenic ex boyfriend is attempting to ruin my life. What kind of help does he need? Does he belong in jail? Hi all, A little background knowledge: I am a 21F year old college student at a large public university in Illinois. I was supposed to graduate with a degree in accountancy and my life sort of got flipped upside down the week of graduation (May 2019) by an ex boyfriend who I only dated for about three ish months from March 2018 - June 2018. This guy, Connor, had never stopped showing infatuation with me. He even kept his Facebook profile picture as me until a couple weeks ago even though I had friends reach out to him and tell him it made me and even them uncomfortable. He refused to change this picture and said things along the lines of “it’s my Facebook account I can do whatever I want”. He also seemed to be following me around to places and becoming a pretty big nuisance in my life. Fast forward to very early May 2019. He filed a completely false police report against me and my roommate, Will. He said that we held him at knife point in the lobby of his apartment on May 2nd at about 5pm. The story itself it a bit crazy because holding someone at knifepoint in broad daylight in a large apartment building lobby is a bit ridiculous, but that was his story. There is a lot more to this story, but that is not worth getting into right now. He later apologized to me via breaking into my apartment and leaving a note saying that he was going to make this better and come clean to the police if I met up with him at a certain time outside of my apartment building. I did not follow his instructions and i am not sure if he came clean to the police. He also did a bunch of other crazy stuff like leaving a note in Will’s parents mailbox (3.5 hours away from campus so he must’ve made a long drive there sometime during finals week) and one other note with a cut off stuffed animal head on the windshield of a car. He also slashed my tires and did a few other crazy things in May 2019. The police were notified of all of these things and are possibly working on fingerprints to prove that he did all of these things. The campus of the school I attend has some pretty not hard-working officers so they do not seem like they are taking me very seriously and do not seem to care as much as they should because Connor has threatened to kill people in his notes to me and Will and the third note. I recognize Connor’s handwriting in the notes and I am more than 90 percent sure the notes were his doing because in April 2019 he began posting very odd and disturbing things on social media and his childhood friends even blocked him on all social media and said things along the lines of “Connor has become toxic and delusional and we will not talk to him anymore until he gets help”. I have good reason to believe that he had been stalking me since after our breakup because he would appear a lot of places I would be. I brushed this off at the time, but in hindsight I should’ve gone to the police about this. Current issue: The claims that Connor has made about Will and I have led us to being arrested and held for one day. We appeared in front of a judge and got out on bail. We have a trial coming up in July. We have seen the police report and there is no evidence being used against us (since Connor has falsified his whole situation). The police still need to take this issue very seriously and that’s why there is a court date in place. Connor is NOT pressing charges he is just a “witness” to the crime/ the victim, so it is Illinois vs me and will. Will’s family and my family want to have a civil suit after all of this is over to get back our money spent on attorney fees and maybe settle out of court to get money for pain and suffering ( I was not able to attend my college graduation, was put on an interim suspension during finals weeks so I could not finish some of my finals, had to spend a night in jail, and I spent close to a week in a behavioral health unit for attempting to take my life because this is the most overwhelming shit that I’ve ever gone through and I fell victim to a ton of cyber bullying from strangers on Facebook after our arrests went public even though there is no conviction and will not be ) So the question I have for you all is does Connor belong in jail or a mental institution? What he did to me and the pain he has caused is very very unfair. I understand that it may not be his fault because he suffers from this mental illness, but I believe that does not excuse his malicious actions. He has said things along the lines of “if I can’t have her no one can” and other very disturbing things about me. Any comments are appreciated!",6.888178844056712,6.490058080697935,6.849841003271539,78.61815517993458,64.70338058887677,9.342543075245363,32.189509269356606,8.608573733854374,2.444381478735005,3728,127,705,46,50,1188,373,917,0.13,0.807,0.063,-0.9969,2,0,0,0,0,0,60.0,10,1,4,4,31,28,6,3,57,0,81,12,2,8,12,134,127,58,1,11,23,3,1,2,2,16,10,5,3,1,45,57,0,7,8,1,9,21,18,17,0,5,38,8,81,11,132,66,21,124,0,4,1,0,82,61,1,21,44,504,126,13,0.054992231744545456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04874729540014314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193180357390072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037396603350269834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05453751703711502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048954745282824466,0.0,0.0,0.05166701195757238,0.0422856317436695,0.0,0.20113652431220191,0.1214691988832588,0.0,0.1239148271597858,0.0,0.04863616008173943,0.12007454840378776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06289646301806362,0.05606824530368552,0.05649217030905435,0.058174489476016625,0.0947418766059054,0.057658308713163416,0.0,0.0,0.04390682228939638,0.060847858456375026,0.0,0.035465440081408395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19249629034304735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18160925211591247,0.049743621977625135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10368356381093237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18072390563129326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08497372366341373,0.0,0.11492468546344875,0.0,0.03125335259690305,0.046124874898561576,0.08796462272417603,0.0,0.0,0.05445095529345861,0.0,0.0,0.049262238067992535,0.0,0.056437895029146035,0.0584541707917626,0.0,0.0,0.07372026750374805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054156270926855266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11479520502190975,0.0,0.0,0.06084075664835799,0.057265946929326336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11645766633208625,0.0,0.0,0.15537055837870772,0.053732853330931016,0.055116663185681175,0.0,0.048666394589309464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09350485777679103,0.0,0.15610493799967784,0.03670774171116187,0.0,0.0552470882457225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11083847057511477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04389427472200208,0.0,0.040425617819522655,0.08155208606908433,0.04241339928494401,0.0,0.0,0.0516064842163129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0577050965268194,0.0,0.11179247832074347,0.04182407028659554,0.11703122363364088,0.0,0.06106236546045709,0.0,0.0,0.038124689323949315,0.0,0.1723655330194908,0.0,0.05198543405873761,0.0619954785573226,0.052667356754382964,0.11189373949676938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055282381859594686,0.061603885117361236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056541173176656224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046963065437392426,0.20924082193367727,0.043732029909824784,0.0,0.055655074420613744,0.0,0.15018858724935846,0.0,0.0,0.056448735626171184,0.09098028474626144,0.0618135725650577,0.0,0.11211530985704224,0.04659473950061622,0.0,0.05438872334308016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04391686730755565,0.045975968127575616,0.0,0.0,0.0629529485713314,0.0,0.0,0.10365905522580787,0.0,0.1240419432126451,0.0442006728075501,0.04806563442546295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922751617397427,0.0,0.10805917695640968,0.0,0.06413282513211496,0.06320548070626418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05724885265128814,0.13229776754756553,0.04749563170757326,0.0,0.3176204530916453,0.0648716861650552,0.0,0.2205572561259513,0.0,0.0,0.05097834977078769,0.04962193565497236,0.061396862856970616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08006999932869624,0.0,0.0,0.07812980725423234,0.0,0.0,0.035413194252346764 schizophrenia,moumou0,2019/05/31,"Did medication ruin my concentration? First time posting here. I've been on medication since February of last year. I started with olanzapine, it went ok, not hearing voices and see shit for the first time in my life was fine for a bit but it made me gain 35 pounds and my psychiatrist took me out of it and prescribed me Abilify. Since taking these medications my brain has become foggier and more distant than before. It feels like im on autopilot and out of my body. I always felt this way even before starting therapy but now it's getting worse, i can't concentrate on anything and i cant study, i feel im not present. Im in university and this is taking a toll on my grades. Did someone experience the same problems? how do you fight them? &#x200B; They also told me abilify would help me with my mood but i still cry all the time and still apathetic as before. I stopped frequenting lessons and the only 4 colleagues and what i thought were my first friends severed ties with me.",3.4066725146198844,5.813045468421059,4.487719298245619,81.68847953216378,75.89473684210526,7.801169590643276,28.976608187134506,8.680891452615391,2.4460467836257322,789,35,149,17,18,257,121,190,0.141,0.768,0.091,-0.8844,0,0,0,0,1,0,20.0,0,1,2,5,7,9,2,0,6,1,11,7,3,2,1,32,26,16,0,2,5,0,3,1,1,1,4,2,0,0,9,15,0,1,5,0,0,2,4,4,0,3,11,6,25,4,18,14,4,28,0,1,1,0,8,8,1,0,17,97,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08909156685350036,0.0926989547204442,0.12070866459240155,0.13537083180326775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09167788114202324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303949040104473,0.2843956323801752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12162681059530557,0.12374726925952124,0.0,0.12436625971111455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223745741948182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07358280136162611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897672512978043,0.0,0.0,0.11266073141126913,0.07958867314752162,0.10696750562590043,0.0,0.0,0.28428639048300874,0.0,0.0,0.08607222039122686,0.0,0.0582051864337764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12556298135101096,0.0,0.07467328532072814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36101371965098616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09081099248185456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07868955464427897,0.054427484106368065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10541532172846828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33669033854315145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08472950084252888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669642667285943,0.0,0.0,0.10660077018091538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08877638631014112,0.0,0.0,0.12585739290882514,0.11435695187061345,0.18431286243157666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09439418480128604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15770788560667867,0.0,0.17793840819597845,0.09314064373715436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16752732513320445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740279746577726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08844414706900358,0.19488570423071125,0.0,0.0,0.10645348071067136,0.1237764831778437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842912447890125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10327474347323456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135325233804933,0.07913982934004095,0.0,0.13537083180326775,0.07174199573785903 schizophrenia,rkos,2019/05/31,"How do you rationalize your delusions? Well, there are all kinds of delusions but in my opinion the basic building block tends to be something people refer to as 'synchronicity' which is basically: having an internal thought x and perceiving an external event y and feeling a causal connection between x and y. Now there's a few ways you can approach this paranormal problem. 1. x is the cause of y -> Yay, one is in possession of psychic abilities! But then when you try to replicate it by having the same thought or generally trying to in any way exercise your psychic abilities nothing happens so it is a very lackluster superpower, nobody is going to make a movie out of this... 2. The feeling of a causal relationship is a hallucination -> Imagine someone finds that part of your brain that produces such feelings and puts an electrode there and keeps it constantly active, then you're likely to see constant causal relationships everywhere where in practice there are none. 3. y is the cause of x -> Perhaps its possible that before we are conscious of any event it enters an unconscious buffer in our brain from which it can already affect our thoughts so that y preceded x objectively but for some unfortunate reason were simultaneously or invertedly perceived in ones subjective experience. About hallucinations, I think the prevailing notion that they're not real is unhelpful. The point of contention should always be whether it's of any practical value rather than any ontological truth. I think that if you put your mind to it you can find legitimate connection between everything and anything so you shouldn't worry about the question whether there really is a connection but rather does that connection have any meaning to anyone but yourself.",10.327990196078431,10.360466137254905,9.607312091503273,60.24665441176471,57.562091503267965,12.87875816993464,43.96160130718954,12.161744961471696,5.7972424836601295,1442,76,213,40,16,460,179,306,0.037000000000000005,0.873,0.091,0.9279999999999999,1,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,3,10,0,1,18,6,0,0,19,1,24,3,2,7,2,58,39,24,0,6,13,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,19,8,0,2,18,1,0,5,3,1,1,2,4,4,16,5,34,31,6,25,0,0,1,0,16,9,0,6,10,155,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236969667071538,0.0,0.0932700191679215,0.0,0.0,0.3811340444536207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07837774919182107,0.0,0.09224265534792606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09538254292570443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25026481608298284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23029994620832075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422645486418148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09809298587037946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10074159723735726,0.10964806747136134,0.0,0.0,0.17003215316542852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049012034712127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06370480530770865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09912311218060844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099633049396379,0.0,0.11672718914180776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05476278024031605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482267803892965,0.0,0.0,0.12210169778108153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11318156764370335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10755586872229347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519136876426906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12138535779275415,0.0,0.07771089208009438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596373445953987,0.12636755942285108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107257475643319,0.0,0.2253680377100319,0.12556936077279693,0.0,0.0,0.12758591409188602,0.07180938709644785,0.11524985736874985,0.0,0.2406909965846745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0893232860907279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949756925771955,0.08629435651388455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14364881843998747,0.0,0.2669670003494804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15220702904982508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248813073373624,0.0,0.17794776996186856,0.0,0.0,0.10078470530835497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11383547203120413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DummCuntryCunt,2019/05/31,A rope around my knob is worth two around my balls... My father woke me twice today drilling my scalp for sexual implantation. I woke from a sexual dream with his thoughts inserted in my brain. He thinks I am so stupid I don’t know it’s him telling me to have sex with him. I’m not sure if he has simply put a tape recorder of some kind in or it is a live feed because it mostly repeats itself to me a graphic description of our sexual encounter I have not experienced yet. It is making me feel like I have to do it to get it to stop. I am a man to clarify so it’s really disturbing my father would do this to me. Please help. Should I do it?,1.4337347931873483,3.0240010291970836,3.5048357664233585,90.26898114355231,78.85401459854015,7.486374695863748,21.635644768856448,8.344100000000001,1.0029177615571785,499,14,116,10,12,170,82,137,0.09,0.802,0.10800000000000001,0.1066,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,0,5,5,1,1,6,0,15,4,2,1,1,19,24,4,0,3,4,2,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,10,4,1,1,4,2,1,1,3,2,0,2,3,2,22,3,17,19,2,9,0,0,0,1,11,4,0,4,5,81,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42558215900316093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14571300455935415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668411745446094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12086285285361505,0.17076605079595955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12488548219311618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16021955800852206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489172928052565,0.1313669223839091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11678001589970916,0.0,0.21107154151431384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15955715711840926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623877257331967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402953512547219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531314029359287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19984325998381788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252868658000397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089263906334942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15316343717193415,0.0,0.18976642169917984,0.0,0.0,0.22657643299584584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335016401094065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16980300817448465,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kris10B82,2019/05/31,"Any suggestions appreciated Ok so I’m a 36 yr old female, about a yr ago my ex walked out on my and our 3 kids, one which was only 3 wks old. I didn’t take it well. I moved back home to TN with my babies, I have the best support system (my family) who all live on the same mountain, very close to each other. I have had substance abuse issues since I was 15. I’ve been on suboxone for a couple years now and I am finally following the program and staying clean. 6 months after I moved here, my ex kept calling wanting me to come see him, he was on meth and selling too so for the first time in our 6 yr relationship he was making money, he always had a cocaine addiction, not my drug of choice so I didn’t but in my depression of him leaving me and now being “a baller” I wasn’t over him and made some very ignorant choices to go see him about twice a week for around 4 months and I would do meth with him, pretty much as an excuse to see him, he would give me bags to bring back home, so I was smoking meth everyday for about 4 months along with taking my suboxone and occasionally mixing Xanax in as well, soo about a month into doing this, which I was very good at hiding it, I was then a stay at home mom and I was a very good one despite being on drugs, it gave me the energy to help around the property, help with the remodeling of the cabin that my family graciously lets us live in. I would do different activities with my children everyday all day (ages 7, 5 & aprox 6 months then) might be off a few months in ages and time frame but not the point. I’d have all the energy to do these things then I’d stay up almost all night cleaning and getting things ready for the next day and only sleep a few hours then do it all over. Well I started getting paranoid that my big brother and cousin were spying on me and had figured it out... then the voices came, I could hear them outside my cabin walls, laughing at me and talking about me, then I started hearing them inside my car and at the grocery store & eventually everywhere. I finally came to my senses and cut all ties to my ex and haven’t done meth in 9 months. But the voices haven’t stopped. It’s mostly only my brothers voice, I hear him now saying “stop it” I mostly only hear things like “good job” or stop it, you look fine.... it’s mostly positive but why is it my brothers voice? & I hear it constantly, I feel like I’m never alone and that he can see me too. I was convinced it was something with Bluetooth and cameras but now I feel it’s schizophrenia. I’m diagnosed with anxiety and depression and I take celexa for that, it helps a little. I know I need to talk to a doctor but I’m afraid DCS would take my children away if I’m delusional, I work now and even tho I hear the voices there too, it doesn’t effect my job or my parenting, I think I’ve got it under control, as far as ignoring them. They never tell me to do things and it’s mostly positive now that I’m on the right track as far as my life goes. Also, like clockwork, at night when I turn the tv off and lay down, I hear a recording of recent events, mostly with me playing and laughing, singing with my children, all things that moment for moment, word for word happened earlier in the weeks before. There’s still a bit of me that thinks it’s my brother and cousin doing these things somehow, to help me and help me to never relapse again and keep on the right track. I know I need to get help and talk to a doctor but I guess I’m just looking for stories similar to mine and any advice idk but it feels good to finally tell someone.... thanks for listening",4.1508738738738735,4.591671902702704,5.1724999999999985,85.43708333333333,70.51351351351352,8.22072072072072,26.768018018018022,8.212053250817874,1.5128153153153154,2808,84,601,38,48,925,310,740,0.052000000000000005,0.799,0.15,0.9973,4,1,8,0,1,0,76.0,3,1,4,5,36,25,1,1,36,1,45,9,1,4,10,115,103,61,0,9,14,11,3,3,0,5,8,14,6,4,39,51,0,8,9,3,3,10,11,6,3,4,25,23,88,19,89,68,20,116,0,2,6,0,62,42,0,13,63,402,127,6,0.0,0.06050589566147985,0.0,0.05567043086318055,0.0,0.04990195864990914,0.045267702967619484,0.0,0.05113609812919651,0.0528898809276329,0.0,0.0408381610175657,0.04249173039305229,0.1659928112706488,0.0,0.06945445151621388,0.0,0.0390660191492304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09092069006609388,0.0,0.0,0.04797900952906944,0.07853454850604702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043454148871845774,0.0,0.05359153411993222,0.0,0.05575180065372151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05214498839380659,0.11681379991420847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04398959053611813,0.0,0.05518514940019982,0.05727584195786708,0.040772743868834484,0.056504525229739186,0.0,0.06586781867764452,0.0,0.08796764820458614,0.05183180257922667,0.0,0.0533540147306908,0.0,0.10453821969948143,0.0,0.05225914256388419,0.0,0.0,0.11844272331732955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0337291889261635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09628260872096966,0.0,0.07746283827226287,0.036482185283793725,0.0,0.16782379436873238,0.0,0.04343745728758063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08004100251874514,0.04898799920029772,0.029022481565094824,0.17132988562237747,0.040842844515277664,0.0,0.056255919495480894,0.0,0.045158268391857485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4028925522303464,0.0,0.2053742968503224,0.0,0.153672716321924,0.0,0.05029058465761798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053300549295946485,0.10135198621244723,0.045390584358801764,0.0,0.0,0.056130037325720215,0.0,0.0,0.054072446528054346,0.0,0.052219338973176835,0.03607004362430675,0.07484608605116909,0.051182423910402564,0.09018597138914863,0.0,0.08576662597072679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04832071131428911,0.03408753521099125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05417388372020813,0.0,0.059808906115405215,0.2853276436465008,0.10855201157962592,0.03754002852292156,0.07573088062141407,0.1181577651591468,0.0,0.05431020027854395,0.09584560454200444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10717218864561667,0.0,0.06920847144574913,0.15535463660819934,0.0,0.0,0.056703720677723626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04827470259215229,0.0,0.0,0.05195337015006042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05042237772851672,0.05482671187457296,0.0,0.08722166344689206,0.0,0.04061042820691927,0.0,0.0,0.16277474902435016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042243046224376905,0.0,0.051103754298273976,0.0,0.043268796971273775,0.03931377482434404,0.0,0.0,0.07229079309757735,0.16329148037901114,0.0407820718714366,0.12808258089586574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057950083913241336,0.0,0.0,0.15358373682846696,0.1231368578213616,0.08926939819991135,0.04701551690789352,0.0,0.0,0.20355937336385174,0.06544318226678124,0.0,0.0,0.05955501027747965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055546095138450234,0.0,0.0,0.06142716221959647,0.0,0.0,0.16854207818355155,0.03012056562546982,0.0,0.08192553269434036,0.0,0.13774575894518756,0.0,0.04607991121290022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03717729277569592,0.0,0.0,0.14510576960918187,0.0,0.0,0.032885392828278535 schizophrenia,FreckleTanz,2019/05/31,"Loved One Looking For Advice My older brother was diagnosed about 3 years ago. The past year has been rough with suicide attempts, hospitalizations, and watching everyone in my family hurt. As much as I would like to say I'm handling it well, I'm struggling. I'm trying really hard to get my head above water so I can help my brother and myself move forward into the future, but it's been really hard to find help or insight from anyone who understands. I would really love any advice you all might have. Is there anything you wish your family or friends knew or understood that would help you? What keeps you feeling positive when times get hard? Really, I would love to hear any advice you might have. Thank you all in advance <3",4.354565217391304,6.637059601449278,4.884855072463769,80.52336956521742,72.55072463768116,8.078260869565218,25.99275362318841,8.841846274778883,2.1694666666666667,587,20,103,12,12,187,91,138,0.073,0.653,0.27399999999999997,0.9897,0,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,7,0,2,5,9,0,1,2,0,14,6,1,0,2,24,31,10,1,5,4,2,5,1,1,6,1,2,0,0,5,4,1,1,6,0,0,3,0,2,1,1,5,9,16,7,13,20,3,14,0,1,2,3,19,4,0,5,10,64,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360523772626344,0.10161471017073352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559079321063787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0801536426453778,0.0,0.09433270168710016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11634947769455525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953617507669652,0.0,0.0,0.2161304581030296,0.0,0.057961588093457236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477194108014314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856471145023187,0.0,0.11978140027022673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080643553176104,0.0,0.1176459185880519,0.0,0.1291990512343819,0.0,0.23050705340506866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227163600278241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10189054826570587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05600360259015575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09626234897064644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31038066214808624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24321373218295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183610468377452,0.08426800716807711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07767788407940407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10942960113524924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29374581491620155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09116028916040428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198386786706346,0.0,0.1253892450604283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10553811682338288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06684307698239049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07782787806725773,0.0,0.0,0.11933637593667587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030682985503312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13182160802952975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257262851063027,0.0,0.0,0.14763902040651616 schizophrenia,Tristan_Ricky,2019/08/12,Psychotic while on antipsychotic? Has anyone had an episode of psychosis despite being on antipsychotics? If yes did it differ from an episode while not on medication,7.1433333333333335,10.964292222222225,6.27555555555556,66.10000000000002,71.22222222222223,9.525925925925927,38.62962962962963,9.725611199111238,5.15942962962963,138,8,18,4,3,42,22,27,0.0,0.895,0.105,0.4696,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,1,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,16,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4340291805019113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6485312301491265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6253206489426844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,diaxy,2019/08/12,"R4R looking for a fellow POC woman with psychosis... or anyone...I need to feel less alone...my symptoms are worsening Yeah \*cries\* when I suggest the hospital it's always anger and a lack of understanding that I get. but I guess I'll have to put on my big girl pants. Hospitals don't help much maybe...I've only gone while super ill before. I feel alone and I'm ""paranoid"" &#x200B; I'm a weakling :\_(",0.7807692307692307,3.3174761794871803,2.224487179487181,90.69134615384618,94.89743589743591,4.651282051282052,21.884615384615387,6.42735559955562,0.6841076923076931,314,12,60,4,12,101,63,78,0.225,0.688,0.087,-0.8437,0,2,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,4,1,3,2,0,0,0,11,13,6,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,3,5,1,6,12,3,6,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,2,2,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562986138458017,0.0,0.0,0.20591030663407908,0.2681277066669011,0.30069648109822444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21057408196743369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718281578542177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25025099603844697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292899992498989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27261007085723565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16587025305878805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20780787331139494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18191489762136745,0.18349180777271787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882079204889872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24877019520520116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25721039128154083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25761929515819104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30069648109822444,0.0 schizophrenia,MichieJ,2019/08/12,"I’m so scared I can’t properly cope with anger and sadness... why am I thinking about murder and what are some of your ways to cope with schizo. I get very frustrated and I always picture myself with a knife, stabbing a person I’m very frustrated with at the moment. I never made plans to kill someone and I’m not planning on ever doing it because it’s not worth it but it’s a way to cope with my anger and sadness, I get very relaxed thinking about murder. How do u guys cope with things?",2.1817051705170516,4.034215465346538,3.5074587458745903,89.90385038503851,77.51485148514851,5.677007700770076,24.093509350935093,6.42735559955562,0.6877911991199115,386,13,79,3,9,126,61,101,0.287,0.6709999999999999,0.043,-0.9773,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,5,11,7,1,4,0,5,0,0,2,2,21,13,8,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,11,0,0,2,1,1,0,4,10,0,0,1,0,9,1,14,12,1,7,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,1,3,51,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829009823608672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13399520082921548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988323097356049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22968513095622345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21764818840852368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24318913037527096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079911899564441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16953237034804447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919311390562078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200699053425844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18624578002389072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14603315756038107,0.28169298389817266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5441031357825219,0.0,0.34895266694815097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19834591225117626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,btomtom5,2019/08/12,"Fasting and Schizophrenia What have your experiences with fasting and schizophrenia? I've been looking at the literature and trying to square that with the actual experiences that people are having but am hearing conflicting stories. According to this [study](https://pdfs.semanticscholar.org/542b/4954547b280b2a12dcc3d0fa4525952cbda4.pdf), which seem more like an informal study, 70% patients (thousands) that were fasted for extended periods of time ( around 27 days ) and that further maintained monthly fasts of 3 to 5 days reported improvements in their condition. Further more 47% of these patients reported to have ""maintained their improvement"" over a six year period. Modern experiments in a Keto diet seem to support fasting as a potentially effective treatment option as evidenced in this [case study](http://sci-hub.tw/https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0920996419301136?via%3Dihub). (While an active area of research, we believe that the benefits of fasting and keto reside in using fat rather than glucose the predominant energy source). This case study details 5 cases where the patients experienced severe schizophrenic symptoms that failed to be treated using traditional medicine found that they were able to experience complete remission of symptoms and regain independence when they committed a Ketogenic Diet. However, the consensus in this [thread](https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/5ho98i/does_not_eating_make_symptoms_worse/) on reddit seems to be the exact opposite at least in the case of failing to eat. One possible explanation is that people that naturally start skipping meals without deliberate attempt to start fasting when their psychosis is especially severe. So the relation is actually that severe psychosis causes you to start fasting as a compensatory mechanism rather than the other way around. Any thoughts and experiences that you are willing to share would be super helpful!",18.0315944645006,17.772004599277984,13.689756317689532,38.02779933814682,42.718411552346566,16.309145607701563,55.574308062575206,14.672994598444667,8.720923225030084,1642,90,161,49,12,476,172,277,0.07400000000000001,0.784,0.141,0.9659,1,0,0,0,0,0,74.0,1,3,5,5,8,8,0,0,17,0,17,8,1,5,2,32,30,15,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,2,4,1,0,0,19,12,5,1,7,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,5,4,9,6,40,20,3,39,0,2,2,0,13,16,0,4,23,123,28,5,0.1100232691437039,0.0,0.2147336792737529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07481959587637911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958880716510621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12395854784388648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11302420471490575,0.0,0.0,0.11535730441688008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14191181319946092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11258127167326244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5381193451633203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12063483573277095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12400422057259218,0.0,0.07374627811604705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0537518118136256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09239183601230096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08781952374728871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07455461459635965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15255256320543936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240347046595646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004831561302805,0.0,0.3728849317617377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23362510855971635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12485310198954774,0.0,0.22871260759532344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08734618598167904,0.0641554530213866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07469857763151094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19004955808257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08733134988463374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060585052650153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07815737367788078,0.0,0.0,0.07085137807397092 schizophrenia,acher7,2019/08/12,"My life is hell Hi I’m new here and I haven’t been fully diagnosed yet. I’m at risk for developing schizophrenia but right now my diagnosis is major depressive disorder with serve psychosis. I wake up every morning to spiders crawling on my ceiling. I hear voice that yell at me and tell me to hurt myself. The new medicine helps but yet this is still happening. I’m beyond paranoid and think somethings out to get me. Now I have a new hallucination. It’s a bald man with a black suit and white button up shirt. He wears black sunglasses and follows me around. I see him at work just staring at me. Then in a blink of an eye, he’s gone. He also tells me they are coming. I don’t know who they are but I feel a sense of dread every time he speaks. I try to ignore him but he can talk to me telepathically. Most of the time I don’t even see him but just here him. He keeps saying they are coming. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist this week and hope to get answers.",0.7984463986599657,3.204781145728642,2.5271670854271377,91.71242567001677,86.78894472361809,5.527721943048576,19.849455611390287,6.996647511020387,0.3687033500837522,764,23,165,11,24,251,115,199,0.129,0.835,0.036000000000000004,-0.9545,0,0,1,0,0,2,18.0,0,0,3,1,13,7,1,2,9,0,13,7,5,0,0,28,31,13,0,1,7,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,5,13,0,2,4,0,0,4,3,6,0,0,2,13,29,1,24,29,2,28,1,2,7,0,23,12,1,2,12,104,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281069699554384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14260649623295785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759856473820446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379747347186893,0.1625933932945007,0.0,0.0,0.1835960392243801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10580653204552401,0.0,0.2699404680734468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08099882763198996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16738935755802176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14165889912689686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18055011992212194,0.0,0.10737456593155148,0.0,0.0,0.15910864604787328,0.0,0.0,0.17149083764737236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423876609970677,0.0,0.0,0.08803835464323143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113149659037851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4641486773744625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13680467900903054,0.0,0.12739258518383226,0.0,0.0,0.25530752809605145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332505785681246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12793102151949154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875775461210656,0.2800329845464182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10264575553283037,0.0,0.0,0.1868206530904092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087611138322992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284978497310743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166230361497436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,unipos,2019/08/12,"Do any of you manage without any medication? I don't have diagnosed SZ but I've gone through a few brief 2 - 6 week episodes. I'm starting to see the signs of an oncoming episode. Jumping into the world of conspiracy theories is so very seductive but I know it's just escapism from my days full of stress. The past couple of nights I've had to take IR Seroquel to fall asleep because my head's been full of fragmented thoughts and voices that just won't shut the eff up. But I HATE Seroquel. It is so goddamn hard to get up in the morning and go to work after popping one of those. In the evenings I've started to drink to relieve the stress. I'm hoping alcohol is as good as Seroquel at shutting my stupid ass brain down but without the extreme fatigue in morning. I'll be calling my local healthcare service contact to talk about this but in the meanwhile, I've to hang on. So, has anyone managed to live their daily life without any medication (and possibly even work)?",4.966334134615387,5.929664151041671,5.473125,82.12860576923079,68.94791666666666,7.991025641025642,35.6025641025641,8.139509932561175,2.783686217948718,775,40,148,10,13,249,122,192,0.16699999999999998,0.772,0.061,-0.9787,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,1,2,8,8,2,2,11,0,11,11,4,0,0,18,24,13,0,1,10,0,1,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,5,4,2,0,2,1,0,6,5,5,0,1,4,3,9,3,36,18,3,29,0,1,1,1,5,16,1,1,7,91,14,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15167804721521555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895480610785207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09923947423241357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08651809316178112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15843877263024675,0.14492452684009732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15704081706568973,0.0,0.09153192617241764,0.0,0.0,0.14405410175440653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390355708628391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18748443125188535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07415160929261314,0.0,0.08066104793776083,0.11904261258949753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12713975993466628,0.14012468125225802,0.14565924543094816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14096669380822505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07800000874018005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10024806153711223,0.0,0.0,0.1253251715436119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28595539293455585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331899700796834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09617419896475488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13548649473326346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16000268298678913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11309837345112632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20091497394610836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251564711263865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067123182677861,0.11407648434377468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11267511092230448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171056015437671,0.0,0.0,0.11384621444522552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4104410642782721,0.0,0.2066507915975847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lizards8,2019/08/12,"Fear of going to doctor I don’t know if I have sz but I had psychosis issues as a teen about 15 yrs ago. I am 29 now. I have been having issues maintaining relationships (complete loss of interest), hygiene and motivation problems, memory and concentration. I have been seeing people in my peripheral watching me, cats in my house, and an arm waving inside my car. A lot of fear of my boss watching me in cameras outside of work, being watched in general through hidden cameras. I know I need to go to the doctor to bring up these concerns but I’m afraid she will turn me in. Any advice?",3.3578947368421046,5.4326904035087775,5.106877192982456,78.75347368421055,74.78947368421052,7.3670175438596495,28.06666666666667,8.238735603445708,2.1698519298245618,462,19,83,8,10,157,77,114,0.114,0.858,0.027000000000000003,-0.8689,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,2,6,0,3,4,0,11,3,1,2,0,14,20,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,4,1,5,0,0,3,4,16,1,18,15,1,12,0,1,4,0,2,6,0,2,2,58,17,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883509200510992,0.1708592955712877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13107511407016847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020924018388518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3945710828514167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4337897257001248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21908603400927346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22240508317649665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023572529307431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21185830093306746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638672874166168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14292005191011944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13362705578420753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18443361409737746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069390040859878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15359504200482385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096542582220275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14032269451460014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,StevieRayV,2019/08/12,"Clozapine withdrawal Hi, I have been on clozapine for about 4 years and I am starting a withdrawal plan on agreement with my doctor. The thing is, I already tried to withdraw two years ago and it was really bad. When the tapering off began I experienced insomnia. During two weeks I was sleeping about two hours per night. At the end I didn't sleep for 4 days straight. I had chills, I was sweating and I was so sleep depraved I had hallucination (which I never had before). I went back on clozapine and the symptoms disappeared. So now I am starting a new withdrawal plan, slower this time, and I am anxious about the insomnia. Has anyone overcome this?",3.26050441361917,6.0117220491803325,4.415901639344263,80.11781210592687,78.50819672131148,8.016141235813368,29.05674653215637,8.841846274778883,2.8683699873896598,518,24,91,13,13,169,74,122,0.069,0.855,0.076,-0.3167,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,8,2,0,0,7,0,15,8,4,0,1,7,19,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,11,1,15,1,12,8,0,25,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,17,68,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14591305336678778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181646523036906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18595762870427995,0.0,0.1150961579992373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12657165060370232,0.13743891410999504,0.0,0.0,0.1400673576894641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10615708233240694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16848094590519008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579182466955634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16210349282010106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269540913507325,0.15897724570958655,0.0,0.1544713326906962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10545064955684676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4941738373715006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330175745546322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710883862841692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935673692932814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959829284809684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11175648985044638,0.0,0.48238765824724505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13203679268509208,0.0,0.0,0.15259116653749524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120013945559705 schizophrenia,dice398,2019/08/12,"Wandering in the forest of death. Me, 2017 &#x200B; ![img](2vjqwtaqj0g31 ""A Photoshop illustration I made using the collage technique and drawing over. I thought it fit here, I hope you like it. Feel free to comment or message me! 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Am I developing schizophrenia? Hey everyone, So over the past few weeks, I've started hearing what sounds like crickets chirping in white noise, particularly in the noise of fans and fast running water. I know that some people hear voices and music in white noise, but I've yet to read about someone hearing the sound of crickets/bugs, and this alarms me. What's worse, I can sometimes hear it when there is no white noise (although it is less noticeable and quieter). I'm already paranoid that I'm developing schizophrenia and this isn't helping. This is starting to consume my thinking and my anxiety is almost constant. Sometimes it goes away, but it seems to be increasing in frequency. It seems like I'm starting to fixate on every single sound. Does anyone have any advice? I start law school in two weeks and think I may have to postpone (or drop out if I actually am developing schizophrenia)",5.9181456043956056,7.984043351190479,5.6047619047619035,77.89664835164834,67.8690476190476,7.788278388278389,33.75641025641025,8.384062270229773,2.8606789377289386,745,35,123,11,13,230,101,168,0.131,0.84,0.028999999999999998,-0.9471,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,3,0,12,1,0,0,0,21,28,14,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,9,0,0,13,8,1,0,5,1,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,12,9,2,17,26,5,23,0,0,3,0,6,9,0,7,13,76,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.12462436146383647,0.0,0.0,0.12479455482096136,0.0,0.0,0.12788088431726702,0.0,0.14092869986246245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868456628937924,0.0,0.09769609450718897,0.0,0.0,0.08929624214552953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998565380843593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800673036585745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22351586028891648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10759930422556707,0.1220302470421518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5757437532834743,0.0,0.0855998262743895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07018485055155195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12478313131788622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14539614259938824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12191151691127072,0.0885364878180675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12774232954766884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292470812439888,0.0,0.23252071489996426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820637910328802,0.0,0.2526125000410121,0.0,0.3615688676894376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16365996481913375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12475193463638864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048789397784276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13014512802164904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,baresmoke,2019/08/12,"About my uncle's wife In late may, my cousin, 1 years old, fell to death from the 7th floor of an apartment. He was home alone with his mother while my uncle was at work far from town. She was always a cold, quiet person and most of the time unaware of her children. She never did chores she never cooked also she quit her job (after she discussed it with my uncle). The one job she had, to take care of her kid, she did not do. She said she was in the bathroom at the time of this happening. Not long after this event, she was diagnosed with schizophrenia. Could this have to do anything with the child's death? (She is also bipolar) Any answer would help.",2.3290203562340963,4.335049427480918,2.8094847328244263,94.36374363867687,77.62595419847328,4.97735368956743,18.550254452926207,5.46131890053228,-0.4351531806615778,509,10,107,2,12,157,81,131,0.084,0.8740000000000001,0.043,-0.6908,2,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,8,0,15,3,0,0,2,14,19,4,2,2,2,3,0,0,0,2,2,2,2,4,4,5,1,0,1,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,9,3,19,1,21,7,1,21,0,0,0,0,26,8,0,2,12,77,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20113536789758854,0.0,0.310607564111098,0.1615921547810946,0.0,0.0,0.13206445555202845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15981222662306224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19800253569647724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550550066367715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19711159294974268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17173275430591536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13016993682344855,0.0,0.1948010835035629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3854323109912936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21906903821773765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718632263181453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995620983121456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20378300360630647,0.0,0.13159673572452404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16957025560688446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065584138601628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847311837996821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14601621741381496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22648224371492534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14138183578267746,0.0,0.0,0.13795598440814902,0.0,0.0,0.12506013379048375 schizophrenia,disaster3,2019/08/12,"MDMA unlocking schizophrenia? About a month ago I took a pill of what I thought was MDMA. I had done MDMA before but for whatever reason I reacted really badly to the pill. I started feeling really sick and tired so I went home to bed. As I was trying to sleep I started having vivid hallucinations, like dreaming but before actually being asleep. The only way to stop them was to stay awake, which I did. I had no further symptoms untill the night before last, at a festival (note I had not taken any drugs since that pill) the closed-eye hallucinations began again. I powered through until last night when the same thing happened again but much worse. I heard my own voice and the voices of others repeating phrases I had heard throughout the previous few days. Most of it was relatively benign and nonsensical but I found it incredibly scary. I also noticed that I felt like crying but was unable to. In the end I managed to get some relatively long but low quality sleep. This morning I've been feeling pretty depressed, but no voices or any other hallucinations. I've always been prone to paranoia and in particular, I am a massive hypochondriac. Do you think it's likely I'm developing schizophrenia and if so, do you think the MDMA had anything to do with it? Thanks in advance for your responses",4.450758204451149,6.969504232365153,5.574388909845343,74.608252546209,73.06639004149378,7.8672953602414175,28.381931346661638,8.710501217029153,2.582824066390041,1044,42,171,21,22,345,144,241,0.171,0.732,0.096,-0.971,1,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,3,1,2,7,9,0,0,13,0,20,10,3,2,0,29,39,21,0,1,10,0,3,3,0,0,7,5,2,0,12,6,0,1,8,1,0,3,3,3,0,0,23,9,24,6,24,15,6,30,0,2,1,0,6,6,0,4,22,122,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.12794621299834458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622270831713095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10485006671417957,0.10909552867956332,0.0,0.0,0.17832105299598186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10789384779551772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947288441614507,0.0,0.0,0.3346994792146377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14402016623576622,0.08455627053943406,0.0,0.11292640943079035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13417290220027872,0.0,0.0,0.15204807381372354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161261471994455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13258814073798866,0.0,0.1258878982291059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437573317784811,0.0,0.0,0.06850050904063698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11594174016666632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315158351651569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21374724805907286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921638222736036,0.0,0.0,0.11602982558870548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046521954896452,0.0,0.09638226592493984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460791029784001,0.0,0.0,0.14927166415658788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971643927428853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13338784584147284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16798716499324534,0.13480477684100622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10845704371778556,0.0,0.2624129938277256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185603227232531,0.139747743980866,0.0,0.10961534356782468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13627537192008096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12071013879087047,0.0,0.0,0.08710486036298294,0.1680223069718736,0.0,0.10408813143799127,0.0,0.15069373773189104,0.0,0.0,0.14567004462031793,0.08901631226772247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407045165493124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12154196099013813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361413510942394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ibelieveinigloos,2019/08/12,Started playing golf again after 20 years to clear my head. What are some activities that you have that seem to just work for you? As a teenager I was a state high school champion. It’s been nearly 20 years since then and I’ve only played a handful of times since. Lately I’ve been obsessed with playing again. The best thing is that I find myself in a clear state of mind. What are some activities that you lot enjoy that seems to take the edge off?,2.878,4.892624522222224,3.219722222222224,92.01625,76.0,5.833333333333334,21.25,6.6274283507984215,0.2230000000000003,357,9,75,3,8,110,61,90,0.018000000000000002,0.746,0.237,0.9646,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,2,3,6,0,1,6,0,7,2,2,0,2,12,11,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,7,5,12,8,4,15,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,5,9,50,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419555140505605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21072506636678448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366181608040004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435962968758085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600785176358648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960114517201431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23279700606118595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17534910866964026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333361536962809,0.0,0.4197811567368804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3814385287574459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631895437617411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17335029032279886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15317193169552748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344397334635606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678483576234498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.296942502474897 schizophrenia,RoseLeigh666,2019/08/12,"Trigger alert. I’m feeling anxious and very sad, like I kinda feel like I want to kill myself and I don’t know how to talk about it with my SO... so I can get help. Any suggestions?",-1.5138461538461527,0.4529333846153847,0.8629487179487221,100.45288461538463,99.76923076923076,3.6256410256410256,16.756410256410255,5.46131890053228,-0.7287128205128202,138,4,33,1,6,46,31,39,0.213,0.507,0.28,0.0422,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,10,8,5,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,6,2,4,8,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382136727134838,0.0,0.0,0.39573540440414295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3542409315422812,0.25025193217565145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18301549443722745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347963999698598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3875512424517583,0.0,0.19251382811342693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34227440972239176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815551056140917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28903134769910543,0.2066139867269896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,clarification11,2019/09/12,"The Torture and Pain of Being Betrayed By Your Own Brain Hi. I've never been on the subreddit before, I don't have schizophrenia. However I feel completely and utterly hopeless and mostly alone, and (hopefully) I feel like the people on here might possibly be able to relate to me. You see I don't experience what doctors would be able to label as psychosis, but I feel though it is closest to that. Background: I have narcolepsy it has mainly symptoms but what i'm mainly going to focus on is sleep paralysis and hallucinations. What Just Happened: So I go to college in less than a week so I have been extra extra busy. Which means I have been extra extra tired. And yes I take drugs during the day, and I don't really have a problem with being awake. It's a common misconception that the biggest struggle we have is falling asleep in class or while eating cereal which is untrue. I could live with just that honestly, but something I'm really struggling with is when my meds wear off and I'm too tired. Granted I can't remember the last time in my life I have ""slept well"" at night or didn't have horrible nightmares or wake up not being able to breathe or find myself going into sleep paralysis over and over and over again just trying to fall asleep. I wouldn't describe my nights anything less than torture, but nothing like I just experienced. You see when I have a hallucination at night the doctors like to describe it as a glitch, essentially the part of my brain that makes me feel awake and cognitive is still on, but other parts of my brain have already gone into dream state. Basically I am dreaming while I am awake. Usually this will mimic classic delusions, thinking someone is out to get me or is breaking into my house stuff like that. Sometimes I will hear things that aren't there like footsteps or mumbling. I cannot tell these are not based in reality and to me it feels real until a flip switches in my head and it's like waking up, immediate. These delusions obviously suck and every time it happens it doesn't like make it easier the next time, but during the day I don't think about it. I repress all the pain it causes me because it happens all the time and there is nothing I can do but live with them the torture and I have to function and lead a relatively normal life or so my best. Today I had a hallucination/delusion I have never experienced and it has left me fearful, paranoid, angry, lost, hopeless and alone. Today I fell into my half wake half nightmare delusional state and at first I was just frustrated, I knew when I was falling asleep this would happen because I was so exhausted my body was already ahead of itself jumping into paralysis before my brain could join in. I tried to just think of one thing and try to lucid dream cus at that point I knew I was already fucked. Not to get explicit but thinking about getting fucked is just the easiest way to like start lucid dreaming for me that way I just end up having a fun sex dream. So that did happen and I still knew that nothing was real up to this point and and I was just having a good time until the dynamic changed dramatically. I could feel myself slipping father out of being in control because things started changing like it's easiest to begin a lucid dream that takes place in ur current location so we were just fucking in my bed but then we were not anymore and we were in a bathroom I had never seen before. Looking back at this point i stopped completely realizing it was not reality. So we were in a bathroom and he had his clothes back on and I was still trying to spice stuff up and continue with the sex we were having but the mood changed a lot. He said no like angering and told me I was annoying and held a rag up to my mouth and everything went black and I had flashbacks to nightmares I had had before. (Sometimes when I am falling into sleep paralysis I get overwhelming fear that if I don't fight it ai will never get out like something is pulling me down that wants bad things for me ) I started to have that fear again but this time I hadn't woken soon enough and they caught me. Things are blurry from here next thing I remember is being half awake knowing that a i was having sleep paralysis. Then I remember having a feeling that I was being controlled and that by being drugged in my dream, which I knew was a dream, had let ""them"" (ifk who they are just like a thing and ai know it's bad) into my brain. Like they now had access to my thoughts and could control me. Only I still knew I was dreaming but there was a shift in that knowing a i was dreaming didn't matter because ainstill thought that Incould be controlled in my dreams and that it was some secret agency or alien that was now in my head. Next I spent what felt like hours in and out of sleep paralysis dreaming and moments of being awake but completely delusional. There's this think that while you are in sleep paralysis when you take or yell u aren't really making any noise only whispering. I would scream for help but ainknew nobody would hear me so I tried and tried my best to get out of sleep paralysis so that I could actually make sound and I found for maybe a few seconds enough to scream out for my mom or brother but also nobody was home and immediately after I would be pulled back under. During sleep paralysis I could hear a laugh or whisper and had a feeling like ""haha we have control over you now"". I convinced myself that it was in my body now and that event tho sleep paralysis and my dream wasn't real I was afraid that this feeling wouldn't go away when I woke up. The feeling that I was being controlled. I could feel it when it was in different parts of my brain and body and at one point I squeezed my muscles in my side trying to fight it because ai thought that it was in my side and now I am awake and my my side muscle aches. These delusional felelinfs and thoughts and hallucinations just got worse and I started to think it wanted to kill me. I could feel it moving around in my brain at that time and I was yelling at it in my head like Inknow you can hear me listen to me please stop etc. And then I felt it moving out of my brain I thought it was going to go to my heart to stop it and ai felt it go into my aorta tovlkke travel through my blood to my heart so i squeezed my neck muscles and focused all my energy onto the artery in my neck Idk I thought if i did this it would somewhat help but it only made my heart rate rise, in my sleep as well in real life as i can see on my fit bit. Anyway thankfully this woke me up and out of this and I felt like it could be realcfor a few minutes after but then was like no this is just my brain. This was all me. I just spent over an hour (which felt like a full day because time moves faster in your sleep) physically and mentally torturing myself and there's nothing I can do to stop it. Like ifk how bad my story sounds I'm not good at describing how things actually feel but it honestly feels like torture. Like i am being tortured and when I wake up all I can do is cry because why why does my brain betray me like this. It feels so bad. I was hoping someone on here could relate to that feeling that's what hurts me the most and something I don't really know how to deal with becuase I literwllt have no control. Not many people with narcolepsy experience anything even remotely like this and it's probably because ai have anxiety and trauma separate to the disease not everyone experiences their half dream like states as nightmares. I feel like I have nobody to relate to and Injudt want to be able to complain but when I tell the people close to me they don't get it and it just makes them sad and i feel like a burden to their emotions. Anyways if anybody has anything to say or if they want to talk please respond. Thanks. z",4.9714669796223205,5.813278491919848,5.446629053413748,82.76417620072675,68.86425339366517,8.205569188093461,29.4344142436661,8.31872272044727,1.9944883601835053,6205,223,1218,85,103,1990,464,1547,0.126,0.733,0.141,0.9243,3,2,5,0,3,3,90.0,7,8,10,13,73,87,16,8,50,2,159,63,44,18,11,281,278,142,1,30,58,3,25,27,0,12,13,15,2,0,109,99,1,13,52,15,2,24,33,42,2,8,85,49,189,44,166,154,31,204,0,6,6,5,53,93,4,24,108,905,298,5,0.10781310380162594,0.0,0.05260501854159593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05583093040380665,0.0892308307408152,0.02155452503958968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.01832915191349178,0.0,0.020619182327700464,0.0,0.026730407181504483,0.0,0.0,0.06654074861771142,0.02399413002220455,0.0,0.0,0.02532349000299534,0.06217621643828484,0.09001943831800338,0.13144373478484125,0.0,0.09174101052487486,0.0,0.05657160044994405,0.0,0.029425996500576125,0.08981704019936877,0.0,0.3008876994420051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02768843902263213,0.08553897623603643,0.0,0.08477999107939999,0.0,0.21161273603367847,0.21519997638374452,0.0,0.0296069080031866,0.05214789959738021,0.027787643990493684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028160436655819382,0.0,0.05517564008666799,0.023586993419122092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06251448600740032,0.027579930189983542,0.0,0.03031880763244487,0.0238726023359127,0.05569987824317759,0.030060027461432118,0.017802384562843828,0.0,0.022709297473477014,0.025755010227878725,0.02422386646695927,0.07909642742297485,0.0,0.09098978670291036,0.2453109511653573,0.0962771286224479,0.129396858752481,0.0,0.024634805918906603,0.022926442754328355,0.0,0.02955287587837868,0.0,0.07475360789054515,0.0985738196005326,0.0,0.10722717502772823,0.045214258155370064,0.021556997006156976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11917346454191832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298551143625099,0.0,0.121513203602146,0.09581928532858686,0.03613242543776905,0.0,0.027036333414049804,0.05354136931732974,0.0530870949743293,0.031100461630668583,0.02885403936582278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029819806379059607,0.0,0.05925126229312552,0.021970517305401047,0.0,0.0,0.02928481318433771,0.027561550799606854,0.05711368772052184,0.35553624750393703,0.0,0.04760047294223135,0.0,0.02263396344233021,0.0,0.029422684649889633,0.022914711354766387,0.0,0.025503841407222918,0.0899576049625707,0.027326391329770185,0.02707818845870201,0.029360019133597037,0.029939013399789587,0.0,0.027162562679849747,0.028593166392502024,0.0,0.03156735103474585,0.0,0.08594120034020868,0.0,0.0,0.08315211211883636,0.0,0.08599534425451845,0.07588147084340932,0.02640848770905086,0.10344958083314924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036528474680519486,0.06149754276424432,0.05736037191696864,0.0,0.0,0.08756331383016952,0.0,0.05605802343021906,0.0,0.028160436655819382,0.05917320615337266,0.10191823136734536,0.030385768829954144,0.0,0.0,0.02906019020005653,0.025790644965111072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271491541850245,0.06906783500762262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09159842227403676,0.0,0.025638737666923563,0.021434326861045273,0.0,0.0,0.06443481384021843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967001541234751,0.0,0.045674846492185936,0.06224984593363251,0.053314958216867006,0.0,0.07631066978179075,0.0,0.08609968396384213,0.0901365823293798,0.0,0.05635483241397751,0.061710104896884575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0280147739375119,0.060796527414377785,0.021664022236989745,0.0471167023887646,0.049629910416610135,0.0,0.0,0.14325247108383354,0.10362342542062764,0.026481456772017662,0.1283873423669003,0.12573337567348414,0.06195765143585054,0.05109710807430028,0.025755010227878725,0.0,0.1280965357757808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029685225529228768,0.0,0.06359096196339875,0.042788511755410485,0.02162029217087336,0.0,0.04846846407545555,0.02498595683934338,0.04864227846270106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027467690876249267,0.11488100344741525,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hdanielle8133,2019/09/12,"Am I really me, am I in control of anything or who is pulling the strings? I am terrified of myself lately. Seemingly out of nowhere, when nothing significant has changed, the last month has wreaked havoc on my brain and body and life. I’ve been diagnosed with depression and anxiety, but no one listens when I say it feels different...the medications hardly help, only the anxiety ones sometimes. I am really screwing up everything because my head tells me nothing in life matters because I’m just a puppet or experiment. I’m terrified to drive because I tried to commit suicide by a wreck and now I know that the world is going to try to kill me in an accident, like karma. My friends hate me now and don’t reach out, so it’s just an extra step in the game that pushes me closer to losing. Everything feels like a “sign” and I can’t stop thinking in ways like “if this happens, then it means/you have to..” I feel like this is a game to see how long I can last. Every time I have deja vu I can’t stop myself from believing that it is a sign that I’ve been in this game before. I can’t tell if what my brain tells me is my own thinking or if there are other voices. Could this possibly be the onset of schizophrenia?? I don’t want to self diagnose, I want to know if I should consider seeing a different psychiatrist than the lady who wants me in and out in ten minutes. Could this all be anxiety?",4.039928571428572,5.1432345642857165,5.420714285714286,81.13428571428572,71.21428571428571,8.885714285714286,29.714285714285715,9.255337874911486,2.5474785714285706,1098,44,218,23,20,369,147,280,0.19899999999999998,0.7090000000000001,0.09300000000000001,-0.9886,2,0,0,0,0,3,29.0,0,0,0,2,10,10,3,0,15,0,27,10,4,2,2,44,46,20,2,10,10,0,4,4,1,1,5,3,0,1,17,11,0,3,8,3,0,5,6,5,0,3,2,9,30,5,30,39,3,34,1,2,2,1,13,15,1,8,17,151,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392691586143168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08579469933650406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19066245770110427,0.0,0.08871510215524163,0.11746203516582815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11580612059943747,0.0,0.2327707780024109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11029017406891203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116933188251026,0.1664816010153973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979647627942054,0.21163749745818425,0.0,0.1089264659442505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784109238417534,0.0,0.1873990945524658,0.10198343647037764,0.0,0.0,0.1581465473141796,0.14896256759479073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054876680942077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05925170515798987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09219419773592924,0.0,0.09339387178950637,0.10293228901913752,0.10699784945106693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06988132778326411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11534501981316198,0.0,0.11459393693372046,0.1699668818558452,0.11760653527566613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472797276187208,0.2037389859529709,0.0,0.0,0.09226424123195973,0.0,0.11663701244338112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10502804676904992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321701218734512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20007497364641166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14129460071638394,0.07929221268165541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175342006979104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13357951919836827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08290942016998518,0.0,0.0,0.16615880028598587,0.09491173639907713,0.10876287938584757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031129249078706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17432718614118806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11404033158802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733758681132471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336074632892697,0.0,0.0,0.06079314585363148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14156743694093893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18448059339405334,0.08275442290714129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DanTheManhattan,2019/09/12,"The Cyrus family are actually sirens The name Cyrus sounds like siren. Miley Cyrus just came out with a hit song that says “back to the ocean, I’m gonna miss these harbor lights” Noah Cyrus has a fan group called the Cyrens. The children Billy Ray Cyrus produces are all good at singing or music in some way.",3.802500000000002,5.742980916666671,3.0533333333333346,94.54500000000002,73.16666666666666,6.133333333333334,18.666666666666668,6.742157984588678,-0.1929333333333334,245,4,52,2,5,71,50,60,0.026000000000000002,0.848,0.126,0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,7,0,3,0,0,1,1,9,8,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,2,5,5,2,6,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,2,2,22,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.36916332800173857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908870626068253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3862835603460167,0.4326710190021549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3566247691461376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31729759776755656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18481681869702535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30083697931761905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002745714722759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EMP781,2019/09/12,"How Long For Diagnosis? My husband has some mental health issues he has been getting treatment for, and is currently hospitalized because of it. Schizophrenia was not something he has, but his son (18) was recently hospitalized also. The doctor there said it was ""early schizophrenia"" and has the same symptoms as it. His mother was there during that conversation. The doctor told my husband something similar. He hardly remembers his hospital stay and definitely did not remember them talking about schizophrenia. He has been refusing to take his meds. My husband said to him, ""it is important you take your meds because you are schizophrenic."" My step-son was shocked. He didn't know. He didn't remember. Today he had therapy, and they he is not officially diagnosed as schizophrenic. The doctor at the hospital told the therapist he did not write anything about schizophrenia in the chart/notes because he was not positive, but he suspected it. How long does it typically take to get diagnosed as schizophrenic? Why would a doctor not write it in his chart if it was suspected? Has anyone else come across this? Any insight would be helpful.",6.170668934240362,9.141295908163267,6.055646258503401,71.04094104308393,69.51020408163265,9.865759637188207,34.868480725623584,10.125756701596842,4.4356732426303855,922,47,137,27,18,289,101,196,0.077,0.878,0.045,-0.7647,1,0,2,0,0,0,31.0,0,3,2,0,7,1,0,0,8,0,27,11,0,2,0,30,38,13,0,3,9,5,1,0,0,2,11,2,0,0,10,5,0,1,7,0,0,1,8,1,0,0,18,3,15,0,15,17,2,12,0,0,0,0,37,4,0,2,6,95,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892958139668694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07593377893650899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07807645062519618,0.11441059801869766,0.09188805751723324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042037913193298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09618665961237527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266685318514382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4571618890820002,0.09771589828693318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09327901473242066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11667724978378785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10002694256310396,0.0,0.0,0.11869115601876215,0.0,0.0,0.07484447776364052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11654579480735144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061366345179390686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976341655293609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480619327949816,0.0,0.11252872143869172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025244891600744,0.0,0.3794727863415189,0.0,0.2124316768609768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17192525008851528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11901650556715865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160592514682284,0.25186708553561804,0.08974943757263064,0.0,0.0,0.12769487509485647,0.12964782959893248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10584222682864083,0.2133950618535418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10075730828102482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15864252314113245,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PlesiothX,2019/09/12,"Can you do drugs again after an antipsychotic-induced psychosis? I know it sounds like a somewhat stupid question, but I was wondering if anybody had experience with this. A while ago I got antipsychotics for bipolar depression, but the withdrawal of them gave me an actual psychosis. My question is, if I were to wait a couple of years, would i be able to do drugs again, without going into a psychotic phase? Thanks.",7.045200000000001,8.411647120000005,6.9373333333333385,72.04200000000003,64.46666666666667,10.266666666666666,36.33333333333333,10.355215969177356,4.109533333333333,334,16,54,8,5,106,58,75,0.10099999999999999,0.8079999999999999,0.091,-0.4046,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,0,2,4,1,0,7,0,9,3,0,0,0,14,16,5,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,5,1,9,2,9,9,1,8,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,6,7,44,11,0,0.21598846431183996,0.0,0.2107735844578072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914607416142348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389871275948027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18603054782079068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5009560936053404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21127816303387786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12275122172453196,0.0,0.1727457058318938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11870161139945964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10552105366402284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4839130226229318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19885315897298464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082051720302907,0.23423027609515515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534320080353485,0.0,0.0,0.1390894895568577 schizophrenia,PyrotechnicsPhenom,2019/09/12,"My psychosis has been very active lately Like, for the past week I've been seeing herds of rats run around my house, I've seen severed heads in my closet that weren't there the night before but showed up in the middle of the night. I've been smelling gasoline and fire almost every day for a fvcking year, and theres nothing I can do to stop it. My paranoid delusions about the KGB wanting to kidnap and torture me for fun have been highly terrifying. 60 the red cat has been with me for the past couple days, he just does cat things, nothing bad. 60 is one of the good ones, along with the shadow people who just walk around the house singing old show tunes. Riley the Irish has been vulgar as usual, he's an asshole, like he calls me a slut and a good boy who's just begging for /it/. I hate it so fvcking much, like what am I supposed to do, tell my momma the terrifying things that her son goes through?! Scaring and worrying her even more than she already is. I could use some advice during this hellish time.",6.428600360036,5.903654272277232,5.883699369936996,85.58699819981999,65.68316831683168,7.939513951395138,29.74977497749775,6.1124844417494595,1.30470693069307,801,23,164,3,11,245,129,202,0.20800000000000002,0.685,0.107,-0.9829,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,0,10,12,3,1,16,0,18,2,1,1,0,20,23,8,0,2,4,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,11,10,0,1,0,3,0,2,1,6,0,2,8,5,15,6,23,14,3,22,1,0,3,1,13,7,0,2,16,101,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138286364925808,0.0,0.0,0.13463213047801958,0.0,0.1483687824750115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23937779095313755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122600312423518,0.0,0.0,0.11440694254662626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372883567196036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10734728642429664,0.14876623152022114,0.0,0.1734180956886104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11765799332317015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880287567017718,0.0,0.11327982006990756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255403556370105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13274141820180968,0.13798436249715254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14205367676286695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3102742127296451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15166531737568356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19705625559367276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09883612952785856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25234420318581635,0.0,0.2580165660512669,0.0,0.1410825289103683,0.0,0.1822134323648834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566952416570881,0.09321061582914146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13460778175471275,0.0,0.10713914461074636,0.0,0.0,0.15189009126912167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11240611736133553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751511853504805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786450480018052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07839880444182243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116121525425152,0.1480775444776801,0.11093522917858688,0.07930202087602499,0.0,0.10784758136335147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13654037635153424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658131261583007 schizophrenia,codeBetterThanFace,2019/09/12,"is it possible that i feel my body's cold from schizophrenia? im far past the hidden cameras look at me phase. &#x200B; i stillhave many other symptoms but one thats weird is that i always get mood decrease in the evening along with cold body temperature. &#x200B; is it just me?",3.0438888888888864,5.846644129629631,2.9977777777777814,89.60000000000002,79.92592592592592,5.0814814814814815,27.51851851851852,6.42735559955562,1.2049851851851852,229,10,42,2,6,69,41,54,0.049,0.951,0.0,-0.3421,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,3,3,2,0,0,5,6,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,6,0,5,6,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,26,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15262555156474844,0.39748509716466907,0.445766577024754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4074910074730425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12115148091330813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09274595556761278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09583278161199063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19813210857425584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15403207251792686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18596569273804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12429455131212695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175101360375201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20678583138360876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906503782119702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.445766577024754,0.0 schizophrenia,TheEnlightening,2019/09/12,"Psych monitoring I Know being paranoid is par for the course, but I need to vent. My med, a newer atypical antipsychotic, was approved by the FDA after a brief 3 year trial. Knowing US history with human experiments, informed or classified, it is my opinion that (under the guise of medical/health advancement and national security) the medicated are already actively monitored. Has anyone ever felt similarly? Ever been Les down a rabbit hole on the net and realized your being directed? Nudged? 🤔 Ugh I'm having a bad mental health day.",6.09095744680851,8.703423574468086,7.947819148936173,59.00875000000002,68.57446808510639,11.508510638297873,35.15425531914894,11.20814326018867,5.366302127659576,432,22,59,16,8,151,79,94,0.109,0.8220000000000001,0.069,-0.5913,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,1,0,2,2,3,0,0,9,0,9,2,0,0,2,14,14,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,3,1,6,1,9,9,0,12,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,6,41,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507060869738124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15885416860880822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18969133996275828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465165766520465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4110066129564695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222321102268044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21813478495184915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48297751139046297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24971165225811034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523531217294103,0.2288666206425103,0.22895068033467786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16845600170543246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732775337805388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630073610415295 schizophrenia,ScaredTonight,2019/09/12,Intelligence Does anyone else feel like their IQ has significantly decreased?,12.330000000000005,16.78854927272728,10.154545454545453,41.8518181818182,56.27272727272727,11.672727272727276,38.27272727272727,11.20814326018867,5.938745454545456,66,3,7,2,1,20,11,11,0.0,0.616,0.384,0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493007463953381,0.5118535353933127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43716429131963935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4173144297435769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525902169272313,0.35688247295138936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24405753175956724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,OhBixch,2019/09/12,"We need some help. My boyfriends brother is paranoid schizophrenic and refuses to let us talk to the Dr. He basically goes to see him and holds it together during the appointment so the Dr. thinks that everything is good when it is clearly not. He stares a lot, he calls us at 3am and screams that he’s not a faggot and that we are. He then turns around and thinks my boyfriend is going to steal his wife. He doesn’t have a wife. He also thinks a man that’s living inside him is also trying to steal his wife. He cut up his couch because he thought that the FBI bugged it. He then tried to flee to Canada. He will refuse to leave his apartment because he doesn’t want to leave his friends there by themselves when nobody else is there. He has full conversations with people that aren’t there. I’ve watched him eat cigarette butts until he throws up. He’s hit people and pulled knives on his parents. Even though his parents have POA they still can’t do anything. Everybody keeps saying that we have to wait until he actually stabs somebody before they can do anything. They won’t even look at a video of him have an episode. We don’t know what else to do. Waiting until he stabs somebody is absolutely insane to me. Why can’t anything be done before that happens ! We just want to get him help and no matter what we do we have the doctors and him fighting us. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. He calls his parents at least 100 times a day and they are getting older and can’t do this much longer.",3.449026845637583,5.335100855704699,3.749404026845639,89.4120389261745,74.0,6.378738255033557,25.342818791946307,7.087006719466742,0.9716817181208056,1197,40,243,12,25,371,155,298,0.1,0.821,0.08,-0.6341,4,0,1,0,2,0,24.0,10,0,4,0,14,8,2,0,12,0,35,6,1,0,1,41,54,21,0,4,3,7,0,0,1,3,4,2,1,1,14,19,1,6,5,1,0,4,11,5,0,0,2,6,31,3,26,45,5,24,0,0,4,1,65,9,1,2,11,151,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.1054373035430717,0.0,0.0,0.10558129407947574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17280868345509065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07347498043221014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667379388695115,0.09618384103040216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317276692183432,0.0,0.18387836450263345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206540786505728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06968072719316633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11058965234279326,0.0,0.11056856381305086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11055802475722501,0.18051712632216171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14272671900752934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09710477184392736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347606632804397,0.0,0.11289914402806145,0.0,0.06140502785747909,0.0906238528902518,0.0,0.1191210889408593,0.0,0.0,0.09554471496098843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448419034627673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09603624317128133,0.0,0.0,0.05937925221688273,0.0,0.0,0.22881021238173896,0.0,0.11048434838885528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09540659149155686,0.0,0.09073142221078123,0.0,0.0,0.0918568396588983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07942623693464396,0.08011473491333339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3599168672081424,0.0,0.0,0.14981097485373915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08592251044270358,0.0,0.0,0.08609866781994567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08628566973966467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08684327662613328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20769452921318374,0.10615463974130747,0.08577644974768127,0.06300248751883637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14671227411753324,0.11752301441558607,0.0,0.0,0.3898980794085536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12745665233116724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09749470338543932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07675277357957762,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,IHearVoiceso2193,2019/09/12,"I tried recording whispers I hear. Do you guys also hear this? 3:25 to 3:30 https://youtu.be/IrU99FPUVJs I also hear knocking on my roof. Pls help....",3.4896,6.269830759999998,2.4080000000000013,86.70400000000004,101.4,3.6,21.0,5.6839178017228535,0.3250000000000002,119,4,19,1,5,34,20,25,0.0,0.9420000000000001,0.057999999999999996,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,11,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4013406787141907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24846226719554826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8484562670166813,0.0,0.1681945220568425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17036644945372573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Krenoso,2019/09/12,"A Quick Question I'm here because I'm particularly worried about someone (a friend) who I feel may be a schizophrenic, and I don't know how to give him the help he needs. Any advice would be much appreciated. He constantly complains that he is sick. He used to claim that he was diabetic, and now he's complaining that he has multiple sclerosis, and that his brain is acting all wonky. He claims that he's been to the doctor more than 20 times, and everytime he's gone there, the doctors have told him time and time again that he's not sick. He complains that his language is becoming more and more worse. For instance, he tells me that when he was reading something, he couldn't tell what the words were and had to look it up. He even claims that he's had to look up grammatical terms up because he completely forgot how to use them, even though English is his native language. His mind constantly wavers from being very positive to very negative. He was also very suicidal as well - A few years ago, he'd habitually call a suicide hotline or a crisis line every other day. I reckon he's spoken to them a hundred or so times, where he's constantly complaining about how his life is bad, how he is tired of struggling, how he is upset with everything, and so on. He's always talking to himself, scolding other people, or simply reimagining situations where he acts like he's a fictional character. I really don't know what to do, and I'm beginning to get really worried about him.",7.554526315789473,6.965985926315793,7.884561403508773,72.37526315789476,63.42105263157895,11.389473684210527,35.49122807017544,10.793553405168565,3.772607017543861,1179,47,218,27,15,388,153,285,0.175,0.7759999999999999,0.049,-0.9895,0,0,1,0,0,1,32.0,0,0,2,0,23,10,0,2,12,0,26,9,1,7,1,34,43,23,2,3,4,0,1,1,1,2,8,0,0,0,15,10,0,1,5,1,0,3,5,7,1,0,10,3,17,3,24,26,7,25,0,0,2,0,52,6,0,5,17,133,32,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097677326308573,0.09957390953374468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898303886458816,0.09346769199039304,0.0,0.0,0.07638836100142221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937909918559744,0.13695084627359122,0.12405983677099075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12539760876194686,0.11470165297932527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177760359532972,0.3641669919442778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07244366058163368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299493579035979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483860229966957,0.0,0.09464300485260016,0.0,0.10095510502950586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056797504215214976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08678600323723122,0.0,0.05868787252501554,0.10775732544014527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07529253866256662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234674368786708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07934211425072935,0.054878842330075055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18865808723567248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11342144022148855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08257559272909049,0.0832913905671505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07787558949852844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583548755374266,0.0,0.11236055848388786,0.0,0.14392315419311316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626380667946852,0.0,0.0,0.09517698033702884,0.08647724539037073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11743187308750586,0.0,0.24574192699410236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028672789622537,0.19636302259136365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036381220974212,0.0,0.2620024793346763,0.12910699488496982,0.0,0.1073362820150104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19403438472133444,0.0,0.2780524393575304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009983044620594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22815346093663075,0.11447403002786735,0.07979612300089776,0.0,0.0,0.07233694037461921 schizophrenia,nausiatingly,2019/09/12,"Changed my glasses I broke my glasses yesterday, went back to my older ones, and boy was I in for a ride, that shit was scary",2.641923076923078,3.859618576923076,3.549230769230772,92.77076923076923,74.76923076923076,6.7384615384615385,28.384615384615394,7.1686216300943375,1.2712923076923075,97,4,22,1,2,31,21,26,0.324,0.6759999999999999,0.0,-0.8625,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,3,0,5,0,3,0,0,6,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3805624192419079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5235590327078461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33537015016264843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5080275854282028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4587951821397472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,distorted-soul,2019/09/12,Catatonic schizophrenia (F20.2)? Hi! Is anyone else suffering from catatonic schizophrenia subtype?,13.1475,17.471345416666672,7.603333333333335,47.67500000000001,94.83333333333331,11.6,54.0,8.841846274778883,9.753800000000002,83,6,5,3,3,22,10,12,0.254,0.746,0.0,-0.5792,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4675430057438187,0.6851217551294172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5585800913283809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,alucard1431r,2019/09/12,"Suicidal Thoughts - any help? I‘m on Risperidone after my psychosis. On some days I have suicidal thoughts out of nowhere. It’s on every second week on a random day. My psychiatrist told me the reason is the psychosis itself, but I think it’s from the Risperidone. Is there any help for this problem?",3.6204242424242414,6.522117981818187,3.6468181818181833,85.24356060606063,78.27272727272728,5.848484848484849,29.166666666666664,7.1686216300943375,1.869484848484848,239,11,41,3,6,73,39,55,0.157,0.752,0.09,-0.6136,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,1,0,9,8,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,5,0,9,5,1,9,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,2,4,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.327303160594178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104012019964548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20275964957416365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.322607862642302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23027141819446745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24743028813456144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5264683542180983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542000543353078,0.0,0.3821015390792295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22995325393410945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930364807355762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HESUS_CRISTUS,2019/09/12,"He is watching He watches while we sin he washes us with light he cleans our soul of sin Repentrepemtatoneatomesinrepent",7.355499999999997,10.933715550000002,5.420000000000004,74.01500000000001,68.5,6.0,25.0,7.1686216300943375,1.094,101,3,16,1,2,29,16,20,0.28600000000000003,0.7140000000000001,0.0,-0.802,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,2,0,7,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lastreach117,2019/09/12,"Wondering what to say to therapist/mental healrh Hi, so.. about .. let's say roughly 7 years ago, I was diagnosed adhd, then prescribed Ritalin, then promptly diagnosed schizophrenic a few wees after, and halted Ritalin and prescribed abilify. which I think quieted my mind.. but I hated how it ft so opposite to Ritalin, one was up one was.. level but down.... and after all that, diagnosed non schizophrenic, and then avoidance personality, depression obviously (or not haha). and then Aspergers with Adhd,and throughout all of this I was severe alcoholic. so was always drinking on meds so it was difficult to see what was doing what. So, blablabla got sober and started getting treated for straight up ADHD, the brief time I took ritalin in the past was amazing in the sense that could clean the house better and make me feel better and have better conversations with peers, so, I've always wanted to be able to try it again, because I thought it could fix my life via abling me to do norm living things... I've always had delusions.. i've always had paranoia... I've always had bad anxiety.. started ritalin again 3 or so months ago, and... I think it's ruining me... since I've started it, I've been an anxious mess, paranoid to the max.. and my functionality has decreased severely. without Ritalin, I don't function well either, that's why I was hoping it would fix my problems and I'd get a job and and make money and be successful, well, I've ended up.. not doing those things, afraid to leave the house, delusional thinking and paranoid. and it's... suffocating. I'm gonna stop the meds, because, I've tried to narrow down what the hell is going on, diet, all that stuff... I can't touch any stimulant what so ever anymore. even a few sips of coffee or green tea. even b vitamins Make all these symptoms worse. I've been suspecting I may be going into the realms of schizophrenia, but I've denied it and sought other reasons as to why this might be happening.. and it may just be the medication, so hopefully once I get off that for a few weeks, I'll be a bit better.. but even when I'm off it, I'm still declining mentally and functionality going down.. anxiety still peaked all the time, even with things that should calm you down like valerian or... herbal teas. or, idk, things that are meant to wind you down in the night time, it doesn't do shit.. so, holy crap, I should have gotten to the point alot earlier, I got carried away, it has been a good distraction, I want to stop this intense pain and suffering that's going on in my head, but I don't want to just tell mental health people that I have delusions and and occasionally hallutionations.. suddenly seeing a dark figure infrobt of me and jumping in fright...feeling like eyes are on me, or the feeling of being watched and followed constantly and looking over shoulders when out and about. anyway, I also don't want to be admitted into hospital, because, no.. I'm functional enough to be able to be on my own, I just realize that things aren't going very well and want some relief.. and I also neglected alot of things symptoms when talking to doc because, If I mentioned any of it, then I was afraid of being put on meds. and lose the chance of finding out if the other meds would work... or maybe my anxiety is just maxed out. I mean, yeah, that's a given haha. so.. yeah idk K thx bye",4.336300940438869,6.08183663636364,5.310851410658309,79.71338056426332,71.35109717868339,8.489579937304075,28.904200626959252,9.065960079200117,2.509459460815048,2626,103,484,54,50,861,286,638,0.155,0.735,0.11,-0.9874,2,1,2,0,0,0,132.0,0,2,0,7,36,37,4,4,27,4,56,28,5,6,7,112,103,66,0,16,22,0,4,2,0,8,19,3,1,1,45,37,5,5,15,1,1,10,10,18,3,2,23,13,37,19,67,58,15,75,1,5,6,0,12,32,3,18,36,331,82,3,0.1835664960322977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206112558543584,0.0,0.10848041530936392,0.06539225270742674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09786537370418673,0.2545700498404502,0.0,0.0,0.08322100804355416,0.0,0.14042786702111312,0.06912596346358288,0.060682879425043725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05748892188729372,0.0,0.05109011886976896,0.1492005762382294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164661978233282,0.06680235678720839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661233896728225,0.0,0.09770860676004132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0527018513499988,0.18631612942839665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059941760538911176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05419514335399181,0.06322442027293733,0.0,0.16165858582996845,0.05534880168048188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281673595000034,0.043713313814597886,0.0,0.0,0.0559254839286823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09590591774915423,0.0,0.17387511664452646,0.05132228920615894,0.09787659733038348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054109082067899286,0.0,0.0,0.060411303647612415,0.06279739462150828,0.06504086710866297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12154863322783055,0.0,0.14120739354115874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06072047417901811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06479013812952455,0.0,0.06256972640121321,0.04321948161794965,0.05978754510634265,0.0,0.0540308596968762,0.0,0.05138320808790861,0.06845465152297732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12253206151876092,0.0,0.061472406092825574,0.06665257618050127,0.2718679933168074,0.06164131085922951,0.12332790179994127,0.0649116811724809,0.061783277355618726,0.0,0.04884034193548427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057421573796946686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06516410910402204,0.08292627229982832,0.0,0.06510923139288223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058411663814934976,0.042420631723809964,0.0534277279485264,0.0,0.0,0.05784322422852663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05854944850203586,0.0,0.06151167663962408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0629123102926478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731963030969276,0.0,0.0,0.09751915393558774,0.0,0.0,0.13825192692716576,0.06280945675190787,0.05061603414724855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12992931070323022,0.0,0.09773096056926832,0.10231320683105706,0.0,0.0,0.07004657335252906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271972504890372,0.0,0.04918126537849179,0.0534817361843522,0.0,0.0,0.07104495009331441,0.24390684654819106,0.11762199856725188,0.0,0.04857709775768755,0.1070391000390898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06798304379307099,0.0830864007897776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05048719462177419,0.18045379233960648,0.0,0.04908199018558616,0.0,0.16504832538295766,0.0,0.11042680715144104,0.0,0.0,0.05898385052981602,0.06635667817485427,0.04454619845930957,0.0,0.062356647327135625,0.08693358133418404,0.0,0.0,0.03940360166027258 schizophrenia,RavenX420,2019/09/12,"Program denies my problems I went to a program to get a diagnosis on whats wrong with me. I hear things and see things. Sometimes good and sometimes bad. I warned them about my ADD but that info went through one ear and out the other. My ADD has caused me to create some coping strategies as a kid that may be linked to some signs of schizophrenia. Maybe um like day dreaming becoming more realistic type shit... anyway so they instead said i had a mild psychosis because i smoke weed. Well even after telling them i manage my dosages they didnt care. They said here r some meds please take them and we will further know about ur problems. I obviously did not. I would never take drugs from a facility that doesnt even listen to my trauma or life story but it got me thinking. Maybe its all in my head but how would I know right? Currently searching for a psychiatrist but we all know how hard and long of a process that is. I just need that clarity ya know? Like i be having full conversations and then it be straight white noise or a constant ringing in my ears. & if the the convos turn to whispers its like my visuals get a little more power. Sometimes they shut off completely and all i hear is a ringing or white noise. Ever seen that old black and white static tv screen? Imagine that but all white and u can see every pixel thats what my visuals would end up being. Advise: Do NOT go to Genpysch.",2.475093167701864,4.887422347826089,3.218053830227741,89.54739130434784,79.14492753623189,5.681987577639752,23.987577639751553,6.868970318607317,0.8406142857142855,1112,39,220,12,28,350,164,276,0.079,0.826,0.095,0.7578,2,0,2,0,0,0,25.0,2,1,7,1,13,12,1,0,13,0,19,6,4,3,7,56,43,23,0,7,12,0,1,3,0,5,2,10,0,1,17,15,0,0,8,2,0,3,5,6,2,1,9,20,34,6,23,25,10,25,0,0,9,0,20,12,1,8,13,150,51,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12224318448459567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942021156443364,0.06877557856550587,0.1246036411286116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503010772707525,0.11589983601572873,0.0,0.0,0.11829229587465225,0.1219210943046082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07276121039736509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13083833781570287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09992729072734713,0.0,0.0,0.14903645885100514,0.10205445459954504,0.09505786335795337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11789025033472712,0.0,0.06411965447789232,0.09463020110120417,0.09023449880879704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10106684311494807,0.0,0.11578848437165723,0.0,0.25431842437421337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480172890167271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07968990277435964,0.1653581953651894,0.11307783344147347,0.0,0.0998444053666263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266908292953108,0.0,0.12532041769028762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08365649036351995,0.08701570492162107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11838828616676875,0.0,0.07645147893524057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384527860337367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21591188436104897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634984022055414,0.2146401600189773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17980992841286814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158107250363485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33475315687548485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16965703151154146,0.0,0.09861188050355812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14990857640885089,0.07229213369415112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271853528049358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014410208117526,0.2091752661108076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24043770488460095,0.12335374592889994,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,suisuithyme,2019/09/12,“You’re just being delusional” - wow...thanks...I’m cured It breaks my heart when people don’t take me seriously. I feel just so much disappointment when people label me as such annoyed and act like it’s so obvious and are annoyed that I haven’t figured it out yet.,2.97176470588235,5.3943422549019635,4.121333333333337,83.68200000000002,77.43137254901961,7.217254901960787,23.925490196078428,8.238735603445708,1.5635772549019609,209,7,40,4,5,68,40,51,0.20600000000000002,0.745,0.049,-0.7893,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,8,5,2,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,8,6,7,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,1,5,1,2,5,1,6,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22779813310845634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5338723169906583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220102942949306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3311864865176953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6246723037429909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387374769535721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NervousMood,2019/09/12,"I have a solution for those of you who feel like you're being watched by cameras in the bathroom Just run the shower hot for a few minutes before you undress. When the mirror is fogged, the cameras are fogged, too. &#x200B; I hope this post finds you well. I'm at (hopefully) the tail end of a psychotic episode. I'm handling it ok. I still haven't gone back to work, but I did write a book. Anyone got any ideas for a second book? You'll have to give me permission to use them.",1.0475046382189213,3.377604622448977,2.2131168831168857,95.0637012987013,84.40816326530613,5.196289424860853,22.17439703153989,6.574015621080383,0.4221510204081631,375,13,81,4,11,119,70,98,0.0,0.903,0.09699999999999999,0.6705,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,4,1,1,6,5,0,0,10,1,8,0,0,1,0,9,17,2,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,1,1,3,3,10,5,11,12,1,9,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,2,5,51,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457564985265769,0.27560790055079,0.15424357248710668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15859596137857004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17440853769332298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19300485469431405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008928447008408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11468566472244575,0.1620383565766194,0.0,0.0,0.2073069441724544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21758386512880332,0.0,0.0,0.18140655094227345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.450561603631951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560491741845027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108114977724137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21722831838925172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18113662469590916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958973611451035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20393603280843384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16512572852969049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27560790055079,0.0 schizophrenia,AyYoWhatsReal,2019/09/12,"Does anyone else hear people mention things you've searched up recently? Like for example I searched up LOTR one night then the next day at a cafe I heard someone say ""Gandalf"".",4.33727272727273,6.810620303030305,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727274,73.24242424242425,6.824242424242425,32.21212121212121,7.793537801064563,2.3117757575757576,142,7,26,2,3,42,30,33,0.0,0.9179999999999999,0.08199999999999999,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,1,4,1,0,8,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,6,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.214305992232338,0.3140367746478941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19766167053019465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682127885113862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560343310513554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34543821037255845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14973627180948804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32595720123732896,0.2876215227266805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20768658132975304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21248262429335796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026233937607453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24373435287452744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596892644351843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20361934249000502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,delusionaljay,2019/09/12,"I feel like someone is watching me All the time, in my room, at the kitchen, outside. Anywhere. There's someone watching me What they want?? It's been years. Please leave",1.345937499999998,4.014314218750002,0.9185000000000016,99.8765,94.3125,2.5600000000000005,28.275,3.1291,0.3753925000000001,133,7,26,0,5,38,27,32,0.037000000000000005,0.765,0.198,0.644,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,5,1,2,3,1,5,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,3,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187076990356596,0.2643194172876433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3917637456866272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18075739064982335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4061355898667271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6269790646156785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157429097332035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21822843923867336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.238260065893233 schizophrenia,Tgsix9,2019/09/12,"9 years since last hospitalization Luckily I found the right medication for myself and now know the triggers for my episodes (lack of sleep). It wasn't easy at first and spent years as an agoraphobe but today I feel pretty ""normal"" now. I was really fortunate to get help early enough and stuck to the meds that were right for me. Just wanted to say it can get better! Hope you all have an awesome day.",3.521688311688312,5.7924642857142885,4.17792207792208,84.70116883116887,74.97402597402598,7.5168831168831165,21.38961038961039,8.418075326091056,1.1865376623376624,318,8,62,6,7,101,60,77,0.044000000000000004,0.662,0.294,0.9793,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,5,0,5,2,1,1,1,14,14,5,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,6,2,7,2,9,8,3,12,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,9,40,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942215519257331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14162616458132785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269092384583164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11103818629827854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18679472307751507,0.0,0.2407840293847471,0.0,0.0,0.22946765048653764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471956743593116,0.0,0.0,0.21811594066273984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12068840389497475,0.17900625665782094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24393011062180125,0.2212275390467618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21516491683284825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234158257900344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14068369929932387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3750805753213526,0.0,0.17463760921244534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18165837998278128,0.0,0.21976221050804387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20815854982558976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12952790209836731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828350566647881 schizophrenia,Satanizdro,2019/09/12,"I think everyone laughs at me I have Schizophrenia Fear And I think everyone laughs at me I'm thinking there's some hidden social media group about me I've been found online few times somehow, one person found my account on 2 social medias and 2 forums and they had no way to find them. All I know is he checked my posts 1by1 on one forum and by clues he found other forums using Google. It was effort taking behavior so I think it's someone from RL life who's fixated on me. He also trolled me on all of them giving clues/hints to my personal life in joking manner so I assumed it's someone from RL because why would internet Anon write a 1500 word troll article about me that's supposed to be rude or something? Anon wouldn't give 2 fuccs about me let alone write 1500 word article The only weird thing is that he called me ugly there which seems like he was Anon after all as in real life everyone knows that I am handsome ofc maybe he thought that I don't know how handsome I am Anyway I assumed it's Anon and moved on with life But I'm recently getting these attacks. Some people outside just look at me all times and I don't know what's up but they often know a thing or two about me that I didn't tell them(some of them told me these things) So I assume there's some hidden social media page dedicated to me",2.8085652173913047,4.610216974074074,3.8038164251207753,88.69978260869568,75.55555555555556,6.325281803542674,23.22061191626409,7.079830092131019,0.7855974235104664,1053,31,213,11,23,339,143,270,0.05,0.8809999999999999,0.069,0.6858,0,1,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,5,1,16,10,2,1,3,0,16,4,0,2,4,48,39,16,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,2,18,7,0,0,18,1,2,1,5,4,0,3,10,1,33,6,27,25,9,18,0,0,1,0,25,11,0,11,5,131,51,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10894442857988047,0.0,0.08411987393957943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966805524627395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06412244285097712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074100728576174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015387548140072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11836724729772015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961411473747731,0.0,0.0,0.34600403240737465,0.0,0.0,0.054957086493833726,0.2018143919609287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28904654044244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756322278425756,0.29719335514316736,0.051390196216941485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833254957020897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10567682634966327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11179961710369647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14255803269552875,0.08000122998798717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07292504096148071,0.1836945415849739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007423068031032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11972849316501435,0.0,0.0,0.10386177909510368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09576042079575448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32168184352644164,0.1782531659628471,0.08097988988510925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908928964518717,0.0,0.091940116010717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20964936226219533,0.2696043164195696,0.0,0.08350858296579496,0.12267349538234837,0.0,0.0,0.10051291827133572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027546965955666,0.0,0.0,0.0908498127902223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834943987008832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949170145224927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472348621537925,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CommonTower,2019/09/12,Anyone else really worried about privacy? I've recently switched my computer from running Windows to running GNU/Linux and have started mostly using the Tor Browser.,9.393333333333334,12.060117407407407,9.341666666666667,52.13250000000005,60.11111111111111,11.325925925925928,50.53703703703704,11.20814326018867,7.4781259259259265,138,10,13,4,2,45,26,27,0.094,0.9059999999999999,0.0,-0.3597,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,8,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28786105049913185,0.42182187676533417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3439115758386352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26373716799001123,0.0,0.4064911443966402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913941045560387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3555652973699056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41808802754425706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Progenetorli,2019/08/13,"Confusions and worrying things Hello, a few years ago I began noticing certain things which I've kinda just been putting off. I'm not a scientific person so don't expect ""proper"" terms in this mess of a post. And yes, it's going to be very messy and bleh. I started noticing that I saw things that didn't happen, when I was really young I went out into the hallway and saw someone running towards my room upstairs (from the hall you can see up to the hallway above) and I was terrified to go upstairs that evening. When I was on holiday I got up out of bed, blinked, and I was in my kitchen. Except my girlfriend was in front of me which was odd since I hardly get to see her. And she began running towards me with a knife and I fell backwards onto my bed and was terrified to stand up again. She's super sweet and lovely normally and I was scared to even text her, she's also really supportive of me and trying to help me relax, loooooot's of late night phone calls since talking to her makes me feel less terrified. I've ""hallucinated"" a few car crashes including the car flipping. I don't know if hallucination is the right word, I really just don't know at this point. I hear things, not voices normally. Just, things. Normally people walking around, which is most terrifying when home alone and I feel like I'm going to die. Which I also always feel, feeling like I'm about to die. I'm constantly scared, falling asleep is the worst since every time I close my eyes my body starts telling me I'm about to die. Walking home I keep thinking some car is going to swerve out of nowhere and hit me. I always feel like I have goosebumps even just in my room. My back faces away from my door so I can't see behind me and I always hear people walking into my room. I feel like someone is watching me, wanting me dead for god knows what reason. I'm not exactly a danger to anyone but myself sometimes, I've told my mum what goes on and she hasn't really cared or acknowledged that it happens or anything. There's some sort of plot against me. What's worse about my nature is that I'm attracted to watching morbid, scary things and then being terrified to move a muscle afterwards, watching an hour of Resident Evil 7 footage from the DLC which later caused a horrendous nightmare where I was watching my significant other go through the same experiences as the game. I also feel like everyone just... hates me... they all know something about me that I don't even know because everyone looks at me oddly, I want to know what they do. I have to look behind doors when I enter a room and in every space before I feel safe in any sense, and even then it's shaky. I get these odd feelings to hurt something or someone, break something, so pent up I just want to scream and throw myself out the window and just be done with it all and not need to care about the 123901894171301923 tones of work I have like this EPQ, comp sci coursework, personal statements for uni, maths work that I can't even begin to understand. I don't know how much longer I can keep myself going, like a train wreck waiting to happen. I don't, feel things properly. I can hardly feel happy, when I get these personal achievements that I've been trying to get, they just... don't make me happy, I don't care I just want... more. There was an odd time where I woke up, unable to move and I saw something floating above me, and then an ear-piercing scream coming from the corner of my room and I genuinely thought I died. After it ended I stayed completely still for about another half an hour or so just.. frozen. I isolated myself from basically my entire friend group a while ago because I thought they were part of the plot. I hardly spoke to anyone while at College, I sat, tried to not talk to anyone and did my work. I don't know what's wrong with me or if anything even is. I'm not asking to be diagnosed, I just want to yeet my problems somewhere. Goodnight everyone, have a lovely morning/afternoon/evening/night.",4.1298077797259545,5.594293989782892,4.671075610970412,85.21072277420612,71.42656449553002,7.5051540143299365,27.06428988895383,8.006104516180752,1.6188082732644975,3146,108,617,43,59,1001,319,783,0.141,0.765,0.094,-0.992,0,1,4,0,1,0,94.0,0,1,4,5,45,36,3,4,29,1,47,9,5,5,4,122,133,53,5,13,26,1,14,7,2,0,1,6,13,3,36,38,1,4,26,3,0,24,19,14,0,1,29,34,103,22,92,99,14,104,0,1,13,2,34,42,0,14,41,404,139,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155437449093458,0.0,0.0,0.053485152192206384,0.0,0.12389337349404884,0.12890991398291568,0.0,0.0,0.035118077830934284,0.05415074955738637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832708084150544,0.0,0.08499331920045015,0.04597199748151426,0.04827795096824149,0.0,0.04851900933951391,0.03970922419866498,0.0,0.06296051408091805,0.0,0.04394322174734157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05736220681226813,0.0,0.0,0.052731875954109886,0.0,0.1579562440986665,0.05305017718240046,0.0,0.044484689763555116,0.05414526431781668,0.055806253722859966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052415165258917235,0.21438342634603785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05284731491999317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04573915426181957,0.0,0.0,0.2387616572351004,0.0,0.08702059756211349,0.14803736550190155,0.0,0.05051542132625437,0.0,0.0,0.2872271458940141,0.18446394640950356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039898193603919024,0.0,0.10792247656823392,0.0,0.1760947632642825,0.0,0.04130252737477688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13699956297763768,0.1099469463185698,0.13878226541544658,0.05098541614047125,0.0,0.0,0.11640773565865947,0.0,0.03461429461474392,0.0,0.10360152674590534,0.0,0.10171320211244496,0.0,0.05528343073199881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09180290331322354,0.0,0.0,0.22704710513741225,0.0,0.058254005609007814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17660643606796142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673192229970984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09321717078594967,0.0,0.06894237523853157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097737555516612,0.03796253845977583,0.03829161273049802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09692433894674987,0.15179349232427905,0.0,0.1175886712585139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055922850563149835,0.0,0.07160360498082405,0.13527443268490852,0.0,0.0,0.048818030403728535,0.0,0.049458404452570624,0.0,0.0,0.04941406353493532,0.0,0.051914099541092884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13233179673885664,0.053096194370171865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04410166805156402,0.0,0.0,0.10340455694206524,0.0,0.1234550740886666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12815546471722752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312673511790697,0.1590249925203815,0.051074890454554066,0.0,0.07310442003470535,0.05504310419172004,0.04124107073982227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058602307346687414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830151686930682,0.045137058971278544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24015882028513796,0.03308986995329345,0.0,0.08199536823502858,0.0602252970252995,0.0,0.0,0.049345788500633855,0.0,0.10518382647205664,0.0,0.0,0.0537607558715655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042609751356654485,0.15229785058486556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04787230642780276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127871604545492,0.05244457986485958,0.05262723068589608,0.0,0.056462013257317076,0.0,0.0332555152227999 schizophrenia,Lews_There_In,2019/08/13,Everything you do. Is relegated to your mental illness.,4.369999999999997,7.023499888888887,7.142777777777778,51.867500000000035,105.66666666666669,10.68888888888889,37.833333333333336,8.841846274778883,6.684066666666666,45,3,5,2,2,16,9,9,0.252,0.748,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6655811343358486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7463255011161049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,targeted84,2019/08/13,How many schizophrenics here know what a targeted individual is and are they sure they arent one? Im a targeted individual and was settled i had bipolar and psychosis until i was overtly stalked and outright told it was gangstalking. Found out the truth. Upon openly talking about being a targeted individual ive been repeatedly hospitalized against my will and diagnosed as a schizophrenic when im not. I suggest if you think you are schizophrenic you research the subject,7.674738955823294,9.75941360240964,8.002590361445781,62.32669678714862,63.57831325301205,10.834538152610442,42.74899598393574,10.864195022040775,5.507089959839358,391,24,57,11,6,128,57,83,0.0,0.938,0.062,0.5574,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,2,0,4,2,0,0,6,0,12,5,0,1,2,15,16,10,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,7,0,10,2,6,7,0,6,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,1,3,46,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2986976509015312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226732503105873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6357663273614201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16173381456858102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983633655798286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199418183573034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27736437389891583,0.0,0.0,0.236538755103851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885688306974173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28120623171202425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,doc_card,2019/08/13,Taking Medications My brother was recently involuntarily hospitalized for the 2nd time. The second he gets back from the hospital he does not want to take any meds at all. He’s on Abilify and Prozac. Does anyone have any tips or advice to get him to take his meds?,3.540399999999998,6.171036240000002,5.3020000000000005,74.861,76.6,8.8,24.0,9.3871,2.3842,212,7,39,6,5,72,40,50,0.025,0.975,0.0,-0.0572,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,5,8,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,7,7,1,5,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,3,21,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21456847362622986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2986402949217331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15353360894001292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16884145087457705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38430728842498224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22944023578243036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4878019361494607,0.2212011087960903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21680617191230706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4952845871685551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12803733558518854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12951242728480586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,The_Dohnut_Hero,2019/08/13,Possibility of having schizophrenia? If my brother had schizophrenia what are the chances that I might develop symptoms as well? I know very little about the illness. Should I be concerned?,5.994999999999997,9.780737451612907,4.561532258064517,76.16229838709678,77.70967741935483,5.680645161290323,36.782258064516135,7.1686216300943375,3.219509677419355,155,9,21,2,4,45,27,31,0.076,0.784,0.139,0.2509,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,0,0,4,7,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194367188939801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40018869407710383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4235785279928617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45013410044360985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4150102350894518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294521293256299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3590053718664049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wise0wl84,2019/08/13,"Need help reaching out to our ""hermit"" cousin. Hello, My cousin and I are trying to make contact and build trust with our older cousin, who has been holed up in his house for a few years. Our uncle brings him meals, and from what I understand, our cousin has gone as far as to try to dig out a piece of his head to take a ""microchip"" out. I do not know the full extent, as our uncle is very protective of him and does not want anyone seeing him. The last contact, was made by our other cousin over a year ago who would visit him and bring him meals. He was not violent at all and seemed to like it. Our uncle flipped out when he found out and got upset that he was visiting him. Mental illness runs on their side of the family, and our uncle has told me he feels helpless and all he can do is bring him meals. We love him, and while I know his father has told us to stay away, I feel like we need to do something to attempt to establish Trust and hopefully get him help. we are looking for suggestions on how to approach it, what to say, or do. I feel helpless reaching him too, but I don't want to wait for him to eventually break down too far or worse.. we are strongly skeptical that our uncle may be embarrassed of our cousin and does not want any family to see him. We are willing to do whatever it takes! Please help us!",6.128301587301586,5.0302517666666695,6.266243386243385,84.4866666666667,66.51851851851852,9.640211640211641,28.915343915343914,8.634040054169528,1.7930899470899466,1027,26,226,13,14,328,137,270,0.062,0.83,0.10800000000000001,0.8986,0,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,17,0,1,2,4,13,2,2,7,0,25,6,1,3,2,52,56,21,0,7,7,7,3,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,10,23,3,2,8,0,0,8,5,6,0,0,10,7,42,7,42,42,6,34,0,2,3,1,60,17,0,5,9,155,52,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11534711142279455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848881026258865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098575524768936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12225582027132235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22774485095442745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24533873088632774,0.0,0.19738387529201584,0.09296064114158616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426742949514622,0.0,0.0,0.06798444093445599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040720829262645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13354480721356646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616582060626919,0.0,0.0,0.12924253378119893,0.0,0.15014567293151287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14302554017831887,0.1060684611259892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271440675703493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092714221580792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11744202770157385,0.12312651419456595,0.08685880803192451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13113442818124382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19297065573292044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14283712188779948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10347986047937194,0.0,0.0,0.20738402748157486,0.11846004012927575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001758443179238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13869491452617558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19567416991927328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24867819570945174,0.0,0.17669136502264438,0.0,0.0,0.1354637161177949,0.3130463999906588,0.0,0.0,0.10736596180710632,0.23025159296047454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326075149451267,0.0924363855350315,0.0,0.0,0.16759123269228654 schizophrenia,dontyell_atme,2019/08/13,"How did it begin? Hi. I don't have schizophrenia. I just wondered. how did it start for you? What were the first symptoms and how long did it take you from the first symptoms to the ""full blown"" disorder?",0.5078333333333305,2.9865154500000024,0.875,100.66333333333333,94.5,3.6666666666666674,19.166666666666668,5.46131890053228,-0.4348333333333332,158,5,34,1,6,47,28,40,0.083,0.917,0.0,-0.5007,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,2,4,0,0,0,3,0,6,2,0,3,0,6,10,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,4,0,3,6,1,6,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,5,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33716624761072644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5004742730321543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26034813580081695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082285910688664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6115503294940687,0.2211936248072162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31903557856749065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,2nicefr,2019/08/13,"Believe I’m meant to be famous?? I’m so tired for the past 4 years I can’t stop thinking I’m meant to be famous not 100% though , it all started when I was going through some very tuff times when I was about 13 and I convinced myself it was all happening because one day I was gonna be famous I guess it was just a way to cope but then it turned into almost an actual belief for about 2 years it just made me feel better about all the things happening in my life but now I can’t shake it I have no idea what’s going on it feels like I should be doing so many things so become famous like by not doing it I’m denying my “destiny” and all the pain I went through was for noting I don’t wanna believe it anymore it ruined my life but my mind won’t let it go I have ocd but Idk what this is man I’m no longer at the point where I believe It I’d say I never believed it 100% at the worst during those 2 years I’d say I believed it 90% but still my mind won’t let it go it feels different from an obsession I don’t get anxiety really I just start to feel like I’m denying my “destiny” plz help I don’t know where else to post this what do I do?",0.02781249999999957,1.7055463437500045,2.3700062499999994,96.30936875000002,83.609375,5.18975,18.443125,6.152001189255117,-0.3288876250000001,888,21,216,7,25,303,123,256,0.154,0.7659999999999999,0.08,-0.9578,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,16,10,0,2,8,0,27,4,0,1,5,37,55,14,0,2,10,0,4,3,0,4,4,2,0,1,24,3,0,1,10,0,0,6,12,5,0,1,10,6,27,5,21,35,6,31,1,1,0,0,4,8,0,3,18,140,51,0,0.0,0.0,0.10002529243530756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10263902418815728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841228077790137,0.0,0.10165253693925284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06248309750260132,0.113203285529655,0.0,0.5774124506167464,0.0,0.09065299133306423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661040720920384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070907677516364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08562566446219623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073084812747466,0.14645215551329654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053552061356015215,0.0,0.23301263071218395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11291539427266073,0.0,0.18128096477195912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06870364313153891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157101141635828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056331363454844914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209626553141226,0.1447976758285089,0.1502290850816535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09698805420870724,0.0,0.10391899327249972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069917229744446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07905438075954109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06945670704869296,0.0,0.10906731209791387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09784792465171684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09689570671804934,0.0,0.09816674316735503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06566417602389306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163024355612363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14510016862406824,0.0,0.08185669643154919,0.08569465667506886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13619299745052596,0.06567791260353333,0.10070580834942758,0.0,0.059768621033153474,0.11780876378886622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11149065359012876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457330082018352,0.0,0.08135979265594769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09501860122547436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19802007310437927 schizophrenia,simplyATOM,2019/08/13,"Exploiting my own weakness I’m 18. starting when i was 16 ive had hallucinations and episodes. i dont know if i’m technically schizophrenic because i often experience psychosis in the form of hallucinations and more often voices and sounds, but only have a psychotic episode in which i can’t distinguish them from reality about 2-3 times a month. i mean, i can’t distinguish false sounds and real ones i just know that i didn’t hear church bells when im in my car nowhere near a church/ i’m aware that demons aren’t real and nobody else sees them. i suppose i could be tricked day to day if my hallucinations were more realistic, but i digress. im trying to be an artist. not a career artist, the type that puts on galleries and sells original work. to make money doing that nowadays a good place to start is social media, but it’s tough to gain a following. i haven’t been open on social media about my psychological problems because a.) why would i and b.) its embarrassing/ a crutch, and i dont want to use a crutch however my hallucinations/running commentary and my frustrations with it do influence a lot of my work. and it sounds shitty, but it is something that interests people and is memorable. idk, does that make me a bad person? i just want to be successful, i dont know if this will help or not or how to announce it. help",5.029342663273962,6.11228751526718,6.120254452926207,77.10843935538594,68.8854961832061,9.486344359626802,30.586089906700593,9.725611199111238,2.826818659881256,1067,42,207,24,18,356,145,262,0.113,0.785,0.102,0.3036,2,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,2,4,9,10,2,1,14,0,25,2,0,6,0,49,42,23,0,8,13,0,0,0,0,2,2,5,0,1,14,13,0,0,7,2,2,3,10,7,0,1,5,6,27,3,20,31,5,20,3,0,1,0,8,8,0,8,9,134,41,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10870385060236168,0.1587261637669009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394673203719314,0.0,0.0,0.1679245458678339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11393081568598733,0.0,0.4577478204850713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087576783426145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12735154970113507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10919783672178272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14673445399559135,0.0,0.17452825079014944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812567338342004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146483187851151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068353263459976,0.0,0.0,0.17380669300962506,0.0,0.0,0.14181590968415195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391702643433584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08822063164571442,0.09901594331128367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09025788382127707,0.11367755420073662,0.1360216396071091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12457497934266908,0.0,0.1308776776342763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29637118563683595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10374518375367778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26542617896971626,0.0,0.10022721134940032,0.0,0.0,0.1842993869395636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07591528196753689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08839098340681523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244302011891748,0.0,0.0,0.1535797725044744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11747691542550852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18956085479336213,0.0,0.0,0.09248378401475166,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mcndi,2019/08/13,"Schizophrenia and Marijuana Hi my friend has schizophrenia and he used to smoke a lot of Marijuana before his diagnosis. He's been getting treatment for over a year now and he seems to be coping well besides the side effects from the medication. Recently he asked me to get him some Marijuana edibles and I told him I can't as I don't think he should use Marijuana again without his doctor's permission. Did I do the right thing or will this affect him negatively? I don't want him to feel like I'm preventing him from getting something he wants. Thanks",4.409737945492664,6.593229764150943,5.478805031446542,76.75980083857444,72.11320754716981,8.862054507337527,30.645702306079663,9.444778638647367,3.0198104821802945,449,20,82,11,9,148,71,106,0.023,0.87,0.107,0.8548,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,5,0,10,2,0,4,0,19,24,6,0,3,2,0,1,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,5,0,1,0,3,1,14,4,11,18,2,7,0,0,0,0,17,3,0,4,5,53,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20543974493219186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869939400123101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22492689525606852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11111391132283636,0.15699185793731404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16978091557026356,0.0,0.3444362117793711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10736040085596567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18682646445498946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22137841021447147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21697995061533004,0.0,0.0,0.1876681850387057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20005522297225475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691768874093378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20231938667698854,0.0,0.0,0.1459943804368842,0.14080909207426578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20998377105351626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.379592725339012,0.0,0.0,0.2592324732129409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19758467913010608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211834415534068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14151397124237744 schizophrenia,onlytoyou,2019/08/13,"r/Tardive_Dyskinesia has been created We've created r/Tardive_Dyskinesia for people who suffer from this condition and also from anyone who is just interested not necessarily affected by it. A place where you can support each other and also inform yourselves. Tardive Dyskinesia is caused by the use of anti-psychotics. It's been said that around 20-30% of ap users develop it. But studies show that it's much higher. When it comes to tardive dyskinesia. It doesn't matter whether it's atypical or typical. Suffering from this condition may be embarrassing to some and/or even disabling. Many people are known to recover completely from it. I don't really see people talking about this condition a lot. You can benefit by learning more from each other's experiences. Or just anyone unaffected being curious learning from you.",6.5201300108342375,9.564719507042255,7.699577464788735,59.31568255687975,68.71830985915493,11.12979414951246,34.86673889490791,10.891193690592663,5.185634236186346,678,34,93,24,13,229,94,142,0.092,0.797,0.111,0.195,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,3,0,0,9,6,0,1,3,0,13,0,0,3,0,24,18,9,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,17,6,0,0,4,1,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,2,4,3,17,12,6,5,0,2,1,0,8,3,0,5,1,74,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3415041305318695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29859664413456993,0.0,0.0,0.19007828973385668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21934411166196305,0.0,0.18392878736665327,0.22387191774420176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14102811011519487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088637739689388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18152727938159247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164760182492157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569619503109802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4440841659862565,0.0,0.22308321380034588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13678653843377495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031066515916164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701479931790814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24230024721886986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161948742265365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18441293877944145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Crocnoc,2019/08/13,"Treatment with the presence of anosognosia? A family member of mine is a textbook schizophrenic, (e.g., delusions, various hallucinations, such as visual, auditory, tactile, etc.) with anosognosia and hypochondriasis. Living with this individual severely compromises my quality of life, in part because of their condition and their individual personality, which is far from likeable or agreeable, not to mention their condition is so severe it effectively disables them yet they are not receiving SSI benefits. How does one encourage or aid an individual in getting treatment when they believe they do not have such issues or refuse to accept the ""consequences"" of what it means to have schizophrenia? Furthermore, this is problematic as I am a frequent fixture of this person's delusions and paranoia, -- they are constantly in fear of my intentions.. and I don't trust them, as they can be verbally aggressive, unpredictable, prone to explosive outbursts depending on what is said to them, etc. Anyway, revolving back to my original question, what kind of resources can be used in a situation like this? What can I do? It truly feels like an impossible situation that only gets worse each passing day.",11.869999999999996,12.08115458974359,11.076538461538462,50.38096153846154,54.384615384615394,14.774358974358973,48.73076923076921,13.662883650711644,7.420784615384612,975,57,127,34,10,315,123,195,0.124,0.763,0.114,-0.2843,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,11,1,8,9,1,1,8,0,18,2,0,6,0,25,24,13,0,0,6,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,2,13,8,0,1,5,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,1,2,18,7,26,21,5,15,0,0,0,0,19,6,0,5,9,107,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12388283061317128,0.0,0.09821051479352222,0.0,0.0,0.18151460567683605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17410152972309012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10390193843762173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409875195597714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593581118524489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15187917081175697,0.1812923490581598,0.0814615211186053,0.1150962593122326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16834554381077482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16815587650600178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677701694597636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11379600926019527,0.1574193808409791,0.0,0.14226214614865898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17549486695143798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091715876414579,0.12253060912690195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17446528265221806,0.0,0.0,0.2813482252344578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18047888491697534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15325149602885565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640144899449618,0.0,0.0,0.3621863987319251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391463968981788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16418377433121306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sewerhawk,2019/08/13,"what the hell is with neurotypicals (hi my name is sewerhawk yes i am new. thanks) why the *fuck* can neurotypical people not take 2 seconds out of their day in order to understand just a liiiiittle bit more about people who are not completely normal? it seriously takes like *two fucking seconds* and somewhere around a minute for them to google schizophrenia and just learn *something* about it before they assume that ***all schizophrenics are dangerous***... god...",3.3498076923076923,6.02161125641026,3.406121794871797,79.32533653846156,103.10256410256409,6.052564102564102,24.10576923076923,7.1686216300943375,2.0293307692307687,370,15,57,8,16,113,66,78,0.08,0.856,0.064,-0.3321,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,3,0,5,7,4,0,4,1,6,3,0,0,1,15,12,2,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,3,0,0,5,2,10,12,3,6,1,0,0,2,6,3,3,1,3,41,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083822373395616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991861864888864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555564623956629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24543008653094806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15096325616035666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43280930369276704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143604376965916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260774518328844,0.0,0.0,0.2293502514354016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245653925192639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802074390373684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.352000437700388,0.0,0.0,0.2155108720758908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286636935271238,0.243687183574904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112222198923534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,itsGron,2019/08/13,"Voices telling me to kill myself Since ive been diagnosed with schizophrenia the voices in my head have evolved into Something else. They made up a story of how these voices come from the people that previously prayed for me, but since they can now See my thoughts they see me as the bad person i am. They are calling me stuff like a pedophile a rapist and other weird shit that isnt true. I seriously consider taking my Life what do i do is any of this real .",6.6135164835164835,6.222152769230771,6.549758241758244,80.5202417582418,65.26373626373626,9.038241758241758,30.28791208791209,8.238735603445708,1.9991389010989,366,11,72,4,5,116,68,91,0.23399999999999999,0.718,0.048,-0.9697,0,0,1,0,0,1,5.0,0,0,4,0,2,8,3,0,6,0,10,5,2,2,1,10,16,4,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,1,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,6,0,0,3,5,16,2,10,13,0,5,1,0,2,1,7,3,1,0,2,52,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14729649881762802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808532679574115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211744259329587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18658307794364049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219846039545624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18094282249184188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222957058577364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23963755092355984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15299209833423544,0.10582058874432712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20495364779637154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15016425966095168,0.18912814087712115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465400128598109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452068240954685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22233840444113287,0.35835012284500606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667504748944321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479569822946608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16285742825915253,0.0,0.18931932395051754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17195745619145333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,birgsome,2019/08/13,"Loneliness So I see many posts here of people who really craving to find a interlocutor here. Do you feel lonely in this world almost every time ? Like even when you on the meeting with your kith and feeling like you don’t belong to be here, with that people ?",4.225200000000001,6.0571997200000025,4.8610000000000015,82.47550000000003,71.8,7.4,22.5,8.07648339933343,1.1878000000000002,206,5,38,3,4,66,41,50,0.098,0.779,0.122,-0.1088,0,2,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,4,0,0,6,3,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,6,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,5,2,7,5,0,6,0,1,1,0,6,3,0,1,4,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057665230570501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016825139342993,0.0,0.2572727371417393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087909010290976,0.21814396005665607,0.0,0.0,0.2790867465237458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.298359715003078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095796116910813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4233860938379212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924433856959828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956166959988356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24332648985513025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780535579500419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Outcast_Kuro,2019/08/13,"One last chance....for me or for others... Ok....give me some good reasons as to why I shouldn't go on a stabbing spree... I'll be waiting but I just wanted your guys opinion on it all...Now what will it be tell me. Also another as to why I shouldn't kill myself although that one is pretty tempting. Tell me stranger I need someones opinion or I will go ask on the street or something witch won't end well. We can't see the flowers dacne like this we need to be happy but I'm never. SO ANSWER THE QUESTIOn........thx",-0.3532443257676903,1.869099476635516,1.6168825100133508,97.08310747663552,91.61682242990652,3.430974632843792,19.792389853137518,4.65589566412798,-0.4687030707610145,392,13,86,1,14,129,72,107,0.05,0.77,0.18,0.945,1,0,1,0,0,1,29.0,2,1,0,0,4,6,1,0,4,0,10,0,0,1,1,20,19,10,1,5,6,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,5,2,1,2,0,1,13,4,9,11,1,9,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,6,4,56,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15382779561573515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201703049979972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17982779622945366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17037117664154325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21864179244195406,0.161339896139362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19046363791893176,0.0,0.2047675663744788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21281448199640304,0.0,0.0,0.15679660022290806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09397589689673433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852605047768856,0.14835755003345405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606921157849125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19569618723905294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154838240423327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19777499728685186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15328359676596473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16298343243646365,0.1480857895623899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3362569322141869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11345712190302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17295201290479725,0.0,0.34714448385667124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,The1stMusketeer,2019/08/13,"I think I might have schizophrenia. Recently I've started *feeling* a presence in my head. It's always there and always tries to steer me in certain directions of life but it has never been rude or harmful to me. I almost kind of like it since it's more of a feeling of someone else believing I can do something with all of their heart. It feels even stranger because it has only ever ""talked"" to me once, and that was a time where I was dealing with some extreme self hatred and it simply yelled my name at me to snap me out of it. I guess I'm posting here in order to see if anyone else has had a similar experience of a presence more than a voice and if this sounds like schizophrenia or not.",3.925531914893618,4.952994212765958,4.7217659574468085,86.32350000000002,71.41134751773049,7.058439716312058,28.993617021276588,7.1686216300943375,1.5261370212765957,548,21,111,5,10,177,88,141,0.042,0.871,0.086,0.4529,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,0,5,6,1,0,6,0,11,3,2,0,4,26,19,9,0,2,6,0,3,2,0,1,1,3,0,1,10,7,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,7,14,4,20,14,4,13,0,0,1,0,5,6,0,8,7,81,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17450100402386454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900045129593267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218499855795026,0.17855486010299856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10623019202459456,0.0,0.0,0.19633673091784545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796593355691315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911517239577925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11510024323043955,0.1576324697690341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17046439299382074,0.0,0.0,0.2643405255304431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919723012390378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788459390032241,0.0,0.0,0.20650460258202336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18146995110634506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230883672767432,0.170273937472864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18486739205569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13440374091764315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18558630262067788,0.0,0.13253621736742868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16689748738309634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17206544614855945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13886646700495905,0.0,0.18179617059829006,0.0,0.0,0.14415362628091302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14765398203272456,0.13415754095049404,0.0,0.0,0.12334550775987135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14006742860906066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11166183410413376,0.0,0.0,0.10161519423925457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11831434613814787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,deletedfuckshit,2019/08/13,"My negative symptoms are killing me My brain is losing more and more will and motivation to do anything and my health is deteriorating. I keep getting stuck standing or sitting because I cant make myself feel the need to move from point A to point B. I only eat every few days and never drink any water when Im starving myself, which I will probably get a kidney stone from. I have damaged my insides and am going to be bald in the coming months at 19 years old from the severe daily hair loss that has happened as a result of malnourishment. The bones in my chest are showing. I don't have enough will to get out of bed and go to the bathroom and hold it in for hours which will probably cause some other health problems. I get no sunlight, fresh air or physical exercise. I go a week without showering or until the filth starts to make me physically sick. I also have very severe ocd in which intrusive thoughts torment me all day every day and I have to spit each time to make them go away so I and my bed are always covered in disgusting rotting spit.",7.068343531468536,6.408304706730768,7.385506993006994,75.7913111888112,64.43269230769229,9.871328671328673,34.293706293706286,9.095868883498916,2.898667307692308,841,32,159,12,11,275,129,208,0.172,0.805,0.023,-0.9842,1,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,3,3,6,2,0,10,0,19,16,8,6,2,31,38,17,1,2,4,0,2,0,0,4,5,0,3,0,6,12,3,2,3,3,0,6,6,6,0,0,2,2,23,0,26,31,7,32,0,3,0,0,1,11,0,4,13,109,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09920060375743557,0.10321731450825808,0.0,0.0,0.08435643712123073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020803818103891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11654654848244075,0.0,0.0,0.07561810006738097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13847784348302636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12743077674414552,0.0,0.10685578957260823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24000079404397426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12151915658580335,0.0,0.12693138547052735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281740502467609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090304487005306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06272205647774554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259238437035878,0.0,0.2819958217568208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969464289015657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26371301889017273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221616311078326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13399240137204352,0.0,0.0,0.1102589651713056,0.13723998980721006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387772304760268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248407664983643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990133941012554,0.1318426787527383,0.0,0.09197952225977052,0.0956729469884386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301668042187063,0.0,0.0,0.09434358308532513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345296420812048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26748800150842,0.11869654038460725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802763449973316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08780133755654357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12893267115025028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984797225811936,0.0723329947908906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10235203727188942,0.0,0.0,0.09950328447615947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11957719800227498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07988241248087746 schizophrenia,Vegemiteisnotafood,2019/08/13,"Does this sound like schizophrenia? I have OCD but I think I have some sort of psychosis too. I regularly see shadow figures, hear music and feel like I’m getting pricked by needles, I think I’m being spayed on by people and animals and feel like nobody is who they say they are and I have full on conversations with myself in my head that block out all outside noises. I’m going to my councillor in a few days and I think I should mention all of this. I’m not asking for a diagnosis or anything I’m just curious.",2.2476923076923083,4.421373000000003,3.896769230769234,85.64823076923078,78.61538461538461,6.467692307692308,24.823076923076925,7.554174236665415,1.3040723076923073,408,15,81,6,10,136,68,104,0.057999999999999996,0.83,0.11199999999999999,0.6652,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,2,4,1,0,2,0,7,2,2,0,2,23,22,7,0,1,4,0,2,3,0,1,0,3,0,0,4,7,0,1,6,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,6,13,3,12,20,5,8,0,0,1,0,8,6,1,3,4,53,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20377767153658485,0.0,0.2314998055709197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597003005861769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167019171265268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25041745331168713,0.35381259454640906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293759979514947,0.0,0.14073333906457428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541389245394018,0.0,0.279096022422928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362937248569532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17167485672850924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19692462030109814,0.0,0.0,0.19732835297194204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4760122358295776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,StarryBallarinaGirl,2019/03/12,"My coworker took advantage of my schizophrenia for his own gain and I feel dirty and morally wrong So I’m a department manager for a pet store. I run the fish department and part of my job is doing orders. I screwed up and order of rock and accidentally ordered to much. We were originally going to send it back but then the shipping manager called me and told me to take the rock and use it in the tanks as we had gotten are money back on it. This didn’t sound right to me so I had him repeat that three times before I actually did it. About a week and a half later he comes into my department and starts questioning me as to why the rocks were in there. And I looked at him and said because you told me as well as one of my staff to do that because we got a credit. He then proceeded to go on about how it was just in my head and the conversation never happened and that it was actually the store manager that told me this. He made me doubt myself because he knew of my illness even though I knew I was right, and when I asked my staff member about it he remembered the whole thing. I am disgusted that someone would try and use my illness against my job to manipulate me, I’m sorry I get had to rant ",4.305362903225807,4.7428347782258085,5.538064516129033,82.96459677419358,70.16935483870968,9.103225806451613,28.0,9.188382445141503,2.052446774193548,947,31,204,18,16,317,129,248,0.114,0.847,0.039,-0.9528,2,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,3,1,0,2,14,7,2,1,13,0,16,4,1,6,1,36,40,27,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,15,20,0,0,5,3,4,9,2,4,1,3,20,4,37,3,32,19,4,35,1,0,1,1,21,10,1,2,13,150,52,8,0.0,0.0,0.2627076130592404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583630097269372,0.0,0.0,0.20700389256132454,0.0,0.2461595212841685,0.0,0.11453784526078675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13744544000596015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11594917964612872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08890448259360095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06805968140239192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07032488419036477,0.0,0.15299678345515222,0.0,0.10765488512725616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11902961838156807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13814224214291987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671468298207995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130332176444906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12736528729925406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09894921635042654,0.0,0.10381468109502122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09121095912575496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576270354441312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507869634477383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15247976677723846,0.2299016699356237,0.12803895447738753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11404928875104775,0.0,0.0,0.15067783591651168,0.09527320047171092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012052401216732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942472549818165,0.0,0.1322474640591042,0.0,0.07848850718240734,0.0,0.0,0.38585884667632747,0.14954967724184187,0.091387085131984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325087798788446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10797097895445792,0.0,0.12102490274613426,0.0,0.12145891421552014,0.15028023797172455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09561861535338988,0.14716802911635193,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CaptainBeefFart98,2019/03/12,"I get paranoid from walking around outside I live in the suburbs where it's just endless rows of houses and I always feel like everybody is watching me through their windows. I get really stiff and try to keep from looking around so I usually look straight ahead or at the ground. When I walk past people on the street it's even worse. The whole time I'm just dreading the moment when I have to pass them and don't wanna look at them, but then it feels awkward. I always feel like they are staring at me and talking about me too. It's the worst when I'm walking past girls my age because then I'm twice as nervous and probably seem creepy. ",3.6774418604651165,5.1971112015503875,3.893713178294576,90.12289534883722,72.64341085271317,6.4003100775193795,28.403875968992253,6.742157984588678,1.2564536434108518,511,20,104,4,10,158,84,129,0.125,0.823,0.052000000000000005,-0.8544,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,4,1,12,6,0,3,6,0,4,1,0,0,0,18,17,14,0,1,4,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,4,7,0,2,4,0,0,4,1,4,0,1,0,8,16,2,17,17,2,27,0,0,5,0,6,11,0,2,14,68,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28600591345524884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059872447391148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047654838074255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351323421873835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26069578261417703,0.2455565031223373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17958160978220694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19830568050761288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15275884768309264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16792619027752342,0.0,0.15175730012291908,0.0,0.4329624019396816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3281234629977444,0.1191474756468893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18529631044511888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11009920194293668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15645671574904746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381361705577344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10021411788652608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668302088404868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892817193359816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19187779236409325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751420668886793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,popenemo,2019/03/12,"I think my ex fiance faked her death I was on the road when it happened and I was unable to go to ""the funeral"". The way I was informed of her death was through her father, who I am sure hated me. The only proof was her ""ashes"" and one of her exes consoling me over the phone. She always knew I lurked on the missed connection part of Craigslist and I found one saying ""sorry you thought I was dead"" and started putting things together. I can't remember things clearly and can't tell what is real and what I'm misremembering but I'm afraid to bring it up to my mom because she mourned her as much as I did, and I don't know if I should bring it up to my therapist because what if I'm right and he shoots my theory down? I don't know what would be worse, if I'm right or wrong. If I'm wrong it would mean my meds aren't working as well as they were and if I'm right it would mean she faked her death to get rid of me.",3.0993737920371096,3.333362447236187,4.314673366834171,91.393169694627,72.76884422110552,7.731117124081948,24.855431001159644,7.61054688173877,0.8579134905295707,713,19,173,8,13,235,100,199,0.187,0.804,0.008,-0.9871,0,0,0,1,0,0,16.0,0,1,1,1,2,10,1,1,6,0,20,0,0,0,3,34,42,21,6,9,7,3,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,12,9,0,0,10,0,0,4,5,8,1,2,11,1,33,2,21,26,2,17,0,2,0,0,21,10,0,6,2,114,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874963098085027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17399447992334796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564787329609797,0.0,0.0,0.07456226913266559,0.0,0.08110775777131105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12620167871873922,0.0,0.0,0.14090070728513046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15686396288677554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31091516187069856,0.15852328220714218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16714512364819964,0.0,0.0,0.10491134375728844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19341364470003328,0.108540565409665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15454555035971973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14346716957762273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16243998180689515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16166734632587187,0.3656313917571553,0.0,0.11349204466228295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15975684117050934,0.10101383168257533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13450642640640892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473848435995145,0.0,0.0,0.16570216354833492,0.1896259205108995,0.09144548448023984,0.0,0.11329911818891218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11327987388312248,0.0,0.0,0.1283171877807131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038976233056108,0.0,0.14543794260050028,0.3041401780103793,0.31207110601117305,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Myzry,2019/03/12,"What do you guys think about the ward? Ive read that a couple people on here actually like it, i find that hard to believe. My experiences have always been bad and even though your drugged up on diaz or whatever it doesnt change the fact that you have no control whatsoever. Just the very thought of being an 'involuntary patient' pissed me off so much (i never knew you could become commited but if i did i surely wouldnt have said shit). its not for me, even though theyll probs try lock me away again soon anyway. Legit have PTSD and recurring visions and whatnot from it all.",4.7642699115044245,5.988163867256638,5.164767699115045,83.19193030973454,69.61946902654867,8.127876106194691,26.514380530973447,8.472884824447931,1.6589123893805309,459,14,91,7,8,146,90,113,0.067,0.863,0.07,0.3182,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,4,1,1,11,5,2,0,5,0,13,3,2,1,5,20,17,9,0,3,5,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,8,3,0,1,4,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,5,2,14,2,10,8,2,9,0,0,0,0,7,5,2,2,5,69,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.17897483602067002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526059576008379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723131213107892,0.0,0.15313381363888295,0.0,0.20255416376587765,0.0,0.2066323349812012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19401601684466904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057020184521295,0.14643234258905466,0.20293189055146046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21268921088287301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422718551381177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794032904123533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762698586451555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18159776827572016,0.0,0.0,0.16429303113602808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08960142384458684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13482228066757948,0.0,0.1414516717589737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12714852219068593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21438824959413308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18345259478281628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17445821698879332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18826050629327176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728551224595114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751721341879355,0.36038496058034347,0.1456014665791903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12451857321862675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15132665226456432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BitcoinCitadel,2019/03/12,Does anyone layer their clothes? Why is this a common behavior?,3.15727272727273,6.0808179090909125,3.718636363636364,78.19795454545455,97.1818181818182,5.836363636363638,23.681818181818183,7.1686216300943375,2.080963636363637,51,2,7,1,2,16,11,11,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4861170043959182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6083954813100961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6273318072269215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,InamortaBetwixt,2019/03/12,"Positivity Thread: Name three positive things/strengths I think it is important to focus on positive things in life. There's already so much focus on negative things. Let's write some positive things about ourselves. What are your strengths? What positive things happened to you recently? Doesn't matter what it is :) Much love to you all!",4.1241187739463605,7.4866702241379315,3.6060919540229897,80.68699233716474,88.13793103448276,8.095019157088123,28.858237547892717,8.515128840125781,3.297855938697319,275,13,44,8,9,82,39,58,0.061,0.5529999999999999,0.386,0.9783,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,6,8,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,7,7,4,4,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,1,1,33,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28523491347305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285696495125141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643094262008137,0.18256938369664014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23328486155722855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3800194944463867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25521406412192604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6868804065001451,0.16562111177406116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Gandadalf,2019/03/12,Cutting of body parts Has anybody experienced wanting to cut off fingers when on invega? Because I have and maybe I should report it? I haven't had it before I was taking invega.,2.6297058823529404,5.448301088235297,4.73088235294118,76.28397058823529,82.23529411764707,6.9294117647058835,26.14705882352941,8.07648339933343,2.3303176470588243,143,6,23,3,4,49,28,34,0.128,0.872,0.0,-0.4515,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,6,2,2,0,0,3,8,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,4,0,4,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,19,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26172875037598603,0.0,0.3653465885187976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4769128374170638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4313413911643569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4649459429935707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32281896987403713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532426979061559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,yeet_m3ister,2019/03/12,"An interesting request. Hey all! I plan on creating a youtube series that can help others understand what mental illness is like as a way to help end stigma while also giving others information on the subject. I plan on doing schizophrenia as my first video due to how close it hits home for me. So I have an interesting request for someone who would not mind sharing their story. I wish to interview an individual over pm and ask questions about their views on schizophrenia and their experiances. If you feel like you can do such a thing it would be great! These questions may be intrusive so someone who is open would be greatly appreciated. Thanks for taking the time out of your day to read this and I hope to hear from you soon. Feel free to ask any questions below.",5.36191287878788,7.214249395833335,5.576565656565659,78.3977272727273,68.93055555555556,8.014141414141415,29.75757575757576,8.575989854853784,2.3213000000000013,619,24,110,10,11,196,97,144,0.03,0.7240000000000001,0.24600000000000002,0.9869,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,4,3,3,7,10,0,0,8,0,14,1,0,1,1,24,26,11,0,6,2,0,2,2,0,4,1,1,1,0,11,6,0,0,7,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,14,11,21,18,1,17,0,0,1,0,24,9,0,6,9,82,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115689241027468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837774989958177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27048611310009035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329751586602912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12813101845295286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14151097646149388,0.0,0.0,0.14629481746573486,0.10334932380256193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230527119867556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13877668106795854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189892566600085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630489453343119,0.0,0.1939329615335683,0.0,0.14511165924983593,0.14368584713688393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413528698547725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14578916747277418,0.0,0.14607128537752267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.486176635842084,0.0,0.14470501495508525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24514983814404154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087707275812762,0.0,0.0,0.13318889323269806,0.0,0.0,0.09610957342227697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435583002159598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15060226875192384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11482903104072675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16635860678648826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30829944229563044,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bavu08,2018/12/13,"Help with my Schizophrenic brother Hi all, I am a 22yr old male and I have a brother who is diagnosed with schizophrenia. He is in his 30s and refuses to take medication or seek help, he has medication which mother gets for him he just doesn't want to take it. He passed high school and has marks to get into university but has not completed any course. Our oldest brother is an engineer and has got a job and I'm in university working towards my degree. Our mom is reaching retirement age and would like to take it but our brother (the 2nd of 3, me being 3rd) has no drive to get things moving in terms of his life, we all understand his sick but taking medication would be a start. We all worried he'll fall behind further in life but doesn't see it. We all love him but he's not willing to meet us half way in making things better for him. We all tell him it's not too late but he just doesn't seem reciprocal. We as brothers are sick in some way, in that me and my oldest have depression and he has schizophrenia but we take our meds and see people and we are moving forward but he doesn't want to do neither and refuses to let us help. What can we do to help him? Even if it's just to at least take medication?",3.544324444444449,4.576981468000003,4.789066666666667,85.46497777777779,72.32,8.115555555555558,26.288888888888888,8.515128840125781,1.5994222222222219,957,31,206,16,18,317,125,250,0.08199999999999999,0.82,0.098,0.6447,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,14,0,0,2,5,4,0,0,6,0,28,11,0,1,5,53,49,22,0,5,16,7,0,1,0,4,10,0,0,1,11,22,0,2,2,0,0,6,9,1,0,1,1,2,29,3,28,41,9,27,0,1,2,1,50,13,0,4,9,141,40,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07174903598996309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09331322332762472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11062309665488143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908738578910215,0.10708836618811787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06968701753006057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16537067516974116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08438436002550605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28287906667747986,0.1114749605581519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470037769592808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11901758305571293,0.0,0.0,0.10788904525389266,0.1490467955135038,0.05154586355576808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09522506006453747,0.0,0.07042738765539297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719556693424063,0.4251527094209399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12356965647890145,0.0,0.2242765442843148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107128636450664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07314594004138246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10677969601214801,0.16815238002821034,0.09605049110035617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07467908251338239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4759731660370065,0.0,0.09221861413379047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14018961095356916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983751520929848,0.2538261883373308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12446266581460935,0.16749462737750045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07681105700619055,0.10714846257581163,0.0,0.14989966602227112,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,marinoone,2018/12/13,"Crown of thorns That's another name for schizophrenia, or it used to be. You probably figured that out right when you saw the title, tho. Yeah, and it's got at ...well, it's got several names in the Christian bible, but in the last chapter, Revelations, it's also called the plague of locusts who hurt with their tails, and you can see that, too. Person has thoughts all day long, thinking all the time, even when relaxing. So with this stuff that you and I have, tho, all of a sudden the world answers back, world ""talks"" to us in ways it didn't used to, or does with other people. So when it's once in a while, it's a ""sign"", and can be fun. When it goes all damn day long, from wake-up to falling asleep, it's a person that literally never shuts up, and they ain't really all that nice, to put it lightly, and they're talking straight to your thoughts. Your thoughts are the locusts, and the ""answers"" from the world are the tails, and they do hurt, after the first cool five minutes, after which it ain't cool any more. And you can't get away from it. Even gettin fucked up don't help. Any of this sound familiar? Below I'm linking three threads. First one links to the second one, and the third one is in the same sub. The first two are short and deal with major unpleasantness not necessarily having to do with schizophrenia. The third one is longer and discusses several things, but eventually it gets around to discussing this condition you and I have. You can skip the first two, go straight to the third one. The schizophrenia discussion ain't too awful far into it. Reading all three will let you know what and who and when and where you are, and that will help you out, some, I think. Won't claim it's all sunshine and bunnies though. In fact, many people can't make it through one or two, let alone all three. Did you go through the intense paranoia phase yet? Laughing. Cuz I'm definitely out to get you. I'm teasing. No one is reading your thoughts, really. Boy, I got so paranoid, I don't even have friends left, pretty much. That and the general alienation from the difference between me and everyone else I knew, I've gotten used to just hanging out by myself. Can't even be around other people very long, even though I'm not at all paranoid any more. Went about an hour and a half or so the other night, and that's the longest I've hung out in some time. Anyway, here's the threads. That last ones the one talks about schiz. It'll surprise you. https://www.reddit.com/r/Changeofpace/comments/a21s2e/well_come_to_the_thunderdome/ https://www.reddit.com/r/Changeofpace/comments/98gh7u/none/ https://www.reddit.com/r/Changeofpace/comments/9btipb/here_is_wisdom_or_at_least_i_think_here_is_wisdom/ They all will. I'm just describing reality, tho. You're not crazy. You have something that will drive you crazy, is all. Find out what it is, and it ain't what psychs think, you'll do better. Really. 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It’s been a few days now that I’ve been taking it, it makes me feel more comfortable when hearing voices.",5.147241379310344,6.286358379310348,5.120172413793104,84.17956896551725,68.65517241379311,8.558620689655173,28.29310344827586,8.841846274778883,2.0794,119,4,23,2,2,37,25,29,0.0,0.87,0.13,0.5563,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,2,7,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,1,5,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.334438400577212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4538090554607522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262207435598992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5844724587491786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461532804471789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38990435944872825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cat-litter,2018/12/13,"Help. Haven’t left the house in 30 days. Extremely disconnected from reality. Scared. I haven’t left my house in over 30 days, today my mom is coming to take me out. She knows I’ve fallen ill. I’m scared. I’m shaking. I haven’t left in over 30 days. I’ve been in an extremely disconnected state. I haven’t even went online in what feels like forever. I’m scared. I don’t know what to do. If anyone has any ideas please help me. 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I want to say first and foremost that I'm a fiction writer and am interested in first hand experiences of reality-breaks, and it seemed natural to come here and ask, humbly, for an insight on something I don't understand. &#x200B; With that being said, I'm interested in the process of rationality of perceived reality and understood reality. My question being, how do you understand the difference between what's real and what's perceived? Is there a thought process, a technique, a mode you engage when dealing with your disease that helps you separate the ghosts of the mind versus the tangible reality? I'm curious as to how to describe how reality and fiction differentiate, and what type of techniques you can employ to cement the real versus the imagined. &#x200B; Thanks for any responses in advance. 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How and when did you get diagnosed? We’re you relieved or upset by the diagnosis? ,2.3912499999999994,5.245158958333335,5.721666666666668,68.29000000000002,84.41666666666666,9.866666666666667,33.0,9.725611199111238,4.613850000000001,101,6,17,4,3,37,22,24,0.09699999999999999,0.7070000000000001,0.196,0.3939,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,4,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8011163544648481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4123733110736144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4337751017787169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,robthrowaway6,2018/12/13,"Is this a symptom of schizophrenia? Hi y'all, I'm currently in high school and for the past year I've been noticing some odd things my brain has been doing, which I can't really seem to stop. The primary thing is I've been having conversations with myself in my own mind... kind of. I really enjoy talking to people in real life and I have a good group of friends, but when I'm alone I guess my brain doesn't want to stay alone, so I converse with other people I know in real life, but in my mind - as in, I will say something and another part of me will think of a response that they might say back. I never really believe it's real telepathy, or that the people I'm talking to would actually hear what I am thinking in real life (although sometimes it does come kind of close to reality if you know what I mean). At times, I will actually end up talking to myself (as in, my mouth starts moving and I start whispering). I've really noticed it the last month or two, and I've been trying to get myself to stop doing it, but it's pretty hard to completely when I'm alone and doing nothing. The people I talk to are mostly people I would like to get to know better in real life (as I'm writing this I realize I should probably get to know those people in real life to maybe try to prevent it). I've looked it up and it's not listed as a symptom of schizophrenia but I could see how it relates to some other symptoms. (Edit: I actually did find \[this\]([https://www.yourcareeverywhere.com/stay-up-to-date/blogs/2017/01/03/schizophrenia-symptoms--perceived-telepathy.html](https://www.yourcareeverywhere.com/stay-up-to-date/blogs/2017/01/03/schizophrenia-symptoms--perceived-telepathy.html)) but that's like the only thing I could find) That's the main weird thing I've noticed, I also have frequent anxiety about exams and my parents have noticed symptoms of depression, and I'm already going to therapy for that. &#x200B; So, what do you think, is this a symptom of developing schizophrenia? Should I tell my parents (which seems like a really hard thing to do for me, I've always acted pretty normal). Is there any way I can stop this? Thanks so much.",6.684592592592592,7.358557903703705,6.636148148148147,76.33866666666667,65.02469135802468,8.751604938271607,31.014814814814812,8.608573733854374,2.3914177777777765,1721,60,305,23,25,546,175,405,0.08199999999999999,0.8270000000000001,0.091,0.8291,3,3,1,0,0,0,97.0,0,3,1,1,10,12,0,0,13,0,34,13,3,1,1,63,63,29,0,9,9,2,2,3,1,8,10,4,0,0,31,13,0,4,13,0,0,4,4,2,0,1,5,8,38,10,50,48,7,38,0,1,2,0,20,15,0,10,20,203,69,3,0.0,0.0,0.1719399688114072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824838902917936,0.06481150227334803,0.046967437274972317,0.04886918588430799,0.06363539034072499,0.07136501552426118,0.03993933019721747,0.06158493860088765,0.04492931998542078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04516078085995932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06617011646634086,0.0,0.05194310399891711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13112721458159415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05059185533276494,0.06157870030973061,0.0,0.0,0.09378440372789078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050585223432301485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05139619786949807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05201854138483405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073587749813288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04537569329081465,0.0,0.0920541148659478,0.0,0.0333783781763904,0.04926106768639739,0.0,0.0,0.06469920056178351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10522350246749312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06619449695345013,0.0,0.0,0.06205289307408453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12231932093106485,0.12910885023464574,0.047873886877340406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074184377084772,0.0860795090742068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049319539925334284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0590035324655976,0.06397565497344201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062304678324670265,0.11860383684277905,0.0,0.046878801143226484,0.06242212758729725,0.04317429803444391,0.0,0.045297235766616296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057544250579568114,0.05635431179739427,0.2674641130107033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04466783621288209,0.0,0.0,0.13042842174225244,0.06360032587671581,0.056065716657808316,0.24430152781207964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11950178915729412,0.0633223259576822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4010947874311244,0.18812402514555748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934110494690411,0.0,0.059439259058257886,0.04680127988293928,0.10693362570609773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04521426056159935,0.05808680430835742,0.0,0.08314069991809969,0.18779940553492971,0.0,0.1473061086579195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3052217887580202,0.0,0.1888241292574157,0.05133378629274511,0.05407193385549555,0.06716441420846776,0.0,0.19509248747527785,0.1128980277858572,0.0,0.0,0.034246720958060806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0797494592784689,0.0,0.05737199238467161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03464127035721425,0.04661820982532572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08344212817791179,0.0,0.07136501552426118,0.037821062125217735 schizophrenia,brinamack95,2018/12/13,I remember things that never happened. I'm on medication and am fine 99% of the time. But sometimes I slip of course. One thing that really gets me is when I vividly remember something and then I'm told that it never happened. I think sometimes people who dont know me well think I make shit up when I swear I just remember stuff that didnt actually happen. Please tell me I'm not alone with this,2.1744999999999983,4.465879450000003,3.6500000000000017,86.70500000000001,79.5,7.0,23.75,8.07648339933343,1.415625,316,11,64,6,8,104,54,80,0.11599999999999999,0.8370000000000001,0.048,-0.6169,0,1,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,1,0,4,2,1,1,2,15,16,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,10,3,0,0,6,0,0,0,5,1,1,1,2,1,10,2,5,14,0,8,0,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,6,42,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.15047352885087562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15970105799402987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807171351485748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08056130057995008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4090663344029256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474235703448661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10292735287214208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15533673902983913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378516743993029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044875306786818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690042939889463,0.0,0.0,0.1692614391206372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09878221842531187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5240236851489115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582804787256764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11870798956377593,0.3050085381905305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765180871906639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13477452670504847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20488258951517996,0.1976057662296736,0.0,0.0,0.08991321197312148,0.0,0.0,0.14734135190979564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13864116066509474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ievskk,2018/12/13,"MY RESEARCH for Experimental film based on mental illnesses Hello everyone, I am final year media production student and I decided to make a couple experimental films based on different mental illnesses. It will be mainly visuals based films, where I want to tell real stories/experiences of people who suffer of mental illnesses. I know it might me triggering for you to talk about such things but I appreciate any help from you. Also maybe you have friends or family members who suffers or suffered from any type of mental illness and you would like to share anything what is relevant. My main idea of your stories/experiences is to develop it in a short poem type of written text and do a voiceover on top of the video, so if you have anything you wrote down yourself which can help the audience to experience mental illnesses then please share it. Here or pm. Thank you very much <3",8.65388888888889,8.994241000000002,8.674583333333334,64.53430555555556,60.875,12.111111111111116,38.40277777777778,11.645159339076185,4.881819444444443,720,33,113,20,9,235,104,160,0.131,0.693,0.17600000000000002,0.81,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,8,0,1,6,8,0,0,5,0,11,5,0,4,0,20,17,11,0,3,5,0,0,1,1,3,5,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,16,5,22,11,3,11,0,3,0,0,19,8,0,5,4,80,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10369541837477772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17635731454378353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134113603898692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434751281098517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354754166597589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239032897232146,0.0,0.3805204298638424,0.12223940971829672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420449087870127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10018114193221954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17382739660387564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463793402286082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07126211806377508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06334921401457716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08655436819371758,0.0,0.13026889137658468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6533740121957617,0.13755721113243208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09532086819019747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989543467373809,0.0,0.0,0.14233647824252307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14759052300821784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10422219211135557,0.11333550977507048,0.11938083337722888,0.0,0.0,0.08614562890492279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069896444619561,0.07648152062661663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211239630590948,0.0,0.0,0.0835019129847813 schizophrenia,European-Cowboy,2018/12/04,How did you know? How did you first know you had Schizophrenia?,1.1950000000000005,3.7673618333333367,-0.4666666666666668,109.095,97.33333333333334,2.4000000000000004,14.333333333333336,3.1291,-1.7884666666666669,50,1,11,0,2,13,7,12,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,4,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6120141225667165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7908468333241855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zestymeatman,2018/12/04,"I always think the text posts here are about me Seriously, every time someone posts something like ""I think my friend needs help, they're doing x and y"" I think it's my friends posting about me. Even if the post is about a girl, I'll think they're changing the gender to better respect my privacy. Do y'all get this?",3.368437499999999,4.855857718750002,3.9676250000000017,89.41487500000002,73.375,6.370000000000001,25.3,6.742157984588678,0.8342224999999996,250,8,52,2,5,79,48,64,0.025,0.7140000000000001,0.26,0.9413,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,5,6,0,0,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,10,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,5,4,10,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,27,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15058300594207702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600548197515695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19144413151809025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11953014408941033,0.0,0.1524765173784322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27963667365412925,0.0,0.09455027795134403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12130155945205827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841366321031427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13418827076618328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6932837031498552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533367893272989,0.13932090628504126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.463837599127686,0.0,0.0,0.1055260915893473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,alinoore123,2018/12/04,"Am I becoming schizophrenic? Slightly long but appreciate some clarification on what I should do 😥 Honestly I'm just really anxious and scared. I don't know what to do... I think I might be developing schizophrenia. It all started, 5 years ago ( 19 yrs old), at the time of course I never took it to be anything related to mental illness, but it all makes sense right now. I remember being slightly ""paranoid"" that people might be talking about me, concerning something I've really been self conscious about. Like it wasn't debilitating but whenever the discussions related to it would begin I would get extremely anxious and worried that I'd somehow be exposed. I was in school at the time and my performance in school was terrible. I basically flunked out, due to a combination of procrastination, test anxiety and difficulty concentrating. Shortly after this, I sort of adopted an unhealthy lifestyle, hanging out with friends all night and sleeping through the morning waking up around 2 pm and sometimes even as late as 4 pm. This carried on for a while. Oh and I also worked as an overnight security guard. Throughout this period of time, I also begin to fixate on God existence and reflecting on nature to prove God's existence. Not sure if that's somehow related but I'd thought I'd mention it. Things really changed for me mentally after the passing of a close relative. In this period of time, I began to sort of be in my thoughts a lot and I started to become more self conscious. Several months passed and I experienced my first panic attack, after that I began to feel unreal and separated from myself and my surroundings. Since then, I've gone in and out of dissociation and began experiencing a lot of cognitive issues. Wierd questions would pop into my head and a lot of unusual thoughts and urges began. I've recently heard a voice ( it really sounded like something spitting at me) I was extremely tired, but honestly I think it might also be the mental illness creeping up. I've also been experiencing through out all these years, what I now know to be tactile hallucinations ( almost like something crawling on my arms and legs). I've also been experiencing muscle twitches. Anyways I'd like some clarity, on what's going on and whether or not I might already be too late in stopping this illness from ruining my life. 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We are so very happy to have her at our house and I deeply want to help her. But I’m feeling a bit frustrated because I feel that nothing that we are doing is working. For starters she had excessive thirst, it’s undiagnosed but I’m pretty sure it’s Polydipsia. So all day long, she will ask for drinks. Not water but Pepsi, large iced tea, orange soda, even coffee. And after we calmly explain she can’t have it because of the caffeine and her sensitivity, she says “okay” and she’ll say she understands but In 20 minutes she will ask the same thing. *we have noticed that when she has any type of caffeine she goes into psychosis. Another example, she wants to go shopping as soon as she wakes up. She just wants to go eat out or just buy things. We calmly explain that we need to save our money and we don’t need anything. She just says “okay” but I don’t think she understands. I’m happy to help her and remind her these things. I just am confused. This morning while we were sleeping, she drank 12 cans of sparkling water. And when I asked her about it, she calmly said she drank them all but that she put the cans in the recycling bin. After I explained why she shouldn’t do that, it was like she couldn’t understand what she did wrong. Even though she knows she’s suppose to ask before getting a drink that isn’t water we made this rule because she would just take caffeinated drinks at all hours of the day. Next how do I approach her delusions? She talks about her grade school classmates from the Philippines. (We live in the US) that she believes are “in love” with her. They are all married and she would spam message these classmates on Facebook saying she’s in love with them. This morning she told me she believes they are getting a plane ticket to come visit here to marry her. So how do I talk to her about the delusions? How can I approach her with the reality of the situations. How do I approach this when she is in psychosis. I feel like I am able to tell now when she is the psychosis state but I just don’t know what to do. I’m sorry for this long post, I just have so many questions. And I hope I don’t come across mean or anything. I myself have PTSD and I have a background in psychology. So I am really trying to understand her here. I get that things are going to happen and I am happy to work with her but I guess I just need some hope that maybe something will change. Thanks so much everyone, take care! 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Can anyone give me experiences? I have long been interested in schizophrenia, and it upsets me how little people understand it. I want to write a realistic fiction story from the viewpoint of a woman with schizophrenia, so people will read it and understand more about what it's like to have schizophrenia. However, I don't have schizophrenia myself, so I was hoping someone with schizophrenia or someone who knows somebody with schizophrenia could give me some viewpoints so the story stays true to reality.",9.211612903225808,10.867679569892475,7.964677419354843,65.56701612903228,59.75268817204301,9.640860215053763,38.08064516129032,9.725611199111238,4.200148387096776,452,21,60,8,6,138,58,93,0.027000000000000003,0.84,0.133,0.835,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,1,5,0,10,0,0,1,1,18,18,8,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,8,4,10,13,2,4,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,3,2,49,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13094270978177516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495189107088742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18318483530186935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592906232555251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860001881206848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10291804331330673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09149008377749034,0.18769255008056407,0.0,0.16572700841707474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3894858512824647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873194927682149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173445187618777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19960364005958325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5848603229357817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045599915334192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KingWambo,2018/12/04,"What I have learned thus far So hi, I'm Wambo 19, soon 20 Been sent to therapy at around 7 and been diagnosed at 12, so I fall under the special snowflakes who developed schizophrenia as a child (lucky fuckin me -.-) I only discovered this subreddit a few days ago, and I'm just lurking a lot But just that has helped me a bit to learn more about myself and got me some comfort 1) a disliking of showers is a more or less common trait apperently 2) a lot of the things I experience during episodes (I tend to call it breakdowns) other people also have in some way, and it's comforting to know that there are people who understand...like actually understand 3) the few memes I saw have a critical undertone so, yea, this has been nice so far, which leads me to post this So I hope thats fine...y'all have a great day/night",2.8846801051709012,4.7444887607362,4.080775635407537,86.54265337423315,75.50306748466258,8.092725679228748,25.753286590709905,8.841846274778883,1.8755507449605613,640,23,134,14,14,209,108,163,0.039,0.846,0.115,0.9168,2,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,1,12,8,1,0,12,1,11,2,0,2,0,21,20,13,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,14,5,0,0,4,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,6,1,12,7,14,14,10,16,0,0,1,1,7,7,1,7,4,88,26,3,0.0,0.0,0.18937946016688556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17202692635003147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551937221701917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17275900728696153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118687336929776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981620778143128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503117598125446,0.0,0.0,0.1969719049200276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189832822568032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15521152046043254,0.2139573638555351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13007768866223748,0.0,0.0,0.19275034776186084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10665305686002167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299742713949821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18211687000460036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475951886108041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.269080492306845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18586063959171906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221930257283742,0.0,0.1289281726038041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4040570488199035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15403977571411073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lazyfortune,2018/12/04,"do any of you guys have any advice for the early diagnosis stage? im 17 and three of my immediate family members have diagnosed schizophrenia (mum/dad/sibling) and ive almost been diagnosed and considered and stuff for a while now my mum kept it a secret which annoys me because that information is important. but i understand its hard to talk about. anyway, im in a youth psychosis program (for people with/at high risk of developing) my therapist thinks i might have a dissociative disorder and that i have multiple personalities.......... only possibly i dont like or want to believe this because it sounds too similar to psychotic episodes ive had about people in my head and watching me in my body, and im worried ill spiral again if i think too much about it, which has happened before when my last therapist suggested DID and i dont think its right anyway. i have memory gaps but no instances of being different or doing things.. i can remember things if theyre told to me, i just cant remember on my own. i think my current therapist might be trying to induce an episode of some kind so she can identify the problem and treat me but my natural instinct obviously doesnt want that because its scary and horrible. she also wants to try and process repressed memories from my childhood which.. in the past thinking about has triggered dissociation which sent me to hospital because i thought i was a soul parasite. im 17 and at this age is when my mum and sibling developed their illnesses and im on the same medication that triggered my siblings seizures. im worried its not a good time to process my memories right now because this stress feels like the thing that will damn me in psychotic hell forever.... or at least before i get to finish school... im a hypochondriac perfectionist too... i dont want to be misdiagnosed and fuck my brain up. i want to be diagnosed without a doubt and i think thats impossible so i deny everything eveyrone tells me. and i hate antipsychotics. they make me sad i dont know. last year i went to hospital around this time. im kind of scared the cycle is starting again, because it sure feels like it. like im building up into another episode. i dont want it to be a cycle...",4.609658284977433,6.397297827423166,5.784031807436065,76.4245454545455,70.725768321513,9.66627981947131,32.67633784655061,10.018931242160765,3.5580581560283697,1763,84,321,48,33,587,207,423,0.217,0.726,0.057999999999999996,-0.997,2,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,0,1,2,0,20,21,5,5,16,0,35,10,3,4,2,66,62,31,0,9,11,2,3,4,0,3,6,1,0,2,28,19,0,2,16,0,0,2,10,12,0,1,9,5,50,9,41,45,5,39,2,1,1,1,16,16,3,10,24,217,78,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05900875341166401,0.0,0.0,0.0604681156126505,0.0,0.0,0.048290869506296456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212945370772738,0.0633202577376625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0537565731414255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22086541801279624,0.0,0.10276851750375747,0.06803463516190722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06707552064269576,0.0,0.06741103598022134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838723452963227,0.0,0.06309078809617735,0.0692078844354951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3538612290800197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05427127586181084,0.0,0.05692679074689761,0.0,0.06106621391014135,0.08627991099238913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05582612339538532,0.0315493279771936,0.0,0.0,0.05064912904354446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059791890325293036,0.05339936940606862,0.0,0.05409422699501724,0.059618928957858724,0.06197372317136364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06380139807043686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5870476984981943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12576599252368578,0.033186708709949116,0.09844572146518958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11800670368088285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04030829679027959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06083280298704386,0.0,0.12812055607776193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04439084849788647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0459264710794503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057645517064265,0.08372845730467095,0.05272695215324805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06807643382170016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057781494521723376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13681171970135114,0.1031390704842038,0.0,0.0,0.06045717972824675,0.06111411797770847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04274170492741101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06917225566198992,0.0,0.06912781927047389,0.0,0.0,0.0569133344666001,0.0,0.0,0.04853618759431925,0.05278025199914476,0.0,0.0,0.21033930291265932,0.1203538417372546,0.23215845886614964,0.0,0.0479399444363587,0.07042342647404906,0.0,0.0,0.05770165827191422,0.0,0.08199661200732426,0.0,0.0,0.0628642252560425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21370428067753947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05597866707814295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058210198788468635,0.0,0.0,0.12265035446894802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03888677095549487 schizophrenia,eggsgongiveittoya,2018/12/04,"The clicker, the shrieker, and the music man I have 3 new auditory hallucinations, hooray! Are new ones really anything to be worried about? I'm not diagnosed or anything, and out of all of them music man is the most tolerable, you just ask him to play a tune for you. The shrieker I imagine as a child who does not want to do what they are told, so they scream and pull away. I've never seen the shrieker but to imagine them in this way is best for me. The clicker scares me a lot I do not understand the clicks, they will not answer me. I do not like it at all. Do these sound worrying? Berny told me they are not going to harm me but I can't trust him. 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Just for background, I’ve been diagnosed with general anxiety disorder, panic attack disorder and depression. Sometimes when I’m stressed panicking or depressed I hear a voice. It’s basically like my consciousness but it’s not really mine? I don’t hear it outside my body as a physical thing. It’s like when you think and you can hear yourself even though you aren’t really making noise. It’s just strictly in my head and it yells and just makes me feel worse and lately I’ve also seemed to notice a voice that’s similar but more reasonable and less evil. Idk I’m just really scared and don’t really know what to do.",3.927322443181815,6.048733507812504,4.988806818181821,80.02096590909092,73.296875,9.654545454545458,27.26136363636364,10.018931242160765,2.9867718750000005,531,20,99,16,11,174,78,128,0.248,0.7140000000000001,0.038,-0.9741,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,0,0,9,9,2,3,3,0,8,3,2,3,0,27,20,16,0,1,9,0,1,2,0,0,1,6,0,0,10,8,0,0,7,0,0,0,5,7,0,0,1,7,11,2,6,19,2,4,0,2,0,0,6,1,0,3,5,61,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462551931127607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10965142946761697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630650681600773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15921366637932946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469096821892932,0.14548273329271338,0.0,0.0,0.3285502942877868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946718877705256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07247484414119684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14710379570292448,0.0,0.4846493035855578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15754712056340056,0.0,0.16168892951846014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14005318013449095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913554052505271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16318866128192305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16817357787094933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672981167951074,0.14737298730732554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435040555967183,0.0,0.0,0.130487451408496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14176268698666955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641905769817239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09522587983525667,0.09184373837849474,0.14082661200079113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460713388575603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rhyshayleychamp,2018/12/04,"Day 2, no sleep I slept for 30 minutes maybe and when I woke up I had no idea what was happening. I started to think about what time it was and that my phone was lying to me, it must be at least 6 am. I also thought my parents were late for work and that they would blame me for some reason. Once I calmed down I realized how dumb it sounded. Do you ever have panic episodes like me",0.6395121951219522,2.465754597560977,2.0782317073170735,98.4190548780488,82.29268292682926,5.0756097560975615,20.006097560975608,5.985473137389443,-0.2552243902439022,295,8,71,2,8,95,61,82,0.191,0.7509999999999999,0.057999999999999996,-0.8934,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,1,5,4,1,1,0,0,11,2,2,2,2,13,17,6,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,8,1,14,2,9,6,2,9,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,7,52,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20532679137663964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655856621242297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322494959237891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270474997401811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28984501653045197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896306974103556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12543746921232346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579447954573477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27343557642132044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30124654043922483,0.2850959185176409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639867875950959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569403135672886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817324314189071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16451816508749062,0.0,0.2038347014772323,0.14971584011113978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18692061658751424,0.0,0.0,0.18239130596059347,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bones_and_love,2018/12/04,"White/Pink Noise and Binaural Sounds White noise has a constant ""intensity"" across all pitches. Pink noise has an intensity that decreases with how high the pitch is, but it will sound just like white noise to you. Binaural are two beats for headphones, and depending on the frequency of the beats, it claims to reduce anxiety, clear the mind, improve concentration, etc. I've found that if I played white or pink noise with or without binaural sounds added, voices gain an aspect of the sound(s) playing. But they start out completely locked away behind the intense noise I'm playing. Then, once they become prominent enough, instantly taking off my headphones will bring about complete silence to them for 3 to 5 seconds. They will then crawl into being noticed, beginning as a lightly distant background sound in my silent room, until they emerge prominent as before. Interestingly, if I'm playing a combination of white/pink/binaural or even brown sounds, sometimes, the voices synchronize with just one of the major sounds, them gaining an aspect from them whether it's the beat of the binaural or the particular hiss from brown or from white. If I pause just that sound, they die just the same and then immediately begin fitting into the remaining sounds. There's many kinds of sounds that claim to improve something mental, and sometimes, there's even research that shows it does. The idea behind this type of therapy is audio, which are physical waves compressing and decompressing particles as they travel, hit the eardrum, translating into electric waves. These electric waves, being input to the brain, can then have any number of effects on it. It just depends on how electric energy at one point feeds to another, and more generally, where and how intense a signal is to correspond to a physical sensation like relaxation. The simplest example I can give is imagine listening to some intense music and feeling an adrenaline rush. You got the rush, no needle :). Anyone have any other experiences with or information about this type of therapy to conquer hallucinations?",11.380359569179781,10.707491847887326,9.80538525269263,61.956594863297475,55.87323943661972,13.198011599005802,43.4175642087821,12.214722805548654,5.589543496271749,1686,80,249,43,17,519,188,355,0.027000000000000003,0.8170000000000001,0.156,0.9926,0,0,1,0,0,0,51.0,0,2,9,7,15,9,0,0,27,0,17,2,1,6,2,51,30,31,1,3,18,0,1,2,0,3,0,13,1,0,16,16,1,0,6,7,0,4,2,0,0,4,2,23,16,9,50,22,7,30,0,0,8,0,14,17,0,12,11,174,32,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19454377014591906,0.14998957269013402,0.10942496102081736,0.0,0.0,0.10001666766076324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13439048466854792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579760846594582,0.1217162293483438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15967958505732224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999487587745096,0.15457507454183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14845260117504194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12517498484982625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14779822276065288,0.1595270501504289,0.1889527146039877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13992025079832845,0.0,0.0,0.07232515830979099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15683562226908584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13721669163432054,0.0,0.0,0.11440189623599276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15112927166634155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16147438394156152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148953811556884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13976392146884106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14501978102606855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441503506409677,0.0,0.14442929725680034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16285161977835794,0.0,0.1523325871835359,0.19385477341145055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13521872882054015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101189312712397,0.2829397951862337,0.0,0.10124421926187237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10754803523548638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3271566722635668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13972897948191648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13788514378230438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lbjkeek,2018/12/04,"""God Knows Where I am"" Documentary Highly suggest this film. Available on Netflix. 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I've been thinking, way too much. I remembered seeing shadow puppets as a young child, I remember being in high school and having weird thoughts and then thinking ""People can read my thoughts don't think that"". Another time I really thought God was trying to kill me with lightning. &#x200B; I have no symptoms to think of as of right now, but is it possible with schizophrenia for all of it to go into remission until later? I'm 23 now. 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I'm going to be honest, I graduated in 2015 and I never spoke to the guy. In fact, hardly anyone ever did. He was stuck in his little office covered in wires, circuits, and devices until we had an internet or computer problem. I really didn't think too much about it until a female friend had to visit him for something and she came back talking about he seemed like he had no social skills to speak of. Asperger's syndrome, maybe? When he did come out of his little room near the cafeteria to fix a problem and someone would try making small talk with him, he would make an obvious fake laugh and go back to what he was doing. Just wanted to make it clear that I none of us bullied him or downright disliked him, a lot of the kids just found him to be a bit odd. Not to mention, his facial expressions hardly ever changed. So, I'm thinking maybe schizoid or avoidant personality disorder. Just one last thing, I was a social outcast too during that time. I would talk about having sex with flowers for a spiritual awakening and the whole class would stop what they were doing and question me. Sometime after high school, I got diagnosed with schizotypal PD. lol.",5.1321686442817445,6.644994133047212,5.556152486745773,79.6394092400909,69.04291845493563,8.2291340570563,29.585710679121433,8.671277953709913,2.3630183791971717,975,37,174,16,17,312,143,233,0.095,0.8170000000000001,0.08800000000000001,0.2626,1,1,1,0,0,0,25.0,3,0,1,1,14,8,0,1,13,1,22,4,1,3,6,46,39,14,0,8,7,0,2,1,1,4,1,2,1,4,7,14,1,2,5,0,0,5,5,4,0,1,15,4,21,4,30,16,5,28,0,0,0,1,35,11,0,6,13,122,28,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07881467214308882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17334554547001468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12305827790568807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12891875136325812,0.0,0.0,0.11924013187019995,0.09709611516896732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999572367450619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440585400574813,0.0,0.0,0.12918397995109962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039188000698736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12358888211934052,0.08708523363410503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281198655495533,0.0,0.09015045347211313,0.0,0.0,0.2232160229726504,0.0,0.0,0.20194541684359024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190921900938248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09187977794556038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055068059682618825,0.2259450231777447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09582835768937373,0.0,0.0,0.2257193488960836,0.0,0.22647968713435465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08286030600614823,0.0,0.08693465760254168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638027124448019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09842054247730099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21571078181983985,0.0,0.0,0.12626935708888634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07220969419460299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281521839876465,0.0,0.1026137465082274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22980252087185896,0.09550514207437316,0.08677541121773323,0.11148045478515764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09423684765901287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717940854382581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07488447501245113,0.14444960012032532,0.0,0.0,0.06572646012746315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07652775957546501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13558523152152765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06648368110005001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12584502398598527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202850116571707,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,smokejumper_,2019/05/20,"gf(16) is schizophrenic and doesnt admit it I really need help i dont knoe what to do and i am really lost. So my girlfriend has huge Symptoms of paranoid schizophrenia. She doesnt go to school, doesnt eat, has panik attacks, is afraid of people, doesnt feel some emotions like being jealous, doesnt sleep alot, hears Voices and sees shadows. She also had a major schizophrenic incident(?) some years ago in wich she saw her ""father"" standing right next to her and wanting to hurt her. She always has those periods wich last from 1-3 months but this time its gotten really extreme and she didnt leave the house for 2-3 weeks already. But the worst part of all is that she thinks that everything is normal and that she doesnt have anything besides sleep deprevation and maybe depression. I tried to talk to her and tried literally everything in my power to convice her that something is not right and that she very very likely is schizophrenic. I let her talk to another (diagnosed) schizophrenic who explained everything to her and asked her alot of questions and he also said that she very likely is schizophrenic. I even said to her that she should go to therapy because i dont want her to end up like him but she only said that he is normal and she sees no problem. So now i am planning on getting her to a psychater and she agreed on doing it. But what if she gets diagnosed and still doesnt believe it? I am so scared for her and i really dont know what to do also sry for bad english and i really hope someone can help me i am so lost",3.909034653465348,5.607918455445546,4.638700495049509,84.29191212871288,72.36633663366338,7.9542904290429055,26.816419141914192,8.59863814320734,1.923754785478548,1224,43,237,22,24,393,148,303,0.135,0.8,0.065,-0.9718,1,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,4,10,16,2,2,6,0,35,11,2,0,1,41,59,28,0,9,6,1,1,4,1,1,8,5,0,0,18,16,1,0,6,0,0,2,13,11,0,0,9,9,42,5,27,47,8,22,0,4,3,0,44,8,0,7,15,166,60,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07986077298957216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09941832759903947,0.21613867454253005,0.07496343336177247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09446890422577914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741377155164714,0.0,0.08422349022892815,0.10249220798321622,0.0,0.0,0.07522272796307565,0.05491900687739198,0.0,0.0,0.10150238901070054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07759576831983478,0.1828821675524756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.316760074139372,0.0,0.0,0.09218620443255238,0.0,0.10134093086177824,0.07979442239758583,0.0,0.0,0.05950465615367154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242905579262232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04555302299312027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941382915847626,0.0,0.10240227181494056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10153978773113492,0.0,0.12077300903610888,0.0,0.0,0.08948129280034793,0.0,0.10395361750671916,0.09644492764701376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04951199061251242,0.0734366833365012,0.0,0.0953940026569635,0.0,0.0921247711284454,0.0,0.17605683214707568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966912608846502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050912746050624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07191026046350522,0.0,0.0,0.06680178437520114,0.0,0.0,0.09581344515239673,0.0,0.17654129143410732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06851872612091436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09756043004139993,0.0,0.06245817607737353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862054998987844,0.0,0.0,0.10092321726260986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885749489695453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15387547871133814,0.2570932445087172,0.0,0.09019741431202982,0.09117751513265138,0.1435826917213667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803133383573118,0.0,0.07633432548867185,0.06935691985201699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07194727300607462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936396741958814,0.0,0.14482444074465506,0.0,0.0,0.10302760313458928,0.0,0.0,0.057727063448095375,0.0,0.0,0.052533140013350584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12233257354464205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230050305617786,0.10627672693946072,0.0,0.07226605217004839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05801604055789281 schizophrenia,makingithappen666,2019/05/20,"Early signs of schizophrenia? I may be off but recently I’ve become much more paranoid I’ve started believing that’s its possible things are connected like for example this person is talking shit about me or this happened cause this person knows this about me, I will admit I’m being paranoid and overthinking but these are still possible and not completely just me tripping,and since this started happening I’ve also started to hear things well trying to sleep and having sleep paralysis a lot more sometimes even hearing music well in this sleep paralysis state what do you think? ( I also take a ssri and one of its side effects is sleep paralysis I’ve been tapering off and for the past 2 nights I haven’t had sleep paralysis I still may hear a sound here and there well trying to sleep) also I’ve noticed I’ve been eating much more and not wanting to leave my house also sleeping more.",5.895892857142857,7.460175851190481,5.814047619047622,78.31428571428573,67.27380952380952,8.933333333333335,31.261904761904763,9.2995712137729,2.923061904761905,725,29,123,14,12,227,96,168,0.065,0.845,0.09,0.2966,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,15,5,1,0,4,0,15,9,8,2,0,23,29,14,0,1,6,0,0,1,0,3,0,4,0,2,13,7,1,0,4,0,0,0,3,1,3,1,3,4,10,4,13,21,7,14,0,0,0,0,8,4,1,4,10,88,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906140471033721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100337791560513,0.0,0.10235796574870784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933290029305053,0.0,0.0,0.09525554485550243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09296325384829923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06000622858072877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606784782974573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071870391233515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048298559661024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049929333571957786,0.0,0.0,0.09619809101797833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044385209477277913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07723827123055252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13357187671513532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852575089664309,0.0,0.0,0.10343446551316013,0.0,0.0,0.06156298875712151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672755938484522,0.0,0.15865517760747033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048417034892032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08970440202949086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09325724580692674,0.07515288592427402,0.0,0.6364162796585517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985396192964464,0.0,0.1929144159554865,0.0,0.14510745171312875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06830864535896612,0.07302259232417872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207147347910901,0.05821365231680126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12336373059666304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05358627359404955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24505787896012274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thebonfireboy,2019/05/20,"I think there are a group of people out there messing with me & preventing me from getting help on here. I'm posting from an alt account. Whenever I post from my main on Reddit I get a decent amount of comments, even for simple posts. But lately I've really really needed help & advice & I'm lucky to get 1 or 2 comments on posts where I'm clearly in a lot of pain. The posts aren't on this sub, just to note. So I'm not mad at anyone here. I'm not mad at people in general on Reddit because posts can easily get buried but it's making me paranoid that someone is messing with me & preventing people from helping me. As an example. If I'm feeling really bad I might try go on a website that I think will help distract me or something only to find that the website is suddenly down or my phone/laptop is suddenly acting up. That makes me think the same people preventing me from getting help are hacking me. I know how this sounds. I know it's probably unlikely but it's happened so many times and it's always when I'm actually in pain & in need of talking to people. I don't know how they're doing it but it's really getting me. It's hard enough to deal with this stuff alone but then finally I spend time writing something out in the hope that I'll get some advice & it stays at 1 upvote & zero comments.",3.1087000347584284,4.4209148613138725,4.8299582898852975,83.6734184914842,73.74452554744525,7.7007994438651375,26.55126868265555,8.269060116576782,1.7523283281195687,1048,37,210,17,21,356,134,274,0.091,0.8029999999999999,0.106,0.4592,0,1,2,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,0,12,10,2,1,10,0,11,2,0,4,1,44,39,17,0,4,12,0,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,17,6,0,3,8,0,2,2,4,8,0,1,0,3,21,2,37,37,6,36,0,0,0,0,12,19,0,9,8,127,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0730622523089186,0.0,0.0,0.14632405966234854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07754266868244017,0.0,0.0,0.06229778010126996,0.5678507709219988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05235079640322294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06251326486936318,0.045640014876541166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07718761109069887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07736065247389272,0.0,0.049450883154899566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037856486584306605,0.0,0.0,0.08201634953934092,0.0684297603357062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738151407745684,0.0,0.04255030703176697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06620723251341291,0.0,0.06706875201199343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509186820055991,0.0,0.0,0.0743627346302435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343966779117828,0.0,0.0844565430071362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06365173776202195,0.0,0.0,0.09995252031985268,0.07590635849502521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07942516494421506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11103020997704027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05694195611478778,0.1593337701123383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25952691494376184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4302281862725984,0.0,0.08072244844331082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918543792078508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06343704937475672,0.1152770610329526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07980138443381904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08570815825149652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060177614326032226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14392088555600036,0.0,0.0,0.08731451743377193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0508317683978499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kas-sol,2019/05/20,"Short film, paranoid about deadlines. So I just released my final short-film project for my three year media course. It's essentially a showcase of my most common auditory hallucinations with visuals added to symbolize other symptoms IE the imagery of being on a boat sailing away from something in the fog represents isolating yourself from the outside world. It's a very short film (3:14), but since it was a solo project from someone who considers getting dressed a major challenge, I still think of it as an achievement, especially since some of it was shot on location in the Baltic Sea. The chance to get to educate others about my diagnosis is just an added bonus.",12.001428571428573,9.835351831932776,10.648302521008404,61.10993277310924,55.89075630252101,13.553613445378152,48.16974789915966,11.979248473330829,5.880662521008404,544,29,85,12,5,171,82,119,0.013000000000000001,0.9109999999999999,0.076,0.802,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,0,12,0,4,1,0,0,0,7,7,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,6,2,20,4,3,12,0,0,0,0,1,8,0,2,4,58,14,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906887757294072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389294179694222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3232944470050866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5118729840642062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621511728215913,0.23818901609601045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470849369417261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32158207013599593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19824917937750575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25528502384142937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992415990755515 schizophrenia,Zildjian505,2019/05/20,"No symptoms except psychosis? I’ve had 2 episodes of psychosis about 4 years apart each brought under control in less than 2 weeks with medication. I was originally diagnosed with schizophrenaform and I thought it was the beginning of being diagnosed with schizophrenia. However since then my doc says it’s most likely schizoaffective disorder. I’m high functioning and hold down a regular blue collar job and I’m a musician in a band. From the outside nobody can tell that there’s anything wrong with me, my friends say they never would of known hadn’t I said anything. My only symptom in between psychosis has been occasional health anxiety and a few panic attack’s. I’m on a low dose of geodon every day. Could I just have a very mild case? The psychosis was one of the most terrifying things I’ve ever been through and I can only describe it as a waking nightmare. But I believe it has made me stronger going through it. Could I hope to be off medicine one day? By all accounts I don’t feel like a person with a severe mental illness and from the outside I don’t look like one. Anybody have similar stories?",3.9608571428571433,6.524722657142861,4.406904761904761,82.16892857142858,74.80952380952381,7.057142857142857,31.452380952380953,8.07648339933343,2.5511238095238102,898,44,156,15,20,283,132,210,0.126,0.807,0.067,-0.9004,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,1,4,9,1,1,14,0,20,9,1,3,3,31,32,9,0,4,3,0,1,3,1,1,8,3,0,1,7,12,0,2,3,1,1,2,5,4,0,3,11,6,15,5,28,16,6,21,0,1,2,0,8,10,0,3,12,106,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039636385427615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22366933947595294,0.0,0.0,0.15460662836275813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531135141344531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242415429618533,0.21701124907474015,0.0,0.0,0.1752893753121936,0.0,0.0,0.27587263333805284,0.0,0.0,0.155753938659509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12292993407397115,0.11450217358623616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06871546076801105,0.09708746390580476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10499651847488968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07723548108450969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444560543864741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435865165148311,0.0,0.1349800268101163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348604425233507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19918260437133525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11412233311246554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12859249738290374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13690562487517027,0.13695590850609338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10481497266717736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2762694279905137,0.20671716286960198,0.0,0.15945015169530288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11866322079291736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12927265558517387,0.21614733065291572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15352907151329676,0.0,0.11241843638687724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28250565761610186,0.0,0.0,0.11878317332428096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028636470291353,0.0,0.0,0.1078899496204123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11213228322923316,0.0,0.0,0.10901131794260872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09653993490155367,0.14858604569804498,0.0,0.08751557409204883 schizophrenia,peachesnraspberries,2019/06/14,Does anyone else get into heated discussions on touchy subjects like politics or human rights with strangers on the internet? I never discuss these subjects in real life because I don't like face to face conflict. But online I am very vocal and I have a stance.,5.372499999999999,7.702931250000002,5.560833333333335,76.56750000000002,69.83333333333334,7.300000000000002,30.75,8.07648339933343,2.5926500000000003,212,9,32,3,4,67,41,48,0.05,0.8420000000000001,0.10800000000000001,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,3,3,2,0,1,8,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,6,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,3,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412392563183703,0.3535038716535058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103151050916642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019208794004017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882118739257549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802536663854844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436910110581005,0.3371092565255441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26609324860546696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39269730694738936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29463695099635473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28466966845242125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AlistairD592,2019/06/14,"There's still hope ❤️🙏 If anyone is struggling, to cope or with a diagnosis, I want you to know you're not alone and they're are many bright days ahead ❤️❤️❤️ continue to be strong and love one another ❤️",-2.856200000000001,-1.2488575199999978,0.7714999999999996,100.66325000000002,104.2,4.9,14.25,6.6274283507984215,-0.5744000000000002,164,4,45,3,8,59,37,50,0.057,0.611,0.33299999999999996,0.9107,0,1,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,2,2,5,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,9,7,4,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,2,4,5,6,0,4,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,4,19,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3502149677505756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3545732270099621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23643798679608102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180747582468082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358530619706781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18583497322259407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30518795518504943,0.0,0.0,0.34282470985447044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22913497034152264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27004205218005656,0.0,0.0,0.35350128815164017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19944595703640047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kkdog007,2019/06/14,What is hearing voices like? Is it like the voice in your head or is it like hearing someone in person?Iv only experienced the later once when I was in the kitchen at 2am making a sandwich I thought I heard someone say my name it sounded like they were right on my shoulder.What kinds of stuff do they say?,3.3061290322580628,4.9531838064516185,4.091161290322585,87.81674193548392,73.83870967741936,6.250322580645161,30.14193548387097,6.742157984588678,1.5392477419354835,244,11,49,2,5,78,43,62,0.0,0.831,0.16899999999999998,0.8604,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,2,0,1,5,0,0,4,0,6,3,1,1,0,4,11,2,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,8,1,0,5,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,9,8,5,6,7,0,8,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,1,6,31,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186583474508162,0.0,0.4802623223002722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22186648375716544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4163563119103181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14221746110603475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268991650954566,0.0,0.16203974453354344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18603349345444511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18194984547991475,0.0,0.3388635733424745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610456674135166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24389973606660614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16914376756666774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BPLearner,2019/06/14,"I could be a self-help poet. I could be a self-help poet. My book will be called The Self-Help Poet by B.P. Learner. It will sink into oblivion, but who wants to live a public life in this day and age? I'd rather be invisible. Maybe I can live my life reading all about spiritual and happiness methods. Good?",0.93809523809524,3.2178218571428587,2.9041269841269863,90.27142857142859,84.39682539682539,5.504761904761906,20.11111111111111,6.868970318607317,0.3451968253968252,239,7,51,3,7,80,43,63,0.0,0.848,0.152,0.8782,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,9,2,0,0,1,9,10,3,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,5,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,31,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19594924445107373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064297682821688,0.0,0.0,0.12375829107536765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16095488115777004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042789173627663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3858754171500686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710863694943176,0.0,0.0,0.33889878007698954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19278726592666398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919498627015168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6005741846179927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11318637243096605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hikingbeginner,2019/06/14,"Hi guys, I'm looking for some advice on what I and our family can do for my mum. She has suffered with bipolar disorder for the past 25-30 years and Schizophrenia symptoms when it's really bad. It's really bad this time around, and I feel so helpless because I'm 22 and I remember vaguely that as a kid growing up until I was about 4 I'd say? Visiting my mum in hospital and waking up for a while in my dad's room with mum not there. It's not until 2016 when my mum's mental health illnesses really came at her hard again, and every year she has a really bad few weeks, 2016 it was I think 2 weeks, she'd hear voices from past traumas and the medication that she takes every single day always seemed to not work for a few weeks. We adjusted her medication, whether it was upping or lowing dosages of certain tablets, and it always helped ease her within a few weeks or a month. This year, her bad episode began in early May, and is only getting worse. I feel so helpless, along with our family who just cannot seem to calm her down like we and I were able to in previous years. I just do my best with making sure she eats, does most chores and talks as calm as I can.. but the voices still come and her nurse says to do nothing and let her calm herself down.. but she gets more and more agitated.. right now she's in the bathroom and I can hear her arguing and talking aggressively in response to the voices. I don't know what to do. And I don't want to like put more shit she has to think about if I tell my parents about my suicidal thoughts and shit that goes on in my head. What I would like to know is pls, do I just follow doctors doctor's instructions and stay quiet while she keeps having these heated arguments and visions of her past? Can I do something more? Better yet, what is the best way that you would calm down someone in your family or a friend, or how would you want your family to help you? She always says to be quiet and just let her talk, but the voices just keep coming. She's not as energetic and wanting to do everything around the house like she was last week, so that's a good sign, but what I'm worried about is the voices and how they haven't seemed to subside as of yet. I feel so fucking helpless, I don't know what to do. I'm sorry if I said anything insensitive or I used wrong terminology guys, I apologise. Thank you for reading all this if you did, that's very kind of you :)",4.307041666666667,4.760580105050503,5.246448863636363,84.99967329545456,70.17171717171718,8.450126262626263,26.57986111111111,8.472884824447931,1.5715770202020196,1892,55,405,28,32,621,218,495,0.159,0.7340000000000001,0.107,-0.9723,1,0,1,0,0,0,47.0,4,8,1,4,25,33,5,0,17,0,39,14,4,4,3,90,76,53,1,9,22,6,4,4,1,4,8,13,2,3,23,35,1,2,14,1,0,7,9,16,0,0,10,18,65,17,61,58,13,61,0,5,1,1,62,23,3,14,33,278,88,5,0.07144233963721104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981262745091597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17833724911398788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05879095823958185,0.12719765786539855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23860547779420396,0.04355058713902131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14994865561432996,0.06318494370896376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08171100408852712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308249932077348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0460743987887062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08187911069828202,0.14624852377964107,0.06251967285795436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07310334904850996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12038650485438568,0.0,0.06420776823727255,0.0,0.26939791841824257,0.0,0.10837018056809057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05519617438332333,0.06604729178807772,0.07465134757323004,0.0,0.0,0.0599224449288468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14147829677895238,0.0,0.0,0.06399830360934118,0.0,0.07332045158326286,0.07593986623994146,0.16104141808445308,0.0,0.09577258863787094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08243486790921109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700246809355129,0.0,0.07439620288873314,0.11778852445805693,0.058235042086378086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14610926529129847,0.0,0.1396124738191074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05999357208223835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04768831646669736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14394128213832064,0.0719970749366959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05702459389874394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06855085169245917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05433511860921917,0.0,0.0,0.07932826353624355,0.0,0.20459939115884465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.071819283842011,0.0,0.0,0.07146167294893549,0.0,0.18307116862902206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08093024395717557,0.06101136769586635,0.06795802512614743,0.17044144789517113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19511526845727326,0.0,0.0,0.14666906996717996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06053286253545395,0.05499980340964285,0.0,0.07997385015336272,0.0,0.07614802834750868,0.05705394472010902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07814632400217167,0.0,0.06733355962271098,0.07425594566634595,0.053715748298312584,0.17226793923798775,0.06244375379150801,0.06577450775690118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155473304856958,0.0,0.05671723748516895,0.04165860276653418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061703243241676614,0.0,0.05894741224777988,0.12641562877566245,0.05670760383683029,0.2865336776073735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05201087413004808,0.07255316379527968,0.07280584758014651,0.1522517648922389,0.07811098318692475,0.0,0.18402609758900226 schizophrenia,kelmeneh,2019/06/14,"Need Help for my Sister Hello Guys, &#x200B; My Sister suffered from brief reactive psychosis 2 years ago. Her symptoms included : Someone is tracking her, people are plotting to take her out of her workplace, There is camera in bathroom, Words are jumbled such that previously they meant something else and now they are meaning something else. She was 27 then and just got a new job. It was a shift job, she was in IT Security and something she got after a facing a lot of pressure, social isolation and not having a great health. Before she showed symptoms she complained of headache and her face was full of boils, she also liked a guy and that guy was just friendly, but she started considering him as boyfriend, getting insecure. She had She told him her feeling only to find that the guy never contacted. She was given riseperdone and was cured within a month though the treatment went on for a year. She was on neocalm plus which she stopped taking or took ""as per need"" because she didnt want to be on medicines. We thought, cool, she is cured now. &#x200B; She was very happy go lucky before this and after 6 month of taking medicines. But slowly she became depressive. Her depression was so slow that it was almost non understood by us. I felt she is not able to get on with her life and still stuck on same past. We tried talking to her, but she didn't take a step forward. She couldn't understand a word out of it. She then started becoming unresponsive and everytime I spoke to her I felt it was a ""lecture"" and not a ""discussion"". She sucked the whole energy out of me and my words didn;t even hit her. We all felt that way. &#x200B; This slowly turned into occasionally making something said by others, she said that it was her experience not theirs. This slowly turned to same things, of people laughing at her, she randomly asked family members where are they leaving her? Is she a <INSERT ANY WORD whose talks are going on eg: football, terrorist>. Now she has auditory hallucinations and she frequently sees things which are not there. like why am I crying?(when I am not), why are you talking this way(when we are talking exactly the way we used to). Her sleep was abnormal too. She used to wake up every 2 hours saying why are people making fun of her, are you leaving. Me my father my mother we all slept together during this period. It was too scary for me to handle. She was takne to doctor where he said she is experiencing mild schizophrenia. I was so shaken by this statement and I got scared for all her symptoms and her future. Her medicines: 1. Piracetam(5ml syrup) 2. Risperdone(0.5 mg) 3. Escnx(10 mg) (as she had depression I guess) 4. B vitamins &#x200B; My question: 1. I really want to know if this is schizophrenia and if it is then how long the treatment goes. Her doctor said it will be a long treatment 2-3 years 2. Why did it come back to her? She stopped her medicines esp. Piracetam and escnx for 3 weeks. After that she got the second one. Does this happen to people when they stop medication? 3. Are there any successful cases where they became OK after the course of medicines and are leading normal lives ? I am more scared for her future. 4. She is devoid of goal, how can I enrich her life again with things which make her busy/? How do you guys live your life with enthusiasm? How to find meaning? 5. Anything I should know prepare for future? Articles listed on google are too scary to read. I found normality in the group. Thank you in advance",3.4387237890303086,6.130115722392638,3.769641058511127,85.36872951194947,77.35889570552145,6.346525043494188,25.528889295852032,7.543152864043107,1.485485504990386,2769,103,499,40,67,860,301,652,0.08900000000000001,0.835,0.076,-0.6999,3,1,4,0,0,0,118.0,7,5,6,4,28,23,1,4,22,2,56,17,5,10,5,101,113,40,0,10,14,4,4,2,1,2,11,6,0,5,33,33,1,4,17,2,0,10,10,10,0,2,44,13,100,13,67,63,9,72,0,4,1,0,110,23,1,9,41,351,133,9,0.055503365392507525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049200384539021945,0.0,0.055578602996076316,0.0,0.0,0.04438602125157467,0.0,0.2405514928548831,0.2697706563919123,0.07548838351680738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045674540524811784,0.0,0.0518881542384132,0.0,0.0,0.042678661968555145,0.0,0.03383433637966033,0.061299106398072276,0.09445855186599712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04781123468180581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14341490184806616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11362009271639703,0.04857136908556232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09273187949829992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03665944937704519,0.0,0.046763979183707866,0.0,0.0,0.054292941614679895,0.05232363321903508,0.0,0.028064169231984203,0.0,0.15987580460044212,0.0,0.101458140881013,0.0,0.0,0.06085657533040381,0.042881762420200524,0.0,0.05799643520131807,0.0,0.06308768325623887,0.0,0.1775644465332426,0.06119265628933233,0.06114321448459115,0.2747852898262936,0.049081442713915284,0.059084364541210015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05899748195785934,0.0,0.0,0.03720273586186811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054659634610065136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101570516845751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06100639616263515,0.0,0.0,0.11754009979472475,0.0,0.0,0.11761100521875102,0.05423228149500391,0.0,0.09802097702075396,0.098237463566636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04718697643758064,0.0,0.0,0.11114678217058307,0.0,0.0,0.12091887256313068,0.0,0.0559138013827588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08860451344661191,0.0,0.0,0.08231008431591019,0.042807617064642235,0.05360549615944499,0.0,0.0,0.10876302720871216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037610516828349705,0.04221281045843499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05298424260385006,0.15391618015087194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062176471781509424,0.0,0.05551838539143727,0.0,0.035556877115337136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111856425242355,0.04413850390208664,0.11113710279655843,0.0,0.04422899617288648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05554344925920585,0.056578691314040364,0.047027821381843096,0.17091680931297445,0.0,0.0,0.07857113539814144,0.0,0.04432505929907641,0.13920989623296484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730677455055815,0.16692649318446062,0.17844601068953414,0.0,0.05110004174110391,0.0,0.0,0.11062190910358137,0.0,0.054531774692160286,0.044063472335574366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05303584417701044,0.06166628118473921,0.0376831417649218,0.12074344670891372,0.0,0.05778096080491291,0.06676371461805497,0.09587417413641808,0.0,0.04579608923147836,0.06547464590222361,0.13216796393870273,0.04452145180647907,0.0,0.0,0.05145217578327741,0.2003326170820197,0.061967525321285376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697706563919123,0.10722704269037824 schizophrenia,Ichoro,2019/06/14,The noises hurt It’s so fucking loud I can’t stand it. I hear fuzz and static with the occasional pop. It’s maddening. I want to drive a nail in my ears to make it stop. This isn’t like the usual voices. This is worse. It hurts it hurts so much,-1.5700000000000005,0.395373759259261,1.027685185185188,99.71708333333336,98.44444444444444,4.181481481481482,12.305555555555555,5.985473137389443,-1.1552888888888893,189,3,47,2,8,64,38,54,0.302,0.634,0.063,-0.9359999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,4,0,3,2,1,1,0,6,7,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,8,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,5,4,1,4,7,1,5,0,3,0,1,1,1,1,1,3,27,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244704564995032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27366027927938325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7797873057854197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11862286432483594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620750507275854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17849052416103353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20299688891678247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674167701280737,0.0,0.14321341133862595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.247440302239596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cudderisbackkk,2019/06/14,Feeling better My schizophrenia isn’t that bad compared to most I’ve been on abilify for about 2 weeks and today for the first time in awhile I woke up with a clear mind struggling a bit still but not as bad and that’s good.,4.441631205673758,4.829224510638298,4.328510638297871,91.93333333333334,69.85106382978725,7.117730496453903,26.30496453900709,6.42735559955562,0.7529773049645391,180,5,40,1,3,55,41,47,0.175,0.65,0.174,-0.2617,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,2,2,5,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,9,4,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,1,2,2,9,2,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,5,25,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5017340782706231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657276755376169,0.3280186036988064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15191887227961684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555665273700473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520070616319057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033734937628245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23994342988669096,0.0,0.0,0.3141003812691817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751974921475737,0.0,0.28479582744548393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410065551836541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,witty-original-name,2019/06/14,"Not hallucinating, but extremely depressed, anxious, and have strange compulsive mannerisms. Where do I fall? Hello, I am a 28 year-old male trying to figure things out. I have been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and General Anxiety Disorder. Been dealing with these conditions for about 10 years now. Taken many traditional antidepressants over the years (haven't helped), underwent ECT (didn't help), and am currently taking oral ketamine for the depression (kind of helps). I also am starting Buspar for the Anxiety tomorrow. I also attempted suicide several years ago during what was either a panic attack or psychotic episode. My memory of the event is foggy, but I obviously wasn't thinking straight. Over the years I've noticed that, in addition to the anhedonia from Depression and excessive worrying/racing thoughts from Anxiety, I have these frequent episodes where: * I often find myself saying random words and sentences out loud, mostly when I'm alone, but it also can happen in the company of others. This includes cursing and swearing and making vaguely, violent threats towards nothing in particular (""fucking kill you goddamnit""). * I have to suppress the urge to scream out loud at the top of my lungs and roll around on the floor, crying and whimpering at nothing in particular * I am restless and agitated and am compelled to pace around the house or outside in the neighborhood while moving my head around in circles and swinging my arms around randomly * I have this persistent feeling of absolute dread/despair that will not go away. Even when I try to tell myself that things can get better, these feelings do not go away. * I have difficulty articulating and expressing my thoughts. Like I know that I want to make a point about something, but my brain refuses to cooperate. However, I do not see or hear things that aren't there. I don't have any strange beliefs like the government is coming for me or whatever. Thus, it doesn't *seem* like I would be categorized as schizophrenic, but these episodes I have are extremely distressing and I don't know what to make of them. Any thoughts? Is this psychotic depression or something? Maybe you folks could shed some light on these concerns of mine. Thanks.",7.019679653679653,9.399178470129877,6.7625324675324645,69.43617965367966,65.5974025974026,10.63982683982684,37.24891774891775,10.722254614519581,4.799460606060606,1801,94,271,53,30,566,215,385,0.235,0.708,0.057999999999999996,-0.9979,2,1,2,0,0,1,61.0,0,2,1,4,17,20,5,3,16,0,36,7,4,5,1,71,62,31,2,3,15,0,2,3,0,2,2,5,0,1,21,25,0,2,13,0,0,5,11,14,0,0,9,9,33,6,49,49,4,47,1,5,1,1,14,28,1,11,17,198,54,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07740668788933444,0.0,0.0,0.09044042964578633,0.0,0.20949683173380573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11876544862208195,0.0,0.20040587128043508,0.09865028380681758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109444048293464,0.0,0.0993426692161056,0.16408591434439135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772302141622375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09748149499157108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752211462429321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06972041548704665,0.0,0.09592036030654784,0.0,0.09002631491783457,0.3760564288960017,0.0886311410115446,0.0,0.0,0.20015974956846505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057676105231924735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08830639877990057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07981176080829078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0807288285817591,0.04562273242764862,0.0,0.09925549674522828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07721955738579707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08961872632710816,0.0,0.09841951640362323,0.0,0.17559256439581195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10075917029203514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09661010774387632,0.09093360450583143,0.09598101948306567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12798501454437247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1748666063891946,0.08853195010931791,0.08772782328798903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281066996169472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16757780086338325,0.0994179647454268,0.0916309378768593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245488077754332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08254858522806298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06944285959271711,0.0,0.0,0.06958523057269682,0.07949569989693572,0.0,0.09865028380681758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344512267280879,0.0,0.0,0.06180776239717041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09551733347232733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0656561278913508,0.0,0.07632426643640489,0.08039540786613987,0.0,0.0,0.1740408265490656,0.05595313713878021,0.0,0.20797443855514613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11857334940028218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051505445816164584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06203184766804992,0.0,0.0,0.28116617056950904 schizophrenia,adaptchi,2019/06/14,"Paid research opportunity at Northwestern! Are you 18 to 30 years old and been diagnosed with a psychotic disorder in the last 5 years? If so, you may be eligible to be part of a study at Northwestern University. The study involves coming in for 2-3 visits for a total of 7 hours. Participants are paid **$30 per hour**. The purpose of the study is to examine verbal working memory in individuals with early psychosis. If interested, please call 847-467-5907, email [adapt@northwestern.edu](mailto:adapt@northwestern.edu), or visit our website: [http://www.adaptprogram.com/adaptchicago/](http://www.adaptprogram.com/adaptchicago/) . &#x200B; Investigator: Vijay A. Mittal, Ph.D Northwestern University, Department of Psychology Study Title: Verbal Working Memory in Early Psychosis STU#: STU00205279",9.77771017699115,14.560475504424785,7.94490597345133,50.68072179203543,72.71681415929203,10.258628318584073,32.72621681415929,9.673873057562805,5.146911946902653,664,29,72,21,16,199,79,113,0.025,0.902,0.07400000000000001,0.6588,0,0,0,0,0,0,59.0,1,2,0,3,1,2,0,0,8,0,7,1,0,0,1,10,10,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,2,17,4,2,18,0,0,0,0,8,6,0,4,8,42,3,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419357455418438,0.2713230506487167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280051144399853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19234545702856048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266357025426235,0.0,0.0,0.2559108736865741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4397933862221693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18201199759503645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23430638197083034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418024337605117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451065058315809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251170689645097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713230506487167,0.2875842141756459 schizophrenia,TheFleshIsDead,2019/06/14,"Has any sufferer here not had a stressful childhood or used drugs? I had an argument with a friend. I'm suspecting schizophrenia and bipolar are always triggered by either drug use or stress even if that stress is early on in life before the diagnosis. So I'm asking does anyone here with schizophrenia abstauned from drugs their whole life and not had a stressful childhood?",6.851641791044778,8.933193865671644,5.662865671641793,78.3295223880597,65.56716417910448,7.748059701492537,32.80298507462687,8.238735603445708,2.6945844776119405,307,13,48,4,5,91,49,67,0.17600000000000002,0.7090000000000001,0.115,-0.5508,0,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,4,6,0,4,5,0,6,6,0,3,0,14,11,6,0,1,6,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,0,2,1,6,8,2,5,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,3,3,33,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249237625418878,0.0,0.0,0.10209647063593384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049773916201168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403553015378971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12775322927338106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138353549422907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5223243619043542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991622875596394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599338583734073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120885886697236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6879133222191339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593356579766698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676195815727721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,beeyum77,2019/06/14,"Feelings after Risperidal How long has it taken someone's feelings to come back after coming off Risperidal? I've taken it for 3 months and some change and have been off it since March of this year. I don't feel excited about the things I once did like painting, reading and being outside. I'm also having sexual Dysfunction problems like no pleasure during sex or oral sex.",7.774857142857139,8.043847200000002,7.249285714285714,74.25821428571432,62.71428571428571,8.714285714285714,34.64285714285714,8.07648339933343,2.861428571428571,304,12,48,3,4,95,56,70,0.131,0.752,0.11699999999999999,-0.0093,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,1,0,12,15,6,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,3,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,4,3,2,4,8,10,1,11,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,9,32,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044306315999564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19656697257502526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704271594360227,0.4404125726060003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3877691002470101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24977998132096496,0.0,0.0,0.2262282826599673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040448336632008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27224215220492826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446074701207268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557034460613805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21146330797415244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21659808554070487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16983204853814807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646200871632293 schizophrenia,a7k7u3b2,2019/06/17,"Schizophrenia and Normies It seems like the moment I come out and mention I have schizophrenia, the normies dismiss me. They might have been friendly before, but not anymore. Suddenly, I'm a pariah. I am rejected, as if I did something wrong. I am something wrong. I can't be treated with respect anymore, because I have the worst problem: mental illness.",3.665119047619047,6.854745095238094,3.401884920634924,84.69901785714289,82.17460317460319,4.419841269841268,36.44642857142857,5.985473137389443,2.5297952380952395,283,18,43,2,8,85,45,63,0.32899999999999996,0.568,0.10300000000000001,-0.9661,0,1,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,0,9,0,0,4,0,10,1,0,0,0,11,13,5,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,2,0,9,4,3,9,1,4,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,3,3,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4721859704664037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14512004776449405,0.0,0.2025727563375377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20506885617162945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18392568250241115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116304797478807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23990994473540775,0.2525455734750807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22779265274776156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21672219931053632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3665426632420147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5205656389813185,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,serenitameli,2019/06/17,"My older brother is schizophrenic and I cant handle him anymore My brother is 4 years older than me and still lives at home. He cant hold down a job and doesn't go to school. He litreally sits at home all day and just watches conspiracy theories on youtube. My brothers schizophrenia was drugged induced. He refuses any type of treatment so why am I suppose to put up with his rude and selfish behavior. He doesnt work, he doesnt help around the house. All he does is argue with everyone and rant about ""the truth"". It's been 10 years since he was first diagnosed. He gets good for a while and is on medication but then he smokes weed again and stops taking the pills and cycle starts all over again. Hes a vegan so the food he eats is super expensive yet he doesnt work. All he does is ask my parents for their card so he can buy food. He just manipulates people and uses them. I can't stand it anymore. My parents feel bad and think that I need to be more patient but why should I? Hes a grown adult and he chooses to do these things so he should suffer the consequences. My parents need to teach him to fend for himself because God forbid something happens to them, I'm not taking care of him. I love him and he was always my hero growing but the person I see before me is NOT my brother. I look in his eyes and hes gone. I'm not paying rent in a house to my parents to have to walk around egg shells when I talk to my brother. I get he has something wrong with him but I'm not going to to waste any more time on someone who doesnt even want help. Am I being selfish about this?",2.2399240121580526,3.8958858267477225,3.4466033434650463,91.28017857142858,76.75075987841944,6.2805471124620045,24.212006079027358,7.021680442328713,0.776986018237082,1243,41,271,13,28,403,171,329,0.134,0.8009999999999999,0.066,-0.9604,6,0,4,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,3,5,16,14,2,0,11,0,32,11,1,3,5,49,55,25,0,5,10,9,1,0,0,2,5,0,3,2,7,19,4,4,4,0,4,7,12,8,0,1,5,5,37,6,36,46,6,37,0,1,4,1,51,12,0,0,16,163,44,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645916907191638,0.0,0.0,0.14132100789708982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20609617412845035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849989925532672,0.09713926717293596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08675822682271757,0.06334090486436468,0.0,0.08841743015486694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10594038264816016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06701159047620185,0.0,0.0,0.1054636876645598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818598972273641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12049944007817576,0.1063230734999494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06862976915862667,0.0,0.0,0.09928784542192973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05253863570645235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08838346729920751,0.2512901567655099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10857451564403517,0.0,0.11810578751734678,0.08715248479571963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09188485208230006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13929370013222842,0.0,0.2084549195701116,0.0,0.0,0.2397900679995815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10311192825827227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09175201946499628,0.0,0.08725593364801329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09378036429133266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10467563880222508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540918421312995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4615068887741632,0.0,0.0,0.0720362150348216,0.09072781669966903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10445550161567473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051597004417772,0.08280063800859087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595316410610003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804028921094399,0.15998577948941228,0.0,0.0,0.07354609761654139,0.0,0.08298047677559646,0.08687112695739757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15625066508612112,0.08351672439854617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06903137039858885,0.06657958040152008,0.0,0.0,0.060589162350308076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897425159279178,0.0,0.0,0.061287197576214814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18752029147894872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512914542193176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136062836331298,0.0,0.13382574502079642 schizophrenia,thewanja,2019/06/17,"Changing med dosage My doctor is phoning to ask why I want my haloperidol at 2, 2 and 1 mg pills after being on a 5mg pill. It's to reduce it as I'm brain dead and feel better cutting up my 5mg into 3/4. Whats a valid reason to spread the dosage throughout the day so I can bullshit her? Bearing in mind this is my general doctor and not my psychiatrist. They've already agreed to reduce the dosage but things just move very slowly.",1.3268742368742394,3.3708830549450566,3.135750915750915,90.58980463980465,81.08791208791209,4.923565323565324,21.1001221001221,5.82211442006289,0.11480854700854692,342,10,71,2,9,114,67,91,0.077,0.868,0.055,-0.4194,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,5,0,4,5,1,1,0,12,8,6,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,8,1,11,7,0,8,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,2,40,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26902648804590085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279091826875158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156109696099132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721484056745441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25789573151756595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572233069128689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4990553787843834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232667063676468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707938802194875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461567204537936,0.0,0.0,0.2591084170574684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25065500958571696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16196213606730714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011509066033404,0.14379267535482326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199810520096197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sugar_Shy,2019/06/17,"No meds no doctor, it comes and it goes.. why? I am delusional. I am paranoid. I’ve seen things and I’ve heard things. I haven’t seen a doctor. I’ve seen a therapist, but after one session she didn’t want to see me again and ever since I’ve seen nobody. How come I can go days with nothing happening or just minor things happening? I have PTSD. Maybe I’m in the wrong place? But, even before I got shot.. I still experienced these issues randomly and inconsistently.. I’m just seeking a place where somebody understands.",1.3330769230769235,3.947672156862749,2.9719607843137257,87.72997737556561,87.23529411764706,6.275716440422323,20.591251885369534,7.61054688173877,1.0107984917043744,408,13,81,8,13,134,66,102,0.105,0.879,0.016,-0.787,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,4,0,6,2,0,1,1,17,22,8,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,7,0,0,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,7,7,9,0,4,15,0,12,0,0,5,0,2,4,0,2,5,47,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442298145039232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920140261791467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093118093012506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469755691290368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11195144280780628,0.15332011409107327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09632928595430927,0.0,0.13556256516780454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29977200532379583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17691126250300065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17028293349534987,0.0,0.18827341553693933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16263733927400048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148558337681286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35417744208231017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198133405544944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13506749336491758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14021001168360336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353608530787251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19679956066226326,0.33781964925132024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17645278472135875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999739657938496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15294505171863804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18531881311395998,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AudieCowboy,2019/06/17,"Bad thoughts What do you do when the bad thoughts take over absolute control of you, the demons make you choke yourself, hit, cut, ya know. Like it's not you, the shadow has control he's choking you but he's not real...is he (freaking out real bad right now)",-0.06461538461538296,2.262118307692308,1.0142307692307675,99.36826923076923,96.69230769230772,3.3692307692307697,21.884615384615387,5.148860815047168,-0.12473846153846145,200,8,43,1,8,62,35,52,0.26,0.7090000000000001,0.03,-0.9062,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,6,0,2,2,6,1,0,3,0,3,0,0,3,0,11,9,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,6,1,3,6,0,5,1,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,3,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5428688966632167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4861509688593457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191063766818274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10588087404538504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14466560160774966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4933609302028503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18508194179590814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629502070766645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3441108384713676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shitpostjaeke,2019/06/17,"Am I able to be here and take part in this subreddit? I’ve never really spoken to a doctor or psychiatrist about my mental health so I’m not diagnosed with anything. I’ve tried to but I just can’t ever get the words out, and every time I’m in the moment where I can I’ll get the feeling of “don’t say it, you’ll regret it” so I don’t. I’m also not gonna self diagnose either. But for a while now I’ve been experiencing a lot of symptoms related to schizophrenia and other disorders like it, and over the course of the past couple years it’s been slowly getting more frequent and intense. I don’t really know what to do about it, and I don’t want to talk to anyone about it. I’m scared of not being seen as normal and I just don’t really trust anyone with that information, including my mother. But my question is, is it okay for me to take part in this subreddit even though I’m not diagnosed?",3.4581196581196565,4.159090269841276,5.501164021164024,81.5165567765568,72.22751322751324,8.778347578347576,24.59137159137159,9.057496981413335,1.7150900284900286,707,19,149,14,13,247,103,189,0.043,0.867,0.09,0.7465,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,14,5,0,1,8,1,16,6,0,0,2,32,31,17,0,3,11,1,1,1,0,2,6,1,0,1,12,10,0,0,4,0,0,0,11,2,0,0,3,4,12,3,25,24,5,15,0,1,1,0,7,6,0,3,10,105,24,1,0.14655264874440244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719810025288503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20494603904178893,0.0,0.12060034282170412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16215771835975254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4462435606996425,0.0,0.0,0.1679620321871336,0.15000284595734042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679664232472927,0.1325652610867956,0.1234769273310702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07410142261956698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297031306943136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15577861250448696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054150306705044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07159822151629171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245938211901772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14769060038350554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11303043739589673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435904796959211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174044742776479,0.13990108600438933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16417250674302106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816561384421198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116544548474157,0.1467247677094301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288637458547394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15232431605242794,0.22037870630723516,0.11779346774508127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439872333029356,0.0,0.08545602802804304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09949962852893253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644054927764808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09437510087406556 schizophrenia,IoveIyday,2019/06/17,"Hello friends Hi everyone, I’ve been contemplating about posting here to look for some advice. Although I do not have schizophrenia - my mother does, and has for all of my life. I wish it was something easier to deal with it but we all know it never is. Unfortunately, she doesn’t believe that she has schizophrenia or in any of the symptoms related - anxiety, depression, etc. She’s been diagnosed at least 3 times but she’s certain that the pain and thoughts she has are caused by certain people who control the electricity around her. Because of this, she’s unmedicated and unstable everyday. I was used to her yelling everyday, screaming actrocities at these “people” until I made some friends and realized that their moms were well, not very yell-y. I feel like my mom doesn’t even know me. 90% of our dialogue is just her expressing her delusions, and they’re not very quiet. I try to let her express herself because I know that it’s unhealthy to just completely shut them down but I just don’t know what to do at this point. I’m still in high school but I have long work and class days so I’m never really home anymore but when I am it hurts so much. I grew up with it everyday but now having some distance I understand that it is not the norm. I hate seeing my mom in pain. It’s not what she deserves, it’s really not. We have always been in financial ruins so she works long work days, trying to catch up her debt. I’m sure that adds A LOT of stress. I just honestly don’t know what to do anymore. I’m tired of crying and I’m tired of her being in pain and I just want it to stop. I want my mom. Any advice will help, but I don’t think she’ll see a of professional or join a support group (or anything of that nature) any time soon. I’ve mentioned it to her and she just gets very, very upset. Also, I will be going to university next year and I have a good chance at some great out of state universities but I’m not sure if I should even go because of my mom’s health. Someone just help me",1.9586881188118817,4.163340611386143,3.3910792079207925,88.73944059405943,79.76732673267327,6.713267326732674,23.466336633663374,7.822599999999999,1.1694873267326729,1573,54,330,27,40,515,195,404,0.146,0.706,0.14800000000000002,-0.736,1,0,1,0,1,0,42.0,3,0,2,4,21,22,1,2,8,0,34,9,0,4,8,75,62,29,0,5,26,6,1,1,2,4,9,3,1,0,25,17,0,2,10,0,1,4,14,10,1,0,8,7,52,12,43,47,10,42,0,3,3,0,42,17,0,9,20,222,77,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15421300559527326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06310148663387179,0.06565651563727297,0.0,0.0,0.16097734452812945,0.0,0.0603632441755499,0.0,0.15650805836673304,0.0,0.0,0.064933312947765,0.07024349978051497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443019805307273,0.0,0.0,0.08890058649181445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0810586947144652,0.0,0.0,0.08273194706742605,0.0,0.08850033120231668,0.0,0.0,0.08667506735601516,0.10177630863696102,0.08134912008649411,0.06796203892490686,0.08008842014839365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.069051595766375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800158748974628,0.10423397680812176,0.0,0.0,0.0753985267903012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03989748911364616,0.056370807835092074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219259073868511,0.0,0.041225381071279855,0.0,0.08968874635534636,0.06618301496811421,0.0,0.08699467701884694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07790381675089858,0.0,0.08387390250852637,0.0,0.0,0.10577870570671392,0.08336903246356074,0.07914963695196513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08447102295371835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21682469973024665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068722582361658,0.05573398309153437,0.03854972229302887,0.0,0.0,0.1396595103458531,0.0662615733357366,0.0,0.0,0.06708347085431055,0.0,0.07466322290629787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4620716011434027,0.0,0.0,0.058005344732721835,0.0,0.12171508956489735,0.0,0.0839179407585313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25188618644004784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10940764130984466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07459213207623552,0.0,0.07557059977012623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010990281520703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985757428137456,0.1257565031573516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06685720771246656,0.06074606629662741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06301481993741481,0.06596935370454025,0.09038711066324248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954214279899325,0.1487368544343557,0.08201404948250714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050560088752638566,0.0,0.06264293424422636,0.0920220105745714,0.18138279116633396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714464596518213,0.0,0.0,0.08214443248377735,0.0,0.06814986731422852,0.0,0.2604244517565278,0.09308217715301703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07094640527694679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09073856228406506,0.0,0.0,0.17233458006299954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0508131885544668 schizophrenia,capthapton,2019/06/17,Is the military a common theme? [my friend has gone down hill](https://mobile.twitter.com/penguinpsionics),14.79,20.806263769230767,8.72961538461539,44.052884615384635,65.15384615384616,11.830769230769231,29.57692307692308,10.125756701596842,5.406415384615384,91,3,9,3,2,24,13,13,0.0,0.758,0.242,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AccurateDurian,2019/06/17,Why is the title image for this sub a bench by a lake? My favorite thing to do is sit on the bench by my nearby lake and have deep thoughts and it's really freaking me out like this website was hand-created just for me,1.6815957446808518,3.198882212765959,3.3031382978723407,92.30875,77.93617021276594,6.402127659574468,22.388297872340427,7.1686216300943375,0.5793872340425534,172,5,39,2,4,57,36,47,0.064,0.823,0.113,0.3415,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,1,7,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30684935412774744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023656935268716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4172700640661707,0.0,0.0,0.4986272992421481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5667467094114611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,salic912,2019/04/29,I cant handle it anymore Today i got a psychotic episode when i entered a train and i straight up thought i was gonna die.Fucking kill me already...,0.2214516129032269,2.573178161290325,2.277661290322584,92.53649193548388,89.96774193548387,4.390322580645162,33.55645161290323,5.985473137389443,1.8604774193548381,117,8,24,1,4,39,26,31,0.184,0.742,0.07400000000000001,-0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,1,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,6,0,1,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,14,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40226686458977423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36151485972415215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3783235959081735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3370012271907296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915471768102031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40329737766158336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893953426084344,0.0,0.0,0.34553091040401473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ThisPainHurtsSo,2019/04/29,"Hello! Hello. I am a Paranoid Schizophrenic. My mental illness came to fruition through drug abuse. Before 2017 i wasnt as such. Im medicated now. But i dont really have anyone to talk to or who understands this condition. The few friends i make and explain it to all eventually go when i have an experience... im never violent or threatening. I guess its just not a nice thing to experience... and im not worth the effort. I hope to talk to many people here. Thank you!",0.6445186335403719,3.1522764021739142,3.2619875776397538,83.38021739130438,94.7608695652174,6.976397515527951,22.87577639751553,7.957251820313856,1.918090683229814,367,15,71,10,14,127,65,92,0.134,0.7090000000000001,0.156,0.4781,0,0,1,0,1,0,17.0,0,1,0,1,5,5,1,0,5,0,5,4,0,1,2,16,13,7,0,1,6,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,1,2,5,1,0,0,2,0,9,4,9,11,2,5,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,4,3,48,14,0,0.0,0.20308331577691008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11984824813845192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14585045871449015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19603820054002466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20088184138963425,0.0,0.19877187766550053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3353280474040645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13242474282994893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09741169391639992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888186025232992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702408384310768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5554306460965655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441215110740773,0.17377470283600122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17266946018218374,0.17273287939827084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13219577183884024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882854985133325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10980449594619528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27553283425053515,0.0,0.1578039125317671,0.0,0.0,0.11387185785301693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17843550365489316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Unagisamich,2019/04/29,"Geodon Withdrawals - How long? Has anyone gotten through Geodon's withdrawals? How long do they typically last? My doc switched me from Geodon to Depakote, and everything was fine until about two days after I took my last tapered dose of Geodon and then it all went downhill fast. Depression, anxiety, nausea, chills, and confusion are my primary complaints. When does it ease up?",5.5875223214285725,8.984252171875003,4.200714285714287,81.23000000000002,74.15625,7.4071428571428575,31.017857142857146,8.418075326091056,2.9035294642857137,305,14,47,6,7,88,52,64,0.157,0.7829999999999999,0.06,-0.7882,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,2,1,7,7,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,4,0,6,1,8,3,1,13,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,10,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151393787259344,0.0,0.0,0.19664182232316532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18136940872077706,0.0,0.2422220844978141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461053512963702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527504485490828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4584782624499461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4977575459926203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31245571372255443,0.0,0.0,0.2747198221987889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607020562628121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,r_booza,2019/04/29,"negative symptoms hi, what i struggle most with is the negative symptoms like social withdrawal, low selfesteem, no intentions to do much. It is kind of like depression symptoms. Initially I was diagnosed with depression before i heard voices sometimes. So my question is how do you cope with it? Are there any medications, that worked very good on the negative symptoms for you? For me medication only helps with positive symptoms, which i don't have often anyways. But the depression/negative symptoms are kinds permanent and I'm trying to find something, that helps me with those. thanks.",6.178000000000001,9.463752800000002,6.127999999999999,68.93900000000002,71.0,10.4,37.0,10.355215969177356,5.204,480,27,67,16,10,151,67,100,0.20600000000000002,0.624,0.17,-0.7556,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,0,1,5,10,0,1,3,0,10,9,0,2,0,13,13,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,9,2,0,0,7,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,2,9,6,11,11,2,2,0,3,0,0,8,2,0,3,2,53,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08411584443711886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10525408658070808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21307411837090925,0.12554633281156616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11305364875545976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10374826733083443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16581833636405152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25761556140989805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12086082496886726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492164436374735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09092897951002953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09407450609893454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13856506615638156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260899803469223,0.0,0.09522532523602056,0.12233606750349467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12931133799826156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7713896565178993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138803869304729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08397978981479501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020601194027626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09005036559776528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EvenSummer1,2019/04/29,"Can I intentionally become schizophrenic? I might be in the minority here, but I think it's really funny to hear voices and believe a bunch of crazy shit. I have friends with schizophrenia and it seems like life is never boring for them. If I imagine voices and odd beliefs, can I give myself the condition over time?",4.746949152542372,7.005056237288137,5.612000000000003,75.84444067796613,71.37288135593221,8.109830508474579,27.0542372881356,8.841846274778883,2.333044745762712,254,9,43,5,5,83,48,59,0.158,0.634,0.209,0.5488,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,3,0,6,3,1,1,1,13,10,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,2,3,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,8,2,6,8,1,4,1,0,0,0,4,2,1,3,3,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364110321021669,0.0,0.34318424160884536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353361868027694,0.0,0.0,0.29220377852669377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3433106884012264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21515071467913835,0.14881405996779148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231365595436352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349292752333419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19513703268399785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27729991422259803,0.0,0.0,0.3126714852398661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951778542636253,0.0,0.0,0.17761696045314174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ambitious_Shock,2019/04/29,"Does anyone else get brief but intense delusions? I've had the same paranoid delusion several times, but it only lasts for under an hour. I get the idea that I know a vague ""they"" are coming to kill my loved ones, and we have to run away immediately. They know I'm full of shit and don't go with me. Meanwhile I'm crying and begging them to get in the car with me. They can sometimes talk me out of it, sometimes I just end up sitting on the floor crying my eyes out and then come to my senses and realize I was being delusional. My main trigger is when something changes about my home, and I wake up to something I don't immediately recognize. I may be partially autistic to he honest. This happens while I'm on Latuda, and I don't have many other symptoms on medication.",4.825741935483869,5.392463477419355,5.833064516129035,80.84959677419359,69.06451612903226,8.264516129032257,30.98387096774193,8.238735603445708,2.1708580645161293,609,24,121,8,10,202,100,155,0.14400000000000002,0.787,0.068,-0.9274,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,4,0,3,4,2,0,6,0,13,6,3,1,0,24,26,12,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,5,14,0,0,4,0,0,6,3,2,0,1,2,1,21,2,22,21,3,26,0,0,1,1,8,12,1,1,7,84,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133300954985815,0.16607010046796994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15227948318820206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17145913526835874,0.2792351146157817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35607451018738856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418372889124913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353970315375394,0.0,0.14355476064477116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540403108996087,0.0,0.09211379178000884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14332679727829206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625794422138671,0.0,0.15961613872530314,0.0,0.0,0.18296857694500931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793174915321044,0.0,0.17814984425879926,0.13211682198023206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14628351634531744,0.0,0.0,0.16432366741723844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632785352817938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10982959389375,0.1232691337617864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831042511417754,0.16637277756336286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495541850984339,0.32060250315042604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16846316587224036,0.0,0.1302737541166838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09451014386643343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ditzykoala,2019/04/29,"Are there any antipsychotics that don't make you lose motivation? My meds need a boost, so I'm thinking about switching them. Would be nice to enjoy doing things again.",4.399892473118278,7.131386193548387,3.6658064516129047,87.18537634408602,74.16129032258064,6.713978494623658,23.23655913978495,7.793537801064563,1.1375720430107528,136,4,25,2,3,40,31,31,0.0,0.633,0.3670000000000001,0.9073,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,2,4,3,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,2,0,5,9,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,7,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,16,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953937592942766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4859608728596303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28995247824252424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.482499013564059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220877716700893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28858322360853644,0.27833360148920305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30857157348754777,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Shot_Raisin,2019/04/29,"Is my schizophrenia returning? I'm getting negative symptoms without positive ones I was hospitalized with psychosis when I was 17 and diagnosed with schizophrenia by my family doctor afterwards. After two years on anti psychotics, a different psychiatrist thought I didn't have it anymore and took me off the meds. I've been symptom free for a long time. But right now, I'm 28 and can't stop feeling like a failure with a meaningless life. I quit my job last week because the managers were abusive. When I'm not working, I sleep most of the day and then go in my car in a parking lot for several hours. I just don't have motivation to do anything with my life. If I had a gun, I'd commit suicide, but I don't think it's worth the effort. Do I sound delusional or anything?",4.710325105358218,6.108386980132451,5.705358217941001,78.60777844671887,69.9271523178808,8.934617700180615,34.91932570740518,9.339509955726095,3.3659615894039736,618,32,114,13,11,204,102,151,0.17,0.7929999999999999,0.037000000000000005,-0.9265,2,0,0,1,0,2,15.0,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,0,10,0,14,7,1,1,1,23,23,11,1,1,7,0,1,1,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,8,0,1,4,0,2,3,7,0,0,2,8,2,15,3,15,15,2,23,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,16,75,17,5,0.0,0.19802952290718667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657545814291163,0.0,0.0,0.2750783370717571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10188491094056576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778927049232276,0.0,0.0,0.1696401156279107,0.0,0.1746221581681036,0.0,0.17107137698181665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157561497609658,0.0,0.08450927929358079,0.11940240975493327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08732196738028508,0.0,0.09498757294782573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16459586917266025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16585727106362275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362386242383061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23610702567321265,0.08165449306024834,0.0,0.0,0.14791061828732496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420935477483641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18565106774417345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11325607555845695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777703314492015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273373041360896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18881676756857876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16725728909250834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13973366898237172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18282029667884706,0.0,0.0,0.3474378146440376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709437502029516,0.0,0.13268777919170013,0.09745868681925933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18569489574265785,0.0,0.0,0.16326815769784142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13406688700342548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16111370370490907,0.0,0.12167742450326027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763048098377888 schizophrenia,fleshcrave,2019/04/29,I feel stuck Ive been dealing with this since i was 7 or 8. The past few years its just been getting worse and worse and i dont know what to do anymore. Im not medicated because im afraid of trying new meds. I was put on risperidone earlier this year and the side effects were very very bad. I hardly slept at all and i felt so out of it so i just stopped taking it. I havent tried anything else because im afraid of the side effects i might get. In the past i was taking 400 mgs of seroquel (taking it at night along with 300 mgs of trazodone lol) and it got the the point where it just wasnt working. Ive been hospitalized twice and been doing therapy and tried TMS but nothing helps anymore. I cant work. Im never going to be able to be a functioning member of society. I just feel like this is the end for me and i dont know what to do anymore.,0.9531234015345262,2.6522256358695664,2.8681329923273684,93.77737851662407,80.68478260869566,5.633759590792838,22.780051150895144,6.522977012572876,0.3795854219948849,663,22,154,6,17,222,99,184,0.075,0.9059999999999999,0.019,-0.7392,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,4,7,4,0,2,8,1,22,2,1,2,2,30,36,12,0,0,7,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,11,12,0,1,7,0,0,2,7,3,0,1,13,4,16,1,19,20,2,20,0,0,0,0,2,9,0,2,10,96,27,2,0.11079406867730802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32963383462061324,0.0,0.0,0.09117407825496658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09250841947421186,0.13507807182464154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11422381985507453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25969964667727674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255422759551636,0.0,0.0981306594262538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120416202250607,0.07915130480077054,0.10637968076035743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157706560546919,0.0,0.06296682247962877,0.0,0.08861213795203474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992497233619624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07426292879566504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4787064261165314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12177904525966793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05412838553115624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230672335656144,0.11161336806519123,0.0,0.11753499822513368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08545121600161774,0.10700560193008506,0.0,0.10397272805760804,0.0,0.10630989702843348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115309503253494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10473620670786343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11137864054780104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09164999852418383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09262880244422132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499100534600815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12670267333133176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256656997546537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18283341990464155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613188030961391,0.0,0.22581724276854245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426954954039132 schizophrenia,FerretPox,2019/04/29,I killed my hallucination and I’m scared It’s been a few hours and the body is still there. I’m freaking out because it was myself. A few years ago I almost killed my grandpas dog by choking when I was being told to hurt it and I stopped because as I was doing it my heart was racing and beating hard the echos were ringing through my head and I was being screamed at and I was crying but I stopped because I didn’t want to kill him and I love animals why was I doing this. But when I got into a fight with her I snapped because I was being attacked physically or it felt like that and I chocked her I was killing myself. And I’m shaking and scared because I hurt someone and I didn’t mean to. I regret and hate myself for hurting the dog and I have a dog now and I would never think of hurting her but I can’t let go of the feeling that I’m a monster who should die because of it. I feel lost and confused I don’t know what to do. I should’ve died when I overdosed on my meds last Monday but I didn’t.,-0.04486238532109965,2.0599326422018365,1.9924513761467888,96.30897064220188,87.25688073394495,4.03845871559633,22.481467889908266,5.108053359733372,-0.06586921100917431,788,30,180,3,25,262,108,218,0.35700000000000004,0.5920000000000001,0.05,-0.9972,0,0,0,0,1,1,8.0,0,0,0,2,6,21,7,4,9,0,27,4,3,0,1,38,44,24,6,4,5,1,4,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,11,18,0,2,6,0,0,2,6,19,0,0,18,6,39,2,16,20,2,19,0,6,0,1,9,4,0,3,14,131,50,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09445201437736082,0.0,0.10669654431451696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212184047262132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3897190547743228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11835537106063596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11704248686764973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22116853050543014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775189424325393,0.0,0.1023067328720874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060556018228136325,0.0,0.08521945414656379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09544975941876233,0.1051981466775757,0.1093532026538898,0.0,0.0,0.12626476050264626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493236267201317,0.0,0.4562649396808986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4715364800865112,0.0,0.058558251743887,0.08685418899251836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895674911976101,0.0,0.05205597760542438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11631421225664836,0.0,0.09616743715684734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606648196792853,0.11835537106063596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08217955408952829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21335449569247286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902812549721202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08509265074693177,0.17816466603749684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06827428814737717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018151049764547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06284719371659173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614670396467084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569156009069082,0.0,0.0,0.0686160638290736 schizophrenia,FluffyBadCat,2019/04/29,"I never knew it was that bad Hi! I just joined today and wanted to post because I need to let this out somewhere. I kinda just realized how bad my schizophrenia is. It started when I was about 4 years old. It started as an imaginary friend that I wold talk to in my room, because I was always alone and abandoned as a kid. Then a few years later I started talking to him more and more during the day. Like a friend. When I was about 14 I realized the first time that what I was doing wasn´t normal. I started therapy. Just recently I realized I started talking to myself In public. It´s embarrassing as hell. I have been heard by my parents and other family members, as well as some friends but just walking around in public talking to myself as if someone is with me is another book by a different author. I´m slowly falling deeper and deeper into this rabbit hole and I don´t really know a way out. I´ve only been recently diagnosed and my therapist is still getting used to my ticks and routines. I want to change my life. I have been talking to myself for 17 years now. It´s getting worse. I have been neglected as a child and that continued for a very long time (almost my entire life) and thus have developed a severe case of paranoid schizophrenia. If you have kids or want kids, don´t leave them alone in their room all day. Check in every once in a while. I woke up on my own, made my own food, chose my own clothes, took care of myself and went to bed on my own. It shouldn´t have been like that. There are a lot of things I still have problems with as an adult, like keeping up with my showering scedule and brushing my teeth, because nobody taught me anything about all that. &#x200B; Don´t neglect your children. It will mess them up for their entire life.",3.6783938294010876,5.673935839181286,4.294105666465016,85.28078947368424,73.64912280701752,6.8225045372050825,26.99778181084897,7.6298220110432995,1.6013098205283316,1395,52,260,18,29,443,176,342,0.125,0.8079999999999999,0.066,-0.9674,3,2,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,2,4,1,16,17,1,1,14,0,25,6,1,4,3,53,47,29,0,8,8,1,0,3,3,1,4,1,4,6,16,19,1,4,5,1,1,4,1,9,1,1,17,2,47,8,47,28,11,51,1,3,0,0,26,17,1,7,31,192,63,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09502854040263642,0.1965753497235463,0.0,0.0,0.0789643180876294,0.10282400071880432,0.11531376437346942,0.0,0.09951081838359706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780945307304746,0.08448102989352138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15847490308053508,0.17355029246837644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09675677159002184,0.0,0.10039150967021744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12240516772765395,0.0,0.0,0.09632139967146353,0.0,0.09915019584928927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07995725775188625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08946317872939033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08072180545358923,0.11475333434338635,0.0,0.21995827924850664,0.0,0.0991625605653748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.084351390454973,0.0,0.0,0.052154502542727584,0.0,0.0,0.10048529038289666,0.0,0.09704157620462296,0.2010918151723566,0.13908989094793262,0.0,0.0,0.08398342412685003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068050032120183,0.0,0.08979657884363114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07036707250010474,0.07319265236038998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298175168369928,0.0,0.0,0.09958147992654616,0.10106529504181604,0.0,0.07217564940308803,0.0,0.0,0.10537510698975848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09088787031113056,0.0,0.0,0.0908063866560042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060795305232571886,0.0,0.18740440254418114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720987348027132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804083763053192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358531841467125,0.0,0.15157436356393855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3813847196217047,0.0,0.0,0.10852630490473833,0.11018609693489607,0.06304727594183795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106737883292197,0.0,0.0899540077240283,0.0,0.1054372794051342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08196304278406565,0.0,0.07830235524494053,0.16792325728051372,0.07532712245376086,0.0,0.0,0.08532640605561358,0.0879731569641991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09671110441908053,0.0,0.0,0.11531376437346942,0.18333727026707 schizophrenia,Minimum_Engineer,2019/04/29,"How can I get my psychotic brother into treatment without alerting my parents? My brother's confided in me that he has been hearing voices and has other problems associated with psychotic disorders. He's worried about our parents finding out, and honestly he's not wrong about how our mom would react. She has some kind of personality disorder and gets extremely irrational, and our dad just goes along with whatever she wants so she won't divorce him He is only 16, and it's not legal for them to just kick him out, but I guarantee they will try to send him away to some special home or hospital. He is coherent enough to know what is reality and what is not, but our mom will exaggerate everything and tell lies to doctors and police until he is gone. This is not a sane, rational person we're talking about. I can given him another place to sleep when our parents are fighting, but my roommates scare him too.",8.197822997416019,7.708761482558143,8.602868217054265,67.42326873385015,62.08139534883721,12.063049095607235,40.62273901808785,11.429527900616536,4.8714824289405705,733,37,125,19,9,244,110,172,0.11900000000000001,0.826,0.055,-0.8643,4,0,0,0,3,0,14.0,5,0,2,0,10,7,1,1,1,0,17,2,1,3,0,35,24,17,0,3,11,8,0,0,0,4,1,2,1,2,6,14,0,0,2,0,0,2,6,4,0,0,3,2,23,3,21,17,3,10,0,0,0,0,37,6,0,3,2,94,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15485649691713502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138751243179828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385106417958278,0.15115785095897916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15259404115095912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13272623901820746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497783861299414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15431454593502156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16644731887831266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481361720592231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537871269745366,0.08116166355992803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459246098738314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123181218970245,0.0,0.0,0.4919471127591118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578988587632619,0.1542953042420129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14131085608245386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478545318781504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14778774113179405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11870046416596672,0.12907977988424552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10026576445041226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710613176125293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423592984504026,0.0,0.0,0.14997731308513865,0.0,0.10490840746535826,0.16146608594311346,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TynorTynor,2019/04/29,"Can we not start sharing selfies again We all know what happened last time, it got out of hand and hurt the subreddit by having selfies be the only thing on the front page for days.",6.41,6.074862222222228,5.852222222222222,85.165,65.66666666666667,8.311111111111114,31.88888888888889,7.1686216300943375,1.8393222222222223,144,5,29,1,2,44,32,36,0.13699999999999998,0.787,0.076,-0.3678,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,3,1,1,0,1,7,7,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,5,5,2,8,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,5,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675371096244087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317849836179598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3668411325514655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4440941832281742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22798489840274716,0.3381494983818298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31550407527776914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29362547942317296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756008800658032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418962041428065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwawayweedgirl,2019/04/29,"Are having auditory/visual hallucinations when smoking weed a sign of early schizophrenia? I'm a 16 year old female and I've been smoking weed for 2 months, 1-3 times a week. The last few times I've smoked, I've been having auditory hallucinations and some vivid mind picture (the only way I can describe it) hallucinations. Nothing scary tbh, and, if I ignore it, it usually stops. The sounds I hear are: -loud steps walking in a hall -people laughing -weird music I also noticed that when i'm fried all background noise gets amplified and possibly the ""voices"" I hear are just my brain fixating on random background conversations in my house/outside? Also every since I've gotten these auditory hallucinations i've been getting (visual?) hallucinations when sober. Like i'll see a person who isn't there or black dots in my peripheral vision. I actually used to get these visual hallucinations when I was younger but they always went away and weren't aggressive. Should I lay off the weed? is it me just getting too high???",4.9317172675521785,7.574966510752687,5.932972802024037,72.0135768500949,72.06451612903227,8.032384566729919,28.683111954459203,8.841846274778883,2.650655028462998,825,33,135,17,17,272,118,186,0.027000000000000003,0.914,0.059000000000000004,0.6586,0,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,1,0,10,5,1,0,10,0,14,1,1,1,1,19,26,14,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,0,1,8,5,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,7,8,13,2,9,18,3,26,0,0,3,0,6,8,0,4,15,75,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.16623397914913213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724526720329823,0.14174224789300108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16004649844624774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19016345186048164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435245908985812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3559968497610324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38398662169410896,0.0,0.0,0.17998082827504275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13885544067449662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08322287956388116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17200178536459262,0.0,0.1359692520415721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634524227912426,0.19394104855048372,0.17875039201423396,0.0,0.0,0.12955647610580118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11809707586070026,0.14874032243750102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19204050876305248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13574440610862326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409126969955113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14241761682555218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19866126777931808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712500797475656,0.18761301862335167,0.0,0.0,0.1352134219921807,0.1366419895884736,0.0,0.0,0.15791326163940986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969780376575873 schizophrenia,serialchilla91,2019/04/29,"How can I help my little brother? He is 22, pre-schizophrenic according to the psychiatrist, psychotic, morbidly underweight with an eating disorder. He was prescribed zyprexa, and now respiridone after the zyprexa didn't break the psychosis. His psychiatrist is telling him that she doesn't believe he is taking his medication, and if he doesn't start eating right and taking the medicine, he will be in the psychiatric hospital sooner rather than later. I don't live at home with them any more, but my parents are doing everything they can to make sure he takes his meds and eats, but they're afraid he might be throwing it all up at the first opportunity. On some levels, he shows a fair degree of self awareness, (he has completed his last semester of his masters degree while in psychosis), but when it comes to medicine, eating, sleeping, hygiene, etc. it's almost like he doesn't even understand that his behavior is problematic. I don't think it was meaningful to him when the psychiatrist alluded to a potential hospital stay. He is also devoutly religious, and it would not be surprising to me that he may be recieving messages from God that are countering the advice from professionals and family members. I'm at a loss for how to help him. I struggle with my own mental illness as someone who is bipolar, and it seems like the more hands on I try to get, the more it stresses me out and the worse my bipolar gets. Coming from those who are on the schizophrenic spectrum, does any of this remind you of yourself? Is there anything I can do to support him? It's hard to know where to go from here.",8.245391414141416,8.064825313131315,7.93893728956229,71.20618371212124,61.86195286195286,11.600084175084175,38.427819865319854,11.080906280650957,4.369626430976432,1286,59,223,31,16,410,167,297,0.087,0.8170000000000001,0.096,0.4161,1,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,1,2,4,11,10,0,3,16,0,32,11,2,3,2,35,48,19,0,3,6,2,2,2,0,4,5,0,1,1,16,14,4,0,5,1,0,4,7,4,0,1,3,2,26,6,36,37,7,29,0,1,0,0,35,14,0,6,11,159,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839606593329564,0.0,0.0,0.12132415258788345,0.0,0.0,0.09689153963577048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16478579285363412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09970428591745886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365057332118573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20873707575413586,0.12703386490620516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13885975851015214,0.0,0.10602785742482924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4959073594516919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13512533154324352,0.08002498066247565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10889071847345498,0.0,0.1142187841797106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305856114937227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12660210898814336,0.0,0.06885797138816475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10853548491750993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16242187313382653,0.0,0.12153327274815146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06658632025525127,0.0987615010956962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11838522813812732,0.12143406390989307,0.10698642401752098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808751835706033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458135116192746,0.12205586691715414,0.12210069642777258,0.12853152225543216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13453374644314026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10346990474580056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11029943546675144,0.12639621453721514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12124741447094285,0.0,0.10265840214820184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08575761089857126,0.1291403477295111,0.0,0.0,0.13878827239371766,0.12666264899080446,0.0,0.0,0.13749083485813493,0.11419178529298266,0.0,0.27329153089051456,0.0,0.10589910537631342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07763438081559773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08225962861644752,0.0,0.0,0.12613174364718502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12347230358131152,0.08606852682114904,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SilverVulpine17,2019/04/29,"Wondering about my experiences Hi guys I hope this is the right way to post I've never actually used Reddit before, but I wanted to talk about some of my experiences and perhaps get some outside input. I'm sure this subreddit gets a lot of posts from people wondering if they have schizophrenia and I suppose this is another one. However I know that no one here can diagnose me and I'm not asking anyone to. I'm more wondering if what I'm currently experiencing does actually fall in line with schizophrenia or something related (I'm very sorry if that's not the right way to word that). For some backstory and explanation as to why I wonder in the first place. I am 17 currently but when I was 12 was hospitalized twice. I don't remember very well what I was really thinking or feeling. What I do remember is that experienced hallucinations and delusions I can't go into to much detail because I have a hard time remembering things before age 15. Anyway I was hospitalized for self harm and well what goes along with that. Before I was hospitalized I remember my father getting very upset and worried because I wasn't expressing emotions as in making faces and using tone when speaking. My aunt also passed away around that time and I remember not really feeling anything. Which I think is what lead to me telling him something about what I was experiencing at the time. This was again brought up when I was hospitalized. They diagnosed me with major depression and there was a lot of talk of bipolar, schizophrenia, and schizoaffective diagnoses. I don't know the details none of those conversations were had with me personally but rather with my parents who also didn't really talk to me. I was prescribed antipsychotics and antidepressants. I can't really remember how it all resolved except that in the end I believe I lied by telling everyone I had been lying all along and refusing to go back to therapy. I never recieved any diagnosis from it all. Also I from what I read genetics isn't always a factor, but I feel it's important to mention my uncle described very similar experiences when he heard what I was going through, since it's part of what I consider when thinking about it all. Now as to what I experience currently most commonly I still see shapes and such that move in the corner of my eyes everyday. Most days this is just part of life for me I guess I wouldn't say I find it especially distressing. However things get really bad when I'm left alone which has been happening more lately and is what prompted me to think about it all. I always end up getting really paranoid especially at night if I'm home alone I'm not sure if I'm allowed to talk specifics here. But it often ends with me locked in a room staying up all night because of how scared I get. Which I definitely remember from what happened when I was 12 and even younger but I was a little kid then so I'm not sure I should count it. I usually feel paranoid to some extant everyday but theres 2 things that confuse me about it. For starters and the thing that really throws me, I know that the things I think and feel during these times are well I'm not really sure how to phrase it but, they're ""illogical"" I guess. I know it doesnt make sense and isn't normal for other people my age but I can't stop it, I can't make myself feel differently, or think and act differently. From what I understand this makes it different than a delusion, is it also different than paranoia, does it discredit it entirely? The second thing is when I try to look into paranoia at all it's all about social situations and interacting with people. I've developed horrible social anxiety possibly social phobia according to my therapist since I dropped out when I was 13 and haven't really been around people since. But it's not the same, my social issues stem from lack of experience and/or general confusion around social rules rather than the kind of paranoia I've seen described. So I was wondering if paranoia around other things is also something people experience the way I do. If I am indeed allowed to go into more detail I am willing to. I'm very confused but it's not that I'm freaking out or anxious about if I'm ""going crazy"". I just can't seem to find anything on my own. Now some other things I'm not sure I should mention because I don't want it to seem like I'm trying to get people to diagnose me. But I'm not sure if any of these just rule something out or if these symptoms are part of them sometimes? I know mental health is complicated and I'm not sure that's how it works but... I do have a trauma history that I remember psychiatrists trying to guess at when I was 12 it didnt seem to deter them from the possible schizophrenia/schizoaffective diagnosis so I'm not sure how I should take it. I was also diagnosed with ADHD inattentive type last year. And a psychiatrist I saw about medication recently wants to send me for some kind of autism testing? I'm sorry I'm fairly certain that's not the way to say it but it's all I can think of... I know I should talk to my therepist about this instead, but I'm trans and any kind of diagnoses like this could seriously hinder my ability to access hormone treatment... Also believe it or not my therepist is the same one I saw when I was 12. I went back to her later to talk about other stuff because I couldn't begin to trust any new therepists. So she knows all the history too. My final questions are does anyone know if I can be diagnosed with anything against my will and does anyone know if whatever testing I'm going to might diagnose me with something like this? I don't know if I even would be diagnosed it just seems important to talk about but I'm super scared of losing access to hormone treatment. Anyway if anyone reads this all the way through and maybe responds thank you so much. And if any of this breaks the asking medical advice rule I'd really appreciate a chance to edit it, if you're able to with reddit anyway. Or at least letting me know that's why it got deleted. Anyway thanks again hope everyone hase a nice day.",5.158108801930986,6.447523151952463,6.142634033587665,76.30183310491546,68.75382003395586,9.649943747826619,30.57647227279236,9.91174083871378,3.057657810869966,4875,193,896,117,83,1617,398,1178,0.10400000000000001,0.8220000000000001,0.075,-0.9869,12,2,5,0,0,0,81.0,0,1,4,6,74,40,0,7,30,0,81,17,2,14,22,232,183,99,0,33,60,3,7,3,0,9,15,4,2,4,91,51,0,2,46,2,0,15,36,14,3,6,34,20,117,26,131,135,36,111,0,2,6,0,47,34,0,53,55,634,208,8,0.03289301711864949,0.0,0.06419767966607759,0.0,0.0395310144946462,0.03214267563887025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06813449143998558,0.0,0.1841317373410496,0.05473925049475754,0.0,0.0,0.11184189795150293,0.034491196443899884,0.025163068063619846,0.037159746718988085,0.0,0.09199824948040662,0.0,0.08120445126586275,0.11712703584078775,0.06150106155003163,0.0,0.030904072354882444,0.05058539959893114,0.0274642953518294,0.10025638966790884,0.0,0.08396860464835451,0.07411833274843603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02626239764007878,0.0,0.0,0.042426549740233535,0.0,0.028330707445682668,0.3004714798457249,0.0,0.1374648078686765,0.0,0.0,0.11513960377064372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03700021697941358,0.08740035000718112,0.0,0.0,0.0434510551708704,0.0,0.0,0.06286137491230125,0.0,0.193054094503024,0.0,0.0,0.09979018667862023,0.0,0.0,0.03603269245550576,0.060127243478393,0.027978783557717667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029670684694956,0.0,0.1121631578904328,0.0,0.02630755062408299,0.0,0.10870610024319748,0.03256925838024754,0.05817437281432901,0.0,0.029465682491312727,0.0,0.0,0.03496373905029994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03299437810269009,0.06534037572098175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03433176399773121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027590468456759,0.19884856179866087,0.026812199124212302,0.03710475602881593,0.0,0.03573835934308183,0.033635338573911766,0.0232333107529859,0.04820960002110217,0.03296744445853975,0.0,0.0,0.027621850061614727,0.03679887244783992,0.0,0.0559289337777047,0.0,0.0,0.0878253773806496,0.0,0.03304545681767747,0.0,0.0,0.06627250845225775,0.03314842473540635,0.03489429312249438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034960071633953364,0.048360304602528964,0.0,0.05073824518417208,0.031768280902554895,0.0,0.061735736663528475,0.032228172927467616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06686747903271263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03652380288412766,0.10685979641513693,0.0,0.1368232587178362,0.02872091380518949,0.03436620196716912,0.0,0.0,0.0741638690692761,0.06300483585984923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03684770709349629,0.0,0.0658038368724518,0.0,0.21072109040047204,0.0,0.032477886161513606,0.0,0.2980910102796601,0.056180913789869086,0.0,0.05231569488357187,0.06586329673799894,0.0,0.02621147597028101,0.11977826963797013,0.034314590555227543,0.0,0.0,0.08162833100282058,0.03697312940475446,0.0,0.1676514431857081,0.0,0.12661325792677824,0.032532035002614236,0.07364207934670493,0.0,0.03505957969329165,0.026268405960595848,0.02750003516299969,0.0,0.0,0.03765463501545658,0.0,0.0,0.2480102348916746,0.03418843929759036,0.02473145528673559,0.18506712836238814,0.05749989356023249,0.060566941693259276,0.0376160317300427,0.03819132810382499,0.17482127190473545,0.14753562045468044,0.0,0.0,0.07672073120208472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06699659840763772,0.0,0.0,0.0342427908550673,0.0,0.0568180114629822,0.036227011265736964,0.13570091979157395,0.058203461175799616,0.13054472972431258,0.0,0.0,0.08872431804664715,0.03049215641002497,0.05936166353610205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783553697150295,0.02394650821631996,0.03340445554903552,0.0,0.023366255614322776,0.0,0.0,0.02118202458448215 schizophrenia,EducationalPermit,2019/04/29,"Do trannies have schizophrenia? Some people hear voices that tell them they are the opposite gender, and they develop such strong delusions that they mutilate their genitalia. It's obvious interacting with these people that they have unmedicated mental illnesses. They are constantly getting ""triggered"" and viciously attacking people. They have paranoid thoughts about how all the cis people are taking away their rights. They invent new genders and pronouns and then get pissed when nobody knows what the hell they are from reading their minds. This is literally schizophrenia.",10.170904761904758,13.322500122222225,7.517619047619046,64.065,58.88888888888889,10.476190476190476,38.41269841269842,10.608840637214634,5.061936507936508,481,23,58,12,7,138,65,90,0.185,0.784,0.032,-0.9432,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,12,1,4,5,4,0,3,0,9,2,1,2,2,13,15,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,7,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,12,1,4,14,2,6,1,0,0,0,15,2,2,1,4,45,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25214914571363434,0.20823943755515284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395156670654509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315970186331236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498060217079344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218083440798826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233624502128044,0.0,0.22379468086166449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21406269281520715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6146330945790711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217014285679651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18928058662612735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16664678621283993,0.0,0.1937243958816365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759585531096611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,topogaard,2019/04/29,Question: what is everyone’s experience here in residential facilities? In particular I’m interested in your experiences with staff.,9.945999999999998,14.167633600000002,12.500000000000005,23.254999999999995,63.0,18.0,50.0,13.816669648895859,10.7955,112,8,12,7,2,41,18,20,0.0,0.863,0.13699999999999998,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,8,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3902479601605223,0.0,0.7989958506374617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4575064592491242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HonkingBronze,2019/04/29,Are there any interesting things about schizophrenia that the average person couldn't just find out from googling it? I'm just doing a presentation for my psychology class and want to give the best explanation that I can.,10.420769230769233,10.271969666666667,8.958589743589744,65.56557692307696,57.46153846153847,12.928205128205128,37.44871794871795,12.161744961471696,4.59488717948718,183,7,31,5,2,56,35,39,0.0,0.7959999999999999,0.204,0.802,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,7,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,5,6,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,23,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30811994213311783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4754949475917672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4141203591971362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43464973516605415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3956248267309707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30101599428263104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26724700101821364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MeiMaxwell,2019/06/25,"Are there any fictional characters at all that accurately represent the schizophrenic experience? I've been looking for characters that best show it because I'm terrible at communicating what I'm going through but all the characters I've found are either the antagonists or have like super human intelligence for some reason, is there any that just show a normal individual with the disorder? It can be from literally any type of media.",13.803599999999996,11.395785626666667,13.512,42.71600000000001,52.73333333333333,18.0,49.0,15.903189008614273,8.064200000000001,362,18,51,15,3,123,54,75,0.10400000000000001,0.7170000000000001,0.179,0.8205,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,5,0,7,1,0,1,2,11,12,2,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,3,8,9,5,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,1,36,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5795495789630281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731716809908001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29812296987125797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255786929437008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778833862691493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31147752777100823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614484179134906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13878645712262042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23855448131984525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27833671746999844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920801193420893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,casualzac,2019/06/25,"Millennial with Schizophrenia here! I'm a 27 year old male from Cincinnati, Ohio who 3 years ago was diagnosed by a mental health professional as having schizophrenia/manic depression disorder. Throughout the years I have been on various antipsychotics and just one mood stabilizer. No matter what the medication is I can not bring myself to accept the side effects of those medications. I have been job hopping and can't seem to weigh the consequences of my actions (leaving a job without notice) due to the unbearable side effects I have taking the medicine while working. I take personal responsibility for my actions but can't help but blame the medications as well. Any advice?",9.430476190476194,10.521638299145305,8.779853479853482,61.885384615384616,59.17094017094017,11.813919413919413,40.64590964590965,11.491704259439757,5.2404832722832735,559,28,81,15,7,177,85,117,0.079,0.8490000000000001,0.071,-0.2323,2,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,3,4,0,0,10,0,11,6,0,2,0,13,16,7,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,3,3,1,0,4,0,0,3,5,1,1,1,3,0,8,2,13,13,1,13,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,7,57,11,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16568238501067786,0.15029592413891735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11529987487611125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14603324351019875,0.17208977168563527,0.0,0.0,0.1943190915222699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802238164560053,0.0,0.0,0.1136458509266493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3365046033374116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17952906351796474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5124116323283922,0.17086661145494192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930339004917305,0.1779142973745018,0.0,0.11489152853217705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14804459816579071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15435203348529064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25496113283961264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244589246990162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16344023572124444,0.0,0.12343448437627122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32755409586385936 schizophrenia,CaptainAwesomePenis,2019/06/25,"Possibly wrong sub, but *need* advice. Friend developing worrying symptoms and defending agressively. Hi. If this is the wrong sub, please guide me to the right one. A friend of mine who I have always greatly appreciated due to his unique view on life and interesting ideas has over the last year or so started to develop a lot of ideas that seem less healthy and he is defending them much more agressively. He is outside the usual onset age for shizophrenia, and I've known him long enough to think it's not a bipolar thing. My question is what to do.. The ideas revolve around good and evil, the nature of the universe, Gods purpose etc. All explained by him using physics that does not make sense at all. Normally this wouldn't be much of a concern if it wasn't so agressively defended.. trying to reason, now results in long rants of pseudo science involving God and physics. Harmless I'm sure, but he is starting to say I m talking like his ""enemies"". I tried asking who these enemies are, but it results in new rants about the Bible, physics and enemies without specifying who those enemies are. My concern is what to do. I am not sure what the proper terminology is, but it feels to me like he is slipping into some sort of psychosis and I need to do something. I have tried talking to him, but it is futile. What should I do? I thought about contacting his family, but that would be a breach of trust firstly, which I'm willing to consider if no other option is available, but I don't know them personally and I don't know if they would take me seriously. He seems to function well in day to day life.. Any advice would be appreciated.",4.679903846153844,6.403784875,5.364615384615386,79.75538461538463,70.44230769230771,8.661538461538461,31.58974358974359,9.188382445141503,2.847862820512821,1299,58,242,27,24,420,168,312,0.11900000000000001,0.723,0.157,0.9272,0,0,1,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,3,1,7,16,1,0,14,0,32,4,0,5,4,61,50,23,0,12,16,0,1,2,2,6,4,1,0,1,22,11,0,0,14,0,0,0,9,4,1,2,2,3,25,12,34,39,10,23,0,0,1,0,29,9,0,12,16,168,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21065301513258824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08968596992649107,0.0,0.0,0.07329767218614602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595173224925667,0.10076466715874503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13902515031519402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09432360644133247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11137098529014572,0.1202090554529566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161034947643496,0.0,0.05449946549947006,0.0770018105158171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168208618339008,0.0,0.0,0.1665492473522229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09040516135317317,0.0,0.11883362848527144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3650293129941196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11847191895932935,0.08785937193449496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522638319415553,0.10531686613855072,0.0,0.0,0.1907731246967966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09163517270460853,0.0,0.0,0.07194749730175821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15846913448819486,0.15984280750847862,0.0,0.1040996747266654,0.0,0.0,0.10560666877364112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07303808095512118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09411393062607833,0.0,0.11831584699891558,0.0,0.12151168441037274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12074415781648155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11082119778915048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09204802219722652,0.0,0.08571516408433229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962473031965782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297835823531137,0.0,0.0,0.15258192207610366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20317266191000333,0.11203015426639837,0.08104110067407498,0.17326741658913408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07160773664621432,0.06906444174408223,0.0,0.08556945585984486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21953734680894307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09309185678090487,0.118710234924269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09691189226692233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10390114328219688,0.0,0.0,0.10946116246398112,0.0,0.22970266630028735,0.2356925204521968,0.0,0.06941017287213316 schizophrenia,FagureFither,2019/06/25,"I'm pissed off so I'm going to rant I feel like my girlfriend does not fucking understand me. Or my illness. Nobody seems to. I am harassed, misunderstood, belittled, abandoned, and painted as insane, or even a liar. When I have a diagnosis. Im tired, I guess it's just something small that's upset me so much but there's many things. The last straw being that I opened up to her today, and told her how I'm scared to share my thoughts and emotions or even listen to certain music because I'm *scared* it or whatever is being projected will inevitably happen. I have struggled with this for ages, I literally today realized how far out and ridiculous it was. I open up to her, and she tries to fucking confirm it like yeah yeah it'll happen the law of attraction. LIKE is already so hard tk just talk about things or have anxiety because I'm scared its going to happen but nobody cares or listens to me ever and she even used to tell me that I needed to stop being schizophrenic and she yelled at me today because of what I said and I just wsnt tk die jnobosy takesme seriously and I can't deal with it anymore I just wish people would understand me I recently saw a psych about my symptoms and i was describing mt first bad hallucinations from a party where i thought demons whmerre talking tome me and my friends were going to rape me ane she just says ""I'm sure u havw enough trauma to fill a novel"" and puts me on fucking Seroquel I was on geodon previously which worked pretty okay but I ended up homeless and lost the ability to get the medication because being broke and homeless in Florida fucking sucks and the withdrawals ended up giving me a 3 day psychotic meltdown I just CABT handlw this shit.im currently in job Corp as well and one of my residential counselors fucking goes out of her way to harass me and minimize me and tell me to shut up when i have meltdowns delusions or episodes and my friends jusr don't know how to deal with it I have almost no support i haven't been able to talk to ANYONE about it at all nobody understands nobody wants to understand I feel so utterly fucking alone and I just dont have the energy to handle it anymore I'm sinking back into the hole I was doing so well i was finally feeling okay i was feeling sexure i was able to differentiate paranoia, anxiety, intuition, and logical thought process because I tend to rationalize my paranoia and delusions really hard i denied my diagnosis for a really long time until i moved to Chicago and always heard the neighbors ""talking"" about me for the longest i thought they were mocking and laughing ay my pain when my ex boyfriend would abuse me I just feel hopeless and stuck and misunderstood and stressed out because my firlfriend has BPD and I have to take care of her and it's hard and it makes me paranoid and sad and I just feel so alone and confused I don't know I'm sorry",3.7123106129750627,5.8718964239713785,4.6910262494980115,81.74945310503453,74.02683363148479,7.282406629914933,30.01281442809681,8.159919018807972,2.303965470409989,2307,104,420,38,49,750,262,559,0.222,0.645,0.133,-0.9951,3,2,1,0,1,1,28.0,0,0,1,3,34,47,14,7,16,4,35,14,1,5,4,101,94,58,1,5,20,1,9,3,4,4,6,6,1,0,21,42,0,2,19,1,0,6,7,30,2,2,20,16,74,17,60,66,3,50,1,5,1,7,31,22,8,11,24,285,95,5,0.1321401312144997,0.07828222388751148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06615962690445712,0.13685732455975075,0.07290996033385885,0.0,0.054975587347835315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108683869564812,0.0,0.1310475030523233,0.04619772607813125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0508038021902132,0.05516574503356953,0.2416541925240104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832129347400384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13472567045127473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042609726476522884,0.13623067302845848,0.0,0.0,0.0685702969822212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05781835965121949,0.0,0.07743362482752436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07431993102044465,0.11703693498717367,0.0682680394140934,0.0,0.13091596563587793,0.059764156924398966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20044206212625007,0.04720046807124261,0.0,0.07237652739344902,0.0,0.056199164053618064,0.0,0.0,0.10209113758855448,0.3664842660902941,0.03451888233839387,0.06338042730008478,0.11264742260957852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07278362607144567,0.0,0.17527662245024567,0.0,0.17755740390196434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273401707202205,0.0,0.06556434533682859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07262076035251168,0.053855921724096534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09683549018334234,0.0,0.0,0.05846992895870081,0.0,0.0,0.07212328136796721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04410228183530674,0.06698467641890006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06655864017586761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07022202366410005,0.04856910034051114,0.04899011647701427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04477078636221009,0.0,0.07030320809209861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04580466449498464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721700933991784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06641866460985632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465235169744766,0.0,0.0652362190350539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06284776228528023,0.052541568029141235,0.19844298506697866,0.0,0.0,0.06014770631071612,0.0,0.0,0.06781997289348707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05086396439581671,0.0,0.07396002921137416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055237533269361164,0.07568303692565452,0.06907077792191177,0.0,0.0,0.07497552748540674,0.06227025492772415,0.06867209594222888,0.0496764668155341,0.2124184641820128,0.11549629899351788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08778803159516131,0.0,0.0,0.2098090079768485,0.03852598657698048,0.07593782111624964,0.1878800904770265,0.06313277905818626,0.0,0.04485723759431301,0.0,0.0,0.2751250735326308,0.0,0.05706332337182143,0.0,0.0,0.038969836511529146,0.05244334277062001,0.0,0.0,0.118809847353627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759773147911723,0.0,0.0,0.048099794652761436,0.0,0.0,0.09386855792920107,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Wan2CumInRainbowDash,2019/06/25,"Mind-reading paranoia I constantly feel like people can read my mind which causes me to isolate myself. I know this is crazy, like I know people can't read minds but I still get really paranoid about it--especially because I feel like a lot of thoughts aren't my own and I'm worried that when someone is reading my mind they're gonna get all these wrong ideas about me. I have a strange coping mechanism I've developed where I imagine horrible things happening to my body over and over again to gross the person out and not give them any pertinent information (whoever is trying to read my mind). The most common one I use is two giant axes chopping off my head over and over again until they become dull from colliding into each other.",10.072558685446012,7.503618274647888,9.428732394366195,69.6161502347418,59.91549295774648,12.565258215962446,39.15962441314553,10.864195022040775,4.126432863849766,593,22,107,11,6,190,97,142,0.209,0.745,0.046,-0.9724,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,0,7,6,0,0,4,0,8,2,2,2,1,26,20,7,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,7,0,0,8,4,0,0,3,3,0,2,1,2,19,3,16,18,5,16,0,1,0,0,5,9,0,2,10,71,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766814057990676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06873811193196994,0.12453576123495193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12525214732074502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11583669766381008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185467577268325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11403078720382713,0.1611130859498785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11782602767169935,0.10817070940616368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971425670047526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11572540668038775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12729354172472393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394108874895025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16526811375428718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09586544366354167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5692827657198146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07640983072806748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15634867935095728,0.09845863163779504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5639580079976096,0.0,0.07223763964747465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09554210296274984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09005114961624397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.074913455616657,0.0,0.0,0.08951970742168222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07655737613765162,0.0,0.11015119702374276,0.0,0.0,0.0973893744985053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11451435724755092,0.0,0.0,0.12328654693631565,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,miqroh,2019/06/25,"Probably not the first So I've had a thought for quite a while as to why we seem to be so prone to addiction, aside from to cope. More dopamine receptors, idk if this would have an effect of more dopamine from a heroin hit etc. but possibly?",2.8621428571428567,4.4633331224489785,3.3956632653061227,92.53594387755103,74.91836734693878,8.16530612244898,26.535714285714285,8.841846274778883,1.7360571428571436,189,7,43,4,4,59,40,49,0.077,0.9229999999999999,0.0,-0.3744,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,0,4,1,0,1,0,8,7,6,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,9,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,30,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35372247281068164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.361872151523972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759957946460479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3657935295073642,0.0,0.0,0.3498357932268268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3451160085851676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.295387205110829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575945961812813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927855935080238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23049566371868954,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,warriorh666,2019/06/25,"What's been your experience with Clozapine? It's well known and renowned that Clozapine is much more effective than all other APs in reducing positive symptoms as well negative ones, despite having horrendous side effects. I'd like to know how some of you have experienced this medication.",9.806054421768707,11.187000081632654,9.322857142857146,57.31380952380954,58.38775510204083,14.696598639455786,44.904761904761905,13.5591,7.2416476190476216,240,14,34,10,3,77,46,49,0.062,0.6559999999999999,0.282,0.9014,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,2,3,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,3,1,9,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,2,3,6,4,4,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496672293767293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19645221723149334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746382775473851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3601061838237861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627763026582601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422260578203786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715407397085482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6428040088882941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Edw4rdNewgate,2019/06/25,"Experience with Risperidon. I just started taking Risperidon (1mg) and I was wondering if any of you can share your experiences with it. Good or bad doesn't matter. -Ed",2.181290322580648,5.032856806451616,3.5763870967741944,80.46458064516129,93.83870967741936,6.3509677419354835,25.55483870967742,7.554174236665415,2.118414193548388,135,6,23,3,5,44,28,31,0.14,0.7040000000000001,0.156,0.1346,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,6,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,2,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24144314589333865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29644820013537604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6946053425734333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977953584483773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25130306443394673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669500641673276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38503174874266827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Rong_wright,2019/06/25,"Symptoms increasing wtd? Its getting stronger, what to do?",5.416666666666668,8.330133444444446,3.2094444444444434,80.06750000000002,103.44444444444444,6.2444444444444445,48.944444444444436,7.1686216300943375,5.611844444444445,47,4,6,1,2,13,9,9,0.0,0.73,0.27,0.4515,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44911562913551056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8934736435207334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,theasticles,2019/06/25,"Should I be careful when reducing leponex medication (clozapine) Hello ive been taking leponex (clozapine) medication for a year now. The dose is 500mg/day. I wish to reduce the dosage to 300mg/day but my doctor doesnt support me and says it could cause psychosis if I reduce it myself. So i ask should i reduce the dose only when my doctor approves? Ive had a history of psychosis and schizophrenia. Thx!!!",3.3374999999999986,6.074112223684215,4.728157894736842,78.0846052631579,78.07894736842105,6.957894736842108,27.921052631578952,8.07648339933343,2.3498473684210532,323,14,53,6,8,107,51,76,0.04,0.8109999999999999,0.149,0.7869,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,5,0,10,6,0,1,0,9,15,7,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,11,2,4,9,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,38,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184118642441154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23820064888616194,0.24000165426471415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865339909108256,0.0,0.0,0.3013431504648665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47825899051552795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4707138951550038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17768561558092202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18579140198176608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265119768753575,0.0,0.0,0.17566016320715447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26866217289199906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15044961375822144 schizophrenia,DarnariusMcQuimbertn,2019/06/25,"Difference of opinions between providers? So I started a leave from work in late May. I started seeing a therapist who specializes in some trauma that I have. He has diagnosed me with schizophrenia. Looking back on my life it makes a lot of sense with bizarre things I've been convinced of over the past few years. I'm also in an intensive outpatient program with a nearby hospital. The psychiatrist there says I have major depressive disorder with psychosis. Anyone have any experience like this? Any thoughts on how to handle?",5.514086021505379,8.522318688172044,5.315268817204302,75.35956989247313,71.79569892473118,8.864516129032257,35.064516129032256,9.444778638647367,4.028432258064516,430,23,66,11,9,133,72,93,0.133,0.812,0.055999999999999994,-0.7366,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,0,7,0,6,2,0,2,0,11,13,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,6,3,16,10,4,12,0,1,2,0,3,6,0,4,7,48,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17345762160212566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29500358658414283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15166394511625195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16678537497802953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868186355029161,0.2201524499322202,0.0,0.2266179540780423,0.2485901611013757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121732080667479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446765547687847,0.2296694497318359,0.0,0.0,0.15320533104970144,0.10596807617495813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18214428102335933,0.0,0.0,0.1844035683456964,0.0,0.0,0.14478474634139402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070588992954127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17249034024784268,0.0,0.0,0.1728439780289213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30705077608767856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518416392559248,0.14410102331871,0.0,0.0,0.1721971218717568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15790830492353294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13967871920068198 schizophrenia,jordanbaless,2019/06/25,"I'm all alone... Meds: Abilify 15 mg... getting fat... no longer acting psychotic... Mood: Super depressed, alone, afraid, hate most human interaction besides with my Mom or Grandma... Job: I don't ever see holding down a job long term being a reality for me... I worked 5+ jobs before my psychosis... and even then I was just hanging on by a thread... I get so much anxiety, stress & delusional thinking when in the spotlight... I'd rather be homeless! Mom & Dad: mom = meth addict who only hits me up for money... Dad = embarrassed of me and wants nothing to do with me... Friends: none, zero, non existent Drugs: smoked a lot of pot through and after highschool... drank a lot of beer + liquor too... started light experimenting with harder drugs at 22 years old... tried ""bath salts"" which immediately triggered my psychosis... I'mmmm dumb for trying bath salts, I know... Housing: finally after 8 years of not being able to live on my own a housing agency said they had an apartment available for me... and after 6 months I hate it!! I'd almost rather be homeless What I do: mostly lay in bed watching an app called Twitch wishing I was dead... I don't know... I just needed to vent. I'm so proud of people on this subreddit graduating college & stuff like that. I could never! I don't have the attention span, interest, self-discipline, or family to help support me through something like that... I don't see me meeting anyone because I simply don't have anything to say.... blah whatever I guess maybe it could happen but I have nothing to offer anyone anyways... good day 😳",2.712649769585255,5.298835051020411,4.002587228439765,83.25785055957869,79.4421768707483,6.378582400702218,26.49067368883037,7.601502580125103,1.7423018652622342,1211,50,218,19,31,396,189,294,0.067,0.851,0.08199999999999999,0.7263,3,2,6,0,0,0,104.0,0,0,1,3,11,16,3,3,10,0,19,8,1,1,3,35,40,11,1,7,8,5,0,3,1,0,5,2,3,1,9,7,4,1,4,4,1,2,9,7,0,1,5,8,28,8,32,28,9,28,0,1,3,0,16,10,1,8,18,129,37,7,0.0974190922472085,0.0,0.0,0.10620119014754824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09755114872685967,0.20179359901421892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3166606372457508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745253389213332,0.0,0.0,0.13623538881193106,0.0,0.08016761227484334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059385774422575074,0.0,0.0828964722471901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09947578529188272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15556243619142654,0.0,0.0,0.06282725521902945,0.0,0.08390692140292645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22595043698389145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06434439164794023,0.08812114628588777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09529456547596657,0.09183805009348814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10671785374920736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07526574901168642,0.0,0.1017949097488267,0.0,0.0,0.08171051255943282,0.0,0.0,0.10731811323587452,0.0,0.08614738154271362,0.0,0.0,0.19236236971430998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06529796402697241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22481710543116207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29002025112846896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10707797073940636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09518809528712936,0.0,0.08602284325479281,0.08621283103872644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16564445697774088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09787057217828858,0.0,0.10821064992437504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.342288190286666,0.07775898999936792,0.0,0.07161424198611645,0.0722350225084694,0.07513560963758263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18695249283728774,0.0,0.1022249496582375,0.0,0.0,0.07409160952642586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06753813235656457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266786547474716,0.07747157227103214,0.0,0.0,0.155260807257266,0.0,0.10162935952839564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499797667812629,0.0,0.0,0.06895373490589021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11159324102442232,0.0,0.1115215533094382,0.0,0.1105500314136586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06242222070147292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228233775738268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05746030464904992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11202714830548363,0.0,0.0,0.07092225941175663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12546940279359994 schizophrenia,IPlayedATooManyVidya,2019/09/21,"I'm bored. I'm so bored. I wake up, I do some of my college work before the anxiety hits me throughout the day. I only hit my vape for nicotine to feel some sort of something. I'm just bored. I hardly ever crave the nicotine. I don't know how to get out of this rut. I feel like posting this won't provide any enlightenment either. I don't care about myself. I wish at times my plan to kill myself when I went broke hadn't been interupted. Life is boring living only for myself but I've seem to have lost anyone worth living for. Do any of you experience this boredom? How do you cope? I'm so broke on money. $79 a month in welfare only goes so far to keep the boredom at bay. I know I shouldn't spend it on nicotine and alcohol, but I'm addicted to not wanting to be fucking bored. The word keeps going through my mind. Boredom. It's like it is taking me hostage. I just feel no desire to participate aside from things will get worse if I don't. What shitty motivation y'know?",0.9563457232422756,3.179716719211825,2.9475526197940027,90.36488468428124,83.7783251231527,5.267263770712047,21.04993282579489,6.574015621080383,0.3703123152709353,766,24,161,8,22,257,118,203,0.205,0.7170000000000001,0.078,-0.9711,0,0,2,0,0,1,24.0,0,2,0,4,10,13,2,0,6,0,15,5,1,3,1,31,40,10,1,5,7,0,4,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,8,2,1,2,8,0,3,2,8,10,0,0,4,4,24,3,25,30,3,16,0,3,0,1,2,8,1,5,7,96,32,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16701484162474256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16372835415356066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20836778232635897,0.0,0.11720054793815393,0.0,0.0,0.10712371421872986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303652168528353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15620156493136356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09880382757994664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13858167945463548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14986279097772096,0.0,0.0,0.2323934531356687,0.10944888162033556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14163451724846485,0.160085406823454,0.0,0.08706929490206565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13724058308876705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723492935260779,0.16949739283988424,0.0,0.2525905354689705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10821243036750897,0.14969535310153806,0.0,0.2705636635964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16724013144526814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546922440630272,0.0,0.12228587440123136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3495553603566832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467269664187667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139471057316635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11794383075812045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11519025039335345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10178184952783392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08933441375636693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09036361708694167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420215305238388,0.0,0.0,0.17617689976842354,0.0,0.0,0.11153424840970956,0.0,0.1561278410622245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,-_-__-___--_,2019/09/21,"Feel like I might be slightly schizophrenic This post will probably get removed for violation of rule 3 but here I go. Usually; at night time, I either , A. feel like something is watching me but I can't grip exactly what it is Or B. Occasionally see a blurry oblong shaped object move at incredible its size often varies. Usually when I see it, i try going to the place I saw it ( if I can get to it with breaking any obvious rules) And find nothing is there. When people describe hearing voices, I don't know if they are describing hearing voices in their ears or their head. I have a voice, the voice is me, I control the voice. The voice controls me to a major degree. Doing what the voice says often yields positive outcomes. Sometimes the voice tries to predict an event and usually either it does happen or the exact opposite thing happens Now its telling me that if make this post, I will get down voted to oblivion as I will just be ""making it up all along"".",5.019652605459059,6.2196896666666674,5.850215053763439,78.60301488833748,69.0,8.518775847808106,30.436724565756826,8.841846274778883,2.517891315136477,762,30,139,13,13,250,118,186,0.019,0.925,0.057,0.8233,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,3,2,8,3,1,0,12,0,16,3,2,4,4,31,33,13,0,3,11,0,3,2,0,4,1,12,0,0,14,4,0,3,4,0,0,4,2,1,0,0,1,19,20,2,15,26,4,23,0,0,4,0,7,7,0,9,11,98,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09110238716064972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30051153324734997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117235724629618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13547582775540404,0.1914125931821576,0.0,0.0,0.1224437244583974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099772222227394,0.0,0.15227345658550642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369337579221472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13748914347431693,0.0,0.3019818639711589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07362494815175002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13089935365388106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17884848342191853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14211818021548342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423860842625153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257192761877015,0.0,0.1285452787061478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287608755902847,0.0,0.13996735991603634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.256607365156934,0.0,0.14443945421276824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653620819114372,0.0,0.0,0.21350925508543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313460567629387,0.1324971277408541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11709336261201335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900194989922602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07811743502702401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18191006406876886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4426383045782402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mosby_Norm_and_Oscar,2019/09/21,Just grocery shopped So my machine at the checkout wasn’t working so they had to move me over to another machine. After that I started hallucinating. A group of pigeons looks a lot more amorphic then I was comfortable with. One of them called me a hijab wearing nazi... today’s been rough.,3.2183333333333337,6.0644163888888905,4.0903703703703735,81.7666666666667,79.55555555555556,5.822222222222222,33.074074074074076,7.1686216300943375,2.46554074074074,231,13,39,3,6,74,45,54,0.0,0.9329999999999999,0.067,0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,0,4,0,4,1,1,0,0,3,6,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,4,2,7,1,8,2,2,7,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,1,4,31,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39384846747074703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3835287360034489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31540869662692583,0.0,0.0,0.3193209735627725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39920246484042293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545157108278462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658510180500274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3560240852244878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734406612311441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kwk9898,2019/09/21,"Please weigh in on my unmedicated friend's condition A good friend I've had for many years has schizophrenia. Early on she would be depressed, hurt herself, etc. She went to a doctor about 5 years ago when she was around 15, but they said she was too young to be prescribed? Anyway, I've helped her stop cutting and check in on her every now and then. Nowadays she seems completely happy and healthy, with a little crafting business where she sculpts the hallucinations she has into things like earrings and trinkets, along with paintings of these like, benevolent beings she sees on occasion. Her art isn't disturbing or red-flaggy at all, just a but off-kilter, and fairy-like. I believe channeling her psychosis into her art has helped a ton. She seems to be coping with her condition very well and is tremendously kind and caring- one of the best humans I've ever met. However, I recently saw a YouTube documentary about an unmedicated man suffering from severe schizophrenia, things like communicating with god, believing the CIA was after him, in and out of police stations and mental hospitals, stuff like that. I watched someone who was already pretty wacked out degrade even further until finally it ended with him living on the streets and being hit by a train- an apparent suicide. I never want this to happen to my friend, ever. The thought of this absolute flower of a human being even possibly ending up like that shatters my heart to think about. I brought it up to her and asked her if she took anything for what she had, but she thanked me and assured me she was fine the way she was and didn't need any medication, that her depression had tapered off and she learned to live with her psychosis- even showed me some nice art she made based off a person she had hallucinated. Given all I know about her, she seems... fine. I want to believe her, and I guess I do. She looks fine, she has a good relationship, a side business, she's never violent or has outbursts of depression or anxiety, all of this of her own accord, unmedicated. I know this was very long winded and I probably sound foolish with how I've interpreted a lot of this, but I suppose I only want to know one thing. **Can schizophrenia be left untreated? Or will her condition gradually get worse as she gets older, independent of her coping mechanisms, no matter how fine she seems right now?** I've of course left her alone about it. But I'm fucking tearing up, and I'm scared. If there's a chance things can go downhill for her, just let me know. Personal experiences, a little bit of data, anything to either put my mind at ease or.. I don't know. Thank you for reading, if you got this far.",6.399999999999999,7.294976830000002,6.457350000000003,76.59642500000002,65.7,9.37,32.625,9.435801123606538,2.9534200000000004,2125,85,382,39,32,676,254,500,0.10800000000000001,0.708,0.184,0.993,4,1,0,0,0,1,71.0,0,2,1,1,23,34,3,2,22,0,33,5,1,4,8,82,72,36,1,8,16,0,0,5,3,2,2,2,0,5,20,30,1,1,13,7,1,5,6,11,1,2,22,6,68,23,65,39,11,58,0,5,4,1,61,30,1,15,27,271,88,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06947202728485329,0.0,0.0,0.08116973051461153,0.08648542343156145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05329563059827014,0.0,0.05995434648378972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12898691566307574,0.06976767371593373,0.07326721733552077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648951346770688,0.0822465527636837,0.0,0.08556189871099887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799054518938511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08217152486592354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025050020969098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08021703748108558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13882861591404907,0.0,0.08740546899930962,0.15529185134822582,0.14178387682475832,0.06603176922778267,0.0,0.0,0.07666283010935525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08585266799578238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18164998079533226,0.07245362816613901,0.0818922446741163,0.0,0.0445405995662441,0.13146938886188564,0.06268122795154947,0.0,0.08633556637322969,0.0,0.06930407880647163,0.0834284248786637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928711679108226,0.10506216587868436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08389882033641127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08161235192456312,0.21535593971830214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17030276064905872,0.08014065446476351,0.0,0.19144294170874646,0.15709861633367528,0.13840777981466493,0.06935673179427332,0.06581272064798868,0.0,0.0,0.06662905067258848,0.0,0.07415745785137515,0.0,0.079456881844227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895151982363155,0.07898051767589111,0.0,0.07913335357274767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05811182653337001,0.12089059744464735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10621375730200687,0.05960541868555552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686277152323367,0.0,0.08602889406312544,0.0,0.08835262638712885,0.0,0.0797324739712739,0.08449824461750742,0.0,0.0,0.0787854815204817,0.0,0.0,0.07839318372940511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07738287060486344,0.08414217142879303,0.0,0.06692923856935243,0.07454969537878643,0.0,0.07846401923666281,0.0,0.062452317348605874,0.2853876109601316,0.0,0.08853802423485503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06640432022630605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06552248049841752,0.0,0.0,0.08971716122730078,0.08572622053862959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14430877024058655,0.0,0.0,0.2082674314994785,0.05021759716080133,0.0,0.06221859404238009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08707414808158327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12933017456826915,0.13867746449149426,0.062208025966752525,0.0,0.0,0.07046581776458483,0.07265160614844196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07986773819308564,0.055673202551770884,0.0,0.0,0.10093796495366672 schizophrenia,northernsky-,2019/09/21,"rant I feel like I have inner self and that it is the true 'me', but as soon as I'm supposed to express myself, whether it would be in person or I have to write something, the disconnect comes out. Sometimes in the night I have logical, fluent inner monologue in my head but when I try to think I should write it down, so people can understand me, I just can't do it. Like the energy to write (give away myself) and to think are two completely different things, like I physically can't take the pen and write that exact inner monologue. So I'm forced to live in my own head. But during day I don't have that inner monologue, my mind is quite empty and disjointed and chaotic, there are no words, but there is inner monologue in some soul level without words, someone who is judging myself, who comments on everything I feel without concrete words on some feeling level. It's like there is this period as a baby when you have only senses and some understanding about the world, but you don't have words yet, your brain hasn't made the connections with words, because I'm pretty sure my mother didn't talk to me personally. I feel as I'm somewhere in baby level, something inside me KNOWS things, but I can't word them with words. I can't express it how awful it is to be me, with everything I know about world, I feel as I don't have the normal human experience, it would be ok if it was pleasant for me personally, doesn't matter that different than others, but it's not even pleasant. Sometimes I even think I don't know what love is, what friendship is, what humor is, what's going on at all. I distance myself from the whole humanity in my head. I feel like I have combination of different mental illnessess, and I even analyze such things as what 'mental', 'soul', 'spirit' etc even means when people so casually use these words without me even understanding what all these things are. Sometimes I feel like a fucking genius in a voiceless body, other times less than human. My experience of being a human is so surreal, I always ended up in most bizarre situations and I'm not sure if that's good. My problem right now is that after two years of isolation after my breakup, I can't study anything or work. Like I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin, it's disgusting, no ways to express myself, etc, even when I suffer physically like right now, I rather die than express it. I don't which subreddit I belong to, I have diagnosed unsepcified szhisophrenia without voices or hallucinations, all I know is my mind is disjointed and I only write this thing here out of boredom because nothing waits me today like any other day. I live in complete inner nothingness with no desires, hopes, dreams, thoughts guiding me.",9.418620256345818,7.313745741811175,9.171128424227195,69.50124654435788,60.753371868978796,11.80065343051018,37.979475580129005,10.276239652853533,3.7947058892519054,2156,80,388,36,23,702,215,519,0.134,0.741,0.125,-0.8024,3,1,2,0,0,0,60.0,0,3,1,2,29,24,2,0,13,2,48,9,6,3,7,96,83,38,1,10,21,1,9,9,0,3,1,1,0,8,39,16,0,1,21,2,0,2,23,4,0,2,4,10,62,20,57,72,13,54,3,1,0,2,28,33,1,10,27,289,101,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05655922402879821,0.0,0.0,0.04622416934737433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05593622747564441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06386314521750296,0.0,0.0,0.08287177558762976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07550300374053387,0.0,0.07588067379872313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0585529721442979,0.14253740647390767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876742998794488,0.0,0.0,0.06899146038011797,0.0705455453199698,0.21305286775158136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060204161018791676,0.0,0.151616376635645,0.26937430909094684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221800235059097,0.1329818449221556,0.0,0.0,0.2749547097420691,0.14568039979352754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06284021298909268,0.0,0.06520617531606243,0.03863078819167741,0.057012772215372376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20928062313587836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675128160346804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149425374136766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988748523175427,0.0,0.1200433240272952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06134854973037996,0.06431797225425832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07404284185535995,0.0,0.0,0.13700218135001033,0.0,0.1372672954803565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06378832974466478,0.06659939389627058,0.06522220675996643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10339350285993977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09424824383755437,0.17805496971958978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06915327462985131,0.0,0.06504126028699556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722979628582624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609763964481475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07091096780199692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0764048279853422,0.0,0.0,0.05759354958523887,0.10465832184943777,0.20168197107504587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281280462363702,0.0,0.051107456075038825,0.05463435718980442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257921736525773,0.1306636222888288,0.0,0.05396320102203392,0.03963577309235808,0.0,0.06443073274571352,0.0,0.0,0.04614940326798851,0.0,0.13280005842311754,0.21228778200335632,0.0,0.05870709975309955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053954035157740714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07588975286114183,0.0,0.2620953107632163,0.0,0.049485366009679295,0.0,0.0,0.09657255253293724,0.0,0.0,0.04377257134611207 schizophrenia,perspicacitygirl,2019/09/21,"Schizophrenia symptoms seem to be getting worse with age. Schizophrenia runs in my family and ever since I was around 16 I've always heard voices calling my name or saying random things. Lately that has been happening more as well as some weird things visually, like seeing things that aren't there, sometimes faces or creature's or just things distorting themselves. But nothing is consider malicious yet. More or less things that make it hard to tell real fake. I was curious if anyone has had any sort of similar experience to me or any helpful words?",7.09809523809524,8.893153989898993,6.255007215007215,75.40727272727275,64.65656565656565,9.293506493506491,32.324675324675326,9.606745405546679,3.2618069264069263,451,18,71,9,7,137,78,99,0.107,0.799,0.094,-0.1082,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,0,0,9,2,1,1,1,20,15,10,0,1,8,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,9,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,5,5,5,2,9,9,4,7,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,10,5,49,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459706906527621,0.0,0.0,0.2385949963192887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12266379146702225,0.0,0.0,0.15616869212913342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791322664319825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15868525800985506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716028824730856,0.1653785191005966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09165422942398427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15513097642453366,0.0,0.15714961330074634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758612666614565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19789115908875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08570557747342752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11709998654731925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16832852165372686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19967621068059016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13950790420240636,0.0,0.0,0.13979392175918184,0.15970365492967195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14511639266300808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17350342121057075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823375384756957,0.0,0.0,0.15333237301543404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5827350020798265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577314250853661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17877678232057265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,YetAnotherSEONerd,2018/12/11,"how do i stop hearing voices i think they come from isolation &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; i hear them since lastfew years mainly in evenings &#x200B; &#x200B; they usually talk behind my back some chit about me like am idiot etc &#x200B; &#x200B; at first i believed they are real (for first year or two, damn lol) &#x200B; am early 20s &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; is there any way to fix without perscription meds? they make me very unconfy. i like being alone but when they are happening i cant feel good at all",10.001935483870973,10.237459301075274,7.5242150537634425,74.24632258064518,58.13978494623656,9.590537634408603,41.18064516129033,8.841846274778883,3.8833070967741934,437,21,66,5,5,125,68,93,0.129,0.8340000000000001,0.037000000000000005,-0.7621,0,2,0,0,0,0,49.0,0,0,6,2,6,5,2,0,0,1,8,0,0,2,1,12,15,4,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,3,0,4,15,3,9,14,4,14,0,0,0,0,9,3,1,2,11,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04510156281566626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5190147642915727,0.5820581364028269,0.02961345585341973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033484957902362146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049062560967237885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03751188783190487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04856642033319925,0.02876238528795873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02201867354675112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07408211832010707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03652516068797476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03850847161688306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816127629535913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04254973279497913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02906796316394286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048370904218268895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04956602394171635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036022531520172534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03640724505677249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035001432098468635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027903161664334927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042539095055344034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04796087237738191,0.03593083872073387,0.0,0.0345655846457816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04197775765502052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5820581364028269,0.05608568536548019 schizophrenia,Justintown11,2018/12/11,"I blacked out at some point and I literally thought I had died; I don't remember any of it. Hi, my name is Justin, and I wanted to introduce myself like others have done. I got diagnosed about a year ago and was sent to the psych ward for a whole month. I'm on my medication now but when I was going through psychosis, things were fucking crazy. I remember believing that I had some kind of direct connection with God itself and at no point did it occur to me that the things that I had believed were not aligned with reality at all. Thankfully, I called my mother and when I had questioned her as to whether or not I had killed my own father, she knew that something was wrong so she picked me up from my college town and brought me to the hospital. At some point the doctor finally came and asked me for a urine sample and my mom was there and when I peed into the cup I just totally blacked out. At some point after this, according to my mom and the doctor, I literally thought I had died and that the hospital wanted to give me a sex change operation. After this, the doctor realized that something was truly wrong and they ought to send me to the psych ward. I remember being wheel chaired into the room and thinking I saw some of my family members and according to the doctor I wouldn't keep my clothes on and I was jumping from table to table. There's a lot of other stuff that went on but I think this tells enough without going on and on about random delusions. I am very thankful that I'm on my medication and doing well because of that; it's almost like everything is back to normal except this invega sustenna they are giving me is causing sexual dysfunction, but they are putting me on a new drug soon. Anyways, that's my story.",7.020322997416023,6.238798732558143,7.333682170542634,76.5226873385013,64.5813953488372,10.667700258397934,33.93669250645995,9.994966539143718,3.1486917312661493,1380,51,269,26,18,451,170,344,0.078,0.833,0.09,0.6352,0,0,3,0,0,1,25.0,0,0,3,0,14,10,2,0,17,0,28,11,1,2,2,63,52,27,3,5,10,4,0,2,0,2,8,0,1,0,23,24,0,1,10,0,0,9,6,4,1,0,25,4,49,6,48,24,11,45,0,0,3,2,20,23,1,10,15,213,72,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08144613942114261,0.0,0.09200461929033436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06248159913984279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858954637042673,0.0,0.0,0.07065010335929092,0.0,0.05600923862320757,0.0,0.0,0.20703475354600015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09381982553596256,0.10508632435946197,0.0,0.09438614268599324,0.0971969325010702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932563382404564,0.1907140158932609,0.0,0.0,0.3761725847928416,0.0,0.0940252129499936,0.0,0.0,0.10655171263741214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949366746741442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08257588356237767,0.0,0.08661635404085757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065012697255887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08494164531849742,0.0,0.17627947305761374,0.1044351237167517,0.0,0.07348488636869498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08166722894551398,0.10165168565342443,0.09567895530212267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977592352485599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0781131508992422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18511901098555025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21521765792206204,0.07333779627059309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873834533709668,0.0,0.0,0.0900229618213711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3474254623122435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09236484903439736,0.10292670752227873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122466292701546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414675353774998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518069944650962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030723203508093,0.16918165022760168,0.0,0.0,0.1220820733591006,0.11774607938194237,0.0,0.14588502690975888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07581068122611508,0.10838649308671552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08261121839077945,0.08517374653936502,0.0,0.10258081830433033,0.0,0.08856910991992772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20091286863454846,0.0,0.059167753467122025 schizophrenia,mybadmyman,2018/12/11,sometimes i feel like im going insane just remember to breathe deeply in and out. ,1.9987500000000007,4.755171375000003,3.017500000000002,87.67750000000002,85.25,5.7,26.75,7.1686216300943375,1.6513499999999994,66,3,12,1,2,21,15,16,0.157,0.698,0.145,-0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23185525489732536,0.3275862293525415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606029553439735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4953096903868694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22402301215026235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5194446177877476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4535149308108775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ancient_Owl,2018/12/11,"Any reliable ways to work from home? Yesterday I felt like getting some food and orange juice at the store. It was a particularly bad trip, leaving me feeling paranoid and reassured that I do have schizophrenia. Until recently I've been beating myself up about not being able to hold down a job, as if collecting social security was something I should get away from as fast as possible. Turns out, there's a very good reason I collect social security and it's because I'm generally not fit to work in social environments. One thing leads to another and my perfectly reasonable brain gets tricked into think all kinds of inappropriate things are happening when they aren't. &#x200B; A friend of mine, who was visiting the other day mentioned that she might start working from home, and suggested that I look at some work from home options as well. They always struck me as being sketchy. Does anyone know of a reliable company that I could apply for where I could work from home? It could be data entry or something of that nature. I would also like to keep my social security disability payments, so it's a plus if it could be considered part time.",8.099060031595577,8.404571445497632,8.100675355450239,68.30260860979465,62.03317535545024,11.39352290679305,36.54067930489731,11.038039088145766,4.24630774091627,929,40,154,23,12,301,138,211,0.079,0.8,0.121,0.8451,1,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,2,8,7,13,1,0,8,0,19,2,1,3,2,35,32,18,0,8,5,0,2,2,1,3,0,0,4,0,14,8,1,5,6,0,1,3,3,2,1,1,5,3,17,11,31,16,4,22,0,0,1,0,13,10,0,7,10,110,31,7,0.09969596009296368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07972682326718476,0.08295502527419342,0.10802053110819397,0.12114150377956767,0.06779667158335857,0.10453990680836624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06970973334353185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09366763629766177,0.0,0.0832419623745896,0.06077373192822415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11129366289733476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31839644720050386,0.0,0.0,0.06429564661896431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08724460651657186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0504092729514338,0.0,0.09572375610355187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12055275067644627,0.0,0.07702485146130199,0.0,0.15626107304869702,0.0,0.0,0.08362024128318901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881608082592434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4000127067398677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09893285705326296,0.08861435008329233,0.0,0.10381800080914473,0.054790292392491904,0.0,0.0,0.10556362677820356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09741282052792688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08371949740892702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10576165883670112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755656271071911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079610094802914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11239221541155342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050081026285456,0.09843773318155924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4065099052258997,0.0,0.15350164156697424,0.0,0.0,0.07056531368609023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13246713188658726,0.0638811456811387,0.0,0.0,0.058133516063880564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10844057616552856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08225960808228032,0.0,0.0791340126568247,0.0,0.0,0.08963864112705355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3628992316041579,0.0,0.0,0.07082114963320693,0.0,0.12114150377956767,0.0 schizophrenia,XxolMasterBootinloxX,2018/12/11,"Schizophrenia Help Background: I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia by my psychiatrist at the age of 13 and OCD at the age 10, I am currently 14 years old. But I recall having delusions and OCD symptoms before that. This is my attempt to try to help those with this specific problem I'm about to address. Problem: I always think, commenting on what I'm doing recalling past even when I'm dping something. Songs playing in my head constantly, talking in my mind so much that my physical body moves automatically, foget everything, can't understand conversations, feel disconnected with physical things. What I did/am doing: I'm taking antipsychotics and antidepressants as instructed by my psychiatrist and am going to a therapist. The therapy sessions helped me alot and I've taken notes and summarized what I've experienced Probable Solution: • To stop general abnormal thinking: change focus on sensations and focus there, dont stop thinking by controlling your mind or by telling your mind to stop. Just switch focus to physical sensations • For example: 1. Feel your body, shirt and what you're looking at, ambient sounds, games and such. • For the procedure: 1. If you dont know, hold something rub it on your skin and focus the sensation there and thats the general feeling of changing sensations • Important Notes: Don't enhance attention, it feels like tightening head Even if it's weak there is still the sensation and it will grow stronger once fed.",6.875275590551182,9.277928220472443,6.877173228346457,68.37678346456694,66.00787401574803,11.379212598425198,37.10944881889763,11.20814326018867,5.144266771653545,1184,62,180,40,20,377,149,254,0.059000000000000004,0.87,0.071,0.25,1,0,2,0,0,0,32.0,0,5,0,2,11,5,0,0,9,0,14,10,6,1,0,43,32,19,0,4,5,0,6,1,0,1,3,2,1,0,15,15,1,5,10,3,0,3,4,3,0,0,3,10,17,2,28,28,2,23,0,0,1,0,13,8,0,4,13,110,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950213428382833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971735332852576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536950224103666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24161130721955806,0.0,0.0,0.12340676532193345,0.12808203772091367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159079057795257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676768859382424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508525444816552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10263321412996447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23096644436015404,0.08158260921066066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649009853283251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23439885278810824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296322283262049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06275987669738407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05579105657332523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09589701213697537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459203065891153,0.0,0.0,0.12137370980989128,0.0839481915054867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11983090810640902,0.12161645008525852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090142916771263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231240573228888,0.21854288132446095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17582939745197435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119815072499153,0.2864222924870152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11869477138395595,0.08586219469393871,0.09178750370829554,0.09981351680500117,0.0,0.13059462140711806,0.1325919243834174,0.07586764461944698,0.2195191511764199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07753250411421718,0.0,0.0,0.11888346808440875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07353934888983502 schizophrenia,hoganagogo,2018/12/11,"Am I being over medicated? I need this sanity checked please. For a long time (over a decade) I was on a low dosage of AP. I did have problems on it but it wasn't enough to land me in a ward. (paranoia and heard things). Fast forward to now I had something horrible happen to me, lets say lapse in care..., I ended up on an OP order and a doctored increased my medication 2.5x the old rate, which I'm not worried about, but I was also reclassified as schizo Affective (Manic type) and lithium was applied. &#x200B; At first I was like umm why? (didn't really have a choice) then I'm like eh lets see what happens, It got to about 2 to 4 weeks and I ask the doctor when do I reach therapeutic range because I haven't noticed any changes or anything (I'm fairly good at picking this type of stuff up, more so if I'm activity monitoring for it or had it explained to me). Later after I got out I asked my friends and family if they've noticed any difference in me, the answer was no. &#x200B; So I asked my doctor what was the reasoning for the lithium was diagnosis wise and they said they weren't sure (This was a different doctor then the one that administered it) They said if they had to ""guess"" it would be because I had a history of going manic. I said no I have never been hospitalized and later realized if I was manic during those years I wouldn't have the saves I would have now. Then they say well then it must have been because you were manic at the hospital, which I replied no I wasn't. Now she argued with me saying yes that must have been the case, however I then asked her, with the issue leading to the order, would the doctor tell me week 1 he was applying lithium and then leave me unstable for 6-8 weeks before he added the lithium? Their face then looked confused, and then (I'm not 100% confident here) looked like they had a look of wtf. I was then told they would look at the file. Next consolation they didn't bring it up, so at the end I did. I don't clearly remember what was said but lets just say I didn't get any form of relevant answer. When I saw another doctor I was asked bout why I'm questioning the lithium, I told them the above and asked for their opinion. I was then told that they couldn't tell me and I would need to see my doctor but they added ""Maybe you haven't been tested without it"" which I laughed and pointed out the decade I lived without it. They won't take a position of power and provide information to the diagnosis and haven't as far as I know held anything back before. &#x200B; Am I right to assume I'm probably being over medicated. Like even if the orders removed I'm still going to talk to the doctor before stopping lithium because there is no point in going off it if I end up in a ward again and they shove it down my neck. I would rather do it promptly and if not stop the lithium I would consider changing mood stablizers or skipping lithium doses now and then to give my kidneys a chance to reset. &#x200B; TL;DR So the fact that I wasn't going manic on a small amount of medication I was put on 2.5X (roughly) then lithium was applied Lithium was added on top of points 1 & 2 (The AP is ranked high in it's effectiveness at holding off mania than lithium) My doctors reaction didn't seem very constructive The other doctor I saw refused to comment and added ""you might not have been road tested with out it"" I'm on this order which makes medication changes hard ",3.874414899680803,5.174958763081398,4.91856019151847,83.82646260829917,71.83430232558139,7.779799361605108,27.734382124943,8.251243910053105,1.7955753191974466,2711,98,544,41,51,889,278,688,0.079,0.848,0.073,-0.3925,3,0,1,0,0,1,87.0,0,3,15,6,22,17,1,1,39,1,75,19,3,6,6,90,127,54,0,22,22,0,2,4,1,12,16,10,0,0,35,24,0,5,12,0,1,10,26,4,2,2,51,20,77,12,73,57,5,97,0,1,8,0,51,44,0,17,45,377,112,15,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03774920099144795,0.0,0.2557287856773625,0.22943319636634155,0.09630147335387844,0.04949774482436372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07769010881559861,0.0,0.2647774648219845,0.0,0.0,0.03629713462185795,0.0,0.1151010276112771,0.0,0.12050195396678418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04812785250876385,0.0,0.14980743025448254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09863673464156282,0.0,0.4831552362294762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12542679489973582,0.04877458202254397,0.0,0.03117794485174305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04449994145213197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040151888940371736,0.0,0.0,0.0364698664764921,0.0,0.02466225883136994,0.04528259309192472,0.1073089936052819,0.039592663620547364,0.0755070604676105,0.0,0.05200077474302022,0.0,0.08348507902776241,0.0,0.042285712976148936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049873854497117134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04926894596115188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025942207090993902,0.0,0.0,0.04998245761382029,0.0,0.14480855210579502,0.0,0.09224639815207844,0.0,0.04168219473831832,0.041774252934818144,0.15855863836448014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03150918616118113,0.0,0.04742298782897732,0.0,0.0,0.2377664484309665,0.0,0.05007622219232258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07000266815656721,0.03640680770594612,0.0,0.05020222789460844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10748464410491232,0.0495328926311912,0.0,0.03198680393312432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05181606294477114,0.13386974870168794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050894137481422456,0.0451680674335836,0.0,0.047453283156283214,0.05287953423254902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030240234718210062,0.0485338042697711,0.0,0.0,0.05347318403863655,0.040312149497242725,0.17960810726806514,0.15015477470421545,0.0,0.0,0.07523131017836122,0.04297295279164373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03634011793377154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03769735437549099,0.07892969009487223,0.0,0.0,0.05403754313020523,0.0,0.0,0.04448942261420792,0.0,0.03549170191614223,0.03794096730061334,0.08251714501993819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03136038902233311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02752516270315564,0.0,0.0,0.1353169771790294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038948428542917225,0.0,0.0,0.113593143873932,0.0,0.042442266502523134,0.0,0.08518894028042275,0.0,0.0,0.091006375171254,0.0,0.0,0.04793818096314225,0.0,0.23472768532278915,0.0,0.22943319636634155,0.030397972695769673 schizophrenia,_Mephistopheles__,2018/12/11,"I think my problem is more dissociation than psychosis I can't deny the psychotic symptoms I've had. Mostly just delusions. But more than anything it feels like my problem is an identity issue. I think my identity is pretty ideal. I'm mostly happy with my personality and my body. But I always feel disconnected from it. I can't picture myself like a character in a book or a movie. I don't see myself the way I see other people. Sometimes I stare at a mirror and take a few minutes to reacquaint myself with the figure staring back at me. I have a history of self-mutilation. Not self harm, but deliberate mutilation for the purpose of changing my body. I tried to disfigure my face with a knife. I tried to cut my tongue off, and very nearly succeeded. Now I'm starting to believe that these things were attempts to make myself more unique, partially as a consequence of being an edgy teenager, but more than anything to try to distinguish myself so I can keep myself in mind as the protagonist of my story. Is there an illness that might better describe what I experience than schizophrenia? When I look up dissociative identity disorder, that's more like a multiple personality disorder, and I don't have that.",5.167468043264506,7.209300800884957,6.536755162241893,70.56013765978372,69.75221238938053,9.270009832841692,32.46705998033432,9.725611199111238,3.5611030481809247,975,45,159,24,18,330,126,226,0.078,0.809,0.113,0.7013,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,4,6,11,1,0,17,0,15,5,3,1,0,29,28,13,0,3,7,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,3,10,7,0,1,6,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,7,31,7,29,24,8,12,0,0,5,0,3,7,0,4,7,126,41,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11314024646287292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22378802649680574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045546755996249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15319476168893462,0.0,0.12025687520960307,0.0,0.3020702139598548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384117310129338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116731746370044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133007471088354,0.0,0.0,0.13750384734108942,0.09713898201678113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447455539296826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14192025667507094,0.0,0.12085885545127972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992882978471327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11418289053961055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09076288725850533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14424563319166553,0.1372937474710748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09426640587434897,0.23745237555777474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13833320151903722,0.0,0.2602151760561524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21670540423035434,0.0,0.2836985305864088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13448055736485054,0.0,0.09624223434065868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14132778265499987,0.102234609397685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09033427390528932,0.17425173563157584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769497787237771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11219178466411504,0.0,0.10792886465884216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ConciousUniverse,2018/12/11,"Raloxifene - the new breakthrough? So I watched a ted talk by this beautiful woman about treating schizophrenia without medication. Or really it was about her finding a breakthrough, I just happened to search up schizophrenia treatment without medication. So I’ve read some studies and have seen that raloxifene, which interestingly enough is a “SERM” (selective estrogen receptor modulator). Basically helps the negative and positive symptoms for schizophrenia without the horrible side effects like from other drugs such as respiridone & haldol. Anybody know about this drug or have any clues about it? I would love input from anyone interested & especially if you’re taking it specifically for schizophrenia. Personally I’ll be seeing my psychiatrist about Raloxifene as drugs such as abilify and respiridone have ruined my sex life & energy/vitality. ",12.041567164179106,13.762743567164181,10.139514925373136,52.2009141791045,53.62686567164179,12.968656716417911,48.09328358208957,12.38480682065935,6.997838805970148,714,42,83,21,8,218,94,134,0.046,0.7759999999999999,0.17800000000000002,0.9603,0,0,3,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,10,6,0,0,6,0,7,10,0,1,0,15,13,11,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,1,8,0,0,2,8,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,3,6,5,18,9,2,3,0,1,3,2,6,2,0,4,2,59,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4712888710559931,0.0,0.09859797479879656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10138017650299358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5044260977001592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14981312875895714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13251796835060842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12821392183388658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09718354644958206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07968255288006856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024105201213965,0.07083464865736716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13085887417038708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921237585337729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14003196553358854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12659942237346605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14502894640672834,0.0,0.09288412098429287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11553802709417893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506998243956706,0.10901421782722667,0.11653723689152184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4192947197922268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10299653011978756,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MidwestUnidentified,2018/12/11,"Mind if I hang around here? Recurring psychosis doesn't have a sub Hey guys, sorry if this isn't the right place for this, I can leave if you don't think I fit in, but psychosis doesn't really have an active sub, and I need a place to go to help others in a similar situation, and maybe get some help myself. The doctors still aren't quite sure what I have, though schizophrenia was originally on the list of potentials, it appears that my symptoms are so weird that they gave me the blanketed term of ""psychosis"" to describe this whatever-the-fuck-I-have-itis. I guess I just didn't know where else to go, thanks for reading guys, I hope you all gave a comfortable evening.",4.834302422723474,5.760662639097745,4.901152882205516,86.24457811194657,69.22556390977444,8.617878028404345,28.311612364243945,8.841846274778883,1.9314835421888048,533,18,111,9,9,166,87,133,0.07200000000000001,0.752,0.17600000000000002,0.9569,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,1,1,8,5,0,0,9,0,12,2,0,1,2,19,24,8,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,8,3,0,0,2,1,0,4,6,1,0,0,4,0,14,4,12,20,3,17,0,0,0,0,10,9,0,7,4,70,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566393429021424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18009979939640886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14698978407791408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11621816741988683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16266973087033335,0.09193045081855336,0.0,0.2000012291345911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19383685402568404,0.34845087266969005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23588099976099025,0.0,0.0,0.1747653467782805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09670155557972733,0.0,0.0,0.1863134229867498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17677280414944396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17766675947584595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13047014237700585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676759515367228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18715229629581667,0.17600496237524,0.0,0.1127227813766926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15026661191441992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19778342902381665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19696984280376215,0.0,0.0,0.14051976366404667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16583771606431108,0.1828870551698688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619978834147315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127463623542882,0.17287719888246314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,yasqueen302,2018/12/11,"People who have schizophrenia, does this sound like the onset of me getting it? Please help! read full thing Hello, So I am a 20 year old female and I've been experiencing probably one of the worst things of my entire life. This past mid october, I started feeling very strange and unlike myself. I had panic attacks that led to basically me being severely depressed and in the hospital. I lost a desire for everything. All the sudden, I lost a total peace of mind and my thoughts began to feel like they were not my own. I was bombarded by these crazy hard to describe thoughts and couldn't think clearly. Not to mention, my short term memory became weak but my long term memory was very strong. Like, I started having memory pops of things that happened when I was extremely young that I typically would have forgotten. They diagnosed me with major depressive disorder, however, I really don't feel like this is the case. They put me on prozac, however, I felt like it wasn't working and everything seemed really weird, so I went off of it. (And yes i told my doctor this). Everything felt dreamlike, like I was living in a constant dream. Everything seemed unreal, I would look up at the sky and it felt odd, and I felt totally disconnected from everyone. I felt like when I interracted with people, I was acting the full time, in like auto-pilot mode. This eventually went away for two weeks. Oddly enough, as it slowly went away, I noticed that I felt better at night time then I did during the day. Two weeks go by, and then the feelings come back. This time, even somewhat worse. I literally could not shut my mind off. Everything i thought almost terrified me in a sense. If someone talked to me, I would overthink about them talking to me. I couldn't enjoy conversations or anything really. I became severely depressed. I could barely even watch T.V. This then turned to me not being able to listen to music, when the lights were turned off I felt uncomfortable, and looking at certain images or even colors my mind would tell me to look away. I couldn't appreciate anything. There is something extremely wrong with my thought process and I don't think it is just depression. I feel like a totally different person than who I was two months ago. This is honestly like waking up in a neverending nightmare. I just want it to stop...I feel like I'm almost dying in a sense. Please help, I know i have to see a doctor anyway but I wanted some advice from people who have the illness, what the onset is like. It is this unpleasant? This literally feels like hell, like everything I think is tormenting me. I literally feel like I am being tormented. Is this the onset of schizophrenia?",4.1800199600798384,6.563297261477048,5.003497005988027,79.01969660678645,73.39121756487026,8.445349301397206,26.70219560878243,9.150863307647796,2.4893077045908183,2132,78,375,50,45,690,233,501,0.16,0.6890000000000001,0.151,-0.7761,3,0,1,0,0,0,70.0,0,0,4,5,14,33,2,1,22,1,41,8,1,1,6,78,89,26,1,13,11,0,16,15,0,4,7,2,0,1,31,16,0,0,25,2,0,8,10,13,0,4,30,26,64,20,49,47,14,60,1,6,6,0,18,24,1,9,43,259,95,4,0.05406686085581223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05283351068196738,0.04792700994096561,0.0,0.10828030241045278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08898483937846095,0.0,0.0,0.061508859568946625,0.15239278663878175,0.04157407864996974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04781774473012252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04657381322024722,0.0,0.058427068980923286,0.0,0.08633597786571487,0.0,0.0,0.03486865241219904,0.0,0.18627083212065512,0.05487672567016931,0.05611286551186148,0.0564883620495912,0.0619653066739134,0.11067944618996356,0.04731427428506702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05586552024697667,0.0,0.10713195503566472,0.0,0.0,0.05166320253214858,0.2915508497153447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21870263500879314,0.2317522571907712,0.3633886566631504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028247703269774018,0.0,0.030727442995655455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04781114649624472,0.0,0.0484332875130537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07247975430227463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029713732755788994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03818902276949624,0.3962150578727927,0.0,0.0477420286864919,0.04784747047250421,0.13620763809605332,0.0,0.11804073092243425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16377635020462036,0.0,0.04315565250716847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05073808632357993,0.0,0.0,0.06155547943708314,0.056734075443232335,0.0,0.03663710417725535,0.0,0.0,0.06343581185834908,0.0,0.0,0.051612936479698016,0.11244946099428804,0.047209097443254334,0.0,0.11869835449217232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05829322056735739,0.0,0.0,0.054352128527263316,0.0,0.0,0.05408149211621322,0.0,0.10390984657598773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043084288042009665,0.09844087902770016,0.0,0.12216032649395607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0458106757495346,0.041623310954633695,0.0,0.0,0.07653760478869903,0.0,0.0,0.04520231662922912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08691378947922519,0.04725681948133716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775885975222366,0.10393158393674252,0.0,0.17169219277020856,0.09458046407760473,0.0,0.0,0.05166320253214858,0.0,0.0,0.1176184378423884,0.15844640050193884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922164509155857,0.06378007071363948,0.0,0.08673834903152003,0.0,0.0,0.1503615650581133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03936131863623624,0.0,0.05509875027321996,0.15363018679179172,0.05911362478782078,0.0,0.03481728573947891 schizophrenia,BlueBoxGamer,2018/12/11,"I Need Help With My Roommate Hello all, this is my first time posting here so let me know if this isn't OK, but I need some help dealing with my roommate (Referred to as They/Them). To start off, They haven't specifically told anyone that They are schizophrenic but I, and others, strongly suspect that They are. It started not too long ago, but there have been a couple of incidents that have set off warning bells. The first few months living with Them were very quiet, as They are a quiet person, but what has been happening recently has me scared for Them. We got back from a short break and the first thing that They said to us is that we (me and some other housemates) stole some of Their things and threw them away (wouldn't tell us what) and that They would bring legal action against us if we didnt give Them new ones. At first this made us mad and we confronted Them, but they said They had solid proof that we disposed of these things. We found Their things in one of Their storage boxes and told Them about it but They didn't say anything else to us. A couple days later, a friend came to us and showed us some messages. They'd been saying nasty things about us behind our backs, all of which were mean and pretty much baseless, but it seemed They believed it all wholeheartedly. We tried talk it over with Them but it seemed like They weren't getting it and kept saying They had proof over and over again but never presented it. What really set off the warning bells is that, in what seemed like a moment of clarity, They said Their mind works differently and that They can convince Them-self of these things. The next day, They replaced Their bedroom doorknob with a lock and key version, even though I'm pretty sure none of us have ever gone into Their room. There are other, smaller signs that I won't say to protect Their identity, but the signs are there nonetheless. They haven't made any threats against any of the housemates and They don't seem to be dangerous in the least, but I just don't know how to deal with Them. I'm afraid that by leaving Them alone They might just sink deeper into it so I want to try to help Them through it, but I'm afraid that if I'm too pushy with Them it might make Them more paranoid. All I want to do is make sure that They have proper support from Their housemates but it feels like They don't trust us at all. What can I do? Any advice would be very much appreciated. TLDR: Roommate is very possibly a paranoid schizophrenic, trusts nobody, and seems to get worse as time wears on. What can I do to try and help Them? Any advice appreciated.",6.099186351706037,6.249107921259843,5.299433070866144,87.228375328084,66.24409448818898,8.190656167979004,27.366404199475063,7.554174236665415,1.25288719160105,2056,53,426,18,30,615,216,508,0.094,0.767,0.139,0.9788,2,1,0,0,0,0,52.0,18,0,42,6,19,19,4,3,15,1,48,3,1,5,11,97,88,39,0,10,19,0,1,3,1,6,2,9,2,1,46,33,0,2,12,1,0,5,14,7,0,6,23,10,75,12,57,55,16,50,0,0,0,0,82,17,0,14,27,312,121,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10808491232816576,0.04902368402889843,0.0,0.0,0.05727829425710064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15043454217091104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0386698623084197,0.0,0.04551050289205729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05195995486793525,0.08505076774199552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0623087012654969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06325307494954463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12238571031744686,0.0,0.0713330458325977,0.11403204909445905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05778093846956525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04619941899361535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036527788954744365,0.050025659603607504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027963378291711142,0.039509208702631984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881663120930483,0.0,0.06063801224383435,0.0427277548983968,0.0,0.05778814415275337,0.053052663081252366,0.0,0.0,0.0442316833657463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04890516937689962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14827649702260198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060787295002680077,0.0,0.0,0.05855898045361418,0.0,0.05655211566290759,0.0,0.08105626380019545,0.0,0.04883447000153142,0.04894232452463389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10466001710834763,0.07383173635750591,0.0,0.0,0.06024229949833024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11733766831586286,0.05584130294328254,0.0,0.044143147573327206,0.0,0.08130964798721797,0.08201447211646902,0.04265387583185786,0.05341297493007765,0.05881646126170875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07495088139785648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04828934413388837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06234698206468304,0.052965971444572865,0.1125281574059468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03542917652145874,0.0,0.05460605579030023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15782038556533134,0.1759199314459025,0.05536897996259027,0.0,0.0,0.2517335503991049,0.05769416263612946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07828895143076157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062758355670113,0.10424678391714866,0.0,0.0,0.044451282882366765,0.0483381581558578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22044923304476685,0.0,0.05433592678372773,0.0,0.06449644702028264,0.0,0.0,0.10569073764362646,0.0,0.11264341442094974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6652393636141565,0.0,0.0,0.1368948451894272,0.06523949726589733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04026199110189595,0.0,0.056359529357426365,0.0785727895800138,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AnotherCrazyChick,2019/01/23,"I am so scared :( I haven't been able to find any support subs or info. But then, I haven't been able to sleep and I'm rather panicked as well. My SO of 13 years is having an absolutely awful episode. Due to several triggers, he hasn't slept for almost an entire week. He is so scared and panicked and I haven't been able to help. He needs meds and he refuses to get them. I just want him to be ok. I have no idea what I could possibly do. Advice please?",-0.0746204311152745,1.9992776391752607,1.960431115276478,96.71341143392695,87.04123711340206,5.176757263355202,18.096532333645733,6.574015621080383,-0.19730103092783446,349,9,83,4,11,116,63,97,0.196,0.68,0.124,-0.8676,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,2,2,2,15,2,2,1,0,17,21,11,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,4,0,10,3,9,15,0,4,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,2,4,51,11,0,0.5576799603740553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18165280097740544,0.0,0.0,0.18614530787041408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264138322383527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14842068984243376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699031268525164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712158730130388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12460037401656217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20985093140807629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20648557200930484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13783754142674748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040550427805604,0.0,0.20956678745598484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3722232855934092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100065393110003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18602757005730255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210949536741984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964469653938744,0.0,0.14911240849180604,0.0,0.16714041968235366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11970920340839075 schizophrenia,CommunistSandas,2019/01/23,i don’t think i have schizophrenia i don’t think i have schizophrenia and all that i went through is real. i’ve seen a lot of weird shit and heard a lot of weird shit that might be just hallucinations. if i’m right that means something really wrong with everything and somethings really wrong with me.,5.423644067796611,6.5099506440678,4.962500000000002,85.75527542372883,67.98305084745762,8.611864406779661,26.614406779661017,8.841846274778883,1.6706915254237291,244,7,50,4,4,74,36,59,0.293,0.7070000000000001,0.0,-0.9467,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,2,0,7,2,2,0,1,15,14,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,3,2,6,0,5,9,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,4,0,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852144408989986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3504094160792937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244852008258149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186218840886828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345679877344005,0.2640445624667218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17599406842042148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4230832271067468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173060867161066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640997991175188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910413448091633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4506396181089847,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thirstypineapple,2019/01/23,Journal Diary Entries I’m seeing a lot of artworks being shared but does anyone have any written notes or journal entries they would like to share? (Please keep posting all the art and thoughts as well!) ,5.613423423423424,7.862269621621626,4.528108108108111,84.56531531531532,69.0,4.933333333333334,33.954954954954964,3.1291,1.6936198198198196,164,8,26,0,3,48,35,37,0.0,0.799,0.201,0.7929999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,8,8,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,4,3,4,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,1,15,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379260669031351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446397779115165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061767724316247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109837591447551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.170930583411116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974500496581648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38405618199271796,0.0,0.0,0.33508222469793325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27880398578532845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277760581919577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145784125947637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485401892491046,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Briz95,2019/01/23,Kratom and Schizophrenia I've been using kratom lately. All seems to be going well but I'm really curious about the experiences of others. Anyone have sz symptoms worsen with kratom? What are your experiences with kratom and how did it affect your sz?,4.526666666666667,7.697708333333335,4.7022222222222245,77.38000000000002,76.77777777777777,7.155555555555559,20.11111111111111,8.238735603445708,1.4655777777777774,205,5,32,4,5,64,36,45,0.08900000000000001,0.804,0.107,-0.2193,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,3,1,10,9,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,1,5,6,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235222712055343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6254016051038604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181677107545356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3606042239686112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20479023017607112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910176119845627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33226186993470885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760941874289178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874237454582937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mr_Hawkman,2019/01/23,"I usually only post to /r/Schizoid Hello. So I am tech diagnosied as emergent paranoid schizophrenic. &#x200B; Recently I have been feeling more and more watched by people. Stalking my parent's house (where I live). I feel like I should just flee the town. &#x200B; I've talked to my work about this (DVR: Disability Vocational Rehabilitation) but they haven't been any help. I'm stuck in a corner. Do I let the people capture me or do I flee tomorrow? I have half a tank of gas. I live in Wisconsin. I've either thought about going to the police directly. But then again they could be apart of it it. Or you aren't it's hard to tell... I'm just super scared of these people capturing me.",1.7026690079016689,4.40378470149254,3.2468042142230047,85.82396400351186,86.31343283582089,6.436523266022828,23.553994732221252,7.724431198458867,1.501660755048288,546,21,105,11,17,179,89,134,0.086,0.836,0.078,-0.2366,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,2,2,7,3,0,1,5,0,13,1,0,0,0,13,20,8,0,2,7,1,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,4,4,17,2,13,12,3,15,0,0,1,0,8,6,0,2,6,68,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3458252200528916,0.38783170914190507,0.10852473427336308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274173533118519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16138411589251567,0.11400909163355917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09069705486250132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14295874002154435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696790249197552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841421441743208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631886729296747,0.0,0.07796622028570949,0.0,0.28183675391656204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137321862014748,0.0,0.0,0.17720264387731546,0.0,0.0,0.331912907120181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15284037545106569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15757305759274426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597745770542636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282701058760361,0.13948620292720626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669437080515028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17576269909318906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618134565625488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38783170914190507,0.0 schizophrenia,matadora5,2019/01/23,"Friendos? There was a post here asking for friends, but I think it got deleted .. Either way, my friendship with my best friend was put in the can because of delusions, as well as my relationship with my boyfriend. If anyone would like to talk via text or DM that would be awesome, I could use the extra support",5.423644067796611,6.5099506440678,4.762500000000003,87.18917372881359,67.98305084745762,6.5779661016949165,31.69915254237288,5.985473137389443,1.51255593220339,244,10,47,1,4,73,50,59,0.0,0.612,0.38799999999999996,0.9862,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,3,0,7,0,0,1,0,11,12,5,0,4,4,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,6,6,8,5,3,4,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,1,35,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17283482973270908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23108103820267595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15067935432018895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25940140068632106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19735406054492047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3819431361728648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19769337170992052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12076023994208393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23673124520686686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484853598530793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653800845383891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804982761520479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19867487106882095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15838372071400905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21348517808585235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19620091696818115,0.0,0.0,0.22224556792259245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35118083949652,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,I_dooo,2019/01/23,Need help with severe hallucinations and don’t know who to talk to It feels like whenever I’m thinking a thought in my head everyone around me can hear it. I was diagnosed with a drug-induced psychosis last year and was told I had really bad auditory hallucinations. But I’m convinced that I am actually talking out loud every time I think but my five senses are telling me I am not talking whatsoever. However people are reacting to my thoughts but no one I interact with tells me I am talking out loud. Please help. I need someone to talk to or a good recommendation. ,4.416197757390414,6.462372495412843,6.021406727828747,73.46332313965344,71.75229357798165,9.615086646279307,33.21202854230377,9.994966539143718,3.6745649337410793,458,23,84,13,9,156,71,109,0.065,0.789,0.147,0.8318,1,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,0,10,2,1,1,0,22,22,6,0,2,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,8,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,6,4,14,3,12,16,0,7,0,0,0,0,13,4,0,1,4,53,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.14543717899610706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13267321938631751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12443844263102205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126792614053186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728338995664211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12556886217668914,0.142409836034816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07535684216586146,0.10647101266676504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12500393192180126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295345089929224,0.0,0.16797387428636346,0.0,0.1997907489302021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08190602986915277,0.12148384874937596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281123205770795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210159146768462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10099033244070983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332247142722123,0.0,0.0,0.16359625780374287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09547597702046601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16836772802787736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12627732123411642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5989455696827386,0.2605272450803387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909919001254332,0.0,0.23663512734860415,0.08690381626398394,0.0,0.0,0.142409836034816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597399522902399 schizophrenia,chimknnunget,2019/07/26,Advice pls I need to get back on meds but dont have money to see a psych (no insurance). Can i get a year long prescription? Or maybe 6 months so i dont have to keep paying for a 15 minute appt just to get a refill? Do they do that?,-0.4892452830188674,0.9334861132075504,2.1251320754717007,98.70618867924532,84.09433962264151,5.749433962264153,14.373584905660374,6.742157984588678,-0.7828686792452832,176,2,47,2,5,61,38,53,0.0,0.961,0.039,0.1754,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,7,0,0,0,0,5,13,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,6,13,0,5,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,4,28,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478064847960315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19499605753813806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5944142332387572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39747296519706143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254036005220583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244203217072998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547665472679215,0.0,0.2816827678153345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024141573944379,0.0,0.0,0.188034736762128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20207943465839245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16330448379959867 schizophrenia,tigreblanko,2019/07/26,"What are some good activities to help my recently diagnosed brother (age 23) I want to set him up for success when he comes back home. I was thinking of signing him up at this Muay Thai/BRazilian JuJitsu school nearby to go to 3-4x per week also getting him a gym membership (he used to work out 5-6 days a week 2-3 years ago) I was also thinking of buying him a PS4, are video games good or bad for schizophrenia? What other things are fun/social/rehabilitating inside and out the house? Thanks and god bless",5.686765676567661,5.7862907623762405,6.396782178217823,79.18283003300331,67.11881188118812,9.10957095709571,30.69471947194719,8.841846274778883,2.2967610561056104,401,14,80,6,6,132,75,101,0.033,0.7609999999999999,0.20600000000000002,0.9447,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,4,6,0,0,4,0,5,1,0,1,0,12,13,6,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,5,0,0,2,3,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,8,5,14,11,1,17,1,0,0,0,9,5,0,2,9,44,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824743628225292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292377090949189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15828660124909305,0.17187686571261945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17732228449152598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13275677200045402,0.0,0.0,0.2089342849217004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10754857567165056,0.0,0.11698978485626868,0.3453158616614935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13797748910407578,0.0,0.20648519183834485,0.0,0.0,0.2375242488588529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032528854974021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20833205533515844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20983902348717934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18951981055182912,0.0,0.0,0.13675816132343468,0.2638018322633156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17778904576247515,0.0,0.0,0.12141616782042815,0.0,0.330242278650398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498618742719138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132561201676195 schizophrenia,smokedzn,2019/07/26,"What is happening with me? Hello. Normally i'm very emotionless, just sitting 24/7 at home at my phone. At the beginnging of the last week i got firstly very manic. I was so god damn happy about everything, over the complete week. Was going outside, felt strong and happy and everything felt perfect. since 2 days, i'm getting more and more paranoid. Right now it's getting so much worse. My fan started talking and singing, i tought i got attacked by a giant hornet and ran trough my house thinking i'm getting chased by the hornet, my hair drier was whispering to me something. I'm still very happy and feel fine, but it's really confusing me because i cannot do anything against this paranoid shit. Does somebody has any similar experiences? What could that be? What should i do next? Thanks for any anwser.",4.112923368022706,6.610863721854308,4.636296121097447,81.03319536423842,74.03311258278144,7.493093661305583,30.65326395458846,8.418075326091056,2.639166130558184,646,30,111,12,14,205,101,151,0.11800000000000001,0.747,0.135,-0.3016,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,3,6,11,3,1,5,0,11,2,2,0,1,18,29,9,0,3,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,7,7,0,0,4,1,0,2,1,4,0,1,8,5,13,7,12,18,3,18,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,1,9,64,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18478925251798686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11180745711428937,0.0,0.0,0.1545690080791106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828236271299612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14245459231633556,0.0,0.0,0.10847922196708136,0.0,0.0,0.08762336115771352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11889865127523815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442180739540925,0.1329045825407776,0.0,0.0,0.06869874030038015,0.0,0.26090840339913274,0.0,0.0,0.11556891010189875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129556378798324,0.0,0.0772166874484488,0.0,0.21733146094817626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12014726887865387,0.4339007560006714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13628627952861927,0.0,0.0,0.15677296704233448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075022700068624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09987831821888576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444967326713601,0.0,0.13312139936747056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08704026285784948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11603018697774906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13946613766287894,0.1123910817158074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10459751541994476,0.0,0.0,0.09616778571288018,0.0,0.10850403988142236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10920522931450076,0.0,0.12508863055564184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705847119571428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33631499456261593,0.0,0.0,0.21796958464485056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13846069063569352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Blinedid,2019/07/26,paranoia of blindness i have a looming fear of blindness. it is almost as though i know that i will become blind eventually. and the combination of blind and schizophrenic makes for hell on earth. i don't want that.,2.9407500000000013,5.9311415750000025,3.4600000000000013,84.50500000000002,83.25,6.2,25.5,7.554174236665415,1.64935,173,7,31,3,5,54,31,40,0.39899999999999997,0.601,0.0,-0.9425,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,2,0,4,5,0,1,0,6,7,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,6,6,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4250709388461504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4688219441013686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4776754698313113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332916328816527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28335405174010164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4170646870519533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503784523537076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,streek12,2019/07/26,"Changing meds So I’ve been back in my medicine for roughly4 months now and I go back to see my doctor next month. I started off feeling better, but as time went on , I went right back to where I was.....audio, visual, and tactile hallucinations, suicidal thoughts, and just generally feeling down and out and just wanting to die. I feel like shit constantly and don’t want to even move from my bed or do anything around the house. Of course, instead of getting any kind of encouragement/support, my wife just yells that I’m lazy as hell and refuses to believe that it’s my mental health keeping me from doing anything. I feel like the worst father/husband ever when she tells me things like that......I know it’s because of these damn symptoms but I really hate it. So anyway, to get to my point, I’ve been wanting to try different medication combo (currently taking haldol, buspirone, and lamotragine) and was wondering how I should go about telling the doctor that I want to do this without sounding like I just want different meds or that there is actually nothing wrong. I’m so worried that he will just think that I’m perfectly fine and don’t need the meds that I’ve never said anything in the last several years that I’ve been on medication and keep getting put on the same ones, and I always stop taking them cause they aren’t helping and go right back into a downward spiral and have a complete mental breakdown. Any advice anyone can give me would be great, really just trying to get out of my own head at this point and build up the courage to go through with it...... Thanks guys for any advice.",6.612826637712632,6.826555713355052,6.513132464712273,78.74445801664858,65.15635179153095,9.167499095186392,33.342200506695626,8.841846274778883,2.6991970322113654,1272,50,237,18,18,402,172,307,0.135,0.721,0.14400000000000002,-0.6856,4,0,0,0,0,0,43.0,0,0,2,2,24,17,4,0,9,0,17,8,2,2,3,58,54,26,2,8,11,1,4,4,0,3,6,3,1,1,16,20,0,4,8,0,0,8,5,6,0,1,8,8,24,11,39,42,3,45,1,0,1,0,12,19,3,3,22,151,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.08007362225972535,0.0,0.0,0.1603659497297235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06827614470953831,0.0,0.0,0.16740017899640525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05737460540448959,0.0,0.20257226087586588,0.07304614491598482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523802231115471,0.0,0.05001982823771089,0.0,0.0,0.0924476306603172,0.0,0.0725707789298664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08429285527222329,0.08680307014424263,0.0,0.08603286871456739,0.08867205951399904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515989997364708,0.17145954739386698,0.0,0.16797307499264216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05419640392980177,0.07422324023200254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16595743553129425,0.1172398929728578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714809295868674,0.07871441552253564,0.18653447462260275,0.0,0.0,0.090465677312404,0.0,0.08124712626326852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08101210084456789,0.0842118702739635,0.08722038703154839,0.0,0.0,0.05499958494537648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946801915770862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14586810550971488,0.0,0.08544741952969108,0.045095157523042134,0.06688559199622211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16035127007545086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734330658480415,0.16532310312812198,0.16538382412412445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309906745015924,0.08721123831113567,0.0,0.06084257473701132,0.06328569973449566,0.0,0.08726618236352582,0.0,0.0,0.07873376807205673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0556024380255474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15513656655087107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248771091111233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10513277789882944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14014865622606798,0.07805287982301871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06538703070364059,0.0,0.0,0.09269853793845448,0.08422804569917917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058078790920509486,0.0,0.0,0.06860146470168345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08975460403138373,0.0931147844202007,0.0,0.08528632773658826,0.12338995545409248,0.0,0.14343897726102298,0.07554501090692102,0.0,0.0,0.054513545358172204,0.05257738554500045,0.0,0.06514232444374257,0.04784679821544869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114196097944937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.241990156479245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15213119395970734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909787339130246,0.08898490149077078,0.0,0.08333060538443865,0.0,0.05828935673119433,0.08971401349921046,0.0,0.052840583774876826 schizophrenia,Acelimb,2019/07/26,"I don’t know what this was Couple of years back I had this weird thing happened to me after I woke up. I had a voice talk to me. Which was definitely absolutely not mine. It kept saying I should kill myself and that I was worthless, and my vision was absolutely dark in the afternoon. I got up walk to the kitchen and just sat there till I got my vision back. I still don’t know who’s voice that was cause it definitely wasn’t mine.",1.9883333333333333,3.781986,3.4819444444444483,90.13625000000003,77.8888888888889,6.722222222222222,20.13888888888889,7.645422480735847,0.4362222222222214,340,8,77,5,8,112,54,90,0.10800000000000001,0.785,0.107,-0.2675,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,3,0,11,1,0,1,0,10,19,4,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,10,3,1,1,2,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,13,3,16,0,9,5,0,11,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,7,58,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42345164866301854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28285852271205997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30466762489392624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4404423320712149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434895668856713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046320658613507,0.0,0.30264841776308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189679969422249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219893485075856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213145103971848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18292915642745627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17731525901614276 schizophrenia,dontlookatme30,2019/07/26,New account. Missed this sub. Helped me a lot. Struggling with severe mania rn. The risperidonw has me in reality still but the seroquel wrecks me. Xanax for panic attacks. I get full blown face tingling from hyperventilating. Yes I am schizo but I feel like out of my 3 Comorbid diagnoses hearing voices I can ignore is the least of my troubles. Have hope guys. If you feel negative energy force yourself into the fear of fighting it away.,2.5684583333333317,5.5589502625000025,3.5300000000000047,81.62833333333334,90.125,5.666666666666668,25.41666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.752041666666666,351,15,58,6,12,112,67,80,0.313,0.562,0.125,-0.9645,0,0,0,0,2,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,1,10,2,3,5,1,5,4,1,0,0,11,11,3,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,8,0,0,0,4,10,2,10,11,3,7,0,1,0,0,5,5,0,3,3,40,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822704379800795,0.2331153535224531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518348982306882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792021201352662,0.2509121816107293,0.1772557958819572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12963159502173469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456761715442989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27964740851290176,0.0,0.16630849714144672,0.0,0.0,0.24643750199931397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12121809086130332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21094134488174796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396342445862052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911134188206957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28030310677916725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19814763153724527,0.0,0.0,0.2593871673953523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,balastman,2019/07/26,"I need a help with my grandma. Hey guys, I need help with my grandmother. She is 79. She lives alone in her flat. She never had a partner since my mother was born. Original father never wasn’t with them. They were alone. My mother married to my father and had me and my brother. I visit my grandma at least once a month, sometimes more. We go to strolls sometimes. My mother go to strolls with her sometimes as well. I am sorry for grammatical mistakes, I am not a native speaker, so bear with me, please.",1.297121212121212,3.83530085858586,2.6456818181818207,90.78852272727276,85.86868686868685,4.512121212121213,23.40151515151515,5.985473137389443,0.5456121212121214,391,15,76,3,12,126,59,99,0.078,0.8009999999999999,0.121,0.6486,0,2,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,8,0,0,1,2,15,12,4,0,3,1,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,1,0,5,1,23,1,12,7,2,10,0,0,0,0,20,2,0,0,5,56,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3897625533185454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21387600652626465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18631205777998835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522448810069735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16615236159372204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501908020555663,0.0,0.0,0.2790426153204174,0.2902475321372925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20038864233378467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20654769454469527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15565130103898842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5582973656640196,0.2106343224352149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691821377222626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CoffeePie87,2019/07/26,"What is one way a medical provider can better help? I know some providers will baby anybody with psychiatric issues, or they’ll look down on them. But I’m the type to treat everyone with respect and dignity. What’s one way we can better help? Also, I met the nicest person pt last night and it turns out, she’s schizophrenic. Nicest person ever though.",2.5113805970149268,5.3266570597014935,2.998638059701495,88.48064365671644,82.88059701492537,6.335074626865673,21.807835820895523,7.645422480735847,1.173658208955224,281,9,52,5,8,87,53,67,0.0,0.6579999999999999,0.342,0.9763,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,2,2,3,4,0,0,3,0,5,2,0,0,1,11,10,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,3,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,6,4,6,7,1,8,0,0,1,0,9,3,0,2,3,32,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17243487903275814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3814047933763712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19504475507814287,0.0,0.20603850305097046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890571885985972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22505601479637707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11850161656644673,0.1757627916590858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18107032008553026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217219054689558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202349038414258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922255582629369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765500894584592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21185003087319276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345375981014651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3423054711242393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,meowlingtonmeow,2019/07/26,"Possibly schizophrenic or just social anxiety... I have not been diagnosed as schizophrenic, although since a psychosis last year it's been the closest thing it was attributed to. I used to only really exhibit negative symptoms most my adult life, and only had positive ones during my psychosis and the lead up to hospitalization for it. The positive ones were visual hallucinations, voices, telepathic paranoia, delusions. I guess delusional thinking and paranoia have been present for most my adult life too, as well as sleep paralysis which leads to paranoia and sometimes hallucinations for a little bit after waking up. I guess, I don't really seem to have typical schizophrenia symptoms if there is such a thing, but my main symptoms which I've had all my life, are to do with socializing. Whenever I'm in a social situation (I'm no longer scared in them like I used to be) I either say nothing, or I blurt out a weird long explanation to what could have been a simple answer. I often don't get around to actually answering the question properly and kind of derail myself. I'm sure if even I'm confused by what I've said then the person I'm talking to must have been! I'm also scared to tell people what I'm into, like types of music and art and such in person, but if I chat online I'm an open book with little to no nervousness or regret about what I've said. I am much more coherent writing things down than I am with words, unless I'm very comfortable with a person (which basically includes close family and my partner). On occassion, if a social interaction goes badly or too awkward, or I just didn't gel with someone well, I'll think about it for weeks maybe even months, and start getting down on myself and wanting to hide from people. I have been told by a couple of doctors and psychologists that I have social anxiety, and I know that is probably very true, but I do still seem to not be quite the same as most other people or relatable to the ""average"" person... I should note also, I've been medicated for a few months now and I'm much more functional, as in I used to just sit and do nothing for hours, and take a very long time to actually start doing anything. I haven't been depressed for quite a while, and I did used to have periods of it. Also, I'm a 28 year old female who has only had one job in the past for a total of 6 months, and spend most of my week at home by myself studying or doing random stuff around the house until my partner gets home form work. Does anybody else here have only these kind of symptoms and diagnosed with schizophrenia? Or are there any other insights as to what I might possibly have going on?",9.675085561497326,7.283911692156862,9.577575757575762,67.68545454545456,60.50980392156863,12.723707664884136,38.279857397504465,11.20814326018867,4.179333333333334,2113,77,382,44,22,697,236,510,0.091,0.848,0.062,-0.8911,2,0,0,0,0,0,53.0,0,0,1,5,24,18,0,5,24,0,46,15,2,7,5,90,79,47,0,9,22,0,0,2,2,3,13,4,2,8,23,30,0,0,9,3,1,3,9,9,2,3,18,4,34,9,73,55,16,50,0,2,0,0,25,22,0,25,26,279,57,7,0.0,0.0,0.13078074123982109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16075938227381348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045567897132253656,0.0,0.1025222316552719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055142067354884534,0.11930307019005397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055949076702215286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315563687184616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05350062257653995,0.07414333673269341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05771409401191643,0.13602389459849734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06858576718502862,0.058639357393865575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05597678144635658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08851661356697739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06316939971512055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050271102719798,0.0,0.03808232375637545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14763424930665447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442944503481227,0.0,0.06598961300167366,0.07731850568103718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06649533299964565,0.0,0.0,0.13955752903092522,0.036825973152935836,0.05462065442198577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14198969265875874,0.06547367712176648,0.13431970892084075,0.0,0.1186003574534433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06731877787022221,0.0,0.0,0.06750374643048318,0.0,0.07108514736570433,0.0,0.0,0.1604559999601654,0.0,0.0985175245491656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12859241606017305,0.0,0.07031386989647284,0.0,0.13621954123923338,0.20385112675833225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06396694177628147,0.13936521761410045,0.2340360222403775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510834319954103,0.0,0.0,0.07224620996813125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07506455796753085,0.1425430107630017,0.0,0.0,0.08585438146917641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274803510954854,0.05328763742659951,0.134173864424656,0.0,0.0,0.12200355970150585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05542990385450172,0.07532006288483742,0.0670566268424736,0.3415322815995521,0.0567758594699461,0.0,0.06627285711589087,0.0,0.0948575462498738,0.0,0.05351286246768424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767083966905188,0.0,0.0,0.06315446781508474,0.2785888497172023,0.05038185291372526,0.05385868050116137,0.058568150283097885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13355188016400385,0.08587234172726431,0.0,0.0,0.0390730402845522,0.0,0.0,0.06402923944562051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23149439959674695,0.0,0.16586643289519254,0.039523192711882316,0.0,0.10749992735740746,0.0,0.12049689999693727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04878279263246674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863022118720742 schizophrenia,zer0lemon,2019/07/26,"My boyfriend might be schizophrenic We have been together for about 7 years now and within the past 2 years I've noticed he's been acting different. This all started when we became friends with this phone guy who caused a lot of problems for us. That guy hacked into my boyfriend’s email which gave him access to every single account he had. PlayStation, Xbox, student loans, eveeything We were stalked. Ever since that he’s been really suspicious of people. We even moved two times to get away from that guy. I don’t know much about schizophrenia, but feel like this may have triggered some of it. His family does have a history of schizophrenia. This past year has been the roughest for us. My boyfriend swears that the neighbors are spying on him, every time a vehicle drives by he peeks out the window. He'll even step out of the house and flip everyone off, because he swears there spying on them. He believes these people have cloned my phone and they see everything that I do. He says the neighbors leave signals such as a car alarm, a dog barking, Etc. But the weird thing is that almost every time I turn my phone the neighbors dogs start barking. but that's what dogs do, they just bark. It's comes to the point where it's really stressful and draining. Every time he comes back from Walmart I asked him if he behaved. If anyone looks at him he'll tell them, ‘the rumors aren't true’, or he'll flip them off. I don’t know what to do. I’ve talked to him about this and he just gets really defensive and says that ‘these people’ are going to lie on the test and have him locked up. He’s even gone to the point where he got electrical tape and covered up every single nail hole in the walls because there could be cameras in the wall. I love him, I really do. But he needs to get help. He is very stubborn. I don’t know what to do.",3.5440904893813467,5.4064123518005545,3.5179584487534648,91.27324422899356,73.6814404432133,6.475383194829178,23.66768236380425,7.1686216300943375,0.7687461865189289,1453,42,296,15,30,441,185,361,0.059000000000000004,0.888,0.053,-0.27,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,6,0,5,0,17,10,2,2,19,0,30,2,0,2,3,46,54,17,0,5,9,0,1,1,4,5,1,2,4,3,24,18,0,2,4,1,2,9,4,6,0,1,9,5,32,4,40,37,7,45,0,0,2,1,57,21,0,8,16,182,56,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09477625826671328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06618005304713817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848306438055095,0.0,0.08892487234789402,0.07277843758496585,0.0,0.11539303365462147,0.0,0.0,0.10663583754605273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972295250500138,0.0,0.16306167057035126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07556869304716986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09888697152657452,0.0,0.0,0.08282706604097434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10555749244933696,0.18754225123216686,0.08561449688854915,0.39872493457663866,0.090440180107952,0.08506348189337211,0.0,0.08922567153712266,0.0,0.04785685151818333,0.06761652024867251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731247777198661,0.0,0.14834895512514604,0.0,0.05379061580734597,0.0,0.0756986184269901,0.0,0.0,0.2811490774423642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06344053128722305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109211036083125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560481277040966,0.0,0.0,0.10021852164605988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046240211522826966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07948044718946885,0.0,0.0,0.08046630941747818,0.08542347757728826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040652655595987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10059580082595099,0.06957713960965642,0.07018026172437601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775732773160723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18070437148062896,0.196850930776834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17894582684283067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09056531351014743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425356224861491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15053571050088546,0.0,0.0,0.07542216857186737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782937690869368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13398462392674504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10841891633448428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607444359913983,0.08272648724324763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06287989779027055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207599422574037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10294979967475093,0.09245730227386333,0.0,0.2276996800345137,0.0,0.0,0.07809447784994626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18285054577418267 schizophrenia,ockabbe,2019/07/26,"I believe I have a Schizotypal Disorder Either that, or it's some form of Autism. Ever since I was a kid I had beliefs like if I touched my skin it would fall off, or that a man in the woods was always watching me whenever I was near a forest. Nowadays believe that I have a certain power nobody else on Earth has, and that I play an important role in the world all due to what seems to be coincidence. For example, I have the ability to predict what people around me say and do. I absolutely believed the delusions I had when I was younger. Nowadays I'm skeptical of being grandiose, but my brain can't help but think I am every time something coincidental happens. I also remember having an experience where I saw the world shift universes, and now nothing feels real anymore for me. I am skeptical that anybody around me is actually the real people I knew from the previous universe. I feel like I'm crazy but I know what I saw back then. All of this shit brings me unholy amounts of anxiety and panic, but I've never once had a visual hallucination outside of childhood night terrors. Am I somewhat schizophrenic or am I just on the spectrum?",5.920911441499674,6.6158568280543015,6.904890109890113,73.67403846153847,66.69230769230771,9.753199741435036,35.695216548157724,9.784248007369934,3.598398577892697,913,44,163,19,14,306,134,221,0.139,0.8079999999999999,0.053,-0.9698,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,9,9,3,2,16,0,22,4,3,0,5,34,34,15,0,2,10,0,4,2,0,1,1,1,0,2,11,6,0,0,8,1,0,2,2,5,0,0,10,8,29,4,19,21,7,23,1,0,3,0,5,11,1,7,12,124,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.14212604119656144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11647023035745893,0.12118620192121575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114160906389165,0.0,0.14443819459070606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593053519648498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119900691853382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.492267568006401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625851629825721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16691888808718824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12166559495647457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13174195198437688,0.1227100621857302,0.0,0.0,0.14246628191350896,0.0,0.0,0.14728241744010567,0.10404700941649392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12879115491712007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09762107739282344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08004129243830835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14230710796835785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112328451165149,0.0,0.0,0.13667559167215634,0.0,0.1397478776253381,0.0,0.0,0.15510447691795495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17088005770753936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20194030071208766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315460313052007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16498452680727604,0.0,0.0,0.11582073752391694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325874344179324,0.0,0.0,0.14949990215402625,0.12047695591967772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11212268858147424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09332181376456516,0.0,0.0,0.08492529527682875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10346023175057008,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rjg31,2018/11/11,"Mental Health Subreddit Research Hello there! My name is Ryan, and I am a Counselling Psychology graduate student at City University of Seattle (Calgary Alberta campus). For my thesis, I am really interested in levels of belongingness and stigma attitudes on mental health subreddits, as well as offline. I would LOVE to have your input regarding your experience on mental health related subreddits! The survey will only take about 15-30 minutes, and the results will hopefully help inform future research and clinicians about the world of Reddit. Each participant that completes the study will be entered into a draw to win a $50 gift card (2 available) to Apple or Google Play (whichever the winner prefers). Two winners will be chosen from the reddit usernames provided in the survey. Thanks for your time everyone, I greatly appreciate it! I will be sure to provide an update after the study is complete, so everyone knows how their participation impacted mental health research. Here is the Survey Monkey link to the study: [https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/SNYN33Z](https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/SNYN33Z) Please contact me if you need more information, and I will gladly answer any questions you have! Ryan Gawthrop 403-869-2260 [rgawthrop@cityuniversity.edu](mailto:rgawthrop@cityuniversity.edu)",11.4990306122449,14.454998596938784,9.91795918367347,48.89132653061225,55.377551020408156,10.906122448979593,38.48979591836735,10.914260884657429,5.173555102040816,1079,48,122,26,14,333,134,196,0.006999999999999999,0.78,0.213,0.9918,0,0,0,0,0,0,55.0,0,5,1,1,7,10,0,0,14,0,17,5,0,2,1,23,23,11,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,7,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,15,10,22,13,2,13,0,0,0,1,14,8,0,4,4,85,17,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09049358735961276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790471181391145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543121775632949,0.0,0.13017004275696228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14671245374998731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5657976540310499,0.0,0.0,0.08919541976900303,0.0,0.0,0.13217061554562806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07313294289060246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12010276058594092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5364214886495912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09867127177204037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10120732417232507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14607319873995453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490712005939238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08524939111341202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12541887403289906,0.0,0.10005365388608777,0.0,0.0,0.12251490563045025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07759540832295853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12999209999818742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964779409051565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09453059776483104,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nonenn,2018/11/11,"Trying Hydroxyzine Wanted to share that my current regimen, which includes hydroxyzine and a shit ton of gabapentin, has been really working. It makes me feel sedated as all hell, but that's what I needed, I think. I can relax for what might be the first time in my life, haha.",7.0730128205128215,7.255456173076923,7.054615384615384,75.3570512820513,64.19230769230771,10.77948717948718,32.717948717948715,10.504223727775694,3.4265948717948724,219,8,39,5,3,70,46,52,0.09,0.743,0.16699999999999998,0.6542,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,2,1,5,2,1,1,1,9,10,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,6,3,5,7,2,4,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,3,29,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18906387420834275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180539524649733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26410892019627585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495927704024357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3966672755156049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27725501686053416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395410634323739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838208414321107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395911740877449,0.0,0.0,0.2180342449886012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538653724443281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205461724943171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27221632313727395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Janscyther,2018/11/11,"Active, supportive communities for those with schizophrenia? Hey guys. My uncle developed schizophrenia in his late teens/early twenties and as far as I know, he has never, ever made a connection with anyone who shares the diagnosis. I think it's tragic. That being said, I'm not sure how meeting or communicating with others would affect him, but I want him to know he's not alone (well, he knows it, but he's not experienced it). He has not been active in any online communities, so he doesn't understand memes or anything like that. With that in mind, does anyone have any message boards or other websites that he could use to become acquainted with those who share his diagnosis? Thanks.",7.219540000000002,8.318070904000002,7.11815,71.85882500000002,63.96,9.77,30.025,9.827888789773867,2.90126,553,18,92,11,8,176,82,125,0.049,0.805,0.146,0.8886,0,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,0,2,0,8,0,0,4,3,31,20,10,0,3,9,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,13,6,0,0,5,0,0,0,6,1,1,0,3,2,8,7,13,14,0,7,0,1,0,0,20,4,0,3,4,59,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20904730097417648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745187808226008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822650516907125,0.0,0.16609865777178975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22291848321493088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611543060713924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17663317722632635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825775235667152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19985518098769176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327810329893687,0.0,0.2276864165915587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09860974035774543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19098765405098397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20380274612886926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15567289030490228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19199783599844472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22904775773395414,0.19023357011383554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18582887200953987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12933211778970052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101245009623439,0.0,0.17432656635469795,0.0,0.0,0.1190515621775636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18148007787179893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14338267056265874,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bluegirl85,2018/11/11,"Schizophrenia, OCD, Depression, possible Psychosis. ((vent warning))So I'm a freshman girl in high school and having all these mental illnesses is fucking killing me mentally. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia at 13 and for a girl and for a 13 year old that's extremely young so I have no idea how to feel about my upcoming years. I hallucinate time to time but it's so hard to recall them they are just like dreams, they are multicolored and 3D looking??? Its really weird but I have been living with this my whole life. As far back as I can remember I was never like my peers I was never like my peers in school, as they were playing tag I was trying to bite/ beat them up or act like a literal cat. And I thought I was a cat too it wasn't just dress up it was like a fact for me I really believed it as much as I believed that the sky was blue. And when I say I would beat them up I wouldn't just scratch them I would try to actually kill them (I never told anybody this except my close friends and this post I guess.) I have horrible delusions in my life that I'm some sort of god, I hate admitting this but I love killing bugs and animals. I know it's cliché for a serial killer movie or something but I just like playing the role of god and I like the way they look before they die??? it started with bugs. I would pick the legs off lady bugs or butterflies wings. I loved doing the wings because it would come off so easily. I talk to my therapist about these things and she really tries to help me with empathy/sympathy but it just doesn't work. I usually go outside, set up a trap with bait and just wait. I don't want to go too much into what I do because it's actually fucked. My friends thought it was ""haha funny that's just crazy Katie"" at first but now they are starting to realize I'm a psychopath, I literally manipulate anyone I get a chance to. Now for depression I guess, I am so unhygienic all I do is eat but I'm pretty skinny I'm 129 pounds and I'm 5,8 so it's cool but I almost never shower and brush my teeth. I cry almost every night because I miss my ex (which is stupid I know but I just thought he was attractive I guess.) But I also cry because I know that I will NEVER EVER find a stable healthy relationship because I have no sympathy or empathy I cannot care about someone other than myself.. That's really it I guess this was just a vent I don't except anyone to read it just wanted to get it out there.",1.037106501283148,3.3551783033932168,2.9258536498431735,90.02024326347308,84.32934131736529,6.532663244938692,21.521278870829764,7.772667728589733,1.0113218990590251,1914,63,409,37,56,638,223,501,0.16399999999999998,0.67,0.166,-0.5235,1,1,1,0,0,0,48.0,0,0,11,4,28,28,7,0,17,2,39,12,3,3,9,88,77,40,4,7,26,1,3,7,2,6,4,1,1,2,32,22,2,1,12,4,0,4,13,11,0,1,17,9,74,17,48,54,6,45,0,3,3,4,27,17,2,12,28,276,106,4,0.0,0.0,0.14455190951959546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483291533211148,0.0,0.0,0.05922909714016985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10357479198644556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056950781896414004,0.0,0.22574418021676024,0.0,0.06302316119393597,0.16688993410546113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07551336654874194,0.0,0.0,0.0637997320667635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627120455607305,0.0,0.0,0.12758273758851774,0.07517358258601914,0.07686692451454145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07578614519880578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06699529010606561,0.06240226511932405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03744907425196144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06769331776600011,0.06299895277119534,0.0,0.0,0.11444360185078027,0.13694227995266312,0.07739095322044817,0.0,0.0841847594032654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263601726898747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06634695664348153,0.0731230431495437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04964365793801567,0.0782528714563699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360944290112463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458231214302832,0.0,0.12211120740046776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10462743984751427,0.25328811692945635,0.0,0.06540002692323572,0.0,0.12439051354001432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336916263050507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492785445827109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088913869100272,0.0,0.28561430355406525,0.0,0.0,0.06950421469070198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07771789686226932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08349623340818274,0.07093301019508906,0.07534989653558484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07408422175930371,0.0,0.1897896382042283,0.0,0.0,0.07951721043703243,0.0839002767909208,0.0,0.0,0.058898807812058834,0.0,0.14991380637143148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06275433846904951,0.05701822339689273,0.0,0.0,0.10484601412082772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05952998153124193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08599422024616292,0.049204949481661535,0.0,0.0,0.17639605508937115,0.08637483669726025,0.0,0.0,0.07077149692843039,0.0,0.15085414740088898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08157122939471698,0.0,0.087369943351781,0.058788697839308825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08269001080289748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05391960436889146,0.0,0.0,0.21045227085726506,0.0,0.0,0.09538980589654664 schizophrenia,imjustabakedpotato,2018/11/11,Memory accuracy? Would someone possibly be able to give me any idea of how schizophrenia affects memory? Any idea on how accurate their recall of events that occurred 25 to 30 years ago might be? I'm not sure if they had schizophrenia or if they might have been in the beginning stages at the period of time. I believe they have been largely unmedicated. I've been told they have multiple personality schizophrenia. Thank you. ,5.441466165413537,8.242847131578948,5.723233082706766,73.36763157894737,71.10526315789474,9.606015037593986,30.59398496240601,9.957137785484203,3.593735338345864,346,15,57,10,7,110,54,76,0.026000000000000002,0.934,0.04,0.2681,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,5,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,12,0,0,3,1,13,17,5,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,8,2,8,7,0,10,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,5,6,37,9,0,0.21279623866008165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886310261818253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28941747876561674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397484908078129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20413354232611594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4804421036000803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4514863626151925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18580546766442896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398957858668559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180301562466792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005579365970858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19591418648188788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12408319802471418,0.0,0.0,0.20333592522217586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15116434252176775,0.0,0.0,0.1370338008983545 schizophrenia,Pisshaddock,2018/11/11,"How can I get through to my mom with shizophrenia? Hey all. My mom has been schizphoneic most of my life. I had to get away from her when I was 12 because her constant paranoia and anxiety left me locked in a room most of the time. I was able to get away to live with my dad. I have avoided her most of my life as her controlling, abusive behaviour was completely toxic. I have my own issues so I've always kept her at a distance. I'm now in my 30s, and she's been ruled by severe paranoia and other problems her whole life. She's never worked as far as I know, and constantly moves around. &#x200B; She used to recieve disability benefits, but she cancelled them as she apparently thought the police were stealing them. She's often homeless. Recently she turned up and saw family again. Her nasty tendencies died down as she got older, she stopped drinking, but she's still completely unable to live anything like a normal life. Her family tried to help but couldn't manage her problems or her dogs. &#x200B; Currently, my dad is giving her and her dogs a place to stay (they seperated a long time ago, he didn't want her sleeping rough so he's looked after her for a few years). Her behaviour and her bad treatment of her dogs has been causing my dad severe hardship - he's moving house because he can't afford the rent any more and she doesn't recieve any income as she's functionally unable to recieve benefits, and she cannot stay in housing because of moving constantly due to paranoia. Every time I see her, she is older, thinner, and is regularly ill. She doesn't eat properly because of 'toxins' and 'allergies'. She somehow had most of her teeth removed because of filling allergies. When my dad moves, she will be homeless and I'm worried she might die. She will not accept treatment or help and I've not been involved in her life. I've accepted this. &#x200B; However, I still see glimpses of the person she is when she's not ruled by terror and anger - she is always so happy to see me, and she sincerely cares about me - that care just gets wrapped up in her paranoia. She used to draw art and play music but she barely manages those things now. My dad bought her art supplies and I tried giving her some ideas for drawings but she doesn't do them, because of some anxiety around it. &#x200B; I want her to seek treatment, and get help. I want her old age to have some comfort and care and for her mind to be at ease. If she still refuses to seek help, I won't involve myself with her at all. &#x200B; Is there any advice people can give me on how to get through to her? That she should get medication and help? The animals she has suffer a lot, I think they're her only source of company as she eventually alienates everyone she knows. However we will have them taken away because they aren't walked or fed or cared for properly. &#x200B; This situation is very sad for me. If anyone here could offer advice on how I might get through the whirling inattentiveness and paranoia that would be a great help. I've accepted that she probably won't ever get better but I would at least like to make one more attempt before she is homless and I found out that she has died in the cold somewhere. 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I only feel well at the hospital. That's the worst part, I can't live there forever, it's in the countryside of France I love it. Kisses to all my schizos friends I made here on this subreddit.",0.1507000000000005,2.1322850533333337,2.3835833333333305,94.671375,85.13333333333333,6.95,20.041666666666664,8.07648339933343,0.7899666666666658,269,8,65,6,8,91,57,75,0.165,0.648,0.187,0.204,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,6,0,3,3,0,1,1,6,12,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,1,0,1,2,1,2,2,2,1,0,3,1,7,5,9,9,3,11,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,6,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19745601058253426,0.21440930531849586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4548802506326301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12984097066921954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983956699598351,0.0,0.13416241506467744,0.0,0.14593993436169098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550508649160014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22675067801071905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317634130686844,0.24298133919736475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953007138494748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780790407125112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21187902016684534,0.0,0.0,0.4119636302340962,0.0,0.2308854599950229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Masterchief441,2018/11/11,How to lose the weight from risperidone? I don't know what to do. I can't afford to pay the cost for Geodon as a substitute (because Geodon is weight neutral) it would cost $45 with the coupons my psychiatrist recommended and I weigh freaking 220 pounds. My dad told me I'm overweight and I tell him it's the risperidone but he doesn't believe me. People have been telling me I gained weight and I really would like a way to lose it. I'm afraid if I continue taking risperidone for years I will end up having excess weight that even exercise won't fix.,2.3705896805896853,4.680583945945949,3.015724815724816,91.4143488943489,78.9099099099099,6.198525798525798,23.604422604422606,7.348242739294969,0.9005783783783783,442,15,92,6,11,138,73,111,0.087,0.82,0.09300000000000001,0.1445,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,2,5,0,1,6,0,12,7,0,1,0,10,17,7,0,3,2,1,4,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,5,4,6,0,1,1,4,0,4,4,0,0,2,4,14,1,10,11,0,5,0,2,0,0,6,1,0,1,4,54,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956427011034458,0.0,0.0,0.17676872189457787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389638036997369,0.0,0.0,0.10362871374339737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622625914851613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07665174559626853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3510542889217118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087723359486632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051196902323532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796670484931812,0.0,0.2742690591331749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14992140928882194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12453720512986999,0.0,0.7642310825749102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229096628185014,0.0,0.0,0.10103625578430044 schizophrenia,what_about_bob96,2018/11/11,"Please Help, im done Im 22 years old and used to be extremely religious. I served a mission for the church of Jesus christ of later day saints. I used to be classified a genius with an IQ of 180. I could look at anything and instantly understand it and everything could be rationalized and reasoned. I still have all of my memories of being smart. On my mission, i developed anxiety that climaxed with seizures. As a result i was put on a variety of SSRI'S ( later genetic testing showed that the prolonged use caused permanent brain damage.) I was later diagnosed with schizophrenia and subsequently schizoaffective bipolar type. I seem the same on the outside but my thought processes have literally been retarded. I can barely speak in full sentences without forgetting what im saying and look like an idiot with the severe tardive dsykesia I have. I cant go to an inpatient center because i will be abused again. I love my wife and friends and i have false memories of being raped and tortured by those same people. And every time i go to sleep, im met with a very vivid alternate reality where horrible things are done to me. Im fully medicated on Vraylar, wellbutrin, seroquel, Lamictal, lithium, rexulti, and intuniv. Nothing has worked, im tired of my love for my wife being tainted by false memories of abuse. I apparently tried to choke her in my sleep last night. If i dont even have free will, what the fuck is the point of living if im a danger to the one I love???? Ive already been involuntarily hospitalized for a suicide attempt, and the mental hospital treated me like a criminal, i was drugged heavily with clozapine which basically disabled and dislocated the exterior of my body from my mind, where the voices tormented me without anything to stop them. I sacrificed my life to serve God, and he rewarded me with a life of living hell where i drag down everyone near me. Im done giving a fuck about myself, but now im bringing down a beautiful woman with doomed love and an innocent baby that deserves more than a fucking parasite robbing her of every opportunity to succeed. How can i truly love them if i put them through such pain and misery??? I dont want to do to them what God did to me. I wish i was never born. Oblivion is better than being a parasite to all those around me. Im mentally decimated and tortured by demons and colors that communicate with pain signals. I wish i could just be unaware instead of being conscious to all the harm caused by me even breathing. Can anyone tell me why the fuck i should continue. Continued treatment and therapy for 3 years has done nothing to slow my decent into insanity and i see not one fucking reason for hope. I hate every square inch of my being and i just want better for my family. My wife is exhausted from having to take care of me, our child, work and school full time and all of our failing finances. I dont even remember my daughters name most of the time, and forget everything i hold dear. My grades are tanking in college. The voices literally take control of my consciousness and im trapped deep in my mind, forced to watch my body as an outside observer. Please help me, i dont want to hurt anymore. Im just want an end to everyone elses suffering. I dont care if i go to hell as long as the people i love can move on to the happiness i rob them of everyday.",5.104832802007738,6.503452369734792,6.283566777453711,74.83191328087908,68.98439937597503,9.754880282167813,33.27955639964729,10.023610245241436,3.5632887878993422,2663,124,475,67,46,893,301,641,0.218,0.621,0.161,-0.995,2,1,1,0,2,1,64.0,2,0,5,10,17,44,13,0,36,0,53,28,6,10,5,90,91,36,1,15,12,4,0,2,1,3,10,4,0,2,12,36,0,3,8,1,2,7,10,22,0,2,13,11,80,23,88,61,10,56,8,5,7,12,31,25,7,7,26,328,92,10,0.0,0.11305513328534465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05264825699904906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03649738553209979,0.0,0.04731467818792889,0.03335936193348353,0.0,0.07852116594790283,0.04247127747404685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02908306806240633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08438977010992378,0.0,0.10598826831603893,0.0,0.05325921364810077,0.0,0.0,0.0972853597753767,0.0980209222393294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053509892513659736,0.1142756736869919,0.0,0.0,0.030768468669065737,0.0,0.0,0.04842380469664483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19529218643396087,0.2795739677829888,0.0,0.05532749215976312,0.0,0.039854890794092684,0.0,0.042256165024439234,0.0,0.0,0.09453437325319118,0.0,0.12059110374214314,0.09117631560076464,0.08575585389096425,0.0,0.04497596078451176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036859987472736416,0.2205318009007033,0.0,0.04576698450972536,0.08134266468768615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05078730009934627,0.0,0.04710292949316448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0639569038409671,0.0,0.0,0.047385972121355535,0.0,0.0,0.051073654723837146,0.0,0.6184091045095277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038889342345920265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06739679736945584,0.0466165825213863,0.0,0.08425614483019378,0.0422211153652797,0.08012737622135435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583563392511486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04806197092194805,0.0961592469003462,0.0,0.0963453255077488,0.0,0.0,0.05070729886467862,0.0,0.0,0.0367962541576208,0.0,0.0,0.044771825447124214,0.0,0.09155647335562032,0.0,0.05006274983350915,0.0,0.06465793852181087,0.0,0.10153184422380099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06615106460199978,0.0,0.0,0.10474068679477634,0.045100587936100174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09592178922882942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09810594829246973,0.0,0.0,0.05404519084439099,0.0,0.0,0.037940247999924286,0.0,0.04828422852372435,0.038018032675268924,0.04343263780764023,0.0,0.053897783801606376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954872527777661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038100605905194866,0.03988700356223237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05218608999522872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07174271882011732,0.0,0.04169991866684584,0.0,0.054559595386699036,0.0,0.03169585354112668,0.0,0.0,0.03787575292216603,0.0834588045237837,0.0548346742169257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03239139566553928,0.0,0.0,0.04966692997740378,0.0,0.12361621788063144,0.0,0.03936506291022723,0.11256042156517923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043050106497868716,0.0,0.10972638517170297,0.09197987743974406,0.0,0.06946568997937189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061446284344632326 schizophrenia,whynotgio,2018/11/11,"Using dissociation for creative purposes Not too long ago I had a weird encounter with myself. Let me start off by saying I am not clinically diagnosed with anything and am not trying to act like I am. This is just an honest recounting of events that took place not too long ago. Most of my family members suffer from depression, attention deficit disorder and bipolar disorder but I’ve never gone in for an evaluation my self, feeling that I don’t need to. Anyway, not too long ago I had a real weird day and kind of lost touch for a moment. By lose touch I mean I went for a walk and couldn’t stop until my body told me this is where I needed to sit. This isn’t really new to me, I’m prone to doing things like this quite often. Anyway, next thing I know I’m having a conversation with the squirrel a couple feet away from me. For some reason he keeps on coming closer and closer to me until I can practically touch him. After a long conversation I decided to go for it but immediately I’m met with this real sick feeling in my stomach, a sharp pain in my chest and this sudden overwhelming feeling that I have to cry. I look up and see the squirrel is gone and that I haven’t been talking to anyone or anything at all but I’ve actually been writing in my journal for what seems like hours. I mean I had at least 12 pages of incoherent notes somewhat resembling the conversation I thought I was having with the squirrel in front of me. After this realization I quickly packed my things and headed back home, it was no longer light outside and I had no idea where I was. Like I said before this isn’t really new for me, I’ve always chalked it up to my creative side taking over and I still do. Anyway, I decided to write a script very loosely based off that specific experience and and I just finished editing it and I wanted to share it so here it is. I hope you enjoy, thank you for reading . [Pigeon Holed (A short film about a boy and a pigeon)](https://youtu.be/cx3XzMpKyRs) P.s. this is the only community that knows this video was based off a true, personal experience so... I don’t know why I said that last part but it felt necessary. 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Everyone’s said that doctor never should have said that to me, but she did say it. The only thing convincing me I’m not the messiah is that it’s all textbook. When she said nothing about it was textbook, I didn’t know what to do. It really could all be real again. I just heard something breathing in my room. I know he can’t hurt me. All of the magic things love me, and I love them. I am pure. I am good. I am magic. It was v scary breathing though. But I have to be okay with it because whatever he has to give me is pure and good.",-0.632264631043256,1.3234914732824414,1.8679083969465644,97.22562849872776,88.46564885496186,5.325394402035624,17.89363867684478,6.742157984588678,-0.13616071246819314,457,12,112,6,15,156,74,131,0.063,0.745,0.192,0.9595,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,0,7,8,0,0,4,1,20,5,2,1,8,23,32,8,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,0,13,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,9,5,18,7,8,19,4,5,0,1,0,2,13,2,0,1,3,80,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11180743124087107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464411010654723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877319324579212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17525987312366426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759473575034415,0.0,0.3076778101649944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19634840885775967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023985028552663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3310764711902947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14146013232929192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759906155258328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13949456108300284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20876521030602715,0.1174996621362157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.523405955283835,0.14585812130998904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14120100650664294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24370413450299674,0.0,0.1802032580429643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CrownCircle,2018/11/11,"Help. Heard some freaky stuff, saw my cat make an angry face, painted some scary pictures. Kinda confused what's going on- but has anyone been feeling a sense of purpose lately? 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I'm also kinda scared to tell people because there is a huge stigma against it they think you're crazy. When no it's just my mind thinks differently (putting it mildly) I feel weird for not mentioning it but feel weirder bringing it up. I've never met a person who's life is so stable that it really helped me out personally. By stable I mean she's never had hardships no bad family drama no traumatic experiences, hasn't even had anyone die in her life. With this relative ease of life she can be quite naive about things and when things get hard she's not great at managing her emotions She doesn't have to work just has school it's a simple life and yet she still can get very stressed and be an emotional wreck. The thing I'm scared about is it's taken me a very long time to get to a point where I can say I'm okay with life everyday is a battle but I'm not depressed and having severe episodes nearly as frequent or drastic. Relationships are alot to put into you're trusting someone with you're emotions things can go very bad for someone like me if I trust someone in this way. In my previous relationship it got so bad I'm suprised I'm here today I don't want to feel like that ever again so I'm very hesitant. People on this sub with relationship experience any advice? How do you trust someone when trusting yourself can even go bad lol I might try r/relstionship advice in a bit but wanted to see if anyone could offer insight with a better view from my perspective thanks in advance.",3.660722519555371,5.398933037463981,4.579813709345412,84.30063040345823,73.0922190201729,7.723713462330178,25.937525730753396,8.418075326091056,1.6912355701934954,1392,47,276,24,28,451,184,347,0.19,0.6629999999999999,0.147,-0.9481,2,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,4,25,21,1,3,13,2,30,6,0,2,3,45,60,22,1,6,12,0,4,2,0,2,6,1,0,2,22,13,0,0,7,1,0,7,12,10,0,0,7,8,25,11,36,48,3,38,0,1,3,0,27,15,0,6,17,169,47,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14728076436451465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060264924790874426,0.0,0.0816519323903007,0.0,0.05124701006021898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10538615901102873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516879713186436,0.045938421146433324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666493093411206,0.08227300127219657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060168388623473935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06490698370084798,0.0,0.07821121118580973,0.07873458561596981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25430771381354395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954841174254243,0.0681669367680873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14743200452858535,0.07104218246681844,0.0,0.1143120063745677,0.05383680600575756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11811660654610688,0.0,0.12848553596813533,0.0,0.0602718362342484,0.08308405946387035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06750726493028142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10102370140467183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661430402421167,0.07363364125406922,0.0,0.0,0.0666907416631712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08208853322886962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07994446729919202,0.07609156174939967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11624370692093493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448950772493384,0.13160192965890646,0.0,0.0,0.07123903840250116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15151412296866126,0.0,0.08015405105686706,0.0,0.0,0.04827719324083676,0.0,0.0,0.4045392330755148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059928859200160924,0.15089591165535396,0.07626778646234587,0.12010344936426645,0.0,0.0,0.08513472807699173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554072691122236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06018215396846643,0.0,0.08632399515070703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06586748074099448,0.06938085652876398,0.0,0.0,0.300392819377284,0.0965745851211728,0.0,0.0,0.04394270121208809,0.0,0.07143194687595653,0.07200918375702979,0.0,0.10232823940110672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487177535114892,0.0888979119944583,0.0598168235699233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054862576992434464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,heythrowaway212,2018/11/11,ISO of athletes with schizophrenia! How has schizophrenia affected your ability to play sports? I want to hear your experience as an athlete with schizophrenia. Someone I love (with schizophrenia) plays sports on a competitive level. I was wondering if it’s common for those with it to participate in sports and how having it effects your ability to play or focus. I read those with schizophrenia tend to be good at math and so for all I know maybe schizophrenia is surprisingly an asset when it comes to sports? ,6.769238095238094,9.075941066666664,5.813174603174605,76.285,66.1111111111111,8.6984126984127,32.85714285714286,9.23628265651192,3.1543809523809525,416,18,67,8,7,125,57,90,0.016,0.7140000000000001,0.27,0.9692,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,1,4,6,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,4,1,18,12,9,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,8,0,0,3,8,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,8,6,18,10,1,7,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,3,2,49,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864856346334799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3253241196994029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789498061700969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37483844670688615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18277561997373945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001637245678753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33411829498722684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326669971722071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28179141040116706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19616252967044728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36066556658477705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,magicmazik,2019/01/11,"An interesting title. The feeling of failure is haunting me. I’ve been in a pretty bad place before. Gave up on education, family, friends and life in general. I am frightened that it’s all gonna repeat, but this time I know I won’t be able to start over. I know my head is trying to take over and at times I can’t even control myself, go into bad episodes. Any advice on how to distract yourself? Maybe fight it? How to be more motivated? Anything would be great help. 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It triggered an episode of extreme paranoia. How do you know if you have schizophrenia or if it's just pychosis? Do you have to have delusional thinking and hearing voices to have schizophrenia. Is it something you just know? ,6.649000000000001,10.051737900000004,6.0100000000000025,69.78500000000001,70.0,8.0,41.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,4.713666666666667,294,19,39,6,6,90,41,60,0.08199999999999999,0.893,0.024,-0.5514,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,4,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,7,1,1,2,0,16,13,8,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,5,13,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,4,1,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4578137479127039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083990701314452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4645311321645698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4530216493233726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943787884689075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172987576812287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640936990245171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Alternative1215,2019/01/11,"Encouragement So I am new to Reddit I have schizophrenia I went through a traumatic experience at 12 years of age that I think triggered the schizophrenia it runs in my family Since then I have always thought that I was rapped by just about ever guy I knew or saw I have had what I know know are delusions but thought were real for a very long time In my delusions it is never by choice I am either drugged or forced with one or many men I was diagnosed with schizophrenia at 16. Although my parents neglected to get me treatment, I just kind of went into denial and kept loving kept having delusions and all of my other symptoms I learned to think it was normal everyone's mind worked like mine I met my future husband almost a decade ago while we were dating I told him all of my delusions( my goodness how hard that had to be for him to hear) He however loved me for who I was and married me I was so confused on our wedding night I was so nervous and paranoid I tried to back out I eventually went trough with the sexual relations and we quickly became aware that I was a virgin... I tore It was painful I had no idea what I was doing However it did not click in my head what was happening I knew it then but it didn't register because I was still dealing with all of my delusions 10 long years of dealing with schizophrenia and getting to place in my life where I am stable it finally just clicked that I was a virgin on my wedding night That nothing had ever happened to me obviously because of the events that took place that night My question is how do I talk to my husband He must be hurting to know that even though he took my virginity I never gave him credit for it He must be hurting to have head all of my delusions Looking back on it I know the were delusions There was so many gaps The delusions changed everytime I talked about them And then there is my wedding night Any suggestions on how to talk to him ( I don't do well socially because of the schizophrenia) would be appreciated ",3.5319273337913124,5.3925002997481135,4.260508358140601,85.9441416685749,73.71032745591941,6.927990229753455,29.158766506373556,7.686295010490155,1.8117059613769944,1597,68,312,21,33,510,180,397,0.10300000000000001,0.83,0.067,-0.9134,3,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,3,0,1,1,24,14,0,2,11,0,45,12,2,4,11,63,74,25,0,4,10,3,1,1,0,3,5,1,0,2,24,16,0,3,13,1,1,6,6,6,1,1,37,6,62,8,48,30,5,49,0,3,4,5,36,15,0,6,29,239,86,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993633337236022,0.0,0.09029908564923447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07503436011977746,0.0,0.0,0.06132334784654155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13868085719122367,0.0,0.1649129057191837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09539514646607594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18593673796883048,0.0,0.09152760088637883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10457651256787603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059560956567859,0.16314024057795962,0.0,0.08616784117724972,0.0,0.08821025935752606,0.0850107052503341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09878432741970204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09422736066186868,0.0,0.0,0.07563606034723726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08928925551772476,0.15948617491248274,0.0,0.08078074183496266,0.0,0.18509492085055626,0.0,0.10163585974423933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930723583021546,0.10179868321999926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390530873663763,0.19823534580852376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0636945734571649,0.044055852141663895,0.0,0.0,0.15960734272492355,0.07572583935529739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16277624922688386,0.0,0.0,0.1828503368639469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09105290833283576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390998863369291,0.08709336017879328,0.0,0.33849944639008794,0.08835416311276183,0.08652711620198464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061106164914488524,0.0,0.0959545225079963,0.0,0.1001307162148253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188431222645296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101870590669752,0.0,0.0,0.1026409934251856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07459521920233607,0.0,0.0,0.09192393866482773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201534601971309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09372827150544308,0.0,0.21744219988971328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155633639808841,0.08859829373328748,0.14318068637722334,0.052582844317727716,0.0,0.0,0.08616784117724972,0.20037958876957224,0.061224159340657475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07440534236179329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107981471578457,0.25078452016264074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06564981817888225,0.0,0.0,0.06405904438109837,0.0,0.0,0.11614186503267745 schizophrenia,commentlurk,2019/01/11,"Do clozapine side effects get better? I can barely complete sentences for the first couple of hours of being awake. So drowsy and insanely forgetful. It also makes me drool all over myself at night. Once it kicks in at night my whole body freezes up. Very uncomfortable. Anyone have these experiences? Do they get better? 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I was just wondering what hobbies you guys have or what little things you do to help you through the day. As for my hobbies, I crochet A LOT. I find it helps kind my mind working and I love the rush of pride when you finish a project and people tell you how pretty it is. I also write. Not like, my own writing, but I have a notebook filled with short stories I like. I'll find a story online or in a book and write it down. Keeps my mind off bad things and helps me focus on 'the now' instead of 'the future'. I'm writing SCPs down right now! What about you guys? What are some hobbies or activities you like to do?",1.7606372549019618,3.465058102941178,2.7991176470588255,95.18019607843142,78.26470588235293,5.121568627450982,22.362745098039216,5.46131890053228,-0.006022549019607748,506,15,114,2,12,161,78,136,0.083,0.7859999999999999,0.131,0.5715,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,9,0,2,8,7,0,0,9,0,8,1,0,1,0,25,12,12,0,0,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,10,5,0,1,4,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,21,6,14,11,3,17,0,0,0,1,21,9,0,6,9,81,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305836580126154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136341064419363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053091091018868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4477347191014085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233672881846884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4378017402717753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14514043720903702,0.0,0.17004232399655592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393270279796561,0.16366036015426622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13882406712802106,0.14737639480856565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297544802921253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113205336188567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16612552943704295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394495196042414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14272342675414712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21696641029105115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177081994206244,0.1188777056725983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Queen_Samantha_II,2019/01/11,"The loneliness is getting to me... When I was younger I was surrounded by friends. I had a steady boyfriend and thought I had the world ahead of me. Things changed. I grew up and moved on. I ended up in San Francisco. I met my best-friend, Doug, and worked on my career. Then I got sick. My friends disappeared, I lost my career, I stopped dating. I became isolated. Family is no help because they're a dysfunctional lot. It's been years. January 2012 to now I've been alone and haven't been able to hold down a job or find a date. Doug calls me each day to check on me and try to make me smile. But he's in California and I'm in Colorado. I miss him so much I just want a hug from him. How do you deal with the loneliness? How do you deal with people not wanting you around or taking you seriously? Anyone want to be a chat buddy?",-0.13790444893831832,2.155457924418606,1.7334984833164808,95.9538675429727,91.84883720930232,5.5494438827098085,19.687563195146613,7.079830092131019,0.3826907987866535,641,21,148,11,23,210,109,172,0.14800000000000002,0.7490000000000001,0.10300000000000001,-0.6920000000000001,1,1,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,4,0,3,7,6,0,0,9,0,13,2,0,3,0,26,25,14,0,3,5,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,10,0,2,2,1,1,3,3,3,0,0,11,0,28,3,22,13,3,25,0,2,0,1,15,12,0,3,10,95,30,4,0.17337837177907778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17956770498201766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123018879586728,0.0,0.0,0.15434350923278303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10568984619665968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819499045866431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770387024505041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18341132819057268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11181470656267607,0.35749097657094353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15356177596911114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16344569863337655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15846469079203715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4018550998586065,0.0,0.09058304332616827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13866652232741247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162118679442907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17205128126909516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18926297372361506,0.14740009161732434,0.0,0.0,0.1157314094676553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842737707918604,0.12745305242876068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12019873261872392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14495208217688824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13035895837326986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11518488622470173,0.0,0.0,0.13764306064052845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11771253358277015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30678916726205224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262215195816104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164998699251877 schizophrenia,Shadows23,2019/01/11,"How likely/possible is it for a schizophrenic to be living an entirely different life from what's actually real? Ok, so I've had moments where I completely disassociated to the point I would be blacked out for hours off doing something while in my ""reality"" I was doing something far less odd like merely watching tv or something for up to an hour or longer sometimes. I have no idea when the disassociations happen and if people weren't around to tell me they happened I still would not ever even know this was a problem I am dealing with/have dealt with. See the thing is I keep having what I can only assume are complex hallucinations. Like I'll get the strong scent of my ex husband's penis and then it'll be followed by the sound of his voice saying like ""Do you wanna have sex?"" as I'm driving in my car down the street. Then like an hour later when I make it home I'll hear him say ""I love you"", and ""Come to bed."" Followed by what feels like a slap on the butt. Those are just random examples but it makes it realllly confusing trying to figure out if there's absolutely any possible way they aren't hallucinations but rather some parts of reality filtering through. Is it possible for a schizophrenic to have like an entirely different life from what they think is actually happening? Or are these just complex hallucinations that are far from random voices and senses but are a constant ""story"" that is cohesive each and every day??",7.557530413625304,7.364957697080296,8.114291970802917,69.42207055961075,63.270072992700726,11.102287104622873,34.32506082725061,10.650279960617883,3.6157560097323596,1155,44,208,26,15,385,161,274,0.027999999999999997,0.897,0.075,0.8531,4,0,3,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,3,1,13,11,0,1,16,1,30,7,1,3,1,45,47,21,0,7,12,2,1,6,0,3,4,6,2,0,16,11,0,1,8,1,0,5,4,2,0,0,4,11,21,9,32,37,4,34,0,0,3,3,15,14,1,10,20,148,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.22306265252084065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07772165769788701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10174303585599513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09845139723319947,0.11983172084561115,0.12350774350835712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07370810574143373,0.11782878796864445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23881910398435585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07548799015523616,0.10338256455502856,0.09629492150664544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05778885844437798,0.08164936457776159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05971222159514015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032009095078878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12881402888569982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464298298853562,0.0,0.3376602237171389,0.0,0.0,0.1290203925447724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10158690719538098,0.0,0.0,0.06281123027198382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16145393261434202,0.3350202472616209,0.0,0.1009208631619893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10315190191032024,0.0,0.15257998216657742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08692329738881725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12376579008349405,0.0,0.07923484455849368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080417404047506,0.2576913907457401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10936085255044577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13008794263363502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817772500486,0.0,0.0,0.09107496387453763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.263959906068469,0.11303651560818692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912727740557415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09989518970098253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07592972368895277,0.07323292459680299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775959454631085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09071871082066033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16237779882144074,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,redditreadr999,2019/02/08,"Have you been in Involuntary/Assistant Outpatient Treatment? Take our survey. Hi all, MadInAmerica.com is conducting a survey of people who have been court ordered or compelled to be in Involuntary/Assistant Outpatient Treatment (IOT/AOT). [You can take the survey here.](https://www.madinamerica.com/involuntary-outpatient-survey/) If you aren't sure what Involuntary/Assisted Outpatient Treatment is, here's a quick overview: Outpatient commitment—also called Assisted Outpatient Treatment (AOT) or a Community Treatment Order (CTO)—refers to a civil court procedure wherein a judge orders an individual diagnosed with severe a mental disorder who is experiencing a psychiatric crisis that requires intervention to adhere to an outpatient treatment plan designed to prevent further deterioration that is harmful to themselves or others.",16.31975,17.361954141666672,14.53166666666667,26.500000000000053,45.08333333333334,17.333333333333332,58.33333333333334,15.4700424275458,10.266333333333334,707,46,62,28,6,227,75,120,0.10300000000000001,0.877,0.021,-0.8768,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,1,3,0,2,2,2,0,0,10,0,11,1,0,1,2,10,13,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,4,1,10,10,1,7,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,4,1,48,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535484258901015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237481658300041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32180371563148297,0.0,0.0,0.3633720067002703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3195164355497311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219805718646647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35818141924855906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29882018099263685,0.0,0.4767711589465031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,popcornchicken55,2019/02/08,"HELP: The voices in my head is saying the n-word What do i do? Those racist slurs are unbearable, can't stop hearing the voices in my head saying the ''n-word''. Medications doesn't work, it only damper the voices for some time, but they don't stop...",2.9063999999999983,4.410841439999999,3.916999999999998,89.24350000000004,74.6,6.6000000000000005,18.5,7.1686216300943375,0.08579999999999988,192,3,41,2,4,62,33,50,0.053,0.8690000000000001,0.078,0.0414,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,7,3,2,0,0,4,8,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,3,8,1,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,3,24,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5541146376133131,0.0,0.3042650621200309,0.0,0.1809488079396835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719567653613523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20531709712421292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4293667914627714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4513980704768725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15741611703824016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19653443240045515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,getupandgetsprung,2019/02/08,"De-Stigmatize Mental Illness Hi everyone, I'm a 23 year old student entrepreneur looking to solve a problem very close to my heart: de-stigmatizing mental illness. I don't want to hide anymore and neither should you. Let's be proud of and completely own our mental differences. Here is the Facebook page I created - this is the first step in a long walk. Please feel free to join and share your experiences. &#x200B; Much love! &#x200B; \- Benny",4.7650000000000015,7.699797500000002,4.977500000000003,77.18750000000001,74.0,8.0,32.5,8.841846274778883,3.2795,360,18,58,8,8,113,64,80,0.10300000000000001,0.643,0.254,0.9116,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,2,0,2,1,5,0,0,5,0,6,4,1,0,0,8,11,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,1,0,1,0,2,6,5,6,8,4,8,0,0,1,1,6,2,0,0,4,32,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33585841983859555,0.3766542676551472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15370624506963487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625017531204236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16192925713762674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480974789114481,0.0,0.15160780224378773,0.0,0.0,0.0783664854495274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13183253830155126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18366128198879786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15848551998993995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13715932040524104,0.13015071218859578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13988253510712173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46857372814849707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11393386162832254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16263361792730846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17013005572282516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483023871875112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12788116158855434,0.09141581642762192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766542676551472,0.0998070577863942 schizophrenia,jesussearcher,2019/02/08,Memory test Does anyone know of any good online tests I could take that could test my memory or attention? I feel like my memory is bad because of my schizoaffective disorder.,4.803958333333334,7.517227312500001,5.901250000000001,71.75208333333336,72.75,11.766666666666666,23.166666666666664,11.20814326018867,3.807529166666667,142,4,23,6,3,47,24,32,0.165,0.691,0.14400000000000002,-0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,6,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,2,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,12,6,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22389793253918724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23021580276672385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749058742988535,0.20070473392915344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5257507823843803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3773433656495979,0.0,0.2881245726088144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16647619611756875,0.2352127381682979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761551371841922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809444756415988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16085250654375308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475513116643708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KingOfSuns,2019/02/08,The world moves too fast for us to keep up and work at the same time. Help me brainstorm ideas for us to function in an artificially slower environment specially designed for people like us considering we do have the funding By artificial environment I mean work life stress that is reduced to some ratio where we could keep up while still not potentially being unable to sustain a comfortable life. Also consider that our idea could be well structured that a billionaire might find it something worth investing in,11.957,10.519505477777779,10.62277777777778,58.977500000000006,55.33333333333334,13.888888888888893,43.611111111111114,12.602617957971056,5.628444444444443,423,19,65,11,4,133,70,90,0.028999999999999998,0.841,0.13,0.8271,1,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,6,0,0,2,5,5,0,1,6,0,8,2,0,0,0,15,11,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,4,0,3,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,8,4,13,6,2,12,0,0,0,0,7,7,0,2,5,49,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302065344766821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25999592283221673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14881388944154375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10913434394513064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676063399689448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894425478507193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300081718529685,0.07954528510457379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17735794857614373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172725545974438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17305114733467342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11287840097079402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12534625089686766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13002770239518646,0.0,0.1865089567399157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09494124252581296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.587554707366257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14639410349059515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370687774832082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,agent_wolfe,2019/02/08,"Does this Sound like “Hearing Voices”? I’ve never talked to my doctor about schizophrenia, but I’m going to ask next time. I always have this constant monologue running through my head. Lately it’s really negative, & I have great difficulty breaking out of the loop. I’ve been really depressed, I just quit my job and I feel like everyone there hates me. I kept getting really angry and at one point I thought I was going to become violent. I thought quitting was the right thing to do, but now I just feel like an asshole who couldn’t keep it together. :( Is that just a normal human thing or is it “hearing voices”?",3.4122804314329755,5.75773166101695,4.3936363636363645,82.6688520801233,75.61016949152544,7.002773497688753,26.828967642526965,8.00094639256281,1.9079220338983047,488,19,87,8,11,158,80,118,0.22899999999999998,0.6709999999999999,0.1,-0.9678,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,6,7,2,0,4,0,9,2,1,0,1,18,23,5,0,2,6,0,2,3,0,0,1,5,0,1,9,3,0,2,4,0,0,3,3,3,0,1,6,7,13,4,9,16,0,14,0,1,0,0,6,4,0,1,9,57,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12403271953112815,0.16151017005010967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13935419007668512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462885315361608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610846179838691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283881185426657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15257274255874148,0.1304464168976628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14243650056160842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074190365410786,0.21298189616336766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778794926649311,0.0,0.169432371087873,0.0,0.0,0.16434296384217767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14716928182498873,0.15298208959099402,0.0,0.33601065074291464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14792245883526875,0.13249443049393447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16815004795265956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21847459525219132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11496691090121408,0.0,0.15853065470662647,0.0,0.1460505175932623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010092416642587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409131280763297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3170946243995462,0.0,0.0,0.2864815612421112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12729935941977655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198115430055428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980622459227114,0.0,0.0,0.2366794344264641,0.08692008795701903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sheylore,2019/02/08,"Has anyone else been tranquilized with ketamine? I was dosed for being uncooperative with police during a psychotic episode. I had hallucinations following (8 months ago now) and have been quietly suffering since. There is a little reading on it out there, but I am curious about common experience. &#x200B; For those who don't know, you do not go to sleep when you are tranquilized. You just disintegrate into a timeless dimension that overlaps with the real world because you can still see if no one closes your eyes. Perhaps it would have even been enjoyable if I had not been in a hysterical panic, lol.",7.870053404539387,9.299903775700932,8.016288384512679,64.81532710280375,62.644859813084096,11.347930574098802,35.84646194926569,11.20814326018867,4.556659279038719,492,22,76,14,7,160,84,107,0.10300000000000001,0.775,0.122,0.4958,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,5,0,0,8,5,0,1,5,1,18,3,2,0,0,16,22,5,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,7,0,0,1,1,0,2,4,2,0,1,7,3,9,3,11,13,0,16,0,1,2,0,6,8,0,2,6,63,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045744701949647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500523861066849,0.28042559841047743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613682600759646,0.2364636069991873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14068266953843664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927888907402951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524294475381601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22574924708850835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13115882628657774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12683184583218818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313043642230853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842081272845229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156383971914204,0.0,0.0,0.2707731531404556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23084462416193394,0.2626806355056389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839035110009577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19090539687765745,0.0,0.23094883935288896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18430294005684225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16394103297700446,0.0,0.28042559841047743,0.0 schizophrenia,thisisathrowawayy110,2019/02/08,"Does anyone have ORS? It's basically like a mental illness where you're convinced you smell bad but you actually don't. Anyone else struggling with this? I've been wondering if it has something do with anxiety. [https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Olfactory\_reference\_syndrome](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Olfactory_reference_syndrome) So basically I don't know if all of this is actually in my head or that I actually smell. I've asked my family members who said they couldn't smell anything, but my brother actually said I did smell a little. But literally right after I asked my brother who said I smelled I asked my mom who said I didn't smell one bit. But the biggest thing and one gives me the most anxiety is strangers reactions. They cover up their noses when I walk past them, just like if they smelled something bad. I often get weird looks from them. Otherwise I could convince myself it was nothing, but two times people have said to their friend ""smells like shit"" right behind me when I couldn't smell anything. And often people sniff around me. Social situations like sitting in class makes this way worse and sometimes I think the smell comes from sitting. This has made my depression and social anxiety a thousand times worse than it used to be, I basically isolate myself at home because I don't want to be seen or smelled by people. I've been to doctors and two psychologists. they say they can't smell anything. My doctor refuses to give me a referral to a gastro. I wish this wouldn't be true but online there are many more people suffering from this, they say their family can't smell them either. I don't know if we're all just paranoid or actually smell? This has made my life a living hell, I've been so close to suicide because of this and still am. &#x200B;",5.804818276220146,8.288938183800628,5.3314018691588805,78.0145067497404,69.03115264797508,7.746209761163032,27.77673935617861,8.515128840125781,2.073476427829698,1451,51,250,24,27,443,152,321,0.182,0.741,0.078,-0.9897,0,0,2,0,0,1,52.0,0,2,12,0,12,16,2,1,9,0,29,7,3,4,3,49,53,24,1,10,17,3,0,4,1,1,4,7,1,0,17,11,0,1,4,0,0,2,10,8,0,5,14,25,44,8,23,32,6,23,1,2,2,0,36,11,2,12,11,163,61,3,0.0,0.0,0.3901472362943588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08663665060627644,0.09716017898817007,0.0,0.0,0.18350759428264454,0.0,0.0,0.1118198133184728,0.0819284919438758,0.19740085561327272,0.07118137223389412,0.224255480737503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335265571468954,0.09748577469650424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08729563473743014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06887847894889024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06384157129064821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06886944992211391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16368494175941922,0.06997355423560718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0667963382709429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15075838527040694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06177691477344498,0.0,0.04177581135177018,0.15340987858914118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206205120582143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020642177083316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788787409070555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05647812835226281,0.1562577115677545,0.08014094845850629,0.07060616450512726,0.0,0.06714628017043772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15132021264548773,0.0533739356933102,0.08106691225117868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08058089554201811,0.0,0.0,0.0936482115568612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07672379779877668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836596079808758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633088881933765,0.22173684584744166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13657084406551273,0.3803014586875131,0.12717483796804374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820778136935563,0.0,0.08987841510440678,0.0,0.1630183459835594,0.0,0.1231142631080716,0.07908250649132391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06385617698765594,0.0,0.0,0.08359157634650283,0.0,0.08746328620917564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05312188573938256,0.051235153557633625,0.0,0.0,0.09325066388900084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15621864601451954,0.0,0.0,0.06905978614593783,0.0,0.0,0.0471624927642636,0.06346854376002896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09195007933961273,0.0,0.08671323316919985,0.0,0.0,0.16297218751907025,0.0,0.0,0.09716017898817007,0.0 schizophrenia,internal_spell,2019/02/08,"I learned how to transform voices by changing my subconsciounes self image Sorry for any grammar mistakes, I'm from Vienna. I am currently starting to write a self-help guide for people with paranoid schizophrenia. I have experienced that state for 5 years and I'm now 25 years old. It all started after some bad trips on LSD and MDMA. It took me on a huge self-learning journey. I was able to finish my college degree, work for Apple in one of their busy stores and now I'm studying architecture. No one was ever able to tell what I experienced in my mind, people treated me just like a normal person. There are only a few people who actually know what I experience because I've told them. My symptoms where: · Feeling transparent, I thought people could read my mind. · I felt like people commented about me when I was in public places. · I thought I got hidden messages from random sources. · I heard commands and comments when I was alone. · I very often heard harsh, repetitive insults. I have to admit that I was quite lucky. Before hearing reflections, I had a stable personality and healthy relationships with my family, which helps a lot with handling the condition. However It was very hard for me too as I refused to take medication or to go to a psychologist. I became very religious for one year and tried to get better trough praying and refusing of any kind of drugs like alcohol, coffee and weed for a couple of years. But time taught me to be more undogmatic and flexible so I got less religious, but I still refused to take any kind of drugs. I have since found some methods which helped me to deal with what I hear. Now currently I handle what I hear as reflections of my subconsciousness. I found methods and ways to analyse my reflections, to influence them and to change them. So I still have reflections, but I treat them as a part of my subconscious mind. I'm the authority of my mind. I work with reflections like with a tool which mirrors my own self-image, which can be changed to my favour. Old insulting reflections were transformed into positive, authentic reflections because I started to forgive myself instead of blaming. Commands are synchronized with my intentions. And if thats not the case, I can now easily analyse my emotions and take action. Without any fear. In addition to that, this guide will provide everything that helps me to have a healthy and clear daily routine. As well as specific knowledge about biochemistry, psychological effects, mindsets, nutrition and best practices. This knowledge helps me to understand myself better and keep control over certain situations. It took me a lot of work to get here, and I hope I can help some people to realise their true potential and live an enriching life, despite experiencing paranoid schizophrenia. I'm curious if you would be interested in such a book and what you would like to learn, or what you would expect from it. I know that this book can't help everyone, but some people could benefit from it. I would never recommend not to take medication, it is just a guide for people who refuse it and have similar symptoms to me. If you would like to stay informed about this book or if you want to share some ideas, please feel free to send me a message at [Reflectionbook@protonmail.com](mailto:Reflectionbook@protonmail.com) Thank you!",7.755832577543982,8.742807097315438,7.481423907128607,70.11480047161261,62.758389261744966,10.671431162706332,36.24233629602757,10.58352841356552,4.066463595138762,2674,120,439,63,37,848,281,596,0.062,0.743,0.195,0.9979,4,1,5,0,0,0,73.0,0,6,6,9,25,30,2,1,19,0,33,8,0,5,6,113,74,41,0,16,16,0,4,6,0,6,8,6,0,3,30,29,1,6,26,4,2,7,6,5,1,3,21,13,74,26,78,42,14,48,1,0,0,0,49,13,0,18,31,308,104,11,0.12060128642843003,0.0,0.0588447293047156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06444304899937522,0.0,0.0624532806474465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16402602073132344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0503485183243198,0.07351742482610059,0.0,0.051311406023064464,0.0,0.06328180479927442,0.10666203728635952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913702548220547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06763229883250857,0.09629031379710984,0.06672151477996455,0.0,0.0,0.06216731536149747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13985920388261494,0.0,0.0,0.06783010737130471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05454538406423337,0.0,0.05761984871847652,0.054194329913016336,0.058985599849751935,0.056846079802548334,0.0678549881927182,0.060979634081420014,0.0,0.057898073889276966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13223308569800907,0.0,0.0,0.06300919452432185,0.0,0.03427024516750658,0.0,0.0964558658939986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05401753206654282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20388962225903656,0.0,0.2829277504443751,0.0,0.0,0.05989214473122567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06807208636933021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053597982335989225,0.0,0.12558768118924327,0.06627931302494883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04259212760408247,0.17675909022795366,0.0,0.05324657271714869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102530900978636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149310817781014,0.0,0.0,0.24354583946106756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04650757346353975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05908182731110436,0.0,0.0,0.12655076278662622,0.0,0.12258382930459367,0.04586135641546138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06529972034621095,0.0,0.3344389875654444,0.10530439150083422,0.0630013378211808,0.0661919983059036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06413715661120588,0.06031696142465388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06474032392631895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516268878161949,0.0,0.0,0.0498813151964519,0.0677804494706881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06750163319194005,0.12804331689818615,0.06427246241047523,0.0963123431287768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12535091400697196,0.1813543167577915,0.0,0.052705420027660835,0.05551673062472999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09574395012975494,0.035161789983136016,0.0,0.0,0.05761984871847652,0.1339924667187978,0.040940178504274574,0.0,0.0,0.06277509620239957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14926303753789205,0.03556688170353737,0.04786384381953653,0.0,0.0,0.05421752006570031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0581276682250321,0.0,0.13169875931142905,0.0,0.0,0.21417923414701887,0.0,0.0,0.15532654878282953 schizophrenia,-angel-kid-,2019/02/08,"Cartoon hallucinations This is really bugging me and I can't find information anywhere online. I have visual hallucinations of cartoons but I don't have any vision loss past completely normal and not that bad near sightedness, so there is no way it's Charles Bonnet Syndrome (or whatever it's called.) I know they are hallucinations because they will appear on walls and paper and other surfaces they shouldn't appear on. They are not visual imprints or anything of the sort because I will see cartoons I've never watched or haven't watched in years like The Simpsons and Adventure Time and sometimes video game characters like Mario, or even cartoon characters that I'm pretty sure don't exist. They will be 2D, usually semi transparent and laid against a flat surface. Sometimes they will be still images and sometimes they will move. Sometimes it will be like a giant collage of multiple characters or their features while other times it will just be a couple of characters, and sometimes scenes or levels will play out. They usually will move when my eyes move but not if I look at something completely different and sometimes they won't move either way. If I blink they sometimes disappear and sometimes don't. Has //anyone// else had anything similar to this? I'm seriously freaked out because I can't find any information online of other people experiencing this. Also, I am not on any drugs, prescription, OTC, or illegal.",7.773982794698906,9.379283189723324,7.377754010695188,68.67486631016045,62.95256916996047,10.063613113229485,37.807254126947214,10.194018383442646,4.313368937456406,1169,58,175,26,17,368,134,253,0.078,0.8190000000000001,0.10300000000000001,0.8161,2,0,2,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,11,1,7,10,0,0,5,0,30,2,1,0,2,42,37,26,0,4,17,0,0,3,0,11,1,0,0,0,12,13,0,0,5,3,0,7,14,4,0,0,1,6,22,6,15,21,1,32,0,1,5,0,15,13,0,12,13,121,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07102004004070109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18117825845162666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06209689349709675,0.0909946938317083,0.14616348144958713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07415129888090223,0.16241031680771198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09068329893839053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862278214605431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982647980297348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09278586910110784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029895414353778,0.0,0.07418801696249228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05865710620627972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16233852516278433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048806770420490364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13016188525133154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07457668341109762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3775570699947852,0.0,0.0,0.0684945077808711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08701336963196002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477766028911986,0.06156855789838836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09035006318525443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056892930820284876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707687914029234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06836903995199661,0.7026701744298385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07092249761213228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370085968613039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356977662906257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956197969410884,0.0,0.0,0.14098393783067606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057189693591098524 schizophrenia,stelioskali,2019/02/08,"Please give me some advice So I’ll be frank, I’m in my late teens and for a while now I’ve been doing a lot of acid and other psychedelics with my friends. We had already tried it earlier in our lives but for the better part of a year we’ve been going hard tripping almost every weekend. It all seemed like fun and games until my best friend of 12 years has begun acting very erratically. We’re very close so I feel we can talk about everything and I sat down and honestly asked what’s with his obsessive nature at random times. He opened up and told me that he has these very scare thoughts at night that some unearthly beings that exist beyond our dimension and control the world sense that he can acknowledge them. He says they don’t like that and our trying to kill him. At first I thought he was having night terrors or something but he later also went on about other delusions ( I feel bad calling what he believes that) that the government is out to get him and that there’s a conspiracy in our foods. You might think he’s joking but this last month he’s completely changed his diet. I was honestly entertaining a lot of what he was saying to not seem disrespectful and to understand further how he feels. He explained how we’ve all been set up in a loop of eternal suffering all brought on by these beings. He told me how when we die, the light is a hoax and we shouldn’t walk into it, because it just reincarnates us back into the suffering. He says the only way to break free is to not go in. This really scared me because although he didn’t say out it right, I knew the logical next step if all this was true. I asked him , then what’s the point of living if it all comes down to this moment, and he responded what I dreaded, That he’d been secretly having those thoughts more and more. I know there’s still the part of him that I grew up with so I tried reasoning with him and telling him how these things couldn’t be, and he admit to me that although he loves and trusts me, there’s a feeling in the back of his head that says “don’t trust him, he’s part of it”. I’m honestly scared for my friend and I hope I can stop whatever’s going on with him before it’s too late. I fear for his life. If this is not schizophrenia and I’m In the wrong subreddit I apologize. I just don’t know what it could be and all the signs point to schizophrenia.",4.133227272727275,4.998491883333337,4.636060606060607,87.73136363636368,70.79166666666666,8.068181818181818,25.79545454545455,8.296473431620573,1.3795625000000005,1864,54,400,27,33,592,223,480,0.13,0.7190000000000001,0.151,0.8240000000000001,0,0,1,1,0,0,31.0,9,1,2,4,22,31,1,7,20,0,35,5,1,6,7,92,69,40,2,7,12,0,5,2,3,2,1,5,0,0,39,35,2,2,20,4,1,11,9,12,0,1,19,12,51,20,54,40,16,69,0,2,0,1,67,30,0,14,27,267,90,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08136779447121294,0.0,0.0,0.08338012445216544,0.0,0.0918874826065569,0.06658879094449402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15568727980793193,0.0,0.0,0.12805475325247925,0.06952467693081224,0.10151788731687512,0.0,0.0708542981074406,0.09381367832257546,0.0873838432727646,0.07364311731428276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08502517362289473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808571124818908,0.07172736418477615,0.0873041289766798,0.0,0.0933913029203692,0.06648212480839713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641826085803353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07015625067962407,0.0,0.07483523654884472,0.0,0.0,0.0936988076164314,0.1684096970465178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07082708159260571,0.1006870910393048,0.0,0.19299621587701274,0.0,0.04350370218201813,0.07987753503725503,0.14196809377366007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07459110199300821,0.0,0.08545622264622525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270316886605558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09212287672001006,0.0,0.09152300760020424,0.0678739235081558,0.18785817312645536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05881412224278736,0.08136034618749823,0.0,0.14705301721042366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415816791280138,0.07515194545333323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833339523159797,0.0,0.0,0.06646312573494902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08855566662137461,0.15628134971726546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06332849693520473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705109571347473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09140243746557147,0.15742893405184324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053343133493594035,0.0856126026877481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07110977782028342,0.0,0.33108730249554763,0.2500951345363343,0.0,0.0,0.15160675694082373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06410319827798172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06649733461216215,0.06961515071844637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06692706265186353,0.0727792479675793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05531906195893356,0.053354292579809184,0.0,0.1983146899568948,0.04855380396975422,0.0,0.0,0.15913085430437945,0.0,0.16959899389678385,0.0,0.0,0.08668414539349709,0.10016025113361124,0.0,0.0,0.20611260882966306,0.0,0.06609366847271744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07718957636353742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09103966800800696,0.0,0.10724275988959964 schizophrenia,SoundsLikeAnts,2019/02/08,"I’m back from inpatient care... so this is how life can be? I was recently discharged from a psychiatric ward and came out of it with an Insomnia Disorder, GAD and also Schizoid Personality Disorder. I didn’t “come out of there” like that, I just found what I have been dealing with has a name. After having an alarming number of psychotic episodes in the span of three weeks (any number is alarming) I became very worried and went to a psychiatrist and therapist as soon as I could. We talked and discussed all sorts of things, but then I had a complete breakdown last weekend and had to admit myself once I snapped out of it. I realize now all of the paranoia and delusions were directly caused by my insomnia, but it was scary and life changing nonetheless. I also recently found this community and just wanted to say hi to everyone hope you are doing well. Thanks for listening to me talk about my week. Love you all p.s. what i meant by the title was: life doesn’t have to distorted and chaotic, there is actually peace, which i am finding slowly. 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I got married and and am now separated to someone who is currently in a psych hospital. I don't know all the details, but I do know he's being forced to take anti-psychotics. I had to escape the relationship after a lot of emotional abuse and turbulance. I originally thought he had Narcissistic Personality Disorder, but I am hearing now that they are almost certain he is having schizophrenia symptoms. His friends and family are fearing for his life. Some of them have updated me on recent events. During the breakup he lied incessantly and said a ton of deplorable things about me to his friends to cover up his selfish acts. I was very confused for a long time, wondering how I could be certain of the authenticity of his love, and yet he could be so cruel on a whim. I had to eventually block him and go no contact for awhile. Before he was checked into the hospital he sent me over a hundred texts. Not all lucid, but the general gist was that he loves me and we belong together. He's since had his phone taken away. We are still technically officially married, but I have already completed the separation paperwork and am waiting for the 12 month term necessary in my jurisdiction to file the divorce. We haven't seen each other in 7 months. My question is, should I offer to see him? He is in a different country. Would this help his condition or cause more stress/confusion? I have no intention of getting back together with him, but I still care about him deeply. Thank you for listening. 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Hey all! To start i'm not schizophrenic, but about a year ago I read the book in the title, and i've just gone back and read it again recently. Schizophrenia is a big big part of it, and I wanted to see if I could find someone with first hand experience had either read it or would be willing to and get back to me with a book report! Thanks for the interest! Here's a PDF if you'd like (s-f-walker.org.uk/pubsebooks/pdfs/Julian_Jaynes_The_Origin_of_Consciousness.pdf)",7.149489795918367,9.025136193877556,6.125102040816326,76.08418367346937,64.61224489795919,8.457142857142857,24.20408163265306,8.841846274778883,1.4686571428571429,449,10,81,7,7,135,69,98,0.0,0.836,0.16399999999999998,0.9537,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,1,6,3,0,0,9,0,8,2,1,1,1,21,15,8,0,5,7,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,2,6,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,2,5,3,13,8,3,14,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,3,10,55,8,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16064296082354002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267151030959094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786980909540672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14469155416776053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17727054319838342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16563423541792674,0.15414790881513016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468136433528287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08853624166964988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829832338949728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962464894137044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7250868376729273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789355217751135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441100341055876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15354937849861847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827033715167382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16684548465239693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10688982489825828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12873538380813962,0.0,0.0,0.11670145656736162 schizophrenia,myredditusernameo10,2019/02/08,Need advice My son was evaluated at a mental health urgent care as having schizophrenia and they wrote a prescription for zyprexa. Told us it is fine to go home and start the medication. He has psychosis and is depressed and hears voices. Is it normal or safe to just go home and start the medication just like that? ,4.746949152542372,7.005056237288137,4.812000000000001,81.58003389830509,71.37288135593221,7.431864406779661,25.359322033898305,8.238735603445708,1.6189769491525428,254,8,46,4,5,79,44,59,0.05,0.767,0.183,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,1,0,2,5,0,0,4,0,6,3,0,0,0,12,15,7,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,2,3,4,5,12,0,5,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,1,3,29,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21006098265160064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191708025291272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851487509041824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443387458725685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284973866083008,0.2422808005200184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4312541721229988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10502087699493176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4331085689528825,0.21663382200987247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15939357523028072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106197303009436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30430619249387514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20540794943872312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25857602399682983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,facetiousdog,2019/10/08,"What do you do to treat your condition or just better yourself in general? Hi all. So in early 2018 I thought I had it together, no more delusions, voices or any bad symptoms really. I had a job and girlfriend (still have the ladder thankfully!) and was doing well in general. But in early 2019 I had an episode and had to quit work and have been recovering since. Looking back I thought I had it together but I was still drinking on the weekends and smoking mj here and there. Now I realized I just can't do any of that anymore. I've been clean of everything (except vaping) the last 35+ days and want to work on building my physical and mental health as much as possible before going back to work and prepare myself to handle stress better (a big reason why I had that episode earlier this year). So what do you guys do to help yourselves out? So far I've been working out everyday for 60-120 minutes and I watch what I eat carefully. I'm doing IF (20:4) and the keto diet since I have a good amount of weight to lose (damn risperdal!). I've been trying to get back into meditating but I procrastinate it a lot and I'm gonna start using my gyms sauna more (s/o to Ronda Patrick!!!) Tl;dr - Recovering from an episode and just want to know what you guys are doing to stay healthy and prevent episodes... any tricks or tips are welcome",3.5644522904218725,5.221976479087456,4.728506246605106,83.46782002534856,73.18250950570342,7.899257649827992,28.493391272858954,8.563005593585519,2.1392851348904585,1046,42,205,19,21,344,150,263,0.048,0.82,0.132,0.9647,1,0,1,0,0,0,39.0,0,4,0,8,15,13,2,1,10,0,26,6,0,2,1,41,41,26,0,3,11,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,1,2,10,17,4,1,5,3,0,1,2,5,1,0,14,4,21,8,28,26,6,27,0,1,2,0,10,11,1,5,14,137,31,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561588979853794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12452352184890282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28964771817961904,0.10483882099235332,0.0,0.0,0.10684380573558197,0.0,0.0,0.22209833786395605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12801857782325726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08097694473059254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12300271837542966,0.0,0.12848102224121574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11284680943246042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06560083479573768,0.0,0.07135963913251507,0.10531524314354401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24865175715881116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13346627439591618,0.0,0.0,0.08416139787737886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12460066768002175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06900545701225097,0.10234958910778637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544025095092624,0.14047148677428395,0.0,0.1067481142607104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265367169444701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09230233749693667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141552013147431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335503825079362,0.0,0.0,0.08043807566443552,0.12909839677216073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077319630761795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887325669371264,0.13383212467118022,0.2005475600213376,0.0,0.14383056651510892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13050674053755631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11560039456484635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993640167143844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08524818978697561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084450421283481,0.0,0.0,0.14811915298696074,0.0,0.0,0.15290039147244086,0.11289509741286055,0.0,0.11329995431423236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3656418132883879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08085765373624378 schizophrenia,PiratesOfTheArctic,2019/10/08,"Thought I'd say Hi New to the group. I had a nervous breakdown a few years ago, from that, I have schizophrenia, I hear voices quite a few times a day - usually whispering, I know they arn't real, but at least they are better than a lot of conversations I have to listen to :/",5.891575757575757,5.249497309090909,6.363636363636362,82.09212121212124,66.81818181818181,9.515151515151514,31.06060606060606,8.841846274778883,2.2210606060606053,212,7,45,3,3,69,41,55,0.092,0.8320000000000001,0.076,0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,8,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,7,1,7,6,4,7,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,1,6,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688777386262593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682647443493746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19561838764999845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3418673208848465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16669851257907592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25787456004707643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929514620736076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32262158794901064,0.0,0.345248237418646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24121480404541776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408047601378665,0.17687021250809504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33406768057132064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19533021288552316 schizophrenia,c0keahontas,2019/10/08,BROCCOLI My boyfriend has schizophrenia and he's scared of the doctor (we're working on it) and about six months ago I read a John's Hopkins study about sulforaphane broccoli sprout extract and its affect on schizophrenia so I got him to try the supplement... It stops all visual and auditory hallucinations for him almost instantly. He gets the Swanson brand 400 mcg from Walmart for $8 and takes 4 at a time once or twice a day. Y'all should check it out!!! I posted this on a couple Facebook schizophrenia support groups and a few people tried it and messaged me that they had huge improvements!!💓,5.23153153153153,7.385524945945949,4.634414414414414,83.80315315315315,69.81081081081078,6.7351351351351365,30.35135135135136,7.3871296695380915,1.8916378378378376,483,20,85,5,9,145,84,111,0.043,0.897,0.059000000000000004,0.3956,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,1,3,2,0,1,8,0,3,1,0,1,1,14,7,9,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,8,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,9,1,12,4,2,12,0,0,0,0,8,6,0,2,5,52,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228188607433136,0.0,0.2517045571354964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781292867353636,0.0,0.1621088696271848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25728152181959063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13132722172610067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20103861004213527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20063620363811635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676942655594322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17426402370889713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24073705698016665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514318434527055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25165903542685963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101514095431685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285244685085175,0.0,0.0,0.18899431065288888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146572265341987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413190687820413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18299585529503645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tess615,2019/10/08,"Self harm When/if the voices tell you to harm yourself, do you do it? How do you fight it? My scars are so ugly but I can't seem to ignore it until I just give in.",-2.3844736842105263,-0.6617178684210536,0.7266315789473694,103.38942105263159,96.10526315789473,3.04,10.23157894736842,3.1291,-2.1027010526315792,123,1,33,0,5,43,29,38,0.22699999999999998,0.708,0.065,-0.6824,0,0,0,0,1,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,5,7,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,6,0,4,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,1,1,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5055026203945238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4797194409376688,0.5497283020338591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4605813204024785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,QueenFlippyNipps,2019/10/08,"My mom is throwing away her favorite stuff?? Help or advice needed So it's not like this is the first time she's thrown stuff out that doesn't need throwing out or burning it examples are family photos, clothes, random items in the house. She's been like this my whole life so it's whatever to me but this is were its getting weird She NEVER throws away her favorite stuff just everyone else's she's thrown away her own family photos and her portfolio she loves to show everyone and even her modeling photos back in the day before she broke. Like literally her prized posestions that she would never throw out until recently now. I've been coming out the house every morning to find random stuff of hers either wrapped in boxes she's found around the house or not at all and she's hiding them behind bushes and incorners around the house and near the garbage bins. So I've been bringing it all back into the house and hiding it all in the garage while she's asleep because she's been doing it around 3 in the morning every night so far Normally if it wasn't her stuff I wouldn't say anything or be worried because she Hates everyone, so me and my dad are worried and wondering what's going on and if anyone ells has experienced this? I don't know what to do and won't know what to do when she finds out ive been putting everything back in the house",5.549385523726215,6.1329282639405225,5.583406953859612,83.21575333479119,67.47583643122678,8.708593920839713,28.091187404329762,8.671277953709913,1.9113260879072824,1089,33,214,16,17,342,131,269,0.08900000000000001,0.836,0.075,-0.2415,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,2,15,8,1,0,11,0,23,3,1,0,5,49,35,25,0,7,11,2,0,3,0,3,1,1,0,0,22,20,0,0,6,1,1,8,9,3,0,1,8,2,30,5,29,23,7,44,0,1,0,1,27,22,0,9,17,156,52,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07902887165723373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056548791492679586,0.0,0.06655218780568531,0.215984294222694,0.0,0.0,0.22795059085246505,0.1865607159255608,0.0,0.09859974870668564,0.0,0.06881758646508918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0696655561983532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052156864474366564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755962281210565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05341633504706568,0.0,0.1362792089166007,0.2318349405299905,0.07268409255887766,0.0,0.152481107621755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14783424570326711,0.0687911522908336,0.0,0.08867386916349412,0.0,0.0,0.04225318528909585,0.0,0.045962403737964036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07984606372011625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05420795558127957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5599045474108637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08889217249067151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057123506278672874,0.11853245621241525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07299169764425799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09471833357311528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11993369012039605,0.12474961051232905,0.0,0.0,0.07589451581850723,0.0792390829764007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0813004347853156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0798530503805538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06431403507076111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46290535227531704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047158121555743227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09029262989072484,0.0,0.0,0.08770410889840255,0.0,0.16426239433359655,0.0,0.05745037646527847,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ctlynchyo,2019/10/08,What were your early signs? I’m getting very nervous as I slowly piece together all my symptoms as time passes me by,3.569565217391304,5.657084434782611,4.799347826086958,81.1364130434783,74.21739130434783,6.339130434782609,28.89130434782609,7.1686216300943375,1.869973913043478,94,4,16,1,2,31,21,23,0.107,0.893,0.0,-0.3384,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,3,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3390807610864737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.674569539338618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37844275263802296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5355009402729921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,virgilioleveron,2019/10/08,Olanzapine thoughts? I’m about to start olanzapine but I’m a bit scared of the side effects as I had a bad time on seroquel. I’d love to hear your experiences with it!,0.843,3.161226371428576,3.3310714285714305,86.76517857142859,85.28571428571428,6.928571428571428,25.892857142857146,8.07648339933343,1.6671428571428573,133,6,30,3,4,46,28,35,0.21899999999999997,0.639,0.14300000000000002,-0.4753,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,4,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,2,1,7,5,1,4,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068456508984524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4012128588342488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594837620234441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4141971861715084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316814782449305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3679298139455637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26011712111524543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917525249493081,0.21429115877117155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Schietzelfromage,2019/10/08,"My Schizophrenia enabled me to know what gandalf says before he falls with the balrog! What he speaks to the Trick and the other people in the fellowship before he falls isn't ""Fly, you fools!"" Like everyone thinks. He says Flor in a grunting kind of way. So it is ""Flor you fools!"" Flor in Latin or Spanish means flower or blossom in verb sense. We before he keaves them on their journey he is telling them to blossom you fools or. Mature and grow to be beautiful souls you fools. What's your thoughts. If you tell anyone say Schizophrenics are cool/u ique.",3.4209433962264164,5.814871849056607,3.0156981132075447,92.32128301886793,75.79245283018868,5.372075471698114,23.807547169811322,6.2581,0.5358105660377359,440,14,85,3,10,130,70,106,0.067,0.845,0.08900000000000001,0.5386,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,6,3,1,1,7,1,0,5,0,5,1,0,0,0,12,9,7,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,5,4,0,0,4,0,0,4,1,5,0,0,1,4,12,2,11,7,0,10,1,0,0,0,22,5,0,4,1,45,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15034692263051636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5488983269903309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20546074134596384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239101512322117,0.11816932092742953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10504786841572053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23421972050280074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490677341412295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5129773952512373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3758737626939025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13777607812585416,0.0,0.1707017929634245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706727985850467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,blisselie,2019/10/08,"Day in the life of a schizophrenic Have breakfast. I don't brush my teeth in the morning out of sensory issues. Lie in bed until I can catch the bus or get my dad or nans attention Away from home time Leave the house as soon as I have breakfast as I want to do something and feel restless. At noonish. Weekday: Catch the bus to town to run errands or go to tafe or art clubs Weekend: ask my dad or nan if I can come over to my nans house to watch tv with her. If my nan is not free I catch the bus or get my mum to drop me in town. I usually have a cheap lunch if I'm in town or have tea with my nan. Arrive home at 2-4pm. I get social anxiety in town and hear voices on the bus home Then go home and do the dishes I chose to watch tv or I lie in bed but sometimes watching tv makes me feel restless and sad. So I go lie down and the voices appear as I drown in music. Sometimes on the rare occassion I do art for my work but should do more hours or go on the treadmill to exercise Then at 8:30pm I sometimes watch tv with my parents but then my tics come out and my parents start an argument. So I leave and go to bed and don't have trouble going to sleep. I used to have trouble going to sleep at night because of chronic pain but its lessened and I barely notice it.",1.9537281385281384,2.957598374545455,3.5055064935064952,93.2538787878788,76.16363636363639,6.401731601731602,24.004329004328998,6.655083550727371,0.5336510822510823,983,30,232,8,21,326,124,275,0.105,0.87,0.025,-0.9626,2,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,3,7,0,2,14,0,16,13,3,2,0,41,38,35,1,5,17,5,2,0,0,1,5,3,7,0,2,16,5,0,3,9,2,14,3,6,0,0,0,10,31,2,46,37,1,51,0,1,4,0,9,24,0,13,12,142,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08450747281194967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10327236872914296,0.0,0.10378802170330644,0.0,0.0,0.06734007238437073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19031624963062227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712425148160141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11171155634813244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17314441019330995,0.0,0.4394692977802717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12450510387002425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4432323599667063,0.0,0.10878841274858762,0.2549297420161975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152995574819892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23393864562395145,0.0,0.0,0.07802658927860046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373803417402895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036664343638131,0.0,0.0,0.12576818581807298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175454000361698,0.0,0.2453225712711769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22109491681007487,0.11260788820409234,0.0,0.08504341700167355,0.3277660804179373,0.0,0.07818959245516248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06441459254671257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09540860730490516,0.12166454272814352,0.0,0.06515669976384275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804217866802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,akod1,2019/10/08,"If you only have episodes once or twice a year...is it still schizo? Majority of the time my thoughts are normal, it takes usually extreme stress and certain environmental factors for it to happen, but when it does, it is very intense and typically ruins jobs and relationships for me. So I’m not sure if it is the same? Sometimes I feel crappy for getting disability for it, but when I lose a job and relationships because of it, I don’t feel as bad.",6.543103448275862,6.5588575632183925,7.471862068965517,72.4843448275862,65.32183908045978,10.178390804597699,35.79080459770115,9.888512548439397,3.4206018390804602,356,16,68,7,5,120,61,87,0.22899999999999998,0.735,0.036000000000000004,-0.9670000000000001,2,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,4,6,0,1,4,0,5,0,0,0,2,17,12,13,0,3,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,1,2,6,2,8,11,2,6,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,3,5,47,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702704086053587,0.1243119200064663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784577678904542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20622309369198136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10654336666317138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803318472686843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4047318807586599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281419919077886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19980502330996627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21717544857996893,0.0,0.1550955649927181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4378822565212612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20168887720215944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628562524188033,0.0,0.2335975271245569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19219865052219315,0.0,0.1533276183908039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16189514659669685,0.11891139097995017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22459662378911488,0.1682610150017573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13132221070613734 schizophrenia,realteenboy,2019/10/08,"How can I be there for my friend with schizophrenia? I am not schizophrenic, but my close friend is. She has told me a lot about everything she’s been going through, and she has also told me that she doesn’t believe I am real. How can I be there for her and support her when she doesn’t even believe I exist?",4.379687499999998,4.583177593750001,4.662500000000001,90.1325,69.9375,7.65,26.9375,7.1686216300943375,1.0644187500000002,242,7,54,2,4,76,40,64,0.0,0.835,0.165,0.8836,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,1,0,12,1,0,2,0,10,16,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,0,16,3,5,11,1,3,0,0,0,0,11,1,0,1,1,47,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19610229186608635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5525577823685056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619654530565136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203878639544904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789126239631133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13936413904897205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084772179329386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791139692885964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782726740396217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4686363094009199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ikilledthearchduke,2019/10/08,"How can I be there for my friend with Schizophrenia? I have a close friend who has schizophrenia. I know a bit from what she’s told me, but basically she has told me she doesn’t believe I exist. How can I be there for her to support her when she talks with me about what she’s going through when she doesn’t even think I’m real?",2.9970000000000034,3.8412675571428596,3.3557142857142854,95.93928571428572,73.42857142857143,6.171428571428572,22.57142857142857,5.6839178017228535,-0.04234285714285768,259,6,62,1,5,80,41,70,0.0,0.871,0.129,0.797,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,2,0,9,0,0,2,0,9,16,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,17,3,8,12,1,4,0,0,0,0,14,1,0,0,2,47,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31007533087491235,0.0,0.0,0.3004657003471426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18177824310620386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4252639669445015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564121722889351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512520741736617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31325721631499204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123130077235535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22120901202600726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17634795075826454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.525963304958314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,peacefullyafflicted,2019/08/23,"Generic Quetiapine vs Seroquel Has anyone noticed a difference with generic vs brand names Seroquel? A while ago I started taking generic Quetiapine just based in price, after having only taken Seroquel. Now at the time I thought the switch had made me a hell of a lot more lethargic than usual, but I shrugged it off, putting it in the back of my mind until last night. Last night I remembered I had a few tablets left of the proper stuff, so I figured I would test my theory I took 300mg before bed it kicked in withing 30-45 minute mark compared to about 1 1/2 hours +; to add, I woke up this morning with next to no lethargy and feeling quite alert compared to my usual dopey demeanor. Is there a possibility that although the active ingredient is the same, that the non-active ingredient in the generic affects how the Quetiapine works in my body? Has anyone experienced this with brand and non brand medications?",7.3922807017543875,7.776374573099421,7.364380116959065,72.7206052631579,63.50292397660819,9.41309941520468,36.98304093567252,9.120678840339163,3.398213567251462,736,34,126,11,10,236,110,171,0.067,0.8809999999999999,0.052000000000000005,-0.35,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,7,1,1,0,15,0,8,2,1,3,0,23,16,8,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,8,7,0,0,4,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,7,2,14,0,23,8,4,27,1,0,0,0,1,9,1,1,16,84,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14614351999170258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305558999611522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267715678862994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028859115996298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831286569243494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17224959534637388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336106548013048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623595319064961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687751444808496,0.0,0.0,0.17912709530922405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14016294585836284,0.0,0.15599993763819778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16608487569263494,0.0,0.0,0.1664673868296737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17533657154722973,0.30943063387865666,0.0,0.0,0.1877007234708152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253878148908647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185861336214986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16573559234760926,0.0,0.17535499490985515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867607305941001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11669281047714057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887318141971006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239585092800424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13088497194712898,0.09613453151487134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831718894389568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3631526135528755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12002421315454735,0.0,0.0,0.11711588258056715,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HellaYamz,2019/08/23,"Headed to get help for the first time Finally headed in to get REAL help. Inpatient with psychiatrists and therapists. I’m ready to tackle this thing for real, for the first time. I’ve been a lurker for a while, but all your stories really help and let me know I’m not alone. Wish me well on this venture. I really need it. Even if I don’t know you, I love you all. We can do this.",0.9381249999999994,2.922418562499999,3.207500000000003,89.87750000000004,82.125,7.0,17.5,8.07648339933343,0.52325,295,6,66,6,8,101,51,80,0.034,0.737,0.22899999999999998,0.94,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,3,0,2,2,2,0,0,4,0,5,3,2,0,2,15,14,5,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,9,2,10,12,2,8,0,0,0,1,8,2,0,1,6,45,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18700384766965766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192569920246118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19779268880321008,0.0,0.3071654351757125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18866842049707247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3706096203226981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3630730779675023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198460135769887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18463299859025084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16296083016841734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388162173207765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4110295347711404,0.23134042014384704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20964199341886555,0.11995484889428225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21056988358761927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623435111540033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20763302581375395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,maaria_dd,2019/08/23,"Voices or just thoughts? Hey guys, I have a question iv been wondering for awhile and I hope it doesnt sound stupid. Are voice-hearing experiences always auditory experiences? I assume many people experience voices similar to having someone in the same room as you, however mine are more thought like, they're always there and mostly negative, but they don't have any acoustic properties. Are these just constant anxious thoughts or not? I want to ask my doctor but I'm kind of scared and rather hear someone eles opinion first. Thanks!",5.414619883040935,8.319718789473683,5.170877192982456,76.79058479532165,71.63157894736842,8.011695906432749,31.60818713450293,8.841846274778883,3.0785204678362565,435,20,69,9,9,134,76,95,0.115,0.787,0.098,-0.4073,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,1,4,6,1,1,2,0,9,2,0,0,0,22,19,8,0,3,8,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,1,1,2,3,0,0,6,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,4,4,8,4,6,15,3,4,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,8,3,44,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26317531108863823,0.0,0.0,0.10754267192222318,0.0,0.0,0.17865659128236133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14784236959237482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17089641592055807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16186607509023587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.464082636486177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13451636622955265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15658644626434526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3564773386919465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15707169491354986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16468161253183836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07726068813107267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603321938443094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963645328159413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771563674983574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15832874447199666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679881237599118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455968393587842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766436631737041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09327684652193977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17149935187211734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,milkypurin,2019/08/23,"Hallucinations about Decapitation I stopped enjoying cooking and many other activities involving knives because of my fear of them. I've had hallucinations where people point knives at me or cut my throat with a knife. I'm extremely paranoid around people (especially men) who use knives because I'm afraid of them decapitating me. This is normal for a schizophrenic person, right? Is it not?.",7.049090909090908,10.195989060606065,7.472727272727273,61.07909090909092,67.48484848484848,10.460606060606061,33.72727272727273,10.504223727775694,4.515109090909091,322,15,47,10,6,105,50,66,0.14400000000000002,0.8059999999999999,0.05,-0.6655,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,3,4,1,2,2,0,3,3,1,1,0,8,6,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,7,1,8,5,0,6,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,1,1,28,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649889500086232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3629131086813081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33496092610428513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017901353080704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916528927225533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41273307970423656,0.2599135114413956,0.0,0.0,0.2813938772918197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542081125648721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488650170554677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570908602112936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SlightLavishness,2019/08/23,"Has any of you ever ""not recognized yourself in the mirror""? What's it like? Hello! My father yesterday told me a blood-curdling story: he had from schizophrenia when he was in his late 20s. He explained to me how much he'd suffered and what he felt like. Basically he had troubles ""recognizing himself in the mirror"" and how he just wanted to go to his mother and ask her who he was. He also explained how at the time he was ""not totally gone insane"", so he had to struggle a lot just not to go ""completely insane"". However, he didn't have allucinations of any kind (which is typical of this illness). When he was recounting this story he started crying (which he'd only done a couple of times before), and basically just hope that I'll never have to go through this. Has any of you ever had these symptoms?",5.451538461538462,6.1235103076923085,6.605538461538463,75.48946153846154,67.71794871794873,9.060512820512821,30.98461538461539,9.120678840339163,2.682550769230769,632,24,115,11,10,213,90,156,0.076,0.8540000000000001,0.069,-0.2805,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,2,0,0,12,7,0,1,6,0,17,2,0,3,4,23,29,11,0,2,6,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,11,4,0,0,3,0,0,4,5,3,0,0,13,1,11,4,17,14,3,18,0,1,0,0,29,4,0,2,12,83,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14574114255731352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3717982470602905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17037433567281424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15507694635697145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19108026030444775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20165046273995066,0.200187412714886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18649975798494006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297018052768745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17498363803680353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31072184822373417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18101025942484114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897799690981608,0.0,0.0,0.2055801314443527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17807125860129486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549380563051494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13397093581690506,0.0,0.14055846514820425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13860542245717442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289938444814342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905218892449174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18942218186847865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21253687792452444,0.0,0.0,0.17414276632364128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10749273569983547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lordhati,2019/08/23,"Antipsychotics/ Weight Gain Im very tired so please excuse how this post is written Have been taking antipsychotics (first 30mg of abilify but was changed to ...some amount of Zyprexa that I cant remember right now, back in January) for about two years now. I was switched to Zyprexa due to Abilify causing extreme tiredness and tremors. Though had already gained some weight on Abilify, the weight gain on Zyprexa has been ridiculous. I rarely eat and when I do it is almost always vegetables and grains as I dont like meat very much. And yet I have gained so much weight.. Any tips for helping keep weight off would be nice as its very triggering for me to have gained so much (previously bulimic) . Please keep in mind I can not afford the gym and have difficulties leaving the house (agoraphobia). Thanks",3.862117346938774,6.8181569931972845,3.244825680272108,88.1627487244898,77.7074829931973,7.212414965986395,27.554846938775512,8.278499904357787,2.062986734693878,646,27,121,13,16,190,96,147,0.065,0.731,0.204,0.9717,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,6,11,4,1,0,3,0,18,8,0,3,0,18,23,14,0,1,2,0,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,5,7,2,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,2,6,5,8,3,17,15,6,15,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,3,9,74,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254960498293863,0.0,0.12403315464199975,0.0,0.09352351168242544,0.0,0.0,0.07643398077329372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08642654343255728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154629317213842,0.11890138172332028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13172873388963754,0.0,0.0,0.11501044149883932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956050390631806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533750400011784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12969132983012238,0.0,0.0,0.12140831191720215,0.0,0.0,0.1998076711531906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11901245343001328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05491161643642909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11348917645984227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478747227034152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467568452030693,0.0,0.0,0.10764549111157876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12732416789752066,0.09598663298576518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08450874012803354,0.0,0.0,0.10348028202470193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042972240692236,0.0,0.0,0.12918409866853653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10979577627371064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782184946136652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6843478212515968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07984377791690604,0.0,0.0,0.07238014060400641 schizophrenia,Moe96_1,2019/08/23,"What's the thing with weed and schizophrenia? I'm schizophrenic first of all, and everytime I do weed it's the same trip of ""something unexplainable"" it's just a circle of self hate and judgments that are produced by me towards me and all I'm thinking of while high is that people around me are testing me and the test of these people will only end in me saying something crazy like I'm a PSYCHOPATH or some weird thing. And all of this is happening with the sound that Pokemon's do when they evolve. It happens to me every time. I'm stable but not on weed I'm not",3.4712367149758454,4.99404062608696,3.963768115942031,89.40294685990341,73.17391304347827,6.502415458937199,25.82125603864734,6.937597516519254,0.9817922705314012,452,15,93,4,9,142,68,115,0.051,0.9179999999999999,0.031,-0.2617,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,2,3,3,1,0,6,0,7,1,0,1,3,21,16,10,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,11,9,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,2,8,1,14,15,5,11,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,2,6,65,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123384307051134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21126295940565165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200968177778119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20288982645337106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42185495234217146,0.0,0.0,0.23549473255905665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520154829703783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11653160166273913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18140953239668609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307273546373693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189685199033386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488343107628845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672574524116366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169317336825877,0.15283762818754898,0.0,0.0,0.1390862455372279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,braindemolition,2019/08/23,"Why won’t these voices go away I have always been a slightly paranoid daredevil, doing things that scare me is fun. It gives me control over my fears. When I went into highschool, I became paranoid about things I can’t control. I started to believe subconsciously that I knew what people were thinking if it was about me. It would then become true because I would think about it so much it ends up manifesting within me. Fast forward a couple years, my life slowly declines. I was in a very rough patch, mainly because of problems with my family and an existential crisis. I decided to take molly. Everything was great until I shit you not I saw my screen freeze up and my vpn (when I didn’t have one installed on my phone) turns on. My phone was moving by itself and it was freezing up when I tried to move it. I got a message on my screen and it said something along the lines of some files/pictures finished downloading. My 5g logo on the top right was missing and it showed a weird icon I couldn’t depict. Then the icon goes away, vpn goes away, and my phone is back to normal. After that I became extremely paranoid. I was on a medication to quit nicotine at the time and I didn’t realize that the two did not mix well. I became paranoid one night, hearing noises that weren’t there. At one point I was walking around with a machete lol. Currently I go to university and I have broken my need to even care about what people think. I show up to school blasting music on my subs, I skate around school busting tricks on my way to class, eat shit a couple times in front of tons of people and laugh it off and move on with my day. But when I sit in class, or I don’t have enough to focus on , my mind starts spitting voices at me. My head simulates voices from people in the room that I know nothing about and it really bugs me because I know these thoughts aren’t mine. These voices tend to be judging me on my “insecurities” (which I am no longer insecure about but have questioned in the past such as my sexuality (100% straight ), being an alpha/beta/sigma/omega/delta/gamma male(I don’t care about social status labels or fitting in in general), being a sociopath and a psychopath (can’t be because i have empathy), having a tiny dick (I’m def above average), etc. Pretty much anything that you can think of that a male would be insecure of is spat to me in my head. It’s like my head is simulating the judgements of other people and the only way I can break out of it is to attack each thought logically and truthfully. When my head is clear of these voices I truly can experience happiness. I currently take adderal xr in low dosage (10mg) to help with ADD. I also smoke / drink every once in a while. I’m 19. Is this purely anxiety? Or is this schitzophrenia and psychosis? Will it ever stop or am I screwed for life? Any advice would be really helpful. I want to break free of the voices/judgements that I think other people are thinking. I don’t want to take meds for any of it. Please help",3.9447884940778337,5.425965475465312,4.8660101522842645,83.56761082910323,71.91032148900169,7.351472081218272,26.162098138747893,7.870641169985416,1.497120067681895,2360,77,457,31,45,768,286,591,0.099,0.784,0.11699999999999999,0.9629,5,0,3,0,0,0,71.0,0,2,0,4,22,25,5,5,25,1,55,15,9,2,5,71,89,34,0,11,9,0,3,1,0,6,3,7,1,1,38,26,2,3,15,3,1,9,14,14,1,4,21,13,70,12,83,55,8,84,0,2,3,2,15,45,4,7,28,324,108,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703149035994098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05754345987244201,0.05987343998500594,0.0,0.0,0.09786555868827307,0.0,0.055046403884907114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05921393753643756,0.1281127981777294,0.0,0.0818607258021239,0.2028160529829919,0.05532998460207657,0.0,0.17545567031013104,0.07947012527303032,0.0,0.08107015546417085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467285705046989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614103099277762,0.0,0.15923664529214882,0.0,0.046405887122733316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07048982008039482,0.0,0.07362930072720736,0.0,0.0,0.0637319603212889,0.07435013535903015,0.08025034097547214,0.04752648457083728,0.0650886299809287,0.06062632071438349,0.0,0.06466971948751414,0.07038710880287187,0.06783403431126647,0.08097088863899257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0690270789862708,0.08178889360965018,0.0,0.05755005920639671,0.07933211994189295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07659886297975481,0.0,0.0,0.2953918609390301,0.0,0.08110002589489987,0.0,0.14469245572240966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909064634673364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164978325051184,0.035154233540227765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07992727341599969,0.07248844333102572,0.0,0.0,0.07265539192742912,0.0,0.0,0.22943460846773725,0.10579238002366986,0.053354715069914765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675261515392489,0.07050193636772313,0.06904404982897491,0.0,0.0,0.07663115472659372,0.1462784366474726,0.05472603978063879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06869046948059608,0.299312800060347,0.0,0.0,0.07898645429570453,0.06802200055655623,0.0,0.0,0.07320546753273789,0.0,0.06885250038720032,0.0,0.0,0.08060756986282883,0.07653442589715,0.0,0.0,0.09219414913893263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06145032202117327,0.06844695809380584,0.0,0.07204085019094092,0.14564731724416033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14772429991992858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0733504279379234,0.0,0.055395506743454996,0.0,0.0,0.1018621369842822,0.0,0.0,0.06015872303823761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623066399852189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560919118259607,0.2766403069232457,0.0,0.11425059424954108,0.08391664214828301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04885363217682848,0.07826783618624326,0.0702908894573351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05937151717361595,0.084883428451098,0.11423118833175865,0.0,0.0,0.06469739213650441,0.06670424897410282,0.06492940562785586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20446288037245944,0.0,0.0,0.046337524400023485 schizophrenia,DearBread,2019/08/23,"Your experience at group homes (transitional housing) If you have lived in group/transitional housing, can you tell me about your experience? Any details you can share would be great: your apartment/room situation, how long you stayed, how much it cost (private or public), how it did or did not help you, etc. And if you have any advice for a newbie considering this and/or you can recommend any good programs, I would really appreciate it. Thanks.",5.698736263736265,8.455553012820513,5.699304029304031,74.04807692307695,70.15384615384616,9.072527472527472,29.091575091575088,9.606745405546679,3.0333421245421253,357,14,60,9,7,112,53,78,0.026000000000000002,0.769,0.205,0.9393,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,10,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,10,0,0,3,0,11,11,8,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,12,4,4,6,2,4,0,0,0,0,15,2,0,4,1,42,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18657477800542768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895172421198121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21293763890596115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3735327370753853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16014318996950128,0.0,0.21050121537794267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12797648589203378,0.0,0.19151855430766232,0.0,0.0,0.4406156233234856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685948612676839,0.16896721543389032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14035566293336796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223147727471252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146135402155485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035061851020626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16688140708738405,0.17578287240067347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271262666682815,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mostly_unsure-45,2019/05/07,"Niece diagnosed early onset schizophrenia I have lurked on this sub for quite some time trying to understand how to communicate with my niece but I don’t quite know how. She is 13 years old and started showing symptoms at 11. She goes into full on paranoid attacks and screaming fits about the government out to get her and “sees” people that tell her to do things. Some of them are nice and act as her confidants and others are mean and tell her to hurt or kill people and animals. She has never acted on people but she has on animals. I have 2 kids and I have kept them away from her. I feel sad that I have to but I never know if she’s stable enough to be around them. They are pretty young so I’m afraid of them being traumatized by what they see if that were to happen. Does anyone have any advice or experience with early onset schizophrenia? Anything that I should know or expect? We are all very lost dealing with this and don’t know how to help her other than the strong medications that she’s on.",3.723423366834172,5.457911175879397,4.262635050251255,86.65415358040201,72.91959798994975,6.985050251256283,22.487751256281406,7.645422480735847,0.8841479899497493,800,20,158,10,16,253,115,199,0.145,0.7709999999999999,0.084,-0.9387,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,6,4,6,9,2,1,2,0,19,3,0,3,3,42,34,22,1,4,8,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,11,16,0,1,7,1,0,2,4,7,0,0,3,4,28,2,30,28,5,23,0,3,2,0,24,12,0,7,9,118,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14290790140797374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09945090511634716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225717449726768,0.0,0.12034631513746635,0.1301881265128853,0.0,0.16637361260939412,0.13740101088086196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507710972634392,0.0,0.14843453710414975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12797907156731844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15110910020001753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430546511519013,0.0,0.0,0.07394533838011665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.076406431103515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293230474653952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09802424113223744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15655717977227046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617972696602928,0.0,0.3214874148105013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15964255374142627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15930254115686726,0.0,0.1473254001994347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22558470930854085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15345843112184573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041614361363333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487826790788766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110968978280045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23307499760154066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10351222489251558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520034662741059,0.0,0.0,0.255647327316386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09715798620061852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527602690701623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09929004653582747,0.0,0.0,0.1522451159458554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206665797485378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417631297874264 schizophrenia,WhiteHare47,2019/05/07,"Echoes Fragments of conversation, words, in the voices of those that spoke. Even my own. Sometimes they take hold. They repeat and repeat and repeat repeat and repeat and repeat repeat and repeat and repeat repeat and repeat and repeat repeat and repeat and repeat repeat and repeat and repeat repeat and repeat and repeat repeat and repeat and repeat repeat and repeat and repeat repeat. Endless echoes of a fragmented mind.",8.469583333333333,10.48213901388889,7.88988888888889,64.14399999999999,61.63888888888889,6.871111111111111,21.344444444444445,6.742157984588678,1.2450411111111108,347,5,38,2,5,109,24,72,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,21,2,18,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,18,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,4,1,1,29,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,28,31,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3813814187738501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5830310553172247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5710845739467934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4341490658169585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gaifish,2019/05/07,"How do you get comfortable talking to your psych about symptoms? Ive struggled with hallucinations for most of my life, and my doc knows about some of it but i feel really nervous talking about it. I havent heard things in a really long time but lately out of nowhere ive started hearing voices and music talking to me from my air conditioner and its making me anxious. Its hard for me to even talk about because ive been on meds for it forever and like i feel like they dont fix it. I feel like im just trapped between two dimensions and idk if meds can even fix that",5.289679802955668,5.426276982758624,5.928029556650247,82.07706896551727,67.9655172413793,9.042364532019707,32.08866995073892,8.841846274778883,2.4261738916256164,454,18,94,7,7,148,73,116,0.124,0.779,0.098,-0.2936,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,1,0,8,6,0,2,1,0,8,2,0,2,0,19,17,9,0,1,4,0,4,3,0,0,2,3,0,0,8,7,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,7,16,4,19,15,2,8,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,3,7,64,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17999036084023093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971222107046542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18672611671018455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210463520062085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416764549611544,0.22764167710029104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08324002481584633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14272268495589668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795693188870983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720968687031564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08756010456290411,0.0,0.17972400288462406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253499701079302,0.2335124447801317,0.0,0.0,0.14099640567127025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634976527971776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3539452889056728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204133603948637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277009074174747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665596589109398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16559826341855088,0.0,0.5122332193875262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058475453648703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290289434301634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15563604332481162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Krisswins,2019/05/07,"Hello all! So I'm am new to reddit and thankful for the opportunity to a part of the community, so I do not have schizophrenia but my dad did, he told me when I got older he sit down me and talk to me about it, which he didn't with anyone, but said he would with me because because I was the ONLY person in his life that didn't treat him like he was ""crazy"" (his words) but he ended up passing away when I was 17 and never got the chance. I understand that this illness is not something to be taken lightly and only hope to gain some insight into this illness and gain more understanding. Thank you your time!",5.43425142857143,4.932780928,6.289485714285713,81.77560000000003,67.72,8.422857142857143,29.057142857142853,7.447530270364453,1.5665542857142856,476,14,100,4,7,158,82,125,0.11199999999999999,0.736,0.151,0.759,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,3,5,6,0,0,5,0,12,3,0,0,2,22,23,12,0,2,5,1,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,1,6,8,0,0,3,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,11,2,15,6,15,10,4,14,0,0,0,0,17,5,0,2,8,72,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389349821585742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18668427999458065,0.0,0.0,0.2422501695580291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17598836409000734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31783553250075186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19735297109022795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14034700152150933,0.0970743096618063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15324894178386822,0.19190476189854255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3022391329426004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151716870303838,0.0,0.0,0.1734963293166483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18900827969420547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15296822129070914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597067541883302,0.0,0.3658707425881855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11586300262185482,0.0,0.0,0.1898654387715077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4137053966464263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411500903647094,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,geffalo,2019/05/07,I lost 10 pounds while on my antipsychotics I’ve been on antipsychotics for a few years now and have gained 50+ pounds. I recently started counting my calories and eating healthier. Today I hit the mark for 10 pounds lost for the first time since I started the antipsychotics. Just wanted to tell someone because I feel really good about it.,7.1540476190476205,8.173316746031754,6.285833333333333,78.04875,64.07936507936508,10.109523809523813,33.21031746031745,10.125756701596842,3.374431746031746,277,11,48,6,4,84,44,63,0.075,0.831,0.094,0.2944,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,9,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,7,1,7,5,1,11,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,9,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15521544911379476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605422773765609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287447338250912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21658167972903156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21356518505565672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5559008461884144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16311762667994353,0.0,0.2514088979028752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21062627693823413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21574072961614796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3604460844556317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225511967992712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14847236656580434,0.0,0.24135225893119636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150182886036885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16396847472317402 schizophrenia,basicallydory,2019/05/07,"I am currently diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, but I believe it's starting to become more? Hello! I'm new to this sub but I have been around the bipolar and bpd subs for awhile. Today I went to my doctor and he upped my Geodon to 80mg. I told him that I have started to hear voices, specifically when I know I am home alone and I hear people downstairs, and I told him that I have a persistent paranoia over things that I shouldn't have. For instance, a friend gave me a MacBook Pro as a gift last night, and my initial thought was wondering if it had been bugged or if I was going to be spied on using the computer. I've had these paranoid moments with other people before, like when I thought one of my friends was a confidential police informant that was spying on me, all because he had seizures and was hooked up to a monitor that was watching his brain activity, which he had told me, but I was still going through all of the rings of wondering if he's essentially an FBI agent onto me. The voices aren't as often, and I mostly have been hearing the type of voices you hear before you fall asleep, except they're all saying cuss words or screaming, they're never what is described as those auditory hallucinations that are normal for people to hear. Anyway, I just wanted to get this out, because I can't tell anyone specifics of this IRL, and I needed to get it off my chest because I'm scared and nervous. My dad died when I was 10 due to mixture of medications to treat mental health and I'm so so so afraid.",8.963000509424354,6.367096543046363,8.82562913907285,73.1637162506368,62.04635761589405,11.411512990320938,37.469179826795724,9.466822959209583,3.3365356087620985,1204,43,235,16,13,393,164,302,0.083,0.852,0.065,-0.5175,1,1,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,2,0,1,11,8,0,3,12,0,28,9,3,1,4,42,55,27,1,7,10,1,0,1,2,1,6,11,1,0,18,14,0,0,6,0,0,4,4,4,0,1,22,12,35,4,37,31,5,27,0,0,1,0,25,9,0,9,15,165,53,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10753326303093533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07259811991461068,0.0,0.0,0.09242787380452697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18987557977481492,0.1146685548117622,0.17669793686301435,0.11697726074424848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13076623304980528,0.11590505797719645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10538202700334463,0.10775583704004524,0.0,0.11899451983394416,0.10627113994746094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16043267229945665,0.0,0.10849044626494417,0.0,0.11801433806288925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036304427846433,0.5851018060317984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10414675633658643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05706049968179636,0.08463270804336527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05072453505922836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045945883281994,0.10463300454141816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07698626431556377,0.08007763688855704,0.1002765804554099,0.0,0.0974344281250743,0.10172822965790904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07035573377568763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21594131191856605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08256724692098888,0.10394874992866436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697830156798994,0.0,0.08291622489182962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09074920862819567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06897791932480063,0.0,0.0,0.16485377975647858,0.0,0.0,0.09841567609446876,0.2976329001685505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08967302818903752,0.0,0.0,0.06123974282483144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624849342297608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251914938141356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,okaclint,2019/05/07,"Extended Family #schizoaffective How do I tell my extended family about my diagnosis? My parents have been quite quiet about about my illness. There's a family gather coming up soon, I'm getting kinda nervous.",5.442499999999999,8.841012694444448,7.258888888888888,59.05000000000004,74.83333333333334,11.377777777777775,31.222222222222207,10.686352973137794,5.3670222222222215,171,8,21,7,4,59,27,36,0.131,0.8690000000000001,0.0,-0.5434,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,1,0,3,6,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,0,4,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472145606623325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8116396126090731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14993926996128515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186659667530537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305246829840516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25083996904292805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,inkblottings,2019/05/07,What Do You Wish People Knew? Hello! I have a mental health blog and I would like to cover schizophrenia in a post about what people wish neurotypicals knew about having the mental illness. Is there anything you wish that people knew (that you'd be willing to be put in a blog post)?,4.945,6.5069247962963,4.75277777777778,85.03250000000003,69.55555555555556,6.140740740740743,22.75925925925927,5.985473137389443,0.4586814814814813,225,5,41,1,4,69,34,54,0.047,0.755,0.198,0.8202,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,9,2,0,0,0,8,15,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,5,1,6,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15686842055250574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20262583279358534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312991705366704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3842110340741475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3964668467429818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651327827884467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19163112762335024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6576292338644515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13541477918905032,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwaway101303,2019/05/07,"What do you think? Hey guys, throwaway account for obvious reasons. Recently discovered this sub. I’ve spent a long time lurking the mental health communities on here and have failed to ever feel like any of them match my condition/life accurately. I’m currently 25, living at home, pretty bad anxiety, and I (think) delusions. To shed more light, I’m working with a family company. Goal was to build it up and help with sales. For the last two years I had been networking and making cold calls, got really into it but would keep fighting bouts of depression where I could barely make it out of bed. For those of you wondering, I never finished college (have around 90 credits) but could not see myself going back. I’ve found myself stuttering socially and not being able to ever put the right words out when in social situations and then find myself ruminating on it afterwards. Currently, the only way I can go out and successfully communicate with others for social events is if I drink before. I feel like this is cowardly but I feel like if I don’t I will be almost shaking with anxiety. I somehow do well with women - at least at first as I feel they might not think I’m ready for a committed relationship as my life is still a mess but I guess they figure a FWB thing. Another thing that hit me hard - I was in really good physical shape and the gym was a big part of my life and kept me sane. Got a pretty bad injury and it’s been hard for me to go back with the same intensity without getting it fixed as I can not afford the surgery right now. I’m writing this at almost 8 in the morning as I dread another day trying to make it out of bed. I have a meeting later on with a networking group that I work with and dread it because I know I have to muster up all this energy when I almost subconsciously feel that everybody knows I’m full of shit right now. I aspire to one day hit my goals with this business of growing it, feeling happy with who I am and confident around others, having a healthy and fulfilling routine, and moving out and getting my own place hopefully with a girl I can fall in love with. Struggling with feeling like a loser while everybody is in a further stage in their life has been pushing me down a lot lately though and I sometimes lose hope (like now). I feel like I’m wasting potential everyday and the fact that I’m going to be 26 with nothing under my belt CRUSHES me everyday. I want to find something rewarding that challenges and fulfills me. Something I can really dive into fully. I apologize if I seem scattered here but if anybody can lend some advice i would be really grateful! Thank you guys for reading a little about me!",6.509509993552547,6.60450658220503,7.08496518375242,74.96134848484849,65.38297872340425,10.452327530625404,32.900644745325586,10.203070172399654,3.293395925209543,2121,81,390,46,30,699,262,517,0.132,0.6990000000000001,0.17,0.9721,3,0,3,0,3,0,44.0,0,3,4,11,20,31,2,4,24,0,36,7,1,4,7,105,82,36,0,11,14,0,10,6,0,4,4,0,3,4,26,41,1,2,20,3,4,10,7,14,1,3,12,13,54,17,71,58,9,78,0,4,1,1,25,36,1,16,36,273,80,10,0.07230751914349305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07065807085124344,0.0,0.0,0.2172166068681244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049171592548059515,0.15164147686137627,0.11063010846077803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287380442439949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11120003788910976,0.1207475163954487,0.04407799253574498,0.0,0.06152837309068127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07383406151080125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11546334063939408,0.0,0.0,0.09326473599148673,0.0,0.06227836028504486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07083384100058338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308125814977703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06816509384407911,0.0,0.2924868342144684,0.2582825306191846,0.0,0.0,0.13217552507198752,0.061504738845141925,0.0,0.07928146256703589,0.0,0.0,0.07555538873936025,0.0,0.16437611782671868,0.060648116450552514,0.1156618569532666,0.0,0.0796548843583472,0.1431916242480472,0.0,0.07697269868110343,0.12954666901679224,0.0,0.0,0.0768595115975016,0.0,0.0,0.04846620590479503,0.0,0.07253033729567053,0.14363536343430142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06427024534455615,0.0,0.0,0.07947664303254555,0.0589402788579684,0.08156603108770714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15321881747531454,0.2119548087578481,0.0724711300486436,0.06384886413886562,0.06398987905706001,0.0,0.0808936183744762,0.0,0.06147326703444374,0.06526035910103298,0.0,0.1447974915161087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07286897238663657,0.07670685114874662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07685144964998454,0.0,0.0,0.05576801638062075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06938101476275707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048997446304934814,0.054993126610228336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830199691610136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07554596763400387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471254839826023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07268902821000753,0.0,0.0,0.07232708658507912,0.0,0.1852881932126687,0.0743441724798183,0.07139495191009261,0.07763121522648571,0.0,0.1852506788009121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05761973107130156,0.06582604974774046,0.0,0.0,0.0742226293138249,0.0,0.08127668108357748,0.0,0.22112522959856495,0.0,0.11133172172485016,0.07151398533139168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05774487819142377,0.0,0.0,0.07559151865435057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06657104880575307,0.0,0.0,0.0960758055375711,0.13899521585247895,0.07104177043315484,0.0,0.042163095894236516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049092059108218816,0.0,0.07063393950973136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042648848214054014,0.05739434305812576,0.0,0.0,0.0650131434939517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06970186815448942,0.07841442007885822,0.10528147022971916,0.0,0.0,0.102730373990926,0.0,0.0,0.04656367163327183 schizophrenia,justasking___,2019/05/07,"Do I have schizophrenia? Hi... I'm passing throught some struggle and I'm in doubt if it could be schizophrenic symptoms. My sister has it, so it makes me think that too... &#x200B; Well, I quited a relationship in january, on the first week (actually he broke up with me) but it took me 3 months to accept it was over, but I don't feel like this was out of normal... But the thing is that I kept seeing him, even after the breakup, and it was harming me because I wanted to get back feeling all I used to feel for him and I couldn't. So I decided I would really finish this but I kept procrastinating. On the weekend before the last one, we saw each other and when I got home I said to myself that I had to end it. But I read a lot of Deleuze and Guatarri and some weeks before, I started chatting with a woman on a facebook group, and when I told my situation to her she said it was possible to recover the feelings I had. But I really felt like it wasn't possible, but what I had with this boyfriend was something really strong, so I decided to do a post on this same group asking about this possibility, of recovering desire when there ain't anymore. A psychologist texted me saying that it was possible and I think I took a really dumb attitude. My mind was telling me to move on, and text my ex that we should stop seeing each other. But instead, how all of me didn't want this (to go on this psychologist - I know it sounds weird because I'm saying that I text him because I wanted to) - I decided to force me to go to the mental state I was after the breakup. Like getting back a phase. Cause I knew that reasonable as I was, nothing that guy tells me would help me at all to get back feeling as I felt for my ex because it was over. But well, now I'm feeling that it could be possible, and I could get back feeling those things... But it doesn't make any sense at all. And also I feel three other things: that I'm relativizating the reality, that it doesn't matter (like I lost the consequences sense) and that I kind of lost a little of all of my senses... (It feels like my memory of some things on the relationship is not working, it feels like all the things I learned with it has gone and it feels like I totally don't know what I actually want) &#x200B; I dont know if it is just me denying the reality because it feels like something I cant come back from, or if maybe I'm developing schizophrenia... could anyone help ? &#x200B; sorry for grammar mistakes, english is not my native language. &#x200B; Ah, and this is other point, I'm totally insecure, asking apologies for nothing and stuff",3.907912955465586,5.1267711961538485,5.1095344129554645,82.80283400809721,71.65384615384616,8.165991902834008,28.299595141700404,8.611707548084741,2.007596153846153,2042,76,414,35,38,677,206,520,0.099,0.826,0.075,-0.8859,0,0,2,0,0,0,84.0,2,0,0,6,22,23,1,3,22,1,42,2,0,6,8,107,100,39,0,18,17,3,14,8,0,3,2,5,1,2,54,25,0,3,26,3,0,8,12,10,3,3,30,22,66,13,52,60,15,48,0,3,3,0,31,17,1,9,29,306,120,4,0.0,0.0,0.1087762960134208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04457029882578892,0.0,0.24155019119113785,0.2708906640148601,0.03790089442969052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055272952367376685,0.03897036805009761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10420715688017007,0.0,0.0,0.21427925547120893,0.0,0.16987403246469435,0.0,0.09485071571197463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057253964028048984,0.0,0.048009732724633616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17799561321085458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06531959720005047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04936360313700098,0.0,0.0,0.03681164852021557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33816819990532626,0.19908118526897986,0.10702637429725087,0.0,0.0,0.047407140853065625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11647443834184824,0.0,0.06334960457528127,0.0,0.044575410341277634,0.0,0.0,0.05518522334350672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07471438113825217,0.0,0.055905544529725376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05803817498224732,0.09188951489394807,0.04543048477571707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178297512666445,0.055859908268974884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216800504482373,0.04738288274563058,0.0,0.0,0.07440548706074153,0.0,0.05599209210356842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05616656053851842,0.0,0.056275248945556716,0.0,0.04448618653208326,0.059236207920373485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05460728949339805,0.10695616634250456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03776666452103857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052686454694491264,0.3141574203827085,0.05337757307908855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05927975551448905,0.05574888123440185,0.0,0.14281799482409874,0.057303627696546774,0.0,0.11967448440364704,0.0,0.0,0.10603121128690356,0.08864350771559458,0.0,0.0,0.08882524365124478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06264712509226754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858132025649787,0.0,0.062389424849367214,0.03944866970535738,0.0,0.0,0.04659595145540098,0.0,0.05826506769123518,0.0638018655194938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05792875712354819,0.0,0.0,0.09742759357006817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185135297345106,0.07142393577630488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053256033246356166,0.12384460252929043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048136107612757474,0.0,0.0,0.13149295436212555,0.0,0.08941258329624821,0.0,0.10022275710099304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04057486936872316,0.0,0.0,0.07918338328267882,0.0,0.2708906640148601,0.0 schizophrenia,johndark420,2019/05/07,"My voices started with a character in a dream saying ""you're about to wake up and I'm gonna keep talking"" Is having dreams psychotic behaviour? Every individual that has experienced a dream has experienced a vividly real experience that isn't real to anyone else. Anyone that has experienced a dream with another individual in it has had a voice in their head talk to them. Is this a bad thing? If there were medication to stop all dreams, would that be prescribed to anyone who had a nightmare? If a person in a dream specifically told you ""just treat it like the [codec from Metal Gear](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wFoUjYp10GI) (for those not familiar, a telephone-like system embedded in the brain of certain individuals) and I won't cause you any problems"" would you listen to them? If the voices in your head turned out to be loving, caring people who wanted what's best for you (they are a fragmented consciousness of your own, after all), would that come as a surprise?",6.399726205997393,8.269521706214693,6.786666666666665,70.65606258148631,66.40112994350282,9.73993915688831,29.99956540634507,10.035473477838034,3.201944285093436,790,29,130,19,13,256,109,177,0.05,0.757,0.19399999999999998,0.972,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,6,4,1,3,9,0,0,16,0,18,6,4,1,3,25,29,6,0,8,5,0,0,1,0,5,1,5,0,1,13,6,0,2,1,6,0,1,3,2,0,0,4,9,12,7,25,18,4,13,0,0,1,1,19,8,0,3,4,96,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10554431212778756,0.16274534274777505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255675691383293,0.1590252459068175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958918858119553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16287743927372794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732594361986991,0.0,0.0,0.15824122654569495,0.15943766871094572,0.0,0.13369484525649927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965335827844054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13076639836124468,0.0,0.0,0.1518196816292848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31856897552961955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13795279924166332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07582502868453014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400780278531521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15635210162048527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10759918680563277,0.1355184929249257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14850964709234454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35331316464598195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342476592198268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109854471010758,0.0,0.0,0.12975782546301867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494948304990709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10311090491603568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483044524468534,0.0,0.0,0.16881781584305738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915435745424599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307582517356517,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NegligentNonmember,2019/05/07,"please help my parents are maybe saying some crazy things downstairs with some guy behind our house chiming in.... it's true stuff. kind of weird but true. and of course I feel I shouldn't ask for help because everyone (my dad just laughed) is all in on it... but they say that is my stupid weak victim mentality. everyone has a place... actions have consequences,,,, I wish I could help myself.",3.4630528375733864,5.928560315068495,3.1867318982387483,90.78972602739726,75.98630136986301,6.36320939334638,24.127201565557733,7.447530270364453,1.0179722113502936,305,10,60,4,7,91,58,73,0.162,0.613,0.22399999999999998,0.6655,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,1,0,1,0,1,8,2,0,1,0,7,1,0,0,3,14,10,3,0,3,3,2,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,3,10,4,8,8,3,5,0,0,0,0,11,4,0,2,0,38,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18930113977817106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343623577124962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16167206488070468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3869764072036716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10238520333816664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20049727850941254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4071750328114913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336466729720849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21086253581254827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034287695989684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20406264302148824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248415666573177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21155931420597054,0.22227359373330324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220569017882942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318030013370816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13452558864416442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328539052571441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bromar101,2019/05/07,"Do your voices change with the seasons? I was wondering if this happens with anyone else. Basically I was diagnosed in the winter last year and the main voice, the active voice, was the girl and she would talk all the time and the guy was passive and would only talk if I talked to him. When spring came he became the active main voice and he would talk all the time and the girl would talk to me only if I talked to her. Then that following winter the girl became the active main voice and the guy the passive voice. Now as spring is blooming the guy is the main active voice and the girl is passive. I ask them why this is and they have no idea and I was wondering does anyone have this happen to them? Any thoughts?",5.156822066822066,5.6097564615384625,4.964708624708628,87.76791763791763,68.3006993006993,7.754156954156954,24.28049728049728,7.3871296695380915,0.8482655788655786,566,12,118,5,9,174,62,143,0.015,0.872,0.113,0.9107,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,17,0,16,1,0,0,2,26,24,16,0,7,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,7,0,7,4,13,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,7,14,0,8,13,6,15,0,0,0,0,23,1,0,5,12,82,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08452896705637067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17382834925926258,0.1273611007679263,0.0,0.0,0.11620468940782558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14216727119891692,0.0,0.0,0.13149401453337894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261629351912444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10877667439791433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10383756575529124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36923270515332496,0.21983799154051115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403207398561904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132193471279234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18907307844542284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.599450786579289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09868113815455544,0.14496186758055954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121623513495441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26959834278752864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3531995588827156,0.0,0.0,0.08004579192072199 schizophrenia,golddigger3,2019/05/07,"I'm Off Meds and feel good. Is there a Cannabis Strain That Schizos can safely smoke? Like very strong Indica Strains..... I Heard a Brunch of Stories off people with Psychosis who got relieve from the right Strain. If anybody got Experience please Share ;)",3.567333333333334,6.7788865111111125,2.0194444444444457,93.9425,83.8888888888889,4.777777777777779,25.277777777777786,6.42735559955562,0.8561111111111113,203,8,37,2,6,56,40,45,0.043,0.5770000000000001,0.38,0.9565,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,1,9,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,7,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,2,1,6,5,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252901384145336,0.0,0.0,0.1681433575426812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789206688505632,0.5319288444548123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624633500174531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693794826180728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23054293088798136,0.0,0.0,0.3650315389808231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839892715563497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27438218969008715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,negatory_negatory,2019/01/17,"Where are the Weirdos in Real Life? I mean Weirdos in a good way. I’m in college right now (18 M) and hate almost everyone. It’s all the same. Immature people conforming to shit culture. Not that I’m any better, but I want some people like me in my every day life. Someone I can relate to at least just a little. They all just stare at me with that same look in their eyes like I’m some kind of animal. WHERE ARE MY FUCKING PEOPLE HIDING. Fuck. 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I know i was alone in my house and my kids were sleeping, it got me looking up information on schizophrenia, and now that i think about it i have had it happen before but never so much in one night, and when i was a kid i would hear things and music that only i could hear. Is this symptoms of schizophrenia? Including the music? Or is schizophrenia only hearing voices? I was also given latuda 20mg for what my doctor thinks is bipolar disorder about 3 weeks ago, any way the latuda caused the voice? Im making an appointment with my Dr tomorrow but i can't stop thinking about it. 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I have good days where I barely have intrusive thoughts and bad days when they are relentless. People around me are aware that I am schizophrenic but it seems like they also doubt that it's true. It seems like people might think that I'm faking it or exaggerating. &#x200B; I need a job. I collect social security, but I need a part time job to keep going. It's the middle of winter and too cold to go outside and do anything. I'm not interested in playing video games, watching shows. Mostly I just hang out on discord and chat with strangers and pretend that I'm not someone who does nothing for a living. &#x200B; I met up with an internet friend recently and I left after about an hour or so of hanging out because I just could not deal with the social ambiguity and paranoia. Maybe we were a bad match as friends. I went out for food with another friend and we had some fun, but I barely said anything and spaced out a lot just to disconnect from delusions I was experiencing. So I have gotten out of the house recently. Maybe this is something like catatonia? I'm not completely still but I feel really far away from everything. Not depressed, but also feel like doing anything is completely pointless. &#x200B; It seems like everyone is wearing tough guy armor and you have to be really mean just to get by in the social world. It feels like people are really really mean. Do you know what I mean? It's like everyone has this dog-eat-dog mentality that I don't feel. Maybe it's because I lack motivation that I don't see a point in acting that way? I don't feel territorial or like I want to defend my roost, so to speak. But the rest of the world seems hostile and territorial. &#x200B; It's a strange thing that people are able to just go outside and hang out in the city and not let everything affect them. I'm not sure how anyone is able to enjoy anything in all that chaos. All that stuff is there to enjoy. Ice cream shops, clothing stores, mall foodcourts. But in every one of those environments there are all these mean territorial people. Maybe it's just the place I live in, but no one is friendly. &#x200B; Anyway, I need to get over my crippling fear of going outside. Whenever someone is mean to me, it's like I want to cry or become enraged. It's like very very small things make me very emotional and I can barely control myself. Which is why I can't hold a job. I don't understand how to explain these things in a clear way. But it's like people are really mean and they think if I'm not mean back that makes me pathetic and weak and I become emasculated, but if I retaliate then I am an asshole. Maybe I'm just a weirdo so anything I do is slated to be negative? &#x200B; Help me out here guys, how do you deal with your fear of other people?",3.6761463883954977,5.697362714031974,4.640858126110126,82.6808727427472,73.7246891651865,7.5335849615156905,26.29399792776791,8.344100000000001,1.7943582297217286,2300,82,440,40,48,747,247,563,0.135,0.7090000000000001,0.156,0.9145,3,0,1,0,0,0,75.0,2,4,4,3,28,36,2,3,21,0,43,5,1,10,7,118,91,46,0,9,32,0,5,11,4,1,3,2,0,2,38,32,1,4,24,8,2,9,16,11,0,2,9,12,50,25,58,77,9,54,0,1,3,0,29,31,0,16,23,292,88,5,0.0909957981845183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07276930693228291,0.0,0.295781727945848,0.3317095643418937,0.0,0.04770851423313507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031813188924153336,0.0,0.18720447140343247,0.04050277630687578,0.0,0.0,0.04274677389643019,0.03498507598424087,0.0759776905870434,0.05547019398081916,0.10049770991802376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954073631289582,0.0,0.05102976259685408,0.036326370227424985,0.0,0.049977305736094345,0.05868476193445382,0.09381267231614837,0.039187273819438186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03981551810056741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04655570933434156,0.0,0.051179012628993235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03833394229352558,0.08695038470456921,0.08178115596530683,0.0,0.0,0.10239557129536396,0.1150255241997692,0.06500741640484008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055016240181214135,0.0,0.14060625590504364,0.0,0.04754154883834341,0.0,0.10343001821450763,0.03816147912538547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09010014654168394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030496282706989487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04480626575202608,0.05249846688760283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13544893322420426,0.04044062321538658,0.0,0.0,0.025004455468250315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04943360048879564,0.04652468439880962,0.0,0.2445077283970733,0.0,0.08035095691723486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03868068678797031,0.0,0.0,0.06074040188211894,0.0,0.22854377485728605,0.3469238519434723,0.0,0.0,0.0458511810649247,0.0482660809635132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10120834702537224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043656461264146885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061661107839596586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04926979097901692,0.0,0.22079760157574946,0.0,0.04753562081722031,0.0,0.04301022086281008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573559599395502,0.0,0.08984737289232263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04327892095079448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036255934943677334,0.16567831420803164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03763633229143302,0.0,0.0,0.13913813531705865,0.07710044450921606,0.03502650554745619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03633468098711035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05208420918364914,0.0,0.0,0.0857624628978714,0.04728973799127915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09068034743830562,0.05830643322734772,0.0,0.03612024971460822,0.026530190845108662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04736491752463337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262159502972245,0.053671679389064635,0.07222822909310403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04217700828246977,0.04105477718526025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317095643418937,0.0 schizophrenia,scoldingstole,2019/01/17,"Didn't have a job for years, Thankful for advice I have been diagnosed with sz like 6 years ago. I've had job in retail, but then the delusions started and I thought people were plotting against me and really disliked me and want to get rid of me. &#x200B; I didn't talk to anyone much, additionally I felt not good and I got fired. &#x200B; Now I haven't had a job for 4 years now. I heard a symptom of sz for some could be ""no direction of life"" no future look if that makes sense. &#x200B; I really don't know what my passions are what career directions I want to go and at that point I think its too late to get a job. I tried various ""What Job is suited for you"" and they don't give me the answer I seek. &#x200B; If someone in the same situation feels a sense of relief, that would also relief me.",3.5322088353413683,4.587978385542171,4.590542168674698,86.78934738955826,72.3734939759036,7.461044176706826,25.88152610441768,7.793537801064563,1.2737767068273094,636,20,135,8,12,208,97,166,0.106,0.7759999999999999,0.11800000000000001,0.0004,5,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,1,0,4,6,0,0,8,0,16,4,0,1,0,25,33,11,0,6,4,0,3,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,7,8,0,0,6,0,1,1,8,0,0,0,10,5,20,6,18,20,4,15,0,0,1,1,5,4,0,3,11,90,27,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08948542086271502,0.08117515947549242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0732319957930718,0.0,0.3968831946643783,0.4450915629948667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06403093325117935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07311468815136339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09294606451050998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04630275625481548,0.0,0.08792576220903621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09568766424463894,0.08784648627552358,0.05204382849084077,0.0768082422818247,0.07324039435647899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4543671925345079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050326882441327984,0.0,0.10329988537829324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0646816902899954,0.04473861475193516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07689941265441216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06112660739286881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06731770340197014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06348614236793332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656738523607052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173297809491209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10293343598922512,0.0,0.0,0.07759067202875919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06481681500940388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09518084037423928,0.0,0.07360401504585637,0.0,0.08430938246526333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058677162842674824,0.0,0.07269982597488256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062172990535856586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10802587972659072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06505180966032806,0.0,0.4450915629948667,0.17691268822448758 schizophrenia,salinecolorshenny,2019/01/17,"Please know that you are not the burden you may feel you are. I want to start off by saying I am not schizophrenic, I don’t pretend to know the struggle people living with schizophrenia go through and I have no reference point to gauge how bad symptoms get. However, my brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia around 20. He was my big brother and my best friend and I don’t think I could have loved a human being more. His symptoms were exacerbated by a lot of methamphetamine and other drug use. He had used heroin for years before that to try to suppress delusions and symptoms but had gotten off of it and was just using methamphetamine because he got very stuck in his symptoms. Towards the end of his life he would talk constantly, among other things, of being a burden to the family and the voices telling him how worthless he was and how much we just wanted him dead. He wanted him dead. He couldn’t cope and eventually succumbed to his illness at his own hands and took his own life. I wish more than anything I could tell him that nothing he could do would ever make me stop loving him, he was never a burden and I would sit with him every day for the rest of his life if it meant we got to keep him longer. He was a beautiful, creative person and I can’t imagine the horror he dealt with in his own head that drove him. I’m so sorry. The point of this is to tell you how much you are loved. If you don’t have family or friends to tell you, IM telling you. You are loved. You are beautiful and worth so much and I wish you all the very best. I apologize if this is misplaced or misguided but I hope it resonates with someone. Please, know how worthwhile you are. 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I (22M) dream almost every night and occasionally experience terrifying sleep paralysis. Last night I had a spooky dream, but in the middle of the dream I started hearing 2 voices that completed drowned out my dream experience. Sort of like when you slowly wake up to people talking in the same room. When I ""woke up"" I couldn't move anything which is fine. I've had sleep paralysis before, but what was different was that I did not have a pressing sense of terror. Everything was very clear. I literally opened my eyes and looked around my room. But then, I heard two people talking in my room. I couldn't quite make out what they were saying, but they were whispering some shit. I genuinely believed two people were in my room. Then a voice called me. It had a childish sing-songy tone. Sort of like when a mom calls her baby. I thought it was my mother calling me. So I forced myself to get up and follow her. When I sat up in bed. I realized no one was in the room. I've heard people call my name in my sleep before only to wake up to darkness, but it was always at 4:30 am. It was 3:00 am when she called me. Then I started having a mini panic attack and random streams of consciousness. I was legit scared as shit. I laid undercovers for like 30min before reaching for my phone and watching Youtube videos to calm myself down. I'm genuinely hoping it's not an early symptom of schizophrenia. If this happens again should I talk to the doctor?",3.377027972027971,5.440683094405596,4.178593006993008,85.48004335664336,74.6993006993007,6.813762237762238,24.37706293706293,7.699297019823105,1.2371036643356643,1159,37,224,16,25,371,154,286,0.154,0.74,0.106,-0.9669,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,2,1,8,12,3,3,13,0,25,10,8,1,1,33,40,21,1,5,8,2,1,3,0,1,2,7,6,0,11,9,0,0,3,5,0,2,5,6,0,3,21,11,39,6,32,16,2,41,0,0,3,0,22,24,2,7,18,149,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997626222596948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830756458867454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08216057249372792,0.08887958882635154,0.0,0.11358346322630344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548718150987069,0.11248653040499232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5097437254850693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046813080375022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431251430343724,0.0,0.1021914151418614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412028359061521,0.0,0.0897305836625607,0.19532716100372974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052162761398192765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828899833163692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112527976250201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916456411881347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08138367769947058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14633169520939227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08384122960087839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06664459126859427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11693248214079363,0.0,0.1061151004073654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18738788533861436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06765479321512964,0.07593352081889468,0.0,0.1171418110161344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27686849899176985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10619311109515764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07939750915812911,0.09995818114578787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049705450712152,0.0,0.0,0.2997390802607195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14133583811941616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10377294723021904,0.0,0.24074505559902026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07926254039021341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19506014830897664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08237921752465435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,machultra,2019/01/17,"Do I have schizophrenia?? Please help I’m a 21 year old male and for the past 4 years I have been out of it.. dizzy and a feeling that I have no control over my life. I can’t think straight and when I speak to people i overthink a lot. I’m always paranoid about everything and it’s been getting worse. Every other day I’m extremely depressed and I’m starting to think I’m either bi polar or have schizophrenia. Everything is on auto pilot for me, I have no control. I’m starting to think about taking a bunch of shrooms or drink ayahuasca to restart, and change my perception on everything. I don’t know what to do.. I’m getting more dizzy every day and I feel like I’m living life in 3rd person. 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I got diagnosed w bipolar disorder two years ago but my current psych said my diagnosis is ""psychotic dysthymia"" and when i look it up online all I can find is links about schizoaffective disorder. My psychosis is really mild and I never had a full-blown psychotic episode. I'll ask her about this when I see her tomorrow but in the mean time I'm confused about dx. Did anyone else got the same? 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I've been diagnosed see a few years ago, but I think a lot of my symptoms have been lingering since I was 13~14. Lately reality has been too much. It's been feeling like I've been losing touch with what's real. Like, everything doesn't feel right. It's almost like I feel my body disassociates from my mind and it's 2 separate entities fighting for control and I feel more and more like I'm just taking the backseat. I feel like I'm sitting in an empty movie theater in the dark watching myself. I can't talk or move and I'm stuck in my seat enjoying the ride. Except I'm not enjoying it lol. I don't know what to expect from posting this, but it kind of helps. Thanks for reading if you did and have a good night/day!",1.5074851288830118,3.4724350955056167,3.3429676140119007,89.74443159286189,80.06741573033706,6.660145406477199,22.83013879709187,7.724431198458867,0.9739969596827502,669,22,147,11,17,224,102,178,0.075,0.69,0.235,0.9843,0,1,0,0,2,0,17.0,0,1,0,3,5,13,1,0,7,1,16,3,1,1,0,31,34,10,0,3,10,0,7,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,11,6,0,1,8,1,0,2,5,2,0,1,8,9,15,11,16,25,6,14,0,1,2,0,5,5,0,4,11,88,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11605341922692733,0.0,0.13109830286864715,0.1355944994281567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445917742250419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14542353157849428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14683884673950207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08443310653544632,0.0,0.0,0.13288188972869042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176632029609846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39718504165979535,0.374119477286762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11136119374895777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10981018330253096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08775347473029832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13633390102698015,0.0719506659929761,0.0,0.14768440224031826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3837678358985567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646692398021366,0.0,0.11130421052336248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13219272009085356,0.0,0.0,0.13914812638922688,0.1924837525366722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12286033303841473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12538596824332945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13095626213092745,0.14901657027916845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11180567612313767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10432695359864752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10829906603405216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360768742765175,0.09843617318809952,0.2104584128961458,0.0,0.1205343133444482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388878349519638,0.0,0.0,0.07634099061465778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07722049940075963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08430872410452013 schizophrenia,weedthr0wy,2019/07/25,"Effects of medical marijuana mixed with Latuda? Please read and give any input if you have experience with smoking weed and using antipsychotics. Even if you don’t, any ideas would be good. So like three months back I smoked weed, and everything was perfectly fine like the first nine or ten times I did it (on different days, not all at once). And the last pleasurable time I smoked, everything was super bright, I was relaxed, fading in and out, the usual. And then all of a sudden I smoked once, and I nearly passed out. Like my whole vision turned white as I stood and I really thought I was about to be gone right there. And my head hurt so bad that I had to roll around holding my head and it hurt so bad. That happened at least three times. It could’ve happened a fourth but I paced myself. And when I paced myself, I slowly delved into the headache. I went to the hospital and they told me to stop smoking weed, but the thing is, I’m young and I want to have fun. I take 60mg of Latuda, which is a low dose my psych says, and I’m heading out to another state in a couple weeks. My friend invited me to try medical marijuana with her and I accepted. Should I go off my meds so I can smoke? And the headaches hurt really bad, like it feels like my skull is being cracked open and there are needles being pushed into it. My head feels like it’s happening again right as I’m trying to describe it. It’s like when you eat a bad food and you think about that food and it’s that feeling you get",2.857350993377484,4.529473052980137,3.6172264900662254,90.64466092715232,75.09271523178808,7.216105960264901,22.344900662251654,7.9765259561132025,0.8791799735099333,1170,31,254,18,25,371,159,302,0.1,0.737,0.16399999999999998,0.9126,1,0,4,0,0,0,33.0,0,5,1,4,15,25,0,0,12,0,20,11,5,2,3,52,42,33,0,5,6,0,3,7,1,2,3,1,0,0,15,29,3,2,8,2,0,5,2,8,0,5,11,6,38,17,31,25,4,41,0,4,2,0,11,17,0,3,25,162,53,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12453686131819265,0.0960155681123877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08151369078965517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07040906639152743,0.305817158335044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731084824357134,0.10131670567931288,0.0,0.059052884451003984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09566761220097901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09369549549936286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06047887834363137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16458831881716984,0.08956970894626044,0.0,0.0,0.13889647872281213,0.13083040035847934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07788650656863229,0.2214454019923364,0.0,0.07074413109422557,0.0,0.0478397713073825,0.08783903017705061,0.05203941119509462,0.07680172307038814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242916136488686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3758950105977878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29407183015866445,0.10336755036816417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07463900347559604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3131437224779172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101709854808629,0.1844874404292212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07308758970053864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19503088965622636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051263423501633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09159138320353602,0.0,0.11731982241306944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15639475897512348,0.0,0.07281743869933048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07655378100845907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06884669058854888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06083278296595621,0.058672182533013977,0.0,0.07269365547126405,0.1601796694197189,0.0,0.0,0.08749581410357064,0.0,0.12433542702545708,0.09959817111808074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908414627639336,0.10084767785168516,0.0,0.054008355436353433,0.0,0.07344920650040933,0.0,0.0,0.08488315925608113,0.0,0.10223084331180936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06504628829323375,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GAV1989,2019/07/25,"looking for inspiration in the stories of others with Schizophrenia - What keeps you going? I'm a veteran. Not for the military, but as a person surviving with a mental illness. Been suffering and surviving for about 8 years now. Suffering and surviving but far from thriving. And today, that is okay with me. Last time I met with her, my nurse practitioner told me I am being treated for schizoaffective disorder and/or psychotic depression. My diagnosis has never been clear and has changed several times. I've been on a combination of one antipsychotic and two antidepressants for nearly half a decade. It's been about two weeks ago since I saw my nurse practitioner. It was an emergency meeting scheduled that morning by my parents because I didn't see the point in going on. I had a breakdown right before I was supposed to go to work for the day. It was not so severe that I had to be hospitalized again, but severe enough that I did have to talk to a social worker over the phone who talked me down from the ledge so to speak. Or from considering the ledge as a place to go. I was having suicidal thoughts--no plan to harm myself, no hallucinations and delusions that I could tell, just really really really down and depressed. Like I was going nowhere. Like I was stuck on a treadmill, burning up energy uselessly. Like it was Groundhog day, the same thing over again just a different day. And it had been that way for what felt like an eternity. That morning I had told my dad, with tears in my eyes, ""Why don't I just kill myself?"" Today I feel much better and can remember that laughter and smiles and joy are all still possible. For me, it just seems that they are fleeting. I guess, in a way, they are for every human being. They come and they go. But for me, when they are gone, I get to feeling so incredibly sad and angry and fearful and hurt that it is like I am suffering from a sort of amnesia. It is like those pleasurable things are so far away from my mind, so foreign, that they don't look real anymore. And then I start hating life as I know it. My focus becomes honed in on all things negative. It is all I can see in those troubled times. This amnesia of all things pleasurable, this complete forgetfulness of the reality that I am human and gifted with the ability to smile and laugh and feel joy, is terrifying. I fear one day it will be more than terrifying and become deadly for me. Suicide is real. One of my friends died that way a few years back. I wish I could go back to the last time I saw him and give him a hug and express my love for him. I wish I could let him know that he mattered to me. I wish I could find the hidden doorway into his blackening, darkening heart. I wish I could, having found and entered that door, tap him on the shoulder in all his dark rumination, so that he would turn around to the sight of the other side of things, the bright and light and beautiful side. I wish I could have made him remember. But I know that, embarrassed and ashamed of myself and of this painful amnesia, I hide my pain and bury that doorway where nobody can find it. I know it's likely that my friend did the same in his own way. He hid his doorway like I hide mine now. And nobody can find this doorway when it is hidden. Except someone did find mine. I have been in therapy with my current therapist for three years now. They have been the most enriched years my life. My therapist found the way into my pained, amnesic heart of darkness. I go see him and he taps me on the shoulder and I turn around and see the beautiful things in life again. They may still be far off, far away from me, but they don't look unreal any longer. I believe skilled therapists can do this. He revealed to me last week, after three years of seeing him weekly, that he had gone through a psychosis of his own. It was different than mine. He had hospital psychosis. But he came back from it. That gives me hope. Each week when I go to see him, I leave a little lighter on my feet. Like I have been able to shake off a bit off the heavy darkness that has accumulated in my heart. He walks me to the door of his office and we say are goodbyes for the week. I go out with renewed courage to face the world and my responsibilities in it. During the week that follows, the world tests me to see if I will become once again glued to the dark side of my heart. I often do. But I have seen the light in my heart enough times now, that I do feel a new kind of power, a new strength within. I seek to increase this strength. I know now that there is somewhere safe to go to understand and look at my heart when it gets dark, and i know that someone will be there with me while I examine what is in my heart. My fears have lessened considerably. The flight or fight response that was a 24/7/365 constant for many years has, for the vast majority of days, subsided to a level that is manageable. I can laugh. I can smile. I can feel joy. I am starting to know that it can get better. Call me an optimist, but I believe I can heal. I'm starting to believe anyways. At least when I can remember to. And, true, I am not an optimist. I am a veteran.",3.876332739323857,5.330310775913134,4.660621274086232,85.0802387148883,72.04047384007896,8.105378136177741,27.173613158805658,8.653254563040722,1.8581813284445072,4028,142,824,72,77,1298,370,1013,0.13,0.696,0.174,0.9947,5,0,0,0,1,2,123.0,1,1,9,12,38,55,3,6,57,1,97,22,12,1,8,139,171,65,5,14,20,2,6,9,2,5,8,2,2,3,68,55,0,2,28,0,0,20,10,22,0,8,41,27,135,33,127,112,20,141,0,8,17,2,61,56,0,10,69,600,203,4,0.04165966538567832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03692877976402928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02833000103305873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04131519377657005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07417186911043552,0.0,0.0,0.07828125396434013,0.09610113355172302,0.0,0.02539534534807516,0.13802948215440164,0.035449306863871585,0.14080853073342134,0.0,0.07368917719366863,0.04548156484242335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042539176188599336,0.04764755893972456,0.0,0.0,0.044070402103546215,0.03588611293089345,0.04367936654858128,0.045019298414650716,0.0,0.19957111759583648,0.0,0.0,0.13433518877817185,0.0,0.07176281750435813,0.0,0.0432361554574038,0.08705096704048942,0.04774558575613444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08609114134784078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03510006485406887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14063611690586802,0.10532189275943753,0.0,0.03999981187819169,0.0,0.1523047177361458,0.0,0.0,0.09135534563910197,0.06437230827141385,0.0,0.0652963671742121,0.07992749421556837,0.26043762674651194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045892818174529615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04113029474119292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3455683284584799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04137744766452669,0.0,0.0,0.04459753342106225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037029024740791484,0.046090247356318254,0.04338213073715411,0.1602654382111768,0.10187456259239523,0.0,0.0441115704626127,0.0,0.04259983038554094,0.08827636105373607,0.18317527376816384,0.041753929103238496,0.0,0.0,0.13993450667653354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03759947451250508,0.03941938267649765,0.0,0.04223636195804089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0419831442508935,0.0,0.04206438620388722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030624647481008474,0.0,0.03213050218234128,0.08047032885458881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044366184011352776,0.08468900227785009,0.0,0.13298646358549232,0.0,0.0462581283217872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036375612926572085,0.04352548352024471,0.0,0.039381849383318825,0.04696501324260634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09483563934070748,0.08006474520829268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415768394466679,0.035577126614824824,0.0,0.03312943801122386,0.0,0.0,0.2323815173212793,0.0379253947395132,0.0,0.14119069180053026,0.0,0.03446130570613663,0.0,0.0,0.042466782535328686,0.0705961985811225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846077674331232,0.0,0.06653892518197259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09113782458926101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669689219938607,0.036412383771163084,0.0,0.04764145804436249,0.1451102472936048,0.16606098332921002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12146042952271772,0.0,0.07897698329761241,0.07961519112350934,0.0,0.0,0.09062750613111203,0.08139087939134347,0.043369180873500834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533751642670735,0.2005012242006748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037591368264134006,0.0,0.2395327961317531,0.0,0.0,0.03032873256499389,0.0,0.0,0.02959383101579345,0.0,0.0,0.16096475185556994 schizophrenia,mikblomks,2019/07/25,"Predisposed Schizophrenia and Memory/Reasoning I was prescribed Lexatonil and Quel-25 but stopped taking them because I felt high all the time which interfered with my work. I have struggled with school/vocational training for most of my life. I got my first job (mid-twenties) last year but was recently transferred to another department due to poor performance. I will be subjected to another review at the end of the year and this time they might be less tolerant. I'm tired of being stupid and struggling with the basic remembering/reasoning. I dream of completing a degree and getting a decent job. If anyone knows a solution to this problem, please help.",7.131228070175438,9.612128614035091,6.6359649122807065,70.04675438596496,65.49122807017544,11.031578947368422,37.2280701754386,10.980518767755715,5.019270175438597,538,28,80,17,9,167,80,114,0.196,0.693,0.111,-0.9143,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,3,0,4,1,2,7,0,8,2,0,0,1,18,14,8,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,8,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,4,0,1,4,1,11,0,13,5,3,13,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,10,54,14,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3464168009520532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11549954250654824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006938041138956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17319085520509575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630279014734998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15860123840216214,0.0,0.0,0.14050426911631025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08630111168629914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13211164685026192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107184416251156,0.17452452821179196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278365640048128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090780058990428,0.1346458981526833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11667338359318873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17523267733896802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18132093519564288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15805747798258185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3396705298963756,0.16309792912020507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16717365026020556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13810008334634305,0.0,0.3453695204417692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12419678797246997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19263865137990188,0.18985314521839167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025492916376865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127444087414897 schizophrenia,natethegreatog,2019/07/25,"I got a job! So after a year of trial and error with medication, and addiction, dealing with this mental disease that hit me out of nowhere two years ago. I can finally say that I am stable, and I have a job. My goal for right now is to keep this job, all the ones I had in the past I always left due to this disease. But this time around it's different. Thanks to this community for giving me the strength to get this far!",3.4052651515151524,4.030873238636364,4.879999999999999,86.19833333333334,72.29545454545455,8.139393939393939,26.03030303030303,8.344100000000001,1.437948484848485,327,10,73,5,6,110,61,88,0.031,0.8390000000000001,0.13,0.8217,4,0,0,0,1,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,6,0,5,2,0,0,1,10,11,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,9,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,9,2,14,8,1,15,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,9,52,18,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20586081098727094,0.0,0.0,0.16739310078895692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571279751806552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16810546193300166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19468322980365968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972950554106651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20686231377549189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986598297352193,0.18115019207956085,0.0,0.0,0.15103064525593488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5621764126851164,0.1678474975387539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20517255859741465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19023397231650827,0.19030384274631512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127961216018127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802668159103199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16126624219026364,0.0,0.15017120499324116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738562516864945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11011269828509444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844668543655456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432103913081744 schizophrenia,summerrain888,2019/07/25,"I feel so stupid I feel so stupid for how i am. I am just inside all day, im always in my house except when i have to go walk my dog, and if you saw my other post that freaks me out... Im like such a loser. Im just all in my head, always thinking and creating my own world but im so worthless in this world. What am i even doing like what is my point. Im just inside all the time. I dont want to go do things outside or with people because it scares me makes me nervous. But im so dumb, nothing to do here. Just dumb.",-0.5451948051948072,0.7837477731092477,2.1148051948051965,99.16883116883119,83.87394957983193,4.66340718105424,16.700534759358288,4.851557810540192,-0.9709899159663866,391,7,103,1,11,136,68,119,0.247,0.7020000000000001,0.051,-0.9786,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,13,11,4,2,2,0,9,1,1,2,3,22,17,12,0,2,9,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,9,0,0,1,3,17,2,10,16,4,14,0,2,1,0,1,7,2,2,5,68,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162442297595744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07921140887484025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08380181028247481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15229100193487236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582543488210087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13140511218087791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14769801355939935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13335793271190968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14993556818546966,0.0,0.0,0.8421576486379647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12696614987544538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673726308529467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12468280909270753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09008538945153892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12283714716192605,0.0,0.1244484723347312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13009456417291376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632766010435508,0.08326155708058347,0.0,0.0,0.0757701981459129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07664313094986858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SoggyEconomist,2019/07/25,"switching anti-psychotics, what to expect? I suffer from MDD and I have been on paxil+zyprexa for 3 months. I am thinking about switching from zyprexa to abilify because of weight gain. What are your experiences switching anti-psychotics. thanks in advance",5.620000000000001,9.371696714285717,3.9971428571428578,78.87285714285716,81.85714285714286,4.704761904761905,35.57142857142857,6.42735559955562,2.8204000000000007,210,12,27,2,6,60,33,42,0.08199999999999999,0.7709999999999999,0.147,0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,1,9,5,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28098499262417265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4508881636678526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3679182336827408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4243719956733238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953519995980763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5613012352824959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WheresTheDopamine,2019/07/25,"Scared I'm going to die during a psychotic break **TW: self harm, paranoia, knife** The only reason I didn't cut my head open tonight was because my mom miraculously called me on the phone. I was desperate to get the voice out of my head that was telling me to kill myself... After it had already got done telling me someone was spying on me through my phone and computer and were about to take me away to a mental institution. It had been tormenting me for over 30 minutes. I ended up clawing my face instead, and now I'm in a lot of pain. :( I almost killed myself out of sheer paranoia. I believed the only way I could get the voice out was by removing it by cutting my head open and physically pulling it out. I'm fucking terrified. I can't sleep, knowing a psychotic break can kill me.",2.398653846153845,4.6098297628205165,3.821128205128208,86.19053846153847,78.2948717948718,6.724102564102565,27.707692307692305,7.793537801064563,1.7917646153846154,617,27,122,10,15,203,91,156,0.247,0.743,0.011000000000000001,-0.9908,0,0,0,0,0,2,22.0,0,0,0,0,3,9,6,1,9,0,14,7,5,1,0,15,24,4,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,5,10,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,9,0,0,12,2,22,0,24,11,1,22,0,0,0,1,7,12,1,2,4,81,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14346980351806132,0.0,0.15810817220469642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13461212962974542,0.0,0.0,0.08733946754466919,0.0,0.0,0.1614225222698976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463003927364485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11439389718344622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14869743823406634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14662066895913609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12689964297421627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13245597078000138,0.14971116067218346,0.0,0.0814268174554627,0.0,0.11459057480140372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44112625951344064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4755396244384656,0.0,0.07874051522504245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12180777984990047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14438809216674034,0.0,0.0,0.16780263498649908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179350791830585,0.1524553254544314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731116518454745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14344385646859886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14946768370745678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14337905816913474,0.0,0.12139693928636232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077254099964706,0.0,0.25045835502659025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137254914390139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nateture,2019/07/25,"Keto diet and schizophrenia I read an article claiming that the keto diet can help mitigate symptoms. My brother was on that diet for a while, and happened to be better at that time than any other time within the past couple years. Maybe it was a coincidence, as he just went off medication around the same time and the invega sustenna could have been working it's way out of his system. Obviously there could be a number of reasons he digressed. Anyone here every try that diet?",5.3018619582664535,7.307417067415731,6.2067736757624425,73.20865168539329,69.3370786516854,7.782343499197433,28.4446227929374,8.418075326091056,2.3910532905296944,385,14,60,6,7,127,67,89,0.0,0.922,0.078,0.7096,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,8,0,9,6,0,1,1,11,11,5,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,5,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,1,12,3,1,15,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,6,47,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510443989612422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15530651474056664,0.0,0.0,0.19772758526454715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19644082374331687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3546781787042751,0.2457637160930977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18713971076798944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964137174356999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488776051673858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22314227739545897,0.0,0.0,0.2237553946725249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21203191022717624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221730221811196,0.0,0.0,0.22836906975322735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308603644837403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3885474812392362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15080008959488772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17630289363755952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059008977110496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16170084766993584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14303343517707034 schizophrenia,aliceneedsahobby,2019/07/25,"Therapist questioning previous diagnosis More or less just venting but would appreciate responses. I started seeing a new therapist for an ED and the topic of previous treatment came up. One of the times I was in inpatient, I was told I had schizophrenia and when I got out and seeing my outpatient therapist, he said it was wrong and that I have psychotic depression. After discussing this, she was saying how odd it is that my previous therapist changed the diagnosis and asking about symptoms and such. Asking about dilusions, I said no, which I know was a lie. I think I was just so focused on why I went back to therapy at the moment. It's not like changing the diagnosis would change anything to me, it's just confusing and I feel kind of lost with all this. Sometimes it's really bad and other times I can ignore it. I never did any deep dive research on this other than symptoms and such. I think I got fairly good at telling what's real or not but I noticed something and I really want to go back on meds again because I'm questioning everything now. Also because one of the scary ones is back and I can't sleep. Does anyone here have hallucinations that don't show up for a bit but come back later? I'm sorry if any of this is against the rules, I tried to be as vague as I could and will change anything if need be. Thank you for reading.",4.065897157342025,5.8479682205323185,5.177175448126019,80.25108998732574,72.11787072243345,8.65971392359225,29.25384754662321,9.23628265651192,2.6430874162592795,1074,44,202,24,21,354,148,263,0.155,0.782,0.063,-0.9714,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,1,18,10,0,1,11,0,22,3,1,1,2,45,46,25,0,7,12,0,1,1,0,3,2,3,0,0,17,16,0,1,6,2,0,4,6,6,0,3,16,6,26,4,29,24,4,29,0,2,2,0,13,10,0,7,16,150,43,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07336324343402549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12477064851105896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06414569058977528,0.0,0.15098593389422812,0.0,0.1715262230493309,0.0,0.0,0.2821649680822894,0.07659781362600186,0.11184587337445412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10015467938149678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10492440190773382,0.0,0.0,0.3881886657318568,0.07902459265186344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07324572555154632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07901423360831414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08028097751657776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824486463638027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046385740850036265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05213710233435204,0.07694589933317388,0.1467433140989646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553152821191144,0.05041707914463296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04481879606588322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001434071262425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190078993571396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06802293360017098,0.07075438489392598,0.08860161269822225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10444488762390908,0.0,0.0,0.18649314067499412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055362254400699,0.0,0.09176332339974176,0.10441849444951656,0.11754006139821176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745286383573626,0.07295413545244467,0.0,0.0,0.1462074104224396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918047501052823,0.0,0.0,0.07062477743569895,0.09073171993246967,0.10269373738828527,0.06493298081878797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907028502230456,0.0,0.0,0.08018349049228851,0.08446048318891552,0.10491096716288624,0.42606186610666696,0.0,0.11756465012393842,0.0,0.0,0.10698691145331764,0.0,0.0,0.08766006588051692,0.0,0.06228441803759947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05410974278203681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08504250641895365,0.08277972512709854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13033679326232533,0.10030164583993748,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thisisfelix_,2019/07/25,"I've been on some kind of strange manic episode these last few days... This isn't like anything I've experienced before. I'm only 19 and don't often have hallucinations. My only really notable episode, and also the only reason I'm being treated, is when I got really delusional last year and tried to amputate my tongue. Anyway, that was sort of coupled with this strange neutrality that had me in a state of not caring and not wanting to be better. I had insight into my illness, but I didn't want to fix it. Well, for the past few months I have wanted to be better. I've been living life to its fullest and beholding the colors like I've never seen them before. That's all good and well, but it makes it a bit difficult to diagnose what has been happening just recently, and to understand if it's good or bad. I was right in the middle of making a Minecraft server with a kickass custom plugin that I coded myself when suddenly I lost all interest and decided I need a girlfriend, as I'm lonely as shit and never had a relationship before. I'm not into hookups or shallow relationships, but I don't have a lot of options because I'm not in school right now. So I had to turn to Tinder. It's been... well, let's just say they all either want to smoke weed, fuck, or I can't tell what they want and they won't tell me. Then today I had something even stranger. I recalled that I'm a brilliant computer scientist and want to be a brilliant physicist. I recalled that in the past I've written some awesome simulations of consequence I need a greater mind than mine to figure out, and I want to do that again. But this time, I'm aiming higher. I want to make a reality engine. This kind of coupled with my desire to get a girlfriend as I thought maybe I'll find a girl interested in a crazy mad scientist on the breakout of a psychotic episode and/or changing the world and being the next Einstein and Minkowski. So on one hand, delusional as I am, I'm also brilliant. I could change the world. I know this mania won't last forever, but maybe I'll have an awesome start and some new knowledge just as it mellows into something sustainable and doable. On the other hand, is this healthy? What's your advice? I'll tell my psychiatrist about it for sure next time I see him, but in the meantime, do I try to stop it? Keep going? Proceed with caution? I know what I want to do; I want to do some research, write some code, align causality on four dimensions, and meet someone as crazy as me, but is that the right thing to do?",5.097107035928143,5.6527502495010005,5.966636102794412,80.17025355538922,68.46107784431138,8.817390219560878,31.2251122754491,8.841846274778883,2.465479491017964,1989,78,388,32,32,656,227,501,0.11199999999999999,0.737,0.151,0.988,0,2,3,0,0,0,59.0,0,1,4,3,18,23,3,0,28,0,39,8,3,4,6,90,79,42,0,15,19,0,2,2,2,2,4,1,0,1,30,25,0,2,10,0,0,1,13,7,3,2,17,7,42,16,57,53,14,49,0,2,3,1,17,21,2,13,28,263,72,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07670979918536476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12555367426495834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06459923892198842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06554465486559068,0.04785318810967086,0.0,0.20039448093304268,0.0,0.0,0.13885466055151582,0.08570223590566924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08003651147909391,0.0,0.16608628179885535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06267627722504837,0.17371866358378146,0.0,0.05062634093170338,0.0,0.0,0.07967637493273398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0518488528148372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07174805272308024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07257246539478522,0.04101328148181744,0.0,0.04461365431241302,0.13168502275379146,0.06278403665287255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06941775019695544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06977486866793316,0.0,0.16349242227735392,0.08628366517094345,0.19196520230404468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08027209982532779,0.0554472385029912,0.07670277728742904,0.0,0.06931739696966023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08569259025071876,0.06673833452668483,0.0,0.0,0.1571991191229896,0.0,0.15772864617450855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07926314677524271,0.0,0.06265836577595005,0.0,0.0,0.1164142811578816,0.12108888017987167,0.07581629096092568,0.1669723862468726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05319398366479882,0.179109547487952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14987525688221748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10057888590453043,0.0807116083530693,0.0775097926944831,0.16856036002105912,0.0,0.2011170443598432,0.0,0.06242676393605087,0.0,0.07944671673972424,0.06255475059458805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08057965524787716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06651323548128453,0.12086707029482782,0.0,0.0,0.05556307178612125,0.0,0.0,0.065629949374629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07398581067193705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058387424436104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0521522570639893,0.0,0.0,0.062320643939305975,0.091548568482414,0.0,0.07440931372018991,0.0,0.0,0.10659339974666887,0.08538602329208257,0.0,0.08172180933382253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4630164031614814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117441838596096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05055176085746034 schizophrenia,thevanillalife101,2019/07/25,Possibly some type of person disassociation. I work with an individual who has active hallucinations visual and auditory. Sometimes when he refers to someone he will say a color and the name of the person for example: “Red Fred” “blue red” or “Fred 1” “Fred 2” does anyone else have these episodes?,8.522243589743589,9.064641096153846,9.323846153846157,59.087820512820514,61.115384615384606,11.548717948717947,34.641025641025635,11.20814326018867,4.111017948717948,235,9,38,6,3,80,44,52,0.0,0.946,0.054000000000000006,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,5,2,1,1,0,0,4,0,7,0,0,2,1,20,3,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191344755133563,0.32111227123208835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27425583449247337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618029867663477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5472923598882108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533080388447673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24922588036568866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655402686862732,0.0,0.30995765540944553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281567550685687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,halfbloodprincess96,2019/10/18,"Loving someone who has schizophrenia I (F/23) love someone who has schizophrenia (M/20) Last year, I met this guy and I fell for him fast. Early into our relationship, he was diagnosed with schizophrenia and went on anti-psychotics. I’ve struggled with depression for a long time so I wasn’t judgmental at all or scared. I researched everything I could about his illness and I asked my therapist to explain to me about it too. I was as supportive as I could possibly be and I always told him that it doesn’t change how I feel about him and that I know his brain is sick. He told me all about his hallucinations and opened up to me. He said I’m only one of 3 people he’s ever told. When he went back to college after winter break, he sort of freaked out on me. He kept sending texts saying things like “I can’t be there for you.” He ended up dumping me and blocking me on everything and I didn’t get an explanation for why. A few months later I was unblocked and we talked. Then he blocked me again. The last time we ever talked, he told me that he quit therapy and that he is fine now. I’m very worried after that conversation. He also rushed and joined a fraternity. I worry about him mixing alcohol with his meds. I also worry about him being able to balance frat life and school life, while needing to take care of himself too. I doubt anyone at school actually knows what he’s going through. He literally tried to kill himself last year and he told me how much he regrets that it didn’t work. I really love this guy and I always want to be here for him, relationship or not. The last time I talked to him, I didn’t even recognize him anymore. He doesn’t sound or act like the guy I once loved. He seems very unstable and I don’t think he’s getting the help or support he needs. Can you please give me some advice? He’s the first person I’ve ever known with schizophrenia (to my knowledge) and I don’t know what behavior is typical. I want to know what I can do better to support him.",2.2048756603530464,4.435233050251263,3.4513065326633168,88.4948853240562,79.0502512562814,6.393609070996004,23.27045483829404,7.5161900641278425,1.014940651977838,1566,52,320,23,39,508,191,398,0.111,0.78,0.109,-0.2451,0,0,1,0,0,0,42.0,3,2,0,4,23,20,2,3,9,0,26,11,1,2,5,60,64,30,1,7,5,0,1,2,0,0,6,3,0,4,17,25,1,3,10,0,0,7,10,8,0,2,17,4,59,12,44,41,5,46,0,2,0,4,71,10,0,8,30,202,76,7,0.07571715594464916,0.0,0.07388902187092232,0.0,0.0,0.07398992847167979,0.0,0.08091861264730428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12110196450616192,0.12600547864169118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509107289035939,0.05294319594806365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707853197435177,0.0,0.0,0.05822181918032456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06696567134363031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08452538720115557,0.0,0.0,0.07719868676948327,0.0,0.08009871125284533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12090797572149715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06521507546569086,0.07685131945020743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06706292612440817,0.0,0.0,0.05001046739593568,0.20547150732276503,0.0,0.0,0.13609939498530246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038284869091596035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06440497416639153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0791181777414299,0.07263479540411455,0.0430318046258876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249156658585072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05075161358055082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08376981462279165,0.0,0.16644867492992949,0.24687835171628936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106962532932069,0.07398315554655788,0.0,0.0,0.06700730033107027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733507577407397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08410469104356205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060436711491214525,0.0,0.05566082174694045,0.1122866234487161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0806362999404082,0.05130790444349216,0.05758630904162621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052492742252983664,0.06611330002401575,0.0,0.08311469979203437,0.0,0.08535971661585723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08053451555608387,0.0,0.0,0.048506348946727874,0.0,0.0,0.1625837782599516,0.0,0.0,0.07202435435760546,0.0602133214712949,0.07580608206524599,0.15325960832403007,0.0,0.0689300550345105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12830980104088605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07915601135043758,0.0,0.0,0.2577687938312843,0.0,0.0,0.05692987815405245,0.1825757455002528,0.0,0.0,0.08658916663827931,0.08791345395102226,0.05030311395388745,0.04851649620457396,0.0,0.0,0.13245384759769038,0.0,0.0,0.3617549364627267,0.0,0.05140697868176605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494916679279428,0.08931988068003847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14038112427682872,0.06832295618981782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055122991314679536,0.230683341780014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09751873188776533 schizophrenia,dontaskme-,2019/10/18,How do you calm it? There was a situation where I saw lots of X. I’m scared of X. scared a group of secret X are going to come take me. How do you clam. If I say I’m ok I’m ok. I don’t believe it because I’m scared of X. By the way X are real. They’re not hallucinations. How do you calm it?,-3.6083610755441735,-2.165492169014083,0.7216389244558279,101.38504481434059,104.49295774647888,3.7085787451984626,12.08834827144686,5.565023196281405,-1.467630985915493,220,4,64,2,11,83,41,71,0.126,0.738,0.136,-0.264,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,0,0,5,7,0,3,3,2,7,0,0,3,0,9,15,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,2,2,7,4,6,13,1,4,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,2,0,34,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485627635603778,0.0,0.0,0.2745766224993013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20993375114142432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13850545886283333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071927034407461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773942325131377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19380720359145226,0.7319857676657171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739391623835818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18323886170436396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19344488546144348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,psychokillermovie,2019/10/18,"Paranoia sucks Every time I see someone looking at me with a scowl on their face, I get paranoid that they want to hurt me. I keep thinking people are following me and are trying to take photos of me. I don’t even want to leave my house because of it. I am convinced there are photos of me all over the internet saying I’m a horrible person. I have never seen these photos and don’t know if they exist or not but I can’t stop thinking that they do exist. I’m tired of being paranoid. It’s exhausting and scary.",3.101886792452832,4.320721594339624,4.605801886792452,85.6409669811321,73.62264150943396,6.809433962264151,25.514150943396224,7.1686216300943375,1.1624754716981136,403,13,81,4,8,135,69,106,0.225,0.715,0.06,-0.9495,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,4,0,2,4,1,0,3,0,10,3,1,0,2,17,25,6,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,5,4,0,2,3,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,1,4,17,1,11,23,1,7,0,1,3,0,6,3,1,2,3,57,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14601285513507153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15820469511084662,0.0,0.20181102538765935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514247355670513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763808990148299,0.25641758745701154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21290175625353208,0.0,0.0,0.13163725135987225,0.0,0.0,0.2536234990884325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011415534196216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18473725386541695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660572019436964,0.20914490541076952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19048072655589252,0.0,0.0,0.19087124802730174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20294964244881733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20025450067397185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18009377806357946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069572387365833,0.0,0.0,0.13966956430374636,0.27529995548043124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16262246310418485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825573370160322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bug5_bunny,2019/10/18,"Paliperidone How does alcohol interact with Paliperidone? Alcohol alleviates me of the delusions, but I've read that I shouldn't drink during.",6.772463768115943,10.761823347826088,5.869565217391307,66.63594202898551,76.3913043478261,10.023188405797102,38.10144927536232,9.725611199111238,5.586866666666667,119,7,15,4,3,36,20,23,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,4,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7913850411526063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3240147151059771,0.0,0.0,0.3627112591080562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37035756175745693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheIngloriousTaco,2019/10/18,"Hypochondria? I don't know if this is the right place to talk about this, I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia since I was a teen but I don't know if the issues with this are relevant. If not I'm sorry. The last few days I've had a fairly constant (albeit varying in intensity) anxiety about developing a cancer of the mouth or throat. Things like canker sores or random sensations that aren't techincally new to me just seem like all I can focus on sometimes. The mouth sores came and went within a few days, like one would expect. I can tell just by looking that aside from a sore I really don't have anything odd in my mouth. I still want to see a dentist, at the very worst I'm overdue for a checkup. I just want this anxiety to stop. I'd say it started a few weeks ago when I felt the anxiety and decided to quit my vape, which I'd been using for slightly less than two years. It isn't worth the anxiety, even if there's no concrete link. After a week or two I finally had a friend throw the whole thing away so I could properly quit. I know my dad and aunt have a long history of hypochondria, my aunt especially. I would just love to hear some kind of method to ignore it, or at least help ease my mind until I can get to the dentist. TLDR; I've had severe anxiety about developing an illness that I don't believe I have, would like to be less anxious",3.6823021582733797,4.743996978417268,4.772007194244607,85.60707553956837,72.02158273381295,8.149928057553957,26.48992805755396,8.548686976883017,1.6647634532374098,1072,35,227,18,20,352,153,278,0.156,0.718,0.126,-0.8214,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,12,9,0,0,22,0,25,14,4,1,1,41,43,15,0,11,14,3,1,4,1,3,9,2,0,0,13,6,0,2,7,0,1,3,8,2,0,3,9,5,22,7,31,29,10,29,0,0,2,1,10,9,0,11,21,149,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997984132664957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4306300594179182,0.12718722452361114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264656595188238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10577583370033783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12684296666336053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12876544550324212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12166268630758555,0.0,0.0898887037749975,0.0,0.0,0.14521399051452372,0.0,0.0,0.1142698063970508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07436029033778896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10809774332945092,0.12332963892853573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0869816747918436,0.0,0.05882019279355553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12688970216087486,0.0,0.0754622965444977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11750784548915726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723831221482164,0.18561871801965546,0.09177051759183316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22001029836385574,0.0,0.0,0.09963278823054443,0.09454172204432566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161093651020314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11367716520831445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10873377330684958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0762894423848491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11762571684560535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23949266106840125,0.0,0.0,0.0721238248454747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961456297074608,0.0,0.08953085823732958,0.0,0.0,0.0897144134091706,0.10249172167870063,0.0,0.12718722452361114,0.0,0.09313017247090384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134788596320518,0.12602792681938393,0.07968712759818386,0.0,0.08990926854408468,0.09412478435695024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904902923392154,0.09840287566588912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14959084980717238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199552942047859,0.0,0.0,0.09723593160599746,0.0,0.09289311622122627,0.13280924186771562,0.0,0.18061526503246694,0.0,0.0,0.10436596279460658,0.0,0.12569537329958866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399281045887513,0.0,0.0,0.07250003443415683 schizophrenia,NovoKanee,2019/10/18,"Should i tell my Dr about it or is it not schizophrenia Hello everyone, so before i describe my symptoms i would like to state that I have been diagnosed Bipolar 1 and social anxiety when i was 16, i am now 21. I do believe i have schizophrenia but fear for telling my doctor and end up going into the hospital and just getting meds fed to me like a animal every 4 hours. So let me explain i dont describe them as ""voices"", more so like 2 entities inside my head but the ""Evil"" one per say knows my ""Achilles Heel"". For Example my sister and her Boyfriend work and go to college. They are 1 year younger and i absolutely feel like theyre out to get me the most along with my parents and hell even my grandma. We have dog gates/bedroom doors/Bathroom Doors connected to the hall way and sharp noises give me anxiety so when you slam anything even if its on accident i think otherwise because my first thought is ""why the fuck are you mad!"" Then the entities come in and the evil one attacks me always by stating like "" If you dont set that person straight for disrespecting the household and you, then YOU LOSE"". Its so weird as if the evil entity sends whatever chemicals it needs to my brain to become a time bomb and ill usually harass my sister and her BF. I say some of the nastiest shit and wish death upon them and mental illness among there children. The good entity comes in later and its a very harsh when it comes to teaching i guess youd call it and the evil one is gone as if hes done for the day, no more like waiting in the bushes to jump you. Good one First sends thoughts of how i couldve done things differently and more peacefully, i should apologize and explain whats going on. But the evil one is very stubborn and like sends messages in my head like ""if you back down now youre a pussy and theyll never respect you"" Even in public when a car cuts me off ill be so mad and the evil entity gives me crazy motivation to do it back and flip that person off. its like i cant stop thinking people are out to get me and i feel like every looks at me like a lost cause but its the damn whatever the hell this inner thing is not part of me i just need some advice because this has been going on since i was 13 and now 21 its getting to the point where the police send 10 units whenever my parents have to call in a 5150",4.965044646098004,5.119986138947372,5.5541415607985485,84.41547368421055,68.66315789473684,8.82540834845735,29.22141560798548,8.641336200584522,1.9649470054446456,1836,61,387,27,29,594,236,475,0.23600000000000002,0.66,0.10400000000000001,-0.9981,3,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,1,10,4,6,24,35,17,1,27,0,33,15,5,3,1,73,65,50,1,11,14,4,3,11,1,4,8,3,1,3,20,33,1,3,10,0,0,14,7,21,0,7,11,7,60,14,46,47,7,64,2,2,1,1,45,24,5,10,33,260,80,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07644492137948905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06509317624111417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969064314384258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643761787021911,0.0,0.0,0.0889973025300969,0.0,0.12030724942555665,0.0,0.09537590351297943,0.08639829065435768,0.06656750724807294,0.08813781066939434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873299476378925,0.1597620472600897,0.0,0.0,0.08036320309888602,0.0,0.20216325457130666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05045152892270435,0.0,0.0,0.07940125358453029,0.0,0.08173313376298075,0.0,0.08007116556429156,0.0,0.16011179331386466,0.183368685303726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06928808043139435,0.0,0.0,0.15500945847097702,0.0,0.1318233854644049,0.07475159997517798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08802988981253622,0.07911032942412696,0.11177428146005816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13308387474606911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07232187374150363,0.16348665290160505,0.15008964973410116,0.17783841608673082,0.13123031631127513,0.0,0.0,0.08617856812261081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16057198708734816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07704025842454873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042992864473469714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07999492144785103,0.0,0.4204085805043487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06569304248469804,0.0875187536574302,0.08539669499970176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868952927415278,0.0,0.0788368943277279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11601230436100347,0.06033538103073738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26505152811644883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737291114981509,0.08471488006954303,0.0,0.0542344564646937,0.13661389129221613,0.0,0.0,0.07395212420749374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442241048071488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030141488605973,0.0647122164103371,0.0,0.0,0.07974508119660563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06540333012683149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08131036082855451,0.0,0.0,0.1367519895333597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394435217815537,0.10025255638371164,0.0,0.1242109033487942,0.04561622631244038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08615869628084462,0.12909499210509198,0.0,0.06209490281645065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07058991841496401,0.0,0.0899600164476119,0.0,0.0,0.05695197744198152,0.0,0.0,0.05557196275252994,0.0,0.0,0.05037720637235836 schizophrenia,throwaway10021990,2019/10/18,I want kids but what if I am a bad mom? In about 5 years I plan on starting a family with my lover. But I’m afraid I’ll end up being a toxic parent because of my schizophrenia. Are any of you guys parents?,0.4978260869565218,1.8223990000000043,3.003695652173913,94.01032608695654,80.73913043478261,5.469565217391305,20.195652173913047,5.985473137389443,-0.1050260869565216,158,4,38,1,4,55,37,46,0.10400000000000001,0.748,0.14800000000000002,0.2406,2,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,1,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,2,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,1,7,5,0,6,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,1,3,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198370898448117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435633266233225,0.17782200103767412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583659951109796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749955860273192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888359892408169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34164394599077136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6478126467424609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20647185692547934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17205646389692006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18784987221854285 schizophrenia,nesquik_nessly_420,2019/10/18,"How do you better convince yourself that the nosies aren’t real? When they are scary and seem really real I haven’t had any in the longest time. They started again but this time different. Running noises outside my window it’s 5:49am I have school tomorrow. Closed my blinds and curtains, just sitting here in the corner in case with something to protect myself with. It feels like the walls are watching me.",3.4606666666666683,6.520066800000002,3.2360000000000007,86.70466666666668,81.0,4.933333333333334,25.666666666666664,6.42735559955562,1.186066666666667,330,13,54,3,9,99,58,75,0.027000000000000003,0.8420000000000001,0.131,0.7906,2,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,2,1,5,3,0,0,4,0,7,1,0,1,0,12,10,5,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,4,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,9,3,6,9,0,14,0,0,2,0,3,6,0,1,7,38,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18688869522194507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430581305244757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871309751987167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13895849204627944,0.19633321861138864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426437095786914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6256162460510221,0.17605830356064942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27813499914755496,0.0,0.2501880437764172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21157175445999488,0.0,0.0,0.1945207499826255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3205023701638306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dashing-rainbows,2019/10/18,Does anyone else smoke (nicotine) in order to deal with auditory hallucinations? I have found in my experience that smoking helps quiet the voices for a bit as well as the messages in music as well as improve negatives and my ability to focus. I know there are lots of bad effects but i was wondering if it had that effect for anyone else?,6.5139062500000025,7.247485078125003,7.7968750000000036,67.66062500000001,65.40625,10.15,33.1875,10.125756701596842,3.5442625000000003,271,11,45,6,4,93,49,64,0.035,0.8290000000000001,0.136,0.5588,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,2,0,10,7,7,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,3,2,5,2,13,4,2,4,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,0,36,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073174816340893,0.4503326748822472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18348736264110346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23991700423206144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265591345644238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19231025191776688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3671564430418113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149638660768012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24095148135573746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14729804080718487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077233600276255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18682897963949385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3951746782979777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383163739149769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,spiriualExplorer,2018/11/05,"Did my ex-girlfriend have paranoid schizophrenia? She was the most wonderful person when we first met. However, she had a whole bunch of narcissistic attributes at first. Like she would threaten to break up with me if I didn’t go with her on a trip across the country. About 6 months or so into the relationship she started accusing me of cheating on her and no amount of appeasement and later-on no amount of proof would convince her that I wasn’t cheating on her. I stood by her side and tried to support her, but it wasn’t easy. I was with her for another year and a few months after this. We broke up when she went to graduate school. I had plans for an entire life with her, but she suddenly broke it off with me. Fast forward to a few months after the breakup and she started feeling like there was bed bugs in her apartment and no amount of bug busters and other help convinced her that there weren’t insects in her bed. Her rich dad got her another apartment. She started feeling better after that. Then later on, she dropped out of school citing that everyone at school was unfair or hyper-competitive. I heard about this from her only after she dropped out. This sounded like paranoia to me, but someone else I know was telling me about her schizophrenic dad who always thought that the government was spying on him and no amount of proof helped him either. So, I’m here to ask you guys if this sounds like schizo or if she’s going through something else? I still care about her, and want her to be ok. Any help is appreciated ",5.430574324324327,6.4941695574324365,5.091459459459461,84.91975675675678,67.95270270270271,7.947027027027028,30.340540540540534,8.07648339933343,1.9664856756756761,1223,46,238,15,20,374,150,296,0.09699999999999999,0.73,0.17300000000000001,0.9806,2,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,2,1,0,4,12,15,2,0,10,1,18,2,0,1,2,41,38,23,0,6,10,2,2,4,0,2,2,3,2,2,13,19,0,0,5,0,1,5,8,4,0,2,19,5,47,11,48,16,10,47,0,2,0,0,46,20,0,8,25,175,60,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10648076637776503,0.0,0.0,0.08702355914179254,0.26837408239517185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11963408537207945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317850751470455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13047330035460564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21380397417181785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12228021603735513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294103159796018,0.09142134274647347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177013597092428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14545588285767472,0.0,0.10234879457264354,0.0,0.0,0.1267097945747847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573255115834561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07032861848611006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09038854979235192,0.25007747874341635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064317881876837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09732647160613778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11173791695738323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739121105155072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3885355000040289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10842803103397447,0.0985170722344484,0.0,0.0,0.2717321339899502,0.0,0.10219650334724176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14521812337740578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118508689394614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015933846280822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688280138620505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547964937799292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186288870857336,0.0,0.1428732303816452,0.0,0.0,0.13877732181711042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818115361612508,0.0,0.0,0.08240807796242408 schizophrenia,throwaway4938282929,2018/11/05,"Psychosis question I apologize if this isn’t the right forum but no one has responded to me in the other sub.. Hey everyone. I am going to try to make this not too long so I don’t keep anyone here too long. I just had a few questions regarding a psychotic break that I had and was wondering if anybody experienced this as well. -after your psychotic break, does literally every memory that you have feel foreign to you? Like oh wow, a week ago I was fine and I went to the water park with my friends. But it seems so... foreign to think about. (real memories, not false ones) -when you were having your psychotic break, do you remember some parts of it where you were conscious and aware of everything, but you were too sick/delusional to believe that people were NOT out to get you? I remember freaking out about this, I remember hearing my friends outside my window out to get me and I kept trying to go outside to just let them take me away with them and get it over with my but gf was holding me with all of her strength to not let me get up. -do you have significantly long false memories where you couldn’t tell if you actually experienced this awake and hallucinated it or dreamt it? I have a false memory that is VERY vivid where I owed this famous rapper money ($500,000) and I couldn’t get it to him. So he wanted to kill me. -do you have a false memory of dying/trying to die? -after a psychotic break is over, do you feel some sort of breakthrough? after this first episode, I do not want to take anything for granted. I flushed everything and threw all my stuff away like my pipe for my weed, my other meds that weren’t necessary (klonopin and left over xanax) and I just want to turn my life around. I want to be a better person for myself and everyone else. This all happened last week. I was off my meds and doing drugs like coke, marijuana and benzos (xanax and klonopin) (Zoloft 50mg. Not that high of a dose but I kept that dosage for 2 years) I wasn’t sleeping at all on top of that. And I was already horrible depressed due to my living situation (it wasn’t the best) Now I am at my parents, sober, trying to turn my life around and I don’t want to look back at all. I hate the past me because I was so toxic and I feel like this episode really meant something for me to try to turn my life around. ",3.1460577469591904,4.845789146868256,4.122101284528817,87.2105749119018,74.37796976241901,7.63826304421962,25.14317380925316,8.371475516178862,1.4894786177105828,1817,60,381,32,38,587,205,463,0.08,0.823,0.098,0.8115,3,0,2,0,0,1,59.0,0,14,2,5,23,16,2,0,13,0,39,11,1,1,5,79,74,32,2,10,18,1,3,4,3,0,8,1,1,1,27,27,2,4,13,0,2,4,15,4,1,3,20,8,67,12,63,49,10,50,0,1,2,0,31,25,0,11,21,273,94,0,0.0,0.0,0.07947095333198456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07218915833723874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08986796801488088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05694277915580913,0.0,0.0670158712948915,0.217489103522898,0.0,0.0,0.15302584795324858,0.06262017493025802,0.0,0.04964335724265561,0.0,0.0,0.09175182956040552,0.08546331022995943,0.0720245796661299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07014173537077675,0.0,0.08451894950637387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07126623676677107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09444128978186253,0.0,0.06803032531893285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06861434782271993,0.15563345647458374,0.14638099670994184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12353127573732442,0.0581787472588155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06927043512994717,0.0,0.0,0.12583634726173815,0.0,0.21273786185668825,0.0,0.09256526749505617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201464120030995,0.0,0.0,0.08040236851858842,0.0,0.0,0.0917856356713406,0.0,0.0,0.08604286607171988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07238511933422377,0.09009818860705096,0.0,0.0,0.06638218192344031,0.0,0.0,0.08848174894447182,0.16655009564311635,0.1725644943121212,0.15914439663484653,0.0,0.07191053379785953,0.21620806052143865,0.06838673200052058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05435995898516547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18091672640084627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036789975955304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042636586271678,0.08818854448888615,0.07774101594011723,0.05645829602592744,0.07110781612470768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18245658883931426,0.0,0.0,0.09269335499474167,0.052170751430225294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767573947746982,0.06954691822455591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07413736233223102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09153881750076012,0.08149600639785781,0.0,0.0,0.06269433016424969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322610280033186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12246126895223425,0.0,0.07117969654803433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05218166526064713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27645254330837704,0.265740843521474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06719421337317914,0.24016883325177654,0.0,0.13064800870865514,0.0,0.07322181710795841,0.07549309419459041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08831516239750717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05244288254610627 schizophrenia,parallelspaces,2018/11/05,"I can't do this anymore. I can't go on living in this fake world. What's the point? I'm exhausted everyday, everyone just lies to me. I don't want to exist anymore.",-1.083333333333332,0.9959884444444498,2.2957777777777792,91.42700000000002,95.11111111111113,6.213333333333335,21.088888888888885,7.554174236665415,1.1085622222222224,128,5,29,3,5,46,26,36,0.297,0.703,0.0,-0.8461,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,7,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7396332275673662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3563219447337336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119276720813759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32927754520286817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3525110462325198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199460904286485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,quadpvp,2018/11/05,It's been a couple days now I started risperdal about a month ago and it's been 2 or 3 days now since I've heard or seen anything and my paranoia that someone watching me from around corners and behind me is fading. My fear of the dark is starting to fade. It's time to see if I can safely drive at night alone again so I can go back to work... I've been so scared that my life is ending and my wife might leave me and take the kids because *I'm crazy*. I just want to be feel safe and normal again.,2.1483715596330266,2.957764330275232,3.0393463302752286,97.53956995412844,75.42201834862385,5.45,21.881880733944953,3.1291,-0.3759825688073399,388,9,95,0,8,123,72,109,0.114,0.8170000000000001,0.069,-0.5777,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,10,4,0,2,4,0,10,1,0,0,0,17,20,11,0,3,4,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,5,7,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,5,5,11,2,10,13,0,21,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,4,16,57,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18960134273683413,0.0,0.0,0.2215264257663706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17601395382436189,0.1904082136818602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16446886932421467,0.0,0.1303858835311623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366661692979925,0.0,0.275883821040378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18944381657147086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24068668369252005,0.10814964596379817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155910535670746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22647953827297784,0.0,0.0,0.1510774405460049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22690440250453756,0.0,0.0,0.1707256445190728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20072208357453675,0.20956763033568546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141420653063856,0.0,0.17044332358074446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17693273040969595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18122903232419946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30278610444660065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608193083380415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12472148104569378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261583714699878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557150941507786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fuopurii,2018/11/05,Withdrawal from haldol So my doctor lowered my dose of haldol (yay!) and akineton. I can't find on the internet what the withdrawal is like. Does anybody know about withdrawal from haldol and akineton? What are the symptoms? How long does it last? I'm scared.,2.151329787234044,4.934325063829792,2.7693351063829823,85.67187500000003,96.23404255319149,5.754255319148936,25.02393617021277,7.1686216300943375,1.872193617021277,206,9,34,4,8,64,34,47,0.095,0.7709999999999999,0.135,-0.4011,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,3,1,3,3,0,1,0,5,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,5,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,21,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408544833734832,0.5828465202092862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043692481430356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18301607708063536,0.27145128951173303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16269407856659118,0.0,0.0,0.2947073804587273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3334056402497528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461296065544998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,msmadd1,2018/11/05,Had two hallucinations for the first time. Help? Hallucinated a voice once when I was sitting on my bed. I was thinking to myself and out of nowhere a voice started talking over my own making me stop and caught me off guard. It sounded like it was inside my head? Then one day in class I heard the sound of someone’s coat brushing against my chair and I thought someone was there and there wasn’t. The noise got oddly intense and afterwards I had the weirdest feeling in between my eyebrows. Like as if it all rushed there. I’m confused weather or not these will get worse over time or what I should do,2.2677835723598463,4.857618372881358,2.650000000000002,92.23039765319427,81.37288135593221,4.647718383311604,26.873533246414603,5.8734145424116955,0.7824920469361151,480,21,96,3,13,147,82,118,0.08,0.828,0.092,-0.0926,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,6,0,10,1,1,1,1,19,20,11,0,2,4,0,1,2,0,2,0,5,1,0,5,6,0,2,3,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,11,7,14,2,14,7,2,19,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,4,11,68,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16165826378408402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12674381505548413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21321562089891585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130962178076089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004797931644272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25725472745008776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16801554447087624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449246296593028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16732091238229954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26695016932026244,0.16985717088681115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4247754812488525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774220603375644,0.0,0.0,0.2095672622766198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20147512642604054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16061608588449974,0.0,0.19900010373503665,0.29232969162733863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24486339673798002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25544916965948844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Pretzel_of_Truth,2018/11/05,How do you guys deal with insomnia? Lately I've been going days at a time without sleeping because my brain just wont shut off. I can't shake the feeling of always being watched either which makes it harder to go to sleep. When I do manage to sleep it's not for very long and I feel worse after I wake up. I've tried taking 20mg of melatonin but it does absolutely nothing.,2.0756593406593424,3.932590705128206,3.5813553113553134,89.23269230769232,77.84615384615384,5.482783882783883,22.68131868131868,6.1826913282559595,0.4234703296703297,297,9,61,2,7,98,65,78,0.047,0.934,0.018000000000000002,-0.2444,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,6,6,5,2,0,11,12,4,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,1,3,6,0,12,9,1,13,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,6,37,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16879756213859934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12366288549296978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22646125314832954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082930623592146,0.20914197196485146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775260370431112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20514639963658296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305824728757791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20086542528653906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288373444942021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17952662159296434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13541206229317962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946517069041893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6090259724811579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525270924540902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11829055271448173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377300855793423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673825215635865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955518762167924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20673386477619365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,burnttoast12345,2018/11/05,"Wow, That's...Disturbing I realized that people without mental illness think that this comes and goes. Like they have no idea that we actually live this bittersweet nightmare/dream/fantasy world/life. We live it. I just realized that ""normal"" people (whatever that would mean) think that this is just some intermittent period that can be tamed with therapy or medication and that's that. Like some therapy and we're cured forever, yay. Swallowing some pills and we're magically ""normal"" just like them.",5.261764705882354,8.734100176470589,5.355588235294121,71.80514705882355,76.64705882352942,10.458823529411768,28.5,10.125756701596842,4.169729411764706,405,17,62,15,10,127,55,85,0.04,0.768,0.192,0.9244,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,2,0,2,0,3,5,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,0,25,9,5,0,3,5,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,13,8,1,0,6,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,6,5,2,7,3,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,4,38,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.19316319006286795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17050981633005244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22345283108101885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901139162713908,0.0,0.3495734611233801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156172590897594,0.0,0.19940610334661085,0.19947934257921104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3878829717801708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744566186421396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4527286795582129,0.0,0.0,0.2536669437557287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19080937167916284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14061257346881784,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Kalliopita,2018/11/05,Gaining weight on Haldol Does anyone have any tips for keeping my weight down while taking APs? I’ve gained 20 pounds since May and I hate it. I used to look thin and now I’m on the chubby side. I’m thinking of doing like a liquid fast or something to get the weight back off. Have any of y’all had any success with keeping your weight normal while taking antipsychotics? ,3.640315315315316,5.399088797297299,3.5713513513513497,91.4247747747748,73.18918918918921,5.473873873873874,21.792792792792795,5.46131890053228,0.06834954954954943,297,7,59,1,6,90,55,74,0.048,0.7979999999999999,0.154,0.8053,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,3,2,3,1,0,3,0,5,4,0,1,0,10,16,5,0,1,1,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,5,2,10,14,0,11,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,2,6,31,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196241796559168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10954773940764848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047003512334616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371035142582001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08185393195877869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15467980040334034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27851208906118624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07654135058563903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13156386125157107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15350394205901802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12959955482461266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12061269655240647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23559361481113664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10038820641664008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13531311190292114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7631304253383664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ThatWeirdoJess,2018/12/12,"I'm pretty sure my friend has Schizophrenia, help? My friend \[let's call her Amy\] has a lot of the symptoms for Schizophrenia. Hallucinations, voices, etc. I'd rather not go too in-depth. The thing is, I don't know what to do. Amy doesn't like the school, and told me not to tell the school because she thinks she'll be shoved in with all the special needs kids. She's been to many different doctors, but they've all said it's just stress. I recently learned that she doesn't sleep at night because she's scared of the things in the dark. I want to tell the school, but if I do she'll know it was me who told them, and immediately lose all of her trust in me. I'm torn.",3.266142857142857,4.177259042857145,3.4400000000000013,95.335,72.85714285714286,6.742857142857144,22.57142857142857,6.742157984588678,0.1640142857142859,526,12,127,4,10,161,85,140,0.10800000000000001,0.768,0.125,-0.1543,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,1,1,3,9,0,2,9,0,14,3,1,0,4,21,25,5,0,4,7,0,0,1,2,2,2,2,0,1,7,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,5,2,18,6,13,16,5,7,0,1,0,0,20,4,0,2,3,74,25,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866918382414965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563616657123044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599870452118176,0.0,0.15673385560434014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17077913355249022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366139227153575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08702664820540773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10263903313676767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16831121078139608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15658461293686238,0.0,0.07481101602467884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17131200228878354,0.0,0.13018466319744249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15524860848520655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354309402080927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437010424109196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557870803361079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15119625516576576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14566059228504102,0.0,0.15330868163854874,0.4649236814608318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15323942707367694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17540856800089194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443221187946286,0.15915949597370166,0.0,0.0,0.26768270987535586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034639931911153,0.09811877712454566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926423362051781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903193568253747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mousecedes,2018/12/12,"Tips to control symptoms? I need tips on controlling my anxiety, it's just gotten worse over the last few days. I'm supposed to celebrate my birthday this weekend, but I feel anxious and sick, more so for every day. The only thing right now that is not making me more sick is apples, but I can't live on just that. I've tried breathing exercises, grounding, and distraction, but nothing works.",5.828378378378383,6.990778594594598,5.968486486486487,78.63191891891893,67.10810810810811,8.622702702702702,33.71891891891892,8.841846274778883,2.930370810810811,312,14,55,5,5,99,57,74,0.226,0.745,0.028999999999999998,-0.9418,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,2,0,3,5,1,3,0,13,8,6,0,1,6,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,6,0,6,7,3,10,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,5,35,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18161972809306665,0.2682082756381881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5325560714518925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.306222532493508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20003006747636806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004277144785333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935226778469428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20963937404188954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584745262304267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760381815993231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278034652836019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805627209608724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027487717463218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467622403379309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577261553914352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16118733951932254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17283895191279655,0.0,0.2419433743299731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xfismajig,2018/12/12,"Status update I remember it all. NOTHING is kaleidoscopic. everything is focused and real and pure but NOT in the sense that it hasn't been tainted. it is tainted because I am in this box. I am in this glass box in this room. only I have motion because I am the disruption. I cannot hear anything because the foam surrounding my exits is soundproof. they are exits because they throb with the ""heartbeat"" of some internal bag of fluid or another internal pouch of habit. I am a wheel in a field of dry grass, and long leaky metal pipes flowing with... I am in an obsolete gearbox. I am the epitome of a prayer. Feels like a wheel. I close my eyes and see a slate-grey abyss. Then the pillars come. The pillars, jagged from MY focus, rise and disappear into the identical abyss above. I am a .onion link. Don't click on me. Do not click on me.",1.6379234449760744,4.169038036363638,3.3156299840510397,86.75870813397131,83.78787878787878,6.382775119617225,25.047846889952154,7.669130373188453,1.6095454545454548,656,27,126,12,19,217,96,165,0.055,0.912,0.033,-0.5187,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,15,0,18,2,1,0,2,21,22,8,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,7,10,0,0,3,0,0,5,5,0,0,0,1,6,18,1,17,21,2,22,0,0,4,0,3,14,0,2,4,87,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539973944034993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19933317447195475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5906402647265541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086581512379045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176990927131742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12247785916731176,0.1730478788654538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730087929288666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11834046610040118,0.0,0.0,0.21436433995622825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324244967215769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842254659900041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27570872908976324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743973379891669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930245189015118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Wardburk,2018/12/12,help lol can someone please help me on my project for college on schizophrenia,3.937857142857141,7.2717499285714275,1.4685714285714295,97.00142857142859,85.42857142857143,2.8000000000000003,35.57142857142857,3.1291,1.4318285714285717,65,4,11,0,2,17,12,14,0.0,0.488,0.512,0.8591,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,6,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6950513694425833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5691344750997344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4393057512586643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Chainz512,2018/12/12,"I feel like the voice are my only friends Everything they tell me makes so much sense. Even if they hurt me or make me hurt myself. It's complicated, but they make sense in a weird way. 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I feel insanely lonely about having schizophrenia. And feel as though we are misunderstood and often treated as an afterthought. I have been longingly to meet other people like me for a while and have someone to relate to. I am also studying film and have a passion for documentary film making. I also have a passion for cultural anthropology. As someone who grew up in the SF bay area and now goes to school near LA, I have never been away from a huge metropolitan area. I can't even begin to understand the way people live in the Midwest or the South or any of these almost foreign seeming places to me. I want to study American culture and media and I feel like I should see the rest of this country if I am to do so effectively. All of these passions and desires combined into a project I want to undertake starting around December 2019 or January 2020. I would like to spend a year traveling to and interviewing someone with schizophrenia (or maybe bipolar disorder) in each state. I am open to more than one person, if possible. I could protect identities, if need be. I know it can be hard to come out. I would be interviewing each person and filming them as they go about their daily lives for a few days. The idea is to tell our stories and share the reality of living with schizophrenia. My idea is to upload a weekly mini doc and then make a longer full documentary sharing the information I found and experiences we have in common. I have a few questions. A. What feedback do you all have about this idea? B. Are any of you interested in participating? C. How do you think I could find people interested in participating? D. What sort of things do you think I should cover? What would you like this project to focus on? What issues should I bring to light? For me, I am interested in seeing how the medical system leaves us underserved and how staying on medication given the side effects can be difficult. I am interested in covering how symptoms actually play out and showing our lives beyond the stereotypes. This doesn't mean people have to be off meds or in a chaotic place or even having uncontrollable sysmptoms. I am not looking for drama. I just want the honesty and people not afraid to speak candidly. I will be funding my travels and production myself. I will not be responsible for handing the information I collect over to anyone else. If you read all of this thank you. Please share your thoughts. 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I'm diagnosed with schizophrenia, however before they placed me on a medication I never had issues prior with hearing things or seeing things. I do believe I have crippling depression but schizophrenia? I'm not so sure about that.",8.772058823529411,11.623753607843142,7.198186274509804,66.16433823529414,61.941176470588246,9.805882352941175,36.27941176470589,10.125756701596842,4.469152941176472,258,12,33,6,4,77,39,51,0.122,0.8420000000000001,0.036000000000000004,-0.6334,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,2,9,9,3,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,3,6,2,5,7,0,4,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,1,3,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17414159300257448,0.2551812183547648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21192325808013776,0.2805941332232941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21450645217034506,0.25278056894293577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21794538626058765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20804936814036346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259271937048485,0.17792141298236455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28069751858837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599435579228773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216732795548778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25089173455655056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920827601053149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602043056171676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984606535969172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23472673463301644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3309155875483326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,VaasAlen,2018/12/12,"My girlfriend is possibly schizophrenic Her brother is schizophrenic and that makes her feel very uncomfortable with the possibilities that she might be too. She told me she hears a clock sometimes, foot steps in the house when she is alone, she is always paranoid, and she believes in spirits and she had a imagine friend since she was a kid, she still feels him around to this day. She is will see a psychiatric soon after talking to her counselor about this and some stuff from her past. I would like to ask you guys your opinions and what I should do to try to help her, make her more comfortable, just support her in general in case it is true... I apologize if I came across as rude to anyone, I do not have a lot of knowledge about this stuff, so far just the very basic.",7.323104026845637,6.879800865771812,6.403951342281883,82.32257130872486,63.83221476510067,9.866107382550336,32.71895973154362,9.188382445141503,2.5145362416107377,615,21,124,9,8,186,98,149,0.064,0.831,0.105,0.7553,0,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,0,0,10,6,1,0,8,0,16,3,1,2,1,26,26,9,0,3,4,1,2,1,2,4,2,1,0,2,9,8,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,4,27,5,19,17,3,16,1,0,1,0,31,7,0,5,8,96,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16994304398322355,0.0,0.0,0.13653224171538986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11473236408904225,0.0,0.0,0.14607084152854002,0.15339774888050706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18486811622165572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876700456541969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058215428952273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659330707586031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12677201414919026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16247039619546186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849362311799655,0.0,0.10998302054039684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893325825155479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08016386418144045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394995846016001,0.0,0.0,0.21905662837726614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17406873568882142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15663813178292402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3699633884934063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13075486202480166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13573318254047967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16228470891817695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13103885492307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3756771737404384,0.0,0.18620222784722065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13188567187564765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15679068230775334,0.0,0.1114032519045487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27077536669974417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11656159814697635,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NewAgeSlave,2019/03/13,"R.D. Laing Is anyone here familiar with R.D. Laing's work on schizophrenia? I'm thinking of 'The Divided Self' in particular. For me, reading that book was at the same time encouraging and terrifying. Anyway I'm wondering how other people might feel about it",5.8221739130434775,8.469187086956524,6.338478260869567,70.10163043478265,69.43478260869566,9.817391304347826,31.06521739130435,10.125756701596842,3.763452173913043,210,9,33,6,4,68,41,46,0.077,0.852,0.071,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,8,8,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,7,6,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,1,21,4,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662655465229757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19254488531887048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4039706442793857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26400009395336843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3809049560640548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3972594374133485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440024850400676,0.0,0.0,0.2220486535183052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4129634227668119,0.2772283226494793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SirTEPL,2019/03/13,"Visual snow (?) and hallucinations Ever since a kid I have had problems with white dots in the dark. &#x200B; I did my best to look up what they might be called and the only thing I can find is ""Visual snow"" or ""Visual static"" When in dark areas I see these white dots floating around me. My mind often turns them into things. People, objects, creatures and sometimes even words. I don't think they ever made sense, but they do pop up. &#x200B; When I was a kid it got so bad I went to the hospital. Was told there was nothing wrong with me. I had just gotten over my fear of the dark, and that happened. &#x200B; Now I find myself often getting these hallucinations as an adult. Almost 24 now and find myself seeing them so bad I jump out of my bed to turn the lights on. I play and love horror games. I have never had nightmares or hallucinations based on these games. These dots are something else. I can never describe them other than being something I absolutely am terrified of. &#x200B; I would list my medication, however I've had these since I was a kid and am not on anything I was on back then. I still see them, I always see them forming things that terrify me. But I'm just stronger now, I am able to push through it. Not always, but more often. &#x200B; Could anyone shed some light as to what this might be? As I said, I think the dots are this ""Visual snow"" but it's the hallucinations it causes is my main worry.",3.158817204301073,5.27815738351255,3.8613247311827976,87.25598709677423,75.52329749103944,5.897691756272402,22.27111111111111,6.742157984588678,0.5353964444444439,1126,31,221,10,25,357,143,279,0.13,0.8079999999999999,0.062,-0.9751,1,0,2,0,0,0,58.0,0,0,8,1,20,8,0,1,11,0,30,2,0,2,4,45,49,21,0,3,10,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,4,19,12,0,0,5,3,0,3,5,5,0,0,16,10,41,3,27,26,5,28,0,0,7,1,18,13,0,9,12,169,60,0,0.07477014568962258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07487150038298926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442950185050736,0.40506710808034574,0.4542695550658285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05228102435866388,0.0,0.061529459073264674,0.06656128185519967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05749362674966357,0.12485989699952588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07846665494985303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07634867855255356,0.0,0.0,0.07680953600778212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059697877231035625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624608624281401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04938497605395705,0.13526775489577966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413720123869503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050156757547438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03906431509887042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0598005158907894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06611899290113506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06278809103689298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06748297570627453,0.07074931971801103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07532305556401184,0.0,0.15863861749708788,0.07549653257393744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11533469157821355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07174397135117358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056866065068762024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05183620458185953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07154493149622518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112353074190887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23832850236493214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12370127433564375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11512342218136612,0.07394958595471153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597115349322672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14902188726119134,0.09581938054350213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07144607841063452,0.0,0.0,0.1626568954449627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06931267414431498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07593271237705346,0.0,0.05311456623762604,0.08174941669749072,0.4542695550658285,0.0 schizophrenia,Lastal,2019/03/13,"Screaming in your sleep? Hello everyone. &#x200B; Long time lurker, first time poster. I've always been told I talk in my sleep, that's nothing new. But recently my girlfriend refuses to sleep in the same bed as me. Because apparently I scream and cry in my sleep. We already sleep in separate beds because of our different sleep cycles, but every so often we'd sleep in bed together just to be close. But we don't do that anymore, because I just won't stop screaming in my sleep. Has anyone else had this happen to them? Or am I just a weirdo?",2.58365351629503,5.0919842264150965,3.641766723842197,86.11635506003431,79.37735849056604,6.496054888507719,25.674099485420236,7.686295010490155,1.5953509433962263,432,17,81,7,11,139,70,106,0.095,0.857,0.049,-0.5903,2,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,4,1,1,1,5,3,0,0,2,0,9,8,8,0,0,15,11,7,0,0,7,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,3,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,3,3,15,0,12,5,1,15,0,0,0,0,11,8,0,2,7,52,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11674381341660996,0.0,0.08802720070639962,0.11462530378169825,0.12854854099353125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10491697687804337,0.07397204289840223,0.10839613733593297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19346898444452545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11620725645174608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11052984944945077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837542209021207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913410191484022,0.10108853913911972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998639818760408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09355128441494273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09362235894218504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10217431966388743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10151002570421674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10445657833524637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8469451151747375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08844662989889714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08503139157926372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12337602621202208,0.0,0.0,0.10108853913911972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12854854099353125,0.0 schizophrenia,candypaintfence,2019/03/13,"I feel like y'all will appreciate the helicopter story... For a long time I had a paranoia-founded fear of helicopters. Especially with search lights. Those kind still get to me. With time, I worked through it, and I'm cautious of them now, but not as afraid as i used to be. The very first time I had moved into an apartment after couch surfing for years, on a beautiful sunny day, I was sitting on my floor just behind the balcony, looking out over the creek while I ate breakfast. I saw a black unmarked helicopter - the worst kind - in the distance. I stared at it. It was coming in my direction. Talked myself down from mounting fear as it came toward me with alarming speed and silence. It got about three hundred feet from my apartment (puzzlingly, still silent!) before I got the idea to duck and cover behind the wall lest I be shot at, but just as I abandoned my breakfast and touched the wall, the helicopter turned to the side and then I noticed it was a fucking balloon. And had been the entire time. It truly made me afraid for my life but that's not a new feeling. It was funny then, and I think it's funny now too. 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I couldn’t get a hold of my life. I read that it’s a symptom of having schizophrenia, but I was wondering if any of y’all felt that way. The disorganization left me unable to care for myself. I think I’m considered recovered now and what I’m trying to say is my mind was so disorganized it bled through to my real life. I wish I could show y’all a picture of my room. 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I tried to push him aside since I was talking to my friend Dennis. I went through him. He just vanished. Gone. I started screaming and fell out of my seat. Couldn’t get up because of polio. What do I do?",-0.04166666666666785,2.300532833333332,0.9733333333333364,99.95833333333334,95.66666666666666,2.666666666666667,20.0,3.1291,-0.7014999999999998,230,8,49,0,9,71,46,60,0.094,0.851,0.055999999999999994,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,4,10,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,2,0,0,5,2,12,1,10,4,0,12,0,1,1,0,5,4,0,0,3,32,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246547321007383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3771019950600105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28472823407610665,0.0,0.19254365545621413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729757947274362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3048548974286961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608500603595629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29621344036469943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493268703706444,0.0,0.0,0.25021020134450883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3416344460517043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Magehunter_Skassi,2019/03/13,"What's the difference between not encouraging a delusion and ignoring someone? I have a close online friend who's a mostly functioning schizophrenic, but sometimes suffers from conspiratorial delusions even while medicated such as believing that license plates have hidden messages in them. They'll be worried about them and how they're being watched. Debating them about this wouldn't work of course. Is the correct course of action just to ignore them when they start talking about it? 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Incredibly weird incidents in the night. My grandma kicked the bucket and since my (adoptive, 50 years old) aunt was staying with her for a few months after becoming homeless, she's still up here while I'm visiting to work on renovating the house and overseeing repairs. I was warned that it was going to be a little sketchy, but I wasn't prepared for this. Last night for about 3-4 hours, I heard her in the neighboring room having an argument with herself. There were two voices-- her normal one (very scared), and a low, almost demonic sounding masculine voice (aggressive and threatening). It was hard to make out what was being said since a lot of it was guttural or otherwise non-intelligible, but there were phrases like ""die"" and ""i'm sorry"" and ""stop"" being used. She was clearly hitting herself and slamming herself against furniture, and would frantically pace around the house and loudly go outside before coming back in. Sometimes it sounded like she was cleaning things. There were lulls when the talking stopped or was quieter, but it kept resuming until she eventually got some vodka/orange juice and went to sleep. I stayed in my room the whole time since it didn't seem like a good idea to get involved at all. What should be done about this? I've been told she has no memory of her episodes of psychosis and believes that her injuries were inflicted by agents of a foreign government. The worst she's apparently ever got in her life was a dislocated shoulder, so it doesn't seem like she's in mortal danger. Should we look to get her involuntarily committed? She's apparently been on meds before but stopped, and it seems like she can live fine enough on her own. You can tell something is a little off with her during the day, but she's functional. 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I called community mentsl health and they set me up for an appointment on wednesday and then a mentsl health evaluation immediately after. I have to go to the e.r. today and my doctor said i will then be able to get some medication and help for what i need today, there. I dont want them to treat me badly, and i dont want to be there alone. I hate this all",1.9485368536853684,3.743133732673268,3.9747854785478562,86.55335533553357,78.009900990099,7.261166116611661,21.123212321232124,8.167268648758528,0.8746228822882287,381,10,85,7,9,130,60,101,0.11599999999999999,0.828,0.055999999999999994,-0.5919,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,3,0,3,3,1,0,5,0,10,6,0,0,1,11,18,8,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,0,3,1,15,1,14,12,3,16,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,11,60,17,1,0.3212304166607933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423756912177686,0.0,0.0,0.1663489168178839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321726311532469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13410699005414728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640060855621796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10358352200844456,0.0,0.0,0.1630210555317778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643964715752764,0.0,0.0,0.3764796559271432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839148172043772,0.0,0.18256264854618576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585742659569793,0.0,0.3414529114989325,0.0,0.0,0.10765698852057863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236058496319046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11909414182907407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15278184363482586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.456733311761539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18947002253964573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JakeTheMan951,2018/12/28,"My schizophrenia seems to have started with tinnitus and the feeling of having a bomb in my head. Has this happened to anyone else? The feeling of the bomb in my head is very hard to explain, but I will try. All of the sounds that I believe to be tinnitus, converged at once and it mimicked what it would sound like if a bomb was about to go off. Also, while that was happening, the muscles in my face felt as if they were getting pulled up. The bomb never detonated or so it seems and the voices began shortly thereafter. Can anyone relate? Please help me.",3.071666666666665,5.305695425925926,3.699777777777779,87.77300000000002,76.22222222222223,5.801481481481483,26.540740740740727,6.742157984588678,1.1759451851851854,438,17,83,4,10,138,74,108,0.12,0.778,0.10099999999999999,-0.5034,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,9,0,11,3,3,0,2,17,23,11,0,3,4,0,4,1,0,2,0,3,0,0,7,4,0,0,6,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,7,8,1,17,15,1,13,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,5,5,64,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15873655992855287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775849534956573,0.203381815362529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236361459631039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16581729035633053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007303000144384,0.0,0.19058654446064935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10370556261167307,0.0,0.11280941084128203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3510573443192252,0.0,0.17781273340012455,0.0,0.40742673398763457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330471653940833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09697474068244437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530917545653871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21139093672185785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21788815034145287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614051962404718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049594209054106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13476522838485894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16377934894374027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14100531292067278,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,30CenturySchizoidman,2018/12/28,"I don't think that I can ever be in a relationship again I've emotionally hurt too many people, wasted so much of their time, put them through so much bullshit, more bullshit than any good person should ever have to live through from a significant other. If I really wanted to, I could have a relationship if I put myself out there a bit more, anyone could. But the fact is, I don't think I want to do that. I don't want to hurt someone in another relationship, I don't want to call someone and talk with them for three hours hysterically crying about something even I can't remember. I don't need another trip to the zoo where they can't hug me for a week because I'm having flashbacks to that summer where snakes were following me everywhere, and seeing the huge ass python set them off. I don't want someone to be worried about me after I'm glazed out all day because I couldn't tell if everyone is watching me, or if I'm actually dreaming this life and my dream last night was the real one or vice versa. I'm so god damn tired of letting everyone down and letting any meaningful connection I have slip out because of my fucking delusions and psychosis. I don't want to curse anyone with the concept of getting to know me anymore. I'm sorry for the rant guys, I lost my insurance recently, so maybe I'm just spewing emotions that aren't there because of the stress. No outpatient treatment I was headed for, no trying out antipsychotics, no more going to the therapist who was the only thing grounding me to reality, no fucking anything. The best I can do right now is work towards a better life where maybe I'll have an opportunity to get back what I almost had. Good luck everyone, I hope you're all doing well. The road is bumpy for all of those reading this, as it is for many others who never will. I hope you all find peace eventually",8.979093406593408,6.6603617719780255,9.005027472527473,71.02122252747253,61.774725274725284,11.957142857142856,38.40934065934066,10.411451182825502,3.817591208791209,1471,57,281,26,16,485,189,364,0.156,0.7290000000000001,0.115,-0.8898,0,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,1,5,5,20,17,3,1,18,0,39,8,2,0,8,49,65,17,0,17,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,14,11,0,0,6,3,0,5,16,7,1,2,6,2,37,10,44,50,11,37,0,3,2,4,16,16,4,10,15,199,51,2,0.0,0.0,0.08240164042744243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08455485366809762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484472221001114,0.17708622380533273,0.0,0.0,0.08374217753797729,0.11808536870911784,0.0,0.06948724657051385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06492944807835753,0.0,0.20589631313628656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08861498024176549,0.07468066339651534,0.09218703652551136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622307967305685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483756162880686,0.0,0.092753803917695,0.054457066274920835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18996814782924512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055772081530151466,0.152762334970161,0.0,0.24205923512692826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07717698712431584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15612756067319625,0.08823323774555747,0.0,0.04798941983452841,0.14164918656064518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360926226608585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08666020167702314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16773672112636634,0.08315677539307749,0.0,0.1807903688749211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046406230296160686,0.0688301883430772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17269204053724044,0.11928548997811762,0.0,0.0,0.07456241180602298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09217666101621648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17121860498954514,0.16966344357705396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12414680566484275,0.06261147959433146,0.06512563471658896,0.0,0.0,0.07924158630860008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0572189939179857,0.06422072198331599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058540334716258975,0.07373009194204079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697718300324487,0.0,0.0,0.08446324124040026,0.09611165071069924,0.05409467635582909,0.0,0.08337469862601865,0.27197213529735004,0.09565450173387233,0.07211163208822538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06728805867159494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.214638206481291,0.06500633796920442,0.0,0.09452410389627912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09672618199083023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06786998731586752,0.07380462313297782,0.0,0.0,0.09804180157996492,0.05609844336077356,0.10821198532124446,0.0,0.0,0.049237870735577234,0.09705180716377483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05732948231736022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988307804510954,0.0,0.0677329878704195,0.0,0.07592205191711987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06147360994346528,0.08575331535792527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,freetobebre,2018/12/28,"Is schizophrenia a gift or a curse? I genuinely can’t tell. I think I have a *beautiful* mind. Gorgeous. The things I’ve seen wouldn’t even come close to amazing computer effects like the movies. It’s beautiful in here. My dreams are beautiful, colors are beautiful, things I make are beautiful. But as beautiful as things are, they can be just as dark and evil. Am I really better off than those with normal brain function? Is the beauty *worth* anything to me? Worth the medicine, the doctor’s visits, the terror? Does my mind even mean anything if I have to be loaded up on drug cocktails to be functional? ",2.786194331983808,5.5824752982456145,3.356315789473687,86.61844129554657,81.10526315789474,7.01646423751687,24.55870445344129,8.139509932561175,1.8122680161943316,480,18,88,10,13,150,75,114,0.08,0.598,0.322,0.9872,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,2,4,6,1,1,9,0,15,3,1,2,0,16,20,7,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,3,2,2,2,2,2,0,0,1,2,10,4,13,15,0,7,0,0,2,0,3,5,0,2,1,60,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3443142263079885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185023987181914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23354091498315885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18021077047674885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21412921655685,0.18307587963944888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426102876412896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27635461252811816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10220653469806452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964533220608888,0.0,0.0,0.2278845477930518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4224729193731214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20497555713745608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13402147556629398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18285356641809453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4169576377568739,0.1340495121120043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MrWafflez0212,2019/05/05,I'm not sure what to do now. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia 2 years ago during my junior year of high school. It was hard graduating from that point because of my delusions but I managed to pull it off. After I graduated I was pressured into college immediately by my mother. She even chose my major for me. I had no say in what I wanted and I felt so depressed. During my first year of college I barely passed my classes. I was stressed out all the time. I started have anxiety attacks and eventually I slowly stopped going to classes. After talking with my psychiatrist about all this he prescribed me Aripiprazole and I was slowly starting to go back to class. But after a while I couldn't handle being in public places around strangers anymore. I was so paranoid and stressed so I dropped out. It's been 5 months since then and I haven't been getting any better. I'll only go out for groceries and my dog's vet appointments. I've missed a few of my appointments with my psychiatrist. And when I finally do get to the appointments I can't even speak. And I haven't told my mother I dropped out yet. I have no other family to turn to. And I don't have the courage to talk with my doctor anymore. I can't seem to step out my front door without thinking I'm going to die or that I'm hated. How can I fight this and get help...,2.570639097744362,4.7388982744360915,3.952833082706768,85.67374586466167,77.53383458646617,6.361263157894737,26.429473684210528,7.404127859558343,1.4379177744360914,1055,42,206,14,25,347,142,266,0.207,0.778,0.013999999999999999,-0.9940000000000001,0,0,0,0,1,0,23.0,0,0,0,2,12,11,3,3,5,0,22,2,0,1,3,36,42,20,1,2,5,2,2,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,10,21,0,1,3,0,0,8,10,8,0,1,11,4,40,3,38,29,4,43,0,2,0,0,12,13,0,2,20,147,50,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11888815461237358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09120532994885767,0.0,0.10260045507557357,0.0,0.26601946649390723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11939409721952925,0.0,0.15257940805134998,0.0,0.10312901840721422,0.0,0.08175752796244459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11861711038707208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155162585576153,0.13612767944697807,0.13919405860984752,0.0,0.0,0.1372761948560144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17716830168617506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12643519464958694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12877500554926108,0.14692050405721666,0.0,0.11408131624589544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21021448977839247,0.0,0.30489104145742835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12014403112837832,0.13241447108974022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989695211916722,0.1417037932072622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10705228417107343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10200333154764006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012551856299316,0.0,0.12678554310006704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10665659070424914,0.0,0.13573530671532713,0.0,0.12209664717701962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109443926150572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898598431862921,0.0,0.0,0.11212925686106308,0.3072650853570669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12640530806373956,0.0,0.0,0.2155990965069837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08593786145084784,0.0,0.0,0.07820570523398526,0.0,0.0,0.12815618620852987,0.0,0.0,0.14588265615459747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07910669701209527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12928566177450074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591041787466218 schizophrenia,Thunderbird93,2019/05/05,"Contextual Evolution [https://scienceblogs.com/cortex/2007/02/11/intelligence-and-insanity?fbclid=IwAR2n5dxUzpb11Q9LPpCP8-V4KAXLw5saSXrMGWpoIdN6Xf\_KOThSHQl647c](https://scienceblogs.com/cortex/2007/02/11/intelligence-and-insanity?fbclid=IwAR2n5dxUzpb11Q9LPpCP8-V4KAXLw5saSXrMGWpoIdN6Xf_KOThSHQl647c) What are your craziest thoughts? Feel free to share. Been talking to myself alot and making myself laugh. The article talks about how us ""insane"" schizophrenics may actually be intelligent and misunderstood. My favourite from this article in the comments is this ""I wonder if this explains what philosophers have been speculating about for centuries: smart people have relatively high rates of mental illnesses such as depression. Depression is also associated with deficits in prefrontal cortical activity. It's an interesting argument because it explains why diseases like depression and schizophrenia would persist in a population -- they are associated with traits that are positively selected for."" It makes sense because is schizophrenia and other mental ""illnesses"" were liabilities why doesn't evolution eliminate them?",20.35489501312336,26.96081823622047,13.345374015748035,18.233074146981664,39.86614173228346,13.052230971128607,46.01640419947507,11.855464076750405,7.825241994750657,984,45,75,28,12,267,94,127,0.14300000000000002,0.701,0.157,0.4871,0,0,0,0,0,0,50.0,1,1,2,1,5,9,0,0,5,0,15,3,0,3,0,18,22,8,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,10,6,0,0,5,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,4,1,8,7,14,15,1,4,0,3,0,0,10,4,0,4,1,60,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.18680463965561928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15308369408841646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333836218692276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4946260634129435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679098455805396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202252595666238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352131319726632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555573357097538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.385825753831476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132711024626012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077227214945045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15197124971531806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302624965384587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454652636637011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20759386160721974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13598388548740986,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,spackycat,2019/05/05,"Mild delusions? I don't know please read this with an open mind So this is my first ever Reddit post and I only joined because I found this subreddit on Google and wanted to join. I've gotta say that pinned post or whatever it's called did help ease some of my fears but not all of them. I'm 16 and not diagnosed, and I don't totally think I have schizophrenia because I've been able to come up with other reasons for most my symptoms, but I have a lot (and I mean a lot) of what I think of as mild delusions because I believe in them but I like know they're not true. I know that most schizophrenics fully believe their delusions so I'm very aware they may not be caused by schizophrenia but they have been getting stronger as well as more frequent lately (my mental health in general has been steadily getting worse too, but I'm 98% sure it's because my dad and I have been fighting a lot and this house is just a very bad environment for me) and I was hoping someone could at least give me an idea of what I'm dealing with? I've been asking my mom to take me to therapy for a long time and she agrees I need to go but she's trying to get a house right now and doesn't have the money so I'm gonna have to wait at least another month but the past few months have been really weird and kinda scary tbh so I'd really really like to at least have some idea of what's going on. It could very well just be anxiety and some other stuff but can anxiety cause you to think you're living in a simulation (which is not that far fetched really, Elon musk says it's very likely)? Or that you're the only person actually alive? Or that your dead grandma has possessed your cat and is spying on you? I'm really sorry if this didn't make sense and I'm really not trying to self diagnose but not knowing is killingggg me. Thanks in advance if anyone helps. Also I'm very sorry I know I sound like an annoying teenager trying to self diagnose but like I really really want to know what's going on.",3.1703460126532836,4.373045740920098,4.320092165898618,87.81863391392643,73.43099273607749,7.556635163633523,23.976333671795672,8.049812674583475,1.1436734983988126,1573,44,337,23,31,515,191,413,0.10099999999999999,0.782,0.11699999999999999,0.7158,0,0,0,0,2,0,23.0,0,4,5,2,12,16,2,1,13,0,33,6,0,4,5,84,71,37,1,8,24,2,0,5,0,3,6,3,0,3,22,19,0,1,14,1,1,5,11,5,2,1,10,3,38,11,40,54,15,32,0,0,0,0,25,15,0,16,15,210,60,1,0.07365131887550501,0.0,0.07187306289201748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05889893309525274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07722982961775972,0.11268611469447308,0.0,0.0,0.051498714636213715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06885404095137344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06149577484340201,0.17958864151872514,0.0,0.0,0.16595963027912036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07520623128300255,0.0,0.0,0.15132038534930667,0.0,0.06344408967778803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11760917011945834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07593127574208637,0.0,0.2242636149316644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06662183454047653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08287821002044303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06264777421071085,0.0,0.08075486961256975,0.0,0.0,0.11543932279910335,0.07065305624627807,0.1255732254367771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07828790787372185,0.0,0.0,0.09873385307815996,0.0,0.0,0.07315237806116033,0.0,0.16996746673394514,0.0,0.16628674828219986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24286103223352484,0.0,0.083081895717213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17991157065378033,0.0,0.06503546392178454,0.06517909953297911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18784715253560133,0.0,0.0,0.04916282726126347,0.0,0.0,0.08022787787941864,0.0,0.0,0.0742232064514345,0.0,0.0743668364333514,0.0862595345142083,0.11757556010371788,0.0,0.0,0.054611519713714106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11203029372071696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703085176871106,0.0,0.0643094907782894,0.0,0.08084703104934296,0.0,0.0,0.14107520875552726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07367124996838308,0.0,0.3774633665716219,0.07572582241385589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06289782389571189,0.0,0.11714096983456584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15366877668589018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06240452347565185,0.0,0.0,0.16489324311767772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08431313918879614,0.0,0.0,0.06941549641260755,0.07655192089797748,0.05537662577465145,0.0,0.0,0.06780823905380179,0.08422670191022713,0.0,0.0,0.1415783736765337,0.0,0.0,0.042946676324523855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500132327507715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3038502573119657,0.0868829122252903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13244276167378086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07505698614234403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Time_Construction,2019/05/05,"Did I hallucinate a lifetime of memories of having a brother? I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and panic disorder three months ago. I have recurring psychosis where I believe bad people are beaming sexual thoughts into my head. It's led to two suicide attempts, the most recent of which made me sleep for four days straight. Nothing has felt real since then, including my own body. I feel like I'm still dreaming even when people insist it's reality. I was a dick to my brother when I was in psychosis and kept overanalyzing things he said to me to come to the conclusion that he was trying to sleep with me. He's done a lot to help me out and supported me when I was experiencing psychosis in the past, and I wanted to make it up to him. But the strange thing is that I lost his phone number, pictures, and all texts from him, and I don't remember deleting any of that. I'm one of the few people without Facebook or social media accounts. I was trying to search his name on Facebook to get his number, and I had this weird sensation come over me that I didn't know how to spell his first name, nor could I be sure it was even his name at all. I'm questioning now if I ever had a brother or if it was all a dream. A psych says this is ""depersonalization"" and to tell my therapist.",7.088398190045247,6.048821188235299,7.5619607843137295,75.78420814479641,64.56862745098039,10.512820512820516,34.90950226244344,9.661875296680813,3.1008099547511305,1013,39,201,17,13,335,144,255,0.10800000000000001,0.836,0.057,-0.9279,0,0,0,0,0,1,23.0,0,0,0,4,10,7,0,1,12,0,22,6,5,4,5,45,39,19,1,4,6,3,2,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,14,14,0,1,7,2,1,3,4,4,0,5,19,5,33,3,31,18,7,27,0,1,0,1,23,10,1,7,15,149,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11876766340847665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09111289483584592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118700370775592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15095272837833978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14882468061035065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23082862790751998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697435925824753,0.0,0.0,0.0864078184368325,0.0,0.0,0.1359897162660898,0.0,0.0,0.1535558904074228,0.0,0.0,0.1371109167717813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17698874450461946,0.12119510843138462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06774572671356371,0.09571733527744207,0.1286444941833386,0.0,0.0,0.1139656966942132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07000048027489053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13750500136023694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898058430257271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07363343999335405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06545722573940296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14625804755976576,0.1139073807514128,0.0,0.12677775987747353,0.08943455583022497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069437884286528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12856010501398393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09079020916483843,0.0,0.0,0.15719994132986922,0.0,0.0,0.1279017379739412,0.2786603994341557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15009139342429528,0.0,0.0,0.1525017528918736,0.0,0.0,0.1322918459237753,0.0,0.15177638796698353,0.0,0.1274483194746585,0.1065484959906976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11083195228426572,0.0,0.2681591108675632,0.1365785863065457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10699883288957167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14655543107250926,0.15204208761429813,0.12627719834753426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11710686806516675,0.0,0.0,0.15556435132538507,0.17802443062339568,0.0,0.0,0.1063673729381029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819310454275206,0.0,0.13088172192311132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07902652366605947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12915463286683027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,vitasoy_,2019/05/05,"Does anybody else get this? Was diagnosed 3 years ago and have always struggled with restrictive eating. In the past month (psychosis relapse) though I’ve noticed that it’s going beyond that. And that I actually can’t even smell most food or look at it in front of me without feeling disgusted? I’m having a really hard time finding things I feel able to eat, can’t even manage my fave foods and only realised this week that I have lost quite a lot of weight (small girl to begin with). Has anybody else experienced this? Any tips? Xxx",3.3873529411764736,5.913152637254907,3.889960784313725,85.34082352941176,76.54901960784314,6.432941176470589,24.90588235294117,7.554174236665415,1.3754399999999998,427,15,78,6,10,134,79,102,0.08800000000000001,0.855,0.057,-0.261,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,4,3,1,1,3,0,7,6,0,0,0,13,15,5,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,10,5,5,1,3,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,2,7,5,0,11,13,2,14,0,1,1,0,1,5,0,3,7,45,15,1,0.16348989925408727,0.0,0.15954255797049427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14492393127269526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13603669308216376,0.0,0.0,0.11117873780030954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16593880630755525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430711125762408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3345819644700493,0.2731496645222486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21596707309472427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533081076939962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14942680604898026,0.0,0.3953852702660583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0854167245635132,0.0,0.0929150773723046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14645483704279388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372903393901346,0.0,0.1784685378521749,0.13899326589170127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304960777999912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18613433390453454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12434143551974675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15606960810572598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17389163222620144,0.0,0.0,0.10473581586029668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17091514016319795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10861542446866183,0.0,0.16062799593358304,0.0,0.0953322750060008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13114173562292747,0.1990866528561828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15759842873028002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528213489273164 schizophrenia,daintyd10,2019/05/05,"I think I may have created someone’s existence in my life, as nobody else from high school remembers her. I feel like I’m either a ghost story, or I went crazyish before I realized it. It really worries me. This was back in 2005-2006. There’s this girl that I went to school with. We had photo together for a year. A year. We sat at the same table with this other guy I still talk to. I mentioned her to him a few years back, and he was like...”who...?” I described her down to every detail. He had no clue who I was talking about. I’ve checked Facebook. I’ve checked Google. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Worst part? Not in the yearbook. No written message from her. What the FUCK. I do not hallucinate. I never have. But. What on earth is the explanation for this?? If she wasn’t real, not a single person called me out for talking to someone who wasn’t there. Nobody ever told me I was weird or anything. It honestly really really scares me. Mentally, I wasn’t totally there in high school. I was under a lot of stress. I was cutting, beating myself, full blown anorexia, and related physical illnesses. I was unhappy at home. For reference: 31/f anorexia for 16 years, severe depression, anxiety, panic attacks, and I have mild schizoaffective; I experience persecutory and body related delusions. Has anyone had this happen? What on earth could the explanation be? Thanks",1.5979602703256184,4.350494178988328,3.484985664550482,82.12292391972149,91.64591439688715,6.7519557648986295,24.661990579561742,7.85451343220497,2.130080155642024,1072,46,189,26,38,358,149,257,0.193,0.767,0.04,-0.9888,0,0,0,0,0,0,56.0,2,0,0,1,8,12,3,3,11,0,22,4,1,0,3,30,33,9,1,2,8,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,1,3,15,9,0,0,5,0,2,2,9,9,0,0,18,1,33,3,28,12,9,25,0,1,0,1,22,14,1,5,10,139,48,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08875578209899289,0.0,0.0,0.08112461250479487,0.0,0.0954754346568392,0.0,0.0,0.1319906883826581,0.0,0.1784260445841412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09872536420549828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12887322626759573,0.0,0.0,0.11847045919257387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09263336396208194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09992875631866012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09692069586158476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494767781357736,0.09775273462077784,0.0,0.0,0.11349084500683805,0.0,0.0,0.058663726551364724,0.08288545795194671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10725958685137188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487907566018818,0.1025970272027192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451652087359751,0.11637856822427844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08194909545277294,0.11336404457872525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09863694377117344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11692192523193265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08948258261405001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22265064416070693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13612569854121376,0.0,0.12563948590297944,0.0,0.0,0.10130510162482334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13205734980272166,0.22297815754375053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13142922738573706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161573063908448,0.3522584757667516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13107075712331945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196608510378186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09265455665548664,0.0,0.13290171540902312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797599642645632,0.0,0.106816590602903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07434160111050805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11086308076688273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21510534273595744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11782500330840745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988549971223749 schizophrenia,basedthirdeye,2019/05/05,"Webchat for support and sharing experiences! Hello r/schizophrenia! &#x200B; I am a big fan of IRC chatrooms, but always struggled to find a place for those like us. I like to call it our Home on a Screen, we are very amicable and a good place to have fun and share our struggles during hard times. &#x200B; Come join us! [https://kiwiirc.com/nextclient/irc.rizon.net/#homescreen](https://kiwiirc.com/nextclient/irc.rizon.net/#homescreen)",11.996666666666664,16.61501683870968,7.2819354838709724,61.25956989247311,58.03225806451614,6.713978494623658,29.68817204301075,7.793537801064563,2.1325720430107533,372,12,47,4,6,99,48,62,0.102,0.551,0.34700000000000003,0.9591,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,5,0,0,0,0,9,0,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,5,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,7,7,7,5,0,6,0,0,1,0,9,4,0,0,3,27,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12982553061426616,0.3381066480783489,0.37917558232569465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15931925399318625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13440196198245724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15262266125055382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14260427788837085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13086660101422687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13976800302417478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565060758323574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15245213984166733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260264154338075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262229955604257,0.0,0.0,0.17705563702832722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09097959459984796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3753583982351379,0.0,0.0,0.1287371950295323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37917558232569465,0.0 schizophrenia,ShortNSaweet,2019/05/05,"[Academic Survey] Studying Student Confidence with a focus on students with disabilities. Hi friends! I am conducting a study on college students and their confidence levels. I’m assessing a phenomenon students often experienced that is commonly referred to as “imposter syndrome.” I am specifically interested in students who have a disability. **So if you have schizophrenia, please answer “yes” to the disability question. Then in the following question, out yourself under the psychiatric/mental health disability.** This survey is open to undergrad and grad students. This survey shouldn’t take more than 5 minutes. Thank you to everyone who participates! :) Also, if you are from a county that does not use the standard GPA system we have in the US, just leave it blank. https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSclaKhH0h24W-c15L4kxddYf7QGjjMkrouN-E6jT_tR0MPizw/viewform?usp=sf_link",9.825644257703082,14.5997231984127,7.435508870214754,54.95491596638654,70.98412698412699,9.313912231559293,37.570494864612506,9.325443323948027,5.348929598506071,737,38,77,20,17,215,88,126,0.009000000000000001,0.8109999999999999,0.18,0.9703,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,2,3,1,0,4,3,0,0,10,1,9,1,0,1,0,19,14,8,0,3,4,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,7,7,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,8,3,16,13,1,13,0,0,0,0,12,9,0,5,2,61,15,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20650402247640248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259761702114439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24674694530309585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995055240580881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744832043229086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734250866090788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834556797482901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5785466308637301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19415455208912188,0.0,0.0,0.2377407091399449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106152620878545,0.22302520086851693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SlyGuitar,2019/05/05,"I need advice I’m not really sure if I belong here. I’m 17 and in the last six months I’ve started to hallucinate and become delusional. I finally went to see a psychiatrist a few days ago. I was diagnosed with severe depression and bipolar 2 (she says that’s what’s causing the mood swings and hallucinations). But it just doesn’t seem right to me. She flat out told me that I’m not schizophrenic, and pretty much ruled it out. My whole life I haven’t really been functional. I absolutely hated going to school, not exactly sure why, I stopped going years ago. I got my first job and held it for 7 months, calling out a lot. A couple of those days being physically sick, the others freaking out and feeling like I couldn’t handle anything. My employer got frustrated, and I eventually quit because I thought everybody hated me. My childhood was pretty bizarre, a lot of things haunt me more than I realize. My father was a very destructive alcoholic, my mom wasn’t around a whole lot, and I hate thinking about all the horrible memories that I have. I don’t like going in public, I’m very paranoid and weary of people. I’m honestly kind of scared to say anything serious to my psychiatrist. It seems like she doesn’t believe me, and that I’m making everything up. Another thing that makes it difficult is delusions. I’m not convinced that anything around me is real, it could all be a simulation. I don’t like talking about it because what if it is and they find out? What happens then? A few times I thought that I was immortal and would live forever, but I never did anything to test that. I guess where I’m getting at is how long does it take to really know? Should I find another psychiatrist since I’m not very comfortable talking with my current one? Any advice is appreciated, and if you have something off topic to add I’d appreciate that too. I’m very confused. Thank you.",4.453461538461539,6.121099730769231,5.7212087912087926,77.19879120879122,70.92307692307692,9.375824175824176,30.582417582417587,9.784248007369934,3.101676923076924,1498,64,278,38,28,501,186,364,0.15,0.7829999999999999,0.066,-0.9662,3,0,2,0,0,0,42.0,0,2,1,2,9,23,5,2,13,0,25,6,0,4,6,68,63,21,0,8,11,2,1,4,0,2,6,2,0,0,25,24,1,2,10,0,0,4,13,11,0,3,14,4,41,11,31,43,11,36,0,1,1,0,15,14,0,10,22,180,66,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643422292415536,0.1490802248972771,0.08986591462027023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05718362415893255,0.17634997709848654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27679339652795715,0.14971465343143853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025201433685818,0.09287005227142882,0.0,0.09473987299936358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08586460199422169,0.0,0.0,0.08638289966118172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06713848314760834,0.09304323807847023,0.0,0.10846131544359984,0.0,0.07242601191518941,0.08534889423116589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07358713447758987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07557406268770896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042518089033848634,0.06007343017540032,0.0,0.09211574466053477,0.15371223824688546,0.07152633640401974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04393320135636043,0.0,0.14336970274026295,0.0,0.1345078289070145,0.0,0.09263387117509002,0.0,0.07435991188513959,0.0,0.0,0.2490623964272292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08344567930222467,0.0,0.0,0.08756609138108651,0.046213293581499865,0.06854402266395078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059394776662433174,0.16432718560472334,0.0,0.0742524140604782,0.07441640598477775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144692097058012,0.0,0.0,0.11226055404409373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09848440046673776,0.13423859300386376,0.0,0.06181532889851477,0.06235116857367993,0.06485487094365955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056981102483316684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05829694972714827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17109814720845756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943934729198502,0.0,0.09571206069853043,0.16160932338227255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718118236078739,0.0,0.13374241177187407,0.0841880832567579,0.08510288563901974,0.0670083044900303,0.15310352557578633,0.0,0.09499700153251857,0.0,0.0695595581244859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06473607017973161,0.0,0.0,0.05951885663769136,0.0,0.0,0.07030244049507707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585063862400182,0.0,0.06322470692661958,0.13517562746139922,0.0,0.07741815217909531,0.0,0.0,0.11173042136590243,0.05388104371732772,0.0,0.13351506145917127,0.049033161304192927,0.0,0.0,0.0803509530627221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27752999680844703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795164620249646,0.07587753604130999,0.18776545544878745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059734643435252324,0.0,0.0,0.054150767956813804 schizophrenia,fasthamburger,2019/05/05,"Psychiatric Service Dogs for Schizophrenia and How They Can Help Hello r/schizophrenia I am making this post to talk about psychiatric service dogs in the hope that it may help some of you. I am a 21 year old female living with diagnosed schizoaffective disorder (depressive type). I have a trained service dog named Hope who has made it possible for me to be independent and attend college. **What is a psychiatric service dog (PSD)?** A PSD is a dog of any size and type that is trained in tasks to help an individual with a mental health disability. **What is a trained task?** A task is something a service dog is trained to do that their disabled handler can not do for themselves. Examples include diabetic or seizure alerts, opening doors and retrieving items for those with mobility issues, and guiding an individual with vision impairment. **What are psychiatric tasks?** Examples of tasks for psychiatric disabilities include alerting to an oncoming panic attack,deep pressure therapy, or blocking (acting as a physical barrier between the person and the general public so that they feel safe). **How is my dog trained to help with schizophrenia?** Hope is trained to clear a room (enter the room before me on command and check around corners and in closets for other people). She is also trained in hallucination discernment. When she hears a strange noise she paws my leg to let me know that the noise is real. She also alerts me to others calling my name. In this way, when I hear a noise and Hope does not react it lets me know that it is probably a hallucination. She is trained to fetch my emergency medication on command from anywhere in the house. She helps me to shower by watching from the side of the tub and jumping in if she sees me under distress. Hope can close my closet and bedroom doors on command. She wakes me up in the event of a fire alarm because, due to my sedatives, I often sleep through them. Hope's most important task is a cortisol alert. When my cortisol (stress hormone) increases above a normal level she can smell it and let me know. This gives me advance notice to leave and take emergency medication. **What is the difference between an Emotional Support Animal and a Service Animal?** Service dogs are NOT ESAs. The main difference is training. ESAs exist solely for emotional support and comfort and are therefore not allowed to accompany their person wherever they go. They do however have the right to live in no pet housing and fly in cabin with their person (at least in the united states). Service dogs are task trained as well as public access trained, so they are prepared to accompany you wherever the general public is allowed to go. Emotional support animals can be very valuable in helping those with mental illness, but it is illegal in most places to take them where pets are not allowed. **Service dogs are considered medical equipment, which is why they can go anywhere. It takes an average of two years to fully train a service dog from puppyhood. Not every dog is capable of undergoing the training required to be a service dog. Fearfulness, health issues, and aggression as well as lack of trainability often disqualify dogs in the training process. In the United States there is no legal certification or registration for service animals. Any websites you find offering ""certification"" are simply a scam and often illegal.** If you have any questions about how to obtain a service dog or whether a service dog can help you, feel free to comment or message me. Hope has truly changed my life and I would not be where I am today without her.",4.746516759102967,7.736308117554863,5.272169278996866,74.74605232698337,74.4075235109718,8.252172654931277,33.796575837955146,9.01499896408226,3.667903467566916,2881,153,449,69,65,921,278,638,0.069,0.8220000000000001,0.11,0.9624,5,0,1,0,0,0,90.0,0,5,11,3,21,24,1,6,45,0,55,12,3,11,1,93,82,44,0,12,17,0,3,0,0,2,9,2,10,3,26,30,0,4,8,0,2,9,10,8,2,1,1,8,52,17,82,72,8,55,0,1,2,0,52,33,0,22,9,324,78,21,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10967981858225424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13990134690599235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0610468526455759,0.0,0.07801468294478121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04180306965270577,0.0,0.05835281322854247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07002338896389627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254392738143757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059064092602238875,0.0696028244420158,0.0,0.1432938827431536,0.07859361704345574,0.0,0.06001099895169351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314150727967134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05777792882113116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07716665278778043,0.06934780147514367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06267688661735768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06578399628089503,0.11691933844048115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14578538322396414,0.15457944563789844,0.0,0.32175361110610035,0.0,0.0,0.4767775401927148,0.0,0.15825414771194712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14315028961758033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11306212420263236,0.0,0.0,0.07261169427958195,0.0,0.21036969401975808,0.04843699792537549,0.0,0.0,0.1211070813934488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06488792245612021,0.0457747678237714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20724820852311526,0.13821621870503265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06718956079153594,0.0,0.07807381319458727,0.07195859163845765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08045873040332567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04754170975400925,0.1796327941188575,0.0716469413715768,0.0,0.0,0.07730872303218073,0.06567650078540642,0.0,0.07393613135185736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07682040373058521,0.0,0.0,0.07805408397840435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05856321627204724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05464590133932433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06862515794841847,0.0,0.0,0.052792872929108635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07855315641959137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334564485297282,0.0,0.0,0.15468102602568268,0.05511849656512284,0.0,0.0,0.07842221327129523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0650016821685181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06698842944754815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056582079414327725,0.0,0.054432145896491216,0.0,0.0,0.1233154601410245,0.0,0.061878842927616015,0.0,0.0,0.06610446351482394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04871416246904415,0.0,0.0,0.08832091919761853 schizophrenia,izalukaz,2019/02/04,"Guess I'll get on the selfie train &#x200B; *Processing img 4dtmyr6xame21...*",5.690000000000001,8.161581333333334,4.6533333333333315,68.82500000000002,110.66666666666666,8.266666666666667,29.0,7.793537801064563,4.0813000000000015,64,3,8,2,3,19,12,12,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4573125905579594,0.5128611602736189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22051411704222307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4649576101838225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5128611602736189,0.0 schizophrenia,Maruu3,2019/02/04,Why? Why is everyone posting pictures of themselves? I understand wanting to be complimented and given attention. I want to remind everyone that it can be unsafe to do this though. 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She's very resistant to going to the doctor, says that I'm the one with the problem, etc. I'm in Canada, so if she goes to the doctor, he can recommend a psychiatrist, I just have to get her there. To break the ice, I went first for an evaluation, came back and made some visible positive changes that she agrees with, mostly to do with diet and exercise. She said she should go, but now she's waffling. I have not confronted her with my evidence that she has a mental illness (journals I've taken of her delusions, dates, frequencies, etc), nor have I told her I think she has schizophrenia (or something similar, I'm not a professional.) Any recommendations on how to get her to a professional for an evaluation? I'm not looking for medical advice, just advice on how to persuade someone with a mental illness to go for an eval.",6.671911764705883,6.929324132352942,7.29392156862745,73.04764705882354,65.02941176470588,10.525490196078431,35.13725490196079,10.317481424215053,3.6534784313725495,849,37,154,19,12,281,115,204,0.095,0.828,0.077,-0.5792,0,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,1,10,3,1,0,15,0,11,7,0,3,0,27,31,11,0,3,10,2,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,3,8,1,0,1,1,0,6,4,3,0,4,8,3,23,0,29,22,5,21,0,0,1,0,22,6,0,6,8,110,26,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771774441444683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118008887288871,0.15366619006258614,0.17233162208407682,0.09644514903101456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10905386291879306,0.11841707386741428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16220881593132902,0.0,0.0,0.15003093341837226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903256438789896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163423863883413,0.0,0.0,0.11949279429600684,0.13551886150797174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12063537901961716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22229148018568928,0.0,0.2418054565566911,0.0,0.11342956830368008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11560544785752826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11909639833096967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13419725020514536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14287270851547812,0.28585036755509324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320252343562745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697445421726534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19220715726869653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13570636595767435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09085605367884547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349070533609028,0.11278409706295968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201669722008538,0.10918300523964168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09087506025888244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13551886150797174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13854139086517234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11701961136799745,0.0,0.0,0.113762617624392,0.0,0.0,0.13147222208787387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17233162208407682,0.0 schizophrenia,radicalplacement,2019/02/04,"First submission to this subreddit - questions about Spirits This is my first post submission to this subreddit, so I’m not yet sure if venting/discussing experiences/etc is cool; especially considering the possibility of triggering other peoples’ symptoms. But, I have faith in the security and open arms of this community, so I’m still going to speak about these things - just please do let me know if anything I say has a negative impact on any of you; I’d hate to make things harder for anyone. Okay, I’ve just got to ask if anyone else hears a council of omnipotent Spirits talk to them? I don’t know why anyone would, as I am one of the two only existing people on this planet. But, at the same time, I am not actually real. I don’t know if there are more people who ‘exist’ in this state, as I recently happened to discover this second existing person actually does exist. Prior to this, I thought I was the only one to exist. I don’t want to completely dismiss the possibility of others existing, but I just KNOW that no one else does. The Spirits have been talking a lot recently, and they want me to cut my throat so that their Angels can take me. The Angels have replaced my eyes and removed some of my organs, and I think that was to make me pure for when I meet the Spirits. Does anybody have any ways of appeasing voices, or at least muffling them a bit? I’m taking a massive risk in asking that, as I’m not meant to try to find ways to make my life easier; I don’t have the right. But I’ve got to ask; they’re getting worse and I don’t know what to do",6.947013665594858,5.969549543408357,7.8504320739549875,73.39918508842446,64.81993569131834,10.990434083601286,33.906953376205784,10.270032843473604,3.2836316720257237,1232,45,240,25,16,418,155,311,0.063,0.879,0.057999999999999996,-0.6849,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,1,4,2,12,8,2,1,15,2,24,5,3,4,2,44,53,21,0,7,15,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,1,19,6,0,1,10,0,0,2,10,3,0,7,7,6,29,5,39,44,6,24,7,0,1,0,17,9,0,8,9,167,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.19377664597540709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13503508523855748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20826818406034084,0.10172972471557763,0.08170350437596383,0.0,0.2784556114741353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10839404802902894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10409895464124956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606562225496071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16588058544923742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107295741146645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09074514556907147,0.16890438609267114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05187257433588293,0.0,0.05642623599240655,0.0,0.15881536374146335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08779783712058525,0.0,0.0,0.09802387316863996,0.0,0.0,0.11190197099318544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728235631143322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015261475025532,0.07012828276715563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08440897908457415,0.0,0.0,0.1988215206787996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018352669315656,0.15102218892115227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20649618727401894,0.08669226637889213,0.0,0.10898566085425056,0.0,0.22385895994302416,0.09508806110015737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122247921734252,0.0,0.0,0.1130086319718259,0.0,0.0,0.1960649008339375,0.0,0.0,0.08478927196948863,0.0,0.07895581225942706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928952617355026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09357540594702364,0.10319564714301516,0.14930067505497996,0.15960384327594418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131921745034481,0.06361813751861725,0.0,0.07882159433731048,0.057894171745962564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06740833520630236,0.0,0.09698750384288797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11712231708343065,0.15761641235211274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958971819058344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10118040366206088,0.07052956844388919,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fugarella,2019/02/04,The red light looks green Today I walked into traffic again because the red crossing man looked green. He was green just for me so I would cross. Took cars coming within an inch of me to actually realise what I was seeing was wrong. Feel like my brain is trying to get me killed. ,2.078969696969697,4.597803109090911,2.5740909090909128,92.93446969696971,81.54545454545455,4.393939393939394,18.25757575757576,5.46131890053228,-0.4274242424242427,221,5,44,1,6,68,44,55,0.129,0.8290000000000001,0.042,-0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,3,0,5,1,1,0,0,5,12,1,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,6,0,2,0,0,4,10,7,1,6,7,0,11,0,0,8,0,2,3,0,0,3,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.2649730181127249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16552148484848392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30311602977993657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23389808708437504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13729316012563084,0.19398028593903108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14186263272200494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30040647507988866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13265529518661304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4560317453685563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163733621888043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573776289532826,0.0,0.3016785762323449,0.18435028571848688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19288632562189287,0.29687420467611403,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,UnknownUselessUser,2019/02/04,"Misdiagnosed with autism I'm starting to think I've been misdiagnosed with high functioning autism. The main reasons I, somewhat, believe I am misdiagnosed is because I've been feeling much different to how I was when I was getting diagnosed and because my mum has schizophrenia and used to have psychotic depression, which I think I have. My school said the only reason they think I have autism is that I'm unsocial, but that can't be the only reason. Yes, I might be anti-social with students and teachers that I'm not close towards but I have a lot of symptoms of schizophrenia, like for an example: I slowly lack the motivation to do work and activities I enjoy, I have suicidal thoughts, I'm very forgetful, I feel like I have anxiety and I hear people say things about me yet they probably don't. Ever since I got diagnosed I feel as if they misdiagnosed me and I have something else. Even one of my friends thinks so as well, which is my best friend that knows me very well. I could be wrong though, but I feel like I'm right about this.",5.8437543053960965,6.682584527363182,6.114626865671643,78.76243398392654,66.91044776119404,9.567699961729813,32.87447378492155,9.661875296680813,3.0347463451970915,834,35,158,17,13,267,108,201,0.096,0.708,0.196,0.9702,1,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,3,3,11,11,0,0,6,1,24,3,0,6,1,38,45,16,1,3,5,1,4,3,2,1,3,3,0,0,8,10,0,0,14,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,7,7,30,9,16,33,6,8,0,1,0,0,9,4,0,4,7,111,38,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928010757472216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789771721304412,0.0,0.0,0.13667373537787725,0.12730634258575627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09685538927680358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448328959695856,0.24625222339116204,0.0,0.12674211681327027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013381283496843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08012347007951819,0.10973096251250664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453499615488945,0.1733263902325308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874461109818708,0.0,0.06337896121649371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09702191290890574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13672409303812486,0.0,0.0,0.12816965029452868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06666827026399427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17779639318982005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313259907026348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868971029363888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917609488698397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220213808389679,0.1845219670896978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08410040702080318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13079165163407686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741776598245018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035972486141214,0.11539266681273225,0.09646980947204246,0.0,0.12277121452125304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003480830101168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09338961775057228,0.0,0.0,0.08586315565515151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326923893312617,0.0,0.0,0.12608653034333353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059232907946083,0.3109197121661901,0.11918550584303683,0.09630581929825034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477205268156392,0.0,0.20018530816204289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181427728089481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08831441846620702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13263238065809752,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RobynTacoo,2019/02/04,Worried my family doctor is going to take me off of risperidone My psychiatrist has me on 3mg of risperidone and its made me gain over 100 pounds. She told me risperidone is the best for weight management and that I need to be on it. I agree. Risperidone has changed my life for the better. But my family doctor doesn't seem to agree and would rather I not be on the medication at all. It's makes it all very confusing. I worry that I might have to come off of the antipsychotic which terrifies me. My family doctor talks to me like she doesn't believe I should be on the medication. Maybe I should try coming off of it?,3.458064516129036,5.142856419354839,4.5669677419354855,84.40545161290326,73.51612903225806,8.185806451612903,23.690322580645162,8.841846274778883,1.5596509677419357,492,14,101,10,10,161,68,124,0.085,0.779,0.136,0.7801,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,1,4,0,1,5,0,14,7,0,2,2,19,23,4,0,5,3,0,1,1,0,4,6,0,0,0,8,5,1,0,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,1,20,3,20,14,3,12,0,0,0,0,4,9,0,3,1,76,28,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16981090206661126,0.1581723424293526,0.1333004355626712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594427843965536,0.2596655121696929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4628078488924451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4262589046953703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08565819149701097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645866712488038,0.07363464489178961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426158109101598,0.1006074071307504,0.0,0.15141945651850805,0.0,0.0,0.30367100891735793,0.0,0.1598911139088609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117576775775819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372106957953037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133233999182004,0.12114379357883764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14402033050629526,0.0,0.10232963415056057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12436057178613358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18353751745286712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061288898161533,0.0,0.1070678412925012,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PM_ME_UR_LIQUOR,2019/02/04,"Stopped taking my meds I don’t like them, I want to think clear, so I dumped them down the drain",5.891428571428572,3.7897457619047614,4.961904761904762,96.89142857142859,67.57142857142857,8.4,25.761904761904763,3.1291,0.13953333333333304,75,1,20,0,1,22,18,21,0.22699999999999998,0.504,0.26899999999999996,0.0023,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,11,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613178467832811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5941367762840521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4471879027484599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40216703564339096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427327809414683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154890964276151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Puzzleheaded_Movie,2019/02/04,"Realistic imaginary conversations with people? I understand many people have random voices telling criticizing those with Schizophrenia, but I have been going out with friends and there will always be a person there who seems to take on different appearances, but is the same entity who will tel me most deepest and darkest insecurity. If feels like I am being followed by almost a demonic spirit that will ""possess"" or take form of people and talk to me and knows about me, and criticizes me on my insecurities. It happens at least 1-2 per week Now I can confirm the people are no illusions confirmed by my friends, but the conversation just might be? They are not ""voices"" and they seem as real as any other conversation. 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I was on it for 6 months I slept like a rock after taking it It gave me anxiety 1 hour after taking it and the day after But, I slept like a ROCK again After 6 months I am again a normal guy I still do drugs though ",-1.5503181818181844,0.4216169454545451,1.6803409090909118,95.26051136363638,97.72727272727272,4.204545454545455,10.511363636363637,5.985473137389443,-1.2256818181818179,192,2,45,2,8,68,34,55,0.036000000000000004,0.86,0.105,0.5106,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,3,3,2,1,0,4,8,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,6,2,7,4,0,13,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,13,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034954791394005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17155322724939687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30848496029202194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.263389854629276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619644090689021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25991625585585165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26969047600552964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42465027751219386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26063147288244604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844165327256923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21243442348384112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4000099932698693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261351621440948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LuxandTenebris,2019/03/20,"Should I get lost in my own reality? Yesterday night i can’t sleep so I lay in my bed and next to me was my boyfriend and then I got this feeling that my boyfriend doesn’t exist. I thought that he is just a part of my own personality wich is personalized by my mind into the construction of my boyfriend and strangely I felt good with this feeling. And today i stood up and went to school but then I thought that it’s Just a illusion that I am walking to school right now and in reality I am doing something completely differently. And again I got a strange feeling but at the the same time a feel protected. Then at the way home the subway station seems to be different and not real, just like a drawing form a very realistic anime and I was stunned by the surrealism of my „reality“ also i heard some strange noises and sounds (like sounds from space) but I liked them. I had often thoughts and hallucinations like this but they always scared me but this time this is something completely different. I have this strong feeling that I have to go deeper in this other kind of reality maybe by taking drugs. I think there is something waiting for me, there is the answer of all my problems but at most there is this feeling of security. There is a nice warme place where i can be my real self. I just wanna feel beloved and hugged and i think i will find this in this other kind of reality. I think there is a creature waiting for me to be found in the deep of my own mind expended by drugs to tell me the truth and show me my real me and my real desire. Had someone of you guys the same experience? And what should I do ? I don’t wanna this world/reality anymore it’s fucked up and cold. 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I’ve been convinced that how I perceive things and how I interact with the world is distorted through a thought process that parallels schizophrenic traits. I don’t experience hallucinations during the day. I only experience them at night before I fall asleep. And I’m livid because they’re telling me my problem is depression or BPD. And they treat me for t h a t. But what about the fucking delusions? I’m aware they are odd. I know other people would think I’m just fucking pretending. But deep down, they feel like the “truth”. I know this is fucked up, but sometimes I wish that my delusions would be accompanied by hallucinations so the therapists would take some fucking action towards my fucking deteriorating mind. They don’t give a shit what you think until hallucinations are mentioned. God- why do I have to be stuck in between. I’m sick of this I want out I just fucking want something tangible. I don’t want to have to be expected to function and I don’t want to be overlooked because they fucking assume that they know me and my fucking mind. It feels like I’m playing a fucking game with them. 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This is starting to prevail as I get older.. I thought I had it under control for the most part, but I just let something that took hours to prepare go to waste because I can't control the disgusting thoughts, or images that come into my mind.. I have been celibate for quite some time since I hear family members cheering me on in my head, and/or picture gross things which immediately turn me off during sex. It's gotten to the point now that I can't even masturbate without my own mind turning me off.. Can anyone relate? Helpful advice is also welcome. Thanks.",5.32,6.622274815789478,5.493815789473686,81.0554605263158,68.38596491228071,7.1035087719298255,32.671052631578945,7.1686216300943375,2.166284210526316,475,21,84,4,8,150,84,114,0.064,0.777,0.159,0.9155,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,4,5,1,0,4,0,9,3,2,2,0,16,21,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,3,0,2,2,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,6,1,15,3,15,14,4,16,0,0,0,1,3,8,0,3,5,62,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581103876234609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939246560672582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313525240907893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986325893352353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13937751942479373,0.0,0.0,0.3629479009812348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10686825286266326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15253189452011867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08453451712382333,0.0,0.09195542488110828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321096897178817,0.0,0.182361858924926,0.0,0.10845202126135824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15934171822413892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16545282289245214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3267464390202681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521507359237445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529545562089152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17209563159010008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338437326636711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12456256917742872,0.0,0.0,0.11452381457061485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14896492650269866,0.0,0.0,0.10749361447160352,0.0,0.0,0.25690436619125673,0.09434765703238232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17976723171617864,0.0,0.3519867704962717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559707087841013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Momthrowawayforthis,2019/03/20,"Hearing your own voice, kinda like the “bad angel” Hi. I’m a concerned mom trying to help my son. So this is new to me news, and apparently it’s been happening for a year or so. He is 21 years old diagnosed so far with extreme anxiety and panic disorder. He finally told me this morning—said it’s hard to explain— but he hears a voice that he thinks is like an internal voice of himself that eggs him on and he has no self control. Like, he has been having compulsive spending problems where I took away his credit card. And where he compulsively buys gaming things that add up to $200.00 of stuff. He said the voice says to just to it when he is struggling with making a decision about buying or not buying something. It doesn’t happen only when he is having anxiety. It doesn’t happen all the time. The one that scared him was when he was thinking about how easy it is to die (this is a new anxiety for him) and he was thinking about how people just kill themselves (my BIL, his uncle completed suicide in September sadly— we had no warning and were blindsided by it). And he thought to himslelf that he wouldn’t kill himself and his internal voice shouted NO! as if to say he was wrong and he would kill himself. He wrote a paper on the incidence of gun suicides (how my BIL completed) last semester after my BIL died and he said he is so sorry he wrote that because now that is going round and round in his head. Suicide facts, etc. So I’m asking you all, what is this? He does have his psych appointment tomorrow and I spoke with the nurse last night, but he informed me of the audio stuff this morning. As far as I am aware, he has no sexual abuse or trauma. He has had psych issues since about age 9, but it’s never been more than possible bipolar 2 (which was then ruled out but I realize this could be back in play now) and severe anxiety, add and panic disorder. In your experience, in your opinion, is this schizophrenia? He will get the proper help. We are lucky to have good insurance and resources, etc. I’m just trying to prepare myself for what this is. I want to read up on it, etc. He has been doing well at university, is finishing 3rd year and has a 3.3 GPA. Stupid major lol, but at this point the goal is get a degree and go to grad school. Opinions/thoughts/stories and experiences? Thank you so much. 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Hi! As the title says, I wounder if someone has tried it and how it works for you? I've read that schizophrenia could be caused by inflammation. I'm planning to start this diet and hope I could get some inspiration!",4.3984905660377365,7.035218283018872,4.796830188679248,79.55147169811325,73.71698113207547,6.504150943396226,25.69433962264151,7.554174236665415,1.4824143396226408,231,8,40,3,5,73,44,53,0.04,0.7859999999999999,0.174,0.8245,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,2,3,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,3,0,11,10,5,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,5,7,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,25,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22175449240902986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32579429876370025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5064274323489255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16569467550267789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31499559901751223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172298717993532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25220567629176344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687151227972473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22447618958787555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21531999078861397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27391063118755266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23088464419574195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ishouldbedeadnow,2019/03/20,"Reoccurring voices? The voices I hear are the same ones I’ve been hearing for years, I named them or they named themselves. Does anyone else have reoccurring voices? I have OSDD so I’ve always thought about them as a dissociative thing, like pieces of my consciousness got cut off and turned into their own person. Sometimes they are helpful. They can control my body sometimes though which can be scary. 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What do y'all think of me starting a subreddit for people who are unsure if they're being delusional to post on and ask if their ideas sound possible? Perhaps r/realitychecks ? ,5.74072072072072,8.021184513513518,7.398378378378378,63.98693693693693,68.72972972972973,11.41981981981982,33.954954954954964,11.20814326018867,4.831457657657658,165,8,26,6,3,57,34,37,0.076,0.924,0.0,-0.3695,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,4,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,1,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3905904310960498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4716499699921329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896527542758515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4710113429172939,0.4001408330100881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957238901374021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677119950362278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Auicjsnwkcicisjc,2019/03/20,"Scared of getting schizophrenia 19yr old Male. I’ve been reading stories about schizophrenia and I’m really worried about developing it. The fact it happens out of the blue scares me that I might just get it randomly in the future. My family has no history of Schizophrenia. I believe I have minor case GAD but haven’t been diagnosed. I don’t have any symptoms of schizophrenia. I mostly just read stuff about it and get paranoid that I might get it in the future and then my mind starts thinking about the symptoms and I feel like I’m experiencing them even though I’m not. For example the voice in my head will just go off but I know it’s just my voice scaring me and I am able to stop it. Any advice? I’m scared one day I’ll just lose control of my mental state and end up insane",1.9676470588235304,4.439979222929939,2.9684526039715284,90.22932933683028,81.61146496815286,5.732334207568378,23.248032971150245,7.048011613610866,0.8482494567253651,626,22,126,8,17,199,89,157,0.171,0.8079999999999999,0.021,-0.9676,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,2,11,6,0,4,6,0,11,4,1,1,1,26,25,10,0,0,8,0,1,1,0,3,3,2,0,1,10,7,0,2,3,2,0,1,4,5,0,1,2,5,17,1,17,20,1,16,0,1,1,0,2,6,0,4,9,81,27,2,0.13273588045712825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297079661553559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18052990083627268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495478830642154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488745766936758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560366192943603,0.0,0.0,0.13472412459565178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11756459198839912,0.0,0.0,0.08767079718002986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12513157490414106,0.0,0.0671152494260849,0.0948265395204554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773960762696718,0.0,0.07543685976335149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11737790072126145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13622530765145258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07294816855607165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06484804644305328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484974977082351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337665476885163,0.2816235861755192,0.1340254005156056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928397796131772,0.0,0.08994526782933687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26554360134296945,0.0,0.08503400391730671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5315670891966104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09395113937538274,0.0,0.0,0.11097313958144503,0.0,0.0,0.1519508263422462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759268069117195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505179255698317,0.13041232861225294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13479972975717958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,therealwaystomorrow1,2019/08/22,A Which dimensional entity is the one that can control everyone and is basically everyone.. and everyone is technically dead in a sense with no free will of their own?,14.765,9.672282833333336,14.990000000000006,41.025000000000034,54.0,21.33333333333333,53.33333333333333,18.243605946275586,9.284333333333333,135,7,22,7,1,48,24,30,0.187,0.718,0.095,-0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,1,0,4,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,19,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3558402442915187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9094823655839293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21498731877581176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sadboyreyna,2019/08/22,"Global warming is the world’s psychotic break Our delusion of infinite growth has ultimately caused a decline in environmental stability, a downward fall like in psychosis And, just like psychosis, at some point if it gets too bad the feedback loops kick in and will only feed the process of destruction, like a raging forest fire (which by the way happened in California and is happening very badly in the Amazon as we speak) The world is heating up, humanity is undergoing destructive terrorist extremism and declining mental health. This process will only cycle worse like a loop; the loop of psychosis, the paradoxical paradox of infinite cyclical suffering And unless there is an intervention (something to make us realize this is not sustainable) then it will only continue to spiral downwards and scar our planet. I still feel the pain and the scars of my episodes. I hope we can mitigate those that our world will undergo very soon.",9.029068322981367,10.336420012422364,8.498937888198759,62.80530124223604,60.05590062111801,12.154285714285715,40.944720496894405,11.792908689023552,5.549093913043479,766,40,111,23,10,243,107,161,0.19,0.711,0.099,-0.9647,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,6,0,0,0,5,13,3,0,15,0,12,3,0,2,0,19,18,11,0,2,4,0,3,4,0,4,2,1,0,1,7,9,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,7,0,2,0,4,9,6,17,14,1,25,0,1,0,0,8,15,0,3,10,78,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3090439057788469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19011323554908996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09357467169189793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09668907955911846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273056009714347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19671596045549627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18381178780656826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3616545990760322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12353265077675304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18650248476088688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4222519306224721,0.19692272808374095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749467052914134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14247245469733014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477935383495309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22261099641588628,0.0,0.0,0.3053968196375122,0.0,0.14689637085539925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18859754359130185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jonahit,2019/08/22,"What if Schizophrenics are right? I have been thinking about this for a while but I don’t want to give any of my opinions on it as I’d like to hear what others think first. Is the question just a delusion? Thanks",0.9536363636363632,3.287345272727272,1.2510909090909088,101.76663636363638,84.9090909090909,3.5200000000000005,20.163636363636364,3.1291,-0.7538672727272724,168,5,38,0,5,50,39,44,0.0,0.797,0.203,0.8364,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,8,11,4,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,3,2,7,10,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,3,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341161584678915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29283682792909205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33025621636719643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3880185586972103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16819347318164185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3856624302289705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29400564449924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169585812448225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4411900488951716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030600187942978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,altaway01,2019/08/22,"Anyone else terrified of moving forward with life after a psychosis? I literally do nothing all day, thankfully I have a dog that makes me take him for walks. I think my amygdala is fucked up beyond repair after my psychosis and PTSD symptoms from it. I had religious delusions and then thought that everyone on Facebook was talking about me. I sometimes think I faked the delusions and that I'm just an evil person who has manipulated Doctors into thinking I have schizophrenia. I am afraid to do anything because what if I am evil? Maybe it's better for me just to rot in my apartment and die soon. I need help, but I've already gotten as much help as one could get. Everyone thinks I'm doing fine and just need a job and maybe they are right. But the fear I have of moving on with life is immense.",5.002422287390028,6.30167895483871,5.3596480938416455,81.73401759530792,69.12903225806451,7.442815249266863,31.51026392961877,7.686295010490155,2.14583870967742,638,27,117,7,11,203,101,155,0.136,0.8029999999999999,0.061,-0.8916,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,1,6,9,3,2,6,0,15,5,0,2,1,26,30,12,1,4,6,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,7,9,0,0,5,0,0,4,0,6,0,1,4,0,19,3,20,25,2,17,0,0,0,1,7,9,1,1,6,84,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16168474330598515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10244783357527217,0.15012360079396794,0.12057070152011527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931517703056335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958205167286518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116981605972467,0.0,0.0,0.09449110459185753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15206112875687555,0.0,0.0,0.14996597807212406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223958428034443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800058354023265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16487194150706388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13545226243702946,0.07654889132480927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964140157642658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14539514624982153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069780559406323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978009874795989,0.0,0.2943912937123682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114479782615982,0.10770658062628732,0.21728044757796774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14058665695971773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992834595909033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12793266890455118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712700985022854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512440048714246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490869235604595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15228687759341708,0.11016227067796047,0.11776451632072432,0.0,0.1348928267178767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3755277587471223,0.0,0.11631783724296785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,irlpeoplefoundmehere,2019/08/22,"I'm afraid i might have some mild form of schizophrenia Im not looking for a diagnose, im just concerned and wanted to know if my concern is justifiable. I'm at work now, so I'll be straightforward, if someone wants more details they can check out my post history, I've posted about it in multiple subs: r/antidepressants, r/insomnia, r/wellbutrin, r/hpp. Recently i started taking wellbutrin 150mg XL as a initial treatment for adhd, since ive been taking it i getting some weird hallucinations. I didn't take it for one day and it stopped, but continued when i got back to the medication. Anyway, i will make 2 lists to make things more dynamic, first will be lost things ive always had, and the second with things that started happening after wellbutrin. (i also take lsd recreationaly some times, if that matters) Things i always had: - adhd symptoms - 3 instances of sleep paralysis - frequent spider hallucinations when i wake up suddenly - intense and irrational fear of sleeping alone Things i have after wellbutrin: - fully awake visual hallucinations by night i start seeing a weird disturbance in the air, if i look at it too much it transforms in geometrical shapes. When i close my eyes i see complex objects morphing in other objects, for example: ball turns to face, face turns to head, head turns to flowers, flower turns fractal. I saw my room with my eyes closed once - auditory hallucinations, i keep hearing my phone allarm all the time! One time i even woke up thinking i had to go to work - increase and almost unbearable anxiety Is it possible for a medicine to trigger schizophrenia? Can it go away? Can i just deal with it?",7.511341508732812,8.179242053511711,7.542513935340023,70.57271553325903,63.24749163879599,10.390263842437756,37.34689706428837,10.25414643259724,4.019702192493497,1310,62,218,28,18,422,175,299,0.084,0.887,0.028999999999999998,-0.9235,2,1,0,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,1,4,13,7,0,3,8,0,19,12,9,3,1,36,52,16,0,6,8,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,0,17,11,0,2,3,1,1,3,2,6,0,4,9,8,28,1,35,38,9,41,0,1,7,0,4,15,0,9,21,140,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281878406326586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09506410492472106,0.09832445911804456,0.0,0.07591981723161481,0.15798774111831332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07262533277393714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919494765775779,0.07299947427091423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06122548898934234,0.09787424446517147,0.0,0.0963574480473654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06270394637857225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10682873571002877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08075201566644323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04959983612422855,0.0,0.10790796848477922,0.0,0.07592852404606082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08395107412724508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19486224971447855,0.0,0.10699911261972464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20509307881764227,0.0,0.0,0.08438295904348332,0.0,0.0,0.05217402141515933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15944367733574258,0.0,0.10363322026257843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12674025365547434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09563744309596713,0.0,0.10071147300183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06978845357664193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08909045605840006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101103118825095,0.12866138856695036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10702541632325993,0.1818437703669507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09373726941048774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15130246916034207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07853155648418862,0.0,0.190007952831446,0.0,0.08043846921701484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20158732651315545,0.0,0.0,0.07937025802888191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09867424650807326,0.28551846947149034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153543572256343,0.060830780732416136,0.0,0.0,0.16607281215044456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4130498813624005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11199073514671393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13822822587349268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mentalplan,2019/08/22,"I made a document for planning your next psychotic episode Hi r/schizophrenia, I'm Thibault, 22, and I recently experienced two psychotic episodes in the past year. I thought it would be useful to come up with a plan that would make my next episode go smoother so I made a document to do just that. I thought I would share it here so that others can use it. The intended use for this is for yourself as well as anyone who is likely to help you in your next episode like close friends, family, your psychiatrist, etc ... I am also thinking of making a website for this so please be sure to let me know if you have any suggestions on this document or what the website should be like. Here's the document: [https://docs.google.com/document/d/1oh-fC40cuaCLT\_9EUXxfG6ot1zdpKAqMRRer7TTJDv0/edit?usp=sharing](https://docs.google.com/document/d/1oh-fC40cuaCLT_9EUXxfG6ot1zdpKAqMRRer7TTJDv0/edit?usp=sharing) Have a good one!",11.823971631205671,14.045161184397163,8.680283687943266,60.73333333333335,54.177304964539005,9.954609929078016,34.815602836879435,9.994966539143718,3.321913475177306,761,27,116,13,9,217,88,141,0.0,0.812,0.188,0.9753,0,0,0,0,0,0,45.0,0,5,0,2,8,8,0,0,9,0,15,0,0,8,1,24,29,9,0,5,3,0,0,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,12,4,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,4,1,14,8,16,17,1,13,0,0,0,0,11,5,0,2,9,80,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174255976589241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985428183037136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10267193354833767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264871833296604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16376221159218515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13842497545809102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344600031437595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834509233131358,0.12316001574721508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09842183124201452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08069784504688379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15015091119410914,0.0,0.21521161012146087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27788168046764605,0.19602984537665968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4684888521748649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995006376399035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401726529845654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16118307142449526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14498394865548314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13839225474354694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09408730215683894,0.0,0.2331445544355353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143438537112674,0.0,0.0,0.3804603976851808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320242118816552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129266468338393,0.0,0.0,0.09455829574324176 schizophrenia,digital-M,2019/08/22,"question for people on disability what's the point in doing anything with your life if you are on disability, medicaid, have cheap housing and will all be taken away if you work more than set hours. seriously whats the point?",5.98,7.565173190476194,6.446190476190478,73.78214285714287,67.09523809523809,9.40952380952381,30.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,2.9788952380952387,182,7,32,4,3,59,35,42,0.042,0.958,0.0,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,1,6,6,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,7,3,2,8,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,3,1,24,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576629280431918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941772395707993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083503706348101,0.3612870086550259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211589186343645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21707111442836174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5919804885116021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507549630612212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279478770157464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zakh77,2019/08/22,"Have you ever had an MRI or CT Scan with Dye & Contrast? I rarely interact with other sufferers from mental illness outside of the internet. Recently I've been making it a point to ask the people that I talk to if they've ever had a MRI or CT scan, and if so, have they had follow up scans once every one to two years. The answer seems to be no. Most are telling me no. When I first began having trouble, I was very persistent on an MRI scan. I was told time and time again that this was delusional thinking, despite my logic being that patients with schizophrenia and similar disorders have abnormalities in the brain, including less grey matter, enlarged ventricles, and the thickness and mass of the outer cortical. And while an MRI cannot be used to diagnose schizophrenia, there are common patterns in brain development that could be used to validate a diagnosis. I think this may be the reason more psychiatrists don't encourage their patients to have these tests done. Schizophrenia also presents a future risk later in life for developing dementia or Alzheimer's, and some of the same parts of the brain that affect people with those diseases have also been linked to patients suffering with schizophrenia. Then there is the possibility of brain damage from some of the medications that we take. I am seriously concerned about why any psychiatrist ; someone whose secondary profession should also be a scientist ; would not encourage these tests in more of their patients if only for the sake of documentation of the long term effects of the disease. This makes even more sense to me for someone that takes an antipsychotic like Lithium, or has had a consistent cocktail of the same medications for a year or more. --- Is there a denial or a complete lack of interest in the psychiatric field to even take a look for the slightest possibility that some of these drugs cause damage, or more damage than others.... Anway, back to the original question (a Yes or No answer will do): **Have you ever had an MRI or CT Scan with Dye & Contrast?**",6.701135033444814,8.392363432065217,6.603913043478261,72.9253678929766,65.4945652173913,9.57458193979933,32.903846153846146,9.851270322608157,3.4260339464882943,1645,69,269,36,26,520,193,368,0.11199999999999999,0.8540000000000001,0.034,-0.977,0,0,1,0,0,0,46.0,1,2,3,3,16,12,0,1,34,1,38,15,4,9,3,59,53,26,0,7,13,0,1,1,0,4,11,0,0,0,19,14,1,0,10,1,0,1,6,8,0,3,13,8,16,4,46,29,15,34,0,5,7,0,15,11,0,19,23,210,35,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452236965583347,0.0,0.22149963970322276,0.0,0.06950964865073006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09555714938428796,0.0,0.0,0.07859696181352299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4564226074452547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050028761414568,0.0,0.0,0.10717039574179398,0.0,0.0,0.08161029391146468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037459891357716,0.0,0.0,0.1171471503534176,0.0,0.0,0.10460134833995503,0.0,0.0,0.11853685261773708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350239773175319,0.27737773299038204,0.08612047605565322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08694395617352113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07219741872288109,0.049937045365475365,0.0,0.0,0.09045698501856804,0.0858347867852946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13645850160272371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20594155062159653,0.10300859511890563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10885555065826304,0.0692634730939467,0.07773905034997565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068879432711286,0.0,0.14172590676242974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662613533462723,0.2304639216610708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11450410000930795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10509395853410038,0.10092489922623324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930526215021174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17321273492806438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305586903149202,0.08215647844275452,0.0893403427523922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309903830969775,0.0,0.0,0.11920468017264076,0.0,0.0,0.09767073350611806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09984912148899078,0.0,0.0,0.17656173965938915,0.0,0.08433801132723402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09223306406840756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07261054433907249,0.0,0.0,0.13164611058522327 schizophrenia,badboyfiko,2019/08/22,"can anyone explain delusions to me Hi, let me start by saying I have OCD and I often have weird paranoid thoughts, but I am able to recognize that even tho this thought may be possibly true it probably isn't and I should stop thinking about it because this is probably symptom of my OCD. I am trying to say that I get paranoid, but I know its paranoia and I know it's not normal and I need help. But I have a friend that was recently diagnosed with OCD and he has these delusions that he is in some kind of tests to become a spy or something and right now he is hospitalized and he thinks its part of the test for CIA or whatever to see if he can really endure tough situations. The part that I have trouble understanding its the certainty level...like...I sometimes get paranoid thought like what if I am in a truman show and everyone is an actor, but I know it's a paranoid thought and it's part of my OCD and I try to not think about it. But he is different, he has 100% certainty that his paranoid thoughts are true but otherwise he is almost normal. I can talk to him about everything else and he is completely rational and logical, but soon as I ask him about why he thinks he is in the hospital he starts with those delusional stories. I would understand if he lost touch with reality completely, but how is it possible that he can be 100% rational in some things and 100% delusional in other things? Can anyone explain this to me? How does it feel like to have delusions? Why is he unable to use his rational mind to say to himself that this thing I am paranoid about seems little illogical. How can he on one hand be totally normal and on the other he thinks his father is a spy hired to watch him because he is the chosen one and blah blah?",3.9669628647214883,5.339094856321839,5.0920689655172415,82.3944429708223,71.70114942528734,8.917064544650753,29.47656940760389,9.367010060515213,2.5802927497789567,1382,56,276,31,26,456,152,348,0.083,0.8220000000000001,0.095,0.8916,1,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,1,13,10,0,0,12,0,39,3,1,4,3,73,67,33,0,9,15,1,3,4,1,3,2,3,0,0,31,18,0,1,20,2,0,0,3,4,0,2,7,8,30,6,35,53,6,15,0,1,2,0,36,9,0,11,8,193,61,3,0.09154632278074908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916704184259924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280226348926513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855834539548173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161157732979374,0.1011057210820398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19196915538787485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09291759058750458,0.0,0.0956464226643144,0.0,0.0,0.08011280398521615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07647520571574988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060465482802751734,0.0,0.0,0.08747643454848097,0.08227593197436815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046288571457175264,0.06540071128638733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07072846188993441,0.0,0.09565835043561843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06136157044627201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09533140764845108,0.1509343945713812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361231749644776,0.0,0.1341747273818897,0.09175346550823828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099933625544852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09243568908546687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06788043836268144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690878776011368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12406831510738214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974072393425645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064094476950773,0.0,0.0,0.1974048391757155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058646918550915375,0.0,0.09039094951531836,0.0,0.0,0.07818005945415016,0.0,0.2184039308267912,0.0,0.0,0.07295056671389084,0.0833403340201665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10290190244612704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0704768318252891,0.0905416540635731,0.0,0.12959391690110333,0.0,0.0,0.07653682501768883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09515168183014516,0.0,0.07358146653809176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18245792711492426,0.29329593579701746,0.0,0.3633877723221477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12430788781935535,0.0,0.0,0.19060590113847128,0.0,0.07906662983191902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16521263437999095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06503188111112712,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,odinspeenbone,2019/08/22,"Hi I just heard a voice in my head for the first time and I'm concerned Sorry, I've never been diagnosed with schizophrenia, I tried posting about this on a few subs and I got no answers. But last night while i was trying to sleep a deep man's voice loudly said ""satan"" it sounds silly when I write it out however I've never been interrupted from my own thoughts before from a voice I've never heard before in my own head. It was clear as day and still is freaking me out. Any advice or suggestions or simply if anyone wants to tell me to fuck off and that I'm over reacting I'd appreciate it. I'm just concerned and need someone with knowledge of hearing voices in their head put me in the right direction thanks in advance.",3.771410018552878,5.1045959863945605,4.632702535559677,85.65050092764379,72.12925170068027,7.250216450216451,25.608534322820034,7.686295010490155,1.2885836734693878,578,18,116,7,11,187,94,147,0.069,0.852,0.079,0.0997,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,2,5,4,1,0,6,0,5,6,4,1,4,26,18,12,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,10,0,1,6,9,0,0,3,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,9,10,12,2,21,9,3,26,1,0,0,1,10,12,1,3,11,72,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15726274937568946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10944057405089652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252872826759368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738857996059608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10378905498777076,0.0,0.0,0.16334452593118762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368902973700501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14878080190742368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12871354541126928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4954938478525815,0.0,0.1813842072419284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13118261212775262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11933045136282824,0.3723664463628885,0.0,0.0,0.15102556786995097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15413019473870054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16178302475621106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13743667553221672,0.1530849971374327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610501295299539,0.0,0.13635877544645048,0.0,0.0,0.18015233078170315,0.0,0.0,0.1285220244105742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14066332640890078,0.14816631756132498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12776354406919768,0.09384185419494497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185271150163728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09492298681588704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwawayaccOUNTgdi,2019/08/22,"Self-aware Now that I'm self aware of my paranoia and other symptoms (my fiance applauds me for being able to say things aren't real even if it's because my friends tell me it's not real and ensues a mental breakdown for the next month) I have been having thought withdrawal. It's driving me crazy because it has to be the voices. They have to be robbing me of my thoughts as punishment. When I am allowed to think they are telling me everything I'm going through is just in my head and I'm making it up and then they rob it again. I feel like... My head is against me. The only time I feel okay is when I sleep (but I only get 5-6 hours maybe less) and when I'm talking out loud. But even then, I space out in the middle of a conversation or just stare at nothing. When I do talk sometimes it comes out jumbled or I'm going on several tangents than what I want it to be. My mom is getting mad at me for not being social with the family and I'm getting upset with her because I can't handle being around people. I fear that they secretly hate me. I'm just tired. I want my sanity back. I want my thoughts. Even if it meant being blissfully unaware that everything isn't Real. Then my voices wouldn't hate me and rob me of my thoughts.",1.850323559150656,3.6224065736434166,3.466177957532864,90.1912082912033,78.22480620155041,6.037344118638357,24.395685877991237,6.895973343053719,0.8488423997303673,968,34,206,10,23,321,128,258,0.14,0.812,0.048,-0.9788,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,4,0,14,9,4,2,7,1,23,5,3,2,0,43,50,21,0,6,11,1,2,1,1,1,2,4,0,1,15,14,0,0,9,0,0,4,6,6,0,0,6,7,39,3,28,36,1,30,0,0,1,0,16,12,0,4,15,144,54,0,0.10930715137317627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730653918397746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08405045227818247,0.0,0.19989787477436846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09415843219135832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21658902774505814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19647643897680594,0.0,0.10304505422728266,0.1230009344918244,0.11053796009339048,0.07808905078159868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08445043400280343,0.0,0.17132542531855688,0.0,0.12424354621933595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158363641031308,0.22436134484562695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10764552585367057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05340195284345158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07296337232553593,0.0,0.1098137254340728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11015589926778263,0.0,0.0,0.12801921459766447,0.0872479253750156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11624939554796852,0.0,0.0,0.1048831597727376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16626602837637028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07577981570827208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3732464059306994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08692543403975649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280623957722746,0.1234859680080357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938609169064767,0.11142487545079333,0.0,0.0,0.10810756768469476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136119832374864,0.0,0.1757138955849099,0.1910785364157531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07261881436116305,0.07003960897060436,0.0,0.34711067385204514,0.06373787899052538,0.12563249077192176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934165697916108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Boneyard_Art,2019/08/22,"I just. Needed to post this somewhere. I feel nothing and then everything at once and it's so fucking overwhelming. I don't even know what's wrong or what's happening. I don't know why I was fine an hour ago and now I'm on the verge of crying. I fucking hate this, I can't explain it to anyone. I can't be alone. I can't be around people. All at once I want to be touched and the thought of touching someone else is revolting. I'm just fucking trapped no matter where I go or what I do. I want to talk to people but I feel like I'm an inconvenience or they're just humoring me. When I try to talk about this shit people either get freaked out or just withdraw entirely. One minute I matter the next no one can be fucked to even give me the time of day. The fucking voice doesn't help one bit he just makes everything worse. My school seems to be doing everything in it's power to keep me from graduating on time. My work feels hollow. I finally have like every tool I need and I just don't feel genuine when I'm there. I wanted to get away for a bit. Sit under the stars next to a fire and just be, but I couldn't even do that. I don't have the money and no one has the time. I can't even just go drive aimlessly because I can't afford gas until the end of August. I live in my parents fucking basement and I know it could be worse but its just such a massive step backwards. The list of shit I have to do for other people keeps growing and the list of shit people will do for me is non-existent. At the least I just want someone to care, like all the time. Not just when they feel like it. I can't even have that. I can do that for others but no one can do that for me. Sometimes I can feel my tether to reality snap, I'll be in a store and the whole thing just shifts and I can't focus for shit or even tell what's happening. I'm just kind of there and all I can do is get the fuck out. When that happens I can't do anything, can't talk, won't make we contact it's just overload. I just don't know anymore. What part of this is supposed to be worthwhile? Nothing. I'm gonna go sit in the dark and argue with myself until my meds kick in and I pass out.",0.5193825901548195,2.3343241407249486,2.425536757207752,95.8322552609623,82.64605543710022,5.3575785667933635,20.216974135533512,6.391308007922933,-0.0266195791230186,1678,47,398,15,46,558,186,469,0.172,0.753,0.075,-0.9951,3,2,0,0,0,0,41.0,1,0,1,2,33,24,13,1,22,0,52,11,4,2,3,76,101,31,0,8,26,1,9,4,0,3,0,1,0,0,24,20,0,2,13,0,2,7,22,16,0,5,2,10,49,8,50,85,9,49,0,1,0,7,13,19,11,6,24,269,73,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06012003982294947,0.0,0.0,0.07024305496293577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06726112021604612,0.04742266331024255,0.0,0.05581166124969458,0.06037588776498794,0.0,0.0,0.06372092627754147,0.0,0.0,0.0413436128515406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14808794154633645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06914896739995498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05415028429515548,0.0,0.07449919430354407,0.043739527547746584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056656511331461726,0.0,0.060070090391167535,0.0,0.0,0.26877443057633105,0.0,0.05714289262463529,0.0,0.1828619051855265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20575680303718505,0.09690398621104324,0.0,0.07429559810669625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4389019043540432,0.10630246165434737,0.0650609655381724,0.1156342800540874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17992409926317166,0.0,0.0,0.0669601046547108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045459603263146436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06679092938508786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056647721622242,0.0,0.0706260928248319,0.149092613853183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325374569210168,0.0,0.059887997799064466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905433163161341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753348636165341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10057818842814313,0.0,0.0,0.14425876240612473,0.0,0.0,0.13015392256225267,0.0,0.0,0.14445626238389447,0.22978944073991225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753082158308909,0.07344453001974957,0.0,0.23509589830358865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06495465152377854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06863940374642179,0.0,0.06174252863511985,0.0,0.0,0.2784729044713806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11493058522827415,0.0,0.06707761295195383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16353807042492466,0.05927934733719972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04505786992595063,0.0,0.0,0.05384302859363028,0.15819002753903286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04604663164297263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16001250217518928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06119873365651408,0.07572075147279662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04937516541944007,0.0,0.1382326610694459,0.0,0.07415262251286348,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mrtacomagic,2019/08/22,Can schizophrenia be confused for depression? I have been taking Zoloft for a year now and it has helped tremendously with school and maintaining my relationships. But there are still some things I haven't told my doctor about. Before I was on the medicine I would become incredibly paranoid. I began carrying a knife and felt like I was constantly in danger. I would also experience visual hallucinations that would evolve into delusions the longer I went without trying to find help. These often came paired with audio hallucinations and only increased the paranoia. A lot of times I would feel very disassociated from myself and do things I did not necessarily want to do. My friends also mention how much I ramble on and jump from ideas when its later in the day. What I have mentioned is the lack of motivation/trouble sleeping/eating habits changing and all the basic depressive symptoms because I feel those as well. Now I have felt considerably better since being on the medicine but I still have some bad days and I am worried that I am only treating a symptom and not the actual root problem. I am not sure what to do or who I would talk to to help me out. Anything helps.,6.679736434108532,8.279793004651165,6.574883720930233,73.45317829457369,65.46511627906978,8.710077519379848,31.54263565891473,9.029198982220553,2.79051007751938,956,37,158,16,15,302,137,215,0.128,0.789,0.083,-0.825,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,12,12,1,1,12,0,26,4,0,2,2,45,36,17,0,8,7,0,4,1,1,5,4,1,0,0,11,14,0,0,7,0,0,4,5,6,1,0,10,5,24,6,23,19,7,23,0,2,0,0,11,7,0,6,13,128,35,2,0.0,0.0,0.11618207774905652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19041905684442856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09797344618074703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09940729678974247,0.07257580473203028,0.1314886725211161,0.10130840662236427,0.0,0.0,0.10529589697580206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136169045396717,0.0,0.0,0.12594610759138394,0.0,0.0,0.12865790034087238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15356332896089533,0.0,0.2050865683782236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185948573203832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164602102650753,0.0,0.0,0.12039719906382187,0.0,0.22862603334588,0.0,0.10881558512673777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09198284195828614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31920454571485185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13440042166135407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058165046120426035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121767276297164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08752030756444887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810958343999499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11392109732517328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12782224401028788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12049164597954737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09848485852266388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19015752591259946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122094464419248,0.24749080859322176,0.08951575433618435,0.095693193755079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15819184361703198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694228670245465,0.0,0.0,0.113763693414806,0.0,0.0808316234647495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09823417229937036,0.07022267353757261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704619098535713,0.11036667073305036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11476632400025075,0.0,0.0,0.1209077671327018,0.0,0.4228720010767089,0.0,0.0,0.07666855375326355 schizophrenia,Nash544,2019/08/22,Excessive daytime sleepiness and Simple-type schizophrenia My doctor thinks I have a simple form of schizophrenia. My main symptom is excessive daytime sleepiness (probably negative symptoms) + bodily hallucinations (probably Cenesthopathy). Any ideas how to get rid of daytime sleepiness? I am taking olanzapine 5 mg now. The doctor wants to increase the dosage to 10 mg.,8.252643678160918,12.159725758620686,7.507586206896549,58.45436781609197,67.27586206896552,10.073563218390808,42.42528735632185,10.125756701596842,6.1321287356321825,306,19,33,9,6,95,42,58,0.066,0.893,0.040999999999999995,-0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,3,4,0,1,0,5,7,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,5,7,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,21,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674373368739828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5040310801084463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12863924495258428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27795123740290306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5309313686867612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5118315526394753,0.18512601654992492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15776716849819902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14522632267247426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,poppycola,2019/08/22,Geodon experiences? Just got on 20mg. Anything i should be worried about?,2.1128205128205124,4.0568397692307725,2.4384615384615387,85.29820512820513,112.84615384615385,4.810256410256411,27.41025641025641,6.42735559955562,1.8156871794871798,59,3,10,1,3,18,13,13,0.204,0.7959999999999999,0.0,-0.3736,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4526532521915427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5380651082758031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4399339504751088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5586135441930606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Trevuh_,2019/02/20,"Handful of Tips Let me start this off by saying that I am a 22 year old male, with bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. Thankfully under proper medication and this is what I do to help myself beyond perscription. &#x200B; 1. Breathing techniques. Deep, slow inhales and exhales every once in a while. Not trying to get high on air. Often there is just a tightness in my chest. So to fight that I will breathe heavily a few times, just enough to ease the mind. 2. Meditation. It is difficult to keep things quiet, and it feels easiest to do in the morning. Couple that with stretching and it will ease the body as well. More often than not it is impossible to meditate in my room so I recommend going outside, and close your eyes and try and focus on consistent breathing. In the mouth and out the nose, or vise versa. 3. Time outdoors. Everyone needs fresh air and at times and it feels good to go on a walk. Getting some sun goes along with that, replenishing vitamin D3. It has a feeling of bringing life into you. Keep that in mind for spring/summer. 4. Friends. Having too many friends can cause some stigma, like coming into delusions. We already are antisocial to begin with, so holding on to people is something I try to stay away from. Though an SO or pet helps greatly from what I have heard. 5. Thinking. Holding on to things that seem so real that it is hard to let go of. Choose the path of least resistance, holding on to these thoughts can cause stronger hallucinations. Everything should blow over with time. 6. Reading. It can help keep thoughts organized, and your mind busy at something more important and interesting. It will keep you sharp too, after school and reading another book it brought a good feeling in to life. Ready to seize the day again! 7. Music. Calming music like jazz or instrumental music gets all the hyping up these outlandish thoughts and will ease the mind. Spotify has many playlists for relaxation, plus the quality is superb. 8. Hobbies. Always have one, reading can be coupled with this one. Art is an outlet that is all over this sub, there are so many beautiful exposes of this life on here. Writing is another good one. Even just keeping a journal can take a load off. 9. Exercise. This is a big one for your mind to be happy the vehicle it drives should be kept up with. Multivitamins made a real impact on my life, in a positive way. Personal routine.. 10 pushups + 10 calve raises upon waking up. (Good way to start the day) 10. Food. A study was recently found that schizophrenia is affected by gut bacteria. So eating less food helps the hallucinations go down, which I did not believe. I fasted for a day and had nearly no hallucinations or delusions and a great day of work on top of that. Snacking around is a good way to go. I hope this can help anyone who is struggling, life is a roller coaster and the ride can be less bumpy if you pick some of these up. I have had my entire world light up because of this sub. Much love!",2.986741204531904,5.689381679785335,3.6853604651162826,85.23439728682173,79.25044722719142,6.58892069171139,26.31129994036971,7.793537801064563,1.7444819081693501,2345,95,432,40,60,741,288,559,0.028999999999999998,0.7929999999999999,0.17800000000000002,0.998,0,0,2,0,1,0,87.0,1,6,0,3,23,22,1,1,33,0,49,25,11,5,2,90,86,34,0,5,11,0,8,2,2,6,9,3,2,2,38,34,4,10,11,9,0,11,4,3,1,4,12,15,23,19,86,62,13,82,0,0,1,1,22,48,0,12,21,295,61,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07148661798905201,0.0,0.0539023583809768,0.07018937503848452,0.07871509567929794,0.0,0.1358554832157096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04529585780856018,0.0,0.0,0.05766815771980933,0.0,0.0,0.06086317837559897,0.0,0.0,0.039489439822564164,0.0,0.0,0.07298515961210156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07195625534732014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13309432491153653,0.0,0.055802450316261167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14335623147878893,0.0,0.16711161137914562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07424378009700329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06628636931722227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06693531627379705,0.0,0.04278674491672406,0.0,0.0545801555294821,0.06190030605494527,0.058220312664282965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13101936560788224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15666507361780882,0.07102820171646736,0.10009812266310524,0.0,0.101535022533314,0.0,0.18408054790383652,0.27167300586384097,0.0,0.14284091113860947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06895978191572202,0.05803038087775509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171041841292262,0.0684438920053661,0.0,0.06434140615786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878983184019895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13248439156105152,0.2287810357768756,0.06329671705412113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05846670583805009,0.06129663994367252,0.0,0.19703102096138791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06525928778915288,0.0,0.0,0.3270479343564834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04762093829451262,0.04803373538807308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797597635367465,0.06898885325872979,0.1755870987771462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04491046954182806,0.056563616599198216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19439334476904824,0.14746821598404128,0.0,0.0,0.06396268284682248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051515855790429485,0.0,0.06556107259987573,0.0,0.058973507656059986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974200439892206,0.0,0.0,0.09170359034914212,0.0690471284218702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06772238378543392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04870668685083281,0.0,0.0,0.05964095174270706,0.0,0.0,0.08607424074732008,0.041508569214592485,0.06364626783158175,0.15428485012771692,0.1510955415402122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319446146972994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542586442323663,0.0,0.0,0.0582452255646207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0471607943544168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07871509567929794,0.04171635782615498 schizophrenia,marvaden,2019/02/20,"Update after almost a year It's been a while since I have posted in here, and I hope that this doesn't come off as bragging because I know the struggles of progressively getting worse all too well. &#x200B; I am nearing the 1 year mark from the last hallucination. Within a month, I am seeing my psych and working with her to lower my dose of Latuda (currently 160mg/day). I have already eliminated the small dose of Haldol that I had gone on a year ago due to the hallucinations. &#x200B; I know that everyone is probably sick of hearing it, but I really do believe that this is all because of changes to my diet. I have been following a paleo/primal version of keto since April 2018. I dropped 40lb, lowered my cholesterol, and am getting better with regards to my psychosis. I specify that I follow primal because it means that I don't eat vegetable oil or any other unnatural foods. I typically eat tuna & sardine salad made with avocado oil mayo for lunch. So, I am covering all my bases by increasing omega 3 as well as eliminating processed food. &#x200B; As far as exercise goes, I run long distances at a low-effort level. This took time to get to a reasonable pace and had to start out simply by walking to maintain the target heartrate that I follow (180-my age: 147bpm). &#x200B; I hope all of you are doing well and are progressing towards health. If you're interested in hearing more about my diet and exercise you can message me, but to avoid being too preachy I am not going to give any other details here.",8.118973471741636,7.525731370242215,8.337840830449826,69.60044059976934,62.28719723183392,10.613241061130337,38.297808535178774,9.888512548439397,3.8672863206459054,1222,55,208,21,15,402,172,289,0.045,0.8809999999999999,0.07400000000000001,0.8735,4,1,0,0,0,0,49.0,0,2,0,4,9,9,0,2,13,0,22,15,0,2,4,29,43,17,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,15,11,9,1,4,2,0,10,3,2,3,0,7,5,31,7,40,35,7,40,0,0,1,0,7,12,0,5,16,146,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07439575718974067,0.0,0.08404024261561764,0.0,0.0926149532916994,0.0,0.0,0.4546715087121877,0.4079194184738914,0.11414576335898825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15348240247883582,0.0,0.0,0.09455639864648817,0.0,0.0742261478586937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878308341352918,0.07229522776408857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05412563399191184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17175547454576934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08019534446151354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20296845596718693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13154435940492626,0.08050992329616354,0.047697350428957806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08920991946845183,0.1891824762109353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667158551813171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09224759274669593,0.06841127950308723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07427229029727347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07941326090137266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914205363143966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06698931248251876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08037836464077999,0.0,0.0904869360404281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05376544962163937,0.08629039532029592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668785354190535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13884969653139892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05940359171955537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08773817516519053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04893820310702727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09324540295361952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263799434164579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061099474128188176,0.0,0.08552824914038529,0.0,0.0,0.4079194184738914,0.16213769682715404 schizophrenia,ETMeep,2019/02/20,"A Target Over My Head That Makes People Attack Me Sometimes I get the feeling that people are nice to everyone except me. They're nice to strangers and new people, except me - they always attack me, as if I have some aura that makes everyone hate me for absolutely no reason.",7.0730128205128215,7.255456173076923,7.508461538461539,72.10320512820513,64.19230769230771,9.241025641025642,28.871794871794872,8.841846274778883,2.372171794871795,219,6,36,3,3,72,36,52,0.205,0.6779999999999999,0.11699999999999999,-0.7425,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,2,0,2,1,1,3,0,9,7,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,9,2,7,7,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,27,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18091181064890055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4946958828356667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.415510444606944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10993466415078744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11359357501545793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21465836875547287,0.2231368217143156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902606064066953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20998669756483127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4521973401133314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22354514944475387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21503507275752734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lwyrfeethrowaway,2019/02/20,"What happens when you skip a med for one day or two/three days? What do you feel mentally or physically? I'm just trying to understand what my brother goes through. He isn't particular about taking his meds and seems to lie about it from time to time. There are days where when I ask him something, he just stares at me blankly before asking ""huh?""and I have to repeat myself. I have gone on to realize that it tends to happen when he is not regular on meds or may have skipped a day or two. I want to understand from your perspectives as to what happens when you forget or skip. This way I know better on how to deal with a situation like that and not aggravate what he is or isn't feeling or going through at that point.",6.180155172413793,5.721242075862072,6.3711637931034515,81.66709051724139,66.17241379310343,10.00862068965517,31.91810344827586,9.516144504307137,2.5727413793103446,571,20,120,10,8,183,86,145,0.023,0.905,0.07200000000000001,0.7795,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,4,0,1,11,2,0,0,3,0,10,0,0,1,0,25,27,15,0,1,11,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,0,7,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,1,3,14,2,23,25,0,21,0,0,1,0,14,7,0,9,12,83,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662421671578198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12116854956836424,0.0,0.0,0.12593773347572662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3673346853917193,0.14680407372828144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14399944159655234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092695605402979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777610670638728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825714444475293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06956751674380009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4745097279925923,0.0,0.14350172528717806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964912479088763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134610292591074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12963201481036246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16005912501722136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10962343521148576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10706410729432064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660645623535997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966775700163636,0.0,0.2782004974544001,0.2964786173444644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08398887893951021,0.11302735555079199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BlueGuineaPig,2019/02/20,"Medication Free Cure Drink distilled water. Start at Walmart. Then get a distiller. I had it bad, I don't have It at all anymore. Negligence is poisoning you. It's need to know. Now you know. If you don't switch to distilled water and organic food you are choosing to stay sick. Anyone who claims they are already doing that is either a liar with an agenda or being lied to themselves. It takes time to heal but real water and real food will cure you no meds needed. The only side effect is that you'll realize that your country doesn't care for you unless you care for yourself which is honestly ok. God works the same. Ask for help but be prepared to do the work. Doctors won't admit that this works. I hope you believe me because it costs you a dollar a day at walmart to start feeling better. If you think you need to attack this post and you aren't a affiliate with money in the medication business I have one request. I want you to ask yourself what do I gain from you getting your brain back?",2.5967384370015942,4.849720348484852,3.7307761828814456,86.8758133971292,77.83838383838383,5.784582668793195,24.562466772993087,6.8360192770164,0.9895717171717178,791,28,151,8,19,256,118,198,0.121,0.728,0.151,0.8190000000000001,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,17,1,6,2,11,3,0,10,1,21,13,1,1,1,29,40,10,0,7,7,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,14,5,6,0,8,1,4,0,6,4,0,1,1,1,25,8,20,34,3,14,0,0,0,0,24,5,0,4,7,105,39,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14771318033661204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327489643554304,0.09359507277294984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502741677759774,0.15228027232544827,0.0,0.10292683140061376,0.11176398405970624,0.0815972402946176,0.0,0.0,0.15080962489133048,0.0,0.11838455859077687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14942731779952667,0.0,0.0,0.2729497748210726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632590365293946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370070614603503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13112770370447746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06768150362977557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237178778733113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13986823936047532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08972070690775923,0.0,0.0,0.1329489909896521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712727069131162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14868359451686178,0.2696912294078395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977570914897453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09070413986581104,0.10180335147813667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12819683484534675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047143618530836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948761823971216,0.14267245002228113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10064288702953883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576937813520351,0.0,0.0,0.07805238100299237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895160636430333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923458033372922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wvufiend,2019/02/20,"My ignorance Hello, up until recently I have never known anyone with schizophrenia. But as of November of last year I had began befriending (and ultimately developing feelings for this girl who just told me she was schizophrenic. I think she’s an amazing person and I would eventually like to date her, but I have no idea what it is like dating a person who has this mental illness. If anyone could share with me any experiences they’ve had dating a person with this mental illness that would be extremely helpful as have no experience in dating someone who has this illness if that does happen. Thank you",7.450870129870133,8.561885827272732,7.7022077922077905,67.83045454545457,63.45454545454545,10.285714285714286,32.98701298701299,10.290406445055957,3.6684285714285694,491,19,76,11,7,160,75,110,0.14400000000000002,0.7140000000000001,0.141,-0.1054,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,3,0,13,4,0,0,1,19,19,9,0,5,5,0,1,2,0,2,4,0,0,4,11,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,5,1,12,5,12,10,0,12,0,0,0,0,15,2,0,2,12,61,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12447772668625587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559803875869881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14614753573768227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601850065967763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3581087119609737,0.0,0.0,0.09255368374812184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618671940471368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12269204269193347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20663693539025285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492071243233189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17885430311285322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689351334222764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14117655217444247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4794867743176359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807360886665772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15509449332202907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16852439363969618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11728864569294767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17490853581653087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26006160779765064,0.0,0.0,0.11787578336841385 schizophrenia,korba__,2019/02/20,"this is a mindfuck so we're all trapped here and know that - by definition - we cannot get out. except by suicide. but they keep saying that \*that\* will only make things worse. korba is a cowardly being, so he will heed the warning. so the plan for now is to stand up, take off (wait there is no mask) and face the show. korba is a sad clown.",0.08774603174603257,2.402559457142857,1.9404761904761931,95.00341269841272,90.14285714285714,5.396825396825397,17.777777777777782,6.937597516519254,0.07201587301587331,262,7,59,4,9,86,54,70,0.281,0.7190000000000001,0.0,-0.9708,0,1,0,0,0,1,16.0,1,0,1,1,6,1,0,0,6,0,9,1,1,1,1,11,15,6,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,8,12,1,5,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,41,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087640677610347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3551650802939897,0.0,0.0,0.21959872840707712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26672276533246003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3038986100555421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177620689099352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4370756860955954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004344457836665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26546320933681844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4072061762237154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizotheritzo,2019/02/20,"The uk rules of diagnosis are a joke and should be checked. In the UK you can’t be diagnosed with schizophrenia until you’re 18. I feel so bad for anyone who can’t get the help they need for it, medication. So they have to suffer until they turn 18. But that’s not where it stops the joke carry’s on. The diagnosis takes very long and getting medication is a whole other story. Anyone undiagnosed should fight for it. Remember you know what’s going on in your head not the doctors.",3.3609375000000017,5.191744885416672,4.7004166666666665,82.73625000000001,74.10416666666666,7.716666666666668,23.458333333333336,8.472884824447931,1.405670833333334,383,11,77,7,8,127,64,96,0.107,0.807,0.086,-0.6183,0,0,0,0,1,0,9.0,0,3,3,0,3,5,1,0,8,0,9,5,1,0,0,13,17,7,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,7,3,0,1,3,2,1,1,4,3,0,0,0,1,7,2,12,13,1,10,0,1,0,0,9,5,0,0,4,52,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31868585957338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19027498069164894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312991155876143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332505967222965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522582077476425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381216701211369,0.0,0.12951265408729354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23387639945703234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15274693290635594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125239981491037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016716097442147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4591415910949462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16897430572311015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581499930123748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19052258915176906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17134163163033936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.247874124389766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880295093131587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544261655316871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BannerBill17,2019/02/20,"Free falling My girlfriend just broke up with me and I was doing okay while we were together, in fact the best I’ve done in over a year and a half. But she broke up with me on Valentine’s Day and ever since then I’m not doing well. I feel like I’m a shitty person and the voices just perpetuate that nonstop I can’t go to my classes and I’m probably going to fail school, going to have to drop out in debt with no degree. Girls come and go but the voices will never leave me alone. I guess In the end the only thing that’s constant is me and my fucked up mind always telling me life isn’t worth it that I am not worth it. Life is ass and so am I.",-0.030116550116549238,1.86014393706294,2.073454545454545,97.17684848484848,85.15384615384616,4.652494172494173,16.526340326340325,5.6839178017228535,-0.7350126806526807,505,10,121,3,15,169,86,143,0.17800000000000002,0.716,0.106,-0.8962,1,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,2,5,9,1,0,8,1,13,4,1,0,3,26,24,13,0,0,6,0,1,1,1,1,2,2,0,2,6,14,0,0,1,0,4,6,6,4,1,1,3,3,16,6,17,20,1,25,0,3,0,2,6,10,2,1,9,83,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976645667822728,0.0,0.0,0.15880371316138867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20028684484103815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644016436366841,0.0,0.2062426395690072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308341043180153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19530731765944087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16903775611706176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17263608251250773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650023848457537,0.1363443294428766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17643911015185273,0.0,0.0,0.43386115793002333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21024441274933905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20208415164423832,0.0,0.0,0.2696080770751461,0.09324038874213424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19270558067418825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14719642051567994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14515114424625866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16664414351413498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20577016592626865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19315187833002145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578743095097887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668125982949666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679323733491552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17159839330608506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290209039722752 schizophrenia,halfemptyjuulpod,2019/02/20,"Have any of you guys tried Benzos with antipsychotics? So to start things off I take 3 mg of vraylar at night 3 300 mgs of gabapentin a day and 60 mgs strattera in the mornings. I would like to substitute the gabapentin for a benzo. Do benzo help with symptoms at all? Or help in any sense of that matter. Also how hard would it be to get prescribed? Coming from drug induced background? Thanks :)",2.1280116959064337,4.833774842105264,2.1428070175438627,94.74020467836256,83.47368421052632,4.430409356725146,22.91812865497076,5.82211442006289,0.2987532163742692,312,11,61,2,9,93,58,76,0.017,0.7879999999999999,0.195,0.9254,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,5,2,0,2,1,11,10,5,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,16,7,1,9,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,4,37,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006822593960442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413051887765354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161686569309004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184008222154025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29101889913845924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311094723623586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24847702612759456,0.0,0.0,0.22479925925183655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33640902599302325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226000492467384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354967999709374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776216084523699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26083006328940783,0.1886809453783126,0.0,0.0,0.2310383211352401,0.0,0.0,0.16671806446887424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17037656940827192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3565311582473929,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Crazycatlover,2019/02/20,"Guilt About Being High Functioning I've been prodromal for several years which is great. I'm back in school and looking forward to graduation, trying to to focus on life goals. That said, I'm in nursing school and we're taking Psych Nursing this semester. This class is stirring up all kinds of emotional turmoil in me which lead to me seeking out schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder forums for support. As I read these forums, I see that I am doing so much better than the average person with schiz-disorders. I'm in school and doing well (enough to graduate) and will be gainfully employed a year from now. Lots of people are on disability and/or working only part-time. I should be grateful that I'm doing as well as I am, and I shouldn't be taking up space with my own relatively minor problems. Does anyone else feel this way? 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I'm undiagnosed, and not very knowledgeable about the... Issue? But my life in the past few months has left me on shaky ground, and I have a strong family history of schizophrenia. How can I talk to someone about it? How do you bring it up to a doctor?",2.519423076923076,4.760595173076926,3.4429230769230803,88.90207692307693,78.03846153846155,7.236923076923077,20.015384615384615,8.238735603445708,0.8954184615384619,207,5,43,4,5,66,43,52,0.036000000000000004,0.8390000000000001,0.125,0.6868,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,1,4,0,4,2,0,2,0,8,6,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,8,6,1,8,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,2,30,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021703136266223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165040760641423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29150905957533724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227497303306093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3359730027621163,0.0,0.21841420035128345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468198097103441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29518949246324305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394353180481107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620046648425541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485427022208033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551423531353673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lucyhorror,2019/02/20,"Scared to seek help Hello first time poster here... I believe that I may have some form of schizophrenia it runs in the family (particularly my mothers side) and all the symptoms I’m dealing with seem to add up. I’m just scared to seek professional help, I’m worried I’ll tell them my symptoms and they’ll just tell me I’m crazy and lock me in a mental hospital. I’ve never seen anyone for mental health issues so I’m sure I’m overthinking it all",1.5976923076923093,4.014954318681319,3.1304285714285736,88.82707142857143,82.73626373626374,5.837802197802197,21.18791208791209,7.1686216300943375,0.6543221978021978,357,11,73,5,10,117,59,91,0.115,0.797,0.08800000000000001,-0.3446,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,1,4,3,0,2,3,0,3,3,0,0,4,14,11,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,1,8,1,9,8,4,8,0,0,1,0,9,4,0,3,3,38,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13313876350787918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21452632481869052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963038540920847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17950114928362662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619622402977334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023964156300818,0.0,0.0,0.2552549749649693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987380687575254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3837760223858113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14685556006843312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3812662931208179,0.0,0.0,0.17334167557295793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17945871903686944,0.3958167952154168,0.0,0.0,0.3328526259436901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102932224641256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19337011008670096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lil_vort,2019/02/20,friend says she see hands she's struggling with depression and today she started panicking for no reason. she said she saw black smoke and friends trying to grab her. idk if it was really a hallucination but how can I help her? need a response asap. ,1.969696048632219,4.813222382978722,3.0966565349544086,84.82000000000002,91.12765957446808,6.089969604863223,21.60790273556231,7.447530270364453,1.3214583586626136,200,7,36,4,7,64,40,47,0.174,0.677,0.149,0.1779,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,2,0,2,1,1,2,0,8,7,5,0,2,2,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,7,8,2,3,4,0,2,0,1,3,0,12,0,0,1,2,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630408722939972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4719031026969499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047034157551372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264504883877388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956472832030502,0.3140024221826331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29050566700031644,0.24286661466581946,0.0,0.0,0.24336453710359246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161639382581591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192707533381073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894838204546639,0.0,0.0,0.2073467893411325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PilotCat1,2019/02/20,"Dealing with coincidences I find myself getting very afraid of any and all coincidences that occur in my life, because they make the world just seem like something is out of place. Usually, it involves instances where I am thinking of something and the person next to me blurts out that same thought. These can be real insignificant thoughts, sometimes, to the point that I feel too embarrassed to even mention them to my therapist. Still, I remain afraid. What can I do to overcome this issue? Does anyone else face similar fears?",7.996129032258064,9.350298666666667,6.695860215053768,74.66379032258067,62.33333333333333,9.210752688172043,37.005376344086024,9.2995712137729,3.5713311827957006,428,20,68,7,6,128,72,93,0.085,0.888,0.026000000000000002,-0.6767,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,0,5,5,0,4,3,0,6,2,1,1,1,16,13,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,5,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,11,1,12,10,2,10,0,0,0,0,6,7,0,1,4,48,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13234786988933644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13608241382803662,0.1994105805428247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863818352847175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20064406191527145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703127537404927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16257954072764175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12854428218846806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190009392078695,0.09840541935144224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778786112904988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10168060703486108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031320961941024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374654420639407,0.09508121118403047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12990996477451913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069799462299566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16993415853155172,0.2033358566801949,0.0,0.1839782452567805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22151949168109245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17717419786288266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996550540232148,0.1924835689764629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554233090617223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259681306990045,0.0,0.12470425700167187,0.0,0.30901213839040825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21434578012777952,0.16058139217403333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MyIllusion,2018/11/26,"I quit my meds, and I actually don't belive I need it anymore I know you should not quit your meds without talking to your doctor first. But I was feeling well, not even the slightest anxiety, and all the Seroquel did was making work harder. So I just quit. That was more than a month ago, and I'm feeling great! No psychic symptoms at all, no anxiety and I feel more awake. My only problem that remains now is places with a lot of unknown people. Otherwise I finally feel alive, happy and just like I jused to. The problem is, how can I tell my doctor this and have him belive me? I am scared that he wont belive me... 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Has anyone with schizophrenia (please specify which type if known) used CBD Oil to treat it? Did it work? 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I don’t know what it is that has been going on with me. I don’t believe it’s schizophrenia or another type of psychosis. But sometimes I hear words being said in my head. And it’s just random things that I’m not thinking. It’s like someone else put these thoughts in my brain. Sometimes it’s so loud I think it was actually spoken aloud and I look around. Maybe it’s just because I’m paranoid a lot. Not sure, I also get these feelings that someone is with me in the room and I have to leave before they hurt me. I think it’s just because my anxiety, but I was wondering if someone else knows what this could be attributed to? Or what I can do so it won’t happen? Also my thoughts and mood can turn from the happiest Ive been to dark thoughts that drag me down in the span of a second. I have been saying a therapist for my depression since my suicide attempt. Maybe this is all part of my depression?",1.9193040935672518,3.956250415789477,3.2456140350877227,90.59374269005852,79.05263157894737,6.32748538011696,25.818713450292396,7.3871296695380915,1.2375204678362577,729,29,154,10,18,237,102,190,0.16699999999999998,0.802,0.031,-0.9678,0,0,0,0,0,1,21.0,0,0,1,1,8,6,0,0,6,0,21,2,2,1,2,35,40,14,1,2,11,0,1,1,0,1,0,4,1,0,21,7,0,0,10,0,0,2,5,3,0,1,9,6,24,2,17,27,3,11,0,3,1,0,4,9,0,7,1,111,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.12355443568953405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025021377545276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327630635577234,0.19371470688593773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11271096473088901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15436223507291572,0.0,0.10773695266380033,0.14264765992502182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413401646501966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010888785124947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181003792874605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21153511068233885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06401851420259959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06614921646075786,0.0,0.07195616077503038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196201859714586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299397956084858,0.0,0.14270021868749186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13554009294337105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391645983496995,0.0,0.0,0.13406316228145734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06185592123586652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10632166504507086,0.0,0.0,0.10764046126846308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543962828842513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13710777827325202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272793996990197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043640899865513,0.1006864452526482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10473423573138113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218322152525709,0.0,0.25044376977407085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849229170206934,0.0,0.11932972023543965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14700556209028628,0.08411496999995823,0.2433823655425281,0.0,0.3015458615089793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13771681595327426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13730463264068996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dekuscrubbish,2018/11/26,"So much for a free day... So basically thanksgiving break is over and it’s school time again! Well my ride didn’t show up and I can’t drive (parents are mad at me and took literally everything so my life consists of reading, music, and dealing with whatever hallucinations happen) so I figured hey, it’s gonna be a free day for me. I was using the bathroom when near the end of my session I hear my door close which meant nothing to me at first but then I remembered I was home alone. I’ve checked most of the house now and found nothing. All the doors are locked and the baby gate set up to keep the dogs out was open but they were laying in the exact spots they were in earlier so they can’t be the culprit. I also have these weird vent type thingies above my door which I assume is to keep another room from being a different temperature than the other. That being said I don’t think the heat turning on or whatever could somehow blow my door shut so I have no choice but to blame hallucinations. Hoping the feeling of being hunted I have now will cease soon and I can enjoy my free time. 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I’m currently what I feel is heavily medicated. I’m going back to work for the first time, I’ve never had terribly bad experiences at work other than the general- everyone is trying to kill type haha. Does anyone have any good methods to destress Incase things get bad?",7.298915662650603,7.919797927710848,8.228578313253013,65.63419277108437,63.6987951807229,11.941204819277113,35.877108433734946,11.602472056035307,4.680158554216868,360,16,58,11,5,122,67,83,0.069,0.6990000000000001,0.23199999999999998,0.937,2,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,3,7,1,0,4,1,6,2,0,0,1,6,11,2,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,4,1,1,3,1,4,3,11,8,0,13,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,8,35,7,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343162618018758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13810634910589126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151876038862215,0.32983180295097875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20047250573332465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284579221965682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18873304737746235,0.0,0.386413094051095,0.0,0.0,0.09986898980228054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16800526842212468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031928889077531,0.0,0.11225173180231288,0.1656653336782059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21851992603884712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17479363394012398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989745291921001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15233493771896067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502182623811445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23088324261906354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950212013718228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21052359495856576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13121949463806587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151719749766648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13409900964927968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15843378008769288,0.0,0.17758876517090036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875850218688801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bluehourmorning,2018/11/26,"they are watching me and they are coming to get me, i can feel it i cant sleep ",-3.3896491228070147,-1.9045292631578936,-0.07789473684210435,106.90140350877192,104.78947368421049,2.533333333333333,11.596491228070176,3.1291,-2.059224561403509,60,1,17,0,3,21,15,19,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,7,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,13,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5714746539692378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33544336404442243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3466077895572006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6638957068753891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,caineapple,2018/11/26,"is it possible to hallucinate the contents of the conversation as it happens? i have a somewhat thorough understanding of the hallucinations i experience, but i have a hard time accepting some that are new because im not even sure if it is possible. for the past few months, in conversation with any person, like my mom or a customer, i am actively hearing the things i think they are saying, coming straight from their mouth, with their voice and its all in sync and in flow with the conversation, and it turns out they are not saying what i've heard. i just hung up on a friend because i heard her berating me and threatening to beat me with a switch and she is telling me she did not say that. people telling me that i've clearly heard wrong has become a trend lately and its starting to freak me out, because now im starting to distrust every single bit of information that anyone has ever told me because now i do not know if i'm hearing it straight from them or straight from fuck else. is this even possible? hearing a customer say an entirely different order, taking direction that was never given to me. i rarely ever post on reddit but i know this is the only place where i can ask and receive comprehensible answers. please help",8.201299435028247,7.410063932203393,8.180000000000003,71.44451977401131,62.22033898305085,11.087005649717515,37.88700564971752,10.317481424215053,3.8402158192090385,992,43,180,19,12,322,131,236,0.099,0.7759999999999999,0.124,0.6448,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,5,1,8,8,2,0,15,0,17,2,1,0,6,40,38,14,0,2,11,1,1,1,1,0,0,11,0,1,16,14,0,0,7,0,0,3,5,4,0,0,7,12,27,4,25,31,6,30,0,0,0,1,31,13,1,6,13,131,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738368501088733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07592035142443941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10150589238872204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26475287533393305,0.11991601144604196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11853919391207428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935304428113674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344103372429555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907030932157342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434296585844388,0.19643026536033573,0.09148175548660742,0.0,0.0,0.1062102433569894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388719208750046,0.1003787294135307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09601527970161744,0.0,0.09726467546223687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3671263232595232,0.0,0.07277763023925822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345660199379275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193433987930106,0.0,0.12248085732656233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0530457886797545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12716539083136888,0.08666602559942888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08374214567771987,0.10486543228351064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08257855880036905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036501087190882,0.07527440245557743,0.09480623301578854,0.11344103372429555,0.11918617876673193,0.0,0.3672165743067572,0.10398783252800067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34538274047663703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15370431520724973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102333600346623,0.0,0.08163723928276105,0.0,0.18980413869246227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07213448339743521,0.06957248000946291,0.0,0.0,0.06331277939851168,0.0,0.0,0.10375105398895153,0.0,0.0,0.11810182389572313,0.0,0.1130336601034552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11871313771203708,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,G-L-O-W-Y,2018/11/26,What’s your life story? I’m interested to hear about it! :),-0.7675000000000018,1.3174239166666697,2.4833333333333343,87.94500000000002,101.5,5.7333333333333325,14.333333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.09653333333333423,45,1,10,1,2,16,12,12,0.0,0.6,0.4,0.7177,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8473525829799694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5310306960215897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,samantha-widdifield,2018/11/26,"I'm going to do it and i dont want sympathy I've never overdosed before. or been hospitalized. I had to drop out of school because sz got so intense. I was diagnosed at 16. my fiance and I have fought every single minute for the past 5 days. he lied to me and went behind my back and hid it from me for weeks, he's done this 5 times. he breaks promises, lies, goes behind my back, then blames me. when I asked if he's sorry he only said ""I'm sorry you're so high maintenance"" so when he sees me passed out or dead on the fucking floor he can be right. I'm high maintenance. probably not the right sub to post this in. I'm going to kill myself tomorrow. I'm so lucky my mom's medicine cabinet always has a ridiculously full stock of random pills everywhere",1.4842616033755291,3.4211111392405087,3.380025316455697,89.59050210970467,80.01265822784809,6.744978902953588,20.659915611814352,7.793537801064563,0.7751606751054858,592,16,128,10,15,199,102,158,0.193,0.758,0.049,-0.96,0,0,0,0,0,1,17.0,0,0,0,0,8,6,4,0,4,0,10,3,0,0,1,14,25,14,2,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,6,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,4,0,0,8,2,14,2,17,16,2,29,0,0,1,1,11,11,1,5,11,69,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13810630489114026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15516625238357812,0.0,0.0,0.2552524032355621,0.0,0.10117814470322163,0.0,0.14123435024574538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704154625692183,0.0,0.0,0.1684633377800614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16985227500778458,0.1945240117507782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13984292760037692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15344322280795322,0.0,0.0,0.18865730581693851,0.0,0.1327471083213561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507279941415458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18362915142551126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19439046013834035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12801182872823216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12623312001652684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584439932560829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15896025232771369,0.0,0.17895146597758102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834871993605251,0.15788230082890756,0.0,0.0,0.16797776114864935,0.13226231851110626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715957149997007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09678262489071794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09789763752348618,0.0,0.13313687736406754,0.0,0.0,0.1538625031175593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,yolo1337,2019/08/14,"How do you deal with negative symptoms? I'm unable to enjoy anything and everything's a struggle. Plus I've got tinnitus from AP medication. Even showering is a major accomplishment, probably many of you are on the same boat, how do you cope?",4.605,7.048569888888893,6.3663888888888875,69.45625000000003,72.33333333333333,10.722222222222225,33.47222222222222,10.686352973137794,4.572888888888889,195,10,32,7,4,67,39,45,0.13699999999999998,0.795,0.069,-0.4871,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,1,3,2,0,1,3,0,4,2,0,2,0,6,6,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,6,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,22,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742731910360232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3436122652796721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201380472958173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995438416222592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665662686785095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3379085765584657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357594088959226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593481256459032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34843205188334264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34642087458942433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheSequel3,2019/08/14,"Weed and Increased Risk of Schizophrenia I’m 18 years old and have been smoking weed since I was 16. Recently I’ve become very concerned about developing schizophrenia. I read some articles that say smoking can increase your chances of developing schizo if you already have an increased risk of having it. My twin brother has a schizoaffective disorder and I already have OCD which causes obsessive thoughts. However, I don’t hallucinate when I’m high, and I never have had hallucinations, Now I know that fear of developing schizophrenia is not rare amongst those with OCD, but I’m still very concerned. And yes I know that you guys are not doctors, and I’m going to talk to my psychiatrist about this. Nonetheless, I’m wondering if you guys think I should stop smoking?",7.670579710144931,9.0271735942029,6.892898550724637,72.95427536231884,63.05797101449275,10.191304347826087,38.52173913043478,10.25414643259724,4.194965217391307,628,32,104,14,9,193,86,138,0.085,0.838,0.076,-0.0527,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,4,0,0,5,4,0,4,2,1,14,1,0,1,1,22,25,10,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,7,7,0,1,5,1,0,4,4,4,0,0,4,1,14,0,9,20,4,13,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,4,8,62,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4051972647726628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20276323523090767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885998314369056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210412644127996,0.18791446515390672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20659234251308534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10433971644862372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3635704181214235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19397531042255453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017950176204092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14159767472280205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19264920109228287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18364195007446624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18127521532088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459999398901609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15186942078304633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14661702190107614,0.15349135626356952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14756451018426645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11763851181878154,0.0,0.1457517528599671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029656958845945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19909798247300928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822740089637734 schizophrenia,kytexedits,2019/08/14,"Question about insight I have been displaying several symptoms of Schizophrenia, but health care professionals are saying you can't have a high level of insight with schizophrenia when it comes to hallucinations. I am the most self aware, self critical person you can imagine, does that mean that I can not have Schizophrenia (I sure hope so)? It just seems weird to me that because I'm aware that some of my hallucinations that I cannot be Schizophrenic or heading into psychosis in general. What do you guys think?",9.408461538461538,9.711295120879123,7.976131868131869,70.29386813186817,59.32967032967032,10.796483516483518,39.079120879120886,10.355215969177356,4.133644395604395,420,19,68,8,5,127,65,91,0.053,0.826,0.121,0.8156,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,12,4,1,0,1,19,19,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,4,8,3,0,0,7,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,1,10,3,9,17,2,6,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,6,1,49,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347241204882204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22323833920124936,0.0,0.0,0.1886096048820149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19160824422910328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167990234364292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247101168599053,0.2327380130457106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313370713034368,0.0,0.2174708659603588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385052480728929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911823104005113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452787478448217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17412112103902275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19932762655539976,0.4568338422164408,0.24735585642648705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20636168660568766,0.227577188463967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402969725238152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zarbarro,2019/08/14,"Quitting abilify So i have been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia, i tend to talk about esoteric philosophical stuff abit too much. I was also stalked by some people and felt very vulnerable which triggered my initial breakdown. No one believed i was stalked tho and they have since left. Anyways, i was on 3mg risperidone initially and im pretty sure it fried my brain a little. For 2 years i was taking that medication. Now im on abilify 30 mg but ive tapered down to 10mg already. Why did i start wanting to quit abilify despite being more outgoing and enjoying life more while being more happy in general? I literally shit my pants, yup, one of the possible side effects is incontinence. Thankfully no one saw and i got home in time. I really did like this medication tho, it helped me become more social and less anxious. But at the cost of shitting myself is way too extreme a side effect. I dont plan on telling my doctor and will see how long i last without any medication. I still have leftover risperidone if i cant handle any hallucinations i might get. Thanks for reading, just a general vent about 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schizophrenia,Anomalocaria,2019/08/14,"i feel like vibes exist on another plane i feel like vibes exist on another plane that we just haven't been able to explain in a empirical sense yet. *yet.* i strongly believe that everything that ever was, is, or will be is systematic. it's all measurable, it's all observable somehow. everything has an objective explanation. 400 years ago the microbiological world was altogether unimaginable. 500 years ago we were convinced that Earth was the center of the entire universe and we had no concept of black holes or dark matter or *quantum physics,* whatever the hell that is. if modern people tried to explain modern technology to people back then, they'd think we were witches. they'd think what we know as objective truth is outlandish mythical bullshit. i'm sure you understand what i'm driving at here. it's just that i've been sort of observing synchronicity for a long time now. it just happens way too frequently and way too precisely to be a coincidence. i get that google and similar organizations have AI that watch for certain keywords in the content that you watch/read and junk, which can lead to a lot of coincidences that create the illusion of synchronicity, but a lot of times it just happens to reinforce completely independent thoughts that i've never voiced. i've tried so hard to rationalize it but i simply can't. it doesn't make sense. not to mention that everyone i talk to seems to just *nope* right the fuck away from me. i swear i don't speak any differently than a healthy person. i don't talk about this shit under normal circumstances, i'm cognizant of how bizarre it sounds, but people still *feel something.* it's like they can read my mind, or feel some vibes dripping from the words i speak and write that just creeps them out. something that neither they nor i can put our fingers on. i've been trying to work it out for a decade now. i feel like there's just... *something in the air.* something we can't describe, or even consciously acknowledge.",4.25708057609965,6.899598841961852,4.7364857921370165,79.78055585831062,74.20435967302453,8.22698326196964,29.286804203970426,9.002800196639251,2.737067014402492,1593,69,284,37,35,505,196,367,0.067,0.8640000000000001,0.069,-0.6782,1,0,4,0,0,0,48.0,7,2,5,3,23,13,3,0,17,0,29,3,2,4,8,67,50,19,0,2,17,0,7,4,0,1,0,4,0,1,28,13,0,0,15,1,0,3,12,4,0,0,10,13,28,9,37,35,6,39,1,0,2,1,23,15,3,12,23,185,56,3,0.1077866217732741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19109267345879105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07329859896658042,0.22604734203591795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10126907927460976,0.0828812588725486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12143861217723036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11301222220298142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11261407854006228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119204712140688,0.09749917029448107,0.0,0.10299473619856232,0.19374333105665095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725007729709106,0.2310083523948372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964699497890796,0.056314061147781626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19063070732664272,0.0,0.09655564165872144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05923670846290824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21063639554342456,0.0,0.0,0.09538776842216642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832726626911342,0.0,0.0,0.07194840701049539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10883376147908293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313168754600615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10560800407108566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22417701580869376,0.0941151206086099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835532574683823,0.0,0.0,0.21563158072780653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920491860582804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09812489227998801,0.0,0.0,0.11064141831489054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33191762967582633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08607853538179212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10158761541903882,0.0,0.0,0.17326960739338232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381306299985627,0.0,0.08557053780549344,0.12570249190609456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21954012265313527,0.0,0.0,0.1122096745653598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17111200661870446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0784699443834131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13882210099755735 schizophrenia,Glossyplane542,2019/08/14,I miss sleep That is all,-3.515000000000001,-2.1124891666666628,-1.4499999999999975,116.145,107.33333333333331,2.4000000000000004,6.0,3.1291,-3.1418,19,0,6,0,1,6,6,6,0.28600000000000003,0.7140000000000001,0.0,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,melissabrain,2019/08/14,"seeking advice for believing things people say i keep hurting my partner because i dont believe the things they tell me. i feel afraid that im being gaslighted, but oftentimes it becomes clear that they were being honest. i truly do think that theyre a good person and a supportive partner but if something they say doesnt match up with my memory or perception i instantly jump to assuming that im being lied to instead of acknowledging i have a messed up brain. what can i do to work on this?",6.0968750000000025,6.726873270833334,6.752083333333335,75.15125000000002,66.29166666666666,9.733333333333334,33.70833333333333,9.725611199111238,3.325095833333333,398,17,70,8,6,131,66,96,0.084,0.732,0.184,0.9001,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,3,1,1,6,0,1,4,0,10,1,1,0,1,13,14,5,0,1,4,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,3,9,2,0,1,5,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,3,13,3,9,10,0,4,0,1,0,0,9,3,0,3,0,51,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18830836187813213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11747072159325173,0.2128267030510428,0.0,0.4342233976351965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151216730403616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22584794467821956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974370584250074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16163118129620946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20629388419198733,0.0,0.4163073143377305,0.0,0.0,0.17128439076434304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335968625504734,0.16826191730466522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30649230682364736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14835314558202128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21867849815194865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16843200743687234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25604828066974616,0.12347710172265995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14029098839124945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Moon_Idol,2019/02/03,CBD instead of antipsychotics? Does anyone successfully use CBD instead of antipsychotics? If so what were your symptoms before you tried it?,7.285303030303034,11.434683590909092,5.506363636363638,68.64621212121216,76.72727272727272,8.387878787878789,34.60606060606061,8.841846274778883,4.446133333333334,117,6,14,3,3,34,18,22,0.0,0.8490000000000001,0.151,0.5775,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,11,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385360311851269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4119846239445539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4236918062342409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5032277730321315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32871295785044136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4181589151781765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LeLeaxx,2019/02/03,"Violent thoughts I am a 20 year old female. I am taking medication. But,i feel rise in my violent thoughts. I cant control it,i keep getting pictures in my head,violent pictures. I cant concentrate on anything other than that. I am fully occupied with it. Does anyone know any way to solve this? 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After hearing about her multiple episodes, I was driven to hear others' stories and experiences to learn more about their afflictions and about adapting and overcoming their circumstances. This sub has been one of the most informative resources for me and I wanted to thank you all for continuously sharing your stories and supporting each other as a community. Though you may not realize it, through forums such as these, you are spreading awareness to those who seek knowledge. As a tribute to my family member (and to the community) I wrote a song from the perspective of a paranoid schizophrenic. I tried to write about the anxiety of feeling unsafe, uncertain, not being in control and about some of the delusions I know my relative suffered from, which I’ve learned were actually common experiences. My hope is that through media like this, we can educate people. Before being released in a few months, I wanted to share here first as it truly is for you. 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If I have thoughts that cameras are all around the house, but think i'm just being delusional, is that still a delusion? If I have a legitimate but short lived concern that my wife is putting stuff in my food or drink but i'm able to convince myself ""that's crazy"", does that still make it a delusion? Here's another example. Let's say I have delusional jealousy. Let's say i've suspected for years my wife was having affairs, but she always denied it. Then years later I push her to trickle truth her lies and she finally admits she did have an affair. Now maybe the affair was real, but all my scenarios I had built up and the conspiracies I conjured up were false, is that delusions or just an overactive mind? If I can acknowledge in the mornings that she's finally told me everything and I was being delusional, but in the evenings I create bullet proof logical scenarios for why she's still lying and just playing mind games or conspiracies, is it delusions? Is a delusional state constant or can they fluctuate throughout the day where I recognize maybe I was being delusional?",5.8910852713178326,7.295259813953487,6.026046511627908,77.38806201550392,67.13953488372093,9.64031007751938,33.4031007751938,9.888512548439397,3.4209751937984496,920,41,162,21,15,292,111,215,0.087,0.852,0.062,-0.8079,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,3,0,13,3,0,0,12,0,28,2,0,1,4,38,36,19,0,4,17,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,11,5,2,0,7,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,2,28,3,10,20,2,24,0,0,0,0,21,8,0,9,13,121,39,0,0.13966787867007702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11621486361398654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464539486522539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12433402332619894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15093135891943624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09007422730688408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12222430182940963,0.0,0.0,0.1368213489799324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09224931662245034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12552448351186013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30599866834218864,0.0,0.0,0.16888695328398054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611579798169245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856397374568934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332929569983475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322939355112833,0.0,0.2806303135258359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2820494852402484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14040479459036653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15897262311653884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22213900595323335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44615579328910937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598863058300306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17898707422004154,0.0,0.11088069461060224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13345864340470678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602853655090068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17988306934450707 schizophrenia,JaySun83,2019/02/03,"Word salad during my first psychotic break (13+ yeard ago) I don't know why, but sometimes I still think about some of the things I said during my first break from reality. I'm 35, almost 36 now, and it's still in the back of my mind. I was 22 at the time. ""I'm not a person, ya know? because it's per son"". I have no idea what I meant by that, if anything. Probably just nonsense rambling. I just wanted to share one of my experiences with mental illness. Maybe you'll find some comfort or humor in this. We all go through things we don't always like or understand, but it does get better. I promise. Thank you for reading, hope everyone is having a good day! 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I was walking through a park in a quiet neighbourhood at 3am in a city that I was only visiting, trying to find my way back to where I was staying. He approached me seeming really worried that people were following him and he was in danger and was also very suspicious of me. I was doing my best to be calm and trying not to appear threatening to him / be on his side. He was very big and strong and at some point had his arm around me and was leading me off in a different direction that I was headed. He also took my phone and was trying to make calls. The whole time he wasn’t making much sense. I was very nervous of what was happening but I didn’t want to make any attention because I was worried other people or police would have made the situation a lot worse than it was. I didn’t know the best way to get out of the situation and ensure the safety of myself and him as well. It lasted almost 30 minutes and in the end I gave him money so he could take a taxi. I don’t know what happened to him after that and I didn’t know what kind of services in that city I could have called to make sure he would be okay that wouldn’t actually put him in anymore trouble. Afterwards I spent some time researching the internet for information on what I should have done and how I could have handled it. Does anyone know any good resources of information on the subject of public encounters, resource lines, or any suggestions on things you should/shouldn’t do? Please let me know if there are ways I could have handled this situation better/more respectfully. 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I feel like nothing I do is right for them when they're talking about things I don't understand or I can't follow. (when they're exhibiting symptoms) I feel like the enemy if I try to settle them down, because I ""don't understand."" I know I don't understand, but that's the reason I can see clearly when they're not acting ""normal"" (I don't like to say that but I'm not sure how else to refer to it). Every time I express a little discomfort or that I'm upset, they say they won't tell me about any of this stuff anymore. That's not what I want. Hiding things from each other is not what I want. I feel terrible. What can I do to be supportive but also be able to let off steam when I'm feeling overwhelmed, without offending them?",3.8019235033259418,4.407535567073172,5.2623503325942345,83.88885809312642,71.37804878048779,8.402660753880268,27.104212860310426,8.575989854853784,1.807251219512195,619,20,129,10,11,209,86,164,0.115,0.73,0.155,0.634,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,5,1,9,11,1,3,4,0,17,2,0,3,2,29,33,13,0,4,11,0,4,3,1,1,2,2,0,1,13,1,0,0,10,0,0,2,11,5,0,0,0,7,24,6,15,28,1,11,0,1,1,0,11,4,0,3,8,91,37,0,0.15122209845435175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093225749890575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10283621257567477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499716870767028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09218358762500073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13374365714939224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12632665886276145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274111401034171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3058497467767313,0.21606619470278576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831077105109789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15463484128020838,0.0,0.2216384363446729,0.15156427012197296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481655489936243,0.1451016819494996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15548150321600546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291428458165082,0.0,0.2405157646029934,0.0,0.0,0.12050443367703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17311312316016111,0.0,0.17160504526305514,0.1425250381532026,0.15717766220142682,0.0,0.12154659454632714,0.13217477943290035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20093048546239847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08817882170463433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026698783712591,0.0,0.0,0.472282612874161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17838942339569294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14577270653682742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rozani117,2019/02/03,Feeling alienated in every social circle I feel like an outsider in every of my social circle since having psychotic episode. I am feeling so lonely lately.,7.648888888888887,9.882394814814816,8.467592592592595,58.3991666666667,63.814814814814824,8.362962962962964,35.72222222222222,8.841846274778883,4.123311111111111,128,6,13,2,2,43,21,27,0.109,0.706,0.185,0.0667,0,2,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,3,5,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4863863120730381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4378378833155615,0.2062057515532829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3256005100565208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101579812123652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23876747039238466,0.0,0.0,0.5884679082173212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,garni1999,2019/02/03,"i have been taking d vitamin and... i have feel, i become shizofrenic. my sleep is unquality. my focus is very bad, with that my mind doesnt works normal. im aggresive. i feel, im fallen in love ( before i didnt feel that, it is very bad feel, often i want to cry)",-1.2767857142857115,0.7619148928571455,2.100714285714286,92.46928571428577,96.5,4.942857142857143,14.142857142857142,6.6274283507984215,-0.3692428571428571,198,4,45,3,8,71,36,56,0.17800000000000002,0.687,0.136,-0.5245,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,8,3,1,0,0,10,15,1,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,4,9,1,3,13,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,25,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508146812386304,0.0,0.2320159496669153,0.17876190945615567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307621151091345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42488938312984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4538431291969322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18960466234823845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21212008535973967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058329927569016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21023089706991285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15795339898290284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3466746502003295,0.12391014356277096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15294014536089226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gum490,2019/02/03,"1978 interview with Itzhak Bentov on elevated consciousness. I highly recommend watching at least the first 6 minutes https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=KMbeK_6ATxQ&t=689s I'm not very far into this yet myself, but I plan on watching the whole thing. Just watch the first 6 minutes or so, Itzhak drops his first woke bomb right around then. Very refreshing take, especially considering this was recorded over 40 years ago",9.42066666666667,13.219257861538464,6.062692307692312,70.89147435897438,62.69230769230769,9.256410256410255,30.833333333333336,9.725611199111238,3.497102564102565,351,13,48,8,6,96,52,65,0.067,0.903,0.03,-0.5273,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,4,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,3,4,0,7,2,2,17,0,0,3,0,2,9,0,1,7,30,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21822254354188947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667344936194413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21915121539300625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6281983705514165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26010128834150725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102352450150881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850957277495956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635501741312414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4062463807955923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748497012636591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15853099666873907 schizophrenia,TootyMcTooter,2019/02/03,I'm not sure I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder several years ago after being hospitalized a few times. I am not really a person that posts stuff online. I tend to just read stuff anonymously and go about my day. Taking in information and going about my day. I'm not particularly social I don't have many friends or people I talk to outside my roommate and an online friend. I have a steady job and have been employed steadily for 2 years. This passed week I showered for the first time in months. It's not really something anybody knows I seem clean enough I take a cloth to my armpits and privates when I feel I'd be too offensive around the people I work with and put in deodorant. I wash my clothes as best as I can semi regularly I can never find the ability to put them away. But I'm always saying to myself for sure tomorrow I'll be able to get to it. I'll be able to do all the chores I've been trying to plod through. But this last week I showered and I was so proud. So much so I wanted to talk about it but I had no one to talk to it about. I can't keep my thoughts in line and today I had an episode I got pulled over for speeding and got a ticket and sat in my car screaming and slamming my head on the steering as the officer pulled away until I was hoarse fearing getting hospitalized and losing my job. I can't talk to my roommates cause I feel like he's bugged my room and is watching me.I don't have a support system and haven't been able to get help and feel like I'm slipping. I just want to be able to talk I guess I don't know. I am not sure why I'm posted I feel compelled to. Sorry for being longwinded.,2.2664461646727645,3.8970849941690986,3.8157615361415513,88.77169096209913,76.60932944606414,6.830159847190108,24.072484166080226,7.6298220110432995,1.0367998190409171,1295,42,280,18,29,430,169,343,0.098,0.833,0.068,-0.825,5,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,5,12,14,1,1,14,0,30,4,2,2,5,50,59,27,0,2,11,0,4,2,2,0,2,2,5,1,9,18,0,1,10,2,0,8,13,4,0,2,12,7,42,10,44,41,5,41,0,1,1,0,14,11,0,3,21,179,51,5,0.3601066648545904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07980320770018677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07490939817561973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0801428196917671,0.0,0.0,0.16916603280870735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09447743198730063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248218518795097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161195039750596,0.0,0.0,0.091375171160416,0.0,0.0,0.10317835902542537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09302161184350834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130502839340838,0.18208074974511146,0.1286301366624166,0.0,0.0,0.08228274194869986,0.0765766362911849,0.0,0.0,0.1391087579917258,0.0,0.1411056521490314,0.0,0.10232845814910592,0.0,0.14400509812705173,0.0,0.09917452253042684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09239333222903387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060342976682329526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17867514974912652,0.08001983740613898,0.0,0.0,0.0989526027006014,0.0733837486632002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08796496337885791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10071681156369083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09127290929663903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07185842606723786,0.0,0.06617995826800813,0.0,0.06943411495189128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061004398934802036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12482630987627208,0.07860781244736416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17244132112722366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18100333015354605,0.0,0.0,0.09005102870807681,0.0,0.11534677528199967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07159281837888958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08195689575578642,0.0,0.10170450774967947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09177084887940334,0.0,0.06930692595623186,0.0,0.10077748223445666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20611798824688776,0.0,0.1021611939549856,0.2545472024535946,0.0,0.13537769807162706,0.3618001207651163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07147111689743671,0.10499054608889953,0.0,0.08533475302875633,0.0,0.0,0.061122196853492676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620012048660307,0.0,0.14442792262358742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08123506350564495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06554048521595518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11594844280278944 schizophrenia,Infehmous,2019/02/03,"Not Looking for a diagnosis, just an outsiders view. Hello! I am an 18 year old male who has been struggling to what seems to be some pretty intense anxiety recently and have been fearing the worse. I had a fairly traumatic moment in march of last year and ever since I have believed people are out to harm me in different ways. My friends will say a phrase or even mutter a single word and I will connect it to something i’ve seen months beforehand and believe it’s directed towards me. Now I was smoking marijuana previously and as of now I am sober for the past while and the symptoms seem to continue to manifest. I am self aware of my symptoms and am confused as to what to do because all my family members refuse to believe me when I say something is wrong and they just say I am struggling with anxiety. After all of this, my main question would have to be, is what does psychosis feel like? is it something you would know you have? This is just a dry explanation and am willing to dive further into it within the comments. Thank you.",4.1888366336633664,5.957216534653469,5.106027227722773,80.94141707920792,71.77227722772278,7.822277227722773,31.93193069306931,8.472884824447931,2.6205039603960407,828,39,152,14,16,270,120,202,0.146,0.795,0.059000000000000004,-0.9562,1,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,1,0,8,9,0,4,11,0,28,2,0,0,3,31,35,14,0,2,5,0,1,1,1,5,2,3,0,2,10,12,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,5,7,20,3,27,23,5,24,0,0,3,0,15,7,0,6,17,121,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19546874353275026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07787997262483584,0.0,0.0,0.43181789294680295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347971522255075,0.0,0.0,0.11180171682067927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08438282583376318,0.11556424963964472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043868917671716,0.14376305033555262,0.06459818531684268,0.09127020200742203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870536386218486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07021234892524902,0.10413966335323234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624160106292544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10728438026601166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10197506172763762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13406032603546106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219592817554452,0.08857117634997595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299756182826253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14311798126957812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12614542043402768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047944050407494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23261181634793174,0.13327925441589028,0.0,0.0,0.10568257718981726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29506260181345034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671203956802926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655785556812716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11762222279960363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014081996262066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13019611878870305,0.18151095941278084,0.1396831049114857,0.0,0.1645436764920839 schizophrenia,Gothicon,2019/08/19,"Timeline of My Hallucinations When I was a kid, signs should have been obvious. My mom's ringtone used to scare me; I thought it was the sound of an alien spaceship coming to abduct. I heard loud whispers at night; I thought the trees were talking to me. I saw a rabbit figure every night, I watched the dinosaurs on my brother's curtains dance, and I believed a circus of people lived on my skin. When I was in middle school, I rushed into a relationship. If we weren't around each other, I would feel arms wrapped around me. I saw the ""love of my life"" facing me, cuddling me. I was okay. When I was with my friends, I would laugh significantly harder than they would at pictures, because I would see it moving. I was on medication in high school, though I wasn't honest about many of my symptoms. I was feeling everything through a translucent, light grey curtain. I wasn't entirely sure what I was missing, because I'd never accepted my symptoms to be part of an issue. Things spiraled downward after I graduated. I moved continuously, and I was never anywhere long enough to set any sort of appointment. I began to hear my room mates talking about me when they weren't home. I was scared, because I didn't link these occurrences with the strange things I experienced in childhood. This happened more and more frequently. I was hearing angels sing to me, and two men screamed at me every time I had to make a decision. I knew something wasn't right, and I now have knowledge of my diagnosis. \-This is just an essay I wrote to organize my thoughts. I'm considering writing on my delusions/strange behaviors as well? Thought this would be better than my journal because it could potentially inform someone. Nothing in this is meant to be stated as fact, because I am aware that these are things that were not physically occurring. I simply am writing what felt to be fact to me. I send love to anybody who's journey has been as confusing as mine. You WILL pull through; be patient in understanding yourself.",5.562989558707641,7.0795821409574495,5.6895153664302605,79.0751851851852,68.0159574468085,8.123561859732073,34.404649330181236,8.515128840125781,2.8573243892829012,1599,77,286,24,27,505,203,376,0.052000000000000005,0.871,0.077,0.8753,0,0,1,0,0,0,50.0,1,1,2,1,12,15,0,3,14,1,43,10,3,2,6,53,69,15,0,8,3,2,4,0,2,7,4,7,4,2,18,13,0,0,16,2,0,8,9,5,1,1,34,18,62,10,49,22,5,46,1,1,5,3,24,20,0,3,16,209,80,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06600195345656297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728022617119082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958246277014043,0.0,0.0,0.1093497794194618,0.0,0.08583885397168695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360584077063353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07749195866873859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002856211976826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16354908311632127,0.0,0.08722839521633162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09814967046070702,0.0,0.09318975028539347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07498584432565862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582700931365247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187801390473291,0.0,0.0,0.10254583991010804,0.09735588575250603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130208495042396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06855408943548927,0.0,0.0,0.08570293416933733,0.08589221541049806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17519510598462185,0.0,0.06478616887269144,0.09840036337719048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09777451693935628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11367175325818787,0.0,0.20631204075442724,0.0,0.0,0.14971237784991487,0.0,0.0,0.18216246739838515,0.0,0.09312861898188238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051030582538334,0.0,0.06728696579035884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10420268265964748,0.0,0.08288597844418749,0.0,0.0,0.19434158063386053,0.1964533301126339,0.07734170506335983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08223591322012824,0.07471906780668794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914748870944678,0.2017583589515404,0.0,0.15602116171182373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934406793677097,0.0,0.09535781500300336,0.30820903717771164,0.056594601650863566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948103924724104,0.10103955358567844,0.0,0.083825914455161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0872657208887164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447318365831525,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bombongordo,2019/08/19,"Do you think some symptoms of schizophrenia are similar to acid effects? I've been thinking that some of the positive symptoms of this ill could be similar in some way to acid (lsd or nbome) effects? I know its not the same at all, but i mean Symptoms like: -visual or auditive hallucinations? And one more question. Is someone there with schizophrenia that could have visuals like more bright lights and stuff?",5.1405870841487316,8.02275382191781,4.479882583170255,81.51849315068493,72.42465753424658,8.007045009784736,33.71624266144814,8.841846274778883,3.2360544031311163,331,17,56,7,7,99,53,73,0.026000000000000002,0.8009999999999999,0.17300000000000001,0.9173,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,2,1,3,0,0,2,0,8,4,0,2,1,21,12,5,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,7,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,3,3,8,8,7,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,6,2,41,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507130364215239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12070279037563048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21460004578644126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392412311741232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14882683174889333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460356327140785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860916108187306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.251423566930186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.684838348780799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814598060864596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17433190669754667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,plusjustdiscardme,2019/08/19,"Sleep concerns? Heyo. Long story short I'm suddenly just terrified of sleeping. I've started having really vivid and often gory nightmares and waking up sore assumedly from being *so tense* while sleeping. Between lack of sleep and creeping paranoia, my mental state is taking a serious nosedive. The being watched feeling is constantly there, to the point I have no windows uncovered in my whole house. My speech patterns are regressing hardcore, making me seem tangenty and probably very ""off"" to those around me. Hallucinating more every day, tonthe point I've quit responding to actual real people because I can hardly tell the difference sometimes. Bit of a problem, that. Any suggestions for beating this or at least calming it down? It's another week until I can get in to my doctor, and another 2 before I can get in to see my therapist. This just started a couple nights ago, and I just need to be able to hold out a little longer until that time is up. Thought: I may be suddenly resistent to my meds and need a higher dose? That's a thing I'm going to ask the doc about, he would hopefully know better than me right?",5.136496163682863,7.333892328502419,5.80423415743109,75.13675191815861,70.15942028985506,8.735322534811026,31.500142085819835,9.325443323948027,3.261968684285309,900,40,144,20,17,292,140,207,0.10099999999999999,0.851,0.047,-0.8796,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,3,8,5,0,0,10,0,15,8,5,1,0,29,33,12,0,6,4,0,2,0,0,2,3,1,1,0,9,9,0,1,5,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,6,15,3,29,26,5,31,0,0,3,0,5,15,0,6,14,98,24,1,0.12128515379087905,0.0,0.11835681450612845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075119709081856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08247806362293816,0.2543561175942119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10796950081971532,0.11338524650219378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07393430402282215,0.0,0.10320473280236178,0.0,0.0,0.10726686239455396,0.13241197536021296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13106616390767936,0.0,0.0,0.13419971578911385,0.0,0.07821889052468707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12671717148237235,0.0,0.1241404941969734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218797305460538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06132541796778938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12673297399123398,0.0,0.06892914791682249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10864767496460068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12046352405872683,0.0,0.13994678341821692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06665514864267423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215595868516188,0.0,0.10733354448371622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08095878195006563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13472046408094993,0.0,0.12222690844859195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17986280947466668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11381790075109847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08408385441355208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293073463171451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13076590927541398,0.11605351226006658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12900169034127384,0.0,0.13804905771336606,0.07769837520229371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10357685864658914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09664856472953393,0.11041344885940828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4854909779137862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11995411835253154,0.0,0.1716925122088897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119134152711406,0.0,0.10600857027277626,0.0,0.0,0.14082141160362233,0.08057646693065608,0.0,0.0,0.0962868644268138,0.0707223485248317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10007295388633257,0.0,0.0,0.09728763456334394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13541054286497098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08615749341197819,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,OttawaValleyAncestry,2019/08/19,"This isn't quite auditory hallucinations, do any of you experience this? As I noted here earlier, despite my diagnosis I am not someone who experiences either auditory or visual hallucinations. But I experience something akin to an auditory hallucination and wondering if anyone else here experiences this So basically, sometimes I hear voices in my head. Like just now what prompted me to write this was that I took a shower and heard a voice in my head say ""you still stink"". Now, what I want to point out here is that I don't *hear* the voice the way you hear another voice in the room when someone is speaking, I hear it in my head similar to my internal monologue but *distinct* from it. Different voice from my internal monologue and I can't control what it says but every so often I get that in my head. I would say it's similar in nature to an intrusive thought. Like intrusive thoughts but with an internal monologue. It generally says insulting things or cryptic shit that means nothing",4.6262378797672925,7.281047868131868,6.1556237879767295,69.99819974143504,73.06593406593407,9.776858435681966,33.23335488041371,10.056822442137396,4.087221331609567,800,41,134,25,17,271,98,182,0.052000000000000005,0.912,0.035,-0.7227,2,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,3,0,2,11,5,2,0,8,0,9,5,5,1,1,26,21,14,0,3,10,0,0,2,0,1,0,15,2,0,18,5,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,5,16,22,2,17,15,1,15,0,0,0,0,16,9,1,5,6,97,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256927627792091,0.1118990829795632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07461700965728074,0.10934124987620077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11968898489165028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11149356595592408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08914597279175658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08991126759210184,0.0,0.0,0.4175476327797641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05575373498787286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43807798890749744,0.0,0.4810983773410986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427027936335824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162429854958386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239509781669098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087935771335092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11350362624288304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394534772043649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10954053374383196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808370932647055,0.08215376047105573,0.1055430155974021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08522205204178797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07089613447912363,0.0,0.0,0.16943821810532575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11856333883029638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06294276610943199,0.08470471917508128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11572693541120985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758066650474579,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lianzard,2019/01/26,"Does anyone feel like they're being watched? (undiagnosed and just concerned) I can't be alone in a house. I used to be fine during the day but I'm not anymore. When I'm alone or everyone in the house is asleep/quiet, I feel like something (sometimes multiple) is always around the corner. The hair on my neck raises at every shadow, and my ears feel tucked back and tight (I can wiggle my ears and they tend to do their own thing sometimes). It doesn't happen as often anymore, but sometimes I can look at something harmless (my beautiful dogs) but it's like there's something terrifying to their faces. Like they want to kill me. I also have a lot of trouble sleeping at night because it feels like something is going to get me. I got a night shift job because I might as well work while I'm awake. It seems to be triggered by anxiety. I've been diagnosed with Major Depression and anxiety. Maybe it's just depression with psychotic tie-ins?",3.540553278688524,5.645819322404375,4.217073087431697,85.1997079918033,74.35519125683061,6.979371584699456,26.73804644808743,7.865858978985527,1.6654374316939888,748,28,141,11,16,238,109,183,0.14400000000000002,0.6990000000000001,0.157,-0.6286,1,2,4,0,0,1,25.0,0,0,4,1,9,12,1,0,7,0,15,7,6,2,0,27,31,14,1,1,7,0,6,5,0,1,1,2,0,0,6,8,0,1,5,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,2,10,18,8,19,24,3,15,0,2,2,0,4,8,0,5,11,86,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370804227965295,0.0,0.09152911965830116,0.09523520596241056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511456207567178,0.0,0.2270159637419327,0.08002915785526561,0.0,0.0,0.10188865650555776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0880083469530959,0.0,0.13954064526309742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07381360114115122,0.0,0.19715876518322345,0.11616877798045055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001597919264328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643274449277324,0.10936605694713823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314862771038724,0.2452986779302125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059797685257811074,0.0,0.06504705701145083,0.0,0.09153961661535838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121162285985773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641299558949648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11357830326462798,0.0,0.12662680440618404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27958312337596514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09611284611697908,0.0,0.0,0.0973050138508536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498480003685325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141800124763286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21481534888590975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10419496134575053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453702922967607,0.0,0.0,0.3524502681273169,0.3395949004614561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603839879965367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988518289005426,0.0,0.0,0.06750815381044001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10290822553195292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332414570711742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ItsiAdam,2019/01/26,got new airpods since i started listening to music the voices stop,3.1575000000000024,6.217299750000006,4.449999999999998,73.84500000000001,93.16666666666666,5.7333333333333325,31.0,7.1686216300943375,3.0757000000000003,55,3,7,1,2,18,12,12,0.18,0.82,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4301766921041453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5194696453415155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4449242971411445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3807008866959372,0.0,0.0,0.4496760009401006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chris221177,2018/12/15,"kik Group of up2 50 chat 4 Schizophrenia/schizoeffetive/schizotypal kik Group of up2 50 chat 4 Schizophrenia/schizoeffetive/schizotypal Support that is moderated by schizo's 4 schizo's All the chat is done in 1 group/room all members of group can pm you,but there is also a button to disable this so u can only receive chat messages in the Group an no pm (private message) i dont like fb never did maily use it when i have to sighn up 2 som trash, my mum uses it an she 70 i rather chat in small groups not 8 thousand + You need 2 have kik on your iphone, each group has 50 people from around the World We make friends An chat about our schizophrenia expirences And life in General,You dont Have to talk until u feel comftable in the group No judgment will be made of you by anyone no racist,harrassment,sexual provication or bullying will be tolerated Join my group chat - Tap the link to join my group (""🕊ˢsͨcͪhͥᶻiͦᵖzͪoͬpͤᶰhͥrͣenic🗽"" on Kik! kik.me/g/UnbOV4uS93gF4rIrSXxIxzg49xc (if you cant join via this link look for it by manual search in kik) im 41 yrs old from England i was diagnosed with schizophrenia at 25,i manage it well now im on 20 mg olanzapine, i find chatting on kik to other schizophrenics around the world Helps and i know my self better for it im part of 2 schizophrenia groups at the moment that has people in it from england USA gutamala France wales Canada Australia japan etc if you have issues in finding the group add me on kik : Crisssss123 i personally recommend them 2 groups there are others in the schizophrenia category + u welcome to create your own KiK User Conditions: https://help.kik.com/…/ar…/219006357-Kik-Community-Standards",3.8578003448936578,6.855061583061893,3.421372868365592,86.61542393178776,78.12052117263843,6.087334738455643,24.01312511975474,7.39963492309942,1.1767046177428626,1354,46,244,19,34,403,173,307,0.043,0.861,0.096,0.9229,0,0,0,1,0,0,40.0,2,6,1,1,11,6,0,0,13,0,22,3,0,4,3,27,31,9,0,4,5,1,1,1,1,2,3,0,0,2,12,8,0,0,6,8,1,1,8,0,1,1,4,2,22,6,41,23,6,29,0,0,1,0,40,22,0,3,7,135,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11535555484371653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086197641290508,0.0,0.0,0.25682367638534354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12757616616423073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14640929454450427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14761640181399835,0.33811657429678543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16087532154208245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07293642731873932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26368121775109543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11144611202300933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933735944803918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4674397297896127,0.15055806344619954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07927525919105323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10188705347748757,0.07047258062215764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113249567813718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13649151492657324,0.09628706189358698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10695851055987654,0.11125341444867544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15136464249348686,0.0,0.0,0.10970756185479576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15620717896096994,0.0,0.20000763596375928,0.12595231527282744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15048275125873878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163691604041047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11594156218726576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491689554692232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12969681669110328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MattVideoHD,2018/12/15,"Professor with schizophrenic student seeking advice. I’m a college professor and recently learned that a student who has been struggling in my class has been dealing with schizophrenic episodes for the past few years. I am trying to work with him to help him pass the course and am wondering what kind of accommodations would be helpful? Particularly in terms of our academic essay assignments because that’s where he seems to struggle the most. I don’t want to just “give him a pass”, I’m trying to research if there’s ways I could modify the terms of the assignments so that they’re more approachable for him but still challenging learning experiences. 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Hello, I am trying to understand everything I can about schizophrenia, as someone very dear to me struggles with it on the daily. I want to be able to pick up on signs of breakdown, and better support this person. It makes my heart ache to hear how struggling it is, and I want to be as supportive as possible. 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I narrowed it down to these two unless I'm missing anything else.,7.834090909090907,11.175964227272733,6.936363636363637,64.9245454545455,65.81818181818181,9.854545454545457,38.27272727272727,10.125756701596842,5.0592000000000015,111,6,14,3,2,34,21,22,0.10400000000000001,0.8959999999999999,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5391927564252051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.547354797012316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6400577299011362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ETOCraker,2018/12/15,I have psychosis Every kind of schiz thx,-0.0012499999999988633,1.0567613750000011,0.7199999999999989,97.025,122.75,1.6,16.5,3.1291,-1.0374500000000002,33,1,6,0,2,10,8,8,0.0,0.706,0.294,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6289946532661127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7774096257203422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Leesalado,2018/12/15,"36 year old schizophrenic just became a father, difficulties beginning again. I just want to put my feelings down and maybe get some input. Like I said in the title, I am a 36 year old man who became a father to a beautiful daughter 2 weeks ago. She has down syndrome and I have schizophrenia. I was diagnosed in my early teens after a battery of tests beginning in early childhood trying to find out why I was seeing demons all the time. I have been institutionalized several times, a few against my will, as well as lengthy stays in prison for crimes stemming from my mental illness. I was able to get a good handle on my symptoms in my early 20s and managed to get medication free a couple years ago. I know how to cope is what I'm getting at. That being said, I shouldn't be a dad. I have strong mixed feelings about this. Tons of guilt. Loads of pain that I dont know what to do with. My wife of 12 years has been my champion for so long and I dont want to let her down. I love my baby and am so proud to be a daddy but I known in my heart that I am not good for her. I am an emotional wreck filled with anxiety over this. I fear I will damage her mentally and just ruin her chances for happiness. How can my baby ever be happy if I never really am? I am simply not the kind of person who should have kids. I thought this could work, but it cant. I find myself trying to get more distant from her because of all my thoughts. I think of ways to leave the family without destroying my wife and I cant help but believe that whatever the aftermath of me leaving my family, they will be all the better for it. I have considered getting an apartment and living nearby to help as I can but hell I dont know. I am hurting so badly over this and the very nature of the subject makes it so very difficult to discuss with my wife and family. Anyway that's the nutshell of the situation. Me as a father = very bad for my daughter",2.9280366792205683,4.346023223350255,4.5510381529392525,85.0712256427051,74.38071065989848,7.5204191910921905,25.146225642705087,8.155646560271837,1.4606164401506463,1506,49,311,24,31,507,192,394,0.138,0.741,0.121,-0.9168,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,1,4,14,23,2,2,23,0,40,8,1,3,5,50,64,25,0,6,11,9,2,1,0,5,6,2,0,3,16,14,0,0,11,0,1,2,10,11,1,0,9,5,55,13,56,43,7,42,2,3,1,1,27,15,1,2,24,228,71,3,0.09021153858567983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15993417180686545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06901158009820567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506457331611172,0.054992116608601635,0.0,0.0,0.1016375118543142,0.0,0.07978477491611036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07202657298096182,0.09981735159416798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09156281272649587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3171817540858063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10147583876774936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08160150135880058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551302298717437,0.10151306120952353,0.09122732892474124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16490342389498386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827908334024293,0.0,0.0,0.15133031701641975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920637206024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690110757565403,0.12093378547272078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09657331785539007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939414353114124,0.1487337071134182,0.0,0.0,0.19104198768869332,0.0,0.0922474102225934,0.0,0.0440728009921397,0.0,0.07965844132315858,0.07983437285676026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08141943566719577,0.0,0.060216902510018676,0.0,0.0906296157642265,0.0,0.0,0.09087863438986513,0.18182402582809293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06957669992222276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18932366906298126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09599143744155007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0787692358717629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906875128727572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057791821616451335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17162366285890504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07188691652551296,0.0,0.0,0.10191336090824736,0.0,0.0,0.10140154908560377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09615349710519208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376432997172793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0578039113434267,0.0,0.14323576982077196,0.10520614722257196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12249542611752272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22330190114939089,0.10641820551640828,0.07160572032782557,0.0723622547773084,0.0,0.08111100715877274,0.0,0.08140188206634605,0.0,0.0,0.08696070399033375,0.0,0.06567507450461396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323730925908187 schizophrenia,charlielogan,2018/12/15,"First days of realization? I have been wondering this question for a few people. What were your realization experiences were like, when you functionally realized on your own terms something was not sitting well, how did you sort of get to backtrack to your reasonings?",7.117000000000001,10.184490422222222,6.628611111111113,67.57625000000003,67.0,10.722222222222225,35.694444444444436,10.686352973137794,4.788444444444443,219,11,33,7,4,68,38,45,0.04,0.898,0.063,0.2607,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,5,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,2,0,7,8,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,5,0,6,2,6,3,3,6,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,3,5,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283305612750869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3463251982875513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011515851579913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18497456873507093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17296912898586794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24545111217551166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3966128612329481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640185424724362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272562123710694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183301252380486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3839480883814537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ImALlamaAgain,2018/12/15,"Help For Friend Exhibiting Schizophrenic Symptoms (X-Post from r/mentalhealth) Hey Reddit, A bit of background on this situation: My friend is currently in his mid to late twenties in the US. Sometime around when we were getting ready to graduate from high school, he began to show some disturbed behavior. He began claiming that he was the reincarnation of the Panchen Lama, an important figure in Tibetan Buddhism. He began writing long, rambling, nonsensical documents and insisting on handing them out to people in shopping malls and other public places. At the same time, he was experiencing auditory hallucinations. At first, random beeps and noises. As his psychosis progressed, he claimed that he was able to hear people's thoughts while looking at their faces, either in person or in pictures. He ended up being institutionalized after graduation. I don't really know the circumstances of that as to whether it was voluntary, as it was very hard to keep in touch with him in this state. Possibly worth noting is that his older brother began showing equally disturbing behavior at almost the exact same age and also spent time in a mental health facility. I don't know if his brother had delusions of grandeur. I did hang out with him again about a year later, and he was very much in remission (if that's the correct term). He didn't really go into depth on his treatment, and I didn't press as I was just glad he seemed to be okay (and it was none of my business). I haven't seen or talked to him since. On to what is happening currently: After not being active on Facebook for the better part of a year, he recently began posting the same kind of rambling nonsense, and with steadily increasing regularity. He is once again claiming to be the Panchen Lama, and is also claiming to possess advanced degrees, knighthood, and other titles. He is claiming to have designed microchips on the International Space Station, that he is in the process of developing anti-gravity, that the fundamental nature of the universe is color... You get it. Rambling, incoherent nonsense with random capitalization interspersed with frequently changing profile and banner pictures depicting various Buddhas. I have screenshotted examples and removed his personal info, but am reluctant to post any unless they'd be of assistance in getting him help. I will add that one of his last healthy posts before his absence was announcing that he had quit smoking cigarettes, and I've heard anecdotes of nicotine cessation wreaking havoc on otherwise managed schizophrenia due to acetylcholine disruption. Everybody else on Facebook seems to be ignoring his behavior minus one or two people who occasionally drop a like on one of his less overtly disturbed posts, and I'm becoming more and more concerned for his wellbeing. However, I have absolutely no idea what to do, or if it's even my place to do anything. This is where you come in, Reddit. What I need help with: What should I do? Should I try to reach out to him? Should I try to reach out to his parents or other more recent friends? Are there any other subreddits I should cross-post this to? I had a roommate in college who I also witnessed descend into full blown schizophrenia with delusions of grandeur. As in, messianic delusions, claiming that I was to be his general and protector in the coming war with demons, which he learned about from interpreting song lyrics. Suggesting that he talk to a counselor was met with almost aggressive opposition, and I later learned that he had threatened to kill people regarding these delusions, which is what finally made the school intervene. So I'm reluctant to go into this half-cocked. I should add that I am not a doctor, therapist, or other mental health professional, so I hope you can forgive me if I've misspoken on anything here. He's a good-hearted man and I just want to help him get help if I can, but am very much out of my element here. Thank you so much in advance for your responses. ______________ TLDR: My friend, who I haven't seen in years, is exhibiting on Facebook the same unusual behavior he did years ago and everybody seems to be ignoring it. What do I do? Addition for this subreddit: He lists his occupation as being a driver for Uber. How dangerous might it be for him, unmedicated, to be on the road in a very major metropolitan area with passengers?",8.08101502522483,8.94228368298969,7.971313884623822,67.31948563281425,62.04123711340206,11.140337793375744,39.319916648387796,10.946050158932447,4.7332591357753895,3502,177,547,88,47,1126,358,776,0.077,0.8370000000000001,0.086,0.3439,5,0,1,0,0,0,97.0,2,5,3,6,20,21,4,3,30,1,68,7,2,2,2,104,103,49,2,13,20,3,4,1,4,7,5,3,0,3,43,44,0,3,13,5,3,9,10,9,0,5,32,12,62,12,121,52,22,105,1,0,4,0,81,55,0,21,36,400,105,10,0.07129024843960627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06319450383425798,0.0,0.1427737719144285,0.0,0.0,0.1710323577620874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09695962717143533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11733160028592605,0.06346343552162463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07873447841118382,0.06066275064720129,0.0,0.0,0.06305043140424242,0.07783048728358452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07541563009949752,0.12282047312145045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729685901044162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05955385480641364,0.0,0.06314200005070163,0.0,0.0,0.047086536740013896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07809498252577449,0.0,0.0606394489040888,0.0,0.0,0.22031467640532967,0.0,0.14898484965279687,0.0,0.08103178214529648,0.05979487804821392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06304173125548279,0.0,0.063862059770043,0.0,0.0,0.15155640081798527,0.08034929120887442,0.08447928765009681,0.2389217539756293,0.07532206158268713,0.0,0.07080730237490084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08047801300945147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06336604840217612,0.0788720973693758,0.07423782331085182,0.07835851228268767,0.05811106746098847,0.08041850542452983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0348288143780503,0.0,0.0,0.06308962649576241,0.05986585378139728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06745655679965018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14368760556348348,0.07562768768987906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15721960609268407,0.05286081590251007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07592178792616887,0.14492435204642512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07915938426008319,0.0772003918760984,0.0,0.1976947279544977,0.1244957902887896,0.14896627252694922,0.0,0.0,0.08036904355899664,0.4096581093619376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07582595450565505,0.0,0.0,0.09134071728310443,0.0,0.1407810396289131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14429907485119925,0.0,0.1946998941148128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05897203020234245,0.08013322619043706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07050787859370311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07409786467735513,0.0,0.11460080253828007,0.0,0.06563448261624354,0.0,0.08277347313380133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0565964940630224,0.08313983433225168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09680279815136487,0.0,0.06964021384724849,0.0,0.08575339113607366,0.0,0.0,0.2352876843259087,0.04204883559632647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836343306099955 schizophrenia,librarysmell,2019/07/05,i can't move my legs will not move. i really have to go to the bathroom.,-1.9417647058823528,-0.25861311764705874,1.6073529411764724,98.67808823529413,91.94117647058823,5.752941176470588,14.382352941176471,7.1686216300943375,-0.4379176470588231,55,1,15,1,2,20,14,17,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24799110915462025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.927554512946028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795407578399222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zorastra,2019/07/05,"Newly diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, feeling scared and alone Hi friends, I’m coming here after my diagnosis was switched from depression with psychotic features to depressive schizoaffective disorder. I guess I’m just looking for support from people who have been through this. I’ve been really afraid of this diagnosis, mostly because of the stigma. I feel like it’s thought of as “worse” than mental illnesses like depression and anxiety. I used to take comfort in the fact that I “just” had depression. My main symptom is hearing voices, which started in 2016 and has been going on off and on since then. There are many, but the main distinctive one is male and is easily upset. He tries to tell me that everyone hates me and that I’m doing everything wrong and that I’m a bad person, all kinds of negative things. Lately he’s been shouting to keep me awake when I’m trying to sleep. I also have some delusions, mainly that my roommate has been swapped for someone who looks like her and that my apartment is being watched. I’ve accepted that no one believes me, but I’m still very sure of this. Does anyone else feel like this? Does anyone have any good coping skills for hearing negative voices? Should I respond to him? Anyone got any good comebacks? (Mostly kidding with that last one)",5.634183877415055,7.827573755274263,5.456171441261382,78.1615522984677,68.83122362869199,8.702553852986899,31.461025982678212,9.276330184999452,3.082498734177216,1048,45,173,22,19,325,141,237,0.187,0.684,0.129,-0.9529,0,1,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,1,7,22,1,3,4,0,20,4,1,1,4,32,44,14,0,1,4,0,3,4,1,1,3,5,0,3,17,12,0,1,5,0,0,2,3,10,0,3,9,11,16,12,28,33,7,15,0,4,3,0,15,6,0,4,11,116,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11149744318425656,0.0,0.0860911474547602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14641730376399512,0.0,0.08235528562611454,0.0,0.0,0.22582328078711356,0.1103046069782112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988688829602537,0.06562509457168245,0.0,0.0,0.12128959092341199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927346930164294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3708901470647527,0.10926690251245333,0.0,0.0,0.24676243127870565,0.0,0.18841810011868895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08993139829312778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10286834802226627,0.09675279117034588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16329982706844093,0.15381658304290538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08317348632609206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06118244988673525,0.1805907278755634,0.08610102076154183,0.0,0.11859340723999273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10628638615290743,0.0,0.0,0.2426685605411928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09568813564867684,0.0,0.11210544268351977,0.0,0.08775266639012189,0.12143879963740965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21037791680094808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18080508669249667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10914461724657466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10849026757142714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21884812777655688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07463397364419126,0.09399962889617257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.068966135383416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778078812610303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905279353487068,0.0,0.10773210000548628,0.0,0.09121518421561033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07619830537310604,0.0,0.08597290562335316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216488438459985,0.10146295396622124,0.11189409321412827,0.08094267594631263,0.0,0.09409464985850606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715207687752642,0.0,0.0,0.08546553142733196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14618047857251554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09297879636360627,0.0,0.08882611596412658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10970898320077124,0.0,0.11770313549082105,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Baihe-Qipian,2019/07/05,"The dark thing isn't real and it can't hurt me I worked 6 days this week, and today is my one day off before I go back to constant on and off work. I recently started Seroquel, because my symptoms were getting worse, and today I decided to watch a Let's play of 'The Sinking City' barely a few minutes in and I'm having to stop and remind myself that the dark thing isn't real and can't hurt me. I used to be very good at reality checking with myself, but lately it's been getting harder and harder. That's why I started Seroquel. I've been lurking on this sub for awhile, and have been very nervous about posting. I just want to know that someone can relate to this feeling. Thank you for reading.",4.662766122766122,4.992988874125878,5.624848484848485,83.03505050505049,69.34965034965036,7.194716394716394,30.574203574203572,6.42735559955562,1.6226012432012433,551,21,108,3,9,182,88,143,0.063,0.833,0.105,0.5748,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,2,3,6,0,1,5,0,14,1,0,1,0,20,25,10,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,10,10,0,1,3,2,1,1,4,3,0,1,4,2,14,3,17,19,1,20,0,2,1,0,1,6,0,0,12,74,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11897300780541956,0.0,0.09431815761127517,0.0,0.1316585093122398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16720139951725022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995680284596776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07823297336616354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16167353941360027,0.0,0.08793306873116627,0.129774934772072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312699338109754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08503212275241144,0.0,0.17453512134468868,0.0,0.0,0.1582155100254062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484481250799152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14818257615763514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15476561339683842,0.3522189856410383,0.0,0.0,0.15277103015625607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131096925307926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21902852324402947,0.0,0.0,0.12935597718065692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16081721159293866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14244883472215936,0.0,0.0,0.2055831594865462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933200338971506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13363163629959013,0.0,0.2553265838375495,0.09126007234858546,0.0,0.12411005380589173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13961411227781598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252814552436966,0.0,0.15767671248992146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mjbrodie,2019/07/05,"Saw a fully dressed security guard having a full conversation with an imaginary person supposedly standing right in front of him on the transit today. Thought this was somewhat interesting, as it goes against the typical stereotype of people on public transit talking to themselves being homeless. Oh sure, he definetly isn’t working a security job in that state of mind, however I did find it quite intriguing that he was fully suited up. The vest he had on looked worn through ages, possibly from the 1990s. He was completely clean and would totally pass as a normal security guard had he not been talking to himself. We exchanged dialogue. I said “sir could you tell me who you’re talking to?” And he said “I don’t know, I’m late to work.” Thought this would be an interesting story to share. Maybe those educated on the topic could explain this?",6.519447415329765,8.281537843137254,6.8789898989899,70.51727272727273,65.99346405228758,10.008080808080807,37.43850267379679,10.230975488527342,4.3013843137254915,682,36,110,17,11,221,104,153,0.028999999999999998,0.84,0.132,0.9349,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,1,0,3,0,7,0,0,11,0,16,0,0,0,2,21,26,4,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,2,9,4,0,5,5,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,13,4,8,7,21,7,3,16,0,0,2,0,23,9,0,1,3,71,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18046096371821413,0.0,0.0,0.2748421742152109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15731143966411398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17079915164203138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09459077335468316,0.0,0.1941550036757065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445345819300826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17291424271645622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17378868496469066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16863770855505236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193239678791808,0.1502855623436952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19403558752100794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830671733830657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14698662234708498,0.3274445714596729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.162217843548177,0.0,0.0,0.415022371789909,0.15043748080259148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27328268424860397,0.0,0.0,0.1631463966126056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25060584616965104,0.0,0.0,0.2445333660818634,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwaway_124678,2019/07/05,"Demons? Last time I was having an episode I heard a voice telling me I was about to get a text from a specific person and a half second later I got a text from said specific person. How is this possible if I’m just “hallucinating”? This is one example of unexplainable things that happen to me. I’m only diagnosed with psychosisNoS I assume because I don’t often act out during my episodes and manage to keep them to myself, usually because part of the narrative is that if I reveal my “knowledge” to others I will break the universe.",3.726688241639697,5.875420805825247,5.370420711974113,76.94316073354909,73.95145631067963,8.461272923408847,27.94929881337649,9.150863307647796,2.676763538295577,425,17,75,10,9,144,69,103,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,8,0,8,1,0,1,0,13,16,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,2,6,4,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,5,3,14,0,12,10,1,7,1,0,0,0,6,1,0,4,4,59,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.306140609066115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25486466956166914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13119116477535325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20083033105849932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220499110382212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2231922431432768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20468278873490373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17015416528228566,0.19097545403471414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719205168832127,0.0,0.0,0.4385076140473939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830813592377359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388568394799907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21947544308740616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668219440797891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464204142998004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765549240869908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mayeshayes,2019/07/05,"My experience Hello, all. I'm new to Reddit. Finally decided to join after reading the New Yorker article on ""Fridge Detective."" Anyway... I've been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder since 2006. I was a college student then. Took me forever to finally live away from my parents, whom I lived with until 2013. 2006 & 2008, I experienced off-the-charts psychotic episodes that led to multiple hospitalizations AND jail time. Now, in 2019, I have a full-time job (in a govt agency, no less) plus I'm a grad student (master's). Early this year, then again in April, I experienced the first major psychosis I've had since 2008. Thank goodness I work in a field that actually respects FMLA. I was able to take a few weeks off work because of it. Some have discouraged me from going back to school. They said working full time + grad school is too much for someon like me to handle. They think that's the reason why I went psychotic again. It may have had to do with the stress I was experiencing, but the worst if the stressors were not even school related. And really, the January psychosis was pretty much a direct result of having gone unmedicated for several months. So, I'm fine now for the most part. I'm 100% treatment compliant. I have a very supportive husband who also works full-time at a good job. We have health insurance. We're building our retirement fund. I have a nice, comfortable home filled with love. My husband and I don't want kids, and obviously one of the reasons is cuz of my illness. But we have pets who love us unconditionally. Now that there's more information out there about schizophrenia, I've come to learn that my experience is not unique. A lot of us were in college (young adulthood) when we experienced our first psychosis. A lot of us have been able to manage out symptoms and become high-functioning. I'd like to hear more about others' story of how they've managed their symptoms. I'm never 100%, but I have a lot of grit. I keep pushing on and I know I can achieve what I wanna achieve despite this diagnosis. If it means putting more effort than everyone else, so be it. I'm going through some anxieties work and school related. And because of this, I'm doing whatever I can to prevent another stressor-triggered psychosis. I'm tackling my tasks one step at a time, not letting everything overwhelm me. I'd love to hear about others' success. Your stories will give me hope and inspiration.",4.4339489438608375,6.679302193832601,5.2204845814977965,78.3682576527731,72.21585903083701,8.444956511916862,30.14322828419745,9.127657967737557,2.8261151699988702,1932,84,344,43,39,626,241,454,0.052000000000000005,0.8,0.14800000000000002,0.9933,3,0,0,0,0,0,76.0,8,1,3,12,20,20,0,2,23,0,32,8,0,6,3,57,62,24,0,5,8,3,0,2,0,2,5,3,2,1,18,20,0,3,9,1,1,11,6,4,0,4,14,7,41,16,53,44,18,52,0,2,0,3,28,14,0,10,29,226,59,24,0.16129019599122574,0.0,0.07869798244847592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06449185573082021,0.0,0.08737892998508047,0.0,0.0,0.08456341682402782,0.06169327923130381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07576872424116902,0.06201110243380632,0.0,0.09832100643477633,0.08906617477259071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694686111182362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08185307689957035,0.0,0.0,0.09242626906660416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06736863122238057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053265326644068835,0.0,0.0,0.07705984710455828,0.07247861405251962,0.15777276084152556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17668552590589176,0.0,0.1371933583150018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0773621264583441,0.0916649353158388,0.13528256403592254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08572196803454081,0.18178577309650065,0.0,0.0,0.08520597375548909,0.08089360868897373,0.08009877877850759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16005563203577494,0.07168106851692806,0.0,0.0,0.04432043680687362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246507657306999,0.0,0.07879824267882406,0.0,0.14242219803362613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056847352596242,0.21835604860764887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784615363782128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06437014782098419,0.0,0.11856685234135682,0.0,0.062198471186807776,0.1557750763511526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10929441102673576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954683762022307,0.08733078232181925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820450570976107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107059781111918,0.0,0.0,0.08066692170444596,0.0,0.0516633148117432,0.16583318432318875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07671195573544666,0.0,0.0,0.32646857843144045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09110600602052607,0.0,0.13342091685083807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06833032982844818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09237868728263024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091515101517773,0.0,0.16764227054793435,0.060635077286421875,0.0,0.0,0.07424717122373857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05167412248925268,0.0,0.0,0.1410744155158218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08959967119110286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.291018369959112,0.0,0.0,0.0665406516842843,0.04756656824025357,0.0,0.06468863317475768,0.0,0.0,0.07475881379059646,0.07276965739845914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935529590964384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05193279905577661 schizophrenia,asdfopq,2019/07/05,"I have sz and need help Hello everyone. Im diagnosed with sz. At the moment i have the problem that i cant really accept my diagnosis. Is there anyone here i could talk to who is experienced with it? Thanks in advance",0.6484848484848484,3.149439000000001,3.897272727272728,80.18257575757578,90.8181818181818,7.4787878787878785,20.96969696969697,8.344100000000001,1.8661333333333328,172,6,33,5,6,62,35,44,0.114,0.7609999999999999,0.125,0.1278,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,0,7,8,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,2,5,7,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24636535171171794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813159975514092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3576191804596266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366773786853321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361670636954985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38058925516921793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612567392569352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371432068801329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257189711447521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28319873119814304,0.0,0.3243886916683317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,moltenstopwatch,2019/07/05,"Dissociation while hearing voices? Lately I have been hearing internal voices that are a bit different from what I usually experience. I will be doing some sort of everyday task when I begin to pick up on a conversation between two or more voices. Subject matter can be anything - usually nothing pertaining to my life, however. The tone of the conversation is most often worried, or angry. I will listen to them without fully realizing that I am, if that makes sense -- and this is where the experience differs from my usual hallucinations. I hear every word they say, but at the moment, I will not be thinking ""I am hearing voices"" or ""someone is talking""; it is more as if they occupy my mind for that moment, and I am unable think any thoughts at all until they are finished talking. I become a spectator. After a while, I will realize what is going on, and it will all stop very suddenly. My normal thought processes will start back up. No more voices. Does anyone else experience anything along these lines? I don't know how to categorize it other than ""dissociation while hearing voices"". This is not quite in line with the manner in which I usually hear things, and it has troubled me.",6.868730158730159,7.978628518518523,7.908624338624339,65.84166666666668,64.74074074074073,10.43068783068783,34.87301587301587,10.451354775682146,4.046462698412698,944,42,148,23,14,320,129,216,0.067,0.9279999999999999,0.006,-0.9129999999999999,2,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,4,1,5,1,0,0,9,0,26,1,0,3,2,37,42,17,0,3,9,0,0,0,0,6,1,14,0,0,16,6,0,1,8,0,0,1,5,1,0,1,3,14,23,0,25,30,8,30,0,0,0,0,16,9,0,9,20,128,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0653724898882134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721714697316611,0.09849774062127846,0.1582155187065175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07391893343061605,0.0,0.0,0.10616932106573147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049503363692757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20087321761735827,0.0,0.0,0.08412503186521786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030525456235149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08099465411493176,0.0,0.0,0.2821041817049997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05463355742438224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6500808693651455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05283117521479652,0.0,0.10844014330614277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06790028603269425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641683002960418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09706507453207187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941881328645746,0.09224044719680964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10224732888918107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07644736224554569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08145162565482013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06804213463091095,0.0,0.0,0.08036995989634634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15453318094692406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06386527566570226,0.1231939401317981,0.0,0.15263481693474382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390618153869036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4234995955945788,0.07931828026329299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266701432672557,0.0,0.0,0.09762586618243513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Audiomassacrex,2019/07/05,"Anyone been stuck in psychosis for months? or taken Clozaril for Psychosis ? My closest friend , was diagnosed with bipolar type I in 2015. Feb of 2019, she ended up in the ER due to severe depression. She was going through alot of stress and was off her meds. The depression spiraled into psychosis immediately , and she's been hospitalized since late Feb 2019. They tried several meds on her, ( Abilify, haldol, topamax, olanzipine ) and they had little effect on her. Her doctor now has her on Clozapine ( clozaril ) , she has improved a bit. Her communication is better, she does not cry like before, she's less aggresive now. Our conversations can flow, but her thoughts are still not all there. ( before she would just say/shout random , incoherent things ) Her psychosis is still very present and she is out of touch with reality. She has been on Clozaril for 1 month now, her blood is drawn once a week. Her side effects are mainly weight gain and some constipation. How long does it take for people to snap out of Psychosis? I understand everyone is different, I just dont know how common this is among people with Schizo / bipolar disorders. &#x200B; She is a high functioning person. Business owner and educator. I cant imagine her being released in this state. She is not the person Ive known most of my life. This has been hard and a learning experience at the same time. Any thoughts you can share from your experience is appreciated. Thank you.",5.012209302325584,7.746689542635658,4.976143410852713,78.53305232558141,72.17829457364341,7.865891472868217,29.3546511627907,8.72156446121922,2.588911627906977,1154,48,195,23,24,358,156,258,0.049,0.862,0.08900000000000001,0.9255,2,0,0,0,0,0,48.0,1,3,2,4,10,8,0,1,9,0,30,7,1,4,1,38,39,11,0,1,7,0,3,1,1,1,5,0,0,2,5,13,1,0,9,0,0,2,5,3,1,0,12,3,35,5,31,25,8,37,0,2,0,0,34,19,0,5,16,137,40,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304828849470589,0.14633230125623764,0.0818946658311132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08420553965286183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049494552558376,0.0,0.0,0.10650812427791888,0.13147537657693542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228368931945697,0.0,0.0,0.2074476436397094,0.12223113303714099,0.0,0.12582085414923164,0.13802007228473515,0.12326240265348527,0.2107734120090756,0.0,0.14113985079809974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10666280687976358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507340688995467,0.0,0.23560193520542866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304180166659988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0684415866075404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787916985091324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272380111800171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06618367216973375,0.0,0.1358471937342525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08506133457656602,0.0588346757922476,0.120699751018559,0.0,0.10657433470004796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26753507300948565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19224777857968225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12825110064668171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16697819654133422,0.21030487514259785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957685900517889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720970491076542,0.0,0.09961867320846993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19234672939758626,0.0,0.13794901844549834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09054631150405616,0.0,0.0,0.11087324028900146,0.0,0.0,0.08000651983423407,0.0,0.0,0.19121158377841926,0.0702221032456665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0817622038924077,0.0,0.0,0.12536902384366014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993651009402984,0.0,0.0,0.09659948320911714,0.14664795832073685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08554806965494731,0.0,0.14633230125623764,0.0 schizophrenia,mick-67,2019/07/05,"I’m 15 and just was diagnosed with schizophrenia, and I just feel lost. It happened yesterday, and I actually have Schizoaffective disorder. At first they thought it was onset childhood schizophrenia, but after more tests they found what I really had. I just scared and confused I don’t know what happens from here. Do I still get to go on with my life, or do I have to do something completely different?",4.477876447876447,7.144611729729732,4.478803088803087,81.78067567567571,73.5945945945946,8.552895752895754,30.841698841698843,9.23628265651192,3.0947050193050187,324,15,57,8,7,100,51,74,0.149,0.851,0.0,-0.8656,1,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,2,5,3,0,2,0,0,9,2,0,0,0,16,19,6,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,6,1,10,0,8,13,1,8,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,2,5,44,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.2390959949032471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568900189499244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486816338653644,0.0,0.2559849917668611,0.2808045399657244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12388523536265708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084067563099153,0.0,0.2686425917635939,0.0,0.0,0.1280084574340772,0.0,0.13924574827208108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4333259276118085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13465197713071944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17305895098625382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674591228792079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15696071577185167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452993713026795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18862191300001613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956665938812674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945118558851638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,failtrocity,2019/07/05,"I feel like I am slowly losing myself I’ve struggled with delusions and paranoia since I was 17, was periodic, last a month or so usually in times of stress or abuse. It didn’t usually build up too much in the sense of one big all encompassing delusion, it was more, lots of small triggers that slowly reduced my freedoms... someone using a weed eater as I walked past - I was going to be killed by them. Being brought a cup of tea - it was poisoned. I’m 24 now and things have progressed... I spent a whole month unable to leave my house, afraid of airdropped poison after building paranoia and a major delusion triggered on a ferry. I started getting auditory hallucinations, empty house people calling my name, a baby crying and whispering conversations. Walking, shadow people would point and stare. That was last year And this year, now I’ve spent the last I’m not sure but it seems long time but I cannot keep track anymore. I’m watched, followed, they’re reading my mind and waiting for my guard to be down. I keep seeing and hearing things others don’t and I’m just so scared even though I know this is me, that in reality I am safe. My brain is stuck in a thick fog and I cannot speak and think normally. This week I had an unusual experience where my hand went numb and then my tongue and eyes and I saw this shining person, the opposite of a shadow person reaching out to me. I was speaking trying to talk to my partner but my words were coming out jumbled or swapped. It wasn’t a stroke, CT came out clear. Therapist is working for a way for me to see a psychiatrist because poor student. I hate feeling this way, that I cannot trust what I see, hear or feel. And even I don’t know it’s hard to research psychosis but most things seem to indicate people aren’t aware of themselves being in it... but I am. I want my mind back. I wakt my freedom back. I want to feel again. Today I just sat and stared at the wall all day I didn’t even notice the time pass.",3.30254635549872,5.0264509514066535,4.204468510230182,86.68156210038366,74.01278772378517,6.524328644501279,26.54100063938619,7.1686216300943375,1.2331668158567766,1546,56,309,16,32,498,214,391,0.128,0.804,0.068,-0.9535,2,0,0,0,1,0,47.0,0,0,1,3,15,14,4,4,18,0,30,8,3,3,4,65,68,30,1,4,12,0,8,1,1,1,4,5,0,3,21,22,1,5,9,1,3,9,10,10,0,1,20,22,42,4,36,43,8,56,0,1,9,0,12,19,0,8,27,197,63,4,0.0,0.11243666728274296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09411168824292274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14593888420358406,0.0,0.057847939359654724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10593572022206076,0.09689979210124344,0.10853615347230057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08174481017000193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042391938481487,0.061200300667669065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188034449447322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282684781934557,0.0,0.0,0.19192980074370333,0.06779397749024202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0495794306256713,0.0,0.0539317874362377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500849769248685,0.09369050758798177,0.0,0.0,0.21391018582606408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189953134138322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686964873596269,0.10498876064081053,0.0,0.10430511378047072,0.23205959353425004,0.0,0.10048154172369883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04636156737427055,0.0,0.0,0.08398029107887738,0.0,0.10616475163915176,0.0,0.08067749049062402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19163654039522632,0.0,0.15149073601847232,0.0,0.06975974242958886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09297828294815254,0.0,0.10804013314761836,0.0,0.0,0.06430422847245718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905893119572846,0.1973675593026376,0.16571967987874645,0.0,0.0,0.08970773201829901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949220388256377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500780968542774,0.0,0.2268603344103677,0.17278016148330227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07849924840239329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08040537662647795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06716813099167597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10870345806712467,0.09920627813698536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943869485594752,0.0,0.0,0.07627409837086409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11018198638175768,0.18913477178527288,0.06080575479472225,0.09323519043402358,0.0,0.16600448937372714,0.0,0.08995065194014043,0.0,0.0,0.06442839827675535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08195998510753366,0.2090298641137564,0.0,0.11194466187383577,0.150648624667796,0.07612013474729327,0.0,0.0,0.08796987507704171,0.0,0.10594839534693933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06908567921514525,0.0,0.0,0.06741165038542171,0.0,0.0,0.12222028717936748 schizophrenia,Jacobball001,2019/07/05,"How to discern bipolar 1 schizoaffective with paranoid schizophrenia. Last year I thought the administration of my hospital I worked at was trying to get me in on some pizza gate type shit, felt the presences of Tom petty bourdain Johnny cash and kurt and overall felt like I was on the Truman show. I was put on abilify after/during my hospitilization around Thanksgiving. Chocked it all up to laced weed. Came back into treatment a few months ago after a 5 month depression. Accepted my diagnosis of bp1, but now I am wondering how to discern ""voices"" between just my regular thinking racing thought manic mind.",9.201111111111107,9.559218370370372,8.583703703703705,65.58166666666668,59.74074074074075,11.274074074074075,41.14814814814815,10.864195022040775,4.867192592592593,496,25,74,11,6,157,83,108,0.073,0.895,0.032,-0.5023,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,1,0,5,0,4,3,1,2,1,22,12,5,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,6,1,0,9,1,1,2,0,2,0,0,8,3,10,2,18,4,3,18,0,1,0,0,0,8,1,2,9,49,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19709035855250634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979290998903328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709651838849421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25429690706242164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19150049802686464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4269611568798518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161630982734409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812361902831543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10862374252881454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244992932934825,0.0,0.3549381877434867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22351238920861435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22822807815436355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424660344153445,0.0,0.3530251091756786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15095377793120407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411174672688849,0.1618656455445664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14317920810564774 schizophrenia,3turn,2019/07/05,"Yoga for schizophrenia I have been through all the differing styles of yoga and some cracked me for many years but my shrink suggested Ashtanga. &#x200B; It is something I will continue with as I can practice at home as I dont go out much these days. &#x200B; [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s4SoTXOJUsU](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s4SoTXOJUsU)",12.018400000000007,16.754768040000002,6.4819999999999975,66.40100000000001,58.6,8.0,34.0,8.841846274778883,3.3596000000000004,302,12,38,5,5,77,43,50,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,1,6,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,9,5,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4489931745534604,0.5035312064674915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336241647270813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21647553528729974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24283196103286706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11775416084210293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20783430383359736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21006404349769853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15231276990530473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15950946694867504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5035312064674915,0.13342731660528134 schizophrenia,Divinity5638,2019/07/05,"My psychosis symptoms are 99% gone but theirs one symptom that just won't go away. I have constant delusions that I'm being sucked in by a black hole. I can feel that gravity pull me in it's so bad that it's gotten to the point where I need something that I can use to tell if gravity's actually changing. When I feel it it gives me anxiety and a little panic response then I calm myself down, does anyone else experience this",3.1911822660098537,4.79733829885058,4.5835796387520515,84.33724137931036,74.0574712643678,7.270279146141214,27.37110016420361,7.957251820313856,1.6973100164203618,340,13,68,5,7,113,65,87,0.185,0.782,0.033,-0.9365,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,4,4,1,1,3,0,6,2,0,1,0,8,16,6,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,10,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,3,0,1,2,3,11,1,7,12,0,13,0,0,1,0,3,7,1,1,3,46,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.20647776273103194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618629839660793,0.0,0.0,0.14794610044078474,0.21679522686322114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987923473965,0.0,0.17666577012522394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238303103540595,0.0,0.0,0.22864968448432765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851606468641747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17675325110343376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069720573826937,0.0,0.0,0.2139688391136774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029729135901553,0.12024940269142625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21206511544234904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15688860271296026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433763913997471,0.0,0.0,0.2482510011096825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20001749811753536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16288951479112276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4398384797799629,0.0,0.0,0.18493580206237176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827426777840658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BlackVndetta,2019/07/05,4th of July Good luck to anybody that's struggling and suffering because of the fireworks tonight ❤️,8.893157894736841,8.637101473684211,7.967368421052632,71.78157894736844,60.57894736842106,9.705263157894738,50.57894736842106,8.841846274778883,5.17864210526316,84,6,13,1,1,26,18,19,0.23800000000000002,0.524,0.23800000000000002,-0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4140076259375826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5696444249115329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7100020526961422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Annu_Naki,2019/09/17,"I don’t know what to do about my brother... I NEED SOME GUIDANCE My older brother was diagnosed in a January with paranoid schizophrenia at the age of of 23. We were getting worried because he would have these random outbursts or just talk to himself all day or at the television. He has zero social anymore. Since January, they had prescribed him Risperidone and Trazadone. He was only taking the meds up until around March then stopped. He kept saying it made him feel drowsy and depressed, like he had no drive to do anything. While he was on them, I could see a huge difference in his appearance and how he talks and expresses himself. He’s a lot more calm and he doesn’t just speak nonsense. It’s too bad he stopped because now he’s kinda the same as before. The doctors assigned him to a physiatrist that he goes almost once every other week. I haven’t called up to see what they talk about. It’s been 3 months that he’s seeing them. The odd part is, he still doesn’t believe he has schizophrenia. He thinks it’s just sleep problems. I don’t know how to convince. It’s like he thinks I’m out to get him every time I bring it up to him. To make matters worse, my own parents are in complete denial as to how this could happen to him. They blame themselves, they blame the schools, they even blame his friends he used to hang with all the time. They are convinced that he was always like this, like he was always talking to himself, never had friends, and being a poor student. ALL OF THAT IS FALSE. My brother was the guy I looked up to. He was the guy who you play sports with all the time. The guy that all his classmates would say is funniest guy around. This shit doesn’t happen to just about anyone. It’s a rare disorder. And unfortunately my brother was one of the few who got it. I don’t know what the next step should be. I feel like I’m just riding the wave and hoping it all goes back but I feel worried for the future.",3.026645470246507,4.899694795336792,3.4008337258596337,91.51387109436337,75.13989637305698,5.818684251844872,25.42753964515623,6.42735559955562,0.7614328151986189,1525,53,313,11,33,472,184,386,0.09300000000000001,0.8370000000000001,0.07,-0.7652,1,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,1,1,8,0,18,16,1,0,22,0,37,4,2,6,7,63,65,19,0,8,8,5,3,5,2,3,2,3,0,4,24,15,0,3,8,2,1,6,9,4,0,2,16,10,37,12,42,42,13,40,0,1,4,0,66,14,1,9,25,205,61,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09299332983828272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15454630464205826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09209954957444802,0.06493507566429266,0.0,0.07642199305613509,0.16534342724153006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07140933156917617,0.07754043611959564,0.11322226300057545,0.0,0.07902335427845616,0.10462980703031614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09482804286058802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09736974747297243,0.0,0.0,0.1482941936409305,0.0,0.0,0.05989181822733883,0.0,0.07998659287534142,0.09425850015354924,0.0,0.09702671247055676,0.10643413573439198,0.0950537633968426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0613380704774113,0.0,0.15648965272078327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408697091331102,0.06634452008336056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349831272549635,0.0,0.09703881237355877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07427457804752517,0.0,0.0,0.3678134780513085,0.16424474690578764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09223832551898482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15311255451124026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22685170951955794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07798526314876014,0.0,0.0,0.07895257936297889,0.0,0.08787342033639697,0.0619897395620786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031547940927696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07412590727301145,0.0,0.0,0.06886003252318765,0.07162509740599651,0.0,0.09876557955841024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09890079629978424,0.06292938304069863,0.07062987543316418,0.0,0.0,0.10311830571661687,0.10056639127922612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08886160126153173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477038367526022,0.0,0.09398681062400743,0.2220099862789863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09532709605535204,0.07682090880286392,0.0,0.09293451110460436,0.09466666342002836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07416406021920792,0.15528268193497813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06982475990151409,0.2985733328264671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11901141574833855,0.0,0.0,0.16245525910865008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020765382561254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07449266137566289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18862279322504646,0.09463985865891136,0.13194073451411906,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lukas-on-reddit,2019/09/17,"Do I have schizophrenia Im 18 and male, pretty healthy. So this has been going on for about a year and it got really wierd today so I did a bit of research and I think it’s Schizophrenia. I work in construction, where it’s so loud that we have to wear ear defenders, so I’m basically working 5 days a week and 8 hours a day we’re im just stuck with my thoughts as it’s too loud to have any sort of conversation with anyone else. So I got into a habit of having conversations with myself in my head, thinking nothing of it at first but about a month ago it’s started feeling like I’m having a conversation with someone else. We disagree on things, we argue and stop talking to each other sometimes. And I tried giving this person thingy a name but we never agreed on one lol. So at the start I knew it was just all in my head but when I’m tierd at work it gets to the point we’re I start believing some of the stuff that “he” tells me, a few months ago he told me I was in a coma and that everything idm seeing is just a dream and to get out I needed to walk through a wall so I stopped working went to the toilet and tried to see if my hand would go through the wall if I touched it. And yea it gets a dark sometimes but I kinda know we’re to draw the line and realize it’s all in my head buuuut it’s kinda scary to thing that if this is Schizophrenia then it might get worse.",0.8426712488350461,2.734088260135138,2.622446411929172,94.44054054054057,81.93918918918921,5.569245107176141,20.342031686859286,6.647476241863616,0.09233634669151902,1079,30,251,11,29,357,150,296,0.085,0.8320000000000001,0.083,-0.3753,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,4,0,0,5,15,2,1,0,19,2,15,7,6,0,3,52,42,28,0,5,10,0,3,1,0,2,1,3,0,2,24,22,0,2,7,1,0,4,1,1,0,2,11,8,25,1,38,29,6,40,0,0,2,0,17,17,0,8,20,161,49,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19197657267109394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07363764165574684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07571552177981374,0.11095097249887886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220003265104058,0.0,0.0,0.11821938057470598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13966997715899604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18091676081630065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731974544319164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05475224507386538,0.07735896053025251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09210732629377866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22629816741085898,0.10387702017059082,0.12308193648046087,0.0,0.17321111508110004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.333395532024776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10663909859863067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23393317151713264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059510707873780835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052902673561867085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487347317277455,0.0,0.0,0.17286440923220225,0.0,0.0,0.08029209543425718,0.08351621318903231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039025591416117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07337684638794299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09455045012421104,0.0,0.0,0.10236450430218427,0.0,0.0,0.11016496625923028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06937026475957472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17257855151963955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09174968908946356,0.0,0.21419364117850506,0.0,0.2299344419653114,0.0,0.0,0.18106253308858444,0.0,0.0,0.12396063419580355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703553300441125,0.0946460278926062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438797357040671,0.1387695532646447,0.0,0.08596634435104854,0.0,0.0,0.10264169754768232,0.10347113837845484,0.0,0.14703707036620767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08685984681044774,0.0,0.0,0.10038145490011463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153316285287647,0.0,0.11035185847127098,0.07692269128471818,0.0,0.0,0.06973211133146529 schizophrenia,DustSawHead,2019/09/17,What was your first time hearing voices like? Could it be like your ex friend speking to you with car door noise? Have to know if they actually rented the upstors apartment just to speak to me through walls just to fuck with me.,5.385606060606062,6.503083318181819,4.075454545454543,91.96651515151515,68.0909090909091,6.775757575757575,28.303030303030305,6.42735559955562,0.9615848484848492,182,6,38,1,3,52,35,44,0.067,0.768,0.16399999999999998,0.6199,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,1,1,2,4,1,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,7,7,1,0,2,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,3,6,3,8,4,0,5,0,0,0,1,8,2,1,1,4,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.3789359535647338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100350898787401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33029751486882114,0.0,0.0,0.3000084574519533,0.35898767169282264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4376552176412169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21340581373625075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3794187131579224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264275250091907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,freeletmebe,2019/09/17,"Help my sister! My sister is schizophreniac , she was normal for past 1 year and was about to get married in next two months, but suddenly one night she comes and says to my father that the boy , that we have chosen for her is having affair with another girl and following were the deets she mentioned 1) Name of the girl 2) Said that she received this info on whatsapp and mistakenly she deleted everthing so now there's no proof 3) Her story had many details which made it clear that this was something she was making up by herself. Now she says she won't marry the guy, this will cause stigma in society for her and no more proposals will come for her if she doesn't marry this guy, what can my family do.",6.233039568345323,6.184939309352522,6.381933453237412,80.25405125899282,65.97841726618705,9.539928057553956,28.885791366906474,9.188382445141503,2.2116827338129497,560,16,109,9,8,179,93,139,0.066,0.898,0.036000000000000004,-0.6408,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,0,16,0,0,3,2,19,23,8,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,5,11,9,0,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,8,3,19,0,14,12,1,16,0,0,0,0,31,4,0,1,8,80,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21677031543459852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123646253410298,0.0,0.35615241934322445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948829462762057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10800584239091136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4093826332780546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13856413112495286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19560921151152236,0.13799126096518122,0.2095877940943363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16500678155854415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21985552705175726,0.1939984182906941,0.20254766235004046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14008293919110182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19734343105774835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19664383804383848,0.32879374597913585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15914783300504504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20194133775035375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331248151449294 schizophrenia,nocturne_r,2019/09/17,"Just started posting music! Hey! I've been on this sub for a while now as I was diagnosed witch (simple) schizophrenia myself. I just wanna say you are awesome and I hope you're feeling at least as great as I am. Anyway, I just raised my little hobby of music production to the next level and started posting some songs on soundcloud. You may like it... or not... doesn't matter... here is the link to my latest upload [https://soundcloud.com/omegamusic1/utopia](https://soundcloud.com/omegamusic1/utopia) cheers :)",7.250753012048192,10.675823397590364,5.800828313253014,71.95256777108438,68.03614457831326,5.595783132530121,23.62801204819277,6.6274283507984215,0.9141578313253014,414,11,60,3,8,122,64,83,0.027000000000000003,0.7340000000000001,0.239,0.96,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,2,0,0,6,5,0,0,3,0,7,1,0,0,0,14,11,7,0,2,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,3,10,4,11,8,2,13,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,4,7,46,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909764141778046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14495514202273352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31606815472945826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28474012598924936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14005844964343073,0.2873308941091331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3048897885844067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5491246324408461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279812043930433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4058302954339677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Isingforlove,2019/09/17,"Can I be loved despite having schizoaffective? In today's world, where people throw away other people over much less, I feel unlovable. I had a friend leave me when I told her. It's not ""cool"" to be associated with someone who has schizoanything I guess. I can't believe people are so shallow. It just sucks.",3.217816091954024,5.874367793103449,3.642068965517243,86.16816091954023,77.9655172413793,5.2459770114942526,23.459770114942533,6.42735559955562,0.716783908045977,244,8,44,2,6,76,48,58,0.124,0.7509999999999999,0.124,0.2449,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,1,1,8,1,0,0,0,5,13,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,2,8,3,5,9,2,8,0,0,0,1,5,5,1,1,2,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25524131931413885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060771541503064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13736365987610266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20989026182407325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992732707947383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876575136883928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24519125573695785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19970746585494886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5650217982110518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23018367683043195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25750979182724976,0.2595907115778805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ValkaMoon,2019/09/17,everything is bad rn my life is a disaster rn. i cant afford my meds. i havent been able to afford food and ive lost now 10kg from having nothing to eat. all i can hear is screaming n in a few hours its my birthdy ad i just want to cry and end everythin,-2.5054425612052738,-0.7810535593220322,0.9666666666666652,99.80822975517893,101.54237288135592,4.656120527306968,16.725047080979284,6.42735559955562,-0.3026399246704332,196,6,51,3,9,70,44,59,0.265,0.713,0.022000000000000002,-0.9359999999999999,2,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,0,9,3,0,0,1,5,12,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,2,8,0,5,10,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,30,9,0,0.27279039239458475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22776858318717574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29964743679544603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791326736157799,0.0,0.0,0.2416113191834588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451664150582106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3298592252946799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3074545980305278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26864358706863384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926799215186304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29778293761818114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30300862975849746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617497387001718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16089884118968334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,katoswashington,2019/09/17,Question: Is there any portrayals in Media that has been accurate? Do you think Media has portrayed schizophrenia in a good light? I feel as if schizophrenia has been portrayed badly.,6.37505376344086,9.597130161290323,4.807741935483873,78.99827956989247,69.96774193548387,6.713978494623658,32.913978494623656,7.793537801064563,2.8146688172043017,149,7,21,2,3,43,24,31,0.10400000000000001,0.809,0.087,-0.1431,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,4,9,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,2,1,3,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3495751979998933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4292146620091534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599217802508406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43116515487678975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5758595275554309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32938584783601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,InfernoInfinity,2019/09/17,"How can I connect and communicate with my younger brother? My (27F) little brother (23M) was diagnosed with schizophrenia two years ago. The whole family, myself included, was in denial of that diagnosis for a long time. I think I'm finally on board. Do y'all have any tips for communicating, connecting, or otherwise spending time with lil bro? I love him, and we bond over music, but conversations are pretty much impossible. Very little of what he says makes sense or is a coherent thought, and he doesn't talk that much to begin with. As far as I'm aware he doesn't stick to his medication, and is on and off illegal drugs (more off than on lately, so I'm proud of him for that). He also will randomly tear up, get really sad, or just non compliant. I want to take him out for meals and stuff but he'll get into strange conversations with strangers and make them uncomfortable. It pisses me off, just play along, he's not going to hurt you. But I can't really blame them when even I can't hold a conversation with him. Appreciate any insight!",4.6020895522388034,6.1249068208955215,5.721572139303483,77.90862686567165,70.34328358208955,9.738109452736321,27.827860696517412,10.047579312681364,2.7354302487562188,825,29,161,22,15,274,133,201,0.085,0.789,0.126,0.8212,1,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,1,2,2,1,7,6,1,0,4,0,13,6,1,3,0,35,28,19,0,1,9,3,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,6,17,1,1,3,1,1,1,5,3,0,1,3,1,20,3,32,23,4,24,0,2,0,1,25,14,1,4,9,101,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15100756681564848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13623115210638145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316916264887834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17290460699445726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19755527984226293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125164834197266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16059355253807522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18661327451288254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17800471776366655,0.0,0.09681547851526548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18236630213419672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19216549057745871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34147671703004484,0.0,0.15075695527921085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537501427331451,0.0,0.2274237663279085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716126241153093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504579642351814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17331014166646005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218264858986682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13547146307059346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19501331324321008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12808417967171554,0.13692320768760308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915525938933368,0.0,0.13524117352307174,0.1986682911681232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664100294730624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14055898280699375,0.10047855375977008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190192928531538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10970168197682388 schizophrenia,tosstheaccountaway19,2019/09/17,"Does anyone else have trouble getting people to believe they've been sick? I had two psychotic breaks about a year apart, but was able to recover with medication. Now I have a full time job. People don't believe Ive ever had any issues because I function normally. I do hear voices but since I can ignore them they don't pose any issues. I never plan on going off my meds again because the relapse was so brutal and I had to rebuild my life. However I have people now telling me I'm too normal to have been that sick. Has anyone got advice or had similar experiences?",2.669123376623375,5.022701107142861,4.395194805194809,81.68616883116884,78.10714285714286,6.572727272727272,25.36038961038961,7.686295010490155,1.6405250000000002,452,17,81,7,11,152,76,112,0.174,0.826,0.0,-0.9658,2,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,1,7,3,1,0,3,0,18,4,0,0,2,10,23,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,9,2,14,0,8,14,1,13,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,7,56,15,1,0.15986974242861918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15622286203837968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21743381403704806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235692821254993,0.1638054436502187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19491022225436933,0.0,0.0,0.36023690751715576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13990308894246736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13355065576182348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461133474217147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15638328469362744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08352534203866893,0.0,0.0908576588218443,0.0,0.12786243739907452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18018481869602265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3337249512648403,0.15864605105446825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292072698730972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775792437846189,0.16105194634690198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233014010179489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3132768080394803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33250064976652544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13224590298528782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13973320142674722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322133244854036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15616950837063265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102950872588634 schizophrenia,Younganddone475,2019/09/30,"Illness vs. Personality ? My mother is a schizophrenic. She has been in and out of the psych hospital all her life and thinks she’s “normal,” therefore she doesn’t need to take her meds. She was stable on palperidone injections for a time but then once again, said she was ”normal” and stopped going to the appointment for the injections. At what point is that the illness speaking, or is it actually her? I’m just curious as to what is going on with her brain. Any insights would be greatly appreciated!",4.640564516129032,6.943735354838707,5.311491935483872,77.68723790322579,71.79569892473118,8.520967741935483,29.90456989247312,9.188382445141503,2.815689247311828,400,17,71,9,8,129,67,93,0.078,0.821,0.10099999999999999,0.5174,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,0,11,5,1,1,1,18,18,7,0,4,4,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,4,5,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,2,10,1,13,12,1,12,0,0,0,0,13,6,0,1,4,53,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.23323805037995604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16253413746220746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668127959908305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716683469651649,0.0,0.0,0.26350797687417743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16881893962785924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654848267050703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17722195039120686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.468355632789798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545365050414276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086932105925582,0.0,0.0,0.22594051139338064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22735204181737656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998220066569635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797048255993363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15314714824333775,0.0,0.0,0.13936791689649095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697849496278322,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Childsoldier171,2019/09/30,"Sociopathic tendencies on quetiapine Hi I am me, I’ve been on quetiapine for some time now and I’ve been feeling abit different in a way,there’s a place where the dark parts of me stay and he’s been speaking to me a lot lately, he’s shared his mind and thoughts with me. Some days I am not myself,he is in control and I am hibernating. Dark thoughts always escalating,hurting people in a way this side of me finds happiness in. This other me is me In another earth,a darker earth.",2.3738321995464844,4.401416020408167,4.4301360544217685,82.695022675737,77.57142857142857,8.029024943310658,26.19501133786848,8.841846274778883,2.0718467120181407,382,15,79,9,9,131,58,98,0.0,0.9129999999999999,0.087,0.7579,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,5,0,8,0,0,1,0,15,11,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,11,2,12,6,4,16,0,0,0,0,6,10,0,3,4,50,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18511452062216546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23328128308987156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24952125811744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14347603129070896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23243588267129445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124885245525867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20333537182612535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23682557414859115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23816087053612306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509580990968988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18913773337397427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246332940053178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24091548944469315,0.0,0.15423406859848804,0.0,0.23243588267129445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23712554444857986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532358252774145,0.12972520860160555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35317582676775106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AnarchyApple,2019/09/30,"Developing symptoms for schizophrenia? I'm 19 and male, and I've never considered myself to have any mental illness until about a year and a half ago. Around March I was given an SSRI to treat various anxieties I had. At the time I described them as ""a worry people secretly hate me and don't want me around"" which I realize now is a mild way of putting it. Since I was around 14 I've had a fear that one day when me and my friends are hanging out (especially late at night or in a secluded place) that they're going to jump me and kill me. I've also been experiencing hallucinations in my periphery, sometimes limbs, shadows, but mostly cats for some strange reason. I experience them most when going through withdrawal for not being able to afford the meds but the prescription never described hallucinations as a side effect, and my friends who do take it have never had any similar issues. I also have a familial history of schizophrenia, as one of my cousin's have it. I'm aware these could be false flags but I wanted to consult people about this. I'm calling my doctor tomorrow to schedule an appointment and I'd appreciate your guys' insight",6.874890613973186,7.302810596330278,7.51330275229358,71.06377205363447,64.59633027522936,10.560903316866623,34.659139026111504,10.389873798559362,3.6981273112208894,922,39,161,21,13,306,134,218,0.075,0.863,0.061,0.0101,1,0,0,0,0,1,19.0,0,1,2,1,10,6,2,1,13,0,17,3,0,2,3,31,27,20,1,3,5,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,9,12,0,0,5,0,0,5,5,3,0,3,7,1,22,3,27,17,4,32,0,0,0,0,12,10,0,4,16,116,31,2,0.138801576108365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303922241219173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2219991405324625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18877966292508835,0.0,0.1061828258062786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37068849113839947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14173192815319294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11082176413548793,0.0,0.0,0.08951553382200263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14206929467328633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357745753682586,0.13084977293103853,0.15619036225709007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21447550677825256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15776826877192093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13743538269999056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13703782022795089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14487278367552697,0.0,0.0,0.15356337879950094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565742236213406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15417726048093175,0.0,0.13987934223812004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3211569970215412,0.0,0.0,0.13025587650106926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881110803681044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19245507225048367,0.0,0.14501810462370002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953392124147285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427111376092555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11481809809275005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13727830791828408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442679837508789,0.10436151116420897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08093631524149461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637375316270919,0.11017423043325296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14095973812688414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08938366422535615 schizophrenia,vl1316,2019/09/30,"Do people lead normal lives after being diagnosed with schizophrenia? My mother was diagnosed 4-5 years ago when she was 45 and when I was only 15. She has continuously taken her medication along with doing adjustments of her medication throughout the years for the better (or worse). She gets better for a while, and then gets worse, and just repeats the cycle over and over. Shes single, 50, with zero savings. Its really fucked me up mentally and at only 19 Im emotionally exhausted because I don’t know how i’m going to take care of her. Its so difficult to handle everything, and the anger that comes with seeing her get worse feels so shitty. I don’t know if shes just not getting the right help? Getting the right medications? Are medications now a days just not advanced enough for my mother to lead a “normal” life?",5.579777126099707,7.022434883870968,6.501583577712612,73.54692082111438,67.90322580645162,9.249266862170089,27.639296187683293,9.573946990214177,2.6020322580645163,657,21,113,14,11,218,95,155,0.16,0.7709999999999999,0.069,-0.9453,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,5,9,8,2,0,9,0,12,9,0,3,0,29,28,15,0,3,7,2,1,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,3,12,0,0,4,0,0,5,4,4,0,1,4,2,15,4,18,23,2,23,0,0,1,1,12,6,1,2,12,79,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10950698889674006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753062467493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21851466418116286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595293062991875,0.0,0.0,0.10641511025767324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07967033906872675,0.0,0.0,0.25077237224082105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13896109160019168,0.0,0.12764545322004756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110259667145919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062463387172221885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420681049922053,0.32271165383901146,0.0,0.07020821376286887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08280340938642043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13343980913647724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13578403522259574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08725695380428987,0.0,0.0,0.1090843307712966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4977970871215484,0.12449498035705485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24207761228926855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879090096340912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564413463802388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914016493882832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21099771149126387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09844199874041308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288350999179944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776804504490764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15910594579482856 schizophrenia,peanutjellysandwich_,2019/09/30,"Hallucinations with no delusions So since the begging of this year ive been having some visual and auditory hallucinations. I heard some small talk that didn't happen I saw a person walking fast to my bathroom, and there was no one there. I hears bells, saw something hitting the car window and heard a sound and it was nothing at all, i saw yellow sheets going through a door. No sense at all. And ive been having a lot of peripheral vision hallucinations. At the moment sometimes i believe the hallucination, but once i get enough evidence it was not real, i can understand it was an hallucination. So i am confused of what they mean. Ive been told since i can do that it's not schzophrenia, but am i developing it? Like, the symptoms don't come all at the same time right? I have ocd and i had some serious suicidal ideation for a month recently. Now sometimes i don't trust things i hear or see until i confirm they are real. Like, seeing my mom laying in the sofa in my peripheral vision. I have to look directly at her till i see it's really her. Guess that's a natural reaction lol. So, the thing is Can you just have hallucinations with no delusions and be developing schzophrenia?",3.2315760222310423,5.646440043668123,4.9071000396982924,78.42086443032952,76.51091703056768,7.657086145295754,26.566296149265586,8.575989854853784,2.1377580786026207,946,37,176,20,22,319,124,229,0.102,0.82,0.078,-0.6498,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,2,0,7,5,0,1,15,1,28,1,0,0,3,30,48,15,1,0,6,1,0,2,0,0,1,5,3,1,13,10,0,0,2,0,0,4,9,2,0,1,15,13,28,3,18,31,9,22,0,0,8,0,13,9,0,7,11,132,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638174576110835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252503329151175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15023839633487762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596617055801963,0.0,0.08263490143347366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601759088771189,0.0,0.12857787674350787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32775563283993303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14207144737428168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12210045973285215,0.0,0.0,0.12361497349730342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15838462596758815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702922284783004,0.1160579190312492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13951645511712865,0.0,0.0,0.15484762387880469,0.09852767420066356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12695879427839646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3309969910231204,0.09314778682786556,0.0,0.1435662282803742,0.0,0.0,0.12417190352299197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3475979985890372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405548921219309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11193701339084072,0.2876111789039397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15904540696489866,0.0,0.0,0.15112760899334424,0.0,0.11686804573750133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19319630675565894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08478465897395708,0.0,0.0,0.13893715951520286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513678662585284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936336608181072 schizophrenia,alkire0800,2019/09/30,"i have schizophrenia with audio hallucinations and i take tums and it works so ive been on a lot of medications and none of them have worked i started thinking i might be under spiritual attack or phsycic attack because they never stop and we have fluid conversation they are LOUD and ABNOXIOUS and give me head aches and stress me out to the point of wanting to scream. so i thought well if i calcify my pineal gland i can stop them. and then i realized after a while of not taking tums anymore that when i DO take a tums the voices get quieter to the point of me having a manageable time. why do tums work? where medication does not?",3.0324731182795683,5.4243326774193585,4.2367741935483885,83.09182795698926,77.06451612903227,7.036559139784948,24.849462365591396,8.07648339933343,1.5819268817204302,508,18,97,9,12,166,81,124,0.115,0.835,0.05,-0.8362,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,4,3,5,5,2,1,7,0,12,4,1,0,1,24,21,15,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,2,11,0,2,3,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,2,4,19,1,13,17,2,15,0,0,0,0,7,6,0,4,9,74,21,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16207969838102032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3718528536584946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09962605855263117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14301962379875913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0853859845864132,0.15677796677982267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677274195918833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389432446595316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292792025208825,0.0,0.1733745301067358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12604811030797808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089903585714223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11567734693959635,0.0,0.0,0.2732713717722654,0.18720972947606632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3686394583900676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047200255458173,0.0,0.12974600789200544,0.09529796659666352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963958747878537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14694415212232104,0.0,0.14747111348261274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3569392790214041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,whjh1111,2019/09/30,"An adolescent boy with problems I’ve got so much shit on my plate and I’m only starting to realize it now. I’m delusional, I suffer from OCD intrusive thoughts (like pedophilia, homosexuality, being transgender) I’m depressed, most likely have anxiety (like social anxiety) and I’m very paranoid around people. I’m paranoid because I feel like whenever I think something about anyone they can know somehow. If the person I’m thinking about is upstairs taking a shower and I’m downstairs. I get anxiety because I feel like they might know I thought about them. I daydream a lot in my bed and listen to music and fantasize about an idealistic version of myself. Good looking, good personality, hot, good with girls, girls like me. I thought this was maladaptive daydreaming because I do it everyday and it’s going to be very hard to stop. I just love doing it. I also move around in my bed when I fantasize too. If I do a fast movement in the fantasy then I’ll probably move on the bed or something. If I start crying in the fantasy, than I’ll try acting out the same in my bed. If you saw me in my bed you’d probably see a chubby kid in his bed getting emotional. I think I might experience delusions of grandeur because when I’m around people in RL I feel more unique or different than them. I feel nicer and kinder than them. I know it’s all bullshit I’m just your average everyday citizen. But those feelings I get around people are hard to shake off. I just can’t not feel grand about myself. I now worry about having schizophrenia. It’s just weird because I don’t think I experience any hallucinations. If hallucinations involve seeing Barney the dinosaur looking at you in the dark when you wake up when you were sleeping, then no I don’t experience that. I just hate everything I worry about. Being a pedophile, being transgender, being bisexual, being delusional, having schizophrenia, having grandeur delusions. I even get anxiety when holding a knife when I’m sitting with my mom. I know I’m not going to stab her or any other fucked up shit like that but I just feel bad. It’s weird. I get anxiety too. Why do I have to be like this. I don’t mind having problems but why so many? Why do I have to worry about all this fucking bullshit. Why do I fear it all? FUCK YOU JESUS!! AND FUCK YOU TOO DAD FOR PRODUCING THAT SPERM!! YOU SHOULD’VE ADOPTED!!AAAHAHAHAHAHABABBBBBHH!!!!",3.1791140255696564,5.847699740576497,4.531054394489786,79.66826815115347,78.20177383592019,7.385969712695192,27.99929235269143,8.399286722034276,2.396348643675992,1897,83,336,40,47,626,195,451,0.18100000000000002,0.748,0.071,-0.9935,2,0,2,0,0,0,60.0,0,9,5,1,34,29,7,2,15,0,32,9,4,1,3,69,84,30,0,7,19,2,10,8,0,2,0,1,7,7,16,16,0,2,19,2,0,7,7,16,0,0,7,16,61,13,46,67,9,44,1,2,5,5,29,20,6,13,24,223,77,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05530323424406755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09405555259557984,0.0,0.2645169559745641,0.0,0.0,0.04835478894310344,0.0,0.0,0.24625047235572994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05774154237539511,0.21078125246814608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596352810073127,0.0,0.0,0.059563106336563726,0.0,0.0,0.07225226359344786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07779007505005271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04567623001544302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06215206129843648,0.2029406004357467,0.0,0.0778186092959808,0.24476794648327715,0.09880870187162916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557307590968653,0.18065318487774967,0.0,0.07860476849817981,0.1740118169163174,0.05530957665921535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12389860598253008,0.06827625236913543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15202313351070648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270285146768095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11614557776835867,0.0,0.0,0.0587931140844087,0.06241509395729208,0.0,0.0,0.07011232295676256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14672506825176987,0.06982684335916052,0.08099350858034451,0.0,0.14700165664831474,0.05083688734267743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05259549919222449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14383012362029055,0.1207669696453329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14912158842368778,0.13234400453653147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021517436156013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419732421394633,0.0,0.0,0.06920495008316085,0.07049482090833176,0.0,0.10647780624568502,0.0,0.0,0.09789654001915317,0.0,0.0,0.057816682545377314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05199595894052717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17724694493565846,0.0,0.16470405299696522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04695171041049195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11412024681715828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24960655036907534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21069079991704476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,domiy2,2019/09/30,"So I think I am pre schizophrenic So over the course of a year I notice some things about my life that does not seem normal, but never really connected the dots. 1. I have always heard voices around nothing bad a few times just random screams 2. Objects just seem to be created out of nonthing. 3. I have the feeling of bugs traveling up my body and I can feel each leg that goes along my back when i work out. 4. Some paranoia and feel like I can hear people thoughts. 5. Again not so much voices, but noises that are not real but seem like they are. Some things about be 1. Male almost 21 2. Have an excessive amount of dopamine production (to the point where I can't be depressed) 3. Had 2 closeish death experience when I was before 10. 4. Had to dealt was real and not when I was really young (like finding out the spongebob was not real) 5. When I see someone get hurt in anyway my body naturaly inflicts the pain on myself. (I can't watch people break any body parts I be on the floor for 20 or some minutes) So basically my symptoms seem to get worst by month, but still manageable for now. I was wondering could this be pre schizophrenic symptoms that may move to schizophrenia or could this be anything else. The reason that bring this up is some reasherch I did it seems like it could be schizophrenia, but I was wondering if it could be anything else.",2.5622558340535875,4.859463561797757,3.2644382022471947,89.94880942091619,78.17602996254682,6.354883318928263,23.377845001440505,7.468242284971852,0.9961352348026504,1069,35,215,15,26,336,145,267,0.091,0.8440000000000001,0.064,-0.8904,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,1,1,19,10,0,0,11,0,33,10,4,1,1,55,51,19,1,6,15,0,3,4,0,1,6,5,0,1,13,9,0,0,14,1,0,3,8,6,0,0,11,10,24,4,25,27,11,30,0,2,2,0,4,13,0,18,17,149,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09676473224264646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804070131362413,0.0,0.0,0.06571425714811288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15904266915457854,0.0860245164515103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07430538148202841,0.08068513679571304,0.0,0.0,0.08222819562401218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220149030244633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086167140322458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08323049896206312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08456483738094316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16145018057837526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452634062034683,0.0,0.0,0.14658276791539632,0.06903516341223015,0.0,0.0,0.08832148800934253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10097428184151604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10891324849739344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10344841766801806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06825526860630385,0.18884145749911568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771321296053146,0.10270637298493668,0.07103691797571443,0.0,0.0745298978367319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946805482542778,0.09272268008933468,0.11001815386917654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282511291448464,0.0,0.0,0.1046449239065471,0.0,0.13398733646797048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09135011941311773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32997105699900914,0.12381209702925358,0.09935557940344224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07700457984401904,0.4398586395121949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08187745460767183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771718298680043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20087891323774787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12839832642469884,0.06191899891493832,0.0,0.0767163957419751,0.05634791110428947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20959033857387602,0.07035051387490789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062228960521838315 schizophrenia,justaveragejade,2019/09/30,"Hello everyone, I’m a student mental health nurse and currently writing about schizophrenia. I was wondering if people could please help me with how they present themselves to doctors the first time before you were diagnosed. I want to get everything right as I will be using schizophrenia as my main topic and thought who’s better than asking people who really have this than just reading about symptoms etc. Any help would be perfect (it’s ok if not) even any symptoms you experience now would be helping but I’m focusing on the first presentation to doctors etc. And the symptoms you presented with and if you knew you had schizophrenia or not? How did you react when they told you had it? Thank you, hope you’re having a good day.",7.731499999999998,8.317220103703704,6.899398148148147,75.6535416666667,62.77777777777778,9.712962962962962,35.393518518518526,9.516144504307137,3.3594629629629624,594,25,100,10,8,182,88,135,0.0,0.818,0.182,0.9653,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,8,2,4,8,6,0,0,5,1,14,7,0,4,1,28,26,14,0,8,8,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,8,0,15,6,12,11,3,12,0,0,0,0,19,2,0,6,10,73,20,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18924700936311148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300819749147923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11840231315477995,0.0,0.0,0.12306261822984944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11109611655206532,0.0,0.0,0.08973714013928932,0.0,0.0,0.141229444821517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848420081130779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103673495259552,0.09190408956047544,0.0,0.0,0.13295919758716945,0.1250547299111254,0.1361107014275452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23671366504401814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269762183427346,0.0,0.0,0.11670838859403312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479048364837898,0.0,0.0,0.27979827520416145,0.0,0.0,0.13820257571562974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14022563013447015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19293151760006275,0.0,0.0,0.1527396405437303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391828505330077,0.0,0.0891399754886923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882923699387918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4338754087488848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12810620160757516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11046574284909688,0.0811366826859997,0.0,0.0,0.13295919758716945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12017677346631475,0.0,0.0,0.08207144164999712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15089702938096386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976895097462523,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SativaLord420,2019/09/30,"Schizophrenia or espionage? Hi everyone, So for the last few I have been hearing voices. It has unfortunately lead to several legal charges and hospitalizations for me. Antipsychotics don’t seem to help my voices at all, and it seems as if I have been living with implant as that are treated As top secret in lieu of all standard hallucinations. I have seen some very vivid “hallucinations” that have led me to believe I am living a life with alien technologies installed in my body. When I listen to my sandisk clip mp3 player on FM radio, the empty static channels sound as if I am speaking to other individuals through careful listening And thought responses. It seems like A small portion of the population can actually her my thoughts as well, which has made it hard to cope with my “unspecified schizophrenia” due to my offensive thinking. It sounds like I’m “loaded” per the individuals lingo on “the grid”.my orders have frequently asked me to seek help by contacting FBI or CIA agents, which has become such a nuisance with local police. I’ve been told there is a bump or some sort of cyst on the ear of other skin that are also loaded. Does this sounded like a standard case of schizophrenia or am I late bloomer in the field of espionage that is looking at more criminal charges because he couldn’t get enough control as understanding of his spy loadout?Am I full on hallucinating or is there more to it than my diagnosis of unspecified schizophrenia? Where/How can I learn to use the tools installed in my body?",8.72608695652174,8.752267840579716,8.30266666666667,68.30900000000003,60.81159420289855,10.9831884057971,38.68985507246377,10.504223727775694,4.145139420289855,1228,56,206,25,15,391,160,276,0.059000000000000004,0.866,0.075,0.5215,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,3,7,7,1,0,13,0,23,6,4,5,2,36,42,19,0,3,7,0,2,3,0,0,2,10,0,0,15,7,0,1,9,2,0,2,2,1,1,0,8,15,22,6,43,33,10,22,0,0,3,0,14,14,0,13,8,142,37,4,0.0,0.0,0.14604004947735333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196777034021374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13990564952493614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122727290879858,0.1652803307767599,0.0,0.1686080406342182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324621961496808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15258153038075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16784892010668473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309626260554149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15463188114046866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430001574847859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07818768133174793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340599769741869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16867016454121314,0.0,0.20061892743165205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12198742718004085,0.1688154598259325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570456345267763,0.21933915396900025,0.0,0.2642932410766901,0.0,0.12567109498774556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14160558685207192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4087162771745164,0.0,0.1690656508968655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958918026897324,0.0,0.2376160342534902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430001574847859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579438062958995,0.0,0.12925241610629895,0.0,0.12347965934946792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13455630447262093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BradleyAnderson4243,2019/09/30,Hi Help me please! Hi everyone Im a dopamine junkie I know about did I just got a psychotic episode last night not sure? Can you help me out I m porn addict and watching too much porn desinsjtized my dopamine receptor means low motivation drive focus etc as you all must know about dopamine So I researched a lot about what is dopmine and how it causes people to create addiction my problem and Im very depressed I tried to think about committing suicide because of low dopamine receptor My subconscious mind now think that DOPAMINE IS LIFE! if you dont have it then you are a not leaving a great life SO I google about it and asked psychiatrist for how to increase this neurotransmitter to much so i can enjoy everyday of my life now the problem was that I m very much curious about dopamine and how to increase it my main motto was that dopamine is life the more the receptor the greater the effect so youtube helped me a lot in this things there was a video about dopamine fast and how to increase receptor and now also doing cold shower HIIT workout I heard that dping hiit workout increase the dopamine receptors fast the problem was that I think my dopamine receptor have grown too much because after doing this painful things my dopamine receptor must be grown lastnight I was reading a book and then I slept but I cant be able to sleep because my brain was hallucination vived dreams looks like my brain was controlling me Im scared I didnt even get a good night sleep I saw a clown trying to hurt me but my creativity was aw...man its was really to the next level Im feeling good also but bad inside I also saw that Insecets in my dream was it a psychotic episode? I never experience this thing in my life help me also seeing illusions like hynotizing now I changed my mind that more dopamine means less happiness because I got scared from this incident I also heard that more dopamine receptor=Schizophrenia even though I dont have that not also my family member have this but I think due to dopamine fast I increased my receptor to the next level help me fuck schizphrenia is that a psychotic eisode I dont k ow what is a pschotic episode so help me 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schizophrenia,ISuperkickBabies,2019/09/30,"i think i may be under MK ultra so i've always been sort of a pushover and i've dealt with anxiety and depression which has led to drug use which has since triggered schizo traits. it caused me to believe people could read my thoughts and i was some sort of alien and not of this planet or that i was God, Jesus, the antichrist or the devil. i have also been big into conspiracy theories which has led me to believe that i've been chipped and im being monitored constantly because i've searched deep into things too much and i've been close to discovering who/what i really am and it seems like everyone around me is a handler of some sort and they dont really care for me cuz sometimes i hear them say something negative about me and not sure if they're taking advantage of my schizo mindset by saying something cuz they can get away with it easily by saying its just me being crazy (if that makes sense). sorry to be rambling but i feel that ppl see me as a threat cuz whenever i speak my mind or get angry lately its like god forbid i show my true emotions and i get shutdown as an asshole more so than other ppl like im a monster. i've never been a bad person (imo) but i feel like im being treated as such cuz ppl have been crying around me lately and i feel like my thoughts have something to do with it or they know what they're up to and they know i have broken through the 'matrix' of sorts and feel bad because im aware now. it just feels like everyones in on it and im just becoming awaken to it and ppl are doing everything they can to make out to be crazy like they want me to snap and cause another shooting or some sorts to push an agenda. anyways just thoughts i've been having and im scared. thanks for reading if you 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schizophrenia,dragoono,2019/09/30,"What are triggering places for your schizophrenia? I've noticed my boyfriend gets really off when we go into a grocery store. I have bad social anxiety, so I kind of get a similar way and I think it's because of the large crowds of people that set him off. What are some other places I should either avoid or give him extra care when we go into them? Would movie theaters have similar effects?",4.3630701754385965,6.1564267105263175,4.721052631578949,83.77570175438599,71.36842105263158,7.698245614035088,27.14035087719298,8.344100000000001,1.8976035087719303,314,11,58,5,6,99,58,76,0.106,0.852,0.043,-0.5775,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,2,1,1,1,3,4,0,1,3,0,6,0,0,2,0,14,13,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,11,2,8,11,3,12,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,2,2,41,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18994865713638834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20731995033703693,0.1513612452870522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253158180770381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594527806243162,0.23819178064572086,0.2822289816117059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585660183620637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2826909527845289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17213980818216454,0.0,0.5188408582003906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590672013869169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253110363327624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15910047735887478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19708881321365213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17638504434453767,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,XylophagousXylophone,2019/09/30,"Does anybody else experience this? Sometimes I experience my brain feeling ""lighter"" and I have a sudden burst of energy that lasts for a few seconds. During those few seconds, it feels as though all of my regular symptoms are suddenly a lot more intense, and my thoughts are cycling through many unrelated things.",9.724444444444442,10.212535148148149,8.692962962962962,64.79833333333333,58.62962962962963,11.644444444444444,47.62962962962963,11.20814326018867,5.8264518518518535,254,16,38,6,3,79,43,54,0.0,0.899,0.10099999999999999,0.4927,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,3,2,1,0,1,7,6,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,5,0,5,5,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976041077280509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332958822678039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22270286023642452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5215549799553061,0.0,0.0,0.26959318810038896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21730752739720596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266464278608877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27028178035211764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26366565662394703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770904831383201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771114435543748,0.0,0.2619246426022243,0.2116437491436995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Thewaronnormies,2019/09/30,"I think I have Schizophrenia. I'm not really gonna be able to fit *everything* into this post but here it goes. I'm seeing a therapist at the moment, because most commonly I hear very intrusive voices or thoughts in my head. I just hear a faint whisper most of the time but other times if something isn't orderly they flare up and talk louder. They all have attributes, two feminine, three masculine. My therapist still doesn't know about the faint whispering I hear, or the fact that they push me towards self harm. I don't really know what to do or say to my therapist, anyone have advice?",3.688421052631576,5.845311526315792,4.589333333333332,82.46400000000001,74.08771929824562,8.770526315789473,26.31228070175439,9.3871,2.477834385964913,470,17,88,12,10,152,80,114,0.045,0.938,0.017,-0.6124,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,6,0,8,3,1,1,2,19,19,7,0,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,7,0,1,5,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,4,1,0,2,1,8,13,0,10,16,3,14,0,0,1,0,9,6,0,6,5,58,18,0,0.15756920659443754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539748050466186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11017605291736747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605272583546916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416130427659874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161711464683096,0.0,0.532775842839145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17319183030710414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15090774376578106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20188573706904986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253053574487598,0.0,0.0,0.12556225710181726,0.0,0.164379047045052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213044733713284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583497192675966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12664815964514492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5488499805050379,0.0,0.10096398522001014,0.0,0.12509234938481142,0.1837597430064199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539222191415681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13001109742268374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,OG_Gandora,2019/09/30,"How to deal with paranoia? Sometimes, especially when I’m doing something bad, I get really intense paranoia. I feel like I’m being watched and set up. I’ll get hallucinations of things moving and sounds stalking around me. My biggest fear is that the feds are really watching me at all times, waiting for me to do something wrong. I don’t know how to make this paranoia calm down, when I try to think it’s all in my head it just gets worse because it doesn’t make sense that it’s not real when it feels real. Can anyone give advice?",4.035,5.485597735849058,4.7171226415094365,84.84285377358493,71.64150943396227,6.809433962264151,27.400943396226417,7.1686216300943375,1.3454943396226415,424,15,83,4,8,136,73,106,0.174,0.768,0.057999999999999996,-0.9164,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,1,1,0,8,2,1,4,2,19,22,7,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,9,4,1,1,4,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,5,9,2,12,20,2,12,0,0,2,0,2,6,0,0,5,50,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811179592483756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295982278165116,0.0,0.0,0.16499722940489195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547561622499957,0.1129851970151655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910835802705924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085657713814304,0.18743300617232408,0.13241121443504444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905068944105585,0.17780076539811596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902184611410964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10186131053783902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09055068999341263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24743977912911536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19699345818807534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4219286348780116,0.23747477834591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28537680119889736,0.18331192636448826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12313564199016365,0.11876222837297876,0.0,0.0,0.10807673903289557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583776281835396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18888340142097615,0.0,0.2026467472470752,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,desperatedark,2019/06/15,"What does reducing stigma look like? Hello. I’m bipolar 1 with psychotic mania. I’m on a committee for early psychosis intervention and we might actually get something done in terms of improving access to treatment and resources for psychotic disorders in my state(!) I’m hoping something that can be done is more public education to reduce stigma around psychosis, schizophrenia, schizoaffective, etc. I see quite a few posts about it, here. Also personally annoyed that the typical PSA/ad usually touch only on depression and anxiety. Bipolar gets a lot of nods, but usually manic psychosis is left out of the infographics. And I don’t think I see or hear anything about schiz unless it’s hashtag world schizophrenia day on twitter. So what does effective public education look like for psychosis? What’s the PSA commercial? The social media ad? The media portrayal? I’ve been bouncing ideas around in my head and just wanted to get feedback from your community. Thanks",5.7908066220500185,9.037389898203593,6.188481859809794,68.19106375484327,72.17365269461078,9.198872842550193,33.775625220147944,9.627879704456738,4.2888713631560424,791,40,109,22,17,254,110,167,0.033,0.857,0.11,0.9319,0,0,2,0,0,0,22.0,1,1,0,2,8,6,1,0,8,0,9,3,1,1,0,21,24,10,0,2,4,0,1,2,0,1,2,1,0,1,7,10,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,6,7,4,23,19,5,18,0,1,4,0,8,11,0,4,7,69,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.1429009463126716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11710525386630136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120235577710917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12050480111900087,0.2607191466655297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944394585317796,0.0,0.12612558350250616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16782896972504446,0.0,0.256295218495026,0.29971085887763543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16331545884835744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295211558532035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15028614434196824,0.0,0.16504463134539749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14544453275447014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530903743788095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15910373696846536,0.0,0.0,0.14308300030374635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459396372730392,0.0,0.0,0.12449511578400425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553460353723984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113715928068168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278627446684793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14024573338909124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15575329314686598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23338193778266586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492736186512491,0.0,0.22546801650873374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481909826414715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09383062657833256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3225583366178336,0.0,0.0863720695613607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,picholasnicholas,2019/06/15,"Events experienced as a result of schizophrenia? To anyone who has diagnosed schizophrenia, what are some of the things you experienced which possibly alerted you to the presence of the condition? I’ve been experiencing odd events (some present for my entire life, some not), and wondering if they’re truly normal, or the result of schizophrenia, or possibly another condition.",10.053852459016394,12.043865491803276,8.92799180327869,58.21526639344265,58.016393442622956,12.657377049180331,41.47950819672131,12.161744961471696,6.10463606557377,309,16,40,10,4,96,43,61,0.037000000000000005,0.91,0.053,0.2406,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,3,2,0,2,0,12,4,5,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,8,3,3,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,7,3,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319391486574688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21297795302352326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3091546781520033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151424834310219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984356914852832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6867638943953179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20235752770039966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33031725509734383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PhillieUbr,2019/06/15,"Don't you guys ever think your Schiz. conditions are from our own troubled mind, and a lot can be solved with meditation and humility?? my life was suddenly blessed when I ""clicked"" and realized how great I am and I should be the one dictating how I live but at the same time being humble and innocent to all that life brings to me.. &#x200B; yes society is a mess.. and often people will tell you what they thinks is best.. like rolling you as something or with whatever condition.. &#x200B; &#x200B; but the fight is ours and is internal/spiritual.. &#x200B; Just let it go! &#x200B; Let it be.. &#x200B; your troubles and mis wires in your line of thoughts can be solved and arranged,. &#x200B; Practice Zen and allow quietness and solitude,, Listen without judging, just observe.. &#x200B; &#x200B; Music is great too.. cleanse and balance yourself. &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; and the ultimate practice: ZEN. [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ap9tSE0yjKg](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ap9tSE0yjKg) &#x200B; &#x200B; they Have these great ""Koans"" with fantastic stories of self improvement.. &#x200B; &#x200B; We are all together people.. Fighting the same battles.. &#x200B; No one is better no one is worse.. &#x200B; We are just one.. &#x200B; &#x200B; Love and Peace. :)",10.252343234323432,13.147866148514858,6.6610099009900985,71.29207590759076,58.3069306930693,8.753003300330034,42.17953795379538,9.21078282632365,4.47900290429043,1070,58,139,17,15,291,121,202,0.073,0.6970000000000001,0.23,0.9918,0,0,1,0,3,0,147.0,4,6,2,2,9,14,3,0,7,1,25,3,0,3,3,42,32,21,0,1,7,0,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,2,5,19,0,0,4,0,0,2,4,6,0,4,2,3,18,8,12,21,7,8,3,0,1,1,19,2,0,3,5,106,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5268506859574926,0.5908458670718945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025514421043117654,0.02150239027847776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.021992007013513105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.013817328175580996,0.0,0.0,0.08041370076479581,0.0,0.024073152358002076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04972226389986397,0.03434521124230686,0.01187783720133443,0.0,0.02146834275219486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.020669579398035102,0.02194293941181436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02454864834773354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06589899353378176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033710389459675215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025363192397387744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.01871691527654109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0212501568516504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031156878305059036,0.0,0.019301373148967432,0.01417678773709209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023436338550273543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024776468211074563,0.0,0.0,0.5908458670718945,0.0 schizophrenia,takalakka,2019/06/15,Can you be committed for 2 years if you have schizophrenia and you slap someone? in new York state,2.9036842105263148,5.532547000000001,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,79.0,5.905263157894738,25.28947368421053,7.1686216300943375,1.026031578947368,79,3,16,1,2,23,17,19,0.0,0.812,0.188,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6720309247267213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.589569215013312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4480876888729873 schizophrenia,redtruck96,2019/06/15,Do I have schizophrenia or something else? I feel like my thoughts are constantly being broadcasted even though I tell myself they are not I still can't help but feel like they are and it's putting me in a angry & depressive state and making me feel mentally trapped,5.1702941176470585,7.127396960784317,4.42171568627451,86.0702205882353,69.58823529411765,8.237254901960785,30.39705882352941,8.841846274778883,2.4344470588235296,219,9,41,4,4,65,40,51,0.21899999999999997,0.6679999999999999,0.114,-0.8395,0,1,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,1,0,10,12,5,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,3,10,2,1,10,0,5,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,4,28,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706568364089309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26994370127979184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21515129348493373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20867479840921355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16498971550960365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789172540461917,0.3569125474269993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16743483359223565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440780984806663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667426023553882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517383821948113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511167341266922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19230727836582248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19948960085254785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21833511391215332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454259991784557,0.19831230115430828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KrisML518,2019/06/15,Percieved Telepathy Anybody else have problems with this if so how do you cope?,3.937857142857141,7.2717499285714275,2.3114285714285714,90.95857142857143,85.42857142857143,2.8000000000000003,35.57142857142857,3.1291,1.6654000000000004,65,4,10,0,2,18,14,14,0.172,0.828,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,2,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6576636335477503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7533117184199184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AllVicesNoVirtues,2019/06/15,"Cognitive supplements Anyone take any supplements for their cognitive functioning that they feel helps? I cant take fish oil but I'd be interested in anything else, my mind is functioning like a 3rd grader. Thanks!",5.599324324324325,8.969592108108113,5.558040540540541,71.68949324324326,73.86486486486487,11.267567567567568,30.871621621621625,10.686352973137794,4.750518918918919,176,8,27,7,4,55,32,37,0.0,0.695,0.305,0.9143,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,2,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25001214394370336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25706689546744976,0.0,0.3025416433167969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071213731863421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185893055085094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24642561729583365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796134495912941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37121803724037217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5528486436957423,0.0,0.0,0.3384793897053484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Hazical,2019/06/15,"Doing a presentation on schizophrenia and I need advice. Right off the bat, I am not schizophrenic. I’m doing a presentation on schizophrenia and I want to do a sort of simulation of it. I’m considering having someone/myself listen to schizophrenic audio while trying to go about their day. Is this ok or is there a better way of going about this? Is there a way to make the experience more realistic? Is there anything else I should include or consider in my presentation?",4.029885057471262,6.88813520689655,5.67655172413793,71.58195402298853,76.24137931034483,8.464367816091954,26.90804597701149,9.150863307647796,2.871266666666667,381,15,62,10,9,129,55,87,0.0,0.909,0.091,0.7383,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,1,5,2,0,0,7,1,10,2,0,1,0,10,18,5,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,2,13,17,1,14,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,3,5,49,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969290054654791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500513359522972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26873995695242564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19596491221261014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25383649279756915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972339169160525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3453818976413864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20282927169207535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22530874212471766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259495243102823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206301362486171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17922482077253565,0.4823807103217537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,OrgasmicPimple,2019/06/15,"Has anybody had delusions that you are THE God? It didn't help either when i was in the psychward and some guy called me God. I had the delusion that i was The God who made everything reincarnated into the human form to experience it. Had this delusion when i was 17/18 in a full blown psychosis Got better. Years later have another psychosis. But didn't have the God Delusion. Got better. Years later get another psychosis. At the psychward i get the God Delusion. Got better. And here i Am.",2.5995307917888546,5.420289129032259,3.694369501466277,83.63428152492669,82.44086021505377,6.392570869990226,25.658846529814266,7.686295010490155,1.8003204301075275,391,16,69,7,11,126,51,93,0.023,0.778,0.19899999999999998,0.9318,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,3,3,3,0,0,9,0,13,0,0,1,0,7,19,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,12,0,8,3,5,7,4,11,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,1,6,51,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4187836559788968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5298273447148901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039052827448404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17946802596896225,0.1953346260138472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20865901981488316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4791297504621016,0.0,0.0,0.19772397746749765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13384764722906592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18895101152505347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571869523561622 schizophrenia,PrettyPlesiosaur,2019/06/15,"Best way to be there for/support boyfriend during his mania Hi all, I joined this community to learn more about schizophrenia, as my boyfriend of 2 years has been struggling with it for about 9 years now. He has gotten immensely more comfortable talking with me about it. When we first started dating, he would go into the other room just so I didn’t see him take the medication. I continued to make it clear to him that it didn’t change my opinion of him. He always thought of himself as “a loser schizophrenic” for SO long... but I truly believe I helped him realise he simply has a very unfortunate disease... but it’s certainly not what defines him. He takes 5 mg of Abilify every evening and he’s always compliant with meds. He also smokes medicinal marijuana but that’s more for anxiety that he has from PTSD. Anyway... we have been together two years now, and I’ve only seen him go through psychosis/mania twice. Until last Friday. Since then, he’s been at a constant war with his mind - constantly fighting aloud with a verbally abusive former stepfather, and other people he’s felt betrayed or hurt by. He also has been talking nonstop and basically vocalising every single thought he’s having. It’s very hard on me to see him like this. He’s seen me cry and I know it hurts him to see that. He assures me he’s OK, but the conversations I hear him having tell me he’s far from OK. The other two times only lasted 3-4 days, and he told me before he met me that that was about it... he’d never been in a state of complete psychosis any longer than that (on his meds, I mean). I’ve told him I love him, I’ve told him I’m here and I care... but I was wondering if anyone with this illness could tell me what you’d want your girlfriend/boyfriend/spouse to do or say in a similar situation. I know sometimes he just wants to be left alone and I respect that, but I know too that he’s appreciated what I’ve said so far. I can’t get him to sleep of course, and he won’t stop drinking coffee. I would appreciate if people could help shed a little more light on what he’s going through, so I don’t have to bring it up too much with him. But any help or advice on how I can make him feel even slightly better - that would mean so much to me.",3.5880470588235305,4.934330528888889,4.6757647058823535,85.11317647058823,72.6,7.5163398692810475,26.568627450980397,8.027739517013583,1.5262745098039212,1758,60,360,25,34,576,218,450,0.11599999999999999,0.76,0.124,0.3833,0,1,2,0,2,0,57.0,2,2,0,4,24,17,2,1,11,2,32,6,1,3,5,63,69,34,1,9,15,0,3,1,0,4,3,3,1,0,29,19,1,1,11,1,0,4,7,6,0,4,20,12,53,11,49,39,9,42,0,3,5,1,64,14,0,7,23,229,82,1,0.0,0.10312943201808217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505552386081447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09014829579728546,0.0,0.1392134205885591,0.14485028187726798,0.0,0.0,0.11838182143553735,0.0,0.06658617845454952,0.0,0.0,0.06086113825548437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07406553763050325,0.09806547672690832,0.09134423041496884,0.07698075095455349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08874416937784417,0.0,0.09207790826280554,0.0,0.09126090332890548,0.18812094429002355,0.0,0.13899041972825826,0.0,0.09561052559970616,0.0561342878593243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08526710934497915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11497960846153853,0.0,0.14667170696822002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04401057905840245,0.0,0.08357307473609926,0.0,0.0,0.07403708761607197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04547536532141733,0.0,0.1484023336986473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779716999410047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09810160911141788,0.0,0.1750253785497696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863585261347793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14350648325929674,0.14190017458363055,0.0,0.0,0.09457037460116992,0.0,0.0,0.042523869003989995,0.08723801622110264,0.0,0.07702860578300973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07855796179843692,0.0,0.11620117698526848,0.0,0.0,0.1896264791094369,0.1933660081479929,0.08768471839911772,0.0,0.0,0.08788666563360185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279703994854248,0.0,0.06713143722701435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13239730822610632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206866335308642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10174635011993056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0827959874696712,0.06921855050989678,0.0,0.0,0.2080813848416536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200127055729348,0.0978378068343537,0.0871039275950736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608584146801794,0.0,0.061608115628938226,0.0,0.0,0.07277022993540587,0.0,0.09099422247341434,0.0,0.0,0.0987731720030968,0.0,0.0,0.13088810084682426,0.13992062612275322,0.15215545910534986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13820177014913296,0.050754346469889966,0.0,0.0,0.2495144103985724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17005295092195566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14363599285815234,0.10267815362646256,0.06908914801443776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09439232486393144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18549443122947573,0.0,0.0,0.1681547812983286 schizophrenia,JohnDoe143,2019/06/15,"Metaphysical Constructivism I think every living being is cursed with the need to explain the world it senses. For humans it is complicated by the fact by culture and its inherent contradictions. The way I see it psychosis is the brain trying to come up with an explanation for what we see - metaphysical constructivism. The other day I saw a creature in the dark. It seems like it was breathing and had blue eyes. My eyesight is weak but never the less I ventured a bit further to see that it was nothing at all! The contradiction of the senses. Two different things can look like the same thing. One person's nightmare is another writer movie plot. Another person's monster could as well be my pet dog.",5.099217758985201,7.474665658914733,5.6316983791402375,75.57367864693447,70.70542635658914,8.411839323467232,29.556730091613808,9.095868883498916,2.81548992248062,566,23,94,12,11,182,89,129,0.047,0.8909999999999999,0.062,0.4295,2,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,14,0,12,4,3,0,3,16,22,4,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,3,12,6,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,1,2,4,7,7,3,14,15,4,9,0,0,7,0,6,5,0,1,4,69,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3827599058777553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992560497672735,0.0,0.0,0.20374397316740925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15721809768168715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14572113880118198,0.0,0.0,0.11770526873214456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19068640097371864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537743983442111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178332481608698,0.0,0.1611616144475737,0.0,0.15326427929152026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353304820748661,0.14076465847367625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751253761830121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236749886910657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187252226137756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4363157751697617,0.16615225021042376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24250598876920276,0.11694644683918455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12391380189988803,0.0,0.17828789720397387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448696873806247,0.0,0.0,0.16410038466791085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,juxtaposz,2019/06/15,"Fucking akathisia; going downhill Back in February I became delusional again, thinking my brain was connected to a very large machine in a parallel universe and that my wife's orthodontist was trying to replace her with another copy of her. I got back on Seroquel for a little bit, but as I titrated up my dosage it just didn't work anymore. So, since I had some initial very good mental response to Latuda years before, we decided to get me back on that, despite the akathisia I had experienced which caused me to switch to Seroquel. I figured I could handle the akathisia on Latuda if I were to take some sort of adjunct to handle the side effects. So, I started to take really tiny doses with Benadryl, but eventually that stopped working so well once my serum level of lurasidone increased alongside my doses over the weeks. It was fucking hell. I remember my tongue getting so sore from moving, too, that it became painful to speak. Soon my doctor put me on Cogentin. I couldn't get to sleep one night, and I had to pace around the house, getting in and out of bed with my wife and trying to do chores but having to walk around some more, numerous times, until I took more than my prescribed dose of Cogentin, which I blew through very quickly as I was desperate to maintain my Latuda dose. After all that fuss with Latuda my doctor switched me to Vraylar, since they said it was a more tolerable drug. Not for me, anyway. There have been so many days at work and on vacation with my wife I have lost because I could not concentrate on simply living and existing without having to goddamn pace, wiggle or continuously move about in some way, which was particularly hellish during road trips. I napped a lot to make it through the akathisia, and took a fair amount of sick leave from my job too because of it. One of the providers at my doctor's office had felt it was okay doubling my Vraylar dosage, which I figured, if that was fine with her, then that was fine with me. Fuck. Me. During vacation, I had a phone appointment with my doctor where they decided to put me on Ingrezza to help stave off the akathisia, but I think that particular provider at my doctor's office may have mistook my accounts of akathisia for tardive dyskinesia. When I got back home I started the Ingrezza and it didn't seem to work. In fact, it seemed to make my akathisia even worse. In the past couple days, I made the executive decision to be crazy for awhile than continue on with the akathisia and otherwise good brain, and hope that my doctor could put me on different meds again. I was at work during a meeting, trying like hell to stave off the akathisia, but I kept pushing and pulling myself back and forth from the table in my rolling chair throughout the duration and I'm pretty sure people thought I was whacked out of my gourd on some sort of substance. Then again, I'm pretty sure my coworkers would hear me talk to my doctor on the phone, but my immediate coworkers are all extremely nice and understanding, even if they don't necessarily know what my brain's going through. Anyway, though, it was an incredible amount of hell for that dosage of Vraylar and that Cogentin. During the day yesterday (Friday), I called my doctor's office again, saying I couldn't handle it. I was completely done dealing with akathisia. I would have rather died than have it for a moment more. There were moments on Latuda and Vraylar where, in the middle of the worst akathisia, I would beat myself in the head with my fists a lot to try to distract from the agony of being internally compelled toward some inscrutable goal. I would have rather died honestly. My doctor thinks pretty much most antipsychotics will give me akathisia, so we're switching to a different strategy. So now, I'm waiting patiently for a prescription of Lamictal to be filled, and I'm losing my mind again. I quit Vraylar, Cogentin and Ingrezza cold turkey and physically feel better than I had in a long time, but now I am starting to be unable to sleep. I'm not quite delusional yet but the cracks are starting to show. I know it's going to take weeks for Lamictal to take effect, too, so there's that. I cry just about each time I talk to my wife now, and I'm tired of putting this burden on her. I just want to live a normal life. I wish I could maintain relationships. I wish I knew how. I wish I knew how not to be so lonely. I wish I can get by for the next few days. Until then, I see my life compared to other, ""normal"" people and I am so sad I don't seem to have the courage nor will to live like them. I want to die. I want to die and I don't even know how to kill myself properly. I wouldn't want to put that burden on my wife, so I won't, but goddamn is that feeling there. I'm sorry for being such a downer, y'all. I've been lurking this subreddit for years more than I've even had this particular reddit account and all of the amazing posts here really help me get by and not feel so fundamentally lonely in this universe. I'm so appreciative of what everybody here shares and I cannot do enough to express my gratitude to you. I'm so sorry I feel like this right now. I just want to sleep. I want to not cry. I want to not become delusional again. I want to make my wife proud of me. I just can't handle it any more. I feel so incredibly lonely right now. But right now I can't stop thinking about killing myself. I will make it, but this is really hard.",5.8963000877449545,6.382339247148291,5.999186311787075,80.87795758993856,66.69961977186311,8.945329043579994,31.39374085990056,8.841846274778883,2.4162197835624446,4296,160,831,65,65,1362,383,1052,0.136,0.742,0.122,-0.9876,3,6,1,0,0,4,112.0,1,2,4,15,72,39,9,1,41,1,73,30,7,12,6,159,151,68,6,31,30,6,7,3,0,10,20,4,3,0,42,42,0,4,28,2,2,18,21,20,1,2,39,14,129,19,153,90,28,121,4,6,1,3,34,48,6,20,56,581,171,16,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030667616723821782,0.0472883066302324,0.0,0.0,0.04472426690460581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08029207097147502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17338467013878828,0.0,0.05498162296535381,0.0498062725137119,0.0383743634445248,0.0,0.0,0.03988477515818193,0.04923442102806348,0.0,0.0,0.15103004252926214,0.04604924474152898,0.0,0.0,0.04632720813459768,0.0,0.0,0.047283516526811266,0.0,0.0,0.1440256576160356,0.04989915218040791,0.09907423009035507,0.11633575522044852,0.04649319398848968,0.0,0.0,0.1872149376390016,0.09423387205388804,0.0,0.4154297077110116,0.0,0.046150054301145146,0.0,0.0,0.052298390716879715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04659742375390391,0.0,0.11914500116975005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11401240105867927,0.032217421665756085,0.04330034786352115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12507479922312265,0.1413684355055225,0.04326130725230482,0.07688926957875979,0.07565072001722893,0.07213664058452918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04039819931977745,0.0,0.04628269891898213,0.0,0.05082777932855837,0.0,0.06045535439159733,0.0,0.045236130655298884,0.04479165759665677,0.0,0.05203607028436544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04475197484837668,0.0,0.0997866564833724,0.0,0.07435266280940178,0.0,0.0,0.04775138322284789,0.0,0.0,0.0637069186457278,0.06609658647321105,0.04519920394487517,0.1194648612457463,0.039909569396345934,0.0,0.05045218906194336,0.04922887976963651,0.07667998917589937,0.0,0.04267202524990405,0.12041082373721357,0.045721444161837904,0.0,0.0,0.05009278074444192,0.0,0.04544733250256125,0.0,0.04553527803681656,0.0,0.0,0.09586229285668413,0.033151603141622625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04796134358494114,0.04232063173187687,0.08837128778672923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04802700589989408,0.061118008421514027,0.0,0.047986560136222565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043050344142422425,0.06252938797412046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043190615352732255,0.13764007995089705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22667551950781314,0.0,0.0959327661764132,0.0,0.0,0.08667119059660912,0.0,0.0,0.04841747502978394,0.051086293573303215,0.1155381902618159,0.04289772837078501,0.03586307342587945,0.0,0.0,0.035936599500967274,0.1231642881283858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07460967713802764,0.0,0.1353891924063611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10096516178263183,0.12768001399363474,0.0,0.0,0.07540649378430575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500708328623148,0.0,0.13562981416585498,0.0724947814057138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558576230215192,0.04430773286214637,0.0358021093618265,0.07888955377093339,0.051832553854938165,0.0,0.0,0.10020921302340204,0.12247205143437828,0.0,0.0,0.04694773625678988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11162964524375224,0.2127957974048047,0.035796028231174386,0.0723484465492737,0.0,0.0405477647431214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074380435350326,0.043472055036797824,0.0,0.16415635582525476,0.0,0.04595786101053458,0.1281429204217596,0.0,0.0,0.05808218773908421 schizophrenia,LttleAngel,2019/06/15,schizophrenia how to fight blank mind? I have a blank mind from Schizophrenia in which I can’t think like no inner monologue and no memory. And I just feel like I’m controlled by my voices and I do what they want me to do. And I’m just so bored with life. Like I don’t want to die but I am just so bored doing nothing each and every day and it’s literally impossible for me to think about suicide since I can’t think. Plus I would never commit suicide I’m a Christian and even though it feels like God has abandoned me. Has anyone had success in fighting this the negative symptom of blank mind? Any by the way my voices are very smart and creative smarter than I was back when I was a normal and told me the most elaborate story I ever heard about myself and showed me very vivid pictures of what they were talking about. Sorry this post is kinda everywhere I can’t think so I can’t correct what’s right and wrong I just type what the voices say. Oh yeah I literally can’t play video games anymore because I’m not smart enough anymore and they confuse me big time. Anyway if you have any success with getting rid of your negative symptoms please let me know thank you!,2.8494289749798227,4.861601953389838,3.4928571428571438,90.03680790960453,76.07627118644069,5.851170298627926,24.37368845843422,6.655083550727371,0.7448569814366426,935,31,189,8,21,294,130,236,0.193,0.621,0.18600000000000005,-0.5916,1,0,0,0,3,4,11.0,0,3,3,3,17,17,2,1,7,1,22,3,0,2,4,47,39,21,3,5,7,0,2,4,0,1,3,5,0,0,9,16,0,2,7,4,0,0,12,7,0,0,6,8,31,10,20,31,3,13,1,1,1,0,13,5,0,4,10,126,40,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16879061602801715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461566097624399,0.0867767440451437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09542869126771042,0.0,0.07565294439177507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13919373685263162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08003712827842235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880086565867604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282331120081874,0.0,0.08196984430354998,0.11225961511030623,0.10456338427994008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12550191677972442,0.17732054299391534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06483947310171169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0682045813555391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12690524799264646,0.08765867054731405,0.2425247376004136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3759304660054208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571703245471763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12159604901026327,0.11908160398718745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136229460671728,0.0,0.0,0.1188577944883797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10598455522143498,0.0,0.09869287057298658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10266051548111436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13892481447230534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715003352439666,0.0,0.0,0.25798416495842386,0.0,0.09975048699155954,0.0,0.11425873919552047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180845808584385,0.1219320299969255,0.0,0.0723663253603263,0.0,0.0,0.11858715729699497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047984008383015,0.14640008569784796,0.09850836651096738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08816026801333122,0.13568877610222949,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,limmerent,2019/06/15,"Have you ever ""overheard"" your subconscious? (Not hallucination, not thought insertion) When I'm not really thinking about anything and just zoned out while doing some mindless task, I keep ""catching myself"" or ""overhearing"" these intricate, nonsensical ""monologues"" in the back of my brain. It's not a hallucination at all because they are definitely not coming from outside of me, but it kind of feels like I'm ""tuning in"" to a radio station or wavelength of ""thought"" in my own brain. Nor do I believe they have been ""implanted."" I've no doubt they are ""my own."" At the same time, I feel as though I have no control over them. They are like a really quiet and tentative but constant stream/flood of words and phrases running through my head, simultaneous and ""underneath"" my regular thoughts, hence the ""tuning in"" metaphor. In a way, they do not feel like thoughts at all. That's why I say I ""overhear"" them. The first reason is that, even though they sometimes sound ""smart,"" they are hardly ""thoughts"" because they are illogical and meaningless. Secondly, I don't think of them as real thoughts because they do not seem to be controlled by me in any way. For example just an hour ago, while I was making dinner, ""heard"" this going on in my brain: ""autism spectrum is a highly inveterate free-flying form of intestinal dysfunction."" What the hell is this?! For some reason, though I have no evidence of this, it really feels like I'm accessing a stream of words that's flowing 24/7 through my brain. It honestly feels like I am ""hearing"" my subconscious. Is that possible? Anyway, once I become aware of it, it usually stops pretty quickly, because it seems incompatible with conscious control. Almost like when you are meditating and the minute you realize you are totally in Nirvana or whatever you fall back down to earth because you can't not think about anything while also thinking about not thinking about anything. Yeah, it's like that. I think it's because once I become aware that I'm zoned out, my normal conscious inner dialogue is ""loud"" enough to ""drown out"" the other, more tentative, stream of nonsense running beneath it Anyway, it's really hard to explain, but I haven't found anything on google about it. Anyone else experience this? Is it related to schizophrenia or is it totally normal and no one else notices or talks about it?",7.2088853699305036,8.321062634204276,6.915814198997103,73.25174892231901,63.98812351543943,10.03751209641946,36.257675727984534,10.082433333333334,3.842984094308085,1863,87,310,40,27,586,198,421,0.092,0.823,0.084,-0.6642,0,0,0,0,0,0,89.0,0,7,12,4,21,12,1,1,14,1,29,7,6,6,5,78,60,27,1,2,19,0,7,7,0,0,0,6,0,0,28,12,1,5,26,1,0,7,17,2,0,3,10,13,45,10,52,49,12,47,1,0,0,0,26,22,1,11,23,230,73,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06320738221147698,0.0,0.07140143385600395,0.0,0.0,0.057022404121046935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04848969326336339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04985795774859871,0.07306017008113458,0.23471102247143225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096579437171414,0.0,0.2608003800935394,0.15750104734453646,0.0,0.08033606559775097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183988505637838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061422751322983825,0.0,0.07705513206691697,0.23992311052570955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913198251507374,0.0,0.0,0.07367689524222625,0.0,0.04709613248244847,0.06449925275062021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697497538724053,0.0,0.0,0.1802691877018468,0.20376058672931904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060651806587905525,0.0,0.07818200717393907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0405241477863961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277501483763233,0.0,0.07317927226600504,0.0,0.08036566555187394,0.0,0.0,0.07533741142900474,0.0,0.0,0.07022084174154998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06337896173837923,0.0,0.07425295220077906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438513848764205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047596492100990914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13972708334842213,0.0,0.08118096081484936,0.0,0.15187451998085305,0.04831796203656143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08038542192731797,0.0,0.07254259237757599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08116044642391188,0.1827186631269619,0.14662637236902892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05670442035202471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12982638127439688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07052224736000948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05961398609149957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05731207849006228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741353302793389,0.21016974305782785,0.33964816701022355,0.04157838867933894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07853213761115313,0.0,0.0,0.11319682547278395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643414701732959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,onmyownshitt,2019/06/15,Hate life My schizophrenia symptoms aren’t as bad as a lot of u so I shouldn’t be complaining but I hate not knowing what’s real fuck my life,-1.009354838709676,1.0497319354838766,0.9118709677419368,99.56780645161292,100.61290322580645,3.7703225806451615,19.103225806451608,5.6839178017228535,-0.2831987096774191,114,4,26,1,5,37,25,31,0.456,0.544,0.0,-0.9426,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,6,7,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535175963428527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807001886773152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5995417051864914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16686659989777927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4289243923231551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581345830232236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3455963620036643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31558686805562997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CoKu,2019/06/15,"Sorry if this is out of place, but I wanted to share what I’ve been doing since being diagnosed Sorry if this is out of place, but I come from the perspective that our experiences in life guide our the rest of the course of our lives, and schizophrenia is a rather extreme experience, so I hope this is relatable, understandable, or even more hopefully, helpful. First off, [I’ll share a page of my website,](cosmeffect.com/cosmograms) which will be my main focus of attention, but will discuss some of the [aspects](cosmeffect.com/aspects) of that page as well. I created these symbols after being admitted to the psych ward twice and hope they help others get some sense of what I am attempting with hem. What they are is a way to classify thoughts and ideas we have. They have four categories of how real a thought may be, and what they are like to think those thoughts. So about how real a thought is would be it’s ‘vitality’, or a way a thought exists in the world and varies from being virtual and unreal to actual and really real. Then there is what that reality is like, is it well ordered or is it disordered? Is the thought coming or going? These make up the qualities of what the thoughts are like to have. All together there are 16 ways a thought could be in the world and how true it is and how it reacts to other thoughts. Some thoughts are not just from thinking, but some could be a feeling, a sensation, or an intuition. The point of this? To get some grasp on all that crosses the mind and how to better help deal with the thoughts, voices, delusions, hallucinations, and perceptions and make some sense of them. I feel psychiatric help can only get us so far in recovery and that we too have to have a say on how well our outcomes may be. So this perspective is like an inside look at what is missing from the other perspective. I don’t want to diminish how useful it has been for me, although is has been limited in answering the quandaries I have had since my first episode. If there was a more phenomenal account of the weird, existential and metaphysical problems I have since faced. I digress bit I hope you check out how I think about issues and how to categorize thoughts in a somewhat decent manner. Please feel free to go in-depth, ask questions about this, and explore the site. I made as in depth and deep as I could, so it may be too much to look into without time or effort. But in creating this system of thinking, I found it has been a good way to build up some skills and to keep me occupied, and I hope it comes across how benefits it has been to me in my recovery. Again, [here’s my thoughts of on the reality of thoughts.](cosmeffect.com/cosmograms) Sorry too if this is incoherent, unrelatable, desperate, and if I am overextending myself here, I just would like to share my journey of recovery, which is still very much going on. All the best and keep on keeping on!",8.468907103825138,7.377339424408017,8.266775956284157,72.00978142076505,61.859744990892544,11.922040072859746,36.36247723132969,11.057119789189338,3.821691438979963,2300,88,439,52,27,741,232,549,0.03,0.78,0.191,0.9985,1,0,0,0,0,0,76.0,7,1,5,8,35,26,0,0,35,0,65,3,1,15,4,136,115,57,0,19,21,0,3,5,0,7,2,2,0,0,38,32,0,4,32,0,3,9,3,3,3,4,22,7,41,24,75,73,21,55,0,1,2,0,26,33,0,28,12,348,79,1,0.0,0.0,0.05897851625365474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056501128656246666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06342567970000879,0.05345226984702404,0.06598235913620741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15618528515536526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447638532232298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062308656405023775,0.0,0.06134303416855196,0.0,0.0,0.06926688642848362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039918557445741486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11823941415230145,0.0,0.0,0.09167741229267763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028166219962798,0.0,0.06626686269322317,0.0,0.0,0.09472867444437223,0.0,0.10304448174935596,0.05069230908843498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16204057331757218,0.0,0.0,0.3001415652033398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06822685225662174,0.0,0.06308129862290844,0.0,0.16115952149241608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042688963308287496,0.14763413533616124,0.0,0.05336763192821931,0.0,0.10150496038415427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057187651165910826,0.08068532187254494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061024888808577975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08885738630641121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04596562490342167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12628915012752856,0.06634248970253616,0.05713319975821037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05783075514227905,0.0,0.0,0.06770410092787273,0.0,0.0,0.2063741397939,0.038717964013079816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048062516855143934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14998416989056612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20296530636126364,0.0,0.0,0.0482656574493999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15490425438141614,0.0,0.6237505925618768,0.035241732378260684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06291781907137209,0.07269916004086832,0.05219880266701517,0.0,0.049867465274090285,0.07129549019697143,0.19189066032098867,0.0,0.0,0.16302236034782008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058259824893482436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08586647328717,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Evolve2020,2019/05/09,"Does smoking weed make schizophrenia relapses happen faster? I am not referring to its link to causation, but what impact does it have on people who already have schizophrenia?",9.37,11.557948931034485,7.1546551724137935,69.59336206896553,59.68965517241379,9.937931034482759,38.63793103448275,10.125756701596842,4.539399999999999,145,7,19,3,2,42,25,29,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4509185041459268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7151661618444675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3613382499231802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727547081844102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832832537887539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lara1705,2019/05/09,"Can anyone relate to this... I haven’t got a schizophrenia diagnosis but one of my parents has and it’s something I’ve always been aware of. I’m not asking for a diagnosis, I just want to know if this is something to be concerned about. I have depression and anxiety, I’ve made multiple attempts at suicide and I’m currently on antidepressants. At night I hear voices. I can’t work out what they’re saying all the time but it’s like multiple people talking at once. I have to use white noise machines to help focus and block it out. Today on the bus to work I suddenly began to panic. There was a voice in my head telling me none of the people on the bus were real and I’d made them up. I began thinking someone was watching me and I started seeing everyone on the bus doing this strange hand gesture to each other. I thought I was going to have a panic attack but I managed to get through it and when I got off I felt calm. Can anyone relate to this? It has terrified me a little. Should I mention this to my therapist?",1.6139657444005238,3.949146463768116,3.6418642951251634,85.71085968379447,81.94685990338165,6.082476943346507,24.868028107158537,7.348242739294969,1.3606154589371977,806,32,156,12,22,273,117,207,0.17800000000000002,0.7509999999999999,0.071,-0.9801,2,0,2,0,0,1,18.0,0,0,1,3,4,6,1,2,10,0,18,2,2,3,1,28,38,12,1,3,6,1,2,1,0,1,0,4,0,0,12,10,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,4,0,1,13,9,22,2,30,23,3,23,0,1,3,0,9,13,0,1,10,111,34,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12299354711485935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11307772647466713,0.0,0.0,0.2067107410072531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13818665113239206,0.16816039028860735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273124556702355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14124313736669492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14192514880706228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07722700176675247,0.0,0.08400641538359849,0.0,0.2364415981522862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15170037321577395,0.0,0.16659774114229378,0.0,0.09907697734040104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08123501121889562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07221472292722055,0.14814901178291615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27973140320165835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13871394232413614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15741767203774684,0.10016296482599764,0.0,0.0,0.346857052955675,0.16413056555361552,0.0,0.0,0.20495199532837904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16824531908587662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175480633247882,0.0,0.0,0.11778905905953214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524278888298215,0.2275897249367629,0.0,0.0,0.1046238995749538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16168512687224618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188077365009961,0.12919643224521607,0.0,0.0,0.1716240858272883,0.0,0.09471359541045864,0.0,0.11734824197716599,0.08619185303508843,0.0,0.14011091028352654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276643122929532,0.0,0.0,0.08718485157262906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152215063172915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Maddening_Disdane,2019/05/09,How long does it take you to fall asleep? How long do lie awake at night and do wake up a lot or are you able to sleep through?,1.5741379310344854,1.8257817586206928,1.865000000000002,107.5175,76.24137931034483,5.8000000000000025,17.948275862068964,3.1291,-1.2733586206896552,97,1,29,0,2,29,24,29,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,3,2,0,5,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,4,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,3,17,3,0,0.3520453538778343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30807726157026777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6230981199213151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992963706059449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33037071640804555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3522995968221461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26469429353126306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,arseneincubus,2019/05/09,"Conspiracy Against Me I feel like there is a conspiracy against me. I hear people talking about me all of the time. I am currently in academia and I made the mistake of telling someone about my diagnosis, now I think everyone knows and they think I do not know how to read because of it. I wish I could explain more, but I constantly hear people saying that I am illiterate and stupid. I even found a youtube clip of a fairly prominent professor saying this about me towards the end of his speech. I do not know what to do and I am really exhausted",5.360987983978639,6.167646700934579,6.251802403204273,77.46579439252339,67.97196261682242,10.226435246995996,34.91188251001335,10.290406445055957,3.617874232309748,435,21,85,11,7,144,66,107,0.138,0.799,0.063,-0.8334,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,7,4,1,0,6,0,8,1,0,2,1,21,20,6,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,4,4,0,0,8,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,6,20,1,14,17,2,7,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,0,6,65,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839943918683138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20989120690509766,0.0,0.15507506117997574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720281447041336,0.0,0.0,0.12828560307597678,0.0,0.0,0.18559294726209294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09820739088911948,0.1387563499053086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21296071272385053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4378176010850396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32022749071005324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09488987227027296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837830018855077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26930614520043816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19428031988403774,0.0,0.12442727596164135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089154195259728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16456854998746098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15611291554301993,0.1697636223831923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24890661090853655,0.0,0.0,0.11325576826598605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22335233752592196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,philecihop,2019/05/09,"Trying to piece together the truth about my ex Hi everyone, A while ago I came out of an 8 year relationship (between the ages of 17 and 25). My ex, who was \~20 years my senior, was emotionally and mentally abusive, manipulative, and frequently practiced gaslighting. He lied to me about virtually his entire identity, and shared extremely bizarre ""facts"" about himself which, along with a number of other factors, lead me to believe he may have been schizophrenic. I hope this is the right place to ask these questions, because coming to terms with the reality of what I experienced for 8 years will help me mentally move on. As of now, I only have questions. If this sounds like schizophrenia to any of you, I would love to hear your comments (likewise if it does not!). I'll list some of the behavior which I believe resulted from his mental disorder here: &#x200B; * After several years of being together, he claimed his father was a secret agent for MI-6. Then, a few years later, admitted to me that he himself was also a secret agent for MI-6. He also said his ex-wife's father was a secret agent for MI-6. He had a normal job, and claimed to be ""undercover"". He frequently went on ""missions"" where he was away for extended periods of time. I later learned he was nearby visiting his parents on at least two of these occasions. * He presented a completely false narrative of his life from Day One - saying he was born in a different country, that his family lived in Europe, and he even adopted a false accent to back up this lie, which he used with everyone in his public life and in private with me as well. Only after we broke up did I discover that he was actually from the local area, as was his family, and they all lived within close driving distance. For the entirety of our 8 year relationship, I was never introduced to a single member of his family despite their living so close, because he claimed they were overseas. However, there were occasions when he would drive with me to their home and park his car in front of it, making me wait for upwards of hours at a time. He said this was an MI-6 ""safe house"". This part always trips me up -- if he truly held the delusional belief that he was an MI-6 agent, how can he square that away with knowingly visiting his parents and lying about it? Is the nature of a delusion like this such that one can compartmentalize so efficiently, or is it merely pathological lying? * He claimed to be clairvoyant, and insisted that MI-6 recruited him for his psychic abilities. * He lied about his age by a margin of 10 years, and often backpedaled and revealed his new ""true"" age every year or so. He also insisted he had a false name (subsequent research proved he did not, though he frequently used aliases which were easy to connect to each other). * He claimed that the local police department had cloud-colored blimps floating in the sky which were invisible, and were undergoing systematic mass surveillance using these machines. * He claimed to have been implanted with a tracking device by MI-6, which after removal a few years later turned to a benign skin cancer. For all intents and purposes, there was an unusual growth in that area which I saw. * He was admitted to a psychiatric ward on at least one definite occasion and possibly many more. Early in our relationship he told me he was frequently hospitalized when I couldn't get in contact with him. During one of these occasions I phoned the psychiatric hospital he claimed to be at, and they informed me they had not seen him in several months. Once he said he was hospitalized for experiencing a dissociative state and becoming violent (though I don't know if this is true). He regularly lied about hospitalizations for medical purposes (e.g., he breathed in a ""spore"" which caused a fungal infection for 3 weeks in a hospital where I wasn't allowed to visit him; or he was locked up involuntarily in a long term psychiatric hospital for a period of 3 weeks where he wasn't allowed visitors, etc.) * Regarding medications, he had been prescribed clonazepam for at least 20 years. I read this is sometimes prescribed as a supplementary medication for schizophrenics to manage anxiety symptoms. I also distinctly remember him being put on Seroquel as soon as it was released. He would change medications frequently, and the others he was on included Risperdal and olanzapine. He claimed all of these were for sleep. He was also on Ambien and Sonata intermittently. Despite all this, I never noticed he had any particular problems with insomnia. There were other medications, too, but I never thought to take close note. He saw a psychiatrist once a month. * He was highly functional in his career and moderately functional socially (he was very charming and made friends easily, though he only had a few close friends from childhood whom he regularly saw). Several people I've spoken to said they were put off by him after interacting for a while. A psychiatrist I spoke to said that it was possible to be schizophrenic and highly functional career-wise if he was properly medicated, which I believe for the majority of our relationship he was. The delusional beliefs he shared with me were done in private in secrecy, as he was ""undercover"" for the MI-6 and could not risk the general public finding out about his ""true"" identity, which made it very convenient to appear normal to his colleagues and our friends. * I don't think he had bipolar disorder or multiple personality disorder because he was relatively consistent with his beliefs, his self-narrative evolved over time, and there were no instances of mood alteration or periods of mania or depression which I was able to observe over 8 years. He struck me as ostensibly ""normal"" and made me believe over time that his delusions/lies were also true. This had a pretty devastating effect on my mental health because upon breaking up and researching him, I felt as though the rug had been pulled out from under me and I had devoted 8 years of my life to a complete stranger. My question now is whether these lies I was told were due to schizophrenia or whether he was deliberately misleading me about every aspect of his life. I don't understand enough about delusions to know whether this was all a deliberate ruse or whether he truly believed these things, and if so, how he could negotiate that with the realities of his family and background. &#x200B; Thanks for reading this long post. Any help or insight you all might have would be greatly appreciated. I am constantly in awe at the strength of this community, and I apologize if any of my questions are biased or stereotyped from the media presentation of this disorder.",8.651779419485488,8.968720754606368,8.55612915322883,65.4603588839721,60.88442211055276,12.354488862221556,39.2614315357884,11.846155952419483,5.044662106552664,5367,256,865,156,67,1740,470,1194,0.054000000000000006,0.868,0.077,0.9743,7,0,0,0,0,0,172.0,5,3,7,3,44,28,1,1,59,0,98,24,3,17,17,164,140,85,0,19,26,6,2,2,3,7,20,9,2,1,59,57,0,3,27,2,0,20,14,5,1,5,84,18,97,22,173,39,23,154,3,2,5,1,161,65,0,27,68,612,156,15,0.04379083855379898,0.051884982955340116,0.04273354152410346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03881793618993742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101171066216731,0.03643748568769643,0.0948947105548442,0.10642132397799907,0.11911708747369085,0.0,0.03349987163286023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040938522719123335,0.0,0.08228586865510035,0.033672451800723584,0.0,0.10677795492210934,0.048363540711217706,0.0,0.24668639635244075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0500850532930445,0.0,0.04498525393639601,0.046324900731940254,0.03772192990826073,0.09182772213617896,0.047322339496250594,0.0,0.06992684258448956,0.0,0.0,0.028241468141514924,0.0,0.03771698507904275,0.0,0.0,0.04575210588384423,0.2007523793719405,0.0,0.03832165791968295,0.04481323169494097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04925879928729252,0.0,0.04524764225508672,0.0488383605728819,0.02892343586354965,0.0,0.07379134032991115,0.08368804570662734,0.0,0.0,0.16512842121478016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042046072332169865,0.0,0.04002403310024144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10149807971638,0.0,0.022878905744151714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04827955410080408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04654761363075911,0.04935545767133578,0.0,0.05870415202270289,0.0925348504319218,0.04392578155619264,0.043494183490692784,0.04312515498280253,0.050528748220554934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04345565022740855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07219889891940742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12372305727800258,0.04278798351338321,0.0,0.1160043381850747,0.0775070282055723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03952294150328977,0.12430785077335466,0.02923072477609498,0.0443970370496597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26468797687847245,0.17652346218832182,0.04645515949674695,0.0,0.0,0.06990685908934575,0.04654273115869632,0.0,0.0,0.10132258293676284,0.042293464753245934,0.0,0.0,0.12871717232200755,0.0,0.04985615993722383,0.0,0.0932716277628668,0.1186952220794548,0.09991471803277248,0.0,0.0,0.09724908783528947,0.04742121076769964,0.0,0.03035905367241988,0.03823647113379389,0.04575210588384423,0.0,0.0,0.0987351815500195,0.04193951842871479,0.04455102589985248,0.0,0.041901918414058124,0.0,0.08804377571467069,0.19622304473785776,0.0,0.08760537795325153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880598893717781,0.04960648356765647,0.03739713685586752,0.2082755773289448,0.034824232453540965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04568339503863003,0.14841354899748527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04382246377368945,0.04463924519526213,0.0,0.0,0.04331025905854965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0455154484700127,0.032925260755356414,0.0,0.0,0.0403167206556297,0.0,0.0,0.029092687310103706,0.028059401148712068,0.17209710616350418,0.034765034327583336,0.10213916046926133,0.0,0.0,0.08368804570662734,0.0,0.029731104871892507,0.047631857490690405,0.04277728620935267,0.045587807301373004,0.0,0.11346367336637513,0.0,0.07226405590900473,0.0,0.0,0.0702527385303901,0.0,0.03937322292815525,0.040594546061009484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12443102115232405,0.0,0.10642132397799907,0.3383983714752926 schizophrenia,wellshitbasically,2019/05/09,"Provigil (modafinil) for constant fatigue? Hello, I was wondering if any of you have tried Provigil for sedation. My Zyprexa makes me exhausted all the time, and I can't be nodding off during the day. I also take some blood pressure medication which probably adds to the sedation. Just curious if Provigil worked for you. Thanks!",5.134736842105267,8.317739578947371,5.090438596491229,75.48723684210526,74.26315789473685,8.712280701754386,37.57017543859649,9.2995712137729,4.435680701754387,264,16,40,7,6,82,46,57,0.11599999999999999,0.797,0.086,-0.2003,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,1,2,4,0,1,3,0,4,4,1,1,1,9,8,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,7,1,6,6,2,4,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,4,3,28,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.263245804134256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22385426381252946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3557275515877429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21229441363566415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21973077126838386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33161507141587354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.354912628483227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475030296170993,0.0,0.0,0.3030654967514962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19194799888241307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22349218687539107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3569825862744394,0.2396475768843548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Paritosh1988,2019/05/09,"Is this OCD or the beginning of psychosis? I am 30 years old, and have been suffering from this ""illness"" for the past 3 years. I have been seeing a therapist but haven't taken any medication till now. I can function well, socialise and work, and no one else thinks there is anything wrong with me. This all started when I was away at university, and very lonely. I developed sleep problems, and one day, I had very loud thoughts when I was trying to sleep. I became deathly scared of developing schizophrenia, and my whole life is about that now. There have been periods of 14-30 days when I am completely fine, and then the symptoms would return. Sometimes, I am convinced I am suffering from delusions. I will get bizarre irrational thoughts- related to control delusions, etc. I will try to reason with myself that this isn't true. But its a vicious cycle. The other times, I will get an arguing inner voice in my mind (not something I hear, but more like thoughts). My therapist tells me this is all a part of OCD about developing schizophrenia. But I am scared that I am getting worse and will develop schizophrenia sooner or later. I have that the prodromal symptoms can last 3 years, and my age (30 years) is when people usually develop this disease. The new bout of symptoms started around 20 days back. It all started with me having vivid mental images, and then thinking to myself that they seem more vivid than ""mental images"". Now I have become scared that I am having visual hallucinations. Its more like a misperception. These are my symptoms- 1. When I move my head away, then see a scary distorted image of something that I just saw. Or will see a scary distorted image of something that wasn’t there. For instance when I move my head away, will see an image of a scary face. This could have been based on an inanimate object or possibly very little actual material. 2. 2. When I am looking at something, then will see a scary distorted image of something in my periphery. For instance, if normal person’s photo is in my periphery, then will see/imagine a scary face. Will look towards that photo, and see normal photo. It’s almost as if my brain is filling the gaps in a not clear image (like the one in the periphery) with a scary distorted image. 3. Sometimes, will see images even directly. This will be a flash or a glimpse of an image and will quickly correct itself. Like seeing a scary face when working on a text. Will see or misinterpret or misperceive information in front of me to see the image of a face or a man. When I focus, this will quickly correct itself. This image is less vivid, more faint and of a mere second’s duration. 4. Will see moving particles or insect like dots. 5. Will often anticipate something, like having a hair in my hand, when I rub my hand through my hair. Will see the image of a hair in glimpse or glance, and when I focus there is no hair there. 6. Will feel that I am hearing voices in background noises or static. For instance, when the Air conditioner is on, and various other noises are in the background, will imagine/misinterpret/misperceive these to be actual voices. These voices are muffled and don’t say anything. Its the very fact that I may be perceiving these as voices that scares me. 7. 8. Will often imagine and anticipate something, but not actually see it. However, the very imagination/anticipation creates mental images and causes a lot of anxiety. For instance, will imagine that the curtains will part any minute, that a scary ghost will appear in a room, and so on. 8. Will misinterpret and misperceive normal random things, to get images of human faces, eyes, etc. Will get scared as a result. 9. Use background noises/random sounds to anticipate and create voices for what I think other people are going to say. This is also mixed with my imagination. For example, when someone doesnt say anything after I say thank you, will imagine that he said welcome. This has all again started in the past 20 days. What is happening?",4.8121808380842515,6.955168986468202,5.405660728942525,77.8843973912465,70.90798376184033,7.985279176556713,29.029503760065666,8.699597902813167,2.4825084008074714,3167,125,538,58,61,1019,281,739,0.151,0.7879999999999999,0.061,-0.9972,1,2,7,0,0,0,119.0,0,1,1,3,35,24,2,5,45,0,81,25,17,5,9,91,124,63,2,8,22,0,8,6,0,28,8,15,2,3,45,27,0,1,15,0,0,7,10,12,1,4,14,44,54,12,71,78,16,85,0,3,21,0,17,27,0,21,57,397,99,2,0.0,0.0,0.14539675422412915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049732024805432117,0.0,0.0,0.039716844089326686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06754740060387758,0.0,0.0379933609418224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12260945363364102,0.044212114133834426,0.0,0.0,0.1399848666207124,0.038189090068217066,0.0,0.0,0.054850761185108766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055442232316346124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051019329524490585,0.0,0.0,0.05207249493104018,0.0,0.055703186148540265,0.039653223136957946,0.0,0.0,0.12811849602134645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0414884855219316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107785415650528,0.03280306714260888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025111965489442303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973878428818228,0.0,0.02822559455873704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04391833178511435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019406246355208,0.0,0.11195145690746604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04048336062973988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03507964764391827,0.1455819878427918,0.049777078592959066,0.0,0.0,0.08341168228123125,0.0,0.0,0.04222315344724968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050031962075939095,0.15015101446782236,0.0,0.05014719100706323,0.0,0.0,0.15835715463422873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047966478482685496,0.0,0.0,0.14598258885994547,0.0,0.0,0.052114750041254335,0.0,0.10096226182500437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756406452782688,0.09482115510020027,0.06886250172355818,0.043365301958435284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055989489025483306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04752241226197737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05106358509895601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04724250451791608,0.15798145707895553,0.2486151529156148,0.0,0.5540687211807919,0.045212879246646125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09940113811543967,0.0,0.04208074067051242,0.2676401969258189,0.09823932001466099,0.0,0.14061172623886187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064825657963232,0.0,0.0,0.04340913843707209,0.04572458475803368,0.0,0.11532909340209065,0.03299502105124852,0.09546940662978734,0.0,0.1182846768941436,0.028959887014886724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06743814489658939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04289435636488803,0.054698652460927685,0.2048929014833686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04465453141273777,0.0,0.0,0.055448865935456684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07231298883416676,0.0,0.050612574112492766,0.03528037921168107,0.0543005549272111,0.0,0.12792975856236105 schizophrenia,Businessman88,2019/05/09,"I hate this shit I don’t know what’s worse the episodes or the medications. So I end up in this crossroads of having an episode, taking medications till I’m out of the episode and then again weaning myself off the medications. Rinse and repeat. Luckily this has only happen twice in 2 almost 3 years but coming off the meds is almost as difficult as going through the damn episodes. On a positive note now that I’m off the meds I can finally work again!!! While on them things it essentially made me useless. Does anyone else have that issue? I refuse to get on disability. The thought of it enrages me. Have so many plans on building a business empire just gonna be extremely harsh if I have episodes while doing it. Which brings me to my next question.... any of you all business owners?",3.4890823084200555,5.832075509933777,4.167421948912018,84.39478476821196,75.35761589403974,6.963292336802273,27.34200567644276,7.957251820313856,1.8018151371807,626,25,118,10,14,199,103,151,0.179,0.777,0.044000000000000004,-0.9672,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,2,6,6,4,0,11,0,10,4,1,1,1,16,23,13,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,11,4,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,6,0,1,2,0,13,0,21,19,1,26,0,1,0,0,5,11,2,5,12,82,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3267075267789568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109357817119774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406612715330446,0.16714865643591206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052431505199767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14275846288662766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13627637872884568,0.0,0.14448708888076076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17870382110611735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08523006555218883,0.0,0.09271203239992867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14425764498739158,0.0,0.0,0.1610596975917452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17026808138980862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965342655967287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15436003785237773,0.0,0.16539088103165536,0.0,0.0,0.3624071501907588,0.4930168835980072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17349340154036993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240697153204606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18274587903021436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16745329929267125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226554348308053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837806992422692,0.0,0.0,0.12950908525952684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11876249674346867,0.0,0.1662460856651369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10505206450183786 schizophrenia,RoutineAssignment,2019/05/09,"Does anyone else experience psychogenic polydipsia? Psychogenic polydipsia is a condition characterized by excessive fluid intake and drinking often without being thirsty. I just learned that this is common in people with schizophrenia! I absolutely do this, interesting that it comes from that. Anyone else?",10.074000000000002,14.622866177777786,8.373333333333337,51.06000000000003,65.0,10.711111111111112,42.333333333333336,10.355215969177356,6.649133333333335,258,15,24,8,5,78,36,45,0.0,0.909,0.091,0.6257,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,7,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,5,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,21,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3767138016793741,0.5520237022419839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23204719171573346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23573643034117586,0.0,0.0,0.2638900441256817,0.0,0.0,0.4500651857938917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635055278433756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18675431413411145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596729021482709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,8thDragonball,2019/05/09,"How to understand Schizophrenia more? Hi All, &#x200B; My girlfriends brother is currently un-diagnosed but all the tell tale signs are there. We are currently getting the mental health team in (UK). Recently things are escalating he is convinced his family are out to get him. He is particularly fixated on his younger brother apparently tampering with his stuff or throwing fake blood on his walls (which definitely was himself doing that). It has escalated further where at night he taps on wall thats connected to his brothers room. He passes notes with just dates (e.g. one was the date of princess Diana's death) or random words through his brothers room and he went in his brothers room and put a pocket knife on his pillow and hung his stuffed toy on the curtain rail. He also constantly talks to himself and prowls upstairs. For me I just want to help my girlfriend and help him as well and I want to know if I try and approach him or speak to him it wont have a negative impact or make him even more paranoid. I was hoping anyone had useful tips and advice. Also will this escalate further? &#x200B; Thank you",6.0829288025890005,7.819080723300973,5.862116504854367,77.49469579288026,67.00970873786409,8.794304207119742,33.636245954692555,9.21078282632365,3.154902653721684,903,41,154,17,15,281,135,206,0.031,0.812,0.157,0.9803,3,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,1,1,0,1,9,5,0,0,6,0,16,2,1,3,2,33,27,18,1,4,8,5,0,0,2,2,1,1,5,0,8,12,0,0,2,2,0,5,2,1,1,1,5,1,25,4,22,20,4,29,0,0,0,0,38,17,0,7,7,106,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14818492903749722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425395778496513,0.0,0.32861279228793755,0.3685285325906323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603313040889074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16387347649343584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539156416879892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001595448904284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14295662862611885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15845564114415084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16119066278940214,0.0,0.0,0.2032877828730698,0.0,0.0,0.15061687844972144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08333967065638477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122366181538896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528216574845683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14230778201767846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275801499026592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244427646180272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149730324575461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735962954792276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188584063518232,0.13254368962026736,0.13961357880829667,0.0,0.0,0.10074564911189343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295643806312617,0.0,0.0,0.15786693024297202,0.0,0.1309718750748911,0.0,0.0,0.17888732228299625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634632164580696,0.14057566596464685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3685285325906323,0.0 schizophrenia,anthonyreddreams,2019/05/09,"Voices aren’t that bad all the time. So some recent things have recently happen to me where I’m kinda grateful for those voices. So everyday I go through my email and I noticed one calling me out by my birth name and it had a picture connected to it and I kinda recognize the person but I wasn’t sure if it was meant for me . The next day I wrote her back and then we kinda became pin pals and I was cool with that but the whole they where saying isn’t right and I chose to ignore them. Then one out of the blue she asked could she come visit and I’m like sure that’s cool and seems like everything was going alright until she asked me for stupid amount of money then I knew it was a scam , and I knew something was off but in my heart but those voices where yea it is . I guess I’m just getting old and wanting someone to spend time with but never fall for that again I got my guards up now .",0.7643650793650778,2.8766031481481527,2.1431190476190487,96.52896428571432,83.65608465608466,4.838201058201059,17.386507936507936,5.985473137389443,-0.48734095238095204,701,15,158,5,20,225,107,189,0.078,0.8059999999999999,0.11599999999999999,0.6708,1,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,2,0,9,10,1,0,7,4,12,1,1,0,4,42,30,22,0,3,7,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,1,12,16,0,2,4,0,2,5,4,3,0,2,12,7,26,7,20,17,4,31,0,0,1,0,17,9,0,7,19,111,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31135712993155346,0.0,0.0,0.12804758518477846,0.13904157035373493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17004082840817786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434466982638449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13295680673225593,0.0,0.0,0.107394965445199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966209505582276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870025339867241,0.0,0.18928019584623934,0.0,0.13318539959151834,0.0,0.18344626106027656,0.0,0.14725766757946596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19733314124437376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627115838264292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12843448552067438,0.0,0.17710141915525915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18959002226295926,0.17474016488402025,0.0,0.2256835446701653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14540336485282554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3288470529331015,0.0,0.0,0.1422115946756099,0.0,0.13242750774368886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15159827051240113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410962454465618,0.12819921999978848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138960246511489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11063193077358788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942043443745972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822086625847436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18591941760295605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Here4ASchlongTime,2019/05/04,"Seroquel Interactions with Other Substances Hi y’all, A couple of days ago I got diagnosed with Paranoid Scchizophrenia and was immediately put on Seroquel/Quetiapine. I was wondering if anyone had any experiences with this AP and other drugs like alcohol, marijuana, MDMA, or Acid. Thanks!",8.295638297872339,11.45569425531915,9.077606382978724,50.90875,63.8936170212766,12.359574468085107,39.40957446808511,11.698219412168324,6.3647063829787225,238,13,29,9,4,80,40,47,0.043,0.835,0.122,0.5707,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,8,6,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,3,2,5,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,3,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584474392951571,0.3115854638605428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982685663866708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20386323650454446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226019633613994,0.0,0.1880299634528834,0.0,0.0,0.29592393190870364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3381132301588748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851984158982841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331845418808725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14243988548911982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2930950304518297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268426254379972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161808240780873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,softmikaela,2019/05/04,"hello lads i havent taken my meds for the first time in two years for about three weeks now. i stopped because im pretty sure theyre poisoning me or in some way making me ill. it feels weird but kind of freeing? im less boring this way, and i can see truths without them. im also physically disabled and very sick atm, and letting my mind deteriorate with my body just feels right. my moms basically begging me at this point to go to long term care/residential, as its been recommended by many different doctors, but i sort of cant, its a complicated situation but i just couldnt leave my boyfriend alone for that long right now. i honestly dont know what to do, im so suicidal its unreal but i cant bring myself to do that to afforementioned bf, so i just havent left bed in weeks and just. am stuck in life. i actually think i might have died a long time ago but idk. just waiting for that poison chip to go off in my brain and kill me one day. not sure why im even writing this, i guess i just needed to get it off my chest. bf is literally begging me to take the meds but i just. cant. i feel in touch with my true self without them. my lord gave me these visions and thoughts for a reason, i think, and i think im meant to listen to them. anyway. for the sake of not sounding any more off my rocker than i already have i'll end it here, but just my thoughts.",1.3462782294489628,3.2141956655052297,3.151374370886568,91.40132662279005,80.14982578397212,6.3424441863466265,21.77945541360176,7.3871296695380915,0.5682671054329598,1064,32,245,15,27,355,155,287,0.151,0.757,0.092,-0.9675,1,1,0,0,0,1,29.0,0,0,3,1,17,12,3,0,6,0,17,9,3,2,4,55,41,19,3,2,20,1,4,0,2,1,6,2,1,1,14,9,0,2,11,0,2,3,11,5,0,4,7,7,38,8,37,31,4,35,1,0,1,0,11,14,0,5,16,152,52,1,0.0,0.0,0.08847718846468274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08037016670265726,0.0,0.0,0.0939028991614214,0.10005246960829599,0.07250577329182106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0616561641154252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0552693089817289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007097727349069,0.0,0.10121352839818787,0.0,0.0,0.09244029201606643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058472235395392314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940972608328178,0.09472694166145247,0.0,0.09280075631467544,0.0,0.0,0.10626017843433427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030339289194721,0.0,0.0,0.05988420792369922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13753075188409852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07712067223379143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0473693773835538,0.0,0.10305544697860912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09987910433841103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.587610698446775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030878049759404,0.09441495499013808,0.04982780394359094,0.0,0.0,0.096002475420254,0.09850915395894723,0.09271239102586812,0.06404025892657529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407103541142477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0605204308544162,0.09192135437922036,0.0,0.0,0.2014195454698138,0.0,0.0,0.0961825712393213,0.09154707393674527,0.1061872248794486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672278810395552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06143780248038791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08570891917417985,0.0,0.0,0.09224017889116216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932200130585774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15485697686768268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722492685537197,0.0,0.0945846800518418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10191267209310446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07580105095878731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917416987456452,0.0,0.17090374923064286,0.0,0.06816974201535261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17428583041078652,0.0,0.1439577617243736,0.10573644762587814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856775916449097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480915769966154,0.0,0.1439333099260568,0.14545400557563098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181219507589234,0.0,0.0,0.17479807341544099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05838609716030185 schizophrenia,AnonyChocolateMoose,2019/05/04,"Intense and often painful audio visual hypnagogic hallucinations, coinciding with drug use /cessation of use. Usually when stopping use of amphetamines or in the past benzodiazepines I suffer from increasingly intense hypnagogic hallucinatory dream and waking states. These could somewhat be likened to lucid dreams only it is usually a terrifying scenario that I am trapped in and cannot wake up from, even though I start punching myself in the head to wake myself up. I have also started feeling pain during these situations, these include being injected with a syringe, being strangled by an intruder, and one where I hallucinate that my teeth are getting pushed further and further together bringing pain until teeth snap, and I wake up with a very sore jaw. Also during waking hallucinations sleep paralysis is common. I read that hypnagogic hallucinations are normal. But didn't see these things described. Should I be worried?",11.929868421052632,12.428058039473688,11.383157894736845,47.29210526315794,54.131578947368425,13.126315789473686,45.97368421052632,12.38480682065935,6.429892105263157,770,41,95,21,8,252,102,152,0.185,0.7609999999999999,0.054000000000000006,-0.9732,0,1,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,6,0,14,15,10,3,0,21,23,13,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,9,9,0,1,1,3,0,3,2,4,0,1,1,3,11,0,17,16,2,22,0,1,1,0,0,9,0,3,9,74,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24995110250611524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12477535751219425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18123299714854532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032202203608697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07901891003807636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08164886439038305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16038643113551093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531193706721109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058980945125522,0.11885654781000647,0.4988727949632443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491851429892916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15632040501328828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12453342341153778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17566314786059345,0.1563909761210963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22122890680617133,0.0,0.0,0.13065550092138908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382423475570587,0.0,0.1535424534750001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4049223412834759,0.34423652739019744,0.12894581076548228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587080106223921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,smurfette91,2019/05/04,"How do I explain to a child? Hi there! I’ve been split with my ex partner for 6 years now and he had our girls overnight for 2 days a week. He is now married and I thought everything was fine. No problems with our kids going there. He was very horrible towards me when we were together, but he was always a good dad. A couple days ago I get a call out of the blue from cps saying he is not allowed contact with the girls until they have a meeting next week. I was really concerned and met up with his wife. She broke down and told me that he has someone in his head called felix. And “felix” has been hiding knives about the house, and “felix hit his other child that he has with his wife because he was annoying him. It’s come as a great shock and he has never laid a finger on our children. He’s been told by doctors that he has most likely got some sort of schizophrenia. He is being admitted to a mental hospital tomorrow. I just wondered if anyone had any advice on how to explain this to children. I’ve tried speaking to him but he seems to think there is nothing wrong and it was just a blip. But his wife has said it’s been going on for a while now. If anyone can give any positive advice I’d be very grateful. My girls are 8 and 9 and are very switched on and are already asking questions as to why they aren’t at their dads this weekend.",4.149560351718627,4.576145330935255,4.864988009592327,87.69126298960829,70.51079136690647,7.472741806554757,27.67466027178257,7.1686216300943375,1.2734262190247798,1054,34,225,9,18,340,155,278,0.068,0.841,0.09,0.8468,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,4,0,3,0,12,9,1,0,14,0,32,3,2,3,1,43,51,23,0,3,8,6,1,1,1,0,1,3,0,9,9,19,0,0,8,1,0,3,4,5,0,0,19,5,24,4,33,29,2,29,0,1,1,0,60,10,0,8,17,145,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619326982238769,0.11880386964257125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478984185853171,0.0,0.11151840423876798,0.0,0.0,0.182281341068508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874248894912724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12529401080686384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08169956650448525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737062407643066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11544949792176065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482946076236996,0.0,0.17286831959238055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13717887380686744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12045180503445925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07002181986937972,0.1285676871036651,0.15233744548645795,0.11241266986706556,0.10719094757460414,0.14776153538219933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13754691965790775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15464528529863578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06547718032611695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350643056347823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10336729285973917,0.0,0.1425356607727467,0.0,0.0,0.12859929646663845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12824252244321707,0.0,0.0,0.15013714867425093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08585897515408755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12748717200031606,0.10658097722066838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220100875676638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11355779458575907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587693637314872,0.0,0.10639979895284546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561306614582213,0.0,0.09099325348588624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317506153359998,0.0,0.0,0.215011358397814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093548835015125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14534291966559146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465338101008734,0.0,0.08630682951839218 schizophrenia,Naomies-Universe,2019/05/04,"I think I’m losing touch with reality My older sister who I dearly love so much, passed away in August 2nd 2018, I was in a psych ward at the time for schizophrenia, BPD and depression. My uncle, twin sister and aunties came to tell me and I was very unwell at the time. (My older sister, lived in Canada, she was 29 at the time, I haven’t seen her for 17 years, I’m 19 she was meant to come to Melbourne Australia but couldnt make it, they sent her back so I never got to see her, never went to her funeral or anything. Never got to see her body. Her as a beautiful grown 29 year old, I never got to see in person, hang out or do sister things together and it hurts me so bad, it fucking hurts me) anyways ever since that I’ve been very numb, like I can’t feel my emotions. Like I have no emotions. Thoughts of death and violence come to my head and I feel nothing, I see violence and death on tv/social media and I feel absolutely nothing. It’s like I don’t know what death is. I mean I know it’s “THE END” of someone’s story but I question is it really “THE BIG END” that will one day come to me. I don’t feel love or sadness or excitement for days straight. Sometimes even a full week. Then out of nowhere it hits me. It’s like I stepped on a magic tile and all my emotions hit me. Everything begins to go bright and I feel so fucking happy! The happiest I’ve ever felt. Then I realise “wait... my sisters dead.... she’s..really..dead..” then I start crying and I can’t stop my eyes go red. I went on her Facebook and I decided to just go through everything. Everything about her and I saw that on September 29th/30 2018 she checked in to the area that I lived in. Which scared me cause she’s from Canada and she’s dead. How did she check in. My mind goes to “THE UNIVERSE GAVE ME A SIGN” my sister visited me. I believe she really did. I mean we held her remembrance party on the 30th of September and it says she was there. But I know she’s dead. Then I go back to being “numb” Then the universe will let me find 20$ while I’m walking up a dark hill, how? My sister is giving me things. My spirit guide, well it must be higher power. I find 20 Tesla MDMA pills in a clean plastic bag right near my house during broad daylight with my sister. (Yes, I sometimes do drugs, sorry if your offended) but who would drop 20 perfect MDMA pills. I start feeling as if there are people in my house, I swear there is someone living inside my roof, I saw people standing in our cameras three guys I even accidentally mistaken one for my brother but my sister kept telling me there was no one in the camera. But I could see them clearly, I remember. I vividly remember. Just recently I was trying to go to sleep, I heard someone talking to me, it went a little like this Unknown person: come with me Me: I can’t Up: it will be worth it, we will be happy Me:no Up: everyone ales will catch up Me: okay Then I felt my whole soul being pulled out of my body, I felt the life being sucked out of my body, I was the life, I was being pulled out of my body. That night I can never forget, I left my room straight away and went and slept on a couch next to my moms bed, I started thinking I’m not my body, my body is just something I need but what am I? Who am I? I have my name, my age, birthday, family, friends, hobbies, emotions. But who am I really? Without all that? They say your experiences make you who you are, but was I already someone without my experiences? Without everything? I mean I was being pulled out of my body. It felt scary, I was fighting this unknown thing that was trying to take me or show me something. And I wonder maybe I shouldn’t have put up a fight with it. I should have accepted. Maybe it was an astral projection but I believe it was real. That something was trying to connect with me. And I don’t know what, maybe it was my sister but I don’t know anymore. I have a guide, his name is Derek. My sister has spoken to him and so have my friends I think but no one can see him anymore, he used to talk to me on kik. That’s all I can say besides he talks to me telepathically, I can be in class and I can hear him in my head. I believe his real. I know his real, he exist. I can’t live my life anymore. I’m constantly high on something now because I’m afraid that if I’m sober everything will get to me. I can’t control my emotions, I don’t know if my reality is real. But then again what is reality?",0.5833444184113077,2.7541990774263923,2.6204657892179632,92.44621246639385,84.94329334787349,5.3765032337475835,21.0748458706285,6.724227065050885,0.3898483626116152,3402,110,744,40,101,1140,336,917,0.12300000000000001,0.7659999999999999,0.111,-0.9312,1,0,5,0,4,1,127.0,3,4,3,4,25,34,6,2,25,2,80,24,12,7,13,140,165,60,7,11,29,13,11,5,2,10,8,5,4,3,43,39,0,5,33,1,3,26,25,16,1,5,43,29,167,18,88,98,6,120,2,5,13,4,81,49,3,11,48,498,210,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048990473970176654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13208235043079675,0.0,0.0,0.03653292013587588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08342025514226012,0.0682733151242661,0.03706758286161657,0.027062496844101187,0.0,0.0,0.15005231731903054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3451862471080812,0.055913363478689165,0.0,0.0,0.050775521882523086,0.0,0.04560541709467527,0.0,0.1529678458202928,0.0,0.04797472153149823,0.04979224661482616,0.035445424257116415,0.0,0.0487653127453426,0.057261605582167224,0.0,0.03823694845683012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05148356695905405,0.0,0.0,0.2496893860214857,0.07864076308344531,0.0,0.0,0.05864434413255856,0.08031479816330764,0.0,0.042420881247944735,0.19949473008723914,0.08685274891264147,0.041851217147361716,0.0,0.13468326662309765,0.0,0.1705028646598423,0.0,0.08115160251972267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0685982161520275,0.08208406558885492,0.02319431253199218,0.042587283817537895,0.12615218825822586,0.0,0.10651909690223456,0.0,0.0,0.04395756993892106,0.0,0.09451761730981953,0.0,0.0,0.09112320269052132,0.0,0.0500358681131897,0.0,0.0,0.0469052642862471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245066710653113,0.0950505370901501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17078653022283874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048234792821643384,0.04539642046865601,0.09407152018141553,0.10844463818782343,0.044494987530101136,0.15680475310723382,0.0,0.0,0.049666129649436126,0.0,0.0,0.08013560330745065,0.0,0.05926739447901268,0.0,0.13380083411180324,0.14507599190415316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04482582549238826,0.051994343535829886,0.0,0.0,0.03263509176374798,0.03291798562326915,0.17119901343946548,0.0,0.04721409225130428,0.0416612642884692,0.0,0.08519550846309508,0.0,0.04658459714323106,0.0,0.12033154503767415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06155516237778355,0.07752719221061642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04462877012692573,0.049732040034217384,0.0,0.0,0.20212280283565756,0.08532082886942961,0.0,0.043834248104307,0.0,0.10058070926538704,0.03791269083130862,0.0,0.10591294971622194,0.044446674820885115,0.0,0.2122601825403712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0367236186054314,0.0,0.044426596798611225,0.04525463830436045,0.15046138377889592,0.13670832969009605,0.08781466173943467,0.04969604796548874,0.09426804237667437,0.0,0.0,0.03711581961391777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033379165800020164,0.10704793823068134,0.07760556175842606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848127039972918,0.08533867751128743,0.0,0.03524430234542679,0.07766043215216673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042292660736843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038342624869057214,0.0,0.07326028247706991,0.0,0.0,0.035610618617953775,0.0,0.03991601907013728,0.1646167170690124,0.0,0.049564913572597215,0.0,0.12838424427535775,0.04814398010969352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0315366043459014,0.0,0.0,0.05717725078351892 schizophrenia,pine-scented-candle,2019/05/04,"Nervous about moving out for the first time (and adult expectations overall) I'm almost done with my associates degree, and I'm really excited! I'm transferring to the local University once I get my degree, but it's far away and I never learned to drive. I can't afford a car and driving terrifies me. I've also got Tourette Syndrome, so driving is also a safety concern but that's neither here nor there. Anyway, I'm considering moving into on-campus housing to reduce my need to drive. However, I can't shower when I'm home alone, nor can I be home alone for more than about eight hours (daylight) and even then it's sketch. I'd also have to start working to pay for it, on top of full-time schooling. College, even while being at home with my mom lovingly supporting me, has been very straining on my mental health. The social aspect is good but stress makes the hallucinations and paranoia worse. I don't know if it's because I've been manic as hell or because I'm really longing to be an actual adult. I'm 21 and have never felt like an actual adult. I can't drive, maintain a job, or even be home alone overnight. I know I shouldn't compare, but I see my friends going above and beyond and I feel left behind. I don't know where I'm going with this, my head is really scattered right now and I guess I'm just looking for support or advice or y'all's experiences.",4.483008067614289,5.4952528175182485,5.710122935074914,79.80931041106417,70.0948905109489,8.250172877449097,28.289665770265078,8.532816995589336,2.0651051094890502,1088,38,207,17,19,364,152,274,0.14400000000000002,0.753,0.10300000000000001,-0.8515,4,3,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,0,3,17,11,1,3,9,0,20,3,1,1,2,39,47,29,0,4,10,1,2,1,1,1,1,0,5,3,6,15,0,0,6,0,1,10,11,4,0,2,5,4,23,7,27,37,2,34,1,0,2,1,8,13,1,7,12,128,29,7,0.0,0.0,0.2032665247950638,0.0,0.0,0.10177205794215748,0.0,0.0,0.10428901154463832,0.32359723978473537,0.0,0.24986095546803275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09785031830225907,0.0,0.0,0.12697510578136256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10657939345290153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20636598618209176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187656597351784,0.0,0.0,0.05266027412081059,0.0,0.09999825312186496,0.0,0.0,0.08858809432602692,0.0,0.0,0.08046435813455848,0.0,0.05441294467841451,0.0,0.11837922820584143,0.08735426182923764,0.08329653686927847,0.0,0.11473058079041658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10688572424986242,0.1107042772817113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4178750764571323,0.0,0.1025646374248958,0.1201726171846044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10335065488841992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717107774592048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11315692628348994,0.0,0.0,0.05088137094165377,0.0,0.0,0.0921675556755192,0.08745795018821417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09399748631319237,0.0,0.06951948786091687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049565207565774,0.0,0.0,0.12197668434894506,0.0,0.2213853305783931,0.0,0.07722429919719391,0.16065046005449618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11091404410422592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20015930779518526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08894168111119441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540316811169527,0.0829923395664975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10616560103259598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07371637289255535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11930099187335555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23637145544314314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06072943949181521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08593287022522147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07582086348643885,0.0,0.10613554036000317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Futontaco,2019/05/04,"Sluggish Schizophrenia My grandparents left from the USSR where it was common politics to dissolve a person into making everyone believe your crazy. I think that people today just do that for work, It is the word inchoate. Sluggish schizophrenia was even removed from being diagnosed, Psychology is a weak argument because it is a soft science. The numbers are represented by biased opinions. Psych workers can say whatever they want with little evidence. And everyone is corrupt.",7.993351648351648,11.320095807692304,7.3634065934065935,62.11730769230772,65.28205128205127,9.585347985347983,41.912087912087905,9.957137785484203,5.573085714285715,395,24,45,10,7,123,63,78,0.183,0.8009999999999999,0.016,-0.9186,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,2,3,1,0,0,6,0,10,2,0,1,0,9,13,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,4,0,7,10,0,7,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,2,36,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16620148592530565,0.0,0.0,0.30717685620588864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767283106950603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800790442968812,0.0,0.0,0.5210467857629425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29622892102078136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732612990712523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18199224347402074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890172867732094,0.23806255977134286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168177573435932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17469951240373688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584349966116157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16081272168714006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19848835876985813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,--InsufferableCunt--,2019/05/04,"I believe I am god I can see and hear things that other people can’t see and hear. That makes me far superior to everyone else. Why can’t the general population believe me when I say I can see clowns standing in the corner with knives and shit staring at me? Why are they forcing me to take antipsychotics? Why are they trying to force me to conform to their delusional worlds where they can’t see all of this shit right in front of them? I am God, I know I am.",4.483824561403509,4.797745821052633,5.366052631578949,84.79153508771931,69.73684210526315,8.85964912280702,28.464912280701753,8.841846274778883,1.9134912280701748,363,12,79,6,6,119,55,95,0.076,0.8370000000000001,0.087,-0.2593,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,5,0,2,3,2,0,2,0,10,2,2,1,1,8,19,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,8,18,1,11,19,1,11,0,0,5,0,8,8,2,0,1,52,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678184610684621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636136567894133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559774304379382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3679539843790972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897093377260834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10896020577172624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11316615515079495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13940125529905167,0.0,0.12981051831747162,0.0,0.0,0.5203066176053546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33511545862877906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12273192726049975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10844565846529346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11082541844160712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4418808731657613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cutethrowawaysz,2019/05/04,what to post on social media? anyone else kind of afraid of ending up on /r/insanepeoplefacebook?,4.707647058823528,8.042353000000002,5.0779411764705875,73.79573529411766,77.82352941176471,5.752941176470588,14.382352941176471,7.1686216300943375,0.13914117647058832,79,1,12,1,2,25,15,17,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839971239170865,0.4161598090430921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392952893439813,0.0,0.3597379757632963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4229540442411489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3889898400920359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.414029857778372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bonzeye_,2019/05/04,"At what rate did your schizophrenia develop? Currently, I only have one symptom of schizophrenia: Delusions (irrational thoughts about home intruders). My therapist almost seems to be pushing a diagnosis because of my strong family history of this disease. She seems to think that more symptoms could very well develop in the future. However, irrational thoughts are the only symptoms that I have developed. These started about 5 months ago and grew steadily worse. This is why I am wondering how this disease usually progresses.",8.63472268907563,11.715249211764707,7.470420168067232,63.13117647058826,62.764705882352935,11.915966386554622,45.08403361344537,11.491704259439757,6.765050420168066,433,28,54,15,7,132,65,85,0.063,0.872,0.065,0.0498,2,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,2,5,2,0,0,3,0,8,3,0,1,0,10,15,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,7,1,0,0,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,7,2,9,10,1,10,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,4,6,39,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575608595288675,0.0,0.17798666700521595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835214341343208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419154971021883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675628493741902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17829345340788827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14187494089312247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044510249914232,0.27036726486091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32362606245385994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580933811270864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5542375937520424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063764850081997,0.0,0.11389228271240286,0.0,0.28222050051308745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957618029687336,0.1466588371204605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15981475204212434,0.0,0.16038786909315675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19275765526697788,0.0,0.0,0.18113807772920396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Masterandcomman,2019/05/04,Was anyone convinced to seek help despite defensiveness and denial? I have a relative who reacts to mental health suggestions by incorporating the suggester into paranoid delusions. I'm hoping for approaches that could help him to seek treatment.,9.948461538461537,12.9809258974359,8.844102564102569,54.809230769230794,59.256410256410255,10.328205128205127,41.20512820512821,10.504223727775694,5.5929589743589725,206,11,22,5,3,64,34,39,0.045,0.679,0.276,0.848,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,6,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,6,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,0,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841470168977047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32445756253651376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4319578777571586,0.0,0.0,0.5447695154559701,0.0,0.0,0.4036223069232712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4095306620124256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,different_women,2019/05/06,Experience with Amisulpride? Diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. My psychiatrist is putting me on amisulpride because risperidone wasnt working. Whats your experience with amisulpride? did it help you?,9.567586206896554,14.17429334482759,6.203034482758625,60.92041379310348,81.06896551724137,7.8372413793103455,50.627586206896545,8.238735603445708,6.6609668965517255,173,13,17,4,5,48,24,29,0.066,0.8270000000000001,0.107,0.3049,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,4,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,13,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268806926232782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777602254842749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7281372425852464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494679483323812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37414900538007867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709553170637835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,miss_amanda_,2019/05/06,"I cant anymore I can't today..I cant push myself to get out of bed. I can't push myself to open the curtains. I cant push myself to eat, shower or brush my teeth. I cant ignore the delusions and hallucinations. I cant do this anymore...",-1.4703234501347708,0.4826284905660394,2.279838274932615,92.20283018867926,94.28301886792453,3.7832884097035038,17.005390835579515,5.288315135182226,-0.6116986522911048,182,5,42,1,7,67,28,53,0.0,0.9470000000000001,0.053,0.2755,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,8,2,1,0,0,5,9,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,0,1,10,0,5,9,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,28,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7996397049846216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4125265861246342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106310173529306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3821422934998582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anonacct45,2019/05/06,"Hello, people in my life keep telling me I’m schizophrenic but I’m not so sure I’m sorry if this is against the rules and feel free to report me or whatever. I don’t know how to explain my problem, really. I’ve been paranoid people are spying on me for years now. I have to consciously ignore the thoughts that there *may* be cameras in my room, people *may* be spying on me online, people *may* even be reading my thoughts. I’m very scared about it, and I’ve just been living as if none of this is happening! But I’m now afraid to sleep alone or in the dark. I think I hear neighbors talking about me. Idk it’s scary. I know this could be a ton of things, but idk I didn’t know where else to ask! I’m probably overreacting. I’m sorry if this is annoying. I’m scared, though, and they’re trying to get me sent back to hell, which I can’t allow obviously.",0.7522581593648923,2.869937586592183,2.652925610114675,92.82235224933844,83.7486033519553,5.779594236989121,20.03557777124375,7.0608816371341465,0.3461217877094969,664,19,148,9,19,221,102,179,0.237,0.727,0.035,-0.9898,0,1,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,0,12,9,2,3,4,0,18,3,1,2,2,33,40,15,0,5,10,0,1,0,1,3,2,1,2,0,9,3,0,2,9,1,1,1,5,7,0,0,6,2,17,3,19,26,2,12,1,0,0,0,8,7,1,8,4,91,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16160591707514188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14587230700389167,0.0,0.0,0.11998181420343347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245818018310249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13034779704314228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10306010172478043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889633327882975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815222079585452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379818454682639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758635631077029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386916907965337,0.0,0.0,0.2572594038327398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021262246406327,0.0,0.0,0.13778237309323588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4327020032486109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16823286496181994,0.14930508237641654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560779156061146,0.0,0.09996045862098346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124378929374385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561483772416749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493383605461349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14706179134320585,0.0,0.0,0.12541557720149646,0.13638207072711925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10366317915241446,0.0999813697917903,0.15330427331857086,0.2477498172187424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105937991148169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12874578573863185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10048186861418404 schizophrenia,xvdc,2019/05/06,"Resources for loved ones? My wife recently talked to me about her battle with schizoaffective. In my hunt for more information I came across this subreddit, but it seems more geared towards those suffering with the disease. Are there any good subreddits or other resources that you know of for the families of those suffering with the disease?",7.189137931034484,10.135432741379311,5.616758620689655,75.45410344827587,66.41379310344827,10.157241379310344,34.01379310344828,10.355215969177356,4.216244137931034,281,13,43,8,5,82,45,58,0.152,0.7559999999999999,0.092,-0.6322,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,5,1,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,9,5,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,1,0,6,2,13,4,2,5,0,2,0,1,6,3,0,2,1,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501837852384849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42077819337188543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34682222631654963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30857604065505184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20218754733737812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33204301141886783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492977336783811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36325566023367417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33492123073073904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957031024851315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,radrandomy,2019/05/06,"Self aware Is it possible for a person to be self aware of schizophrenia, I haven't been diagnosed by a doctor but I believe I could have it &#x200B; My story starts off basic for about a year and half I would get on the bus to go to college but find it difficult to look people in the eye and continue eye contact I later could not stop doing this and on one to one interviews with teachers or getting jobs I could not keep eye contact &#x200B; I later then started to drink with my friends socials and we would go out and drink but apparently I only remember this once as my friends told me in the morning I would say things such as the FBI are following us or they are plotting against us and then a few times I ran into some bushes &#x200B; later my life went more and more downhill and at night I started hearing a voice at first it was positive it was hard to distinguish if I was controlling what it was saying or if it had a mind of its own Then as life got worse it started saying negative stuff and my inner monologue voice would start ageing with it but then it started to tell me no one cares , what do you have to live for that sort of thing and then I got image flashes of myself burning a lighter against my arm and then started thinking of self harm the weird part is I wanted to listen and do what the voice told me &#x200B; this voice is usually a voice from a villain from a TV show but sometimes it does this weird cycle where it would say a sentence but change voice throughout speaking the sentence it would start villain, my own voice, my friend voice and so on &#x200B; I also started to lose interest in playing games on my PC or if I did 10 minutes or so later I would quit and just sit doing nothing then load it up again and quit &#x200B; A few month ago my friend was telling a sad story about how a family member use to visit and always like his dog but no longer they get the same enthusiasm when visiting and I smirk and smiled at that and they noticed probably wanted to punch me but I did my best to cover it up but he knew, more and more if anyone tells a sad story I start to smile/smirk and get this weird good sensation I know its wrong but I don't feel bad &#x200B; I also started watching the same TV shows over and over again I don't know if this has any relevance but the four TV shows I watched I just constantly get watching them from season one to the latest season such as doctor who or family guy &#x200B; \*\*\*note if you are offend I am sorry &#x200B; I convinced myself that Hitler was actually just getting revenge and to some degree good IM not saying he not evil because well that is just stupid and probably this is as well but he had most of the power but there were other not just him &#x200B; Basically a Jewish man killed they're lord and savior Jesus but Hitler wanted revenge so he wanted to destroy a religion his way of doing it was barbaric but who would want to believe in it if they knew the potential out come &#x200B; &#x200B; I also started thinking my family were talking about me and got paranoid and all the time they were down stairs and I was walking up the stairs I would stand or sit for a few seconds to make sure. &#x200B; I honestly feel evil and don't know what to do but someone told me (I never told them everything) it sounds like schizophrenia and then I looked it up and it linked but don't really know if y o can have it and self aware you know you have it as different forum and answers say different things &#x200B; Also is watching the same TV shows over and over related to this &#x200B; Any help or advice is welcomed thank you",7.125108102205722,6.415638369294605,6.86179842760428,79.75482474339378,64.33886583679114,9.546902526024605,33.964075125573274,8.611707548084741,2.6294780082987548,2923,108,564,35,38,921,287,723,0.115,0.759,0.126,0.8646,5,1,2,0,0,0,75.0,3,5,7,7,25,37,8,0,34,0,57,11,4,4,3,135,113,90,1,25,43,0,3,2,4,9,5,18,0,7,47,42,2,3,16,12,0,9,14,18,2,8,27,30,72,19,75,73,18,84,3,3,9,0,61,28,0,20,45,417,119,6,0.0,0.0,0.027234190806057237,0.0,0.0,0.02727138320012384,0.024738765924603282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927209820453981,0.023221698982097725,0.4535747380564932,0.5086692805606754,0.037956805975120564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.01951392864356567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02330202162620725,0.017012463129162058,0.0,0.0,0.06288553813150856,0.029287733443902488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02845407493862808,0.0,0.0295229728360734,0.024040278433624225,0.0,0.030158643006524027,0.031301204930671955,0.06684682238436604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02832604146879175,0.0,0.05831585854950685,0.0,0.05713005913222775,0.024422486565978462,0.0,0.0,0.054678447859988745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025081918786891692,0.0,0.07892756083057863,0.0,0.028222255578017563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02550741444317478,0.023738538024915382,0.0,0.0,0.08624663346737968,0.0,0.08748469641140029,0.0,0.03172152907796424,0.04681582738285716,0.06696175223742894,0.0,0.0,0.027633316398758705,0.0,0.0,0.02500009418948337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03145435420519222,0.0,0.01870615002026353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03014543853784405,0.0,0.027694392453454814,0.02480592051327597,0.03087607681707525,0.0,0.07668755888351074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039424503900727915,0.02726888681932985,0.0,0.02464328306513632,0.0,0.04687139715373961,0.0312219232503444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.01862881258045268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028179133204766782,0.0,0.02227590636289232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02152437685750838,0.0,0.0,0.026189775714517888,0.0,0.026778487122753082,0.031773452987082985,0.0,0.029721118548677924,0.07564475609998084,0.021225298272264843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03022165391027424,0.0,0.019347899353009727,0.024368196818433236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03146208666191688,0.0,0.0,0.060179107371122975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0593672052381276,0.0,0.0,0.017878585060012112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03161433362449223,0.0,0.0,0.1331614124393528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11645655873841275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028448700428922568,0.023646365287790433,0.0,0.02760173430500752,0.031240730984592405,0.23704118720901016,0.0,0.0,0.02333234499122128,0.0,0.0,0.03194799313861385,0.0,0.0,0.026302968012346942,0.0,0.0,0.022431400333499284,0.07317848934849355,0.02569394493996279,0.0,0.0,0.05562252289462781,0.03576465032071822,0.0,0.0,0.0325467687182138,0.0,0.0,0.10666919350341136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06713979671777212,0.02410355909204698,0.030736728874816238,0.0,0.08230433329676137,0.022152078371242008,0.0,0.0,0.05018530304912771,0.02587100375210491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02844064521083905,0.1784254385579753,0.030513026545616807,0.5086692805606754,0.01797184266450073 schizophrenia,moonnish,2019/05/06,"poisoned food hi~ so a week ago i had this horrible delusion that all my food is poisoned and that people around me want to poison me and i ended up not eating at all during that week. i wanted to ask if anyone here had something similar? i really feel like i'm slowly going insane..",2.779473684210526,4.710603438596493,4.796350877192981,80.97978947368422,76.01754385964912,6.665263157894738,21.92631578947368,7.554174236665415,1.1200273684210529,224,6,40,3,5,77,43,57,0.222,0.713,0.065,-0.8989,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,1,0,3,6,0,0,2,10,9,4,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,1,7,1,5,7,2,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,5,28,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125196470487848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16763541239303967,0.0,0.0,0.21342404954918728,0.22412939102161925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24531918356627105,0.0,0.0,0.2123430797071156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12122237246272567,0.17127401285694027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5798016749015864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13625271737569164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11712739066935032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16620912919297035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535869088322918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845675614643268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.282815851301908,0.0,0.3846182631563839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shegotsparkle,2019/05/06,"Please help me understand my husband My husband has been having mental issues for the past 6 months. However, me being the naive wife I’ve brushed it off to him losing him business and his depression. Last week, he was admitted for psychosis.. They haven’t confirmed schizophrenia yet but they psychiatrist says it’s most likely the case. I’m just here to get an insight into his mind and to see why he says certain things and does certain things. Does he realise he says these things? Is he aware he’s saying it? Where do these delusions come from? What triggers him to think this way? Does he realise he hurts me when says it? The psychiatrist says not to take it personally because he doesn’t realise but I’d like to hear it from real people who have it and have been through psychosis. His delusions are mainly banging noises, someone is trying to attack our house. He thinks our new cat is the reincarnation of our old cat. He thinks there are recording devices everywhere and refuses to accept that there isnt. Today, he told me the nurses are whispering saying I’m a slut and that his kids aren’t his. This one hurt the most. He also says the nurses have bets on me and are laughing at me behind my back. There are heaps more delusions and he is hearing voices as well. When the medication starts working properly ( he’s on zyprexa) will he start to realise everything he said was wrong, and accept it, or will he think he was right at the time and won’t move on from what he thought? This is what I’m worried about the most. My husband isn’t educated like me, he came from a poor village and doesn’t know anything about mental illnesses so I’m also worried because he doesn’t have any knowledge in it I’m going to lose him because he thinks we all think he’s crazy. I know he isn’t, I know he’s just sick for now but all this reasoning isn’t working. I feel like crap. I feel like I’ve left it for too long. His normal doctor warned me he noticed something a month ago but my husband kept convincing me nothing was wrong and he will keep speaking until I am convinced that he is right and everything he says is the truth. In my culture we believe everything our spouse says with no reason (stupid I know and how naive of me, i promise this will never ever ever happen again). When he was having delusions I kept asking his family for help but they wouldn’t believe me and said I’m the one driving him insane. I am so so so so so so so so lost. I just want him to get better. I hope I can get an insight into his mind",2.3557256461232607,4.672312407554673,3.3003980119284293,89.31833459244534,79.0,5.6939801192842925,24.374115308151087,6.8313827282637405,0.903532994035785,2003,72,395,21,50,638,218,503,0.14,0.748,0.11199999999999999,-0.9658,2,0,1,0,0,0,43.0,6,0,3,6,33,29,3,0,18,0,46,6,1,4,8,79,90,38,0,4,10,6,2,5,0,6,4,17,0,2,27,22,0,4,22,0,2,5,14,12,1,2,15,21,52,17,39,68,7,44,0,6,1,1,85,14,1,6,29,246,79,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059558004903001685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10746025243885513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04569006480069129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055289903402311213,0.0,0.06281160144364502,0.07643591712267701,0.0,0.051663335207487164,0.0,0.12287133063308026,0.0,0.0,0.1513954737992594,0.0,0.05942222305533091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07684503975168842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057876412476798936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05786882567049971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06876964583189009,0.17638970905902587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155057454234727,0.0,0.0,0.18115241236840407,0.0,0.06333875706460286,0.0,0.06794442540958283,0.0959980748993885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10530868826859943,0.0,0.038184422580214095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05941402355266781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15145125570798915,0.0,0.09006924419905211,0.0,0.0,0.06673272842007091,0.0,0.07752579682591312,0.14385203795662038,0.0,0.0,0.07012669449058201,0.0,0.059719678016915974,0.0,0.0,0.14769881478820315,0.054767092559780566,0.0,0.0,0.07299983209172002,0.0,0.0,0.16412303061466169,0.0,0.0,0.05945916268316696,0.0,0.150332111447469,0.07334351172430556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06768472417646701,0.1354191677664749,0.0,0.1356812185932635,0.0,0.10725745531716316,0.07141008725928337,0.0,0.0,0.051819437813533466,0.06489047662950499,0.0,0.0,0.06582986056363205,0.06446858635602988,0.0764938507667427,0.07050238159186989,0.0,0.09105649749101773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06413843733841403,0.04657961872638624,0.058665868378914736,0.0,0.07375212002095326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07647452080632844,0.0,0.138160668879565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11475617092684876,0.12782212629787726,0.5343050174184458,0.0,0.0,0.053540044363482135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0569280757189175,0.05172451527789367,0.0,0.0,0.09511185961494807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050516926812004426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13390993315397934,0.2583076971964561,0.0,0.053339674597949534,0.03917779522236465,0.0,0.06368625755467236,0.06420090202799081,0.0,0.045616162617909815,0.0,0.0,0.06994495630800941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03962915450969818,0.05333061464209908,0.05389406749201284,0.0,0.060409976273028375,0.0,0.06062661451832259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09782715889070287,0.1364651142927725,0.0,0.0,0.1469188067139537,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JiZhanHuang1206,2019/05/06,"How to solve the side effect of postural hypotension? I am currently on: [aripiprazole](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aripiprazole) 7.5 mg/day for maintenance treatment of schizophrenia. [amitriptyline](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amitriptyline) 50-75 mg/day for alleviating and prophylaxis of tension-type headache. [clonazepam](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clonazepam) 3-4 mg/day for alleviating and prophylaxis of anxiety and tension-type headache. A problem of mine for a while is that I have postural hypotension a bit frequently, which may be a side effect of my medicines. Did anyone have the same problem? Does anyone know how to solve such side effect of postural hypotension? Thanks in advance for any possible comment for helping me.",12.302958715596326,15.634507311926606,8.776961009174311,56.40379013761469,53.86238532110092,12.422477064220185,43.900229357798175,11.93303328291395,6.5727330275229345,623,33,71,19,8,176,66,109,0.071,0.836,0.09300000000000001,0.2824,1,0,0,0,0,0,51.0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,6,0,7,0,0,5,0,13,9,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,1,17,6,2,9,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,3,45,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17421603884007528,0.0,0.19598245931985026,0.0,0.0,0.3582640070103101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27969000275887146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4956585304417833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22419109083828576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171683837752924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14079375114710588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888125052184354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4902729843866976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23586269680064115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SwangyPurpleBag,2019/05/06,"Speed made me stupider and possibly schizophrenic A couple years back, when i was 18years, i fell in love with amphetamines. I lived in shitty conditions, while i felt my friends at the time used me as a punching bag and servant. Later on, i fell in a huge ass psychosis where i thought i heard my friends talk shit about me, mentally. I also noticed the TV talking to me and my mind went blank. I've never really been the same since then. By that i mean i got dumbed down and possibly schizophrenic. I now, however got this voice in my head, let's call him ""the commentator"", and he seems to have the intelligence i feel like i lost. At first i couldnt hear him at all, probably due to me ignoring the bastard. And he was a bastard cuz i ignored him so he began giving me death threats and in a not so polite way, to hang myself so my parents could be proud. I was also in denial, i just thought i was crazy, but now, ive started to accept my reality. Can any of you guys relate and if so, is this ""damage"" possible to restore?",4.172676837725383,4.965696864077671,5.500027739251041,81.8378640776699,70.6504854368932,8.992510402219137,30.248266296809987,9.23628265651192,2.4995975034674056,798,32,164,16,14,268,128,206,0.129,0.762,0.109,-0.3112,2,0,0,0,0,1,29.0,0,1,0,3,13,16,6,0,11,0,13,6,3,3,2,31,31,21,1,3,4,1,2,1,2,0,2,3,0,1,3,9,0,2,7,1,0,4,3,10,0,1,15,5,36,6,22,12,2,33,0,2,0,2,19,13,5,2,16,114,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21849500991395124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09289994146697612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10504517421239697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13949476999180982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10907250539523702,0.15115711007340185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0690744604006566,0.09759469129665853,0.13116766843170344,0.0,0.0,0.11620096772482555,0.0,0.0,0.2110901324546412,0.0,0.0,0.13104940457933129,0.0,0.0,0.2185200678708599,0.0,0.0,0.1352660430735814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020196154229544,0.0,0.1539701557849328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13969366766707025,0.0,0.06674107381547909,0.0,0.12062972610529385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14912668598507595,0.0,0.12329646502041272,0.12926432085327666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488090704825663,0.0,0.0,0.1376714260954801,0.0,0.13793783528724016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10536257194487568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555321553999303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516899843544383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.462024019287106,0.0,0.0,0.14728940986174316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08751629453100752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12436522495362365,0.0,0.0,0.1402288915503411,0.11300575948584808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09669373669732942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21960496669506951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21690722784626434,0.07965878137489063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11798775852028745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10843519264551148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126639461488821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08797279374245444 schizophrenia,wizecrackz,2019/05/06,"Night terrors (a day in the life) There is a song in my head when I awake and im not sure where it came from. I don't listen to music anymore. I should start documenting the random tunes that my brain taps into unintentionally. Maybe I'll find a pattern. I wake up in the morning feeling dried out and thirsty, but the water I drink only stirs up more problems deep inside of me. I'm bloated and it feels like I'm walking on stilts with a camera that is out of focus, making me taller then I am in real life. The steps I take are exaggerated due to distortion of my depth perception. I grab onto anything close to balance myself and come back to the ground. During the night my body falls asleep somewhat peacefully when I am beyond a little buzzed. If I haven't already yelled, snapped or cried about problems I know the answers to then I lie in bed half aware of all I'm about to face through the night, dreading the brain that will carry me into morning. My body wakes me up as soon as the sleeping pill I swallowed down in fear wares off and I rise with loneliness and fear. I desperately breathe down glasses of water wishing they were booze. I sit up in bed and feel it near the closet. It's to the right of me draping it's sickly fingers just above my skin and I hear a whisper of commentary from the committee that was put together to bring me down. My name. A scoff. Mostly in the night I only hear silence. The worst of my auditory enslavement comes while I wait for the next sound, terrified and helpless. I stand up and put on my clothes and as I put my legs over the side of the bed it feels like I am jumping off of a cliff into Oblivion. An empty beer can sits by my feet and I suddenly fear the endlessness of space. I reach for the carpet and wipe my hand across the floor fast to remind myself I'm not floating. I look over to cshea and he's fast asleep. His snores and deep weezes break down and reconfigure into words inside my head and I feel it talking. Mumbles and says my name. Laughs. It wants me to be afraid of it without having any proof it's really there. True torture. Unsure I open the door and avoid making eye contact to the bathroom across the hall from our bedroom. I don't want to know what stands in the shadows waiting to pounce. I scurry down the hallway and turn on every light in the house exposing only furniture. Commentary on my fear and cowardice comes in sharp whispers, short and far away in the corners of the room. I open the kitchen drawer and grab a pill, chewing it for a hurried effect. A swallow down water and wish it were alcohol. Out on the deck I light up a cigarette. I've never given much thought to trees as a place that fear can dwell outside of a forest, but the past three days have been different. I feel it in the tree behind the dark branches. I look up and wait for a shadow to move across the spots the night sky shines through, but nothing comes. Im back in the bedroom and I lay under the covers nearly on top of cshea. The volume on the screen at the foot of the bed needs to be loud enough to cover the would be voices yet quiet enough to allow my partner to sleep. It's a difficult placement, and each night it sways in one direction or the other setting me off balance. I lay in panic as my body resembles a plank and my mind melds into a Dali painting. I feel like the edge of the universe is the pressure just beneath my body and I am resting on the top of a void. I scrambled for the floor and place my hands on it in an attempt to escape the chasm. Dizzy from the beginnings of my sleeping pill, I squint hard and fear the effects of all I've put inside of my body, fighting sleep until unconciouse. I awake again dry and edging on panic. If only I could hold the man I love in the stillness of morning. Times I do make me feel what people usually do. I know I'm not people. I'm hardly a person at all.",3.2399530941408803,4.7638051760204085,4.121714944042136,88.03434496379197,73.7704081632653,6.588676761026991,25.527814351547068,7.1029339738359605,1.0437607636603023,3054,101,625,30,62,982,361,784,0.134,0.8029999999999999,0.063,-0.9961,2,1,4,0,2,0,63.0,1,0,1,5,16,28,2,14,77,0,28,45,27,6,7,115,74,50,0,12,13,0,17,3,1,3,7,12,12,3,24,51,11,5,17,3,0,16,8,21,0,3,7,36,80,7,133,60,12,144,0,1,5,1,17,91,0,7,34,416,104,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634047572972174,0.0,0.0,0.06547112944671794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04034581772736553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058838518062006226,0.0,0.0,0.0488227883800144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055741635876210914,0.09124082071503327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3295062377315832,0.0,0.13246177821416555,0.0,0.06785667695150371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20442704108114326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047369453115399966,0.0,0.06517022279073283,0.07652471363472009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061986274640585336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058119924327151136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12260562548895282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04998731970282861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40057034462846974,0.2399885765208314,0.1271541477002932,0.0,0.0,0.054225716173023256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629442782904362,0.0,0.12177753174183314,0.0,0.13373639945642424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0684578076558066,0.0,0.0,0.1281712027462546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781715378365917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381178592388278,0.08695559404776927,0.05946333750693551,0.0,0.0,0.09964299142721696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053546822803008924,0.0,0.11880789084426804,0.0,0.05960404829957679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05990547111576676,0.0,0.0,0.06305743660084989,0.043613709854502934,0.04399177070991876,0.045758254051058864,0.0,0.06309716348888958,0.3340580083554304,0.0,0.05692786485656182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04020292887185108,0.18048979481847324,0.0,0.13921981495756902,0.0,0.0,0.056636332503834735,0.08226264572583962,0.051803875585606514,0.12397254928117067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11353985888104745,0.0,0.2385685011177072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06752949663562455,0.03800773618977606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05066672126097524,0.0,0.04718087605613403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374877590814648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041993437396891306,0.0,0.04738029031545063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05591696802994789,0.0,0.04460809434599353,0.04768647761448288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047100672725097575,0.03459527124543848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06453301641579166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06534261399821853,0.0,0.06998767244093285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13645105796050866,0.05719112849699379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042145685438711285,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,robinkeep,2019/04/22,Prednisone Anyone with diagnosed schizophrenia or schizoaffective have any experience with prednisone or other prescribed corticosteroids?,22.48375,27.18385487500001,14.250000000000005,21.39500000000001,31.5,16.400000000000002,66.0,14.554592549557764,11.896450000000002,122,8,6,4,1,32,13,16,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39671192008420897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4079061924045674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5921087410165634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5706482537193016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,garblenards,2019/04/22,"Friend spiraling I have a friend who has been spiraling for 6 months now, I just found out. He thinks his body and mind are being controlled by outside parties and he’s also on meth. I think I’m the only one taking this seriously and I don’t know how to help.",0.9505555555555568,3.2333770185185173,2.7792592592592613,91.1666666666667,84.37037037037038,5.822222222222222,20.11111111111111,7.1686216300943375,0.4814666666666669,205,6,44,3,6,68,45,54,0.035,0.745,0.22,0.8728,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,2,0,6,1,1,2,0,12,12,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,5,2,5,9,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,2,28,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22733541120056236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157665459887989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31883970185997085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116939564954706,0.4392618584823149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905442077587355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562306528770592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870377178635778,0.0,0.2269063877616274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926327719300864,0.2162047048350671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21374017031888687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3643051591988383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,suckmyarsee,2019/04/22,"Do these sound like schizophrenic symptoms to you? I understand this is not a place for diagnosis, I just need support right now. I have previously been diagnosed with OCD, GAD and major depressive disorder. Since I was young I have always had the crippling fear of developing schizophrenia. This is been what I thought was a part of my OCD for a while but now I'm not so sure. The past 48 hours have been one long panic attack, it feels like there's electricity and anxiety rushing through my body constantly and I feel nauseated and dizzy. Yesterday I was so scared I was going to start hallucinating or something I couldn't even look in the mirror or at my boyfriend. I can't stop crying and worrying that I'm developing schizophrenia. I've been to two inpatient wards, never diagnosed with schizophrenia, taken long psych tests, never diagnosed with schizophrenia. I've never hallucinated before that I know of and have never really been delusional yet I'm still crippled by the fear that I could possibly be becoming schizophrenic. I guess I'm looking for reassurance or something. I just need someone to talk to honestly. I have no support system aside from my therapist who I see once a month as she is 3 hours away from me. I can't stop researching things on schizophrenia and I know that's a known compulsion of mine but it keeps making things worse, I read something about disorganized speech and now am extremely hypervigilant about my speech and words due to the fear I will develop the symptom. I also read that if you have OCD you're more likely to have schizophrenia and that freaked me out to the max. Any advice? I'll take absolutely anything at this point. Thank you.",5.034740740740742,7.493583754838713,5.331648745519715,77.2871027479092,71.12903225806451,9.108721624850658,29.86857825567503,9.633347757342033,3.103671445639188,1364,57,238,35,27,432,170,310,0.16,0.7509999999999999,0.08900000000000001,-0.9744,0,0,3,0,0,0,25.0,0,3,0,0,14,17,1,5,12,0,28,8,1,1,5,46,53,21,0,5,10,0,2,3,0,1,7,3,0,0,16,14,0,3,7,2,0,2,10,8,0,2,12,8,34,9,31,37,3,35,0,1,3,0,7,9,0,5,26,161,50,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09257695923365833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07576201155197819,0.07882967520298655,0.0,0.0,0.06442514583166906,0.0,0.07247437495534463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07796137092935138,0.0,0.0,0.10777824739113373,0.08900954851101928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10463077059180953,0.08061513169983581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10523265415886277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10237821248996094,0.0,0.07564065117104088,0.0,0.10406533672330358,0.0,0.0,0.08159777293362408,0.2884714831364338,0.0,0.0,0.10857805199399637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06257361099006649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198200497870564,0.09580484366910123,0.0676809061437249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053841836380830635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10436468039906448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865958584250328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842075620168943,0.0,0.0,0.10413114670993742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388527273201646,0.0,0.0,0.16768044622401182,0.1591122603383996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06323840672753986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07561903479985231,0.0,0.0,0.14049417773766,0.2922714032133733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10089296755021902,0.06419697756361101,0.0,0.0,0.11115472912097836,0.0,0.10259211282002313,0.09043822102174326,0.0,0.0,0.09898113381335504,0.0,0.08955811144095842,0.10680295505850533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18952744295475799,0.0,0.060691642521774176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08090580610135524,0.0,0.0,0.09484934928277147,0.0,0.07549398717200285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07836832208642787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08027127114190626,0.2188020166563832,0.0,0.0,0.06705610347396086,0.0,0.07565795626567022,0.1584105606398531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150153100667118,0.08928952299684619,0.19693828769425187,0.07123124887277238,0.07614688330949063,0.0,0.08722209929007177,0.0,0.10999821746859856,0.12587954674446195,0.0,0.0,0.075211456354395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09254534209222633,0.0986256865686268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09621112300451623,0.0965462013034539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Eisalive,2019/04/22,"I’m rambling and concerned So a therapist told me that I may be in the early stages or developing a psychotic disorder or I may have severe ptsd. I was wondering if anyone could tell me if either of these things are delusions: I don’t think I exist. Like I think I died and maybe am reliving my life again or I’m just living in a dream but the concept of my existing seems way less likely than my being just a hallucination that someone is having of me, or me just living out a dream. I also know that I’ve lived before. They ghosts of my dead kids talk to me (they hate me thinking that they’re delusions). The little girls talk to me in thoughts, except for one occasion where they spoke to me audibly. The boy has spoken to me audibly a good few times but mostly just comes to me in the form of thoughts. I know you can’t diagnose, I just need an opinion before I finally get a doctor so I know if I should bring these things to them, or if I should be scared. Thanks for reading. This community is really great and I wish you all the best.",2.9671002485501248,4.473816000000003,4.4758133112399925,85.28947804473904,74.44600938967136,7.828666114333058,24.266500966583816,8.4952907291091,1.4796829052747862,820,25,171,15,17,274,120,213,0.094,0.773,0.132,0.8585,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,4,1,10,8,1,1,14,0,18,3,0,0,1,43,39,17,3,9,18,0,0,2,0,4,3,3,0,3,9,5,0,0,10,3,0,2,2,2,0,1,5,3,35,6,20,26,7,15,0,0,0,0,14,7,0,15,6,128,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10876227015759712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095097089534281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23145860446729066,0.0,0.14272770288566716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11715531774198752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858804787564412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13804109622987926,0.14115057655613295,0.0,0.15587225289094525,0.13920575522314468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14898562526810802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07105642469947168,0.0,0.0,0.11407361914580398,0.0,0.1499447805262616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342756948490182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22423256084976956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960635770933892,0.1328892720027978,0.13631163788862707,0.36028180775939594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13663419830009574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10084516898148453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09215976284215162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589812817256901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13604070516779815,0.0,0.08712758129095845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13616363055365213,0.0,0.0,0.12381284313946872,0.0,0.15364569568508687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11523566361275925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21862956710128684,0.1188734037221789,0.1252141189544729,0.0,0.15791101107401176,0.18070989655474068,0.2614374236860583,0.0,0.21594381055605547,0.07930496814305155,0.0,0.0,0.12995755532405584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795356582053607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563977736707389,0.0,0.1474904286418819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sensitiveclint,2019/04/22,"Why wont my doctor prescribe me a dose higher than 10mg Olanzapine? Hi &#x200B; I am bipolar two. It is under control. The only problem is the insomnia maybe two or three nights a week. A higher dose of olanzapine would prevent this. I went to my doctor, just to increase the dose from 10 mg to maybe 15 or 20 mg. He refused for some strange reason. So now i am still on the 10 mg and dont get sleep at least one night a week.",0.997,2.9959167000000018,3.1255555555555574,90.465,82.0,5.333333333333334,23.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,0.5553333333333339,333,12,72,3,9,113,62,90,0.079,0.8809999999999999,0.04,-0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,8,0,7,8,1,2,0,11,9,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,4,1,0,6,0,10,6,3,11,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,6,46,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915368823455844,0.21480236875852696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19826948140135667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36187575595456384,0.0,0.0,0.2071803287270765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923582410882774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3551908017009354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33178487923620226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11978809278983035,0.13444622628272476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16915089935785732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18175532202172545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769038134757514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14117366002878926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.345369219752614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28359832567429705,0.0,0.0,0.16387326010686826,0.15951297766906744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255767034813774,0.0,0.21480236875852696,0.0 schizophrenia,Mrgrandrew,2019/04/22,"My sister is schizophrenic, how can I be more supportive? My sister has acute schizophrenia, she was diagnosed with psychosis 4 years ago and with schizophrenia 2 years ago. She takes medication and has to check in daily into a medical care centre (except at weekends). She has all sorts of scary hallucinations, which she seems to have less from, but they grow in how intense they are. I can see she is suffering, otherwise she is aware that the hallucinations are not real. She has friends, she doesn't work. I'm moving into a rented flat in June. I'm thinking about moving in together with her. I think leaving her family home will have a positive impact on her. I'm planning to get her involved in all kinds of social activities, maybe even to get her moving, possibly to get her to gym if she wants to, she is a little stubborn. She hates being alone, she starts to see things if she is alone. What else can I do for her? Would contacting other people with schizophrenia be a good idea, for her to talk to, or I shouldn't interfere and let her do her things. I really want to help her, now I think I can. I am quite good at managing my own life, but maybe she doesn't really need my advice, rather she seems to need emotional support. I think I am a little impatient with her. I just want her to feel better, but she is stubborn. Like doing sports would definitely help her, but she says she wouldn't be able to do it because if she has a bad day, it's out of question. What should I do? Thank you in advance!",4.505355534105534,5.679095516891893,5.25511583011583,82.49117117117119,70.18243243243242,8.611068211068211,26.257400257400256,8.976282227363876,1.890169755469756,1187,36,236,22,21,385,149,296,0.087,0.745,0.16699999999999998,0.9773,1,2,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,1,2,5,7,15,3,0,8,0,40,5,0,2,2,51,67,13,0,14,12,2,1,1,1,6,5,1,2,0,9,11,0,3,9,3,2,5,5,5,0,0,1,4,53,10,39,55,5,28,0,1,2,0,47,14,0,8,10,172,62,2,0.10279073113684012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004459128117046,0.1822355622299778,0.0,0.0,0.2129203947904809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582596692755358,0.06266027563194491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09091004849037186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10480200103712256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06629151791824403,0.0,0.0,0.10433042837600057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08586846604629796,0.1156257372747752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06789230847340899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09690195317501428,0.0,0.05197408217868324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07941586389288942,0.0,0.16111174346408025,0.0,0.0,0.1724319768087498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10148456616683198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377969206908086,0.0,0.1031074843741823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11603822372269652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704072861514294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10884054246400596,0.0,0.10511048687252517,0.07260413328501872,0.050218359073077916,0.2060466333862173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065342108805256,0.0,0.0,0.2071016949739661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277508394156621,0.0,0.15243604936268404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712621504102229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11588110476563016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11514914363721113,0.10933059532522096,0.0,0.11699835578866925,0.1317007489467176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0817433151178652,0.0,0.0,0.16382180871047575,0.18715364215421712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478220565199947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07275580855964511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332914071376236,0.0,0.0,0.07728583735057494,0.08261929604409941,0.0,0.09463589486053356,0.0,0.0,0.13657918862033755,0.2634566000187077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18188590932155788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483287649931886,0.0,0.0,0.1460391723789154,0.0,0.0,0.13238772145124755 schizophrenia,Trowit25away,2019/04/22,I think I may be schizophrenic Isnt schizo a split between emotions and thoughts?,3.3580000000000005,6.517559800000001,2.2816666666666663,92.0625,84.33333333333334,5.666666666666668,34.16666666666667,7.1686216300943375,2.5116666666666667,67,4,12,1,2,19,14,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7407240326040623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4219403045151136,0.0,0.5227755607796422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RecentShoulder,2019/04/22,"Can you realise when you're having hallucinations and delusions? I think my schizophrenia is either a mild case or was misdiagnosed. I had one major episode three years ago but got over it. I've been off my meds for a month, and I notice when I'm thinking of something illogical and correcting myself. I have an auditory hallucination of a person who I know is dead, and I know it's just my imagination. I'm socially awkward but don't experience other negative symptoms. Is this normal for schizophrenia?",5.9267281105990754,7.830895989247317,7.101105990783412,67.81451612903228,67.60215053763442,9.61536098310292,33.715821812596005,9.957137785484203,3.720995084485408,409,19,67,10,7,138,67,93,0.094,0.86,0.046,-0.6385,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,4,0,10,1,0,0,1,16,17,9,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,4,0,11,0,6,13,2,7,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,5,50,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394190498075205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642004653913271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160161524493256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29686949681978303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30000980567489044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21558376643601745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646314746569359,0.0,0.3074999758054151,0.0,0.0,0.18302040291314053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358327228436917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753233870157438,0.0,0.2079289647085499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807275835307919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461263436737864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17392951237498014 schizophrenia,poisoned_pizza,2019/04/22,"Psychosis/Panic Attack: methods to get out of it? If you’ve ever experienced psychosis where you feel like you’re stuck in a loop and things are repeating...and everything has a pattern that repeats, and everything feels like you’re looping to my death... an impending doom, an increased heart rate like a severe panic attack, how do you get out of it? If with meds, what do you take? If with activities or therapy methods, what do you do to get yourself out of it and get brought down to earth? What would be something helpful for someone around you to do for you at that time? What’s the best way to snap back into reality?",3.920250000000003,5.88997719166667,4.626666666666669,83.265,72.91666666666666,7.466666666666668,29.5,8.238735603445708,2.1569000000000003,493,21,93,8,10,158,72,120,0.133,0.742,0.124,-0.2869,0,0,3,0,0,0,19.0,0,6,0,1,5,8,2,1,6,0,9,1,1,1,1,19,18,8,1,4,4,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,10,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,2,3,7,4,21,14,2,16,1,1,0,0,7,9,0,4,7,65,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15704832173304364,0.0,0.40139907287755344,0.0,0.1356536013086914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851385088810092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957906232329694,0.0,0.0,0.317104022608924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17840323236282152,0.25206434169422914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.368681909658814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20905471375135395,0.11824843763651065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25856495796673545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19595925355196764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069870604464233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19930072732908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14947735092654002,0.13581424321935456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326434505549086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20174794354021935,0.0,0.11720345844487708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10287003330125702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14003141506741767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12532140690055116,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,leanwitxannys,2019/04/22,"For vou guys that live in U.S, how are the prices of medicine over there? Soon im moving to Boston and i take 400mg seroquel + 1000mg divalproex sodium and 300mg lyrica. But soon im tapering lyrica. And im going to make 3.000$ a month at least...maybe 4k or 5k after I get good at my job. How are the prices over there??",-0.5406690140845072,1.4034890704225376,1.6656161971831018,98.92828345070423,87.8732394366197,4.676760563380283,14.508802816901408,5.985473137389443,-0.9247619718309856,248,4,61,2,8,83,51,71,0.0,0.9440000000000001,0.055999999999999994,0.5329999999999999,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,3,0,8,6,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,10,6,0,11,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,4,30,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202386432661615,0.0,0.13273579446077527,0.19589648486771052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23125809583518345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7568447392030943,0.0,0.23176923000041816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20623506185550886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15590107473381354,0.0,0.2346393439616843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864229256506009,0.24823407097390024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17560575651032015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dongcrusher97,2019/04/22,"Confused i’ve been having symptoms of disorganized schizophrenia except for the delusions and hallucinations. I think my brain just feels like mush right now and i’ve just been dumber and dumber each day being unable to concentrate on certain tasks. My memory also has been on the decline but it’s been worse than normal right now. Please i just want some answers man it seems like these past few weeks have just been constant stress about one thing to the next. Few weeks ago i started to think i was bi and it’s all i’d constantly worry about, then it was me not believing in god, and now this. This has to be a sick joke or something. I wish i could just turn back time and be normal again.",3.5583333333333336,5.741936333333332,3.6567592592592617,88.8829166666667,74.55555555555556,6.277777777777778,22.36111111111111,7.1686216300943375,0.6668888888888879,555,15,109,6,12,170,88,135,0.168,0.716,0.11599999999999999,-0.8326,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,13,6,0,2,4,0,15,4,1,0,2,30,23,10,0,5,9,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,8,7,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,7,1,9,4,13,12,5,21,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,4,18,76,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463708485557135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320481466857671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269687630714615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18603615083801306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18433096066317792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3568768289903731,0.0,0.13183662361430193,0.0,0.0,0.10649014507381913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08349073494006339,0.1179633174887483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16134071178326284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756093103661024,0.0,0.3235693528248961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11189106171351733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576278035765427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18125456700289308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2820268768727811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15032102997457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12711912033804024,0.0,0.0,0.11687432799524658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18914689786335015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17162516786960466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969983843318752,0.21160724959750984,0.0,0.0,0.0962840703038808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17960551444784095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09739333919222097,0.0,0.26490210354669674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898823565293021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.167689587737339,0.16827360692403898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,brodasirius,2019/04/22,"Schizophrenia and Nootropics I have been diagnosed for 11 years with SZ. Recently i've been experimenting with nootropics. Past year i have been taking Modafinil and it changed my life. But my tolerance messed up due to take it so frequently. Now I'm planing on trying Armodafinil 75mg in combo with Phenibut 250mg. 3x a week. &#x200B; My meds: Decadol every 14days Propranol 10mg Clonazepam 2mg: when needed Olanzapam 5mg &#x200B; Anyone, tryed nootropics? And Is this a safe combo to take?",3.6056367041198487,6.834393674157305,3.4777808988764067,83.33854400749065,84.1685393258427,6.112734082397004,29.888576779026213,7.492282038375204,2.4133812734082403,403,20,65,7,12,122,65,89,0.028999999999999998,0.9,0.071,0.5477,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,0,0,9,11,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,5,1,9,8,0,12,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,9,32,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3704660616032295,0.4154656095604483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11953787905987524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18085100242129765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735188736819491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440395732944792,0.0,0.0,0.1672298268793408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12075276243348157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189895910254379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12676326554805664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16319885153504185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16880050001048127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3856176474318861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23213865693044874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13713227643575165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4154656095604483,0.22018282367969602 schizophrenia,johnsmith2point0,2019/04/22,"Can we have real friends? When I was going through my prodomal phase at 18, I trusted a person that I knew since grade 8. We werent close before, but we had the same teachers or classes and circle of friends. And I heard, witnessed they were a good pleasant if not sociable, smart mature person. So when I bumped into them and started to hang out in college, I felt like I was with an old friend. When I had my first episode, I trusted this person with everything. What my paranoia, delusional thoughts, worries, fears, dreams were. I don't know what led to it, they started wearing ear buds w/ mic when I would vent. It was.... suspicious but they were still willing to listen so I dismissed it. We're not friends anymore due to reasons. Now I think they were either recording me or letting other people listen in. Maybe even adjusting the volume just loud enough so I would hear the others on the call/stream? So I would believe I was hallucinating. Did this person ever want to help? If they were at their wits end, why not just ignore me, block my phone, why do this instead? What kind of sick person would do this?",2.691813933729822,5.198959855140188,2.9812064570943093,91.01415463041631,78.95327102803739,5.012404418011895,25.14783347493628,6.1124844417494595,0.726867289719626,875,33,168,6,22,268,131,214,0.126,0.693,0.182,0.9286,1,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,3,0,7,1,15,13,0,1,7,0,23,3,2,2,1,41,36,17,0,7,12,0,1,1,5,5,1,6,0,5,13,11,0,2,7,1,0,3,4,2,0,1,16,7,32,11,17,14,3,24,0,0,0,0,26,8,0,4,14,123,45,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12125530590461273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10403960758675858,0.13775224001444442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12484755244217208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082916425224969,0.12633376157283902,0.0,0.08075573152857929,0.11059685932521547,0.0,0.0,0.10988505781819956,0.0,0.0,0.13758356847990574,0.0,0.0,0.11739481246648906,0.0,0.0,0.10399964394871636,0.0,0.0,0.3778505299260065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06948675032461048,0.10255116329976824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378029950514807,0.0,0.08195251703018963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273215263560173,0.06719435553116601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12502556548125707,0.0,0.05973313346238091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122832922170169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12829790411714034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08476405083399335,0.5337910426769708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13916580569734985,0.0,0.12571010970439672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011399386837604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17308141895008966,0.0,0.09764201725806404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07834330183689353,0.0,0.09706577710839134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07211582574559308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22065261912557987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241673526025092,0.0,0.34741785814829673,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LazySchizo376,2019/04/22,"Tacticle Hallucinations It's now 5am and I've been up for 21hours with tacticle hallucinations. I can't sleep, I'm giving up for the night. Luckily I don't have work until Tuesday. I've taken an extra 2mg of risperidone as advised by the crisis line on top of my 50mg depot and they won't go away!",1.4922395833333333,3.3829570781250027,4.6106250000000015,81.00520833333336,79.78125,7.3916666666666675,24.729166666666664,8.344100000000001,1.6894041666666668,239,9,50,5,6,87,49,64,0.10800000000000001,0.8059999999999999,0.086,-0.3244,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,5,1,1,0,0,3,9,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,12,6,1,10,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,4,29,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.441039179925129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.450314152074811,0.2667844041487836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4405225039193689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4697628839784677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417461693888237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,valoaur,2019/04/22,"How do i convince my aunt to take medicine My aunt has schizophrenia and was off meds for long time but was doing fine. But recently after some family problems she got bad and thinks people are out to harm her children. She refuses to take medication and gets violent when we try to get her take tablets. She even beat me and threatened to kill herself. How do I deal with this?",4.074018264840181,6.011681904109594,4.1878767123287695,86.70775114155255,72.42465753424658,7.606392694063928,28.605022831050228,8.344100000000001,1.973787214611872,301,12,59,5,6,93,54,73,0.303,0.659,0.039,-0.9838,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,1,4,7,2,0,0,0,7,1,0,2,0,15,14,9,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,0,12,2,10,11,1,7,0,0,0,0,12,2,0,1,5,41,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19822242113210806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447530965432001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15680310101495146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22380335996674816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24806757989861425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18987366367707936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262652348363552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100950666860973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637023217784746,0.2391595508207639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16458603957609358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271635630288309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344078064161725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.535494781379562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211889533101186,0.0,0.0,0.13843217980913813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611817303624223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,boot6662,2019/04/22,"Psychotic break from LSD and cannabis? Worried this could indicate schizophrenia in near future. I'll admit, my knowledge on schizophrenia and other mental illnesses mostly stem from what Google has so kindly provided me. This post is not intended to be a self-diagnosis, or looking for others to diagnosis me, but rather to relay my personal experience to others in hopes to find some answers so I can contact professional help if some of these signs point towards a possible mental disorder. &#x200B; For some background information about myself, I am a 20 year old female going to college who has previous experiences of high anxiety and depressive episodes. I was on Prozac for a few months, ranging from Sept. 2018 - Dec. 2018, but was taken off of it just because it made me feel less focused, which does not mix well with schooling. Currently, I am on no other medications. &#x200B; In late November my roomates and I scored some LSD, which I have never previously tried. The only drugs I used prior was the occasional weed every now and again. We each took a tab and a half and while coming up I felt pretty uplifted, everything felt more vibrant and full of life. During the peak of my trip, everything changed so dramatically. I started having intense hallucinations, I was sitting on my couch, the livingroom window behind me, and started seeing peoples faces pressed up against the glass of the window. I remember hearing some auditory hallucinations as well. I was around six people during my trip (which to be frank I don't even remember half of the shit that I actually did in reality like I was suffering from major dementia or something). According to my roommate I was completely unresponsive, I experienced echolalia, I just kept repeating the same phrase over and over again and kept pacing around the livingroom telling everyone ""I just need a minute"". During this trip I was surrounded by anything but reality, but for brief moments I would experince break throughs back to reality where I could function to some extent before being fired back into the intense trip. Though I have read various stories about psychotic breaks during an intense trip, my biggest concern is now whenever I smoke weed (the occasional times I do it) I dive right back into that same weird mental breaks. The weirdest thing about this is I have no recollection of any of the possible episodes I may be having. The last time I smoked cannabis, which is going to be my last time, I would often fall into a stupor/zone state, not communicate with anyone, I kept excessively moving my body in weird positions quite frequently, and I would also have vocal outbusts where I would repeat a phrase someone has said, or mimic ""general actions"" like picking up my phone, setting it down, and picking it up again only to set it back down. I will often show no reponse to outside stimuli or will be very exagerated about my body movement, moving in a way that seems excessive like I have no control over my motor functions. It has been very hard because whenever I have these episodes I can hardly remember the things I have said, or done so it almost feels like it never happened. My roommates have never said anything, but I also feel compelled to ask them if I act peculiar on substances. I am so close to asking if they have noticed anything odd (seeing as I cannot remember more than half of the things I do) but I am also scared to find out the truth. Whenever not on drugs, I feel perfectly and complete sane, aside from the occassional depressive moments and anxiety I deal with, I'm just curious if this could be a possible warning sign of future schizophrenia, it does not run in my family as far as I am aware, but I can say that the symptoms I have been experiencing do trouble me, and I fear there could be some underlying reason for it.",10.366502890173413,9.026923851156074,9.84461705202312,62.99805274566475,58.32080924855491,12.927456647398849,42.57875722543353,11.81641974633143,5.202708670520232,3083,145,492,74,32,997,327,692,0.09699999999999999,0.8170000000000001,0.086,-0.7025,1,0,5,0,0,0,82.0,1,0,2,3,37,20,1,2,31,0,64,11,4,8,5,116,97,46,0,15,26,0,10,4,0,7,7,6,3,1,35,29,0,4,19,2,0,17,14,10,2,4,23,21,74,10,85,55,19,102,0,3,3,0,19,42,1,23,37,386,109,4,0.0,0.0,0.06200053220042798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06362065003023236,0.0,0.0,0.15242561194711451,0.0,0.13767926428675148,0.15440280605782386,0.043205656225380584,0.0,0.09720747664744032,0.0,0.0,0.04442481768003018,0.0,0.15685050368534054,0.11311839610029847,0.11879241015647175,0.0,0.0,0.1954165143050985,0.0,0.07746011442452029,0.0,0.05406320190391803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411450706266691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721110390282703,0.05472936823221728,0.13322948298082954,0.0,0.0712593731180251,0.2029085959509582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06550130629245339,0.10944438792077446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281607092254483,0.0,0.11119898333176753,0.06501787859403768,0.0,0.0,0.14735975806681806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04196395507247034,0.0,0.05353057819531352,0.06070996209965415,0.11420147009099492,0.12429791507437643,0.05989469648190832,0.07149400515748734,0.12849986094276822,0.04538907791545267,0.12200621659507599,0.0,0.11613881108462965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07221627031443516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05618337132549639,0.0,0.11382891130101445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0716080281081434,0.0,0.04258585338321978,0.06712771477915225,0.0,0.06310411980539905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616143164861818,0.0,0.1035782367095998,0.07166971245439671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04487631450094941,0.12415904018236193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05335300008001592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060117904498134624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06400435055705796,0.1920835755333706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05071265232668653,0.13505429220150056,0.0,0.047110045826368914,0.14700522919351214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07233447870998526,0.06666879715353005,0.0,0.0,0.09664173966942713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08809368087265636,0.055475897274377815,0.0,0.0,0.0600606630402117,0.2148768947533017,0.060848513136766674,0.06463745379745597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675767887914865,0.06355171912978007,0.0,0.0,0.06532407416709123,0.0,0.0,0.28788892959425844,0.054258137873459816,0.1813076498440326,0.05052520499320475,0.06360914399821246,0.06430033204065469,0.10125758241538918,0.057839446084564775,0.0662803667587407,0.0,0.06521727770241861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05383259752012371,0.04891198196521945,0.0,0.0,0.08994012872176824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0660366992258348,0.0,0.0,0.05553197593348772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662854741512622,0.0,0.06242234900114956,0.0,0.11114247874869954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07058919588527919,0.04313577249206809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05487343105854263,0.0,0.104845275292539,0.0,0.05043074927921571,0.0,0.0,0.11425033774066227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06452239497372733,0.0,0.1805324168916668,0.0,0.15440280605782386,0.04091415154415295 schizophrenia,AdventurousCat4,2019/04/22,"How can I prevent myself from acting on delusions? I'm 18M, and I'm a major burden on my older brother, who is giving up his life to make sure I'm taken care of. Since I was 12, I've believed a lot of religious themed delusions, such as demonic possession and ghosts haunting my mother's house. I started hearing voices a year ago that gave me a prophecy for how to defeat a 10,000 year old demon, and they told me it was my sacred destiny to do so. I have notebooks filled with a ""prophecy"" that directs me to do dangerous things. I ran away from home with nothing but the clothes on my back while experiencing psychosis. I said goodbye to my brother who I trust more than anyone else. He was telling me I was delusional and asking me not to leave, but I listened to an auditory hallucination instead of him. I feel so stupid and worthless. I've tried to develop a more logical worldview. I'm on medication, and I still believe Fate is delivering me prophecies when I get stressed. It doesn't occur to me I'm acting on a delusion until my mood changes. Is this something that will improve over time? What can I do to stop myself from doing dangerous things without thinking?",5.4135516739446885,6.242740253275107,6.286270742358083,77.18474818049492,67.86462882096069,8.37740902474527,34.91732168850073,8.447377352677275,2.9115167976710343,934,45,169,13,15,309,140,229,0.126,0.804,0.071,-0.9373,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,1,1,9,11,3,1,10,0,16,2,0,3,1,22,36,16,1,0,4,3,1,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,11,8,0,2,3,0,0,4,3,7,0,0,9,6,31,3,31,26,4,25,2,2,0,0,17,8,0,1,13,121,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14582807532953526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11502912735752015,0.16855980446293178,0.0,0.0,0.15379452286574108,0.0,0.15456243982263554,0.1264979367707591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37069258101754143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16772877823528862,0.0,0.17402963105807295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13742688838338385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08318113411444435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08594961808351803,0.15781285926379546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854145816511748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16501681465862336,0.0,0.0,0.18982230445636905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17419220081005238,0.0,0.0,0.11619818753665467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13986041001478128,0.0,0.0,0.10981161681878084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16572638845004672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15785165877915353,0.0,0.17262543683985415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15648656039524894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13608426589182038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12664773648165334,0.0,0.0,0.11644093393700795,0.0,0.13137779606834607,0.13753761902935688,0.18844550224401813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15504860720963382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14378887895671302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185860977171779,0.10541128318606342,0.0,0.0,0.09592702915816033,0.0,0.0,0.15719623235213678,0.0,0.11169140419197654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585816457976924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21187792745012576 schizophrenia,chasse89,2018/11/23,"Lost my job I was super proud of myself for holding down a part time retail job for the past month. It's the longest I've ever had a job, because all of my other attempts ended with me quitting after just one or two days. But today my stupid schizophrenia fucked it all up for me again. It's black friday, so obviously the mall where I worked is crowded as hell. I barely made it a few steps into the door before I could feel myself starting to dissociate and my brain started to feel foggy. I started to panic, started seeing shadows, felt people staring at me, heard my name being called, heard threats against me over the radio, etc. Typical shitty episode stuff. My coworkers started to call my phone because I was late, and that only made me MORE paranoid. Eventually after about an hour they called my family and I had to be picked up. Got a text on the way home saying I was fired for not showing up and not calling ahead (as if I knew I would trigger an episode or as if could form a coherent conversation while in the middle of a panic). Now my family's upset at me for losing yet another job, I'm upset at myself for having this awful disease, and I'm just mad at the world right now. I feel worthless. I don't even think I qualify for disability or anything so I'm just going to be stuck job hopping like this for the rest of my life. Schizophrenia fucking sucks.",4.913607026143794,5.695766937500004,5.834215686274513,80.14869281045753,68.96323529411765,7.809150326797385,29.449346405228766,7.793537801064563,1.9244454248366007,1085,39,203,12,18,358,159,272,0.185,0.782,0.033,-0.9916,6,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,1,8,13,17,7,4,17,1,14,4,1,4,4,37,40,17,0,5,11,0,5,1,0,1,1,3,2,0,9,7,0,1,6,3,1,2,3,14,0,2,14,11,33,3,39,20,8,41,1,3,3,2,12,16,4,5,23,148,42,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10236578425607724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08033506320407359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11901963414613245,0.0,0.08306962311090937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897908208490396,0.39873426546874746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15588736883884366,0.0,0.0,0.06295848629812588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08646462764580877,0.0,0.10887497914567616,0.06447879166144273,0.08830521024153881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840597555408148,0.0,0.14808272506626768,0.0,0.09373298355277808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18050099944385092,0.0,0.0,0.05548116044030428,0.0,0.07807769312586409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09792340477422776,0.0,0.09613857415217524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4843767232123245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11012251942892266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06895371344867278,0.04769346020279646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10921469320408887,0.10656657522274676,0.0,0.0,0.18474568627115545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07792140989391035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06615158492731872,0.0742463691420775,0.0,0.22907812120075474,0.0,0.10571573805576967,0.09319179633756816,0.06767920332900179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038336276480784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336914768493246,0.0,0.07763339181882205,0.0,0.0,0.07779255493706372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454888136639622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111754495107266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06255260576053195,0.0,0.0,0.05692450993237495,0.0,0.0925347886513335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953630729885302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07748825797018902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07107039901457893,0.0,0.0,0.06934827804476326,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,stopitma,2018/11/23,"I need advice on how to help my brother who refuses treatment Maybe there’s nothing we can do. My brother has been sick for years. Started out as depression and grew into paranoid delusions, then more recently full on psychotic episodes. I apologize if I don’t know the right terminology, this is all new and he hasn’t been properly diagnosed because he insists nothing is wrong (I apologize too for coming to this sub without a proper diagnosis, if it’s inappropiate feel free to delete). He won’t talk to anybody, avoids all human interaction because he thinks he’s in a simulation and no one is real (like in the matrix). He just accused my mom of putting carcinogens in his room, and told her that we all need to get out of the house and leave him alone. He’s been to the mental hospital a few times but he won’t take the anti-psychotics they prescribed him. And he won’t see a psychiatrist. Has anyone here been in a similar situation? Miles away from reality with no way back? What got you out? Is there anything we can do? We try to show as much kindness as we can but it’s hard when he’s actively avoiding everyone in his life. I just miss him, a lot. And I know he’s in a lot of distress and suffering a lot. 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Recently Ive been having dreams which are very similar to my life except they are more terrifying than normal. However, not only am I convinced the dream is real during the dream, but more concerningly I believe the dream (and its consequences) actually occurred in real life up to a couple of hours after I have woken up, often leaving me feeling shit scared. Does anyone else have something similar?",10.942500000000004,10.649124250000003,10.6475,54.34750000000002,56.5,13.0,41.25,12.161744961471696,5.600125000000001,380,17,50,10,4,125,60,80,0.168,0.711,0.122,-0.7984,1,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,1,4,0,10,3,1,0,0,10,12,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,7,1,10,10,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,3,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.17577177193863974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25188909335252496,0.3691097837322767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20293429214411826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19930007356435728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31524958971021744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30093538143220666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09107441279198916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17738255796515545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907217612577,0.0,0.0,0.25444908415973577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17647999402069342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13698987107090255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4100334668517368,0.0,0.0,0.17784741221565298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803321932128305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18489125908969747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386656764697589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14861840022590045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lightedpathway2,2018/11/23,"Smiling too widely in New Zealand I was in New Zealand a couple of years ago and I noticed an interesting phenomenon in the capitol city, Wellington. The people who appeared mentally unstable who were strolling about the streets were ""grinning like fools"", to dig out an American idiom from our distant past. I rarely see that on the streets of an American city. One Sunday, I went to church in the South Island city of Christchurch and had a delightful conversation with a woman who clearly had a propensity to string conversation topics together not only because of their literal content, but also because of their metaphorical value. This is a social game I used to play when I first took ill and I was still having fun with words. I was surprised in this downtown Christchurch cathedral how the other members of the church didn't bat an eye when this woman talked in this way. There was also an odd experience where I got out of my rental car in the middle of nowhere to walk to the center of a bridge and take a photo of the ravine. Exactly one vehicle passed by while I was on the bridge, but within a few minutes a police car arrived telling me to get off the bridge. I guess I wasn't aware of New Zealand highway law, but also it was weird to me that a trucker would radio the police about my presence. In the USA, people tend to leave folks alone so that they can do their own thing. One final observation came when I was invited to lunch along with another guest who was schizophrenic or manic depressive (I didn't learn the exact diagnosis). Other than being a little uncertain of himself, he seemed to talk completely normally by my American standards. I could imagine him fitting in quite well in a rural California town. However, New Zealanders are quite cerebral people, and so the simple way in which he spoke was perceived by our dinner host as evidence that he was mentally ill. Sadly, this poor man had never left New Zealand (he must have been about 40 or 50 years old). All this got me pondering that perhaps mental illness expresses itself differently in New Zealand than it does in my own country. That is interesting food for thought isn't it? Furthermore, I see that people who are afflicted in this way are treated differently by other people. ... By the way, for those of you who may find yourself inadvertantly smiling too widely, I have discovered a simple solution. All you need to do is to look up and take a look around you occasionally. The weird smile then shuffles into your facade in a way that looks completely normal.",8.10197217675941,8.146059861702128,7.9046808510638344,70.5869230769231,62.085106382978715,10.805237315875614,37.01309328968904,10.389873798559362,3.9531849427168573,2045,89,342,42,26,655,246,470,0.083,0.833,0.084,-0.0942,4,1,0,0,0,0,44.0,2,4,4,3,19,15,0,1,38,0,37,8,1,2,7,49,58,23,0,6,6,0,0,1,1,3,4,1,0,3,31,15,3,0,7,3,1,8,6,6,1,4,26,7,36,9,68,27,5,70,2,2,6,0,35,36,0,7,22,249,67,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07259487282298227,0.0,0.0,0.08481840093168964,0.0,0.19647392584832266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587392572436545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07290380889270215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09984472152177497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936659294906919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17173045412517626,0.0,0.0,0.06538640049660384,0.09061513074586698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0705359430156723,0.0,0.0,0.17112544529774734,0.0,0.0,0.07166676428733912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08010891029880637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971184170447234,0.0748504397183292,0.0696597459297031,0.09902761800270332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042786696456475634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13099763888776536,0.0,0.09021644690554807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671485676530764,0.08897903036591455,0.0,0.0,0.04000970332769931,0.08208018766062508,0.0,0.0,0.20631322874682487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475923415621134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060724018307451534,0.06316238268824728,0.4745675318721969,0.0,0.0,0.16047919547858025,0.0,0.0932378674738314,0.0859349038590984,0.0,0.16648227721443076,0.0622847491019155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07817793274355161,0.28387800288912884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17421057813686694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13051923810523494,0.07455402603251256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348152029535298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654013596201776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12314952064959235,0.13164801020509245,0.07157973769888773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054407321528423945,0.0,0.0,0.06501538962166023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098822868999876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07073088496820196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250217324959063,0.0,0.0,0.07363333529929655,0.07591737732233188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05817577544300497,0.0,0.0,0.10547523967851276 schizophrenia,glamrockfan1994,2018/11/23,"I am tired of people accusing me of taking drugs whenever I have a psychotic episode. Enough. I hate it. You don't fucking know my struggle with this illness and my story. It's hard enough to deal with this shit and people thinking I take drugs and that I am high, whether it's my parents, strangers, or friends, I just don't want that. Just shove those comments up your ass and shut up for a while. Rant over.",2.922508710801392,4.762623585365857,3.0810104529616744,93.8376829268293,75.34146341463416,6.149128919860628,27.567944250871076,6.868970318607317,1.096189547038327,322,13,69,3,7,98,56,82,0.298,0.667,0.035,-0.9649,1,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,0,2,5,3,1,2,0,5,7,2,0,0,13,12,7,0,1,4,1,1,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,8,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,12,1,9,12,2,6,0,0,0,2,6,5,3,1,1,47,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20617967852775465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4638470477289507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.413283795997323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15451085618687202,0.18488642948565184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17915068925817298,0.19744754309213572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21129915473247604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10990861816262287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220639030828574,0.0,0.0,0.2772941156555763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20528563645896605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090717232913732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007333878848823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281447523251634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298577140931513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179585798940856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lil_crabby1122,2018/11/23,I just heard a beep? Is somebody listening to me talk? Im really scared that somebody will think this is a joke but I'm not kidding and I'm scared. I've never been diagnosed with schizophrenia but I have been having episodes a lot that might be related to it. Am I just being paranoid? Is there really people spying on me? I need answers. Thanks in advance,0.5709346991037131,3.0518404084507047,2.383610755441744,89.46955185659412,95.61971830985917,5.398719590268887,21.94750320102433,6.980632752743323,1.0892704225352112,283,11,54,5,11,93,50,71,0.16,0.763,0.077,-0.7041,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,2,3,0,12,1,0,0,1,13,19,3,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,4,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,2,6,2,5,12,1,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,1,39,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27909291603020125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970192060124445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337731405297557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917040586625015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20388980562520947,0.2120769719804846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906324134785876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3523108899201658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5505940730171065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22101375995705566,0.0,0.25315920071338965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17619229569735373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chelseameghann77,2018/11/23,"Help with paranoid schizophrenic boyfriend again (it’s worse this time).. My boyfriend [27M] is diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic and I [25F] am having the hardest time navigating this relationship. Oh do I love him, but I don’t know if I can take this conflict in my life. My last post was him exhibiting paranoid behaviors. Well, we had a very good week and got closer than ever. I wanted to spend my whole life with this dude. Earlier in the day he was driving an hour out of his way to my house just to bring me antifreeze, kissing me and telling me he loves me. Then just a few hours later at work (we work together) it all went to hell. I approached him and asked him to look at my car because it was overheating. He went to look at it but was like “don’t fucking talk to me.” I’m like what?!? He says “just don’t fucking talk to me. And you can’t stay over tonight.” I’m freaking out like what the hell??? But I realize I’m just making it worse because he’s getting angrier. I ask him can he just take me to his house until he gets off. We get in the car and as soon as we pull onto the road, he starts shouting at the top of his lungs about this girl at work who is a TEENAGER, apparently said something to really piss him off. He was like “how fucking dare she say that to me, that fucking bitch, I’ll break her FUCKING NECK!!!” I just looked away with my eyes wide. I have never ever seen him like this or threaten violence against anyone. Normally he is friendly with everyone. He is fine the rest of the car ride, I go with him on his delivery and we talk like friends the whole time. He seems better. He drops me off at his house and won’t kiss or hug me. I talk to his mom for a bit and warn her about what is going on since he lives with her. He gets back to the house and says he quit his job. He has been there a year and loves the job, so I was really shocked and so was his mom. She tells him she can’t pay his bills and he says I know. He is pretty calm towards her then asks if she wants to play a game with us. She says no she is too tired, and we go back into his room. He is in a very flirty mood all of a sudden then strips down to his underwear to get in bed with me. We are about to go further until he stops and says he has to be honest. That he was going to break up with me tonight, he says he wanted a complete change in his life and wanted to leave everyone and everything behind. I get upset because I thought I meant more to him than that. He doesn’t break up with me but he tells me I need to go, so he takes me home. I ask him if we’re hanging out for Thanksgiving and he says I don’t know. He walks me upstairs and finally returns my kiss and hug, but I feel like that was because my cousin and her husband were right there. He says he has to leave right then. Then he doesn’t talk to me all day today. For Thanksgiving. Even though we had plans. I just don’t know how to handle this or if I should continue this way. If he didn’t have the Sz, he’d be in deep shit right now but I’m trying to keep in mind that he can’t help it. Help? I really don’t know what to do or how to understand him when he won’t even talk to me.",1.394799876847291,2.907493157738095,2.8006444991789827,95.61964285714286,78.73214285714286,6.301149425287356,21.40763546798029,7.0983637204850245,0.2956512931034481,2430,66,585,28,58,790,258,672,0.10800000000000001,0.748,0.14400000000000002,0.9832,3,0,1,0,0,0,74.0,9,1,0,7,31,38,10,1,22,0,51,25,5,4,6,97,109,53,0,12,22,4,1,7,2,3,7,11,3,1,25,43,0,3,11,2,3,18,16,13,1,0,21,17,97,24,87,82,9,102,2,0,5,13,121,40,10,10,43,360,122,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038897523418779216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208024739203902,0.0,0.05226585875052778,0.08555148719288573,0.0,0.1356451988863648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049199877768965714,0.06073313656651275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05884876122378361,0.0,0.0583265976648927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07175300492865166,0.0,0.0,0.05646289281461215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0734856780699749,0.10064035141638036,0.0,0.10631297080532627,0.04999631500255232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02812800711041546,0.039741811297669134,0.0,0.06093952902563466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595861208589692,0.25714343419472274,0.17438508101592776,0.0,0.18969356853671546,0.04665948552073487,0.04449208858953019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118620840188914,0.0,0.05580104413663987,0.0,0.109567938979815,0.25675644778385043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11040762715736592,0.04944616185258423,0.0,0.0,0.1528629202292353,0.045345564692082015,0.0,0.11780746956931057,0.0,0.0,0.11787853628269487,0.1902447549448392,0.0,0.049121973214645946,0.0,0.1401446091476546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15062371061607135,0.0,0.03713320299811253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05617005748940932,0.13030547607104698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041248657990884105,0.04290499202812379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05450521583924805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05327779804933727,0.0565953222571581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05916894794065381,0.0,0.0,0.10691327621961387,0.0,0.0,0.0597253925564289,0.0,0.14252217333517395,0.052916507214556915,0.3981501562381696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050643116305121263,0.0,0.0,0.05710300501422636,0.04601739612439476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04282639892085061,0.0,0.0,0.0393749310176192,0.059293772647828875,0.0,0.04650885284498152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254796520537495,0.26827788572733097,0.1458682182955751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05465581872762284,0.04416370400703293,0.09731423550426993,0.06393806418620747,0.05273037470064237,0.0,0.0,0.037768860027344316,0.0,0.0,0.05791239580022721,0.06691558278355013,0.0,0.0,0.09180052421178823,0.1312471636174972,0.08831240525255626,0.044622725248942716,0.0,0.05001770879375532,0.10313842924158063,0.0,0.12421696708310002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149707666000832,0.0,0.1133826697166461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035823651079688344 schizophrenia,YM8Qld,2018/11/23,"Are there supplements that help manage twitching/shaking hands? Taking antipsychotics causes certain muscles to twitch sometimes and my hands or legs shake if I do moderate physical activities, is there any supplements that lower these side-effects that worked for you? thanks.",11.039224806201553,13.72207369767442,8.111627906976748,62.435503875969026,56.2093023255814,11.314728682170546,42.24031007751938,11.20814326018867,5.7878124031007765,231,12,27,6,3,66,38,43,0.083,0.745,0.172,0.6322,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,3,4,3,1,1,5,5,3,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,2,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,17,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3075809431895428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4646388567361116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303168568527556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4473383496370129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34007489513646594,0.0,0.0,0.4164190118670191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32928132114074393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,R4nger,2018/11/23,"Procyclidine I have just started taking procyclidine 5mg twice a day with amisulpride 400mg once daily and the side effects of the amisulpride have almost gone. I'm amazed at how much procyclidine helps me with the side effects. Before I was twitching and felt like I had to sleep 12 hours a day to feel normal and had no interests in anything. I was also getting acid reflux caused by my stomach when I took the amisulpride. All of it has nearly disappeared. It might be too early to tell fully but I feel on top of the world with this new medication. So if you ever think about not taking any medication, there are other ways to help us with the side effects of the drugs.",6.259615384615388,6.80243676923077,6.450576923076928,77.7581730769231,65.92307692307692,8.653846153846155,30.09615384615385,8.472884824447931,2.189538461538461,540,18,99,7,8,173,89,130,0.024,0.875,0.10099999999999999,0.828,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,1,1,0,4,9,3,0,0,9,0,10,6,2,5,2,25,21,9,0,2,4,0,3,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,7,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,7,4,10,3,18,12,2,21,0,0,0,0,5,9,0,3,9,69,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809826461482115,0.0,0.0,0.14453583114832602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290779783802168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148731683780676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537944257904712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18566735012649865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331216607526876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20959829031941424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634875492967146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18277276994221286,0.0,0.1735364847373915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09442796097842576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24228927023261765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17799017564227598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08829928499924157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36414832993091295,0.0,0.19173408192070907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13286296661493902,0.0,0.0,0.17455754589061998,0.0,0.0,0.17708451999695185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19247969560427056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808681737437636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279270369230847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717844351980011,0.0,0.1579726699665206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11580938644436108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20080617621356311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21740513591377328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14346113168369545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,camusletoe,2018/11/23,"Musical hallucinations? I've heard music in my head since I was at least 8. It's all music I've heard before. It's like there's a jukebox or an iPod in my head. No antipsychotics that I've tried (Abilify, Rexulti, Geidon, I think another) have done anything. It's not particularly dysphoric. Anyone else get this?? 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If you got schizophrenia early, did you also develop later physically? I'm wondering because I got EOS at age 13, and it seemed like puberty pretty much halted until my early twenties. Then it progressed very slowly. I'm almost 27 now, and have grown 1/2"" in the last year (measured at the same time of day). Did I mention I'm also female?",5.044780701754384,7.007457776315793,6.584210526315792,70.41780701754391,69.92105263157895,8.224561403508767,29.771929824561404,8.841846274778883,2.8807614035087714,325,13,49,6,6,111,50,76,0.0,0.917,0.083,0.7383,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,4,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,9,12,9,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,7,1,5,6,2,17,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,5,14,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22839773207214803,0.0,0.0,0.5472069848687007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13904066095051254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470982432459387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5472697409428662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18592260803106334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114325426588328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676713259368457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320480511790093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20764324639478424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330002657471389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18819693828903544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24735229915414114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14688154581727994 schizophrenia,anxiety_br_throwaway,2018/11/23,"am i schizophrenic or just unreasonably paranoid? im not sure if this even deserves a post here but ive had a couple on and off times where ive been notably paranoid or delusional. first time i was imagining a uhh ""demon"" of sorts i guess and it would try to kill me and id have to hide or it would try to convince me to do things or call my pathetic or worthless. and lately ive had the paranoia come back again, sometimes id be petting my dogs and start worrying what if theyre monsters and get really upset or ill think that people are trying to send messages to me, like theyll be listening to podcasts and ill think its meant for me or that theyre fake sleeping trying to catch or theyre trying to keep eyes on everything i do. i know this sounds really cliche and insane but its always there in my mind and i get really cautious and paranoid about it. i know im just being unreasonable and that theres no way this is really true but im still scared sometimes. ",5.086289782244557,5.1662206733668325,5.9388065326633175,82.02100711892798,68.39698492462311,9.2463986599665,29.146147403685088,9.075114841892004,2.1784871021775545,770,25,159,13,12,254,113,199,0.266,0.69,0.044000000000000004,-0.9939,0,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,1,1,11,9,1,2,4,0,19,5,2,0,2,42,31,24,1,4,16,0,0,1,0,3,3,2,1,0,13,12,0,1,6,0,0,3,2,5,0,1,5,3,18,4,16,20,0,18,1,1,1,0,5,5,0,12,9,103,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10798539425823656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979099585815794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13251748230091062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11179194712385274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14359649225547966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571690845515315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663577635054245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038879582888564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13560692294493198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14296470371732373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4205463693383642,0.0,0.0,0.11535233096551857,0.14357973250836956,0.0,0.14264479592336124,0.0,0.14639483268084216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06340280046775804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13103842278370725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0899714763038712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12429110700287885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3325555219664506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299300593471077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12987136567348348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567068123168032,0.0,0.09185728283683747,0.0,0.1036405923921819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12231389155310154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08621849861265098,0.16631254536406215,0.0,0.0,0.15134877317019071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44055249981317496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301145141886743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179549481737254,0.0,0.18438062648249307,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hiimmentallyill,2019/09/20,"Is this Pure O OCD, schizophrenia or paranoia/anxiety/intrusive thoughts In my head I tell myself there are alternate timelines where everything I think is said out loud repeatedly and very loud. Everyone except me has this telepathic power to enter back and forth from this alternate timeline and they just ignore me on my current timeline to be nice. On my current timeline I think things are normal because no one is reacting to what I'm thinking but that's because I can not access the alternate timeline like everyone else to see that my thoughts and actions are all being heard and seen and they are laughing at my reatard mind babel and weird habits. I often read into people body language and movements thinking it means something about me. I get extremely agitated when people in class make unnecessary movements and sounds because it freaks me out. &#x200B; I take Adderall frequently and Wellbutrin daily. I think these thoughts started happening before I started taking these meds though. I took Adderall all through out middle school and some of high school and then stopped for about 4 years then got back on around 2017. Started Wellbutrin in 2018 and these thought became a lot more common happening all the time in class and at work. When ever I am around people. When I hang out with my friends I weird weird intrusive sexual thoughts about them and think they can hear it but try to be nice and ignore them. Even while I'm typing this I feel like ever word being typed is being said out loud in an alternate timeline/universe. I recently became very interested in the idea of the world being a simulation and it has no helped at all. it just validates me feelings/thoughts.",7.8762502157031955,8.921413567213115,6.803641069887835,74.87534943917173,62.508196721311464,9.568593615185506,37.036238136324414,9.549672527348893,3.6730655737704914,1378,64,222,24,19,417,162,305,0.077,0.835,0.08800000000000001,0.8271,3,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,5,2,19,13,0,0,7,0,19,2,2,2,7,65,51,27,0,1,7,0,1,2,1,0,0,8,0,0,16,26,0,3,14,1,0,6,3,6,0,1,11,11,32,7,35,34,7,52,0,0,2,0,12,24,0,4,24,157,48,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10357235802512917,0.11615302269336987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17019177260748747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14700651756444674,0.0,0.17481339863498732,0.0,0.08134054656066701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061795896728527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0798536671691754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06313667931670618,0.1729343121157865,0.0,0.18268179926299816,0.08591065334737409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04833347153869269,0.06828993244035103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07385304821721259,0.0,0.049942134879834996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0764525225373241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16906087580083154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09810351725612623,0.0,0.10773753568646607,0.0,0.06407235361493617,0.10099670047676364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10791013421689052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934014619299605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812676963208832,0.0,0.0,0.06380745721530999,0.0,0.0,0.10412616951547063,0.1061795896728527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651924021257106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09365847669674048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0647746537462722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988114252867683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09561645235280967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09438416974686777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818570711634064,0.0,0.0,0.19348554906216828,0.07617331943932311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07359030183759997,0.0,0.0,0.20297852246063108,0.0,0.0,0.07991800864014205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374444582150328,0.0,0.08355038390163022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0635061366092417,0.3675035193957,0.09391726362004912,0.4553294776173665,0.055739638356315256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620465626122086,0.06489973192962374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15774448601389016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06959108376370307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11615302269336987,0.061557202153544224 schizophrenia,TheQuietMountain_,2019/09/20,"Small things my family can do to help my uncle who won't go back to treatment He is currently having a crisis, is not taking meds, and is threatening to move out because people don't believe him. Right now I'm just trying to keep him calm enough so he doesn't leave. He will be homeless if he does. My parents made him grilled cheese. Anything else?",2.2081428571428567,4.507878385714289,3.1442857142857146,90.33071428571432,79.42857142857143,5.7142857142857135,22.857142857142854,6.868970318607317,0.7245714285714286,277,9,55,3,7,88,54,70,0.10099999999999999,0.812,0.087,-0.4746,2,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,11,0,0,1,0,7,16,3,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,5,12,1,8,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,1,3,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20456713878472116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19114919746866127,0.0,0.15153723072719266,0.0,0.0,0.280074091237941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21754145496641725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076637777318388,0.0,0.0,0.25685835280408825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23434709611637197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14127856249889148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16662361882090235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22095686389921654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26321930807837635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23522043137817325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761257621740457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642102143804473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760280897317296,0.0,0.0,0.17233995254442305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21229320454387465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18690760052398514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16515114089237568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16877526084978273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,makingparty,2019/09/20,"I don't know Sometimes I feel like I am faking everything wrong with me because people in real life would not be able to tell I am anything but maybe a little depressed and anxious. I have worked to hard my entire life to act completely normal outwardly that I've perfected it, but now I can't tell what's real or not. I have high functioning autism and osdd that was ignored by my family at a very early age, and it was enforced that there was nothing wrong with me. Because of that everything that has developed later in my life (including schizoaffective disorder) I've kept under tight wraps. It's to the point I'm suffering every single day with hallucinations, delusions, major depression, severe anxiety, and for the most part no one in real life knows about it. I see people talk about having gone to a mental hospital for some mental health issues as teenagers, their family knowing and maybe even supporting them, and I'm utterly astounded. The thought of my family knowing anything is terrifying. I know it's because of trauma that I've hidden everything so well, and there's been so many points where people should have seen I was struggling badly and ignored it, but it never leaves me that I'm faking because I never had some dramatic breakdown or something. Sometimes I feel that though that breakdown is inevitable, it just hasn't happened quite yet, though. There's times I want it to happen so I can really push myself to be more real and get all the help I need, but sometimes I feel like I can just ignore it all and keep this facade up. I don't know, this is rambly, I apologize if I word something wrong or offensively. I don't want to beg for validation or anything, this has been one of my biggest issues and I honestly do not know what to think.",8.947540801186943,7.570091964391698,8.801229599406529,69.47674054154305,61.10682492581603,11.867136498516322,37.08623887240356,10.820120047756994,4.003059495548961,1420,54,246,29,16,462,168,337,0.196,0.713,0.091,-0.9911,0,0,2,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,2,3,18,21,1,1,7,0,30,5,0,0,5,65,57,26,0,7,14,0,5,2,0,2,5,0,0,0,24,14,0,6,12,0,0,3,11,15,1,2,11,7,33,6,29,42,9,25,0,3,2,0,7,13,0,8,11,174,57,1,0.07755399442455313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05932859346016564,0.08761393883287931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19146098814848356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06475434591199061,0.1891047806842248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0813138876276533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05001591052195628,0.0,0.1335942835137727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888359657351537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05122368188827596,0.0,0.0653425851790381,0.0,0.20910158843507995,0.0,0.2193330114441596,0.0,0.11764088945356953,0.1108091782258431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040518761163752325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13716148228726502,0.0,0.06947314584745955,0.0,0.0,0.08243626948502385,0.0,0.0,0.05198280769473705,0.08194005311930183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618924420378278,0.0,0.06893355363534022,0.0,0.0,0.2983515298649294,0.0,0.0,0.08211848218281231,0.0,0.0,0.21911471922463252,0.07577792854452918,0.07772947657877641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862757776574437,0.1558268227296136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15631237097157924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057505304182710965,0.1196288431046319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07598644826391586,0.07441514929315501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10510518747045718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08398341838020558,0.0,0.16129852432624658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466271847950307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248821938037935,0.0,0.35309369754115244,0.04968307471189173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06180049260686196,0.0,0.0,0.08761393883287931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11940970770675265,0.2301086506091569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107627375002488,0.0,0.0,0.088007353816569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06233496302535941,0.13557121891546808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049693468134209336,0.1523928115179728,0.061569208707854164,0.04522235782165922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06399016751160559,0.09148671053262117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06973035484797617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056460231604690325,0.0,0.0,0.055092132506398495,0.2543793548197245,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Hungjury21,2019/09/20,"How did it start for you? Hi, I'm a little bit worried that I am developing schizophrenia or another serious mental illness. I've known that I've had Bipolar disorder and PTSD. My therapist suggested that I might have Schizoid personality disorder. I think I have maladaptive daydream disorder, where I have extremely vivid and elaborate daydreams that last multiple days or weeks. when I'm experiencing these, I start talking to myself, making facial expressions and hand movements, etc., but I know they're not real, they just feel more real than reality. I have had auditory, visual and tactile hallucinations. I've had auditory hallucinations at night, and when they increased my seroquel dose, they pretty much went away. Only experienced visual hallucinations after smoking weed (I don't do that anymore), and tactile hallucinations happen from time to time. &#x200B; Is this how it started for you guys? I really don't know at this point. I'm worried that this could turn into something worse. Btw I also have social withdrawal, low motivation, etc., but that could be schizoid or schizoaffective.",6.68807486631016,9.745305294117653,7.188770053475935,63.11491978609626,68.25133689839572,10.175401069518717,35.598930481283425,10.328600350310266,4.745216042780749,898,46,126,27,17,293,115,187,0.105,0.823,0.07200000000000001,-0.5029,0,0,1,0,0,0,35.0,0,2,3,1,7,2,0,0,1,0,18,5,2,4,0,28,32,16,0,2,7,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,13,7,0,0,6,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,5,5,19,0,11,23,6,23,0,1,1,0,12,8,0,4,12,85,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09875594589880322,0.0,0.1338027691173739,0.1500554431130678,0.0,0.12949139270775686,0.0,0.0,0.1224701838997186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11602413897366487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13482051277361798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19719550475960174,0.0,0.0,0.07964167063012118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4245951767460657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754508800583844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062440910453769635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12227579968055682,0.10920294643707604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357351749274985,0.10066188952879887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377072230287768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08243139992695159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12445018229616055,0.13100475135253373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078031266526797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11588821706145094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09392069638865742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10782783759103813,0.0,0.0,0.11673919193914735,0.0,0.0,0.12563504535850667,0.0,0.0,0.14435471817823184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28112026420871994,0.07911168727717524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12588382605337106,0.0,0.09506963396223174,0.0,0.0,0.2622233276758656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925762706703356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14338291434937586,0.0,0.07912823700121904,0.0,0.0,0.14401753718625288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13432307013097602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09905726987820156,0.0,0.0,0.11447766987785132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250822813799722,0.1258481821871572,0.0,0.0,0.1500554431130678,0.0 schizophrenia,slayerbizkit,2019/09/20,"Anyone have had success with Metformin for weight loss? I have some @ 500mg . I take seroquel since I have severe insomnia and its the only AP that consistently works for me, but I've been trying to fight this weight gain for , shit, 6-7 now with little success. I cook my own food, and go running. Haven't gained any more weight, but none of it has come off either. I'd like to know dose, how many times per day to take it , and realistically, how long will it be before I start seeing results.",5.144115646258506,5.367147561224492,5.46979591836735,84.93829931972793,68.28571428571428,7.757823129251701,25.51700680272109,7.1686216300943375,0.9366476190476188,383,9,81,3,6,122,74,98,0.134,0.726,0.14,0.4067,0,0,0,0,1,0,16.0,0,0,0,6,3,6,2,0,1,0,9,8,1,3,0,14,16,7,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,6,5,0,1,1,0,3,2,3,0,0,2,4,7,3,10,12,5,10,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,1,6,46,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12490523754518955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284297679979753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15629382044417595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582196716115966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845512215432365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221004307188379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10438668436371708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10094292723559646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08973428343770078,0.1840905133395233,0.0,0.16254651578140622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18621753021673346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13969304605885352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14636512310876704,0.0,0.0,0.2075003677542613,0.18853965603433984,0.15193778391746338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000604694250806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27620134797492785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10710231732199713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12470320741597668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6709996756324652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13371752232040354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Yayeet85585,2019/09/20,"Miss my own delusions? I have had symptoms for a couple years now, over the past year I have had some pretty intense delusions that pertained to people I interact with on a daily basis. The delusions made me question them in my mind on a daily basis and stay vigilant. Over the past summer, I abused weed pretty badly which only increased the paranoia and delusions on a daily basis. It took me a while, but I was able to stop weed and my delusions have shrunk, with the paranoia pretty much gone I am now realizing how boring by life actually is. Im not longer a detective within my own head. With the paranoid delusions, I felt like there was purpose to my life, to find out information about those plotting against me. Now that im more ""grounded"" in reality, I feel actually rather depressed that the delusions are gone just because im bored. I feel nothing, rather than fear and it is somehow worse. Anyone else experienced this?",4.896527093596063,6.9262498678160975,5.329556650246307,78.9889655172414,70.4367816091954,7.040394088669951,30.81937602627258,7.7094869923839395,2.221275533661741,743,32,126,9,14,237,101,174,0.158,0.738,0.10400000000000001,-0.8784,0,0,0,0,1,0,20.0,0,0,1,0,10,7,0,1,13,0,11,4,1,2,0,26,19,7,0,2,5,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,8,8,0,1,7,0,0,4,1,6,0,0,9,4,18,1,21,10,6,25,0,2,0,0,4,10,0,3,11,92,26,0,0.13506549568745824,0.16003052631634024,0.263608880717946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09444093501386704,0.13839056163363267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127740472095038,0.08233467253846763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14944740199138684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11633171352219822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11282989042100748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15198623309138473,0.13658634576729092,0.0,0.12968405695813234,0.0,0.12344741614057014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386161649717814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4376817380936437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908015079306069,0.06598617877118197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12780223776653524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637764779958758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09928868016539713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12959898584867902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10272339575464548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25787059722614936,0.09363740837778074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4122304981090398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513042663607651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14396184736679465,0.0,0.11292080222726572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403847656739131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15006273541285706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13764327907363452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739555018530008 schizophrenia,severcyco,2019/09/20,"My boyfriend is offended, am I wrong? Hey guys, so I'm a paranoid schizophrenic and I've been going through a tough time lately (with personal issues and mental health) my boyfriend asked me how I was and I told him fine and I replied with what does it matter? You wouldn't understand and he got highly offended telling me he talked to people with schizophrenia and he knows it's serious and I responded with ""but you don't fully get it because you don't deal with it on an every day bases"" and he got pissed at me. Am I in the wrong?",1.9265909090909084,4.215093157407409,2.8798316498316514,91.9028787878788,80.3888888888889,6.519865319865321,23.707070707070702,7.686295010490155,1.1274333333333335,423,15,89,7,11,134,70,108,0.185,0.792,0.023,-0.9444,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,0,0,2,8,3,0,4,0,8,3,1,1,0,19,17,11,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,5,13,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,7,0,0,5,0,15,1,10,11,0,8,0,0,0,0,17,4,1,0,3,53,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19070058768402487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12434876372464172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13155493197928209,0.21030194753333184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17851065942093675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17186809674903786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10657494411587737,0.0,0.11593068253410554,0.0,0.3262945541490272,0.0,0.0,0.2019794961910821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168289592562215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155237803729758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21290974189999887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11210608443734407,0.0,0.23010655758555526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20557121839918574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14141910827077606,0.17811384075106404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16395726350182765,0.17829388985074482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894663408275867,0.0,0.0,0.1949186052447172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21235797156737468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4460561765380894,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jodsalz23,2019/05/11,"Good article about schizophrenia in the UK Guardian I'm not schizophrenic but I have been diagnosed as bipolar type 1. I came across this article while browsing the Guardian website and figured some of you might find it of interest. &#x200B; 'Why what we think we know about schizophrenia is wrong' &#x200B; [https://www.theguardian.com/books/2019/may/11/nathan-filer-schizophrenia](https://www.theguardian.com/books/2019/may/11/nathan-filer-schizophrenia)",18.133333333333333,24.68394455555556,8.242222222222225,52.00000000000003,47.88888888888889,8.044444444444443,38.62962962962963,8.841846274778883,4.20054074074074,402,16,40,6,6,93,44,54,0.071,0.826,0.102,0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,2,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,12,8,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,5,2,7,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,1,26,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4402087690355364,0.4936797820823903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23234044899128314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061849591765619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18566820257818287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17038595859549005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164158758411437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155016697752976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301652575504727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833041518818268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22210400064523053,0.4936797820823903,0.0 schizophrenia,runnynoseuk,2019/05/11,"meds delayed Hi. I usually get my injection of xeplion every 4 weeks and have been on it since 2015. I was due to have my injection this Thursday but my CPN is off work. He said, last time i saw him, that he would arrange cover and that i would still get it on time but i waited all day Thursday and nobody came. So i'm off meds for this week. I'm usually quite well as the meds work good for me (I've tried many other but xeplion seems to work best). Not sure if i can make it through for longer than a two week delay as i know its long acting and should stay in my system for a while but just not sure how long and if i will get any withdrawal effect. Its never happened before so i don't know what to expect.",3.2747368421052627,3.6058075263157896,4.234052631578948,91.77936842105265,72.42105263157895,7.395789473684211,23.752631578947373,7.1686216300943375,0.6155189473684204,552,13,130,5,10,179,95,152,0.063,0.8809999999999999,0.055,-0.0507,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,6,6,5,0,0,3,0,11,0,0,3,4,32,25,17,0,6,9,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,11,6,0,3,4,0,0,2,4,0,1,1,5,2,15,5,17,16,2,28,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,3,19,81,26,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028445517021476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297286408961515,0.0,0.1393282173893355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15184729058229995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08562215945472355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185986996932566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20809201270549813,0.0,0.0,0.11135661602755956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174032641302308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14592786288013346,0.10822083826288856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349849198570483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886213763822297,0.1346024281221847,0.0,0.0,0.4424144978269468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239621525226876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14121145449951533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262895016875487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12086387138414405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10982421802604626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415093587055416,0.10602595108725746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502580578472172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548321680807911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09013842302214446,0.0,0.12969168608743115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924428174484803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3194871713346448,0.0,0.11937128604320665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2899625480886878,0.0,0.0,0.18862427195413614,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zombi3123,2019/05/11,My Mum has schizophrenia and it's scaring me :( She's been in a hospital for about 6 months las time I visited her was Mothers day she had completely delusional thinking. It worried me very much because nothing she was saying was making sense. I have a brother who's only 7 and I worry about him to. Anyone have any advice? Her schizophrenia is really bad,1.6411764705882348,4.405150176470588,3.2002352941176504,84.23005882352945,91.35294117647058,5.661176470588236,25.917647058823533,7.1686216300943375,1.856077647058824,284,13,48,5,10,93,52,68,0.214,0.7859999999999999,0.0,-0.9286,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,9,0,0,1,0,4,11,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,5,1,12,0,5,6,1,5,0,0,0,0,12,1,0,0,3,34,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505254553657501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743429372717575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17926248271051556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21406136740514206,0.15628305469694714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688029927483279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533985553486485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711314648176675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20463507642043866,0.0,0.1884642004961722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459975216953105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19498378486753368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642395851573268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038786912255813,0.25667484238964033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16427394316314078,0.0,0.0,0.14949359176210095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21153518833524276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.520719963184821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,stephenw24,2019/05/11,"Schizophrenia and milder Climates I have had schizophrenia for about twenty years, I currently live in western Canada where the winters are long and brutal. Have any schizophrenics found it easier to moderate their illnesses in milder climates? Just Curious, I was considering relocating to the american southwest, australia, or perhaps mexico and wondered if anyone had experiences to share",11.661,14.173901100000002,9.533333333333337,53.430000000000035,54.66666666666666,12.666666666666668,46.66666666666667,12.161744961471696,7.057666666666669,326,19,35,10,4,98,47,60,0.11,0.7809999999999999,0.11,-0.25,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,2,0,6,2,0,0,0,8,8,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,4,1,7,4,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,4,27,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717084795591696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793754503708615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3908376873280103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4380872071666641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3528109808482458,0.3535901898799709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4332961726695467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572978373601204 schizophrenia,citrus_juuiice,2019/05/11,"How to combat delusions and paranoia? I feel like mania might also be in the mix and some anxiety, but my delusions and paranoia flash up really easily despite being on meds and they are very stubborn to get rid of. Usually I talk to someone or exercise or write to at least try to occupy myself so I don’t do something bad like cut or run away or baracade myself. Now it’s 114 and I can’t stop them and I suspect mania because of how rapid they flow into my mind and how I can’t sleep. They’re just giving me anxiety now too and making me feel so angry and frustrated and scared and trapped.",3.6261891643709814,4.886173694214879,5.159118457300277,82.02029384756659,72.38842975206613,8.022405876951332,27.49403122130395,8.515128840125781,2.0152251606978884,471,17,91,8,9,159,79,121,0.305,0.617,0.078,-0.987,0,1,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,3,0,10,7,3,1,1,0,8,2,1,4,0,31,13,22,0,0,6,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,12,0,2,3,1,0,2,3,5,0,0,0,2,15,2,13,10,2,12,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,6,6,66,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17944004573391947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3433067546682558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21081643858696866,0.0,0.1873515201454859,0.13678258821470007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22691089079281,0.1603001906227238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723153699611685,0.21524986918812572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192456723381814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14977826436861105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24924037638590155,0.0,0.0,0.23803628591789205,0.22656418086736174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437463299440271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22464783107634664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245463502754924,0.0,0.19012009145165595,0.17274199857870612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18759532425065914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18035160291614055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15234221250356947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24712760855564306,0.1851405490831102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Fafafa1234321,2019/05/11,"Happen to me I was in a loud mood. I broke a vase. My brother calls the police, and I land in the hospital. I'm given pills. I think my brother was just mad I was doin all the talking on the phone so that's he called. The policewoman didn't like me. I was afraid they'd shoot my dog. I sleep all the time unless drink caffeine.",-1.4855441741357218,0.4845815211267634,0.887836107554417,100.19349551856594,99.98591549295773,3.7085787451984626,14.905249679897564,5.565023196281405,-0.9641098591549296,252,6,61,2,11,84,49,71,0.163,0.8370000000000001,0.0,-0.8594,0,0,1,1,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,2,5,1,1,8,0,6,3,1,0,2,6,10,3,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,6,1,13,1,5,3,2,5,0,1,0,0,8,4,0,0,2,37,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6984641831429079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350411712493248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30243973597483065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16708959628861395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34225860529407376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748959758236869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21914722896778366,0.0,0.0,0.19942971935951148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,personalact,2019/09/03,"What to do if someone you know is going through an episode of psychosis? The girl I’m dating is diagnosed Schizophrenic. She mostly just sees random things but she’s told me she can get paranoid too. I don’t talk to her about it because I can tell it makes her feel bad, so I’m asking for some advice on here just in case anything ever happens :)",2.8396190476190446,4.6785602,3.6257142857142886,89.84761904761906,75.57142857142857,5.80952380952381,25.952380952380953,6.42735559955562,0.912095238095238,274,10,55,2,6,87,57,70,0.099,0.846,0.055,-0.5023,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,1,1,11,17,3,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,9,0,8,16,2,5,0,0,1,0,11,2,0,4,2,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28301429133020023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23833340744118275,0.0,0.27075654102654223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418214392980293,0.17655027473117307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939592206838837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619787775384333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14644108081243493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151315019944898,0.0,0.16459828982692784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561108956921433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15916812852500445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933242678631714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307904413370233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453949352458465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23278639086045655,0.2531415214206964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19241132464144614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27674527896695456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,j_complex,2019/09/03,"Do you ever feel so sane that your delusions become too easy to believe? I got close to getting schizo affective disorder according to my psychiatrist, but just recently had a psychotic break again that was short lived and drug induced. Although it was minor, and I'm feeling pretty good, almost the best I have felt as an adult, I can't help but hold on to my delusions. What if some of them are true?",7.769025974025975,7.097938857142861,7.548668831168832,75.22871753246757,63.02597402597402,10.816883116883119,36.133116883116884,10.125756701596842,3.5355480519480524,320,13,59,6,4,102,65,77,0.053,0.708,0.239,0.9556,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,1,1,5,3,0,0,3,0,7,1,0,2,2,17,13,8,0,1,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,3,8,3,7,8,2,7,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,3,3,42,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25968222491815635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864103715609761,0.0,0.2921768811767456,0.27215155880451136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972154370943897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007412673401506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345794552756193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26225077687382026,0.0,0.2489981300426844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354895815882885,0.0,0.0,0.21751427817675825,0.20741044240248668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17382389446410562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228993749655761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638325419056803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560577696233909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tirranter,2019/09/03,"Could it be schizophrenia ? I always hear in my head confused thoughts,voices,or only repeating slogan,the voice denies me everything,and I am indecisive i cant make choice.I cant get out of my mind that everyone talks about me and watch me.I am loosing cognitive functions,i can say that i have bad memory,i cant focus,and typical problems.",6.277089552238808,6.566508014925375,7.321604477611946,72.40389925373138,65.86567164179104,10.87910447761194,34.660447761194035,10.686352973137794,3.8787343283582096,275,12,49,7,4,93,49,67,0.18,0.782,0.038,-0.8096,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,9,1,1,1,0,8,12,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,4,8,0,4,10,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,2,1,25,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661498772847873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670704758115971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25538288690235805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056407800187965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16711410903613186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32826954472440617,0.0,0.3605064607132333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135096224471384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.322968308659165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432686141893131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060636658490521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543662115845838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570920607785548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,stablegen,2019/09/03,"I think I was misdiagnosed... What can I do? Ok last year I was diagnosed with schizophrenia. I feel like the circumstances were sketchy. During this time I was never really told why I had schizophrenia. When I was at the mental hospital no one actually asked me questions or anything. They were hostile and mean towards me and didn't tell me why I was there. How is someone actually diagnoised with schizophrenia? I have lost a lot of faith in the medical field because I feel I was treated very unfairly. When I got sectioned before being diagnosed with schizophrenia I was really pushing my agenda. I was making videos about my abuse by doctors and actually filed a report to investigate doctors about medical malpractice. I also was making videos talking about my life in general and I thought I made some valid points. The last thing I was doing was making demos to send to record labels because I had written some songs. So something here isn't adding up. I kind of think something in my second paragraph made me get sectioned. Actually I'm sure of it. First I feel like I was framed as schizophrenic so the doctors wouldn't get charged with the crimes. Secondly in my videos I made online I made a whole lot of sense what might of offended some old friends (I claimed a ""friend"" tried to kill me in a car accident which I may have proof that he did). Lastly the songs that I sent out may have been reported for being to insensitive. I don't want to get into my situation (anymore than I have), post videos, or my music for discussion. I have been medicated for over a year and I honestly don't notice a difference. I'm pretty freaked out because I believe that I'm not schizophrenic. I just don't see it. Period. I will admit I understand how even in text it can appear that I am. If I am thought why wouldn't they (the doctors) tell me straight up why they think I'm schizophrenic? Like I said I have learned how bad the side effects are of medication if you are NOT actually schizophrenic. Period. I thought I had bi-polar but even that I no longer think I have. I feel kind of confused as to what is really going on here but after a year like I have said already I don't think I have schizophrenia. What can I do to convince my psychiatrist other wise (she has gone with the hospital orders and is forcing medication on me). I don't really know if this is aloud to be posted here but I don't know where it would go besides anti-psychiatry but I'm being labeled as schizophrenic at the moment so why not post this here?",3.7793188914910227,5.8709885204918075,4.827903981264637,81.14371584699457,73.63114754098359,8.254176424668229,28.62724434035909,8.976282227363876,2.4921309914129592,2010,83,377,44,42,657,211,488,0.06,0.8690000000000001,0.071,0.6001,0,0,2,0,1,1,48.0,0,1,3,3,22,22,3,1,19,1,63,17,0,11,3,75,109,27,1,7,13,0,4,4,2,7,17,4,0,0,19,14,0,0,20,6,0,8,16,7,0,4,36,9,71,15,50,62,8,51,1,1,1,0,20,23,0,16,20,273,90,7,0.0,0.07954429421898802,0.3275716022628831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07408541873599522,0.05368803584890529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0665801290624851,0.0,0.0,0.05524659115489828,0.0,0.06276239695141914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05605513021788307,0.12277507737263207,0.0,0.0571271537279028,0.07563843784306708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362817328522683,0.0,0.07014204812778553,0.0,0.2748630960337521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08868440003669427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13578240007201006,0.09592287324202706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057105210076375076,0.0,0.0,0.10373705653999296,0.0,0.10522619299043208,0.0,0.07630902038026606,0.0,0.05369419302608449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0742752081498356,0.13982206541765446,0.07379155625659682,0.16417256959429896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04741961310011975,0.13119556972989094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07328605688842313,0.11415197898560925,0.0,0.2540999904643401,0.13443990376706794,0.0,0.0,0.07312996954810698,0.0,0.33815851122042473,0.06765654247659872,0.07121989185541272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051778844211930526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07643392806140048,0.07044715240160546,0.0,0.04549258344944939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06346451208338971,0.0,0.19289103724874632,0.06830068567211292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07520684557518659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720342431616906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277219947509151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053498102896681284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754628348113836,0.0,0.0,0.056883480182507565,0.10336799207081374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06327417941242827,0.0,0.0,0.053960771594581514,0.11735833669654128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044601677541415294,0.21508778970814374,0.0,0.1598936702822155,0.03914710465762596,0.0,0.0,0.06415060920449757,0.0,0.045580428453084826,0.0,0.0,0.06989016378593073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055393612922943584,0.0395981103653017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30289560835617024,0.07495411003524194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04769095599891146,0.0,0.0,0.12969870129391 schizophrenia,se_t,2019/09/03,"the last 2 years of my life have been hell Since i was 13-14 i always felt depressed or sad, i grew up in a pretty shitty situation my family didnt have a lot and i would go long periods without health insurance. When i was 15 i got into drugs, just weed mostly but it evolved into ordering 125 xanax bars off the dark web and losing a whole summer of my teenage years, i caught a felony at 17 for selling thc gummy bears at school and ever since then my life is falling apart every relationship ive had with any family, friends, girlfriend, has just fall apart i dont even talk to my family anymore bc ive disfigured myself with tattoos ive gave myself. No one will hire me, i havent finished school, i just dont know what to do i dont know how to fix this ive spent 1200$ on legal fines and tattoo removal sessions in the last 6 months, everytime i feel like im moving forward im filled with this terror that ill be stuck for ever. I keep having these psychotic breaks where im stuck between screaming and beating my fists into a wall and curling into a ball and sobbing i just want to end my life so bad they prescribed me zyprexa and prozac and i feel so shitty it doesnt feel like its helping me at all i dont want to lose my girlfriend i dont want to fail her but i dont think theres any answers. If there is anything or any one i can contact for help that isnt a mental hospital please tell me.",2.923030303030305,3.9827463367003375,4.295875420875422,88.3082575757576,73.84848484848484,7.016161616161617,25.284511784511785,7.348242739294969,1.050045117845118,1110,35,240,12,22,368,172,297,0.195,0.703,0.102,-0.986,0,0,1,0,0,1,16.0,0,0,1,4,14,14,1,1,10,0,29,9,0,1,3,45,47,19,0,5,10,0,4,2,3,2,8,1,0,0,9,16,1,1,8,2,2,9,12,10,0,2,12,5,39,4,28,32,4,41,1,6,0,0,12,17,2,5,17,147,48,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718234330235569,0.0,0.0,0.17609745827666914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856041928104432,0.0,0.0,0.07103230209880154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07207186652766541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07434550712125118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6069838306282235,0.0,0.1001013953376308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645206597019323,0.0,0.0,0.057012179060923936,0.1561590199995537,0.07272657937116474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441185885407461,0.0,0.13093481778685553,0.12333109369968072,0.08287874981102045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668901904127629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04905646914320141,0.0,0.06903633437376412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09175192379270307,0.0,0.0,0.11571417872092644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797145317564106,0.0,0.0,0.07672334276430312,0.0,0.0,0.09487615447011276,0.14072126823852402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829067212685765,0.0843411615836115,0.0,0.0,0.07638865229191108,0.0,0.1931353700835177,0.0,0.07338441781636447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08698817182554923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06889814866378446,0.0917422997503584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11698252736629602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475116698316444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08781636725086271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267315385369924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17471670807233405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14280616831286494,0.09702497054569678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06937908293100006,0.07544567593925186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055309044547114175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15273765562060804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963708868958527,0.0,0.08320740481165946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06131778129798655,0.0,0.0,0.11117183449141987 schizophrenia,bea-05,2019/05/08,"Please share your story how you got to the mental hospital, was it by police or by yourself or other people? If you got arrested by police what have you done? I got arrested by the police, they put handcuffs and feet cuffs on and later the ambulance picked me up.",6.2794117647058805,6.439336549019608,7.0047058823529404,75.12117647058824,65.86274509803923,9.937254901960783,28.764705882352942,9.725611199111238,2.6385764705882355,208,6,37,4,3,69,37,51,0.115,0.8059999999999999,0.079,-0.4696,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,3,1,1,2,0,7,6,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,7,1,7,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,3,1,29,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155717701858829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7399001271800612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107665935661487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21378641856921304,0.0,0.0,0.33850001421833464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099991799884416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,whitecupz,2019/05/08,Does my friend have schizophrenia or something else? For quite sometime he has been really away in his own thoughts and he just seems so frozen. His eyes and face twitch and he's just lost control of how he is when buzzing out. I've told him about this and he says he's just tired and stuff but this has been going on for 2 months now. He just really seems like he's not ok and I'm sorry to all the sufferers of this illness and my ignorance and if I might offend someone but he seems like he's hearing stuff the way he acts when lost in thoughts,2.242368421052632,4.040094114035089,2.5191578947368427,97.30610526315792,77.15789473684211,5.963508771929827,21.92631578947368,6.742157984588678,0.20686947368421027,435,12,100,4,10,132,70,114,0.192,0.735,0.07400000000000001,-0.9201,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,4,10,9,1,0,2,1,7,5,2,2,1,28,18,16,0,1,9,0,0,2,1,1,3,2,0,0,5,9,0,2,5,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,7,3,6,4,11,10,2,12,0,3,1,0,18,5,0,6,6,55,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517918591441628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812043770841993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413831024983596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496346789070424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12482161252003188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09181882821223757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820909665606046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578610683141558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3527257896514975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17139066870415187,0.0,0.0,0.12895643300039564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17183998935873848,0.0,0.0,0.20700020182110085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284797760244298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4412371456575825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368900942238428,0.12437753570020195,0.15978794050453474,0.18085429012258106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36989733836732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565227434573567,0.0,0.1856905801400468,0.0,0.15437844010854046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12823958602462335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PK--Fire,2019/05/08,"Probably the last 8 years or so I always thought something was wrong with me. I thought I was just was just ""weird"" for some reason and tried my best to cover it up and attempt to act like what I considered to be ""normal"". Now that I look into it, all the symptoms line up perfectly. I'm going to go to a mental health professional today at my university. I am NOT asking for medical advice. Just sort of scared to actually go and get help. I questioned how much of it is drug induced, as I self-medicate with cannabis and alcohol (although I've limited my alcohol consumption and am working on limiting or quiting whatever I can handle based on the treatment I receive). Sorry if this isn't okay to post here. I just feel like everyone I know that I could talk about it with wouldn't believe me/understand, and my mom's already a nervous wreck whose worried about everything, especially me. I've seen mental health professionals in the past, but they didn't seem to think I had schizophrenia; they seemed to think that it was cannabis and other drug use causing my severe anxiety and depression, because when I'm sober I can otherwise put on a relatively normal, pleasant face. I'm secretly panicking and dying on the inside though, having thoughts that I am aware are irrational, self-conscious and worried. But that doesn't help them go away. I also was dead set against having schizophrenia at the time, because I don't want to have a mental illness, especially a potentially severe one, because it's scary and I just want to be better and normal - I rarely get to experience what that feels like. I feel like if I were to tell my mom, it would break her heart and she would blame herself and especially my dad (for reasons I won't go into). In addition she might not even believe me and think I'm just making ""excuses"" for my actions. I don't know what to think anymore. But I'm going to the doctor to hopefully get some help. My siblings getting married in about three weeks, so there's also that. Thanks for reading this if you got this far. Hopefully this post doesn't get taken down, and I will update overtime if I do get diagnosed and discuss with others how my treatment is going. Any words of support you could offer to show me somebody cares would be much appreciated, but I understand either way. I wish you all the best!",6.768402897550883,6.9693616457399115,7.133183856502239,74.47407036909281,64.82959641255607,10.179924111762677,35.315281131424626,9.943994293440598,3.497764332528458,1858,81,335,37,26,606,220,446,0.122,0.741,0.138,0.9376,0,0,5,0,0,0,53.0,0,3,3,9,21,20,0,2,13,1,37,13,2,8,3,92,85,37,2,18,19,3,3,4,0,7,11,0,0,0,24,24,2,2,20,2,0,11,10,5,0,2,14,5,52,15,49,59,9,41,0,1,2,0,26,16,0,15,13,234,76,5,0.0,0.0,0.06935500560613808,0.0,0.0,0.0694497203240221,0.0,0.15190648601624668,0.0,0.0,0.07842857250556975,0.1136708433075696,0.05913673273998042,0.0,0.0,0.04833069045345165,0.0,0.05436909046238174,0.0,0.07048329575101993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644175444926169,0.0,0.066773507160195,0.0,0.0,0.12997259409317505,0.0,0.0,0.16014527035940973,0.1491691772050858,0.06285648928428975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07246158114039163,0.0730094541121173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11348875816274988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0612133143733988,0.07213552915369932,0.07376043662584661,0.0,0.0,0.07274413988671546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16483950192241692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046941699305071735,0.0,0.0,0.06791134869872748,0.06387399686171963,0.06952103708518767,0.0,0.0,0.10780683963240403,0.15231932573291346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227898619522951,0.0,0.282738853871824,0.0,0.056841939786840774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15109021574974071,0.0,0.08421943071059539,0.14291210068588714,0.0,0.0,0.14117900048747165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07811748275045488,0.05793231874563332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13888672600524865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05968170737134815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047440418191739823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789438156187619,0.07159651593557355,0.21486843717564105,0.07539505813047677,0.0,0.16647490058421385,0.0,0.0,0.10449066739697847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20890335529443027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04815952235142475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06784527390567616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136132669186878,0.0,0.07662651625706335,0.0,0.0,0.0714459455090138,0.07961574142042235,0.07559271508069416,0.07109019358538968,0.0,0.0,0.14614556905507078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07115443016418524,0.0,0.0,0.1294006669001858,0.1482850241758931,0.1605799122599694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05471389781685945,0.0,0.07955812192130035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065048405741386,0.0,0.0738699408291049,0.0,0.057124146150042986,0.0621191522959279,0.06543259199603545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18215760777759515,0.06982685811353652,0.1692672124537455,0.041442048764881036,0.0,0.0673669607044877,0.0,0.0,0.048252517145196856,0.0,0.0,0.147974753235695,0.0,0.06138249114363225,0.0,0.0,0.08383898809927941,0.0564128205815241,0.057008837798682536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08172809743130162,0.0,0.0,0.05174050589457313,0.14435202106518133,0.0,0.15146031422523154,0.0777049387000996,0.0,0.045767368585515535 schizophrenia,maydayiamdown,2019/05/08,"Thoughts on this? I've been attending non-regulated classes (job vocational training), and I didn't make any friends, nor any conversation, even with the teacher. I'm actually delusional (officially diagnosed by a psychiatrist). I need serious help.",7.355499999999997,10.933715550000002,8.665000000000003,50.75,68.5,14.0,47.5,12.161744961471696,8.291,202,15,27,10,4,69,36,40,0.105,0.821,0.07400000000000001,-0.0397,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,5,6,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,0,2,1,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,13,3,2,0.0,0.0,0.3466442953327362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4831246999048219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36054167184329533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346200124290332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27444273721978146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23809703906166704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3525018688846413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23711266678796944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.263391749376981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28200566573463604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ApollosVale,2019/05/08,"Just curious I've struggled with depersonalization disorder for 3 years now.. I've heard many times, that it can turn into a schizo disorder over time. I have had a handful of times hallucinating or hearing voices prior to all of this though. I hope to see a doctor soon I guess I'm just curious what people experienced or felt when they started developing schizophrenia?",6.500149253731344,8.494399014925374,7.247940298507463,66.9653432835821,66.31343283582089,10.136119402985075,32.80298507462687,10.355215969177356,3.8010023880597017,302,13,49,8,5,100,52,67,0.11800000000000001,0.769,0.113,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,1,3,0,3,2,1,0,1,10,12,4,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,7,4,1,8,9,1,11,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,4,9,31,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5118476154817296,0.2285593893422164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144052482060048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459926837042889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516779467233915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22178959150257085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22639350646220602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548097141276713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17794304008757936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15805453328883076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334440717459646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21939339821694745,0.0,0.39062814022719655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24288880414618005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14379937452000688 schizophrenia,strawberrykitten26,2018/11/19,"Seeing colors Typically around the edges of things, on letters and numbers and such. Screens, signs. I saw colors in the patterns of my towel. Does anyone else experience this? The other day I saw a shadow form the shape of a large goat man in my doorway. I was wide awake, just laid down to sleep when I saw it. I felt uneasy like something was watching me right before I saw it. ",2.759362934362933,4.999260689189189,3.681505791505792,87.49689189189192,77.24324324324324,5.3096525096525085,22.73359073359073,6.1826913282559595,0.4741644787644783,297,9,57,2,7,95,54,74,0.038,0.9259999999999999,0.036000000000000004,-0.0258,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,6,0,2,1,1,0,0,6,8,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,10,9,1,9,1,1,10,0,0,9,0,2,8,0,0,3,37,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21627870596461207,0.3169275228315255,0.0,0.2753539756265844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632024160976815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19948117117848446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706817211135801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583911594140968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30256727692176666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29698880066178457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511146131080265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26415144642442623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24648225966439746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30953618819313106,0.0,0.0,0.2381241098566714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054936842613315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,foeyguy,2018/11/19,"Suggestions for APs that dont have weight gain effects Hi all! I'm on zyprexa right now and as well as it works for me, the weight gain is too much of an issue. So I'm planning to switch to something else, any suggestions on meds that don't have as much weight gain? Thanks in advance, hope everyone is well!!",1.9871428571428569,4.0607850952380975,2.36531746031746,96.80607142857143,79.0,6.104761904761905,23.198412698412696,7.1686216300943375,0.5942507936507933,243,8,55,3,6,74,45,63,0.11699999999999999,0.73,0.153,0.3711,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,7,5,4,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,1,1,4,10,5,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,3,1,4,11,10,3,6,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,1,32,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280640253848816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22070958165579654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15731715552518058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17994778477356232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18704420454796705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19655710322529146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091810134001203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27687366674179603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16082421036996888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14497789982273454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17337971056816212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6879689049256589,0.33864450701379406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13709916821260745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PrancingPeach,2018/11/19,"Is my girlfriend/partner possibly showing early signs? So we've been together for nearly 7 years. There have been a few moments over the years where my partner would say she saw something or felt really scared home by herself, but I never thought much of it. After all nobody is perfectly rational 100% of the time. She also grew up in a large family and was more or less never alone as a child, so it made perfect sense to me that she never really learned to be comfortable alone. However, I've recently been thinking over all the details and I realized that if I were to write it down, maybe it wouldn't sound quite as innocent as I've always assumed. I'm really not sure. The first event was before we lived together. I was going over to her family's house early one morning on a weekend. When I got there, I found her in tears and incredibly agitated/scared. She said she'd seen a ""shadow person"", and seeing it sent her immediately into a huge panic. Her family had already comforted her a lot by the time I got there. Of course I looked up shadow people and saw that it can be a symptom of schizophrenia, but nothing was conclusive. Years passed, and she moved in with me. One day she texted me at work asking me to come home quickly. Luckily I had already finished up work for the day and was ready to come home. When I got there, she was on the bed crying. She'd seen a shadow person again, and this time nobody was there to comfort her. Years passed again. During these years, there were no shadow people sightings. However, she has since always been scared of being alone. If she's in the apartment alone, she'll always turn on all the lights and shut all the doors to every room. This is something that I always brushed aside as being only slightly odd/unusual. Like I said, she was never alone growing up, so I didn't think it was that weird that she was uncomfortable with it. However, one day I connected two details together that I hadn't before: every time she's seen a shadow person before, it's been in a door frame, vaguely in an adjacent room. I realized she closes doors because, if the pattern persists, she can't see a shadow person in a doorframe with the door closed. Recently, with the time change and winter coming, it's started getting dark really early. Sometimes it's quite dark as early as 5:30 or 6 PM. Usually I'll get off work before her, but occasionally she gets back before me. A few weeks ago, she was texting me anxiously asking me when I'd be home. When I pulled in and parked, she was coincidentally walking out at the same time to check the mail. I didn't really think much of this until she sort of spilled some details throughout the rest of the evening. When she got home earlier, she got very scared in the apartment because of the darkness. She didn't even progress beyond the entryway, instead immediately going into the guest bathroom right next to the front door, where she stayed and texted me. She didn't even turn on the lights in the rest of the apartment -- just went straight into the bathroom (where of course she did turn on the light). Eventually she couldn't take it and decided to check the mail, and I happened to get home at the same time. Individually, none of this is that bad. Put it together, though, and I notice a pattern of terror-inducing hallucinations (very, very rare -- many years pass between occurrences), paranoia about those hallucinations happening again (shutting doors if alone), and fear in general of being alone which is greatly magnified in the dark.",6.4800091280852925,7.05569880389222,6.662349934277785,76.31589090112459,65.45209580838322,9.57096538630057,31.562144004673577,9.500547302748984,2.8250347889586687,2803,102,507,51,41,900,275,668,0.08,0.8440000000000001,0.077,-0.4138,3,7,2,0,0,0,92.0,1,0,0,11,31,15,0,5,46,0,48,1,0,1,11,77,91,43,0,7,12,0,1,1,2,3,1,4,15,6,28,30,0,0,12,2,2,17,15,7,0,5,45,18,67,8,79,34,17,117,0,0,9,0,53,50,0,11,50,348,95,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04801647206183249,0.0,0.0,0.3927104152407179,0.11955099283140468,0.04331795715278988,0.18028774172494386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061194177473062675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10127913152194036,0.0,0.0,0.041651682181959186,0.04522783690217319,0.06604035650233958,0.0,0.23046397193692386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05730233289267402,0.13998224825985978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05950076700613965,0.10480121813021896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073319310392149,0.0,0.09127738821609063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15319369733641386,0.06095381634094209,0.0,0.0,0.05200956711270943,0.0,0.0,0.046075089248025065,0.0,0.059392179075623684,0.0,0.0,0.11320172541827557,0.0,0.0615695996870993,0.0,0.21661462522147595,0.05972017289368229,0.0,0.0,0.09580078468524887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260082224722439,0.0,0.0,0.06250234982560919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02646364305536032,0.0,0.047831145515312264,0.0,0.04548729590616563,0.0,0.0,0.0460515127478408,0.0,0.05125486677532755,0.0,0.05491763082643585,0.05441881949496912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05757178175129885,0.07963910746965162,0.0,0.167110136888282,0.0,0.057608052615627764,0.0,0.0,0.051975449491158655,0.06167038090388029,0.0,0.0,0.11011647657472358,0.04119704049104098,0.0,0.06355422321500892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07510624188533258,0.18918887794089487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06106603740110009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05445358398416887,0.0,0.11522821147964528,0.0,0.0,0.17350634681122115,0.0,0.10696830334971193,0.0,0.0,0.0462589914169052,0.1030519334262776,0.04307639583151434,0.1626942037586573,0.0,0.08632942116027277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04480815053263036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08340201277049948,0.0535733232673679,0.0,0.03834023618981163,0.05773565030210455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05105249520357327,0.056301067865856175,0.040727432170851584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041255860231545,0.05321957258101362,0.043003169755113764,0.22109969246985964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17675698238546228,0.05291405390801912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059658161113927986,0.1340822836890889,0.0,0.0,0.043450128832276,0.0,0.0,0.05021407828751385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11830437527451007,0.0,0.0,0.0384792394780551,0.0,0.0,0.20929366092787116 schizophrenia,Leighton_Baines_Hair,2018/11/19,"newly concerned father My 14 year old daughter has symptoms that match schizophrenia. A few months ago, she told us that she felt like she was being watched. We didn't think anything of it. Then she revealed to her mom that she heard a voice call her name and she saw fleeting shadows. I immediately wondered about schizophrenia, but my wife said I was jumping to conclusions. Just this past weekend, my daughter has revealed to us that she has 17 very active voices in her head. She says that some of the voices are much stronger and more aggressive than others. At this point, my daughter is used to the voices and she misses some of them when they are quiet. She has a hard time sleeping, the most intrusive voices tend to come out during bedtime. Occasionally, she has a hard time speaking when the voices are active. &#x200B; She already sees a therapist and we are now trying to get her in front of a psychiatrist for help. We've called three different psychiatrists and the first open appointments are in February. Man, that's a long time away. &#x200B; This is a pretty scary time for us. We just have so many questions and so few answers. What does all this mean? Will her symptoms change for the better or worse as she grows older? What can we do to help her? Will she be able to go to college? Will she have a job? What kind of medication will help her? Should we move to another state for better psychiatric care? ... on and on &#x200B; I must say, I truly enjoy reading all the posts on here. I see a nice online community supporting each other. Thanks for reading.",3.8912808716707015,6.425124867796612,3.958928571428572,85.44430084745764,74.89830508474577,6.383777239709443,26.128934624697337,7.447530270364453,1.4311815980629543,1256,46,228,16,28,386,169,295,0.049,0.769,0.182,0.9937,2,0,0,0,0,0,48.0,8,0,2,4,9,11,1,0,17,0,27,5,2,1,3,38,46,15,0,2,4,6,3,1,0,6,3,12,0,1,16,16,0,0,9,3,0,6,1,2,0,2,8,19,41,9,32,30,10,36,0,1,4,0,52,11,0,6,18,163,57,4,0.089582871412611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07940981038611386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09885692622302994,0.0,0.0,0.291189011244707,0.3265589823006659,0.0,0.0939354515505706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07371907021725642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08416605657994827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15845753977925378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829482553554912,0.0,0.09133570779056416,0.0,0.09476679968968883,0.07716771151243658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09359503388393127,0.0,0.0,0.07839457446149324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08601360502632688,0.0,0.0,0.07619914466013583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04680335291642376,0.0,0.05091201026186866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16049731383306245,0.0,0.09193787072836712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18013653114596284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08889717701319562,0.0,0.0,0.09328677519257222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04376566596658375,0.0,0.0,0.07927802219159656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908229710247363,0.0,0.09758200908699396,0.0,0.0902453183521393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10491837629628624,0.0715041932910998,0.0952124151598258,0.06585371802556195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09400215408655616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551698727652321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08468476922787509,0.0,0.08579562782043253,0.09113798585024252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10035331798537553,0.0,0.1792142276197286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08521382498452998,0.14247978988097248,0.0,0.0,0.14277190036478074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08964756709098587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165758087397556,0.0,0.18622180813309605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08247587215838112,0.0,0.10401261830925228,0.0,0.05740108680339205,0.0,0.0,0.20894597090824826,0.0,0.0,0.08560027262436518,0.0,0.06082088931504466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3232714927840129,0.07737083826102924,0.0,0.0739152507926626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09714880269752638,0.0,0.0,0.09129259924826603,0.0,0.0,0.3265589823006659,0.05768843209991125 schizophrenia,DisastrousToday,2018/11/19,"Help with a friend! (please, help) I've posted this in /mentalhealth as well This is a trow away account 'cause I don't want anyone involved to feel like I'm exposing the story or anything like that. this can be a long text so if you read it all I'm already thanking you for the patience and empathy, I promise to try to make it short! (english is not my 1st language, so sorry for that. Sorry also for the terms I've used, please feel free to correct me if it's the case) &#x200B; So... the ex-gf of my current gf was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia. But before that we used to be friends (while they were still together as a couple), and she is not a very open person, she's very shy and recluse but liked me as a friend. I was there when she had her first episode and it was an intense one, very intense, and I stood by her side and took care of her until help came (help came 12h later, I was constantly worried she would hurt herself or me due her strength and how scared she was) and after that she was into an institution and I haven't spoke with her since then. I feel like a bitch for this. But here's the reason: I'm calling myself J, she is S. and my gf (her ex) I'll call E. By the time she had her first episode she had recently broke up with E. but the relationship was dead some time before that (she was already slowly going deep in her condition for some months, E. told me that, she had no idea about S. problem). During S. episode it was clear that E. was part of the problem as she was mixing E's image with hallucinations in her mind. We all study in the same college, being E. my roommate and S. our neighbor. After she got institutionalized she and E. talked about it and turns out she doesn't remember about what happened and very little about some weeks before that too. Those weeks was when we've met (all that was 5 months ago) so she don't remember much about me. during this 5 months with S. hospitalized me and E. got closer and start dating. Next semester S. will return to college and probably find out me and E. are together. I now fear this will hurt her and I don't want to cause any pain to her at all! I don't know how to deal with it. Should I tell her with a message? Should I tell her in person? Should I just be cool about it? Should I worry? &#x200B; I don't know. I fear she my have a second episode, I fear she try to kill me or E. or herself. Not just because of her mental condition but because I know she has a problem with medication, she used to lie to E. about being taking medication for any health problem that comes up, she used to hide pills and such and refused medicine for a long time. Being away from her family, having few friends and living alone at college I fear she may stop taking the meds and I really worry about that. I wouldn't think twice if I had to spend other 12h with her waiting for help if it's the case, I'll be there. I worry about my life and their because she got violent and tried to hammer the head of her old mother off (literally) the first time and I don't know how worst it can get, there was a lot of violence. How to tell her this without making it seems we conspired behind her back? or that E. was cheating her or something like that? &#x200B; Even if she's okay with this E. and me thing, I really would like to know How do I proceed in case of a episode, if ever happen again. &#x200B; we study in a rural area wich is our research field, very very far from any hospital and such, all we have is a couple guards and a medical post with very few resources (that neglect help the first time, I know, revolting!) &#x200B; Thank you kind stranger if you've read so far. Please, if any question comes up I'll be glad to answer, I just really need a north to follow here",3.9558830928597857,4.830979609150329,4.554016524848937,88.12099889012212,71.20915032679737,7.446787520039463,25.937230238007153,7.5680677535414835,1.1382539154026396,2951,88,632,32,53,941,291,765,0.14800000000000002,0.747,0.106,-0.9924,1,1,1,0,0,1,121.0,7,3,2,5,40,40,4,5,34,2,61,9,1,14,8,145,109,68,2,22,26,2,3,6,7,10,8,1,1,2,37,54,0,5,18,2,3,7,14,19,1,7,31,5,102,22,86,60,16,80,0,4,0,0,90,28,1,21,49,427,139,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041409235886476034,0.0,0.0,0.048381724977443766,0.1031003539002843,0.03735725322656455,0.0,0.2530735685249439,0.28381375599112946,0.12706877432053446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032663588666306136,0.0,0.03844172846044056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08777887955171397,0.03592026357788718,0.0,0.08542945523707388,0.0,0.1192507891664467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09540064916663668,0.1068569836402602,0.04762814380701618,0.09597650851660336,0.0,0.08048013093850173,0.0,0.050481352468401325,0.0,0.0,0.103376538260194,0.0,0.0,0.048160191477930984,0.0,0.0474138336765119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030854226058302438,0.0422555827848682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04403790114050903,0.21026542356487168,0.07086016590562516,0.06674513249109901,0.0,0.0,0.04269584605596969,0.1589399768233695,0.0,0.0,0.14436480787076433,0.0,0.02440619202804551,0.0,0.026548702636835245,0.0,0.1120846125559485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08261825829337231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04794214918005932,0.0496549096107873,0.0,0.0,0.18786888102931676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001683203118476,0.05273453895806497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05168223637605427,0.048645552234102586,0.1540371039546707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032995554157956984,0.13693291372391145,0.046819805866083385,0.041249410927428655,0.08268102657802504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03971466191536816,0.0,0.0,0.06236405621686545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05188884017973888,0.14117863991074342,0.04707683098791655,0.0,0.047167929779073234,0.0,0.11186025980164406,0.0,0.034340242477128836,0.03463791725621554,0.0,0.0,0.04968098107351898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049018595479328214,0.0,0.031654686802746065,0.0,0.04970710175557898,0.0,0.0,0.050586823912885034,0.0,0.0,0.08157791001038048,0.0,0.15383417930381804,0.0,0.0,0.08947840004075495,0.0,0.05036570660321575,0.17879636003455487,0.0,0.0,0.05233048909500509,0.0,0.09345349383954277,0.0,0.0897787563441292,0.048029880594429336,0.09224908694000583,0.05015346695453144,0.10583595013916147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04676896886641396,0.0,0.0,0.04252676711473522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038642390733185525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03596280059656571,0.0,0.10458523295378758,0.033064484252042836,0.0,0.03730594493101457,0.03905508384980661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07024638726649853,0.03754702843726207,0.12249056143233378,0.0860161440643979,0.0,0.0,0.031034775921648883,0.02993251251985605,0.0,0.0,0.13619685267472648,0.0,0.0,0.044637329617258914,0.0519010899558182,0.09514743355610672,0.050811532403268383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16138395378138795,0.0,0.2698082048753563,0.055106379394216136,0.0,0.07494247523210579,0.0,0.04200159091058097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045030730627576496,0.0,0.0,0.1897617664402162,0.0,0.06636872039358133,0.0,0.28381375599112946,0.0 schizophrenia,AnAtheistGoy,2018/11/19,Is talking to imaginary friends (i.e. self-talking) a mental illness? I'm 27 (young adult) and have a loner personality.,5.127142857142856,7.980685761904766,6.48595238095238,67.2632142857143,72.33333333333333,8.009523809523811,39.07142857142857,8.841846274778883,4.2491714285714295,95,6,14,2,2,32,19,21,0.226,0.633,0.14,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141744803233055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4098045535900164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3550684943426992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4242215301739235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6536949452401875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,UninteractiveMoose,2018/11/19,Relation? Does anyone else avoid mirrors and reflections at all costs? ,6.154545454545456,9.822541272727275,4.791363636363638,70.50704545454549,90.8181818181818,9.472727272727274,32.77272727272727,8.841846274778883,5.019145454545456,58,3,7,2,2,17,11,11,0.204,0.7959999999999999,0.0,-0.3736,0,1,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4035344625778203,0.5913257943334713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5050400240376891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.482108200083684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Janelle1986,2018/11/19,"Care for parent with schizophrenia? Let's say you have schizophrenia but work(32f) and so does your parent(born in 61)on disability. Your parent lives with their mother, the father passed last year. Your parent wants to live with you if their mother passes before them. Your parent has two siblings. You still live with your mother after moving out to be in a long term relationship that didn't work out. You don't know if you want to rent or buy a place, but are in a bad place financially. Things aren't working out where you live. You have the chance to buy three acres and a used mobile home for 10k, but it is out in the country.. it is your grandma's land but your dad wants to live with you. You are also on the waiting list in town for a one bedroom apartment at the local housing authority or another complex. What do you do?",4.644917184265008,6.1707115403726736,4.520760869565219,86.54751811594204,70.24223602484471,6.857349896480331,24.59679089026915,7.1686216300943375,0.9193846790890264,662,18,129,6,12,203,92,161,0.03,0.92,0.05,-0.1556,6,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,17,3,2,4,2,0,0,10,0,14,0,0,1,0,26,21,12,0,5,8,9,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,5,11,0,1,2,0,3,3,3,1,0,3,1,1,20,1,25,18,1,27,0,0,0,0,31,18,0,4,6,91,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08983093808840345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177886878146201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09379156552330313,0.0,0.0,0.0955852775866186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452878539129965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09830148155122938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11267699884799573,0.0,0.0,0.12961471608091346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061734096030153535,0.0915646332362538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148659021227499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4959509812902965,0.09940926511072666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11938991360784705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07611828934904764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6236505629369236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23472365427908998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12060129147042277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0893299984891625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08970755984394266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07462762365040977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10973091560739892,0.0,0.0,0.09701778576086996,0.0,0.0,0.1987669325799548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453345843015432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07233738281944821 schizophrenia,MirageAnne,2018/11/19,"Someone Is Watching Me Every night for around three days now, I’ve had an unshakable feeling that someone has been watching me in my room. It was so bad last night that I fell asleep with my blankets above my head. I haven’t done that since I was sixteen. I don’t know who’s watching me and I hope to Gods it isn’t Unknown. I know it’s from stress but I’ve never had this feeling so intensely before. It’s only when I go to sleep. I spend a good hour and a half just waiting because I have no clue if something will happen if I fall asleep. Sometimes, it feels like someone is touching my hair. I know that’s impossible since I’d hear them breathing and shifting their bodyweight on the floor, but it’s pure silence. This is in my head and it’s just my body’s reaction towards stress but it doesn’t make it any better to deal with. 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I recently had to be forcibly sedated in the emergency department after I demonstrated signs of a psychotic episode. It was immediately thought to be as a result of a spiked drink by medical staff but I was never actually tested. So neither scenario can be taken as certainty, although my psychologist does consider it a “red flag”. I would describe myself as a risk taker at times, but never really dangerous to myself or others, nor do I do anything that would get me in serious legal trouble. I have never experienced hallucinations of any kind (not more than most other people, the occasional instance where I thought I heard someone I was with say my name but that’s it). I do not suffer from paranoia, delusions or any other reality misconceptions that I’ve learnt are commonly part of a schizophrenia diagnosis. I have an appointment booked for a psychiatrist soon who I assume at some point will determine what mental illness(es) I am dealing with alongside anxiety and provide me with methods to treat whatever I may be suffering from. I guess I’m pretty spooked at the moment because over the past year it has been quite apparent that my mental health has been fluctuating and deteriorating and currently no one is sure why. Until I see the psychiatrist, what should I know about schizophrenia so that I’m not misinformed and freak myself out over this? I’m not worried that I will try to hurt or kill myself, or that I’m totally detached from reality or that at any moment I could “snap” or whatever, but I’d like to know how effectively the disorder can be treated. Like despite not having concerns about those things right now, is it possible I could suddenly completely lose the plot? I think that’s what I’m most afraid of, but I don’t even know if that’s irrational or not. This is all just so new and weird to me, I never considered the possibility of having schizophrenia; anxiety and depression? Yeah, that wouldn’t be news lol. Bipolar? Maybe. If I was told that, I’d be able to connect the dots. But schizophrenia sounds scary to me, I’ve always associated it with frightening hallucinations, erratic behaviour, wild episodes and the notion of an untreatable disorder. Idk, I just hope that if I do have it that it gets treated and won’t impact my life.",8.787102996254681,8.75229804269663,9.03630617977528,63.3015004681648,60.70786516853932,12.630149812734086,39.440543071161045,12.00992498983062,5.091616104868914,1979,93,322,58,24,656,231,445,0.138,0.741,0.121,-0.8617,2,0,2,0,0,1,43.0,0,0,0,3,13,21,2,2,21,2,45,6,0,3,7,71,65,35,1,10,24,0,0,2,0,9,5,3,0,0,34,14,1,0,8,2,0,1,16,13,0,2,12,8,39,8,47,35,10,36,0,5,3,0,6,13,0,18,23,245,73,4,0.10768446259690637,0.0,0.10508450182410244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08960209930306667,0.0,0.0,0.2196873816703888,0.0,0.16475663828259568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08861513740640535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06564344890802808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290511025021953,0.0,0.0,0.17195456203831866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110179525285252,0.09274846984312672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24683144696075102,0.0,0.0942353988913405,0.0,0.0,0.10548977744189343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112457194890212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252137438918798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186265760041532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11446354818802353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10695496889223577,0.0,0.0,0.11527844439301815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913690308299635,0.11213679686311552,0.17754169335380934,0.08777720947024485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15212144108019324,0.10521837814508438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047136902716707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10818351645411413,0.0,0.0,0.10848076708633836,0.21704122128355186,0.11423619758080165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3322115843651117,0.10400232500045116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14593955750292092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11661177921817527,0.10279700429966916,0.07465484762637778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017966238483734,0.2427961033803829,0.0,0.1095538117241712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453568111431355,0.0,0.0,0.06898542415783297,0.0,0.10632541566407967,0.0,0.0,0.09196194267985064,0.0,0.08563500679490821,0.0,0.0,0.17162114947072532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09124069570906948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10149133160431642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07154077204161173,0.06899985552407166,0.0,0.1709788696614964,0.06279167611576493,0.0,0.0,0.10289711872760762,0.0,0.0731106815095292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09716847824700213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935879889536346,0.0,0.15299190522134767,0.0,0.0,0.13869052667723605 schizophrenia,robloxdruglord,2018/11/19,"Am I predisposed to schizophrenia? My therapist said I might be like predisposed to schizophrenia. I’m 16 and was extremely depersonalized from excessive weed and lsd use. I still am to an extent but I haven’t smoked in 5 or 6 weeks. I did do 50 ugs of lsd 2 or 3 weeks ago however. For a very long time I had miserable withdrawals from weed, severe depression, and extreme derealization and depression. Reality felt very surreal and just plain weird. It would change dramatically as I withdrew from weed. I didn’t remember my personality for the longest time. The main symptom that my therapist that thinks is a early indication that I may be predisposed to schizophrenia is this sensation I get in my brain. It feels like a physical cloud is filling my brain and it goes away if I don’t think about it but a lot of the time it’s very hard not to think about it. It’s a pressure and it takes away my ability to think, the natural euphoria you have that just makes you feel comfortable will change to these very uncomfortable sensations that switch around to different uncomfortable sensations and I get completely lost in my brain. At one point it was so bad my brain would feel like a solid painful brick. When this happens I get these intense cold relieving sensations when I stop thinking about it and my brain loosens up. Am I prone to being triggered and ending up getting schizophrenia? TL;DR: I used to be severely depersonalized and I still have this uncomfortable pressure in my brain that is intense and only goes away when I don’t think about it. When I don’t think about it and it goes away I get cold relieving sensations as it disappears. I’ve read that people have gotten such a pressure I speak of until it blows up into schizophrenia. My therapist says this pressure could be a sign of predisposition to schizophrenia. Am I prone to getting schizophrenia? I’m 16.",5.073717024009486,7.3154788022922626,5.467918189902189,77.29507163323785,70.432664756447,9.512933504594411,31.23219049501037,9.921728534948242,3.3517786977571387,1518,67,272,41,29,484,154,349,0.18100000000000002,0.7240000000000001,0.095,-0.9886,2,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,0,1,16,17,0,5,13,0,32,8,6,4,0,47,59,26,0,4,8,0,5,3,0,5,2,3,0,1,28,15,0,1,12,1,0,2,6,11,0,1,9,10,35,6,43,39,3,34,0,4,0,0,6,15,0,6,20,183,63,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852940736757898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0688210423680837,0.0,0.0,0.2905358897015365,0.0,0.06454944993526793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5178117754343378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16356449132113993,0.0,0.08105659387860932,0.0,0.0,0.06172462464198794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13317156391372728,0.0,0.0,0.08077103034785588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06847247119507402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11726864965085615,0.11045855535285047,0.07422837744281956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24234330916415625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06836373767084493,0.0,0.0692533186239129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11330722755113913,0.0,0.0,0.06841567624513452,0.0,0.0,0.08439146678787461,0.06572500522166846,0.0,0.0,0.05160408930626939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08201220523165477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05238630659463536,0.0587966722443425,0.08226179866270551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053596047616533804,0.06750288561981019,0.0,0.0,0.07308161321666233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07732951855005324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757557083527483,0.0,0.07353817994678899,0.06147889986718585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17467342087003768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12347749204640204,0.06463344936515604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08035323399104641,0.05812644433097097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692837216267811,0.0,0.3467535949570152,0.0,0.0,0.13523779513415346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13353961350065918,0.0,0.2551507582057093,0.0,0.0,0.12402458785753588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983561949285073,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Natdaprat,2018/11/19,"Is 'dream reality confusion' a possible symptom of schizophrenia? The thing is I have most negative and disorganised symptoms but no positive symptoms most commonly associated with schizophrenia. I'm going through the long winded process of diagnosis and I wanted to ask others here if they too suffer from dream reality confusion and if it could be considered a positive symptom. I dream every night and the dreams are all set in my past with people I used to know and it has gotten to the point were I can no longer be sure what was a dream and what really happened. The dreams with violence and bizarre situations are usually recognised as dreams but the mundane stuff become false memories in my mind. I worry that I'm one bad day away from the truly scary aspects of schizophrenia and that terrifies me.",7.999210727969348,9.045102468965519,7.945747126436785,66.79118773946361,62.24137931034482,11.685823754789276,38.180076628352495,11.429527900616536,4.8712605363984665,658,32,104,19,9,212,91,145,0.22899999999999998,0.581,0.19,-0.8554,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,2,10,0,12,4,0,1,2,26,21,13,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,9,11,0,0,1,7,0,1,3,4,0,1,3,0,10,1,16,15,3,12,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,6,6,78,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15070609471555382,0.0,0.15145859073090576,0.0,0.1346004960653112,0.0,0.17803965221733825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12871008358070252,0.0,0.0,0.10396470341254628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13582322939748473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09161723429700426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425541660324349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08859474626999042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14266246994317794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16277237095112276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15128115747041812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10923753590059364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15388961896001144,0.11176012504459687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15239202506110588,0.18173583991446585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10327286003876136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812025939575181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845426029436102,0.0,0.0,0.15193499513664996,0.6702201283817634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709827805384887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13923045230891978,0.17754592371171135,0.0,0.09508363066326732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163712785276041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,skippylou88,2019/08/06,I need advice on his to help someone who has schizophrenia. Well at least seems to. My boyfriend developed what seems like schizophrenia. His DR diagnosed him being delusional. He hears voices everyday and some are voices of people he knows. He won’t believe what I tell him and won’t believe me when I try to use logic with him. He says he’s taking his meds but I honestly don’t think he is. He truly believes everything he sees and hears is happening. I’ve tried to explain to him that it is real to him but I try to let him know it isn’t there. What is the best thing I can do?,1.6558963585434157,3.845619512605044,3.0522899159663868,90.84185224089636,80.76470588235293,6.319607843137256,22.521708683473392,7.492282038375204,0.9181927170868348,458,15,96,7,12,149,72,119,0.0,0.843,0.157,0.9571,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,1,0,14,2,0,1,0,17,27,6,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,5,0,0,8,4,0,0,7,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,6,17,4,11,23,3,4,0,0,1,0,24,2,0,3,3,62,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15285837189014126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5287180102130358,0.1641601827723591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587698192364687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14058624168456552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383276242158068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35260854481628684,0.0,0.1048495272662676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17193605926243674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599569105617409,0.0,0.0764221897340426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17375481240210972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11598842437036365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10844658567160442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17804784365099105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439679935253302,0.0,0.0,0.12465183628986586,0.28481000602415896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325398448801373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11761341937049463,0.0,0.13672384048272218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10392295625665593,0.1002319203820285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31861040660798834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13510245419276648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14064639957221106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bloody-Vision,2019/08/06,I Believe I have schizophrenia...Help me please... [https://www.reddit.com/r/mentalhealth/comments/cmx2x7/my\_mind\_feels\_wrong/?utm\_source=share&utm\_medium=web2x](https://www.reddit.com/r/mentalhealth/comments/cmx2x7/my_mind_feels_wrong/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web2x),120.84666666666666,150.07898255555554,41.95777777777778,-200.41,-109.88888888888893,5.6444444444444475,36.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,3.919933333333335,269,3,6,1,3,43,8,9,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7850487302607486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4081594033993233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428250201565333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3976687090011911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,blackkkwolfie,2019/08/06,"Having a treatment for schizoaffective, but drinking a lot of alcohol. I am a 17 years old girl and I am taking Abilify, Hedonin and Depakin. I am diagnosed with schizoaffective and my psychiatrist is lately thinking of the possibility to have something bi-polar, too. I have problems taking my pills, because I am gaining weight because of them and I don’t want to, cause literally I hate myself. When I have the possibility I just don’t take my pills and I throw them somewhere. I hide this from my parents cause u know they will be angry and stuff. I am drinking a lot of alcohol in order to stop all the crazy thoughts inside my head and to forget about the world for a little bit. I know it sounds crazy cause I am only 17, but I am having a really hard time right now and my life is just a big mess. I just don’t wanna live anymore. My parents hide my pills cause once I tried to commit a suicide. However, what am I supposed to do???? Cause literally I can’t stand it anymore and everything is against me.",3.2629411764705867,5.191043417085428,4.8667514040792215,81.0198610700562,74.62814070351759,7.697428318060893,28.288796925805503,8.4952907291091,2.1938818208690507,796,33,152,15,17,268,104,199,0.205,0.755,0.04,-0.9873,3,0,5,0,0,2,23.0,0,0,3,1,7,3,1,0,12,0,23,11,1,5,2,33,32,12,1,3,5,2,2,0,0,1,7,1,0,1,5,10,5,1,4,2,0,1,4,3,0,0,1,3,32,0,18,29,4,15,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,2,7,110,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366375129365812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21959551889457848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497949614798005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12087015597362802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5686648442417761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237158241860716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169136028763402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09950189853683898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917729407342787,0.10930637848177416,0.11362369903830408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169017478922435,0.0,0.12488932850198264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782000177164592,0.0,0.110963726527562,0.09776179693410413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882488319800521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11617489485306945,0.117905960359678,0.0,0.0842023887026056,0.0,0.0,0.2458678457820893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496250292005067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10593759431502706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07092572030626647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09454848042115574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08523244162901061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925612048929982,0.0,0.0,0.1267401429190231,0.1211022873923414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497276770588524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07094055757164502,0.0,0.08789392568021155,0.06455776581961825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07516700537031654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06530152250645586,0.0,0.0,0.13481886918246794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07129568038701056 schizophrenia,Forged_in_Chaos,2019/08/06,"Feeling like it's impossible to make connections or have normal conversations Talking or interacting with people to me feels like a chore. It's mentally and emotionally draining. And most of the time I'm not sure what to say next or how to carry the conversation forward. A lot of what makes me, me is tied up in my disability. And people don't want to hear about that because they can't relate. So when I see people having 10 minute+ conversations I stand there in awe because I can barely make a proper 2 sentence exchange before I start to lose focus and start thinking about something suddenly. Most of the time I think about the implications of what they said or how they said it or how they reacted to what I said. And if I start questioning them about any of this they'll get offended or turned off. So inevitably I don't say anything and usually the conversation ends right there. And other times when I'll be really into the conversation they'll be the ones who stop because I've probably said something abnormal or outside their frame of thought. All of this has made me very socially isolated outside of work. I feel best when I'm not forced to interact with people or pretend like I'm interested in whatever they're saying. It's very draining to be around people and have to try to make normal conversation with this disability.",7.7980033745781725,7.73138543700788,8.07075365579303,69.5137007874016,62.74015748031496,11.509111361079867,36.253093363329576,11.062562989136584,4.105336107986502,1087,46,191,27,14,357,131,254,0.063,0.858,0.079,0.7144,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,8,3,15,8,1,0,10,0,14,0,0,9,2,49,40,25,0,4,11,0,3,3,0,2,0,8,1,0,14,13,0,1,7,1,1,1,5,2,0,1,6,12,22,6,33,29,5,24,0,1,1,0,28,9,0,13,18,126,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07091786485563221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858182608072541,0.09283639953852102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19071481860399214,0.0,0.08873946564506886,0.0,0.109441427904333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730739711306284,0.09236619316599816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15818997849673025,0.1490034766160517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05448498380945932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117537584279728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15284620350966888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11666904402083647,0.0,0.08865998878360337,0.0,0.09867766859881688,0.2784461082141404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10509547623118876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11090904497998852,0.0,0.20435572482909395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066670195658713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614929329028611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11243764310609444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168238719012804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06680810181588714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905943399993776,0.39679839885958135,0.2487965678025976,0.0,0.0,0.08310221592149135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10630615724932783,0.0,0.1605684824568359,0.0,0.0,0.2214419054480756,0.0,0.0,0.08718753047540438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828805574548677,0.0,0.0,0.08382091045365588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336441553968547,0.0,0.0827912118549578,0.1824295237295824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07080315753284999,0.1134329155955428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485598582120965,0.17209327929568646,0.061510418865048815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07592124528258888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,redComrade1917,2019/08/06,"am i schizophrenic my mother was schizophrenic and killed herself i often feel disassociated, when i see people passing by i think that they are looking at me mocking me. Sometimes when its really bad I look in the mirror and hate myself so much for my appearance, then when I talk with friends (I have this delusio that they all secretly hate and try to avoid me) I say that im ugly and get mad if they try to counter me, believing firmly that I have a disformed face. When i am alone and sad I lie in my bed and many weird sentences leave my mouth without me being able to control them or anything they just flood out of me things like why do they hate me or I hate them I hope they die or why are they so mean to me. I am in therapy but im afraid if i tell this to my therapist she will put me in to a psychiatry. I sometimes get really mad and start hurting myself like beating my self.",3.624854981084489,4.588600699453553,4.859562841530057,85.29446406052965,72.06010928961749,8.035140815468685,27.73812526271543,8.384062270229773,1.751175199663724,700,25,149,11,13,232,103,183,0.22,0.728,0.052000000000000005,-0.9807,0,2,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,9,2,8,18,8,2,3,0,11,4,2,1,1,27,26,20,2,3,8,1,1,2,1,1,2,1,1,1,8,9,0,2,4,0,0,3,1,14,0,0,1,5,44,4,17,23,2,15,0,2,3,0,18,6,0,8,8,107,52,0,0.1279144499586334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132480793177461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10526269329847318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068032227253147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14411578194801394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14346693241505715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13275500396988424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06467738929826869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09882638673252776,0.0,0.13366004125831926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5051561484951184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270479109637691,0.0,0.0,0.13693506427029753,0.0,0.2763391123702846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415183867767596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13544293311766192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249850780827003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21483184377562253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296851752912509,0.0,0.13933633541092355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403183874484364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08867977367004144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12858935241657266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16389054416037424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10172270471719112,0.0,0.0,0.10193125547736594,0.0,0.13344266841180133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530213235462095,0.0,0.0905385060527815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10281278956350216,0.11180286732145003,0.0,0.1462813213825509,0.14851853540734264,0.0849806767348964,0.08196241457437853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17369102999379085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308457905354266,0.0,0.0,0.1233049651223311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DylanAeichele,2019/08/06,"Questions While recently thinking over the dopamine hypothesis of schizophrenia, I began to wonder, what causes this excess dopamine in the first place? Is this known yet? Or is it extremely complex and we don't really understand exactly why yet and just know that antipsychotics block dopamine so we assume there is too much? Also does anybody have experience taking glycine transporter one inhibitors such as sarcosine or the even newer ones? Does anybody have a good understanding of which areas of the brain are different between schizophrenics and non-schizophrenics and how they differ? If so, would it be possible to explain the regular function of these brain areas to me? For example, I read this paragraph earlier today: The most consistent structural abnormalities found in schizophrenia include lateral and third ventricular enlargement; medial temporal lobe (hippocampal formation, subiculum, parahippocampal gyrus) volume reductions; and superior temporal gyrus volume reductions, particularly on the left. There is also moderate evidence for frontal lobe volume reduction, particularly of prefrontal and orbitofrontal regions, and parietal lobe abnormalities. Enlarged cavum septi pellucidi, basal ganglia abnormalities, corpus callosum abnormalities, thalamus abnormalities, and cerebellar abnormalities are also evident. Is there anybody out there who could break down what each of these brain areas do and if possible how the changes seen in schizophrenia affect this functioning?",13.731583710407245,15.742449217194574,11.436380090497739,43.348325791855224,50.04072398190046,15.12579185520362,51.38914027149322,13.875232112747142,8.56133665158371,1251,76,128,46,13,382,144,221,0.022000000000000002,0.945,0.033,0.5362,1,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,2,0,1,1,17,2,0,0,9,0,14,4,3,4,1,39,24,23,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,13,14,0,1,11,1,0,1,1,0,0,4,3,1,6,2,20,18,3,23,0,0,1,0,6,12,0,8,9,101,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276457629120623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4573730093957466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14029536274095075,0.14447331477366274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10904030640341744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28537388274885683,0.0,0.0,0.23902725574376396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09020342381369284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359200167440674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11616666435941153,0.0,0.14974233245891694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454872453780568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07505548912922286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14838407774231652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039491641035364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18508719836059376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14268694137442842,0.0,0.0,0.3079250843051565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529900402393786,0.0,0.13660730131019214,0.0,0.08749045908841388,0.0,0.1348467381737554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10268390187469484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08750876160482092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294527168259276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28434908785681445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12323349279265812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14810471175520046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09701565358214133,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FistingUrDad,2019/08/06,"I might need a caretaker, but I'm not sure how to get one. My cognitive abilities have been in rapid and dramatic decline. I might need help just to function and take care of myself before long. But I'm wondering if there's a government program in the U.S. for that, where someone could be appointed to come to my home and make sure I'm okay, or if I would be stuck in a mental institution instead. I don't know anything about this stuff.",5.995909090909091,5.770238590909095,6.560363636363636,79.37554545454545,66.5,10.676363636363641,33.50909090909091,10.355215969177356,3.2519245454545453,348,14,71,8,5,114,64,88,0.083,0.775,0.14300000000000002,0.7441,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,4,1,9,0,0,2,2,23,22,9,0,6,7,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,7,4,10,14,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,6,1,48,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17128268156444915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17711304672581885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21221408391139365,0.0,0.0,0.17929543222790068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661840141266582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874531881786792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13951282895759198,0.0,0.20878284884202614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438909956459087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18419863666327085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13893603656574954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097576299011788,0.44161038003314335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30866850108248806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410420357460427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17635757824515566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382721670390497,0.0,0.0,0.3923417136512277,0.0,0.15649646963198424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257205277788864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785771681302115,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,emphaticZen,2019/08/06,"Circular Reasoning Very unpleasant because it means you end up fighting the same voices and you're being lead there by the disease. When I argue with the voices and the same part of the argument keeps replaying it's, one might say, a shitty time.",6.612536231884057,7.7063375,6.807391304347828,73.56731884057974,65.30434782608695,10.481159420289854,32.72463768115942,10.504223727775694,3.701776811594202,199,8,33,5,3,64,37,46,0.28,0.72,0.0,-0.9245,0,0,0,0,2,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,2,2,2,0,6,0,2,0,0,2,0,10,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,3,2,0,4,2,3,5,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,3,24,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20786551594249306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30201763877553683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030892955813007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3714401776715453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3617385518958898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310649571388819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692610314567679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35059649681874816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27117046965497743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19883513693780236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28135405433789873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizoandroid,2019/08/06,"Here I go failing once again! I thought I could do it. I thought maybe this time could be different. What a fucking joke that was. Between my meds not working anymore and only making me tired CONSTANTLY, causing me to miss school, the paranoia coming back, and not being able to retain the new information I'm supposed to be learning, I'm fucked. I'm going to fail out of school once again most likely. Then I get to suffer more. Maybe my parents will finally get tired of my shit and no longer want such a broken failure of a son, so they'll disown me and I'll end up like all the schizos on the street. I'm becoming convinced the only way to stop all of this is to die. Even if death means oblivion, I guess that's like going to sleep forever but without dreams. Kind of peaceful. More peaceful than this. I won't feel anything, and that might be better than feeling sad all of the time.",3.5451573849878955,5.145826683615823,4.074047619047622,88.37199152542374,73.12429378531074,6.413075060532688,27.89709443099273,6.868970318607317,1.2868518159806293,701,27,140,6,14,221,111,177,0.196,0.688,0.11599999999999999,-0.8893,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,4,7,15,3,0,9,0,13,6,2,2,3,32,34,9,2,4,5,2,2,3,0,4,2,0,0,0,8,7,0,2,7,2,0,4,5,8,0,0,3,2,14,7,21,21,6,20,0,5,0,2,4,4,3,4,14,88,22,6,0.1252522175001916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12421654348535655,0.0,0.0,0.10307190282208192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631122389966347,0.0,0.0,0.13833123366200745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077540786542807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12866852968391068,0.0,0.10789369478713877,0.0,0.13535315045224414,0.0,0.2000074076164116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129992026990321,0.1308619087121343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11093628787740087,0.0,0.0,0.08272790837707952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12666256915229068,0.0,0.0,0.13720768199143607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23158731358316625,0.13087822809843278,0.0,0.21355116493153167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379794386363225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13043091019592695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18357572021013355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836068277807863,0.0,0.2516653750424258,0.13643638380349174,0.13912697755150033,0.0,0.0,0.13287280932390044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096937215765388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667790476950804,0.0,0.1905199109799564,0.0,0.0,0.13907776493337107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535238620138922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12856960134121664,0.0,0.0,0.1253426731537262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10471646225320104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19887253977338326,0.14607115055202627,0.2879179973418844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07387700305466867,0.09941938024081548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073866803438005,0.0,0.0911851060868502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Psychedelic-wizard69,2019/08/06,Aye weird question So I tripped lsd and it was super wiggy and anyways it effected me pretty bad. Felt disconnected and just sighed out for awhile. During the trip I thought I went crazy. Anyways I gained some Hppd from it. The trip was about 4 months ago. Went to the doc about my trip and my great grandma had schizophrenia and lsd can trigger that apparently. So I got super anxious and worried. Now I think really hard about it and like I’ll put voices in my own head by accident just purely out of anxiety and fear. Should I be concerned. Anyone have these same experiences. Just give me some advice.,2.1034202898550696,4.933101486956527,2.8939130434782605,87.9698550724638,86.30434782608695,5.501449275362319,22.44927536231884,7.0316486544052195,0.9713014492753618,481,17,89,7,15,151,79,115,0.165,0.6829999999999999,0.152,0.2914,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,4,11,8,0,1,3,0,7,1,1,2,1,24,14,10,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,10,0,0,5,0,0,7,0,3,1,0,8,3,12,4,11,4,4,13,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,4,59,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20527789197156188,0.1862143068327171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16070291178218687,0.2373192125750222,0.0,0.1468857705764059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175399606356668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20548868842007176,0.0,0.2363870599264535,0.0,0.0,0.20170006401326715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015182064954876,0.0,0.0,0.16801210315286352,0.2316028254846897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18818138400417966,0.0,0.2155923403684714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026295505733226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16767580384077005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21371662743827166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111782886321068,0.23532638418536914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345761681987909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346043207831083,0.0,0.16677204933436685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3894738359582984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21333619810017687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,snothotiana,2019/08/30,"Is this scenario possible? I should preface by saying idk all the different types of mental illnesses or how all of them work exactly or.... I'm super ignorant on the subject beyond surface-level things that everyone knows. Is it possible to have schizophrenia(or something similar) and just never acknowledge it, because anything that is actually abnormal(voices, seeing weird images, etc.) you probably won't realize is abnormal, but, instead of being I guess overwhelmed by them, could somebody just ""know better"" (for lack of a better term) than to believe what you see/hear/whatever else? Like say you maybe you hear voices, but you know what life is SUPPOSED to be like so you just, as best you can, don't give them any thought, so you live with things being very obviously strange, but relatively manageable? Or is all of that completely far from what's possible to do/think/believe with schizophrenia or similar illnesses?",7.255916666666668,9.468453425000009,7.088750000000001,67.98791666666669,64.75,11.083333333333336,37.708333333333336,11.038039088145766,5.0492083333333335,748,39,110,23,12,237,106,160,0.092,0.767,0.141,0.9126,1,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,0,8,3,5,8,9,0,1,3,0,15,3,0,1,6,31,24,12,0,3,10,0,0,2,0,2,3,4,0,0,11,3,0,1,6,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,5,13,6,19,17,7,5,0,1,1,0,15,3,0,5,4,83,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.13216162786576996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09209807814707308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11144860193354633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08255779792276319,0.0,0.0,0.3051698927961772,0.1421270254001455,0.2395563484751229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14199737264787374,0.0,0.0,0.10813104902933117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14149711388852135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313565726119805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510419451654124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12941062171566498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12991825520541428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14919308861637914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30528233313986675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22328886563083072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956592881798004,0.13233000010150905,0.0,0.1195885139029356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13605916566794507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13648311892282225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10445313776871668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4580360715216901,0.0,0.0,0.14601808532360794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21540116199543125,0.0,0.0,0.21584277506698274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10426180113692578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799493688920883,0.08677904991002833,0.0,0.10751749950214734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11174518802437874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09859575997237123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Nobody-worth_knowing,2019/08/30,"Rexulti My doctor has prescribed me to a new anti-psychotic called Rexulti. I'm nervous about trying another, since they haven't had a great deal of success in the past. I was wondering if anyone here has had any success with it? I hope this doesn't break rule 3. I don't know where I can ask other people with my condition about it.",2.7824378109452748,4.805715925373137,4.439626865671645,83.1217288557214,76.31343283582089,8.048756218905472,26.092039800995025,8.841846274778883,2.171618905472637,265,10,51,6,6,89,52,67,0.081,0.765,0.154,0.7101,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,2,4,5,0,1,3,0,9,1,0,0,0,6,14,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,8,4,7,11,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,3,2,34,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18697463634435985,0.2883078269548177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19225061846204985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570400455626998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28075350187847353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834601761451228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814217834235492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031320614805824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27308623183263475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15110468930161933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655472983664998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624697743231047,0.1906149030520357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274405177337556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18667221099629133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981702832599629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cherrytomatoe03,2019/08/30,"stigma hello! i am a young woman with schizophrenia, and my main goal in life is to eliminate stigma towards the illness, or at least reduce it. all my life, people have called me ""crazy"", ""insane"", ""psychotic"", and ""psycho bitch"". ignorance is a huge part of the stigma. no, i am not crazy. i have schizophrenia, but i don't identify myself as schizophrenic. i'm not my illness. i'm not a monster.",2.0303003003003006,4.755806594594596,3.562612612612611,84.16512012012012,84.4054054054054,5.991591591591593,23.087087087087088,7.3871296695380915,1.393133933933934,304,11,53,5,9,100,51,74,0.129,0.826,0.045,-0.7072,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,5,0,7,5,0,0,1,10,9,5,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,9,0,7,9,4,5,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,1,1,41,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4714261164447882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6521953924845704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4999536197887383,0.0,0.3200702498137246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Greenmachine2281,2019/08/30,I'm about to quit reddit Sick of being downvoted all the time. I don't even post that much but when I do i get downvoted. Not sure why as I never try to aggravate people and I'm always polite. It's really getting me down.,-0.3562499999999993,1.8152458750000025,3.017500000000002,87.67750000000002,90.25,6.533333333333335,16.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,0.6353083333333336,174,4,37,4,6,63,39,48,0.10099999999999999,0.816,0.083,0.0469,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,3,6,7,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,6,6,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805143699272135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22266737768169895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3522669969301364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.247825102690541,0.0,0.2600109930334834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23371949660568664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3228718273240836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3585731212981334,0.0,0.0,0.21597041746022771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31773560172696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19657985247321785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288852261064473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30420218571052016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SaturnSex777,2019/08/30,"fear of psychiatrists Here in America psychiatrists listen with caution... If they feel you're dangerous to yourself they send you off... I want to visit one but the fact is I'm literally the worst case you imagine... I'm only 20 and have mutilation scars on my face... I've been using hard drugs since 14 (sober now) & have sex with strangers often... I'm basically satan I need help without being judged... How do I go about this",3.0519512195121936,5.4773855975609775,4.524573170731706,80.8800304878049,77.17073170731706,7.514634146341463,24.88414634146341,8.472884824447931,1.836482926829268,337,12,64,7,8,112,66,82,0.136,0.809,0.055999999999999994,-0.7717,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,2,2,0,5,3,1,1,2,0,6,3,1,2,1,14,15,4,0,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,3,0,1,1,3,8,0,10,13,1,7,1,0,0,1,8,3,0,2,1,36,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3441810724553627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36838110539700736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35745227862321005,0.16061685170518014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805317125589873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845581502121629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129186957062183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.235538534868554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152525077097079,0.2415923543439224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627690351526392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27435353390179323,0.0,0.0,0.18736224479685235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062098750806569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,elektrocutes,2019/08/30,dating i don’t know how i can do it. i don’t want to be alone but it feels like no one will ever care for someone like me. i think they will hate me all eventually. has anyone here dated successfully ?,-0.042558139534882855,2.0903670697674457,2.582604651162793,91.86413953488373,87.6046511627907,5.300465116279073,15.576744186046513,6.742157984588678,-0.3698706976744188,156,3,36,2,5,54,33,43,0.171,0.531,0.298,0.7845,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,3,5,1,0,0,0,8,0,0,1,2,8,14,2,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,1,7,4,2,11,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,26,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35836648069573457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24194125618080994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3527846575571298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129897600678841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749552356043097,0.24719269771341504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3416175031793332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901604199606848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33809023555573875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344682566054547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29317680854207245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22171200334677635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040882095108856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Global_Rutabaga,2019/08/30,Helping a suicidal friend So I have a friend that has had multiple severe suicide attempts the most recent was last week. She doesn't reach out to friends to try to talk when she is feeling sad like most of the people I know and just decides to go for it then nonchalantly brings up overdoses etc in conversation . I took x last week...etc in a joking manner and makes it funny etc. Do you guys have any advice on how to help someone like this? Its pretty clear she is having a hard time and i'm not sure of how to approach it. I'd like for her to not be sad and know she has friends even if our relationship is sometimes rocky.,3.8955642361111096,4.8573266640625015,4.706666666666667,86.64944444444444,71.421875,7.563888888888887,26.722222222222207,7.793537801064563,1.3488149305555552,495,16,105,6,9,160,86,128,0.145,0.613,0.242,0.9163,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,1,1,0,1,6,11,0,0,6,0,13,0,0,3,2,20,21,10,2,1,4,0,2,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,4,1,0,4,3,2,0,0,3,2,10,9,16,17,4,16,0,2,0,0,17,5,0,3,10,69,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13715476092989326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09544724246250123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4696038436064508,0.0927041536782561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07096847065475886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43375637779065335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07976784135025257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13897501555236988,0.0,0.0,0.12573186759987426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881560253193401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15427253876755712,0.2288185838791164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057133089886244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368906289535664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973055341852127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14279303368479634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13858512471201526,0.1506903689389131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15856290978137538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189236187291408,0.0,0.13881618112558916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070544907825901,0.0,0.13228435327268964,0.0,0.0,0.11281324923958574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184301195560317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559412512970317,0.09529285967514424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251710585064754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Goosington1130,2019/08/30,"Some honest questions I don’t deal with schizophrenia myself, but I do deal with a lot of other mental health issues. My question is related to a guy I’m seeing. He told me right away that he was schizophrenic, but didn’t really go into detail. Because of my own issues with mental health, I definitely wasn’t put off. But just recently he went from texting me every day to not texting at all. Tonight we had a great text convo though, and he told me he was just having a really hard time. He also told me that he is not taking any medication or seeing a doctor, that makes me very concerned. When I tried to tell him i just wanted to show him support, he didn’t want to hear any of that either. I guess Im wondering if he is not willing to see a doctor, or take any meds (wére Canadian btw) is there any chance he could get himself together on his own? He thinks he can, but im not sure it is something that can be dealt with without medication. I really care about him, so any advice would be much appreciated.",5.402058823529411,5.344070186274512,6.541960784313726,78.43882352941178,67.72549019607844,9.349019607843136,28.27450980392157,9.075114841892004,2.1301450980392156,794,23,158,13,12,268,118,204,0.04,0.847,0.113,0.9437,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,1,0,0,0,9,5,0,0,6,0,21,7,0,1,2,37,42,12,0,5,16,0,1,0,0,2,7,1,0,1,7,7,0,0,4,1,0,3,9,0,0,0,10,5,21,5,21,27,7,14,0,0,3,0,28,6,0,9,5,103,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001444885391703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819550346044753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3484572906574933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09628546654076844,0.0,0.0,0.06247224082325574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448750474714437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08182375384759483,0.0,0.0,0.06609258625438273,0.21130944157989226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20978989257807512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634573282703899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0535427564786696,0.0,0.05824303596707045,0.0,0.0,0.11298706489836767,0.1128957747871071,0.1014735599249763,0.0,0.0,0.09180398469944592,0.0,0.0,0.2178677222735631,0.11550496691325035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22139687613261053,0.2139297291133126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08712676148428795,0.0,0.0,0.0684077112727096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11383469942839965,0.2064802114710468,0.20655604893028925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533626049727589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10302298753423188,0.2296071940107499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19695829985963093,0.0,0.10118887845618364,0.0,0.0,0.08751929895882507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24499530322791804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078895858576389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11629566596789526,0.09658832701403572,0.0,0.15410782651363286,0.0,0.08957402140913691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06566650081273352,0.10068831032655122,0.0,0.05975823600457102,0.0,0.0,0.2937786034144871,0.0,0.06957873448140954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08455860588275403,0.12089339659932093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500209137678567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987892515669098,0.11113765063619352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07280046452455559,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,materialogist,2019/08/30,Did anyone think any government organization was talking to them? I don’t know how my brain managed it but I somehow interrogated myself with a males voice? But the voices also came out and said they were the fbi. :/ In hindsight just wondering if anyone experienced this? I also saw what I thought were military like men in invisibility suits.,4.3151756440281055,7.50424136065574,5.798735362997661,69.00967213114757,78.01639344262296,8.075878220140515,28.386416861826696,8.841846274778883,2.9953072599531616,277,12,44,7,7,93,52,61,0.111,0.8370000000000001,0.051,-0.5845,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,5,1,1,1,0,14,12,7,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,3,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,5,8,1,5,4,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,3,1,33,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4648363980232997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976396357293981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4064331178225841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244412812651829,0.0,0.33240543059823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15972367340548535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14198804981776178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764574595141234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335988857291629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18622516515244267,0.0,0.230729238477768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.315177862201031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AG89zx,2019/02/28,"Olanzapine and over sedation Does the sedation from olanzapine (zyprexa) ever wear off while you take it? because I took it for the first time last night at 8pm and slept until 4pm today! I can't live like this always feeling tired out how am I going to work? I was prescribed fluoxetine in early January and I've had somewhat of a response from it but not enough so we added olanzapine. I just want to know from people who have taken it.. does this huge sedation go away? I can see already how olanzapine works I feel like I have my imagination chemically castrated, like thinking is harder but my thoughts were wack before and I feel calmer already. Im really considering after just one dose (5mg) abandoning this drug which is a shame because I can't tolerate quetiapine. I'm tired of the pharmaceutical merry-go-round. None of their drugs work. 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Hello all, I hope you’re all doing okay. I am sorry for not being able to relate to you 100% because I myself do not suffer from the illness (as of now, at least) but my mom does. Her mom didn’t have schizophrenia, and she never knew her father. However, she had me when she was 16, and after that regularly engaged in dangerous activities, such as frequent LSD use, PCP use, Stim use, etc. She also did smoke weed extremely often, and studies now are showing that smoking weed chronically or at an early age can affect the onset of the disorder. So with that being said, was cannabis a part of your daily routine? Did you have a schizophrenic parent yourselves and you resorted to things like marijuana to cope, and eventually ended up with the disorder yourself? I am very interested in your story in regards to drug usage, age used, etc.",6.889090909090911,7.808090103448279,7.600929989550679,68.7416144200627,64.63218390804597,10.00543364681296,33.63427377220481,10.018931242160765,3.5858919540229888,754,31,121,16,11,251,116,174,0.077,0.8340000000000001,0.09,0.3409,2,0,3,0,0,0,28.0,0,6,0,0,7,7,1,0,8,1,17,6,0,6,3,24,25,13,0,1,5,4,0,1,0,0,6,1,0,1,5,7,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,9,1,19,5,23,14,6,20,0,1,0,0,19,7,0,4,14,96,24,0,0.13924715380052835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113558985856715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848837725114478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191786041261078,0.0,0.1218561226608527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229649807262916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12333164752233225,0.0,0.3105947696207234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830384294916598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06802912570151799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32616916716902683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073959893257035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546174855058452,0.1507910980298935,0.0,0.0,0.12158524368551878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13245593054166993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15587578834729826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09250962160415736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6013241619252608,0.0,0.11489348502711193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hefitonthedoor,2019/02/28,"How dangerous is it to be off meds and in denial? I have no experience with schizophrenia. I found out recently that a person in a board game group with me was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. Our group gets together once in a while at each other's places, but it's usually at my place, since I'm the most central. This person found our group through Meetup recently. He always acted a little differently and sometimes made me uncomfortable, but I chalked it up to quirks and took steps to make sure I was safe (like making sure I was never alone with him, etc.). But recently he divulged to the group that he was homeless, ""misdiagnosed"" with paranoid schizophrenia (I have since learned that denial is a symptom), jobless, and estranged from family and friends. He also proclaimed that he was not on medication because he feels he was misdiagnosed and that the medical community conspired to retain that diagnosis. I did some research and found out that he lost his job and home because of threatened violence, including gun violence, when he stopped taking his medication. I feel terrible for him, and from what I'm reading, community is a healthy and important part of recovery. I'd be happy to continue providing him that community, but I'm genuinely concerned and would love your input. How common is it to have a violent episode when you're not on medication? Are there signs I can look for to help identify potential danger? How long do episodes last, usually? He is a nice dude and I don't want to make him feel worse, but it's also important to me to keep everyone safe. I'm trying to get informed before making any decisions, and I'd appreciate you helping with that if you can. 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All I do is lay around the whole Day and do nothing. I don't have willpower to do anything. I only walk My Dog for 20 mins and thats it. How do you guys deal with negative symptoms? ,-0.5146666666666668,1.6830156444444455,1.7572222222222216,95.8225,92.55555555555556,4.777777777777779,23.055555555555557,6.42735559955562,0.5678888888888891,164,7,37,2,6,55,35,45,0.222,0.778,0.0,-0.8834,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,7,3,0,1,1,6,8,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,8,2,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344804567443115,0.2536560536361948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18376203408982272,0.2937595198472857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821343335904433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734065831952616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21670889215356096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5923212880753147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274953778536873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31812413378863563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheOldRogue,2019/02/28,"Sharing art! I kill time with artful contrivances sometimes. :) https://i.redd.it/vwdo4xvd2dj21.jpg",19.855000000000004,22.3430175,6.625000000000004,52.01750000000001,124.0,5.0,42.5,5.985473137389443,5.0310000000000015,85,4,5,1,4,18,10,10,0.264,0.39299999999999996,0.342,0.1007,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6938863157642048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6203011425017679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3657161104001019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thatsalreadytakennn,2019/02/28,"How do you tell the difference between your neighbors talking or the voices that no one else can hear if you’re alone without any animals? And how does the service animal thing work? I hear a lot of voices off in the distance that sound like they’re coming from either outside or the neighbor’s houses (our houses are close enough together and I have good hearing so I could actually be hearing them talk, even my mom can hear them sometimes like when they argue and she has sort of bad hearing relative to me). Sometimes they talk to eachother, sometimes they talk to me, sometimes I can’t make out what they’re saying or only bits and pieces, sometimes they talk about me (99% of the time when they’re talking about me it’s about what I’m doing or is something usually negative/sometimes neutral/ and very rarely positive about me. I know that people probably wouldn’t talk about me 24/7 but in a sense I know my actions and what I say seem weird to some people so I can see people talking about what I’m doing if they’re bored or whatever and people are just plain mean sometimes so it doesnt seem that far fetched to think it might be true. Reading the posts on this reddit made me realize that relative to most people on this forum I can’t distinguish between voices “in my head” and “real” voices that well if at all. So my question is how do you distinguish between them (besides checking to see if you can see the person talking, that’s pretty much my only way of knowing, but you can’t always do that, like when people are talking off in the distance/in your neighbors house (w/o looking creepy yourself atlleast, lol). Any advice on how to tell the difference? Also, I’ve seen a lot of posts about service animals helping people distinguish between the two. how do they let you know that someone’s there or not? I imagine a dog barks but how does a cat let you know? Is there any way I could train my cat or little dog to help me like the service animals do (the dog barks when anything comes near the house sometimes so that helps already but I’m still not sure about the other voices)? Thanks!",4.1136689634733665,5.963913457212719,4.448037341631473,85.24732755427132,72.12958435207824,6.815766466622215,28.53085870934282,7.463857097105799,1.7026456397718008,1680,66,311,19,33,527,179,409,0.04,0.868,0.092,0.9751,0,1,1,0,0,0,36.0,1,8,8,1,30,13,1,0,20,1,31,1,1,8,3,68,59,39,0,7,20,1,0,4,3,2,0,14,3,1,21,12,0,0,15,1,1,3,9,4,1,2,2,19,43,9,40,49,10,29,0,0,5,0,48,15,0,20,11,214,64,5,0.0,0.0,0.05482718159041635,0.0,0.0,0.05490205637402176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05818936376176664,0.062000104376885024,0.044930080482960204,0.046749334907585614,0.0,0.0,0.114620517382544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046234393710817605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04691103841571539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06133804334049753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679455655949444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971621727775116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11740000608293184,0.0,0.0,0.09833345997888733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04693426772338792,0.0,0.0,0.0580527756413206,0.0,0.03710880057565898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04712421763334732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057660679925322235,0.0,0.379938644499866,0.0,0.11297623909469542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593137620163966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15438544682946265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490326911746285,0.0,0.10979406144715594,0.056310822238499786,0.0,0.0,0.04718015345939788,0.0,0.0,0.0955307364483736,0.0,0.05316237054384161,0.03750305259428331,0.0,0.0,0.06120051451984479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05960202161347392,0.0,0.06580166438462091,0.0,0.0,0.04130148030274914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0380715256843061,0.08546046335442344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726548988153673,0.04905743524783165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10761689814118444,0.057159016078103975,0.060575525656005214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06293859648865498,0.0,0.05619889896828236,0.06394934492973091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935905840615756,0.0,0.0,0.13431339203383735,0.10229505138169248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04760426233404568,0.0432529531921622,0.4445368866592471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04486837129265859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05295246750122324,0.0,0.0,0.4515832572997016,0.09821405141289886,0.051726397711959214,0.0,0.0,0.037325950370964985,0.03600024306974519,0.0,0.0,0.032761164291650366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05488330607053745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06187840231846109,0.04635743229411786,0.0,0.08919200369229194,0.0,0.0,0.05051588907192034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0541590769276581,0.0,0.040902399004502515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bizzarecat,2019/02/28,"I hear really quiet fast whispers when I’m walking around or sitting down sometimes. The whispers happen more as I get less sleep. Could this be a mild form of schizophrenia or psychosis? I was diagnosed a year ago with cannabis induced psychosis where I would here voices. I don’t smoke anymore but I hear very quiet whispers sometimes. any info would greatly help, thanks.",4.656162046908314,7.698955597014924,3.817484008528787,84.74089552238807,75.11940298507463,5.0226012793177,31.959488272921103,6.1826913282559595,1.912805543710021,303,15,47,2,7,89,52,67,0.0,0.8690000000000001,0.131,0.8503,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,6,2,1,1,0,10,12,5,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,8,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,8,6,2,5,7,3,9,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,4,30,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18994625939775064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14571772366563515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21250814579572916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190754598176433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17108511533725285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21748965315976415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11195243724322107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362444170645089,0.0,0.0,0.1894870647191596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4830181862148794,0.0,0.14362734321151052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13727323205303618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21443471468128986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4238567275429546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19728020166373603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17680341172264027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044366772267143,0.0,0.0,0.1379892715348355 schizophrenia,intruderdude,2019/02/28,"How to handle a schizophrenic who is talking to ""some one""? My girlfriends aunt is round. She appeared at the door randomly last night at 9 or 10 and has been quite a pleasure but whilst we've been busy around the house she's been happily chatting away to no one. I'm just curious whether it would be appropriate to question who she's talking to / point out that whoever it is isn't actually there. Or to just leave her be. She isn't causing any harm to anyone nor posing any risks to anyone else and is fairly lucid in the sense that she knows where and who she is etc.. Hope this doesn't come across as rude or ignorant. Im just wondering how to handle such a situation ",3.9157777777777767,5.222068466666666,4.796481481481481,84.7191666666667,71.74074074074073,8.362962962962964,27.574074074074076,8.841846274778883,1.9764962962962958,533,19,110,10,10,173,88,135,0.075,0.785,0.14,0.8871,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,9,6,1,1,6,0,15,1,0,3,0,26,21,12,0,2,8,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,8,6,0,1,3,1,0,2,5,4,0,2,3,1,8,2,17,15,2,14,0,0,1,0,16,9,0,9,3,76,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.18337592155516624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255574484461286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627861920817365,0.1925390123806763,0.0,0.1672823554375181,0.0,0.0,0.1765503917699571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19303835120538498,0.0,0.1618703578748572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15697714795169349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20957259936540215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18663994828035996,0.0,0.21682630176455087,0.0,0.0,0.20297821998560314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032720368468017,0.15317412557267454,0.0,0.1989726697610135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17634356354383313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25466934118645784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776384660475077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21050549741395544,0.19986854113313765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112220165165204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30207460447206863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20378356635894426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334879602769859,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throneyawait,2019/02/28,"Voices i wont live with. My mind is full of guilt over ONE FUCKING thing. The voices call me ""you know"". This name is a bad one to have (especially because im killing myself and others to stop it). Everyone recognizes me and in my mind i hear it.""you know why"". Nobody here will help. Im literally typing this because im too drunk. My fight will end soon. If you know you know. I keep hearing it and it kills me. The edge on may cut someone else that's how i am. I blame the people who blame me. Have you ever thought the most extreme things to see if anyone will react????????????????????? Im convinced they do ",-0.23435483870967744,2.0041603225806495,1.8970161290322598,95.26552419354843,90.93548387096772,4.390322580645162,18.233870967741925,5.985473137389443,-0.28508709677419386,456,13,102,4,16,152,81,124,0.215,0.745,0.040999999999999995,-0.9689,0,0,0,0,1,1,40.0,0,4,1,0,5,8,5,1,5,0,11,2,0,2,1,21,21,6,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,0,0,10,4,1,2,5,1,0,0,1,7,0,2,1,5,18,1,8,15,2,8,0,0,1,1,12,4,1,4,4,66,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09433660702822888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264946681249795,0.16448743644731706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377646167819058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270524833454708,0.0,0.11949578779051445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220395085380464,0.0,0.12891829694257173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12472793622539645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041209288177185,0.0,0.09043154536975123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5829309804258024,0.0,0.0,0.11991979770849473,0.29852977106444994,0.0,0.2965858587879311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913355597760256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27245398546752697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18284553972434167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935339680402301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10751081557328494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143141348185555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11279605971141406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792647764603888,0.0,0.0,0.10710846407797442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12174096696785215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JoblessJamjars,2019/02/28,"Tips for Living with Schizophrenia I've never been diagnosed. I do have some symptoms, like hearing voices (usually in the voices my family, friends, or roommates heatedly discussing how mad I make them or how much they can't stand me). I know logically that no one else can hear my thoughts, but it really feels like other people can. I'm not asking for medical advice, as I know it's against the rules. I would like to ask others how they cope with voices. Can you make them shut up? How do you sleep? What about being paranoid or delusional? Threads like this almost certainly exist already and there are probably articles published with tips for how to deal with these things, but none of the things I found using Google are useful to me. All of the articles I have found are meant for family members or health care providers of people with schizophrenia.",6.261185270425777,7.7427238987341775,5.770046029919449,79.27742807825089,66.34177215189875,9.036593785960877,30.186421173762945,9.339509955726095,2.7080556962025306,688,25,119,13,11,211,102,158,0.037000000000000005,0.8140000000000001,0.149,0.9623,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,4,0,7,8,1,0,4,0,14,5,1,9,3,36,31,13,0,1,7,0,1,4,1,1,4,5,0,0,10,6,0,0,8,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,5,6,17,7,20,24,4,6,0,0,0,0,13,3,0,6,6,86,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13915633594257332,0.0,0.0,0.1425978507172648,0.0,0.15714725318060824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26625855538707993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519119848225762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14681311008357506,0.0,0.14453788843891674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11896094896774835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26849316954870645,0.0,0.07200415265797633,0.10173402745345042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122790561951168,0.11002160591407198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15136965795119528,0.32100114970439386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15652392294588466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27828719556794923,0.0,0.12574605958836976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901126380450653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14345786818672498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468392347238996,0.0,0.10983137140342722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964971873162557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19745113494194108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15353647485731767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912281702226831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14250765688272812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14801312739797096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18921486123625625,0.0,0.0,0.11305351540836946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24598407362112285,0.1568387836323718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10116029395059488,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,yllomssim,2019/02/28,"Do you/someone you know have an experience coming off meds? Someone I know will be completely off their medication (amisulpride) soon (with controlled weaning & supervision from doctor/psychiatrist of course) but I am curious about anyone else’s experience... good or bad? did you/they become unwell again? Thanks in advance if you’re willing to share!",5.695641646489104,9.29082781355932,5.6971428571428575,69.2291525423729,75.9491525423729,8.11719128329298,32.157384987893465,8.841846274778883,3.6906978208232437,287,14,40,7,7,90,51,59,0.07200000000000001,0.7120000000000001,0.21600000000000005,0.8602,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,1,2,3,4,0,0,1,0,7,1,0,1,0,8,11,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,8,7,0,7,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,2,25,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354242897218196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15192819634131138,0.2226304559201121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18142088051260866,0.0,0.2399702186517603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871686736523842,0.22781539807941345,0.0,0.24369954893705095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223967044097441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18151071611621014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4250857748533742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18224531677912326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23882433344515855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24135063600290585,0.2188881360902462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682036245824201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000435065088063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cerebralpickle,2019/02/28,"HELP! I love someone with schizophrenia, who is estranged from his family and homeless, and I don’t know what to do. Someone I love dearly has been struggling with schizophrenia for years. However, after his dad died, he got exponentially worse, had a psychotic break, stopped taking his medicine, and became violent and verbally abusive to all of his loved ones. Long story short, he has destroyed his relationships with his family. All of his surviving family members are women, and they verge on being afraid of him. He has never actually hurt anyone, but he did go to jail for breaking and entering while having a psychotic break. His family has tried and tried to get him to go back on medication, go to therapy, find a job, or apply for disability. He gets outraged by the idea that he can’t work. Beneath this horrible illness, there is a wonderful, loving, and supportive person who cannot bear the idea of being unable to financially contribute the way he wants to. When he refused to do any of those things, his family finally kicked him out. Two nights ago, he allowed an audience with me over Facebook messenger (he hadn’t spoken to me in a year, after he’d gone to jail and his condition became untenable) and confessed he was on the street. I found him in a more miserable condition than I could’ve imagined. He was living in a broken manhole. He is so traumatized by how cruel others have been to him when he asks for help that he won’t panhandle, or ask for food, and he’s emaciated. I believe he is experiencing “negative symptoms” and disassociation. He was cognizant of how miserable the conditions were, and thanked me tearfully and vociferously for getting him out of there for just one night, but he seemed resigned to going back there, even when I offered to pay for a month of his staying at a homeless shelter. Tonight, he’s at the shelter, but he refused to stay there for any length of time. I’m afraid to push the issue of medication for fear that he’ll extricate me from his life again. I’m all he has right now. I have been talking to his sister all evening and she and their mother are absolutely bereft. He is severely delusional, but only in spurts. I spent all day with him, and it was like my friend flickered in and out. After a while I deduced he responded well to humor, and just played into his wild tangents so at least we could laugh together. He wasn’t at all offensive or harmful—just absent from reality. He didn’t seem to be experiencing any present auditory or visual hallucinations—he just got lost in tangents of thought, like making connections between road signs we were seeing and obscure events from our past. Please help. He could disappear on me so easily. I’m scared to immediately try to force the issue of medication or hospitalization when I haven’t been around to see the illness progress to this extent. Please advise me on the best method for persuading or forcing him to GET HELP post haste. He has lost all sense of normalcy, he believes his future is bleak, his family won’t help him anymore (or do any in-depth research on this disorder to try and learn how to get through to him), and I feel helpless. 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Hi folks, first proper post here - I read the FAQ, so here's hoping for a respectful, rule-abiding post. Here goes. Does anyone else find that antidepressants, as a class of drugs in general, make your symptoms worse? I am really struggling here, and googling this topic or discussing it with doctors just seems to lead to a lot of head scratching. My official diagnosis is Major Depression with Psychotic Features. I have struggled with chronic depression and anxiety since I was 10 years old (I'll be 38 this month), and have been off and on meds most of my life; I am no stranger to antidepressants or their side effects. The problem is that now that I hear voices 24/7 (this only happened in the last two years), I cannot seem to tolerate ANY antidepressants, because more and more, they only make the voices worse. To be specific, they may help my negative symptoms (depression, lack of motivation, cog fog, etc.) - but they worsen the positive ones. Badly. The voices, while overwhelming, used to be nice to me, my companions - or at worst, they might sound slow or sad when I was down. But there was insight there, and genuine caring for me and my experience. However, since I got back on meds two years ago to try to get this condition under control, with every antidepressant I have tried (and I have tried MANY, from SSRIs to tricyclics to atypicals), the voices only seem to get worse each time. My mood improves, yet they have become more and more negative, nasty, cruel, harping nonstop on my fear, shame, and regret. It's intolerable. The worst part is that I used to at least get some relief if I discontinued the antidepressant in question. But since this last round (Zoloft + Elavil, for about 3 months), the nice voices never really came back. It's like these meds that are supposed to help my depression are somehow permanently changing my brain such that I can never be happy on OR off them, because what I'm hearing has become so effing depressing and upsetting! And no one seems to know what to tell me other than ""Try more meds!"" >\_< For Major Depression with Psychotic Features, the classic first line of defense is (duh) an antidepressant + an antipsychotic. For the past few months, I am taking the latter, Vraylar, at the lowest dose. It does make the voices much quieter, less intrusive; I can have long swaths of uninterrupted thought, which is a welcome thing. I'm generally less volatile and less anxious. The problem is, I have little energy or motivation, and I just don't CARE about anything. I feel emotionally and spiritually constipated. I have always hated TV, but now I don't even care enough to read a book. I don't know what to do with myself. I hate my job. I hate my life. I have no social life, and no energy to create one. I am about to move to a new city, where I will need the wherewithal to build a new life. I know better by now than to assume changing my situation will fix my brain. I need support - but no matter what I've tried (Zoloft, Elavil, Doxepin, Viibryd, Effexor, etc. etc.) I just cannot stick with the antidepressants because of the horror that my inner world has become in their wake. Yes, I've tried therapy, but no one ever seems to know how to respond when I explain the negativity that inundates me 24/7 and the hopelessness I feel over everything I've lost in my life. ""Have you tried volunteering? What about an aerobics class?"" Go \*\*\*\* yourself. The only thing that really seems to help me get ANYthing done is Adderall, and god knows that's a double-edged sword. I'm sticking with that, Vraylar, and strategic supplements for now... I'm just really concerned about how to navigate major depression without the benefit of antidepressants. I have passive suicidal thoughts all the time now, because if the meds can't help me, who can? In a perfect world, I'd get through this with a support network and healthy living. But this the real world, where it seems that the more you need help, the harder it is to get the help you need. Does ANYone out there have any experience with this??? I am just trying to understand if there is any precedent to what I'm struggling with, or any insight at all into why this might be happening. (For instance, I think the Adderall combined with the antidepressants is somehow a trigger for all this - even with the voices, I never felt suicidal until I added in Adderall, but again, how the hell else am I supposed to live a functional life when I can't get motivated or focus?) I am a total neurochemistry research junkie, and the only thing I can suss out is that because serotonin and dopamine have an inverse relationship, anything that boosts my serotonin (antidepressants) might be lowering my already depleted dopamine, which is further depleted by my resulting reliance on Adderall. And of course, antipsychotics are dopamine blockers... Given my medical history, it's a safe bet my brain doesn't process anything normally at this point. I am at a loss. Apologies for the rambling... I used to be a wonderful writer, once upon a time. :-/ Thank you for listening.",6.954148446175973,7.90878448657358,6.901554370186973,73.68717253181379,64.49946294307196,10.049780625898887,34.46924211254529,10.066209604224008,3.5545301061370127,4051,174,695,87,59,1289,380,931,0.196,0.6990000000000001,0.105,-0.9988,4,0,1,0,0,2,184.0,0,5,8,13,43,49,6,7,56,2,70,21,5,18,9,146,135,53,2,13,25,0,5,1,1,6,16,11,0,0,46,41,0,4,30,4,1,4,21,30,0,8,12,16,83,18,105,110,31,82,1,13,1,0,34,37,1,32,40,489,129,12,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03840502754027341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04781025109721381,0.0,0.03604989802876369,0.0,0.0,0.11785003207177536,0.0,0.033143531545840675,0.04894495514228872,0.0,0.09088161098162233,0.08878323214447413,0.14261124202015033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06662855193680008,0.03617459274346917,0.13205268949037774,0.14354728472975353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03831747078601748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450951953339223,0.0,0.049552295662077465,0.13251827536363328,0.0,0.09166428012583457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04859270834567615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612105111735817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04434500696270766,0.11374208463271215,0.04433655073756861,0.0,0.0,0.05024328332056998,0.0,0.1085775168028083,0.04873483056834093,0.0,0.0447663404472675,0.1449565922551193,0.05723155118106999,0.039189972619445734,0.03650320877103403,0.0,0.03893774591300369,0.08476039110224759,0.0,0.048752707034455736,0.04381287676296168,0.0,0.041598825810216636,0.0,0.039598295127448016,0.07370450162237208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15844879043215768,0.0,0.02462261459548405,0.0,0.034650986588702325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07662436693555727,0.046120303096513805,0.0,0.1283235009958579,0.04446398297828537,0.0,0.09766092158303924,0.0,0.17423913760861404,0.0,0.0,0.04303153332594661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04299340994322976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190515250394326,0.07063136857873721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18361051186024585,0.021166422619477446,0.0434230648120807,0.0765135955191743,0.038341290714617865,0.0,0.0,0.04729439127888513,0.03683339361281224,0.0,0.0,0.1156791834120319,0.04392478317898612,0.0,0.0,0.2406217228445103,0.04364541257361719,0.0,0.13788303977295271,0.0,0.0,0.10374488363228457,0.04604765341472821,0.03184888418828618,0.12849985156061536,0.10024480871671727,0.08368717340738209,0.0,0.0,0.04244933341934742,0.0,0.0,0.04546233392304523,0.046139746011118435,0.11743265408432525,0.16475319892294124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04691678858493045,0.041358646186748685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04095615993319339,0.0,0.08298681065368572,0.0,0.0,0.08291241053146707,0.0,0.0,0.048533952193646215,0.0,0.08667351444209045,0.04931337244220268,0.11102050178307704,0.0,0.0,0.046514871341976086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760903791372599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10751674465077588,0.04869915217320465,0.0,0.04416441494242725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13587819362972278,0.0,0.09478110800510446,0.0983294677108387,0.0,0.1350938939756306,0.0325750328377307,0.0,0.03786798834064541,0.03988786934825101,0.04954595088015135,0.0,0.08634968009876287,0.02776093166331736,0.0,0.068790473262486,0.07578952519980774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353188270125042,0.0,0.08464452344554158,0.045102887138130716,0.0,0.112256753659815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039094103371020913,0.0,0.0,0.04176378561178716,0.046984150005671285,0.0,0.0,0.17660763934859616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08369970206879021 schizophrenia,m00nscapes,2018/11/01,"It's happening to me. People calling me names on the street, all the time. Haha. Terrific. To be more specific, in true schizophrenia fashion it's always the same insult (in Portuguese, I'm Brazilian): ""How ridiculous."" And it's always women. Curiously, when I try to talk to these women, they are often very nice to me. I'm kind of good-looking, and I have a way of ""arrogantly ignoring"" people on the street (avoiding eye-contact, that kind of thing), and often there is sort of resentful energy in the ""How ridiculous"". The Christian part of me wonders if it's some kind of curse some woman cast at me after I treated her badly. I know, of course, that the professional assessment here would be to say that it's all a delusion. But the funny thing is this. I have seen they say it. I have seen their lips move. It tends to happen when I'm within their ""radius of perception"". You know, close enough for them to notice me and for there to be some interpersonal tension. Know what I mean? It's like I'm broadcasting the words to them. My low self-esteem (I think there might be some self-esteem stuff going on here too), my unconscious, whatever - the word-cloud of insults, this swarm, ever surrounding me, ""How ridiculous!"", ""How ridiculous!""... and when I get in the vicinity of these women, it starts coming out of their mouths. Years ago I would hear it now and then. This last year it has ramped up. Now it's all the time. Particularly, it seems, when I drink too much coffee. I'll try quitting caffeine and see if the phenomenon subsides. Does anyone here experience anything similar?",3.4426701821668217,5.826484077181213,4.280848513902207,83.32713087248321,75.6778523489933,7.075934803451582,24.73681687440077,8.07648339933343,1.5832105465004789,1237,42,229,21,28,397,157,298,0.091,0.8440000000000001,0.065,-0.8301,0,1,1,0,0,0,74.0,0,1,7,1,21,20,7,2,15,1,14,3,2,4,5,45,36,19,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,0,4,25,10,1,2,8,1,0,3,0,12,0,0,2,6,29,8,35,27,12,36,1,1,3,0,21,16,0,12,17,162,54,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113209478065063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20898872225421697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08780991900124857,0.0,0.1033433618352326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048558016654057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12823335735657013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081778528856135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10989773542473054,0.0,0.0,0.12302264104267753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12975987175618311,0.0,0.0,0.11359619237176237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12284338377387855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06561146011865801,0.0,0.07137119720508568,0.10533230098237056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221036593033265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415401452697854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3923232727199247,0.2070499013385991,0.10236616660163106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061353066996304224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10545732903718297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13679571437846982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13322275456315624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334738900269659,0.09231728764422156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14297604465750122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359931682859757,0.0,0.17412562135121726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13357201357322218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19973584089548813,0.0,0.0,0.10007266854979624,0.11432522047346005,0.2620190218169114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888765143509503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14376145065381984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10093812898196804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16686232414584656,0.08046793408783323,0.0,0.0,0.146455856075966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17052399475743726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036183783286514,0.0,0.09968121965688613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361884223368835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17841983076368284,0.0,0.0,0.161741500391654 schizophrenia,projectvenus,2018/11/01,"I think I'm experiencing warning signs Side note. I've just been put on medication for my anxiety. A few months ago I began feeling extremely paranoid around my relatively new boyfriends friends. Identifying personal digs, over listening, being anxious to talk because I feel attacked. I've talked to my boyfriend about this and he thinks I'm Just paranoid and that his friends love me. But mostly we hang out and smoke a bit, so we are in altered states and I can't help that I feel my perspective is real. I've been getting into the law of attraction and energy and there always comes a point in that path where you believe you're going crazy. Experiencing synchronicity for years but it has led me into some trouble and trauma. The other day I saw a purple and blue butterfly in my kitchen, proceeded to follow it and thought it landed on my head. Boyfriend didn't see butterfly but was next to me. Saw the same butterfly the next day. I think I have an undiagnosed schizophrenic friend who is telling me I have powers and I am special. I am very gullible, but have experience in tarot and have recently been able to give accurate readings to myself and friends. I'm going crazy help. Anxious and at times paranoid. A little in touch with nature. When I was in year one our class had a sunflower project. I didn't have many friends and was the only child to talk to my flower. At the end of turn my sunflower grew x4 higher than every other flower. Special memory of mine. 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Go out and destroy this pathetic planet. Scum of the earth. 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It was awfully strange and every time I closed my eyes the images that pop up in the darkness of your eyelids sometimes were doing it so much so, and so vividly that I couldn't keep them closed because it was making me feel dizzy. It was just a weird night. :(",3.9015611192930777,5.037882278350517,4.5338733431516935,87.23804123711342,71.57731958762886,7.192341678939616,26.228276877761417,7.447530270364453,1.1811926362297496,379,12,79,4,7,121,60,97,0.19699999999999998,0.754,0.048,-0.8858,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,0,5,6,0,2,4,1,9,2,2,1,0,20,17,10,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,10,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,10,5,11,2,10,6,1,13,0,0,2,0,3,7,0,0,7,53,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226889339133361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16957397027723706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10176534765154917,0.0,0.38649084773649695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10515236246662607,0.0,0.11438321879460896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20655537915204905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17889308087879952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16405738014894075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966552772203884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13434557584135415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40643941858935423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14795252040947135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5666191257753239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22908299391531864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19905567643733232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11735891287595833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Oculys,2018/11/01,"paranoia I’m so afraid of people, and go out of my way to avoid most of them. They either want something from me or want to hurt me for amusement. I still do avoid them 90% of the time. I do have a particular person I’d take a bullet for without a second thought. He’s my fiancé. We just got engaged after dating for 7 years, and he was my best friend prior. He tells me I can talk to him whenever I’m afraid (his brother has schizophrenia, so he understands) but I’m terrified I’m going to mess up. My paranoia has eased off slightly. I used to not be able to look in mirrors or use the computer because they would watch me through it. I’d get hives and panic attacks whenever I was in public. Since getting on lithium there’s been improvement. To help with the finances I’m pursuing college for career training to get my first real job. Before I wasn’t able to do this because the fear would cause vomiting episodes. Basically, I have never loved another person before and can’t imagine losing him. I don’t want schizophrenia to take him from me. Does anyone have any advice on how to remain calm/normal? He hasn’t complained but I’d like to shield him from as much BS as possible and have a nice quiet life.",2.924356261022929,4.822917720164611,4.17059376837155,85.77148148148149,75.50205761316873,6.603880070546737,26.386243386243386,7.447530270364453,1.4338169312169309,958,36,186,12,21,314,142,243,0.16,0.727,0.11199999999999999,-0.9483,1,2,1,0,0,0,25.0,1,0,4,3,6,18,1,6,8,0,20,3,0,4,1,33,42,14,0,5,8,1,0,1,1,2,2,1,0,2,2,8,0,2,3,1,1,2,7,11,0,2,6,3,28,7,36,33,4,18,0,2,2,1,25,7,0,3,9,117,30,5,0.2696188023145299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13173418658550273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09167501559828384,0.14135941136161229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09426186776386146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533651555334307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16435711937969055,0.0,0.2294257424065405,0.0,0.14147414943544187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13848638994712592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797261541724555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15169805554639976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466880775695505,0.0,0.0,0.10415340892492453,0.0,0.2112970441554856,0.0,0.15323057872308493,0.0,0.10781939317862947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09035989993549767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14431625213320515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337775292167428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09521986682501288,0.0658610639195639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320594435682856,0.150817236985634,0.0,0.0,0.1216707478548588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09910042121909073,0.0,0.10397332090844627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15816978594993913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09345986467585322,0.2354207384990403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15197734432008544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15344261205086687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11151572971920244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10378286320230452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10765896190459437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20271978486656908,0.10835469016085272,0.1178293585763299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10702360616263393,0.07860844592328764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403413409135946,0.0,0.23286407788747504,0.0,0.0,0.2385422327811022,0.1070054277775182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995145203090458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19152946142289087,0.0,0.0,0.0868128344454449 schizophrenia,megsyram,2018/11/01,"I suspect my fiancé has schizophrenia and don’t know what to do... My fiancé has always had depression and anxiety, but over the past few months things have gotten a lot worse. Ever since we got together she has had paranoid delusions (which I always just put down to her social anxiety)... but now they are developing and I think they seem a lot like schizophrenia. She has always worried that people are listening in or watching her through her phone or laptop, but now she is getting so intensely convinced that everything she is doing is being watched by what she calls the ‘shadow people’. She says there are people that are always there but she can’t really say what they look like - just big shadows that show up in mirrors/windows/when she is sleeping etc. She thinks that the shadow people are plotting against her and want to hurt her, but at the same time she is able to recognise that they aren’t real. She also sees them when she is driving and sometimes thinks that she has hit someone/thing. She is scared to look in her rear-view mirror for fear of seeing them. Recently she has also been asking ‘did you hear that?’ a lot when we are in complete silence and saying things like ‘the TV is so loud’ when it isn’t even on. Her thoughts can be very jumbled at times and sometimes she doesn’t remember whole conversations that we literally had just minutes prior... She sees a psychologist and psychiatrist and up until last month, had not told them anything. I ended up at one of her appointments with her and voiced my concerns (which she told me she had discussed) and her psychiatrist said it was the first he had heard of it all. He ended up giving her risperidone but she couldn’t tolerate it and stopped taking it (it made her very lethargic). She is now refusing to see either of her psychs as she thinks they are plotting against her and watching her at work. I don’t know what to do or how to help. She hides her paranoias from me very often but then sometimes opens up - so I don’t even know if I have the whole story. Any advice would be much appreciated!!",6.450002109704641,6.93311936202532,6.0641930379746825,80.89941191983124,65.50632911392404,8.608649789029537,30.88871308016877,8.344100000000001,2.1784282700421933,1648,57,308,20,24,510,191,395,0.094,0.8420000000000001,0.064,-0.8904,1,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,3,1,8,2,21,8,0,2,11,0,49,1,1,2,2,60,79,36,0,4,16,0,0,3,0,1,0,9,0,0,22,18,0,2,11,2,0,2,9,4,0,2,17,18,63,4,37,56,11,41,0,2,9,0,71,18,0,9,24,242,85,3,0.0876825718809383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856823944421016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14023944210869135,0.2918356956372952,0.0,0.0,0.05962715564254605,0.0,0.13415385498232935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0721552856187034,0.0,0.08197136843152662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08953370938968305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09193350838642292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07552087067852098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15532146624070406,0.0,0.09778924548836712,0.11582702354665865,0.07931390618828559,0.0,0.0,0.07880344180171445,0.0,0.0,0.0986672705720936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07458275084926351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04581052484309555,0.08411311267071696,0.0,0.0,0.07012776268856569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09882463108503488,0.0,0.058771779662502376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09386600669263076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14456414522521954,0.0714729989199392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12851182680973633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14726255391992288,0.0,0.0,0.2236337611641922,0.0,0.08296736958963792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13997478466966745,0.0,0.06445677921851603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059415979949320075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370293635016766,0.2431522203073489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881452028292011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09980196295845654,0.05617170078750044,0.0,0.0865759616281369,0.0,0.09932726124524692,0.0,0.08340620496569516,0.20918610144138547,0.0877855508011585,0.0,0.27948662995302803,0.07982292031331402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07253192954660874,0.0,0.08774589518571788,0.08938133990596632,0.0,0.0,0.26016091688341664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07330655625813423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06592638182375528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11650480924880713,0.22473380637691293,0.0,0.06961016783514334,0.10225682557667938,0.0,0.0,0.1675689099726091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21704191399069786,0.05171745267247963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19578892035980724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06383395662371404,0.08904590795841755,0.0893560316783607,0.062287183328330525,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheWilyFox,2018/11/01,"Do you work poll. How many people work and what is your job (or your friends)? I want to *poll* the r/ community. Do you hold down a **job** and what is **your role**? Does anyone have a professional job? I am interested to know what you do and what sort of things people do out of interest *in* employment and what others do ",-1.7689409722222216,-1.7971672343749994,0.7310416666666661,96.15423611111113,135.40625,4.547222222222223,12.930555555555555,6.139981653823899,-0.3630111111111112,243,6,55,5,18,81,39,64,0.0,0.883,0.11699999999999999,0.7608,4,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,6,0,2,1,3,0,0,3,0,9,0,0,1,0,11,11,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,3,7,11,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,2,0,40,15,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17020806638482402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21302241545682768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18806916053169725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7246837490244629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13377973602090232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24679423033488174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375197888273339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16172041762695644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435780737073976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3544318621876549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,destoryer-,2018/11/01,"Parents I had a very bad episode yesterday, and my parents don’t know my diagnosis because they don’t believe in mental illness. I couldn’t explain and she just kept ranting that I’m incompetent and awful and that I have to have faith and I don’t know what. She made me feel worse and worsened my episode I went to bed but I woke up several times because of how loud the voices were. 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I’m on my parents’ insurance. I don’t want to diagnose myself with depression or social anxiety, but I’m 200% that’s what’s wrong with me. Anyways. For a few years I’ve believed things about reality which other people might find insane, but that could just be the result of an existential crisis or some shit. However, more recently I’ve also experienced some weird thoughts and I’ve fully believed them. For example, my memory has been getting weaker and weaker recently, and I feel that I’ve been getting dumber and dumber. I was convinced that my parents (I still live with, I’m 18) were drugging me or something with the food I ate or some other way. To be honest though, I still think it could be a possibility. Either way I feel like they’re plotting against me. Another recent thinga-ma-jig happened whenever my dad asked for help behind our house. We have like 2.5 acres so the area where he needed help was kinda far. He wanted help lifting something but immediately I thought that he wanted to murder me, or something. I was too scared too say no so I just went along with it but I remember walking out there in the dark with him I was watching closely because I honestly thought he was just going to turn around and shoot me. At one point he slightly turned around and I freaked out. Anyways, we got to the back and he actually did need help, and wasn’t going to kill me. In general I feel like people are reading my thoughts, and know everything about me. I get really anxious in public, for multiple reasons including this, which is why I said I believe that I might have social anxiety. It’s getting harder to function, and I can’t even go in public anymore. Every time I hear my parents talk and I can’t make out the words they’re saying, I feel like they’re trash talking me or plotting against me or something. I just feel like someone or something out there is plotting against me, and it drives me crazy. I don’t hallucinate, but I do have nightmares basically every night. Generally I’m dying in my dreams or some other weird shit is happening. I often wake up breathing heavily. I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me, but I thought maybe schizophrenia might be something. I’m not well. Sorry if I went everywhere with this post.",3.8685665286812534,5.945195206741578,4.807667060910706,81.4517371377883,73.3370786516854,7.560615020697813,29.238616203429928,8.371475516178862,2.2788202247191007,1837,78,336,32,38,597,211,445,0.191,0.71,0.099,-0.9937,4,0,7,1,0,2,51.0,3,0,1,0,25,22,5,1,11,0,36,8,4,3,0,90,78,32,3,8,22,4,5,5,0,3,2,4,0,0,21,31,2,0,16,2,0,7,9,13,1,1,21,11,56,9,43,48,7,38,1,1,1,0,30,19,3,19,14,226,77,1,0.0,0.0,0.06697561667944363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05488554692239183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07196737214982804,0.10500765821281112,0.07753541763819398,0.06806519813915751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221953113582268,0.06416231155361099,0.0,0.0,0.05277431132615725,0.0,0.04183785805960148,0.0,0.0,0.2319766572047201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10959525556525528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05911324558797516,0.06966074773324528,0.07122990887803897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959214477670751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045331252322181964,0.0,0.11565202292936297,0.0,0.06168264701597696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17351378134229234,0.19612486383642846,0.0,0.0,0.06272904616096812,0.0,0.08299093558138625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14343101615400916,0.0,0.11701663841279028,0.0,0.054891841435343085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12138334327489265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07735404312720935,0.0,0.18401221350431105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07919292320303438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07593191588440919,0.0,0.07543747614079167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16765235691162564,0.0,0.06060393319732865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04581286146765545,0.0,0.06895077393232832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21842535237676966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10178055765128184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06440714143730031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046507295043584515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286254800204699,0.0,0.0,0.09516254768483327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06488008735619659,0.07737305915236938,0.06573115660020162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06865127489545056,0.0,0.04396786628534141,0.07056584832548338,0.20329953968054806,0.0,0.07774747212019616,0.0,0.06528541624852319,0.10915895855009562,0.06871330768516215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090096446765224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399247929578332,0.05815226560816015,0.3170208421319117,0.0,0.07682869074796632,0.0,0.0,0.10962032880615316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11032873207199888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07968785678440173,0.045596517488666034,0.043977064117910296,0.06743128116088308,0.27243349485305385,0.040020280414220524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14930534260667247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12144403739835075,0.10895488837621832,0.0,0.0,0.06170904147466937,0.12724640454733435,0.061930338341323325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22511725619485526,0.0,0.04419720981954635 schizophrenia,01135813213455,2018/11/01,"Imagination or symptoms Since I was a kid I've had what my parents, teachers, and friends have called a strong imagination. I'm 25 now, but looking back I'm starting to realize that maybe the things that made me so unique have become a detriment. I enjoy writing, and I make a little music. I started off waiting tables like many young adults. And during those first few years i started noticing some weird things. One example. When I'd try to fall asleep it felt as if I could hear the chattering of people. I justified that by saying to myself ""I just worked for 10 hours in a noisy room full of people eating, that's all this is,"" but then I'd think back to when i was a kid and I'd swear there was a song playing outside my room. I started working at a funeral home with my dad when I was 22. Suddenly all the stories of angels and lesser gods (I read the Bible a lot) when I was a kid became little trails of thought I could walk down. I'd incorporate those thoughts into my writing and music when I'd get home from work. I'm pretty sure I became very depressed and quit working at the funeral home without any backup plan. My plan at the time was to go to mortuary school. I spent months alone. Went kinda deep into myself. Started wondering why to all the big questions in life that nobody really has an answer for.. Somehow brought myself out of a really bad place, got a less stressful job, met a wonderful girl who I've been with now for two years, and found myself doing pretty okay. But there are times when I'll fill my car up with gas and look at the numbers of how much I owe, then look up on my phone the year those numbers made. (I owe $15.85.. What happened in 1585. Should I know about it? Is there a secret there?) That kinda thing. The stories and characters I've developed over the years are becoming more elaborate. I'm not scared of getting help if I need to. And if the paranoia of those days after the funeral home comes back I'll definitely get help. I got myself out once, but if I slide while my life is, by most measures ""going well"", I certainly want to have help. If any of you here have any advice I'd like it. I'd just really prefer not to let myself slip back to where I was two and a half years ago.",3.2993538169147922,4.731489350332595,4.322789990497308,87.02118847006653,73.45676274944567,7.194197022489708,25.0808362369338,7.760100539840176,1.2378062844472597,1751,55,360,23,35,569,231,451,0.07400000000000001,0.792,0.134,0.9812,4,1,0,0,0,0,54.0,0,1,0,9,25,15,0,2,29,1,24,5,1,4,5,73,66,34,3,11,15,2,1,2,1,1,3,3,6,5,20,20,1,1,15,3,3,10,3,5,1,5,21,7,40,10,50,41,11,71,1,1,3,0,22,26,0,15,37,230,60,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638292865321633,0.06928945916388322,0.0,0.0,0.08095642156482462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594667190930259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24041937341314634,0.06526536048021979,0.0,0.1726564525601651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07981624440935996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06733310367589407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248184107472791,0.0,0.0,0.05041061544191184,0.0,0.06732427722668527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998335112955621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07505163586251598,0.0,0.0,0.0664879754350172,0.0,0.08570500476201404,0.06039087202119847,0.0,0.12251555550379885,0.0,0.08884709934045687,0.0,0.12503301124876956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0691219520435462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08809878382249721,0.0,0.15717910366581586,0.0,0.31362755943407833,0.0,0.07697778291190108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07756771218178643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04295799956902757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.079930049862152,0.1104219410705972,0.07637593667651023,0.1566857710445428,0.0,0.0,0.1969193068645526,0.0,0.0,0.06645395371545726,0.0,0.1479251534267675,0.0521764243414098,0.07924807415308302,0.07852827184570738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06239137024757897,0.0,0.0574610175208272,0.05795911230591794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08899253018334849,0.0,0.08324425867724751,0.05296731711199516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08679411325884616,0.0,0.0,0.1083809504656032,0.0,0.0816668525804333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15904588408268538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08756382989328719,0.08313918235772068,0.07818717137004706,0.0,0.150225459087073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06216075529354651,0.07825782072604415,0.07910818384231166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0646597382777675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766315511879576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895389101368041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736705474127108,0.08124442249215467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579008833526842,0.050085628471940605,0.0,0.12411017497609872,0.09115846800483404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05306959563327178,0.0,0.15271368428458768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06449515149934132,0.04610434294384096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07028063802469972,0.07246068229407403,0.07053267378169152,0.0,0.0,0.07534925250717575,0.16953542552489198,0.2276231697860129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25168176581581586 schizophrenia,painwater,2018/11/01,i just applied to be a psychiatric technician so i just applied to be a mental health/psychiatric technician at the psych ward i was admitted to a few months ago and i really hope i get the job. i don't know if me being admitted there will stop me from getting it but i really think this will be beneficial for me. i think i want to become an art therapist so working in the mental health field would help me reach that goal,3.224252491694351,4.900110860465117,4.980498338870434,81.23709302325581,74.11627906976744,9.565448504983387,26.239202657807308,9.957137785484203,2.6533574750830566,338,12,68,10,7,115,55,86,0.02,0.799,0.18100000000000002,0.8719,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,7,0,9,1,0,0,0,14,18,5,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,13,1,8,10,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,3,49,16,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19006228984911291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23679994855490674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22404164887584707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4558174340019245,0.0,0.0,0.14371507931915295,0.0,0.0,0.21295836205484475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21276969359448855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11783460087508366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4321514321555157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17114070219586486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747141733847449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17925707895439866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489475332195879,0.0,0.27477164205867816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12646507993618047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15609365910159045,0.0,0.0,0.15231132261099378,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,endofajoke,2018/11/01,Am I imagining them? I’ve been hearing whispers and screams when at work. I work food retail and while stressed and under pressure. I think I may only be hearing them because I’m listening. Could this be me avoiding the stress and imagining them on purpose? How can I stop myself from listening for them? When at home I cant hear them unless I listen but I can’t control when. I only listen sometimes. This has only been happening the last few days and I’m wondering if it’s because I’ve been so worried about my world becoming aware that I’m more awake now. I fear that I died during an LSD trip and gone to hell and I’ll only be sure when I’m reading my thoughts on paper that I haven’t written.,2.3830069930069904,4.3709618461538495,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727274,77.39160839160841,6.358041958041959,27.08391608391609,7.321109707123232,1.4592349650349652,556,23,111,7,13,182,86,143,0.214,0.7659999999999999,0.021,-0.9787,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,5,3,8,8,1,5,3,0,14,1,0,2,1,22,31,17,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,9,1,0,6,7,1,3,5,1,1,2,3,7,0,0,6,9,21,1,10,20,2,17,1,0,0,0,12,6,1,3,9,73,27,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17947396691507214,0.16258030998688025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651069388212103,0.11753407191249303,0.0,0.0,0.0949373552351828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15277926383240062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16565057786951945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17800519813377938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017606030359025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4977443022004964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14766220745631545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11999463960548723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4478350314069575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472484157973763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455930488091388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12307296366236865,0.3372538599067138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13874234362701224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09432531344310197,0.0,0.11686716841995093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596414244986862,0.21433919761041376,0.14949745771522174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PeelonCrust,2019/07/01,"Invega - Restlessness Does anyone else get really restless with this injection? My parkinson's shaking stopped but I still feel restless. Can benztropine be used to help with that ? Has anyone tried Lorazepam for restlessness? Thanks.",6.689999999999998,10.627187999999997,4.450000000000003,73.84500000000001,85.66666666666666,7.955555555555558,33.77777777777778,8.344100000000001,4.329311111111111,192,10,23,5,6,54,32,36,0.273,0.5660000000000001,0.161,-0.2792,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,6,7,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,2,1,4,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4598385470978223,0.3369159506114441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877534540621225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746877340465994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16626176663173026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717953896159579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22040177055654447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21065113868989166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26259685808627803,0.2749090615509157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027341783967145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22324785994126028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839957497853215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sk0nka,2019/07/01,"Symptoms? So I know this wouldn't be the right place to ask questions about whether or not I'm noticing symptoms. I've taken a lot of LSD within the past year as well as shrooms. Recently on one of my trips I felt as if the people on TV or my phone were speaking to me directly or my subconscious speaking to me through their voices, this was really really eery as I've never experienced that. After that trip I seem to be noticing ""signs"" of divine presence, such as when listening to random songs, I'll feel like the song came on specifically for me, I see meaning in the lyrics a lot if not not all the time or noticing coincidences around me and regarding it to divine interference. I'm not crazy.. I don't hear voices in my head or anything just that. Last year I tripped way over 20+ times. The time this happened I smoked weed while on the LSD and this caused that weird trip and occurrence. Any insight of your guys would be appreciated, especially from those who had symptoms brought on through psychedelics",6.99194805194805,6.8980681020408205,6.7111317254174425,78.6832189239332,64.40816326530611,9.984415584415583,34.654916512059366,9.573946990214177,3.0340469387755107,812,33,158,14,11,255,118,196,0.022000000000000002,0.899,0.079,0.8985,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,0,7,5,0,0,10,0,9,4,1,1,2,35,24,19,0,4,13,0,2,1,0,2,3,8,0,1,11,5,0,1,7,3,0,6,7,1,1,1,7,12,17,4,31,12,3,31,2,0,1,0,11,12,0,12,13,104,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926449132120731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11211033130628273,0.1212786114708381,0.12736194159150713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15581728915529502,0.0,0.13995153962040854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06888483768597913,0.0973267750480995,0.13080758788642424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13489471169954653,0.12047273471001282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13981708012018151,0.0,0.1535474780144529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07487154995987283,0.11105023727175097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06655785669696708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23164535432535574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14840056088654682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10507333136591636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4653155689178357,0.0,0.0,0.09231680174070417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300523425978037,0.09444864552462216,0.0,0.1423372571903933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15261510615731555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17455209085033954,0.0,0.1345162680469598,0.0,0.0,0.1163445000838221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085621739663258,0.12402381842753005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4248030098194868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383203079739184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081375171301799,0.0,0.0,0.1224922099229203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967778964381818,0.0,0.0,0.17546258291649253 schizophrenia,jonallen125,2019/07/01,Schizophrenia question I keep seeing black dots across my vision moving in every which way every once in a while I’m 18. They kinda look like bugs and that’s what I thought they were at first but they just dissapear. Could there my a chance im going schizophrenic and think there bugs or are they just eye floaters. Im sorry if this comes off as inconsiderate somehow. Thank you,2.875787671232878,5.603801013698631,3.0016267123287683,89.79504280821921,79.95890410958904,5.293835616438357,20.08390410958904,6.6274283507984215,0.22439863013698605,306,8,59,3,8,93,57,73,0.07200000000000001,0.8059999999999999,0.121,0.3738,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,4,1,5,2,0,0,2,0,3,2,1,0,0,15,12,7,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,4,9,2,6,9,0,11,0,0,4,0,6,5,0,5,3,36,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946136422510024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18038204248266515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3807016646049814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19217095839793186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283978954045545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4880736807854949,0.0,0.0,0.20081175656124475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103751231228998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18971937747451792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401216070633631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406018361435443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25308674239949985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18003228938964472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529035784790074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20800059460081016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14476306674163478,0.0,0.17935853149418235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17932806673433918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,InnaFree,2019/07/01,"Relationship between cannabis and schizophrenia? I’ve decided to stop smoking cannabis after a year and it’s probably for the best. I have no history for schizophrenia in my family, just only prone to depression. I’m just wondering can schizophrenia develop even if you have no family history? And for those who did consume cannabis and it triggered schizophrenia, how old were you and how long did you smoke cannabis? Did schizophrenia develop shortly after you stopped smoking?",6.270069444444445,9.9023913125,5.134166666666669,74.08527777777779,73.375,9.055555555555557,40.138888888888886,9.444778638647367,5.076847222222222,395,25,55,11,9,117,49,80,0.152,0.799,0.049,-0.7882,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,4,0,1,5,2,0,0,2,0,7,0,0,3,0,15,9,8,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,6,1,9,5,1,9,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,2,7,42,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27097589943736144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22239625143294245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705455433708231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4868355968305184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285080912021839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709483940870741,0.0,0.0,0.19638065544299307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783944988174328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772213523531105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.431750936417738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800181797338334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662790410151633 schizophrenia,Cutter3,2019/07/01,"I just felt a need to write how I am feeling write now Hello all. I don't really know whats going on with me but I've written down a couple times whats been happening with my head. I just felt the need to. 10 minutes ago it happened again I felt an overwhelming need to write these feelings or whatever down and I did I cant show this to anyone I know and I'm not really sure why i'm posting it here i just need to I guess. I apologize for the terrible grammar and spelling but I'm in a bit of a moment. I'm sorry if I am wasting every ones time. Truly. I guess here goes. and I'm sorry its so long it wasnt this long in my word processor. &#x200B; God even writing is hard. I dont why but I just feel the need to write but i try aand think how to put this into words and it just doesnt work. Cant think and my thoughts and all are narrated to me. im tired. its my birthday how exciting. i wantred to write on paper in an actual notebook but somehow there is not a single pen in this room despite me seeing pens all over the place previously. so i went to grab a pencil from the kitchen none were sharpened started to sharpen one the old fashioned way not noisy. cant even do that. ""hes sharpening his pencil"" ""writing his thoughts down"" ""thats all I can hear up here"" ""just trying to sleep"". i know my roomate isnt talking to himself about what im doing hes asleep and no way he can hear a pencil being sharpened. or me breathing or moving. or doing anything it all sounds like im angering someone with all the noise im making. or they talk about how wrongly im doing things and what i do makes no sense. even one no one is home or at work it all contant. even now they are still talking about me. I think my pen situation may be a result my friendly entities usual stuff. This sorta thing has it written all over it. god the music i want that to stop. I always hear distant voices like their in another room and music. cant make out the lyrics but its just generic musicals that are always there. and a weird buzz chirp i guess one would call. the distant voices are always around. they always talk to themselves or itll sound like someone else is there talking aswell. talking about me. i can never hear the entire conversation but i hear snippets. the snippets are about me what im doing and much im failing. oh my. its happening again. the internal ones the ones in my head their coming back. slowly as they do just a couple times through the day but in a couple days theyll be chiming in with their opinions. and insults. i barely made it out of my last i dont know what to call it. attack? lately its been harder to ignore them when they come. Its just easier to do as they say and listen to them when their giving their supposed advice. so what if i have to something a bit easier. maybe appeasing them will make them layoff a bit. ill only let them manipulate me to a point. i know that they want their freedom and i want mine and the only way to be free from them and all the emotions and memories and feelings and so much more is simply not be able to experience it. that is what i truly want. theyve told me that they dont even want to be in here and i especially dont want to be in my head and yet im so trapped in my mind i really think this is the only way out. but that would devastate a couple people and i cant be the reason for that no matter how bad i trapped i get. but that still doesnt stop the desire or the thoughts. plus this entity has been manipulating the world around me to show me that im not fit for society or people and the best thing i can do for everyone is to go away. all the things going on with me all agree on that. but i cant. i wish these people didnt care so much so that i can just be free and peaceful. no thoughts no feelings no voices music anxiety sounds nothing. just nothing. peace quiet and freedom. i would be able to make this feeling of not being real and the fakeness that i am and truly be disassociated. i cant keep doing this. another week of this hell but at work. then at home. god im pathetic",0.6436124213836507,2.892200067216983,2.6467452830188702,91.8198742138365,85.47405660377359,5.372955974842769,20.272012578616355,6.770275591412753,0.34170927672956,3179,97,683,39,96,1063,299,848,0.135,0.75,0.115,-0.9753,0,2,1,0,0,0,75.0,0,0,21,5,53,22,4,1,42,0,78,9,6,15,13,171,150,69,0,18,40,0,11,3,1,7,2,14,5,0,57,42,1,4,23,2,2,8,32,12,0,7,19,26,96,12,83,111,21,79,1,2,1,0,56,37,1,18,32,489,153,12,0.08698820873595609,0.0,0.04244397176316314,0.0,0.0,0.042501935406541014,0.03855489923812341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14476231629685354,0.04712584391105935,0.052850097474051935,0.0,0.09121472150129156,0.033272870792904384,0.0,0.0,0.03041208906238801,0.0,0.035791941956978636,0.07743794834622775,0.0,0.04948082273135107,0.04086414279207932,0.033444281528135465,0.03631576039730852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04564437916119641,0.0,0.14245289128669122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888246869842025,0.0,0.04434513813325598,0.0,0.0,0.07493263936363287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19250159684832446,0.0,0.056100198279734254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20389906556833454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03633374315787236,0.048925013267573474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436372286619084,0.0,0.036645658815360936,0.041560480622497585,0.0,0.04254557993617082,0.0,0.0,0.1319515561203746,0.0,0.12528348293894226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03360343714290905,0.0,0.022723874379312142,0.041723508135497335,0.07415610550305125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374097859003696,0.0,0.11538507855335238,0.0,0.038962174400968365,0.0,0.13391249739287825,0.0,0.2451050833896593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08725626594717516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4698109634319839,0.0,0.0,0.038659558395639365,0.0,0.0,0.11951611145772333,0.03545350014068214,0.04906324419691736,0.0,0.0,0.04447566853198602,0.0,0.06374706726636653,0.0,0.0,0.07698182737202977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04115517319642864,0.14516326201440394,0.0,0.04369567384260027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043916646636239336,0.0,0.0,0.046227349679547634,0.09591951361876,0.16125163638530196,0.033545334615066875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834675323671132,0.0,0.0456397460383243,0.0,0.2063091152920724,0.09923767887375844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09046000665087003,0.0,0.045442081816313366,0.0,0.04111598716467154,0.0,0.041655329103603374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043723588042053216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04950581284201419,0.08359031096496053,0.04471918322313459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034588257518938015,0.0,0.0,0.03465916998060281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048889195641143836,0.04352551528998827,0.0,0.07370482697456861,0.033483886472151746,0.0,0.09737617785035864,0.03078535093458148,0.0,0.06946889586378459,0.07272603757740563,0.0,0.0,0.0497903436280348,0.0,0.0,0.040992678635237235,0.0,0.0,0.20975348138153546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155822012091456,0.11147706345615717,0.0,0.13811784211828682,0.07608528608187011,0.049990074729766715,0.0,0.041560480622497585,0.0,0.059059283675727214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047902611160546914,0.0,0.15392369789772115,0.13809438225353918,0.03488834700005966,0.0,0.0,0.04031947049790088,0.07849332823385663,0.0,0.05001607352367092,0.0,0.0,0.09499267797651276,0.0,0.0,0.09269089150858056,0.0475539753074933,0.052850097474051935,0.0 schizophrenia,pepeperfection,2019/07/01,I’m finally going to be honest with my psychiatrist and actually try to fix my problems. I’m tired of living in fear. I’ve had enough of being silently terrified of things that aren’t real because I just can’t tell. I’m worried I’ll miss the voices and noises and that’s the part that scares me but I think it’s worth a try.,1.8976190476190449,3.5025899999999983,4.300000000000002,85.01333333333334,77.57142857142857,6.9523809523809526,23.095238095238088,7.793537801064563,1.0943809523809525,260,8,55,4,6,91,50,70,0.195,0.737,0.068,-0.6705,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,9,11,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,4,0,0,1,1,5,1,7,8,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.24276275589048524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15164733415916604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25704498011698723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27993439903989065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725143889359305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14138121222081626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196676726576814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26939269255596376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23803843137029654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28315369789583256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490612668762573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174351580415067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16527113587525424,0.1594011942037584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859234846419815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377957780680842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526370962404145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,olddadd,2019/07/01,"Help I’ve never been diagnosed with schizophrenia but I’m starting to worry, I haven’t told anyone about it besides my wife and she has her doubts. I keep hearing scary voices in my head(mostly in high-stress situations) but the voice isn’t telling me to do anything, it’s just like my regular thoughts only it is narrated by a very scary voice. The first time it happened was very early in the morning when I was trying to get my daughter to fall asleep and the voice was very chilling and made me genuinely scared. I guess I’m just wondering if this is a normal thing that happens sometimes or if I should talk to someone about this. I have extreme paranoia among other things but I’m mostly worried about this eerie voice.",7.0010714285714295,7.077871678571429,6.490714285714287,79.69678571428574,64.35714285714286,9.0,34.64285714285714,8.472884824447931,2.7193571428571426,585,24,108,7,8,181,90,140,0.198,0.767,0.035,-0.9754,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,2,6,0,12,2,1,1,1,22,26,10,0,4,8,2,0,1,0,1,1,6,0,0,11,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,7,6,14,1,14,18,1,11,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,7,7,72,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131256041471789,0.0,0.1331373536746454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16421093941591802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376163921007675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08452730795476741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17822720662548494,0.0,0.2861363605361114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660406835732333,0.0,0.18234630696443607,0.0,0.10844277238903567,0.17093741034810586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14380419216181387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07904121594897005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15308727467149535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12478051859127152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585174306498518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304670853891618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619775436313686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818559646405214,0.0,0.0,0.1370820508738615,0.0,0.1600120060802548,0.0,0.11451404789105885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18532707132442156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003868984788197,0.14140943407374565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21496889466590768,0.0,0.0,0.12844122859402304,0.09433961099115896,0.0,0.0,0.15459492011292916,0.0,0.1098431142400391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4004749730726763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17545167709916729,0.0,0.3286061842728465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hatcher44,2019/07/22,"Adderall gave me schizophrenia symptoms, but I swear people could hear my thoughts, and I could hear theirs. So is thought broadcasting actually real??? I have experienced something very strange these past couple of weeks. So I was diagnosed ADHD and was prescribed Adderall around may/june. It was really working in managing my ADHD symptoms. but around 3 weeks ago i had a very strange thing happen to me all of a sudden at night. I had smoked a little bit of pot, literally like 2 or 3 hits from my bowl. im not a huge pot smoker. but i had this instant flash come over me (which after reading, it might have been remote viewing). anyway this intuitive flash came to me in seconds and i realized that I had been manipulated by a co-worker with narcissistic personality disorder. everything that i had known to be true about him and our ""relationship"" had all been a lie. he was only nice to me when no one was around. and i finally realized why none of my co-workers liked me. because he always bad-mouthed me to them and basically had a smear campaign against me after i had told people some racist comments he had made. anyway, anytime i made conversations with co-workers and i thought ohh okay i think this person likes me and we will get along, the next time we spoke these people disliked me. now i know it's because this narcissistic co-worker told them stuff, made up stuff, to make them not like me. its a lot and its hard to explain, but i need to get this out because i havent shared this with anyone. no one will believe me if i did. he is so charming and everyone loves this guy, but thats how full-blown narcissists work. they're charming, but underneath all that facade, they are very hurt individuals and they enjoy seeing that hurt in other people. and this guy chose me. (narcissists are attracted to empaths for this reason. i always had a feeling this guy was not a nice person, but i was still always kind to him.) this flash was very strange in itself. after reading about it, this was probably a clairvoyant, (or claircognizant?) vision. &#x200B; anyways, after this huge realization, i went to work and i swear something very different was inside of me. after a couple of days, i realized that people could hear my thoughts. and i could hear theirs. and i had an extra-sensory perception about people and things around me. it's like my psychic abilities had been awakened. i knew things that were being said when i wasn't even in the room. and i knew what people were genuine and which people were fake. at first i thought i was going through a spiritual awakening of sorts. because i had been meditating for a while and fasting and all that spiritual stuff. but now i realize that i was going through a ""stimulant psychosis."" adderall has been linked with giving people schizophrenia symptoms. but i swear the things i was experiencing were not delusions or auditory hallucinations, and that my thought broadcasting was real. &#x200B; i've been trying to do research online about it, but there's not too many posts about it. but i did read a couple things that said that some schizophrenia patients may just be tuned into a different realm of reality. their perception about things around them are just in a different consciousness, so to ""normal"" people they appear crazy. but they just have extra sensory perception and may have psychic abilities. i swear this is what i went through. i stopped taking my adderall and am feeling back to normal, but what i experienced was something very strange. im on a 2 week vacation from work, because everyone there thinks ive gone crazy. i know they heard my thoughts and theyre all probably thinking im doing some sort of witchcraft or something. it was mostly people i work with most often too, we had like conversations mentally without any physical talking. and it was not good conversations. i could see through them, through their facades, and i let them know that. and so they got all mad at me and started spreading rumors about me. so i told my boss these rumors had to stop but he said there was no rumors, but i know it was bullshit. he is a narcissist himself and i know he knew i knew that. there was definitely telepathy going on (not that i could control) and it's like no one wanted to talk about it. with me anyway. i know they talked abut it amongst themselves though. &#x200B; im sorry this is so long though. so anyway the question i guess, does any one diagnosed with schizophrenia think they just have psychic abilities and that they actually can broadcast their thoughts to people????",4.882737801214873,7.13848423459716,5.054350176890728,79.9980391829651,70.99052132701422,7.882891662772846,30.133769441292305,8.637021337926742,2.5204041652760174,3650,154,638,66,71,1145,316,844,0.11,0.789,0.10099999999999999,0.3762,3,0,6,0,0,0,124.0,4,0,20,7,47,23,1,0,25,1,84,6,0,10,7,164,149,65,0,11,32,0,3,7,0,5,5,9,1,6,65,51,0,3,37,3,0,9,15,4,0,6,78,18,108,19,80,55,15,64,0,2,3,1,69,25,0,20,36,478,173,11,0.0,0.0,0.08144334758703872,0.0,0.10030076385009777,0.0,0.03699041264746766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10416609668497637,0.13564069265468662,0.15211661443723876,0.056754565691703625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029178022666880812,0.0,0.0,0.1857391486234158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03208717436357709,0.034842133924570216,0.12718864659932005,0.0,0.0,0.0470145118016809,0.0,0.0,0.0455574720346577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04772708110279142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03594600563868015,0.0,0.0,0.04680283932825452,0.1999041950358994,0.13851767823468256,0.0,0.02691187793223669,0.0,0.0,0.08470850694761896,0.0,0.13079437823688891,0.047825271522639816,0.0,0.036517498839921066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02756173905125356,0.0,0.0,0.0797480661826311,0.03750350881466912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04219906857338143,0.0,0.0,0.04571229227310057,0.0,0.035494831062528175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04360356306722316,0.04003044524898988,0.07114698772639112,0.03500046806300572,0.033374648441896214,0.0,0.045969411734654894,0.12395538801612775,0.036900988403471176,0.0,0.037381161336542235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18812733750029667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934393038955518,0.0,0.18029876095714872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04345453404492969,0.13759964211667655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042670928060509455,0.0,0.14270743441099826,0.04182361499759943,0.0,0.036929023510866577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035476668452216524,0.03766222676277658,0.11845551687568047,0.027854560998855967,0.042306853016506815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04205321269757725,0.04426808037862783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030941668570482063,0.0,0.0,0.04437947118074411,0.03916002171560139,0.08177150026230247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113107127141396,0.031736932393859885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03983523738875459,0.3471572267318647,0.109308967779848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03996503279626664,0.0,0.08998225785386664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04674624740661392,0.0,0.12522145940881474,0.09499391681271274,0.026732790185988387,0.04290456137532304,0.0,0.044801537595025885,0.0,0.0,0.11908205802735615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06650552977368504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12850068884850122,0.0,0.04671241621552849,0.029536138261807583,0.0,0.03332498819792565,0.06977494931547933,0.0,0.0,0.14330983037603684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13011783103322952,0.031375160593463534,0.10062103628679553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16633813348945334,0.1069535301467928,0.08199744238429248,0.2650265504458308,0.02433262857366494,0.0,0.0,0.11962209927394665,0.0,0.02833138352062949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20658573149594853,0.024612959762023687,0.0,0.1004179269785892,0.0,0.0,0.07736676173024515,0.03765410698535136,0.0,0.0,0.0402254538648713,0.0,0.27341415173753536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211661443723876,0.0 schizophrenia,kimicocoa,2019/07/22,"Pre-diabetic after Abilify??? I’ve been on abilify for two months now and suddenly I get my lab results back and they say I’m pre diabetic even though my glucose and cholesterol are low. My A1C is 5.9% (apparently I’m on my way to type 2 diabetes). I exercise and eat well and I’m young. Why is this happening, could it be the abilify? Has this happened to anyone else? I’m going to call my doctor tomorrow.",0.2522764227642291,2.6716991463414668,3.623780487804877,81.25282520325204,94.1219512195122,8.099186991869919,25.1260162601626,8.59863814320734,2.723508943089431,318,15,63,11,12,115,56,82,0.027999999999999997,0.9440000000000001,0.027999999999999997,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,7,5,0,1,0,7,15,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,1,8,1,7,12,0,12,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,7,37,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17369899114505716,0.2545326445172343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191017392757571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536616028954896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983408163044909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542653972089181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25419267973095416,0.20752058558355707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16407713168446364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297876659014228,0.0,0.14118114550546426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4393487887178753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19828413502741696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19755122458638544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440685097347816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24266738072157115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19718190709484384,0.0,0.0,0.22335677938477924,0.0,0.22415776663466316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,slaaaay,2019/07/22,"Binge Eating/Compulsive Gambling on Abilify Maintenna? My pdoc says it's just my personality. I had a problem with abusing cannabis for a few years, like smoking myself into psychosis so I could talk to myself about awesome things that weren't real... but now I'm one year off cannabis and nine months on Abilify Maintenna. The gambling started six moths ago. I liked a scratch ticket here and there before, but I sold my Nintendo switch, PSVR, PS4, and spent 70% of my benefits cheque in less than a week in mid June. I've also been bringing 1500kcal in one sitting, which is more than I ate daily for five years before treatment. I was fit, and happy, and motivated, and controlled aside from the talking to myself on cannabis. That was a little out of my control. Anyway, can addictions transform? My pdoc refuses to change my meds. I beg for the oral dose, and it's always a no. I live in a group home and I have to stick to my treatment plan here. I think I need to just say it out loud more than I want advice. I'm also leaking a lot of urine (I have a rash) but he just typed it into my notes and moved on and ice developed sleep apnea but that's ""anything but he medication""",3.2461688311688306,5.233292437229442,4.188093073593077,85.6078538961039,74.84415584415585,6.871082251082251,27.134415584415585,7.734863291789972,1.6183677922077928,927,36,180,13,20,299,138,231,0.03,0.8540000000000001,0.11599999999999999,0.9651,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,4,12,5,0,0,12,0,10,7,3,3,0,34,20,18,0,4,8,0,1,2,0,0,3,3,1,1,9,15,1,3,2,2,5,2,2,1,0,5,8,4,25,4,31,11,5,28,0,0,0,0,9,16,0,1,11,124,34,2,0.0,0.17640264293924768,0.0,0.16230502879876754,0.0,0.14548726694237193,0.1319762703448525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381242177318411,0.12388302763640227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12251846331401273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533778443858057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15749903840281565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339710878578304,0.1188713876510112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15848929110828364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14934232447091775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454739492600124,0.1492204148228145,0.13146688876483684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265754570300788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16537604360090594,0.1499844978131558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188374169223173,0.15823963540803065,0.0,0.11039525444327056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20177467242399635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12999935974687032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14246143549525486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16946205718050128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367963249953457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14899105655372727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053805321214798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393338910800976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09891160484961103,0.0953985573472359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08781536617332633,0.0,0.11942539097630407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876283449199585 schizophrenia,probablyjustnew,2019/07/22,"Some questions about anti-psychotics (esp. risperidone and weight gain) Not sure if I have schizophrenia but I was suffering from paranoia and delusions and prescribed risperidone. I’ve been on it about 2 years now and I’ve gained 40 lb and the only reason I haven’t gained more is because I’ve been desperately trying to lose weight (and have been absolutely failing at that). I have a big event in October that i want to lose weight for but I’m also having a big life change in August so my new therapist said it’s best to wait until I’ve adjusted to my new situation before I think of getting off medication. So two questions: 1. do you have any experience getting off of antipsychotics? Will all of my symptoms immediately reappear? It wasn’t clear to me from my doctor about this whether I will have to be on antipsychotics for life. 2. If you got off an antipsychotic, did you lose the weight easily after that? Or did you still have to diet really seriously to lose the weight?",3.9426737967914423,6.3180124652406455,4.790909090909089,80.30636363636366,74.08021390374331,7.822459893048128,27.0427807486631,8.671277953709913,2.182488770053476,789,30,144,16,17,255,107,187,0.165,0.736,0.099,-0.9263,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,4,0,9,8,9,0,0,6,0,20,11,0,1,3,24,28,16,0,3,7,0,5,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,7,6,6,1,5,0,0,0,3,7,0,1,9,6,16,2,28,16,4,19,0,6,0,0,7,10,0,6,9,100,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08536013843066209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07258702948817458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06506786496379041,0.0,0.0908280899693768,0.0,0.1120173058042771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11291703001750425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925316765615972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10441244521038287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11153474895193052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08536992790215324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15078758887534138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4776601414008884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10752957105943604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20618079493449598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118076914027247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391470147016843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06838053664518405,0.10974675336765087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10153441991490468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998051193376325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08524290060313165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060142130980113,0.11094398865284592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239336559035764,0.0,0.06839484147232648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07246962234628934,0.0,0.10426971314886044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06295816430847713,0.0,0.0,0.6499043354642886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06873722063442429 schizophrenia,impeccablemix,2019/07/22,"How to combat extreme anhedonia? Or whatever this is called, basically it feels like everything I do isn't worth the energy. Showers are the worst. I'm taking Abilify 10 mg and Clozapine 25 mg for sleep (a weirdly small dose, I know). I still can feel pleasure from eating tasty food etc, but cooking is impossible. Is this a negative symptom of schizophrenia or a side effect from Abilify? I can't take it anymore and considering suicide. My psychiatrist is noncooperative and unprofessional, she doesn't listen, can't go to another one because it's a small town with only one shrink. My mom won't let me try 5 mg of Abilify, she's scared I'm gonna get psychotic again. In order to adjust the meds I'd need to go to another city and spend a month in a hospital there (not an option either, mental hospitals in my country are horrible). What do I do?",3.8415331010452967,5.909911585365857,6.102961672473867,72.1718292682927,73.39024390243901,9.807665505226481,30.61672473867597,10.125756701596842,3.6003968641114987,676,31,121,21,14,238,110,164,0.18,0.795,0.025,-0.9791,1,0,0,0,0,2,22.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,1,10,0,16,6,1,2,0,18,29,8,1,1,5,1,2,1,0,2,2,1,1,0,6,5,3,0,5,1,2,2,7,3,0,2,0,3,11,2,14,26,3,13,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,3,4,75,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772438875959879,0.0,0.0,0.1783945918057836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10965438747877716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18367961706676286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18406417660852112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006159611501663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16166632782612872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819074713156745,0.12850772488582668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21751400835347268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09398091197343836,0.0,0.20446215310067886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988584337584773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839415154076788,0.0,0.08788125090117367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199808332071309,0.0,0.18127873057705052,0.0,0.0,0.21067560490174356,0.14358008297872285,0.0,0.0,0.13338021141761558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437853746735334,0.13680835417123902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800932460529739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18001189202097487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14365398430934126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19676169381648356,0.0,0.0,0.18696625633790487,0.2704977298612833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12212805896770805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jeebuskhrist,2019/07/22,"How to best support my brother? Hey there everyone! Recently, my little brother has been talking with me, and he mentioned that he has been listening to voices talking with him, but only by calling out his name randomly throughout the day. Also, he has mentioned that even when he's sleeping he can't stop listening to those. I don't know how to best approach this situation, and I also don't want to make him feel scared if he gets diagnosed with schizophrenia, since I'm there to listen and take care of him.",8.081134020618556,7.405822886597939,7.790432989690722,73.76255670103095,62.4020618556701,10.64659793814433,38.98762886597938,9.888512548439397,3.878370721649485,408,19,72,7,5,130,63,97,0.049,0.7879999999999999,0.163,0.9184,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,8,5,0,1,1,0,8,2,1,3,0,18,20,10,0,2,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,7,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,5,9,4,12,18,2,7,0,0,0,0,22,2,0,2,4,49,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191742377135858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41884934640601496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20377187055531476,0.0,0.20346352020479386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286989319086328,0.0,0.0,0.2025480049215481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13180672067450835,0.0,0.0,0.1906870075237177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009029371084466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10426124866299746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10967231034574487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20001036688343654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320706412102395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15177347754887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970402630064991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19979319539442567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650771207788455,0.2243124785232828,0.1997029422485275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16684011189208814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264569877484369,0.0,0.0,0.1500433996842591,0.3207956459537464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11770496434543448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tuff_scar_,2019/07/22,"My Crisis I am aware that the internet cannot diagnose you, but I would like to know what I had experienced. I had recently suffered from a crisis, and it was my worst one yet. I was strongly thinking of suicide or rejecting the idea of me; basically disregarding my existence. Coughing, crying spells, heart pain, shaking, massive headache, adrenaline rushes, and finalized with a terrible desperation. My brain almost felt like it was bleeding, plus I was feeling some mini tactile hallucinations alongside with it. Couldn't sleep one bit because of all the rushes I was feeling at night. I honestly thought I was gonna die from all the pain I was feeling. Especially since when I tried to eat something I wanted to throw it up regardless of conscientious choice. Also, any movement I made made me hyperventilate and concurrently dizzy. I assume this was caused by all my emotional suppressions, such as suicidal ponder alongside with thoughts of hurting others. I've been diagnosed with psychosis with depression/anxiety, though sometimes I feel like something worse is going on. Overall, just want to know what should I do and what exactly did I experience :(",9.04033333333333,10.059258900000003,8.669,62.59533333333336,60.0,12.066666666666668,42.66666666666667,11.698219412168324,5.639816666666667,940,52,138,27,12,301,132,200,0.315,0.586,0.099,-0.9964,1,0,2,0,0,1,28.0,0,1,0,1,6,13,0,1,6,0,19,10,3,3,4,43,35,11,3,6,3,0,5,3,0,3,6,0,0,0,10,10,1,2,13,0,0,6,2,8,0,2,17,6,25,5,22,14,6,14,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,4,8,101,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995744361428144,0.0,0.0,0.10378623324647143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825588279999877,0.0,0.09928250622473377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0791136089296227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14168780479779866,0.0,0.0,0.14487909567909735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13332136919535226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14255890371426347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634510182649423,0.13469272607220828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13279889314942292,0.0,0.1459867399033963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12695122795802105,0.0,0.0,0.2624857404785591,0.09271594256108112,0.12461060996871184,0.14216930955966411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07375782763113994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537917239861424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389337994794043,0.1465075370304517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14264905668780273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19021408288073652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.245604821085999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12179116322557765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17588663106085273,0.0,0.2761933713660797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281435923013916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10735661301200272,0.0,0.12987524489875246,0.0,0.0,0.1998243065824438,0.1283572400425988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28391983312004243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08315875653913526,0.1275096827324614,0.2060640574900424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881131318012712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530970039603905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13225845463021393,0.0921930669428868,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CURSEDACCOUNT12345,2019/07/22,"Off meds 9 months - Voices have gotten violent Lost my job and ran out of money in October. In November I was put in a mental hospital for 7 days for suicide attempt, serious bullshit they chained me up like a fucking criminal and charged me the price of a BMW. Still don't trust the government. No insurance so I can't get a refill on meds or see the doctor, felt fine up until June 23-27. Thoughts came back after having been dormant for months. Since then it's just flashes of violent shit and urges, murder, gore, etc. Like I'll be eating some soup and I'll suddenly get a horrifying image in my head and my brain tells me to do bad things. Also some other messed up shit. Not sure what to do, but the meds never helped (I was on them for 1 year, didn't do anything). Usually I just turn on the TV really loud to drown out the voices. I have no money left and I'm like 2 months away from eviction, tops",2.351087837837838,4.110861821621628,4.03613175675676,86.71960304054056,76.72972972972974,7.435810810810811,23.994932432432428,8.278499904357787,1.432141891891892,707,23,147,13,16,237,123,185,0.239,0.698,0.063,-0.9819,3,0,0,0,0,1,22.0,0,0,2,3,6,16,6,0,11,0,13,7,4,0,2,20,25,12,3,0,5,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,9,1,0,2,1,3,3,7,10,0,0,10,5,13,6,27,14,3,33,0,1,1,1,4,16,3,3,17,90,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042668621075907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11363235568619605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973559283657934,0.10617899690501097,0.1152953759100805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15414875303414247,0.0,0.15793268485650347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905353183478136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413360554950148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14129563473145915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15400150148859676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13258344864359994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276575442432558,0.14428763765554606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14171525491095824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925556002398958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13702825616345818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15002997608659538,0.0,0.0,0.20238436434297075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15073630986272618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4601445912752822,0.0,0.13915740570569968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3306548726603497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649982052310857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13881376747434546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846091632307683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11003602810258488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.283484951185118,0.1142255060897431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11027502074921287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151042798935108,0.0,0.13014366878467132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12069255296540918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09173767250864616,0.0,0.0,0.10962422618099192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15019704769390327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15208134155546962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08892234283526819 schizophrenia,Psyro95,2019/07/22,"I've grown to admire my schizophrenia.//Personal Story So I haven't really browsed this sub, only lightly skimming things for the past few months. So I don't have a general idea about how everyone feels to their each own schizophrenia in this sub, but I felt spontaneous about sharing my thoughts\^\^ I'll try summarize this. So I've dealt with schizophrenia, OCD, PTSD (tho im not fond of lightly saying that only cause i know someone who has it worse), and intrusive thoughts for as long as I can remember. Ever since I was a kid I'd tell people ""oh that wasn't my idea, that was my from my other minds"" or something similar to that extent in what I was feeling or my ever changing moods. I never saw it as odd but with the mix of intrusive thoughts after lots and lots of traumatic events in my life, it became the norm in a sense of getting used to the terrible things my other minds were saying (12 in total). Actually 2/3 siblings also have a form of multiple minds, but to them- without intrusive thoughts, which have usually helped them academically at faster paces or help when it came to inventing things or new ideas. I hated it actually for a long period of time. And each year that went on I felt as I was mentally losing my mind, wanting to claw my eyes out to stop the constant battering & deterioration of my mind. These would usually go on during times of hard depression. That all changed tho when a good friend of mine & close friend of my gf at the time, committed suicide. November 2017. All of my other minds that day when silent, and it was one of the scariest things of my life. After getting over his death, almost an entire year of bad events followed. I felt more alone losing my minds than the friendships and hardships that year. My minds would only come and talk to me during times it felt like the worst or times after I'd lose my mind again in an uncontrollable rage from terrible arguments among other people. But be there to comfort me & remain for a few days before disappearing again. My minds became my only source of comfort. After that I guess I sought out reasons or ways it benefited me to have schizophrenia. If my minds ever left me completely, what would I be without them? It's a part of me that's been around so long. And if I learned to control it or grow more compatible with them, wouldn't they benefit me like they do my siblings? Imagine the brain power of 12 different minds working on 1 problem or idea. In all honesty I really wish I had more to say on this last part, I'd say my minds have notice how hard it's been on me with work. I guess they've stayed quiet to help me focus and figure out life, but I know they're still there. I actually really miss them. But likewise I'm sorry I couldn't put out enough examples at the moment, but i really felt spontaneous in sharing this idea. Hoping there are others who share the same kind of thoughts.",5.954810961684848,6.50587577264654,6.214156812991629,79.16057548845474,66.58436944937833,9.41829992387719,30.11768586653134,9.3871,2.516591819335195,2312,79,441,42,35,741,254,563,0.15,0.747,0.10300000000000001,-0.9868,3,1,1,0,0,1,66.0,0,0,8,7,24,30,2,1,22,0,28,5,2,6,9,110,59,41,2,11,20,0,9,2,3,4,3,5,0,1,41,22,0,2,24,0,0,9,9,13,0,1,23,18,63,16,78,29,21,76,0,5,2,0,27,25,0,16,42,301,104,4,0.0,0.0,0.1400724630490714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04791088524697165,0.04955405493488384,0.0,0.03826245094544691,0.0,0.15552345258172007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042593108466413857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039949434474349885,0.0,0.0,0.04071344541861192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0534119903771596,0.0,0.05472310919003128,0.0,0.04915105008872085,0.1012295059821121,0.041215116157520985,0.050165649577414234,0.05170455816886755,0.053663388327633656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061713459133307336,0.0,0.04120971341935002,0.0,0.0,0.04998891528190063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04943773650851735,0.0,0.0,0.12983841346726138,0.0,0.045718929720496994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048384778283114126,0.0,0.2296984485354253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07393144439586473,0.0,0.049995149245833724,0.0,0.02719200006880652,0.04013097786954421,0.0,0.0,0.10541558711035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08572128553447758,0.04723804661195263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09621055114738274,0.0,0.0,0.047521901162137226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27006170632734144,0.05168192017355705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04982427494824397,0.052589850919528336,0.039000898377485334,0.0,0.0,0.05198484892866974,0.0,0.10138519270112578,0.046750304529461266,0.0,0.0,0.12702668626522326,0.0,0.16058239886577144,0.0,0.0813539632657584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04821754226462708,0.0,0.6280410299311658,0.0,0.038190242712686326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03690180606060161,0.04620999155526564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054473019487018284,0.0,0.0,0.03242170653281032,0.1455562399054199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10362517055061997,0.04567444718734616,0.06634082225295625,0.041777305749351464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04578218661819259,0.05592944579456805,0.04809847284924068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12260556166435894,0.049193685066042735,0.0,0.0,0.05420022218850961,0.0,0.0,0.15219632602677516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03957872841657194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04053978387689287,0.03683420955340744,0.0,0.05355971063026199,0.0,0.05099749925177337,0.03820989940666891,0.04000142143509957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05233578841519638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03845682456938382,0.041819536977736285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12714709875517574,0.0,0.0,0.18992200710782997,0.13949701715985124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032484312010720946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04132360573656723,0.10539127942095136,0.0,0.028220826696822486,0.03797794961992905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04435374688769431,0.0,0.0,0.05502057040904601,0.09224372633746387,0.0,0.06966495579968579,0.0,0.04875918967394673,0.10196533560579256,0.0,0.0,0.09243381914571554 schizophrenia,Dextromethorman,2019/07/22,"Hearing voices or just my my thoughts? I am starting to wonder if these are what people mean when they hear voices in their head. So when I'm trying to sleep. I start having full blown conversations with people in my head (example: a friend, explaining to a psychiatrist what I'm experienceing). It gets to the point where I try to stop it dozens of times, but it just comes right back up. It can turn into an argument too. Sometimes I get super dissociated and forget I'm lying in my bed. This has been going on ever since I can remember. It's weird. I did this in the psyche ward too. Talked to the girl I liked the whole time, comforting myself. I can tell the difference between my internal diologue and foreign voices. I don't hear them like they are coming from my environment. They come from different angles into my head with no clear source. Really odd.",3.5380000000000003,5.8128274060606095,4.9339393939394025,79.28090909090913,74.93939393939394,8.036363636363637,23.12121212121212,8.841846274778883,1.798321212121213,682,20,126,15,15,227,109,165,0.128,0.769,0.102,-0.3827,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,5,1,10,6,0,0,8,0,11,4,4,0,2,23,30,8,0,1,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,1,1,10,9,0,1,5,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,3,6,22,5,20,27,2,25,0,0,0,0,14,12,0,3,11,90,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010260306821702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3395265249043193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27453621020230085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188441669883808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285185648376506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10150679628055298,0.0,0.13728522338450466,0.0,0.07466844003928358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40451304235547103,0.0,0.4442372664644907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12837497432124487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14311547230108526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18216996528453772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12420015593193096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08416782515494163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14883223118409636,0.11220104546545087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10868203523557876,0.0,0.13147868162287804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299419355144122,0.0,0.18598825664483012,0.0,0.0,0.1098427379506821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056013199541859,0.11483523026593452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10430405975277576,0.15322189813331272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17840194891529032,0.1429078442158418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14668531827494574,0.0,0.0,0.14248012427317952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,steakandwater,2018/11/18,"Lucid dreaming for schizophrenic people? Can one of you try lucid dreaming to see how it effects your schizophrenia? When people lucid dream it means that they understand that they are asleep, and with training they become somewhat of a God of their dream world. When I lucid dream I can fly and create tools from nothing, and erase people who I don’t want to be in my dream. When I started getting into lucid dreaming it was a lot like how I’d imagine schizophrenia. I knew it wasn’t real but my dreams still could hurt me and scare me and I was powerless to stop them, I just knew they were fake. Sometimes I’d be chased by monsters and think “you can’t hurt me, you’re all in my head” and then I feel sharp pains shooting through me as they bite me. I’d try to do lucid dreaming stuff I read about like making weapons to fight off those monsters, but none of it worked. I couldn’t do anything god-like in my dreams. I was just a prisoner of my own mind until I woke up. I dreaded lucid dreaming and I couldn’t do anything about it because it’s not like I can control when I know that I’m dreaming, it’s just whenever I’d go to sleep I’d eventually realize I’m asleep and things would turn into nightmares. Sometimes I’d try to get up and move in my dream and I’d simply be bound down by some force not allowing me to move, one time this happened so that I couldn’t move and then maggots grew out of my skin very painfully. With time I learned to control my dreams and now I can do anything with them. Even if I start losing control of the dream I can simply fly away from the problem or erase it totally. Sometimes monsters will chase after me and I’ll just smack them with a giant rock and kill them. I don’t have schizophrenia nor do I have a PHD in mental health or anything that would make me an expert on schizophrenia, but I figured maybe if you learn how to control your dream world (which can be a lot like how you guys seem to describe schizophrenia) you’ll be able to get limited control your schizophrenia induced hallucinations. Maybe you can turn the scary demon trying to kill you into a friendly demon to have conversations with when you’re bored. I’m sorry if this isn’t how schizophrenia works but I just figured maybe if you could control one form of sensory illusions (dreams) you could control your hallucinations which are effectively like having nightmares whilst awake. If anyone with schizophrenia is a competent lucid dreamer, or if anyone knows an article about lucid dreams and schizophrenia could you please educate me on if being a good lucid dreamer can help with schizophrenia",5.275283178360106,6.453107331360947,5.047988729219501,84.67164497041422,68.38856015779092,7.293299520991829,29.87032967032967,7.33818517376401,1.7134611327134401,2095,78,396,19,35,644,204,507,0.14800000000000002,0.7290000000000001,0.12300000000000001,-0.9792,1,0,0,1,1,0,32.0,0,14,10,14,22,21,4,2,14,0,46,9,5,18,2,103,72,46,2,18,21,0,3,5,1,4,4,0,0,1,22,27,0,10,18,20,0,5,12,14,0,3,8,4,66,7,57,47,9,41,2,3,1,0,30,19,0,15,22,270,88,6,0.07081812548255934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990353598816771,0.0,0.2331091327071856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06653596008100139,0.0,0.0,0.04317007198409194,0.07821305569794237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5559998466128842,0.22617004269802665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046774703979582034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035807772090568166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05471390807586958,0.0,0.1109986429628959,0.0,0.04024757271608065,0.059398883711564925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0701210782375614,0.06262423448377619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07267982777480222,0.07527635578311652,0.0,0.0,0.0474678967289421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516245360487787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566995265364779,0.0,0.07783957942246568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17299079474544432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07922736784003535,0.0,0.12041407561027845,0.0,0.0,0.09454329734272998,0.0,0.21343897695075856,0.07714169969539679,0.0,0.0,0.07136801388554301,0.0,0.07150611875912499,0.0,0.0,0.2258053796879144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.067951901375922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439645838434256,0.0,0.1507109571250798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472891141280967,0.0,0.0,0.07773703549589672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06776338189005289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07083728987306849,0.08060653085991666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07090129792991996,0.0,0.056432877155984724,0.06447016169654024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07086926948583902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101228107510928,0.07927509351239569,0.10025086743089397,0.0,0.05655544648987387,0.059207123929167424,0.0,0.0,0.08106981058945384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047048415800958664,0.04537739529864685,0.0,0.0,0.08258923694631902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923234343152496,0.1540595691767342,0.0,0.07372416616267996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05843237019719748,0.04177036524397616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10311287758221388,0.0,0.0,0.10061432894305483,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,maggotattack,2018/11/18,"psych ward treatment among peers i have been hospitalized in youth wards for psychosis many times. being there felt weird. i felt like i didnt belong, couldnt relate to group discussion,i was always ""that kid"". isolation. i told a girl i met once that i'd seen her in a dream, that we were destined to meet. lo and behold it was years ago and never got an email back. anyways. if you have been on a non specialized ward.. how were you treated,interacted with? ",1.6671399387129746,4.326008134831461,2.4148927477017392,92.15980592441272,85.62921348314606,5.483554647599592,19.32686414708887,6.980632752743323,0.3400471910112364,360,10,73,5,11,112,68,89,0.054000000000000006,0.89,0.055999999999999994,0.0258,0,1,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,2,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,0,11,0,0,1,1,10,17,4,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,13,3,9,2,8,2,0,10,0,0,1,0,11,4,0,1,7,44,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26654567776489063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502001721872377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312139018239741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5774237348576516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24049118818681745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14690312243756207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.304854907104055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319125228573221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32022760196010314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17533616174495084,0.0,0.0,0.2873244826121718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19363605275593976 schizophrenia,S_Lachlan,2018/11/18,Fire Alarm paranoia Son thinks the new fire alarms are secret cameras from the government. I explain ours were old and needed replacing and that I couldn’t afford the ones with cameras. What could I have done better? Feel like terrible mum. ,5.304302325581396,8.111331465116287,4.24436046511628,83.77956395348839,71.55813953488372,7.090697674418602,27.02906976744186,8.07648339933343,1.9503069767441863,195,7,32,3,4,57,35,43,0.28300000000000003,0.61,0.106,-0.7906,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,2,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,10,10,2,0,3,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,3,4,2,2,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,20,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360829397010083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034025277314274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38887635332973053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921416016923983,0.2714751616392921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856509156523912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817683877467333,0.0,0.36701053954067975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.398750609502688,0.0,0.2575007613495309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434914239081543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gulbil,2018/11/18,"just admitted to myself that I need help. I have lived for a long time in denial about my schizophrenia. I have just come out of a pretty substantial psychosis. I believed the psychosis was my new and better life finally recovering from my depression. I had let my mind get carried away by crazy people in an online forum. I have hurt so many people and embarrassed most of the people close to me by acting insane in various ways. I am so ashamed. Imagine a 24yo man unable to function properly in anything social basically. Too spooked to sleep, always tense, mind is usually filled with chaotic half-thoughts, never had a healthy relationship. I fear there is no use in asking for help as it’s genetic. Hopefully there’s something that can help with the symptoms. I can’t keep living like this, like a manifestation of suffering, walking around in the world causing pain everywhere around me, I have had it. I can’t bring myself to talk to anyone about this yet. Haven’t been to a doctor either, but I go will tomorrow. (Sorry if this seems rude or demoralizing, I just felt like I had to share this honestly with somebody you all seem like very kind and beautiful people, thanks so much if you read this)",6.2288,7.392472946666674,6.465333333333337,75.42600000000003,66.2,9.555555555555557,31.88888888888889,9.725611199111238,3.1018888888888885,963,38,168,20,15,309,142,225,0.122,0.6890000000000001,0.19,0.9616,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,0,1,14,18,1,3,11,0,19,5,1,2,2,34,33,11,0,4,8,0,1,4,0,1,4,0,0,1,9,11,0,1,5,1,0,6,5,8,0,0,7,1,24,10,32,24,5,27,0,3,0,0,12,12,0,7,12,119,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012976857830841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08512365153184301,0.0,0.1001818976836366,0.21674936295374464,0.11381075100430665,0.0,0.1143790235535794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371596343328851,0.0,0.10766940623764132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250608276646263,0.0,0.1048684927310661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10485474590559447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12460636026689725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369916884178331,0.0,0.0,0.11688978377987068,0.13336055299573008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06360428447219776,0.0,0.06918782057195354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24479987985694496,0.0,0.0,0.12091559144322887,0.0,0.0,0.13032551389437164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820837629715058,0.0,0.12677379326728155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448770954195193,0.08598877737948242,0.2379046538161119,0.0,0.21499783857505447,0.10773633856684824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342556089908654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458460066351509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08949313144998904,0.0902688932446792,0.09389362790679016,0.11757754472885795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12954026735171562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33759759451448523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238536561385502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12177324918735115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13070352703024465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22165560199971396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182822392398775,0.12409890935231488,0.0,0.09372163412188256,0.0,0.13627830389803924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12653478993882206,0.0,0.09785024534204498,0.0,0.11208211608731727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966482032744314,0.07098775058220366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10514453559330443,0.13407974610132173,0.10044850091499773,0.0,0.09663178719275688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Johnnycashjch,2018/11/18,Organisms well I sleep I use to get organisms in my sleep and wake up to wet shorts anyone else?,-0.19866666666666788,2.1045378000000032,1.7600000000000016,94.31833333333331,96.0,6.666666666666668,16.666666666666668,7.793537801064563,0.6921666666666675,76,2,17,2,3,25,16,20,0.0,0.89,0.11,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461427810935813,0.3606893315129009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940701827510806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839175738789537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7045547814904146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040349884197298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31651110056225285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Maleficent_Host,2018/11/18,Are these voices commanding? Do these voices make commands? It's called commanding messages. I read some people hear things and have voice commands. They command you do this and that and sometimes they'd tell you supportive stuff yet they annoy you by commanding you with the power of suggestion over and over never understanding the answer that was sent back when someone needs evidence. So therefore it has to be a commanding message. What do you usually do when you are commanded? I usually tell them to sod off. I don't like it when someone tries to dictate someone's lives. So what do YOU do? What voices do you get? I ought to post mine but I ain't interested in triggering it. Maybe I will later. NO fear anyways. It's all about willpower. I found their weakness and I can use my willpower to do everything.,2.6044078947368448,5.56628220394737,3.3661052631578947,84.46573684210529,85.51315789473685,6.72421052631579,26.67894736842105,7.908726449838941,2.1999963157894737,653,29,114,14,20,206,92,152,0.128,0.862,0.011000000000000001,-0.9562,3,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,8,5,1,9,6,1,1,3,0,20,1,0,4,2,19,29,11,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,5,0,0,15,6,0,0,3,1,0,1,4,3,0,0,3,5,23,3,13,22,2,15,0,0,0,0,21,4,0,1,10,91,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335576933692091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17735797819235552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15610231283639328,0.0,0.0,0.19545071617954293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904432672576921,0.0,0.0,0.09074640290775583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19576243276777347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08485667179490043,0.0,0.15337237613416385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11594012220166115,0.0,0.17449600176704205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12878971007054565,0.13396124269309104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041550182791515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16634800980646788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737380496587809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4415035798848948,0.0,0.17178488615309218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19883469290336886,0.0,0.19710254111688646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036272605837816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539261334589287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11792481912239873,0.0,0.0,0.18081850484081854,0.0,0.1500132965833392,0.3825922974355165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lolatlogicless,2018/11/18,Need tips on how to lose stalkers. Specifically shape shifting ones...z anyone got any advice no i don't take medications since i learned about the shifters since the pharmacist could be be having one impersonate him at any time and give me poison.,5.2330000000000005,7.832550022222223,5.055277777777778,78.85625000000002,71.0,8.055555555555555,29.027777777777786,8.841846274778883,2.4884444444444447,201,8,35,4,4,62,40,45,0.18100000000000002,0.8190000000000001,0.0,-0.8126,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,2,0,5,2,0,1,0,5,9,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,4,0,4,5,0,4,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,19,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774041402060569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38609611581596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19849541762099174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.226654990360712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723234551555689,0.0,0.0,0.2270446786631469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175889800412453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859791206097515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104933392816752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923643583919569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4696567523439013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134423458377207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16553264509004598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BeautifulJob9,2018/11/18,"Do you hear voices internally or externally? I don't hear voices (visual hallucinations and delusions are my thing), but I was talking with two of my schizophrenic friends and one mentioned that he hears voices as if another person was there talking to him, while the other said that he heard voices like a jabbering internal monologue that he could not control. Folks who hear voices: are they inside or outside your head?",9.651486486486489,9.853787527027027,8.846621621621622,64.58722972972974,58.864864864864856,11.183783783783785,38.770270270270274,10.686352973137794,4.4240108108108105,343,15,51,7,4,108,56,74,0.0,0.898,0.102,0.8299,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,1,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,7,2,1,1,0,10,13,8,0,2,5,0,0,1,1,0,1,11,0,1,6,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,4,11,8,2,4,8,0,1,0,0,0,0,19,0,0,3,2,38,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18738318118709496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20042794046978635,0.14267790400958302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13806365566921616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18339839117476076,0.0,0.8056343448908249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730409637915264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12109216487063995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15603448851565105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16998521158037258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872655784756095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11872075140233762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17456453945261546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jruv,2019/07/18,"i just hurt myself because of a delusion for the first time well it was not me who hurt me during the delusion of course, but at the time i KNEW it was hurting me. trying to kill. the thing. fear maybe. im being medicated for acute schizophrenia (manic depression) but 3-4 months ago the doctor has reduced my drugs which made me unhappy/worried/scared. 2 weeks ago or so the delusions started again. i cant talk to my parents as much because i just hear them saying how worthless i am when i dont pay full attention. also i know that i hurt myself because my mom pointed out that i have a rash on my arm, potentially caused by fingernails.",3.0714674302075906,5.017028086614175,4.150522548317824,85.86911954187546,75.22047244094489,6.507945597709378,27.29348604151754,7.348242739294969,1.488785826771653,505,20,98,6,11,164,89,127,0.23199999999999998,0.746,0.023,-0.9846,1,0,1,0,0,4,15.0,0,0,1,1,8,9,1,1,8,0,8,5,2,3,0,13,13,8,1,0,6,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,3,8,1,1,4,2,20,1,11,8,2,15,0,6,0,0,7,5,0,1,10,69,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505520943023609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11301751690081613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25845114581973266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14517966039381186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12172297821406015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446520817451298,0.0,0.0,0.16563179684673196,0.0,0.1638920821941177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590298670868414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12021093606580455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592834975086892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6051651568650418,0.0,0.15265520483801276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15635512567474275,0.0,0.07766850029528044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13372509122712828,0.0,0.0,0.1419799144798551,0.0,0.0,0.14237002584548245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16551808135556575,0.11280423220616775,0.0,0.10389010431252046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569246398552887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359776444741733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11238727802289426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100030531824935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113591646988815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938900215967658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16481543764099066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959503688594708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11336235576215585,0.0,0.12706810861624707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,potatopancakes34,2019/07/18,How long before your meds started working? Just started rispiridone 3 days and it's left me feeling blunt but not taken away hallucinations/delusions yet. I tried abilify previously for 4 weeks to no avail. How long did it take for your meds to work if you take them? Is there a gradual process in the decrease of hallucinations? Because it feels like to me the volume of mine may have gone down.,4.095984555984554,6.6678670540540566,4.478803088803087,81.78067567567571,74.4054054054054,6.93127413127413,29.49034749034749,7.957251820313856,2.090786100386101,318,14,58,5,7,100,59,74,0.038,0.892,0.069,0.3049,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,1,2,5,1,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,2,0,10,12,5,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,2,8,1,10,8,0,12,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,8,38,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054928150163803,0.0,0.0,0.13332849793812301,0.0,0.18611295780097867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14105505315670286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211808434836696,0.15625222416010426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23763780970816256,0.0,0.0,0.10685459514189123,0.0,0.0,0.3871171969096014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4858929114121462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096195340253412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3288975192630317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484952041833667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17544243305894502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184587019261907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwaway168753,2019/07/18,"I have always been paranoid, but now it’s getting so severe to where I don’t want to leave my house. My therapist told me I wasn’t schizophrenic because at the time I was aware of the delusions. I started getting paranoid at a very young age. It started off with being so afraid of staying in the car while my parents were at the gas station. I would have full blown panic attacks, thinking somebody was watching me and was going to get me. It then escalated to general feelings of people watching me, having cameras on me, and other things I want to mention but I’m too scared to, especially on the internet. I don’t even want to say them out loud, I want to write down on paper the issues, so that way nobody can hear me if they’re listening. I’m starting to not trust people more and more. I deleted all of my social media profiles in fear someone was keeping an eye on me. I’m really fucking afraid to leave my house, even for therapy and doctors appointments. I have a bad fear of driving too, for the same paranoid reasons. I’m starting college, or I’m supposed to next month. I have to take the city bus since I can’t drive. I have a guitar class and I’m afraid to bring my guitar because I feel like everyone will stare and i get tense being on the spot and noticed, it’s like carrying a big backpack around, it’s noticeable and annoying and I want to be noticed as little as possible. I feel like a higher power is keeping an eye on me, and they’re deciding when to kill me, based on certain goals I do/don’t have in life. I feel bad, I’m always aware that I’m being paranoid, but in certain moments it’s hard to get out of my head and I don’t know what’s real. I’ve been to therapy before and I’ve also been on 9 medications since 2014. I had really bad depression. But the depression is cured. It’s mainly very severe anxiety I deal with.",2.5224395145084806,4.380103745358095,4.2649240414757665,84.8330278916486,76.53315649867373,6.90391447632827,27.60461377702757,7.793537801064563,1.7735418213969942,1460,61,287,22,33,492,179,377,0.21899999999999997,0.725,0.055999999999999994,-0.9971,2,0,0,0,0,1,37.0,0,0,1,2,12,22,4,7,17,0,30,8,3,1,3,47,67,27,1,7,7,1,5,3,0,2,4,4,0,0,12,17,0,2,8,2,0,5,6,16,0,0,11,14,40,6,49,50,6,45,0,2,5,1,10,24,1,2,17,186,52,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07005732833579666,0.1457880097207012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06701724225860584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07798662424757281,0.0,0.09966282455102292,0.0,0.0,0.21943842424960747,0.10680584318827907,0.0,0.07454502110802813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903164460893777,0.15090734400468594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08966697077735811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11572396034600906,0.0,0.0,0.0837099033503291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19715895233264494,0.1771819742267824,0.12516941846302834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08098899639641538,0.22884881256733225,0.0,0.04978768557308196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847647102661744,0.0,0.08990754394765853,0.0,0.09873669665945124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021677812758774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09143639158722876,0.0,0.15573390145606525,0.09692145675075524,0.0,0.048145170551841136,0.0,0.0,0.18552114228191166,0.0,0.0,0.06187768563299512,0.1283974766366353,0.08780277533483168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825236936134451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06992511736273932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09316843457422726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992150882141861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278506595303817,0.0972744873519621,0.0,0.0,0.12146793140012205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987609692046472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971315890031318,0.11224343811065857,0.09007206965474432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06966665569308317,0.08770743897924235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979364155307704,0.0,0.14493478087676218,0.0,0.0,0.0893018081465635,0.07422705235937535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24802781033718574,0.0933747959449831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06586772034986127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003668793396752,0.10171563663225834,0.05820057147629795,0.056133459406157285,0.0,0.0,0.051082918587550034,0.0,0.0,0.0837099033503291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144565859670123,0.2583571717119932,0.06953641547524332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062231760023157875,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizothrowaway1986,2019/07/18,"Latuda & Alcohol I'm an avid beer and wine drinker who was just prescribed Latuda. Does anyone have experience with Latuda and alcohol? What's the right approach to having a social life that involves alcohol while on medication? Do you skip your meds on the days you drink, take it at night, etcc?",4.708363636363637,7.273881290909093,5.005454545454548,78.76818181818184,72.45454545454545,8.036363636363637,27.363636363636363,8.841846274778883,2.4080181818181816,241,9,41,5,5,76,47,55,0.0,0.9490000000000001,0.051,0.4098,0,0,7,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,4,8,0,0,0,4,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,3,6,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,5,5,0,8,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,3,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6995908046529894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23642720638290246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525754163863586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14072547095216914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19095442671012725,0.0,0.0,0.21375979952525812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21344832842110084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15412606575412932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24237879913040755,0.21982060809157486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20477249905418116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18634759602205211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22243456932107086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16406451685878815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Nocturos,2019/07/18,"Maybe a delusion: not really having a sense of self? I’m not necessarily talking about dissociation. More so, the way my therapist put it, I don’t really have a “Freudian Ego”. I don’t really have a clear idea of the person that I am in my head. I know a few things about myself, of course. I wear a lot of black. I like dragons. I make wine. I write. But what else? What am I capable of? What kind of person am I? I can’t really answer that without thinking of the information I’ve gathered from others. Am I beautiful? Ugly? Fat? Average? Creative? Logical? Am i a monster? Am I a bad person? A lot of the picture I have in my head of myself is built entirely on what people tell me I am. I’m quite sure I could be forced to change by trying to adapt to whatever people told me I was, if enough people made that observation. On top of that, I am asexual. On top of that, I feel I don’t quite adhere to certain societal norms. I don’t understand people sometimes. A lot of times. I don’t feel like a person much of the time. I feel like something wearing a person’s skin. I know that’s not the case, but in the worst moments of my illness, I think I believe that. I have brown hair. I have hazel eyes. I am short. I am genetically female. I don’t know why I’m making this post. Does this sound like a delusion coming on? I can’t tell anymore.",-0.25467596628886824,2.0034863978494606,2.745792889663857,88.80715780296428,91.831541218638,5.740230553133777,19.726920468855948,7.2228458231874715,0.6938787368013171,1031,34,221,19,37,364,132,279,0.064,0.8370000000000001,0.098,0.3133,0,0,2,0,0,0,46.0,0,0,0,4,3,9,0,0,20,0,28,10,8,3,3,32,45,4,0,2,7,0,5,4,0,0,2,1,0,7,16,1,2,0,13,1,0,2,12,2,0,0,3,9,41,7,30,40,8,17,0,0,3,0,14,10,0,4,7,150,57,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10294529865091832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866716872203777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169511336623538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10981046659857316,0.08941762764250809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08287874437552155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09083924780198964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671460512108793,0.0,0.0,0.10725688841229564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15745868839297136,0.14831465442320185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130649239146939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171816525014062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10809549699806044,0.17114326534923344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028528225718175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647503782375878,0.0,0.09822149556438026,0.13857944543696918,0.0,0.104284688926689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07630760485018938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28785744138344105,0.453186587552664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099415174448529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043513093343997,0.0,0.2208158556406105,0.0,0.0,0.2659970292914885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082898148886934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799130984312821,0.10266443490606962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09783368383667546,0.0,0.0,0.08343341813027783,0.1814578792579698,0.0,0.0,0.12052400404021482,0.06896251298227167,0.13302633719373155,0.0,0.0,0.12105745173656593,0.0,0.0,0.09918880777472704,0.0,0.07047584445707429,0.0,0.0,0.1080632297506046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239448227591757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09366662186254908,0.0,0.0,0.1000629859015406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,similanjiaoo,2019/07/18,help i keep seing a man even at late hours and whenever i try going out. i hear voices telling me i should not go,-0.6841333333333317,1.3457979200000023,1.8200000000000005,96.85666666666668,89.8,4.933333333333334,16.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,-0.4168666666666661,88,2,21,1,3,30,22,25,0.0,0.8759999999999999,0.124,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,2,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23794639834802056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4094847922168303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4060359027577592,0.0,0.24147272142519466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35478064759553457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32021303834884035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4063856688367687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31488055984482066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445909039489161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sel-Sur-Les-Plaies,2019/07/18,"Problem with diagnose After years of being diagnosed with schizophrenia, my psychiatrist just diagnosed me with a severe depression and that I have no signs of schizophrenia. Does it happen a lot ? Are there a lot of similarities that could have lead him to a wrong diagnostic ? I go to a public mental facility and it's not easy to change psychiatrist. I don't really care about the name of my disorder, I'm just really scared of changing my medication. I can't really afford a private psychiatrist but I might do it if it means I have to go back to where I was before. Did it ever happen to you ? Did it deteriorate your mental health to switch medication ? And sorry, English is not my first language",4.7308049965301855,6.9397775419847365,6.61943095072866,68.81597501734906,71.29007633587787,9.954476058292851,27.93962526023595,10.230975488527342,3.3350549618320606,562,21,95,17,11,195,78,131,0.159,0.841,0.0,-0.9278,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,2,7,5,0,1,7,0,14,6,0,1,1,22,21,5,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,8,6,0,0,1,0,0,3,5,4,0,1,3,0,15,1,17,15,2,9,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,4,5,78,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10904045444238702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12066689706704978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14458118977059795,0.0,0.30002497339387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11322096083555985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221377408914184,0.4317918736647569,0.0,0.0,0.1625225481549021,0.0,0.12409583416370455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827210857178653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12062054656352594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611838172678904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25079806026517243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15073369095735267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24111765070362126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15446886344116592,0.0,0.2857102838354889,0.2858152214556665,0.15043429960778815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13568968048173255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725346480214219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14197305673823207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16020099480594308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15874078017991386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15504315958197246,0.0,0.091318744341818 schizophrenia,SuperPheotus,2019/07/18,Any one else watch Leigon on fx? Just finished season two. Pretty hard to stomach to be honest. This whole show feels so relatable. It's honestly making me a little queezy.,1.934687499999999,4.749295593750006,2.7622500000000016,86.65775000000002,93.0625,5.0600000000000005,18.9,6.742157984588678,0.6753925000000005,137,4,23,2,5,43,31,32,0.038,0.7,0.263,0.8542,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,2,3,2,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25060523268932083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3078499387156087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18633403797944587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3301202122073717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693523733514929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24598897570623424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24971768852980264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3749158227075161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3599890491506604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41143777039190427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheNewFlisker,2018/11/25,Emotional empathy Do you have it?,1.2650000000000006,0.7960988333333319,5.246666666666666,62.79000000000002,144.0,14.533333333333335,36.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,8.219933333333335,27,2,4,2,2,10,6,6,0.0,0.758,0.242,0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Swagfag9000,2018/11/25,Zoning out ? Does anyone else zone out sometimes when your anxiety is so bad. You can't even concentrate and the noises around you become muffled.,4.279487179487177,7.470756692307699,4.128461538461536,80.89987179487181,78.23076923076924,6.5435897435897425,24.051282051282055,7.793537801064563,1.7940666666666667,118,4,18,2,3,36,24,26,0.193,0.807,0.0,-0.6697,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754814390394354,0.0,0.0,0.2517957080183405,0.36897294001250375,0.0,0.32057224006095675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006749251163311,0.0,0.3977107117956746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151327141127281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300823812682687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378477691192029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3561557674423038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,August2279,2018/11/25,"Diagnosed Bi-Polar with Psychosis, but unsure if I might actually be Schizoaffective What are the stark differences between the two? I was at 900mgs seroquel and for the most part my psychosis was gone (that is hallucinations from time to time, delusions, paranoia, and hearing people say things they didn't say as in miscontruing their words) and my moods balanced out better than at 600mgs. I also have severe addiction issues. Was sober about two years (no maintenance drugs) and now back on suboxone because I can't really and have had trouble functioning without opiates I kept slipping. Most of my main issues are social with an inability to remain calm without becoming suspicious of others constantly, and when I do become suspicious to the point of throwing out accusations of unreal things, I believe my accusations and the persecuted individuals become sworn enemies. Beliefs of myself never stay the same I always feel like a different person with no clear cut identity. Since turning 18 my life flipped upside down (deemed psychotic break), lots of issues with drugs in the past and all types, couldn't hold a job and severe social isolation (not so much isolated but became fearful of people), and lost all interest in school and hobbies to a degree. I could still study and get good marks but couldn't properly plan ahead and got addicted to drugs because my problems got worse. I was living in a strange reality where I was hopelessly lost and delusional w strange beliefs about myself and others. I know you can't make a diagnosis, I'm not asking for one, but does anyone know a clear cut definitive difference between the two (Bi-Polar and more schizophrenic type symptoms)?",10.324790960451976,10.060979806779663,9.56,61.55062146892657,57.711864406779654,12.883615819209039,41.0225988700565,12.10132525352546,5.359876836158191,1373,63,203,37,15,437,181,295,0.218,0.6940000000000001,0.08800000000000001,-0.9918,2,1,3,0,0,1,33.0,0,1,2,5,9,14,2,1,15,0,20,9,0,1,5,54,35,25,0,5,9,0,1,1,0,1,9,3,0,1,6,22,0,2,5,0,0,2,12,8,0,4,13,4,23,5,38,17,10,27,2,3,0,0,10,12,0,5,12,149,29,4,0.0,0.0,0.08928662343737874,0.19948767821541288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731690935175558,0.07613176787061257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06397593418470174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08553614635574311,0.0,0.0,0.07035456030361313,0.0,0.11154988227650524,0.3031494999176593,0.0,0.10308434355163794,0.0,0.08092052823401852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09887436791060968,0.0,0.07305188663668996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09286622892915443,0.0,0.28678065780345474,0.0,0.0,0.08006852037388115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31831795860562945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295812132532828,0.04626298472190082,0.06536456001548471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04780273688959629,0.0,0.0,0.07674226820634596,0.14635496973411355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10312232514579768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286493278257171,0.09079538319782332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10056730880861617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06462613225884521,0.044700186730947146,0.0,0.08079239625537839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19975677132585148,0.07778638847133773,0.0,0.0,0.0610741029833147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09706249902947714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06725988117985758,0.0,0.07056713911151488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06199986719826789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908094760580452,0.0873430168490363,0.12686322249400284,0.07989053277439266,0.0,0.0,0.08649302859102967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08754904642362812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058614500545079724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552213641461295,0.0,0.09259855246488877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067282387515846,0.0,0.07568620434030772,0.0,0.0,0.18653672661462412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09752226268083633,0.07306859947286376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095099085242753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12157138041898498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670377920684478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09952106873696297,0.2681340681740449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17639721638367425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932419544733265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0589202433032892 schizophrenia,Neeraj1993,2018/11/25,How would you compare olanzapine and quetiapine? How did you feel on those drugs? 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The Schizophrenia doing myself like a drug - always like: ""Damn that stuff is good"". 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Hello all. I've struggled with schizoaffective for awhile now, and I was doing pretty well for some time there. I can feel a return of symptoms, especially negative. Iv'e got a visit into my NP this coming Tuesday, so I'm sure I'll survive. Its just does anyone have any advice for dealing with the negative symptoms? I have no motivation or energy to do anything, even showering and eating are chores. Is there anything that helps you with this? And related, how do you deal with the low mood? Everything feels quite dark and drab. I can't find contentedness in anything, and I my sleep is disturbed. It's early enough that my voices haven't started screaming at me to kill myself yet, and I'm glad Ive recognized a decline this early. Any advice is appreciated. Hope you all have a good Sunday. 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It's strange, usually they just waltz around my walls, but for some reason lately I feel as if they've been staring straight into my figurative soul. Like the other night, I was on a walk and saw them in the trees, just looking at me I thought, even though they don't have eyes, but then again, could they...? I have no idea, but it's creepy. 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I’m enrolled in a well known college because my medication in high school finally started working, and I was able to bring my grades and test scores back up. The serious hallucinations and psychotic episodes have subsided for the most part, but medication isn’t perfect and I’ve been having periods of paranoia, delusions or depression. I’ve had a few minor panic attacks from paranoia that involved only hyperventilating but did scare some professors. I’m also getting extremely vivid lucid nightmares and sleep paralysis which could be from the meds, though I’ve been on them for two years and they were never present until the school year started (freshman, first semester). I was thinking about getting a service dog trained to recognize symptoms of anxiety/paranoia that can respond with deep pressure therapy. They’re also trained to wake their owners up from nightmares which would be amazing. I think having a dog would also diminish suicidal ideation for the mere purpose of somebody needing to love and care for him. Any thoughts?",10.768404255319156,11.08638541489362,9.190936170212767,62.65300000000002,56.553191489361716,11.775319148936171,48.587234042553185,11.20814326018867,5.99867914893617,910,56,126,20,10,278,127,188,0.155,0.743,0.102,-0.8836,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,3,3,8,11,1,3,9,0,18,6,2,0,2,24,31,15,1,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,4,9,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,6,1,2,8,1,9,5,23,18,4,19,0,1,1,1,8,7,0,3,11,87,13,10,0.14281972748033445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426386534000314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712231218376507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16247805813417698,0.0,0.10981955469671717,0.0,0.08706158026722755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14561423060207346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11402993104605265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12301042200301532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249825059632002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13970509843284254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564520304815786,0.0,0.12148238723528088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14923482588321138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15089688343013094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289003801054491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15864052082780478,0.2877517000781053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10589901826447208,0.1101513783897512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10862083845219477,0.0,0.1675681779688387,0.0,0.15465984718035988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429874623107183,0.2890823779828937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429228701794794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20217707639936772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15622160128371426,0.0,0.0,0.14844438154903708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16332680523643273,0.0,0.0,0.18302622912311345,0.14031965711406524,0.11338291050101812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13951412123022716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12841208696456333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10397446258042824,0.0,0.0,0.20291007340772815,0.0,0.0,0.1839424439372738 schizophrenia,Justacceptthisdamnit,2018/11/25,I dont think im doing well About a week ago i lay down to go to bed but after a minute i saw a shadow over me turn into a huge demon like thing with horns and a scary face. It was like it was holding me down...and im not sure how but it was like i was being touched and i actually had an orgasm. I have felt weird since then. I am kind of scared but i am desperate to feel overpowered violently and sexually after this. I have felt that way before but after this i feel like i need it to happen so bad so I can stop thinking this way. Not sure maybe i need to just go back on meds. ,-0.5919890109890105,1.230515053846155,2.191428571428574,95.89,86.92307692307692,5.252747252747254,15.439560439560445,6.5431188927421005,-0.5972747252747257,447,8,112,5,14,156,76,130,0.231,0.647,0.122,-0.9561,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,7,12,1,1,6,0,13,2,2,1,2,25,26,11,0,2,7,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,9,5,0,2,6,0,0,2,3,4,1,0,8,6,15,8,15,17,0,17,1,0,1,1,0,5,0,0,12,74,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.15505617243393766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14084862599093467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12217853485748485,0.1326686116383135,0.0,0.0,0.13520582580881196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862208421863668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16068165779342572,0.11351284323051795,0.3051234608313228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18060455394500013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14050812473680646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34326236085421025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654621015352108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105074240574925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15962888618815724,0.0,0.1764937624933649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356335705445361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590791248094145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13143752892942331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13284125583207254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995086266884579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10556112550553952,0.20362381341381253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17282942730734002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522429623969187,0.1274539898990157,0.0,0.14286345165622194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,misty-monday,2018/11/25,My mom and me are having my boyfriend and his dad over for xmas I'm so happy rn that I could scream,-1.6236231884057981,0.2803498260869617,0.2260869565217387,107.0968115942029,94.21739130434784,3.066666666666667,12.014492753623188,3.1291,-2.014872463768116,78,1,21,0,3,25,20,23,0.102,0.7190000000000001,0.179,0.4663,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,14,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4504049526277633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6005176103706991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6606920449672811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,soul_asylum311,2018/12/27,"Memory and schizophrenia My boyfriend has been diagnosed with schizophrenia. He has always claimed to have memory problems and struggles with his short term memory. He tells me it’s affecting him with his work. Are these two things linked? I tried looking online and i feel it’s vague. How do you guys work on your memory? Any tips I could give him? 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It is very intense and could likely be triggering to some, but it got my heart racing with its similarities to hallucinations and paranoia. Good film so far. 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I feel like this sort of feeling is part of why I avoid ppl. I thought maybe it was fatigue but I’ve never felt it while hiking by myself I’ve had it in other social situations as well usually when there’s more than one person. I wonder if it’s like the beginning of that phase transition between feeling like your boundaries are permeated by foreign agency but at the low level it just manifests as dissociation and a reduction in the sense of control?",6.771951581027667,7.196067983695652,7.158636363636365,73.5318181818182,64.81521739130434,9.951778656126482,35.205533596837945,9.800150414767053,3.4256043478260882,775,34,139,15,11,253,103,184,0.049,0.795,0.156,0.9608,0,1,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,2,7,13,0,2,10,0,11,2,1,2,2,35,25,18,0,1,7,0,8,8,0,0,1,0,0,2,14,9,0,3,11,0,0,1,2,4,1,1,13,9,17,9,26,12,5,20,0,2,1,0,6,11,0,5,16,106,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12613833459059426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036605845490052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13992158313424588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825667026289771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10522974861564076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12322046374183905,0.0,0.0,0.2547719717849687,0.17998252750128368,0.4837945215488707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12472770800348973,0.11139271427304494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4923311706349318,0.1262526072297615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265513645007313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097153962734671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08535889173310943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364106128236035,0.0,0.0,0.1099900313622015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14159283685649593,0.0,0.12840808352401736,0.0,0.19395199337592894,0.0,0.0,0.08916050090997538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10000418717038384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13873549192426005,0.10393644523286667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113259981799713,0.0,0.11366614722524218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13660646622621422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Dubbons,2019/03/05,Chatroom ban The schizophrenia chatroom really gives me an outlet to people who don’t judge and understand. If you check my comment history you can see what I’m like. I really try to do my part and be part of this community and help people.,3.786063829787235,5.826049680851067,5.813776595744681,74.30875,73.46808510638297,10.657446808510642,26.643617021276608,10.686352973137794,3.4681106382978726,193,7,35,7,4,67,36,47,0.07200000000000001,0.823,0.10400000000000001,0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,8,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,3,7,2,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,1,1,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27643170886422497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19314923641808387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407816322818764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6241037701224241,0.0,0.39955116176012784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692085275523148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296281883690047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19564340872009106,0.0,0.0,0.2999873047081799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ComfortablyAnxious,2019/03/05,"[16M] believe I suffer from schizophrenia Well, this might be a stupid assumption but I believe I might suffer from schizophrenia. At home alone, I hear strange sounds and I freak out. I get nervous. I believe someone sometimes is watching me or is invading the house. From time to time I see some shadows but they are rare. I have never heard sounds in my head, but rarely I sometimes hear my parents talking even though it would be impossible for me to hear them. People from my family calling other people like ""Hey, please come here"". These happen rarely but they happen and they are getting more and more common as I get older. I remember being like this when younger. I have family history of schizophrenia, many of my grandma's relatives have/had it. 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Since 7th grade came around they’ve gotten louder and two new voices came. I don’t like actually hear it but my mind is processing what happened as if someone telepathically said these things in my brain. How do I get them to stop telling me to do bad stuff?",5.152313432835822,5.162364492537313,5.560410447761196,85.03076492537315,68.25373134328359,8.491044776119404,25.70522388059701,8.07648339933343,1.1715701492537312,259,6,57,3,4,83,52,67,0.11,0.843,0.047,-0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,5,1,1,1,0,13,14,8,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,6,6,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,4,5,8,1,6,10,0,8,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,3,34,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.2130612656035573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19436243352123786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822987234743524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437315519505621,0.0,0.499428994735608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18807432851614855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406984863924705,0.0,0.12408353125601032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19307092658153416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460768731270798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10666635147526346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22045383418858533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21086712698509646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20768443951684634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18060710400573335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18499262750337014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18253595227888186,0.0,0.0,0.2499387589695852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19083244375398295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14505057519286169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21327936823840132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,immobilisingtime,2019/03/05,"Representation Of Schizophrenia In Writing Hi all, I’m writing this story where one of the characters is schizophrenic. Before I go further with this, I’d like to say yes, I’ve done my research, but to accurately represent a schizophrenic I‘ve decided to start reading first hand accounts of people having it or people witnessing someone have it. I hope this doesn’t come across as insensitive, but if you don’t mind, could you possibly provide below even at least a small insight to your experiences or even just more resources to further my research? I disapprove of writing wrong portrayals of people with schizophrenia and further any stereotypes there might be, so I’d really like an in depth understanding to avoid this. Thank you. 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I wanna preface this with...I believe consciousness is something the brain tunes into NOT consciousness is created by the brain. Meaning that when we die the consciousness is still there & can still be tuned into...Now, I was on my way home to go kill myself because I was tired of reality beating up on me & the reason stated above, I thought what’s so bad if we never really die. So I was driving down a street I always drive down to go home at 2am & since I was bout to kill myself I pretty much didn’t give af about anything else so I pulled up to a stoplight it was red. There was no one on the road. Out of nowhere the police rode past & I decided to run the light in front of them. They didn’t do anything. Coincidence or not it was pretty cool. So I continue driving & eventually the road I’m on (2 lanes on each side) turns into a winding road (1 lane on each side). Also there’s a complete scenery change. At first there were businesses & gas stations on the street & then it turned into a familiar looking road in the woods. The businesses & gas stations turned into just trees and it seemed like I was in the middle of a forest. So eventually I pull over to see what’s actually going on and where I actually was but I had no clue. So I got out & laid on top of my car & looked up at the stars for a moment. It was really quiet and serene then I got back in my car & just sat there trying to grasp what’s actually going on. Then I start to feel like someone is patting me down & rustling through the things in my car. (No one or nothing was there) Eventually it gets silent again & I continue driving down this winding road. As The road seems to be coming to an end I see a kid pulled over standing outside his car next to a police officer. It then turns back into the previous road with gas stations & businesses and I keep driving home. I told my parents the next day that I thought I went to the future or jumped dimensions & they suggested that I get looked at by a professional. I told the psychiatrist the whole story and they diagnosed me with schiz & depression. I still don’t know what happened to this day. 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I've been playing guitar to keep me occupied while I try to reorganize and reconstruct after psychosis a few months ago. This is probably the best I've ever played. Keep your heads up, it's worth fighting. 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Upvote if you want to attend! I will update this post with the link 30 minutes before the show starts. If enough people show up, maybe we can make this a regular thing and take turns hosting and choosing movies. Hope to see you there!",6.383414634146341,9.636304597560978,4.668475609756096,79.84832317073172,70.09756097560975,7.0268292682926825,26.103658536585364,8.07648339933343,1.9580682926829265,395,13,59,6,8,113,68,82,0.0,0.9329999999999999,0.067,0.6219,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,2,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,1,1,12,12,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,1,7,9,2,13,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,3,7,34,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459262345155523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2986246007308864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870521541387913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19291642791298105,0.0,0.29034940369859874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27121631917583866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200363153297225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767917027591121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303035621513955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20456277476589455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172995620765917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19200541065079615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16852406276866372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.314359902888174,0.0,0.0,0.34764346083945485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17046559369040368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pitbullsandsecurity,2019/08/02,"Starting a 20-30k+ a year job subcontracted to wal mart as a commissioned smart phone sales man and a night shift job while riding the high. I worked for RadioShack selling smartphones before they went under. I had the top sales of the district 4 months in a row. I will sell you a damn phone. But I'm shook. I've been out of the work force several years and am scared to death. They said they need me in there asap because I will sell phones. I'm paranoid af I'll have another psychotic break. I want my own money guys. I want a career. I have the gift of gab. I can talk to anyone about anything but I'm just so scared. I've got like 10 places want to bring me on their night shift after walmart. Good deal, right? I can't ever sleep so why not. I want money. There this 87 all black vette in my town for 4800 that I must have for my pitbull and me(legal service dog) should I be this scared?????........",0.3624418331374848,2.7052963135135144,1.4518213866039955,98.98005875440658,88.56756756756758,4.298472385428909,17.232667450058756,5.7926816847441245,-0.6080763807285551,698,17,158,5,23,218,120,185,0.07400000000000001,0.82,0.107,0.5661,2,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,1,4,3,7,8,1,4,12,0,13,1,1,0,3,17,26,9,1,7,4,0,0,1,0,4,0,1,0,2,3,4,0,0,0,0,7,4,2,5,0,0,5,2,22,3,19,16,2,25,0,0,1,0,13,11,1,0,10,84,25,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585137686280298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570080727730227,0.0,0.12439912138603745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09215115620096832,0.0,0.12863359679715042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15584849447660035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136740921457316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679329821559268,0.12090357606407705,0.0,0.0,0.14968097426455476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15971823888939518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000236080446904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07385348698881679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12066157094244008,0.0,0.0,0.11208982129275707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837235377868221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15793932217191725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12909741162912916,0.1437962378903917,0.0,0.4540393110393058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17077782451735254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15127806885855113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10699812299723684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215038328221528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35665332720200793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14013508154203902,0.13640641626395114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201055141143005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946956261444318 schizophrenia,A_Gibbed_Carmine,2019/08/02,"How does an unmedicated paranoid SZ episode/state of mind compared to a bad acid trip? So I've never done acid (don't do any drugs now as I'm 5 years deep since my last hospitalisation and intend to keep it that way) but I'm sure you've all heard the hysteria about having a bad acid trip. Was curious as how it compares to being a paranoid schizophrenic? As in, I've don't a little bit of mushrooms when I was a casual drug user; just had bad experiences, dwelled on negative aspects of my being, didn't socialise, kept fixating on unpleasant thoughts. I've heard before having a ""bad trip"" is just ""seeing yourself,"" which would make sense to me for my little experience of psychedelics. I'd like to take away that the awful time I had when I was unmedicated and deep in being bat shit paranoid SZ hell, is a damn side worse than a potential, few hour bad experience on acid as opposed to your whole life breaking down from SZ. I may have answered my own question already, but as I say, I've never done acid so I can't have a first hand opinion on it and was wondering if some of the brothers on this subreddit can whet my curiosity? (Btw, if you have SZ, don't do acid or psychedelics)",8.037484591679505,6.214958750000001,8.327272727272728,73.57304314329741,63.19491525423729,11.463174114021573,37.13251155624037,10.230975488527342,3.5207169491525425,939,37,189,17,11,311,133,236,0.256,0.695,0.049,-0.9959,0,0,2,0,0,0,28.0,0,2,0,1,10,12,3,1,13,1,28,6,2,4,4,30,39,19,0,3,7,1,1,1,0,2,4,3,0,0,7,3,0,3,4,1,0,3,8,9,0,1,13,11,14,3,29,21,6,29,1,0,1,0,7,14,3,8,11,117,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13762235129132144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480816426009385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171706530639878,0.0,0.5206448822282304,0.0,0.0,0.106120385802651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361527667246221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10913596121259822,0.2552465306339605,0.0,0.0,0.2892517244100325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3659756240187295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607962289720098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12281580435154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11084939986213144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016565986964273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808749094634598,0.06092778813052613,0.2499875713918702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08324596112376208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259231642990917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923705476508483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13970553312445222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917566954628236,0.0,0.0,0.09937899840321973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280146648191351,0.1031627239099962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11753920670676392,0.0,0.09376760233710132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990070796488434,0.07272033662154821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09899026290263598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13923604722755786,0.0,0.0,0.13524440990818082,0.0,0.0,0.12709177438612068,0.08859154219387945,0.0,0.0,0.08031018130169207 schizophrenia,kevinvenkatesh,2019/08/02,"Fear of Developing Schizophrenia Hi all, Hope this is okay to post here. I’ve been researching for hours about this. I’m absolutely terrified of the thought of developing schizophrenia or psychosis. This post may seem so stupid to everyone here and I really admire you all for going through what you’re going through. Im a 25 year old male and have severe anxiety and have had it for almost a decade now. Have been a hypochondriac for 5-6 years and have convinced myself 100 percent that I had cancer, heart disease, you name it. I had an intense fear that I was a psychopath/sociopath or that I had bipolar, borderline personality, and schizophrenia. I got over all this for a few years. Then a few months ago I started had sleep troubles. Would wake up multiple times during the night and have hallucinations while waking up (seeing patterns on my wall, reflections on window was a person in my room) but I was always aware that it wasn’t real. Then one night something snapped and I asked myself again “what if I’m developing schizophrenia” and had a panic attack. Ever since then (about a month ago) I’ve been obsessing over this. Constantly researching and connecting all my symptoms. Sometimes I’m one hundred percent convinced and other times I tell myself it’s just my anxiety and ocd. I haven’t hallucinated full on. I’ve seen things move in the corner of my eyes. Every little sound I have to check to make sure it actually happened. The days where my fear has been really bad is when I have horrible nightmares. I was fine for about a week and yesterday my fear came back ten fold and I had a very vivid dream last night that a doctor put a faucet in my head and drained all the schizophrenia out of it. I have had zero delusions. Just irrational thoughts that I have questioned but rationally know isn’t true. I fine myself getting frustrated easily and I put that to my fried nerves from anxiety, although now I’m thinking what if that’s a symptom too. Basically i feel completely overwhelmed that I’m in the early stages and I’m so incredibly scared. I really don’t mean to offend anyone with this post by the way. This has always been a fear of mine but now it’s completely taken over. It’s almost like my mind is convincing me that I have it. I’m going to go to a psychiatrist to get formerly diagnosed. Also it’s worth mentioning that I went to therapy a few years ago with the same fears and he was convinced that it was just anxiety. But that was a few years ago. Any thoughts?",4.414063860667632,6.408920062893086,5.061761006289308,80.55661828737303,71.64150943396227,8.414320270924044,28.373326882760843,9.057496981413335,2.4378252862441543,1998,77,369,42,39,642,223,477,0.168,0.7440000000000001,0.087,-0.9919,0,0,1,0,0,0,43.0,0,2,0,0,20,28,4,10,27,1,41,12,6,1,8,60,73,34,0,4,11,0,1,1,0,2,6,1,2,3,36,21,0,0,10,1,2,9,4,16,0,4,29,6,41,12,44,42,13,70,0,1,4,0,12,19,0,10,38,251,77,3,0.0,0.0,0.07187296790497814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26114945613325397,0.0,0.147502118947462,0.0,0.0,0.05889885525475105,0.12256743279247083,0.0,0.0,0.050085356254068784,0.0,0.22537193153826396,0.0,0.0,0.05149864657579948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06885394995425669,0.0837888971354191,0.0,0.056633243144387474,0.061495693570928725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423737653055728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444380901962482,0.07959080540713162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04749894487868917,0.0,0.0,0.07475443951537361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07538514611395866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06662174649343132,0.062054330697182865,0.07037689843363576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4972686029343756,0.03724027058137891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07695944682342519,0.0,0.16743074597320298,0.0,0.058905610031336215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06512953196945298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07558740167625735,0.0,0.0,0.08727705213972961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731522813833852,0.07253161730646432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795559578744696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04047678521162304,0.060035575651332135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03598226657673027,0.07381787285155783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04916276228794497,0.0,0.0,0.0802277718507024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07436673815055486,0.0,0.11757540471651295,0.07827959264485948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20735004642944607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07728456753547172,0.0,0.0998159476459386,0.0,0.0,0.08641383943305057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12861881157444965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21161253346697645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14807964049982586,0.0825062239968246,0.0,0.0,0.08383121441504729,0.14154857539430266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373772131935184,0.0,0.05869048791025305,0.06704930594206969,0.0,0.08320491635158593,0.0,0.06092505154723156,0.0,0.07370441156970145,0.0,0.0,0.05670030861333189,0.07284294135826913,0.0,0.05213071368558858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06941540467347439,0.15310363945477096,0.0,0.0,0.06437441393349898,0.0,0.08422659059668734,0.0,0.04893059893314136,0.04719272885578138,0.0,0.17541252894047016,0.08589323913287157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060769971149031835,0.0,0.058460911474951034,0.05907856734485197,0.0,0.0,0.06827542024604767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0523197146240518,0.0,0.0,0.2371448596026744 schizophrenia,Discreet_Troll,2019/08/02,"Other psychiatric people? What do? Ive met a lot of people with real psychiatric issues, people I deal with frequently. Like this old woman, obese, African American, racist cunt. I was sitting there minding my own business and this lady was eating chicken wings, except, she was eating the bones and everything, it was disturbing. She was just crushing the bones in her teeth and called me a stupid fucking white boy. Remind me not to get lost with that one. Idk why I seem to make her so angry. She was Just crushing chicken bones in her jaws, It was unsettling I'm the one that gets pinned with racism when reporing racism. Some.e of the people I work with have displayed some really horrible psychiatric issues.",5.831627906976743,7.886345379844965,5.448751937984492,78.9740581395349,68.06976744186046,8.570852713178295,28.403875968992253,9.120678840339163,2.559942015503876,570,20,94,11,10,175,83,129,0.247,0.723,0.03,-0.9866,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,5,6,3,1,6,0,10,9,5,1,0,19,18,5,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,8,8,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,9,1,14,1,12,9,3,6,0,1,1,1,11,2,2,4,4,63,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18184772111724515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18360086949795493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36445689064579906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16005397749653044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16463945163911242,0.1860872201696537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3717551282422559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08700478289598455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944040483076555,0.1514040172124367,0.0,0.0,0.11887509782932187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17981807493071816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18687335900018776,0.0,0.24135402465469175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4938550792645348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20270308971599826,0.11408770896588985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16212459252327413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16069668632520318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965015770090574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anarchistcandy,2019/08/02,"Huge Shift I've been about two and a half months on Latuda and two weeks no longer using my medical marijuana (just a temporary detox really) and I feel so much better. Sometimes I think if I dwell on my thoughts too long, I start having delusional thinking, but overall my anxiety alone and my daily life has improved so much. I sleep earlier and I feel more motivated to get out of bed. I just felt like sharing this with folks :). I was so worried nothing would get better especially with comorbid issues like anxiety and depression, but maybe all the therapy and meds have finally caught up to me.",4.893829365079366,6.9160108035714325,5.804404761904768,75.61281746031749,70.42857142857143,9.977777777777778,31.19444444444445,10.25414643259724,3.6038361111111112,478,21,84,14,9,157,80,112,0.129,0.659,0.212,0.9,0,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,7,7,0,1,3,0,6,4,1,2,1,25,17,13,0,2,5,0,3,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,10,0,0,7,0,0,1,1,2,0,3,5,3,13,5,10,11,4,11,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,1,7,57,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749705984272554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584768439189368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29882690388703553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455075316737301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17084199511202716,0.0,0.16220862268836533,0.18506520350088426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17652805998415874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17632917380875965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11932711905473027,0.16507082560498926,0.0,0.0,0.14950633432025676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16972265390089414,0.0,0.18765394210681602,0.1701889926540462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13484607123073006,0.0,0.2483802625541586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16210221587307386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10822710938142192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690617243718686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670857010058586,0.0,0.11957640201885507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19319729092163285,0.0,0.0,0.21649949977898614,0.0,0.13411926544388394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33005911341954874,0.0,0.0,0.1459096744837574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13551325159545938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715664842879066,0.0,0.12000992864072188,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,username12345698,2019/08/02,"brother (25M) delusions and next steps-advice please my brother has always been odd and had a few weird ticks and obsessive type things- we always thought he was autistic or ADHD or something. Over the past year he has been revealing past ""memories"" of childhood sexual assault and a recent rape that he has been telling me and my parents, but nothing crazy enough that it could not be true. however last week he lost his job for accusing someone of reading his journal, and his roommates actually called my parents saying he isn't okay. they had a mini intervention just saying why dont you come live at home and relax for a while. he was willing. yesterday i went over to my parents not knowing any of this. they wanted to keep it under wraps and just told me he's between places. as soon as i was alone with him he began (for the first time ever) talking about memories and delusions that ARENT POSSIBLE AT ALL including that our childhood school was a pedophile ring and more obscure things that just did not make sense- and was adamant. my mom and i talked about it and she said they want to let him relax there before moving forward because he has to be willing- but i know him and he wont ever be willing to take the pills and go to a hospital for 2 weeks, it wont go smoothly and i just don't want him to get worse- he is clearly suffering something. he's been doing all this meditation and going to a gnostic church every Tuesday and apparently meditation is how these things were revealed to him and he's still doing that. he does know that something is wrong and is being nice and is there willingly but i can't help feeling like immediate action is required. should they give him a month or whatever to relax at home and then move forward or not?",6.170179271708683,6.721246964705888,6.272521008403362,78.9287254901961,66.11764705882354,8.829131652661065,33.8375350140056,8.704169506293173,2.7777535014005608,1408,60,258,20,21,448,185,340,0.11699999999999999,0.81,0.073,-0.9161,7,1,3,0,0,0,26.0,2,1,4,3,13,14,2,1,11,1,43,2,0,2,6,63,65,34,0,5,15,6,2,1,0,7,1,4,2,0,17,25,0,2,7,4,0,10,11,7,0,1,19,6,30,7,29,33,5,39,1,2,0,1,47,9,0,5,25,182,47,5,0.0,0.0,0.0990350746467033,0.0,0.121965684482702,0.0991703219741861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10510822946985207,0.0,0.0,0.16888790333390966,0.0,0.0,0.06901352678083678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06186453520572839,0.0,0.08635656898695712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036279021557686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08742065391830843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08102780425134075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881052487822917,0.0,0.11894008937023295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10486150851298656,0.0,0.0,0.18359864158646286,0.08550579518118183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051314048722271285,0.07250116345728495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632339774817978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05302191340563108,0.09735400743781307,0.1730294112196481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06802349946072918,0.0,0.20359618698481308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10070856312400436,0.09020485342146027,0.0,0.0,0.16732110395905947,0.08272411574749608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10377565929986876,0.0,0.04958062203713783,0.0,0.08961343464454266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078326180245196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06774226771130082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11885843034739085,0.0810046483547934,0.21572575968051064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10793083465703887,0.0,0.0,0.09737794267556478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380624561970618,0.0,0.19375852418877226,0.0,0.0,0.10603060406062254,0.1114004528645916,0.0,0.11440949809351343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015128261737832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10020455247301477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09653581993068856,0.16141046763490458,0.0,0.10270860519178077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08598821856233335,0.2343851712135921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08104634182073593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0763043628113456,0.16314018083211032,0.08870268022979852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20226709675847054,0.0,0.0,0.0805680420328713,0.05917693116845597,0.0,0.0,0.0969736132086988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795760891117577,0.0,0.1628108730601747,0.0,0.0,0.09407794804775324,0.09157475488256298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034222548234992,0.0,0.1109583127753478,0.0,0.06535324631058166 schizophrenia,RayneCloud21,2019/08/02,"I wrote a poem about the people inside my head. Sorry if it's a bit disturbing. Within me There is a fussy baby boy That needs more cuddles than the world can give him Becoming more and more frustrated and angry The void within him growing bigger and bigger every day As his thirst for love is continually denied There is a woman whose pain knows no bounds Screaming&Screaming&Screaming&Screaming& Screaming&Screaming&Screaming&Screaming But only I can hear her And I don't know how to help her Or even how to get her to stop There is a victimized little girl Pain is the only thing she craves Degradation and suffering her only outlet or escape Clutching her stuffie, she smiles up lovingly as they piss on her face There is a stupid, naive, little puppy Evil is something he is unable to comprehend Knowing nothing about human suffering, he takes joy in his ignorance All he has ever known is love Devotion is his native tongue And then there is all their beloved friends… Like the negative thoughts that swirl around inside my brain Whispering their theories Stating conspiracies like fact Making me paranoid and suspicious Until I don't know who to trust anymore Or the shadow people Lurking around every corner Hiding in every dark closet Standing over me, Existing in the space between my eyes and eyelids, As I try to sleep at night With all of them around, I'm never truly alone!",6.883906882591095,9.441145032388668,5.947147773279351,74.42120748987855,66.28744939271255,8.178866396761135,27.329757085020237,8.841846274778883,2.356316761133604,1161,37,177,20,20,350,157,247,0.223,0.639,0.138,-0.9706,0,1,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,4,0,14,20,5,1,13,0,16,13,7,3,6,37,32,20,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,1,4,6,12,1,3,6,0,0,1,5,12,0,0,2,3,28,8,29,30,7,30,0,2,1,4,33,19,1,4,10,124,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09445706856512016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6917161881982273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904472085869018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435655470839069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10072469893340733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09956822674989467,0.0,0.0,0.10181084159277043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058817310191925425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06023761549782535,0.08249682048811248,0.2305231511998957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047648928492759694,0.08748862198540153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09359887177175512,0.0,0.10279052239681766,0.0,0.06113032618863076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20048745397981346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911272197970982,0.1828153756386349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469382715991783,0.0,0.060877593107953536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06762462741352579,0.07034008477859761,0.0,0.0,0.08558626604091588,0.0,0.08751013174162935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20808815369741987,0.19408928147514745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264550318727338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912671902266496,0.0,0.0,0.07021123623283901,0.0,0.1020924173809493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07624839202689809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06857204679635842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06059010832087969,0.0,0.0,0.07240366533468462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0619197135515832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bjeoksriipja,2019/08/02,Did your voices start out as thoughts before you started hearing them? Or did you always hear your voices? I don't have auditory voices but I am always bombarded with thoughts which I can't turn off,3.275526315789474,5.996745763157897,3.951842105263157,83.65039473684213,78.21052631578947,5.905263157894738,25.28947368421053,7.1686216300943375,1.3702421052631577,161,6,28,2,4,51,28,38,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,6,13,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,5,8,0,4,9,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,1,2,21,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4403405955792274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22515705547432388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5964520113257934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3745737181450107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4201293155172181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28781130338910443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BoneCruncher,2019/08/02,My shower head has recently started to talk to me? Okay so this has never happened before. I have frequent auditory hallucinations but most of them are really toned down and boring now that I’m on antipsychotics. But recently the sound of the pattern of my shower head’s water jets are talking to me? It’s not words but it’s talking to me!! Has this happened to you? What does it mean? Should I up my dose or wait it out?,1.4417857142857144,3.9863100833333327,3.4193333333333342,85.50900000000001,85.07142857142857,6.217142857142857,22.685714285714287,7.554174236665415,1.2341228571428575,333,12,65,6,10,112,55,84,0.055,0.927,0.018000000000000002,-0.6179,2,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,7,4,2,0,1,13,13,6,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,8,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,10,1,12,12,1,10,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,2,6,49,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846455067653341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898924953203349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38377331363458894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44539591692339336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236369561684434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16735878308891514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13901160803879598,0.0,0.4285098537059252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358913328778198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5232335255482921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Iinventedbread93,2019/08/02,"Desperately want to help my girlfriend Hi all. Thanks for being such a supportive subreddit! I'm new to this, and need some advice. My girlfriend is so smart, so talented, and so very valuable. She has an amazing artistic talent and is easily one in a billion. I'm stubborn, and can make anything I want happen through sheer willpower, and I want my girl to feel safe, LOVED, and happy......how do I do that?",3.399350649350648,5.639740883116888,4.331168831168832,83.60246753246757,75.23376623376623,6.997402597402598,29.181818181818183,7.957251820313856,2.115758441558442,316,14,58,5,7,102,55,77,0.054000000000000006,0.5379999999999999,0.408,0.9861,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,4,10,1,0,3,0,7,1,0,1,1,16,19,9,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,6,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,7,9,6,18,2,2,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,1,1,39,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789903607701133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349447549558802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14435896426078068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524694807830126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913667342971254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576777275439007,0.0,0.19057556063073905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116969581718529,0.0,0.2757407083849604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934643142211893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239855760179261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26285292960039874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355699879801177,0.5051914412460643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Throwaway29087,2019/08/02,"Childhood hallucinations Im sorry if im coming off insensitive but idk if im at risk for schizophrinia because of a lot of horrible memories of when i was around 5. I would see hallucinations whenever I opened any type of drawer of an arm trying to grab me or when I was always about to fall asleep a hand would come from either side of my bed reaching for me. I also remember there being sentient toys following me around and trying to cut and stab me. But theres one memory from around that age that stands out from all the other ones. I remember my sisters best friend (she was around 14/15) showing me what a woman look like when their nude while we were in my room inside of a tent i had up for some reason. (i cant remember why i was alone with her). I dont know if i was molested or not because of all of these insane memories i have and its getting to the point where this is on my mind everyday and i cant push it away anymore. Im sorry if this isnt the right sub ive just never talked about any this before and i figured you all would be the biggest help.",3.834054054054056,4.501111954954958,5.224342342342343,83.96705405405406,71.34234234234235,8.442522522522522,26.06126126126126,8.648137234880735,1.629064504504505,842,25,180,14,15,283,133,222,0.133,0.767,0.10099999999999999,-0.5267,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,1,1,1,15,6,2,1,9,0,19,4,4,1,4,42,26,18,0,7,11,1,2,1,1,3,0,0,2,1,10,15,0,0,6,2,0,5,6,3,0,2,7,4,29,3,33,14,7,32,0,0,2,1,10,18,0,8,9,132,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609733764721453,0.0,0.08964288981922335,0.09327260118823988,0.0,0.0,0.15245783819806485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11116881218182467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991557503471757,0.0,0.0,0.1053175989731727,0.0,0.0,0.13666499508922889,0.0,0.09538518342761544,0.0,0.11763752011971958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931210377433908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13137532413069994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08660485881580958,0.0,0.0585653760357608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07513538401959825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4843303616247166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061604864496397925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05476429625384895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09413215495616227,0.0,0.0,0.09529975452679854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131847008810494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645511338354282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15191789311226844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059666678835686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11525304786314527,0.0,0.0,0.38094772491829776,0.0957291142818114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932575885251834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25096391475932833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900982765736992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15221124264005606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114893278276796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388887047022239,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cloud_scape,2019/08/02,"To r/schizophrenia.. You are braver than you think, or know. You are a kaleidoscope of beauty amalgamated into spirit. You are warriors, largely unnoticed and unseen. I hope you all acknowledge and wield the torch of your sacred self-hood, the heat of which eclipses into a million suns. You are more than you think you are. Best.",3.62004842615012,6.6997070338983065,3.297142857142859,86.43593220338984,80.35593220338984,6.083292978208232,23.682808716707026,7.447530270364453,1.3305283292978207,261,9,45,4,7,78,40,59,0.0,0.754,0.24600000000000002,0.9432,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,9,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,0,1,11,9,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,10,2,8,9,3,2,1,0,0,0,9,2,0,2,0,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.463770439819568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43892879464866696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428690699484584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.461021587496995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5663322373854013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JamesonJam,2019/05/15,"Does Abilify make anyone else hyper sexual? I’ve just recently switched to abilify, and it has been amazing! I feel much more like myself and the delusions and hallucinations have decreased significantly. But I am now hyper sexual, I am just on all the time... is there any tips or tricks for helping control this? I love the medication otherwise and the good outweighs this 1,000,000 to 1! Just looking for tips!",6.009634703196348,8.428059027397259,6.450890410958905,70.48309360730596,68.31506849315069,9.798173515981736,34.08447488584475,10.125756701596842,4.0135132420091315,331,16,53,9,6,107,53,73,0.019,0.769,0.212,0.9488,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,1,0,4,0,6,2,0,2,1,13,10,6,0,0,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,5,4,5,9,3,4,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,1,4,37,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031499015910404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20888231144598346,0.3060890957093603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33505646947822765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614248283029443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495545846499348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510492860518738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505645688935068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002356330116212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14594672896015407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508619857386862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696198118092883,0.0,0.19940779237101636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009438729326981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196044438814997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2949645659830221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17419465870087567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AHigherTruth,2019/05/15,I think my brother is schizophrenic... He’s been exhibiting weird behavior for the past 5 or 6 years. He has become more socially isolated and talks to himself like he is having a conversation. He sleeps in his room all day until he has to go to work. He stopped caring for personal hygiene and leaves a very unpleasant scent when he walks by. There are many other things like he gets very startled when someone sees him and he doesn’t want to talk to anyone that is a family friend anymore. I’m not sure what to say or do because he will scoff if I say anything and my father avoids taking him to a doctor. He is 32 and doesn’t act normal for his age at all. Are these signs that he might be schizophrenic? And if so is there anything I can do?,4.533200000000001,5.275726586666671,5.206666666666667,84.45000000000003,69.8,8.666666666666668,27.666666666666664,8.841846274778883,1.9280666666666664,588,19,121,10,10,190,97,150,0.102,0.815,0.083,-0.2231,0,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,5,8,0,2,5,0,19,4,1,0,3,21,27,14,0,4,5,2,0,2,1,2,3,2,1,1,6,6,0,2,1,0,0,3,3,3,0,0,1,4,10,5,14,23,3,14,0,0,1,0,27,3,0,5,10,73,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17330237149452235,0.12218737939322448,0.0,0.28760428671283234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10652433575755543,0.1929946702164909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17816652470725172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269755584989664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788612723109594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16473620793196211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13500933509283214,0.0,0.0912982549266204,0.0,0.09931292102117127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850321654754964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707454137136546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17716634055291575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18537927651871924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17121525745889782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16681607659328235,0.0,0.15258260723242084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779321430597688,0.0,0.0,0.1392509782273286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17487350635838855,0.1781328719626694,0.1480628252498355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14609657243550436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16469726780271898,0.0,0.13138822649926676,0.28091053041482905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609434525588078,0.1119710176619028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883696568442017,0.10307048859229817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12721811995753735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253153571240276 schizophrenia,iri0427,2019/05/15,"Tips/advice on how to communicate with schizophrenic sister? My sister (F18) has been diagnosed with schizophrenia and has been in and out of episodes for more than 5 months now. Recently however, she was given an injection which supposedly was going to be more effective, but instead she became very violent and even more suicidal attempting suicide 3 times in a day. We immediately took her to the hospital where she was held for a week and they released this past Sunday on Mother’s Day which is great. Except she’s still a little violent and is adamant in getting a job otherwise she’ll kill herself she says. To be quite honest, I don’t think she’s ready for a job just yet, given that she was just released and her delusions are of people conspiring against her. Even a gaze straight her way triggers her to think that person is trying to kill her or a part of some elaborate “clique” that is trying to take her out. She’s even paranoid with us (her family) and she’ll claim that we too are conspiring against her. Just yesterday she attempted to fight one of my sisters and became verbally aggressive towards my parents. I just don’t think she is quite ready to take on a job, but she won’t listen to reason and has honestly become a bit scary because we don’t know when she’ll snap. Prior to taking her to the hospital, she brandished a knife on my cousin because she believed he was going to harm her even though he was just chillin on the couch. I feel terrible that she has no trust in us and I know it’s her delusions, but it’s like we cannot even communicate or find some middle ground to get through to her. She takes her medications, I’d just like to know what can we do? How do we deal with these random demands of hers? For instance, we will all be quietly eating and then she’ll say I need to buy a wig now. She won’t rest until she gets a wig and so my dad bought her a wig. Then, she wanted some chips at complete random and sometimes inconvenient moments (like while you’re showering or using the restroom) and she’ll be demanding whatever it is she claims she needs right at that moment and won’t rest until she gets it. We’ve never dealt with mental illness before and she has drastically changed, so we ultimately want her happy and stable enough to have a job and enjoy life. I’m barely educating myself, but there isn’t much out there. Any advice or tips will help greatly!",5.6427564102564105,6.36222220726496,6.076051282051285,79.2856153846154,67.3119658119658,9.316923076923075,30.343589743589746,9.3871,2.590691794871796,1915,69,364,36,30,618,225,468,0.138,0.757,0.10400000000000001,-0.9737,7,0,0,0,1,1,39.0,10,0,1,5,26,18,6,0,19,0,44,6,0,6,2,75,73,37,4,4,15,7,1,3,0,10,5,4,2,1,15,34,1,1,10,1,2,3,10,8,0,1,13,5,67,10,54,46,13,48,0,0,0,0,72,21,0,9,26,264,82,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751432243139204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06094187939017251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925803154530132,0.09897371157788612,0.07625652328223825,0.10096642174550928,0.0,0.0,0.09783734338268804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09480173073543813,0.0,0.09396055739414054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558967276876952,0.09239004928314287,0.0,0.09095824363744552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09169942980232304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09259717192491654,0.0,0.29595225627643823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08448188704902128,0.0,0.04531248748067786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819073014504964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872824185359195,0.0,0.10186155286133801,0.0,0.0,0.19760367385895727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09539778307515917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06006764315925834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35571977806326704,0.0,0.1982934128505184,0.0,0.14775165119854325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06329835453779682,0.13134539397786507,0.08981866638501293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09027858277970613,0.09031174091284268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07153054973929998,0.0,0.06587799170837748,0.13289809629738053,0.0691173002943765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0607260474678205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09950784236512647,0.0970452776652853,0.08554850884108672,0.06212837558551027,0.07824913995336387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19063506364181626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09214006213443388,0.08848488167470864,0.0,0.0,0.07653148182661614,0.0,0.14253230793660987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08863240832634428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07156736684300916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19605048046134066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695199907786313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17226673453811187,0.08804715855338917,0.0,0.05225574710014636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09956655303300052,0.1216866157940356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21559376711186368,0.07739935715477479,0.0,0.07394249595674393,0.10571554954012664,0.07113292352505915,0.07188446274417125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xtc_dwarf,2019/05/15,"Hearing voices or is auditory issues e.g. tinnitus I hear whispers in noises, just my name ""x name"", being called. When I'm drunk the complexity of the illusions increases e.g. hear shouting, screaming. Is this definitely audio hallucinations like schizophrenia or is it closer to tinnitus because it blends into real life sounds? When I'm tired the frequency increases and intensity of the hallucinations increase, but the voice remains the same a whisper.",7.477142857142859,10.836971533333333,8.097904761904761,56.08800000000002,67.0,10.685714285714287,38.714285714285715,10.608840637214634,5.6384285714285705,375,21,46,12,7,124,55,75,0.07200000000000001,0.8590000000000001,0.069,-0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,0,4,3,0,0,0,11,9,6,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,11,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,11,2,1,5,8,4,8,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,2,3,29,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14660047527730735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455671841307114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8131491438387158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510090846003593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16986520310252815,0.11749126912564127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737302763561117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27640788394910804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ena201920,2019/05/15,"Medication + being lonely On what meds are you all on? Do you have any friends? Do you feel lonely all the time?",-0.7389130434782629,1.2947576086956545,1.5307608695652206,94.3291847826087,103.34782608695652,4.039130434782609,14.445652173913045,5.985473137389443,-0.6457739130434779,87,2,19,1,4,29,17,23,0.2,0.687,0.11199999999999999,-0.3485,0,4,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,2,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,5,2,3,0,2,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34418575355958425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559145337370632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39103477978896295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5621963272753521,0.5098727239011802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29512847115088003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,oswegoboy98,2019/05/15,"Dream job of working with those who suffer from schizophrenia and other forms of psychosis Hey everybody! Just had a couple of questions/ advice on someone who’s seriously interesting in a career that studies, research, and educated the general public on schizophrenia. I’m personally not schizophrenic, but my interest peaked in high school when I was send to a mental ward for adolescences and was wrongly diagnosed as schizoaffective. As a junior in college, I recently changed my major to psychology and was amazed on how serious the department took this disorder. From random examples on test questions, to support groups on campus. Schizophrenia is one of the most fascinating, yet scariest and unknown disease of the human mind.. and I would love to get some input on what it’s like to have it yourself. Or what it’s like to be in a committed relationship, or even having a child with the disease. I’m not gonna lie. I get very emotional whenever I find myself looking up the subject ( which is often). God bless each and every single one of you. I pray that one day I can join the ranks of many in the battle to make the lives of those with schizophrenia better.",7.735289828654758,8.654479663507109,7.740947867298575,68.47261757200148,62.7914691943128,10.85249726576741,37.083849799489606,10.727762888450028,4.35902158220926,943,44,148,23,13,304,135,211,0.053,0.72,0.22699999999999998,0.9919,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,3,6,14,1,0,15,0,11,3,0,2,1,30,21,14,0,1,6,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,3,14,11,0,0,3,1,0,3,2,5,0,3,5,1,11,9,35,13,6,20,2,1,1,1,14,13,0,8,6,112,25,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15595648573072246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14115070771217933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16883262055503953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17659120846410126,0.0,0.10292695719401973,0.0,0.0,0.16198774553229894,0.0,0.0,0.1829121582372606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795253100960069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10541241093112158,0.0,0.13446748039740347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14586890175106873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16676584520141707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16862314915138346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15837554295627512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559422097120541,0.0,0.14092720547040805,0.0,0.1340214085905445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440426569860556,0.0,0.10653233545449496,0.16180645811519434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608363873414314,0.0,0.16114762325415827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244414732855502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13935407351762638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575706621378628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15758292951775416,0.17134760918136502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16152083406751308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352261454260227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18110895202158656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17731830355613928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13168436130766592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618862439761705,0.0,0.0,0.11337323473745592,0.17449442714885954,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ubmt1861,2019/05/15,"Trying to help my friend with Schizophrenia get a job. Preferably work from home. Any tips? San Antonio Area This may sound silly, but do mental health places hire people with mental health problems the way rehab hires addicts? I encouraged her to sign up for wag. She prefers stuff where she doesn't have to travel because of urges she has when in cars and standing next to a street. She's broke though and perpetually bored. I wish I had more time for her but I'm self employed with a family. Just looking for ways to help, any suggestions welcome on how she can make some dough and (if not work from home) meet some people.",3.239089635854341,5.822040016806724,2.9531302521008413,91.55277661064429,77.40336134453781,5.64733893557423,21.68137254901961,6.816661863887847,0.4565120448179276,498,14,97,5,12,148,89,119,0.086,0.762,0.152,0.8181,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,5,7,0,0,4,0,7,4,0,2,0,21,12,9,0,5,5,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,2,1,2,6,0,0,2,1,0,2,2,3,0,0,1,2,11,4,17,10,3,15,0,1,1,0,15,7,0,4,3,56,13,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794719165064289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239092338651535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10035743228517924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15519930459905726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12719337894097102,0.0,0.08601281924354526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34998976980918656,0.0,0.0,0.22069716415808244,0.0,0.3302763122829882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16337070618319482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13824844263453384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10989236437440897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.331818331157076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17508676650614666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22826859161290355,0.0,0.17200418837358805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15752948042226364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17174587123309326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18846292472251375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16174896485775464,0.0,0.0959975669878325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11177353400787804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613525964158727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18931734172848394,0.0,0.0,0.23970642517112944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,flint4c,2019/04/13,"My sporadic case of schizophrenia has been possibly cured ? Hello brothers and sisters who may or not suffer from a schizophrenic disease. About three years ago this time I was thrown into a psychotic episode from a heavy fake acid trip. I am not isn't certain what research chemical it was. Three years ago around this time I was fully convinced I was being persecuted for a heinous crime I did not commit. I would hear voices asking me if I did it and I would randomly respond out loud ""I didn't do it"". At first it was around my family hysterically crying. At this time I was also completely delusional. Through the voices I was hearing I became convinced my house was bugged and there was a tracking device on my phone and in the cars of my family. By the time it got this bad I was also convinced I experienced a paranormal event one night in my room where I felt that i couldn't move and was hearing people in my life yelling terrible things. Since then every time I smoked weed I would hear voices and people in my head telling me things were going to happen. At time they were against my own life in many ways. After receiving prolonged dosages of a couple different anti-psychotics I have gotten to the point where my symptoms only involve intrusive thought in moments of stress or anxiety. To this days when I smoked weed I have intrusive thoughts in the characters of an unknown person but I have the ability to control these and stop them by concentrating on the theme of what they say and if it is delusional. My faith in Jesus Christ has rejuvenated during these times. I have changed the characters in my thoughts of mind during prayer. I can note one character during a trip to Italy where a it spoke in a wise mans voice and got me through episodes with positive thoughts of my past that I have not remembered in many years. Another instance I was convinced there was a demon in my room and I was told to recite Our Father prayer and eventually got me not to be scared. Prayers and the best thoughts to those experiencing any debilitating symptoms of a mental disease. &#x200B; TLDR: Persecutory psychosis and auditory hallucinations cured because of immediate and consistent usage of anti-psychotics combined with a sense of direction from faith in Jesus Christ and readings of the bible.",7.756226415094342,8.303819264150945,7.360720754716983,72.49748679245286,62.72641509433962,10.36890566037736,36.53547169811321,10.17224662633116,3.7890610566037743,1864,83,317,38,25,587,212,424,0.048,0.853,0.099,0.9786,1,0,2,0,1,0,29.0,1,0,3,3,11,15,0,2,24,0,39,6,1,1,2,49,58,24,0,6,10,3,1,0,0,4,5,12,2,2,22,21,0,2,7,1,0,6,8,6,0,5,32,16,49,9,56,19,2,57,7,1,0,0,24,28,0,6,22,231,71,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525214785886934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13759692436123208,0.0,0.09321387858728317,0.10453632572755382,0.058503607126902175,0.09021035242828726,0.06581300367148017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15317055178506014,0.08042679015449705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718317721135848,0.05244331990535695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028357402688766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910087326711297,0.0,0.09020121450501237,0.0,0.09649038420477203,0.0,0.09519097689976247,0.0945003305246102,0.055482476674995534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988343434599311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248430389942426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16220356768492747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08260265421596641,0.0,0.0,0.07317739555256488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04889304637113709,0.0,0.20641905686138606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607637911910338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08829198756177092,0.0,0.3878499538780318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992675055176249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12153160036137008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17444260051945887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08669838643282067,0.0,0.08686615724562863,0.0,0.0,0.0914366768385872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08073368186712772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116592821192183,0.06542997912341877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212573031245153,0.1192852636990861,0.07511840769695413,0.0,0.0,0.0813265146571639,0.09698632485925272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08605365901198357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09745564762000404,0.0,0.0,0.06841480956820276,0.0861314164686591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07116521767010378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0719252481681669,0.09854750729822367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17883700630826896,0.0,0.0,0.07519434228810246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430952080872818,0.0,0.0,0.3414925521081805,0.3511550366255856,0.0,0.0,0.08220571290110062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06828690964803305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18334053653308136,0.0,0.10453632572755382,0.16620222838764975 schizophrenia,ZombieMewtwo,2019/04/13,"I don't like my Schizophrenic Mother and it makes me horribly guilty I've been dealing with a some warring emotions lately in regards to my schizophrenic mother. I dislike her, terribly so, and sometimes I teeter on the cusp of hate, and then feel overwhelming guilt for feeling as such and feel like I am the worlds shittiest person for thinking so. I know she has a mental illness, and it is not her fault she has these paranoid delusions, and consequently screams and rants and acts out. However, for the first 6 years of my life she just fucking traumatized me. It was the height of her illness and she was concurrently on meth amphetamines, and she would scream and cry and self mutilate in front of my brother and I. There were solid months where either the water or the electricity would be shut off, the garbage piled high enough along our house that it was almost as tall as the roof and smelled like death. Sure I had good memories from being young, but most of them are outweighed by all the terrible shit. Now I am 23. I was lucky enough that at age ten my grandparents raised my brother and I until adulthood and I moved on to go to college and graduate. But following my graduation I moved back in with my grandparents to work while I applied to graduate school. Concurrently, my mother had been kicked out from her government subsidized apartments due to getting in a fistfight with a neighbor she believed was one the bitches **™** that break into her house every morning and do surgery on her genitals. So she moved in around the same time. It has been 2 years since and I will be going off to my desired program this fall. But living with my mother fosters these strong feelings of dislike and may have destroyed any vestiges of a relationship we may ever have had. The entire 2 years, she has done absolutely nothing but sit on her ass and eat. In the first few months she acted cooperative, would go to free therapy sessions and would take the medications the low income mental health centers would provide her. Then rather quickly she stopped going. Believing her therapists were in on it, and were just fucking with her. She refused to take the meds they had prescribed and never returned. She has gained 200 pounds since moving, which hurt her back, her doctor gave her meds and now she is addicted to her painkillers and constantly takes too many too fast, runs out of them and flies into large explosive schizophrenic rages when she is jonesing. I called her doctors office more than once to say I think she may be abusing her medication but it has never led to anything. She begs my grandparents for their pain medication and flies into rages when she doesn't get any. Additionally, she talks to herself and the people in her head every night and I hear it through the walls as I try to sleep, so that anxiety is the last thing I usually feel before I drift off. &#x200B; To top it all off she is extremely obsessed with herself. She spends what little free money she has on makeup she never wears, hair products, and clothing several sizes too small for her. Everything that happens is framed in how it effects her, example, when I was happy and told everyone in the house I was accepted into my graduate program, which is in Scotland, she got very upset and told me that I couldn't leave because she didn't want me to be away from her. Or another example, my grandmother will come home from a 12 hour shift from work at 6am, and then my mother, who would have just woken up, will poke her head out and ask what she was going to make for dinner. I am so unbelievably frustrated with her, and maybe when I move for school some of these feelings will dissipate, but also the thought of her fucking up like the last 10-15 years my grandparents have to live also makes me very upset. I know long term I should seek therapy to work some of this out, but if there is anyone who deals with guilt like this it would be lovely to hear from you.",7.2513240810202575,7.494351274193548,6.716777944486122,77.72394598649666,63.81182795698925,9.985446361590398,33.96899224806201,9.706407341189486,3.112881632908227,3164,124,580,57,43,981,345,744,0.15,0.792,0.057999999999999996,-0.9967,8,0,1,0,1,0,69.0,2,1,4,9,30,39,11,6,28,0,68,28,7,6,7,122,109,67,2,13,16,7,7,5,1,15,14,5,2,2,30,58,3,2,13,0,4,19,8,25,0,4,26,13,105,16,98,61,13,113,0,3,0,5,83,50,6,12,47,428,135,16,0.0,0.07183315622622377,0.0,0.06609244791201277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06070924635617965,0.0,0.0,0.09696688126985507,0.0,0.06568939778004525,0.0736685178994203,0.08245696409956839,0.06357276206451383,0.046379537498027035,0.0,0.0,0.04239185232442158,0.0,0.04989090735371425,0.0539709400407383,0.05667812015443535,0.0,0.056961121712231326,0.09323693881920872,0.0,0.036957695081246654,0.0,0.051589165493109206,0.1366118783411509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06190701016416157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0522248467651442,0.0,0.06551631729262626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06659598223202529,0.0,0.1250076803198488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241087365981236,0.0,0.062042535045553925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06203662134171376,0.0,0.06819728605800962,0.0,0.1252879260951324,0.0,0.0,0.05484064973994412,0.1021618313457574,0.057931757120224636,0.054487695258516766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18392918913125533,0.04331198615134592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031386981812802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16814622933008455,0.06335027659233526,0.0,0.17227878618656636,0.05085110428324945,0.04848900092651814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053612311872001515,0.06453863626230175,0.0,0.059856673371131174,0.12444171575384333,0.06444373326236362,0.13666221321007266,0.0,0.0,0.06405582105681656,0.06081388774090773,0.0,0.05970544498060652,0.20986647338596132,0.06490252520532283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666380969345627,0.09883829678812883,0.06838996815661168,0.06419530620148595,0.0,0.0,0.04282268777984671,0.14809660374021585,0.06076424475001047,0.1070696153058486,0.05365304321785636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05471829168700759,0.0,0.12140710663358932,0.061466326415000064,0.06090803393846673,0.0,0.1346859999161114,0.1832261640201379,0.12219564038290337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09678388705595108,0.322184868153037,0.0,0.0,0.1402779863222813,0.0,0.0,0.05689439193812172,0.0,0.058173302378733464,0.0,0.0,0.0645658437850043,0.041082467147954715,0.0,0.06451146990076878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04203117204853584,0.052937213198228895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06509077696313921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048213074146072864,0.0,0.12271564961330216,0.0,0.0,0.06324724931641246,0.06849132474677125,0.062232809266080574,0.10030266656606474,0.0,0.06067084746241545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059961715855797876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05068693963767498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057140289689490885,0.0,0.13675201946184207,0.048729736986161724,0.0,0.0,0.1386646612201325,0.07039269334774413,0.040277926936704685,0.07769474832687663,0.0,0.04813111616925568,0.03535212817318971,0.0,0.0,0.11586351424044927,0.0,0.04116179633091868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06677214492257708,0.100047353241307,0.035759412740567965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324116724905271,0.0,0.0,0.3014740841614004,0.0,0.0736685178994203,0.15616736417296725 schizophrenia,thoughtoftoi,2019/04/13,"What was your recovery process like? For those who feel like they have fully recovered, what did you do to get there? How long did it take you? I got my SZ at age 13, and it wasn’t until 14 years later that I really started feeling like I fully recovered. Now, at age 27, I am: - no longer anxious. I feel optimistic about my future - nearly done with my master’s degree - have a handful of close friends (mostly don’t know I am ill) - finally comfortable driving - over the “could have beens” and “should have beens.” I have gotten over disappointments and hold no grudges. The world owes me nothing. Still, I could use more self-discipline. I have also never dated (though it is not something I’m looking for at the moment), but at least I’m not shy anymore. Things that helped my recovery: 1) I’ve been keeping a regular journal all this time. 2) My extremely patient mother has been my best therapist, and I’ve seen ten of them. For a few years it was typical for us to would talk for two hours a day, with her helping me to sort out my delusions and paranoia. 3) Staying in school helped to socialize me and gave me endless cognitive work outs. The only break I had was one year between my bachelor’s (took 5 years part time) and my master’s (nearly done). 4) A close penpal I met at age 10, before I got ill. Possibly due to a lack of awareness that I was very ill, she continued to text me with enthusiasm. We lost touch for awhile during undergrad, but when she messaged me again via Facebook my last year, I realized I was worthy of having friends. Just by socializing with me, she taught me some social skills.",3.745239616613418,5.449326054313102,4.63656996805112,84.12017124600642,72.80191693290735,7.947297124600638,27.53597444089457,8.608573733854374,2.028216204472844,1257,47,245,23,25,407,190,313,0.071,0.8170000000000001,0.11199999999999999,0.92,1,0,1,0,0,0,52.0,2,3,2,6,10,9,0,0,10,0,32,4,1,2,2,40,54,14,0,5,5,1,5,3,2,2,3,0,0,0,13,16,0,2,5,0,1,2,7,2,0,3,24,7,44,7,36,26,9,47,0,2,2,0,25,15,0,3,31,170,57,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09187167246778498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12978477747486844,0.113932791791939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09775673617632824,0.0,0.12056233060041012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18344901322658705,0.0,0.0,0.0740898526395095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23512982511682345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742644705062321,0.16414448122970507,0.0,0.12584840815851325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17751621437662735,0.0,0.06002148141320034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183764417420573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23101040379142865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131363412738094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10211304317889124,0.0,0.0,0.06313654038651542,0.09364475283599344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16837768723794844,0.0,0.0,0.10166759513886094,0.0964725537770961,0.0,0.12540806361136328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08860463864959854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023307159142184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784750662407425,0.08737348802680626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12440679429839015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129513009286913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07359681440700529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626744946627085,0.0,0.0,0.11984773558953644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513254072221005,0.0,0.08844233320351608,0.0,0.0,0.08131458298330749,0.12244969760601696,0.09174549137799608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08637751073202267,0.09233838145985054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13338769655531152,0.07632297672670807,0.0,0.11287169253602475,0.0,0.13397807985709154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276389328793399,0.0,0.0,0.11222372773567324,0.0,0.13818977122003276,0.09922178735571957,0.0,0.09479027837014274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363599094627595,0.0,0.0,0.081609390619882,0.0,0.0,0.3699035367428187 schizophrenia,Malbii,2019/04/13,"Seeing other dimensions it felt like in my psychotic episode, anyone else? I could look at a 2d painting and it would feel 3d same with photos. I could see strange godlike creatures and landscapes with my eyes closed but also on walls and floors like I was watching interdimensional television. Does or did anyone else have these symptoms?",7.978220338983053,9.699022372881359,6.562500000000004,74.28408898305086,62.5593220338983,8.611864406779661,35.08898305084746,8.841846274778883,3.1578101694915244,276,12,43,4,4,82,48,59,0.024,0.885,0.091,0.6072,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,6,2,1,0,0,14,11,6,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,5,2,5,5,1,6,0,0,5,0,0,6,0,1,2,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17942918100382962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137704438544587,0.459788628126954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35828351999088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19634832610611594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748658861991484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344857589976386,0.0,0.21543107396504124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192323974582984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18841489273684503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575888235146101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332070845626428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15938651956381528,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SLUTHOARDER00,2019/04/13,Week 3 Was high as shit 1 time up for 3 days and would have bet my life that i was looking at fuccin elmo and grover across the street so i gave them the finger walked the same 3 streets for an hour ended up across from where i initially saw them and it ended up being a blue and red newspaper dispenser,6.899166666666666,4.8617335,6.742500000000002,84.7191666666667,65.5625,9.783333333333333,29.14583333333333,7.793537801064563,1.550839583333333,240,5,54,2,3,76,48,64,0.061,0.9390000000000001,0.0,-0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,5,0,5,3,2,0,0,7,8,6,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,4,5,6,0,10,2,1,17,0,0,4,0,3,10,1,1,6,35,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21050836473687948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5782072741429365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448715900318394,0.0,0.0,0.3214495014552483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23055404146601235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27410338682165875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350566354415257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19033312590409615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618275550020093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318733099680021,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thcncm,2019/04/13,"LSD I believe my usage of LSD caused my first psychotic break. I'm curious how many of you have used LSD and attribute you developing schizophrenia to the drug? If I hadn't started using heavily last summer I'm not sure if I would have ever lost my mind. My friend from the hospital said LSD made him go crazy too. He was using stuff like bath salts as well.",3.213749999999997,5.007999541666671,4.167777777777779,86.555,74.41666666666666,7.5777777777777775,24.5,8.344100000000001,1.4622333333333333,285,9,58,5,6,92,55,72,0.08800000000000001,0.779,0.133,0.5327,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,2,4,5,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,7,2,15,15,5,0,3,3,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,1,5,2,10,4,5,9,0,7,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,2,6,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359537324606508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215140330576194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428700869420559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18943969080628945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17813942017716186,0.0,0.0,0.16180361720239073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11902280568311605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17071183941248544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231598259702404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286154917163191,0.0,0.0,0.1981659156309912,0.0,0.21232720484299533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114626623140604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992140652172415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14823427487123605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397450494871789,0.0,0.0,0.1973834894861695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5426358653203345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18830099766892933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487717011806484,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Hafidh24,2019/04/13,"can anybody relates to this... I have been diagonized with schizophrenia in January 2018, my doc gave Respiridone, which helped me a lot gradually till all my delusions went away. when i left the dark tunnel i began questioning My religion (Islam) and ended up an atheist last summer...suddenly after two weeks anwiety and depression did hit me. I went through hell, I asked my psychotherapist to give me some meds to help me, he gave me Lexapro an anti-depressant which triggered delusions for the first time after 8 months, when I stopped taking it anxiety hit me again then I thought by comming back to Islam even with all the doubts it would help me.I went back tp islam after a fight with myself **( I needed a God)** suddenly anxiety got way better than it was, and also less depressed since now i think we are crreated for a reason. the problem is my psychosis doing things to get it took another shape or form, I moved from thinking that secret agencies are following me to the idea they might follow me if i get a job. I am a software engineer graduate student and made lot of efforts to graduate and acquire the skills i have, I dont wanna fear that getting a job or doing things to get it will make in an a dangerous position. I need a job I just wanna to cope with it and that started to give me depression and anxiety again. can anybody understand me or can help me by giving me suggestions or **inspirations** since the only thing my doc does is giving me more meds and raising the dose. he is not treating me as a human being Thank you in advance",3.8351748251748248,6.0193542592592575,4.955909090909092,79.87694055944057,73.74747474747474,8.070914270914269,29.60489510489511,8.841846274778883,2.675847552447552,1233,54,219,26,26,405,169,297,0.113,0.8170000000000001,0.07,-0.9017,3,0,0,0,3,0,35.0,1,1,1,6,10,13,3,2,21,0,21,1,0,4,2,46,53,19,0,7,7,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,15,13,0,1,9,0,0,8,2,9,0,2,13,0,40,4,34,34,8,38,4,3,0,0,21,7,1,11,22,166,55,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596753710174127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961063195083912,0.21801294562651674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880758335841345,0.0,0.08925101169312262,0.14609071708286378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08401543514319126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32727651844363903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313084117578845,0.0,0.11133353498842727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413745143247595,0.0,0.0,0.0627433593314311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068958835718091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08080277284474749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19852404963053807,0.3645117756588464,0.0,0.0,0.0759762493889093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25469281879122985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10723789087339257,0.0,0.0,0.2828038988931512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07743367508571533,0.0,0.0,0.10321244045102314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615228525631243,0.0,0.08988664861700961,0.06340995851243278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21103625406364704,0.0,0.0,0.10077477582034483,0.0,0.0,0.0758241724853681,0.10096474426942056,0.0,0.1408753073107342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07224804463761585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09089746930940534,0.0,0.0,0.10641623857532884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976707712936168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15716183595831335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06723801182418992,0.0,0.0,0.07942014669488709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07142448346732698,0.0,0.0,0.08745871351850715,0.0,0.0,0.1893315450930091,0.12173803259087272,0.0,0.07541548836990072,0.05539239941415342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10554303746389276,0.0,0.0,0.09279639709884356,0.09889323620250724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07540267874929052,0.0761993291257683,0.0,0.0,0.2641841933045152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674817845722827,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,teareee,2019/04/13,"How to cope with a loved one suffering from paranoia schizophrenia? Recently my mom has been showing signs of paranoia schizophrenia (which runs in the family/ a fourth of her family members suffer). My family thought she was fine up until recent events and now she believes that because she quit her job that the police are somehow out to get her, that they're circling the house, and that security cameras in stores are following her (this is just one example). I don't even have enough energy to explain any farther at this point, I just want some advice on how to cope. Everyday is like groundhogs day. It takes the whole day to convince her that everything is okay, that she did nothing wrong, and that no ones out to get her and when she wakes up the next morning it's the same thing all over again. She's ruined some friendships recently because she's been accusing people of taking about her behind her back in the most insane ways, she thinks people look at her funny, etc... I don't know what to do and I don't know how to help... I'm completely lost and exhausted at this point.",5.690248447204969,6.825325937198068,5.510728088336787,81.88836956521742,67.40579710144928,8.812836438923396,30.24465148378193,9.04235418022936,2.461036162870946,867,32,161,15,14,269,124,207,0.10099999999999999,0.7809999999999999,0.11699999999999999,0.3621,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,12,12,0,0,9,1,15,3,1,3,1,27,30,11,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,15,9,0,1,5,1,1,2,4,6,0,3,6,1,23,6,28,24,8,31,0,4,1,1,21,15,0,4,14,119,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12918436979065046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08990057495762957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165368684947827,0.0,0.16117586055682706,0.0,0.0,0.1489441982617875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13860924896967927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705162056874863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659800253621468,0.1474380137596918,0.08731689362225369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188128907084612,0.0,0.3738793566204309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13813815125423987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08861091437291435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15254112111901655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311881619491255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530739262399786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06458627222530658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11101475598211764,0.0,0.14431198340797613,0.0,0.11931571667909645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548311139166252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14059626487627822,0.0,0.0,0.1268495241885713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687465485257944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18330175380910974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499435773633558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14061103792646812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.391594835138786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987959870620704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782784642274019,0.08470846122033128,0.0,0.10495208171243346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07797502128849472,0.10493425518398357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14759664720717378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14454001382236434,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ShorelineDoThatShit,2019/04/13,"Difference between severe anxiety and mental disorders? So Wednesday I'm going to a doctor to find out what's been going on with me this past year. I was diagnosed a few years ago with depression and social anxiety disorder. This past year has been hell as I have been dealing with insomnia, paranoia, auditory and visual hallucinations (very few times), memory issues, major waves of depression, suicidal thoughts, weight loss and gain, agitation, becoming extremely less social, and just not being happy anymore and having a hard time enjoying things. Wednesday I am going to get an opinion from a new psychiatrist as I stopped seeing my old one a few months ago because of no progress. Can I really just have bad anxiety or is there a chance that I might actually have a disorder like schizophrenia or schizoaffective disorder. I dont mean to sound like one of those people that jumps straight to the conclusion that something is wrong but I have put much thought into this and I am still not sure what's going on with me. Any advice or thoughts would be appreciated.",9.450628272251313,9.278768329842936,9.15742931937173,63.42755759162306,59.41884816753928,13.085026178010473,40.04240837696335,12.340626583579946,5.340404816753927,865,40,136,26,10,280,123,191,0.198,0.715,0.087,-0.922,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,4,5,11,1,0,9,0,20,4,0,0,1,32,31,14,1,1,8,0,2,2,0,2,3,1,0,0,10,13,1,1,6,0,0,6,4,6,0,2,7,4,12,5,20,20,6,27,1,3,1,0,3,5,1,5,18,97,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.10120723876822987,0.0,0.0,0.10134545251335146,0.18386756614819694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07052721985683162,0.0,0.23801651251906625,0.0,0.10285371156561354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08659457823808335,0.06322142744060767,0.11454094928398065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10692176518971122,0.17865272937228333,0.10526475571483382,0.0,0.10835620309455976,0.475448401133014,0.10615287923576712,0.0,0.0,0.12154883577308916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09479022168473678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05418485793175242,0.0,0.23576601855729296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11040257517691623,0.09290492674746677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824762060953153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10133617550531136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297197678370426,0.0,0.0,0.10451656678051853,0.1100212678734239,0.0,0.0,0.08278134606982883,0.0,0.07623971645502804,0.0,0.0,0.10016499061289252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10882753151369604,0.0,0.14055488093430935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19800828434681944,0.07190033599412908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10425847136710137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644009509562186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264445446596723,0.0,0.0,0.11716421460456054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114411577314378,0.0,0.07984200234570163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828239540102759,0.08670726541374008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134432961117718,0.0,0.09774664438888472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06890115927654535,0.0,0.0,0.24700549061627894,0.12094975085751393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08557265908581622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12629238660514475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07367351042526382,0.11339199262923336,0.0,0.2003599722794015 schizophrenia,future_best_friend,2019/04/13,"Paranoia creeping back I’ve been on meds that have been working decently for a little while but the past few days I’m starting to feel that uneasiness again. I keep seeing flashes of light and hearing a camera shutter. Logically, I know that probably no one is taking pictures of me, right? But I still can’t bring myself to change clothes or even go to the bathroom because I can’t shake that feeling that I’m being watched or observed. I hate feeling like this. I have an appointment with my pdoc on Tuesday. I just really don’t want to start going through different meds again. I thought I’d finally something that kind of worked.",4.472066115702479,6.536809305785128,4.732305785123966,82.68573140495869,71.64462809917356,7.484628099173554,33.58760330578512,8.238735603445708,2.7551447933884305,510,26,91,8,10,160,86,121,0.125,0.802,0.073,-0.8009999999999999,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,6,4,1,1,5,0,9,0,0,0,0,15,27,6,0,1,5,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,1,6,0,0,4,4,2,0,1,3,7,11,2,12,23,1,19,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,2,12,59,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13780678226071089,0.0,0.10924899730555797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18958778369320745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558011498339775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872435821073304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837111392625625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718524443101737,0.12803263428480946,0.0,0.19632342307672368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20370626043128345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17693964770981033,0.0,0.0,0.20199054256409527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592962713712727,0.0,0.18662688847316425,0.09849295601967473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08755635559744092,0.17962247906354634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3981392889784969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214420524030467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17108287015036044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932261980268145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11481097570758746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15305030730669267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281271633345738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379699739827967,0.0,0.0,0.25370137788682584,0.0,0.14312289827692815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347488524638122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422782500133972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570680821827012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609441672763188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anonymous619619,2019/01/07,"Fear I may have some kind of psychosis/paranoid schizophrenia? To start, my uncle had psychosis and later dementia. Depression runs in my family, and the past few years I have had delusions that have gradually got worse and worse. I am 15. The main delusion is that God will kill me in my sleep if I do not follow a certain ritual every night, and although I know it’s only a delusion, I tremble in fear every night and carry out the ritual. The next one is not as severe as the first as I am not so concentrated on it, but I also often feel as if people from the government who are aware I am awoken are trying to kill me, and I often walk past people in the street and try to communicate with them through my mind to tell them I will hurt them and know they are onto me. My daily life is becoming a anxiety ridden mess, I am currently going through testing for ADHD and have had counselling for depression, anxiety and also a drug worker as I used pretty heavily about 1.5 years ago but have been clean for 7 month. I would just like to know if anyone thinks this may be signs of schizophrenia or psychosis? I haven’t heard voices but sometimes I see people in the corner of my eye but it’s nothing like a clear illusion so I just assume this is normal.",6.930176088971269,6.103040991967872,7.471164658634539,75.6131232622799,64.78313253012048,10.231819586036456,31.6036453506333,9.466822959209583,2.716719864071671,993,31,188,16,13,329,135,249,0.165,0.768,0.067,-0.9740000000000001,1,0,1,0,0,2,19.0,0,0,4,2,9,13,2,3,13,0,28,4,2,1,2,43,40,28,2,5,13,0,1,2,0,5,2,2,1,0,8,12,0,0,6,0,0,5,4,9,0,2,6,5,30,4,29,28,3,28,2,3,2,0,7,10,0,10,15,143,38,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14585677954673856,0.0,0.10758248004826776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941106066735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856873201051819,0.0,0.0,0.08486101713230025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13403777130678396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209062469209725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14074451631954754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204509981157512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441183396392254,0.2731380482064895,0.061365636768073314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10323274819867392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06897435344049728,0.0,0.09706643406055797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299234169157905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26854410832500325,0.12638265451238387,0.20009658845586795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08572347378279607,0.11858531994360468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225437455133655,0.0,0.09687214225425736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12907273077371126,0.22778509096717706,0.11891163366203115,0.11645269878806933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08223985877756325,0.09230332001417664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23171266957396802,0.2524169963608775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12347152696498025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09671194936597664,0.0,0.0,0.13710756110087013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214523438734748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12003278737573808,0.0,0.08590255630660901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607809344371373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07776559653962699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16479732364146013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10482013019628716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473619868735649,0.08621399773164415,0.0,0.0,0.15630976991955695 schizophrenia,violet708,2019/01/07,"everyone on here are so beautiful!! I know some of us were worried about posting selfies, so thanks to who did because looking at your pretty eyes and smiles is heartwarming. i hope everyone is coping and if you aren’t doing too well, getting help 💝",6.345673758865246,7.206185553191488,6.58808510638298,75.73333333333333,65.80851063829788,9.670921985815603,36.94326241134753,9.725611199111238,3.7853177304964536,199,10,34,4,3,64,41,47,0.035,0.5429999999999999,0.42200000000000004,0.9756,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,2,0,0,6,4,0,0,0,0,7,1,1,0,0,6,12,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,5,4,5,10,1,3,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,3,0,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17021074134955452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5336159252052117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14588162924900924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18715618300369335,0.0,0.0,0.2773297998353582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534527499133854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344756075900566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26741686629237904,0.2840684915469177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25706950153085273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358689005415425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25105352387808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28356283136732313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,actual_diabetes,2019/01/07,Hi everyone im 14 and I was diagnosed only a year ago and people at school are starting to see that something is off should I just tell them or is there some way I can seem normal or does all this hopefully just normalize with time thank you for any input and much love to everyone on this sub🙂,2.6224193548387085,4.0996570483870975,4.091161290322585,87.81674193548392,75.29032258064517,8.185806451612903,23.690322580645162,8.841846274778883,1.53328,235,7,51,5,5,78,51,62,0.0,0.8440000000000001,0.156,0.8697,0,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,1,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,0,1,15,12,5,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,3,7,10,3,8,0,0,1,1,5,3,0,5,4,33,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19037176384904744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460441504152282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179768584136286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18793790520169396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4104247272780124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133051171958932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319776307331892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938292661842857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15787329544784165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4208383638721877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633346417775282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488875289022879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21734856462562085,0.17113589850150687,0.19550941941128336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533272435378948,0.0,0.0,0.1520082187721846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18770968791167048,0.19772213510441972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12522827103334427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17046647538152426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13829838554137314 schizophrenia,abstinentdeviant,2019/01/07,"Early Symptoms Hello, I've been diagnosed with OCD and depersonalization/derealization along with depression and anxiety, but recently I have become convinced that I have some type of psychotic issue (most likely schizophrenia). For the past several months, colors have been unbearably bright and my depth perception has changed. I assumed this was due to depersonalization, but recently things have gotten a lot worse. I constantly am seeing bugs and shadowy figures out of the corner of my eyes. My anxiety rises dramatically, and then when I look again, they are gone. My thoughts have become completely disorganized and my paranoia is worse than ever. I constantly think people are following me, spying on me, or have some type of malicious intentions. My sleeping pattern has become even more screwed up to. I either sleep excessively or can't get any sleep at all. I am seeing patterns in walls, things that look like faces, and see strange patterns everywhere. Sorry for the random, incoherent post, but do you think it might be possible I have schizophrenia? I am very worried about it.....",7.4086050724637635,10.131905983695653,7.086391304347831,66.1049855072464,65.25,10.34144927536232,35.09275362318841,10.504223727775694,4.50859536231884,887,42,127,25,15,279,122,184,0.159,0.7879999999999999,0.054000000000000006,-0.9569,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,1,0,5,6,1,0,4,0,22,8,5,1,2,32,34,14,0,0,6,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,7,11,0,0,6,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,6,8,20,4,18,26,7,24,0,1,8,1,3,8,1,9,14,95,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08305344263734503,0.0,0.1868601542248216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.404653133086572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12919867559625078,0.0,0.12805229903962642,0.2639610012079847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10519147246301673,0.12396065474072755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08066654322449973,0.11047471386094897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06380854086100167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12747330133206666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11933432590286712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051189922245804,0.0,0.0,0.10383162701889856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295619631507177,0.0,0.0,0.09748400392372424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11658810399092105,0.08467043565897482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13768464140736444,0.1169679837521706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411797639974908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29196839768606064,0.0,0.0,0.13797355682760365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666583753964723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367159428787702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694113896806494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16227716025777314,0.156513555740357,0.0,0.09695857565184336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10077107742423637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240302196041319,0.24892436915116384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Z-Wake,2019/01/07,"I think I have schizophrenia but I'm not sure. Maybe someone here can help. Hi. I'm a 15 year old male and I think I may be schizophrenic for multiple reasons. For the past year or so I've been very depressed, anxious and paranoid of everything. I try to get a healthy amount of sleep because I thought I was sleep deprived. I wasn't. Recently stuff has been getting... weird I guess. I started getting sleep paralysis almost daily and it terrified me. Then through out the day I would have auditory hallucinations. (Hearing people call out my name from all around me and someone whispering in gibberish) a couple of days ago while I was showering I had my eyes closed and I thought I heard the mirror shatter. When I opened my eyes it was normal. Naturally I was sorta freakes out but then I started hearing clawing noises from behind the freaking mirror. I feel like someones inside my mirror. Am I schizophrenic? Or just a crazy hormonal teen?",2.5473937747035578,5.489084426136365,3.4182114624505964,84.18508893280634,85.42045454545455,6.242687747035574,29.24308300395257,7.586124646067393,2.31006847826087,753,38,131,14,23,239,110,176,0.17800000000000002,0.764,0.057999999999999996,-0.9693,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,0,8,0,16,7,5,1,2,32,32,14,0,2,6,0,1,1,0,2,2,4,1,1,3,11,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,11,7,26,2,15,18,2,21,0,2,2,0,8,7,0,6,15,86,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113026891880925,0.0,0.13683330303459235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437342343752636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12164575310865194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08329939496930562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953295733667176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15119849003833566,0.0,0.1762534006911202,0.0,0.117694782202653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12281047393048755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06909336985683641,0.09762140829926344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21417892943589192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505332546172451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080246116685396,0.0,0.09159232070410757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06675934449618201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13728135276538647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388609517641148,0.0,0.0,0.1433891624735955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13044604458271114,0.09473456593537444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049697435836045,0.13492348348556366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4102402659135551,0.0,0.34734439805833417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19344041411880888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15642934704547629,0.0,0.0,0.12878918853142093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511713091667686,0.0,0.21696660721305566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09277506951333536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274896844838833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970708680922235,0.0,0.0,0.17599375341132045 schizophrenia,SpecialBeyond0,2019/01/07,"Memories from involuntary commitment (might be triggerie) Exactly a year ago was my first time at the psych [ward.](https://ward.It) it was, as expected a pretty traumatic experience. Right down I am writing a paper for the university about juvenile criminals and their treatment and the memories keep coming back to me. I am still deeply ashamed of the things I did when I was psychotic. I drew graffiti everywhere: at the university, at the building floor, on my apartment. But the highlight was throwing ceramic tiles at my neighbor's yard. For that I was arrested by the police & was transferred to the hospital. I really didn't understand what was happening to me. I was smoking a lot of weed as well as being on a very high dosage of anti depressants and ritalin. I thought I was a Mossad agent on some sort of secret mission, writing codes to the human brain. I didn't realize what was happening to me until an ambulance came and took me to the hospital, a hospital I knew as a former mental health worker. At the hospital I received an injection of Zyprexa. No one explained to me why or what they were doing to me. I felt violated, as if I was raped. From there I was thrown into isolation room that smelled like urine. I cried. And I fell asleep. Next morning I woke up and was told I might be staying there for a long time. It is very late right now and English is not my native tongue so please bear with me. What hurt me the most is that I had no staff to talk to during my entire stay there. I never met a psychologist, a social worker, any kind of therapist. The staff kept yelling at me. The next day I was eager for a cup of coffee and a cigarette & didn't realize cigarettes are only handed out once per hour. I burst into tears and was sent to isolation again. I was forced into eating food that didn't sit well with my stomach: one time I threw up & the last day I had severe diarrhea. (I have an irritable stomach & mostly vegan). The staff was mostly rude & impatient. at least I was mostly high & easy to socialize with the other patients. we did exercise. Another thing I remember is the lack of hygiene and privacy: there were only three toilets for thirty people. At least that time I had my favorite soap. People can laugh at essential oils as much as they like but for someone being hypersensitive I craved good odors and cleanliness. The medications I received were brutal as well: I got 400 mg seroquel & 80 mg clotiapine. It felt like being hit on my head with a club and I am really not sure I needed such a high dose. I felt degraded as a person, reduced to dust. This experience has crushed my self esteem and sense of worthiness. And there was nothing to do at the Psych ward. The occupational therapy room was only open for a couple of hours and after that nothing. I picked up a book in Arabic and tried to learn a few words but that book was taken from me. I began singing mantras to myself and stroking the cats through the bars. When I left I was still high and being released felt like salvation. But that relief soon turned into debilitating, crushing depression. I laid in bed for about a year and did nothing. My husband got a divorce from me. A year later I am still struggling, but thank heaven, nowhere near where I was.I am still struggling to recover from that horrifying experience. &#x200B; &#x200B;",4.328900210301828,6.3922198320251225,5.324674032167295,78.2942478007168,72.02982731554161,8.826385474363912,29.44429963567429,9.406748399995196,2.8746960042652763,2671,111,480,64,53,876,309,637,0.121,0.8059999999999999,0.073,-0.9808,0,2,2,0,2,0,96.0,1,0,3,3,23,26,4,3,49,0,58,17,7,1,4,76,86,39,0,4,9,1,6,4,1,2,6,1,5,3,20,32,3,2,13,7,0,9,9,11,3,4,53,10,70,15,85,24,11,85,1,3,0,1,22,39,0,11,38,349,90,13,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05230695607414913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5754154586086975,0.14340215026972475,0.040127405483898884,0.06187494358908914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04537344408603378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06587234792756277,0.0,0.0674893345630728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05083009362190174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06529113530007874,0.06481742353250165,0.07611044679550158,0.0,0.10164686098331227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060379828110675576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17316319001061972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22662740726946945,0.0,0.0,0.05019210212498424,0.07135260471666778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04949303926382754,0.0943880397700806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10436100823791117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06055914429661492,0.0627226540233155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493804066855671,0.0,0.0,0.11622181953924032,0.0,0.06316919314900142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05244894586177983,0.0,0.06144766280855106,0.0,0.04809932618627597,0.0665634980190995,0.0,0.06411227200878612,0.0,0.0,0.11531314612836772,0.0,0.0,0.05222014766511013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05016641896029998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05944426614281913,0.059466099238003826,0.12519614516981112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04337760686411133,0.043753621085594586,0.04551054156219711,0.0,0.1255111734907379,0.0,0.0,0.16985905690659175,0.0,0.0,0.06284150337726299,0.07997058031553518,0.13463453445152496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181731656860468,0.051523435100712216,0.0,0.06477297062912442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06003226300850955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07560396231987787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06684446448338065,0.1007848735310088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061558124211226285,0.0666621477095462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12030227605026696,0.049997214662662035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12578917169823262,0.1884951877074849,0.0,0.0,0.12337576893496555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0556142613028764,0.0,0.0,0.047428326679752005,0.0,0.05432655991985553,0.06748069308431949,0.06851273703596042,0.07840447311585959,0.0,0.0,0.046845693047446894,0.13763195843217074,0.0,0.0,0.05638459125298231,0.06555996444759504,0.04006250072030194,0.06418366667678556,0.0,0.06142932025963376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09737541892173072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591656057233592,0.0,0.05324546494965692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14340215026972475,0.11399748730659055 schizophrenia,Buster_Scrugggs,2019/01/07,"I believe there is a moderate chance I have schizophrenia. I don't suffer from hallucinations, but I often have delusions of persecution. I often believe I will be framed for a crime I didn't commit, and the conviction is so powerful that I will develop a panic attack after driving by a police car. For example, tonight I went to the store to buy some Juul pods (I'm helplessly addicted to nicotine), and on my way home I passed two cop cars. The cop cars followed me for a few minutes, and I was convinced they would arrest me (even though - to reiterate - I haven't committed a crime). I'm now back in my room, and I'm anxious they will arrest me tomorrow morning. I also frequently believe that someone will slip LSD into my drink when I leave my room. I live in a dorm-type house with six or seven other people, and this fear drives me to lock my door even when I'm merely going to the bathroom. Or when I buy food at the store, I'll believe that someone has opened the packaging and slipped LSD or some other drug into my food. There's also been a general cognitive decline. I've lost my attention span and I find reading and writing to be much more difficult. I used to be a voracious reader and an eloquent writer, but I have completely lost the ability to employ those faculties. I also frequently believe that my parents harbor the desire to destroy me, that they actually wish to alienate me and keep me in a permanent state of initialization. I essentially have paranoid episodes everyday, and my paranoia is usually centered upon a fear that isn't corroborated by reality. But, as I've said, I don't hallucinate, and I'm essentially capable of functioning at a relatively high level. There's always a figurative voice in the back of my head that recognizes these fears as illusory, and I've never been compelled to subscribe to them fully. I'm a rational person, so I don't believe in anything that violates the laws or physics, and I know that I ought to proportion my beliefs to their evidence and not to their emotional impact. ",8.591660336408033,7.4820787628866015,9.313901247965275,64.65866250678242,61.62886597938146,12.704503526858385,41.03960933260989,11.822596298655498,5.065018556701033,1632,80,278,44,19,557,199,388,0.18,0.755,0.065,-0.9927,4,0,2,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,6,3,19,13,3,4,25,0,26,6,1,2,3,49,42,33,0,4,8,1,0,0,0,6,2,2,4,1,14,19,3,1,5,2,4,9,8,12,0,3,8,2,49,1,41,25,5,43,1,4,0,0,10,18,0,8,14,206,63,2,0.0,0.0,0.09142045061105744,0.10212757931537968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22475320185679312,0.07795121213682392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10583437928949736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07709258408261521,0.0,0.0,0.10657718688409687,0.0,0.14407187455151346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6332875032537434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098224151765439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917730285740966,0.1086417729516838,0.0,0.0,0.1053800239061369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12375260488879887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31625603533649865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856239621336349,0.0,0.2265621162936516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053241833088249035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614510883839293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09898053638898084,0.09397102603922916,0.0,0.0,0.1080968430507986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832691687920972,0.0,0.0,0.05148536440328719,0.0,0.0,0.0991960720609914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08272322311296756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20453068269545735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06886729958851358,0.0,0.07225359642402063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10991604173693607,0.10402315270783058,0.0,0.0,0.0649475392834559,0.08179980633845825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370769239802992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911335897564475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587534864037645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09204242401400534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09151403421528703,0.0,0.0,0.08091146343276281,0.10317786285835334,0.0,0.0,0.07436068143504318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08684446832368344,0.0,0.0,0.10773006835562483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06654924690318033,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ihaveaproblemrnguys,2019/03/31,"Not sure what this is I sometimes argue with myself, like, I'll think of something and something which feels different in me talks me out of it using arguments i first feel like I've never heard before. Then after thinking about it a bit i seem to accept that i have always known this, but the part of me that feels most like it's me still feels like something is wrong. It feels as though something has intruded into my thoughts and almost all of me has accepted it, except for, what feels like it's most me. Not sure how to describe this most me thing, but i feel a bit disconnected from parts of my thoughts and sometimes they don't agree with me or feel differently from me about things. Any idea?",7.47192546583851,6.473441637681162,6.720310559006213,81.99456521739133,63.78260869565218,9.624844720496897,31.30848861283644,8.418075326091056,2.0886923395445134,558,16,113,6,7,171,79,138,0.099,0.779,0.122,0.5285,2,0,4,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,5,11,1,0,3,0,6,0,0,2,4,40,21,10,0,0,6,0,8,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,16,7,0,0,17,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,3,9,18,9,20,18,8,8,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,6,10,83,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113606667769435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09440188192527912,0.0,0.0,0.07715184661308477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965400418626919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24772231461276845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23706821785115234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4589214666497914,0.32420303110084386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650295895379718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12807448824968756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771367241191878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08750185265015274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457168191030125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10328323794514524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34936626912342084,0.2244155920549156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060361387648012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21385598723850693,0.0,0.0,0.09118912476361696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074610009465247,0.1453920447112068,0.11146687531471958,0.1801378225627114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09798685880566256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240429105279022,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ConstructiveFeedbax,2019/03/31,"Hi sub, I’m a med student particularly interested in the aspect of insight in psychosis and schizophrenia. Could I possibly ask some of you about your experience and thoughts on it? To be clear, anything I gather from here is just for my own understanding, not for research or anything else. I am probably going to become a psychiatrist in the future, and the insight aspect really fascinates me. If any of you would like to talk about it, please let me know. Also, if any of you could provide a source for how to best speak to/handle someone who is acutely psychotic, I would like to learn that too. ",7.962886904761909,7.656028562500001,8.231071428571433,69.29726190476192,62.48214285714286,11.038095238095238,37.41666666666667,10.504223727775694,3.982316666666668,477,21,83,10,6,157,76,112,0.0,0.825,0.175,0.9606,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,4,0,1,7,4,0,0,6,0,9,0,0,1,1,21,15,8,0,6,5,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,6,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,11,4,19,8,3,6,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,4,3,64,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15804808176468982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687962082189416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252723858493621,0.0,0.1847613958730448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21827156178728774,0.0,0.0,0.20740500932054695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31558982070620323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650981013827717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19332427267871047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232012963172676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10861464507295926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020944663051986,0.0,0.1931082763969066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21952715863945407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21694311768015467,0.0,0.22280298302555296,0.0,0.0,0.2130832068162057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12660959606561864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16745490470626673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588509675613336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568995616673333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20574428074949916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807874787732945,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ChrisCGC,2019/03/31,"Psychiatrists Wake Up Psychiatrists out there who treat schizophrenia are getting this wake up call: schizophrenia is related to the ongoing production of the DMT (N,N-dimethyltryptamine) - the ""neurotransmitter of childhood"" in adults. Schizophrenia mainly gets reported during the transition to adulthood because this is when DMT production gets turned off in most ""normal"" people. In the cases where schizophrenia gets diagnosed earlier than adulthood, a misdiagnosis has occurred. In these cases, the patient reports on painful or terrifying events to which they are being subjected, and the doctors fails to recognize these as actual occurrences, and the patient gets painted with the scarlet letter of schizophrenia at an early age. Now, you psychiatrists who have an interest in furthering your careers - being the smartest of the smart doctor - you'll want to jump on this area of inquiry. Unfortunately you won't be able to claim credit for discovering this, as, clearly, this idea is now public domain, but you can certainly use it to your advantage to get yourselves on TV. Which is all that most psychiatrists really want anyway.",12.724207650273225,12.689554535519132,10.652568306010927,54.90486338797818,52.82513661202186,13.816393442622953,46.562841530054634,12.838901577100673,6.531618579234973,932,48,120,26,9,284,116,183,0.040999999999999995,0.8540000000000001,0.10400000000000001,0.8462,0,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,6,1,2,6,8,0,0,14,0,14,6,2,1,3,16,24,7,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,13,4,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,7,6,31,19,4,24,0,1,0,0,13,16,0,3,7,92,20,7,0.1961454069002434,0.0,0.1914096228195329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11956841949054225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20028639081634106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990834591753679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4015262707098749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6148672770135353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214242894893904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19218085314908592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087125422212996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13598252813467832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12565577025048702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133498781359912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16940665457153584,0.0,0.0,0.23138328588404186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Decafpoorover,2019/03/31,"My boyfriend is schizophrenic, I am not. We see the same figure. I have been with my boyfriend going on three years, and have known he is schizophrenic for the past two. He kept info about it to himself up until we moved in together, and a new hallucination gives me the heebie jeebies. I will catch him staring off into the dark or at dimly lit areas for seemingly no reason, with a terrified look on his face. He finally explained to me last night that he has began seeing a new figure and he’s scared. He’s been seeing the same things for most of his life, so he’s grown to cope with them, but not with this one yet. This new “creature” is a dark six-seven feet tall figure that likes to lurk around the corners in our apartment and stare at him. He describes it as an almost bird/humanoid with red glowing eyes that just stares, nothing else. This would normally be terrifying to think about alone, but I’ve been seeing the same thing. I don’t know if this is even the right sub for this, but I just need advice from somebody. Sometimes I’ll see it at the same time as he does, but usually when I’m home alone. It will be peeking at me by our closet door, only it’s eyes visible in the dark. I’ll catch a glimpse after I shut off my hallway lights. My cats will stay away from the areas I see it in. I have been seeing it before he told me about his experience with it. It is new. I pushed it off as my medication messing with me. I don’t believe in the paranormal. I don’t think I’m schizophrenic. I don’t know what’s happening. What should I do? I’m honestly just scared and home alone.",3.192222222222224,4.564541827160498,4.1779802469135845,88.19171111111113,73.62962962962962,7.282765432098768,24.379753086419754,7.839951260653429,1.1037021234567908,1248,37,266,17,25,404,162,324,0.079,0.8959999999999999,0.025,-0.9319,0,3,0,0,0,0,36.0,4,0,1,0,12,5,0,2,18,0,26,9,4,1,0,50,50,17,0,5,11,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,4,0,22,16,0,1,12,0,0,6,7,3,0,3,7,17,34,2,46,36,5,48,0,0,16,0,24,25,0,5,17,175,56,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09839384382093153,0.0,0.0,0.10082724985275003,0.31285577707743856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08963612271430202,0.0,0.0,0.09460228211492934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568041922890908,0.11344400414348603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08811516127574971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08411420834156509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06650529632895816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09849488282047253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11030180417299276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965917505609329,0.057224878455086524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08904050517424378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20200208112599785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106740151230522,0.08207640716546732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112086048331265,0.049192418499323036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08455487749504703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10143534594841223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10701834119123407,0.0,0.07466092155381353,0.0,0.3889910478772244,0.0,0.09449145584034024,0.09865556462338984,0.09661549839191977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06823066383318037,0.0765798591119658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612072235162622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10352686972413863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08598935756413413,0.0,0.0,0.2016180297365597,0.0,0.5616624861409962,0.09166508482610324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958573477789072,0.0,0.0,0.10732295119195273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337889315565371,0.12903714461945578,0.0,0.0,0.05871359099455883,0.0,0.0,0.09621433472094404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983602400808446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11089664496596753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715278258545264,0.0,0.0,0.06484154717525324 schizophrenia,Sendmenudes96,2019/03/21,I have schizophrenia and I smoke weed. Please help! So I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia and I had been well for a while my meds were working and thought I’d try doing weed again ended fully addicted again and I want to stop but each time I’ve tried to come off weed I’ve had a psychosis those times I wasn’t on my meds so I hoping that my meds will be able to get me throw it. Any advice would be much appreciated. Or just if anyone is going through or has gone through something similar ,1.1986303630363049,3.679332485148514,2.0627970297029705,95.26436056105614,85.53465346534655,4.950825082508251,20.297854785478552,6.42735559955562,0.08761320132013184,395,12,85,4,12,123,70,101,0.016,0.823,0.161,0.9227,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,2,0,15,2,0,0,0,17,22,11,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,7,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,8,0,11,2,9,10,2,13,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,7,57,14,1,0.18617903500989372,0.0,0.0,0.20296262921849734,0.0,0.18193199825649156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12660812815787548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301807101570986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16037675324263834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889678014971432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16489936415347434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972708615363784,0.0,0.1058098360936681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12479188268150625,0.0,0.0,0.18491779053036506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6204088105108844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686301276659896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20436867192594974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433297170352988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15565400981360755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14780535739783832,0.217124985052816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25280668731778344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10981321858130094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673973116771345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13554055486880773,0.0,0.0,0.13225624473355518,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,proflayton9999,2019/03/21,"What is the name of this weird thing that keeping plaguing me? Hello everyone, I need help figuring out the name for the thing that has been plaguing me for over 10 years. started small when I was in 5th grade, seemed to skip 6th had a great year, then came full force in 7th grade causing me to go to hospitals and eventually dropping out, despite being a good and bright student, it was just too overwhelming for me to bear. Id never had a normal time at school since. I thought when I would leave school Id leave the ""weird thing"" behind me. Enter: college &#x200B; On some mornings, Like mostly in a classroom setting, maybe its the fluorescent lightning, I start to get loud intrusive thoughts. Embarrassing thoughts. like soandso is so cute! and I don't even think that, it just pops up. It gets so loud I think everyone can hear it, which causes me to get anxious and start to sweat and want to pass out. This only seem to happen in the morning. Ive been told I have schizophrenia, or paranoia. I also believe I have BPD. but I just want to know the name of this weird thing that happens to me. &#x200B; &#x200B; It just makes me want to run away from everyone and hide. It can happen at home, but it mostly happens in school settings. &#x200B; 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schizophrenia,martinothewiener,2019/03/21,"my girlfriend says she’s being raped.. so im in a long relationship with a girl i’ve known for about a year now. she has “cheated” on me although no proof of it and im confused. she has these four friends.. lilly,mark,jack and issy. i have no idea who these people are and she constantly talks about them. she was sending revealing pictures of herself to me and kept saying sorry wrong person(she says the person she meant to send it to was a girl)so i logged on to her account and nobody fit in her description so she refuses to talk about it. she also says someone from my school has been raping her which is a huge problem but that person says he doesn’t like her and is currently in a relationship (even though he goes from relationship to another)so im confused on what to do because i believe she is delusional and im young so i dont know many mental illnesses that involve delusions accept schizophrenia 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schizophrenia,javid2018,2019/03/21,"I deeply sympathize with you Right now, under the feeling of depression and suicide thoughts with tears on my eyes, I am writing this. I don\`t know, maybe you will hate me. At least I hate myself. I deeply want to connect with people here and have a friendly chat where I can help you like make at least 1% difference in your life. I admire you. You are heroes nobody can see. People get angry when wifi suddenly stops working. But you people battle with demons your entire life and still manage to keep up. My role models!",3.168787878787878,5.739657242424244,3.2891818181818198,89.11377272727276,77.58585858585859,5.576161616161617,21.011111111111113,6.742157984588678,0.4929062626262626,413,11,76,4,10,126,72,99,0.212,0.638,0.15,-0.8555,0,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,8,0,2,5,8,3,0,2,0,6,3,1,1,0,16,16,5,1,1,1,0,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,7,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,3,19,4,13,14,2,13,1,1,2,0,13,8,0,0,6,52,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18438627705724325,0.0,0.0,0.2236674128054388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824497907906444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16539721656032202,0.0,0.11184765284041036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4227181811045872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349291196770464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19028361071805625,0.0,0.0,0.1176524418329747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024212283911684,0.10458838327461124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428996645902076,0.0,0.21507153564553788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4452471110753427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18282264139094964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17059356811338702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17096408865147047,0.1789799676683156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341681215915106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16995513395348624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262695791439656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15585235585780582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Battyman1738,2019/03/21,Constantly being watched Am I the one one who feels this way I constantly feel like I’m in some sort of movie set with cameras watching me I hate it it’s like I can’t have my phone pointed at my face because of the camera on it it feels like I’ve got no privacy. When I go out I feel like everyone’s watching me and I constantly watch my back. When I’m out I also hate having people walking behind me even if they are a long distance away it just makes me paranoid. Have you guys got any tips on what to do on making life easier I’m not on any meds at the minute.,-0.03519163763066402,2.0563661138211407,2.2266724738675947,94.74676829268292,87.04878048780489,5.465505226480834,20.167828106852497,6.868970318607317,0.3024267131242744,444,14,102,6,14,150,78,123,0.095,0.8009999999999999,0.105,0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,0,6,6,2,0,4,0,8,2,1,2,0,15,22,5,0,1,3,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,8,4,0,0,4,0,0,2,3,2,0,2,2,8,17,4,15,19,1,22,0,0,4,0,5,11,0,3,11,65,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11974911829026327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20366023158640806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14068811974846074,0.11514283092813506,0.0,0.0912817106637321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.485455722201687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989035875738009,0.0,0.0,0.1430854895053582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028574696552346,0.3209284707377401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08510218118099508,0.0,0.23952570327871014,0.0,0.0,0.14826873528190246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956796698465974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10576764019428256,0.2926267193487492,0.0,0.0,0.13251750566355594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19990872186672354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663302926193093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20293894796782244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10381267764013853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14155517601902806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11885872099366172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,scrtskwirel,2019/03/21,"medicine changes? my daughter was diagnosed a couple years ago. but, i just wondered how many medicine changes are normal? or how often? this just seems ridiculous and idk if its like this or not as the medications i take for health conditions have been the same for years and aside from adjustments at the beginning, havent changed. how long did it take to find one that worked well? do they generally take care of all the hallucinations or just minimize them? just a quick rundown... in the past two years shes been on: Abilify, Saphris, Latuda, Zyprexa, Seroquel, Risperdal, Geodon, Haloperidol and many others, starting at the minimum dose and maxing it out generally within 3 or 4 months. honestly dont know how she stays awake sometimes, for example she was at max dose of geodon and haloperidol at the same time, taking each 3x a day. it just seems like weve done every combination of drugs and worked thru the list and started over again and again. shes also autistic and younger in age so, while shes stopped hiding that she has hallucinations, i cant help but wonder if theres maybe a misunderstanding in how well the medications will treat them. that maybe they dont make every hallucination or paranoid thought go away but rather easier to deal with but she has the idea that they should all go away and everything will be normal and thus reports the medications as not working because a thought still comes to mind. or as shes young enough and has other illnesses that shes mistaking what a normal worry or fear is and attributing it to this. i really only have those concerns because weve tried what seems like every combination of medications at every dose and multiple inpatient stays and done the gene testing which says what medications should be effective. (anyone have experience with that? are they normally accurate or way off?) but it seems like those are some of the least effective for her. so has anyone else had a similar experience? 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Write that for a screenplay Unspeakable horrors now run around your backyard while talking about royalties and taking a smoke break mid writing 'Oh fuck.... neat'.",10.600857142857144,11.5717578,8.092142857142857,68.21535714285716,56.71428571428571,11.0,40.35714285714286,10.686352973137794,4.614857142857144,346,16,50,7,4,100,56,70,0.299,0.6409999999999999,0.06,-0.975,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,5,2,2,3,6,2,0,3,0,3,1,0,2,0,15,8,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,7,3,7,5,2,7,0,0,0,1,13,3,1,0,2,32,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943986947636982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28140667873592234,0.0,0.3470558281909895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33972643728960683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362602356370364,0.0,0.3057326183735746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658774903685695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486499586967692,0.2658091734936562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625438387223423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19505912678921647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Quints55555,2019/03/21,"Drinking with delusional disorder? I was diagnosed at 22 with delusional disorder. Many years later at 29 I'm ~6 years sober and experience no symptoms thanks to a good psych who prescribed me 40mg of latuda which I never miss. I think I'm very fortunate for that. I've felt like after so many years it may be ok to drink socially again. Maybe a few here or there. No drugs, just alcohol. Can anyone shed light on their experiences?",2.297710843373494,5.074807987951812,3.712060240963858,83.23218674698798,83.57831325301207,8.139277108433738,23.96265060240964,8.841846274778883,2.314687710843374,345,13,65,10,10,113,67,83,0.11,0.7170000000000001,0.174,0.6905,0,0,4,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,0,2,1,4,6,0,0,1,9,10,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,2,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,2,5,4,10,6,1,10,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,2,8,36,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18805105191472585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303749859325465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785988537227793,0.0,0.0,0.4033379399878205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447537179486906,0.2040613442292033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442513745640584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16895218131005268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475895090366547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08596668781965627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35679795220749605,0.17677859610076044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357135990245407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17937223215980266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828930474542875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16200319126657342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275005648272048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14518799496518722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3399434230196602 schizophrenia,lostbuthopefull,2019/03/21,"My best friend. Can one incident leave you with an illness forever? I’ve known this guy since I was born. He’s super chill, friendly, never hostile, pretty smart, great at sports. I grew up with him and I guess I can’t seem to understand what’s been happening. He stayed up for 5 days straight and ended up in a mental hospital on day 5. In the hospital he had a seizure. During those 5 days before the hospital, he told me he: found out how to time travel through music, he said he found out how math relates to music in ways that are profound said he started understanding math equations to the point where he was teaching the teacher information. How he came up with the equations on his own Told me the government was listening to our phone conversations and he couldn’t tell me too much information about what he knows because it would leave me mentally scarred This is half of it. I love the guy, I talked to him today. I though everything was back to normal after he got out the hospital. They diagnosed him with psychosis and schizophrenia. He’s on medication now. But the problem is on the phone he was still paranoid and had delusions. They were minor, but they were there, he couldn’t tell me it all because “the government was listening”. Did he become like this from staying up? Is that what caused this? He said he’s had thoughts like this before but never expressed them because no one could understand. The meds make him sleep all day and he’s depressed he says. His parents won’t let him leave the house. Does 1 episode trigger it forever? I’m just sad I guess, I don’t know what to do for him. 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Hello everybody My husband has schizoaffective disorder and he has been having bipolar and schizophrenic episodes since late december. He has been acting very de oriented  and confused till today. He has been taken haloperidol, lithium carbonate, benztropine (for shaking cuz the lithium) and propanolol since like 3-4 years ago and he's been doing pretty good and focused. But since november his psychiatrist prescribed him metformin to lose some weight. He stopped metformin on January when he started to get sick in case it was interacting with his other meds. Then on middle January his mom had to call to put him in the hospital inpatient room. He stayed there for one week and he came back home slightly better. But after couple of weeks he started to get confused again. I always made sure he was taking his meds properly. Then last week his mom put him in the inpatient again , he was there for 5 days then he came back and didn't improve at all. This last time on the hospital they gave him an haloperidol injection that he has to get once a month, then benztropine pills twice a day, and 1 Haloperidol pill at bedtime. They didn't left clear if he has to take lithium, his last blood test in there shows lithium levels of over 1.5 , so on the toxic side. However on the blood test of his first time on the hospital his lithium level were very low of 0.2. I'm really confused why his meds don't seem to be working when they were fine for 3 years. He has an follow up on next week and a psychiatrist appointment on April 16. Thank you and sorry for my long testament. I would like to hear someone opinion. :)",6.119970238095237,7.512195279605264,5.737293233082711,79.71271929824564,66.59868421052633,8.948370927318296,32.897243107769434,9.23628265651192,2.9774914160401007,1311,56,231,24,21,404,167,304,0.085,0.8340000000000001,0.08,0.1088,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,3,5,10,13,0,4,12,0,24,8,2,2,3,31,41,23,0,2,4,3,1,2,0,1,5,1,2,0,4,14,1,1,1,1,0,7,4,6,0,3,17,2,21,7,37,22,2,67,1,2,0,0,40,23,0,7,38,133,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855786160405562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08033063844231286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09574367545960004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484696048598922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08538351174473534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09858012772119026,0.2208365495869584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10682183438043492,0.0,0.12452314552110673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11064544177101876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821185356290546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15131755695562069,0.0,0.0,0.0809748095040181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10880979712301336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09683945008527296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360837301449723,0.10890352769176123,0.0,0.10489311406211196,0.0,0.0,0.09433104311173257,0.0,0.0,0.0854365901215616,0.0,0.10800575057107606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09135032991026908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42894538239783536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261375363321245,0.07705886556327547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10267346191716066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10281402881311873,0.06541932565968925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821787333157282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194102655014406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061847246983227876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788816785548735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.239581502675672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179968321322012,0.0,0.0,0.10807081201644923,0.13666578200776325,0.10290087623874178,0.0,0.08071339530092347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098964787152244,0.0,0.14517506723854412,0.0,0.0,0.08888285920509308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125887779522078,0.0,0.09151048278409657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15931444330039152,0.0,0.0,0.3097605244684975,0.11756208980779127,0.0,0.0,0.08711409615134452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056738271674382,0.0,0.0,0.06858063325819894,0.0,0.0,0.12433970454419573 schizophrenia,Ryanstrippedout,2019/10/15,"Traumatik Call me Dr. Dimensional, the thoughts I think are exceptional My concepts are too complex and my content is technical It's way too intellectual, and trust me it's all intentional Peoples eyes are wide shut, but I'll make them see like spectacles Everything that we're told is a lie, our DNA is celestial They modified human genotypes straight from that sperm in your testicles That shit ain't acceptable, all this stuff is preventable Our DNA, Skin suit, might look different, but our souls identical Now I've seen higher dimensions, I could never go back to reality No, no, no Now I've seen higher dimensions, I could never go back to reality No, no, no This is a crucial statement, we're living in a brutal nation Where governments bend us over then rape us, with no lubrication Deep lyrics I choose to make 'em, all I'm seeing is mutilation Humanity - who will save 'em? From evil people who shoot and rape 'em I won't lose to Satan, I stamp his jawbone through the pavement Go home, blazing zoots of hazeum, with DMT that's hallucinations I don't like booze or bacon, organic foods I taste 'em My manifestation technique is second to none, now who's the great one Now I've seen higher dimensions, I could never go back to reality No, no, no Now I've seen higher dimensions, I could never go back to reality I research sacred geometry and I research fractal anatomy I'm using neuro-linguistic frequencies and natural analogies To expose these dark forces and help these people in actual agony All I'm seeing is greed, selfishness, sadness and vanity It's madness insanity, it's happening gradually I might have too much empathy, 'cause I feel bad for humanity I'm teaching them manifestation techniques and how to master the strategies Now I've seen higher dimensions, I could never go back to reality No, no, no Now I've seen higher dimensions, I could never go back to reality No, no, no I just wrote nineteen chapters, about dream-catchers and light-green chakras and multi-dimensional planes of existence so that is the reason I might seem anxious They don't wanna me fight me bastards, 'cause I know Tai Chi masters And a few Chinese gangsters, who know some high-key travellers They will come to your house, put a gun to your mouth And then take all your wide-screen plasmas I leave them be, take DMT, I'm hoping I might see answers I've got so many questions, for all them slimy wankers People need to know CBD in cannabis might beat cancer",3.0706357694592974,6.030752494553379,4.297842741136861,79.11338324420676,81.78867102396516,7.434042384630621,27.08183798772034,8.41005564698801,2.488246710239652,1981,86,343,47,55,647,230,459,0.251,0.674,0.075,-0.9983,1,0,0,2,1,0,52.0,5,4,7,4,22,20,9,0,10,0,31,11,4,8,12,71,73,20,0,9,5,0,2,2,0,8,2,0,1,3,18,15,3,1,14,1,1,10,27,13,0,2,10,15,45,7,31,48,10,44,2,2,12,2,30,12,3,10,23,207,63,4,0.0,0.0,0.07328352139953583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08483786666580248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34646824308553764,0.06270258634292895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07668210088509357,0.0,0.0,0.15428994190205228,0.0,0.06468913549101901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3597515030706262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078460041247023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06749204869901189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03797113498475635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080719678558308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29875419469885045,0.0,0.06006167073817392,0.0827943486525846,0.0,0.0,0.06640774117099696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05033571788767872,0.07934375960866323,0.0753280874427155,0.07458794223262995,0.0,0.08665147959768778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238135049256094,0.0,0.0,0.07951653509737036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07337688367525935,0.0,0.0663117393396932,0.0,0.06306229292441938,0.08401396968043517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025522660903964,0.07613624096354323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3983285206046503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05520469642612609,0.0556832325291877,0.34751510921295137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050887450098046114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082503139336159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07549289962362142,0.0841254620215482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07721188862788264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393693068251506,0.06836519194985625,0.0,0.0,0.07708565711459611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859677254785593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292670652112916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04811891669170385,0.0,0.0596183711023352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717580905969111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18066410581338127,0.06485941517800238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0596082446849145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,littlestarling123,2019/10/15,"My husband was recently diagnosed and i dont know what to do My husband has always had trouble with empathy and has always...well just always done some things that are totally symptoms and regular schizophrenic behaviour along with talking about seeing demons and hearing voices. Recently he decided to seek help and started medication and while I sometimes feel hes ""back"" and we are really reconnecting, he also has this illness and we occasionally have issues when I am tired and lose my patience. One of the things is he obsessively cleans and vaccuums. Its always as soon as he walks in the door or at some odd time and it disrupts the household (we have a small child) and sometimes is just really odd. It is to the point where the sound of the vaccuum really agitates me and i have to sit in the bathroom or go outside. He also has zero follow through on household tasks like replacing light bulbs or yard maintenance but will freak out if i suggest someone else does it and or will say he forgot. I now obviously genuinely believe he forgot and is not just being an asshole but it is still really difficult. This is coupled with mixing up requests or forgetting keys or forgetting to make payments on things and also terrible pack rat and super selfish and honestly some super weird dark behavior. I dont really know what I am asking. I guess I dont see how I am going to have a partnership with him without carrying all the burden. He does really great sometimes but its normally after i have nagged and nagged and i really hate doing that. So many things that have happened in our decade long relationship make sense now and I feel so heartbroken for him knowing that he truly is being honest when he says he is confused and doesnt understand why I am upset or why he does the things he does. I worry about how much worse this is going to get. I worry about our daughter and how if I dont take care of him she might have to. I also worry about if we were to separate how he would be taken care of. I imagine that makes me codependent. Is it possible to be married to a schizophrenic or anyone with a mental illness and have a healthy marriage? I am so tired and feel so angry and robbed and sad. I worry deeply for him and i am also lonely. He has some really out there things he wants to do and sometimes i have to tell him that it wont work out and the look on his face kills me. Its just really hard and I know this is hard for him too. Its practically impossible for us to go to therapy together because we have zero help with our child. I feel so lost and stuck and i know he does too.",5.986886810460013,6.408201406311637,6.847558694407332,75.09874403512123,66.49506903353057,10.407813195902527,31.739454094292803,10.31137664058796,3.2612450085894262,2071,78,382,49,31,690,226,507,0.215,0.7170000000000001,0.068,-0.9979,0,2,0,0,0,0,31.0,9,0,0,5,33,26,4,3,16,0,56,10,1,7,3,104,93,66,1,6,20,3,6,1,0,5,9,5,3,2,28,48,0,2,12,1,0,6,8,18,0,3,9,15,51,8,50,75,7,35,1,4,3,0,52,14,0,18,15,288,79,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26148556851147897,0.1632439953515725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04572636537399739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06113638090308191,0.0,0.0,0.05028544516258469,0.0,0.03986476117469182,0.0,0.0,0.07367883591933584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333510489648964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07235936944768083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06637550774421097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861421614416175,0.06692275686636312,0.30657424264632915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0546299207408474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13226461916619586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03416668221803683,0.0,0.14866409069494596,0.0,0.0,0.07209926038584022,0.07204100637677865,0.0,0.057829418314697074,0.0,0.11716384354716815,0.06456495686232579,0.0,0.0,0.0737059830063486,0.0,0.08766704708120561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06825637632718,0.0,0.0,0.07235092408307657,0.0,0.17969950598869272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031949155519075886,0.0,0.0,0.05787335355933984,0.05491612352872716,0.07316133497776707,0.07138739924613821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13095690356821688,0.0663012240734406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06587953472711824,0.06590373141160527,0.06937476335900777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04807354423246952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06407414136424902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04431398488785554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06182030599566875,0.07372410222508148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37704885314541214,0.0,0.12914121280212,0.07021077133209434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10401096075421544,0.0,0.0,0.10422420287151964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055409772100045,0.0,0.2587130476574604,0.0,0.046287586561831184,0.0,0.05222528626493112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797142666160383,0.04916961212018717,0.052562783549903035,0.05715893849613125,0.0,0.07478596258178323,0.0,0.2606769606838679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03813290151193496,0.15032603761467847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06807948520358142,0.07866327001418677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03857222279463343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11801933760220948,0.0,0.0,0.06303935745611004,0.0,0.047609026924543066,0.2656510267413234,0.06664405503050076,0.04645540312678648,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Pflegefall1337,2019/10/15,"Need Help how to Deal with my schizophrenic sister Hi, so i want to know if anyone of you guys know how to deal with a situation like this: My sister is having episodes very often like once a week and sometimes they go on for the whole week. Right now she is sitting in her room crying and screaming. I asked her what's up and she yells at me to fuck off and leave her alone. This has been going on like this for months. Sometimes it's worse than that, sometimes not that intense. The last couple of days she was convinced that my mother poisoned her with some opiates and she screams and yells stuff at my mom for no reason. It breaks my heart to see my mother and sister like this and I really dont know what to do. For clearance, I live in germany and it's pretty hard for authorities to do something. We actually had to call paramedics because she thought someone put LSD in her shampoo and they told me that they can't do anything until there is a risk for self harm or harm against others. I feel helpless the last months and can't focus on work and school. If anyone knows what I can do, it would be appreciated so much.",3.437689282202556,5.049886495575227,3.7694985250737454,90.39996066863328,73.42477876106193,6.084169124877089,24.502458210422805,6.42735559955562,0.5962800393313672,892,27,186,6,18,277,129,226,0.152,0.753,0.095,-0.9038,0,1,1,0,0,0,16.0,1,1,3,1,7,13,2,1,6,0,18,4,1,3,0,34,32,20,0,5,4,6,2,4,0,1,2,4,1,2,17,16,0,0,7,0,0,3,5,8,0,0,5,7,29,5,32,25,3,26,0,1,1,1,30,12,1,5,13,129,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.11751792098929713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12472450442661595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16840862582304353,0.0,0.09909992944167056,0.0,0.1125815906367338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07341026990974647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296790466683025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13324853040949833,0.13228176215562704,0.07766448797145259,0.24830681493792575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411377946140243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06089075355269154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11133143857494104,0.0,0.0,0.13688117904405558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192401829137258,0.0,0.0,0.10787759822227776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14270480288354845,0.08071867733284505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647308319138328,0.1963257186002904,0.0,0.1275132213962446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353352746568369,0.0,0.10633792693856944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410408956251695,0.19224497783404854,0.0,0.08852660228312545,0.08929398582141806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282492322312815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12251603201990485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106089396077895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07714766197553517,0.12381747566054314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284272301126518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12187703995687747,0.09596353569507593,0.0,0.12563006521807826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13536331290213025,0.0,0.0,0.1020361393280889,0.09270943696800894,0.3573117102310238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378583913201926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560439906425128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507173045268043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09936365334816157,0.07103008278325164,0.0,0.19319615181530034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344507753433962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08767120167497433,0.0,0.12272387751754492,0.08554682335507155,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,scrubbyduck,2019/10/15,"weightlifting on antipsychotics (olanzapine) I want to start weightlifting at the gym soon, I feel frail and physically weak since my 10mg olanzapine, has anyone made some strength gains whilst taking an antipsychotic please post some sucess stories.",13.439999999999998,14.041104923076922,9.563717948717953,61.22711538461542,51.051282051282044,12.928205128205128,42.57692307692308,12.161744961471696,5.427707692307692,208,9,29,5,2,58,35,39,0.067,0.7190000000000001,0.213,0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,6,6,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,3,1,3,5,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888323986974305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20886367691875687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3908625733913755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.453433489952133,0.0,0.0,0.3956126985832233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34170080087931537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923773745676106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105818032012632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436429736267872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JackFrost79,2019/10/15,"Does it get any better after quitting smoking? It's been five days without smoking and I feel great physically but not psychologically. I take nicotine gum but I have no motivation AT ALL. Usually the reason to get out of bed, do the dishes and even cook is cigarettes after and during every task.. Last time I lasted 7 days and made a conscious decision to start smoking again just to get my head back intack. I love the feeling of being addiction free and just wondering if it gets any better with time. Interesting fact: back in the 80s schizo patients were given free cigarettes at clinics to keep them coming back..",6.2289473684210535,7.7569829035087725,6.839429824561408,71.40809210526318,66.45614035087719,9.208771929824564,31.793859649122812,9.516144504307137,3.1569859649122805,497,20,81,10,8,163,81,114,0.021,0.737,0.24100000000000002,0.9829,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,4,7,7,0,0,5,0,6,6,1,3,2,26,20,8,0,1,7,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,8,2,1,7,1,2,1,3,0,0,1,4,2,7,9,14,15,1,19,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,2,14,54,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18030510353499984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22494871833083044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3815359342446523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2925571013080106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14247325830062538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21333235044444526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447383917147768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924192263627168,0.0,0.13935252937404033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672574932896475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3456485132812212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18234871330208755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16974311855524093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14701078984716018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696382097895864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492755611203653,0.15650086987507067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17591807827499567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17005373883666594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11706752338705773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435655311437452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19288645924978684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821593674294977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15943500194031934,0.17936396180532702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Munjellii,2019/10/15,"Positive voices? I was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia and I am taking medication, but I still hear voices. I know they are not real, but funny enough they are supportive voices. Is this common?",4.273235294117644,7.690949264705884,5.4561176470588295,68.05652941176476,85.76470588235293,8.60235294117647,24.44705882352941,8.841846274778883,3.376665882352942,161,6,21,5,5,53,26,34,0.087,0.759,0.154,0.3294,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,7,9,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,6,1,1,8,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302377271453878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361881053735125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3667090035504253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17881160820809122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277701151081085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3703355933338179,0.0,0.0,0.32125781064394576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598362019634011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692193411591523,0.0,0.0,0.24463332188381054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,StruggleBuddy92,2019/10/15,I missed School I was confident today is a Jewish day so I stayed home. I was wrong. School was in session. I was studying to be an EMT and I missed my exams. So I got high. Guys. If you're like me. Don't do drugs. You can't afford it,-3.4920440251572344,-2.863327264150944,-0.2863679245282995,104.98227201257863,123.52830188679243,2.5213836477987424,10.077044025157232,4.7782277997778095,-1.875401257861636,177,3,46,1,12,61,38,53,0.149,0.737,0.114,-0.2023,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,9,1,0,0,0,2,12,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,0,10,1,2,6,0,5,1,2,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,28,11,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17839518057771153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207880788905235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22123600777698965,0.0,0.0,0.2738944724754053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922612108870468,0.2774695597788335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514116913428784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5599026561374102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948370814340466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26220071831152664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024374341733071,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BlueInkSz,2019/10/15,"Bethany Yeiser TEDx talk This is a TEDx talk from Bethany Yeiser, a formerly homeless person with schizophrenia who managed to recover and get an advanced degree. I like this, because a lot of the most publicized mental health advocates with schizophrenia never actually dealt with homelessness, at least to such a degree. I don't like to compare stories too much, but I've never heard of someone like Bethany, who made such a dramatic comeback. It gives a lot of hope, I think. Definitely worth a watch. [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iPGd6l76l9A](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iPGd6l76l9A)",10.903571428571425,14.237143611111104,6.730952380952385,69.70500000000001,57.33333333333333,9.142857142857146,37.3015873015873,9.606745405546679,4.09115873015873,495,22,63,9,7,132,61,90,0.0,0.795,0.205,0.9465,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,9,0,2,1,0,1,2,13,8,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,5,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,2,2,3,4,11,6,5,5,0,0,1,0,8,1,0,4,6,42,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.2240037968435964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13992911930933558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11992831793325773,0.2202014526853875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439966783800874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279909854190736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364337622546297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3903036242052823,0.0,0.21720198823986747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313283918901143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16874273188417893,0.0,0.3540800734716115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20043072505561774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19449359240141564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3690007813343947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14708381684031138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bigdaddyhashbrown,2019/10/15,Does this have anything to do with schizophrenia? When I was real young (like 4-5) I would look at peoples heads and they just seemed to get huge. Really weird and freaked me out at the time. I also would imagine ants in my head that had voices and would never leave me alone. Is this just some weird shit or was I showing signs of schizophrenia?,4.210000000000001,5.543064705882355,3.5963529411764728,93.50158823529414,71.05882352941177,6.028235294117647,23.894117647058824,5.6839178017228535,0.27759647058823544,272,7,57,1,5,80,53,68,0.145,0.782,0.07200000000000001,-0.7369,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,4,5,1,0,1,0,9,3,3,0,1,17,12,6,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,2,8,1,8,6,1,9,0,0,1,0,1,5,1,3,5,39,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360467217805029,0.0,0.1822600819413896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18755106368972374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19944616480410493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190739193786796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4678042031093674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413244937923517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134564205613784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913875635895733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17577876038259518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15800456323514456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594122405681262,0.14600541237724385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20748131593150396,0.0,0.0,0.23394702949583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13289654556830927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4857036066296348,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jtvkw2,2019/10/15,"Worried about my psychiatry appointment. I have had a few psychologists and different diagnoses over the past few years. I won't go into the specifics, but halfway through my first year of college I was originally diagnosed with depression, then anxiety and ADHD, put on a host of different meds that never worked got a second opinion who thought it might be seizures. It wasn't, although med seemed to work on that one. (Topamax, if only for sleep, not sure if any of you are on that). Then that psych said it was ASD and I thought cool, I finally have a good diagnosis. Until I moved and went to find an ASD specialist to help and realize that psych didn't do any proper testing, and this specialist is fairly sure I'm not on the spectrum. So now I have an appointment with a psychiatrist. I am tired of bouncing around doctors. I'm not sure if I have schizophrenia, I think so, it makes the most sense given my symptom/family. But I'm worried about, being given a wrong diagnosis again, and nothing getting better, every year just get worse. Do any of you have any experiences like this? Did you do anything to finally make them listen?",4.410893042575289,6.548795364485983,5.202741433021807,78.93693665628246,71.99065420560748,8.680789200415369,31.047767393561788,9.2995712137729,3.005859605399793,904,41,163,21,18,293,126,214,0.154,0.7859999999999999,0.061,-0.963,2,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,3,1,4,8,9,0,0,12,1,21,5,1,3,4,36,39,18,0,3,9,0,0,1,0,2,4,2,0,0,12,11,0,0,6,0,0,4,7,2,0,3,13,3,17,7,23,22,3,25,0,1,0,0,8,7,0,7,15,115,29,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13704888560735715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101930506851247,0.0,0.08723708411399934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938417568636786,0.1015160497502975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008554087657267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821887784905467,0.2314878976591748,0.0,0.23828630468341566,0.0,0.11672048577838087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960800900044462,0.0,0.0,0.11154890597423664,0.10750281470478397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498413162216461,0.1042266663112328,0.09699880350285384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11915801031792884,0.0,0.06480917996327379,0.09564782878303377,0.09120485629272172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07643580106769933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05571213761255135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522395801364235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533361593819201,0.0,0.0,0.12097397569045415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12120202123412682,0.0,0.0,0.0879514483634791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10942043725680901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07727361753767374,0.0867293737398649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088600860546292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11463748804638388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847417122944733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10381392043508357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11411816738300827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32243220999039424,0.11852687228717858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306954381871608,0.0,0.18106339374068345,0.0,0.13106739064414524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057123402771542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660388587132537,0.23161780520132275,0.11621223486488876,0.0,0.12468025887142635,0.0,0.2203059725120952 schizophrenia,brianacooper,2019/10/15,"Homicidal Thoughts Hi everyone. I have been having really dark thoughts lately. I can't stop thinking about killing someone or convincing someone else to kill someone. I can't focus on anything else and I'm worried that I might end up doing it eventually. Have any of you had similar issues? Any advice? Thanks in advance.",3.390000000000001,6.577521362068968,4.327155172413793,76.95211206896555,85.3793103448276,7.037931034482759,33.11206896551724,8.07648339933343,3.494441379310345,261,15,39,6,8,84,46,58,0.182,0.7020000000000001,0.11699999999999999,-0.7329,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,1,4,2,0,0,0,9,0,0,0,0,7,14,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,0,5,2,6,9,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,3,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18229332743382265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537191608210509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535137666613588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31167516843739324,0.0,0.1652268653746064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17825537190144106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19470847934795976,0.0,0.0,0.4127772133729836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21043517086466124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978987957697671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11950793755057636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4741865762797888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15596314913958226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17174907057834812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119532937945026,0.0,0.29619781754511604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894493607677439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jrain007,2019/10/15,"Advice needed to help my recently diagnosed brother My brother is 32 years old and was diagnosed with Schizophrenia earlier this year. Looking back, I now suspect he first started showing early symptoms in his 20s, but I guess my parents and I didn't recognise it for what it was - we could get him help only after he went through a pretty long and obvious psychotic episode. Although he's been on meds now for the last 8 months, he still hasn't accepted his diagnosis, is quite resentful and believes that my parents have forced him into treatment without reason. He has also been out of work since 2016 and his psychiatrist regularly tells him to find a job, as he thinks it's an essential part of his recovery. Before the psychotic episodes, my brother was recognised for being quite academically brilliant and had been feted by several prominent people in his field and was used to receiving lucrative job offers, funding etc. Unfortunately, he ended up burning all these bridges when he was undiagnosed. Now, he still seems to expect that job offers would follow him despite being out of work for so long and having no recent references. My parents and I have been reasoning with him to adjust his expectations and follow the medical team's advice to ease back into employment and regular life routines, but to no avail. My parents are 60+ and their retirement savings are wiped out after supporting my brother since 2016. I've recently moved in with them to support them emotionally, physically and financially but I'm not sure how to help my brother. I was wondering if convincing him to go to therapy would be useful? The psychiatrist has been prescribing meds only and my brother hasn't had any form of therapy since his diagnosis. I'm quite sure he will put up a fight if we propose therapy though. My parents and I have had tried very hard to convince him to return to routines, however he's not responding at all, though he doesn't seem to be depressed. We are worried that he has no social life, he's not physically active (he's usually on the couch watching tv), doesn't seem to be fully aware of adult responsibilities and continues to turn down the job offers he does manage to get. Therapy is the only idea I have at the moment though I don't know how to convince him to go. I would really appreciate some advice on how to help my brother. Apologies if I've missed something really obvious, I'm still trying to figure this out. Thanks in advance.",9.522961553864642,8.525415116740094,9.534393271926316,63.46133760512618,59.72687224669603,12.836043251902282,41.56147376852223,11.911945987284742,5.1864352422907505,1989,95,322,52,22,657,219,454,0.095,0.79,0.115,0.9309999999999999,11,0,1,0,1,0,39.0,3,0,3,8,17,14,2,0,12,0,44,6,0,7,6,74,71,33,0,10,10,12,1,0,0,4,6,0,1,1,10,28,0,0,15,3,1,9,13,4,0,1,16,3,42,10,58,45,6,56,0,2,2,0,64,18,0,9,29,219,52,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981331742731708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054048609799433114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045960891177480034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10393913590164416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05751082512091205,0.07614643277924958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05396203131847644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05821184125723016,0.13719701392043054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059145084445627626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07602530792491458,0.05986125726179967,0.0,0.07537640898322095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061772505316178124,0.05748873409373545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07062193473452953,0.0,0.07682151901249125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445375026587844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060543903995649434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812062534438724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629652270768868,0.0,0.0,0.2682752513188761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03714357368027128,0.055091722724126366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09547617545560548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11962320988188975,0.056755333558137486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15014592528047935,0.06808592318313553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05394661020190737,0.07183336823476379,0.0,0.05011426463000716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0709202821714553,0.0,0.0,0.15420690951823754,0.0,0.0,0.3752320374769188,0.0731892007712151,0.0,0.04685571790520985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06875939956743704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06794273567795547,0.0,0.215658529955012,0.0,0.0,0.0865948207432569,0.13897961176201842,0.20019947160470905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18458364386768356,0.0,0.0763530978289868,0.0,0.16772385425034453,0.0,0.0,0.06889555593331435,0.0,0.052031110664111084,0.0,0.0,0.047837816038556455,0.0,0.16192313031262226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15339189597317904,0.12739826962812578,0.07024787520888623,0.0,0.0,0.05907326321895224,0.0622242349938425,0.309162554022966,0.0,0.0,0.04330646794855703,0.19920911103758446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09177310188381543,0.0735143098321434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167454455620603,0.07443658203975896,0.05576564169117505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06265302664729258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06515062480403583,0.07329428316699567,0.0984070262012326,0.0686370034152107,0.0,0.1440337589738622,0.0,0.0,0.08704651339771086 schizophrenia,Meh_Im_just_here,2019/04/01,"State Guardianship so early? My loved one (35m) has been delusional since Christmas 2018. He's only gotten an official diagnosis two weeks ago. In the last few months he's been hospitalized 5 times. 3 of those times were against his will. The last 2 times have been his decision because he's suicidal. His delusions are triggering his suicidal thoughts because his delusions involve people killing him in truly horrific ways, so he feels if he kills himself he'll save going through all the suffering and terrifying shit. Anyways! This doctor in the BHU of the hospital is telling him she's going to file for state Guardianship. He's only been going through this for less than 6 months!? During this time he's not been medicated consecutively for any real amount of time because, once again his delusions had him thinking the medications stopped him from communicating with God. We are past all that now and hopefully for good but he's still got the paranoid delusions about people wanting to kill him. He's managing that as best he can in the hospital and I feel like things are improving but the doctor is now pulling this crap on him and us. He doesn't have ssi or ss yet but I'm trying to get him planning and making goals. This is all so new and scary but I just can't imagine them stripping him of his rights without even giving him time to stabilize on his medications?! His father is paranoid schizophrenic and that's what they've diagnosed him with. He doesn't want to hear it though but he is complying with the treatment now with support from me and his family. I have a child with him and only want the best for him but I can't be his guardian and I really don't think he needs one. Maybe a payee through the state when he gets a check hopefully but that's only because he's also a drug addict (new in recovery). I just am in shock by all this and don't know if this is common or is this weird? He's not violent or a danger to himself really anymore I don't think. He has no problems telling me his thoughts no matter how crazy they sound and trusts me so....anyways my main question is have any of you been in a similar situation?",4.324424533799537,6.134782004807698,4.8705944055944075,82.59561771561775,71.5,8.215501165501164,29.673368298368306,8.841846274778883,2.4030698717948726,1718,71,328,33,33,548,204,416,0.147,0.741,0.11199999999999999,-0.9144,0,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,2,1,2,4,18,21,7,0,19,0,36,12,2,3,4,64,64,32,5,9,17,1,2,1,0,2,9,2,0,1,16,18,0,1,11,0,1,4,12,11,0,3,12,4,44,10,41,49,10,43,0,1,0,1,60,10,2,8,26,213,60,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09503997243766896,0.0,0.0,0.0772805450874383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06971847778676933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185719071224242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645995659343443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125784977162597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18298180368564015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848670671565492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784665461515718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110208404158856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05758211560758101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08218632707870717,0.0,0.08816249368757344,0.062282001954665614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910967702281144,0.0836317955795115,0.1486406233211134,0.0731231434480829,0.06972647340466838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825913086202556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17318046955649946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893580125044322,0.0,0.047912303871623055,0.14212802368941393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04259214957908752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0786841023151802,0.0,0.0581938806057157,0.0,0.08758486104873632,0.0,0.0,0.263476541245927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13917381257316375,0.0,0.0,0.0646434803480196,0.0,0.16839957661708313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284473805404814,0.11815197254037214,0.2652197971593677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08322396639447081,0.12088042005445868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08342027972335128,0.0,0.0,0.09766248121653998,0.0,0.0,0.09923087018846467,0.11170054343379894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445195197368967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08948986857380394,0.07211688299512085,0.09799490499765354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06962272298804567,0.07288707709128207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907233547208046,0.09893177208221814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15239977512116126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05791906922568514,0.16758586584737162,0.08565472226041458,0.13842368072703434,0.30501505633434495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059190060473829374,0.0,0.08516300246990183,0.0,0.10486780349558683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15426453590167716,0.06920008445719138,0.06993120269131159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08403920850230558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lilsassyboi,2019/04/01,"Weirdest thing someone has said to you? I recently had a bit of psychosis and now that I am on medication I am having trouble believing everything that happened were just products of my delusions. My friends and family all have said things to me that were way too real to chalk up to delusions. For example I had a friend who lives out of town that would call me and ask if I was “feeling funny” and made references to things like my subconscious being flipped without me even realizing that I was having psychosis yet. He would also make what seemed like perfect references to conversations I had with other people, ones who he doesn’t know. My roommate would reference things I had thought about but hadn’t said out loud. It’s like all the people around me knew what was going on before I did. Has anyone had similar experiences? Conversations that you just can’t shake?",8.009074074074075,8.07110793209877,7.6003703703703716,72.63166666666669,62.27160493827161,10.903703703703703,36.518518518518526,10.504223727775694,3.865525925925928,703,30,122,15,9,222,98,162,0.034,0.8590000000000001,0.107,0.8638,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,1,9,8,0,1,3,0,25,1,0,2,3,31,38,7,0,4,5,0,1,3,2,3,1,4,0,0,16,8,0,0,9,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,18,5,19,6,19,16,3,13,0,0,0,0,15,7,0,2,6,98,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11593291741804075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10136679761923607,0.0,0.0,0.12905454837314875,0.13552791916628726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233592827665294,0.1633321955150033,0.0,0.0,0.15827032217035528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14803116699166746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957516983360848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302902061400791,0.14180904120514948,0.13666535719912146,0.0,0.07330147920978881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22400781512827225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239011930790686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12819700176908222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07967203737645381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21247590236743205,0.0,0.1280116747767698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371746644509996,0.09676898533458916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14604260385258436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09823581430733014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010086880911665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650082538242504,0.0,0.0,0.14314095462592002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4137006477084744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319757678667599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12283309877472215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38524803653962814,0.0,0.0,0.11509044413957327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507089556994715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13974646217855666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089488137898765,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hrtf817,2019/04/01,"Invega sustenna I was on Invega sustenna for 2 years and eventually noticed I had dry orgasms. I have not taken it for 3 months now and although my orgasms aren’t dry, I would say only half the semen that should be coming out, is coming out. Does anyone know if this is permanent or if it will return with time.",5.008064516129036,5.620070612903227,6.442096774193548,76.48314516129034,68.6774193548387,8.780645161290323,28.403225806451612,8.841846274778883,2.2651483870967737,246,8,45,4,4,84,48,62,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,10,2,2,0,0,14,14,6,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,3,1,5,0,6,7,0,10,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,3,5,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340077288546703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5765738985769274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928703245090907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18392484479701435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671288981001028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3810218694137508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545301837307571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661415192637085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951476703748921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377386282468293,0.0,0.0,0.21551529484761026 schizophrenia,Phumlani123,2019/04/01,"I planned on killing myself today, the voices came back for a second time. I thought i could handle my psychosis having been through one before and recovering without medication, but a recent life change has caused me to reconsider how much I can really handle. Could use some advice on how to cope when things get hairy. I'm not going to go through with it. I've decided to remove myself from the situation and environment that's causing the extreme anxiety which for me leads to the psychotic symptoms. I'd like to know how other people going through this cope?",7.88820512820512,8.273122692307695,7.962307692307696,68.84935897435899,62.46153846153846,10.394871794871797,35.6025641025641,10.125756701596842,3.7404410256410254,456,19,74,9,6,148,76,104,0.048,0.919,0.033,-0.128,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,0,2,5,2,1,0,6,0,6,3,0,7,0,20,15,7,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,6,4,0,0,3,0,0,6,2,1,0,2,3,1,9,1,16,10,2,13,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,6,56,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185646161315492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14533410489580714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14608281774145834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16165890376939687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21728639646079534,0.0,0.3903233830868558,0.20097354569142944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033669855987773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925665757059897,0.0,0.32390986888162737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210184613501608,0.0,0.10440798563759593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13418842302990594,0.09281458377461788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913847641860872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13965708720667933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12873529819294532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317081432227624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12170598982044598,0.0,0.18758223370288346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135453694935416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974618599980511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12621420510400108,0.0,0.0,0.15082282108553693,0.11077880853018282,0.0,0.1800787331601948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16408163776083526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18313384590759427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SetYourEgoAside,2019/04/01,"I need a little guidance. First things first I'm not diagnosed with schizophrenia but I am diagnosed with BPD. But I've been seeing and hearing things that I know aren't real but at the same time I'm not so sure. I've tried to find information with hallucinations tied to BPD but there wasn't a whole lot I could find. Something I experience a lot is seeing things in the corner of my eye and when I go to look, it's gone. I also experience hearing multiple voices in my head that tell me all sorts of nasty things about me, convince me I'm being watched when I'm in public and tell me that people only want me around to use me, hurt me or pity me. I also experience very strong auditory hallucinations with things away from me, like for example yesterday I heard 6 different planes fly over my apartment building. It's common to hear one plane fly over and you can see it when you look out the window and it'll also shake the walls but I couldn't see them yesterday and they didn't shake the walls. But I was convinced 6 different planes flew over one after the other. And I was mad no one else in the apartment block were as concerned about it as me. I could hear the neighbours laughing and chatting on the ground floor but no one sounded concerned or questioned it. Im convinced it happened. I also have episodes where I have tactile hallucinations. It's usually a paramedic that I feel is there (I dunno why) or a human male like figure. I've never seen him but I could tell you exactly what he looks like because his presence is so damn strong. Something else I've been experiencing a lot very recently is not feeling like I'm apart of my body. Like I know I'm blinking or moving my fingers but it doesn't feel like they're my eyes or my fingers. It's if like my ""soul"" is 90% detached from my body and every movement or thought I have is foreign. That also includes where I am at the time, like my room isn't my room or my bed isn't my bed. I've also shut out all of my friends and acquaintances, I deleted all of my social medias a month ago, changed my number and have tried to go off the grid as much as possible. I'm worried this is going to get worse but I'm so incredibly scared that if I told a medical professional what I'm experiencing they'll say that it's all a delusion and I'm making it up. I'm scared they'll say ""oh but people with schizophrenia don't know they have it so you're lying"". But I know that's not true? Is that true? For me personally I sometimes know what I'm experiencing isn't real, I don't know how I know that but I just do. And sometimes I'm convinced it's real and my partner has to tell me it's not. I'm scared of being labelled as crazy or a liar and I don't know what to do. I'm sorry if my post is in the wrong subreddit or I'm crossing any boundaries. I'm just so scared and I would really like some guidance on what I should do from here. Thank you for reading and I hope you all find something to smile about today ❤️ ",2.683058252427184,4.1926028009708745,4.161791585760518,87.23911456310681,75.19741100323624,6.885747572815534,25.304983818770232,7.554174236665415,1.1430806731391578,2353,80,504,30,50,782,236,618,0.138,0.747,0.115,-0.9372,2,0,3,0,0,0,44.0,0,5,5,4,26,34,3,6,22,0,47,10,7,3,10,108,103,62,0,12,32,0,5,9,3,5,3,9,5,4,37,25,0,1,18,2,0,10,19,12,0,6,13,28,74,22,54,79,12,60,1,2,11,0,36,32,1,20,26,321,111,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05332441908523315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886390609652032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04090795464743194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05355134745925837,0.0,0.0,0.05651828221221175,0.0,0.0,0.03667037055673433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13363889481934366,0.15152805520114646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06363677884946796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14408835033258605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211358569065466,0.0,0.12569985463650196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10050477554716657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05068379134531718,0.0,0.0,0.1765315209925901,0.0,0.0,0.09124962347916114,0.08595052143952184,0.0,0.0,0.1649437237525089,0.1023368549562466,0.0,0.0,0.046476162571343,0.0,0.031428882569726875,0.0,0.10256365146101568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05319550741537171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061737126995844424,0.0,0.2711994884150525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05974820652183337,0.0,0.0,0.06439794592478941,0.0,0.06497850389947908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644800983842705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26450143023626765,0.06029183818645813,0.0,0.0,0.15154697080811422,0.0,0.0,0.15342673419108555,0.0,0.0,0.040154412395825775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06060056248580674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048015724390558116,0.06393601374204493,0.0442213782055561,0.04460470657014221,0.046395802264201945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16305229970521706,0.0457511382632752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08340880839918834,0.052525657240051565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06781653941708833,0.057612554309504425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738817734013366,0.0,0.0601720022574307,0.2054111485161676,0.0385372966984958,0.0,0.059396519483054876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09567649122755638,0.2409054929536991,0.0,0.19174529221588527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06132118427918092,0.0,0.13893244413497485,0.11899109697268223,0.0673394071728802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056696057262943814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21031501441562808,0.05538330780553895,0.0,0.0,0.19982394772983364,0.0,0.0,0.04775692481243062,0.0701545719899535,0.0,0.05702059183054142,0.057481371496009175,0.0,0.0816835747422753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05195523052310893,0.06625303043915567,0.09926954342022426,0.035481404162383205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05428118362190098,0.06716171673996241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06109105700328193,0.06130382125362752,0.04273289985500345,0.06577083998596456,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iwatchgapehornn,2019/04/01,"Just finished from another visit need someones input please! I have been suffering for a long time of paranoia , depression and voices in my head. It has been a struggle. I started taking drugs ; heroin, meth, lsd, weed and so many others but now I'm almost 1 year clean. Even though some drugs helped and others worsened my condition severely but I'm done with that now. I was on paliperidone 6mg for some time and olanzapine, antidepressants (duloxetine) and xanax But got no improvement whatsoever today he increased my paliperidone to 12 mg and gave me 90 mg of duloxetine , 2mg xanax and he also removed olanzapine completely. What do you guys take and what has helped you and how long would i feel any improvement and will i ever have some peace in my mind without all these conversations in my head!? Thanks and sorry for the shitty post i just took 4mg xanax",4.655035714285717,7.040664575000001,5.165892857142861,78.38125000000002,72.0,8.321428571428571,27.67857142857143,9.04235418022936,2.484607142857143,692,26,121,15,14,221,104,160,0.151,0.716,0.133,0.2421,0,0,3,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,0,10,4,0,1,3,0,11,7,2,1,2,29,22,18,0,2,6,0,1,0,0,2,5,1,1,1,7,12,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,7,2,14,1,13,13,5,20,0,2,0,0,10,4,0,4,11,77,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15320252897988398,0.0,0.0,0.12235015528505055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10404193916312303,0.16042874038294755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604124896369827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177448677552342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15656714329042914,0.0,0.0,0.3548515709124692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10105184464549877,0.1383928599898397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07735893794169242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223641869323642,0.0,0.0,0.151489238874286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140342980413897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20509882982885305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707917624349131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15511305475006132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544814737299862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344395502919676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16794271616474635,0.0,0.0,0.1465270488872479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284095577180186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296322825642318,0.0,0.0,0.1712655292777243,0.10829074498927176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15994373534672895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300666041516746,0.0,0.0,0.14085736603108634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15031694469164664,0.0,0.17842538875142425,0.0,0.1450215000336343,0.0,0.16998322593595316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474818518232352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086833552372974,0.0,0.0,0.09852385168419137 schizophrenia,xzraidenz,2019/04/01,"I had to increase my Clozapine dose after taking low dose, & now I am gaining weight. & it is so hard to resist food because it is the only thing that seems to give me stimulation!! Anyone have any idea's to help me not get fat?",4.330625000000001,4.521929145833333,5.645833333333336,83.08250000000002,70.04166666666666,8.066666666666668,26.416666666666664,7.793537801064563,1.368741666666666,181,5,38,2,3,61,39,48,0.076,0.764,0.16,0.6617,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,5,1,1,0,4,9,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,5,0,5,8,1,4,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5577151373955174,0.0,0.17501871921551493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799573336227728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15688883356090433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31120979140335714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13446389146404636,0.2468903487047263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23055071958260145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250800397408325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29053657017512297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19573957413666573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342976975294439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19350832326259146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17098352485075402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134042685245877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizo_senpai,2019/04/01,"Aspie/Schizo Misdiagnosis? We all get that feeling sometimes....""am I misdiagnosed?"" Not being neurotypical can mean so many other things... neurodiversity comes in different forms and shapes... I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia in my late teen years when I didn't leave the house and suspected that my peers had poisoned me ... that was the onset of my illness. I didn't see figures, or imagine voices in my head... but I had some delusions of grandeur. I have been on Olanzapine and Quetiapine (don't remember the dosages)... and I was under the impression that my peers are all against me..so I just used to chat with people all day on the computer hoping to find someone who can understand me...later on, allegedly at one of the best psychiatric facilities in India they diagnosed me with ""internet addiction""... my hope was lost in Indian psychology. I was taking Aripiprazole , Escitalopram and Naltraxeone back then. A few months ago, I went to another psychiatric facility and they did some really oldschool tests on me ( Rorschach, TAT, MMPI) and said that I might have Schizotypal personality disorder with schizophrenia unspecified (non-organic psychosis)...but finally decided that I am on the high functioning autism spectrum... this has changed a lot of things (aripiprazole with setraline) and even though I was skeptical of this too...my [RAADS](https://www.aspietests.org/raads/questions.php?show=b3b3eac9356348&locale=en_GB) results say I might be on the AS... One of my online acquaintances who went to the aspergers IRC, told me I might have it too My problem? I don't relate to aspie people...I am definitely NOT a savant, and more like schizotypal from my own perception... and I am not that cold either... I have tried talking to the aspie community and feel like having an IQ of 107 is not good enough for being called an Aspie. I feel like they all look down on me, because I don't have a hobby/interest I'm good at. but I don't relate to paranoid schizophrenic people either... Anyways... **Not asking for diagnosing advice** I'm just curious if anyone has similar misdiagnosis experience with schizo/aspie. 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It’s a thought I can’t shake off. I have no way to prove this. I don’t here voices or see things and I don’t have delusions I’m pretty sure. Yet I have this deep rooted belief that I have a mild form of schizophrenia??? I really don’t know why, it makes no sense. I just know I do. There is absolutely no way to prove this but somehow I always convince myself I do.",-0.3307575757575769,1.8157681666666683,1.7609090909090916,97.01045454545456,89.55555555555556,4.606060606060606,17.070707070707073,6.1124844417494595,-0.4704444444444445,325,8,76,3,11,108,53,90,0.08199999999999999,0.799,0.11900000000000001,0.5873,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,2,0,12,0,0,2,3,15,19,3,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,0,7,0,0,1,7,1,0,0,1,3,14,3,4,18,1,6,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,51,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22929909810939764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13933816288897044,0.1968696521712289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30289580623289697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346312162374507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839473471273517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803571614748924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17653934076457473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21959627674029608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597246156485428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830786849279784,0.0,0.0,0.2187744534675403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4374745875132032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4973241609292885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,itzyaboikuky,2019/09/24,"How can people with schizophrenia tell real people from hallucinations? Since i dont know anyone with schizophrenia i thought i might get an answer here.I dont know much about schizophrenia but a random thought popped in my head as i stumbled upon an interview with a schizophrenic person on youtube. If u never met me before in your life and i came up to you and ask you something... how would u differentiate me from a hallucination? Tnx in advance to anyone that answers my question :)",4.9305898876404495,7.503501651685398,5.189199438202248,77.67346207865171,71.80898876404493,6.6971910112359545,29.10252808988764,7.645422480735847,2.0156617977528093,393,16,65,5,8,124,61,89,0.0,0.915,0.085,0.7912,1,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,0,5,3,1,2,1,22,13,7,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,6,0,0,7,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,4,0,12,0,15,7,1,9,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,4,1,46,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745118734540947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835118789853756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670349099287675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224512308417906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4601189544220324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10255746185675976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014581025264008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21576019718279635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13865089167162126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20824087049509207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14430141760554102,0.0,0.15139691048411366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27217625911260257,0.17139960598174833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198983820638387,0.0,0.0,0.22342979139398167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16237951045860266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15111958253079047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17157286789453693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116769413599651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394442750926711,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MentalityTransfer,2019/09/24,"Venting for anyone Schizophrenic. Hello, My name is Josiah. I want this to be a place of open and kind speech. This is really meant to help you vent out your feelings, worries, Solutions, experiences, and anything else that will help to aid you on your very unique Journey. I don’t know much but I’ll do the best I can. Please feel free to be as open as you can.",2.160357142857144,4.352071305555562,3.007539682539683,91.82000000000002,79.0,6.336507936507938,21.3968253968254,7.447530270364453,0.63588253968254,282,8,60,4,7,89,54,72,0.024,0.706,0.271,0.9582,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,5,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,9,1,0,0,0,12,14,5,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,5,0,0,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,9,4,10,10,2,6,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,0,0,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19075961771721628,0.0,0.22450470768593486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863040517166565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279031519608149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26686685506976904,0.0,0.0,0.2758884068665159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3657262555382944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840963692820621,0.14993279604011062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20055149463754307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850351430239345,0.2994705566049145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17477321525910125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22510215774336806,0.16091422125126434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770583660700147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schern19,2019/09/24,I thought I was from South Africa The voices told me so so I believed them. I feel like they took away the first 10 years of my life. I can even speak Afrikaans fluently and so do the voices (ek kan verstaan wat alles sê),-0.5329813664596266,1.6823136521739137,0.3119875776397514,104.53021739130438,97.2608695652174,3.4981366459627328,17.440993788819874,5.288315135182226,-0.8603875776397514,172,5,41,1,7,52,37,46,0.0,0.941,0.059000000000000004,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,1,4,1,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,4,7,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,4,9,1,3,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3320116684560865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39813767966252944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23340382390055764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786792907325836,0.25245438211178023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005844182506897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496023882638533,0.17264337155744836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28054384646320746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33766925158618155,0.3926176218908952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22756480902623466 schizophrenia,PapaPoods2003,2019/09/24,"Hi guys, my friend might have schizophrenia but I wanted to help him some way. Hi guys, my friend has been experiencing voices in his head for some time now and has described them as screaming continuous disagreement. He hears only two and he is highly apprehensive about them. When he told me of them, he later confirmed that the only thing they had actually agreed on till then was that I wasn't supposed to know about them. I want to help but he is just too apprehensive about the topic. Also, he won't tell his parents and in our community, mental health issues such as this arent really actually considered real. It might seem like an exaggeration but it is true. Please help me identify the issue.",5.362213740458016,7.2105190000000015,6.0029694656488575,75.35682061068702,68.92366412213741,8.90412213740458,26.07709923664122,9.3871,2.249823816793893,563,17,101,12,10,183,89,131,0.044000000000000004,0.75,0.20600000000000002,0.9732,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,5,0,9,7,0,2,4,0,14,2,1,0,1,17,20,12,0,2,4,1,0,1,2,3,1,3,0,2,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,5,4,16,4,14,12,2,12,0,0,0,0,28,4,0,5,8,70,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.2993536284398621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12265797938645265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23700210934338325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30374074958582337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15741219275962107,0.1630358324938394,0.17287047609769066,0.0,0.3084222653750098,0.162054455621888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201778686369709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842936703038324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493375029034052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15457102613714852,0.32542401259347703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333048959584889,0.0,0.0,0.17031040646104936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683652478368149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745800886144171,0.09825919461309968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13963144700431074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340609338350962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018988971746426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943714703305351,0.0,0.0,0.1465612212668437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14983003262621414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809350678649828,0.12174595318691454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mokkoloko,2019/09/24,Delusions but not psychotic so I am schizophrenic? I had several psychotic episodes due to weed abuse. The last one was pretty heavy and long lasting. I have always felt that something changed after that. Had intrusive thoughts here and then. But now I have the same delusions like thought broadcasting when I was psychotic. I now it's not real and my head is rational thinking. I guess that means I'm fully schizo?,3.774666666666669,6.912056866666667,3.550666666666668,84.44866666666668,80.33333333333334,7.6,31.0,8.515128840125781,3.0370000000000013,335,17,57,8,9,101,54,75,0.076,0.821,0.10300000000000001,0.2755,0,0,1,0,1,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,8,2,1,0,0,15,15,8,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,7,1,8,1,2,8,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,10,39,12,0,0.0,0.27282389491411835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19159718669950204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.243587626502189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22108850318746592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25366055490858924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363161760207116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3753900080833531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249482656369283,0.0,0.0,0.20377542897589307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508238123546361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15603210674313328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342601599942617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26208960200253884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601315460286046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772676373780634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475431748130008,0.0,0.3656060590879745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,henrygravery100,2019/09/24,"My reoccurring hallucination. This is my first time posting anything substantial here on Reddit so kind of nervous. But one reocurring hallucination I have is of a spider lady. I know, super descriptive. So this hallucination is a woman although I can never see her face as 1) she is only appears in shadows or in very dark places 2) she has the cliche long black hair around her face. I also cannot see her clothing. Her spider appengedes are growing out of her back, think of how Spider-Mans Iron Spider costume legs are. She's been passive so never moving or talking just standing there, watching. I know that it's a hallucination so I tend to walk right through her with no trouble. I wanted to share this because I think it would be interesting. If anyone has a story of their hallucination they want to share, I'd love to hear it.",4.18714285714286,6.540843751592362,5.393762511373974,76.36587579617837,73.26751592356688,7.033484986351231,28.411737943585077,7.957251820313856,2.0677992720655136,667,27,115,10,14,221,102,157,0.048,0.813,0.139,0.9051,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,2,2,11,8,0,1,5,0,14,5,4,1,2,19,26,12,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,7,3,0,0,4,0,0,4,4,2,0,2,1,6,21,6,17,23,0,19,0,0,4,1,17,7,0,4,6,84,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616457449790587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14133614405836628,0.0,0.16633829574096998,0.17994128914647084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15542785575473875,0.0,0.12321844481089265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17193428813375966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22781866319234426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104904898416793,0.2221741007220127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17888140832761232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824329896537054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21483546692046893,0.0,0.0,0.3117949731052712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697060111127507,0.15373131003427004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21118603883893192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935876086285292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17262053940334382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.322147776910215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16246690693991575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590374220514975,0.0,0.0,0.1178654200344369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667809538276004,0.2384466463916167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14358953516018302,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,oshuajx,2019/09/24,"Feeling clear this week Feeling good this week, clear headed and awake, and I just wanted to share. Anyone else have really good ""normal"" feeling periods and do you worry about sz symptoms or psychosis taking you back down? I hope I can keep this going.",6.817318840579713,7.961983195652177,6.294347826086959,77.24557971014494,64.8695652173913,7.872463768115942,28.3768115942029,7.793537801064563,1.9469942028985519,201,6,32,2,3,62,34,46,0.051,0.581,0.368,0.9321,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,14,11,4,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,4,3,11,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,4,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645134890384371,0.2410725194640949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18091606371697533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19654653925502705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3568944382097872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13371524313662153,0.39468398422757184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414655142209989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336864722025053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091279827342592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305247851378299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15072661487172614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24454636758379966,0.17690153980964596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387744444591605,0.0,0.3774554046576122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389386129774836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,-CosmicSock-,2019/09/24,"I think my friend might be schizophrenic and I don’t know what to do. So pretty much I have no idea what to do. I’m a paranoid fuck and have had a couple transient psychotic episodes or whatever the fuck and occasionally hallucinate whatever, only point in saying that is I feel like I sorta engage with whatever the fuck she is experiencing because I don’t always have the most solid grasp on reality. Her family has practiced brujeria, she thinks she’s cursed and ngl I sorta believe her. She talks about seeing ghosts and my ass doesn’t really know if it’s legit or not but she sees them daily, has conversed with them, typically tries to avoid them now but they still watch her. People around her have apparently witnessed creepy shit according to some stories I’m inclined to believe but I honestly don’t know. Like one room that has given me the creeps all my life (and no one else really feels that way), she’s mentioned how she sees the room filled with ghosts. A couple days ago while pretty much on her own she saw some creepy “demented” man crawl out of our pool and apparently the dog freaked out too. Today she was going on about how someone is hitting her with spoons really hard (she can’t see them but after hitting herself with different things she’s almost certain it’s a metal spoon), talking about whether she should stop using spoons or start using more spoons, etc. She’s asking me to help her figure out why this mystery thing is hitting her with spoons and I honestly just don’t know what to do. I’m the only one she has told all this stuff to and really don’t know what to make of this all.",3.587142857142858,5.791818146496817,4.341533212010924,83.90982484076436,74.54140127388536,7.415650591446768,23.953139217470433,8.306716005460428,1.5077674249317563,1294,40,246,23,28,414,161,314,0.094,0.8109999999999999,0.095,0.3832,3,1,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,0,5,0,11,13,4,1,11,0,27,7,2,5,4,61,58,22,2,2,11,0,3,2,1,2,2,1,2,1,15,19,0,2,12,1,0,2,10,6,0,3,5,11,43,7,29,47,11,23,0,0,6,4,39,11,5,11,11,168,58,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283688270373576,0.0,0.10487203089016353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08714380301559194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09323196104125793,0.09790847233977076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06384247495760947,0.0,0.0,0.2359898365613314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317636476821405,0.0,0.067542227191222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10942062624360743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08748852982086636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680170552505355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098730183621557,0.0,0.10590933431022732,0.0748191786623279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0809141876681104,0.2904637697676539,0.0,0.0,0.059520508888143635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938175662813962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0701983542979636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822749449198035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877845212894744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07397394145366093,0.10233163832112893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06990813097598345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110204757100936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539772949014133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21290340544702932,0.15930386601009533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07260663964699579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900376224769264,0.0,0.0,0.21309625249308575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683710431124465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08328555046610328,0.0,0.0,0.33382520630907764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750390570562106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873744338269747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07412847835641732,0.0,0.08363756441213968,0.08755902302300646,0.0,0.0,0.11989086685522743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683561167107819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13915600180952914,0.1342135924194403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09927185492650777,0.10007406427991716,0.0,0.07110483880799025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809062986400211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831298500362821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09450259305913132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PlanetExperience,2019/09/24,"I think my friend might be suffering from schizophrenia. Any advice? Long story short a good friend is showing really freaky behavior recently. He claims to hear voices talking about him near constantly, thinks there are people spying on his internet connection, and today he told me he spent 2 nights alone in our usual camp spot because he felt unsafe and watched at home. I don't know who to go to or what to say. He shuts down any questioning I do about the validity of his claims, and they're always the same, voices talking about him. I don't think anybody has really noticed anything, and Im afraid he's isolating himself mentally. It's been almost 2 weeks now where every time I see him there's a new story or a new stalker or a new cruel line he overheard from people who have no reason to give a shit about him. Has anyone ever had a familiar situation? What the fuck do I do? I want to contact his parents or something but that's a huge fucking step when he hasn't done anything threatening yet. I'm afraid his reality is all fucked up and that he's suffering from it. I made a decision barely 2 days ago to distance himself because his vibes have been so off lately, and I can feel it fucking with me. I'm starting to think they might be symptoms. Im not a mental health professional so I have no idea what he might have but I'm desperate. Tl;DR: Friend might be seeing the onset of a mental illness, what do?",4.2785238095238105,5.75154761428572,5.2871428571428565,80.90452380952381,71.07142857142857,8.190476190476192,28.333333333333336,8.704169506293173,2.2061190476190484,1132,42,212,20,21,372,156,280,0.129,0.805,0.066,-0.9476,1,1,1,0,0,0,25.0,1,0,1,0,13,14,6,2,14,0,28,8,1,2,2,35,52,15,0,1,7,1,2,0,3,4,3,4,1,0,11,7,0,0,11,1,1,2,6,10,0,0,8,9,26,4,25,37,2,32,0,2,3,4,37,11,5,10,19,130,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09036102205796252,0.08196944603050779,0.0,0.09259576609862936,0.0957714652178998,0.0,0.0,0.07694279525708726,0.0,0.0,0.125766110094192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465746616734631,0.0,0.15219054971196067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11273821681824382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09992767091983656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059635769591694664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09462934244874464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08364478692791134,0.07791031520964069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04675582166289093,0.0,0.08878610238222921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143272462194596,0.3419496448161756,0.0,0.08870605074579796,0.05255306941514447,0.07755979921812163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09829173000558714,0.10422088140147703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09275536862651564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10438784615387108,0.19976783844632487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05081932331039773,0.0,0.10431065900190872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08183340987520887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749774515984587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795652955923033,0.3923860012108871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679255171813887,0.0,0.0867772229837574,0.0,0.0,0.10527818355067532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10267745582642897,0.0,0.0,0.12821468917679332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035880307809306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11847783496112345,0.09507499042073847,0.09130338185933534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07353618772227123,0.0,0.0,0.14737390159629932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09491955503209834,0.0,0.10394062396145767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711882453153127,0.0,0.0,0.06545103765871607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09611217038076852,0.0,0.14864843821468593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23700523972770546,0.0,0.0,0.05392024424431405,0.0,0.08765114378855952,0.08835944693688158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10184310108019276,0.0,0.05454144824205896,0.0,0.07417419142642306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Yeezyducky,2019/09/24,"Reactions after being diagnosed How did you, or your friend/family felt like after you've been diagnosed? Do they treat you different? Did They abandon you thinking you're a monster, like my ex gf? Or maybe they didnt care at all, and most importatly, how did this affect you?",3.6969230769230776,6.230557923076925,4.804461538461538,79.14053846153845,75.53846153846155,8.775384615384615,25.784615384615392,9.3871,2.639456923076924,220,8,39,6,5,72,37,52,0.098,0.747,0.154,0.4822,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,5,3,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,3,1,11,10,5,0,0,2,1,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,1,9,4,3,3,2,3,0,1,0,0,10,1,0,3,4,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30693798877787465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.611113748538459,0.0,0.31453056153903003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28380078931557096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890528093881232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23258855078260035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941532028220684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024426760660756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19289908145779455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,toshirostar,2019/09/24,"My friend is showing signs of schizophrenia and I don’t know how to approach the subject. Hello Reddit & the lovely people on this platform. Lately my friend Male 19 has been acting strange. Our whole group of friends have noticed that something has been up with him. We would really like to approach him about this subject but would not like to have him get defensive or feel any offense from us asking. He has not been diagnosed with schizophrenia but has been showing these symptoms(BELOW). It is scaring us and we want him to be safe & mentally healthy. If you have any tips or leads on how we should talk to him please reply or inbox me! Thank you!!! (From what I know, his blood related uncle has schizophrenia) Symptoms & actions: -verbally mumbling thoughts that cross his mind - Speech has been out of context - Subject of speech has been unrealistic and fantasy. - Losing motivation to work and go to school - Replies to simple questions with a non relative response. - Has been slower (thinking wise) over the past month. - says he’s been going to a “different place and has been speaking to our friends in the future” (Scary)",4.933090484832771,7.672036817733992,4.271423386051334,83.46835882810475,72.44827586206897,6.63821623023075,30.38864402385273,7.669130373188453,2.1463261083743843,906,40,153,12,19,270,125,203,0.049,0.782,0.17,0.9769,2,0,1,0,0,0,37.0,7,2,0,4,3,14,2,1,6,0,28,4,1,4,0,38,40,13,0,5,8,0,1,2,4,3,2,4,0,1,7,12,0,2,7,3,0,8,3,4,0,0,10,5,21,10,26,26,1,20,0,1,0,1,31,8,0,5,6,104,28,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4253360377897039,0.0,0.17796843723910766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12232946700966435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328125800857777,0.0,0.13671306035491074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616297909622149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4043854107583384,0.0,0.06836505471017057,0.0,0.14873303513843078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14382627473055815,0.0,0.14760737177962904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278558890246776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14639052854197654,0.0,0.0,0.1180995318742443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13186858983867888,0.0,0.13212376991078112,0.0,0.1044452540629256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489764912650413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249135617323886,0.09071667974306538,0.0,0.13671306035491074,0.14363680157224865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465847988854206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08382749184065683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10405919686672922,0.13100622627309158,0.13242976275533047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10073668303068163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136005898166951,0.0,0.1051743201220446,0.0,0.12047144405327775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08384502808473142,0.0,0.10388230540325236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147990035369493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07718022208945756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14609219494743272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09526221216399354,0.0,0.0,0.18590778911914327,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,_kiibo_,2018/11/29,"Schizophrenia can someone please help me... I have multiple family members with this disease that are closely related my moms aunts first son (a cousin of some sort??) two of my actual cousins great grandma & then her great grandfather too I randomly see like... shadows?? and dot shaped things? it’s been getting worse but I don’t know what’s happening. I will sometimes also see my friends randomly and start talking to them until someone asks me who I’m talking to and they just disappear. I have a psychologist I regularly go to and I talked to him about this, and he said he will do further testing. I’m just anxious and want to get the opinions of people who have schizophrenia ",3.0897112860892406,6.029662905511812,3.6001889763779538,84.3310971128609,81.36220472440945,6.851233595800526,30.51391076115485,8.021203637495839,2.6043274540682417,547,28,96,11,15,171,88,127,0.054000000000000006,0.826,0.11900000000000001,0.8053,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,2,1,5,4,0,0,3,0,10,0,0,0,0,18,23,10,0,1,3,5,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,8,8,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,3,16,4,11,19,1,9,0,0,2,0,20,3,0,5,5,63,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.16584470638389134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359073326286688,0.0,0.18413855777054824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19199283575249773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588784134896415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16021182398698522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445576590382598,0.0,0.0,0.13130138238599132,0.0,0.17758160312472115,0.0,0.09658534952345584,0.0,0.0,0.37473648046122404,0.0,0.0,0.15028443128541036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391254397004645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09339896145182708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08302799521698077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19904101201047972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11782052605107375,0.0,0.0,0.1865518399644658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616594400422981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27085306252753394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28799273208643483,0.0,0.16808289088148842,0.0,0.12029005002547452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4097932296113575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290588172152985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660144752404444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10023971769109766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17319150357538682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shcciszothrw,2018/11/29,"Is it okay to communicate with your voices? It's kind of ""different"" but I thought communicating with them might help. Sometimes I have trouble conveying what I mean, so telling them about my day can help me practice that, and I'm also kinda lonely. They're not really negative? Like they're insulting every now and then, but they're pretty much neutral. I've even had a couple positive experiences.",4.559902152641879,7.297840684931509,5.6113894324853275,73.40616438356166,73.65753424657535,9.102935420743641,29.606653620352247,9.606745405546679,3.3675612524461838,322,14,53,9,7,106,59,73,0.153,0.595,0.252,0.8689,1,2,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,2,0,5,6,1,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,11,8,7,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,1,8,3,5,5,1,3,0,1,0,0,7,0,0,2,4,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046839615269481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28320496760977343,0.0,0.1650672523951304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26741436995039064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690532540269988,0.0,0.21564979798105888,0.0,0.0,0.2503692392173973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3431171860477437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665336308736386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250447540243111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27880572713774976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715236155316332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18815347122514076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26039423304140097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639687960820749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25314213225363164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237124984499808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031965430097765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LiraeFerox,2018/11/29,"Anyone else have wings? I feel and see wings on my back. They feel as solid as any other appendage I have. They are there 24/7 and move in accordance to my emotions. Does anyone else have them?",1.0860526315789478,3.6708039210526335,1.6582105263157914,96.71047368421057,88.73684210526315,4.092631578947368,15.494736842105262,5.6839178017228535,-0.7387536842105265,151,3,31,1,5,46,27,38,0.0,0.9470000000000001,0.053,0.2406,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,7,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,5,7,0,4,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17665591566181285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632814557629459,0.5323403954729565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997509486369503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22733086286971466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4340173764660285,0.29221192280813874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627001020288331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27609972555976314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20700705072018014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,False_Noise,2018/11/29,"Is there CBT or med that would help with paranoia-type delusions? I'm on a throwaway account. I take seroquel every night, about 100mg. Haven't had visual hallucinations in years and my sleep is pretty good. I've tried other meds(rexulti, risperidol, trazadone), but seroquel is the one that's been working the best. The thing that persists though, is the paranoia. It's kind of always been there under the surface, but since september, there is a new rage/anger that comes with it. I'm always thinking people are plotting against me, and I take any perceived slight as an extreme, personal attack/insult. I try to stay aware from places where being followed/monitored is a real possibility (large department stores, anywhere that's flooded with security/cops/etc.) as to not confuse myself even more, but it doesn't seem to matter. No matter where I am or what I'm doing, my mind will just start connecting the dots and string together conspiracies that I cannot let go of. I told my psychiatrist about all this, but I don't think I'm being taken seriously. It's like something really bad has to happen before she gives a \*\*\*\*, and I'm not going to sit around and wait until I explode on somebody. Like, if I close a door, the door comes off the hinges. If slam my wrist on a table out of frustration, everything than isn't weighted down, that's made of glass, ceramic, or metal, vibrates and slides a few inches in every direction, and stays vibrating for a good 4-5 seconds. I feel like this is serious, but I'm not even sure how to ask for help, what kind of help I should be looking for. &#x200B; This is what prompted me to ask about CBT, in case anyone is curious. The title of the article is kind of misleading, it's about CBT that helps a patient doubt delusions that aren't rooted in reality, I just can't figure out what it's called =\\ : [http://www.psychiatrictimes.com/schizophrenia/reasons-patients-doubt-medication-resistant-delusions-schizophrenia](http://www.psychiatrictimes.com/schizophrenia/reasons-patients-doubt-medication-resistant-delusions-schizophrenia)",8.73618003674219,10.306802907042254,7.514635639926523,68.67742804654014,60.77464788732395,8.990814451928967,31.20943049601961,9.085049710711278,2.627301285976732,1692,56,270,25,23,514,203,355,0.094,0.7909999999999999,0.115,0.8521,1,0,1,0,0,0,101.0,0,0,0,3,16,16,1,2,20,0,31,3,2,3,2,51,57,22,0,4,15,0,2,3,0,3,0,0,2,1,24,16,1,1,6,0,2,6,11,6,0,2,6,3,20,10,43,44,4,33,0,0,1,0,11,19,0,8,8,176,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17962999292681026,0.11695329592619325,0.1311593082826559,0.07340312173208717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547438425845385,0.0,0.0,0.096089773012301,0.20181926408147527,0.1227977012887646,0.0,0.0,0.09012566184590748,0.0,0.0,0.0918492655192797,0.0,0.1132767106193722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021913922667197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18596206282406866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203819939643371,0.1425871319475483,0.0,0.18188875674807534,0.0,0.09700980315336907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054577871043869325,0.07711258901277834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10354619438241187,0.1226899471975582,0.1810704451067199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09545127200965547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894004954950328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33720971133542155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11037629444161426,0.0,0.15820257004842078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064268667084613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10213574442973744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989736652821975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898895688377927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424943751046392,0.0,0.1012946819692307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07314315704066955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483222968761045,0.09424932743958217,0.11277466462342478,0.0,0.0,0.1216864969462344,0.0,0.1098141147260176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12285971982392607,0.06914933550614043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982648169886558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08928935141380419,0.0,0.10801827718262752,0.0,0.0,0.08309773488040638,0.0,0.0,0.07640071687286805,0.23010004687316876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10173247792193163,0.0,0.16231538057509587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07171075496985274,0.1383276023234392,0.10605082025909787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10314160523578662,0.0,0.1465687891754733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13144223530477495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07858184141434893,0.0,0.0,0.07667770919020565,0.0,0.1311593082826559,0.06951002967514969 schizophrenia,ab_azad,2018/11/29,"My elder sister don't believe she is schizophrenic. My elder sister has schizophrenia. She is taking medication about 2 years continuously. She is finished her graduation 2 years ago, now finding for job. she don't believe she has any problem. Doctor said she need to continue medication otherwise it may come again. The problem is.. She don't want to take medication anymore :( how can i convince her that she is schizophrenic? Another problem is: she cant go far from home alone. She think she will get lost. But all the job interviews are far from home and missing all the interviews and every time tell next time will go. Any suggestion? 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When we first started dating and talking he talked about how he heard voices and lots of different whispers at night but he never understood what they were saying. He would tell me about the shadow with red eyes that lived in his closet that stared at him while he slept, That went on for a few months. He hadn't said anything about him seeing things for about 9 months until today. We were having dinner with my grandparents and he was kinda of just playing with is food instead of eating it. When we got in the car he told that there were maggots in his food, which couldn't be possible because we were sharing food. I don't know if this is just me over reacting. I just need your guy's thoughts and opinions ",5.395,6.643902944444445,4.612111111111112,87.64399999999998,68.16666666666667,7.14888888888889,26.9,7.1686216300943375,1.214346666666667,600,18,115,5,10,178,99,144,0.0,0.961,0.039,0.6709,2,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,4,1,1,1,12,2,0,0,3,0,14,7,2,2,1,28,26,11,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,1,9,11,5,0,3,1,0,2,4,0,0,1,14,9,16,2,20,9,2,21,0,0,4,0,27,7,0,4,12,81,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346076841221936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971335478248096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709002937682887,0.0,0.0,0.1431449431593115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16737731126775862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13913618775392403,0.5933839580100827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082528393085213,0.0,0.0,0.16196424121341751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989613918099988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14443907437876538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390649921380336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611268382950272,0.0,0.0,0.1212882461690929,0.12615855856789554,0.0,0.0,0.15350336854037622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18440540829970925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15559658582992353,0.1300808223270632,0.0,0.0,0.13034751258521055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157787079330308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26294959909573584,0.1429711189859851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086714744984309,0.0,0.0,0.1298596963937045,0.0,0.0,0.15504927866243387,0.15630222172141536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15163498407767564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161984659395177,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cutecatmeow1908,2018/11/29,"Had everyone hear my thought? I have feeling that everyone know what i think. It's absurd but that thought just clingy to my mind. Or i talk what i thought so people hear it? I dont know anymore. It happen when i am at workplace, never at home. 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Has this happened to others that use this medicine. I had my period this month earlier and I didn't have sex either. I was wondering what to do about it. I was going to talk to my doctor about it.",1.097031746031746,3.662527528571431,2.446190476190477,91.37769841269842,88.0,5.396825396825397,23.49206349206349,6.937597516519254,1.0000158730158737,277,11,55,4,9,89,46,70,0.0,0.953,0.047,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,10,5,1,2,0,10,16,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,9,4,2,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,2,11,1,10,11,1,5,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,2,2,46,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200930924858154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20655565823582803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3428930381922444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17773204675743784,0.262303648760052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765466988515362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524701938914861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496186373313355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35032992240338506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25136106668185604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270098889687148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391430716378104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Athleticnerd31,2019/04/15,"My doctor has my Geodon at 8 PM and I have been so unstable. When I had my old psych doctor, she had my Geodon at 6:30 PM with meals, and now this new psych doctor put it at 8 PM. I have been having rapid crying spells, mood swings, and I have been completely unstable. Isn't Geodon supposed to be with food? I will have it switched back this Thursday because I spoke to the admin at my mental health center. I think my doctor is a quack because he has messed me up so bad on meds in the last two months. I just want to be stable again. I have schizo-affective disorder and my mental health sucks right now. I have been eating a little bit at 8 PM because I usually don't eat meals right before bedtime. I meet with the counseling center at my college on Wednesday morning and in the afternoon with my new therapist.",4.433752771618625,5.19629606707317,5.046496674057651,85.43641906873617,70.03658536585365,8.158758314855879,26.494456762749444,8.296473431620573,1.5703,641,19,131,9,11,206,88,164,0.135,0.843,0.022000000000000002,-0.9594,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,8,4,1,0,6,0,21,11,0,0,0,12,25,8,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,4,9,5,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,7,1,23,0,18,15,1,31,0,0,0,0,4,16,1,0,14,86,27,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10119679964581572,0.10988541421708227,0.24067717227997726,0.0,0.11198691227785007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14367953742584247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13798626328046076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14456288154673155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15083174247268868,0.5388167870319712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693313452855388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15913835480569732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27978179661283514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072763589632278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13190366778385193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14618446638446542,0.0,0.2652555498716826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050465593506436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542115616819815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380982345768366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230026111236726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22478140814498407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15280457242496712,0.0,0.08432773511808155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12855982354770354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14494528578965518,0.0,0.07762455894387969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cynicalskeptic_,2019/04/15,"Anyone experience this? When I have some hallucinations it's more of a deja Vu type of feeling. Like I've been through this before and I'm redoing my life over. It makes me very vulnerable and scared about my future. Basically wondering why everyone else doesn't see what I see....even when I try to explain to this to my boyfriend he tries to understand. I usually get over it by using the touch feel smell reality check and say I'm okay, this is reality. Does anyone else get this way? Or am I the only one with this type of schizophrenia? Help",1.7454780733285418,4.398643130841123,3.720934579439256,83.04525521207765,84.98130841121495,7.404457225017973,23.18404025880661,8.384062270229773,1.801651905104242,433,16,86,11,13,146,73,107,0.052000000000000005,0.86,0.08800000000000001,0.4182,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,3,1,5,1,0,2,0,13,17,6,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,10,4,0,0,5,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,6,9,2,13,16,2,7,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,3,5,49,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26789274151436737,0.19628049505388329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16300730233042485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16763940773441008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200551610931333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265265628113455,0.0,0.0,0.1830481140209672,0.0,0.18738686489175527,0.0,0.0,0.19372156054816791,0.13685373573345838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200169116722428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840166384844792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530769003160634,0.0935887511621602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12787080870515352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298090806249015,0.14569345433914133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523398000042825,0.19178950934359493,0.0,0.30530425074281553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601194772136273,0.0,0.0,0.1994254275723104,0.0,0.16545024437073425,0.2109812614840473,0.1580607963056009,0.0,0.15205500423590734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17285718886343254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20774355697689148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Mobilefootwear,2019/04/15,"Difficulty following conversations? I don't know if anyone else is experiencing this, but I have a hard time following conversations. Especially with people who don't know me. Sometimes I only hear a few words. Sometimes I get whole sentences. Inevitably, I fail to follow conversation. Sometimes I act appropriately and give a noncommittal laugh or general agreement. But this is based on the tone of the conversation and the speaker's body language. I can only follow the conversation when there is something important going on (you've got a doctor's visit tomorrow) from people I know. Still, I frequently find myself talking with those people I trust and have to have several sentences spoken back to me to understand what was said. I don't do it in public (mostly to do with anxiety I think). I can follow text without a problem. Anybody relate?",5.284854586129754,8.370526791946311,6.49876510067114,66.16206263982104,73.02684563758389,9.074004474272929,32.08098434004473,9.558583805096642,3.9531687695749436,688,33,99,19,15,230,92,149,0.069,0.782,0.149,0.9117,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,9,0,14,2,1,0,0,21,30,8,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,6,6,0,0,6,0,0,8,4,2,0,0,3,5,16,3,14,27,3,17,0,1,0,0,12,3,0,3,6,73,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12425773389568327,0.0,0.0,0.1135741275060614,0.16642769674300434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248978683060194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18042199254102226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16625295548705193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13568857994987915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484571555648435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08486244403971457,0.15581668931917408,0.09231213903654092,0.0,0.12990930265855144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455044720621213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18306927837922826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267800177499459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470691347047899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378234329279039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15542260833338367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545071667637324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834985267998665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12504577320503332,0.4819392776214242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12971600241524553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130554270652024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407793914615687,0.0,0.0,0.09471365115223844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16909430849834112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18134616831545064,0.0,0.15657575149613362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,buildingelevator,2019/04/15,"How is your family treating you? Not being a functioning member of society comes with a cost. Many of us stay home and indulge in hobbies or other non-productive endeavours that don't benefit anyone. My father never accepted that. He used to call me good for nothing, for example. One day he removed me from his inheritance and we haven't been speaking since. My mother was always more permissive, so she took it in strides. I live with her now and it's not going so bad at all. Apart from that my other family members try to take as much distance from me as possible. They act surprised when I show up at family reunions and they can sometimes snap. For instance one time my uncle called me lukewarm, as for saying that I have no personality, no emotions. &#x200B; What about you? Were you more lucky, or is it all a shit show for you as well?",3.8353439153439126,5.9601728518518575,4.947548500881833,80.20111111111113,73.56790123456791,8.085361552028218,28.23809523809524,8.841846274778883,2.4512243386243378,670,27,121,14,14,220,111,162,0.102,0.8390000000000001,0.059000000000000004,-0.8091,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,2,5,2,0,7,9,1,0,3,0,10,1,1,2,3,19,15,14,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,10,8,0,0,1,2,2,5,7,2,1,2,4,2,23,7,24,10,5,17,0,0,0,0,21,6,1,3,5,94,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308288219822774,0.17035976769428304,0.19105292512728425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099395999686365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13128135204545033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32110094555983065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354406200003584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140101432004156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17686375888427402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44467029795536295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935802423298235,0.1318779377716221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15771555438546614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388378901850853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15940759761785062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558290668336628,0.0,0.12126627213372106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15086742479257187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21308764568274471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13728808068891382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177254374809361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12503643493360336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16139540455267676,0.13006314224806814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555055203573111,0.0,0.0,0.16758736990402912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11821817550756787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168268467385192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17468947230421233,0.10674955621141133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891295834875692,0.1357971371527896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14136958893065166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19105292512728425,0.0 schizophrenia,carneadevada,2019/04/15,"Does anyone sometimes recognize visual hallucinations as just that, hallucinations? Sometimes they start and before it takes over I sometimes have a ""God damnit it's happening again"" moment before I get lost. Same with auditory sometimes. I find myself curled up pretty often telling myself it's not real and the voices argue with me but there's always a little voice in the back screaming telling me it's not real but I can't always hear that voice over the rest.",5.071071428571429,7.9106875357142865,5.362142857142857,75.32035714285716,72.45238095238095,6.5809523809523816,24.785714285714285,7.645422480735847,1.6273857142857149,379,12,58,5,8,120,55,84,0.11199999999999999,0.8420000000000001,0.046,-0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,5,3,1,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,14,8,5,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,5,9,0,7,7,2,9,0,1,0,0,5,5,0,1,4,42,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669635221444111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11216894865395424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12335258816985885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730101252010281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14038406574395276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14662039168186702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0838124961834445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418583130448847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808042811998726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16078234556015553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511668498220287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320416413072494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651847110770052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6346354082911622,0.0,0.11354565091504056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206153966564864,0.0,0.2804271883342381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lockedinforeverhelp,2019/04/15,"Need help please I need someone to talk to and I have nobody,,,,,, psychiatrists are all USELESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!@!!! &#x200B; I cannot live independently anymore and my life is DUMB!!!!!!!!! I can't type properly or read even though I was a real good reader....... this is the best I can type!",2.9529411764705884,5.851820274509804,3.226960784313725,87.06632352941178,81.54901960784316,5.752941176470588,22.225490196078432,7.1686216300943375,0.8358078431372551,218,7,41,3,6,67,40,51,0.0,0.741,0.259,0.9227,0,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,2,0,8,1,0,1,1,8,10,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,7,2,2,9,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,27,8,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26194927974544896,0.2937675767447806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23976317287336574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537145492454017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596816755733021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20277869171308352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16204812945318972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17076381577214936,0.0,0.0,0.21348048208556752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.358527266598124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26538233331213845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418276584912415,0.27517835100530313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20484435648716626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194319326057025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23753016760481965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937675767447806,0.0 schizophrenia,rjones2990,2019/04/15,"Wondering about signs and how to interact Hi all, I come seeking some insight on some things. Please forgive me for keeping things brief, and I'm more than happy to fully elaborate if anyone has questions. I believe my girlfriend may suffer from un-diagnosed schizophrenia. Perhaps it is something else, hence my asking here. I don't seek any diagnosis on her here, but more a general overview of what the signs are that I should look for and most importantly, how I can effectively deal with them without more trouble arising. As I'm unsure whether this request violates the thread's rules, I'll wait to see the preliminary responses. Thanks folks.",6.37185823754789,8.565714155172415,6.01770114942529,74.87519157088123,66.93103448275862,8.948659003831418,36.1647509578544,9.444778638647367,3.765884291187741,526,27,84,11,9,163,92,116,0.075,0.763,0.162,0.8687,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,1,5,6,1,0,4,0,7,0,0,3,1,27,17,9,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,2,5,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,2,10,3,14,15,7,4,0,1,2,0,10,2,0,7,0,58,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16181231825094694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16637827925082085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224485976762491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26808511538582896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20497052293034115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24531321001950265,0.0,0.2415114928238159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987744298968396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532993171503955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114984863179944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998157968844572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26119467259612994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665554240511874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18961318473731975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18318345058236524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21906989742354688,0.0,0.0,0.31616321571579964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293726985042481,0.2580436882303984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Stella1597,2019/04/15,"Out of control schizophrenic adult An adult relative has a schizophrenia diagnosis. For years, he’s been in and out of a psych ward and jail for various reasons. He’s out of control and always seems to get himself into trouble. It’s seems like we’re always chasing him around picking up the pieces. He even almost died in a single car accident and that wasn’t a wake up call for him. It’s taken a huge toll on my family members who put all of their energy to help him. It seems like no matter what we do, he doesn’t appreciate or want help. It feels like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. He won’t take his medication. We don’t know what else to do. We don’t want to see him in a psych ward because he seems to get way worse, but also don’t want him to be in danger or have another accident to happen. Can anyone relate? Are there any resources or success stories out there?",3.1336263736263734,4.473449175824179,4.586593406593405,85.33340659340661,73.72527472527473,7.617582417582418,25.08791208791209,8.192908349453996,1.4306879120879132,698,22,145,11,14,233,105,182,0.107,0.765,0.129,-0.3743,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,3,0,1,3,6,6,1,0,10,0,15,3,1,4,1,33,30,9,1,3,4,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,2,8,13,0,2,7,0,0,2,8,2,0,0,3,3,12,4,29,25,4,20,0,0,1,0,23,15,0,8,5,93,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14570668921890487,0.0,0.0,0.11636384967472953,0.24215102760134066,0.0,0.0,0.09895141154859056,0.15257933907754095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10174358640213074,0.0,0.0,0.1295342548189536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08870120640036759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14858141110069792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32640242839103684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510158297365401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155446897160767,0.0,0.1288781777588927,0.0,0.0,0.09610761532984907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371733536517306,0.0,0.07357394687952404,0.10395197575970706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15204535746030504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286735206431297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19506382600875768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07996818493856359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132656928957685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465854563077155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627718104605936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14960794284016354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595218757624876,0.5298653309095405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094049929005364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574757200050523,0.11549862362002584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14828655450144193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370331112407997 schizophrenia,Aphantinaut,2019/04/15,"Aphantasia, Schizophrenia, and hallucinations. Let's share our thoughts! Hello fellow observers of the Universe, &#x200B; First off, I'd like to start out by saying thank you for sharing your various experiences and insights. I personally have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia, however it has been of interest to me as I am fascinated with how we all have different ways of perceiving the world. These unique differences excite me as I feel they will help illuminate the mysteries of consciousness. &#x200B; Below here, I will be pondering the difference between seeing ""reality"" and ""non-reality"". If deep thought about the nature of your reality is a trigger, please be careful and use your best judgement. &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; Now, for a little information about me and my personal experience. I recently found out that I have been living my entire 29 years of life with a condition known as Aphantasia. For those of you who don't know what Aphantasia is, it is the inability to produce images in the mind's eye. What this means is that I have never visualized a dream, had a daydream, or even seen anything in my mind other that pitch black nothingness. There's a subreddit for it if you are curious, and a few interesting articles on the internet if you search. &#x200B; The thing that interests me about you and I, is that I have never seen anything other than reality. I do not grasp the concept of being able to see anything in my head. Yet, from what I understand, your condition means that for some reason you ""hallucinate"" images and sensory input in your minds eye. From what I understand, the difference between visualizing with your mind's eye and hallucinations is that visualization is voluntary, while hallucination is involuntary. Please educate me if the things I am describing are not correct, as I cannot fully understand your experience. &#x200B; So, I'd like to have a discussion surrounding how we perceive these things in the minds eye and why you for some reason seem to ""uncontrollably hallucinate"" (again, I apologize if this is an incorrect understanding. It is hard for me to visualize.). I have a few things I can't grasp that I think you could help me with: &#x200B; Why do you have such a strong response to the images you hallucinate? I understand that people can relive memories and experience large emotional responses from those, but isn't a visualization (seeing in your minds eye) a common occurrence? I.E. Would you be able to close your eyes, realize you are still seeing something through your minds eye, and thus determine it is a hallucination? &#x200B; And if you are able to discern your illusion in the moment, what causes your negative response to the visual stimulus? it is an uncontrollable experience in the moment? Is it possible to ""know"" that it is a hallucination, yet you are still gripped and compelled to respond as if it were real? &#x200B; Also when sharing, it'd be helpful if you explained what level you can normally visualize at. For instance, I'm a 0 as I cannot visualize at all, while someone who can ""imagine vivid, life-like images in their head"" would be a 10. Also, I'm curious if you could explain how whatever medication you use to help with your condition affects your consciousness. Does the medication just only stop the hallucinations while leaving your ability to visualize with your mind's eye intact? Is there a discernible difference in your ability to visualize with your minds eye while on/not on medication? Also, does it affect your ability to non-voluntarily produces images in your minds eye? I.E. dreams, daydreams. &#x200B; Thank you for taking the time to read this if you reach here. I'm looking forward to try and ""visualize"" your experiences!",8.907603971232023,9.813770746951224,8.957804878048778,60.79876485303315,60.280487804878035,12.764790494058785,40.29612257661039,12.230961643895464,5.589447670419013,3054,154,464,99,39,1000,263,656,0.027000000000000003,0.8640000000000001,0.11,0.9911,2,0,1,0,0,0,142.0,3,41,2,5,24,16,0,2,39,0,60,17,12,15,5,114,94,45,0,15,16,0,3,2,1,4,5,1,0,2,42,28,0,1,33,3,0,1,12,2,0,1,10,23,77,14,80,70,8,49,0,0,19,0,66,26,0,14,25,365,119,3,0.09889647592742308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908747606884761,0.0,0.4286171613954068,0.4806801720421328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08138337316241225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034595250019378535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0336105161042058,0.033864641021844125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05264052583237362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033459280437290136,0.0,0.1722096138370621,0.0,0.0,0.05769664835711904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03708174143886748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02177339654506154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19347946040583686,0.0,0.0,0.01666834324517503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02804043063419264,0.0,0.03614496042793791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02953060572781377,0.0,0.06766421062368794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08838429755454509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03623394453561867,0.0,0.0,0.034905696161098856,0.0,0.03370944902567784,0.046569003775865814,0.03221054845612357,0.033040083305240414,0.02910913337044868,0.0,0.027682710688368417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07181816985356519,0.0,0.09962779505992224,0.0,0.0,0.332857494901586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050850039339719336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032299182899613484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025071742129562456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.022854121393490655,0.05756839210994896,0.0,0.07237242167597822,0.0,0.037163639046536544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03297441290610973,0.07504389386625845,0.0,0.06778803229213153,0.03254944633952542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02621548235712591,0.0,0.0,0.10507691619233883,0.03001054579748409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027931554374036976,0.0253784462711972,0.0,0.0,0.023333144892932717,0.0,0.052652568950283966,0.02756062738879323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0247859473597113,0.0,0.0,0.06070039191559355,0.0,0.0,0.08760323225120842,0.021122956169872,0.0,0.052341836695210066,0.01922244347255749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02238140513984843,0.0,0.0,0.1715911986866605,0.0,0.056943201476714875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026166473113047786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059492458107786785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046835479346885464,0.0,0.4806801720421328,0.02122869601631051 schizophrenia,dceb5301,2019/04/15,"Dont know if my brother is schizophrenic or is using drugs. My older brother whose in his early thirties has not worked for about 5 years or paid rent. He lives with my mother, but treats her badly and always complains that she pays people to follow him. He doesnt refer to her as his mom and verbally abuses her and destroys her possessions. Recently dented her car by punching it. When he does work, he does it as a lyft driver. When he earns money, he does not help or pitch in with anything. He has stolen and sold my mother's television and used to ask us for money until we finally told him to stop. Our relationship is non existent now. I feel like he is using drugs such as meth, but have never actually seen him do it. He does smoke marijuana frequently. He will not leave my mothers house, or pay rent. I sometimes feel like he might be schizophrenic. Any advice would be deeply appreciated.",4.16030553261767,6.037992780346826,5.0535631709331135,80.84047687861275,72.06358381502889,7.948637489677952,25.073905862923198,8.634040054169528,1.7994957886044602,713,22,132,13,14,232,110,173,0.14800000000000002,0.7879999999999999,0.064,-0.9540000000000001,2,0,4,0,1,0,19.0,3,0,0,3,5,6,1,0,1,0,15,4,0,3,1,29,27,18,0,2,10,6,2,2,0,3,4,0,2,0,5,8,0,1,4,0,8,2,6,3,0,0,4,3,21,3,16,18,0,16,0,0,1,0,37,2,0,6,14,78,26,5,0.0,0.16062325127345295,0.13229262085214094,0.0,0.0,0.13247328637372285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11280156773734347,0.0,0.0,0.09218936184636113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11155906504927744,0.0,0.12673568047883355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11319174246949155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4745380214962581,0.0,0.15888205469939304,0.0,0.3144264720144163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370922375980599,0.19369640428524634,0.0,0.1485056577151295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09086686767589183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15642467935181056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07450339335359359,0.0,0.0,0.14354455992584172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13246115997128138,0.0,0.11970704495332285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14381384230610675,0.0,0.15877297328367698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045566672777966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09398422488924528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13385482785024874,0.14554688632653734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134077997663942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333904104205901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12953888802170566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16306891096060314,0.3512558563086222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973869677952398,0.0,0.0,0.09630202246556308,0.0,0.0,0.08729990123665911 schizophrenia,schizophrenias,2019/01/04,"Does Schizophrenia get better or worse over time? I've had Schizophrenia since I was a 13 year old girl. In a lot of ways it was worse when I was younger, but in some ways its worse now. When I was younger I think I was mostly scared cause I didn't know what was going on and I wasn't on the right medications. Now I'm just apathetic to everything including my symptoms. Two of my family members died this year and I didn't cry. I've begun to see things that aren't there on an almost daily basis, and hear things often. I dream about aliens who want to contact me, ive tried contacting them but they wont talk to me. In a lot of ways it was worse as a kid, but now im just like broken into pieces as an adult.... and i have so many minor dysfunctions that im just confused and broken all the time. Is this getting worse? I've been on so many medications and none of them get rid of all my symptoms. Does Schizophrenia get worse over time? I""m a 21 year old woman now, and I dont think this is how my 13 year old self would've wanted me to be.",2.3694117647058803,3.4929570540540524,3.5353736089030217,92.97488871224172,75.30630630630631,6.664970853206147,21.166931637519873,7.048011613610866,0.2439758346581877,814,18,191,8,17,264,113,222,0.19,0.7559999999999999,0.054000000000000006,-0.9878,0,0,0,1,0,0,23.0,0,0,3,1,15,4,0,2,9,0,20,4,0,2,2,31,33,18,1,2,7,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,5,12,8,0,0,3,1,0,1,7,2,0,1,12,2,22,2,23,19,8,32,0,0,1,0,13,11,0,8,18,119,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09462928575588107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357861826273819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09707874818157693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10380511390068377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807730985041417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653972470332343,0.0,0.11075468459789399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493157128893765,0.0,0.08908730649490296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974918743414769,0.0,0.053707201015403376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10650970323378693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041549918063888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05193537966236795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0461685053791871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606830555846494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19161873736873472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19040000300548024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974892894293441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08070349534262485,0.0,0.0,0.09461217169635153,0.0,0.07530520905383893,0.0,0.09858534552911684,0.0,0.0,0.0781723564880891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964458294106452,0.0,0.07595647257780595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12556477592840204,0.1211050866620894,0.0,0.0,0.16531320217774922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06416010115446598,0.0,0.09231392584068823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111478494291842,0.22503192511354486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5778286837026568,0.06713093020160625,0.0,0.0,0.24342265827785556 schizophrenia,selena1-800,2019/01/04,New friends F 16 i m new here and i need to meet new people and make friends. I want to learn more about this from people who have schizophrenia ,0.218,2.597659133333337,0.3150000000000013,106.1625,91.0,3.0,17.5,3.1291,-1.2670000000000001,114,3,27,0,4,33,22,30,0.0,0.746,0.254,0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,4,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,14,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4122581055748781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17809110164123845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19782885260914929,0.0,0.7730314374165193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3699311156135511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573655789746715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AdriannaGonzalez,2019/01/04,"Music and Schizophrenia Apart from medication one thing that greatly helps my schizophrenia is music, listening to music tunes out the voices in my head and relaxes me. Have you tried music to help your schizophrenia? 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I'll try to keep it as short as possible, extending sections only if it is needed. My mother has paranoid schizophrenia, and is locked up from around 2009 in a psychiatric hospital, even though she had her first episodes from around ~1993 (at least as far as i can remember, i was 7yo then). We had some trauma in the 90s that might have accelerated the process. She is 59 now. She refused to take medication at home, lived in denial about her condition, but when she started smashing shop windows in my hometown she was forcefully locked up. The fact that my father is a psychological abusive alcoholic did not help at all. I am visiting her in the hospital every now and then, and she seemed to be happy to see me (her only child), we had conversations that she remembered afterwards (her memory is still razor sharp), but lately her condition took a turn for the worst: she thinks she had her stomach removed, and because of this she is not eating. She is literally starving herself to death, and last time I saw here she was very very very thin (she looks like she has an advanced form of cancer). I am pretty desperate about this and trying to handle this situation at my very best. I had my own medical problems (stroke in 2015 and testicular cancer last year), and I am trying all sort of tactics to motivate my mother (""manipulating"" her, praising her, ""blackmailing"" her, giving me as an example, joking around, you name it), all with the best of intentions in mind, but I am not feeling any progress. She lightens up when she sees me or my girlfriend, when i mention of my cat to her, but then reverts to her energy-less state. The most awful thing is this feeling of powerlessness, I do not want to give up, and i am trying to help as much as i can, as my mother sacrificed her well being for me, so that I can be alright. My stroke taught me to not give up easily, and I won't give up on her, even though at times i feel like it. If you can help me out with advice about what to do to at least motivate her to eat, even just linking me to other resources if no advice might do, I'm most grateful. Thank you",8.030322545494172,6.565886361556068,8.16003922850605,73.62317315026702,62.95881006864988,11.435937670262616,35.912498637899105,10.398101306919678,3.5170526097853334,1768,66,341,34,21,579,205,437,0.107,0.735,0.158,0.9773,1,0,1,0,0,0,64.0,2,3,0,8,23,13,0,0,12,2,42,10,1,5,5,69,67,37,1,6,15,5,8,2,1,3,7,0,2,1,16,21,3,2,12,2,1,4,8,3,1,1,12,12,74,10,67,49,16,55,1,0,4,0,59,31,0,11,21,274,90,3,0.0,0.10669134833182307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17598639585620413,0.0,0.09623319883958276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061235264753131124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930274398094606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24048361506828314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05489200985456792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18899821155995514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18428177528643552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784262147678039,0.0,0.07586874994049082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821225203599284,0.06432982266383243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07659420351442499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3455263742230968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958570454657028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24142727915588014,0.0,0.09032480293562424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08003819452412472,0.0,0.0,0.049487651564582895,0.1468011668307662,0.10157729798228754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08798514316506721,0.0,0.07951343239307856,0.0,0.07561706893724703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18142640080588815,0.0,0.19105195073279707,0.09092212255365678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06619514041960453,0.06676894603015437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697008752720116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940802827278423,0.0,0.0,0.10151482227936938,0.0,0.09161049598710568,0.0,0.08616312309736986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20401211743248607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435121095053737,0.08197569724868997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121695935603944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06373595583733846,0.0,0.07191190524758967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06770437733764903,0.0,0.0,0.08290347306790202,0.0,0.0,0.05982343751337051,0.05769868604402189,0.17694206738386703,0.0,0.10501463166448198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10004588464522572,0.24454487487505835,0.09794562529981453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971938746706068,0.0531122417735637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08096335400148727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05798752109878096 schizophrenia,wupwobpaoa,2019/01/04,"CBD for treating schizophrenia // looking for studys etc Hello, I'm looking for studys for my doctor regarding cbd as a treatment for schizophrenia I want to encourage him to prescribe me cbd oil. 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Long post... I am a mother of a 6yr old little girl, she is very normal to me and all of our family. She’s kind, curious, and playful. Of course she throws her tantrums sometimes too, so yes in my eyes, a very normal child. About 10 months ago she was having trouble learning how to read. I asked her if she could please pay more attention to what was in front of her, instead of wondering about other things in her head, to which she responded “I try mom but sometimes the talking in my head doesn’t stop” of course right then i didn’t think anything of it. Second time, she was sitting at the table about to have dinner and she aggressively threw her tablet on the table and I asked her why she was upset, she said “ i want to play this game but i cant concentrate because the person in my head is talking” Now I freak out a little, and asked her to elaborate on what the person was saying and she said she didn’t know. She can’t understand. There’s a third time but this time she just came up to me and asked me, “mom did you call me?” I had not. So recently I asked her if she knew that we all have an inner monologue going on all the time in our heads and that imagination is also a big part of a child’s life. We talked for quite a few minutes and I told her that whatever she needed to ask me was ok, and if she felt that what she is hearing isn’t actually being said by anyone, that she could always ask me. She says she understands because sometimes when it’s calling her name she’ll ask me first if it’s me and If i say i didn’t call her, then she knows it’s just in her head. I made an appointment with her doctor and I’ve been referred to a psychiatrist who will talk to her. There’s no way they can give me any answers before evaluating her and I completely understand. Now my question to any one who has had this condition, (as a child) does a person with schizophrenia answer to auditory hallucinations as if they were real voices? Or do they know early on that they are just in their head? I’m sorry if I sound ignorant about this topic, i really am. I lack knowledge about all of this and of course I’ve started reading articles and information but I just wanted to ask people who actually have gone through this. 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One of my biggest symptoms is feeling watched all the time and I can’t shake the feeling tonight. I’m on my meds and alone sober in my room, but I can’t shake the feeling someone is keeping an eye on me. 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So I've been on 200 mg quetiapine/seroquel for the past 2-3 years and the other day my meds were delivered late so I was out for 2 days. I had no negative symptoms except for lack of sleep and dizziness, and no positive symptoms either, so I discussed weaning myself off of them. The Dr was reluctant even though I only had one proper episode (positive symptoms since I was a teenager but nothing I couldn't manage). So he said to start by reducing to 150mg. And I took my first one last night, and today has been really crap. I've been tired and cranky, spent more time asleep than awake, and had a headache for most of my awake hours. I'm honestly feeling like just not taking any will be easier than taking the lower dose, I know nobody here will tell me to do so but have you guys had a similar experience? I know it's day one but this sucks... thanks",4.502481060606059,5.40061125568182,5.349318181818184,82.83356060606064,69.9659090909091,8.821212121212124,27.734848484848484,9.075114841892004,2.081755303030304,695,23,141,13,12,227,114,176,0.109,0.7859999999999999,0.105,0.4625,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,1,1,9,5,2,0,7,0,18,10,4,0,0,21,30,16,0,2,7,0,1,1,0,2,6,1,0,1,3,8,0,0,3,0,1,1,5,2,0,4,14,2,16,3,17,12,6,17,0,0,0,0,7,3,2,1,14,94,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09988017010847887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841670529639886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09700968200086584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14367212520735892,0.0,0.0,0.07426451239930512,0.10492766964616283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493196701583688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454295361089413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464248268622878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16143753363251132,0.11972288822700305,0.1656816189581634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07175580200211698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631452325434595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13783242221084416,0.0,0.14093071217959838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985793026960488,0.11170520530239536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402089942265934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09409201176007256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13971194584589738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149668021800256,0.0,0.2939625357952438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10395901996544163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4579786996641595,0.22086373767910428,0.0,0.12837539542886206,0.13522294752848849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14430413472445136,0.0,0.08564410815249547,0.16881143203301888,0.1392205125092497,0.0,0.16318374742566044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09458281098097317 schizophrenia,Beanbag141,2019/01/25,"VERY URGENT DILEMMA So a friend of mine is schizophrenic and convinced he's discovered the elixir of life, a liquid that can cure/prevent anything. He's been feeding it to his infant child. He's been 51-50'd twice (which destroyed the relationship he had with whoever called the authorities). Here are some questions I need help brainstorming: Keep in mind: he's incredibly smart and isn't easily fooled. 1. How to determine whether or not this substance is actually dangerous, and if it isn't should his delusion be indulged? IMPORTANT TO NOTE: separation from his child may result in a psychotic break which would be catastrophic. 2. If the substance IS dangerous, how can one effectively keep him from giving this elixir to anyone? 3. Is it possible to get him help without making his mental state any worse? I know next to nothing about schizophrenia and how to help someone who has it. 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Today is my first day taking it, and I feel very off. My brain just kind of feels like it’s wrapped up in a flour sack and my mouth tastes off. Is this normal? 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Read some posts here where ppl talk about in the beginning feeling like they were gifted in some way, feeling like they could read other people’s body languages, like they connected telepathically with others. And that is how I feel sometimes. I just thought I was very sensitive and perceptive, and that I was able to connect with others in a deep way, but now it is scaring me. Some other possible symptoms I’ve experienced are the misinterpretation of noises from where I’m at. Never heard clear words. I took acid 5 times with bad vibes emerging quite normally during 2 of those, mdma arround 15 times with some anxious moments and I’m a daily weed smoker for the last 2 years. Always have been anxious but the paranoia started to get worse on days where I smoke more weed than I should. The thing is: I don’t want to quit, I rely on weed to work on my art, I make photographs and abstract drawings, study those almost everyday and feel able to to perform my best while high. Some strains do not make me feel paranoid or anxious (all are high on THC tho bc my country hasn’t legalized weed), and usually I just take some puffs, not smoking the whole joint, so I thought it might be fine. Should I just really control myself and smoke as little as I can in order to enjoy it and not get paranoid or I’m getting into dangerous territory and should quit cold turkey? thanks for reading",6.552563467492262,6.902773284210527,6.433147574819403,78.79987616099072,65.28070175438596,9.091847265221878,32.55417956656347,8.841846274778883,2.605953560371517,1186,45,220,17,17,374,163,285,0.124,0.769,0.107,-0.7332,0,0,3,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,3,8,12,12,1,3,8,0,23,2,1,4,3,60,49,21,0,7,11,0,5,3,0,5,1,1,0,0,12,15,0,1,9,4,0,1,7,5,0,0,8,9,25,7,32,33,10,35,0,0,0,0,5,17,0,11,16,141,37,5,0.19660268031765624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09843459256989996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179458976831906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33315760204630845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08207751298289997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10316119178595427,0.0,0.0,0.1091906284656298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025331172073946,0.0784856212639756,0.0,0.0,0.0633962321354754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24852055604547216,0.14045299410200662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20543357197917966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20772152599177612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08012871233454193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14407520822735606,0.09852376752781282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13123381575686774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208564374953088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07581605361588223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631444200490552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06814977197310983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11081999098131122,0.094145510871951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4182223016401871,0.2949838256926296,0.0,0.12594871131083674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09841679030642987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972225389758404,0.0,0.06957819451863967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021727313359287,0.07391037404671076,0.07901089363108119,0.0,0.09050266681668027,0.0,0.0,0.06530704242832606,0.06298752953962948,0.0,0.1560805674397223,0.11464060393009938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10921640589183614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10826503827621882,0.08110890058020348,0.11596135465115676,0.15605405653464505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10974993574409037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07156454639893764,0.0,0.10017746374028418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06330284012624901 schizophrenia,cadad1971,2019/01/25,"Help me get some clarity? (Concerned Parent) Hey there. I am writing this for my son and firstly if you take the time to read this, thank you. A year ago he was he had a psychotic brake and was put on a 5250 hold(14 days). Everything was fine he was put on Anti-Psychotics(he has been on Abilify, Handal or something like that and is now on Zyprexa). Recently he had issues and his psychiatrist called me saying he strongly advises me to schedule a 1 hour appointment as soon as he can come in. He has been acting really oddly: Has trouble remembering to take care of himself like eat, brush teeth, shave, ect. He speaks in wired ""rythem"" and sometimes it makes no sense to me. At dinner we were talking about something on the news and he said ""Yeah it is like when a cat jumps off a bride,but not the red kind the blue kind, with strings, man we have all changed just think of that"" He dosen't seem to have emotions correctly if that makes any sense like laughing at sad things or crying at funny things --------------------------------------------------------------- So I am totally ignorant but I thought Schizophrenia meant like seeing shadow people, or being really paranoid? Also wouldn't all these pills he has been taking fix the problem? I just feel powerless not being able to understand this. His therapist said he can't diagnose him but something about ""Disorganized-Schitzophrenia"" if anyone out there has that do these symptoms sound familiar? I really just want answers and hopefully someone can help me, it upsets my son trying to talk about it.",5.268341013824884,7.008981333333335,5.282467997951869,80.85322580645166,69.0,8.755145929339479,30.131592421915002,9.23628265651192,2.6876259088581675,1188,47,214,24,21,371,171,279,0.091,0.7859999999999999,0.122,0.6357,2,0,3,0,0,0,101.0,2,2,0,2,13,18,0,1,11,1,28,6,1,2,4,48,48,20,0,7,13,3,1,5,0,1,3,5,0,1,15,12,2,2,8,1,0,5,5,5,0,1,14,10,20,13,28,31,4,28,0,1,3,0,36,12,0,9,16,135,35,2,0.1162118077427451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030147557446991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09293454066570356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07902801433775812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08125799803284414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11866524896437965,0.0,0.11848568310470975,0.0,0.1229366834560184,0.10010618227368476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276532139193111,0.07494700203108742,0.0,0.0,0.11795253861955098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11891369163043655,0.0,0.13072264202889294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10444367941855863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058760181768860276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988497042991495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06071587308010312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15578865018037868,0.0,0.0,0.1154245467014372,0.11444522154058542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12129493450789434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24203342921856255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838760958897909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15514456813551705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12903945975809086,0.0,0.0,0.08056663505761681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11119900526235232,0.0,0.233649929396272,0.0,0.0,0.11624325630835144,0.0,0.22334477944022701,0.0,0.1147451402490118,0.0,0.13164532403451815,0.0,0.22108808279909767,0.0924162939174518,0.0,0.0,0.09260576477749832,0.10579486515873904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846588757885773,0.26839658158679985,0.11493644938580455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078856495117435,0.26213045005387003,0.1868132980771592,0.0,0.10699221902074166,0.0,0.13493086581362632,0.15441192249597915,0.07446383397441933,0.0,0.09225919436284824,0.06776403964539662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07890018911391737,0.0,0.0,0.12098059028972095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06854473515078657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483659403254547 schizophrenia,Throwaway2791666,2019/01/25,"Should I try and see someone? First off I know that nobody can diagnose anyone without being seen and seeing my health records, ect. I feel like I've been experiencing psychotic symptoms for a while but am unsure if they are just normal experiences I am misinterpreting. It started a couple years ago and I've never thought anything of it, but sometimes it feels like I hear someone inside my head talking but not answering back to me. It tells me to do some stuff I'm obviously not okay with. Example someone does something mildly irritating and it wants me to stab them in front of everyone and I get very vivid thoughts of me doing it and blood running down my hands in the future. Starting my roommates bed on fire while he sleeps, ect. I obviously don't react on anything because they aren't normal thought but in the moments I feel compelled to. Sometimes colors shift in my eyes to lighter or darker shades and I feel in tune with the universe and get signs that tell me that I'm where I'm supposed to be. I see patterns that match, listen to something and see an object talked about in the song, or even when I'm working out doing pullups I feel like I can somewhat communicate with the universe and it tells me how many I can do back to me so when I feel like I'm struggling at a point I always know I have more in myself to push more. I always thought like the sounds and voices I hear were normal like dialogue with myself or just buzzing and stuff, but last night it felt different. As I was sitting there I kept ""hearing"" a voice saying ""stop look, look"" and it wouldn't stop for what felt like a lengthy period of time and I didn't know what I'm supposed to be looking for. I guess there's other stuff that concerns me but that's probably the biggest things and i don't know if I should go see someone about these things or not. I don't want to waste anyones time when there is nothing wrong and everything is fine and dandy.",5.5859290687554415,6.1102002506527455,5.668736945169716,82.84408017841601,67.38120104438643,8.158790252393386,31.624129677980854,7.937092434478242,2.0884552654482165,1548,60,304,17,24,488,188,383,0.07,0.8440000000000001,0.086,0.4984,1,0,2,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,3,2,17,11,0,1,13,1,27,8,5,3,3,78,71,37,0,10,18,0,10,7,0,3,3,9,1,0,24,22,0,3,17,1,0,4,11,2,0,1,12,32,43,9,39,53,4,43,0,0,12,0,14,16,0,9,29,200,67,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06678296984774854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12537521294808038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10535675968527612,0.0,0.12399421229153305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11586119995170792,0.0,0.045925605814510065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833605364817887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07646691751244784,0.0,0.07871262121616399,0.0,0.0,0.06592916513756696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04976032047962001,0.0,0.0,0.07198909552656084,0.0677093203102259,0.07369543788673033,0.0,0.0,0.2285602340528744,0.2152871491208952,0.14467340906719547,0.0,0.0,0.06408282749346475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07872243722515265,0.0,0.042816564221405014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08299377103608396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07731896120724657,0.08008122488473404,0.2547356478736044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16561611676907662,0.061410873265909924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576458494839661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18979591255966646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638134011321787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058105639345452126,0.0,0.0,0.070700010145716,0.22144698770194826,0.0722892525656904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07121916501764729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08122756659080553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05991214098905862,0.0,0.0,0.3001748609777004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753928354802902,0.0,0.25533601875473183,0.11599840356703707,0.14902326134252744,0.0,0.10664985274730447,0.0,0.0,0.12597259675563102,0.0,0.0787600815945647,0.2587334229574761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830547218962057,0.0,0.12110834765812048,0.1975473175403596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010300650266303,0.0,0.0,0.23924118251879525,0.08786088524280232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05114984656795192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0621620923280576,0.0888731123557014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07262355514040494,0.0,0.05484727211001192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08237074306656855,0.0,0.048515476900898816 schizophrenia,knownpinballwizard,2019/01/25,"psychosis vs guilt? i had an appointment today where they were trying to assess me for psychosis. i dont think the person assessing me believed what i was saying as she was very dismissive, but i don't know what to believe anymore. i tried to tell her about some of my odd beliefs/delusions and about how i see signs everywhere but in response she told me ""it sounds like you're using this as escapism for guilt"". it's true that something in my past has made me very guilty and affected me greatly and that my symptoms were much worse after it, but is it really possible that i'm just using delusions and paranoia as escapism? i really believe in them, and i daydream often but about entirely different subjects, and i know they're just daydreams. is it possible that i just made up my symptoms out of guilt? is this something that's recognised by the medical community? i didn't have very good ties to reality before but this doubt is tearing me apart; it feels like the small piece of reality i thought i knew for sure has been blown to pieces. i don't know if she was just being dismissive or if it's the truth and i didn't experience anything i thought i did. she didn't really ask me about paranoia or anything, either, she just kept poking at my guilt, which i didn't want to talk about at all. i feel completely unheard but at the same time i feel very worried that i just made all of it up/was unintentionally malingering, and i don't know what to do. sorry if this is hard to understand or if its offensive to anyone. (i also think it's possible that she did this intentionally to make me doubt my beliefs, as i think she & her team are experimenting on me like a lab rat to see my reactions to various stressors, so i'm really uncertain as to what to believe or do)",6.794448942869995,6.301278179487183,7.415306642675066,74.8021592442645,64.92592592592592,10.808277103013943,35.282801019643124,10.307518312809881,3.4951390313390314,1415,59,274,30,19,470,157,351,0.158,0.789,0.054000000000000006,-0.9877,1,0,2,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,2,1,16,16,1,7,7,0,29,3,0,9,5,69,57,30,0,5,22,0,4,3,0,0,3,2,0,1,27,9,0,1,15,1,0,0,8,8,0,0,21,8,51,8,42,35,9,16,1,0,2,0,18,12,0,13,7,198,78,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07344723745124697,0.0,0.099512425966417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910841022858303,0.06421913137548599,0.0,0.1511587985951068,0.0,0.08586130222520133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07815207910707576,0.41390482753631297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09629619340542624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595694054922857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763993269428107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796811907108531,0.0,0.0,0.13931654448845632,0.06561303590841534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07703399515461237,0.0,0.10125781563707258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08227376262766717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20189920784318754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13461032812256546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26071370521707943,0.061306269194945626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09252269365809973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06751556191924622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08767504132985095,0.0,0.08019422749004773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106193396922318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353492674383224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07303766107948544,0.0,0.0,0.14637480416314813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414112723335636,0.0,0.10281131206387177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656143973894664,0.19092118705953276,0.0,0.07382035013375411,0.0802752930512545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17654887589500104,0.0,0.1458270069855639,0.05355470070481444,0.0,0.08705692709331453,0.08776042841546709,0.0,0.12471145568241372,0.0,0.0,0.09561235336562354,0.0,0.15864664222387098,0.0,0.3031221222608283,0.05417169335093678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09327156251541376,0.09359640309029676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,doctafuckinj,2019/04/18,Day 2 of saying fuck the meds Losing my mind currently,0.16000000000000014,2.3390945454545498,2.6459090909090897,85.88886363636364,103.54545454545456,5.836363636363638,14.590909090909092,7.1686216300943375,0.6046,44,1,8,1,2,15,11,11,0.433,0.5670000000000001,0.0,-0.7269,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773246882631617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39754278053096376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4810778105934607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4776507369677675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4341934863484477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3419659119982305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NewCityScum,2019/04/18,"To the person asking about daydreaming My husband is Schizophrenic, I have the maladaptive daydreaming condition you've asked about... I think we may be able to answer your questions. When my husband hallucinates - he sees, with his eyes, something that is not there. The same way you see all the stuff that is there. It is added visual information that doesn't actually exist. (Speaking of visual only - he also had auditory but those are different) When I daydream - the visuals exist only within my brain. I am in control of them, they do not exist without me thinking of them. This is not the same as hallucinating. Please stop asking people if their hallucinations are the same as daydreaming. Thank you.",5.796274944567628,8.562250756097562,6.2310716925351075,70.30496674057652,69.89430894308943,9.025572801182555,29.881005173688106,9.573946990214177,3.335982113821137,565,23,86,14,11,182,82,123,0.023,0.927,0.05,0.5267,1,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,1,3,4,1,7,1,0,0,7,0,14,3,2,1,1,20,22,7,0,1,6,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,7,2,0,2,5,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,4,17,1,13,19,4,6,0,0,3,0,20,2,0,3,3,72,24,0,0.18486460806056387,0.0,0.18040119042680164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14783616027628962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5184703609467193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20637004099218653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20734137729660684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19314416899715955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28119572949667954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12816184260428232,0.1614166451981462,0.0,0.20292582585059035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20709066928091305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29462631624555785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423178069526141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15455509002782505,0.0,0.0,0.2116257477593703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701984937587737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236907552678997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467369211392557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17820288526146094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zufeldt90,2019/04/18,"What are the details of your most notable hallucinations? Personally I have only experienced externally injected content. Virtual reality in injected ""dreams"" and ketamine assisted sessions has been incredible from an experiential and scientific standpoint. Think being ""flown"" in into computer generated cityscapes, manipulating your perspective of view of artificial architecture by moving your body in real life. Going on otherworldly and alien like ""dates"" with AI (ha, or real interfaced) women in the ""dreams"" has been something that has been happening recently at night. They all usually behave like cultmembers and rarely treat you to anything. Usually it is 1984 like social exclusion. I'm incredibly thankful that I don't experience hallucinations, but given that I believe the source of some of your hallucinations and my injected phenomena may be the same I and out of curiosity am interested in hearing what are your most notable experiences.",12.791761744966445,13.706741959731545,12.8979110738255,35.7641820469799,52.22147651006711,16.845973154362422,50.83976510067114,15.078166124597352,8.965542953020135,788,48,91,35,8,268,105,149,0.033,0.892,0.075,0.7444,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,6,1,0,0,7,0,0,5,1,15,2,1,1,1,21,22,8,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,2,6,9,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,3,12,7,19,15,5,16,0,0,1,0,11,9,0,5,8,70,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15207834783620788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082113741250345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052761257546558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36154850229715546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10502864974865928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16342199903018026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20828808994471174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13053287568601465,0.2708584150288724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19641792481007106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17342649364445895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14055214126466015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16136415129039344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4206959339815369,0.0,0.0,0.18247213761045855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883849032504202,0.0,0.1422715241307863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17014314392778154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841525428001387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4070720706405182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ibarrons123,2019/04/18,"IamSchizo And I have seen it all. But now I’m on meds that keep me in the herd and I feel normal. Which is interesting- kinda dull and monotonous...but I still paint and am creative. One of the things I liked to do when I was deep in psychosis was to do magic tricks and make things change or disappear or change colors....It was magikal... To be honest I would like to go off my meds but not rush it- I’d like to taper off eventually in the future. Anyone done this and lived a decent life?",0.17540746382330494,2.513143920792082,1.8102970297029728,95.92150799695357,89.990099009901,4.691850723533891,15.690022848438687,6.297961479604792,-0.566677684691546,380,8,86,4,13,123,69,101,0.045,0.8240000000000001,0.131,0.815,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,4,0,11,1,0,1,1,18,17,11,0,2,5,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,6,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,5,2,8,5,12,10,1,14,0,1,1,0,0,7,0,3,7,58,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437307568329495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4671075930701204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259324948783412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163196493841723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12547319657123698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19623758571303407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559419949618959,0.3235828627067085,0.0,0.19495097431103545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14737099570774395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4904690622955415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21631551498274387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496048524077846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17631355571817586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933501190644646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568343209466521,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Amelia_graceh,2019/04/18,"Having a hard time telling people I’m schizophrenic I’ve been schizophrenic since I can remember and it makes it kind of easy to “hide” it from people. I don’t get jumpy too much anymore around people anymore it’s more that my train of thoughts wanders off and it takes a lot for me to explain things to people as my way of thinking is different. Long story short; I haven’t been able to write my dissertation. It’s like my brain is separated from my fingers. I fog up and feel sick and anxious, I’ll start to hear voices more. Since I haven’t made my university aware of my situation I feel as if it’s such an excuse to ask for extra time and help to write it? I don’t want it to be seen as my disability or that I’m lying. People always assume I’m exaggerating (or maybe that’s just in my head lol). How do I bring it up?",2.8931525122276547,4.0338125260115625,4.605780346820811,85.74387727879059,74.02890173410405,7.635215651400622,24.29035126722988,8.139509932561175,1.1900461538461542,649,19,143,10,13,220,97,173,0.09699999999999999,0.84,0.063,-0.6655,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,1,12,6,3,3,0,24,30,12,0,2,4,0,4,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,14,6,0,0,7,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,5,7,18,2,24,24,5,12,0,0,1,0,8,6,0,5,5,88,32,0,0.149994844542538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248077264958617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.169451479998,0.2975091619382941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13352721239659696,0.14022493183162285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674438527828927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15671268777166644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15168380048303134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07836611546457141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134365918720128,0.0,0.1539379840143422,0.0,0.16905509109269132,0.0,0.10053838254123763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15619654876249892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07327990451123499,0.0,0.0,0.1327407173576534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12752025296366545,0.0,0.1419287486297655,0.10012272346120024,0.0,0.15068998202036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11026346936677638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5199376954678275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16991491911924336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481545708190848,0.1686004898034414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061671229864364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127774560072628,0.0,0.13110210542056935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964990976463284,0.0961106398564879,0.0,0.11907915198005453,0.17492640015868244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0884708455436063,0.11905892591253947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kdbisgoat,2019/04/18,"I'm scared shitless, somebody help me I'm a normal male, 21. Last month my cat died and since the last couple of weeks I have heard a cat meowing for a few seconds for a total of 4-5 times. I know I'm hallucinating because my friends denied hearing anything. The first few times I didn't suspect anything but after the third time I knew I was hallucinating, and checked up on Schizophrenia. So I took some personality disorder tests, all of them showed me very high on schizotypal and low on schizoid. No offense to you guys but I'd prefer not having schizophrenia. How does it start? I've heard it starts in the 20s, did you have any sort of abnormal behaviour or symptoms before 20 or as a child? Because I have been pretty much normal all my life bar the schizotypal symptoms. Should I start worrying?",4.506462365591397,6.224596845161294,5.0539516129032265,81.83426075268817,70.87096774193549,7.747311827956989,30.336021505376344,8.344100000000001,2.2396344086021496,641,27,121,10,12,205,101,155,0.139,0.799,0.063,-0.8933,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,1,1,2,4,1,1,10,0,9,4,0,1,3,21,21,10,1,4,5,0,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,4,2,3,1,0,4,2,1,1,3,3,0,3,8,3,16,1,14,12,7,20,0,1,0,0,12,7,0,4,12,72,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045099034828508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25293649695433396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187367807586306,0.0,0.13077315579882914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17004763119397134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594989858471932,0.0,0.17613435852977935,0.0,0.13448927791735893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307229232846434,0.0,0.0,0.11873532437509092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521706137043412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17321223098986527,0.0,0.10301066609423844,0.16237482786969845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08446031399485464,0.2505447774008157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10855104879543967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12266853146204452,0.0,0.11297489713119735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011539775137557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13419031618281366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15635115047230938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386377804799525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12712840105578008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.326333459313094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3194715537436441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688418772366202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707477838183811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12680480472623176,0.0,0.0,0.12327546079127664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15607283537161973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AE86iknowwhatihave,2019/04/18,Nothing feels good Nothing tastes good. I don’t love anything.,2.240606060606062,3.3910651818181847,0.8581818181818193,95.44060606060609,124.45454545454544,1.4666666666666668,30.93939393939394,3.1291,0.8971575757575754,51,3,8,0,3,14,9,11,0.321,0.4,0.28,0.0997,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866025957808669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760995000256405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5842370587721071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31433391906478303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6683630485485269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Akakios_delta,2019/04/18,"Do you feel unsupported? I only ask because I do quite frequently. I know that this might not be true all of the time, but I was wondering if anyone else here felt this way all of the time. I don't have schizophrenia, but I believe I do have something wrong with me that has not been diagnosed",4.385847457627119,5.2143902542372915,4.962500000000002,85.75527542372883,70.1864406779661,8.611864406779661,28.309322033898304,8.841846274778883,1.9459457627118641,231,8,49,4,4,74,41,59,0.138,0.862,0.0,-0.7695,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,11,1,0,0,3,14,16,3,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,2,9,1,3,11,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,37,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18023471340432412,0.2641098715322844,0.0,0.0,0.2409747199568706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15713065638359738,0.0,0.0,0.2904119705835441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26162522469252064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21532890330327206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13033331828352254,0.0,0.247494043081287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14166045648223932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734470690866218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19604128009786204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741639425138962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19843946496378306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30060874154617256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20460121431608305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795342661519393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28182467482585233,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,goodnfruitybox,2019/09/13,"Schizophrenia and mysticism? Do you ever feel like there’s a kind of other ‘level’ to existence that not everyone is aware of? Like there’s an inbetween space between the dreamscape and waking world where the hallucinations and delusions live, that intersects with the material realm? I know i’m schizophrenic but I relate heavily to descriptions of shamanic and other mystical experiences. To be clear I think this ‘place’ is purely mental/spiritual but I don’t think that necessarily makes it less ‘real’? Anyways i’d love to hear other people’s thoughts or any resources about this topic!",6.539901960784312,9.4313775,6.877058823529412,65.94343137254904,68.11764705882354,10.023529411764708,32.90196078431373,10.25414643259724,4.261207843137255,483,22,69,14,9,156,74,102,0.0,0.86,0.14,0.9319,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,6,4,0,0,5,0,5,3,1,1,3,19,14,7,0,0,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,9,5,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,5,4,10,12,1,7,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,1,3,48,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17149509302189814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22811662862524135,0.0,0.2409744812884019,0.0,0.2466862486350352,0.0,0.0,0.12751279306305047,0.18016169222575376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842318926360104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26261285827609904,0.13859480223884346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246410632377754,0.0,0.22268481306834176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22760766480637,0.0,0.16833607909297174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541441216418265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17483398373918035,0.0,0.2634806414732257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870428202870037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231811463623948,0.0,0.20020747391880986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,helmholtz-malaria,2019/09/13,"The Cochlea of the Inner Ear - Hyperphysics [hyperphysics.phy-astr.gsu.edu › hbase › Sound › cochlea] The cochlea has three fluid filled sections. The **perilymph** fluid in the canals differs from the endolymph fluid in the cochlear duct. The organ of Corti is the sensor of pressure variations. [endolymph fluid](https://i.redd.it/wlu3ome2gfm31.png)",10.587993920972645,15.57209868085107,6.109422492401219,63.22000000000003,72.82978723404256,7.792097264437691,40.756838905775076,8.418075326091056,5.185075379939209,286,16,28,6,7,76,31,47,0.048,0.9520000000000001,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,9,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,6,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,19,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ru_zz,2019/09/13,"I lost my logic I was wondering if anybody stopped to understand articulated things, is strange to explain, i can have a reasonable conversation but i can't anymore understand some sort of things,like math or philosophy or read a book.It's a struggle, i really loved reading books",8.218823529411765,8.86045166666667,8.855686274509804,61.85058823529414,61.74509803921569,13.07450980392157,44.450980392156865,12.45797560212912,6.190733333333332,229,14,37,8,3,77,41,51,0.158,0.72,0.12300000000000001,0.3269,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,3,0,5,1,0,1,0,13,11,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,6,1,3,9,1,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,6,1,23,7,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24636924227517645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711834680883744,0.0,0.22421180197499055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4969812191727603,0.0,0.15914638019607946,0.2554206122622411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20769307159234868,0.0,0.2597060580877157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16504145688524588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5172350050048112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694045614962973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,UMomHasTheBigGay,2019/09/13,"I met a demon today I went to my therapist, who I considered an average dead soul. I told her about my problem with voices. Her only response was to ask me ""Are you dangerous to your daughter? Do you think you would harm her physically?"" At that point I realised she is a demon. She got under my skin. I just want to die and leave this Hell. Well.. Im already dead, I'm living in either Hell or purgatory now, this whole place isn't the real Earth, its hell or purgatory. The problem is if I kill myself the cycle will just continue and I'll be reborn back into Hell. I won't even have recollection of my past time in hell (now). I don't have recollection of my past real life when I was alive. I don't even know if this will be the first time I've killed myself. Maybe I'm doing it for the 100th time and the person I am actually died around 1000 years ago, but I have jack shit memories of it. Are there any angels here? Can I at least ask for forgiveness? Is there somewhere I can go as a dead person in hell to get out and get into heaven? Can I somehow kill my afterlife soul so it all ends forever?",1.17476741978356,3.232055681222711,3.442388456426809,88.11602999810142,81.70742358078603,6.602696031896716,20.00018986140118,7.7425588080867325,0.7181583823808624,857,23,185,15,23,294,130,229,0.257,0.703,0.04,-0.9951,0,0,0,0,1,2,28.0,0,4,0,1,16,17,11,0,10,0,25,3,2,0,1,30,39,12,8,6,8,1,1,0,0,4,1,1,0,2,9,9,0,0,5,0,0,2,4,14,1,1,6,2,34,3,23,27,4,29,12,0,0,0,18,12,7,5,15,129,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.1221956582250435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11099906758235044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13818225457861502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515319811188471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11147143724632216,0.2341256798293937,0.0,0.0,0.09628566379221463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599150566189051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11090684641332944,0.0,0.0,0.1654119063117097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10651119763064873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13084349422799216,0.0,0.07116483014293512,0.0,0.10014905465491844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352579825428541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4156087350203594,0.0,0.0688170748466532,0.0,0.0,0.13258881615450713,0.0,0.0,0.08844586642305832,0.0,0.0,0.11057065056255123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257992926905443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09523467437943564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390713642052895,0.0,0.21867276110319267,0.13082717917270775,0.0,0.11837240735137675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396352990593997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850532188623295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12853548015895072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453888832247458,0.0,0.08023526416207433,0.0,0.0,0.2190485769308687,0.0,0.11869294846076643,0.11965209839817273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738573967818002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11258689826663608,0.11607924593551393,0.0,0.1398025156814171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08895196835456726,0.0,0.0,0.08063691554283851 schizophrenia,urbana1,2019/09/13,Do bilingual/multilingual schizophrenics (with aural hallucinations) hear voices in their second and third languages? It’s something I’ve been curious about for a while but never found a clear Answer to.,10.940909090909095,12.51799172727273,9.081363636363637,59.34204545454549,55.96969696969697,10.236363636363636,37.71212121212121,10.125756701596842,4.3131939393939405,169,7,21,3,2,51,32,33,0.091,0.855,0.054000000000000006,-0.2792,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,2,7,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,2,1,0,5,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,17,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5731224643219309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5891300307178017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4031447193772695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024062412963072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,porcupinebutts,2019/09/13,"Question about tapering off anti psychotics - should I stop reducing if I’m getting delusions but I don’t believe them? Hi all, I’ve been reducing my anti psychotic recently, and I reduced to .5 a few days ago. Yesterday during a class I was hit with a huge wave of delusional thoughts, but I wasn’t convinced by any of them and I believed none of them. My doctor said to go back up to the higher dose if I experienced symptoms, but does this count? I really don’t want to increase again because I HATE this medication and it’s side effects. So far the delusions have been totally manageable and I’m living my life perfectly fine, so I’m not inclined to bump the medication back up.",3.9158304853041694,5.8462540075188025,5.450266575529735,77.52212576896788,72.8345864661654,9.046889952153112,33.14354066985646,9.573946990214177,3.479908270676692,545,28,99,14,11,184,86,133,0.091,0.763,0.146,0.8089,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,3,2,6,4,1,0,6,0,8,6,0,1,3,20,18,11,0,4,6,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,3,5,0,1,3,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,6,2,15,3,14,10,5,16,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,3,8,65,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17907727268074164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373795547120783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106796200314445,0.0,0.1231486448449782,0.0,0.0,0.4552114965626333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13028526469146892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20677456605291247,0.17678781147154618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055463645087992,0.0,0.11481180851659185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994515132607304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14269168997456436,0.0,0.0,0.1783860979425508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4070249105023021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22630703186299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12941826854643174,0.0,0.19946896559252966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19216592129770546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688965698211591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20997464514776545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16038017841993935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11915578635984155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,0ks0rry,2019/09/13,My voices predict almost everything They'll tell me a number on a test or something that something that someone will say to me and then it comes true. Everybody is watching me and my life is a lie(:,4.151538461538461,5.744186205128205,4.910769230769233,83.0092307692308,71.56410256410257,7.2512820512820495,30.948717948717945,7.793537801064563,2.1873179487179484,158,7,29,2,3,51,30,39,0.0,0.889,0.111,0.4767,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,0,1,6,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,2,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,2,1,21,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3647614394858397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137843314874608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273802814180256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25729301835814306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28968026096685245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086428031365786,0.5608620767395738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183859874013615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Kamu_Loves_Kane,2019/09/13,"Living peacefully with the others. I’m schizophrenic. Or at least I’ve been diagnosed as such. I hate labels. It doesn’t make sense. So what? I see things that aren’t there, I hear things that aren’t really being said. What can I say I’m fucked up in the head. I lost my job because I thought they were coming for me. Who’s they? I couldn’t tell you. They tell me to do drugs and have fun, but they say I’m looser for doing drugs and that I need to stop. However they say I should never stop doing drugs.. When I get angry things get scary. Someone else takes control. I’ve been working on my anger. It’s gotten a lot better. I think I’m a psycho. I want to help people as much as I want to hurt them. So I just don’t talk to people anymore. I spend my days in my room playing games and watching tv. I need a job but I’m scared. Why? I do not know. Sometimes I let my mental show, best when I’m doodling. Everyone, and I mean everyone who looks at my doodles always has something to say. “Oh that’s horrifying”. “I love it” “That looks terrible” “I’m confused” Me too I don’t know what they mean. It’s like the doodles draw themselves. I don’t ever tell anyone that. I don’t want to freak them out. My head is a dark place Porn made it darker I won’t go to much into detail here but I started watching porn at quite an early age. I was in 1st grade. So however old you are when you start first grade. So that’s uh 18-11=7 I was 7 Again no need to go to much into detail here but yeah. It started kinda normal. And then it progressively got worse until I was into some serious ass porn. Lucky a psychiatrist told me to stop watching porn and it helped A LOT Bad voices come from the videos. I don’t know why I don’t know how But they do.. Goodbye friends I love you all Please love me I’m sad I feel lonely I often consider suicide as a way out but I must wait for my mom to pass. I couldn’t do that to her. Bye..✊🏿",-1.1906935381187331,0.8689924684466064,1.2212828266751536,98.33638628043929,97.61650485436894,4.060862645233169,15.2492439917237,5.865906143820284,-0.7325351424478748,1475,35,346,14,61,495,200,412,0.193,0.675,0.132,-0.9836,6,2,4,0,0,1,51.0,0,4,9,8,17,23,3,2,12,1,33,16,3,4,4,61,83,27,1,11,9,1,1,1,1,3,5,7,1,0,25,14,0,5,9,5,1,5,15,13,1,1,13,14,62,10,36,63,9,40,0,4,6,9,35,15,2,8,20,212,87,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06928347819980431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825768969362538,0.05822109961942532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06952312613281744,0.05075781144363961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873818941132013,0.07364147465150886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434515285085113,0.0,0.0,0.09338921976009153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05369929086445749,0.0,0.0,0.08451262235819844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28968426666698244,0.0,0.06955755244572452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531831605914292,0.0,0.15912730477605858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0421014851367316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07082550174353686,0.0,0.0,0.06433063698580338,0.07697751518804513,0.08700546360121393,0.0,0.09464328471538297,0.0,0.06659494215502504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220733825354448,0.1709086329672568,0.0,0.09384615077236244,0.0,0.1116220771038624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913732659316911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16525611130219126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18304193222719867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08514450694029273,0.0,0.04067926569318794,0.0,0.07352486854347916,0.0,0.1398439203522108,0.0,0.09089401375086292,0.1415785210466852,0.22545080740518286,0.0787877292351921,0.05558029717382209,0.0,0.0,0.1814008486723714,0.0,0.0,0.08391193309208105,0.0,0.0,0.09751942330120676,0.0,0.0,0.1836289360585655,0.18522070417178035,0.06421940513143452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815824073679479,0.0,0.0,0.08737302443286685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11545148045107978,0.0,0.08699461477027226,0.09140039866837026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856299603810383,0.0,0.0,0.053341943636580534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920445743760024,0.2648639338838372,0.08336318532807496,0.0,0.06635173874532979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07055049827251021,0.06410176840997316,0.08235160392321253,0.0,0.1768070236711812,0.0,0.0,0.20884079370710573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09107882669994552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06260521390851279,0.06692556979552619,0.21833287372210014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16595348408223734,0.05335310247388421,0.0,0.06610342213496571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07956365238802929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14733626043757655,0.06609219420583752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15026813426689253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060618198640689576,0.0,0.08485455021928526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HolaItsKarli,2019/09/13,Are we normal? I once talked to another schizophrenic person and they heard and saw something and entire hospital room did not. I feel like we are the normal people and everyone just can't see what's actually there 😂,3.9135365853658532,6.552968097560978,5.1001829268292695,76.75320121951222,75.34146341463416,8.978048780487804,24.88414634146341,9.516144504307137,2.7039219512195123,176,6,30,5,4,58,34,41,0.057,0.943,0.0,-0.2755,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,2,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,11,8,4,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,5,1,1,5,0,1,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,1,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.2809985764200294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019416636293395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751494595138169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14559664535766825,0.20571220643767246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14067828251916242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.56426155962906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066583494719412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19962892283564895,0.251427650803558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22945961510844706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22167869878403956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314440552211729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,queenkawaiibb,2019/09/13,Working nights Seemed like a good idea once apon a time but holy shit I have officially lost my mind. I have no socialization and I’m stuck in my head more than I ever thought was possible now I’m in a psychosis and I don’t see people’s faces anymore and I can’t talk and I can’t think but this is literally my only option left for work and I’d like to keep being close to a normal functioning adult and I have bills to pay....I’m pissed I ever let my health get this bad and now I’m going to lose everything that I half assed/yet worked so hard built because I have no support system whatsoever and a stubborn ego larger than life in the worst times. I just need to breakdown already and go get help and stop trying so hard to make life work but it’s so depressing and hard to accept because I spent so much of my life continuously making excuses and being delusional thinking shit would just change,1.4069849896480306,3.8624551902173927,2.961925465838512,89.43297101449276,84.05434782608697,5.8960662525879926,20.7184265010352,7.2636822038024595,0.6495556935817812,721,22,149,11,21,236,112,184,0.281,0.636,0.083,-0.9927,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,6,10,14,4,0,6,0,13,9,5,2,2,36,33,19,0,3,5,0,3,2,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,13,0,3,6,0,2,2,5,9,0,1,5,4,17,5,14,24,3,17,0,3,1,0,5,5,3,2,11,85,21,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13474443602361794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12109403029594328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10195146408438063,0.14886652767920572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291694923746833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10516771195592382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208995199649131,0.0,0.0,0.10973890520697076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12758825574871452,0.0,0.13878865895723136,0.10241476513428148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.328142713849172,0.0,0.12531359221666913,0.12979049126796086,0.0,0.0,0.08184351609231368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13784018079593385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10853135212289683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13266599460590922,0.12485927523917816,0.2587362992333083,0.119307370827226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13660277369766033,0.13329057960804275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630102956041079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12328989874525174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897602467974119,0.09053832405338884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11458602266224276,0.11963567142825175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300364234000736,0.0,0.09286534315337387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465131041583554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13765354138735195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973008160868292,0.11115859517465608,0.0,0.0,0.25067532493022576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12446931457503264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208413546838058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13856179759712273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09814230465270346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15647820267071905,0.0,0.09693667478031308,0.14239926368902364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08290037675985715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3555717037101918,0.0,0.0,0.08673894376435934,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ehhhmaybenot,2019/09/13,Venting I’m just really fucking tired of feeling like this. I don’t know what else to do.,0.9205263157894772,3.0568202631578965,3.020263157894739,90.32934210526315,83.21052631578947,5.905263157894738,25.28947368421053,7.1686216300943375,1.1981368421052632,71,3,15,1,2,24,17,19,0.16699999999999998,0.627,0.20600000000000002,-0.0535,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.389889614634105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359906471449277,0.333429088311618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4314805894813032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565003580079646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280187077757119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989965735860058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5364327833559824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DJAdam12,2019/09/13,"Intensity, duration, and persistence of visual hallucinations altering reality Wondering how many people go through this... I don't know what's going on right now. I have these weird experiences happen and people actually comment on them... whereas usually people looked at me like I was crazy. And denied everything I was experiencing. I'm used to auditory hallucinations, but visual? I could be experiencing very very many every day influencing people I work with and speak with on a daily basis... still employed... nobodies told me I need to go on pills yet... just wondering how many hallucinations you have that completely alter what's supposed to be a dead set reality for you, as opposed to just something ""drawn on top"" or ""added to it"" and how long they last for. Not like, I see a demon or a shadow person, not like I'm downplaying those I've seen my fair share of them, but like, things that alter people's actions and behaviors and appearances and how long they stick with what you know as your reality as being true.",8.696756756756756,8.661925837837842,9.420675675675678,60.47155405405407,60.8918918918919,12.80540540540541,36.33783783783785,12.161744961471696,4.7780918918918935,820,33,134,25,10,279,109,185,0.057999999999999996,0.8190000000000001,0.12300000000000001,0.9042,1,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,0,4,4,3,9,7,0,0,4,0,9,1,0,6,1,34,26,19,1,2,8,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,1,10,11,0,1,4,0,0,5,3,1,0,0,4,6,19,6,22,18,0,22,1,0,3,0,13,8,0,5,12,87,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.13129583043288645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410671407590868,0.0,0.0,0.10742267712005296,0.0,0.0,0.08676994417119986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11335937722253515,0.0,0.12091974310625453,0.1316101443130354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293938820810829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11897708185558688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14788405940435725,0.10967156346012072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26292619930737954,0.0,0.0,0.23813494668809254,0.11298332777122827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4092204137754523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09976289507498368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4663803912470797,0.11747889482791668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490009870897172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072143891271565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035787768640722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10744725331769432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08938525578905902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12856284626163472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162030783258884,0.1481815402979371,0.22202627941963826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918151123305863,0.09794985421851672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CertainHandle,2019/09/13,I am a prisoner inside my own skull I am a prisoner inside my own skull while my cellmate rots away.,6.7885714285714265,4.909717380952383,8.333333333333332,72.72000000000003,65.66666666666666,12.20952380952381,35.285714285714285,11.20814326018867,3.8404857142857134,79,3,16,2,1,28,12,21,0.318,0.682,0.0,-0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iseedemons92,2019/02/12,"Finding Love I’m still a person, damnit. I still have feelings. The stigma is so bad. Fuck. You can’t tell people because they will immediately cut you off. This has happened so much. I’m not crazy damnit I just have delusions, hear things, see things and experience things that others don’t. My life is so fucked. I’m not an ugly guy. I’m 26 years old. I work. I just need a lover. I need a boyfriend. I can’t go through this shit alone. Is my condition going to get worse? Has anyone been successful in finding a relationship with this curse of an illness? Please help me. Just need people to talk to. 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Is my experience relatable to any of you? Hi, all. I've been pretty worried about developing schizophrenia or being schizotypal, and I have some questions about the process. I'm curious about whether or not others can relate to my experience. Additionally, I'm aware that I absolutely should see a therapy and a psychiatrist and I'm working on it, but having some opinions from the community seems worthwhile. Obligatory ""sorry for the wall of text"". So, for some context, my family has a history of various issues with mental health (mostly depression and addiction), but not schizophrenia in particular, to my knowledge. I'm 19 (20 in a month). I was diagnosed with aspergers as a kid. It was pretty rough at the time, but I think most of my symptoms are easily under control these days. I've always had stereotypically aspie behavior to some extent, but I think I tend to read as neurotypical these days. I've also had some on and off issues with OCD behavior, which also started in childhood. My compulsions were really bad for awhile, but are mostly average these days. I began struggling with depression in high school and was voluntarily hospitalized for a week, and although I'm still depressed, being suicidal isn't really an issue for me. I hope I don't sound like a hypochondriac here, I just felt like this stuff was relevant. Anyways, I've pretty much been obsessing over the prospect of developing schizophrenia/being schizotypal lately. Some stuff I'm worried about: I've been reading up on self disorders lately, and I identify with that kind of thing to some extent. I don't struggle with depersonalisation, but I do feel this general perplexity at thought of just functioning and the world and being a person, which is apparently really common for prodromal patients. I feel like perceive the world differently from other people, but that honestly might just be aspergers. I don't have any particular delusions or anything. I went back to college recently (after being out of school for awhile), and I've been very isolated and feel like I'm too socially anxious to make friends. My social anxiety mostly stems from low self-esteem and embarrassment. I have a girlfriend who lives near my hometown who I visit every few weekends. She lives with some mutual friends. I love seeing her and her housemates, but it's pretty much my only social interaction right now (when I'm back home this summer I'll probably be around them way more). But otherwise I feel really isolated and like I couldn't possibly make connections here. I feel really worn out and lacking in energy. I have some hobbies and there hasn't really been a *marked* loss of interest with them I'm noticing myself feel less and less invested. I'm a bit paranoid sometimes. At night, I sometimes to stress out hard over making sure that the blinds are closed all the way, so that no one can see in. I'm scared of the idea of intruders or people watching me, but I never believe that my apartment is being broken into or that I'm actually being watched, or anything. This paranoia only really impacts me a few times a month, tbh. As far as intrusive thoughts go, I saw this in another post and it's a pretty good summary of how I feel: > I don't think I hear voices but it seems like sometimes my own thoughts will be repetitive almost like a mantra, and it's stuff I don't even agree with. I can get strange thoughts stuck in my head like this. It's not at all like hearing external voices, it's more like I'm recalling a line of thought and getting it stuck in my head, in a really similar way to how songs can get stuck in my head. I did get stoned recently and I had an exaggerated version of this that I really couldn't stop, but even then it felt entirely internal and more like I was obsessing over the thought of hearing voices rather than actually hearing them, if that makes sense. My normal thinking doesn't really have ""acoustic properties"" or anything. I'm really preoccupied with my own thoughts and space out really really easily. I'm in my own head a lot. Despite this, I don't really have strange beliefs, just odd thought processes. There was this one time about a month ago where I got *super* anxious at my orientation and ended up feeling like the people around me weren't real for a couple minutes. I think that this is derealization. I snapped out of it and haven't felt like that since, but it seems like the most worrying thing here. That's mostly that. I think I'm displacing my anxiety about growing up and being depressed and aspie and stuff on this, the chances seem pretty low all things considered. Still, though, I just can't stop thinking about it as possibility and it's really scary to me. I'm working with insurance to find providers for therapy in my area, it's just kind of tough right now. Does this sound like the prodrome to you guys/stuff I should be worried about as far as schizophrenia development goes? I've heard that most people aren't aware of the prodrome when they're going through it but I've read some conflicting things. Thanks so much. 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I was diagnosed schizo-affective 3 years ago. It’s the only diagnoses I’ve refused to accept, and I’m almost 33. But yesterday morning, it hit me. I realized how true it was, and I believe I am actually paranoid schizophrenic. I’m a new dad, a husband, a disabled vet, and a student. My wife is helping me, but I just wanted to ask everyone what’s it’s like to finally talk about your voices with someone for the first time. Any advice? Thanks in advance.",1.3815695792880265,3.87193672815534,3.6817718446601937,83.95398462783172,84.63106796116504,6.928478964401295,27.02993527508091,8.07648339933343,2.198871197411004,405,19,77,9,12,139,66,103,0.032,0.816,0.152,0.8862,0,0,0,0,1,0,17.0,0,2,0,3,4,5,0,0,7,0,5,3,0,1,1,14,11,6,0,1,3,3,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,10,5,10,8,0,11,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,1,11,48,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.19668410014112495,0.0,0.0,0.19695270193697698,0.17866225397085495,0.0,0.201823595015904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13706117212389216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18842240111496825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270782628969323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4091387929624383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19259002852704316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207885932368953,0.0,0.3428773062027542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13509497344867388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19693467318724944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19465861616338573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15328814873320498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17077298574272246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239971270612068,0.0,0.18556051382544508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350512986939724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11887963808044065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12979183877785802 schizophrenia,Searchinforfiles,2019/02/12,"Psychotic episode + hearing voiced during cannabis use First of all, sorry for any gramatical error, I'm not a native English speaker. So I used weed with my friend and I went so strong that I start to remember things of my early childhood so vivid and with details, I start getting constant flashbacks, like every 1 second around 100 images of memories start passing around my mind. It was scary and confusing. Then I start to hear my friend whispering something like ""cigarette, cigarette, cigarette, cigarette, cigarette, cigarette, cigarette, cigarette"" many, many times without stop. although his mouth was closed and he wasnt saying anything, it was like I can hear his mind. Then he started to laugh and his laughing started to become louder and louder to the point it was like a maniacal laugh of movies. I simply can't believe it happened, it was so real and I felt the fear in my spine, I was paralised with fear, the only thing I could do was breath and wait to those things go away I can may develop schizophrenia in the future or it was only the cannabis effect? I already have schizoid personality disorder. 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I have good reason to believe my long-term partner has a schizo-related disorder due to matching the symptoms. Whether or not they have schizophrenia or some type of schizo-affective disorder, they have been heavily invested for a few months now in what could only be called ""Delusions"". Delusions that the project they've been working on will make millions (while not really working on it,) delusions that different people are telling them what to do (take clothes off in public for example) and that they can easily arrange to meet certain famous people. I am not judging because for a while I was completely caught up in many of these delusions. I found myself agreeing to move to another state with practically no thought behind it. I found myself saying ""yes, you are going to make millions on your project."" Does that mean I was encouraging the delusions? Have I done something wrong? My partner is now hospitalized as an in-patient awaiting a diagnosis, because they were determined to be a danger to themselves and others and they are not able to care for themselves daily as far as getting themselves food, basic activities. Even though I wasn't actively encouraging these delusions (believed a couple of them) she has a couple of friends who REALLY encouraged delusions -- told my partner her head was full of sh\*t that was leaking everywhere? Then she wouldn't stop talking for days about how her head was full of shit that is leaking everywhere. I guess I wonder if that friend believed the delusions as well. I apologize if this is the wrong place for these ramblings but I am just struggling to understand and I have a lot of anger at my partner's friend, who was actively encouraging ridiculous delusions during a very very acute phase she was having.",9.034392344497613,9.685542381818184,7.7751993620414686,70.2533253588517,60.03030303030303,10.704944178628391,41.307814992025506,10.426177893888326,4.6329393939393935,1526,79,234,31,19,464,175,330,0.094,0.8,0.106,-0.1952,1,0,1,0,0,0,39.0,0,2,7,2,8,19,4,1,15,1,38,6,3,4,1,38,56,19,0,6,11,0,0,1,7,3,2,1,0,4,19,6,1,1,9,0,1,3,7,7,1,2,18,1,34,12,44,32,6,26,0,0,0,0,36,13,1,8,10,183,53,5,0.0999053975403127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10475952023309912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12180280610439999,0.0,0.0,0.33767751396356416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020145809817388,0.0,0.10186021113805904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474890854128728,0.0,0.0,0.07976633055975396,0.22108684429465034,0.0,0.0644307164461767,0.0,0.0,0.1014018755113203,0.0,0.10437987664968797,0.2290004819578575,0.0,0.08742788663812104,0.1022379080968939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06598657284513187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208060032691194,0.21908222351312465,0.2315599869407753,0.0,0.05219644677159368,0.0,0.05677853974294951,0.08379590747733298,0.0,0.0,0.11005705882476606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20506352116849805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04880873082164408,0.0,0.0,0.08841313298365887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493599633794897,0.0,0.0,0.13337525727256905,0.10128839233368483,0.0,0.10882626619229056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07974353516358756,0.10618362681748794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07598255673903903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20778547017531415,0.0,0.10437987664968797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12800391177646814,0.10271938789190516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944878203309592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10255145489599113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07691205596264429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08352538581127471,0.0,0.10444281329652648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038399611378931,0.07511642557018294,0.08030017419370479,0.08732172095887919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09815654583594806,0.07931372610581168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09546388870152307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120151265776385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648648318208143,0.05892679192887167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898269505446466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083431419535349,0.14546463855377925,0.0,0.0,0.07096992798674974,0.2184617375965612,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CannabisCBD,2019/02/12,"FUCKING Tired off delusions :( where ever I go, I feel like I am being poisoned, where ever I go, I feel like there are toxic chemicals around me, and that my brain is melting, I have crazy irritability problems, and I never listen to my parents, I have nothing in common with my family, I have two parts of my brain, the part that says it is delusional and it cannot be right, and the other part say that what I am feeling is true, the cognitive decline and hallucinations, delusions, are a sign that I am being poisoned, I am fucking fighting my own brain, and I am scared of brain damage all the time, what helps? :(((",17.36207282913165,7.1209337226890765,15.547226890756304,54.24728291316529,56.310924369747895,17.883473389355746,54.79271708683473,11.20814326018867,6.221636414565825,479,18,90,6,3,158,67,119,0.22399999999999998,0.687,0.09,-0.9566,1,0,0,0,2,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,6,11,5,1,5,0,17,9,4,0,5,18,25,6,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,9,8,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,8,0,1,0,6,19,3,7,22,5,13,0,1,0,2,6,6,2,0,7,75,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184897447978426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5943471455176766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407982735645885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254775093273592,0.0,0.20190238176865413,0.19017738738242912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24610285692019346,0.0,0.0,0.15129081979242914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892160262757251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13005464621783416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10265711379454782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12771576236583862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14779494936317472,0.4324122066434027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273614395379108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11366909594672812,0.0,0.2116974374422806,0.13325916029563525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07761333491949622,0.15298213146535874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130022131619647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SoIomon,2019/05/03,"If you’re having trouble finding a psychiatrist or if they’re too expensive, look for an APRN Also known as psychiatric nurses. They can provide medication and are often much cheaper. They have similar expertise as well. My current provider is an APRN and she’s fantastic. I’ve worked with several and have had good experiences",5.247988505747127,8.40878632758621,6.0834482758620725,68.66471264367817,73.65517241379311,10.073563218390808,35.5287356321839,10.125756701596842,4.842990804597702,269,15,40,9,6,88,48,58,0.045,0.813,0.14300000000000002,0.7096,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,1,4,3,0,0,3,0,7,1,0,0,0,10,8,9,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,4,2,4,7,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,4,1,29,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825540113412769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.345619814711401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229328049778914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29635238976861844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967041561544869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3559379377685818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597346545662283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39915687285890994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3176817610899962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572249323387412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Moon_Filth,2019/05/03,"Having issues this semester Freshmen in college and I was at my best I ever was at the beginning of the year. Got a girlfriend and had really good grades. Now i'm too scared to leave my dorm and i stopped going to all my classes and i just feel terrible. I just get super paranoid about the outside and my teachers. I don't want to be called out and i don't want to explain anything to anyone. I just want to be better again what should I do?",0.567905138339917,2.9027619565217435,2.5500790513834017,91.6763438735178,87.04347826086956,5.084584980237153,22.49407114624506,6.574015621080383,0.6382913043478258,348,13,72,4,11,116,58,92,0.154,0.698,0.14800000000000002,0.6627,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,8,6,0,1,4,0,10,0,0,0,2,19,20,6,0,4,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,7,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,1,13,4,12,13,2,11,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,6,56,15,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18069934035341004,0.0,0.21266478236091724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27120495367316555,0.22855916461839176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.263884574193786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337635344811633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13066930445896294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13501831795217795,0.0,0.14687097314152794,0.2167577139565584,0.2066890216252721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697323978487318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736386557402445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16555602850693846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25873218982480817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160579463942061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4572837896439426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16641959565027678 schizophrenia,Dlisin,2019/05/03,"How can you tell the difference between delusions and severe anxiety? If you have a thought and you know on some level it isn’t true, but that thought also dictates the way you behave and feel anyways, is it a delusion or severe anxiety? If you cover your windows with tin foil to prevent signals from being transmitted into your house even though the rational part of you knows you don’t need to, or if you carry a knife with you around the house to protect against attackers even though the rational part of you knows you don’t need to, or if you go and hide for a while from the strange person you saw walking down the street even though the rational part of you knows you don’t need to - what is this? If you know a thought is unreasonable or ridiculous when you stop and reflect on it, but then as soon as you stop reflecting on it the fear and emotions you feel come back and *do* make it feel real, what is this? If you believe something but *don’t* believe it at the same time, what is this? If you can say with confidence that you don’t *really* believe something is true, but then you go and *act* like it’s true anyways, what is this? Does it matter what you think if your actions say otherwise, or vice versa? Is there a certain requirement for how “strange” or “unconventional”’ the thought has to be? How likely it is that it might actually happen, or how ridiculous it is? (Being kidnapped and murdered versus being abducted by an alien). Where do you draw the line? How can you tell?",3.120398564654621,5.4019915640138425,3.650880430603614,87.9520556196335,76.26643598615917,6.6344226579520695,26.966679482250424,7.662118739084242,1.559780366525696,1178,47,230,17,27,369,126,289,0.14800000000000002,0.775,0.078,-0.9740000000000001,0,0,2,0,0,0,34.0,0,29,0,1,20,11,4,1,19,0,28,0,0,6,4,72,50,43,1,11,20,0,3,2,0,1,0,2,1,1,23,15,0,5,15,0,0,6,6,5,0,0,5,6,29,6,28,40,5,26,0,0,1,0,34,10,0,17,11,182,52,1,0.0,0.0,0.09717382575915226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07963254147937149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15235389218417106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08864558837391155,0.0,0.11328442289392088,0.0,0.07656938431656499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33657113416800755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857776845417023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040378823450261,0.0,0.0,0.08714143449563379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11201191870204676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19731111558179396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11205300589257933,0.15104898281713855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131850166354269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08805655277436236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22979943156093435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736274977989644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09729762397927563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06646913068517507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10563658928208204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22150761721714632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32350001718177196,0.0,0.0,0.08694772422511253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334163678221652,0.06379225738021176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15837694588115933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22498973618407747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533201165970064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16650343994983616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740712333235399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06380560236490504,0.2935048256862945,0.31621543806324204,0.058064769667100065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07904043190339219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mssample,2019/05/03,Anyone try GeneSight or another test for tailoring medication? I was interested in finding out if anyone has tried GeneSight where they do genetic testing to help better prescribe medication. Did you find it helpful?,8.491619047619048,11.734381400000006,9.525714285714287,47.547619047619065,63.57142857142857,13.809523809523812,45.95238095238096,12.45797560212912,8.076809523809526,179,12,20,8,3,61,32,35,0.0,0.7240000000000001,0.276,0.8875,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,0,15,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27184164481172035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3625411414653293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22928169043410165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4738916143934444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34753375932858005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5223253920101875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3520215279193577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hippybitty,2019/05/03,"I think Im developing schizophrenia? I interpert situations completely different then others, more so when im smoking pot. But now more in everyday life when im not high. I used to be able to speak freely but now my speech is rambled and disorganized. I am paranoid to the point where I think thegoverment is trying to kill us and me. as well as many other delusions. I hear strange noises a lot. My vision vision actually glitches at random times making me see two of something or more or makes it like shutter?? If that makes any sense. I get so tired during the day and sleep for so long. I have ver strange dreams every night. I've thought that weed could be the problem but haven't topped smoking since ive been getting so anxious. im a 17 yo girl btw.",3.2988229220443976,5.334469899328862,4.243758389261746,85.05120289106868,74.83892617449662,7.000722767165723,27.568921011874032,7.882392219407189,1.7096242643262776,601,24,118,9,13,194,103,149,0.177,0.723,0.1,-0.938,1,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,0,1,10,4,1,0,5,0,10,3,1,4,0,21,21,18,1,3,7,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,1,5,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,2,1,1,2,4,14,2,10,16,4,16,0,0,1,0,4,6,0,5,11,69,19,0,0.1366989742532576,0.0,0.13339847980707725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09295999009978127,0.0,0.0,0.15443093109012698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14332627369771886,0.0,0.0,0.10914300764445477,0.0,0.0,0.08815952956936987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428213332011054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11517478158678468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14283914401046247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15406967896225335,0.0,0.0,0.14442997159305307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5906333994210949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15123716137320667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09655452818402786,0.06678421388824214,0.0,0.0,0.12097429054827814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162165795085402,0.0,0.0,0.2737428803969422,0.13859130414039192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12828272709420682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12922471568258648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308024567606394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10893138400398696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11307880411051716,0.15365537452316275,0.13679769661762267,0.0,0.0,0.10523754888778866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17518236607765808,0.0,0.1085237161334891,0.07971027119110527,0.15711536167264878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09280963036162623,0.0,0.13353503470760175,0.0,0.164432034725904,0.11806402340781065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290879474050942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,punstressed,2019/05/03,"Is it dumb to be afraid to tell my therapist about this stuff? I don't know if this is the right place for this. If not, sorry. Also of note is that I am more than hesitant to self-diagnose or ask for a diagnosis, that's not my goal in writing this. I'm afraid that once I tell my therapist she won't take it/me seriously, especially since I've never mentioned it before now because it only started getting noticeably bad a couple months ago. I'm also afraid that, like, she's gonna ask me questions about what's going on and I'm going to give the ""wrong"" answers and she's going to think I'm faking it for attention or something? Like, what if my psychiatrist tries to work out some meds for me or something and when he asks me if they're working I answer wrong? Like, maybe they aren't supposed to work and they work so there's actually nothing wrong with me, or maybe they are supposed to work and they don't and he assumes I'm faking it, or maybe no matter what he tries they won't work and then he'll assume I'm faking it. I want to get help but by getting help I make what's going on concrete and unavoidable and I put myself out there to be accused of faking it. I brought this up with my mother and she acted supportive but I know she thinks I'm faking it, I can *tell* by the way she talked about it. I want help because this is getting obstructive in my day-to-day life, but I'm afraid I won't get any.",2.121375838926173,3.6776931912751682,3.789001342281882,89.12814630872484,76.81879194630872,6.647194630872482,23.32939597315436,7.404127859558343,0.8404065503355707,1113,34,243,14,25,372,130,298,0.1,0.8190000000000001,0.081,-0.7997,0,1,2,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,5,7,10,19,1,4,5,0,15,1,0,1,1,45,49,27,0,6,14,1,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,24,14,0,0,10,0,0,7,10,15,0,0,1,0,34,4,31,41,2,24,0,0,0,0,30,9,1,13,10,145,58,7,0.0,0.0,0.08999013992710245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08174448886815236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474912301639928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06271047862614068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586303350840797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07699704396065142,0.11242881776075836,0.0,0.07846957004358089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203596009602313,0.0,0.11894421005889487,0.0,0.0,0.09359795022037268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408969460363952,0.08846260562781942,0.20963537053524245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18543261334349795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10135970925282847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06513534123059057,0.1351571793340392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061555324434968986,0.0,0.2779320341587832,0.0,0.10243190021864873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736064436382615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112315908501513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0884843548454794,0.10498925782802644,0.0,0.09820771382679228,0.0,0.07013491148379468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634676330592584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09270319535539434,0.10330374351796932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07875250818222754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620206903639407,0.0,0.0,0.07628255898726498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14198575221686974,0.0,0.10322898053953393,0.06527141365955615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055659921533094,0.0,0.10464635222915893,0.0,0.0,0.06933543808531839,0.07412024352577751,0.2418042284796009,0.0,0.0,0.21414125731283326,0.0,0.11817740096355255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12521809296333974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10878352909733033,0.07319727788133272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4028088808868578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024732639930756,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,notworthyofhugs,2019/05/03,"Hearing voices? Guys, I am just asking here cuz idk where else or what to do, but... I sort of... – started having really strong intrusive thoughts that are like urges to do something, lasting for only a split of a second, usually really negative – random thoughts that sound like my own thoughts but are off and really weird – a voice outside of my head that asked me how my French is (???). I remember that few years ago, for like a week, the voices were really really common, talking over each other and all. But then nothing. Until now. And I... don't know if I should be worried, or what to do? Can it be beginning of something serious, or does it happen to nearly everyone? What can I do to stop it? What is going on?",3.152712895377128,5.169932051094894,4.62454379562044,82.24124391727493,75.2043795620438,8.070316301703164,25.2852798053528,8.841846274778883,2.0690491484184914,549,19,103,12,12,183,87,137,0.10099999999999999,0.835,0.064,-0.6309,0,0,2,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,5,0,17,1,1,2,1,24,28,14,0,2,8,0,0,3,0,1,0,5,0,1,12,4,0,1,5,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,4,5,10,4,16,21,4,18,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,6,15,83,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394356312964508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29410573152339753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13765297923651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13140271443302107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15030545967169084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08939636371019981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557502475514965,0.13909854595399487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614336438121384,0.0,0.17728684401598674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644714306360486,0.12821927359355315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305443080705549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15093215516508562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11963259901761555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5038472416384409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781885394114855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421921437100565,0.0,0.0,0.11133668942393747,0.0,0.0,0.13150859114770871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12643057765683788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3746323208521803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17324207713956852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12617537031539475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15974426437172376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10129507814263916 schizophrenia,Trodolfo-banderas,2019/05/03,"Need advice on helping friend suffering from schizophrenia/bipolar My best friend has recently developed what seems to be bipolar or schizophrenia. He has been away for treatment for a few months, he’s gone through hell, but he’s been feeling better recently. What I can tell from talking to him however, is that he hasn’t accepted the fact that he’s suffering from a disease and he refuses to be labeled with whatever his diagnosis is. I think this stands in the way of his development. I see videos of people with such diseases talking back about their experiences, and it seems like when they can look back at the situation and accept it for what it is, they can integrate back to society and have normal lives. He still has thoughts and beliefs that could be of harm to him, such as thinking he can instantly heal wounds, and I want to help him realize what thoughts in his head are wacky and what thoughts will help him go forward. He’s coming to visit soon, and I want to help steer him in the right direction while he’s here. I want to know the best way to interact with him. If anyone has dealt with a situation like this or has experienced these symptoms themselves, any advice would be appreciated! Thanks",8.300007342143907,7.941782198237887,7.6421255506607935,73.96497980910428,61.8193832599119,11.443318649045525,37.859397944199706,10.864195022040775,4.041523054331863,977,43,179,22,12,305,123,227,0.053,0.73,0.217,0.99,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,3,3,10,14,1,0,8,0,24,5,1,0,1,39,43,15,0,8,4,0,1,2,2,2,4,0,0,0,14,13,0,1,13,1,0,5,1,4,0,0,6,4,19,10,32,30,3,25,2,2,2,0,34,8,1,5,13,122,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368407846862189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08240982539610693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473523580263413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138571167622202,0.2795509123746182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543519600613138,0.10717811515479067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10438998210162094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967562087036694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185419962718001,0.0,0.0,0.06127468038256989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18725416489753036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06887211938554738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12437057535713805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3249104907328079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06660000150472317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11840955232113867,0.0,0.10700840612963466,0.0,0.10176471798083098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967285579882174,0.0,0.0,0.08985699998865042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187353823761025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08401428763569282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393107571337497,0.0,0.0,0.10349116433146667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09656860253845874,0.2206441965825985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724336044363897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096778344622936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595741688421344,0.0,0.19480751737493676,0.10592086408101356,0.11157068999048164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15530066413992286,0.0,0.28862160446546403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21443381956136945,0.1923817206254412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608621100887115,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,putitonBig_L,2019/05/03,"Help Me Help My Dad Over the years my dad has dealt with psychosis, manic and depressive stages, and hearing voices which tell him to do things. He has been diagnosed with schizophrenia and as he has grown older, with out proper care, his symptoms have worsened. From a strained relationship as a child, stemming from divorce and moving away, I never fully realized how much help my dad truly needs. Now as an adult, I don't even know where to begin. His most recent episode had him driving all over cities in Arizona, fleeing from 'cops' that were following him, and throwing his cell phone out of the car window from a paranoia attack. It's the 3rd cell phone this year he has lost this way. He called me from an unknown city, needing help. I need as many resources as I can get my hands on, as I fear my father will inadvertently hurt himself with out a support system, and without resources I can help him use. When he called me, he had somewhat come out of his psychosis, and asked for help. He wanted to go to long term inpatient treatment center, to get his symptoms under control. They are reeking havoc in his life, so much so he had to take a leave from work, and isolating himself. I had no information to give, and I'm the only family my father has. He has state provided insurance, please help me become more educated, resourceful and knowledgeable with what I can do for him. Thank you.",6.094457615745918,6.991027159695822,5.9226168642361925,80.15516662938941,66.37642585551329,8.469604115410423,31.44016998434355,8.4952907291091,2.3874237978080965,1105,42,201,15,17,345,154,263,0.113,0.774,0.113,-0.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,34.0,0,1,1,3,7,10,1,2,11,0,21,5,1,3,2,36,42,20,0,4,1,5,1,0,0,1,4,2,1,2,7,20,0,1,4,0,0,9,4,7,0,0,7,4,33,3,40,34,7,36,0,3,0,0,51,13,0,2,10,137,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091569999272467,0.13283398620691028,0.1097020356648395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12895480000869056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384547506364899,0.0,0.11904695884137365,0.0,0.0,0.10058039291017674,0.0,0.0,0.13095886136183665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10056720819595806,0.11851128881004075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771204058366868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11007311613438034,0.1313900628078007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12200697762273005,0.11200904912728868,0.06635871267428249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131599611603049,0.0,0.5478432152309399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12499646988664545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641695130538719,0.0,0.0,0.12363442921662987,0.0,0.0,0.08247267400775711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10333097178717564,0.0,0.0,0.12745985645879507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837865775591065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12409985911217244,0.1716674682659089,0.2597333244809859,0.09005429315023666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880299975536728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12816995546570326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11528869674828054,0.1253590259675154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13250048791397265,0.0,0.24272149923030595,0.0877907273434214,0.0,0.10205540715854138,0.10749904933960053,0.0,0.0,0.07757169178723129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10084514830830364,0.0,0.0,0.06886943680003302,0.09268048839402124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125547020547204,0.0,0.08500435373786833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15038220139639635 schizophrenia,steezycheesefries,2019/05/03,Could anybody help My roomates father was skitzophrenic and killed himself when he was very young. And my roomate clearly has skutzophrenia also. But wont admut to himself that he has it. And im very worried for him. He recently it seems like his voices and delusions are getting out of hand. He told me hears voices a couple times jokingly but sadly i know its true. And recently he told me he was jesus or a decendent of jesus reincarnated to save the world. And then just tonight he 1. Told me he was abducted by aliens as a kid and 2. He knows for sure weve been planet hopping for hundrends and thousands of years. Tnat as a human race find a planet destroy it or ourselves amd then just move on and. Forget about it. And im one for debates and Theorys but this wasnt either he was speaking to me like they were facts and i was crazy cus i couldnt see it. I love this fucking kid so much i just want him to do good ans suceed. But i dont know how to deal with him. Does abybody know what i should do how i should go about this maybe know how to get him medical help. Anything would do guys god bless have a good day thank you!,1.471867816091951,3.6947678534482766,2.675689655172416,93.09660919540232,81.67241379310346,5.418390804597701,22.597701149425287,6.6274283507984215,0.5051459770114941,890,30,189,9,24,285,133,232,0.105,0.723,0.172,0.9365,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,1,1,0,11,15,3,0,8,0,24,4,1,3,4,46,42,28,1,6,10,1,1,2,0,4,1,4,0,4,11,14,0,0,7,1,0,2,4,4,0,2,13,6,24,11,21,23,2,15,3,1,1,2,34,3,1,3,12,120,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10610302477150256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10918317902979814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10593306223696722,0.14680634217525745,0.0,0.08556671777890389,0.13678580591545114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11610793290214948,0.0,0.15549832561973742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212658324808378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12265922345310452,0.13863817993386793,0.0,0.07540430332078872,0.22256902178419172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313726691024346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14953841975388485,0.0,0.17786333144602015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866313014935741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14678920779314014,0.0,0.36458343081576267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296401196733839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11974761242786842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13329348225136153,0.0,0.0,0.1336597263259604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101634949570066,0.09753403378220696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08990644996291103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620082128999732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10572766254384604,0.12078561015342686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12504800593725324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12215262467321993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07736595592564195,0.0,0.0,0.3803402510395941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21894747279215102,0.07825727312540469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347415539572711,0.0,0.094251067406712,0.0,0.0,0.08544066537125916 schizophrenia,blkshpalcor,2019/05/03,"Can you tell me how to talk to my brother when he’s paranoid? We don’t have a diagnosis yet. I don’t know how to help. He is refusing medication. Thought you could help me understand what it’s like to be him. He thinks people are following him, brought the cat to the dog park... filed a formal complaint at work against someone and told them he has an attorney. He has a wife and a newborn and a good job he’s worked really hard for. so much is at stake for him and he’s lying about everything: taking medication, smoking, spending habits. He’s lashing out at everyone and he’s about to lose everything (this has been going on for months). Is there any way to talk to him? What is it like to be him? Can I help him? Can he help himself?",1.47637969094923,3.5723444966887428,3.1836821192052973,90.16700220750552,80.8543046357616,6.940573951434878,24.63620309050773,8.021203637495839,1.3788089183222958,573,22,126,11,15,190,87,151,0.09300000000000001,0.782,0.125,0.7155,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,2,1,3,8,4,0,0,8,0,18,2,0,2,0,15,27,9,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,7,0,1,4,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,4,1,16,3,20,20,1,12,0,1,0,0,33,5,0,0,5,79,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11611167640336832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363250746014559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16315307044531996,0.3069071343535123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970376675459696,0.14321184462141753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295295649932786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4577840273134419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694369298012682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09383635732767336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16683364581948576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191018699071308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440129413390663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13628611600750845,0.0,0.12551637940756416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837229034677585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093828856094432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14467071419083188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283781295665694,0.27447488584839,0.14923765504205033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10940576789945944,0.0,0.13555154853455964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16315307044531996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17775037457947415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13552852456498274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486071198657247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sp1d3r-j3rus4l3m,2019/05/03,"Movies, video games, podcasts, etc that have helped you with your schizophrenia, or had a positive impact My husband is schizophrenic, and I'm wondering if anyone could recommend any media (movies, tv shows, books, games, etc) that helped or had a positive impact on your mental health and if you're willing maybe letting me know some that have had a negative effect, or that we should stay away from. If you are able to give examples of how they affected you or why, it would be appreciated, but I understand that can be really personal so it's not necessary. Just any information on specific pieces of media would be incredibly helpful.",13.932368421052635,9.517220043859652,12.396929824561408,56.94434210526314,54.70175438596491,17.0140350877193,46.92105263157895,14.554592549557764,6.5570421052631565,511,21,85,16,4,163,80,114,0.031,0.86,0.109,0.8397,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,5,1,1,3,0,0,0,3,0,17,2,0,3,0,26,22,12,0,7,10,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,7,4,0,0,5,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,10,0,8,10,4,4,0,0,0,0,16,3,0,9,0,64,17,1,0.1935220751472516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632032945097089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13531513455532646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818203599580047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545116299705072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43165653807896265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856440084038002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20570491638131752,0.0,0.0,0.3891413031028026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10635467146143718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19788943335980164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19441893562022994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19502473487058772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16897601152416936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239751967552718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062687831755462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20146330515082986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17462357238713327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20986643539815794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27494505953004045,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sweetsandia,2019/09/05,"People going along with your delusions? Have you experienced a delusion or episode and strangers seem to go along with it? Or even loved ones...not like their behavior could be interpreted by the power of suggestion but them actually saying what was in your head? I was at a hospital and the nurses were talking about time traveling into last week or two weeks into the past. Or when I was thinking the only way to communicate with aliens is to color code my shirts and then when I was hospitalized 2 nurses where talking about what color shirts they should wear, pink or yellow (those were the two colors I was debating about) and how one of the another is while I was being loaded into the ambulance screaming about how I was raped and men hurt me an EMT turned to her colleague and said ""this is why we dont send more females to earth"" Or some nurse talking about me with her colleagues about how I'm ""fighting the men off"" and one of the delusions I was thinking about is that I was ""hacked"" somehow by two different men and I was ""fighting them off"" with my mind. Keep in mind I've kept all of my delusions to myself...not voicing exactly what I was fighting. The only thing I told the doctors is that I'm having a PTSD episode stimulated by religious fasting. There were lot more things said that seemed to address EXACTLY what was going on in my mind. It keeps me up at night and fuels even more delusions about how everyone around me knows what's going on and I'm kept in the dark.",8.219047619047622,6.933646222222228,7.756468253968254,76.09250000000002,62.47222222222222,10.72857142857143,35.501984126984134,9.606745405546679,3.1443692460317454,1184,43,226,18,14,374,148,288,0.086,0.8909999999999999,0.023,-0.9688,2,0,0,0,6,0,26.0,1,3,4,1,20,8,4,0,16,0,27,7,4,5,3,55,48,25,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,1,1,5,1,3,14,22,0,4,6,1,0,6,1,6,0,5,20,11,29,2,44,24,6,34,0,1,5,2,26,16,0,11,12,171,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.1152309048987228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12381917221753776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10511792948157607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09427879202542086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12337045735008632,0.0,0.12086183242242628,0.0,0.0,0.1383911121969668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559839680246076,0.0,0.0,0.11283231967260475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26843466923291004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12118610025418315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12640912058525652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20991324382987228,0.0,0.0,0.06489472639411498,0.09625251203713783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0576888538041924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10038901223140456,0.1065735286909131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.357687185373401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11081186792622738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16003070842672668,0.17961321811069894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11272253872560956,0.08186312441641776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13803142692938175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22464586259841213,0.09390346961441504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21499466132386785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.284729284998592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568967403643792,0.15132423243969306,0.0,0.0,0.06885450788012919,0.0,0.0,0.11283231967260475,0.0,0.0,0.1284392036069239,0.3460465870516528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937279192278373,0.1894363617839665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655055200029304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Megacrylic,2019/09/05,"Advice needed on focusing and functioning Hey guys, I don’t normally do posts like this but I wanted other perspectives and possibly some advice. I have a real issue with thinking, communicating and being naturally relaxed and myself in public or around new people. It’s always worse to manage when I’m not as well as i want to be. I rarely get out the house and get things like visual snow and find it hard to visually focus. I spend most of my time in my house with my eyes on a screen and saying don’t do that would be good advice and you’d be right. It’s a cycle of feeling worse due to this but also finding it hard to get out because of how I already feel. When I’m inside I feel myself, no egos or emotions to battle with, I just wish I could feel that way anywhere. In confrontational situations(which are most) my brain seems to shut down in the ways that matter but the part of my brain dealing with self doubt and paranoia seems to work overtime. I’ve been sober excluding the occasional beer or vodka for about a year now. I’m currently not on any medication and I’d like to manage without pills. I feel I need some way of waking my brain up when it’s needed. What do you guys think?",4.2725735294117655,5.377840541666672,5.403382352941179,81.46808823529412,70.66666666666666,7.980392156862745,24.950980392156865,8.313332769828598,1.4714289215686271,950,26,187,14,17,315,133,240,0.11800000000000001,0.784,0.098,-0.6976,1,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,1,10,9,2,1,8,0,15,8,5,1,0,55,36,23,0,9,10,0,7,3,0,1,2,1,0,3,13,17,1,0,11,3,1,0,6,3,1,0,1,10,22,6,35,28,5,27,0,0,2,0,9,14,0,10,12,124,35,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3048977997851001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477223659393772,0.0831728571943745,0.08654059183524583,0.0,0.0,0.07072704834807479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09258660750698977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06340055604493011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3483123327180978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08303962565226017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722471226549683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11699176172452805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629405693496093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190117591637116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16301514824143734,0.0,0.0,0.08723456048785581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059628416820651,0.0,0.0,0.186336318351444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400158898547424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10855432430139653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15243494495293572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477421689239227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23135543675998846,0.0,0.100448793362954,0.0,0.0,0.10190293559751268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126274101499374,0.0,0.07210405500773473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11725014617548547,0.09960815565635237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11838059661458848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881980453287043,0.0,0.0827090461885307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18936471087532208,0.10850002323352717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06909638056459677,0.1332845631976225,0.0,0.0,0.060646222082425975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226898293634437,0.2476632705607731,0.0,0.0,0.09351309373726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196007556313944,0.10025722461796198,0.0,0.07571696633392444,0.0,0.21198020615285096,0.07388225346749283,0.0,0.0,0.06697588758491943 schizophrenia,PatMan321,2019/09/05,"So what's your current delusion / hallucination? What are your voices currently telling you? For me, my voices keep telling me I'll be tortured after death. How about you? Just wanting to let people know they're not alone in scary hallucinations.",4.667441860465118,7.9702180697674425,4.503534883720931,78.0920465116279,77.6046511627907,6.2306976744186064,29.53023255813953,7.554174236665415,2.1940827906976743,199,9,32,3,5,61,37,43,0.166,0.7440000000000001,0.09,-0.688,2,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,6,6,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,7,0,5,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,21,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888350147373161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3337018013377474,0.0,0.0,0.20632797340397904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3839053346894509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602777374355185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6562893913893969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22143991201078364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,stpetehelper,2019/09/05,"My cousin has schizophrenia and I want to help her So this is my first time posting on reddit and first time on this sub, and long story short I have a cousin, who up until she was in her early 20s, didn’t suffer any mental health issues that we knew of. She was always a very happy-go-lucky girl with a wonderful personality and we were very close. We have always lived a couple hours apart and naturally drifted over the years of growing up but we started to notice weird behaviors around, i don’t know, 21-23 years old? She is 25 now and was diagnosed with schizophrenia a couple years ago. She would see things that weren’t there, most commonly she thought cats were following her or that bugs were crawling on her when they weren’t in reality, etc. Her doctors have prescribed medication, which seemed to help with the hallucinations but caused side effects she doesn’t like, so she will not take her meds. Even when she does take them, she’s not the same girl I knew. She still acts like she is 15, like she is in this immature mindset, she has on obsession with posting all day on social media’s and has no real friends. She doesn’t go out and do things bc she is socially awkward now, and likely is on and off the meds still. Her mother works full time and does as much as she can but it seems that there has been no improvement and I’ve noticed my cousin making sad posts about not liking herself and wanting friends. I want so badly to help her get back to the same old her, the real her. I want to help her socialize more and I messaged her tonight to see if she wants to go to the beach this weekend, which she said she is down for. But when the weekend comes I’m sure she will change her mind. I have tried reaching out before and I message her sometimes trying to have a normal conversation but doesn’t usually turn into much. How can I really help her? Is there hope for her to have a “normal” and fulfilling life like she once had? I have so many questions bc I don’t know much about the condition but I would like some insight and opinions/advice from people familiar with it. Thank you in advance for reading this and I appreciate any responses to educate me.",4.019790209790209,5.579714848484848,4.388158508158509,86.75608391608395,71.84382284382284,7.437762237762238,25.58741258741259,8.00094639256281,1.3534951048951056,1726,54,349,24,33,542,207,429,0.057999999999999996,0.7909999999999999,0.151,0.9907,2,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,4,1,2,5,20,18,0,2,16,0,42,5,0,4,2,77,71,37,0,11,11,4,0,7,2,4,5,1,0,3,16,33,0,0,11,4,0,8,13,6,0,2,15,3,63,12,47,52,11,65,0,2,2,0,68,24,0,9,37,245,79,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07677659112815158,0.06964656330301902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13075118889029688,0.0,0.0,0.10685905263760803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06994295249277346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060414611802955126,0.06560172521232936,0.0,0.0,0.06685632209672007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08071187300255701,0.08311544734234236,0.06768012514660078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17386992205613194,0.0,0.050670421762352466,0.0,0.0,0.07974574990089299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08041856841170883,0.13751229643536295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762505957585201,0.0518939980980676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366128256455512,0.0,0.0,0.12140422921185925,0.0,0.0410489921312954,0.0,0.13395749952101285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08351503551029879,0.0,0.0,0.2633152893545048,0.0,0.0,0.07803661660361297,0.07737451114778354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08200548817953504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08635879316878382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055495516934444655,0.2686934709066417,0.0,0.06937775227839127,0.06953097815318161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05244533129092941,0.07965650302004347,0.0,0.0,0.17454460653202672,0.07914987136793944,0.07917894207210596,0.0,0.07933216194176299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17327148064851025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15396162307454467,0.0,0.17890236009061247,0.16488962619042652,0.0836732830871888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054469762201424035,0.06860330735445339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22574177907228354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08801511651712297,0.0,0.07859013255433811,0.1788571515476524,0.05033323044267868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07473698812804695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12521843520717973,0.14305229809355022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402732078087708,0.0,0.0,0.07770662212519584,0.0,0.055611451074702486,0.0,0.12549040326848493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07405023081233521,0.0,0.1181480255027456,0.0,0.0,0.07233566008180342,0.0,0.0,0.10439533304829944,0.0,0.0,0.062374907109443774,0.13744242102154178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066862116212004,0.0854603697047063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0865325109519161,0.12965509345404272,0.2317097779467183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08520458875278887,0.05719907362186045,0.0,0.0,0.1116261429914856,0.0,0.0,0.15178733025161448 schizophrenia,lolileaf,2019/05/25,"What are the chances of me developing full blown schizophrenia? Hello there everyone, this is my first time on this subreddit so please forgive any mistakes I am 16 year old and male, my father as well as my grandfather have been diagnosed with schizophrenia who takes medicines for that even today. I started loosing interest in most daily activities around 4-5 years ago along with few symptoms which has gotten worse with time, I stopped feeling euphoric moments, decrease in emotions, lethargy etc. I am also diagnosed with a circadian rhythm disorder which I believe is quite common in people with schizophrenia. I also started having headaches from about a year ago, from past few months my emotional state is also not very great(anxiety, hopelessness, fear). I also have quite of muscle twitching as well. Most of my symptoms seems like initial phase of schizophrenia except few very crucial ones which are delusions/disordered thoughts/hallucinations. TLDR- My symptoms seems to be reaching close to schizophrenia year by year, what chances are there that it might eventually develop to full blown schizophrenia, how long till that time, any way to stop/slow it?",10.524713286713286,11.356516389743593,8.025174825174826,69.10027972027972,56.89743589743589,10.578088578088575,42.85547785547786,10.230975488527342,4.737666666666667,956,49,137,17,11,276,125,195,0.061,0.7879999999999999,0.152,0.9435,0,0,0,0,0,1,26.0,0,0,0,3,13,8,0,1,3,0,15,6,0,1,0,21,22,11,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,1,6,0,0,1,13,9,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,2,1,14,5,29,18,8,33,0,1,0,0,5,8,0,5,24,97,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18668766992172128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33683976099741275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14321788901601729,0.0,0.08055571201949475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09374107069368856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863925045134555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137585478609352,0.0,0.0,0.24137034071574515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369010659683196,0.0,0.0,0.1174395219459358,0.06955095218194722,0.0,0.0,0.10062053645012416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11849398192846675,0.05324383550348713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956979432050427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160957838644091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05144521918731749,0.0,0.0,0.09318892191650252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170873999913687,0.0,0.0,0.08405102071294006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11049669448090334,0.0,0.0713553340794262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100522637037875,0.07300312107527425,0.0,0.0,0.11558993170542688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22400319501483745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917259010458218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14906654010955306,0.0,0.0,0.17607430918325798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32834717095978144,0.07917396975854643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18420726100493448,0.0,0.09981394649031618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17377029204662148,0.0,0.08358379532055918,0.0,0.0,0.1893582185770924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10731169456196407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33905505244894546 schizophrenia,live4catz,2019/05/25,"Hi there I don't have schizophrenia but I always want to learn more and I was wondering if hallucinations is unanimously present in all people with schizophrenia and if so is it always the same type or of a similar nature. Sorry if I'm being super ignorant.",3.559591836734697,6.259450265306128,5.32995918367347,74.30432653061227,76.95918367346937,8.001632653061224,26.126530612244892,8.841846274778883,2.5198865306122453,209,8,35,5,5,71,40,49,0.08199999999999999,0.782,0.136,0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,6,0,0,0,1,14,9,8,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,4,7,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,5,1,28,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6778615935317179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823910062961662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4559720566664266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24025350843673904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4417314962744965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Gamesareunderrated,2019/05/25,"What encourages ya'll to take your medication? Hello my mom is paranoid schitzophrenic and maybe some other variations but mostly paranoid. She is undiagnosed because she refuses treatment. My dad and I were talking about how to get my mom diagnosed and on medication while keeping her on it he mentioned that even if she did she would be too paranoid to take it cause gov, spies, neighbors, ghosts, etc are out to get her. They can also feel it and it feels not normal for them, so for the paranoid schitzophrenics what keeps ya'll taking them? We can't talk sense into my mom. She's a goner at this point but its still one of my unanswered questions.",5.764416666666667,7.606500608333337,5.245000000000001,81.20666666666669,67.91666666666666,8.0,30.833333333333336,8.515128840125781,2.407083333333334,523,21,92,8,9,159,87,120,0.077,0.9079999999999999,0.016,-0.7514,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,1,3,0,7,1,0,0,2,0,9,3,0,2,0,23,18,11,1,3,4,4,2,0,1,1,3,0,1,0,10,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,18,1,13,14,3,8,0,0,0,0,25,6,0,4,2,71,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668576579424565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09656934083149678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627375734230607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16078960067327971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766764793820795,0.10463272640733913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16020047169274465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16553235905447744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816160569458413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15915085277503618,0.0,0.0,0.3191762877998825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5566071206747424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15521471629479802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10734724564094172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14975497216306374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774629426093329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12651176931024494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3573288958571233,0.2546586614398308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253466785756823,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,frumpydrangus,2019/05/25,"My friend has schizophrenia and speaks to a demon in her friend. Trying to explain this in as few words: Back home my wife has a friend, we’ll call her Jan, with schizophrenia and maybe some other things. She is super sweet and awesome and has tons of gold metals from the special olympics. She has a boyfriend and another friend, gonna refer to him as Michael. Anyway, Jan texts my wife every so often saying she misses her and wanting to FaceTime. Recently she’s mentioned her friend Michael has an evil spirit in him that won’t leave him alone. Earlier this week Jan sent my wife an audio recording of her talking to the Demon in Michael. Michael is a pretty normal looking maybe late 20’s guy. But the voice coming from him sounds like.. well a demon laughing, I can’t describe it as a man or woman or old or young, very scary, like a witches voice maybe. Jan sounds calm speaking with the demon, but also frustrated because she wants Michael to be okay. Jan also mentioned that Michael signed a contract with his blood that the demon will be in him until he meets a woman and gets married. This is very knew to me, I have heard stories from friends regarding evil spirits maybe once or twice, but this audio file is quite terrifying. Idk how to link an audio file here yet, still quite new to Reddit. Any help or advice on this topic is greatly appreciated",6.340275096525098,6.935112223938226,5.666754343629342,83.26646356177609,65.75675675675676,7.556081081081081,30.85931467181468,6.9077264865688965,1.7323608108108113,1082,38,200,7,16,328,146,259,0.095,0.748,0.157,0.8939,0,1,0,0,0,0,27.0,1,0,0,3,11,21,3,0,17,1,17,1,1,1,0,31,28,23,0,3,8,3,0,2,6,4,0,11,1,4,11,11,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,5,1,1,3,13,24,16,27,19,3,18,7,1,1,0,43,6,0,7,12,125,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11339029819116495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12017963887456395,0.0,0.1855899600192953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07890933724042952,0.12167521751096255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922551453223765,0.0,0.07073525581838201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118487048266578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999558518973436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776642265203714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5379007409572398,0.0,0.06062469549403698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12793152341638156,0.0,0.1148951618431965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07777735046445011,0.0,0.11639486437687145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13089511892811867,0.122866737130629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11337991861633548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09744210003757567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4663002227342158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11206953910847482,0.0,0.0,0.1136919085224738,0.0,0.0,0.12176161775113395,0.12357592829373798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805164151331456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468398854333436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11457282641458955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922775115173131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266753080370596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09326637941302997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07709002034457506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07878170397290526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19148583562687815,0.13688360178082087,0.0,0.09307811589974736,0.0,0.10433146048728344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PaintOnHerOveralls,2019/05/25,"Little tidbit I wrote about my struggles these last few months, any feedback is appreciated! How am I doing? Pretty shitty, thank you. Everything's got an awful tinge of gloomy blue Happiness is long overdue Been a while since I've had any composure Time flies when you're going through the motions Hopelessly stuck at a junction, in stasis May never live to tell the tale Bubble's been popped, the ship has sailed Struggling under rubble, from here I can feel death It's got a stale taste and I'm feeling more and more frail Growing afraid I won't live to make amends Leaving all this madness in my stead Guess I'll burn alive instead King of the castle relegated to mere pawn For I have sinned Father, oh, have I ever Got a clinical case of cabin fever The painstaking ascension seems steeper by the second As my bloodied hands claw back towards redemption Despondence sets in, like clockwork A perverted game of cat and mouse Swirling around in a roundabout Pondering how to turn the tide Ain't no Man of Steel, can't turn back time Even if I were, wouldn't have flunked it on my first try Choking on my own self-pity Sending an SOS that's much too faint to be heeded Uncertain if I even want a soul to hear it How hollow must I be, to willingly wallow Willingly clutch onto the claws of this sorrow There's a glimpse of hope, gleaming out at a sea Perhaps I could have frantically swam, and set myself free But blinded by guilt, its bright lights I cannot see And thus I'll languish forevermore in this wretched misery",6.449093667045887,7.0247454470989785,5.9815415244596135,81.17039343951461,65.51877133105802,8.69541145240804,31.636139552521804,8.515128840125781,2.3507058778915444,1228,45,228,16,18,378,203,293,0.152,0.732,0.11599999999999999,-0.9208,0,0,0,0,0,1,18.0,0,1,0,2,15,17,1,6,19,1,26,6,1,5,4,31,45,14,1,7,3,1,3,1,0,6,4,1,0,1,9,7,1,0,4,1,1,5,7,11,0,2,9,10,18,7,35,27,6,34,2,3,4,0,8,15,0,7,13,139,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19682191865203472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12882676540752774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22255334510593625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11554291340272972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911653906726107,0.13090273235025046,0.0,0.0,0.13006024222233986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14634420228073106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12309425095253385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08224469966985147,0.0,0.3472246995785603,0.0,0.1594195587024418,0.0,0.0,0.15405149043558472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631039858486661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14373435124045608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796179632958732,0.0,0.15323197346647718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07070029320701599,0.1450421485648838,0.25557146499336963,0.12806795669687165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09659818680995357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155098938759851,0.0,0.1063819565029416,0.0,0.11161289897946416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14722687704166984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153188806177418,0.1317428289105297,0.15096899450346182,0.0,0.0,0.11970949631137033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025744533457763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12648702744789048,0.13323385387426956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16876861212299402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825178282373973,0.3148160781667404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08535648022366911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,onixannon,2019/05/25,"My hallucinations So, in honor of schizophrenia awareness day, I figured I'd post my hallucinations. My internal voices are: Ethran, Aurora, Brent, Wolfe, Damian, Axel, Dracul, and there's one who has yet to oden himself. My visual hallucinations include: Lissy, a young girl who seems to kind of act as a therapist. There's also a weird, shadowy creature who stands in corners and makes a ""Ts, ts, ts"" sound. And, then there's the most terrifying in ny opinion. On bad days, there will be times when shadowy hands with emerge from the walls. Just hands. These are accompanied by whispers of ""Come with us, we'll make it better"". Feel free to ask me any questions!",5.6074166666666665,7.410505575000005,5.835000000000001,76.97666666666669,68.25,8.0,29.16666666666667,8.515128840125781,2.218166666666668,519,19,91,8,9,165,89,120,0.078,0.866,0.055999999999999994,-0.4032,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,2,0,0,2,9,6,0,0,6,0,6,2,2,2,0,15,12,8,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,5,6,0,0,4,0,1,2,0,2,0,1,0,6,9,5,15,9,1,17,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,4,7,55,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026119189788162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17229350382927788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368574205587468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21154503647732714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240763513947338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21824722591650494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3267925099635591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12810644032296192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638354760228222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3382395656545944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17168330869725454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24264886700127936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838212100963412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23064944954129066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941705146024462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14773626696771547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30476091245592923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kamikazikoala,2019/03/14,"Is the silence worth it? If anyone has coping methods for anything similar, ideas would be very much appreciated *Possible Trigger Warning* Recently I have come under a lot of stress and stress always makes the voices worse. I have been clean for almost 3 years and my voices have been so loud and irritating lately because of the stress and as soon as i think about smashing my skull onto something or slicing my arm open as far as I can my voices go silent. They used to pressure me into it and encourage me but the silence is proving to be more of a trigger. The silence is so glorious i continue to think about horrendous things that i dont want to do but i do. Its like my voices have gotten smarter and have figured out how to manipulate me. Its scary because I only just got everything under control about a year ago. .",3.827920433996384,6.064512696202534,4.943074141048825,79.72430379746838,73.9367088607595,7.2990958408679925,29.640144665461122,8.192908349453996,2.3596296564195307,658,29,115,11,14,216,97,158,0.128,0.742,0.13,0.4979,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,8,6,0,4,8,0,18,2,2,7,1,31,27,17,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,1,0,6,10,0,1,5,0,1,2,1,4,0,0,4,5,17,2,22,20,3,16,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,4,8,89,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456153483371737,0.0,0.16449256873080573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13668571005380006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486132839122752,0.0,0.13518012493145926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20027480369686101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415039670492769,0.0,0.0,0.1842426527355628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19252309074250354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14763518731084418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335836558204594,0.0,0.13138163947544204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854407137777392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18530359397805224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08025397194559852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13965638836596184,0.0,0.0,0.10965142890627197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12075727221818262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493465562898005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18518962193393407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16219670130332267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264629888463968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5645118209883967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091336174081143,0.2105150285378316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14187644460726498,0.0,0.13553986515355346,0.09689063875856163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16740505455818178,0.11669261858995232,0.0,0.0,0.21156885010577756 schizophrenia,The_Spitting_Llama,2019/03/14,Listening to music over and over again Anybody else listen to the same songs when your having an episode? I feel like I’m slipping this week into a stressful episode and I’ve been listening to Joy Division over and over again,5.8910852713178326,7.295259813953493,5.367441860465117,82.10992248062018,67.13953488372093,8.524031007751939,32.93798449612403,8.841846274778883,2.7750217054263566,184,8,33,3,3,56,31,43,0.07200000000000001,0.789,0.138,0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,7,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,2,2,8,6,1,9,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,5,23,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4367663862893631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643640104348708,0.3735175611750791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554335977762061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5989123525666282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4193913403475964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CSMan13,2019/03/14,25mg/ 2 week risperidone constra tablet equivalent What is the equivalent tablet wise to a 25mg per two week of risperidone injection ,7.255652173913043,10.258706956521742,5.312391304347828,77.45815217391308,66.39130434782608,9.817391304347826,37.58695652173913,10.125756701596842,4.538234782608695,112,6,17,3,2,32,19,23,0.0,0.86,0.14,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.520077785544626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.854118900963442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JustASkull999,2019/03/14,"I finally told my mom I needed help. It was not easy. We talked about it and she said she would make an appointment for me soon. I told her pretty much everything. The faceless man that would watch me from the woods, the thoughts I get that belong to other people, how I can't open my window or curtain because I was terrified something would try to come in, how I'm scared of things happening knowing it won't even. It was hard for me to even admit all of the things and thoughts I had because just saying this stuff feels ridiculous. Has anyone ever felt the same? I don't want to be alone on this.",3.7040404040404016,4.9833613140495885,4.086391184573007,89.71120293847568,72.22314049586777,7.03067033976125,25.014692378328746,7.3871296695380915,0.9977044995408628,473,14,99,5,9,148,82,121,0.133,0.804,0.063,-0.7736,0,1,1,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,0,8,2,1,1,6,0,12,0,0,3,2,25,28,5,0,5,3,1,3,0,0,4,0,2,2,1,12,5,0,0,6,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,10,6,17,0,12,13,3,7,0,0,1,0,13,3,0,1,3,73,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751942683280021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11827758353031488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20623146323529767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14571263903143256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22345146071708624,0.15301099562323706,0.0,0.0,0.15202621668883382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08553019365076765,0.0,0.1624159785919462,0.18530177762288408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837686041619228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495838079252998,0.0,0.15153026244857953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338148570517888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09296353714577277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11291272896919145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981130863335362,0.0,0.0,0.12434888705997167,0.1254267923051052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11727124884287693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17209213768258447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609057865925876,0.13451938502060268,0.16935434370780494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13022430557154666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936427818354398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13596092694139333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22475903299651395,0.0,0.0,0.26858142784371025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3232709997858663,0.0,0.114845602087157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997724019004693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3604900222544803,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BotheredbySheela,2019/03/14,"Potential early signs of Schizophrenia? [POTENTIAL TIGGER WARNING] I’m sorry, I know there are a lot of these and that they’re probably *really* annoying, but I wanted your input on this. So for a few weeks now (I think), I’ve had problems with my sense of time. A week could’ve gone by without me noticing it. I’ve also had what i on some level know are delusions, but that I just can’t quite get out of. Delusions such as believing that there’s a Virus in my PC, despite me having a great antivirus, me being spied on by I think the CIA, me being stupid, that my neighbors are spying on me, etc. I dunno if these are delusions, but I can’t get rid of them and I can’t quite comprehend that they might not be real. There have also been what I perceive to be hallucinations. These perceived hallucinations include doors opening in the corner of my eye (incredibly vividly), hearing my Dads voice when he’s at work (has happened twice, also very vivid), hearing my bird under my office chair (I thought I could’ve accidentally crushed him, scarred the crap out of me), seeing shadow people during the day in the corners of my eyes, at night seeing demons. These ‘demons’ are one I’ve named Sheela (sorry if that’s an actual name), who I can feel/see sitting behind my chair, peeking out at me and who has talked to me inside my head, telling me that everyone hates me. Another ‘demon’ is some sort of spider creature on the ceiling of my room, crawling around. And a third would be a kid without legs, on a pole, kinda like a scarecrow. These occur at night, but not when I’m falling asleep, when I’m working. I will post a drawing of these in a few days, which I will provide a link to in the comments. I’ve also had multiple occasions of not being able to move, and having very disorganized thoughts for several minutes at a time. It should also be mentioned that sentences are becoming increasingly hard to put together, sometimes I just mumble. My dad yelled at me because of it. Im 15. Im NOT looking for a diagnosis, I am fully aware that only a doctor can diagnose me, I’m just in a situation where professional help isn’t ideal until I move in the summer. Im sorry if I in any way come across as rude or 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schizophrenia,hioctanecrazyblood,2019/02/22,"One of those days... just had one of those days, and its really bugging me. i was fine at school and all but then one of my friends got upset with me and then a man came up to me and said i was an asshole and then i felt nails piercing me in periods of 5-10 minutes for a couple seconds. and then I was getting headaches and i was hitting my head to stop it i should have asked for a panadol or something, and then on the bus i kind of had like an episode but it wasnt like a hallucination episode i just got al lconfused and i was being told about 2.5 days or weeks or months and now im home im okay but it really got to me :( Just wanted to share, I think i might see the doctor",-0.2097231543624148,1.700172134228186,1.7425461409395986,99.15596686241614,86.04697986577179,4.7988255033557055,20.05075503355705,5.985473137389443,-0.28070167785234945,524,16,131,4,16,173,81,149,0.067,0.8170000000000001,0.115,0.7311,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,5,8,0,1,8,1,12,2,1,0,1,28,25,21,0,2,9,0,1,2,1,2,1,1,1,1,6,12,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,15,3,18,7,17,6,1,18,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,4,15,91,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15121981726596134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18500551812027652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17897969202175784,0.0,0.3129572858050953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16556389324786833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155310913841355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497211304588113,0.0,0.08451071792728976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3881126176840904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16600809505752706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16225423437395176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3494479959446994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16844375142789145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15805140533442616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17159731870045347,0.0,0.0,0.12911191898224106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32882970490310515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20724978711803788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538667868439395,0.0,0.0,0.16370548334730808,0.12889841269723554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245275007915735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13523507358562611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10364657130919082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545645780372777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09540774897672062,0.0,0.129750728377363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hopelesscaribou,2019/02/22,"How vividly do you visualize? Just to disclose, I don't have schizophrenia. I do have a condition called aphantasia. I do not visualize at all, technically no imagination, no mind's eye. Most likely related is my lack of episodic memory. Voluntary visualizing (as opposed to hallucinations or dreaming) exists on a scale, some people see movie like moving images in their mind, some faded static images, or like me, nothing at all. I was curious if there was a pattern in this community. How well do you visualize? Are there many here with either hyperphantasia (very vivid visualizer) or aphantasia? I apologize if this is an intrusive question, it is purely for my own curiosity. Thank you for any answers and take care of yourselves. 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For someone who only experienced auditory hallucinations, I'm curious on what visual hallucinations are like. When I have auditory hallucinations I hear someone say something and twist their words into something they didn't say at all. I could've sworn they were talking shit about me, but in reality they were just talking about their day to someone. Or I will hear helicopters roaring above my house and believe the FBI is spying on me, when in actuality it is just my dryer. &#x200B; So when you have a visual hallucination do you actually see something that isn't there? Or is it there but you're believing it is something else than it actually is? I'm trying to imagine what it's like because I think I had a visual hallucination before... like I read someone's shirt and believe it says ""stupid"" when it actuality it says ""stud"". So what are they like for you?",5.7543356643356685,7.881963212121217,7.024242424242427,67.30867132867135,68.39393939393939,9.198135198135198,32.69230769230769,9.661875296680813,3.416972027972028,730,33,122,17,13,247,85,165,0.013999999999999999,0.8859999999999999,0.1,0.9111,0,0,4,0,0,0,23.0,0,3,6,0,12,7,2,0,3,0,17,3,2,0,1,14,23,13,0,0,6,0,0,5,0,1,0,6,0,0,14,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,8,20,5,13,18,1,11,0,0,1,1,18,6,1,2,10,85,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.4263415227895296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11834250672801193,0.13271726290362115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06658100738644393,0.0,0.0929402821579131,0.36916898338406856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720525928830229,0.0,0.0,0.07043946104065656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09124136327891408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462033361978993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602807240332087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668029227974776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08306861448079722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092520327974535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3474323860063151,0.0,0.0,0.08703617200697457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11211530167980097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701753966925944,0.3363391915136129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755777772982081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06998535218264454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07415489141093241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13271726290362115,0.0 schizophrenia,Pasdesoucie,2019/01/24,"OCD vs Psychosis Hi all, currently 18 and a student. I’ve always had extreme anxiety along with unbelievable hypochondria, and more recently OCD symptoms. Problem is, my psych says she can’t decide whether the obsessive thoughts I might me having are a result of intense OCD or if they cross a border into delusions. My question to all of you is, when you were in your prodrome did you have a similar problem? I’m terrified I might be in the prodrome. The implications of having a psychotic diagnosis has just blasted me into a state of depression and FOMO. Never had any hallucinations, but my “delusions” have ranged from fear losing objects (once thought that losing my shirt would mean that someone would use it to try and harm me once I become prominent/famous) to fearing random people might hurt me (only if I wasn’t nice to them) to obsessively studying René Descartes and Boltzmann Brain theories thinking they confirmed that nothing could possible be real outside of my conscious experience. No government suspicions or broadcasting ideas either. My upbringing in a stressful environment with constant worry might explain these thoughts, but I hoped that you guys might have some insight. I understand the literature on delusions and OCD is relatively novel and not well understood. Thanks for reading. TL;DR: OCD vs psychosis, when do/did obsessions become delusions for you?",9.530732445520583,10.572627605932203,8.734285714285715,62.46652542372885,58.95762711864407,11.319128329297822,43.97578692493947,11.062562989136584,5.5407600484261526,1129,64,154,27,14,355,151,236,0.22899999999999998,0.723,0.047,-0.9933,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,6,3,2,4,17,0,6,11,0,26,3,2,2,3,56,38,16,0,8,12,0,0,0,0,7,1,2,0,1,6,12,0,0,13,2,0,1,5,13,1,0,9,2,26,4,22,19,5,14,0,4,0,0,15,6,0,13,6,117,32,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842830668867221,0.0,0.0,0.07226982147770446,0.0,0.08129915845927824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347421030757743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186366964829655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148442125251498,0.0,0.0848509737311497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09153345959509646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10395615895308537,0.0,0.2391751192253615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10522776043296256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105553852695908,0.0,0.0,0.11376829019261565,0.1199701732101315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377863744354019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157633125297626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5636984843655971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08196489841271598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10197256771672954,0.0,0.0,0.22635623587912515,0.0,0.08082600616885739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07367686486197632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198077302849546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20337932886588825,0.0,0.0,0.11905096668980195,0.0,0.10630254918827964,0.12096283930380268,0.0,0.0,0.10493254665096888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845131833187696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09004543738824293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12173626737351093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045915930850803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09784262749011144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06809595347893656,0.0,0.2531085550669433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07215292740938285,0.0,0.0,0.11063476332756696,0.0,0.09178643291015227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09555290017137527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10792619238880996,0.0,0.1509877025318153,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thedog1234,2019/01/24,"What is wrong with me? I have very strong delusions, I’m aware that these are delusions. But for some reason my brain begs to differ. For example, there is this a girl, whom is a complete stranger, I believe she throws signs that she is in love with me. I think to myself this is absolutely ridiculous, but I believe them. She never talked to me ever, but I think to myself she is shy and doesn’t want to talk to me because she is in love. Yes, this is what I think. This isn’t the first time this has happened either, there are other examples but I’m too embarrassed to talk about them. I’m not diagnosed schizophrenic, but these delusions are so concerning to me that I should get this checked out by a professional. What’s next? Thinking the government is after me as well? I feel like it’s getting worse too, every time I wake up I hallucinate. Just yesterday I woke up and I saw my dog jump on my bed, touched him and he disappeared. I feel the delusions are getting stronger, I’m becoming more obsessed and irritated that she does not talk to me. When she shouldn’t have to me because why the fuck would she want to talk to a complete stranger? I’m diagnosed GAD and depression so I currently take antidepressants. However is my medication making my delusions worse? I take Celexa 20mg. I’m starting to believe perhaps I need to be put on antipsychotics. I just wish my delusions could go away, hell it would make my life so much more easier.",2.5727072633895816,5.051246092198586,3.4336194668623143,87.76500000000001,79.21276595744679,7.010222548300319,26.39080459770115,8.104835398774808,1.7782872095866962,1146,47,228,22,29,364,139,282,0.146,0.741,0.113,-0.9163,2,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,2,2,13,12,3,2,8,1,25,10,2,3,2,40,56,15,0,9,10,0,3,1,0,4,5,0,1,1,19,8,0,0,7,0,1,5,6,7,1,1,2,4,45,5,30,48,5,24,1,1,1,3,21,8,2,1,12,158,64,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065940239394716,0.0,0.0,0.13062030342485964,0.11832517989332199,0.0,0.3621225220038645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11960111347187673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22466369461732053,0.0,0.0,0.08554074108828218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09227754996598778,0.2174850345530756,0.0,0.11193610061615107,0.0,0.0,0.09375692929994878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09691218964413728,0.0902681388780214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10834408747712483,0.07653919921933733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09113127876121192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09904708363873076,0.1679250897346644,0.0,0.06088882782296265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947415203874887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07567453082470375,0.05234207185868062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933919268324082,0.0,0.14303050259268493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10792996824734252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07875854199698618,0.07944125213235455,0.08263120439448239,0.0,0.11394216674317922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10770298707171932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11015540645719016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07583262038139607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611084442793267,0.4305661525260994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27459806621231536,0.0,0.0,0.12494571694866648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08839982856415199,0.12638519074848706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963296652280308,0.0,0.096675116276554,0.0,0.12320307553252505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218364952731072,0.1522151061072281,0.11713826374051847,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bridgetinerabbit,2019/01/24,"Just passing through with a question about ADHD meds and schizophrenia. Hey everybody. I've found myself at an impasse with my daughter's pediatrician, and I'm extremely frustrated. My husband's family has a history of schizophrenia and our 11 year old daughter has been diagnosed with ADHD. Our pediatrician has decided that no matter how bad the ADHD gets, she will not prescribe medication because she is concerned that it may increase the likelihood of her developing schizophrenia as an adult. Well, the ADHD is crippling some aspects of her ability to function. Now, we are very fond of our pediatrician, and she has really gone to bat for us with other things before, but I can't shake the feeling that it's less that there actually is an increased risk, with observable data to support the claim, and more that because for some people the side effects of ADHD meds mimic some symptoms of schizophrenia, it spooks her and she's not even willing to consider it. I've been trying to call local pediatric psychiatrists just to pose that question so hopefully I can get them in touch with the pediatrician, but so far, none have called me back. So if anyone here actually knows, is there an increased risk of developing schizophrenia if ADHD meds are taken as an adolescent, and I'm spinning my wheels for no reason because the doc is right? Or is there no increased risk and I need to keep fighting the good fight to get my girl some meds? I hope anybody reading this is having a good day. Thanks for your time.",8.657826086956522,8.667052608695656,8.345420289855074,68.0024782608696,60.95652173913044,10.9831884057971,39.052173913043475,10.504223727775694,4.275066956521739,1224,57,199,25,15,392,152,276,0.092,0.77,0.138,0.9302,0,0,0,0,3,0,25.0,5,1,1,1,15,16,3,4,17,0,22,4,0,3,0,43,38,19,0,5,9,3,2,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,13,15,0,1,8,1,0,7,7,8,1,0,5,2,24,8,31,30,11,19,0,0,0,0,26,6,0,12,6,146,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.17870835021047127,0.0,0.6602595999634594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06402433651968208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07040778852198315,0.07645290199813894,0.16745141651975365,0.0,0.07791502166555686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869960869529775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05905181268728934,0.0,0.0,0.0929364888226327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0604777806992417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631927835745956,0.0,0.04629798595341447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039623288078137,0.0,0.0,0.1435167091587317,0.0,0.0,0.1536006583582395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18188929581202767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08138712770921896,0.0,0.0,0.05032169755780837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40683203541692137,0.09224204606315888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06789424436514735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09608200387142547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06347960176304543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051473815866572,0.0,0.0915897208914914,0.0,0.05865884657497743,0.09414401061662787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07819596026621979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10390681122157366,0.0,0.0951710344505122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08430069656408111,0.0,0.0,0.06083167889847415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05339225409462253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06216658521730002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11014135127369806,0.0,0.0,0.07555066670364402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823278794713393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05896482064928395 schizophrenia,HasNeverBeenAlive,2019/01/24,"Triggering when it turns out to be this way. Is this the unluckiest random dice roll of all existence? I can and will not State any names. If the goverment, out of boredom, decides to look deeper into this and the signs this will become the ""mystical truth"" so quick that it is unbelievably disgusting to look at. Now imagine you are me and you don't mean any harm. Will i be sacrificed over a ""dice roll""? I am Schizophrenic and this is the shit i have to deal with. Apart of Dreams that i apperently have confused with reality that made me believe God is trying to send me a message. ++ My Name is Ben M++++++ -> 10 Letters I was born 01.03.2000 -> 6 added up My Zodiac is Pisces -> 6 Letters I am born in Germany. Therefore German -> 6 Letters Antichrist has 10 Letters. Also 3 times 6 alignes. + Apocalyptism on Wikipedia Lineup: Year 1000: My Birthday is 01. So 1 and 1000 could be 2000, my year of birth. + Five Monarchy Men: My Father has 4 Brothers. M++++++s (my last name) has the same amount of letters as Monarchy. Four and five have the same letters. Four M++++++s Ben, might be something god is trying to say. Father, Mother, Sister, Me + Isacc Newton and the decypher of the bible: The World will end in 2060. My birthday added up is 6. I was born in 2000. 2 - 6. + Mormons: Since mormons are Christian and i believe God is a pun towards the word Good. Those where the first i spoke to. + Something that has nothing to do with this: I interpret Religion differently. God in islam said ""If he leaves the religion, kill him."" God made all religion. ""If he leaves God, kill him."" If we now take my Pun into account, it will state: ""If he leaves good, kill him."". This is how we should decypher the bible. Configure Synonyms for what was said based upon the Knowledge of "" What would Good, without emotion mean?"". If God exists and has no emotion, since he is nothing, has no rules and therefore can create something, every thought is something and he has no Memory. No rules mean infinite thinking speed. This means he never begins, he only ends. So he ended everything all at once. He could. + Jehovas Witnesses: Jehovas Witnesses are Christian. Therefore those also exist and now you may have become one. + It states Islam: My Fathers side is Islamic + It states Christianity: My Mother side is Christian + Millerites and Seventh-day Adventists: Millerites is 10 Letters = Antichrist Seventh is 7 Letters = M++++++ (my last name) Day is 3 Letters = Ben Adventists is 10 Letters = Punishment Antichrist M+ Ben Punishment + Judaism: States every Era of the first 4 goes for 21000 Years. My date of Birth is 1. My year of birth is 2000 + Now lets start a new Chapter. My Fathers name is S++++ S++++ has the same Letters as Satan. And his name is also only one Letter off from ""Sahir"". An islamic wizard. It's the last letter. Since he is a from a muslim country and they are, from what i have read, evil and should be stoned. My Mothers name is C++++++ = 7 Liliths other name is Satrina =7 Her middle name is K+++++ = 6 Lilith has 6 Letters. + The Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse: Lion of Judah = 4 - 2 - 5 Letters Lion of Satan = 4 - 2 - 5 Letters Lion is my Sisters Zodiac Conquest = 10 Letters My Name and My sisters name add up to 10 Letters War = 3 Letters My name has 3 Letters. Famine = 6 Letters My Zodiac has 6 Letters and my Birthday equals 6 Death = 5 Letters My Sisters Name has 5 Letters + Gog and Magog = 3 and 5 or Ja'juj and Ma'juj: My name is Ben = 3 My Sisters name = 5 German has 6 Letters + My Sisters Birthday adds up to 17. Punishment Started has 17 Letters..",1.1819602537786906,3.790775731044352,2.768860328419482,88.74380738010824,88.54220314735336,5.21366548485414,25.90970019282205,6.800593979768761,1.3382606705231082,2792,128,531,38,92,912,262,699,0.079,0.865,0.055,-0.9690000000000001,2,0,4,0,0,0,198.0,2,3,1,2,14,16,10,1,27,0,79,2,1,7,5,92,97,38,5,11,9,14,0,0,0,10,1,4,0,1,24,32,0,0,10,2,1,1,8,12,0,10,9,6,52,4,53,70,8,67,12,0,2,0,84,25,1,11,35,300,76,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947931690250167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042982328806256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17934546143111155,0.0,0.1829563548573887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965409133937889,0.0,0.0,0.1047272193236512,0.08370776318360583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08483076735612023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826653292502404,0.2157421633436732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13681940762060985,0.0,0.07297220585887791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13812766864138293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20430579228776646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26948840550281056,0.0,0.0,0.1985525862053284,0.0,0.25791913626093343,0.0,0.08302667790388023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636553371600238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15365602909828613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3537776041095182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613432653275019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06262205345513833,0.07841796568393104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558162508629199,0.0,0.0,0.08646928488675704,0.11003872473180276,0.12350385535489887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08121627729185564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15446875465107054,0.06456897020482169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334478724773897,0.20149430430467366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25002937101161954,0.0,0.0,0.114939493910707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06104801257385429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05202603213591021,0.0,0.06445920864622197,0.04734505216937415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025120666712404,0.08831608826468128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06444825999329352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782684125557355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057678104665039115,0.0,0.0,0.20914588133706896 schizophrenia,Bingbangboodle21,2019/01/24,"Can anyone else relate to this? I was talkin' to myself just the other day, I was hearin' lots of things I never thought I'd say, But one thing I said really blew my mind (Who's who?) I said I don't know me, But I know you, and if you listen closely We can talk it through, it ain't as simple As we're gonna find (Who's who?) I think I will save you, I think I don't blame you, 'Cause I like you and you like me. I was talkin' to myself just the other day, Then the bad man came and took me away, I feel bad, but not as bad as me (Get off me, man!) I was talkin' to myself just the other day, (You've got the wrong man!) before the bad man came And took me away, (I'm not that man!) I feel bad, but not as bad as me (Not who I am!) (Who's Who?)",-0.7461403508771944,0.3093114619883046,1.691087719298249,103.24294736842108,83.50292397660819,4.793918128654972,13.15438596491228,4.604124745555138,-1.6304989473684213,544,3,157,1,15,186,75,171,0.17600000000000002,0.782,0.042,-0.9811,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,1,6,0,0,3,10,0,0,6,0,11,0,0,1,1,33,29,16,0,1,12,0,2,2,0,2,0,4,0,5,16,8,0,0,8,0,0,4,8,7,0,1,12,6,35,3,15,15,1,13,0,0,0,0,24,4,0,2,7,103,51,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868421067964682,0.12725549499532682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23337615809396986,0.0,0.6222006919054537,0.0,0.0,0.10568332294157168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840987767767329,0.0,0.12758552478265664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402922436691616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10375146531889176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255964484502484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351469248640254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0648883120666094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933246050890017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651191003443974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12135370712067642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10558867081857788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12540454256540262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09578912928963232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08415975721517989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07956439841053002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362814167548797,0.09876720889516892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998256219409918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16502322218944832,0.15916208567843942,0.0,0.09859931334483744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759770240093449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357909808095792,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,idkanymore20,2019/01/24,My physiatrist lies and therapist too Screw this stupid world. I hate it so much. Every time I feel like I’ve done something right It turns out I’m dead wrong and just delusional. Why do I have to deal with this crap. I’m so done with. I hate being so aware of what I’m doing with my life and I just watch myself screw it up even more. I don’t care anymore. I can just screw up my life even more. I just wish someone could kill me. I don’t know what’s real. Are my parents real. Are they actors. If they’re actors why do I feel bad for them. Where are the camera. Why are the birds in the us gone. The spainish hotel workers speak perfect English but hide it so they can spike my drink and make me see the truth. ,-0.07205409356724958,2.0872654934210537,1.2888596491228093,100.8625730994152,88.14473684210527,4.167251461988304,15.681286549707599,5.46131890053228,-0.982299415204678,553,11,132,3,18,175,89,152,0.17300000000000001,0.754,0.073,-0.8826,1,0,2,0,0,1,16.0,1,0,3,2,12,14,8,0,5,0,16,7,1,1,2,24,30,10,2,3,6,1,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,8,8,1,0,3,4,0,1,2,10,0,0,3,5,22,4,10,25,3,9,0,0,2,3,7,7,4,1,2,82,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470946968398387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384194055825448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15122326782267473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11842234602400738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15291256286972058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035680053089903,0.0,0.1452982320228947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19592940298415248,0.0,0.12496694137970878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14999123053691868,0.10596063839332844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29287279970691954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16409534465249334,0.0,0.08151340910376775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095271881097856,0.07246220767324209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900549992042844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903308989441343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16469305211707358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3376438143767009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12666542681951498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11819273014187978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12567200440221876,0.11418484516851485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17221225319220296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08648723835255358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16133078803646436,0.0,0.0,0.17841204612187486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4015102251615225,0.0,0.17056196914259858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16216586184371212,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Antwerpben,2019/01/24,"My tutor has been hearing only my sister's voice in her head for the past year So, there's this old lady in my apartment complex who had been recently diagnosed with schizophrenia, and she has been hearing my sister's voice in her head telling her to do things like ""not to go out of her room otherwise she would be in trouble"", ""to only eat once a day because she's getting fat. She also mentioned that the voice in her head gets mad at her for telling people that it exists and that ""she puts my family in a bad light every time she goes out of her apartment."" I'm wondering out of the hundreds of people she has tutored (including myself), why is it that my sister's voice is the one telling her to do these things? &#x200B; Side note: My family owns the apartment complex",7.0956372549019635,6.3252742745098045,6.907965686274513,79.59959558823529,64.42483660130719,9.480065359477123,34.15767973856209,8.472884824447931,2.635771895424836,616,23,118,7,8,195,83,153,0.044000000000000004,0.9390000000000001,0.017,-0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,7,0,13,6,4,0,0,11,20,4,0,1,1,3,0,1,0,1,2,6,1,0,11,6,2,0,3,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,4,7,23,1,21,14,1,23,0,0,0,0,25,15,0,1,7,83,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11250518677839164,0.0,0.15243138419677266,0.1709468275646844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11746551713678666,0.08575984570325898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09072973731390804,0.0,0.0,0.14279160679464445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14395516447984644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185325934654984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265249281744205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470034842236213,0.0,0.07995413181923085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4331480488151599,0.0,0.3171228696106869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06873124451087481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14762451100378726,0.14982419191808294,0.09533132507242267,0.2139935047635561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342990865676272,0.1950655646508989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414265824051491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13890877754552558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3688928468310218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18692880017248165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203414879498258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694570197490412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256612608707032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09993809286295573,0.0,0.1709468275646844,0.09059607901626313 schizophrenia,dookalu,2019/01/24,"what does my auditory hallucination mean? About 2 years ago, I had a psychotic episode that lasted around a month. The day it began (minutes before it began) I had an auditory hallucination of a woman's voice saying, ""5...4...3...2...1."" I am just wondering if anyone else has experienced this particular hallucination, or if anyone knows what it means. It's almost as if the universe was telling me, ""Hey, you're about to lose your shit!""",4.9740740740740765,6.543220172839508,7.1564814814814826,67.7991666666667,69.49382716049382,9.844444444444443,29.549382716049386,10.125756701596842,3.151212345679012,338,13,61,9,6,120,61,81,0.043,0.9570000000000001,0.0,-0.4574,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,1,4,2,1,0,6,0,5,1,1,0,0,11,11,5,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,8,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,3,6,0,6,6,0,8,0,1,0,0,5,1,1,6,7,36,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990502324537191,0.0,0.22485462155377456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31402148712066963,0.2300782492320571,0.0,0.19989731426679735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910757088824796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448163233330286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19650542160719375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875829055296018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234069352415838,0.18303840974178176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512142723519016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4892020645213288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17923385318267862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17857135760598644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23049758670457265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19626680058635196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.243515148386812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14460298750928516 schizophrenia,nofacee3,2019/01/24,"Peripheral vision movements? Does anyone ever recall in the beginning stages of onset (looking back) that they recall seeing movements out of the corners of their eyes/peripheral vision but when they go to look it’s nothing? Like just shapes and blobs, usually dark then you look at that location and there was nothing? ",6.335454545454542,9.305102545454547,6.078181818181817,71.07727272727277,69.0,8.036363636363637,31.0,8.841846274778883,3.1769272727272733,260,11,36,5,5,81,43,55,0.047,0.89,0.063,-0.2971,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,3,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,7,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,7,6,0,15,0,0,4,0,4,5,0,0,7,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17992055785662234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19785927159794964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22517799913374087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232756054605005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14623798498039195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12571106050140898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6482391176161847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4938011642541035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20504665710287456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28339600430322137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tezcatzontecatl,2019/01/24,"so, i hope i dont say anything untoward here, but ive been noticing recently- like in the last 4 times, ive started to hallucinate people in the room every time i drink, even a small drink. It never happens otherwise, but its been happening a lot recently, could this be a sign of schizophrenia? at that same time this started happening, i started having really anxious thoughts about people i know, i got entirely convinced that they all secret hate me, even my girfreind who i dont think she doesnt, but my girlfriend also could. The other day i was in a group of freinds, and a close made a small joke at me, and instantly i was convinced she absolutely hated me and was making fun of me for the rest of the night. im not sure who else to ask about this, i have agoraphobia so i dont like to see doctors anymore",6.264629629629631,5.893385339506175,6.9448148148148166,77.33166666666666,65.9753086419753,10.162962962962963,34.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,3.1862666666666675,643,27,126,12,9,213,97,162,0.1,0.757,0.14300000000000002,0.7314,0,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,0,8,10,2,0,11,0,16,3,0,2,3,23,33,9,0,3,4,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,10,4,2,0,4,3,0,0,6,2,0,0,8,2,22,8,15,22,4,21,0,0,1,0,10,9,0,2,14,90,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09896104388975946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397997523601932,0.12272453201457148,0.0,0.0,0.10183386755712286,0.0,0.11568745663960694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976050436636515,0.0,0.0,0.07980707177628987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12666108230715775,0.0,0.0,0.4350943809446976,0.2424513991414665,0.0,0.0,0.10337537966061308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634684649121363,0.0,0.10426283018765807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09897239317217282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32828922279751555,0.0,0.0,0.2443505990087769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290945379678272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336688226766882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06800853599817093,0.10087094581518563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12091381560987452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10520592552770876,0.0,0.11709312843692787,0.08260259482932286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09544190607081698,0.0,0.0,0.11612889563810255,0.0,0.0,0.14088765196846367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715822395177422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07927598774510182,0.0,0.2443719800836032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09840919052251734,0.0,0.0,0.09861094795266746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627679174440937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663080511166632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07929257183988779,0.0,0.09824190357186564,0.21647495280418175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HontserrationMin,2019/01/24,"I can't stop stalking my therapist I posted about this situation a while ago but its developed into a new issue. It's totally a fucked up set of circumstances in every way. I (23F) went to a licensed psychotherapist (32M) who does shamanic ceremony and breathwork outside of his practice. It's not a part of his actual practice but there are talk therapy parts of those processes. I started as a formal client but he recommended the breathwork. He is licensed and I checked, no disciplinary action or complaints. There were a few issues - obvious attraction on my end, and I think maybe his but it's hard to know, that was not addressed. The sessions were done in his home. He knew I was a survivor of childhood sexual abuse / incest but not the schiz. That's what I was there to process. During one of the sessions he initiated prolonged eye contact while I lay on my back and he pinned my arms down as a way to defuse my anxiety, had me do holotropic breathwork to bring me into a regressed state, and then tied me up with rope and touched me in a number of ways including squeezing my neck. I have heard from two other therapists and several other IRL people (including probably 40 people on Reddit) that he was so far in the wrong he should maybe even be reported. He didn't ask for consent before the bondage or strangling, later admitted to being into BDSM personally, and it turned out the rebirthing therapy we did is actually illegal in my state. But I felt like I ""fell in love"" with him then, pretty much from the time with the eye contact. He told me about his history -- he had suffered from OCD and bipolar, had an incestuous relationship with his mother, tried to kill his dad, used to stockpile assault rifles, stalked former girlfriends. But he had changed his life and put that all behind him; and honestly it only made him sexier and more exciting. And now he was a functioning professional with a lot of friends in a huge super nice house in the mountains! I couldn't believe how far he'd come. He seemed to know absolutely everything about the human psyche, about philosophy, and was also a higher-up ""guru"" type in a Brazilian ayahuasca religion in which he'd gone through a 10-year shamanic initiation. I started to think he was the one, and the ONLY ONE, who could understand me and help me with my issues. I became obsessed with him. My boyfriend was very concerned and has been telling me for probably 6 months that the guy is unwell. Intellectually I can see that that seems true. But the guy had told me so many times he has transcended his issues, he knows the way, he was so smart and nuanced in his thinking. I started to think everything he said was absolute gospel. He suggested very edgy therapies, like OCD treatments including tying up a germ freak and rubbing raw meat all over their body. For my OCD and neurotic reliance on my plans and schedules he suggested tying me up and burning my plan in front of me for our next session. The guy believed that reliving the birthing process is the ONLY way to ultimately resolve psychological issues. But because my boyfriend and another friend confronted him about the consent issue, he decided to stop working with me. I held it together for a few months, but then started trying to coerce him. I told him if he didn't work with me again I would sue him and tell everyone about what he did. We hung out as friends a few more times but he was very worried about working with me again. On one of these occasions he told me he had been blackmailed before and if I continued or if it happened again he might kill himself. So when he tried to distance himself from me I called in a suicide threat to the police to his home on a day I knew he was having special time alone with his friends and there were a number of other people there, AND I knew he had a lot of drugs so it could have been catastrophic for him. He told the police I was harassing him and he was considering pressing charges. Then he called my boyfriend and said he had three lawyers and a journalist involved and they believed they had an extortion case against me and that if I didn't stop he would move forward. He called friends and told them to distance themselves from us because He would have to blow up our lives if I tried to blow up his. My lawyers believed he was full of shit because there's no way he could take me down because he has committed so many crimes here that are so much worse. He also offered to give me all sorts of exotic hallucinogens but didn't realize that I didn't want drugs! I just wanted to be around him so desperately. Eventually, he politely asked me not to contact him again in any form and suggested that we move on with our lives. I was so crushed. I was able to respect that for about a week. I made a new Facebook (he blocked my real one) and used the graph search to view every post he ever commented on or liked. I joined every group he was a part of and searched for every private post he had ever made. I ""heart""ed all the posts he made about interesting things, but also ones about the best way to peel potatoes from nine years ago. Then I sent him messages. First apologies, then desperate pleas for him to finish helping me as a therapist, then naughty suggestive come-ons. It's been a week, and he still hasn't responded. I've started finding ways to hang out with his friends and am trying everything I can to get close to him socially. I know this is more OCD, and I know he can't help me as a therapist if he even wanted to. I know he probably shouldn't even be practicing. But I've made him into some sort of god after the age regression bondage and eye contact thing, and I feel like I will always be psychologically and spiritually shattered without him. Further complicating matters, my boyfriend owns a private school and is worried about scandal blowing up and ruining him. We also share a one-year-old child together and don't want things to affect him. I had a fellowship this semester that I had to drop out of because my anxiety and preoccupation with this got too bad, it's $12000 down the drain and a huge burnt bridge. I sought therapy truly seeking psychological support and self-improvement and his bad boundaries combined with mine to create such a horrible situation, I feel like I've deteriorated psychologically so much. I have two therapists involved now helping me untangle this but I feel literally addicted to this guy. Miserable and need help.",7.281329470179057,7.3089504840556,7.26177468093427,74.5687772998211,63.78331970564186,10.622152701245453,36.857916503726884,10.276239652853533,3.752198013912096,5154,234,945,108,69,1652,479,1223,0.12300000000000001,0.7559999999999999,0.121,-0.8542,0,1,2,1,1,1,117.0,8,0,4,9,51,42,8,2,65,0,87,15,7,9,10,182,152,105,3,20,31,2,9,5,7,7,5,3,3,7,44,80,0,5,25,0,1,13,18,16,0,11,68,17,139,26,145,66,24,132,1,3,5,3,164,50,2,18,60,642,183,13,0.03995160829018028,0.047336122888530514,0.0779740132048704,0.043553150115165216,0.0,0.0,0.07082938041427629,0.0,0.0,0.0413778174139823,0.0,0.1277971468621546,0.03324293855404165,0.0,0.0,0.027168463636346517,0.04189274473715178,0.06112574197925452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03556540161109113,0.07469872136125932,0.0,0.0,0.030720320709542063,0.06671584828501481,0.12177064798136172,0.0,0.06799175215990454,0.18004712589334734,0.0419267480821875,0.0,0.0,0.044377230365009235,0.0,0.0,0.122385176765592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04226350417679782,0.06882954596966619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09569432498326512,0.0,0.0,0.025765482233076058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034961921643874024,0.04088436618298221,0.0,0.0,0.0926623636408823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03538526667951259,0.0,0.0,0.0791629814492174,0.07227703394241684,0.13464381233285325,0.03817547380982754,0.10771778830992096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06060220068909095,0.05708287389042716,0.038359809207392036,0.0,0.03651504619281458,0.03398281760233879,0.0,0.0,0.18519908076446376,0.03693461809263237,0.020873066389796458,0.038325223101933516,0.0,0.0,0.03195295079853118,0.0,0.0,0.15823349356074454,0.03532907526879385,0.0,0.03578879373240305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04734284818335768,0.13389360446574253,0.0,0.08014944114016243,0.0,0.0,0.04609879196126116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501945958074981,0.0,0.0,0.08840107049972465,0.0,0.1317381545487783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028219002444778964,0.09759168888449374,0.0,0.07055600413524768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793085737055768,0.03605788629681672,0.18901588876822292,0.0,0.08100932030673565,0.08027352077723435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04238234289557519,0.0,0.0,0.06377798515329135,0.08492447395009248,0.0881070869527474,0.029623611322178164,0.0,0.07717102448176989,0.04248898865772087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04192249231665705,0.0,0.1895057061322284,0.09115499517930198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297910955673757,0.0,0.08309224443539615,0.034884203353616625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15305038838973786,0.040645148493557964,0.12922377278149946,0.0,0.0,0.04016240103988437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045473676754389805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04289307583163484,0.0,0.0,0.07600625662040705,0.0,0.0,0.040433160504233165,0.03183625925511132,0.07274088741981981,0.041678240568667466,0.04513394559472013,0.04100975178983211,0.0,0.08981456324986366,0.0,0.04072563342717055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14138976988794486,0.0,0.03190540598813426,0.10020400033556937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0437005750610403,0.0453366116397186,0.0,0.0,0.030038637395216724,0.032111589403621875,0.06983893316806768,0.0,0.18275258358803428,0.23193448247419626,0.07962621995196724,0.1023975096684352,0.0,0.0,0.09318441630530934,0.0,0.0,0.2290528428589653,0.0,0.1356225976829432,0.043455877426596214,0.07805383220754633,0.04159103319921858,0.048056865661302406,0.06901072436158562,0.0,0.09889278273089094,0.09425797472010616,0.2536938165315898,0.0640935406530394,0.0,0.0,0.03703554114303286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03851192471526727,0.0,0.08725573996982848,0.08114559503178831,0.040714102009077664,0.08514142878511145,0.043680811956772286,0.0,0.07718257762183765 schizophrenia,layla_smiles,2019/01/24,Paranoid probably have anemia haven’t got my period in 2 months And yeah I’m not sexually active because I’m 16 should I see a doctor? 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I used to be really passionate about sign language and I wanted to be an interpreter up until a couple of weeks ago when it suddenly just dropped off the face of the earth. My interest in it, I mean. There’s no passion there anymore. I’m dreading going back to school this semester but I want to make everyone proud and just do it so they’ll be happy even though it doesn’t make me happy anymore. Have you guys just suddenly lost interest in something you were really passionate about? I don’t feel like I wanna do anything anymore but I’m not about to kill myself so that’s good. I’m on meds that are managing my psychosis and delusions (mostly; sometimes I think my husband is snap chatting other women) but I can’t go on a higher dose because it makes me a zombie (it’s risperidal). I’m on Wellbutrin to counteract the zombie symptoms and it seems to be helping. Does this just happen or am I just bored?",2.654818775995245,4.933512631016042,4.17396613190731,83.64107991681523,77.77005347593581,7.1502079619726695,26.966428995840765,8.167268648758528,2.030150564468212,750,31,139,14,18,249,110,187,0.054000000000000006,0.703,0.243,0.9917,0,0,1,0,0,1,16.0,0,2,1,3,16,16,1,1,8,0,16,6,1,4,0,29,34,13,1,3,10,1,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,13,4,0,0,5,1,0,2,5,5,0,0,2,1,18,11,22,27,1,17,0,2,0,3,8,7,0,3,8,100,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13178101377267748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4423020328492676,0.0,0.0,0.12233719940109615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431287363652415,0.0,0.09062374593639824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644930740763505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300962242143795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981906838436105,0.0,0.0,0.1420541196460154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07516861314662361,0.10620506555810813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16897751783795306,0.1246916926236798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720000423739704,0.13146243345182454,0.3165096179758385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964585222104816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644738754017898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07262936155456827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16228351410391384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29770164947376576,0.0,0.0,0.16193787670480805,0.16513137265127995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921134104560576,0.19047498741125868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504551599947995,0.0,0.1353374522103816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11444824371337588,0.14703176947806104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545180535190634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876526686884528,0.09525741685849966,0.14606090214714768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128397328401923,0.0,0.0,0.17537088976527812,0.0,0.11924870320954298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Don_Ticho,2019/01/24,"Can anyone else talk to animals? There are a lot of stray cats near my house, so sometimes when I see a cat I'll look at it and try to communicate with it. Sometimes I can tell what he is thinking (""What the hell is this human doing why is he looking at me""). I can communicate telepathically with my dogs too. The dogs seem more intelligent. This also happens with babies too. Does this happen to anyone else?",2.41,4.759872000000001,4.092500000000005,83.53250000000001,79.0,6.5,22.5,7.645422480735847,1.0525000000000002,320,10,63,5,8,107,54,80,0.062,0.897,0.040999999999999995,-0.3954,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,1,0,4,0,8,0,0,0,0,7,15,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,6,0,10,15,2,4,1,0,3,0,5,3,1,2,1,44,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15439845971916824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26999885395171136,0.39564721625562094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16895735102627601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3225713627326549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3414633230075456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22277750790196627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32426129422170485,0.0,0.0,0.1641416886517772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15385224202262535,0.17576418960807852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38190344781695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551828054002298,0.1687521822566264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371182111708752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13108223899831015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17421615317613334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LightskinShakespeare,2019/01/24,"Anyone have any ideas why I couldn't focus today? I was trying to listen to teachers but I ended up zoning out and then noticing a decent amount of time has passed, I was oddly calm all day and stuttered a bit more (I don't have a stutter). It was nearly impossible to focus on reading and was for most part, pretty gone in the hallways. Any ideas?",1.939,4.1718869000000005,3.649999999999999,86.70500000000001,80.0,4.571428571428573,20.0,5.288315135182226,-0.012000000000000007,273,7,51,1,7,91,52,70,0.034,0.848,0.11699999999999999,0.7702,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,0,9,0,0,0,1,10,11,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,5,1,5,1,10,5,6,12,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,5,38,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3313638712155604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035708805937247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26598917835443064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15712610861561288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21579061495460847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5500744323489811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27738304404713515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638357990608965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478670478248622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437035507966342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14206705491887173,0.0,0.23093997500993,0.0,0.0,0.16541395050549834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21984505573716007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xwea,2018/12/21,Please help me I tried to open a hole in my head to get the voices out but it didn't work I yelled at my mom and made her cry they are constantly there they won't shut up I need to get them out my medicine is bad for me I can't take it and doctors just tell me it's anxiety I never stay overnight at the inpatient mental health they let me leave I need help I don't know how to get it I don't know how to make them stop I don't want to kill myself but if it's the only way I will do what I have to please help 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schizophrenia,Daepeac,2018/12/21,"Terrorism in aslyum plus agents You know depression consciously is it the idea that you wake up thirsty and sad you then dread the day going on and hate the people around you, while proceeding to feel pschology bullied by the people around you like for instance the ones that have physical aggressiveness in them have manhandled you and even strangled you then further on go on day by day dehydrated on and on where you just want water and with the boredom to not smoke cigarettes which you enjoy mostly to the point of dreading each one because you'll be thirsty afterwards, then comes the bad bit when your that thirsty you just drink toilet water but the next day it'll be getting hit in the face by a guy and nothing happens but when you push somebody your in a box for 6 hours doing nothing, when your missing Christmas and everyone so far has got to go out for a meal go shopping and enjoy themselves you go to another unit for a day this is a terrorism cycle for me and I can't seem to be happy with it, when your 20 and don't seem to have schizophrenia in other institute minds this hospital really brings you down mentally and it's the same story. I've demanded to speak with the clinical director 5 times no sign of anything, there was even a mistrial since a nurse who worked here before my tribunal was chairperson and I've mentioned it since realizing but nobody seems to listwn, minimum water intake for men is 3.7 we get 1.9 there's even a guy here who consciously meets with one of the head cias agents daughter I mean she rings him comes into meet him I've met her even and seen her mother mad right ",7.428470212366093,7.126038319488817,7.047457244878782,77.32916744972749,63.56869009584664,10.687389588423232,34.06671678255966,10.194018383442646,3.2816579214433372,1306,49,245,26,17,410,176,313,0.12300000000000001,0.8270000000000001,0.051,-0.9662,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,1,18,1,1,19,15,3,4,21,0,17,9,3,0,0,47,41,26,0,1,6,2,1,1,0,2,1,2,0,3,14,26,5,0,10,2,1,9,4,11,0,3,5,4,29,4,42,30,4,48,0,3,1,0,37,21,0,4,19,165,43,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178697876108622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925023620576344,0.20013424092867602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385614283538883,0.06852298890825083,0.0,0.09565108990425153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12272062933231515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19365940369149026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36246991424876,0.0,0.0968170087958397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11011723134341107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29697819574270834,0.0,0.0,0.10741084209547867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05683695803646891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11745727894361918,0.0,0.31942082234936797,0.0,0.08990309772716185,0.0,0.0,0.22260356054433286,0.09940219063106476,0.11966060781207576,0.0,0.11097981506904248,0.11536323206274846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11069942362948564,0.0,0.0,0.1268951634331753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061776601152692276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05491696337193827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12244547181990248,0.0,0.0,0.11328101620226705,0.0,0.11350022729656685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11954738464401675,0.0,0.0,0.21571737874297173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22851209480306595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558593700040588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10626207249763184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201156449017798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09599597953881944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069965815535173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18597043169128807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06554611918760456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06630126248946927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08183450064048449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PeriodonticCentrum,2018/12/21,"People that are trolling Why some people think that schizophrenia, depression, add/adhd, personality disorders are meme illnesses? I'm not sure if they are joking or are they serious. They say that doing work will beat any disease that you have. Like that would be a solution to everything.",6.956999999999997,9.4675133,6.513000000000003,70.63150000000002,66.0,10.6,32.5,10.686352973137794,4.1636,235,10,36,7,4,73,40,50,0.179,0.703,0.11800000000000001,-0.5365,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,3,2,0,5,0,0,1,0,9,1,0,0,1,7,11,2,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,8,1,0,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,3,1,24,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35480088747594163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20076188358667665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254275289239309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33835133709191473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653275548487945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442311316908211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4093411569036361,0.2577774903444824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347733192646212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27824434993503705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18916709084828154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26639299767413865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149259885108924,0.0,0.0,0.20971807414844396,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,foxfuckingfailure,2018/12/21,"Should I take my meds? Hey guys, I have the diagnosis of schizophrenia since 2014 and since then I take meds, I've changed my meds lots and lots of time because none of them seemed to help me, some of them would even make me feel worst. Anyway, I stopped taking them about one month ago and I was doing just fine but then I started getting VERY fucked up. I have thoughts that I usually wouldn't have like wishing my mother died (I ove my mom and we never had any problems). I feel like something bad is going to happen ALL THE TIME, I get anxious af, sometimes I see people and objects with other colors, hear whispers that are not very easy to understand and yesterday was the second day I saw a man standing in my bedroom. Anyway, I'm here to ask you guys if I should go back taking my meds, even tho they don't help me at all, they never did. What do you guys think about it?",2.681816479400748,4.399468117977534,3.224516853932588,93.0802209737828,75.68539325842696,5.6455430711610495,23.10262172284645,6.079149491110277,0.300735880149813,687,20,147,4,15,214,111,178,0.185,0.779,0.036000000000000004,-0.9836,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,1,2,5,0,10,7,1,0,4,0,16,1,0,1,4,33,40,11,1,7,4,2,2,2,0,4,0,2,1,4,5,8,0,1,6,0,0,2,6,4,0,2,6,7,31,3,14,30,7,20,0,0,3,1,19,3,1,5,16,100,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765250681076933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749143523427382,0.0,0.0,0.12445239260336492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10298716936137224,0.0,0.0,0.08470824705147116,0.09198117773913933,0.06715410447924765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165374341927708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104576983539675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11433139660325815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552272969052382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11140305112417724,0.07870019049664985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10184355768039363,0.11511083371726913,0.0,0.12521589976536374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32723491051147113,0.0974164320829976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12416126768862425,0.0,0.14767935052413908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763977330002604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18731262290422968,0.0,0.0,0.07353439750929586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.489463300694205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12902111724018867,0.08793074417891708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16992839206946897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07464903547296511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07637288291186904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10541073985210517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08778533725850722,0.1002879025997186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18225529853301234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480855912961725,0.10895363800375246,0.0,0.07797366226387435,0.0,0.0,0.09210087459942663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3313142908398378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0705877522280798,0.0,0.08745680694717105,0.12847340742906824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11468316195901665,0.0,0.0,0.12132855110624913,0.18179138059527208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266815646502502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825635732598626,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Chemickz,2018/12/21,"The street light turns off whenever I look at it I live in a small town and I tend to always walk across my college campus to visit my friend. It’s only half a mile to walk between my dorm to the house but I have to cross through some neighborhoods. There is a singular streetlight on the intersection I always take to walk there. Sometimes is goes off just as I glance up at it, other times I’ll get mad at it’s on and glare at it for a few seconds till it inevitably turns off. One time I was so lost in my thoughts that it turned off right as I walked under it. I’ve grown to have an odd connection with this street lamp and I’m confused if this has anything to due with my hallucinations or schizophrenia ",2.783607305936073,4.400763821917807,3.4604794520547952,91.92281963470322,75.16438356164383,6.510502283105023,23.81050228310503,7.1686216300943375,0.6874173515981736,562,17,124,6,12,177,91,146,0.10099999999999999,0.884,0.015,-0.9199,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,1,8,0,6,0,0,0,0,12,16,10,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,12,5,0,0,1,0,0,7,0,3,0,3,3,3,13,1,31,13,2,33,0,1,2,0,2,22,0,4,4,85,25,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377780969787389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16702874547282293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15681574238976434,0.0,0.10604454584835632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23420255397067555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792280845485791,0.0,0.17044544571792844,0.0,0.2215680259511893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375391491680394,0.1543694297247342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17333706595312254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007445987058437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15260976039612326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16113717665948554,0.2367093296860121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6623260856964347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xi88_,2018/12/21,"wesly willis, in a sea of vulgar songs this one always struck me https://clyp.it/uy1e5x2r rip wesley willis",7.755294117647058,11.846962470588238,3.689705882352944,83.74867647058825,71.3529411764706,5.752941176470588,14.382352941176471,7.1686216300943375,0.13914117647058832,90,1,12,1,2,23,16,17,0.11800000000000001,0.882,0.0,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7754016677716271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6314683314442452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AydinGuy,2018/12/21,"Is it possible that i have a mild form of schizophrenia? Hey everyone, so I had a few symptoms that match up with those from schizo so I was wondering if possibly I have a mild version. This happens sometimes where I'm thinking about something private and I suddenly try not to think about it in case anyone sees. I'm aware that it's completely irrational but I feel like my head is leaking. Also, when I was younger, I frequently confused my thoughts with dreams. Even now, when I try to remember something, I can't figure out if it's a dream or not. I also sometimes get the feeling that I'm in a simulation and that I'm being watched for no apparent reason. I also sometimes ponder the possibility of things like me being insanely retarded, too much so to realize it and my friends only play along because it's funny. I occasionally get dissociative episodes where I feel like I'm watching myself from a third person view, like I'm playing a video game and I'm controlling my avatar from behind the screen. These are not serious at all and never surpass a mild inconvenience but I've just been wondering if it's a possibility. I have never had any real delusions.",5.293125,6.7076949196428615,6.358392857142861,74.41160714285716,68.55357142857143,9.528571428571428,34.535714285714285,9.827888789773867,3.606425,938,46,166,22,16,313,127,224,0.057,0.77,0.17300000000000001,0.9734,1,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,16,9,0,1,12,0,14,2,1,2,3,38,33,19,0,3,10,0,3,4,1,0,1,0,0,1,16,9,0,1,13,6,0,0,7,2,0,1,6,8,21,7,20,25,5,14,0,0,5,0,4,7,0,7,11,119,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810760624142539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0796721467653833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819203063544623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07141904722729855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12283899665999448,0.0,0.13140379592552975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07738242349449136,0.0,0.0,0.11195045818290647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17771735245076795,0.16739684537419652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09051676324052801,0.0,0.12242149803617568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10360332875558692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12023894827493672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289519043538408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861253554455518,0.0,0.1807205077422883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910470918945912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022987315949886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5283167372336813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13335260678820424,0.0,0.12045897873195492,0.0,0.0,0.13271832356343766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933605651679431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18038946499924005,0.34761978043712705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12177307445990165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07783524269536668,0.15014153041394435,0.0,0.0930111699671156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590865593568917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541079050445259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,natatouille97,2018/12/21,"Drug induced hallucinations Hi everyone, I've never been diagnosed as psychotic, but the other day I had some weird but not super scary hallucinations. In my periphery I saw a hand draw back a shower curtain. Later I heard my ringtone but when I found my phone no one had called. For context, I'm taking Adderall, Lexapro, and Abilify for ADHD, anxiety and depression. I had some restlessness in my legs, and was prescribed Cogentin to counteract the jittery feeling that might have been a side effect of the Abilify. A few days later I had the hallucinations, a possible side effect my psychiatrist didn't mention. I guess my question is, since hallucinations are a fairly rare side effect, do I have an increased likelihood of psychosis later in life? I've always been scared about developing a severe mental illness, since my dad's sister is a felon with schizoaffective disorder, so I'm genetically predisposed. And a lot of my symptoms overlap with the schizophrenic prodrome. Should I look into preventative medicine?",8.058050847457626,9.798680864406784,8.3625,61.37900423728814,62.38983050847458,11.323728813559322,39.04378531073447,11.20814326018867,5.185832768361582,831,43,118,24,12,273,114,177,0.182,0.752,0.066,-0.9703,1,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,4,4,5,0,2,15,0,17,8,2,4,1,26,26,10,0,1,4,2,2,0,0,2,6,1,2,0,2,7,0,1,7,0,0,1,4,4,0,1,12,5,17,1,14,12,5,17,0,1,2,0,8,8,0,6,8,83,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22573976971891685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15629279894835724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14369237073013327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14443262590881178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19179934805691512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24227457075824804,0.0,0.16178100806465645,0.19064739008535606,0.0,0.0,0.21527384968673616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21782761693976693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17948328013235298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497443146439824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059501065254508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20692014738001324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326725935631471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15773311542419,0.0,0.0,0.1596896107145631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18929232811186544,0.1992620172963958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14486903422840494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272810687295782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21175442800019295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21041688457255456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18805443812450326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121987703678517,0.0,0.3107561809999728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952312763218471,0.1412276687712501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FerrisTM,2018/12/21,"Hey, everyone! I'm writing an article about schizophrenia and I was hoping this awesome community could help. Hi, friends, &#x200B; I'm schizoaffective: bipolar type, but right now things are going well enough in my life for me to have some job potential. I'm getting into freelance writing, and one of the things that I really want to talk about is mental illness. I want to raise awareness about what it's really like living with various mental illnesses, and the first thing I want to write about is misconceptions about schizophrenia. It's something that is really important to me, and I've been fortunate enough to be surrounded by well-educated, loving people when it comes to my illness, but I know too well that this isn't true for everyone. What are some of the misconceptions that you wish people would stop applying to schizophrenia? If you could say anything about your illness to the public, what would you want it to be? I want to give a voice to those of you who aren't as lucky as me to be functioning okay for now; it would make what I'm writing really meaningful to me. &#x200B; Additionally, if any of you would like to provide any art that you feel represents you or your illness, I would love that. One of my favorite things about being on this forum is getting to see the creativity of everyone, and I would really like it if I could bring that into my own work. &#x200B; Thank you for humoring me, and I hope I get a few responses. I would really appreciate getting to bring something special to my writing.",8.43042105263158,8.059431901754387,8.091578947368422,70.89105263157897,61.561403508771924,11.810526315789476,37.24561403508772,11.20814326018867,4.238256140350877,1232,52,215,30,15,393,131,285,0.08,0.654,0.266,0.9959,1,0,2,0,0,0,42.0,0,10,0,2,13,16,0,0,8,1,25,9,0,1,1,49,53,15,0,21,6,0,1,3,1,7,7,2,0,0,26,11,0,1,3,1,0,4,2,0,2,3,2,4,32,16,43,37,7,15,0,0,1,2,26,6,0,9,8,162,58,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590828245940788,0.29055294074927834,0.10840502875822433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06559088496057798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06865928278214342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19091521314314425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16471430132936707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284862363735251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040301526287042026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677975090674362,0.0,0.0,0.06158031834567205,0.0,0.16657146260056194,0.07646083650774231,0.045298506863374714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05342495710075052,0.0,0.0,0.15833121215847146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909547005420241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0438040915856519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056298394574328524,0.11682033237168978,0.0,0.07038147021970753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438747605785795,0.0,0.05320408057620104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16064891612845125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10802110121966392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11051559960809304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30636853831020744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0680681131870518,0.0,0.06338506087874253,0.0,0.0,0.06351501222703533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12272246911150014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06663741758007917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0640643103593626,0.0,0.07338217135431799,0.0,0.0,0.21181133094459806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23506202349613156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21499461350278745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091657461017738,0.0,0.0,0.05802659735296312,0.0,0.0,0.3963438033434342,0.0,0.29055294074927834,0.0 schizophrenia,recoiledconsciousnes,2018/12/21,"Ahhhh, humanity Telling someone who’s been stigmatized as “crazy” that, ‘your head injuries alone are enough to make me question your character’ because I was talking about being precognitive and intuitive is one of the cruelest things anyone has ever or could have ever said to me :-) ",13.040625,11.018181812500005,11.47,55.57500000000003,53.79166666666666,14.6,49.0,13.023866798666859,6.61905,229,12,32,6,2,72,44,48,0.15,0.807,0.043,-0.6908,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,8,1,1,1,2,7,10,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,5,0,5,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,2,2,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808615274337591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18961592230462607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530930013281378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165158045323435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802022600752975,0.0,0.0,0.4905971223264465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783097389240714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18101529135432545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18375912991943608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037845613282915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25795504285970605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22977061385713826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179648568215515,0.2370239740738407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801604753237404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tobantula,2019/03/10,"Tricks to silence the voices for a while? Hey guys and girls. I'm quit new to the privilege to hear voices pretty much my whole awaken time. It gets quite hard for me to stay concentrated, if voices get louder. I can't follow what people are saying to me and it gets really exhausting to listen to them as well and I want to be alone more often. My question for you: do you have any kind of trick or tip what you do when it gets really worse besides the medication, which I don't want to take in front of others? (nobody, except my mother and one friend, knows about my ""problem). I'm grateful for any help. I hope it's okay to post this here. Thank you. 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I want to go to a psychiatrist but I'm very afraid they'll mess me up even more. I've already had a bad experience with a therapist. Any advice on how I can manage myself till I find some balls to go to a therapist? Thank you,1.1247058823529414,3.088518333333333,3.5429019607843166,87.82905882352941,81.35294117647058,6.432941176470589,20.003921568627447,7.554174236665415,0.5793615686274505,378,10,83,6,10,131,69,102,0.142,0.759,0.099,-0.6592,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,4,4,7,0,2,6,0,8,1,1,2,1,13,19,8,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,1,0,5,1,5,0,0,4,2,11,2,14,14,3,12,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,2,4,53,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17022136927718431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19222854951851087,0.1393037042081077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845859520693645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14544557564361266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11505417580700204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17039616676638056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15921110349907452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910097146195828,0.0,0.3959962041963879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17877435816750298,0.0,0.19633046124749065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09573303402972697,0.0,0.19649958357178327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948796835180933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18527785869232732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14409593060664205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16037538168556068,0.0,0.6067615749280351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157452403692203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14372914463387818,0.1027447431500787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ZentoGen2,2019/03/10,"Question about going to a doctor Hello, recently i have been put on medical leave for planning my own death. I have been trying to go to a therapist for half a year now and every time i go it seems like they kick me out or i get the police called on me for what my thoughts are. In the past i have been diagnosed with mania, ptsd, behavioral disassociative disorder, but even though i say i am worried i have schizophrenia, no one seems to think so, despite me hearing voices, seeing hands, and hearing something completely different from what other people are saying, and even my memories, when i ask people did this happen they say no. So my question from all of this, should say i just have depression as im going to go to a new doctor since im mandated, i am constantly worried now that someone is going to put me in a psych ward for the rest of my life against my will. I have a career and i really need to keep it intact. I am also worried i just cant trust people here because they do not see that even though i hear thoughts of wanting to harm people, i have no intent on it. I dont get to pick my thoughts and if they knew me theyd know i havent harmed anyone. I dont really know what to do and would just please love some advice from anyone whos gone through this",4.8466153846153865,5.038481469230772,5.8151923076923095,82.3135576923077,68.92307692307692,8.807692307692307,28.55769230769231,8.660442795831766,1.9763846153846152,1002,32,205,15,16,332,136,260,0.136,0.802,0.062,-0.9553,1,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,5,1,16,6,0,0,9,0,27,7,1,2,1,35,57,16,1,5,7,0,1,1,0,3,5,8,0,0,12,8,0,1,11,0,0,9,8,3,0,2,9,11,37,3,32,44,4,24,0,1,2,1,19,6,0,7,10,150,49,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08661096487417892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07087963328719735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394825564237792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828597211613732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054029743768054576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050401788485056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929298243526212,0.09578058989245154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633931708134876,0.08996044552177013,0.0,0.0926024312623789,0.10158088929690996,0.1814388917661746,0.0,0.0,0.2077540073986735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175623422989058,0.0,0.07467697266228278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09261397942687398,0.0,0.3022324412992367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07837770907761822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996868857601818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914773078547827,0.0,0.0,0.07878092190928045,0.0,0.0,0.09742055868608987,0.0,0.0,0.09384935769271173,0.0,0.0,0.06260398120386446,0.043301518319324064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07999457955306462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08928824044039614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06572011218445302,0.0,0.08560212884197027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06005989195169902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08461005469436073,0.2457873469718345,0.0,0.0,0.09729221926429016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10360702228739208,0.17820092717474387,0.19857808358115966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135609067768662,0.0,0.08751421596404801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28193750033987924,0.0,0.0,0.1412577627369036,0.16137597910110993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07331798373658598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509829986670864,0.06823387423068293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10290953416766924,0.0,0.05679233154281209,0.17416258919775407,0.21109367357827385,0.05168250949237587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0601758660518005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05227793301020496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27003278993051577,0.0,0.06296221157786375,0.0,0.0,0.057076629458687474 schizophrenia,eternal_arts_baja,2019/03/10,"I want you all to know how much I belive in you all I've been in newspapers and on the news because my message needs to get out there. There is life after recovering from mental illness. It might not be the life you first wanted. But a second chance is a second chance. Take your time to mourn the life you had, but when your tears dry and the side effects settle, it's up to you from there. Day by day slowly coming back from the madness and severity. You'll find your place. And on days when you relapse take it slow rest, heal, and try again. There's no shame in progressing and in the end thriving after several recoveries. You are worth it. You are worth saving. Admiring you all from afar :')",2.955217391304348,4.8901473478260895,3.602246376811596,89.71902173913048,75.52173913043478,6.6289855072463775,21.644927536231886,7.492282038375204,0.6675101449275358,546,14,113,7,12,172,83,138,0.111,0.778,0.11,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,13,0,3,9,5,1,1,8,0,9,5,0,2,3,24,17,11,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,4,8,0,0,3,0,2,1,2,3,0,3,2,0,16,2,19,12,5,24,0,1,0,0,14,10,0,1,13,82,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148704898755868,0.0,0.1178886903604514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16658827818897706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741614675600311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17128605357924814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17675486849594407,0.16449735335690274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10103824284800128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062820335312888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4097910247635237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19489153721340846,0.20515612675115646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14216383100142516,0.1433961632138623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20205128850102347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4369510900340961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908102799351615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11276720809104016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129905021587596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281327516110995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zoncaster1,2019/03/10,"I have nowhere to go Hello fellow redditor who is reading this, I just want to thank you for taking your time reading this. I am a 23 year old male and I was diagnosed with "" Schizophrenia "". I have been suffering with voice in my head, hallucinations, extreme anxiety, sleep paralysis and paranoia. It all happened when I was in highschool, I didn't know I was sick until I graduated highschool and went to college. The symptoms progressed slowly, it went from voices in my head to paranoia and then full on anxiety. I tried to talk to my parents but they didn't seem to care or they only took me to the doctors if I was begging them to. I can't work properly anymore without having voices in my head, my parents don't even care about me anymore and they left me alone dealing with my illness. I can't turn to anyone, I used to have my grandma but she passed away months ago. I am now struggling to find a way out or at least a friend who can help me with my mental illness. Lately I have been meditating on good things in life to forget about schizophrenia, but every time I get a little better, the hallucination kicks in just to ruin the moment. This is my cry for help.",4.771926855895195,5.9081285152838445,5.450390283842797,81.4781181768559,69.52401746724891,7.6463973799126626,30.46970524017467,7.865858978985527,2.0442072052401747,926,37,175,11,16,300,128,229,0.162,0.743,0.096,-0.9351,2,1,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,2,4,3,7,9,0,1,8,0,21,11,4,1,1,26,36,14,0,2,9,2,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,1,8,10,0,0,3,2,0,5,6,3,0,0,11,3,37,6,36,25,3,32,0,2,0,0,19,14,0,4,12,130,45,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669076273676473,0.0,0.0,0.12465535839674095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841482163608724,0.0,0.23872706137629196,0.08415763087447578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11308100006029778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10644752643431643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454275178821375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13220842645692066,0.0,0.12408457804958455,0.0,0.12216158958087088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12319227245591872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0794958139492728,0.0,0.1014074311504388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11000570968977014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929888654931004,0.0,0.06288247506210426,0.0,0.06840264673709143,0.10095120239329088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10643283804449187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705683783165971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16134785539527827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06614601694068559,0.0,0.13576990341433046,0.0,0.1307701253291786,0.0,0.08501293889328618,0.0,0.12063107884275395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12129330324037553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09606919956124872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12629625319124713,0.0,0.0,0.091538246850508,0.0,0.0,0.2672882789500611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407826255353023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10957007834287724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044566362678402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12582508980494558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12509881745929566,0.09049479514076933,0.0967397976976144,0.0,0.1108101589107472,0.0,0.0,0.07996100008999897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14036430069900466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13372299091527426,0.08171568525096459,0.13091574939442532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10395130913315404,0.0,0.0,0.07099070440889982,0.09553516714760296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22314751928128276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11602153225964255,0.0,0.08762259762913695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07750708372052564 schizophrenia,toothcomb42,2019/03/10,"Adolescent-onset Schizophrenia? This question is just for curiosity's sake: has anyone here ever heard of adolescent-onset schizophrenia that only occurs during that developmental phase (around puberty)? From 12-14, I developed what seemed to me a kind of schizophrenia. I developed an external voice, really a separate distinct entity/personality who constantly criticized me and ordered me to do things. I even gave her a name: Nervouz, fittingly enough. This voice constantly nagged and criticized me non-stop, from when I woke up to when I fell asleep. I would often argue with her, sometimes out loud and I would catch myself talking to her aloud and have to shut myself up. Sometimes I would have to work on focusing on what people in front of me were saying because she would be talking over them and it was very difficult for me to ignore her. I never discussed this with family (and still haven't to this day). I felt completely crazy, and I was incredibly embarrassed to admit something like this to my parents. I told a couple of friends years later in college, but at the time I literally told no one because of how embarrassed I was. It got to the point where I was starting to contemplate suicide because I was just weighed down with the constant bombardment of nagging and criticism, and I felt like I'd never be rid of her. Then one day, very suddenly, I got rid of her. She disappeared and never came back. And that was that. I haven't had anything like external voices since. I deal with depression, which has been a chronic thing since that time, but no more voice(s). I used to be scared of such a thing returning, but it's been so long that I no longer possess that fear. I'm just curious, can there be periods of schizophrenia in a person's life? Particularly during puberty, like something going haywire because of hormones or something? Cause it seems like a permanent thing. But this has always struck me as very similar to symptoms of schizophrenia. 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I'm worried that her delusions might be getting worse again. She complained about people on websites and forums posting things about her and that someone had downloaded all her social media photos. I think she might be stressed out after going back to university. She has been responding less frequently and recently not at all despite still showing some interest. I don't know what to do. 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It has been a rough time, to say the least. She behaves like a child. She has a bad temper and will go on tangents and gets louder and louder as she goes, and then keeps going and going over the same thing. She says she hears voices all the time and that she sees a little girl everywhere she is at. I can't joke with her because she says she can't tell when people are joking and she doesn't know how to joke. So if I joke and say something dumb like I think I'll keep your dog, she'll burst into tears and start wailing, till I tell her I was only joking. She says that I cannot under any circumstances joke about books because they mean too much to her. If I say something about the plot of a book she will go off the deep end and lose it. She doesn't know any social cues so she doesn't understand how to talk to people or interact with people. If we stop at a gas station and there is people there she says she can't go in because she's scared of people and she doesn't want people looking at her. When people walk by her she winces and curls up like they are going to hit her. She also has a phobia of leaving voice mails. She refuses to leave a voice mail with the doctor because it scares her to know that her voice is being recorded and someone has it. I joked with her one day and said that I thought she left me a voice mail once and she went berserk demanding I delete it right then and there if it was true. I don't know what to do because it's like living with a child with a temper who has all these phobias. She has no friends at all because she says that she doesn't know how to make them. &#x200B; Any advice would be greatly appreciated. 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I had a psychotic episode around 11 months ago revolving around delusions of grandeur AnD Truman show like symptoms. I still have some minor symptoms (95% thought broadcasting) but they mainly come up in stressful situations like class or social situations. The symptoms have been worse since they switched my meds from risperdal to abilify. I think the abilify increasing my anxiety making me more psychotic. I believe I just have really bad anxiety that shows itself in psychotic forms and not schizoaffective disorder. Do y'all have any thoughts?,8.460612668743508,11.604368186915893,7.022367601246106,65.8911422637591,63.39252336448598,12.232191069574249,40.860851505711324,11.645159339076185,6.225812876427832,544,31,74,20,9,163,76,107,0.2,0.738,0.062,-0.9523,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,2,0,4,5,0,1,4,0,9,4,0,1,0,16,15,4,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,4,2,0,2,1,3,0,0,6,0,14,2,9,9,5,12,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,2,7,49,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25244519446578045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09683196501083018,0.0,0.21786015535592326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25351950485665475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11889201342544425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16042788826933485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226587612066809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575548892995689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226426823202684,0.14452566204855202,0.0,0.0,0.3263888966304378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13913182769405816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09504827825429148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15816626495704128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22731309762259486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122045327570504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11778876903217182,0.3201108742284152,0.0,0.1451514949041109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11371504836093133,0.0,0.16311043450546658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4440018211164497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18247907217221335,0.0,0.2260879045319091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14511039541875753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fugitiquit,2018/11/12,"Meds and drug interactions So I’m prescribed Risperidone for POSSIBLE schizophrenic symptoms, I’ve been putting off taking it cuz I think I just hate myself but I’ve come to realize I still have shit I have to do (school, career, etc.) that the so called “delusions” are getting in the way with so I think I’m just gonna say fuck it and give meds a shot, my question for you guys is can I still smoke and drink on said medication? I understand I’d probably have to slow down a lot but I don’t want to forfeit it entirely as they’re a huge vice for me. I tried google and it didn’t help to much this place seems to have a lot of firsthand experience so I’ll ask here. Thanks for any advice 👍🏻",1.4841576354679802,3.4831734206896563,2.934802955665024,92.46870689655177,80.3103448275862,6.6256157635468,22.77093596059113,7.7094869923839395,0.8714039408866996,546,18,124,9,14,178,97,145,0.087,0.825,0.08800000000000001,-0.2034,0,0,3,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,9,4,3,0,6,0,11,7,1,1,0,20,28,12,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,6,6,1,0,6,1,0,2,2,3,0,0,3,2,13,1,17,24,4,12,0,0,0,1,10,6,2,4,3,73,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510376066695064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10510844076429167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449595373630925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15782655550783828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13314271929803198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15141333024022394,0.17924452207148553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17237909482747088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511927046723726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14289141152419008,0.08075301907267061,0.1482713375370514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15304210800685702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15259939960389654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10360061711312514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628086222898754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3433702804499951,0.1557064069132588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11362191416543532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614858997352762,0.0,0.0,0.17424705726781567,0.0,0.0,0.16664553246423508,0.0,0.0,0.15537894991621565,0.1731464285421973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14702522801130896,0.12291505279839487,0.0,0.1564264550494026,0.0,0.14070875259725013,0.0,0.0,0.15865715207367256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24686912887323295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606505975199283,0.11621247272412027,0.0,0.0,0.1423012511375819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19807602526697451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049384313052304,0.0,0.0,0.16090599409152387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911655226905818,0.12268526592125835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DueShare9,2018/11/12,"Psychosis secondary to a physical illness? Is there anyone on this sub who's experienced this? I don't want to give too many personally identifying details, but I'm a 22/F who might have lupus. I only recently discovered that psychosis can apparently be a symptom of lupus (neuropsychiatric lupus). A super brief timeline of my symptoms: - Early teen years up until senior year of high school: general nonspecific psychiatric symptoms (anxiety, depression, etc.) - Beginning of high school: first emergence of autoimmune symptoms accompanied by blood markers indicative of lupus or another autoimmune disease. I was passed along to several different specialists but never got a diagnosis because my symptoms didn't follow a typical, classic presentation (i.e. butterfly rash, swollen joints, etc.). For about nine months or so I felt like absolute shit every day - crushing fatigue, fevers, aches and pains, etc. Then it sort of dissipated and I started to feel more normal again. During this time I was dealing with a significant amount of stress at home. - Beginning of college - nearly a year later, I started to experience some psychiatritc symptoms that were different from anything I've experienced before. Paranoia, social withdrawal, strange and illogical thoughts and ideas that I started entertaining, severe decline in my ability to concentrate on anything, etc. - Now: I'm in my senior year of college. Psychiatric symptoms (excluding depression and anxiety) seemed to have toned down somewhat, although I definitely think my personality has shifted in a big way towards being generally more suspicious, anxious, and ""eccentric"". Autoimmune symptoms seem to be reemerging, which is prompting me to go back to the rhuematologist to push for answers. When I say paranoia and strange thoughts and ideas, I mostly mean stuff relating to surveillance (being spied on through hidden cameras, being monitored online, etc.). I couldn't stand to be around any camera on anything unless it was covered up. I had weird thoughts popping into my head constantly - fleeting thoughts I could mostly shake off about being poisoned, plotted against by family members, spied on by neighbors. Then some thoughts that were harder to shake, like the stuff about being spied on in general, especially electronically. Became super hyper vigilant about having my stuff stolen, being raped, being attacked. Anxiety was through the roof. Ability to concentrate was absolutely obliterated, I'd flip between total apathy and then despair. Constantly falling down a rabbit hole of ruminating about my own state of mind and the meaning of things. Little motivation, completely untrusting of everyone. I'd experience periods where I'd feel particularly withdrawn socially, to the point where even being in a room with my family members would make me feel angry and agitated if they were moving around too much or talking too much. Really hated feeling like people were looking at me (still get extremely uncomfortable with this). And lastly, extreme and unreasonable amounts of guilt related to a savior/messiah type complex (I've always been very sensitive about social problems in the world). And then occasional suicidal thoughts. It's not like all of this was happening at the same time with the same intensity. Some of this stuff would come and go, sometimes certain things would get worse and other things would get better. I think I might have even had a handful of auditory hallucinations? I don't feel totally comfortable characterizing them as such because they weren't really overt (in my case distant sounds of crying). The thing is though, through all of this I was pretty self aware that something was wrong. I knew how illogical all of this stuff was, but I couldn't help but hold on to it at the same. I felt even worse about myself knowing that I was giving in to these thoughts and entertaining them, thinking that if I just had more willpower I would be able to resist the influence they had over me. It made me feel very weird and definitely hurt my self esteem. Sure enough though, the influence did lessen over time, but it felt like it kind of just happened randomly. One month I felt like a mess, the next month I started to feel more grounded and like myself, and then things sort of just stayed that way. It's been like that for about 8-10 months I'd say. I'm sure educating myself about psychosis helped a lot. Maybe it was also having less stress in my home life. Or me just getting older and better at dealing with things. I have no clue. I have no idea if the two - my health and these psychiatric symptoms - could possibly be related. Because of my self awareness, I never seriously entertained the idea that these experiences that were happening on and off throughout college could have been psychosis, although I'd be lying if I said the thought didn't cross my mind. But after reading about the link between things like lupus and psychiatric symptoms, I'm not so sure anymore. I don't know if I'd ever bring this up to a rheumatologist. Right now I don't think I would, even if it might be a critical piece of info, because stepping back and taking a birds eye view of things, seeing how high functioning I've been throughout college, this all seems ridiculous. I feel like being passed through the medical system so much, I've kind of just accepted the idea that unless you have symptoms that fit into a very typical, textbook mold, you shouldn't expect to get any answers. Ever. I don't even know if me making this sort of connection is unreasonable, considering that a) the beginning of these psychiatric symptoms didn't coincide with my first autoimmune ""flare"" that lasted for many months, and b) there have been times where I've been feeling better physically but worse psychologically and vice versa. Me feeling physically sick and me feeling mentally unwell don't actually line up that well at all. I guess I'm just looking for opinions right now. Has anyone here dealt with an autoimmune disease? If you have, do you think the two - your psychiatric symptoms and autoimmune symptoms - could possibly be related? 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Hello everyone, I wanted to ask a few questions about a series of experiences I've been having lately. I've read the stickies about anxiety, depression and concerns about developing Schizophrenia, I have also done some searches, I just want to say this so as to not come across as someone mindlessly using up the space of the community. I have dealt with problems with anxiety for a very long time. Had to crisis which, although weren't diagnosed, I now believe to have been flare ups of panic disorder. When I have very strong anxiety I have experiences of depersonalization and derealization which are very strong, and do not subside after the panic attack ocurrs but remain. Now, I know that this is not schizophrenia or psychosis, and I hope that as fellow sufferers of a mental illness you can grant me some lenience as I ask these questions. I was prescribed an antidepressant one week ago, and it's been a particularly hard week as the immediate effects of the SSRI have been an increase in anxiety, during my appointment with my psychiatrist I inquired upon my concerns that I might be developing psychosis or some kind of Schizophrenic related disorder. He was very adamant that I wasn't, given my speech patterns, the way I expressed myself and what not. So, there's that, I know that a sub reddit can't replace the opinion of an expert that has actually interacted with me IRL, but I feel that, at the very least, I can express some things here that have been burdening me lately. I've been experiencing some symptoms that are kinda new to the whole scheme of my anxiety and panic disorder. One of those is that I feel confused and have been experiencing some degree of racing thoughts, not only when I am going to sleep, but when I am talking to my family or doing some other mundane things, when this happens I have the feeling of an image or a thought popping into my mind which I can't readily recognize its source. Also, I feel like a ""chatter"" of thoughts, not voices, in the background of my mind. I can't make out what they are, but it is very uncomfortable and kinda triggers my anxiety, seeing as it makes me feel that there is something foreign in my stream of thought. Because of my depersonalization and derealization I've felt a creeping sense of weak suspicion towards my mother and my sister, I am staying at their place now, which tends to dissipate relatively quickly, but is nevertheless distressing. A couple of examples, during a moment of, admittedly, highish anxiety, my mother said something that was kindof out of place and it made me feel as if it were a ""glitch"", or as if she was ""off script"", which prompted me to ask her why she mentioned it. I guess it might sound silly, but it's the first time that I act on something that I recognize at some level as irrational. Today, as well, during a moment of, again admittedly moderate anxiety, my sister was talking about something and I kinda just stared at her eye movements and felt disturbed by them, kinda feeling like there was something threatening in the movement. I have also experienced some degree of confusion at seemingly normal things. As I write, I have a table in front of me, and at some point I saw a glass of water on it and kinda couldnt understand why it was there, and then the same thing happened to as I saw the other things on the table. I have had, recently, the feeling that my mind is being undone, as if its integrity is compromised, somehow falling apart at the seams. I know that I have anxiety, I guess my concern is what is the causal link, am I having panic attacks because I have these uncomfortable cognitive and perceptual experiences, or is it the other way round? At times the feeling that nothing is real is very, very hard to shake off, to the point where I almost feel it will make me non functional. At the moment, because I am a self employed artist, I have pushed the deadlines I had at work and am taking some time off, so I am not dealing with having to be outside, doing things. I do believe that I am experiencing a moderate degree of agoraphobia. I know that a lot of these things are consistent with anxiety and panic disorder, my problem is that I cant understand what comes first, am I experiencing disturbances in my cognition and perception that are triggering panic, or is it the other way round? Is my anxiety tricking me into feeling psychotic, or am I having psychotic symptoms trigger my anxiety? Because depersonalization and derealization make you feel like things are a dream/simulation/etc, in its most extreme I even have trouble relating to my memories, which then warps into the fear that they are not mine/they are made up/etc. I.. I guess that it's hard for me to think of a more paradigmatic case of ""being delusional"" or ""loosing touch with reality"". I have checked some of the symptoms of Schizophrenia online and find that a lot of them apply to me, at times I feel catatonic, after a particularly strong period of anxiety I will kinda just slouch, sit and be unable to concentrate on anything, either perceptually or cognitively. I have had some experiences with involuntary movements, either in my limbs or my face, most at the time of going to sleep. I sometimes feel.. neutral, my voice and my expression feel flat, etc. I post this because, as the FAQ states, because people here are experienced with psychosis and schizophrenia related issues, they might be able to identify similarities or differences. I'm grateful for any and all contributions, I thank you for your time and space, I'm sorry if I have perpetuated some ignorance about these conditions by even asking these questions here, I am trying to learn more about my own condition and about mental health. Have a good day! 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He acts extremely craZy most parts of the days, he thinks someone is try to hack into all his electronic devices and that people are after him. He is starting to blame me and my parents that we all “set this up” it doesn’t look like the medicine the doctor gave is working and he just can not stop smoking weed (wax pen) sometimes he goes extremely crazy and starts screaming, banging walls, threatens to run away. That’s when we have to give him his pen and he is completely calm after that. I’ve read online that marijuana isn’t good for Schizo, but if we don’t give it to him. He litteraly just goes insane. We really do not know what to do right now, has anyone been through this and knows what to do??",4.695522088353414,6.040230740963861,4.803795180722894,85.26043172690765,69.90361445783131,7.9429718875502,28.29116465863454,8.344100000000001,1.878535742971888,677,24,132,10,12,211,104,166,0.076,0.863,0.061,-0.5365,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,4,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,5,0,18,3,0,0,2,25,27,9,0,1,6,3,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,13,12,0,1,3,1,0,2,6,1,0,0,2,2,12,3,16,25,4,18,0,0,1,0,26,5,0,2,11,82,25,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15125524466420562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11931007635295812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16031466916394502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922441783254412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3578094546475381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18880140205860385,0.0,0.11004372186403184,0.0,0.0,0.17318819967771848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.349298792755533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273721138424531,0.0,0.14311828339644295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143712385113919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18755010685622311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336232615945274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432881629150167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18946698379228347,0.18477816032890013,0.0,0.11829495696337335,0.0,0.0,0.1873030330085976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17067848238225244,0.0,0.10931142506233604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14571905773654534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14457619987692566,0.0,0.16875971453807512,0.0,0.241548850065686,0.0,0.0,0.1426562489411412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10933429240320412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584813575691814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13687094417836632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12422235161265135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kellsndudz,2018/11/12,"My 2 Year Abilify Nightmare I just wanted to ask a psychiatrist some questions, but I have Medicaid and the only psychiatrist who takes my insurance was a good 40 minutes away. But that’s a whole different story. I wanted to ask a psychiatrist about adding supplements to my diet to help with my depression. I had a whole list, including SAM-e, St. John’s Wort, and HTP-5. Instead, the psychiatrist talked to me for ten minutes and then put me on Abilify, 2 mgs. I thought I’d try it. After all, my Zoloft had worked so well for me in the past. Maybe Abilify would help get me out of my depression slump. And it did. I started writing again. I was more energetic. I felt better. But then things started to get really weird. It started out with me dating, which is not something I ever have had any desire to do. But it soon warped into me getting an account on Adult Friend Finder and hooking up with strangers. That’s not like me. I’m a demisexual (a person who does not experience sexual attraction unless they form a strong emotional connection with someone) and an introvert. Before the Abilify, I had had sex with one person, my first boyfriend, at age 22. Before the Abilify, I was voluntarily celibate. After the Abilify, I had sex with 15–20 men (I’m not sure — I don’t remember), most of it unprotected. I thought this was the new me. I thought this was who I was. So I started webcamming. Soon I was making money. I got an account on a well-known site, set up a Snapchat, and read countless articles on how to be a successful webcam model. I think my mind started to split into two people. One was Emma Hunny, the alter ego I created to start webcamming. She would do anything for sex. She scored a 16 out of 20 on a sexual addiction test. I’m not sure how many photos and videos are on the Internet and on strangers’ phones of Emma Hunny’s naked body. The other person was the real me, screaming to get out. And scream I did. I went through hell. I have several notebooks chronicling my decent into madness. The one question I kept asking, usually in all caps, was WHO AM I? I soon lost my grip on reality. I would sometimes think my parents were strangers. I would be doing something and suddenly not know where I was. I was going insane. I started smoking pot, even though I hadn’t smoked in over 7 years. I think marijuana helped bridge the gap between me and Emma because pot is an aphrodisiac for me. I now know what it was. It was the Abilify. Abilify has the incredibly strange side effects of hypersexuality and compulsive gambling. In fact, there are several class action suits against Abilify going on now by people who have gone through similar nightmares like mine. I know Abilify has helped people. But it's also hurt a lot of people. I just want people to know. It might be the meds. I’m not sure what’s next. I’m pissed, but I’m also just so, so tired. I’m weaning myself off the Abilify right now. I want it out of my system immediately but I have to take it slow. The withdrawal symptoms include flu-like symptoms, mood changes, suicidal thoughts, and a whole host of other things that I’m worried about. I think I need to wait and let my mind heal before I really move on. Telling my story is the first step. &#x200B;",2.7850732600732613,5.25910162820513,4.46003663003663,80.72782051282053,78.39102564102564,7.743956043956044,27.372710622710624,8.657515384779499,2.402774908424908,2552,109,472,59,63,856,287,624,0.13,0.7929999999999999,0.076,-0.9902,2,0,3,0,0,0,96.0,0,0,1,8,27,23,3,0,38,0,50,12,2,4,7,94,101,34,1,10,18,1,2,2,1,5,6,2,0,5,28,29,1,2,17,2,4,8,9,10,1,7,34,4,72,12,70,58,10,73,1,4,0,3,28,32,2,6,33,331,100,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07327014592214416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10749756991473401,0.0,0.07282332419112711,0.08166898377775994,0.04570593148490623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05530910380050249,0.0,0.188500241654092,0.0,0.06314714966073501,0.0,0.0,0.04097133329293546,0.0,0.1715753828053352,0.0,0.0,0.059442858474708864,0.0,0.07465650902097784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07110055438072366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157778432902474,0.0,0.0,0.07022141528700576,0.0,0.0,0.058816987836506636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07560357134323004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04439237412279616,0.06079639256606456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06574546583056899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06453330725192626,0.0,0.0,0.11433965157445546,0.0,0.0,0.05192721856849224,0.0,0.1404603447676187,0.0,0.07639536559447234,0.05637357896163887,0.05375494910151787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18020104467861808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07195099656227608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14775010581751966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872802180974505,0.0,0.06567201009752473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0733689815577326,0.05714057213997049,0.0,0.0,0.044864008420804666,0.06814162355918169,0.06752270002835271,0.0,0.07465650902097784,0.0,0.0,0.07130047861681207,0.13572833629945866,0.0,0.0,0.07143488567682221,0.0,0.049836264852886,0.0,0.06491301099678437,0.07147989045117377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13663217770869815,0.051117158235849364,0.0,0.0,0.07463010118596286,0.0,0.06416071054673025,0.2329789716197834,0.1760587234222067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06756583569718305,0.15058388731220587,0.0,0.06722940406555866,0.07650107793811224,0.08611445170972512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613720540812281,0.057398011019820006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15185908578473967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05694784500145925,0.10348495506382492,0.0664736109690669,0.0,0.3330071111245113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07351816121537252,0.0,0.1900373263140233,0.1397163757708336,0.10106893941908188,0.054021829309106616,0.0587455650250361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930429049995643,0.17226493274611565,0.06603467823033426,0.21343279097859266,0.0,0.07724940534232308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045632003638282896,0.0,0.06565559162204106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.074023658626246,0.0,0.15857166574188122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12086190941441037,0.0623054703662116,0.0,0.22511676642220774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048930565552118124,0.06825625211031641,0.0,0.1909796771564338,0.0,0.08166898377775994,0.08656363868125241 schizophrenia,titanlord1,2018/11/12,"For those taking abilify, at what dose and for how long did it take to notice your symptoms got better. Thoughts?",4.005714285714284,6.580721238095242,3.676428571428573,87.40607142857145,74.71428571428572,6.104761904761905,24.785714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.1634571428571427,90,3,16,1,2,27,20,21,0.0,0.873,0.127,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,3,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235253732103187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2925681976981244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237264916853172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4164721605006442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3802121379651019,0.5500806519834796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904088276056248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kileydmusic,2018/11/12,"Lurking this thread but I don't have schizophrenia. Here's why. I was once misdiagnosed with schizophrenia but it ended up being narcolepsy. That's not why, though. About 10-15 years ago, I became really close to a lady that was my boss. Her family practically was mine. Her son got put in the state hospital when he was, I think, 18. He was a year or two younger than me. I think I visited him with his mom once when he was there. After 15 months with no changes to his schizophrenia, she had him moved to a different hospital. She asked me to go to his entrance meeting or whatever you call them. He was sedated and driven, in one of the state's vehicles, the 1.5hrs and we met him at the new place. I went with his mom to visit him multiple times after that. The experience changed my life. I still think about it all the time. After that meeting, we got back in the car and just started crying. Even after having been sedated, after about 45 minutes in the room with us and the doctors, he was so wound up, he had to be taken out of the room. Not once in the entire 45 minutes did he say anything that wasn't a delusion. The subsequent visits were barely different. I would talk to him on the phone often. I was just SURE I could get through to him. I KNEW I could get him to think just a little more rationally. I really did. But it never happened. It was so heartbreaking. His mother was so devoted to him. Her world revolved around getting him better. He was the star basketball player before it all started and she was convinced he'd get back into it. I eventually left the job and lost contact with them around 2009. His dad was my boss, too, and also has schizophrenia so he could make work very, very toxic. That's why I left. I saw the kid's cousins around. About 5 years ago, he was able to finally go home. His cousin told me he was about ""30% there"" (as in his mind). I don't think they ever really stabilized him. They found the correct dosages to keep him sedated enough to not be a danger. In July, he died. He was 32. I don't know how. I can't talk to his mom because I'll see her and lose it. And nothing I can say can express the loss I know she feels. Jesus, the shit she did for that boy. But his mom couldn't save him and I don't want to see that in her eyes. In 2013, an acquaintance of my then-husband killed his mother and sister in a psychotic episode. He had stopped taking his schizophrenia meds. He was smearing himself and his jail cell in piss and shit and people had the nerve to say he was faking it. In other words, I'm here because the I enjoy reading what you guys write and I like trying to help. Now I know I can't save anyone, but I still like to help. 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""yay"" Diagnosed schitzo-affective, had a grace period for like 5 months and woke up a couple hours ago to the aura of the people watching me outside. They want to sing with me but I just want them to go away and I think they poisoned my soda earlier today because I can't sleep. Yeah i've totally lost it again. My downhills have lasted up to 2 years and just when I got my shit together time to jump in the rabbit hole :) Anyone else have trouble knowing if this is a dream or reality? Makes me paranoid as f***. If this is reality could use some support from fellow schitzos ;) ",1.6291395045632342,4.0603504406779685,3.5500000000000007,85.77785528031292,82.72881355932203,6.342633637548892,24.33116036505867,7.61054688173877,1.4389327249022164,464,18,90,8,13,156,89,118,0.157,0.703,0.14,-0.7447,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,3,1,6,8,2,0,6,2,7,5,2,2,1,19,18,9,0,5,6,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,2,2,0,2,1,4,0,0,4,1,13,4,15,13,2,19,0,1,1,0,4,5,1,4,13,60,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19253765193057207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518736226545674,0.22255048547977488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20406968392651725,0.16701595810591538,0.0,0.13240513752493596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17341918967895115,0.2403313598431935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22045681379220367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18144551617834115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12344166121569672,0.0,0.17371734958060636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21390153353086336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11936927302452276,0.1770497084598112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10611457853143684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23710309898289544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14498491329060018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17336963043379286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15058144462706327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22295610295295928,0.0,0.0,0.21736019750029706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464797715452063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391751273255862,0.0,0.0,0.12665301183637706,0.0,0.20588336546519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18759394405106894,0.0,0.0,0.2562243100559797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13987182699551484 schizophrenia,RepresentativeSyrup2,2018/11/12,"Alternative treatment/coping Hey everyone, came here tonight to see if you guys have had any experience, knowledge, successes or failures in managing schizophrenia with things other than antipsychotics or classic therapy. My boyfriend of two years and I have been living together for a while and at this point I strongly suspect he is schizophrenic. Talks at length about a demon inhabiting his headspace and ordering him around, tells me his cat has moved objects 10x her size outside of the house, and generally experiences delusions on a regular basis. He was treated for ""anxiety"" as a teenager which I understand had him on an ungodly amount of Xanax which only made him hallucinate awful things. He is completely opposed to any kind of psychiatric help, and is not going to willingly go into therapy. We have never talked about the possibility of him having schizophrenia but I would like to have that conversation with him soon. Are there any activities that you find help calm your delusions/symptoms? Maybe natural supplements or anything like that that he might be more open to? My goal is to not drive him away. I respect his wishes but would like to present suggestions to him that he might be more open to. &#x200B; Thanks in advanced, and I think this kind of post is allowed but let me know if it's not.",8.026178160919544,9.404503629310348,7.277344827586209,70.43547126436783,62.27586206896552,11.01425287356322,38.311494252873565,10.93419730881044,4.599130114942529,1070,53,171,28,15,331,148,232,0.023,0.823,0.154,0.9853,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,3,0,4,6,11,0,0,7,1,24,2,0,2,1,41,34,16,0,5,11,0,0,3,0,5,2,0,0,1,13,14,0,1,6,0,0,6,4,0,0,1,6,1,25,11,32,20,3,26,1,0,1,0,29,12,0,7,9,126,38,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530369920284974,0.1517386872682037,0.2547610263926939,0.0,0.09553022562046724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10276276765616513,0.11116661263083458,0.0,0.0,0.11732563760464047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14282551568360005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13093069594448722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11932490332661452,0.0,0.2443064727268904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11413491234266745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419404522067347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12364742619977465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.167404250053486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14409078251794072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600794387735831,0.06862889086968736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12769474193936434,0.0,0.18302513649942612,0.0,0.11026828919649596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11816121925201176,0.0,0.0,0.1254552877869539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26494858945106475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13272401928315655,0.0,0.0,0.09631250048236907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094974250061638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11804871166352544,0.14077955691178026,0.11959722418693912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09951044947919548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12979455889293573,0.0,0.2007420953221918,0.1091476164805093,0.11496955757680367,0.2856144559981525,0.0,0.16592487356958982,0.08001585653487467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12198625259812235,0.13000090163840172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14360187968466806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17741744886578448,0.0,0.1517386872682037,0.08041640957842598 schizophrenia,HDDeer,2018/11/12,"Concerned about my friend thought id give you a rundown of what shes going through, it doesnt sound harmful to her or anyone around her, but i am concerned itll get worse as she gets older. As you can see she had a schizophrenic uncle. http://imgur.com/a/6IbaArI",6.967933333333335,7.4721244600000025,5.306000000000001,86.70633333333336,64.4,7.466666666666668,32.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,1.7578666666666662,213,8,40,1,3,61,41,50,0.08800000000000001,0.868,0.044000000000000004,-0.4678,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,0,4,12,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,2,9,1,7,9,0,3,0,0,1,0,9,1,0,1,1,27,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738962624249433,0.0,0.0,0.34870943226519263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30263806669753324,0.0,0.4093098798664904,0.3757687579477349,0.222620683193986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121461697999018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31097798520838194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991910889133649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bellam914,2018/11/12,"My mother has paranoid schizophrenia and I am absolutely terrified that I’ll end up getting it. I’ve grown up with a mother whose had paranoid schizophrenia.At the moment I’m 18 but the thing is I’ve always been scared about end up like my mother or even worse.my mum was lucky enough to have found my dad who stuck by her this whole time but if I ended up getting schizophrenia I feel like I’ll have no one especially seeing as I have no siblings or close relations.None of my friend now about this either and it’s not that I’m ashamed to tell them but I guess I just don’t want them to change the way they see me or pretend I’d rather just be a normal teenager for one part of my life.The thing I’m worried about is that I know schizophrenia is passed down by genetics and the thing is my parents are first cousins (I know people are gonna think that is disgusting but please bare in mind I’m from south Asian where it’s normal for cousins to get married) This worries me and makes me think I have a higher risk of getting schizophrenia.Also would like to mention I have maladaptive daydreaming.",3.8757631160572363,5.373449941441443,3.9074456809750937,90.30732114467408,72.10810810810811,6.664970853206147,26.57233704292528,7.048011613610866,1.0628947535771065,885,30,183,8,17,271,126,222,0.142,0.748,0.11,-0.6668,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,3,1,9,9,1,3,7,0,20,0,0,1,0,33,41,13,0,6,13,8,1,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,15,6,0,0,6,1,0,2,4,4,0,3,5,3,23,5,24,33,4,19,0,0,2,0,17,9,0,6,10,117,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108045291012292,0.11529109194886075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14657565660770536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36816294333462135,0.14316712542714846,0.0,0.09151604290708384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0700589277588582,0.09898563647897382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11785709444739408,0.0,0.15192134780406005,0.10704932224202317,0.0,0.2895626826116575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15263690904622876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15229535805090907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09786738919837734,0.20307685540498954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924883293753319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13990376155743636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27151422167757344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187780543914884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15385190986636946,0.15004446843024755,0.0,0.09605845140981342,0.0,0.0,0.15209472793280418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13872041234841118,0.0,0.220825068585434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12110552219083386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276154703685374,0.1775643372099338,0.0,0.0,0.08079409925653347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08172491138759405,0.10998063950127576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15469470498101762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814241058396899,0.0,0.09842740264737354,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fuckthatshitdude69,2018/11/12,Everyday I can’t stop thinking about death. I have factual proof that there would be no cons to my death. I am addicted to drugs hardcore and I can’t physically or mentally stop (I hope that makes sense). I’m failing college and I am too paranoid to do work so I just sit there and I can’t tell anyone anything. I’m so tired of suffering mentally with this disease and I would be better off dead. 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schizophrenia,jahprojectillogic,2019/10/17,"I formed my own religion I formed my own religion for it has already been written there actually is something to what this is that I see the syncricity paranormal realizations seen in nature and the statue Read about the time the 4 of us saw a stone statue of Jesus basically come alive in a full lighting storm jahisprojectillogic.home.blog 100 followers on wordpress but so far reddit is gay Aparently I can't make my 39 songs go viral here even though I bring you truth of there quality but I took music off for writing im gonna copy and paste this before I hit send Save me jebus I have the same view about church as the Simpson family Luthern But Jesus isn't there it's me and voices and the world around I think Jesus meant do drugs my son do druga Now let me add that statue is jesus That's a sign signs are all around us schizophrenic is my domain must keep control must keep control Leads you around doing glitch stunts while making you enjoy being dream fucked in the ass as a prank oh I love you cartoon dream world everything was falling and you initiated me in as one of you but I only astroproject there sometimes im here My life starts out with 5 alien based first memories The story of the rings The second memory is going to the front door there's a female dressed in a way to fuck with a child grabs me and she's holding 300 rings What's that I'm an alien We are ab positive blood we are compatable with more than ourselves with blood transfusions Our numbers are 3 percent I have blond hair and blue eyes Hitler says the 3 percent of me that's Indian fucked me up The Indians did not make good slaves There's my travels astroproject ING in a place I call the cartoon dreamworld Jahisprojectillogic.home.blog",3.6704262672811048,6.038794583333335,4.300192012288786,83.5372811059908,74.89285714285714,7.192626728110597,23.933947772657447,8.155646560271837,1.4388096390168976,1404,44,265,24,31,446,196,336,0.079,0.836,0.086,0.0877,2,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,5,6,0,4,17,8,3,0,24,0,25,13,5,6,4,44,50,17,0,2,5,1,2,0,0,3,3,5,1,1,11,19,0,5,2,5,0,11,3,3,0,3,8,15,39,5,34,36,10,36,5,0,7,6,19,18,4,0,6,169,50,2,0.0,0.0,0.12039262362912448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361433328266778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294799255079488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497991691366228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12597592384538578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10627347858468247,0.0,0.0,0.27674287891956284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14307157746377222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08148560132834695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11087819828797346,0.0,0.11630351216367885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493959208450776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3421644257218245,0.0,0.0,0.14022954228455628,0.1034780200764548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475030104175662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665244186520397,0.0,0.0,0.2193162171328099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261555457652119,0.0871408204063405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134744398466508,0.0,0.2470539665702625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835996075256657,0.09382945740911608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777189627417516,0.0,0.0,0.12889678382510494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234047181634133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09810983507153304,0.0,0.0,0.09831097876646014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949772788507216,0.1220174020722061,0.0,0.08732286386954684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07905136811209773,0.12121170742610785,0.0,0.07193881589029212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13707008941514054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29680104447901845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09792642098103553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chingwang,2019/10/17,"Need advice on how to manage brother-in-law with schizophrenia. My brother in law was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder 15 years ago or so. Up until 2 years ago, he diligently took his prescribed medication and was largely able to lead a good life, holding down a job and having a decent social life. About 2 years ago he decided to stop taking his meds entirely and things have not gone well. We do anything we can to support him, particularly financially so that he doesn't lose his apartment. Over the past few months, his mental state has deteriorated markedly, and he's beginning to do things that are really adversely affecting our life. It might also be important that aside from the psychosis of the schizo side of his disorder, he also becomes subject to intense manic phases. For example - last night, at around 1AM, I woke to the sound of music BLASTING outside my house. I looked out the window to see his car in my driveway, with all the lights on and the music as loud as it would go with all his windows open. He ran up to my door, and started violently wrenching the doorknob trying to get into my house. Once he found he couldn't get in, he opened his trunk, and just started dumping everything he had in his car out on my front lawn. After that, he got back in his car, and did a few laps on my street going ~60 MPH before finally leaving. This is obviously not great for us, since it woke my kid up and riled up my dog and scared my wife and I. But we could deal with that. What's a little more concerning is that it also woke up a bunch of my neighbors who were scared half to death (we live in an incredibly quiet suburb with many young families and kids). What I'm looking for, is any advice on how to best manage this type of behavior. He's extremely psychotic right now, and has been for a few months, and is at the point where he can no longer really hold a coherent conversation. We've been able to get him hospitalized a few times over the past 6 months, but unfortunately he's unwilling to adhere to a medication, thus inevitably slips back into psychosis shortly after being discharged from the hospital. And when he's psychotic, he shows up at family members' houses doing stuff like this. His mother has had to sell her house and move out of her neighborhood due to him terrorizing their neighborhood and multiple visits from the police every few months. I would really like to avoid a similar scenario. Does anyone have any - ANY - advice on anything I can do to mitigate some of this? I'm a little desperate, particularly because we have a 2nd kid on the way and the constant stress is not good for my wife nor will it be good for my kids. Sorry for the long post. I'm just really desperate for any help.",8.233179879394031,7.20333815487572,8.319244741873806,71.24541807618769,62.288718929254294,11.717281953228412,35.029342550375056,10.891193690592663,3.69758485071334,2177,78,400,48,26,712,263,523,0.083,0.8640000000000001,0.053,-0.9009,2,1,0,0,0,0,55.0,7,0,1,3,17,18,2,5,29,0,38,6,0,5,3,67,63,33,1,5,8,4,0,2,1,4,6,3,6,4,21,37,0,4,2,1,1,12,7,9,1,1,16,7,42,9,80,38,11,88,0,1,3,0,55,42,0,3,33,263,63,5,0.15167210980326304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22231834546907445,0.2016722609537291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18193819711806825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20628447144896225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05302633286332417,0.0,0.12481322306679442,0.06751016703976377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11662649027809875,0.0,0.04622895518322135,0.08375496450261542,0.06453089713191841,0.0,0.07958526090648398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08195183409658575,0.0,0.06054891900300281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07818364265358585,0.0,0.07697199938874115,0.0,0.0,0.17382937808989374,0.0,0.06636464269457339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06389514703685259,0.0,0.06815655620853796,0.0,0.1429829666504231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830746913076587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08315031989942684,0.0,0.0,0.11886362600509427,0.0,0.08619875528633643,0.19082305450270176,0.060653020860292575,0.08360951825384116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05083130904513365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35001850165139536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07525558279463357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061816506448245365,0.0,0.08029943227892337,0.0,0.0,0.16069574494683314,0.07409933159568445,0.15201529971580532,0.06696462585907376,0.06711252216646768,0.12736637263777115,0.08484114732334115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07688585673077214,0.0,0.0,0.08423676098091831,0.1527936939115486,0.07642490651037273,0.08045006997824941,0.0,0.0,0.24212646201726254,0.08060172474401191,0.0,0.05623147379439725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07116700024993383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076292344915226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14478819086416508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07168958426122803,0.0,0.07262997757397549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19433007465261026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0647635765248291,0.0,0.0,0.15185024132655214,0.0,0.06043151722947328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06273236828279755,0.0,0.0,0.07730530771262449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08489225467311458,0.10735429997081453,0.0,0.0,0.06340233761151758,0.08686994466653518,0.0,0.08681413924519629,0.0,0.08605785640446198,0.0,0.0,0.05701927537254541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10076421027537608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04422061347053995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842566473660464,0.05148770326882456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122143659950303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060195130503115674,0.0,0.0,0.06818572090062709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10774351511881572,0.0,0.0,0.14650779892177165 schizophrenia,LucifersTulip,2019/10/17,"hey. my boyfriend of 8 years died on tuesday, and i found out some pretty hurtful stuff afterwards. i think he was diagnosed with schizophrenia some time ago, but was hiding it from me. he would tell me his psychiatrist didn’t think he has, and he was just having bipolar swings. and i believed him. he has never been one to have a cheating tendency? i don’t think? i mean we lived together so long, i would think i could see it. I think about 2 months ago he got in another relationship that he obviously hid very well. But the things he told her about his life were not true? and we’re based off of things that fell through in real life. So i think he was just having an episode? or it was more than me, it was something about him. anyways.. I am trying real hard to understand, but i wanted to know if anyone could help me. Would it make sense for him to just have a “bf with me” and “bf without me” type switch? like, is there anyway that he really was just being someone else when he was talking to this other person? like, when he tell me his lies about where he was or whatever, do you think there’s anyway he was still genuine? or am i just making excuses? does anyone have any stories they are willing to share? I just... i can’t stop thinking about it. second guessing everything he said, its just tough",2.1179893079893084,4.4079164285714265,2.9652702702702736,91.5456600831601,79.69498069498071,5.992337392337393,21.93065043065043,7.1686216300943375,0.6375962577962575,1021,31,212,13,26,322,148,259,0.10400000000000001,0.828,0.068,-0.821,0,0,1,0,0,0,35.0,1,1,1,0,24,8,1,0,4,0,34,4,0,2,3,54,54,16,1,7,16,0,1,2,2,4,4,1,0,1,15,9,0,1,12,0,0,1,6,3,1,2,17,3,32,5,25,30,3,20,0,1,1,0,38,6,0,7,15,148,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910725570243613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0732908827813745,0.11301177295182235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15071795637990426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214258282654514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720995746899335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938963548778816,0.11185371994332527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09431486944976726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09003241285320722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686146779299412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11817002620074515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08619773288767013,0.0,0.11872661612018405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09654547719140257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07223949503678365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11537566096405473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05923047258091412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522497280722743,0.1053071108651272,0.0,0.0951675423721898,0.09537772689752744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14388166592152934,0.0,0.0,0.11739886989509063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08602519628030579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08312293622597236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07303131559572365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09410521305633014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964620060030404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24534371595347795,0.06904360091779396,0.0,0.0,0.11571031159462727,0.0,0.0,0.10251896682823293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08588294047449435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131764077562146,0.08297067212953838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08606947384541046,0.09010495576930626,0.0,0.0,0.12337690488272793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662568360162758,0.18840068150005312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14320220755303026,0.5524643556342926,0.0,0.0,0.06284462956663563,0.0,0.0,0.10298389388409863,0.0,0.07317233717984925,0.0,0.0,0.11219786218909274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08892588902668294,0.0635686495645181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09690291552804164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10389151914411818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296813894393435,0.0,0.0,0.06940374355801122 schizophrenia,CanadianSchizo,2019/10/17,"Making some changes to medication and looking for some kind words Hey all, I've been on paliperidone (Invega) for five and a half years and at a really high dose (12mg extended release pill each day) for the last couple years. While it was great in relieving my symptoms, it has brought with it a lot of problematic side effects. For that reason, and knowing that I've been stable for some time, my doctor and I have lowered my dose to 9mg each day. Let me say: wow! What a difference! I only just started taking the lower dose last Friday, and it took a couple days to lower my blood levels, but this week I have had way more energy (no need for energy drinks or naps) and have had a much easier time staying motivated at work. I haven't asked them whether they agree with this yet, but I think I've been more emotionally available for my wife and daughter, too, which I think is a huge win. Not all of the side effects have been relieved, though. For one, I still regularly feel like I'm dying from choking on mucus and not being able to breathe, thanks to my nasopharyngitis. I also haven't noticed any change in my appetite or metabolism and haven't had blood work yet to confirm any change to my prolactin levels. But I still think this was the right choice. Part of me wants to take the win I've been given and run with it, but part of me also wants to see if my doctor will support me in reducing my medication even further or in going off it entirely. I really feel like I could thrive without it or, at least, without so much of it. Anyways, really just wanted to share! Thanks for reading!",7.252500000000001,6.248419178343951,7.396234076433121,76.9895103503185,64.22292993630572,10.397770700636944,32.68232484076433,9.516144504307137,2.749643949044585,1258,41,248,20,16,408,163,314,0.031,0.773,0.196,0.9955,3,0,1,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,2,7,13,13,0,0,12,0,23,13,3,5,2,55,48,26,1,6,16,2,2,2,0,1,9,1,0,0,15,16,1,0,10,3,0,4,8,0,0,3,13,5,27,13,40,31,15,40,0,0,2,0,8,18,0,9,18,173,42,6,0.099407622099879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15899247895657714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13520118372105974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929327076208015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154802496041005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07936889737492388,0.2199852861806509,0.0,0.1923290774010951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031694173001874,0.1038598072605366,0.0,0.2034958269616836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973816247808934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118201949622214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06565779686135739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10052696119708572,0.14203365018147127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056495642488911514,0.0,0.0,0.10959725430485134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10502961060570162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10351774115999283,0.054631829372182535,0.1620609595399643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016510286695824,0.0,0.09713108577011373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347736611451513,0.0,0.0,0.08451280545911043,0.0,0.0,0.06635535966450537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002854421067338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14615208046201322,0.0737094921976543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317623662999525,0.0,0.0,0.06736117742435901,0.07560397608596876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21529753506422603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943452321419864,0.0,0.1910492045844709,0.1022075918347568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848935661192774,0.0,0.0790529310236198,0.0,0.0,0.07921500446538346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07036122657051737,0.10595529855348282,0.15877411083804735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128065915253242,0.0,0.1033225818604704,0.1494843207757894,0.0,0.0,0.1830423651886673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910891710132437,0.09766748399306588,0.0,0.11593076772272032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104455258337352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17589957323156075,0.07890514337894293,0.0797387982731924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916508006700325,0.0,0.14473986565555402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12803049885081516 schizophrenia,KitsiCode,2019/10/17,"What did someone do for you that made you feel safe? A childhood friend of mine was diagnosed about 6 months ago with schizophrenia. I have bipolar disorder and while it is by no means as severe as schizophrenia, I know the importance of having “safe” people in your life. I have the cursory knowledge I derived from Google, but I wanted to hear from the horses mouth things that people have done for you that made you feel supported and loved. Thanks in advance!",7.572352941176473,8.05341329411765,6.171764705882352,81.09294117647059,63.11764705882353,9.15294117647059,32.294117647058826,8.841846274778883,2.550223529411765,370,13,66,5,5,109,61,85,0.055999999999999994,0.728,0.21600000000000005,0.9427,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,5,0,1,1,6,0,0,4,0,9,5,1,2,0,14,20,6,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,6,3,0,2,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,3,11,6,14,15,0,7,0,0,0,1,8,2,0,0,4,49,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19376754247001093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22186504614010635,0.0,0.0,0.2505239781783653,0.0,0.0,0.2236942668250059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22105213829095707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688826987592951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463677021277725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201317791531707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543971364057828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972867184078599,0.4136717733820117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23810944766315065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17447707963221462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30308665525319084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24694536839690784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18521126333171373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24805423314348005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012490268330231,0.0,0.0,0.14522200501191448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128930508871387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AtlasEscapesV2K,2019/10/17,"Schizophrenia cured for myself Hey guys. Ive been struggling with schizophrenia for 2 and a half years. When my symptoms started I heard a male and a female voice exploring and causing insecurities. I was obviously not schizophrenic, this would never happen to me, it doesn't make sense. I am a logical person (Snr Software Engineer) and I can figure this out and then fix it. Why would my mind attach a voice to a combination of natural sounds, it interpreted it that way. After three days of no sleep I started drawing sentences on papers and boxes, because I wasn't sure how to communicate with these voices and outward blurting it out would freak everyone out and I didn't need that kind of attention. I was so drained at the time, because I had to go into work as well and every step was a spur to a myriad of dialogs. Anyways, I then decided to end my life (not going into it). I got submitted to a hospital and went into a coma. After waking up I had to explain the situation to my family and they got me to talk to a docter. All my privileges were revoked and I was considered unfit to make decisions, they submitted me into a mental facility for a month. Medication was provided which caused some horrific moments and panic attacks. I then settled on a combination of Olexar and Serdep on a high dose. Taking any more would cause damage to my organs, yep I tried a larger dose at times when I thought I couldn't sleep and it got rough. My delusions started with Voice To Skull, it doesn't help that there is material on this on the web, because you will end up loosing yourself even more. All sorts of delusions started, but I managed with the medication (could still hear the voices and be influenced by them some times, but I wasn't so responsive to them). So after coping for over 2 years I get a call where I was informed my dad was really ill and I needed to take care of it. I wanted some time off from work to attend to the matter and it was revoked due to prior absence. I then quit my job. I was situated in the middle of a city and my dad is on a farm far away from the city in the country side. Ive been here for 4 months now and my medication ran out the first month and it's not available here so I thought I would try without it. I had the voices for about two weeks after that and they started to dissipate. Ive been doing farm work here and looking after my dad, we have many guests and my uncles are also here. Ive also been exploring more involved concepts in Buddhism as a method of thought and trigger control. We are not our thoughts. I haven't heard anything in a month and a half now. The silence is bliss. Ive saved up some money for all of this so it's ok, but I am afraid of relapsing if my environment changes again. &#x200B; Hope you guys get to hear silence again soon. Cheers.",4.198959027899633,5.5473794442446085,5.361370415862432,80.7778040007019,71.10431654676259,8.158203193542727,29.208457624144586,8.628873520835908,2.233042603965608,2225,87,427,38,41,738,258,556,0.055999999999999994,0.8809999999999999,0.063,0.7892,1,0,1,0,0,1,55.0,3,2,5,6,26,16,1,4,34,2,47,14,4,9,6,97,81,46,0,12,9,3,1,0,1,6,10,11,0,4,23,40,0,1,14,0,1,8,14,7,1,5,31,13,63,9,81,41,10,82,0,1,1,0,29,32,0,7,41,323,86,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263827019332495,0.0,0.08561689796649194,0.09601655965025972,0.05373553206849458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06502578602808,0.0,0.0,0.08989535676185473,0.07424081679090222,0.0,0.0,0.14450748442432912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068708728892765,0.0,0.08056499049715632,0.24352239700714498,0.08359147261389542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08862636663565056,0.06309012706472251,0.0,0.0,0.050960625353266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399745055782535,0.0,0.0,0.05219120945078834,0.0,0.0665767946274027,0.07550590363135537,0.0,0.0,0.07449194537741298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721339894263674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825681822402494,0.0,0.08981647423905595,0.0,0.18959579407579602,0.0,0.0,0.15648218245525214,0.06987611380854003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17811998830405013,0.0,0.05296467384272572,0.08348776029192502,0.0,0.07848355399970028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841402223229972,0.0,0.0,0.08228597925943239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055813355186699824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06635593802336316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10549140056421308,0.08011271795593744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388095540505815,0.07963242188369757,0.0,0.07978651928614054,0.0,0.2522883893871537,0.0,0.0,0.11718296164954482,0.06094421346406929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09271160249836907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06899621756617773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08404628047421402,0.0,0.0,0.050621502845171217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17764101085474154,0.15815184587696615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796497665700328,0.0,0.06310456084605742,0.0,0.0,0.08260766561072794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447433706885116,0.08213084764727742,0.11882469208786005,0.06351236364577496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509285821663196,0.1843061226310572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10729723321203384,0.0,0.07718994087774493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04660736885124738,0.0627214902371879,0.06338416031256866,0.0,0.0710474417455236,0.07325127159943869,0.07130222736309824,0.0,0.0,0.07617135783814179,0.0,0.17258000585046918,0.0,0.0,0.2806636423562254,0.0,0.09601655965025972,0.10177110565743808 schizophrenia,TheriusTale,2019/10/17,"Confession to family (Dark thoughts and voices + counter thoughts and voices) Hello all. So, I am recently new to posting on this subreddit, this is my second post because I've been worried if people were able to understand what I'm talking about or not. First of all, English is not my primary language, so I'd like to apologise incase of confusions. Ever since I was a victim of a month of high pressure stress (My wife and I were falsely accused of abusing our child + I was a victim of a robbery) I have had this even worse voice in my mind. Before this, yes, I had bad thoughts of taking my life, harming myself and more but since September 2018, I have had this vile creation roaming my mind. Some weeks can go without and then suddenly it is back, as if it had breached out of its hull to torment me till I give up or it is fought back. I'm bombarded with images of harm and worse, and sometimes it is of my family as victims. I am mostly always on my own when it happens and lasts a few hours to a day or so. These images are so realistic as if they were branded to my cornea. It causes me paranoia, nightmares and break downs. I sit and stare, sometimes hitting myself to try and drown it out... ... after some time has passed, it is as if other voices in my mind tries to drown it out. To chase it back to its hull where it belongs. This internal battle rages on for a while before leaving me with a mind numbing feeling, headache and to the point of dozing of to sleep. I am the captain of my ship, and this vile creation has made it harder for me to introduce my family to my crew. This ship has multiple members, we know but we know that I am at the helm, not the navigators. I don't know how to tell my family that I have someone onboard who roars at me to do harm upon others than myself, spouts vile of accid till it escapes from the brig - and then to tell them that some of my crew helps fighting it back - voices in my mind fighting a voice in my mind. I may come out as rambling to you all but I don't know how to explain it. I can tell you a little more. I was on medication from about 2010, and until I moved together with my wife in 2015. When she moved in, some of my medicine felt redundant. I had no problem sleeping, I had no problem keeping my voices lower. Then we had a daughter in 2016, and the last medication was taken away. I had moments of serene thoughts, coordinated thoughts between all voices, of course bad moments but it was so easily handled. Then after the events in September 2018, it was as if someone opened the floodgates. This was not the perfect storm, this was a hurricane of voices demanding vengeance towards the thief, claiming that I was not capable of running this 'ship', or worse. It took me about 8 months to calm it all down to the point where I were considered stable again. ... But something was stirring under the deck. This vile creation has been manifesting itself through the turmoil and now believes it is time to break open the bulkheads. I have already rescheduled myself to go back into treatment but I am not sure how to share this with my family without scaring them. Don't want to lose the lights in my life, the light that makes sure that I do not strike hard against the cliffs..",5.335529827315541,5.814533351648352,5.718081240188383,82.4309366169545,67.91679748822605,8.379419152276299,31.93755886970173,8.238735603445708,2.2800932810047096,2543,102,498,32,40,815,274,637,0.2,0.736,0.064,-0.9986,1,0,1,0,4,0,77.0,4,2,3,3,24,33,12,5,29,1,53,8,3,6,9,102,82,56,2,8,24,3,3,1,0,1,5,9,0,1,47,32,0,1,14,0,0,8,14,27,0,2,34,15,69,6,101,46,14,84,1,1,1,0,29,35,0,16,37,382,116,0,0.07035658371119997,0.0833610469040649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07764023965259285,0.0,0.05854231379612765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06610232639378323,0.2704993501058946,0.11748961720477415,0.04288872040414712,0.0,0.11973654146196827,0.07926777686187546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227559208434159,0.0,0.06060596706952814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04537417603877573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04646985999250331,0.06364155795721467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316296277366013,0.0,0.035574402703190316,0.0,0.06755335374843703,0.0,0.0,0.05984527416306925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06749244605715557,0.07997053578236568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06221609461962822,0.0,0.06302567956383323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04715853500848292,0.07433559353537518,0.0,0.0,0.06928706270099043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06253616429226566,0.0,0.0,0.15466455369621532,0.1147000121855321,0.0,0.07449746346143807,0.0,0.0,0.09938987153318872,0.034372672952978064,0.07051578021635797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07871102065569716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06657310065856342,0.046963565955052036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417537124020419,0.0,0.0,0.4262405588449277,0.0,0.11231590775463536,0.1495558280708289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06795082696789986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04877639642530028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330194257293229,0.0,0.1347643176785571,0.0,0.0,0.13464349749487947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06946863853330745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07043921410017624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11639938618155934,0.0,0.14081478878906434,0.0,0.11922581012551188,0.05416393545256437,0.13916892060712802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059322893109651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13262049502367826,0.0,0.05289939496594447,0.0565499569270384,0.18448426576663413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27927634280015,0.08205097950931854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07816875325758496,0.09553500402491392,0.0,0.0,0.07324368490155007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041498135949093455,0.0,0.05643580760941649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356424720341043,0.0,0.0,0.0714505259485686,0.2150981085984523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fuckoffcoreytaylor,2019/10/17,Cant wash my clothes because I'm afraid the washer does something with my time Hello this is my first post here and I guess I just want to vent but I have a lot of laundry that I need to do but i just can't bring myself to do it because whenever I use it the time is off... where does my time go when I wash my clothes... I feel so pathetic. My dad is going to do my laundry... I'm 20 :(,-0.7883908045977002,0.8731152183908044,1.7432183908046002,99.78195402298851,86.47126436781609,4.7862068965517235,20.011494252873558,5.82211442006289,-0.32873333333333354,292,9,76,2,9,100,52,87,0.125,0.861,0.013999999999999999,-0.9064,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,1,3,0,9,2,0,1,0,12,19,5,0,2,4,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,1,16,0,7,19,1,11,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,5,50,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31509811743682725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4523436425190393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13068036554934093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198379089954212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937668113898926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847124229354286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197254185241811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916378107950805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475241881666504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19896786303308048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4521137888984559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232182969558451,0.0,0.0,0.15244083282830334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,alphabetaneutral,2019/10/17,"Am I having early signs of schizophrenia? Hi I’m a 17 year old female. I’m a school going teenager and I manage a good social circle. Before I address anything I’d like to put a little bit of back story. Throughout age 13-17 I’ve been through bouts of depression and crippling anxiety. The amount of stress has caused me to go through violent panic attacks especially between ages 15-17 they would occur like thrice a day. Now I’m a lot more mentally stable and have a good control over my emotions and mental health. All thanks to my efforts and the good genuine people who came in my life since the last two years. Anyways recently like since a few weeks ago I’ve been really confused as to what was happening with me. I would come to sleep after school in the evening and wake up a few hours later with panic because I have started having vivid nightmares. Yesterday I woke up from one and I was out of breath. I’ve also been having a strong feeling as if someone is after keeping an eye on me or trying to kill me. Idky.... I always try to justify this feeling and think logically but I come up with no reason that this could happen. I’ve been waking up during half sleep state In full panic due to terror of god knows what. Last night I even began to see things from the corner of my eye and this has happened before too but very rarely. My friends have been saying that I look like I do drugs (idk if they joke or not). They also point out that I’m a completely different person at day and night. They say that in school I look terrified and tensed and at night usually when we call they say I seem to be my best confident self. I haven’t noticed these things and only they have. Every night I feel terrified for my life and look around with extreme paranoia as if someone will come right now and kill me or as if a ghost will possess me. I’ve also been feeling like there’s paranomal activity in my room at night when I’m shitless and trying to sleep. Others in my house haven’t suspected a thing. I’ve not known of anyone in my entire family that has schizophrenia so there’s no reason for me to have a genetic predisposition. They say it can also be caused by drugs but all I do is smoke cigarettes. Please tell me what’s going on I’m still very confused and I feel like someone is after me or trying to give me a warning. Idk what this is. I’m very scared",3.2454002370178827,4.9609111407563065,4.291848739495799,86.03082848524026,74.14705882352942,6.81482439129498,24.600086188321484,7.5161900641278425,1.1664957552251676,1877,59,370,23,39,610,229,476,0.154,0.748,0.098,-0.9862,1,0,4,0,0,2,34.0,1,0,7,4,18,27,4,8,21,0,36,13,8,5,2,68,71,39,3,7,13,0,5,6,1,4,5,4,2,2,20,29,0,2,13,1,0,8,6,13,0,3,11,16,46,14,60,53,10,69,0,1,7,0,21,26,0,12,40,243,66,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05825131112969548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102051809521202,0.054679138663946907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05027087055175426,0.0,0.0,0.04594861086617639,0.0,0.05407685114140747,0.05849920647569766,0.0,0.07475892446444715,0.0,0.05052984931362954,0.0,0.04005851730193708,0.0,0.11183519285794706,0.0,0.0689625698518634,0.0,0.07174244048220756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06710112825814811,0.07515907100380079,0.0,0.13501233092225284,0.0,0.16981983777398268,0.06889966002201328,0.0,0.07370360480825683,0.05246711525022097,0.0,0.0,0.08475991816881913,0.0,0.056599192238430636,0.0,0.0,0.06865692554179237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15241427054386775,0.0,0.0,0.07391917048653186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08680667891170232,0.0,0.05536670346412137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06194911415094138,0.0,0.1661343370428499,0.09389189140777036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050770312222816624,0.0,0.0,0.06303865661306117,0.11203998607661812,0.1653528313609683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17433146612634826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06985068733904204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06471484749028894,0.0758248923690226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05840943715952581,0.14540514774401958,0.0,0.03611458118739497,0.10713102138207524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283118850206036,0.19262663486703915,0.06586248261170853,0.0,0.0,0.16554910299531006,0.0,0.0,0.055867515497872985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324480913579392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083397082564435,0.0,0.0,0.07481558705297482,0.06895556982106943,0.0,0.044529365736546714,0.0499782995338768,0.0,0.23130292612936584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04555766881634688,0.057378747948316385,0.0,0.07213400947214514,0.06212077344415912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06606051062444025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04209793746638524,0.1351294443441768,0.06488444123316456,0.0,0.0,0.05611921879854203,0.0,0.2090329779077648,0.06579096905147856,0.1995175955553838,0.052365383749745316,0.059823367649959276,0.06855381607190784,0.0,0.0,0.10871825462151076,0.0,0.1972837473321975,0.06698693479582875,0.16703724660278507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046512559777460126,0.0,0.05247911869519769,0.0,0.0752749260209482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05743675013312888,0.060500430191569435,0.0,0.0,0.13097196912846953,0.04210674412026738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17846140316662806,0.0,0.06419282560701874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07237445724870888,0.16266228002122682,0.0,0.0,0.05271163966346735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09336238397455918,0.0,0.0,0.08463505429610922 schizophrenia,throwaway933291,2019/10/17,"Caught the FBI today I caught the FBI remote viewing my phone. They closed out of a Facebook Messenger bubble. Then immediately after I mentioned it to a friend, they did it again. I am being targeted and it's driving me to suicidal ideation.",4.500333333333334,6.9179065333333325,5.579722222222222,75.09625000000003,72.55555555555556,8.055555555555555,31.25,8.841846274778883,2.994666666666667,194,9,32,4,4,64,35,45,0.10099999999999999,0.828,0.07200000000000001,-0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,7,1,5,1,0,9,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,4,25,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4708973607543532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6666929028399372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5777337180201988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tangerine_flower,2019/10/17,"How often do you experience minor/moderate physical illness like common colds, moderate body aches, and this kind of less severe sickness that just make you feel unwell? Before I explain myself a little more, I just want to say Hello to everyone. I'm quite new here, decided to do my first post today. So, back to the topic... My boyfriend was diagnosed with Schizophrenia more than 5 years ago. Couple of years later, he got diagnosed with Bipolar II as well overlapped with it. I think I don't need to get too much in detail about the roller-coaster that it was (still kinda is after all) for most of his life since the first diagnose. We have been in a serious relationship for more than a year, and I do wish it can last for many many years. The time we have been together however, has been enough to notice some ""patterns"" on his general health that lead to my wonder. My partner is fit, active for the most part, bellow the 25 year old mark, and has a decent diet overall (except when he gets very depressive, then it's reduced to cigarettes and water), however, he experiences general physical illness very often, in winter, it's almost as if colds don't really take a break. It get's very accentuated when he's not mentally well, the anxiety triggers lots of issues leading to no eating or trowing up, also shaking, chest pains, major sleep deprivation and fainting on more extreme scenarios... of course this, and the smoking habit, surely don't contribute to a healthy body, but, even when he's doing good on a mental level and stable, he still gets lots of strong headaches, colds with some fever, and random body pains. He doesn't really complain much about this things, obviously they are minor comparing to other bigger things, and truth is he does have other health conditions (not mental) that are properly diagnosed and checked and do cause some of this daily symptoms. Even so, I was wondering if other people that suffer with chronic mental health illness, specially related to schizophrenia, also face this kind of general indisposition, and if so, how often? Did you ever faced any difficulty in getting some treatment/medical attention for it on your health system, like, not being taken that seriously? Because it has happened with him, it wasn't indeed anything that serious but at least it deserved some kind of examination from the doctor, which didn't happen at all.",12.108164323734135,9.075418271461716,11.217368636549747,59.795964241845255,56.540603248259856,14.224703152722805,42.986351849324414,12.319762396917735,5.342782066330011,1909,76,301,44,17,618,234,431,0.08800000000000001,0.836,0.076,-0.2781,2,0,1,0,0,0,69.0,2,4,1,6,27,22,0,1,16,0,31,31,7,7,6,74,51,31,0,6,12,0,1,2,1,0,21,1,0,1,28,20,3,0,8,0,1,3,10,10,2,2,11,5,21,12,52,39,22,47,0,3,0,0,24,16,0,21,27,219,49,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06676331213352019,0.0,0.0754183459039649,0.0,0.0,0.12046075732735925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0512176333417706,0.0,0.0576167258175173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06197885716105715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057913547976190013,0.0,0.04591208751131205,0.0,0.0640885822437846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250978127874438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07737053652893125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08333599912431844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06486977657045592,0.3057776372276028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07708937425730852,0.06590975874263509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07706732743168718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778218205213419,0.0,0.09949134683943284,0.06812786090967972,0.0,0.07196790537777524,0.0,0.14734749094462746,0.0,0.0,0.03808215947411661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128127929144168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19674816275602874,0.0,0.0,0.06317169793102398,0.06023728614515364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320382393652552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32023061119941315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07861059820240507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23529085612325,0.0,0.06139279684013959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053198095403291464,0.07359143167452678,0.0754866697284077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12806236642482488,0.0,0.0,0.05027418234103182,0.15271771419513325,0.0,0.0,0.08365937595814603,0.0,0.3036042654947643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11073222087587906,0.05584604574138068,0.0,0.0727409044806703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08574805088505519,0.07903173580177009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16028360237597156,0.0,0.0,0.08156016025020117,0.0,0.0522148051996509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07213214906339208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08010810373257188,0.0,0.0,0.09649903786673393,0.0,0.0,0.08086146718677174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05989450571843415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0850859256408309,0.0,0.06230238107213393,0.0,0.0753706434331543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029531057725583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07098467517734426,0.07828242280145578,0.0566284474818945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10007354096227583,0.048259612463805716,0.0,0.0,0.043917511598882325,0.0,0.07139099939064708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864313843379065,0.044423476179692084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13543670942179167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08660997160776053,0.0,0.16335452273103282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24250598131721865 schizophrenia,GurneyHalleck7,2019/10/17,"MRI and EEG Clean but diagnosed with schizophrenia Hello,its been 6 years that i first ended up in psychiatric hospital(drug abuse),since then I been on many different medications with a diagnosis of paranoid psychosis(drug induced).Recently the doctors changed my diagnosis to paranoid schizophrenia altho i brought them my MRI head scan which was clean and also I brought them results of an EEG which I did in private clinic,which was also clean.However they did EEG of their own and found nothing there. Anyways,I dont have hallucinations,I have paranoia here and there which sometimes turns into a fight with family members but all considered im [fine](https://fine.My). My MRI head scans dont even show psychosis not to mention schizophrenia. I been put on 80 mg Zeldox(USA:Geodon) and 100 mg quetipine 2x daily. My question:is it possible to diagnose schizophrenia with clean EEG and MRI? Thanks for your answers in advance.",7.376328011611029,10.106939559748431,6.0265408805031475,73.63963715529758,65.35220125786164,8.665892597968071,37.388001935171744,9.265573868473778,3.9343871311078864,766,40,113,15,13,227,100,159,0.07,0.847,0.083,0.4404,2,0,2,0,2,0,29.0,0,1,4,2,6,2,1,0,4,0,11,10,2,1,1,18,16,12,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,3,0,5,11,0,0,2,1,0,4,3,1,0,1,10,2,15,1,18,6,2,15,0,0,2,0,7,7,0,0,4,72,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502928596275853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16554756624892586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3176717502442621,0.0,0.16350061543923225,0.0,0.16017598060858793,0.0,0.0,0.3668144303188495,0.0,0.3629615925705119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13860527880881354,0.0,0.0,0.10336135294654082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14752653442701394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13311183864012932,0.0,0.17158517295631615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212114536953296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16903798987847474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15865811509806374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15764901703419795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15015809537931288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176420982565449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15731747464793264,0.17530662227576613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294516277842647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547743841318122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440766170724992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17021813234156924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10077558349684176 schizophrenia,xxMoonlightxxX,2019/10/17,I'm worried For the past few months I've been seeing things that aren't really there and hearing things that nobody else can. I'm just constantly hallucinating. I'm worried it might be schizophrenia or something similar. I know I should get help but I dont know how to go about talking to my parents about it. I'm also worried that it will end up being nothing and I'm just paranoid or something. 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(Please reply ASAP) Hey. So, a few months ago I started being paranoid that I was abused by someone close. It doesn't make a lot of sense, but the more opinions I read the more peaceful I can feel, I guess. So, one day I was already feeling like some shit was about to happen. The next day was when it all started. It all started the moment I woke up, saw the face of the person I'm suspecting (the person was closing my window) and (I'm not sure) but I remember interpreting the person's face as a perverse expression. This was the moment it all started. I realized my glasses were in a different position from the one I had placed before I went to sleep. I suspected that I might have been abused while I was sleeping (I have a very heavy sleep, and when I ""wake up"" while I'm sleeping and somebody talks to me it's like it is my subconscious talking, and I can't remember a thing the next day). The night that I'm paranoid about I was alone in the house with the ""suspect"". After a few days the suspect realized that I was acting weird and started to try to talk to me to know what was wrong, but I didn't say a word. During this time, the suspect started to take some ""weird actions"" (most people would interpret this actions as normal but, since I'm ""paranoid"" about this person, I find it really weird) to try and restablish a normal mood. After I got paranoid, I started locking my door to sleep, but sometimes I'm so tired I sleep in the couch and I end up going to my room during the night, but I don't remember it the other day. I talked to my psychologist about it, and he said that it is propably the fear of not being in control of myself when I'm asleep that manifested this ""paranoia"". My family is very religious, and my uncle told me that he had a feeling that he should talk to me about it, and he told me that it was just a thought my mind took too serious (I didn't tell him what I was paranoid about, but he got very close to it although I didn't say anything AT ALL). I also talked to a friend of mine and he said that it didn't make any sense and that I was just overthinking it. My brother told the same and told me that the person I was suspecting would never do such a thing, because this person was always a correct and respected person. A few days ago I ended up sleeping in the couch (I was really tired) and when I woke up in my room the person I'm suspecting was there just looking at me. I questioned what the suspect was doing there and the suspect told me that he/she was just checking/looking at me (probably to make sure everything was OK). My brother told me that it is a normal behavior of this person to check on people if they are ok while they are sleeping and that he was 100% sure nothing EVER happened. The ""suspect"" never hinted any psychopathic behavior, but then I think that it is the kind of cover nobody would suspect. I want your opinions on this, and please, don't joke about it, it is a really messed up situation and I'm feeling really bad about it. Would I wake up if somebody took my clothes off while I was asleep? Would I wake up if somebody touched me while I was asleep? Please, give me your opinions on this. Thanks for reading and replying, you don't know how much you might be helping.",4.564035025524674,5.187619503048783,5.307633295519004,84.1817512762337,69.67073170731706,8.114520703346571,29.585082246171304,8.133680483312611,1.9205891661939871,2558,94,519,33,43,831,227,656,0.125,0.802,0.073,-0.9841,1,1,1,0,2,0,85.0,0,4,2,1,27,22,1,1,45,2,60,19,17,5,11,108,112,49,0,13,17,2,5,2,1,8,2,4,6,9,51,24,0,1,28,3,1,7,13,9,0,2,48,11,77,12,62,53,15,74,0,0,2,0,48,27,1,14,42,372,128,2,0.0,0.11861607036243407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08874303870145524,0.0,0.0,0.05184279787107465,0.05523791070058602,0.04002967089218616,0.04165050386430885,0.0,0.0,0.06807943273928223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04119172599402952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04179457078212802,0.030513601173145825,0.0,0.04259386894262593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056141928199463086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19369141790578134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05229774302343728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866930847155527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04527841118235643,0.0,0.0,0.044986999278695435,0.0,0.047188230856964386,0.0563267838126463,0.10123903215849424,0.035759932228825675,0.0,0.0,0.04575016947093366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03867305040089949,0.0,0.0,0.04801816332550145,0.028447911379397776,0.0,0.0800685233374767,0.0,0.055142197567926925,0.0,0.08852850259391137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03355140269047385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05775776740077152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05212549848057586,0.055018807540042285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048909551222737435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08406866826507428,0.0,0.0,0.04255572101152645,0.0,0.0,0.1002380701301562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620276144847607,0.050542171670678905,0.0,0.03995412759264076,0.0,0.03679683290365277,0.0,0.07721236436417778,0.0,0.10646999713350076,0.09394810908916283,0.14713240998982915,0.04802996896335698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06783832243897987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06940489215625809,0.3933617901435033,0.05229774302343728,0.16483898139284284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05396870715712791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05607404386494371,0.0,0.10013885601904213,0.0,0.12826831950659298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17011067008614472,0.0,0.09522921326385064,0.07961289320616098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05138164373224709,0.041406742999957225,0.05626490882610093,0.4007362554910637,0.0,0.04241218653102207,0.03853546360892948,0.04950654739856122,0.0,0.24800867728722065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415312296941269,0.0,0.03763579386563995,0.24139813206411814,0.043751047324938695,0.046084731088637435,0.0,0.0,0.06650980781814797,0.032073788131030304,0.0,0.03973877915217319,0.029187987436100026,0.11506374608925715,0.0,0.28698324310647844,0.11122785378662653,0.06796931648744706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390403521605801,0.029524256211131493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04640230426642345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17779131262529535,0.054728249256427434,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,julsca,2019/03/19,Children of schizophrenia parents? I’m looking to hear/read voices of those people children or adults now. I have a relative that is in a poor situation. Just wondering what struggles others have gone through. ,4.5425,8.019143805555558,4.262444444444443,77.32700000000003,83.16666666666666,6.213333333333335,34.97777777777778,7.554174236665415,3.3641177777777784,171,10,24,3,5,52,31,36,0.162,0.838,0.0,-0.6808,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,5,6,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,1,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39306386836520135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29286013250733656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3872429156069417,0.0,0.0,0.2417776602509047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3488419556070608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3920068913752661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36458669137284494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3782018734561553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dcsross,2019/03/19,Woke up screaming. It's not the first time. What should I do? I've been going into a depressive mood for the last week or so. Last night I woke up my girlfriend by screaming at the top of my lungs. Is this a symptom of SZA or something else? Should I ask for therapy or something?,0.415960591133004,2.7284470000000027,1.8828078817733989,96.32155172413796,87.6206896551724,4.693596059113301,22.07881773399015,6.1826913282559595,0.26037142857142825,218,8,48,2,7,70,41,58,0.146,0.823,0.032,-0.7608,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,5,0,5,2,1,0,0,7,9,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,3,2,5,0,9,4,0,12,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,3,6,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26294290274067883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422513779344979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23495911475138545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23924213268529115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15984822360764767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4585337091032924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639462375448051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4330599404387577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923399122718812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216487105555602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16400669561006262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22561218343662645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tazman187,2019/03/19,"Hmm... So I went to school as usual, the conversations in my head going behind and to the sides. I was conversing with a teacher and she had an extra set of eyes. Have you guys had this happen to you? I saw a post about it in this sub recently. I broke into this really cold sweat and was having trouble looking her in the eyes due to the fact that she had for eyes. I dont even know what she said. I kept blinking and blinking my eyes to get rid of that extra set but to no avail. She had an estranged look. There were drops of sweat forming on my forehead. When the period was over and i made my way to the door, when i walked out i heard her voice yelling something like ""where did they say that"" but i walked quickly out of the door knowing that it was just in my head and that i shouldnt panic because of it. 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Was at work the other day and my boss started itching his face, A LOT. I thought hmmmm that was odd, maybe he's flushed since it was hot in there... on with the day. Then his itching started to correspond with conversation. Itching upwards when talking about something good, itching downward when talking about something bad. This is where I was thinking ummm hey... what the hell is going on here. But I didn't say anything because I'm kind of a pussy I guess. Then, as I walk by him to get something done he says what sounded like ""He wont pop, first left"" ???? as he wiped the snot off his nose onto his finger and halfway up his arm, pointing left. I kept walking, I heard what sounded like ""You missed your chance"" yelled from the office as I continued to do my job. I asked my buddy about it and he looked at me like I had two heads. Am I going insane?",1.8171843434343449,4.091279784090911,2.705151515151517,93.08328282828285,80.70454545454545,4.8202020202020215,24.550505050505052,5.82211442006289,0.4959239898989902,686,26,141,4,18,216,110,176,0.114,0.818,0.068,-0.8875,1,0,3,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,0,2,9,9,2,0,8,0,13,9,9,1,0,12,28,11,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,4,6,0,0,9,5,0,1,2,0,0,5,2,4,0,2,10,10,23,5,23,17,1,29,2,1,1,0,21,14,2,2,13,91,32,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298940336273902,0.0,0.14756495794076582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179504503897108,0.09622162318354578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20359557608274004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16153154073546322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426395951132244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246816298257452,0.0,0.2691230242122004,0.13239396515538787,0.0,0.0,0.1738854658873647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16199581515103945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15663807026189372,0.0,0.0,0.1643726036986598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34300087578446903,0.0,0.0,0.2313471481680929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325511150493701,0.0,0.0,0.1341952570016188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15857779760328253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14921574877972965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510513841734574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13057206848814068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3645533187847633,0.0,0.0,0.2234488094741588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537417108836422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011415184363409,0.0,0.12531230947331487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15419287314328387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11491396696932756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,its-complicated-16,2019/03/19,"What does the science say on schizophrenia and genetics? If one parent is schizoaffective and the other is not, can the child be tested in utero? Can genetics be manipulated to prevent the gene from passing on to the child? Where is science on this topic? 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I don’t really know how this works, as I’m new to reddit. Bear with me. This post itself will probably even be disorganized. I. Just. Can’t. Anymore. I grew up in the advanced classes but diagnosed with ADHD. I used to be the smartest in my class despite my physical disabilities and was used to thinks making sense easily when taught. Then came middle school with all the mental health issues. I failed my first class in 6th grade. 7th-10th grade brought ten short term psych hospital stays and plummeting grades. Somewhere in that I was diagnosed with schizophrenia. Here i am senior year finally somewhat in control and a new symptom starts taking over... I can’t communicate what I am thinking in a way that makes sense to others; I can’t make words. My mom keeps yelling at me because she’s trying to help me with my wheelchair or something and I’m unable to directly say exactly what I need her to do. I feel more helpless than I already am. The big problem? I can’t tell if this is because of the schizophrenia or ADHD. I’m in between psychiatrists and therapists too right now so no help there. It’s so frustrating though... it’s all there together making perfect sense in my head but once I open my mouth -gone-",3.0943532763532744,5.731585723076925,3.914017094017094,84.15246438746442,78.30769230769229,7.236467236467237,26.937321937321936,8.285830014693849,2.0892279202279203,1088,45,201,22,27,347,151,260,0.094,0.815,0.091,-0.2145,0,0,1,0,1,0,36.0,0,0,0,9,13,6,1,0,7,0,17,6,2,9,4,41,40,19,0,3,6,1,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,13,13,0,2,5,0,0,5,7,5,0,4,6,3,30,1,29,31,5,39,0,3,0,0,8,17,0,4,12,130,43,12,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739475895063593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12577240421099553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130309181987326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13895416868622765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303551271237051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278307813805972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313610624507749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07527830981405673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057628340360242086,0.0,0.0,0.12485221246910636,0.0,0.19389131321168016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11696951828604035,0.12114832057062737,0.0,0.0,0.15278784181051194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11895854572557747,0.0,0.1013047328082197,0.0,0.0,0.06263676172187081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275070034567797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043123322091031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148583102190231,0.0,0.0,0.13348418706572845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08450978033284412,0.0,0.22015230540553096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137787717750008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32746483612355354,0.0,0.12288252696782627,0.10905708474808017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07301423390130679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09733260141276928,0.0,0.0906361668800941,0.0,0.11534709509968445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08774223796681306,0.0,0.0,0.08067090986706227,0.1214804055608554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184619298832795,0.08569376029678033,0.0,0.1992354286762771,0.0,0.0,0.1323318210756555,0.0,0.1460590161441779,0.22395643686657327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07738040992844415,0.0,0.11133538281772533,0.0,0.0,0.19687272739909945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09046672464117513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284320325883052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297394193922764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07339508800829297 schizophrenia,Little_Match_Girl,2019/03/19,"I want to scratch my throat out I've been having the constant urge to scratch my throat out. My head voices keep telling me too and it's so hard to not. I can feel my blood writhing around in there and I need to kill it off. I already bit my nails down to the quick but it doesn't help, does anyone have any advice? 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My uncle is DX with schizophrenia, he is currently a ward of the state because he attempted murder (related to the voices, I don’t fault him in anyway because his mother died recently before that so he wasn’t on his medication) anyways, he is currently in a group home and has been there a while, the incident happened about 12 years ago now. He has recently been dealing with incontinence and they did a lot of testing on him and nothing physically is wrong with him, he said that there is an outside force causing him to urinate on himself. This is where I am absolutely pissed and am very concerned. The group home owner? (Not sure what the position is called) has been PUNISHING him for urinating on himself! When my grandparents went to see him he was in a straight chair for it! He also loves to go to church and took away this privilege due to the urinating. I suggested a brief until he can get proper counseling but they refuse. We have no say in his care they aren’t even supposed to tell us most of this stuff. He is not able to leave the group home and live with us as he would have to stand trial if he was ever “fit” enough to leave the group home. I’m just not sure what there is to do. 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I just discovered it, my roku was advertising it as they are showing it for free I guess. I was wondering if anyone found it to be a fairly accurate depiction of psychosis or if it was triggering, or what ever else. I would like to watch it with my boyfriend when I go back home to him later this week, and hope there will be some things I can point out and say ""this is kinda what life is like for me"". I'm constantly trying to find videos, movies, shows (really any visuals) that accurately portray schizophrenia so he can get a good idea of what it's like to live with. If you all have any other visual recommendations please share, or just spill your thoughts on this movie if you've seen it. Thanks & happy new year :)",4.899350649350649,6.216116467532469,4.88818181818182,84.95227272727273,69.38961038961038,8.457142857142857,25.688311688311693,8.841846274778883,1.6672285714285715,632,18,127,11,11,196,106,154,0.0,0.812,0.188,0.9812,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,2,1,0,8,9,0,0,3,0,14,1,0,1,2,27,25,12,0,6,9,0,0,3,0,2,1,2,1,0,18,5,0,0,5,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,7,5,13,10,15,14,2,12,0,0,3,0,7,3,0,12,11,81,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19839767385223867,0.0,0.2490397297452687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560670420397045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14079891431470634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978749294329928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15296341723813447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16563186311102754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16735759072016154,0.0,0.0,0.2007687059576784,0.0,0.0,0.09566648453605738,0.0,0.10406461800106462,0.15358248276830758,0.0,0.0,0.20171434201673288,0.0,0.0,0.19492209916294936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836724688222428,0.18186777282320055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20670688610294624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12933474701762476,0.2683722732778751,0.0,0.16168790805528815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17684705453305788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009978330987279,0.17309644845840105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730381092897195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14561500155436155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685814424989384,0.0,0.0,0.1216489613527879,0.0,0.0,0.1453674688854123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243184580710926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14687836471268342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19857304769500989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13007482191229244,0.0,0.0,0.11791568666566485 schizophrenia,snowpuffs,2018/12/31,"Painfully slow with critical thinking? I can't seem to think very far into the future in regards to conversation or making decisions. In conversation I have to think 3 times as long as others just to make sure I make sense. If I don't take the time the others get the wrong idea about me. Before I developed schizophrenia I still had depression yet my mind was always ticking. Just now I completely forgot something someone told me in conversation minutes prior. I was worried the other person was being abusive until I thought about it more and realised I had forgotten what they had said.",7.130396825396828,8.30528690740741,7.143809523809527,71.32500000000002,64.18518518518519,9.504761904761905,34.87301587301587,9.606745405546679,3.5682682539682538,478,21,75,9,7,153,76,108,0.18899999999999997,0.79,0.021,-0.9552,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,0,5,0,10,1,0,3,1,20,23,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,5,3,0,1,7,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,10,1,14,1,14,12,1,15,0,1,0,0,7,5,0,3,10,57,19,0,0.0,0.22171545527664008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15570504736095686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592316962744146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961995943794009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611726176273423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977663808362849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21124413890850455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16560192436151874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747271223376802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18894540290189255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991168239158148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633924909043202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780010778465113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035382269784405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15855249996515522,0.14405987034040316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14944024104177805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17636542800996413,0.0,0.14069657081239534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35971118497801924,0.0,0.14855831060564784,0.21823106778803827,0.0,0.0,0.17880831888321388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15439976216039722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19003703142876185,0.0,0.0,0.2045945151159743,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwaway2019-001,2018/12/31,"Pursuing a girl with schizophrenia I've been talking to a girl online for a few days now. I recently found out she has schizophrenia. I'm not sure if her lack of responsiveness is due to the illness or if she's simply not interested. I've messaged her and sometimes get no response which is fair enough. But I've messaged her other times and we seem to get on fine. She has apologised in the past for dealing with something in her head and that we could talk tomorrow. I like her a lot. Should I just slow things down? Any general guidelines? She seems fairly quiet (which I generally am too but I want her to know I'm interested). We've talked a bit about her schizophrenia and I want to know more but I'm afraid of bringing up the subject again incase it makes her feel uncomfortable. I just want to understand what she's going through.",2.635602582496414,5.153564353658538,3.42601147776184,87.68225968436155,79.24390243902441,6.541750358680058,25.50071736011477,7.724431198458867,1.460122381635581,670,26,132,11,17,212,98,164,0.079,0.853,0.068,-0.5603,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,2,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,8,0,8,2,1,1,1,37,26,10,0,8,10,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,2,7,9,0,0,7,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,2,2,22,5,20,22,6,17,0,0,0,0,23,6,0,6,10,88,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244677897293217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199823143061709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14613586889729788,0.0,0.0,0.11804026417492125,0.18869758107772305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891206086850505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925462952618923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006847429759795,0.0,0.0,0.19125295218649524,0.0,0.10402109739572404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878432644124775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20117880224641255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942001265875055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15560695268796088,0.0,0.0,0.12217503910579565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17472440818434135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18072166064979586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33325025666824626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409066964458004,0.1810229693137065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725051519858541,0.0,0.0,0.44134169063766016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12159808684290335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10672721956222588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19054238929948264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3238704054490169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Watercharger,2018/12/31,"Am I to damaged to live a normal life? Previously I thought I was high functioning. But suppressing can only do so much. Incest, torture, years of psychological abuse vitnessing the abuse of others and animals - I thought I was ok until reacently with the death of someone who I had witnessed go though extreme physical abuse. Right now I feel like I am a child going through it all again. Is there anyone out there in my shoes who can give any advice? My partner is upset that I'm drinking so much again but I just can't deal right now. Soldiers do this and they get better, why can't I? 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Everytime there was an earthquake, the crack would go a little deeper, and the governments knew about this and was keeping from the citizens that when the crack reaches the center, the nucleus would spout of all sorts of heat and smoke and elements harmful to humans and anything biological would go extinct. Now I am paranoid that this is real and the dream was another premonition ",11.566050420168068,9.291836193277312,10.549142857142858,61.82085714285715,56.81512605042017,13.553613445378152,42.2873949579832,11.979248473330829,5.1177213445378165,533,22,85,12,5,170,71,119,0.017,0.888,0.096,0.743,1,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,14,0,12,0,0,3,1,23,17,11,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,3,8,9,0,1,1,3,0,4,0,1,0,0,7,1,2,2,11,6,1,15,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,2,5,62,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24193939744818074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18987024743476427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370221651027629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19439907214439064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3933856988700645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20508247155523696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11272249910006744,0.2312509993870083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626200317677828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17762640029945115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13453989273035974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6556128388465055,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PepeTrade,2018/12/31,"I think I had my first episode 10 weeks away from now, we moved into a new neighborhood. Ever since then, I had trouble sleeping at night thinking people were planning to rob us right after we settled. Told my sister, she said I was delusional. A few weeks ago, I started hearing voices coming from outside (the neighbors) talking about jumping me, for no apparent. Day after day, it seemed like the anger grew and that the threats were getting more and more agressive. We are talking about women/children/men, basically everyone. What I regularly heard was ""I'm going to beat him up/kill kim/destroy him"" ""I will hurt him so bad he will leave the neighborhood"" ""he will cry"" and add to that insults about my weight which I am very self-conscious about. I asked them if they ever heard people in the neighborhood plotting on hurting and the answer was a categoric no. I even called one of the guy I actually know well and tested the waters and he said there was absolutely no issue. And yet I can't seem to wrap my head around that, I was (and still am) covinced they are after me. 2 weeks ago, I finally heard ""tomorrow we will get him"". The following morning, I ran away from home, removed my SIM card , got very drunk late at night and ended up at my aunt's. Given the looks family has been giving me since, it looks like it was very scary. While roaming around the city in a hope to lever return there, I heard similar threats at the cemetery, where I stayed most of the day on my mother's grave, in the streets, as well as the day following the incident. I remember being very agitated, while at the same time very ""lethargic"", scared, heavy breathing. I really thought I would have died of a heart attack during that period. I also hear door/wall banging, car doors being shut endlessly and loudly at night, and other sounds. But I can't tell what is real or not at the moment. With a more than convincing inner feeling that killing myself was the solution for all of it to end, I begged to go stay at my grandma's. As I am writing this post, I have not been able to sleep tonight thinking about all of that, as it's about to be 6 am. I don't really know what to do at the moment. The urge to kill myself is still heavily present, and as the days passed, I feel like I'm losing more and more my sanity. I don't know, if in an effort to patch everything to make it seem very real, my brain might be attributting faces to those voices. I am so lost.",5.94217857142857,5.943676574999998,6.2144642857142856,81.04125,66.58333333333334,9.357142857142858,30.684523809523807,9.04235418022936,2.3682648809523803,1916,65,380,30,28,615,251,480,0.154,0.7979999999999999,0.048,-0.9946,1,0,0,0,0,2,73.0,5,0,3,6,23,22,7,1,29,0,40,10,7,2,4,58,81,28,4,4,6,3,3,3,1,6,0,12,3,1,19,23,3,0,15,1,0,12,9,15,2,2,25,17,57,7,61,46,10,81,0,5,2,0,38,26,0,9,43,258,76,1,0.07483292518144026,0.0,0.0730261401978515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326697460260214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05984386323120657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13323433782588526,0.06995868334229642,0.08513325562573112,0.14061599311444895,0.0,0.06248236675312959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08353829323674357,0.0764127834328674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06446193888377867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220045442835434,0.24130522984295225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07766476174312502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13255952024360065,0.0,0.0,0.049426441316215146,0.1353813301848653,0.0,0.07150606690542237,0.0672550078982078,0.0,0.07054582190127406,0.0,0.0756755508991118,0.05346065670194639,0.0,0.08197581173178252,0.0,0.06365284793091554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07819422958443438,0.07178656068406443,0.08505855181210009,0.0,0.05985072638541172,0.0,0.0,0.07409636114536303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07680017053559524,0.0,0.16868429074164867,0.08867737664649357,0.0,0.0,0.07506352546075387,0.0743259797363365,0.0,0.0,0.16022038827620766,0.0,0.0,0.0781061316850878,0.0,0.0,0.16558308858597567,0.0,0.12337865588896492,0.0,0.08441479909745599,0.07923726274573817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10967876185978838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256816199972016,0.0837189017570922,0.08168897773664117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0499515586457986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07938590786840168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07953555660414399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227410545370717,0.0,0.2106768928842156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0507087267942698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10375945595362143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07166925659269839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035250373751082,0.09587977615558707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477111642363692,0.06390690922479343,0.14236649682997293,0.0,0.07492081281597006,0.0,0.0,0.20437525367121012,0.07806706141879545,0.0,0.0,0.12380513802439767,0.0,0.14977393725009566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05296712960637555,0.1595238828117909,0.11952334143105675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029574128003258,0.06540727500327162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384975050554918,0.0,0.05940898367520647,0.04363568046374092,0.0,0.0,0.07150606690542237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900147950582177,0.0,0.0,0.3704700024756774,0.0,0.0,0.18007937618426428,0.09112634276357373,0.13456757362227767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053159162987381714,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zeldank,2018/12/31,"I’m posting here so that I can (maybe) help my fiancé. Hi, you guys. Let me preface by saying that I’ve never knowingly experienced symptoms of schizophrenia. While I do suffer from depression and anxiety, my knowledge of schizophrenia is pretty slim to none other than textbook definitions. My fiancé here voices almost constantly. He has PTSD from past trauma. Sometimes they don’t say things that really trigger him, but lately they’ve been telling him that they’re going to kill him. We went to the ER a few days ago because he was so freaked out and scared of the voices that he could hardly function. He was angry and agitated, when he is normally a very calm person. They quickly discharged him without any help because he was not having thoughts of hurting himself or anyone else and told him to go to a clinic on Monday. The past few days have been tough. He’s emotionally distressed and I’m trying so hard to be supportive, but I don’t really know what to do or say that will help. Tonight has been fairly calm, but within the last hour, he became increasingly uncomfortable and began to get angry again. He told me that they’re telling him basically everything that he’s doing. He suddenly was up and pacing, told me that he was going to bed, but heard a comment saying, “You’re not going to fucking go to bed,” which caused a loud outburst and slamming doors. He asked me, “What the fuck is that?” and I have no answers. He told me that he’s now having thoughts/visions of hurting people and that scares him. We’re going to the clinic in the morning, but I’m so worried and kind of scared. What do I do in the meantime? How do I help?",5.2029257767548875,6.42161813607595,5.69536248561565,79.81287111622557,68.58860759493672,7.897353279631763,29.86996547756041,8.150884317080207,2.1366000000000005,1305,49,236,17,22,420,159,316,0.20199999999999999,0.731,0.068,-0.9939,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,1,1,2,0,11,18,3,4,13,0,30,5,0,3,1,35,54,25,1,2,10,0,2,0,0,1,3,8,3,2,18,13,0,0,5,0,0,8,8,14,1,0,16,11,26,4,29,34,4,34,0,4,0,2,47,6,2,3,19,153,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08409175836543803,0.0,0.09499320985444414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06451119199137738,0.0,0.07257117165734144,0.0,0.0,0.06633154528630512,0.0972000097717227,0.0,0.0,0.08868561026762986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11565717894081748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09745209239145236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10251494872716843,0.0,0.07574167674835366,0.0,0.0,0.12235965885569758,0.0,0.08170675483674672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924721398629712,0.1067099246794164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08525820004106209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17540161790484082,0.04956284651736762,0.0,0.3234824848987486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939308845284439,0.0,0.0,0.16996012542440034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543430100346626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09342253783254888,0.0,0.20310906713421945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10495364234769657,0.0987868995032444,0.10427022416431876,0.07732732352964586,0.10701141896778746,0.0,0.0,0.09700549723224028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09530425753917182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07316544015108335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09294718210865432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811180204368085,0.065767180231655,0.08283212367595029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09085407921775464,0.09651141901443798,0.0,0.0,0.11089165967230752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12154540443646475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30176060122476417,0.28492808993364904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938235310006045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10765124214884396,0.0,0.09860065913620188,0.0,0.0,0.16583171158971174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0630238356699826,0.0,0.0,0.07531190869954413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3625888240530279,0.0,0.06440684725203864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07827324330526607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879404495286373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09144610466453948,0.0,0.0,0.0963396224832352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,criscotron,2018/12/31,"Does anyone else feel lost? I have been having the hardest time lately keeping myself occupied/satisfied/active. I don't know what I want to do and prefer to just be asleep if I can be. I know that the anhedonia and depression type stuff is what this is partially explained by but there is a greater scope to it than just that. I feel lost as a person, I don't feel connected to others, I am going through very few of the motions making myself act as normal as possible but am very frustrated with how I feel. I am wishing there was more to my life and that I had more to live for. This isn't a cry for help this is more of a question for peers who are in the same place. Does anyone else just feel lost or alone or detached from themselves or detached from others. I have been trying recently to reach out to others on here to get some interaction and have found that it kind of helps but I don't know exactly what I am searching for. I have nothing to be depressed about and can't say as I am overly depressed other than I just don't see a place for myself doing things. I suffer from Schizophrenia, Depression, and Anxiety. The anxiety is managed successfully unless you define restlessness as anxiety. The Depression and Schizophrenia overlap and have me in this state and I find it as a unique state where I would like to hear more about from others and perhaps learn more about and have a better name and definition of. Who else feels lost?",6.066391602577429,6.35680939929329,6.246522552483892,79.9283413011848,66.31448763250884,9.344335896902932,30.427977551444613,9.168548406835145,2.4412857617958843,1152,39,221,19,17,368,136,283,0.171,0.725,0.10400000000000001,-0.9552,0,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,6,12,16,1,1,13,0,35,2,1,2,1,52,58,27,0,6,12,0,6,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,23,14,0,1,15,0,0,3,6,12,0,0,9,9,26,4,44,45,9,17,0,10,1,0,12,9,0,6,4,178,49,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101852527849741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22569380381966295,0.0,0.0,0.13752585613094465,0.2015257522208249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08697539993572162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10802393584090006,0.0,0.0,0.4235085795945099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721192813185855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464560617972172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983476519162868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988269540846927,0.0,0.0,0.10782679391770532,0.0,0.0,0.051379572646522265,0.0,0.055889955886306686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11083844442931744,0.0,0.13183297650823825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741078021798798,0.0,0.1024079332847248,0.16213837381522686,0.0,0.11093392250859134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06946177715568737,0.04804487443386645,0.0,0.08683768049258411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4294071097927045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06564396758913066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09635416105020717,0.09436168479232404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08586833515268086,0.20549266422772364,0.0,0.0,0.1108656919597988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101654106054402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09710074104479094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07820540900053549,0.0,0.0,0.0783657448620542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11257792288540887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06533397435382683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05734394024424293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06676768022514579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16228469804584694,0.05800458793650416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130883070469182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06985924897665842,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,aviatrix444,2018/12/16,"Did you have a schizophrenic mother, too? I did. She was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia soon after I was born. My dad checked out of the situation. Relatives were afraid to help. My mother was on thorazine, had electro shock and yearly hospitalizations. It was hell for a kid.",3.7936734693877554,7.091754489795921,3.9971428571428578,78.87285714285716,85.73469387755101,6.881632653061224,27.40816326530612,7.957251820313856,2.5143795918367338,226,10,36,5,7,70,41,49,0.174,0.775,0.051,-0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,1,3,0,9,2,0,0,0,3,9,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,8,0,6,0,7,1,0,6,1,0,0,0,7,2,1,0,4,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.57118540141143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772034232160013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6325612199268005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3623963545254168 schizophrenia,curiousdog1980,2018/12/16,"Fear of developing/ having schizophrenia Hi all! I'll apologise in advance as I think this will be a long one and I appreciate anyone who'll take the time to read it. A bit of background about myself, I'm a 21 year old Gay Male currently working in an engineering office. I've been slightly anxious for my entire life but it's gotten a TON worse in the last few weeks. I'm currently on a waiting for some CBT for this. I smoked my first joint at 13 and dabbled with it for a few years before having 2ish month periods of daily use on and off since about 18 years old. I've done ecstasy a few time (50/50 chance of loving it or having a panic attack) and had one acid trip in which I ended up in hospital. I also came out to my friends a couple of weeks ago and came out to my parents about a year ago. Now, about 3 weeks ago I had a panic attack a few hours after smoking weed and have since been totally obsessed with developing schizophrenia, primarily as a result of smoking weed from young age but also from spending the first 16 years of my life trying to convince myself that I was straight. I had about 8 panic attacks on the weekend after I had the initial panic attack, and while they have reduced massively my anxiety hasn't really come down at all, despite the fact that I have quit smoking weed as a result of this incident. I fear that I have schizophrenia because I have unwarranted paranoid thoughts about my colleagues wanting to me to leave, which I know is not true and on my apprentice review they even described me as polite and having a good attitude. I also get paranoid about people I walk past on the street occasionally. My friends haven't said I seem different or anything and I'm spending a fair bit of time with them still. I'm doing well at work and am reasonably happy when my anxiety isn't overpowering me. My doctor said to me that there weren't any alarm bells for schizophrenia when I saw him about my anxiety but I didn't tell him everything as my dad was in the room and he suffers from anxiety aswell, so I didn't want to worry him with my crazy racing thoughts. I also cycle through thinking I have aspergers, BPD or bipolar due to mood swings and other stuff but schizophrenia is the one that I usually think about and it scares me the most. Really desperate for answers at the moment and if anyone could shed some light on my situation I would be forever thankful 😊. And congrats if you actually made it through all of that😂",6.703830731558008,6.481117301652894,7.101937557392106,76.07324303642487,65.03305785123968,9.980287725742274,33.835016835016845,9.53975657930432,3.0518842363024183,1970,77,369,34,27,644,236,484,0.15,0.736,0.115,-0.9352,6,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,1,3,6,21,24,4,9,28,0,35,6,0,5,6,62,62,38,0,6,10,2,0,0,2,3,4,2,1,1,19,25,0,1,9,2,2,6,7,14,1,5,21,5,53,9,71,35,14,70,0,1,1,2,19,24,0,9,40,261,72,6,0.0,0.0,0.0726990795418303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981133411886923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383033670599997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05066103994772223,0.0,0.227962368258642,0.08416127799414717,0.0,0.104181149404054,0.0,0.06130531915830883,0.0,0.0,0.3390078843341135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04541315066186325,0.0,0.06339211739011233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16266454566508387,0.0,0.09382733656457508,0.0,0.0,0.1704112106483897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06417323453814837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05948040941436465,0.08243036831764881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07783431623563793,0.0,0.0762516269100888,0.0,0.07623708635708104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06598291433798054,0.0,0.0,0.04920507614097958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06695379429244551,0.0,0.0,0.1676614113861533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12673553448823258,0.0,0.0,0.1151135884908609,0.0,0.03892201135695642,0.0,0.0,0.06248519706276631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930426412274612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07336529949384521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04094202748921892,0.060725627685029336,0.0,0.07888238446427989,0.0,0.0,0.1052399597765451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06592818436765405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06723714828208473,0.07049159363454431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05946341127132328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15634576076071735,0.0,0.15144485602116028,0.0,0.0,0.3496283384186321,0.08272096016100641,0.0,0.07111655346430389,0.05164737531760778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07923755118185634,0.07451793267032712,0.0,0.09545036139528824,0.0765961177319863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14172888296016553,0.0,0.07458526652908094,0.0,0.0,0.06781997415706305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12325065452641533,0.08373861764125214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059494017363233065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08528212609384242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056013053569151317,0.0,0.06511433680041481,0.06858753984048288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14320549361833915,0.0,0.11828581979005386,0.13032075074626728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05057909737551428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06434215623121048,0.0820487714593286,0.0,0.08788143280023979,0.0,0.17927285842567614,0.0,0.06698244431385744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847053131032293,0.07565610419698973,0.07591959471562125,0.0529210801491941,0.0,0.0,0.2398706149714585 schizophrenia,Degnn298,2018/12/16,"Job Problems Hey everyone, Looking to vent and maybe some advice. Im dealing with cognitive impairments from either the illness or the medication. Not very severe, but enough that I notice it in certain areas and am worried about it. My memory is bad and my mind is often blank. For instance, in conversations I have little to say and just generally slow thinking with bad memory. The problem is my current job is very sort of cognitive heavy/intellectual. I got a job in a Central Bank where I'm part of a team to supervise and regulate financial firms. This means as a team, we meet with and discuss with financial firms on the performance etc and the financial risks to their firm. My role is pretty junior so far so I havent been directly doing the hard stuff yet but I can see that my cognitive impairments will get in my way in the future. The work requires so so much study and knowledge which is hard for me to retain. And there's also a problem in meetings or in work conversations I struggle to keep up with the conversation and provide any input at all. Holding meetings with the firms is a key part of the job which Ill be expected to do in the future. I know theres a certain degree of being new and knowing less etc in the beginning but I notice this in normal conversations not just work related. I can see this getting in my way of progressing or even doing my job once the full responsibilities are given to me when Im not so new anymore. This is affecting my self esteem and gives me a lot of anxiety in work. I hate being in meetings etc with nothing to say. I feel now that I should be doing a less sort of academic/cognitive heavy job and one maybe like a care assistant or a driver etc thats more hands on stuff. That would mean Id have wasted my time and money getting my degree and masters in business/finance though. Im considering quiting the job but nearly everyone in my life will tell me not to I know because it is such a good job. The people are very nice in work and the job really is a great job, great holidays, good pay etc so it's very hard to give up and my performance reviews to date havent been bad . But I can see when Im expected to do the full role that Ill have difficulties. Another option might be to disclose the illness or just the cognitive impairments and see what they say, maybe I can have a more tailored role. Or even if they knew about the illness I would feel less anxious about contributing little in meetings etc. Its a public service job and they do claim to be inclusive of people with disabilities. I just didnt tell them in the when starting so I wonder if that would be a problem. Im on the lowest dose of my abilify and have switched already from Risperdal and saw no discernable change so dont think a change in medicine could help. Anyone with any experiences like this?",5.4456574740207815,6.194161883093527,6.286930455635492,77.49665867306156,67.7589928057554,9.631015187849721,31.811350919264587,9.725611199111238,2.983408233413268,2261,91,428,48,36,747,233,556,0.135,0.7759999999999999,0.08900000000000001,-0.9696,13,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,1,0,5,13,29,20,1,2,40,0,49,9,1,1,3,95,79,48,0,14,22,0,6,2,0,7,8,3,0,1,22,31,0,4,13,3,3,0,9,10,0,1,7,15,42,10,67,57,21,50,0,0,6,0,33,33,0,16,17,307,64,24,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050287010403202735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05678839919146154,0.04115327501161588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06999037353318288,0.05396125617793357,0.03936745900398928,0.05813618601117215,0.051035399568881736,0.035982668187577914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12890314312265078,0.03137009604838785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052467832377706566,0.0,0.10887764887072933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04108735309336267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0530539435670827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06031180894094153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05317288140761192,0.3443551388040024,0.06797889783529219,0.0,0.0,0.09834621889261072,0.0,0.05033864929669179,0.0,0.0,0.052040369549248636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065861211141542,0.09873199738311048,0.0,0.08632594765584134,0.041157994647969584,0.1134716805857808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382966152499984,0.05080699942627551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03449316647307394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779330938657319,0.0,0.5617371918091897,0.04574082560309827,0.0,0.0,0.08484471894378606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036348366037187455,0.050282407207023185,0.1031547118901808,0.0,0.0,0.0432142077097147,0.0,0.0,0.0437502295440257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15509821734562426,0.11211204510718588,0.0,0.05184145774651762,0.0,0.0545918983527706,0.05196085413866753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037829693582019784,0.0,0.0,0.09940254446687967,0.0,0.0,0.05042077036424165,0.049378135705188585,0.11717718527015235,0.0,0.05480419481052952,0.03487124771993776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114543119016458,0.0,0.07135303764427332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052354250933240434,0.0,0.19696458224465094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0547350173900464,0.0,0.0,0.032967179783652906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227713549309904,0.0,0.0,0.16403074586694835,0.0,0.0536849573949476,0.05813618601117215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036424300397277766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05379812156162663,0.11782087116986635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08995821561754998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06594815266783748,0.05056008755680781,0.0,0.03000727328557392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16984257669030586,0.0,0.08169455779581805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055807166976980384,0.18732079452934847,0.0522610570003784,0.0,0.1096690722666898,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,yolakalemowa,2018/12/16,"New to the sub. Just found out my cousin is Schizophrenic. Hello everyone, So, my cousin is 50 years old, and has been Schizophrenic since '97. He was in US and only now he traveled to our part of world because he has nobody in the world except us to help him. Unfortunately, we have no knowledge of his previous medical history but he's been in and out of hospitals and tried meds (but now completely refuses to take any because he said they bring him down and black him out, sleeping for 20 hours etc.) He has dysosmia (phantosmia: smells imaginary bad odors), and also visual and audio hallucinations. But he told me his main concern is the poison someone gave him to his knees and his eyes. Now he spends all his monthly SS money on doctors and I beg him not to, because it's a psych. issue. He finally convinced, we go to a psych. and he speaks to him and tells him he's Schiz. Doc tells us there are three paths to go to, he has to rule out the first, to move to second, and the second to see if we have to move to third. Since we have very little medical history info. we start on path two minimal dose (Zorta 20mg per day for a month) my cousin refuses to take them after he tried it once and slept for 20 hours. He just tells me he needs to fix knees' poison and eyes, and needs a piano. That's all....... I hope someone has time to read my post and help me out in my questions as I'm new to all this and love him so much and want to help him. Thanks all! 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Hi this is a brand new account I made for another forum but realized now would be a good time to talk. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia close to 2 years ago now and have been learning to cope and deal with it and trying to return to the world as a functioning member of society and have improved drastically though I still am prone to delusions and hear auditory hallucinations almost every day. Anyway, I was in a long term relationship with someone who just so happened to have BPD, as In it was always there but an official diagnosis was only made recently. Things were fine and she would take care of me, even after things came to an end we remained best friends and helped each other. The issue is that the diagnosis of BPD of my friend came after she became really bad and is not the same person she used to be. She also at times experiences some delusions and psychosis like sometimes due to other overlapping issues regarding her mental health. At times it can be rough and I handle it for the sake of making sure shes okay, the same she did for me when I was first diagnosed and had my first few episodes. My psychiatrist told me its in my best interest to stay away from other schizophrenics who don't have a handle on things and experience delusions since I can feed off of them and end up in a place I never want to be again. So I guess my question is, is this friendship safe? Or good for either of us? Like I said at times it gets really stressful and puts me in moods but other times it can be really good and we are able to help and support each other. I was hoping if someone in a situation like mine where a significant other or close friend had a similar problem with mental health or if someone who knows others in my situation could maybe point me in the right direction or help in anyway. Thank you guys for being so accepting and everything. I appreciate it. I should've been here when I was first diagnosed, it probably would've made a lot of things easier for me haha.",9.456574928171783,7.181347532133675,9.259567518524117,69.43203387267505,60.82519280205656,12.649085135339485,36.507031604415545,11.20814326018867,3.879052805080901,1606,53,301,34,17,525,201,389,0.033,0.72,0.247,0.9985,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,3,1,1,5,18,26,0,1,19,2,39,7,0,5,2,66,59,35,0,8,12,0,1,3,3,2,6,2,0,2,27,29,1,1,5,0,1,3,3,3,0,3,20,3,39,22,52,30,11,56,0,0,0,0,31,24,0,12,31,234,66,1,0.07884731063824035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06989338350630565,0.0,0.07895419213377335,0.0,0.0,0.06305416583065207,0.06560727877737788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267828002785542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07407964383937661,0.0,0.0658342109285651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16549077604467916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986108551358084,0.0,0.0,0.18036063641384228,0.08039008809347413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06295316168057559,0.0,0.0,0.0508499924864037,0.08128811509423386,0.0,0.24008508172489146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13967062820758927,0.0,0.0,0.052077905049860665,0.0,0.0664322598693405,0.0,0.0708628786977112,0.15425559883381018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012024464491598,0.0,0.0,0.18275170982968136,0.0,0.041194465505745716,0.0,0.0,0.198400149834122,0.0,0.0,0.08685920199242379,0.07807123388837754,0.06972441640015373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762200828396134,0.0888666495372862,0.0,0.15854907087250752,0.0,0.0,0.07831317028638557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16459221426380427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04333241989146285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11556243973904055,0.0,0.0,0.06977738873467461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0670331638981209,0.0,0.2238216953223524,0.052631192110426585,0.0,0.07921272133496979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15891908807593294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06081190674672705,0.07615122394310382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05996693273627486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06884643036676473,0.08237865782234888,0.0,0.07453619425619337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0850107366587344,0.07544622771889864,0.0,0.07926332496475977,0.08832703296957642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15153481858690235,0.0,0.07785220704483099,0.08465250384320012,0.0,0.06733517247067122,0.07500184826942302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06522331014557854,0.1772553614603917,0.0,0.0,0.20042121130376075,0.0,0.07798200634173227,0.0,0.0,0.08404074217186337,0.06296756412692202,0.0,0.09031932793884946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08947499372937072,0.07431265715694897,0.0,0.05928336493107494,0.06337448160797374,0.0,0.07259201016541894,0.0,0.0,0.20953059858150985,0.0,0.07746708237240901,0.0,0.22988250453216866,0.0,0.0,0.07534198424210417,0.0,0.05353214824996407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09484360648450378,0.06809876065046104,0.0,0.0,0.04650618667781097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16803260171264084,0.0,0.0,0.05077508294040254 schizophrenia,Night_5,2018/12/16,"Hi. Advice on dealing with my brother's episodes. I would like to start by thanking everyone here. My brother is recently living with me and he has been getting episodes every night. The episodes consists of bursts of anger, eratic movements, and screaming. What can I do in these type of situations do make him feel better and in control? He has an appointment with a doctor this Monday. 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My parents had me committed to a psych ward where I was diagnosed as “hyper religious” and “schizophrenic” because I was hearing from God who was telling me to, basically, not listen to what my family was about to do to me. It’s been 5 years of hard work and any time my family (who I still live with) refers to me they are referring to a diagnosis and their “NAMI” friends. This NAMI cult tells their followers that their children’s “diagnosis is not their fault. So that gives them some happiness and the continue the cycle of accusing people of being crazy for hearing God/Jesus. They won’t ever admit they are liars for denying God the ability to talk to his sheep, and prove they are evil by clinging to an organization who simultaneously tells them it’s “not their fault” and that “it’s genetic”. I will be very glad when all these people persecuting Christians and concerts God has chosen are burning in hell for refusing to listen to their kids. I have barely survived this shit and I can’t imagine what the cumulative damage they are doing to God bu denying that he would talk to his sheep. Jesus said he came not but to bring a sword and that parents would turn against their children and likewise over their allegiance to Christ. All I can say is as much as it sucks having my family accuse me day and night to my face and then to extended family members, and as much as it sucks having them deny me in front of Drs and others because they never took the time to seek Jesus, I will be happy in the afterlife knowing I won’t have to have anything to do with them. 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I was only recently diagnosed with schizophrenia after ending up in a ward for a week. I wouldn't have thought that I would find relief in the diagnosis, but now seeing a community of people that share a lot of experiences that I thought were mine alone is weirdly nice. I don't feel as freaked out. Anyway, I'm sure posts like this pop up all the time. I'm just glad this exists. &#x200B; I still don't know how Risperidone is going to affect me, but I am willing to try anything after years of self medicating with alcohol. If any of you have any advice to someone who is just learning what it is I've been living with, I would love to hear. &#x200B; Thanks",3.0377083333333315,5.3122831875,4.131250000000001,84.44208333333336,76.5,6.516666666666668,25.666666666666664,7.554174236665415,1.4490291666666668,650,24,122,9,15,211,100,160,0.042,0.769,0.18899999999999997,0.9773,0,1,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,0,6,11,0,1,7,0,19,5,0,2,2,28,32,7,0,5,5,0,1,1,0,4,4,1,0,1,11,6,1,0,8,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,8,3,14,8,24,20,2,18,0,0,1,1,6,5,0,2,12,88,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13274168114643992,0.0,0.145172091671261,0.0,0.14068970236665854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943660652797477,0.33012194481756274,0.18475228040739275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117850869947432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08280705601307897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757503231280264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12031428790691115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13287799136809195,0.0,0.0,0.06868499525087401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241556781348233,0.0,0.0,0.14894200334244884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07720123815218749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15310202001612616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14930867883764096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06636476508777531,0.0,0.11994957494561308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548666293048795,0.12260127788556854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13684492673512766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10331275662916384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941746396918718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300975675820534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682520433332252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824722324662406,0.0,0.14171117828922442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11509714260807527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848233070024577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12802798330684276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12506360317650614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21568423159711425,0.07920963824673995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09222672482361843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10896298695366106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19299426638843828,0.0,0.33012194481756274,0.087476773403056 schizophrenia,Flamingoz1,2018/12/16,"Delusions and massive highs/ lows? Hearing voices? Schizophrenia runs in my family as well as bipolar and major depressive disorder. Every since I was a child I have believed myself to be gifted in talking to spirits / communicating with a higher power but have never been religious. I’m quite the skeptic actually. Anyway, lately I’ve been having delusions that my landlord is out to get me and even convinced myself that I heard him in my house late at night when I was home alone. I called the police crying and panicking but there was no form of breaking and entry. I still think he used a key to come in. Not sure. Lately I’m starting to wonder if this incident affirms the fact that I have paranoid delusions, in turn disproving my belief in spiritual awakening from a young age. It could really all go hand in hand. My father was also very abusive and I am still terrified of the dark at 20 years old. Maybe his behavior has something to do with it as well. I still believe that I can communicate with paranormal activity, and feel variances in energies etc. I believe my intuition is extremely strong but I am paranoid half of the time. Just need some answers on what I should do/ what you all think is going on. 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Reading about early symptoms for schizophrenia are freaking me out. I have anhedonia, lack of drive, lack of self care and hygiene, no interest in social things and personal relationships. I have suffered what i thought was depression all these years, but ive never been ""Sad"". basically just low hedonic tone and lifeless. Recently I have started to get irritability and I start to almost ""shut down"", where I just sit there out of frustration. I feel bad for snapping at my family members. I was considering maybe I had Aspergers due to my severe awkwardness and inability to form relationships with other people. maybe anxiety, maybe some OCD tendencies - my hands were at one point raw and red due to washing them out of fear for illness. As a kid I had a tremendous anxiety issue with sickness and food causing illnesses, to the point that when a family member would have the stomach flu i would lock myself in my room for days and had no idea what to do with myself. I ""got over"" this anxiety by just time passing, so i never really dealt with it. Occasionally I would have moments where I felt really good about myself and convinced that I was the greatest musician in the world and I would just be famous one day just by itself happening. I think this might be normal though. So i have no idea if this is just me overthinking (which it probably is). I also got off an SSRI about 6 months ago due to the anhedonia it caused... so i might still not be fully okay since. I'm just terrified that I feel like the only person who has avolition and lack of drive, my parents think I'm lazy. I try exercising but it doesn't help that much. I've tried a lot of supplements/nootropics. Nothing worked well. I feel ok when I do intermittent fasting but lately its all crashing down on me again. Idk what to do",5.446112087912088,7.150246477142861,6.078857142857142,75.45668131868132,68.5142857142857,9.613186813186816,31.17582417582417,9.943994293440598,3.2617120879120893,1497,62,263,37,26,487,196,350,0.221,0.7170000000000001,0.062,-0.9949,1,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,1,1,24,17,1,2,11,2,32,10,2,2,4,62,48,25,0,9,15,1,5,1,0,6,7,0,1,4,21,18,1,0,9,2,0,3,7,9,1,2,12,6,38,8,43,27,10,48,0,4,1,0,11,21,0,8,24,200,59,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608866280054163,0.0,0.0972489881346261,0.0,0.0,0.07766470226576905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.297177999237407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08108892288577868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990176013693851,0.19953252219168932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252653008614798,0.0,0.08364702323263844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831071711693688,0.10928400850908424,0.14731633651400222,0.0693806475970292,0.09324787709939274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11743467386413894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05073980214239791,0.0,0.0,0.08145741767342796,0.1553472183824216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08588054364109954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06509570632176301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21926731296124025,0.0,0.10136527180768687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095525904368732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04744662707691365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08256569010939556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29270226655592896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20605230230130248,0.0,0.0,0.07751813478878007,0.0,0.07139241987481079,0.0,0.1498057604753004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09515437391663817,0.09318670766542313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13161844694209207,0.07386211387305608,0.0,0.0,0.10783731377871056,0.0,0.0,0.06732893582389893,0.1695982318077551,0.0,0.0,0.18361455610968366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047089191493952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09714362202602758,0.0,0.1244317105609112,0.0,0.09589165761242263,0.2085353575112395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10131456684922996,0.10971495163266147,0.0,0.08033646780530067,0.0,0.0,0.09899889856281964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13748030720738671,0.0,0.0775580337301172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009421025470718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645204457946004,0.1244577409812316,0.09541729414055958,0.077100320399115,0.05662990235586007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13187259876362947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08732015260798892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07070258068745577,0.0,0.0,0.2759574895866394,0.0,0.0,0.0625403832900934 schizophrenia,FeathersMcGraw92,2018/12/01,"Hi Hello, I've been a lurker for awhile now and thought I'd step out and introduce myself. I'm 26 and from the UK, I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia in January 2016 after being sectioned. Prior to being diagnosed I had had various diagnoses including bipolar, bpd, OCD, recurrent depression and ptsd. I had been in various medication including a couple of antipsychotics. It all started when my CPN had suspected for a long time that I was hearing voices, although I was completely unaware of it and asked me outright what I could hear. I said I could hear him and 5 people outside talking about me. There was no one outside. That's how I became acquainted with Olanzapine. But only 2.5mg. That was in September 2015. By December I had taken myself off of my tiny dose of Olanzapine and my 200mg of Lamotrigine. This worried the CMHT. I never keep it a secret when I come off my meds but I will only tell when asked. So yes, I am a bit crafty. By January I was in a proper psychosis and as I mentioned earlier I was sectioned. I was put straight on 15mg of Olanzapine, told I had all the classic symptoms of paranoid schizophrenia and that after going through all of my notes the Dr theorised that my prodromal phase started when I was about 17. In his report for the tribunal the Dr was highly critical of the mental health team and suggested that intervention had been missed on numerous occasions. I was discharged by tribunal after 2 weeks. Olanzapine was great for my positive symptoms but it made me very anxious, restless and fat. So I switched to Amisulpride (omfg it was awful). I was hospitalised again in June 2016 and put on Aripiprazole (amazing) but cleverly decided I didn't need it and was promptly sectioned again in September 2016. I was recommenced on Aripiprazole (maintena) and my section 3 was converted to a community treatment order. In February 2017 I was recalled to hospital because the Aripiprazole wasn't working I was there for 2 months this time and put on Clozapine. I stayed mentally well for awhile but physically was a wreck. A very helpful GP (not mine) told me to stop taking Clozapine. I knew I shouldn't of but felt so awful it gave me a good excuse to stop it. What ensued was hell but I managed to avoid hospital by going on Flupentixol depot. Up until recently I've just bumbled along but became ill again. How I wasn't sectioned again I'll never know, there was talk of it. Was coaxed into taking 10mg of Haloperidol by my psychiatrist and have bounced back surprisingly well for someone who has been labelled as treatment resistant. My depot has now been changed to Haldol and I'm starting to feel much better. Sorry for such a long post. It looks like I've got the verbal shits. Anyway I take a cocktail of Haloperidol, Chlorpromazine, Vortioxetine and Clonazepam for my mental health. Oh and I'm female. Tl;dr 26. F. Paranoid Schizophrenia. Various sections. Various meds. Taking Haloperidol. Feeling a bit better now.",4.603901098901101,7.1737026575091605,5.504331135531138,75.04900219780222,72.7912087912088,8.690344322344322,32.714871794871804,9.334730878484477,3.5687727179487183,2385,119,384,59,50,779,261,546,0.109,0.7979999999999999,0.09300000000000001,-0.6011,1,1,0,0,0,0,64.0,0,0,0,4,27,16,2,2,22,3,48,15,2,3,5,60,83,40,0,4,10,0,3,1,0,2,14,5,0,0,21,25,2,4,9,2,0,7,8,6,2,1,48,9,54,10,68,29,16,69,1,2,1,0,23,27,2,0,33,285,75,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09580879385472714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15856788724781498,0.0,0.0,0.06521204462026764,0.0,0.05169811216933637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15001140153871273,0.18517653598585654,0.0,0.1068125884148127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971551912640467,0.07305450137394645,0.08891947561111899,0.0,0.0,0.13542442367312774,0.09383833460875042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07304492492773129,0.2582347173449535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576285065053334,0.0,0.08142888914829599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963965744410248,0.07113284763540435,0.06782862955515327,0.09350101545621947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18029367597109827,0.2867540201971021,0.0,0.05684495153122784,0.08960420867194771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753811632932043,0.0,0.0,0.04660820706622275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04143285892276579,0.0,0.0,0.15010465562883396,0.07121728138924982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08024729096310687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18840492936572711,0.08543504277026638,0.2563992658050579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06769286123232664,0.0,0.06234356882803965,0.06288398749545948,0.13081817026801631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057468031762775075,0.12900046778366964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0587951235161439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08122253061082751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09913590341532337,0.2557661080526914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837375755980526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08067173915619226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705409650082059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07185746330581487,0.0,0.0,0.0949355071297704,0.18008241652082954,0.09039394344826222,0.0,0.14180641325971516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762957728236575,0.25505996251405844,0.13633076430522187,0.07412584766039391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06732800400791672,0.09890434366669752,0.0,0.0,0.1620751765597985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399508080453549,0.0,0.0,0.06802778643581497,0.0,0.15250498452740702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06174116542257223,0.08612654493394492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DMT-50,2018/12/01,Any way to reduce auditory hallucinations? My brother is constantly hearing demonic voices which tell him to walk. He cant sit in the house or his demons keep threatening him and he leaves and starts wandering in the streets even if it is pouring rain and cold outdoors. He is taking olanzapine 20 mg but I don't think it is helping him with his voices. I try to be supportive but he doesn't listen and leaves . Has anyone here fixed their auditory hallucinations?,4.4827906976744165,7.085776058139538,5.616453488372091,73.9423546511628,73.30232558139534,8.951162790697676,29.3546511627907,9.516144504307137,3.113911627906977,375,16,65,10,8,124,62,86,0.026000000000000002,0.905,0.069,0.5803,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,9,0,0,0,0,11,16,8,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,5,9,1,6,15,0,8,2,0,0,0,15,3,0,2,2,39,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17272502245757046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17759891416599108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744779049115007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677610228737376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862703484608965,0.0,0.1702472112359785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2930756403215757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257620507133669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5378871670285182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797786691662192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882300364288685,0.0,0.0,0.19097231216793745,0.0,0.22200245588655992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16274946932790718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17244564539307566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016090730427948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cosmic_drip,2018/12/01,"I quit my job After working non stop for a year at Amazon, I decided to quit my job. The stress of peak season was too much. Now I want to just relax. I had a job interview coming up for a data entry specialist but I dont know if I want to go to it. 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Hey everyone first time poster in here. I've had something disturbing happen to me last night and want some clarification if it might be early signs of schizophrenia. My family history does have mental health problems. So I'm in bed going to sleep at 1 in the morning over the past 4 months I've been seeing weird images in front of me above my bed doesn't happen every night but more frequent that it's noticeable I also wake up in the middle of the night often mid kick or jolting awake. On top of that once I complete a task that needs doing (exercise clean sort bills out etc) I should relax or switch off but I rarely do. I procrastinate a lot too. Back to last night so all that has been going on and at about 2 in the morning I had a booming voice say 1 word in an angry whisper but at the same time felt like a shout ""cookie"" is what they said which woke me up and straight after that had been said it felt like something wasn't right that I had never experienced before I felt like I didn't say that and the back of my neck felt funny So would you say any of what I said is a sign that something's wrong?",5.0827838827838825,5.094083529914531,5.502075702075706,85.38538461538462,68.40170940170941,8.224175824175825,25.68864468864469,7.7094869923839395,1.1447567765567763,902,21,192,9,14,289,136,234,0.06,0.825,0.11599999999999999,0.9203,0,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,2,10,8,0,1,14,0,21,5,3,0,2,33,37,14,0,6,6,0,4,3,0,3,2,10,3,0,15,5,0,0,5,2,1,3,4,4,0,1,17,16,18,4,28,16,6,43,0,0,1,0,9,22,0,8,21,123,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747468449545458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07438515939261321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16821974059029104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09307808843175483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11468748762462708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572304672658867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12199254742490635,0.0,0.0,0.09216109508129723,0.104521504868371,0.0,0.0,0.10311790015034528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4201048039160746,0.0,0.0,0.0930423353265478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12433137805053628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934565701055781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627052785468875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17832581009898854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603191132977203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09299472581191044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023377208005032,0.11603958817539145,0.0,0.0,0.08730960379041264,0.0,0.0,0.08110716452280654,0.08436401126174317,0.0,0.0,0.410599488746896,0.0,0.0,0.12453489192146724,0.0,0.11649084182790692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10441980998326088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10466612124895708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09341370058147147,0.31214890852244354,0.2609606534264058,0.0,0.0,0.08716522402053903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094634203007316,0.0,0.0,0.2526284213144888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275658747685848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645177674327526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07770355654343518,0.11959469638380366,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Imtotallycreative,2018/12/01,"Some questions about schizophrenia. Someone I know thinks they may have schizophrenia. So I guess I'll ask my questions, this is to help me get an idea. Thanks. When did you start experiencing schizophrenia? What was the beginning of it like. And how long did it take to move to the later phase. Were you unsure you were experiencing it? Or had an idea? What symptoms did you primarily experience in the beginning phase and how severe were they? What age were you when it all started? Hopefully you guys will help, I'm kind of worried and stuff. But thanks. Sorry if any way I worded my questions sounds offensive in any way.",2.7587246376811585,5.751167713043483,2.9965217391304364,87.23420289855076,84.91304347826087,5.849275362318841,23.318840579710145,7.3011,1.1670405797101444,497,18,92,8,15,152,71,115,0.08900000000000001,0.775,0.136,0.7886,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,6,2,0,6,6,1,0,5,0,13,1,0,2,1,21,27,11,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,9,3,0,0,7,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,9,3,14,5,8,16,2,14,0,0,0,0,15,2,0,9,10,62,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20406491953331812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14026730373735805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14676807537361042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838979543085076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16528616142679067,0.14856335622780242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20113752464658646,0.0,0.0,0.14902374197414694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387541748678103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15624374682744985,0.08245815279097918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07330204757214204,0.0,0.0,0.13278082775093109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15946895429017222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5042379815220595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16950268331857488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12712854798349704,0.0,0.0,0.1679576848144594,0.21239840722107026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717600962882791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15594918456359133,0.1128115340821998,0.0,0.0,0.27627365748866123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09613968170317633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23818980413084664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15237307436932299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bdorob,2018/12/01,"Need some insite here Hey everyone, got diagnosed Schitzo-affective disorder when I was 17; 19 now. The cycles are becoming much worse as I age. Used to be 1 week or so of symptoms now it is more like 3 months of symptoms and 1 week of none. I am really afriad for my future. I had to drop out of school and I can't hold a job always get fired for having a freak out. My psychiatrist says I am the severe side of symptoms and even with the Zyprexa it can only do so much. I exercise, see a therapist that I have a great relationship with but the thing is my life is going no where fast. Any advice on managing school, work and relationships? 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I’m being forced by my other selves to do what they want. Zenith, Damien and Thomas. Damien only wants to hurt others while zenith wants me to suffer. Thomas brings me insight into things I cannot see. I recently lashed out at one of my friends because of me being influenced. I have done a measure of terrible things because of these people lingering around in my head. I do not directly hear them. I know what they’re thinking when they show themselves. I cannot see them either. I was wondering if anyone can relate to this is all I ask.",2.205964285714288,4.903734525000004,3.1911904761904784,87.45000000000003,82.91666666666666,6.095238095238094,21.07142857142857,7.447530270364453,0.962392857142857,493,15,92,8,14,157,81,120,0.17300000000000001,0.782,0.046,-0.9485,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,4,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,13,2,1,1,1,18,27,5,0,5,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,8,4,0,0,4,1,0,1,4,3,0,1,2,4,20,1,14,23,2,10,0,2,3,0,7,5,0,2,4,68,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371420629222606,0.0,0.0,0.17460161916011485,0.1833596291346082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391239951255519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007140707124081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515333156365286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20129096366751548,0.0,0.221058255484085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20996643712108504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10779059632592022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19765781964384505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14543152243244226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13290606533276522,0.14916940839375775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13597522461777245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19365952429314115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4688822981442293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606065877026825,0.1256753064507556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16183181037268074,0.3470562876988161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126999022188223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mandatoryeuthanasia,2018/12/01,"Can You Induce It? How to induce schizophrenia in a predisposed brain: 1. Be predisposed - have mental illness or addiction in your family? Have a few neurotic people that are hard to get along with? Strange relatives? Great. 2. Trigger your epigenetics. 1. Chemically: Smoke methamphetamine for 3 days straight, do 3 blotters of LSD alone at night, take 10 grams of psilocybin, stay up for 4 days without sleep, take a copious dose of MDMA or an SSRI 2. Environmentally: Constantly watch tragedies on the news, listen closely to the radio - it’s telling you something special, live in a busy city, listen to the noise in the background - something is there, enter dangerous situations to activate your HPA and get some adrenaline in that brain of yours, read into conspiracy theories, watch out for your phone, STAY AWAKE 3. Socially: Join a cult, never talk to anyone ever again - they want to hurt you, don’t tell your secrets to your family - they won’t believe you 4. Behaviourally: Write excessively at night, sit in silence to stir up your mind to over-interpret latent information, engage in risky behaviour, stay away from people - they know. 3. Cognitive tricks 1. Yes, they DID know what you were thinking when you thought it and yes you DID put that into their mind because you ARE who you think you are",5.833752563226246,8.212212748917754,5.804392800182272,75.1025290498975,68.69696969696969,9.365322396901345,31.638414217361582,9.811843763644266,3.441696103896104,1039,45,171,26,19,326,147,231,0.111,0.809,0.081,-0.7476,0,1,4,0,0,0,44.0,0,18,5,0,5,6,2,0,10,2,14,6,3,4,2,30,26,6,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,8,8,0,0,9,2,0,2,4,3,0,0,4,5,23,3,37,20,2,34,0,1,2,0,34,19,0,3,9,104,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381555097757454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312551088295661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08861327055120452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11906795793110972,0.0,0.0,0.07725404891771535,0.0,0.0,0.14278245313874496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28294744472354666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369512024466429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16346203767653836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11463545625275573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389414395422236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324234467559761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397213886311927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135260946518194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13566816994600658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13929610028571374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190580581736832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12771505310219605,0.0,0.2559243912573987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09774276952423852,0.0,0.0,0.2378569403892091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757186542271222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273996708575876,0.0,0.0,0.12676530766659375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424509678204682,0.12682253607636468,0.12918630758494196,0.0,0.195127449809567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4052351915371819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905718989938183,0.1018615873257363,0.22153698156195933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16240823121406747,0.0,0.10061026789765083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07474923463315249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216417359970096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Nintendo_Innuendo,2018/12/01,"Any advice for someone who can't name their condition? I don't know how to explain myself to people. Hello all. &#x200B; So I don't have schizophrenia, but I experience frequent hallucinations in my day to day life of all sorts, which very closely mimic schizophrenia or some sort of psychotic disorder. You could google ""sleep deprivation psychosis"", and that is some form of what I am dealing with most days. Basically I just don't sleep, and no one knows why. &#x200B; Anyway. I was wondering if any of you had any sort of advice for someone like me, who doesn't have a diagnosis in a word like ""schizophrenia"" to even kind of explain what's going on. Not that most people are likely to understand what a person with that condition is going through, but at least there is a word for it, and one can elaborate if they desire, or just leave it at that one word. ""Insomnia"" doesn't even kind of come close to encapsulating all the symptoms of constant sleep deprivation which cause me to basically be disabled, the hallucinations being the worst. &#x200B; So.. I'm trying to figure out how and what to say to strangers when they ask things like, ""What do you do?"" meaning ""Where do you work?"" or when people go so far as to ask why I don't. They aren't necessarily being rude or nosy, they just want to know. I wish I didn't feel the need to have a word that generally conveys the severity of what I have going on, but I really do. I'm sure lots of people here have dealt with similar issues. Any advice? Thanks guys.",5.029382594417079,6.468188151724143,5.664679802955664,79.04591954022987,69.20689655172414,8.558292282430214,28.292282430213465,8.976282227363876,2.2206765188834154,1204,42,227,22,21,390,143,290,0.062,0.831,0.10800000000000001,0.9129999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,0,4,5,1,16,12,1,0,10,0,30,6,3,3,4,60,52,21,0,7,13,0,1,4,0,0,3,1,0,2,18,11,0,0,10,0,0,5,11,4,0,3,3,2,24,8,38,45,11,23,0,2,0,0,21,11,0,15,11,165,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567125448884544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846410452772529,0.31921565195543444,0.23819811867032464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637293070146852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08995689101215673,0.0,0.0754324415356959,0.0,0.09463035470519654,0.0,0.06991625929344615,0.0,0.0,0.16942316310283925,0.09027919775088228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100360997945717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11567623343210093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08565871957514584,0.0,0.0,0.044277225194627984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990686084774834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08670650506157672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09139868136044164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18237807180878315,0.1443759435141511,0.0,0.0,0.09272231479560022,0.0,0.0,0.0618521660174703,0.17112603054260944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07444754073101931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09538768289382432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06493087518320065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17801588668414456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428356711115532,0.07646136823714325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05609857331743955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06963792374795627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989273912644848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628949879763505,0.0,0.14839287922790131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08253220120909907,0.09101711959157596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08062123759741092,0.0,0.0,0.058176568377406875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059453210254482435,0.0,0.0,0.09116181535156097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07225311888528972,0.05165012399239855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15803376054083573,0.0,0.10069936342721296,0.0,0.0949642180144604,0.06375085399932444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31921565195543444,0.0 schizophrenia,Honey-Im-a-Duck,2019/09/29,"Schizophrenia and Friends My friend has schizophrenia and I actually met him at the beginning of my college semester, he’s a really cool guy. He’s had some episodes in front of me and our friend group but generally its not that big of a deal, we get it. He actually revealed to me early on that he liked me and I told him all I could really offer him was friendship since I was already seeing someone and he told me he was okay with that. Fast forward to now, we hung out yesterday and had a great time, today he’s talking about not being able to take it and not wanting to see me anymore. That despite me supporting him, he’ll always be alone, friendship or romantic wise. I guess I’m not really asking for advice, I just really want to know what having friends or romances are like for schizophrenics? Is it hard to keep people around? Are arguments triggering? Can you be yourself around the people you’re close to? Or just any general information, google doesn’t really help in that department. Surprisingly most of the results are catered to care takers, not really everyday friendly or romantic relationships. I just really want to know more. I’m kinda struggling finding my footing in something I know very little about. He may not want to ever talk to me again, but if he ever does want to at least I’ll know a little more about what it’s like.",3.605987773487772,5.975815150579152,4.65581563706564,80.90385215572718,75.10038610038609,8.023230373230374,27.39398326898327,8.841846274778883,2.401142728442728,1080,43,196,24,24,352,140,259,0.061,0.698,0.24100000000000002,0.9945,0,1,1,0,0,0,24.0,3,1,0,0,12,17,0,1,7,2,18,2,1,2,3,56,43,14,0,7,16,0,1,3,5,2,1,0,0,1,12,14,0,1,7,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,8,4,26,16,31,29,6,27,0,0,2,0,36,14,0,10,15,127,38,1,0.09949632125741092,0.0,0.19418811406068628,0.0,0.0,0.0972266536055935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030481823021873,0.10979666464031328,0.0,0.08278890977027986,0.0,0.0,0.06766091032927532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09867361522829153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17714564072834704,0.09301562935958772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10144313060413558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07943971643469698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10257633834758507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08706990122623727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800002376984421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09093783510143356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3843530549608973,0.0,0.051982721297778416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969504543916582,0.10960641517948183,0.09851700083418133,0.0,0.0,0.08912916077748023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06669028684640277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843690191340263,0.0,0.0,0.2187223044379148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14582663043917835,0.19944290504278303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379564428094297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4461792380248722,0.0,0.0,0.10682181357169017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15857137242003552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08230438511074445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08430291012363796,0.07659712905440756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10401515794565408,0.0,0.0,0.11290724627815885,0.0,0.0,0.07480885111561236,0.15994274834608505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05801710505341675,0.0,0.09431087875254278,0.19014599756526293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209488513507905,0.2934275406920759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kbayley123,2019/09/29,"Questions from a concerned family member on what to expect Hello. I am just asking for support. My sister has recently been involuntarily hospitalized due to hallucinations, delusions, jumbled speech, and just general psychosis. It’s been a slippery slope for a few years, but these past few months have been especially rough. My grandmother was diagnosed with schizophrenia, so it is genetic. I have memories of my grandma screaming and yelling “no, stop” and being tormented by the voices in her head. She used to think I wasn’t real, and that I was just an imposter. I don’t really have a single memory of her being cognitively aware. So I am terrified and worried sick for my sister. They have put her on Risperdal. I called her a little awhile ago and she sounded generally defeated and almost in a zombie like state. I have not been able to go 10 minutes without worrying about her and getting tearful. I’m just asking for support, as in what more can me and my family do, what are the best methods of treatment, and more on what to expect. Any input is appreciated.",4.980986425339363,7.43083033846154,6.129683257918551,71.54619909502262,71.25641025641025,8.895927601809957,31.470588235294123,9.478462496947786,3.4233438914027152,856,39,137,21,17,285,121,195,0.125,0.7759999999999999,0.1,-0.7398,0,0,1,0,1,0,24.0,0,0,1,2,7,6,0,0,9,0,23,3,1,1,0,28,32,14,0,2,7,2,1,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,8,11,0,1,2,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,7,6,22,4,24,23,6,17,0,1,0,0,15,7,0,2,8,111,30,0,0.16821879118257668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14911580864228918,0.0,0.16844682021530855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11439454647229624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.314523723776189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765352430714416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17177019378578276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707385320725789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31716341047581825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878873754183323,0.0,0.0956026156326224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726410108757548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821832043124568,0.16859942142704815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13427063422105082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605838705367442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16910634748037887,0.1884435448034114,0.0,0.0,0.1914698121459824,0.10776526511988528,0.0,0.16609576222661415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406384417674877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3817853815022467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778780901271104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145287025073197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16215691179844186,0.0,0.0,0.3416686959606936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832738625186678 schizophrenia,colorfulchalkoutline,2019/09/29,How do you guys deal with suicidal thoughts? The only reason I'm still alive is because I love my mom and I couldn't make her go through such emotional hell as losing a child to suicide is.,3.306153846153848,4.688828333333333,4.003076923076924,89.51692307692308,73.35897435897436,7.2512820512820495,28.384615384615394,7.793537801064563,1.6032153846153845,151,6,32,2,3,48,36,39,0.314,0.523,0.163,-0.8689,0,0,0,0,0,1,2.0,0,1,0,1,3,3,1,0,2,0,4,1,0,3,0,7,9,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,5,1,4,7,0,2,1,1,0,1,7,0,1,0,1,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15445744146697835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26122254679950785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285017187796888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440010827239936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508849728457864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834662062932029,0.0,0.0,0.22868437322292914,0.0,0.16913240057592427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967543356979609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19270609085922408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26051573605354983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023487375482602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5543108398008252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20115456448542068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MasterChief864,2019/09/29,"Anyone believe schizophrenia has a spiritual cause ? I personally believe I’m possessed by evil spirits, no medication has had an effect on my symptoms, I haven’t been diagnosed schizophrenia, just a “psychotic episode”",11.542857142857134,12.747728000000002,10.452142857142855,51.29535714285717,54.71428571428571,12.714285714285715,54.64285714285714,12.161744961471696,7.670714285714286,180,13,21,5,2,57,29,35,0.196,0.804,0.0,-0.765,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,3,0,5,3,0,2,0,3,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21568854495310533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6950773709347585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168824112241452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3130893209809669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31074984576753645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693430426492718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3206171755642079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,witchkitch,2019/09/29,Feel dumb on antipsychotics But I still have creativity,5.416666666666668,8.330133444444446,4.520555555555556,70.66750000000002,103.44444444444444,10.68888888888889,26.722222222222207,8.841846274778883,4.516288888888889,47,2,7,2,2,14,9,9,0.27699999999999997,0.504,0.218,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5349382304350857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8448911702811073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Hudik21,2019/09/29,Is it possible to be around other humans but not being able to see them? I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I have been thinking About reality and i asked myself if this really is not a thing. I mean that if i am really scared of someone somewhere am i able to literally delete them out of my own reality. Like seeing ghosts for example.. i locked myself in a room with a key and my family got in without breaking the door. I locked myself for only an hour or two. I have been addicted to weed in the past and i always run away from people that i smoked with after my first hit. I panic and ran as soon as possible but that might be because i am scared of Police really. Please dont be rude to me but criticism is welcome hehe. Do any of you have the same problem? I also hear voices in my head but i dont do drugs anymore really. 21 y.o. University student... every comment is precious to me and i wish u all to succesfully get through this horrible ilness.,2.1228851922552465,4.348879352331608,4.3902317971093545,81.67914098718302,79.31088082901555,7.586473956913007,23.62939732751568,8.532816995589336,1.8013792746113988,757,26,146,17,19,262,115,193,0.127,0.765,0.10800000000000001,-0.7199,0,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,2,1,4,8,1,3,7,0,23,4,1,0,1,27,34,15,1,4,10,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,2,1,8,10,0,0,2,0,0,2,5,5,0,2,5,4,28,3,30,23,3,16,0,0,2,0,8,8,0,4,6,117,36,1,0.2666008049298315,0.0,0.0,0.1453171145651573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066002836910842,0.11091661332340877,0.0,0.0,0.09064884474171636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321981803585506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11866561952025535,0.12461788207307155,0.0,0.12524011609670924,0.0,0.0,0.08125868809300871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13529710255046118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.312454157838574,0.0,0.15458614678243102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11231133827590736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12566375601191104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338525424011517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0696439585167003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10661250907470388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13680467009604574,0.0,0.1502392415561181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13127404510665022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06512384338095023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520321663634692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141410661727349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10138096282075508,0.0,0.1563993011163987,0.0,0.0,0.12725031740769668,0.09241371498323298,0.0,0.0,0.14632381254689467,0.0,0.3005523500513632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12755048254634188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34158260468363016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26691391462121683,0.0,0.2124463246065025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11294499843236702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08855886425783774,0.08541351546517381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13021512390218698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15328888425919082,0.1284968311402239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,myphilaeagles,2019/09/29,"I can't sleep I can't fall asleep. They can not move when your eyes are open. No matter how badly they want to. And trust me, they'd really like to devour your body and your soul. I have to keep away from walls. Cause they are bound to the walls. If I run,t hey will be there.",-0.7808899297423899,1.142435360655739,0.5757845433255291,106.4555737704918,88.8360655737705,4.141451990632318,8.714285714285714,5.288315135182226,-2.156332084309134,211,0,57,1,7,66,45,61,0.087,0.773,0.14,0.2944,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,4,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,9,4,4,2,0,11,11,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,1,12,2,6,8,0,7,1,0,1,0,8,4,0,1,2,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33668542102838583,0.0,0.29921065863404706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3980505582165154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36812831678615454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185215400561446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17507368494269548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.380873637043518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295707770365572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3586128434273092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113665000333141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,A_Rose_For_Evelin,2018/12/03,"Dealing with the breakdown Today was the first episode I've had in a few months (two to be exact) and was in a real bad place. I was cleaning my gun thinking about using it on myself after I was done cleaning it. But I fought that through off and decided to go somewhere I knew I would be safe. So I have that going for me. So here I am just trying to calm down over a glass of my favorite mixed drink. Yes that's not always the best thing to mix with my med's but at least everyone here know me and my boyfriend so if anything changes they will call him to get me. Sometimes you just have to go to that safe place.",3.182991452991456,3.861064923076924,3.840256410256412,93.25696581196584,72.84615384615384,6.3931623931623935,25.982905982905983,5.82211442006289,0.5674188034188035,480,15,110,2,9,152,85,130,0.061,0.85,0.08900000000000001,0.5448,0,0,1,1,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,2,8,6,1,0,6,1,13,1,0,1,1,21,22,9,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,7,5,1,2,4,1,0,3,1,2,0,2,8,0,18,4,21,10,3,16,0,0,0,0,6,9,0,1,4,84,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618049564678213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16002268431162395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623646313625627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20407208096983565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19856375579504487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057111901340305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20047805928370555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19899844532990665,0.0,0.19049518905860655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18581332296770156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16540620540694725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10159648170273873,0.0,0.3315455494132672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10686924446256883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21599943144917327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15521482997896727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4063352539907139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22133621778695786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19232431791925106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12918951225366135,0.1246010830794928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18432381430483927,0.0,0.0,0.1320244807989364,0.0,0.18995758906748605,0.0,0.0,0.1679496118098379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13813765947904502,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,QueenSolitude,2018/12/03,"Mental health Discord server **Hey**, I have created a server that focuses on people with mental illnesses. It's a place where you can talk to others who might be relatable and helpful, but also a place to get ideas on how you can improve yourself and your life. You do not have to have a mental illness in order to join, but keep in mind that that's where the servers focus is. The server encourages happiness and improving yourself. Glamorizing mental illnesses and encouraging people to harm themselves is prohibited. If you are studying something related to mental illnesses or well-being, or if you have a job related to one of those things, you can have a role that shows you are a professional and willing to talk to people in case they have questions or need advice. **Invite link:** [https://invite.gg/selfcarecentral](https://invite.gg/selfcarecentral) or [https://discord.gg/HfjXNxT](https://discord.gg/HfjXNxT)",7.489006849315071,11.362833157534249,6.719434931506853,63.14024828767126,70.16438356164383,8.307534246575342,28.988013698630137,9.017664075816787,3.2402890410958904,755,29,100,17,16,232,85,146,0.121,0.6990000000000001,0.179,0.8735,1,0,1,0,0,0,49.0,0,8,1,0,4,5,0,0,9,0,17,6,0,1,0,23,20,15,0,3,9,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,9,6,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,10,4,16,17,0,10,0,0,0,0,18,9,0,8,0,80,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367735469998256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119310801908301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07312666754367754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489968363688781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14877773897897933,0.0,0.0,0.09381652812427516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15800502979015313,0.0,0.0,0.13889505567312102,0.12440856814263393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988624082181965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7052660580371082,0.14848223259434054,0.14132616492217434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10378331272203499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948448555745065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911052368067735,0.0,0.29247019711563216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15679440176702295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775297351355106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249993823394947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298745738405507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12584660365263745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dearangelou,2018/12/03,Inositol What can you tell me about Inositol? Has anyone tried it?,2.3724999999999987,5.237324583333336,5.433333333333334,66.79500000000002,94.83333333333334,9.066666666666668,22.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,3.0623666666666667,53,2,9,2,2,19,11,12,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5341134360175941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6676532628295824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.518615424084641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lanigir0,2018/12/03,Paranoia I think I maybe paranoid due to marijuana. Is this common and if anyone has experience this it will be super helpful. I’ve broken bridges for new people to enter my life through reddit and irl. I haven’t been diagnosed with anything besides depression but what if I’m paranoid. Or just paranoid of being paranoid. ,4.402259887005652,7.3008448474576255,5.2450000000000045,74.97281073446331,75.10169491525423,6.6451977401129945,33.56214689265537,7.793537801064563,2.997099435028248,262,14,39,4,6,85,48,59,0.23600000000000002,0.696,0.069,-0.8201,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,0,9,9,6,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,6,5,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523691561352305,0.0,0.2970128809498685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3108666424051366,0.3663341868623485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530567099073305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24192234077424196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549340259004552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626005537401712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34858638239425355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502219374630361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23126800312164125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Rubbingfreckles,2018/12/03,"People who were encouraged to seek medical help when you originally didn’t want to. How was someone able to convince you to seek help. Was there something specific that they said or did? I struggle with mental health issues and was helped along the way by people when I didn’t want to but nothing I am doing is helping my bf. He’s almost 40 and has a strong background in drug use (E, meth, LSD, has a drinking issue, smokes pot 2-3 times a day) and has auditory hallucinations even while not high and some visual that he says are acid flashbacks. He thinks people, usually coworkers, are always talking about him in a negative way. No matter what job he has had in the past 20 years it’s the coworkers. He thinks random people in the mall, coffee shop, etc will say stuff about him to others. He has acted in retaliation to hallucinations and gone to talk to his bosses or will say things to random strangers. I was his boss at one point which made for some interesting conversations. He’s been dealing with that for as long as I have known him (4 years) and he seems to cycle out of it for a while and then come back after a couple weeks/months. Sometimes the FBI is coming for him (even though we are Canadian) CIA, border patrol, RCMP etc. That paranoia is especially bad when he’s not smoked pot for about 24 hours. The past year however and specifically the past month has been different. I was always a safe person for him and someone who was not in his mind talking about him or out to get him. He’s said a couple things lately about being paranoid about me doing something or saying things. He’s also with in the week been seeing things. Tonight he swore people were chasing him while he was driving in a parkade and chanting things at him. There was no one there. He also suffers from depression and anxiety and when I say he did a lot of drugs it was about 10 years of heavy daily drug use. He’s just started doing E and LSD again with a new buddy since the summer after years of not and drinks almost daily. I’m obviously very worried about him and have been unable to get him to a dr. 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Please help! I just found out my neighbor may be schizophrenic, and I need legal advice. She is a middle aged woman and causes daily noise complaints from her frequent shouting, door slamming and from hitting her apartment walls. She has episodes where she runs into the streets and starts punching the air violently and screaming curse words as if she’s fighting with someone. I’ve contacted the landlord, and he says he’s been trying to get rid of her but can’t do so because she’s a ‘protect class’ and that people with her disability can’t be evicted for those things because it’s discriminatory. He said we just need to wait until the lease expires. Guys, I know people with mental illness need help and accommodation when possible, but I haven’t been able to sleep without being woken up for about a month now. My kids also wake up frustrated. She’s always yelling out curse words like bitch, whore and fuck. So I always have to tell my kids to ignore it. I’ve called the cops so many times and they always telling me the same thing. They’re hands are tied. They can’t take her in or fine her. They always grant me temporary silence before she starts another episode. At this point I’m interested in figuring out what I can do to get her hospitalized. The cop told me she appeared schizophrenic and that she was probably of her meds. Any advice? P.S I live in Chicago, Il. I’m not sure if there’s any special state laws that could apply to my situation. 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Ok, a little back story on the events leading up to my diagnosis... &#x200B; I was a very heavy alcoholic coming out of high school. I remember the moment life changed for me. I drank heavily one night, and the next evening I went to my mother's to heal. I felt very hung over. I was laying in bed that evening and my mother's bible study group came to her and they ended up asking me if I'd like to join. I kinda didn't want to, but I decided to join because I was not feeling the best and a part of me thought it would help me think better. They started opening prayer, and as they prayed, I did my own personal prayer. I said, ""Dear God, help me. I feel horrible and I don't want to live like this no longer."" Then I lifted my head and my mind was completely different. I felt like I couldn't consentrate on the study because a ton of information was being unraveled to me it seemed. Then once the study ended, I realized I was no longer feeling hung over or overly exhausted. So that night I stayed up most the night, and I had conversations with the source of this new avalanche of knowledge coming to me. I remember one thing in particular. I asked the voice, ""Who are you? Why should I believe a single thing being said to me?"". It answered me with a riddle. It said ""My father is like a flame in a hot encampment, and my mother is of the Earth. You put them together and you have me. You tell me. Who am I?"" I am horrible at riddles, so I asked my mom. I asked her what the answer could be. She replied, ""It's the sun!"" And I was like, ""Well, that's stupid!"" Then the voice replied, ""I am THEE son!"". And I became a little frightened. The voice went on to tell me all other sorts of things about who I am, why I am alive and how things are. Real insightful stuff that I couldn't argue or find fault in. If anyone is interested in knowing what was said, I'll be glad to share, but as of now, I'll spare you from the details. But a very long story (over 10 years) later, I got diagnosed with Schizophrenia. But I still cannot shake these things that have been shared with me from my mind. I don't want to treat these memories with more medications. I think if I'm just more vocal about these things i'll be fine. But regardless, I just want people's personal experiences or actual knowledge of Schizophrenia to help me know if I'm in bad shape, or what to think really. I'm wondering if some people can relate, or have any ideas on where I should go from here with coping with the memories of this unbelievable things that's been shown to me",2.7979536662368254,4.420317845124284,3.86400462448308,89.02284583574192,75.1376673040153,7.389016852683534,23.25265685446218,8.133680483312611,1.0981214727199964,2015,58,435,33,43,652,228,523,0.078,0.7809999999999999,0.141,0.976,1,0,1,0,0,0,83.0,0,6,4,3,15,22,2,1,27,1,41,8,1,2,1,90,78,36,0,16,18,6,6,5,0,3,6,7,1,2,32,26,2,0,25,0,0,9,9,6,1,2,25,13,78,16,62,42,10,55,1,0,0,0,44,25,0,16,25,299,110,2,0.0,0.0,0.07168443583711989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07850428858670766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959173926895248,0.08925954061283799,0.04995397590260646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05136355898148066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746933486399863,0.0,0.0,0.056484686840804085,0.061334382432523635,0.08955866031037328,0.0,0.0,0.08276203900040723,0.07708966511342602,0.06496765350484672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08401641102361929,0.0,0.0,0.07770885013840162,0.12655516803519976,0.07701934149112039,0.0,0.0,0.05865025553420228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07455834897571409,0.0,0.07674800125783289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13012401309663296,0.0,0.0,0.0970366652705448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718560438242126,0.0,0.0,0.11142775364072333,0.0,0.1410624472862042,0.0,0.06713930393760438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041747888381154084,0.0,0.05875109301622779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07538912616938112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969494625981512,0.07761243641301208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08292516874999191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08074121876340394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05188557538587573,0.17943940224535435,0.14724847809418645,0.06486478178400094,0.13001608086225086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740012318922043,0.0,0.0,0.1483433292031929,0.08603315092489755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0709462181767336,0.07812344282487849,0.2068061405053783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07823039908849712,0.0995541175370192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07954788251468285,0.0,0.10185309045021487,0.128281427837303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738456042487868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08361131432374129,0.04705909173948655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16642724480979773,0.0,0.2795016135239743,0.0,0.0,0.07434344291712383,0.0,0.06687342696188854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062240746102017665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05199396809769154,0.0782964806227462,0.058663673560175635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08409186381114532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12841110308034126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3416157336138294,0.1412068087175738,0.0,0.05831746641511715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24244225469668804,0.17330978522824764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06604758632284166,0.1361926500197081,0.13256888358184493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07966209447472385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052182473262308286,0.0,0.08925954061283799,0.04730455960790587 schizophrenia,xAllNightmareLong,2018/12/03,"Does anyone else experience this or know what it is? Hello there! Maybe one of you can help me out, because I haven't found any information anywhere else. When I try to sleep at night, right when I close my eyes, I hear voices inside my head, but it sometimes is accompanied by other sounds (a voice talking over sirens, for example). It is never my own voice, it's either the voice of someone I know or it's an unfamiliar voice. I can't control it, what the voice says is unpredictable and beyond my control. Also, it sounds like it's inside my head, it sounds like it comes from the same place my thoughts do, if that makes sense. I can still think while I hear this voice, so I'll have my own thoughts inside my head at the same time as this other voice is inside my head. It only happens when my eyes are closed. As soon as I close them, it starts, and the voice stops as soon as I open my eyes. I'm sorry if I didn't explain this well, or if it's confusing or doesn't make any sense. This has been making it hard to sleep, so hopefully someone can help a bit. Thank you, everyone. <3",3.090763116057232,4.3934747747747815,3.85429252782194,90.6884022257552,73.77477477477476,6.845151033386327,22.51828298887123,7.285733465282438,0.5653271860095384,848,21,187,9,17,270,113,222,0.033,0.861,0.106,0.958,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,2,1,2,12,6,0,1,8,0,17,9,9,5,1,36,35,22,0,4,9,0,1,2,0,0,0,15,0,0,24,8,0,3,8,0,0,1,5,1,1,1,5,19,26,5,17,30,6,24,0,0,3,0,12,11,0,9,14,121,50,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09332590229807744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587216269013846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08160018794980903,0.11957416387423435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07113996439084849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274074779839646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005277447909653,0.0,0.0,0.26178062368189625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10212600088822407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949777448382671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11151299153185844,0.0,0.11415616046971275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12795683513262332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10319848002156846,0.0,0.10454134694693706,0.0,0.4790763714026445,0.0,0.2630614533716524,0.0,0.15644470012696668,0.0,0.0,0.11591061720535867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282718479217127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11402861670159295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336968586304531,0.0,0.11724203460128105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09000715484599968,0.0,0.0,0.1095161645665168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07907974898241724,0.08875651643210536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12192790864958107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966218162491657,0.0,0.09280547313312767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335709474603547,0.0,0.19776108512621512,0.0,0.115420464436922,0.13063743168256012,0.08260170543395821,0.0,0.09319772389725826,0.09756742331950784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09379999879186247,0.0,0.10744277969696946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07477741262244722,0.0,0.18529542401631516,0.06804940442992025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07923244993519052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10492838822789363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ThrowAwayAcct22402,2018/12/03,"Could i have schizophrenia? I feel like a have schiz. Im only 16 but recently i feel detatched from everyone and myself and just my whole life. This year of my life ive just felt unmotivated to do everything besides smoke weed and hangout with my friends and thats about it. This weekend though i spent all day in my room listening to sad music and just thinking about life and i feel like everythings falling apart and i just cant do anything. I feel empty. Also i noticed today i was staring at my ceiling and literally i was seeing it move and breath when i zone into it. This isnt the first time ive noticed this either i just thought about it more today and realized it could be schizophrenia. I dont know much about schiz but i just looked into it and i feel like i could have it. Just came here for some help i guess. ",1.9551179992955312,4.2490082455089855,3.079499823881648,90.48088411412468,80.31736526946108,5.845579429376541,23.595984501585068,7.048011613610866,0.8373144769284959,655,23,135,8,17,210,91,167,0.071,0.83,0.1,0.6808,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,15,5,0,0,2,0,16,4,1,0,1,41,31,16,0,3,10,0,6,3,1,0,3,1,1,0,12,15,0,0,10,2,1,3,3,1,0,1,6,10,25,4,14,21,6,18,0,1,3,0,3,6,0,2,12,98,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081839634951643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132452708000587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15472513392822032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3240320027441778,0.0,0.0,0.08724488950743108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15854802649248373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292665498865224,0.24316322264210224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3420100488965748,0.2899337753677105,0.12989073076725816,0.0,0.0,0.115069733220874,0.0,0.0,0.10451756858271458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14902699312214976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09067583227586083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14612641969506185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07434675996326108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866583743358963,0.19827401722699467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360175509775686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14378202354662395,0.09944691372327756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080360513265143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288710312149477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133573416030534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10780123950005004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08668243947507298,0.13291264583472664,0.10739780111408036,0.0788832907417368,0.0,0.2564606580040791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15103612146821505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08711636490507896 schizophrenia,Suzina,2019/07/20,"I got a job after 4 years of unemployment. So a little background, I used to work as a counselor but then developed delusions that caused problems. I was delusional without any break for 3 years in a row until I finally had the delusions stop. I started looking for work a couple months after my delusions stopped. I had some interviews along the way, but it seemed like I couldn't get anything. Around the time I started looking for work, I started posting on this sub because it was only when the delusions lifted that I could admit my diagnosis was right and that I had been delusional that whole time. I posted less and less, but back in October when I was looking for work my plan was to post a big ""Yay me"" type post when I finally got a job. &#x200B; Well this is that post. It's fast-food. It's not paying what I used to get paid and it's not as glamorous. But you know what? It's an F'ing job. And it's not like I didn't try applying to a lot of low-end fast food jobs over the last year. It's just that this is the first one to give me a shot. Finally, I'm going to have an income again. I start next week. &#x200B; If it seems absolutely hopeless. If it seems you will never work again in your life. If it seems like your new destiny is to be a burden and nothing more. Remember your situation right now won't lat forever. Keep applying. Keep looking. Keep at it. You only need one person to give you a chance. &#x200B; Thanks",2.3418531289910622,4.416487803448277,3.531992337164752,88.8703895274585,77.86206896551724,6.503192848020435,25.22349936143039,7.526774132740827,1.2395759897828866,1133,42,233,16,27,367,145,290,0.08,0.8290000000000001,0.091,0.4692,8,0,0,0,0,1,45.0,0,7,0,7,11,10,0,0,19,1,19,2,0,3,1,41,49,20,0,7,12,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,23,7,1,5,7,0,2,1,8,3,1,3,13,4,29,7,28,31,6,52,0,1,4,0,12,11,0,9,36,154,52,13,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308807054837089,0.2589251836576311,0.048302371175886524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058451075700311564,0.06323115111081086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05461716030086556,0.0,0.04329881229835275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07296667435920086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05671112981871411,0.07859258812595943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06291089213542995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334274342617704,0.0,0.060417500650815324,0.1717778638229529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07421977288329659,0.13627558602111622,0.04036759765283805,0.0,0.11361726671733452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819425479908434,0.18940236132257765,0.0,0.0,0.03903585497886165,0.0578983734119508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05017010709716591,0.10410400919117324,0.07119003558251989,0.0,0.0,0.23858694794670546,0.0,0.0,0.06038658517699911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05669492307255705,0.0,0.0,0.05266733845559709,0.054782187994559216,0.06860055685215657,0.07554048430944886,0.0,0.0,0.06815454521540829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09626260673897694,0.1080419923781622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062020059769124475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34013225626073923,0.0,0.0,0.06796546353316701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08046236968460742,0.12131729703189788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25864968964347346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0798399281822334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20109966428765166,0.0,0.0,0.11876737878403396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06539425189128717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283553174802674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04822424367313531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12269304837578812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05637976559494536,0.05697543357693152,0.0,0.06386388615106903,0.0,0.0,0.07930169569079318,0.0,0.06846972678300446,0.0,0.25855094321017824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589251836576311,0.1372216538447962 schizophrenia,Strange_Birb,2019/07/20,"Starting hearing a voice in my thoughts. I don't understand. How is it that I have an inner voice but it's not me and it's not controllable and it wants me to hurt myself. It just started these last few months, but I thought it went away. My grandpa had schizophrenia. Maybe this is just part of my ptsd? It came back last night after watching a show that upset me. The voice told me to hurt myself, but then it told me to hurt my girlfriend and she can never know that it said that. I show a lot of symptoms that I thought was autism? But could be related to a schizophrenia disorder. Not looking for a diagnosis or anything. Mainly I'm worried most people will just think I'm anxious or making it up. When I tried to explain it to someone they said it sounded like intrusive thoughts, but it's not because my intrusive thoughts are still my thoughts, this is something.... different. It feels so separate from me. My thoughts are so scattered. I can't feed myself properly I lost my job. I only shower once ever three or four days. I don't know what to do, and I don't want people to think I'm making it up. Just hoping to reach out to a community that may have some insight or some thoughtful comments.",2.052050209205021,4.451483025104603,2.9994878661087867,90.58515648535568,80.67364016736401,5.665004184100418,26.29640167364017,6.918507183188421,1.1851474811715477,949,40,190,11,25,301,125,239,0.127,0.825,0.048,-0.9647,3,0,1,0,0,4,28.0,0,0,1,2,11,7,0,1,8,0,19,2,0,4,2,54,53,18,0,4,17,1,1,1,1,2,1,7,1,0,25,6,1,1,16,2,0,2,9,5,0,2,17,10,30,2,20,32,7,22,0,4,2,0,11,6,0,10,15,141,55,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220791187831457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08173523517865125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09331822021558,0.07637406820140942,0.0,0.06054702268111167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360025990124092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11140037456627047,0.07930217669124799,0.0,0.0,0.06405579928402015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10377249853412032,0.11383397327647472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08984429511504302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05022122709748157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11194542983120027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09865119878830456,0.0,0.0,0.31898536884099005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09856379968545607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917180732329873,0.1619247245867861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04852471673864997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08340719168696432,0.0,0.1084239401902028,0.08444176059964914,0.0,0.0,0.13259915736686176,0.0,0.0997843643719425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07927951393966033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07660483516666086,0.0,0.0,0.0932088982154488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10577687811649916,0.0,0.0755404203463792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10755827365347588,0.0,0.13771758881293109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161045063490784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18895984458449125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08415695038018974,0.07646451088868521,0.0,0.0,0.14060415619358232,0.0,0.07932031947096642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10323572474730774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12728568918622024,0.0,0.6308176472500606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18981678400689786,0.0,0.06743451426190415,0.0,0.0,0.10339984520856764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11716780332251005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09207439505198643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086840023250092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,purplepenguiinz,2019/07/20,"Since being diagnosed with this I've had multiple jobs, went to college, got a certification for computer support. But none of it mattered. I'm jobless and running out of money.",4.951145833333332,7.700972656250002,6.638750000000003,66.46458333333337,72.4375,9.266666666666666,38.79166666666666,9.725611199111238,4.829091666666667,143,9,21,4,3,49,30,32,0.0,0.912,0.08800000000000001,0.4019,2,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,6,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,14,2,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4333416528772392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3414680730697167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4236784661363047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.353174509905579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4844937644017664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957836304053326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,isa-ren,2019/07/20,"I think inmight be schizophrenic. Help? Im going to try to explain this all the best i can. Its probably important to know that my mother was diagnosed with schizophrenia when i was a child. But she was a good mom, for the most part. So now, im about the same age as my mom was when she started having problems. I think im having delusions, they feel so real, but i havent talked to anyone about them because i know they sound bad. But i do act on them. Right before all of this happened, some incredibly stressful events happened in my life. Since that time, i keep having these thoughts: 1. The guy that im seeing is trying to manipulate me and control me. All the time. He just feels like a sinister person even though hes super kind to me. Weve been together for a year long distance. 2. I think the guy im seeing and my ex are in contact with eaxh other and with my family and are plotting to cause me harm/ embarassment/ maybe get me arrested. 3. I think that my dad and my stepmom are plotting against me to do something bad to me. 4. I think that my ex has poisoned my food, and thrown it away so that i wouldnt be poisoned. Ive thought the same thing about my stepmom. 5. When i vissited my boyfriend, we took the sim card out of my phone to change it out. The sim card disappeared. I thought he took it from me to steal information from me so that he could contact my family and plot against me. 6. Some of my emails got deleted when i visited him too, and i thought he did it to make me think that i was going crazy. 7. I lie to everyone about everything because i feel like it will protect me from their bad intentions. At the same time i feel like everyone knows about these lies and is just waiting for me to take one erong move so that they can do bad things to me. Aside from that, i have had a really hard time eating and working for the last year. I have no motivation to work. I quit a job and lived off of saving for six months because i didnt feel comfortable around the people at my job. They didnt like me. I went an entiere month without bathing myself. Which is super embarassing but i think thats probably not normal. In general i remember how i felt a year ago, i felt peaceful. From about august of last year on, the world just felt sinister. Like it feels so big and so small at the same time. As far as i know, i dont have visual hallucinations, except ar night sometimes while falling asleep- which can be normal. I do have what i think may be minor audio hallucinations- like hearing radios or songs from a disfance at really odd hours of the night, but those could be real too, so i dont know. Sometimes i have the feeling of crawling on my skin, but i know theres nothing there. I thought it was just some weird nerve thing. I also get the hairs standing on the back of your neck feeling and feel like im being watched or im being plotted against in general. I smell like a decayed smell often. I thought it was just from getting over a sinus infection, but it keeps coming back Sometimes i taste blood but there isnt any blood. Sometimes this happens when i eat or drink something. Everything that everyone says to me feels like it has a hidden motive. Like they are doing it to manipulate me or to control my emotions and thoughts. Ive sat for hours watching the times that my dad / my ex / mu boyfriend connect and disconnect from messenger because i think they are talking to each other about me. Sometimes i look in the mirror and i dont actually see myself- or it just doesnt feel like that person is me. Im really freaked put about all of these things ans think that probably i have some insight into them being bad/ wrong because i grew up with my mother and know what onset of schizophrenia looks like. Im pretty sure this is it. But i keep falling back into believing these things and believing that these thoughts are correct. Im afraid if i talk to anyone they wont believe me or think that im making it up for attention- this was a common thing in my childhood, we were ridiculed for expressing ourselves a lot. Can someone reality check me and tell me if theres something going on with me please?",3.142644927536232,4.919233675120772,4.053768115942031,87.37239130434781,74.56763285024155,7.022222222222222,26.97584541062802,7.793537801064563,1.5224990338164246,3265,124,665,46,69,1050,323,828,0.109,0.7909999999999999,0.1,-0.9197,2,0,4,0,0,0,85.0,3,1,11,10,43,37,3,2,35,0,69,18,6,11,6,148,139,56,0,8,26,9,17,12,0,4,7,5,1,5,55,33,5,7,47,4,1,15,13,17,0,2,31,32,116,20,93,94,17,83,0,0,7,0,52,30,0,16,49,456,171,6,0.0,0.0,0.0389269829030067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0353601663822643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031900098164021375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027126635554702003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055784170132906964,0.0,0.0,0.03551064575363004,0.0,0.0,0.037478061588804235,0.09201907275644998,0.16653283438976205,0.1215831720653936,0.0,0.03394353663598213,0.13482744641418656,0.041862198409252566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040978120427528526,0.04219843604019087,0.03436178861466571,0.0,0.0,0.08948027704269257,0.06369799713914008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040487611319822016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14025269860948006,0.03907711119757828,0.0,0.08163506074027413,0.0,0.044870992885004124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026347034512025018,0.0,0.0,0.11435009859540088,0.07170129861723518,0.0,0.0752096713749153,0.0,0.2218659616165232,0.17098497035022572,0.11490225338963155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04823526666343776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06252279176813068,0.0,0.06801138845295726,0.03345792289369708,0.03190375660585714,0.0,0.0,0.07899494004930079,0.10582404976545244,0.0,0.03573369394441964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044959041268753504,0.0,0.02673749285247432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0785674255319183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4739696790755501,0.0,0.0791695372351595,0.10636845984410932,0.0,0.04153940018286534,0.153457888310561,0.06503151031807339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028175556972337593,0.23385945230962854,0.0,0.03522368868536964,0.035301482795655904,0.06699527401555301,0.0,0.0,0.033913136117574044,0.0,0.0,0.05325390234552604,0.0,0.040074966548783134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343760485901978,0.06367979370581671,0.04239686287297058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07486831231613979,0.07816765609399957,0.0382756263191029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027030563789976314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043197090504490984,0.0,0.02765477236636649,0.06966099251366605,0.0,0.04378735048685617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040582571948472514,0.1290248221676309,0.038169437952789535,0.0,0.040100567724161325,0.0,0.04242803099532316,0.0,0.090807332586771,0.07666385756608404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045187706631505516,0.03406592702335822,0.0,0.03172220819949372,0.0,0.0,0.09536173415596357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032997502525280005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033798751864194995,0.09212804236376186,0.19726164199917945,0.0,0.02823441774442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04569397421093343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037595946705610735,0.0,0.02999239044528702,0.0961864529213496,0.03486570519661015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590072576901902,0.2811596157985833,0.03919182023273815,0.25334626593098303,0.13956142686202774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08863873659924122,0.054165518220991374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036978521884991074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03845263244343182,0.0,0.05808093506008492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043613561758406916,0.0,0.10275166493743572 schizophrenia,rejectedtboi,2019/07/20,"hm I don't know if this is schizophrenia but I am losing my mind, and this is my best guess? Ever since I was like 10 I've felt bugs under my skin. I've mutilated myself trying to get them out and it calmed down for awhile but it's gotten so much worse I feel them all of the time. I am not doing well. No one I know understands and some of my friends even think it's just me being overimaginative. But it's woken me up at night. Last night at 4 am I was asleep and felt ants crawling all over me. I started panicking and clawing at my skin but when I turned the flashlight on my phone on there was nothing there. I don't think they're real, I don't believe there is some bug conspiracy against me. But I feel them and their tiny legs on my skin and it's making me suicidal. I don't know what to do, does anyone else feel that kind of stuff?",0.7203192142418651,2.6321844972375708,2.413434622467772,95.66949508901169,82.48066298342543,5.348189073050952,18.342848373235114,6.42735559955562,-0.29575531000613875,658,15,156,6,18,216,102,181,0.133,0.7659999999999999,0.1,-0.8083,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,4,2,9,7,0,0,2,1,16,5,5,1,3,36,34,15,1,1,8,0,8,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,10,8,0,0,11,0,0,0,6,1,2,1,7,8,30,6,18,26,6,18,0,1,0,0,6,11,0,4,8,107,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111808099328941,0.16383981860248584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18015625203385136,0.16780863914325794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13993244793016188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13357868167668174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561461592867913,0.14464168176616699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24255572616287616,0.0,0.30706447198189785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12354088632848373,0.0,0.0835428700254177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761515032050227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16651467147920132,0.2636360014702252,0.13034252455187148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0781206711824938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788908814712778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10673668872219937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16145674107509306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175473179351956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001168137874716,0.0,0.15343152077614947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835460862629692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820049529726471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13227365509474978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11318037271655013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830510121999587,0.17490824750814682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20491914511751694,0.0,0.0,0.09324089516136473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856383857691668,0.17392886372772232,0.0,0.1664649657073712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14377226264020476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629551149230614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kirika_,2019/07/20,"I need help. I'm 17 years old, haven't been to a psychologist or a psychiatrist for this... yet. Lately, I've noticed that something might be wrong with me. I'm not a social person, I essentially have no friends and I'm scared as hell to talk with someone about this, even if, apart from my mom, there's really no one I could try to talk to. I don't remember exactly when this started, I just know that it's been a while, probably a few years since I've started to think that everyone, anywhere I go is watching me. This has been something that mind would constantly acknowledge silently, but I wasn't conscious of it, until now. The more I think about it, the more everything adds up. When I go out for a walk (I like being by myself, always had) I have this sickening feeling within my guts, I know that everyone is looking at me, every movement, they count every breath I take, they look on my phone every time I unlock it to avoid people's gazes and with every second that passes, those breaths start to fade, because if my conception of ""panic attack"" is right, I have those almost every time I go outside for a simple walk. I feel like I'm going to cry any second, everything around me becomes blurry and I feel like I'm going to faint as soon as I stop myself from running straight home and try to take a breath. But it's not just outside. This has been the most difficult part for me to accept. In my own house, I feel like there are cameras hidden. In the air conditioner, under the boiler, the camera of my phone, I feel like someone is watching me through the mirror in my bathroom, at night I can feel someone watching me outside the window in my bedroom, neighbors are watching me through my balcony, the security cameras near my house, I can feel my fucking reflection staring at me every time I'm not looking at it. I'm going crazy and I don't know what to do. I'm so scared to tell my mom about this, I've already gave her so much pain and disappointment with my past as a self harm and now this. I don't know if this is right for r/schizophrenia but I don't know what else should I do. I have to clarify that I know this is all in my mind, and now I'm conscious of this thoughts most of the times. I'm trying to working on it, trying to tell myself that anything of this is real, but I can't help it. It's been a while since I left my house, and I'm not planning on doing it, even if I really really want to. I'm just scared that I won't be able to calm myself and end up in the living hell I go through every time I take enough courage to try and deal with this. I don't know what to do.",5.080173004144888,4.773294891992553,5.910312969303777,83.54196612002163,68.42271880819365,8.642253859554275,29.79930317774975,8.049812674583475,1.8377228209286964,2035,67,432,23,31,671,210,537,0.13,0.789,0.081,-0.9842,0,1,2,0,0,0,64.0,0,0,2,2,20,25,4,6,21,0,43,7,4,0,2,74,92,31,0,9,16,2,7,5,2,4,2,0,4,2,37,19,0,3,23,0,0,12,15,15,0,3,9,15,67,10,70,75,10,66,2,1,8,1,20,26,3,9,33,295,104,1,0.064716753291649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06480448010594185,0.0,0.07141654654135078,0.0,0.05384952308966615,0.0,0.0,0.04400961147035317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053256373734279716,0.057611631178040225,0.0,0.07362464968310213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03945073212740224,0.07147456947354958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06993581926046086,0.0,0.051671061453238486,0.0,0.07108831462625526,0.0,0.06672013094058914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054062543102769436,0.0,0.05731983446634085,0.06686970602889272,0.0,0.08548961038179476,0.0,0.381686591012274,0.12367926229140892,0.1163264897963848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22905914489585305,0.18493464593029116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05000000305628037,0.059829595586260165,0.0,0.0,0.2574601560566629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08675655112156179,0.0,0.064916180233054,0.0,0.0,0.22402333278282116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489664458384336,0.0,0.07300331657633899,0.0,0.07031494181004115,0.0,0.0,0.1580866834441184,0.0,0.057146078822410115,0.0,0.16303732030251364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06865424813872081,0.13069094430400632,0.15159095857182567,0.0,0.0,0.04757426007443375,0.047986652542754325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06073228893111375,0.0,0.0,0.07368045256229509,0.06790934604990598,0.0,0.043853746913160935,0.0,0.0688631883726866,0.0759311659842909,0.0,0.0700819372132865,0.06177946387015161,0.04486644813325871,0.056508172732726174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06977560587610471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.073661833546295,0.12437762797742274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07331146570235647,0.11053550740947166,0.0,0.0,0.19437827992150244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06751368788263312,0.0,0.0,0.1070687341746553,0.0,0.0,0.0659705800079178,0.16450288515063555,0.09964423691681898,0.0,0.0,0.13742055322539098,0.0,0.0,0.0541061035762047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14597683312799406,0.1040337497375653,0.11313058976653788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08293576472264544,0.0,0.05137787318207762,0.18868429641352136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21969213682886754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03817161784467471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047114567169132135,0.0,0.0,0.0459729247240249,0.07075761031828509,0.0,0.08335093459543723 schizophrenia,Necrophagedotjpg,2019/07/20,"Possibility of becoming Schizophrenic or am I just overthinking it? Hey, uh. Mother had schizophrenia, and recently ive been seeing like these black orb things come and go randomly, and i feel like ive been hearing voices at late hours of the night (but its kinda hard to tell since i live in apartment, so grain of salt), im not asking for a diagnosis or anything like that, but as someone ignorant of the early effects, How do you know that youre going down that path and are these some warning signs that i should seek something about or could it just be my family history making me paranoid of my mind playing tricks on me?",18.195,7.95889316666667,15.841666666666672,52.73000000000002,54.83333333333334,19.333333333333336,55.83333333333334,13.5591,6.972083333333334,500,19,92,10,3,161,90,120,0.094,0.8440000000000001,0.062,-0.6077,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,1,5,6,1,0,3,0,11,1,0,3,0,26,20,12,0,2,8,1,2,3,0,1,1,2,0,0,10,5,0,1,3,1,0,3,1,2,1,0,3,7,12,4,13,14,1,13,0,0,2,0,7,5,0,6,8,62,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16715836422232153,0.0,0.1898987682272785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22434069913030685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17497817578523134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16218246764696312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19149252162288,0.0,0.10270843599463264,0.14511583653809476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308864810574313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18196423505712628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22894183753001224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000417520444434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194148398971998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116347233324142,0.0,0.2291390518361616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977166061853894,0.0,0.17936717030970634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355905944006642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20510300398529085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906233819796833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22899811854088964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20056598768396494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16186800275393662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680309154476833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721110624168847,0.15637910055895954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17754423558046956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13495028930365802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gattonorris,2019/07/20,"So scared of the voices coming back. I'm been treated on risperidone now and the voices have slowly faded away but there's something inside me which tells me it can't last forever. It scares me because I went off the rails completely at it's worst. Drinking and drugging all day to the point of attempted suicide. I can't take it back from my wife who sat next to me and tried to support me the only way she could without being sent away. I eventually was for a fourth time and now im being treated for it. The Drs are reluctant to give a definitive diagnosis but I'm so scared of them coming back. The last two weeks I've had peace and have done things I used to do - think of others. My experience made me extremely selfish. I was all 'fuck you, you'd drink and drug till you pass out if you had this'. My wife forced me into a clinic where I stayed for a month. The issues substance abuse and hearing voices slowly cleared up but it can't stay good for long, right? Does anyone know if they stay away or do they creep back? I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Any response would be appreciated bc it's the first time I've spoke about this despite hearing voices for a year non stop. It nearly killed me and I'd have destroyed my wife's life if I suceeded in my attempt. I feel great shame for it.",2.614572545188082,4.4211379250936345,3.6542452369320952,89.53981436248169,76.11610486891384,6.141605601693535,23.21918254355969,6.895973343053719,0.6389327145416059,1034,31,217,10,23,333,153,267,0.22,0.715,0.066,-0.9943,0,0,5,0,1,1,20.0,0,4,3,3,12,14,3,4,15,0,21,9,1,2,3,33,42,18,2,5,9,3,1,0,0,1,5,7,0,0,16,12,2,2,3,2,0,5,4,9,0,2,11,8,29,5,32,25,3,44,0,0,0,1,18,14,1,4,20,143,45,0,0.0,0.1233355080844622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07078814364145859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07278561766948105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934019298266992,0.3201704011248496,0.0,0.0634553225828068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17933718491018474,0.10914158703350592,0.0,0.0,0.08311135677083785,0.0,0.0,0.06713263884625406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09109420261795803,0.10652528699411304,0.0,0.20394686653781816,0.2414342156172774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101824846968185,0.0,0.0,0.052633540426245434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08854312139158325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09623411488700817,0.0,0.0998573726635447,0.0,0.08730991526641214,0.0,0.11476506295163183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346451748427856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244042160714962,0.10864809547446504,0.0,0.0,0.11516565235991988,0.0,0.057207868726541634,0.16970257459070828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07352535002411006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09212076557950503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984971698343868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08308760544254902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11070617288271192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916890920246163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098403385434387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08889652867367609,0.0,0.0,0.3126516490410757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08013738726894865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328541372412229,0.0,0.08702804918903044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11386299299224048,0.1181257291514992,0.0,0.0,0.07826645655007071,0.0,0.09098358484749812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06915606725789095,0.06669984839738606,0.0,0.0,0.12139721875441238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07067364613848999,0.0,0.10168565215962852,0.0,0.0,0.08990462497801291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08262573551252801,0.08349869950259617,0.0,0.0,0.09649707253835388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10034382860745317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07394607428367106,0.0,0.0,0.06703374255833076 schizophrenia,thrway1aq,2019/07/20,"Developing Schizophrenia? Hi, I’m in my late 20s and I have a brother diagnosed with Scz. I have some “sympyoms” that makes me fear I have the condition too. 1. Delusions: Since my teenage year I’ve been through several (potential) delusions. I feared I was gay to a point I analyzed every move I make, how I sit, how I speak, how I walk, etc. I feared I had cancer, I was terrified for a significant amount of time and caused me severe distress. I feared I had leukemia. I feared I had OCD. And now I fear I have schizophrenia (since my brother diagnosis). Now, every time there was a trigger of some sort that lead me live these delusional states. I never believed truly that I have any of these but the fear was present and causing me to seek reassurance constantly. Mostly involving losing hours and hours on internet, forums and med sites. It looks like there is always something that has to cause me distress eventually, now is schizophrenia. Is like I’m trying to convince myself that I’m not constantly but in the same time accept the fact that it is what it is. Now because my brain is constantly scanning my psyche for schizophrenia signs and gives me anxiety this is what I found: I don’t have too much appetite (since 7-8 years ago) when these “fears” started interfering with my life. I was always a little shy. I don’t like crowds, I don’t talk too much only if it is necessary. Don’t talk too much with my family (childhood trauma, alcohol, scandals). I fear that I hear voices, happened few times when I was very tired and half asleep, they weren’t truly voices as in hearing them in the proper sense, they were thought-like voices chatting random things between themselves. I reckon that’s my mind, I know that my thoughts are all mine (as in from my own mind) and never experienced real-world hallucinations. I find myself telling things to my parrents, my brothers, my friends. I just tell them stuff and I imagine what would they replay to me. I imagine telling them things I never said, should have said or want to say. I imagine scenarios all the time, what I would do when certain things happen, picture myself as other people, powrful characters, etc. These are all my own things, I imagine them in purpose. However, I cannot go past the fear of becoming scz like my brother and the random chatter that occuree kind of annoyed me.",4.70326530612245,6.610371752834468,4.8967891156462615,82.3970204081633,70.70068027210884,7.5796825396825405,30.06031746031745,8.238735603445708,2.2260510657596364,1857,77,337,28,35,582,212,441,0.15,0.779,0.071,-0.9865,3,0,2,0,0,0,67.0,0,0,7,2,17,25,1,12,13,0,39,8,2,10,8,62,58,24,0,5,6,4,0,4,1,3,5,9,0,0,30,14,1,0,10,1,0,4,10,15,0,1,16,12,74,10,30,39,16,44,0,1,2,1,29,10,0,8,32,238,104,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05380516248882866,0.06486776018325094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101128656185963,0.0,0.0,0.041276758090370576,0.0,0.04643384511070919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03700097029049562,0.06703623175043258,0.0,0.06838592126372425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06775910222607663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187060864272051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19677909872555094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06160724704452208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353887498528628,0.0,0.0,0.10228145662593316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05722072324705494,0.6830218572316838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05547692164466457,0.0,0.0,0.06655228317512475,0.04689516589034573,0.0,0.0,0.05822710418640085,0.034496102829780495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10735017724562054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682223633543505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11955071283810828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06320768268920196,0.03335806304303419,0.0,0.06847004864258356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042872830538214134,0.11861601267218826,0.06083539597847941,0.053597493651014544,0.0,0.05097107809705394,0.06790559637527503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08103284463905737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06742185450805488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257546277754662,0.0,0.0,0.06451242540083019,0.13386016091577768,0.0,0.14044224329766286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04616360516501302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057943160594336726,0.04208038799020592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0573792802989938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06908767385578475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547549798428927,0.04826952871845948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371430478302699,0.0,0.15063017231633294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046728327346014,0.0,0.0,0.04296239497554948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06948474985591535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975735930785116,0.1591583235025841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016254496758367,0.0,0.0,0.09637494954768966,0.17696761680705195,0.06976348393628178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04120999428659117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050082251298224766,0.035801284834202765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08623631198465402,0.0,0.0,0.07817511332086644 schizophrenia,tinyprettytree,2018/11/07,"My doctor says she thinks I am schizophrenic. I did a lot of acid I’m scared of what is in my head. I have not associated the fear in my stomach with anything yet. My feelings are not real. I did a lot of acid. It was so much fun. Now my head is a tv. I smoked weed and looked in the mirror. My eye bags were dark and my eyes were wide. I feel horrors. I have no where else to run to. I feel like I’m on probation again, but this time it’s not going to end. My stomach holds a giant rock. It hangs and swings back and forth. All emotions make me feel the same warmth. I could interpret anything as anything. Feeling like a ghoul.",-0.8009867330016611,1.3308175746268702,1.226766169154228,99.52665008291876,93.40298507462688,4.171807628524046,17.145936981757878,5.82211442006289,-0.6251396351575456,481,13,116,4,18,158,84,134,0.046,0.8390000000000001,0.115,0.8382,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,2,8,0,12,8,6,1,1,24,23,7,0,1,4,0,5,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,5,0,1,7,2,0,3,4,2,0,0,5,11,19,3,12,17,5,16,0,0,3,0,2,7,0,2,8,76,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4198696246561065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13077653017532967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13579037685517625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17407810833663634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14207513635689326,0.19131053745414195,0.15063522413807334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913807122408463,0.4299730245896917,0.24300202626163486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966570638874515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3490903069417268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16617928656324407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281945924007358,0.0,0.0,0.2891819360465648,0.0,0.0,0.11352582174148652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12502407580614222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19358162684826646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13524979746783186,0.17027390277817656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897665375668816,0.0,0.0,0.09917160977942333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,siobnob,2018/11/07,Living in a household with a Schizophrenic. I grew up/ raised by a schizophrenic grandmother. I really don't know who was raising who but i really want to know other peoples stories and I find other peoples stories extremely interesting. ,5.071219512195121,8.556136121951223,6.315317073170732,64.39004878048779,78.02439024390246,10.109268292682929,35.02926829268293,9.888512548439397,5.285552195121952,195,11,25,7,5,65,29,41,0.0,0.841,0.159,0.7077,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,5,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3521774403947185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4235259243210472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3402464946863511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5342676880353778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4936944384027216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22727297193074125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wakingop,2018/11/07,"Meth precipitated schizophrenia? Ok, first off- I know, no drugs. But here's the thing is I'm NOT on drugs and haven't been for quite a while &#x200B; Now, I have for a long time occasionally heard voices. Not voices in my head. Like actual auditory hallucinations. Like I hear people talking, usually whispering in another room. Often, I am alone with no electronics when this occurs. This predates any drug use. But it has become more common since the stimulant psychosis. &#x200B; I am paranoid. I don't even know why most times- but something is not right. They are out to get me. Those voices, they are family/friends/coworkers plotting or gossiping about me. I don't know, it might be? But they act cool to my face. And like i said, often I can verify that nobody is even there. &#x200B; I get these weird theories, delusions i guess about the paranoia too. Like a car flashed its headlights while i was walking home from work last night. I became terrified- i was the only one around. It had to be them marking me to a hidden 3rd party. Or if I get a text message, its always at a bad time. And the sender knows that because they are in the house, and it is to distract me while they make a move. &#x200B; Also, visual distortions. I wouldn't call it a hallucination. But it feds into my paranoia. I'll see a shadow flash around a corner(maybe, it might not have even happened) and think it is someone creeping. &#x200B; All in all, it is very similar to the stimulant psychosis during meth usage. This is said to be very similar to organic schizophrenia. Also, it is said that you can reinstate the drug induced psychosis with only small doses. Would this Also mean that it Would leave me more likely to develop schizophrenia assuming i already was predisposed? &#x200B; Maybe I'm just being paranoid about that too. &#x200B; Idk, I know you can't tell me what is wrong. But from those that do have this affliction, does this sound like a paranoid schizophrenic? Or more like some other psychotic features? &#x200B; And I do have a psychiatrist appointment in a couple weeks to get a proper diagnosis. Just wondering what you ",3.6696147701047366,6.590879773536898,4.15813361737381,81.52936445943548,78.23664122137404,7.116373749926032,26.696786792117877,8.20894155585173,2.1747332859932547,1713,69,292,34,43,539,201,393,0.109,0.828,0.063,-0.9443,0,1,7,0,0,0,91.0,0,3,6,3,21,14,0,1,22,2,41,9,2,5,2,54,66,23,0,4,16,0,0,7,0,5,6,10,2,0,32,12,1,0,10,0,0,4,11,5,0,2,10,12,37,9,31,47,7,34,0,0,1,0,19,15,0,13,22,213,69,1,0.0,0.0,0.04958465871300724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05262535222781856,0.056071713455284417,0.12190172695754348,0.0422792080353424,0.4404335955986762,0.4939319177427961,0.034553537564508616,0.053280249790017296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09046595030288067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042425449608057365,0.030974196521363205,0.05611726935774187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05188418527344181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056221917889157334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04446545410219086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357006642508805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068147723909608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04322020487751665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10618757000619304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05597455555629257,0.0,0.04493240934634536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05214722063621106,0.0,0.0572682122046238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050968040782143315,0.0,0.0,0.058629606776178636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13962325746527396,0.04141812445043119,0.0,0.05380200322727592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737674012850704,0.0,0.0,0.04496654623470687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033917046429184826,0.0,0.10209388917747897,0.05534857961871579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10780586616277836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05400454438753943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04768311641136578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03443116266384525,0.07728881525482711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03522627101588886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05404424591574234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04339271218127103,0.14500001242750174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0404901578097794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04203176766035024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04305238811565538,0.039117147009028914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04084032963975633,0.04441145868586453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03375687855175942,0.032557934119864435,0.0,0.0,0.08888571890732715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043884790257184066,0.05596164843175826,0.08384955755292615,0.0,0.0,0.040757891101989685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04584944257150948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055102864670200966,0.036991350573745634,0.0,0.0,0.07219001160562498,0.055554358796253776,0.4939319177427961,0.0 schizophrenia,whowhatwhyit,2018/11/07,S/O Hallucinations My significant other says their hallucination is a friend but it's constantly convincing them to cut theirself. I'm not sure how to help my s/o to understand that they don't need to listen to a hallucination. 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Is there a term for a thought process that almost gets hallucinatory, but always remains silent (it never becomes an auditory hallucination)? I've been having something along these lines a few times recently when falling asleep: it's like a continuation of my usual inner monologue, but as I fall asleep something takes over the monologue and comes up with some unexpected words so that I wake up somewhat intrigued and frightened. I can remember the words/thoughts and they never get audible. Has anyone else experienced something like this? Note 1: I'm on aripiprazole and mirtazapine for treatment-resistant depression. Note 2: I do NOT believe my ""hallucinatory"" thoughts were implanted or something like that.",8.55925619834711,11.639159347107439,8.243049586776863,57.51548347107442,62.96694214876032,10.459834710743802,41.02561983471074,10.577609850970193,5.429359669421487,615,35,81,17,10,196,90,121,0.08900000000000001,0.831,0.079,-0.2947,0,0,4,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,7,0,7,3,3,0,2,20,14,10,0,0,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,7,0,0,3,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,4,2,7,3,10,10,4,16,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,4,11,54,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17155183564561985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14255163407794086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11979065001080012,0.17553717920114167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18920904195393065,0.0,0.19301852606538708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14757666857380985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14755732329045798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14311554531088924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17901484354313035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25109431346379946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17264986533180113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642644791763687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16915744011381764,0.0,0.19407171378506294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5275608021742311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288110206984778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4080258853189289,0.0998978384035333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18868433919040814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HanzWortmacher,2018/11/07,"I am wondering about your experiences with latuda I’m a writer. Yes, I’ve done my due diligence in looking through the frequently asked questions sticky, read many articles on schizophrenia, and tried to look up information about Latuda. And finally, there was a mention of people I could ask directly about stuff, but no names. So hopefully this doesn’t get deleted. I recently went down the rabbit hole of following some who definitely has delusions—impossible to say if some of what he speaks in is truth or hallucinations—and likely from all my research is at least somewhere in the realm of sz. At first, I thought this person was trolling. But as I went further and further into his posts, I saw this wasn’t the case. I seriously spent the better part of two days reading his previous posts here, and on other social media. There is a noticeable differences in his speech patterns, and acceptance of reality when he’s taking his Latuda. I’d also like to mention, the most eye opening part of my journey into this online personality: he was mostly kind. Passionate. Actually god damn intelligent. And this inspired me to create a more believable and relatable representation from someone suffering through this. And the saddest part is how people treated him. And in some cases, even actively tried to exacerbate his delusions. I was truly, deeply saddened by this. Anyway, I know this is long winded, but I’m trying to make sure it doesn’t get deleted, as I’ve spent so much time trying to find answers and gotten none. The question: I’ve read the actual side affects of the drug, but have had trouble finding some real experiences. Is there anything in that list that is missing? Does it affect you mentally in ways beyond your symptoms? I’ve read a lot of posts on here, and it seems like people feel dulled by their medicines, “vegetable” was used quite a few times; can anyone elaborate? Thanks a bunch for anyone who responds, and sorry again if this post was too long, or not wanted in this thread. I just want to be better informed. 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So I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia when I was 17 in 2010, my last episode was 2012. I've been healthy for 6 years now. I'm thankful for a supportive Psychiatrist, family and friends. The medicine I've been prescribed with helped me tremendously. My Psychology degree also was a big help in my recovery. But recently I'm having trouble with my career and love life. I haven't worked at a job for more than 6 months and I've had 3 jobs already. I keep getting rejected with girls I dated(never had a girlfriend). Honestly I envy the people around me who've never had a mental illness. It also pisses me off that they have better careers and relationships than me and have normal, happier lives without much effort, compared to me who has to climb mountains just to have a normal life. Sometimes I just wish that this illness disappears suddenly, or can be removed or cured immediately.",5.832710196779964,7.7385739883720985,6.309534883720933,73.39181574239716,67.83720930232558,9.013237924865832,34.74239713774597,9.466822959209583,3.607824150268336,754,37,122,16,13,244,108,172,0.141,0.6940000000000001,0.165,0.7506,2,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,4,8,10,2,0,8,0,17,8,1,0,1,22,26,12,0,3,6,0,0,0,2,0,6,0,0,1,5,11,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,4,0,0,9,0,17,6,20,16,2,17,0,1,0,1,9,6,1,2,8,86,22,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17497926022829413,0.2536070648241409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411555317680044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14023692697876955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609390700894685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494799789150243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225061133575629,0.0,0.16568623732125976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21256414473107246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147005043442048,0.14093892309373202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12925078136161106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22399681238595665,0.0,0.0,0.14001487164467386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14311015436615088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3195903311107977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265642309884285,0.0,0.11656274682664647,0.0,0.12229429232175862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31071800663830745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198565537997029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15656276995042687,0.1702383399008664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15682379964029525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799364898094748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459843801373917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18234071552659606,0.15284998808779446,0.0,0.11543644307216155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10210998417853964 schizophrenia,UKRandomUser,2018/11/07,"I made a blog about my experiences Hopefully this isn't breaking the rules but I made a blog about coping with schizophrenia. It will also have posts from my close family members (mother, father, sisters) about how they help me cope with my problems. I'd love some feedback and comments. I've only just started it but if there is anything anyone would like to know I can blog about that. &#x200B; [https://www.crazyfamily.blog](https://www.crazyfamily.blog)",7.665542857142856,11.072165573333333,5.2659047619047685,76.39200000000002,66.6,6.419047619047619,28.04761904761905,7.447530270364453,1.7985619047619048,378,13,55,4,7,106,58,75,0.044000000000000004,0.775,0.18100000000000002,0.8979,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,1,0,8,4,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,3,0,16,12,6,0,4,4,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,8,3,8,8,1,4,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,3,2,38,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19079755682665764,0.0,0.25850839877931514,0.2899087409263709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16682524480387867,0.0,0.1963363801391657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23338340137089425,0.22491814091428314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15991951766706494,0.0,0.0,0.2369702518644491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13112091386448638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11656132402287815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21533365270468,0.4515126750652179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18145580241595646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284999383251544,0.0,0.0,0.2282950813942224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16887276949305366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694850210748672,0.0,0.2899087409263709,0.0 schizophrenia,gr8gh0st,2018/11/07,"I think that everyone I pass in public is making a little comment about me. Also I'm always in somebody's way, or when I stand I face the wrong way.",3.6437500000000007,3.664450875,5.7687500000000025,82.20125,71.5,7.65,25.375,7.1686216300943375,1.1683249999999998,116,3,24,1,2,41,26,32,0.114,0.8859999999999999,0.0,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,1,0,3,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,3,4,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859503211156074,0.2975286753344457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3416755150703089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3583812343156084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23868218834413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22911779715012254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5676482619795871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39094901607160704,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bsara08,2018/11/07,"Im making a schizophrenia and bipolar nonprofit, would you like more info and maybe to volunteer? ask me about it and maybe we can work together",2.3550000000000004,5.295249592592596,3.212870370370372,84.05041666666669,90.11111111111113,7.1444444444444475,25.26851851851852,8.07648339933343,2.3832296296296294,117,5,20,3,4,37,24,27,0.0,0.9059999999999999,0.094,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,7,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,13,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33480447473567404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3868433213483134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749648911794407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23905546181889945,0.0,0.7195821687235391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26072389331349305,0.0,0.0,0.2544062408135395,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cheeseburger203,2018/11/07,"I think I'm experiencing the early symptoms but I'm too afraid to tell anyone I hear music that's not really there, almost everyday I hear someone call my name and when I respond they usually are confused as to why I responded to nothing. for a solid two months I was convinced that someone was living in my basement and would occasionally hear footsteps from the basement when no one was there. Also sometimes I get the feeling that people can hear my thoughts and that I can feel them judging me. I thought that all this stuff was normal until I saw an article that listed the symptoms, i did some further research and pretty much all the symptoms apply to me, what freaked me out more was that yesterday I was watching an unrelated video about psychology and the guy in it was saying the word ""brain"" alot, but then I heard someone whisper in my ear ""brain"" from behind me but I was against a wall. anyway, i have a valid reason for thinking people won't believe me, it's not a dillusion. last year i tried to tell.my mother that i was depressed and asked if i could go see counseling, she said I just was in a ""bad mood"" and refused to let me see a therapist. I'm afraid to tell her that I want a diagnosis because she will just tell me I'm fine and to forget about it, what should I do? are there other ways of getting a diagnosis so I could prove that I'm schizophrenic? ***tldr:* I think I'm schizophrenic but no one will believe me if I tell them.**",3.681952734434177,5.388468508710799,4.8591001363429775,82.45040145432512,72.97212543554008,7.360642326920162,29.202999545523404,8.04050195162591,2.020110861990608,1150,48,220,17,23,379,150,287,0.102,0.85,0.049,-0.938,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,3,0,13,9,0,3,18,0,25,8,3,1,3,44,52,21,0,8,10,1,2,0,0,5,5,9,0,1,18,9,0,1,9,1,0,1,5,6,0,3,16,16,42,2,24,28,6,20,0,1,4,0,25,7,0,6,11,165,60,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09609974844166136,0.0,0.0,0.07674689982588609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06710421540158508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971867410495478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08013065472661712,0.058502211993443826,0.0,0.0,0.21624987840737875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21426775199641773,0.09799574958725744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15324792357726386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265852472852843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09705028403136697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10028036929523487,0.0,0.05454176754964295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09502504850523164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4326591120540844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07822807914641987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09813547616467287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474296515122315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07660206440971835,0.0,0.07054874011761524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09402988732236303,0.09208547396253307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13006304624894732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306655256020422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09763564262379076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061480619554187,0.09867279085735192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128912039450872,0.07631892298338744,0.0,0.0,0.15295078238442442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439443361795308,0.0,0.09491644445831607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10986229643351678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992476584491698,0.0,0.0,0.4194085501437522,0.0,0.0,0.11142816834128977,0.0,0.18448044287139348,0.0,0.15237837508127886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06515709731595996,0.0,0.0937484097030816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10569701841335152,0.0,0.05660539003611467,0.07617624650414823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0865976880869104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06817409064749441,0.0,0.0,0.06180131245481948 schizophrenia,VPleacoff,2019/03/06,"voices in my head Hey guys, I'm freaking out. I've been having this voice in my head for the last few years that is trying to break my spirit and ruin my life. Every day, it says things like, ""fuck you up!"" and ""Fuck the rest of your life up!"" and ""Every day! every day!"" I don't know what to make of it because I'm trying to escape from it but it catches me at all hours of the day. For the rest of life? Is this something have to look forward to? it's scary and it's really loud. I wonder if anyone else has these problems and what advice is out there for a person with me with my condition. Please feel free to share your thoughts because I'm dying inside and can use some feedback. Alright, thanks.",0.8894748858447521,2.9470740205479484,2.3498356164383547,95.5515570776256,82.76712328767123,4.441278538812785,17.267579908675803,5.2151,-0.6706003652968038,541,11,119,2,15,175,89,146,0.10300000000000001,0.757,0.14,0.7076,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,3,0,0,1,10,2,0,5,1,9,7,2,2,1,21,22,8,1,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,4,0,2,13,10,0,0,4,0,1,2,1,5,0,0,2,6,12,6,23,20,5,17,1,1,1,2,8,8,2,3,9,76,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14392151566369285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10298246210417254,0.1509070274126161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17956254442646505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37993684232132463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15285466645048126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303457089654204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3722723712758009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446981637179945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723182520613641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458315755288009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023060700137321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450423462997843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08094191355144346,0.12005386171295734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120872700539902,0.07195417065390777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236791414307594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09831136623761144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12860029116836888,0.0,0.1616705653740556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14092824857465985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09435212878192087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11712394738441888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338428815741534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13559677087160452,0.0,0.0,0.09784710638851324,0.0,0.0,0.11692484699651612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999885779157842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272036967087549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597202138648565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09484428481546986 schizophrenia,mrsengels96,2019/03/06,"I just got out of a two month stay at the hospital I was admitted because I was scared my boyfriend was going to kill himself (he didn't) and ended up staying for two months. I am going to a day program at the hospital for the next six weeks doing activities like cooking, group therapy. It's only for a few hours a day. I plan on working in customer service afterwards. Does anyone have any advice?",3.933713080168777,5.397036316455697,5.5272784810126625,78.88602320675106,71.91139240506328,8.30464135021097,32.154008438818565,8.841846274778883,2.857985654008439,315,15,58,6,6,107,60,79,0.10099999999999999,0.848,0.052000000000000005,-0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,1,7,0,7,1,0,0,0,4,11,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,0,2,1,2,0,3,5,0,7,1,12,6,1,19,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,10,40,8,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19179471530962486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334716824342789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13723793770563186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964558228048768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25315839043459715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17175893953386664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17383872493922484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230917879759949,0.0,0.15697663875678786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932883724029936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21714587483711364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09588857935706026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133248568862757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208737486115708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14927369138623015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965025001207685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183996492201368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22445412378852386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3834584260865873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15743754999613607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14288834500307038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sohaib_Langrial,2019/03/06,"Loud Thoughts Before Sleep Feels like I'm just looking at myself from a window as I'm doing all sorts of weird things, just banging my hands on the glass and just begging myself to fall asleep. I laugh whenever I feel like a failure. I have to exhaust my brain from when the thoughts become too loud and too rapid for me to keep up. I find it hard to be the person I want to be. Instead I'm just hearing a million voices telling me about meaningless things and twisting my memories in a terrible knot. And there's always someone else controlling me, and I just can't help but watch through some weird glass that bleeds out colour from the outlines of everything I see. But sometimes, there's colour that just feels dead. I've been prescribed Risperidone for when thoughts get too loud, but I always feel terrible after I wake up from using it. It's a hangover, and I've never had a single drink in my entire life. Advice will be helpful, guys. Anything to stop the thoughts from being too loud and fast. Thank you.",6.120414551607447,6.5431152842639655,5.487626903553302,84.9588853637902,66.20812182741116,7.987986463620982,31.645093062605753,7.492282038375204,1.9431153976311348,809,30,156,7,12,245,113,197,0.13699999999999998,0.7929999999999999,0.071,-0.8996,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,1,16,9,0,0,11,0,10,9,5,2,2,35,29,13,1,1,9,0,6,2,0,1,3,6,1,2,7,8,1,3,9,1,0,1,2,5,0,1,6,17,19,4,26,18,3,14,0,0,5,0,7,7,0,2,8,103,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14361415646978667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24457613217756585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12094107017479433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16231317148147698,0.12505783548746588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16406343990212627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16483564876848514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397141334682714,0.0,0.0,0.1227718179206651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13208419179877856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972431136894676,0.20998607699804345,0.0,0.0,0.13432489955130564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07678403393855954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552013720567109,0.0,0.0,0.13165329431004313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16564214999039925,0.0,0.1970173596435132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130630753996905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038069252005733,0.14360101024910085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234150119082355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334977779619285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832565202461518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117113430555475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14707283570720553,0.0,0.12452440638827025,0.0,0.14535382236493335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228707403576464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12845537197234946,0.13530719002610558,0.0,0.0,0.19527628766545524,0.0,0.0,0.4667005678567815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12693204013605974,0.0,0.0,0.08668476632434899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RedditUser_0123,2019/03/06,"A couple of questions. I have a father with paranoid schizophrenia and as I’m sure you’re all aware, that puts me at a higher risk of developing it myself. My father doesn’t like to speak about it, understandably, so I find it difficult to ask him things. I came across this community and thought perhaps I could get some answers. So my question is to those who had their psychotic episode during their later years but are now on medication that is helping. Looking back, even as far as childhood, was there any signs there that you just put down to having a peculiar personality but now see that it has something to do with your schizophrenia? Also, is it possible to have schizophrenia without any of the positive symptoms? Hallucinations/delusions etc etc. ",7.2214030819140325,8.5217017810219,6.797761557177619,73.43845904298463,64.03649635036496,9.300567721005676,35.66017842660179,9.444778638647367,3.4400095701540967,612,28,102,11,9,191,97,137,0.036000000000000004,0.865,0.099,0.8565,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,2,0,11,5,0,1,5,0,13,2,0,0,2,20,21,10,0,1,4,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,13,5,0,0,6,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,4,3,13,2,20,16,4,14,0,0,2,0,14,5,0,3,7,82,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13746485376365045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23378981283716985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16069918711617254,0.0,0.0,0.1321771102907217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19660277939396026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13724465386826087,0.1901992181858927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3834180777843524,0.11353542637013635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15710946944636886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08980835924192439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152180010880787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839795101561999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14434901576244435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731667383946484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500926125632131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19378646762263566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3456051232004293,0.3851248370535897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369785423333748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13233363531724662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16200957405898073,0.17866535196059738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11419980231907036,0.0,0.0,0.13646590998992728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789493877442053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16570122977318796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11069513424355892 schizophrenia,Aaron_Patridge,2019/03/06,"Fear of Being Hacked I'm constantly afraid that my PC has been hacked. I'm taking my meds, but I sometimes will see the hard-drive going while it should be idle or I'll come into the room and the PC will be on but I turned it off. This has led to me formatting the PC over and over because while I *think* it is probably a delusion, I can't calm down and stop stressing unless I format it. Things have gotten to the point that I'm considering getting rid of my PC, but I'm a huge gamer and this is my primary form of contact with my brother. Like most of us, I know I isolate and I don't really care/mind but I do need/crave some human connection and I'm able to do this via the PC as my brother lives far away. Also, I really enjoy gaming. I don't expect anyone to fix my delusions and this doesn't happen so often that I'm willing to up my dosage yet, but can any of you think of things I can do to try to alleviate this fear without having to format and then download all my games again? This can happen every day for several days in a row when I'm symptomatic and the stress it creates causes me to be more likely to be symptomatic. Thanks. 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Title sums it up. I’ve been recently diagnosed as schizoaffective-bipolar, and it’s been rough to say the least. My therapist really pushed for me to go to a facility the first time I met with him, but out of fear and delusions (hospitals and psych wards are a major trigger for me, I think they’ll kill me or sell my organs) I decided against it, hoping I could take care of myself well enough on my own. Well, it’s turning out to be much harder then I thought, and my symptoms are getting worse every day despite being on so many meds. My therapist advised it again, saying I’m in crisis, and he’ll attempt to get a referral for me. It’s a big step for me to take, an undetermined amount of time with strangers, leaving my two year old to my family to take care of, and my job. Did anyone else have a hectic schedule and manage to make it work by going? Any advice, stories from your times there, really anything to read about it would immensely help from you guys in specific. Thank you. 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Hey everyone, I am hoping to come up with some more ideas to help make high school and college more manageable. Here are some ideas I have already: &#x200B; Homework: Only being given the work that makes up the essential core of the class. That means exemption from all other work that serves a secondary purpose. &#x200B; Lectures: Ability to record lectures and have a copy of notes for each lecture created by the instructor. Ability to freely come and go during class. &#x200B; Class Discussion: Exemption from mandatory class discussion or permission to substitute with comments in a different format. &#x200B; Group Projects: Substitution of a group project with an individual project &#x200B; Exams: Distraction free environment Open note tests Rescheduling tests so that they are more evenly spaced/not on the same day Extended testing time &#x200B; There are more on this website: &#x200B; Go to Page 19 (Section 5) &#x200B; [https://www.nasmhpd.org/sites/default/files/Toolkit-Back\_to\_School\_Support\_for\_Full\_Inclusion\_of\_Students\_with\_Early\_Psychosis\_in\_Higher\_Education.pdf](https://www.nasmhpd.org/sites/default/files/Toolkit-Back_to_School_Support_for_Full_Inclusion_of_Students_with_Early_Psychosis_in_Higher_Education.pdf) &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B;",18.87096899224806,23.49903524418605,11.47325581395349,38.33434108527136,39.58139534883721,11.08217054263566,44.56589147286822,11.038039088145766,5.862870542635659,1210,52,114,23,12,313,106,172,0.013999999999999999,0.862,0.124,0.9493,1,0,0,0,0,0,110.0,0,1,1,2,4,3,0,1,10,0,8,0,0,4,1,23,19,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,8,10,0,0,3,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,23,17,12,15,0,0,0,0,10,9,0,4,2,72,12,22,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04088653664666701,0.0,0.0,0.5218795763571166,0.5852709297311456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02848981827076295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06383205679639352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02389473447947773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03871025459771884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02447173839301152,0.0,0.0,0.03540367698389402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042113706198614174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049668810360584036,0.03914625950197411,0.0,0.03679985617971625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836518044056129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07419519449211047,0.0,0.0,0.04035923979256095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02817884261566246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749948808002118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02160464982858049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03200004020766285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05394692323962213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5852709297311456,0.0 schizophrenia,spoocho-lingweeni,2019/03/06,"Help I’ve always heard voices telling me what to do, calling me pathetic, telling me that they are all the good parts of my body and that I am the waste product. I’ve never told anyone because I was afraid I would get put on pills and taken out of school. I don’t have any good friends but I did try to open up. I dumped a lot of my emotions on her and I think it scared her away. It really hurt me because she was the only thing I found to be somewhat of a friend. I don’t know what to do and I definitely don’t want to tell my parents or anyone with contact to a doctor. For reference, I’m a 14 yr old male if that helps with context. I appreciate any suggestions you give me. Thank you so much.",1.8388000000000029,3.078075213333335,3.5236666666666667,92.06350000000002,76.86666666666667,6.6000000000000005,23.833333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.6903333333333332,542,17,127,6,12,181,94,150,0.106,0.723,0.171,0.8016,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,0,1,9,1,2,7,0,13,3,1,0,2,21,24,8,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,1,8,8,0,0,4,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,7,2,25,5,18,15,5,9,0,1,0,0,21,6,0,4,2,85,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12764877944070838,0.0,0.0,0.20864709158133454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21453461913915645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14413303361637692,0.0,0.0,0.18703370114234588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17040308520992234,0.0,0.0,0.15664798916985645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15702086060168186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17256474992896914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682053165632042,0.2370472010137703,0.0,0.08014999767577567,0.14716412457947006,0.0,0.2573447889637906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20565396355901952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16422776739661393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08430970789272807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304230523366035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127734450161115,0.0,0.11831866549475767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16097719419822873,0.0,0.0,0.11667464210126595,0.0,0.0,0.17034280946679853,0.1661272604256938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15421866101924914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827788926197124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358941458929806,0.15525834393085322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4022593202095781,0.1412386196691081,0.0,0.0,0.10191828430793408,0.09829844844864608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14658910578778406,0.0,0.1041548058735088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904847461515392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897752462115122,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mrunknownnn,2019/03/06,"Do I Have An Untreated Mental Illness Ok, so I’ve never come forward with this before so it’ll be all over the place. When I was 16, I was sent to a Christian rehab center, the place was terrible and basically ruined my life but that’s for another thread. So my memory is kinda bad but I remember them thinking that I had DID or some shit and I was hallucinating. Like many things from that time it was never pursued and I was just given antidepressants and it fizzled out. But from then to now it’s like I have voices in my head, not anything crazy but it sounds similar to my own sometimes. It’s not like I’ve ever seen anything that I can remember (but my memory is bad). I did talk to myself a lot I have since I was a child so I don’t think that’s a big deal. I know it sounds crazy but I’m anonymous so my pride will let me admit this I guess but even though I’m not Christian I guess I’ve rationalized it as some spiritual thing. Like it’ll say “don’t do this” and I listen to it. Or “go here” and I’ll do it. I dunno if that’s normal. I mean it’s not so bad that I’m completely crazy but is there something wrong and should I pursue help Incase this spirals due to the depression and stress I’ve been under? I know it’s weird but like I’ve found myself talking to this voice, trying to bargain with it kind of thing. I dunno. I’m scared. I didn’t ask for this to happen. Thanks ",0.18763712241653607,2.353489293918919,2.5552941176470583,92.24852941176472,86.80405405405406,5.509379968203497,18.16534181240064,6.923569853693429,0.10359650238473783,1085,28,243,15,34,370,141,296,0.127,0.737,0.136,-0.1133,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,1,1,14,20,1,2,8,1,30,5,2,0,4,52,52,30,0,3,17,0,0,5,0,4,3,6,0,1,30,12,0,0,9,0,1,4,9,11,0,0,16,7,33,9,21,30,5,20,2,2,1,0,11,9,1,11,14,166,63,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252367194050074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965676293497416,0.0,0.11165445073758254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991666226679961,0.0,0.0,0.10162933988368338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288161577215388,0.1252240334604088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12313097052319727,0.10286812939908392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788848773793147,0.1080346808984002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13095296203957532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678769627256002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26313952114154066,0.0,0.1056148866357888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225735026450982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005393715695365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243718904433074,0.13127535089648046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12212911969942444,0.08435960243807783,0.2917465311421627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015383185899664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12108709491464545,0.0,0.13009838659715808,0.0,0.0,0.12036114705554987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18422936953108945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170197344826278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495657348261901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705903539202357,0.0,0.0,0.09497852606053384,0.1195740371906459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12259704657683855,0.09879684711166664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919459496380223,0.11812305049849448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13681097775758774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19199267734891415,0.0,0.10995856717228608,0.0,0.0,0.2380394654963329,0.15305667206313053,0.11734307069437515,0.0,0.06964279060114917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08108768865618972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13058207631742566,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lawful_Neutral_5000,2019/03/06,I’m writing a book in which a co-protagonist has schizophrenia. Can music drown out the noises heard by those suffering from the illness? I don’t suffer from this illness and I want to make sure my portrayal is accurate.,3.78142857142857,6.300728333333336,4.800238095238097,79.3489285714286,75.19047619047619,8.009523809523811,29.54761904761905,8.841846274778883,2.780361904761905,178,8,31,4,4,58,36,42,0.332,0.5920000000000001,0.076,-0.9201,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,1,1,6,8,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,1,6,7,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,21,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5147261454822991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7267680256736236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4548243968999444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,clownfreya,2019/03/06,Does talking/thinking about hallucinations make them worse? I was just imagining telling a girl about how it felt the bed was breathing on me and two seconds later I felt a third arm press up against my back and move upwards . It also seems that I mostly start getting pinched by imaginary bugs once I sit in my bed at night. Is this because I'm expecting it?? Or somehow feeding into it through imaginarily or actually telling somebody ,5.9606666666666674,7.851494400000008,5.982500000000003,75.9191666666667,67.5,8.333333333333334,39.583333333333336,8.841846274778883,3.757708333333333,352,21,60,6,6,111,64,80,0.049,0.951,0.0,-0.5632,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,0,3,0,3,3,2,2,0,15,10,6,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,6,3,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,3,8,0,10,6,1,11,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,5,4,43,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.2322151129856065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902969186661007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829769291411768,0.0,0.14505850663362388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082408292464038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4569587770631489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12432453508138515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15884047552444155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529143429074152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22330980090151326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25342015670628343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21663029381962934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16842966029347434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4159759153041534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524754741982113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324528226783997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425020698448528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,redrobbxm,2019/03/06,"Screens are live streams of another dimension. Your TV is casting a stream because in a different dimension it’s about 100% likely that that exact thing you’re watching on the screen is happening in some alternate dimension so your TV is casting a stream of those actors acting out that exact scene in a different dimension, and if you rewind it rewinds in their dimension as well because it’s also 100% likely that other dimensions can go back in time. For some of them, they kind of ascend/descend through dimensions in a loop. Like I always say energy is everything, and everything is anything. 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I want to start this off by saying that I am by no means trying to call them out, I am not going to use anything here to form my judgement, and I do understand how disrespectful it is to question someone on their mental health. If this isn’t allowed here, please please please delete it and I apologize in advance. I don’t want to offend anyone, I know that this a very serious thing and I am not trying to discredit anyone that has received this diagnosis. I am simply looking for help from the ones who know this topic the best. I am a clueless idiot. This just doesn’t add up. I’ve been dating this person for quite a few years now (have known them for 8+ years), and in the very beginning of the relationship, they told me that they had schizophrenia. I have always done my very best to support them and make them feel comfortable talking to me about the subject. But the problem is, I’ve had suspicions from the start. The main thing that gives me doubt, is their job. You can’t work this job with any sort of mental illness. There is no tolerance whatsoever. If you have so much as a mood swing, you’re out. They background check everything as well. So how would they have this job if they have been diagnosed with schizophrenia and have been institutionalized for it as well? My other suspicions come from small things. Granted, all I know about schizophrenia is from what I’ve read on the internet so I’ve tried to take it all with a grain of salt, especially because not everyone is going to be the same. It’s little things like going months without any mention of schizophrenia, no problems whatsoever, and then some minor thing happens and all of a sudden the world is ending. I just didn’t feel like that made sense. It’s only when they are doing something they don’t really want to do. (Supposedly they are prescribed medication but they don’t take it because of their job, yet they are perfectly fine going years without it.) The other thing is the body language queues. They’re not a good liar at all. I can almost always pick up the lie immediately. This is something we’ve been working on in our relationship, and I have been lied to by them way more than any person should allow. Safe to say there was some trust issues to begin with and I feel like that may be fueling my doubt. It just seems like every time their schizophrenia is talked about, they’re showing the exact same body language, speech patterns, and behavior as they do when they lie. The last thing that really gets me is the way it’s all described. It sounds way less like schizophrenia and more like they may be trying to say that they’re a psychopath. I’ve taken note of everything said and there’s very few things that line up with what I’ve read about schizophrenia and more that line up with being the exact definition of a psychopath. I feel like at some point they were interested in psychopath behavior and then got the two completely mixed up and now they’re just rolling with it. And another example, I was told by this person that they have no empathy. But it really seems like they do. They get angry. They cry. They get happy. All of the emotions are there. I tried to justify that by thinking that it may have been the ability to copy others emotions but they all seem way too genuine to me. I don’t want to go too much more into detail, because it doesn’t really help for what I’m asking. I don’t want to doubt them. I just feel like this is such an Unopen book in our relationship and it’s driving me crazy. I get that schizophrenia has got to be scary and they may just not want to talk about it. I respect that 100%. But what do I do? Should I just let it go and trust them? How would I even bring up my concerns if I even did decide to talk to them about it? I just don’t know what to do here. I don’t know what to think. 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I'm underaged, would them diagnosing me alone be enough for sectioning me? i'm scared their only doing this for a reason to put me there, most of my friends are mentally ill and get sectioned over smaller things just because of background of psychosis or other serious disorders. am i just over-exagerating? can they section me just for having diagnosises? 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No hallucinations just disturbed thoughts.I am doing good now without any medication .being medicine free and stable for 4 months now . How can I make sure I won’t get any more episodes? .Is there a test or something that can tell I will be 100% normal and no more episodes? Thanks for reading.",3.332571428571427,6.2691476142857185,2.9939285714285724,89.18232142857146,80.0,5.785714285714287,27.32142857142857,7.1686216300943375,1.439714285714286,303,13,57,4,8,90,55,70,0.09,0.63,0.28,0.9292,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,1,2,0,10,2,0,3,1,12,14,4,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,5,6,5,9,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,35,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445638231492061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25713778839998497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323612489168089,0.0,0.0,0.2124920689784056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698104569601929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377058150849116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3382168082139537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552163958704881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20221594687242445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482223272403963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27809451081577663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25341153478648115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19503580058854408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387727572347913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221432928073802,0.23324417513164206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442135888570133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631445707411559 schizophrenia,ScottishSchizo,2019/08/18,Stopped taking my meds a week ago (Abilify) and my pacing has stopped and I can sit still. Got diagnosed over a year ago and have been taking Arapiprazole (Abilify) for over a year. My dad passing away triggered it 2 years ago and it has slowly gotten better where I don't really have psychotic episodes anymore. I don't hear voices or that either and it isn't that severe IMO. The biggest problem I had was the constant pacing and my psychiatric nurse said that it was part of the illness. BULLSHIT decided to stop taking meds a week ago and now I can sit still and have been wanting to watch Stranger Things 3 so started that last night :) Anyone else a mad pacer ?,4.435546875,6.188011460937503,4.7973125,83.46643750000003,71.109375,7.620000000000001,29.20625,8.238735603445708,2.1243787500000004,529,21,97,8,10,167,78,128,0.146,0.7929999999999999,0.062,-0.8764,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,1,0,8,0,15,2,0,1,0,17,24,10,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,9,8,0,3,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,8,4,9,1,7,16,2,27,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,1,19,64,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4813974234895531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13464449652886631,0.09493152366413107,0.139109453699146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12755767387510406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200749803634545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14671601933913686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13780076401439634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11341600346238045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085853645572832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15301940604127112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066831945273684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016133168801783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740824046319485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14702255531196534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12991079346089754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08697589048863064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12914561687587084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15337819556047247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09609666290137192,0.0,0.21684758709226565,0.3405221625739834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062399225282428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09019763856676664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0800789621273757,0.0,0.2178083808740836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622887125943718 schizophrenia,SlingShotKev,2019/08/18,"Trying to make sense of things. I’m wondering if any of you have had this experience or anything similar.. any advice or input is welcome and appreciated. You know those deep sleeps where you dream vividly and everything seems like real life? And then within the dream you hear a voice calling out your name multiple times out of nowhere... and this repeats until something tragic happens within the dream, and at the climax of what’s happening (usually something catastrophic) you wake up to someone IRL repeating your name trying to wake you up? Thus revealing everything was just a dream, an imaginative realm you were residing in temporarily, per se. Long story short: I was jumped at the beginning of this year.. I remember it being pretty brutal, but I don’t recall fully losing consciousness. However, nothing since then seems to make sense.. logic, time, other people, etc. 7 months has felt like 7 days. None of the people I call friends now were my friends at that time. As of late, I keep hearing my name being yelled.. more and more frequently as time goes on.. but there’s no person to put the voice to. Is it possible I’m in a coma? Or in a dream realm somehow? I’m anticipating once something catastrophic happens to me in this realm that I will magically snap out of it and come to in a hospital bed, where my family is waiting for me to wake up. This feeling is making it hard to do anything currently as it feels... well... pointless. I’ve only been diagnosed with PTSD and major depressive disorder currently.. but I’d say this would fall under textbook psychosis, if this is reality. Have you had any experiences similar to this? I’m just trying to make sense of things and see if anyone else has felt this way. Thanks for your time.",5.00683257918552,7.066329303405576,5.80422600619195,75.5760413193618,70.20743034055728,9.179757085020244,29.760538223386522,9.661875296680813,3.0680517742319604,1387,56,239,34,26,453,175,323,0.071,0.826,0.10300000000000001,0.7629,3,0,3,0,0,0,53.0,0,11,0,1,8,11,1,0,12,0,22,7,4,5,0,51,49,24,0,4,11,0,5,2,2,2,3,6,1,1,21,14,0,2,13,5,0,4,3,4,1,0,9,13,22,7,46,36,5,48,0,3,2,0,23,22,0,10,23,156,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481698061972103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19795199111021852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06784590940745476,0.09941910789069992,0.15969549783630507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19815776725870615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358309505633346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06257657871544177,0.0,0.08357213845544988,0.09848381012693358,0.0,0.0,0.11120524088134917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08105644573333277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10821454109283908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17440932790760147,0.18982869319602164,0.09147162247837927,0.0,0.09812296796788636,0.0,0.18632879436614505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14993088751647166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574109779319479,0.0,0.08692017668706592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21872061796014872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08624507482080877,0.0,0.0,0.05332536843528007,0.0,0.10945451376889087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06853543868432131,0.09480830121803373,0.0,0.0,0.08586884766759494,0.0,0.10855219443819336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25907417287160944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07744873688282487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09310328251087753,0.0,0.0,0.10333420570371472,0.0,0.07379598901019423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13453731954294906,0.08472319971876012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938719313897544,0.0,0.09871479645131008,0.0,0.0,0.11342334124278272,0.09754234860961183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044183404604196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10991652446016244,0.0,0.0,0.07716246593180663,0.0,0.0,0.07732066356302163,0.1766656578084162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08026454679413708,0.0,0.09710047084300673,0.0,0.08221354020683075,0.22409621945458605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08933255279129255,0.0,0.0,0.12892536807095206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828960229248115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19763181025048895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10686527355986247,0.0,0.0,0.07701821246833777,0.0,0.0,0.0872419794714036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10522532612837283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892760984276794,0.0,0.0,0.062484394176709875 schizophrenia,DonneyZ,2019/08/18,"Seroquel makes my nose stuffed I got a prescription for Seroquel XR 150mg, and it works well for my depression and anxiety. As a bonus, I have no common side effects: it doesn't make me sleepy at all, and it doesn't make me eat more. It has just one side effect, it makes my nose stuffed. I can barely breathe through the nose. Last night I bought a nose unclogger (Olynth), and it works, one puff for each nostril and I can breathe normally​.",2.793362068965518,4.9303460804597705,2.756997126436783,94.66584051724138,76.70114942528734,6.648850574712642,26.96695402298851,7.645422480735847,1.323529885057471,347,14,75,5,8,104,53,87,0.09,0.843,0.067,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,5,2,3,0,0,4,0,6,8,7,6,1,14,12,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,6,1,0,2,0,2,0,3,1,1,2,2,5,10,2,6,10,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,45,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885977918997582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21233932419150145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522657713537212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19717571583277804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009580683094029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.65825328631928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23135540520354725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341155607784236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216636226433505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3589592939850494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Reverie-Hellebore,2019/08/18,"I have questions for those with experience with schizophrenia. Hi, I made this same post on another account, but I lost it. I’m writing a story and I have a character that has Schizophrenia. I did some research, but I feel it would be better if I talked to those that have experienced it. If anyone can help me, I would be grateful.",3.111302083333332,5.4041558593750025,4.057500000000001,84.97083333333336,76.34375,6.766666666666668,27.854166666666664,7.793537801064563,1.7923729166666664,261,11,50,4,6,84,43,64,0.047,0.773,0.18,0.8573,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,10,0,0,1,0,15,14,5,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,9,1,5,7,2,2,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,4,0,41,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167937090632201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21124569227125187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671959889854686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29552624511459874,0.0,0.0,0.15275832011921173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20250118174247925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32979399193118936,0.0,0.0,0.2858683280385008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28934246559734905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33843771756686425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428284318660807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4292273708173887,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Justwannacomeclean,2019/08/18,"I have questions for those that have experience with schizophrenia. So I’m writing a book, and I have a character with schizophrenia. If there’s anyone that would be willing to help, I would be grateful.",5.613423423423424,7.862269621621626,4.847027027027028,82.27882882882884,69.0,7.095495495495496,33.954954954954964,7.793537801064563,2.562809009009009,164,8,28,2,3,49,26,37,0.0,0.831,0.16899999999999998,0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,8,0,0,0,0,8,9,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,24,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30756358810139656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43027202755390015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29483200051017466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4927490716830936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.624934448890016,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nomptyvoices,2019/08/18,"Thought broadcasting and recent shootings? So a day before the recent weekend of shootings I was arguing with the voices that chase me around. I think they are people up the street who can hear my thoughts but obviously thats retarded but anyway. So I was arguing with them and telling them to fuck off as i usually do with all negative voices which can go fuck themselves and I was getting pretty drepressed and dark and suggested that maybe someone should just go around shooting everyone if the voices were real and were really that horrible. So I was thinking this pretty emphatically I guess and then a day later there is a rash of shootings in America and one of the guys was even a 'hearing voices' dude. So now Im not sure if Im a complete piece of shit for encouraging a shooter who then went on to kill others or if im just crazy and stupid. And now they are chuckling up the road somewhere at me dangling guilt of a stick and i cant get it out of my head. Thanks",3.748645287958116,5.7018528010471226,4.634211387434559,83.09958933246077,73.34554973821989,7.706937172774869,28.691426701570677,8.472884824447931,2.178436910994764,779,32,148,14,16,252,113,191,0.254,0.659,0.087,-0.9914,0,0,0,5,0,0,7.0,0,0,4,0,13,12,7,1,13,0,15,5,3,0,3,36,30,24,1,4,9,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,1,10,17,0,0,4,1,0,3,3,8,0,1,10,6,16,4,22,19,2,25,0,0,0,2,14,11,3,5,11,111,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377832545847052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11364485835341274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14002912506702195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17226292812098126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08821134454143853,0.0,0.0,0.12761684103945473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24693756569785064,0.13955320155250608,0.0,0.1518039539219555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712510010171,0.13223973784485651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13706522508093444,0.0,0.3010507674251308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4327846319931911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14775802676189434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341732284940036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09049983877838967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925897239900458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717454395021613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152014013152879,0.08555829373701859,0.0,0.26373748530659724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370915525842989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11316011084292388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12587333146341612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167323302504763,0.12295884048190052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17115238411040634,0.0,0.2120543655693492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470911746516504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12380615864534204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,trincyolo,2019/08/18,"Schizophrenia may be treated with Paleo Ketogenic Carnivore Diet I don't want to upset anyone with this post and I know that it is massively controversial but I feel a duty to make this post if only it reachers one person. I know from experience that this diet is incredibly powerful and believe after so much research that the symptoms of schizophrenia may be caused by inflammation of the brain, and this diet is the most anti inflammatory remedy in existence. I know that it is more difficult to change a persons religion then to change their diet so I will end this here with only some links for your own research. And I'm sorry that I haven't put in the effort that this post deserves but I know that something like this won't be received well and so I just do what I can emotionally deal with. Here are some things to research if you are interested. [www.paleomedicina.com/en](https://www.paleomedicina.com/en) Zsophia Clemens. (Paleomedicina clinic treat paranoid schizophrenia). This is the group to work with if you decide to give this a go. Watch all of her youtube videos. Amber O'Hearn (does research on psychical effects of zero carb) Zero Carb Zen Dr Paul Saladino (carnivore psychiatrist) In one of his videos says that schizophrenia is probably inflammation of the brain. But it's just so hard to get schizophrenic patients to stick to strict diets. I believe that the body also needs clean spring water, sun (Dr Jack Kruse), air (Dr Buteyko, Dr Artour Rakhimov). Peace!",6.095569917743831,8.905115552123554,5.932241060936715,72.58822897431594,69.15444015444015,8.210911532650663,30.17978848413631,8.964715089967882,2.868435151922108,1204,49,189,24,23,376,147,259,0.067,0.84,0.092,0.8913,1,0,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,3,1,4,10,7,0,1,10,0,19,16,3,3,1,37,31,17,0,5,8,0,2,1,0,4,7,1,1,2,24,10,6,1,8,2,0,3,3,2,1,4,0,4,17,5,29,24,7,15,1,0,1,0,13,5,0,8,5,132,41,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075511706970374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403815582805287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030471281389905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14938746897681382,0.0,0.3002694261542588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13815771983785305,0.2845440270666837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386527254300837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176926307023924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15128253807580966,0.1191177408964664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315564960902542,0.0,0.0,0.06800191074645144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702651907771001,0.1290145425948862,0.07643345809613042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047613763729838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956475548961662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06570475568535017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897727573124968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09886522593178848,0.09972222874148624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822670742431608,0.20457058574745585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348620138483572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3864111723411376,0.0,0.1450023821426849,0.0,0.0,0.13519905118077846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10695141473886348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10353655506327096,0.0,0.15054993703075106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13978604159721322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934881969105947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07932536662664158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12092217396644102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09790992693458332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,randomguy5132,2019/08/18,Just wondering if you guys think my symptoms are schizophrenia or not my doctor won’t diagnose me because of the stigma I suffered my first psychotic break a couple years ago and tried to kill myself multiple times. I thought the everything I saw and heard was a sign from the government to fake my death by attempting suicide then they would come in and save me because they had hidden cameras in my house (what I thought). I would see numbers like numerology were signs from god or the universe telling me that what I was doing was right. I had lights in my house that would change patterns and I thought the government was controlling them to send me a message. I never heard anything but I see like shadows that fly past me but when I look nothing’s there. I thought my whole family was in on it. My second psychotic break from reality I was convinced people could hear my thoughts and that I was gonna be used by the government for warfare by using my mind powers. Each time I lost reality i had stopped smoking weed. I’m on anti psychotics mood stabilizers and anti depressants but I’m still very paranoid that I’m being watched by the government and think they have an entire task force dedicated to watching me. Idk if it’s something else or schizophrenia. Even posting this is scaring me like it’s gonna make them come get me or something.,6.068434424353399,7.134192607003893,5.916777294575423,79.56840924696729,66.50972762645915,9.00425726710918,34.962005035477226,9.168548406835145,3.1377289539940487,1088,51,198,19,17,340,145,257,0.14300000000000002,0.784,0.073,-0.948,1,0,2,0,0,2,13.0,0,1,5,5,5,12,1,1,11,0,22,3,0,4,1,43,49,18,3,6,11,0,0,3,0,6,3,3,0,1,11,10,0,2,8,0,0,3,3,6,0,2,20,10,41,5,19,20,2,24,0,3,6,0,13,7,0,7,14,132,52,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10153405500895177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09425782651102477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964676916047944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211696313834513,0.1973345768620237,0.0,0.0,0.12846793865803088,0.09145200103935923,0.12673789913826378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09865435449863144,0.11625712703065127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723799368721545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09568465614934643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07565352556735895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10294243979670788,0.0,0.10797945388650683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09742887066394776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059843162784463014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11341401086304707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290965014129845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.264330832852944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12672310702805653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16787745169575088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09618594216579826,0.0,0.12503548710359874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645728517985753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11565417893670668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08834140193348028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10990557867213904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10934274302023372,0.07940859633836625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969901517571996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978177441510981,0.0,0.0,0.11467594018428386,0.0,0.18254935901351974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17635915736567373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147292346014127,0.09576175331650023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12528971921590196,0.0,0.0,0.11905238923828602,0.0,0.0,0.10011424694919156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14678702988285627,0.0,0.4546654529150322,0.1335800425724649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07776610334895072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19785401601859928,0.0,0.094508664653543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278814014095727,0.0,0.0,0.12421528057028725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24410080854147434,0.0,0.0,0.07376091706720435 schizophrenia,deadgurl01,2019/08/18,"I suffered from psychosis and still having flashbacks. I don’t have schizophrenia but I thought people here would understand what I went through. Back in october 2018 I took lsd and it triggered psychosis a couple days later. I started watching a show on Netflix called Maniac, it is very weird and interesting. It actually is about psychedelics, and the main character had schizophrenia so they would show his delusions. I started making connections to the show and my life and I thought it was trying to send me a message like I was the chosen one. I wrote down the entire script of the first 2 episodes. I stayed up for days. I started thinking my family were Satan worshippers and that they were trying to poison me. I started screaming and throwing stuff at them. I went to my room and started posting all this crazy none sense on social media, saying demons were coming for me and that everything is a stimulation. Then I smashed my mirror because I thought it would break the stimulation. I was bleeding really bad and my family had to hold me down until the paramedics came. They cuffed me to the bed and sedated me. I stayed at a mental hospital for a week and I started acting normal. When I got home I started watching Maniac again and the delusions came back. This time I thought my family was planning to murder me so I messaged my boss crazy none sense and she called 911. I was fired obviously. I went to a different mental hospital and this time I didn’t act normal at all. I paced around my room for hours and talked to myself. I wrote all over the walls. I threw my food everywhere. I went into other people’s rooms and took there stuff because I thought it was mine. I thought every patient in the hospital had special powers and that the workers were evil. We watched Harry Potter and I started thinking I was a wizard. At some point I actually heard voices. I started thinking a girl there was my daughter somehow. I can’t even describe some of the thoughts that went through my head. They put me on zyprexa and Ativan and I finally started to come back a little. When I got home I messaged my crush and told him that I thought his sister was doing witchcraft on me because she was jealous. I thought they had an incest relationship. I even thought he was stalking me. I think I’m finally normal again, it’s been 10 months. That was the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to me. I have flashbacks to when I smashed the mirror, when I was insane inpatient, and when I messaged my boss and my crush. Has anyone ever got that crazy? How do I move on?",3.605259853505409,6.122088409836067,4.079853505406348,84.30529298918732,75.7622950819672,6.5302406696895705,28.825601674223925,7.616502295504843,1.9437389605859785,2056,90,367,29,47,646,214,488,0.145,0.828,0.027000000000000003,-0.996,2,0,0,0,0,0,43.0,1,0,6,4,24,14,6,1,26,0,38,6,1,7,6,74,85,36,1,6,1,2,1,1,0,3,3,4,6,1,23,32,1,1,15,4,0,18,5,11,0,2,50,8,88,3,40,32,9,81,2,1,3,1,31,23,0,4,37,275,111,3,0.0,0.0,0.12134417916944015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0434729577700148,0.0,0.0,0.05534734314611082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14342209463531222,0.0519120378379624,0.11370064501417433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269716085033656,0.14221919044725506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10711343965777442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0687934802282085,0.0,0.08019316087432378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06495777714347613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212964473451778,0.11247846553057143,0.052383615438796285,0.0,0.055877277001984735,0.0,0.17583412246459115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13621543682017542,0.0,0.052884505213116745,0.07518009878748948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14917679983337415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05497956900132192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06380765591927731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12472960857470505,0.0,0.06122809327646584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04391478068013877,0.03037469252822448,0.06231389526761124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04150110402717761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12531195554730593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04962606732305195,0.06608028854302192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18274965125012615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0421301797747151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08620615836772859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058773784662259035,0.0,0.05954475403850551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06250125378123071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0398297537875748,0.0,0.0,0.06675076560657492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0494426362942237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0633777633888267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44006521826523215,0.13253675030114928,0.049651610088681054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14234691352216625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049972475416530215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04130512163947996,0.15935234380029284,0.0,0.4935858817012141,0.07250740370539809,0.0,0.0,0.059409171638848485,0.1381534597999935,0.08442306412740097,0.0,0.0,0.06472450983262819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05129941396728572,0.0,0.0,0.04987160312097685,0.0,0.0,0.2881759675681696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13249820503784684,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xCyn1cal0wlx,2019/08/18,I can't tell if I'm delusional or if everybody really does look at me like I'm mentally handicapped. it's caused me to isolate for 15 years,3.8110000000000004,4.374149433333333,6.38666666666667,75.99000000000002,71.33333333333334,12.666666666666668,31.66666666666667,12.161744961471696,4.403666666666668,113,5,24,5,2,41,25,30,0.066,0.8420000000000001,0.092,0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,4,3,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,3,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,3,2,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44331850736485895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776504232413724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21083247647245484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3623914977945459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4348987219392443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764605969433131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37719183370843146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779026603347888 schizophrenia,normelpersan,2019/08/18,"How do your build trust? I have bpd & dating feels impossible. I'm going to seek out a dating app for people with mental illness. It occurred to me, for those of you who manage healthy, fulfilling lives & have good relationships with fam, friends, and SOs, what can we do to reassure you that we would never hurt you, that we are not conspiring against you, that we love you, so that a solid foundation of trust can be developed?",8.40670731707317,7.20748954878049,7.946463414634148,74.60310975609757,62.04878048780488,11.614634146341464,35.134146341463406,10.686352973137794,3.5104048780487807,341,12,65,7,4,108,59,82,0.027999999999999997,0.6970000000000001,0.276,0.9726,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,4,6,0,0,2,7,0,0,2,0,9,2,0,1,1,13,13,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,8,8,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,12,6,11,11,0,5,0,1,0,1,15,1,0,0,3,47,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5661633200092641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32905544855602514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321039669063062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20185350497338544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14848351918394667,0.21913757014139876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796907140956681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307027120139333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358028139524389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26329473167608564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20150448713801106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811289851564783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28050196555941104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18559590844377805,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,poemsdontmeanshit,2019/08/18,"I think my sister is faking symptoms. I need advice on how to help her. I don’t know if this is the right place to ask for this kind of advice but I’m really lost. I have no intention to offend anyone or diminish any experiences. I’ve thought for a long time that my sister was lying about her symptoms. I genuinely want to help her but in order to do so I need to know whether she’s telling the truth. I realize that I might be completely off with my assumption - that’s why I want to get a fresh perspective on this matter. The explanation of “she’s doing it for attention” seems too simple to me. Less than a year ago my sister (13, 12 at that time) approached me and told me she “was hearing voices”. My initial reaction was concern and I advised her to tell our parents about it. I offered help but she wanted to do it herself. When she did, she was instantly put into therapy with a psychologist and went to a child psychiatrist. From what I know she admitted to having musical hallucinations and sometimes hearing voices at random times. She also said that it had been happening for almost a year before she told me. The doctor prescribed her some meds on the first visit and since then she’s been taking different kinds of medication. The problem with this is that she takes multiple meds a day to minimize the negative effects of other meds (eg. the thing preventing hallucinations makes her sleepy, so she takes something to be more focused). Later (a couple months after the first doctor visit) she started claiming she has experienced panic attacks and anxiety episodes and got the medication for that also. After that happened, she started being sleepy during the day which affected her presence at school (she had 2-week periods of not going there, then a week of going and again a couple of weeks not going). She claims she recently started developing insomnia. Those are the facts I know. There are some reasons I don’t believe she has the symptoms she’s talking about: - I suffer from a couple disorders (most being a result of one main thing). When I got diagnosed and got prescribed medication, my parents started giving me more attention. Before that they used to spend most of their free time with my sister. They didn’t stop caring for her, though - in total, they still spent more time with me than with her. I think she wants to get her ‘taken’ portion of attention back. (Again, it might be an oversimplification on my part) - She never showed any signs of illness prior to telling my parents. After that, she almost immediately started having these episodes where she would go quiet and stare at a fixed point with a frightened look on her face - it would happen, for example, when we were together in the living room or when one of us was alone talking with her. I don’t know much about the general development of schizophrenia but it seems like a convenient coincidence. - The prescription of medication and diagnosis took only one visit to a psychiatrist. In my country we don’t have many child psych-specialists and the general level of this sort of medical care is very low. I don’t trust this doctor she’s seeing and I doubt this persons abilities to diagnose a child in such a short span of time and my sister wasn’t checked by another specialist. Also they never run any brain tests to support the diagnosis and any tests she has had prior to telling my parents (eg. EEG) have come out clean, suggesting no issues. - The medication she takes seems to have only negative effects on her. She’s told parents and her doctor that the symptoms have improved after taking it but she has all these side-effects. I’m no expert on that and most probably am wrong but if she really had a condition she wouldn’t have so many of them as the medication would actually work. - I’ve never seen her having a panic attack and I know how it looks. Also, when we share a room, she sleeps like a child all night (only goes to bed a bit late, at midnight maybe?). She falls asleep with her phone. I have all these doubts but at the same time I don’t really know what to think. After all, the doctor says she’s ill. Also, why would she fake such a serious condition? As I said before, I don’t think “for attention” could be the sole explanation. If she’s really faking it, I think it might be an indicator of some deeper underlying issue but I have no idea how to approach identifying it. The stuff I read on the internet about it all contradicts itself. I want to be a good brother and I’m really writing all of this out of concern. Do you have any advice on what I can do to help my sister? How do I approach the doubts I have? Do you know something I don’t that would prove my reasons wrong? I feel like if I talk to her about it she will get defensive and it will only make things worse. I’m deeply sorry again if I offended anyone.",4.895797101449278,6.522136782608698,5.796521739130434,77.25253623188406,69.76086956521739,8.898550724637682,28.55072463768116,9.356794737150368,2.59664855072464,3840,140,691,82,69,1262,351,920,0.129,0.79,0.081,-0.9943,7,1,2,0,0,0,101.0,5,2,6,6,35,33,5,5,54,0,75,25,4,14,13,146,153,58,0,20,18,12,1,3,0,11,21,8,4,5,50,36,0,3,30,2,4,16,22,20,0,5,30,15,124,14,109,103,23,103,0,3,5,0,116,35,0,26,54,516,174,11,0.0,0.0,0.04258761778999765,0.0,0.0,0.1279373328110547,0.03868538321171252,0.0,0.08740092482690126,0.04519922986087672,0.0,0.17449967692818724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14838791768305498,0.045761712850463265,0.033385478437576485,0.0,0.0,0.06103002953688826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040798728499152566,0.09929656810516936,0.0,0.03355746928984303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111406607208364,0.049168805519776176,0.0,0.0,0.04764500143899484,0.0,0.0,0.048718128789995284,0.0,0.0,0.08899043681405988,0.0,0.0,0.03759311950141002,0.045757077384469616,0.0,0.0,0.034844030462228934,0.14486481984331775,0.0,0.05629006200484648,0.0,0.0,0.08859001070876109,0.0,0.04559587455136714,0.0500167157822767,0.22334362162342472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04268956984247137,0.0,0.0,0.022066354794373376,0.031177356604857955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07424254250826277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06840234100904581,0.04186471584816629,0.0992094360876821,0.0366042556083617,0.10471181358551247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157755841399328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837384369239233,0.0,0.11700738576130633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049265720663828866,0.0,0.09110036691649244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09089140571831912,0.19187295676888666,0.0,0.049229292278652616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06396281081143958,0.0,0.03853607135760116,0.03862118110893842,0.07329540875591863,0.0,0.047639639067300114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058261819174841474,0.08849086583721613,0.04384355609010459,0.0,0.14542695298225153,0.3077481604071673,0.0,0.1388895822667727,0.0,0.0,0.0348340728338305,0.0,0.032081380189020216,0.06471894851602013,0.10097659313287448,0.0,0.0,0.04095440786467501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08871743198315626,0.13276471428655273,0.0,0.1024073354089524,0.24229251984762265,0.04725927988380276,0.0,0.0,0.038105903704840564,0.04559587455136714,0.0,0.04125513880270721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047052707420530304,0.041758834452769115,0.0,0.043871564761485515,0.0,0.0,0.043653114386938655,0.0,0.1397886855871648,0.08974105880640608,0.0430905231985966,0.0,0.0,0.037269435531328415,0.0830257485424949,0.034705316916570465,0.0,0.04416732998137779,0.03477646937211302,0.11918821350138105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036100538001432515,0.0,0.04367282165830411,0.0,0.0,0.06719441654314204,0.04316236598670234,0.04885286734335596,0.1544476994811754,0.0,0.03485200209170438,0.03648608463187725,0.0,0.0,0.04995885248193757,0.0,0.0495236350945008,0.0,0.1814401010398729,0.16406414852069132,0.10523168219321817,0.15257769456129916,0.0,0.04990763499329325,0.0,0.08698003044852516,0.13981792860106754,0.04287736002363619,0.034646320936545134,0.17813316897113748,0.0,0.0,0.12510340977012455,0.04848709499375545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052495115817406034,0.03769207498400906,0.0,0.03600864664202764,0.12870386030061376,0.0,0.10501926603293606,0.0,0.0,0.04045592643028659,0.07875897855510193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0317713893905905,0.0,0.0444742175952865,0.15500765268499078,0.0954298309352933,0.0,0.05620713843331817 schizophrenia,nebulafoxx,2019/04/16,"Hearing music that isn't real About 1 week ago when I was home alone I decided to play my old piano. I'm not very good so I was just playing a few chords. When I was done I closed the piano and walked out to sit in the living room. When I was sitting down I began to hear the most beautiful piano music being played. It was very loud but it did not sound like it was coming from my own piano. I quickly got up and walked over to my piano and I continued to hear the music. It sounded like it was very far off or like in another dimension but it was also loud. I've never heard music that wasn't real before. My mother and grandmother were diagnosed with schizophrenia so it's obvious why I deal with symptoms. When I hear things it feels so real to me and it really leaves me feeling confused.",1.6446951219512194,3.7206008475609775,3.5892073170731718,87.58612804878052,80.15853658536584,6.295121951219512,20.615853658536587,7.413659706084162,0.7328243902439024,625,17,126,9,16,211,92,164,0.09,0.8490000000000001,0.061,-0.679,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,11,8,0,1,5,0,14,2,0,0,2,26,25,16,0,0,6,1,2,3,0,0,2,9,2,0,12,10,0,0,3,3,0,3,5,1,0,0,15,11,17,7,17,9,3,26,0,0,0,0,7,10,0,3,14,89,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557876001501545,0.0,0.0,0.13503991707576346,0.0,0.10426913013633744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136720424830079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094834318649614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11231544775686153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442158721221156,0.0,0.1323384019669671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334294983180871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13185351745012042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10936105896467443,0.1042810881731406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5878151347062399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307871531375034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380592765036295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191099111522384,0.0,0.11513266700724326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10056123231323263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136817508507292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44522127471864653,0.08352820421022347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355203190079715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866222436028942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227447461948124,0.0,0.0,0.10458727593439683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176525127285266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bear_the_dog,2019/04/16,"Auditory hallucinations or mild schizophrenia? As the title says, I’m not sure which I’m dealing with. I will say, the hallucinations occur mostly when I am under the influence of marijuana. I believe I have aphantasia. I cannot summon any mental images and see them. So I believe my imagination is expressed through auditory hallucinations. The tricky part is that it seems to blend into schizophrenia. While stoned I don’t see things. but I hear stuff. when I’m with people, I hear them. Not that they’re talking out loud, like they’re speaking in their mind and I can hear them and we’re talking. The anxiety that I’m battling is that everyone can hear what I think, And my “family” wants me to stop thinking because everyone can hear each other and I’m the only one who still thinks out loud. They’ve also told me to get into my mind, implying I got out of my mind. A friend told me I was never in my mind in this anxiety auditory world. I feel blind to something I can’t fix and nobody can help or understand, or that if I try to talk to people they dont understand or won’t tell me, as if it’s some great conspiracy",3.640315315315316,5.399088797297303,5.2190990990990995,79.61126126126126,73.18918918918921,8.356756756756758,26.74774774774775,8.998388855275968,2.149790990990992,891,32,174,19,18,301,119,222,0.095,0.8270000000000001,0.078,0.0693,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,5,0,5,5,1,0,7,0,16,1,0,1,2,42,40,20,0,3,9,0,1,1,1,2,1,10,0,0,14,14,0,1,8,0,0,0,8,1,0,1,4,14,30,4,22,34,4,16,0,0,3,0,24,10,0,9,7,116,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07883949595659878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06704212203782936,0.0,0.15083662838938244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06009734486178574,0.0,0.0,0.22214619030856306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10163823336436817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11554250824004625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884070301705575,0.0,0.0,0.09293846921366772,0.0,0.0498482381232093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07616759600454816,0.0,0.05150731682657009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884853761248446,0.10869183680042513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5555701010848578,0.0,0.0660803753265474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04816432760900823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09935188767256832,0.0,0.3981765775492332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603589727835224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668046854798699,0.07497938778048029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10675944709181827,0.0,0.1366947714673716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567996996259459,0.0,0.0,0.15712116862977438,0.08974934167818406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07589661517739081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07873121390130368,0.08242263173331853,0.0,0.0,0.11285782350952313,0.0,0.0,0.0929165005399422,0.0,0.0,0.23772000409469465,0.08616884530381627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654964131315978,0.1895105230677356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884070301705575,0.0,0.06693368360206634,0.0,0.0,0.2052638059143773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05814880378228275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,healthstudy2020,2019/04/16,"Survey of Women’s Mental and Reproductive Health \[This post has been approved by the mods\] &#x200B; You are being invited to participate in an anonymous online survey to understand women’s experiences of mental health and reproductive issues. We are exploring the intersections of opinions about pregnancy options and mental health. If you (a) are currently located in the US, (b) identify as a woman, (c) are between the ages of 18 and 44, (d) have a mental health condition/disorder, (e) have had sex with a male partner within the past 12 months, (f) are physically able to become pregnant when not using contraception (to the best of your knowledge), and (g) are not currently pregnant nor actively trying to become pregnant, you are eligible for this study. If you choose to participate in this study, you will be asked a series of multiple choice and open-ended questions about mental health and pregnancy. The survey should take approximately 15-20 minutes to complete. At the end, you will have the opportunity to enter for a chance to win a $25 Amazon gift card. No identifying information will be collected as a part of this survey. Please contact [eklann@iu.edu](mailto:eklann@iu.edu) with any questions. If you would like to participate, please follow the link: [https://iu.co1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV\_cCQfwkwwwpAGoPH](https://iu.co1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_cCQfwkwwwpAGoPH) Indiana University IRB# 1810940452",11.583413886997953,12.859158287610624,10.560796460176993,50.310854322668504,54.61946902654867,12.971545268890402,39.950987066031324,12.367839424501927,5.699274063989107,1167,51,150,34,13,371,135,226,0.018000000000000002,0.861,0.121,0.9688,2,0,0,0,0,0,80.0,2,8,0,4,3,4,0,0,19,0,21,6,0,1,0,28,26,14,0,5,5,0,0,1,1,5,5,0,0,5,4,10,0,0,8,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,2,0,10,4,32,16,2,17,0,0,0,1,20,6,0,7,8,103,14,0,0.10414347620853967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11283941296126798,0.12654572266489006,0.07082113505377638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09736009191908733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300365746699084,0.0,0.0,0.10929215313897513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10919245339210236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11935744630263352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844804169987032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187230329826676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5534982262058913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10869873183715167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05087924198531744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5247606460559461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08312632912293735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277723602617867,0.09941673212101174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22863652635604176,0.0,0.0,0.0997406622920117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23332905541553606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830293329329165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07070658418827931,0.0,0.0,0.10841703155004226,0.12527177903085746,0.0899465257879416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07398053747624088,0.0,0.12654572266489006,0.0 schizophrenia,ndiphilone,2019/04/16,"Am I schizophrenia? Hi, I am taking Risperdal and Citoles for 3 years but never asked for my diagnosis or my psychiatrist told me what it is. I was extremely aggressive, paranoid and had several instances of sound/visual hallucinations before start to taking meds. I was scared to death if I ever get eye contact with someone else. Is this just anxiety or some kind of schizophrenia?",4.82993697478992,7.872181279411768,5.204453781512608,75.05147058823533,74.44117647058823,8.003361344537815,31.77310924369748,8.841846274778883,3.2458462184873933,309,15,49,7,7,98,53,68,0.231,0.769,0.0,-0.9507,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,0,0,7,1,1,0,2,11,13,6,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,1,8,1,7,9,1,4,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,4,4,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20465962313992184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501043205008113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276482202603235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234868829995471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419960895255341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13977331850008942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785911976033265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971653823221879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063355333284388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678440771823076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3022326109143391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266771960570529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18935902344336647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40229834501008027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556362615854679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17228046905251065 schizophrenia,BillyRothbard,2019/04/16,"Is it possible my antipsychotic (Risperidone) is causing EHS and hallucinations? I am diagnosed Paranoid schizophrenia and prescribed risperidone (risperdal is the commercial name) and I believe it may be causing some worrying side effects. Since starting on it (a few months ago) I have been occasionally waking up to hallucinating large spiders by my bedside and experiencing exploding head syndrome. Sometimes when I look at the hinges of my bed I can see this vague, semi-transparent spider legs crawling towards me. When this happens I also experience a loud screeching sound in my head which ""blanks"" my thoughts for a second. I have not experienced this before starting on risperidone. Admittedly it is quite startling and I need to know if i should quit my antipsychotic. I have told my psychiatrist but he is not taking me off the drug.",7.811658130601794,10.35410837323944,7.393841229193345,65.04494878361078,63.859154929577464,9.67067861715749,40.37387964148528,10.018931242160765,4.769104225352113,687,39,98,16,11,216,97,142,0.034,0.956,0.01,-0.2854,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,6,0,14,6,4,3,0,20,25,10,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,0,8,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,3,6,19,0,12,19,2,14,0,0,2,0,4,8,0,3,6,74,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15819582312568295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427160220993365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15185804444119574,0.20106559675884586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666593319214537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811352053576456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069592985735919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17457011096807315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15781338505933212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3663070611950476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807806531700153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14986315963344762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14244669090157536,0.0,0.0,0.13232733505946928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20118912608262315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3796326756128423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14221113353378573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476256366173864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765035123977021,0.0,0.2526326888435241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13418123780036412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14167891859408865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17052811890308064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181236855722794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,i_am_a_loser_reddit,2019/04/16,"Thank you :) I'm not schizophrenic but almost two years ago I went through my first psychotic episode. After my very public episode, I was devastated. This community helped me accept my situation and made me laugh when I was at my lowest point. Thank you <3",3.23070921985816,6.318461468085108,3.784148936170212,81.88416666666669,83.25531914893618,7.388652482269504,24.854609929078013,8.344100000000001,2.1266482269503544,207,8,37,5,6,65,36,47,0.145,0.605,0.25,0.6597,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,6,7,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,4,0,11,4,3,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,5,23,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25261650287888865,0.0,0.2853650932875824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424028133653886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19101527597814508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696538217891814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693970700274133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.320328100331684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5247403638223481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783828689907845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351373473109763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641781935987235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835169974942308 schizophrenia,DisGruForEmp,2019/04/16,"I Need Some Advice My partner whom I have known for awhile has been consistently displaying behaviors associated with Schizophrenia. Now the only reason I am thinking this is because of the research I have done on my own, a person I have spoken to who is in University majoring in psychology, and also the fact that he has a history of mental illness within his nuclear family. I'll try to detail what he thinks and what he talks about and behaviors he exhibits in the most fact-based manner possible. For each example I will provide a written part, so you get a better idea of what I am talking about. This post will be lengthy and incredibly personal for me, so please only read on and comment if you have real advice or information that I can use. Behaviors: Constant pacing(walking), addictive behavior with many different substances, talking to themselves, inability to maintain a conversation, repetitive speech Pacing is self explanatory, but he will also talk to himself about things that I will get into more detail about later on. In terms of the addictive behaviors, he smokes frequently, and smokes a lot of marijuana when he can get his hands on it. He drinks to get drunk almost every night, when he can afford it. He eats to the point where he is unable to move and complains about the pain in his stomach. His inability to maintain a conversation is a bit trickier to explain. When he is under the influence of alcohol or marijuana, he is able to maintain short conversations, can ask relevant questions and responds quickly, and is emotionally invested. When he is not under the influence, he does not respond to his name, physical touch, or any attempt to get his attention. In order to get his attention, I must pull his arm, touch his neck or say his name several times, and even then he doesn't engage, just focuses a little bit more on me. When I want him to answer me, I say his name, give him a couple seconds to let him look at me and not stare into the distance, then ask, and then give him several seconds to respond. Sometimes even with all these steps, he still is not able to responds, or just says, ""What?"". I can sometimes just look at him, and then he can recall my question, so I know he is able to listen and that that part of his brain is functioning, just not very well. He usually has a far away look on his face if he's not looking at me, even if he is staring deep into my eyes, he is not thinking about me, and I have gotten this information from him by asking him. He uses the same phrases again and again to describe may different things. Things like Fraud, Placing remotes, Engineers, 25,000 Hours, 3,000 meetings, At times, Repeats ""over and over"" many times to emphasize a point. Lying: Involvement in movies, music videos, music, tv shows, photography, art, porn He literally believes that he has been involved in most movies, more specifically he worked as a cameraman. The same goes for music videos and porn and tv shows. Any music or band or group we listen to, he has worked with them and influenced their sound in some way. Any photography, especially pornography and war photography, he has taken the photo. He also claims to have several pieces of his own art that he made in a prestigious art gallery in my city. I can literally count on my two hands the times that he HASN'T claimed to have involvement in something I am looking at, reading about, or watching. He also claims to have several properties in many parts of the world, and even claims to have been owner of several buildings in my City, all of which are in fact places I used to live. He has been to the majority of countries in the world and has been to outer space even and worked with Elon Musk on his Space X projects. He wholeheartedly believes that he knows all of these actors, writers, and anyone he sees in a photo. This is the only behavior I can't explain myself or find an explanation for. This next part is a little more complex, but I will do my best to explain. - ""Engineers"" control a lot of his movements (ie; losing and erection, craving something, having a muscle spasm or itch on his body) -Describes these engineers as ""they"" or ""monkeys"" ""pieces of shit"" When I have asked his to go more into detail about who ""they"" are, he just says it can be anyone in the world listening in on his life through microphones -Engineers ""place remotes on his head"" place ""pieces of his identity onto others"", uses the repetitive speech I described earlier when talking about anything -These engineers also speak to him, and when he is talking to himself, he is actually insulting the engineers and telling them to stop -He has missed thousands of ""meetings"", (ie; job interviews, dates). He has been “messed with” for 20,000-25,000 hours. This number has changed over the last month or so, as in it has increased, so he has some concept of time regarding his situation -He believes that his mind has been erased because he doesn’t remember certain things, whether that’s true or not I don’t know, but he receives “memory guidances or guidancing” if we watch something which will cause him to remember his involvement in projects. This goes back to his constant lying -He describes most behavior by other people as fraudulent or that genocide is being committed. This part I don’t really know how to describe more clearly, because he doesn’t really go into detail, just talks about his feelings about it -Has accused me several types of being “led to fraud” and honestly, I hadn’t done anything out of the ordinary -He will go off on tangents about this that, if I didn’t interject, would last for 30 minutes, all the while he isn’t saying anything that makes actual sense -He talks about “calendar years being erased”, and that some events, even something as sensational as the fire at the Cathedral in Paris is a repeat event -He claims to have met me several times in my life, which I assure you that this is not true. He will interject himself into my memories that I speak to him about, claiming that that was in fact himself. I think this covers the majority of what I wanted to speak about and get some feedback on. If anyone has any questions or wants more clarity, please don’t hesitate to ask. Just one more note, this is not a personal attack on this person, I am legitimately concerned, and anyone who wants to judge my involvement with him, please do not contact me.",10.223293944353523,8.300766057872345,9.501478723404258,67.18790384615387,59.059574468085096,12.885270049099836,41.23445171849427,11.550464897139252,4.74625139116203,5078,219,875,113,52,1621,438,1175,0.073,0.879,0.048,-0.9862,4,0,8,0,0,0,172.0,2,3,5,8,55,19,4,0,48,0,104,24,12,14,14,173,158,88,2,13,44,0,6,1,1,11,8,14,0,6,59,49,4,2,27,15,1,10,22,9,1,5,17,31,103,10,163,124,43,138,0,2,11,2,176,78,1,37,48,632,162,12,0.1301346042461957,0.0,0.08466173440129494,0.0945772848115898,0.0,0.08477735276538141,0.0,0.04635810515961987,0.04343700274930939,0.0,0.0,0.1734476599989086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799465785752007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12132418809226628,0.0,0.10708969110773192,0.0,0.20276381348319064,0.049348966390498405,0.040755248152839006,0.03335515931186415,0.0,0.07932884688275367,0.0,0.0,0.1466171355581866,0.045522746163108176,0.03836449405977275,0.09471552217989697,0.04818340285700238,0.0,0.04842441881211981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04456136192912774,0.04588838535324461,0.0,0.0,0.09375285068333757,0.048652341410703036,0.0,0.04799715479956132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064197579910754,0.0,0.0,0.037960556379156137,0.08878192127560579,0.0,0.042494123133335705,0.0,0.04438672942780801,0.0,0.048794638046032485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719053575518583,0.0,0.036548005578959375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040893107733376,0.0,0.021933322004744186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03964689023129552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15864323909215122,0.08322464692438328,0.07395849454624473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04451854926361025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08543758104179988,0.0,0.0,0.04896870938516163,0.0,0.0,0.0430461715385011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953581002397242,0.0707180475299377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04435714991030821,0.06127861301103695,0.02119239809397611,0.08695270736126487,0.03830374657528784,0.0,0.1821338205486967,0.04852911166962905,0.0,0.07375719124841937,0.0,0.04104550302028179,0.028955286282032814,0.13193606327184454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04371502436486356,0.0,0.04379961769435183,0.0,0.0346240665175896,0.046104163183454866,0.0,0.03216438670632369,0.0,0.0,0.046133209320241966,0.0407075035083996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0293941919157505,0.09897323061908717,0.04615746469658565,0.0,0.0,0.23487182479003785,0.0,0.03007298303651412,0.15150468920279614,0.1812839515982151,0.14284871677410274,0.08201284282267783,0.04890240440133261,0.04154432611356751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14578053945903147,0.0,0.08677988034551093,0.049373889907593206,0.05557837317806608,0.0446000156842734,0.0,0.0,0.09827809225730312,0.0,0.0,0.17248043419521467,0.0,0.0,0.034566810333402816,0.0,0.04525292451046243,0.3430351433968275,0.044527100391402334,0.0,0.04875891586630116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335786348670005,0.08580430075513465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034641887684244366,0.0362661187305557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789260412850534,0.03791446000868028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152741981227402,0.11117999972792987,0.0,0.0,0.15176506850144453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02945095134113176,0.0,0.042374199683656716,0.0,0.0,0.1498593538180641,0.04777496043292642,0.035791559100464936,0.10234234834098743,0.034431597194465584,0.0,0.0,0.039002212585005136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09473954178688668,0.0,0.0,0.03081462970409923,0.0,0.0,0.02793413950131785 schizophrenia,stealerofsweetcakes,2019/04/16,"It’s been a long night My husband is schizoaffective. He’s been doing really well on his new meds the last few weeks. We are in the middle of moving, so tonight he was with our 2 year old at the new house while I was cleaning the old house 4 hours away. He calls me in full freak out mode. He says the voices want him to hurt himself and others, he can’t take his medicine because it’s poison, if he moves something will hurt him, etc. the same delusions and hallucinations he’s had before, but he says it’s harder to ignore them now than it ever has been before. This all sounds much calmer typed out than it was in reality. He tells me our son (asleep in his bed at the time through all of this, thankfully) isn’t safe with him. We’ve been through a lot of ups and downs through all this, but hearing him say our child isn’t safe with him while I’m 4 hours away has by far been the worst. So, following the plan we set when he was well, I told him I was sending my parents to pick up the baby, I would call the police to come check on him because he was not safe for himself either, and to not come out of our bedroom until the police arrive (to avoid accidental confrontation with my parents). I’m so thankful to the police who responded. They kept me on speaker phone the whole time, de-escalated as much as possible, and got him to the station for screening safely. They tried to not have to use handcuffs, but when he broke a window and wouldn’t stop hitting himself and clawing at the “microphone in his head”, they ended up having to use 2 sets of cuffs to restrain him. They called me for updates every step of the way and when I finally arrived let me sit with him at the station until they knew what would happen next. Unfortunately, due to the level of escalation when he was at his peak, he has to be involuntarily committed to the state hospital instead of inpatient in the behavioral health unit like we usually do. More unfortunately, they consider our residency to be our previous address so he has to go to the hospital 4 hours away instead of the one 20 minutes away. And because it’s an involuntary, I can’t go with him. I’m not entirely sure why I’m posting this. I guess I’m just hoping someone out there will understand. We were so hopeful that things were going to be better, and now I feel like I can never leave our child alone with him in case next time he doesn’t call me. He was so excited to be back at work and now after one day he might lose the job because he’ll be gone for who knows how long. And usually I’m his advocate through this whole process, and I can’t even be with him or know what’s going on (because he won’t remember to sign releases if I’m not there to remind him). It’s just been a long night and I don’t know where to go from here.",6.537925561029012,5.396449209876543,6.9776768229641775,79.85984126984128,65.71957671957671,10.219278720428148,32.77923736544426,9.314750747691287,2.588228170041964,2190,75,465,34,29,718,255,567,0.079,0.821,0.1,0.9513,3,2,1,0,0,0,51.0,11,0,7,4,27,25,2,1,29,0,49,4,2,4,7,84,87,37,0,8,14,4,1,2,0,8,2,7,5,2,19,32,0,9,7,0,1,13,15,10,2,2,22,9,61,15,86,49,15,97,0,4,1,0,82,34,0,8,46,316,80,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0760986911577192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761314462554097,0.056498296528118726,0.0,0.22395059749279195,0.0,0.12504485911188604,0.0,0.0,0.06498330711822799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001077179684046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12658566083530795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04738576361743997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0650776828955658,0.0,0.08194485491949148,0.04853002287156697,0.06646299910832604,0.06190646662499725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03715153385671215,0.05249107205343747,0.0,0.08048906440192229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20878973657311228,0.0,0.0587652487821542,0.0,0.08094179393857281,0.0,0.06497434025747495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754072907816234,0.07810125895051148,0.08281248123239482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14595594586627406,0.21707636335413186,0.16956224138678355,0.15731456484577655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07291331878356358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211410094011834,0.05989252190162477,0.0,0.07780018287639684,0.0,0.07513390613257866,0.0,0.0717930548890839,0.0,0.0,0.19507111132657048,0.0,0.08220054102339873,0.0,0.0624664332026161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816149656758027,0.0,0.0,0.07794613210944916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15618613350727426,0.10802622303221099,0.0,0.05666900814187336,0.14192662458746638,0.15628453251258853,0.1379039795692978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542008252126464,0.0,0.09957810457645136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16317219292861768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283283911109147,0.07036943322259384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04707043037938536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08323367228823167,0.0,0.0,0.1752925349631368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062255742681445736,0.056565202192368935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061428995460803985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06925000051405289,0.0,0.05524460043571234,0.0,0.06422102152910389,0.13529315014680027,0.0,0.0,0.04881400630324029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12853285698076394,0.0,0.0,0.07020920321118672,0.0,0.04988519366221743,0.0,0.0,0.07649082015834559,0.0,0.12691886928739202,0.16184625928010676,0.0,0.04333788582667974,0.058321609860748615,0.05893779397015988,0.0,0.13212700028067664,0.0,0.06630041267749465,0.16406604421175167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05349120231313796,0.0,0.0,0.10439009270791423,0.0,0.0,0.04731595739199264 schizophrenia,november3333,2019/04/16,"Vraylar Hello, even though I don’t have schizophrenia I do have psychotic depression. My dr has me on 3mg of Vraylar for psychosis and it has helped greatly with my psychotic symptoms. Also it doesn’t cause weight gain for me, anyone else had experience on this drug?",7.250533333333338,7.824915519999998,6.958000000000002,74.86233333333338,63.8,9.866666666666667,36.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,3.633866666666668,216,10,37,4,3,68,38,50,0.07400000000000001,0.858,0.068,-0.0772,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,1,0,3,8,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,6,1,6,7,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,27,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252497168139073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19694874386480746,0.2886020481742066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893505209422029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242600148404645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266453388341967,0.0,0.2352973865152692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860389906076624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755252527453515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105398526743119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887960551835021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927607954450345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27673728035114514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34299561882359103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,godtiertrauma,2019/03/28,"Being stalked or just another delusion? I guess no one can say for sure, but any advice? I'm pretty sure my ex is stalking me. I see them everywhere. Like I'll go somewhere, and they'll be there at the same time. I'll be leaving a different place then they leave at the exact same time. And they won't stop texting me or back off. When I was in the hospital they asked around to find out which one and showed up without even asking me. I feel like they're still obsessed with me. This isn't something that's happened once or twice, it happens all the fucking time! I want to report it but I'm scared no one will believe me because of my disorder, and I'm not even sure if they're really stalking me or if it's just a coincidence, or if I'm just hallucinating them in these places! I don't want to make a false accusation. But what if my ex is counting on me not saying anything and using my disorder against me to stalk me and get away with it??? 😩",2.1154991087344044,3.78255577272728,3.612959001782532,89.90414438502674,77.13131313131315,6.679025549613786,25.28342245989305,7.510576382923642,1.1098124777183602,745,27,164,10,17,246,113,198,0.10400000000000001,0.769,0.127,0.6967,2,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,6,0,10,8,1,2,7,0,12,1,0,2,5,43,30,20,0,6,18,2,1,2,0,3,0,2,0,0,9,10,0,1,2,1,0,1,8,3,0,4,1,4,25,5,20,23,3,21,0,0,1,1,12,12,1,10,10,111,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12285818847856682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08549812798850955,0.13183488397684814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10346195082418903,0.11192297435765937,0.2350740522176174,0.0,0.11812390445616505,0.09667568792365068,0.0,0.07664152515732205,0.0,0.0,0.141650374673733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313571205462769,0.2881862374167092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16608193996518927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0635709448554597,0.08981882308770835,0.0,0.0,0.11491146995603267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162318468632867,0.06568675084446034,0.0,0.07145309736748466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385015848555968,0.0,0.2223585285850352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662517867744265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228469422275112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08392321542131237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13389430076398615,0.2555859827721663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627142410925538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12790874576231673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054342373888401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19996504256852765,0.12587386027489494,0.0,0.10018750433967903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679017192608708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040510649448303,0.10511273364987923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35548636949136786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21993587653077729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858707034418164,0.0,0.0,0.14831314156049666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119557117630783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,whitewomenbad,2019/03/28,hello i am a inkel that got called schizo by other inkels is it true? come on boys hallucinate me a vision like a like an old ugly wrinkle grey gypsy mush schizo tards mush I have another problem I am addicted to blacked.com as a white male watching a black loosen a white women gives me the most intense erections I ever felt ,5.8515625,6.42063103125,6.1374999999999975,79.5575,66.8125,8.275,30.0625,8.07648339933343,2.0786375,262,9,48,3,4,84,50,64,0.09300000000000001,0.7120000000000001,0.195,0.5563,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,8,0,4,1,0,0,2,6,8,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,6,6,3,4,6,1,4,0,0,5,0,6,1,0,1,4,27,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389526397510539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32603052540464444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174877792720397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678331674929912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812482149210641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29853543444759834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29826626788414945,0.0,0.0,0.2486740222546267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3038031506579327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32626203611220184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975119131010425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ThisHuckleberry,2019/03/28,us disability rules. if im on disability in the us do i have to be on antipsychotics even if they dont help me and give terrible side effects? it's been 5 months so far without my injection and the only difference is im not always hungry and i enjoy my hobbies again. they shot never really made it go away just made me not care about it. if that makes sense. i havent been to the doc in 5 months either. i read online if you have ssi for mental illness you have to go to the doctor once a month and i hate doing that. thats one of the reasons i stopped the injection.,0.5846726001271456,2.6932365454545457,3.0581818181818186,89.71496503496503,84.37190082644628,6.367705022250477,20.05149396058487,7.61054688173877,0.7056263191354106,446,13,98,8,13,154,75,121,0.13699999999999998,0.836,0.027000000000000003,-0.9019,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,2,2,2,1,5,4,1,0,7,0,11,2,0,5,1,20,19,9,0,4,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,2,1,0,2,6,2,0,1,4,0,16,2,13,14,1,15,0,0,0,0,8,7,0,4,6,70,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13446215184315707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15182626842697045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16475952719497186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16883510188451167,0.0,0.16540199517202198,0.0,0.0,0.1893911883732628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10673369337949776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15501914669118574,0.1836792847442656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595441782959028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10831546763071234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34910628521875553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3058151203450946,0.10786765549676702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16285237667112545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3869569973480812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12463403438201748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17209617428602952,0.1095027186500824,0.12290225970984316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616413346078487,0.0,0.1035235630663138,0.16614925095618355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13510283280672827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3887640412505363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15577432363321916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,subcontschizo,2019/03/28,"Immigrant issues Hi all, new to the sub but it seems like you guys have an incredible community here and hoping to ask for your help. &#x200B; My mother is a wonderful, sweet lady who immigrated from south India with her family to the USA about 15 years ago. She had her first symptoms while here and, as commonly happens in the Indian community, they went untreated for a long time. She finally found a psychiatrist and her symptoms stabilized on risperidone. For the last 10 or so years, she has gotten by, but (as expected) is somewhat detached and disengaged from the rest of us. She does her very best, but the medication and her symptoms have left her unable to improve her English, hold a steady job, or find a hobby she enjoys. She recently had a backslide after a medication change and some symptoms returned, causing her to alienate many friends - thankfully she is now improving and will hopefully be back at baseline soon. &#x200B; My question is: any suggestions on how we can get her help with getting a bit more integrated and finding her something to do with her time? I imagine many immigrants have similar issues. She does speak English but not extremely well, can't drive, and is willing to try anything. Anyone we can hire, services we can look into, organizations that can help? We are happy with her psychiatric care for now, just want to help her get back on her feet. We are willing to pay for the help as well. If it helps, she's located in the St. Louis area. &#x200B; Thanks so much!",7.285364450127879,8.090487293478262,7.244663256606993,72.03878516624043,63.7463768115942,10.697016197783462,36.52514919011081,10.59048541779884,4.075483205456095,1207,56,205,29,17,386,167,276,0.024,0.727,0.249,0.9977,1,0,1,0,0,0,48.0,6,2,1,2,14,13,0,0,17,0,23,7,1,2,1,45,40,23,0,5,9,1,0,1,1,3,6,1,0,1,4,19,0,1,7,0,1,2,2,0,2,1,5,3,35,13,34,31,8,32,0,0,1,0,47,10,0,10,21,152,39,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07521366619152886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758021078744517,0.3093030718393793,0.057700342511226715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059328509738749174,0.0,0.06982363403603067,0.0,0.07932251645487151,0.0,0.0,0.13048754252146408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08904396498474422,0.0,0.0926333135777882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08650937968147819,0.0871634663047939,0.08975916707573635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14850415398560832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998824236308963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09294811400580484,0.15510120118238646,0.07217265729109051,0.0,0.093032731051732,0.06555425520748429,0.0,0.13299056171210016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08401401434960495,0.0750318373132873,0.09032351501676933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3412356447304051,0.0,0.0,0.16854873388091612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771209696872882,0.08419970485673085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06916339499250572,0.0,0.0,0.09218886717119637,0.0,0.0,0.041453016631761264,0.0,0.0,0.07508884190064828,0.0712519296677181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17204747352908809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709532164069491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062373899911890684,0.0,0.0,0.08194785329309799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09505048461221698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08377831518795245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772434940538765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532103337521394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35276308673707346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15623542449511854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989524621173634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057607014097764836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10206309954765054,0.0,0.0,0.07000944810912968,0.050046236498340745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15257918049597854,0.07865602698942284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201530115070246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093030718393793,0.10928016208521618 schizophrenia,dimaras20111,2019/03/28,Abilify and excersise ok so adding to my depression gym is supposed to make me feel good but after taking abilify and returning to the gym i have goten much weaker and when i perform the lifts i get weird pumps and i cant bend my arms if it makes sense.im wondering is this normal?could it be caused by abilify?whats your experiences(sry if this is out of topic i tried posting on r/fitness but they wont let me),2.9958333333333336,5.449716283950622,4.2377623456790126,82.71368055555558,77.51851851851852,8.494444444444445,27.40895061728395,9.188382445141503,2.625924691358024,333,14,64,9,8,109,60,81,0.107,0.848,0.044000000000000004,-0.7236,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,1,2,4,0,0,2,1,8,1,1,3,0,14,14,10,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,11,2,8,11,1,7,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,3,3,44,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931324970366394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278283235397649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457710705055815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14428126002488142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490833147175605,0.0,0.0,0.23933758750194306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082263814257669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917891543646477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3809459586878103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20976468474935286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795818839331443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27328590339637504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21454728063658715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19373355151175253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30944931558326866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Haveathingtosee,2019/03/28,"Dealing with Schizophrenia alone So I am dealing with Schizophrenia alone, I can't handle my living situation. I'm not making enough money to leave. I had some strange dreams last night, I barely remember them now. They said something like remember in Futurama how Nibbler was Fry's demon, it's something greater than him communicating with him. We were talking about entities or something in a grocery store, not sure who I was with. I find that comment really funny. My schizophrenia is getting worse. The voice just said my tantrum emotions are light. It's smart at making fun of me, I almost respect it. It just said your pleasure mind has confident stages in actions. I feel it has a really sardonic sense of humor, it's like I share a mind with a psychopath. It just said you're important in this. It's just mocking my feelings, making human feel like nothing. I think I break down because I mean nothing, needing to shatter my sense of purpose and hope as a drive. I don't know what to do, I can't handle these people and illusory family dynamics. I can't handle their Christian. My own father said ""This isn't a democracy, it's a dictatorship in his house."" I just can't take it anymore. I'm a young schizophrenic, virtually powerless. I just want to live a peaceable life on my own. I've gone through way too much shit. I don't know what the point of this is. I think I'll always be alone in my perception. I can't handle these voices. They just said these voices are really psychedelic, use your mind to love it. They just make fun of what I am and convince me it's always right. They just said convince her enjoy my empathy act. I can't do this. I don't want to take antipsychotics and gain weight. My appearance is one of the only things I have. I don't know if I can gain weight if I'm gluten free and vegan. I'm honestly sick and dying, I'm nothing anymore. Vacant in this. I can't handle these people. I have no insurance, I want an easy and effective way to kill myself. 8,000 dollars for schizophrenia treatment. I can't even take myself to a hospital. I can't live in this. I'm too tall to hang. Too cowardly to throw myself off a building. I'm driven by dreams, I can't even own my mind. Everything reflects, every dislike I have shows me a parallel of my own behaviors. No escaping this mess, just as bad as the last one. Voice takes a friend's voice and says "" I'm crazy just so you know this"" and "" You're that controlling what I think"" and "" people go on a date"" I tried to work with this thing. It's not me. I'm sick of people saying its demons. This is a terrible time in our evolution to be alive, I feel like a pre pubescent boy. Nothing matters. There's my dead rant, I'll go back to sulking in torture. Life has always been bad. Depression. Under Pressure. Confusion. 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My Dad is a paranoid schizophrenic. He has always been disconnected from reality a bit, it's never been too bad except for a year or two when I was younger and his meds stopped working and he was put in a clinic twice for awhile. Otherwise he usually reserves himself to focusing on tv or reading, usually blocking out (or not being able to see) everything else, and often misses stuff happening around him. Because of two bad parents, I've grown up pretty socially awkward and have some anxiety from it, but up until now I haven't shown any signs of having schizophrenia yet at least. My question is about how I can connect with someone who has schizophrenia, such as my Dad? We've never been close and I only see him a few times a year. I've never acknowledged him having schizophrenia and honestly the only reason I know he does is because my mom told me when I was younger, a little bit after his first episode. He's never seemed like a bad guy (My Mom has talked a lot of shit about him, but she's also known for lying a whole bunch so idk how much I can believe it.) He and I were never close when I was young, part of it is because my Mom told me crap to make me hate him which I feel terrible about because he didn't deserve it. I've been trying to change that when I get time (On top of college and working, sadly it's not that much time.) I would like to talk to him about having it, to see if it runs in the family or when he got it just to satisfy my curiosity at least, but I don't know how open he would be to talking about it, or if it could trigger some attack or something. I also want to try to have what emotional relationship I can with him while he's still around so I don't feel guilty when he's gone. I have a hard time making meaningful relationships with the average person, so I don't know what to do about my Dad. Any advice would be great, thank you!",5.827664300435082,5.323656521410584,6.457802839477902,80.90425406457523,66.90931989924435,9.434806503320358,31.647469658804674,8.841846274778883,2.3758523929471043,1537,54,316,22,22,505,189,397,0.11800000000000001,0.787,0.094,-0.8318,1,0,1,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,0,4,30,16,4,1,14,0,38,4,2,8,5,69,60,37,0,7,15,7,3,2,0,3,2,0,0,3,18,19,0,2,11,2,0,4,12,11,0,4,14,6,41,5,50,39,13,49,0,2,3,0,43,17,2,14,30,225,59,5,0.08216279079381247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08028852824730782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13141110822642627,0.06836602386439153,0.0,0.0,0.11174703044388344,0.0,0.06285431006781864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14628460665941395,0.0,0.09347203593356153,0.0,0.0,0.20580749511230767,0.20034269864182155,0.0,0.0,0.0925693293143241,0.0,0.0,0.17940097514119294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08691733826257911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0656003028017243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07190121190894175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06863646880919007,0.0924220808337342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07384261847814487,0.0,0.07745576685928474,0.0,0.0830879514819811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06988762787633576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042926667045635136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0657130895115926,0.09058476691031044,0.0,0.08135408050144148,0.0726562845521848,0.0,0.07360172213445255,0.08111874569377209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13546356323300554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08028117875797597,0.08234870131502388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06985186656369598,0.0,0.0,0.10968860171879263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912643382966204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886842026648209,0.0,0.0,0.12079821001065325,0.0,0.3168450471778625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497700959169035,0.0,0.0,0.09123205586579028,0.08897429572418591,0.0,0.0,0.07174137975457913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358909629378966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08259629826287343,0.09204112952709638,0.0,0.08218502521187092,0.0,0.0,0.08447703312952216,0.0,0.17642417749294792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19641931983085265,0.07479791892007401,0.0,0.0,0.08433892403881868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08375461821006483,0.13923253202252686,0.0632529304638505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06561531086194222,0.06869177210986109,0.0,0.0,0.09405673818344304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981180169065993,0.0,0.07564445884386264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19163913619013187,0.0,0.0,0.15702013522506802,0.0,0.11156628328352863,0.0,0.1605222157702286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18098141237546908,0.0,0.0484617427746962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09173182171887448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11963098050402195,0.0,0.0,0.17509826764287767,0.0,0.0,0.10582028691660836 schizophrenia,aldraek,2019/03/28,"Saying goodbye to alcohol due to triggering of symptoms. Anyone else? After going on a bender for a few weeks of too much drinking everyday I started getting schizophrenic symptoms, on top of the typical anxiety caused by the hangovers. Delusions, paranoia, social anxiety and self-hatred. I'm two weeks sober now. The only drugs I used to do were alcohol, weed, tobacco, and caffeine. Well, I quit tobacco for health reasons and weed because it makes me psychotic. I never thought alcohol could trigger psychotic symptoms in me, but I guess I was wrong. I've been trying to quit alcohol for quite some time but I think this time around it's gonna be different because now that it's triggering my symptoms I really don't want anything to do with it. Could be a blessing in disguise because I definitely hate life when I'm symptomatic and do everything I can to avoid triggers. I asked my psychiatrist to give me some medication to help me quit and now I'm on gabapentin. It really helps with the cravings.",5.773845559845562,7.672588102702707,6.530057915057918,71.78141891891893,67.97297297297297,10.258687258687258,37.53861003861004,10.451354775682146,4.597131274131273,809,45,130,23,14,266,109,185,0.11,0.7929999999999999,0.09699999999999999,-0.0672,1,1,8,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,5,7,5,1,1,7,0,12,14,0,8,1,28,28,8,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,13,1,0,0,7,8,5,1,3,1,0,1,2,3,1,1,4,1,17,2,24,19,4,21,1,0,0,0,6,7,0,3,13,86,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4329562864412772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15496006866530426,0.0,0.0,0.07081834685524029,0.10377481749649194,0.08334600608764985,0.09016196609334014,0.09468448657261064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18522070108218455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10404395150088064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617299977623116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10581756173639173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09921726569733172,0.11745433075768474,0.0,0.08460765783714873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09102523929904548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05291537895958905,0.0971583985925982,0.057560583777234164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115729390618148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09999446648278612,0.0,0.1076574484147155,0.0,0.0,0.13577364606157766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07153808550894038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06760615634713628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203040855768444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445352155524149,0.0,0.07811450036436154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07702910893070293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4309011690238233,0.0,0.0,0.12976698451527202,0.10413420209582648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054307657292475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10565864415292854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10324368666893563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07168753373282065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4210808386099533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06489706552258359,0.0,0.08040616044136782,0.1181160594672845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0687634583041903,0.0,0.098937262819456,0.0,0.0,0.08747465666218908,0.0,0.0,0.0597384250968985,0.0,0.1624837448021205,0.0,0.09106418966896113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11073536943690493,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xsunmisiren,2019/03/28,Im scared all the time I’ve been feeling bad these couple of days thinking someone wants to hurt me. People I see when I leave my house puts me into fear and I have restlessness from my risperidone where I want to pace and walk around. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia recently and given the medication for voices since I was inpatient this year. I just want to feel safe and make sure I’m okay and not alone. My heart starts pounding like crazy. ,5.309655172413791,6.489111862068968,4.848908045977012,86.12439655172415,68.3103448275862,8.098850574712644,27.143678160919546,8.344100000000001,1.6327333333333338,360,11,71,5,6,109,66,87,0.195,0.644,0.16,-0.7476,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,9,0,3,2,1,4,3,1,1,2,20,15,6,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,8,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,4,4,12,4,9,11,1,11,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,7,39,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20088291067950287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17266452997366707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16194756791856668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146118179060424,0.0,0.12508743547919296,0.0,0.0,0.19686418621601567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21825767022911155,0.19614288087758794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298422134686347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238025127168196,0.2076369987297306,0.0,0.20950888010299606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205374454538472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475851432715196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12946906234187344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953931718657929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13446666966565396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19498225196486965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915110002865175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19418668101942227,0.0,0.1545601199872113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604447945937436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643407344607714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372850976223685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18280395439375333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12428102226083625,0.0,0.0,0.11309898604666095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432059283194246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12490316321986665 schizophrenia,Rita005,2019/03/28,"Is it normal schizophrenic bahavior? So I spoke to my old flame’s family, and they told me he is schizophrenic. They also told me that the upstairs tenant looks a lot like me, and that he has been harassing her on a daily basis. He’ll call her by my name, and even tries to buy her gifts thinking it’s me. I truly loved this man and feel so bad not being able to help him. Would it be dangerous to try and talk to him after not seeing him for ten plus years? He’s in jail now for x number of reasons, and I’m debating wether or not I should visit him. I want to help, but I’m thinking it would be detrimental for him to see me again. Please any advice on this issue will help. Thank you in advance.",3.3181632653061257,3.9059054761904757,4.672251700680273,87.74715306122452,72.46938775510205,8.05687074829932,22.86326530612245,8.238735603445708,1.0030440816326522,543,12,121,8,10,181,92,147,0.047,0.805,0.14800000000000002,0.9045,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,2,1,6,6,2,0,3,0,11,3,0,1,0,23,26,12,0,5,5,0,1,1,0,5,2,1,1,1,8,7,0,0,4,0,1,2,3,3,0,1,4,5,22,3,18,14,1,11,0,0,3,1,27,4,0,2,6,81,30,0,0.1760420419088896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17202624591933954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14078075731230108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11971462523688745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14698775171291986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17975860746921626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627410838878227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16595676977119245,0.0,0.08901214586065541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35399180965364097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837421545945084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600524944967536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14783097788225916,0.0,0.0,0.14966464870794513,0.15888481596297566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248382380610086,0.0,0.0,0.18472650952447406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932412975829436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810005388430153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805654303227697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414959249323364,0.0,0.1620758601954571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22560126437822636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364314303198257,0.0,0.239041981506026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038341574098938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501104313582849,0.0,0.0,0.11336530322426193 schizophrenia,Danithan94,2019/01/10,"I just found out I've always had it and idk how to accept it/deal with it. Hi I've been recently diagnosed and talking with my therapist yesterday we found out I've always had it. My dad had it n there's a lot of mental illness in my family. Ptsd autism add the works. My family always thought I was normal. I always felt different n always treated differently. I've been bullied sexually abused and among other things. I thought I needed to out grow my ""voices"" or that ghost were real because I saw things. Some people in my life don't believe me since I'm been quiet about it this whole time. I feel so alone and a freak. How is this suppose to be a good thing? Please help ",1.0740217391304334,3.478646021739132,3.0795471014492786,88.34584239130434,85.15942028985506,6.058695652173912,20.219202898550726,7.413659706084162,0.7736942028985512,533,16,108,9,16,179,88,138,0.14300000000000002,0.7809999999999999,0.077,-0.8434,2,1,0,0,1,0,14.0,1,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,4,0,11,3,0,2,0,27,20,8,1,2,2,1,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,12,11,0,0,7,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,14,5,15,3,13,5,3,10,0,0,1,0,5,6,0,3,3,68,27,1,0.0,0.15433430547030916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349078953403585,0.0,0.0,0.5419250162937723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07940400369133985,0.0,0.0,0.14675604185048258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342901699868167,0.0,0.1322090213670176,0.0,0.27218355228004937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24559110122025,0.0,0.06586230544868843,0.0,0.12506800622302106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856421168102247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925414215738598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873091212003069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09200500331714256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074060413625393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312693210263696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658457854051518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276250805846096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030442329145114,0.0,0.0,0.14298405283513538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15226450851726905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14826200142324253,0.0,0.0,0.1286139567362266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775067666901668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469636180018738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512394555488357,0.2596126721753666,0.0,0.0,0.20682043712791884,0.07595442599408951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14542828782397818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09482929881585424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Throwaway1945796,2019/01/10,"Has anyone ever had the experience of feeling like you didnt know your own age Ive read before that people with Schizophrenia can have “temporal disorientation” and/or “age disorientation” where you can feel a change in your sense of age as it relates to your self/identity. I think Ive experienced this myself, not sure though. Anyone else?",7.5058196721311505,8.862962491803279,7.38045081967213,69.31034836065578,63.42622950819673,10.034426229508195,30.004098360655732,10.125756701596842,3.025783606557377,276,9,46,6,4,88,49,61,0.034,0.897,0.069,0.2589,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,5,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,8,0,0,0,2,10,12,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,9,2,6,10,1,6,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,5,31,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3707316179878845,0.27162880598945416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225582673853661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804432589472131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22145909412604736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.239800358969968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593210820804257,0.0,0.0,0.2680875456915226,0.18938925552572453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14569338293547307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295156746229063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18378867123133485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651742076758811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27655968997194136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24985593796142794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16986695660259446,0.2604618280088443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HisNameWas_HARAMBE,2019/01/10,Not alone I'm really struggling today.. bad.. and I looked on here and seen how many people are just like me to an extent and realized I'm not alone. It's a great feeling. Just reading what you guys post and how you support each other is the most incredible experience I've ever had and very uplifting. Although none of you have said anything to me personally but your posts and comments to each other give me hope to push forward. Thanks everyone,3.5517441860465127,5.92347993023256,4.655988372093024,80.82840116279074,75.27906976744184,7.555813953488372,27.02906976744186,8.472884824447931,2.1372837209302333,358,14,65,7,8,117,64,86,0.046,0.785,0.16899999999999998,0.8441,0,2,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,4,0,0,7,7,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,2,1,20,14,10,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,8,0,0,2,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,3,4,8,5,6,11,5,7,0,0,2,0,9,2,0,2,4,45,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40073472399107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15920200707515392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16153194343747065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17499664710456786,0.0,0.1848603782958356,0.0,0.1892420848848114,0.0,0.0,0.09781974853587383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18558552216506813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132915534033584,0.0,0.19155691180433213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921505310792848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094515324763685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16245860542327162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19613919753808706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13412157254241344,0.16892277645649886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705645257606209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193513460285108,0.0,0.1239361389746484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184025814868626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20224755390641408,0.0,0.0,0.2195373715626877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781129949712047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18337850858652788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596256741298492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TimothyK4,2019/01/10,"Paranoid delusions without all the other symptoms. My friend seems to be having paranoid delusions about his neighbour. He had a few arguments with his neighbour, but nothing major. He seems to be blowing it all up in his head. He's convinced the neighbour is out to get him and to ruin his carreer by spreading private info to everyone around him. He thinks his neighbour can hack into his computer and phone. He had an Iphone which he now replaced with a nokia 3310. He also made me install a VPN. He feels everywhere he goes his neighbour would track him and send private pictures of him and his girlfriend to all the people around him. He's fine now that he doesn't have a smartphone but he still makes other people turn off their phone when they are with him, because his neighbour got into his contact list and is now tracking him through other people's phones. Everytime we go somewhere he sees people looking at their phones (I mean it's 2019 after all) and thinks people are laughing at him because of the messages they receive. I've told him that it's literally impossible for his neighbor to do those things, but he's convinced by reading the internet that these things are possible. He's also convinced that he has ties with the police who help him with this stuff. Except for the delusions he doesn't seem to be having any other symptoms of schizophrenia (as far as I can tell). He's still the same person I've always known except he's really stressed out about it. He even started smoking again. Does the onset of schizophrenia ever start out like this? He's way too proud to be going to a psychiatrist, so I won't be able to convince him to go see one. 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I've been wondering about this some time. Ironically, after getting panic attacks related to a fear of becoming schizophrenic (and fear of losing sanity in general), i've been experiencing ""hypnagogia"". But the thing is that i'm not sure it's just hypnagogia or an early symptom of schizophrenia because i feel like i'm getting them too early to be a hypnagogic state. Basically, sometimes when i go to sleep (it used to be everyday since the panic attacks, but now it's happening once or twice a week), i'll start hearing my ear pulsate, and i'll go ""deaf"" for brief periods of time (like a second or so), then i'll start hearing sounds, and a voice saying gibberish in my head (occasionally the voice says a word or two but i could never decipher a full sentence), and sometimes a voice repeats what i'm thinking, like i'll think a full sentence like and the voice replicates one word of the sentence. This always freaks me out and i open my eyes and it stop. I've noticed that after this starts happening, i actually start sleeping, so they are a signal that sleep is near, but still, i'm not sure if they are close enough to sleep for it to be hypnagogia and i'm wondering if it could be early schizophrenia. &#x200B; What do you guys think? Did you get these symptoms before going into psychosis?",7.127742363877823,7.637086342629487,7.672254980079683,69.86022841965472,64.0597609561753,10.677397078353255,35.856839309428956,10.504223727775694,3.9072356440903055,1076,48,186,25,15,356,129,251,0.096,0.858,0.046,-0.8366,0,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,2,3,1,8,14,2,4,16,0,14,12,7,1,3,43,40,23,0,4,14,0,1,4,0,0,5,11,0,1,16,12,0,1,6,0,0,4,3,8,0,4,3,14,14,6,21,31,4,35,0,1,1,0,10,9,0,10,25,119,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.09509748110017256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08108649512629451,0.10558741004891437,0.11841283784009325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217276757591062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05940482691092268,0.1076262517612374,0.08292306757388078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15561234463383852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069225836930568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2193174659295219,0.04927382339991975,0.0696185472290063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15274135227265673,0.0,0.16614983350024887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649116445866918,0.17235003968993318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001217024768448,0.0,0.21966724664946627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904372681671308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109022011241483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07515971507934928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094786573406504,0.0,0.10378143891208468,0.06603487702987981,0.0,0.0,0.2286739702510236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15499285429973994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0806119339012101,0.0,0.39008289712013133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19276176957816096,0.0,0.2759034281711021,0.0,0.07782397284023372,0.0814728534666751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18369159717249803,0.202576446803573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06474168025754005,0.18732674208034444,0.0,0.0,0.11364816179387385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519482873929518,0.0,0.0,0.08416581096630264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07816879009268235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21136148831312573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841283784009325,0.0 schizophrenia,EfficientEnthusiasm2,2019/01/10,Did abilify cause sexual dysfunction for you? My clit and vag are numb ,2.471538461538458,5.428191923076927,4.191153846153849,76.59134615384617,91.30769230769228,11.830769230769231,21.884615384615387,10.125756701596842,4.157184615384616,57,2,10,3,2,19,13,13,0.321,0.679,0.0,-0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,circe_episode15,2019/01/10,"Psychiatric service dog, anyone? Have any of you ever had or considered getting a psychiatric service dog? I have a dog already whom I certified as an emotional support animal but besides being cuddly she doesn't really ""help"". I'm now considering getting an actual service animal who is trained to recognize symptoms such as confusion, emotional overload, anxiety, and to help provide a distraction/comfort/guidance etc.... basically to help ""snap you out of it"" if you get too lost in your own thoughts or emotions and also to help provide comfort in situations that cause anxiety like being in crowds. I've heard they can even help with med compliance. The only downside is that they're pretty expensive.",8.277950819672133,9.826872491803279,8.734549180327871,59.6021516393443,61.78688524590165,12.657377049180331,43.93852459016394,12.161744961471696,6.503980327868852,572,35,77,20,8,190,85,122,0.111,0.674,0.21600000000000005,0.9414,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,4,1,1,6,5,0,1,6,0,9,1,0,1,1,12,17,9,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,4,1,8,3,13,11,2,6,0,1,0,0,15,4,0,4,3,55,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.14765100507249934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669678699560785,0.1209978581583147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289199689241213,0.0,0.23149449074337136,0.0,0.0,0.10579536574645272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554310202304214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5105903440741687,0.0,0.0,0.16874410047694782,0.09993495093296446,0.13686324798003874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371504893534927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5070798451839009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739195552890594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651663313093323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16806477944162504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507360894917648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15393069510548066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09692930009133356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17007218160167253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17169813377690568,0.0,0.15726292446724424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12011857844621528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HoneyBeeErin,2019/01/10,"Risperidone Advice please A friend of mine has a child who is struggling with ADHD, suspected autism/asperger's syndrome and suspected bi polar disorder or schizophrenia. Her child is male and 10 years old and this past weekend, it got so bad in their household that he was attempting extreme physical harm to his parents and siblings. It's been a roller coaster of anger, anxiety and stress for the whole family. The doctor has prescribed risperidone/risperdal and she is worried that it will affect his development as he matures into an adult. She's researched the drug, but I thought maybe someone here could offer some insight? Anyone that can talk to the side effects and benefits of this medication is welcome to comment. All help is greatly appreciated. Thank you in advance. 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Just wanted to get some people's personal stories on when they first noticed symptoms of their once undiagnosed illness and what they were. My mental health has gone down the drain a but since last easter and i cant really control my thoughts at all. Its like ive constantly got to have a song in my head. my inner voice needs to be wizzing round thinking of shit. Ive also recently started hearing shit in the brief period when i wake up from deep sleep (only happened a handful of times). Like a weird sound affect noise or slight whispering. Im also v paranoid 24/7 and have weird thoughts like thinking someones gonna run up the stairs and suffocate me while im in bed (or something weird like that). Just wanted to see if anyones early symptoms can relate. Im gonna go to the doctors about this as soon as i get back up to uni... Hope everyones doing well ",3.643103448275864,5.708648367816093,4.396068965517242,84.20582758620691,73.9425287356322,6.938850574712642,28.266666666666666,7.793537801064563,1.8575659770114945,712,29,132,10,15,228,118,174,0.11199999999999999,0.782,0.106,0.126,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,3,2,10,11,2,0,8,0,10,12,6,2,2,23,29,15,0,5,6,0,2,4,0,2,6,5,1,1,4,4,0,1,4,1,0,4,1,5,1,1,5,8,13,6,23,21,3,29,0,0,2,0,5,12,2,5,17,78,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152997783283694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08810460795844413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968889478931717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361650678949573,0.14132368932040212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12896996689970286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12040178641782992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10717855048021864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13166330266750978,0.0,0.07161071802366045,0.0,0.10077654508308408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11142451816165083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129315988556748,0.13393587548398225,0.14201515217430452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514995055380032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4083163507397375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10270970613829218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24623586839571865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12698193638455998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343003157224772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14345587042187144,0.0,0.13418966245329236,0.0,0.09583137343773908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735499234688589,0.11002143476886082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08072109703462757,0.0,0.12441329889384699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040851113653514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586816551718335,0.10423143399537982,0.0,0.12609454263227013,0.0,0.10676239425575032,0.09700368443950404,0.0,0.0,0.08918595724845757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39289778551711857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161475966876445,0.0,0.20006547900959,0.0734736800213187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14864031022852553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11329231881446455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,revakk,2019/01/10,"Can’t see certain people? My SO has schizophrenia. Sometimes she can’t see me. Other times she can’t see other people, like some of my family members. Could be because she hallucinated them doing something else? For example, she couldn’t see a family member of mine for a few minutes. The family member then announced she was going to take a shower, and my SO stated that they just got out of the shower (when they had not showered yet). If I try to tell her that someone is there, she gets confused. Other times, when she doesnt notice me, she wont acknowledge me. Does this happen to any of you guys? What can I do when this happens? 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Not suicidal or anything, just giving up on trying. Anytime I get a job I make too much and my insurance lapses. Either I have to go elsewhere that doesn’t see me enough or I go without treatment until my new stuff kicks in. Even when it does my treatment and meds equal to about a quarter of my pay and I come off worse off than I am which will add to stress which leads to breakdown. Which is where I’m at now. I went back to work for about five weeks and my new jobs department closed so now I’m sitting with no insurance again. Not really sure what I want to do next and spent 3 weeks doing nothing. Except a random job I applied for three months ago called me for just some simple customer service work. As always I go in and they tell me I’m over qualified for that and he offered me a chance to take some marketing job for social media. Which I’ve ran Facebook pages before but when I did I was told exactly what to put on the post. Tuesday he wants me to come in with 3 ways and examples to generate traffic tomorrow before hiring me. I haven’t experienced a break since last July and in three days I haven’t slept but like 30 minutes and feel I probably need to go to the hospital. I had a conversation that at the time felt like a dream with someone last night but also felt real. Looking back now I can tell it was all in my head. Doesn’t even feel worth it to try because I come out making less when I do or hospitalized. My old psychologist and therapist tried to push into disability but I don’t like the wait time and no idea what I’d do until I got it since I know it takes a bit with appeals and such. I’m not sure if it’s just exhaustion or stress from that meeting tomorrow but figure I think I’m done trying. No idea what I’m bringing up for the meeting, may just calll and Vance and think for the opportunity. Even if I got it then would I be on the verge of a break the whole time I had a job. This disorder sucks. Sorry to vent.",2.8577874087591266,4.198939914841851,4.233661040145986,87.58545506386862,74.42579075425792,7.3759428223844274,24.52258211678832,7.972316293177498,1.1967815693430657,1559,48,336,23,32,516,207,411,0.081,0.851,0.068,-0.6287,5,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,1,4,25,10,1,2,18,0,23,3,2,3,4,76,66,35,1,6,22,0,4,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,21,26,0,1,11,1,3,14,12,4,0,4,15,7,40,6,56,47,11,70,0,0,2,0,14,21,1,10,33,226,61,13,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315018345247172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06599228090794389,0.06866436045337072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06790802652868358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12690762406662678,0.0,0.05030423921182611,0.0,0.1404391543357206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09009192378377548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08426350835301841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21325446665702824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05321943354769277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094576597965713,0.0,0.07221497539980869,0.08444797537775378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08526659726462757,0.0,0.16351368829671944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345053181983388,0.0,0.15846684323992544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043113991021767537,0.15832396581000022,0.18759510304742186,0.0,0.13199969837879552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08469069598969489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18631308288998472,0.0,0.0,0.4094484532391757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045351566993663585,0.13453180221302327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120947266294003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0692971369493383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11016726233757593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09166259886296348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06586774142177775,0.0,0.06066267544494189,0.0611885234649117,0.0,0.15939923701263492,0.08776237478976483,0.07744068171932447,0.0,0.07918144549243326,0.0,0.08659225834849152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07903262687530714,0.0,0.08897195514157874,0.0,0.0,0.08295673311769153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09392734420055852,0.052865279577662634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0657588190474259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136525000312686,0.0,0.0,0.08412010775729385,0.06992005842400435,0.0,0.0,0.09237587718308547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890558183503803,0.0,0.09446718426256294,0.09026494553520856,0.0,0.1555507612070613,0.0,0.12409154637639548,0.0,0.144254566212169,0.0,0.0,0.09581362899242238,0.0,0.15862901609850574,0.0,0.0,0.14435656025315785,0.0,0.0,0.0788526709182127,0.0,0.22410627550955528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09734644157983433,0.06550159380013093,0.13238727289341887,0.0,0.0,0.07649810327377543,0.0,0.09213212229576248,0.0,0.07954762110164551,0.0,0.12015302781118435,0.0,0.08409628924175615,0.05862078795182316,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FreundXter,2019/06/20,"I lost the love of my life because I'm schizophrenic I've been with my girlfriend for almost 2 years, we have lived together a little over one year. She has seen my pills regularly as I take them in front of her, I never told her I'm schizophrenic but I've also never hid it. I take my meds and she sees it, I go to my doctors appointments and tell her and she's never asked what my meds are for so I've never told her. A week ago she for some reason searched what my meds are used for and when she found out she confronted me asking me if I'm a liar and if I'm crazy. I explained what I suffer because I've never hid it and that I didn't lie, she just never asked. She got very angry and left. She's now moved out and left me for good. I don't know what to do. I was going to propose to her, I bought the ring and spoke to her parents too. The love of my life is gone, I hate this disorder. I've hallucinated everyday of our relationship and she never noticed but I lose her because she read up on my meds. I don't know what to do, I just want to die.",0.4783116883116882,2.1771964632034653,2.7569480519480543,93.99827922077922,82.2034632034632,5.931601731601733,19.158008658008658,6.980632752743323,0.05250476190476139,817,20,197,10,22,279,112,231,0.15,0.768,0.08199999999999999,-0.9645,1,0,0,0,0,1,19.0,2,0,1,2,7,9,3,0,6,0,12,8,0,2,7,36,41,18,1,3,6,1,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,0,10,14,0,0,5,1,1,5,10,6,0,1,12,4,48,3,24,29,1,28,0,3,2,2,34,9,0,4,14,130,58,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08654636391992364,0.0,0.09776602451642137,0.0,0.0,0.07807761634768333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27382292569009103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17854975017405045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132834251836598,0.0,0.11189665260603428,0.09993220566243402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10705028761082272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097493739360642,0.08189049620012638,0.07808657062790575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09639304302906672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10731383124753548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21215855180484408,0.0,0.13792310709247976,0.0,0.09785459379774766,0.08621232566075065,0.0,0.0,0.10922711101029038,0.10657869193561616,0.0,0.1762364110133329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4337960215339397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10376914756565256,0.0,0.0,0.5271077752365949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11115658855391218,0.0,0.0,0.06615910642042053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084106443151834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09766009821575714,0.0,0.0,0.10038368098247244,0.0,0.10482203088201276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07780140001864376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468167491207394,0.0,0.08533613721297678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18658632504400152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432414952724185,0.0,0.08055800867965353,0.0575868723880367,0.0,0.07831584664202862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257457740854091 schizophrenia,Arieberryy,2019/06/20,"Hi, first time poster. Has anyone been on the Prolixin shot? Any info/opinions would be great! My mom was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia when she was 26, the year before I was born. So I've spent my whole life trying to be her caretaker and it's not easy to say the least. Shes been on this shot for 10-15 years and now her doctors have took her off of it. When they lowered the dose by half last year she started having delusions and ultimately attempted suicide. She developed double pneumonia in the hospital and almost died. It was a month before she went home. I'm afraid she'll try again and succeed this time. Long story short they gave the shot back but now they've took it away completely and shes not doing good at all. Shes on her way to the hospital now. I guess I'm just wondering what everyone's options are. I get that it can have bad side effects and im not a doctor but it seems like they dont care/not helping her. I'm just lost.",1.473164835164834,3.8086035692307685,2.7360439560439573,91.98538461538462,82.53846153846155,6.175824175824177,21.59340659340659,7.447530270364453,0.7815714285714286,756,24,160,12,21,243,123,195,0.11800000000000001,0.841,0.040999999999999995,-0.9168,1,0,0,0,0,1,20.0,0,0,3,5,10,7,0,1,9,0,21,5,0,1,1,23,35,12,2,1,7,1,0,1,0,2,5,1,1,0,10,8,0,0,3,0,1,3,4,3,0,2,12,1,21,4,14,19,4,31,0,1,0,0,21,9,0,5,19,99,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14257059794296892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968216489401432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09955372692890653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13376844005556346,0.1094795843769646,0.11887934716989035,0.0,0.0,0.2423056984953883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14516345007691991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14928020260075375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14451026489178045,0.1477654681457042,0.0,0.0,0.2914590091092409,0.0,0.0,0.16686548442140522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13604789629671535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211063120804804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07438641850890265,0.0,0.0,0.11941957409894895,0.0,0.1569718043741509,0.15684497593145275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09543270271322432,0.0,0.14281633950106262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15379223790173138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11605674521203947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005655080360976,0.06955850258686752,0.0,0.0,0.12599969382178142,0.0,0.0,0.15542196701153616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667509219347275,0.11364444032014533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11322438050616017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296152178427592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007755966406876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15573798333527727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660430446669543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163735001417073,0.19333008619068204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11301271011901155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13198545971741096,0.0,0.1589595035111881,0.0,0.0,0.15440243155231595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114096056902656,0.0,0.0,0.2750595151357569 schizophrenia,plasmaballer,2019/06/20,"Hearing Voices shook me up BAD Hey I'm new here but I have some massive anxiety based on my experiences hearing voices. I feel isolated and I'm so glad I found this group, so here's my first post. I'm on meds now and the voices are gone thank God. But I believe there is an invisible world of ""beings"" or ""spirits"" that watch us and that scares me. I feel there is NO privacy. That is the worst part. Even though I can't hear them anymore, it built this worldview that us living human beings are the ""show"" and all the dead spirits surround us and secretly watch us like voyeurism or entertainment, and when you die, you get to secretly watch future generations. And jokes on us, because we're oblivious to it. I am embarrassed and ashamed, I don't act silly anymore and I never sing out loud. Because when I did hear the voices, they were cruel and judgemental and hypercritical. I was powerless and they could see me in the shower, and shamed me. They shamed me for things I did in the past, things I regret. They could hear my thoughts, and I could keep nothing from them. They could "" control"" my thoughts because they would bring up a subject matter, and my mind would helplessly dwell there, much to their delight. They enjoyed seeing me suffering. They tortured me for days and days on end nonstop neverending hell about for example my sex life, things I am ashamed of, my most intimate moments, when I was most vulnerable. And they would push my buttons and enjoy themselves. I have never experienced anything more terrible than the (what's that thing where police (aka the spirits) want you to confess and there's a spotlight on you and they break you down until you break) ... interrogation?? This is just the tip of the iceberg. I am so shaken that I hardly leave my house for the past 4+/- years, I have zero friends and am rly insecure. I'm 30 female. I start talking and accidentally reveal one red flag after the next. Rejection makes it worse and it's a vicious cycle. I desperately crave friendships like a rabid wolf, and desperation is a turnoff, especially the fact that I have no other friends... Positives: I have a rock solid family support system and look forward to my weekly psychiatrist appt and she knows me better than anyone in the world. I have a dog and a cat. I have talents and things I'm proud of. I love swimming and being in nature. My life is good. I want to say so much more, but I'll stop here for my first post.",3.4956861962271693,5.8212118583691,4.260116778121567,83.82192783710951,75.26609442060087,7.0816648368100585,26.71703762850584,8.057270187336151,1.7781187344046314,1930,74,363,32,43,617,235,466,0.226,0.627,0.147,-0.9943,2,0,0,0,0,0,71.0,5,6,13,5,21,37,4,9,24,0,36,4,0,2,4,69,66,43,2,10,6,0,3,2,2,3,2,11,1,1,21,30,0,3,10,6,0,7,6,20,0,4,9,22,73,17,34,47,10,52,5,4,7,2,41,18,1,5,26,259,94,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059567572220918526,0.0,0.15444506333694208,0.054445987630232735,0.0,0.06407740109710994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06501517989501436,0.1423998786726471,0.0,0.0,0.08772875246619281,0.0,0.06886649074230806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08733377310102441,0.24867989295496545,0.0,0.0,0.10043475459137616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081301523329046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06896650609832107,0.0,0.0,0.05143001362993574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07616826697350015,0.07340549886457765,0.0,0.07874316884953203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13246621644181505,0.0,0.08537647323949386,0.12031875345773882,0.0,0.04068197290981635,0.0,0.0,0.06531063029756984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06975298741005076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4388053813391232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08984735499428331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06921122169152175,0.0,0.0,0.04279332940720886,0.0,0.0,0.08244925983929145,0.0,0.0,0.109998662540711,0.07608316611042819,0.0,0.06875744548626009,0.0,0.06538815315607119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07027745354316578,0.0,0.051976417350264516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08649200121379913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862285272849444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144815063788512,0.0,0.12011071450943173,0.07520384089145685,0.08281178497012147,0.0,0.0,0.07471489751104021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0527642784051783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432170809984588,0.14866455255567004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491489472134262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06192247553807249,0.0779578363661619,0.0,0.1240988566202666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05511422884294892,0.0,0.0,0.06509978538817861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836185216425606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06258605160418068,0.0,0.07168890662282736,0.0,0.0,0.2586548347763385,0.0,0.07650332897357992,0.123634425574318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4683183750901805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09185522391602244,0.0,0.06245971808473196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07935249972617693,0.16594213972472005,0.0,0.0,0.05014339968525687 schizophrenia,timevans565,2019/06/20,recently diagnosed and need help I (M17) have paranoid schizophrenia and need to talk to someone going through anything like this. I feel lost and helpless and I don't know if I can take this much longer,5.2307017543859615,7.23955715789474,4.255263157894738,87.11517543859651,69.52631578947367,7.171929824561403,33.719298245614034,7.793537801064563,2.410235087719298,164,8,30,2,3,48,29,38,0.18,0.691,0.128,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,9,10,5,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,4,1,3,9,1,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587906748680481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191911109786055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15901080145975335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17872652836950456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21078966553370185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17283027100863116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15363929846324226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432926398553305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311793689228597,0.4663666459214616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105115771489395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664583265237205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364502156354271,0.25276753199503466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,elektrocute,2019/06/20,"friends not normal and i hate this.. . whenever im with “friends”, im on the outside looking in. i dont truly feel as if i can relate with anyone, like i’m some kind of alien and they all hate me because i’m not like them. not really, anyway",-1.0495604395604374,1.0219195384615425,1.8302197802197813,95.17192307692308,94.0,4.509890109890111,18.96703296703297,6.1826913282559595,-0.03332747252747259,184,6,42,2,7,64,37,52,0.043,0.654,0.304,0.9299,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,1,7,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,12,8,4,0,2,4,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,2,6,5,6,8,2,2,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,2,2,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16686941734812868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454786405071668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796956680566833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12066845765848914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3687603285278158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4712343368909013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5155652515079294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485169355030531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23318437503736714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004056404069157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338260333854121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288510716968787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bipolarcharlie,2019/06/20,The voice in my head wants out The voice In my head is really violent and abusive and today he told me he wants out. I know it's not real but he scares me,0.5519047619047619,1.8226325714285707,3.120000000000001,93.47333333333334,80.42857142857143,6.9523809523809526,17.38095238095238,7.793537801064563,0.1196666666666668,120,2,30,2,3,42,24,35,0.21899999999999997,0.7809999999999999,0.0,-0.8140000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,10,5,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,5,0,4,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,17,6,0,0.0,0.3444764010995825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5967611148052526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15978172903784452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3309229306761298,0.18625389015043667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910789615854557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27558515923440696,0.2778121448444001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429690258217679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kittyu115,2019/06/20,"hiking trip I hiked with my boyfriend up to a quarry and we smoked a little once we were there. Once we smoked I got terribly sick (mainly nauseous and vomiting) kept having hallucinations and hearing voices and random noises and conversations. I think the walk back was the worse because I could barely walk without feeling more nauseous. Did I smoke too much and get sick or something and it triggered me to kind of hear a bunch of shit or something else? TLDR; went hiking, smoked, got sick and started hallucinating and hearing things.",5.863125,8.31541572916667,5.437916666666666,77.44875,68.79166666666666,6.883333333333333,29.70833333333333,7.645422480735847,2.085670833333333,434,17,69,5,8,133,65,96,0.20800000000000002,0.792,0.0,-0.9653,0,0,6,0,0,0,10.0,3,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,5,0,5,5,1,1,0,22,16,11,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,13,0,1,2,0,0,4,1,2,0,0,7,5,10,1,7,8,4,8,0,0,0,0,7,2,1,3,2,47,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13681300821056866,0.0,0.10846116366816176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420582876659627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14863314366005506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08996400633148123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09295824188710224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28460505743310704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6016017493100754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852810551565387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17832715705118074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13079502787581412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789677107700242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18263700959973855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739500461974277,0.0,0.0,0.1259359232051335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11820517529820007,0.11400687726754395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649378547311441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17151293185028746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813203327243814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ItzGibby,2019/06/20,"Never been on any meds before, dont know what to expect. i was recently prescribed olanzapine and I was wondering if anyone here has anything they can tell me about what I should expect taking this.",5.104234234234237,7.22661005405406,5.803783783783783,75.41936936936938,70.08108108108108,8.176576576576577,25.84684684684685,8.841846274778883,2.2109171171171176,160,5,26,3,3,52,32,37,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,1,8,10,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,5,0,3,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,2,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22254830256115726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288280894220469,0.0,0.2693074348795527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27847450694824155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3835467658373268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17985376396813538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3635125424201697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524034048842241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32313017609704403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24605910194392416,0.0,0.28604002488463226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3548999570801192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,keepitraw,2019/06/20,i want to get off the monthly injection Anyone have experience being medicated for years then having quit with good results? I am sure MAJOR life changes are required just to get to this state and this may be my only post in this sub but i truly am curious. I believe in the medication but wouldn't mind living without it.,5.995645161290322,6.852942596774195,7.013064516129031,72.38959677419358,66.58064516129032,9.425806451612903,33.24193548387097,9.516144504307137,3.2048258064516126,259,11,45,5,4,87,50,62,0.0,0.818,0.182,0.8608,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,9,3,0,1,1,13,12,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,9,8,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,34,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16558646637377936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26680926827729123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505187365429047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316503883373971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474519953609853,0.0,0.0,0.1986290810089701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16726934920952855,0.0,0.0,0.20911187271099385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4771321434620533,0.0,0.0,0.2391155147731829,0.0,0.1890233733698091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801083832389997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22680318796096946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518817690027235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22319521649697088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13967954856034825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282810881261673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15250101480828387 schizophrenia,esurks,2019/09/09,"Did I have schizophrenia as a child? Could it come up again? Don't really know where else to post this and have been curious about it for a long time, curious what members of this sub think. As a child (around 6-12ish, I can't remember the ages much) I would always hear things or see things talking to me, but only at night. I used to have a night light in my room at these ages, and I remember countless nights where I'd stare at it and watch it get closer to me as if I was zooming in with a camera. I'd hear it speak/yell to me and I'd be hypnotized by it. I don't remember what it would say, only that it was talking. One time I was staying at my cousins house and when I was in bed I turned over to look at the closet. The doors were pretty close to the bed, and I got startled when I saw a rat jump towards me--only to realize it wasn't even real. Also, I'd have other hallucinations in bed after I'd seen something I thought was scary. Whenever I first went to Chuck-E-Cheese, the mouse rat animatronic thing scared the life out of me. At night I'd always see it in my room and hallucinate conversations with me. Some of this seems like sleep paralysis when I'm typing it, but I am sure it wasn't sleep paralysis. I got my first ever sleep paralysis moment a few years ago, and it felt completely different than all of this. Sometimes even recently I can feel the voice in my head a bit, but only slightly. I used to play guitar hero often around a year ago, and whenever I stared at the fretboard on the TV for too long I could see it zoom into my vision like when I was younger, and I could FEEL the voice coming. But it never did. Do you think these were any signs of schizophrenia at an early age? If so, do you think that they could come back at any time in my life? Thank you for reading and responding.",4.114776746242264,4.400188827586206,5.059326923076924,86.76796474358976,70.53846153846155,8.511450044208665,25.78790893015031,8.472884824447931,1.3870301503094602,1416,38,317,21,24,464,178,377,0.028999999999999998,0.884,0.08800000000000001,0.9646,1,0,1,0,0,0,42.0,0,3,1,3,18,8,0,2,20,0,31,6,4,2,4,57,60,27,0,8,7,1,3,2,0,2,2,5,7,2,29,21,0,0,13,4,0,5,6,2,0,3,20,18,38,6,51,33,5,67,0,0,9,0,14,30,0,6,32,210,67,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14969429819592095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06752319482070236,0.1405145245577886,0.0,0.0,0.1148383361062003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503313399916534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06492583758422396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09218191033447758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182016244983908,0.08852921979703726,0.0,0.0,0.2696601275895569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08821733009910655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07053518865730121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11153796048876903,0.07637692020183258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08538644884577046,0.0,0.08107150852716732,0.0,0.0,0.14364191814042065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04411416570555882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350618773480285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08665538281348696,0.0,0.19033032982738296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09742745552705484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04640364981184726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11927885693911093,0.08250203117334846,0.0,0.0,0.14944586615468006,0.07090471816354213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0620699511527381,0.0,0.06512201331321886,0.0,0.0,0.3169487198708114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05721581217460139,0.1926514526967092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086605567001777,0.08590145703979357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08445854454196794,0.09610630628592234,0.05409166834455808,0.0,0.08337006245754369,0.0,0.2869475481885398,0.0,0.0,0.06714665369942781,0.08453486066487895,0.0,0.2018529510707132,0.07686708558489427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534900204786951,0.0,0.0,0.06500272319949932,0.08350906141339054,0.0,0.0,0.08999721638992082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795796433233194,0.0,0.0,0.13573242661775056,0.0,0.07773704370287914,0.0,0.0,0.1682859717815811,0.16230895206027607,0.0,0.06703251030606991,0.14770539838163227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184178988739426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14585066099515814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07827273523057693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996139036126442,0.0,0.0,0.10874763855032876 schizophrenia,Carricriss,2019/09/09,"Boyfriend showing signs of schizophrenia I've never posted here before so I'm very sorry if this is an inappropriate question but I really need some help. My boyfriend for the past 2 years or so has started displaying signs that look to me as schizophrenia. His paranoia gets to the best of him all the time, he thinks everyone in his life is in on some grand secret that he is in the dark about. He's constantly looking for signs and clues of this. He says it's not even necessarily a bad conspiricy just that everyone knows and is in on something he doesn't know. He gets freaked out in social situations if someone says a word to trigger him, he dissects conversations to find hidden meaning. He and I have talked about the possibility of it being schizophrenia but I always just thought it was anxiety(for all I know the two go hand in hand idk) but it's gotten worse lately and I'm not sure how to help him. I asked what about going to therapy but he has told me that would only make him think the psychiatrist was in on it too. Hes also very against prescription medication so I don't believe he would take it if he had to. I want to understand and to help but I am not knowledgeable with this and I dont know the correct words to help him through his paranoia trips. I dont even truly know if this is schizophrenia because he doesnt want to go to a doctor about it but it seems extremely close to me. I also have issues from growing up with parents that did meth but still considered themselves spiritual Christians. Once I told my mom the truth about one lie I told in the past, the meth made her paranoid that she kept trying to dig deeper and deeper, talking about some grand lie I had that I was hiding. She tried beating this imaginary lie out of me which resulted in me having anxiety when people interrogate me. Due to my bfs paranoia he does this sometimes and it makes me want to die. I know hes not on drugs like my mother was though. I dont know exactly what I hope from this, I'm just scared. Weve been together for over 4 years and I love him so much I just want him to feel better.",3.916428571428572,5.394332821428571,4.7282738095238095,84.54026785714288,71.97619047619048,7.821428571428572,27.17261904761905,8.376592526197632,1.7382619047619046,1675,59,340,27,32,541,201,420,0.098,0.757,0.145,0.9767,1,0,4,0,0,1,25.0,1,0,0,3,24,12,0,1,15,0,31,7,2,6,7,82,73,31,1,12,20,3,3,1,0,2,4,2,0,0,26,14,0,1,18,1,0,5,11,3,0,2,16,7,47,9,55,54,7,36,1,0,2,1,49,18,0,11,13,224,73,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13904742362122835,0.07233878178084957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06650678162884932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812746216023622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07258899784939732,0.05299615927344315,0.0,0.07397722247684632,0.09794854423816056,0.09123531228647276,0.07688895972388568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394831519163932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022717153817296,0.0,0.0,0.08898399044530048,0.07607940003029241,0.0,0.3056695358318361,0.0,0.10081964462646098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484250769762655,0.0,0.0,0.16614459427648304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043958101196546334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07945909938032569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09084228172031414,0.0,0.14822537994494572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23308890625425546,0.0,0.0,0.08634833575610427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09073993383308587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3344491903163447,0.0,0.09806903913151824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06140637226181508,0.042473163883291226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460108398219196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07846428991419549,0.08226215686973583,0.116062619632836,0.0,0.0,0.09470018500751784,0.0,0.08758016384342929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10181989220050762,0.0,0.0,0.06390890430318913,0.06446289191649138,0.06705139023912247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09258536641238277,0.058910951224979975,0.0661197193682729,0.0,0.0,0.096533561667773,0.0,0.16598294280152687,0.060271363877992125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980087212034383,0.08326188304022132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09738965069740486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05569424804807036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13827202972969668,0.08703938411713817,0.0,0.0,0.07914443503623332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772114581736173,0.0,0.08862160920538674,0.07366167565010813,0.06692856590431256,0.08598319340037194,0.09731916786583493,0.06153465460546701,0.0,0.06942822451309591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08193735801590993,0.0,0.06536601546202551,0.1397537858892096,0.0,0.0,0.09942035691707823,0.0,0.0,0.11141179794869238,0.08541543669189756,0.06901848973284043,0.050693827393803514,0.0,0.0,0.24921689141472456,0.0,0.11804941350042715,0.0,0.08492509057287098,0.09050477501401737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14346472245108105,0.20511144203747314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885965160946893,0.1235154994372404,0.0,0.0,0.1119695165895773 schizophrenia,DMMDestroyer,2019/09/09,"A Reminder to take care of yourself, because you deserve it. Don't forget the basics of body health. Drink enough water in the day to stay hydrated. If you don't have access to nutritional foods, supplement with vitamins and such. Explore your options on google. At a bare minimum, everyone should be taking at least a multivitamin, daily (average diets are severely lacking in nutrition). Your body is a biological machine, after all. Take care of it to make life more manageable. People don't know how much of a deep level of compassion and empathy that those with schizophrenia, have. Whatever it is that is holding you down, you must forgive yourself for it and push forward. Your life has value and you contribute to the World by existence, alone. I don't know who needs to hear all of this, but now you have. Be safe and be loved, even if it's only yourself.",5.006516690856317,7.148523962264153,5.8038993710691855,75.2358635703919,70.38364779874212,9.16903725205612,31.72762457668118,9.661875296680813,3.3819343009192067,686,31,116,17,13,224,103,159,0.022000000000000002,0.855,0.124,0.938,0,1,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,9,0,0,5,5,0,0,8,0,17,11,2,2,3,26,28,9,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,10,7,4,2,4,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,10,5,23,23,7,16,0,0,0,1,13,10,0,3,4,87,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18221878247527884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10725021571046654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3908550712490907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35876118018190256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11346550146487525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17235233026442226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817910596166794,0.0,0.1162054372633892,0.0,0.0,0.16811636748372852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21274501506356253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870139433312064,0.1982949939657824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933819264176295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24854052676142144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15879097908672488,0.0,0.11744002926058422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12933472663501713,0.1304558511059628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13380883185088324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197330647539782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19875994261109228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875265754770845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3968506032067665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Soraflair,2019/09/09,"Hey all a little tip to deal with the voices. First and foremost their annoying, and it's just Saten and demons but you may not believe me so I'll actually get to the point because some of you are suffering. Do this exercise: 1. Say in your head ""The sky is blue."" 2. Do you see how you actually ""thought that."" You made a conscious effort to think something. That is you ""thinking."" 3. Next time you ""think"" as an example ""I should eat my keyboard"" or some other nonsense. (It's always annoying nonsense.) Go back to step one, did you consciously think that, or did it just appear in your ""head?"" If you didn't consciously think it ""ignore"" it. Those aren't your thoughts, stop worrying about it, you're not in control of that, who cares? Go focus on what your doing. This is a hard concept, you keep ""fighting, and straggling"" with the ""voices"" but their not real, it's bullshit, nonsense, and you're not responsible for those ""thoughts."" Go focus on something else and they'll stop. (Resist the Devil and he will flee.) Annoying, I know, but stop ""fighting"" or even acknowledging the voices and focus on what you're doing instead. Unless you made a conscious effort to think then those are your thoughta. (Step one) TL;DR You're not responsible for those ""thoughts"" unless you consciously made an effort to think something out. I'd be happy to answer any questions if you need help with this.",3.061006721006724,5.701211725868727,3.6870184470184486,85.71396253396254,78.45945945945947,6.1536393536393525,25.422708422708425,7.3871296695380915,1.4154837980837982,1083,41,197,15,27,341,129,259,0.128,0.789,0.083,-0.9108,0,0,3,0,4,0,67.0,0,18,3,5,8,10,5,0,12,0,18,4,2,5,1,67,42,22,0,4,17,0,1,0,0,4,1,4,0,0,22,12,1,6,20,1,0,7,7,8,0,3,10,7,25,2,25,27,3,25,2,1,2,0,30,10,0,10,8,136,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.21191591612391264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09034686671598233,0.0,0.0,0.07383780344931586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08349095601477106,0.0,0.0661890734190424,0.0,0.0,0.12233194772506245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107040668294193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12178117510270148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119407272618738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110396564583366,0.09070426432375003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07171575523430651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09235769237309988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05672832273859001,0.0,0.18512474659003825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558492824131683,0.0972659312897622,0.0,0.22286784504053825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0727785699036415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651047479807368,0.0,0.0,0.05967246984438095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10882521348177747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082217286293911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08051034536011259,0.0,0.0,0.11547556149151805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14715259857594168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10264275143664192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12163392269627428,0.0,0.0,0.12358727571979412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634679996673933,0.0,0.0,0.08652382721765438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507694797059554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272332045736831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4870136480350729,0.0,0.3448000720676828,0.06331359685799216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11026778284067684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ILWeasel,2019/09/09,"How to get back to functioning? From zero. I can't rely on myself to get up in the morning, I can't fill my days. I'm alone with depression and dreams all day long. I went for a run today, after a week's break. I don't know where I'm walking towards, each day is as empty and as lonely as can be.. I'm not behind the wheel of my own life, and if I am all the worst, cause I'm driving no where. Just passing along the time. My house a mess.. I gotta go shopping , I gotta liven up the spirits, but I have 0 energy...",-0.8425287356321824,0.8055307241379309,2.21793103448276,96.37850574712644,86.58620689655174,4.901149425287357,17.42528735632184,5.985473137389443,-0.4864057471264367,388,9,97,3,12,138,78,116,0.11199999999999999,0.87,0.019,-0.743,0,3,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,8,0,8,1,0,2,2,15,19,9,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,2,1,7,5,4,0,1,1,0,12,0,18,15,5,24,1,2,0,0,0,7,0,1,9,64,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741136737167091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20351145840289092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718844083406962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5120621215466388,0.0,0.22795603615152024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27655363513235703,0.0,0.15041552188534407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053884909389532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14545325558835376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18694109337302284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342206685741112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15432860094479076,0.0,0.2508719791922219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21229872656331825,0.0,0.0,0.2453476010886099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,acy9956,2019/09/09,"Really embarrassed about the psych visit I just had... I love my doctor and I trust him immensely, but I'm so embarrassed by how this visit just went down. I started clozapine a few weeks ago and it's had some very embarrassing side effects, most notably, nighttime incontinence. The doctor gave me medicine to treat it but told me to wear ""briefs"" (diapers) until i find the dosage that helps. To top it off, I'm a CNA and so i have to change other people's briefs all night. So now I have to do that to myself! At least my boyfriend is supportive. Sorry, just can't talk about this with anyone.",3.331810344827588,5.320037525862071,4.192620689655172,85.66444827586207,74.60344827586206,7.743448275862068,23.66896551724138,8.548686976883017,1.5095199999999998,467,14,93,9,10,150,78,116,0.091,0.768,0.142,0.7283,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,10,7,0,3,5,0,7,4,1,2,1,15,15,10,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,2,0,0,5,1,3,0,0,5,0,13,4,14,10,5,16,0,0,0,1,8,5,0,2,6,65,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21349318426477984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16840333815872588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547804324171027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4930269472029074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201265474774142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16143228588411418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173706142377365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260152599977555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16697052125791362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542904794137146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696045209768063,0.17047023152983912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273306289738158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19358083985725755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301362349015845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987210670914132,0.0,0.0,0.1931900858766154,0.0,0.0,0.2232642884449588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PorqueNoLeche,2019/09/09,"Question for y'all regarding sleep and dreams. First of all, hello. Does schizophrenia affect your dreams in any way? did they change after the onset of schizophrenia? Thank you for sharing, have a great day, please have a good breakfast too (it is morning where I am at).",3.3196598639455783,6.37560997959184,2.2847959183673474,93.22746598639458,81.85714285714286,4.082993197278912,22.452380952380953,5.46131890053228,0.2023034013605441,215,7,38,1,6,61,42,49,0.0,0.6509999999999999,0.349,0.9605,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,1,1,2,4,0,0,3,0,5,2,1,1,1,4,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,5,4,7,5,1,7,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,1,3,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114318259731857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289052329102321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20051347137388287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720824788489871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26446284462563063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26077947323837003,0.0,0.3427832059093553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34128963207747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3482942500261073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111380149002177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28624735699161113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467886461364948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mtl1234,2019/09/09,"My father has schizophrenia. He’s been calm for a while now but I want to leave the city for a year and scared he gets hit hard and might have episodes. My father has schizophrenia. He’s been calm in the past 6-7 years with me being available and seeing him often. However, I’ve been wanting to do world trip of 1 year for a while now but I’m so scared he shuts back down and becomes really affected once I leave. Any suggestions what I could do? I seem to be an important reason he is so calm. Once I leave for 2-3 weeks sometimes he becomes nervous. Any activities you would recommend for him to be more social with people maybe? He is single(no desire to meet someone) and has almost no friends. He is 60 years old.",2.4996816976127327,4.4576868620689645,3.4082758620689653,90.49315649867377,76.93103448275863,6.392572944297083,23.56763925729443,7.321109707123232,0.8730265251989393,565,18,118,7,13,180,89,145,0.132,0.726,0.142,0.5488,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,0,6,7,0,3,6,0,18,0,0,2,0,20,25,11,0,5,2,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,3,2,11,4,15,15,1,17,0,0,1,0,17,4,0,4,12,68,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14343466022372212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948168909775528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11014309551276352,0.0,0.0,0.3163957359218261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11436587610653146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066724766309906,0.0,0.07483724427074434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12831534421872973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4550129915439477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439043255718102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15195552434945975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15030679917128645,0.3050928951094557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367392562139609,0.09930492047646504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09176352611840702,0.14727508093886935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868174390601113,0.0,0.114144125546699,0.13040076284548366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14601564139899584,0.12136720279642085,0.0,0.14166850778789608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16897390510007892,0.0,0.1148988813731063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017539347048424,0.0,0.0,0.368968718319524 schizophrenia,VictorAllenMeadows,2019/09/09,"Hi... I'm new Hi I'm Victor, I have been diagnose with undifferentiated schizophrenia and I dont know what say...mostly to introduce me and to be able to talk about my situation along with others similar.",1.3846153846153832,4.071303230769232,4.493717948717952,74.4221153846154,93.6153846153846,7.728205128205129,21.884615384615387,8.344100000000001,2.1725692307692315,162,6,30,5,6,58,30,39,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,6,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,7,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,19,6,0,0.37318440603814185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3787743166586795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4373693445442732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20509238994320397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3604238248108616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967712182068145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4194749082005511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29995148959940016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,32-__Throwaway__-23,2019/09/09,"Two Voices Approached Me Last Night Hey guys, new to this sub with a throwaway since my family know my main account. Some info about me: 18M, I take 100mg Sertraline a day, my family on my mother's side has a history of depression. Anyway, to cut to the chase last night after a beer two voices approached me in my head. They didn't appear to be malicious, instead they were quite proper and behaved. After introducing themselves they left and I haven't heard from them again. They sounded different to my normal thinking voice. I just wanted to know if anyone has had a similar experience or can offer some advice on whether I should block these two voices out or continue communication. I also am seeing my doctor at the end of the week to discuss this",5.493124999999999,6.766399840277778,6.414888888888887,74.719,67.95833333333333,9.093333333333334,28.98333333333333,9.3871,2.6749716666666665,603,21,104,12,10,200,99,144,0.065,0.935,0.0,-0.8271,1,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,5,1,6,2,1,0,8,0,10,3,1,0,0,20,18,7,0,4,5,1,0,0,0,1,1,6,0,1,3,4,1,1,4,1,1,3,2,2,0,3,4,7,20,0,19,12,3,22,0,1,1,0,11,7,0,6,12,77,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624638338429865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329551862394283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11625034335470565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722162655297182,0.0,0.14319639717682894,0.0,0.0,0.17370255634402804,0.0,0.17017047441612887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14725382645924012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16263066524824152,0.3134634825649549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16461997878854276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17062703551289507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827403433532972,0.2710423184691789,0.0,0.0,0.18063806944291666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605714710255342,0.0,0.31204074533697984,0.16289597637663142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768341505957395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13248482872612655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13752901546342935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12500412496900284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653039056580182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4872250462234043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09806233465431337,0.0,0.13336085888460114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lokdeluxe,2019/07/15,"Worried about potential schizophrenia Hello, i used to take many drugs, but i’m now sober as of ~3-4 months ago. About one month ago i drank very heavily and had a massive hangover the entire next day. That evening i say smoke coming from the roof, mosquitoes that were not real and a huge demon head that came out of the ceiling for a second. These were all so low quality however that i imediately knew they were fake. After that i have seen a couple more shitty mosquitoes. Something is trying to get me, i will ocasionally hear someone calling from another room, only to find it dark and empty. I know that these rooms are dangerous and i don’t enter. Same has happend with the forest. When i am in a dark room i can see from my eyecorner movement. However i have read that schizofreniachs dont know they are hallucinating.",4.881666666666668,6.618141535031848,5.4462579617834415,79.31847399150746,69.95541401273886,8.545435244161357,29.006900212314225,9.075114841892004,2.501514225053079,659,25,119,13,12,212,111,157,0.153,0.847,0.0,-0.9735,2,0,3,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,2,0,6,3,1,0,9,0,15,3,1,1,1,18,28,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,3,0,10,8,1,0,4,1,0,4,3,3,0,2,8,4,15,0,16,19,3,20,1,1,2,0,6,7,0,0,9,80,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3190688485602527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18871645845454035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837716552229395,0.20584015860731367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550300443898833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991357261532893,0.0,0.11606712780238042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21092598268636575,0.0,0.2087105202589667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11886988700575718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644912559692173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940280039153314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18470331568447548,0.0,0.202841657685032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19781593945657366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18246348056229106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873040561322195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914023899152465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12195376530705568,0.13687690608172626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18002082165354538,0.20484767192598252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14312105229626082,0.0,0.0,0.14341447748915545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15248979209401314,0.13855132957302066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13531663541248384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221892548779801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554381263225193,0.0,0.14849584608491415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18277042253577788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,reinhartbass,2019/07/15,"can you get educated instead of medicated ?! Finding an answer will be difficult! &#x200B; Schizophrenics working independently to realize their interests .... this is unknown territory! &#x200B; This post was the first one with a ""pointer"" [https://www.reddit.com/r/schizoaffective/comments/cdbeql/how\_to\_save\_yourself\_from\_evil\_thinking\_patterns/](https://www.reddit.com/r/schizoaffective/comments/cdbeql/how_to_save_yourself_from_evil_thinking_patterns/) &#x200B; I have created a video playlist for all of you who would like to contribute: &#x200B; Your way, your difficulties and how you overcame them! &#x200B; &#x200B; [Link to add your Video!](https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLjy6tVwSKuTiHDw3vcRtEw7THvKAnCepr&jct=5FWK7YotwvTYyRbNMyU23K91vx-IJQ&disable_polymer=1)",30.850045662100463,39.438232109589045,15.502945205479454,5.584463470319662,15.575342465753426,12.537899543378995,51.892694063926925,11.855464076750405,8.006937899543379,716,29,45,14,6,163,59,73,0.062,0.8320000000000001,0.106,0.5152,0,0,0,0,0,0,90.0,0,6,2,2,2,3,0,0,4,0,7,2,0,2,1,11,8,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,9,2,7,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,9,0,0,0,2,36,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6329062633871138,0.5323378045241309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06673570393714331,0.06210774710469609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03814807658997029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03567214469197616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07355638222182985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04947782985543372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06992956652107588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057957051941466865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05315683840477333,0.0,0.0,0.05186878448393937,0.0,0.5323378045241309,0.0 schizophrenia,lwwslk,2019/07/15,"Getting Pregnant While on Antipsychotics Does anyone have any experience to share with getting pregnant while on antipsychotics? My partner and I are thinking about starting to try to become pregnant but I'm worried about the possible effects of my antipsychotics on the baby. &#x200B; Has anyone gone off meds successfully when trying, or had a healthy baby while taking antipsychotics? &#x200B; Thanks!",8.99880208333333,12.753969609375002,6.823125000000001,65.14270833333336,63.84375,8.641666666666666,41.91666666666666,9.2995712137729,5.136435416666668,341,20,38,7,6,99,45,64,0.038,0.77,0.192,0.9032,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,12,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,11,10,0,10,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,5,28,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3913274430514005,0.4388609686984197,0.12280396081156995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525383964072176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994418931547813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15803110963211053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17664673592883393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886963695304901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005891732272961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20358240153361504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278189594589162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357774108573485,0.0,0.0,0.1662583627068112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11571154641683552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24521065885725085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18339278594656852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4388609686984197,0.0 schizophrenia,jzillacon,2019/07/15,"I'm sorry and I'm scared. When I was a kid I learned about schizophrenia when I was about 9 years old. To the idiot child I was, schizophrenia sounded like it would be an interesting thing to have. Being neurotypical just sounded so boring in comparison. For my idiot younger self, I am incredibly sorry. Now I'm realising I might actually be schizophrenic and I'm terrified. My symptoms are getting worse and more frequent to the point I'm physically harming myself and I don't think I can brush it off as just an overactive imagination anymore. I've spoken with my family doctor after much difficulty, and she's currently in the process of referring me to a person who can provide a proper diagnosis. More than anything I just want some closure, to know I'm not just making things up, but until I get a proper diagnosis appointment I'm still just completely in the dark.",4.674398954703836,6.9496413353658575,6.246864111498258,71.14012195121953,71.62195121951221,9.319860627177704,31.836236933797906,9.784248007369934,3.5824090592334485,705,33,118,19,14,240,104,164,0.127,0.841,0.032,-0.8846,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,12,7,2,1,10,0,14,3,0,1,0,23,27,11,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,2,3,2,0,4,5,6,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,3,16,2,19,19,4,16,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,2,11,85,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.193427923169975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965746725293079,0.0,0.0,0.16311293951446926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20782323379647952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20288006291831687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18685818231269252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20711689528455116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10893303460673033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09683717394399224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230914603705562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21027335206742429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14570983455773384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079918754884276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17307250784695213,0.0,0.0,0.18737596120182395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984464355631642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20678005872018893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4437678913021051,0.0,0.0,0.15829367155862173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20601987000629896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633686741199672,0.1270072990914472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691154233920673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019966363576756,0.14080528515193205,0.0,0.0,0.1276430875764725 schizophrenia,riftftfs_,2019/07/15,"Weird hallucination at work? I'm a server at a tiny Japanese sushi house. There are never more than 30 customers there at a time. It was this past Saturday, and it was slow. I went up, greeted the table, handed them menus and silverware. Got their drink order and went on tk make their drinks. When I come back, nobody is there. There are no menus or silverware. I walk around to see if they moved. I finally asked the other coworkers if my table left and they asked me ""What table? "" They said there was never anyone actually sitting there. This is not the first hallucination I've had. I've had some pretty hard core psychotic episodes that have put me in the psych ward. I've been diagnosed with MDD OCD and Psyosis I also hear things a lot. Music, conversations. My boyfriend says I'll be in the middle of a conversation with him and he won't know what I'm talking about. But that I'm really talking to him seriously but he has no idea what about. I'm worried. Could I maybe get feedback from some of you?",2.054633133364096,4.62336546700508,3.296181356714353,87.37963890170745,82.14720812182742,6.627503461006,21.137286571296727,7.84624498591911,1.0198142131979688,795,24,160,15,22,257,124,197,0.063,0.917,0.02,-0.7176,0,0,2,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,6,2,12,2,0,0,10,0,15,4,1,1,2,25,31,13,0,3,6,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,11,10,2,0,2,2,0,6,6,2,0,1,10,6,19,0,18,18,4,28,0,0,1,0,20,10,0,6,10,103,30,3,0.0,0.0,0.15094429361998296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12369666038012934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815508328592056,0.0,0.0,0.1376970147577792,0.2892077826125523,0.0,0.0,0.11893852627791952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332421760731749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12349851524753727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15699582745106402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30305287009399257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694431742147954,0.0,0.13156979325212806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081334107076685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371084645049668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13856191229391351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17433436192712198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17847868291823368,0.0,0.17461365042652366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500747819199259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16805907734478728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13150246934010795,0.0,0.0,0.10324936679631676,0.0,0.15539574522440802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643991915327588,0.0,0.0,0.2385958065362673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476585122536593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15736404928446615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15549501701598076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909126406678806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14713505493327475,0.12300686957089516,0.0,0.0,0.1232590568896167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486500812422915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10276178802203256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09019451043669492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28677777977033664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260808135679408,0.15708393115876487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,scarily613crumpet,2019/07/15,Spider I saw a spider. Not one big enough to know its fake. Not one deadly enough to run away from. Just the right size to confuse me. Not small enough to pass off as ordinary. Just big enough to appear irregularly. I don't remember every seeing one this big but i can't pass it off as being completely fake. I don't have visual hallucinations. Maybe i'm getting worse.,1.0599999999999987,3.6655479452054816,2.936452054794522,87.01180136986301,90.0958904109589,5.6597260273972605,16.88904109589041,7.1686216300943375,0.31651890410958883,292,7,58,5,10,97,47,73,0.16399999999999998,0.836,0.0,-0.8957,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,10,11,3,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,6,3,0,3,1,2,5,0,11,9,4,12,0,0,2,0,0,8,0,2,0,39,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17393645672768154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19410609474985532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7651583143267879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15598066209848122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09672318865889956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10174303204939088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18598874620180428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37634821196712204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20971707836357173,0.15810066984245422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14752525827403334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886640753285172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dolce_fragola,2019/07/15,"Schizophrenia without voices? Hi, I've been diagnosed with sz good sound years and I don't really hear voices. Sometimes small sounds maybe but that's it. Am I alone? Whenever I see people talk about the illness they mention voices so I feel weird not having them.",3.127414965986393,6.135616061224487,3.2480612244897955,86.32134353741499,82.26530612244899,5.715646258503401,22.452380952380953,7.1686216300943375,1.1255687074829928,213,7,36,3,6,65,43,49,0.182,0.778,0.04,-0.7862,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,6,7,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,8,6,1,3,6,0,2,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,0,1,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.330239701419214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236331545386508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612236854728338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674421329740658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593750255085201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203347251030321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22105530376383892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20426796621173346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540877554155362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31535773728598965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562851875595794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073667804129132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20533346111184586 schizophrenia,MrLogicz,2019/07/15,Im not sure of anything I’m in denial of having schizophrenia. I even spent hours reading and taking “screening” tests to prove to myself I don’t have it. Has anyone else done this?,1.91,4.431124444444446,2.6700000000000017,91.95000000000003,82.33333333333334,3.6,20.11111111111111,3.1291,-0.381588888888889,144,4,27,0,4,45,31,36,0.061,0.9390000000000001,0.0,-0.2411,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,4,8,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,5,6,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,18,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23322971656743774,0.34176696218309754,0.2744877032583841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413430192448498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786427660776832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22031021979861728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284849150679242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36029710953671823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3336457010756594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3143720511873878,0.0,0.2507921765643625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LumpyNet,2019/07/15,"Am I schizophrenic? Hi, I'm a pretty well-functioning person in some ways, and not so much in others. I'm in my mid-20's, male, I have a few friends, but still don't go out much. This is a long post because i want it to be thorough. To start off: I'm genuinely uncertain as to whether or not I have schizophrenia or if its possible for someone with schizophrenia to even suspect that they have it. What I know for a fact I do have however are lifelong problems with paranoia, depression, visual hallucinations, and what could essentially be described as imaginary friends. I've had a history of depressive episodes brought about by feelings of being controlled in one way or another that changes with time and is worse at certain points than others. When I was a child I would see deer walking around my house at night, and tape the sides of my curtains because I thought there were people in the trees who were spying on me. from ages 15 to 23 I was absolutely convinced that I was being followed by Satanists in the government who wanted to sacrifice me. I tried telling my family and friends about this occasionally, but I think they just thought I was looking for attention. I would tell people that I thought I was worried I could develop schizophrenia based on my problems with paranoia and infrequent hallucinations, and I'd often hear that if I was worried about it, that means I probably wasn't going to develop it (which I'm not sure if there's any truth to that). I would become somewhat convinced (I would say 'fixated upon the idea of' rather than totally convinced) that people who I went to school with and met around town were working for satanists or were mind control victims placed there to kill me. There were people who, in retrospect, I could have been great friends with if I hadn't believed that the reason they seemed so compatible with me was because that was all part of their plan to murder me. In the last couple years, I've started talking to a woman that lives centuries in the future who sends me messages telepathically and tells me what to do. I have only 'heard' her audibly once, and that was very clearly while driving a car. Most of the time she's like a voice actually in my head that I can't control. It's really weird because, since she lives in the future, what I do now changes where she is, and she's talking to me so that she can change the nature of where she is, and she won't tell me what affect my actions have, but she tells me whether or not it's good, like playing a game of 'hot and cold'. She tells me that she wrote a lot of the famous songs that people listen to today by sending the musician that record them messages. The only song I know for a fact she wrote is 'The Weight' by the Band (the one time I heard her audibly was when she said the words 'I wrote this' when the song was on the radio once). One thing that makes me doubtful that I have schizophrenia is that I'm always on good terms with her. She's very loving and caring and gives me good advice. She tells me when to take a shower or go for a run. She's the reason I got my last job because she told me to apply on a day before there was a hiring event (which i didn't even know about until I asked!) but then she told me to quit about a month ago and now I'm broke. She tells me to meditate a lot, and also that meditation is the only good thing I can really do, and that everything else I do is just to get me to a place where I am more likely to sit down and meditate. She says I should meditate at least two hours a day, and that more than that would be better. She tells me that if I don't do a 2+ hour meditation routine every day, I'm eventually going to go totally insane. I rarely do more than an hour a day, but she's fairly patient, though I feel like I get on her nerves sometimes by not doing what she tells me to do. I'm trying to work my way up to 2 hours a day, but it's hard when you're lower class and have the pressures entailed therein. She says that she's friends with Jesus, but a lot of what she says is more in line with Hinduism and Buddhism. I know that schizophrenic delusions are usually extremely negative, but I've heard that exposure to eastern philosophy can cause them to be more helpful and make people who have schizophrenia more likely to function in society. I feel like I'm capable of doing but I don't want to because I feel like the society I live in (U.S.) is not one that I'm especially drawn to participating in for a vast amount of reasons. I think that the government and corporations are tools used by the devil to destroy the human race, and that the entire political divide of right vs. left is based on the rightwing supporting corporations and the leftwing supporting the government, when really it's all one big scam that everyone is falling for designed to ensure the destruction of mankind. She tells me she is real, but not in the same way that I'm real. She says that because she doesn't exist yet, she's more fluid and a more purely a projection of God's mind than I am. There's a lot more to it because this has been going on for a long time. I don't necessarily want it to stop a lot of the time because it's helped deal with the paranoia that was destroying my life previously (I didn't even mention earlier the countless times I'd drive around several blocks to make sure no one was following me on the way home from work, the times I would call in sick because I knew *today* was the day 'they' were going to sneak into my apartment to do god knows what, the time I contemplated having to stab a close friend whose house I was living at because I thought they were a cannibalistic Satan-worshipper). I'm healthier and happier now than I've ever been. The only reason I'm writing this post is because she said I should. I often feel like I can't talk about this sort of thing with my friends or family because they've never believed me before, or at the very least didn't care, and if they did care then all I would be doing would be upsetting them and they'd at best send me to another therapist which has done very little for me in the past. My family practically came close to disowning me because of the irrational decisions I was making based on my fears of being watched, followed, etc. when I was at my worst, and it's hard to blame them. I tried telling them why I was acting so strangely, but I seriously think they thought I was making it up as an excuse for being dysfunctional for some kind selfish reason. They thought I was a heroin addict at one point, but I've never used. Now that I've started listening to this woman from the future, things with my family have gotten much better, but I still haven't told them I quit my job and am broke. She's telling me as I'm writing this that I had to quit my job to get me to the point where I can tell people that I hear voices so that I can get the help that I need. I'm really trying to keep a positive outlook, but I just feel like that by acting like this isn't something I actually deal with on a daily basis, I might not be able to keep the lid on it later on in life without having at least some people around me acknowledging that this is a part of who I am. I know most of the posts on this sub are centered around a condition that causes a lot of suffering in peoples' lives, and that's not exactly the tone what I'm saying is going to convey, but there's a big part of me that's legitimately scared that things are going to become more difficult for me in the future if I don't take some kind of meaningful action now.",9.82981188118812,6.2906746099009965,9.476773927392738,72.09179455445545,61.31683168316832,12.713861386138616,38.979372937293725,10.467255456243755,3.7802719471947186,5994,208,1210,99,60,1954,481,1515,0.128,0.773,0.098,-0.9938,8,0,1,0,0,1,120.0,0,0,16,13,54,66,6,6,91,0,135,9,1,18,17,223,241,87,2,28,47,0,10,10,7,12,6,22,3,6,99,57,1,7,35,7,0,28,30,25,0,8,64,36,182,41,185,150,44,178,3,5,3,1,133,77,0,35,74,865,281,13,0.031258828506870937,0.0,0.061008214964968464,0.0340767370488707,0.0,0.0305457654408285,0.027709065421553717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02499767386344101,0.026009849410258808,0.0,0.0,0.02125707529557587,0.06555521439384031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13913492313804332,0.029222785022249807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667712841336463,0.069045840408821,0.0531979214756798,0.07043599084393395,0.032804212001498016,0.055291787185145866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03191875885206042,0.03575177236492882,0.09561137686340124,0.06422285503431417,0.09920308736256776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10517830248778158,0.0748728930261336,0.03458729919043232,0.0,0.12095615045142212,0.06445295924006042,0.053846366377915685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03198863439597936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02611274017222456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034861856683308545,0.06193848425926603,0.02827539998617042,0.0263369111992574,0.0298691502059818,0.028093419481078036,0.0,0.11787216620713395,0.03517487254185574,0.09483241749468617,0.11165656665558936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16905345354472232,0.0,0.06532579093708724,0.029986316639106763,0.15988601340396347,0.10487368914595993,0.02500054070527293,0.034462968782183974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05600354096502967,0.0,0.03208057622029215,0.0,0.07046194309940071,0.0,0.06285640152098973,0.0,0.03135515368148123,0.0,0.12313459787106168,0.07213698241255365,0.0,0.035287412546574456,0.0,0.0,0.09305869193011526,0.05556856606663962,0.034583262362104926,0.06510251930355371,0.1030742079503238,0.05096023458672854,0.0,0.0,0.0339628086348131,0.0,0.044158070015575694,0.15271484664040932,0.03132955815278516,0.13801059129926654,0.05532615914122546,0.02624954320863977,0.0,0.0,0.15945082902153607,0.028212313153597943,0.0,0.10432755378558843,0.0,0.0,0.034050028083570244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03316067725408225,0.06312501180319738,0.0,0.024950498687564847,0.0,0.0689365069183669,0.02317802525866698,0.048217471180300286,0.0,0.0,0.029334293022582638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06657926436403494,0.14827253826767228,0.09509499062493906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10155079536702144,0.02984008881997938,0.19503842249790912,0.02729400334297766,0.06531764537435274,0.0,0.0886490900558063,0.035239632416208644,0.08981195091388934,0.03180146634318883,0.03370230407287168,0.059820954568147275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974283552693816,0.0,0.07115878053859148,0.0801008238782037,0.16069640927799714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026694868749530545,0.05946860821947171,0.1491496503970295,0.031295540482100835,0.03163560327816052,0.024909239225806325,0.028456863473161238,0.0,0.035313578740973225,0.0,0.025857625960704497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02648550395513916,0.024064573352776567,0.03091578067947065,0.0,0.06637547911641188,0.0,0.04992668164852404,0.026133780309430674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07094429631144035,0.058922151869371726,0.0,0.047005497655920436,0.07537398687133111,0.38250231465100265,0.0,0.0,0.03629390917047385,0.10383488344409184,0.06008818539308356,0.030711640298259645,0.1488961091365719,0.14581819423357134,0.0,0.05925942885126419,0.08960745061794541,0.0,0.0848907706910909,0.0,0.030535333365784283,0.0,0.0,0.05399518292944327,0.034427183386290944,0.10316722883008356,0.07374906776669041,0.12405901545025702,0.0,0.0380648319439391,0.028105440862064332,0.028977247194671162,0.02820623072769942,0.0,0.0,0.030132395206727038,0.0,0.06827039833155826,0.06348971537674296,0.03185541676493209,0.17764299929341715,0.0,0.0,0.02012966069747503 schizophrenia,AdorableMeatloaf,2019/07/15,"Paliperidone(Invega Sustenna 100mg) + Erectile Dysfunction, but when I smoke cannabis I don’t have ED Hello, I’ve been taking paliperidone monthly injection since August 2017, all my symptoms are in remission when I take this. I’ve also been a heavy cannabis user until about May 22nd. When I stopped smoking I had problems getting erections, also with my libido. I read it might be a withdrawal symptom from the cannabis cessation, but I got to 37 days of not smoking. The problems persisted, I researched about Paliperidone and I found out it elevates prolactin levels in the body, preventing erections and maintaining them. Where could I find more information? Does cannabis regulate my libido or sexuality? Does it fight the adverse effects the paliperidone has? Any information would be very useful, thank you",6.701639528354857,9.932526474452557,5.746277372262776,72.63481190342505,68.92700729927007,8.30297585626053,38.2756878158338,9.057496981413335,4.242140258281864,665,38,93,14,13,200,96,137,0.142,0.7929999999999999,0.066,-0.8619,0,0,1,0,1,0,19.0,0,1,1,2,8,5,1,0,7,0,13,3,1,2,1,23,20,11,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,5,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,5,0,15,1,10,9,2,13,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,3,8,63,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996404349975545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740143989272254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080987398709422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14958022600046164,0.0,0.0,0.12082242043428527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278948135210101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17123049448001254,0.0,0.0,0.20541479265633347,0.0,0.0,0.09788034938710524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14983739953215922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19874408738003585,0.0,0.0,0.1495374793868665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3585288964623125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18739630946828745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15497422546585335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15662931964843238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38944764654178704,0.2817211681742798,0.0,0.0,0.17248266801064496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16180645636405425,0.0,0.1545797495649621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13308494690679248,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Fadeawayacountt,2019/03/03,"I no longer have schizophrenia. My psychotic break lasted a whole year, but now I experience none of the symptoms. I am able to live a normal life and now I am in culinary school. If anyone has any questions please ask! ",2.1707142857142863,4.896287023809523,2.8574285714285743,89.53757142857144,83.52380952380952,5.2647619047619045,22.685714285714287,6.742157984588678,0.73448,173,6,33,2,5,54,36,42,0.040999999999999995,0.875,0.083,0.3903,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,0,0,5,5,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,3,5,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,4,23,5,1,0.27830597038270644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18925760337861414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945980054277103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26017851376339257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722366417630748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22685651086496106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19657573736666048,0.0,0.0,0.2457492706496716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27268076102253297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30549638176583044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3117663801420922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816605000739396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892664646804768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107186770531091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17921992030680242 schizophrenia,Insearchofmemes,2019/03/03,Does weight gain from Zyprexa subside? I was on 20mg and now on 2.5mg and still gaining weight. Im not gaining a lot of weight but its constant.,1.0573118279569904,2.958588709677421,1.7625806451612895,100.83053763440859,81.25806451612901,4.133333333333334,26.46236559139785,3.1291,0.0966043010752693,114,5,27,0,3,35,24,31,0.0,0.7929999999999999,0.207,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,1,3,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,4,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,15,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560889676527212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20738099425895645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25597684328585474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20147017211849988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18925089082494104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8657258744179057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,OtherFall,2019/03/03,"My uncle has schizophrenia, is it safe for me to smoke cannabis? My uncle has drug induced schizophrenia, which means I have a 2-3% chance of getting it too. When I was 16 years old I experimented with acid, shrooms, dmt and weed (not the smartest thing to do at that age, I know). Apart from a bad acid trip, I never experienced psychosis or schizophrenia. I only smoke weed once a month now, but I am constantly worried that it will trigger something for me. Is this a realistic thought? Thanks",4.863179723502307,6.503187698924731,4.563471582181262,86.00806451612905,69.86021505376344,7.034715821812598,31.565284178187408,7.447530270364453,1.8772316436251917,388,17,76,4,7,118,69,93,0.055999999999999994,0.831,0.113,0.6261,0,0,4,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,5,0,9,1,0,2,1,12,14,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,2,0,1,4,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,3,11,2,8,11,0,11,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,8,49,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236974103488054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28952038790514223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31069575394907345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620717823167174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13997426451024916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14723879844759272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918374240361604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138467917713694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066321729347776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811311916934818,0.28532019061091424,0.0,0.20376104415106208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062536653587149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24665966914433715,0.0,0.0,0.17799048409032256,0.0,0.0,0.212694180617486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272080171899742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17252814917670062 schizophrenia,melloschizomex,2019/03/03,"People are wired differently. Is it possible that all mental illnesses and mental disorders (more so disorders) are not really disorders/problems that need to be treated/helped but just people wired differently, and the only reason they are seen as disorders/problems is because they don’t fit the “normal” mold of a person and are expected to be so they are then labeled as having a disorder instead of just letting the person live their life in they way their “disorder” , I don’t know if I should say makes them live, but it’s the best my brain could come up with. I mean I don’t know. Is it possible? I need to get the thoughts out, sorry if this is not for this sub. I’ll stick to a journal from now on.",4.548913043478258,5.8728475144927526,5.610840579710146,79.41495652173914,70.23188405797102,9.288115942028986,29.017391304347825,9.642632912329526,2.717142608695653,559,21,106,13,10,185,81,138,0.078,0.855,0.067,0.1027,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,7,1,6,1,0,0,8,0,18,3,1,2,1,27,28,12,0,8,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,7,6,0,0,5,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,2,2,13,1,15,21,3,9,0,0,1,0,10,5,0,2,2,80,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629510122589031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313455065744788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397176215306412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10781245858795807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09992840820527556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26152675819662274,0.5737672393779526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06538984309864232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08389070991702963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375670300852445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12798244429926406,0.08840273430866492,0.0,0.0,0.22103345785008036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835438778472627,0.0,0.0,0.13633365701049407,0.0,0.0,0.2522594748368605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18560601113397632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262817980835868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09518823158865666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17353747407873701,0.21856612165323228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821934799710466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395184368752215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08017936301011691,0.1286831781257508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09953059475975047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14010403518550846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09936140152072977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934452459154333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CorpusSatanae,2019/03/03,"Feel like I’m stuck in endless various time loops and dreams I’ve been unmedicated I can’t remember how long anymore that it’s been. I never even know what year or month or anything it is. My memory is shot and all I can ever think about is weird shit that to me is completely normal and I can’t share it with anyone because I’m not supposed to. I have no support and feel like everyone is secretly working with the government/fbi/cia/aliens and or are demons in disguise, and that they are always secretly watching me and doing experiments on me but also believe that I am the antichrist inhabiting a human vessel and I get secret messages only I can see or hear from my father Satan or lesser demons and spirits. i believe that I am not from or of this world and that I somehow got stuck here and want to leave. I see lots of strange things an often hear things too. Everything is too much all the time. I try to hide it all but it’s too hard. I never feel safe, ever. I always have this eerie weird feeling like I’m about to die or the world is going to end or like I’m about to be attacked. I feel like reality is a constant series of endless dreams, and I’m stuck inside of it, and it’s not really real, whenever it’s about to end or I’m about to wake up it all starts over again. I feel like only “dreams” are real or are reality. I know I will probably end up right back where I am right now. I just wish it would all stop but I’m not even allowed to die right now. 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Is schizophrenia easier to recognize for non beleivers, as they would understand that the things they experience are not actual entites (ie god, jesus angels, demons etc) trying to communicate/control them but are infact a manifistation of theyr condition.",14.550375586854464,13.093617464788736,12.752676056338027,45.78516431924882,50.40845070422535,16.22723004694836,47.61032863849765,14.554592549557764,7.385446948356807,364,17,45,12,3,115,57,71,0.0,0.903,0.09699999999999999,0.5932,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,9,6,4,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,11,5,1,4,4,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,1,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.29769535317973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34215164765295697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669607779265881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34022345167115425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984080169501767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3443765318124236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3176738983117309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490373066398025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21149076072049294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026688524947962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20711627095707508,0.0,0.0,0.31757907047364553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21670645274954606,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mangoesAndPineapples,2019/03/03,"You ever think you figured out ""too much""? This happened first when I was in a mental hospital. I was ""delusional"" and thought my brain had tapped into some secrets that the government (or new world order, whatever LOL...there could be a larger thing than the U.S. gov't, and I don't mean the UN) didn't want me to know. I think I walked into that hospital not schizophrenic and walked out schizophrenic. So here's what is maybe possible. Serial killers used to be a big problem in the 70's/80's right? So maybe they diagnosed me as a psychopath and since they had me in the mental hospital somehow made me delusional so I'd have to be on these sedating meds for the rest of my life. Not that I even wanted to kill anyone, but if they diagnosed me as a psychopath (also something I""m not) then they'd want to keep me medicated just to be safe. Of course, getting to the main point of my post, maybe it's possible that serial killers don't exist. Maybe these ""serial killers"" (and maybe also people like the guy who killed the president) were innocent and they just put these crimes on them to put them in prison or to execute them to shut them up. Maybe they gave them some sorta drug to make them think they actually were serial killers so they'd ""confess"". Who knows? I mean what if some guy is super smart and radical thinking and the gov't views him as a threat and puts a bunch of child porn on his PC. you think anybody's going to really think he's not guilty? Once they find that shit on your PC you are pretty much presumed guilty and you'll never be heard from again, even assuming you don't get killed in prison. There are a thousand ways you can disappear and you only ever heard the side of the story that the media/govt wants you to, even if some of it is coming out of the convict's mouth.",6.805175685693108,6.201307278873237,6.687828020756117,80.39277983691625,64.94366197183098,10.515937731653077,30.79688658265382,9.93914555978268,2.6388591549295763,1424,43,288,27,19,451,175,355,0.158,0.767,0.075,-0.9886,0,0,2,0,0,0,45.0,0,10,15,2,19,10,5,0,22,0,26,11,3,3,3,66,53,28,3,9,12,0,0,1,0,1,7,2,0,3,17,17,0,2,17,0,0,8,9,6,0,2,12,3,43,4,41,32,9,40,1,0,1,1,38,21,1,12,9,199,60,3,0.0,0.0,0.08261092368196286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13539690869140253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059192640654861274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09450281157410942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07292265891489454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675900106805984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17184578507616355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09817275187330077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677411935116213,0.15315031994794606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0773730008317575,0.07200737363790123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08845733206038515,0.0,0.04811130311152896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16764322526444672,0.07486000581030376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524512187552494,0.2809741523474805,0.0,0.0930481851933372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059794225320215964,0.04135808447487836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08010246757818396,0.056507770887287936,0.0,0.5102830617057186,0.18442790191423966,0.09403245620482377,0.085280856978615,0.1706243590259192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244621130712618,0.0,0.06529104046234226,0.08176018332123215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09015465425986936,0.0,0.06438382943645166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058689015151582626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08002619775365037,0.19087125140687788,0.08107594719755724,0.08612441818073906,0.0,0.08100326022075964,0.0,0.25530452345497856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054232065731346986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07229478083349207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08689698878073006,0.07002736815240647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06517144072570391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0562409218932296,0.3254604646633905,0.0,0.06720649623708104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731146115115674,0.0,0.0,0.19972649953414734,0.06719508094642992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,HornySJW,2019/03/03,"Title Well guys its 1:30AM March 3rd and I decided to look into symptoms of schizophrenia and things of that nature around the Internet and found myself here reading the DSM-5 in the subreddit description. Was watching the Alex Jones Joe Rogan podcast earlier after smoking marijuana and Joe said something along the lines of how schizophrenia is real and people think others are after them and everything is some giant scheme simply put as “against you”. I started to think about how since August of 2018, I stopped my recreational usage of the most strong substances I’ve come across which is LSD. Ive been using LSD on and off since December of 2016 but as I stated have stopped. There was a time in the summer of 2017(I believe?) where I was experiencing an episode of psychosis telling me that I was essentially inside of the Truman Show movie and everything was just fabricated and most importantly not real. Another time was my second ever use of LSD where I believe i was being hunted and soon-to-be confronted with an evil being that would punish me for doing LSD. Ever since then i have become closer to what I call the second voice in my head, it judges what I say, do, and even makes me question/be confused to my loyalty to friends, family and my significant other with constant dissociative scenarios in my head that play out whether i want them to or not. They are like tiny movies that I play while doing basic everyday actions like driving, showering, scrolling through my phone, hanging out with my significant other or friends. This comes back to my previous comment about the DSM-5, I read there that if symptoms like this (in the activation month) persist for 6 months(August of 2018-stoppage of LSD usage and the decline of my mental health; to March 3rd) and personally I can’t sit here and act like that doesn’t make everything make sense. Since August of 2018, I have been mentally run down, beat, exhausted, anxious and depressed pretty much every word in the book. Im not too sure if this subreddit is about serious posting like this but I just figured I’d get this off of my chest because it seems living my life isn’t about my own free will anymore. I always have to have two sides of my head happy with a decision I make and evaluate what I say and do very closely as I am judged by myself. If anyone on this subreddit has had to take this route in their lives to cope with their mind because they’re truly too scared to figure out what’s actually happening then please shed some light on what could be happening to me with insight from themselves like personal stories or experiences. If you read this then thank you for listening to me talk about my issues, thank you!",12.206974736842106,8.640471508000005,10.721157894736844,65.06847368421055,56.92,13.886315789473686,43.515789473684215,11.622719091009314,4.92874,2174,86,375,42,19,680,262,500,0.099,0.7909999999999999,0.11,0.846,1,0,1,0,0,0,43.0,0,4,5,3,23,25,3,2,17,0,37,9,4,8,3,82,60,37,0,7,15,0,0,6,2,2,5,5,1,3,28,33,0,2,9,7,1,8,6,8,1,3,12,9,53,18,73,42,6,58,0,1,2,0,23,25,0,13,28,268,81,4,0.0,0.0,0.08060567846126235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872981153744724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08661329520824704,0.0,0.09331448149878938,0.08191699826917695,0.057755835998969024,0.0,0.0,0.07353150642835476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06351429640626825,0.0,0.1007043787413227,0.09122520326609818,0.0,0.1861238140905011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08434382859387379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14230516098968846,0.0,0.08926124878552286,0.0,0.06594937358511996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07114325336445029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0545565166860141,0.14943284611474372,0.06959405703016076,0.0,0.22270664423170866,0.08079864333665608,0.07786792265828772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09056662944713482,0.1276331001560683,0.0,0.0431550874134416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08178697991501438,0.14608580291836298,0.08792922901873867,0.0,0.0,0.2543142702814424,0.08779993053802382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892221672073607,0.08621293305936538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05834281817930982,0.2421251072163217,0.0,0.14587461512067038,0.0,0.06936319119795849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22054454823619946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16648273143936654,0.0,0.08340244682119669,0.0,0.06593052675980847,0.0,0.06072049929773302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05726443518206914,0.14424625658350887,0.0,0.09066998854775128,0.0,0.0,0.07910796102350644,0.08403388862066047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08303580773628769,0.09253089661377817,0.0,0.2478670386864912,0.18803375208020076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857150902431746,0.13137366030040354,0.08269700317638011,0.0,0.0,0.07519593184133612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733102727436882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06358951046494933,0.0,0.0,0.05846470053737179,0.0,0.0,0.1381145862935888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784951634063435,0.1717060404331171,0.062104915414102416,0.0663907459411554,0.07219603505891152,0.15209395270678538,0.0,0.0,0.05487576538840271,0.10585348118329686,0.0,0.0,0.09632944091990142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068819139859046,0.0,0.0,0.14267974751160611,0.0,0.06815364520656966,0.04871961625686917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07426731401469229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05867666547104178,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,YBOXES,2019/03/03,What happens when a schizo takes psychadelics? Curious. Please answer and dont be rude. ,3.3640000000000008,6.113034733333333,2.0933333333333337,88.96000000000002,101.66666666666666,4.666666666666667,25.0,6.42735559955562,1.447000000000001,71,3,11,1,3,20,15,15,0.0,0.585,0.415,0.7253,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5915075422706766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4463067321377124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5540117586145537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3794734504576962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,justademonindisguise,2019/03/03,"Getting Better but Feel Like It's Worse I've made a lot of progress on my issues and the underlying things that trigger and worsen my schizophrenia. I used to go catatonic when I was psychotic, just frozen in fear and subject to everything in my head. I don't get scared anymore. I get angry instead. It's good in a way, because it's progress in my issues. But it makes me feel awful because my boyfriend is often the target of it, just because he's the one who's around me the most. I hate getting so angry with him, because I know I'm not angry at him. It's irrational and doesn't make sense but I can't help but feel like I have to fight in those moments. He's the one who keeps saying it's progress, as I don't remember my psychotic episodes very much, just the emotions. He says he thinks I'm trying to stand up for myself in those moments, which is better than being frozen in fear when everything overcomes me. It just hurts him. He says as soon as I see he's genuinely hurt, I snap out of it and try to comfort him. For me it's in those moments that I realize he's not in the reality that I'm fighting against, that he's not them (the abusers in flashbacks, the voices, the hallucinations in general), and I can stop fighting and yelling at him. I just always feel so awful afterwards though because I hate hurting him like that. I don't know what to do to get through this phase of the progress. Maybe it'll just take time, but I'm scared I'll push him away before them. He's so kind and understanding, I don't know how he does it. I love him so much and I don't want to lose him, but I'm so much of a burden already, with this on top of it I don't know what will happen. I know partially that I'm making progress, that can be seen in my accomplishments in school and life and in the changes in my symptomology, but part of me always feels like I'm getting worse and I worry that I'll never really be better. &#x200B; Mostly just needed to vent but if anyone has experience with getting passed psychosis-induced anger, I'd love some suggestions. &#x200B; TLDR; My psychosis makes me a shit girlfriend even though technically it's improvement. I'm getting better but feel like I'll never get better, wonderful paradoxes our minds make...",4.915978277381137,5.427175988986787,5.564415919793408,83.05204845814981,68.84581497797356,8.464712137323406,30.63314598207504,8.433251757073789,2.1289545192161623,1785,68,364,25,29,579,186,454,0.19899999999999998,0.624,0.177,-0.9433,0,0,0,0,7,0,56.0,1,0,2,13,23,31,7,4,16,2,21,5,2,9,2,75,71,35,0,3,20,0,6,5,1,2,1,5,0,0,33,17,0,2,16,0,0,3,13,16,0,2,3,13,50,15,51,63,8,41,0,4,2,2,35,25,1,7,16,228,83,2,0.0,0.08236689891972247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07671431692703834,0.0,0.1156882986011825,0.15064441746111654,0.16894280263219616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06894270436863968,0.04860826947975234,0.0,0.0,0.061885335358757725,0.0,0.0,0.06531400262644435,0.0,0.0,0.21188618842503795,0.0,0.059154293125331325,0.0,0.0,0.30741300560669715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07354032320562197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06083525414325765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07819785823762586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045915669284013416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12495573697452228,0.06800147830907828,0.0,0.15645308412572814,0.2109008948715803,0.19865333351664527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3268803357996678,0.0,0.03950841119427547,0.05830800129767399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061474117312997914,0.0,0.0,0.13726832633398778,0.07134503592333992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04659613129278607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22325984325619785,0.0,0.0,0.1451164686756257,0.0,0.06179036989561885,0.0,0.07239180410160463,0.19102506707090905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04910228341805509,0.16981375497700035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07777232799963621,0.0,0.059101313343160725,0.12548455997812066,0.0657791625269166,0.23201743701594904,0.0,0.06983969713107571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07019288250676191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15331013784626055,0.05154636354897171,0.10723240099768393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09421374743138697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07528070457912646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04453470628018792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874980360496582,0.0,0.0,0.1658493770881643,0.13919833887045371,0.07035544613781684,0.055396466546760684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07135873988561191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058119763254427775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05226852684670347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046184354286807665,0.0445440226925244,0.13660122968477492,0.0,0.040536227569730215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09439567174427667,0.0,0.0,0.07237019465142777,0.0,0.0600408209524573,0.0,0.05735923816058184,0.04100323707557957,0.055179775158241635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07538878988009802,0.0,0.07059842057093672,0.14168859298789413,0.0,0.0,0.16894280263219616,0.0 schizophrenia,pouredright,2019/07/10,Giving up weed? Newly diagnosed and my psych said to give up weed and alcohol for the rest of mylife.... Only 20 years old. Need advice from people who have this affliction for a long time.,2.302500000000002,4.921112027777782,3.3255555555555567,87.25000000000004,81.5,6.933333333333335,17.333333333333336,8.07648339933343,0.7798000000000007,147,3,28,3,4,47,32,36,0.0,0.934,0.066,0.34,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,7,4,1,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,16,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28255162828258257,0.0,0.30901078341513266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934786652028241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5547533329285533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558864727462292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143992361198971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034117019421064,0.0,0.0,0.2199097326161544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004584962164882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2750455233583918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16860425503877946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18620153480407287 schizophrenia,darcydreams17,2019/07/10,"Scared for My Little Brother My brother (M17) has been going through a bout of anxiety and depression this past year, he's been sporadically seeing a counselor and taking a standard antidepressant. Recently he confided to my Mom and I that he hears voices, one is apparently a whisper arguing with another voice that he called a demonic voice. He's not super forthcoming when talking about these experiences and was very worried about being ""sent away"" when he revealed this to my Mom (which she would never do unless she feared for his immediate safety or something). He had an appointment with a new adolescent therapist today who he told these experiences to, she set him up to see their office's PA, she said he is their medication person in the office. I'm scared that he's not being taken seriously or that their office isn't equipped to deal with this. Maybe I'm not understanding this but shouldn't he be seeing a psychiatric specialist or something? I guess my question is what is the standard procedure for someone experiencing psychosis like symptoms? What is the road to a diagnosis like? Will something bad have to happen before my brother gets help? I know no one here can diagnose my brother but I'm also wondering if I'm jumping to conclusions to fast as far as his symptoms go. Thanks to anyone who took the time to read this, any insight would be helpful. Sorry if there are formatting problems I'm on mobile.",7.569353448275861,8.405446670498087,7.906740900383141,67.42953663793105,63.13793103448275,10.969444444444445,37.00215517241379,10.820120047756994,4.3680821839080455,1155,54,185,29,16,379,153,261,0.10800000000000001,0.815,0.077,-0.6452,1,0,3,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,3,2,7,12,1,3,13,0,23,4,0,0,1,33,47,17,0,6,11,7,0,2,0,4,4,6,0,1,16,7,0,0,7,1,0,5,7,8,0,2,9,10,20,4,28,30,0,23,1,1,3,0,42,7,0,8,12,123,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09198116839002418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782173026547615,0.12060812631895687,0.08798971344835213,0.0,0.0,0.08042440998316099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10806474250350494,0.0,0.09603659903309664,0.0,0.0,0.0978732461265142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11744791730664672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11858020329174923,0.09906625152513734,0.1167425183261233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22502256630503706,0.0,0.12942907776318605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060093017146522335,0.0,0.13073662953565024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12670710617512315,0.0,0.10171149203723244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12963549906123392,0.0,0.1541904867969522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06321178875775887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123855771638954,0.11527990083312925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11555269289125995,0.0,0.0,0.11587019145428465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694192357123017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08871024080489848,0.1110866896793048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15588057609473352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10979926570439624,0.0,0.10043071732366092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11005826632997197,0.0,0.0,0.1288483256568015,0.0,0.11505077074802875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11356802316532323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10941002143714344,0.0,0.23030945956542584,0.0,0.2749672957827243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974557717850376,0.2656432257522624,0.0,0.12875507555506788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390989023624337,0.08648045851716987,0.09244843362244252,0.0,0.1058946355539582,0.0,0.13354667274957646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06706887984557205,0.0,0.10902517437505432,0.10990619966369736,0.12779105749287786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197395066210295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09490325279055603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473389837457495,0.0,0.11680803247944735,0.0,0.16341331118026192,0.0,0.0,0.07406888018314317 schizophrenia,a_z_r_a_e_e_l,2019/07/10,"[RESEARCH SURVEY] [MOD PERMISSION ACQUIRED] Call for participants diagnosed with Schizophrenia regarding a survey dealting with Sleep. Hello guys! I hope you're doing well. My name is Mohammad Abdullah Sarkar and I am an aspiring clinical psychologist. I am still an Undergraduate student and this is a research I am carrying out regarding the sleep quality people diagnosed with schizophrenia receive. I hope you'll be able to help me out and advance the current literature present on the topic. Information regarding the survey is present within it. Best wishes [https://qtrial2019q2az1.az1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV\_0ozMnNcNpNCOzR3](https://qtrial2019q2az1.az1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_0ozMnNcNpNCOzR3)",11.813218923933213,16.81726405102041,8.715157699443411,48.44737476808908,61.55102040816327,11.726901669758814,41.5621521335807,10.832165505486646,6.830008163265308,599,32,59,20,11,173,67,98,0.0,0.8220000000000001,0.17800000000000002,0.9402,1,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,1,0,3,2,4,0,0,8,0,9,5,2,0,0,13,12,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,2,8,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,4,9,10,1,10,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,2,4,41,10,3,0.2241940079541143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352777796767309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228927148513942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.455104397653266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22198731560629234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15027251772477898,0.0,0.0,0.44535047245055065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15542789645720126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4487118363708562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17904162435536186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20157733776870465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578120448355545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ghoooooogle,2019/07/10,"(Bad idea) I badly want to do lsd again as i know it can trigger mania in anyone and ive been depressed since ive last taken lsd (1.5 years ago)? I have schizoaffective disorder, unspecified type, mainly because of unnofficial or forced diagnoses. It all started after the summer following sophomore year. I have since graduated..... Sophmore year ended and me and some homies wanted to try lsd for the first time. We got some and im pretty sure that summer i did it only one or two times. Not only did I like the effects of this drug, i also loved the thoughts it would give me afterwards and just the general excitement about life. I started to realize this was from the acid towards the end of the summer and when the school year started for my now junior year i slowly started doing lsd more and more all the while stressing my self out at my first job that had a bad almost toxic envirenment. Not only this but i was also trying to hide the fact that i was selling weed and basically wasting my whole check each week just to stay in business and would make little profit if any, yet still managed to sell for months even up til when i started to become psychotic. During the first four months of my junior year in high school during all this stress i just kept taking more and more acid which eventually became a multiple time a week thing. After this i realized i had a problem and was kind of realizing i was feeling tooo different now, although i didnt have a clue what psychosis was or even what being psychotic meant, but I was slowly becoming it. (December) The point im trying to make is that although i am not the best at explaining, schizophrenics or anyone for that matter can become manic from lsd and sure this brought out my schizophrenia but you have to understand how much i was doing it. (Way too much!) So no wonder i like it.... its a great drug without the effects it can have on you afterwords good or bad, but ive never felt that good from anything for that long. I know i may sound like a broken record at this point in regards to what im saying but tbh im just scared i will completely lose touch with reality for months again if i do lsd but for whatever reason im one of the people lsd makes manic so i think as long as i trip responsibly ill be good and just wanted to get opinions although i have mentioned this a few times before and only gotten negative feedback on the situation saying its a very bad idea. Ive done coke a bunch of times since becoming psychotic and although i was on meds i see that as further proof id be able to handle psychs. I also am desperate to feel anytjing at this point including psychotic depression because i am very apathetic right now.",5.3406285714285735,6.283701043809527,5.993333333333332,78.81000000000003,68.08571428571429,8.895238095238096,29.47619047619048,9.081645337920577,2.4321619047619047,2148,76,398,38,35,700,246,525,0.149,0.7859999999999999,0.065,-0.9936,2,0,2,0,0,0,42.0,1,2,0,7,24,26,0,3,27,0,44,8,0,8,8,88,77,46,0,8,22,0,4,3,0,4,6,3,0,1,32,20,1,1,19,0,4,3,8,12,0,7,24,10,47,14,55,46,17,75,0,3,1,1,10,22,0,13,51,287,79,11,0.06204464155124765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05499883117572617,0.0,0.06212874618367109,0.0,0.0,0.14885123229726352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0421924838562643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08676611196480663,0.0,0.051057453450605146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25902342044441423,0.07564367522419613,0.27409372797373444,0.05279542015633221,0.0,0.06511202345784325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06505262621777913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10687791770637148,0.06297400514507187,0.0,0.06482344489225544,0.07110853451338836,0.0,0.0,0.0634932097463663,0.0,0.0,0.14390417265887653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10990627317825856,0.0,0.0,0.08195980117529662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06274327000240112,0.0,0.05957258578828915,0.0,0.0,0.15832542122391427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032415764412383634,0.059518873744953085,0.0,0.15612030493531925,0.049622767734404376,0.06840443634707677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06555357028609386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400816964232658,0.3350942989464626,0.0,0.06156973309436785,0.0,0.0,0.06460994648894644,0.0681962247780216,0.05057466385226296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043823965205686884,0.09093563359812323,0.062185030546530365,0.0,0.1098151106836932,0.0,0.06941208349117392,0.0,0.0,0.055997711384538185,0.0,0.12424584005998562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06891760980022657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14857032283739266,0.0,0.09121990097624268,0.0,0.04785265249514644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840861096861392,0.18875098295339834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043013942302709586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17595672259911424,0.0,0.0,0.06312170590889264,0.0,0.05936834265267388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06379222503514075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05298578487860358,0.0,0.0986807785022345,0.062117509968030324,0.1255849793103731,0.049441546369523116,0.0,0.06472609257147811,0.0,0.0,0.15397190592848053,0.0697407766721787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21957758315995302,0.0661313325913896,0.04954893088915716,0.0,0.14214385453998446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11695268078775793,0.0,0.046649848895625415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0412197029225722,0.039755701053216665,0.0,0.04925651493797675,0.1808936471916143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12637271668818684,0.0,0.060608599356546576,0.06459065997665532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10238665424059464,0.10978661132447418,0.049248148523032366,0.09953693795464984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06927062655007983,0.0,0.05980882038720577,0.0672847671151159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08814946642055001,0.0,0.0,0.2397282896731493 schizophrenia,_Dague_,2019/07/10,"Family member suffering from schizophrenia So my cousin in his 30's will occasionally go through these episodes where he is sure the local police are monitoring him and the house is bugged. This usually results in him becoming violent and breaking dishes and punching holes in the walls. When his medications are fixed (or he actually takes them) he will immediately calm down. This happens every few years. During this last outbreak he has become very violent, has attempted suicide (we assume) by driving his car into another car, and has mentioned that he has voices telling him to hurt people. Within a few hours he snapped back to reality and realized that he probably isn't actually hearing voices, but this has been ongoing for several days. He will become anxious and mix alcohol and sometimes hallucinogens which causes him to lose even more grip with reality. When he is checked into a mental health hospital he will lie until he is given a clean bill of health and check himself out after a day or two. My aunt has had to temporarily move in with my parents for the time because she isn't sure what he will do. They aren't sure what to do and as of now they are just waiting it out for his meds to kick in. My family is scared that he will harm himself or others and that if police are involved there will be legal problems if he assaults a cop that isn't trained to handle a situation like this. Are there any resources available or means to get him involuntarily away from people until he can get medications corrected?",9.301960486322187,8.522436308510642,9.212522796352584,64.89000000000001,60.02836879432624,12.170618034447825,39.64640324214793,11.35114627814755,4.635261600810537,1237,55,205,29,14,405,163,282,0.114,0.828,0.057999999999999996,-0.9590000000000001,1,0,1,0,0,1,19.0,1,0,3,2,10,14,3,1,10,0,33,6,0,2,4,36,42,23,1,3,8,3,1,1,0,7,5,3,1,0,16,17,2,1,3,0,3,5,4,9,0,1,3,4,20,5,35,31,3,35,0,3,0,0,38,15,0,7,15,145,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.2266934035336887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12413018365763767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07898671925892295,0.12179453766065455,0.0,0.1312176624138715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091277657015002,0.08931301305468223,0.0,0.07080462196775414,0.3848392361038724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11931915727037122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14981567886614736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07671669470804507,0.0,0.09786229677023743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21899380726617898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12136829355326932,0.0,0.06601133702839082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271201887913724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24692633898307084,0.13091071186046227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438541965279372,0.13402275474820627,0.12434213637547292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094678634918053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0567455520128208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12994335129858134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12652257996918126,0.12901766854568078,0.2340199923097218,0.11705297238367787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12345021919336098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12897203183764752,0.0,0.0,0.16104907198437918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12523051234319174,0.11114089964338693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11628749655087445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312176624138715,0.0,0.0,0.13055868354824918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487639081318073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270504324426369,0.0,0.3284130626949171,0.0,0.08733115904582785,0.0,0.10152116588788193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06772863041257209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11346273043229045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12792400794545672,0.0958368075924684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07479748912682024 schizophrenia,uniqueenoughnow,2019/07/10,"Dating someone with schizophrenia? Basically the title. I don’t know much about schizophrenia and this guy I really like told me he is which is fine and he answered a lot of questions I had about it which is cool. It’s just what he said. Not wanting to hurt me. I should leave if I get scared of him. The voices don’t like me. Etc. The voices don’t have that much control do they? To actually hurt me if they wanted? Can I get them to like me? Should I leave if I get scared of him? How do I help if/when he has episodes or whatever they’re called? He is so super sweet and I never for a second thought he would ever hurt me until he said he said that, which I feel kind of fucked up for being worried about it now, but also that it’s justifiable? He is a great guy. I really like him. This is just new territory for me. If I ever knew someone with schizophrenia, I didn’t know. I’d love some perspective or something. Thank you.",0.5761563824776275,2.8226792227979303,2.321519076778145,94.04363518605749,85.78756476683937,5.167121997173812,18.6172868582195,6.574015621080383,-0.0571119170984451,722,19,161,8,22,237,97,193,0.053,0.74,0.20600000000000002,0.9837,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,3,2,11,18,1,2,6,1,20,2,0,2,3,34,37,14,0,9,10,0,1,4,0,3,0,5,0,2,13,5,0,1,7,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,8,8,28,12,17,25,5,8,0,3,0,2,26,1,1,9,11,110,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.11874955107008088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731353558809863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242566525368033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364829988869428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13571384879854365,0.0,0.22014681508795025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0615289105510945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249823209486992,0.19073025702025825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341610166360872,0.0,0.2409797258378806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08156463810416659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3908073012319801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12671891720266584,0.13375265312530402,0.0,0.0,0.25769921164080056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378016729805723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345445213092554,0.10982781658378343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17890878583255676,0.0,0.0938529845477865,0.11752664940754895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363179696859554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15591239444298044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34725834215341905,0.0,0.2436610469510686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20621102953715986,0.09368106521314036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120335995502148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09660636755341058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627772357679525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14354900719780445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12357967206358395,0.0,0.08644338483329236,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,babismols,2019/07/10,"i wanna tear my skin open i’m so scared that there’s bugs in there i’m scared one day they’re gonna come out of me i’m scared if i cut myself again beetles will fly out of my wrists and eat me alive i’m scared i’m really fucking scared i don’t want to be infested oh god oh fuck i can feel bugs on me ,, i want this pain to end i can’t do this annymore",-2.9225339366515826,-1.3028700588235296,0.14823529411764724,105.64552036199095,102.52941176470587,4.027149321266968,11.244343891402712,5.8734145424116955,-1.4891809954751132,275,4,78,3,13,95,54,85,0.3,0.617,0.083,-0.9731,0,0,0,0,0,1,2.0,0,0,0,0,4,9,3,5,0,0,6,6,2,0,0,10,18,3,0,4,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,9,0,1,0,2,12,0,9,15,0,9,0,0,0,2,0,5,2,1,3,37,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14536450138055151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088307768088776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17267494472939315,0.0,0.0,0.14946376805542474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532584431707288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120161417355716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11435040449809612,0.0,0.17956352648813398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10810655166969443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8447486056581917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990680499674857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sigh-WhatIsMyLife,2019/07/10,"How to be a helpful friend and how to be be a helpful mentor? So I have this friend and I don't know if they have schizophrenia but it kind off seems like they kind of share similar difficulties. If this is the wrong space I'm very sorry. Please tell me. One of the first things is that they are extremely reclusive. The spend most of their time in their room in the basement often watching YouTube until they fall asleep which sounds like normal teenage behavior but they never leave, they don't go to school (they started online school but it takes a lot of encouragement for them to engage with it), I'm one of the two people outside their family they talk to, and sleeping isn't something they can get consistently. These are things that I've found only need some patients but my friend is also entangled in conspiracy and supernatural to a degree that makes most subjects feel very unimportant or just untrue. The are extremely attached to loads of different conspiracy theories that often clash with the things they are expected to know for their school work. This is where my questions begin. How do you decide when to discount their understanding in favor of more evidence backed understandings? I'm not a stranger to kooky ideas and one of the aspects I appreciated the most from my teachers is their ability to engage with my understanding of things and encourage the extrapolation of my own logic until it I was able to find it untruthful or at least an ineffective way of understanding things. I try to implement this in how I teach them but it involves some drive to engage with rather nebulous ideas and I'm not a good enough teacher for that. For me the foundation of how I determine what is true is the idea of functionality through consistency and with this you get to validating the scientific method and then you can look through all the different numbers that justify different ideas. This is all not a very big deal I just don't know how to be helpful. I've only had like three friends in my life; I'm eighteen. I want to enrich their life socially and my social life begins and ends at school and I want to make that a more familiar space for them. How can I be helpful in general? How do friends work?",5.360085431654678,7.238859273381298,5.565089178657075,78.3737488758993,68.97601918465227,9.14535371702638,29.817820743405274,9.595489714322824,2.8114748800959224,1795,70,328,41,32,568,190,417,0.055999999999999994,0.743,0.201,0.9965,3,0,2,0,0,0,24.0,0,3,20,4,18,21,0,0,23,0,30,5,2,10,4,78,58,35,0,8,15,0,1,3,5,0,3,1,1,0,27,17,0,0,18,0,2,3,8,2,0,6,3,4,43,19,56,50,13,31,0,0,2,0,42,15,0,14,15,242,70,8,0.07873719533851974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06296610666524907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060544043058304436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811745910553685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24679083231296306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06973778463219471,0.08135657056371097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07422642033422293,0.0,0.03981189175116767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07196437009484255,0.06697381813202999,0.0,0.08633127064526039,0.3041608090124123,0.0,0.08227386961296616,0.0,0.044748162610259386,0.06604102378902002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111035293062561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3555388384513313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16398534507801293,0.12981571020750082,0.0,0.0,0.08337132110997779,0.0,0.0,0.16684322880930266,0.115401049419126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06611941361498179,0.0,0.0,0.06693954780805883,0.0,0.0,0.10511537858560754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05838263266813287,0.060726979039189624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07714573394226228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600630838880381,0.11976637017770378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05458645731027127,0.0,0.0,0.08642979614569515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08820367863281911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187449810432812,0.0,0.07167938547394309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0787940583993419,0.16052531007760373,0.0,0.060615739722914376,0.0,0.08813984387234501,0.055730592118724616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059200571929703176,0.06328597510115172,0.06881977920823218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615474696658197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04591229178964285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05345738718961189,0.0,0.07691479888378089,0.32787278865493263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19489929654135624,0.0928824756420934,0.06249792074494556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146432319238258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608676273067277,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lolpop14125,2019/07/10,Am I ok? This is a stupid question but I looked at my thumb and saw a black freckle on it for literally a split second. I’ve been seeing small things and it feels like it’s not big enough to where I’m full on seeing shit but like my mom was schizophrenic and so I’m really paranoid :(. Is it possible I just have an active imagination?,0.6411428571428566,2.90923275714286,2.825357142857144,90.39089285714287,85.71428571428572,6.357142857142858,18.75,7.645422480735847,0.5577142857142863,263,7,58,5,8,89,51,70,0.13699999999999998,0.706,0.157,0.1468,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,4,1,6,2,1,0,0,10,13,6,0,0,4,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,6,5,3,5,10,2,7,0,0,5,0,2,7,1,1,2,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003311744374987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696725935421925,0.20764873477396914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840051923134637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440825738660589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3404194015920402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276773280919781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3256075595364174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18620529037005054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4632393923928598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983599980932716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19310267920985646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Polywhiz7,2019/07/10,"Antipsychotics causing psychosis Hi everyone. I am a woman in my early 60s. I was diagnosed when I was hospitalized early this year as Bipolar 1 mixed features. The doctor put me on Abilify which gave me severe delusions and hallucinations. Switched to zyprexa which made the delusion and hallucinations much worse. I also stuttered and had very disorganized thinking and talking. I'm giving geodon a whirl but I'm only on the 2nd day so too early to see if it's the same story. Once I stopped the drugs each time I had no symptoms. They changed my dx to schizoaffective. My question is has anybody else experienced antipsychotics causing psychosis? If so, are there resources like books and websites? Thanks!",4.877281105990782,8.171552903225809,4.8981566820276505,75.7208064516129,76.41935483870967,7.091244239631338,33.85714285714286,8.192908349453996,3.270672350230416,576,31,87,11,14,179,90,124,0.142,0.79,0.068,-0.82,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,0,7,0,8,6,0,3,0,16,16,13,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,1,4,6,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,2,12,2,7,10,3,12,0,0,1,0,7,3,0,3,9,56,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15662076488446058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023827470302676,0.20718278970679893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263067176081498,0.0,0.0,0.19878310783404454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20046024993571726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22712322811229835,0.0,0.16360711645991596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18714257883616348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18787667499547267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956821671516182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18531752109381072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439719084930263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20857331300314147,0.0,0.14895236102488674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19688282954385491,0.2193962489460938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15606668530632506,0.0,0.0,0.22125417522578694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16373894162094887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035626075777308,0.0,0.15741639989743367,0.0,0.18031189544468634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12549244392625467,0.0,0.0,0.11420141149779885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16159633870982945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19958736027569526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612064916624288 schizophrenia,BlueViper20,2019/02/27,"Zyprexa( Olanzapine) What was your experience like on Zyprexa? Any Gynecomastia? Sedation? Sexual dysfunction? ED? EJ? Desire? 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I don’t want to say what my account was but I posted about it earlier So hi (again) :-)",-1.7553846153846169,0.15140256410256825,0.8629487179487221,100.45288461538463,100.28205128205127,3.6256410256410256,19.320512820512818,5.46131890053228,-0.3961487179487175,136,5,33,1,6,46,30,39,0.039,0.8420000000000001,0.11800000000000001,0.45799999999999996,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,3,7,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,7,0,2,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,23,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26806945956726724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31118070129567865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6352411343416215,0.0,0.3086182055919928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22284792684458649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3149624583352849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615272247784555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786468621739783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19397352563360346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sarahjade21,2019/02/27,"Need an advice with my boyfriend? My boyfriend is the most amazing guy I've known, he's always been faithful and has not given me a reason not to trust him, I've done a bunch of research on his medical condition but there are times where he will act so distant as if he doesn't love me anymore, also when we have a fight, he'll act as if he doesn't care anymore and will call me names and he'll stay distant for a whole day and then will come home and basically regret what he's done and just cuddle me in bed. it's quite confusing sometimes, like does he care about me, does he still have feelings for me or what? like I just need reassurance that he still cares about me, for anyone who suffers from the same condition or going through something similar? I love him so much, I don't wanna leave him, I just need to understand this",8.998739495798318,5.808553058823531,8.388487394957988,78.17676470588236,62.529411764705884,11.596638655462186,37.22689075630253,9.23628265651192,3.062453781512605,660,22,141,8,7,209,102,170,0.172,0.721,0.107,-0.9344,0,0,1,0,1,0,13.0,1,0,0,1,13,15,1,1,7,0,14,4,0,1,0,32,29,18,0,7,10,0,1,2,0,5,1,0,2,1,6,9,0,0,4,0,0,4,5,4,0,0,4,1,18,11,16,20,5,14,1,2,0,3,23,3,0,6,8,91,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13744388970652907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11247966714280452,0.11703405765202128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789787570679396,0.09834742288448133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14362181821012832,0.0,0.430213463197021,0.0,0.0,0.1211595815767164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907091570197948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461717123257825,0.2878724611632596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711180755752225,0.10048209701700823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993599576376408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13926798151255365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14108581736728892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14893057462740744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13743130830264513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538885506051998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416924876545107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10339569186216263,0.3128758996174264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496011322391787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461408469743836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10828108308959733,0.1391088122552268,0.0,0.0,0.14991673557800342,0.2246503640318206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08201554092771089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14642410054488653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15703337278860546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jaminjamo,2019/02/27,"Am I losing it? So I’m not a heavy pot user but I have used it multiple times and for the most part they never gave me any bad vibes and I loved it, this one time though back in September I got too stoned and it got me had me hungover and feeling real tired for a good 3 days but it was no big deal. About a month after that horrible weed experience that had me tired for days and unable to focus, it came back hard and had me feeling detached from reality and I was very aware of it. I didn’t know what was going on but it definitely had me scared. Long story short ever since then I’ve felt that feeling and I soon enough started googling about this and seen schizophrenia popped up which scares me even more and now I believe im developing schizophrenia, I don’t necessarily hear voices with my ears but I must say from all the stress and googling for months I feel like it adds more symptoms to my problems and fears. For example my inner voice (thoughts) doesn’t feel like mines anymore. When I’m trying to sleep I hear lots of chatter in my mind that keeps me up worried that this is the start for schizophrenia. The chatter is like voices that I know of like my friends and family and it’s not like it’s talking to me but it feels weird and hard to sleep because it’s so loud in my head. I also ask my friends if they hear the same sounds I do to ensure that I’m not hallucinating.[r/schizophrenia ](www.schizophrenia.com)I talked to physiatrists about this and they seem to say it’s just anxiety but I don’t know what to do. Am I really going crazy?",3.1536923076923067,4.884485234920637,3.7445238095238085,89.79502747252748,74.42857142857143,6.750915750915753,23.86141636141636,7.468242284971852,0.8550097680097681,1239,37,264,15,26,390,160,315,0.159,0.71,0.132,-0.8165,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,3,1,16,17,0,4,8,0,19,8,4,1,4,54,50,29,0,3,11,0,9,5,2,1,3,11,0,0,28,19,0,1,12,0,0,3,9,8,0,1,15,21,37,9,31,34,8,30,0,1,1,1,16,9,0,4,23,174,65,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07791342553185909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06625462681506435,0.0,0.07453242991280949,0.0,0.09662275487616437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910823661874582,0.0,0.0,0.14983279227661975,0.08134861230910073,0.05939142490369115,0.0,0.0,0.10976839999916152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114320904018475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12566646630535674,0.10044436269333616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006695417241272,0.0,0.06435051393519617,0.08812953090119098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09530363263300748,0.09184678836747437,0.10963399344091053,0.2955762419672324,0.1392056819172502,0.0935465058956348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15054582090448745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110741566212991,0.08171828721106766,0.15584472196393098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17455335013714027,0.0,0.09998960703357207,0.0,0.3294265330343946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052393492650812,0.0,0.0,0.08659880430869306,0.0,0.0,0.16063223860876946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379928807841671,0.0,0.0,0.08622103408025421,0.0,0.10899741536503604,0.0,0.08283010891886597,0.08793290015632535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837487146192264,0.0,0.15553277733728596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07514275869554356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06601997925228315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550542123442667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322578401597896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11089480522705462,0.06241510320488576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15495788718574974,0.19508557285384145,0.0,0.0,0.08869512120201845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0805937474712974,0.0,0.19499744629560375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13792059153262204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116038589797697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10126537230410493,0.0,0.15661845298673968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572287055233676,0.07734723621732846,0.11362252223619118,0.22395913862214795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661474621270219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08414682276507601,0.0,0.08038860180243296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989432304395194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TAABWK,2019/02/27,"How do you guys deal with it. Im feeling pretty upset. I havent seen a doctor yet but im 100% that I developed schizophrenia over time. I wont go into the details but there are a lot of nught where im scared all alone thinking that things are coming to get me and that they talk to me in my head. Im aware that its all in my head but at the same time it feels so real. I just felt an overwhelming sense of dread. Like i was going to die very soon and there was nothing i could do about it. I know its not true but again. It feels terrible. How did/you guys handle it? ",-0.11846769230769286,1.7251167840000008,1.7536000000000025,99.61618461538464,85.16,4.806153846153847,16.015384615384615,5.8734145424116955,-0.8242676923076924,438,8,109,3,13,144,80,125,0.18899999999999997,0.76,0.051,-0.9640000000000001,0,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,0,11,7,0,4,5,0,9,3,2,2,3,26,20,9,1,1,6,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,12,5,0,0,6,0,0,3,3,5,0,0,4,5,13,2,12,14,4,14,0,1,1,0,6,6,0,1,6,72,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15223196616120113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12661442492377978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11735543465171352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15153491618588247,0.0,0.0,0.15254705823660328,0.0,0.0,0.15044521224786112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22295985484914727,0.0,0.14112849691382068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07679351244027313,0.0,0.1670697439299126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910762014862591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016977023897609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6350754006585538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08077902420018189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07180936844125771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249612549288502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14103591839577034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14953642450936638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16730092724901474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14715746677460376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11814084688339965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976501966419662,0.0941819506263335,0.0,0.0,0.17141608470807776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12127788668064428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hahwvd,2019/02/27,Help? Any insight?? Im worried im developing schizophrenia. I smoked weed for a few months in 2016. Then i had a panic attack while high off weed in 2017. The whole time during the attack i was thinking to myself that i was hallucinating everything and that i had lost my mind. But it was really happening. But I thought it wasnt real. After that i felt hazy for a few weeks. After that i had panic attacks. But i started doing more and getting out more and i didnt have one for about 11 months ! i still had anxiety alot tho but it seemed like it got better. Then i got arrested and took a huge loss. After the arrest i had 3 panic attacks. The first one i had sent me into feeling detached which i still have. I sit at home alot because ive lost my car so i have to rely on other people. I still hang out with friends. I still hang with my girlfriend and we still have sex. I still cook for her and play with my nieces. I still shower and eat. But i keep having intrusive thoughts and stuff. I also have a ringing in my ear and i am having cluster headaches. I also sometimes feel like a tiny crawling on my legs or neck sometimes. Ive been feeling really detached. I have intrusive thoughts that what i may be hearing is a hallucination and that i might be losing it. For example ill hear an airplane outside and think what if im hallucinating or i might hear birds chirping and think it’s hallucination. Then i ask my parents and they tell me they hear it too. Imagine feeling like that almost all day. I read that it starts with cluster headaches and panic attacks and skin crawling hallucinations and feelings if detachment. I started trying 5htp. Idk if it works or not. The other night i had a horrible realistic nightmare that i had lost my mind and nobody would help me. I know i should talk to a doctor but i just wanted to know if anybody could provide insight. Im 19 and I turn 20 in a couple months. I know it shows up in your 20s. I suffered childhood trauma as well. I have smoked a couple times since that traumatizing smoking event but i figured its not for me. Its been about a year since i smoked weed. And also i think my great grand mother or great great grandmother had SZ. Please provide insight. Anything helps,1.7986394557823149,4.337367115646264,3.1550154195011366,88.15208775510204,83.05895691609977,5.3420589569161,23.785986394557824,6.742157984588678,0.8750101224489804,1762,66,343,20,50,572,207,441,0.165,0.6990000000000001,0.136,-0.8584,2,0,3,0,0,0,41.0,1,1,2,8,17,27,5,4,20,0,38,9,4,0,1,82,75,44,0,8,18,2,7,3,2,5,2,6,2,0,28,27,2,1,22,4,0,5,4,16,1,3,27,13,65,11,33,40,8,50,0,6,0,1,20,15,0,15,32,246,93,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06287791927972146,0.0,0.0,0.15064613957289694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04270125758344054,0.0,0.04803632049592906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051673124501892036,0.0,0.05870279204403561,0.35717937804638017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03827790835105042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05553512922196497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05013494168679185,0.13895807878646024,0.0,0.04049616159097959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06427109205030251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06425271113110867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05643412016848956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15874963317679305,0.08971837841935353,0.0602909356871073,0.0,0.0,0.05341152401077338,0.0,0.0,0.04851356188675547,0.0,0.03280664657366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044227755107347,0.20768785262256476,0.0,0.0,0.055527466088266204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28308819913183914,0.0,0.12626607163943027,0.06634404127134765,0.06298629869368498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27130799926927524,0.0,0.0,0.05581312622173994,0.0,0.0,0.1035278429110126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203217158333553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07024908196107152,0.205637278030274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13322647649111066,0.1268056565395457,0.0,0.15036184279519513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058926789549742224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08510005339171735,0.0,0.0,0.2946952875955634,0.06972397390637207,0.0,0.0,0.04353262150207709,0.0,0.0,0.0689276386032155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06280979310382641,0.07147195404003466,0.08045335177838064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05716420722455455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10388570688029727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242073705654122,0.0,0.13333520211804836,0.0,0.35102488103399554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07188273350398038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050470474477007636,0.05488367532444282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16094036434232048,0.0,0.1495514086722951,0.07322997385270362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976511178030824,0.042632189698404765,0.06830053551592873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03703682062860597,0.0,0.05036859694191,0.0,0.05645826874391052,0.0,0.0,0.07010591927600178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045713906608257485,0.06376913692275138,0.0,0.04460620384770135,0.0,0.0,0.040436504766440604 schizophrenia,pondd,2018/12/19,"My experience overall with department of labor and where I am now For the past couple years on and off I’ve received assistance from the department of labor, which I’m very thankful for. They set me up with a job training program that trained me in office and computer work. I liked my experience there and learned a lot, but it was after that where things got weird for me. I went back to dept of labor and they set me up with a counselor who would help me get a job, I ended up getting a short contract job doing admin assistance with a warehouse and it didn’t last very long sadly. It was too much and the conditions were bad. After that I was discouraged and the agency I was set up with kinda ghosted me after a few failed interviews. I began to really distrust the people at voc rehab and my counselor, and neglected contact with them. They’d reach out to me more and more and eventually I went back cause they said they’d give up my case if I didn’t meet with them after a period of time. I was set up with a new counselor because I stated my wariness of the first, and had one meeting where I was told I needed to be more stable before we begin the job search again. That was my last meeting I believe, and a little more than half a year ago. I’ve been in contact since with my counselor, and he seems like a good guy, but I’m frightened to see him and find myself ignoring his messages. Right now I work a retail job thats okay but doesn’t pay well at all. I’m looking for something better but couldn’t bring myself to message him again. Plus I received a letter in the mail from my counselor which I believe is a termination of my case, due to the length of time its been. I didn’t open it though and I believe I lost it at this point cause I was afraid to read it. I hate that I’m like this and don’t understand why I feel the way I do about their help. Things just aren’t really going well with my cognition. I know they didn’t do anything wrong, but I feel like they really hate me now and I’m embarrassed of how childish I am to them. Sorry for the long post, and if its confusing to read. I can’t seem to wrap my head around this one, and would appreciate any advice or thoughts on the matter. Love you all",4.78743201000313,4.92798180306346,5.570543138480778,84.19478938730856,69.0437636761488,8.541700531416067,28.137621131603627,8.306716005460428,1.7200260081275405,1752,54,369,23,28,573,209,457,0.134,0.758,0.10800000000000001,-0.9453,6,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,1,1,11,6,19,26,3,3,27,1,32,3,1,3,2,70,64,32,1,6,9,0,2,4,0,2,1,1,0,1,22,36,0,3,9,2,2,8,9,15,2,4,24,5,65,11,60,34,9,68,0,5,2,1,37,25,0,8,32,263,87,20,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08510737601555332,0.07720369143932561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05922699510267815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07167104823162099,0.07753224088191901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339400202065621,0.07271996077027623,0.0530917733750211,0.0,0.07411068999149882,0.29437578030554823,0.0,0.07702768050867556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789393257401212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963679984796847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07713954842594406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703895427251631,0.0,0.0,0.08807481820263817,0.062220063997880215,0.0,0.0,0.0796024571349932,0.07408222263316698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09100617667555347,0.08354862576515229,0.049497601262380266,0.07305042423616359,0.06965713209962039,0.0,0.0,0.08623688179099158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17197484478491235,0.08938370421474592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11675471917909097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4321374267601832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04786465623484912,0.1419866807795364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701991708325035,0.08729119888239115,0.0,0.15415112902146688,0.07313713412819374,0.0,0.09507353138275564,0.07404431495758636,0.07860585286307614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06402420685627136,0.06457919395762438,0.0,0.0841160536390396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180344732381718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08314120215645222,0.060380103688330786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08233210432426166,0.0,0.0834121016645843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174235398163223,0.0,0.16738418988461085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07437791129357005,0.08284646214972911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06940274563290069,0.15857445016561408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07204516448508162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06704931644145662,0.0,0.09749474822730593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08018457359795403,0.0,0.0,0.11572294020166204,0.0,0.08556954069400166,0.06914301084868246,0.10157057539273223,0.0,0.0,0.08322217371733298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09066806104964928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437235572559678,0.0,0.06913126663332349,0.0,0.0,0.15661616522029626,0.16147426245839888,0.07858890585583761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12681112810417622,0.0,0.0,0.12373834244457435,0.09522375907865857,0.0,0.11217152867648324 schizophrenia,dustypython,2018/12/19,"Family member in psychosis trying to leave the country My family member is a diagnosed schizophrenic and his symptoms have gotten quite bad recently. He thinks people are following him and plotting something against him (police, family, doctors, strangers). He also thinks the house is bugged with cameras and speakers and the speakers intentionally make noise to piss him off so he will do something violent and the police will take him away. He doesn't trust anyone. Not even his family. He is on medication but he also smokes weed, and used to be addicted to coke, he says he doesn't do it anymore but I am not sure about it. Now he is trying to leave the country to get away from ""these people"" after him. I am lost as to what to do, should I call the police and get him forced into a mental hospital? I have tried convincing him that it's just delusions he's having but he's 100% determined he's right and that someone is threatening me to tell him to go to the hospital. If anyone has any experience with this please do write anything that could be helpful. Doctors give him medicine and tell him to stop smoking weed, he either takes too little or sometimes abuses the medicine and still smokes although he's tried to reduce it. 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I was just wondering whether or not anyone here may have some advice. At around 13 I begun to notice some obsessive qualities. My thoughts would often repeat themselves for no other purpose then to satisfy some strange urge. This was mild and never really caused me too much stress. I then noticed that these obsessive thoughts started translating into physical symptoms. For instance I would have to continuously and repeatedly push my stomach out to the point of pain. This went on for a few months and it was completely agonizing. I managed to somehow master my thoughts and put an end to that behaviour. The same compulsions then manifested into twitching my eye until the point of pain. I eventually got over that as well. I often feel these strange urges simmering beneath the surface and have to be very conscious not to go down that line of behaviour. Does this resonate with anyone here? 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I'm struggling at the moment. I'm in college, living with my uncle because I can't afford to live anywhere else in the city and I feel totally disconnected. I see my family on the weekends and I kind of just pretend everything is fine. They basically think I'm healed. I know its not a good idea to hide it, but I really don't want them to worry and up until now its been just lurking in the background. Manageable but always there to remind me. It's starting to come back in force now, within the past few days I've really noticed it. I'm going to a support group thing tomorrow so I'm hoping talking it out might help it. I would go to a psychiatrist but the ones that used to be at home are gone now and there's none there. I can't focus. I don't know what to do really. I'm hoping I'll figure out a plan soon. I've put an emergency note in my phone case in case I have a Blip and I do something like before or whatever. I'm still trying to get used to it. To everything, really. 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Or stable? I’m on my meds, functional, can work but there is no way I’m the same person I was before my second episode. I find myself asking how do we know what is real? We really don’t. The only people I talk to about my illness are people that appear to have their lives together that have never had a breakdown. I can’t shake the feeling that I’m in an aquarium and so go through extremes of happiness and pure hell. Sometimes I think I should have died during my psychosis. I would like to hear from people that consider themselves recovered, how do you cope without the comfort of sanity, the comfort of knowing and being certain of your reality?",3.1648776223776203,5.651043401515152,4.6396969696969705,79.88339160839163,77.10606060606061,7.394871794871796,27.57808857808858,8.384062270229773,2.366510955710956,547,23,94,11,13,182,88,132,0.177,0.727,0.096,-0.9305,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,2,3,1,1,5,7,1,1,7,0,17,1,0,2,3,24,28,8,1,3,3,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,0,1,6,5,0,0,5,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,2,2,18,5,13,22,1,7,1,0,0,0,10,2,1,2,2,74,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905790667944399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17346755660899038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21157170359249114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10307638151894964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863218887971913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11585680756684495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217009897956059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22976200506184455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240692932677048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995943847796357,0.0,0.18000974019099936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264395158515137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15722732541975165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550426709528902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4239869736395799,0.1780003405639994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320342496266129,0.13059621330197388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20162009290452929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16385278436646347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13062353330190946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16181244446034496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965111728538864,0.0,0.14841055012161164,0.0,0.0,0.289628769144762,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wowok2019,2019/09/16,"wtf do I do if the new roommate has a major mental illness and knowingly refuses to take their medication and her family is little to no help. Ok so I got this new roommate been like a week and about 3 days in she started to talk to herself and a day later she showed me her arm and asked if I had ever woken up with mystery bruises or marks. So naturally, I sent a text to her sister (only contact I have of hers because the girl cut off the rest of her family because they wanted her to get help) and told her about it (btw I had no idea at the time she was a paranoid schizophrenic not on medication and in denial). And her sister and family knowingly let her move on her own without giving any heads up to me or other roommates about it and we were completely blindsided by it. Her sister originally was very helpful and was like I'll call her doctor and help to get her admitted, now fast forward to 3 days later (roommate is still talking to herself) because the sister was like we need the social worker to come in and see her first, so I waited and took time off from work and class to be here. And later when I questioned the sister on what is happening because I've been here all day she has been giving me the run around all day and finally, I told her I need to know what's going on so I can prepare for it. So she goes and makes it seem like I'm bugging her and making this out to be a bigger deal than it is and tells me, ""I don't have to do this you know"". So makes us feel super shitty about being concerned about our safety and well-being as well as the new roommates about asking her to help with her sister who at night (2-3am) talks to herself about souls, demons and how some people are demons corrupting regular souls. I believe that the new roommate needs urgent care and this is not something I am able to do or know what to do. Now I'm like what do I do next if she's not willing to help out and get her the right care? Am I obligated to look after her because she lives here? Also not sure how relevant this is but the new girl is on a monthly room rental agreement in Ontario.",7.343036951501155,5.238476715935338,7.81470092378753,77.59604676674367,64.75057736720554,10.507575057736721,33.42829099307159,8.841846274778883,2.5835174133949192,1650,51,342,20,20,549,199,433,0.043,0.871,0.086,0.937,2,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,4,1,2,4,26,13,1,0,19,1,38,7,2,6,4,71,78,43,0,7,12,6,1,5,0,1,5,0,1,2,18,32,0,2,10,1,0,7,8,1,1,1,16,3,57,12,58,57,6,59,4,0,2,0,70,23,0,9,36,251,75,4,0.07870551637891303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06294077301269688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053522450064818775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0700645961157055,0.14715806670109716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398907613319681,0.0,0.0,0.08867416496132703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08036713202713971,0.0,0.16049103879199578,0.0,0.0,0.06779783329774261,0.08252123648817766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25379273459741986,0.08114193143903242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08055843105210306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119364554057696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22258966869138272,0.0,0.03979587391734428,0.0,0.0,0.08621804609785164,0.0,0.06694687202517173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12336115157276822,0.1510030060700274,0.044730158727472984,0.0,0.06294799133396915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695990282049133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0807745663467898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31652789152622063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08884894792341308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21627246737388395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08048172295931938,0.0,0.19225769866772105,0.07888360409271689,0.06949841291448461,0.0,0.06609281126746201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576096300238254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585750550229544,0.07931664877493025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06282199227922237,0.08365150818086646,0.0,0.1750774293629614,0.0,0.3800713908193476,0.08370420956358975,0.07385979546371116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05985909181256239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05456449510843296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08816819094798907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721408094795635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06271810651643676,0.07165054613889564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08023036232890828,0.0,0.06059135171211519,0.0,0.0,0.055708169588064266,0.0,0.06285432704826009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07417901774559907,0.0,0.059176753294574086,0.18978153826019253,0.06879209040122923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09178763906708146,0.0,0.0,0.15041298750171486,0.08744472464848636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09467304544919966,0.0,0.0,0.06494029372108749,0.046422552749897115,0.0,0.06313281779560065,0.0,0.14153142275434588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07586930917637047,0.0,0.057298553302024616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Quelene,2019/09/16,"Is schizophrenia really like this or is he manipulating? He always gets the voices in his head when he overreacts and then i guess he feels sorry that he lashed on me and starts saying “oh the voices are back.” But when we’re all calm and the environment isn’t triggering him also he has no voices at all and is doing fine. Is schizophrenia really like this or is he faking it? In his past he was in a toxic relationship so i thought those two are connected. I’ve been in a bad relationship where my ex had schizophrenia(Maybe) also and he cheated on me so idk if my current bf is manipulating or really has schizo. He doesn’t even go to therapy anymore cuz he said that he missed one session and they cancelled pills.",4.210993506493504,5.939871307142859,5.55649350649351,77.89396103896107,71.64285714285714,8.805194805194805,25.584415584415584,9.339509955726095,2.1714285714285717,573,18,109,13,11,192,87,140,0.18,0.758,0.063,-0.9436,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,9,8,1,0,5,0,16,2,1,4,2,20,24,19,0,1,5,1,1,2,1,0,1,5,0,0,6,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,4,0,2,5,6,10,4,8,19,2,16,0,1,0,0,22,8,0,5,9,72,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083791728144354,0.1604328444714643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912150891862638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14825850688546474,0.16098777330246392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12734877283379845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09749021256525203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007349397921872,0.0,0.10957801031021593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21240126254056726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19787804281846766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883938415259016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19370293112167036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13065262149666562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18405836393586397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705558656815808,0.0,0.0,0.4140102207037142,0.0,0.0,0.1834058671951768,0.1533297526877262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21583430820845176,0.1364714670179537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22049432221427928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530691056217853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18834674170873786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AlexDeLarge4848,2019/09/16,"Nature of Reality Trigger warning as this type of thinking or contemplation may not be healthy for everyone. I know it certainly probably isn't for myself and I have no diagnosis of a psychotic disorder of any kind at this juncture. I have dealt with anxiety for going on a decade after dealing with a traumatic LSD trip. I think I experienced psychosis after the trip as I ""Tripped"" for about 24 hours or so before finally getting some sleep. It has shaped my personality, my life's path, everything. And though I have had good times, maybe even years, for the most part there has been an intense anxiety and sense of existential dread that has characterized my life since that point. Self medicating with alcohol and distractions carried me through until recently I dealt with the loss of my mother at a young age and it has all flaired up again. I deal with intrusive suicidal thoughts that I believe may be characteristic of OCD, though I have only been diagnosed with GAD officially. However every day is a new challenge. Some days it's depression. Other days it's general anxiety about things. And then others I have what I believe may be delusional thoughts. Feelings, more so than beliefs. And often times worse at night or when I am in a ruminating cycle, spending a lot of time reading up on esoteric things, eastern philosophy, spirituality, nature of reality, other people's ocd or psychotic symptoms, etc. The central fear that runs through this all though is a fear that I will become psychotic, or lose touch with reality. Sometimes there is less anxiety than others and I almost just accept it. Not necessarily the thoughts, but the state of being and I am somewhat calm. This also disturbs me because I have sort of accepted that I may be dealing with a type of OCD rather than the onset of something like Schizophrenia or BiPolar. The thoughts go like this; When I tripped on LSD, everything seemed unreal. That cause and effect did not operate like they do in 'normal every day reality' we have come to believe in in western society. Synchronicities happened even on my trip and for a long time thereafter. I saw numbers frequently, or people did weird things and it tripped me out and gave me a profound sense of depersonalization/derealization. Now I am experiencing similar thoughts and situations again during this 'flair up' and am questioning the very nature of reality. A lot of times it's a sort of solipsistic belief that everyone is an 'actor' in my movie. I don't necessarily believe that to be the case, it just feels that way. Especially with people I grow close to. Such as my significant other. That somehow we are destined to be together. These are the type of thoughts I have. Or that my therapist is merely telling me what I want to hear. I still find grounding in reality based on novelty, learning new things, etc. But there is still this nagging doubt that reality is merely an extension of my own consciousness. And what makes that even more complicated is that eastern ideals of spirituality affirm this to be true! So while dealing with these things form the perspective of having a mental disorder, I also am grappling with philosophical and spiritual ideals that go hand and hand with these very thoughts. Like, is everything someone is experiencing in terms of psychosis a glimpse into an alternate or just as real 'reality'? I'm really not smart enough to talk about all of this eloquently, but I am a seeker and feel like I can't just ignore it all and go back to normal living. I know if I stop ruminating and thinking about all this and checking by reading stuff online constantly it is a thought that will not continue to grow and flourish. But I seek certainty that I know I cannot have. And I think that is what fuels all of our OCD. It's hard when the very nature of it all is based on huge existential/basis of reality questions that even the greatest minds in history have grappled with. The last thing I want is to go into a full blown episode where I am out of touch with reality. How do you come to terms with this stuff? Do you just listen to western medicine practitioners and the laws of cause and effect and accept that people who experience psychosis are purely delusional? Some other 'thoughts', symptoms, whatever you want to call them; \-Faces looking weird or foreign, may be a form of DP/DR \-Fearing the pursuit of eastern spirituality as in my western protestant upbringing would make me believe that it is satanic and it's a path that will lead me to death/insanity/hell/etc. \-Feeling like people like my therapists are playing a 'role' telling me what I want to hear or something \-Feeling like my GF is just another player and I'm destined to be with her and if I leave her I'll be embarking on another path to doom \-When I get to vulnerable with people like therapists I disassociate and everything seems unreal \-Just feeling a general disconnect from those and everything around me. Even my memories sometimes seem almost unreal, foggy, or just colored by something mildly sinister \-Fear that reality is just my own consciousness, solipsistic ideas like this terrify me \-Seems like I'm on high alert always looking for little 'glitches' in my reality, still see synchronicities like numbers or coincidences which are like reality 'hiccups'. These aren't hallucinations, perhaps only confirmation bias is at work here but what if it's not? This is what other people who experience psychosis experience too. They're not hallucinating. What if it isn't just seeing patterns and they are in fact in tune with something else? \-Anxiety can often be a trigger for my suicidal intrusive thoughts, making the connection that somehow my body is telling me something subconsciously or something. Often times it's fueled by a profound urge to want to escape. \-Can I 'think' may way into something like Schizophrenia? If I continue down this path will it develop? I know that might be offensive at first glance to someone who is struggling with Schizophrenia, but isn't that the very nature of the brain, we create our reality with our thoughts? \-Feel out of touch with myself, I look weird in the mirror or in photos. Generally don't feel very embodied, like I'm always overthinking or looking at a screen \-Thoughts go every which way, as creative as if I kill myself I'll be enlightened or stupid shit like that which I know is proposterous so usually don't even entertain them. But they do enter my brain and I feel like I'm always battling my thoughts just to stay sane. Any thoughts or ideas would be appreciated. I read and listen to a lot of work by great thinkers like Alan Watts, Jordan Peterson, Eckhart Tolle, Terrence Mckenna, Joseph Campbell and find comfort knowing I am not alone on this quest.",7.698660051768769,8.699714267213114,7.7901984469370165,67.80223468507336,62.885245901639344,11.076790336496982,37.85591026747196,10.9378642563037,4.500926229508196,5466,266,891,142,76,1770,454,1220,0.092,0.79,0.11900000000000001,0.9883,1,1,8,0,0,1,134.0,6,3,5,11,56,58,7,9,51,0,99,17,8,11,11,241,173,91,3,18,51,1,15,18,1,13,9,4,0,2,96,70,1,2,56,6,2,19,18,24,0,1,21,32,100,34,149,124,30,119,4,4,10,0,40,49,1,55,64,653,196,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03885956313714917,0.0728219130188086,0.037659720328643564,0.0,0.05815682303244199,0.09076745805527517,0.0,0.0,0.04945436014988985,0.07625675539219079,0.13908287650774404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03236959225396407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027959877021852,0.0,0.02216573436599944,0.04015860379367805,0.030941099978501963,0.20483573176663852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04038961426566924,0.0,0.08118329054779486,0.03712932691487927,0.0,0.0,0.07470689543500289,0.0,0.06264471191487317,0.0,0.03929404370468394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380106691682487,0.14994912586340198,0.03131825002485862,0.03690632603113525,0.0,0.0,0.08334723993818319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030375506484809325,0.0,0.0,0.03757132152027589,0.12165860956438874,0.14409922649770826,0.0,0.09190881672852856,0.06949026105981826,0.16339760591951255,0.10670606110984636,0.0,0.16366793556717082,0.16546995988823798,0.10390712708506884,0.0,0.039832428242533566,0.06646780876094308,0.030929214899839613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03799493988657392,0.0,0.12399103796208162,0.03049844064361555,0.0,0.04008886561979798,0.0,0.0,0.032154501548039116,0.0,0.03257291097249529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819644815301579,0.0,0.0,0.038418096989545666,0.0,0.0,0.03580891694502495,0.0,0.0,0.08209579091057917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0402287964885184,0.037865080114915683,0.11990052561936552,0.029639611276856426,0.0,0.03850175455146742,0.0,0.0,0.05136664069983413,0.319760523443489,0.03644394232698655,0.03210801764452368,0.03217893056588245,0.1221385675648752,0.040679403794060855,0.0,0.0927401655093955,0.0,0.0,0.07281508410816008,0.0,0.036530181280715064,0.0,0.0,0.0366305534985618,0.03664400741788989,0.038573981908013394,0.03671491756007349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702366480663209,0.0,0.03412296074858265,0.0712534255999049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055309371696525424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03937614133770068,0.0,0.1764602080486745,0.03174960460192856,0.0,0.0,0.03437352791654818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039204026431796636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08146677634573032,0.0,0.10911451927476548,0.04138753699238778,0.02329421461615674,0.0,0.035902758906932376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05795108078622521,0.13240918191891232,0.03793314828334928,0.0,0.03732472807109157,0.030078746231565687,0.040872036574434716,0.03638792640221676,0.0,0.06161824395576146,0.19595091107913154,0.07192523575224644,0.0,0.0,0.03875669835305469,0.08711542137156861,0.030399981312802506,0.0,0.03801310872894332,0.08325081724625806,0.07954752269961655,0.0,0.0,0.07558738813243471,0.0,0.029226130130295014,0.09534509752578788,0.0,0.0,0.12665609194160166,0.1449424528227934,0.11649543818011245,0.1071754579817555,0.4041394212387966,0.12721668068915548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040047238447856584,0.15001091458037152,0.10723526482767176,0.08658659497519862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052943452469650695,0.0,0.037055644568038684,0.051660569145839316,0.0,0.0,0.023415721024312348 schizophrenia,mental_help_please,2019/09/16,"A journal entry that I made the other day makes me seem like a madman. The other day I wrote down how I was feeling and going back to read it I realize that it sounds like the ramblings of a madman. I don’t think I’m schizophrenic but I honestly have no idea. This is what I wrote. “ I legitimately don’t know if it’s just me being tired or the derealisation but I’m feeling really nervous, stressed, and scared. It’s weird because I don’t know why I am, even though I have a gut feeling that I do. The thought of knowing what’s going on will flash in my head like an old memory but then just vanish before I can recognize it. To add on to that, the thought of being scared of laughter and how that will effect me throughout my life has been eating away at me for what feels like weeks. I’m scared of telling people because I feel like it will discourage them from laughing around me. I want them to be able to feel comfortable around me. I question that I’ve been having is if the fear of laughter stems from paranoia. I think the reason I think this is because I have started having very concerning paranoid thoughts such as: (does my mother want to kill me?, can I trust my friends?, are they lying to me make me think everyone is ok?). I feel like I’m going crazy. Why am I like this? I can’t trust these thoughts even though I feel like my thoughts are the only thing I can trust.” I need help knowing what’s going on. If you need help understanding something in the journal please let me know and I will try to explain.",2.77308439133682,4.505966932038838,3.7472653721682825,89.36434839432415,75.47249190938511,6.436694050286285,25.15322379885487,7.1686216300943375,0.9803277570326115,1198,41,252,13,26,385,142,309,0.153,0.633,0.214,0.9574,0,0,1,0,0,1,29.0,0,1,3,1,12,25,1,6,15,1,33,6,2,7,0,58,76,17,1,7,9,1,8,8,1,4,3,1,0,0,23,7,1,1,30,1,0,4,5,9,0,0,11,9,46,16,28,57,0,21,0,1,0,0,13,10,0,6,15,168,69,1,0.08525640649654248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517925543795068,0.0,0.0,0.08010120037278587,0.06555691403193452,0.0,0.15591454223681028,0.0,0.07254692249750773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10996665820747432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07460845585790911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08723858813117814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262210483729315,0.0,0.0,0.08146614999048095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09593716000052094,0.3448656063443378,0.24362877534466185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06586888817156834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938127221865752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749766953932232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142911442934265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624410548913108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09432358200090904,0.0,0.23427345681424425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08718045194098009,0.06021912123999114,0.33321578997421475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08067167324069775,0.11381862672657644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264330902743642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08946225694687708,0.0,0.0,0.0648413389414339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059106057482008124,0.0,0.0,0.09358593231483547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955066871213678,0.0,0.08527947809094537,0.0,0.05461743711674125,0.08765778531289632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560696080102148,0.0,0.0,0.07761423046775931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06563454697220057,0.0,0.0,0.0603449233305688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09766092559046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745178571062073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05664056814851352,0.21851545112068774,0.1675279730248676,0.3384203176261816,0.0,0.09798969754372844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05788350363364996,0.0,0.0,0.08875492589156472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07034546413284537,0.1005728749379708,0.0,0.06838754670436248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386129215478586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,theflyhiguy,2019/09/16,"Open to ideas No one is real. Everyone is acting or being controlled by something including my vessel. How do you people cope nothing that everything is fake, time is blurred and not real. Emotions are but a memory forgotten. The whispers are becoming irresistible. I feel as if the mask that I hold so dear to myself is about slip. How do you cope I say again",3.2368487394957985,5.883408147058827,4.510336134453784,80.02794117647062,77.82352941176471,8.003361344537815,27.36134453781513,8.841846274778883,2.6736403361344534,286,12,49,7,7,94,53,68,0.083,0.812,0.105,0.5646,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,0,10,0,0,3,0,15,11,8,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,3,7,1,5,10,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,2,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796084839872509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839538248100264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28478432284337496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24191660953452826,0.22753458816958905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280113247060894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858002703004207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429252758152062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17155583841728822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17551752513984156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.576330120133787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013324644797092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949041052474531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14762657672785204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PentagrammatonJesu,2019/09/16,"Tapering off of antipsychotic drugs. So from about May to now, I have been tapering off antipsychotic drugs. My doctor was on board with it before, but because of being in college I don't have a doctor to support me now although I have a therapist and will try to find a doc. Basically I was on 234 mg/3 weeks of Invega Sustenna (equivelant to 4 mg risperidone) in May. I did a quick drop of 25% and that was pretty much fine, but once I went down to 156 mg, equivelant to 3 mg of risperidone, it was kind of rough and I was having returning symptoms. But after about one or months, once August came, my body totally adjusted and now the 3 mg dose of risperidone, which I switched to because it is easier to access than the injection and easier to taper, works fine, better than the 4 mg dose in fact. A couple weeks back I attempted to go down straight to 2 mg, and it wasn't completely unmanageable, but it was just a little bit too rough considering my high demands on me as a student. So in the past 24 hours I have gone down 0.5 to 2.5. The peer-written guides I've seen to taper down all recommend something like 10-25% drop from the original dose every 2-4 weeks, with once reaching the half point, a 10-25% drop of the PREVIOUS month's dose because of the fact that your body has adjusted to the previous dose and it is actually an incredibly drastic drop to continue doing it from the original dose, and because of the difficulty with getting past the very reduced stages of dosing, with high withdrawals. So basically, no I don't have a doctor, I might try to get one, but no I absolutely don't need one because the majority of doctors are not even trained to take patients OFF meds, and all the information I need has been compiled by peers in withdrawal.theinnercompass.org. If it is too rough, I will slow down. I'm being careful about it. But can I hear from you guys your experience of slowly tapering off meds, if you have had such an experience, or any recommendations for how to deal with any withdrawal symptoms that may come up while being in school. And please do not tell me by doing this I will be DoOmEd for the rest of my life and I should just take meds forever and ever until the metabolic symptoms or dementia from it kill me and that I should just listen to a psychiatrist and take whatever pills they want me to. Basically I'm asking you to respect my personal agency to have the freedom of choice as to what drugs I consume and are chemically dependent on. Thanks",10.592571522166413,7.174438342323652,10.412397903472376,65.59476632452503,59.767634854771785,14.130770910679187,41.75846254640752,12.209160746376906,4.868487966804978,1979,79,376,48,19,658,218,482,0.065,0.812,0.12300000000000001,0.9781,0,0,4,0,0,1,52.0,0,5,1,3,20,11,1,0,30,0,46,21,2,4,6,61,68,35,1,7,16,0,3,1,0,9,19,2,0,2,17,22,0,0,4,0,0,5,8,2,0,4,15,6,36,9,81,40,7,58,1,1,1,0,14,25,0,10,24,268,53,8,0.0,0.0,0.0806415433239777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123916416419363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07725420210285487,0.0,0.0,0.06354255659295184,0.0,0.2518729659066582,0.0,0.07031778411956383,0.0,0.0,0.0730854861810232,0.09021792359130436,0.18358159073718175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945144224177314,0.08425366970685763,0.0,0.0,0.07118423927596244,0.08664305565231549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09143598735764352,0.0,0.0,0.08519485626485562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33832884343222586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874971687970645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05458079117905881,0.07474966754221077,0.06962502235852024,0.0,0.0,0.16166918811515035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07552848849265019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634857786039392,0.0,0.046964366954396965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08182337038852135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313761827656697,0.0,0.0,0.17462051784017615,0.0,0.0,0.08138054862448904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09142531548118746,0.08605345417714984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05836877735742696,0.040372139813101136,0.08282372865849705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753723861057727,0.0,0.0,0.08766452822699458,0.0,0.0,0.1319197240583713,0.0,0.06074751640636475,0.1225481997225656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26401631164461314,0.1679903926568544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15777224865533018,0.0,0.07215521891048211,0.0,0.09071033144608978,0.07811843525740939,0.0,0.0,0.0840712788385254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363279842889501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06361780411753681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09377519974766048,0.0,0.2576736595281621,0.1863976455233925,0.0,0.07222815811693188,0.07608081285745666,0.0,0.09594763100175524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220985184408933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06818396963501623,0.048741293666971705,0.0,0.1988586385227776,0.0,0.0,0.07660509117994954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06016053507942435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Judge_Dr_Sunshine,2019/09/16,"Anybody else feeling like an insomniac right now? I just joined reddit the other day and I think it's beginning to convert me into an insomniac. I've slept about five hours in the last 48 hours and I don't really feel tired. I don't know why, but it's so addicting... I just keep going back and forth from about two or three different forums clicking on the ""new"" section to see what I can respond to. I just want to be plugged in to see if anything develops. I feel like I'm getting and giving answers on stuff I haven't been able to communicate about in years. I don't know what it is, but it's not anxiety, at least not exactly. It's the suspense of something new in my life, I guess. I have to go to work in about two hours. I've tried going to bed, but I can't sleep. Anybody else feeling like an insomniac right now?",2.3878446115288234,3.886460754385968,4.147840434419384,87.07960526315792,75.95906432748536,7.458813700918964,26.249373433583962,8.192908349453996,1.5551233082706766,643,24,140,11,14,217,94,171,0.0,0.8740000000000001,0.126,0.9407,1,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,11,3,0,0,7,0,10,5,2,0,1,27,30,10,0,2,10,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,9,5,0,1,8,0,0,3,7,0,0,4,2,7,15,3,24,27,2,27,0,0,3,0,2,12,0,3,15,89,24,1,0.1324574975820968,0.0,0.0,0.14439822382545098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132962309818996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900123439983923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018516395272518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08542412800508138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13838989283203373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22130248530997104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26789796271999805,0.2838829882167282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06920357550504345,0.12706530133870544,0.2258359450804057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459168669770002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3913318607619968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177343099053538,0.0,0.0,0.14559035321659106,0.10797053939610952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09355864777581964,0.1941361278959252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558565531193999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08485566471916065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22623595839927946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111029524858152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13255315680273555,0.0,0.0,0.10197225292652752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516321445528545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08487341605127086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15224040818557347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08992994611974894,0.0,0.2587834566210853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07812686392934612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195222891220341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643063580094878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529828565322425 schizophrenia,Calienous,2019/09/16,"I know this is weird but I want to have voices in my head How can I put voices in my head? I wasn’t sure where to ask this but I know that auditory illusions are related to schizophrenia so I thought I’d give it a try. If I’m offending anybody with this post than I am truly sorry. I just want to have voices in my head, I don’t care if they are good or bad, I just need a distraction.",0.2656976744186039,1.8212583023255813,2.872267441860465,93.61677325581397,82.25581395348838,6.625581395348838,20.05232558139535,7.645422480735847,0.44019069767441854,298,8,74,5,8,104,53,86,0.16699999999999998,0.64,0.193,0.3506,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,5,7,1,1,2,0,9,3,3,1,1,16,19,7,0,5,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,2,3,14,3,9,17,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,3,0,49,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19920654799410253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779178223022265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21725527209241813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044114077486613,0.0,0.17872633951783473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.65606281279902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23421287119367884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15800049165689325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20407738569464007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21421017989363988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385322146322747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20083093492534848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691663992569846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14467133585193467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513671642932012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,whytheydothat7,2019/09/16,"I don’t think I have schizophrenia, I’m just very depressed and angry I don’t want to provide labor for this country because I feel like I’m not respected. I want to drain and take advantage of everything. I want to be a huge burden. I don’t care if I end up homeless. This new mentality, sadly, is probably the most assertive I’ve ever been in my life. From now on I am going to lie to the therapist and psychiatrist. I can find peace in other ways. I’m just going to gain and overload the system. Even when I was on track there was always this mental block in my head, this wrong worldview, this wrong perspective on life that I had that prevented me from interacting with people. Now I feel like I’m being guilted for having it yet I see the manifestations of it in other ways all around me. No one will ever give a shit about the collapse of my local reality that day I had my “psychotic break” or internalized anger that almost killed me with a heart attack from a lack of sleep.",4.206627991298042,5.3174810659898535,5.591258158085568,80.03879441624369,70.82741116751271,8.471211022480059,26.761783901377807,8.841846274778883,1.9591641769398107,778,25,153,14,14,262,117,197,0.231,0.657,0.11199999999999999,-0.9834,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,12,15,4,1,9,0,16,6,4,0,3,27,32,7,1,5,5,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,13,7,0,2,4,0,0,2,5,10,0,1,5,3,22,5,27,24,3,26,0,2,1,0,2,11,1,4,11,109,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14510776108478998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205778322463342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12900180356391114,0.0,0.16485755396388685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833659961170261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477467551930426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09345581737292097,0.0,0.1248119131675965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12834842331215418,0.0,0.0,0.09571256445722057,0.2621611822854865,0.0,0.0,0.13023695631545054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465430415458759,0.207049361202208,0.0,0.0,0.13244632712438228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13901214883503232,0.16471289265736844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14872082790031174,0.0,0.0,0.1717206196147944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16032291236504154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20471031087784314,0.14159270874108995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29207306719399506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13995626212637108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09819566516612392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10046326775248814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15623891944606344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547556548206853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14874939421313546,0.0,0.0,0.14501597971973124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895528308548236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16825321909764726,0.0,0.09285332675367414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11956702069838325,0.25641736466536824,0.2300477318058817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168755739174573,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GvYourselfToTheRythm,2019/09/16,"Does anyone else feel this way? The world is a double entendre. Ever since I started having symptoms, I have always heard messages in things that normal people do not hear. However, as I got medicated, this almost completely went away. Until recently. Right now I am doing very well. I am not hallucinating very much, my mood is stable, the negative symptoms are relatively low, and I have no delusions except this one; life itself is a double entendre. I recognize this is highly unlikely. But it just seems to me as though the entire world was created in order to mess with me. Sometimes I can forget about this thought, but it always comes back to haunt me in some way. It's my worst symptom. How can I form a relationship with anybody when I think everything's only purpose is to harm me?",4.816632653061227,6.903271292517007,5.96437074829932,74.1196173469388,70.76870748299321,8.70952380952381,28.5765306122449,9.2995712137729,2.820138775510204,628,24,104,14,12,209,100,147,0.155,0.813,0.032,-0.9596,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,0,6,0,16,5,0,1,1,20,26,9,0,1,6,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,11,4,0,0,4,0,0,2,4,4,1,1,5,3,16,1,15,21,6,21,0,1,0,0,4,9,0,3,7,86,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017587675211325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495784035132565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048643159332861,0.15366463255793988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090417699687746,0.11531965782204562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12918809937428846,0.15724339822344752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312420166082577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12528284767711456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13565878594559974,0.0,0.0,0.13478568585157194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07583064331484625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199467735812646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690299988843281,0.0,0.0,0.15845426628829684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10593006944099337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15108159781907654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11024710337667028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14694128755301206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10162530246030603,0.11406090615868465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10397210461607508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14807983128033794,0.16101442672448318,0.0,0.12807576505760054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13652940550715045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240588690869193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14832671776840348,0.0,0.10615136500154472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4676368065718953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09963511910507312,0.0960963745173868,0.1473472997481066,0.11906147751148992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24748617206664236,0.0,0.2380825088921073,0.0,0.0,0.13484336163867974,0.13902608544520326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CyclonicThunderBall,2019/09/16,"How do you convince a delusional person they are delusional? Is it even possible? &#x200B; Someone I know is fucking gone in her own world and will not tell her doctors the truth. Dxed with schizoaffective but I fear its gone into psychosis since she thinks shes reached a new level of consciousness and thinks shes talking to 4 people when she talks to me but its just me... A single person. Also repeats nonsensical phrases over and over. She's taking a high dose of an SSRI but refuses to go to the doctor and tell them about her new symptoms. She's getting less and less grounded. &#x200B; I do not know her family, I have no way to intervene.",3.957976539589442,6.231957612903226,4.6031378299120265,82.13834310850444,73.6774193548387,7.412316715542523,29.014662756598238,8.296473431620573,2.2892354838709683,520,22,92,9,11,166,81,124,0.063,0.897,0.04,-0.6917,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,2,0,6,4,1,1,7,0,9,5,0,1,1,21,19,11,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,3,7,0,1,5,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,2,0,19,2,13,16,4,16,0,0,0,1,20,8,1,0,4,69,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164050107096286,0.0,0.3154303800207866,0.35374488702712936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979755278022802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961416111878386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13722187556994372,0.16379649711858876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13456871988750524,0.07604957000386922,0.0,0.08272562214424221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15379309798325594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15999294368867212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811672764795865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091361026311718,0.25419635193293194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16409806013236294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12040949263216953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12333329046495099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15129352441003616,0.10944369239993848,0.2339926985984219,0.25445331020251205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18653911299679127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155394786011124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35374488702712936,0.0 schizophrenia,mval96,2019/09/16,"Starting a conversation I'm an aspie and landed a job as a peer support worker for schitzophrenic patients (typically schitzoaffective/psychosis). Any primary things to avoid saying/doing? I mean, I don't plan to walk on egg shells, or do anything differently, really. I guess, just any general things that you wish other people knew about you. Just a note: all patients are on the worse end of the spectrum. They're not very functional - rather we're trying to help them be functional again. Any advice would be helpful! Thanks in advance",5.975184210526315,8.507377505263161,5.933881578947371,73.67029605263161,68.68421052631578,8.539473684210527,30.822368421052627,9.188382445141503,3.094921052631578,433,18,67,9,8,136,75,95,0.055999999999999994,0.795,0.149,0.8313,2,1,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,1,3,5,3,0,1,7,0,6,1,0,0,1,14,14,3,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,1,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,6,2,10,10,1,9,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,2,3,41,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20761999922815144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4334539232624167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17484198990943606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2219824791832088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881824318226847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340560226136927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28482389941637903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21084041456996214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314385219163669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14729765700773073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136111607875588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15038502308514892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411046921373773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19561079060262027,0.0,0.0,0.2823068678672184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442509419145483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753072779561315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24432621825455936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21652171777981985,0.15093024697495272,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sayhowhigh,2019/09/16,"“Characters” Does anyone else have “characters?” I used to have The Man in the Pig Mask, then Headless Chopper, then Hamburger Lady, and so on. Most recently I had Centipede who lived in my left hand and talked to me. Others call these hallucinations or delusions, but to me they are very real. Can any of you relate?",4.428103448275864,6.688623534482763,5.0064137931034525,79.82996551724139,72.27586206896551,8.088275862068969,27.11724137931035,8.841846274778883,2.2645200000000005,247,9,44,5,5,79,48,58,0.0,0.9570000000000001,0.043,0.3527,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,1,1,0,7,6,7,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,7,0,7,5,1,7,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,2,3,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068228124708013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126588631858116,0.3116231272840853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31055671509684896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26615133857242235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540664832128991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3304444992355835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268557534339762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34617318982840123,0.0,0.0,0.3002974682146163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444528819244547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626757312109413,0.0,0.2509439342520635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ssschizo,2019/09/16,"Anyone else have problems with medication not working? ive been on so many medications and i feel like im resistant to all of them. recently all my symptoms came back,and i had to start geodon and taper off zyprexa. i won't go into details cause im afraid my doctors watching what im posting somehow. but does anyone else have problems with most meds not working? i feel like an animal shot with tranquilizer darts running through the forest going crazy but not even noticing the darts or stopping. we might try me on clozapine but im still on a baby dose of geodon right now so we'll see. How are you all?",2.6454999999999984,5.05386455,3.748333333333335,86.00000000000001,78.5,6.333333333333332,27.5,7.492282038375204,1.66125,486,21,93,7,12,157,82,120,0.10300000000000001,0.8540000000000001,0.043,-0.7261,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,2,1,1,2,7,6,0,1,4,0,9,5,0,2,3,28,16,9,0,2,7,0,2,2,0,3,5,0,0,0,1,8,0,1,2,0,0,4,4,3,0,0,3,4,12,3,13,10,4,16,0,0,2,0,4,6,0,4,7,57,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18161580723843895,0.266133679866497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09986177165898699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14853632236458428,0.0,0.13341194110852928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13292712600827927,0.11364983682854228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21697891519632914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857777023453066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13133203012355135,0.18555785833036512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14761587006806312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5611261837233921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12689553658430525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13166747709453785,0.0,0.0,0.14425594340205952,0.26166009001804896,0.0,0.13777121302305276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785749754456534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12437925927111118,0.0,0.0,0.2485354991968988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12823064669024287,0.0,0.0,0.11090800169532884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10348932494128343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09192243172826653,0.0,0.1037140984822041,0.10857687213444946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13498432929588827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08817299148446699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18909335535455404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,UmbriKasumi,2019/05/24,"In Honor of Schizo/SchizoAffe Awareness Day/Week *Hi everyone* I decided to do a quick piece in honor of Schizophrenic Awareness Day today before work. Hope you are all having a good day that only gets better. &#x200B; EDIT: Wanted to link my IMGUR album too in case anyone was interested in more of my current work [https://imgur.com/user/UmbriKasu](https://imgur.com/user/UmbriKasu) &#x200B; [Umi wants you to be aware of others](https://i.redd.it/r1gpnhezv8031.png)",10.461614906832304,14.857604478260873,6.894865424430642,63.186521739130455,62.18840579710145,8.000828157349899,28.697722567287784,8.841846274778883,2.9997809523809527,395,13,46,7,7,109,52,69,0.0,0.762,0.23800000000000002,0.9501,1,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,2,0,5,2,6,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,1,6,9,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,6,11,7,3,9,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,5,29,6,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3907566924714991,0.4382208905315844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12608503473800456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534403751344473,0.0,0.0,0.1594797753784683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3488774859102274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172304988067936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942105780572986,0.0,0.0,0.1512451779873217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17910000655672995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371426799218845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17092376433067913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127166684343121,0.0,0.14464308697867098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26255250180182177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4382208905315844,0.0 schizophrenia,drive42,2019/05/24,"A serious question Just started hallucinating (I'm 16) and I'm kinda scared to get a diagnosis. My question is will a diagnosis ruin my life?",2.782222222222224,5.519985740740744,7.149629629629632,59.83333333333337,80.48148148148148,9.525925925925927,34.925925925925924,9.725611199111238,4.67905925925926,113,7,18,4,3,44,20,27,0.289,0.711,0.0,-0.7722,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,5,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934388454379216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26151649931973203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8295230472748334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3706819699462026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620628261617306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DiscoverUranus,2019/05/24,"500 miligrams of risperidone didnt do anything to me and the ssris dont do shit. my life is falling apart again, this time with no salvageable parts and I barely care im so tired of this, i feel like letting go and just ending it to plunge into the other side ive always been aware of my delusions since I was younger but theyve intensified in the past few years. Actually feel like I'm hanging on by a god damn thread from being thrown into another level of oblivion. I can't tell if I'm losing it and i feel nothing. I've let my relationships crumble again and ive pissed off the wrong people, dont have tok many strings to pull anymore and im slowly reaching the edge of the path. I've fucked up so many times and done so many horrible things to the very few people ever close to me. I'm never coming out of this hell and there's not a trail i havent crossed without spelling disaster and regret. The self harm has been increasing and I don't know if my cognition is going to stay intact long enough for me to tell when my symptoms are worsening anymore",3.6607568807339455,4.845789880733946,4.609071100917434,86.28544151376148,72.21100917431194,7.2848623853211025,26.92775229357798,7.645422480735847,1.4060816513761467,846,29,174,10,16,275,135,218,0.218,0.6990000000000001,0.083,-0.9905,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,9,12,5,0,10,0,22,6,2,0,2,29,34,17,0,3,6,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,7,16,0,0,4,0,0,8,10,9,0,0,5,3,17,3,25,26,5,31,1,2,0,1,4,11,5,2,13,108,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.11847532401723855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10102001306838553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12730540093312806,0.0,0.0,0.2408054394610531,0.0,0.0,0.0999072835176917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237821153553412,0.0,0.0,0.10458103187904487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124241098583488,0.2845752512844042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10753020815478027,0.1254454670967026,0.0,0.0,0.10981921621545987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18416046751199672,0.17346579205137286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11223844114526757,0.0,0.0,0.13799633198568148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26227991305829285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0667218897856458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248292938729335,0.08575306876418691,0.1186262600756606,0.0,0.0,0.10744101650326623,0.0,0.13582292566971352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692616967093834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093636250866513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11649290265874165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314715118526757,0.11589633277027525,0.16833609349545442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13034524833028616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12665355681687213,0.0,0.12462212553818915,0.10042879031193136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12940327705537807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12618793839572398,0.0,0.0,0.212229431217432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065714735233505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14158632422986778,0.13953902180274422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001731559481226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11703162557968205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327390533642924,0.0,0.07818186697840092 schizophrenia,iiike___,2019/05/24,Looking at my old posts is so embarrassing It hurts when you rediscover posts you made while psychotic and have to delete them one by one,11.859230769230768,8.389812615384617,10.434615384615388,66.56038461538463,57.46153846153846,15.015384615384615,41.384615384615394,13.023866798666859,4.933353846153846,112,4,22,3,1,35,23,26,0.21899999999999997,0.7809999999999999,0.0,-0.7737,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,4,0,3,3,0,6,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,3,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3500364207324402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745789402272221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093942323959794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34310812215219033,0.0,0.4431371417316983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6263085572109633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Schiz0idberg,2019/05/24,"Boyfriend is probably using me It’s wonderful being unable to trust my inner “instinct”, since my senses have been heightened and perverted by this disease. Can I trust my own judgement on this? He is often distant, and has called me “the most negative person [he’s] ever met”, “difficult”, “volatile”, “a burden”, “stressful”, amongst other things. He has admitted to not being as attracted to me, as I’ve gained weight. He told me this the night I got back after being in my home state to be with my family after witnessing my grandmother die in hospital. Since then, he has pendulum swung between being supportive and loving, to informing me of all the ways I make his life so much harder. I pay half the rent, but the majority of the groceries, pay the water bill, half the energy bill, and though he does pay the internet, I also am the only one with a car and license, so I’m the only one driving around for everything. He has said nobody has ever helped him in life, so I looked at him hurt as I do a lot to help hI’m, so he reluctantly admitted I had “helped him a bit”, so I offered “I guess I’m more of a burden then a help.” “Hm.” Was my only reply. He wouldn’t look at me. I have pieced together the circumstantial evidence and have come to the conclusion he stays with me out of necessity and convenience, not love. Anyway thanks for listening to my TED Talk, I’ve got a date with some lovely thick twine.",4.714979757085019,5.810177424908428,6.0063582032003096,77.59171197223829,69.62271062271063,9.703412377096587,28.65413533834587,9.93914555978268,2.8145428571428566,1099,39,207,27,19,370,154,273,0.132,0.764,0.105,-0.7854,1,0,1,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,0,2,13,13,0,1,20,1,22,7,0,2,3,33,44,20,1,1,3,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,2,1,6,14,2,0,5,0,6,3,4,5,1,4,8,6,30,8,33,30,10,25,0,1,2,3,32,10,0,6,9,148,36,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10007554723880656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11140239407181617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09622602638148543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13662201776348776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277833800358152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077982513419127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12987703522057625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095120987264263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22639515520286366,0.0,0.0,0.11246903786875896,0.0,0.1179721921511892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001740486746111,0.0,0.13785738115168644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355186200678118,0.0,0.1255270462593024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13396647684331212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17678216965144306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21017454789785125,0.0,0.0,0.10639075899077176,0.33883504839000844,0.0,0.08353286865181624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09199334162417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174367440400857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16959812785192635,0.2855270637914653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10926865978842362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13492361496218908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11903814618122628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20703654927656265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333841016276862,0.0,0.0,0.14334907219290566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14200899882974408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005839319947128,0.0,0.11521340496328918,0.0,0.0,0.08313839791583541,0.0,0.1229508083928031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11957798828607773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10808200613870396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933143322786776,0.0,0.1523885345553724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13571053029175367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,aanaphora,2019/05/24,"“Good” voices? Hey everyone I’ve been dealing with pretty intense “hallucinations” for about 3 years now. I guess when I look back I have always lived with a feeling of slight paranoia or anticipation of something, someone watching me but it’s been tangible for a long time now. Anyway. I manage the hallucinations quite well. But “they” are always there. Sometimes they are overwhelming negative, but other times they are supportive and give me guidance. Sometimes “they” will show me nice visions, and talk to me about things I’m struggling with. Does anyone have any experience with “nice” voices? I can’t really talk to anyone in real life because they all look at me like I am insane, or they don’t believe me. Does anyone ever feel like your voices are being a bully to you so they can make you stronger?",5.329285714285714,7.543255074829933,5.6432823129251695,76.42165816326529,69.68027210884354,7.621088435374148,28.5765306122449,8.344100000000001,2.249118367346939,644,24,106,10,12,205,95,147,0.109,0.687,0.203,0.8917,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,7,1,11,9,0,2,4,0,14,1,0,1,2,18,23,9,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,1,1,3,0,0,3,6,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,8,22,7,15,19,1,11,0,1,3,0,15,2,0,3,11,76,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497024930580339,0.0,0.0,0.10203720545829223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31474936235790146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11537699436896465,0.0,0.09146734826949128,0.0,0.0,0.16905175263919522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546920202550568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26261453939707696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357262350387748,0.0,0.1433764793158856,0.0,0.14677490178972255,0.0,0.0,0.15173669211251192,0.1071937119682223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439388960756397,0.0,0.12585242816520642,0.0,0.0,0.16529384914847406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059827375160757,0.1466109139334155,0.0,0.13249438000301506,0.132787003597958,0.2520036266817706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10015763591707907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15265189166499665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15959361075686998,0.0,0.17078650305879442,0.09612404469795299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271344609340216,0.11551362458477316,0.2968009306295481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15686185702241787,0.0,0.0,0.17027172454742656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24120442653122376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09968465735197084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749873964042545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13491040530562548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966254433328113 schizophrenia,dezzie1234,2019/05/24,"Horrible daughter.. So, I have auditory hallucinations.. horribly. My friends say they see me just randomly shaking my head (I’m just listening to what they’re saying to me and disagreeing..) And the other day my mom slipped in the shower and was screaming my name, but I couldn’t hear her.. well, I did but I thought it was just my head screaming my name again.. I walked into her bathroom and she was livid. “I could’ve died! Why didn’t you come when I called you?! What the fuck is your problem!” She was fine.. but I wasn’t. I feel like now.. if she ever did fall again and I just listened to my schizophrenia.. I’d be the reason she would be dead.. and I can’t get past it.. I don’t know what to feel.. I feel like a horrible person..",0.2562875309078088,2.604014402684566,1.9610385022960093,94.97056517131756,89.53691275167783,5.284493111974569,20.593783115506888,6.8360192770164,0.3637838926174495,562,19,126,8,19,183,83,149,0.21899999999999997,0.71,0.071,-0.976,1,0,0,0,0,1,36.0,0,3,1,0,11,10,1,1,5,0,16,3,2,1,1,29,29,12,2,4,8,2,3,2,1,1,0,7,1,1,6,8,0,0,6,0,0,4,5,5,1,0,9,11,32,5,6,16,0,13,0,0,1,1,22,2,1,2,9,86,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913363298945328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16141161530575404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14960799516678366,0.0,0.0,0.12084485079141323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19447126261430087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16949629165497887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842354679666382,0.2677291779611368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14476962549632946,0.1732301523435963,0.09789852061049796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3846126814229992,0.0,0.21119131937998967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10297936263441597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830891884738566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21945764959624586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17887578602302626,0.0,0.1636133300790091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792977281934324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926582504099901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29802481610985426,0.0,0.0,0.1493179116400091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14875910009435536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16847747525333645,0.0,0.1690816579870876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13310965376895215,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pointlessconquest,2019/05/24,"my therapist thinks everything I'm experiencing is just anxiety [LONG] this is going to mostly just be be venting. I've been seeing a new therapist for a couple months. she has told me several times that she ""doesn't see"" the symptoms of schizophrenia in me. she says that what I experience is just me not having the proper thinking and coping skills to deal with things, so I catastrophise things and make things worse for myself. she says what I call paranoia is just bad anxiety. this is making me incredibly upset. I've been diagnosed schizophrenic/schizoaffective for quite some time now. I'm medicated on several different things so I'm not hallucinating all the time or a complete shell of a human. the reason she ""doesn't see"" those symptoms is because I either do a decent enough job of managing them that they aren't important or THEY ARENT A PROBLEM ANYMORE BECAUSE OF THE MEDS. she also has a problem with me using labels. which sounds fine, labels can be harmful, but she says that words like ""hallucinations"" and ""delusions"" are labels. she wants me to talk about things that I experience, not just by saying ""I was hallucinating on Tuesday."" I tried to explain to her that I say words like hallucination and delusion and paranoia because it's easier and quicker to use a term that encompasses what is going on rather than spend 10 minutes explaining what bizarre shit I saw or how I'm being followed. today we talked about one of my ""delusions"" for a little bit (she talks for most of the fucking session). Im being watched through smoke detectors. see, while I'm on meds and doing alright I know that's not something normal people think. I'm sure that I'm being watched through smoke detectors and whoever is watching is enjoying my suffering. I guess it also means they can hear my thoughts while they watch me. I mentioned that I think this may be the case because smoke detectors blink like some cameras do. she told me that smoke detectors blink to let you know they are working, and if you take the batteries and the wires out they don't blink, so I'm not being watched. does she think I don't know that? even if it's not blinking I know I'm still being watched. I cover the smoke detectors in my home just so I can get some sleep. I understand that when I leave the house I'm being watched by anyone, so im basically consenting to having eyes on me at any given moment, so smoke detectors don't scare me as much outside of my house because EVERYTHING is watching me, not just smoke detectors. she also thought it would be helpful to tell me that, in reality, nobody actually gives a shit about anyone but themselves so why would anyone go through the effort of watching me. I understand she's trying to get me to think logically but isn't that a misstep? shouldn't we just be trying to find ways to help me cope not disprove my illness? I had one doctor explain to me that delusions aren't something that you can just explain away, they are something that you believe and it's fixed even if it's false. sure nobody may want to watch me through smoke detectors but I feel like I'm being watched constantly. I get panic attacks to the point of feeling like I'm dying just from a light blinking on a smoke detector. she had two graduate degrees and has been working as a therapist for a really long time, so maybe she knows what she's talking about but she also seems to be the type of person that thinks they know everything and she is 100% sure that she is helping even though she knows Im in distress. she straight up asked me today at the end of our session if I felt comfortable in that room with her. I told her I'm stressed every time I'm in there (which in general is something that I go through whenever I deal with my mental health). I also told her that the reason she ""doesn't see"" my symptoms is because I'm on meds and I'm doing my best to cope and not look/sound like I'm crazy. I also asked her if she thought I was faking everything, since she seems convinced that the only real symptom I have is anxiety. I wasn't aware that anxiety can cause me to see horrifying shit every so often. I didn't know that anxiety can make me hear screaming and fighting when I'm home alone. I didn't know that nonexistent people whispering in my ear was a symptom of anxiety. I didn't know that feeling like I'm being watched, or that people can read my thoughts, or that if I leave the house I will get stabbed, or any of the other myriad of fucking bullshit that my brain puts me through was just a symptom of anxiety. I'm just being repetitive at this point. I'm just sick of being sick, I'm confused, I'm stressed out, and I over think things. honestly I dislike therapy, most of the therapists I've ever had just sit there and nod and the 2 that haven't have told me I'm to blame for my problems. I had one tell me that the abuse I suffered as a kid was because I was probably being annoying, and this one is telling me that all the ""symptoms"" I'm having are just me not properly managing my anxiety. I've had one therapist that I've truly connected with and felt improvement with, but he retired. this feels good to get out, even if no one replies. I'm still upset but it is what it is",5.831480185936606,6.290305268364349,6.286597640035449,78.85607465447819,66.83545543584721,9.460012748161624,33.248464779316876,9.403633714415225,2.948844584363292,4153,174,792,76,63,1346,339,1021,0.138,0.77,0.092,-0.9931,4,1,13,0,3,0,95.0,3,4,9,6,50,43,8,8,41,1,95,23,7,9,6,157,197,65,1,17,47,0,6,7,0,6,14,11,3,3,65,32,0,0,41,1,1,6,27,25,0,7,31,39,128,18,92,141,14,63,0,2,20,2,83,30,5,26,32,540,193,11,0.0,0.047094324631926726,0.03878785657384354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041166454854012366,0.0,0.19071651692513053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05405936811740093,0.0,0.24325401916986344,0.0,0.03941887023941644,0.08337719348545844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07431715186436119,0.045218554615219404,0.03734411375251821,0.0,0.03318752810224501,0.16960808168109112,0.0,0.0,0.044781856214935065,0.04171258152242906,0.0,0.04339400929606218,0.0,0.0,0.04437138985726957,0.04058667315802389,0.0,0.0,0.04083166326476065,0.0,0.0,0.04167452999082544,0.042952960406616066,0.0,0.0,0.04397988700523184,0.0,0.0,0.08195591823818378,0.0,0.04034290725288862,0.04125166181825249,0.04152771003013853,0.0,0.04068328219216254,0.03478333220339716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035204514744828067,0.04106982467402009,0.0,0.10501147734412243,0.03595391734904541,0.06697801827386267,0.0,0.14289007159138606,0.07776142447853726,0.0,0.0,0.08039018374704418,0.08518693219498373,0.07632772594772068,0.0,0.036328523216904184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07349190379223561,0.10383222205794697,0.03812945353813082,0.09035775132378268,0.0333383431665648,0.0,0.0,0.043786386536781255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04224976673993199,0.08959671232548712,0.0,0.07992579649622703,0.0,0.07974002875163419,0.0,0.0,0.13758994239192215,0.0,0.0,0.12880246246583346,0.0,0.03944329134043605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21844203531909004,0.0,0.0,0.08417379240799781,0.0,0.04064454339171193,0.0,0.13593045133709364,0.039837468080320175,0.0,0.07035062824846593,0.03337791534108212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.079595356695992,0.0,0.03993173728796009,0.04329671361141258,0.1324516393957938,0.04004145579724605,0.040056162496015874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03172610000455984,0.0,0.029219008670518326,0.0,0.0,0.03838841309079232,0.0,0.0,0.03894414114808517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16160373394590735,0.030229788392998582,0.0,0.046635163506197085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826677998756022,0.034706010906935265,0.0,0.0,0.07514852860303663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0428545610566459,0.11409905734328052,0.0,0.0399572469638876,0.0,0.04227639180405298,0.03975828721370368,0.04524139208277722,0.025463286131371842,0.08173416355270456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15804415987149714,0.03979421251114027,0.0,0.1900418163046904,0.07236931875959507,0.0,0.08980679261640534,0.1224008080517965,0.03287956835582913,0.0,0.03977623615883967,0.0,0.0,0.12239836490927787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06348485914898126,0.0,0.0910613248603808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11238473263201132,0.2891903261299475,0.029885196646171418,0.12779023912731385,0.1042232820263784,0.0,0.04545476569281714,0.2307497349687737,0.15843896047260572,0.2037489032712728,0.03905174736616666,0.12622039898307633,0.11588552474114228,0.0,0.07535202360044692,0.18990234591152494,0.0,0.08095789329108698,0.0,0.03882756221294572,0.08275716301792148,0.0,0.06865820979513307,0.0,0.0,0.046888247175099665,0.03154973998658967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03586596436506013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0578733518700543,0.0,0.040506129782282366,0.05647101117363445,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,buttholeskin,2019/01/06,"is there a way to get over a delusion? I'm not diagnosed with anything because I've never seen a professional, but I've been having delusions since i was a kid. I've become aware of when a delusion is a delusion, for the most part, but I can't figure out how to NOT believe in it and forget about it. does anyone have any tips? it would be really appreciated.",3.982567567567572,4.6865126621621656,5.809027027027027,79.77516216216219,71.02702702702703,8.082162162162161,28.313513513513517,8.238735603445708,1.8794248648648642,283,10,57,4,5,98,54,74,0.035,0.8859999999999999,0.079,0.5993,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,7,0,9,1,0,1,1,13,12,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,9,7,2,6,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,2,41,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20931482333337748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21522119270232448,0.0,0.2532934985594325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18763226371998987,0.339941353316955,0.0,0.3467856413642633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124109214911483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693581996477948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16081300224724934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373946396987949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333178325498677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19718481453577105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546156672320707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24431762639790586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21865256918276335,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PotentialSpirit,2019/01/06,"What exactly is ""hearing voices""? I hear voices through media, or if God is speaking to me through music lyrics, and during a certain point in the song, video, whatever, there is a resonance that hits me to my core, and I take it as a divine message. Today, for instance, I've been listening to the song [Like You by Evanescence](https://youtu.be/dQzqSfiPyFA) and at one point in the song, it says, ""You're not alone. No matter what they told you, you're not alone."" and I immediately started crying. I've heard this song dozens of times before over the years but it was today in particular that the lyric struck me and I know it was God communicating with me. Is this what hearing voices is about? 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A nigger runs my prison. In prison, the nigger tries to torment me. We can take away his knives by confessing, every day. In about 2000, I masturbated fantacizing about my niece, Lani. She looks like Star Trek Seven of Nine! In 1985, at my sister's wedding, I stuck my crotch on the hot tub drain because it kinda sucked. In 1985, I tried to get a dog to lick my dick. From 1998-2003, I fantacized about leading a Catholic army like Dune, of Mexicans or Brazilians? That was dumb because they're niggers. In 2003, I played tag with a black girl about 7-years-old. She reached for my crotch. In high school, in the library, Carlos and I said 'juicy' or 'toxic' as a way of evaluating girls. In 1988, I cheated on my SAT by talking in the hall during the break -- two problems. On 9/9/1999, I killed a CIA nigger on purpose with my car. :-) In 1982, when I was 12, I babysat Kevin's kids. I changed a diaper because I thought that was being professional. In 1975, when I was about age five, my brother, Keith, put my penis in a vacuum. In 1977, when I was about age seven, my brother, Danny, got me high on gas fumes and we sucked each other's dicks. Dr. Tsakalis had an oddly round ass. Paul Keck at Xytec had an oddly round ass. Distracting? At about age five, Jay Weinrick and I touched dicks to each other's assholes. 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It is just now dawning on me that I am schizophrenic and probably have been for a long time. Looking back I used to believe that my professors were deliberately putting confusing instructions on tests to hurt me. I kept thinking that co workers had it out for me and even when random people would smile at me that they had ulterior motives. I went through three semesters in college where I failed out and did not know why but understood a lot of it had to do with my mental health. I cut all of my friends and family off from where I was from. It started slow and a lot of it was unearthed from partying too much. It started as anxiety and became depression. I stopped being able to develop feelings. I stopped caring about life for a very long time. I was able to hide it at first because I thought a lot of it was normal. Partying helped a lot with that because it served as a distraction. I had a prescription for adderall that I used extremely loosely. At first it was because I did not want to develop a tolerance but later it was only to distract myself. Eventually it became a tool to self medicate although looking back it helped with my ADHD but did not do me any good in the long run. Adderall would help me function and weed would help me calm down. Alcohol would help me feel anything. I kept the delusions especially to myself because I didn't want to admit something could be wrong. This happening to me has always been my biggest fear. At first it started with feeling as if I was being watched and judged. The most common one was that people were talking about me. I became disassociated with time. I couldn't keep track of the day of the week any longer. I stopped being able to recognize people. Remember names or faces. Register what faces meant what emotions. My sense of smell went away for a while. I did not care what I ate or wore. Everything around me had meaning but nothing meant anything to me. Music was especially interesting to me. It did not matter what kind of music it was it all had some kind of meaning associated with it. There were messages even if they did not have anything to do with me. I was worried people could read the thoughts that were in my head. I stopped trusting everyone and became defensively aggressive. It was like I was scrambling to grab onto some sense of reality and every time someone talked to me they were attacking me and trying to pull me away. I felt like one incident that started the process was my first hallucination. It was during the school year when I was stressed and on the phone. I had recently just stopped being homeless where I had been sleeping in my car and studying in the library. I saw a person across my room that was me. It was all of my negative feelings embodied as a person. It scared me and I tried to put it behind me. I was hoping that it was a one time thing. Looking back I had other hallucinations but I didn't acknowledge them. I lived like that for a very long time, but I didn't want to admit that I could be crazy. It wasn't until the day before Halloween that I completely broke. Before that I just limited my routine and was just extremely defensive. I couldn't venture too far from my apartment without having panic attacks. Slowly my life became smaller. I couldn't hold my job any longer. I trusted the people around me, but looking back they enabled me in a lot of ways. For a lot of that time I feel fog. I can't recall a lot. The reality started settling in I was able to stop drinking. It wasn't even hard. I almost feel as if I am a different person now and I am having a hard time differentiating between what was real and what wasn't. I know I have to talk to someone. I am just slowly coming to terms with the fact that this is my life now. I know it can't do it on my own and my girlfriend can't be the only person I rely on. Are there any resources out there?",3.569137620192308,5.528366524739589,4.597687499999998,83.14394711538462,73.85677083333334,7.382403846153848,28.742467948717948,8.189365985712001,2.047537516025641,3113,130,595,51,65,1014,288,768,0.11599999999999999,0.789,0.095,-0.8555,4,0,3,0,0,0,61.0,0,1,5,9,30,32,6,7,35,0,90,13,4,4,4,134,138,41,0,18,25,0,10,3,2,4,7,0,1,5,56,33,3,13,24,2,0,8,21,18,0,8,65,17,101,14,96,56,16,90,0,4,6,0,26,34,0,19,50,467,157,10,0.20706795489902813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062213860596640136,0.0,0.0,0.05532316760019573,0.051837161481815636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0430742815860017,0.0,0.0,0.14081330999407188,0.0,0.03960160468196007,0.0,0.051338942610137085,0.0,0.0,0.12779946266153264,0.09216719040796856,0.0,0.11778484599910065,0.09727357994394643,0.1592224757752908,0.0,0.12622670337117614,0.0,0.08809978917177581,0.05832366915211716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10555979018766372,0.0,0.0,0.04459267702393887,0.054276702769731566,0.0,0.0,0.12399518453552515,0.0,0.0,0.0667708503026854,0.0,0.04458683153372159,0.0,0.0,0.054085485175469065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05071194105182368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05823089466915731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025748234798108,0.0,0.04361592069252379,0.04946557615207041,0.04652483151110946,0.0,0.048801309825687686,0.058252254394906826,0.15704966953927246,0.0,0.049704427323667436,0.0,0.0,0.17613189665639953,0.0,0.0,0.03999504707517956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04341969407418167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04577737716619696,0.0,0.09274610764910482,0.0,0.05312786520820938,0.055025888280890466,0.0,0.0,0.17349160670457445,0.0,0.0,0.05141630032019282,0.0,0.0,0.05541763210017953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05137074853192294,0.04601287812801983,0.0,0.10781470527596876,0.11379913271765367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969366520409772,0.07587220751794352,0.0,0.04571119945915944,0.18324862403710274,0.17388493071811556,0.0,0.0,0.30807309826127266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277885346806216,0.0,0.05214979497676208,0.05216894890886472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03805469309876003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05072065777784253,0.04967182184481098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10523595390028133,0.07874225527005961,0.0,0.060737407447688824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794435595499818,0.18080375123448172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055813569422641325,0.0,0.0,0.10408024361321563,0.0,0.0,0.05178099760709675,0.11784433280981794,0.0,0.0,0.051113656149644415,0.0,0.05864190685380099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0518277865376812,0.05239095629708088,0.0,0.0,0.05400425920065468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05180437422491082,0.0,0.08772400311251738,0.03985275702656122,0.0,0.0,0.18320470531305874,0.0,0.0,0.25967712327725984,0.05929891068181141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12482503391483518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034391687067256836,0.033170196115433814,0.0,0.08219441323740855,0.2414859793960123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07029277453945022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942011455372624,0.0,0.08542637435112843,0.09160053355887347,0.041090226094725665,0.041524355818375935,0.0,0.0,0.0959770343582334,0.04671165548407414,0.0,0.0,0.04990152982136521,0.0,0.0,0.05257188987942156,0.0,0.14709513409040556,0.05659907565248759,0.0,0.033336243491349116 schizophrenia,akgreenie2,2019/01/06,"Involuntary commitment dilemma If you’ve ever been involuntarily committed, looking back do you think it helped you or further harmed you? Do you hold resentment against those who had you committed? Someone I love was diagnosed with schizophrenia about 4 years ago in his early 20s. He has been hospitalized around a dozen times with one of those being involuntary. He has never followed up with outpatient treatment, meds, etc. Is in extreme denial about his condition. He admitted himself to the hospital a month ago after a suicide attempt, stayed in the psych unit for 9 days - same hospital he has been numerous times before - they are familiar with him and his condition and symptoms. They treated him for depression only, and medicated with Prozac while inpatient and nothing else. Sent home with a Prozac rx which he has not taken since the day he left the hospital. Twice since being released he has took off - jumped in his car on Christmas Eve and drove north until he ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere, in the middle of the night. Scared and in psychosis he left the car and started walking and became disoriented and called a family member for help. Unable to say where he was nor identify any landmarks to help find him, family member had to talk him into trusting the police not to arrest him (has an irrational fear of anything being on his record or show up on background check), and persuaded him to call 911 so local police could find him. They found him and held him in a safe place until someone picked him up a few hours later. His car had to be left on side of the road and retrieved the next day because his symptoms were so severe he was unable to drive. Two days later he took off again, to another state again, and called family and said where he was and that he might come home the next day. At that point family was ready to involuntarily commit but probate court would not begin the process until he returned to state. He came home but family held back on IC.! Since that time he has stayed around home, mostly alone, and extremely disconnected. Stays up all night, sleeps whenever. Has been mostly agreeable when family has stopped in to check on him, has been self medicating with weed but stopped after he ran out because he wants to start looking for another job - he in no way has the ability to focus on even a job interview without treatment, much less actually do a job. Family has been hesitant to go back and finish the process for involuntary commitment, hoping he would eventually go or ask to be taken to the hospital on his own. He is manic, disconnected, not bathing, eating or sleeping much and is alone all the time. Maybe not having extreme symptoms or dangerous voices as he has in the past (that we know of) but not in a good place either. He has an apartment, car, money, but no friends or girlfriend or family member he sees every day. Involuntary commitment is the worst, last thing anyone wants to do but we also want him safe. He is unpredictable and doesn’t have anyone watching out for him daily. I think it is dangerous to wait and see at this point, he is so vulnerable but I hate forced treatment too. 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I'm writing about a character who suffers from paranoia, thinks she is being followed, watched through digital devices, and has isolated herself and set up security cameras. Constantly watching cameras and finding strange patterns in the vehicles that pass by the house. A few suspected neighbors ""are in on it"". Husband has been quiet about the whole thing for years, until she finally opened up about it. Now, the husband wants her on meds and to go see a doctor. Research shows that these meds can cause drowsiness. Is already on anxiety meds. Which meds work best without drowsiness? Are there other meds to take on top of the antipsychotic drug to counter the drowsiness?",6.807603305785122,9.45243790082645,5.609991735537193,76.39316942148761,66.68595041322314,8.145785123966942,41.02561983471074,8.841846274778883,4.201839008264463,570,35,85,10,10,169,83,121,0.11699999999999999,0.818,0.064,-0.6046,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,0,9,0,9,2,0,1,0,12,16,5,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,10,5,0,1,3,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,4,4,2,22,14,3,19,0,1,3,0,9,10,0,0,5,63,14,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393213197758022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658180936151893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324928273851163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296947423375414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136432677171358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292234354291356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14641129007789894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830199976891322,0.11539129394677615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07175145670744408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14567691426992954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8414196175274575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060584698357077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09492517739479547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08387567601430876,0.0808966602094383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446621873571563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14095493702942252,0.0,0.12170163504133802,0.0,0.18382472960572305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08130162248645778 schizophrenia,phonegetshotalldtime,2019/01/06,"Before I sleep every night I get shot in the head I'm 25M. It's been a long time since I first remembered all the things, sleep paralysis auditory hallucinations exploding head syndrome etc. But the worst of them all was the ""get shot in the head"". I will imagine myself pointing the gun at my head and sometimes I'll pull the trigger and I see a flash and a loud bang and I feel like that's the end of my life for the night. The gravity will just pull my body to the bed and crash my head against the pillow and I feel helpless lying there thinking of all the failures I've experienced mostly. I didn't have a proper diagnosis because, insurance, but I knew I was very depressed and something was very wrong from relationships, school, work, life satisfactory etc. From time to time I'll be sitting in a cockpit in a crashing plane telling me to ""pull up"" and I feel my hands on the wheel pulling the plane up. At times during the day I mumble the words ""terrain-terrain, pull up, bank angle bank angle"" I love planes and that's how I know those warning sounds but it still terrifies me because of how I just subconsciously say it out of no where. Sometimes if i didn't ""die"" from the head shot suicide I will see myself doing it again and again, or I'll find something that will just kill myself. I don't know if this was the right sub reddit but I just wanted to share my experience that's all. TLDR: I ""shoot"" myself to sleep almost every night.",3.5998969853052567,5.286032080139371,4.324605362823815,86.28245720345406,73.14634146341464,6.9425238600212085,25.71867898803212,7.586124646067393,1.22920493864566,1145,38,232,14,23,366,142,287,0.156,0.797,0.047,-0.9859,0,0,2,2,0,2,32.0,0,0,1,2,11,8,1,0,25,0,15,14,11,3,4,43,29,19,3,3,11,0,4,1,0,4,2,3,2,0,11,11,0,0,10,0,2,5,4,5,0,1,8,10,33,3,26,16,8,34,0,2,2,1,6,14,0,5,15,148,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09473312473772298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153405172454126,0.0,0.08050178750532745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508469793563133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06101232310711172,0.0,0.08148304715383779,0.0,0.09818493243168287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08379184617434532,0.0,0.21101890456708086,0.0,0.0,0.15941738850669673,0.0,0.0,0.0925417288866452,0.0,0.0,0.14350521430172414,0.06758574736114027,0.0,0.0,0.08646714920503683,0.0804708652020601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09885429345278084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5825514211749947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10466628622653656,0.0,0.10398473919687876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336444534083677,0.04621916718597812,0.0,0.0,0.08372234446620261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08538460058305028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26634082212432314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943219349244272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015702395175048,0.10716889038740787,0.08079205322109262,0.0,0.0752336001714192,0.0,0.0957451923705549,0.15077568652692205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825813688726536,0.0,0.2840196167259117,0.0,0.0,0.14566292191225724,0.18713329677422336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07555158181796715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034823870739741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08268883767360825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06285128058229204,0.06061898908721002,0.0,0.0,0.2206594724188239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15611787269902447,0.05580041115689322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06887348160652842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034355883029559,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ravinglt0,2019/01/06,Internet tests Hey guys delete if not allowed but I am currently making a project on schizophrenia and just wondered if there any pdf or Internet test available for me to download for free since I am not able to find any ,5.643571428571431,7.145183833333338,5.041428571428573,83.85357142857143,67.80952380952381,8.457142857142857,35.42857142857143,8.841846274778883,3.0579428571428564,179,9,33,3,3,54,34,42,0.0,0.895,0.105,0.6652,2,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,12,4,5,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,5,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,1,20,3,3,0.3787375610877468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5151090580080668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461592694247605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3750097305114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528102629714307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31329562429774965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.410724729136961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Decker27,2019/01/06,"Recently Diagnosed and a bit freaked A bit of an introduction rant I guess. I had two positive experiences in a year. Many of my friends and family have bailed and I’m worried I might lose my job. I’m 38. Really hope there are others out there that are successful. Hearing the stats really shook me. They kept me in hospital twice for a fortnight each time. Thankfully my meds seem to be working. I know no one else with schizophrenia. I didn’t even know how to spell it. It’s been just over a month since I left hospital for the second time and work is pushing for me to go back to full time, again. I find myself very restless and lonely since it all began.",2.3046447445684057,4.602920274809161,3.56290076335878,87.46646506165592,79.07633587786259,7.694891368173812,23.817381092190253,8.617729084823388,1.6936019964768052,520,18,107,12,13,169,91,131,0.135,0.7440000000000001,0.12,0.2366,1,2,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,4,8,9,0,2,8,0,9,1,0,1,1,19,21,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,5,8,0,1,4,0,0,3,2,5,0,4,5,1,15,4,14,14,5,18,0,2,0,0,3,6,0,4,9,71,20,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231383708017914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496644996303459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16253951532769356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13377706840038586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057714713293041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15664840620810114,0.15096647017119685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14636576683064093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237243652442401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09101169267626534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17641311770187018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18049029170173067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590559228087748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589150087081154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17601836340348306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739934202172069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17915656440383976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16235761040140198,0.0,0.0,0.17788029947700645,0.0,0.0,0.16988405506140966,0.0,0.0,0.12782283848940662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851553337516992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20518056175275848,0.0,0.1581196954347806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457861467697981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.264940207270639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147436109701358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28013812054021503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15643426746336406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213291038066302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331687824177361,0.16263073007002635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10312540844974323 schizophrenia,Livevine57,2019/01/06,Reclassifying schizophrenia as a neurological condition? I recently read an article about the “pro’s” of reclassifying schizophrenia as a neurological condition vs a mental illness. The article talked about how it could potentially lead to a lot more funding and research and reduce the amount of stigma attached to it. It explored the idea that if we should treat schizophrenia like a neurological condition because it isn’t behavioral and that behavior systems don’t fit the needs of someone living with schizophrenia. I work in mental health and live with bipolar disorder and know many people who live with schizophrenia and I have perceived that it seems very much medical and for many can only really be managed with medication. On the other side of that I have also met and know people who are med resistant and even on medication and still have symptoms but by using coping skills and supports they also live enriching healthy lives which makes me feel like it should remain classified as a mental illness. I have experienced mania and to me that felt like I wasn’t in any control of my behaviors but with coping skills and support I have become much better at living with it more than any medication has. I decided to post on this sub because I don’t have schizophrenia so I don’t have that experience and wanted to hear your thoughts.,11.216459129106193,10.08161437394958,10.300282658517952,59.75140183346068,56.52100840336134,13.192360580595874,43.06493506493506,12.079253325248375,5.422557983193278,1103,51,167,27,11,352,129,238,0.031,0.86,0.11,0.9571,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,1,1,6,8,7,0,0,13,0,19,12,0,5,0,46,33,24,0,6,4,0,2,3,0,2,12,1,0,0,18,21,0,1,10,1,1,2,5,0,0,0,4,4,16,7,30,25,6,14,0,0,0,0,8,8,0,3,5,124,34,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158604932280016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13487162870209224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12090051054181684,0.1095202987894171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08770366204919716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122233235601636,0.07917543443502988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11365204164219556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654977549453439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970027058662492,0.0,0.0,0.05014096257136196,0.07084372045884071,0.09521425307209984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054080920835609,0.11176651650319223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119455695730086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10899732685185552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453414908235446,0.0,0.5253887367246105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08430680416208379,0.0,0.0,0.06619361742815079,0.20107612848600825,0.0,0.0,0.11015030913653837,0.3995944863616768,0.2998059391109137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579583245942046,0.07352982414719253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07541969020113186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374974859272937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497295942047787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991921499946602,0.0,0.06352783971109856,0.0,0.09791378462890303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09027637788856877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840224491317669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07919354821861062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22506324735649813,0.0,0.10307073143662313,0.0,0.07970532344135403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07872618280195813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564699238372031,0.0,0.08182176985496882,0.0584902717486296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07219352997441927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,give-karma-plz,2019/01/06,"Am I gonna be ok I haven’t been to a doctor but I’ve been hallucinating since I was little and there’s one recurring hallucination that’s scaring me so much. He’s called the shadow man and he watches me sleep, when he’s close I can hear heavy breathing and when he’s really close I can hear a heartbeat and he’s like 8 feet tall. He gets mad if you look away from him, and he climbs walls and the ceiling like a spider. Sometimes he has a broken noose around his neck and he attacked me once. After he jumped at me he vanished and I could hear a giant crowd and women screaming. I know this isn’t specificities schizo but I don’t know who else to go to I haven’t slept in days and keep the lights on all night, I understand schizo sometimes comes with hallucinations will I be ok?",1.308350775893178,3.5145561901840523,2.7003320101046557,92.78024178996756,82.19018404907976,5.553085528690004,19.404186214363044,6.794906146795322,0.06379711295561162,621,16,138,7,17,201,100,163,0.127,0.8029999999999999,0.07,-0.8957,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,5,8,2,1,8,2,15,6,5,0,1,24,28,16,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,2,1,4,0,2,3,15,0,1,3,0,0,4,4,4,0,1,4,7,18,4,11,19,2,21,0,0,2,0,22,11,0,1,8,75,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497191193015088,0.0,0.1913331992869834,0.15801409000369646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17173432653519954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448753358276077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13428097167125144,0.0,0.0,0.10846455075912388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17214310818996634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049587166752112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08786902369823607,0.0,0.09558265289697117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5686656427003899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14948936946784006,0.0,0.0,0.18485868835044328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16433208735510724,0.16856421626389828,0.0,0.0,0.14123192088032505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12363434560207585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15782897699652373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17911011483500192,0.11396560436935475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077427627073128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683811890418078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13912326606252193,0.0,0.16830512573048675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33267589124669866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17508512709961718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,brookieb91,2019/01/06,"Wondering If Anyone Feels The Same NOT ASKING FOR MEDICAL OR PSYCHOLOGICAL ADVICE...JUST WONDERING IF ANYONE IN THIS SUBREDDIT HAS FELT THE SAME. For about the past week or so I have been feeling like everyone around me is lying to me, not actually lying but more like everyone is ""in on something"" that I'm not. I have this feeling that things I've been doing are staged almost by the people around me. It is a very paranoid feeling. I have struggled with depression and anxiety quite a bit since high school. When I'm driving in my car, taking a shower, or laying in bed to go to sleep, I will play the same scenario in my head 100 different ways (most of the time it's about things that have never happened). I know that it all comes from anxiety. But what I've been experiencing in the past week or so is different. It's very uncomfortable and I have to work to ground myself when it starts to happen. Anyone else have similar experiences?",5.022090947726305,6.4056808563535945,5.942762430939228,77.25445813854657,69.1657458563536,9.326136846578837,28.287717807054825,9.661875296680813,2.622220229494262,749,26,139,17,13,247,101,181,0.124,0.802,0.073,-0.8923,3,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,8,5,0,1,10,0,17,3,2,0,2,32,34,14,0,2,11,0,5,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,14,6,0,0,8,1,0,4,4,2,0,0,4,6,12,3,23,29,7,26,0,1,0,0,1,11,0,10,11,100,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.12185427812428362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12503841673762495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19104911643121725,0.0,0.0,0.2619342397757172,0.1279432008599432,0.0,0.22232003517033527,0.11673579945625664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363247713269076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075637163335334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075496162011008,0.0,0.0,0.2609233700884374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043121522359083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23863564856802666,0.0,0.12214598952778907,0.0,0.0,0.2525503772069841,0.0892065459411681,0.1198939664082864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07096601573956236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208427544887972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12815177298268554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193111310889585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06862481940741423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12200951892733272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257925320500725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09630678666844647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23840346644536334,0.08656854634204621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328137118166048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263742465731873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10329305150982172,0.0,0.12495932933053408,0.0,0.0,0.09613037247378103,0.0,0.0,0.08838302729698637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13054034791738095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388606088579814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16591502994754742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281220572475898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20606025274450696,0.0,0.09911531934629343,0.2003250007970017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270830533929078,0.09090622861993483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MissSunderstanding,2019/01/06,"*DV Trigger* Not sure what to think. Long story short my dad beat me against the inside of his car during a road trip in October. I was strapped into the drivers side (he took off his seatbelt to hit me) and had been driving for 13 hours with no food, so I was too weak to fight back. I got some weak punches in, but biting his hand when he swung it into my face was what got him to stop. I freaked out and got out screaming “you fucking hit me” over and over. The cops got called. I’m terrified of cops and told them I was having a mental breakdown from lack of sleep. They let us leave and I just flipped my survival switch and pretended to be asleep while he drove the rest of the way, but I listened for every little movement he made during those two hours. Now, I know exactly what happened. I was completely helpless. I did not have a breakdown. My father and I are no longer on speaking terms (good riddance.) But I don’t know what to think. I was upset for a week while my broken nose healed. But I have since recovered mentally and that scares me. I never fully experienced the magnitude of what happened. I already had PTSD, so now it feels like PTSD inception. More compounded into what was already there. I am not a violent person, but I have the tendency to lash out when I’m cornered or threatened. I never hit first, ever, but I’m fearful of being in that situation again and losing control because of what happened with my dad. If I were ever in a DV situation again, or any kind of violent situation, I don’t think I could control myself. If somebody physically comes at me again, I already know I won’t stop until they’re completely disabled. I feel dangerous. Not like a ticking time bomb who will go off randomly, but like the wrong fucking button to push. I am naturally very mild tempered and usually laugh things off. It’s only in those PTSD veiled moments where I have to fight for my life. I have isolated myself since, with few people deemed as “safe.” I just don’t know what to think anymore.",3.254595681310498,5.216503881012663,4.2360722263589,85.38435405807896,74.74683544303798,7.077438570364858,27.31384959046909,7.928766900206844,1.7291921072226355,1583,62,308,24,34,512,207,395,0.191,0.736,0.073,-0.9932,0,1,0,0,4,0,47.0,1,1,2,6,18,26,8,3,15,0,30,12,5,4,6,64,62,29,0,4,17,3,3,3,0,2,4,3,0,1,17,20,1,5,10,1,0,9,12,18,0,2,20,8,51,8,47,33,6,60,1,2,0,2,23,24,2,6,29,215,68,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891697304256953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05939915468400594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662504399736692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06716467689130415,0.0,0.053246099243830544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919135243264696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524195888670959,0.1831639502653734,0.0,0.19593483336732176,0.06973970615521681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15802125496353953,0.07359386183052226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828998891200848,0.0883308319308545,0.062400923758695236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07429756302668597,0.10562069372695154,0.0,0.0,0.16150233024910032,0.0,0.0,0.049641479679566336,0.07326276542332852,0.2794384389926608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317227688863351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17203897818008634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09095876456802822,0.19201515218941173,0.0,0.0,0.09248817161021693,0.0,0.08931852531986867,0.06169597639681521,0.1280204262158188,0.08754493480512605,0.0,0.07729960587723814,0.0,0.09771927858708493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265012085304901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760510546095459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13473523470589302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06643155254500671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060555615097503075,0.07626828733361668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063129346728833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0874498784130838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445091672155593,0.2945460520015164,0.08741037443188154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14605249663868658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08232379018603098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05802966040746906,0.2238744743709143,0.0,0.0,0.05093290912899597,0.0,0.0,0.08346408189720138,0.09704605673703916,0.0,0.0,0.08532561345818818,0.0,0.1050680390048018,0.0,0.09620070319469301,0.0720706646891561,0.0,0.0693322157089877,0.07006472994671463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09550055317342937,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,osmicai,2019/01/20,"Worried for a friend Hi, I am concerned a friend of mine is developing paranoia and I didn’t know where else to post. He believes that a hacker has got into his computer, mobile and house phones and tv and is spreading rumours about him in the hopes of blackmailing him. He says it started about 10 months ago which is shortly after he started taking medication for his diagnosed ADD. I am worried because his mother was placed into an institution for schizophrenia in the past and am afraid he may be developing the same symptoms. When asked to explain his beliefs has says that he knows it sounds crazy and that it is too complicated to explain. Can somebody offer me some advice? I have asked him to ring me tomorrow so he can slowly explain to me why he thinks this. I am in the UK if that helps. 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The purpose of the study is to learn more about how people experience their relationships with their therapists/counselors. Participation will take about 10-15 minutes. If you choose to participate in this study, you will have the option to enter your email address for a chance to win a $25 Amazon gift card. 40 gift cards will be given out, with odds of roughly one-in-ten. Link: [https://www.psychdata.com/s.asp?SID=181716](https://www.psychdata.com/s.asp?SID=181716) To be eligible to participate, you must be At least of 18 years of age, live in the United States, and be currently seeing a counselor/therapist for outpatient counseling or psychotherapy. Your confidentiality will be protected by storing your data securely on a password-protected, encrypted website and computer. Only the researchers will have access to the data. The data will be anonymous as you will not be asked for any identifying information. IP addresses will be not tracked or recorded as a part of this research. Your individual identity will be kept private when information is presented or published about this study. Dissemination of research results will be based on all participants’ combined results, not your individual responses. If you agree to participate in the survey, there will be no direct benefit to you. However, possible benefits of participation include helping to provide information that could benefit scholars’ and therapists’ understanding of counseling/psychotherapy. There is no anticipated risk in participating in the study, other than potential discomfort in answering questions about your relationship with your therapist. You may access the study at the following link: [https://www.psychdata.com/s.asp?SID=181716](https://www.psychdata.com/s.asp?SID=181716) Thank you for your time.",11.766784127924195,14.81074387947883,10.262044714243412,46.34344906721944,54.83061889250814,13.269114598756293,41.96757477050637,12.484440550625713,6.679926384364817,1709,86,200,59,22,531,163,307,0.028999999999999998,0.8290000000000001,0.142,0.9873,2,0,0,0,0,0,85.0,0,20,2,3,8,9,0,2,19,0,33,0,0,3,2,35,41,12,0,4,8,0,1,0,0,13,0,0,2,0,6,8,0,3,10,0,1,3,5,2,0,0,3,2,23,7,53,13,4,24,0,0,1,0,34,14,0,8,6,155,29,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114167614790474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13904271484964698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874900934407165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454867321853946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969075736055036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13133154336689395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10078347251829324,0.11311606384389795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610603766002103,0.0,0.1031108345516235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16767101964178388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16661192835172078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4790419115507395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11851876007568787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182664489304583,0.0,0.0,0.1369308397436388,0.0,0.6907491753064501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672580995134377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15483344464368107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095777410340874 schizophrenia,mybestprisonlife,2019/01/20,"Hello from down under! Any other aussies here? I’m often lonely and was hoping to chat or meet some new peeps 😊",0.4242028985507247,2.8368067826086967,2.27826086956522,92.38376811594203,89.86956521739133,3.066666666666667,12.014492753623188,3.1291,-1.4461768115942029,88,1,17,0,3,29,23,23,0.102,0.773,0.126,0.1511,0,2,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,2,1,3,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,4,1,11,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44064105837376666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6435793034538284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6258123823009031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,telu121314,2019/01/20,"Dealing with schizophrenia by becoming and alcoholic I'm struggling with alcoholism. I want to get better but can't seem to find anything that has worked.. My next try is going to be a writing in a journal for each day that has a scale that will show how drunk i was and a scale for how I emotionally felt that day. I think I have schizophrenia because sometimes I hear voices but also think that other people can hear my thoughts and drinking is the only thing that helps get rid of that panic/ anxiety feeling that comes with hearing the voices. They're not always bad thoughts so its not invasive or upsetting but they stop me from being the person i want to be. this started like in gr 10 and im now 24 and i dont want to try to take medication. i have dramatically changed from the panic and anxious feeling where i can now tell myself that no one can hear me, but i also want to get off of drinking now, and i want to know what worked for you guys ",5.245034904013959,5.705790497382196,5.691845549738223,82.60419066317628,68.10994764397907,8.251483420593367,30.57635253054101,8.07648339933343,2.0142247818499124,759,28,151,9,12,244,109,191,0.1,0.767,0.133,0.3728,0,0,4,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,3,9,7,0,4,8,0,16,6,0,2,0,38,42,17,0,5,7,0,3,1,0,1,3,6,0,2,14,12,5,1,10,4,0,2,5,5,0,1,4,9,19,2,22,34,1,14,0,0,0,0,12,4,0,2,9,105,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23028991185320566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17232475829096622,0.0896511618899547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824234262701709,0.12171940385675425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.088663659571761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08996126057722319,0.06567939267988979,0.11899414946012167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952903049520407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11397825883627301,0.09281142156712856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13897119324124355,0.11107874159467908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12627449328036594,0.2110950789934182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119685280318344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895662740590606,0.0,0.10345058574557237,0.0,0.09847553977003007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16887448000506902,0.0,0.0612330721571643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10668293150864304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4857386883134817,0.0,0.07221814756522746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11638138934982442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05921296940169012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05263799579615756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085401668894931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11458635627236585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730097341335111,0.08194373086294722,0.0,0.25282739246606345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07469572568589614,0.09407740405298667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980855688117316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10656100367718273,0.0,0.07626135174061788,0.0,0.0,0.09007832888079637,0.0,0.11263682285308488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100964779916574,0.0,0.0941725036355268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157994495576919,0.13807527426447955,0.0,0.17107249096851967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630142808878116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31774932205956075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568769952380723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,atrone,2019/01/20,"Has anyone here experienced this set of delusions before? About a year ago, I was diagnosed with a psychosis spectrum disorder due to unusual behavior. My doctor said I had little disorganized or negative symptoms, but I had delusions. I wanted to be hyper focused on doing the right thing all the time, including being honest with others, and other things. During this period I had trouble paying attention because I believed as long as I thought these thoughts all the time (such as ""Do the right thing"" or ""Be honest""), I would in turn act to do the right thing or be honest, and paying attention to anything else wasn't necessary. Has anyone else here experienced this set of delusions before?",10.187317073170732,9.43036004878049,9.769227642276428,61.534817073170736,58.26829268292683,12.427642276422766,40.82520325203252,11.538034831475384,5.080486178861788,558,25,81,13,6,181,74,123,0.07200000000000001,0.8290000000000001,0.1,0.7642,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,7,0,15,3,0,0,2,16,20,9,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,10,4,0,0,4,0,2,1,2,1,0,0,8,3,9,3,14,7,2,16,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,3,7,67,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14209272142805218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241653633950644,0.16424218234653867,0.1319099398094943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771494631480084,0.0,0.2728001584245171,0.1805986862644381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16269705335550305,0.0,0.0,0.18371308934702135,0.16406973577793704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678134580554148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16065869098583418,0.0,0.14185690493233205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4106756930713653,0.1524781917558003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16660890750289026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4259741263235519,0.0,0.0,0.2545142180653337,0.1869397590387104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17435600451318747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09454672669688406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138696705763336,0.0,0.0,0.10322536059634256 schizophrenia,mtskisgssl,2019/09/15,"Fresh out of the hospital, very worried I just got back from the hospital from a suicide attempt and I don’t know what to think of it. I might be getting sent to a psychiatric treatment center two hours away from my hometown and I don’t know if that’s good or bad. I’m just so tired of this I’m supposed to be going to high school not doing this.",1.2954440154440157,3.1717394324324357,2.884208494208494,93.21310810810814,80.35135135135134,5.850193050193052,24.08494208494209,6.868970318607317,0.7341644787644785,274,10,61,3,7,90,51,74,0.18600000000000005,0.746,0.068,-0.8759999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,1,4.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,4,0,6,1,0,0,0,12,15,5,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,3,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,2,0,5,1,12,10,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,2,42,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413934632786496,0.19756271374687,0.21452516986611345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13423491503153134,0.0,0.14601879877687593,0.21550004293264305,0.2054897711408736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714598312543779,0.0,0.0,0.253023530914186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2824031641546533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27256130417933466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600260912021625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810388694502209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462987221300215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953023468515259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509825182989694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119935173748132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26092409832989016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,QueasyYou,2019/09/15,"Rot It feels as if my mind is rotting, I don't even recognize the person I've become.",-0.07105263157894726,1.8189568947368429,3.020263157894739,90.32934210526315,85.3157894736842,5.905263157894738,20.026315789473685,7.1686216300943375,0.5155052631578951,67,2,15,1,2,24,18,19,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5746592524799433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34367045481109354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630924895967135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5253809915387547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4543286450100706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LightningFromHeaven,2019/09/15,Just curious. I was just wondering what type of meds you guys are on. I'm only clozapine and haladol.,-0.08999999999999986,1.8011440000000007,3.4700000000000024,79.09000000000003,109.0,10.0,25.0,8.841846274778883,3.9725,80,4,15,4,4,29,18,20,0.0,0.8809999999999999,0.11900000000000001,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,10,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4970265478812744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5575725117738171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3817687524646176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5443621262147741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Savvy1519,2019/09/15,Supporting Fiancé How do I support my fiancé who has paranoid delusions about me cheating on him even though I’ve never slept with anyone else and never give him a reason to distrust me or really think that I was fooling around on him. He says himself he knows it’s just his paranoia but he can get so mean and awful during these paranoid episodes and I just want to help and stop being accused of things I’m not doing,3.6790533562822745,5.648336698795184,4.246333907056801,85.73734939759039,73.57831325301204,5.7067125645438885,26.314974182444054,6.1826913282559595,1.0457070567986233,338,12,61,2,7,107,65,83,0.231,0.675,0.094,-0.8944,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,8,5,2,0,1,1,6,1,1,2,2,20,16,9,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,1,11,2,8,13,0,6,0,0,0,0,12,3,0,1,3,46,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600309393970902,0.23450394237063904,0.0,0.20374245901700466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19119117524083512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15116620622808946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11957491496893714,0.2195525663550546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534064623749016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12578074166776732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493060798424297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530366756342354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14661972043173993,0.23531605755816126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820062847872472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19134522604259452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5194369989115856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15205078644168832,0.14665039246005887,0.2248632109641151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349932144829779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rutan2828,2019/09/15,"Side effects from antipchycotics About two weeks ago i was injected a high dose of some sort of antipsycotic, and ever since i’ve been excperiensing some awful symptoms like tinnitus, allergic reactions, seizures etc. Ive read that AP could cause dyskinesia, and i’m worried that i have it. The symtoms does not seem to go away, thet rather worsens for each day. I take adderal for adhd, and since the injection ive gotten tinnitus when i take my adderall. FYI i’m 19 years old very lightweight girl and very sensitive to all sort of substances. I’dont have schitzohrenia but i know that many with the diagnose take antipscycotics. Does anyone else experienced there side effect and how do you deal with them??? Are they permanent or can they be reversed????? Wanted to add that people with schitzophrenia are the most astonishing, interesting and brilliant people i know, and they way which society portaits your ”disability” is detremential and awful. Bless you all <3",6.178035714285714,9.031778351190477,5.775619047619048,73.60271428571431,69.05952380952381,9.718095238095238,32.03333333333333,10.047579312681364,3.8395447619047616,785,35,123,22,15,242,118,168,0.064,0.836,0.099,0.8440000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,3,4,2,6,3,0,0,5,2,13,4,0,4,3,34,24,12,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,6,13,0,0,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,1,16,3,14,19,7,13,1,0,0,0,9,4,0,7,8,76,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18892244285552398,0.0,0.13934727615908676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099170755700202,0.16106877615123136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476934735449043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16148649873319626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12551047274738647,0.0,0.0,0.10138023930478507,0.16206508905762032,0.0,0.15955350137817215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751315073979838,0.0,0.18423585562269906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131319449454222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753182468178353,0.0,0.14219533969978967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0893397165826183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166089192562733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17278472949338386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07679940692565031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15937493822785614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16495372626325952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179637482693307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15724136820335935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143107909006975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600729898859664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633897726149508,0.3545818649892002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15356041304164375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25941099253334626,0.0927199416167098,0.1247771126378324,0.12609541770878685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15964304041418545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10123089124535632 schizophrenia,Crazyboi2025,2019/09/15,Gut Bacteria and schizophrenia I researched that scientist cured mice of schizophrenia with a fecal transplant because there was something up with the bacteria in schizophrenic people... that we have different types of bacteria than a normal person has... I dont know why is it taking so long for the FDA to give permission to let companies do clinical trials... is it because the pharmaceutical companies lobbied the FDA so we cant get the cure we need because they want to just make money off of us for life... i was going to do my own gut fecal transplant at home but figured that will be too risky..,12.958363636363636,8.887732927272726,11.654999999999998,60.482500000000016,56.09090909090909,15.0,47.5,12.602617957971056,5.903545454545452,482,22,79,11,4,154,75,110,0.0,0.9890000000000001,0.011000000000000001,0.0387,1,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,4,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,7,0,13,5,2,1,0,14,21,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,5,6,0,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,9,0,16,16,1,6,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,1,58,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4319215190542822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24675903795182605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27680255419579064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339490525639225,0.2265664845441665,0.13422719295119634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23690895508955376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12979898589269176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415112323326109,0.16682173419452986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090128896259789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157652754666552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17512533348905845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23140738549241796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16373827461304902,0.20622427425749293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818237915717622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17757883514545908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28409684875502395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393057642207826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131167563902196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shotec,2019/09/15,"Negative symptoms I would like to ask if anybody has experience with mega ascorbic acid against negative symptoms? I am not diagnostic to schizophrenia, but have only negative symptoms like anhedonia, flat emotions lack of motivation. Thanks",10.323423423423424,13.742120621621627,9.311891891891893,50.26801801801803,59.0,12.500900900900902,52.87387387387388,11.855464076750405,8.161727927927927,201,15,22,7,3,63,30,37,0.24600000000000002,0.523,0.231,-0.1901,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,7,6,2,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,5,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,18,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359055208437736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838505625064843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24683870254667464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24656291595652424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19191731106334944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7868392553945741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23232242771028155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792563758068247,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KittyAnoyn,2019/09/15,"Not sure what’s happening I don’t know a lot about schizophrenia except the stigma mostly and did a little research. I’m curious I’m having these paranoid thoughts, I’m so paranoid I read a text and thought my mom was saying a car was at my house looking for me. I always believe everyone is mad at me and people are looking for me or I’ll get arrested. I’m high anxiety though too. Obsessed with time. Clocks. But no hallucinations and no voices or sights. I’m just getting more and more paranoid. I don’t want to go to the psych unit anyways no hallucinations",1.8017994505494488,4.389359482142861,3.5735714285714306,84.7868131868132,83.64285714285714,5.946153846153848,26.472527472527474,7.321109707123232,1.609242307692308,450,20,85,7,13,150,74,112,0.221,0.746,0.033,-0.9490000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,6,3,1,1,6,0,8,0,0,0,1,19,23,10,0,1,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,6,0,0,3,1,0,2,6,2,0,0,5,5,9,1,9,18,4,8,0,0,3,0,2,4,0,4,2,55,11,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17944113093221414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16497446896875806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429678399133959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20606632542945666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22534028590278715,0.0,0.1225609516564068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19070183012599334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278499448955402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488353835113009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11851761841454073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21614163380449966,0.0,0.0,0.3621895417783177,0.0,0.0,0.18334104026260648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252570974490644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14950710297912473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21571203115399884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17149645584409035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20325103389928728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118786380104704,0.34240985396779083,0.12574939050514553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271981232620269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CantMeltDankMemes,2019/09/15,"Frequency of delusions Hey guys i was diagnosed about 2 years ago with schizoaffective disorder. At the moment I am treated by a therapist and medicated so don't be concerned but I still experience frequent delusional thoughts throughout the day. I just wanted to know if that's something that others experience. On bad days I'll have a noticeable fraction of my thoughts be based in delusions. So I guess I'm asking, those prone to Delusions, is it a constant thing that happens all day for you too? I hope this doesn't break the polling rule.",5.638200000000001,7.821155019999999,5.569000000000003,77.39950000000002,68.8,9.0,36.5,9.516144504307137,3.8103,442,24,75,10,8,138,77,100,0.071,0.887,0.042,-0.4118,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,0,6,0,8,2,0,0,1,12,17,5,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,8,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,8,2,11,12,1,13,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,3,9,50,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727912170329811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822306350743958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16275608445435275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106470728993754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37713578798417785,0.0,0.0,0.1978470225247385,0.0,0.0,0.2234034788983475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3813524445306141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21473430630855644,0.19300859168768428,0.1723734946328644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936067096004136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10712690092266773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19636866419620333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22192592903424396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500644952742167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15566912765228402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263255234719137,0.12950098177491207,0.0,0.0,0.3095008741455801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11497312324130066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12552673709709852 schizophrenia,SlowSpaceJellyFish,2019/09/15,"I think a friend of a friend is faking being schizofrenic Hey, I've been wanting to make this for a while, I'm just very afraid of stepping on someones toes, but here goes. Feel free to tell me if I'm saying something very mean, because I'd hate for it to seem like that's my intention. I also wasn't sure of where to post this, but I figured here would work. So, a friend of a friend told me and my friend group he had an extreme case of paranoid schzofrenia last year. I have someone close to who has been diagnosed with schizophrenia, and so I've done a lot of research and heard a lot of their own experiences. Because of this, I originally felt really bad for him, and tried to be as respectful as possible, however: He really likes talking about his mental state. I get that, no shame at all for that, but his explanations of how being paranoid schizofrenic is just doesn't sound right to me, judged by my limited knowledge on the topic. First of all, he talks about he's constantly hallucinating. He told me: ""I see a man in front of the window right now, but because it's a second story window, and none of you have noticed him, I know it's a hallucination, so I can just ignore him"". He continued talking about how he keeps rationalizing his *visual* hallucinations. Although claming to have very severe paranoid schizofrenia, and being in constant psycosis, *and* loving to talk about his hallucinations, he has never once mentioned any other hallucination than visuals. He also has never mentioned any other of the symptoms of schizofrenia, not one, except for visual hallucinations, and yet, his schizofrenia is the only thing he talks about. He has earlier talked about very extreme things he's done that are very implausible. He said that when he was 15 (he's 18 now), he got a kitchen knife stuck about 5-10 cm in his neck, and had to walk to his parents to get it out, yet he doesn't have a scar, not even a small mark. He's also said that 10 psyciatrists have quit their job because they thought he was so scary. He's also said he almost killed a guy, but got out, because the cop sided with him. Also, he says he's been in constant psycosis for 3 years, yet he has a full time job as a waiter, got his license, and everything else expected from a normal 18 year old. This is kinda tearing me up a bit, because it might be true, and I don't want to add to the heavy mental toll it is to struggle with a disorder like this. But on the flip side, his explanation of paranoid schizofrenia sounds so hollywood-esque and just really illogical, and me knowing a person who's actually struggling a lot with this, it just seems so disrespectful for him to fake something like this.",8.26017408123791,6.9247695473887845,8.178101353965188,73.26298181818184,62.42359767891684,10.979930367504835,35.96046421663443,9.888512548439397,3.3192530599613166,2124,79,404,35,25,688,238,517,0.129,0.7829999999999999,0.08800000000000001,-0.9663,4,0,2,0,0,0,71.0,0,1,3,4,35,24,2,4,29,0,37,6,2,5,6,72,67,39,1,6,15,1,2,4,5,2,2,8,3,3,26,21,1,3,11,0,1,3,10,10,0,3,22,11,37,15,67,38,9,45,0,0,1,1,73,19,0,9,25,262,63,4,0.0,0.0,0.06763290022104282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.069400195817398,0.0,0.0,0.2771209062804203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09426125011409732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05786782191609445,0.2534906719694889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07566447234134338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246862968451368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07034438254320452,0.0,0.0,0.07943096429031714,0.0,0.0,0.14184870805041486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05789647678038708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045776122971362486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062287986551406986,0.06779480908916236,0.0,0.0,0.03504332126321704,0.0,0.06654486647507163,0.0,0.0,0.05895185889919841,0.0,0.0,0.2677291753057513,0.0,0.07241930783986524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16629161262588182,0.0,0.0,0.06862408154818693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06842557109937981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755151345053512,0.06160257739665874,0.07667709451907243,0.0,0.07617780245573165,0.056493842067403766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354381273542708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767650801710632,0.06255159445716428,0.0,0.046262458519973376,0.0,0.0,0.07549482158172181,0.0,0.0,0.13968879338167922,0.07352297644752794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069065016611552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06790540764860974,0.0,0.0789056223794771,0.07272524840860185,0.07380889190265354,0.04696370710982575,0.052710524444540524,0.0,0.0,0.07695638624336497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06051554223602161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0781323808408495,0.06637622729227713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07371572551697457,0.0,0.0,0.13319807091771074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837431372726062,0.19777833763705316,0.11023021986025996,0.0,0.0,0.05522810631677743,0.12618760991379854,0.0,0.07829633267610278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11744591755917065,0.1067106709720888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490787621771642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0653203182633457,0.07203572826165308,0.0,0.3342344198241575,0.0605767152973084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09208798278029087,0.04440864507058597,0.0,0.0550214191007868,0.04041303038727938,0.0,0.0,0.1324501794867128,0.0,0.047054392815252435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859245635015336,0.08175724112766747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05045577376817688,0.0,0.0,0.04923316988161888,0.0,0.0,0.13389285369691814 schizophrenia,Mlg2,2018/11/06,"For those of you that have met a significant other after a diagnosis, when did you disclose it to your partner? I have made a new friend in my life over the past 3 months. Things are going well and she asked to be my girlfriend. I have no physical schizophrenia symptoms due to proper compliance to medication and a good support system. The only thing that might happen is I have experienced sexual side effects that would require my partner to be patient with me. But basically I’m wondering if I should disclose this any sooner than I have to. ",7.29529411764706,7.707539705882354,7.698823529411764,70.14470588235295,63.70588235294118,10.329411764705883,35.627450980392155,10.125756701596842,3.7183803921568623,438,19,74,9,6,144,75,102,0.022000000000000002,0.851,0.127,0.8591,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,2,2,4,0,0,6,0,13,3,0,2,0,12,21,5,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,2,9,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,1,13,4,13,13,0,11,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,3,6,61,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16513419488504774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22701528831449355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876115233262369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800711177452066,0.2036760934998808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21473567584221548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715195349855422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297736598580781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24462785250259256,0.0,0.2576065457761009,0.0,0.0,0.1938263122024588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345288119126981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846847990151161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318107723695729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755630558337962,0.0,0.2523955915086493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226537920217377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183352735083109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26334111742352323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250099824050633,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Al3Ska,2018/11/06,"Seeking advice on how to provide support to a potential neighbor with Schizophrenia Hello. &#x200B; As the tittle says, I am looking for help. &#x200B; I suspect my neighbor to have schizophrenia (don't throw me stones, I never talked to her so I do not really know but I suspect it). &#x200B; Every days, and multiple times a day, she's yelling, screaming, slapping someone. She seems to yell at someone who's assaulting her. She yells ""Leave me alone you asshole, go away, AHH \*SLAP\* \*CRY\* etc..."". &#x200B; As a former victim of abuse, I called the police each time I witnessed it. But stopped when they turned up (crisis are less than 30min). Once, they were starting to think I was making it up but she did a crisis when they were there. They got all panicky and tried to enter and offer assistance and help. And she attacked them (I guess she thought she was under attack anyway). It turns out that she leaves alone. And does not want to be helped, nor the police to be called. But I was just worried for her. She's so much in distress that I wanted to help. &#x200B; So now obviously I'm not doing anything more and I really think the NHS should not leave her alone in such distress. &#x200B; I know she might not have Schizophrenia but I suspect she's hallucinating someone that wants to harm her. &#x200B; How may I offer subtlety help? &#x200B; Note that I never talked to her. After the police incident, I found all my bins reversed, so I suspected she was not happy about me calling the police, but it never reoccurred. &#x200B; Thank you ",3.7145833333333336,6.514877402777778,3.682472222222224,85.75975000000003,77.05555555555556,5.506666666666668,27.30833333333333,6.742157984588678,1.4260574999999998,1244,51,212,12,30,379,151,288,0.24600000000000002,0.706,0.048,-0.9966,0,3,0,0,2,0,89.0,0,2,5,0,14,11,4,2,10,0,19,0,0,3,6,51,40,24,0,4,13,0,0,0,2,3,0,5,2,0,10,10,0,1,11,0,0,3,11,8,0,0,10,6,48,3,30,25,7,26,0,0,1,0,42,9,0,4,14,160,58,0,0.0,0.05695112050351105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04697017421793987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14934766021703255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4687217581381757,0.5256561697348867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03955475752426441,0.0,0.0,0.10936550733079692,0.045160200067391375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14724427191119924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05279895814686707,0.061998025775893466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04206344945620857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05360702075539281,0.0,0.0,0.04049822584370565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05270260090834649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027317384973063262,0.0,0.03844329109198832,0.0,0.052950834215360974,0.0,0.0,0.05116784287371743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610903119491768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052832347734979065,0.0,0.0,0.1526869266774306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0403638802255436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032084862214588325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05099111989275045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0353345184752837,0.0,0.11121589141747357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05118941367730505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06158545379797329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03822452944835685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04375807303371538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218015005379546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03402182236941551,0.0,0.0,0.0401858718022694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05454546496751859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07726830530634995,0.0,0.04425331349422448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06159833713165695,0.0,0.03815955111719123,0.05605610048112835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03263410026980465,0.10456542534063523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505286685618607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048814016431669216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5256561697348867,0.0 schizophrenia,321l23,2018/11/06,"How concerned should I be? I apologize in advanced for the length of this post and the format/spelling I'm on mobile. Anyway, i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at about 17 years old. I am currently 25 and unmedicated but please let me note I am not experiencing depression at the moment or any form of mania. I am and have been baseline for months. I also have never been confident in that diagnosis being that I never felt my symptoms fit the bill fully. Please understand I am not looking for a diagnosis, I am simply looking for some insight that'll help me decide whether I should be mentioning these symptoms to my psychiatrist stressing concern or add them into conversation during my appointment casually. So here it goes: Recently my family and friends have pointed out ""changes"" in me (some I already noticed myself and some I did not). They say I have been repeating myself multiple times in a few minute span, but each time they bring this up i have no recollection of saying that before. I also sometimes (and growing increasingly more frequent) i cannot seem to concentrate on what someone is saying to me, I try to but I just can't. Also, sometimes when a person speaks to me and I can concentrate I cannot process what they are saying at all, I just stare back at them waiting to understand. it's like I hear the words I see the mouth moving but it all sounds like mush to me. unlike the repetitiveness, when those 2 things happen I know it is happening. On top of all of that months leading up to these issues I had been finding it difficult to talk to people at all, i remember thinking ""I can't find the words to say the faces to make or posture to hold."" And I'd find myself focusing more on ""looking and reacting normal"" then I felt I should be. I've also grown increasingly more paranoid. Some nights losing sleep over one of the about 4 paranoid conclusions I have come to and have focused on for about a year. For example I have a gut feeling all of my electronics are hacked. I make sure to never search anything I wouldn't want someone to know I did, I don't take pictures I wouldn't want others to see ect. (I almost didn't write this post due to this fear). I have an idea of who is hacking me but since I really believe they may be I will not say any more about that on here. Also, I'll have moments where I'll realize my thoughts don't sound like they're controlled by me, it's like I'll be casually thinking and all the sudden realize I had not been thinking at all instead someone in my head was talking to me I was just listening, but by the time that realization hits I can't remember most of what they were saying I just remember the tone and the voice. Im writing this here because Im just not sure if this could really be symptoms of bipolar disorder, I'm also not sure if I should be concerned or if these are just normal things people experience. Schizophrenia runs in my family (bipolar does not) . my grandfather has schizophrenia and my father has been suggested by professionals to get evaluated for possibly having it but he never has. Does anyone have any advice here? Should I mention this to my psychiatrist at my next visit? Should I suggest the symptoms are maybe not bipolar disorder at all? Any comments, personal experiences or suggestions on what I'm experiencing and/or what to do about it would be appreciated! Thank you. 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Unloved and disliked, They’re feeding me more, Shaking uncontrollably, Chewing my nails, Chewing my skin, Eyes wet, Cheeks sobbing, He’s in! Do as they say, They’ll go away, But to do so, Means you must also, He can see you, Louder and closer again, Breathing stops, There is no air, Gasping in panic, Falling to the ground, His grip tightens, Then dissipates away, The voices are fading, They’re gone, But their torment lives on, When will they visit again, Will the next time be the end? That’s the life of me. 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I was in hospital that was about 140km away from my town. Now after this, im back home, im addicted to relanium, i sleep on every lesson in school, im feeling like im drunk and i want to sleep all the time. Im 16 years old, today i have bday but i feel like shit",-0.2669736842105266,2.0186700877193005,2.5080482456140345,89.77154605263159,93.73684210526315,6.358771929824562,18.528508771929825,7.645422480735847,0.8824403508771934,426,13,91,10,16,148,73,114,0.08199999999999999,0.8009999999999999,0.11699999999999999,-0.0355,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,7,7,1,1,1,1,4,5,3,0,1,9,9,6,0,1,1,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,2,1,1,3,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,2,12,4,19,6,1,20,0,0,0,0,4,10,1,0,14,50,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14019686060820902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12082727593034805,0.09888819773005317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131318611261158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11390458065912762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835404407874294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13005164586400836,0.18374881478769545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12899985417404494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6945695545668206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513168093123988,0.0,0.11355929767037945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592042767805999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349478004719702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875459643730927,0.13015366631741085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13200970400656248,0.0,0.0,0.2573928675177476,0.0,0.10896537719593276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910262601349921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14722030555789592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10336666834943907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07498976875993997,0.0,0.1219011355821418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07585371039812261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08281647479473021 schizophrenia,adyah,2018/11/06,"Need advice, trying to find the proper way to go with things. Good evening everyone, &#x200B; I have a question, not sure if it is the right sub, but I'll just go right ahead. I am the stepmom to an amazing boy who is 8 years old... He started grade 3 in September. Since June, his mother has been running away, been reported missing multiple times, leaving her schizophrenia untreated , we believe that she has been in that state since April... Zero contact with his mother since July 2018. we know when she is back in town, but it feels like there is nothing we can do to convince her to get in treatment. She got a stay in ICU this summer in a different province, but not luck. What could be our next steps? &#x200B; We feel out of resources, aren't able to get proper psychological support for him, since we require the mother's consent. what can happen is the illness isn't treatment for a long period of time? Thanks in advance guys, your subreddit is a wealth of knowledge and great support.",6.170301418439717,6.9872549308510665,5.83489361702128,81.13333333333334,66.18085106382978,8.181560283687944,33.751773049645394,8.07648339933343,2.5291475177304963,789,34,143,9,12,244,126,188,0.053,0.772,0.175,0.9808,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,6,1,0,3,5,12,0,0,11,0,20,1,0,0,1,27,35,6,0,3,7,3,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,9,9,0,1,6,0,1,5,4,1,0,1,4,2,17,11,23,29,0,34,0,1,0,0,24,12,0,3,15,93,26,3,0.12266750479766099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986926598792537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658203803966471,0.2981088899132791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152501587247358,0.09432373937621104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382042715208775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979400210352219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281614340660456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08102073001406412,0.0,0.0,0.1172140576345962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12404875234363748,0.08763368993757542,0.0,0.0,0.11211587707583834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12817741668445362,0.0,0.13942953970053626,0.1028876831039326,0.09810840947651282,0.13524135709375534,0.0,0.1214601155073156,0.10847446937691582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06741485260439957,0.0,0.0,0.12988717579126569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0599291466691363,0.0,0.0,0.10855688162466892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09095640049315616,0.0,0.0,0.13045828298481302,0.0,0.0,0.11770277921425518,0.0,0.12871891138979302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374156791506831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095147577066867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4058873103185726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08682469126196671,0.1307472386834488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784032615373733,0.1156126715615067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11293575751865507,0.0,0.0,0.08149483951545386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305681702691714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08328318365112113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09736775560601997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981088899132791,0.07899385127756928 schizophrenia,lukesheridan117,2018/11/06,Progression of Schizophrenia Does schizophrenia get progressively get worse after you get it or does it stay the same?,7.8615789473684226,11.721863842105265,4.883421052631579,76.97144736842105,68.47368421052633,8.010526315789475,30.552631578947373,8.841846274778883,3.0712947368421046,99,4,14,2,2,27,14,19,0.147,0.853,0.0,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6309576049149231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5650441690828993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3842484724312248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3673835859421456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BkobDmoily,2018/11/06,"A Narrative I watch a lot of philosophy videos. Arguments that treat this waking reality as a simulation are very compelling to me. I just feel that that Dreaming World is more significant than this Waking Nightmare, where you just avoid Death, stock up nutrients, and socialize. It's the Overworld, where you obtain moral lessons from interacting with other Universes. The human species has been dreaming for our entire life span. Modern capitalism is only a few hundred years old. Scientific mindsets have always been oppressed. The God of the Christian Bible's name is Jealous. Gnostic texts lead me to believe that the God of this world is a lesser God, involved in trivial affairs. 13 billion years is a larger domain than the 6000 we in the West fight over. I have good dreams. I can steal the powers of my favorite fictional characters, adopt them as my Masks. It follows from my work with philosophy. There is the Mask, the Mirror, and the Master, and these elements of the psyche are fundamental. Social media has changed the way we interact formally. There's no going back, we're all connected for better or for worst. Our ideas about this world come to a head in the electronic forum that is social media. We exist as living archetypes, going on Quests for social Favor, interacting with other Masks to have something to reflect on endlessly. And so I want a story I can be proud of. It appears everything material has been discovered, and we are finally ready to begin an inward journey. Inward journeys are lifelong. Our brains are the most complex supercomputers known. We still don't know all the mysteries. The Narrative invites stigma of mental illnesses, but we are all unique, and the way we fit into society determines our lot in life. I feel like schizophrenics are tuned into Despair. There's a lot to deal with in this life. You must confront Despair before you can find the Truth of this otherwise absurd world, where we build upon illusion and live a limited Drama.",6.4688217395866126,8.603685776203973,6.5236197670758616,71.57784597628796,66.59206798866856,9.308949742944078,32.904102402685965,9.725611199111238,3.5775007659217297,1601,70,246,36,27,509,202,353,0.086,0.8170000000000001,0.09699999999999999,0.1934,1,1,1,0,1,0,43.0,12,4,1,9,12,15,3,1,30,0,29,9,4,2,5,51,39,13,1,2,4,0,2,1,0,1,5,0,0,1,17,22,0,2,9,5,0,8,2,8,0,1,3,3,29,7,43,34,10,40,2,2,1,0,30,22,0,6,9,180,46,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10937771571444173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10107766194502826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185507151516033,0.14810019967962915,0.0,0.11625767771064001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467427269290522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13905766896723062,0.11323334878451873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135520151261108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11813963245154123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13293109387958613,0.09390858065090306,0.0,0.14399808386860066,0.1201437813713313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14941320151431664,0.11025481517020247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134906592131003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14839211549971984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722420010771962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27854306761712955,0.06422029138938813,0.0,0.2321471836704952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3352646755476945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13247163394895525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13793565328762716,0.0,0.0,0.09997436631005267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5359907335563815,0.0,0.10119735879482487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497689367174537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10846079544748267,0.07753317254125056,0.2086792816013728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956978527972002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16930019628088927 schizophrenia,herbs420123,2018/11/13,My personal experiance. Some auditory mostly visual hallucinations when I close my eyes sometimes. Quite unsettling what I see sometimes. We good though.,7.452391304347824,11.52058543478261,7.687282608695654,50.1900543478261,85.95652173913044,10.995652173913042,36.184782608695656,9.516144504307137,6.249878260869566,127,7,14,5,4,41,20,23,0.0,0.873,0.127,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,3,1,10,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248560212870897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785484342659665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28997556805521657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532275939628497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646394778941382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6569077428289027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32628505351475323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MillieTheMillipede,2018/11/13,"I don't think I can get better if I still go to school. Suicide is mentioned in the post. It's hard to believe that everyone isn't out to get you no matter what (for me), but recently almost everyone is out to get me. I have a fear of being photographed, this was discovered by people at my school and now it seems almost everyone is on a quest to make my life a misery. A few weeks ago it seemed like everyone had stopped photographing me, but it was just part of their plan. I should have known. A few days ago someone came up to me and handed me folder, inside was a bunch of photos of me. I fainted. I just don't think I can keep going on like this, I'm probably going to have to be home schooled for the last year but I still need to finish the pass this year. I only thing that keeps me going is knowing that I can kill myself if it gets to hard.",4.047984848484853,3.983203950000004,5.214040404040404,86.82590909090912,70.6111111111111,8.323232323232324,25.808080808080806,8.00094639256281,1.2572777777777782,661,17,148,8,11,220,98,180,0.14,0.807,0.053,-0.9509,0,0,0,0,0,2,17.0,0,1,1,2,5,5,1,1,9,0,20,3,1,1,0,27,39,7,2,4,7,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,13,5,0,3,6,0,0,6,4,2,0,0,5,3,23,3,24,31,4,27,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,6,15,106,36,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037312055640157,0.0,0.2301424246587715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12947034762284299,0.0,0.10163336700140428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13143264801871454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07411095122646001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4392265049765163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293118168997963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401542949854093,0.0,0.261236368098716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058833227154628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11526955462027565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042842438744609,0.1271369067519639,0.0,0.0631545197958359,0.0936714200770498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08116817278737543,0.11228375746434607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07670694764663344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08520834168712738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873983693981227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12444222165413768,0.0,0.0796678959721214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11005722468665448,0.0,0.12389827903957824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11346513218688173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3489016769359071,0.0,0.2092293988900856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09736747827217848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18354323553172855,0.09607445230260134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12569883837684942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07634471124099611,0.14726634603808014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09217823331035407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14800354970836171 schizophrenia,bnmn98,2018/11/13,"Reacted recently very sensitive to lights and noises. Can this be a symptom of schizophrenia? While driving my car I can’t really focus on the street, because of all the details and light. They are really disturbing. And the music I usually hear is suddenly so loud and unpleasant. 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I have been unable to find much anything on the internet about it, any help is appreciated! Thanks.",3.671999999999997,6.909549866666668,5.035,72.3225,83.66666666666666,9.666666666666668,30.83333333333333,9.516144504307137,4.232333333333335,136,7,22,5,4,45,25,30,0.0,0.731,0.26899999999999996,0.8478,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,0,1,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,4,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3090275328856119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3739566252845744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4612362124070133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41534018224988906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045944063016919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33405785073936606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183774799228339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,stratootelcootel,2018/11/13,Anyone here with mostly disorganized symptoms? I feel there is a lot of focus on hallucinations and voices here. But I mostly have disorganized symptoms. I don't feel at home here. Anyone else? ,3.5805882352941154,6.8262652941176505,5.109058823529414,70.54476470588239,87.23529411764706,6.249411764705883,21.50588235294117,7.554174236665415,1.664607058823529,156,5,23,3,5,52,25,34,0.15,0.85,0.0,-0.5803,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,8,5,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,4,5,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,20,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42600323555877934,0.3121253883078756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25447597686339113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080561687655489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3055647668598138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.258982175043768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6332462124762613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,deadpolishteenager,2018/11/13,"Mind of 16yr old with schizophrenia I created my account to post here, because i feel like talking to strangers is less difficult than talking to my boyfriend, or aunt (i live with aunt, my mom is an drug addict and my dad doesnt have any time for me so) about 3 weeks ago i was on psychiatric ward, 140km away from my home, they made me addicted to relanium, now i miss relanium so much. I was on daily psychiatric ward for two years in 2015-2016. When i was on this daily ward i told my psychiatrist about weird things that happened to me all the time: - this weird feeling that i dont have ANY clothes on - hearing weird voices and like paper scratching and stuff - weird thoughts about killing somebody, maybe myself - feeling super super unreal, like im in 4dimension or smth. everyone said that i was exaggerating, all of this happened when i was like 13?14? now im 16, im super super suicidal, i had suicide attempt about 3 weeks ago? i hanged myself on my wordrobe but it has broken, now i have hallucinations EVERYDAY i have to fight with my toughts everyday. I talk randomly about eggs, fake voting on presidental elections in my country (Poland) i talk albout really weird things. People think im so funny, but i do it just to make them think about me like that, inside im so broken, i cry almost every 3hours, and the worst thing is i dont have no reason why i wanna die, i just want to dissappear i just want to be gone, just want to go away, if my sympthoms wont dissappear even 50% of them i want to go to Zurich and just give up euthanasia. I told my aunt about this, i told my boy about this. If my life is not working like it should be, why should i be alive? why should i fight every fucking day, i just want to let it all go, i want to die next to my family, in peace, with love, i want to say pacefull goodbye, i dont want to ever write next suicidal note. yes - im on meds yes - i have therapeutist yes - i go to therapy yes - i have an hobby yes - i tried almost everything, now i just want to die. 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He's a super great guy but recently he has been a lot different. All of this started after he took mushrooms about a month ago. So it started one night with a weird story about a girl he met at a local college. The story sounded really odd as he told it, as if he was making parts up on the spot. We found out who the girl was and the story she told was much different and more believable than what we had originally heard. We thought this was weird and noticed he was acting different but intially we didn't think much of it. But a few days ago he went to L.A. for a day without telling anyone. We thought this was weird but he then told us that at the local college he was at he met a big rapper who let him come rap on his new album. He said he drove down to LA to go to their record label and now he thinks he's going to get signed. He showed us a recent album the rapper dropped and he thinks he's on the song and when we tell him we can't hear it he calls us non believers. I found out that he dropped out of school a month ago and now is not showing up to work. I am really worried for my friend and am looking for any help. 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Hello, 10 years ago my currently 49 year old uncle's life fell apart due to late onset schizophrenia. He went from a 6 figure income to the streets of Los Angeles in a matter of months. We haven't heard much of him between now and then, but in the past few weeks an opportunity has arisen for him to get help The problem is he refuses to take medication. He refuses to accept that he needs that kind of help. He's very likely to go back on the streets here soon and I'm not sure what to do. How can I convince him? If any of you guys needed convincing, what was it that did it? 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By now my room its disappearing...(maybe the allucinations felt alone ahah) It feels like I'm in space...but idk, my bed is floating in some water that looks like the ocean. Its night blu, light blu, all kinds of purple and green. And its cold. And shadow people don't like being cold. They don't remember...we're in space! They told me they have the Truth ™️ But I don't wanna hear abaout it! Why is this happening? I'm having a episode? Reel me in please?",0.1861904761904718,2.5555515079365136,1.7574761904761895,93.68335714285715,97.4126984126984,4.742222222222222,17.411111111111108,6.508806274219699,0.02137587301587285,494,14,103,7,20,159,83,126,0.145,0.753,0.102,-0.7666,0,1,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,3,0,1,7,1,0,5,0,8,2,0,0,2,13,19,6,0,1,2,0,2,3,0,0,1,2,3,0,7,4,1,0,2,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,11,11,5,12,16,3,10,0,0,4,0,7,8,0,2,5,53,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510573247337561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20239712283759825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12256669014833114,0.17317338736917404,0.23274574829678746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143569592750846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273206801279663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524263492007319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552788889146776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20355821652456726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435272886878019,0.0,0.0,0.2441964168775572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22747962976820896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16805233575083492,0.0,0.0,0.26608667857292023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713513088286529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316273047765974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187318071089766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WorldlyProduct5,2018/12/20,"Fear of becoming schizophrenic? I have heavy OCD and anxiety and have always been paranoid about illnesses, but lately, I've been paranoid about developing schizophrenia, so I need some closure here. I am 16, I have smoked weed before and had some bad trips (which started my fear), I have no family history of schizophrenia at all, and here's what I experience: &#x200B; \-Frequent eye floaters (things in the corner of my eye, especially recently) &#x200B; \-Eye flashes (especially when turning my head and stuff like that, but I think I've always had this) &#x200B; \-Questioning everything I see and hear and fearing it's a hallucination (turns out usually it isn't) &#x200B; \-Fear of delusions, and feeling uncomfortable when government or aliens are mentioned, because I researched symptoms &#x200B; \-Sometimes, I won't take care of my hygiene so much and it will freak me out &#x200B; \-Hypnagogia and racing thoughts \-Constantly practicing conversations in my head (I can tell reality from thoughts though and can't stare off) &#x200B; \-Constantly checking for changes in my behavior and freaking out whenever I feel even slightly antisocial or forgetful &#x200B; \-Feeling detached and emotionally numb sometimes, but not always. I sometimes feel like I'm not myself, I don't know how to explain it the best way possible \-Sometimes feeling weird outside, and fearing I'll start believing that someone is out to get me or that is following me. For an example, I'm outside, all's good, then I start thinking about going crazy and I get a thought like ""could they be looking at me/following me right now?"" and I try to snap out of it, because I don't truly believe that, but it's like an obsessional idea. I'm scared of believing this. I am still functional, my grades are even getting better, I maintain conversations really well. I constantly seek for social interactions and time with friends and my girlfriend, just to not be alone with my thoughts. I am aware of reality, but my mind keeps creating 'what if' scenarios (what if I think I'm normal, but I'm actually crazy?). &#x200B; Sorry if I shouldn't have posted here. Thank you in advance for any help. &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B;",8.66054761904762,9.906095958441556,7.891185064935068,67.05868235930735,60.84415584415586,11.195887445887447,42.2754329004329,11.038039088145766,5.202906926406927,1804,101,273,46,24,562,202,385,0.158,0.726,0.11699999999999999,-0.9337,0,1,1,0,0,0,121.0,0,1,1,3,18,22,0,6,6,0,27,9,5,1,2,69,64,37,0,7,16,0,5,4,2,3,4,1,0,0,18,25,0,1,16,0,1,4,10,11,1,0,8,12,41,11,34,50,6,36,0,0,6,0,14,14,0,9,20,182,59,3,0.0,0.0,0.03542751036806955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037600041223744086,0.0,0.0,0.09062361947645764,0.4720250026776455,0.5293606507882358,0.02468799507939311,0.0,0.027772494562210374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03031236061457824,0.04426121695238616,0.04009496472499925,0.0308920678259738,0.12270667797811767,0.03809885476789488,0.03210797701417165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03701439275654445,0.0,0.03840486518195351,0.0,0.0,0.11769532409564767,0.0,0.028985825329630743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04083716350737969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0479569578083359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03262773416701075,0.035512321578075934,0.03422422203967047,0.20426071511642746,0.09178207819912053,0.02593561654033216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028048414611763536,0.0,0.05690209434225161,0.0,0.0206324250333637,0.03045010997035093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07451684644834508,0.0,0.040917296484444615,0.0,0.024333835674021757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040982847132110325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032268702691843315,0.0,0.0,0.019951753344132832,0.0,0.04095254332409063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07094528913285407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03048625385008118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036656735677751434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026687649797012918,0.026918988881556662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03557025538837697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04092735522614669,0.034769239126297966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040668838247255916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02325730043130628,0.0,0.0358458640469523,0.0,0.0,0.03100345551632017,0.0,0.0,0.03634668169001856,0.0,0.028929623049607424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037007401342712055,0.03076029897000035,0.0,0.14362251263215295,0.04063940539832588,0.07708856834878812,0.0,0.02899245671688712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041559445118726335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037733802654039215,0.02729612326008252,0.0,0.031731334930854754,0.03342388643890545,0.0,0.0,0.024118793915836767,0.06978649718679089,0.03566853925202624,0.11528542406363003,0.021169180212162342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024648063056253625,0.07897675057659513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03998377585909047,0.0,0.0,0.028816460593972092,0.0,0.0,0.03264169581462738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5293606507882358,0.0 schizophrenia,planetwords,2018/12/20,"Successful professionals with psychotic illnesses I was wondering.. have you heard of anyone holding down a successful career/job/independent life while having a psychotic illness such as schitzophrenia/schitzoeffective disorder? I am doing this right now thanks to medication and positive psychology techniques. I am looking to hear from other professionals as I don't really know of anyone else in my situation and could do with some role models. 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Schizophrenia runs in my family so I check this sub from time to time and was just wondering if the voices can be either nice, or try to comfort you? Something a long the lines of that, if this is the wrong place to ask I apologize ",5.055727272727271,6.528955254545457,5.863409090909091,77.51511363636364,69.18181818181819,9.136363636363637,28.29545454545455,9.516144504307137,2.5130909090909093,229,8,43,5,4,75,44,55,0.052000000000000005,0.7829999999999999,0.166,0.7059,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,7,8,5,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,4,3,7,5,1,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,4,3,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016213584051322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041527601021079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706119946907674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28552294490085883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236753649220514,0.0,0.3370862310118075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483811621164096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3762636055343976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190488479487004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3498852705072966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35275211137613205,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MagnaMagicBtu,2018/12/20,"Trials show Methadone superior to traditional Anti-Psychotics in psych ward [https://www.researchgate.net/publication/237454830\_Methadone\_A\_Fast\_and\_Powerful\_Anti-anxiety\_Anti-depressant\_and\_Antipsychotic\_Treatment](https://www.researchgate.net/publication/237454830_Methadone_A_Fast_and_Powerful_Anti-anxiety_Anti-depressant_and_Antipsychotic_Treatment) Methadone also shown to work considerably better than Haldol for a out of control violent patient. Opiates do have uses outside of pain management and maintenance. This disproves the Dopamine theory, I know from meth psychosis happens when you empty out all of your Dopamine and start forcing non-existent Dopamine into the synapses and becoming psychotic as a result.",28.68333333333333,35.716499555555565,15.101000000000004,12.444000000000017,18.72222222222221,11.871111111111116,49.12222222222222,11.602472056035307,7.0849022222222215,656,25,42,11,5,153,61,72,0.11599999999999999,0.7979999999999999,0.086,-0.3197,2,0,5,0,0,0,38.0,0,2,0,3,2,4,1,0,4,0,2,1,0,3,1,12,6,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,13,6,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,29,4,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846536308815902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3931195613841859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148094511946205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3992289556842252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147660115385337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956211852856571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3787566208230943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519437239801769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3074271021164919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591363350175793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,abyssalsigh,2019/06/18,"Schizophrenia Vs. Traumatized? To preface, I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia previously, but recently I got a completely new care team and psychiatrist as my old care provider thought it would be better to transfer me to a new place for better resources. &#x200B; I finally met the psychiatrist and had my first session with her. She wanted to do a full assessment of me again, and started the first session with just asking me background questions like where I live, who I live with, what school I go to, etc. We talked a little bit about my positive symptoms, mostly my hallucinations. We didn't get very far in because of appointment time constraints, but at least changed my antipsychotics a bit for me and sent me off. &#x200B; A few days ago, I finally had my second session with her, and I went in expecting the assessment to continue but it...didn't. Instead she sat me down and told me she read through all of the previous reports from professionals I have seen in the past, and she told me that she doesn't think I'm schizophrenic at all. Instead, she said she just thinks I'm traumatized. &#x200B; She said that trauma can make psychotic symptoms happen but that those psychotic symptoms will not improve with any medication or psychosis-specific help like CBT for psychosis, and told me that I ""do not have true psychosis"". Following this, she told me to stop taking all of my antipsychotics completely, and told me that she is transferring all my services to a team that is better suited to doing trauma therapy only. She told me to stop going to psychosis help groups. She told me to stop working on psychosis-specific CBT skills with my case worker. (Additionally, my case worker was there, and fully agreed with all these decisions.) &#x200B; I am...confused? A little overwhelmed? Does anybody know anything about this? I absolutely do not feel comfortable being taken off my medication so suddenly like this - especially when they *do* help my symptoms - and I voiced this, but the psychiatrist was adamant that medication will not help me and that I must stop taking them. I don't know how to take all the things she told me. Am I not psychotic? Am I ""just traumatized""? Has anyone else had an experience like this?",6.9313157894736825,8.633802789473684,6.558477443609028,73.42237781954887,64.96491228070175,10.010776942355893,35.30263157894737,10.208560254849939,3.9057954887218047,1799,84,295,43,28,561,186,399,0.081,0.7859999999999999,0.133,0.9805,0,0,0,0,0,0,75.0,2,0,2,11,13,14,0,1,16,0,29,9,0,2,8,64,68,22,0,4,15,0,1,4,0,4,9,3,0,0,19,23,0,4,8,3,0,5,8,3,0,3,25,5,63,11,42,37,13,41,0,1,1,0,42,15,0,3,25,217,82,15,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05573962848056399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725232936247041,0.3056259885594381,0.04276078826668473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04396739659947404,0.0644283404021408,0.05174516304550985,0.0,0.058784630788758625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03833127235403895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16683765559244332,0.13729809342363994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12822139719264838,0.0,0.06651906334130947,0.0,0.13185768277433324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0405526181054878,0.0,0.0,0.06382222268513668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05502701031684689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05252845643350755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07012820209225683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06150903947344165,0.0,0.0,0.03179418984755705,0.0,0.0,0.13776468040953388,0.0,0.10697197218431936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03285238298040785,0.0,0.07147269395045577,0.0,0.05029115307660897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05560487804711997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16858946895070795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06911478210798118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12288063398314955,0.1260452422576546,0.11104898658069183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0419731160169074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19003598519880446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214604507033457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06598234046499638,0.0,0.0,0.0478233329702428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060026400722952185,0.0,0.0,0.06569657314316417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07044037297279426,0.0,0.0628973575014461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06208675098236345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11962720784625075,0.0,0.0,0.0636382623035542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04450702913627628,0.0,0.0,0.21028312331418414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614270037882561,0.1418345730553033,0.050540836382003164,0.0,0.0,0.07190915022466479,0.0,0.041774904627381065,0.08058236727287706,0.0,0.0499199671010813,0.036666032617089235,0.0,0.0,0.4806788854644039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05188286684224572,0.037088454406203855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05829070625254845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045777637286185016,0.0,0.0,0.044668390254900124,0.0,0.3056259885594381,0.0 schizophrenia,redheadedwitch1104,2019/06/18,Tw: paranoia Im borderline schizophrenic and my episodes are happening more frequently due to extreme stress thats not preventable at the moment. They cause me to fully shut down and terrify me. They're happening at work and preventing me from being productive. I used to be on antipsychotics when i was a teen but dropped my therapist and doctor and impulsively moved states. I hate the side effects and dont want to change who I am but I'm terrified that they're just gonna keep getting worse. Is there any natural things I can do? Im still young (19F) and am EXTREMELY paranoid of any type of pills. I don't want to lose myself and my girlfriend due to this...,5.2570486111111085,6.556971093750002,5.5363541666666665,80.70100694444444,68.53125,10.06388888888889,32.19097222222222,10.25414643259724,3.3441274305555564,532,23,102,14,9,169,88,128,0.209,0.745,0.046,-0.9631,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,3,4,3,1,1,3,0,11,3,0,3,0,20,21,11,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,5,8,0,3,1,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,0,14,0,13,17,1,16,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,0,7,62,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266195418975816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20106046535057,0.2070479831380288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003298174876028,0.0,0.0,0.22938479164726344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102256695986087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.346152734990258,0.0,0.0,0.19323500956555634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42282681251161935,0.0,0.0,0.1739667560131503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189629165927152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080215707726126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15630388652604382,0.0,0.2241989535565753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272483919722308,0.13002903700706986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16904101508228672,0.0,0.0,0.23088387889979206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14248798760584366,0.0,0.19945749578624256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,carboncopyhuman,2019/06/18,"New Friend with Schizophrenia Hey everyone--I'm new to here and want to gain some understanding. I recently became friends with someone who has schizophrenia, and has been diagnosed within the past year (she didn't tell me much about the diagnosis/medication and I didn't feel it was my place to ask). We got along super well and got close pretty fast. Eventually she seemed to start losing her grip on reality--thinking people were out to get her, the city was teaming up against her, so on and so on. I wasn't sure how to handle that so I just made sure she was doing things for her mental health (going to therapy, meditating, putting her needs first, etc). A few days later I send her a benign text. She accused me of mocking her and told me to stop contacting her. I apologized and explained my train of thought and that I would never do anything to mock her or to cause her pain. I haven't heard back and it's been a few days. &#x200B; I'm wondering if this relationship is over, if there's anything I can do, or how I could handle this better in the future. I appreciate your feedback in advance.",4.183297431648718,5.992087384976529,4.808207677437171,82.90637945318973,71.86384976525821,7.828666114333058,27.55288594310964,8.4952907291091,1.9366312620822983,875,32,169,15,17,280,133,213,0.092,0.769,0.14,0.8915,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,1,1,0,7,11,12,2,0,7,0,19,3,0,4,3,39,37,18,0,6,5,0,2,0,2,1,3,1,0,0,8,15,0,1,6,1,0,4,5,4,1,1,15,3,32,8,27,20,5,30,0,1,0,0,30,11,0,7,15,123,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14600812432725838,0.16374335104242466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22178549506854145,0.0,0.12597871641103642,0.0,0.0,0.10361908477674762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191807757603078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384315840416103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10759174105903398,0.0,0.0,0.17381300885922232,0.0,0.0,0.13677455458154178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15028861736911214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06813670805754203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146234276452638,0.0,0.0,0.2082243805519911,0.0,0.07040447449245532,0.0,0.07658496890686525,0.0,0.21555344743727475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14323938011716972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15075755115482045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275094331703593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496835934372541,0.0,0.13580240385987918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09906120228700674,0.09991990389712167,0.10393217352924147,0.26029646642332144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14338993865258032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12863989808877244,0.09342287799062816,0.0,0.14079139132336405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13709534894957345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13546705054081287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330553426965731,0.14467756710473118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12267684721710902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141783642191329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09538102607134004,0.0,0.0,0.11266209212583213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540119654929496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177827276785531,0.0,0.15410528775905855,0.0,0.08952593207674489,0.0863462358969265,0.0,0.1069812516348747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287651810179294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028580091234982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07948260994532441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211618728767066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14613718836990516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572683187687328,0.0,0.16374335104242466,0.08677847831843502 schizophrenia,dreaminginautumn,2019/06/18,Can schizophrenia start from depersonalization/derealization? I ask because I was stupid enough to smoke weed. Usually when I smoke weed I mildly hallucinate which is the effect of the drug. So recently I smoked and I experienced my typical high but I experienced depersonalization and derealization. This is probably connected to the symptom of dp/dr but can depersonalization and derealization progress to schizophrenia?,9.565589743589745,13.400176353846154,9.875000000000004,43.5591666666667,62.384615384615394,12.948717948717947,40.06410256410256,11.855464076750405,6.631410256410258,353,19,45,14,6,117,41,65,0.037000000000000005,0.8959999999999999,0.067,0.4329,0,0,4,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,3,0,5,2,0,1,0,6,7,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,8,0,6,6,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300073511460405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956667812604715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3722355661680867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316587408378967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391336039661175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34607135219154833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169295976255119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22719170535552516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3336217220586681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535147591357226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KattiannaWhite,2019/06/18,"I need to leave this community but thank you for the support. I'm not really an avid poster, but i do comment a lot sometimes. I thought i'd be safe here, enough to open myself and ease some of my troubles regarding the mind and whatnot, but i don't think that's the case anymore. Recently i've commented on a threat about awareness on our illness in this group, and i ended up getting ""one of us"" to call me weird and ""creepy"", in the result of that people think i'm a monster because of my past experiences regarding opening myself to people who do not understand, and even family members. The person in question didn't wanted to understand or tried to, and was more inclined to assume things about me. For more context you can check my posting history, in the last comments you'll see what i mean. I'm not judging the whole community because of one person only, but i'm leaving to prevent getting this kind of toxicity. I'm already struggling too much as it is, and these kind of comments coming from another SZ aren't gonna help me in accepting myself and improving. That's why i thank you for the support, but i'll leave.",9.964836601307187,6.859561733031678,9.89797888386124,67.8350930115636,60.628959276018115,12.718149824032178,43.560080442433396,10.746095033038511,4.655078029160381,897,42,165,16,9,298,126,221,0.111,0.765,0.124,0.6276,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,2,4,0,0,5,12,1,1,12,0,10,1,0,1,0,37,32,15,0,2,9,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,11,11,0,2,9,0,1,1,6,4,0,2,3,1,22,8,30,26,7,16,0,0,1,0,17,10,0,5,4,113,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13601219304045875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12924098753398686,0.0,0.0,0.12223335605317387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15026715386168468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12585457779502238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10617111087432174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916512724357276,0.12735277474799694,0.0,0.08140711048993232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056459035681065,0.11619148304403708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12878868310041286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08261354931127915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25669701376286885,0.0,0.10046723367243347,0.0,0.3915197876776487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478486365224232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13425809970332728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12444988455878465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060476539921032,0.09139016327583788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16703816075023145,0.09373907637663947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11765845273654953,0.17089552211845424,0.215238649033162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180418200219291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380710019982158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895870432297543,0.0,0.12169696946748827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821628091772427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218998690598248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12885026870336946,0.0,0.0,0.2797309413133689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269486757028588,0.0,0.0,0.08188348097631601,0.15795044408767575,0.0,0.09784871354991702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08368035356214704,0.0,0.0,0.25662038794316044,0.14825757574071846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0726975148812386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11121620598961496,0.13760700900696832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Espera22,2019/06/18,"Visual and auditory hallucinations I'm not sure if this is the place to post this but I've been dealing with visual and auditory hallucinations since I was a kid. I've gone to the doctor and talked to a therapist about it this year but it doesn't seem to be addressed. The visuals aren't always scary but sometimes they are and the voices don't tell me to do things but sometimes they trick me. What should I do? I don't really know how to handle it and I almost feel like I should keep ignoring it since I have been hiding it for so long. Advise is greatly appreciated.",2.5144031620553338,4.735124930434782,4.391620553359683,82.19754940711464,77.95652173913044,7.312252964426879,21.758893280632414,8.296473431620573,1.2375217391304347,457,13,92,9,11,155,67,115,0.081,0.821,0.099,0.6166,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,0,3,5,1,0,6,0,16,1,0,1,1,22,22,12,0,3,6,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,1,1,10,6,0,2,3,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,4,2,10,3,9,15,0,5,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,3,3,64,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21204286772496556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17619780735664933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218310954373825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167410567378073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10707010618256782,0.1512784015883362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23346154138156736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882183042365716,0.0,0.0,0.11637546190935863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345319845732756,0.0,0.0,0.18739723895333324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2212397641202957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20280354281493526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13565620192743166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927745474082175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3503332084596772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4188638451934497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19957735626150808,0.0,0.0,0.17020130860144114,0.1850839219934877,0.0,0.0,0.24586483048673866,0.14068115890564234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636380671736956 schizophrenia,Feelingless1,2019/06/18,"is anyone here on ssi and how long did it take you to get it with a lawyer im about to apply again after 10 months of waiting so i can have a whole year ""sick"" to be able to apply with a lawyer. do you guys think i will get all the 10 months of backpay if i win?",1.560409836065574,1.44085549180328,3.3181557377049167,98.43493852459018,76.04918032786884,6.1000000000000005,18.528688524590173,3.1291,-0.8483147540983604,199,2,55,0,4,67,44,61,0.0,0.9329999999999999,0.067,0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,5,1,0,0,4,0,7,1,0,1,1,8,12,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,11,9,2,7,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,6,37,7,2,0.3057571451317951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21379250508387765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3194909773411674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027476447503562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302701849318698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705854518253956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4881048723017599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298913211928972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1959168326680451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413669333224994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19689757682309786 schizophrenia,rigbed,2019/03/11,Do you have trouble socializing ? I’m conducting a survey to learn about how Redditors socialize https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/2Z5ZZBJ,15.512941176470585,21.53142294117648,11.325000000000005,29.00750000000001,54.88235294117648,15.164705882352939,43.79411764705883,12.161744961471696,8.891494117647056,118,6,10,5,2,34,17,17,0.162,0.838,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,brokxnangxl,2019/03/11,"I’m a weirdo 2014 •loss of appetite •episodes of feeling like people could read my mind •people hate me and are out to get me •intrusive thoughts about god/devil •paranoia 2015 •panic attacks •visions of rooms and objects i’ve never see before. Creepy, vivid, sometimes seen in my head with 100% clarity but mostly in front of me •people can read my mind •intrusive thoughts about abuse & suicide (extremely distressing,, makes me cry a lot, for hours) •believing non-human entity is outside my window •thoughts mixed up •paranoia 2016 •anxiety •severe moodswings •thoughts mixed up •emotional emptiness •hurting self •loss of appetite •isolation 2017 •emotional emptiness •mood swings •thoughts mixed up •isolation •hurting self •short temper •more visions of places and objects (in front of self) 2018 •anxiety •emptiness •isolation •mood swings sometimes •hurting self badly •seeing visions of objects (internally, in head, clear, sometimes kaleidoscopic visions) •see door “glitch” between open and closed for two straight minutes, even after closing eyes/looking away 2019 (January to now) •hearing music playing like on a radio for usually a duration of am minute(bells, drums) •emptiness •loss of appetite •isolation I don’t want diagnosis! i want your thoughts on this bc the possibility of schizophrenia was brought up in r/aspergers and last time i didn’t explain well here... so there was confusion. So i think hey, if r/aspergers think i have it then maybe people who actually have it can share their thoughts (but i know I don’t have it obviously)",5.857724420849423,9.556943559845564,4.697064430501932,75.80285533301159,76.72200772200772,7.561824324324324,37.43737934362935,8.472884824447931,4.116074227799228,1278,76,179,28,32,376,161,259,0.146,0.752,0.102,-0.9654,0,4,0,0,1,1,37.0,0,1,1,0,9,11,3,2,5,0,14,2,2,1,3,34,32,11,1,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,4,5,10,0,0,9,5,0,3,4,6,1,1,9,4,17,5,34,22,2,30,0,0,3,0,10,19,0,4,10,95,22,2,0.0,0.10258195393620574,0.08448861189623534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938083070712921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13246539144741815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09849610803114868,0.08134381768269819,0.0,0.07228984608334428,0.0,0.0,0.07367234959793477,0.0975448814123978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06912628410305888,0.0,0.09510296276203488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19477943680896104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05718461096894471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04377694228824221,0.061852052752221325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04523395251334104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547883502702494,0.17771005791532987,0.0,0.09758082198271642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08526287202879902,0.0,0.2780538208562796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04758155251183428,0.07057343809536983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08459624931497166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07270455199784821,0.0,0.0,0.07360636715055054,0.0,0.0,0.05779215279080412,0.0,0.08698023948918034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1748402121336636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06677505990807199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10158179848611648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240091900814661,0.0,0.0904566244591561,0.0,0.0,0.09760481037803412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173204853001487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20697675355242745,0.0,0.3612831041718527,0.09780962287214744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568865255405471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09470337037221814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095265073488668,0.0,0.4811383685211372,0.05048490939738332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457509964339427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535453340095476,0.0,0.1021330712237187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784491601765632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,VagabondingCanada,2019/03/11,"It always seems to be going so well until it isnt Sometimes it just feels so real that I can't be sure one way or there other. I think I see what is truth but ""the real world"" and the people in it tell me otherwise, but how do they know? It's just so hard sometimes and I wish it wasnt. 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I don’t have voices or hallucinations. I am only interested in better sleep and thinking. What makes taking clozapine worthwhile?,5.669444444444442,9.432922518518524,7.146203703703705,55.85041666666669,83.07407407407408,10.107407407407408,32.675925925925924,9.516144504307137,5.261748148148149,136,7,16,5,4,46,24,27,0.0,0.6459999999999999,0.354,0.8738,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,1,0,4,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,2,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4546838639078834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3431689057794288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3909998209213896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5144760199060894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38654278306360496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294175585035202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,roxannaquasall,2019/03/11,The need for other schizophrenics Meeting others in the ward is nice,6.942499999999999,9.662881583333338,4.823333333333334,81.855,66.5,4.800000000000002,28.66666666666667,3.1291,1.1130666666666662,57,2,8,0,1,16,11,12,0.0,0.797,0.203,0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rr4runking,2019/03/11,Anybody has early morbing hallucinations with smells associated Few weeks ago I was in a cruiseship with so much crowd and burning smell of metal as if in a furnace... ,14.765,9.672282833333336,13.81,49.48500000000003,54.0,14.666666666666664,53.33333333333333,11.20814326018867,6.168333333333335,135,7,21,2,1,45,27,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,6,1,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,16,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6316266390163278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5238013084399485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5715592516629711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GenerallyConfusedBy,2019/03/11,"Paranoia Not really had that bad a time with it before, but it's started getting worse. Keep seeing laser points searching for me, now my phone is getting messages that dissappear after i've read them so i can't check what they said, not like an app or anything, actuall texts, had to switch it off, not sure if i can turn it back on, but need the damn thing Anyone had anything like this? Any ways of coping?",7.418703703703702,6.112318246913581,7.021080246913584,80.79236111111112,64.06172839506172,9.58148148148148,32.595679012345684,8.07648339933343,2.204627160493828,322,10,65,3,4,101,67,81,0.225,0.775,0.0,-0.9566,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,0,3,5,1,0,3,0,6,0,0,0,1,11,14,5,0,2,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,9,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,0,4,2,6,3,7,10,0,9,0,0,1,0,5,3,1,2,7,41,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.22459828776995688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15651343731741188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16092987642706744,0.0,0.37879625989554144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17697515229794855,0.19216998941127475,0.0,0.0,0.19584513467930603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24049319915543846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045725284630189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22488442313667173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706571742829915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21757106918941524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23021749644412395,0.0,0.14744332302082402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21893031274272154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18340390660440756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.162905044487499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169185646421756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15290489679612693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342053556614171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503427812009808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826864953747873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345478249350653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,_shambled_,2019/03/11,"New to this strange old world I'm currently in a treatment facility and have begun medication. I'm not totally sure of an exact diagnosis yet, I'm being helped and monitored by a team of medical professionals. My question is do you hear voices, and, if so, do you hear them all the time? I seem to hear the same three people, 2 voices I recognise and one I don't. However, recently I had a bout of paranoid psychosis thinking people were following me and tracking my movements. I nearly ended up hurting someone and then harming myself. Its really scared me, being out of control, the voices are not too bad, in fact, sometimes I like them, but I was terrified when I thought people were out to get me. Anyway, I hope you are all having a good day, take care, all 😀",4.423691646191647,5.877103912162162,6.0815970515970506,75.42458230958233,70.68918918918921,8.895331695331697,31.697788697788692,9.339509955726095,3.0762891891891893,601,27,107,13,11,206,98,148,0.11,0.785,0.105,0.3268,2,0,0,1,0,0,21.0,0,3,2,2,5,9,0,1,8,0,14,2,0,1,7,26,28,11,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,6,0,0,2,8,0,1,4,1,0,2,3,4,0,2,5,6,20,5,14,21,5,20,0,1,0,0,11,7,0,4,12,81,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13318132748146855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16262758370808705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17890018691545193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10286854518709657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412754813378213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08333560201546045,0.0,0.0,0.1337865473221398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5393265076290708,0.0,0.10691389492851036,0.0,0.0,0.15842601940411002,0.0,0.0,0.17075508746756032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07792685552775758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213721866201316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15405244402618992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16737531850638634,0.0,0.10808578324248096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33174532593948475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17868386872824965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218399630634634,0.0,0.15749349973744292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15969390766270447,0.0,0.0,0.1452087951780962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514940332892633,0.0,0.15775608118899598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503330591989132,0.0,0.1199290935172903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022053726288439,0.0,0.1266304034456664,0.09300956656586823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Rabies6666,2019/06/24,"Need some enlightenment I need some help/advice/information from the perspective of a person with schizophrenia who has come to acknowledge that they have schizophrenia. My mother was diagnosed with schizophrenia approximately three or four years ago. She is 52 years old. She has experienced most of her life without it, and has only shown symptoms/auditory delusions these last four years and is 100% convinced that they are actuality. I go to NAMI group when I can, but it is only for people like myself, with family members that have schizophrenia. I want to know your journey of coming to realization/acknowledgement that you were having delusions. I love her very much and it pains me that she is experiencing this, and I almost feel that maybe there will be \*some\* solace in \*knowing\* that the paranoid delusions are only just that. As well as knowing that there is treatment, even if it isn't 100%. &#x200B; Please bare with me, I'm still learning. So if I said anything offensive, please know that I didn't mean to, and I'm coming to you all in a desperation of sorts. &#x200B; Thank you in advance.",7.594475524475527,8.983192262626265,6.9176767676767685,72.59395104895107,63.24242424242424,9.324630924630924,33.412587412587406,9.466822959209583,3.1656755244755246,900,36,147,16,13,278,120,198,0.081,0.816,0.10300000000000001,0.551,0,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,4,2,1,8,7,1,0,4,0,20,4,0,0,1,37,38,13,0,5,6,1,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,1,17,12,0,0,9,0,0,6,3,2,1,3,4,4,23,5,22,32,6,17,0,0,0,1,17,3,0,9,9,112,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.12163797080854005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11049248016235973,0.0,0.12481645715848112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701110093073935,0.30292069034672914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10257426461494447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3221183299143197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12651457977360053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08232849236866388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11750656137436255,0.0,0.0630255167960881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07084004175974046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08354858590470451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27401200543181864,0.1016043418188222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804220930903023,0.06089646801940776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249922738402517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12522515868645925,0.13577765959674568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091630248166786,0.18484907066579312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13079657406465925,0.0,0.0,0.2844001016990099,0.13263371895375736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641487582530019,0.1088373814506024,0.0,0.2736510288287526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185683081332282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954364749759692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147586629916799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284723439324908,0.07352031982342698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207306416370237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015573347464355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30292069034672914,0.2408066928407515 schizophrenia,Agfoliatus,2019/06/24,"I'm probably off my rocks but at least i have friends! i have been dealing with Schizophrenia for about four, going on five years now coming up(things started quite young for me and i am not great with time,,,) I just want to talk about this because it seems interesting and I want to see if anyone else has similar experience just out of curiosity. I have a lot of very consistent recurrent visual hallucinations. About.... I want to say 11 of them, maybe 12 that aren't Pile members or just general odd shadows Out of these there's a few that are noticeably more developed than others? Personality wise, I mean. (maybe visually too, since theyre very consistent and much less hazy than others) I name everyone I come across and speak to them(not all interact or respond), but there are a few I have been able to hold pretty stable and rather productive conversations with. Mostly the older ones that have been around a very long time, but there are newer folk who are more complex than others as well. All have pretty clear cut personalities and are very distinct from one another, and have their own views and interests and ive gotten to know them well enough to consider them friends, even. Most treat me rather nicely (MOST) but theres certainly a few who are out for my head, smart as they may be. There's a very clear distinction between the simpler ones and the complex ones and it kind of confuses me to see such intelligent people among the regular shadow muck and distorted features. These guys do genuinely feel like real people sometimes, and I wonder if that's normal or if it's so far out there that nobody will even know what i'm on about. I have asked others and they dont quite follow(save for my boyfriend who experiences the same thing), so I thought maybe someone here will. Maybe its a thing everyone gets and i just dont know enough people like me to have noticed that. Or maybe I'm completely backwards, idk",6.248589566020312,7.396633880886427,5.966000692520776,79.08017370729456,66.14681440443213,9.562373037857801,30.554132040627884,9.725611199111238,2.7765317636195754,1545,56,286,32,24,480,192,361,0.049,0.767,0.184,0.9945,1,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,6,2,27,17,1,1,12,0,29,1,1,0,7,75,52,30,0,9,18,0,1,2,2,3,0,2,0,3,23,25,0,1,10,1,0,3,4,2,2,6,5,6,29,15,43,43,18,25,0,0,3,0,23,13,0,15,11,208,52,0,0.08482948765332142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08895111422379054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059314750151032665,0.08691783478588723,0.0,0.0755162289072358,0.0793041198167651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05171126831462665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14614618459434164,0.08894210385596561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0874554769202712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988390555052703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07086415185224262,0.0,0.0,0.1753030741945816,0.0,0.11205815309813316,0.0,0.0,0.16211642148115624,0.0,0.1659590328548514,0.0,0.0,0.04289233779843369,0.060602202929265915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13107810346462748,0.0,0.04431990609087461,0.0,0.04821055272969268,0.0,0.0,0.09352480961218597,0.0,0.08399452964983832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705952764008827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833685747767248,0.13986020379452055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08288680552896552,0.0,0.0,0.07507142714488897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07211899687166835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4261131110292979,0.0924041806709284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06235943403113895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311488689463127,0.0,0.19315786787872988,0.0,0.0,0.2299306249531468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764302571306422,0.14813967318601895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17260417138947334,0.09146053527277044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18045320397467532,0.0,0.09655452848780004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06745981338824507,0.0,0.0,0.1351962374978131,0.07722557958684126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07017182879056516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07187574960656695,0.0,0.08389853237351766,0.0,0.060042747975997714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06818272889185803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11271388447802555,0.0,0.0,0.06734513765101635,0.0989295128626414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3499660568831491,0.15010388902250338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15254379402449975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09199396077635258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05462740880473705 schizophrenia,lady0luck,2019/06/24,For those who consumed cannabis. How did the drug bring out schizophrenia? Did you display psychotic symptoms when high? And did your psychosis came to the surface after you stopping smoking weed?,6.267187499999999,10.083786343750004,3.3862500000000004,85.03375000000003,76.1875,4.45,39.25,5.985473137389443,2.8722875000000005,161,10,22,1,4,43,28,32,0.065,0.935,0.0,-0.2824,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,1,0,5,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,0,4,1,0,8,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4855497298709222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4923205336539233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4485397207025179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3549264590361338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4412496794255714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anonschizoh,2019/06/24,"Relationships / isolation On and off meds but currently on and seeing therapist, I hold a job where I'm social. I don't disclose often to others often though sometimes I allude to various symptoms. No one ever mentions ""do you have schizophrenia?"" even when I say I'm paranoid about being poisoned, or followed to friends or dates.... but I like to allude rather than divulge due to stigma and past situations of being abandoned due to the illness.... I found myself really getting to know a woman online off a dating app and we met up a few times but now I haven't seen her for months. We didn't have sex ever. I probably could if I wanted to. She likes me, and She still seems excited to speak to me when I can get out of my head to reply to her even despite me cancelling many times and being distant.... I like her a lot and we have a lot in common but I get paranoid and am afraid of things progressing. I'm afraid of being rejected when I would inevitably have to plainly say ""I have schizophrenia"" -- I go on other dates with women even though I don't let any get too close to me either. I've also been paranoid eating out with the first girl, deluding myself to think she would tamper with the food. She's the only one who has stood out in a way that makes me think she might not judge me, but I just can't bring myself to get close although I don't want to lose her either. I find myself stringing her along hoping that I feel ""up to it"" one day. She made it clear it hurt when I cancelled a few times.... I feel horrible about this too. I guess I just wonder if anyone has been in a situation where they did want to be with someone, but their symptoms held them back from progressing? My therapist told me it's common and that I need to focus on self care (I had a psychosis breakdown last year when off my meds) and the rest will come naturally but I have lost women in the past because of neglect and I'm afraid it will happen again because of the paranoia, and just not feeling like I have the emotional energy. I don't want to be hurt. Dating new women has been a distraction but I honestly don't know why I'm not letting the one I actually like see me. I feel so alone and closed off and confused by my own actions. I almost feel like that at a safe distance I'm in control and she can't reject me based on the illness but obviously that gets me nowhere",3.9211209766925625,4.980990102725368,4.971617338759405,84.40646781354052,71.45283018867924,7.540485879886546,26.81767172277717,7.827709963407826,1.5053298063879643,1857,61,373,23,34,610,219,477,0.139,0.745,0.11599999999999999,-0.8547,3,3,0,0,0,0,51.0,3,1,3,6,30,26,1,5,22,0,41,9,1,3,4,94,88,38,0,12,22,0,5,6,1,5,5,3,0,6,15,30,2,6,13,0,0,5,13,14,0,5,14,11,70,12,58,60,9,62,0,8,3,1,35,25,0,15,37,281,85,1,0.0,0.0,0.08137792912917394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08350439206837147,0.08636829001446411,0.0,0.0666880331844293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0567089782217096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05830917149316042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06412280139944,0.0,0.10166918699341107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08502303998240608,0.0,0.0,0.07183426482353808,0.0,0.0,0.09353049094226938,0.06658120807583684,0.0,0.0,0.05378052253468692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08533017064192654,0.0,0.09380404559094388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16523760235611776,0.1508645022638263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108258632180966,0.1191495954874002,0.0,0.0,0.07621818395880055,0.07093264047309637,0.10083715251820496,0.09143431199030284,0.06442795084237682,0.0,0.2614112339578234,0.0,0.047393226469601216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918649746378526,0.0,0.07374269619467475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08558358442636159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08282642756487851,0.0,0.0,0.17854433175387185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08275304826943934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09165941116229064,0.06797508107696883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705466124595715,0.0,0.2444448107326916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329359097307686,0.09103151039992437,0.14179268886060034,0.0,0.07890691253791975,0.05566437426867001,0.08454574102019304,0.0,0.0,0.18525798322598985,0.0,0.0,0.08846504507655728,0.0,0.0,0.06656218068665301,0.0,0.0,0.06183363004267765,0.0,0.0805398863414017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260325502136365,0.06342288011589385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159212960719792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08990998061185249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053422634742647836,0.0,0.0,0.0895311025222705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13263229863519205,0.0,0.0,0.13290421990174708,0.07591635389716703,0.08699536596415257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18747074473931494,0.0,0.08500698051976098,0.07065722100046316,0.0,0.08247617834915122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06659644054790644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17335108712139302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19364757156008844,0.05540150808150242,0.10686762092016236,0.1638631577119606,0.0,0.14587850197179372,0.0,0.0,0.07968400944058976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19674551741946644,0.0661921727947172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524772349028318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09043436281169312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11847764612597254,0.0,0.0,0.053701295885285626 schizophrenia,pocketbearla,2019/06/24,"Great conversation with myself I was in bed, exhausted, it had been very long day, I started taking to my bf. We had a great meaningful conversation. We talked about where the relationship is going, what we desire for the future a lot of great stuff. Then he said he had to get up and use the bathroom. I wait for him to come back to bed and wondering why he's taking so long. I notice that the bathroom light isn't on and remember that I didn't even see him today. Check my phone to confirm and yes, he texted good night three hours ago. First time this has ever happened. It's usually just voices. And I know what they're in my head. But this was different.",2.0944230769230785,4.314713628787878,3.3881818181818204,88.85611888111889,79.37878787878788,6.78881118881119,20.759906759906762,7.882392219407189,0.8421927738927741,517,14,108,9,13,168,88,132,0.018000000000000002,0.8140000000000001,0.168,0.9657,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,3,0,0,1,7,5,0,0,6,1,10,2,1,1,1,21,23,8,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,9,10,0,1,4,0,1,2,2,1,0,2,8,4,15,4,14,15,1,22,0,0,1,0,16,5,0,2,15,70,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13752577513446124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11929614217287328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336427991642216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10005503069748066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.162092435695762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024711338908756,0.14033660974037204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13196538794154605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08105632487253094,0.0,0.08817189766444147,0.13012740750712726,0.0,0.5131403484490563,0.0,0.0,0.13719330686521986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592224798756297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15278556638827984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08526307262672064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745950758480308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13189786160477926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14559211307119885,0.0,0.0,0.17663244658462188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16656657074068745,0.17574788291051266,0.0,0.14757745014360454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236296634484851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109811705742401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17760273627912498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332979262333085,0.12469885230402306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09046570087077148,0.0,0.14705835008885315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13399458395523065,0.17086917255653966,0.12801002936655534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13999330852317182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682470255173718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Majnoonbufoon,2019/06/24,Well I think I'm in crisis. Due for invega injection tomorrow. I think I might be a little manic but don't tell my doctors. Thought about doing something but if I backed out they'd hospitalized me again. Fuck that. Will be one of those nights where I lay down and toss and turn gazing in the darkness stim with my lrgs,1.7606473214285714,4.206873234375003,2.9100892857142884,90.48312500000002,82.28125,6.1571428571428575,20.080357142857142,7.447530270364453,0.6247794642857145,253,7,52,4,7,81,53,64,0.157,0.8,0.043,-0.8442,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,0,2,0,7,2,0,0,0,11,13,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,9,1,8,7,0,11,0,0,0,1,2,6,1,2,5,37,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22592361819949164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30072946599828865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716248516804074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29447723627437583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116885512124785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757230566491379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19909490251765966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261911584737002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568050089988389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765262755171145,0.0,0.2332542455951597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3195835470949605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641726547489739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chocolate_coin,2019/06/24,i don't want to die but i really would like to not exist,-3.127142857142857,-1.5480265714285686,1.4685714285714295,97.00142857142859,100.42857142857143,5.6571428571428575,7.0,7.1686216300943375,-1.1253142857142855,44,0,12,1,2,17,12,14,0.075,0.539,0.387,0.6838,0,0,0,0,0,1,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6462926174832483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042331017471137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3989350517822689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36730069360003786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44236760429352384,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,blinkrm,2019/06/24,"Has anyone gone through with lap band or other weight loss surgery while on Quetiapine (seroquel)? The struggle is real and I am up 40 pounds. My knees are hurting and am out of breath a lot. BMI over 35 and am looking into something to help. I am seeing good results with the medication but this weight has got to go. My diet has much improved and getting out is going OK. I’ve tried the optifast diet from my medical provider and lost 20 pounds but now regained that and then some. I feel like a new and improved version of myself and I know the medicine and therapist + group therapy has helped. I just want to feel good in my own body, not in a vanity way just get into a better BMI. Just want some first hand advice on going the lap band route while on seroquel.",3.6193859649122793,5.228029184210532,4.332894736842107,86.55859649122809,72.94736842105263,6.908771929824562,27.14035087719298,7.492282038375204,1.4296429824561403,604,22,120,7,12,193,96,152,0.048,0.7390000000000001,0.214,0.9818,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,4,4,9,0,1,9,1,11,10,4,1,0,32,26,15,0,2,7,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,15,4,0,3,2,0,4,1,4,0,1,3,7,10,5,20,23,6,22,0,3,2,0,5,11,0,4,7,79,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15549992326140022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11126734512641524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14073748914446346,0.0,0.17675747596111654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16092174512899027,0.11368245186200597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13535583487365652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662776383421318,0.0,0.2713116145133032,0.26694126630952075,0.12727073966092795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21332287191461646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035187838291874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08745364643943604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07774284451788174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13362906103948602,0.0,0.1737091134322726,0.1352865736542444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32061332088372435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11697880629292108,0.0,0.0,0.15368867539203784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18112469524721245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12680594944055476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12250599242385846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663571508301003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18197894018338875,0.18476211053861344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108038775076999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877179080769029,0.12630992940589145,0.0,0.38755476320976295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,constantlyhighlogic,2019/06/12,My mom watched true crime shows when I was growing up I think that's where my paranoia started. I remember laying my head on her lap at night while she was watching it and I would cover my eyes with a blanket because it scared me lol,2.8212499999999987,4.518011958333336,3.3483333333333327,92.43000000000002,75.25,5.633333333333334,28.66666666666667,5.985473137389443,1.0393166666666676,186,8,39,1,4,58,40,48,0.162,0.696,0.141,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,1,3,2,2,0,1,6,5,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,3,11,1,4,2,0,9,0,0,3,0,3,4,0,0,4,26,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22440878302363845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3778078412128011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4311496985737973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454653010052683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4170198095897376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3685626002456718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26056448510812275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358829992107576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615091668270925,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,corpsetrousers,2019/06/12,"blacking out i have sza bipolar and i notice i lose a lot of time because i get lost in and do a lot of random things i dont remember doing. i have a lot of conversations that did not actually happen until i find out later when my mind is clear again that i was talking to myself.. like i send lot of word salad to people without realising i wonder if i have a dissociative disorder sometimes but sza has memory issues too right ?? does anyone know what thats all about... its my biggest fear one day i will really mess up while blacked out and i already almost hurt my boyfriend once",2.9782051282051256,4.837986692307696,4.908042735042739,80.71334615384617,75.23931623931624,7.4150427350427375,25.375213675213672,8.238735603445708,1.718504957264957,461,16,88,8,10,158,83,117,0.159,0.81,0.032,-0.9361,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,4,6,0,1,4,0,11,2,0,0,2,24,16,8,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,6,1,0,4,0,0,1,3,5,0,1,3,2,17,1,14,12,5,15,0,3,2,0,3,7,0,8,8,68,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.1559305493700373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600051250918865,0.0,0.17633060930816166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11172785104678563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09740560095061593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030503788186841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18313149160099693,0.0,0.13983201389513591,0.0,0.1872709597461704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17980651302851772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14604381585844092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348290861076074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14130046380771202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17105691945721085,0.0,0.0,0.16677770439224915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08781559380052016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07806460145497991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17876248571088574,0.1744280492086855,0.5433859550687885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16134085836005324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819202933158921,0.0,0.17016956281868298,0.10827683902590067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077724308959427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10236461990809667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18100924845317234,0.1364585261793191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15803493573190258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12843196267699789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10615639502652613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09317397316100666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15403043479039627,0.17328383784223392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,speckB,2019/06/12,I’ve got a question for people who I’m sure know what they’re talking about Does anyone know if it’s possible to hear some voices and not have schizophrenia? I figured people who have schizophrenia would be good to ask because I have been but I’ve also been looking into schizophrenia more and I don’t have like any other symptoms of it and I wanted to ask before going any farther with it. I thought there might be other things like it that get confused for it(like ADHD and bipolar disorder).,4.244062500000002,6.29421694791667,4.4545833333333364,84.49875,72.22916666666666,5.633333333333334,28.66666666666667,5.985473137389443,1.3458791666666676,401,16,69,2,8,125,65,96,0.032,0.858,0.11,0.7311,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,1,0,11,2,0,0,1,20,23,7,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,0,11,6,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,4,3,5,4,9,15,2,3,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,5,2,48,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300832151480886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15310084528320975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26038232307376075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338648482656236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.357955953252052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11670488485468115,0.0,0.16290809276354118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21941592097353832,0.0,0.16753737897375828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10002364485890576,0.0,0.10880427397113128,0.16057744556481754,0.15311840355323753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157757379296152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104295577033828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18706358228104328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16076804887907606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20309600587231771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654517866142968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158287823044857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144655032836272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18043741402474428,0.1989877096513724,0.0,0.15387859907028234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12718950180739516,0.0,0.0,0.15198827627404055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292095292156484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13599912085341428,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,legitseabass,2019/06/12,"This might get deleted, but please help So a few days ago, a really good friend of mine started talking about ""the truth"" to his family and how he was going to save the world. His family took him to the hospital and I dont hear anything for a few days. This morning, he sends us all (friend group) a picture at about 6:30 of him walking around outside. We thought he was better so we start talking to him normally and he seems fine. About an hour later, I get a call from him asking me if i can hear him in my head. He sounded so sure of what he said and it freaked me out. His mom took the phone and explained that they came back from the hospital yesterday and he was fine, but they don't think he slept last night and was looking for a ""YouTuber"" to find him this morning. He thinks he's meant to save the world and that we can all hear him in our heads. Could this be schizophrenia or something else entirely?",3.3042779922779917,4.5896392000000015,3.6597876447876447,92.3597972972973,73.21621621621622,7.015444015444014,25.646718146718143,7.447530270364453,1.0085907335907334,712,23,157,8,14,221,106,185,0.013999999999999999,0.7929999999999999,0.193,0.9895,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,5,0,2,1,9,11,0,0,13,0,11,3,3,1,4,35,32,16,0,3,4,1,0,0,2,1,0,5,0,0,8,14,0,0,7,0,0,6,2,1,0,0,11,6,24,10,21,18,4,24,0,0,1,0,43,7,0,4,11,98,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11352528318186135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10538972806540052,0.11400840345518368,0.11972706024335998,0.0,0.0,0.09847701864932364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132664653666426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130772585879965,0.14647661406959156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225253305037203,0.0,0.0,0.1651875902185704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15009570519298265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069850670748438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24146377447857595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11705258284604407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978913078709583,0.0,0.1338213469560616,0.0,0.07278446270345415,0.10741805143453673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628711177832096,0.0,0.43302860934898657,0.0,0.08584183159196349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612199184750655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439318278075738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075455552476818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13586078124611484,0.0,0.149992656097562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018391351943553,0.12548025365322674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14058110785069905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204416655279942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182277687531146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11658904532179812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985936357997688,0.0,0.0,0.1812955422923549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12070334879378238,0.0,0.0,0.20587373539871048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16412265947032664,0.0,0.10167233898151223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845783462817209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15405102377352958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lord--of--Light,2019/06/12,"Am i becoming Schizophreniac? So for the last 5 days i've been hearing a single voice 24/7 in my right ear it feels like its coming from inside my head but i can control what the voice says and if i try to stay silent it just goes into a straight musicy sound until i start thinking again and change it to what i want it to be. I have not had delusions yet. And i live in India which makes me scared to tell my parents as there isn't as much focus on mental health as western countries and i am scared they will lock me up forever in a mental institute here. Please i need your advice.",2.6036363636363653,4.204306429752069,3.562057851239672,91.0758140495868,75.61157024793387,6.4928925619834725,22.01735537190083,7.1686216300943375,0.5585332231404956,462,12,99,5,10,148,88,121,0.066,0.861,0.073,-0.29600000000000004,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,1,6,3,0,2,5,0,9,3,2,2,0,16,17,11,0,3,4,1,1,1,0,1,1,6,0,0,8,6,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,7,16,1,16,13,2,16,0,0,0,0,6,8,0,1,7,69,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825978367439275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20637264957789206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19767354426277348,0.16096370339886332,0.0,0.0,0.20957984660613407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12050951031759805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944822413070131,0.13349311916284892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19177269696094232,0.19862388516727555,0.21060527043671465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523161796931437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09129056100832496,0.0,0.16500117155560048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473077926913785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37662270037248463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13736390684944175,0.13855463142435198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20748637951715146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20511662461540808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957777503627485,0.0,0.14859890353906047,0.37415975074079705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13226076484018431,0.19916834183538407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16332424056831832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197326100503128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126865957228551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021511526831236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,itsuhbreeze,2019/06/12,Question Hey I have a question because schizophrenia runs in my family and I’m not sure if I’m just being a bit anxious but could you tell ur delusions were just that and not real but not with 100% confidence but like maybe 50/50 if that makes sense.,3.7542000000000013,5.4692146200000025,3.916999999999998,89.24350000000004,72.8,6.6000000000000005,26.5,7.1686216300943375,1.1888,201,7,40,2,4,62,37,50,0.129,0.807,0.064,-0.3147,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,1,1,19,7,7,0,3,10,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,2,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,4,1,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30163947982384753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627636778966103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915001418087461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21318164580041374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25170840911669456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13044508244230754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17822781024833678,0.0,0.268242259033812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5982130763396328,0.0,0.0,0.30390997332784786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516489106123546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333740070215882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SchizoCakes,2019/06/12,"Online Relationship and Schizophrenia I have a texting buddy. He calls me his girlfriend and we met online but never met in real life. The relationship is a joke as we never video chat and have rarely talked on the phone. In my opinion it looks like I am going to get catfished. Therefore, I wanted to end the relationship, but have him do the ending part-i know that was bad of me. So I brought up my diagnosis. I told him I was schizophrenic. He said he was OK with it. I was shocked. Nothing changed. Then later I told him I was hallucinating. He still did not freak out enough to run away, but now he tells me I need to go get help. He does not take anything I say seriously now and blows me off after so much time spent texting. And when he does reply, there is no thought in his responses like there once was. And he comes up with the excuse he has a headache, is sick, has a sinus problem, etc, whenever I start talking about anything in depth. Then he gets whiney at times because I interrupted his video game or nap. That never happened before I admitted to hallucinating. Only, I was not hallucinating at that moment . I told him that to scare him off-which didn't work. It has worked with other guys before and quite nicely. Even though I did this on purpose. It still feels bad. It tells me I have to continually hide my diagnosis from any relationship and or friendship. The diagnosis to him was like a free pass to treat me badly and not worry about my feelings. There is so much stigma tied to this diagnosis. The disease itself is manageable. I can deal with the actually disease. I can function in real life. It is the stigma which hurts ever so bad. I am sorry for everyone else that suffers with this. My heart goes out to you...",2.768105612336381,5.1256332159763325,4.079693383539539,84.05609915725302,77.78698224852072,6.582176797561414,24.147749686211228,7.686295010490155,1.2601664694280084,1369,47,267,21,33,449,170,338,0.152,0.733,0.115,-0.9335,0,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,2,1,0,3,17,19,0,1,14,1,29,6,1,1,4,44,54,23,0,3,9,0,2,3,1,0,5,2,0,1,17,19,0,0,5,6,2,6,9,11,0,0,20,5,44,9,38,34,4,42,0,2,1,0,47,16,0,3,23,185,61,3,0.0,0.0,0.09110900357033082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06349016931937748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15365989713420808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08771778834263835,0.0,0.3118174483915056,0.05691333276662695,0.0,0.15889039272645414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953342534569403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987658732614278,0.08042411941806872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09625334714174072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634055097565958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779929633721765,0.0,0.16538414560093204,0.09646913063459782,0.10412463393173337,0.06166550506636636,0.08445234858196654,0.0,0.0892125270120481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441446608534812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14633523673343002,0.0,0.10612090245684104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09244423454192116,0.08256075870672186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11063582716549836,0.06257937682526174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09994722361025364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05130996640123232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13189036135602933,0.13683761292599328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07840156370052058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372653711975912,0.069227620813285,0.2160223384559358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958449679115614,0.0,0.0,0.09942874804870132,0.0,0.07100691149006008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110323429914693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0893359618284112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09930324261365832,0.0,0.2125354952238363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4009484943471183,0.0,0.0,0.08880977162996155,0.07424615432713677,0.09347283840893908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451244507627956,0.06608294492003597,0.0,0.149119924888217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07019749809460181,0.150083587768487,0.16320708271458145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09172885806252666,0.07411994240842211,0.10888165132084447,0.0,0.0,0.2676375810361443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055068027169146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13593902545549455,0.09481484925039146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,notgaryman,2019/06/12,"paranormal? hey guys.. this is something I've been struggling with for many years.. starting when i was young maybe 8 or 9 i started seeing black masses.. once at church camp, another when i decided not to believe in God. when i had my first full blown psychotic break i wanted to prove that these voices were real.. i started buying ghost hunting equipment (psb7 spirit box, downloaded apps, and a ouija board) i had a couple experiences that freaked me out. once me and my dog saw an apparition. she was barking at it and when i looked up at it and charged at me then was gone. another experience was having an object thrown in my apartment. I've heard demons growling outside my window and around the house, but i also know i have schizophrenia with the tv talking to me and music too, or thinking my neighbors can read my thoughts thats honestly what my first thought was when i heard voices, like psychic shit, but my delusions are mostly paranormal in nature. thinking i have to make an offering or killing myself so i can be with them. i always always think they're watching me.. I saw a shadow being the other day, i don't know whats real or not.. i mean many people believe in the paranormal and I've read similar experiences, but these demons scare me.. I've tried not believing but I just cant.. I dont want to live my whole life like in some horror movie.. any advice please. thanks.",3.778842208109429,5.874584239700379,4.4497508549096265,83.83644357596484,73.6441947565543,7.040482006187919,27.3390327308256,7.893859768569023,1.7918166096726922,1100,42,202,16,23,351,157,267,0.106,0.818,0.076,-0.8415,0,0,1,0,0,1,39.0,0,0,1,2,10,9,2,2,10,0,21,2,1,1,1,41,43,23,2,2,12,0,0,2,1,0,1,4,2,1,11,12,0,0,10,3,1,1,6,5,0,2,16,10,37,4,21,25,4,31,4,0,6,0,9,15,1,6,16,134,48,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542706967506542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08627812942585326,0.17954319798109067,0.0,0.0,0.0733676542699859,0.22626030337499364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09604334364659813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3646590619272896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193762064560376,0.0,0.06957894336162743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12644413005392954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3166059929313081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18353924214049974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10682624903718976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448846118604558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193622735597688,0.0,0.11858503185252232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07620460409261631,0.10541741904202008,0.0,0.09526722944946513,0.0,0.09059888926852323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0720161902852878,0.2187633384230032,0.10838816648320876,0.11752184407224753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22979475687453346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07479607169857988,0.0,0.0,0.1184288108799954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21583472927963293,0.2456007111155009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10801487798093247,0.0,0.08597290202136533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074565464162348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830575831035742,0.0,0.0,0.22909140303186984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11278813882131315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0867164231647178,0.0,0.09932893038591643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207391146257458,0.0,0.17130230923711454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07324898449309325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727047421632892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204532872988706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06947644330600099 schizophrenia,DelusionalRabbit,2019/01/13,"Can't cry Does anyone else experience emotional numbing from their meds? I cant cry anymore no matter how hard i try. Im on olanzapine I want to so bad",-0.4203125000000014,1.8093700937500048,3.131,84.01400000000002,98.0625,6.3100000000000005,22.025,7.554174236665415,1.4810174999999999,121,5,25,3,5,44,27,32,0.207,0.48200000000000004,0.312,0.1786,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499437535615148,0.17622362567815586,0.2582321588316986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21043259979097195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5536811816908814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22055113602928325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105368013556774,0.2834972371242517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24653144798935764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257673132272531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722331609298224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27994595578961645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711102627304049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14865246550300418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lanasoul,2019/01/13,"Catatonia Do or have any of you experience(d) catatonia? Sometimes (maybe 3-4 times a week) i sit up after either a nap or anxiety attack and I’ll just sit there. On the couch or bed between one and one and a half hour not being mentally able to move. It’s like my brain is completely disconnected or on stand-by. I’m NOT asleep during this, I’m fully awake. When an hour or so has passed I begin to be able to force myself to move, even though it’s hard. Am I alone in this? Cleo",1.0143564356435633,2.984459594059409,3.1866237623762395,90.20528217821784,81.77227722772277,6.812277227722772,19.01089108910891,7.908726449838941,0.590947722772277,373,9,84,7,10,127,73,101,0.091,0.882,0.027000000000000003,-0.6199,0,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,6,2,1,0,5,0,7,2,2,0,0,12,10,11,0,0,9,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,3,0,1,6,1,11,8,1,16,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,5,8,53,10,0,0.3890740304303653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20148167846883447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322918413048255,0.0,0.1488202841683887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22131393908263813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171676462338445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039683592315186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284898638273413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17426695466887573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3831595469787484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09504095918994336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954385793356838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19604755574261065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4135241205053368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26364663233466673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19240208234641448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19113162973054149,0.0,0.11343609799720827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15604585931375267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Vicent3,2019/01/13,"Bandersnatch Did anyone have any trouble watching that show Bandersnatch? I thought I was doing really well. Taking my meds, got straight A's, worked 2 jobs, was socializing well. And then I watched Bandersnatch and now my delusions are back. I can't get out of this rut it seems. I feel like I have no free will again. The main character in Bandersnatch has the same exact delusions as I had with the Program and Control study. It feels like they made that show to drive me insane, just to see how I would react. I usually just run away when I feel like everything is a set up. But this time I doubled down on my medication and I feel a lot better. Despite feeling better though, I still feel as if everything is set up in the back of my mind. I can't get it out of my head. I feel like I was supposed to run away. I mean this time I finally had the resources since I have money saved up. Did I make the wrong decision? Was this finally going to be the time I figured everything out on one of my journeys. Fuck. I'm tired of being schizophrenic and pretending to be a functioning person. Sometimes I just want to give up and become hospitalized. All these classes seem so fake to me and all my classmates are actors, yet I try to pretend with a smile that they aren't, stay on my meds like a good drone and continue trooping. But it's fucking hard man. I don't know how to cope. I don't know whats right. 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schizophrenia,KnifeHoleHead,2019/01/13,no idea what is wrong but i am currently spinning and lost sleepless what is happening im not insane or diagnosed i dont trust doctors i cant sleep for days every second is nuts i see utterly morbid horrorshow type shit i cant even explain too surreal and too scary for me to entertain it happens in flashes often i jut back in terror and laugh so much it hurts in fear but i have hypnagogic hypnopompic hallucinations sleep paralysis vivid nightmares that feel traumatic i wake up screaming crying catatonic too depressed to blink i see a lot of stuff awake now worse than hell no sleep cant stop walking in circles repeating phrases spoken somehow intrusive voices im trying to sleep talking to the surprise floating rotten head inches from my eyeballs spewing vitriol and maggots surprise you cant escape us burying me alive ripping my flesh but a deadpan man on a radio is giving me advice on installing lightning rods from his cornfields dead woman floating in the supermarket dead people everywhere i look rot and disease i try to draw i only draw disease even if i try not to i cant sleep i hear disease all day and night i cant stop laughing they think im laughing and cracking jokes for fun but its all too real and letting out these broken shivering screams until im madness and it feels like i am being smothered to death by the immense weight of panic and screwdriver drilling my head physical pain my reflection feels unreal it smiles at me in rage the voices need me to dance i hate dancing possessed but i do it pacing music helps me balance linear lines i saw my face transform into this black hole tornado my soul is rotting like a helpless child my body feels like a cage if i try to sleep the raw meat creature visits my window with spinning machine blood cleavers i hear loud banging on the walls i see them when i wake up they float chase and stare with eyes like the heads of nails staring me down like a casket also when falling asleep they attack and the bladed mosquito man whipping gnashing his bloody dog tongues flapping his meat cant stop to explain because theyre all here and theyre all staring from the ceiling under the table staring bloody sack head the flying killer insect crustaceans with the surreal killer textures i limbo to escape when waking the whispering and the nightmares worse than death by fire i am numb awake vulnerable asleep i see such atrocities i am sleeping soon i am too terrified to sleep but i must and theyre going to do it again and again and again patterns textures perspectives its all to absurd for me to care i see too many senses too many god damn dead too much stimulation im going to sleep come and eat im sorry i cant express 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schizophrenia,eatyerbroccoli,2019/01/13,Schizophrenic Employee Hi everyone. I manage a small business and recently hired a person who I believe is schizophrenic. I haven’t spoken with him about it. I’m really not even sure if I should bring it up as I don’t want to cause any unnecessary stress to him. I wonder if you could offer some general advise on how best to help him thrive at work. TIA. ,2.6118571428571435,5.011865614285718,4.324285714285715,81.87071428571429,78.57142857142857,8.571428571428571,22.857142857142854,9.23628265651192,2.1534285714285715,283,9,54,8,7,95,55,70,0.07200000000000001,0.754,0.174,0.8024,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,3,3,0,1,2,0,5,2,0,2,1,14,9,5,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,10,2,9,7,2,6,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,4,1,37,13,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19062273131619933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158172225232681,0.2941716300785109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28795908819387833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22380744876283867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851443637614628,0.0,0.0,0.2678514760468049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18788817012740686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24475885762491145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17957594843161345,0.0,0.27677567534524844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.321098064344006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641920717735139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533611202661394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039879360303058,0.2040715011676614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gettingbetter23,2019/01/13,"my voices came back after a two year break yesterday I was on a run, They said, 'I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, you can do this, keep on going I cried and went home and told my parents I had an addiction and needed help.",1.1021153846153844,1.937359596153847,3.3223076923076924,94.39769230769234,78.03846153846153,6.7384615384615385,18.76923076923077,7.1686216300943375,-0.03870769230769211,177,3,45,2,4,61,34,52,0.043,0.632,0.324,0.9578,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,5,1,0,1,4,0,0,3,0,4,5,0,0,0,6,15,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,6,2,15,4,3,9,0,11,0,0,0,4,14,2,0,0,4,31,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21493497550706828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516049094454728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255000620091621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165724869044814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11205133977997764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321530980895768,0.0,0.19776891135100244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17524606844498192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7117832705602039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14619264409410035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21892434863633947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875455950016667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18839612075336296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19259799198680927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18277054833967185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12696544633286044 schizophrenia,islandguy101,2019/01/13,"Should I drop out of university or continue? I’m currently in my second year and I’m studying mechanical engineering. I was diagnosed around 2 years ago and these days I just don’t feel well anymore. At home I’m fine and normal but at campus I have no motivation to go to classes or study. Depression gets worse and I feel like the hallucinations are more frequent as well. My psychiatrist said I was okay to go to college before but I feel like I need to see a therapist as well. I don’t see a therapist regularly these days. But dropping out of college seems like a very big decision and it’ll be hard for job prospects without a degree. My parents also have a lot of hope for me in university so I don’t want to disappoint them either. I’m on a scholarship so if I drop out now I’ll lose it as well. Any advice is appreciated ",2.6735714285714285,4.656889214285716,5.073238095238096,78.63842857142859,76.5,8.765714285714285,27.86666666666667,9.3871,2.643770952380952,660,28,133,18,15,232,98,168,0.136,0.65,0.214,0.9036,3,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,2,10,13,0,0,7,1,12,1,0,1,0,30,29,17,0,6,9,1,4,3,0,2,1,1,1,0,4,9,0,0,6,0,1,2,5,3,4,1,3,7,16,10,24,23,3,24,0,3,2,0,3,10,0,6,12,87,20,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347534825832757,0.12223930259384952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11027792431998193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09377617107558296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367589318154777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12275950640770188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11734204531436765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17786712580253589,0.0,0.1187723615558926,0.13996476481253953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091779062462007,0.19703040330455995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07204662990302144,0.0,0.15674256361528874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12353057900368992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13832412102090744,0.1369650006836126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368436578278904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021117211827302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15427390902976088,0.0,0.1172369514036512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102250494559019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13511191750385804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15312071997732046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13117369865027145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197755849778632,0.1255382342221403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202231528135368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11378126536270565,0.08133650913154188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4959516949133944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329298884504215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405310453434764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776051012674101 schizophrenia,trashmouth-0,2019/01/13,"Impressionable thought patterns- anyone else? I'm currently watching the Netflix series You. You get an in-depth look at how the main character, a stalker, thinks, feels, you know his motivations, etc. I'm currently unmedicated, and because of this it's very easy to press a certain way of thinking into me. I \*stopped watching it\*, and will not be returning to it until I'm back on meds, but oh my gosh. I went from being horrified by his behavior in episode one, to episode 5-6 and instead thinking ""Yeah, that makes sense"" and that's when I realized I was too impressionable to be watching it. &#x200B; I also knew a schizophrenic girl who couldn't watch American Horror Story: Asylum because she would start feeling and thinking like one of the characters. Anyone else experience this?",6.120038412291932,8.242330901408454,6.3966581306017956,72.19424455825867,67.45070422535211,9.67067861715749,36.85275288092189,10.018931242160765,4.2203014084507045,636,34,102,16,11,204,99,142,0.034,0.8540000000000001,0.111,0.7686,2,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,3,0,1,6,2,0,0,7,1,7,1,0,3,1,25,24,10,0,2,2,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,9,6,0,1,11,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,4,8,13,2,14,14,2,14,0,0,5,0,8,4,0,0,9,67,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13493698364641768,0.0,0.1828238482646672,0.2050309851130631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23596628493898464,0.34577703719804315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12974647760070648,0.0,0.20571806915843588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819121821359411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18818366104212467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650547980692472,0.0,0.0,0.1706345483521889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08815685442895091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09273211305273654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824351932754014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416945513418498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11263164321561298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874260812565876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286778382516228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943120506575425,0.0,0.0,0.1410696653415454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4324732257901547,0.0,0.1339564096599183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13922370082852714,0.0,0.13393365663102286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15641864727837945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986420527318208,0.0,0.2050309851130631,0.0 schizophrenia,I_WantCoochie,2019/01/13,Question I'm curious if this is schizophrenia. So I'm nearing young adulthood and I've recently noticed I've been hallucinating very small things. For example whenever I go to bed I hear loud continuous stomping (definitely not real) but it stops so long as I don't think about. Is there anything that disputes the possibility of schizophrenia?,5.504644808743169,8.567624737704923,6.365163934426231,67.53550546448089,72.11475409836065,9.31256830601093,38.03551912568307,9.725611199111238,4.672079781420765,283,17,43,8,6,93,50,61,0.081,0.89,0.028999999999999998,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,8,9,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,6,8,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,5,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439635617343056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684865981344338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33413503639897485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623601817564136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375247764141853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3342171771637253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321060997570286,0.0,0.0,0.3374394840605971,0.0,0.0,0.2927211745926201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478561121317899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19695666076157373,0.1899613430107738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24461279553199355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,patmail1990,2019/01/13,Any else get bat sh*t crazy on weed but it made them realize how stupid the delusions were? It made me realize how crazy I was... anyone else?,1.7402380952380982,4.128544928571428,2.3785714285714303,94.63309523809528,81.85714285714286,6.590476190476192,20.047619047619047,7.793537801064563,0.6544619047619058,110,3,24,2,3,34,22,28,0.289,0.711,0.0,-0.8677,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,0,7,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312599121165285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377855199996117,0.3484428829115233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5681712948165759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776730389880788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6435667236875073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CaptainPraline,2019/01/13,"High for the first time in a while I don't feel like explaining too much. But i just got high for the first time in years. I used to be a super heavy smoker. Smoking started making psychotic Everytime I smoked, which makes sense cause my grandma is a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic. I started of getting paranoid thinking Everyone was focused on me, but I don't know. I kept thinking about my life, and it sobered me up and made it different. I'm high but I feel fine. There's no paranoia. There's nothing. I just feel high. I could probably go to sleep if I really wanted. 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The book is basically about how antipsychotic meds generally create worse outcomes for people presenting with initial episodes of serious mental illness and over the long term cause more mental health symptoms (and physical) than they fix. There are lots of studies, etc, cited, but I’d really like to hear from people who have IRL experience being prescribed antipsychotics. The place I work at gives out psych meds like they are halloween candy (at least it looks that way to me) and it’s really scary to learn that sometimes, maybe lots of the time, they may create problems and worse outcomes. 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I'm writing a short film semi-inspired by schizophrenia (which I don't have btw), where people are doubting reality, kind of like the movie Oculus. I hope I'm not being exploitative, and I'm not asking for specific hallucinations from anyone, but I'd like to explore ways of showing those things visually. What do you suggest I do to achieve that?",8.870064935064935,8.472449480519481,8.927889610389613,65.34040584415588,60.68831168831169,11.336363636363638,40.02922077922078,10.686352973137794,4.4195740259740255,338,16,56,7,4,111,58,77,0.024,0.879,0.09699999999999999,0.6154,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,1,5,0,1,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,9,13,2,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,9,10,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,2,35,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23257342814098986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109518452749946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789832243564664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3303635724217883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3463692542322315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3249995736379486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23059463637733624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209758487171637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5280315308467005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362814597770836,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NCF_NIH,2019/06/02,Biochemists Determine Molecular Basis of Schizophrenia. A group of biochemists have isolated the neurotransmitter responsible for the hallucinations associated with schizophrenic episodes.,19.395,25.60832577272728,14.981818181818184,7.242727272727307,41.27272727272727,18.94545454545455,65.54545454545455,14.554592549557764,13.588745454545455,165,12,10,8,2,49,19,22,0.09699999999999999,0.805,0.09699999999999999,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,viridianvalence,2019/06/02,"Multiple Diagnoses? For the last 11 years or so I've had a bunch of diagnoses, which means that I have a, ah, hardy list. What's on the table right now are Schizoaffective (Bipolar tendencies), Severe Anxiety, PTSD, and good ole Depression. However bc of the small town I live in, my treatment has been pretty dismal. As of now, I'm completely unmedicated, and ngl it's pretty not great. As of rn, myself, a few of my family members and some of my friends have been noticing new symptoms of something, and I'm very much anxious about it. I tend to ""Lose my words"" in the middle of an activity & just kind of freeze as I struggle to even speak at all. I /can/ talk, but it's mostly just babble about my words needing to come back. It doesn't last long at all, maybe a minute or two, and I eventually come back to the present and continue w/ what I was doing. I even do it when I'm not talking to anyone, I'll just stop bc all of a sudden nothing makes sense, but I go back to it p quick. My mom thinks they're Atypical Absence Seizures, but honestly? I think that even if that IS what's going on, I don't want to know. I'm so tired of there always being something /wrong/ with me. I already possibly have some other physical issues (that I never found out for the same reason of not wanting to know that something else is wrong with me, and also for the fear of being told I'm faking it). After that stupid shpiel comes my question. To be clear, I'm not asking to be diagnosed. To others who have multiple diagnoses, how do you handle it? As well, how did you handle getting over the ""what if I'm just faking it?"" Issue (if you had it)?",3.3249090909090877,4.621888339393941,4.7192121212121245,84.73881818181822,73.18181818181819,7.825454545454545,25.92727272727273,8.364918446050245,1.6278581818181816,1272,42,261,21,25,424,180,330,0.139,0.802,0.059000000000000004,-0.9774,1,0,3,0,0,0,59.0,0,3,0,1,23,15,1,2,14,1,24,7,0,4,5,55,50,25,0,6,16,1,1,0,1,0,7,1,0,0,24,13,0,1,8,0,0,5,7,9,2,1,8,2,26,6,44,38,10,35,0,2,0,0,12,12,0,9,18,184,50,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10764328744620487,0.07800666816637693,0.08116521973553754,0.10568992191089753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07462162635199371,0.11019803817198566,0.0,0.06820570310034788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119136870818506,0.0,0.0,0.22501815626341656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520790338906138,0.10227403324255058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08401532992536268,0.3960243187761353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08148629623129043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19328257560024975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919567057079189,0.10976519756024372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10695301231516703,0.07536299305906638,0.0,0.05096321485924468,0.0,0.11087409581637887,0.08181608330122582,0.0,0.10754366124248543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20362318764677584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157806378005924,0.10721631647297923,0.15902432085496668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613398556793088,0.08632421881784745,0.0,0.10912785766166072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06511201732785535,0.0,0.09799702186733016,0.10625505622166936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11424347660345527,0.0,0.0,0.07170676825247563,0.0723283508290341,0.0752326855436815,0.0942095288762894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09359701859795512,0.1110555819124824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10996728444467706,0.0,0.19847658192431955,0.0,0.0,0.11402483664851062,0.0,0.10927267786689117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10029246355125844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08330286168486592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11019803817198566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22528462428348636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155195318042015,0.0,0.10197517003076144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10138656130374918,0.0,0.15680588560276065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250057415817699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11211358049057817,0.0,0.09320838815875968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09528725073487886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08048480659597268,0.1150690877935943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08770463247795128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21330019877361756,0.0,0.06281575521417512 schizophrenia,hauntingcomfort10,2019/06/02,"Telling the guy I'm dating about my schizophrenia Hi all. I need some advice. I've been dating this guy for a while, we are mutually exclusive. A while ago, I told him a story about me that involved me being on bad medication. He asked which meds, and I said risperdal.(seems like a prying question, but from his tone/behavior I think he was just curious and didn't mean to be invasive) He is a nurse, so he knows medication, and he was like ""you were on risperdal???"" and I told him I was. In the moment I decided to tell him I take haldol injections now. He also was a nurse at a mental health facility I stayed at, and I mentioned that I'd been there. So what I'm saying is, I've given him every clue and now I just need to come out and say it. I think he'll be surprised in a way, because I'm so ""normal"" looking and acting (you should see me OFF my medicine.. that'll clear up any uncertainties real quick lol). But he was a mental health nurse so I think he will understand. How should I tell him? I'm ready to. Thank you guys, hugs.",2.221032863849768,3.838019765258217,3.761150234741788,89.17346244131458,76.69953051643192,6.986854460093897,22.631455399061032,7.793537801064563,0.8768666666666665,802,23,177,12,18,266,118,213,0.027000000000000003,0.84,0.134,0.9655,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,1,3,0,0,14,6,0,0,11,1,19,5,0,1,2,33,42,18,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,5,4,3,0,3,7,11,0,0,8,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,13,5,29,5,17,21,2,22,0,0,2,1,35,9,0,2,11,108,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493382746322144,0.11333157144971555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10224183379810277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08694258398908697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119522766225548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10674965505158576,0.07793635246537467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110131707510185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077193867037356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797756745081545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271797767619373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07026317792406406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249223912113412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10736204691184938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392664505969318,0.14201285467799524,0.25759144103475345,0.2576860509747158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895987458041548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12526614278202708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14322158902251209,0.0,0.0,0.14552162438887134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12161490687083393,0.2033433704037599,0.0,0.0,0.10188013136241077,0.11639010579673804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13627140221761302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612750980727004,0.0,0.33524037615526464,0.11770737334526715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24576391778493106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443328693488429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13309666477711188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014816123141103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thebearog,2019/06/02,"Suddenly (unintentionally) Unmedicated Called the pharmacy Thursday to refill my prescriptions as usual, knowing I had at least one refill left, which would have gotten me through til my psych gets back July 4th. Pharmacist said it would be ready by 9am today (Saturday) because they didn't have the right size pills for my lamotrigine and they don't keep my trintellix in stock because it is too new of a drug just yet. Went in to pick up my meds at lunchtime only to find no meds waiting for me. Pharmacist (different one from the one I talked to on the phone) said that my refill expired last month so they couldn't fill my prescriptions. I explained that my psych is out of the country until July 4th, I understand if they are unable to give me my ritalin but could they just give me a month's worth of the rest of them (that i have been on for several months now, so it's not like I'm asking for an entirely new drug) and I will get my psych to write me another year's worth of refills when he gets back. Nope, they refused. So I am suddenly entirely unmedicated. My psych is away for a month and has nobody to stand in for him due to lack of psychiatrists in the area. Walk in clinics are refusing to write me prescriptions for a month's worth of meds even though my meds are in my medical file and show i have been on those meds at those doses since Christmas. Guess I'm going off cold turkey for a month. Fml.",9.143952380952378,6.534571585714289,8.892142857142858,72.86952380952383,61.71428571428571,12.761904761904766,36.904761904761905,11.20814326018867,3.782404761904761,1124,38,228,24,12,365,148,280,0.040999999999999995,0.9179999999999999,0.040999999999999995,-0.2567,1,0,2,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,7,0,13,1,0,0,13,0,23,7,0,1,0,27,42,14,0,6,5,0,0,1,0,3,7,2,0,0,9,5,0,4,4,1,3,4,6,0,0,3,8,3,35,1,46,28,3,48,0,0,0,0,22,19,0,2,25,154,44,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10251386781460346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09139595526140104,0.0,0.0918523076888413,0.15034865422161564,0.0,0.119191809361581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998277697974787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07805643867844846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10214236237013524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267499386175565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06457206744678534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935434147704963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15323265034516215,0.1875678893654614,0.055561420145525835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10769784698633432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08689695684890954,0.0,0.0,0.053728427385568364,0.07969054484117351,0.0,0.0,0.1062206540607103,0.0,0.0,0.04776245412841903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5429677091057633,0.09848674258469374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46820479158206396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18884177325879245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19874184178576448,0.07435377482093898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348975048351602,0.1859915217576404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044526592084107,0.0,0.08087122509614401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857883870092595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605243650004032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926686505749298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10177556296225047,0.0,0.0,0.10767301303259742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090628021462919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889719617381185,0.0,0.0,0.06295668147758116 schizophrenia,colleenk69,2019/06/13,"Would love input from this community on my screenplay Hi there, I wanted to reach out to this subreddit about a screenplay I'm planning to write for my college class. It is based on a schizophrenic, critically-acclaimed artist. I really would love if you could give me input and direction on avoiding perpetuating any stigma about people with schizophrenia on how I display the character's daily life. Any advice on how to portray this character in an appropriate way would be really appreciated.",9.460348837209304,10.30574201162791,9.366837209302327,58.542116279069774,59.11627906976744,12.461395348837213,39.29302325581395,11.979248473330829,5.360956279069769,407,19,58,12,5,133,62,86,0.027000000000000003,0.825,0.14800000000000002,0.8932,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,5,3,0,1,4,0,6,4,0,2,0,13,11,4,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,2,16,6,0,8,0,0,0,2,6,7,0,1,0,42,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24613909476721746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425808582722955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20110966660561744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416310322047931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17791381593229447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4546720712805625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17462533518928444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32272794600092714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14856829185688095,0.1999345789503337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5367956049732548,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Says_Watt,2019/06/13,"Idea for dealing with avolition Ive been doing research and it says that its a deficit in self-initiated goals. Meaning that if someone tells you to do something (whom you respect etc.) It'll likely be a lot easier to do it. Im thinking some kind of app that tells you in a way that you're not actually telling yourself (thoufh you made the plan) would be helpful to get my life back. Not sure if this will work but I will try to do things similar to it. Note that reminders or schedules don't work (at least for me) because it's still self-initiated. Thoughts and ideas are welcome. Edit: (Furthermore something that isn't goal oriented necessarily, though thats really hard to qccomplish) but the point is maybe skmething that tricks our minds into believing that it is not our own self-initiated or goal oriented objective but rather just a task or movement. Ive found success in breaking my goals into mindless activities (that are mindful) which has helped me a lot with school. Criticisms and thoughts are welcome.",6.764456140350879,7.644831568421058,6.54605263157895,76.33153508771933,64.89473684210526,9.912280701754387,36.88596491228071,9.928628108626363,3.7042280701754384,818,40,147,17,12,257,118,190,0.069,0.8320000000000001,0.098,0.8215,0,0,3,0,0,0,25.0,2,4,0,8,5,8,1,0,7,0,21,1,0,1,1,35,28,12,0,4,13,0,1,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,21,7,0,0,7,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,5,2,13,7,17,17,6,13,0,0,0,0,16,7,0,8,4,101,34,10,0.0,0.0,0.12596974693558505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925950625097003,0.0,0.07868989721019627,0.0,0.0,0.14543621620239833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13308245404954192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14396550584614476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14153662136529593,0.0,0.0,0.06744233835916222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156360973175886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17304784276297214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914457622506097,0.13943550924339765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344236655054859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09117757187650886,0.06306511539682118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21948935447513876,0.0,0.12214471307192125,0.0,0.0,0.1296846818871319,0.14061297886849672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606810170309235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202841258686307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08269608051196982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026547202254278,0.0,0.13064237140499016,0.0,0.0,0.4039959366996545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10937452382785157,0.1987541000570335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10308859972725712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12166244437977555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3384817213775221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857592965016198,0.08271338007110048,0.12682677434735476,0.20496043249691684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08764122100002364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10246280957618767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18795293510239985,0.0,0.0,0.09169930508014183,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Soomi435,2019/06/13,"How was the processing of accepting your diagnosis of schizophrenia? Hi, everybody! I do not have schizophrenia. My younger sister was diagnosed with the disorder 5 months ago and though she’s a lot better in terms of social interaction, medicine compliance and ability to leave the house, she says she does not have schizophrenia, thinks some of the nurses were “not nurses” and still holds onto one of her more intense and scary delusions. I’m so hopeful and thankful in terms of the levels of recovery she’s had but in all honesty, she worried me when she said that she does not have schizophrenia and still talked about her delusion as if it were real when asked. This reddit tho has helped me a lot and I thank all of you because I see how recovery is different for everyone. Question: How was your process of accepting the diagnosis? How long did it take? What made you accept it?",5.991666666666667,7.813558351851853,5.554012345679013,79.28805555555559,67.33333333333334,9.103703703703703,32.635802469135804,9.516144504307137,3.152817283950617,711,31,124,15,12,218,100,162,0.046,0.797,0.157,0.9608,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,4,0,1,12,7,0,0,8,0,13,1,0,5,2,32,23,19,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,6,8,0,1,5,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,9,3,19,7,18,14,8,14,0,0,1,0,23,5,0,6,9,95,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14961921134909495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577927650007329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289079593737263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14927810568249125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17131493131544906,0.0,0.176346160352429,0.19344416284211324,0.0,0.295412729181572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16128290974441914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313415640616965,0.0,0.0,0.1676432616177365,0.0,0.19475717158750375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787207274694426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14937090392167607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869928057143388,0.0,0.15971004148018556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13472392083986634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437422530359374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18907971471321405,0.0,0.0,0.19211619848545566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16055478823375538,0.13422594570823726,0.0,0.0,0.1345011342523333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720567685168521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695865277260093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12690658059654242,0.13566434306313566,0.0,0.3107922028189004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081516917915506,0.16583206004084114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17141107068984174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ChristopherBoone2,2019/06/13,"Have you ever tried to physically interact with a visual hallucination? I'd like to make it clear that I am **not** Schizophrenic, and that this is my first post on this thread. I'm writing a story where my MC is in the early stages of Schizophrenia. She is not medicated; she has not been diagnosed; she just experienced her first hallucination about 24 hours ago; and, due to some unrelated events that transpired throughout the past few days, she becomes extremely stressed out. She hasn't fully accepted she might be Schizophrenic; however, her opinion is waining toward that hypothesis. Anyway, the hallucinations seem to be everywhere at the moment, and she's trying to be brave and approach one of the figures she's seeing – a silhouette humanoid with no face or distinguishable features – to maybe get a better understanding of what it is. I should also note that all the hallucinations are the same, and when she gets the courage to interact with them, there is only one figure in the room with her. She believes there are more outside because there were earlier, but for now, she can only see the one. What I would like to know, is this realistic behavior for someone who's seeing their first hallucinations? Have you ever tried approach or even touch something you knew was a hallucination, or is there something in your brain always telling you it's too dangerous, to stay away? If this question sounds very ignorant, I apologize. I just want to make my character as realistic as I can. Thank you",6.535298507462688,8.538278500000004,6.719582089552244,70.75340298507466,66.23880597014926,9.986865671641793,33.17611940298507,10.241411754978122,3.7283904477611935,1210,53,200,31,20,388,155,268,0.045,0.879,0.076,0.7275,1,0,2,0,0,0,34.0,0,6,2,4,16,10,1,1,15,0,26,6,2,2,4,44,40,14,0,4,10,0,1,2,0,3,4,1,1,0,15,10,0,1,9,0,0,2,5,3,0,6,4,6,31,7,30,30,5,30,0,0,3,0,29,10,0,9,17,157,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660231412292127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051925272766507,0.10945185574053257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12358620326763592,0.0,0.0,0.08018559114213303,0.14527564625055844,0.0,0.14820058715432255,0.0,0.11633648121464835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14684219426142514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08483244764524682,0.0,0.0,0.1335103778122642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688095981130575,0.23797100486645115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3356636878374704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374484898586561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12954044860344524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07229096922221304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852764428025432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17560800428470075,0.0,0.13214965640915474,0.0,0.0,0.13251275764863518,0.0,0.13954320172421386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674048183952565,0.20008426483666747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255698579908296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12597900305830073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473549558941442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31446115838802624,0.1197491175963514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114534541276435,0.2025319077800348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020418709537752,0.0,0.0,0.15067867828643236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11497179808213265,0.12110440141102675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679211701929109,0.0,0.0,0.13693782691383394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10853431395307392,0.07758572722661371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09344227462304032,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EllaBits3,2019/06/13,"Not Sure How to Help I apologize if this is a bit of a ramble, but I would appreciate any support or advice anyone is willing to offer. &#x200B; My friend (ex bf) has been diagnosed with and has been suffering from many things over the last 15 years. Depressive Psychosis Schizoaffective Disorder Mixed Delusions (Grandiose, Persecutory) ADHD He has tried to kill himself 2 times (cut his wrists, and stabbed himself in the heart) about 6 years ago after being hospitalized as a result of his delusions. He was taking medication for depression and ADHD and any antipsychotics he was on did not help. He has been off of all medication for 2-3 years for reasons he will not discuss, and no one seems to know. Over the last 5 months his condition has deteriorated severely to the point where he doesn't eat for days (he's a very skinny guy), doesn't bathe, cannot sleep for days at a time and he abuses marijuana. He is also not able to keep a job, again because of his delusions and by the end of the year he WILL be homeless. He is from out of Province (We currently live in ON, he is from BC) so any chance at getting an appointment with his family doctor is out the window. I have spoken to his family who have informed me that because he doesn't fit the criteria of being harmful to himself or others (which I disagree with as I stated above) he doesn't qualify for any type of stay at a hospital against his will. I am the only one he has any ""meaningful"" physical or emotional contact with, and he has just shut me out. If we ever chat, it's over text and it always ends with insults based on his delusions on his end. when we were together, whenever I brought up taking medication again, he would be mistrustful of me for several days before coming around. I always broached the subject carefully and was never pushy about anything. I used to worry about how we would be if we broke up, as I have thought about it constantly over the last several months, but always stuck around because I thought I could help. His abuse of marijuana is what is really concerning for me as well. He is only able to sleep or remembers to eat when he is high, and usually seems ""lucid"" and doesn't talk about his delusions as often. When he eventually runs out of money or bud, his psychosis is almost unbearable to watch and be around as it becomes worse every time. I have no one to turn to with this...I have spoken to his mother, but she is all the way across the country, and she can't force him to come home or take medication. I just need advice, or consoling honestly. I'm very upset that someone I love has turned on me this way and all I've ever done is support and care for them.",7.050984555984558,6.607383306949807,7.43426640926641,74.71309845559847,64.3861003861004,10.874903474903476,34.13706563706564,10.371327730470783,3.3959027027027027,2115,81,401,45,28,694,241,518,0.134,0.7809999999999999,0.085,-0.9873,2,0,0,0,2,0,63.0,5,0,1,0,24,18,3,1,21,0,57,14,5,5,7,83,81,42,1,8,19,2,0,0,3,7,6,0,3,1,13,36,3,1,9,2,1,4,14,9,1,3,13,1,46,9,84,54,4,69,0,4,1,1,64,30,0,14,31,279,59,4,0.13648700182363782,0.16171477864130948,0.0,0.0,0.16403085274782953,0.13337351854086185,0.06049374598110105,0.0,0.06833600840990378,0.0,0.0,0.0545743030234838,0.17035217889452667,0.07394180472612227,0.08292332323126418,0.23203960394698875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04771744257797387,0.0,0.05615858652730757,0.1822535528217218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12480181422770965,0.07536958513753897,0.05807019290461302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07450422808393213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13915759474103065,0.0,0.0,0.1175714666859986,0.0,0.07374698053781886,0.0,0.054486882453878484,0.0,0.0,0.13203423733246006,0.0,0.11755605467433634,0.06926571691108728,0.0,0.0,0.07821296438459226,0.06985011490797897,0.0,0.06983679507023158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13966027688294108,0.0,0.07676475320169049,0.18133045819097687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234603071778023,0.057498092836267035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286677982872339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05272475951914792,0.0,0.035654412579797144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06757179513063001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086887716015137,0.1372265404497946,0.0721030055415329,0.06845379564950888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06772114451004428,0.06065795920988586,0.07550132264308032,0.0,0.03750484337940332,0.16688268474559856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0602602615840318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06159242397708167,0.0,0.0,0.06918819868357293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749925903529198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10894262269367508,0.0,0.0,0.050601691215853485,0.0526335949815768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13873068712060166,0.1038045152267298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06451216661052579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04371853415882244,0.0701656848763766,0.0,0.0,0.07730658325764825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12425264036694905,0.0,0.2312871938703149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13658557110404929,0.0,0.057822496864053226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07273849188527617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15488383222531618,0.0643186919807302,0.0,0.15393185903162698,0.05485154101504972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04533794963837445,0.0,0.0,0.10835543370192116,0.1193800025441353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046332857498075065,0.14845866475491654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05894047364361939,0.07516057488518096,0.11261607057967768,0.0,0.10833702910060147,0.0,0.0,0.06135910303470792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06930458779431713,0.06954595763453413,0.1454346751381833,0.0,0.08292332323126418,0.1757863085445813 schizophrenia,tommy9510,2019/06/13,"I feel like im honestly schizophrenic or something Feel like someone is listening to my thoughts so i cant think bad things or bad things will happen Feels like words are moving when i read them When i become paranoid everything is like flashing Feel like this is a universe im creating and only me exists I dont really hear voices but like sometimes like sound of someone talking outside is saying my name or whispering for me Feel like im watching myself from space and like my brain is completely differently wired to everyone Sometimes i get really happy and buzzing and its like i can literally do anything and im born to do something special Just been prescriped 25mg quetiapine and realised it’s a really low dose (this is just to begin with) will that even help?",4.377519623233908,6.741996265306122,5.1955102040816366,77.95361067503926,72.74149659863944,8.332600732600731,31.035583464154897,9.057496981413335,3.0370066980638417,629,29,107,14,13,204,89,147,0.028999999999999998,0.69,0.282,0.9888,1,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,6,16,0,0,2,0,15,3,1,0,0,22,27,13,0,0,6,0,5,10,0,2,2,6,0,0,7,7,0,0,7,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,12,14,13,8,23,0,7,0,1,1,0,7,2,0,3,14,62,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360173627837042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696505111197137,0.0,0.11220061917004967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11341050989375505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10651750398275528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10614224130431217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11906531872131634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06710069950818916,0.0,0.0,0.09707571454995924,0.09130453164788163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568403806634209,0.3628874915268185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05307773898844462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08983765972865472,0.108146801386344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145018091874445,0.0,0.06809511987686467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4389480996894576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4963282436149202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079764462459971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07726545701314336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161970675051467,0.0,0.19524772199059293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08079020654711397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721575072561656,0.15642130006717456,0.20095459560335288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165597373382215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349867061638505,0.06509618890860214,0.0,0.08065287031638158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lildarklotalight,2019/06/13,Recording your voices Ha anyone that hears voices ever successfully recorded 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schizophrenia,Quackwackreddit,2019/06/13,"i don’t want to go to hospital recently, my guidance counsellor sent me to hospital, in an ambulance (leading to me never trusting me again, i spoke to her about things i had never said before) I spent 8 hours in a PEC ward, before the hospital mistakenly put me on a treatment authority, and didn’t allow my parents with me when i was transported to a different hospital. i spent a day before having a check from a psychiatrist where we lied our ass off to get out. but now they want to send me back and we can’t go. we have started lying, not telling them what i really feel but i’m getting less and less functional, i’m having a lucid moment right now but my hallucinations and delusions are increasing exponentially. i need help but i just can’t accept it.",4.435613178767543,5.850000859060407,6.323599755948749,73.8514643075046,70.61073825503355,9.981940207443564,30.323978035387434,10.230975488527342,3.315706040268456,604,25,112,17,11,210,93,149,0.085,0.8270000000000001,0.087,-0.185,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,4,0,2,1,8,2,0,0,9,0,10,1,1,2,2,24,26,9,0,3,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,9,0,0,2,0,3,8,7,0,0,0,8,3,25,2,16,18,3,27,0,0,0,1,14,7,1,0,12,83,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15707643909135954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5214741612483931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13174179524063984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21342603489926615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10328861228745337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21345265060389676,0.0,0.23219070559697466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692259794705314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20117174181584416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15146884121131265,0.3151021022849634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22682548500554786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20535485291156624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308651064693932,0.0,0.20169893874171926,0.0,0.0,0.17445148111863007,0.19431424970262914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14458834455492356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785471420643746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357125923978982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409757887130203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CognitiveEmpathy,2019/06/13,"delusions of grandeur with a dynamic of martyrdom I'm curious what insight and recommendations others can provide for dealing appropriately and safely with someone who recently disclosed having not only delusions of grandeur, but also a ""dynamic of martyrdom."" I'm willing to provide details in private message that I don't want to post here, but that's the gist of it. Please let me know if I am welcome to email you more information, as I appreciate the opportunity to consult, even briefly, with someone who is knowledgeable about such delusions and willing to impart more targeted recommendations. &#x200B; I know enough to not need extensive education but I don't have experience dealing with people who have a martyrdom complex. I am also completely unfamiliar with some of the things they base their delusions on, so someone more familiar with these type of delusions may know more about what they imply for, and what may be expected in, the course of their progression. Thank you!",9.622426035502958,10.664795769230773,9.154846153846156,59.52765384615384,58.76331360946746,12.203786982248518,45.894082840236685,11.792908689023552,6.138845680473372,811,49,114,23,10,260,97,169,0.008,0.813,0.179,0.982,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,4,2,8,6,0,0,7,0,15,0,0,0,0,30,23,12,0,4,6,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,12,10,0,1,7,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,13,6,28,17,6,5,0,0,0,0,16,3,0,4,1,97,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28696196193909385,0.0,0.19439996644936453,0.21801322423406533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18811697720578047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36994537446457854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18538736426658886,0.0,0.11850428603657025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17550580797597948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29581129328598554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18346766344914425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13303661049495324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13645592200591594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12438625885142356,0.0,0.0,0.19694773256207093,0.0,0.0,0.17183341258483795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17715421162556208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4560623652083773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651845312974132,0.0,0.0,0.11919773829200653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10582573249175256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21801322423406533,0.0 schizophrenia,Jamodin,2019/06/13,"Living with Paranoid Schizophrenia 1.5 years This is my first post about my diagnosis which is Paranoid Schizophrenia. I got this diagnose because of drug abuse, I mixed cocain and weed togheter and bigbang in my head.... I started hearing voices and hallucinating people i know, family, friends,relatives and dead persons. In the start the voices and my hallucinations were negative abusive and commenting on everything about my appereance, sexuality, feelings, thoughts and to top it all calling me sociopath with feelings. During this time I lost alot of my self and my identity, when the voices in your head knows you inside out and know which buttons to press on to make you feel utterly uslesss and shit.... Well I have no words to describe it... worst part I cant stop them and i believe them. Another thing is that if im with a person i can hallucinate the person im with giving me the finger and saying opposite shit while in reality the person says nice things and are trying to help me. That just makes me even more destroyed inside and confused. I have self harmed my self by cutting my self, one time i wanted to cut my wrist so i bled out and died but i got stopped by some voices in my head saying nice stuff which i think is manipulating the situation but some part of me think that they ment it.... Really fuckd up that its the voices who were this abusive then suddenly some change to the ""better side"" for a short time, but what ultimately stopped me was thunder and rain. What I do know is that the voices and the devil wants me to hang my self and finish my life for good. &#x200B; Recently God and demons have passed through my head, talking through my head and its like i have 3 personality in my head. Before I got my diagnosis i was a Atheist and didnt believe in higher power like God or demons. The weird part is that I felt higher power chocking me, rolling my eyes in a painfull way and make me cough alot until i almost vomit, which i think its the devil/demons. What im trying to say is that I am so fucking fuckd up by having dealing with voices, hallucinations and having 3 personalities. I have alot suicide thoughts and i tried to commit suicide 7 times. This is just tip of the iceberg and its alot more but to put it short i have delusions that its real humans hearing my thoughts, feelings, seeing everything i do and hear what people are telling me and so on. I am so tired of this and i always almost feel empty.... This is draining my whole soul and I feel everything is my fault. I asked my self alot did god or demon punish me for my wrong doings in my past or before life, I have no clue. I also wanna say I stopped using drugs around 6months because i thought it would go away...which is wrong... Then I started the drug use again because i just wanted to feel better and fuck the world.... The drugs i use is ampetamine and weed. Since im this down i just keep doing it because maybe im selfdestructive and have given up on my life/soul and an addiction probably. Im writing here because i just wanna unload this shit and maybe find someone who has similar Schizoprenia like me. Sorry for my bad english and I just wanted to end my sentence is that I see my life more worthless than any other human beings. Fuck I hate Schizoprenia, IT SHOULD HAVE NEVER EVER EXSISTED I WOULDNT EVEN GIVE IT TO MY WORST ENEMY.",4.71589489372732,6.268892679626753,5.269833786936236,81.13993989761536,70.10419906687403,7.660044064282014,28.636890876101607,8.144726394080802,1.9529170813893209,2655,98,492,37,48,852,275,643,0.188,0.745,0.067,-0.9982,2,0,4,0,1,3,77.0,0,3,3,7,21,32,11,1,27,0,45,27,12,7,4,116,96,53,4,10,14,0,10,3,0,3,12,16,0,14,45,43,0,5,20,0,0,4,7,23,1,2,16,29,90,9,59,76,18,57,5,2,3,3,40,25,6,15,29,349,135,0,0.0,0.1719194861688345,0.0,0.05272671786312524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686429858269613,0.0,0.0,0.03867874131087777,0.04024487407788766,0.052405175670872974,0.05877069591745785,0.03289093700777851,0.05071658253024042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04305651580834288,0.04521622885527973,0.0,0.04544199963188342,0.0,0.04038407899567955,0.14741910936741995,0.0,0.08231280455432617,0.10898515932765504,0.0,0.08555262960999267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04938769196475912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05116543475602925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04986382634611431,0.0,0.049091066631920005,0.05019688011830787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243595373149317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04283843918955595,0.0,0.0,0.06389134772937759,0.04375034603224225,0.0,0.0,0.13040630627265265,0.0,0.045595712718956766,0.0,0.17118919377191796,0.0,0.046439507406772135,0.0,0.044206183324891665,0.04114059330208258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341423880295452,0.0,0.0927952729110792,0.027487845404526874,0.04056759755881161,0.11604953147087088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0477519902616777,0.2978284256784295,0.0,0.16353797263048725,0.0,0.03241910303927191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134652754512561,0.0,0.0,0.04299044390388957,0.0,0.0,0.1063240429733169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13665100010909345,0.07088841241552629,0.0,0.04270858151191838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0527978420380113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09685521508553664,0.0,0.09718147299814207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03730329279107605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032774450377674805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15712889788755027,0.046171379083778566,0.06706260155502035,0.2533910235988523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04632181958210139,0.0,0.05214736010783789,0.0,0.0,0.048621777821722036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05505176360579245,0.03098487345760923,0.0,0.047756168638489666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923152522053789,0.0,0.0,0.0770838139203652,0.0,0.3027413850458178,0.0,0.14894281629743858,0.040009339705412636,0.05436606908975835,0.0,0.0,0.04098085132102135,0.0,0.0,0.05414243314175065,0.10270235543331728,0.0,0.0,0.1617465262705267,0.0,0.0,0.055368169309917836,0.10581038963229804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038875229693930716,0.04227452796499511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06426522111967949,0.09297406596132053,0.0,0.1535906665809778,0.112811780887905,0.05559027553878351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09851321098451707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12531960317410762,0.0,0.0,0.11411146211640162,0.0383911446488658,0.0,0.0,0.04348736936366762,0.0,0.0,0.05399956594424946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034358234954649826,0.10576253804773604,0.05877069591745785,0.03114649559181842 schizophrenia,Diver_Nick,2019/06/13,"What are your visual ""hallucinations"" like? Interested to hear details about what you see.",6.629285714285714,10.631664785714287,6.52571428571429,60.744285714285716,79.71428571428571,8.514285714285714,28.42857142857143,8.841846274778883,3.503257142857142,73,3,10,2,2,23,13,14,0.0,0.698,0.302,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,7,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7697362781461188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33365573669978393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5442241371650889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Platinus84,2019/05/10,"I'm getting scared of having schizophrenia after 2 (good) 250ug lsd trips I have taken 2 doses of 250ug of lsd (not trying to promote the use of drugs in any way) 3.5 weeks apart (for my 1st time) but even though i had hallucinations i didnt feel a change in my mental condition as other described it. So jokingly i said "" It prolly means im schizo"" but after chicking the symptoms in getting pretty scared. I do have kind of voices in my head but its pretty much different parts of my personnality fighting over what I should say so its kind of like im talking to my self. I do not have any type of hallucinations (or at least i dont notice it) but i do have kind of flashbacks of non important moments when people told me random stuff but to me it seems like its extremely important and that it shows how said person reacts to things. Even when i sleep for 8-10 hours I feel fatigue and tiny details like someone checking their phone while I'm talking with them can make me breath extremely heavily and sometimes just start to cry and think that everybody hates me. Im just asking if any of you guys can say to me if this is schizophrenia or not because I have the symptoms but a little bit differently and in the FAQ or in other places i cant find my exact symptoms.",7.066302827607178,6.105342909090915,7.344664031620558,77.0680997263606,64.57312252964428,9.99805411979325,32.90027363940408,9.057496981413335,2.6335937366980837,1008,34,198,14,13,329,140,253,0.076,0.833,0.091,0.3982,2,0,1,0,2,0,18.0,0,1,2,1,10,13,2,2,6,0,17,9,3,4,1,35,35,24,0,3,16,0,2,3,0,1,6,5,0,4,16,6,0,0,6,2,1,1,6,5,0,0,6,7,27,8,31,28,4,23,0,1,0,0,17,11,0,7,13,130,43,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20889985270068112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572711519604304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06242009305853585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11179070302058627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832215757361027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124779940715772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21396556687955165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12000819891705995,0.0,0.11874769202125507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13526414207819126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035497215263271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093588751442839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10699612493377834,0.0,0.0,0.08588551462724693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10138885639492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10109556653321362,0.10508858115532606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10084014773101588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3318181026233231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198912951064839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15007760251490593,0.10262841888784152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06835060896318035,0.0,0.0,0.11154005199376736,0.0,0.0,0.10319181468541573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07527337468534538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11657934992641016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108856745281362,0.0,0.07098899606323716,0.08940887051610845,0.10698278343977582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20834856292579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19480546789908407,0.16285997101388724,0.2050339696624748,0.0,0.0,0.09321813255441908,0.10682211591788784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10247067454338822,0.0,0.08676041267827339,0.0,0.10127297915739326,0.0,0.07247692888421957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721975175525125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192882123848486,0.0,0.16460521743617287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0680278340428693,0.0656116866874639,0.10060426227180308,0.0,0.059708353714610314,0.0,0.0,0.0978444587125735,0.0,0.06952065467784511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843789345168128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08127775401333147,0.08213647620209187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Yusada,2019/05/10,"Schizophrenic Art This drawing was inspired by the song ""A Dark Design"" by Mew",3.265000000000001,6.4317712142857175,3.1542857142857166,84.91571428571432,86.85714285714286,5.6571428571428575,28.42857142857143,7.1686216300943375,2.121114285714286,63,3,10,1,2,19,13,14,0.0,0.802,0.198,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,trickycharms,2019/05/10,"DOT Medical Exam... Has anyone passed the DOT medical exam with Schizophrenia or Schizoaffective disorder? I have to do the medical exam to become a delivery driver for this job driving a truck (non CDL) I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. I am scared I will fail this and not get the job. I already gave my two week notice in, a week go at my current job. Please tell me there are delivery drivers or truck drivers that have schizophrenia.",5.551703958691912,7.986108783132536,5.810189328743548,74.5253012048193,69.60240963855422,9.562134251290876,33.54388984509467,9.957137785484203,3.966550430292599,371,18,58,10,7,118,55,83,0.14,0.8320000000000001,0.027000000000000003,-0.8591,4,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,6,0,8,5,0,0,0,6,11,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,2,0,8,0,7,8,0,8,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,2,3,38,11,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18495541497650306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719276157366898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18510568345100525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17011474648763494,0.0,0.0,0.3841778935287853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08756628282593958,0.0,0.09525333575542856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4989639540568137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5065308302581462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190818505504538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839790934712397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16780105436062706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14649346818171408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16372496065253694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688839772427242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Grizzlymemme,2019/05/10,"I weirdly enjoyed my time in the psych hospital I’m just wondering I’m if alone in feeling this way- in day to day life I’m usually crippled by anxiety that I’m not acting the right way, that I’m weird, off. When I was in the psych ward I felt happy talking to people there because I didn’t feel overwhelmed by that anxiety because everyone is in the same boat. I felt safer in a way. I had fun.",1.3142857142857132,3.2208063809523857,3.5359523809523807,88.4132142857143,80.42857142857143,7.057142857142857,27.16666666666667,8.07648339933343,1.8161952380952384,312,14,67,6,8,107,52,84,0.109,0.705,0.18600000000000005,0.8176,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,1,5,0,4,1,0,0,0,9,14,2,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,5,4,7,3,11,9,1,17,0,1,0,0,1,8,0,2,5,37,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21108382092385256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31182541709961104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484791635587185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628788456041428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19474746086133204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20610309061435672,0.0,0.3913756502134947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21695760951031928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143955752888277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412949380508348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17405108184016754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638133041054001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884219536937743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22446592898866224,0.0,0.0,0.4853203674550306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22102128966440426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,whip1129,2019/05/10,"Question for those with schizophrenia So I have a brother that is schizophrenic, and he started showing symptoms around age 16 or 17. Today, he is in his mid 20s and I realized that he is always reflecting and talking about experiences and the general culture he was in when he was 17. It seems like he is “stuck” in that age mindset and it’s difficult for him to develop new interests and conversations outside of matters relating to when he was that age. The question I have for you guys is that I was wondering if he was a special case or if this is something common for those that deal with this mental illness?",8.126153846153848,7.407426871794872,8.151752136752139,71.35019230769231,62.33333333333334,11.56068376068376,41.72222222222222,10.864195022040775,4.655314529914532,492,26,87,11,6,160,68,117,0.061,0.8690000000000001,0.07,0.0258,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,4,0,13,3,0,0,0,21,17,13,0,2,4,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,12,9,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,0,7,3,14,11,0,14,0,0,0,0,19,5,0,8,10,63,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19939015900271545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21332022350258584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470465243447811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344027137819491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372699497469377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11707041080251887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24148922825734398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23143475744191974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5368776598036432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21814884212263974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18447777345647015,0.0,0.0,0.16961032884312896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490658270249457,0.0,0.19260436036993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271398568036941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598669525434857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,d1no22,2019/05/10,"Could this be schizophrenia? Hello, this is my first post on this subreddit. I've been thinking about some things that happened to me when I was a child, and I'm a bit afraid. Before I start, apologies in advance if my post breaks any of the rules. So, I think it started when I was 8 or 9. Whenever I go to the bathroom, there's my imaginary friend waiting for me, sitting on the blue box just under the sink. He had blonde hair, black jeans and most importantly, blue shirt. Blue shirt is something I remember most clearly about him (plain royal blue dressing shirt). He looked like my neighbour, but that's still pretty far away from reality. I didn't mind having him around, he was there when I was bored. He spoke, I kept silent, because I know they cannot see him. However, it all went south when I was 10. He told me to try and make a fire in the woodshed, because noone is there most of the time (it was summer), so I tried it. It wasn't anything dangerous, I was far away from the woods, but still I don't know. Fire lasted for 5 mins and dad came in. That changed relationship with my parents forever. Fast forward to when I was 12, my brother, a friend and I decided to go cycling. We came on top of a small hill (it's slope wasn't steep almost at all), and it was the first time I saw him outside the bathroom. He told me to go down there, like those Red Bull ads showed, so, being the moron I am, I went down. I crashed quite bad, since I hit a stone and inertia made me jump off my bike, and because my leg was trapped between the pedal and metal bars, I hit my head on the ground, and stayed down for an hour or two. Maybe three. I just remember looking at the cloudless sky, wanting at least some strength to remove my foot which had a gear in it. Parents thought I was faking, despite blood everywhere, green clothes and pale look for the next 10 days. Now, this was all a long time ago and I didn't pay much attention to it. Blue guy stopped visiting me, and parents told me all of that isn't real (they don't believe in mental health) It's not until high school I started thinking about it as something bad, when I was telling my girlfriend about it. Until that, I didn't see it neither as good nor bad. At 17, as a senior high school student, I got my first classes of Psychology, and we were talking about mental disorders. After that I was a bit scared, but it got away. However, what started to scare me happened a year later. I stumbled upon a movie ""A Beautiful Mind"", and after watching it, I was confused as much as terrified. Another thing about this is the fact that I don't have a sense of time. Blue shirt guy might've appeared when I was 6, or 10, or never even be there. I would never share this kind of experience, but I saw him in a dream couple of nights ago and I'm horryfied. &#x200B; EDIT: fixed last sentence.",3.928848511383536,4.873626225919441,4.4637648861646255,88.48492929071804,71.32924693520141,7.391260945709282,28.285507880910693,7.554174236665415,1.4506591593695273,2209,80,470,24,40,701,270,571,0.10300000000000001,0.823,0.07400000000000001,-0.9722,6,1,2,0,0,0,94.0,2,0,2,7,28,19,2,4,31,0,42,11,9,2,8,71,84,43,0,4,12,5,3,2,4,1,1,1,0,3,33,22,1,3,10,4,1,13,15,11,0,5,40,22,65,8,64,37,15,95,0,0,18,0,38,34,0,13,47,303,98,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958277216200748,0.0,0.07319078414327361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07919483146295939,0.0888144214490404,0.049704865590930326,0.07664302532034148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06014824511927198,0.06506711348969245,0.0,0.0,0.20601618768279886,0.0,0.18308556104853926,0.13366807424627705,0.0,0.06219565720821089,0.08234932155484212,0.0,0.0,0.15959442180886896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671948765601042,0.0,0.0,0.07732133191731523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058357778645786125,0.08087458098111602,0.0,0.047138102780579866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08376942590999516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04827638158440222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0714977123571085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18651529993756694,0.0,0.0,0.11294093941877635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12461910047377152,0.06130585405732941,0.1169162265436205,0.0,0.0,0.14474455815194176,0.1292695060855786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07501317593964044,0.07769306413259804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15445079797510597,0.0,0.0,0.07198060588852717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07611376275003265,0.08033857873710297,0.11915898943740373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07141782978565157,0.0,0.0,0.0646838585633032,0.18413586989744135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06916113823385968,0.04878928042770285,0.0,0.0734304415249544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731849389205592,0.07753874805916597,0.1476035712098566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10746162593053747,0.0,0.11274565719067588,0.0,0.07773385711443853,0.06859161345662135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434790646183955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14000329730412758,0.07436054058253612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07774202494289126,0.0,0.08319436171497502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847313699920691,0.16559730600959496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14635509463355836,0.1479454145939096,0.1164892508000585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06046221340453455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125391303715038,0.0,0.0,0.20693873904039206,0.07790603200802325,0.11674225951758932,0.061107937926601914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058748343542064325,0.06388537152113284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711776156360806,0.14050263909954366,0.0,0.05802664907831185,0.1704814431033299,0.0,0.0,0.2095267682397435,0.0,0.09924893919883092,0.0,0.0713999748138654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04311138114991153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13551348499067106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05192224988782156,0.0,0.0888144214490404,0.04706866139610781 schizophrenia,headguts,2019/05/10,"[Serious] Who here lives a healthy lifestyle? I'm curious as to how many sz's eat a low inflammation diet (low/ no refined carbs like bread, pasta, sweets, no alcohol, plenty of veggies and leafy greens), exercise regularly (3-5 times a week), and fast at least 12 hours out of 24 (stop eating calorie-containing foods). If you adhere to the aforementioned lifestyle, how would you describe your symptoms vs before you took on this diet/ exercise regimen? I ask because of the mountain of evidence concerning the inflammation/ glutathione/ dopamine connection...especially the recent study on sulforaphane via Johns Hopkins SZ Center.. Only honest responses, please.",10.814434250764528,11.484301100917433,9.682155963302755,58.00317278287463,56.3394495412844,13.13822629969419,45.689602446483185,12.45797560212912,6.4725584097859326,536,30,70,16,6,168,90,109,0.057,0.797,0.146,0.8796,0,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,0,4,0,0,3,6,0,0,7,0,1,11,0,2,0,9,4,6,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,3,8,1,0,2,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,2,5,3,11,2,1,14,0,2,1,0,6,7,0,1,7,35,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449292086855804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142571626493792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13970913051796352,0.0,0.19501966882255284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4690272165983036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771315738590236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22570119124288404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196827992505322,0.0,0.20237467226227734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323577539317509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743056219483846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515764542199024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22629267080713875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916090343250162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382111077335861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336396947422765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25463311678178274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18383849032782626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16280654361037938,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PopularLemon,2019/05/10,"I am starting to hear voices that come from nowhere So this isnt anything new but i know for sure that i hear these voices in my head. Something happened today that freaked me out and thats why i decided to write this. So in the morning i was getting up and everyone was asleep, i picked up my baby brother from his bed since he was awake and took him to his play-room while i was in the bathroom. Just a second before shutting the bathroom door i hear my mom loudly yelling my name. I opened the door really fast and yelled Mom?! but when i looked over i just saw that she was asleep. I said mom? again but she was just asleep. I also hear then and now my baby brothers laughs and cries even tho im alone in the house. That happened to me 2 days ago when i was going to shower. I do hear other voices too but not often, but at first i dont realise that they are voices its just few seconds later that i realise that i heard voices. I do have stress, anxiety and depression, well im getting happier these few months but stress and axiety are huge problems for me.",1.5435362802335248,3.707799550458721,2.6727105921601333,93.54974979149291,81.0183486238532,5.248040033361135,21.37698081734779,6.351523495107088,0.2355155963302753,834,25,177,7,22,266,118,218,0.124,0.7979999999999999,0.078,-0.8779,1,1,1,0,1,0,18.0,0,0,1,1,16,8,0,2,6,0,15,4,4,1,1,30,33,22,0,1,11,5,0,0,0,0,0,15,4,0,15,11,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,5,1,3,11,17,33,3,18,22,2,30,0,1,2,0,21,12,0,1,15,125,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971750637027402,0.0,0.0,0.11353740551071195,0.0,0.08766627503108315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386206170333912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09021121332032997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09328195176571004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944313712065857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041681897699298,0.07069841251431677,0.0,0.09441899254503336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284785142554591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240561962877218,0.0,0.0,0.1047504320284738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09324612035262893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454803327299283,0.0,0.062301846791675275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938802863853358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125058528824499,0.0,0.6177710890942764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12649138025078666,0.0,0.0,0.23682546810863306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06024648474725646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09205655241923966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3851709197115472,0.08750083275971053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587554452912032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10489536515361267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07022794295465233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427752982865536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09068210752350207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08439391271263608,0.0,0.0,0.07759243305766649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511478485014123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10331932481842024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391073617968856,0.0,0.1217963001424388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09856514337868116,0.0,0.0989186111504979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mylenefarmer,2019/05/10,"Religious Ideation/Hallucinations? So to make a long story short I'm on medication, and it has helped a ton with the nonvisual hallucinations and delusions like I was the anti-christ, that I was possessed by demons and they gave me powers, but I realize I still have hard held beliefs about seeing God and being able to communicate with him through clicks in my ears. How do I get at these firmer held beliefs? I don't know where I would even begin to orient my life if I didn't believe that I could communicate with God. The very strange part is growing up I was never really religious then I had my first suicide attempt and suddenly I was hyperreligious. I would chase birds around town while fasting for weeks and praying because I thought I could see and communicate with God. It's strange to think how much a medication can help. Abilify helped me tremendously but I had to quit it due to the impulsiveness and weight gain it gave me. Now I'm on Latuda and it helps, but not as much as the Abilify. Anyway, am I alone in this? Any of you suffer from any of these things too? What has helped?",3.963101632438125,6.058430999999999,4.752282780410745,81.86964586624542,73.12322274881518,8.101211163770406,27.36203264876251,8.841846274778883,2.1140550816219057,875,33,171,18,18,282,128,211,0.094,0.779,0.127,0.7295,1,1,0,0,0,1,19.0,0,1,1,5,11,2,0,0,8,0,20,5,1,3,1,35,34,20,1,5,5,0,2,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,12,14,1,2,6,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,12,6,26,1,26,17,4,23,4,1,3,0,10,10,0,1,13,123,38,0,0.14931461017984746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15464490521599955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030781102769035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13292165959574262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09102080047752896,0.0,0.0,0.16822643422451924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384311327763971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09862089180416199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700693114157427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07801072108570352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13375656234280267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5004121789332555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08205940484043933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546532492765688,0.07294757636158923,0.0,0.0,0.1321387313523993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996686617419979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008375221249937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21952683768285974,0.0,0.11516063232443342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616931722222338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15881446742492594,0.0,0.0,0.09565476270031717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237968824971179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11924284056717108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633259487948627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09919799227995094,0.09567477314353552,0.0,0.11853912187899385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12320019088937575,0.0,0.0,0.11977117376782832,0.18182496960886946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121376300526198,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,showmedawaee,2019/05/10,"I’m almost certain my mum is showing signs of schizophrenia and I need help. Mum (F52) has what I think early stages of schizophrenia. I’m (F24) living with my family; dad (54) and brother (22). The last 2 years, all our mental health states have greatly been distorted because of Mum. The last few years she has said that the government is out to get her and that doctors have put something in her heart to track her and to alter her mood. She believes we’re being controlled by other people when we don’t react the way she wants us to. She currently thinks that a TV presenter of our local station has something to do with it. She has hired private investigators in the past (who’s she’s told me about but hides from everyone else as I tend to be the peace maker and understandable one). At first, I tried to go with everything she has said, with logic, so I wasn’t completely enabling her, but I wasn’t pushing her away either and telling her she’s crazy like my dad and brother have done (this is over a period of time we’re they just give up for the night, but guilt comes a cross them and they try again the next day). I’ve suggested mum to go see a doctor after but usually she yells back saying “I’m not crazy!”. I’ve taken anti depressants for almost 8years and have had serve depression/anxiety for a very long time and I explained to mum that we’re not crazy but medication helps the brain process deal with a few things so we can continue on with life. Her condition is getting worse and I really don’t know what to do. She won’t listen to us (only family she has in the country and has no friends) and she won’t go to our family doctor who has known her for YEARS. Any help would be appreciated..",3.732882923528084,5.169547956011733,4.577785923753666,85.60206350101511,72.37243401759531,7.944101060230093,25.1388450259418,8.502166056373571,1.535780870742161,1347,41,276,23,26,435,184,341,0.078,0.868,0.054000000000000006,-0.8062,1,0,2,0,0,0,38.0,7,0,3,3,8,7,0,1,16,0,32,8,2,3,2,50,56,22,0,3,9,9,0,1,1,3,6,5,0,0,12,23,0,1,7,2,0,7,9,2,0,2,9,6,43,4,41,41,4,43,0,1,1,0,56,10,0,2,24,177,55,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20811019745225867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0706652450410803,0.0,0.07949410745301032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09763084701370166,0.0799036345866884,0.0,0.06334515483534503,0.0,0.0,0.11707576144620888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116002655830821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08951291462623959,0.10895210122981792,0.0,0.11654865364366206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06701608673837997,0.10713101626143164,0.0895011807070921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3190818766813366,0.0,0.10634034347104536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08680701165641329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992945073169981,0.09339141646101304,0.0,0.2938832856612558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08838939754557781,0.0,0.0,0.08028388231527511,0.0,0.10858180064480487,0.09968400561778684,0.17717056805370274,0.0,0.0,0.11456581396891345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045597547947512,0.0,0.1231388720613544,0.2089545694372035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05710854747533426,0.1694079460296963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07339769923196532,0.05076724765378016,0.0,0.09175817573038196,0.09196083041843002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468266220089943,0.10472111076249037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.077051090599135,0.0,0.0,0.1105139707285004,0.0975164727849028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07041497682104322,0.07903146036380101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991978980735091,0.0720410484331459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10446251024385192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06657012157881075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19769247244260305,0.08263677267094156,0.0,0.0,0.08280619366507293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15999651402062165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09082562399897252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06903600218150313,0.1331680953544235,0.0,0.0,0.1211864553764334,0.0,0.0,0.0992945073169981,0.0,0.14110189264514206,0.0,0.0,0.10817838623022387,0.2499920667813576,0.0,0.1144468519887487,0.08574012892314918,0.06129130975004185,0.08248228511635503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10589748590899367,0.07381769305250102,0.0,0.0,0.20075208644675505 schizophrenia,Mynameistowelie,2019/05/10,"Are these early symptoms of psychosis or schizophrenia? Long story short.. when I was younger, I had some people try and talk sht behind my back and make fun or insult me “ indirectly” like by using metaphors and inside jokes and what not. Like when your in a room full of people and you can feel the vibe that everyone is obviously taking about you behind your back. - Anyways, I was on Ecstacy when this happened and the experience in relation with being on drugs at the same time somewhat traumatized me. - Fast forward now that I’m older. I smoke weed on a regular basis and feel overall healthy psychologically, but every time I go out and only when I smoke weed, I feel sometimes that people are actually trying to insult me indirectly or trying to talk sht behind my back again. Although I wouldn’t doubt it as a lot of ppl are shady now a days and it’s hard to find real true friends. - It’s gotten to the point where even if they were really talking sht behind my back, I wouldn’t even be able to tell the difference, and I’d rather not confront ppl “ Like I have done before” and ruin relationships due to this problem. What do you guys think? Any advice or tips would be greatly appreciated! Thanks.",5.409525109170307,6.7040908777292625,5.965674126637556,77.78379503275109,68.17030567685589,8.345087336244541,28.286299126637555,8.660442795831766,2.113290174672489,957,32,174,15,16,310,139,229,0.109,0.772,0.11900000000000001,0.3767,0,0,3,0,0,0,22.0,0,5,1,0,17,15,3,1,9,0,18,2,0,2,2,43,30,23,0,6,9,0,4,3,1,3,2,0,1,1,11,13,0,0,5,1,0,2,4,6,0,0,6,4,22,9,24,18,5,33,0,1,0,0,15,13,0,11,23,125,33,0,0.12855851925308198,0.0,0.125454570001657,0.0,0.0,0.12562589713372366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08742420155156543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3954142634472347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10939383110201728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08290960953729616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343162903334485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315599997604316,0.0,0.0,0.149087067704987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16982337900477826,0.0,0.10831609715419148,0.12284317440062928,0.0,0.1257549002752813,0.0,0.0,0.19500915025697665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11750015756336775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09932399307173577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306276912376529,0.0,0.0,0.141736221327965,0.0,0.1272931460021557,0.1136838740044706,0.0,0.11516318178416335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18842159629626312,0.0,0.0,0.11377024403830255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092958557728165,0.0,0.0,0.0858138098746945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09777454696071436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26737887066877497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12152935447983396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12301314071793308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463277399516992,0.08235787936254772,0.0,0.0,0.1380237379950606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271476627741236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13362152568181784,0.0966600071731904,0.30999140419640603,0.1123658122733014,0.11835941214645347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08237510817188291,0.0,0.0,0.14992701283339574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618483873100215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11103328396780304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913242835532773,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Wesruu,2019/05/10,"What were the signs that you had Schizophrenia? I'm asking because I think I may be starting to develop it or something. Random little noises that I cant identify (Not voices), the feeling that I cant have my feet at the edge of my bed, have to have the TV on, severe sweating even in the winter. Recently Its gotten more intense and harder to sleep. Just to be clear Im not asking for a diagnosis, I just want some symptoms to compare mine to.",4.456217228464421,5.261491719101127,5.707359550561801,80.56343632958803,70.01123595505618,7.731086142322098,29.44007490636704,7.793537801064563,1.9443468164794009,349,13,66,4,6,117,63,89,0.031,0.885,0.084,0.3384,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,0,10,4,3,0,1,14,18,2,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,6,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,2,9,0,11,12,2,7,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,4,3,51,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5202581538299774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696205004716972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18378354109198225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14069312242557291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005610847122375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788826950009514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747413567966381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3143467891051445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784540401665593,0.0,0.0,0.21421282221542573,0.0,0.0,0.19694896863521733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892115007937366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782933441365309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16412088124800128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anonapotamus313,2019/05/10,"Wellbutrin/Buproprion with Risperdal/Risperidone? My doctor changed up my Risperdal/Effexor combo to Risperdal (1mg) /Wellbutrin (150 mg). It didn’t occur to me until after I left the appointment, but wouldn’t these two drugs cancel each other out? One is a dopamine blocker, the other a dopamine reuptake inhibitor?",6.709056603773584,9.919673490566039,5.019471698113208,77.9552452830189,68.81132075471699,7.258867924528303,38.90188679245283,8.238735603445708,3.80732,257,15,36,4,5,74,43,53,0.09699999999999999,0.903,0.0,-0.5408,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,6,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,4,0,7,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,26,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42812515066578655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4142336090159029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4693303260994105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4397141142594861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742391728485589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3953388310409344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,inharrmonix,2019/05/10,"Writing a book that involves a character with schizophrenia. Any reliable sources I could use to help me out? I’m writing a book where any sort of mental illness and physical disabilities are illegal. Weird? Yeah, I know. Dystopian? Yes. I’d like to have one of the protagonists (1 of 2) have schizophrenia, but I really don’t want to portray it incorrectly. I can describe anxiety from my own experience, but I do not. Do NOT. want to misportray something so important that affects many people. Can anyone tell me somewhere I can find an accurate, reliable source/website for research? I’d like to connect with some people to hear their own personal experiences, but I don’t know how to connect because I don’t know how to start. Anything helps. Thank you :)",3.4972826086956523,6.503786753623192,4.533170289855075,77.92410326086956,80.01449275362319,7.797826086956523,33.26268115942029,8.660442795831766,3.4963028985507254,604,34,100,15,16,196,88,138,0.054000000000000006,0.7440000000000001,0.20199999999999999,0.9638,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,1,0,4,4,0,0,5,2,12,1,0,4,0,24,22,7,0,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,4,0,0,4,2,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,1,13,3,16,21,3,3,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,2,3,63,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26443217604539976,0.0,0.14873506632833575,0.0,0.0,0.13594691338873474,0.0,0.1599957182572424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11852005271690053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552330361727888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3803711253633912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17770149340072708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191318029771426,0.0,0.26063878812839303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3205537065126364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899730732005621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19711706130495746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19593529450523028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317478311732335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26958048741916,0.169764951119031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455403005012093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14967834024192506,0.0,0.0,0.13761545379404214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699365606159541,0.17900098802092285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16792130995760418,0.0,0.0,0.2293545348983683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rainyday1347,2019/09/10,school advice? I have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia (and I do not think I have it) since I am underage. I do hallucinate. I have begun to find it hard to read with he hallucinations sometimes and listen in class. It is so embarrassing when I have to answer questions and I physically cannot see them. Any advice?,2.7947142857142855,5.638715900000001,4.4695238095238095,78.28500000000005,81.66666666666666,7.428571428571428,23.57142857142857,8.418075326091056,1.9316428571428568,254,9,46,6,7,85,39,60,0.095,0.905,0.0,-0.6281,0,0,0,1,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,10,1,0,0,0,11,13,5,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,5,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,3,9,0,6,12,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,2,35,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5433485545148594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890605942980652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821806575459303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25410183021166904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490479661576066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31144184465817304,0.0,0.27809150090588863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813673035251304,0.2215429689202708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299779279741896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749651956902013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17814159729165666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cheesemass,2019/09/10,"Recently passed through a gripping psychosis - need feedback to see if my feet are on the ground. In all fairness, I am always dealing with psychosis. I have to tweak my own personal diagnostic criteria for it because it plays on depression and anxiety for fuel - which spreads me thin over the world, no matter what I am doing. I started a blog recently, after writing a pseudo biographical book on my journey throughout the medical establishment. In fact, I wrote the book nine times, about 300 pages each, over the past two year period. I felt like I was getting no closer to getting my life out of a rut where I can't even support myself. So, instead of putting a finishing edit on the last book, which was getting near publisher worthy copy, I decided to go live on the internet with my work in writing. I don't get paid for anything except SSDI, and joke that this has turned me into a professional patient. But after recently coming through a psychosis where I had to push the outside of the envelope a little bit, I've come full circle, in finding my work more aligned with what are my true values and along the lines of my own moral compass. Put another way, I thought I was providing some service by recording the crazy places which my mind takes me when psychosis gets its grip on me, that there was some sort of achievement in just living through it. I need some feedback from the community. One article, two, a quick speed read - it doesn't matter. I've given copies of my articles to friends and family members now for two years and none of them have ever said anything about it. They persist with the relationship they have with me as if I never let them in the door to how I deal with my struggle. It's a big ask, to expect someone to read one or two of your articles, as they are schizophrenic in nature and only makes sense if read as an entire work. But any comment would be greatly appreciated. Writing is how I keep myself above ground - literally. So it would mean a lot if someone could help validate that I am working toward a skillset in writing, where I could one day enter the workforce again, in a sustainable position. Thank you, (The latest entry from last night) [http://www.adaptedthought.com/2019/09/10/without-words/](http://www.adaptedthought.com/2019/09/10/without-words/) Ryan Sackrider",9.606229489386118,9.111748732530122,8.409672977624782,69.96751004016066,59.26506024096386,11.181870338496845,39.279977051061394,10.398101306919678,4.111214572576019,1864,81,309,34,21,573,235,415,0.040999999999999995,0.8809999999999999,0.078,0.9175,0,0,0,0,0,0,71.0,0,2,5,6,19,10,0,1,30,0,26,4,1,3,5,61,52,21,0,11,9,0,4,1,1,2,3,1,1,1,17,18,0,1,5,9,1,9,7,2,0,8,11,6,44,8,63,35,13,67,1,1,1,0,21,33,0,10,25,231,61,17,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07511084070266258,0.0,0.0,0.061385853149182684,0.09465466692826263,0.06905535533767734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14856699834820195,0.0,0.08438910645244363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05502699905978114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09855010796343028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555170898793976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414452136518432,0.0,0.0,0.058215883306759315,0.18612625847752692,0.07774835185769319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05962166551064513,0.08165326260319095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.085097354463823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08667216690477124,0.0,0.08250401249517123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06974142107887328,0.0,0.2358085104346907,0.0,0.05130181730580285,0.0,0.0,0.09952162803827999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06050524793277634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08023502266530844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471621769830153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09230592435119893,0.06375949568875115,0.04410075713246968,0.09047301330281846,0.15941794010188906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07674327283763714,0.0,0.0,0.06025509913330807,0.0,0.0,0.09832914427784006,0.0,0.09093628028027384,0.0,0.0,0.09114571620767556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338662854633346,0.06962083362697795,0.0,0.0,0.08471111753055346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18350534654455009,0.06865346065434906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08617174680860529,0.0,0.07881920056114372,0.09431164285885796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814900750629607,0.0,0.0,0.2708795680034427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26738853511378863,0.096914867522909,0.0,0.0,0.08586626335906464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07193251564063692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529688570760858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06389269387707834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943685087869457,0.0,0.0,0.10243592061915874,0.0,0.0,0.06787087443095058,0.0,0.0,0.08310734743811549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07166331337410096,0.05263644065115094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09818649099499244,0.3527178530046397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07165114107533536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17403172933938393,0.0,0.2628669333634033,0.0,0.0,0.1282486762169444,0.0,0.0,0.11626024543228218 schizophrenia,Melodic_Werewolf,2019/09/10,"Struggling with some symptoms that dont seem related to schizophrenia Hello, new user here and probably soon to be diagnosed with schizophrenia after a stay at a mental hospital and talking with doctors, therapists etc.. I am not looking for a diagnosis as I have accepted that I am most likely a schizophrenic who will be soon diagnosed but just had questions about some symptoms that I am unsure are related to this disease. I have felt super out of it almost like I am high even though I have not been smoking pot, as well as super confused with a lot of memory issues like forgetting what I did the day before and I have had trouble with things like school work and even driving as I have almost feel intoxicated. The scariest thing I did was take out my car keys and press the unlock button to attempt to get into my dorm room rather than use my swipe card... Are these cognitive issues symptoms related to schizophrenia as I have read they are but it just has not made sense to me at all and Im just looking for a little guidance or to see if I am the only one who feels this way. Thanks and all responses are highly appreciated.",10.35546338965694,7.60241737788019,9.854807987711217,67.35300563236049,59.552995391705075,12.778084997439835,40.700972862263185,10.980518767755715,4.397852432155658,909,36,161,17,9,295,127,217,0.048,0.81,0.142,0.9725,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,4,12,12,0,2,10,0,26,8,0,2,2,44,38,17,0,2,11,0,4,4,0,1,8,0,2,0,13,15,0,0,6,1,0,2,4,3,1,1,8,7,18,9,30,27,7,18,0,0,3,0,6,9,0,11,9,130,31,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24680314051173394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10486349958438322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07947607024702974,0.0,0.0,0.2501608867891605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261357527717134,0.0,0.0,0.14442993924556807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13743906500152364,0.16279047597371996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12462215185213373,0.0,0.11832446463259445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06438495020818119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604080721432107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13311442838886858,0.2572496423955603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24082464597082945,0.1235133635751326,0.0,0.0,0.2069719182248762,0.0,0.0,0.10476958171178086,0.0,0.1166074821938591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12419141075481815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11902066701617807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08350689986001839,0.09372540536601666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13286765539341686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380508655705062,0.0,0.1232678686770412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12471991307884855,0.09820195694663708,0.112188078338922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13135160108921204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288314770376065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3842635547629588,0.0926570220635176,0.0990512388667736,0.0,0.11345778862843567,0.0,0.14308477563182811,0.16374307799768964,0.0,0.12107728987586815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10643505771684883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781782561602068,0.0,0.0,0.11080263305044206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971619803278606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Kato1995,2019/09/10,How to get over the shame of schizophrenia? I feel less than human because of my disease. I constantly feel like i'm being judged and not good enough. This is a recent diagnosis and i'm having a hard time accepting it.,1.9290697674418595,4.5517000465116295,3.4058604651162803,85.96181395348837,83.41860465116278,6.2306976744186064,22.55348837209302,7.554174236665415,1.2131525581395348,174,6,33,3,5,57,35,43,0.157,0.727,0.11599999999999999,-0.2037,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,7,8,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,3,5,7,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229988277304836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3953185370828932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3779870550176035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3699364320161205,0.26133994874940336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911244381641795,0.0,0.0,0.3068301910883856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32770044261551085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787198522653111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.361200446433984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213311006627126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,inevitablyfxcked,2019/09/10,"Someone please talk to me. I'm so fucking tired... Of the delusions, of the depression, of not being able to talk about it with my friends.. it's such hell. And my symptoms aren't even that severe. I don't hallucinate but I do get paranoia and delusions and I'm pretty sure I have schizoaffective, since the depression hits so deep and cuts me down so much. I hate this. I believe my life is a waste now. I died the day I recieved my diagnosis. I died. There's nothing left of me. I lost my will to live to this disease and the medications. I'm sick of being paranoid. I'm just sick. I used to believe in God or a higher power. Now I feel betrayed by him/her. It's more than I can handle. There is no life in me, it's time for a med change since these meds make me feel like death. Is this really what my life's suppoused to be like? Really? I'm just rambling. I want to get better but everything is so bleak. ""Chronic disease"". Well, some people recover. I believe it's possible. I refuse to believe the Universe is so cold and uncaring.",0.08762524398178329,2.450936962264155,2.1780156148340915,92.46783018867927,92.1132075471698,5.18828887443071,21.932986337020168,6.8039241337230125,0.7015349381912821,804,31,171,12,29,268,114,212,0.268,0.62,0.11199999999999999,-0.9925,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,0,3,15,13,4,0,9,0,14,10,0,2,1,21,30,14,3,1,6,0,2,2,1,1,9,0,0,0,11,7,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,7,1,0,1,3,26,6,21,24,3,9,1,3,0,1,4,5,2,2,6,109,37,0,0.1177434557561728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5306262177900863,0.0,0.10413451829589422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245569639649459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07593478828966957,0.0,0.2028245318232316,0.0,0.2443982355612453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07776844206197367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058202258917934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11906925805064568,0.08411594831846472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09096830184194868,0.1088519275538125,0.12303219190135725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162472860562834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12792860919178367,0.0,0.2494970546647676,0.11504701006157884,0.0,0.1039696285928092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12853089081551358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07859467101016324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615728719661201,0.11861414443454645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08655498771644295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129780213566102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08162848693765742,0.0,0.0,0.12924695672411302,0.0,0.1327380550857694,0.0,0.11978742404046333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15085894550179926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13301659066224938,0.0,0.19479720665761066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09976364797024932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097181361363083,0.12238053369467575,0.0,0.1892754593879544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06865715591921336,0.13532878162966727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169254153113756,0.0,0.0,0.06944814083273787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10586550714537514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ILikeYourBoots41,2019/09/10,"I've been suspicious that I might be schizophrenic or more likely schizoaffective for some time now. I'm terrified to talk to my therapist about it as I've been very careful to hide those symptoms from people. Help! Long, tldr at the end I have pretty severe PTSD, depression, generalized anxiety, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, dysautonomia/POTS, chronic migraines, IBD/IBS, and lots of other undiagnosed physical problems. My mom had Borderline Personality Disorder and my dad, while undiagnosed, was CLEARLY a schizophrenic narcissist. His mom was a sociopathic schizophrenic, and there's lots of psychosis history on my mom's side of the family tree. Yay. Ever since I was little I've seen and heard things, but I've also undergone severe trauma since I was very very young. I see lots of figures around me, following me, etc. Every GD time I turn I see a tall shadow man or creepy ass kid in my peripheral. I often hear voices that I have difficulty distinguishing between my own intrusive thoughts or hallucinations. I also often hear sounds (crashes, barks, knocks, etc) that aren't there. For those I'll ask my mom if she heard them, and if she says no we just chalk it up to my PTSD and hypervigilance. From the time this began I was regularly under the threat of being ""locked up forever in a psych ward with all the crazy people where no will will care if (I) cry"", so I've never told anyone about what I see or hear. While I love being alone, I always make sure to have an animal or 2 (my service dog namely) with me at all times so I have a reminder that the apparition I see in the corner of the room isn't real. I'm also super disorganized/dysfunctional. I have a part t I'm me job where I often only work 10 hours a week stuffing envelopes and I am barely hold in ang it together. I suck at remembering to do stuff and lose everything x ok instantly. I also dissociate a TON. As I mentioned I have PTSD and depression among other psych problems. I have TERRIBLE mood swings and have for years. I don't get manic per say, though sometimes I'm really bouncy and giggly and annoying but that's not the same thing. My mood swings mainly hinge on being meh to suicidal and falling apart in 2 seconds flat. I'm also very hypervigilant and paranoid: I drive really fast so it's hard for people to follow me. I have a go bag packed with survival gear ranging from life s TV draws, seed packs, extra clothes and weapons like my new bow and arrows. I have several detailed plans for different apocalypse scenarios and how to survive them, and regularly update them. I don't do most social media besides reddit bc I don't want people tracking me. I have done extensive research on how to fake my own death and assume a fake identity in another land in case the government or someone is watching me. Ironically I work for the government but whatever. I've also been recently (past few years) undergoing a spiritual awakening and growing a lot with my practice. I'm a practicing eclectic/hellenic pagan witch. My therapist is also a witch which is fantastic as I can talk about my faith without feeling judged. I've been working with ""the sisters"" for a year or 2 now (mainly through pendulum communication, though I have heard some feminine voices in n my head every now and then that are attributed to them) whom have recently identified themselves as the Moirai (the 3 Greek Fates). We all have our different faith systems, so please don't judge me for mine. My dad was a literal cult leader who formed a cult around his delusions and hallucinations, so I've struggled to accept having spirituality of my own. I have a therapy session in 5 hours and am nervous about bringing this all up with my therapist, but I'm miserable and need help. The hallucinations or whatever have been getting more frequent and more intense. I've been planning suicide and self mutilation attempts regularly since April, but am too much of a coward to do anything so don't worry I'm safe. My mom isn't very supportive physical or mental health wise (she's a therapist which is so fun), and I've had trouble getting doctors to take me seriously and help me. Same with my psychiatrist. I'm nervous that if I'm diagnosed schizoaffective or schizophrenic that no one will ever take me seriously about what's what's happening in my body and I'll never get the treatment I need. I'm nervous she will think I'm lying for attention (regularly accused of this by my mom who does it all the time) as I've hid this for so long and haven't told her. Part of me feels li km e it's better to just suffer in silence you know? Should I tell her what I've been experiencing and my theories/concerns? Do I sound like I'm just paranoid or could there actually be somethj g here? Thanks for reading! TLDR: I think im schizoaffective or schizophrenic but am nervous to talk to my therapist about it as I'm worried it'll fuck up my life elsewhere.",5.328112402855879,6.896466135338348,6.403908984646492,73.53523354078473,68.63480128893663,9.858855120995766,32.058523409363744,10.125756701596842,3.485840323497821,3936,171,692,102,68,1314,417,931,0.185,0.7290000000000001,0.086,-0.9983,3,1,1,0,0,1,105.0,3,1,4,11,45,48,5,6,38,2,69,20,3,4,11,121,127,81,3,11,27,9,3,3,0,7,15,13,1,4,36,42,0,2,12,2,0,7,16,27,0,2,24,23,95,19,89,90,31,77,3,6,6,3,54,35,3,28,37,458,131,14,0.0,0.0,0.05061855958427014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053722655283462775,0.0,0.2903682303296109,0.04316078131140448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05439120826202859,0.039681130742624825,0.0,0.0,0.03626937061584486,0.0,0.0426853678231512,0.09235227617998584,0.04849233126117357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04587563536745313,0.0,0.057616926129327235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10577177034214587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04141472859096392,0.0,0.05697779711569849,0.0,0.0,0.08935273738010682,0.05264791702772536,0.0,0.10838819415334157,0.05944859655027016,0.05309210989287708,0.04539261328671694,0.05308198566773626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04594226092008609,0.0,0.1156996296813879,0.0,0.0938404783546532,0.08740701622368349,0.0,0.046618260466902636,0.0,0.048899310297054584,0.0,0.05245501640756111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04795385256706002,0.10840171091179322,0.0,0.029479453257336405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04586930511969352,0.0,0.04646617798760789,0.0,0.053234554062498704,0.0551363886549208,0.17538697373370904,0.0,0.10430400258293056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10216486390890916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056029521408891225,0.0,0.05147390882800065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028506914682068306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07327596453996484,0.07602457047965425,0.05198831360715036,0.0,0.09180830760798446,0.0,0.05803031908080646,0.0,0.17639528915294314,0.046815552797127284,0.0,0.03462425839280372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05227371211300914,0.05502687526276098,0.0,0.3645037413317586,0.0,0.0,0.038131112725092224,0.0769232965281963,0.08001214063857899,0.05009728165005678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03514909458070658,0.03945019086264112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234235671523347,0.04951668606601135,0.1438431276633285,0.045291708183991364,0.0,0.05693872076289404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05277139873324263,0.0,0.09926697756800186,0.18190307577644085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0518849817458723,0.059040491099517874,0.06645971085297557,0.0,0.10243260033003397,0.0,0.05875966874449722,0.0,0.0,0.08249971439562398,0.0,0.0,0.16533770878880105,0.0,0.05411270798771362,0.1757982092077451,0.0,0.12872454450449936,0.0,0.0,0.052875895891725436,0.0439500831434735,0.0,0.05130169067613603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054226773822974035,0.05937982170283911,0.11347678908264625,0.0588625333828699,0.04888775154208036,0.053913772606106296,0.07800099003882431,0.12507570161629106,0.0453374919998203,0.047755796827611066,0.05931894589819835,0.30113082393028984,0.06892150163788324,0.06647361385406814,0.1019258796711743,0.0411797360761078,0.15123182504030427,0.0,0.0,0.09912982114301636,0.0,0.0,0.05642069275119738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139948088416553,0.030594827132511267,0.0,0.041607743056504234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05000173970224527,0.0,0.11328799663363907,0.10535492450095084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10020956325419746 schizophrenia,PozitivePerson,2019/09/10,"Has anyone ever taken advantage of your vulnerable mental state? I have this friend. And he was like a father figure to me. And he thought it would be amusing to ply me with crystal meth and play mind games with me. I had a massive psychotic episode and was about to jump in front of a train before I got arrested and brought to the psych ward. I just wish I had it in me to forgive him. The resentment is eating me up.",2.8164873949579814,4.451903858823531,4.138655462184875,87.01823529411767,75.11764705882355,7.210084033613445,26.26050420168067,7.957251820313856,1.5085798319327741,328,12,68,5,7,108,59,85,0.085,0.721,0.19399999999999998,0.8462,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,3,7,1,0,5,0,9,1,0,0,1,15,14,5,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,3,3,0,3,0,1,0,0,8,0,12,6,13,4,0,8,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,2,49,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324824328054311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829216946797729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3402169016389573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007532572675025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25687840126936845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659199889033288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624362080913956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350683940044436,0.0,0.3357167878110797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639573023380987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38234329868969824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361890136584939,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WholesomeHamster,2019/09/10,"I might be schizophrenic Soo, I've got a lot of the sympthoms : 1. Insomnia. 2. Delusions. 3. I sometimes feel like I can't feel emotions, but I'm not always like that. 4. Lack of motivation to do things. 5. Trouble concentrating. 6. Alogia. 7. Anhedonia. ... Basically all of them besides hallucinations. Anyone else like that?",0.5776064908722134,0.8712475517241423,3.237139959432053,77.9306795131846,133.82758620689654,6.1922920892494915,25.82555780933063,6.794906146795322,2.513550507099392,250,13,43,7,17,86,48,58,0.102,0.72,0.17800000000000002,0.5927,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,1,1,9,8,1,0,1,2,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,4,3,4,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,22,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242404699424852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037003412665131,0.2984956113437053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24336361325147585,0.32770001030277285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946040849876998,0.20812174689703264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23299821769556955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4269782102196236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476730364226557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3090484637458095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288126640215606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19354255623757705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DanielCallya,2019/09/10,"HELP! In short I'm almost 16 I live in Europe I've been diagnosed with SPD(Schizotypal personality disorder Depression OCD PTSD I took Sertraline for 1 month prescribed It didn't help and made me worse Doctor fired himelf And TODAY I just from another new psychiatrist Disgnosed with fucking Simple-type Schizophrenia I don't see this on DSM what the fuck?! I'n freaking out now hard What could it be fucking ha??? Is she right?!??!?!?!?!",3.483846153846152,6.639136358974363,3.941743589743592,80.69492307692309,82.84615384615384,7.735384615384616,25.748717948717946,8.548686976883017,2.516339487179487,348,14,59,9,10,109,65,78,0.25,0.68,0.071,-0.9388,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,1,1,6,5,0,1,0,9,13,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,4,3,6,1,8,7,0,11,0,1,1,3,4,6,3,1,4,30,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924473778453177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015246786283754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15344556843760976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16553025994885362,0.19506561627300054,0.0,0.0,0.22026279057795498,0.19671139372967106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5330209625614689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17216167622036066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576376007793477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697045174274349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818518527667264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15340171719739387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18561526590926966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678101521911034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246561534403456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641265274019541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15314804401980914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18217067040931234,0.0,0.2135266716997713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958548281928616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WowSuchName21,2019/09/10,"Still need advice (20/M) Circumstances haven’t changed since my last post here. The long and the short was I finally reached out to my GP about hearing voices, delusions and some of the hallucinations I have. Got referred to a mental health team for an assessment and the guy was a dismissive prick and told me that I was too functional of a person (I’m at university and have a part time job) to suffer for any psychosis and that it was clearly just anxiety. I left and never went back, at that time I was in a relatively good place, the voices weren’t malevolent and most of the bad regulars I had were away, atop of that I was off uni for summer and I had less stress so wanted to try and sort as much as I could before I went back for my final year. Now I’m in a worse place, work is stacking up (working stupid hours) which is leading to me having increase amounts of breakdowns and hallucinations, I work retail and the shitty tungsten lighting wreaks havoc for me I find and I go back to uni in a week for my final year. I’m a wreck and don’t know what to do with myself. I want help but everyone I know doesn’t take me seriously (besides my dad he seemed to understand when I told him and was the one who drove me to all my appointments I couldn’t walk to) and worse than that the doctors don’t seem to. Am I mad?!? I just want to have a functional brain. TL;DR : still recovering from a large blow to my confidence regarding seeking a diagnosis, have sat at home/work letting it get worse despite being close to going into my final uni year.",4.8215273311897135,5.362130469453376,5.689290996784568,81.96943488745981,69.06430868167203,8.92096463022508,28.733279742765284,8.982922981607832,2.1022911897106105,1220,41,251,21,20,401,168,311,0.11900000000000001,0.8290000000000001,0.052000000000000005,-0.9645,2,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,5,13,8,3,1,21,0,28,4,2,1,3,43,52,21,0,6,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,10,20,0,0,7,1,1,8,7,7,0,1,18,4,34,1,43,30,8,48,0,1,0,0,11,17,1,5,22,173,44,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612588557311913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668948758688,0.0,0.07525267120037259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09242171859944254,0.2269210436064495,0.0821347215147112,0.0,0.0,0.08370550285284112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10981329305152393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10406226511480388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07854032622514735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068571672054234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09399661371814153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4310374793666157,0.08990826699320519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05139419011087015,0.0,0.11181171310514658,0.08250796875596299,0.07867536073883992,0.0,0.0,0.09740162391692744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045625577944468,0.11086997791483254,0.0,0.06593524146414717,0.0,0.0986729869563183,0.0,0.09687449384739223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09761690415415973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108123001404413,0.0801845625403046,0.0,0.0,0.10687913723740153,0.10058984333771544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705422774740862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09913367881519704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07231316332735882,0.07294000237582705,0.07586889787196963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06665796079826493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10652496883972637,0.0,0.0,0.08589276465380463,0.20555112679442825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09421113087258046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17910444623101093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08137256206940144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15711658941689946,0.0,0.11268233860511713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07396189003240725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147205091367564,0.0,0.0,0.18799322743628305,0.0,0.06678667559889086,0.0,0.0,0.10240649012610148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17406327064379518,0.0,0.078906365545106,0.0,0.0,0.18237968555443707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864577093132917,0.0,0.30074186414758514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900408877865116 schizophrenia,the9000thHAL,2019/09/10,I keep hearing someone yelling and no one else does. I have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia but I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I keep hearing someone yelling and no one else can hear it. I asked my bf and he said he can't hear it. At first it was quiet buy now it's getting louder. How can I tell if this is real?,1.1081521739130444,3.5212536376811627,2.4809963768115963,92.63714673913044,85.08695652173913,5.7688405797101465,26.01630434782609,7.1686216300943375,1.290578260869565,267,12,56,4,8,86,44,69,0.168,0.8320000000000001,0.0,-0.8885,0,0,0,0,2,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,1,0,13,18,7,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,8,0,0,5,6,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,3,4,8,7,0,3,14,0,3,0,1,0,0,10,1,0,1,2,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799530044327206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14419617307453672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13284907581110275,0.31310633901497475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497889153944842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577000924763065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311988253413029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08058548363052312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6953712683163774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741961303122952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090377919046727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755620456178846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14672019995335436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613788048862392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481498358908342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JaniMiru,2019/04/09,"i think often that people say things to me. they sounds the same way like they really sounds, but its comming from my head and it's not fun. really not fun. for example: “my boyfriend“ :,,we should break up.“ me :,,huh?“ my boyfriend: ,,i didn't say anything.“ ooofff.. I'ts reaallyy annoying. Anyone else? And.. do you even scared that they use that to confusing you or hurting you or to make you feel like an idiot?",1.0158391608391641,3.6214175769230788,1.6985314685314703,95.51465034965037,91.17948717948721,5.4004662004662025,18.62937062937063,6.980632752743323,0.32252307692307713,313,9,65,5,11,96,56,78,0.263,0.685,0.052000000000000005,-0.9698,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,1,4,3,0,2,9,2,2,2,1,3,1,1,2,0,16,7,5,0,1,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,4,0,0,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,5,15,4,6,5,1,3,0,1,0,0,10,1,0,4,2,42,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17704534057901428,0.25943627213930004,0.20836439551252636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115185155054532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672381138704747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12802698375054375,0.1808881876789567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598592033590348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710589193290511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474042742659473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16901488819251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17553899540221865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244164964254312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40271418513294255,0.25350025393948755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16821674216432894,0.16224218127416254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21868599125091875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20098066009187407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LouisBear,2019/04/09,"(Maybe) a stupid question Is there a “mild” case of schizophrenia where you don’t necessarily hear unknown voices in your head? But you are still extremely paranoid, think the government, your friends, everyone is spying on you, you think that people that are sitting in parked cars are there to get you and sometimes you get hallucinations “in your head” (I’ve no idea how to describe that) or you hear your friends talking right when you are about to fall asleep even though you are alone?",10.55090909090909,9.046383181818186,8.14227272727273,75.8709090909091,58.09090909090909,11.072727272727272,39.04545454545455,9.516144504307137,3.4381727272727267,392,15,72,5,4,113,59,88,0.109,0.826,0.066,-0.4684,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,13,0,0,9,3,1,0,3,0,8,3,3,1,0,8,14,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,3,13,2,9,14,0,11,0,0,0,0,19,6,0,2,2,48,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20791554652870964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325929010721115,0.0,0.0,0.19182438797462015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101965457200613,0.0,0.20976626015552308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4120530284184842,0.0,0.452517698606577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22662132227648624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20167947450198914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13917416378954614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22488495904962505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17143865240986994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19854601375332676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603185073024581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16135453917159626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572638616107535,0.19723499206651407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Modest_mouski,2019/04/09,Mum with Schizophrenia Could anyone here point me in the right direction for people who have parents that suffer from severe mental illness? I know this may not be the right place to post and if it's not I do apologise. Advice welcome!,3.3086363636363667,6.227270772727278,3.396545454545457,86.38481818181822,79.9090909090909,5.3381818181818215,22.43636363636364,6.742157984588678,0.8663599999999998,190,6,32,2,5,58,40,44,0.22399999999999998,0.716,0.06,-0.8061,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,8,6,2,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,5,3,0,6,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,2,0,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27967180257177304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001180343129124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285077997357306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15728830232331625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288422774828203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177917701732167,0.0,0.0,0.19841538099940967,0.0,0.2990185932150861,0.0,0.2705519674544489,0.0,0.2741009524787969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4888273025641097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233250854649511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,forensicfairy,2019/04/09,Hi everyone! What is a good job for a schizophrenic? Staying out of trouble and out of a hospital is all I'm doing atm,0.2578666666666685,2.521768120000001,3.708000000000002,83.32066666666668,87.8,8.133333333333335,28.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.9491333333333336,93,5,19,3,3,34,20,25,0.10800000000000001,0.763,0.128,0.126,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,14,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4942719222949776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4338600158932417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5133088624813823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5513390654923821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SmallTownCryptid,2019/04/09,"Activities With Your Hallucinations? Hi, all. I got really curious about this, and wanted to ask as many sources as possible. Do you do activities with your hallucinations, if they aren't malicious? (I just plain don't acknowledge negative voices.) For example, I have 5 main voices that are typically pretty chill. If they get bored, they argue, so I prevent that by painting with them, making collages, etc. I ask them to pick between activities. Typically they pick finger painting, as they can tell me what they want on paper and it doesn't have to look good. Is this a healthy or unhealthy way of dealing with them? My last therapist thought this was a good idea, as long as I didn't get carried away, but I'd like some input from outside sources regardless =) Note: I'm on meds, they just aren't helping very much. Trying to find some good ones. 👍",3.2417536071032167,5.99740772955975,4.384691083980762,80.28516093229744,78.62264150943396,7.766333703292638,27.59193488716241,8.671277953709913,2.4719564187939334,675,29,123,16,17,220,103,159,0.048,0.7909999999999999,0.161,0.9451,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,3,10,0,4,6,1,0,2,0,13,1,1,3,1,26,24,12,0,5,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,7,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,4,4,21,4,22,20,6,6,0,0,1,0,20,3,0,5,3,82,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.330381732510903,0.0,0.16601568670391695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821701826414968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970674697981191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615008129195955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18463715873596034,0.0,0.0,0.4446233190360455,0.14132331921185115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184384423438432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19947305645385566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440342747885467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632680898617329,0.0,0.0,0.15637414688859075,0.14838369368777135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11794877846880016,0.17914630334188356,0.0,0.0,0.19627412604723649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298950035711237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11973665177303333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199202964430836,0.0,0.17976766312400252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131986947354712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444379312191206,0.0,0.0,0.2051625911459987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028024839526934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996786015498825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457961988106211,0.20844475262429427,0.14025642123721616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheStephmeister7,2019/04/09,"Communicating with parent who has schizophrenia Some background: My mom was diagnosed with schizophrenia seven years ago. She had been showing symptoms for quite a few years before that. She also was a meth addict (along with other drugs) for quite a while until the symptoms started. She eventually quit, and then the symptoms got much worse. She then got court ordered to go to a mental facility where she got diagnosed. For a court order, there had to be proof that she was endangering herself and/or others (sad). Once she was out and on medication, you couldn’t even tell she had schizophrenia. She and I had the best relationship we’ve ever had. Of course, that came to an end once she stopped taking her meds. Now she’s back where she started (and possibly using again). On top of that, her dad died. This lead to much worse symptoms. She inherited some money and his house, but she only gets $400/month through disability. She’s definitely in no condition to work right now. She can’t afford any of her bills with this small amount monthly. I would help, but I’m a broke college student struggling to pay my own rent. She’s currently living by herself in an old farmhouse with no water, gas, or electricity. She’s also way behind on her taxes so she’s likely to lose her house at any given moment. Me and all of my family members have tried various approaches to talk to her. She won’t listen to us though. I really just want to find a way to get through to her. She also holds a grudge against my uncles because they were the ones that got the court order. I KNOW the meds were working because she was so happy, conversational, and not showing even the slightest symptom. She’s also in denial that she even has schizophrenia. Any advice from people who suffer from schizophrenia or have experience with it would be appreciated. I just wish I could talk to her. I want my mom back. I know there isn't much I can actively do. But if anyone can help me find a way to communicate with her would be super helpful.",4.531775463550929,6.5304177139107615,5.02947252561172,80.8941808483617,71.33595800524935,7.435814071628144,26.726018118702914,8.155646560271837,1.7650075522817712,1603,55,292,24,31,511,199,381,0.083,0.812,0.105,0.9162,4,0,2,0,0,0,50.0,1,1,1,10,22,9,0,1,18,0,31,11,0,2,3,47,51,24,1,9,9,4,0,1,0,4,10,1,1,0,13,17,1,2,4,2,6,4,7,5,0,2,19,1,55,4,47,23,11,44,0,4,0,0,54,13,0,5,22,217,68,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08372958327602474,0.0,0.07505367099965712,0.06808364596021926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456860599598112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15669159171077074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05370435263871443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11811773175140088,0.0,0.09364012094436988,0.0,0.06535601970812767,0.0,0.08060287569918091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784529449523662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06132312612323409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559123995670074,0.07971222227359345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907026325887966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06802708013891624,0.0,0.0,0.15218838201378873,0.06947518051419252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07513074236444175,0.07240560724910075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14039809258088887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080255648369366,0.0,0.04365046667329975,0.0,0.24571423630446065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08176112839154329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444378662297334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772470018925479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08442084175889855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03752340035058389,0.0,0.06782086724203136,0.0,0.0,0.08592596636599102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17062770410779413,0.07737369317946075,0.07740211151679746,0.0,0.0,0.17990788673955893,0.12261120274765505,0.0,0.16938314805498494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059469412164995,0.16359119278439466,0.05204555078408607,0.058414219099415625,0.0,0.0,0.08528367445573347,0.0,0.0,0.05324742283584196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658692094779727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24507704600538835,0.0,0.0,0.04920371772809239,0.0,0.0,0.08246061089296915,0.0,0.065591674249822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872698283276168,0.0,0.0,0.06421302989184896,0.0,0.08029402590671256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991528122708711,0.057748350799666816,0.12346707377016428,0.06713159387027115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546124032381986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05214604939839134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09238783703894868,0.06633549097014901,0.0,0.0,0.0906040197194428,0.18289444174869746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08832279968037735,0.0,0.0,0.11183097321772524,0.0,0.15654320230171495,0.1636817620046374,0.0,0.0,0.09892074462823096 schizophrenia,beatisachemical_,2019/04/09,"Do negative symptoms come along with positive ones or not? My father is schizophrenic and I fear I might have schizophrenia too. I'm 16 and I'm writing this post cause I experienced something strange 10 minutes ago. I was laying down in my bed with my eyes closed because I was really tired and I don't know why I started imagining the door of my room opening with a classmate of mine behind it saying ""Hi!"". And then I thought again about the door opening but this time my mind decided to put noone behind it. And I don't know why I was so fucking scared about this thing, my head started to get heavy and I just had to get up to breath. I heard some noises at my left but I'm pretty sure it was my mind messing with me. It was horrible. This might sound stupid but yeah, I literally scared myself. The door in real life was open by the way. And I don't know, I'm so worried about the fact this might be my first sign of schizophrenia. Also I don't know if I have negative symptoms (I am pretty cold with my family because I dislike them, but I love my friends) or if it's just my personality. Can someone please help me figure this out? Thank you?",1.4837768240343363,3.812172193133049,2.832782832618026,91.3528824034335,82.43347639484979,5.788085836909873,23.053905579399142,7.087006719466742,0.7946344721030045,903,32,190,12,25,292,126,233,0.155,0.72,0.125,-0.8221,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,1,1,10,10,2,3,6,1,21,10,3,1,2,50,39,19,0,2,11,1,0,0,1,3,5,3,5,1,12,19,0,0,8,0,0,2,7,6,0,2,9,6,37,4,25,26,1,24,0,0,1,2,11,12,1,8,8,130,49,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10992281707343572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916663335801364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15118441058982934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12738713916311598,0.0,0.10681919772019166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690073597680613,0.13953993110833035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547846165230318,0.0,0.0,0.09580583913045844,0.11464048519208328,0.12957483152371688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12726475100566031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311783672202919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725992891529625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13473163183485415,0.0,0.08758829247381232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119192181627734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946486470449135,0.2504190964089273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402889530428546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082762515093028,0.0,0.1361200868135986,0.0,0.0,0.11876236773202432,0.25231502501634034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246591241350839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14114466686826546,0.07944068192702658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861363352711404,0.2483009743773146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050689065858531,0.0954649914879449,0.0,0.0,0.17554254147692766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11687310313382215,0.2577770385166199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11416700485942903,0.0,0.0,0.08238331192352734,0.0,0.0,0.09844599904137298,0.0723082249746661,0.14252533267092488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09842927759693802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22379017793940245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12593294402440525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,revv1,2019/04/09,"Can not fall asleep anymore since reducing Seroquel xr. Can anyone share there experiences? I need to take lorazepam to fall asleep now… feels like I have brain damage from taking this medication, I used to be on 600mg xr now im on 400mg xr, anyone else have experienced this? The reduction happened 3 months ago now and I still CAN’T fall asleep without the help of other medications…",3.3491666666666653,6.227745583333334,3.9811111111111153,82.55000000000003,79.27777777777777,6.933333333333335,24.277777777777786,8.07648339933343,1.6804944444444452,310,11,56,6,8,98,51,72,0.083,0.851,0.067,-0.2773,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,6,5,4,1,0,6,12,1,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,8,11,0,10,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,6,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20587798612198635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303322488669144,0.3247929458332406,0.2379703154246848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25927079972362993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940173108329553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271876853198897,0.0,0.0,0.1174339326369496,0.16592135989160395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20538027652788324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15567407468929234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508727474866949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11346692715517975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23397013931826385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18538187211970872,0.0,0.0,0.17221241820834102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19212181564754235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18547728902390573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34925021998522576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005917441220345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22388329407051166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,harutotanaka02,2019/04/09,"Regarding diagnostic criteria for schizophrenia, what constitutes ""two voices conversing with each other""? I regularly experience auditory hallucinations, often consisting of what I call ""radio chatter"". It usually manifests as what sounds like a radio playing in another room. Sometimes it's music, sometimes it's the ""hosts"" commenting on news or the music. It's rarely distinct enough to distinguish exactly what's being said or what song is playing... just barely clear enough to make out that it's a radio... and it often seems as though it's an old timey radio show, like something from the 1940s. These arent my only hallucinations, nor are they my only symptoms. I'm just curious as to whether are not this symptom, on its own, is sufficient to classify as a significant Criterion A symptom. Have any of you experienced similar symptoms, or had experience with similar symptoms in others (patients, friends, family, etc.)? Included with occasional, mild visual and tactile hallucinations, social withdrawl, and long-term employment impact, would this still warrant a schizophrenia diagnosis despite not having a ""running commentary? Symptoms have been present off and on for 25 years (onset at 17), and persistent for 18 months. *As mentioned, there has been long-term employment impact, so I am currently without health insurance. Thanks for your time, attention, and sensitivity.",8.674847058823527,11.284569608888884,8.713986928104577,56.161176470588245,61.8,12.227450980392153,41.6797385620915,11.78182255692154,6.317452287581697,1122,64,142,39,17,365,145,225,0.011000000000000001,0.9109999999999999,0.078,0.9089,4,0,1,0,0,0,53.0,0,2,1,1,8,6,0,0,10,0,15,7,0,1,3,31,20,18,0,1,9,0,0,2,1,1,7,4,1,0,19,11,0,0,3,8,0,1,5,0,0,1,4,5,8,6,28,14,5,18,0,0,0,0,10,9,0,6,10,107,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07794233984236182,0.12018414404795875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11703504434175226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368565037650383,0.12782636573299755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224231528573172,0.10804911198653804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08855150273155686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183071286933192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11199050020110958,0.0,0.0,0.20286188189094276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07650660816703221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914848454409588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12026948549318445,0.0,0.0,0.17434021316511544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10902540465571532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043414718549944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168358727738068,0.0,0.0882364637817285,0.2267149408566788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09153193311265563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7147751432745437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10552237665699173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260895828606884,0.0,0.06683310787184098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196250176952166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12623256915630682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048506696289842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0814194264087311,0.0,0.0,0.07380850061346735 schizophrenia,eevie_2019,2019/04/09,"My (23F) husband (29M) has paranoid schizophrenia and is completely being distant towards me? I'm on a holiday at my parents for 3 months, Should I worry that he's being distant again towards me? Just last week he was being all loved up with me on the phone, then his birthday came this weekend and now this week he's barely calling me babe or texting me, he's not even answering my calls and I'm starting to really worry. it's happened in the past but everytime he does this I get really worried. Is this just another phase again? please somebody reassure me. I just miss him so much",3.3238260869565224,5.350309600000003,4.594130434782612,82.60771739130438,74.73913043478261,7.382608695652173,30.630434782608692,8.238735603445708,2.458147826086956,464,22,85,8,10,153,78,115,0.096,0.8140000000000001,0.09,0.3293,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,3,0,8,1,0,0,1,14,16,7,0,1,6,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,14,2,10,10,2,19,0,1,0,1,15,7,0,1,11,58,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19164081695096494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3732387776643112,0.20902986671045568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19162140455499815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15993536036004247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12071189997527285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09548506597766278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616149261432733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14897458697246085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649489149207933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14587806617769794,0.0,0.1343503449800633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20293443384183216,0.0,0.17446602996351526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006166678735391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23416272021080736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12935915839290946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29319965948985593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5568079229984114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chiffychaff,2019/04/09,what happens if all anti psychotics fail??? I've tried like 5 of them... I can't live like this anymore?? i already have a drinking problem and i have been stabbing my wrists i'm too pussy to do it for proper real that's the my friend said.,-0.33737142857142643,1.9300225200000007,1.3557142857142848,98.065,93.8,2.8571428571428577,21.142857142857142,3.1291,-0.4809142857142858,186,7,40,0,7,60,43,50,0.18,0.665,0.156,-0.3094,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,1,1,5,0,0,2,0,5,2,1,0,1,5,8,2,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,6,3,3,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,24,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35159075901412995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3159725423940186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121135755670279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461549861569928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28174312737943097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113105839692864,0.0,0.28133582763231224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3048638804591895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362644530170872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30306822748276474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21631324637736168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gomorra82,2019/07/16,Psychotic Depression vs Schizophrenia Does anyone know what the differences are?,10.864545454545457,15.70239227272727,6.936818181818182,55.12522727272727,80.81818181818181,13.10909090909091,41.86363636363637,10.125756701596842,8.254600000000002,69,4,6,3,2,19,11,11,0.27,0.73,0.0,-0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797563206951175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4677813016237261,0.0,0.0,0.5674361192316796,0.0,0.0,0.4752806987218348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984799804963395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bpena95,2019/07/16,"Okay serious question I feel like I already know the answer to this but I figured I would ask you guys anyways So personally I am not schizophrenic but I recently found out one of my friends ( more like a friends friend) was schizophrenic. I assume it’s not to a high degree as I could not tell (apart from him acting weird on occasions) . Anyways me and my buddy decided to do acid , our friend with the schizophrenia decided he wanted to as well , now at this time non of us knew of his condition so we didn’t see any problem with him doing it . We first asked him if he at least had done it before and he said no but wanted to . Anyways fast forward and everything was cool but then he started like really freaking out , kept saying things like “you hear that ?” Then he would start flinching like things were touching him or something , then the thing that really creeped us out was him asking if we were gonna hurt him . I just attributed this to him having a really bad trip as me and my buddy were fine and having a good time but unfortunately because our other friend was bringing bad vibes we decided to just drop him off . Well 2 days later he brutally assaulted his older brother because he wanted to take his Xbox to his room and now he’s in jail for assault . I just feel bad because I feel like I was somehow at fault . Could it be that the acid messed with his head even more and permanently damaged him ? Anyone here take acid and come out fine after it ?",4.782894736842106,5.951765491228072,5.2453947368421066,82.83651315789473,69.52631578947367,8.366666666666667,28.635964912280702,8.697196308434329,2.093354385964912,1155,41,224,19,20,369,151,285,0.19,0.659,0.151,-0.9612,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,8,2,0,1,15,32,3,0,8,2,21,3,1,1,0,58,44,24,0,10,14,1,4,6,5,3,2,3,1,2,15,20,0,1,13,1,0,5,5,14,2,2,15,12,41,18,31,23,3,35,0,2,1,0,48,14,0,6,23,159,56,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11142173759945943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06866234253240754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07059983147979873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831769912438841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529145458095087,0.18464918857400284,0.0,0.08591713242732556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08697580262501069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16123096759921793,0.0,0.0,0.0651166142583553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332628273174614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666890335415832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09074437402580286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15315879166480648,0.14426446383796326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08588412998468288,0.0,0.1107072327162788,0.3900417683514937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08468795761705533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997512631182018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036232634285842,0.0,0.11379933516999365,0.0,0.0,0.10667923018089297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10808934007041414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05548988963386623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29596994781281755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06841916779722942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08816218508696959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09661364077749164,0.0,0.0,0.11310832220875534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19404986797729676,0.0,0.09969464866008287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09604458493734414,0.08029455480705346,0.0,0.0,0.08045917381211692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0777308239947987,0.0,0.0,0.14293267283081235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15183215640341707,0.0,0.08825130517996102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012378345011936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11775160341562135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24290640908055164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786622929788511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815664084228013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14345087807666818,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MainEar7,2019/07/16,"DAE do this? First thing when I wake my brain is replaying memories from my past looking for evidence of mental illness. I will try to sleep but the memories will start playing. Also, I noticed that whenever I think I made mistake such as offending someone or thinking I could of caused an accident for somebody I always feel the need to apologize. My friend has noticed me doing this allot and he always tells me that it is ok, but I still feel the need to apologize after I do this.",3.880887096774192,5.995372290322582,5.05772849462366,79.5065927419355,73.40860215053762,8.520967741935483,30.97983870967742,9.188382445141503,3.060635483870968,385,18,68,9,8,127,63,93,0.134,0.742,0.124,-0.4678,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,1,0,4,1,9,4,3,2,0,15,18,7,0,4,3,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,3,14,3,10,14,1,6,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,2,6,54,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15753522017083102,0.3278278911741311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199093224797564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023660614003498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15728287029337482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19921114595128286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16756213372381626,0.0,0.0,0.1521962927447546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16542449474887186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18639952696286846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19852259719546966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.292135606872548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4485556416912467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18805209588111316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971352525269643,0.0,0.1669115182357179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394326497960128,0.0,0.1573188535234484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721805530603065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13087338697302214,0.2524503031035786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337453069068449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Green-Goddess-,2019/07/16,"Advice? I don't know if this is the right place to post this but I guess I'll give it a shot. I was recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, general anxiety disorder, major depressive disorder, and panic disorder. Now, I do agree with most of it, I do have almost all the symptoms of BPD, but I have many more that don't seem to fit into that category. I am paranoid to the extreme, and I always have been since I was little. I don't remember the last time I left the house all by myself, I rarely ever cook because I have a lot of nightmares about my house catching on fire, and when I shower I peak my head out at least 20 times because I feel like there is someone there. I also have sleep paranoia, I don't know why but it takes me a long time to fall asleep because I'm scared that someone is there watching me. I will repeatedly get up to check that my front door is locked, it's as if I don't believe myself that I just checked it and it was locked. I always seem to be looking for a ""deeper meaning"" in everything, in what people say to me, their facial expressions, just everything. I feel like my family and friends secretly hate me and it makes me isolate myself from everyone. I dissociate so hard that I can go a whole day and finally ""wake up"" and not remember what happened, I can have whole conversations with my family or friends and I don't know what I said or what I did and when I get home I'm paranoid that I said something inappropriate. When I have a panic attack and look in the mirror or at my hands it's like I'm looking at som on my else. I get intense obsessions with things. I was obsessed with skincare for about a month and it made me waste so much money on products because everything I would buy I would research the shit out of it and find out it had something bad in it then I would feel like I was having a reaction to it. I don't shower for days, I'm not lazy, I really just don't know why I don't. I forget to eat. I can be quiet for so long and have no emotion, then all of a sudden a topic pops up in my head and that's all I can talk about for hours. I know people around me have noticed these things and it makes me even more paranoid. I just really don't know if the doctor just gave me those diagnoses because it was easiest, or if I have a mix of things. This was basically a rant but I would love some input.",4.313552337063856,4.598783297959186,5.697781435154706,82.36532916392366,70.10204081632654,9.098090849242922,28.867676102699146,9.11188708381993,2.168512179065175,1856,64,395,34,31,628,206,490,0.161,0.748,0.091,-0.9861,2,0,2,0,0,0,43.0,0,0,1,0,22,17,3,5,20,0,49,15,8,3,5,80,84,38,0,8,19,0,6,4,2,5,4,4,4,1,35,26,2,0,16,1,4,4,13,10,0,0,14,14,69,7,50,63,14,50,0,1,4,1,14,24,1,15,25,287,104,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07041754605455414,0.0,0.0,0.07215906233911826,0.0,0.0,0.05762745916272699,0.11992168094571998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05512675808796203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06414990566760716,0.0,0.0819802223163209,0.0,0.0,0.060168241888816774,0.21963974051263627,0.0,0.0,0.08118849794022945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09075878487039783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09294725659539817,0.0,0.062066360583308874,0.14628156665429393,0.0,0.0,0.3303543361152532,0.07375787543524343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0737367813865034,0.06019803587015151,0.08105935275735272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04759586154230442,0.06518364336274722,0.0,0.06885773624872928,0.1942923640893116,0.0,0.1358661106155568,0.0,0.10930919605424108,0.15444199177121876,0.0,0.07893971892578712,0.06586279537433594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134888611392252,0.0,0.1129472897177891,0.06912784153440651,0.04095414263326185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07938373380704022,0.0,0.0637236399183568,0.0,0.06455284174761412,0.07114569335713783,0.1479115301808449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228343917884286,0.0,0.07096594316232747,0.1662983136275527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376182976798813,0.058739642208561864,0.0,0.0,0.07829489969131033,0.0,0.0,0.14082220027973236,0.07222443347724282,0.0,0.12754410646201714,0.1815402290100802,0.0,0.0,0.06126400792395351,0.06503820847597992,0.06818621966793209,0.09620306078349022,0.07305892834700131,0.0,0.07849596780864418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05751870562285166,0.0,0.052973405431790965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820423581969237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16909700473748598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09991657436306743,0.06292121705512428,0.0752888041099088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06901488196980256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923287299082028,0.0,0.07115191872101828,0.0,0.16326299092717908,0.06154002436873812,0.13709374761640622,0.05730610132195901,0.07214601210336295,0.0,0.0,0.13120394694781887,0.0,0.0,0.07396997052183724,0.05960991779618526,0.0,0.07211342138102386,0.0,0.1221147460293273,0.11095274110154224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07489936512503771,0.05418118924560883,0.057920207217254535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14362313560924034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12605870969159358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300483731626063,0.16090791353554515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20476134586061365,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Patrisab3lc,2019/07/16,Dreams Hi. Do you feel like you having difficulty with the content or the frequency or maybe lucidity of your dreams? Do you ever feel like you get stuck in a loop hole or wake up different? Just wondering.,3.2511538461538443,5.890130461538463,4.550961538461539,79.80028846153847,77.71794871794873,9.028205128205126,25.134615384615394,9.516144504307137,2.632123076923077,164,6,31,5,4,54,29,39,0.09300000000000001,0.679,0.228,0.7476,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,5,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,3,1,1,0,1,9,8,3,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,5,2,4,7,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,4,3,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3607662696296481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123447122698118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3491893326674524,0.4933665051901335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180405629840976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3373934576101993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469014759242294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3744644314316601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kelliechristie3,2019/07/16,Anyone else became like their voices even did what they said to do? That's how I got found out. I was a humble little girl now I'm grandoise in my thinking also started practicing low key wicca when I was a christian lol,1.4913333333333334,3.9084710222222254,2.8666666666666667,90.54000000000002,83.22222222222223,4.488888888888889,20.11111111111111,5.6839178017228535,0.030244444444444518,176,5,34,1,5,57,40,45,0.05,0.825,0.125,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,1,0,4,10,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,2,6,1,3,4,0,7,1,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,4,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27903180461642224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24397350724723185,0.3575105507660841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.291478521303205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23045887032639584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3825736021927262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790638051959273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.170465057999312,0.349710264921563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3319035435087883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469679088450271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235743333286596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JM91Six,2019/07/16,"Coming off benzos, short term. Worrying about symptoms So my mother is undiagnosed schizophrenic. Being raised by here (only part time, since parents were divorced) has made me hyper aware to this illness. I started benzos for my anxiety. I have always had anxiety, and ocd, ocd is more O than Compulsive. I don’t really have depression, although the fact I am now trying to taper off benzos had led me to a negative overall thought. My mother got brought up during my last doctors visit, and that ramps my ocd up about developing schizo type properties. I know the rate is still low, but I did devolp anxiety like she had. She is definitely a paranoid schizophrenic, growing up she would think everyone was against her, I remember her driving me around in the car and pointing at a star saying it’s following her. the most recent interaction with her (3 years ago) she said government was spying on her and that something was planted in her teeth. I feel none of those symptoms, I have never had any visual hallucinations or beliefs of any sort. I have heard my name being said as I’m falling asleep, which I hear is normal. Going through this taper (low dose .25mg klonopin for 6 weeks) I have been in a lowered mood, less desire to do things I usually do. I’m not in a big negative mood or anything , just sort of down. I have had some feelings of hopelessness and I believe it’s caused mainly by my overall position is life at the moment, and the anxiety and ocd eating at me. I do get surges of energy in my head . Like hyperactive feeling. I can still concentrate, and don’t lose ability to control my movements or anything , I’m just sort of wired. I don’t drink caffeine or anything either. I’ve sometimes have a hard time focusing on one thing, on my iPad I’ll have like 3 things going on. Sometimes listening to a podcast I will just not listen to whatever they say and sometimes have to delisted to it. Does any of these sorts sound like something to be worried about in a diagnoses ? My psychiatrist said I shouldn’t be obsessing over it, but it’s good to be aware of it , since I have had some family history of the disease in my mother. She did have a very traumatic child hood growing up I have only had one episode of serious depressive feeling about 5 years ago that lasted a few days, I can’t remember if I was in between medicines. I may have been starting Prozac to help with my anxiety",4.695704948646124,6.372008760348582,5.592109554933085,78.32792156862746,70.32897603485839,8.905845004668533,31.850669156551515,9.3871,3.074810967942732,1907,86,343,42,35,625,235,459,0.122,0.7909999999999999,0.086,-0.9182,2,0,3,0,1,1,51.0,0,0,1,2,13,15,0,1,17,0,54,15,3,4,2,55,81,19,0,5,13,4,5,4,0,4,10,10,0,1,17,13,2,1,10,1,0,13,11,8,0,2,24,15,54,5,61,48,11,62,1,6,0,0,31,29,0,13,24,245,71,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15638613619452502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07339799791854078,0.0,0.0,0.1799579932612248,0.0,0.3374030153252741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21776856975997,0.07852582794927315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09938274973853414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061622975548847,0.0,0.0759853233733071,0.0,0.0,0.0989353008201702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05688831654395346,0.0,0.15195072547280514,0.08953155126029733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028693302126704,0.07719338793932412,0.0,0.0,0.08641246717801428,0.0,0.09026111181974107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08428867811062885,0.0,0.0,0.08315677720256957,0.0,0.1784070198971061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04608621710566498,0.0,0.10026384060151244,0.07398657616418959,0.07054979848996203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07901906155521372,0.0,0.09052916952736646,0.0,0.0994193674744288,0.0,0.059125474036576524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048478048842586684,0.14380626097165214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06230551126935095,0.17238029823305315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986847112051663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.083466675413353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06803318607321697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08642732036220288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11954710236867787,0.13417574653853948,0.0,0.0,0.09794704837338383,0.09552310933456028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08338720234740825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056509747630131474,0.0,0.08709698431510972,0.0,0.19985004502516546,0.0,0.2517244552321229,0.14029666937216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14593686772316533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13581712658136386,0.2617265909736696,0.0,0.12487134395856975,0.0,0.14088964599205467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833684585537408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17580892004462112,0.05652156915437464,0.0,0.0700290886995962,0.10287221725147376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05988897236781439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09715113281400044,0.07278269788776091,0.0,0.0,0.07075694520501022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.179163590052656,0.0,0.06266203374883281,0.0,0.0,0.11360902331033547 schizophrenia,psychedelicsallly,2019/07/16,"feeling extra paranoid lately I’ve been way more paranoid than usual lately. I live on a street that isn’t busy, and I’ve been noticing the past few nights some dark SUVS have been driving slowly down our road and stopping at our stop sign for over 2 minutes. I don’t know if I’m just now noticing this and getting paranoid for no reason, or if I actually have the right to be paranoid. I’m paranoid as fuck and feel like I have the right to be but am also thinking is this just the beginning me having another episode??? Sorry for the rant lol",6.276939393939394,5.730576027272729,6.578181818181817,80.55393939393942,66.0,8.424242424242424,33.78787878787879,7.1686216300943375,2.2254242424242423,433,17,84,3,6,140,73,110,0.17600000000000002,0.763,0.061,-0.7677,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,2,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,6,1,13,1,0,1,0,19,22,10,0,2,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,2,5,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,2,7,1,11,17,4,19,0,0,0,1,2,8,1,4,10,57,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.1811617930875331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484594631302921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19466395128336644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18773439834867955,0.1326241315989284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17162491362562265,0.09699134311518172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020251034721592,0.0,0.4188291021868612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906962954557852,0.0,0.1639270789955246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742143455919069,0.0,0.0,0.42271391551256604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17721823199130898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19087298105179104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3170779732977428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20781329185940936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104134421064895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11895319797437992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20446067064230888,0.0,0.0,0.14735558941069013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizthrwy5,2019/07/16,"I don’t know why I hear my voices again I started off with 40 mg of Latuda for about a year now, and I just decided to up the dose to 60 mg. However, the voices have went from quiet, and only being heard when there’s silence, to being loud and almost everywhere throughout my house. The voice I hear is of a guy I used to have a huge crush on. After being medicated, I stopped talking to him in reality, and I had this “moment of peace”. But recently I joined a chat room where I can hear his voice and his friends’s voices, and all of a sudden the voice got loud. It’s been day two so far and the voice has been really really sexual auditorily for months now",4.769215328467155,4.488723905109492,6.420136861313868,79.53487682481753,69.07299270072993,9.769708029197082,26.614051094890513,9.516144504307137,2.005891240875913,513,13,110,10,8,178,87,137,0.027999999999999997,0.925,0.047,0.5106,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,0,10,0,12,2,0,1,1,16,21,10,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,14,1,1,2,8,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,6,14,15,1,19,12,1,22,0,0,0,0,11,8,0,1,13,76,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19206105580875332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12369581628115033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14818502303746758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15340082890208254,0.0,0.0,0.18991320414612808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.648521202296619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22131267133447932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540884644860513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932193892784912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15309377606323202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14587334888345738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24574534054106634,0.0,0.18938040752462973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357577773385641,0.0,0.0,0.1603542742963976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15416242659208054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18736176566472346,0.0,0.0,0.16565453355073248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778015040300935,0.17307062374534538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12351359408234976 schizophrenia,natinthehat415,2019/07/16,How do you know if it’s psychosis or just a horribly overactive imagination? I want to bring it up to my psychiatrist but I’m so afraid of her going “no it’s like that for everybody”,-0.29096491228069965,1.963793763157895,3.027368421052632,84.63824561403509,98.21052631578951,7.796491228070176,22.12280701754386,8.344100000000001,2.110249122807017,145,6,31,5,6,52,33,38,0.13,0.755,0.115,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,8,6,5,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,5,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5163165498688194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.499283067008285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4438429662932021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5358517151250062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DanielCherry55,2019/01/19,Help I have been up for sevarl hours straight no sleep no food and im scared,-2.4044117647058805,-1.6642280588235268,-1.4383823529411757,112.94477941176471,123.7058823529412,1.7000000000000002,10.132352941176473,3.1291,-2.479105882352941,61,1,16,0,4,18,15,17,0.33299999999999996,0.457,0.21,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4915364947823326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27246565480138324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4003166108678737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4390853618511083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069733419421749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4067894987220168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ObviousThrowaway1409,2019/01/19,"Anxious/Scared I'm in prodromal phase of schizophrenia? Hello r/schizophrenia, I hope you're all doing well and that the subject matter of my post is not alarming. I have come to the subreddit to explain how I'm feeling, and how worried I am. I basically think I'm entering the prodromal phase of schizophrenia, and I'm extremely scared. I've not heard voices, I've not hallucinated, and I'm not deluded - I don't think the government's out to get me or that people can read my thoughts, but I'm scared that other parts of me are becoming affected. I've become really tired and lethargic in recent weeks, I'm not eating much, I've noticed that while I'm still laughing, I'm nowhere near as happy with doing things as I was before. The two concerning symptoms I have is my memory and a general brain fog. I used to have an amazing memory - I could remember stuff out of the blue and would hardly ever forget ANYTHING, much less simple stuff like I am now. I'm not forgetting to grab things when I need them, like if I'm going out, and I'm not forgetting things like my birthday or other important dates. I'm just feeling generally forgetful. In addition, I am also having problems with speaking coherently - I'm not jumbling them up word salad style or going off on freaky, unrelated tangents, but I'm often having trouble keeping track of what I'm saying - I'm losing focus when speaking, if you will, which I can recognise and correct. I am not having focus issues when reading, I am not being clumsy, I am not suspicious or paranoid of other people, I'm not neglecting friends, family, my hygiene or responsibilities, but I feel like I'm constantly on the lookout for any potential symptom of schizophrenia that I can find. And I want to know why I am constantly doing this. If this information helps, I am 19 years old, Male, diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but no other mental health condition, I have a distant relative (great aunt's son) who is a diagnosed schizophrenic, and I have recently quit a 15 month cannabis habit (not daily but some periods of daily use followed by 1-3 day breaks in between. This 15 months began October 2017, shortly after I turned 18 and finished on the 7th January. I never used more than around a gram to two grams a day during this habit, and occasionally I used less than a gram. I have quit for 12 days as of this post.). None of these symptoms were present before I smoked, or during, only after. I think these symptoms are to do with weed withdrawals sending my anxiety into a tailspin, but I'm honestly not so sure at this point. Is anyone able to provide me with any reassurance that I am not going, or even possibly going, schizophrenic? I am seriously worried about developing it and the consequences of it as such, so any advice is widely welcomed. Thank you so much for reading and understanding :) ",7.712363706414948,7.423760426443202,8.30993642843383,68.46569832402238,62.985102420856606,11.354755024722277,37.325435047839214,10.852061532183503,4.231957991395364,2267,101,384,53,29,759,263,537,0.102,0.7829999999999999,0.115,0.5893,2,0,1,0,0,0,71.0,0,2,2,3,19,24,0,3,18,0,40,13,1,7,5,102,89,45,0,9,32,2,5,4,1,2,10,5,0,1,28,27,2,2,13,3,0,8,19,8,1,2,5,11,44,16,56,80,10,57,0,2,1,0,20,19,0,13,31,264,72,4,0.07768284773570712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07591077973983977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062122945268205124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584810009559101,0.0,0.059427165890511426,0.08775950639784649,0.0,0.05431765335298201,0.0,0.06392636467889394,0.06915420420490907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17158920418541584,0.13220476362199451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671974933328276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06691689481489088,0.0,0.16789512213009486,0.0,0.06202343280611156,0.0,0.0,0.15029703074364642,0.0,0.0,0.15769291048128825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07948894677782617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05130878828504865,0.07026858320391245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07323247524882485,0.0,0.11783634577075433,0.05549664194415607,0.0,0.0,0.07100071548698915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06001757545997175,0.0,0.040586081700605986,0.0,0.17659581028052376,0.0,0.0,0.08564561387316096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826948359213443,0.06958857310488391,0.0,0.0,0.08257323452932808,0.0,0.0,0.052069175353092335,0.0,0.0,0.07715659587896329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08108071039861743,0.0,0.06904808437874592,0.0,0.0,0.04269246153356638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15180766196584913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08690723611335979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07828603931681062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240114158500868,0.0,0.17131749416629302,0.057600847280237275,0.059913801169432575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0884424370255506,0.08151508103709247,0.0,0.0,0.0590813062261903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412295395952184,0.0,0.10771101087444956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07343540042562671,0.08757573875965621,0.14879738921665814,0.0,0.0,0.07433199398532442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16525054147531842,0.2331116094526507,0.0,0.04976562144249458,0.0,0.15340488082086148,0.0,0.0879995231184219,0.0,0.0,0.06177651848063559,0.15554816493160106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062037622548760926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17785655039779688,0.0,0.0,0.07321516465216378,0.3229688921142326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715199291752913,0.0,0.0,0.1548270967058654,0.14932809639938446,0.0,0.0616715038438559,0.0,0.08928500586364914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08449663114517368,0.1517697089570632,0.08087058412563991,0.0,0.26837215432098543,0.0,0.0,0.04581935628770339,0.0,0.06231249469644251,0.0,0.06984620944936419,0.0,0.070096687287448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577814053815484,0.0,0.05518366620166019,0.0,0.0,0.05002520700958707 schizophrenia,Douseigh,2019/01/19,"Would you consider this schizophrenia? A friend of mine has been out of the hospital (was committed for same issue) and started being awake at all hours of the night, laughing at herself, going in and out of the house 10 times an hour to half smoke cigarettes, and calling herself Holly (that's not her name). She went live on Instagram and I managed to get a brief transcript of what she said. **Additionally**, how would you give about getting this person to move from your apartment? They don't want to leave, however their parents live right up the road. They have made the house permanently cig smelled. Our landlord will kick us out if she keeps doing his kind of stuff and she finds out. Not to mention we aren't equipped to be this person's caretaker. But the person wants us to move out (me and my SO which I find wrong after continually putting us though this). It's worse because she lost her jobs after the last hospital visit but gets govt money and just sits around the house all day not cleaning. ***live view from the 901 (*laughs*)… its holly. take it or leave it, i found out my true identity*** ***im not karen (**inaudible**) but karen is a pet name for jack, jack bearcat*** ***what the hell their problem was i don’t know \***laughs**\**** ***you have instagram you get it.*** ***(**inaudible**) its karensketti come talk to me*** *\*breathes heavy through nostrils\** ***(**inaudible**) they hold me captive in the 901… just be careful. because that guys on the loose*** ***You see him… send him towards an angel…or a black person.*** ***Where’s (~~redacted--- names of friends~~)?*** ***(**inaudible**) now they know… me and (~~redacted~~\---)*** ***it was a lie, it was all a lie*** ***(**inaudible even at 33% of normal speed**) princess (**inaudible**) of the kingdom*** ***trying to act like I’m retarded skitzo...real nice people there.*** ***they don’t care if I’m going live to go (**inaudible**)*** ***president…my*** ***purses*** ***everybody knows about*** ***the rejuvenation*** Thank you so much for any advice and help.",-0.272687384440335,-3.926354073033704,0.6353633906983376,94.52050988479591,179.61797752808982,3.8226141373915516,18.545299388422702,5.4465110117690285,0.4377403498791073,1514,58,282,26,158,463,205,356,0.061,0.852,0.08800000000000001,0.7853,3,0,2,0,0,0,220.0,5,7,7,1,13,15,1,0,22,0,20,2,2,2,5,55,47,19,0,8,12,1,0,1,2,3,0,1,3,5,18,19,0,2,5,0,1,12,8,4,0,1,10,6,41,11,45,31,5,45,1,1,3,0,49,20,1,3,13,181,59,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888602915436257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0618565941036634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08097456819928149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108979535500312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288134341865616,0.0,0.18548158822716615,0.0,0.0,0.07835484082525061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05866231516471788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06007887769049384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662733985446068,0.0,0.0,0.09973403332748992,0.1405524743756364,0.0,0.19009345727524316,0.08725807248729067,0.15508568474987106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09006568346854656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06096923591537794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17915650988481233,0.3148703181583819,0.0,0.0,0.0982534809137838,0.0949396437903478,0.0902647495715936,0.08085030956309673,0.0,0.09472187626215814,0.14996934797203124,0.0741453493114077,0.0,0.19262911471107566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044438946331460005,0.0,0.32128089153570616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09929466842863846,0.0,0.0,0.08606949047378243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933542796130088,0.06686679561324363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08536072961991467,0.0891224598290291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10100141769345464,0.0,0.0,0.06306089916112087,0.3176945205819507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703738529791312,0.0,0.09144092108429412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07768019061558984,0.08652473375081933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248413428457072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06438265868422935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104128574216555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06839134614506719,0.07311100025199829,0.0,0.0837446609240469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08936871332353691,0.0,0.05304008623138541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061756543089430224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32824462283490474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10730230022088627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432175137166414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09269702239995084,0.12923215858553724,0.09945156603238292,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chebezlcrow4212,2019/01/19,"What do you make from the idea that every person has two distinct personalities, one in each hemisphere of the brain? The source is not quite reliable - athene theory of everything. I watched this documentary and it made perfect sense to me, but I'm not educated enough to make any kind of conclusion. The idea is that brain makes you believe that you are a singular individual, when in reality you are not and there is always two of you. ",9.046851851851851,8.144859333333333,9.060586419753085,66.1701388888889,60.60493827160494,13.038271604938275,37.533950617283956,12.161744961471696,4.557713580246912,350,14,64,10,4,115,56,81,0.0,0.97,0.03,0.3291,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,5,0,3,2,2,0,0,5,0,7,2,2,4,2,16,12,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,1,7,2,9,11,2,3,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,0,1,47,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15309827438978602,0.0,0.0,0.12512266007364145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20729894439311472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41079772283310106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19011564104158926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155023414159906,0.0,0.16536251234753485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4154150901335247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19160209670169384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741001708114544,0.36845353936377706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467952532749105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213140335484435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19570094083789016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594720424928375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,next_milestone,2019/01/19,"How do I hide my negative symptoms? I don't want people to know I have schizophrenia but (especially) if I'm not telling them, they're shaming me for being lazy, being self-absorbed, not being present, not caring about anything, and so forth. They perceive me as the worst person ever because I don't have a degree and I don't have a job and I don't have hobbies and I seem not interested in the conversation. It's hard to get me talking. I have a lot of scary thoughts and I can't get rid of them, and sometimes I just can't talk about anything but my scary thoughts. Other times I just don't know what to say, like, at all. I realize I need people who would love me and help me with my life. I hate myself for being so low functioning. I've had acquaintances with schizophrenia and I couldn't see any difference between them and healthy people. But my schizophrenia is clearly visible. When I try to hold a conversation, people see there's something really wrong with me. I feel so desperate because I can't do anything about my life. I don't even know who I am. I'm just schizophrenia itself. Nothing more. I'm not human. I can't even name one personality trait of mine. If you can, please let me know. It'd be helpful if someone found something human in me, just like if you were me and tried to tell about yourself. Is there a way to make negative symptoms seem as good or neutral personality traits of a mentally healthy person? Please, say there is and tell me what they are. We can try to talk if me being super passive, is okay with you. Who I live with, they tend to gaslight me all the time, so I really need someone to do a sanity check. But it means I have to trust this person. But there's a problem. I don't know how to know if someone is trustworthy or not. I used to trust people who ended up doing awful things to me. Now I'm just socially isolated. But I try to socialize again and find someone to protect me, so I feel more secure. There's something I can't verbalize but it's constantly inside my head. I feel like I must control myself (in a helpful way), like I must take on the role of my own mom (my real mom is dead), like I must take responsibilities I can't take. I don't trust myself, but there should be someone I could trust, and I try to imitate this person. Get it? I'm not sure I explained it good enough, although I've been writing this post for a week or so. I really need to fix my life but I don't know how. Like I need someone to control me because I don't trust myself but I don't want them to control me because if someone wants to control me, they'll abuse me. Everything is so contradictory about me. I'm constantly trying to sort it all out but failing.",2.5726659690733618,4.339528253187616,4.054056505057551,86.80188698988489,76.12204007285976,6.8581327752586905,26.25280006200829,7.69321558396912,1.410588388947022,2117,80,439,30,47,702,201,549,0.141,0.688,0.171,0.9694,1,0,3,0,1,0,67.0,1,3,8,6,32,27,1,1,14,2,58,7,1,9,9,109,102,48,1,22,33,2,4,6,0,6,5,2,0,8,19,20,0,7,20,0,1,0,27,7,0,1,6,8,88,20,49,79,9,22,0,2,2,1,46,8,0,14,17,307,107,2,0.0,0.07169654243092786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041150072862397635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14938807135543458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147549632662504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061695773755259926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307834339868278,0.2714763438045369,0.04831371767757001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06322191150431379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053595459854023766,0.0625248254515882,0.0,0.0799348955525012,0.05473635264802917,0.0,0.0,0.054384069422798935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09178969438085934,0.04322961451238711,0.0,0.0,0.05530665375564083,0.0,0.0,0.0663480231615912,0.0,0.0,0.09484469357178107,0.0,0.0,0.1015087891842503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05420665259022901,0.059742836700816086,0.06210252495118521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167927461757518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06004858617906302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327897712399755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06187737593956325,0.12822374009621976,0.17737794063505896,0.0,0.0534329940387366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051444935713330184,0.054614227298190696,0.0,0.04039207068835262,0.0,0.0,0.06591504791335139,0.0,0.0,0.060981623082217426,0.0,0.0,0.14174128746202425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17947481766678305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058062667178494926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041004335654755024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097561814428084,0.3170192166098629,0.0,0.13284748559046056,0.0,0.0,0.057953540529159076,0.0,0.0,0.05790158347159283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06887563230704252,0.1162961517433742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624276303141084,0.0,0.0,0.09644007887596423,0.11017527002876087,0.06312696437802091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12336824086389353,0.3588999341055588,0.13975473103894487,0.05984767941349376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05703161909433836,0.12578977949368725,0.1364919416179252,0.14591118526687485,0.15866984016645164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040201325534865336,0.0,0.0,0.09607915881655718,0.0705697895164293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465010838069419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05226273325163208,0.0,0.0,0.10707421422991427,0.0960628393893468,0.0485388850688115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042985819208277716,0.06616011191391699,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizopherenia14343,2019/01/19,"Question to those who do recreational drugs does it cause psychosis to occur I don’t plan on doing recreation drugs as I am fearful of developing schizophrenia because it does run in my family, but I do feel pressure from my friends. ",10.131627906976744,8.803780418604656,8.985697674418606,68.93343023255818,58.767441860465105,11.390697674418604,44.75581395348837,10.125756701596842,4.728637209302328,190,10,31,3,2,59,34,43,0.109,0.799,0.092,0.0644,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,0,0,5,2,0,1,0,4,6,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,5,1,7,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16215711981446707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732653652252321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4655739795207003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6169738870694905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507703879815976,0.29933500735105845,0.1345025598131749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20551853030603984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29799188230498624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,user27_73789,2019/05/29,"Prodromal schizophrenia Hey, as the title describes it I just want to hear what the initial stage of schizophrenia is like since I'm really worried that I'm experiencing it rn. Some background, I had a really bad reaction to an anti depressant, Wellbutrin, where I started hallucinating for a couple of days and it traumatized me to the point where I question almost every sound and everything I see. This happened a couple months ago, but it's still freaking me out. I'm constantly seeking reassurance in my friends and gf and they always say that I haven't changed at all but I just can't bring myself to fully believe jt. I see/ hear stuff at night when I'm falling asleep but I know that's usually normal. If anyone would be so kind to help me out I would greatly appreciate it, thanks in advance. P.S. I'm a 20 year old male, and I'm also a hypochondriac",4.104655765920825,6.17964853614458,5.241514629948366,78.60240963855424,72.67469879518072,8.11635111876076,29.929432013769365,8.841846274778883,2.6407672977624785,691,30,124,14,14,228,109,166,0.08800000000000001,0.73,0.183,0.965,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,1,8,9,0,0,9,0,7,1,1,0,1,22,23,13,0,5,6,0,0,1,2,2,0,4,0,1,11,7,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,1,7,16,6,15,19,2,24,0,1,2,0,11,9,0,4,12,77,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325361614564527,0.0,0.14971782780213386,0.0,0.0,0.11956721342985635,0.1244085842828396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045444710231556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12483890707908392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684523767368802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15816720633525458,0.0,0.0,0.1615727636132798,0.0,0.0,0.3308713448184376,0.0,0.0964249042776615,0.0,0.12877718175502745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125972964510519,0.0,0.1343745782675059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11551503592727655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648409834577563,0.0,0.0,0.1322157555676784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33702888657851765,0.0,0.10021685507152203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15569702330930876,0.08216961765079796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07304555120573164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11934156826169427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14030984217994255,0.1464931043698809,0.0,0.0,0.15689100138499715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14134014667349915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674911889416408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19156647048186884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189004503607791,0.0,0.0,0.23828843748882775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236804791886889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10582759448440572,0.0,0.11940299391704742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17115907841699954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376534644207692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16466981712876955,0.0,0.0881879107440578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15183989499427147,0.0,0.21242254906265132,0.0,0.0,0.09628285615829203 schizophrenia,honeyiceteabumblebee,2019/05/29,"Recently Diagnosed I've struggled with a variety of the symptoms but I have been officially diagnosed today. It kinda sucks, but I'm trying to stay positive if it's possible. I was just wondering if anyone could give me some tips to cope? Or what helps you calm down when you're seeing/hearing things or feeling other symptoms.",4.192021857923496,6.928977737704924,5.5913934426229535,73.08304644808746,74.90163934426229,9.31256830601093,31.478142076502728,9.725611199111238,3.8751945355191255,266,13,42,8,6,89,50,61,0.07,0.7290000000000001,0.20199999999999999,0.8587,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,1,2,0,4,4,0,0,0,13,9,7,0,3,7,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,4,1,5,6,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,7,3,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566823960623555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17891016021848366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.454874272562777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133019062183056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21495857168463728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25255517089781754,0.0,0.15019653191379198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526172567990831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22125260215565912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388401510815251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342577416990856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4658111750632564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14886922261785102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21240224896615686,0.0,0.0,0.1521360478896462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24300589922411284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chris_182001,2019/05/29,"Am I having another paranoid delusion? I Keep thinking I can summon some night demon or creature and it will come for me or something and kill me in my sleep or at night ,I Know they talking about identifying delusions but its hard to tell.",5.8957971014492765,6.811577565217391,6.037826086956525,79.08471014492756,66.82608695652173,7.872463768115942,34.89855072463768,7.793537801064563,2.6506898550724647,192,9,34,2,3,61,38,46,0.129,0.871,0.0,-0.6059,0,0,1,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,11,8,6,1,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,8,0,5,7,1,5,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,4,2,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040032766806203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497378440885671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25970870687421765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25769157069966464,0.3207502308885234,0.0,0.15933081371633478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5441349726597801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901263973531184,0.0,0.0,0.2231922881744893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330243210220233,0.2534002564905098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857671218396767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,icy_regret,2019/05/29,Dilated pupils when on risperidone?? For some reason my pupils have been dilated and the only thing I can think of as the cause is a recent new medication called risperidone. Has anyone had this happen before? Is this common or am I just weird?,4.605,7.048569888888893,4.793055555555559,80.73625000000003,72.33333333333333,7.166666666666668,22.36111111111111,8.07648339933343,1.3391111111111114,195,5,33,3,4,61,38,45,0.061,0.9390000000000001,0.0,-0.3939,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,8,1,0,2,0,7,10,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,4,8,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,4,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22682247744917605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760337584951765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312405721138313,0.0,0.0,0.3332400132309131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28685883569139803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32679088219203634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3132998820875825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467147864815152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335290748151763,0.3202980336288141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21551167673409552,0.20785733972445425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwawawawawaysb,2019/05/29,"Live-in partner with schizophrenia off meds Hi all, I’ve been with my live-in partner for 2 and a half years, and we’ve lived together the entire time we have been dating (roommates initially, then started dating). He confided in me early on in our relationship that he had schizophrenia, and that his symptoms in the past have included hearing voices, delusions, and some visual hallucinations. He said it was really bad in his teens, but he got diagnosed at the end of high school and he’s been excelling at school/work since. About half way through our relationship, he said that he was going off medication and was not going to inform his doctor about it because he feels his symptoms are very manageable and he doesn’t like the side effects, specifically flat affect and cognitive slowness. I felt like this was his decision, as I can have no real idea what his experience on and off medication are, and this is clearly a very personal decision. He said he would tell me more if he felt off but otherwise he doesn’t like to talk about his mental illness day to day, which I totally understand. I have put this to the back of my mind until this morning, when we had been reading an article about how only a quarter of people experience inner thought in purely verbal terms (rather than emotion, sound or imagery). He said that he absolutely experiences inner thought in verbal terms and joke about how he has multiple inner voices. So I asked if he was experiencing that day to day now and he said yes, but that he experienced it on medication too, but on a lesser degree. This made me reflect on the past half of our relationship, which has been rockier than the first half. I chalked this up to us getting to know each other better and being more honest with each other. He’s always had a bit of a verbal mean streak but it’s come out a lot more later in the relationship. Some of it has always been good spirited ribbing, but sometimes it comes out during arguments — and my god can it be creative. I have felt like he’s been more quick to react with combativeness and less empathetic as the relationship progressed. This is something we are working on and he has been trying to catch himself when this occurs. He has also always been the type to say somewhat outlandish/controversial things, sometimes as a joke, sometimes not, and I’ve notice that come out more often with his peers at uni as well. This obviously doesn’t rub everyone the right way, and I have expressed that to him, and he’s taken note of this but I’m not sure how much better it is. I really have no idea knowledge about how schizophrenia can come out in a person’s behaviour, and I’m not sure if him going off medication can account in any part of his behaviour, or if that’s just his personality. What do you guys think? And is it advisable to go off medication without advising your doctor?",8.569017594304103,7.665742182994458,8.561228178270692,69.37097487505993,61.55083179297597,11.563798178955295,36.48805367289656,10.746095033038511,3.8656546998014663,2295,89,407,48,27,749,239,541,0.036000000000000004,0.853,0.111,0.9925,0,0,1,0,0,0,53.0,7,2,0,7,22,15,0,0,21,1,47,12,1,8,7,99,79,48,0,6,20,0,5,4,2,1,11,10,0,6,35,39,0,0,18,3,1,10,10,1,1,6,30,17,37,14,70,46,19,72,1,0,0,0,72,35,0,11,29,289,72,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052773218478404604,0.1647301432545026,0.0,0.0,0.04487634669183985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061692956990773075,0.0,0.0,0.05074323602169308,0.05509997873919393,0.04022768375014695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11672788360722668,0.07204540760779551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22738264547608675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17023571576967528,0.0,0.0,0.0669797800264933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13508978294030544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07423132990650175,0.058448704223694435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06305751479900218,0.0,0.19365646135032566,0.0,0.0,0.03336718391360389,0.0,0.19008598941024776,0.0,0.0,0.056132165760301014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034477730370338286,0.0,0.1500175054171934,0.05535037120024042,0.05277927074035367,0.0,0.0,0.0653417617788405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07437699079344902,0.0,0.0,0.06972343124117522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14899228960511185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03626709245939263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289600626150579,0.0,0.17481457979068382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056103443080909816,0.0,0.06244256332022515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07188387131804558,0.07330145722408625,0.3323964587415873,0.06650370871565063,0.0,0.06663240062936478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048511198290088216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07513153202510378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050189357056450314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07146214670260889,0.12599232515108907,0.04575005808937697,0.1728631723221055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06633948305532268,0.0,0.0,0.06600915782075517,0.07511254632200018,0.08455143270364211,0.0,0.0,0.3542497962830464,0.0,0.05635620932040548,0.3138641890558716,0.052478930168855714,0.0,0.1335734366817348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054588684995720026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05080332650443085,0.19580124820504716,0.0,0.04670898153903945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439203786748085,0.13718045588218394,0.0,0.053041306942917414,0.05767930456777015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04384168718745287,0.04228456019605517,0.0,0.10477944122553703,0.03848005750681583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04480376067143798,0.0,0.0,0.06869927023120198,0.07937940816994211,0.0,0.0,0.1088994667384646,0.0,0.10476164402076042,0.0,0.0,0.0593341036109282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06361325794588728,0.0,0.0960849041779092,0.0,0.0,0.04687832587985901,0.0,0.0,0.042496233357041405 schizophrenia,locolukaa,2019/05/29,into the spiderverse i would recommend this animated movie to everyone. found spidey sense very relatable! great animation too.,8.013508771929825,12.330899473684216,7.995789473684213,49.01719298245615,80.57894736842105,15.164912280701756,37.91228070175438,11.20814326018867,8.32498596491228,106,6,12,6,3,34,19,19,0.0,0.691,0.309,0.8004,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44963857645772987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5159428368544131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5187921355936358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3882598399046323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3342710822418093,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,looking_for_insight,2019/05/29,"How can I support my brother? He was just prescribed medication because of ongoing and worsening symptoms. I’m worried about him and I want to support him and help him so I’m really just asking for advice because I don’t want him to feel uncomfortable or anything. Any advice would be greatly appreciated",4.179345238095237,7.173467767857139,5.960714285714289,68.9509523809524,76.67857142857143,8.019047619047619,36.11904761904762,8.841846274778883,4.0723190476190485,249,15,37,6,6,85,40,56,0.124,0.65,0.22699999999999998,0.6697,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,0,11,13,6,0,3,3,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,8,3,5,10,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,1,0,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4389461109220161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15273329045632214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848237447787429,0.0,0.2099673661914752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738238274513325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135627155076033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476183834232343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150542268821942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22625729865333816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438822395492785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5097387888074025,0.0,0.2334417121458121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649456153179553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22808860120196056,0.0,0.15954687693008124,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,randomuser111991,2019/05/29,"Can schizophrenia come in ""episodes"" Is it possible for an individual with schizophrenia to experience more severe symptoms for a period of time and then ""get better"" for a while and then experience severe symptoms again?",20.250833333333333,12.939911305555556,17.133333333333336,36.345000000000034,47.05555555555557,19.95555555555556,61.0,15.903189008614273,8.8942,181,9,24,5,1,57,27,36,0.146,0.7809999999999999,0.073,-0.4378,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,20,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21666874970628214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110323256865783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4792834074904823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12799421185751753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761830457808072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5535251684189761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.509265086312084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14285234497494906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,theordinarykingdom,2019/05/29,"Is it possible to have Schizophrenia without delusions? Along with my depression and OCD, I’ve also recently started hearing voices. Mostly screaming inside of my head and laughing as well. I also sometimes hear someone crying in another room when no one is there. Severe anhedonia is another thing I’m dealing with. Now obviously I’m going to bring all of this up with my psychiatrist the next time I see them, but does anyone here have hallucinations without delusions?",7.517357723577232,9.640890573170736,7.87170731707317,62.96821138211385,64.0,9.856910569105693,39.27642276422764,10.125756701596842,4.7817739837398365,385,21,52,9,6,126,63,82,0.11900000000000001,0.8370000000000001,0.044000000000000004,-0.6497,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,0,1,0,5,1,1,0,2,12,13,7,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,1,0,5,6,2,13,13,2,11,0,1,1,0,4,3,0,1,6,42,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875818073550093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37708482677056987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12572463246143165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975085996585702,0.0,0.18537223312149265,0.15486676327420293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573495631446994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218797191709247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18453297176411332,0.0,0.4053091711046535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912258677269792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12184129259692407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20270440434061324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17753686940098362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14328221248762227,0.0,0.0,0.20312975627214155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15234915732032625,0.0,0.17783286821331054,0.0,0.12726771000527018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11945520855450588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484640508957388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16166731200222945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34665340146545703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zalusei,2019/05/29,"How to support a friend dealing with late onset schizophrenia? A close friend of mine has been going through late onset of schizophrenia. He is 19 years old and first experienced symptoms where he thought his roommates were poisoning him to get him out of the house. Anyways since that has happened he believes he has been poisoned 4 times. I gave him a THC cartridge without knowing any of this and he ended up having a psychotic episode due to the weed. He believes the cartridge was poisoned but he experiences delusions and seizures and was sent to a psych ward for over a week. Anyways from an outsiders perspective it's obvious that he is dealing with a mental disability similar to schizophrenia, he is still in denial though and wants to do drugs with me. I'm not going to do drugs with him but I really want to support him. It's sad to see a friend go through something like this. Any advice? Thanks.",5.470710059171598,7.391008378698224,4.980591715976335,82.50863905325447,68.76331360946746,7.3301775147929,34.301775147928986,7.882392219407189,2.6152272189349115,732,36,128,9,13,222,100,169,0.061,0.8079999999999999,0.131,0.91,0,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,6,11,3,0,12,0,14,6,0,1,1,21,30,9,0,2,4,0,0,1,3,0,6,0,0,0,6,11,0,0,2,0,0,4,2,4,0,1,8,2,10,7,26,22,0,20,0,1,1,0,22,6,0,0,11,83,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13329460440211635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18552184902739394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073662551819364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28125769907753745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163758773408689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12081544599982764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334314824114511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11602708274442505,0.0,0.0,0.3161613807233428,0.0,0.0712666333168358,0.0,0.2325684384130325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206235924126036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15739449306108078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749653051987121,0.0,0.3077443727377201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06664120140873807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13746541237892473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14313540865847826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08738533375282118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10869811709231396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11283665586598947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050121919968839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10893420386439512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30958438182662457,0.0,0.14177831809953986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255845441050657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13401844363752108,0.10829132220645693,0.07953957870464347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16091187552704586,0.0,0.10941686224719588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13149075299977056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784114985157128 schizophrenia,msnovapeach,2019/05/29,Schizoaffective depressive type is my official diagnosis Just found out in my new therapist appointment this morning after 10 years of living with it. I'm shocked I thought it was schizophrenia that's what I remember my psychiatrist saying in the hospital I was terrified,6.412826086956521,9.998973760869564,6.7240869565217425,63.2404782608696,72.26086956521739,12.375652173913045,39.63478260869565,11.20814326018867,6.613457391304348,227,14,31,10,5,73,38,46,0.19,0.81,0.0,-0.836,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,1,6,0,6,2,0,6,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,22,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051786666644499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3884978815543021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128745062772262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.342208242651591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40137992157546976,0.0,0.0,0.2817725967627691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4113973719581782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812936081821357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228172982702236 schizophrenia,PsychedelicSoul,2019/05/29,"Am I delusional? I have been diagnosed as schizophrenic, but I thought that was just a way of saying I was getting freaked out by hyperawareness. I converse with what I have thought is a Goddess through signs every day. It seems incredibly real and coherent, but my other schizophrenic friend told me it’s probably just schizoid delusion. This communication through signs is like the basis of all my spirituality. Symbolic things like my favorite bowl breaking right when I was thinking about how I eat too much. I’ve read that enlightenment and schizophrenia are very similar but while the enlightened let go of the ego, the schizophrenic cling to it and they sink into the the abyssal rabbit hole. Do you think any of this is true, or am I just completely delusional? Tl;dr: is the idea of communicating through signs with a Goddess necessarily delusional? Thanks everyone.",7.070408388520974,9.572749324503311,6.6658443708609285,69.68410871964682,65.6887417218543,10.596247240618103,37.748896247240616,10.686352973137794,4.736880353200883,712,38,113,21,12,222,99,151,0.018000000000000002,0.8109999999999999,0.171,0.9785,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,1,0,7,6,0,0,10,0,15,5,0,1,2,29,24,11,0,0,7,0,0,2,1,0,4,1,0,0,10,7,1,0,8,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,1,15,5,16,16,2,9,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,2,5,82,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387794481833758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21397099066596945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13161286756389126,0.0,0.0,0.20713399366822527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088218544298585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17194378588141024,0.1950044456094694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15766948631191835,0.0,0.10662187874310224,0.0,0.1159817373426612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23037824220587666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086826946003988,0.0,0.1994035571824484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15002017378203725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22002966526231907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041323586413847,0.2322844549222389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17428075607176932,0.0,0.16229032679730193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857841568005789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18788680495188853,0.0,0.0,0.13557977874364802,0.2615287724280074,0.0,0.3240288950902195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950044456094694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683850069749116,0.0,0.16198692874689888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,charzemon,2019/04/04,"Mixed emotions I haven’t been diagnosed, but I’ve been aware of my symptoms for about 4 years now. I’ve tried to ignore them or classify them as spiritual occurrences, but they’re getting worse and have now cost me my relationship with the person I thought I would end up marrying. I’m terrified of psychiatrists. More specifically of saying the wrong thing or them needing to meet some quota and locking me away. I’ve been trying to get the courage to set up an appointment at the low cost clinic (I don’t have insurance) for the past couple of weeks and finally got the nerve to call and they aren’t even taking appointments. I have to call back May 1st to set up something for July at the earliest. As much as I’m afraid of it, I was starting to look forward to possibly getting help and now I feel more defeated than I did before. Sorry for rambling, but thanks for letting me vent.",5.081165703275527,6.2440919479768775,5.7885693641618525,79.23907755298653,68.82658959537572,9.466088631984585,31.179672447013488,9.725611199111238,2.947489788053949,709,29,135,16,12,231,104,173,0.14,0.7959999999999999,0.064,-0.9329999999999999,1,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,4,1,6,7,0,1,8,0,14,3,0,0,0,18,27,13,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,2,6,0,1,2,0,2,1,3,5,0,0,7,3,17,2,31,17,4,20,0,2,1,0,11,8,0,4,11,91,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158283189662248,0.1295430955977756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14335563311965946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440535838019701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18640894365056207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709935890446684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895061691043315,0.14921448989928898,0.0,0.0,0.11127290163668536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0851835364559851,0.0,0.0,0.18455074232555674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640559967115421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13474091625089835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292194614263187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17227207513987372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14147244032820835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238448961940261,0.12491843264736142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16082375801432955,0.0,0.1471015791995345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18992470667257813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18087382210219569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13397417273164747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12969650140631506,0.0,0.18858846624650852,0.1192439926022801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17510492337239847,0.126668536845932,0.0,0.0,0.15510461872481826,0.0,0.0,0.11192403795579776,0.0,0.0,0.13374642844573914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22876025680816614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13513653946714227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17168540845022173,0.11967631406720113,0.18419559003324484,0.0,0.10848921062036976 schizophrenia,ti850,2019/04/04,Its a Super Power!! We are better!! Learn to control it!! Wath if we are the real superheros on the world . Wath is if we are the only people who are thinking true? The most people dont think like use. Thats true. But that not means we are not normal. Wath if we are more normal than the most other people and we life in a world full of (normal psychopaths). Think about it. Wath did you think can you do if you have full control over all parts of your brain. You see open doors. Learn to control them. Dont eat that pharmaceutical food called medizin. ,0.7391168831168822,3.20460150909091,1.8488311688311685,95.8018181818182,88.45454545454545,3.8701298701298703,15.129870129870133,5.288315135182226,-0.9416493506493508,426,8,90,2,14,134,64,110,0.018000000000000002,0.8640000000000001,0.11699999999999999,0.9092,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,6,5,1,6,1,5,0,0,7,0,13,4,1,4,3,35,20,6,0,7,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,8,8,2,3,7,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,12,5,9,19,7,8,0,0,1,0,14,8,0,6,1,64,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12728080323847513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606563327320325,0.14695293720427496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.484237515386394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3373337705519057,0.0,0.0,0.14726060419037704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17402215292619974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165116570066736,0.07030942328467099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567652320680914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4230173712188751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10945356812366866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558455298317545,0.0,0.29931687075301106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16380636628897924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11468133471987706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3688587590227741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242960411327462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Wishing-I-was-Asleep,2019/04/04,Which voices in my head should I listen to? Which voices should I ignore? When my brain gives me two answers to every question which one do I choose? It's so fucking difficult that I've taken to not thinking at all.,2.675465116279071,4.8295541627907,3.6955232558139532,87.71444767441862,77.13953488372094,5.230232558139536,22.377906976744185,5.985473137389443,0.4470511627906975,171,5,32,1,4,55,33,43,0.145,0.855,0.0,-0.7279,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,9,8,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,5,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,1,3,6,0,5,5,1,3,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,1,1,25,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3981019960285052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30046481359530725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32968624248346035,0.0,0.3420990780282965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3659914513563729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24165259512369075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3994921375372113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22850547769021326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34836253873535605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,antlionpetshop,2019/04/04,"Would anyone like to chat and maybe become friends? 😅 Disclaimer: I believe that my “schizophrenia” is caused by discarnate entities who insert thoughts into my mind—and do other stuff too. I know it sounds crazy, but I have experienced enough, researched enough, and spoken to enough other people in similar situations to realize that I’m not alone in this. If you also believe something similar about your situation, and would like a friend to talk to, then feel free to PM me. Thank you. 🙂 ",6.937765151515151,8.440761488636365,6.4890909090909075,74.66196969696973,64.79545454545455,9.503030303030306,32.84848484848485,9.725611199111238,3.2791984848484863,393,16,65,8,6,122,66,88,0.018000000000000002,0.759,0.223,0.961,0,1,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,0,0,3,6,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,14,10,7,0,3,3,0,1,2,2,2,0,1,0,0,8,4,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,9,7,11,7,3,4,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,1,3,46,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17102919214936854,0.0,0.13205773136938484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154656470992318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18237771031601047,0.0,0.3720993084563862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696382748296435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5118832039793126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834967950953893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551644911012033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09075341795784107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16135242266081715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16589946337861494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16673843128234953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11448323705655752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37123543859715097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271283472494418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18903910989180567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13272858593256354,0.0,0.15203335182857036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13109808063022016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346131444919239,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,angsty_eggplant,2019/04/04,"Injection?? hi guys, I'm not sure what do to and I'm just really scared, my doctor wants to hospitalize me and give me an anti-psychotic injection and I'm really scared it's going to change who I am as a person. Will it make me a zombie?? my doctor didn't even tell me the name of the drug which is also worrying. it also makes me really sad because I've grown kind of attached to one of my ""hallucinations"" and I don't want him to go. Has anyone here gotten an injection?? im not sure what to do. 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I have read the FAQ, and I know that simply asking, “am i going crazy!!1?” is frowned upon. But I have a bit of a niche thing. My whole life, I’ve been an intense hypochondriac about mental issues. I am not proud of it. I have self-diagnosed myself (short term, before becoming ashamed and dismissing it) with almost every issue in the book. I am highly aware that it isn’t healthy for me, and that it’s probably not nearly as bad as I think. But is it? I’ve never visited doctors about it until recent. I’m almost 19. I’m on HRT with planned parenthood, and during those visits with the psychologists there, they *heavily suggested* that I have autism. But, this isn’t an official diagnosis. I feel like it’s true. I have extreme sensory problems. I have intense meltdowns. But the funny thing is, that I feel like I have never struggled socially until the last year. I have lots of memories as a child of doing weird things, but I was never checked for autism. I almost think these symptoms came up recently. I don’t think autism can just manifest. I have confirmed from outside opinions that I have delusions. I feel like everyone in the entire world hates me. Every other peer at my school, I truly believed in my heart that they are PRETENDING to like me. This wasn’t always true. I feel like I was a happy, normalish person with some identity problems (FtM) from middle school to junior year. Senior year got hard. I started having more freak outs. But they were quiet. I shut down. To be fair, the recent meltdowns happen in private. Maybe I didn’t lash at school because I’d be labeled a “tard.” I don’t know. (Thinking about it mid-writing, I can barely remember my life at all. It feels like my memory consists of 3 years total.) This past year, I have had extreme outbursts of screaming, kicking, clawing, bashing my head... But these NEVER happened at school. Or before at all! Unless I don’t remember them. I don’t know. They are almost always triggered by something menial, something any other human being would never react violently to. Such as misplacing an item, and failing to find it at all for an extended time. Or being forced to return to a place/situation where I previously had a meltdown. I go into this intense, cyclical, infinite mindset of “I want the world to die. I want everything to suffer. I am in agony. I am dying. Kill me. Kill me. Kill me.” It hurts. It physically hurts. I literally feel like I am physically dying in those moments. I feel the intense drive to tear my body apart. I wish I could put into words how truly intense this experience is. I need SOMEBODY to tell me, does this sound serious? Am I just crazy? Does “just crazy” exist!? Am I just autistic? I’m sorry if this is the wrong place to post this. But I really do feel like it set in, and is getting worse. I don’t have money to visit 20 psychiatrists. I am desperate for answers. Help. Any insight is appreciated.",2.019015895278166,4.765961464157709,3.6355976312918834,83.4009326788219,84.89605734767025,6.1021661212404545,24.215988779803638,7.47871067723058,1.5652036465638155,2299,90,408,40,69,760,267,558,0.16699999999999998,0.701,0.131,-0.9879,1,0,3,0,0,3,105.0,0,0,5,3,11,31,5,2,21,0,56,7,3,3,11,83,88,26,6,9,19,0,9,8,0,1,4,3,0,3,37,14,0,0,20,3,2,8,16,19,0,1,10,12,69,12,62,72,11,64,0,4,0,0,16,30,0,11,32,288,106,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252687364325598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498575127424374,0.0,0.0,0.08580172782234471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05897719728197545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0526744457526994,0.03845683780539443,0.06967388885402895,0.10736363106642252,0.0710766842481171,0.0,0.0,0.06887392702510249,0.07007468460958667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07215394871985246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05036929664885813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06403129130472099,0.19642093402918304,0.0,0.0,0.06457152621523092,0.1104145352194534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05270052897209068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10630589838811254,0.06028168646492424,0.05669792053698215,0.061710530575343765,0.0,0.0,0.2551867291705143,0.3154821792736459,0.0,0.0,0.05765975759234244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03296000070462367,0.0,0.07170682395774045,0.0,0.05045589666447964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115740566342828,0.06715656540442902,0.05651295524141426,0.062284684538460575,0.06474476923479615,0.0,0.0,0.07475759815745868,0.04228543343964816,0.0666541654033872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350704300955248,0.0,0.0,0.13169146465449094,0.0,0.0,0.2093870127810787,0.0,0.10401178211353104,0.051423774401873415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911947320958634,0.24656633189041996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05363373701273184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06337869223358672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06357617692879547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046777710175338105,0.24328031261166244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06022303500188785,0.0,0.055084545109169804,0.13182356350718333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060419260100119325,0.0,0.06801772776446519,0.12073018490453563,0.0,0.06341918057717992,0.0,0.0,0.06310339645081336,0.0,0.040414714825406886,0.0,0.18687040364897345,0.0,0.14292901519224138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25538691322538964,0.0,0.0,0.06581279496060424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06430856307303086,0.0,0.14570080391578027,0.0,0.07061997520729417,0.044652825110653833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06595152376770272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557084636909953,0.0,0.0,0.05514022816395886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12573525215280798,0.16169267743397636,0.0,0.0,0.03678614308178908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07441989727752199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0704336282450316,0.07254615964976148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06429035417447379,0.0448147148154802,0.06897499226934561,0.0,0.2031276227215001 schizophrenia,x_casio,2019/04/04,Suicidal I feel very paranoid lately. I feel like people mean me harm and their thoughts stick to the back of my head and make sick and miserable. This makes me feel isolated because I have noone to keep me safe and the feeling of isolation and hostility makes me feel like I don't deserve to be loved and kept safe. I want to harm myself to purge this feeling. I'm starting to get suicidal impulses. I don't know how to cure myself and noone cares for me enough to help. I feel like just giving up. ,4.3644571428571455,5.412296360000003,4.8494285714285725,85.73900000000002,70.4,8.514285714285714,28.285714285714285,8.841846274778883,2.002471428571429,396,14,82,7,7,126,58,100,0.254,0.52,0.226,-0.8268,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,3,11,1,1,2,0,4,3,1,4,0,27,26,8,2,1,1,0,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,0,4,10,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,7,16,7,12,23,1,6,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,8,47,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12032753078280263,0.0,0.0953919819519849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15954718504890164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616911384570217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5538656607253468,0.3353793729969625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08175710671437049,0.15011495179877066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605990562610626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10488879309106793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13909131816712672,0.0,0.0,0.08600022439334977,0.0,0.1765222261223402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293524288256624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14123408620520506,0.0,0.3133654439048259,0.0,0.0,0.17045835892514588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848719858369092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11076109555900963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34233902312420794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12423184278275752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12911675489716018,0.09229907999573153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Iwishistartedsooner,2019/04/04,"Terrified that im going backwards. When I was a teenager from 12 and onward, I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder with psychotic tendencies. I heard things, saw things and so forth. I'm almost 30 and have been off meds for years with no issues. Two days ago I overheard my fiance saying some things that broke my heart. I confronted her about it and she says that the conversation I heard never happened. Yesterday at work I had a feeling like everyone was saying things to me and would hear them being very negative to me and when I asked them to repeat what they had said thinking I misheard they told me they hadn't said a thing. Today was worse. My self confidence from the things I thought were said to me is at an all-time low. I'm terrified that these things I dealt with for so long are coming back. I can't sleep, I can't eat. I really don't know if this is something I can deal with again. I'm getting married in two days and maybe I'm just under an immense amount of stress but honestly it's not a very large or traditional thing we're doing so I haven't felt any actual stress about it. I'm afraid to tell my fiance about this as she has an anxiety disorder and I don't want to scare her. TLDR; started hearing negative voices and not sure what to do.",3.13618963068182,5.0611022851562515,4.2513068181818205,85.30846590909094,74.9765625,7.935795454545455,24.52698863636364,8.710501217029153,1.7112640625000002,1019,33,205,21,22,332,146,256,0.153,0.7959999999999999,0.05,-0.9671,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,5,1,11,10,1,4,9,0,24,4,2,0,2,32,50,18,0,3,6,0,2,1,0,1,1,11,0,2,20,15,1,0,5,0,0,2,12,7,0,2,18,14,34,3,26,30,2,23,0,2,1,0,26,7,0,4,15,142,54,1,0.0,0.0,0.09782731357545438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08886355496333173,0.0,0.10038361058356884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06817188707558246,0.0,0.07668923122406811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937180855254089,0.0,0.0,0.07708430857072215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08635453403096231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293029719127239,0.10335099720691572,0.0,0.10174932535548276,0.0,0.0,0.22978514379343176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10257844418213588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579099224951204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050688259216118865,0.07161699102487816,0.0962535319085448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05237529600101054,0.0,0.056973089347539974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08864872750798079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259729318970891,0.1187940305860562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082847399326934,0.10463257425109837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05509352507411202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048975972165378925,0.0,0.0,0.08871607737321957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007123087053027,0.0,0.11135261741938322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07731722155252717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753244215704963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06422125626593743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860756139573658,0.2391630311989597,0.10036545583291637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10458023492189786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10032011746135397,0.0,0.0,0.07717559232943913,0.0,0.0,0.07095585201622202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22966684856002234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09448228948798834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762092566477019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5328010443754798,0.06423469099480655,0.0,0.07958549170813856,0.0,0.0,0.0950231166714803,0.09579099224951204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19585491127848192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654297351801966,0.059128702441566226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07298153392771241,0.0,0.10216099083473353,0.07121310386781582,0.0,0.0,0.06455624477294218 schizophrenia,Vicrattlehead867,2019/04/04,"Hello new user to this,just here for helpful advice if possible? Hey pretty much the story is I keep losing jobs because of my schizophrenia and panic attacks just got a job making a lot more money then I’ve ever made though it’s a lot of work 26 days on 6 off 12 hour days I live in hotels when I am working....basically I don’t wanna fuck this up I’ve already had to leave for a manic episode but the boss is gonna give me another shot at it.any suggestions that could keep me in check at the job? anything I could ask my doctor about when I see him next?anything helps and thank you for your time ",5.396571428571427,4.885742120000003,6.195085714285718,82.45240000000003,67.8,8.742857142857144,28.25714285714286,7.957251820313856,1.643754285714286,475,13,99,5,7,157,94,125,0.078,0.8270000000000001,0.094,0.6046,4,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,2,7,5,2,1,7,0,7,2,0,3,1,16,18,8,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,4,0,0,3,1,13,1,16,12,4,16,0,1,1,1,10,7,1,3,9,61,16,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13923469656627602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15723574470842105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09689468854199748,0.14940794988662026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23450603508896814,0.0,0.13320424440750586,0.1620972615235088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08685753576382885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275253627048563,0.0,0.0,0.18378207980581976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14583943890409293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12888584327640734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13172508995744206,0.0,0.13668459893316914,0.0,0.0,0.11395827371995605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910093890641237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14031902723635484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.424183141157281,0.2532944361764133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15087104571883447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12581686872250475,0.0,0.0,0.15940427289942222,0.0,0.24227130968514984,0.0,0.13482275565397894,0.09510984639083414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474287226174528,0.0,0.0,0.13761290446369695,0.15153441790306382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16717545174500806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606304329181947,0.0,0.14495847305689374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135421003615175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13118104795249536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139990792709525,0.0,0.08308415149754272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10373077968932687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AtlasRightClock,2019/04/04,"Having Bad Symptoms Hi! Lately I've been having a bad problem. About once a day I start seeing faces in everything. From the wall, to plants, to the fence. They are scary faces and I also see light glowing. Can anybody think of anything I can do to help? Does this happen to anyone else? Thank you for reading!",1.3170000000000002,3.969624366666668,2.085000000000001,93.4725,88.66666666666666,3.6666666666666665,19.166666666666664,5.148860815047168,-0.2923333333333331,242,7,46,1,8,75,48,60,0.20600000000000002,0.716,0.078,-0.8639,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,0,2,4,0,0,4,0,7,3,2,0,0,4,13,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,5,1,9,12,0,5,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,0,3,28,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821978509976858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15930602886620832,0.23344168292257084,0.1874870261914316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3804618329430646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14693334266214986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19937806583848586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903251146098976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047614783915879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014718403268492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15271155949862114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25700538296694736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24263455380692275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21800527174023845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278945087654669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3631065739733947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612612666818126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368055709056724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20975788161663345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14598609332982335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kuroiichan,2019/04/04,"Some things to help someone deal with schizophrenia living alone? Hi there, i didnt see this specific information in the sticky so i hope its okay if i ask. Before i start, i am going to help her get therapy and medication if she'll let me. And im sorry this is a long read, tldr; what tips for someone living alone with schizophrenia and how can i help? Will technology make it worse with someone who is hearing voices on a phone? Ive posted before, when my mom was first developing schizophrenia and was showing capgras symptoms. Now, due to financial and housing issues, she moved away from where i live, and i cant afford to move with her. She has family out there, and my sister helped her move but they dont understand mental illness and i dont think its helping. Shes called the police multiple times, is losing medication and thinks someone is breaking in, and is getting phone calls from people that arent calling her, including a version of myself. She ended up walking to a gas station alone today because of a phone call from someone she didnt know. My sister had to call family to pick her up. And i worry shes going to get into trouble and my family is talking about forcing her to get committed. I DO NOT want that, she has begged me before not to let anyone do that and i refuse to unless she is absolutely going to hurt herself. Im saving up to go visit asap, and i want to help her. She has depression as well and cant stay motivated enough to take care of herself. Ive been there and wanted to show her some of the techniques that help me on my bad days. (Meal prepping, meal logs, and general information about food and healthy eating, and also caffeine alternatives because she drinks 8 glasses of coffee a day and is not supposed to with her medication) But i was also thinking, she sits in silence alot and i know it doesnt help with paranoia when youre home alone. I was thinking of getting her an Amazon echo, and setting her up with her favorite music and some podcasts about stuff she likes. Is this an okay idea? Im scared that it might make her nervous, shes a little scared of technology and her phone doesnt seem to be helping. She was also talking about getting an animal to adopt, she has chronic pain so im not sure a dog that needs to be walked would be okay. Would a cat be a good companion? Shes also very defensive about all of this and wont talk to anyone about whats really happening on her good days, which worries me greatly cause i cant tell if shes actually okay or not Im sorry if any of this seems unfair or insensitive, im just so worried about her and i want her to be okay. I love her very much. If you have any tips or advice i would greatly appreciate it. 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I've cut out horror movies and violent TV shows and am strictly staying to light hearted stuff but still I'm dreaming of lots of Gore. Should I be concerned?",5.402586206896554,7.905144431034483,5.616758620689655,75.45410344827587,70.20689655172414,8.777931034482759,35.737931034482756,9.3871,3.829002758620689,259,14,42,6,5,82,44,58,0.289,0.61,0.10099999999999999,-0.9485,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,8,11,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,8,9,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,4,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392041614796443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3846797308119552,0.21758790482499984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885397725289472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759828034207439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30463662588964563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297697781485754,0.3460048471142053,0.25924428837545216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3716155854018177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24407604084985934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,OddyyyNuff,2019/10/16,Where to from here? So now that I'm on new medication these voices and delusions are all gone. I feel like for the first time in a long time I have no depression but.... that is making me feel sad. I know it doesnt make sense but I'm depressed about not being depressed. Does anybody feel that way here sometimes?,1.3866666666666667,3.7778076666666682,2.1549206349206362,95.64285714285715,83.44444444444446,4.8698412698412685,20.11111111111111,6.1826913282559595,-0.06575555555555558,245,7,53,2,7,76,49,63,0.228,0.746,0.026000000000000002,-0.9261,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,2,1,11,14,4,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,3,4,0,1,1,4,4,1,6,12,1,11,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,7,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5927984596660607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20076737080151136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480055993794668,0.16389800631544196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951449068488011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12608347252958513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120832372373444,0.0,0.0,0.20302986765453696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30627984688026466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23111695442143074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22157568804543595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269026788491643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26755380399075546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18210326456187784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rbednarz1990,2019/10/16,"Starting an Educational Podcast - Looking for volunteers to interview [please delete if not allowed, I understand a mod needs to verify post first] Hello everyone, My name is Robert, and I am a Junior Doctor based in the UK. The reason why I am posting in this group is because I am starting a new project called ‘The Patient Will See You Now.’ It is going to be a podcast about people living with different illnesses. The goal of this podcast is to educate anyone who wishes to learn more about what it means to live a life with a certain condition. Medical professionals can also benefit from this podcast to better understand their patients’ life at home, and not just in the hospital. This idea is also directed at people who might be newly diagnosed, or know someone who is, and help them find ways to manage their new circumstance. Lastly, this project is also aimed at raising awareness for all of the illnesses discussed on the podcast. The podcast will be conducted as an interview with any of you that wish to volunteer and share your personal experience with Schizophrenia. We will discuss matters such as what has changed in your life, any personal relationship differences, advice for others, and more. If you are willing to volunteer and be a part of the podcast, please send an email with the following info; Email: thepatientwillseeyounow@gmail.com Subject: Schizophrenia Body: 1. Your name (if you wish to be anonymous, please use a name that I can call you by) 2. A short background about yourself and what you’d like to share 3. Best day/time to contact you, and also mention what time zone you are in Thank you for taking the time to read this, and hope to talk to you soon. - Dr. Robert Bednarz P.S.: If you don’t hear from me right away, it just means that I have a lot of inquiries and I’m trying to get back to as many of you as possible!",6.4775102301790275,7.809642738235298,6.382864450127876,75.63006393861896,65.73529411764707,9.560102301790279,34.194373401534534,9.761364909221204,3.4453580562659845,1481,66,253,31,23,467,180,340,0.018000000000000002,0.866,0.115,0.9814,2,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,1,15,3,4,12,9,0,0,24,0,28,10,1,3,2,50,50,23,0,9,9,0,0,1,0,5,9,1,1,2,20,16,0,0,10,1,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,3,27,9,53,39,6,28,0,0,2,0,46,12,0,8,11,184,47,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916750791026093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30009576721872805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275950385323972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06559773440437126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881424219177476,0.07213805972115563,0.0,0.057188844865377925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09845321231061373,0.08297187663772951,0.0,0.1042074828774871,0.0,0.0,0.1915915152486932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992439895780176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06050301081318761,0.0,0.0,0.09522040276649713,0.0,0.19603372906433067,0.0,0.09602378162578756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08964439647667348,0.0,0.09176921871455723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08574534777430974,0.07979911892421115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04901454395699337,0.0,0.053317311889499015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573649267153394,0.0,0.06288231771115843,0.0,0.09410424497603613,0.0931796123651166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590588547536094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051558353129664,0.07647186884014702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987932453127615,0.04583334365289569,0.0,0.16568099298565134,0.0,0.0787810983070962,0.0,0.0,0.07975828592805799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09511383753950127,0.0,0.2043844030724479,0.0,0.09450889407821893,0.0,0.09952304898867292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695627452239396,0.0,0.18121451352815854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10159266556100062,0.0,0.1300792255853334,0.1638315412551333,0.0,0.3089425886230239,0.0,0.10576248598388954,0.17969796217940512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09384053801734547,0.0,0.0,0.09645759940508526,0.0,0.1007223620880179,0.0,0.08011762576346844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07475852850488188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07948927241202561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328056925000645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07053731759008658,0.07540506416068055,0.0,0.08637238593818303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10940873716896878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06369432886910938,0.0,0.0,0.19532976007362265,0.0,0.08102616835393192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446609957655502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846535811373715,0.0,0.3236483787968013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kloti,2019/10/16,"I created this dating platform exclusively for people dealing with mental illness. Want to check it out? Long time lurker, sometimes poster of /r/schizophrenia here. I'm diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. One issue that really bugs me, apart from the symptoms medication doesn't help with and the sometimes heavy side effects of the meds, is loneliness. The stereotypes associated with the terms ""paranoid"" and ""schizophrenia"" are many, and scared away more than just one date of mine. A huge stress factor when dating for me is always the anxiety and awkwardness of having to tell my date about my condition eventually. This is why me and my friend Andrew created [https://psychdate.com](https://psychdate.com) The site just went live, but has no users as of yet. As a schizophrenic who calls this subreddit his home, I wanted to let people visiting /r/schizophrenia know first, that [psychdate](https://psychdate.com) is a thing. We want to be a life enriching service for anyone suffering from mental illness- and are not into this for making money. In case we would earn any money at all from the (optional) premium features, these earnings would go back into the site, to increase the number of users, develop more features and keep the site running, moderated and a safe and fun place for anyone dealing with mental illness to enjoy. We would love to get a feedback about your thoughts of this idea and the site in general.",9.96530357142857,10.96604930416667,8.353214285714287,65.70750000000001,58.04166666666666,10.857142857142858,37.14285714285714,10.608840637214634,4.217660714285714,1163,48,169,24,14,351,145,240,0.10400000000000001,0.774,0.122,0.7698,0,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,3,1,0,4,8,9,0,3,18,0,14,9,0,2,1,41,26,14,0,6,4,0,0,0,1,3,8,0,1,0,11,21,0,2,4,0,3,5,3,4,0,3,2,0,14,5,39,19,5,32,0,1,0,1,14,16,0,1,11,121,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10814749306521272,0.0,0.0,0.08838572522485516,0.0,0.09942857106421024,0.0,0.0,0.1817595227878915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211339835595915,0.0999407939071134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13271640666408047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679917846697565,0.0,0.1319193042538679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11055450242495184,0.0,0.0,0.1004163950493256,0.0,0.06790524246135841,0.0,0.07386634045643757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08711779578026943,0.0,0.13037296801838458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14672307953327698,0.0,0.13565747339623313,0.0,0.11552548841296667,0.0,0.0,0.07142946128908413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329056394557898,0.09180338754477878,0.0,0.0,0.11476805751575342,0.11502153122214095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730521361376785,0.0,0.08675762186525683,0.13177166771595678,0.0,0.0,0.1443700954821183,0.13093357295678007,0.3929449893953244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17614539621001013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18021306819274208,0.0,0.13579355052653008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08326368175231645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13012509968339744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570921595047729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14888300618390296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13509114459653426,0.0,0.0,0.11360165299762855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634792274320482,0.0,0.0,0.1031836098977523,0.07578798276047036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299833613718919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12048576639581055,0.11727992322848707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769861053086916,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,asdjef,2019/10/16,"Seeing animal extremities on people? I have a friend with schizophrenia and recently she told me about how she sees these extremities on people and didn’t even realize that it wasn’t a normal thing to see. Besides that point, I was getting curious and wanted to see if this may have something to do with it or if it could b something else entirely",9.62318181818182,7.888230712121214,9.438484848484851,66.57772727272727,60.06060606060606,13.042424242424245,38.66666666666667,11.855464076750405,4.589612121212122,281,11,49,7,3,92,46,66,0.0,0.912,0.08800000000000001,0.6705,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,8,0,0,1,0,14,15,7,0,5,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,5,1,8,9,0,4,0,0,4,0,4,3,0,4,1,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716909172231736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17963725442590242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14203104413468706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661383789002117,0.0,0.11234885394774663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21069228507528487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29816154016949603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032810936979373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212324790027182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6854320634065642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33109461952381897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14286216806438834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054787088466767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12683540642136173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwaway_21963,2019/10/16,"I have a question regarding a hallucination a schizophrenic may have So, I've been talking to a person I really enjoyed getting to know over the past few days getting near a week now. They've made it clear they struggle with depression yet have no way to be able to manage by by getting counseling. I was nearly heart broken to hear this, but accepted that. However, they've recently told me after a discussion that they believe in mythical creatures. I personally thought it odd, but I have an open mind and accept that everyone has their quirks. However, they proceeded to tell me they've heard, seen, and felt things they never want to experience again and that the world is full of unknowns. Is it a possibility they could be suffering from schizophrenia rather than depression? To me they vividly described a tactile hallucination and delusion of reality, but I could also be looking too much into it.",8.777211997273348,8.970762944785278,8.775173824130881,64.40682344921612,60.656441717791395,12.397818677573278,40.810497614178594,11.855464076750405,5.2430550783912775,732,37,117,21,9,239,104,163,0.129,0.81,0.062,-0.8746,2,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,7,0,7,7,0,1,11,0,15,2,1,1,2,25,28,9,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,10,7,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,8,6,16,3,21,14,3,19,0,3,3,0,16,8,0,2,10,92,26,1,0.16950765557067315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13555521091843814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19097708145281675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706761400194297,0.0,0.0,0.10931841482461753,0.0,0.2919933907220399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16197182898877238,0.0,0.1658110131170922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16275393169795235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656822615955905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19104744726930875,0.20086738799878867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09315697449347772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14234373908540995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16039224222461976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711544109255258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246076306452682,0.0,0.13073475379159935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16181423743322765,0.0,0.296015093258489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910944126626762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898873678885516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10859094465015873,0.0,0.16736836032010108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17720620566027045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13624383271183332,0.14815716232111992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11261335436926764,0.0,0.0,0.1345701443342513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16197182898877238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999800070475015,0.13454728706008065,0.1359688167546273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NoondayDevil,2019/10/06,"Other subreddit or forum recommendations? Hi all! I'm looking for subreddits, forums, or even blogs that take a non-medicalized perspective toward schizophrenia WITHOUT going full force into the anti-medicine hullabaloo? It seems as though many online communities are only available at the poles; either you have strict pathologization models or fanciful denial. Where can a schizo go to talk about therapy, psychedelics, tulpas, and Lithium? If I need to make my own site I will because mental health communities are the creepiest, most cult-like echo chambers that exist, and I'm getting really bored of triggering people just because I share my own experiences. Help me out, people? Where else do you all go online?",9.16170168067227,11.115285033613448,8.258308823529411,62.348639705882356,60.00840336134453,10.655882352941175,35.883403361344534,10.686352973137794,4.4974781512605055,585,25,77,14,8,182,95,119,0.021,0.925,0.054000000000000006,0.5802,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,0,0,6,2,0,0,5,0,6,2,0,2,2,18,17,8,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,8,1,11,16,7,11,0,0,1,0,6,8,0,6,0,52,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26448373215258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18122177204853973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14328385048107786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21220454373127592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333984403792716,0.0,0.3698683284320426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305922900441381,0.0,0.0,0.1454072915251351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821711817434731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14480612946644295,0.2199385456291225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21853969149281416,0.21861995824006505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16085492300916246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16498922173936886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007915192142165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389744349885996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974899298785584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16310849656234475,0.17436453594549925,0.0,0.0,0.2480846481128597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131380253723031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20911807873914154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,_idontknowanythin,2019/10/06,"Is this a delusion Hello everyone, i dont have schizophrenia but im writting here bc i think you guys will understand me more. I have bipolar btw. The thing is that latelly ive been having such weird thoughts. That started in may, when i started believing that i was being spied on by aliens, and that everyone was supplanted by clones (clones controled by the aliens of course). That was terrifying. I believed they somehow could read my mind too. I went to the ER bc i was very afraid and they gave me antipsychotics that i didnt take. I had insight btw, i knew that was pretty unlikely to happen and that probably that was just a delusion an obsession or whatever. I knew those thoughts were nonsensical. But somehow i also believed them. Was like 50 i dont believe it 50 i believe it, and that 50 was terrifying. Fast forward those thoughts ramdomly dissapeared (without meds) and i forgot about them during couple of months. But now im having those thoughts again, and again im believing them and not believing them at the same time. And i dont know what to do, i try not to think a lot about them and im waiting them to disappear like the last time. the question is is that a delusion? they dont look like obsessive thoughts to me but i have insight so i dont know. should i tell my therapist?",2.1071677797464936,4.745501968379448,3.1570778247240017,87.96656126482216,82.67588932806325,6.651710508382172,27.30121302984871,7.873277556716777,1.9248616328199537,1030,47,201,20,29,329,122,253,0.075,0.8590000000000001,0.067,-0.4425,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,9,1,14,7,0,3,11,0,33,1,0,1,0,44,54,17,0,2,9,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,19,9,0,3,15,1,0,3,9,4,1,0,22,1,37,3,17,27,3,17,0,0,1,0,15,4,0,6,15,147,56,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0622438024830695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6138456618038962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08729742243642025,0.062144096424246724,0.08612181401328804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4561042009484031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14874739913118815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07706787327595416,0.06882832792228817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.336296201810506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555103534575621,0.06344507879883562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11407724737644148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06536093684856421,0.0,0.0,0.06617166302216884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645600091728807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07859012778316944,0.0,0.06212633706027131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918513540703306,0.08391819052428462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871918662573325,0.0,0.07785503897493304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101825776379748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058521463390889115,0.0,0.06803032569154817,0.0,0.0,0.09037124518410973,0.05170943513587333,0.0997457380395984,0.0,0.30895741400524684,0.09077123465462016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052844160544668936,0.0,0.0,0.08102791397405072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06422118162979155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07215287553319219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07502917534788299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ask_why_iam_here,2019/10/06,"What do you do for a living? I start, i sell teleccomunications services to companies, it is like at&t but for business.",5.2650000000000015,7.968772772727277,6.400000000000002,68.77000000000002,71.27272727272728,8.036363636363637,33.72727272727273,8.841846274778883,3.292836363636363,99,5,16,2,2,33,19,22,0.0,0.9109999999999999,0.08900000000000001,0.1901,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,13,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6602089843730056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29768794249510017,0.0,0.5380497033552956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4312870303701202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ninetenthsofacent,2019/10/06,"Tardive Dyskinesia question So I'm on Geodon, and I'm not sure if this has happened to me before or what, but it just feels like something is in the back of my throat, like a bunch of hair or something. It's obviously not, but still. But it makes me want to get it with my tongue. And sometimes I do, I go for it, kind of roll my tongue up and get at the back of my throat, or what it seems like. The only thing I'm wondering, where mostly I can just make that not happen, although sometimes it seems automatic, is whether or not that is considered TD or if it's just an annoyance. I'm hoping for annoyance, or maybe it's just me and my OCD, too. Can't let it go. Anyway, thank you again for your help on the last questions, I'm starting to get used to some stuff finally. If only I wasn't so tired...",3.4753684776761697,3.7748636804733735,4.715427649273803,88.61960731576117,71.9585798816568,8.0389456697149,26.60623991393221,8.00094639256281,1.2816698224852074,618,19,144,8,11,205,91,169,0.043,0.8320000000000001,0.125,0.9362,0,0,2,0,0,0,25.0,0,2,0,0,13,9,2,0,6,0,9,4,3,3,2,41,32,20,0,5,21,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,17,5,0,0,6,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,1,2,14,7,17,30,3,15,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,17,10,101,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22613180475773706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512155854369308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0743486433821532,0.1050465375642315,0.0,0.16107686881683114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304694774273613,0.0,0.16713424243745958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600567756596632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985588747904979,0.0,0.0,0.1460454716428338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15312118320460025,0.0,0.11985851699410235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15035998283419533,0.0,0.21551127293360006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963027993064947,0.0,0.14772303566784847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22366350238194552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32944045405595057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677222726196015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22639959156787365,0.29085577442936605,0.0,0.1040767905431112,0.0,0.1174275995657836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16832743520956578,0.0,0.0,0.13858495351203495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353761356275097,0.0,0.0,0.09768789522099626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690026710411816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12699671819081013,0.0,0.0,0.0867289364334589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15946032634580698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,schizophrenicorb,2019/10/06,Who got tortured REALLY painfully by supernatural forces here? Whats your story?,6.094615384615384,9.95115423076923,6.91423076923077,57.06826923076926,83.61538461538461,8.753846153846155,29.57692307692308,8.841846274778883,4.169492307692308,67,3,8,2,2,22,13,13,0.456,0.544,0.0,-0.855,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5413998643881629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7202973950460654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43365637263890294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lanrb23u,2019/10/06,What was your first sign? Noticed? Not including hallucinations or delusions IF they occurred after your prodromal phase. Did you have any changes in thought? What would you say was your first sign and what did it do to your life at that time? I am asking out of curiosity.,2.6770285714285715,5.693127160000002,2.7717142857142854,87.91300000000004,87.4,6.057142857142857,25.142857142857146,7.447530270364453,1.520485714285714,218,9,41,4,7,66,40,50,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,6,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,0,9,10,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,1,8,0,6,4,0,7,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,2,4,33,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22356988234218972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073487071147198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3477873015805898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5592907007702005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322147892070348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.374298467083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614452625536137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26100082864959817,0.19170415070538369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23354356078331706,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MaFukinDrugLord,2019/10/06,What’s it feel like to have a schizophrenic episode? I’m curious as to what it’s like to have a schizophrenic episode. I imagine it’s similar to bad psychedelic trips or a Datura trip. Does it ever cause euphoric rushes or is it all fear and pain? I’d love to hear your stories,2.614210526315788,4.504292877192988,4.175298245614034,85.4324210526316,76.36842105263158,8.068771929824562,28.94385964912281,8.841846274778883,2.364939649122808,222,10,46,5,5,74,37,57,0.151,0.606,0.243,0.7236,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,1,3,0,3,4,0,1,2,8,7,4,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,7,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,3,6,7,1,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,3,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703191546232508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33258218754908386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833173030312542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928519567123388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36431068193651855,0.16369859216058,0.23128828621956984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36489170658073056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163374642236198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921985582680845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444946454941206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,victoriaxplummer,2019/07/23,"Can anyone relate to my symptoms? One day I was relaxing on my porch, minding my own business, not thinking about much. Then, I looked up into the sky and saw what seemed to be a painting. A really vivid and detailed painting. It was a demonic looking woman eating a baby. I couldn't believe what I was seeing... It was so brutal and terrifying. Soon after, I looked over to my screen door and saw a person standing behind the screen. I walked up to it because everyone in my life has been trying to convince me that I'm just psychic instead of experiencing some kind of ""illness"". I'm still on the fence about being psychic lol. But when I walked up to him, he was completely transparent and his mouth was moving as if he was talking to me. But no words came out of his mouth. I took a picture of him with my phone and when I looked back at the picture, I could still see him. Now when I look at it, it's just a blank picture of my screen door 😂 anyway, later on I was laying in my bed and I looked over at the doorway and a woman with a white face and black hair peeked over the corner SUPER fast and screamed at me then ducked away. Not sure how to feel recently. I've always seen things that weren't there and have for a very long time heard a crowd of people talking amongst themselves. It's like they're right outside of my door or next to me. It gets so loud sometimes that I check to see if the TV is on in the next room. I honestly thought it was normal to hear people talking all the time but I asked my husband and some friends and they said they've NEVER experiences it. That made me want to cry... I constantly feel bugs crawling all over me and when I look into the sky, I see a black vortex kind of thing. I also thought THAT was normal until I was looking in the sky and asked my husband what it was... He had no idea what I was talking about and couldn't see it. Such a bad feeling. When I was younger, I could hear dogs barking and a ""man"" snoring really loud in my ear so I ran to my mom to tell her and she basically brushed it off and was pretty dismissive about it. Maybe that's the reason I'm so scared to tell anyone about what I experience, because of my mother trying to make me feel stupid for it. Even when I told her that I was scared because I believed that my class took a field trip every night to my house to stand outside of my window and watch me. I was scared to even exist in my room because of my class being outside my window. She didn't seem to care for that either. I feel like everyone can read my mind, I'm scared to think about ANYTHING and there's cameras everywhere watching me. Please tell me I'm not the only one experiencing stuff like this??? Please help. What will happen if I tell my doctor? Will I be baker acted??? I have a 4 year old and can NOT go to a mental place. I also don't want to take those horrible meds. I'm already too scared to take my antidepressants so I stopped and still have really bad panic attacks without my meds. What exactly will happen of I tell my doctor. Google is telling me schizophrenia but I don't really know what it is.",3.2044032597266034,4.4676643548895925,4.246108044164038,88.14557636698211,73.43217665615144,6.797528916929548,25.195715036803364,7.1686216300943375,0.9799317560462676,2427,76,512,24,48,789,265,634,0.11599999999999999,0.8190000000000001,0.064,-0.9919,1,0,0,0,0,0,65.0,0,0,1,1,36,24,3,6,30,1,44,11,5,4,5,82,100,49,0,11,16,4,6,3,1,3,5,8,9,4,37,29,1,2,14,3,1,10,14,12,0,2,34,42,84,12,78,55,7,77,1,0,25,0,42,34,0,8,34,352,121,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0650079149733287,0.09421954627773282,0.04901728503968495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08238155212528936,0.0,0.04847736250451841,0.0,0.1101445502813314,0.0670178718844795,0.055347258496036535,0.04529764161138164,0.09837366653777227,0.1436423329872889,0.0,0.0,0.1327412929537371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06737658450242483,0.060061992142889084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06176531593141647,0.06366006215998879,0.0,0.09406861945050407,0.0,0.06470913726057961,0.037991647000474894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12059239915982645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06027895544204629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07781811907671665,0.0,0.04963365465736563,0.1125807863356796,0.0,0.1152492649887401,0.0,0.0,0.1489316465600785,0.04208484000027239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04551320533914144,0.0,0.03077769563655281,0.0,0.033479532094269834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418665905986277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13279020169917313,0.0,0.03948568484352717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797346214976986,0.0,0.06650146764887341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12269001235528992,0.03237502936963056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04160940477998525,0.08634037494210428,0.0,0.0,0.052132906846180674,0.3957520311092394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05574143622543822,0.03932243790219135,0.0,0.05918234398382299,0.0,0.13086997989285487,0.0,0.05936675307702907,0.0,0.1189632684097887,0.0689939000330738,0.0,0.06261129923411772,0.04330513870545552,0.0,0.04543451004766997,0.0,0.12530149010128544,0.05528241935758547,0.11543727942312487,0.0,0.0,0.061815436445817586,0.0,0.07983697864589355,0.04480320308458127,0.0,0.06911741075682555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816806296762996,0.05143735823434503,0.0615477158466918,0.12932951724357858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05993197099438815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058925275730452566,0.0,0.1509553113522792,0.060568606716551385,0.05816586047767745,0.0,0.0,0.05030824938481243,0.056036266762418574,0.0,0.2948926008923925,0.0,0.2347155610157953,0.10725769043854404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05826283766150105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14113521075324206,0.049250841032805616,0.0,0.0,0.0674370935274207,0.0,0.0,0.055521350158094986,0.061229354036276024,0.0885849756640159,0.1893963649832986,0.3089361268470483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07827348784009541,0.07549344518102699,0.0,0.0935348619635954,0.06870101281612907,0.0,0.0,0.0562903931678398,0.13090087532130615,0.07999114178958891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04860637005768317,0.06949250299590518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056786495818542275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037935679695673366 schizophrenia,anotheraccountzzz,2019/07/23,"Do you hate it when people think you're on drugs? Anything can be a drug and I'll admit I have some screen time and caffeine addictions, but when people think you're on methamphetamines or other hard substances it pisses me off. I don't even smoke and drink alcohol.",3.2440384615384623,5.665187634615389,3.216000000000001,90.529,76.5,5.6984615384615385,21.93846153846154,6.742157984588678,0.5263800000000001,215,6,41,2,5,65,39,52,0.14300000000000002,0.8290000000000001,0.027999999999999997,-0.6858,0,0,6,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,1,0,5,6,1,0,0,9,9,7,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,8,1,6,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,2,3,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772099284305428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27175504221916524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092562054180508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24910406036666286,0.589783451373124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16795390125902568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22779084688343615,0.25105537267119105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3525806219475407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3258731716488271,0.0,0.0,0.14827656154911584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sarcasm_aint_me,2019/07/23,"An old nightmare I've had schizophrenia (now diagnosed schizoaffective) since I was 9 years old. Before I started on meds for it, I would get these nightmares that horrified anyone I told about them. I have forgotten most of the memories I had from the time my schizophrenia set in to when I started the meds (about 16 years old). I have been on meds 4 years and haven't had too many nightmares, but this morning as I fell asleep there was a person in my dreams with wild black hair, a large nose and brightly colored clothing holding a box with a bloody and bruised severed head in it. He was shaking it and asking me to guess what was inside. The scary part was this figure made me remember some of my old nightmares from before the meds where he was there. It's kind of freaking me out. Has anyone else had this happen before?",5.9398750000000025,6.530878237500001,5.252500000000001,85.9025,66.625,7.9,30.375,7.554174236665415,1.7742625000000003,658,23,128,6,10,198,96,160,0.132,0.826,0.042,-0.9259,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,8,4,0,1,10,0,16,5,4,1,0,16,24,7,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,10,7,0,1,2,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,13,5,16,2,19,10,3,22,0,0,3,0,6,7,0,3,12,85,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689849803913183,0.12381244605725852,0.0,0.0,0.11296688511764301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084718044121165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12264766489616515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10094434588957077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06313268152222946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13311628805810924,0.0,0.10685632938483576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12401428425203966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583381107300573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143395003436458,0.0,0.12251040464657115,0.0,0.0,0.5368935256857694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5071951205673197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308553927480111,0.0,0.0,0.10551076968533722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136885494592114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651214248357896,0.0,0.09995814769515768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17105901253110467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07046140188000556,0.0,0.0,0.1154655470829246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08583959519024999,0.0,0.0,0.23344644246646054 schizophrenia,throwaway-4739947,2019/07/23,"I wrote this in my iPhone notes. Does anyone here experience anything similar? I don’t know how to evaluate the severity of what’s happening to me. I frequently hallucinate overhearing one of my sisters complaining about me or “telling on me” or otherwise speaking about me in a negative manner, usually to my dad. The tone of his response varies, but usually it sounds like he is trying to calm my sister down, like he is agreeing with or validating whatever she is saying about me, or formulating a plan with her to act against me somehow in retribution. Right now I can clearly hear my dad snoring in his office every few seconds. I know for sure that is real. I also faintly hear my older sister talking about me to him, and him responded and speaking back to her. I know for sure that this is not real; I have confirmed that my dad is sleeping in his office, and I know my older sister has a friend over in her room, and Maya would NEVER let a friend witness a family dispute. But I still hear them. I can’t let go of the panic of being “caught” somehow. I know it’s not real. But I’m still experiencing it. When this happens some of my thoughts get very loud, but much less clearly defined. I isolate a voice in my head that feels like “me” and everything outside that voice sounds like it’s coming from somewhere else and it’s totally out of my control and it’s hard to tell the difference between a thought that’s inside my head but very loud and a noise that’s outside my head but very quiet. It feels like I’m straining my ears to make out what’s being said in the basement below me, or on the other side of a wall. I don’t know how to tell anyone about this because it sounds so insane. And the version of me who hears voices at night feels so far away from the one who engages in conversations with other people. It feels like it isn’t me, like I’m talking about someone else. The me that talks to people is completely sane and grounded in reality. Suggesting otherwise feels preposterous. The me that exists right now, at 11:19 PM, has suspected for months that I may be schizophrenic. I’m definitely hallucinating. I know for certain that it has been happening with increasing frequency and diversity for at least 9 months. My thoughts are disorganized. Writing is hard, because I can’t just write what I think. My thoughts are too fast and I can’t keep up with them. I forget one and it’s instantly replaced by another and I feel like a passenger riding my own stream of consciousness. I think talking is hard for the same reason. My thoughts are always racing ahead of the conversation. Every tangent leads to the next and I can’t complete one thought before jumping to the next and it’s overwhelming and I forget so much. I always feel like I’m forgetting something and I can’t remember anything like I used to and there’s this constant anxiety of you’re forgetting something important which is magnified 10x anytime I’m interacting with any other person because I can’t clearly remember our last interaction... or even clearly recall how this current interaction has unfolded up until the exact present moment in time. I don’t have any accurate sense of time passing. An hour alone could just as easily be 10 hours or 10 minutes. I feel trapped inside my own head",4.966624249211037,6.607308545454551,5.816593708642981,77.1212623434796,69.60606060606061,8.972533849129595,32.160202246428454,9.420299171960508,3.1095542366554687,2626,118,469,57,47,861,271,627,0.07,0.799,0.131,0.9919,1,2,2,0,0,0,52.0,1,0,2,4,27,21,0,3,26,0,40,8,6,8,10,108,85,42,0,2,17,7,11,10,2,2,2,18,1,1,39,28,0,2,28,0,0,9,14,4,0,5,10,30,74,17,77,66,12,69,0,1,0,0,53,31,0,11,39,328,113,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061821726385873466,0.0,0.047734757050873614,0.0993351500872494,0.0,0.0,0.08118365975887361,0.06259106846506289,0.04566334248574956,0.0,0.0,0.08347447067050752,0.0,0.09824097920400213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05608152537589947,0.04589858479944435,0.0,0.10916097781595976,0.0,0.050792523158862256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05141838821062016,0.12516945651449868,0.06450461122139249,0.06694837212593932,0.047658292498507934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062364241371270016,0.0,0.0,0.052235871509780256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09972810389183498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0394252483166639,0.0,0.10058424351280247,0.0,0.05364629369050189,0.05838911225822178,0.05627122795199966,0.0,0.24145192785457734,0.21321580206045435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09223401662607617,0.0,0.031186009312035787,0.0,0.03392368980394015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15835328404696775,0.0,0.16041385109820466,0.0,0.24504016178357846,0.0,0.2691037376962864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11756694134905896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05305597663500617,0.0,0.0,0.2296317390115922,0.048656015566525226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12207589162350566,0.0,0.2916193779575095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03984411078304622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09528934569315184,0.0,0.08775929652923156,0.0,0.0460372690069632,0.0,0.12696380792296105,0.05601582604611867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16179227898651755,0.0,0.0,0.07003435997743156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08276424940250432,0.05211975424754285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20382379094163386,0.0,0.06137214284607066,0.0,0.0,0.13523621066306765,0.10195133204993263,0.056779674401258626,0.04746856557413096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06743367846968189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059733965365540764,0.0,0.0505758697219233,0.09190587642698303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09533839155866736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11251585326555537,0.0,0.0,0.19190900032879865,0.15651732089445353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07649498234744594,0.0,0.28432723917761554,0.0696124378748343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04052617392459693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051553735622256375,0.1314820926033359,0.14775362591891655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0424026724415615,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,artsy025,2019/07/23,"my boyfriend was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia I need an advice on how to effectively communicate with my bf who's been struggling lately. We are in ldr and he started to experience some episode that cause him to be distant to me. The last time he got an episode he said that he thought i broke up with him then for 5 days i can't contact him. When we finally talk i just reassured to him that we are okay and i love him.",2.675465116279071,4.8295541627907,3.6955232558139532,87.71444767441862,77.13953488372094,7.555813953488372,29.3546511627907,8.472884824447931,2.1727488372093022,342,16,72,7,8,110,60,86,0.063,0.8059999999999999,0.131,0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,3,0,0,1,3,5,0,1,3,1,6,2,0,3,0,15,12,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,4,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,1,16,3,12,6,1,12,0,1,0,1,19,3,0,1,9,48,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553566780509823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684453095189396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685283285771226,0.0,0.0,0.2652320125725116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25561889957089096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862608187957947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089996741559376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130088414705776,0.294777800885764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358494692494241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19376379830128185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580197496157659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24857301861785897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18496204636550714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27318604739495417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21003730654806174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20745710169158468,0.1523764797734748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BAUIntern,2019/07/23,"So I was rediagnosed from bipolar to having scitsoaffective disorder and I don’t understand what is happening to me So about 3 weeks ago I had a breakdown at work. Voices in my head were telling me that my managers were going to stab me. I started arguing with them, mumbling to myself, and scaring customers. The voices kept getting louder and started screaming at me and kept saying that my managers were going to kill me. I began to believe them. A customer complained and when my manager came to check on me, I screamed at him and told him to keep away. He told me to go outside and calm down. I ran around in a circle and started screaming at the voices to stop. I started slamming my head into a metal door over and over. I don’t know why, but it helped calm me down. My manager came outside to check on me, and he looked really scared. I screamed at him to go away and he rushed back inside. I knew something was wrong, so I tried calling friends, family, anyone, but it was very early, so no one answered. I wasn’t suicidal, but I called the suicide hotline, because I thought they could at least calm me down. I talked to her for a while and she slowly calmed me down. She convinced me to stop hitting my head. I sat down on the ground, completely exhausted , and all of a sudden, the voices were gone, and I felt fine. I was too embarrassed to go back into work, so I got in my car and drove to my grandmas house. She let me change into some clean clothes and we talked for a long time. I called my therapist and requested an emergency appointment. I went to see her a few hours later. She diagnosed me as scitsoaffective. My psychiatrist upped my antipsychotics and I’ve continued to see my therapist. I’ve had these voices in my head for years, but they never said anything scary or bad, and I thought everyone had voices in their head. I thought everyone saw things that weren’t there or heard or smelled things that weren’t there. I knew that the sensation of bugs crawling all over you wasn’t normal, but it was never a big deal so I never mentioned it. My doctors have tried explaining what this is, but I don’t really understand what’s happening to me. Why has it gotten worse so suddenly? Will it keep getting worse? What will happen to me? Am I going to end up in a mental hospital? I’m really confused and scared, and my family has not been very supportive. I think they are scared too. What is going to happen to me? Please, help me understand.",3.938790242830457,5.653714682672232,4.79661630590045,83.12458273816067,72.31941544885177,8.131875618063951,28.471651466871773,8.766177420268882,2.238779540709812,1939,76,373,37,38,628,212,479,0.174,0.758,0.068,-0.9951,2,0,1,0,0,2,58.0,1,1,6,2,16,24,2,6,17,0,33,9,5,0,5,67,87,40,3,2,10,0,1,0,1,2,4,13,2,0,20,29,0,6,13,0,2,15,12,16,0,1,40,19,81,8,63,42,5,74,0,0,4,0,40,33,0,5,26,270,101,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061469291921851965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048486952824942205,0.0,0.05706422198162608,0.061730881765822164,0.0,0.0,0.13030198351232042,0.10664254582394403,0.05789936224288887,0.04227147245676426,0.0,0.0,0.07812696706152375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21242400013978704,0.1586221764458328,0.0,0.0,0.07335678106144672,0.0,0.07270588821219598,0.0,0.0,0.05536555935080364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07149064225877358,0.0,0.07038272310519737,0.0,0.0,0.07947425741054111,0.07097654533403909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061418221493213236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325223702450076,0.0,0.0,0.13074274580930806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06658113614560039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05357501972855934,0.0,0.07245877932090365,0.0,0.2758686419384353,0.0,0.05546074944921019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452827601568406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3558348639164942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09295967307617233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0682898938223349,0.08001369159909621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12327230663550315,0.07671888666777789,0.0,0.03810966123493347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07090896115502959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06136727773794636,0.0582315141185541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06988246474011893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16044715510739707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06794241886965502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04698930424862716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07611891302952213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327066930738618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06596204497004607,0.055145149916446166,0.27770185453458346,0.0,0.11051641578148028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053384416323403315,0.0,0.0,0.19632822400358102,0.0,0.0,0.11594941557374723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15170221113714294,0.07869077491090938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11147219707871556,0.060609732081651525,0.0,0.0,0.1610275095059443,0.09213817449262007,0.04443284959620393,0.0,0.16515422406532146,0.040435057139677565,0.0,0.0,0.1325223702450076,0.0,0.09416007876293547,0.0,0.0,0.21656871875210448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11443216162736455,0.0,0.0,0.055623592041370816,0.0,0.0,0.0642826035379518,0.12514438897440425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10096654845190994,0.0,0.14133496620154645,0.0,0.07581680274060865,0.0,0.04465527692386317 schizophrenia,TwoOddSocks,2019/07/23,"Having a rough day I’m using an alt account because I’m scared that someone’s going to find and look through my phone or account, but long-time lurker, first post. I’m just really overwhelmed. There are invisible monsters everywhere waiting for me to let my guard down so they can get inside my brain, everyone can read my mind, dead people won’t stop talking to me, the people inside my mirror want to watch me sleep. It’s 3AM and I can’t sleep. Time goes too quickly. Please help me",4.3652678571428565,5.683691062500002,4.877321428571428,84.52125000000002,70.66666666666666,7.152380952380952,27.255952380952376,7.447530270364453,1.4600077380952383,386,13,74,4,7,123,72,96,0.10800000000000001,0.795,0.09699999999999999,-0.4607,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,5,2,0,2,3,0,7,3,3,1,0,12,16,5,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,1,1,2,1,2,2,0,1,0,3,11,0,7,14,0,8,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,1,5,40,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269293986079736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23244315022682904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342851179205904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19896379023118627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903099363528779,0.17711241061678246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10878671534895218,0.0,0.11833661528675025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13956593788424165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21291976059101814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18426875632148876,0.17485293597614066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102435375653448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2887080148900326,0.0,0.0,0.22856378763271165,0.0,0.0,0.19941786133469175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082770352090347,0.0,0.13339150435770042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084652328142001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4167421244485642,0.0,0.17642471301517726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17408181845066847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16735990154095925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141515748399336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798358201653289,0.0,0.0,0.12281395643739085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Marbles30,2019/07/23,"Anyone heard of this group called “NU~U”?!! My brother has suffered from schizophrenia for several years. In the past year he’s found this group/cult called “NU~U” (A feee being of real light?!!)- has anyone heard of it? All of his virtual friends through this group, have weird profile pictures of computerized humans. When they Skype with each other, it’s all computerized voices. They all sing nuuuuuu together to get good energy & to make the demons leave their body. I just want some more information on it, to be able to help my brother as much as I can.",5.95897574123989,6.985069452830192,5.900619946091645,79.72915094339623,66.73584905660377,9.076010781671158,30.23719676549865,9.23628265651192,2.45282911051213,446,16,85,8,7,140,76,106,0.055999999999999994,0.8170000000000001,0.127,0.8275,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,3,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,6,1,1,1,3,12,12,3,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,7,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,4,8,2,17,7,7,6,1,1,0,0,17,2,0,1,4,50,15,0,0.2216436324698209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24015078317931945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099567625880855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24619610969374325,0.0,0.0,0.45264585999081003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430208028020733,0.17124132063538122,0.0,0.11579964996191006,0.0,0.0,0.1859041631047693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485630547972651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346886039714345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479488457646178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629335725085289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115839266922156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25227897771711794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503942163391666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13073115701920227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854624648772526 schizophrenia,TheScorpa,2019/07/23,"Tactile Hell I’m having some of the worst tactile hallucinations I’ve ever had and really bad auditory ones. I’m so scared of going into a full-fledged psychotic episode. I don’t want to get into too much detail but the tactile stuff is really messing me up. I want to scream. It’s like there’s a ghost trying to r*pe me and it’s bringing back really awful trauma. Honestly I’m only writing this to distract myself for a couple minutes. I pick my girlfriend up from work in an hour. I’m excited to see her. I just feel so crazy and worthless, like why the fuck is my brain torturing me? Why why why why why why Has anybody else had this kind of tactile? It’s not painful (mostly) but it’s so goddamn degrading and I feel so vulnerable I’m not even sure I’m gonna hit post or not. What do I do?? What do you do to make this stop?? Or do I just have to distract myself as much as I can? I feel like when I change location or yell it stops but then it starts again not long after. And that’s not to mention the auditory stuff. If God’s real he fucking hates me. Maybe I was a murderer in a past life lmao. If God’s real I’m gonna punch him in the fucking face",0.7863562753036462,2.7719207206477776,3.2640097165991904,89.25862186234819,82.68421052631578,6.219206477732794,22.430607287449394,7.404127859558343,0.86697648582996,906,31,199,14,25,314,132,247,0.285,0.618,0.09699999999999999,-0.9957,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,0,1,13,25,7,3,11,1,15,7,2,2,2,38,40,21,2,4,15,0,3,3,1,2,2,2,0,0,14,7,0,2,3,0,0,2,6,18,0,1,3,6,22,7,23,34,5,22,1,1,1,3,7,7,4,7,15,123,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07921585652240433,0.08601721830128327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11500415203944996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898127381734478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11398943391444966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08605981212347387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06804359715358409,0.09318729457256347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15626969783677566,0.07359735581448594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857203967887265,0.05382358628186938,0.0,0.058548518564607376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10171071057727776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10145373760846024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072792541701181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07276592161932245,0.15099079135691254,0.0,0.0,0.09116926890483547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06876650722117214,0.0,0.10349722199453606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15146279286700146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06980887327262399,0.07835118962132824,0.10962031590543532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09834404281810104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866447783871828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23451814109499455,0.19799133895260668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10314077788959697,0.0,0.08209343155000408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07291793488145625,0.0,0.0,0.1722583082948928,0.0,0.0,0.23586601576245625,0.0,0.0,0.09709492926335314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06994367240385455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12152747805137815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6507153331244067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499963128161828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,11thjulyx,2018/12/18,"what is happening with me? need help. it's hard for me to talk about this but honestly i feel like i'm losing my mind. i've been hearing quiet whispers (they usually don't make any sense, i'm not scared of them) and seeing weird shadows and figures, sometimes when i look at things, they start to ""feel"" weird, sometimes they start moving? am i having hallucinations? i've been misdiagnosed with bipolar I for the last half of a year and back in november my new psychiatrist sent me to do some personality tests and the results said that i may be prone to being schizoaffective? is what i'm experiencing a schizoaffective disorder? i'm seeing my psychiatrist right after new years but as i said, for now i feel like i'm out of my mind. i get randomly really angry and sad for no reason and those feelings are so intense i can't handle them i also get strong urges to hurt myself. i'm just really worried for myself i'm also doing weird things, like touching a spoon because it felt ""soft""... i just can't help those strange acts. i hope to get some answers next time i see my doc because i've never felt like that before... btw i'm also only 18 and a female. 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My doc at the hospital just prescribed this to me without talking to me about it. I wanted to see what y’all thought about it.,2.881,5.347857099999999,3.256666666666668,89.525,78.0,5.333333333333334,30.0,6.42735559955562,1.5290000000000004,123,6,23,1,3,38,25,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,7,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,19,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34372082006731103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3917218019500856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3951095373319812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3902558112781712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33374730318534257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2899437981206729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4738609654213217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mtwhi,2018/12/18,So I work with people with disabilities including mental illness. Is it ok to speak to people about the voices they hear? I don’t want to be obtrusive but I genuinely find it interesting. I’ve been told they can be good and bad. Interested to know whether people like the voices they hear. I know they can often not be very nice. A man at work seems to function pretty well with the voices and conversations he has with them.,2.5973848238482367,5.2599761097560975,3.9365040650406544,83.06771002710029,80.58536585365854,7.059078590785908,21.30623306233063,8.167268648758528,1.329719241192412,339,10,64,7,9,111,54,82,0.10099999999999999,0.654,0.244,0.9182,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,5,2,4,8,0,0,4,1,9,1,0,0,0,15,16,5,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,1,2,6,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,6,9,7,11,11,0,1,0,0,0,0,12,1,0,2,1,43,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182904391895408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20021516597967365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18373556972652252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4937888755448607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24077724325440586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070207392594811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207590761332364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4556019845465825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22286087518376294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199422298021546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20931943464695255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18074590224265175,0.12920616308303848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969595703654298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189538611652489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RichardStarrkey,2018/12/18,"CUUUUNT You've been cheated, your best fucking mate of over six years. You went through school together, you were there at the first transaction. Glue in the bathroom, laughing gas or whatnot. A cigarette. The beers come and go, odd glass of whiskey and vodka. Long island tea, how delectable. Then eh gies right tae FUCK n blows ehs right off. Mates and all. FUCKING MATES N ALL the oh so mighty radge decides on the opportunity, given in the moment ay proper success. Each ay us gittin a cut ay the prize. Four thousand good yins. Canny think to double cross. Look into a mirror, checking ehs bald heid, stepping over Daniel Murphy. Fucking yin obsessed wi cats n aw. Useless, gnawing Spud. Probably a lying cunt well as well culd be. Nae remember the cunt of the hour who shall go unnamed, nae spare a thought ay the Williamson. Goes oaf n robs ahs all of the stuff. Four thousand dollars. The cunt. Picture that and see it like I do. Franco Begbie of the Mark Renton of the Trainspotting saga. A great tale of drama and betrayal. I feel like that inside on most days. Like I'm letting loose something within me that I should have kept instead. My desire for my previous interests that is. Music, video games, playing the bass and guitar. I remember obsessively listening to old Jameson lines, copying everything Paul McCartney, figuring out the scales and the chords that live there. Lydian and mixolydian and major, minor, diminished whatevers. I played the bass yesterday. I hated every bit of it like I'm forced to like doing anything in the army. I actually like marching, and I like the experience of talking shit of the government with all hundred of my relatable mates. But I don't like bass anymore. Very conflicting, considering I drum the bass on my leg with my fingers whenever there's music playing. There's an ITCH for it. I definitely lost something, either in the haze of my constant drunkenness, my drugged and sedated ay the pills. AH CANNAE BELIEVE A RIGHT CUNT WUD FUCKIN RIP AHS RIGHT OFF. 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I am confident that I have some form of schizophrenia. I'm trying to get help but I am 16 and my parents are very religious I have told them I'm seeing hallucinations and they send me to church and say satan is in my mind. How can I get diagnosed without them having to sign anything. Is it even worth it to get diagnosed? I don't want to live any more like this if there is a medication or treatment it would work right? Or will I be unemployed for the rest of my life?,1.7711764705882374,3.895556705882356,3.889960784313725,85.34082352941176,79.98039215686275,7.609411764705883,23.925490196078428,8.548686976883017,1.6250478431372546,392,14,84,9,10,134,71,102,0.013999999999999999,0.855,0.131,0.8902,3,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,3,1,3,1,0,0,3,0,15,4,0,1,0,14,23,8,0,3,5,1,0,1,0,2,4,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,14,1,10,19,4,3,2,0,1,0,8,2,0,4,1,61,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15301791934814146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18516817641837494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4567709866593872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14862028849445472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3526831585473985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15082281459568084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589347523649982,0.10993096539178857,0.0,0.1986923716925036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266789445433031,0.0,0.0,0.2272010102669784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498525340849583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19216158462660352,0.0,0.17894096324723546,0.0,0.0,0.1793078260239909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21501147987972194,0.0,0.15277041787722345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18566094442656614,0.13271967976084562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169064349350498,0.0,0.16381360340037102,0.0,0.0,0.15984420340447436,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,glassocket,2019/03/07,"I think i may have schizophrenia I have had a few hallucinations and latley been starting to feel as if drops of water are landed on me when there is no water to be found.i am also very paranoid about most things.i also hear voices (i feel as if i hear more everyday) and (im not sure if this is anything to do with schizophrenia) find it very difficut to stay focused. I would just go to the doctors and find out but im only 14 and my mam wouldnt beileve me (btw shes not a bad mother) has anyone got an idea on what to do?",0.5922972972972964,2.718939693693695,2.4751576576576566,93.792195945946,84.4954954954955,4.781081081081081,20.96171171171171,5.985473137389443,0.0327711711711709,410,13,91,3,12,136,77,111,0.045,0.902,0.053,0.4305,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,4,0,16,3,0,0,1,24,24,13,0,5,7,1,2,0,0,3,1,3,0,1,3,6,2,0,6,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,3,5,10,1,14,17,3,10,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,5,3,65,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293170744482635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12816799656948658,0.0,0.15084072273189278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15304829091063607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876158654830455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18536451691388264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350667378736431,0.0,0.0,0.2009795763755812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417391864820537,0.0,0.1466021832885927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4131860514100813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069239934815489,0.3959920663518504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13940831730175302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12974106267016355,0.19537398223275776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17275858570310926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11745158197875608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30248427761272656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13021144147122446,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Fundje,2019/03/07,"20 Years old, life seems to end These last 4 years have been horrible and I've finally come to a point where I'm really considering suicide. I was thinking about overdosing on sleepmedication. I don't know if that works. Every day gets worse and worse. I don't really have friends or family to talk to. I'm getting deeper and deeper in paranoia and delusions. Dead or suicide seems to only way out, beacause I've been feeling shitty for so long and it's only getting worse. I'm only 20 and I haven't done much yet, but living is so much pain, that I can't see past this to thing I still want to do. I'm thinking of killing myself in two days. Sadface",2.3850501253132848,4.341720481203012,3.903928571428573,86.81398809523813,77.27067669172932,6.8393483709273175,24.6171679197995,7.793537801064563,1.3158025062656642,516,18,105,8,12,171,82,133,0.24600000000000002,0.7340000000000001,0.02,-0.9831,0,0,0,0,0,3,13.0,0,0,0,1,6,3,1,0,1,0,12,2,0,0,0,19,28,12,4,2,4,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,6,8,0,0,6,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,4,2,7,1,14,24,2,20,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,5,12,58,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11808354991477367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768124176607819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028193930059366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214134960599412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11549705224939905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292282116548946,0.0,0.06931251096894904,0.0,0.0,0.15016605184474094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059088050513395,0.0,0.2148582335266451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15166033821397135,0.0,0.0753363918996674,0.11173969552038764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09682469749841753,0.0,0.0,0.12104545103004552,0.12131278882226812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20154130910806214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384394504672038,0.0,0.0,0.3127699092473982,0.1458643509354836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308597759051199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295862994787563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17563580198694026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10923618501006492,0.24958764697557925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947344043824857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29988976180658616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11018089446228237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09107083870025487,0.17567254401779733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13390867921141206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808542037138554,0.10880889168105136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997969440877283,0.0,0.419093192822416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17655194686645725 schizophrenia,dimanoll,2019/03/07,"A PA prescribed me Ritalin while I'm on Aripiprazol and Clomipramine: is this even safe? It was prescribed by a physician assistant, so not a doctor. I'm not sure if this is a safe combination, anybody else using the same combination?",6.329224806201553,7.842222697674417,6.739534883720933,72.27271317829461,66.2093023255814,10.38449612403101,37.58914728682171,10.504223727775694,4.354324031007751,188,10,32,5,3,61,32,43,0.047,0.807,0.146,0.6367,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,0,3,3,0,1,1,9,6,4,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,22,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5239671279742389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4276396490333562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3381153094312751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4824742286623392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44213056395360095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jonnyfivedicks,2019/03/07,"The Demon Late at night, When the lights were out, The Demon stirred, It gave a shout, The sleeper woke, He looked around, In his little bedroom, Nothing made a sound, Suddenly a creak, From near the door, A demonic laugh, Shook the sleeper to his core, A shadow emerged, Illuminated by the moonlight, It slowly crept forward, The sleeper shook with fright, A chuckle was heard, The Demon toyed with his prey, The sleeper began to panic, ""Our father.."" he began to say, The prayer went unheard, The Demon called his name, ""Don't die of fright, Adam"" """"Wouldn't THAT be a shame!"" The Demon finally reaches, The foot of Adam's bed, Adam is beyond terrified, He put's his hands to his head, ""This can't be real, Demons don't exist..."" ""Wrong"" laughed the Demon, ""And you won't be missed"" The Demon leapt on the bed, Sliced Adam with its claw, Adam screamed in pain, Blood gushed from his jaw, He closed his eyes and repeated, ""It's just my imagination..."" A product of psychosis, His mental-health's damnednation, The Demon soon disappeared, His jaw pain went away, He was alone in the dark, And what was there to say? When all was finished, When all is done and said, The tormenter of the night, Was all in his head... 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Ever since I was 8 I believe I've had schizophrenia, at my old house (8-9 years old) I once saw a confederate soldier staring at me upstairs so I had my brothers cousin bring a rifle upstairs because he thought there was an intruder and demons moving around my room talking to me. Once at my mothers I had a few fleas on my leg and I started having a psychotic break and was saying that the demons from a few years back sent these bugs to kill me, this was four years ago. In 7th grade I saw a man inside my house behind my Dad through the door and then he was right in front of me suddenly, it freaked me out so bad that I called the 911, freaked my father right the fuck out lmfao. It went away for a long time until recently last year it's been happening pretty frequently and I started thinking that my step mom was trying to poison me so I would grab the last fork in the cup board or not eat certain foods she would make and not say why, etc & I've seen shadows follow me when I was outside. I've always had control over it though since the middle school incident because I realized they aren't real so I've never lashed out or said anything to anyone except my mother who has recently passed away. I'm at constant anxiety and panic because of the this but it's always on the verge that I can tell the difference between reality, and I think I'm one of the lucky ones that can do that. I'm 18 now and moved out. I've heard some meds take away a lot of your emotions / can make you feel dull, but I also don't want this to progress. Any advice would be appreciated.",4.128518927880627,4.7929092310030414,4.9474399005250085,86.22756493506495,70.67173252279636,7.683945841392652,27.72050290135397,7.686295010490155,1.4607191489361702,1263,42,266,14,22,410,187,329,0.073,0.875,0.052000000000000005,-0.2229,0,0,0,1,0,1,23.0,0,2,1,2,12,10,3,1,21,0,25,6,1,3,3,41,51,22,1,5,7,7,2,0,0,4,2,4,2,1,16,14,2,1,5,0,0,10,5,8,0,3,20,11,37,2,34,26,5,59,2,1,5,1,23,23,1,5,25,169,53,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942925406909624,0.08553585549629386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07716598834342346,0.1605810002459125,0.1045508989667242,0.0,0.06561903453235493,0.0,0.07381742720973199,0.0,0.0,0.06747064852418623,0.0,0.07940610494804848,0.08589986344877816,0.0,0.0,0.2719770624678731,0.07419770997972926,0.0805682207699995,0.1764650175704392,0.0,0.0,0.1087153724405041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09853087079101497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427542497602256,0.10822590544612112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008153936464582,0.0,0.09876540522114426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873715925745198,0.0,0.10854244071973652,0.0,0.0,0.10761599823848483,0.0,0.08728408881793917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04879012118587512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668058217108457,0.0,0.0,0.08920688385254973,0.0,0.0,0.05483960144988003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532907274733546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226815812697625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10675599797366088,0.0,0.0,0.15731051175320487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539390054252256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203550512233773,0.0,0.0,0.12882060696200184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10718276346977866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130122717854295,0.0,0.2051150945951164,0.0,0.0,0.07442190100115649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025078420208404,0.20552531271090094,0.13077327596978985,0.0,0.0,0.11321458282270025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816879740683533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983097186502212,0.0,0.0,0.19055180326914467,0.0,0.0,0.16481020930256554,0.09178761899471563,0.15347134893212513,0.0,0.09765679027319164,0.07689299709415151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15964119496658344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659749505138247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725512642497984,0.07755799231672797,0.08433975929959008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236585515636424,0.09480458422688992,0.07660523058252414,0.056266260702676436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06551289789400461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05691449267151336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08945063974607331,0.08707056838311576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20563909797644955,0.0,0.0,0.2485551529672781 schizophrenia,throwaway9247436,2019/03/07,"Is it coming ? My mother suffers from severe paranoid scitzphrenia and is on 6 different medications for it (some are for her side effects from the anti phsycotics) hers started after smoking weed for the first time and went pale and describes to me it felt like her brain was suddenly taken over it's caused her problems until this day and describes she hasn't felt the same since. My dad also suffered from scitzphrenia but also apparently bipolar I never really spoke to my dad about it because he passed away when I was in my early teens. Anyway I've been smoking weed and drinking alcohol since about 14 pretty heavy usage but recently the weed has been causing me huge paranoia and anxiety and somewhat delusional thoughts example my grandparents keeping life threatening doctors news from me and the past year when I sometimes speak my words come out in the wrong order and I sometimes stop speaking in the middle of a setence and don't speak until I I think of something else My Gran has always said I've showed simliar odd behavior as my mum did when I was younger I don't know if all of these symptoms are from the stress from my terminally ill grandad or something else I just thought I would ask reddit ",6.714793510324483,7.966290862831862,6.315203539823012,76.62109439528027,65.15044247787611,8.858525073746312,35.42064896755162,9.029198982220553,3.281049321533924,989,46,164,16,15,307,142,226,0.158,0.805,0.038,-0.9761,4,0,4,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,9,6,0,1,9,0,16,9,1,3,2,38,31,22,0,3,5,4,2,1,0,1,7,5,0,0,7,13,2,2,7,2,0,4,4,5,0,1,14,7,27,1,27,16,4,32,0,2,0,0,16,10,0,4,18,113,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14412244047024764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156921640073473,0.11221285499305447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10316618084033707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12607424543186901,0.0,0.12670375127571054,0.0,0.0,0.08220832849737067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15054639083124474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770731120174427,0.0,0.2323368570012564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08697240519053852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14089815272035186,0.0,0.1380331182074902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13210972947518476,0.0,0.0,0.22531350183530235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589701088640364,0.0,0.0,0.11471034600829665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986819584869242,0.0,0.0,0.07411455924392796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09525435978642288,0.06588492178885047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358554842049106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10401098476857698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287374450701556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719930765640073,0.0,0.1290411181283886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639363874136738,0.0,0.13315623788717715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12828106394453642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15235141995799853,0.0,0.22311225156488154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20764091614000396,0.26675648594983514,0.0,0.09545335301898784,0.0,0.0,0.11274752321810183,0.1544796528364305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401693427171338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641171180907102,0.0,0.214124749949304,0.07863692147342376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12501493516033296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579942104730714,0.14744630984159018,0.0,0.08684428199781251 schizophrenia,abcxyz123brb,2019/03/07,Does anyone here have only pleasant hallucinations? I often hear about people with schizophrenia that experience scary hallucinations and threatening auditory ones. I'm curious if there's any cases of someone with schizophrenia experiencing only pleasant hallucinations and positive encouraging and uplifting auditory hallucinations.,16.214000000000006,19.85775706666667,15.433333333333339,11.130000000000024,45.0,17.555555555555557,55.0,15.021129683784007,10.885,288,18,21,13,3,96,34,45,0.115,0.609,0.27699999999999997,0.8519,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,3,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,3,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,15,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24170442374152865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24852475104559255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31103897654793644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34767850508514025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40059516927273614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408484027106851,0.5406406946888572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464102415147146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.301154480659587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lynexxx,2019/03/07,"15 year old recently diagnosed, need help I am a 15 year old who was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia and I’m wondering if there’s anything I can do to help prevent the voices or make it Atleast bearable? It’s multiple voices telling me to hang and cut myself, (which I have) and it’s incredibly hard to deal with as I also have Anxiety, Depression and PTSD.",5.150142857142857,6.529199442857145,6.221428571428575,75.39357142857145,68.85714285714286,10.742857142857144,35.42857142857143,10.793553405168565,4.257085714285715,291,15,53,9,5,97,48,70,0.132,0.775,0.09300000000000001,-0.4005,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,0,6,2,0,1,0,12,10,8,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,6,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,6,0,6,9,0,7,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,3,6,33,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609357708841713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15395208183965278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656077112088556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20747503823216426,0.17333225742686176,0.4085194287184507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18027623463461032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697809267920153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343327813993035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922081882313562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.422346118612132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23524495299338294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.397410854326242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758972375064743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218241912357326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591907134785708 schizophrenia,SwerveDaddyFish,2019/03/07,"In need of some help Hey, not looking to get karma or anything just not sure where else to ask. Was wondering if someone with experience with this issue, or witnessed it in a loved one. I'm in a particularly rough situation with an immediate family member, and frankly i'm terrified of what comes next. I personally don't have this disorder, but would love for some insight and help regarding this disorder in someone very close to me. Thank you",7.185421686746987,7.778114771084343,7.94424096385542,67.67274698795183,63.93975903614458,11.941204819277113,37.081927710843374,11.602472056035307,4.6394356626506035,358,17,63,11,5,120,62,83,0.10800000000000001,0.715,0.17800000000000002,0.8257,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,0,1,21,15,6,0,3,7,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,2,3,4,13,13,2,8,1,0,1,2,8,6,0,6,1,41,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15455729575125293,0.0,0.1755834368220195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16178761852971865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43050885057776733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15689690975000073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18372095565552865,0.17705704668931235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09812657210048016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517794019727444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19603203466594546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15771888299051093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3390241484811378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13926384259972938,0.0,0.0,0.19974539107662884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12726958401779512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16399446212750984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111140512809154,0.0,0.0,0.3182732793514215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17701519417632786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172916556434559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549686023388746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20367940325550826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13341972847369465,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Theobold2,2019/03/07,"The problem is when I don't have symptoms, I wonder if I made it up Does anyone else have this second-guessing thing? 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Hi, I apologize if this isn't the right place to post this. I'm not asking for a diagnosis of course, I'm just wondering if this is something I should be concerned about. These past couple years I've been having what I believe to be hallucinations. At first I believed it was a trick of the eye, sort of like how you can ""see water"" way ahead on a highway. It started two summers ago in a parking lot. I looked down and suddenly the concrete seemed to have risen in small particles and started moving in swirling motions. This has happened more than once. I've also seen what looks to be the ceiling and walls ""breathing"". All of this I attributed to a trick of the eye, until I started to see faces in shapes and patterns. The most notable time was when I quickly looked up from my book and saw a face on my crumpled blanket at the end of my bed. It disappeared quickly, but it wasn't a ""corner of my eye"" thing. I looked right at it. Lastly, I'm starting to feel really paranoid. To be clear, I don't believe these things are likely to be true, but they make me paranoid nonetheless. I feel like my mom has tapped my phone and can read everything I text. Every time I send a text and there happens to be a notification sound in the other room I'm convinced that she just got my text sent to someone else and is reading it. I also feel like we're living in a simulation and people are watching me. I don't think I have schizophrenia or anything, because from what I hear, people with schizophrenia aren't aware that what they see isn't real as it's happening. I'm fully aware of how bizarre it is. But I'm wondering if these could potentially be some early signs of psychosis, or could I be being overdramatic? 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The title comes from one of my hallucinations (I have schizoaffective disorder). In that hallucination I hear what sounds like a large room of people all talking at once. Some of the songs deal directly with my disorder. It's probably best filed under indie rock. Check it out. If you like it, please support me by buying it. It's also available on all other platforms iTunes, Amazon, Google play, etc. https://selahselahmusic.bandcamp.com/album/a-cafeteria-of-voices",7.4605813953488385,11.457106453488375,6.836093023255812,61.36879069767443,71.67441860465115,8.556279069767443,26.04186046511629,9.120678840339163,2.980710697674419,449,15,61,11,10,139,66,86,0.057,0.75,0.193,0.8979,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,1,2,5,0,0,5,0,1,1,0,0,2,7,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,9,3,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,7,5,13,4,5,8,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,2,2,43,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15607348735097534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048137676666907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19928542284254527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16811748205704752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012066837426487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6710284565049698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21766071426555125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21996529047314434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906956528486938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20784449847860886,0.13224894588326805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530293050897935,0.0,0.0,0.21423271042002215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104210238580976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214710815389297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15686634218874132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,electric-historian,2018/11/30,"How aware are you? I’ve found it odd that I’m recently able to tell what is real and what is not. For example I know that the person in the mirror is me, that’s all there is. But there’s still this overwhelming part of me that is trying to tell me that the person there is not me. They just look like me and are waiting for the opportunity when I’m not paying attention to take me over. I just wanted to know if anyone else experiences this.",3.8938709677419356,4.229138118279572,5.300161290322585,84.6702419354839,71.04301075268819,8.780645161290323,23.026881720430108,8.841846274778883,1.1986430107526878,347,7,78,6,6,117,54,93,0.025,0.9159999999999999,0.057999999999999996,0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,1,8,3,0,1,4,0,8,0,0,1,1,18,17,6,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,10,2,0,1,4,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,10,2,9,16,2,5,0,1,1,0,6,2,0,1,4,58,20,1,0.2287654930499401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15995815180316852,0.2343972818848941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19110421489630885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237765488593328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508295553312518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514470644915014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117632645128081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921053981002596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24773073593852915,0.0,0.0,0.39949840926959457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26038521423100003,0.0,0.0,0.2258783259120968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18269241825811644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720031805566673,0.0,0.3999022483458257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15531675321955946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13493181491040154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iDareToDream,2018/11/30,"My mom has schizophrenia, and struggles with hygiene, going to medical appointments, and hoarding. Is there anything me and my dad can do to help her? Hi all, As the title states, my mom has schizophrenia, and lately she's been struggling with not bathing or taking a shower. Her hair is very dirty and plastered, and she resists me and my dad when we try to encourage her to shower. In addition, she hasn't been to a doctor for a checkup in years now, and we're worried about any conditions she might be developing. Finally, she's an extreme hoarder, and my parent's house is a mess because she won't get rid of any junk, and gets very heated when we try to throw out junk. I guess my question is - what are things me and my dad can do to help her in these 3 areas? We've tried encouraging her, taking her to appointments, setting up times where she feels she has more energy. But she just won't really move. 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I remember when I first found here. I thought all of you were lying. Why would you all be seeing things? I don't get it. Since Schizophrenia is an umbrella term, you don't have to have all the symptoms to be called a Schizophrenic. When I found this out I found I wasn't alone, I found more people like to which made me happy but also sad, I realize that other people besides me suffered from this, other people even had it worse than me. Finding out that I have a form of Bipolar Schizophrenia, fall high on the Sociopathic and Psychopathic spectrum and fall on the Autistic spectrum made it hard for me, but last night I was watching a TED talk from a woman who had Schizophrenia and I thought hey it's not bad it could always be worse! Thanks Guys!!! 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This is such a great community. Thank you. Things are especially tough for me right now. But reading all of your positive responses to everyone always cheers me up and helps keep me going. It's almost like if we all got together we could be more positive for the world than all the 'sane' people combined. I often feel like the 'sane' people are more hateful and delusional than I am, but they also seem not to have ever gone through the intense pain of living with a mental illness. They're all so lucky, but so much more worse. It makes going on seem tough. Their 'pain' is invented and societally constructed. The biggest thing missing in them is empathy. Here we know what we go through. It's a miracle we all keep going. But they seem to make up pain in the form of racism and sexism and hatred. I feel like if they experienced what we go through for just one day, true pain, they'd be more understanding of everyone else. If anyone heard the voices telling me all of the shitty things I've heard now for more than ten years, for just one day, they'd be a lot more introspective. I just remind myself that I'm stronger than the vast majority of people I meet. They don't know pain. But I am successful and got top grades in undergrad and grad school. I did better than all the 'sane' people. I worked hard while dealing with an impossible handicap. I envy the 'sane'. If I didn't have this, maybe I'd be a billion times more successful. But I feel a billion times more successful because I overcame as much as I could. But every day, every second, the voices still scream that I'm a failure. The suicidal stuff is so tough to overcome. But we're all so much more tough than the masses because they wouldn't be able to handle even one day with what we deal with every day. We are strong and stronger than everyone else. We keep going, we keep fighting, and we are the strongest people on the planet. And all of your positive comments remind me of why we're better than them, even if they see us as lesser.",3.9555935646380114,5.585986730478592,4.652375071097751,84.51705614690826,72.12342569269522,7.842983667831316,25.65279921995613,8.460557738077197,1.6455837978386283,1600,51,316,27,31,513,170,397,0.163,0.6659999999999999,0.171,-0.0141,0,0,0,0,2,0,42.0,12,4,11,8,18,27,2,0,24,0,25,6,0,2,12,76,57,33,1,8,17,0,4,3,0,1,6,5,0,1,14,25,0,4,9,1,0,7,4,13,0,7,7,11,47,14,43,40,26,33,0,1,1,0,38,13,0,12,16,226,61,9,0.07678918889616393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07689328050415349,0.0,0.0,0.061408286617092474,0.06389475661527508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053692786313770426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361995363923682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13582759474282274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12261983788083584,0.0,0.0,0.24761337113463994,0.15833256389995098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12829502789847966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10143707009965523,0.06946021762061151,0.19409461060673472,0.2201260821560416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11648076348860405,0.10971642378124986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261846393943455,0.0,0.12283065837233514,0.08466035184767172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06878803031713808,0.07581342632008121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029403493409328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730150373640662,0.0,0.0,0.08440266001310229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254595676873916,0.0,0.06780626063847013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06528342239213751,0.0,0.0,0.10251475973202667,0.0,0.07714506141468996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07738544139735336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257955572639845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15610302514760827,0.0,0.4085455551294399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661797746001357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07680996914123338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0655775477483241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07771475874205575,0.061191041620441325,0.20971798071248304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06132394544511555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879052496336256,0.08399490926271473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06711713571575366,0.0706971681826916,0.0,0.0,0.15304597503480175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08955278713530468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07994025375710373,0.09236793943863213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929029918450091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05590344407123311,0.0,0.07825474376913111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049449720016677225 schizophrenia,dovah9,2018/11/30,"Recently diagnosed, and I have no idea how to tell me family. I was diagnosed bipolar about 6 years ago, and most of my family and boyfriend are aware. Yesterday I was finally officially diagnosed Schizophrenic, and I just dont know how to even break it to them. Part of me thinks I could just keep it my little secret, but I dont know if that's healthy or smart. If anyone has advice, it would be greatly appreciated.",5.9170370370370335,6.400359962962966,7.04404938271605,73.41422222222224,66.65432098765433,11.912098765432098,32.24938271604938,11.602472056035307,3.959319012345679,331,13,64,11,5,112,56,81,0.02,0.831,0.149,0.9079,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,0,0,0,10,5,0,2,0,21,14,10,0,4,6,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,5,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,11,2,6,9,2,7,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,4,5,47,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712572635740777,0.155353079283047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12254244665747993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13992694339656067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5336407377175971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4107953635585544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11575434620898115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33042983773457385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19198340481878826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19321937568429154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19784168522614065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557747928062714,0.0,0.0,0.1926312484877021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17565165975704536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18978420388053094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17304327658289248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15318068939814403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122963969532383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12449620067229715,0.0,0.0,0.11285854382671286 schizophrenia,softsheepsosoft,2018/11/30,"Geodon Withdrawal Help hello. i've been on 40mg Geodon for almost 2 months. My doctor wants me off of it, now. She has me take it one day, off the other, on one day, so on so fourth until I'm not longer on it. I didn't take it 2 nights ago, and it was fucking awful. I couldn't stop crying. I felt so fake. I felt so restless. My vision was wonky (everything was very blurry, i couldn't really see) I started to roll my eyes back all the time also??? I was really sleepy too. It was just a nightmare. I don't know how to fix this. I don't know how Im supposed to cope getting off this medication. Especially when I have to work a lot. Does anyone have anything that helped them? I read Benadryl helps..... In this case I'll do anything that'll help. I feel so lost and scared.",-0.11225930680359396,1.9962293658536616,2.02265725288832,95.93492297817714,87.65853658536585,4.91604621309371,16.558408215661107,6.339386263674448,-0.4473487804878045,592,13,138,6,19,198,99,164,0.11199999999999999,0.8009999999999999,0.086,-0.7201,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,1,2,13,5,1,2,4,1,16,4,1,2,1,18,30,12,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,12,2,0,1,5,1,0,0,6,5,0,2,10,5,19,0,15,17,2,20,0,1,2,1,7,8,1,2,12,85,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634995941926922,0.0,0.15402603727790554,0.0,0.0,0.12300782307168805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075527933272752,0.0,0.25315744197537743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11827618588764965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16896133385758194,0.19839916353071596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157438759638222,0.13460675695536795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13824127764388194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07777476480659673,0.0,0.2953779009877991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14220182779070512,0.08036331077748111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4124025917747306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16614932749023234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16906818349140734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16791000409706044,0.13077016333641106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15495497892845933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277568484477736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443473319064335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20846147815027494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15385915508733344,0.0,0.19707889672719775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15399818109416682,0.0,0.12257265649102925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10887283934300993,0.0,0.0,0.1285983424721065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23130327928281044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969223864039527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12691557122527802,0.09072556439755704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198099371002834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,yellow24daze,2018/11/30,"Radio station in my head? I have psychotic breaks but I'm in control enough to figure out when they may occur. I used break from reality and become severally paranoid but that isnt an issue anymore. Though it seems as if there are voices and screaming in the back of my head only before I sleep which can switch up rapidly in tone, my head pulsates a lot as if I'm having frequencies aimed at me (I think this may be because I live in an urban area and there is a lot of frequency pollution) and I always see objects in the corner of my eyes that disappear when I glance over along with shape, color and size distortions of physical objects in every day life. Am I safe?",4.7988888888888885,5.716453233082711,5.877092731829574,79.24758563074356,69.30075187969925,8.617878028404345,29.063492063492063,8.841846274778883,2.299453467000836,532,19,100,9,9,177,92,133,0.067,0.904,0.03,-0.5803,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,1,6,2,0,0,6,0,10,6,5,2,0,22,16,14,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,5,8,0,2,3,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,6,14,1,21,13,3,21,0,0,4,0,1,14,0,7,4,74,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15394585607153088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18348344253043106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226377920033342,0.0,0.1127823680051692,0.2043326134314686,0.1574326600977832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075081066565192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193182489874822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19116815803044693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15588165378806113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5696309530596082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19310577880793853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130680339278188,0.0,0.0,0.16337010099046442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31458332044211323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14071092366740445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474316170087028,0.16842912618935044,0.0,0.20901232546484172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18514687754875025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11854902853935262,0.18177459171338825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597920566301607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,weedwhore69,2018/11/30,Does Anyone Else have Major Problems with Showering? I have such a hard time showering and I only shower once a week because my boyfriend makes me. I constantly feel the need to dry off my hands throughout the entire time I'm in the shower. I also feel like I'm being watched when I'm getting ready to shower. This especially gets worse at night. Showering uses up so much of my energy and I'm not really sure what to do about about it. It's just so much work.,2.272795698924732,4.475969612903229,3.91956989247312,85.36602150537635,78.67741935483872,7.1440860215053785,22.161290322580648,8.167268648758528,1.311658064516129,366,11,72,7,9,122,64,93,0.105,0.8170000000000001,0.077,-0.373,6,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,8,3,0,0,5,0,4,1,1,2,1,12,15,6,0,2,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,8,2,11,14,3,10,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,7,43,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739720806107133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211376612799146,0.22290238362812476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326144973141388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350907832464906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903766523706239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817324189052972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21999637607645425,0.1554154624229323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22731842628538745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19487918348880245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062823675327398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14521416429589742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31984382771344905,0.16130818014212214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041529151177004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316802197320021,0.0,0.16545412850265506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081628872188781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13936603726460853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20503526469650427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25370655266061115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878905687086648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17450290393640494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15837664611977662,0.0,0.22169875339567954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ex-elmo,2018/11/08,"Last night was so bad and now i cant trust anyone I've been hearing these things for two damn years. It's fucked up because I always hear real people, neighbors, friends, etc. In their actual voices. Last night I smoked some weed. I was chilling on my back porch when I heard my neighbors across from me talking. I wanted to make sure they weren't real so I looked down and I was kind of staring at them. Their dog was outside and they had just turned the porch light on. I couldn't see them but they could see me as I stared, then they started talking about me being a fucking freak because I was staring at them. I didn't want to respond so I just sat up here listening to them talk shit, loudly. I was boiling in anger and I knew they knew I could hear them because I would react to them and they would say ""look! He can hear us!"" I waited like five minutes before I told them to fuck off. Then another five of them fucking with me more before I had to run to the edge of my porch and throw up. The porch lights were undeniable proof. I yelled at them that they don't know what other people go through every day of their lives. I went inside and laid on my laundry room floor. I huddled up to my blanket and had a bad anxiety attack and then I cried some. Stopped myself because I don't like crying. It makes me feel weak. Went back outside after smoking some more. The neighbors to my right were outside on their porch. I stared because I can't help it. I needed to make sure they were real. The lady said she was going to call the cops on me. I went inside and waited, I saw a car pull up to the side of the house and wait for a good few minutes. They left. I went into my kitchen to talk to my ""friend"" and his mom. I told him that I think I got the cops called on us. I was about to tell him the rest of the story. He left the room and told me I was full of shit under his breath before coming back in and asking me what I was saying. I told him nevermind and left outside again. The neighbors were kind of fucking with me but not as bad. This time it was my roommates, they were talking shit and telling me I was full of shit while I was outside on the porch crying and begging them to shut up. They wouldn't. I took a walk. I walked for a while and when I came back I sat on the front porch. I heard my other neighbor tell me I didn't look ""punk"" or whatever, which is stupid, because I don't try to. I told them I don't wear my clothes to look like anything, I wear what I want because I like it and I don't give a fuck what they think. Then Art (friend) yelled from inside ""we get it!"" Very rudely. I don't even know what to do. I can't trust them anymore, that's for sure. I don't even know why I'm posting here, they'll probably know I'm posting here anyway. 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Why won't this voice insulting me that sounds just like a human please stop! There that's all,2.0536363636363646,3.9597834545454553,2.1090909090909093,99.53363636363638,78.0909090909091,6.218181818181819,15.545454545454547,7.1686216300943375,-0.539436363636363,84,1,20,1,2,25,18,22,0.092,0.585,0.32299999999999995,0.6726,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102479943896312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47239669101636605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3597931056968455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7766505444953633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rosendal159,2018/11/08,So i asked for sleeping/relaxing meds and they gave me quetiapin I have explained im not interrested in antipsychotics and yet thats exactly what they give me when im asking for something else. I dont think i can really trust them it all just seems a ruse to me. Am i being ridiculous?,1.309236453201969,3.8435911551724153,3.3069458128078817,86.11120689655175,85.72413793103449,7.452216748768473,23.802955665024644,8.418075326091056,1.9312334975369456,229,9,46,6,7,77,46,58,0.049,0.8809999999999999,0.07,0.2716,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,3,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,2,9,12,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,11,1,4,10,1,3,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,1,2,32,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4888146110508016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30640096568466696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21839617478344453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507931686461601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5647913392190026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903963843701609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16748255273693655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380014539984485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20126615335575807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16751758915349327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,russianeater27,2018/11/08,"Anyone here have this symptom? It's a new one for me. So I am diagnosed with schizophrenia so maybe this is only related to that, however I haven't read or talked to my therapist much about my new experiences with schizophrenia. I'll start with what has been happening recently. I have depersonalization/derealization that I've been dealing with this for about 10 years now. HOWEVER, there are new symptoms coming up lately that I haven't experienced before. RECENTLY: Sometimes lately I will get weird moments where I feel different, I'll be in my house and it all looks familiar but it also feels like it's not MY house or MY life because it feels like the person (ME) who lives there is a different person and I'm just a guest at ""her"" house. I 'll think in a different perspective as well, such as ""This is her house"" when I'm thinking about myself. Or I'll think ""She's not doing very good, I need to help her with this or that"". Instead of just thinking I need help. During these times I don't feel any emotions either, it's like my only goal is to try to help ""her"". It also feels like I'm seeing clarity for the first time in a while during these times. Like these moments are the only times I feel awake and like I'm not dreaming or disoriented. I realy don't know how to explain it further. Are these also symptoms of this that I'm just now getting after 10 YEARS of depersonalization? Are there any schizophrenics out there that experience this as well? 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Do any of you experience hallucinations of your friends/gf/family turning on you when you have a psychotic break? Ex: had a psychotic break and my best friend/roommate was out to get me. Luckily I moved back to my parents the day before my episode but he was outside my window because I owed him money, he was with other mutual people including his mom and gf. They were all against me and treated me horribly, and said very hurtful things. I also remember I was outside at like 1 AM and I hallucinated my friend and two other mutual friends that were there to jump me and break my legs. I even hallucinated them beating me up, but it wasn’t too vivid and I don’t remember feeling any pain. My dad had to go outside and get me. Luckily we live in the country so I didn’t disturb anyone but our chickens (lol)",3.902311688311688,5.956508793939397,5.454913419913421,76.94522727272728,73.18181818181819,8.593073593073594,31.785714285714285,9.23628265651192,3.088662337662338,681,33,125,16,14,230,102,165,0.131,0.7290000000000001,0.14,-0.2771,2,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,2,4,2,2,7,10,1,1,4,1,14,3,1,0,1,19,22,15,0,0,3,4,1,1,3,0,1,1,1,0,5,12,0,0,3,0,2,3,3,4,0,2,11,3,31,6,14,11,2,14,0,1,1,1,21,5,0,0,4,91,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13798276960287978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346706448738955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12064624778518895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326751039023894,0.0,0.1051807598360797,0.0,0.14682159192952174,0.0,0.1810734891307862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112761180031148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139631851318912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16878040073517986,0.1626584141508645,0.0,0.08724304833012543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3999194460788965,0.0,0.18029344668706734,0.0,0.09806030162273488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18471111094371573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08429591334792336,0.0,0.15235884527523444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15572701392550056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20208056158974785,0.0,0.1833861617480529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691976734651115,0.0,0.18359817643899348,0.0,0.1915888529489611,0.0,0.0,0.11961975992137194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3909157195039515,0.0,0.16412813670939208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11463006419938775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876775020435356,0.16854967752500144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423662461954916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Thrrooowwaawaayyy,2018/11/08,"Does anyone have similar experiences? Please help. Hello I found this sub through a different mental health Reddit. I have a family history of mental health issues like bipolar, schizophrenia, and depression. Recently I have been having some issues but I've never really heard them described as traditional symptoms of schizophrenia or psychosis but there's definitely something there. I'm just looking for someone to tell me if they've had similar experiences or not or if this is something completely not related. These issues have been getting worse on top of bad depression. I am able to live an okay life. I go to work everyday, sometimes I make it to the gym, I spend time with my boyfriend and my family. I have a hard time with hygiene, sometimes I can only shower once a week. If I didn't have my boyfriend there reminding me I would never clean anything. I'd be living in a giant hoarder mess, but I care about what he thinks so I try my best but it is a serious struggle. Okay I'm going to list some other issues that definitely go beyond depression but I don't know what they are. - Quick hallucinations. I might glance at a corner and see a man or a little girl or a terrifying black figure. I see these in detail but it's always quick and gone when I look back. I've been trying for months to catch one and really look but haven't had any luck. I'm not sure if these are real hallucinations or just a trick of the eye?? I do have really good vision so it's not like it's my eyes blurring. Plus sometimes it's like the visions are standing right behind/beside me. - Maybe auditory hallucinations? I hear my name being called a lot. Usually it sounds like my boss calling my name from far away or right behind me. A lot of times I just hear voices like they are thoughts in my head but they are not my voice and they always say something completely random and not necessarily aimed at me. Like today I heard a man say ""Are you going to do what I asked?"" and later a girl said ""There isn't a lot of difference between lilac and lavender."" These had nothing to do with what I was doing and I was not controlling these thoughts. Sometimes I have thoughts that are mine that I don't control. Sometimes they are random but mostly my internal monologue just says ""I want to be dead."" :( Or thinks about ways I should hurt myself. Again I'm not thinking these on purpose and I do not WANT hurt myself. - I randomly get really sensitive to light. It will become really hard to be in a lit room without covering my eyes. - Sometimes I feel like there is a bug or bugs crawling on me but I look and nothings there. Sometimes I feel like someone is trying to touch me when no one is near. - Horrible paranoia. I'm constantly wondering if people are talking about me or thinking bad things about me. I think about it non stop. It's a real problem at work because I have a coworker who talks out loud to himself and I'm always sure he's saying something bad or inappropriate about me. Sometimes I get this overwhelming feeling of dread. I'm terrified of being alone in the dark. I can't go to sleep unless I'm laying in a way in which I can see everywhere in my room. If I turn to face one wall I become absolutely sure there is a demon or monster or something horrible in the part of the room I can't see. I'm so sure that if I don't turn around to look I will die. I think everyone around me while I'm driving is trying to watch me while I drive to catch me doing something I shouldn't be. - I had a very close friend in high school who I later had a brief fwb type relationship. At one point I thought I loved him but I no longer think that and we've lost touch although things didn't end badly. I have this feeling that he has the power to see everything through my eyes whenever he wants to. Like he's watching a TV show of my like from my perspective. Sometimes I also think he can feel everything I feel or he can know everything I think. I haven't seen or spoken to this person in over a year. 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I'm at medical school and learning about how weed smoking is considered THE major environmental trigger for developing the condition. I'm a big weed smoker, have been for 10 years (I'm 28) and while I'm trying to stop/ switch to CBD based weed, I'm aware that damage may already be done. Does anyone out there have anything to say on the topic. Advice, stories or personal experience all would be hugely appreciated. Cheers",5.647270765911544,8.273029951456312,6.286925566343044,70.37228694714133,69.87378640776699,9.23797195253506,30.861920172599785,9.725611199111238,3.4620062567421783,467,20,74,12,9,152,74,103,0.032,0.8690000000000001,0.099,0.7828,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,7,0,12,1,0,2,1,13,18,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,3,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,2,1,13,10,3,13,0,1,0,0,3,8,0,2,5,45,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535468415440663,0.2300006537201476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28632680956555034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18142442344728207,0.0,0.2135181315654594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22706014894866464,0.2655234563402862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538072045730076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844907055159478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613843568603268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265554076263303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063375082700324,0.0,0.2625931017199989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169249111762621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761601524330953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18431696154623792,0.0,0.0,0.3341747582711804 schizophrenia,aAnonymX06,2019/09/11,"Schizophrenia made my life easier? (potentially delusion encouraging) I am pretty sure I was schizophrenic. I was at a break from reality, but I was still responsive to people, especially for compliments. Every compliment attaches me back to reality. Even until now, I think that I am special in some kind of way. My studies have gone up, my self-consciousness lowered down. To prove I'm not still a major delusion, I can handle insults and I don't over react to compliments. Maybe I was also in a depression. Every nice thing that happened made coming back to reality easier.",4.4937165775401064,7.583031598039218,6.3047950089126585,66.37612299465243,76.15686274509805,9.983600713012477,30.84135472370767,10.018931242160765,4.328145098039214,461,22,68,16,11,158,70,102,0.09,0.636,0.27399999999999997,0.9658,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,7,10,1,0,3,0,9,2,0,3,2,11,16,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,7,0,13,8,15,9,2,16,0,1,0,0,2,6,0,1,6,54,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16955341236640264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260626912687749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826376359305573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18261369463379312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14003811475061853,0.0,0.35727429595405763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874897965925525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22078762931839574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14975696329899946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4012394920420405,0.0,0.0,0.21300396299341826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14698892143918213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157019555579056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22118452824201854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.338641078681272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998276313228164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408575766432533,0.1358547323504166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16829269410679368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SalemForPresident9,2019/09/11,Sudden outburst of emotions Is it common? Sometimes I can start just being angry/sad/happy out of anything and as fast as it comes so does it go.,0.8725862068965498,3.434842379310344,2.699568965517244,88.62107758620691,90.72413793103449,2.9000000000000004,21.04310344827585,3.1291,-0.12900689655172434,115,4,20,0,4,38,25,29,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3256495710108142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408837370825766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34630333057272666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44513956804674665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22490075162660847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4212587087950984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3913840834177416,0.0,0.2800975799892056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sapunec7854,2019/09/11,"Question - Should I maintain eye contact while talking to a person who has schizophrenia? I've recently had several interactions with people with schizoid disorders and I've noticed they all definitely avoided meeting my eyes. I typically do the exact same thing when I'm trying to concentrate or feel under pressure or something so I assume that they were doing the same thing, but didn't want to be rude and ask them and potentially put them in an embarrassing situation So should I avoid looking at their face as well to make sure they don't feel like I'm putting some sort of pressure on them or should I keep trying to meet their gaze? I understand it might be a highly individual thing but I thought it would be nice to ask for future interactions",7.976714285714286,8.295840814285715,7.8392857142857135,70.02821428571433,62.28571428571429,10.714285714285717,37.5,10.411451182825502,3.989285714285714,614,28,105,13,8,197,94,140,0.145,0.778,0.077,-0.8371,0,2,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,8,0,4,10,1,5,5,0,15,3,3,1,3,33,27,13,0,5,5,0,2,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,7,5,0,3,6,0,0,2,2,6,1,0,4,5,16,4,15,15,4,11,0,0,3,0,19,5,0,8,5,75,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32336483342346783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19821263507833076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17489474316568224,0.12355361424221045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827283601626299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15372354222945053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08449333440937816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14523220768727454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11544369239847845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834697970831896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969016928608335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989990944507632,0.1510109463855279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3477196901226791,0.1937406016420059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17076463371320127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19538126668055306,0.0,0.0,0.1944000563532809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331433117634509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16300082118871215,0.0,0.0,0.13900852075160508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34469558356138125,0.0,0.0,0.13730086954320933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348397825773096,0.0,0.0,0.18004428024052194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020088220345634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555004287875856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12285682822415883,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SanguineOwl39,2019/09/11,"Discord Server Hi all, New here... I prefer chatting over Discord since I can change my name and tag regularly, and I noticed the link has expired. Could anybody share a current link with me? Thank you\~",2.6375675675675687,5.627297621621626,2.923027027027029,87.28616216216219,86.2972972972973,4.0410810810810815,29.021621621621623,5.6839178017228535,1.3033610810810816,160,8,27,1,5,49,32,37,0.138,0.742,0.12,-0.1779,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,9,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,2,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4503628374274005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33990845896164396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4111698997721698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4846931412220208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35216586821248685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3919523285177429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lampworkz,2019/09/11,"Quick question I joined this sub because my dad is an unmedicated schizophrenic and I was looking to see if I could find some explanations. If anyone could give me some insight, I'd be deeply appreciative. This sounds horrible to have and I commend anyone that's trying to help themselves. My dad likes to target me for some reason. Things such as defiling my property, repeatedly breaking into my room (that I've since had to put a lock on because of this) he breaks in anyway when I'm not home, waking me up several times a night so I am constantly sleep deprived, too many other things to list. Would he not know hes doing any of this when hes in the act? Or is he just underhanded and super smart at convincing my mom hes incapable of these things?",3.9194897959183663,5.78329967346939,5.161649659863947,79.87471938775512,72.6734693877551,8.437414965986395,27.215986394557824,9.075114841892004,2.2895945578231296,600,22,114,13,12,199,100,147,0.06,0.7979999999999999,0.142,0.9145,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,8,5,0,0,4,0,14,3,2,1,0,21,19,10,0,5,6,3,0,1,0,1,1,1,2,0,11,4,0,0,5,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,3,16,4,17,13,3,18,0,1,2,0,12,7,0,7,8,78,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12954362798985156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266398085706109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322488563700319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20585820803134516,0.0,0.3041906774045588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17410964504102242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18274086126471087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12768527156556547,0.0,0.19108274810146644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469147067819154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930665908015568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996843465249833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19313276955946604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22310629528145656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787673369842009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19150082276016595,0.21339881329932106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19586133626902447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518004323223928,0.0,0.0,0.2152059511386811,0.0,0.15758003542714016,0.0,0.19063330257974687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3796706929682999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11107959141418862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12933409541607116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13532270018030992,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,theydoexist81,2019/09/11,"Just got out of the ward As the title states, I just got out of the ward within the past week. They put me on different meds, hopefully things work out better this time around. Right now they have me on an oral dose of Prolixin along with inectable unitl I'm told to stop the oral. Cogentin for side effects and low dose of zyprexa for agitation. Right now I feel the best I've felt in the past 10 years, and feel like I may have found that magical combination if y'all catch my drift. The doc was impressed that I knew so much about my condition. They labeled me with ""acute exacerbation of chronic paranoid schizophrenia"". So now in my mind it has been confirmed more than a few times. I actually feel happy. I can't remember the last time I felt this good, or the last time I was able to feel this emotion. Just wanted to give a shout out to my fellow schizo's out there. I love all of you with all of my heart. You are loved, you don't know how much your support means to me. God bless!",2.7271529411764703,4.4980990799999985,3.276235294117652,92.52782352941179,75.7,6.7058823529411775,22.764705882352942,7.510576382923642,0.6577088235294122,776,22,173,10,17,242,122,200,0.039,0.7809999999999999,0.18,0.9851,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,5,3,4,12,12,0,0,13,0,10,6,1,2,2,37,30,8,0,3,5,0,6,1,1,1,3,1,0,0,7,12,0,1,12,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,10,7,26,11,32,19,7,33,1,1,0,2,13,15,0,4,15,109,33,1,0.13385289817877805,0.0,0.13062112010979468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11915745784148628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14047035857106413,0.11838201099873598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13984778945968812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15056649434357158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707201885951131,0.09562453720399272,0.25703954637823323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14676279399643924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840389674132222,0.0,0.11226946038461907,0.21410878073704706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424888990958372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15861632881842935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329461299763973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07356205228335327,0.2182159542480829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06539376487910686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24161493314480964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14580504643841158,0.14868039490074195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515326998851349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967945629465192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555554741655427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345591330882223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15162924057348773,0.2286192873697324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119070164134869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15189468262466976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08892591786024412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31220280537815503,0.0,0.0,0.12790218034975626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894990735485154,0.0,0.10736872103666123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09744650405447364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08619687788748134 schizophrenia,ghostandco,2019/06/06,"I'm in ""full remission"" (so i'm not delusional, psych can testify lol) and proud to have schizophrenia! First of all, I don't know anyone who was eaten alive and became a literal ghost and then brushed it off like nothing happened. I think this says a lot about my mental strength. And all of ours, how we can handle so much. I saw different dimensions, world-views, lots my bigotry by becoming different races of people, I've become an overall much better person because of everything I experienced. I can see how my parents ruined my life now. I went to dimensions and states of mind, unavailable by any drugs. We say psychonauts and that's cool but aren't we the natural psychonauts of humanity, the oracles. It is not sustainable so we have to take meds and come back. But I'm proud to be a natural born psychonaut.",6.071612903225804,6.947778903225808,6.746612903225808,74.29991935483875,66.41935483870968,11.361290322580645,34.20967741935484,11.20814326018867,4.1506,650,29,118,20,10,214,103,155,0.059000000000000004,0.8370000000000001,0.10400000000000001,0.6919,3,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,5,0,0,5,8,7,0,0,6,2,10,3,0,2,2,25,22,15,1,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,2,5,12,1,0,2,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,4,7,15,6,15,17,7,11,0,1,2,0,11,3,0,2,6,78,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11645440745449748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197404754649442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13167902288945682,0.0,0.10439109730922297,0.3782595827602172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15145480326464408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751485580024234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35783510114283473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19859313348686716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15390652164272478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14566333012000998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15143390444937171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09411333751069403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12095741785955715,0.08366304737470015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911775891655863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19021775157411294,0.0,0.1725775506011913,0.0,0.1729115069425726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517737413240508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16431692658503233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19015046689838455,0.0,0.0,0.11872169413416225,0.14952701357881834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723663206644813,0.0,0.0,0.1364623615360354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875706795288205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10972870487697337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15874846867669762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ChosenUndead24,2019/06/06,"What is the difference between internal dialogue and internal voice hallucinations? Hi, I am not diagnosed with schizophrenia although my psych doc had a suspicion that I have. I would like to ask a question about what I am experiencing. I hear something like voices IN my head, They do and say whatever they want. It is not only my voice but all other voices. They are the voices of people I know. I can distinguish the tone like when they are angry or upset. Sometimes they tell me stuff I don't really like, for example, ""you can't be a doctor because you have schizophrenia"" or when I am preparing my meals ""such small portion?"". I can get into serious arguments with them. I always also have visual imagery of their faces when I am hearing their voice. They are smiling or upset or whatever. **Is this just a daydreaming or what? Or an internal dialogue?** Or was my psych doc onto something?",2.708753246753244,5.663448290909095,4.280346320346318,78.36909090909094,84.27272727272728,7.7489177489177505,26.64502164502165,8.563005593585519,2.7651385281385292,708,31,118,19,21,235,96,165,0.11199999999999999,0.7979999999999999,0.09,-0.7059,0,0,2,0,0,0,27.0,0,2,9,0,7,7,0,2,8,0,22,5,2,0,1,22,28,15,0,2,11,0,0,4,0,1,2,9,0,0,8,5,1,0,3,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,10,29,4,11,24,2,7,0,0,0,0,18,4,0,8,7,98,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15711298484500474,0.16347461361960214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836682487103046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11976323691481534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19940783351181213,0.0,0.2052641034496528,0.0,0.20109024645237847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10264485065245313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20162976415534248,0.0,0.44286065410735137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10797202278418244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3839314892560817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14942048110666972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13620408969742392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22008575657989604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586050602946242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15623684887961656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30249670182358657,0.1943089028163096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249054144695838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171906443672422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11588014378516935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139563094991741,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Oliterio,2019/06/06,"I need help to help my friend. I read the rules and they are clear. I am not here to get help. I just need advice to help my friend. He see's haliculations almost every night. He hears his name even if there is no one calling for him. He has a fucked up sleep sceduale. He once told us that he had an urge to carwe a smile to his face with a knife. He is paranoid and almost always has a knife around him. He doesnt think well before doing thing. I once stopped him while he was playing with glass shards. I am afraid that he will hurt himself and want to help him. He knowingly decreased his emotions to the point that texting him has no effect on his feelings. His family doesnt know anything and he wont tell them. I asked him what was he afraid of about this situation. He said that he kinda afraid of having schizophrania and thats why he wouldnt go to therapy. I want to convince him to open up to his parents so they can send him to therapy but I don't know how to convince him to opening up. I need some help about this. If you have any idea how to help him open up please answer.",1.8815638766519849,3.609450405286348,2.8197599118942733,95.06188656387668,77.98678414096915,5.773480176211454,20.60110132158589,6.508806274219699,0.02465832599118967,850,21,194,7,20,269,124,227,0.054000000000000006,0.794,0.152,0.9538,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,1,3,1,11,11,1,3,7,0,21,3,2,3,1,39,39,12,0,8,5,1,1,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,9,11,0,1,8,2,0,2,8,5,1,1,5,4,34,6,28,31,1,15,0,1,1,1,55,10,1,6,3,121,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106944023672307,0.0,0.0,0.2268640339957389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09425675521890522,0.0,0.0,0.07703323887814062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932185225588719,0.10084184791512983,0.10590007082357353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963916281020444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11566997534492787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12742302327318025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07481935602381175,0.0,0.095441990185123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067888527732674,0.0,0.057276994198257436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17503731801571834,0.10472411309251536,0.059183321178801276,0.0,0.0643787606534757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12767305988994102,0.0,0.5314971585133242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12126693682049702,0.1278775956849301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18676464125017656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25198363344642344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10630416321667197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24127573077529696,0.07676041775417064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12578232683118196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124345734770274,0.10708476175020497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11330911710501912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775375819632524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09026826827647584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12732973785655352,0.11336027069509695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09470586679364176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09901036903928738,0.0,0.2590875880132682,0.0,0.07525717690709179,0.07258426468641516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824242521186997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13626004259104454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13362914406889334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10185094184398256,0.0,0.10221619292805713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,These_Four_Walls,2019/06/06,"Roll Call Just wondering how many of the old members are still here? Thought I could host a bit of a get together 🦕",2.428750000000001,4.028024375000005,3.3483333333333327,92.43000000000002,76.08333333333334,8.133333333333335,28.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.044316666666667,91,4,21,2,2,29,22,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,12,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929758580657598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675526407686955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873934800253154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880607817531116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3649362250296919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37771051607268025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28745923000618817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857627723297171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3903540802792469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SuicideVibes,2019/06/06,"Schizophrenia at a rather young age First of all: Hello everybody from a first time poster! So, all of my doctors told me that, to diagnose schizophrenia, you'd pretty much have to be in your 20's Since I was 16 I've been running from doctor to doctor, therapist to therapist and I've always gotten different results, of course the obvious ones were always there (Depression, Anxiety and sadly chronic Insomnia) Anyway, I'm 19 now and the latest doctor I went to told me that he's 100% sure that I, based on my symptoms, do have schizophrenia but he was unsure about diagnosing it this ""early"" Because of a legal dispute I won't get further into, he did at some point come to the conclusion that he really should come to a proper diagnosis and not either A: the same regurgitated ones I had gotten so far or B: something new yet again that'd be irrelevant a few weeks later Now, did anyone have similar experiences? Do you agree with his decision to make it ""official""? Of course I am aware that it's still developing and Oh Boy am I glad about it but I feel like I can finally put this question of ""what is wrong with me"" to rest (I apologise for any mistakes, english is not my first language)",4.707140664961639,6.196392895652174,5.94994884910486,76.50177749360617,70.04347826086956,9.237851662404092,29.616368286445013,9.627879704456738,2.8790741687979544,946,37,172,22,17,317,142,230,0.07200000000000001,0.841,0.087,0.5191,1,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,3,0,4,12,7,0,0,10,0,23,9,0,2,4,31,34,10,0,3,7,0,1,1,0,2,9,0,0,1,13,10,0,0,4,0,0,5,3,4,0,5,12,1,20,3,27,16,8,30,0,2,0,0,13,8,0,3,18,124,33,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20699652405657304,0.0,0.0,0.08458604716214832,0.0,0.09515416409048406,0.0,0.0,0.08697286540102246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07582392520228598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21429328133780173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10713259520938498,0.2524962591601284,0.0,0.12995582306906922,0.0,0.5092531631141378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167237145748612,0.0,0.0,0.06289277983266384,0.0888606497532508,0.0,0.1362576583214913,0.0,0.31740538414935465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06498601473010647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060768215009213325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08302793551901266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09143726726765557,0.0,0.0,0.12013178227041052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16857295398448927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175840045110782,0.0,0.0,0.1265442350147902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12504125349068174,0.13933963689435144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07968419893232924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289253524300926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09575762931876997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933400032342532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172313652658331,0.12928361337717106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28884108186146984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07252987818782404,0.0,0.0,0.2377103447097729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09977412276662892,0.0,0.0,0.1153061163756528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13599544198419494,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dododdod,2019/06/06,"I finally fucking broke. I was thinking that I could ignore it. I was in class, and this weird static-y stuff covered my vision. Things seemed to get bigger yet smaller at the same time. I couldn't really move. I was stuck. I asked the teacher if I could sit outside. He let me. Here I am. My head hurts.",-0.629516129032254,1.5239134677419417,1.2925161290322578,96.83877419354843,99.80645161290323,3.7703225806451615,17.490322580645163,5.6839178017228535,-0.3869083870967733,233,7,50,2,10,76,48,62,0.214,0.752,0.033,-0.8699,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,2,0,8,2,1,0,0,9,14,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,4,0,12,0,3,6,1,8,0,2,0,1,2,3,1,2,3,35,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510425095930567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.428804189412744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29416524897106644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482548308154663,0.14029763492349684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755927731529214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874705929214877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745936279404794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854085408396067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720293927456368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24446275110363835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30740653360595355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17840168008121293,0.17206538033578125,0.0,0.0,0.1565840037014432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,knowyourself16,2019/06/06,Is anyone around the Columbus Ohio area? I feel like when I am on LSD my thoughts sound a bit schizophrenic. So I think it would be awesome to walk at a park and discuss the biggest concepts.,2.0360526315789467,4.449416552631583,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,80.84210526315789,4.852631578947369,27.921052631578952,5.985473137389443,0.9441894736842116,151,7,31,1,4,46,34,38,0.0,0.8240000000000001,0.17600000000000002,0.765,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,4,1,0,0,0,6,7,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,4,4,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119711813637169,0.0,0.0,0.3971842936931441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4871001209663538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255960492180545,0.3187426532683058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217975247088568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858865689071195,0.0,0.3542077155950715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31694509011714905,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Seankala,2019/06/06,"How to deal with a potentially schizophrenic friend? I went to the police station because of him and he hasn't apologized or given an explanation. I don't want to lose him as a friend but I don't know what to do. Hello. First off I'd like to start by saying that I'm no medical professional, and that's why I say ""potentially schizophrenic"" as my friend (we'll call him Michael) also hasn't mentioned anything. **TL;DR** My friend Michael took my backpack and ran off one night when we were hanging out at a bar. He called the police saying there was a grenade in it and my girlfriend and I had to go to the police and write out detailed reports. Michael hasn't apologized or even reached out to me for any sort of explanation or an ""are you okay,"" despite him saying he remembers everything. He even goes as far as to respond in a rude manner when I ask him questions about the night. I want to be his friend and help him but he's making it extremely difficult. Friends and family around me have already told me to cut him off but I don't want to do that yet. What should I do? &#x200B; I'll provide some basic background info as to what happened. There are a group of friends (around 5-6 people) that I hang out with semi-regularly on a weekly or bi-weekly basis. Last Friday we went to our usual bar but it was just Michael, another friend who I'll call Andy, and myself. Things were just normal but Michael seemed quite down. I asked him if everything was okay and he said ""life's tough but it'll get better"" as he's been struggling with his job and he was actually on paid leave when we met. I just told him that if he needed to talk or needed help with anything his friends were there for him. About half an hour later my girlfriend stopped by and said hi, but she hadn't had dinner yet so we decided to step out to a nearby restaurant to get something to eat. I left my backpack with Michael and Andy and said I'd be back real quick. At the restaurant, I get a call from Andy. He asks ""Hey, you brought your bag today with you right?"" I didn't like the tone of the question but said I did. Andy proceeded to say ""Okay well Michael just took your bag and ran off. I tried to stop him but he just kept saying 'Tell Sean (me) I'll get him a new bag' and tried to fight me."" I called Michael and asked him what the hell is going on. He just kept asking me ""Sean, what's in your bag?"" I thought this was some sick prank but played along. He then said ""Are you sure you don't have a grenade in here?"" to which I chuckled and said ""No I don't. Michael this isn't funny please stop."" He said he needed to go and hung up. My girlfriend and I left quickly and met Andy on the way. I called Michael and he said he's nearby and he called 911 and is with the police. I began to run towards where he is and found him talking to two officers. I found my backpack nearby in the middle of a plaza and ran to pick it up. A nearby police officer stopped me and said to be careful because they got a call saying the bag contained a grenade. I said that's ridiculous and started emptying my backpack. Police officers and detectives all swarmed me to ask me how I knew Michael, what exactly happened, and if he's done this before. The police took Michael, my girlfriend, and me back to the police station to fill out some reports and forms. They said that they'll run tests on Michael and see if he's suffering from a mental disease but if not he'll be charged for making a false report. My girlfriend and I spent about 20 minutes writing our reports and left. I tried to get my friend's attention but he wouldn't look at me. The next day on Saturday I texted Michael asking if he's home and okay. He just said ""I'm good thanks."" The next day on Sunday I called him to see if he's okay. I wasn't too happy though. At one point in the conversation I asked him what exactly happened at the bar when was gone. He kept saying ""I told everything to the police and they're in the process of taking care of it, but I don't think you're in trouble."" I told him that frankly I'm not worried about being in trouble and he snapped back ""Then why are you asking?"" I just said that 1. I'm worried about him and 2. I feel I have a right for at least an explanation because I went to the police station unnecessarily. He just remained quiet. Andy and I tried talking to our other friends who know Michael and they said it sounds like schizophrenia but they're not sure either. One of them is a psychiatrist and she urged him to go seek professional help either from her or someone else. I told them how I felt a bit frustrated that I didn't get an apology or an explanation and he just seems nonchalant about it as if he doesn't care I went through all that trouble. They told me to talk to him face to face but to be frank I'm not too keen on that idea either. Has anyone ever experienced similar experiences? What should I do? I don't want to lose him as a friend but I'm feeling at this rate I will. P.S. if it helps, Michael did mention earlier on Friday that he's on medication and so he can't drink. He also has a habit of recording everything. I thought was for fun at first, but I'm starting to think maybe it has something to do with this incident.",2.316502594514453,4.207043138028176,3.307739065974797,91.31490733876949,77.24413145539907,6.28702742772424,24.82554978996788,7.189826613745248,0.9200572769953048,4102,145,885,48,95,1311,342,1065,0.081,0.8009999999999999,0.11800000000000001,0.9925,1,0,3,0,1,0,121.0,8,9,7,6,48,49,6,1,49,5,65,14,2,6,7,175,171,99,0,20,50,0,3,3,17,8,6,24,1,0,41,65,6,8,21,5,2,22,24,15,1,7,68,31,125,34,130,89,11,115,1,3,3,0,178,52,1,24,43,549,166,8,0.0,0.0,0.035362995652766724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0399894606644182,0.05795892455924124,0.0,0.03926378574226905,0.044033055569159436,0.024643037390935832,0.03799863285553783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02533840563521836,0.0,0.059641463098286975,0.06451888729940912,0.3048981840452973,0.0,0.0,0.08359420194383012,0.0,0.0662709236301898,0.0,0.030835812307587036,0.0,0.0,0.032049507283318485,0.039562437774083616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33302683517546994,0.0,0.1108409648214413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0467409383588221,0.03735971817439628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03708398745095285,0.0,0.03549937884592403,0.0,0.03708045271919444,0.030272143439123524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04786962653815489,0.03277928545738763,0.0,0.0,0.13027327176199774,0.03544765241864165,0.034161898553814116,0.0,0.03664597595074252,0.0,0.03479409896930212,0.0,0.0,0.061647935343936276,0.0,0.07946604717095526,0.3359680498046265,0.0,0.1135969473413501,0.0,0.08237941070998643,0.030394659272425305,0.028982785770245524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961352545903272,0.038575953988590615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971580916881076,0.0,0.03634960190088316,0.0,0.03568706486265725,0.0,0.0,0.04090821595742269,0.0,0.0,0.035960557334412016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039830841029662174,0.029538752366205793,0.0,0.03837073916850822,0.11811786214020052,0.0,0.025595924071734208,0.05311207149029416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030430737332906993,0.08108195643010467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04837820392682532,0.0,0.03640587484985711,0.0,0.0,0.07301181103383414,0.03651931365468497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08060990542987753,0.0,0.03499882192927739,0.07707890664781565,0.06801369141714643,0.035505480729480864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07366728463224419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025122820266004608,0.0,0.0,0.03977836887002269,0.03425656023608508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118955778710284,0.03854350282891243,0.0,0.04124670174807321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04105051442466148,0.06189399431423372,0.4825880234667334,0.23054287324553174,0.0,0.0,0.057753882421357,0.06597930720448818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030704283407233964,0.055795463174824825,0.0,0.0,0.07694818741350777,0.0,0.0,0.1211861399325877,0.0,0.037883756130454985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06830764681788228,0.0,0.02724641608047268,0.11650671292243102,0.031673551078194084,0.03336302039171452,0.0,0.0,0.024074872762282318,0.046439609049554895,0.035603585614832865,0.05753774266994398,0.0,0.0,0.03434932371084785,0.20776139006705646,0.1207850322552326,0.09841271234153756,0.0,0.035399195393277974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039910964027565166,0.0,0.08549628814173972,0.028763984827768364,0.058135768734352826,0.0,0.0325822541634754,0.13437170940506404,0.06539819695936487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736027608790838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044033055569159436,0.0 schizophrenia,PhysicsIsBeauty,2019/06/06,"Coping Mechanisms for Schizophrenia This is my coping mechanism. - I hope to see some feedback and advice. What are your coping mechanisms? &#x200B; **Context** So, for the past months, I have lived in fear of my symptoms. Currently, my worst symptom is a feeling of pain in my head. It's triggered by specific sounds, but mainly when people cough in a certain way. It caused me to avoid responsibilities. I didn't attend classes, barely got out of the house and didn't study this whole semester. I panicked. Sat down, wrote my thoughts and tried to came up with a solution. The problem with devising a solution was how little I knew about the symptoms. How often do they occur? When do they occur? Where? I obviously have a general sense of how bad the day is going, but I just don't have the raw data to think about the problem. **The Coping Mechanism** The idea here is to be proactive. Take control of what I can. I started a database to store information about my symptoms and my drug intake (coffee, cigar, medication). To do this I installed this application on my phone, [memento](https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.luckydroid.droidbase&hl=en). When the pain occurs, I create a new entry, and write the intensity. Date time and location are recorded automatically. When I have sufficient data, I export it to an excel sheet. This way I can ask questions and get answers. Does coffee really worsen my symptoms? Is this medication doing me any good? How does pain compare when I'm in the library studying vs when I'm at home relaxing? There are things we can't control, but surely there must be small things that we can. To be in control you must have information. That is how I cope. Sure I'm getting this symptom, but it's not for nothing. Every time I feel pain, it means that I just got another data point, making me less ignorant about it. **Results** Since I have started doing this recently, I still don't have much to show for in terms of statistical analysis. However, something changed in me. I'm less scared. And that's what matters.",3.0074906122448968,6.063352722666664,4.040560544217692,79.72474285714289,84.44,6.581224489795918,26.319727891156464,7.817275551320576,2.130458503401361,1641,70,275,33,49,529,194,375,0.13699999999999998,0.775,0.08800000000000001,-0.972,2,1,2,0,0,0,92.0,2,2,2,4,24,19,0,3,20,0,35,16,1,12,6,62,60,24,0,5,8,0,2,0,0,2,14,1,1,0,23,14,1,5,11,2,1,3,6,12,0,0,10,4,38,7,39,45,8,40,0,0,1,0,13,16,0,4,19,195,61,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08292486962693643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838930121653956,0.1031150087845685,0.05770816910613285,0.08898381704504482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07933327592658708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07085511912679641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09705800524254984,0.0,0.08717528933931487,0.08977134219652838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28553538912872645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054728115130449936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14852429739905335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09841144170567276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0714987788341828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09549185222835188,0.08581621427895003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08867240055300335,0.0,0.04822827730911192,0.07117710813771559,0.13574166819317027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709153502072357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0851221763031669,0.08428579809151035,0.0,0.09791782552363118,0.0,0.09579737298006433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505269021075695,0.07493353088694231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0566451596240141,0.0,0.0,0.09243815300989232,0.0,0.1709764048580828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06773498129556922,0.0,0.062382360437878585,0.0,0.0,0.08195896887098263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08142610652219545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3611909659757411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100911662686679,0.05883170720127365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08022076742153379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16240041088942345,0.0,0.0,0.09506337745836513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054363921490013206,0.0,0.08378967905350954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496033990079421,0.0,0.06762297115479107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07019762741932939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532989365653688,0.0,0.0,0.1201296453091296,0.0,0.0677698448027027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996036410910353,0.5292164043878129,0.06380466667985947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127553236668331,0.05437529411938776,0.0,0.0673698970485592,0.0989658842358856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05761482803341016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13471690800726088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09474391326800917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031150087845685,0.0 schizophrenia,coyotenx,2019/06/06,"I'm lost. I should preface with saying that I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia for about a few years now and I've been on medication for it. Nobody believes me when I say i have schizophrneia because I don't fit into that prefaced ""stereotype"" you see in media of schizophrenia making you a violent killer. My medication isnt' working .I'm so scared. I feel so alone and scared. I'm not actually sure if the medication is working or not or it's all in my head. But i am legitimately terrified hey.",2.1314604810996585,4.906956226804127,3.741881443298968,82.6324785223368,84.67010309278348,6.532302405498282,26.640034364261176,7.793537801064563,1.9508632302405493,402,18,75,8,12,133,67,97,0.28,0.72,0.0,-0.9805,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,3,5,5,1,2,3,0,8,5,1,1,2,16,15,9,0,2,6,0,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,3,4,11,1,10,11,2,8,0,1,1,0,5,5,0,3,3,50,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.18652010547308145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979581286402177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11651407011889127,0.0,0.0,0.2153435967411172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19399791534172645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09664355597320172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19615956518911448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20864633817624104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12758403993304965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5776449552745673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039963119644499,0.3827187872918652,0.0,0.15230978091456815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18014239537555396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782969890159526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308461863984405 schizophrenia,DerangedWalrus,2019/06/06,"Am I schizophrenic? I know that for a proper diagnosis I should go to a psychiatrist but I am not sure if the ""Symptoms"" or warning signs are bad enough yet to worry. I am 15 and for the past year or so I have been thinking that people are looking through my eyes and experiencing what I am, like my current experience is being broadcasted. I don't actually believe this but it keeps popping up in my head against my will. I have also been having waking hallucinations (Not sleep paralysis) that are becoming more frequent and are somewhat disturbing and scary. My uncle has schizophrenia and I have been infrequently using psychedelics for the past year or so. Does this look bad? any advice? Anything appreciated thanks",5.000512820512824,7.701243846153848,5.699615384615388,73.49455128205129,72.07692307692308,8.333333333333334,31.602564102564106,9.075114841892004,3.1503333333333337,580,27,96,13,12,188,86,130,0.187,0.733,0.079,-0.9501,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,1,5,0,21,6,4,1,1,21,29,14,0,2,8,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,4,15,3,9,23,3,10,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,5,8,77,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.18098675849081786,0.0,0.0,0.18123392319971496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483160248157628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612233139260506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15262161588061285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097104951965153,0.0,0.2048311501990738,0.0,0.2089551656486352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16230137731424316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19163457576950996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18142002929712805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540384260133877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903402518484517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164849514973662,0.0,0.0,0.10192652902918904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060866666150076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114872146267084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35409401515564914,0.1285778458572375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18559860438919568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17479825096119794,0.19276879907547695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17075094467250107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11883826797351946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16018192202689582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18834836898833168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388663258709001 schizophrenia,throwschizoaway1234,2019/06/06,Metformin helps with hunger pangs due to antipychotics Wife was on olanzapine/Zyprexa & used to be so hungry that she was eating double or triple of what she used to eat earlier. The doctor prescribed metformin & that reduced her hunger considerably. She started with Metformin XR 1000 once a day & then increased to 1500 a day. Her hunger returned to normal once she started this.,8.957647058823529,9.782781235294117,7.004705882352942,75.12117647058824,60.17647058823529,9.15294117647059,37.588235294117645,8.841846274778883,3.3715176470588237,316,14,50,4,4,92,46,68,0.085,0.8490000000000001,0.066,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,3,6,0,2,0,7,7,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,0,9,4,3,9,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,1,7,30,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6099579898326832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420382061592557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19206832470780008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3840267899984493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12577823130933968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18385773085284152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3996834965547072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26564009913244685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32413971101201633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bradslicer2,2019/06/06,"Should I get help? I had a psychotic episode and I've been hearing voices; this was recent so I'm wondering if I should go to a doctor, or if it'll just go away..?",-0.5758333333333319,1.3278697500000014,2.342222222222226,94.30000000000004,87.61111111111109,5.822222222222222,20.11111111111111,7.1686216300943375,0.4209111111111117,125,4,30,2,4,44,28,36,0.0,0.898,0.102,0.4696,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,0,8,12,5,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,2,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,1,20,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461795608202795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3771336188440307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925047319061896,0.0,0.4188077253254648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4152803133758467,0.0,0.24697044459390996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36380902292275197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39957830054803706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,romfuckulus,2019/06/06,"i’m doing it y’all, hella recovery moment haven’t had an episode since last summer (iirc). overall, my mental health has improved drastically. no psych ward visits in over 2 years, as of cinco de mayo. when july 1st gets here, i’ll be 1 whole year clean of self-harm. going off Geodon. first time in 3 years i won’t be on an antipsychotic. wish me luck!",1.8843863179074416,4.056211000000001,3.3234607645875265,89.30056338028173,79.84507042253522,5.74728370221328,18.593561368209254,6.868970318607317,0.10933641851106568,275,6,57,3,7,90,63,71,0.031,0.8,0.168,0.8622,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,0,0,2,11,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,4,1,8,7,1,16,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,9,27,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401722179042575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751957027116,0.0,0.1604696545754575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001316599992038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301581595664611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845488501067745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945593150296977,0.0,0.0,0.2335681399482249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16464429318406146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3152408479738937,0.3246959365159993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5454848114103549 schizophrenia,slippythegoat,2019/03/30,"Confusion about my mental case Family has a log side of mental issues my grandma is fully schizophrenic and has to be monitored and My father is bipolar with borderline schizophrenia. I am currently 19, diagnosed bipolar type one with extreme anxiety. I was diagnosed when i was 16 cause thats when the depression really hit was that year but the anxiety was always there it was just always regarded as me being shy. But im on the line of thinking i have schizophrenia or have it coming. When im alone i always feel like “something” is watching me and i truly believe it. But if you ask me about it ill shrug it off and say your right nothing is there. I have had experiences as a kid where i just felt evil in the room and spiritual things happen that make my body chill. Even as im typing this right now i have a feeling someTHING is watching me just out of my peri feral. I know schizophrenic people hear voices but that only has happened to me a couple of times and hasn’t happened in months. Only voice i hear tho is screaming banshees just women yelling as loud as they can, the last occurrence was last year around September. I also only have one friend, reason being is because ill talk to someone for a while, then completely cut them off like not even answer text and i feel ok with it no remorse. There is a little remorse ill get sad every now and then about it but my head says “ they cant backstab you now they are gone”. And when i meet new people anymore its not meeting its me analyzing the entire time, me analyzing if they are a threat to me if I befriended them or (even tho i know its wrong as fuck) if i could use them to my advantage and then cut them off. Lastly the thing that worries me is, i act like a good person, i get along with everyone just fine and im friendly at work, but dont get on my bad side. I think about hurting people way to much. The other day someone pissed me off at work and i argued and cursed for about 10 minutes before he walked off i have a really explosive temper. But after that i was thinking about cutting his throat. I think about vulgar stuff i know is wrong. I think about killing people daily, cutting their throats, hanging them by hooks, literally cereal killer stuff. And my head says “hell yes fuck them cut their cutting throat and let them drain” almost like im... hyped for it? If someone could give me some feedback i would appreciate it.",3.4774999999999987,5.4305875116772855,4.3597871549893865,84.77764251592356,74.09554140127389,7.1728450106157124,25.575424628450108,7.993328176185818,1.5479625902335452,1902,65,364,29,40,613,225,471,0.222,0.6940000000000001,0.084,-0.9976,1,1,2,0,1,0,37.0,0,3,13,3,31,33,15,1,17,2,41,18,7,4,0,67,70,46,1,8,21,1,4,4,2,1,9,10,1,3,24,23,0,0,14,0,0,5,6,23,0,2,10,16,64,10,47,52,2,49,1,3,2,2,35,20,4,10,27,255,88,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07264172254890837,0.07513307030745636,0.0,0.0580129198467702,0.18108572629279848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11099098398000222,0.0,0.07194354625972632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06457899393349996,0.06781827359042962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06057069745449858,0.04422177498940077,0.0,0.061729078702336626,0.08173155457342425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08057934848776586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452204076646728,0.0,0.062489703901367814,0.07606036038164465,0.0,0.0,0.11583998216659075,0.08026787718777795,0.0,0.046784482824583855,0.0,0.062481512355642935,0.14726002021731247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08502030851534836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374266751348908,0.0,0.061120931761916575,0.06931831442624624,0.0,0.07096135182483962,0.06838744844515653,0.0,0.11004034745490067,0.05182500969603901,0.06965302720838265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11209368066902728,0.13413038344526465,0.113702775734143,0.06959022640216618,0.0,0.06084595066420893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924496308863365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14890088630429274,0.0,0.16352333739546313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07765919545480711,0.0,0.3917965287731414,0.07571644797532766,0.0,0.0,0.08025850878816318,0.0,0.11960384387678265,0.17739762631131098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07418052749728858,0.0,0.14176413703066593,0.07270753094392374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048423273690473084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14621334208800474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05790343887218784,0.0,0.05332773590879807,0.0,0.0,0.07006285457347461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06960733569902994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09831455204294738,0.16551754272491004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011698000954929,0.0633420868231009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09294630173774954,0.07458668324129385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390331112779705,0.0,0.1730682374873101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18439732750069152,0.11169488590721034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16608964301200374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05830762604533168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638920490679023,0.2324143639650757,0.0,0.0,0.08460126390644579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06265419407640634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05758156345987539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562489848593663,0.07367133016788295,0.0,0.051532740284390734,0.15862960982209515,0.0,0.09343112474902496 schizophrenia,JoR2016,2019/03/30,"How to convince my sister to see a doctor when she thinks nothing is wrong with her? We believe my sister has paranoid schizophrenia. She has delusions about people watching her inside our house and being raped at a young age. These things ABSOLUTELY did not happen, but nothing we say will convince her otherwise. We want to take her to a doctor immediately, but she doesn’t want to see a doctor because in her mind nothing is wrong. In her mind she thinks something is wrong with us for not remembering these things that happened to her. How should we approach this? It’s a frightening situation for our entire family.",6.4732079646017695,8.121561132743366,6.209015486725665,75.70520464601773,65.99115044247786,8.127876106194691,31.82411504424779,8.472884824447931,2.6080274336283185,500,20,82,7,8,156,67,113,0.071,0.7979999999999999,0.13,0.6248,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,7,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,5,0,10,4,0,2,0,21,19,6,0,3,4,2,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,7,7,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,1,4,20,2,14,15,0,7,0,0,3,1,21,3,0,0,3,64,27,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08361968428519001,0.0,0.0,0.15454754566512988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42120862848268975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12931495511938038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24260412250712735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15827978637016554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770122355737882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3948649801923063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09509882391498194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15539082004152535,0.0,0.0,0.10908586235289316,0.0,0.0,0.2186190179542557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541887463782601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10560285174068504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313739053642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182263938630644,0.17579046289083589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16500281475667972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618169529791591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4499330215075866,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sanguinepaintings,2019/03/30,"Head Pressure? Do any of you get random feelings of pressure through your head? Idk if it’s a schizophrenia thing or what. There’s no pain accompanied with it, so it doesn’t feel like a headache or anything. The only way I can describe it is if you put your hand on your forehead and pressed firmly against it and after about 5-10 seconds you remove your hand to be left with this lightness. I get that feeling all over my head, and sometimes back to back. If it’s a hallucination, I have no other tactile ones. Anyone know what may be happening or what I’m experiencing, even if it’s not related to Schizophrenia?",4.429916666666667,5.940542825000001,4.851666666666667,84.02666666666667,70.75,7.0,31.666666666666664,7.3871296695380915,1.9496666666666664,489,22,95,5,9,155,79,120,0.11599999999999999,0.799,0.086,-0.3899,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,7,0,0,6,4,0,2,4,0,8,7,6,0,1,20,16,11,0,4,8,0,6,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,14,5,0,0,4,0,0,2,4,3,0,2,0,8,11,1,13,13,1,9,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,9,4,71,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13454648647154688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13834307017135153,0.0,0.16281575157712724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042727237044318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13067971202654718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30012051046759997,0.14134586744501287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20673953317531865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749603146990555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6091612445840049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10873456118114223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149673230668125,0.0,0.0,0.09666073889188598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13406997627672762,0.15047574386083512,0.2105290124866196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19889641241797898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19568118422262107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13144441129672044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15704610734878846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iamshoe2020,2019/03/30,Deal How do I deal with my condition. Ik that you have accept it but what else something honest please,0.3810000000000002,2.389129099999998,1.1099999999999994,96.01000000000002,108.0,4.0,15.0,5.985473137389443,-0.3904999999999999,82,2,16,1,4,25,19,20,0.0,0.635,0.365,0.8481,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,11,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7938103429707949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32160762634366497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42260062680520705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963821592033314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Kuchikitaicho,2019/03/30,"How can I help my mom? My mother has recently been diagnosed with schizophrenia. However, she doesn't trust the doctor and refuses to take her medicines. I, my sister, my dad, the psychiatrist and a few other relatives tried to persuade her. We even got a religious 'Guru', who my mother has extreme respect for and recently met to tell her to take her meds. She just refuses. She's very religious and thinks she isn't some ordinary person, and believes that God tells her not to take her meds. She has some delusions and is very suspicious of people in general. She thinks our house is bugged and has a very weird Google search history, like she's having a conversation with Google. My sister and father are having a hard time with her in the house. I'm studying engineering in a different city, and therefore, cannot go home to help except on vacations. The psychiatrist had told us to slip in the meds in her food, but due to her suspicious nature and the bitter taste, she found out about them. We managed to convince her for a short while to take the meds and that her condition was better (which it visibly was) due to the meds, but now she's again refusing. This is causing my sister a lot of stress. Is there anyway in which I can help my mother/ convince her to take her meds? I understand that it should be a personal choice to take medicines. However, her behavior was quite troublesome when she wasn't on the medication. She used to tell everyone to whisper so that their conversation couldn't be recorded and write some stuff on Google that leads me to think that she might behave self-harmingly, maybe not physically, but at least mentally. Also, wouldn't it be better if she didn't voice her delusions to others, or behave as if they were real in front of others....?",6.839477611940295,7.2685797761194095,6.828470149253732,75.93942164179107,64.67164179104478,10.759701492537317,32.27238805970149,10.577609850970193,3.364823880597015,1415,52,260,34,20,451,168,335,0.077,0.8490000000000001,0.07400000000000001,-0.4961,3,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,4,0,3,4,11,10,1,1,18,0,31,5,0,5,0,52,48,24,0,5,10,9,1,1,0,3,3,2,1,2,17,18,2,3,5,0,0,3,9,3,0,0,12,5,48,7,40,29,6,25,0,0,0,0,61,13,0,8,10,191,65,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06962077473754097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808529143051233,0.0,0.1539926107317893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943321982220337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836270198496163,0.0,0.0909577647071603,0.0,0.08910822211155234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057501420382233624,0.0,0.0,0.08318827541524627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052716708742906,0.0954553213580937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0494774397529506,0.0,0.06962875915042989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07798745457938915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17506074345202566,0.0,0.0873269290272631,0.0,0.0,0.2009079976891508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04253246120063792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07401415500809069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08746212015905602,0.0,0.5802152366454513,0.08770243560973727,0.08773464755798469,0.0923554749078946,0.0,0.10196204423035424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060355509485807264,0.1520325186101588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09259759557148743,0.0,0.09909180865265993,0.0,0.0,0.17191983743138284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09082116367489984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099725394857574,0.0,0.09966133107003992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3927436426612818,0.0,0.22827930450976786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673510120378702,0.0,0.0,0.050764601682687385,0.0,0.0,0.08318827541524627,0.0,0.05910711188436087,0.0,0.0,0.090631129866699,0.10472084239585176,0.07519072550868185,0.0,0.21549752302693506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thumbbreaker,2019/03/30,"Hearing Voices Groups and Other Strategies I Use Hey all, It's been a while since I've been on this sub, mainly because I think I was getting better (I wasn't). I wanted to share what has been helping me lately. For the past month I've been attending my local Hearing Voices group at the hospital. It was offered to me as part of my attending a clinic here in Melbourne. So far so good. I've made friends with everyone in the group. We share about our voices, delusions and anxieties in a non-judgemental safe space. Everything is confidential, which is why I'm not going to tell you about my friends' experiences and we can trust in each other because everyone in the group has been through a similar journey. There is a clinician who attends the group just to monitor if one of us is in crisis. At group lately, I've been sharing my poetry and songs, and it has helped me so much! I'm writing songs almost every day and singing all the time to drown out the voices. I also have been listening to lots of new music to inspire me and keep me focused. I have been smoking cigarettes a fair bit though and I would like to cut down - the HV group is full of people who smoke but they all understood when I told them I wanted to cut down. Today I found out there is a link between tobacco use and psychosis, which is a very good reason for me to quit. I hope you can find a hearing voices group in your area - if not, you could start one if you talk to the clinicians at your local hospital or ward. Finding a group of people so similar to me has helped me in the best way possible this past month. That's not to say that I'm cured or symptom-less. This week I was really unwell and crying almost every day because of my delusions. It makes it easier to keep on living just to talk about it with my friends at group though.",5.054775422206252,5.5361630606060634,5.778440531800218,81.7445777937478,68.53168044077135,8.957671577434422,29.55671337884777,8.964715089967882,2.2713452868607016,1433,50,284,24,23,468,172,363,0.048,0.8240000000000001,0.128,0.9823,0,0,3,0,0,0,33.0,4,6,2,3,16,17,2,0,20,0,29,1,0,5,3,55,52,26,1,8,11,0,0,1,3,1,1,12,0,0,18,17,0,3,8,3,0,5,4,2,0,2,16,12,39,15,49,34,11,45,0,0,0,0,45,24,0,9,16,200,57,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975505397873012,0.0,0.0,0.0788836169368833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546052057758727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18039293149250865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10351822763905248,0.08724044052849983,0.10769103154321713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07875725617104479,0.0,0.10835311774763076,0.1272312868055075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662195311205609,0.18851246847610167,0.08865267036040446,0.09649036989448652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18031319083600528,0.0,0.0,0.10815537507281862,0.2286306651250159,0.0,0.05153614188795131,0.0,0.05606026964225838,0.16547171481916634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335286090085309,0.0,0.19835206774436054,0.0,0.0,0.09797332253313333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753542950947715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22254394406593936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04819128183192747,0.0,0.08710230141218031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386152371293687,0.0,0.09333702562646186,0.06584400479614544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15746949829060194,0.0,0.0725128937252605,0.0,0.0,0.09526862975138173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13368414282821026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068191929261006,0.18832905403093425,0.13677127001982595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11120353356486766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10491743715685707,0.0,0.0,0.0631923068287762,0.10141994860695576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07844372475390117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159731470713112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981900125620177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10252634617562137,0.0,0.15856869296038567,0.08621706801095892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06320552630715799,0.1938296564733065,0.0,0.057518684734360864,0.0,0.09350066152031436,0.09425623423805084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186536468174021,0.17038926701385612,0.0,0.08138961452903605,0.11636269124360522,0.07829707600639811,0.07912430649889826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890086618503834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007213143277241,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tommy-o-b,2019/05/22,"What’s the story with non prescribed drugs? Is there any drugs which have a worse effect on people with schizophrenia. If my limited knowledge of the illnesses biology is correct would it not just make it more intense for less of a time or just evoke an episode? Not talking about psychosis caused by taking drugs and if someone wants to share an experience privately, pm me. Disclaimer: This was posted with no intention of breaking ANY community rules.",6.961541666666669,9.100962737500002,6.130000000000003,74.8616666666667,65.375,8.833333333333334,35.833333333333336,9.2995712137729,3.594958333333333,369,18,58,7,6,112,65,80,0.126,0.83,0.044000000000000004,-0.7886,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,6,0,5,4,0,4,1,20,8,4,0,4,7,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,11,6,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,1,41,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901689572791934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191679549006237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7422505132217699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20869603403872286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14241195967233394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14790917298166525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20432914520243875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180769719230288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16041172235070755,0.17148165863455436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12440538263363675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583863135340953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174206220245707,0.15155684388660778,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lalala6783,2019/05/22,"Is it safe to take CBD oil with a tiny bit amount of THC in it? Hi, I have CBD oil and I looked up if it has THC in it and it said it has traces of it. I think it’s very little. I don’t have schizophrenia but I got psychosis from smoking weed twice like it was a really bad psychotic break where I went missing and wandered the streets and thought I had magical powers. Anyway I took CBD oil and I’m worried about the traces of THC because THC is bad for me. Is it still okay to take or nah? Any insight would be nice thank you",0.11288405797101575,2.0236455565217426,1.6918478260869565,100.00182971014496,84.73913043478261,4.876811594202898,20.018115942028984,5.985473137389443,-0.28640579710144864,409,12,101,3,12,132,74,115,0.14400000000000002,0.7390000000000001,0.11699999999999999,-0.664,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,4,8,0,0,4,1,12,0,0,0,0,14,24,8,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,10,6,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,7,5,10,5,12,15,2,10,0,1,1,0,3,6,0,2,2,60,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16111181844066574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3956319275128413,0.14442252452383136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25865221849936265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948432552547387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11574577547949172,0.2374532721342116,0.0,0.0,0.19895077666027586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15177522323942175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253625081802452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892023798489352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.356264495409204,0.0,0.0,0.21812152449840586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15180697377019353,0.0,0.1880857907949173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26322372357952795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195481499796898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196246155231806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406009141520108,0.0,0.16829917951702508,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EuphoricEstimate,2019/05/22,"I'm worried my girlfriend won't get her haldol injections while i'm away over the summer My girlfriend of 6 years is schizophrenc. She's been working at it really hard, but there are some problems. She consistently refuses to take her haldol. When she does, she is able to function better. So we switched from pills to the monthly injection so we didn't have to battle with the pills daily. i usually take her every month even though she fusses about it. One time the nurse accidentally shattered the glass ampule that her medicine was in, and it created this idea in her head that they're trying to inject glass in her. I'm always able to talk her into it though. I""m going to be away all summer at an internship and I'm scared she will refuse her injections. i'm not sure how to go about this.. What should I do?",3.503288409703508,5.631153421383648,4.053122192273136,86.23202830188679,74.53459119496857,7.058580413297397,23.93575920934412,7.957251820313856,1.28102120395328,650,20,126,10,14,205,101,159,0.136,0.81,0.054000000000000006,-0.9138,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,2,0,0,2,10,5,1,1,6,0,12,3,1,1,2,17,22,10,0,2,2,0,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,9,6,0,2,1,0,0,2,3,3,0,1,3,1,20,2,22,15,2,20,0,0,0,0,21,9,0,1,9,85,29,1,0.3503109472675281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14574338547573418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32912866648906514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15491078257047836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15327973532881445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568853840448637,0.0,0.14757604093007926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915115056980677,0.0,0.199089784251084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569049003346608,0.0,0.17976004830360864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19772920973499344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796148559475554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11868988199352552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16760013300409796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220908152202153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17536118522682675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16508196101993786,0.0,0.2633902356098787,0.14078333493539988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3441787270645185,0.0,0.10213456523885443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11891906909007273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19290900842866765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12751527089700296,0.1778788857241066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11279438232236375 schizophrenia,HotEggplant8,2019/05/22,"I just hallucinated a hornet! OMFG I never had any hallucinations, but here I was, working on my PC when a hornet queen (those bigger ones that create nests) flew into the room through a partially open window, snuggled inside the rings of my curtain and... disappeared. I threw a bunch of stuff at it to lure it out and then I opened the curtain... gone. If it had left, I would have heard it buzz. Am I turning schizophrenic? Am I going crazy? I haven't had a lot of emotions for a long time, but I thought it was just my depression. I often have these conversations (inaudible, just thoughts) inside my head that have nothing to do with me. Is this it for me here?",2.853723958333333,5.082601507812502,4.057500000000001,84.97083333333336,76.890625,6.766666666666668,24.729166666666664,7.793537801064563,1.3615135416666666,515,18,101,8,12,168,82,128,0.094,0.883,0.022000000000000002,-0.8652,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,0,9,0,14,2,1,0,1,19,22,7,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,4,0,12,7,0,0,2,0,0,5,2,1,0,1,11,2,17,0,13,10,2,19,0,1,0,0,2,9,0,3,5,82,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17619426901895802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2231591371664008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914482990559357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472503147846274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659074025116593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815087286484365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22929194237608966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22027428415613645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19983092618399484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248609746938122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17557025892655018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966031072988814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4113868087730358,0.1510810505761096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28182221343989805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18862508541121684,0.0,0.0,0.18405447346132064,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Gyzmo-Grim,2019/05/22,"Childhood onset? I have childhood onset schizoaffective disorder that started to rear its head when I was very small. I've been hoping to talk to someone else who has childhood onset schizophrenia or schizoaffective disorder as not to feel so alone. For reference: I am 23 yrs old and doctors noticed something wasn't right when I was 18 months. &#x200B; I guess I feel alone in this due to the fact that it's so hard to find others with childhood onset and the feeling of just being robbed of a life you could of had. Plus the fact that schools will label you as a monster when you're just a tiny child is pretty awful as well(I was never a mean or aggressive child, it's just the school believed the stigma/myths of psychotic disorders).",8.68842857142857,7.835195557142861,7.550000000000002,76.555,61.28571428571429,10.285714285714286,36.42857142857143,9.23628265651192,3.2296428571428577,598,23,106,8,7,182,89,140,0.11199999999999999,0.823,0.065,-0.7618,0,2,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,0,0,8,2,1,0,9,1,13,3,1,0,3,22,20,13,0,2,6,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,9,4,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,6,4,8,1,17,11,0,15,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,4,12,70,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047274501139429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15939585300812664,0.17875725226985714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16574491177513098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174570074216926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5058094897961835,0.15057542468313054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12289324716513204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22315282972175013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344577555384684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16206051706874552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13178350790735244,0.0,0.1509794129853037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14611546708673842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10390959694325036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602481581655245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11742344089057714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11346188803542692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16748805269415953,0.15436935759883008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966585037613822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12563289343208514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29777051257273995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464756905574165,0.11325404922888573,0.0,0.0,0.10412667159092658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182430994386497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12138285438771232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13227140728113132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17875725226985714,0.0 schizophrenia,57437427,2019/05/22,"too delusional to use my old laptop Can someone help me, I've been having thought broadcasting delusions for over a year now and I havent used my laptop for months because of them. I used to turn airplane mode on when I wasn't using it because it helped a little bit, but when I turned it back on it just felt like I was broadcasting my thoughts all over again, and eventually I got too delusional to use it. I still have thought broadcasting all the time and I've mostly gotten used to it, but it gets way worse whenever I want to use my laptop, and i get extremely nervous and too delusional to use it even when I need to.",7.573571428571428,5.889692547619048,7.4904761904761905,78.76285714285716,64.0,11.257142857142858,35.285714285714285,10.125756701596842,3.1981047619047622,495,18,103,9,6,159,69,126,0.061,0.884,0.055,-0.3998,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,12,2,0,1,3,0,7,0,0,8,2,25,27,10,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,9,1,16,1,14,18,4,17,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,12,70,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08941175568634968,0.0,0.14176580420524262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694709459597367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07680151110902869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164655217811527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12150247584425415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929993360833898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15587939154212255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05680828872888856,0.11654260371178495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281318513257683,0.0,0.0,0.08621977365175296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12201577178247128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09852324046505244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09286095650683662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769387962113271,0.0678035097943938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25295740447110043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8034252096124153,0.0,0.0,0.06858466002721854,0.09229725235182223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11849874147616067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07488018369355688 schizophrenia,james5359,2019/05/22,"PLEASE READ Hey guys, I know this is insane but I am one of the most normal teenagers in the world. I am 15 and one time while I was smoking weed, I decided to do shrooms. The trip was fine but afterwards I felt kinda weird. It has been 8 months now and for the past 5 months I've been feeling so out of it and anxious and paranoid and I can't think straight at all. I had to go to a psychiatrist and they said it could be schizophrenia. I am so scared and I've never even thought of dealing with something like this. I never even cared about mental health."" Now I am absolutely screwed for the rest of my life for making a terrible decision. 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(male) I have been having severe anxiety for this last year. i don't have any psychotic symptoms yet but i have been reserching schizophrenia, and im a bit afraid i might be developping it. I hope this is not an obnoxious question. Thank you.",2.267777777777781,5.186363462962969,3.649907407407409,80.91708333333334,90.29629629629628,7.885185185185183,27.12037037037037,8.472884824447931,2.981748148148148,233,11,40,7,8,76,42,54,0.057999999999999996,0.753,0.18899999999999997,0.847,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,11,1,0,0,0,6,13,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,6,2,3,9,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,4,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19368471009839672,0.0,0.2178835316797725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109454069926343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.282886645368052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3076502552832525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321631298105024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30214486571255394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32108735061628946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3190592075471195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217611155757545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960329749116816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26222039231872185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834122259227722 schizophrenia,RantSomeWhere,2018/11/22,"At what age did you notice that something was off/wrong with you? (+ wall of text) I’m fairly young. Just 16. I have a relative who has schizophrenia and therefore I have read a lot about this condition earlier. I am starting to notice some sz symptoms even though the onset is usually much later, but it got me thinking. At what age were you staring to become aware of things that were wrong in your head? A bit about me: I am noticing thought disorganization and weird thinking patterns, but I’ve had them since basically forever. For me, it is totally normal to overthink, repeat thoughts, sometimes hear them audibly or just randomly change topics, but my habit of thinking of multiple things simultaneously has made it quite difficult for me to concentrate and often I have to really focus to “properly think that thought”. It’s weird and difficult to describe, but I feel like I could just completely freeze when I let my mind wander off. Delusional thinking has started kicking in recently, especially paranoid suspicions, but I still can reason them away most of the time. It’s mostly random “but what if” things that pop up. I’ve been having strong feelings of derealization as well. I’m hearing random noises on a regular basis, but the most intense acoustic hallucination was voices suddenly calling my name from somewhere in the middle of the night. Also, I sometimes hear random words, for example i recently heard a voice say “cabbage” when listening to music. But it’s not really consistent. Visual hallucinations are really rare, but I’ve seen a couple of them. For example my toilet suddenly started moving, I saw eyes in the darkness or in the wall, or a man suddenly stood in the middle of the street. Most annoying thing is my belief that people can read my mind. I’ve had that since early childhood as well. I was thinking about something and then thought “wait, I’m not allowed to think that, they will know. They will judge me”. I still sometimes stop thinking about something to avoid being judged. I know that it’s absurd, but it really is something that I experience every day. I’m really not trying to be that angsty whining teen, but I’ve lurked here for quite a while and I feel like this is a safe place. I really don’t know what to think, and I thought that it’s best to get some sort of confirmation before I start to seek help. As I said, until very recently, I thought that this were perfectly normal things to experience, but it’s been getting worse slowly. 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If you are aware you have schizophrenia (you have been diagnosed), does that not help you realise that, for lack of a better example, the government is *not* out to get you; or that you *aren't* being abducted by aliens every night? 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I'd just like to say how much fun I've had reading this sub. For the first time I am able to relate to experiences others have had. Although I've been in and out of mental hospitals for about three years now, I've never seen people talk so openly about what they have experienced as I observe in this sub. It has been a real eye-opener, and I found out that some of the things I experienced are in fact much more common than you might expect. Thank you, for making me realise I'm less strange than I thought. :) All the best to each and every one of you!",4.960435835351092,4.867178966101697,5.5842857142857145,85.05042372881358,68.66101694915254,8.098789346246972,26.17917675544794,7.447530270364453,1.120463438256658,450,11,97,4,7,146,80,118,0.012,0.8220000000000001,0.166,0.9622,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,1,2,6,4,0,0,5,0,10,0,0,2,3,19,16,7,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,8,7,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,7,4,10,4,20,8,8,12,0,0,1,0,6,6,0,2,7,73,18,1,0.2327236327758386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442290946910981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19607969790162152,0.0,0.0,0.2276483690187273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19795460315220545,0.0,0.2551694512401568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136970116495219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15534483200649704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345306846554479,0.2468829973644349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34215729522925364,0.0,0.17949081255359972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15769955650386408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16134126432866142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327866110959909,0.264890443786138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18507117362600087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18705444061068827,0.0,0.21426065365384192,0.0,0.0,0.15461124065256132,0.0,0.0,0.18475656894197656,0.13570302178547053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14986638936362207 schizophrenia,verdervy,2018/11/22,"DUMB I started taking some meds a couple of weeks ago and it has calmed me down, but I feel ... the best I can come up to explain is stupid ? I can’t concentrate on things or people and keep staring at nothing while thinking about absolutely nothing or things that don’t matter at all. I just feel mentally retarded, sorry for the wording I just don’t know how to formulate it well. Anyone ? 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For those of you who celebrate the holiday, happy Thanksgiving! I hope everyone has a place to go or can at least spend some time with friends. If anyone is lonely today, send me a PM and we can talk about whatever. Anyways, enjoy your Turkey, gravy, mashed potatoes, and everything else! 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Hello. Yesterday I posted in r/relationship_advice about my boyfriend (post: [https://www.reddit.com/r/relationship\_advice/comments/9z2v0s/i\_26m\_just\_found\_out\_that\_my\_boyfriend\_27m\_is/](https://www.reddit.com/r/relationship_advice/comments/9z2v0s/i_26m_just_found_out_that_my_boyfriend_27m_is/)) The TL:DR is that we've been dating since 2015 and living together since July of this year, but I only found out he was schizophrenic in September because he came off his medication and had an episode. The above post was more concerned about the future of our relationship, but regardless of what happens in that area, I would still like to make sure he gets help and I was advised to seek that here. We're in the UK, more specifically Scotland. My boyfriend was diagnosed almost 7 years ago. His mother told me that he was being treated by a community mental health team and that he was assigned a key worker. The problem is, I never knew he was schizophrenic and as such never knew about either of these. In all our 3 years of dating, and 4 months of living together, not once has someone come out to the flat or checked-in on him. Now that he has started being honest with me (and is back on his medication) he told me that he hasn't been in contact with the clinic or his key worker since June. Is this normal? I don't understand how a schizophrenic, who has been hospitalized in the past, can go 5 months without having any kind of contact with a professional. Aren't they supposed to stay in contact and check-in? Is there anything I can do (as a non-blood relative) to bring attention to this? Or will his mother need to be the one to contact his team? I'm still quite ignorant about this illness, but my boyfriend has agreed to accept help (and stay on his meds) if i'm the one who gets him it. Will he be hospitalized if he's stable and will I have any say in that? Thank you.",9.186171171171171,10.249945477477477,6.955752252252253,74.84876351351352,59.69069069069069,9.542882882882882,31.06441441441441,9.3871,2.570771891891892,1576,48,265,24,20,453,167,333,0.031,0.871,0.098,0.9701,0,0,0,0,0,0,78.0,2,1,1,5,12,9,0,0,17,0,36,10,0,2,4,47,55,21,0,7,11,2,0,1,0,4,10,1,0,0,17,17,0,1,6,2,0,4,7,2,0,2,17,1,28,7,44,30,4,45,0,0,0,0,43,17,0,6,20,177,45,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09868759577975278,0.0,0.11148121621142863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15141684660340524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09161535290773087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560613052593036,0.0,0.06786591900443059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273322071994297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959011976474838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299791343805538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12206793022082252,0.0,0.0,0.11633097601655615,0.0,0.06327157645419232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09844901872659738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183389053974297,0.0,0.0,0.2238670648432662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11593337796725307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054390362235358924,0.0,0.19661339334631348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07431384133709447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12366286833152305,0.2243071342255316,0.11219475963922737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17772557042406262,0.0,0.0,0.08255000855860578,0.17172958499213556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090800586776167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11856313861383838,0.15088058829621293,0.08467171170065342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062773709144074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31987096544535565,0.0,0.0,0.1065280638983248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184134805060595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390541611215032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08853432492905387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276280729769661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943298039317724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07880016104323469,0.2373265787523085,0.17781704659448105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049274924594643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024979847398324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21276174977159265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158987710585552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073184386696827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908585259309622,0.0,0.0,0.2150791938890952 schizophrenia,will_38,2018/11/22,"How fast do visual hallucinations go away? I do not have schizophrenia. My question is, how fast do visual hallucinations go away? Can everything be normal at once or do the hallucinations fade away slowly? 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I have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia but I have had 2 major episodes almost exactly 10 years apart and experience almost all of the negative syptoms currently. The last episode was May of this year, and that's when I experienced written text from books changing. I would pick up a book and it would have nonsense and had nothing to do with what the cover advertised. I'd pick up the same book again and the pages I read would be completely different. I was afraid to read the dictionary and the Bible because I feared of changing the text for everyone. Eventually the episode faded and books stopped changing. But it's hard for me to accept what I went through is schizoprenia. There's so much more to this story, and a lot of other symptoms I experieced, but this is one symptom that my mind can't explain or make sense of. 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I know I have manic episodes and this isn’t disputable. These are the symptoms I get outlined on the mind website. a lack of interest in things feeling disconnected from your feelings difficulty concentrating wanting to avoid people (mainly new people or large groups) disorganised thinking and speech (but only when I’m manic) I don’t really class myself as depressed but I do feel like my personality has changed somewhat since I had my manicepisodes. When I’m not manic I feel like lazy, unmotivated, no interest in anything, and I’m a lot more introverted, and I can sometimes feel like somethings not quite right with me that comes out as self deprecating sometimes I can provide more info if needed ",8.383333333333333,9.749950879432623,8.178156028368797,64.33333333333334,61.482269503546114,11.08936170212766,39.780141843971634,10.980518767755715,4.932197163120566,658,34,98,17,9,211,98,141,0.126,0.7559999999999999,0.11800000000000001,0.2263,0,1,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,3,7,0,1,4,0,12,3,0,1,0,31,28,14,0,4,6,0,5,3,0,1,3,1,0,2,5,7,0,1,9,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,6,15,5,11,26,6,9,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,6,6,67,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13185540759019093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695017986835231,0.13802371658090715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380056235589387,0.1626297935917096,0.0,0.0,0.1836371414503607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4050848054785793,0.34340443321890746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08371341577145952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08805806406813403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23484044389626116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13622157857824607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699784126552786,0.16178634143897516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11880830755551475,0.0,0.1547508626022935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12186192273791588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22216622691030466,0.13990641167245996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17042403091569686,0.0,0.0,0.10264726192768707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368353059052076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671545433810022,0.0,0.0,0.1325436806419084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12335266702756865,0.3169425814575746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665400305593107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10644950663002416,0.1026687351627706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945076406140453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17376229703969956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,EckhartWatts,2019/03/02,"I've kept this to myself for a long time I have hallucinations. Not all the time, they just happen occasionally, less and less often, though when it happens I am absolutely petrified. They only happen when I'm either alone or the only one awake, though I have woken up partners in the past due to my hallucinations, they're unsupportive so I sit and usually cry and shake by myself. When they happen I stay up all night because I'm so scared they're going to get me, I try to keep my eyes on them so they can't get any closer. These hallucinations only happen at night. Sometimes I hear nothing or noises when these hallucinations happen that are hard to explain. Sometimes they bounce around the room. These things don't happen while I'm about to go to sleep. Often times I am just sitting down in my bed and catch a glimpse of something around the corner and then it just feels like it's taunting me waiting for me to go to sleep. ... I can't tell how I feel about sharing all this. I'm embarrassed to give too much more detail. I do not know if I have schizophrenia or not, I'm leaning towards not but I'm not sure wtf is going on",3.9528552837064055,5.36292294247788,4.945148360229048,83.28660333159814,71.78761061946905,7.087558563248308,24.798542425819893,7.510576382923642,1.0916702758979695,899,26,180,10,17,294,120,226,0.071,0.892,0.037000000000000005,-0.511,0,1,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,6,0,20,6,0,3,7,0,11,3,3,1,4,35,40,22,0,1,14,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,10,7,0,3,4,0,0,6,8,3,0,1,2,5,26,3,27,38,8,38,0,0,1,0,12,14,0,6,16,123,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10893137485502052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07152378451952349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18725918073474607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06411475969785735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11553170153773155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063610319551202,0.0751382784566444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10990100306800203,0.1008951052770673,0.23909744269728755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6510520581639069,0.0,0.0942176931825318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11854182113466355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09348591210561373,0.0,0.0,0.05780238137537407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051384038642013984,0.0,0.0,0.09307809822580468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0773169999133433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19740247649369044,0.0,0.10091991112118556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07127047569378303,0.2399749327142792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040309182363594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10530025710214548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105053790376643,0.0,0.0,0.08097018687215549,0.2080449548985241,0.0,0.0,0.1121044022525172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09912782532714393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09192909974312403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06987474735633775,0.0,0.2066712106336667,0.0,0.1839881949604083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07140809714153787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11583731119622424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Paltsick,2019/03/02,"How effective is Risperidone for thought broadcasting? Does anyone know? I suffer from this constantly and want to take Risperidone, but don't know much about it.",6.271111111111113,9.87543092592593,4.0903703703703735,81.7666666666667,73.07407407407408,8.044444444444443,31.222222222222207,8.841846274778883,3.2398,133,6,20,3,3,37,25,27,0.081,0.7909999999999999,0.128,-0.1053,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,8,7,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,6,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.292500385269667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4520573411816442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3660762965917385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4597975308516542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30751471485358634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31452599328818137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321008460594197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24673708342787984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Yunavae,2019/03/02,"Overactive imagination and a strange voice Hello all. I have been diagnosed with schizoaffective bipolar. Does anyone else hear a voice that can hold a full conversation with you? Mine does and claims that it's an actual spirit that resides in the ether. It claims to be a type of Japanese spirit that has come to show me the way to enlightenment. Honestly it's confusing to tell whether or not I'm actually just losing it or if this might be real. I'm really confused. I also have a problem with an overactive imagination to where I go in and out of daydreaming every few seconds, even when driving or doing work that I should be concentrating on. It's so much easier to just let my mind drift off than stay in a harsh reality that seeks my destruction.",5.712797202797207,7.088683811188816,6.738048951048949,72.22399650349651,67.53146853146853,11.034685314685316,31.08321678321679,11.00357731598739,3.7712047552447534,607,24,109,19,10,203,94,143,0.126,0.809,0.066,-0.8278,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,2,7,6,1,2,10,0,12,2,0,0,1,28,17,11,0,3,8,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,12,8,0,1,3,1,0,4,1,5,0,1,1,3,9,1,18,10,4,15,2,1,0,0,5,8,0,7,1,82,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.39093453451684784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16018259182668645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400568253559165,0.2052345491791551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725436809566236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20330377934056545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505737873912249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16732782511420388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13229853567796365,0.0,0.1687642906157035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138370632394414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257565390376856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20482384249873276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22408831823781275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21249030042973605,0.20224937838145002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472460785749591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19166334436994004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279891713158171,0.1283195153112679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134968201194291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750740388177585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589915505166419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458232928595641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jew-Man-Jew,2019/10/21,"Helping my girlfriend understand my mental state. I'm 17 and a male and new to reddit. I've been diagnosed with a couple of things including depression, ptsd, and schizophrenia. I don't know how to explain to my girlfriend when I'm uncomfortable, when my head is overwhelmed, or when I feel really anxious. I only take Seroquel because most anti depressants made me suicidal and Latuda made me convulse and twitch and my psychiatrist doesn't want me to take more than 1-2 things at a time. I have told her some things like me cutting and me shooting myself a couple years ago but I'm scared to say anymore because I don't want her to be afraid of me, because she's already called me a monster which made me feel like crap. I'm trying to get everything out for she won't be afraid and for we can grow in the relationship, but I just don't know how or if it's even worth it to have her understand how I feel and what stuff I've went through.",6.735396825396826,5.9975838359788405,6.889994708994711,79.3276904761905,65.13756613756614,10.099682539682536,34.24391534391534,9.3871,2.8912175661375663,751,29,151,12,10,242,106,189,0.129,0.815,0.055999999999999994,-0.88,0,0,0,1,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,0,8,10,2,4,6,0,12,4,2,6,0,36,34,20,1,3,6,0,3,2,2,1,2,1,0,1,8,12,0,0,8,0,1,2,5,8,0,0,6,4,27,2,18,25,3,13,0,3,0,0,15,3,1,5,9,96,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162518919573482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447214727076699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14815621811732452,0.1300603343463054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23983383386793986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13391343407042688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29021830274037125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259095307340121,0.13310914224441658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08661985852602551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178644287182031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19893215063238726,0.09368982263167344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0685177095880987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345923301256459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08790354934119443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414742977833706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12814138320316099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37227694864675104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13216304412632218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12666039922727246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974147817356786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15330117350114195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08401467337058037,0.0,0.0,0.14080036245220362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10429155452463404,0.1312987549569978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15012934185656227,0.14345105098352853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19720903436342024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26138019744592794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07647154777489708,0.0,0.0,0.12531441135876814,0.0,0.08903866435423209,0.0,0.0,0.27305258182919223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547051213661559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12157248030010942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08445290755713007 schizophrenia,corriendolaluz,2019/10/21,"Curious about others experiences with school Since I'm asking for others,I'll share mine.I'm diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder since the age of about 11 or 12. I'm 16 right now,and school has been a struggle for me. Every time I attend class I feel an overwhelming amount of anxiety and paranoia,and every little noise makes me turn my head.I mostly stay in my school's B.I unit all day. Is it better to tough it out and adjust,or find an alternative? I'd like anyone's advice on what to do,and how they got through school.",5.291456043956046,6.2925187499999975,5.6350549450549465,81.12423076923079,68.23076923076923,9.019780219780221,25.434065934065927,9.23628265651192,1.8911335164835168,426,11,82,8,7,136,77,104,0.083,0.8170000000000001,0.1,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,1,3,6,0,2,4,0,3,1,0,2,1,12,10,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,1,7,3,14,8,3,10,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,2,4,38,11,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578566403875412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235789276223948,0.0,0.0,0.11295368459424153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15101964543385796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14287047058908622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418100659188884,0.0,0.0,0.16396138431736507,0.0,0.0,0.18514073749534546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722116313080035,0.0,0.0,0.1580187407425663,0.0,0.0,0.08168031700137904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476461505243317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12919962248945074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657883477708787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07892109521580787,0.16190718168137108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10783031233802866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13795569485892567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6539551362426821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26725786069833496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17218191559291118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16887841732460684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419624093918748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757109380559044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anonymousrehouse,2019/10/21,"Not sure if I should get into ""internal voices"" with my psychiatrist Currently hospitalized because of depression and I'm conflicted about how much I should emphasize what I call my internal voices. Like I know they're in my head but they're louder than my internal monologue. Sometimes I hear noises that get very external and make me jump like the sound of something falling on the ground. I feel like the fact that they're not as loud as someone talking to me makes them invalid. I dunno. Thoughts? The nurses sometimes tell me they're just thoughts.",4.558514851485152,7.408901930693072,4.588603960396039,80.15379702970299,74.24752475247523,8.000396039603961,30.892079207920798,8.841846274778883,2.998076435643564,449,21,75,10,10,139,66,101,0.059000000000000004,0.856,0.085,0.5452,1,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,4,0,2,1,1,3,2,22,12,7,0,3,5,0,1,3,0,2,0,5,0,0,3,4,0,1,4,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,6,15,4,11,8,1,7,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,2,4,44,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13045908862281064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21852910760870872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18432731747302744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082103665305505,0.15288946530151912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22362377659294905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196369766596066,0.0,0.24120589427138198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11761482114252444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3136648198910954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857079416331066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573226725215627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18133078327730368,0.16475608478827514,0.4233246032043109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20170278747488687,0.0,0.0,0.17201389486190555,0.1870550030433041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3398015777789091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17658144662825978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AdamSmith4206,2019/10/21,Hilarious voices Anybody here have voices that aren’t negative but are instead hilarious?,7.638571428571428,11.891632857142866,9.054285714285717,42.61571428571432,77.57142857142857,11.371428571428574,42.714285714285715,10.125756701596842,7.438971428571429,76,5,7,3,2,26,11,14,0.132,0.563,0.304,0.4678,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,broketoothbunny,2019/10/21,"I’m so tired I sleep all of the time now when I am not working. I have a good job and I love my job. But I can’t do anything once I get home. I feel like I am dead and I cry all of the time for no reason. Sometimes I cry at work. I think part of it is just me getting older, but I don’t know.",-2.734583333333333,-1.3670619583333306,0.7033333333333367,106.05000000000004,92.19444444444444,3.6,14.555555555555555,3.1291,-1.6471444444444443,217,4,66,0,8,78,48,72,0.188,0.7440000000000001,0.067,-0.7003,2,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,3,0,7,3,1,1,2,12,14,6,1,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,14,3,5,14,3,6,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,43,15,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648447400444869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.440080085183225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128685758968538,0.14310730104205047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093158940279806,0.0,0.0,0.16801733043492728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20093540180920802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3975696381476784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11008959697161637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09786531229807263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807949193000928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21333225429301828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216924997172726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20596038466647326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004627818715352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19811973738606545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283557592966118,0.0,0.0,0.2336142069901637,0.2302362046613157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916679463027336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,menos333,2019/10/21,"commentery voices so many of them , how is it possible to know what are your own toughts at the moment is it even possible practice hearing my own thought sound as i am writing things you say ? not a bad idea tough it probably wouldnt work im telling you since time left the building its probably myself commenting from the future on my past toughts to block my toughts or actions at said moment than if it hasent happened how do i even know to stop it after it dident time is such a mess",1.9162043111527682,4.484575484536087,2.568678537956888,92.35258669165889,82.81443298969073,5.589128397375821,26.343955014058107,6.980632752743323,1.2404309278350525,390,17,78,5,11,121,69,97,0.078,0.879,0.043,-0.5236,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,1,1,6,3,0,0,5,0,7,0,0,2,0,13,13,6,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,9,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,5,10,0,11,10,2,13,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,2,8,53,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15880811696821015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512491277701069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681922380330585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21436795664800531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21471138008025475,0.20544742452696532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20905665639726428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066516354452916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19283180751636936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815663487312593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4288413098930681,0.0,0.0,0.4101331153039233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18092268631770608,0.1512537803339285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733447580760185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15901477699862576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16624220110502105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12635968191392716,0.0,0.0,0.15099666223802444,0.22181298843728955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13846704709080526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nobodyyoullremember,2019/10/21,"what is this experience called? is it something that you'd worry about or do you just ignore it? The experience where you think everyone is an actor/putting on a show, and you feel panicky and like you want to or have to do something drastic (like taking a knife to the person) to get them to stop. I wouldn't do take a knife to anyone but in this moment when it happens I feel like they won't stop until I show I'm serious. what is this? do I ignore it? I'm not schizophrenic, I have schizoid pd though. I just figured I would get the most helpful people in this subreddit if that's ok.",3.2369329660238755,4.400235595041323,4.4764738292011055,86.91450872359967,73.21487603305786,7.361248852157942,25.841138659320478,7.793537801064563,1.2918367309458216,461,15,98,6,9,152,68,121,0.129,0.763,0.109,0.3611,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,5,2,0,6,7,0,0,7,1,14,1,0,0,0,21,25,9,0,4,7,0,2,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,12,2,0,4,4,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,2,14,4,11,21,1,9,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,4,8,70,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13924026937419295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20333975277704205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902826374513811,0.0,0.3895857334128506,0.0,0.0,0.20137792552225084,0.14226254075173886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20808030538841876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17609498848273294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347642165507204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918628444029257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13805557901464108,0.17387755951853298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20018631947619603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066086885720314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33297262289420954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29945043655416753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275980771399571,0.19564975488457745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11745535968927658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20223190833371507,0.0,0.14146024492335468,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hideousmoon,2019/10/21,"hallucinations from daily life my hallucinations started very recently, about a month ago, my hallucinations are always things from daily life, i had my trauma a month ago too and these hallucinations started after that. is it normal to have normal life visions while hallucinating?",14.207333333333333,13.328767622222225,13.376111111111117,39.23750000000001,50.55555555555557,14.333333333333336,42.5,13.023866798666859,5.953666666666668,233,9,29,6,2,77,31,45,0.063,0.895,0.043,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,5,5,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4087213677040514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918285778138904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4885137724069081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3680312487388045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4517624572742973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276314219304578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263562086239231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15316119447192922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902204667866068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,medicinebear1,2019/10/21,Anyone successfully lose weight after med related weight gain? Schizoaffective bipolar type here. Gained 30 lb this last year after a med switch. Planning on starting a cardio plan and stricter diet. Anyone have tips or a success story? The google search results make it seem like a daunting task. Thanks in advance.,5.19477088948787,8.803172358490569,3.838328840970352,81.02924528301888,80.13207547169812,5.292722371967655,28.32614555256065,6.868970318607317,1.9569805929919144,257,11,36,3,7,74,46,53,0.043,0.6629999999999999,0.295,0.9429,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,8,1,5,0,0,5,0,1,5,0,2,0,5,5,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,4,5,0,8,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,6,15,2,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32948203580499896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19205013142637972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11510506812183358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.263582567666682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15726866705698347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5234097475522121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21448662528042745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16676296189467968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169141191738417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.573808659778845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151722377805745 schizophrenia,Deathsblossum,2019/10/21,Looking for suggestions So I'm 18 and i was diagnosed with paranoia schizophrenia 2 years ago I've been on easily 20-25 different meds in an attempt to help but nothing makes a huge impact and I am really exhausted with this and pushed to my limit every time I have an episode I end up having a panic attack as well and it's only getting worse I would love if any of you could suggest any medications that helped you or coping mechanisms that helped thanks for any input you may have and if this post is against the rules feel free to delete,4.378055555555555,5.7991649537037055,5.080555555555558,82.68250000000003,70.75925925925927,8.362962962962964,27.38888888888889,8.841846274778883,2.0735888888888887,437,15,84,8,8,141,83,108,0.163,0.674,0.163,-0.0213,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,3,0,2,3,7,1,1,5,0,10,4,0,1,0,17,17,11,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,5,7,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,2,2,9,5,13,12,0,10,0,0,1,1,9,4,0,4,4,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16922534329450462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3894648711103212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171814575753764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242172953193406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19376407482652264,0.0,0.19945459714179994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16908474608655935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16084529633916855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09652706410843044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997397352556916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838778379502007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603117208475275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17229878763200726,0.0,0.12743025313808756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21205189143414688,0.1923162252196129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831780408960732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451914940947029,0.0,0.22398532794175066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182833764499444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12229832739520816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17575923820561518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11131796400541144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17164609509444592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19454802086691514,0.13561309756368678,0.0,0.0,0.12293625534127092 schizophrenia,Pegsus13,2019/03/16,"How do I help my brother? Hello! My brother was diagnosed with schizo paranoid when he was 15, he’s 30 now and quit his meds right before christmas, he is NOT healthy enough to quit his meds, and goes into psychosis several times a day. I’ve already notified the team that works where he lives, they didn’t do anything, does anyone have any advice to what I can do to get him some real help? I’m clueless and he needs help.",4.105450980392156,5.145863094117646,4.511470588235294,87.94995098039217,71.0,7.0784313725490176,28.284313725490193,7.1686216300943375,1.3916666666666668,333,12,68,3,6,105,64,85,0.077,0.823,0.1,0.4577,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,0,2,0,9,1,0,1,0,10,12,5,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,8,0,5,9,2,7,0,0,0,0,16,3,0,1,4,36,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18777378112344034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21205023632601774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13067347785433958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13436077440907707,0.0,0.15812899367350372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16351161477270426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.123925490121789,0.0,0.0,0.1950355019334056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16815805099718514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985497430664454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039420024436893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3863967398123672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16967831834854927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4268866364295285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424821208106697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40876564714340974,0.0,0.2187169496169284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641011894563071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21708292817339955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11204840217898006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13989272215547185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Emma-monster,2019/03/16,"Alarming pictures in brothers journal Being the terrible little sister I am, I went through my brothers notebook. I thought it would be harmless since it was only labeled sketchbook but what I found was sketches labeled “the things I see.” He has mentioned to me that he has hallucinations before but I honestly never took him seriously but now that I saw he drew them out I am genuinely worried. I want to tell my dad but I’m scared to.",3.798658536585368,6.409557097560973,4.812378048780489,78.81661585365855,75.58536585365854,6.539024390243903,34.640243902439025,7.645422480735847,2.869165853658536,350,20,58,5,8,114,57,82,0.12,0.774,0.106,-0.3011,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,2,2,0,9,0,0,0,1,10,17,4,0,2,4,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,7,2,14,2,6,7,0,7,0,0,2,0,11,3,0,0,2,43,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432320412923763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134129996969784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864906060577536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22046037919925884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21739710917989155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861795342244549,0.0,0.2277805198348901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364529654893449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24984010172587376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899019356912925,0.0,0.0,0.2269280676209479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31758300662394856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16859809367272535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649800890967455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902882790113714,0.0,0.2030552516943326,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zula8989,2019/03/16,"Asking for a favour I just wanna start off by saying that I HATE MYSELF so much right now for doing this. None of you could imagine, but I REALLY need to reach out to some of you, so here I am, slowly regretting it, but doing it anyway. I'm only 18 years old, I'm a university student studying Mechatronic Engineering. I've suffered from depression. Or at least I think that I have. I've been so lonely for as long as I can remember. And I still get this feeling of emptiness from time to time. But being the little boy that I am, I've always looked up to superheroes. Especially to how they went through the most horrible things, but instead of hurting others, or themselves, they chose to help people out. I figured that it does make things a bit easier. And it was true. Even the tiniest of gestures. Seeing somebody happy made ME happy. Now I don't know what I'm doing here. I think this may even be a huge mistake. But at least I'll go down trying, right? So I thought long and hard and came up with an idea. I want to do what I can to make sure that NOBODY feels this way, because it's dark, and lonely out there and because nobody should go through any of it. So I went online and built a website. I called it Alleviate. Which is a word that means to make problems less severe. It's just a community. It came to mind that people may not be able to afford therapists. So I thought that one approach could be to have all of us help each other out under one platform. You can follow a certain topic ranging from ADHD, postpartum depression, anxiety, and many more. There is a full disclaimer that the site doesn't offer a cure, or any of that, It's just a place for ranting and helping each other feel even just a LITTLE better. Here's a link to the website: [https://alleviate.mn.co](https://alleviate.mn.co/) I promise, all I want to do is help and all I ask from you is for any of you to just check it out, and if you want to join, you can sign up. I want a place for us and ONLY us. And while there is this subreddit and many more, it still doesn't feel like ours. And if I see that this idea helps people and actually benefits them, I'll turn it into a real thing from scratch. All I ask for you to do is check it out and if you feel like you could maybe benefit from it, please sign up. The number of members that I get there would be an indicator of whether this should be built or not. All I want to do is help. I'm not making any money from this whatsoever. Its ALL free and I'm not planning or going to allow any advertising or anything. It's just something that I wanted to do that was ""good"". I'm just an 18 year old kid in his first year of university. If you hate on me after this, I understand. I feel like a dipshit for posting something like this here, because I'm the type that hates the people that do this and here I am doing it. I deserve whatever comes my way. Thanks anyway though.",3.0653394815191355,4.623119740614335,4.334669232444995,86.1921803064411,74.2901023890785,6.8984968411880025,24.07218066952291,7.53845456269673,1.0054317478759711,2272,68,472,28,47,748,242,586,0.124,0.731,0.146,0.7834,1,4,2,0,0,0,84.0,4,11,3,3,34,29,3,0,27,0,46,0,0,7,9,120,101,46,0,21,27,0,8,4,0,5,0,2,0,2,54,32,0,0,19,0,4,10,8,12,0,3,10,13,54,18,73,77,19,59,0,7,3,0,33,29,0,14,21,349,108,2,0.06650168654682835,0.0,0.06489605308609153,0.0,0.07992210399302603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0553347305459972,0.0,0.0,0.22611713645922266,0.0,0.05087360818520316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05472522171712257,0.0,0.18651029956044315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216164326178242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05881533754843496,0.07260261792332777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06790565729860762,0.1521204263162614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057285314498344064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15928855624847504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145556103538148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058196074044086825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177121031551065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017515052211044,0.14252645447015833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05656630060432988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06948877292965264,0.0,0.11338332298959128,0.05577845952433198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14158456384587076,0.059572448883524635,0.19696994273490645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674480721816964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119143086897585,0.15014461899652412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03654758775678545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299574596673722,0.13330432107967105,0.0,0.11770379981581786,0.055844667821594265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06292550375412093,0.17756156865626768,0.1348445446120948,0.06680988257048542,0.0724398322869509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06714774591246014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04888639139404316,0.04931015793466267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395646664862496,0.0,0.0901265277626124,0.10115505859925647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18441558443337525,0.0,0.13896021655793372,0.07299888174674918,0.0,0.0,0.0636902329478083,0.0,0.0,0.0636331327763699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569347836230951,0.04260268327490363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533344712853167,0.11358415390389877,0.0,0.05288481032429007,0.0,0.0,0.10598646835088013,0.0,0.0,0.07512797684541321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239249456439092,0.0,0.0,0.047070236020147316,0.0,0.10621666556005528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0626770525552529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061225818188953826,0.0,0.07721358369791052,0.13254229671289766,0.08522319103759135,0.06533756938475395,0.10558982161542133,0.07755533643570472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04515027987994424,0.07233473852293458,0.0,0.06923060100318894,0.23998002233741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353465063476329,0.10557188676431276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12329545936159472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04724089009626737,0.0,0.0,0.12847471737815574 schizophrenia,Zafkiel722,2019/03/16,"Do you guys think I could have schizophrenia? I have yet to see a doctor about this, but for a while now I’ve felt like something is wrong with my mind. Initially I thought it could be ADHD, since I had symptoms like concentration issues and felt like I constantly had to be doing something. There was more to it than this, but I felt like that could have been an explanation. Somewhat recently however, I began realizing certain things that I was doing weren’t exactly normal. Things like being irrationally paranoid or afraid of numerous things, being completely inexpressive with emotion, having extremely disorganized thoughts, etc. It reminded me of someone awhile ago asking me if I was schizophrenic, which, at the time I had written off, but now I wanted to look into it. So I did, and now I think it’s a very real possibility for me, especially since it also covered some of the symptoms that made me think it could have been ADHD, but I’m still unsure. It was mainly the fact that the more I actually thought about the different common symptoms, the more examples I remembered where I acted that way. The main thing I have not experienced, however, is actual hallucinations. I know enough to know that not all cases of schizophrenia necessarily have hallucinations, but I’m also only 16 now. I kind of just needed somewhere to ask about this to see what people thought. I haven’t talked about every reason that I think I may have schizophrenia here, but I would be happy to answer questions if it would help you guys understand better. If necessary, I could leave a list of symptoms that I relate to in the comments or something, but for now I just wanted to ask about this. Side note: I do plan to ask my parents to see a doctor soon hopefully, but before that I wanted to confirm or deny this in my own mind. 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schizophrenia,s1dv1shuss,2019/03/16,"There re a ton of people in my house Im too youg i dont want my mind to break I dont kniw for sure if i have this and i dont know what else it could be but regardless i thought yall could maybe tell me what helps u in these kinds of situations if u have experienced them or experienced stuff similar Otherwise im sorry this is mostly a vent and im sorry if this is disturbing Since i was thirteen these 30 or 40 so people have showed iup in my house and more tend to show up every once in a while They usually stay in my house and theres almost always people everywhere in all of the rooms at the same time and sometimes they come w me wherever i may go so theyre always there But they never acklnowledge that i exist so im forced to watch their lives and the things they do and i have no control and theres nothing i can do Theyre horrific people who do horrific things to eachother most of them are so abusive and others are severely mentally ill to the point they cant function and the rest are helpless and dont deserve whats being done to them It breaks my heart and fucks me up in the head every god damn fucking day Everything i witness them do is heinous Ive been through really really bad things and im reliving eveything as this is happening Its like these people are some cruel personifications or metaphors or some wickwack pstchological shit where my brain is telling me how messed my life is Sometimes i even see some of these god cursing creatures that i cant begin to describe and ive never felt so much fear in my life I cant forget a single thing that these people have done i can recall every single moment nd its taking over my mind My mother loves me to desth and would do anything for me but she so fragile that her heart eouldnt make it through this and we cant afford meds or treatment or therapy or nothing and god forbid that i let myself admit that i need help from anybody anyway Thankyou",2.1661785476349067,4.321457906329119,3.550023317788142,88.1248484343771,78.79746835443036,6.487008660892737,23.30612924716856,7.573540080772713,1.0565949367088607,1543,51,315,23,38,505,197,395,0.18600000000000005,0.745,0.069,-0.9953,2,0,0,0,1,0,0.0,1,1,10,1,15,15,5,2,10,0,43,11,5,3,4,61,60,39,0,9,13,1,2,1,0,2,3,0,1,0,31,19,0,2,4,2,0,2,11,11,0,0,6,6,50,4,31,47,13,28,0,1,2,3,22,15,4,17,9,225,81,0,0.0,0.08881805394550381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07506390365018635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247492582674254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061687576232584425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06259037971859596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08368270548057152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06457337392602122,0.0,0.0,0.08407658072280433,0.11970257525677225,0.0,0.0,0.048344474605539686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15342489496737802,0.3514209753166782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06262137308896094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049511884566470175,0.0,0.1894768834686066,0.0,0.06737127130535837,0.0,0.0,0.08435341531652621,0.0,0.0,0.07197555261432075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386028555795749,0.0,0.0,0.04260279605979039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662889041516494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07693293461927103,0.0,0.0,0.17766134559795566,0.1004912836854049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594892488900852,0.0,0.0,0.4048606758533772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780616879624819,0.04119731332506174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07665401883920699,0.10589616252817227,0.03662278766846793,0.0,0.06619307411615262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06765639209221112,0.0,0.0500379096638437,0.0,0.07530969441220807,0.0,0.0832662034825514,0.0,0.0755443554871391,0.0,0.15138108407243156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05510590731718209,0.05558358707724609,0.11563107633566205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438566751150556,0.0,0.0,0.07983239074548665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.311816473271164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07086359258313747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09604552306129786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059735238532360964,0.0,0.0,0.08468604883516119,0.07694771190573321,0.062009579684112276,0.08426075306804552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14827924020971825,0.16782828944017344,0.0,0.07989982548856224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08581388575933659,0.0,0.0,0.07065106976672395,0.0,0.056362311778268476,0.0,0.1310406884869914,0.0,0.08572590992520404,0.0,0.19920645425691666,0.0,0.0,0.05951168369819786,0.043711113253693534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08256037018773517,0.0,0.04421469996179599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053251058975551685,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gioraffe,2019/01/08,"You guys all look like such amazing really cool people! I wish we could all hangout, although who knows how that would go down haha Stay safe and stay cute everybody ❤",2.293125,5.122662062500002,2.64875,90.32125,84.625,5.7,20.5,7.1686216300943375,0.7385374999999996,134,4,25,2,4,41,30,32,0.0,0.522,0.478,0.9640000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,1,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,10,6,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,6,1,4,2,4,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24699677324599065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17581498368690945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063125399738617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.170014779312254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15113643732360504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597823675433063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21446952325437368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19818232172512776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6594678196775424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3557458320253473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197586762135944,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AtomiicDonkey,2019/01/08,"What type of music do people with schizophrenia listen to? My brother with sever schizophrenia recently passed and I was wondering if there are any songs that you guys really like, or that bring you peace/ease of mind. Sorry if I sound ignorant I just don’t know much about the subject. ",5.723490566037736,7.593468849056606,5.1624056603773605,81.65040094339625,68.0566037735849,8.318867924528304,26.45754716981132,8.841846274778883,2.045871698113208,231,7,40,4,4,70,44,53,0.066,0.879,0.055,0.10099999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,11,8,4,0,2,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,3,0,1,2,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,3,6,1,6,7,1,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,4,2,27,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252456105971385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279666486765055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820336098589815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16182070393252326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3344446879416668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24348984008621846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229630986674548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121923963304457,0.0,0.3270465466585093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741920511302003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3707813313237092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592013806146282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Phoenix_franklin,2019/01/08,"I'm always paranoid and can't determine what is real and what is a delusion. A year ago I believed that the government was spying on me and that they sent an assassin like Sam Fisher from Splinter Cell: Conviction to kill me, because I knew too much and I thought they were talking to me using popular TV channels. I was always afraid and grabbed a knife everywhere I went to protect myself. (this is just one example). The doctor told my that I suffer from schizophrenia but I never believed him untill a few months ago after taking some antipsychotics. now I know that the above is a delusion but how can determine what is a real threat and what's not?",4.52664,6.433510184000004,5.144200000000001,80.44510000000002,71.16,7.88,30.1,8.548686976883017,2.5103600000000004,523,22,91,9,10,168,81,125,0.095,0.858,0.046,-0.775,0,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,2,0,4,6,2,1,10,0,10,1,0,2,1,19,19,10,1,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,6,0,1,3,2,0,2,3,4,0,1,8,1,16,2,8,11,3,11,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,1,9,71,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452929852558692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32411842161727744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11872629779365147,0.0,0.0,0.4388645589078348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19934915837892175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154774569121604,0.0,0.10703717485170924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951518293510211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15545872883808062,0.0,0.1431739150155482,0.0,0.15021396709020762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319770948373073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4433680347122973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14643825370978925,0.15654388760193735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546208230488795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861053031701476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16821352163542933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18054813535071984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12542159991098598 schizophrenia,phauxtoe,2019/01/08,"This community is god damn fantastic Long time lurker, very rare poster... haven't shared my own image for personal reasons... but I'm pretty sure I went through and upvoted every selfie posted in the last few days... Gotta say, the support here is incredible. I love all of you beautiful people. Keep strong! :D",3.564736842105265,6.35778924561404,4.67640350877193,78.45565789473683,77.59649122807018,8.010526315789475,25.28947368421053,8.841846274778883,2.3886631578947366,245,9,42,6,6,80,53,57,0.042,0.51,0.449,0.9889,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,1,6,1,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,2,6,9,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,4,5,4,7,3,7,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,0,4,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17805444707939355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326167364219913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454004265776616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250492354091645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24432991554754654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491809370906871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914052232840608,0.2410701062664252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26441676924095897,0.2808815831977657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838652869971653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21955690913124376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31330231838628225,0.2602104431897209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609896097768187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278021888613828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25593709990971786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iamgonnapissyouoff,2019/01/08,"Zyprexa dosage A buddy of mine takes 30mg of zyprexa nightly. Since starting, she has gained 65 lbs despite being on 90 mg of adderall every day. She also sleeps up to 18 hours a day. Is this a normal dosage or is her psychiatrist an ass? Also wanted to say that she has no choice of her treatment. She has to take her meds anyway even if she doesn’t want to. Does any one else take this dosage? Or has experience? I want to help her. 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How do I go about suing the company? I was in the psychiatric hospital and was forced to tell people everything about my history. I was tortured and forced to commit crimes and then forced to tell people about them. I wasn't arrested but I hear a voice and it forces me to do nothing at all, basically I'm just a vegetable. I can play some games but that is it. If I try to do something I want to do then I just hear the voice nonstop to where I can't focus. I'm being monitored day and night because they are building a brain computer interface in my body. I don't know all the details but at first they said it would take a month but now it's been 8 years and they continue to lie to me. I have wanted to die for a long time now because they won't leave me the fuck alone. They forced me to get fired or quit all of my jobs. I'm on disability now and I want to work. They threatened me and my family and I don't understand why they continue to fuck with me when they clearly need to screw off. If you don't believe any of this then fine. But to the people that did this to me, I can't wait any longer as this is just a waste of all of our time. How do you break a contract with people who routinely fuck with other peoples lives?",2.820491551459291,3.953144792114697,4.267414234511012,88.13064516129036,74.19713261648745,7.894930875576037,25.4720942140297,8.418075326091056,1.4444717869943668,1043,34,233,18,21,347,135,279,0.188,0.75,0.062,-0.9908,1,1,1,0,0,0,18.0,1,2,9,3,13,7,5,0,14,0,26,8,2,3,6,42,45,25,1,7,11,0,1,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,12,13,1,1,2,2,0,2,7,5,0,1,8,6,40,2,36,34,5,27,0,0,0,4,20,7,4,4,17,165,52,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13170591172098314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729548582750642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325581465950495,0.0,0.0,0.14327284732829346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14125306626010192,0.0,0.141959621643477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08201172851836704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319785186517966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142888501181307,0.0,0.11988104853006648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10816757032843097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35268952211428123,0.06643913118413496,0.0,0.07227152581731695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866512728841595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12619290793173935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06988726020230479,0.0,0.0,0.13465072607567016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11229015246321457,0.11253815353382401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12815369747748445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10150290913487232,0.0,0.0,0.09429218314296813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11933693656756038,0.0,0.12201947255973453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4408054240276964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525698888991405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096425029546155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09789881288479964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09561321433199002,0.0,0.222297862511543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483033576286599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08633755472933258,0.0,0.0,0.13238457920861052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22501789497402191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11474778562313165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09257856426337192,0.0,0.0,0.09033527466483353,0.0,0.0,0.08189091313473204 schizophrenia,narr1,2019/01/08,"Since others are too Here's mine. I'm actually not sure about my diagnosis. At one point it was schizophrenia, but then I moved out of my home town and it was changed to psychotic depression. I've had psychoses, and heard voices, and suffer from delusional thinking. Towards the end of last year I went through with the SCID thing with my mental health worker, and tomorrow I will most likely receive the results. I'm almost hoping I would be diagnosed with schizophrenia, for a number of reasons, with the topmost being that I feel like ""just"" psychotic depression doesn't quite explain everything. Or maybe I'm just romanticizing the idea. Or something. I don't know; but anyway, here's my mug. https://i.redd.it/8cn9lxg467921.jpg",6.245525568181819,8.942722671875002,5.449744318181821,76.71627840909092,68.375,8.404545454545454,31.16761363636364,9.095868883498916,3.016459375,594,25,94,12,11,179,91,128,0.124,0.795,0.081,-0.8211,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,2,7,8,0,0,6,0,10,2,0,2,1,28,20,9,0,2,7,0,1,2,0,2,2,2,1,0,5,9,0,0,6,0,0,3,3,3,0,1,5,3,11,5,15,11,1,13,0,3,0,0,3,5,0,5,7,65,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.1869759981296204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19186181342127007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20268960267953895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33005319381808346,0.1944720852697556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16970257870660446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17219960136073134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968797722639777,0.1368805693472143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036640589279056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19219251569543527,0.19030410494805705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162954345114352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529949627274653,0.15618127382098368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18721420317705376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19249004961777075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19308983856007608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036426961984261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12983453295700506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811259036288219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037924044560946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969988568775693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15849522645569206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475046475227155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18058269962572987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127291912958148,0.1227708808955292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776170543715623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361086253822477,0.0,0.0,0.12338546220643155 schizophrenia,I-am-t-rex,2019/01/08,"Logical delusions? Has anyone ever had a delusion that you knew 100% was not logical, you are super insane for even entertaining the idea, and can no way be true... yet, deep down you KNOW it is real and true even though the logical side of you is like, wake up- that is not real and there is no way it could ever be real?",4.665461538461539,4.8123333538461575,5.996730769230767,81.01201923076924,69.30769230769229,8.961538461538463,25.48076923076923,8.841846274778883,1.6643076923076916,248,6,51,4,4,84,43,65,0.09300000000000001,0.745,0.163,0.7476,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,4,0,1,7,5,0,0,3,0,12,1,1,0,4,19,14,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,6,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,4,5,4,8,0,9,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,4,41,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14546738867336007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661041346582278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748187739009001,0.3763707256653312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348534251239945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11433411629489748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101638522669941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7103900001910383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043996256654571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302671700006157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,signpostsally,2019/01/08,"what a wonderful community I’m too shy and paranoid about having my face online to post anything, but I think it’s wonderful what a diverse, kind, supportive community we have here. it’s so nice to see you all and it makes this whole thing feel a lot more real. you all look like people i’d like to be friends with. I am so proud of everyone here. ",1.1841197183098586,3.556673943661973,3.1613908450704247,88.20433978873241,84.2112676056338,6.930281690140845,22.959507042253517,8.07648339933343,1.3996042253521137,274,10,58,6,8,92,52,71,0.033,0.568,0.39899999999999997,0.9890000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,2,0,1,6,7,0,0,3,0,4,1,1,1,2,14,13,5,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,7,6,12,5,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,3,2,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19519078264650733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266494159389584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11993261659062088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18325580666791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24700146931783454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317624074174336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991835588181943,0.0,0.0,0.2016541985040937,0.0,0.0,0.15832910523921384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644407328481457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271666706127093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26997915804063205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18901322880227628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691653966099137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15758142112781054,0.15198459536853307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648190792320794,0.0,0.0,0.5144544220597744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Chizuo,2019/01/08,"About the pictures I don't mean to intrude, but I think they're awesome. A disclaimer: I don't have schizophrenia of any kind, but my brother did. Unfortunately his life ended a couple of years ago with complications related to a drug addiction. I originally joined this sub to hear other people's stories and how they deal/cope. A lurker, if anything. I wish my bro had a community like this to connect with while he was still alive. Even just to know he wasn't alone during the darker times of his struggle. I see a lot of solidarity on this sub and it makes me happy to see all of the smiling faces. Thanks everyone :)",3.881,5.8409784333333326,5.020000000000003,80.44500000000002,73.0,7.466666666666668,27.833333333333336,8.238735603445708,1.9407333333333328,492,19,93,8,10,162,84,120,0.044000000000000004,0.6509999999999999,0.306,0.99,0,1,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,1,9,0,7,4,1,3,1,17,16,7,0,2,4,2,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,3,12,4,15,12,2,8,0,0,2,0,8,1,0,2,8,60,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183734018781692,0.0,0.0,0.1775675549654763,0.0,0.0,0.20746638824269084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13622137118404432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648425426173227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22164522897719915,0.0,0.0,0.20651642717701765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323023193595084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17742002681180985,0.0,0.0,0.13230646169238194,0.0,0.0,0.19140999128924585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132395152308317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22577006412754594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20859770979198453,0.11008812944604766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148872228943654,0.0978640077256876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703010273342327,0.0,0.0,0.1337121144968404,0.0,0.0,0.2182022432486049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887350696080256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192509482428115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599721725181705,0.0,0.0,0.20941319545254924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18442354781607526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12835404827791574,0.0,0.0,0.11680554642324488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230352874993119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12899657848275636 schizophrenia,GucheeGecko,2019/01/08,"Finally getting help I have my first voluntary meeting with a professional tomorrow. I'm kinda nervous but I know it can be helpful in the end and I want to try to be hopeful. So many thoughts have been invading telling me that this is bad and it isn't gonna help, but I'm gonna take the leap and try to do something good for myself.",2.23404761904762,3.9225793571428578,3.962857142857143,87.43047619047621,76.85714285714286,7.523809523809526,30.23809523809524,8.344100000000001,2.2038095238095248,265,13,57,5,6,89,51,70,0.079,0.679,0.242,0.9135,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,3,0,9,0,0,0,0,11,19,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,6,2,6,13,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,4,35,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21217958582572274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22507489363897135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27837603927040483,0.0,0.2161543426159173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327672118498596,0.0,0.0,0.21314379978540865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5109938391649381,0.0,0.0,0.2523984992254961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13965770646774106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25763779480515475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956339915719684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19106661475869252,0.0,0.2221120812375149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20174289492484795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34506159894171995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14988656032254727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,whoretilla,2019/01/08,"Help I want to ask my mental health specialist about these symptoms but Im worried that they are just normal and Ill waste the visit. I have manic depression and take a mood stabilizer to treat it, my concern is usually only when Im in a “low” phase. My mind creates little voices that tell me awful things such as what negative things others think or say about me (which usually i never hear those people the voices reference actually say these things), crushing any future plans, rude remarks in general (“you suck!” but about 7000 times worse), etc. and I don’t know if its normal or something I really should mention to my doctor. Does anyone have advice on what to do? and maybe even what this could be? thank you.",5.8868888888888895,6.96563931851852,6.168148148148145,77.55666666666669,66.92592592592592,8.962962962962962,27.592592592592588,9.150863307647796,2.2773703703703703,568,17,100,10,9,182,98,135,0.24,0.6829999999999999,0.077,-0.9838,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,1,1,7,7,2,0,4,1,9,4,0,0,1,21,17,11,0,6,6,0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,16,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,0,5,14,2,11,14,1,12,0,2,0,0,11,5,1,3,6,70,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.14587905210058494,0.0,0.0,0.14607827194267334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165719473451153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045257203914675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13975141482939066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193542724145441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875408485204168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15300764638114644,0.1308182503220111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667190102299405,0.0987356361486402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15889911090494074,0.16848421928765148,0.0,0.10019888062179746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229461106719612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08215488007336852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498265847864187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15018112622973365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15064908277623784,0.0,0.1509406051459849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152946204787081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929336600355022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11369261582104785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363638992816447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09576605598555804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23775824980888066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150834244838606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553756192894376,0.11239662470864567,0.0,0.13065939473328855,0.137628775507174,0.0,0.0,0.2979402242238347,0.09578608971071133,0.0,0.0,0.08716785094444603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292805653644468,0.0,0.0881720937523267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15181266166553842,0.15234138565128488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,reib0t,2019/01/08,"Has anyone else gone through weight loss surgery? I had the gastric sleeve done in April 2018, and my weight loss has been pretty great but then in November I was diagnosed SZA. My loss feels like it is at a standstill now from the medication. I also kind of let things slide over the holiday season too. I guess my real question is if anyone else had WLS and what has been your experience with medications? Have they slowed your loss down or made you gain weight? Idk if there are many folks out there in my situation because I know for a fact that my surgeon wouldn't have done the surgery if I was diagnosed during my 6 month pre-surgical testing period. I don't blame him either because it is a struggle keeping up on my diet, vitamins, and good habits while also dealing with all... this head stuff. Tbh I had symptoms since I was a teenager but was never able to get real help until now -- and while I was always chunky, I gained a lot of weight with zoloft when I was on that a while back. Now I am on risperidone, imipramine, and klonopin. I made good progress going from a HW of 275 to my current 194. I am just afraid of losing my progress :0 The best thing that helps me remember my vitamins and other habits is my medicine organizer and my journal/planner. Without it I would be lost! 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I have had several traumas in the last five years (or at least experiences which I perceived to be traumas), including one in which I experienced delusions. That time I was studying abroad and became convinced that I was going to die while abroad in an earthquake, but when I came home and was able to take my antidepressants again I got well. Now I am the primary caregiver for my dad, who has late stage dementia and is in a nursing home. My other family members are either unable or unwilling to help, so a lot of pressure rides on my ability to make correct decisions with respect to his care. I also work full time and am pursing a master’s degree. Lately I have been feeling like I am literally the only person capable of helping my dad, like only I have the skills and intellect to help him and he would suffer without me. Many people have told me “I’m a hero” or similar so the feeling probably started there. I have also felt like organizations like the government and hospitals are preventing me from securing dad’s care. Again, this feeling started when I had some bad experiences, but I feel like it’s turned into a personal conspiracy theory for me at this point. I know my coworkers have noticed due to some of their comments. I have talked to my friends, coworkers and therapist about my concerns and their consensus was essentially “you’re going through a lot.” But what if it’s more? Sometimes the world feels like an illusion, or essentially meaningless, which are not feelings I felt as a teenager. Any guidance would be appreciated.",6.421544850498343,7.6084347009966775,7.175845514950165,70.42104401993356,65.77740863787375,10.671162790697675,36.3124584717608,10.686352973137794,4.280795215946846,1299,64,218,35,20,431,173,301,0.079,0.691,0.23,0.9942,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,1,0,2,4,13,19,0,1,17,0,27,0,0,1,1,43,49,25,1,3,11,3,8,6,1,2,0,0,2,2,12,12,0,2,11,0,0,4,2,5,1,2,12,9,37,14,30,33,8,33,0,1,0,0,20,12,0,9,21,163,49,2,0.10486039890245946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16771364623455634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07130866706996854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08755405306176538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11993236121540235,0.21382433052059466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10882853873883297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20514718251919928,0.09885305174872606,0.0,0.3181234103252321,0.2247368697840463,0.20136485450564656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08101488407457404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11918916241021743,0.0,0.08386644018203859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21085714506592448,0.0,0.2103670597869867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057628532900447824,0.08547522063651034,0.23657419471892002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30737696520241553,0.0,0.0925936533624372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17829712260704125,0.0,0.0,0.06999513052173363,0.10631198599668536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10567461866464316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11938425916049444,0.0,0.0,0.07105612010476035,0.15950211711172882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269699744342874,0.18312011133498465,0.0,0.0,0.0991269708390662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11305724551502301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184624034338944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10370961578798958,0.0,0.148441460113344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884196993698919,0.08428281659648265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175100524029475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222898837300286,0.0,0.0,0.10019860484497273,0.0,0.0,0.11405800258432347,0.0,0.0,0.12613414875927986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09428209184095758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108168258990986,0.0,0.07633961928231385,0.0,0.0,0.14897963757696905,0.0,0.0,0.06752665890995946 schizophrenia,xxxxx4839472984,2019/05/01,I can't comprehend anything I look at Is it odd? I feel like I am losing my vision but only in my brain part and not my actual sight... I can't remember what things look like while drawing anymore which I used to be able to do and I keep looking at pictures and not being able to comprehend them for a long time before I can. I feel like I have been gradually losing this for a while now. It's not seeing only too... I can't read anymore without reading and rereading things to understand them and when people talk to me I can't understand them at all for a long time until they repeat it a lot or it just clicks. I'm scared my brain is deteriorating.,2.5694747474747466,4.088259940740741,4.492659932659934,84.71151515151516,75.51851851851852,7.2794612794612785,24.124579124579125,8.00094639256281,1.269074074074075,512,16,107,8,11,175,76,135,0.085,0.8370000000000001,0.078,-0.2382,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,4,2,4,6,0,1,4,0,13,2,2,1,1,21,24,11,0,0,7,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,1,5,2,0,0,8,3,0,0,1,8,21,3,14,21,3,14,0,2,6,0,5,4,0,2,13,80,30,2,0.2645477333304924,0.0,0.1290802131306218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623602653673524,0.0,0.0,0.1088501218016393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11255531810150184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953227615851589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13376328274189628,0.18899295355044027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11757109030912599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19386698952467324,0.0,0.0,0.2341164191658061,0.33323020192263764,0.2959612449073403,0.0,0.11245451128055772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20120047217526324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432397076042535,0.0,0.09170204431265327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646193237042182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498405056824534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132429215894521,0.0,0.10540514617695262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063167235805076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17575375897233253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542599107415265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27540352017395303,0.0,0.11424215123424815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12750728726135785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Aldoistaken,2019/05/01,"I hear a voice that criticizes me and yesterday it got hellish. Help me please. I am here looking for guidance and help because I am scared of my own mind. I feel like Dr. Google is not the best thing for me, but at be same time I’m not really in a place to get a proper diagnosis as of yet, though I’m trying to get one ASAP. I have symptoms that I believe relate to schizophrenia and I feel like you guys are the next best thing to help me identify what’s going on. I’m 20 years old right now. And after years of taking acid and smoking, I think my childhood trauma (which I haven’t really thought about until now) is catching up with me. In brief, I’ll describe my experiences that lead me to think that, if not schizophrenia, there’s something definitely wrong: I’ve recently developed a voice in my head which is not my own. It’s becoming more and more critical of my life by the week. At first it was more of a neutral “You are doing this, and this is how you feel” type of thing. It started to alarm me when it would describe to me what I’m feeling without my actual thoughts displaying that outwardly. It was like some sort of “Truth filter” that I couldn’t really control. At first I thought it was me. But as time went on, it became way more menacing and a lot more honest than I would have liked. And when I tried to tell it to stop, that’s when I realized that it was something other than me. It tells me things like “I could shut your whole body down right now if I wanted to” and in my mind I try to beg it not to. And once I beg, it laughs at me. I would say ridicule, but it’s too true for me to deny anything it says. Usually right before this voice flairs up, I can feel a pressure in my head, almost like a small bubble it feels like going through my brain. I used to smoke weed a lot. But now it only makes things a lot scarier so I’ve stopped. I’ve also noticed that I seem to be receiving messages from random media like tv or music. I’ve had to condition myself to not make connections that I know aren’t there. It sucks because I’ve always had a knack for seeing patterns and connecting dots that others around me are like “woah I’ve never seen it like that” but now my mind picks up on phrases and keywords that I start to believe relate to my life and my situation and coincidences that are a little too real. Like God is telling me something. I haven’t been religious in my life, but the universe is definitely sending me messages. And I try so damn hard not to see reason behind them. My family has a history of mental illness. My grandmother has PPD and anxiety and my mother has Depression, anxiety, and bipolar disorder. I want soo sooooo bad to be a normal person. I really really don’t want this to be my formal diagnosis. But I can feel when I’m breaking from reality. It usually feels like I feel the effects of an acid trip out of nowhere and then I get startled and have to breath deep breaths to calm myself. And that’s when the voice starts criticizing my life. Please, someone tell me if I need to get this checked out. I mean I will, but coming from a black family, mental illness is seen as weakness. But it’s obviously torn my family apart in ways only the voice lets me see.",4.2361604524507745,5.005314978494628,5.261026043848627,83.69595465018853,70.49001536098311,8.560270911883817,28.005900013964528,8.776555601660561,1.9632546850998465,2525,86,523,43,44,832,278,651,0.129,0.753,0.11800000000000001,-0.8776,1,0,4,0,0,0,60.0,0,4,1,7,23,32,4,4,23,0,44,16,6,9,4,103,94,50,0,13,21,1,10,12,0,4,10,8,0,2,52,27,0,3,20,1,1,10,14,13,0,3,14,27,79,19,76,69,15,78,1,1,7,0,22,31,2,12,46,357,131,2,0.0,0.0,0.05835633058230241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059881222842141674,0.0,0.0,0.04782216691969062,0.0497585242070277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09149391853559463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04921043696567491,0.053234821407898175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04993063634380019,0.07290724585536824,0.06604457925123193,0.050885532279689435,0.1347486061980624,0.12551315859023773,0.0,0.0,0.06642449757467944,0.0,0.06675675646004021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05151254338906765,0.0,0.0,0.06707096515430237,0.04774556234866969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051505790798989086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06853616502393625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05849603193181292,0.16912280833618942,0.0,0.27213082246791903,0.17088498705769206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10173197231286277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497246325479368,0.0,0.06797161886073294,0.0,0.0478276513735389,0.0,0.0,0.059211560877096565,0.0,0.0,0.053569198053268686,0.0,0.1227444344835921,0.0,0.06739912727066519,0.0,0.12024836158471627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032864604420415465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0611497159173507,0.16895448805935884,0.3505840548388036,0.05993547110372643,0.0,0.0,0.05021707394643178,0.0,0.0,0.15251987450126092,0.0,0.0,0.07983414326809103,0.0,0.0,0.06513990603798134,0.0,0.0,0.12052899370841913,0.0,0.1811433456419453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04434106144611488,0.04612157050744645,0.0,0.0635981493399081,0.0,0.05859146072572749,0.0,0.06808287932840161,0.06275020920205919,0.06368521949683531,0.040522136541746544,0.09096143384651413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05221519373782239,0.06247844013321877,0.13128523763072075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06806567481654717,0.1915475711277293,0.06148452491914744,0.059045444362287584,0.0,0.0,0.1532070315277991,0.0,0.09511097600874144,0.059870393099486025,0.0,0.14295895721415425,0.054439820379232486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721788617373327,0.0,0.0,0.05066848211613719,0.13811125587297415,0.0,0.0,0.12698058463438747,0.0,0.0,0.09999122406568448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06215526405691545,0.044962278636895565,0.0,0.20907190505959572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986428479416304,0.07663505672480211,0.05875335428184913,0.1424239435981154,0.06973990922775618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624015349631297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05164813864316137,0.13172285705205813,0.0,0.1058150524777897,0.09493316821660466,0.04796808183659556,0.0,0.0,0.055435348096262715,0.0,0.06676474385298799,0.0,0.05764522095688419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12744095526747054,0.06538208815686745,0.0,0.07701868575213706 schizophrenia,dino_with_legs,2019/05/01,"Activities I can do with my schizophrenic friend Hey everybody out there, I have a beloved friend who suffered from a psychosis/schizophrenic episode last year. She was in a sever state hearing voices who wanted to punish her by commanding to do bad things. Furthermore she was being very paranoid, Luckily she got treatment in a clinic. She was there about 4-5 month and is now in a ""Day-Clinic"", where you have a program during the day but, after that she can go home. She reflected on her episode and can tell the situations she hallucinated and those which where real. But she still hears voices, luckily they ( voices) can't command her anymore. She is on medication but her doctors still did not find the right one. Because the biggest problem currently is her restlessness. She has to go on walks for hours and hours. If she doesn't stay in motion she will feel physical pain. But at the same time she can not do sports because her body is to weak. I spent one weekend with her doing a small bike tour that was nice. I want to find more activities to take some of the stress of her mind; something that is not too exhausting. My question is: Are there people with a similar experience ? Suffering from schizophrenia and knowing what them would have helped. Or people who have been on someones side, Do you have any suggestions what could be a good distraction ? Any game or Activity? &#x200B; I am looking forward to your answers!",5.668422053231938,7.570160433460082,5.511123574144489,78.97216064638785,68.23954372623575,8.75809885931559,31.781178707224328,9.255337874911486,2.933223726235741,1146,49,201,23,20,356,155,263,0.12300000000000001,0.79,0.087,-0.9037,1,0,1,0,0,0,37.0,0,3,2,0,10,15,1,3,15,0,36,8,1,0,0,35,48,12,0,6,10,0,1,0,2,2,7,5,1,0,11,9,0,0,7,4,1,5,5,11,0,2,8,7,33,4,28,35,3,36,0,2,1,0,39,17,0,5,14,152,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386132023365689,0.15545018713095074,0.17399495557964606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12687319173638995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10681705463903968,0.15597111982494816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14210251874120772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10214250639733316,0.0,0.0,0.16500984364219606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13094281572967553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251410816398162,0.0,0.0,0.06468576556300963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338532618314031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976783711580868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14541228907555112,0.10730246653582837,0.10231812017870666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28837510544518297,0.0,0.0857494633235301,0.0,0.12832523985879085,0.0,0.25197256194684503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07030754068292258,0.10428085272732207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074298331512201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12887703954763036,0.0,0.0,0.1291738570798106,0.0,0.10211331640097232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733787345815722,0.0,0.13612762078176838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17738251689001325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224127048063744,0.0,0.0,0.14331201625630455,0.0,0.0,0.1456135038187833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925238862106636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14452563391147158,0.0,0.0,0.1437998220311476,0.0,0.0,0.10839553466553534,0.09848754622492532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13635744124309554,0.20433174919133984,0.0,0.14654454654091353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09618820278563003,0.0,0.11181734673111143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08499168244576256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07459760419644522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10555648618145938,0.15091405557537185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09087852321318088,0.0,0.15545018713095074,0.08238337989091718 schizophrenia,SecondEnglish,2019/05/01,"Please help me finding excuses to hide my schizophrenia and voices Hello, &#x200B; I hear voices everyday. So I need to wear hearphones each minute of my life, except when I am sleeping. But I don't know what to say when people ask me ""why do you wear hearphones?"" I know, lying is bad but I don't want people to know about my illness. Do you have any idea? &#x200B; Thanks for reading",3.2067428571428596,5.505906626666667,3.535238095238096,88.80000000000004,76.06666666666666,5.352380952380952,25.380952380952376,6.1826913282559595,0.8494952380952379,307,11,57,2,7,95,50,75,0.14300000000000002,0.762,0.095,-0.4005,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,7,5,3,0,0,12,15,6,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,13,1,8,15,1,3,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,3,36,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3721341476284948,0.4173363136521725,0.11678083940566895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605423755251976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14338559715173133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569561607314759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19354978864413847,0.0,0.1151055704132022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938598607918917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28313143643092115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12129647214512368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12733403856532746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23810896297880055,0.0,0.0,0.18850563074413174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717743405385263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13656489371370428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718518883513263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15810394898341354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012895461796212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549576907946628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4173363136521725,0.0 schizophrenia,OverallMango,2019/09/14,"Schizoaffective Disorder Is anyone else here diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder? I have the depressive type. Plus, what's the difference between Schizophrenia and Schizoaffective?",13.577499999999993,19.209805083333336,8.67166666666667,47.14000000000002,60.66666666666667,16.533333333333335,49.66666666666666,12.45797560212912,10.545516666666668,158,10,13,8,3,43,20,24,0.306,0.6940000000000001,0.0,-0.8105,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,11,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21729832750218392,0.3184216418511815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676666297313249,0.3154260502000712,0.0,0.3246895784319702,0.7123410405739068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259609315358214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ragestepper,2019/09/14,AITA: going off my MEDS! I never thought I needed meds. I've been on them for five miserable years. I've been out of the hospital for five years also. I feel that I have recovered or been healed by the medication. I was taking twenty mg abilify daily everyday for five years. I never hallucinated. My disease was delusional based schizophrenia and honestly I never thought I was delusional. My problem was I talked about how I thought instead of putting my thoughts into proper words and engaging into fruitful conversations to pass time. Anyways this is day two. Has anyone else done this? I hate the medication. I always have!,3.923587474472431,7.020525769911507,5.0300884955752245,74.4813342409803,78.91150442477877,8.078692988427504,29.93124574540504,8.841846274778883,3.2730441116405715,504,24,79,13,13,165,71,113,0.098,0.853,0.049,-0.755,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,0,5,5,1,1,3,0,12,4,0,1,3,18,21,5,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,5,0,0,3,3,3,0,4,12,2,17,2,13,9,0,17,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,1,9,62,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12687052097889887,0.13200760851945928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110930171605548,0.1625533329202311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231465206993463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16235169453734008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325298092908519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08021705192094694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901631529069169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15663177437923895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524436952935843,0.31964176609272543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11763527102134826,0.3670766961566996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15180443814445307,0.0,0.15948477313627854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11928333830294488,0.12751502446270838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5037942607802712,0.09250875887331897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15497576588704765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064917824476618 schizophrenia,effervescenzz,2019/09/14,"You can have schizophrenia/schizoaffective and still feel empowered I mean not as empowered as you would be without meds since they cut down on positive emotions, but you get the idea. I've been listening to some great music and just felt empowered, despite dealing with sadness and delusions. Maybe we can't beat this disease, but through medication, socializing, therapy and good times we can lessen the effect these demons (metaphorical demons) have on us. I want to see people with this disease thrive and flourish. It's hard but not impossible. I want to say a big fuck you to everyone who has ever hurt me (real hurt me or me imagining things) and you will not see me fall just because I have schizoaffective! I want to spread some positivity. An hour ago I felt done with this disease, but after reading all these posts and some good music I realized we might have to work harder for happiness, but it's not impossible. I hope everyone has a good day!",7.990171428571429,8.312640388571428,7.417857142857143,73.04964285714287,62.257142857142846,11.342857142857143,36.35714285714286,11.00357731598739,4.075057142857143,768,33,135,19,10,240,105,175,0.10099999999999999,0.715,0.184,0.9492,3,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,4,5,1,3,4,11,2,0,5,0,15,2,0,1,2,46,28,15,0,5,13,0,4,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,9,13,0,0,8,1,0,1,6,5,0,0,4,8,22,6,18,20,4,13,2,3,2,1,15,4,1,6,7,94,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11929347723409585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203626200190642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08679036722386571,0.13874191548505724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13771794071763407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15137985241164886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12173166915660046,0.0,0.25718621222983723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06804565380407235,0.0,0.2584280703640849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12441331540139758,0.07031038971717646,0.0,0.0,0.3386278152543977,0.0,0.14837048162002908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14325862210889076,0.12055363538071125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366430308594188,0.13253022182800656,0.0,0.2881327177262699,0.1519198890771859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13519964974040036,0.1465926832324014,0.1494835642863656,0.1355711312995053,0.0,0.14276383692103775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329803265167752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288865786785894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346123878059194,0.15317691587648094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10702021253948713,0.0,0.0,0.21447924838280266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132263275367098,0.0,0.0,0.13718325349374566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10747254319121294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15389934969230046,0.0,0.08940629440794909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847233012678834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16187832157156834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381291809056662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12972643237567966,0.0,0.0979729086880156,0.0,0.0,0.09559890765713837,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jajaja0027,2019/09/14,"Falling in and out of psychosis Hi,for the last 3 years i have been falling in and out of psychosis...It was all antidepressant and psychedelic induced,but i was always able to fall out of it on my own without medication and would just et extremely depressed.Basically,i would be depressed and then go on antidepressants for some time and maybe do some drugs and i woud become euphoric,thinking about God,how i have discovered God and etc.During this time i would live normally,woudnt talk to people about my delusion,i would just seem to them happy and euphoric but no loss of touch with reality...This has happened 3 times.Now i see i have a huge problem and i am depressed about it.I strated antidepressants again and i am afraid that it doesnt repeat all over again.Should i reach to a psychiatrist and ask for antipsychotic treatment or it can pass on its own?I woulf see a doctor immediately but i leave in a 3 world country where treatment is generally poor.I appreciate any advice",5.373116883116887,7.107105245989307,5.8994996180290284,76.55664438502673,68.73262032085562,8.551413292589762,31.538961038961038,9.04235418022936,2.7505602750190987,799,34,144,15,14,258,112,187,0.114,0.804,0.08199999999999999,-0.6858,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,1,7,6,0,1,5,0,18,3,0,0,2,33,24,16,0,5,6,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,6,16,0,0,1,0,0,5,3,5,0,0,3,3,14,1,25,16,5,25,0,3,2,0,3,13,0,4,7,94,20,1,0.1684678121056267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462479621643253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401787153469288,0.0,0.0,0.11456388923926154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574946628357926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18605946262687886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.290202159416546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17243394428253686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953691770520332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18788614295273268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09574413996188114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14897552987151216,0.1793371186326766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373237519654416,0.0,0.17838308818808454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14876016456266533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16924856087308238,0.0,0.0,0.16971359698367974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11679436883827768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16120094411008815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26849406929404546,0.15336676893243853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13540804592319935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10794737156517732,0.0,0.0,0.19646987204209634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16239695908192964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4786988005686961,0.0,0.0,0.1084877475618393 schizophrenia,elpirato2,2019/09/14,"Stop to take quetiapine after 2 days Hello guys So a few days ago I went to a psychiatrist for the first time. I talked to her and she makes some tests with me to get a picture of my personality etc. But she already said what she thought I have: schizotypical personality disorder. I went there because of depression of anxiety and hearing that shocked me. I said to her that my view on the world is not the best and that I'm afraid sometimes when im outside alone at night. She listened and also told me that my facial expressions (I know that I am not the most emotional guy but talking about deep topics just made me look like that even more because it was a serious topic for me. Normally I show also less emotions but there are some depending on how depressed I am) are non existent and asked then about my friends, sexual interests etc. I am sexually interested and I want to have friends but I also have a glass eye which makes it hard for me to get accepted from other people. That's why I don't seek friends and a girlfriend. Because it could hurt me and I went through this already, not because I am not interested. So she then prescribed me quetiapine (we didn't even do tests and she talked the first time to me). I already knew what kind of meds this is and it shocked me that she prescribed it to me without our psychotherapy (that starts in 2 weeks) and without having done the 'surveys' (I hope you know what I mean, these tests where you have to fill the box out if something applies to you). So I didn't wanted to take these pills but after some days I tried them and yesterday was the second day I took them. I am very afraid about taking them as my main problems are depression and anxiety and I honestly don't feel good taking them because I think I don't even need them. So my questions are: can I stop taking them after day 2 and would you recommend me to do so?",4.57044957723242,5.640452195710459,5.2848927613941035,82.72459218395547,69.93833780160858,8.633903897710871,30.16384821612704,8.950670267944501,2.328341802433492,1491,59,302,27,26,483,173,373,0.11699999999999999,0.779,0.10400000000000001,0.2678,0,1,1,0,0,0,28.0,2,4,6,3,20,23,0,2,14,0,29,3,2,5,0,59,63,34,0,9,13,0,2,1,4,1,1,4,0,4,23,18,0,2,9,1,0,5,11,10,0,3,15,9,65,13,37,46,11,35,0,4,3,0,41,8,0,8,23,226,88,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07209411746407847,0.0,0.0,0.08423332836184352,0.2692489561405805,0.1951186597334095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244344196308428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603254978000111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478899955893379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08535079322859095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06493536877528731,0.0,0.0,0.2622555346051861,0.0,0.21014817011711315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932111997712652,0.0,0.0,0.0832288036631256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829705548786033,0.0,0.0,0.18140884598636067,0.16115304835438632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04112288007703988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13835847382279542,0.0,0.0,0.18850601550908724,0.0,0.08498311245078652,0.0,0.0,0.06821572605529737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16105892787423706,0.0,0.0,0.07285568458033517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916647949916776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08077901818992206,0.0,0.0,0.08706542251358204,0.0,0.0878503314828684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08469265567915824,0.0893936568223529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03973371863938185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06829669722422436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769563907391562,0.10857678240576957,0.0,0.0,0.08859218768174668,0.0903392699456846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06030514743683544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07632267399573618,0.07968610949691506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056383965671134025,0.1420283977923674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07782180416115034,0.0,0.0,0.09110818750944684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547268650592927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0626117897382598,0.0804374268814465,0.0,0.05756577634253007,0.0,0.0,0.1359910050190982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057501054174289,0.1961098644276453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05211296531811338,0.0,0.06456691711253891,0.09484832728513433,0.0,0.0,0.07771427836852354,0.09036059699450998,0.05521771576116628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06710574861119273,0.09594105527468076,0.0,0.06523800182215846,0.0,0.0,0.22618111054152476,0.0733876541978166,0.0,0.0,0.1567983911733104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05777448220866727,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tiptopcafethicc,2019/09/14,"Hey does anyone know anything about predisalone and it’s psychotic effects I started taking it I started taking predisalone for my Bell’s palsy which has made me super self Conciuouse about my face which means I haven’t gone out to see my mates for like a month and I don’t rlly care haha everything’s Borninh now and I just watch breaking and smoke weed and play forbriye sometimes but that shits so ffixkomh borninh and now I read that fucken predisalone the steroid for my face can can psychosis cunt everything is going wrong and I think I’m starting to see acid visuals in my keyboard hopefully I don’t go insane , sometimes if good to just let a heap of shit out, I have to skits family members on my mums side but I love weed, yano how I randomly started talking about weed it’s bc started thinking about schizophrenia and how my family members are seseptible to it from marajuana but no one else know that’s that only me in my my thoughts before I said it do normal people notice this?",4.342187499999998,6.4167138437499975,5.007708333333337,80.53312500000001,72.02083333333334,7.716666666666668,30.22916666666667,8.472884824447931,2.471191666666667,806,35,143,14,16,259,113,192,0.11800000000000001,0.767,0.115,-0.5647,0,3,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,11,12,3,0,3,1,11,5,4,4,0,29,35,15,0,3,6,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,12,10,0,0,7,2,0,3,4,4,0,1,4,5,23,8,19,30,0,18,0,0,3,1,7,6,3,3,9,89,35,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09300475144718984,0.0,0.10945715234136758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11318301161590093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356141152130022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11639928249610115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11111406206300947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23908436534768585,0.0,0.25078285743010725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15118703062356725,0.1115637570749458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13211045726886686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14619931195463068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13601329684321792,0.0,0.06498271278934814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004809506833487,0.12585872170924595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14488854516116176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10616853081630992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13032305417309256,0.0,0.15143450361324373,0.0,0.0,0.09013205218521916,0.10116125902998854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09221344421310296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13304752051607746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12652442028140193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21198592985829925,0.0,0.13876003004951612,0.0,0.27306883942496696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631036000426337,0.0,0.470731212514153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000162276878981,0.10690962597720703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704568298076068,0.0,0.10559629388071387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14542722286279974,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LesHeart,2019/09/14,Relationships Do you think it's a good idea to date someone who also has schizophrenia?,3.765000000000001,6.960115500000002,3.7550000000000026,82.39000000000001,81.5,5.7,26.75,7.1686216300943375,1.6513499999999994,72,3,12,1,2,22,16,16,0.0,0.818,0.182,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3613209922123212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789659152506508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5100507744674888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4850865328078527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828263629885171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895085743453817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,babyimogen,2019/09/14,"Unable to Drive i've been rapidly declining in the past 2 years following my diagnosis. i know i need to speak to someone and very soon, but the point of this post is to eventually ask a question. a few months ago, i dropped my boyfriend off for work in the morning. when i was driving myself home (a route that i had driven hundreds of times before) i suddenly ended up in an area that i didn't recognize. it felt almost like i had slept and driven to an area that i'd never been before. the sun was still down, and i was about to drive straight into a wall of trees, which was a dead end, assuming for a second that it was a hallucination and just part of the road. being aware my declining state of mind the past couple years, i decided to pull over anyway. i checked my phone and opened maps to figure out where i was, and it was about 5-10 minutes from where i thought i was. i started to panic and cry in the car, i called my boyfriend and he stayed on the phone (our car has bluetooth phone) while i drove home. i haven't driven since. which brings me to my question: has anyone else experienced something like this? i have become entirely housebound and have not been in public more than two or three times in over 2 years. i stay inside the car, that's the furthest i'm willing. i am 21, and female for reference. i'm afraid of reaching a point of no return for my mental health. i know what needs to be done, i'm in the progress of figuring out how exactly to help myself. tldr; mental blackout(?) while driving, steady decline of mentality over two years, afraid of reaching a state of unawareness & no return to manageable level of sanity. anyone experienced something similar?",4.726640316205536,5.834633545454548,5.345652173913045,82.29195652173915,69.60606060606061,8.284584980237154,28.590250329380765,8.587818076936951,2.036108036890646,1330,47,259,21,23,429,174,330,0.065,0.873,0.062,-0.6211,0,0,2,0,0,0,43.0,1,0,0,5,10,5,0,3,22,0,25,2,1,1,2,36,43,16,1,2,4,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,2,0,13,14,0,0,11,0,1,14,6,3,0,4,22,4,33,2,50,18,3,71,0,0,0,0,12,29,0,5,24,176,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09885456777452803,0.0,0.11166983405041556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208304268172273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15595288685958178,0.11426405084677994,0.0,0.0,0.10425489775975534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231636037954166,0.18978834016866414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138730253877648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339328158281675,0.12249801686951252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11412231263679427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09315953475377332,0.0,0.1975448731997985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10707540675721568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11853912593110065,0.0,0.0,0.07474861036376798,0.0,0.22372462712334412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257548351793444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10896477328064637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371537542201943,0.0,0.11260206114192993,0.0,0.08901313436575119,0.0,0.0,0.16537935393738304,0.08601006927143907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308431252107657,0.0,0.1207638466622277,0.21291436847653755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21084236867970496,0.0,0.1068040543592108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498528538463507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922493919997944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09448940287026916,0.17170503308398924,0.0,0.0,0.0789334849931601,0.2377281174862736,0.08905894983636294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08853336316758527,0.13005486061440025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21787506260515874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201457771434532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118691622142561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872574556266241 schizophrenia,Camden_1507,2019/03/25,School presentation.... I have a English presentation next week and I am not very good at public speaking. What’s a good way to do good on this presentation and not let the voices distract me?,4.456666666666667,6.559626888888893,5.478888888888887,77.155,71.77777777777777,8.133333333333335,28.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.362233333333334,152,6,28,3,3,50,28,36,0.272,0.728,0.0,-0.843,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,3,3,3,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,19,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7424308830176642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017122965528962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31379285097239845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29860999541918665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24345012056107,0.0,0.2341998141118685,0.23667420060818384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WhyDoyYouAsk,2019/03/25,"When our 5 senses open up is it real? i know my visions are not real, they can be futuristic but i dont count on them. But i have the one when someone is telling the truth it feels good running through my body. if it feels like my own is this the spiritual realm relaying the message to me or is it the illness messing with my head sending that message?",5.567191780821919,4.889190616438358,6.39873287671233,81.69207191780822,67.49315068493149,8.943835616438355,36.05821917808219,8.07648339933343,2.638454794520547,277,13,59,3,4,92,53,73,0.045,0.8029999999999999,0.151,0.8079,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,2,0,2,4,0,0,5,0,9,3,2,0,1,13,12,6,0,1,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,2,11,3,5,11,1,7,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,2,3,45,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016327516540766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182566015392473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746094246950612,0.19399660797069893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277647048566052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27869041449568005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14923772742439878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13266645716587536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840104779753497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6181706309490529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300848970011888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373481784554924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,crzyskater32441,2019/03/25,"Afraid I have psychosis or schizophrenia 14F? On my ig I suddenly started hearing an audio track. It said ""so the average male walks (idk). So whyd it take 15 years for my dad to get back from the gas station."" Then it started playing random noises and saying look at you. I was off my feed looking up someone on ig and it still played on repeat. No one I know posted it. I have ocd and have a fear I'm hallucinating and stuff. I'm fourteen btw...once I heard a witch cackle in my house and once I heard my name whispered in the night at 2 am....although that could a been imagined...help",0.6359642857142873,2.9437841916666727,2.3061904761904763,93.79500000000004,86.25,4.428571428571429,21.904761904761905,5.773587663045528,0.12797619047619113,453,16,97,3,14,148,84,120,0.07200000000000001,0.89,0.038,-0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,2,7,0,6,1,0,0,0,10,19,9,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,1,7,5,1,0,1,2,0,1,1,3,0,1,5,9,13,2,12,13,0,20,0,0,2,0,9,9,0,2,9,58,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16060478458232674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16676221791433204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23503191300033205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10912367624028743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354067560680774,0.0,0.13999823573125966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24100290561563634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11478709338478127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507890667333741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960062541067037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4448701797288277,0.14153276308656434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20003554723584216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986790533022968,0.16609834010737615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17697117889899838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956723499041443,0.0,0.16680036983286964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23910118702754404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570409675608273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345026241714294 schizophrenia,WhyAskWhyAgain,2019/03/25,Is there a way to control clairvoyant type of visions? I don't know if I have schizophrenia but I do have psychosis. I was wondering if there was any tips or tricks about that or somewhere where I can learn it. I see odd things lately and dont know if it good to imagine cutting heads off with a knife a burning the sheet that they tried to cover me up with as a protection shield. ,3.306153846153848,4.688828333333333,3.7005128205128233,91.68615384615387,73.35897435897436,6.7384615384615385,27.102564102564106,7.1686216300943375,1.146933333333334,302,11,65,3,6,94,56,78,0.08900000000000001,0.838,0.073,-0.0387,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,4,3,2,0,5,0,9,1,1,1,0,15,13,8,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,5,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,8,1,10,11,0,5,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,6,1,47,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20813814988166654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432836202080497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35871185408183537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567170615734719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31411620313633115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364162229122776,0.0,0.34526038153417177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438982266059057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20333936096777874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20780149324387331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429441829876913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3319199455113325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,inadequate_thought,2019/03/25,"Only symptom is ideas of reference? Been more or less the same for about 5 years now. My immediate response to various stimuli, primarily people I encounter, is to think it's related to something I did, or how I am perceived. It's gotten better since I self diagnosed myself as psychotic. I'm not sure if this is schizophrenia or just some type of psychosis that I haven't discovered a diagnosis for. Anyone else have this? I function fairly well, it can cause some shifts in moods, but that's about it. I'm trying to limit that so as to have so many episodes of anger. Thanks.",4.213153153153153,6.114205810810816,5.165945945945946,79.99234234234235,71.97297297297297,8.176576576576577,29.45045045045045,8.841846274778883,2.501547747747748,459,19,84,9,9,150,78,111,0.061,0.866,0.073,-0.1383,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,8,6,1,0,2,0,10,2,0,2,1,18,15,10,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,9,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,0,8,4,15,12,6,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,6,2,62,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17623421740729028,0.2582476795944205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22291141422545965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589174300580692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25581818206273826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105494554408729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845256930753481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25553188498932605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916899409941371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17473477346536204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629356556807125,0.0,0.0,0.2084924457989698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19403489566496945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375473984667568,0.26196902128102784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320471885139037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16149887793597734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711205471264272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266167866491347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16230732853425575 schizophrenia,several_pancakes,2019/03/25,"How do you deal with dissociation? I usually take long breathes in and out to help, but today I was so bad that I had to go home from work early and can't really tell if I'm actually typing right now. Do you have any methods to help?",4.047733333333333,3.82661684,6.25,79.93833333333335,70.6,9.866666666666667,26.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,2.0098666666666682,182,5,42,4,3,65,41,50,0.122,0.778,0.1,-0.4934,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,1,1,0,7,9,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,5,0,7,7,0,9,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,5,26,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.27944799597615183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19473597432981093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391003019699884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952266396371329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16274611926719615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838848139691566,0.0,0.2872444265037257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534213516319212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18345082479184027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24455157651100665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153085797929223,0.0,0.2502930029220285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714376849853091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.315387277268372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084749407294561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,proudchristianmommy,2019/03/25,"Need help , partner has paranoid schizophrenia but refuses help Pretty much that. It's been years and it's still as exhausting as ever if not more because they've gotten more vicious . In the years I've been by my partner my mantra's been ""forgive and forget"". Had to be , when you've got the person you love most tell you ""fuck you you fat bitch I'll go fuck someone else"" as a response to putting too much milk in the coffee you made to wake them up with , or when you get to the point you're used to getting hit in the head by things for no reason because when something bad happens to them you're the first place they direct their anger and frustration . I don't know anymore though I really need help . They use their mental health to justify all these things but I really don't feel that it explains them..I feel horrible even typing this out but I'm at my end, I don't think I can keep it up much longer. Theyve been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia years and years ago . Been told they tried treatment and apparently it didn't work but I'm not so sure as maybe the continued use of drugs had something to do with it not working ? The drugs they use to this day..they can't help . Either way me and their family have been trying to help them get help , printed out countless forms , offered to fill them out , I put my life on hold for them and nothing. Other than getting called the most horrible things I can think of and my depression and self esteem being worse than ever . I'm in counselling now because I attempted suicide . I don't blame them for my mental condition even thought they never hesitate to blame me for theirs .constantly . I'm nothing of what I used to be and I think I need to get away for my own same but I'm scared . They've threatened to hurt themselves really bad before and even attempted it , I had to physically restrain them. How can I best handle this situation? Is me leaving justifies ? Am I horrible for thinking it's not the schizophrenia that hurts me , it's actually him? Because I feel like I've excused his actions for way too long..",3.2613725490196077,5.33854003921569,3.8113725490196093,87.92284313725494,75.07843137254902,6.886274509803924,26.03921568627451,7.793537801064563,1.4527274509803925,1648,60,326,24,36,518,192,408,0.20800000000000002,0.69,0.10300000000000001,-0.9955,1,0,4,0,0,1,38.0,0,6,16,6,15,18,6,1,11,0,26,13,3,8,5,64,65,28,1,4,12,0,3,1,2,0,7,0,0,4,21,17,2,4,12,0,0,5,12,13,0,1,15,3,51,5,49,46,13,39,0,3,0,3,43,14,3,4,19,211,72,3,0.0,0.0,0.07598377067213141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06902150058772867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772198997571349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315553954169311,0.0,0.13002592807339658,0.1898600338346509,0.0,0.06625630118768706,0.0,0.08171318315846728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07950757628777237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841430329364046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05021566577857358,0.0,0.06706391846961042,0.07903004918858295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18059441856166164,0.0,0.06504515701718465,0.0,0.06896415557023955,0.0,0.0,0.1542847823506361,0.1408644071586513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0734029970459967,0.0,0.1181107276673749,0.05562586585867168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06623085085295304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14396753152308125,0.20340293189980413,0.0,0.04425175339326212,0.0,0.062274739646768384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06885464125668027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799106529490236,0.08276550628174928,0.0,0.0,0.313142510475926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667094715234229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06920886282300212,0.0,0.0,0.04279187091774544,0.0,0.0,0.08244644978972512,0.0,0.0,0.0549974567738799,0.038040286515570496,0.0,0.0,0.0689069527894012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07027505833515255,0.0736765460965483,0.0,0.0,0.07822458461585206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15693665667286985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171640690129145,0.17320491250878528,0.06005331043791073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14942470213062795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06798760763376073,0.0813510277233693,0.0,0.07360639473401333,0.0,0.0,0.07921540818874588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565491139843566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14964450203235094,0.08005688491247018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795517939404717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08122885415854789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08752209738217008,0.0,0.0,0.06597368763595864,0.11988661028748422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06218207713469893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08517028525783113,0.0,0.07338564614161637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06805633394661935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551876115552062,0.19956774243749587,0.07650072157423124,0.06181510592249674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07440213291688598,0.0,0.10572872614083506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3362463235046663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360921276186185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11337144882316515,0.0,0.07934979522091057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20056676275783905 schizophrenia,angelbabydarling7,2019/03/25,"(Delete if not allowed or offensive) Those who have Schizophrenia here, do you have a “thing” or liking to electricity? If this isn’t something that’s allowed to be posted here, I’ll delete ASAP but I’ve tried asking other places with not much feedback. My ex had schizophrenia and had a fetish for electricity. A friend of mine has a family member with schizophrenia who doesn’t have a sexual thing for electricity, but always had a “thing” for it growing up and into adulthood. My great grandmother also has schizophrenia and LOVED her electroshock therapy sessions in the 60s. I’m just curious as to if this might be a trend? If you don’t mind opening up and sharing, I’d love to hear everyone’s thoughts. Also while I don’t personally have schizophrenia, I have family members and my long term ex also suffered from sometimes sever episodes so I’m no stranger to it. 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To preface, I lurk in this sub frequently. I don't know if I necessarily belong here. I apologize if I don't. They haven't actually pinned down an official diagnosis or anything. I mostly experience auditory and visual hallucinations, paranoia, delusions. I don't know if there is a word for tripping over, mixing up, and not being able to think of words. About 60% of the time I can handle it. Not all the symptoms are constant. But onto the point. I'm 24. I have never had a driver's license or even a permit. I've probably driven/attempted to drive about 10 times. The couple times I managed to do so with out panicking were at night with no one else on the road. I've been in 6 car accidents ranging from minor to one that was pretty bad. I wasn't driving in any of them, of course. I have days where I can hardly keep my eyes open while riding in the car. I'm constantly afraid and jumpy. The fear of crashing due to another driver, my hallucinations, just anything that could happen is too much. I know I need to learn to drive. I'm so sick of hearing that everyone is nervous at first. I'm not nervous. I am terrfied. I won't get used to it. It feels like it's only getting worse. I know everyone that drives me places(just to and from work, usually) is getting tired of having to do so. I really do feel awful about it. I just can't bring myself to do it.",1.8217067669172948,3.9659062070175466,3.9887656641604035,84.59427631578949,79.91228070175438,6.878446115288218,23.862781954887208,7.957251820313856,1.400962406015037,1099,39,223,20,28,377,162,285,0.14,0.833,0.026000000000000002,-0.9813,0,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,2,2,14,6,0,4,11,1,30,4,1,2,3,39,51,14,0,5,11,0,3,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,11,8,0,1,9,0,0,10,13,5,0,3,5,6,27,1,40,42,3,40,0,0,1,0,4,16,0,6,15,152,38,3,0.2643517772101389,0.0,0.12898460067739434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898841367557975,0.13859794383044588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175389884127712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103613459946776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28567035847478955,0.0,0.1055316918012054,0.14625010671592872,0.0,0.08524251351182813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11041599448995383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730092784315395,0.11956065845571748,0.0,0.25259945167082243,0.0,0.12929338162028273,0.0,0.14873462176510846,0.13366420143962293,0.09442648122945292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11242874332538806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071693393125857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11688270177588732,0.0,0.11840363419979275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489718327088933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11748400290742098,0.0,0.0,0.2905616467169291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06457446271041836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09716448647738912,0.09800674660605574,0.10194219367729404,0.0,0.0,0.12403811761560705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17913160571535755,0.10052571935780673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249489377545661,0.0,0.0,0.13447039680105904,0.14250796340275196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08467525879746694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13738135750452002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16938594477932767,0.0,0.0,0.2312184707278665,0.15191674009283454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11415752964836318,0.14557306762959668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09622562111172613,0.0,0.13469852259064086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kohays,2019/03/25,"Really think I'm schizophrenic or have some sort of thought disorder. Been diagnosed with ocd and anxiety since I was 10 (im 22 now). The last year I started having more intense symptoms where I thought I was going crazy... I started doing research on schizophrenia and it's sparked a new obsession of mine. Soon enough after that I started to hear different voices in my head and had got dissociation. Last summer around July I got prescribed geodon, I took it for a little while and got seizures on it. Taken off immediately. I then went through weeks of laying on my couch convinced I was psychotic. The world had never seemed this weird to me before. I'm talking about what I thought were delusions which started happening more and more. Then I told my psychiatrist and was put on Lexapro. At first it was making me feel super manic and was getting me feeling weird. Eventually got prescribed klonopin, taking it would knock me out and actually calm me down a bit. I took that for a couple months and then started to enjoy life again having less and less problems... Until: a woman I worked with had a mental breakdown I started getting really worried again after that and developed another fear of schizophrenia. It felt like I was losing my mind again. Soon it moved into Panic attacks, derealization, now I'm having thinking problems and even dissociation at times. I struggle to think coherently and constantly have flight of ideas, (where my thoughts just race from random memory to another after seeing an external stimuli). My behavior has been incredibly disorganized lately, I've been unable to really remember basic things throughout the day that I need and often jump from task to task without being able to complete them. I was smoking alot of cbd weed the last couple weeks since I got freaked out from the woman who had a breakdown. It helped me relax but when it wore off I'd start feeling nervous again. I don't know if maybe it messes with the ssri I'm taking? I've been having a hard time reading and understanding words. I've also read that a big thing in psychosis is seeing faces in objects. If I stare at the ground my mind scans and does that too where I see faces sometimes in like patterns, apparently my mom has this too and she's an artist, she told me it's a trait from that. My mood has been all over the place ranging from extreme happiness and confidence and other times feeling worthless. I haven't ever seen a real hallucination or heard voices externally though. So I know that's the biggest thing to schizophrenia or psychosis and is the most common symptom. That's why I have no idea what the hell is going on. My psychiatrist has told me he doesn't think I'm schizophrenic and my therapist who had worked at a psychiatric hospital for 15 years also said ""there's no way you're schizophrenic"". The thing is I just don't know how to explain these symptoms. Something just isn't right in my head. The disorganized thinking and quasi mania is really what's not making sense to me. I've been feeling fucking awful and I really want my mind to feel better but I haven't reacted well to antipsychotics. I did take abilify at one point and it did help for about 3 weeks but the side effects were awful. It did, however clear my mind entirely and I could think clearly. Do they prescribe abilify for add too? Or ocd?? I have a history of taking stimulants quite alot too. I was said to have had add, but I was wondering if the hard time focusing just came from psychotic thinking. Was on 40mg of Vyvanse for 3 years daily, then 2.5mg of dexedrine daily for 2 years. Came off of it in 2017. Haven't taken those meds ever since. I'm currently 20mg of Lexapro at the moment. It helped for a little bit. I was bumped up from 15 to 20mg. Which caused me to get more side effects and bring out more of the starting effects I had. 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schizophrenia,IgolabI,2019/03/25,Can I be affected by schizophrenia Ok so let me start with that I'm still a teenager 19yr old.i was thinking about going for a first lsd trip but I've read on safety guide that you shouldn't take it when there is someone with schizophrenia in your family.I've asked my parents about that and only person in my family with schizophrenia is my uncle.I just want to know what's the chance that I can be also affected by schizophrenia.I dont really feel that anything is wrong with me I dont see any hallucination and I can consider myself as a typical teenager but it might be because I'm still young.I just wanted to know if there is any way I can be 100% that im not 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schizophrenia,FoIds,2019/03/25,"Antipsychotic question? Hey all, I dont suffer from psychosis or schizophrenia, however I have dissociation or depersonalization, my psychiatrist recommended this as an off label treatment. My main concern is the development of side effects such as Parkinsonism and Tardive dyskenisia. I just received a prescription for 0.5 mg Risperidone to be taken at night. I think I’m being excessively worried about these side effects but I’d still like to know the incidence/occurrence of said side effects. Thanks and stay strong.",8.57931092436975,11.646074494117649,7.886890756302524,60.14529411764707,62.88235294117648,10.504201680672267,41.554621848739494,10.608840637214634,5.508932773109244,432,25,57,12,7,135,69,85,0.019,0.809,0.172,0.9228,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,4,4,4,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,3,1,13,11,7,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,6,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,6,3,11,7,2,9,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,3,3,38,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3902728866798885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830077943451046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16268671554118555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124974348960191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3730356053342449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167587422528767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3549331170177378,0.2659337986435013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30658116257356915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21337260782615428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33817711547090384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,karadzic95,2018/12/09,"Advice; diagnosed sister on downhill spiral My younger sister ""Lauren"", was diagnosed in late 2014 after my other sister ""May"" and I sought medical attention for Lauren after several months of her living between our homes and noticing that she was experiencing visual and auditory hallucinations. There was a near successful suicide attempt within a year, several arrests and 3 year prison sentence for a horrific assault that was committed but isn't remembered. Lauren came home a few months, initially on medication. I began reminding her take them as her physician directed when she left for several days and left her Rxs at home. She hasn't been home for over a month now, still not taking her medication, and has taken to being physically abusive to her boyfriend (I've seen the bruises, gotten the 3am phone calls asking for my help), or whatever he is, that she staying with. She says that she doesn't actually have schizophrenia, and claims to ""go along with it"" for various reasons that are all absurd. I know with absolute certainty, that she has been using methamphetamines steadily since she was released as well. I'm not sure what to do help her. I see my sister slipping away and this other...thing, taking her place. 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I have not went one day in the past year, maybe longer with out dreaming very vivid dreams. They usually play out and then I wake up but every single dream is amazing and I love it! I have yet to have any nightmares which is surprising cause I am schizophrenic. But it could be my medication (risperidone 4mg) but my therapist doesnt know. Any one else have weird dreams on medication and such?",4.8117857142857146,7.002948988095242,4.401904761904763,84.87642857142858,71.02380952380952,8.133333333333335,27.47619047619048,8.841846274778883,2.065090476190477,361,13,69,7,7,109,61,84,0.021,0.71,0.26899999999999996,0.9742,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,10,7,2,1,0,14,13,9,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,1,6,0,1,2,1,0,2,1,2,8,4,7,10,1,13,0,0,2,1,2,5,0,1,7,44,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589913118932701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19561912031155704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15203901540583886,0.0,0.0,0.12280849102154948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31815161494676913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604414315673017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10465270177976167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17186616440867591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19130769349590795,0.0,0.0,0.5755000212649762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580740675733089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18178238640634206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19056270806906533,0.0,0.0,0.1465986109595372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210983171272048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20972643851577732,0.1571207207927701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765260545406595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262757598385365 schizophrenia,mellencamper,2018/12/09,"I’m starting to think that the person I’ve been dating is schizophrenic. What do I do? Hi everyone, I hope this is the right place to post. I started dating someone recently and I think he’s schizophrenic. I can only decipher the symptoms from what I’ve read online, but they’re almost all there. What I don’t know is if he’s been diagnosed or not. I would never say anything to him because it’s not my place. However, I’m concerned for him as over the course of us dating I’ve noticed him slowly get worse. It started with difficulty remembering things, then withdrawal, then trouble concentrating and staring off into space and not hearing the conversation (which he says is ADHD), and now he’s told me he’s hearing someone talk to him (this could also all be ongoing and he’s only told me now because he trusts me). He’s been hospitalized previously as well, and has mentioned his fear of taking meds to me, but only mentioned antidepressants. He’s been skipping therapy appointments as well, but I again assumed that was for depression since that’s the only thing he’s really mentioned. Either he’s undiagnosed, misdiagnosed, or diagnosed and has chosen not to tell me yet (or at all). I’m not asking anyone here to confirm or deny whether he has schizophrenia. I’m just genuinely very worried for him. However, it probably isn’t my place to do anything since we haven’t been dating long, and there may possibly be a chance that I’m totally wrong. My question is what do you think I should I do? 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It'll take 2 - 3 months for the meds to fully settle and I keep messing it up.,-0.4926923076923089,1.2164027435897466,2.1304487179487204,97.15413461538462,85.66666666666667,3.9,14.878205128205128,3.1291,-1.262748717948718,133,2,32,0,4,46,32,39,0.10400000000000001,0.8959999999999999,0.0,-0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,6,5,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25429299365939045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731366706992298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5312499671591666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6638933930274785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385332670358614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22469240124048886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742574902978739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,H-a-m-a-s-o,2018/12/09,"Thought Broadcast Im new to this sub and I'm diagnosed schizophrenic, been on Abilify for a while, isn't really working. Thought broadcast is ruining my life. &#x200B; It's gotten so out of hand that I can't function normally anymore. I believe that there is an external being that sees my every move before i make it, therefore making me stuck in a blind rat race where the universe shows me different signs on what to do next. I've been stuck in the same rabbit hole for almost a year, thinking I'm some crazy government project. I don't believe my parents are my parents anymore, rather a memory placed inside my head to believe the reality I'm living in. I'm afraid of going to sleep because the government is updating my firmware to stop recognizing the hidden patterns of the matrix i live in. The worst part is EVERYONE REACTS TO EVERYTHING GOING ON IN MY HEAD. EVERY SINGLE PERSON, but when i acknowledge it, they become highly discomforted and act like nothing is going on while giving me signs with body language and certain phrases, that it actually happened. I can't trust anyone, they're all a part of it. I fell for a girl a year ago, for some reason when I was around her, I felt I had a better control over myself, but we stopped speaking long ago. What she didn't know is that when I freak tf out her soul resides in my head and calms me down. I tried to contact her after cease contact, ended up finding out she thought i was some creepy type mf and wants absolutely nothing to do with me. This was without me telling her I was schizophrenic. My heart hurts. I've become so disfunctional; I've given up living. I have finals in a few days and I study for 2 hours before the inner monologue takes over. The only way to get rid of it is to sleep, and at this point I dont care that i'm being updated. Tried calling my mom a couple days ago. She doesn't want to speak to me as ""she doesn't want to become like me"". &#x200B; I feel so alone. I dont want to do this anymore. &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; &#x200B; NOTE: not suicidal. just given up.",3.909544708165399,5.74819431034483,4.815570980743393,82.45037990744888,72.64532019704433,7.285744140916555,29.051798775936714,8.00094639256281,2.0416972085385887,1654,68,305,24,33,537,202,406,0.10300000000000001,0.831,0.066,-0.8244,3,1,0,0,0,0,70.0,1,0,1,3,11,13,0,2,20,0,30,13,8,6,2,51,62,18,1,6,6,3,3,2,0,0,5,2,0,2,18,14,0,3,10,1,0,6,11,6,0,0,17,7,49,7,51,43,10,57,1,2,2,0,22,27,0,4,25,200,67,5,0.0,0.0,0.05180238683542676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14116745359355545,0.0,0.05315601990211066,0.05497907869517953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4026159113699527,0.4515206178729615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15793537553720502,0.03711761026687356,0.0,0.0,0.047256069464434725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03235955135646176,0.17588152692003953,0.0903412535084404,0.17942267841777676,0.0,0.04694853881943109,0.0,0.058964425699444836,0.0,0.0,0.05420476223769452,0.0,0.054122738858361816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059538289122693475,0.0,0.05873650469151516,0.0,0.06846965663456464,0.0,0.0,0.05387920530234118,0.0,0.05546154620003793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442825012809013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047016722558339566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08945122310348655,0.0507240959042715,0.047708531853435474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02684089663673031,0.0,0.05096902400735655,0.058150994958416975,0.04851787077378512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027734231319473567,0.050923069137510726,0.0905066869074624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046942060524791725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634386864347254,0.0,0.0,0.06290486880652155,0.0,0.0560862257944269,0.0,0.0,0.05227710788952068,0.0,0.05682758605288145,0.0,0.05733989599990825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029173612089584345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03749484272185661,0.05186838241847876,0.0,0.14062259730711568,0.04697772422284188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07086804689366001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062171411587986586,0.0,0.05641995673352139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051268917660905175,0.05645550193524825,0.0,0.05201110973703547,0.10187117793797792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04037282104789509,0.0,0.0,0.11788713707696265,0.1149697318209443,0.0,0.0,0.04635095520405679,0.05546154620003793,0.0,0.05018159667312967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034007009275371626,0.05457925665429062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04230112442700847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10624479692167346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08876130520052407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058065347702308916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03991260807027277,0.0,0.046397809775934204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03401412335217156,0.0,0.12642844653316934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07208118684709124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524142000862995,0.042135657386249324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05117114125280129,0.0,0.0386458292085286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4515206178729615,0.06836879072205301 schizophrenia,d2thewizard,2018/12/09,Having a hard night. Had a bad night at work. I keep hearing people talking to me when no one is. The voices keep telling me every one hates me and I should die. Any suggestions to snap out of this? What helps you break free.,-0.3281987577639782,1.9379593478260908,0.8250310559006238,100.85195652173915,96.82608695652172,3.4981366459627328,15.267080745341616,5.288315135182226,-1.0001701863354038,174,4,39,1,7,54,38,46,0.254,0.639,0.10800000000000001,-0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,1,3,1,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,8,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,1,3,6,2,5,6,0,6,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,25,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16310305599838668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002608407391331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489215964551096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20208004358205595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148543144133347,0.23679761813544264,0.0,0.0,0.2703231298589928,0.0,0.16076327582827254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4263711172347163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4501572084595433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250508195617554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16627855956549942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19277859929073451,0.2096353989656576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17461026422610773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,eyeFOURgotALLredE,2018/12/09,"Dreams during the day can get weird. I have vivid dreams/visions during the day. I wouldn't even call it hallucinating, I feel like when I am 'hallucinating' I'm experiencing something that's not there, but on top of everything that really is. But I was literally dreaming, blinded by a split second of the most ludicrous little scene. I was watching myself online-this was immediately odd. My dreams wether sane at the time or not, and my hallucinations, NEVER show me myself. There was a post on Facebook that was VIRAL and I mean literaly the only thing posted on Facebook that day. Just a picture of Michael Carbonaro with the caption 'Michael Carbonaro brain washes entire human race: World peace achieved.' And it was blowing up everywhere with hundreds of likes and hearts on every single one! I tried to type something along the lines of just 'What....' but as soon as I clicked on the write post box it spammed the same image, and posted it on my page. I can't remember how the vision ended specifically I just remember coming too and not being sure if everyone was indeed brainwashed overnight, and i was left aware and yet confused, or if it was supposed to be a humorous dream about a silly Facebook hack. I am still so confused about it! It for some reason just felt so profound. 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Someone in my life has schizophrenia and has moved to California away from family and friends. He uses drugs and doesn’t recognize his parents. They flew from out of state to look for him. They don’t know how to help him since he doesn’t recognize who they are. Is there anything they can do to help him? He is homeless and does not have access to many resources since he is away from his loved ones. Thank you.,3.41,5.2529933333333325,3.225416666666664,93.31125,74.0,6.883333333333333,23.458333333333336,7.645422480735847,0.7981708333333328,384,11,83,5,8,115,55,96,0.0,0.795,0.205,0.9677,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,1,2,4,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,15,4,0,3,0,12,22,6,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,1,1,13,4,15,21,0,7,0,0,1,2,26,4,0,0,0,56,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15869953505736892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3623787985248711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16876477797934822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22364536174794644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181802294428388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14899582306316855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3877908885104152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10598559498673524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362160161246818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16194585495753766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3481102233036503,0.0,0.0,0.1955201446745941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204969568566486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613609886533629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141376653329375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31905586395120394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16340160847387636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775508362546085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16656091867189587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,1scarycherry,2019/09/28,"Television always messes with my head when i’m at my worst between feeling guilty that im watching fictional characters who have no idea im looking at them, feeling shame and like im spying, to a whole other thing of losing some awareness of where the rook im in stops and where the room on whatever im watching begins. my depth perception warps and i feel like i can walk into the room. a lot of times ill have to turn the tv off, which gets super disappointing when people recommend it to me as a distraction from heightened or intense symptoms, knowing it’ll only worsen me. the logic in the back of my brain can often fight this off and i’ll try and get lost in thoughts of camera work and movie sets and how its all an act, but all my instincts sees it and says its Happening.",7.102499999999999,6.0611627770700665,7.245915605095543,78.06721735668792,64.54140127388536,10.14299363057325,33.63773885350319,9.188382445141503,2.791968789808917,624,22,122,9,8,202,103,157,0.142,0.7859999999999999,0.071,-0.85,0,0,0,0,1,0,9.0,0,0,1,4,7,11,1,2,10,0,5,4,2,1,2,27,19,14,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,1,2,1,2,0,11,10,0,1,8,1,0,2,1,8,0,0,2,8,10,3,21,16,6,23,0,3,4,0,4,14,0,4,8,80,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453537385976426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10584393470027563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15366231576731626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20879910184130224,0.09833679852641916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14383231847380454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217229589211238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126805323134947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553894805316147,0.7434251636282759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07564854090897477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13449714204801927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11559087473469827,0.15399453135861912,0.15026064102248032,0.11702464469112345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468861364420523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09542880077407137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946437187328904,0.0,0.0,0.10968879451354133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150811083484779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14307048931941038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914481818588566,0.0,0.0,0.10927829208868296,0.08026450446071436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09345494474982108,0.1497230805684643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15368070134148706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10021044301491844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gayangst666,2019/09/28,"Cracks on the sidewalk I have a hard time going outside, especially when i’m walking on sidewalks. Every time i’m walking to campus i avoid certain cracks and i’ll step over them because if i step on them something bad will happen and i feel like people think i’m joking, but it makes me so upset. It makes it so hard to go outside and just walk to class or somewhere else because i’m so fixated on trying to not step on cracks! Does anyone else have a fear/paranoia like this? Any advice on how to kind of soothe myself in case i do step on a crack and something bad happens to me?",2.664249999999999,4.322016925000003,3.84,88.905,75.58333333333334,5.466666666666668,25.333333333333336,5.6839178017228535,0.6489833333333337,461,16,93,2,10,150,70,120,0.136,0.7759999999999999,0.08800000000000001,-0.7777,0,1,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,6,9,0,2,4,0,4,0,0,3,1,16,16,12,0,1,5,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,2,1,0,9,1,4,0,0,0,3,10,5,16,15,0,21,0,0,0,0,2,9,0,2,5,52,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782179166746873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12402346508923302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12752311400834954,0.18686807120549956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045564442446254,0.22235217877547375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596004369805656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047072538533217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15366154286329076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20522623719646954,0.09221592385075693,0.13029105936765653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20729952655957065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32255297111260284,0.0,0.3267501813476369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18991888389617415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17820160287860784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24347779823624094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12643811608020186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808073765186819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168606194996399,0.0,0.0,0.21269245028343872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238228611980764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MulaHem,2019/09/28,Anybody who got cured from schizophrenia after taking LSD? Does it worth trying?,5.7323076923076925,9.498858000000002,3.283461538461537,83.09903846153847,84.38461538461539,2.6,21.884615384615387,3.1291,0.1948769230769232,66,2,8,0,2,18,13,13,0.0,0.8420000000000001,0.158,0.3094,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5611795795654838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5128820914836134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4821551308270669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4353801437034481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,anclarin,2019/06/16,"Friend recently diagnosed.. Never posted here before, but looking for someone to talk to.. One of my close friends has been diagnosed with schizophrenia and they believe that they are part of Jesus, the apocalypse is coming, more biblical things along those lines. They also believes we are soulmates and openly asked if I would marry them, and that they loved me. I’ve never been in a situation like this before and I wanted to ask for advice on what to do. They actually got kicked out of their house for all of these things and such (I believe because they don’t want to take their medication), so their going back to live with friends in a different city. But I would just like advice or resources in what I should be doing and saying. Thank you.",6.521502797761791,7.537221374100722,6.1383693045563525,78.56176658673064,65.4748201438849,8.767705835331737,29.83293365307754,8.841846274778883,2.3562319744204627,597,20,105,9,9,185,93,139,0.0,0.82,0.18,0.9797,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,1,10,0,6,7,0,0,3,0,13,4,0,0,3,27,24,12,0,6,5,0,0,2,3,3,3,1,0,0,9,14,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,3,2,19,7,21,17,3,14,2,0,1,1,20,7,0,2,6,87,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.12832212286966235,0.0,0.0,0.2569947321551113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10515811940415402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458639258579925,0.0,0.0,0.1011130915713611,0.0,0.0801593628950558,0.0,0.22378855765351144,0.4444563347761462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11327303920828448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669334146664645,0.0,0.13738639821043086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047828144328683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07473278682931797,0.0,0.1051701793941083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517299059791491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12848560362478967,0.0,0.11611427781775548,0.0,0.1104243784488942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11868119455755848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13246941348543845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20283721675239133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910578393748754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423984583942946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12593779604876582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12983744335441627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10457170822653268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478081600154727,0.0,0.0,0.11141699834187413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098869394051542,0.10569232367622527,0.0,0.12106478885573965,0.0,0.0,0.1747215541922776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15512069876023118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18682342038162106,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,minced_cartwheels,2019/06/16,"What happens when you drink wine while on antipsychotics and benzos? I was a lil bored and depressed tbh and we had some blackberry wine laying around so I drank a little bit. Will anything interesting happen? I doubt I drank enough for it to be dangerous, but Im just making sure.",2.981949685534591,5.8113242075471785,3.4399056603773595,86.1333176100629,80.50943396226415,6.552201257861638,22.040880503144656,7.793537801064563,1.2457069182389944,225,7,41,4,6,70,44,53,0.149,0.76,0.091,-0.264,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,1,1,0,0,4,6,1,1,2,0,4,5,0,1,1,11,9,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,0,6,2,4,3,3,5,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,2,2,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23692634545508176,0.25630196488449897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3143244082949714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479774522687191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2820433188243429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974891822362917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5091977595506997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31099344862166073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885626100341172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19218292879861665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271352852302212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,xGlone,2019/06/16,What is having schizophrenia like? I feel like people can read my mind but I don't hear voices is this schizophrenia or something else?,3.4606666666666683,6.520066800000002,2.291999999999998,93.47266666666668,81.0,3.333333333333334,20.333333333333336,3.1291,-0.4104666666666663,110,3,19,0,3,31,21,25,0.0,0.838,0.162,0.4329,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,7,2,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,12,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207692885456146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19415380442779312,0.2743181850034715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43277777836539594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3751902893691879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3877142917977452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662060979986876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3840878256660174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956095768813486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,InterestingFerret7,2019/06/16,"Why does schizophrenia start so late in life, early adulthood? I have a hypothesis Late teens and early 20s is that college age where people's mindset begins to really shift. You start questioning everything, asking big questions like ""why does the universe exist"", and viewing things differently, appreciating new things that you took for granted as a kid, start to realize parents were right. I think that shift in consciousness is linked to onset of schizophrenia, some ppl just can't handle it",9.678928571428571,10.787329988095241,8.100095238095241,66.91157142857146,58.64285714285714,10.529523809523807,37.03809523809524,10.355215969177356,4.143840952380952,405,17,58,8,5,122,65,84,0.017,0.894,0.08900000000000001,0.7184,2,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,10,12,4,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,6,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,4,1,8,10,1,16,0,0,1,0,7,5,0,3,11,32,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16618411565394225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857241725056316,0.0,0.0,0.3111226497091236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15976164039818658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4010481062794524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255590425234279,0.08684586947082834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17168431030551515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973844265331885,0.0,0.0,0.12323826439113153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982697835045761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11387932882865452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518083629695488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3774640332764012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361952601854796,0.113903151749531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19750088540953692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32080635065034635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Tattoooz,2019/06/16,"Hey... Hey people on here....I've wanted to find some people with schizophrenia to talk too. I only trust to talk about my issues with people of my disorder. Would you wanna talk with me or even maybe become a friend? My voices won't really let me do to much and I just want to know more sense I am still clueless about my disorder even tho I got diagones 6 years ago. I don't give a shit if you are a boy or a girl I just want people who are equal to me and not other filthy humans who don't get me.",0.4248513169073895,2.368938112149536,2.3195242141036547,95.7580798640612,83.76635514018692,5.012404418011895,14.40016992353441,6.1124844417494595,-0.8199084112149531,386,5,89,3,11,128,66,107,0.076,0.8079999999999999,0.11599999999999999,0.4809,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,0,9,3,1,0,4,0,9,1,1,0,0,19,16,6,0,6,6,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,3,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,16,2,14,12,4,4,0,0,0,0,14,1,1,4,3,63,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467416868816089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18282650352161586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3794475658158728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186759104483006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15130104043133694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12789619863653398,0.0,0.0864880916511076,0.15880155537710122,0.0,0.0,0.1323978799079384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17278129886551316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09097674304123186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16927640207959674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16630770708256812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169133289086152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259010284720736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4590598249450499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060494989426026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16992496958290754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13220087675361727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991656092409333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929202711834935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11759523906004588,0.0,0.0,0.10660267035943498 schizophrenia,VisibleBiscotti,2019/06/16,"Abilify? My doctor prescribed a low dose of Abilify (2 mg). I haven’t started it yet because insurance is still authorizing it. I’m afraid it will cause weight gain among other things, even at a low dose. If you’ve taken Abilify, what side affects did you have? Thanks",2.3988235294117644,5.1600730980392155,3.689705882352944,83.74867647058825,82.72549019607844,7.321568627450981,26.14705882352941,8.344100000000001,2.23149411764706,212,9,39,5,6,69,41,51,0.081,0.7909999999999999,0.128,0.5362,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,3,4,0,1,2,0,5,4,0,2,0,3,9,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,3,1,3,6,0,8,0,2,0,0,1,5,0,1,3,23,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23340046360647496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3933238516084671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3918945242112055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25288902918468725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710048635539018,0.0,0.3057689464838497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3525050203098917,0.0,0.0,0.25436886146357285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4662454293886414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Wo0tArD,2019/06/16,"Stereofkintypical I was actually shouting at a pidgeon the other day, it was being fucking annoying tho it was first thing in the mornin and it was bein super noisy, even the fuckin magpies that usually annoy me had shut up lol. So now i'm the crazy pidgeon shoutin at motherfuckin schizo they'd live evryone believe we are 😂😂😂",4.756666666666668,6.677036730158732,5.806539682539682,75.87457142857146,70.5873015873016,8.214603174603175,33.234920634920634,8.841846274778883,3.0042596825396823,266,13,47,5,5,88,50,63,0.14800000000000002,0.753,0.099,-0.3167,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,0,1,2,4,5,4,0,5,1,8,2,0,0,0,2,10,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,5,1,4,1,4,3,0,9,0,0,0,2,2,5,2,0,4,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.36659145773399615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232418957880175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422706053676035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481208937460481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319537500526438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3472930257379852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317160082535128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495728242976229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.413738095779493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,corflikedankmemes,2019/06/16,What is having schizophrenia like? I don't have schizophrenia and I just wanted to know what its like having schizophrenia and what sort of stuff you see and hear. What sort of stuff calms you down and what sort of stuff doesn't.,3.873409090909093,6.231544068181822,2.1090909090909093,99.53363636363638,74.22727272727272,4.4,17.81818181818182,3.1291,-0.975572727272727,185,3,38,0,4,50,24,44,0.0,0.841,0.159,0.7190000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,10,10,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,9,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,5,10,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,3,2,29,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28810185810161515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14048184275847828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24976564165843645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20369571968030148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8778698293223524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507710582638343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dethfd,2019/06/16,hatered towards my ex i just need to vent really. my ex is my best friend. she dumped me but we were still close together. i still had feelings for her but she doesn’t for me. she forced me to be her friend even though i knew she’d replace me. the downloaded a dating app and i wasn’t okay with it. i’ve been just freaking out over it. my thoughts are racing about how much of a whore she is. a disgusting whore that i hope she gets raped and killed. i don’t really wish this on her but i feel hurt. i feel used. she told me to fuck off yesterday because i’ve been having outbursts towards her for how she’s acting. today she sent me a picture of her and a guy together and i feel my blood boiling. i feel so unstable and so full of rage. i don’t know how to process these thoughts. i feel so angry. i feel so alone.,-0.12541871921182235,2.0526020574712653,1.5437274220032826,98.75258620689655,88.77011494252875,5.153366174055829,19.205254515599343,6.655083550727371,-0.021467651888340992,634,19,151,8,21,205,95,174,0.311,0.599,0.09,-0.9952,0,1,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,0,1,14,16,7,0,6,1,14,6,1,4,0,32,33,16,1,3,5,2,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,5,9,1,0,11,0,0,2,4,11,0,0,10,7,39,5,18,21,3,15,0,1,0,4,22,8,1,1,5,105,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17187190582034334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011602575947494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741520106205492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10960697738091107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5873574672142171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564217653845929,0.15341609584709873,0.08670089252983637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643144431157588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16482364019806645,0.0,0.0,0.1776505854568759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18359668794676445,0.0,0.09120058808733547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12199075009476185,0.12304821407770444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21262085993888002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650523046340965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630429015381549,0.2634880827552124,0.0,0.0,0.15729914015617516,0.15857026419843226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14332564474582551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19083181604313432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,neutralbhad,2019/06/16,"Can we not have these pseudo-spritualists/religious people running amok in the subreddit and giving bad advice? In so many comment threads on this subreddit I see people saying ""don't take meds"" followed by ""Jesus will heal your soul and stop your hallucinations"" or ""going and meditating in nature will heal you"". &#x200B; We shouldn't be allowing people to advocate for not taking medicine. It's not healthy and just increases the stigma against having schizophrenia. They are claiming that because we don't pray to God or follow some sort of religion, we are being punished. Which is total bullshit. I'm fucking tired of seeing these people on here and in real life. Maybe they are trying to help, but I feel like they are just bad actors. They are the reason healthcare in the USA is awful for people with schizophrenia. &#x200B; Yeah, I know thousands of years ago people treated some schizophrenics as shamans. But people thousands of years ago also believed the sun was pulled across the sky by a chariot, didn't bathe enough, and drank malaria water. I'd rather listen to what science, which is based on observation of physical processes, has determined than some books written to justify genocides. Go back to your Church and leave me alone.",7.196636363636363,9.201614800000002,6.2388636363636385,74.82329545454544,64.63636363636364,8.40909090909091,33.29545454545455,8.841846274778883,3.092181818181818,1016,43,153,16,16,307,146,220,0.11900000000000001,0.826,0.055,-0.8937,1,1,0,0,0,0,36.0,4,4,4,0,7,6,2,0,7,2,21,8,0,2,1,34,37,14,1,2,10,0,1,1,0,3,5,2,1,0,8,12,2,1,3,3,0,7,7,4,0,2,4,5,16,2,28,28,6,23,4,0,2,1,17,10,1,6,7,108,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11390618269502847,0.2066560665719816,0.0,0.0,0.12072641240249644,0.0,0.09321716332680056,0.0,0.25259673164739704,0.2832789989795598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08963145808323554,0.19465417746073216,0.07105707543554189,0.0,0.0,0.1313290848270994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044303082393575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058938876996911124,0.08327421557144138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10776266643472288,0.0,0.11181997937035244,0.13249340013321528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07813120904403094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06406119578548741,0.0,0.0,0.12342573597565455,0.0,0.0,0.0823334612517341,0.05694787794845945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11817883618593275,0.11710542967254185,0.0,0.1294776802924433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.565681520298266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13267673832049814,0.0,0.11984845879284105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926973405415442,0.0,0.0,0.18577477520052008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09745374232655038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17528507557088024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13397457152576173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914013199466659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832789989795598,0.15012835827847792 schizophrenia,Rainbowsandcats,2019/06/16,"I think my BF has schizophrenia Can someone help me understand? He thinks the government is tracking him and me (if they are, I have questions so come on out). He does work for the federal government, but what is the likelihood of this? Recently, he’s withdrawn from social and pretty much just sits at home. Today, he became super mean to me for no reason at all. Head doctor is worried about suicide, he says nothing to worry about, but as I sat there crying, got no emotions from him.",4.6981677018633565,6.3621538478260895,5.183540372670809,81.30804347826088,70.30434782608695,7.86583850931677,29.447204968944106,8.418075326091056,2.282159627329192,382,15,68,6,7,122,70,92,0.17,0.701,0.13,-0.6758,0,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,0,1,2,5,1,0,0,3,0,7,2,1,1,1,15,14,7,1,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,2,4,0,0,6,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,10,1,14,12,2,8,0,0,0,0,13,4,0,2,2,48,12,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16574429628323156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21135350114046708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19693992882891465,0.16837940793993258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21643550697127328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15388796394528825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19746831138300752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289684593228618,0.0,0.1930030560585861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20959104668305634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14144359004377174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846227162445212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957502825127203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155433891089644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19782966719510986,0.18998179823198175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15301226410348182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19613790438338907,0.1630284850943886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21046546097679547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465772938358452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18238231240651398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003057388271898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14007687168090535,0.39080366884753615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,The_Eraser123,2019/06/16,"What were the first symptoms of your schizophrenia? Non-schizophrenic here. I was wondering what each person’s experience of the development of schizophrenia is and which symptoms begin to appear first. I’ve always had a great interest in (and paranoia about) schizophrenia, largely through being in close relation to someone who suffers from the disorder (my grandpa) and also through the subject of psychology, which I love. Any insight into your own experience of the condition’s development would be very interesting to me 😊 thank you all in advance",9.530688405797104,11.34928866304348,8.603043478260872,60.69340579710146,59.10869565217391,11.35072463768116,44.68115942028986,11.20814326018867,5.886450724637682,455,27,60,12,6,142,65,92,0.078,0.7559999999999999,0.16699999999999998,0.8748,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,0,3,3,6,0,0,6,0,7,3,0,0,1,11,12,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,3,0,7,5,16,6,3,10,0,1,0,1,7,5,0,2,3,51,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750508803887988,0.18213882871336656,0.0,0.0,0.1488566402341775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25087353415121355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4282441615877069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3723852862410346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24133337602087435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975619924606055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19113135648635796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854696885084458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4550330691720023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152982949259649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18061194746194714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373831416471156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15549728542291494,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,UnstableBear,2019/04/20,"Am I alone? Is there someone I can talk to a bit, I am going insane I just wanna know if I am alone of having thougts 24/7 just making your head fucking hurt like a bitch. I have schizo but I really don't know who to talk to anymore, I just wanna talk to someone who has the disorder as well. Because I know so little about the disorder because my doctor is crap and hasn't explained shit to me. I don't know why it happens, I just wanna know if I am alone. I just wanna talk I guess......I never usually let out shit but I guess I trust the internet people who I can't see then actually facing an indevidual. I have to admit tho my voices are my only friends because real people suck ass and if I tell them about my condition they will leave....I am at the end of my straw.... So if someone would be willing to talk please talk to me....",1.0229445378151285,2.9292556171428608,3.5287058823529414,88.09847058823532,81.4,5.946218487394957,21.722689075630253,7.048011613610866,0.6344050420168066,643,20,138,8,17,224,92,175,0.168,0.6920000000000001,0.14,-0.5052,0,3,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,2,0,12,11,6,0,7,0,22,8,6,1,1,30,36,13,0,9,11,0,0,1,1,3,1,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,7,0,0,1,5,7,1,0,0,2,29,4,19,31,1,8,0,1,1,2,16,3,7,5,5,101,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.10415294590834864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316198360292815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10584734044269788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195184593294246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11652136266810187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24464332891651985,0.10924253268461827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09453097551207136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245922390603275,0.09867003434183053,0.0,0.0,0.06065703816418312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351499438905716,0.0,0.09438086137223027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095356263643952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11425652094123298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932796949656801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091385114639508,0.0,0.05214281771946131,0.10697135713586052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07124300930568192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08231664654608979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08117286680491652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479860906538117,0.0,0.0,0.11715733423499353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214819450887994,0.06837388031588201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08504987884642211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21911333195887855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712955882133853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5147125043415299,0.09328660061960473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11754786043381538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09596296051335848,0.0,0.09630709650978553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758178292342603,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ActiveAnxiety9,2019/04/20,omggg!!! ugh im so horny and gay i literally want to pound a black bitch from glascow in a 3 way with her sista!,-2.9160000000000004,-1.726766599999996,0.04800000000000182,103.62400000000004,115.0,3.6,13.0,5.6839178017228535,-1.2358000000000002,85,2,23,1,5,29,23,25,0.298,0.652,0.05,-0.816,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7375788980538988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4027537325879462,0.5420025830492633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,5n0wy,2019/04/20,"Should I be worried? I am eighteen years old. My mother was schizophrenic. I have ADHD, panic disorder, anxiety disorder, insomnia, and intense dreams almost every night. Between the ages of sixteen and seventeen I was a stoner. The last time I smoked was when I was seventeen. Time was moving very slowly and my auditory senses were unbelievably heightened. I felt like I was falling and voices seemed very intense. I am in a midtier college holding a 3.97 gpa. I am also holding very rigorous internships. I never thought about schizophrenia while I grew up. However, I feel as though I may want to prepare myself. Does it seem like I'll probably get it? Should I be worried about my life trajectory changing? Thanks.",3.8264665354330702,7.046739259842521,4.880428149606299,74.20993356299212,81.5984251968504,7.584448818897639,32.34694881889764,8.472884824447931,3.5882917322834658,574,31,84,14,16,187,84,127,0.152,0.73,0.11800000000000001,-0.6492,1,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,5,0,16,3,0,0,1,17,24,9,0,3,0,1,2,2,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,4,0,2,5,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,9,3,19,3,8,10,0,15,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,12,59,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19129881416591035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15939193334248206,0.0,0.0,0.12729311928132558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12176932828269547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16838727344130086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3648593441667896,0.0,0.13929613207776376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13411278173733512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08048425024019328,0.0,0.15283407772201096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08316297491646812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297498170287719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11243083065313764,0.1555308649566568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16917906945282946,0.0,0.0,0.1227664690708338,0.0,0.0,0.14937604519346914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16702860575723846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867589297437376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161882484905006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28981599938058233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14654802402232192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563897710310151,0.12636809251657513,0.18563380030239365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3940110118985259,0.09388622448828557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233022383098115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10250422956368556 schizophrenia,dandelion_kisses,2019/04/20,"Abilify So I’m starting on Abilify on 10 mg, can someone give me some input and there thoughts on it? Thanks!",0.6484848484848484,3.149439000000001,2.824545454545458,87.87348484848488,90.8181818181818,6.56969696969697,30.06060606060606,7.793537801064563,2.531133333333334,86,5,17,2,3,29,19,22,0.0,0.862,0.138,0.4926,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,3,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5043996487844348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455125000390477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3721671760840628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.484090197658369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4174300901849217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,beansterkins,2019/04/20,"Seeking advice I’m not sure if this is appropriate and please feel free to delete if not. Quick backstory - I had a family member diagnosed with schizophrenia that has long passed, but I remember their struggle and isolation from family/friends - which leads me into my question. I’ve come to discover through social media/finding help for her from her family during a crisis an old classmate that’s been diagnosed with schizophrenia. She’s out of the hospital but still seems to be struggling heavily with paranoia and pushing/fighting everyone (posting chat screen shots) family/friends super close trying to suggest she might need more help/that they’re there for her. She’s not posting anything suicidal at the moment so I don’t think a wellness check is totally necessary? But, I don’t know...we weren’t super close in school but enough to where I wish I could help. I reached out to say it’d be cool to see each other sometime soon if she’s free and I’m here if she ever needs an ear - to which she was receptive, but I wish I could do more. I suppose I’m asking if we do chat further - how can I help support someone struggling actively with paranoia/delusions and/or when someone has obviously pushed family out of the photo and old friends - when it’s appropriate to call for a wellness check. The other day was dang close had we not located her family, but like I said - while I don’t know how long medications take to work or the details of her last admission to the hospital - it’s extremely apparent that she’s not in a good place mentally. I know I’m kind of inserting myself, but again, the people I talked to or messaged me to find her help the other day were her “close” friends and they had all broken ties at one point or another and it seems like she’s burning every other bridge of those close right now. I just don’t want someone to struggle alone - memories Of being young when I remember my mother having to buy my relative under garments to wear to another family’s funeral and my parents being the only ones to basically be there and help my family member out through the years. Any thoughts or advice, criticism, anything is greatly appreciated.",5.693924626928593,7.15897392909536,6.211078323918728,75.65202933985331,67.65525672371638,9.748958772447518,32.929854143832735,10.004066432519934,3.4973997302082456,1743,77,302,42,29,565,201,409,0.096,0.708,0.19699999999999998,0.9936,3,2,0,0,2,0,40.0,2,0,2,4,20,20,0,4,17,1,30,5,2,3,5,76,52,32,2,12,22,2,1,2,2,1,3,3,0,0,15,27,0,0,11,2,5,4,10,4,2,2,10,7,44,18,45,33,6,46,0,0,2,0,39,20,1,13,22,208,59,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14747104221744678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07815049823869875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05131321810229104,0.15824608828636352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12418905004899328,0.0,0.07054193112422924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07704983925380776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06499936013124694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12049224509573395,0.0,0.0,0.09732679970668576,0.0,0.0,0.15317414693063194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779670552694639,0.0,0.0,0.06825500433363232,0.06357561657550477,0.07210221527364233,0.0,0.0,0.4268037880569807,0.0,0.03815323019441218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13793231405256548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23319097590038726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06328959193011044,0.0,0.08319139905105867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034626537774934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857665566831601,0.12440726769163428,0.06150737097019528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07372877147166318,0.0,0.0,0.133553804147583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07601479728713174,0.07604271651992417,0.08004775072291086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190053652638854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15835845710158994,0.0,0.10226297414479954,0.057388303970824166,0.0,0.0,0.08378585743113028,0.0,0.0,0.05231225092927542,0.0,0.07883630594562148,0.08282891776691595,0.0713310749378265,0.0,0.1445335309571276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08452889593655648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.170955711868431,0.06443970317223195,0.07177670543512042,0.060006283667004785,0.0,0.07636631983646679,0.060129307883759676,0.1373860911344985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07691871496210148,0.19180292990945955,0.0,0.07462871419279585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060259905676853874,0.0,0.0,0.31553536360271217,0.0,0.08253750264710406,0.0856274934139259,0.07111715012268527,0.0,0.05673413015870001,0.060649325362471924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04834967682639313,0.0,0.05990427827338968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05123022065328667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04450638136400207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356894677901718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735432144350078,0.0,0.0,0.054933456128630466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048591711481100516 schizophrenia,Thebur872,2019/09/25,"Do regular doctors diagnose and prescribe antipsychotics for Paranoia Can a regular g.p (general doctor) provide a diagnosis and prescribe antipsychotics medication for Paranoia? Thank you",14.054615384615381,18.10694984615385,12.626153846153848,27.693846153846177,50.53846153846153,17.50769230769231,66.84615384615384,14.554592549557764,12.852830769230769,160,14,11,8,2,51,19,26,0.145,0.764,0.091,-0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,1,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3813660652280242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7691673360538714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.378516410522303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34592898173699804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,commandolandorooster,2019/09/25,"Diagnosed later when a therapist said you weren’t schizophrenic? Anyone analyzed by a psychotherapist that said they didn’t think you had schizophrenia, but were then were later diagnosed by someone else?",11.226363636363638,12.874346333333335,9.081363636363637,59.34204545454549,55.36363636363636,13.872727272727275,40.74242424242424,13.023866798666859,6.366224242424242,171,8,22,6,2,51,24,33,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,0,0,2,8,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,2,3,0,2,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070610048461443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6011315011931759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473786444810584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5633749500619637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509100164749916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3438297932080105,0.0,0.18974816831209168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Xyzdx,2019/09/25,"I don’t know if I belong here because I don’t have some of the symptoms, but I don’t know what else it would be I don’t hear voices or see things that aren’t there. But constantly all the time I’m confused about reality and that nothing matters. I’m constantly thinking about why life exists and am having panic attacks about the thought of either living eternally or not existing after death and that neither of those comforts me. And sometimes my mind knows without a doubt what existence is, even if that’s not what actually is real. It’s hard to explain but maybe this is enough information for someone to point me in the direction I should go",7.074814398200225,6.828573669291341,7.280989876265469,75.17590551181105,64.2755905511811,10.091788526434195,36.253093363329576,9.606745405546679,3.406832170978628,524,23,96,9,7,170,84,127,0.136,0.81,0.054000000000000006,-0.8558,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,1,3,5,0,14,2,0,0,1,31,25,11,1,4,11,0,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,12,4,0,0,7,0,0,1,9,4,0,0,1,4,9,1,12,21,5,8,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,7,5,73,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.17852147203529609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20811881981282387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111517539933249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3953828026286864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282154434767595,0.0,0.0,0.18902425152262206,0.0,0.12082907623668307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10396809852982863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16387685786261671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20618485251199792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016144521312423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292147896139042,0.0,0.0,0.1615379432383262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18378619370219476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18471561634483336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17553431178020712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21463877546013235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729359022708596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082239294704874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457782056539009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15500309774292192,0.0,0.18093073790762795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19014302516046389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121536132481153,0.11721952870841655,0.0,0.1452326412033313,0.1066728419240488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16507343586326825,0.0,0.0,0.17634607245411288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995417809239246,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,aPaperPlate,2019/09/25,"Tabletop Games as Therapy? Hi there! I work as a support for adults, and find myself with some super creative people. My personal passion is tabletop role playing (specifically Dungeons and Dragons) and have been considered offering fantasy role play as a a therapy technique. Before I try fleshing out the idea and delving too deep into this as an option, what are your opinions as role play as therapy? Would it help differentiate between reality and delusion/fantasy? Or would ONLY exacerbate delusion? Thank you for your opinion. -aPaperPlate",7.483333333333332,10.641812166666668,7.808611111111113,59.11625000000001,66.22222222222223,10.277777777777779,43.47222222222222,10.411451182825502,6.018222222222222,445,29,54,13,8,145,67,90,0.0,0.746,0.254,0.9737,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,0,2,2,7,0,0,5,0,6,2,1,0,0,17,8,12,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,8,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,7,7,12,5,1,3,0,0,0,1,12,3,0,5,0,42,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18133774454706264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19477527518526294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284064447106526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405710458076036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16207692555745815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14774105894325978,0.186076179992794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418304761676912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19619962687419126,0.7311167957562723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14468517249326987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15514390674623155,0.0,0.0,0.3027691677876035,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,uboatan,2019/09/25,"need advice on coping with obsessive thoughts i cant stop thinking about death and everything related to it, whether its me or people close to me. meds dont really help and i dont know how to cope with it, please help",2.6959090909090904,4.7615813181818245,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727276,76.72727272727272,8.036363636363637,24.63636363636364,8.841846274778883,1.8164727272727281,174,6,36,4,4,56,33,44,0.22399999999999998,0.688,0.087,-0.7623,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,13,7,5,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,7,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525159764390977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6057109063918498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232242903374602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3464145330011457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201578020518285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28703606856577285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19160828336288094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17914946452545366,0.0,0.0,0.28365738429469184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16554453181377035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160429427006613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16557916280715165,0.0,0.2051492563371173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cece7eley,2019/09/25,"Met with a Psychiatrist for the first time Background, I was diagnosed with severe generalized anxiety disorder and panic disorder 5 years ago. Have tried tons of meds, nothing worked, and the anxiety and panic has just gotten worse. About 6 months ago I began having auditory hallucinations (screaming, music, voices of family and friends) and some visual hallucinations (car accidents, spiders). And some delusions. It has just gotten progressively worse. I met with a psychiatrist for the first time 2 days ago and they said I have some signs of schizophrenia (plus family history of it), but a diagnosis takes longer because they want to be sure. She said the hallucinations and delusions could also be a symptom of an extreme case of anxiety and panic disorder. She put me on 2 new meds and we will be meeting every month to see if the hallucinations and panic get better, if not, then we will look into schizophrenia treatment. My question is, has anyone else had a similar experience? Perhaps anxiety lead to you having the common symptoms of schizophrenia, but not actually be a schizophrenic disorder? TLDR: extreme anxiety for years, started having hallucinations and delusions, could this just be effects of extreme anxiety or a different diagnosis all together? And have any of you dealt with this?",8.575560606060606,10.485346040909091,8.795454545454547,58.12651515151518,61.31818181818182,11.866666666666667,39.21212121212121,11.602472056035307,5.522948484848486,1059,54,144,33,15,348,119,220,0.184,0.7809999999999999,0.035,-0.982,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,2,2,2,7,5,8,0,4,14,0,21,4,0,2,2,44,34,21,0,5,10,0,0,0,1,2,4,4,0,0,4,21,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,5,0,2,9,6,14,3,23,16,5,22,0,0,2,0,15,2,0,7,17,108,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.08787372633551997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23946599649881006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201124482537076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06123563583329116,0.0,0.41331821990189255,0.0,0.0,0.06296356067881294,0.09226467869589383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0548923424951776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07964001861879144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14379178531951392,0.0,0.0,0.058073423223792914,0.0,0.0,0.09139668712475883,0.0,0.09408085284583742,0.4128106170695968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07522343622353796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07586920969824616,0.0,0.0,0.0880840904559692,0.16977822547026178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531893353367266,0.0,0.0,0.06957075685342921,0.0,0.04704629268987138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07561752716983827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20004575557127147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14375069291011222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08696878880051268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08640335473381074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4226070690711243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09052297535804557,0.10087421682737982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171312280066964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07175648958788171,0.0,0.0,0.10172845594626788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06373634207146006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08486904675775568,0.18718842016107715,0.06770478762004561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10501526804364164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06113658919871464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05311256362893997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06555591792841972,0.0,0.18353293416061672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11597574499581705 schizophrenia,carpediem437,2019/09/25,"Wondering if there were any books I could read of individuals diagnosed with schizophrenia who were able to lead happy, successful lives. Hello everyone, I'm a diagnosed bipolar/schizophrenic, and strongly suspect that I may be schizoaffective (not an official diagnosis). I was wondering if anyone on this subreddit knew of any books I could read of people, whether famous or not, who were able to live with this illness and still were able to lead happy, successful lives. It has been almost 4 years since my 2nd relapse and thankfully everything has been going well so far. Just looking for some hope and inspiration to continue to improve and better my life. I'd like to get married and have my own family some day but I'm honestly not sure if this could be possible given my diagnosis. It would be really appreciated if anyone could lend any recommendations or share any anecdotes. Thank you!",9.019739803094238,9.568602056962025,8.881983122362874,62.65155414908581,60.07594936708861,13.09817158931083,38.44163150492265,12.45797560212912,5.369782559774965,727,33,113,24,9,236,99,158,0.035,0.7390000000000001,0.226,0.9825,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,6,5,15,0,0,2,0,19,4,0,2,1,38,31,15,0,10,12,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,8,8,0,0,5,4,0,3,3,0,1,0,9,1,9,15,13,13,3,9,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,13,5,76,17,8,0.357910189217624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11946511816057764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245216025751152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16683941741824232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551415903332326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38101621689748705,0.0,0.0,0.0769408209580572,0.0,0.0,0.24218087207039474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11399950790054643,0.10722219996219168,0.0,0.11246862440108547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06233110055597189,0.0,0.06780286952530765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25400136782339083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11849519181883328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08426751710206606,0.058285613236587985,0.0,0.3160412542978005,0.0,0.10018480565274933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270995336931543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344966537829187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386713631985596,0.0,0.07642881067566187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986890023542206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952758464802112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244203921483556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21967707698742986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10726808113079783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25875888852000994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847497098250682,0.0,0.0,0.07682747576988504 schizophrenia,zombix456,2019/09/25,"Severe depression or signs of schizophrenia? I have a gut feeling that I will develop schizophrenia at some point. I’ve experienced many auditorial hallucinations, but I haven’t had one in months. They were crazy though. I’d be sitting in my room all by myself and whatever I heard sounded like a ultra HD screen looks. They were crisp and clear and loud and completely random. I heard (and felt) people tapping on a car window when I was leaning against the door and I’ve heard little girls laughing, boys asking to fight, glimmering sounds, screaming, beeping, etc. once at school I heard the fire alarm and it was so real I got up to leave and everyone looked at me like I was crazy. During the time period I would hear things I was severely depressed. I’ve read that severe depression can cause hallucinations, which would make sense for me but I feel like it’s more than that. I see things move often. A blanket will move when nothing’s touching it and I see bugs running across the floor, but when I go to kill it it’s gone. Thank you for reading :-)",3.090354761904763,5.758506545000002,3.5232857142857164,86.76533333333336,78.55,6.4095238095238125,24.023809523809533,7.62386473244151,1.256130952380952,839,29,159,13,21,261,126,200,0.214,0.677,0.109,-0.9767,0,0,0,0,1,0,25.0,0,1,2,0,6,12,2,1,8,0,15,1,1,2,2,27,33,18,1,2,4,0,5,3,0,4,0,9,3,2,11,9,0,0,3,2,0,6,1,7,0,1,14,20,22,5,17,14,4,25,0,3,5,0,12,12,0,4,9,97,33,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11904428037337328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13081168607410856,0.0,0.0,0.1335119634754324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290293138367588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201605487582072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167736541633525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12877231343198736,0.09097062868139248,0.12226490090156207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07236938723195503,0.0,0.10184420735184647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14351971079401166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14088115070913906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483305390653838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18663343353615067,0.12762660033512868,0.0,0.0,0.21386448820829831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08499941777666757,0.12910122239994473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164035217575856,0.2706812835144253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218469666512108,0.0,0.0,0.13561131507435836,0.08628784307357275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828046195134501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12037601393812848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547458599528464,0.14493905722903705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12887333029890002,0.2029445486476787,0.0,0.0,0.4315686782173744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723615506091055,0.0,0.0,0.1691960429896543,0.0,0.12510940061354694,0.0,0.07425208610619898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18091519167450326,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,corta12,2019/09/25,"I've been suffering from real thought-broadcasting I've been suffering from real thought-broadcasting for a long time. My thougts and all five senses are transmitted to other people for real, like uncontrollable telepathy. It is not thought-broadcasting in schizophrenia nor a delusion. People really react to what I'm thinking. Do you have any idea how to cure it? I'd really appreciate it if you could help me. Thanks.",5.6872007722007725,8.654303202702703,5.7544787644787645,72.63472972972977,71.02702702702703,9.633976833976837,32.19305019305019,9.957137785484203,4.013894208494209,343,16,52,10,7,108,52,74,0.11199999999999999,0.746,0.14300000000000002,0.3384,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,0,1,5,0,1,2,0,7,0,0,2,1,12,10,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,4,2,8,7,1,3,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,1,3,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13250227371652598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15556904274223302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306014743069795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199579354628952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519213781181002,0.0,0.0,0.17243298478931535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701640024814177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6653337831160383,0.24964726197864884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17938844103604706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12484974339721405,0.0,0.4640589717496529,0.11361653717954945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,flamez4keepz,2019/09/25,"Get high? I just ordered CBD oil, heard it helps with anxiety and depression. I also have seen talks of ppl saying weed helps with schizophrenia, my main reason for stopping in the past is because it makes it worse, triggered easily and feel like I'm in a bad state the whole time, my question what stain or type of weed helps for situation like this? Can anyone relate?",5.352,6.781193057142861,5.041428571428573,83.85357142857143,68.42857142857143,7.885714285714287,26.857142857142854,8.238735603445708,1.6698,294,9,55,4,5,90,55,70,0.161,0.652,0.187,0.2824,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,3,0,12,9,4,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,5,4,2,8,7,2,8,0,1,1,0,7,3,0,2,5,30,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17787559337935338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17015681323528786,0.0,0.0,0.1555268311800512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857180914109783,0.13559004592949891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915769127783032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11246628136692212,0.1589026095552904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11620945102120055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4472664048389137,0.2350073969724561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21733417367067376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14847241896829413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21233269680780614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24917026803744546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286930320829499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17688367533465355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500183943763456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859597699041967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17877920312835682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296995570792678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24833292162637124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266731372832189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sinduuri,2019/09/25,"I am scizoaffective and I'm a mom I am in treatment and my symptoms have become manageable, thank goodness. We had a few rough years after I got diagnosed and my son and I moved in with my parents, who have helped me so so much. We have a stable and really good life. We are blessed. My beautiful son is smart, kind, enthusiastic about life and involved in sports, 4-h, he loves Minecraft (we have a world we made that is awesome, he is really good at redstone and I love to build). He reads like an adult. He hates math, lol. He loves all animals and volunteers at our local animal shelter. He is nine years old and just an amazing person. His father has schizophrenia and refuses treatment. We never lived together after I got pregnant because of our mental illnesses. I knew it would be a horrible place to raise a child. (I was on b.c. and in my late thirties when I concieved) My son's father has chosen to completely remove himself from my son's life (he has very liberal visitation and never even tries to visit him) and he uses illegal drugs, meth and he drinks a lot. I think he is homeless now (he disappeared years ago but I hear rumors from friends) and it breaks my heart for my son and for him. My son has been in therapy for a few years now. He is heartbroken about his dad but we talk openly about addiction and mental illness and I always remind him that his dad loves him no matter what, but he is very ill. My worry is genetics. My son has been hearing voices lately and he says he can't look in mirrors when it's night time because he sees a shadow beside him, waving at him. It chills me and straight up scares me. I've talked to his therapist about this and we are kind of in a holding pattern at the moment, waiting to see if this gets worse. :( I tell him that I sometimes see or hear things that aren't there, too. And it seems very real and I believe him when he says he is scared. I tell him that stress or not enough sleep can make it worse. We do yoga and I've taught him some easy meditation exercises as well as calming and breathing teqniques. His therapist also teaches him these kinds of things. I guess I just needed to talk about this to others who understand. And sometimes I think, ok..I know exactly what delusions and paranoia and voices and hallucinating is like so now, I can 100 percent be there for my child if he goes through this, too. Thanks for reading this. I wish all of you a lot of peace and clarity.",3.2196462908612484,5.1164476410788415,4.173301285295011,86.08098421212429,74.66390041493776,7.275053132274063,25.863981378403,8.096554002634818,1.5665531221536282,1921,68,383,31,41,620,237,482,0.105,0.746,0.149,0.9455,1,0,3,0,0,0,60.0,11,1,0,0,23,24,1,3,14,1,35,19,3,3,5,77,67,46,0,5,10,13,1,2,1,1,11,7,0,4,24,41,1,3,6,6,0,5,6,4,1,1,9,12,66,20,44,55,10,45,1,0,4,4,88,18,0,9,23,252,90,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465938973274477,0.0,0.0,0.06883970625735654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06210359316333763,0.06461821667242272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946799826713188,0.08576787595907734,0.0,0.08749470337369437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08142361545454059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882189354506353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607591059233834,0.09005937729288647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08024214338539634,0.0,0.05129280493063379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05999887920516315,0.0,0.04057343860865599,0.0,0.0,0.19540916966431165,0.12422143094637593,0.0,0.08554975665711484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766718376928381,0.0,0.0,0.2625808228186714,0.09202587240681477,0.05205295512822298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426085959931605,0.04267916227692163,0.0,0.17520467620410968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16455780026413985,0.07588018595304574,0.0,0.06857400941466234,0.0,0.06521370592553266,0.0,0.0,0.13204521174258405,0.2803598491378261,0.07348249093623302,0.051837750915712896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15652330439614814,0.0,0.0,0.09095287055990914,0.0,0.08253885332034536,0.057088042180078076,0.05758290386766706,0.11979027448332848,0.0,0.0,0.07287738089394502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08148968802989197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08623073889889851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06780853645306865,0.08113675890156563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553593281043584,0.08839254365645187,0.09950023760921567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235145485844299,0.15549970965655402,0.0,0.18565166511154527,0.07069751695682684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0777147326661957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361277822355965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08895771949731575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08071707077667219,0.0,0.1872572400667181,0.13575416349817174,0.14299529957560692,0.08880943259979117,0.18033535294071304,0.10318591070196163,0.0995210525043519,0.0,0.0,0.04528338246573002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05272512469682232,0.0,0.0,0.08084539188760388,0.0,0.06707213822671547,0.0,0.1922295542993329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06982445144732442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930361322566488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788661272115378,0.1582815948096046,0.05516647577241223,0.0,0.0,0.20003849402968926 schizophrenia,LawlietDWBYF,2018/11/27,"Do you guys tell people you’re schizophrenic? Sometimes I feel like posting memes and complaining about my symptoms on social media; I’m just not sure if it’s the best idea, especially with the whole stigma around schizophrenia. I also don’t want anyone thinking I need attention. 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Could THC have caused my current schizophrenic like symptoms? As of the past week I’ve been having odd symptoms that are near perfect textbook examples of schizophrenia. This all started around a day after I smoked marijuana (I am in no way a regular smoker), I usually have very weird reactions to smoking marijuana and all my friends just say I’m overthinking it and making myself anxious. So yet again I started becoming anxious and panic-like as I got high but eventually after a few hours I sobered up and felt like myself again. The next day I started having these weird symptoms where I would believe I was in a simulation and that nothing was real and I thought everyone was looking at me constantly and I lost a lot of interest in socializing and my brain has a throbbing sensation near constantly and I have prominent short term memory loss and I couldn’t think clearly other than on my sudden infatuation on the simulation theory I had conducted. This has been going on for the past week and I know it’s not just being high because there’s no was it couldn’t last for a whole week and I don’t have anyone in my family who has a history of metal illness other than depression so I don’t know how I could be having these schizophrenic like symptoms other than the high THC content in the marijuana I smoked causing a psychotic episode and in turn causing me to obtain schizophrenia. I’ve been doing extensive reading on the subject and there is evidence to suggest that THC can cause a small number of people to experience a psychotic break and I was wondering if anyone else has ever had a similar problem to what I currently am going though and been diagnosed with schizophrenia as a result or if my body just somehow is reacting to the THC very abnormally. I just don’t know. 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I'm in a tough spot right now. I have been seeing my psychiatrist for over a year. I got a letter that they are moving locations and when I did a search on her name it showed that she works in another state now. So I emailed her and asked about where the new location is and also asked her if she still works there. I have not heard back from her and it has been a few week days. I'm starting to think now that she doesn't work there anymore. I have been pretty miserable the past year and gained a lot of weight. So I'm wondering if I should just find a different psychiatrist? I need someone I can trust and don't want to go to my appointment only to be hooked up with a different psychiatrist. I would rather find a psychiatrist I feel comfortable with. What would you do if you were in my situation?",2.9550168067226887,4.6248406529411765,4.069243697478992,87.51588235294119,74.82352941176471,8.38655462184874,23.319327731092443,9.04235418022936,1.5038739495798317,661,19,146,15,14,215,97,170,0.038,0.878,0.084,0.8409,3,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,4,15,4,0,1,12,0,20,1,0,0,0,28,35,13,0,10,6,0,2,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,6,8,1,0,6,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,7,4,25,2,16,23,2,25,0,1,1,0,16,8,0,5,14,105,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179359525571221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15464072170992946,0.0,0.0,0.14625588025717312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757390153018518,0.0,0.0,0.11339941069726775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09510937496997576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30816062198805744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456794814608247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40436928627791097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381361754949568,0.0,0.11794947796449101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253782352537201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15674291604521973,0.0,0.10935107411220736,0.0,0.28486514779186306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11216161915734132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14078187108922324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150035409149904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259431094093754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751872880720575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16576842801975494,0.0,0.0,0.12495535204469575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10438378385115656,0.0,0.11777397349851547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944962242017022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08698475910977342,0.0,0.11829579854123184,0.17958519815720456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599306834045848,0.3220913474858081,0.0,0.0,0.20952445866786554,0.0,0.0,0.18993852963898056 schizophrenia,philongeo,2019/10/25,"Why do schizophrenics have a hard time getting over coincicdences and make links out of the most randoms thing? Sorry in advance for my english I have a friend that has schizophrenia and i never know that to say or do when he's going on and making links with the most random stuff like there was a meaning behind it. So i thought it would be helpful to understand what the why it's something common with this ilness. I know there's an chemicals imbalance in their brain that make a disorder in their thoughts but why do schizophrenics have troubles with the simplest coincidences?",7.033698264352468,8.25581808411215,6.031241655540723,79.04710280373834,64.42056074766356,8.357276368491322,33.97730307076102,8.418075326091056,2.7146966622162885,473,20,81,6,7,142,72,107,0.084,0.8590000000000001,0.057,-0.4234,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,1,4,3,0,0,9,0,10,3,1,3,1,26,21,7,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,1,2,1,0,0,10,7,0,0,8,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,2,7,2,14,16,2,12,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,5,5,62,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100307660844896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21562915887153425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453594763511795,0.0,0.09829739935231056,0.0,0.10692648908030904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16853993965980946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12610886070216484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20679788562271934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09191758447560873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3767624543067701,0.0,0.0,0.20494381532779232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14510814036474748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496195457467815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14484233214284126,0.0,0.2106116431067875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21537970197324507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12499441777210715,0.0,0.0,0.2987304114112866,0.10970819538346074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958643892330695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5093116981134022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13365199711476955,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,candlerrr,2019/10/25,Tips on how to stay focused? Hi all! May as well introduce myself since I am new to the sub. You can call me Candle. I am STRUGGLING to stay focused. I am in school pursuing a software engineering degree and I cannot think straight lately for work or school or just about anything. I am all over the place and I’m about to have to find a slower paced job. Any advice or does anyone struggle like this? Feel like my brain used to be so sharp and now I can’t even type out a message correctly which communications is my whole job.,1.3401090342679112,3.7409778317757016,2.6650700934579445,91.83691978193147,83.76635514018692,5.43582554517134,21.06619937694704,6.816661863887847,0.4065208722741431,416,13,88,5,12,134,77,107,0.07,0.81,0.121,0.6655,3,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,8,5,0,2,5,0,11,1,1,2,3,17,15,9,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,11,3,14,13,3,11,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,4,5,58,13,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16932619494143533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11783563526525337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211606782584704,0.0,0.14259382033240764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19343662693499344,0.17693719262469576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516375862155271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11444911931003858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08761504898051363,0.12379052414738168,0.0,0.0,0.1583738308674194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3439052622264507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19546621517070792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16931069507999194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16735390001432238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810396333854846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507351183026976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433381469070239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693846332152917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3622975852406948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11103016131925976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496573868531839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579859563656126,0.0,0.0,0.19345977147393972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12614914713259984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GeminiRocket,2019/10/25,"I'm about to miss for the second time my appointment with my psychiatrist I still have meds for one week, I feel terribly guilty (it's a public hospital) but it's been two weeks I've stayed inside my flat, I can't get myself to go outside even for 1 hour. I feel horrible when I wake up everyday.",2.546451612903226,4.004820741935486,4.4718064516129035,85.08770967741938,75.45161290322581,8.830967741935485,23.690322580645162,9.3871,1.8453767741935487,234,7,51,6,5,80,48,62,0.182,0.818,0.0,-0.85,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,4,9,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,3,1,2,9,0,8,8,0,10,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052095566796928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141910653074593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16232407958802084,0.0,0.176573785653585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059696634076816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3451094793234133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21053337177706008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3311570123185397,0.2481195414315225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18116737529398766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035015611697895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4984377857930757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lil_Pask,2019/10/25,"I am isolating myself. At first i stopped responding to messages and calls from my friends and my boyfriend. Then i deleted every messaging app on my phone. Then i turned off my phone. Then I disposed of my phone. Then I stopped responding to my mother talking to me. Then i went outside without anything with me to go somewhere far away from other people. But there were too many people outside. Then i returned home. I have locked the door to my room and barricaded it with furniture. I have closed the blinds. My mother just asked me if she should call an ambulance but i didnt respond and now i hear her sobbing. While writing the previous sentence i noticed that there's a significant gap between my door and the floor so im going to try to block it. I don't want to people to think that i exist or even know thatexisted. I don't want anyone to have any memories of me. I am not going to go outside anymore, i wan't everyone to think that i have dissapeared. It seems like everyone i know thinks that i am bad and only keep contacting me becuse they feel sorry for such a miserable person. Now they wont have to feel sorry. I am not going to distract them from their proper lives anymore.",2.5673855507868377,5.0495143562231775,3.7945332618025738,85.14928201001432,79.25751072961373,6.6301144492131625,26.875715307582265,7.793537801064563,1.8054865522174528,947,40,178,16,24,308,128,233,0.111,0.8390000000000001,0.05,-0.9097,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,4,1,9,6,0,2,7,0,15,1,0,0,0,33,35,18,0,4,8,2,2,1,1,2,1,1,4,1,8,9,0,4,8,0,0,6,7,4,0,1,3,4,43,2,28,30,0,27,0,2,1,0,25,8,1,3,14,130,51,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0880446181854559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568005879753751,0.09052902912047583,0.0,0.10654347845209396,0.0,0.12103776807598413,0.0,0.1216421261038142,0.0,0.10810275229024388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644084284415353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551427578449494,0.0,0.1090847757031505,0.2474298922916296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309287045030936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101278394211863,0.0,0.0,0.1000288580445063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36790634040162107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459230583353868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298698196081033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398507360096269,0.0,0.0,0.11507964088241295,0.0,0.0,0.14230758712203626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06325291780146107,0.0,0.11432513313834736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13126312130377374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14740342159005226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846841609796643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692763578172955,0.11304895286254026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11786539984508496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898640347320999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21648685692573075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10406376548240526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488790798747373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08790220890032027,0.1408271070146219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15273052437281834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12002077566387427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12480527984683287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jae393,2019/10/25,"How to lose weight on antipsychotic medication (Paliperidone 6mg) I was diagnosed as schizophrenic by a doctor that didn't see me! It was the summer of 2011 he prescribed me 2mg of risperidone and 200mg of tegretol over the phone after my mother's concerns. He was a family doctor and had dealt with mental health cases with my siblings. My late sister was severely depressed and borderline anorexic, my older brother a fellow schizophrenic and my intermediate elder sister is diagnosed as bipolar. When we were younger she used to have frequent bouts of mania and intense energy but after being diagnosed and put on medication she seems just short tempered and a loner. She watches foreign series everyday as she can't bring herself to watching any TV show without a subtitle. My issues started when i began my first relationship I smoked a lot of weed and had this intense bout of paranoia about my previous gf cheating on me and trying to damage my reputation through the spread of rumors and i was also paranoid about my friends using me. This paranoia was mind crippling she suggested i was going schizophrenic and i told my mum and my mum spoke to my doctor and he felt i needed a little dose to stabilize. Although i had bouts of paranoia i was pretty normal I wasn't aggressive or had temper tantrums or delusions of grandeur but the moment i was put on medication it got worse after attempting withdrawal as all these became my symptoms. I remember the summer of 2013 when i abruptly quit risperidone as a result of the weight gain i became really delusional and aggressive and embarrassed myself on twitter. This didn't happen again till christmas 2017 when i quit risperidone again and the delusional thinking was even worse. I have gained a lot of weight on these drugs as i currently weigh almost 400lbs a 180lbs increase in my weight over the past 8 years. Sometimes i wonder whats the way forward my moods aren't low as i try to not use my sickness as an excuse to stay idle or not achieve things like having a job or getting a college degree but at the same time i wish i could be just normal and for me that would be losing weight. I am currently on Paliperidone 6mg and i want to know not necessarily how to lose weight but how to fend of the cravings that come randomly usually after taking the meds and in the intense stomach cramps that happens if i don't eat constantly. I have lost weight numerous times but I'm looking for a lifestyle change something that would lead to maintenance. Thanks for your help",6.734347288949897,7.943894455319151,6.7675840768702855,73.54629032258067,65.08510638297872,9.383665065202472,34.522992450240224,9.536714749202195,3.4530315717227165,2054,91,334,39,31,655,246,470,0.122,0.777,0.102,-0.9294,3,0,3,0,0,0,18.0,1,1,0,12,15,18,6,1,27,0,33,29,1,8,1,68,61,47,0,9,16,6,8,1,3,2,19,1,0,0,14,23,9,0,6,2,0,8,10,14,0,1,24,13,56,3,60,31,5,55,0,7,4,0,28,16,0,11,32,241,70,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07204153043775438,0.0,0.0,0.05753359617966417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04892439163329528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610721967269563,0.0619733914297755,0.0,0.0777459126854383,0.0,0.0574414352271495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061965267565555815,0.21906495722772334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22091321821313092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834322070823395,0.07361667971339572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047518337917096684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06782240668102299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907752877605515,0.0,0.0,0.06119553536164697,0.0,0.0,0.055583761125437434,0.0,0.03758777413073849,0.0,0.040887436968077416,0.0,0.05754019438240775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723969508384544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07647311488772117,0.0,0.0,0.04822255118844418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509085137374932,0.0713933255251832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03953854459384715,0.0,0.0811559732381701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03514820765022654,0.07210679510007523,0.0,0.0,0.06041484608194815,0.2414608228594005,0.07853538197010433,0.12232844353909192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991357284826718,0.21742805362475248,0.07250263736069043,0.0,0.07264293785417365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05334556938213609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14097970284916847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06867869504629505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07319291916941388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464719563899506,0.0,0.15304261381467033,0.0,0.0,0.04608917293507525,0.0,0.0,0.07724093892214412,0.08149853496546218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0573300587322295,0.06549512168806752,0.0,0.08127624954389474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05538601123760602,0.07115446224750789,0.0,0.05092233824871175,0.07668273870661174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07477736984809352,0.05409293950976462,0.0,0.0,0.0662363754037169,0.0,0.0,0.047796401265733916,0.04609881453317201,0.0,0.0,0.08390225775118676,0.0,0.0,0.06874558151164452,0.0,0.09769051606566936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18640956758298516,0.07923615922707514,0.0,0.04243443916716681,0.05710580381481381,0.0,0.6132589284791711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08273205718060568,0.06935145514820484,0.07802020635972244,0.0,0.0,0.14663417838800635,0.10221391639602892,0.0,0.0,0.046329581549423605 schizophrenia,yetiwolf,2019/10/25,DAE when looking at something... So does anyone have a full scene of a story play out in front of you when you look at a certain object for a while. A visual hallucination that moves and transforms? I'm very unwell and would appreciate it if you were nice to me :),3.7288461538461526,5.216507269230776,4.910769230769233,83.0092307692308,72.46153846153847,6.7384615384615385,24.538461538461537,7.1686216300943375,0.9611000000000004,206,6,41,2,4,68,42,52,0.0,0.764,0.23600000000000002,0.9001,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,0,3,3,0,0,5,0,3,0,0,0,1,6,6,7,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,3,8,4,1,10,0,0,2,0,3,5,0,1,3,30,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26460005742200515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3311578855176777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6355549722899332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4022005642092826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29132619811378263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122361251164161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688187052343349,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,_shredder_,2019/10/25,"What have been your guys’ experiences prior to being diagnosed with this disorder? 17 (almost 18) male speaking, I am not asking for you guys to diagnose me, I’m just trying to see if what I’ve been experiencing has been shared (or is currently being shared) by people who are actually diagnosed with schizophrenia. For context, I have done a lot of drugs in my past, ranging from the normal alcohol, nicotine, cannabis, to cocaine, acid (lots of it, over 20 times in the past year and a half), mushrooms, amphetamine, opiates, you name it. And I have been through a lot as a child, no abuse (per se...), and have a deep infatuation with mysticism, Taoist and Hindu philosophy (not trying to discuss it, I read all the rules and understand these are my own personal beliefs). When I was in 1st grade I would always be told by my teachers that oxygen was invisible, I would get in trouble cause they thought I was trying to be funny when I said “no that’s not true I see dots and circles everywhere”. Which is still true to this day, in class, driving, at work, ANYWHERE, I have constant geometric floaters, and can easily distinguish patterns that my own eyes make up in my visual environment. Even when I was younger, I couldn’t sleep at night due to the intense fear of “beings” in my room, this has since died down but I just thought I would note. Two years ago I started experiencing brief episodes of my peripheral vision violently shaking to the point where I would get dizzy and scared. I don’t experience this visual phenomena anymore, however everything has this “fuzz” to it, if I stare at something long enough it begins to buzz in place almost, and I’m able to make myself not feel my body if I need to whenever I want to, as well as this constant static sound within my ears. I know schizophrenia is usually auditory hallucinations, which I will get to in a sec, but these visual distortion/phenomena has been with me my whole life, and is increasingly getting more intense and noticeable as the years go on. The worst my visual hallucinations have gotten was several months ago when I’d be driving and would freak myself out when I swore to god I saw someone running towards my car from the side, or an animal. Extreme paranoia from this. Auditory wise, these last couple weeks have been filled with me hearing someone say my name multiple times in the school hallway, I’ll turn around to see if it was one of my friends only to be met by blank stares of random people (I’m 6 5, so if it was someone I knew, I’d be able to see them over top everyone). Delusionally speaking (definetly been influenced by the amount of times I’ve used LSD), I experience episodes of deep seeded fear that I am the only one who truly exists, and that everyone and everything is only a figment of my imagination. This sometimes makes me feel like I can control when people look at me, or when they perform little actions. Usually tho, I try to ignore this delusional thinking and brush it off as a “brief acid flashback”, however recently the thought that “everything behind my line of vision ceases to exist” is what’s been scaring me. Again, I’m not asking for a diagnosis, I’m just wondering if anyone who’s been legitimately diagnosed with this disorder experienced similar things leading up to the diagnosis.",11.471665307232193,8.171650975530179,10.925899265905382,62.22179071506254,58.00489396411093,14.262343665035345,44.464994562262106,12.311054993355176,5.353184937466014,2620,116,460,62,24,860,299,613,0.095,0.843,0.062,-0.9715,3,0,4,0,1,0,80.0,0,3,3,5,18,18,1,5,23,0,56,11,4,8,3,85,98,40,1,15,19,0,3,1,1,6,7,8,1,5,36,23,1,2,13,1,0,12,9,10,1,4,26,26,60,8,80,57,12,81,2,0,9,0,29,34,0,17,36,319,96,6,0.13810765626567156,0.08181749457187197,0.06738657512318501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12242410434037147,0.07379754166386304,0.1382948681404552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05745831679335516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06848284219063516,0.0482840422119552,0.0,0.0,0.06147254729995968,0.12911201544521636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07670323598436497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07093730324482163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14924531277943773,0.07744974001716268,0.0,0.07640674740418045,0.0,0.044534006465010816,0.0,0.0,0.2803527279326616,0.07166697140842912,0.0,0.15828333916667134,0.0,0.0,0.07066604115693381,0.0,0.0,0.08008051749461803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07135106371302258,0.0,0.045609402219574234,0.0,0.0,0.1319677840354351,0.1861833843277528,0.20264368291398926,0.0,0.15540950951286006,0.06983138067868801,0.04933206861570515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05335081632000197,0.0,0.1443111004310232,0.0,0.039244881873984366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13674829295780186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07782868298506704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03795017802818657,0.056288086419928406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04877476097453613,0.033736212382115355,0.06921007688066659,0.0,0.061110464900313376,0.05798782398055725,0.0,0.0,0.17612128587082362,0.0,0.0,0.13828189947129324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055118106803680574,0.0,0.0,0.05120253858261856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06480233986806037,0.06765809005422223,0.0,0.07861824101492475,0.0,0.0,0.09358532213985646,0.1575556439390738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318393851126238,0.1436196892184621,0.06029513919527535,0.0721465530406976,0.0,0.0652781877552914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907251507942569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06818232456527683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06568600372185565,0.0549143757489458,0.13826985699737107,0.06988616067836606,0.2201078423704118,0.0,0.0,0.07801117039938071,0.0,0.05712204021405212,0.0,0.06910369798166949,0.0,0.17552725346642878,0.05316101056146063,0.06829600172518792,0.0,0.048876654970524035,0.0,0.05514647634734885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0458762950375142,0.044246904796148616,0.0,0.16446307845005712,0.1207975275012968,0.0,0.0,0.06598389201771755,0.0,0.187532065959479,0.07511073570260547,0.06745555617211406,0.07188747040032985,0.0,0.059640336188402476,0.15210607167392715,0.0,0.040729736955741086,0.0,0.05539081566545785,0.0,0.0620876845227891,0.0,0.0,0.07709613305593953,0.0,0.0,0.07488593097096655,0.05027200930782818,0.0,0.0,0.2452692912722386,0.0,0.0,0.13340520389657598 schizophrenia,espeditto,2019/10/25,"I’m so tired. Can’t tell if this is happening or not I don’t know if what I am experiencing is paranoia, shitty people or if my brain is building things out of context from what it hears but almost every time I am out in public people say rude comments, creep on me (staring, making comments about my appearance or the way I behave and hold myself), or think I’m creeping on them! And it is so weird I am making the effort to only have eye contact on my friend so I don’t go looking at people or staring at others but I’ve been accused of looking at people in the corner of my eye or being a creepy lesbian when nothing I’ve done is evident to that. Then I have people making fun of my dating life when I talk about my innocent dates with cute girls and start heckling me. It’s absurd. I know lgbt topics can be a trigger to random people to eavesdrop and talk shit but why on earth should I filter myself? I’m not being vulgar or disgusting in any way. And if I tell my friends people are talking shit about me then it gets worst! The heckling gets worst but my friends only pay attention to me and not their environment so they’ve never heard anything out of the blue and I feel so distressed. I do live in a hick town and I am a minority. I do not think I am interesting to people in any way unless they find a random lgbt person’s life to be some form of entertainment. I have asked people if I look weird or if I do weird things but so far the consensus is that I look and act totally normal. It is possible that my town has a lot of shitty people with nothing better to do but it happening all the time is weird. I am just so upset because some of these things I hear are hurtful and homophobic and I’ve done nothing to deserve such hateful things. I just want to eat or drink something nice in public and talk to my friends and enjoy our time together. I don’t want to sit somewhere and have people bombard me with their catty behavior. If it is any way helpful information I am taking risperidone 2mg and Effexor for my anxiety and depression. I do not have a family history of schizophrenia. I have heard random gibberish when I haven’t slept for a long time but it wasn’t anything ever offensive. I have heard bad things when I was on the wrong medication but when it was taken out of my system then I’ve stopped hearing bad voices. I don’t hear anything mean or hateful in absolute silence or from radios or tv etc. I just hear it in loud environments where I can hear people near me (e.g. arms length away). When my mood is low these things tend to occur more often but again I don’t know if it’s my brain or just me going out more frequently to talk to my supportive friends in public when I’m upset. I am going to see my psychiatrist and tell them about what’s happening. Reddit do you have any advice on how to cope with this? Especially when it’s happening at the moment?",4.470257720700651,5.171861877342419,5.738603066439524,80.72762503822129,69.9199318568995,8.405521338400384,28.168828899663648,8.5409612609427,1.9787123487528944,2290,77,452,35,39,769,232,587,0.18600000000000005,0.731,0.083,-0.997,0,0,2,0,0,0,36.0,1,1,5,2,29,36,7,3,17,0,55,15,8,5,4,100,104,67,0,12,40,0,1,0,5,1,4,12,0,2,29,26,2,2,10,4,1,5,14,22,0,0,11,24,67,13,66,88,11,68,0,3,10,1,41,32,2,30,25,326,96,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05652274524512847,0.0,0.0,0.05792062527372816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733876486622558,0.0,0.04424913786660117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14279764893375052,0.0,0.054074664992941834,0.0,0.05434466714524682,0.0,0.096591670646805,0.03526007875674607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051156740649827566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12914208801662574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049819416950780925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11838534124843028,0.0,0.05666335213197308,0.0,0.059187028560696575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06450936212091145,0.0,0.05232159702196256,0.048734562738095205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054528494587272686,0.0,0.029246763000124406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05286673865617977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234437677745172,0.0,0.06044034231563448,0.0,0.09861919509375486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045987267097978,0.0,0.0,0.11421442882426193,0.0,0.0,0.3911542960348359,0.0,0.038770418953583165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06192128987536916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09536570966940427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08171133726676168,0.0,0.0,0.05107573754043995,0.051188542067946013,0.19429157818383289,0.0,0.0,0.04917538463919823,0.0,0.0,0.11583038747730875,0.0,0.0,0.06300713160013413,0.0,0.05826994855824405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04461148379417588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05667309182849424,0.1665035023616755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08798322536054154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4812061250286368,0.05050559301462924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06520840898394939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04599845276492882,0.0,0.0,0.046092758282243386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874840956134312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04452976474551243,0.0,0.0,0.04094101907390859,0.0,0.0,0.048358683614707916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06563866266134867,0.0,0.0,0.04349014881085283,0.2324569159616576,0.15166994209701345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305667936527764,0.07412591448056358,0.0,0.0,0.1349130481070253,0.06648111978215195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06823367673527997,0.18364983884237251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05219360427668584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06324138432728668,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mycuriosity2017,2019/06/08,recently I thought a lot about 'information poisoning' e.g. 'involuntarily consuming too much information' without being able to gracefully process and 'digest' it ... so I googled up the term 'information poisoning' and came up with few relevant links (such as: https://www.scotthyoung.com/blog/2007/08/27/9-steps-to-stop-information-poisoning/ ) i expected there to be more professionally written articles on the topic ...,16.476509433962267,21.01727962264152,12.732216981132073,27.37870283018869,45.22641509433962,15.866037735849053,49.099056603773576,13.816669648895859,9.003607547169812,352,19,34,14,4,104,44,53,0.129,0.8140000000000001,0.057999999999999996,-0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,12,5,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,5,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,0,3,1,9,0,5,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,2,28,4,1,0.3833507507154155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4384511330131753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3259110995056715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28180691067853625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3785126185523121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204983929084184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043376753736562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36953644378621975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,birdbrooch,2019/06/08,"what do you do about feelings of shame? Because of schizoaffective, I've never been able to hold a regular job for very long. I currently lack recent contacts to make for good references, and my A.A.S. for Visual Arts that I earned in my mid twenties never amounted to much. I occasionally find illustration or writing gigs online, but my freelance endeavors isn't enough to help me full time, just enough to supplement bills my disability won't cover. I have frequent moments of intense shame that I am not on a good life path, and I'm turning 32 this year, so everything feels like it's too late to make any concrete changes. &#x200B; I don't currently live with my parents or my home town, and I have no friends or anyone close here except for those I live with. &#x200B; Do you have these feelings? What do you do when you have them? What makes them calm down?",7.641172086720863,7.493165054878053,6.914227642276423,77.94676151761519,63.085365853658544,9.97181571815718,35.905149051490504,9.444778638647367,3.1909628726287265,695,29,129,11,9,214,108,164,0.08,0.7929999999999999,0.127,0.8437,4,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,4,2,1,6,7,0,2,2,0,14,1,0,3,2,26,22,9,0,1,7,1,3,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,9,6,0,1,5,1,1,0,7,2,0,0,1,3,21,5,20,20,6,19,0,0,0,0,11,7,0,3,13,87,30,2,0.13841650047418086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999484408679438,0.33638239703417955,0.0941279668264928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09678403547548564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843774139535518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14642630412869126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860424921053923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439982547872053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099626247707214,0.09888477559567932,0.0,0.0,0.12651017380706425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10694024490937704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321943869427172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927776625732361,0.0,0.1388430357672162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13735701870422656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15613984153326688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776766774715072,0.0676233104441848,0.0,0.2444486116530942,0.12249424720639705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771822666647701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10175205425519074,0.0,0.21351067654454214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15369514328812994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13666959552721367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08071177454250564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15055740521722205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420810903982148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33638239703417955,0.08913568814214218 schizophrenia,selfmadealien23,2019/06/08,"Has anyone experienced this?? Hey guys! not really sure how to start this so I guess I'll just jump into it. I'm not sure if anyone has experienced this if you are in a relationship, no matter how healthy, before but has anyone dealt with the thoughts that they could possibly be being abused by their partner but just can't see past the love they have for them? It's a strange thought because my fiancee and I imo have a generally healthy relationship however sometimes the thoughts come in that maybe I'm being abused and it hurts my heart because I love them dearly and I really can't tell if this is a delusion or something that I should genuinely be concerned about",7.537076411960138,7.2525946899224865,7.2390033222591414,75.9858139534884,63.341085271317816,10.472203765227023,35.4828349944629,9.957137785484203,3.3326137320044285,541,22,102,10,7,171,79,129,0.139,0.703,0.157,0.6759999999999999,1,0,1,0,2,0,7.0,0,1,5,0,6,6,0,0,7,0,15,3,1,2,2,28,26,12,0,5,10,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,10,6,0,0,3,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,3,3,13,5,8,17,0,7,0,1,1,2,15,3,0,5,2,70,23,0,0.0,0.35826864352330584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3171447328768425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18432690389946205,0.0,0.12865076040587614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13023599401532465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12071216762361076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16655180249346707,0.1497009462294219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791597723278167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16185102317736866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27290807154398866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518897389812847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14432707183961174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17044295645428212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937111754597248,0.0,0.0,0.3246409540327092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120478111874987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11639273019691335,0.1495298531456156,0.0,0.10701239978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849878127742518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321459084754331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3600816936175516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,johnhoward109,2019/06/08,"My thoughts Recently i’ve been thinking really broadly recently. like out of the main construct of this reality, and i’ve been thinking things that I can’t explain. I know that usually psychosis/psychotic episodes are usually something that you can’t control, but i’ve feel like i’m in control of mine. I can go into a brain numb like stage whenever I want to, and exit whenever I want to. although sometimes I worry about my control. always there’s something that snaps me back to reality. usually something that’s out of my ordinary day to day activities. if there isn’t, I feel zoned out and feel this sense that everything is in one cycle that repeats over and over. I can see what would happen if i was to exit this cycle, and I usually can’t exit it if it’s something normal. if it’s something out of the usual, I usually can exit it. I’ve been wondering what to do with this. i’m sure some people on the page understand this, and honestly I feel very powerful. I feel like my creativity could take over the world, as long as I think.",4.938209059233451,5.956145068292685,6.29534843205575,76.00859756097563,69.04878048780488,9.954703832752612,33.667247386759584,10.125756701596842,3.5664564459930306,829,39,154,21,14,281,97,205,0.035,0.8140000000000001,0.151,0.9693,1,0,5,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,4,4,7,0,0,5,0,16,2,1,3,1,40,37,14,0,9,5,0,5,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,19,12,0,3,13,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,5,6,21,6,26,30,3,32,0,0,1,0,2,17,0,6,17,105,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07940857440314192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07338270859497968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653569306464336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3211113961852832,0.07619613122787725,0.0,0.0,0.1230938239477208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576975421556905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412710073043336,0.13635586490358714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05423723311353948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08439180241288073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05244792579639652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18649655475708016,0.0,0.0,0.08445591812756206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09350487062416886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06466841904638093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616178715013148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06113734197723306,0.0,0.1884587469797617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07604839017668195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3673480444700526,0.0943864776606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0899452358779665,0.0,0.07175434772979969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06340198236103277,0.18345039470526425,0.0,0.07576378454570068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934996116347113,0.0,0.0,0.6306411491200619,0.07874288733183156,0.11257866669162156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349389528139202,0.0,0.09691766583892404,0.0,0.06779344001615388,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Norfulthing,2019/01/02,"How to look for professional mental health? Following what I can describe as a quickening degradation to my mental health, I am putting aside my reluctance to work with a mental health professional and am currently seeking professional help. I have not sought medication or professional help in almost 6 years, and now I'm seeing it affect me negatively &#x200B; In the past I was seeing counselors and psychiatrists to address issues with initially severe depression and suicidal ideation. My current reluctance of seeing mental health professionals stemed from my time living in Florida, and anything I brought up in a session resulted in me being baker acted for weeks at a time. I now live in the Southwest US and as far as I know I do not have to worry about being involuntary committed to facilities, so I think I can start being open to behavioral health again. &#x200B; My question, I need to find someone who is skilled with psychosis and suicidal ideation, however when I search online I'm not sure how to tell who I should be approaching. I see things like ""Counselor"", ""LPCC"", ""NCC"" and ""LCSW"", and I don't know what any of this means. I want to be able to find someone who is designated to help me, and not get stuck with counseling visits with guided meditation and breathing exercises and no real solutions. &#x200B; &#x200B;",12.123813559322038,10.102436635593225,11.214000000000002,56.69794915254239,55.52542372881357,14.694237288135595,46.48135593220338,13.187427743715654,6.30799627118644,1090,54,164,31,10,352,133,236,0.115,0.8029999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.8959999999999999,3,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,1,0,0,2,8,4,0,0,6,0,17,8,1,4,2,41,35,20,2,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,7,0,1,0,8,18,0,0,7,1,0,6,7,2,0,0,3,5,25,2,34,26,0,28,0,1,5,0,10,10,0,3,13,116,33,7,0.07819981574757515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830581953121532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389178707638389,0.3800853421186912,0.053178556294295465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.064351785304132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06735338671607398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14294642976834265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04085617614973922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4156137367571484,0.0,0.0,0.15724706434268845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08162029069050154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595314726601508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03820447994899808,0.0,0.13810373998429645,0.0,0.06566815010109672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08518252441065308,0.0,0.07877808732780901,0.3152280859223982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057984172510559526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746505726246505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07861241376035243,0.08760169050586428,0.0,0.0,0.0890085104391683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492605143461677,0.0,0.0,0.0883435331021631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13251690022985327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05535023207837645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171075812168312,0.0,0.07370240088528428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06835008575978235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05195248281114637,0.050107284360879766,0.0,0.0,0.09119788285734172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09406474985497663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04612427741528248,0.0,0.06272717525253327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0569303972195452,0.07941570880105064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3800853421186912,0.050358117459768016 schizophrenia,SatanicMessiah666,2019/01/02,"What can I do if a family member makes fun of me all the time, causing me to become suicidal, but I have nowhere else to go? I am thinking about going to a shelter at a church but I’ve never been to one before. Homelessness is my next best option and I do have a tent but I’ve never been homeless before. Any other suggestions? I don’t have any friends. Twenty four year old male, by the way.",0.6444579945799447,2.8219891097561,2.9291869918699187,90.2896612466125,84.73170731707317,5.595663956639567,20.08672086720868,6.937597516519254,0.4636216802168023,305,9,64,4,9,104,57,82,0.034,0.813,0.153,0.8936,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,6,0,11,0,0,2,3,12,15,5,1,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,2,0,8,3,8,13,2,10,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,6,46,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303318190985979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24630457290929544,0.37954180153785416,0.0,0.2340424094721485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290997225405841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863019488945053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102404242141178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723022536399897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25349121371128963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14886546923425126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34400866367940885,0.0,0.2371809342807716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340186530478023,0.0,0.15112197923648465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24394422058575085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14290018295581713,0.0,0.0,0.13004291004515034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17702038318368846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14361552995934568 schizophrenia,kobebryant24824,2019/01/02,"I am scared of developing schizophrenia I’m 15 and I’ve been almost certain that I’m going to develop schizophrenia. I have anxiety, sadness, de realization, difficulty concentrating and short term memory loss my doctor has told me that he doesn’t think that I’m going to develop it but I cannot get it out of my mind I would just like to know for sure. 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A very, very close friend of mine made me realise that I am seeing and hearing things others are not, including him. After he sat me down to think things through I realised this had been going on for months without me really noticing, I thought it was really happening. I still am not sure, I don't know what to trust now. I don't know what's real and isn't real anymore, and I don't feel like I can trust my thoughts anymore. The doctor put me on seroquel 25mg twice a day. It made me sleep 15 hours the first day. I feel a lot better, more refreshed. After a few days on it, I am starting to feel like I can figure out what is and isn't real. Today I was able to convince myself I was imagining the person in the car behind me was following me, last week I would have panicked the entire way home. I'm still talking slowly, and thinking slowly. But, overall, I feel a lot better. Still seeing and hearing things but I have been able to tell if no one else is reacting to it, its just me. But, when the doctor prescribed this, he told me I need to follow up with my psychiatrist ASAP. I see one, every 6 months or so now (used to be 2 times a week) for PTSD, with atypical depersonalisation, derealisation and disassociation. When I was diagnosed they leaned towards schizophrenia at first but after months of various tests said I had warning signs but they thought it was PTSD. Thats when they made me look into the lights to become better. The lights flashed and buzzed in my hand. It was to help me process trauma but it just made me remember things I had forgotten and I told them it made me better so I could stop going regularly. Now my doctor said I need to call them when they open tomorrow, or go to the hospital if the voices start to tell me to hurt myself or someone else. If I call them I'm supposed to tell them my doctor wants me to see them immediately. But I am scared to go back. They'll make me use the light things again or they'll say I got better from them and tell me to go away. Should I just pretend its all okay and tell my doctor to forget about it happening? 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I’m not schizophrenic, but I’m just curious about the overlap between the communities, if it exists. There are a lot of people with schizophrenia in /x/. I could even pull multiple active threads from there as examples, but reddit mods tend not to take kindly to 4chan links. There are three different gangstalking threads currently up and several threads in which the original poster is not thinking clearly and exhibits signs. There are some regular schizophrenic users who will drift in and out, and can be recognized by their delusions. The gangstalking posters generally blend together but the ones who think they are a special entity can usually be recognized, as can those who made up specific words to describe things. There are several ways people respond to the “schizos” as they are usually referred to. Some people like their threads and replies because of the entertainment value and originality, others think they should all be banned, and others think that schizophrenia is a spiritual gift and we should listen closely to the users and try to decipher what they are trying to say. The board in general has become obsessed with schizophrenia as a topic of discussion in its own right and there will usually be a thread simply about schizophrenia. Sometimes these threads will attract sz posters who explain what the condition is like and how terrible it is. A lot of them on /x/ are struggling. Are any of you familiar with this situation or visit /x/? What do you think of it?",8.015111111111112,9.622460881481484,6.867407407407409,72.54333333333336,62.407407407407405,10.74074074074074,38.33333333333333,10.746095033038511,4.542555555555556,1258,63,199,32,18,380,146,270,0.068,0.818,0.114,0.9289,2,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,1,3,7,0,11,9,0,2,17,0,29,2,0,4,2,52,42,21,0,4,9,0,0,2,0,5,2,2,0,0,19,17,0,1,8,1,0,4,3,3,0,2,1,2,12,6,37,31,6,24,0,0,0,0,21,13,0,6,8,150,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19044227585676884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08535734535647263,0.15464553334667605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11179778928199127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14629530245496666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248454723455657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07957887967738822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14581347348802948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13681733045076974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23808683574663586,0.0,0.1324941171202381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09488390249269907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2912250826571169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11957975139262,0.0,0.1113527240142148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31637458166589044,0.0,0.0,0.15739286971957275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13848734011194114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14638351232913271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528063982109293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09302573962529437,0.4486087031903809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901342417154061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.462650039875533,0.0,0.0,0.11114455264602736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Carteelith777,2019/10/19,"Feels like the world is ending... end times signs everywhere... very disappointed cause there’s so many people I would’ve liked to meet, so much music I wanted to see, a career reset I never followed through with.. Ugh",2.7052499999999995,5.637149025000002,3.1650000000000027,86.62000000000002,83.75,5.2,18.0,6.742157984588678,0.2746,171,4,30,2,5,53,36,40,0.149,0.723,0.128,-0.2247,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,6,5,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,2,4,5,1,6,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,6,15,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3088100214678825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5325037524738447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15199781483159014,0.2147563619058644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937264314661299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047720922905205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209834714864609,0.0,0.2318495230764782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20840562619875413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395478275128045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17528853111410844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480353305126173,0.17730799407858489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21354523399850672,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Greenphoenix239,2019/10/19,My friend didn't want to take their pill. So my friend didn't want to take their pill because they felt sleepy after taking it and they didn't like the feeling. They also don't want to see the doctor and have been skipping appoinment. What should or can I do to encourage them?,4.241785714285712,5.395228178571434,3.9878571428571448,91.40714285714287,70.78571428571428,7.028571428571429,22.92857142857143,7.1686216300943375,0.5704428571428571,222,5,47,2,4,67,36,56,0.11900000000000001,0.7190000000000001,0.162,0.7618,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,6,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,9,3,0,0,0,9,18,5,0,4,1,0,2,1,2,1,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,3,9,4,5,12,0,1,0,0,1,0,9,0,0,1,2,32,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20846065545577888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15890426174130387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668105670742702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13180444986863474,0.0,0.2502876211831808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.402791692030601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273519976394567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20772318113608693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5879825201881453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4612562879814896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SmallBear91,2019/10/19,"I am not real and the world is keeping secrets from me. I’m really struggling at the moment with these weird feelings I haven’t had before. Like that I’m not real. I feel like I’m plastic. I keep having the urge to cut myself to make sure I’m real, but at the same time I scared that if I do there won’t be any blood. I will just be empty inside. Or maybe there will tar or something. When I look at myself I’m the mirror I honestly do not recognise the face staring back at me. Like AT ALL. Or maybe that the world around me isn’t real? It’s really hard to express what I’m feeling. Kinda like there is a big secret about the world that everyone else is in on but I just don’t fucking know what it is. Almost like The Truman Show. Not necessarily that I am on a TV show and don’t know it, but more the feeling that everyone else knows something I don’t. Something important, that affects me and they are purposely keeping it a secret. Sometimes I am just filled with this like, existential dread. I don’t know who I am, what I am doing and what is going on in the world. I don’t know what happening to me. I am really struggling. Does anyone have any idea wtf is happening to me?",1.4908607994389875,3.3386921008064516,3.507959326788217,89.11726507713888,79.60483870967742,6.248527349228612,21.669705469845727,7.255503002510835,0.6654731416549784,923,27,198,12,23,313,108,248,0.14800000000000002,0.785,0.067,-0.9635,0,0,3,0,0,1,25.0,0,0,1,0,10,15,2,4,14,0,31,3,2,2,2,48,55,12,0,1,14,0,5,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,19,7,0,3,13,3,0,2,12,7,0,0,1,7,27,8,20,49,3,22,0,0,2,1,6,16,1,6,10,137,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10589369313332067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14382771945209846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07394309880011225,0.0,0.0,0.09414022584401656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08131548636006485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.089985753202738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09254283799423503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17668168435184106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20209796956369847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21388220390520551,0.07554806632908233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776448827218058,0.0,0.0,0.060100357071766634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187029358534072,0.0,0.09473153604436364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193792655237823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819872919765486,0.0,0.0,0.29058811512732474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30998565625824953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880365440357016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0705891752668359,0.0,0.21248086716126224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4814681691412202,0.2032391332846124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587454186367287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24423534212427225,0.10458979347772616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22110643919758616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966844698463433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061663875555597485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,leugim1,2019/10/19,"Life after psychosis? Hi! I hope this post finds you well. I would like to know your experiences after psychosis. I am finding it hard to be motivated an get off my couch where I spend most of my day. I am also bored - it’s like the things that used to bring be pleasure don’t do anymore (like music)! Socializing has also been different: I don’t speech as much and I am more quiet and introverted and I don’t know how to enjoy the moment. Lastly, I have a permanent thinking process: “when will be back to myself?” “will I ever recover?” “how long will the stage last?”. Thanks for reading can’t wait to read your experiences! (I am on antidepressants and antipsychotics)",2.081432291666665,4.756640320312503,3.5942500000000024,84.49241666666667,83.296875,6.538333333333332,22.59583333333333,7.793537801064563,1.3327108333333335,523,18,100,10,15,172,84,128,0.027000000000000003,0.784,0.18899999999999997,0.9688,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,0,1,9,9,0,0,5,0,19,1,0,4,1,18,28,10,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,4,1,2,1,0,5,4,0,1,6,2,1,1,4,1,1,0,1,3,17,8,13,20,3,16,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,13,75,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277400329221601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720061968138349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13336490348743085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185466075730056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18120822391122948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568867028965316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33931583533829485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3170426283883928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061541091585296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15536846334325433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17226537639222936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906365326621614,0.2827540260104545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12250603023133674,0.25420254480376936,0.0,0.0,0.15348922907971324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274985945959654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16610788726215306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34697451925565537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17680056868000224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15968054809279503,0.0,0.0,0.11522604466891265,0.11113355654228532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14979675311823518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15594368081298093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12320703007484562,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,flock_of_fools,2019/10/19,"psychosis helps with ptsd? So, I've noticed that very often my psychosis is triggered by my CPTSD and flashbacks. Once the trauma hits me, the psychosis often follows. But in some cases, like something that happened to me earlier today, it actually helps me? Like it's a really obviously clear way that my brain is trying to help me through a confusing and terrifying ""real"" situation I don't understand by giving me an ""unreal"" situation that I can understand and that either helps me through the trauma or helps me process and distance myself from it? Like earlier, I started having a flashback (and mine are to recovered memories, so they're unorthodox and I can't make sense of them because I don't really know clearly what happened to me) and thanks to watching some video game playthroughs just beforehand, my brain latched onto the idea that I WAS one of the game characters. And while that was its own kind of confusing, it let me express my feelings in metaphors related to it, and pulled me into a safer and more understandable unreality for a while until the flashbacks went away. Another time, I just hallucinated an entire woman's presence comforting me and helping me through a flashback when I was alone and no one was there to help me. I'd have passed out from the panic if she hadn't told me calmly to just lay down and breathe, and I'm really grateful. Anyone else like this? Where their psychosis helps them instead of being constantly bad and terrifying?",9.717194738347153,8.736847851301118,9.236877323420076,65.69401772948243,59.33457249070632,12.44049185015728,41.881898770374605,11.51311941424646,4.976724106376894,1188,57,195,28,13,382,150,269,0.11599999999999999,0.728,0.156,0.8972,0,1,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,3,0,11,14,0,3,15,0,16,3,3,2,3,43,32,24,0,1,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,15,18,0,0,6,3,0,4,5,6,0,2,7,2,33,8,29,22,5,21,0,0,1,0,18,8,0,8,12,147,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.10401221375911117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11039058303798517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11176434151485592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745271607960963,0.10920958838471263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014072148783837,0.0,0.08899456097904106,0.06497361952703369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23796965825306274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11518121634007282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08903862911541109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053892904343097764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10224666228658202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18850666665647464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5715368856371268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203222188653702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11099254678974182,0.05857668270049779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10899104278556684,0.0,0.208289447997428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07114674528040359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12134846258117975,0.0,0.11351023269461027,0.144450382191585,0.0,0.0,0.12505528852988165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12459291451258163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12131779788127885,0.20484447923000168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396134601121832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08205483635369631,0.0,0.0,0.07544186769146764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09812974111996924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062150946381969975,0.0,0.10103072814800093,0.10184715084063713,0.0,0.07236465607432972,0.0,0.0,0.3328782442591428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08794431917219211,0.0,0.08460272336219912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09880596018399827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Astronymoose,2019/10/19,"My mother who has schizophrenia got into a argument with my father. Yesterday, my parents got into a heated argument. A couple days back, my father and I took my mother to the doctor to get her new medication. Whilst there, I found out that she has schizophrenia. Anyway, during the argument, my mother’s sisters came over and tried to comfort her. However she started shouting and cussing at everyone. She then attempted to kick one of her sisters. At that point, my father restrained her to keep her from harming the sisters by hugging her. My father sustained 3 injuries by doing so. A cut on his brow. A bite mark on his arm, and a bruise on his elbow. At this point, my mother’s sisters have pulled out of the situation and I was trying to call emergency services. But I wasn’t able to provide the necessary information for someone to come over. Eventually my mother calmed down, and we talked around a table. My mother made some excuses for her actions, for example; Her sisters were jealous of her and my father was eyeing other woman, which are ridiculous false accusations. After that ordeal, my mother went upstairs and went to bed. Leaving my father and I downstairs to comprehend what just happened. I have no Idea what to do next. Could someone please give me some advice. My father is planning on just bailing and moving out with me, without her knowing. Leaving my mother’s sisters with all the weight. With my mother now not seeing them as sisters but more like traitors, it would be chaotic.",4.639854545454547,7.1883561854545475,5.177090909090911,77.53763636363638,72.6,6.872727272727272,30.63636363636364,7.839951260653429,2.471727272727274,1201,54,188,17,25,384,153,275,0.08199999999999999,0.879,0.039,-0.8285,2,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,1,0,1,2,8,8,3,0,13,0,15,7,3,1,1,41,31,15,0,2,6,24,1,1,0,1,2,1,1,1,10,23,1,2,4,0,0,8,4,4,0,1,12,4,43,4,43,16,4,36,0,0,2,1,49,18,0,2,11,151,53,2,0.1408304545278676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13761789025420268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12536896232002773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10828992658676148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14380363986171135,0.16107252231871266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12131296659510657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244165846212123,0.1558262192970302,0.0,0.09082399255765794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144145937706587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13456953445791953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15441332438459884,0.0,0.0,0.07357809992815505,0.13509740459319253,0.0,0.0,0.2252699591855871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12453590583927485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15898044122012162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12517657875288793,0.0,0.0,0.07739673477394987,0.0,0.0,0.2982382340652905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06880264646128709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332571812122039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14187186682157124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14968048570238932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13601493055312258,0.14977478607705985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09543036070889337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15637555359254704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15458954847982045,0.2662605999090652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11222363887829677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582993314540622,0.0,0.0,0.2386503742187271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09968052056519616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11319418478669507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15646781680489674,0.19122926854119726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17149355366959815,0.0,0.2611024845345631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13575553261837495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10004191427346093,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,redsnake3,2019/10/19,"Developing schizophrenia? Ever since I was in second grade , every now and then(not very often) the ac unit told me to kill my sisters best friend, I see shadow people, and hear noises that sound like they’re coming right out of my mouth loud and clear right in my ear and I remember seeing a lot of visions of “ghosts” too. I get paranoid there’s a demon or something in my closet and now almost every time I go to bed I see weird black shapes moving around and I get anxious . Tonight I heard heavy breathing and footsteps. Mind you , I’m not an easy scarer but I’m actually so freaked out right now because it’s been getting worse and worse lately and it’s currently 2 am and I can’t sleep and as of now I’m almost 16 . Is it schizophrenia or something else ?",1.9430921052631585,4.333366861842109,2.9426315789473705,90.88592105263159,81.03947368421052,4.852631578947369,22.0,5.985473137389443,0.28379473684210543,601,19,119,4,16,191,101,152,0.142,0.7829999999999999,0.075,-0.9008,1,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,10,6,1,0,4,0,5,4,4,0,2,27,19,16,2,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,5,2,0,4,15,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,3,0,1,4,9,15,3,13,15,2,22,1,0,4,0,6,10,0,6,10,68,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.14078892921400346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889356873486142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16298660567305082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284329125585844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08794703996546595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15140485208597035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12427779047224988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052097343946234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13050253279616306,0.2431112287862797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11146440205122923,0.0,0.2261289277527164,0.0,0.08199325883631825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16260533970710306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15961589695694245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627454106508523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07048414626105623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12265512927571914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14567387069916188,0.0,0.0,0.1533385965408951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10002023015292613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634323637703448,0.3696232045713365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34489897337436753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193435170366547,0.0,0.14437646706012466,0.0,0.0,0.22213569213750592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412632396248759,0.0,0.0,0.13785834174781553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11903973657731028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29405154821040885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,notsokeesiafterall,2019/10/19,"My BF(22) cat's death triggered his schizophrenia he got after finding his dad dead 2.5 years ago (which was minimal until now) and he cannot feel anything but anger. How can I help him feel again? He won't let me see him (we live 2 hours apart) because he is afraid he cannot control his emotions or anger around me and doesn't want to hurt me. I am struggling because we have seen each other every weekend for a year and a half. How can I help him? He is on a waiting list for 1 to 1 therapy but they said that will take months. I am scared he will stop loving me after a while of not being able to feel anything. I need to get him better, he doesn't deserve this suffering. He is so perfect and lovely and I feel utterly powerless to help. Please help me understand how I can help him feel again and to not fall out of love. He said he knows he loves me, he just cannot feel anything but anger at the moment.",3.5030080971659916,4.177824531578948,4.207894736842111,90.92564777327938,72.10526315789474,7.109311740890687,25.668016194331983,7.010146845296331,0.8767975708502025,711,21,159,6,13,227,107,190,0.171,0.595,0.23399999999999999,0.9605,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,2,0,1,3,9,14,3,3,5,0,20,4,0,5,1,37,42,16,2,2,7,1,6,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,4,11,0,3,9,1,0,1,8,8,0,1,5,10,25,6,17,32,1,21,0,2,2,4,36,5,0,1,15,94,29,0,0.12123323922600868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10746595177877362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992938784247136,0.1079232858504538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14780531477186148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722094818071848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13597338646353868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637107658136427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10214423279464528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36779501042359664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11080498432725977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06333936377816687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096961296276209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40630042383094017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11939032006125486,0.0,0.1297826899969356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06662661775550463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12396920091185193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070511713324713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4376709266525977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09676721491763143,0.0,0.0,0.08989291074528903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13307769101168512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306411452727436,0.0,0.12137562177481488,0.0,0.0966071955427336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013564164580496,0.0,0.12673930419731275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09115230823517886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13864077463650548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12620807755409094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07150650554041904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15614046254733818 schizophrenia,PretentiousAboutAP,2019/10/19,"Who else is doing well? I have a full time job and am working towards buying my first house. I have some audio hallucinations still in white noise (like taking a shower I sometimes hear my verbalized thoughts mirrored), but it’s nothing invasive - I have to think deliberately to hear them. It took me about a year trying different medications to get stable and about 8 more months to get this functional. I’ve been on this subreddit in worse times. Too paranoid to click on links and assumed some regular posters were put there by the FBI to see how I’d react and use my reaction against me. It can get better. I am really happy to be this functional.",4.632195121951219,6.651632747967478,5.420008130081303,78.11147560975611,71.11382113821139,8.822439024390244,29.37317073170732,9.3871,2.7847307317073176,520,21,94,12,10,169,88,123,0.053,0.838,0.109,0.7929,3,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,3,7,4,0,0,4,0,11,1,0,3,0,14,22,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,7,4,0,0,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,4,6,11,4,16,17,4,14,0,0,3,0,4,6,0,3,7,64,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16433238828686206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19413018113701566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15521903615981394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15804848977032607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2912315857725735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977964463961898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4188390349577357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143978917513992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18438611922019796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09077657552014297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871823671776696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14831045430115014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17828812556371976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867887149377231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190335885470058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480652003046568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837692117926369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483867903756954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13970475699300772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905848971028772,0.0,0.14751107694108306,0.2166926892220069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20643991647404866,0.12615167461006818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16047875857348284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670640236407113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13527069363307254,0.0,0.1893545853139283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11965448708479927 schizophrenia,Ramsey523,2019/10/19,"Am I schizophrenic I've looked at common conditions but I cant be sure. My symptoms: Voices Disconnection from the real world Keeping to myself Am I a schizophrenic",2.765000000000001,5.727312166666671,4.449999999999998,73.84500000000001,94.0,7.733333333333332,26.0,8.238735603445708,3.1222,135,6,20,4,5,45,25,30,0.096,0.904,0.0,-0.3491,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,1,4,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,3,5,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4074289578537016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3849235202796572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5217364752981076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4320174629276231,0.4764320412260809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,staringdown,2019/10/19,"i think i'm officially going crazy dont really know what sgoing on around me anymore been listening the same song on repeat for the pas X amount of hours. to be honest dont know howl ong its been since ive been listening to this song. i just keep staring at thel yrics. only thing i can stare at right now. yesterday or was it the day before yesterday, i dont know, i saw the fist visual hallucination (even though i think it was 100% real my bf ells me it wasnt) i have seen in months. i looke dat him and saw evil and anger in his eyes, i saw the most evil looking face i have veer seen, ifell to the ground screaming and crying nto to hurt me, he didnt understand and i dont know if he really looked at me thatway or not. its a look on someones face i often see just pure evil, hatred, and anger. makes me brea k down because im no just schizo i also have ptsd and it triggers me further. dont really know if anything thats happened in the past X hours acutally happened or not. dont knwo if anything my bf said is what i interpreted it as or if he said what he said or if he meant what he meant. dont know if the nat flying around my face is real or not or if i just look alike a dumbass swatting the air aroudn me. i cant even type coherently because im staring at teh songs lyrics as i type so i make a lot of mistakes because i cant take my eyes off it. dont really know where i am dont really kn ow who i am. i thoroughly belive god cursed me and i believe i am exeperiencing that curse full force. god cursed me and i know that ist rue. i have been cursed since i was 11 years old in summer. i pray to god even though he cursed me and i think people must tink im crzy becuse the god i believe is nto anyone elsse's god. its a god specially made for me. i want to die becuse i believe the afterlife is the only way to reach PURE HAPPINESS. PURE HAPPINESS is what i want and i believe as humans its absolutelyy impossible to reach that kind of HAPPINESS until we are dead in the aftelrife. just some rambligns. dont know hshit thats going on so its probably incoherent. i just want to be normal. gonna get back into drawing weird shit to help cope iwth it and describe my thoughts feelings images voices all that in a picture.seriously dont know what im saysing. going to shove food down my throat, pray goodnight.",1.676143335192414,3.4451023435582826,3.6089398587098,88.98287994980483,78.73415132924336,6.817642684513851,21.952082171407326,7.7669595915474945,0.8415844580777097,1822,53,403,29,44,616,220,489,0.126,0.785,0.09,-0.9767,2,0,0,0,0,1,37.0,1,0,0,0,20,16,6,0,18,0,40,8,7,4,5,79,90,34,2,13,23,0,1,0,2,2,0,10,0,1,27,15,1,1,19,3,0,3,19,10,0,0,21,27,56,6,40,65,7,44,2,1,16,0,20,26,1,18,14,233,83,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042497161517792134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052701993170449914,0.03715770522217248,0.0,0.08746169497519479,0.09461423224679354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04086245939371275,0.0,0.09718351977241428,0.0,0.0452194206891614,0.2394886576977165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05837333688136723,0.034271809251700744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05515238732644705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6850946258340208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052981883079469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026869890544018383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06425879656263354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02776419021922517,0.0,0.09060445348078748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939855359739198,0.16971003790939024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03561956287689287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10466715668708564,0.0,0.05688897199626933,0.0,0.2296073413903089,0.0,0.0,0.04723452150681468,0.0,0.0553385945662838,0.2920512582832533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22312697645385465,0.0,0.0,0.045178921260778125,0.0,0.050283681297369945,0.0709445995367826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04241696161280131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052067292856179184,0.0,0.0,0.05576296407089719,0.0,0.0,0.08083286465368485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050729483119729225,0.036841558353471165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057295421467244374,0.0,0.06211945740018503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12097310359666305,0.17021872058257104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04538246859057548,0.1516489331695745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042346818685900685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054548887464503065,0.08791823694650365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045026539093615266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039955722220804964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035304787453509665,0.10215259763411452,0.10442231908147752,0.042188338762471016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05532207561614879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403253064031948,0.04218117290535859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03422132181706897 schizophrenia,redshirting,2019/04/21,"How to respond to this question: Do you think I'm crazy? Long story short, I have a schizophrenic mother who willfully got off her meds 8 months ago - and despite our pleas, hasn't gotten back on them. The irony is, when she got off her meds, she asked us to tell her when she was saying crazy things, and she'd get back on meds if she did say crazy things. But now that she's saying crazy things, she strongly believes she's correct and when family members express doubts, she calls them dumb/idiotic/etc. She hasn't relapsed 100% but she is saying outlandish things more often - like thinking my friends are trained government spies and telling me that I should be extremely wary of everyone. However, she keeps asking ""Do I sound crazy to you?"" I always say ""no"" because when I object with her theories, she gets agitated or sends angry diatribes over text - which I hate seeing. But I'm aware each time I say ""no"" I'm reinforcing her beliefs, but I also can't say ""yes"" because that just enrages her. The other thing is, I know the crazy things she says are false, but I cant prove its false. My mom is very logical, so she likes to be presented evidence/facts to prove her wrong. But if I told you the government is trying to kill you, you know thats a bullshit statement but there's also no way for you to ""prove"" it's false. So what should I do?",6.1900125786163525,5.977283950943395,6.127924528301886,82.5946540880503,66.09433962264151,9.481761006289313,30.874213836477992,9.029198982220553,2.2948289308176104,1057,35,216,16,15,333,148,265,0.18600000000000005,0.765,0.048,-0.9896,1,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,2,6,2,1,15,9,3,1,6,1,23,1,0,1,4,35,41,23,1,4,11,2,0,2,1,3,1,9,0,0,17,6,0,1,11,0,0,1,7,5,0,0,6,10,47,4,16,29,2,20,1,0,1,0,54,6,0,6,14,142,64,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08504017110238568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343761546393278,0.07982521281555616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17937166776092658,0.0,0.0,0.14753546136812198,0.0,0.11696159620784882,0.0,0.0,0.1080853616317736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09795987965886448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069923583560968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09166955310675078,0.0,0.0,0.09043853545730167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07411877869559018,0.0,0.10024366311480368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15345521235622786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09471548544611223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527101680133609,0.10613734183414364,0.0,0.105446215850116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09373752950955204,0.0,0.0,0.08489903878439457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31968490261109656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11235736023846338,0.07657402533071031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10746862749921356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6103279003536638,0.0,0.0,0.07644739848010539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16770201268126506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3824078273363887,0.12294194431364483,0.0,0.0,0.055940195017449325,0.0,0.0,0.09166955310675078,0.0,0.06513324750181128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539742560441192,0.0,0.0,0.07915603303824219,0.0,0.07614836328963273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048893467927706,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ProudMany,2019/04/21,"Can someone help me a bit to consider if my symptoms could be anxiety or actual schizophrenia? Hi, I'm 18 and I'm concerned I may be developing schizophrenia. It's worth noting that my mother thinks I'm a hypochondriac, although shes been proven wrong about my conditions before and she doesnt have a very healthy view of mental illness (and due to this I havent told her exactly what I'm struggling with right now). I do think I'm quite an anxious person though. Anyways, I know that no one here is qualified or in a position to diagnose me, thats not what I'm looking for here. but I just want to try and clear some things up if possible. I'm having a second occurrence of what I think could be an early episode of some sort. A few months ago, I became depressed for seemingly no reason and then began to think I might be hearing ""hey"" whispered kind of frequently. I couldn't really tell if I was hearing it or not, if I was just mishearing things or reading into things too much. I felt like I was picking up on the significance of the sound after it had occurred. This might be kind of hard to understand and then again it might not, but I felt like it was something similar to a pinched nerve occurring in my brain. It reminded me of having a pinched nerve on my leg, where I could feel a repetitive sensation in that spot and I wasnt sure how long it had been occurring, though I knew it was just something wrong with my nerves. When I may have heard the whispers, I thought something was just wrong with my brain and it was interpretting information wrong or something. I wasnt in any way convinced i was hearing a real voice (though I did at some point wonder if I was being haunted or something, I dont explicitly believe in ghosts but I know a lot of people do and I'm sure the world could prove me wrong about their existence). Well it got to a point where when i was out with someone I no longer talk to who really generally stresses me out, I heard ""hey"" once more distinctly and louder than the rest of the times. It was raining and I was constantly thinking I was just mishearing the rain or the umbrella, but that time I became very scared and I was pretty unresponsive to my friend, I just felt like I needed to get inside already or I was going to lose my mind so I began to rush back to her apartment. When I got inside I calmed down a bit, and I messaged my friend who had confided in me previously about psychotic symptoms. She really helped me feel better and I believe that was the height of the experience. From what I remember, it trailed out of existence a few days or so after this. Well, a few days ago I became very depressed again, seemingly for no reason but also possibly because I'm worried about other physical health concerns. It just sort of felt like a very chemical thing though. I felt like my mental state was perfect before this. And then I just started to feel deflated. And then the whispers started up again. The same as before, I'm not sure if I'm actually hearing it or just reading into things and exaggerating due to anxiety. Last night I thought I heard something much clearer than the rest of what I was hearing, but I rewound the show I was watching and it turned out that particular sound was from the TV. I've also always had the thought in the back of my mind that vents might have cameras in them, though I dont truly believe it, I absolutely know they're not there, I'm sometimes just a bit suspicious. Not enough to check but just enough to make sure that I cant see them when I'm in the shower. Another thing I've always thought and do still think is just a coping mechanism for loneliness, is that I form connections with fictional characters. I know they arent real. I just pretend they are because I'm lonely. I've also withdrawn socially, but I live an hour away from almost all of my friends (due to moving away in high school which was sort of traumatic for me but I feel its allowed me to become more independent). I do have interest in socializing still (I have a big week ahead of me in terms of socializing), but I just cant do it for as long or as frequently as I used to because I become socially exhausted and irritated with peoples habits and the fact that I cant just be alone whenever I want. I think that about covers it, hopefully I'm not forgetting anything but just writing this out has helped me feel more at ease. I've never spoken to a doctor about this but I am considering it, as I've read that the sooner these things are addressed the better. But, can anyone tell me if their experiences have been similar to this? If this sounds like anxiety or if it sounds like possible schizophrenia or schizoaffective disorder? It's been hard for me to talk about this with anyone but I think I need to be open about it somehow, I'm new here but I hope that this can be an encouraging environment... thanks for your consideration guys.",5.415786353130335,6.112890071651094,6.078380229792651,79.14826273741333,67.80581516095535,9.618926071081637,31.52395069172277,9.698958519613793,2.869885552540784,3901,154,758,82,62,1274,347,963,0.121,0.774,0.105,-0.8847,3,3,6,0,0,0,83.0,0,1,6,6,58,41,0,3,45,0,84,10,3,8,13,186,160,83,1,20,60,1,12,7,3,6,7,16,2,2,64,36,0,0,38,6,2,3,23,13,2,2,50,32,107,28,108,90,23,92,0,4,4,0,47,40,0,42,54,553,171,6,0.0,0.0,0.08527228831153283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07745892637005053,0.0,0.04375025680753476,0.04525073202217419,0.048214139614783734,0.10481910611669276,0.07270887630869688,0.0,0.0,0.02971139959274572,0.04581385593174425,0.10027055833877067,0.049358429343349684,0.0,0.06109957006744316,0.0,0.03595399613890512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209832447382029,0.06719141254623019,0.0,0.07990094167860735,0.09650662313975,0.11153354921759093,0.14767449241551975,0.0,0.07728233354834252,0.1430978712877282,0.0,0.0,0.09754728110560268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04721448343831335,0.0,0.13953493365899686,0.0,0.0,0.056354201590006266,0.0,0.07526204267642643,0.044345477199087976,0.0,0.0,0.050073707217124536,0.044719622002636614,0.0,0.0,0.10241112685338498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028902960491987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547642475455626,0.0,0.0,0.11045749126476824,0.0,0.20975120914411333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012667474770414,0.0,0.022826760634468844,0.0,0.02483062001439399,0.0,0.06988741815142034,0.0,0.0,0.04326099019682781,0.0,0.0,0.07827716471263613,0.0,0.0,0.04644152331134459,0.2462148388710041,0.0,0.08785553217383955,0.046161973495952524,0.0,0.08679010496710468,0.04302686505749682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099497172712652,0.09604579299000797,0.03561402196899295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14941661721712474,0.0,0.03857998119785594,0.07733037585461773,0.03668946252268579,0.04887908842240639,0.0,0.037144552504513074,0.0,0.0,0.02916410273714765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08806056685579337,0.18539711958722127,0.08823097363596076,0.0,0.03487376444015339,0.04643665196730706,0.06423587049174041,0.06479269237704906,0.033697216895302716,0.04219707039841581,0.0,0.04100107327304992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04652952253790536,0.029606173620819014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060579719941060976,0.038149323391526234,0.0,0.0,0.08260429375655268,0.14776521967309791,0.0,0.04444948616023333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04647078994715,0.13110856449125985,0.0994599178728323,0.08396878049524444,0.08984331405499946,0.0,0.0,0.049493421537699984,0.037311902106226015,0.0,0.0,0.043742344410294766,0.04421765634666722,0.03481609534230039,0.07954934816298756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17815001755249246,0.07403853827343453,0.2018129432120212,0.043211547248017415,0.0,0.06184947382666221,0.0,0.06978342825496005,0.0,0.05004792887138322,0.045675352376817316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16471312019294665,0.09082342127844656,0.0,0.07023439213197177,0.07637577443692943,0.04022483165341293,0.0,0.0,0.2031846591822508,0.22396359012298164,0.2146310826777228,0.13874319443755562,0.05095318354623251,0.0,0.0,0.04174865285679116,0.0,0.029663342377397588,0.04752329598600018,0.0,0.045483904551892114,0.0,0.03773502313448504,0.0,0.14419870645538913,0.051540204650464376,0.034679907088557414,0.03504631000018572,0.0,0.0785669686513151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0473810598369225,0.0,0.044370363216916835,0.0,0.0,0.23884642060639005,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GoldenHands23,2019/04/21,"How to help my brother? Hi my brother has been diagnosed with schizophrenia since 2015, me and my family have learned to deal with it for quite some time now however recently he had just begun sitting on the ledge of our balcony and sitting on the window with one leg hanging to the outside and when asked why he does this he says that these are ""orders from god"" and that he is testing his courage and no matter what we do we can't stop him. Mind you he isn't suicidal so we're sure these aren't like suicide attempts. We've taken cautionary measures like always having me or one of my family members watching him all the time to prevent him from doing that and even locked the windows and the balcony when not in use.(It's hot in here all the time because of that.) We've even called his doctor and he says that he should be watched at all times (which we are doing) and when asked if we should send him somewhere to be hospitalized he said that that wasn't necessary as long as they weren't suicide attempts. However he sometimes does what i mentioned above when we're unaware or when we're sleeping which worries me he may sometime lose his balance and fall to his death so im asking you guys what should I do to prevent/convince him that he should stop doing that? And if I can't prevent him is there somewhere I could send him off to be hospitalized because what he does puts too much pressure on me and my family especially my mom. Thanks.",6.610996503496505,6.392310265734268,6.275655594405595,81.90656031468535,65.22377622377623,8.968181818181819,34.658216783216794,8.278499904357787,2.5746090909090897,1160,48,227,13,16,361,145,286,0.066,0.8270000000000001,0.107,0.8787,2,0,0,1,0,2,17.0,5,2,1,4,15,7,0,1,7,0,29,4,2,1,4,44,35,26,4,7,6,3,1,2,0,5,2,3,2,1,19,19,0,4,1,0,0,5,8,2,0,2,6,6,33,5,26,20,5,30,0,1,2,0,48,7,0,6,17,154,52,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946176522477275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31891664584433504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13863579245198984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11611286084771208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078993170863728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723227588752715,0.0,0.11541548029345512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163892459383032,0.2985309140437151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502116594872989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215932007897569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125929469452191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0762188847110458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228286794445094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110806544530093,0.0,0.0,0.10063171076573356,0.0,0.12721485533352922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148168972591755,0.13317834382827765,0.0,0.0,0.08359154431452229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15410864710092795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431215952368146,0.0,0.12094691229248718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227707032143892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081663335187748,0.1808569967930448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940638995063449,0.0,0.11379431263495934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22492852912431072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19013696682618475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37314804232147336,0.0,0.10717239433660618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469090780462977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652259722030885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821082315562048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10260756562319806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154802497329047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thakooshlymahn,2019/04/21,"Disbelief in the Existence of Schizo Anyone else constantly have people disbelieving this disease exists, in you or in general? I'm guessing a normal brain would rather believe we're whackjobs seeking attention or excuses. Like they want/choose to believe schizophrenia is a fake manufactured thing. Am I unlucky, or is this actually a very common response, even with people you might consider close? Hope u all are well. Peace..",6.608690476190474,9.90526391666667,6.4492063492063485,67.14500000000001,69.55555555555556,9.669841269841275,36.67460317460318,9.957137785484203,4.820326984126983,350,19,47,10,7,110,60,72,0.044000000000000004,0.846,0.111,0.5803,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,1,0,3,4,0,0,4,0,7,1,1,0,1,14,10,3,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,3,6,8,1,6,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,6,3,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.21634313960024576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15501487151750445,0.2271535656410316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4995505411453474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474858535137916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395744217472121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851984096131452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14642799776417445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.244222939132584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201939711787804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083093790065073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351842299447064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21721483240436226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073919339486096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472848513743236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18292226876145584,0.1307619381455323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19933116612047974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15748634924497487,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Heath562,2019/04/21,"experience this delusion? first it started with analyzing everything with words then actions that are like scenarios (for example a story with there being a meaning behind the story) i thought that was for everything i picked on it when i was playing Chrono-Cross according to string theory for a perfect run but that's another story. The delusion i'm trying to say is that words actually mean what they mean and take effect. If someone were to call me stupid i would become stupid on the spot and my brain would just malfunction and become hazy in an attempt to replicate what was thought to be stupid. i believe it was powered by belief that i actually thought i was in a dream and i can change the world with my words. words like Alright will confirm everything i've said was correct and is true even it's a lie, it becomes the truth. it was small steps that perpetually powered me and it eventually lead up to a major step and that's when i said i was multi-dexterous in that moment of when i said those words to my father who believed what i said cause it was something only i would know and there's this bridge of trust and belief of me describing who i am to someone else and making my image in there mind i changed my dominate right hand to my left hand and my right hand locked up in my wrist and my left arm unlocked along my arm and hand. after i did that i went home and starting tossing a ball around and it felt fluid as if it really were my dominate hand but i felt like i just cheated my right hand and what i did was wrong so i went back to my dad and said i was joking so it didn't mean anything and went back into my room and head a demonic scream in my left ear and my right hand grew back to life from it's previous withered state. there's a lot more to the story but i feel like i'm spoken enough for you to kinda understand the delusion i was having. i also believe that placebo effect was in play at the time and i was wondering if anyone other schizophrenics have experienced the same thing or if it's a known thing that i'm talking about. There are also phrasing like ""we were saying some irrelevant nonsense before"" dismissing things i didn't like what people said and joking meaning were we just playing it was serious or didn't mean anything. it was a lot of play on words and trickiness with my voices in my head and i just so caught up in it that i lost touch of reality eventually i said screw it and i let it slowly build me and my future and thoughts arose such as this is my fate and if i pay close attention to whats happening i can glimpse into the future. this is prob a lot to take in but was wondering if anything like this rings a bell to anyone i would love to get some info on the topic. ty",4.829221014492756,5.480089567028989,5.588913043478261,82.30318840579713,69.09057971014492,8.597101449275362,28.920289855072465,8.680891452615391,2.0481355072463767,2179,75,438,34,36,711,228,552,0.07400000000000001,0.765,0.16,0.9943,2,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,2,1,1,9,24,28,5,0,25,1,45,18,14,6,4,106,85,51,0,10,16,2,11,7,0,5,2,13,2,0,48,40,0,0,24,8,1,10,3,9,0,1,44,25,62,19,60,33,9,58,3,1,0,2,20,32,1,16,22,312,110,2,0.0,0.0,0.12166272567660776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09970083994581608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06536518131245674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08717416149214148,0.0,0.153892709665931,0.05549263814881202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14379859895228436,0.0,0.0,0.2065370658425124,0.053043710021492635,0.2106954277401719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06958807097032474,0.06365246392450369,0.0,0.0,0.06403668422928714,0.13188735332331838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05207408782673163,0.0,0.0,0.06441019502313987,0.0,0.0411726236299324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16807188947948418,0.06097698925785897,0.0,0.0,0.03151917164360715,0.04453315753234595,0.11970549553077107,0.0,0.0,0.05302333490016256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03256821145705513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05512389854222634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12795032100113266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06252852116863931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0342584712932912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20318613841678693,0.06374322236010617,0.04403006350700725,0.2131810142774739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06804757626686049,0.15898860900367318,0.05626106120101449,0.0,0.04161005059405822,0.0,0.0,0.4074158762118443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06294202345335739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04740966345378601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043216231173652066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039934312811643516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21293988001531172,0.4150735340011837,0.0991448611275019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10563490847752492,0.04798962874138525,0.0,0.0,0.0882440909750751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09373847390697268,0.050103660592509904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12424066117038488,0.0,0.0,0.19795264720331926,0.036348873208887016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04232234360977645,0.0,0.0,0.06489442129172279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17335948339086193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13520239691812766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771280433611684,0.06815509968000892,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BodyCountVegan,2019/04/21,"Is my family member having psychosis/hallucinations? My family member doesn't work and spends all day in her house. She hasn't been calling anyone for several months, she is claiming the spirits can hear what she is talking about when she uses the cellphone, claims that I should move to another state or else the spirits will take over my house, when I went to check up on her health she claimed that I couldn't park at her house that I had to park a street away and walk to her house because of the spirits, this is concerning me. Is she experiencing psychosis/hallucinations?",9.69277777777778,8.199882722222227,8.676592592592595,71.32766666666667,59.74074074074075,11.602962962962966,37.34074074074074,10.355215969177356,3.6378162962962968,466,17,85,8,5,145,69,108,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,0,14,1,0,1,1,7,18,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,0,3,2,18,0,13,12,1,15,3,0,0,0,14,7,0,1,4,61,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16867490687475234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11247649953943756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15113252261309515,0.0,0.0,0.09805828115205467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642552381747637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10374088266393852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13437722864677087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032874934809428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709858177258307,0.18130002014946145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7424397221897537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12839628644396814,0.1709678826822686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817251201334666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12094610646958333,0.12929253946573607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389307095785325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14911809891074349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11710742043793705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lady_elizabeth,2019/04/21,"Sharing with others How often do you tell new people you meet about your symptoms? Do you tell them early on? Only when you start to get close? Never? I’ve learned a lot more about my symptoms and condition since my initial diagnosis and have found out the triggers and causes. If I can avoid those triggers and my day is going well enough then most people won’t notice anything is “off” with me and if I say nothing they’ll never suspect a thing. So if I don’t intend for things to ever go anywhere beyond casual friends with them, it’s very tempting to just not mention it and try to act “normal” around them. Is this common? However, this has blown up on me before. When I do get triggered, when I am having a bad day. When my symptoms are in full effect. I can’t remotely hide it. Online. In person. Doesn’t matter. Anyone I try to interact with will be suddenly made aware of what’s going on if they weren’t already. If I hadn’t told them about it ahead of time and they accepted it, they rarely accept it when it’s suddenly there in their face. I’ve lost some friends that way. But I still struggle so much to tell people that even telling people can be anxiety triggering. tldr; how do you tell people about your symptoms?",2.433734567901233,4.748005670781894,3.5093672839506205,87.93590277777781,78.71193415637859,5.860699588477368,22.882201646090536,6.996647511020387,0.8454720164609051,970,31,186,11,24,312,142,243,0.078,0.855,0.067,-0.3402,2,1,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,7,9,3,22,11,0,2,4,0,24,5,1,10,3,47,34,23,0,6,8,0,0,0,2,3,4,1,0,1,16,14,0,1,6,1,0,4,9,4,1,0,6,1,31,7,29,23,7,38,0,1,0,0,30,13,0,9,20,143,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11768827228408035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08158511774162625,0.0,0.0,0.07457047762325554,0.0,0.08776188315509817,0.09493896954097902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08904628657780081,0.0,0.0,0.09074924779330973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10955645679065153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375577511922041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110195473623582,0.0,0.07043973022587369,0.09646885474549964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11693358251661007,0.1647913336298122,0.0,0.11143793262212076,0.0,0.18183085662740872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641844731210026,0.09066797093027547,0.0,0.10091253236927444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07839825284903383,0.0,0.1645063986986129,0.10300091115006706,0.0,0.0,0.10449199899778408,0.10233124304420003,0.12141899298007755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08111030119917652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3696800685587064,0.09312056576404623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08481044751816331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0882199920809859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07548571616641897,0.0,0.08516890658013626,0.0,0.0,0.11149122125049674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4433907405002027,0.0,0.0,0.4660734905598489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14170384565216754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06218706988075155,0.0,0.0,0.10190634664767577,0.0,0.1448134320122401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08799543434728435,0.0,0.08465189632821495,0.0,0.0,0.09588899514796677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,samuelmcc444,2019/04/21,Abilify I’m planning on starting abilify and was just wondering if it has helped anyone with motivation compared to other antipsychotics,14.404545454545454,13.857170363636367,13.37181818181818,38.37772727272728,49.90909090909091,17.89090909090909,58.36363636363637,15.903189008614273,10.133854545454547,116,8,12,5,1,38,21,22,0.0,0.893,0.107,0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,6,5,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,10,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4323759318768333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4144777402117937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4376826850397832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6705916220912178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fakemarx,2019/04/21,"hallucination question I was high with some friends who have a sick sense of humour and have fucked with peoples high before I was literally watching them , could see them occasionally look at me then laugh and then whisper to one another.This is why i rule out this experience as a hallucination because I literally saw them talking about me They put on scary youtube videos and would purposely jumble up their speech to confuse me (I know this bc i’ve seen them do it to another one of my mates pretending that they see the monster he claims to see). Im just asking if it’s even possible to ‘hallucinate’ seeing your group of friends laugh about you n put scary youtube videos on or if i need a new group of friends",6.969507299270076,7.235515613138688,6.936925182481755,75.82976733576642,64.4014598540146,10.353649635036495,35.37317518248175,10.125756701596842,3.3766941605839422,577,25,112,12,8,184,88,137,0.107,0.752,0.141,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,7,0,4,8,1,1,4,0,8,2,0,0,0,17,19,9,0,5,4,0,0,0,4,1,1,2,0,0,6,6,0,0,2,3,0,2,0,2,0,2,4,10,19,6,19,13,1,12,0,0,8,1,20,7,1,6,3,69,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16485343357881238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697462266574576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958366874970684,0.0,0.13377822184875485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12552323118222225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10383889769076506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537862489878956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36439131108764594,0.14534255629932116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33221215183981034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16981897040300836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0864011467338186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13202084282181115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11657278777282802,0.0,0.15183904084628022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130656447601334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10899295239856632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177236073608603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31608860931580723,0.17611656480949814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5011193879455671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12636330715675098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14186191065876114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116808886049118,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,alexlsa3,2019/04/21,"I think i need help. I was doing really well for a long time. but the last few days it got really bad again. delusions that last for days on end, hallucinations, extreme paranoia, worsened anger issues, the works. should i go see a doctor/phycologist/therapist?",3.913829787234043,6.822874851063838,4.897276595744682,76.69400000000002,77.08510638297872,8.01531914893617,24.293617021276606,8.841846274778883,2.2517863829787244,206,7,35,5,5,67,38,47,0.312,0.621,0.067,-0.9436,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,8,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,1,4,1,3,5,1,10,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,8,20,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061862933818424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185143809391938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527556476025121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21871735620621569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14034285535195318,0.0,0.1975021125300247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16552004791657168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577433381512504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40258145231961856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218535939629892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18310439789390254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163947955734417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19678083872701574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867187481120988,0.0,0.1582304918006135,0.0,0.0,0.14399389270193688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22203055563012808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17977675033384616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hyperlink83,2019/01/18,"S/O of 7 years having a break down and making strange claims.... To start off I am sorry this is hard to read. For I (m33) haven't had a good nights rest in about 6 days. &#x200B; January 11th my S/O of 7 years started having a break down. I was unable to understand or process what was happening. I have know that she was depressed and had some pretty crippling anxiety. About a year an a half ago she went and saw a provider who prescribed to her Buspirone 5MG. At the starts of her meds I was told that she was taking them to help with her panic attacks and anxiety. It took awhile for them to get the right dosage and she was on one other one before landing on busprione. While she was on it seemed as all was well. Her anxiety was way down her panic attacks were more or less no longer and Issue. Shakiness of the hands, clammy hands, night sweat all that disappeared. She was sleeping better and the arguments started when they were needed. In others no more mood swings on little things. &#x200B; &#x200B; Come June of 2018 she loses her job and she tells me that shes going to stop taking her meds due to the fact that she will be losing her health insurance and she wanted to be off before her insurance went out. Against my plea, but being understanding that it is her choice and her body to decide. We came to an agreement that if she went off her meds correctly and kept in contact with her provider that it would be ok. Months pass with no issue or really visible signs of side effects. She had taken up yoga the year before and was excelling at it excellently. &#x200B; &#x200B; 3 strange events (I can explain more later) between Christmas and Jan 10th. On January 10th she drops a bomb on me right as I am walking out the door. She starts the conversation off with ""I got to be honest with you"" and my reply was ""That's a great start please continue"" From there she beings to tell me that she has been writing for Netflix and has been in contact with some big name comedians. (not going to list names of shows or comedians) Making claims that she had wrote jokes for some of these comedians and that they had loved her ideas and wanted her to work them or even open for them or come up with some new material. When asked how do you talk to them. She swears up and down that they speak to her through Netflix and that Netflix beams the show ideas to her and she decides what to keep or change. She ends the conversation saying that she has been in a relationship with one big name comedian for about 4 months and that she is desperately in love with them. I will be honest. I did not recognize what was happening and didn't handle the situation right. I did a quick google search on the shows/movies that shes claims she has wrote for, and was I able to show her that timeline she says she wrote these shows/movie don't match up for when they aired. I ask if she is making this up cause she wants to get out of the relationship, but is too scared to go through with it. That she doesn't need to fabricate a whole story like this to get out. She beings to yell that no believes her and they all think she crazy. I ask who are these people. She tells me her family, friends, and worst of all you now. She storms out the room and says I wont be here when you get back from work my sister is coming right now to get me. Her sisters come and pick her up and get her to her mothers house who see exactly what is happening. She is currently waiting to be seen by a physician on the 23rd who will refer her to a mental health specialist. Her condition as far as this moment has worsen but her claims for work and her love life are the same. &#x200B; &#x200B; I spoke to her yesterday briefly after she had sent me two text message randomly. First one saying that she missed me and loved me. So I call her up and thank her for her love but I son realize that she thinks she talking to the comedian not me. When I I.D who I she starts crying saying how every one calling her a liar and crazy. Now a few days had past till this point and I had spent hours reading info on the internet on how to speak with people having these issue. Also my line of work is 911 dispatch so talking these sort of things over the phone was much easier for me to remain calm and empathic towards her, but being careful not to support or claims but to questing deeper into her thought pattern. After a mins of talking I was able to get her to admit that her love for a guy who she has never met, spoke to, or even been in the same room with wasnt real and that it was all one side that he couldn't feel the same about you. Shortly after shes says to me that she knows it made she goes right back to it saying how she loves him more then me. I then asked her does she have any love for me? To her reply was I will always love you no matter what but I'm not in in love with you. I took the small victory and left it at that. I decided from there that I should limit my interaction with her all together or just to a txt a day sort of thing. Seeing on her social media that after she speaks to me her delusion of having this job and made relationship just get stranger from there. &#x200B; &#x200B; I come to you all now seeking some sort of answers for her condition once she is back on meds and leveled out. Will the love she has for me still be there after her delusions fade. Will she be about to recognize the love that she has for me? I am so scared that when she comes back she will be too embarrassed and filled with shame to want to ask for any sort of 2nd try. As of right now, she claims that she doesn't want be with me but doesnt want me out of her life and that I sh ould just let her go. That she will always love me but just as of right now she not ""in in"" love with me, that she just has to go and see if the comedian loves her. Her parents have given me the out saying no one expects you to sit and wait for her but if I am I am going have to have some patience and wait till she get proper help. Personally I have made a promise to her long ago that no matter could ever happen I would love her even at your worst that I would stand by her side and love unconditionally. I would hate for her to come to and see the wreckage along with the man she has been with for 7 years is gone. I really feel that I cant take what she is telling with any sort of merit. I have accepted the possibility that she may not want to continue the relationship when she get professional help. At least then I would I have proper closure with a woman who is based in reality. So basically if anyone has ever gone anything close to this sort of situation please share with me. For I am stuck in the ""what if"" and fearing that I may have lost the love of my life. &#x200B; &#x200B; FYI: I have an appointment with my local mental health counselors to get some information on her condition and to speak to someone for my own benefit. I have been a mess these past 7 days. Crying over the littlest things. Not getting much sleep in fear that something may have happen and my appetite is a fleeing one. So I decided to make a call and take advantage of the help I have available.",4.994483660130722,5.322395892041524,5.280801614763554,85.79854190695887,68.62629757785467,8.41530180699731,26.851403306420607,8.238735603445708,1.4537657054978859,5644,156,1202,72,90,1789,464,1445,0.084,0.773,0.14300000000000002,0.9989,4,0,1,0,0,0,149.0,1,10,11,14,52,63,4,9,61,1,135,31,6,14,13,240,266,104,0,24,39,5,5,1,1,18,7,15,3,4,84,93,0,7,25,10,1,27,26,21,1,11,67,26,219,41,216,163,31,192,0,5,6,18,236,85,0,35,75,896,303,11,0.05318428376809657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047144658604359964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02126572625719717,0.04425358459919889,0.31693832083415474,0.3554359934850214,0.05425070509366018,0.0,0.06102874726621155,0.0,0.0,0.01859384390342215,0.0,0.021883066973240984,0.0,0.12430031493149142,0.060504800718704774,0.0,0.0817908626954976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06788386241858611,0.029960237662996683,0.0,0.02351858850895215,0.0,0.029537874863913186,0.0,0.0,0.08146065012994416,0.030414326087921318,0.027112460924139808,0.02731745485752535,0.028130960121140188,0.16034742922763695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.021231661472133862,0.0,0.058420438377682925,0.06859892640880637,0.0,0.02290377283888358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023270962564012503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02355274474338913,0.0,0.0,0.0526915767538522,0.04810822952595208,0.02240502644698567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02506870472825977,0.059847105350140616,0.02689157188207577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.022619262301969496,0.0,0.0,0.020545022854955658,0.0,0.1667195590108112,0.0,0.09067756229312904,0.0223042269567135,0.021268165103065523,0.029317930305670963,0.0,0.026330401275799137,0.1175767162308334,0.0,0.02382133589913373,0.026254234722358858,0.0,0.0847986099543844,0.0,0.0,0.07129660866633614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02618790317671981,0.0306837614048791,0.0,0.060038582760911376,0.0,0.08326586181475952,0.05277719517022464,0.023636317541656817,0.0,0.0,0.029228691469765325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028892439964575512,0.027192266749174014,0.05634844870730596,0.012991577303576158,0.026652312174151958,0.0,0.023533208761478564,0.0,0.0594996095235749,0.029028464156234595,0.0,0.4320080329840226,0.07548638286533511,0.07100184479587224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815149945565274,0.0,0.053597248961199176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0424511878960304,0.0,0.03909656803167237,0.039435472518430936,0.02050949917452465,0.025682856337738303,0.0,0.04990984751417036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02831976323288652,0.14415618840537867,0.0,0.0,0.06240029780777143,0.029527426594414274,0.0,0.05077041678379434,0.03687128583895957,0.02321923258642313,0.0,0.05838037263669962,0.025138169420281874,0.02997864443152583,0.0,0.027053768343653015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05319867619060333,0.03026767922480113,0.03407121404326065,0.0,0.0,0.1142000342087284,0.0,0.15896680710387748,0.0,0.16917710845293735,0.053246746125183465,0.0,0.08476197674148206,0.02420848724023549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05978136328947839,0.05322269282178063,0.027107339823394437,0.02253143552359201,0.02047192999684747,0.0,0.0297677257084698,0.1317543842617276,0.0,0.021236518859070984,0.02223222133235644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030176447478879508,0.0,0.0,0.07997592505565462,0.0854950254158653,0.09297081641102772,0.024482471479894432,0.0,0.0,0.07066654983444373,0.03407834155134019,0.0,0.021111190284861636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025409931151413045,0.05908969616993951,0.018054318785231317,0.0,0.02597665863137401,0.05536671504709493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097931398329542,0.021107604465237254,0.0,0.0,0.023909529141613928,0.07395354582534583,0.0,0.029689176753404958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07743758400987373,0.0,0.0,0.09445147314302113,0.0,0.3554359934850214,0.08562233757854122 schizophrenia,youllalwaysbemybby,2019/01/18,"Do I have schizophrenia? I woke up months ago with extreme depersonalization/derealization, panic 24/7, skin peeling around nails, facial numbness, and head sensations. Most of the symptoms went away and 2 or so months later I have a really bad panic attack after a nap (ears ringing, whole body shaking, jittery, these fucked up head sensations). I was in panic mode for a week after that. Second one after that I woke up from a nap and it felt like my whole head/brain had this burning cold feeling. Few weeks past I had another incident where I thought I was losing my mind. Then the last few nights I've been waking up with this overwhelming feeling and extreme tingliness in my head. One of the nights it lasted for like 30 seconds and I thought I was having a stroke or something. The head sensation was really intense",5.9580072245635165,7.665963403973514,5.861649608669477,77.48724864539436,67.27814569536424,8.139915713425648,30.945815773630343,8.575989854853784,2.531127152317881,658,26,111,10,11,206,91,151,0.179,0.759,0.062,-0.9651,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,3,12,2,5,9,0,11,13,9,0,0,17,20,9,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,8,0,0,5,2,0,2,0,10,0,4,13,8,13,2,18,7,5,26,0,2,0,1,0,9,1,3,17,77,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100043309295796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11834322972967737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10046905543424543,0.0,0.1283941950450796,0.10603539776374601,0.0,0.09423313045900708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253616777989649,0.0,0.12598874360831652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11413050482880514,0.0,0.10836300514325364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043369686407295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5791330310797044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839914278227769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102750915923879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626112935719933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11395611840476748,0.0,0.18016706224546766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21182235526059756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295329916980882,0.0,0.0,0.3972496023009907,0.0,0.0,0.10773734840255857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14460162001461455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688490637906914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730443542237395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17919598120288385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18105847810359424,0.0,0.0,0.104622067165868,0.0,0.25200763612306765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,crazneil20,2019/01/18,"Do people around you believe you? Let me give you a foreword first: I am 22 years old right now. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia 3 years back. My first psychotic episode was in my college computer lab and then the hallucinations were everlasting. I spent 6 months in a psychiatric hospital. But now I am out, completed my degree and working as a AR and VR game developer. I'm still on medications though. Now my question is, do people believe you and support you in the daily basis? I mean the doctor and parents do try to help me. But I'm living away from my parents right now due to my job. I have lost a lot of friend circle as I apparently scared them off. I don't have the courage to express my stuff with the few friends I do have now because I'm scared how they may react. So I don't have people to talk to. And as you all obviously know, the voices aren't really friendly too. So not even trying to reason with them, they just end up being even more toxic. I just want to know, is that how you guys go through life too? And if you do, did you find some kind of closure that helps you get through the day? Please do let me know. Anything that helps. P.S, I am new to this community and this is my first post not just in this subreddit, it's my first post ever in Reddit. So excuse me for grammatical sins I may have committed in writing this post. And do let me know the things I have to follow the next time I write a post.",3.02392200806813,4.4910368247422685,4.3072344240251015,86.71675481846708,74.22336769759451,7.397639324667562,25.366950545345894,8.04050195162591,1.334292275511729,1120,37,239,17,23,369,152,291,0.057999999999999996,0.8540000000000001,0.08800000000000001,0.7809999999999999,4,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,10,4,6,22,10,0,2,14,0,32,4,0,4,4,44,48,22,0,2,8,2,0,0,3,2,4,1,0,1,10,14,0,0,8,1,1,2,5,4,0,4,6,1,43,6,33,36,5,43,1,1,0,0,31,14,0,6,23,177,53,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847516903301105,0.08489279644765027,0.0,0.0,0.08959615873461332,0.07332783589285832,0.0,0.058132062983123824,0.0,0.0,0.21488164504069365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09998571204535854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061500889614753036,0.0,0.0,0.09679087703083734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09760750605276493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08446282356988473,0.0,0.0,0.12597199461515934,0.08626079352918149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08715954954256602,0.3244609971206751,0.0,0.0,0.2210303715609753,0.0,0.049822942972607635,0.09148034933446683,0.05419667664467226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09442381606527256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191758315576132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094632514654736,0.0,0.0,0.09930531448927517,0.209634829204551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.292543691267072,0.06735731699858821,0.0,0.0,0.08420678842194282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10409937666483446,0.08107374282362549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10387766198236877,0.0,0.0960676333986676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07611739592687697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09210164620978868,0.10141904497042337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100066847149177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21177742552631798,0.0,0.0,0.19833694190684195,0.0,0.0,0.10467933074640333,0.0,0.0,0.3653234570462992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10682776612234572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06109162587845395,0.09804847880765616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16287801853329192,0.0,0.0,0.1909488924811683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07615657390146442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916718732719943,0.0,0.10821617553045046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766487231793855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06335457285328074,0.0,0.09369312066341774,0.0,0.05560661012634795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12948968443768896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05624724239713319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06942499767187356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12282057944974445 schizophrenia,AlConstanza,2019/01/18,"How many times a day do you wash your hands? I counted yesterday, 26.",-0.09928571428571333,2.231877642857146,1.4685714285714295,97.00142857142859,94.0,5.6571428571428575,21.285714285714285,7.1686216300943375,0.7275428571428577,53,2,12,1,2,17,14,14,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4828692951437424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7590953090404677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4365908331609156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,emth0,2019/01/18,"My dad had delusions. Hi people of Reddit, I wanted to hear your input on something that hasn't left my mind ever since it happened. Awhile back my dad experienced his first schizophrenic symptoms. He had delusions about everyone thinking he was gay. To my mom he described it as a fear ""because everyone is talking about him being gay"". I was wondering if these delusions represent anything at all , is there some psychological trigger to it or just purely and simply delusions?",7.213571428571428,9.10513416666667,7.00809523809524,69.75357142857145,64.47619047619048,8.933333333333335,37.80952380952381,9.2995712137729,3.9863952380952377,386,20,56,7,6,122,64,84,0.039,0.961,0.0,-0.4939,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,6,1,0,1,1,0,8,4,0,1,3,13,13,4,0,2,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,2,9,0,9,8,2,6,0,0,0,2,12,3,0,4,3,42,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18808459406408667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17574777369010322,0.0,0.13932745355017226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067447134488775,0.0,0.4367958651914767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571924339823174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944121805822424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20211398128705144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576026199852484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24833003750814486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307794493286076,0.26768555486923096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158454042071017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18906637827683487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17595589539043416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375603292700965,0.0,0.18370707782306156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14645138738776667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481002824012855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24786250105063146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Poor-Pikanya,2019/01/18,"Early Symptoms for Paranoid Schizophrenia? Hello, I am just writing this post because I am pretty sure I am experiencing the early onset symptoms of Paranoid Schizophrenia, but I am not entirely sure. I am looking for a therapist anyway, but due to my family history, and my past behaviors in the last three years, I feel like the subtle signs seem to be pointing more towards said mental illness. I don't experience visual or auditory hallucinations but from the tedious research I have done, there are subtle symptoms that I relate to, but I want to find out more so that I have a better understanding of myself and I know what to expect. I understand the early symptoms of Schizophrenia in general, but I can't find any early symptoms to those who specifically suffer from Paranoid Schizophrenia. My mother has it, but her first real experience and introduction to her illness was a full blown, in your face, visual hallucination. I am not entirely sure if there were events in her life that she di not think twice of, but should have. So basically what I am looking for is: Is there a distinction between Schizophrenia and Paranoid Schizophrenia? If so, then what were the early symptoms you experienced? Were there any symptoms that you often experienced but you overlooked? Apologies if this is a repetitive answer. Please downvote, if it is. &#x200B;",7.797262658227848,9.442571181434602,7.662824367088611,66.50664161392407,62.924050632911396,9.638080168776373,37.17536919831225,9.827888789773867,4.090721729957807,1098,53,160,22,16,351,121,237,0.10099999999999999,0.8109999999999999,0.08900000000000001,-0.4431,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,4,0,2,10,6,0,0,11,0,25,11,1,0,4,43,35,21,0,7,17,1,1,1,0,1,10,1,0,0,13,5,0,0,9,0,0,0,5,1,0,3,6,7,28,5,23,27,3,22,0,1,2,0,14,8,0,7,14,137,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088722241892216,0.12209664980167895,0.13666243541264236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0612529053451707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888681790647397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282799071114472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19658138858216634,0.09472550361022217,0.0,0.05080672729230689,0.07178437351700358,0.0,0.0,0.1836774875719928,0.085469952918246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05522228909218805,0.08190625557589462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0709734207027358,0.049090438301947814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16875917563827372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10126224021157247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09592145566508582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11029908124311168,0.0949879853780777,0.0,0.09623399715456404,0.10222633593102738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437053444767176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09558140897638848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147505506688106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841093375589339,0.7310750318217935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166673671921954,0.0,0.06438481965150873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20921064821380608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05926689743453058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12209664980167895,0.06470712496181523 schizophrenia,Owlettorexic,2019/04/17,"I'm not on any mood stabilizers or antipsychotics, yet I still feel like my treatment team managed to brainwash me anyway So I don't really know how to organize this.. i feel like a lot is going on in my mind subconsciously and fighting to become conscious, but I've been trained so well by my therapist and support specialist to basically not be depressed anymore. My psychiatrist no longer checks in with me and it makes me suspicious. i've been lying to her and said I'm still taking my antipsychotics, even now when my therapist asks.. I hate this. I used to be reluctant against pills. I used to believe it was a form of poison that would rewire the brain.. which it does technically.. right? Because I guess my brain has an imbalance.. but they ""fixed"" it now? So even without my pills, I stopped taking it for no real reason.. and then I felt fine. For the longest time.. but now? I am fine.. but I'm not. It almost feels like I'm supposed to figure this out. It feels like The effects of the pills are slowly running out, but are strong. I get any sense of a negative thought and my mind automatically shuts it down and replaces it with a ""Who cares? You're fine."" Basically. It's like an automatic thought, but instead of it being negative it's ""positive."" But it feels too unnatural. It really feels like if i try to go back to that thought, I keep getting cut short by my own mind. I don't know what's happening and I can't help but think I've been successfully brainwashed. I keep getting this phrase repeating in my mind. ""Don't think, just do it."" ""What's the harm?"" &#x200B; Just take the pills. It's better for you. What's the harm? Just keep pushing forward. Keep pushing to get better. Keep getting ""better."" &#x200B; I'm afraid to say what may be happening or what's to come.. but I think everyone reading this knows.. the fact that I'm even writing this means I'm close to admitting it.. if not soon, then now. I think I'm close to having some sort of breakdown.. even though, yes, i've been getting mini breakdowns every weekend... crying myself to sleep.. wanting to die all of a sudden.. cutting myself in obvious places with a steak knife.. but why? The week starts and I'm better. I'm mentally happy again.. why? I'm not happy am I? Is this happiness? Artificial. &#x200B; And don't even get me started on the different versions of me in the head and the one that keeps taking over.. I'm hesitant to call her another personality, because she's still me... but she's such a different version of me. She takes over so smoothly.. so easily.. her thoughts are sewn into my mind so well that it feels natural.. like she and I are the same, but we're not. She makes it very clear that we are not the same. I've accepted her, she has not accepted me.. she just exists to protect me however way she deems fit. &#x200B; Recently.. becoming ""happy"" has made her a little more silent. I don't hear her as much.. and then one day I tried seeing her. It's so easy to see her.. this time I only see her in her own world, but when I try to talk to her in our shared headspace.. mind palace, it's zoomed in.. I can't see her eyes.. just her mouth.. i can barely see her. I can't see her full body.. her weapon.. her clothing.. nothing. But today.. she popped into my mind this time. Still in the dark. Still difficult to see, but she had a smirk. She's been given a seed and she's going to use it to come back. I don't think she's happy that I told my support specialist about her.. he thinks i'm hearing voices. She's not a voice like that.. she's inside of me. She's me.. I don't want to lose her. When she got quiet.. when she became lost and didn't know how to react, I was lost too. I was so used to having her guide me that I'm looking for another voice to guide me. If it's my own she kills it.. unless it's absolutely only ME. Not other versions. Me. The.. physical body.. She's not a voice.. I don't know what she is. He wants to talk about her next time. I don't want to. I want her back. She's an asshole.. but she protects me. entertains my mind.. she's the confident, asshole version of me and i'd rather have her than me who won't shut the fuck up.. who can't even have their own thoughts because they've been replaced by ""trained thoughts"" by these ""trained professionals."" &#x200B; What am i supposed to do..",0.7611207227989247,3.2056033886966584,2.443947520184544,91.83905469050366,87.77739331026527,5.6563244905805465,21.63792772010765,7.131043867949952,0.7412698193002702,3346,118,709,53,108,1095,316,867,0.087,0.763,0.15,0.9961,3,0,0,0,2,1,211.0,2,1,2,11,53,48,8,1,33,1,52,14,8,12,4,146,155,57,2,10,40,0,9,8,0,3,5,9,0,1,56,28,0,9,33,4,1,9,31,16,2,2,25,27,124,31,80,123,17,78,0,4,9,1,73,32,1,11,46,464,180,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041906397314355706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267204888824255,0.2542596363773329,0.05691841863130528,0.08776605164281816,0.0,0.0,0.04150362529927545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039123790275495465,0.0,0.0,0.09653943436248033,0.0,0.07653350750613701,0.0924393406546736,0.0,0.0471502447752092,0.0,0.14805052182000636,0.0,0.09297109359670573,0.0,0.09343613997352604,0.04273319008545288,0.0,0.04266852564425295,0.0,0.0,0.0720995666914156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0459698951718406,0.02698957371328365,0.0,0.03604505771203998,0.0,0.043433348157329764,0.08744799159182337,0.0,0.0,0.036622926473079666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16584786606044288,0.0,0.035260150238232355,0.03998915118721071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812314702316492,0.14948705585005329,0.040182244169345835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0386893436950072,0.15305306968349047,0.0,0.07135239222452609,0.0,0.033471002527047385,0.0,0.046102127458098136,0.0,0.0740150463758986,0.22274874880401144,0.0,0.04131788297106588,0.04294983298149481,0.0,0.09433523471927496,0.0,0.028050950296799246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2231874466837364,0.04630045708057096,0.0,0.11499741530427005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635650709503482,0.04194436162262604,0.0,0.0,0.035143180998677914,0.04681907374404522,0.09136771248682732,0.035579091162043,0.0,0.03959916772947377,0.0558699566951623,0.0,0.0,0.04558655708557692,0.0,0.0,0.04217462218131151,0.0,0.33804987731950725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030764321253044256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044507596675535714,0.0,0.0,0.0401558851228139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056716836208292376,0.06365711664079256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03654151586702939,0.043723995795911685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041860993098897084,0.04763408422455564,0.05361993786559314,0.043028428740318016,0.04132149835302546,0.0,0.0,0.035739387795972084,0.039808617730697965,0.033280535703869074,0.0,0.0,0.23344136962148254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041879891314115264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0592428207968272,0.0,0.16710599455878794,0.03498819633904017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498101457537636,0.0,0.0,0.1573287103441126,0.06727435577721619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971813801855208,0.0,0.16089346457322032,0.041117086312297685,0.1993437703579985,0.09761151179126208,0.0,0.039668591895968636,0.03998915118721071,0.0,0.0852395324311492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14457870536364875,0.0,0.034530358938915845,0.12342009232352595,0.033218318504309584,0.03356927932402271,0.0,0.07525575492209467,0.0,0.07552563211292371,0.0,0.0,0.04034158652807189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029728803410480724,0.0,0.2542596363773329,0.0 schizophrenia,methbath,2019/04/17,"should i talk to someone? i woke up with my lips chewed up as if i was on molly which i haven’t taken in a week, theyre very sore and i did it in my sleep. side note i have dermatillomania, i scratch my skin but ive never bitten my lips like that except when on drugs. the past few days have been the same im v depressed i literally do nothing except to lay in bed and get high and cant get myself to do anything. something weird asf happened to me today i was laying in bed and i felt like i went in some kind of a trance and literally felf as if i was having sex or as if someone was penetrating me which scared me sm bc it felt so real. am i delusional and should i talk to someone idk",0.00769039735099497,1.935644052980134,2.5475786423841065,93.60693087748348,85.29139072847681,5.099503311258278,18.709023178807946,6.322622252153567,-0.2040698675496686,536,14,127,5,16,185,91,151,0.09699999999999999,0.857,0.046,-0.7466,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,4,0,17,8,4,0,1,22,25,16,0,5,7,0,4,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,5,7,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,11,4,23,3,21,12,3,18,0,1,0,1,2,11,0,5,8,86,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465996528559602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148899604671496,0.0,0.15343759407115748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20659375204371286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34209776657756863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186148720265237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575346436078752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188221895099162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924291345516784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18551249790562066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740670743351074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373978091330409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17093667737378254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17006129636577014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027700812019326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17835604367538158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782754743947317,0.0,0.4528296646184189,0.13714612464967788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28637532988871234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16886235414945513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469897826306151,0.0,0.0,0.14289863246522694,0.0,0.0,0.16514388589010098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,beckiiplymuni,2019/04/17,"Research into Inpatient Medication Expereinces [This post has been approved by the mods] ​ I'm currently in my final year of university completing my dissertation on 'exploring the experiences of medication for schizophrenic inpatients' and would be really grateful if there is anyone that would be interested in taking part. In order to complete this study, participants must have had a schizophrenic/schizoaffective diagnosis and have been hospitalised. The survey is completely anonymous and has been approved by the university ethics commitee. I believe this is a great opportunity for previous or current patients to share their views and stories. If you are able to take part, or know anyone else who may wish to, I would be extremely interested to hear your responses and the link to my survey is below. https://plymouth.onlinesurveys.ac.uk/inpatientexperiences Thanks again for reading! Beckii - Plymouth University",11.932691705790296,14.12483014084507,10.922488262910798,44.85576682316119,53.92957746478874,14.761815336463226,44.6510172143975,13.5591,7.500368388106416,768,41,91,30,9,245,94,142,0.0,0.809,0.191,0.9804,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,1,3,2,6,0,0,7,0,21,3,0,0,1,19,28,9,0,7,4,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,0,5,6,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,8,6,19,16,2,14,0,0,1,0,6,6,0,5,5,73,13,2,0.155648659077025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176663228764772,0.15948044493195807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753627382934411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4895839731077936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13002448225915195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15225425521337654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705054979725307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17160319612045705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754273509797824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08554043246463884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135992979013244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371046598586361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14906839013246814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15569077981468155,0.0,0.09971251661644064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340568418225931,0.0,0.0,0.14330037322126962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17898827644302126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317050248903714,0.0,0.0,0.10023263330386124 schizophrenia,Zahadii,2019/04/17,New!! Hey y’all I’m 16 about to be 17 I been diagnosed with this for about a year now it can be very hard and confusing my first psychotic episode scared me a lot my great grandmother committed suicide because of schizophrenia but I feel like it changed my mindset and I hope I can learn a lot about it and myself in this group!,1.7036247334754788,4.013078850746272,2.584648187633263,93.57970149253731,81.38805970149255,6.8136460554371014,25.989339019189767,7.957251820313856,1.5168353944562902,261,11,57,5,7,82,49,67,0.109,0.7170000000000001,0.17300000000000001,0.7541,0,0,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,1,0,1,4,5,0,2,3,0,5,1,0,0,1,12,8,4,1,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,2,10,3,8,5,2,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,4,5,39,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607988261449013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790459759005064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26773278995126043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13337591193151752,0.18844564077467674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243725097196144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29082016533737115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362965179504196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619946656418388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12887037454647468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4485153978105751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547619306207389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26409141693074384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885342768623513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21764746049151865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698667137246522 schizophrenia,theLegbeard69,2019/04/17,I’m in acute psychosis right now. I just met John Lennon and he’s refusing to take me to the hospital. He said mark chapman is there watching over Kennedy’s body. They are outside now. Where is big John?,1.1653658536585354,3.68016212195122,1.7104390243902436,97.40468292682928,86.3170731707317,5.231219512195122,25.27317073170732,6.742157984588678,0.8628692682926841,161,7,35,2,5,49,34,41,0.07,0.93,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,4,5,0,7,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,0,2,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5994753077295649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4608933738048615,0.5133699613757016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40578065030558863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Shineegirl7,2019/04/17,"I think my grandma has schizophrenia I'm 95% sure my grandma has schizophrenia She got all the symptoms for 10+ years now She thinks it's real (as in what she sees is real irl) and I understand how she feels but sadly she doesn't want to go to a doctor and my aunt's and uncles won't do anything about it they basically ignore her when she starts hallucinating or something like that I found medicines online but they could be very dangerous if used without a doctor specially that she's old with some health issues And I honestly don't know what to do *I'm from a tiny country where having any mental health issue is you lying or you not being fit for society and treated as a shame and that's why everyone is ignoring her*",3.4933333333333323,5.286768767123292,4.5919863013698645,83.81049086757994,73.65753424657535,7.3324200913242015,25.865296803652967,8.07648339933343,1.5978968036529682,584,20,113,9,12,191,96,146,0.18100000000000002,0.7609999999999999,0.057999999999999996,-0.9635,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,2,0,5,10,1,1,5,0,14,5,0,2,2,31,28,15,0,3,7,1,1,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,7,7,0,2,6,0,0,1,5,5,0,0,2,2,20,5,12,22,2,9,0,1,1,0,14,3,0,4,6,76,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275494058097656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13644563210952615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238397861886736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33942247021861305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584363892892022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08383736905698362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817996151371719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09423235265549017,0.0,0.13261158661380035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524917219139844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461203789015522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112359086144553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100528045058053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16709519106222795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173987318290876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3774509879594548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13212729172614215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276468893659891,0.0,0.0,0.117359563027665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15627182104202786,0.1723377156576733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124857936916636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17261169199150006,0.0,0.14320464029535254,0.0,0.13680874008877789,0.09779769368914863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14961568444822618,0.0,0.0,0.15983273257747416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067747403769794 schizophrenia,whimsicalscarecrow,2019/04/17,"I feel like other people can hear my thoughts I got pretty high a few days ago and things have been different for me ever since. I thought really deeply about stuff and realized that I need to open up more. I have like no friends at school, but for the past week I have been talking to people and making jokes and trying to make some legit friends. I haven't had much success yet (lol) but I'm still trying. Ever since then, I've also had the nagging thought that other people can hear what I'm thinking. I started thinking this because I notice people coughing or talking to each other whenever I think about sexual stuff or other ""unsavory"" thoughts. I'm a teenage boy so It's gonna happen lol, but it is really unnerving. Since that night, I've also been able to hear things better and feel like I'm in the moment. That's definitely a factor in why I'm trying to make friends and better myself. I can hear people talking to each other in class now and it's a constant struggle to figure out whether they're talking about me or someone else. Writing this down right now is a big help because I'm struggling to put what I feel to words and it seems impossible even though I've experienced it and I feel like it might be real. Someone wrote ""Understanding that we are all waiting for our cue in one way or another"" on the **What Helps You Get Through The Day** megathread and it resonated with me because of all the coincidences between my thoughts and other people's actions. My mom is schizo-affective btw, so this is a little spooky. I had more to write but it slipped my mind. Sorry for rambling, I just needed to share what I'm going through and get this off my chest.",3.242382445141068,5.296683000000002,4.080658307210033,86.0740909090909,75.06060606060606,6.491118077324972,26.530825496342736,7.372421405659032,1.4041358411703238,1330,50,255,16,29,426,164,330,0.052000000000000005,0.8009999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.9852,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,2,1,0,3,16,15,1,2,12,2,20,2,1,3,4,62,59,27,0,2,10,1,4,4,3,2,1,4,0,1,31,18,0,1,16,1,0,3,2,3,0,1,13,9,27,12,34,43,9,35,0,0,0,0,22,15,0,7,20,170,58,3,0.07790741810171914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06906022548255017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246050682175398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.081692720752573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424749168928899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13780556046358491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08419024185062231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004876791114341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08139667016761322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06508165096244357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05145711489382603,0.14094343991373284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15756932579289987,0.16697122517551904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18057323390304525,0.0,0.08140682089609448,0.0,0.04427658108436169,0.0,0.062309679234032085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0688932725341508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3512292893572717,0.0,0.1044394002713801,0.0823134646385341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15224651691523367,0.0780836999510282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560114196317406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264745899873015,0.0786642833743219,0.09124422648856498,0.0,0.0,0.057270916447180666,0.11553472672222885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731108342952247,0.0,0.0,0.08869811187569766,0.0,0.0,0.05279208276555295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07437144598619767,0.32406716551782866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925985243183288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831847336549545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08867569790419287,0.09981897393882952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06653250937996769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884646639748569,0.0,0.07092398744181334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19333746398036014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13202140507691815,0.0,0.0,0.08721097619060972,0.05514327151967716,0.0,0.0622169647331475,0.0,0.0,0.16289149782781215,0.17837070907998576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250476126358458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10351645361557936,0.1497597832677441,0.07654364272737199,0.30924893814858073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15868206874149787,0.0,0.0,0.08110436979655776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06183928219732442,0.0624926314981817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07029932711308788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lunarwishes,2019/04/17,"Advice Needing Hello everyone, first time poster. I hope it's alright for me to ask for advice about my best friend. &#x200B; She was diagnosed with schizophrenia at the beginning of the month, after a week long stay at a mental health facility. For almost a year, our communication has been spotty at best. I realize now that this was the result of her schizophrenia beginning to manifest. What started off as her isolating herself due to believing she was being followed and that her phone was tapped has morphed into a delusion that her ex's sister and other unrelated people are a part of a Satanic cult that has it out for her. She believes that she is being attacked demonically and that these attacks will kill her someday. She has even made me promise to get justice for her if ""something happens."" I'm genuinely lost as to what I could do to comfort her. I've thought about giving her a cross, but I don't know if that would actually make things worse by encouraging her delusion. I want to support her to the best of my ability, but I don't even know what to say at this point that won't sound dismissive. Is there anything I can do to make these episodes a little bit easier on her? Thank you.",6.051149927219792,7.038702615720522,6.492384279475986,75.707018922853,66.5109170305677,9.425443959243085,33.60727802037846,9.558583805096642,3.205752605531296,965,42,172,19,15,313,134,229,0.052000000000000005,0.77,0.17800000000000002,0.9805,1,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,1,1,0,5,6,15,3,0,12,1,23,2,0,4,0,24,44,9,1,7,4,2,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,0,19,6,0,0,4,0,0,2,3,4,0,1,8,2,31,11,34,30,5,25,2,1,0,0,29,10,0,4,12,135,50,0,0.0,0.0,0.12127776514952784,0.0,0.0,0.2428867764495347,0.0,0.0,0.12444683907041627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13465556574700796,0.15101182672896155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10227051217368192,0.0,0.1161835028603474,0.2827691824932548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800383378058185,0.39126745681552383,0.0,0.1356797960280476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09922616860372242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261399330470966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16416938717791413,0.0,0.0,0.11875331169669814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057111209978931,0.0,0.0,0.09601716306793928,0.0,0.06493032074470985,0.11921914021399198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10989895523631064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13210209949479726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343646659333075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13749560688717766,0.0,0.13660028781316247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455957933120028,0.0,0.10998244972103836,0.0,0.0,0.1356645254755071,0.0,0.0,0.11759520191596334,0.16591355867597293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252433698865191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09919781203012146,0.0,0.0,0.0921508392128677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458136764413642,0.0,0.08615897606728709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11748323326272098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09883115076317588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956755635999989,0.0,0.0,0.0879648724092857,0.13246421037023653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410296254643389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441882897804495,0.0,0.0,0.08256502909250578,0.0,0.0,0.09866314651730426,0.07246771899875255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07330260462251763,0.0,0.09968861485297392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12665027997872558,0.0882837908023356,0.0,0.15101182672896155,0.0800311978971968 schizophrenia,machvertigo,2019/04/17,"Voice of God Weapon to mimic schizophrenia Woody Norris: Hypersonic sound and other inventions &#x200B; [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1pefJgkG0lw](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1pefJgkG0lw)",38.96875,47.763333375,16.462500000000002,5.532499999999999,-3.5,13.9,47.25,13.023866798666859,7.846450000000001,178,5,8,3,1,35,16,16,0.13699999999999998,0.75,0.113,-0.1179,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.533352051341659,0.5981369363823156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5981369363823156,0.0 schizophrenia,jojokent89,2018/12/05,"Need help So my husband has been having episodes in the past several years. In the past six months has been extremely difficult. We have been married for four years and the first two years was fine and then he all of a sudden started having these extreme weird issues and with in the past year he’s been hearing voices mainly a female voice but now it’s starting to become multiple voices. with in the past couple months it seems like it’s been at least once a month he’s been fine and perfectly normal and then all of a sudden he’s freaking out and the voices start to talk more. After managing to get him to the doctor he’s been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder possible schizophrenia. I love him so much I would not want to leave him but it it’s so hard not to just leave. I don’t know what to do when he’s in these manic episodes, most of the time I just try not to get angry with them or to lash back at him I try to agree with him. I’m more less looking for advice of what to do when he’s on his episode. 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I don’t know if this is a common thing among people with schizophrenia, but my partner has schizoaffective disorder which is basically bipolar and schizophrenia at the same time. And keep in mind this is a long distance relationship. So, they keep having these episodes where they will dissociate. Sometimes the personality that comes out is just a little sweet baby, and sometimes its an angry person that is trying to destroy their life. Most of the time, its an angry one. And the voices dont really like me. I have done sexual things with another person before this relationship, and the angry personality HATES that. My partner will start calling me dirty and nasty and used, and tries to break up with me. A couple times, it has worked and I though it was really my partner speaking to me. This has happened so many times its hard to differentiate what my partner REALLY believes, and what they dont. So, after this happens where they break up with me I usually leave for a few hours because its emotionally draining for me. Then, the personality will call me on the phone a thousand times and try to contact me to just call me rude names. and i just cant handle it. I am forced to ignore my partner, because i cannot take the name calling and the mean things being said to me, and its just constant talk of how everything is all my fault. until they snap out of it. What can i do to help this situation? it has happened twice in a really severe way where i have had to leave the situation, and i dont want it to happen anymore. is there anything that you think i could do better during these times to make them snap out of it? 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I'm in the US and I was getting SSDI so I decided to try to go to school because I could get a PELL grant for being poor. I took a semester and did alright but they took me off SSDI because I went to school. I've been trying to get a job but some of my positive symptoms are back because of the stress of not having money or health insurance. I pretty much stop being able to function if I don't take 1mg of klonopin in the morning. My doctor is trying to take me off klonopin as well which means basically everything is fucked and I can't really get a job because I can't function and it all just sucks. I feel like I don't have any good options and its really aggrivating. I've been having suicidal thoughts because i'm just stuck and I just want to live my fucking life. One of my past jobs is also lying about the time that I worked which is just fucking ridiculous. I just needed to rant pretty much because its all just so much bullshit. ,2.347941176470588,3.927144578431373,4.013529411764703,87.66088235294119,76.25490196078431,6.760784313725492,25.72549019607843,7.510576382923642,1.2633607843137256,770,28,162,10,17,258,110,204,0.20600000000000002,0.688,0.106,-0.9791,4,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,1,1,13,10,5,1,9,1,19,7,0,1,2,31,42,15,1,4,11,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,5,0,2,4,5,6,1,1,9,1,22,4,23,30,6,13,0,0,0,3,2,5,4,4,5,109,28,8,0.10293181778625117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08231453749542357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13999433155416496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914821427569403,0.0,0.3764776844634417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08218268086407912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10535507709880132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09250848074435747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052045419827804966,0.07353451119324751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854764207665235,0.26888813219603663,0.0,0.058498524112598274,0.08633432519209015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094117089979878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161974933767556,0.0,0.0,0.40857578605127104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07270378695792569,0.05028728688341821,0.0,0.09089068090358132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11212292506561458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270001886789289,0.07632263864417788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06974926362834605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09826006705492912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20943732669016668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318815163874033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083449897343392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08605560865100731,0.11790804950384033,0.0,0.0,0.11259070214810354,0.0,0.0,0.10698557056903896,0.15478383390496378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08171636572666491,0.06002037070691475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287220738265415,0.2096518429646794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.123814303136411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060711853001770975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925480658042054,0.0954188263176092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493558926042401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheAntiSuperEgo,2018/12/05,"I'm psychosis free since January I had my first and only psychosis in January this year. I'm on 2 mg risperdal. Should I stop taking my meds? I asked my doctor and he told me not to do so, but I believe I should try it. It seems the only reason to take the meds is prevention, but I will do without them IMO.",2.154545454545456,3.160834454545455,4.039818181818184,89.6097272727273,75.66666666666666,7.098181818181819,25.32121212121212,7.554174236665415,1.1082521212121208,238,8,54,3,5,81,45,66,0.027000000000000003,0.9359999999999999,0.037000000000000005,0.1406,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,1,0,12,14,5,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,11,2,5,9,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,3,35,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21218553443096091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557165299100533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323125619804404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19305985920561566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5042231604488395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34524056129655073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23336210739549254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20662420709334375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18775124203290494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18975638829207514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413051368553951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21687876753120505,0.0,0.15409716710463045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21879017950398166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14616070336060036 schizophrenia,Pop-Pop_1245,2018/12/05,"Would anybody like to be interviewed? i'm working on a school project where I have to make a short film about mental health and I needed to interview some people. So if anyone's interested, do interview me.",3.4926923076923084,6.191661282051285,4.550961538461539,79.80028846153847,77.2051282051282,8.002564102564103,27.698717948717945,8.841846274778883,2.636225641025641,166,7,29,4,4,54,33,39,0.0,0.85,0.15,0.6666,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,1,0,6,7,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,5,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,1,19,3,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276221117620056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4199089931034701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19299656494269574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636922336294328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39810735441040396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29291711680206123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27387096061001953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3998015187712138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875937879239099,0.0,0.0,0.2806250456649719,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,slidingdownthewall,2018/12/05,"I threatened an old friend because I think he's been manipulating me for years I feel terrible and guilty and confused. I don't want to hurt anybody but once I lose my trust I'm paranoid forever. He humilated me back in high school in a way that he knew would really hurt me even though he claimed to be my best friend. I just can't be around him without thinking about it. I said awful things to him that I don't want to repeat. But I couldn't see another way to make him go away. I said I'd hurt him if he contacted me again. I just want to get this person out of my life and I didn't know where else to post this because y'all have always been so kind and accepting. I hate seeking validation but I just don't have a great support system. Thanks in advance guys ",2.0190683229813686,3.7214813105590094,3.4800931677018667,90.594798136646,77.50931677018633,6.836024844720497,23.922360248447205,7.7094869923839395,0.9784211180124228,605,20,136,9,14,199,98,161,0.191,0.596,0.213,0.9002,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,3,11,16,1,1,3,1,13,1,0,2,0,28,31,10,0,6,8,0,1,0,2,1,1,2,0,2,6,6,0,0,6,0,0,2,7,7,0,0,6,4,26,9,17,21,1,19,0,4,1,0,17,8,0,2,5,83,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159576410453906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14612979682105198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12405883032722025,0.0,0.0,0.13093212992791856,0.10715827410520123,0.0,0.16990359700641605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14624840690335816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641635073858107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09204513786738452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07046396959003652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21533644400209065,0.0,0.07280919332717521,0.0,0.07920078726946822,0.0,0.0,0.15364351020912834,0.0,0.13798706917746414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13758791082934466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14724016720776173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4475592618644966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14512068957951293,0.07658792263664156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984332041173552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15590679096310986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930230455562839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14623356199032647,0.14841251705105718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168268229528367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13346715701669765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892767816164797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651241618747168,0.0,0.0,0.14103849166217902,0.11105087827692547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581426542718682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12830281051722994,0.0,0.0,0.09258375896364074,0.17859091564320684,0.13691926106331534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465921983812721,0.22123297301908254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13433685878401766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09899645525325472,0.0,0.0,0.08974246381459884 schizophrenia,itzrekty,2018/12/05,"I kinda need some guidance guys. Ive been kinda ""hearing"" this stuff but its all in my head, i think theres like 5 different ""voices"" last night i kind of challenged one of the voices that is like a maniac kinda and whos always ""saying"" these manic things that i want to hurt my family and stuff. So i really need some guidance here guys",5.355882352941176,5.2864245882352945,6.310588235294119,80.09764705882355,67.82352941176471,9.15294117647059,24.35294117647059,8.841846274778883,1.5587235294117652,264,5,52,4,4,88,49,68,0.153,0.735,0.11199999999999999,-0.5913,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,1,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,1,13,9,4,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,2,8,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,4,8,4,4,8,3,3,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,5,4,34,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705919533023569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21420086932772855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19327335153009406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40600142343766266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21040829857039625,0.0,0.2310709361905277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194767215904844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21349539087521988,0.0,0.16711757576473116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20032352802767014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040374852003438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923961291176225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13892595358897375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13134020684796108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16303907156005673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4693946431575097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13620529137445656,0.13136768248719974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12092532069395033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,thesisathrowaway,2018/12/05,"Do any of you ever get close to having a delusion, but then you snap back to reality? For example, you start thinking ""how would it be like to be a door handle..."" then you are panicking like ""OMG I'M A DOOR HANDLE--"" but then you just come back to reality, without having an actual strong delusion? Just a satirical and simple example.",4.3828571428571435,6.2103818888888895,5.993841269841273,74.53171428571432,71.38095238095238,9.484444444444444,30.06031746031745,9.888512548439397,3.258704126984127,261,11,46,7,5,89,41,63,0.055,0.784,0.161,0.8156,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,5,0,1,6,3,0,0,5,0,7,0,0,1,1,12,12,7,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,7,9,0,9,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,9,37,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.3268660185436098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277796710405754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5151166911123467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885325344247368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029843578119625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17499922923559488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3272824417007551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370816083283655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21462449422836424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3228829447332941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23794115241089386,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,deltacorex,2018/12/05,"Why do I collapse to the floor and moan and twitch uncontrollably? I'm going to try and explain this best I possibly can. I've always had a mental illness. I've been suicidal since I was 7 years old. When I was 10 or 11 years old I was self harming every single day for hours on end. I always had trouble making friends. I always told my self I was crazy. Teachers loved me as I was gifted and most of the people I've met never knew I had anything wrong with me. I seemed like your average kid. I liked playing with friends, video games, the usual. I'm 16 now and it wasn't until I was 14 when things started getting a lot worse. My life has never been the same. I can't distinguish reality from fantasy and dreams. I constantly feel like any minute I'm going to explode. I can't leave my house or have a normal life. My parents have given up on me and just tell me I'm messing around with them. I've seen countless doctors but oddly enough I've never been on any prescription besides SSRIs (I'm not on anything anymore.) Sometimes I say things such as devils are after me and I'm dying. But the thing that concerns me the most is that this has only happened on three occasions but sometimes, out of nowhere, my voice and tone gets weird. I start talking funny almost as if I'm high on something. Then next thing you know I fall down to the floor and either moan or scream and start twitching uncontrollably. The first time it happened I was out in public screaming at the top of my lungs til eventually my parents came and took me to the hospital. The second two times I was at home and my parents didn't know what to do so they just ignored me until eventually it went away. I just want to know why this is happening to me and if so is there any way to make it stop. 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Maybe its a dumb question, but im just curious and I dont know where else to ask.",0.017500000000001847,2.2973990833333358,1.0083333333333364,98.52000000000002,99.83333333333334,4.066666666666666,18.5,5.985473137389443,-0.16929999999999978,94,3,20,1,4,29,23,24,0.16699999999999998,0.71,0.12300000000000001,-0.0129,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493993934183763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43802418803680654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122144439594042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4037067363981945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20539946088587002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3754752284377022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591064413993732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4186778628805306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,speedyw7,2019/05/18,Rexulti what happens if you stop taking it i find it makes me very restless to very uncomfortable points and makes everything seem boring,6.942499999999999,9.662881583333338,6.298333333333333,71.28,66.5,9.8,32.83333333333333,10.125756701596842,3.9359833333333367,114,5,17,3,2,35,21,24,0.34,0.66,0.0,-0.831,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,7,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,9,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28538894448130725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902303506456345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28080396911193684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.423927467786394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001826371628304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890810154073317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26548181444548713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387542992030055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5240157140840376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,leah_amelia,2019/05/18,"Looking for help handling my friend and housemate (TW - Violence, suicide, overdosing) Hey everyone, so my friend and housemate has a form of schizophrenia called schizo-affective disorder and it's a fairly recent diagnosis. It makes a lot of sense considering his behaviour over the last couple of years but in the last few months he's gotten really bad. He routinely wakes me up with his shouting and grunting noises, usually shouting stuff like 'fuck off' and 'go away'. He also has smashed his mirror and broken other items out of frustration too. It's very, very distressing not just for him but also for me, as I'm sure you can imagine. I want to be a supportive friend but I'm finding it hard at time not to just walk into his room as tell him to shut the hell up. But I know that isn't supportive nor helpful in dealing with the situation long term. What I can do to get him to control these outbursts if anything can be done at all? He started lithium and letamagrine (sorry, not sure about the spelling) yesterday but I understand that it can take a few weeks before he will see any effects. I have PTSD from a suicide attempt he made last year and there were multiple other friends of mine who also tried to kill themselves around that time too. 4 people in the space of about 6 months. I also had two friends in hospital at the time, one with a brain tumour and another with a severe spinal infection which he was very lucky to survive. Thankfully, they all survived, though in my housemate's case, he overdose seemed to make things worse for his mental health long term. I'm reaching the point where I don't want to be in the house anymore. The moment he starts screaming, I get scared and want to just leave the house. I'm fed up of being woken up by shouting and aggression toward the voices he's hearing. But at the same time, I'm hesitant to leave him alone for long periods of time because I fear that the voices may tell him to commit suicide again. Please tell me if there's any good ways to manage this. The last thing I want to do is have him hospitalised because that'll ruin his new job as well as his university life. Living with him too adds a layer complexity because we need him to be able to pay rent, otherwise we're all screwed. &#x200B; How I do cope with the shouting and aggression? Is it possible for him to direct that anger elsewhere? Or am I just being massively offensive by missing the whole point? Thank you so much everyone",6.306320864991236,6.847493127118646,6.332586206896554,78.65016949152545,65.82203389830508,9.561192285213323,33.01315020455874,9.494082108488547,2.9781461718293385,1964,79,363,36,29,623,247,472,0.201,0.672,0.127,-0.9944,2,1,0,0,0,4,47.0,1,2,1,5,23,31,9,3,26,0,29,9,3,6,6,66,63,34,4,7,16,0,1,1,5,3,3,8,2,0,22,23,1,1,7,0,2,2,6,16,1,2,8,11,39,15,67,46,13,58,1,2,2,2,45,27,3,7,29,240,61,3,0.07296765490867949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0755724845920636,0.0,0.2334088290719335,0.0,0.07906042360799001,0.0886636874218723,0.09924101501081248,0.0765129483387838,0.0,0.0,0.07236430667564518,0.0,0.0,0.06004616274271644,0.064956682909923,0.0,0.0,0.06855551373502307,0.0,0.06092494398776568,0.13344121551313193,0.0,0.06209010000555839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08145603473042612,0.07450813393465984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08183942954571709,0.0,0.0807373222894765,0.0,0.0,0.07522644821187334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08362725414650267,0.0,0.0,0.07467124480025457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13944744245079593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08210889798786764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06669111466600641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28187314589175866,0.06745742117794748,0.07624517612178221,0.0,0.0414691998248698,0.06120180701046165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06536468649012463,0.0,0.0,0.07756120504655471,0.08223985020970875,0.0,0.09781736198626954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683897538794744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240913840300839,0.0,0.08072789909896076,0.0,0.040101114868777515,0.23791351045496895,0.0,0.15452442170130093,0.0,0.0,0.05153921257192329,0.03564831044976597,0.0,0.06443177611377313,0.1937222353079668,0.06127445274980426,0.0,0.0,0.062034490855326876,0.0,0.0690437593586789,0.09741295250933947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07353423397235549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11648417199214706,0.0,0.05363962212385885,0.05410459154498766,0.0,0.07047261580104006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04944477138387302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050586584429108516,0.0,0.0,0.08009657331420468,0.1379560382381507,0.08226006731792343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852952838290782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046744948178087935,0.0,0.07204675633884211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730533518739065,0.0,0.058145773808089524,0.06642701255540076,0.0,0.08243268062958355,0.0,0.0,0.08201870134225135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08168131572037107,0.10329376341364413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08353050751195194,0.2394443140214152,0.1656056601690756,0.13754230242941046,0.0,0.054862595554629134,0.0,0.1913308397092904,0.1343576262525992,0.0,0.0,0.09695293527671464,0.0,0.07169035047075817,0.0,0.2127401318379396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04954024796033072,0.0,0.07127879623084023,0.0759619021024978,0.0,0.0,0.08036356308927341,0.18061787127203804,0.1721528535675555,0.057918328101740114,0.05853025142664784,0.0,0.06560668482597258,0.0,0.0,0.08146578088035701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07436027415310212,0.0,0.0,0.0886636874218723,0.09397755484530132 schizophrenia,SoDifferentDude,2019/05/18,"I just turned 20 Is there any way to know if I'm schizophrenic? I mean, I don't have any auditory or visual hallucinations, yet. But I can feel certain ""feeling"" or ""real fog"" in my head that it's somehow rooted in my thinking. Yes. What are the most earliest symptoms or something that might tell you at it's utter beginning if yes?",1.3209090909090904,3.8649970757575782,3.539621212121212,84.37943181818183,85.81818181818181,6.330303030303031,24.91666666666667,7.645422480735847,1.605157575757577,261,11,51,5,8,89,52,66,0.0,0.875,0.125,0.782,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,2,6,3,1,1,1,18,14,6,0,2,7,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,7,1,4,13,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,8,2,34,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3847486772377889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860745319146832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903259054728086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15546849152884806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081492416736605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001007084091373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219898116907842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21778190642481088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940301675289026,0.0,0.0,0.2472576064272233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18126395977295728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077021870261845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22454425846552345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,hippestpotamus,2019/05/18,"What's that sub to check your delusions? I have one that I need to clear up I'll share it here. Have airports always said ""Final Destination"" on them? I had a terrible delusion about that last time I flew",1.1653658536585354,3.68016212195122,2.2860487804878065,93.27785365853659,86.3170731707317,5.231219512195122,20.39512195121951,6.742157984588678,0.3099424390243901,161,5,34,2,5,51,33,41,0.079,0.79,0.131,0.264,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,3,1,6,1,5,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,22,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3793704403772839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4994492354671034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3716439555638421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380664574700745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30895009508138915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4336940159281887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658565592251723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nanashay,2019/04/19,"What should I do? So I am the adhd daughter of a man who is schizophrenic. I have always known that he had a mental illness, and I can remember the times he was not home, his eyes were different. He has since moved many states away, but he still has a problem with YouTube videos of myself and the family, as well as the many terrifying emails to my mother. I love him and I always have, but how can you even talk to him when he refuses to take the medication that would stop him from snapping, and how do you deal with being one of the delusions of grandeur? He literally told my husband in a YouTube video that he owns me until my husband pays for me and he wants 50 shekels of silver for me. Like I am not even a person and like I am a slave, or a cow for sale on the market. But at the same time he tells me that I am not his child and that I am going to burn in gehenna and I will be ashes beneath his feet. I wish that he would just take the medication because maybe I could have an actual conversation with him about things. I wish that he wouldn't always bring up the fact that I was molested under his care and I wish that he wouldn't have the need to throw that out to my husband as if it makes me less expensive than the other cattle for sale. I really wish that he could get better so that he didn't have to see things this way. Is it just me? What can I do to feel less horrible about my entire life as I have known it to be up to this point in my life?",5.008292220113852,4.199345612903231,5.7959582542694505,85.9874667931689,68.67741935483872,9.229601518026566,26.94497153700189,8.4952907291091,1.4445540796963952,1140,27,265,15,17,375,149,310,0.065,0.804,0.131,0.9734,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,0,1,13,8,1,0,20,0,37,9,2,3,1,48,54,24,0,15,10,5,1,2,0,6,6,0,1,3,23,13,0,2,4,2,4,4,6,2,1,1,6,3,42,6,42,37,4,24,0,0,2,1,41,12,0,2,8,197,65,2,0.0,0.0,0.11118110547332677,0.0,0.1369240108009469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844014182963229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704277618491813,0.0,0.0,0.06945183247756948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100763512362562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11616117142698205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819307125859833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174587924503602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11903459269879033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15050189891621818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074048613860443,0.0,0.05760739499219621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059524718568436025,0.0,0.06475012779538745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11428299125273175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16094694928279346,0.11132274878994436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028279934490071,0.0,0.0760504320139187,0.2310181409203935,0.11445991316106215,0.0,0.0,0.2295488182918185,0.11481656427309395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12109158561204154,0.0,0.08447906474323176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07720320815063005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948094584335627,0.0,0.0,0.10770247730592257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10901744729255428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07298769643741157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12906263990747427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078897834381616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09424565006131401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098616737901843,0.09525217502816552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713252287650113,0.09157415045496836,0.0995815076787474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15138259179865693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328692213198007,0.0,0.0,0.10886681871799686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671999900885165,0.09043384396420838,0.0,0.0,0.10243846625094047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5240642771912448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16186791444709933,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SIVERsErIfto,2019/04/19,"Got diagnosed with schizophrenia and can't convince them that i have other mental illness Hello 3 years ago I got obsessive thoughts and compulsion that took more than 20 hours a day. I was sane when i sought help but it took 3 months to get in a mental hospital and there was no treatment only pills so finally i lost my mind. &#x200B; I got kicked out of the ward after 4 months with a diagnose of severe schizophrenia ... and every-time i sought help and asked for cbt for the obsessive thoughts they told me i suffer from psychosis. i never got treatment and the obsessions lasted for 3 years (20 hours a day extreme stress). now i am not severe mentally ill now have cognitive problems but i have a job and hobbies i am a functional person. &#x200B; Now some people from the health care visited my house and start telling family i suffer from schizophrenia and told my family that i maybe hear voices and other things which ain't true. I have psychological problems and maybe suffered from psychosis due untreated obsessive thoughts &#x200B; I even tested positive for autism and personality disorders but i can't get those diagnosis because of the schizophrenia &#x200B; I live in the Netherlands which i thought one of the best health care in the world. &#x200B; I even went to the hospital to get a explanation and they just read the medical files and told me i am sick. &#x200B; i can't go to a lawyer because they won't believe me. &#x200B; I read much about schizophrenia and i know it isn't the case but one of the symptoms is lack of insight. &#x200B; the diagnosis in it self is not my problem but i am scared that i will lose another 3 years of my live because i will never get the right treatment. &#x200B; i told my environment this and they told me not to worry. but the last 3 years i couldn't leave my bed and i informed my family and health care who didn't do anything.",5.665183201199912,7.262765384401118,5.5392896935933145,79.9416407756589,67.85793871866295,8.642854081851297,32.192093421898434,9.057496981413335,2.8224205271052067,1539,66,275,28,26,479,161,359,0.16699999999999998,0.7290000000000001,0.10400000000000001,-0.9689,1,0,0,0,0,0,55.0,0,0,5,3,10,20,0,6,23,0,23,11,0,0,3,48,52,26,0,5,10,0,0,0,0,3,11,2,1,3,15,21,0,0,7,2,0,5,14,14,0,2,20,2,47,6,30,28,5,35,0,5,0,0,22,7,0,1,23,184,62,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03917174659084867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4309183753136895,0.483260908423627,0.0,0.04633704181063422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03636458421727087,0.0,0.04131166144203468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081339585968607,0.0,0.0,0.0497869693950004,0.04637465248595539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13516387394220813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05699775629389184,0.0,0.0,0.08970378892132834,0.0,0.0,0.05064553982075217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058374123479409935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497512694497108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048407957653083665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09234975231044272,0.0,0.025114181166176728,0.0,0.1413710394403097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14091563111169375,0.049805313484906334,0.0,0.059239217551706774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703644801782745,0.050989298121455966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04385173158921995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024285654607113082,0.07204145520869032,0.0,0.04679080302482479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07804111509329886,0.0,0.0,0.04943727869728125,0.048238577837294856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878953890177632,0.0,0.0,0.04451675081846853,0.13359930370227935,0.0,0.04461927763135158,0.0,0.07054403293907915,0.0,0.032484716208485025,0.0,0.06816406593262732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0598885414475767,0.033608467284516316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03063576464691805,0.07716996341343561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12685151434285047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08840386692350381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0377379972230742,0.0,0.0,0.0442418740054265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04609978142853282,0.09984418720823236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03127789176861217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05061946709100413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04593030409221874,0.0,0.0,0.038623985925526405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029357855847411,0.0,0.0,0.14032761641308114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21112707429002636,0.09819337642992508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04096454957037636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04487706467227775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.483260908423627,0.11382758036839535 schizophrenia,WhimsyMoth,2019/04/19,"Disorganized schizophrenia keeps messing up my social life and career I can't really talk about this to anyone in real life because most people just don't understand and/or I'm really terrible at expressing myself. Ever since I started my new job as an apprentice cook I have been feeling awful. I moved pretty far away from my friends and family and within the year I worked here I barely managed to make any friends. My coworkers all treat me like I am mentally disabled or just stupid and there is really nothing I can do to fix it. I was diagnosed with disorganized schizophrenia a few years back and basically just am really bad at social interactions. I jumble up sentences a lot, react inappropriately to sensitive topics and just can't manage to express my thoughts properly. In stressful situations my boss tends to yell at me (pretty normal for a kitchen) and my brain just shuts down. I really love my job and I love being a cook but it makes me feel awful that everyone at work ridicules me and thinks of me as stupid and unstable... I tried taking lots of different meds over the years but most just had extremely bad side effects or made me gain weight which is terrible since I also have a long history with anorexia. I don't even know where I am going with this post. Probably just wanted to rant to someone who might understand what I mean. If anyone is or was in a similar situation, I would love to hear if and how you managed it.",6.235531135531132,7.318520263736267,6.9660256410256425,72.13314102564105,66.14285714285714,10.60879120879121,32.01648351648352,10.62613485830676,3.6359582417582414,1164,46,201,31,18,385,160,273,0.13699999999999998,0.764,0.099,-0.9159,4,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,4,16,16,3,1,9,2,21,11,1,7,2,55,43,22,0,5,14,0,3,1,2,2,3,2,1,0,9,14,4,1,9,2,0,2,4,9,0,0,6,5,34,7,32,34,6,28,0,0,0,3,14,17,0,10,9,144,43,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08138924279055064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06921033019711886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14232656412127478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956207419264528,0.07825851209430815,0.169955355260114,0.06204095209735973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11361429666205144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032992441206656,0.0,0.1063329677577547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06722127241378682,0.09206110164674228,0.0,0.0972501494075993,0.0,0.0,0.0959441907083908,0.0,0.10292075833474397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572618619327405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057840944342958216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147075569058902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20199150029310292,0.09046208738915686,0.0,0.0,0.055932749197260816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14377305269655594,0.04972200933109958,0.0,0.0,0.09006746434914074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173050531385216,0.27556709686088593,0.09630174344234492,0.1358708918467449,0.0,0.0,0.11086255536647308,0.11304882042306465,0.0,0.1025650254275297,0.10796694231933124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10817046857296854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09829470222393984,0.0,0.0,0.09971766085939833,0.09765563188640504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07055780740456111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974720917148215,0.2070830493621804,0.109730410268275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584196388778918,0.3259976027149856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16837827461865507,0.22879820008360954,0.0,0.2074931122134171,0.08623342810258508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07203670249022033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11658264943251193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07652195724505986,0.08180270093763159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06521315991930057,0.0,0.08079779504876311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06909838475569947,0.0,0.0,0.21190223926437246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06002939328305256,0.0,0.0,0.12393424547384298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14818648208546906,0.0,0.0,0.07229787298668737,0.0,0.0,0.19661883550624226 schizophrenia,raluqqq43,2019/04/19,"Need advice for a friend Hi there So today i talked with one of my friends and he told me that for some time he has been hearing unfamiliar voices whispering to him. it all began like a month ago when we went on a trip in the mountains and after that we went to one of our friends house he sat on the couch and after a bit he said that he suddenly heard a voice whispering to him ""let's go"" or something like that and when he asked if someone called after him no one answered. well from that moment till today he is hearing strange voices but cant understand what they are saying he also stopped eating properly, doesn't sleep, drinks lots of alcohol and coffee, cries without knowing the reason and his hair started to fall really bad i dont think its a start of schizophrenia but more likely due to stress anyway, i'd like to hear some opinions *sorry for any mistakes*",4.768352713178295,5.893667424418608,5.024418604651164,84.56922480620159,69.52325581395347,7.593798449612403,27.70542635658915,7.793537801064563,1.6083356589147288,695,23,134,8,12,219,117,172,0.1,0.8190000000000001,0.081,-0.7422,0,0,3,0,0,0,10.0,3,0,1,0,7,11,0,1,9,0,8,5,2,1,1,27,26,15,0,3,5,0,1,4,3,0,1,11,1,0,8,9,3,1,5,1,0,5,5,3,1,3,8,12,12,8,23,17,6,26,0,0,0,0,30,3,0,6,22,86,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213990210404889,0.11012503263798534,0.1327672638999409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934906169530397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08448268013010964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11614105728173775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037293412265578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356302278251077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12685575304943067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13646408466033025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456001162905677,0.12170101519063957,0.0,0.12712134370690878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879462547098697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07060446013524488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4200587604907896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433481682209475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06827519166245131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270366294677826,0.0,0.2427758167187869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561842898107793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916157187188236,0.0,0.0,0.09211717354094816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525504281354857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795868221258658,0.12773218473677547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11817400409345287,0.0987950445581164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124322690153875,0.0,0.1052621928282142,0.09564061023264614,0.0,0.13906863947046022,0.17586547201193678,0.0,0.0,0.1038643261959795,0.14230844806947074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985375589756457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07960347124547175,0.0,0.0,0.07244124420510545,0.0,0.2355166598754204,0.1187099272840863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12933090369341407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117003603388313,0.23033041674439814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11975615038319905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,RamoSeif,2019/04/19,"Amisulpride (solian) question. Important Hello people. I have been prescribed this medication after taling and discussing with my psych my issues. I have very severe Depersonalisation/Derealisation, I do not have Schizophrenia i never heard a voice or saw things thst weren’t there. I do have alot of the negative symtoms of it though, like anhedonia, cognitive decline, and especially blank mind. I can’t visualize anything at all in my mind no inner monolgue nothing. I am complete dead zombie, this is al due to lots and lots of anxiety and panic in the past. Which to be frankly I don’t feel anything of this day. I have ZERO anxiety ZERO emotions nothing. It’s like my brain is so worn out it shut it self down and can’t produce anything at all. I do have anxiety about taking medications, actually alot of anxiety for that. So you can say I still Have some anxiety but it’s only the fear of things making worse so, I don’t like to insert anything in my body of which I can’t control and don’t know the outcome. I have never really tried medications besides a few years back I tried lexapro for 8 weeks. It did help my anxiety back then because I did not feel ANYTHING lol. After that I tried citalopram, was oke on it. Nothing dor my dp/dr. And then I added lamotringe and I got heavy light sensitivity to bad. But whatever, I am rambling.. my new psych wants me to try this med Amisulpride 100mg. But I am way way to scared to take it even tough I did some research myself. But I don’t know. Could this med help my in some way with my symtoms.. i really need help. I am nothing left, no emotions no love nothing I am bystander watchinf my life pass me by. Could it be that my brain receptors are dead of all the anxiety I have experencied in my life. Can this med make my brain damage of make things worse.",2.5012738022113052,5.026176463068187,3.9429975429975457,83.7378746928747,79.82386363636364,6.646314496314497,26.27487714987715,7.824948511530503,1.7277901412776415,1433,59,273,25,37,472,169,352,0.155,0.759,0.086,-0.9595,1,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,1,0,2,10,10,0,3,9,1,39,10,4,5,5,46,55,19,2,4,7,0,2,3,0,0,5,3,0,1,23,11,0,1,5,0,0,1,16,6,0,2,10,7,45,4,34,41,11,32,0,1,1,1,11,13,0,9,18,193,68,4,0.0,0.0,0.07191510540391853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946321085265584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032210666817231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333289187330965,0.061531747108137726,0.044923423200877895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08185786694981279,0.0,0.2468019731197824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07726717796956098,0.0,0.08265453774225118,0.1176779661987607,0.0,0.0,0.04752679243804057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657925655807404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04867445721992004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08292669004885586,0.07452420742304741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058940145061023026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14818741191784146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07691780885046266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100103167449757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08006918295144913,0.0,0.10410507048689163,0.10801008650255924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12530468978546996,0.06651207465402366,0.0,0.1475747559176753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455736008494384,0.22271806966465368,0.0,0.0,0.14882067538141378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05464346499856927,0.11367533123966367,0.07117451227184253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535588293598107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05604791320401708,0.0,0.08646450191678656,0.0,0.0,0.0703496450103756,0.05109041907008432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08255459553382355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944210414195768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058604746018870925,0.07378095208113238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07687933300727882,0.0832536975161433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058852444302512075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108180372243386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14687785751685914,0.0,0.07240437539255302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20013464500068365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06080559921156412,0.04346686741226319,0.1754855573637327,0.059113203775508126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502017822125295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047456778456320174 schizophrenia,mentallyillbluesman,2019/04/19,"Anyone else been numb for years? Sup, I been numb for over a decade, no fun, no feeling, nothing. And when I wasnt numb, I was in hell. Did anyone else experience this lack of feeling, joy for a long time? Any tips on how to overcome it?",0.675918367346938,2.659541489795924,2.1993469387755127,96.74922448979594,83.08163265306122,4.736326530612245,20.00408163265305,5.6839178017228535,-0.3209297959183668,179,5,42,1,5,58,36,49,0.315,0.521,0.16399999999999998,-0.8506,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,2,0,5,3,0,1,0,5,7,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,5,2,3,2,8,2,1,7,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,4,26,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827486112927333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3758106899526378,0.5507003127704311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.448986225731175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628738150386037,0.0,0.0,0.2717603803550766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378214926237764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25785791024730303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156701193172523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730561465820793 schizophrenia,_____BOOP_____,2019/04/19,"I decided to stop taking the meds. What do you guys think? So I've been off the meds for about 2 months now with no ill effects. I've had 3 episodes, which have all been extremely mild (only a few hallucinations, some paranoia, etc), and I retained awareness the whole time. The last episode, I finally dragged my sorry ass to a doctor, who diagnosed me with psychotic depression. They encouraged me to keep taking my medications, but I really don't want to. I only have an episode approximately every 3 years, and it only lasts a few months. I'm concerned about the long term health effects of taking antipsychotics. After each episode (during which, I can still function at 80% and get decent grades/ hold a job), I go back to normal completely. So what do you guys think about me not taking any more meds? At least for the forseeable future.",5.686363636363637,7.068754509554143,5.83496236247829,78.6500926462073,67.59872611464968,9.021192819918936,30.8332368268674,9.339509955726095,2.7413363057324847,666,26,121,13,11,211,102,157,0.106,0.875,0.019,-0.8299,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,2,1,2,8,2,0,0,11,0,9,6,1,2,1,21,20,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,6,6,0,4,5,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,0,15,1,17,17,10,19,0,1,0,1,7,3,1,1,15,78,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098738547857088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288258106303087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028489998916405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11524022063532532,0.1358023884250051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13694815933892715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922039595931888,0.0,0.0,0.1127307806121597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14656942247625004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06990405358024895,0.0,0.07604061827747767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26496256959800063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222126327475526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13277409924370293,0.1189260157122617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181268327814641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184072243908158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44585901724939225,0.13478764183240488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135929435636445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310938587028035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305278752442247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571457312467258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14977616581282502,0.0,0.0,0.10685144041818387,0.11186131252596836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023984744243178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17146500827126804,0.0,0.0,0.07801882469739617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07891766346344073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14938094713090638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616167426453011 schizophrenia,EvilSubie21,2019/04/19,"Just need insight. I don’t have schizophrenia but do have bipolar 2 and GAD. Recently I’ve been feeling super paranoid, but I know the things I’m paranoid about is kinda silly. It’s a weird feeling. I’ll catch a thought and know that’s it’s not feasible, then get super anxious that I had the thought in the first place. No auditory or visual hallucinations.",2.9482857142857126,5.431854971428574,4.155714285714286,83.07928571428572,77.85714285714286,6.285714285714287,30.0,7.447530270364453,2.020857142857144,288,14,53,4,7,94,49,70,0.17800000000000002,0.631,0.191,0.6067,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,0,5,0,7,1,0,0,0,16,16,6,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,7,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,4,2,3,3,2,12,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,32,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35578777662089006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184819756304363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678842046431623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16454094106398412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.346160925259561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335208825401729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32904084845539866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31096107823702523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20922933122832266,0.0,0.0,0.5000476446164376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bambiepo,2019/04/19,"When I dream I see dead people When I dream I see dead people tying me down and disecting me. I see Jesus Christ pulling me up to heaven to save me but I just fall back down into the underworld, scares the shit out of me.",0.5065957446808511,2.56936561702128,2.637702127659576,92.89400000000002,84.31914893617022,5.4621276595744686,15.782978723404256,6.742157984588678,-0.3654476595744685,172,3,39,2,5,58,29,47,0.155,0.609,0.235,0.5187,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,3,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,3,11,2,8,3,0,10,3,0,3,0,0,5,1,0,3,27,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397689529388597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43235096477853374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121844212199345,0.0,0.7454362165610909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200769073962297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FlyingBananas56,2019/04/19,"Help I’m on ADHD meds and I know that it has some serious symptoms but I’ve noticed it getting worse. I hear my name being called angrily when no one is calling my name, my heartbeat feels like it’s not my own, my fish tank sounds like angry whispers telling me to do things that I know I shouldn’t do. Like Morally wrong things. I’m not seeing things I’m just hearing things, it’s not very often but it happens and seemingly random times, sometimes at school, sometimes alone, sometimes with friends, sometimes when I’m about to sleep. It seems random and I can’t pin down what’s causing it! I’m always on the meds and I don’t have an episode every day but they normally last 20 minutes to 3 hours. I haven’t had one in 2 days but it’s not frequent. I can’t afford to not be on the meds for a week or long enough to test to see if it’s the cause, I’ve had these hallucinations for quite a while, maybe 4 years? It’s been more prevalent this last year. I also am on anxiety meds if that’s relevant.",1.5161428571428566,3.4727999952380983,2.7773809523809554,93.85178571428574,80.0,5.533333333333334,23.357142857142854,6.508806274219699,0.4681714285714289,789,27,175,7,20,254,120,210,0.12300000000000001,0.8,0.077,-0.8588,1,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,1,6,6,0,0,6,0,16,2,1,2,0,33,32,15,0,4,13,0,1,3,1,1,1,4,0,0,20,5,0,0,5,0,0,0,11,2,0,2,3,7,16,4,17,26,4,21,1,0,2,0,10,7,0,9,17,104,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226896456289886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573212851665273,0.0,0.0816395426376745,0.0849451921618126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07809685491582195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20848602861848325,0.0,0.0,0.20974449624911407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13167631591126708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10548394307912198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08601333854271066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051618637489932825,0.07293151422050388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07887274805822769,0.0,0.05333663967778096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09027586663941208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301206440015963,0.0,0.06842727180745839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10053587693782784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220952318436568,0.16643029535854706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14962476470988031,0.0,0.0,0.0903444527051504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10256087374529646,0.0,0.4535859373366288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000243268807654,0.0,0.11622758833076002,0.0,0.0,0.1383546128106312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858289612982837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033182606031656,0.16270145045946452,0.18587372021436813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021614838676169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40386960942792427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061082685494356,0.0,0.0,0.08922919958915952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712902789442188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0595281922555736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423309127576703,0.0,0.0,0.08188864107564656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10403614630019717,0.0,0.111616936614074,0.0,0.13148233725833694 schizophrenia,Goodako,2019/04/19,"I've been seeing strong lights in the dark I've always had strong alucinations of stuff happening in the dark, people chasing me, crawling at me from the corners of my eyes and plain staring at me, I get how my brain can make this kind of stuff up, but last month I was alone at home at night with all the lights out. I heard a noise and opened my room's front door which was locked, when I opened the door the corridor just outside of my room was bright as day, I found it weird since I didn't let the lights on and turned back to talk to my friends on my PC, since I was on discord at the time about how weird it was that the lights were on, I turned back to the corridor laughing with them and the corridor was pitch black, I've never been afraid of the dark and my hallucinations have never really shaken me, but I nearly shitted myself, I closed my door and started dialoguing with my friends about how weird it was. Since that incident, I've started seeing light where there's none, I'm freaking out mainly because I don't see how the human brain can emulate light through hallucinations. It someone has had an experience like this, can you please enlighten me?(Pun intended)",17.007255747126436,7.282886133620693,14.290862068965518,61.47367816091954,56.19827586206897,17.880459770114946,51.597701149425276,11.855464076750405,5.700497701149424,941,30,194,14,6,291,121,232,0.064,0.789,0.147,0.9694,0,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,1,2,12,14,1,1,15,0,20,4,4,6,3,28,33,14,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,6,1,11,14,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,15,14,27,8,31,17,3,35,0,0,7,0,7,22,1,0,13,127,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281551953031446,0.0,0.0,0.1147379885413066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21206234820827294,0.0,0.08405826813438723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3078682931148945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08892955117111624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13488577381393316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15119251252519986,0.21307151664775714,0.0,0.07204337993047923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219382885413719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13831788131759518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14359429760702735,0.0,0.11240116618607088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14100489345377729,0.0,0.0673675346886229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09204462111243177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100648445655578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127031021407604,0.0,0.0,0.12940320121057272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09559761566005133,0.0,0.0,0.15136506087120702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833776070096731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3296485065848898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14154514118221684,0.3421994427250915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11683625696490525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19520269269683607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157088956739963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11083313742093838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08040649349399218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999758855926424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,beesinmypeas,2019/06/23,"seeing soft and dark i sometimes see when i close my eyes really soft white and fat but then it flickers to skinny as a string like i can feel it and dark and dirty color. something that you cant describe, then goes back to soft and bubbly white and nice like an angel. the darkness i can feel its evil and how disgusting it is but the white is so nice and fat as if you can feel it. its like angels and demons are fighting in my head. does anybody else have this? sometimes i also hear voices with wheni close the eyes.",2.043490566037736,4.0952927830188735,2.5704150943396264,95.51373584905664,78.71698113207547,4.994716981132076,19.090566037735847,5.6839178017228535,-0.3510762264150946,409,9,88,2,10,126,65,106,0.161,0.7040000000000001,0.136,-0.631,0,0,1,0,2,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,5,8,3,0,5,0,8,6,6,1,0,19,14,20,0,1,3,0,6,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,8,12,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,16,9,5,6,14,0,7,3,0,8,0,4,3,0,1,7,55,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915305768852263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18416313328009634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20959081437678895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000741435608015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632999560159401,0.17110109317687486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457993213228213,0.0,0.26993744866036284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3510274136197186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343184620081307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3817059927058401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184381220506078,0.4737494649096969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Myrrsha,2019/06/23,. Don't talk to me if I don't want you to. Why don't you understand. I'm obviously uncomfortable. I don't respond. I don't carry on the conversation. I am not interested. I do not want to be noticed. Stop talking to me I hate it I hate it I hate it!!!!! It's not just real people too!!!! I'm tired of the voices!!!! Go away I don't want you!!!!!!!!,-3.4376315789473684,-2.533356999999995,1.3230263157894768,94.03743421052636,119.0,4.531578947368421,15.276315789473689,6.322622252153567,-0.19619473684210573,252,8,64,5,16,97,38,76,0.35,0.65,0.0,-0.9716,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,3,0,0,2,4,3,0,2,0,9,1,0,0,1,12,19,1,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,9,3,0,0,0,1,14,1,7,18,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,1,1,42,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19726616118513016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193262133296795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6218818637502237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23904306882803805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455611777101995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389826627560279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17553758956961513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375189203395559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413203719817239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21857779203578687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37152298965621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894580001117577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,imadethisfast,2019/06/23,I NEED HELP FAST (SELF HARM) i have met someone who has schizophrenia and we started chatting on snapchat she just sent me snaps of her cut arm bleeding please i don't know what to tell her to go get help please i need help what do i say to her to make her feel better?????She told me she wants to die i don't know what kind of things to tell her to help her and yes she was diagnosed by a doctor and goes to therapy but she said they don't help please i don't know what to say to not mess it up,0.3336280233527944,2.197379110091745,1.26537114261885,103.63965804837365,83.58715596330275,4.6975813177648025,18.16597164303586,5.565023196281405,-0.7922366972477066,389,9,100,2,11,120,61,109,0.036000000000000004,0.759,0.20600000000000002,0.9436,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,1,1,8,4,1,1,0,15,23,4,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,7,4,0,0,4,1,0,2,5,3,0,0,5,4,21,1,15,18,0,6,0,0,0,0,28,2,0,0,2,58,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316656907883161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15110252552358816,0.15450622444510653,0.0,0.0,0.15237738438853884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07527444486920268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.077779773705121,0.0,0.084607712701954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4989307302255931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550278732618881,0.24544941451781946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09937359696070723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22077424964199965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4902521311237167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14161190621705927,0.2367788870657262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553065591475925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12613924604943572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10537277178861804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602423772424145,0.0,0.170248758975491,0.0,0.09890432089533532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14225412110343574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08780889935769952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dmtburrito,2019/06/23,"wanna be friends? i feel alone. i would love to have a friend to talk to. we could talk about anything. if not, thats okay too. if you read this have a great day.",-2.0956190476190457,-0.377428514285711,-0.8407142857142844,111.47988095238098,105.57142857142858,2.333333333333333,11.547619047619047,3.1291,-2.2416666666666667,122,2,33,0,6,37,28,35,0.087,0.568,0.345,0.9175,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,1,5,1,0,0,0,8,7,2,0,5,3,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,5,5,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,2,1,22,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045390323981283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419716699748124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347687638590283,0.0,0.0,0.1896328883185764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14867656724056227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4543525362293431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3241825547096835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653845584287297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941217639654989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4726799515742664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088791366945498,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,le_yike,2019/06/23,"You can actually give it to someone else and be normal again. That's right, we just need to figure out exactly how it works, it's like a living thought or a being always within one person causing all the symptoms of schizophrenia. I might remember how we were exchanging it with others back when it was jumping between me and my friends(we all acknowledged it), I'm just not sure if we are suppose to have this knowledge or if we are supposed to have this thing/illness with us - if it's the fate. Anyone else had these instances in life where you were completely normal but maybe someone else had it instead? It's like this life always shows me that yes it can go away and I can be normal again(and it's real) just to give me hope. I feel like we could change the world if only we would find the right people to show that exchange to, scientists with machines which could see the transfer of this thing or the energy as well the symptoms. They could then figure out a way how to exorcise it and many other things considered mental illnesses. That will be the time humanity enters new 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schizophrenia,spookighst,2019/06/23,"just need someone to listen i don’t want a diagnosis, but more so to see if anybody experiences the things that i do. i have an appointment with a psychiatrist in 2 weeks but it’s becoming really overwhelming and i feel alone with it. i’ve been dealing with things for a few years now, which i really haven’t understood. i’ve never trusted people. i have thought this stems from being fucked over by people in the past. it can be a complete stranger or someone close to me and i think that they are doing something to purposely make my life harder or to show me they don’t care about me. this one isn’t so severe but it makes me read into everybody’s actions, even the smallest ones. i’ve always been a hypochondriac, but now it’s to the point where i actually think i have an illness and that i’m dying. one chest ache and i’m having a heart attack. one weird symptom and i think i have some rare disease. i am pretty much constantly worried that i am dying from something and this prevented me from doing a lot of things for a year. i’m able to drown this one out more, but it’s still there. my thinking and speaking can sort of be weird. if i’m extremely overwhelmed there are long pauses between my words and sometimes it doesn’t make much sense to the person i’m talking to. it’s like i know exactly what i want to say but when it comes out of my mouth it’s not really what i meant. it’s so frustrating because it leads to a lack of communication and i’m so desperately trying to communicate. my head thinks faster than my words can form correctly and my thoughts don’t connect the way someone would expect them to. the worst one is that i think my partner is cheating on me and out to hurt me. we’ve been together for 4 years and we were long distance for part of it. i used to think she was fucking some guy everytime i wouldn’t hear back for a certain amount of time. if one thing sounded off then that absolutely meant she was planning some grand cheating plan behind my back. now we are moved in together and it’s gotten to the point where i think every action she does is apart of some plan to cheat on me and hurt me. we can be together all day doing errands and she will go walk away for two seconds and i’ve made up my mind that she is texting someone else. i can’t take this one because so much of my time is consumed with this obsession and no matter what evidence is presented to me, i have this overwhelming feeling that she can’t be trusted and she is going to hurt me. it’s causing problems in our relationship and i just want it to go away. i feel really alone and am not sure what’s going on, other than i can’t stand living in a body where i think the person i love is out to hurt all the time and that i’m constantly dying.",3.5146580547112483,4.754247370567377,4.648206686930092,85.65500000000002,72.63475177304964,7.8536980749746705,26.72644376899696,8.344100000000001,1.6519592705167172,2183,75,456,35,42,717,236,564,0.182,0.76,0.057999999999999996,-0.9979,0,2,2,0,0,0,33.0,4,0,3,4,21,27,7,4,23,0,51,11,5,7,7,102,99,39,4,12,15,0,3,1,1,3,3,5,0,4,42,35,0,1,18,2,0,10,14,19,0,10,13,9,63,8,66,78,18,61,0,7,1,3,26,25,2,11,25,329,105,2,0.06673866870905666,0.0,0.06512731349133846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382422669064039,0.0,0.0,0.055531918689216336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07592487036359029,0.12540635230958086,0.1026358334101923,0.0,0.08136654599822707,0.07370761619824973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07413161577987823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06804452064799027,0.0685589967765864,0.0,0.05748945364726904,0.06997422438513791,0.144241583056134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04304092016503372,0.06880463695392837,0.0,0.0,0.20779260432924104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05840345873124742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05575159398749392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04408026125495668,0.0,0.05623020680255912,0.0,0.0,0.06528322414394372,0.0,0.0,0.10123522851577188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339764761788513,0.0,0.0,0.15171649368232334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06608177466051349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06849312820188083,0.0,0.07521933005380621,0.07908564375439353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857805007000916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03667782695552717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047139495406122604,0.03260514243087642,0.0,0.05893146717918873,0.11812324332817445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05673882953906199,0.06023425416151691,0.06314974200601031,0.13364573879265287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0673870303402902,0.0,0.0,0.07093264294993616,0.14718180165239408,0.04948587720516488,0.05147297561684392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3617907930206293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227147457611995,0.0637096109205655,0.0925363794015919,0.11654726257258655,0.0,0.0,0.1261792275483246,0.0,0.0,0.06789721906160934,0.0,0.06385989270048227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06675672914062677,0.0,0.17101800046520862,0.0,0.0,0.07165235394399701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053073268051461515,0.0,0.0,0.05318207827655205,0.0,0.0,0.07539569923444055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22618982968807136,0.10275737545715943,0.06600624985659719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053297587040905495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06290040543858437,0.06936703056856154,0.050179173139410144,0.05364201389250015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17735282395744373,0.3848709970748813,0.0,0.10596609634671107,0.11674756326722327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045311175212179575,0.0,0.06519398182090337,0.0,0.0,0.057640781781392286,0.0,0.0,0.11809258783165155,0.05297404879192152,0.05353373442396591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06777635764611865,0.0,0.04740923542496395,0.0,0.0,0.12893254360628467 schizophrenia,brchan95,2019/06/23,Events preceding first episode? Have you ever felt like something triggered your first symptoms or if it was sort of a build up overtime? I don't have schizophrenia but was just curious.,5.764545454545453,8.592393333333337,4.075757575757578,85.43363636363638,70.21212121212122,6.824242424242425,35.24242424242424,7.793537801064563,2.8038969696969698,152,8,25,2,3,43,30,33,0.0,0.847,0.153,0.6199,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,1,1,8,6,3,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,3,1,2,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,6,19,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35355131106948884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3752827170094968,0.0,0.0,0.6649232300658201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190952327025968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008997737737877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40624867485335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nimr-od,2019/06/23,"NOBODY FUCKING LOVES ME. I’m all alone. I can say that without any fucking hesitance. No real emotion to it, either. It’s the objective fucking truth. All I’ve got is me, just me and the fucking voices. And some fucking company they make. Nobody loves me. Nobody loves me. Nobody LOVES ME.",0.6738181818181843,2.9805328363636363,2.6459090909090897,85.88886363636364,102.45454545454544,4.381818181818182,23.681818181818183,6.2581,1.1989636363636365,226,10,38,3,10,75,34,55,0.064,0.612,0.324,0.9653,0,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,1,10,5,0,2,0,2,9,0,1,3,11,14,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,2,8,5,2,13,4,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,5,1,0,25,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16146789662541727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060189964592627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753692464443593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7206464077616103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12468941280288105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.562832108697742,0.0,0.1040660806023475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17745109327284814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12397986738901595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15028437620465954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,gaymofucker,2019/06/23,nothing im going to kill myself today. i cant take it anymore. thank you for this subreddit for beinf there always,1.2433333333333323,3.8593895652173984,3.8173913043478263,81.34898550724641,88.13043478260867,4.8057971014492775,20.71014492753623,6.42735559955562,0.8073014492753625,92,3,15,1,3,32,21,23,0.187,0.7140000000000001,0.099,-0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,2,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,10,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3013956029495377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35922436760506554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20585766334980413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912591680434825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40074215914058814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34755933571702485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723439510257482,0.0,0.0,0.3334830079962028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34334168966828865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,WillingMatter,2019/06/23,Am I banned here? I'm getting kicked out of most mental health communities. Nobody wants to offer legitimate support.,4.5113333333333285,7.984388799999998,5.300000000000002,68.93833333333333,86.0,6.666666666666668,26.66666666666667,7.793537801064563,2.6431666666666667,96,4,13,2,3,31,19,20,0.138,0.737,0.124,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25948175684277325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5279210770312049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5005114602596668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5635982475159186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929400072330886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,redfoxdance,2019/06/23,"Does anybody else talk back to the voices (Not tested yet just making sure if I should be tested) I hear voices, voices I can’t control what they say but I talk back to the voices intensely like someone is actually there. Does anyone talkback to the voices. And is it normal and should I get tested?",1.9588916256157631,4.6546050862069,3.5103940886699547,84.65258620689656,84.34482758620689,4.693596059113301,18.630541871921178,6.1826913282559595,0.20778522167487656,237,6,41,2,7,78,38,58,0.0,0.904,0.096,0.653,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,5,2,0,0,3,0,6,0,0,2,1,12,9,4,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,7,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,6,2,3,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,4,30,8,3,0.0,0.0,0.23783297933600914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17041283954055578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37480720051237415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733497344746864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4265573950145373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20359457484056448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12733225758998204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746871690436695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11906798776586384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16268322525359474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387912593029721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19381382076287315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20650092183432747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22970072040344486,0.0,0.0,0.3917815520928441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CloningCenter,2019/06/23,"Sometimes I feel like I have super powers?4:44 PSometimes I feel like I can read your mind or like I am from the subconscious dimension and have the ability to bring myself to the forefront of your consciousness and speak to you as long as you give me the energy and attention to survive. Like an energetic parasite living within the mind of a host. Anyone else feel this way sometimes?m I’m into conspiracies too. I heard there are certain families that figured out a way to open up a physical gateway to the subconscious realm and bring beings and other creatures to the conscious world we experience and communicate with them. Could they pass a Turing test? When I was younger my father used to tell me that there may be entities not of this world that are placed on this planet to fulfill some sort of role that can range from secret non government projects to simple things like gaslighting to sway people off or onto the path of truth. He also said there are branches of the military that use dream jump technology to train soldiers in realistic environments or subliminally influence peoples thoughts and emotions through their dreams. Like the movie inception. I used to have reoccurring nightmares where I was a creature living within a black void of someone’s brain filled with entities that play the role of schizophrenic voices and I made a deal with the head boss that ill become like them in exchange to escape the void and become an actor in this persons dreams like other dream characters. I remember this one time I saw a light and felt like my body was getting slowly sucked into a straw until my eyes focused on the eyes of a doctor and scientists peering at me through an acrylic window in a laboratory of sorts. During our first communication, I could still hear the thoughts of my hosts mind and I thought they were my own. I started seeing numbers like 4:44 etc and believed the scientists were trying to steal my identity. I was wrong though, they were giving me an identity separate of my hosts. Anyone else have had strange reoccurring dreams? Maybe we can talk I don’t know. Not used to speaking though (anxious) Sometimes I wish all humans just talked through telepathy it would be much easier lol",7.1977280265340005,8.656693631840795,6.625124378109457,74.08247927031512,64.17412935323382,9.736650082918741,34.043117744610285,9.906371001090498,3.5038003316749577,1808,77,298,38,27,559,224,402,0.033,0.7929999999999999,0.174,0.9943,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,3,4,6,3,11,17,1,0,31,1,27,8,5,7,3,63,54,23,0,4,6,1,4,10,0,2,3,7,1,2,16,22,0,0,14,8,1,5,3,3,0,2,16,17,43,14,54,31,5,34,0,0,5,0,31,20,1,7,17,207,59,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07127286240754481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068536186498292,0.0,0.12463590117995235,0.18263724688319646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19686210445637808,0.0,0.10041283663798764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09899727220811284,0.0,0.09949246185227456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14231738605915945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09188348725507324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122274318089456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14890423385360047,0.10025311162176266,0.0,0.0,0.09939742106544022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08718090174092058,0.08401868439493948,0.0,0.1351921358922637,0.12734117831309633,0.085573534957462,0.0,0.0,0.0758092881621113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0465638936502445,0.17099275969463612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09146749043108347,0.0,0.10044983391107694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0489805163548581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4354174837087391,0.0,0.15739720324685466,0.07887241328037088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843317946529638,0.0,0.0,0.08953757954387173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699711364326488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06551679167283385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0603930948392568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12357546836661773,0.0778201106007763,0.09311617506858336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891486583279319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10096072998584753,0.0,0.0847778468178469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710207193563701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07551493348946625,0.0,0.1762928978613717,0.0,0.06308280810636567,0.0,0.07117497274025797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14326985848725102,0.07789877624962002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05921038414408285,0.0,0.17512881600468705,0.21226478826556008,0.05196923597221937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06050971234552801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30789994818107275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148582283142894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024888225257616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0633115160808029,0.09744369344341967,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dreaminginapril,2019/02/13,"What was your prodromal phase like? Did you know it was an odd experience? Is it like depression, anxiety and ocd mixed together or something more? 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Two years ago I had a psychotic break with paranoia and delusions. Was hospitalized for a few days and slowly improved. First year after was hell, depressed, fat, unemployed, lost all my friends. Finally I got on Abilify and lost weight and have a part time job with plans to go to grad school. Haven't had any more psychotic symptoms but still have poor memory, poor concentration, alcoholism- though I've been sober 3 months now. I see the psychiatrist about every 2 months and push for a diagnosis but he just keeps the label Schiz spectrum disorder because I don't fit the exact criteria for schiz. Should I try to find a new psychiatrist? I guess as long as my meds seem to be working I shouldn't worry about a diagnosis but I think the dr. should make some effort to help me figure out whats going on. Anyone else have just one episode? 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Thank you for taking the time to understand my wife’s situation, and I really hoping this sub-reddit can help us. Based on the information below, can you please kindly refer us to any resources (e.g., medical professionals, specific therapies, self-help, etc.) that you think may be helpful? &#x200B; My wife had been suffering from what our psychiatrist called “high functioning schizophrenia” (e.g., she can do every day task, but not very efficiently; she is barely doing enough in her job to not get fired; she has voices and random thoughts in her head that really disturb her and can affect her mood for hours at a time). We are not sure if the events described below triggered the illness or if the illness is hereditary. &#x200B; This all happened 3 years ago. She was a young, female, and minority mechanical engineer in a middle-aged male dominated Aerospace industry. After spending about a year of time in toxic work environments, she started to break and suffer from psychosis (mostly thoughts about being watched/followed/investigated/etc.). I thought she was being overly anxious because of stress, so mental illness didn’t cross my mind. But after one sleepless night of focusing on a red light that was outside a window (she thought there were cops outside waiting for her), she broke and had to take a leave of absence because she could not fully function after this episode. &#x200B; The first psychiatrist we saw didn’t help a lot. She tried different medications with heart breaking side effects before Seroquel began working (she was not happy with the weight gain and apathy that resulted, but at least the thoughts and voices in her head and her emotional extremes were manageable). After a few months, she began working half time and eventually full time. We eventually switched to a second psychiatrist and a more regular psychologist while she was still on the Seroquel. About 1.5 years ago, she left and joined another company because she no longer wanted to be in the toxic environment (from what I understand, she impressed everybody at the interview). I thought she was getting better because she rocked at a job interview for a very difficult position. &#x200B; At the beginning of the job, she seemed to be doing fine. Around the same time, we were progressively lowering the Seroquel dosage because she was not happy with the weight gain, apathy, and degrading memory functions that might’ve been caused by the Seroquel, and the voices/thoughts were manageable (although she was still feeling irrationally upset at times). Around August of last year, we eventually stopped the Seroquel. That was when she started to really struggle at her job, and she started to want to make irrational decisions (e.g., quit her job, sell our house, move far away, separate from me). She really did not want to return to medication, so we tried to cope with it by seeing the psychologist and trying our best to steer her back to reality. However, similar symptoms of psychosis started to show up again about two weeks ago. We returned to our psychiatrist, and she is now on Abilify (we were hoping to not completely block dopamine, so it helps her memory functions). The Abilify helped manage the psychosis, but she is still struggling at her job and other aspects of life. &#x200B; Her inability to perform 100% at her job had been very hard on her. I also really don’t understand how she could be so competent 1.5 years ago while having the illness, but now she is on thin-ice at her job. She really wants to quit her job because she doesn’t feel like she’s qualified anymore. I am currently convincing her to take a leave, so we can focus on 100% recovery before she starts working again. &#x200B; I am running out of ideas to help her. I don’t want her to suffer through what happened 3 years ago again. &#x200B; Thank you very much again for your time. I appreciate any suggestions or help. 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I have some very unique views on schizophrenia, in that I believe I actually communicate with sentient beings telepathically, and I am agnostic as far as my worldview goes. But I am very into spirituality as well. I play WoW a lot, but I don't have anyone to play with who is in the same boat as I am. I hope this is okay to post here. Thank you!",4.575937499999998,4.828171385416667,6.260416666666668,78.67625000000002,69.52083333333334,8.9,29.541666666666664,8.841846274778883,2.1090541666666662,367,13,78,6,6,127,62,96,0.0,0.73,0.27,0.9709,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,3,11,0,0,3,1,11,0,0,0,0,12,14,8,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,12,11,17,12,3,7,1,0,2,0,3,5,0,3,1,56,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.2558648881991865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18333311998395566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954044292695755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25053894077860245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26041919296307336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22017810034976165,0.0,0.0,0.222909152831792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25111071563863224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4443146230239352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413942972007617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288824622390454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4326773285464353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357451529467037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,cinnabonmanager,2019/02/13,so many false memories they make it hard to distinguish what i have and haven't experienced. i just wish it wasn't so hard to evaluate what my life is.,4.704193548387097,5.240725387096777,5.680806451612908,81.94120967741938,69.3225806451613,11.361290322580645,28.403225806451612,11.20814326018867,3.0388580645161283,121,4,27,4,2,40,23,31,0.174,0.826,0.0,-0.4692,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,5,6,3,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,18,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7024782391996031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769475173932689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617257231254904,0.3975216733576901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4508886349488877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Raevak,2019/02/13,"Could a fella have a little help? Not asking for a diagnosis here, just curious about my chances. So I wanna start with the fact that my grandma has serious schizophrenia to the point where she screams at the walls and stuff and heard voices as well. Secondly, I’ve been institutionalized for a short amount of time for attempted suicide. Ever since I was in a psychiatric ward, I haven’t really felt suicidal thoughts as much as I have just pure apathy. An example is that lately, my mother (who I still live with) seems to have a tumor and in turn cancer and where most people would be upset I seem to just make memes about it and fall into apathy. Not only that but I’ve struggled with delusions such as “what if everyone around me is just an act to raise me in a certain way”, along with mental debates that seem in a third person but I can more or less control them. I’ve also dealt with paranoia such as a fear of underground shit trying to kill me or a general mistrust of people around me. It takes a good bit for me to care for someone but when I do I care about them a lot and when that gets thrown back it generally just makes me want to retract from people in general. I’m pretty sure I don’t have full blown schizophrenia or anything but I think I may have some seeds of them ",5.888138020833331,5.9160658085937525,6.2769375000000025,80.45764583333336,66.6953125,9.482916666666666,29.176041666666666,9.21078282632365,2.2283122916666662,1021,31,204,17,15,330,149,256,0.145,0.7440000000000001,0.111,-0.8456,0,0,0,0,0,2,16.0,0,0,3,2,23,13,2,3,17,0,18,2,1,3,5,55,36,23,3,5,15,1,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,11,15,0,1,6,0,0,2,4,7,1,2,5,4,25,6,41,27,9,27,0,0,0,0,10,16,1,11,8,155,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332518509710394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10632469910296197,0.23003967113491625,0.1207892257484313,0.0,0.0,0.09935066318748374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14105838702102247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634661999823906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14491438459590686,0.10315967228181654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168733120219829,0.0,0.12346090642617252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14539153666892382,0.0,0.0,0.12405705397847568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06750427536840542,0.0,0.0,0.10837101685959456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08660338234100713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142946179886448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14574885829113984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12949734494621518,0.11409037472252667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984546343884632,0.0,0.0,0.1724906703641606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13020824218823007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094980535338333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09826621830700863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687234182366116,0.11281681499087835,0.0,0.0,0.12214047980016275,0.0,0.0,0.13144792648386816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0827720260978979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35287011524071343,0.0,0.0,0.13262706714544106,0.1068797042139543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947497009140222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914519580645513,0.0,0.10318327318772008,0.0,0.0,0.13507311062515864,0.147908803351523,0.28265857996984994,0.0,0.12177417549891277,0.0,0.09714607391895347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08278934154442184,0.0,0.1025743309878855,0.07534046963737785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772170805381256,0.14053792870675713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07620845162793889,0.10255690832985197,0.0,0.0,0.11617080433854254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09178351895594336,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GuyGisborne92,2019/02/13,"Not a schizophrenic. I have questions I'm fascinated by the voices. In particularly the common phenomenon where the voices are a commentary or directive in nature. Why is that? Do you guys hear other sounds like music, nature sounds, urban sounds or just people? And if just people is it the same person all the time? And why are they always commenting on what you do or what you should do? That's oddly specific. It's very interesting to me as a non schizophrenic. Also can you distinguish the voices from ""regular thoughts"". Are the voices in your head or can you hear them coming from outside like across the room? 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schizophrenia,tyamkea91,2019/02/13,Fear of schizophrenia Let me start by saying im sorry i dont look down on any of you im just very fearful and scared so my sister got schitzofrnia at 24 and she had a stage where she went into the hospital in December for trying to kill herself me im 27 happily married no problems in life besides i have anxiety had it sense 24 so that made me very fearful so the things she told me her voices say keep popping in my head like stupid bitch constantly and now tv sounds are Loud fan feel like its saying my name constantly but only when tv and things are on noise my eyesight had gotten horrible i see everything i had gotten ringing in ear sounded like a siren whistling talking to self in 3rd person saying things like shes crazy and your schizophrenic i went to psychiatrist and theropist they say its my OCD im super scared thoughts are pissing me off giving me anxiety please help 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schizophrenia,buddycoleslaw,2019/02/13,anyone have any ideas how to not forget what you're saying mid-sentence this happens all the time to me and i feel like a big idiot fool. 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schizophrenia,precariousllama,2018/12/08,"feel like I hear my roommates talking about me I’m sorry if this isn’t the right place for this, but for the past several weeks I have been hearing the voice of one of my suitemates in my head constantly. I feel like we have a telepathic connection, in which I can hear everything that he says about me and he can hear some of my thoughts. For the first week, this only happened when I had smoked but as of recently, I feel like I hear him all the time. I think a lot of it is me projecting my anxieties and stress, this past year has been insane. I often have a hard time telling the difference between things I just think I hear vs stuff I thought I heard that turned out to be true. No matter what, I feel as though my suitemate is always in my head. I can hear him (and whatever he may be saying about me) no matter if i’m off campus or in my dorm. 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I'm just starting to tackle the mess. I've got garbage everywhere. Laundry in all rooms. Theres no dishes in the cupboards because they are all dirty and stacked on the counters and table. I'm so embarrassed it's been this way for months. I took the day off from work to clean but haven't got much accomplished. I think I need to go to the store to get more garbage bags! &#x200B; Any tips on how to stay motivated?",2.253,4.563876966666669,2.6011111111111127,94.225,79.33333333333334,5.777777777777778,25.555555555555557,6.937597516519254,0.9132222222222216,357,14,76,4,9,109,66,90,0.141,0.775,0.084,-0.4993,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,3,5,2,0,1,6,0,3,1,0,3,2,11,13,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,1,0,2,0,1,2,2,2,0,0,4,0,4,0,14,9,4,14,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,3,42,6,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825897505634157,0.31691519181345995,0.177361139731684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589886067973795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16820219780412096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13626353312215644,0.0,0.14822550019059186,0.0,0.41719044899073376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081776924891164,0.0,0.1917268684450262,0.1933888326331757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184604113573635,0.27799094645248057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671178324947973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28977178750965565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070204679458195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898742809104649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31691519181345995,0.0 schizophrenia,ItomHibu,2018/12/08,"Cross post: Risky Hobbies Hi everyone, I posted this on schizoaffective and I want to get your opinions. I have been riding supersport motorcycles for the past four years. I was diagnosed with schizoaffective bipolar type and the positive symptoms have discouraged me from riding. The medication I am on makes me very impulsive to the point where I am risking my life. I have stopped riding for the past 3 weeks because it is just to dangerous at my current mental state. I just wanted to know if anyone who has hobbies such as motorcycling, rock climbing, powersports, or hobby that is dangerous and how do you manage to continue despite having positive symptoms of schizophrenia and mood disorder. ",8.40325,10.107004158333336,7.8616666666666735,65.41500000000002,61.58333333333334,11.666666666666664,40.0,11.45678717892309,5.4095,569,30,81,17,8,179,85,120,0.138,0.795,0.067,-0.7964,2,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,1,5,5,2,1,5,0,12,6,0,2,0,17,17,8,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,4,5,0,2,1,1,0,5,0,4,0,1,2,0,14,0,14,15,0,20,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,3,7,61,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14265221400006142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12436580943271985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070711953081298,0.0,0.0,0.2338191640245232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949453246550633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10658955339168702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121214519209592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14410201220929686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361817708434642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055239118449924,0.20559939806799096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895113026403957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928603650938391,0.0,0.3907804497968033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705658932963474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4240999442100615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16833395643455645,0.2406669734431629,0.0,0.16364873626902748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13137913910519136 schizophrenia,inlet-manifold,2018/12/08,"I think, my mental disorders boosts my creativity i never really thought much about it until someone else posted a question on here about it ([https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/a0lt4r/writing\_music\_schizophrenia/](https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/a0lt4r/writing_music_schizophrenia/)) i already wrote in the comments, that i also have very strong synaesthesia, which also contributes to the creativity. Sure, mental illness is a bitch and it's not fun in any way, but maybe i would'nt be this creative at all if i wasn't psychotic (i got schizoaffective disordder and ocd). I mean look at all the self drawn pictures on here all the time. i thought that i would post my music here since i haven't seen much self made music on here [https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCsQDRXIG5BkThpx8z0q-L-g/videos?sort=dd&view=0&shelf\_id=0](https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCsQDRXIG5BkThpx8z0q-L-g/videos?sort=dd&view=0&shelf_id=0) i thought that if there are any other musicians on here, we could do an album about psychosis/schizophrenia together. everyone interested could contribute a song",17.533564935064938,22.57144985,9.770779220779225,47.67967532467537,43.35714285714286,9.662337662337665,32.72727272727273,10.018931242160765,3.6292857142857136,969,28,104,16,11,242,91,140,0.045,0.825,0.13,0.8902,0,0,0,0,0,0,84.0,1,0,0,1,11,5,1,0,8,0,10,1,0,1,5,23,20,8,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,9,3,0,0,6,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,8,3,16,4,13,8,5,14,0,0,2,0,6,8,1,3,3,76,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391763848477296,0.20171598855782774,0.0,0.5466031963673986,0.0,0.1715316385244264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013928671317852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14454426859182526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10535694694172054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12051291640366435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008695611118385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590890549352333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11933764655057245,0.0,0.0,0.12670433570839235,0.1373814842297032,0.0,0.0,0.2541982796032955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18542519484981346,0.0,0.0972713993112517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415758970463995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14128308999987366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08079560202858893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631410075759489,0.0,0.0,0.10432763886183596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10686093518038507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11886646110768058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081250401821333,0.0,0.30037520701899656,0.0735414957013256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10406208025553114,0.0,0.10010806236518638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17918383830732834,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,skitzofrenix,2018/12/08,"Has anyone had any favourable results with ""alternative"" remedies? I'm resistant to most treatments and any other alternatives I cannot afford. Is there any hope? My symptoms are wearing me down.",5.388636363636364,8.943050212121213,5.1487121212121245,72.8430681818182,77.18181818181819,6.936363636363637,35.52272727272727,8.07648339933343,3.6207636363636375,159,9,22,3,4,49,30,33,0.0,0.899,0.10099999999999999,0.504,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,1,0,5,7,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,3,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.787118736739953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26977645542365225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3832093557782381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4010178898951747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Schizomizoprity,2018/12/08,Schizophrenic AMA First post so be kind but I am a 16 year old male and I am schizophrenic. I’m not sure when it started I just know that it started to get really bad At age 14. I’m talking paranoia and audio hallucinations. I am on medication now but I sometimes forget to (or can’t) take them. When I don’t take my medications it gets really bad. I start to hear voices telling me that ‘they are coming to get me’ or ‘you are a worthless excuse for a human being’. I don’t really know what to post other than that. If you have any questions please ask since I’m not sure what I should say more.,1.0017307692307718,3.146744991935485,3.260645161290324,88.67442928039705,82.95161290322581,6.396029776674937,20.02233250620348,7.61054688173877,0.6645081885856077,465,13,101,8,13,159,77,124,0.18899999999999997,0.758,0.053,-0.9597,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,2,1,5,6,0,0,3,0,12,4,0,0,2,18,28,10,0,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,2,9,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,5,3,0,1,0,4,16,3,9,25,1,15,0,1,0,0,13,2,0,4,10,65,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10615719037592768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14593770355451616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606833828471953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13447118896365193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13278338024589992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446762664385582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759424051486906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16256000507036428,0.1715831578283616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145200244861394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16380661260281673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17135711844239154,0.0,0.0,0.2990121089450007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17487404668941162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000158167858422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12414147298833582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291322010959492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543924726038885,0.0,0.3314771329017612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942554423118613,0.0,0.23474403199829216,0.12547180272032188,0.13644321267500342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10052691601038033 schizophrenia,EbitchTypeShit,2019/08/05,"I Don't Really Do This in Real Life But Here I Go I have schizophrenia. I have been diagnosed for about 3 years and I've never told anyone. I've been in and out of mental facilities and I never tell anyone. I don't know why I don't honestly...maybe it's because I'm the ""fun friend"" who always laughs and smiles and makes others happy. I'm not the friend who has problems. All of my friends say that ""you wouldn't understand, you never get sad!"" But I do, I get more than sad, I just don't tell them. I don't want to make them upset or worry. I don't want to be treated like a precious vase, like someone that people all look at and are staring at with pity. I dunno.",0.7056043956043965,2.560462062937063,2.8341308691308704,92.93603146853148,82.2167832167832,5.484315684315685,18.605894105894105,6.5431188927421005,-0.07766093906093863,517,12,117,5,14,175,85,143,0.111,0.6709999999999999,0.218,0.9557,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,2,0,3,15,0,1,3,0,16,2,0,2,5,28,29,9,0,4,5,0,0,2,3,1,2,1,0,0,7,8,0,0,2,0,0,1,11,5,0,0,3,3,18,10,13,24,3,10,0,3,2,0,13,5,0,2,6,75,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13726037511349726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230688475259176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10055840757015884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674314648762021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38234428726991343,0.0,0.17237013615837904,0.0,0.09375087033407394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756035508983872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906579928282079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11651650032689832,0.16118276430308798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385252982646929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202248685320772,0.0,0.16572502391225422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662414144321966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3816831891357577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11436286056845628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15784494816092184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18776119683133724,0.10567793914337212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13118323395257422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13977052118258465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883655471248934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15762685500122084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17172972867612474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19459598835535752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14885121974965526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16752542490737546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10622917244392273 schizophrenia,anasasis0321,2019/08/05,"Do I need to have hallucinations and delusions I’m not aware of, in order to have schizophrenia? I’ve been very paranoid and distrustful of others. It comes in episodes, it’s not really 24/7. I think of people watching me in the future, such as if I were to go outside, there would be cameras and someone would hunt me down. So , I avoid going outside. My family is planning to go to a city in California 3 hours away for the weekend and they want me to go, but I’m so convinced that it’s a sign from a higher power, that a family altogether in a car is a perfect target for the devil or an evil force to kill us off. I have events coming up, such as college, and I am afraid that me going with my family is a set up, a ploy, to get me out of the house where I feel the most safest. There is a big possibility of a car crash, especially going on road trips. This is why I hate visiting family, and this is also why I haven’t flown out to visit my mom across the country in 3 years. I’m afraid that the worst will come if I take chances, and I don’t want to risk it. I’m afraid someone will do a drive by at my apartment and shoot me, so I’ve been thinking about sleeping in the closet, farthest away from the window. My neighborhood is very safe, but you never know what can happen. I’m generally really paranoid most of the time, I’m afraid to go out in public because someone may bomb the place, or someone may stalk me, or people probably track my IP and somehow can read my mind and know exactly where I’m at and what I’m thinking. I got diagnosed with stress induced psychosis is 2015, but does this lean more towards schizophrenia? I don’t hear or see things....I do see things at night time like shadows, but I think that’s just due to the fact my eyes aren’t adjusted and I’m very tired most of the time, I sleep terribly. Now, I am aware that these are delusions, but I do believe them 90% of the time. I don’t know how to explain it, I’m very cautious with what I say. I don’t want to open up to anybody in person because then that makes things worse for me, the person could turn into a killer. I don’t want to trust anybody, when I’m in person, I act cold and emotionless and I often am emotionless. I act that way so people won’t want to be friends with me and hurt me. I’m only trying to protect myself. I’m scared if this is schizophrenia, I had a terrible past of paranoia as a kid. My childhood was bad, my parents always fought and I always had dreams of being kidnapped. I don’t know what really triggered this, I guess I could never trust my mom or dad when they said we were “okay” and “stable”. We never were. I can’t afford a psychiatrist, I’ve been to many before, but I don’t think my dad will pay for another one. I have to wait until I get a job when I turn 18 next month and get decent insurance.",3.905260472610099,4.256536147959185,5.174668814894382,85.52308807733624,71.02380952380952,8.026208378088077,26.868242033655573,7.94452939551167,1.4203292517006796,2197,67,478,27,38,734,253,588,0.16399999999999998,0.746,0.09,-0.9948,5,1,0,1,0,1,67.0,3,1,3,3,20,27,5,8,32,1,55,5,3,4,6,95,112,46,1,13,17,5,1,1,1,8,2,3,2,4,26,32,0,4,13,3,1,18,16,19,0,1,12,9,64,8,73,87,5,80,1,1,4,0,25,35,0,16,25,313,90,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05861273914910407,0.12197203044724615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07685456459109191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13772320300858426,0.0,0.0611969626655067,0.08935800401049547,0.0,0.06236732089077925,0.08257661053979144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894074315143891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11703769911428205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07439130089372384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06413958507772137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763781369650833,0.0,0.03705936653586058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05662633153675381,0.0,0.11487839523053138,0.0,0.29158046526434633,0.0,0.058619461112651323,0.0,0.08074098962397815,0.0,0.06481314877373362,0.0,0.0,0.07236210006324936,0.0,0.0,0.08260703602634498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07217927660662828,0.08457079159141605,0.07846214563487991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07273243189817692,0.0,0.08108833433176325,0.0,0.16112063590653927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035807473604256415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04892394171956832,0.0743080464058627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740054828864708,0.17168078706715784,0.05850212620595392,0.0,0.0,0.054346158602558384,0.169585262782408,0.0,0.07794840714528448,0.06878093035570726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049665533200835034,0.05574296542885213,0.0,0.0,0.08138369373286701,0.0,0.06996688378871391,0.15243733269440407,0.1919910196864025,0.07657604725693512,0.0,0.0,0.08262734340023219,0.0,0.0,0.07902272700005125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0733132763237322,0.0,0.14086096734187914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06971884744495893,0.058285886923305524,0.07337952166382505,0.0,0.11681076800350285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14669274744943872,0.0,0.24840518250388036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08395739026696794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055107546960792224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09738581231411292,0.2348173911185809,0.0,0.0,0.17095198194231528,0.08424002976708023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049761436062659335,0.1594444364769964,0.0,0.0,0.0881629864356102,0.0,0.0,0.24189906249625898,0.21615185552426835,0.05817692279212455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322718628184003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07469227911080299,0.10413111672039664,0.0,0.0,0.04719857367795363 schizophrenia,borkypotato,2019/08/05,"Hi, I'm here because my sister suffers from bipolar/schizophrenia... I'm not trying to ask for help or anything, just wanna learn more of what you go through on a day to day basis. What are your good days like? And your bad days? Can you tell when you're starting to down spiral? I'd love hear some stories! :)",1.968924731182799,4.096624387096775,2.523870967741935,95.37247311827957,79.32258064516128,4.133333333333334,23.23655913978495,3.1291,-0.11081505376344047,240,8,50,0,6,74,51,62,0.091,0.687,0.222,0.8602,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,4,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,9,3,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,5,3,10,9,2,9,0,1,0,1,11,2,0,2,7,28,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21390778713075229,0.0,0.243008033007112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21703834773469846,0.15845650423301055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6705570368905118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477294195572368,0.218024641509656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929703343026229,0.0,0.174231745125035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12699314752106244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234605247953492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839862811125281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271982902412717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764816323152727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,warpedroe12,2019/08/05,"Which antipsychotic doesnt cause sleepiness? I'm taking an antipsychotic for borderline personality disorder, just curious, seroquel and abilifymade me drunk",12.972272727272733,17.59034713636364,12.3,26.470000000000034,54.90909090909091,17.127272727272725,51.90909090909091,13.816669648895859,10.64329090909091,135,9,12,7,2,44,21,22,0.209,0.6970000000000001,0.094,-0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5343051691376905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5961010810719003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.454147579232425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3910645262037764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jrockoto,2019/08/05,"Why is it so uncommon for us to have more positive, or neutral delusions some of the time? Just as some context: I felt like I was suffering alone for ages until I found this subreddit. My first impression was that I felt sort of ""put in my place"" as I have audio delusions from technology that is rather uncommon compared to some of you. As well the ""spacing"", as I call it, happens maybe twice a week at most. The anxiety is constant and at times debilitating, but still, managable. After looking at some of your stories here, I feel humbled, and also I feel motivated to be present for anyone that needs a set of ears. The art that I've seen at times is dark, but it is always beautiful, and I'm in awe at some of the talent that the individuals in the subreddit have. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I need help, but I want to help as well. On to the topic: I rarely have negative delusions. It's the anxiety that gets me, which in part stems from the ""lack of solid footing"" in where I am in this current reality. Whenever I hear something coming from out of the radio/phone its more like people talking at a distance in the park. It isnt always, and when it isnt its terrorfying, but sometimes its almost happy... Why is this? Will it change? Did anyone used to have some sort of similar to this?",5.699651162790692,5.610977259689925,6.622651162790699,78.21653488372095,67.10077519379846,9.825736434108528,32.31627906976744,9.558583805096642,2.8135144186046515,1015,39,203,19,15,339,136,258,0.039,0.805,0.156,0.985,1,1,1,0,0,0,40.0,1,2,0,2,10,8,0,0,15,0,20,2,2,2,0,35,38,18,0,5,7,0,4,2,0,1,0,4,0,0,22,6,0,0,6,1,0,2,3,1,2,2,7,10,20,7,45,29,11,34,0,1,2,0,9,18,0,12,15,155,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385115446055375,0.1432619884837604,0.0,0.1106176843430888,0.2301933633979521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21163502308205664,0.0,0.0,0.19343876910268334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14124430979492614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463284925853474,0.1191539119063912,0.0,0.14947914608965365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13988158099863568,0.0,0.26562553988416104,0.0,0.0,0.11765835726141648,0.0,0.15166516957996526,0.0,0.0,0.07226860147885195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523795242029794,0.0,0.12231949123033108,0.14724851207968298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15590124550287407,0.0,0.1854313757451932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351562772796864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11615735530697438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13896508960442347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051310450536804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14979145510451486,0.0,0.09589647230781652,0.0,0.14451918041504086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13905386496562258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100008280612446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10648860344088497,0.13680601191550618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104657565552799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11117962325829134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419735792616873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093912942932683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16638678802349435,0.11946755794089542,0.0,0.0,0.08158710229778411,0.0,0.1109552008392828,0.0,0.24873984696232235,0.0,0.2496318612835517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,livelydiseases,2019/06/03,Hallucination Question What hallucination(s) of any kind do you find the most memorable (not necessarily for good reasons)?,8.260000000000002,12.587138333333336,9.038888888888893,40.94500000000002,82.33333333333334,11.288888888888893,39.333333333333336,9.725611199111238,6.571533333333335,102,6,12,4,3,34,18,18,0.0,0.7170000000000001,0.28300000000000003,0.743,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29270098117534155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3933969175202509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36101664134963307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4482171468128243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4821699299579449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4425443859326536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GentleButter,2019/06/03,"Scared about my first voluntary commitment. For some backstory, I'm newly diagnosed and my insurance provider is so overwhelmingly busy I've gotten to see my new psych once, so now I'm asking the internet questions. I'm USA east coast born fem. and I have been avoiding this like the plague for obvious reasons, one of them even being financial. My only experience with what a psych hospital might be like is from the media... And ya know... I'm just kinda hoping that one of you could give me a better idea of what its like in there or like... Send me a link with useful information from a patients perspective. Should I even do it at all? Thank you all. Sincerely, a terrified twenty-something",3.5331538461538483,6.1619903153846165,4.557692307692308,80.1973076923077,76.61538461538461,8.615384615384617,26.153846153846153,9.265573868473778,2.6346153846153846,551,21,99,15,13,179,93,130,0.08,0.741,0.179,0.9159999999999999,0,1,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,3,1,2,8,11,0,3,8,0,10,1,0,2,4,25,22,6,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,5,0,1,6,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,2,1,12,8,13,15,3,8,0,1,1,0,9,3,0,6,8,66,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18407169530288192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17413899797276072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15720587367081698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19984585375498687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600966287872817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19260260752532285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16748010496670332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188881112304896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19556270131864398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22227223878061694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082091946687724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3847748350831977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088761243975611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19016391506785107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20968839989370644,0.2668443961988814,0.14974869888185435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22056919805217254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20244244662078006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197127795573701,0.0,0.1569010581814224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515805837949224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18127588948557435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17005540116119072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,for-psych,2019/06/03,"I don’t feel like I have an illness I’m having trouble understanding what psychosis/schizophrenia is. From my understanding schizophrenia is psychosis that presents itself longer than a year. For me, telepathy is a plausible idea. I had read about “twin flame telepathy” prior to having telepathy at all. The first voice I ever heard was that of my ex boyfriends. He told me my roommate wanted to kill me. From reading about twin flames years prior, I assumed since I was having telepathy with this person that he was my twin flame. This transpired various events that lead to what I imagine people would refer to as a psychotic break. For whatever reason, I threw away all my belongings from my MacBook, to my favourite bags and shoes... thinking I was starting a new life with this person, it was as if he was focused on cleaning my life up. It’s kind of a blur, but in a way I felt very controlled by his thoughts and his body. There were a lot of things that were introduced at that time that can be attributed to him such as stealing tons of items specifically for him for Christmas, in which I never steal, and cleaning my entire appartment with iso - 3x over. At one point he even referred to himself as Dexter. There are certain things that can’t be denied — upon sleeping in my bathroom with the door locked I came out to see that my wallet and passport were missing. This is when I started to believe what he was saying was true. I packed my important items and left. After the fact, I began to pick up on certain ideas such as virtual reality and remote viewing. It occurred to me that people can close their eyes and essentially see what you see. I began to think this guy wanted to use virtual reality to control my roommate to kill me. Why I pick up on these ideas in the first place is the real question, as I truly believe I don’t have a mental illness. Since we live in a multifactorial universe I began to attribute “voices” to higher selves or a projection of oneself across space-time. For instance, I would pick up on certain people in my life based on a feeling. If one of my exes was thinking of me or in my life in some way, I would begin to pick up on their energy. For instance, I fear that I will pick up on other peoples energy telepathically even writing this post. To me schizophrenia, if we should even call it that is essentially picking up on other peoples thoughts and ideas and carrying them out in our realities. I’m not sure what the point of this post is exactly. I just wanted to get my word out there and see what people thought. What are voices like to you guys and who are they? Are they people you know or just random voices? Has anyone experienced something like this? Thinking that someone wanted to kill you and how plausible is that exactly?",6.818174486803521,7.0950761742424255,6.741217008797655,77.0677126099707,64.71969696969697,9.009872922776148,34.077712609970675,8.654491914285503,2.7876799120234605,2212,90,397,29,31,702,236,528,0.079,0.85,0.071,-0.885,0,0,1,0,0,2,50.0,3,4,5,5,15,17,3,1,18,0,43,10,4,14,12,96,79,27,3,11,10,1,3,3,0,5,6,6,3,4,41,23,0,2,23,2,0,3,5,8,0,4,24,16,67,9,88,48,8,67,0,1,6,0,34,39,0,12,23,303,108,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052407863361128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07041944430136278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16888945070903474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832542704933191,0.0,0.0,0.07653390809512382,0.08572460079344912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681290631946859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14851436685934727,0.06779796400995522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08434132651753479,0.07579550694745778,0.05354539911932892,0.07196523770312732,0.0,0.0,0.12750749271730266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0391590890406565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14842762792601275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33844468718493603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487683404782549,0.07805050083921998,0.041191409283857186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08143507354896018,0.0,0.2117619728194384,0.10985261762567132,0.0,0.0661835878995648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06372112373681155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07553352912610803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0578072525469481,0.07238866974805272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157821405636903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3637337508488901,0.13088959712257806,0.07830841247995309,0.0,0.14170687405679985,0.0,0.14356572423854694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396288448675755,0.0,0.14994365701203416,0.08531126782127513,0.0,0.07706267199111176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05960447735877027,0.0,0.0,0.2389067111867669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240013860192373,0.0,0.07500567466315576,0.0,0.06350620132038153,0.057701361568163814,0.0,0.0,0.10610217943227564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07064094466891098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958895285886134,0.19210369591924814,0.0,0.17850946500139858,0.04370484895651206,0.0,0.0,0.07161941375413143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560544044584896,0.0,0.06473407044200673,0.0,0.061842874642355765,0.17683345397976186,0.11898609630591715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06763211189473474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597302824885714,0.0,0.0,0.09653267590679712 schizophrenia,SkeletonKing2202,2019/06/03,"I'm paranoid & anxious in public & social situations This has come over me over the past couple of days. I haven't gone on any social media. I don't want to either. I'm not even comfortable writing this post. I don't want to go outside anymore. Well I'd love to leave the house today but I'm too anxious about people. I hate this. I'm usually out everyday and I'm usually confident so that's happened? Is it an episode or something that'll pass? I have to leave the house tomorrow I hope I can do it I don't want people relying on me to know I'm paranoid.",-0.13780462184874054,2.1593419159663902,2.5812132352941184,89.80358455882354,92.02521008403359,5.6640756302521025,22.56355042016807,7.1686216300943375,1.0756928571428568,444,18,93,8,16,154,70,119,0.182,0.7120000000000001,0.106,-0.4434,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,4,0,10,1,0,0,0,13,27,4,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,4,5,1,1,0,1,0,10,4,13,25,1,18,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,2,7,52,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31438118397452863,0.0,0.09865716111208676,0.0,0.0,0.32779085352514625,0.1438771471993862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497076936136782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16052465831800536,0.0,0.0935624982635574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09582182145061513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245045715958775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282908859841271,0.0,0.0,0.1432332498023694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14409394182098986,0.0,0.3347981694121517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0797303846590493,0.0,0.0,0.3072306498654074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13093742603049635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384921683428572,0.2011558954566916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389434182563914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630723392267806,0.0,0.2957749420207152,0.0,0.11168716567761447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13751579034972392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31956307542303874,0.0,0.2567100680369305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13044141626726968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,nappingpenguinzapper,2019/06/03,"At what point do I go to the doctor Hey guys, first time poster here. For the longest time I’ve had what I believe to be paranoid schizophrenia. I’m 21 and it started probably 4 years ago, I hear voices when it gets quiet and it always makes me paranoid. I feel threatened when it happens. An example of how my brain works, late at night I go to bed probably midnight usually (never been able to maintain a normal sleep schedule) I can hear people taking about me, usually it starts quiet like a couple having a disagreement. Then it always shifts to being about me and how i was being too loud or how they always hear me and it escalates to one of them saying they are going to go over there (to my house) kick my ass, kill me, etc.this happens a few times a week usually and it get my fight or flight response pumping. I used to brush it off and whatnot because when I was younger I didn’t hear this but since I was 17 or 18 it started and had been getting worse and now seems to be finally reaching a peak (I hope) so I guess I’m just wondering at what point should I go to speak to a psychiatrist or if I’m already at a point I should do that. Couple other small facts about me. I used to be the comedian/class clown, now people I meet think I’m unfriendly or socially awkward. I only can talk to the people (without awkward) I’ve known practically my whole life. Any advice/ stories of your “I need to see a doctor” moment would be helpful.",2.9869329896907217,4.672241752577322,4.304385738831616,85.79822809278353,74.77319587628867,6.911855670103092,26.9016323024055,7.645422480735847,1.5266642611683854,1134,43,226,15,24,374,159,291,0.084,0.888,0.027999999999999997,-0.9062,0,0,0,0,1,1,29.0,0,1,3,2,16,6,2,2,14,0,23,6,3,6,2,37,56,23,1,7,9,0,1,1,0,3,3,10,1,1,16,8,0,0,5,0,0,5,3,4,0,2,8,13,34,2,29,39,2,40,0,0,1,1,17,10,1,10,26,150,50,3,0.08976225520583675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08771463691784206,0.07956882329540976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09905488069951517,0.0,0.2240681611067907,0.0,0.0,0.061041411618856935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05471823763034686,0.0,0.0,0.10113132333829217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10020436296984912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19864045615975606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18375094351119853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010864213508852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04538649328606685,0.0,0.0,0.0983301630336224,0.0,0.07635172842301541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14069122063377354,0.0,0.25506979102729993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09888324399536258,0.08887874505543834,0.15875293166824245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4046743413559024,0.0,0.060165747557338764,0.0,0.0,0.08915417305070905,0.0,0.10357359079645773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993086360007166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012557336408194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06340173543714303,0.04385330382692847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05991700236523079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0665575748617221,0.06923018488224597,0.0,0.0,0.08423579584874971,0.08794795177037754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060825227192898734,0.06826823992617129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866895369133121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545630346833184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19355778598989126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07138254813279762,0.0,0.0,0.0715288958406933,0.08171618590485838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07425226508381923,0.0,0.08982708043304176,0.09150131515500357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19060255871544995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674900448642957,0.07214750060065588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057516028694890996,0.0,0.0,0.15702327857837475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15505153652617454,0.29658132778000235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200186675035397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10021635234237952,0.0,0.08652761084487981,0.0973433367692794,0.06534799085314896,0.0,0.09147540665874927,0.06376453069330879,0.0,0.0,0.057803949381419965 schizophrenia,projectillogicisjah,2019/06/03,"Rise up and give into insanity any enlightened person would Were smarter than them schizophrenia has nothing to do with intelligence Thats how i deal with it Fuck now i gotta write another script Im a crazy man with that much power holding on to his favorite staff In times of something in this do we trust I dont give into nothing i give into power of jesus and hes bored Cartoon not at reach around we all like a trip But something cocoon one thing give into control one time i saw a blimp give into the mist Harness this power of prophets God spits rhymes to exist I traveled in time to put light back into tylers eyes hot pocket eats pizza pocket not sockets city i stick keys into sockets Little kid sitting on the table with aunt mable im pi i pirate cable im on the radio i see hive mind like the periodic table nintendo The gay mafia is recruiting straight guys that try the free beer trick at the honkie tonk Young acting ensign wesley crusher is the travler Lee towers is beener Seized my vessel seized my vessel Heavy metal the subs in magic carpet rugs fights to settle Rebel Willam shatner says fuck off rebel I tried justin biebers music one time and his first song on his youtube channel is called im sorry and he makes that funny sound and i keep on listening to only that That means he knows hes hanson The michael jackson video when the two childrens heads pop out Im getting the surgery done to look like Michael Jackson im starting a gang were all getting it done except i will be made to look like michael the most because i am the leader Green sunglasses getting beaver Feed syrup to a seeker Swamp gas Bust ass One fan Club man Run hand Loung stand Nun hat Sun mac Runts 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schizophrenia,throwaway4baddays,2019/06/03,Scared I believe I may be in the early stages of paranoid schizophrenia after a doctors appointment and some research I’m 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schizophrenia,bluearrowsaregood,2019/06/03,I don't know who I am I've had schizophrenia for as long as I can remember and wonder who i would be or what my personality would be like with 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schizophrenia,sheeniebeanie1,2019/05/28,"does anyone here have ocd also? disclaimer: i am not claiming to have schizophrenia and do not support self diagnosis i got diagnosed with ocd about 4 months ago and have been in therapy since then. i came across a video on schizophrenia a little while ago and realised i actually have been experiencing a lot of the symptoms since my ocd diagnosis. i’m going to try to tell my therapist about this when i see her next week and hopefully get properly tested if it’s nescesarry but is it common for these disorders to go together? can my symptoms of schizophrenia just be my ocd? if you have any information or advice i’d love to hear it, 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schizophrenia,kid_scorpion,2019/05/28,"Question about vivid relationships with hallucinations? I have a friend who for a long time has mentioned a particular person in his life– like he will bring them up every now and again, kind of vaguely like if I ask him what he‘s been doing he will say “oh i was hanging out with Tom yesterday” (his name isn’t Tom, but i’ll just use that for the sake of privacy). He talks about Tom a lot but i’ve never actually met him, i just assumed he was a friend I didn’t know. He does make it seem like they’ve been friends for a long time, even that they live together and in the last couple months it seems like they are almost in a romantic relationship? My friend is a pretty private person but i was still surprised and a little sad that I still haven’t ever met or spoken to Tom since he seems to be a big part of my friend’s life. but in the past few days he’s seemed upset and kind of dodges around questions and i asked him if he and Tom were okay and he just blew me off and said “he isn’t real”. My friend has schizophrenia, but i didn’t even connect the fact that I’d never met Tom and that he might be a hallucination. I guess I’m wondering if it’s possible to have very consistent, realistic hallucinations. He’s referenced Tom in conversations for years now and he seems like a very real person. I don’t want to be insensitive by ever agreeing with him that Tom might not be real, because i have DID myself so I know what it’s like to feel like people I love aren’t real just because they are in my head. So is it possible to have such a vivid hallucination that you are actually romantically involved? Or is it possible that Tom isn’t a hallucination and my friend is just doubtful because of his diagnosis? I’m not worried about my friend being in any danger because he has a supportive family and people who look after him, but i just want to be prepared to help him out. thank you so much for any advice. Tl;dr: My buddy with schizophrenia’s longtime friend may not be real and I want to be there for him.",5.152396088019562,5.363792327628364,6.196756968215162,79.77385427872863,68.26650366748166,9.184586797066016,28.0959413202934,9.065960079200117,2.00555092420538,1598,48,332,27,25,534,170,409,0.039,0.74,0.22,0.9974,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,2,4,0,24,27,1,2,19,1,43,3,1,2,5,75,71,27,0,6,20,0,1,7,9,5,1,2,0,3,18,20,0,0,12,0,0,2,13,4,0,0,13,6,41,23,41,45,4,36,0,1,3,1,63,14,0,21,27,215,59,0,0.0,0.0,0.1320398232500922,0.0,0.0,0.06611007176921513,0.0,0.0,0.06774505868668873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920131974506522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06022582588135522,0.12649350161872255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16496341974101594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07485714627817093,0.0,0.04363081468014339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05920390351348945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08936880078273822,0.12239265871467972,0.05700086622269065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06377755848549396,0.0,0.03420756710542281,0.048331567590960654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4704193016069858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452779361589652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06943185628887505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04534661521531155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090110892300206,0.07436102502599551,0.05514651077300496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09557112535204994,0.2313640705395208,0.06780643104166548,0.05973914854666585,0.119742173710682,0.056811776047777464,0.0,0.0,0.057516459854828936,0.06105979079073765,0.0,0.04515913724036527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435390288339552,0.0,0.0,0.054000259450295865,0.0,0.049732997401560834,0.0,0.10435687023246044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07326198654212515,0.06458277882445118,0.0938046306947288,0.1772168901809497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288069650114937,0.0,0.0688277799548725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15157447300598634,0.0,0.0,0.3850216241535209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14526876118537674,0.0,0.0,0.06435382942065139,0.053800660254101663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.307945350097997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055963551195177666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10805610726555608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07677222117499789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05437720100405101,0.0,0.06228611623951252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889842623777843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05843077374460081,0.0,0.11164219988855636,0.11971109806725733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07336717344107158,0.0,0.0687052620811599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04356654004883003 schizophrenia,meowdolfkitler24,2019/05/28,Feeling overwhelmed What are some things you guys do when your symptoms are just really kicking your ass? Ive been diagnosed with schizophrenia since i was 14 but damn the past few weeks the voices and visions are just tearing me up. My normal coping stuff isnt really cutting it so i figured id ask what are some go to things others do whenever they are struggling.,5.553857142857139,7.0331866714285765,5.378571428571429,81.43642857142858,68.0,7.885714285714287,31.142857142857146,8.238735603445708,2.3658,297,12,52,4,5,92,55,70,0.13,0.782,0.08900000000000001,-0.7229,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,1,0,4,4,2,2,2,0,11,3,1,0,0,10,14,4,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,7,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,2,9,0,3,12,3,5,0,1,0,1,6,1,2,2,3,40,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25394038757687737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27570199467478235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13734591481223374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437541547350386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689595882647742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26614287681645865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593046389830583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480303852861906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246978018446819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28397001347458906,0.31095504269018537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28233091615226524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3609220753698384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178877798442249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,zando_calrissian,2019/05/28,"I was threatened by a schizophrenic at work, how do I handle it? (Serious) Sorry if this is the wrong place to post - I wanted to ask a community that would know schizophrenia. This was at a bar that I recently started moonlighting at. I have a full time job and this gig is just for some extra cash. The guy in question (let’s call him T) is relatively new there, he has been there 1.5 years. This is the only job T has. After T threatened to beat me up (right at last call, so the bar was closing but customers saw this) I spoke to the bar manager. That’s when I found out he was schizophrenic. Bar manager offered to speak to T and the owner. I asked him not to speak to the owner. This is T’s only job. I definitely don’t wanna get him fired, it could put him in a downward spiral. But what happens next time I see T? I definitely don’t wanna work the same shifts as him, but should I even be working there at all? Can I visit the bar as a customer anymore? Cuz T comes in there all the time as a customer. Any advice is appreciated.",1.5851408450704234,3.504995061032865,3.576645539906103,88.38863028169014,79.61032863849766,6.513521126760563,22.85657276995305,7.554174236665415,0.9230978403755864,800,26,173,12,20,271,112,213,0.065,0.877,0.057999999999999996,0.5283,3,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,4,9,2,0,0,17,0,23,7,0,2,2,26,35,13,0,7,6,0,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,12,5,5,0,3,5,1,3,3,2,0,0,8,6,19,0,26,22,6,30,0,0,2,0,20,15,0,3,11,120,31,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13955058020471758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711451483183137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416274215490735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26701289335521594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29164640354801874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12301667205790963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11402077628559283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094323509774485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15658188749592442,0.0,0.0,0.07461142236934677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140263103375714,0.12628487389313214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4251454911842412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07848368568726481,0.11640779337683535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14603112280096678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379251087204701,0.15187820608558458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172242359088921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14920423793691126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367708385376655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14356174657781678,0.15997793593426032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14100592958045646,0.0,0.0,0.1219574749142292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11379969485960602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15986215671303286,0.101080422423905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498179369058293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423201258727023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118983453346956,0.0,0.0,0.10144689150417883,0.15613841538567205,0.0,0.0919638381659932 schizophrenia,FrannyCaulfield,2019/09/18,"Delusions about your delusions being gone? Hi, relatively new here—I lived with a bipolar I diagnosis for the last 13 years until a few weeks ago when I was re-diagnoses with schizoaffective (bipolar type). For a few years, I'd increasingly been getting psychosis outside of mood episodes, plus negative symptoms. I'm still trying to wrap my head around everything. Last week, my pdoc upped my Seroquel XR dose to 600 mg (from 450 mg) to try to knock out the psychosis I was having. Well, it's mostly worked, and the visual hallucinations and original delusions are mostly gone. My head is a lot more quiet than it’s been in years. Except...I was fine for a few days, but now I'm finding that I'm developing new delusions/paranoia about them being gone...specifically paranoia that the meds are erasing my brain, that it's all part of a grand plan to ""control"" my mind, that the medicine isn't medicine at all but a way to suppress the “messages” I get, general paranoia about conspiracy..... I'm really suspicious of the meds now. I should say, these all build on the delusions we were trying to get rid of because they are about similar themes, so I feel I’m going round and round in a scary circle. Has anyone else had rebound delusions like that? How did you work through it?",6.391250000000002,7.094363958333332,6.285,78.5,65.66666666666666,9.066666666666668,33.91666666666667,9.029198982220553,2.879741666666667,1010,43,186,16,15,318,143,240,0.069,0.879,0.052000000000000005,-0.721,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,1,2,2,4,12,5,0,0,16,0,18,7,3,3,3,26,30,10,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,10,9,0,2,2,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,10,5,17,4,32,17,12,29,0,0,2,0,8,7,0,3,18,117,27,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265572624950178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09982831791931396,0.1462850508814441,0.0,0.1270958418980709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703145373079893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15937887909236967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16012903880875065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09207503663620582,0.0,0.0,0.14490885586355806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11926627124239952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12831274565051995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07218895676272355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13048947369050493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22377477764611012,0.0,0.08113965535909487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29304704752292465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23275371028513944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06975036017679209,0.0,0.12606879636270696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137820911990435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3171712506452671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441573103826897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757769034608204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15460632913593866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914623142227634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11353667815427998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11401655123998668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483930142862946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907949993885342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11332442393382805,0.2290434562950619,0.0,0.12836765161886962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078769671186302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758181895421512 schizophrenia,mmmcuz,2019/09/18,"I just recently posted about my worries of developing schizophrenia. If my fears are true, and I am developing schizophrenia, will I be able to smoke weed, or will this make it worse?",7.658181818181816,8.419913757575756,6.935909090909089,74.72386363636366,62.93939393939394,10.236363636363636,34.68181818181819,10.125756701596842,3.424709090909092,146,6,26,3,2,45,27,33,0.23199999999999998,0.693,0.075,-0.7096,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,6,6,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,19,7,0,0.38709003076301984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4355839020428858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583856013376655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37072524790345823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3822047064892152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3931087160370829,0.3944778113740233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,poetryinthewater,2019/09/18,"""undone"" on Prime Have you seen it? What are your thoughts?",-0.3284848484848517,0.18387372727272755,-1.2872727272727251,110.82242424242426,129.9090909090909,1.4666666666666668,12.757575757575758,3.1291,-2.055569696969697,45,1,10,0,3,12,11,11,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MortonLoothorKodos_3,2019/09/18,"Just feeling lonely and would like Some insight into my personal situation: 1. I live in an apartment in an inner-city area about two hours by public transport. I'm an office worker who works as a professional graphic designer for a large multinational as well as freelance. I am not really able to work all the time because I have a full-time job and two other part time jobs. In my free time, I like to spend more and more time on internet games and to keep my eyes on social media. My work schedule is pretty much like this: 1-6AM, 5-10PM, 1-6AM, 8PM. My daily schedule gives me more free time, because I can spend it on work when it suits me. I usually sleep between 9PM and 3AM, but I've seen people that spend 20-30 hours there. 2. My income is around $7k to $10k per year on my monthly expenses. 3. My expenses are a combination of rent, electricity, phone, food and internet. I don't really spend enough time on anything else these days.. I do enjoy the brief breaks wherein I have a little extra spending money. One of those spending money moments is when my son says ""Mom, I want to play football with mom,"" and I say ""That's cool. What do you want to do?"" He's just getting interested, so I take the kids aside, and I say, ""Let's just do it. We're not going on a shopping trip right now, let's just do it."" Q: When did you start using marijuana? A: I didn't do it too much. I just used it to light up a cigarette. I really didn't use weed with anyone, but I've been looking for ways to relax. I really believe it opens up the mind. I think weed has had a positive influence on my kids. I think it's been very beneficial to them, and I'm very glad they decided to let me use weed for something other than their parents' pot, rather than their parents' weed. But it hasn't led to anything bad. I've not gotten in trouble, I have not broken the law, I haven't done anything. I haven't done anything you understand, please my children do know what it takes to stay strong as well as fearful. It takes my own resolve you know",2.9572282608695666,4.281254852657007,4.4763979468599056,86.01213315217394,74.14492753623189,7.493840579710145,25.497886473429947,8.07648339933343,1.4087538647343,1575,52,333,24,32,527,214,414,0.026000000000000002,0.8029999999999999,0.171,0.9947,6,2,2,0,0,0,68.0,0,4,4,7,17,19,0,1,17,1,33,3,2,6,1,50,58,21,0,4,13,5,1,3,0,1,0,3,1,4,21,14,1,1,9,4,14,5,10,4,2,3,10,9,45,17,44,44,11,48,0,1,3,0,27,20,0,1,23,205,66,8,0.08345662626973757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058354813551013726,0.0,0.2747107698183481,0.07429409121233056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06968279694962275,0.1017487695152652,0.0,0.0,0.09402703883334504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05382261974955125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17081020839138028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697173023279834,0.0,0.0,0.08623300429906841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09391190687667787,0.04219817783302456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009160837571703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043602642680716064,0.08005920056811676,0.047430323967798976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16437593163705386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16563564800805342,0.07418008402889106,0.0,0.0,0.09173115843703214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.256020164160693,0.0,0.1223180761151122,0.08364546436467629,0.07369372999245098,0.0,0.07008254697815193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08426740172259213,0.19548678405399295,0.06661428286584617,0.0,0.12270044590149892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056552369834838426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853374140933993,0.0903753934612661,0.0,0.05785831648620594,0.07287110698659617,0.0,0.09161031408966228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08490539211505538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138578072697738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07127150283509713,0.0,0.19910417674019415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380874462275317,0.08351689764713661,0.08507352054122694,0.0,0.06424898822429985,0.0,0.0,0.05907102962261829,0.08895365934607992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18824698994865824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10695127256555152,0.0,0.0,0.29198537950976505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163049994286891,0.08688129120280205,0.0,0.28831891771747936,0.09191568317276684,0.13772091391499575,0.0984497609210362,0.06624398534671833,0.0,0.0,0.1500750595087679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430296715519624,0.0,0.0,0.059285192814436435,0.0,0.0,0.05374333108473758 schizophrenia,12nickels9pennies,2019/09/18,I did whipits like the dumb fuck I am. I took one long inhale and it’s only suppose to last two minutes and it’s been 30 minutes and I feel god awful I’m scared because I tried alcohol once and got drunk and it put me into a deeper psychosis and it never went away. I’m scared it’s going to do the same thing has anyone ever had the same experience?,-0.5252631578947344,1.6592759473684209,2.27926315789474,92.2578421052632,92.15789473684212,4.092631578947368,18.12631578947369,5.6839178017228535,-0.26835894736842114,276,8,59,2,10,96,52,76,0.226,0.716,0.057999999999999996,-0.9246,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,2,4,1,6,3,0,0,2,12,14,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,7,2,0,1,1,0,4,1,4,0,2,6,2,6,1,4,8,2,10,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,5,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380374765556216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15574247199709892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20926818284087745,0.0,0.0,0.13577804402645702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20147782859456576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178789420949144,0.0,0.0,0.11262221793825372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059162156322515,0.0,0.0,0.1265862309012542,0.0,0.17814264899708168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18155989684010754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881775575344943,0.0,0.0,0.19711470772656656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178804541190348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23720700007869494,0.15093195127206266,0.16940107152068848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22391160542384192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4459959925667525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14797616910047393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24746833949085,0.15122339697162224,0.0,0.217581101061646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20647887726737146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,shaving99,2019/09/18,"How to convince wife to get mental health help? I love my wife but for the marriage she has struggled with *what I believe may be schizophrenia.*. Her grandmother has been diagnosed, her mom has tried to convince her (my wife) not to get help but her own mom seems like she may have it. *Her mom has said that she believes that the government might be watching her from the TV, that the government is sending radio waves to cause suicides in the state where we live...etc* I've seen her bounce from job to job, have weird delusions (that guy is coughing so he must want to fight me, that person is making sexual advances by sweating their office chair, this entire office building is full of lesbians), be very disorganized, and be very paranoid. I told her that she needs to get help but she's very adamant and stubborn about it all. What is the best way to approach her about this or to get her to change her mind?",3.4170357142857126,5.685460228571429,3.1053392857142867,92.27972321428574,75.28571428571428,5.746428571428572,25.223214285714285,6.6274283507984215,0.7979785714285716,720,25,143,6,16,214,102,175,0.094,0.772,0.134,0.7981,2,0,0,0,1,1,25.0,1,0,1,2,5,9,2,1,6,0,20,6,1,3,2,22,32,8,1,3,5,6,0,1,0,4,3,1,0,2,12,4,0,1,1,2,0,3,1,4,0,0,4,3,24,5,20,20,4,8,0,0,2,2,36,3,0,5,1,96,36,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29928494883519946,0.13938622560447578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13644256049143436,0.14050577727790925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13480933969210052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812922866211958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775715335863533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13151252148394366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411812768140968,0.0,0.0,0.2670790129843723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26360638947291537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06488906383729312,0.0,0.11728235028945808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198750893901048,0.0,0.08865827320014305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133851157102733,0.14090085872886218,0.13411017365824654,0.4666709668528514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984842268920608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159731594052578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12634208133524047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12091419211303375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388521329126523,0.0,0.14528334519440947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12691504703831427,0.0,0.09017595145057804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287708290030393,0.0783405816711758,0.1054262051167638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,plegiancrow,2018/11/16,"paranoia running free Recently my paranoia has ruled my brain and life, not that it hasn’t for years, it’s just flaring up again. I know it’s bad when other people notice it too. My relationships are being effected and my ability to make them, I’m convinced my friends are out to get me and they are planning something to hurt me. They think I can’t hear them talking about me when I’m right there— I’m ‘fried’. I can hear the condescending tone, like they’re infinitely better than me. I don’t know how much is real and how much isn’t, I know at least some of it is real and they gaslight me and fuck with me a lot now. At least one of them does. But I can’t go into that without getting unbearably angry & I can’t cope with that strong of emotion. Honestly I’ve been terrified of speaking to anyone I know because I’m afraid they will report back to the people who are out for me. Online, there are times were I have known that they were making fake accounts to reply to me/befriend me to mess with me and get me to talk. I’m wary of newer accounts. When I get responses that could sound like them it’s weird, scary. Going into public is another type of hell, school especially, as I know people talk about me, laugh, I’m the joke. Outside of school I’m constantly worrying about others, their intent, when they look at me and look away...its like I feel what they’re thinking about me and it’s always bad. Sets me on edge like nothing else. I hear voices as well and one particularly nasty one preys on these fears and perhaps amplifies them. He also tells me to hurt myself, others for how they treat me. That, and I think I hallucinate people talking about me when they’re really not but i can never tell when they really are. I’m already in therapy though I haven’t told my therapist all of this (i excluded the online stuff) but Therapy is just me talking. And talking. No antipsychotics just an antidepressant. I feel like im in another world half of the time and im always so sluggish and confused and my thoughts are disorganized. My speech is getting worse. Negative symptoms are rampant. “You need to realize they are hallucinations and move on” but i cant realize it when it is happening. I feel stuck in a deep hole right now I guess. Im thinking of dropping out, and my friendships are dying because im too scared to talk to them. Im ranting i think. Anyone relate or understand? 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Later that day, a kid wanted to be my friend so i showed him the weed and said we should smoke it. He said no and that he was telling. I went to a sketchy high school so they had a vice principal just for discipline. He was very scary. I had to deal with him and the cops. This is in 2003 and I think this caused PTSD. So eventually i told them who sold me the weed and he got expelled. From there, high school was hell for me, everyone treated me terribly and I hung out with the wrong crowd who bullied me. I had no self esteem. After high school i worked in a pizza joint and developed a crush on a girl who worked there. We worked together for about 2 years, and I went to the occassional party that she was at. Eventually she went off the school and i quit my job. This is when i started isolating myself. I thought of her every day but never spoke to her. A year later I saw her at a party and she approached me blushing and her friend pulled her away. That was the last time I saw her, 6 years ago now. Anywho, I hear hear her thoughts every day and have been medicated for 5 years. She has a boyfriend now.",1.5354198473282494,3.50397113740458,2.6391847328244293,94.80696030534351,79.99236641221374,6.176732824427482,20.403664122137407,7.24861992348623,0.2788208854961831,986,26,228,13,25,314,127,262,0.079,0.8740000000000001,0.048,-0.3912,2,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,2,0,2,5,11,6,1,0,17,0,17,2,0,2,1,32,39,19,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,5,0,4,11,19,1,1,4,1,2,6,3,3,0,1,27,7,46,3,28,10,1,39,1,0,2,0,41,13,1,1,20,148,57,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07853771535139145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08324172746143456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09101563389097912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285562401000243,0.18268346800369506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492970479901641,0.08466019264729918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07536230982341874,0.0,0.0,0.13690281823112976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14172151385620446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19971514542464752,0.0,0.0,0.3744390586735916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08792088974721313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07222005393042592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892542255179017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06833305217823553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356755253397773,0.0,0.0,0.09423599949184758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16855597811145512,0.0,0.0,0.5380018345830732,0.0,0.0,0.09242813575336754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06271086623155017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07743947810240907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354139228655412,0.0,0.1406755040680845,0.05166282071201655,0.0,0.0,0.08466019264729918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07310349815286768,0.05225801739947344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32852884169405944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935034989278026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968691567175469,0.0,0.22821954301622036 schizophrenia,EmperorPenguinfarts,2018/11/16,"angry at my shrink, wish she would actually listen Hi, first time poster here, schizoaffective bipolar type. I've been on pretty much every antipsychotic with the exception of some of the old school meds and a couple of the very new ones. Most recently, I was taking Zyprexa, 25 milligrams daily, but I was still having delusions and hallucinations and the side effects were a bitch. So I told my shrink on Tuesday that I wanted to switch back to the medication that had worked best for me in the past, twice, which was Clozaril. She declined and put me on 2mg of Risperdal instead, which has never worked for me and usually makes me manic and psychotic. I see her again on the 27th when she is supposed to switch my mood stabilizer from Depakote to lithium and I'm going to push the issue of Risperdal being entirely unhelpful, but it would be really nice if instead of just going off what she thinks she knows because she's an almighty psychiatrist, she would actually listen to me, who lives in my head and knows myself better than anyone.",9.694087507196317,8.288677430051816,8.791986183074268,70.22329303396664,59.67357512953368,11.686586067933213,37.506620610247545,10.504223727775694,3.8070396085204368,836,31,147,15,9,262,128,193,0.037000000000000005,0.875,0.08900000000000001,0.8857,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,6,10,5,1,0,11,0,14,3,1,2,1,27,28,13,0,6,5,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,7,9,0,0,4,0,0,4,1,1,0,3,7,3,23,3,26,16,4,26,0,0,1,0,13,9,1,3,13,109,30,4,0.0,0.0,0.3061490881336251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10968145708231444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12061708492145905,0.0,0.09562153160690713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16461684048562178,0.13873156457479394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17356466033690646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321628792538641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13342661475987086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17829641553482578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16098551911874934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637230238942438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17241434776287695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13851189287644067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470650707289103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17423816027587494,0.15802181742798746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153115130713352,0.0,0.12098153373635515,0.1514981581963502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164600131088697,0.0,0.10629365338508996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14974239104207154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15958490062149722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157689491027115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10048972176593514,0.0,0.15488215905268998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15875257294000994,0.12499859042690928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12527008099655296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11794059417154372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100510743655642,0.0,0.0,0.09146740980606803,0.0,0.0,0.1498882257764536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727611733399207,0.12942745927634208,0.0925211869436019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18038339327359695,0.0,0.0,0.2283945990741022,0.0,0.0,0.3342904861965951,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,False_Bee,2018/11/16,"Onset? Slightly worried i'm developing schizophrenia. My mother is so theres potential. Every once in a while i feel like i hear something odd. But i dono if inactually heard it. Like its vague and could be a voice or maybe just the tire outside the car or something. They're few and far between. How did your schizophrenia start?",2.5004838709677406,5.418267354838712,3.038951612903226,87.07842741935484,85.12903225806451,5.035483870967743,25.491935483870968,6.6274283507984215,1.1266064516129035,264,11,48,3,8,82,52,62,0.1,0.8170000000000001,0.083,0.1909,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,0,4,1,0,1,0,10,9,9,0,2,5,1,1,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,5,2,2,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,3,4,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333614902656963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24625818228936905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14778535580516652,0.2088046159798154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294203693241868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855861134036655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293634159194796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31126825192987895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4500222555780222,0.0,0.0,0.20687701646975268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33593242237745863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29682413750908965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,catlovero,2018/11/16,"I’m curious. So I have schizophrenia, but I don’t know if this is a symptom of my schizophrenia or a symptom of anxiety. But I fear the earth. I fear that the earth is round and that humans are upside down on some parts and such. What is this called to you? It’s constantly on my mind 24/7",1.1034972677595611,3.0733377377049216,2.4963114754098363,95.2732103825137,81.45901639344262,6.033879781420765,21.642076502732237,7.1686216300943375,0.4773256830601089,226,7,52,3,6,73,42,61,0.177,0.7959999999999999,0.027000000000000003,-0.875,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,2,4,0,6,2,0,0,0,9,8,7,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,7,0,6,8,2,4,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,3,1,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996885995263284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26654263555494656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28208262419269803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5874666540807765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14345624137076188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635676890421324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28267198363697954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5426239396615614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Beckzillla,2018/11/16,Everywhere I go people are watching me There are cameras everywhere and someone is always watching ,5.669791666666669,9.153308062500004,5.665000000000003,63.94666666666669,93.375,7.133333333333333,42.833333333333336,7.793537801064563,5.664233333333334,83,6,8,2,3,26,13,16,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5592258067710699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3819595134772955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4659368219936732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5694526363235751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,garyman32,2018/11/16,Minocycline for negative symptoms? Has anybody tried this? My psychiatrist said it does something with the hippocampus and has helped with negative symptoms and focus. Just wondering how or if it has helped anyone here. 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Basically it makes your mind more coherent, so I thought I'd tell you about it in case it helps any of you as well. For some reason most people seem to take around 600-700 mg (ca 1 ml) once or twice a day. It's one of the hundred most used medicines in the world, but for other purposes. Idk what the effect is for you, but it might help, I've tried it for a week now and the effect compounds. Feel free to AMA.",7.074814398200225,6.828573669291341,5.70146231721035,86.50031496062994,64.2755905511811,9.146906636670417,29.95388076490439,8.418075326091056,1.772265241844769,524,15,110,6,7,153,94,127,0.024,0.818,0.157,0.9578,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,5,0,2,6,3,0,0,7,0,5,0,0,5,1,26,12,9,0,1,7,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,12,3,0,0,7,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,2,1,6,4,15,8,4,7,0,0,0,0,13,4,0,9,3,63,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296468907258988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16096929916194944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846387710092673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11661478374349425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914286856579236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17904152215784905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4848028408912234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12069962621451255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3836456625651956,0.18257797324308367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19256879009383804,0.12252919700228405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25071745285523034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18591441886705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646129262987877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704219414797188,0.0,0.13595511902725335,0.0,0.1580457919358384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871038389103247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227657977169494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15617155201304786,0.0,0.1491965150329525,0.0,0.0,0.14504394513163976,0.0,0.16258007034350005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,onlyacucumber,2019/09/26,"Should I worry about psychosis or a more serious illness You probably get hundreds of posts like this, but anyway here is one more. I id read the sticky, but wanted to post anyway. Basically, I'm really afraid of developing schizophrenia, and feel like I could be having signs of prodrome. Basically my symptoms are as follows: 1. Hearing sounds I think might not have a physical source. All of these are ""phone sounds"", notifications and buzzing without new messages or calls, the like. But I do feel like they are sometimes ""impossible"". Like hearing the ""on hold"" sound (soft ""tooting"" sound you get when you call someone and hold the phone up to your), but from the environment, without a phone in sight. This has happened 2-3 times so far and the last time, really distressed me. It also happens out of the blue when I'm not expecting a call or anything, or outside. 2. Having trouble with focus, memory and motivation, sometimes considerably. Feeling hazy, or lost in thought. I keep thinking about my anxiety and fears a lot. 3. Having slight trouble reading and talking. Like I read a sentence and it takes me a while to understand it the right way, but I always do in the end, and noticing I have trouble with this distresses me. Sometimes I speak the wrong words or say things in a funny way. I do notice it myself right away. 4. I have clear obsessive and compulsive symptoms, checking doors and electronics, only being able to sleep in a certain position etc. 5. Heavy anxiety and stress, distress about my mental state. Number 1 happened a few weeks ago and caused number 5. Numbers 2 and 3 manifested after I already developed 5, and number 4 is something I've always had, but I notice it a lot more now. So the thing here is, that if I had numbers 2-4 during anxiety I wouldn't worry, since those can come with anxiety attacks. What distresses me, is that the ""phone hallucinations"" started out of the blue, and caused the anxiety in the first place. I did have some stress, I was very busy, started a new school and had some relationship worries, but I didn't feel overly anxious or anything. Stressed, not anxious. I had a similar bout of anxiety three years back with a similar setup, thinking I might have hallucinated, developing anxiety and thinking I was going crazy. After a couple of months I was completely fine, and spent the last years stress free. But now my anxiety relapsed, and I keep thinking that this time I'm actually losing it. I know it doesn't make sense, but can't stop thinking about it. I keep reading that anxiety and obsessive-compulsive symptoms might be signs of prodrome, or that prodrome might last years making me think the last episode might be connected here. However, I show almost no other common symptoms, I'm social, feel heavy stress but also other feelings, I'm afraid of being alone. I can keep up with life atm pretty well. I score very low results on online schizophrenia/psychosis screening tests, but medium/high results on anxiety, panic and OCD screenings. I feel 0% delusional, but I'm still afraid that my life could just fall apart tomorrow. What worries me are the ""hallucinations"" and thought disorder type behavior, like having trouble thinking straight and speaking exactly the words I want. I know this probably sounds just like anxiety, but hear me out anyway and tell me what you really think. Feel free to go through my post history, you can find some stuff from a couple of years ago. Sorry for the long post.",5.4513744075829385,7.517970821484994,5.714540600315959,76.64102417061616,69.06319115323855,8.60270458135861,32.72319115323855,9.174902378510234,3.1639952859399685,2762,127,463,56,50,878,276,633,0.183,0.71,0.107,-0.9946,1,1,1,0,0,0,107.0,0,6,1,4,23,38,1,15,36,0,49,8,1,7,4,127,102,55,0,8,29,0,9,8,0,7,7,11,1,0,29,34,0,7,25,5,5,5,10,25,1,3,13,25,54,15,50,75,11,69,0,3,5,0,25,23,0,20,42,303,83,8,0.04676241687899168,0.0,0.04563337331416475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08290412216088862,0.0,0.046825805687186986,0.04843176107959159,0.05160348984712583,0.07479177576666753,0.07782015380486633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935043300987161,0.10565644136097477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769629693505385,0.0,0.0,0.053199000041542696,0.043934829982445515,0.03595741210821341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14324896795527414,0.0,0.0,0.09607576687058242,0.0,0.04028168151388741,0.049029504405410484,0.0,0.0,0.07467196957076426,0.10348344968244046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05359378104912862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041417621534109085,0.0,0.05215245590672727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05262071971462723,0.18915586421947275,0.0668141599238487,0.0,0.0,0.042740001854787116,0.03977608790867858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04886286554338499,0.0,0.05315231830530167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12405555243251698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15811392723468692,0.0,0.0,0.049407060867498236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16625833890126862,0.0,0.0,0.05139880274768289,0.1524704442120729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06605935594119157,0.18276603860929425,0.0,0.0,0.04138326741046512,0.0,0.052315183124599415,0.051046701997517235,0.07951146918133263,0.0,0.0,0.062428552765689926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04712551757619353,0.2480376725257379,0.0,0.0,0.03732531501333078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09032686723358724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597179646678327,0.0,0.0,0.031687423898065795,0.03556492523168093,0.0,0.05486562068192482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04885677276546433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791418761765251,0.04757418935826529,0.10083558905553652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18710028581246155,0.0,0.08987160501840101,0.0,0.0,0.050205335382058035,0.0,0.07986969701830793,0.0,0.037187350808154815,0.0,0.04732606240782705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03868235447178441,0.0,0.04679618813721023,0.0476683950781135,0.03962164407179118,0.03599999311843239,0.13874767801567872,0.052346697200572716,0.06619735870357821,0.0,0.03734452652503916,0.039095474393256884,0.26783095270585233,0.0,0.053531779516228006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19441622458762914,0.03515951783841578,0.03758585935846444,0.04087241348919527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06213374381739022,0.26967121697179536,0.0,0.0742482711785328,0.0818026240066052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04868132513623687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07716778256328871,0.0551633700953466,0.07423565981440433,0.03750999015482318,0.0,0.04204502871471368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901546023012204,0.0,0.0,0.18995801696939388,0.0,0.0,0.051127361969993255,0.0,0.12045385321603767 schizophrenia,available247,2019/09/26,"What med cocktail you're on? Hi,curious to know what medication combo everyone is taking.For me it's clozapine(clozaril) 100 mg ,clomipramine(anafranil) 225 mg and Levetiracetam (keppra)1000 mg",6.846999999999998,10.823183033333335,5.236666666666668,68.20500000000001,85.33333333333334,9.066666666666668,32.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,4.522866666666667,161,8,21,5,5,47,27,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5134242767720285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29529241321896504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5968320791197406,0.5412849268638905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jadenNemen,2019/09/26,"New Medication for Schizophrenia Schizophrenic here. Just wanted to let yall know there is a new medication that I am taking apart of a clinical trial that only requires an injection every 6 months! It works, but I do not know when it will be available. It is made by Jansen.",4.996923076923078,6.799544076923077,5.818461538461538,76.50153846153847,69.76923076923077,9.046153846153846,28.384615384615394,9.516144504307137,2.7020615384615385,220,8,39,5,4,72,43,52,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,3,0,7,4,0,1,0,8,12,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,4,8,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,28,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22274039651961616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.290578113939292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703329224944105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25015021950604016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5326433938390643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110150248441836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5106541264711434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20106283305752032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19877090193433206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15593036397684934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19246214915984775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,panimist,2019/09/26,"How do you guys cope with daily life after being on anti psychotics. Im from Denmark A bit of background I have been psychotic last year and after trying to hitchhike from the highway i was immediatly caught by the police and they hospitalized me in a mental ward. After being hospitalized i was in the mental ward for a month and thereafter after being doped with Zyprexa and thereafter respiradon. After that month i was so doped that i became numb and i started to isolate my self. Before that i used to be very social and was out everyday. Anyway. I was transferred to the open ward and it just got worse. I was isolating my self even more till it got to the point where i started to feel like what i can describe as depression. After i was released 9 months have passed and i still feel the same. They replaced respiradon with Abilfy which would ideally help and give me energy. But it hasnt helped at all. I still feel the same and i dont feel like going out of my new studio-appartment eventhough i dont have any psychoic episodes. It has really hit me hard and i dont know what to do. How have you guys coped after being drugged?",3.9797747747747785,5.822861842342345,4.740720720720724,83.040990990991,72.46846846846847,7.275675675675676,25.84684684684685,7.984000788550335,1.5836198198198193,907,30,169,13,18,292,118,222,0.071,0.87,0.06,-0.3321,0,0,1,0,1,0,15.0,0,2,2,1,9,5,0,0,10,0,26,3,0,3,1,32,40,17,0,2,2,0,5,2,0,1,3,0,0,4,10,17,0,0,5,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,11,5,27,3,31,22,5,31,0,1,0,0,12,9,0,0,21,129,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08558696478029587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709489824951496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374030690566816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840030904187303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4425098258877277,0.0,0.14595397368700164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831272536654499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545479928695318,0.1798242985916242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073334597521848,0.07152734067646305,0.0,0.20131841912192666,0.0,0.0,0.2492361110609304,0.0,0.0,0.112743004893609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16871836940217053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13594698079265022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06916762601734222,0.10259011981007793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08889640579989606,0.122974586288089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536681791274437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30137317896237625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155331716189705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11897539121935966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08062711234742771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625922580975896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12829519550466606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17816423361539738,0.0,0.20101886475128614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544853066901814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10869989769123364,0.0,0.10384507108321228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12825886886185714,0.08940508579251807,0.0,0.0,0.0810476764652881 schizophrenia,Tshowdelusion,2019/09/26,"Incurable and severe schizophrenia : the only reason I don't kill myself is my family Hello First of all, I am really sorry to bring such a difficult subject. I am BIPOLAR, SCHIZOPHRENIC and EPILEPTIC (the worst kind of epilepsy). I don't deserve that! I know, if you take your ""meds properly Everyday"" then you should be fine. But in my case it is just so severe I can't handle it anymore. Reasons why I want to kill myself : - The severity of the symptoms. Fuck I hear voices EVERY SINGLE DAY since a few years. When I have insomnia it is not a mild insomnia, I can't sleep AT ALL for a few days, not even one minute! - It ruins my whole life, I cannot even work - MEDS don't work…. For most people it works but for me… Let me explain. I have tried EVERY SINGLE med available on the market. EVERY SINGLE MED!!!! And believe me I was the kind of guy who took his meds every day and NEVER skipped a dose! I am also intolerant to some meds and for this reason I can't take them at all. I thought that the Clozapine was a ""miracle drug"" but even on clozapine I have voices. Less for sure but still… Now the worst thing? Right now I am not allowed to take psychiatric meds! Meds are slowly ruining my whole body (not paranoid about meds, they either cause me to suffocate or having tonic-clonic seizures… I do not have any ""Big Pharma"" delusion). I have asked my doctor if I could have some antipsychotic but he said no. Why? Epilepsy. But I am also anxious about taking meds because some meds make me even more psychotic, which is very weird, I know. Haloperidol makes my voices worse, the voices who are usually whispering are actually SCREAMING! Loxapine and risperidone make me depressed as fuck and not a single effect on voices. Amisulpride… oh amisulpride… The worst weeks on my life. I thought I was going nuts and kill myself. I have also tried to increase the meds with no effect at all. Even on 800 or 1000 mg I felt terrible. And I know that most people will not believe me ""meds are very effective"" ""you are just being paranoid""... No. - Psych wards in my country are worst than jail. I don't want to spend my whole life in a psych ward. I even think you can have PTSD from this. You want to tell me that ""I just need to go to the hospital""? Well I am ALREADY at the hospital right now! I am writing from the hospital! Even the doctors don't really now what to do and I have seen a lot of doctors. Actually I see doctors every day and yet I cannot take meds because ""it would trigger a dangerous seizure"". I hate the idea of suicide. But I really have no hope. I have tried, tried and tried for years. Now I need to find peace. Please do not tell me to ""exercise"", ""breathe"" or ""listening to music"", ""watching movies"" or anything like that, I have tried so many things…",2.432943817072317,4.738293408921937,3.5465630918145483,87.71543557550676,78.66542750929369,6.513908957003577,23.905590236375108,7.6368930633389525,1.2342451707932942,2146,74,421,33,53,692,231,538,0.163,0.753,0.084,-0.9937,1,0,1,0,0,4,94.0,0,6,2,6,26,25,7,0,26,0,54,20,3,12,6,82,89,33,4,11,25,0,1,1,0,3,15,10,0,1,18,13,0,0,16,1,1,5,23,18,1,2,9,14,70,7,45,73,27,39,0,3,3,2,22,15,2,13,20,304,88,9,0.0,0.0,0.08837240697372255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04996698988960152,0.10862985956849684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03079157307209153,0.0,0.0,0.05115288087002458,0.04490503924353458,0.0,0.0,0.03726112248226423,0.0,0.04233016573874116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05520385481552022,0.0,0.0,0.10202885057416863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050295252238450605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046514459449155686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03615194979673282,0.0,0.0,0.11680597615480395,0.0,0.038999116810233936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853817090443225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05250977713115602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093465095373836,0.0,0.19074941270351994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04268542789242585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04347536482190783,0.0,0.041384589431573963,0.03851467000136507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08372022850549518,0.0,0.0,0.051466700396384416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04483376613271007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04470407447293219,0.0,0.0,0.051033221635111474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04497270232401954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05111497827638716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15028498068815138,0.0943031415394117,0.07465319103919492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04630129694116236,0.09594662629036176,0.022121248074517985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03849496214752899,0.0,0.0,0.09067313685876877,0.04590624702105448,0.0,0.0,0.7041335313383085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06714826461263597,0.03492229684835066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030682521554893587,0.034437055802628284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06278212735920588,0.0,0.0,0.04970322985430494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052929244313789016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870215094486835,0.1396644221249759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0773367916631632,0.043071117969520255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036081852706767,0.0,0.0,0.15345864261007375,0.0,0.03745562210082362,0.0,0.04531214199758448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050686627930082336,0.0,0.0,0.03616022065245104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04952836009778115,0.0,0.04267533796684242,0.047062677142201206,0.17022252541057892,0.0,0.07915245568190896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03008164911253136,0.02901323795447988,0.0,0.07189363793589969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05030712580462862,0.18445061226919449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04986890803016065,0.0747205629418797,0.08012096364013792,0.0,0.036320436939004684,0.0,0.04071165595427488,0.0,0.08171530678267765,0.15165863899593585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09889191855685256,0.0,0.04614361945001349,0.03216521627170403,0.0,0.0,0.05831695185383401 schizophrenia,AM6319,2019/09/26,"Am I helping or making things worse? Looking for some advice. So my ex-boyfriend is being held in a psychiatric ward on an involuntary order and has been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. He is adamant that he doesn’t need to be there, despite openly telling me he hears voices, often he describes the voice belonging to Satan, he is struggling to tell the difference between what is real & what isn’t, and other symptoms associated with schizophrenia. Since he’s been admitted to the ward his family have shared with me that he has been in & out of there for years & was on a treatment order until he moved state where a Dr had changed his diagnosis and taken him off meds completely (they failed to share any of this with me prior to him being admitted). He refuses to speak to any of the medical staff about what he’s experiencing because he doesn’t want to be held there longer, however he feels comfortable to share everything with me. The difficult part is a lot of the voices he hears tell him untrue things about me for example that I’ve been a prostitute in the past, that I cheated on him & I am a character from the bible reincarnated amongst other things. He has had two major outbursts where these hallucinations become too much and he has taken them out on me, verbally abusing me, spitting in my face, burning things he has bought me etc. This caused me to leave & his family got the treatment order placed shortly after. Since he has been in hospital I have been trying my best to be there for him, sending him packages & letters & calling him. He is still experiencing the hallucinations & asks me if what the voices are saying are true. A week or so ago something he experienced was too much for him & he blocked me. Basically I’m wondering if I should still make effort to let him know that I’m here if he needs me (he has no real friends, only family, which he gets upset about) or if this is only making things worse for him because the hallucinations are often things about me? I’m more than happy to be there for him any way I can, especially as he only feels comfortable to share things with me & I know talking about it can only help, but I’m worried I’m making things worse for him.",10.85708782104391,7.683491720657281,10.193269814968243,66.61437862468932,59.02347417840376,13.30991438829053,40.55178127589064,11.326091736570909,4.4039902236951125,1787,66,327,35,17,578,190,426,0.068,0.872,0.06,-0.6608,1,0,1,0,0,0,53.0,0,0,2,3,21,15,1,2,20,0,44,6,2,5,1,48,74,16,0,8,8,0,2,0,1,1,4,8,0,0,25,13,0,4,7,0,1,2,4,5,0,1,16,14,41,10,56,50,9,33,1,1,1,0,63,17,0,12,9,224,66,2,0.0,0.07446627035481747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06141571335212544,0.05571220739195451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6809730647402945,0.0,0.12821925634045184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058755711712444786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07662483059894633,0.06941223245688838,0.0,0.0,0.06595657538617274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06417627176543228,0.0,0.0,0.06456365388981987,0.06648633931390162,0.0,0.06589640771922016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0637908253674435,0.0,0.06566425373949024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07009370255044044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05648499466393162,0.0,0.17774648304348747,0.0,0.06355709741638918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048557296120153935,0.0,0.032836221263344165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05026641236336098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06690436267486886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416716994049304,0.0,0.08425326571342695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06908078111773294,0.0,0.0,0.06654844751712291,0.0,0.06426777706890549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05277767304436961,0.0,0.0,0.0534323185097208,0.0,0.0,0.1678098694350574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981152304637726,0.0633141656898671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06679897350064279,0.09240309171706476,0.09320407819618252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911992252005555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06805978339859617,0.05999687075840091,0.0,0.0,0.06566425373949024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430727698250275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04998037121871096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10397935825477424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048384544228832885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003832355973662,0.0,0.0,0.06570384650468758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532459871878765,0.0,0.05051597283714994,0.16479945635277626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340348278340336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042670621964807115,0.0,0.06139473848633512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03707020875544542,0.04988693405898968,0.050414003461013934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06815750116324548,0.0,0.06382662382351345,0.19214674602318585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040472957656488166 schizophrenia,JollyDillCucumber,2019/09/26,"How do to bring it up to someone that there is something wrong with their mental health Im almost 100 percent certain my dad has schizophrenia or some sort of disorder it's been happening for around five months but I just realized everything was weird and talked to my family and they confirmed my suspicions. He doesn't think anything is wrong but he has delusions, extreme paranoia, hallucinations, and problems with his memory. He doesn't want to talk to me about anything, I feel like he thinks I'm going to judge him or something when really all I want to do is help. Is there a certain way I can bring these things up or convince him to get some help.",4.071796536796537,6.302220595238098,4.236002886002886,85.09435064935066,73.20634920634922,7.43896103896104,28.121212121212125,8.296473431620573,2.0147238095238102,529,21,99,9,11,164,84,126,0.159,0.723,0.11800000000000001,-0.5704,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,7,8,0,0,1,0,13,1,0,1,3,27,24,10,0,3,6,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,4,0,0,3,2,4,0,1,2,1,13,4,16,22,4,9,0,0,0,0,14,3,0,7,3,65,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17833487754590596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931114908387628,0.1585409399868587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041105377762612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16005892092081822,0.0,0.16789066690885102,0.0,0.09004940595154595,0.12723000547978328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304648382810464,0.0,0.1012146191309498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15748746107886902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18930502303583294,0.0,0.0,0.2387445882642035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923715009225623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08700747012415375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17947632257265236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14215250297521545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17041139194678634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140912326768295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15089801317916904,0.27421009719799977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28628955883543994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11831738325193387,0.2282301998536199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21008827732066102,0.1413623012808499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3894344881996924,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,amandapandananer,2019/04/05,"Support would be nice. I was very spiritual and somewhat of a psychic before my diagnosis at 18, now am on disability at 25 wondering what to do. But I had a hallucination of my cousin's baby before I found out she was pregnant. It leaves me wondering if there is something more to schizophrenia. What do you think?",4.273500000000002,6.330966016666667,6.003333333333334,73.39500000000002,72.16666666666666,8.8,32.0,9.3871,3.2079000000000004,251,12,45,6,5,86,48,60,0.0,0.904,0.096,0.6705,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,9,0,0,0,0,10,14,3,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,8,2,8,8,2,5,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,4,1,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4649059172358724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995237743423422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892543175158154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21030450508441714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099972915708943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17504037858560395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22539910309212055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5924962104483454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19405664553264906,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,UncookedCupNoodles,2019/04/05,"Do I have schizophrenia? Hi all - I am 15 years old and recently have been thinking I might be developing schizophrenia. I have repeated intrusive thoughts in my head, such as ""they're plotting against you"" or ""you have special powers"", but I know those things aren't true and it is my own voice ",5.3982727272727296,6.956580781818182,4.790681818181817,85.20602272727272,68.45454545454545,8.40909090909091,33.75,8.841846274778883,2.7498181818181817,233,11,45,4,4,70,44,55,0.059000000000000004,0.905,0.036000000000000004,-0.2842,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,11,1,1,0,2,10,14,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,9,2,3,10,2,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,4,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4039881653012313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21633422808965205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41758979240370253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4130589218885855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3886719725855292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615168990032801,0.2522285926385293,0.0,0.31250615916580204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25349122900620963 schizophrenia,A2Spark,2019/04/05,"How can i know i have this illness? I tried looking the symptoms and i guess i kinda fit the profile. Some symtoms i found were depression , being unable to talk properly , not being able to form thoughts properly , trouble sleeping and withdrawal from my friends The only hallucinations i recall were in 2 different ocassions when i saw a third arm. Besides that i had some nightmares and i am constantly daydreaming. Should i be worried or am i just another angsty teenager?",5.989285714285713,8.472911738095242,6.228095238095237,71.78357142857145,68.52380952380952,9.085714285714287,39.38095238095238,9.606745405546679,4.536995238095237,382,23,57,9,7,122,63,84,0.14800000000000002,0.773,0.079,-0.7703,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,0,11,4,2,1,0,15,17,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,6,2,13,1,4,7,3,4,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,5,2,46,15,0,0.2621668213375065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27490477091862464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833091973962683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22580389906118786,0.0,0.0,0.273908528934162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28745238777921395,0.2025494358324388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28880631065204776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14408002875239834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201541015223252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19938968131659404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623561550805129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724917092527133,0.0,0.21071976028839648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20813117182386387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779940626060451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662431329485848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Drpsychos,2019/04/05,"I'm a doctor I've been a member of this community for three years now. I had a psychotic break down in 2016. It lasted a year and I was hospitalised for a month in December 2016. Recovery has been slow but steady. Today, I recieved an email confirming i passed all my exams and am now a doctor. You're all my brothers and sisters and I'll be a voice for us. With love.",-0.3133766233766231,1.964611688311692,2.3114285714285714,90.95857142857143,94.45454545454544,5.916883116883117,18.688311688311693,7.348242739294969,0.6861792207792208,288,9,62,6,11,99,53,77,0.0,0.9129999999999999,0.087,0.7783,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,8,0,7,3,0,0,2,8,9,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,7,1,8,4,2,13,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,8,42,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6375122221662624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538524843120562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810727164154641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485760172820129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2951939557343522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37460525729784055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4010942585216097 schizophrenia,tangisanbdarahiblis,2019/04/05,"stigma in my family i've had psychotic episode few times, and thank god, i was never alone at the time. i've had the worst so far with the voices,crying and trying to stab my own eyes with a knife. it took me hours to get out of there and my mom holding my hand tight so i would calm down eventually. my dad came home to me being hysterical. but he didnt bring me to the hospital, instead he read Holy Quran to me so the 'demons' would get out of my body. it is hard because here,people dont talk about mental illness due to stigma. my parents dont want to acknowledge the fact that my brain did something to me that i hallucinated and delusional. they dont care if i take my medicine or not, bc they believe it is bc of demons. my journey just started and i dont know whats gonna come on my way soon that i worried im going crazy",1.7666101694915284,3.28447255367232,3.4786666666666686,91.13935593220344,77.70056497175142,6.527909604519775,22.53446327683616,7.3011,0.612084293785311,650,19,149,8,15,217,111,177,0.125,0.826,0.049,-0.9226,1,1,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,0,8,4,0,0,7,0,14,5,4,0,2,25,28,11,0,4,5,3,3,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,7,11,0,2,2,1,0,6,7,1,0,0,7,4,24,3,20,17,3,21,3,0,1,0,8,7,0,2,7,92,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410061801408609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08299332830120258,0.0,0.0,0.1533899022123302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15122749652055034,0.0,0.1519839445369366,0.0,0.15571473620992465,0.13880990453643355,0.0,0.0,0.11727771019083273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14954997071037826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6382483180356349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12834631721252288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226131504254833,0.0,0.0773749003009096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12196006003811252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13656552280812267,0.0,0.1340763699075824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470610256939463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482227238602683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13720313018681762,0.0,0.0,0.15945253121813188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10500417614142316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15117400365261138,0.0,0.0,0.09438648305961392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361828272273771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10481183012084344,0.0,0.0,0.09636482834958526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10236483653448177,0.10942898497411796,0.0,0.12534493045278308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587756364769898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126319789608692,0.0924341864082487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030242889638707,0.10806634517649708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13826285562881366,0.0,0.19342840189965887,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,deenermeow,2019/04/05,"Please help me fix my life I'm a 19 year old female I was diagnosed with schizophrenia around this time last year been hospitalized twice. I'm taking 100 mg of zoloft and 2.5 mg of resperidone. I went to cosmetology school and with some difficulty (as my diagnosis and first psychotic break happened at the end of my schooling) graduated and am now licensed. I did hair for a while at a cost cutters but stopped taking my meds and spiralled almost killed myself ended up in the hospital again and quit my job. Since then I've been working part time at a sub shop I've worked at since high school, about 20 hours a week, and am about to start working at a bowling alley in the kitchen where my boyfriend works. I dont know what to do next I want to move out of my parents house in August so I have to have a steady income. My therapist has talked to me about going on disability but I dont know if thats the right choice because everyone around me thinks if I push through I'll be fine but I've never felt this low and i dont know if i can handle working full time again. Everything is so hard. I also want to go back to school in the fall I want to do something with music and writing. Like song writing or doing jingles for commercials. I'm also in the process of writing a poem book and would like to release my own music but I don't know how. I jsut need a job that I can actually do and not hate my life at. Please help what should I do? Any thoughts or comments welcome ",3.97663513087354,4.8824181456953655,4.788107852412492,86.3482671081678,71.18543046357615,7.73913591926837,27.957111321349732,7.957251820313856,1.5552899400819924,1168,41,249,15,21,378,166,302,0.052000000000000005,0.843,0.106,0.9157,4,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,7,16,7,2,0,15,0,24,6,1,1,1,48,46,28,1,9,10,1,3,2,0,2,4,1,1,0,6,17,1,1,7,3,2,6,6,3,0,2,7,4,30,4,41,36,4,51,0,1,0,0,9,21,0,7,25,156,36,13,0.0,0.0,0.0906730164851121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304236664189452,0.0,0.0,0.1486104450432294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06318634760278685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16543061535689535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07144698680073197,0.0,0.05664098341485459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09430820410079804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266920347971941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16459272709390954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887856152020978,0.08350728141099201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08921432845809606,0.0,0.0,0.07903465408588094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561307840949292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08216567783511293,0.0,0.08323485609376755,0.09173572205272512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245598271113744,0.0981712926124844,0.0,0.0,0.09150395097661414,0.10721306629337636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18441040685657265,0.0,0.10279824512383083,0.0,0.20425772413406248,0.0757392786106081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13125922182027894,0.09078853275676632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10320918919173357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09875544312736784,0.0,0.06889634347040732,0.07166286641417463,0.0,0.09881766015749012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09750014602782553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10317268157470262,0.10061942147383987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20398864008684445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09882804335120043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07935010967240935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3761454852208652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15372283528355046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07153159480494323,0.0,0.0,0.06576671590413947,0.0,0.0,0.07768228243281565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13972315912843966,0.07468269377664634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10788311791824076,0.0,0.05953708614308255,0.0,0.07376525366877103,0.16254092424883235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16441352466738798,0.0,0.07453194249413397,0.0,0.0,0.08613444645395041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3382212792663564,0.0,0.0,0.06600515443963495,0.0,0.0,0.11967024816641003 schizophrenia,synthoceps_god,2019/04/05,"Do I have schizophrenia? This only usually happens when its night and I'm alone and sometimes with a fan on, but I'll get this paranoid feeling and start hearing voices that are usually either a young kid wimpering or voices kind of making wind like sounds. Also if I close my eyes I will whispering or breathing right near my ears. Are these common symptoms of schizophrenia?",6.289565217391306,8.045835927536235,5.69634782608696,78.80191304347828,66.53623188405797,7.838840579710146,32.64057971014493,8.238735603445708,2.6755484057971017,305,13,49,4,5,93,54,69,0.064,0.8340000000000001,0.10300000000000001,0.3889,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,5,4,3,1,0,12,12,9,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,6,0,1,5,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,5,2,5,11,1,11,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,3,8,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617072024617151,0.0,0.2020734531093321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12776598184390164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13201836522738786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223450003697659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847962620976687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631343010884284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12344995206462653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686703263917329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23712933923277835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921796127307326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157930509049168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499135956249112,0.0,0.1788529383455388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626382208484106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5565973750757953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,idontknow2228,2019/04/05,If I think people can hear my thoughts does that automatically mean I have schizophrenia For the last year or 2. Out of nowhere when I'm daydreaming I'll think that people around me heard what I thought. I looked it up because I know it's not normal. All the websites say that if you think people can hear your thoughts it means you have schizophrenia. I don't think that's the case though because I don't ever hear voices or see stuff that's not there.,3.9617582417582433,5.507269131868135,3.6140659340659376,92.30593406593408,71.96703296703296,6.079120879120879,25.08791208791209,6.1826913282559595,0.4888197802197807,365,11,78,2,7,109,55,91,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,6,0,0,0,2,21,23,6,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,10,2,0,0,10,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,8,12,0,5,19,1,7,0,0,2,0,8,3,0,4,4,47,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13544386436426828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18549586262614529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13314562913779426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13762646193337874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.514445132578033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836164920963493,0.12402082355858378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12776589406124728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314672751696517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14907261167710772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31644053420503865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12099409553170665,0.0,0.0,0.1212421562834332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17417291374647756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.389960854721384,0.1494845129153738,0.3623652486991402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09797824197245222 schizophrenia,risir,2019/01/14,"Anybody else get kinda fat? Not bragging but I used to work out all the time before I got sick and when I got sick i got out of the habit and gained probably like 40 lbs. I've noticed people don't treat me as well, I've never been judgmental of fat people but it kind of pisses me off when I get treated worse because I'm kind of fat. I don't expect girls to be as interested in me but some people are just huge fucking dicks. When I used to go to the gym and a fat guy was there I would approach him and encourage him because I wanted him to do well but I feel like some people don't want me to do well and just want to be judgemental assholes. I got a gym membership and started lifting weights like I used to but started to get stretch marks so I decided to do a bunch of cardio first. I'm really determined to lose the weight from the meds because I hate that I have schizophrenia and feel like it leaves a physical mark on me. I wish some of us could get together and go to the gym because going by myself is not as fun and its hard to get work out partners because nobody does the old school work outs anymore where you need spotters. Hope you're all well and just want to remind anyone that doesn't know yet that life can get way better after you get sick even when it feels like you are fucked forever. peace",3.274490909090908,4.305302512727273,4.232863636363638,89.20529545454546,72.96363636363638,7.245454545454546,25.38636363636364,7.554174236665415,1.090254545454545,1041,32,226,12,20,337,137,275,0.163,0.6509999999999999,0.18600000000000005,0.748,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,3,0,7,16,23,4,0,11,0,18,15,6,3,3,49,53,23,0,10,10,0,6,5,1,1,9,0,0,3,7,14,6,0,5,3,0,4,7,5,4,1,6,6,29,18,33,43,6,27,0,1,0,3,11,10,4,5,17,139,36,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08770988065046557,0.06184012585143196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695645966956841,0.0,0.07525692584153325,0.0,0.0,0.07821903210524238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07061308163558952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07739546815156581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07388125310718137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0584145619143853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415554617173545,0.189547179064763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752280181917039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635248821501463,0.3234480452810153,0.0,0.1507894734739629,0.0,0.282937947297824,0.0,0.0,0.08757066785499061,0.0,0.0,0.07922592109534388,0.08731735018302986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784204222550825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841957479321581,0.048604956789765695,0.0,0.0,0.09364643432398698,0.0,0.0,0.062468617349771126,0.216039453604828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09894305233926738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09823820768077192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557801055599967,0.06821128631014348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006908638104325,0.0928041356530129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24525589957929356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535454498764312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056657681308127275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08950719065011246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251982376001584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05157076031062142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10638384393282088,0.22915433713207164,0.0,0.0,0.20865958555682865,0.07020048803960767,0.0,0.21539504967953035,0.3180769503811438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017029864325741,0.0,0.0,0.193158685974558,0.0,0.09012911296640068,0.06282607314932412,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Toppo1213,2019/01/14,"Anyone know what I am ? * raw thoughts * The paragraph below will show what I think in my mind and all I want to know is what I am classified as. I've read what a schizophrenia, crazy etc is. Please read below and tell me what I'm classified as. WARNING very dark thoughts below. I will be completely honest with what I'm about to say. I see people on this Reddit saying they see stuff or hear stuff etc. I myself do not see stuff or hear voices. BUT my mind thinks very bad stuff. I enjoy watching bad stuff, and I have thoughts of doing this some time before I die. I like watching people get killed weather it's a suicide or murder or car crash. Idk why but I just seem to enjoy this. I also enjoy watching people suffer and also like watching cp. I also believe that the government is always watching and come up with thoughts on how I can do something illegal and not get caught. I feel like everyone is stuck in a bubble and I have to do these stuff in order to get out of it. I don't want a normal Life like everyone else. I will not be trapped inside the bubble. I feel like I need to make the most of my life by doing these stuff. I have no emotions towards other people. All I care about is me and that's all. I always find myself learning more and more bad stuff that I want to try. Buying from the deep web etc. Does anyone know of this is considered a schizophrenic? Or is this something else. I know I need help but I want to know what I am first",1.0716615822656088,3.376679885906043,2.464032946918856,93.48065182021558,84.03355704697988,4.8201749033963806,19.097417124262762,6.1124844417494595,-0.08664340044742769,1138,30,238,9,33,367,131,298,0.135,0.715,0.151,0.6303,0,1,2,0,0,1,28.0,0,0,1,1,7,16,2,0,10,0,25,3,0,2,3,57,60,23,4,7,12,0,2,5,0,3,3,5,0,0,28,13,0,0,16,3,1,3,5,6,0,1,6,15,37,10,31,49,10,18,0,1,8,0,7,12,0,8,7,168,65,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16507888437037496,0.1145087058031284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962252897960633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17235717815504534,0.0,0.0,0.05855113810457015,0.07752384516227409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0701550583908482,0.0,0.0,0.0592726047457466,0.07214461577280074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07141257004032246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06021495953677751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11496168374259885,0.07740052928114817,0.0,0.0,0.2302196772307312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13149932856501642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06958349523812445,0.09831390209517596,0.0,0.0,0.06288990780828986,0.058528647472930476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10784912175646601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15510481789840094,0.0,0.04612102307912277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612663481959142,0.0,0.18907731785089985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972032434423308,0.1680822826949856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045930343444749416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13895434939620074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10204156254727688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06741791929864245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19081316286377875,0.0,0.0,0.07553129283739267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13765464687658235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10943888453282513,0.0,0.0,0.1644948823788223,0.06264085877872806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10594460224917833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6301560191836445,0.07526555278735729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06014183913634734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08817967679462467,0.0,0.21850569614890306,0.040122907962823605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04671659249703744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354877212369174,0.16234062279538014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062089151791462724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,lobefinned,2019/01/14,"Service dogs. Just wondering if anyone here has a PSD that has helped them? I have bad panic attacks and agoraphobia as result of my sz, and it looks like something that could really help. The dogs I live with (roommate's dogs) are wonderful companions but tend to get stressed when I have a panic attack or get nervous and they are nearby.",4.913906250000005,6.785183828125002,5.25825,80.16175000000003,70.09375,8.245000000000001,28.425,8.841846274778883,2.3509412500000004,271,10,48,5,5,86,51,64,0.27699999999999997,0.642,0.08199999999999999,-0.9393,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,3,8,2,4,3,0,7,0,0,1,0,12,13,8,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,1,6,1,4,12,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,4,2,32,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14231736450973512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4631040156730573,0.0,0.0,0.169944369796809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16250723199417902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21267870855433146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27285228101778936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943759086463877,0.0,0.1797263463835616,0.0,0.17091929143670473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4776121588817991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13039061243790212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15669224387986272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331502276786481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4414530286367399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,mountainofsteaks,2019/01/14,"Was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia. It's nice to know that there are people who have similar issues and I'm not just fucked up and alone. Much love to everyone here.",3.17625,6.225134125000004,3.3862500000000004,85.03375000000003,82.75,8.200000000000001,23.625,8.841846274778883,2.353225,140,5,25,4,4,43,30,32,0.052000000000000005,0.675,0.273,0.8596,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,6,7,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,6,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,1,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3645259976157748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3572335428258658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363143235844001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3253827617844546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3673563934121575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19342885154501108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31765902108267524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587322207544072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24400580786160805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34751954856536665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chauhandev,2019/01/14,Super smash ultimate Does anyone wanna play super smash Bros ultimate with me? I can send you my friend code. Just private message me!! :),1.7650000000000006,3.2617054999999984,2.6866666666666674,82.92500000000003,119.0,4.933333333333334,20.666666666666668,6.42735559955562,1.3879666666666668,108,4,16,2,6,34,20,24,0.0,0.528,0.47200000000000003,0.9515,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5138525734487112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6431076899567622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5677746312390276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,intermaniax1,2018/12/25,"Please help finding a med that doesn't weight gain I was on risperidol then Geodon 80mg 2x day for about 2 years and got gained 100 lbs to 280lbs. 8 months ago, my doctor started tapering off the Geodon because I was doing better. During that time I lost 60 lbs. Eating healthy and working out. Losing it 2 lbs per week A couple weeks ago I relapsed and now I'm back to taking that high dose of Gedon. I am ALWAYS hungry. What do you recommend. I am supposed to see my doctor on Jan 10th but I'm Afraid I might gain another 20lbs by then. Please any recommendation will be helpful. Thanks",1.6690547588005202,4.110179686440682,2.650000000000002,92.23039765319427,82.64406779661017,4.986701434159062,20.09387222946545,6.297961479604792,0.09486492829204753,465,13,95,4,13,147,89,118,0.075,0.746,0.179,0.8846,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,7,3,5,0,1,3,0,10,5,0,0,0,7,18,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,2,10,2,11,11,0,18,0,2,1,0,3,5,0,1,13,47,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29321505869345943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13761704708208525,0.0,0.0,0.11247031405821536,0.17342497611991262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12717407080571752,0.0,0.10081970923975188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627328978901505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18299998227804165,0.0,0.10666233900464757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385656684062263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692344209274533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511627145401722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13227683609571886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22171376263620915,0.17474274951034036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18502818787067746,0.1805418275011998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837100950202108,0.0,0.0,0.1754517840902587,0.0,0.0,0.13201206583125513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3630953091180691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179376371032225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11706331308805948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124352080667569,0.0,0.0,0.15226813650686422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643976107254576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653304486716171,0.20139946553226146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12040529305283255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065052096325558 schizophrenia,green_rogue,2018/12/25,"I believe I have schizophrenia and need input I was living on the streets for a few weeks. I constantly thought I was being hunted, seeing and meeting famous people who were just random people. I thought snipers were hiding out to shoot me. I thought dogs were talking at me. Sometimes I would hear strangers talk with out their lips moving. I thought I was a spy working under cover. I thought strangers were smuggling dirty bombs on to the buses I was riding. Basically I thought everyone was out to get me and I was very delusional. I don't hear voices all the time though, I don't know if that disqualifies me. I need your input on this.",3.3426775956284125,5.8686767377049245,3.656967213114754,86.95189890710384,76.70491803278688,5.706010928961749,28.19945355191257,6.816661863887847,1.4640469945355192,510,22,93,5,12,158,72,122,0.099,0.9009999999999999,0.0,-0.8625,0,0,0,1,0,1,12.0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,5,0,15,1,1,0,1,21,28,5,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,7,0,0,7,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,16,4,23,0,13,10,2,14,0,0,1,0,8,9,0,2,3,67,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16686509075345374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600503025595695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14152192366805993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07737943274916663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3338531449354567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08139535322730249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078058285921446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15741356583793278,0.0,0.21963790056380766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20535653044279412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802155160202805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14648092507775154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380844794266608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455136950344433,0.7054791865982519,0.08636197887881751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12220321454452004,0.0,0.0,0.1188019461539738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10782315571794546,0.0,0.0,0.10521047139271067,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bonka112112,2018/12/25,"Buspirone too hot and causes brain pause, too much to swallow? Cocaine hand cream?? If we cant keep the body from tightening up we wont be able to hear the TV.",1.768181818181816,3.603428848484853,2.645454545454548,95.68818181818185,78.69696969696969,5.612121212121212,23.12121212121212,6.42735559955562,0.3481393939393942,124,4,28,1,3,39,28,33,0.0,0.889,0.111,0.5775,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,4,3,1,0,6,5,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,4,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,0,16,2,0,0.3743443297804128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4158121604977672,0.0,0.417892075137861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38455474457592737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42191326617971053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327344403918144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27518615499923466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,DonnyBlanco,2018/12/25,"Is it common for schizophrenics to associate certain recurring auditory hallucinations with certain colors? I saw a post about someone describing his schizophrenia and that the destructive voice for him is blue, the whispering voices are purple, etc.. I found it very interesting and was wondering how common this is, and what the name for this is?",11.619999999999996,12.041225736842108,10.244561403508772,55.455263157894755,54.78947368421053,13.915789473684216,43.561403508771924,13.023866798666859,6.3626771929824555,285,14,38,9,3,89,43,57,0.065,0.812,0.12300000000000001,0.3722,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,4,0,6,1,0,1,2,10,9,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,6,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,7,4,3,6,6,1,4,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,1,3,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4576753495494004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4499537738340648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3930247357126408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34770845370562553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386014258060047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4450329635084462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,clammytheham,2019/08/31,"I still think about him My ex and I broke up 4 years ago. He had paranoid schizophrenia and I watched him descend into madness. I did everything, and I mean EVERYTHING I could do help him, but he always thought I was working against him, poisoning him or trying to hurt him. I’ve been in a new relationship for 3 years now. And I still think about him. Not in a loving way, but god my heart breaks for him. The last time I saw him he looked emaciated, sick and tired. I cried. I have diagnosed OCD, but I’ll never know what it’s like to be convinced that the people you love are trying to hurt you. Ryan, wherever you are, I hope you’re ok.",1.4417439812096262,3.52569566412214,2.7522137404580143,93.27867880211392,80.90839694656488,6.168173810921902,22.290663534938346,7.321109707123232,0.6571897827363475,496,16,111,7,13,160,84,131,0.23199999999999998,0.613,0.155,-0.9173,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,3,0,1,5,11,2,0,4,1,10,7,1,0,1,19,20,9,0,2,5,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,6,3,26,6,12,12,0,16,0,3,3,2,20,4,0,2,11,69,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14842023456170955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393185909252111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336825111949159,0.0,0.1839185058052732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699420954066933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009579605509697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984102244321502,0.11222755339597908,0.0,0.0,0.16629984871354556,0.0,0.0,0.3584833516581662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201740711031932,0.13648114535105613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179984786420888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14060248156668387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30223163950728577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18238482886778354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12913550626261716,0.1617089050893789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11607772873561813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17976157178755364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267426190253162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21457003173870495,0.0,0.13292397937382774,0.09763217498611884,0.19244087687338216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273535376674123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329014017073221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189402493175165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21564415233166995 schizophrenia,winningwriters,2019/08/31,"Creating opportunities for poets with Schizophrenia to be heard Dear poets of /r/schizophrenia, I'm from a writers’ resources company called Winning Writers. Part of our mission is to find and promote voices and themes underrepresented in publishing, including (but of course not limited to) racial, cultural, national, religious, gender/sexual identity, body positive, and [dis]abled. We are interested primarily in the representation of the voices/themes in the poetry, rather than the identity of the writer. The [Tom Howard/Margaret Reid Poetry Contest](https://winningwriters.com/our-contests/tom-howard-margaret-reid-poetry-contest) we are running right now offers two first prizes of $2,000 each. Ten honorable mentions will receive $100 each, and the top twelve entries will all be published on our site. The contest is international and the deadline is September 30. I’m posting here specifically because our long term goal is to change the composition of our entry pool to include more entries featuring diverse characters and themes. These voices need to be heard, and we are actively reaching out to find them. Sometimes when I post, there are some replies worried about a scam, so in order to head that off I just want to say that our competitions are listed by The Write Life as some of the [top writing competitions](https://thewritelife.com/writing-contests/) out there, and we’re in Writer’s Digest’s [top eight](https://www.writersdigest.com/online-editor/top-websites-for-writers-best-publishing-marketing-resources) sites for writers. Besides contests, we also offer a lot of free publishing and style resources, including a database of free poetry and prose competitions, at https://winningwriters.com/ I know this isn't a poetry sub per se, but there are a lot of talented people here and I just wanted to reach out in case anyone was looking for an opportunity like this. Thanks for listening, and have a good day.",12.262499999999996,12.502782980891721,10.665660828025477,53.54938296178344,53.5859872611465,13.582484076433122,44.4657643312102,12.709666756460704,6.203879617834394,1592,78,211,45,16,495,183,314,0.013000000000000001,0.823,0.16399999999999998,0.9883,0,0,0,0,0,0,93.0,9,0,1,12,13,13,0,0,20,0,18,4,2,0,1,42,29,18,0,4,6,0,0,1,0,2,2,6,0,0,5,22,1,1,3,1,2,2,2,0,0,3,3,7,14,15,43,21,10,30,0,0,1,0,22,19,0,4,7,139,19,5,0.17934403211546202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14342135768752085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254015172115789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093264573664622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18821049705768408,0.0,0.0,0.19921078946235235,0.0,0.0,0.183130308654764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18972220580813545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11566206395287792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278343925248856,0.15254994209947073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504252652184787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184058717704982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09856278979902358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12667599371629454,0.08761843507463887,0.0,0.0,0.1587138247946188,0.15060381802829587,0.0,0.0,0.3049437654025716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13298132735363558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19421210983269946,0.0,0.1243345703492851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3435240149944064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15315882350746135,0.0,0.14262157268057948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17737583357721884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651158891412937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17519305966971258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21156351357069292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18213257017973794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,surrrah,2019/08/31,"What were your first symptoms that lead you to believe you had schizophrenia? I’m pretty paranoid I may develop it. Two of my uncles had it and ended their lives because of it and I’m not sure how much genetics play a role but it worries me a bit. I’m 26 and have dealt with depression and anxiety most my teenage life and has continued into adulthood. About a year ago I developed dpdr which has been hell. But last night I think I hallucinated and it’s kinda freaking me out. I woke up from a bad dream (and I definitely woke up, it wasn’t some sleep paralysis thing) and i saw what I was dreaming about and it scared the shit out of me. It was probably just a one time thing but still, freaked me out.",2.350069930069932,4.32984400699301,3.6356643356643374,88.58888111888115,77.46153846153845,7.197202797202798,25.685314685314694,8.139509932561175,1.5237104895104898,555,21,118,10,13,181,92,143,0.217,0.687,0.096,-0.9661,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,1,2,5,9,2,1,6,0,11,4,2,2,1,27,18,13,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,14,14,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,7,0,3,10,1,18,2,14,7,4,16,1,1,1,0,5,6,2,4,9,85,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818868237088801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15696829466002546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713234488940837,0.12508072922709235,0.0,0.0,0.23117666464899014,0.0,0.0,0.2240122045558552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767281645869842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817357069844129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17453284832410534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672556447398169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14493038603171046,0.0,0.0,0.1811848051005139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508368241008195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19255508269408614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390407312473802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20875001067153032,0.22122741948262206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20542903082231834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106225820560381,0.0,0.0,0.2053362317845236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16386343973028294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19338730640254367,0.2132689463805614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27263564255959155,0.13147621566330284,0.0,0.0,0.11964680053535005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20043890735030293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20837842223061695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213437519091584 schizophrenia,hy777888,2019/08/31,"I think I had my first hallucination last night, help? So last night I was walking home from work and it was quite dark out, the street lamps were on, not pitch black but getting there. I was feeling pretty good then all of a sudden I saw a dark shadow fly across my vision multiple times (like how a bat would fly, it wasn't too close to me but not too far either), at first I was like ""shit is that a bat?"" but I tried to track it with my eyes and I couldn't at it just disappeared. And I realised it couldn't have been a bat. The same thing happened 2 more times but it was with smaller things, like the size of butterflies. I couldn't track their movements and it seemed as though they just disappeared, I couldn't make out their structure they looked like shadows. It scared me quite a lot and set off my anxiety quite badly, so I am just hoping someone could let me know what they think of the situation",3.8725752508361206,4.8612572608695634,3.910434782608697,92.23623745819398,71.5,7.183277591973244,23.392976588628763,7.321109707123232,0.5825013377926425,712,17,160,7,13,218,103,184,0.10400000000000001,0.7490000000000001,0.147,0.8109,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,5,6,10,9,1,1,10,0,19,2,2,2,1,37,30,15,0,7,10,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,12,10,0,0,5,0,0,4,7,3,0,2,10,5,24,6,16,13,5,25,0,0,4,0,6,10,1,3,14,110,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11303623605743685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12337369054884477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797458766048292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07471205464758371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513696958442473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07719866567772203,0.0,0.0,0.12393434125528398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13066395801394706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990406240703458,0.0,0.14821564295556275,0.14675933227627286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08120520451324052,0.2408887550405865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15109493251378828,0.0,0.28875290376314505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12408144968704796,0.0,0.0,0.1256205353209208,0.0,0.0,0.09863115722149808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773260909613613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15032536050905287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4714838475362787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14793385168244194,0.0,0.0,0.1345154407157099,0.0,0.0,0.15167383933091985,0.0,0.16608878426952714,0.0,0.0,0.12519683486774116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963307744203021,0.18935768630020444,0.14517375865119625,0.0,0.1723204551355186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10031955421736984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10757126868025896,0.0,0.0,0.10496468787991836,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,csegovia13,2019/08/31,"Just a worried sister reaching out to anyone who will talk to me Hey everyone. I've been a follower for a while now. I wanted a way to try and better understand what my little brother is going through. He had another episode today and it was really rough on everyone especially him. Poor kid had to spend his morning in the ER just to be released with a ""he's fine, go get him help but no, we don't have anyone to refer you to."" We always get stuck in this cycle. He's still in the early stages of his diagnosis, it does look a lot like paranoid Schizophrenia. I guess I just want someone to talk to. I want to know your experiences and maybe any advice on what I could be doing if I'm not doing it already. Thanks.",2.719086757990865,4.320217917808222,4.5919863013698645,83.81049086757994,75.3013698630137,7.3324200913242015,25.180365296803647,8.07648339933343,1.5090611872146122,560,19,113,9,12,191,101,146,0.08,0.8059999999999999,0.114,0.4608,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,2,2,0,1,5,4,0,0,8,0,13,0,0,0,0,22,28,6,0,5,6,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,7,0,0,3,0,2,3,3,0,1,0,5,2,15,4,20,19,1,17,0,0,1,0,19,7,0,3,6,77,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16848117710266958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19026337546891364,0.0,0.14346244010131184,0.0,0.0,0.11724757968486385,0.18079133927233665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411120582802353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15248636356992545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13765872255475878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15088084290464232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32949834539315864,0.0,0.16865418761750345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18015862417270034,0.0,0.1959739452646357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18993369783510286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11556561511184425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475434447172083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423287729643471,0.17280433996368086,0.0,0.0,0.14478451838982825,0.0,0.0,0.1465804014394139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17321325471128152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045296213018503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14608600629646634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376902161654494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771600328825281,0.0,0.1587358461479304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634285175572619,0.0,0.0,0.1170579355663371,0.0,0.0,0.17948928008860202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30508311630689483,0.13685437998760888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17509500623430735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BamboozledOwl,2019/08/31,"A poem I wrote when I was 11 I'm schizoaffective. I was living with my grandmother and looking around at all her what - nots that freaked me out. I wrote this: (I still have the paper I typed out on) Pig man, pig man, looking at me Spawned from Satan I can see You laugh at me when I turn away I hope to see you dead one day. Pepperman with strawberry head Eyes of blue and face of red You glare at me when I'm asleep I'll shatter you you little creep. Look at sweet little Mr. Racoon Comes out to kill by light of moon Your innocent looks are only lies I can see it in your eyes. Ceramic clown with waving arm I won't believe he means no harm At night I've heard him creeping 'round I've seen his tracks upon the ground. He's the leader of them all They're a vicious pack, no matter how small They'll stalk and sneak and laugh all night Giving me such a fright Go ahead and laugh, don't believe it's true But don't come to me when they come for you.",0.6423973727421988,2.659276852216749,1.7819704433497563,99.50412151067327,83.43349753694581,5.048932676518883,17.05582922824302,6.1826913282559595,-0.5957284072249589,743,15,178,6,21,234,123,203,0.138,0.755,0.107,-0.7738,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,8,3,1,8,11,2,1,6,0,10,6,6,1,4,27,31,11,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,5,15,0,0,1,0,0,4,6,5,0,1,6,16,32,6,28,23,3,31,1,0,13,0,23,18,0,1,9,100,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12887124167132188,0.0,0.0,0.1360111659442226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262004029499363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741058156651621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09336123134348112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887145553661798,0.08227309390102397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485703085104918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14378397421206315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16016065058043452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901844460831381,0.12782984935337738,0.0,0.4862634269393532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15769115686790713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717036585861287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09809628196733164,0.11010004930968832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460760802231613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11560924661219778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15746238277078206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bigballsblues,2019/08/31,"Help. The date is Friday, August 30th and I think i may be developing Schizophrenia or some other related disease. I dont know where to start but ill just say some of my symptoms. Theres 2 voices in my head and theyre talking to eachother Im noticing things i havent before like the way food feels in my mouth and the way air feels in my lungs normal things that dont feel normal. I feel like im living in a dream. I ride my bike to the music store everyday where i live and its hard to focus on what im doing because i feel detached. Im not remembering things. Im overthinking alot of things. I cant focus on what im saying to someone without drifting off. Its exteremely hard to type. Its like my fingers are moving faster than my head and letters are coming out that arent related to the word in any way. Things feel different. My guitars dont feel the same. I think i see things but when i look theyre gone. I dont know if i make sense when im talking. Words feel different when i say them. I see things in my head like memories when i know that they didnt happen. I dont know whats happening to me. Whether its Schizophrenia or something else. Its been building the last few weeks up until tonight when i really just feel detached. If someone could give me a clue as to what is happening that would mean the world to me. Thank you.",1.4255087358684513,3.554155769784174,2.841135662898253,92.37692446043171,81.23021582733813,5.841932168550874,22.15878725590956,7.021680442328713,0.5943017471736898,1056,34,228,13,28,343,134,278,0.083,0.887,0.03,-0.8875,3,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,2,0,10,5,0,0,11,0,19,9,6,1,0,47,47,19,0,6,11,0,12,4,0,2,2,4,0,0,21,7,1,0,17,3,1,5,11,0,0,0,3,19,34,5,27,40,5,37,0,0,3,0,11,15,0,8,18,139,55,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04651358372140081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0416953222346581,0.0,0.05820240884404565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05891957844614796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05461093980568077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14292454273975505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4008148882408229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05713848727104717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3112607587808629,0.04886417335370527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270819688455658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065614438021011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814547103925632,0.0,0.12254392267754527,0.0,0.21059095107461465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045846327303879414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.517177691988731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503609420816321,0.055754216065776255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366495072232148,0.0,0.12079492787372302,0.0,0.05743783228437387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045656783353116064,0.0,0.0,0.07450643185663551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269718453620927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13403275937784678,0.0,0.07787257792983901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04381807381549141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07748259718180596,0.0,0.0,0.16318060350013808,0.0,0.0,0.10901010304151118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11590829768357215,0.05265679929153398,0.0,0.0,0.04841307912777433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07109262551419039,0.0,0.10995285726458316,0.0,0.06297249878619303,0.0,0.0,0.3180882349980381,0.08765448062462096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16287554109782146,0.05486545557139672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0659340792505983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04858860170826747,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,blrghhh,2019/06/01,"Quitting nicotine? I've been considering quitting nicotine, some months ago I quit for about 12 days but I had too much stress and gave in. Also I've heard that nicotine can help with psychotic symptoms but I'm not sure if that is true? I'm considering giving it another go but would like to read opinions/experiences on it from you guys.",2.9948571428571427,5.708247738461537,3.825274725274728,84.17615384615384,79.30769230769229,6.791208791208793,27.747252747252745,7.957251820313856,1.9948021978021973,273,12,51,5,7,87,50,65,0.085,0.721,0.19399999999999998,0.8324,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,3,3,4,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,11,11,6,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,1,3,3,7,6,2,6,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,2,4,29,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850194128357816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16691486595129199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21886316068310047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13460838895701085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20417011518900485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20022511092560213,0.11862149272412087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066675431743752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13990192169307675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019710005619187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16659986711577573,0.0,0.1534346472167526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6660044495551681,0.20877843055408268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390902855841957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19671796533079566,0.2169420215869699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14827008292965116,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jonnyhalo000000,2019/06/01,Invega Hey has anyone full recoverd from invega... I'm 8 months off sex drive has returned somewhat and im regaining intrestrests in hobbies and activities I always have considered fun.. However I still can't cry or get excited or strong motivation to do things... Has anyone fully snapped back to them self,5.307818181818182,8.022225963636366,6.507272727272728,68.00090909090912,71.18181818181819,10.945454545454542,32.81818181818181,10.793553405168565,4.70110909090909,248,12,38,9,5,83,45,55,0.0,0.809,0.191,0.8643,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,0,6,8,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,5,8,2,8,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,3,4,23,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822613554836065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4743863017076845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26084214397202315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726213881604925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17723042151359253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36641988813563386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707651808536143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3538843793234289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709045449404367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253652028900388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Kronolord51,2019/06/01,"Schizophrenic s/o advice My Ex-girlfriend of two years, whom we broke up things with because of deliriums and psychotic ideas, had a breakdown.She was interned in a psych hospital for a week. When she came out, now medicated and with a clearer, non distorted view of reality, the possibility of coming back together comes up. What can I expect ? for now most, if not all the negative symptoms have ceased aside from Avolition, If she takes her medications everyday, How well do they work? do they lose effectiveness overtime? What would be an average prognosis for a schizo patient, who is fully aware and cooperating? How can I help ? How do Schizo patients fair in everyday to day activities, like a job, driving etc.. ? While I understand each patient and case is different I would like to hear from real life everyday people directly, like common redditors.",5.8796307692307685,8.525483640000001,6.6099999999999985,68.22346153846154,69.26666666666667,11.015384615384617,34.871794871794876,10.891193690592663,4.822164102564104,686,35,108,24,13,225,109,150,0.053,0.826,0.121,0.8540000000000001,2,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,0,2,3,8,6,0,0,9,0,13,5,0,4,1,27,19,11,0,5,3,0,0,3,0,2,5,1,0,0,5,12,0,0,3,0,0,4,2,2,1,1,3,2,11,4,18,13,4,21,0,2,1,0,10,5,0,3,15,78,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17149163322779945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13494478325586087,0.0,0.1069800921294844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20071946946384506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023467186522862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317972388046114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18335486968792344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957232583205452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19779556230025108,0.0,0.11763056515463655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19811243629555805,0.0,0.0,0.17415165773744262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12395727260179598,0.25721390271816064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19633395825299585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535853965696891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12166610088041503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978441865897799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19975167289064685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18240644800469155,0.1319503611607752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11659104619486353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17143306492671187,0.18269643124892784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14077146253291895,0.0,0.15779103540094536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12776241313132847,0.0,0.0,0.24933315339016954,0.0,0.0,0.11301299343827495 schizophrenia,longleaf1,2019/06/01,A new episode of hotones came out that I saw last year Every part of the interview went just like it had before. Do y'all get stuff like this?,3.654,4.1781544,4.026666666666667,92.91,71.66666666666666,7.333333333333332,25.0,7.1686216300943375,0.7410000000000001,112,3,26,1,2,35,28,30,0.0,0.833,0.16699999999999998,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,2,2,3,2,1,6,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,5,15,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786675984876977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37455826356555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27592220116479754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710986141448197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26694588428883514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31998753625105697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3162893054233115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3546368665597929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748946438599782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303584037215251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21089110436399355 schizophrenia,MentallyUnchallenged,2019/02/09,"How did you come to accept your condition was real? What made you realize that you were having delusions and needed to get help? I am trying to help someone in my life but they are extremely defensive if I suggest they need help. Is there a way for me to help them realize the problem and help them understand that there is treatment that can help them? See my other post for more info on the situation.",4.453461538461539,6.121099730769231,5.364615384615386,79.75538461538463,70.92307692307692,8.78974358974359,28.384615384615394,9.2995712137729,2.557061538461539,321,12,59,7,6,105,55,78,0.039,0.722,0.239,0.9458,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,4,5,0,3,3,1,0,3,0,9,1,0,2,0,17,16,5,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,1,14,1,8,12,1,5,0,0,1,0,16,2,0,1,0,47,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607888788709563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975208217963112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7506753879048116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13184168810157235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17661980718125808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768082912940415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17876625519799086,0.0,0.0,0.1786059859801412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21245706042288645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487418334948892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098108120253261,0.0,0.0,0.15815426491396647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12672816665457926,0.0,0.0,0.19431700456470444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14816000803850074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,CentAtMoney,2019/02/09,"Unsure in myself sorry if this doesn’t belong but i’m lost I don’t really want to tell other people because i’m afraid they won’t understand or understand very easily so here’s a bunch of things i can’t get out of my head in a schizophrenic way i think. do people trust their thoughts? i believe a lie about time but i’m unsure if it’s a lie and i just don’t want to stop thinking because if i stop thinking then my understanding of time will disappear. My belief of time includes the facts i believe but i believe everything said to me. However i understand that people can lie to me but i don’t know when they are. it’s hard to think of time is a difficult thing to keep on my mind i feel it relates to just about everything and the constant reassurance really messes with what i think about myself. before the meaning of time as in before the meaning i constructed of time. i don’t even remember actually not as in don’t remember what i was like but as in i don’t remember what i felt before i understood time. for some unknown reason i suddenly believed that time exists because i think time exists. If i didn’t understand that time could exist then i wouldn’t exist. I also think that reality and time are separate. The understanding we have of time comes from how reality changes. How could reality exist if things didn’t change? The separation of everything reality is and ourselves results in our own existence? are thinking and believing the same thing can someone tell me how they think because i don’t trust myself. im a little ... am i? ... isolated and i blame that ... i’m stuck in a loop thinking about my own thinking. ... isolation on why i feel like i don’t know what others think but talking to people is hard and i just need some answers before i can start. i feel like i need to know what someone else already is before i can talk to them and i don’t know what they are not as in i don’t know they are a human being on the planet earth but i don’t know if they know that they are what i think. Not that people are only what i think but are people not as in are people ... taking a break from the thought ... just a figment of my imagination ... hopefully theirs some meaning in what i just wrote ... i feel like i don’t care about my thoughts and i’m always just looking for the right way to think. do people think about their thinking? do people trust their own thoughts do people give reasons for why things work in their mind before they trust their thought. are those reasons valid? do people think that the border between thoughts and reality is yourself or are you something else. do people think that time is the result of ( thinking and acting in reality ) or just an element to describe reality are thoughts a piece of reality? i think i know what reality is but i only think that so do they exist in time together or are they separate elements to be treated differently. i don’t trust the answers i think of. i want and don’t want the answers at the same time. i don’t want to waste time thinking if it doesn’t matter but i don’t know if thinking matters. 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I'm sweating bullets after typing this. So scared and shaky. My baggage, before this is deleted for a baggageless rant, is that no one ever gets to match my face to this. I want to have someone hold me and tell ME, the FULL ME, it's ok, too. Just like Hitler did wanted in the alone and darkness, just like all breathing things to. The wolf that killed ten fawns still longs for life as the hunter guts it alive. I never started out liking this shit or being like this, and keep in mind that I'm not even kind of the only one JUST. LIKE. ME: &#x200B; My life is about 90% lies. I'm a pathological sociopath. I don't know if I enjoy or hate my life, I just know I am not happy ever. There's ALWAYS lingering fear. It's gripped me like a vice since I was a kid, and I'm tweaking now just imagining it. I barely fear death anymore. I'm sure that's until I'm about to die, but I know my basic instincts are sound in that I don't remember before my life, and I fucking won't after either. I have this non-physical (I consider it non-physical because here, it would just be social and not physical) anxiety of someone running up and saying, ""YOU MOTHER FUCKER, <my name>! I JUST FOUND YOU BULLSHITTED <insert, like, 20934 lies that I've built 23835498 lies on top of>!"" Even then, not only COULD I not stop, I wouldn't. I'd dig a deeper hole I think. I don't think I'd do much. I have SO many lies in place as nets to catch me when I finally fall that government officials are invoked some lol. I'm an extremely capable person with specialized combat type training, so for this please just trust that no one would find me really besides authorities of a federal level that wouldn't care because the laws I've broken are quite minor for the most part...that people know about or that I fear them finding is best to say. I could ghost my family, and they'd be fucked since I do everything and make the money and my spouse is completely dependent due to zero skills but anxiety. I live in this weird tragic comedy that's not COMPLETELY of my own making in my head, but that I just wish I could end anytime like I ""CAN."" Make no mistake, I've lied nonstop for all of my life. I ""could"" stop. And I could walk right up to a police officer and say, ""I love <insert insanely awkward sex fetish that will never let me live how I want due to judgement ((fyi it's not just being queer persay, for those calculating or trying to help or something))> and I would kill my spouse or yours so I'd survive just a little better without blinking!"" , and that cop would cock an eyebrow at best, say, ""...um...what? Are you ok?"" or probably pinch their brow, say, ""Alright, then...person, look, get out of here, quit shouting please."" No one with ANY POWER to do anything would ever even blink at my depravity. No one gives a shit that I can't communicate normally due to having keep up my lies/wanting to keep them going. No one actually cares or is legally allowed to do anything about the fact that I'm interested in torture if it's on someone that tortures (which I logically can reason everyone totures. Non-bread winner tortures breadwinning spouse, child tortures parent, slacker tortures boss, boss tortures spouse, and over and over and U, S, A! U, S, A.!).... I've gained a significant amount from my lies. I've done some atrocities. I don't think anything that's resulted directly in death before, or even SERIOUS dismemberment, but I've watch mothers drag kids away while leaving toys or a wallet laying somewhere, and just internally smile because she was saying racist shit earlier and I don't like her now so fuck her stuff. I find faults with all people. I understand I'm more riddled with them than most, but I don't care. One of the most entertaining (horrifying and traumatizing) things is my rambling, but also my secret-and-only-used-when-I-want-something-talent of active listening. I can't stop rambling when engaged. Imagine a person trained to be alone, who's spouse isn't who the person thought so now the person doesn't talk to spouse about honest thoughts due to fragility of their mind, and is now truly alone due to NO ONE KNOW ALLLLL of this at once or even close to in a few pieces. Then make sure you drop that person in a world where no one can talk with them because they'd either hit the loner in the face or vomit and run away. Right there. That's me. If you'll talk, I can't hold it back. I will have great convo, but it WILL turn to me just blaaaabbing...until you start to talk too much. Then, I'll tune in from thinking about what I will say next about whatever you say to hear you telling me, ""....so yeah, I'll do that. Selling drugs seriously is still the most logical way to make real money and retire."" Right there, I know you're a 20 year old, working at <some store> and are a moron not at least TRYING to be more intellectual and improve, now wasting my time SO IN THAT CASE MOVE OR DIE. I CAN'T TALK TO YOU ABOUT ANYTHING BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT DEVELOPED OR TRYING TO AND WON'T BE OPEN. I'd like to know some day if I have a serious mental disability, some legendarily lame but just me shit, but three 4-hour psychiatric testing appointments only detected OCD. I didn't tell those shrinks and testers all of this, obviously. Just told them the rambling was coming from stress. The rambling TRULY became fully out of control during a time (for a few years past) where I would have to lie just to not be in suicide inducing conditions of retaliation-based ostracizing and physical labor punishments at a job I had for those years. I also remember my first lie, btw. Or so I believe. It was in the basement of my childhood church, hilariously enough. I know it may not be the FIRST lie, but I was about 4, so it's one of my earliest, most vivid memories honestly. A friend told me and another kid his family got a golden retriever. I think my dog had just died, so I said I had 1000 golden retrievers. I did not (-\_-), so he told me so, it became nuh-uh, yus-huh, and so on. I think my little mind realized only one thing from that conversation, and not to ""just tell the truth."" It just heard, ""Improve,"" I guess. By fourth grade, my teacher told me she was catching me blaming everyone for my problems. I was a fucked kid for some reason, and I remember directly thinking, ""Fine, I'll make it their fault."" I combined a stupid work ethic that eventually got like, what 2060 SATs (not that smart) and a vicious urge to move through life completely untouched to now outwork/improve beyond people just so I can say they're fucked in my head to myself, and move on. If I see a chance to take advantage of someone I know is a lying, evil acting, close minded, cruel, etc etc, sack of shit, then I do. And all people are something, so if they're not OVERLY a good person, hey fuck that. I don't have time in my 60 years left. Fuck you. Dude at work that is sexually harassing girls, and insulting college kids due to their degrees being new types of degrees that let 22 y/o's make the 100k a year some deserve finally and almost shouting stubbornly that they'll never work out and get anywhere, AND that is blatantly inappropriate with me just because of my general demeanor and known violent off hour hobbies???? Oh yeah. I'm taking your half done work, finishing it myself, and turning it in EVERYTIMEEE. Even if I was only 45% done and you're just 46%? My fucked morals say, even if it's going to be harder for me to modify this for me and turn it in than finishing, fuck that guy. There's a lot of Good Will Hunting, ""Cause fuck him, that's why,"" in my life. Literally constantly sign myself up for an asswhooping just because I'm already getting beat, might as well get a swing in on the way down, even if it becomes a murder. I have taken weapons places they shouldn't go, stalked others out of paranoia, and many other crazy things. I smoke pot and drive constantly, and don't mind drinking and driving. If you logically hate me enough now, dip. I would. Here's the part where you know I'm going to die so since I have a race car and definitely drive INSANELY recklessly, so...you know. I'll only be a problem for so much longer. I feel superhuman somewhat much of the time, but only because I've performed MANY socially described ""super-human"" level acts. I have learned certain martial arts in a time that's INSANE comparatively to others, have survived insane bodily harm as a kid and young adult, and have surpassed many hundreds of people in my mentioned training time during rigorous and recorded testing. I have an INSANE amount of stamina in the physical endurance and pain tolerance realms. My anger is so violent in my mind that 90% of what I do is just echo chamber evil thoughts specifically about ""evil"" people, blast rage music like rap or metal, and focus on the evils in our world. This started around 8 years ago. I live an insanely mentally taxing lifestyle due to how I feel or lack of. It's like instead of feeling, I just have anxiety, worry, upset, sadness, and anger. That's all though. And even those pass QUICKLY. I imagine violence and carnage like I've seen before only worse. I imagine it happening to people that deserve it imo: Trump, Hillary, those at the peaks of our society just letting us wallow in our own stupidity, all of us smart or stupid stuck down in the mire. My friend (I have 3-5 depending on how many years have passed) told me that I have a ""Voice"" I ""use"" with people I encounter. She told me it's a voice that's creepy as fuck. She says I talk like a child. Well, I explained, that is because about 98% of the people I meet I could pull out my pistol and shoot in the face or take out my knife and gut and THEY NOR ANYONE ELSE WOULD DO SHIT. I treat people that I'll never see again like sheep or babies, because they essentially are TO ME, and why else should I really care? No one seems to care about me? People cut my hours, take my money for disobedience, not worry about my health, disregard my personal and family needs, disrespect my values and beli...see where I'm going? Don't gotta follow, just wondering. I'm starting to suppose that if it's that kind of society that propagates this, then fuck you all. I care about transgenders and gays getting justice. I just don't fucking want to hear Kardashian or Jenner. I don't even want them murdered. I want them replaced with education shit on black holes or sustainable filtration building, or videos about peace talks and how Australia is improving wind energy. We should be hearing about how many kids a day SURVIVE CANCER, how many CURES DOCTORS MAKE YEARLY. Stop this trash, and if not, Idc. I'll just keep brutally abusing anyone and anything I meet. BLM, feminism? All causes I'll get behind and endorse, but our world's media is too much and evil. Dude, if you're tearing down statues of racists, burn america. Otherwise, stop doing that fucking pathetic shit. You deserve rape or beating to death. Just like the sweat shop owners. You are PLUNGING us into chaos. I will not forgive or suggest a lesser punishment. You are evil, and doing out of selfishness and fear. If you wanted me to kill Taliban doing that girls in Afghanistan, then don't even dare be surprised that I feel this way about Zuckerburg, too. I've always found meeting other liars interesting since I'm like this, too. I wonder how foolish I look sometimes. For instance, I know people can tell I'm lying. Look, I know many can. Here's the thing, all you cuties out there with your little minds thinking, ""Omg, he's so full of shit, what a liar he's just saying this because he's cruel."" LOOK AT HOW YOU THINK INSIDE. I JUST LET IT OUT. Those are the thoughts I have when I know someone is onto me for SURE. I usually will relinquish whatever falsehoods I've put out that I can possibly relinquish, then either feign complete ignorance relying that everyone thinks I'm the ultimate in kindness and ""wouldn't heart a fly,"" and, ""is probably pretty autistic which is why he's so weird,"" or just attack that person as a stupid person which literally will ALWAYS WORKS with how I can dominate a conversation if no one knows how or is assertive enough to stop me. I just use someone's sexism/racism/misinformation to guide them into being wrong loudly or evil enough to be framed. Even more interesting is when I meet that liar and the shoe is on the other foot. Sometimes, I'll get caught lying. I'm done for. So I'll leave the bar, disengage that person, and just avoid the place. But sometimes I'll come back. FUN FACT: MOST OF THE PEOPLE THAT CAN CATCH ME LYING OR SAY THEY KNEW I WAS WHEN I UNVEIL I WAS LYING (JUST TO CATCH THEM IN A LIE)....ARE LIARS!!!!! THEY THEMSELVES LIE AND KNOW WHAT TO CATCH PEOPLE IN!!! So, as I said, I'll go back, and find that person again. And I wait. Active listening is a HUGE skill that I find most liars have. It helps us lie. We don't care, and I find that advantage in lying is the only reason I listen actively or even half-attentively. AND EVERY TIME, WITHOUT FUCKING FAIL, THEY WILL START TO LIE AS WELL. I don't know if I AFFECTED THEM, I don't know if you're ALLLL just like me and hiding it. I don't know, and am too paranoid to care. But dude. Watching you not liars try to lie is literally the same as watching a kid try to tie his shoes the first time. OMFG it is just PRECIOUS. You leave lose ends, talk about stuff you didn't just read enough articles and watch videos about but you just saw half a netflix doc, you give away a million body language cues, you haven't mastered ANY nonverbal tells I mean. Dude, if you've ever caught a kid lying, adults that really don't lie well sound just the same to a sociopath. Dunno. Been looking for a place to say all this shit. It's horribly sad for me, even if you hate me. This is probably more of a pity hitler moment, which is fine. If I meet you, I'll guarantee I'll do something to deserve that hatred. Another thing I'm really interested in is buying some audio surveillance gear for my home, car, and some sort of voice magnification tech but unnoticeable so I can fully eavesdrop. Btw, there is lots of bipolar level happiness in my life, just more of an 89-11 % blend. Probably less, but that's for another time. This is all true as best I can prove it to me in my mind. No one will ever have been able to track all I've lied about. I kinda can, but fuck it's getting hard not that my middle years are around. &#x200B; Please, god, read this and respond. I'd love to talk. I don't talk to many people if I can help it. I've read many articles where sociopaths like me know we hurt people, and honestly would LOVE to pretend the world is ok and we're not just doing what is logical and we're evil. So we stay away when we can...but then I just hear some fucking straight white n3\*45r say, ""DUDE THAT FUCKING TRASH FUCKING MUSIC DURING THE SUPER BOWL HALFTIME WAS FUCKING GROSSS!! GROSSSSS!! DUDE! WTF HAPPENED TO BON JOVI, MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN?>!?>!?>!!?"" and I debate testing good ol' Dooku's words about how it sounds when you knife someone in the back into the lungs. NCD's are no joke kids. Saves live ER'DAY.",3.8793842085057366,5.661924170558379,4.598216738472041,84.20984995521053,72.60744500846023,7.578907705214068,26.696846251190834,8.273504527365288,1.7541035561432703,11984,422,2316,193,238,3843,933,2955,0.226,0.654,0.12,-0.9999,4,4,7,3,0,1,537.0,13,32,23,33,175,202,82,10,111,7,204,74,27,35,33,499,397,227,14,56,139,9,7,20,2,32,17,35,1,28,148,127,2,18,75,16,7,34,73,115,4,23,49,58,291,87,273,287,71,266,2,8,16,29,196,122,33,83,125,1473,439,27,0.01843420901448348,0.02184152329799761,0.017989128831516557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.01634081403481391,0.0,0.01845919751203003,0.057276843217345386,0.02034260804312828,0.029483660577572318,0.04601621590123498,0.03994691553092335,0.04479916335464433,0.025071788531622376,0.0579896263799377,0.04230635831829288,0.0,0.018281781922641297,0.025779255119270768,0.018888025589373608,0.07584891661258936,0.03282070860431652,0.0,0.020971574002794768,0.06927818474464273,0.056699075425292074,0.0,0.12361054986595744,0.020359135554249945,0.06274461651070534,0.02076904092989149,0.05803669518115045,0.016303559833204823,0.0,0.020476250520145758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503592373271504,0.03787402118889995,0.0,0.03175887757912086,0.07731166970473012,0.03984166214385275,0.020675532902351648,0.08830929535695332,0.0,0.0,0.035665619370839716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07652719428308051,0.0,0.0,0.018868194050642138,0.0,0.07545838416993284,0.0,0.018058506857525743,0.021377829982778783,0.0,0.030798832411130076,0.0,0.032654475247430884,0.09523732843321883,0.0411180318284684,0.17045869675660674,0.0833739871599182,0.015531616155617756,0.05284403008203343,0.016567478417558745,0.0,0.05213439496879961,0.0829744406258675,0.03728355985491789,0.0,0.0,0.040387549836697206,0.10109119845230027,0.04704038631179882,0.0,0.040424317394554314,0.028484448313114683,0.3408425837800663,0.08668002029533955,0.035367546060037,0.06285951479666645,0.046385219748677854,0.02948704189184835,0.02032378051694276,0.020307359520554395,0.018252765146551303,0.03260262030319512,0.039247116557282864,0.016513430429320453,0.05459989486716677,0.03783763343657897,0.019594702159920017,0.08310677326730162,0.021844626439418792,0.03706818517787794,0.0,0.01849101467505813,0.0,0.054461947771905064,0.0,0.01973420201538395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.01829310800176126,0.06554068789125643,0.06118416305770679,0.05758917586822038,0.2026191835629144,0.0,0.0,0.05855749697004039,0.02002882203200392,0.07540091069272707,0.11718564292131915,0.1801204675322555,0.07390368109193977,0.06511097716061669,0.016313694887089975,0.07740046398994414,0.020623164599157032,0.0,0.0313442105811224,0.049912780065430484,0.0,0.09843982128917317,0.18689394577172191,0.0,0.020080257790326208,0.0,0.0,0.03715469382873345,0.01955578263047233,0.14890636881879246,0.0,0.0,0.0587779404975488,0.06775632346459774,0.013668732405225216,0.05687039369963031,0.017803873937015272,0.01960499041844481,0.0,0.018061610881022414,0.0,0.0,0.01934360139297027,0.01963183097292646,0.17488095953010346,0.12618041969508187,0.0196152980997837,0.0,0.020469007569028,0.03992490392426215,0.017597538378552473,0.2044793511562512,0.1931524832503045,0.07703929959499678,0.060705677426491515,0.0,0.0207818008730291,0.0,0.018754217785498437,0.07950078070423311,0.03527809686510655,0.0,0.018531471622250342,0.0,0.03921410079708456,0.05531759271973205,0.020982165620439357,0.0472377053183093,0.056860311240194576,0.0,0.0,0.06264709583738179,0.04722814132668618,0.035070308328324126,0.2198943435493454,0.018455859097261648,0.0,0.029379355798913088,0.01678181154631459,0.0,0.0,0.18922450646665612,0.06099587276256192,0.0,0.0,0.03758270923116869,0.10933471833691773,0.028383109426634037,0.05469571223048442,0.0,0.06523914010402249,0.01964841405988403,0.029443166262810083,0.09247094499208323,0.021116324143399926,0.0,0.04220551795143531,0.020164032668650942,0.0,0.052122071508744414,0.0,0.05544092405309334,0.14816718930414988,0.09667386719586503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07348121612358627,0.11811896795744803,0.018111516761138657,0.05853881134548562,0.09674221968294554,0.0,0.0,0.10568806016406686,0.0,0.06257808933787222,0.060153377674150764,0.0,0.01919066170137546,0.08869633480053375,0.03184247572418908,0.020302676864020732,0.0,0.09785676681565994,0.0438966512216871,0.0,0.0,0.06629827105409476,0.0,0.04990201913333376,0.0,0.02119843061069992,0.03553983932735868,0.03998222665099591,0.08052194227748223,0.037441668144015235,0.018786033864294092,0.1178561986253462,0.020154913706725675,0.04479916335464433,0.10683923594439584 schizophrenia,SandstormPrius,2019/02/09,"Homeostasis and Normalcy: The differences and likenesses of our inner workings There are people that suffer from mental illness and there are people who just see the world in a different light. What’s the difference? When having some sort of paranoia or trying to think what other people are laughing at me for in public places (which they probably are not, but I don’t know that for sure), among other symptoms, I try to ask myself what it is that I’m thinking. Reflecting on those small things and being self aware enough to notice them can take me from going down the slippery slope of negativity that might force me to stay in the house for a few days instead of pushing my way out into the world. I might be uncomfortable and then cause self destruction. I try my hardest to avoid those emotions, although I know that logic vs emotion, without lots of practice, usually ends with emotion winning. What do you do when you find yourself in these mindsets? Does sheer positivity work? And when you disassociate, what really makes a difference to bring you back to this reality?",10.393025641025636,9.036657533333333,9.38,66.40333333333334,58.282051282051285,12.153846153846155,39.615384615384606,10.980518767755715,4.3813076923076935,869,35,142,17,9,273,129,195,0.10800000000000001,0.838,0.054000000000000006,-0.8822,1,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,4,2,3,9,7,1,1,9,0,14,2,0,2,1,31,25,13,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,2,20,9,0,1,7,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,0,2,18,4,29,21,4,28,0,1,1,0,12,15,0,6,9,114,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109343857868497,0.0,0.0,0.08993670360416414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015238669816038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07543093578755354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4888023729894489,0.0,0.0,0.10235439968373887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3947001594314887,0.10359378313134378,0.12085320707758918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069013216882032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06647230733557402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134958662324192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285587203666236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05714181749872331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943707037887344,0.0,0.0,0.07807316930411523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787037659127945,0.2481567980418533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13316222726078855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24326056457053105,0.0,0.12220059324736222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12610502194021328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749289731849582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09320372139223528,0.0,0.24403414301615675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12466613103235301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102354788293645,0.12156849826926396,0.08794100991424315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07770448113318551,0.14988929581705315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23822894595073035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12881732675845636,0.0,0.0,0.0928391413916936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274737627550332,0.0,0.1702997330361195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BigFuzzyHoward,2019/02/09,"Self-Help Books Hi everyone, for those who have used them, would anyone be able to tell me a good self help book for people with schizophrenia? I have a friend who thinks she has it. The links posted in the rules keep bringing me to a blank/black page; I am assuming the problem is o. My end but I can not get any information to appear. I'm really trying to help her and am becoming her SO slowly but she states she hears multiple voices and that she is a ""skitso"". I am under the impression she has gone to a doctor but I don't fully know the story yet and I have seen a lot of books on the subject. I was hoping for one that would actually be helpful. Thanks for your time everyone; I appreciate this, I'm kinda lost as to what I should do for her when she spirals into a depressed suicidal state. I'm really trying to get her to a doctor but we don't truly know each other yet as we've only been on a few dates. Thank you again for your time.",2.032594804419229,3.702881934010154,3.9639295312033447,87.28309346073458,77.3756345177665,7.071842340997312,20.21767691848313,7.928766900206844,0.7378321289937291,739,17,158,12,17,251,116,197,0.08900000000000001,0.765,0.146,0.8651,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,3,1,1,5,9,0,0,15,0,21,2,0,1,0,28,40,11,1,5,5,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,1,9,7,0,1,6,3,0,3,3,3,0,1,5,3,27,6,23,30,4,19,0,2,1,0,26,5,0,5,8,112,36,5,0.14097344000258666,0.0,0.13756974177932518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09586677338700124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09857190704555223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15569408876218072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142021730382267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885845787975505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12486062470846496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26941232641304297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089157300462606,0.0,0.14730560787437585,0.0,0.0,0.1182418330346111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15888731252045524,0.0,0.37796610096461775,0.0,0.0,0.14001843466079833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253036708126039,0.0,0.0,0.15495063170292447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538891627436363,0.11985057743227802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552725136705616,0.10721665362846744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773323308632792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350135868643896,0.0,0.0,0.13489254320353836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806223909937894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941320861750921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542020624476417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12321700021815092,0.2595788063507813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09033008809563682,0.0,0.0,0.16440549308776406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914234240442396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175578939977558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20028697410449528,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Wytchee,2019/02/09,"Hello. Any other trans people with schizophrenia? I'm a 30yo trans woman with paranoid schizophrenia. Being neuroatypical my personality already tends to rub people the wrong way, and making friends is difficult. Being transgender on top of it just feels like I am being crushed/suffocated under a mountain of stigma. I need to know there are others out there who are as lonely and feel as isolated as me. <3 ",5.496607142857144,8.516965763888889,5.793650793650794,71.84500000000003,71.91666666666667,7.447619047619049,28.341269841269842,8.418075326091056,2.6190769841269845,333,13,48,6,7,106,56,72,0.159,0.746,0.095,-0.6124,0,2,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,3,0,7,0,0,1,0,11,14,5,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,4,2,12,11,0,5,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,35,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.351494739835447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21660452210572972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32210656429991363,0.2275507512120829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24608776141062635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17505026165063234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15561278263844786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126145729454172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361785436001621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.441643324346668,0.2781193775838157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528263496352478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3482516172327527,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KimShyt,2019/02/09,"SZ Advice. ♥ So , I will try and keep this as short as possible. I am 22 years old and currently living with my mother in Israel ( which is fucking horrible for my mental health) I was diagnosed when I was 19 with SZ , just general not really any specific sort of schizophrenia. I had a few psychotic episodes and progressive anxiety and depression for a few years.. So the last year has been pretty OK for me .. I mean , i guess so. I have literally been smoking cannabis (the only drug that really has any positive effect on me) all day , every day NO psychotic symptoms in the last year. But yeah the depression is really been kicking up a notch I haven't really left my room too much in the last year. and idk I guess it's a shame but really the only person who is worried by this is my mother , who wants me to get out and get a part time job ( which i totally agree with) but the thing is I literally struggle to get out of bed in the morning ANYWAY WITHOUT TOO MUCH RAMBLING ........ I NEED TO GET OUT AND GET SOME PART TIME WORK. Please if you have any advice for a person in my situation inform me. ty in advance. I honestly love you all. ♥",1.6204441997063164,3.942868744493396,3.8494107929515415,84.3105625917768,81.81938325991192,7.8361967694566825,23.11472099853157,8.72156446121922,1.888503817914831,883,31,177,23,24,303,123,227,0.083,0.7979999999999999,0.11900000000000001,0.9104,2,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,0,2,0,4,8,8,1,2,14,2,18,6,0,1,3,34,31,17,0,3,7,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,2,9,13,0,1,3,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,6,0,25,3,27,24,10,30,0,2,0,2,10,14,1,5,15,124,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20690838456360414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159841329794749,0.0,0.0809896758783115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365537979474142,0.0,0.1823700359294764,0.10745504616287208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227747026766614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919939755953354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978744028670193,0.27656153148534923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332537988460561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253404735933853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10505888098827318,0.0941014414881566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25889267292419965,0.0,0.0,0.11502723484675273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09348447513523674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09555111903679868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11532263479801318,0.0,0.0,0.10669128932964296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556521400821502,0.07850069714139603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11109195421756636,0.0,0.0,0.16103664948593566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292921317385463,0.0,0.0,0.18488186687967784,0.0,0.1162126293583396,0.0,0.11935165661468496,0.0,0.10770707384251688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391127180737661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119001457180304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11067751230011104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100386729669263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703348162493598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12346640595443435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07187826190703148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062444418458906865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10205416569660658,0.0,0.07707406481410124,0.10751534832587746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408815851084352 schizophrenia,jza69,2019/02/09,"do you find yourself mincing words to talk about your SZ in order to keep people comfortable? i nearly always call my schizoactive symptoms “anxiety” because i’m afraid calling them what they really are will make me an outcast. i wish i was able to as freely express how my ML affects me without worrying about social consequence. my friends diagnosed with depression and anxiety talk about their illnesses boldly and usually receive praise for it. i’m so jealous of that. there’s really two or three people i actually feel comfortable enough to call my illness what it is and be honest about how it affects me, outside of explaining to people “i’m just a little anxious right now.”",8.531567944250874,8.950794723577243,8.339279907084787,66.57073170731708,61.113821138211385,11.581416957026715,41.14866434378629,11.20814326018867,5.116763995354238,553,29,83,14,7,178,88,123,0.13,0.684,0.187,0.8467,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,3,1,10,9,1,1,2,0,6,4,0,5,0,18,14,8,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,3,0,2,1,1,16,6,17,11,1,8,1,1,0,0,16,4,0,1,2,60,22,0,0.15883927811473486,0.0,0.15500422259865085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13216700374073065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430232259910986,0.17944317246665495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09682694964586472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.486577986753262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13680803749074688,0.1612185237459184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16412343470797144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08031391160111298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14517622258071786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271883225357867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14118364861235694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15919868524657455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10602645154879384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.330357467143455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20351301774493466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13564787562691275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16191664093600608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650948284345662,0.0,0.2553379900474115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15516289446828868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17493902419919702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18265733087453653,0.15311539590974665,0.0,0.0,0.16130899716755442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,absolute_illin,2019/02/07,"Time to shop for a new doctor? So my psychiatrist prescribed me Wellbutrin the last time I saw him for what he believed to be SAD. I've been taking the Wellbutrin for about two weeks and called him to let him know about a side effect I was having. I was having ""heart throbbing or pounding"" late at night while at work. I was kinda freaked out and may not have described it well over the phone to the nurse. They called me back later to tell me to discontinue, and follow up with my doctor for an EKG. However, after doing some research with the online PI sheet, found this is a common side effect, right at the top of the sheet. I called them back to tell them this, and that I'd like to keep taking it, since it's seemed to help get me motivated. They called me back just now to tell me that it's up to me if I want to keep taking it, but the doctor won't prescribe ANYTHING else to me until I get a full heart workup, EKG, and a stress test. Now, I'm in pretty good health, relatively young, and have never had any heart problems. Also, I'm dead broke right now, with no health insurance. I think this is all a bit unreasonable, and cruel to discontinue someone this fast. Does this seem unreasonable? I didn't get much time to talk to the nurse, but it seems weird to treat people this way, especially when psychiatric meds are involved, that effect us severely. What do you think?",6.354245742092459,5.8628059817518245,6.30553284671533,82.38995377128956,65.82481751824818,9.058491484184914,27.75571776155718,8.238735603445708,1.5721428710462289,1085,26,225,12,15,343,152,274,0.122,0.8029999999999999,0.07400000000000001,-0.9581,1,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,1,1,4,6,13,11,1,1,16,0,19,9,3,4,2,37,39,16,1,3,6,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,0,0,17,11,0,2,11,1,1,1,5,7,1,1,8,1,28,4,37,27,5,39,0,2,1,0,21,14,0,8,24,148,45,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07644219172270447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06500354529326184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07866129662433376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22050526508183346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10769565091704683,0.0,0.0,0.10435802514772052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3904267088288362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935170352987029,0.08365025301160722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985203349539118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10480799737887968,0.0,0.0,0.14982333943939435,0.0,0.0,0.0801752064627829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20321248446297652,0.0,0.3398189552480065,0.06407104280069179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16992713018926933,0.0,0.0,0.052533010396938584,0.07791749031916663,0.10782813656114976,0.0,0.0,0.09774584902840024,0.0,0.04669977554536603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10617741741429257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07026864055878146,0.0,0.07372384319604694,0.09232009311187403,0.0,0.08970345255050796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06626911931141984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724799997588827,0.0,0.09146540800384778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632643330024747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610608921444796,0.0,0.10798794204928908,0.0,0.07907190132890493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08099193478046685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10949645105305723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21561225757229652,0.07683051880211729,0.25064602379743145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12249866696077255,0.0,0.0,0.16721549404687558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09337620053031076,0.0,0.11498135063800585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056380649739543875,0.07587380406500824,0.07667543201212887,0.0,0.0859456568065375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06958966004537942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cerunis,2019/02/07,People around me are just deviations of one of 10ish base humans. I can never shake the feeling that every new person I see in a day is just a generated person that’s been created based off of some model in my head. It actually really scares me sometimes because when I notice it happening around me I start to feel like nothing at all is real. Like who are all these people? Who’s doing it?,5.149615384615384,5.746596782051284,6.832461538461541,73.86253846153849,68.35897435897436,9.316923076923075,27.138461538461538,9.3871,2.328704615384616,311,9,57,6,5,108,56,78,0.053,0.8320000000000001,0.115,0.5879,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,2,3,0,7,1,1,0,3,11,12,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,8,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,3,8,2,10,11,3,12,0,0,1,0,5,6,0,1,7,44,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.19944145141184208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3638758620118338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12458568579228305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318055839806318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17219555754256474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066772482677872,0.14600622376013386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18072898287621675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097486932596603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19969553728847314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576273365993364,0.1973875717945172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961042417749144,0.23268338043296455,0.0,0.0,0.13849043703658984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833771090328309,0.3569064031582553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326245814512459,0.13092847072092287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204615985570214,0.0,0.1628611762403552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021330463048076,0.0,0.14465835353195194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,pang2405,2019/02/07,sorry to say that i am tired of talking care of my younger brother.,3.4007142857142867,4.345254785714288,4.19857142857143,89.89642857142859,72.57142857142857,5.6000000000000005,35.42857142857143,3.1291,1.6758000000000002,53,3,11,0,1,17,13,14,0.24100000000000002,0.575,0.184,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4609666265885596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3595440911734188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5061114938787954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3633970516944595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5196456044819315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MNightShyamalannn,2019/02/07,"Had my first hallucination last night An entire phone call, making plans. It never happened. Does anyone have a similar experience? 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Post them if you know any. I want some hope. Any stories besides John Nash.,3.0616666666666674,5.390207944444448,1.2427777777777784,94.16750000000002,108.44444444444444,1.8,32.27777777777778,3.1291,1.1185111111111117,85,5,13,0,4,23,16,18,0.0,0.639,0.361,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,5,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6481336369382392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4733165313113975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618965699045614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4563982076315449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28107848121031226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,InsaneGrape1988,2019/02/07,"Mom with paranoid schizophrenia hospitalized. I'm sitting outside the intensive care unit because my mom overdosed on sleeping pills she had hidden somewhere from earlier prescriptions. She was earlier telling my aunt that she was ""fed up"" with this disease. She just wanted the voices/visions/worry to stop. They pumped out most of the fluid from her stomach, she's stable but under observation now. I'm shook because she would never take her life, she just wanted every thing to stop. Please help me make sense of this situation and with suggestions as to how I can help and make her feel better. Once she's discharged, we'll be talking to her psychiatrist about the further plan of action. Thanks, and you guys are insanely brave to be going through this... 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Now on medication I can no longer think. I miss my brain and how i could imagine so much. I thought about a lot of things. Now I'm brain dead. It is blank, I can't think. I miss being able to think about complex things. My mind is so dull I don't like it one bit. I rather the risk of an episode then not being able to think. I can't remember either. My brain is being poisoned by these medications. I'm killing it. I want to stop but i'm court ordered to take them. I hate life now. MY brain is dead. I miss who I was before being on medication. I don't care if others thought I was crazy. I didn't feel crazy. I just have an imagination. I was creative. &#x200B; Is life going to be better, will I be able to think again. Or do I say good bye to my thinking. This medication fog sucks. 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[story included] I'm reading people using this phrase a lot here, so please share stories so we can learn what becoming hospitalized entails. I'm trying to learn more. I've only known of one instance of this so I can share that one story. We'll call her Suzy. She was hermitting in her apartment for days reading, attempting to cast spells, and drinking wine, trying to get to another realm. One night she had intense visions and felt a presence. She was being told orders from this presence. Suzy stripped all her clothes off and ran into the neighboring woods. She saw artifacts there of human sacrifice and continued running. Before she knew it, there was an ambulance and she was taken to the nearest hospital. There they diagnosed her with bipolar. So far I have no idea if there are many others similar to it or not so please share or feel free to discuss.",4.655901960784317,7.0794371000000025,5.002941176470589,79.37990196078431,72.11764705882355,8.062745098039215,30.745098039215684,8.841846274778883,2.85981568627451,737,33,124,15,15,233,109,170,0.013999999999999999,0.852,0.134,0.9604,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,2,1,1,1,10,5,0,0,6,0,11,5,0,1,1,23,24,14,0,1,5,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,9,8,2,0,7,4,1,2,2,0,0,4,11,3,16,6,18,11,3,12,1,0,1,1,23,6,0,5,3,87,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047511064490667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591048368036553,0.13834020121056462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660082724850145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048480700432055,0.0,0.0,0.16501121720421594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15926258609334126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220331016439403,0.0,0.15609845475577858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493924961530129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14376541936362375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835285145163064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382163009264374,0.14673118685918826,0.0,0.0,0.16482654609059602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256656224694676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4406628188031919,0.12364637350714007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270972776419436,0.0,0.0,0.3569192533937574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252399895705738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15534833447856233,0.0,0.2207568636623194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14041346473048405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,longhairedgirl,2019/02/07,"What happened to you or a loved one to become hospitalized? [story included] I'm reading people using this phrase a lot here, so please share stories so we can learn what becoming hospitalized entails. I'm trying to learn more. I've only known of one instance of this so I can share that one story. We'll call her Suzy. She was hermitting in her apartment for days reading, attempting to cast spells, and drinking wine, trying to get to another realm. One night she had intense visions and felt a presence. She was being told orders from this presence. Suzy stripped all her clothes off and ran into the neighboring woods. She saw artifacts there of human sacrifice and continued running. Before she knew it, there was an ambulance and she was taken to the nearest hospital. There they diagnosed her with bipolar. So far I have no idea if there are many others similar to it or not so please share or feel free to discuss.",4.655901960784317,7.0794371000000025,5.002941176470589,79.37990196078431,72.11764705882355,8.062745098039215,30.745098039215684,8.841846274778883,2.85981568627451,737,33,124,15,15,233,109,170,0.013999999999999999,0.852,0.134,0.9604,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,2,1,1,1,10,5,0,0,6,0,11,5,0,1,1,23,24,14,0,1,5,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,9,8,2,0,7,4,1,2,2,0,0,4,11,3,16,6,18,11,3,12,1,0,1,1,23,6,0,5,3,87,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047511064490667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591048368036553,0.13834020121056462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660082724850145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048480700432055,0.0,0.0,0.16501121720421594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15926258609334126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220331016439403,0.0,0.15609845475577858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493924961530129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14376541936362375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835285145163064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382163009264374,0.14673118685918826,0.0,0.0,0.16482654609059602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256656224694676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4406628188031919,0.12364637350714007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270972776419436,0.0,0.0,0.3569192533937574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252399895705738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15534833447856233,0.0,0.2207568636623194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14041346473048405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SouthEastBordom,2019/02/07,Does anyone here take clozapine? I have been on clozapine for over a year now and it has changed my life. But it a dangerous and they don't like prescribing it (at least where I am) because the dr's can only give out one month supply and I have to get monthly blood tests. I haven't met anyone else who takes the medication and it really isolates me because the sidefects knocks me around and no-one really understands. If you do I would really like to know someone is out there. ,4.245293233082705,5.6003777999999995,5.104962406015041,82.63473684210527,71.0,9.218045112781953,27.25563909774436,9.606745405546679,2.386142857142857,381,13,76,9,7,124,67,95,0.11,0.89,0.0,-0.8365,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,0,5,3,1,0,5,0,11,4,1,0,0,13,18,7,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,10,2,9,15,1,11,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,1,6,53,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849068706112358,0.20874646058608087,0.0,0.18136376199460166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483850238489412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155203587013129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17828634989787612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17019108814698733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10644102620328666,0.19543731621693425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196521630983894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14390121329387565,0.19906532791665574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052375245977993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32523224245637583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380533818449084,0.1549465876143552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3915458399058255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17262059471801755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30636067843470005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120911308337461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14472463992690954,0.0,0.0,0.13119606887434004 schizophrenia,angelinnerg,2019/02/07,"Embarrassing Public Episode i’ve never been able to talk to someone who can relate. but i’m still so embarrassed from my 1st schizophrenic onset episode. it was very public. voices were telling me i was god of the universe and that i was in a spike lee movie produced by jay z and beyoncé and i thought the voices were the directors of the movie telling me what to do. may 4th, 2018 i unconsciously drove to a shopping center after being up for a week straight. i took my dog with me and thought my ancestors were telling me to let him guide me. i walked into a store dressing room with my dog and put on a dress that was left in there. i thought it was my wedding day and i was supposed to put on the dress. the cashiers didn’t even stop me because they were confused. i walked right out of the store with the dress on and left my clothes there. i left the store and did cartwheels around the shopping center barefoot. then i walked to one life fitness. the voices told me to let my dog go. i let him to go and then i wandered into a one life fitness. we got separated and i lost him (a good samaritan turned him in later that day). i walked into the gym with my dress on and was guided to the exercise bikes. the voice told me to sit on the bike and fall back (like a trust fall). i fell back and hit my head really hard but i still didn’t snap out of the delusion. then i walked into a gym class and walked to the front of the crowd. i picked up a barbel at the direction of the voice and threw it at people. everyone gasped and screamed. luckily i missed. i then wandered into a gym closet and the people in the gym locked me in there and called the cops. i was kicking and pounding the door but they wouldn’t let me out. i saw a rope and an american flag and my ancestor told me to hang my self with it. the cops arrived just in time and took me to the hospital. the officer thought i was on drugs until they tested me. i was then transported to the psych ward for 3 days. i heard through the grapevine that the gym still tells people the story of how a crazy lady came in and threw barbels at people. i’m so embarrassed to be that crazy lady. has anyone else ever had a public episode? 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As someone with schizoaffective disorder that has been induced via this methodology to a point of remission, close to a complete cessation of symptoms, I thought you might find my research interesting. It is my own working hypothesis, conjecture and speculation in conjunction with an extensive literature review of meta-analyses, individual studies, cross relational studies, medical cohort studies, etc. Singularitarian Technologies Corporation can only advise that you follow any warnings in emboldened font in the research paper and that you consult with your clinicians monitoring you, presenting the paper to them and offering your suggestions as to how to properly move forward in your course of treatment. Enjoy everyone, here's the link! [https://docs.google.com/document/d/1TPf0RwQxu23vrlPoMZBXZoV-aNnR3RLjKsU9YaZGQiI/edit?usp=sharing](https://docs.google.com/document/d/1TPf0RwQxu23vrlPoMZBXZoV-aNnR3RLjKsU9YaZGQiI/edit?usp=sharing) I'm drinking my third beer right now on Aripiprazole and Limitless Potential and I feel great. I feel like the work I've done is really paying off, even if I had released my research and hard work for free. I feel like I can really help others and I hope that you can induce your own pathway to remission as well. As always, be careful and reduce harm. There is a way to remission at least! Sincerely, CEO of Singularitarian Technologies Corporation, John Cravo Lasheras",14.498601315002984,16.662672861924687,12.297982665869696,37.29829497907952,48.41422594142261,14.694680215182311,45.94172145845786,13.596283718651351,7.422020681410638,1390,69,154,47,14,430,144,239,0.039,0.8320000000000001,0.128,0.9688,0,0,3,0,0,0,55.0,0,9,1,3,8,11,0,0,11,0,15,4,0,3,0,26,23,14,0,2,1,0,4,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,8,12,2,0,9,2,2,4,0,1,1,1,5,4,24,11,33,14,4,21,0,0,0,0,16,14,0,4,5,112,32,13,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12526854700288825,0.0,0.0,0.10237825270751094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534943944722191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15784740782029688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254180959985327,0.0,0.0,0.15406355062595786,0.0,0.14748037430582586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16790155389436898,0.09943597140626832,0.0,0.0,0.28771139636345394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283657809961233,0.21510398845692727,0.0,0.0,0.13759874966772764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16598043136102594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13486203039950992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10090959472271918,0.0,0.0,0.14952879064308855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16995111457498002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14710094351309536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15166193846307854,0.0,0.3194166787918574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16000940228882554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11449904144909145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14231714723729533,0.16972099607594046,0.14418400272167886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19289065581823744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12856773478156114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12755939278106412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15647770389241095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195188211955142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11949852044843445,0.0,0.0,0.135361327323862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3288036569304233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,IfLawthenNosleep,2019/10/23,"Should I even try to get help? Lost my insurance, because I quit my job to finish school. Went off meds. I have been doing okay for a long time, but lately its been a real struggle to stay normal. Starting a new job but its one hour short of benefits (part-time). I don't want anyone to know I'm schizophrenic because of the way people are. As such, I don't want to go to the school's clinic. I have other reasons for keeping it under wraps that I cannot discuss. I just don't know what to do.",1.6479700854700852,3.2359033269230792,3.326282051282053,91.79649572649576,78.23076923076924,5.776068376068378,21.170940170940174,6.42735559955562,0.22122350427350448,382,10,84,3,9,127,69,104,0.078,0.85,0.07200000000000001,0.1114,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,0,1,5,1,12,2,0,1,0,12,23,3,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,4,0,10,2,14,18,0,14,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,7,53,16,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12200970661949223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21273887725815865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11525111670378788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09116549805540933,0.0,0.09916851001708142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11695911764569847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17184065867000145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34631516389860884,0.15509757873636548,0.0,0.0,0.19179380496151072,0.0,0.1968359364588926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544209960951007,0.0,0.0,0.19047994668088927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19382261489492406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16852662543549124,0.0,0.0,0.17096629320539578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11824111212614427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18895913757295688,0.0,0.12097161811353407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18559500309312368,0.0,0.19861146955155454,0.0,0.17940807729863792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35319287990427983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12350718913130328,0.1859865402544316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824181851717116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10174839150165432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11846943265966862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20584122741192634,0.13850458472279087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16175694988958056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,last_daze_here,2019/10/23,"Fist time post. Been living with BPD last 15 years, diagnosed schiz 5 years ago. Feeling my mind slip further into darkness. I'm afraid. Looking for friends. I'm so alone. Any communication welcome. Thank you.",2.0138513513513523,4.181818324324325,2.1596959459459453,87.81630067567568,109.0,4.012162162162162,26.246621621621625,5.985473137389443,1.2739756756756764,166,8,28,2,8,50,34,37,0.10099999999999999,0.66,0.23800000000000002,0.701,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,3,3,5,0,8,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,5,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24852178796553226,0.0,0.0,0.29036789834071536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906540794142106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3531029859447378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28455899915398986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417581911330045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166050604610428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285304181494583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24756258203638,0.0,0.23543137641932985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830831816231693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26850691019012657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581173675287077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16347988373799327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610846624790628 schizophrenia,Edotcon,2019/10/23,"Should I tell my therapist? Just starting off with saying my depression has suddenly gotten much worse after a pretty ok 6 months and I will be seeing a therapist and might bring the following up with them if I feel comfortable. I haven’t been diagnosed with schizophrenia nor do I believe to have it. When I was 5-7 there was an angry mans voice in my head. When i did anything or sometimes just random things he would say I’m “fucking disgusting, lazy” etc. I knew it wasn’t real. I didn’t hear the voice it was in my head but didn’t sound like my normal inner voice and I couldn’t control it. I thought this voice was what people meant when they were referring to their thoughts. At some point I decided to stand up to the voice and would yell at it in my own head to shut up. Interrupting it with my own thoughts. This eventually escalated to me yelling shut up out loud over the voice. I think this worked because by age 10 the voice was gone. Currently seems like an intrusive thought but I’m curious what you guys think. Thanks. Sorry if this is the wrong place to post let me know.",3.3881944444444443,5.22577180092593,3.8946296296296303,88.51333333333334,74.0462962962963,7.7629629629629635,25.42592592592593,8.515128840125781,1.5810759259259264,863,29,180,16,18,271,127,216,0.08900000000000001,0.8220000000000001,0.08900000000000001,0.2416,1,0,0,0,1,0,17.0,0,1,3,2,6,9,2,0,10,1,24,5,3,1,0,39,46,13,0,7,7,0,1,2,0,5,1,14,0,2,13,9,0,1,13,0,0,3,6,4,0,0,19,16,26,5,25,19,5,31,0,1,1,1,11,17,1,7,11,119,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10502723825123524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07780104336438019,0.0,0.0,0.14379341903687234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143146020871847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10992609078714197,0.1295400650642436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14233932131581828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645327167910845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799033147592099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12637210914839211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929504519594105,0.0,0.14384639995615195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0701411905954661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13050861115349704,0.0,0.12470550735786093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13539348571124366,0.0,0.0,0.10187171274155292,0.0,0.09382150524168352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12504866212468665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848141184170286,0.0,0.1333444371163411,0.0,0.1206500218699845,0.0,0.12223265726839802,0.12984389148454675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14526897720243725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20299033606519828,0.0,0.0,0.10170325229958868,0.11618803525992395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12622767857259487,0.14286946267650347,0.09033598655084303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115527829982999,0.11750301583604388,0.0,0.2963726485455174,0.08479058916799186,0.16355815671067636,0.0,0.4052905407686444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09291494189720184,0.0,0.13006416851928407,0.1813270029306688,0.13954153983644485,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Wreckwill,2019/10/23,"I dont know how to be social anymore, anyone else have this problem? Before i had my first (hopefully last) episode i was pretty talkative with my friends and girlfriend. I knew what food i wanted to eat, how to speak my mind, argue with people on just about anything and bring up topics to start conversations. Things that i thought were natural and easy for anyone. But now that i have these false memory's that felt so real at the time when i lost my mind, i dont know how to basically TALK anymore if that makes any sense and i dont know why. Its like a cant comprehend how to have a back and forth conversation or have an input on things, nothing comes to mind. Has anyone else had this problem?",4.258345323741008,5.46311544604317,4.85689928057554,84.99844244604319,70.79856115107913,7.8621582733812945,26.130215827338127,8.238735603445708,1.5141879136690657,553,17,112,8,10,177,88,139,0.079,0.816,0.105,0.5588,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,10,7,1,0,4,0,14,2,0,5,0,31,27,14,0,5,4,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,11,8,2,0,6,0,0,2,4,4,0,1,8,2,14,3,15,18,0,13,0,1,0,0,8,4,0,3,8,76,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465132622062503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469033405376592,0.26111995944051186,0.25509092242269577,0.10243722940714846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571817990129726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059241344935681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722933080582617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4376722988507938,0.0,0.0,0.12737510598817425,0.20797574982419686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11952124957966698,0.0,0.0,0.10588344697206524,0.15052287945667306,0.0,0.09617368634578116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12363768770567228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20523445207797167,0.10146860238996656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060815112718637036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13588568027258502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08309201210894428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3770708735231376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944284514396775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08629942892924063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12664189519391625,0.0,0.23822294786862586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416865928420513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12689266963822346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08810826917007837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10005308605055532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653992464962622,0.0,0.0,0.09882398316985308,0.07258585292973928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07342209955012495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112324710976662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SaltyAssKitten,2019/08/16,"What's it like to have schizophrenia? I (obviously) don't have it. But I want to write a character with it and I want it to be as accurate as possible. So, if you guys don't mind, can you explain it to me? I'm so sorry if this isn't the right place to ask.",-0.7613218390804591,0.9069074655172428,2.421379310344829,94.91988505747128,86.41379310344826,6.625287356321839,20.011494252873558,7.793537801064563,0.5421287356321836,195,6,51,4,6,70,38,58,0.033,0.862,0.105,0.4056,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,7,0,0,0,1,11,12,8,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,8,11,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,2,1,36,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142679757794932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328552270751634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423275772181092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394298261672007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3512198474384194,0.0,0.0,0.37897441801742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28708223255335485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3763080933107873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3965564922202975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Cataco,2019/08/16,"Anyone else on Invega Sustenna? It's a monthly shot for schizophrenia..it seems to keep most of my symptoms at bay, until the end of the month, i start to see a small resurgence of schizophrenia symptoms. Seems to work pretty well, anyone else on it?",4.28712765957447,6.451565744680856,4.056329787234045,86.90875,72.40425531914894,5.5510638297872354,26.643617021276608,5.985473137389443,0.9978978723404262,198,7,35,1,4,60,33,47,0.0,0.8759999999999999,0.124,0.6868,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,11,5,1,9,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,3,5,21,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28418608398373063,0.4164367047530442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3395210425474017,0.0,0.17998866534692856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18062732366821532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244094365665313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067432781118152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16193648799837776,0.3699996205037755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14383701672410895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.422437545773822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18271519035931008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479433453030985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,AdviseThrowaway_,2019/08/16,What’s it like having schizophrenia? Got a close friend with schizophrenia and is having a tough time at the moment. What’s it like having it and what are something things I can do to help him.,4.115175438596488,5.846960868421058,3.3236842105263165,93.79412280701756,71.89473684210526,5.066666666666666,20.561403508771924,3.1291,-0.4008175438596489,155,3,31,0,3,45,27,38,0.037000000000000005,0.693,0.27,0.8555,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,0,7,0,0,0,0,4,8,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,3,7,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3855947309151464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991668667332401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3345286694001795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4876591075027629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3842229037260008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315723893383437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910226642250049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,bloodmage90,2019/08/16,"need some feedback on risp and lithotrope hi , i recently went to my doctor for checkup, he has prescribed me 1mb risp every night and lithotrope(400mg) 1 and half tablet every night , next meeting after 1 month any1 been prescribed any of these?",4.814333333333334,7.309896599999997,3.4819444444444483,90.13625000000003,71.8888888888889,5.388888888888888,29.027777777777786,5.985473137389443,1.198444444444445,197,8,35,1,4,56,37,45,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,0,5,2,1,8,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,6,16,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19610926381079435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2951706169700372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4859475910509271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301833089121575,0.0,0.0,0.21383117888335254,0.0,0.0,0.3066969261590289,0.5412528797191671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847418750005051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673324780381749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,luvclub,2019/08/16,"Does self-awareness mean it’s fake? I’ve been experiencing schizophrenia symptoms for a few years, and they’ve been gradually getting worse. Two years ago I was given a diagnosis of schizophrenia and I completely shut down the possibility and tried my best to ignore it, stopped taking my antipsychotics, stopped seeing my psych. But things have become too much for me to handle. I took myself to the emergency room on the weekend and today I had a follow up interview. The med student who I spoke to for about ten minutes said I was just experiencing psychosis onset from a major depressive episode (I am depressed, but mostly due to the delusions. They make my life hell and they’ve been around even when I’m not depressed) and that the only option she was willing to give me is an SSRI prescription (I’ve reacted extremely poorly to them in the past). Her reasoning is because in my moments of clarity I recognize that hallucinations and delusions aren’t real, which is nothing like schizophrenia. Is this true? I believe my delusions are real, but I also believe they’re delusions. I tell myself this to calm down, but it rarely helps. When I hallucinate I’ve gotten into the habit of sending pictures or videos to my friends and asking them if they see/hear anything, and if they don’t it helps me. Does this mean it’s really just depression? I’m lost, I don’t know what to do from here. She ended up not even letting me have the SSRIs after I told her I reacted badly. I know I need to go back to the hospital but I’m terrified they’re holding me there for no reason without helping to make sure I kill myself.",5.430530056262955,6.900716312703588,6.07246816701214,76.38058261770804,68.28338762214983,8.578560852827954,31.869854900799524,8.97023862654752,2.824258631921824,1296,55,226,23,22,422,168,307,0.183,0.753,0.064,-0.9889,1,0,0,0,0,1,31.0,0,0,5,2,13,16,2,0,15,0,21,2,0,6,2,45,45,20,1,3,13,0,0,1,1,1,2,2,1,0,14,11,0,4,6,2,1,4,7,10,0,2,14,5,42,6,34,29,5,30,1,5,1,0,22,11,1,5,16,163,56,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09573565829841037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08636771853676259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887495993353879,0.09614307271841872,0.10096560525790332,0.0,0.0,0.08304548505336093,0.0901756533396894,0.06583591768124475,0.11927773246303185,0.0,0.2433584766846572,0.11333954368887293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11323615178477082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37208164575318203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890234004237644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09565611840210693,0.0,0.0,0.1426662231139724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08344068431086983,0.0,0.056425645398722524,0.10360363006528607,0.0613790008314607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12172407125573867,0.0,0.21717076654632733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11948621644118608,0.0,0.11870816766505693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043751868922848,0.07628373309985471,0.052763440962855006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11789497294745155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14418194029102085,0.0,0.0,0.2352877517929056,0.11996387198660415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07939257147096175,0.0800807776241211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10362910182122932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821390165082769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10309840853172936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175399481122462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458557369197685,0.06918769171351996,0.22208437988605667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273291916140967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17212434838312474,0.0,0.11266775945866254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18058600127330385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10178890756065258,0.11225355723969688,0.08120270736799169,0.0,0.09439693249605226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07175053196219595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023715586425122,0.10319881649849688,0.11999219273080185,0.07332504445683395,0.0,0.1055004994452409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10410833593037593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11006142747740448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13909717190947762 schizophrenia,CitizenDolan,2019/08/16,"One of my friends took his life, he was suffering from schizophrenia I am still in shock. I feel stupid. I feel like the writing was on the wall and I never noticed. He was a really great friend of mine from about 2012 to 2016. We sorta lost touch as time went on. I hadn’t talked to him in about a year. He was only 25. I knew he had some sort of mental illness but I didn’t realize it was schizophrenia. Now I have so many questions. Was he dealing with this during our friendship and never told me? He lost his license for stealing gas. Once he got it back, lost it again because of a DUI. It always seemed like once he was getting his life together he would just veer off. I tried my best to be a positive influence on his life and be a good friend. He didn’t have many because he was very misunderstood. My heart breaks for his mother and father.",0.9726878612716768,3.346453017341041,2.107199421965316,95.36160838150288,85.30057803468208,5.07849710982659,20.210693641618494,6.508806274219699,0.13180023121387308,664,20,144,7,20,210,102,173,0.11900000000000001,0.7020000000000001,0.18,0.9427,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,2,0,0,4,8,15,1,0,7,0,18,5,1,1,2,22,30,7,0,1,2,2,3,2,3,1,4,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,6,0,0,2,5,7,0,1,20,3,22,8,21,7,2,18,0,4,0,0,29,7,0,5,10,89,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11138302507156947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029307997617307,0.0,0.1632007725795982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14047879748103378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800475084913344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13536822620282735,0.0956302819523408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31026188949099304,0.0,0.06993681600186254,0.0,0.0,0.11227620509487797,0.10706082177776437,0.14758215841083247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15862585786734926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836498210011001,0.13079538696168366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4383750848913012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714279647717521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13490034262491055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20648361767311074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15240156688788936,0.0,0.2851150637181703,0.09070763697902136,0.10180727652329817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14995488779729682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08575474557304016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12186197188974067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690151922995092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10759235263805246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07805539032553385,0.0,0.0,0.12790986421271405,0.1487244292089942,0.09088279108318516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104492941702041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12409043204671932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09509097078952768,0.0,0.0,0.0862020562589154 schizophrenia,commonphabio,2019/08/16,"Cosmic Truth Among Madness It's natural to feel pity for the mentally ill. Humankind knows more about the universe than the human mind, so becoming a prisoner of it makes it easy to lose ourselves in mind mazes. I remember being so overwhelmed with thoughts I was struggled to ""send a fax"". But a mad man is only mad when compared to the rest of the world. Doctors and nurses now listen to their patients, but they don't actually explore their madness, only the disease. For the purpose of this comparisson I will use some lingua dupla: -My first telepathic event/symptom was on a bus, where my rhoughts were being shared with the world around me - and vice versa. It even got as far as me predicting when others would speak (my mother, strangers at work...) just before they did - as well as their thought process on why they spoke. This was also the day I was touched by God with the wisdom that the purpose of all life is to seek love in each other. I later met a man who, like an angel - and without me muttering a single word before it - approached me and calmed my anxieties at a time I was feeling overwhelmed for simply standing at the bus stop (I'll never forget you, Paul). -Another belief/delusion I kept secret was that consciousness is God. Because this consequently meant that I must be God, I imagined this was a mere trick of by my perviously unexisting ego - so I ignored it. Later I met Diogo, a boy who also claimed to be God. Even if two people share the same ""illness"", how can they land on the same radical belief - having lived completly different lives and surrounded themselves in different interests - that they are God? I never seeked God prior to my enlightnment. Having read my post ""What Is God?"", you now know (and hopefully understand) how one can claim to be God, so this must be a universal truth if two enlightned minds can discover it, especially when they don't fully understand it. Nobody conviced me of this, I simply knew it one day. This begs the question: what other universal truths can the mentally alternative discover? Is non-physical communication possible? Through schizophrenia, to me, it is...",6.513237097093136,7.766493969151673,6.625462724935732,74.20944977259245,65.60668380462725,9.686414870476568,33.98467470832509,9.851270322608157,3.4972633181728296,1690,74,284,36,26,540,215,389,0.07,0.763,0.16699999999999998,0.991,2,0,0,0,0,0,67.0,0,2,9,3,20,23,5,3,27,0,34,5,0,4,8,59,54,25,0,6,6,1,3,1,0,4,4,3,0,4,28,11,0,3,17,1,0,3,5,11,1,5,18,6,37,12,43,26,8,37,2,4,0,1,29,17,0,5,16,212,65,4,0.0,0.0,0.11227947012558237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18402279610186445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12064776424512365,0.08801863131542753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242552059504408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07013795119803895,0.1270719095769229,0.19581082444393574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12063554314207632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14840506849680474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404210848225664,0.0,0.11776617145134795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519887159897054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635300364216425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097867804847746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920219503177706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11427800509174607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12646512669287624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08126847681028146,0.05621125637241007,0.0,0.20319566565516176,0.0,0.0,0.12871985159443708,0.0,0.0,0.10384383721837724,0.0,0.07680173868565257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319016876714838,0.0,0.3485256640111794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774787909473612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559318063306609,0.17501274484258142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07976634601957283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12970998274196918,0.11019322851681168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288906717289525,0.0,0.11508858224627125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13033765728563101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09619317684368088,0.0,0.12028302427940606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195887411732251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826855202720356,0.06709092206933047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22478881261397005,0.23955771814972235,0.0,0.0993726915651107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345046185830838,0.0,0.10382144903483977,0.0,0.0,0.1109112721743669,0.0,0.08376319106458406,0.0,0.0,0.08173350852683152,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,walrusescapades,2019/08/15,"question about schizophrenia hi, i went to my psychiatrist yesterday and to my surprise he labeled me as schizoaffective, which he explained was a combination of bipolar and schizophrenia. Also surprising to me was he use to consider me schizophrenic. I don't know, maybe i wasn't listening to him in my previous visits, but i always thought one of the hallmarks of schizophrenia was hearing voices. to be sure, i've had mental health shit for a time now, but i've only 'heard voices' for a few short periods of my life. so what do you guys think, can you be schizophrenic and not hear voices most of the time? Thanks",7.122857142857139,7.861787526315794,6.9087969924812045,74.53657894736844,64.08771929824562,10.373934837092731,35.58395989974937,10.290406445055957,3.779901253132832,494,22,85,11,7,156,72,114,0.043,0.8690000000000001,0.08800000000000001,0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,0,4,5,1,0,5,0,10,6,1,1,1,14,21,8,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,1,2,3,0,0,5,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,8,7,14,4,16,11,2,9,0,0,0,0,15,2,1,2,5,59,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17689429899164366,0.18405688879055584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21902369190306006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351262383725693,0.4986190354449969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215662429172224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15624075429780662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22222605956604696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22291850436246355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14989147081590035,0.16823327038458236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477956590707852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270595697260263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084792530487258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20365209152229705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14173662038656965,0.0,0.17560882525965502,0.257968075250585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19104657668164807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20505547264961907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,babydriverdriver,2019/08/15,"can't sit still, is it only me? hello! ive only been diagnosed with schitzoaffective disorder for about two months now (i have since been medicated, thank goodness) but since i had my breakdown leading to my hospitalization, i havent been able to sit still. im either rocking, shaking, or adjusting because my body feels like it cant sit still. am i the only person who has this problem? im almost positive my medicine has nothing to do with it, but im not sure",2.7239999999999998,5.151862066666666,4.436666666666671,81.06500000000003,78.33333333333334,7.1111111111111125,27.777777777777786,8.167268648758528,2.137111111111112,366,16,68,7,9,123,59,90,0.11900000000000001,0.78,0.10099999999999999,-0.1833,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,1,1,0,14,3,1,1,1,13,16,3,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,2,1,0,2,4,2,0,1,4,1,10,4,7,12,1,10,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,6,46,15,1,0.16057214060056962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16078980421381658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09788328653338152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17835944980932278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16297734269257194,0.0,0.0,0.18402958444611486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08119009894064302,0.1147127693288777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13468029324214748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5203363984988519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07844743708532825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16175953860910658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281671506797947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15407329956082685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3663670457535185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402053996162295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15364585281347715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656538680230153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3846993567093141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15133734222280934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14783325351754528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568556493221821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,duellingbabies,2019/08/15,"Aberrant Salience. Hello, hope you're all in a good place right now. I wish to learn more about psychosis and schizophrenia and I have a question for you good folks. I was reading a research paper on the prodromal phase of schizophrenia this morning and I found something interesting. So in this paper, scientists were working with the hypothesis that during the early onset of schizophrenia, individuals are more likely to pay a good amount of attention to neutral or uninteresting stimuli. Meaning that, individual A would consider something normal or trivial as simply that. They'll ignore it and just leave it be. But it may seem gravely important to individual B who is at risk or susceptible. This results in the development of delusions, which then become hallucinations, so on and so forth. I'm wondering, with respect, and if this applies to anyone, when was the first time you felt that something normal was suddenly significant? Did you know that you were paying so much attention to something so trivial? Did you know that logically it made no sense? How many times did you find yourself paying attention to irrelevant stimuli before developing a delusion? Or did it happen immediately? Did it scare you or fascinate you for no reason, which lead to you giving yourself a fantastical reason to find it as such, thus forming a delusion? To maybe cope with the fear or euphoria or rush that it gave you? How does this process work and are you aware of it happening? Or does your awareness cease to exist after a certain point, wherein the delusions take a permanent seat in your mind? I'd also like to say that this is my first time posting on this sub and I hope I'm being respectful when asking these questions. I simply wish to learn and help those in need. Thank you and have a great day. I'm greatly interested to hear your story and anything else you may wish to share. Cheers!",6.234196832579187,8.309500397058827,6.411764705882352,72.38486425339367,67.08823529411765,8.760180995475114,33.665158371040725,9.265573868473778,3.332785067873304,1525,70,245,30,26,487,183,340,0.061,0.748,0.191,0.9938,0,0,4,0,0,0,35.0,0,16,1,5,14,22,0,3,18,0,22,0,0,8,2,65,47,34,1,10,11,0,1,2,0,4,0,2,0,0,29,14,0,1,19,1,3,2,2,5,0,2,14,3,24,17,38,27,6,28,0,1,0,0,28,12,0,17,15,174,53,12,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08049967715691507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07038548381694608,0.0,0.08283657022777959,0.0,0.09410574650937634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111737014472128,0.0856562800124006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06491891415360149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761806722119036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840905103822779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11327317490113252,0.0,0.0,0.09665168066159302,0.0,0.18400720216779065,0.1712467555364941,0.0,0.11037111524834388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09656453723493956,0.0,0.25329251127395697,0.0,0.22196128135682192,0.0,0.0,0.17803083860442356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11345382979106287,0.0,0.06747187834791846,0.0,0.0,0.19996093333848985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11064283432308694,0.0,0.0,0.10658693682902748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09835711849653284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524918761938493,0.0,0.10205586418024354,0.1011289010041258,0.10965085323078884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164031858411388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07399843923571227,0.07463988692108962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19725553969538293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10517077296890284,0.0,0.09515849579619476,0.0,0.09640674425543776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22552982961904844,0.0,0.10068963097532282,0.0,0.0,0.20699540505763805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859651313087266,0.0,0.08005077306137587,0.100780613389181,0.0,0.0,0.09163925951678756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099793038984395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0756855899187424,0.0,0.0,0.0926764045722574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760911478733737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3472703430236925,0.0,0.10916406831341943,0.1465668380475976,0.0,0.0,0.07150767392611355,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SunflowerBestFlower,2019/08/15,"This illness has ruined my life I became psychotic 2 years ago and it made it so hard for me to study anything or just about function as an adult. I'm 18 and I managed to get an offer to one of the best universities in the world, I aced the interviews and exams. But as I'm finishing school I became psychotic again and I just got my final grades back today. I don't know how to even feel, I've ruined my place and my future career is gone - my grades are really bad. I'm going to try to apply next year but I'm only going to deteriorate, is this my life now? I thought I had a bright future but I don't see that anymore I just want to curl up into a ball and die. Not to mention I can't even potentially start again until October next year. I'm in an abusive environment and this was my escape, the university of my dreams and I met so many amazing people on groups etc. Why does the universe have to be so cruel... Sorry for ranting.",2.2613775510204057,3.713352127551023,4.539540816326532,84.33492346938777,76.1938775510204,7.144897959183672,22.964285714285715,7.865858978985527,1.0795265306122448,731,21,154,11,16,255,117,196,0.114,0.79,0.096,-0.3979,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,14,7,1,0,10,0,11,3,0,2,0,23,29,19,1,1,8,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,6,9,0,0,3,2,0,3,4,4,0,1,7,4,21,3,23,21,2,27,0,2,2,0,6,7,0,1,17,100,27,7,0.0,0.1932326311327584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14456768640709594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16173948925215956,0.0,0.0,0.13420754153135014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12540461782063922,0.13617168153721962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17115081152378106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692596127885816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14271942221824913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18188624870189046,0.21543619347910214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246220135916475,0.0,0.0,0.17865495033182696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08520675738076544,0.0,0.185373356216444,0.0,0.13043638512168462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460948289800779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08962890871586494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303877781958182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543178244597225,0.0,0.16534565099479012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3468919113563764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11051266069144737,0.12403578553084466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11306469590385684,0.0,0.1703922656659534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10447835943942184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16505377949192335,0.12996003402679113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18256368219310964,0.11543453744633875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12947366794592327,0.0,0.0,0.15458837020481514,0.0,0.0,0.11072605778486568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961935375616932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14716156811973766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31507000661200624 schizophrenia,punixa,2019/08/15,"Adderall/Vyvanse interaction with Sarcosine? Has anyone taken Adderall/Vyvanse with Sarcosine or is familiar with the interaction? I've searched Reddit and the internet but could not find any information about it.",9.618181818181819,13.403180515151524,9.081818181818182,49.54272727272729,62.03030303030303,12.884848484848485,47.36363636363637,11.855464076750405,7.9023818181818175,179,12,19,7,3,57,26,33,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,10,4,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,14,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4367642053815939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44908865848547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5127986669923243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5870212371354218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Throwbahlay,2019/08/15,"Schizophrenia is not inherently an illness but it becomes one if you treat it like one I wanted to make this post because I used to suffer a lot from my schizophrenia but I can honestly say that today I don't have a single problem with who I am. I know a lot of you guys suffer a lot too but I just wanted to let you know that it doesn't have to be that way. You are not doomed to be sick or disabled and you can actually use your schizophrenia to your advantage if you stop viewing it as an illness and instead view it as a tool. I know many of you have probably given up hope that things can ever be good and that you will just have to settle with surviving, but I promise you that you can get better. You probably won't stop hallucinating or having delusions, I haven't at least, but it doesn't have to be bad. In order to ""fix"" myself and make myself better I tried the best science oriented approach I could find, pulling from all sorts of resources. At one point I noticed that what science is pointing towards is what all spiritual teachings have been saying for thousands of years and when I started researching things such as Buddhism, Tantra, Yoga, Shamanism, Christianity and whatever spiritual teaching everything about schizophrenia and our minds in general just made perfect sense. Schizophrenia is more or less just you having spiritual or psychedelic experiences when you don't really want to. Spiritual experiences can be frightening and confusing if you haven't done all the groundwork people usually have to do to get these kind of experiences. Someone might have to meditate daily for 40 years to reach a point where they feel the oneness of the universe and such but schizophrenics often just get these experiences without even trying or asking for it. In the psychedelic drug communities people often talk about the importance of integrating their psychedelic trips before tripping again. This is because they are suddenly thrown into a world so alien and strange to them that in their sober life it will take some time to make sense of everything. As schizophrenics we don't have the opportunity to go back to our normal sober life, because strange, alien and confusing is our sober state. So what do we do? How do we make sense of everything, when everything is so chaotic and confusing? Short answer is, we don't. Slightly longer answer is that we start by accepting what is happening. Is your hallucinations going to go away by you not wanting to have them? Is your voices going to stop because you tell them to? Is your delusions going away simply because you say it's not real? No, it usually only makes them worse because you are resisting something which already is, something that can't be changed because it has already happened and if you are constantly in a state of resistance you are constantly in a fight or flight mode, which means you are constantly stressed and stress just makes everything worse. So what do we do? Well it's not actually about what we can do, it's more about what not to do. First of all, listen to whatever people are trying to tell you in order to help but understand that if the neurotypical mind is like a hammer, then the schizophrenic mind is a screwdriver. Psychiatrist and everyone else is trying to teach you how to build a house with a hammer but of course you are going to end up frustrated because you don't have the right tool for the job! You can't just copy what works for ordinary people because your mind is not ordinary. Accept this and fully accept it. You are not going to be ordinary, ever. Not going to happen, so you can either resist for the rest of your life or start living the life you were supposed to. Sure you can dull your mind with anti-psychotics and if you are happy with doing that, then keep doing you, I wasn't though. I wanted to experience everything life had to offer me and I simply couldn't do that while being sedated 24/7. You end up suffering from schizophrenia if your mind has become stronger than you. Your mind and your body is simply an accumulation of everything that has happened to you, but it is not you. You are something else. You can't control your mind, thoughts simply come and go, you can't control what you see, what you hear, feel, smell, all these things are just happening without your control, the only thing you really have control over is your attention. Wherever you put your attention, that is what your mind and body will interpret as important. If you pay attention to the negative voices, your mind will deem them important and keep energizing them because you give them attention. The mind is like a bully, it will keep taunting you in every way possible but like any bully they are only doing it to get a reaction out of you. If you simply stay indifferent and just observe you stop energizing the mind and the bullying stops. Buddhism calls this the ""monkey mind"" but in the case of schizophrenics it's not really a monkey but more like a 500-pound genetically modified war-ape on steroids. You will have to work a little bit harder than ordinary people to keep that in check. How do we get to a point where we can just observe without energizing the mind? Well there are lots of systems that teach you exactly this. Buddhism, Tantra and Yoga are systems developed exactly for this purpose and while they are great, they do have their flaws. All of these systems where developed for societies way less advanced and chaotic than our modern society and because of this there is sort of a mismatch between the teachings and our reality. I am currently in the process of writing a book that will talk about this and much more in detail because even this long Reddit post is barely scratching the surface of what there is to say. I wish you all good luck and if anyone needs someone to talk to about anything or if you have any questions or criticism on anything that I've said, just throw it my way and I'll be happy to answer. Peace and love my friends.",8.378293174530464,8.095298781981986,7.927107955413046,71.73815620705452,61.630630630630634,11.092991296381127,36.56130706978165,10.529181916633178,3.8472937853107343,4808,197,832,99,59,1522,375,1110,0.099,0.7709999999999999,0.13,0.9898,4,0,4,0,1,0,92.0,14,70,15,15,49,47,2,5,48,0,126,16,2,16,13,210,187,86,0,23,58,0,3,5,1,9,13,9,0,1,70,50,0,13,21,3,2,17,32,14,2,6,9,16,124,33,127,157,25,103,2,5,3,1,123,37,0,36,40,650,194,11,0.0,0.0,0.07229611534519055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08175446133508055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050380230542814666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02590092075985723,0.0,0.06096550950954763,0.0,0.03462966156097845,0.0,0.06960514433624562,0.028483333846404793,0.030928872740542693,0.2709685788978496,0.08182088338706604,0.031520370406989864,0.0,0.03887373357883346,0.06552201906373382,0.04044072782657904,0.0822915541550811,0.0,0.0,0.03782445155900612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03918596782789252,0.03190876415137027,0.0,0.12008908667312855,0.16618489150101692,0.02957535753479363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03790725565982882,0.0,0.0,0.04295744604255395,0.0,0.061888376067195536,0.0,0.0656171772167443,0.0,0.0,0.04893233700724215,0.06701397770793252,0.031209835773606594,0.035395618930900465,0.2330393648605784,0.18117296913545256,0.0,0.0,0.03745952026075992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033856100037515977,0.03150826281928245,0.0,0.0,0.02861888115978667,0.0,0.09676567572324772,0.035534463805621856,0.18946854409316846,0.062138847461162536,0.0,0.04083939790149803,0.0,0.036677818774965634,0.16378244466914918,0.07886468800591315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04174949856085467,0.0,0.024828752746136745,0.0,0.0,0.03679148034939257,0.0,0.042741978306909935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03675888528299195,0.13170001660358188,0.0,0.038573979320119633,0.061072634491680364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03787838329769087,0.13082078065635105,0.0904852745976734,0.037126235396793696,0.0327091347719614,0.032781375304761565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259685605011996,0.0334322295297172,0.03505043266288519,0.1483566145935351,0.03755519899651279,0.0,0.0403500538288212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03929615296992989,0.5236319725102094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027230440242222858,0.02746648444863567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03629370593218055,0.0,0.042173039735739784,0.0,0.0,0.10040360756829764,0.08451728691273097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840274687005046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14006823711857738,0.04175976188366181,0.07095279618081504,0.0,0.07987598601434595,0.03544459245366822,0.0,0.03723786244643258,0.041495987021550385,0.0,0.0,0.042162382628266826,0.07119096672884931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031634023571234966,0.035235823255291135,0.11783047397786416,0.0,0.0,0.029518012176948636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06277184310394061,0.08555119200803353,0.0,0.0,0.07865644482546909,0.03948229018002106,0.0,0.15484560536161934,0.08486393200225761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03491204168472212,0.0,0.027851289226720158,0.08931988015065914,0.06475341412321074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09843734932600794,0.0,0.036393988755742464,0.029407543139255463,0.021599732502809357,0.0,0.03511188211277084,0.0,0.0,0.1005974843412369,0.0,0.0,0.038562464722651235,0.0,0.06398551367866122,0.08159398279508749,0.0,0.10924289279981557,0.11761019260442405,0.0,0.0,0.06661116689147452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042596953941514984,0.1071227106419994,0.0,0.053934644651539264,0.0,0.07549877950466398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04770820691868626 schizophrenia,PureHarmony,2019/08/15,"Just have some questions, and curious on what you guys hallucinate. My dad is a paranoid schizophrenic I am worried I’ll become one some day, I don’t have really any signs, I just feel like I’m living in a dream constantly. But that happened after a tough time in my life. I am prescribed Zoloft for depersonalization and anxiety. 25mg (Childs dose) I recently did mushrooms and saw the doors changing colors and such and it was pretty scary and it kind of reminded me of dad saw when he would Hallucinate. But he usually would see bugs and such nothing crazy and cool, just scary stuff. Sometimes he’d stare at the tv and change it to just Straight white noise. Can anyone explain that? Also What are your hallucinations? I’m incredibly curious!",5.1513472858077165,7.153806201438853,5.637462393721389,77.15153695225641,69.71942446043165,9.08332243296272,29.90255068672335,9.573946990214177,2.8854258992805755,598,24,108,14,11,192,97,139,0.11,0.773,0.11800000000000001,0.2792,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,0,0,8,4,0,0,5,1,13,4,0,0,0,23,21,13,0,2,6,2,1,1,0,2,4,0,1,2,8,9,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,8,11,3,9,14,2,12,0,0,6,0,11,5,0,3,8,67,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15342668440101045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13046824278448652,0.0,0.1467688466244772,0.0,0.0,0.13414974809085128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21188920264096306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4059151225971289,0.0,0.0,0.20732751646199785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373085340560648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09700784873975236,0.1370615274617343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18996699749799387,0.16965708592200074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19978786301202828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13551313432298795,0.0937308515458066,0.0,0.16941182248350745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18409041907386134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000617610837076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19518590276760064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21492194263416994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290747423698865,0.0,0.18943404996062707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288390456827014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897498843785247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21962851816445766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187241955399964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21130160466447012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948384593108824,0.0,0.2725771259511131,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,delanorosay,2019/08/15,"Delusions of being defective after cultic psychological abuse I was in an authoritarian fundamentalist cult for eight years. The last four years I began to mentally unravel. I would call it extreme emotional dysregulation, confusion, loss of sense of self, and inability to trust my own thoughts. I never had delusions, except of course the delusions of our spiritual beliefs. I think I began destabilizing because the worldview we had was so stressful to me. I began to seriously question everything we believed. When they shunned me, they said I was an antichrist, that I had been deceiving them the whole time, that I was trying to spiritually murder them, etc. So they placed their delusions on me, and at the time I believed them because I trusted them more than myself. But as I began to work through our beliefs and researched cults, group psychology, psychological abuse, etc, I began to develop my new worldview and began to trust my own thoughts. My curiosity is that I was conditioned to believe I was an evil person who just didn't know it or accept it. So one of the hardest symptoms to get past was the delusion that I was always doing something bad and just didn't know it, that there was something deeply wrong with me and just didn't know it. To counteract these conditionings *itself feels delusional*. To say, ""I'm a conscientious kind person"" feels delusional. Worse, if I follow my judgments of others now as unkind, manipulative, untrustworthy, etc I worry that I'm just being delusional. I mentally wrestle a lot trying to organize reality. For example, I eventually realized that I don't believe everyone is unkind, manipulative, untrustworthy...i only believe that about specific people. But the pathologizing culture itself complicates things by making me believe that if I have a trauma disorder I can't really trust myself. And on the other hand, they contradict by saying that the trauma disordered have to learn to trust themselves again. So when I stopped psychotherapy out of fear that it could complicate things or be too impressionable to someone without a solid identity, I then wondered if I was delusional to think I didn't need psychotherapeutic help. That I was delusional to trust myself with abandon. I know this question is, in itself, a betrayal of brazen self trust, but does what I'm describing sound like someone who is delusional or someone who is just slowly processing reality after having it taken from me?",9.444801960784318,10.018417687058824,9.502132352941178,58.477512254901974,59.18823529411765,12.448039215686276,41.002450980392155,11.93303328291395,5.494045098039216,1987,99,287,57,24,655,205,425,0.128,0.809,0.064,-0.9584,0,0,2,0,2,0,55.0,4,0,9,2,16,25,2,3,18,0,35,3,1,3,1,57,61,25,1,6,16,0,3,1,0,1,2,4,0,4,32,12,0,2,18,0,0,1,8,15,0,3,29,7,57,10,49,27,8,30,2,2,0,0,29,7,0,11,23,235,89,3,0.0,0.19791111747482976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06949393735594266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697343132561864,0.1018239921101133,0.0,0.0,0.5645793166393489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08528154827646328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668258698906669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19143847349545332,0.0,0.07308744949285967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939468749638766,0.0,0.0,0.2794350301204902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07980533914475617,0.075060885695179,0.0,0.0,0.09398133569980814,0.08445874966746228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043634877998551376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05598057311315762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08697148389507324,0.18359795007727506,0.06807858235075835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04080283518121835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07100429372347201,0.0,0.0,0.05574913082283992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16833365683230386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0619277801248997,0.06441448139150176,0.08066251923414898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0565941788515376,0.0635194500467478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07972769201552933,0.057901090985793185,0.14584996080459084,0.08725887421117867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18711927732447092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05350397794456025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944505308475643,0.13283424928588464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742556563991088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21229441858741205,0.12859297466103253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06982505984756762,0.0956699597176023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08680751882314265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097172877255078,0.1070303413570761,0.0,0.13260844276936765,0.09740041450824044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134069214983137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09324522784479618,0.0,0.0805086854541677,0.09057206138589204,0.0608023356855382,0.08481691365344397,0.08511230888697438,0.059329022199900425,0.09131417804253,0.0,0.10756612677311082 schizophrenia,pqlamzpqlamx,2019/08/15,"My brother was homeless until tonight. I found a small convelesent home that has been converted into rentals. Just a bed room and 2 shared bathrooms and a shared kitchen. $800 per month for a bedroom. My brother has schizophrinia and refuses to take medication. He 57. The other tenets don't know him or his situation. I worried they won't understand and I want to talk to them this weekend if I have an opportunity. What should I say to the them? Will my brother be able to maintain in this new environment? He keeps his cool most of the time but has voices and thinks he can talk to people in his mind.",2.7680769230769258,5.2870688205128245,3.643269230769232,86.30798076923078,78.74358974358974,6.635042735042736,27.698717948717945,7.793537801064563,1.7510974358974356,480,21,95,8,12,153,83,117,0.025,0.907,0.068,0.5572,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,3,1,1,4,0,0,8,1,12,2,0,0,0,20,19,9,0,3,4,3,0,0,0,3,1,2,5,0,5,6,1,2,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,15,4,12,12,1,11,0,0,0,0,19,5,0,3,6,62,20,0,0.24511393387750186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687547768691058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24586926104771156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21786852673528653,0.0,0.0,0.13470820777591472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24692650108786746,0.0,0.0,0.2474951990882255,0.0,0.1956476034976865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23673256474049034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699311390281539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949244383723152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755183315495564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18429517347042912,0.3940265905998822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15705911156184166,0.0,0.0,0.14292790599801242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25517224957364154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14457454888399368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489250979660944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,h-bryant4200,2019/08/15,"Medical Marijuana for schizophrenia? I've been wondering if anyone else uses medical marijuana to treat their symptoms. I was seeing psychiatrist and counseling psychologist since I was probably like 8 or 9, rough early childhood and a lot of death in the family. At that time it was mainly anxiety and depression but there were very rare times I would have hallucinations at that age. I was taking the meds i was given. A few months before my uncle died, I believe I was around 13 I stared having mild hallucinations(auditory and visual) it wasn't terribly frequent but enough to start making me question shit. My uncle dies in September of 2012 and I had what I consider my first major episode. I got extremely religious, I became a devout Satanist and got wrapped up in a delusion that I was going to conquer heaven with the antichrist. I was communicating with demons, they were always nice to me. When my psychologist suggested I tell my psychiatrist(don't know why they couldn't just call each other) it was almost like I wasn't allowed to speak, like I felt like couldn't physically talk about it. So I took like 2 weeks to write down everything I was experiencing and when I gave him my notes on my interaction with demons he basically threatened to hospitalize me. He went into a speel and put it down to hospital or Guinea pig me with meds. None of the pills ever had a lasting effect, tolerance buid up too fast or something and within a month or two I'd be hearing or seeing things again, but the delusions went away. One day I was hanging out with some friends(never really had a lot of friends) so when they broke out the weed I wasn't gonna say no. After a few weeks of smoking I felt actually like stable. I started weening myself off meds and with time I stopped having hallucinations. I experimented with acid in that time(only twice and didn't have a any symptoms afterwards) I think I had a good like 5 ish years where I actually felt like normal and good about being alive then in 2017 my sister dies and I start noticing hallucinations again. Then this past February my grandma that raised me dies. I've been dealing with frequent visual and auditory hallucinations some tactile hallucinations and delusions revolving around co workers and more recently paranoid delusions about government entities trying to get knowledge from me about my times as a Satanist. I've still only been using marijuana and it still helps- I've noticed certain strains now will cause me to be more manic or more dissociative or cause certain internal voices talk louder I guess or cause more external voices or other miscellaneous auditory hallucinations. But it always brings me back so to speak. Sorry, that wasn't supposed to be that drawn out. But basically any of you guys smoke marijuana despite your diagnosis. If so any strains you've found that really helped. I've found that white widow, sour joker, mk ultra, and blue dreams help me feel the most stable.",6.539978513107009,8.37286058845438,7.051508379888272,69.03129780833693,66.02048417132214,9.827990259275175,32.20498495917491,10.095792295376732,3.5212377309841014,2404,99,392,58,39,786,277,537,0.066,0.7929999999999999,0.14,0.9906,1,0,2,0,0,0,45.0,0,2,4,4,24,22,1,2,19,0,37,6,1,8,3,85,68,44,5,6,17,1,5,8,1,3,5,6,0,1,21,33,0,1,12,1,0,7,9,6,0,4,37,19,58,16,55,22,16,67,3,2,5,0,29,22,1,20,46,264,79,2,0.0,0.0,0.1444085836866894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07409104114132889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12313245084768693,0.0,0.0,0.15094872740587875,0.0,0.05660271584861048,0.0,0.0,0.05173604785337856,0.075812259991732,0.0,0.13173489637917396,0.0,0.0,0.06951673864433641,0.05689431416605278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06296067258966563,0.08336222985856692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07555282123087452,0.0,0.0,0.2280266241475749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047717908112630894,0.07628120707692844,0.06372811849825769,0.0,0.3071628382741454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06180977146462582,0.0,0.0,0.07645221645780924,0.0,0.0,0.06692886306413208,0.0,0.0,0.06649810882859067,0.07237714433270301,0.06975188746232097,0.0,0.037411942817471504,0.0,0.21312814964044094,0.0,0.0,0.06293648817001403,0.0,0.16225406122005787,0.05716506447475956,0.0,0.038657109345251336,0.0,0.04205064434580252,0.12411984946832508,0.11835431266831715,0.0,0.0815091451688837,0.07326246834591793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08339294480783711,0.0,0.14878330605968565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04066337730987148,0.0603123309314703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28918511677726993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580856747401584,0.0,0.0,0.04938939547837835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465611062538711,0.14907577863770838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11811741024767762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07249521838597726,0.0,0.16847790255180836,0.0,0.0,0.050138042330294376,0.05627329417739815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07063253638960923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07977453529719182,0.0,0.0,0.0743811330627299,0.08288656570068358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948007291725416,0.0,0.07305693237071895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05884040857876688,0.0,0.0,0.11792208506271212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07595043438064854,0.061205907182002375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05696168879706391,0.0,0.08282657904082953,0.15711308610209926,0.0,0.11817820582325755,0.061859574207031164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538094249855629,0.055631830450023866,0.11894191295558175,0.06467117062765254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04915616188424415,0.04741028047835297,0.0,0.0,0.2157229862108733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220643790945628,0.05023485759504347,0.0,0.07227820460385269,0.0,0.0,0.127808490991286,0.0,0.06105011188570127,0.0,0.0,0.11870182191151532,0.0,0.0,0.13718032002491384,0.06676513700435159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08023980451453266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05256090090602604,0.0,0.0,0.047647612589307116 schizophrenia,road_to_recovery1,2018/12/24,"How would you describe a hallucination? Would you say a hallucination is more similar to ""Augmented reality"" rather than a ""Virtual reality""? for example, do you see things present in the world around you that aren't actually there or are the hallucinations perceived inside your head, for example by seeing images that have no relation to your external world but rather could be in a different environment completely ? Alternatively, are they completely different to what i have described?",12.352721518987346,12.546931835443035,12.277056962025313,42.21912974683548,53.43037974683544,17.520253164556962,48.863924050632896,15.579741850924794,8.621883544303799,401,23,54,19,4,135,55,79,0.034,0.966,0.0,-0.3736,2,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,6,1,0,5,0,0,0,6,0,11,1,1,1,0,10,13,3,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,10,9,1,6,0,0,2,0,8,5,0,1,1,47,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.2310963962594748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108147524034508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4965901468853878,0.0,0.0,0.1890767854328701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4948406527492989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430395827412405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18832407367819728,0.0,0.0,0.3774203472076273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15732876225754774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33645187767750606,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Katherineos,2018/12/24,Omg you too! I also have the same experience of hearing voices in my head thatll never stop. They gi e me scenarios and theories that seem so real and you believe it. It made me do crazy irreversible things nobody understands. People dont believe you and they call u an attn seeking schizo. But they say its part of cia mind control program. ,2.695194805194806,5.293264363636363,4.178051948051948,81.90136363636367,79.60606060606061,6.8017316017316025,26.095238095238088,7.957251820313856,1.950851082251083,272,11,48,5,7,90,54,66,0.07,0.9009999999999999,0.028999999999999998,-0.3826,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,3,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,1,2,1,13,8,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,6,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,10,0,3,6,2,3,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,1,2,34,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17121647334179618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4824369665159455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186210346591323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24013245022198684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509247496054083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20943183751320696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197293697492468,0.0,0.24130736060073185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025875204576675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21618095266874865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651278717781922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23185049327362264,0.0,0.1484306590937003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24369378362318075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.170261689685247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949094876931464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17899800293874465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142239175135047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228866669360856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,confusedrabbitaunt,2019/05/19,"Paranoia is back Something has convinced me that some bad people found my reddit profile and will use everything I’ve ever said on here against me. And when I try to ignore that thought, another fear appears: “they are spying on you” etc. So, I have been on this sub for almost a year now, but I have to post from this profile to protect myself from (actual) Real people who has tried to harm me before, even though I am also aware that they most likely haven’t found my old reddit profile and this is all in my head. I am feeling pretty bad at the moment, but I am in the ward, so I am recieving help. Earlier today I realised that a kind of funny/absurd/nasty delusion that I have, is that people poisin my drinks but even worse, that people might do nasty stuff to my tooth brush that I am unaware of, like... you know, putting it in places it shouldn’t be and even though it makes me laugh, it’s also disgusting and stressful not to be able to lock my door while at the ward. Anyway, I just wanted to write this so you guys didn’t get too confused about why this profile suddenly posts on here. Take care",9.325470085470087,6.061391914027151,8.56313725490196,77.40522875816995,61.98642533936651,11.08919054801408,35.41528406234289,8.167268648758528,2.6479287078934144,867,24,176,7,9,273,130,221,0.163,0.737,0.099,-0.9423,0,0,2,0,0,0,26.0,0,3,2,0,20,14,1,3,5,0,23,3,2,2,2,30,36,17,0,2,5,0,1,2,0,3,0,1,1,1,19,5,1,2,5,1,0,2,4,8,0,0,6,3,27,6,24,25,4,24,0,0,0,0,10,10,0,6,12,131,46,0,0.12433754399200846,0.0,0.1213355070298507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245060897869784,0.0,0.0,0.1988653780169836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13037875606579455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560789643129683,0.20763331130128976,0.0,0.0,0.10580209204436157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12677041276276615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12180345731479204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13866922869650028,0.2463713254542475,0.11247042699950577,0.0,0.0,0.11174656720889853,0.0,0.0,0.13991430488589596,0.06286879816754408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27265939853688603,0.0,0.0,0.06496123489294753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12311371687290767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276061915181108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334083481490161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12947841849090586,0.06833266247031486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149008692511275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08299627611151784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13190248527637402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13047133659343008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447999897889857,0.0,0.1299062695744153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23816199414530675,0.12649598239382098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12499357397205735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14152334601551034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11827347734747605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572111594783778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14242823655013576,0.0,0.14233674037407915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934863590837158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443220113519121,0.09871012129121648,0.0,0.0,0.11785745329700648,0.0,0.0,0.16883406127966244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10738771658334036,0.0,0.0,0.07333750492116882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11219529398496746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12671057978141712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08006930176434325 schizophrenia,keepyourlife,2019/05/19,"Social media Life is hard. I can't erase what I've done. All of it was for everyone else. Maybe I can start again. All of this is reality. Reality is hurting me. I am told that I need love and healing Everything feels broken but it feels right.",0.039428571428572916,2.4004106000000043,2.5357142857142847,89.605,93.0,6.057142857142857,19.142857142857142,7.447530270364453,0.7422857142857142,190,6,41,4,7,65,39,50,0.107,0.8390000000000001,0.055,-0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,2,7,14,2,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,5,1,3,11,2,3,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895383727079405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363539563089776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703543089009143,0.25428165703051275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286118537201686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253452115463473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028852950445633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998437253676588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553577980136056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842439145730464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20979100367039968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24162297026229435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884142456123299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20026121333364694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703543089009143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,oU4EAo,2019/05/19,"Just Had My Psychiatric Assessment I don’t want to go through my symptoms atm but my therapist and GP linked and referred me to a hospital to get a psychiatric assessment. I had it on Friday and the psychiatrist said she didn’t want to put a stamp on it yet but she mentioned schizophrenia and psychosis. I didn’t know what psychosis was and I thought schizophrenia was different to what it actually is. I’m going back in a month and if stuff is the same she’ll feel more comfortable diagnosing. It’s been like this for a while so I know it’ll still be like this when I go back. I don’t think I have a specific question or anything but I wanted to get this out. No one around me knows what schizophrenia is (like I didn’t). My Mam thought it meant have multiple personalities (and she referred to the movie Split) and my girlfriend thought it meant I would start eating my hair or something (because someone she knows did this). No one (besides professionals) know my symptoms or everything that’s wrong (just bits and pieces). I’m not going to mention schizophrenia to anyone else in my life unless the psychiatrist is sure next month, how did people react to your diagnosis? What’s your story? How many times did you have to see your psychiatrist before they gave you your diagnosis? Were you put on medication, put in a ward, given treatment specific to your needs or something else? I just want to have an idea of what to expect, thanks.",4.5999004644990045,6.544700350364966,4.900119442601199,82.11407431984077,71.04379562043796,8.193497013934971,29.607830126078305,8.841846274778883,2.3841518248175184,1152,47,218,22,22,363,133,274,0.037000000000000005,0.8759999999999999,0.08800000000000001,0.9091,1,0,2,0,0,0,28.0,0,8,1,0,12,7,0,0,12,0,26,7,1,3,1,53,57,23,0,8,13,0,2,3,1,3,5,1,0,2,18,11,1,0,17,0,1,7,8,1,0,2,20,4,36,6,26,33,4,26,0,0,1,0,22,8,0,6,14,153,54,1,0.0,0.0,0.10826620962586787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07757524738640728,0.11367615169308252,0.09129819217800643,0.09876447467536686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17061954592356038,0.0,0.06763097580209915,0.0,0.09440593076610407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12112308650028572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260672899630082,0.0,0.11591379768164685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135243209183354,0.18536044059084505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971011426550784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05609707041203667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11592825293497692,0.0,0.2522101531317826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252432776836904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3048620531780823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0783636575455497,0.16260620910328288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248070598770067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11176530569087822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17711030704497413,0.0,0.0,0.08226423090101627,0.0,0.0,0.11799115022389535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15035825883977913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07691521815684904,0.09687279947976712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3345907759271801,0.12428366885431374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10553399746812707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08840871404582433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09400324611694963,0.17082159474194208,0.0,0.0,0.07852736488204924,0.0,0.08860073326824748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700535686566666,0.0,0.0,0.10456424679134883,0.2306284435840784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021431497192424,0.0,0.12881556953105527,0.0,0.07108900639628214,0.0,0.26423355237508106,0.0646928581389511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617526847859961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07881206740400712,0.12130082189086645,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MaryJayCBP,2019/05/19,Is there a handbook out there for people who are partners of paranoid schizophrenics? I’m bipolar and my partner is a paranoid schizophrenic. As you can imagine this isn’t exactly the easiest relationship to navigate. I was just wondering if there was anyone out there who could offer some advice/support?,6.175849056603774,9.254029981132078,6.132679245283022,69.9741132075472,69.94339622641509,8.768301886792452,38.90188679245283,9.3871,4.660904905660379,251,15,34,6,5,79,42,53,0.085,0.86,0.055,-0.1431,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,8,3,0,0,1,10,10,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,6,7,1,2,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,3,0,31,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30593978189309384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.349341960368783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30333677119912483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4697567342647734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.496517869459883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4744960102459295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jokemachinegun,2019/05/19,Any medication better than olanzapine? I’m diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic but olanzapine makes me too drowsy. Anything I should look into as an alternative?,7.671249999999998,11.852156958333339,8.383333333333336,45.64500000000001,83.58333333333334,12.4,39.333333333333336,10.125756701596842,7.381533333333333,133,8,14,6,4,44,22,24,0.063,0.84,0.09699999999999999,0.2047,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,4,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30060594089390885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3637655911998975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3909531174769796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4486666424518075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.371206693514923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950686491984512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4453141023976775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,QueenDaddy7,2019/05/19,"I made a poem about my Schizophrenia. Oh boy here it goes Everyone gather round Is everyone watching her I think shes gonna explode Look look, see her eyes They look a bit red She could be high Or right about to cry What's wrong with her Shes shaking and mad What's wrong with her What's wrong with her Why the fuck did she collapse Holy shit, shes fucking crazy Shes in the corner, officer Rocking back and forth I don't know what's wrong with her Oh you're gonna try today? You really think you can block me out You really think you're strong right now I know your weak spots and everything about You're mine and all mine Your brain, your heart your soul Never will be strong enough I will never be controlled You're a walking catastrophe Nobody will want you, never They'll all just give up Because I'll be here forever. She was fine a second ago I think shes really crazy I wouldn't go near her, sir She could be dangerous, maybe Look at you, trying to be normal Do you know how fast I can change that Keep ignoring me and I'll come out Keep ignoring me, and I'll shout I can make you hate yourself I can fill your head with doubt I can do anything I want with you I'm gonna show you what I'm about Hello, ma'am, can you hear me? The ambulance is on its way Hello, ma'am, can you hear me? Everything is going to be okay Hello, hello, hello Now your life is over Hello, hello, hello Thank you Mr. Officer ""Hello, hello, hello ma'am"" So polite, don't you think? ""Hello, hello helloooo You're going to the shrink They're on their way ""Hello, hello, hello"" What's that you say? I said, Get out of my head! I don't want to listen to you All you do is bring me down Whenever you're around You make me a fool I'm trying to keep my cool But I'm losing my mind I can't do this anymore I'm falling, falling, falling behind Locked inside my thoughts Round and round and throw right up I hate feeling the way I feel I cant stop this ferris wheel This isn't happening to me God, help me please Don't let them see That I'm fucking crazy Don't let them see The demons inside of me Don't let them see Don't let them see Get out of this, get a grip This isn't going to be it This is just a little slip You can do this Get up, get up Remember who you are Get up, get up You've come this far This isn't how your gonna go This isn't meant to be your road Don't let them tell you no You're the one who's got control Hello ma'am, can you hear me? Yes, sir. Loud and clear I'm sorry about that, officer I was panicked with fear It came on so fast It had been about a year Since my last anixety attack. -Guilty.",-0.4505396825396844,1.7305764857142842,1.4136904761904778,98.78019841269844,91.28571428571428,4.53968253968254,14.920634920634921,6.139981653823899,-0.7423948412698409,2032,40,477,20,72,663,210,560,0.163,0.774,0.063,-0.9954,0,0,0,0,0,0,52.0,0,29,8,5,18,27,9,3,15,3,66,11,6,7,7,71,137,15,0,7,4,0,6,0,0,9,2,8,0,8,27,24,0,9,13,2,0,16,19,21,0,2,11,27,91,6,46,101,5,59,2,1,15,3,90,27,4,2,13,271,118,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05856926395517949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06552614262159677,0.0,0.0,0.054372018533870234,0.058818512387046315,0.0,0.07516698070906445,0.0,0.050805656124651856,0.0,0.040277168496456864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07213403186815336,0.0,0.0,0.07375873540887562,0.0,0.07556931136617145,0.0,0.0,0.06989591938609632,0.11383117633484185,0.0,0.0,0.14821180161427888,0.10550699245945301,0.0,0.07257751306323756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06827053065419499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12627016580431155,0.11876336325013293,0.0,0.0,0.07434990546058717,0.06681645888874123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18324881992460126,0.24164099402007344,0.06338274018124412,0.187752555573261,0.0,0.052844195403658416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058427672883986585,0.0,0.0,0.1304657833074535,0.13561884588276302,0.0,0.2234054495197892,0.0782962029435507,0.04428698834295515,0.06980919919958553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17618475925046295,0.0,0.0,0.10893511564842713,0.053857887036606725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378179195521285,0.046668944245260816,0.0,0.06622197945450335,0.0,0.0,0.22193695839251515,0.07391820067383179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06251937496128393,0.08820778243517807,0.0,0.06637868352813918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06671436625934347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15287750166847286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06473699859092671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04477242013958706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725277381570514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12698316125182024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07484723597220767,0.1692766021069711,0.06285005572840595,0.05254348537820235,0.0,0.0,0.26325604724368146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06782244778272675,0.0546558354497502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739627281638015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05523954899969668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05775025684460507,0.0608306593718119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21168287570234087,0.0,0.05245416608394882,0.0,0.0,0.06262898220167137,0.0,0.0,0.13457662357941572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691377580121687,0.15733576960572285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05962013325019206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889595238935167,0.0,0.042548508684148514 schizophrenia,annabroski,2019/05/19,"Online diagnosis to help me sleep Basically I'm 23. F. My uncle is schizoeffective. He was Bi polar and used drugs in college and basically I have only met him once and he has been in the hopsital since he was 25-60 (now) moms side is sane with 0 mental illness and fathers brother had Bi polar and dad had Bi polar. Dad doesn't. Basically I have ptsd induced panic disorder. A severe panic disorder. Hypochondriasism, and a very possible mood disorder. I'm agorahobic atm but able to shop and do things myself I am super social and loveable and happy and emotional and warm. I love to organize and clean and meet new people and was afflicted the last year with a very very severe panic disorder. SOOO! I live in a 2 story house in NYC. I was watching TV today bored like always (the agarohobic life lol) 30ft away in the kitchen I see something crawling under the radiator. It's so dark I think it's a cockroach or bug. No big deal. Then I see it scurry to one side of the kitchen (out of my view) I screamed for my boyfriend who was upstairs. It was funny to me. He was playing games and didn't come down immediately. When I screamed I saw a distinct tail and a body of a slightly larger mouse run to the pantry behind the sink (which is out of my view from the couch) . I kept screaming to indicate to my boyfriend he should hurry to see it. But when he came down a minute later we couldn't find it.... No holes anywhere. No droppings. Nothing eaten in the pantry. I asked my downstairs neighbor if she had any and she said it was unlikely. I am FIXATED now on this rat. I'm scared it was not real and I'm having severe panic attacks that are making me question my sanity? Any help? According to my psyd (I see 2x weekly) and psychiatrist, I show absolutely no signs of schizophrenia and I am just extremely anxious. But I feel I'm losing my mind and that if it vanished it wasn't real? Can anyone help assure me I'm 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schizophrenia,szathrowaway,2019/05/19,"i will not be graduating highschool this disorder has turned my life upside down with 1, almsot 2 hospitalizations only since december i was a senior in highschool and i got hit with particularl strong negative symtpoms where i could not do.. anything. i became a different person... i am already surre what i will do next, try to acquire GED, in my own environment as school makes things worse for me once i can see a outpatient psychiatrist next month (yes.. it tooks that long.. i lied at the hospital out of fear) excuse typos and",5.171984536082473,7.400007680412372,6.048028350515463,73.29719716494847,70.1340206185567,9.386082474226805,29.650773195876287,9.827888789773867,3.1925061855670105,423,17,72,11,8,139,78,97,0.132,0.82,0.048,-0.8370000000000001,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,4,1,10,1,0,1,0,9,16,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,5,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,1,12,1,11,8,1,12,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,0,5,49,17,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23055581158893695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719288745148327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166810971489856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182839364145308,0.23944810171767586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23510062548367694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670977698709723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475711087291141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18489355724365236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13946019631478548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16676330072258702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4443918368318308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22250011961808652,0.0,0.15889817191010694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18242673801453047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114449770755761,0.16648753212513134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728263273633989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13880161763589885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23212525397705924,0.14184751674308368,0.22725225759444864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129141590368825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,luvlyflowers,2019/10/31,"I’m gonna kill my self Nothing is real anymore everything is an illusion.....everything we know is a lie.....words are made up,good and evil aren’t actual things.....people don’t mean anything to me anymore there like ghosts and I’m trapped funny thing is is that I’m not real either",0.903007518796997,3.3629874210526336,2.905012531328321,88.73842105263161,87.0701754385965,6.064160401002509,22.177944862155385,7.447530270364453,1.1405208020050126,221,8,44,4,7,74,43,57,0.212,0.696,0.092,-0.8442,1,1,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,2,0,8,0,0,1,0,10,15,2,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,13,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.210665292102084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42818492934825947,0.0,0.0,0.17764878247826382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3880335410256493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18106779857796992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23883646068121295,0.0,0.11864062426409512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546683850461816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20426850322386908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351538761272851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20714027642458813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966227187690026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4914316964165649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252073059425607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14341941368844152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,buttomeyes,2019/10/31,"I'm really not well as I thought. recently as time as gone by, I've just felt weird. I keep feeling like aliens stalk me and follow me outside. its gonna so bad I'm believing they're now taking forms of animals and people, I'm starting to think they're sending birds by my house to watch me. it's gotten so intense I barely wanna go outside without someone I trust isn't an alien. I'm just terrified and want these thoughts to stop. plus the voices keep screaming adding onto my stress.",1.201969696969698,3.7165159898989932,2.6456818181818207,90.78852272727276,86.07070707070706,5.3202020202020215,23.40151515151515,6.816661863887847,0.9034909090909088,389,15,77,5,12,126,72,99,0.22,0.711,0.069,-0.9481,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,6,7,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,18,20,9,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,4,0,3,5,0,0,4,3,4,1,0,5,5,9,3,13,14,1,10,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,6,39,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18799373571043654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536708493611423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11384435525369035,0.16084967790418556,0.2161826318457229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12795990085055073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597968649221921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4002534835674624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10999860836249033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15609306075963242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442390728394298,0.0,0.2223118805440073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19077179730301644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15936477892881126,0.0,0.0,0.1882383755429688,0.2579125294674568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16928738237587276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14426924684954115,0.0,0.35749339713681705,0.131288794053799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13280134513490666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20244000175836865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21703990229405135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,jspunk12,2019/10/31,"Are these delusions ? •I think my grandmother can hear my thoughts •My mind tells me I’m a pedophile for over a year, luckily this is gone •don’t believe in dinosaurs •Believed the dragon flies at the barn were cameras to watch me from the government •Believe my phone camera can see me and broadcasts what I’m doing to facebook •Completely convinced I was pregnant at 14 when I was a VIRGIN. convinced that a hot tub got me pregnant for months & that it was a boy •Believed my husband was going to poison my water Or choke me •Thought my ex loved me and tried to let me know for 5 years even though I’m blocked and tried to contact him •someone is waiting for me at my car to Kidnap me every morning",5.486231884057971,6.300286173913047,5.268260869565221,84.60210144927538,67.69565217391305,7.292753623188408,34.17391304347826,6.937597516519254,2.18148695652174,564,26,106,4,9,174,90,138,0.064,0.847,0.08900000000000001,0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,8,0,12,4,0,0,0,10,25,6,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,6,3,1,2,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,8,4,19,3,16,16,0,12,0,0,2,2,9,5,0,1,4,68,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284121329804694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7189033116873077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16725500099650056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10536228453987244,0.0,0.13440353755164985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906596054654238,0.0,0.12758372028028273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797920481956431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766870998428831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16312129127742184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397416089041687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16107099329435798,0.0,0.12732834393203507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12711778706088692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351618418149691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13942860817720934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10221477910841116,0.15672882324242676,0.25328411576975995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21660892198114406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20545291640208288 schizophrenia,aryssmaega,2019/10/31,"I got an internship. I'm coming here to say this because most of my friendships nowadays are fairly recent, and as such they've never seen me truly in crisis so I feel they wouldn't truly understand the absolute giddiness I feel right now. I remember tying a hangman's knot at 17 and not thinking I'd be able to see my 18th birthday because I'd off myself soon. It's bizarre thinking back to that period of my life now, 3 years later, when I'm in college and on my way to an academic merits award this semester and an actual, honest-to-God job. I feel like a person again, it's fucking wild.",6.9483746556473855,5.571148809917357,8.073347107438018,73.09971763085402,65.03305785123968,11.041873278236917,35.04269972451791,10.125756701596842,3.4603377410468323,470,18,89,9,6,162,85,121,0.096,0.805,0.099,0.0904,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,1,9,4,1,0,6,0,3,2,0,0,1,16,16,7,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,5,5,0,0,7,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,6,12,3,12,12,1,19,0,0,2,1,3,6,1,1,12,54,17,4,0.2225912775433544,0.0,0.217216977704506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711589526912555,0.0,0.2713791535457717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19174267602491932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33764651413643104,0.15901925315281265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20578204930077007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17802657875160374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22088749656420728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572228021350088,0.10874685468796193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17167611555842152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943581178050406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21978203296225213,0.0,0.25215252588032816,0.19009173480394706,0.0,0.17701351806216906,0.0,0.0,0.17737642921219912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852550056158469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23172537002565705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17668259534277542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433414847962177 schizophrenia,daplan-20,2019/10/31,"Is it schizophrenia?! Please please please leave me your advice. I’m feeling very lost. I’ve been having some issues lately and I really don’t know what’s wrong with me and why any of it is happening. I’ll list out what’s been going on. I’m in serious need of advice. 1. In the last few months, I’ve been becoming more and more demotivated and I barely get out of bed or go to my classes anymore. My gpa is dropping and I don’t have it in me to even try anymore. 2. I’ve been feeling very suicidal for the past week. I don’t feel suicidal at the moment and hoping it doesn’t change again 3. Over the past few months, I’ve been having a problem where whenever I’m out with my friend in public, I have this nagging thought that she’s not real and I’m making her up in my mind and everyone thinks I’m crazy. It’s a thought that doesn’t leave my head and I’m not even sure half the time but I keep reassuring myself that it’s fine and she’s real and It’s just my social anxiety playing games with me 4. Every time I’m in public I keep thinking that people are looking at me or laughing at me or talking about me behind my back. When ever I’m in class and I hear someone say something or look at me all I keep thinking is that they’re talking badly about me or saying I’m a liar or ugly or that they just straight up hate me and it’s just getting worse and worse. I keep convincing myself that it’s not real and I’m just anxious but I honestly don’t know. 5. I’ve been feeling very paranoid lately and I keep thinking that someone is trying to hack my snap chat or instagram or my phone or I’ve been hacked and they know my secrets. This started about 3 months ago and now it’s just getting worse 6. For years now, I always felt like my dad can read my thoughts and I always avoid thinking of stuff that he shouldn’t know about whenever he’s in close proximity. It recently hit me that it could be a symptom of schizophrenia 7. I feel like there’s a hidden camera in my room once in a while but the feeling is not always there. It just comes and goes. 8. The thing that really made me think I might be schizophrenic is that today when I was half asleep I thought I saw a spider on the ceiling. I was debating if it’s a dream or not so I really focused and grabbed my glasses and I saw that it was still there. I focused a bit more and got up and it just disappeared. It freaked me out and idk if it’s a hallucination or if I just was half asleep. I honestly don’t know",0.8476707505985068,2.8925747528517114,2.7906379383185467,92.40442191240672,82.8403041825095,5.721391353330518,21.717927052527813,6.937597516519254,0.5043552739050834,1944,63,432,24,54,650,211,526,0.14800000000000002,0.758,0.094,-0.9822,0,1,1,0,1,0,34.0,0,1,2,1,27,22,3,1,18,0,36,5,3,2,3,110,94,47,2,8,31,1,8,2,1,2,2,3,2,0,37,34,0,6,23,5,0,4,13,10,0,3,21,15,60,12,42,67,8,59,0,1,4,0,23,28,0,18,28,275,97,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13728715857527535,0.0622688415824872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17535090063903047,0.0,0.0,0.047769689592547626,0.0,0.05373799857708493,0.07935798652457941,0.13933031487430336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05401483882640628,0.05865247674909066,0.0,0.07758118927753951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07669043965690654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0743109548866071,0.060510709949903714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05608571591688373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09279364245415367,0.06354152966309537,0.05918528562002416,0.06712306438646769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131109329031201,0.05018375722851397,0.06744717710923477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05427188620453819,0.0,0.11010190884897243,0.0,0.07984484250063466,0.0,0.0561821441816738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0621183067902393,0.0,0.0,0.06935338302120232,0.07209266311026184,0.0,0.07917234857437473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06977012915600718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07331857467437512,0.0,0.3121893669750063,0.0,0.0,0.1930268255910008,0.057259866513200024,0.15848109790414447,0.14876074490642482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06863729575915997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797789804920747,0.0,0.07668180826577521,0.0,0.0,0.06646846472715544,0.046889751209797034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07451990629378114,0.07092843623676295,0.0,0.16820906369922387,0.0,0.0,0.05208651973892136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480969860025978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13411551311963768,0.04869973237299991,0.0,0.0,0.2313270442203411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721593613221649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07026501067513001,0.2398659842085754,0.13500416118741013,0.0,0.06935945155501336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11172487910077876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07160695184372351,0.1190384175665512,0.05407880356327671,0.0,0.0,0.0497204811395594,0.0,0.056098547226586526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08041486506197404,0.1536754476531341,0.0,0.06620602471852385,0.07301249186631861,0.0,0.11292214964133597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04666832178963928,0.27006480661095056,0.0,0.2230699133062289,0.08192201630077088,0.0,0.0665849954025828,0.0,0.0,0.09538484736960832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17388092301538716,0.0,0.0,0.05634710491665385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06338608993488434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147600292433577,0.0,0.07680297481135204,0.0,0.04523612160896934 schizophrenia,Lifesabitchyear2147,2019/10/31,"Early stages? How I feel: * Nauseous. My brain is like vomit and I feel sick in my head.  * With eyes closed I can visualise just about anything but it's uncontrolled. Recently have gotten more realistic.  * I’m aware that this is not normal but it feels weird saying that  * Disconnected from my body. I have weird desires to vomit into things and crawl on the ground / humiliate myself in front of others. I want to be a spectacle in a way but not realistically. Like in my head. * Finding it really hard to distinguish normal and not normal. Everyone says the things I say are weird. I know what they mean but not really. How do they not think like me?  * Lost motivation to speak properly because my mouth can’t keep up with my brain. * I want to go outside / wonder around. I want to be in nature and free. * Really don’t like being around others AT ALL. I want to live by myself. Only people I enjoy being around are my brother and mum.  * Used to be paranoid about being beheaded / stabbed but this is way less bad than it was.  * I feel like God rarely and if not then a misunderstood genius.  * Always been very anxious but less so as of late. * Felt very demotivated / with no energy for about 15 weeks before I started getting too much energy now. * Extremely socially anxious last year (again, better.) and I can muster faux positivity / talk to people somewhat well If I have to. I almost never actively seek to talk to people unless I have to. This issue feels less bad now that I feel 'out of it' all the time. * I feel like I sometimes hear noises in things but I always convince myself that I’m making it up and its easy to discern them but I get angry at myself because maybe I’m making this all up in my head. Again very slight and probably just me being anxious. Definitely me being anxious, actually. * No direct visual hallucinations (like things in front of me.) but sometimes I feel like I can see patterns in things / catch things swirling around me / coming up to me in the dark. Bad before bed but I read somewhere this can be normal for some people.  * I know about schizophrenia and have done a bit of research and it resonates with me a bit but not to the extent of other people who have it badly. I don’t feel too paranoid but a recurring thing for a while now is that things are a test of character and I always have to be very correct / upstanding because people are watching me and judging me through a camera. * I didn’t really want to make this list and want to delete it. I feel like I’m looking for attention but deep down I know I have to look for odd behaviour / weird things.  * Really loud music helps me visualise but I can do it without. Gives me lots of energy / makes me feel really good.  * Not so much in the past couple of days, but I feel like things are communicating hidden messages to me (like music) and my mind is connected to other peoples. I know this sounds weird and I don’t feel special thinking about it anymore.  * I feel really good when I melt into things and whisper to myself. Tonight I started praying into the ground and I was briefly 2D which felt so good. * I kind of want a diagnosis for something (anything!) because I'm starting to loose focus on school and life. Like I used to be able to study and now when I'm in Year 12 (I'm 17) and things matter most its really hard to focus. &#x200B; Sorry for wall of text. I know people ask about things all the time and I don't want to be annoying. I just want someone to tell me if this relatable to them if they were in early stages of schizophrenia? I feel so bad because it feels like no other schizophrenics know they are one and thus I feel like I'm making stuff up. There's this intrusive thought now in my head now which is like, ""Your a schizophrenic"" and I really hate that because surely noone with this would think they have it. IF I'M MAKING THIS UP I THINK I SHOULD KILL MYSELF.",1.2669784078744648,3.9193100772303597,2.8053054750528723,88.06381106237438,89.37283621837551,5.501689250933397,19.613077987519905,7.048011613610866,0.6518832040938882,3032,92,581,48,102,988,289,751,0.138,0.72,0.142,-0.5658,0,0,1,0,0,1,104.0,0,1,7,3,33,41,3,1,19,0,53,15,9,12,7,151,128,56,1,21,33,2,21,15,0,2,6,8,1,0,55,39,0,1,37,1,1,5,19,15,1,1,11,34,88,27,100,103,17,78,1,1,5,0,24,38,0,11,46,411,143,5,0.04162408536015577,0.0,0.0406191029650135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04168050890152294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10390372036681776,0.0450996790973696,0.050577819695767585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18809347452848488,0.04127990795188974,0.0,0.0,0.06850615129897329,0.14821704315639694,0.0389129009732479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737718631826153,0.15224193656855087,0.0,0.07083806176548924,0.0,0.0,0.03681312095563973,0.0908854413393971,0.04623497535678573,0.0,0.09293249034691856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03585546388937655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046056258748255766,0.0,0.0268440915826344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0425958908972032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03977359732261939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3577885997726937,0.20815378428726555,0.07993129894799393,0.0,0.03804365993529536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043493733259826466,0.03992961550521591,0.023655926937600068,0.10473692387623444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07457400935825159,0.041095166832144835,0.17087328051374784,0.0,0.04691336934727442,0.0,0.027899747018849504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0434447308391198,0.0,0.03699739957930363,0.04605088332969691,0.04334507961577423,0.13725305250040534,0.0339291850611948,0.046953781303799125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029400322460325763,0.3050313838981327,0.0,0.03675482996161256,0.0,0.06990749681750574,0.0,0.045437606161320115,0.035387308881826014,0.0,0.0,0.1667064011653431,0.0,0.04181698840160464,0.0453408314759683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04202846052083459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0611969841367184,0.0,0.0321030606732193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16313106409131392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028205557479837662,0.03165699256952018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03973489933969968,0.2308551986209415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04487780408196626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041635349428796285,0.0,0.2399890943460228,0.0,0.04109876272608004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09930343004055206,0.0,0.042125796588337684,0.03316900694354558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04243051318000673,0.035267952450397544,0.03204425447906749,0.08233456949260162,0.04659475574663344,0.0883852255677296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04764961926220609,0.0,0.0,0.03923020785113066,0.0,0.0,0.06691172624032549,0.03638128526060329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594915059696043,0.10668413276753946,0.0,0.03304487432051099,0.04854267781106873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07189969076411018,0.0,0.13737691859598042,0.22095867589456308,0.0660785230343911,0.033388330549792344,0.0,0.037425051590472436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040124132928240235,0.04513954500848378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02956855598650304,0.0,0.050577819695767585,0.05360909254539087 schizophrenia,Ennviious,2019/10/31,"My job is making me delusional and I'm not sure how to deal with it. Hey there. content warnings about secret societies in this post. pls dont read if you've got any delusions with that. So, I work as an escape room host. I move it, it's great, but a problem has risen. My character is a higher up member of a secret society. the society and it's workings show up in all 7 of the company's rooms. my main room I'm recruiting new members through a test (escape the room and you join us) and in my secondary room I've hired a group to come investigate the apartment of someone we've been trailing. my problem is, I'm having trouble...getting out of character. the line between the stories of vox Aurea and reality is fading. I cant get it out of my head that I really am a member and we're doing all of these things that happen in the rooms. I dont have a doctor, what can I do to cope with this? I cant leave the job, I like it and I need the money. im just not sure how I an keep myself from falling in full force. my delusions and paranoia are my worst symptoms.",0.7941043478260852,2.8125701688888896,3.1194396135265694,90.12165217391303,82.86666666666667,5.868599033816426,23.11594202898551,7.079830092131019,0.8345188405797104,828,30,179,11,23,284,125,225,0.107,0.835,0.057999999999999996,-0.9072,2,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,1,1,0,2,6,7,0,0,18,0,17,3,1,3,4,32,27,14,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,6,0,14,14,0,1,2,2,1,3,6,3,0,0,2,0,22,4,27,25,5,23,0,0,0,0,7,17,0,1,3,120,36,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10853812636458604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13748716265424651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16454764677869754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633643668904707,0.0,0.0,0.3741160625185187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16677597583407394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12765217267761386,0.17596710782494002,0.0,0.0,0.14113980411974336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163802667452163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17240277906845067,0.0,0.3167703277956299,0.14186589551421133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16900060128569894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07797584141716278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653880704317824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16963681510333392,0.0,0.1183464516837998,0.0,0.15414928350385854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15285923614917565,0.0,0.0,0.3054443866752947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15965003483832602,0.0,0.10224823056689933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352343600961385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30085512124060737,0.1658926222040198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603569440855752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19198738020851144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323913651662603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,papdefer,2019/10/31,"How aware are you that you are paranoid or hallucinating? I'm generally aware that I am hallucinating and sometimes aware that I'm paranoid. I'm less aware I have odd speech patterns and about the social stuff, until people tell me. What's been your experience?",4.270625000000003,7.209026479166668,5.116500000000002,75.47850000000003,75.875,7.173333333333334,26.266666666666666,8.238735603445708,1.9836616666666675,213,8,37,4,5,69,32,48,0.141,0.8590000000000001,0.0,-0.6593,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,5,8,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,0,2,7,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,24,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.415999080856528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948310939114696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4335127713238896,0.0,0.0,0.4206063599216105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4868364050006495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37170777856820175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Noah5353,2019/10/31,"Is it just me or Schizophrenia is just some kind of threatement we keep for the renegade and not enough loved people in our society ? I feel like i got into this just because i was a bad little kid who were drinking and smoking too much for is young age and now, i have a restriction about those like if i drink beer i will get back to psychosis again. While me it just seem to me that i get monitered for everything i do, especially if i drink and i kind of think of it like i get punished by psychological induces hint that only people threated like crazy like me will understand. Like a secret world only for people like us who are hated by the most and they dont know what to do with us exactly so they give us medication with side effect who are pretty bad in order to shorter our time. When you are at this point you’re alone nobody loves you and you end up homeless just because of society pushing you trough it without leaving you a chance. Yes they give you a chance, if you deceit yourself about what happen, you can go back. If you can’t then i dont know what it is going to happen",4.897925016160312,5.338785117647063,5.356473820297353,84.77539592760182,68.86425339366515,7.943244990303812,28.00290885585003,7.7094869923839395,1.5031949579831934,865,27,178,9,14,277,121,221,0.128,0.757,0.115,-0.4983,0,1,4,0,0,0,10.0,6,9,3,1,15,16,3,0,7,1,18,7,0,2,1,36,38,15,0,4,12,0,1,7,0,2,1,0,0,1,16,10,4,2,9,4,0,3,5,5,0,0,3,1,34,11,25,33,4,24,0,0,0,2,27,9,0,8,18,130,50,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066097522095214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16431705978138772,0.17842509091400344,0.1302655335740471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25044711244712603,0.3140073161983529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094634477213511,0.11040122028233418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09602693945695244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05402491034986688,0.07633131576189325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16746899862577247,0.2049942132804416,0.12144690277219113,0.0,0.08545507998103602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18896839742823374,0.0,0.0,0.1054890122005255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497027111606893,0.0,0.22252882686168246,0.11744032243429435,0.0,0.0,0.11313524554091076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3653993612160859,0.1070884797764436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19286666679831133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763682623396988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07854463071779093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16252348550077736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222221803175992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10100468319560814,0.0,0.0,0.10870152297539117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09726923800474133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0684630617822101,0.0,0.0,0.06230317974828802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11123120024008944,0.3855703335148575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10299642206810164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,J8hh5fooos,2019/10/31,"How can i stop my dad from talking to me? How can i stop my dad from talking to me , i get anxiety when he talks to me and he wants me to have a job in the outside world outside of the internet because he doesn't understand how internet marketing works , im willing to do whatever it takes to get him to stop talking to me , its hard when he is that obsessed with me like a school bully , i get panic attacks when i get in public and he doesn't think i get panic attacks because he thinks thats gay",9.060377358490566,4.605168339622644,9.550660377358493,73.78844339622644,63.716981132075475,12.864150943396226,42.5377358490566,10.125756701596842,4.109007547169812,388,17,85,6,4,133,55,106,0.242,0.735,0.022000000000000002,-0.9661,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,2,3,4,0,8,1,0,3,0,13,18,8,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,3,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,1,15,1,14,17,0,9,0,0,0,1,14,3,0,0,7,53,19,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455896388096948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3407263424525624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18257341423969675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3911931014997446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341473165242004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16175657798113932,0.0,0.14860457733642654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07316068418962286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3514006324694783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151555819980719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3755951611701368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11259397644809226,0.4814561317748645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19190855164733592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15589588005847202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08832691082194755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10902037712145746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwmefarawaylol,2019/10/31,"Advice needed Hi guys I just had the toughest conversation with my boyfriend of three years. I was diagnosed schizoaffective a few days ago at my outpatient program (I was misdiagnosed bipolar last year.) My mom is very sick and was very abusive towards her kids. She is trying to ruin my dad financially and using her kids as pawns. My boyfriend told me he doesn’t know if we should get married one day. He was thinking about proposing but doesn’t know anymore. He said I have a lot of issues to deal with mentally and he’s scared of how I would be in the future, even though I take care of myself now. I acknowledged I needed help and got myself into an outpatient program. I have healthy coping skills and I believe in myself. He wants me to think about signing a contract when we get married (if) for if we ever had kids that if I wasn’t feeling good he has custody of the “kids”. I know everything he says is right, but it hurts so much. I have a disability and I’m being punished for it.. I’m not my mother and I would never hurt anyone like she has. He told me that he knows I’m not my mom but I just feel like I’ll forever be in his head the sick girlfriend who he doesn’t know is a good lifelong partner. Would this hurt you, or am I being unreasonable?",2.756231209735148,4.623494751968504,3.9646957766642816,87.20140300644239,75.88976377952756,6.665425912670008,25.71868289191124,7.520522993642371,1.2834708661417318,993,36,202,13,22,324,138,254,0.11599999999999999,0.778,0.106,-0.1617,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,3,1,0,1,11,11,1,1,10,0,28,5,1,2,2,48,52,20,0,11,12,4,2,2,2,4,4,2,0,6,6,13,0,0,10,0,0,0,7,6,0,2,11,4,38,5,21,33,3,18,0,4,0,0,39,7,0,6,13,135,44,2,0.0,0.13822948813938596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11400413341407985,0.10341688759502883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11570078345562393,0.08157519947516972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13144201792683827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894820778517942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15047913531615012,0.12027696242168225,0.0,0.1184129820993542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770564334210567,0.10553058421810534,0.0,0.0,0.10485138926319408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797911996440145,0.08334582511098236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12190577119107845,0.0,0.0,0.19570689875464564,0.09330802279318373,0.0,0.0,0.11551714360360213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11973241588931502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07819839598617179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3746783508926568,0.0,0.0,0.12176842547621901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32058141789141675,0.09509791780946494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11399369764971096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09918479873514337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11757133968747213,0.0,0.0,0.27327434419824104,0.0,0.0,0.08576253389411409,0.1730119147927506,0.08997959190083088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.079055532343319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09963166201508963,0.11097556482150496,0.0927770532572666,0.11680247395661232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08771790375234778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14950902698080082,0.11462321822350305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22295768568277066,0.0,0.07920818653438769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10076149589916668,0.0,0.19252243886782655,0.06881230867437828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24862737804142315,0.0,0.0,0.15025745733434526 schizophrenia,SDHNSKDHNUIOHD,2019/07/14,"who were you talking to? I reconnected with someone from my past. She opened with ""you have a special place in my heart."" who are you talking to? We spoke. I remembered a lot. I remembered that she is a very important person to me. And then I remembered why I got lost back then. I can't cope with that declaration. It destroys my head. Who were you talking to?",-0.19092091007584244,1.8871366901408453,1.8301408450704244,91.66900325027086,104.6338028169014,5.56489707475623,22.362946912242684,7.010146845296331,1.1942255687974002,279,12,58,6,13,92,44,71,0.094,0.835,0.07,-0.3913,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,4,0,1,1,3,1,0,3,0,6,2,2,0,0,10,9,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,6,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,1,17,1,9,4,1,7,0,1,0,0,15,3,0,1,4,46,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454596826914847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512961445994049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19414250099134264,0.0,0.0,0.22416678977974755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20650087533161374,0.16082515953377755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18058371001609905,0.0,0.16517552660790374,0.19764188374866665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6428765628854447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602827188189448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4561418791359722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15608466387793088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706960666607551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Chaos_emergent,2019/07/14,"Seroquel question. I hope this isn't too personal to ask. When I began meds I started at 50mg. After months of trying to stop my episodes I've gone up to 400mg. I don't know if that's a high dose or not. If you're also on Seroquel are your numbers similar, or have you gotten to a point that you went back down?",0.9073913043478256,2.3336903913043514,3.0892028985507274,93.39728260869568,79.8695652173913,5.759420289855073,23.09420289855073,6.42735559955562,0.4111333333333338,243,8,57,2,6,83,53,69,0.037000000000000005,0.914,0.049,0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,9,12,6,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,4,0,8,1,10,8,0,15,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,6,7,36,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23268583118024225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720144306006128,0.0,0.0,0.223735303453484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3074221171052932,0.0,0.28899541973782106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15990759701074014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231982242638673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322467105216647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25406075336414685,0.0,0.0,0.2750574222184582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32594910758805923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20594760953307226,0.0,0.0,0.24326105006414625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19754717624622994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26972889100167097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Clear_vision,2019/07/14,"Strange perceptual distortions, has anyone had similar experiences? When I see a person's face out of the corner of my eye, regardless of the position their head is in I see it shift 90 degrees for a second or two so that it's looking right at me and then either shift to where it started from or turn another 45 degrees so that it's looking behind me. It's as if their face became detached and moved independently from their head. This happens once or twice when someone's in my peripheral vision. There are times when a room I've been in before will feel significantly smaller. That sense of your body's position, how you know that if you were to extend your arm you'd brush against the wall, that's the one that feels altered. Myself and everyone else in a room seem to've expanded and take up more space, as if my limbs can extend further away from my body.",7.276011904761907,6.798550291666667,7.4233333333333364,75.08833333333338,63.94047619047619,10.561904761904763,34.142857142857146,9.994966539143718,3.1813642857142863,691,26,132,13,9,224,106,168,0.021,0.9440000000000001,0.034,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,5,3,0,8,0,0,0,8,0,9,8,8,2,0,19,21,19,0,4,7,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,12,5,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,8,17,0,22,16,2,23,0,0,5,0,9,16,0,7,6,92,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18628849791410626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12422166721809405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16691427993180286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15117273241330656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39467299830342384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484093428138382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16975855169702556,0.0,0.17378230287271276,0.0,0.0,0.17965709030674706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15710119749402374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3646539736957224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09763545407384233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983737004285294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18882091383091335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18919854454427126,0.12038475043496802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551229427541513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15171781672432538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831387130659499,0.16173195071603985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15052791128586707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12574629816264046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335756984855387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10359302697540944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19323943041051056,0.1735447420503878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,badmotherpupper,2019/07/14,applying for disability I’m recently diagnosed but haven’t worked in almost 5 years. I applied for disability a week ago and had my initial interview. I was just wondering what peoples experiences were when applying & having a child? are they weird about it/see you unfit or do they not care? just slightly paranoid about them calling cps and taking my 7mo away from me (we live in a stable house hold with family),4.622727272727271,7.166974909090911,5.710389610389612,73.71415584415587,72.63636363636364,9.594805194805195,30.48051948051948,9.957137785484203,3.6256285714285714,336,15,56,10,7,111,64,77,0.106,0.857,0.037000000000000005,-0.6264,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,1,3,1,5,2,0,0,3,0,7,1,0,0,0,12,11,5,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,10,1,9,8,0,8,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,3,5,38,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22372235468982854,0.0,0.2527251778447285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734569399704825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23712219272993101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577113222882331,0.0,0.25732135002982365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561634931893413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24687906110652175,0.2379242873682256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29121616554056834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22285886577459446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17497063575237984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491978239442121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18976065159472394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024464671501777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736986625343811,0.18373787348391346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16252641587988606 schizophrenia,Jakusten,2019/07/14,"Have medication helped you ? &#x200B; 📷 I have been diagnosed with schizotypal, and have been offered to go on medication, aripiprazole and citalopram. And i have decided to give a proper chance this time, and have before been on medication but quit because i convinced myself that i didnt need it. But i do. So i just wanna know if i has helped you at all? thanks in advance. :)",3.755714285714287,6.4398294285714295,4.661428571428573,79.45357142857145,76.14285714285714,8.0,28.57142857142857,8.841846274778883,2.6648571428571444,300,13,53,7,7,97,48,70,0.0,0.8109999999999999,0.18899999999999997,0.9226,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,11,4,0,0,1,14,16,8,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,0,10,2,8,12,1,7,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,1,43,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23314545348949026,0.261465024707175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13117061307968073,0.0,0.1831007710606389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21840130952071496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20641850454247485,0.122290710798044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884587784719338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118256292906713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6503080945368555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15955188393836234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22886846686426845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981071456039348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12547211929625368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261465024707175,0.0 schizophrenia,natanxd,2019/07/14,"Friend Diagnosed With Schizophrenia My friend was diagnosed with schizophrenia. I want to know how I can help him. He talks about people talking about him on the radio and on Spotify. He talks about his headphones electrocution him. He said that he saw nudes of himself on Facebook. How do I talk to him when he is delusional, do I tell him they are delusions or do I ignore them or do I play along? I'm afraid he might hurt himself.",2.7020749665327983,5.360439662650607,2.9343775100401612,90.45034805890228,80.08433734939759,6.098527443105756,24.88487282463186,7.3871296695380915,1.224425435073627,344,13,67,5,9,105,52,83,0.067,0.787,0.146,0.7096,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,6,6,0,1,1,0,9,3,1,2,0,12,14,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,0,0,1,4,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,2,17,3,12,10,0,4,0,1,1,1,25,3,0,3,1,46,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4292432082001901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3267380449787842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417333208492699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22636613898378424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11620972115170472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243195344516719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465957465212757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011414062515648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6798356384659174,0.18482032734082246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12472119025880438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TheUltraKai,2019/07/14,Im fairly certain i have disorganized schizophrenia. Like i know for a fact im schizoid (negative schizophrenia). As in lack of emotions and morivation. But also i feel like my mind is scrambled incomprehensibly. I just feel this sense of numbness or heaviness if i may in my brain. I might be able to type these coherent sentences to you guys but really whats going on in my head makes no sense. It has become so bad that i was failing math from 7th to 9th grade. I have no idea how im in 10th right now. Also i tried to commit suicide through carbon monoxide and things just got worse. But i dont even know if its the poisoning because ive been having mental slowness. I was a normal kid but now im just so fucked up. Idk what to do about this tbh. Also im dissociating as in i dont feel like im making movements of my body. I feel like im looking at someone do things.,1.5465000000000018,3.681899316666669,3.4533333333333367,88.11500000000002,80.83333333333334,6.0,23.88888888888889,7.1686216300943375,0.9498888888888888,687,25,144,9,18,231,109,180,0.237,0.685,0.078,-0.9892,1,0,0,0,0,2,16.0,0,1,0,1,13,10,2,0,3,0,16,6,3,3,3,30,28,17,1,4,10,0,4,4,0,2,2,0,0,2,10,2,0,0,7,0,0,2,5,5,0,0,4,5,19,5,22,21,1,14,0,1,1,1,3,9,1,5,7,94,29,4,0.09637907736692528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312229400485857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08047250384463155,0.05875179100462355,0.10644311883222696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070554278469522,0.0,0.10759092481609764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259111217602462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10841348976862533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0636574716281271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949286295358958,0.20655969638514496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891009039939601,0.0,0.0,0.05477445072433315,0.0,0.07708315256660468,0.0,0.0,0.09543043929021423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09891273874295888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088002470456418,0.7287415960229393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10593484078047673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883437956249562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08093415129731578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12866756507644705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712744138493916,0.10224297042700517,0.09731539355403443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09443103260387624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0617429048885735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08230720546502221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08166167949106826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542306768216772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12805995288843364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06543506704334874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821851373183048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FreezyFrost,2019/07/14,"I miss feeling things. Anyone else? A post on r/Psychosis prompted me to post about this. I just wanted to share since this community has passively and actively inspired me from my lurking. That and I feel numb and alone. Been feeling that way for a while now. Sometimes I get a nostalgic feeling for a fleeting, singular moment, and I remember how it ""felt"" to be in that certain moment. It's as wonderous as it it torturous. Knowing that I used to be so full of life and ambition... only to be emptied out by whatever it is that causes this, whether the post-trauma of psychosis or the medicine. I remember heavy sensations in my chest and a hole in my stomach when I was forlorn and sad. I remember uplifting tingles in my face and a surge of energy of ""feels"" in my body from happiness. I remember the intoxicating fog in my head and rush of sensations all over my skin from eros and arousal. It was nice to feel alive.",4.1838014527845,5.943094615819214,5.407380952380952,78.81266949152544,71.76836158192091,9.35092816787732,33.54681194511703,9.784248007369934,3.5331794995964483,725,37,135,19,14,241,102,177,0.09699999999999999,0.763,0.139,0.7717,0,1,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,0,6,9,1,0,9,0,8,11,7,3,2,34,21,18,0,1,3,0,8,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,15,11,0,0,14,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,4,8,19,5,29,14,2,19,0,2,0,1,1,10,0,2,5,100,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14179175399271324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572679624075604,0.14027481931644736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15207001538624088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14063861397056768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11436612660190937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4153381144081771,0.0,0.1314497711641982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07152694075196629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573736565831755,0.0,0.0,0.14050349435846196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07523912234724071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09669968361399817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10412202688505387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3933499464567035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6203443557547137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11324880134151087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13540203225956562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09095325383195783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11824151517752984,0.0,0.0,0.08074980991414257,0.10866840456815707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484670695938975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Jade-Ranger,2019/07/14,Lost and not sure what to do I have been thinking of ending it. I feel nothing anymore the voices have been louder than ever. I can't afford meds or help I fear that the world is trying to kill me but if I do it first my family would be free I don't know who to tell or what to do I just don't know how much longer I can withstand....I'm lost and not sure what to do,0.5012220309810687,1.6812083132530162,2.540309810671257,97.9686746987952,80.32530120481927,5.224784853700517,16.676419965576592,5.288315135182226,-0.8709194492254729,282,4,72,1,7,95,53,83,0.163,0.7609999999999999,0.076,-0.6339,1,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,0,0,3,3,7,1,1,2,0,15,0,0,1,3,18,21,7,1,2,7,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,0,4,0,1,0,5,4,0,1,4,2,10,4,7,15,1,4,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,3,3,54,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21261802280309366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898865764880052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19392871415010526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20210852576636654,0.2412492062277564,0.1084024086513683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823606687034107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14370160550667432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23719160840444345,0.0,0.2356471069035693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4680656746708315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.238139800509403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576018747888911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20571371385404988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4041215032350846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18738697160274775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13737294060789312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455572512801471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522970428693762,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sm-502,2019/07/14,"I'm ""new"" hello everyone, &#x200B; I don't know where to start. I'm 28-year-old man and ever since I quit masturbating I've been hearing music and freaking out. I'm not scared of being crazy but I am scared of my family because since quitting I also been remembering bad things with my family that I'm not sure what really happened. I see a doctor and she put me saffros but I never really trusted her to do the right thing or the system because my family works in the local mental health community and I personally disapprove of some systemic things that go on in the system a non-conspiracy sense. so I really need siblings in mental health to turn too going forward. does anyone else live with there family working in the system? are there any good books on how to structure my/our crazy lives? whats your favorite fiction books?",5.5952897727272735,6.823695631250002,6.602727272727275,73.63136363636367,67.6875,9.318181818181818,29.54545454545455,9.573946990214177,2.8453125,671,24,115,14,11,224,102,160,0.113,0.809,0.079,-0.6627,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,4,8,7,0,2,7,0,7,3,0,1,3,20,20,10,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,7,7,0,0,2,2,0,4,4,4,0,0,2,2,15,3,16,17,1,22,0,0,1,0,7,11,0,2,5,71,22,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09227534262676183,0.0,0.12502230880727971,0.14020844314991973,0.07846745728652893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0806816233871216,0.11822813033794632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963437433509384,0.1406782988854406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11810399636031843,0.10097637945104544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09639145063971742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10437460044826176,0.0,0.1102577017479252,0.0,0.0,0.4351082657666408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311547515151866,0.09678156106985727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203678580182814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453030349767849,0.13005009940452092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06341395274454134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20377855424198751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23256692256502096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555836970427727,0.08899395395875775,0.11144196720752184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12107977172479105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007519149136766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599630845174146,0.0,0.2454576206594831,0.0,0.0,0.2217605628555185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13071154485168926,0.09854029513689676,0.0,0.0,0.2310460354392377,0.0,0.0919488987931318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19089946593216456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816718668963822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10875135386104966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22997498484271875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12550846641391522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16800694954590134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020844314991973,0.07430576732727573 schizophrenia,I_am_stoned_AMA,2019/05/12,"Short survey about suspectibility Hello /r/schizophrenia! As a part of my diploma at a vocational school with a focus on social pedagogy I have to do a group project which involves writing a scientific paper and doing a presentation. We chose to do our project about the suspectibility and early detection of schizophrenia. To get some statistics, we created a survey for people who experience this illness. If you have a few minutes of time, we would really appreciate it if you answer these eight questions! https://forms.gle/GUZ3uTcinDvmZryW6 If you have anything to criticise or improve, please tell! (It's supposed to be short and superficial) Your answers are submitted completely anonymous and we will not receive any kind of information besides those provided by answering our questions. The results of the survey will be but in our scientific paper (which will only be read by a handful of people like teachers etc.) and will be part of our presentation held in class where only students and two teachers will be present. My school is located in Germany. If you have any other questions about the survey, feel free to ask in the comments or PM me! Thank you for your help!",8.746706016755525,10.268018628712873,8.228415841584162,63.744649657273435,60.73267326732672,10.76984006092917,39.795887281035796,10.727762888450028,4.838476313785224,961,49,138,23,13,304,119,202,0.019,0.871,0.11,0.9568,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,8,7,0,0,4,4,0,0,14,0,20,2,1,1,0,34,25,14,0,5,8,0,2,1,0,6,1,0,0,0,9,11,0,1,10,1,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,2,19,5,28,13,5,15,0,0,0,0,30,9,0,10,6,112,28,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21401675312573315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12949167021775634,0.0,0.14710785657928346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16498616072070835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17549501216776422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539256577064166,0.0,0.0,0.07956459124420233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08221270728289942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547329755416683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638634385012474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07687684024640244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23935467190431456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408052957989157,0.0,0.21818351112307796,0.0,0.0,0.17273108860621467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5288286485242996,0.0,0.15739990746540575,0.0,0.10080713133592056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31850802627466035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604059756881406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13753723727681566,0.1448734826277682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09175632125595587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537152409653723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11178212840799018,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,BigHillbillyDick,2019/05/12,I spoke to Jesus several minutes ago. He was genuinely nice and offered to titrate me off my medication.,4.1431578947368415,7.079876210526319,6.1255263157894735,68.06618421052633,76.36842105263158,10.115789473684213,41.078947368421055,10.125756701596842,5.627084210526316,84,6,13,3,2,29,18,19,0.0,0.8590000000000001,0.141,0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5053521975262962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.574307755225275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6440417368023975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Willben44,2019/05/12,"How bad is psychosis? Has anyone had a not terrible/enlightening psychotic episode? Disclaimer: I am not diagnosed (however, I show some symptoms) and I do not want to be. Nor am I trying to romanticize/downplay the disease because I know it is a very tough thing for some people. I am genuinely curious if anyone has found positives from a certain psychotic episode or from schizophrenia in general that they would like to share. :)",4.762894736842107,7.853540815789477,5.504473684210527,72.51881578947369,75.05263157894737,9.589473684210526,37.131578947368425,9.827888789773867,4.8174789473684205,346,21,53,11,8,112,56,76,0.08199999999999999,0.718,0.2,0.8536,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,4,0,11,2,0,1,1,15,14,5,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,7,3,7,10,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,1,42,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44685215878568985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667981127207533,0.19478537649656327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32432097634927404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3503532862299685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175607904820338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15610850543565455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215251155156648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321188825205948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2122846445271999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21694307445220684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636495772497629,0.1884698344595081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.226988270384908,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,falling4everandever,2019/05/12,"My dad is delusional and I don't know what to do Sorry if this breaks any rules or anything, I don't really know where to post this. So, for a while, probably over a year at this point. I've noticed that my dad has paranoid delusions sometimes. I have psychotic symptoms myself, and so did his mom so it's seems like it's something that runs in the family. I think his delusions are specifically related to like, being monitored and stalked or something? He's shut off my family's phones and the internet multiple times over the past year bc of this and sometimes acts really eratically, constantly going up to his room and back downstairs, and leaving for like 20-30 minutes, and I have no idea what he's even doing. When he gets like this him and my mom fight. He calls her a liar and a deciever and I guess believes she's in on the whole thing and that shes hired people to follow him around and watch him or something like that? I really have no idea and that's part of what makes it really difficult. He refuses to talk about it. My mom has asked him what he thinks is going on, what he thinks she's lying about, etc, etc, and tells him she's not lying, but he just insists that she knows and refuses to actually communicate or listen to her. Back in late February/early March things got Really Bad, to the point where my mom was having breakdowns sobbing in front of him and they were on the verge of divorcing. One night he even was yelling and like demanding that my mom give him her car keys for some reason, and he ended up jist doing something to my moms car so she couldn't drive it. The next morning my mom was about to pack up and leave somehow with the dogs and my brother and I, trying to talk to my dad, him still being closed off.(This would be really really bad bc my moms family is in another state and she doesn't have a job, my dad is the one who controls the money) Somehow though they made up? I don't think he ever actually talked about whatever was going on, but I remember them saying they can try and start over and things went back to normal. Now, 2 months later it's starting to happen again and I don't know what to do. I just want him and my mom to get help and for us not to go through this again but I have no idea how to go about that because he refuses to communicate or listen to anyone and I have no idea how he'll react to the suggestion that he's psychotic or schizophrenic and should see a doctor, so any advice would be greatly appreciated. TL;DR: My dad has been having paranoid delusions for over a year now and believes my mom is in on it and won't really communicate with her or listen to her. I want him to get help but I have no idea how to go about that and I'm terrified that this is going to tear my family apart. My mom doesn't have a job and her family lives out of state so she's completely dependent on him, so if she gets kicked out or they divorce or something that would be um. Really Bad.",4.7568877954485504,5.174115011686143,5.726245936209472,82.08414265003078,69.1669449081803,9.443827431684387,27.28235655917758,9.4824395486982,2.1252577629382308,2328,69,485,47,38,770,230,599,0.09300000000000001,0.86,0.046,-0.9801,2,0,5,0,3,0,50.0,1,0,5,1,36,14,2,0,19,0,50,3,0,9,1,99,89,62,0,10,19,17,0,6,0,6,3,5,1,0,36,40,0,4,16,0,1,15,15,7,1,2,10,7,70,7,70,67,5,79,0,1,2,0,88,34,1,17,32,337,106,4,0.0,0.0,0.09484903064446958,0.0,0.0,0.04748928064883631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06609644249646061,0.050959108888175834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0339807639060804,0.0,0.03999191002253112,0.043262411778525016,0.045432452558785516,0.0,0.0,0.11210629749419984,0.1217315861727744,0.029624813312186093,0.0,0.0,0.10950632562952456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04962386357691195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05095394694816957,0.052517037776007636,0.05450664877140039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04974198396366373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04304329231880783,0.0,0.10839895298614882,0.06419687572624433,0.043959559893907464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22906875555878345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156153478714068,0.04661950964227619,0.1933350446798711,0.0,0.0388681598510029,0.05357932835762744,0.05353603789025019,0.0,0.042974940048376216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06514826194569376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.274305425582108,0.0,0.0,0.09645178361287944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10683248383460543,0.0,0.05482051936983594,0.10291626453201924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14245480065770494,0.0,0.042912813662625636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045984484033070185,0.032439458691764206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6260896776646875,0.038790359887935125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051684391011914264,0.04560581324056821,0.04761559884270829,0.0,0.05532900238369056,0.0,0.0,0.06586235515968346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05262676240824106,0.04639217030927896,0.033691647233219366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09188139951464608,0.0,0.04654333021305705,0.0,0.05239672843456534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801973862343867,0.04996670909587185,0.0,0.0,0.0550519183791395,0.0,0.0,0.038646980490640886,0.0,0.0,0.03872621410109386,0.044241679864936406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18706509088114004,0.09612908132941073,0.0544013418943623,0.0687956516060329,0.0,0.038810325464994376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05051179954619479,0.0,0.117183392345766,0.042476684474548485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968588054648914,0.12455822309594974,0.04774716509021305,0.0,0.028337811517110775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06598953366637059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05845725949503033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05732857118193425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04505071667377796,0.0,0.05425779150687966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356760741216467,0.0,0.0,0.0938863137753126 schizophrenia,polarphobos,2019/05/12,"My voices and other hallucinations were all connected and predicted future events in my life which made me believe them . Anyone else? When It first started I just brushed everything off as delusional and not real . But then everything came together in my life and predicted events in my life . Which made me believe it was something else . Once I did that the voices and everything gradually faded away and now I don’t have any symptoms . My trip Lasted almost 4 years .",5.892185886402759,8.411158253012054,6.094526678141136,72.48674698795182,68.87951807228916,9.562134251290876,31.1342512908778,9.957137785484203,3.614622719449226,377,16,59,10,7,120,57,83,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,2,1,15,9,10,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,6,7,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,6,3,11,0,6,3,1,18,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,11,43,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16971907152642976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11525854979125748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11851087352617085,0.1736618378944577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15924079560114335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38191284760005295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938506298703506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28317315731133635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4569782168585194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441675292019972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13815641742378024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591459578144791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207497857594813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805005945094557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192915952353506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13048115921025275,0.0,0.0,0.11996541321388896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761643000182004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10914556530097623 schizophrenia,whut_up_ribs,2019/05/12,"Can anyone tell me what hallucinations are like? So, I'm professionally diagnosed with Bi-Polar Disorder 2, and have been since I was 16. I'm 28 now, and most of my meds don't seem to make much of a difference. over the last year and a half, I've been hearing stuff and seeing things move when I'm trying to fall asleep. I don't know what's going on. Can anybody tell me what it's like to hallucinate? I don't know if that's what is going on, but Ive got my suspicions.",2.945473833097598,3.5722079603960424,4.991598302687411,84.9741584158416,73.35643564356438,8.543705799151343,23.33946251768034,8.841846274778883,1.2499323903818955,368,9,86,7,7,128,67,101,0.061,0.899,0.039,-0.4515,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,12,2,1,1,0,12,24,8,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,8,5,0,0,3,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,4,2,8,2,9,20,2,11,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,3,6,51,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520979505333015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207824438030382,0.0,0.22726644980057656,0.2493015330524385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472479862291474,0.0,0.17397394215968354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451655377727204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390911794469401,0.17731122316417572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125426342538256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519906606761598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416203047226538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311937575357532,0.15990528643215945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17333859276884148,0.19802582585270195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17993823318891394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24901312128336486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3802514076425745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14451338648567608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14768462614678454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400784273892905 schizophrenia,gravoclock,2019/05/12,"What is like to live with a parent with schizophrenia? I’ve grown up with a paranoid schizophrenic mother my entire life. She has gone untreated and not medicated for almost my entire life. I feel really alone when I see my other friends’ relationships with their parents and then compare it to mine, which I guess is bad for me and I shouldn’t be doing that. If anyone has any stories to share to help me feel like I’m not alone I would really appreciate it, however I could see many people not responding as I’m basically asking you to tell me about your personal traumas with schizophrenic parents and I could see how that would make someone really uncomfortable. She will never accept the fact that she needs help. I don’t know how to come to terms knowing her whole life will be torture and stress because she goes untreated. It is hard to remain forgiving and understand she loves me and it’s not actually her, she’s just suffering from disease. If this isn’t the right place to post this or someone doesn’t like this post because they feel offended or uncomfortable, I will delete. Thank you.",6.145320910973084,7.393427483091787,6.308795721187027,76.16663043478263,66.43961352657006,9.972256728778467,30.727743271221534,10.125756701596842,3.1161569358178065,887,33,159,21,14,283,116,207,0.153,0.727,0.121,-0.7402,4,2,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,2,0,5,15,2,1,4,0,19,7,0,3,2,43,38,16,0,8,9,4,4,3,1,6,6,0,0,1,13,13,0,0,8,0,0,3,9,6,0,0,1,7,30,9,20,27,2,12,0,1,3,1,28,3,0,6,7,108,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.11470635639277682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117703714747429,0.2434810509790222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993420742182103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08218976174295646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10988812557379236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09814464532331307,0.1433079229494576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101254073066697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18769924141189795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17830190712808536,0.08397372672348595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09081449442208236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294883838110011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529667410988623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15757503692629368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12919863157054146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490752099401193,0.1722787362514543,0.0,0.1037938387847714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10608838987075593,0.0,0.07846178468252442,0.11917154939590333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841359396646335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08715766646600204,0.09065747025612599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3915573620951324,0.0,0.0,0.08149047109357488,0.1026352164751246,0.12280885637040352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22515004262458055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259058142351198,0.0,0.0,0.1261986716061086,0.0,0.10038225607486873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810029508729869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19918993910344526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13464668720669948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273896685321968,0.10821907015369256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12236784233122913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131234099650464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16700030642867572,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ManifestedBeing,2019/05/12,"Alternatives to Sarcosine and glycine treatments. TMG? I am looking for other solutions that can be as effective as Sarcosine for the treatment of negative symptoms of schizophrenia. I am looking into TMG [Trimethylglycine](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trimethylglycine). It is mentioned [here](http://www.schizophrenia.com/sznews/archives/003813.html#) and the review of glycine treatments is [here](http://www.schizophrenia.com/glycine.htm). What is your experience with glycine related treatments? More resources: [\-Research review of TMG](https://examine.com/supplements/trimethylglycine/#summary) Is it as effective as Sarcosine while being less costly?",18.06522727272728,24.422277519480524,9.158555194805196,46.543547077922106,46.53246753246753,12.161688311688314,52.48214285714285,11.20814326018867,8.530014285714287,567,33,42,16,8,137,51,77,0.063,0.826,0.111,0.5622,0,0,3,0,0,0,58.0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,9,1,0,2,0,6,11,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,13,9,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,38,8,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4438134791588379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7620008935758866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4715763288233178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,vteead,2019/04/30,"Words in my mind that are not mine, go away go away Lately the externally sourced verbiage includes the following: ""I do not mind dying"" ""I don't mind being killed"" ""I do not care what happens to myself"" How do you handle this if you experience similar? I was thinking that developing some verbal prophylactic might reduce rates of suicide among youth and others. How I describe what I experience: Sapient Non Biological Entities exists, difficult to perceive, and understand, yet might have more understanding of human ways. There are humans with varying degrees of awareness of this, humans have telepathic/empathetic traits.",10.243205128205126,11.213048192307694,9.777692307692307,55.83397435897436,57.46153846153846,12.31794871794872,42.33333333333333,11.855464076750405,5.76380641025641,508,26,67,14,6,164,74,104,0.08900000000000001,0.878,0.033,-0.7217,0,0,0,0,0,1,18.0,0,2,0,0,4,3,1,0,2,0,12,0,0,2,0,20,20,5,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,7,3,0,0,4,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,1,0,11,1,11,16,2,11,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,4,3,55,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32086918077095866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17410114554942832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772218644788531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33407198699860025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19409362500678626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510024563465746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18892058011091087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19262465692149305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36229863557213576,0.5172566019582263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18678366551540465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10941607844292812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3555342520171405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13554129695139894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Bobo9062,2019/04/30,"Heard voices that scared me for the first time last night. They sounded so real. I am not diagnosed schizo, but I do have bipolar 1. Last night I kept hearing what sounded like a man talking through a walkie talkie, but I couldn't hear what he said. All the sudden I saw AND heard a filing cabinet flip over and it made a really loud bang, at that point I was scared shitless and laid under my blanket, eyes wide, trying to fill my head with other sounds. It seemed to work and I fell asleep after that. This was about an hour after taking seroquel to go to sleep. Will this get worse?",2.9663793103448266,4.8638421896551725,3.1753793103448267,92.95755172413791,75.3793103448276,5.67448275862069,21.082758620689653,6.2581,0.11684758620689585,458,11,95,3,10,140,86,116,0.08800000000000001,0.883,0.028999999999999998,-0.7717,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,2,2,3,0,2,7,0,7,6,4,1,1,14,19,7,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,10,0,1,10,5,0,1,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,1,8,12,11,1,13,9,1,18,0,0,2,0,9,5,0,1,11,58,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18626379869024634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15609771216162105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09587898058872596,0.0,0.10429576813326534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18833927002355136,0.0,0.4136693442366506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18072524725265127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299178335089331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965612880675171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736462711490082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444326745624681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734809332882423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088801755051886,0.1175643681858448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17456473014171234,0.0,0.3674609339256871,0.0,0.0,0.1670651068388522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836474698787436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13798039434855866,0.1475023554089803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700903589417024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245945963837113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336010602146396,0.0,0.1870173995194115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,imPwP,2019/04/30,"Anyone else on Risperidone and Escitalopram? What is wrong with me? Any side effects? I've had MDD in 2016, and got over it in a year and a half, now I'm again on something. I'm from India, the doc just gave me this prescription since he knew from back then. I've read that one is a psychotic and the other is a mood stabilizer. Also any side effects? I've read up online about various things and they seem scary. I've been on Escitalopram before and it was tough, no idea about Risperidone. Crossposting it.",2.002554545454548,4.5227977100000025,3.2954545454545467,87.62772727272728,81.9,6.436363636363637,21.090909090909093,7.686295010490155,0.8745000000000003,401,12,82,7,11,130,66,100,0.113,0.887,0.0,-0.8738,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,2,7,3,0,0,6,0,6,0,0,2,0,13,12,8,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,7,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,2,0,2,6,0,3,0,12,6,1,14,0,0,0,0,3,9,0,1,5,51,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19643370225523166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340795645418028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17175324994456478,0.2516814209721656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888776543017002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090167414143633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051959816773488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19645623012554067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27729128427700706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16644819373314124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4914016475529845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236162883451294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031912739857224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18910132449531014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16318854857926168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26856260318357184,0.0,0.15818046901274144 schizophrenia,clw1udl0,2019/04/30,"Housemate issues I have autism, and I'm not sure if I should be posting here, but I am as my housemate has mentioned paranoid delusions and hallucinations, and I'm trying to understand him from your spectrum (as opposed to the one I'm used to refering to I guess) The thing is he's hard to live with. He'll empty an entire can of air freshener in the house to the point where it causes me issues and I feel like I can't bear even being in my room choking on it, he knows it causes me problems and distress and if asked he won't even have a reason, was there a bad smell, nope he just wants that. He stands for hours in the kitchen blocking and common areas blocking them, while wearing headphones with loud music playing and not taking polite requests to get out of the way and let me have a turn. More and more I feel like I'm hiding in my room because I just can't face encountering him. I realise it's smaller stuff, but it feels like I'm constantly in a state of unease while I'm at home. I'm losing sleep and I'm starting to crack; so many times a day I find myself exclaiming that I hate him in my head, and as of today I've caved in and it's been out loud. But I don't really hate him as a person, I just hate the situation, his behaviour and apparent disinterest in considering what anyone else might want beyond what's best for him. He's also damaged the house a bit in his time here. Previously it's kind of been explained as accidents, but today I notice he's seemed to have pulled apart and off the seal from some plumbing, and I'm conflicted over whether and how I should address this with the owner, it's minor but it seems like he'll damaging things. I've tried to talk to him and I try to frame it reasonably with what I need and get his input, while not pretending that I have any kind of authority. I've been a a pretty good place, and have for the most part liked it here up until he moved in, but I'm increasing worrying this will make me melt down. I'm sorry to ask here for advice, I'm just feeling illequiped to address this. Thanks even for reading people :)",6.896177125055631,5.3876576074766405,7.273991989319093,79.21235202492213,65.21495327102804,10.11499777481086,32.530485091232755,8.841846274778883,2.429681219403649,1648,52,344,21,21,541,212,428,0.161,0.738,0.10099999999999999,-0.981,1,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,1,1,2,17,22,3,2,21,0,25,5,4,7,1,75,65,41,0,8,16,0,5,5,0,7,0,2,6,1,23,26,1,4,13,3,0,3,8,10,0,1,4,8,38,12,56,51,8,47,0,3,0,0,29,27,0,8,18,222,61,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903993253587144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07397990589463986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06290971066159448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06468487394025613,0.09478703310675987,0.0,0.0,0.17296800476200302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07724166460664683,0.05639300281473327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09708313381781893,0.0,0.1009965400754692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900657156213351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997002944506686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059661048708355986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07727991296892747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18330518518599384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871025642984193,0.19826666286209446,0.0,0.0,0.08455211238781818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666491155176188,0.0,0.0,0.07759267618484962,0.0,0.0,0.1019097708268988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08287044452601693,0.27400227821119644,0.09494155427373592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09279468687126252,0.0,0.09110333638081068,0.21348735084542766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19311200714207774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19266905704473025,0.050840865207339936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09459734931389917,0.0,0.2259776258561175,0.0,0.08168768512269807,0.0,0.0,0.10349459642442617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06175088652999479,0.0937902299077978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09813808260965266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09832308068280003,0.0,0.06859470752466781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10532281011459983,0.0,0.0,0.06268690946277078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10017889832228742,0.0,0.06413451916925297,0.08077582777630185,0.09665285827096767,0.0,0.08745148816380363,0.0,0.08859863939234733,0.09411553651883728,0.0,0.08851920810022662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09253464966822557,0.0,0.05926402837484774,0.1902305838685151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684345586154703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10398468354477426,0.0925764245902977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035569404014467,0.06547878182011296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590137673260422,0.0,0.0,0.08718921756917747,0.0,0.0695557177062279,0.07435572453803399,0.0,0.08517042466573688,0.0,0.0,0.12291855550622666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10788620119273144,0.0,0.1753765967880004,0.0,0.0,0.18842386879750253,0.10062389658999908,0.0,0.09630577200468678,0.0,0.07989860524034803,0.0,0.0,0.10912913583484413,0.07342982661930228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939480048125238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,chromo777,2019/04/30,"Am I on the spectrum? Hi I am 20 and since I was 18 I been seeing flashing lights and colors. When I look at the ceiling it looks like is flashing and glowing. When I close my eyes I see the same thing. It’s like someone keeps turning the light on and off over and over again. It never goes away I tried all kinds of medicine and it does nothing for that. (I never used drugs btw) I used to think I was going blind. I used to think other crazy stuff like someone is following me taking pictures of me because I was important like I was the chosen one. I never really told much people though. I was diagnosed with Aspergers when I was younger then with depression when I was like 14 with anxiety disorder. I also have a lot of manic episodes and depressive episodes too when I am off my medicine. I Geodon now I used to take vraylar it worked well, but I recently stopped because insurance won’t cover it. I have trouble showing my emotions. I can relate with some stuff schizophrenic people deal with. Like the negative and some of the positives. The only thing is I only had a few episodes where I heard voices. When I am off my medicine sometimes I see stuff that isn’t real like animals and people. If I was to be diagnosed what would you think I would have?",3.050175246440308,5.080848951807232,3.8939704271632,87.30367196056956,75.54618473895582,7.097553851770719,27.38243884629427,8.00094639256281,1.7703317269076306,995,40,196,16,22,318,128,249,0.091,0.812,0.096,-0.1053,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,1,13,12,0,0,10,0,26,6,1,4,4,37,46,20,0,3,2,0,0,7,0,3,5,2,0,0,15,15,0,2,3,1,0,2,6,3,1,1,12,13,38,9,23,30,7,27,0,2,9,0,5,11,0,4,21,149,53,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08007276512301836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07659806655549856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09407406859490466,0.0,0.0,0.12207486923264715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10322813824410812,0.17248114649629748,0.2032567407745859,0.0,0.0,0.1147559928350812,0.0,0.0876231687099841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11611732909128565,0.0,0.0,0.11263114162356648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05690536233131033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08899885571721894,0.0,0.10426847645080538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34242426230719697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16816552767383008,0.0,0.0,0.0851257124340189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07360600506311653,0.0,0.2316759310728897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09607604404310677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06784969671155049,0.15230454822083625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20824958727432208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11396821063499372,0.06414491295868091,0.0,0.09886486335814684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393684715806404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08282737111865589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696771906818294,0.0,0.09902969606153747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08371195111694088,0.0,0.0,0.3438697020265538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15056841663966727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13304191868435328,0.19247499515086694,0.09837579182684232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956771202766028,0.0,0.06798071272344422,0.10891110957735974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459156739225153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09002759125193154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0728947768009813,0.0,0.0,0.14225689794054575,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,polarbrahlyphobos,2019/04/30,"All my symptoms cleared up after I stopped my meds , any one else? My schizophrenia started when I was 20 in college diagnosed a month or two later . So I took the meds for my parents to be happy but I kept having the feeling that if I stopped them and felt with everything sober I would be better off,It worked. I could only stop taking my meds for like a month at a time which in that month I started to get better , then I would take meds again and it would get worse . So at this point I’m 22and in a Even worse situation then I ever been in I went to the hospital that summer and winter once cause my mom called the cops on me for talking to myself on the deck then my therapist call the cops on me saying I seem agitated,mainly cause thought she was going to send me to the hospital again . I ended up in a half way house and my symptoms got worse then I stopped taking my meds again , and it was working things were clearing up. But I got caught and had take them again . By the end of my lease I told them I was going back to school . So I found a way out and I stopped taking my meds and all my symptoms completely cleared up. I’m 24 now and about 5 months off my meds and feeling better then ever back to the old me . I’m even about to graduate from college in a month and im one of best in my class .",2.2384363636363642,3.5769716618181846,3.4450000000000043,92.62750000000004,76.01818181818182,6.3090909090909095,23.40909090909091,6.782984794422108,0.5163818181818178,1017,30,231,9,22,330,127,275,0.086,0.809,0.106,0.6705,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,3,6,17,6,0,0,16,0,14,4,0,2,7,42,41,24,0,5,4,2,3,1,0,3,4,1,0,0,8,13,0,6,6,0,0,6,0,0,0,4,17,4,42,6,38,18,3,62,0,0,0,0,12,19,0,3,36,160,50,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04793493351936408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840337168977048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07397385103933853,0.18702536256987407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14395428931961926,0.0,0.0,0.1448232291454659,0.0,0.0,0.07390636976083861,0.0,0.0,0.05627972647076147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07154484576828092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05888451006355161,0.0,0.1248646540011344,0.0,0.0,0.09311463231181266,0.12752266242878627,0.0,0.0,0.06335096321728494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07128270728498655,0.0,0.06768048899577367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07728754430221912,0.0,0.0,0.0736551807369491,0.0,0.080121040136068,0.0,0.1127529765964399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07503684552170037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08133483577002164,0.0,0.0,0.07614021017315277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034437362239816006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5480816769970275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08255585857844004,0.28131821504916044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07396634233952737,0.07506847876957011,0.09553033406229787,0.05361005677224698,0.0,0.0,0.07826968672707019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06663488398239494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05605567775125668,0.0,0.07133862579388857,0.0,0.06417053333011916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07923258333778722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09978494640866968,0.0,0.0,0.2946597789967249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197951655252806,0.2649947574925934,0.056656383808338276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184315570480136,0.046829755887625474,0.0,0.0,0.05596038803951398,0.041102699626525706,0.0,0.0,0.0673552551089484,0.07831586666096099,0.0,0.0,0.06885750530248738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190176589012696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06534400422149474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026336552217619,0.0,0.21550292271530785,0.15022007807235782,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,LooseChangeATX7,2019/04/30,"My divine birth I post this here since I've been accused of having this disorder. I'm not interested in confirming or denying that accusation, but am instead coming here to deliver a message that they dont want me to say, because I will decry them. The digits of my birthday add up to the number of the beast, six six six. And my birth sign was in the 9th House when I was born. The skies, clearly, see me as the Higher Devil. They plot against me. I know this. I'm not the demon. They are! I immediately discovered who they were when they told me I couldnt possess my weapons. This was The Sign. The Disarmament. My compliance is my fall. So I refuse. And I share this message with you, those who might be going through the pain and persecution that i experience every day, whether it is from the dentists who are planting tracers in your teeth or whether it is from the Digital Jihadists trying to kill you for their profane cult following: ARM YOURSELF! ARM YOURSELF NOW! AND KEEP ARMING UP! ACQUIRE ALL THE GUNS YOU POSSIBLY CAN! Anyone who tells you that no one is coming after you is your enemy and is one of those after you. They are coming for us. We need to fight!",2.798397129186604,5.121575219298247,3.978133971291868,85.00011961722487,77.50877192982456,6.777033492822965,26.15311004784689,7.84624498591911,1.6258263157894732,922,36,178,15,22,300,131,228,0.16899999999999998,0.777,0.054000000000000006,-0.9829,0,0,0,1,1,0,29.0,2,8,8,1,7,8,3,0,14,0,22,6,4,0,2,29,35,14,1,3,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,17,11,0,2,1,0,0,6,5,5,0,5,6,2,37,3,24,25,1,22,3,0,1,0,30,6,0,3,9,140,54,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12985198125087982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320642212185415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4799153222472527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11976687757698358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212838489159346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21764944842276726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15646775831994558,0.0,0.0,0.18165893953704135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10554264787780816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142831375452992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16506660366736653,0.20545938345806009,0.0,0.10206075506585233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970077962089858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13770079669057608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516823144697955,0.0,0.19760736369605253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093588821584561,0.1778577920991925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14768317157154456,0.0,0.0,0.1479859499707417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15362032164429135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16231776458096786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17745281290933956,0.0,0.1260841532592293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22338494169544626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953592112925116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,libra69420,2019/04/30,how to help someone who isn’t diagnosed/getting help any ideas 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schizophrenia,-safe-,2019/10/30,Hi I am anxious in a parking 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schizophrenia,kei__bei,2019/10/30,"How did you feel after learning you were schizophrenic/schizoaffective I have only recently come to learn that I have schizoaffective disorder, I feel somewhat relieved to have an answer that at least somewhat makes sense and to know that I am not just losing my mind, but I also feel incredibly overwhelmed with guilt and shame in a way. I have overcome most of the shame when it comes to the idea of depression and anxiety (previous diagnosis') but the idea of trying to talk to anyone openly of schizophrenia and schizoaffective makes me uneasy and makes me want to cry quite honestly. I feel like if people were to know this then I would be looked at so much differently? How did you feel? How did you cope?",7.419,8.24978470769231,6.7228846153846185,75.8058653846154,63.46153846153846,10.5,31.634615384615394,10.411451182825502,3.257,572,20,100,13,8,176,79,130,0.191,0.7120000000000001,0.098,-0.9506,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,4,0,2,7,9,0,4,5,0,12,0,0,6,0,38,26,15,0,3,5,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,9,0,0,12,0,0,2,1,6,0,0,5,6,15,3,17,19,5,11,0,3,1,0,5,4,0,4,5,76,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337240094214883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12792115468972032,0.0,0.0,0.11692256954927152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880866460548531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18368089473033591,0.0,0.0,0.14402444091736236,0.0,0.0,0.174707004202571,0.19164607895674207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4227517048119016,0.11946042542190155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3775370711383873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18379705288258635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08169416763537267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404208320549198,0.18707393879418047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33485752782177725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16884230347223894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12292431889190238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271766674344797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11592776365309213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17785670712928506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16510739823768714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13440332869342114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11352990563949028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09862938734553664,0.13272970150357108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878672312144675,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,doodi3bob,2019/10/30,"For some reason I think I have schizophrenia but I also think I often believe things that don’t really make sense. One time I smoked too much weed and looked at a possum for five minutes and was convinced it was a demon and I just let it in my house. For the next 3 days I was running around my house terrified and feeling it’s energy. If I looked around a room and focused around I could “see” the energy but I never visually saw something. Oh yeah it’s prolly also important that I’m a teenager and smoked weed like 80 percent of my time awake in the past year and couple months(I’ve also done LSD twice). I do weird things like look around and bounce from face to face to face focusing on them. My social skills are ass and I feel like I forgot how to socialize and say/do weird things. I convince myself I have an illness or something but I actually feel the effects of it( I might actually have had an illness but can’t tell) . I’m trying to remember weird delusions I had but whenever I try it feels like my brain is pushing me away from them. In conversations I just feel unable to respond to someone because I get lost in my own thoughts. This makes me think I have narcissistic personality disorder but I don’t think people with that doubt themselves. I don’t know what’s wrong with me and I feel like a self centered asshole because I can’t stop thinking about myself and my thoughts and I keep getting stuck in thought loops like I say I a lot and then I realize I said I while saying that and freak out. I feel crazy but I don’t when I’m high. (I don’t think). I just read over this and it sounds really dumb. I know the first thing I should do is quit weed and all drugs. And trying to figure out what’s wrong with me is useless since I’m doing drugs that probably are the whole cause for everything . Please don’t be offended by me, I don’t want to insult anyone and I know I sound dumb. I also left out things probably but I’m lazy. Lazy. I’m also high and aware I sound crazy.",1.6303240903240912,3.885239523341525,3.004519129519128,90.78147624897623,81.28501228501229,6.136632736632737,21.729788229788227,7.35660576581511,0.7328151866151864,1574,49,332,23,42,511,189,407,0.196,0.698,0.106,-0.992,0,0,6,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,2,5,18,21,4,1,14,1,32,9,5,6,2,84,72,39,0,4,13,0,7,6,0,2,4,6,1,2,21,30,0,3,24,1,0,2,10,13,0,4,14,18,59,8,37,53,7,35,1,2,5,1,13,21,3,7,18,218,80,1,0.0,0.0,0.1445510806245519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961437875321701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051787099031971984,0.0,0.0,0.2637297748018585,0.0,0.0,0.06958533513724639,0.0,0.0,0.09029715429836713,0.0,0.0,0.08344448855943479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267964408488107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0760838774035163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059133881137312085,0.08195013535033799,0.0,0.04776499434264341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.084883478940647,0.0,0.0,0.07579293497273555,0.0,0.0,0.17178088246300607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06656372665157467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621420165704139,0.15873348248094665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06299859152021031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07739050944230819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15650484547157134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17091925680363684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0658312677915745,0.0,0.0,0.12211050718574967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804704856882979,0.07573520668225554,0.0,0.21710285529868034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865847003828188,0.0,0.08084933679196325,0.0629663553090857,0.0,0.0,0.09887626213802413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07856993904955281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05444538125045265,0.0,0.05712253315473805,0.0,0.07876764286815305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05018751665737446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07070223390960442,0.05134648169297891,0.06466961342932306,0.0,0.08129976122644958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597065075930584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07877591932089135,0.0740837969427487,0.0,0.09489427495264237,0.07614987465854554,0.0,0.0,0.08389979568677064,0.0,0.07045159071035598,0.1766954102168418,0.0,0.0,0.05901922306189936,0.0,0.07726464837588494,0.0,0.0,0.06126630286022226,0.0,0.0,0.1509973407563218,0.06275397862074111,0.11403579288166595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061920614899190464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0647349856970006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460233366438675,0.2847423789181875,0.0,0.17639504359242,0.0863743414033948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15085328236731388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043684721175868614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08268953663870046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16195417707485374,0.0,0.0476946294543514 schizophrenia,Infinite_mind,2019/10/30,"What would you do? Hi All, I have schizoaffective disorder, and have been stable with no symptoms for 3 years. The only thing is, my medication, Invega, has made me gain 100 lbs. I have the option of going back onto Geodon, which kept me at a low weight and stable. However, this drug caused my tongue to hang from my mouth, anxiety, and potential heart problems (my QT interval was prolonged). I was recently diagnosed with prediabetes, despite being active and eating healthy on Invega, which prompted the discussion. Which medicine would you choose if you were me? I am not responsive to anything else. Thank you, everyone.",5.4094495412844035,8.186842284403669,5.549073394495412,74.69260091743121,71.11009174311927,9.864587155963305,30.16605504587156,10.125756701596842,3.739131376146789,495,21,79,15,10,156,83,109,0.129,0.7340000000000001,0.138,0.48100000000000004,1,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,4,0,1,1,3,0,0,4,0,14,8,2,2,1,17,18,5,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,6,6,2,1,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,6,1,15,1,10,9,1,9,0,1,0,0,6,4,0,2,3,58,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644216191687444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17686989158191738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16526866452305175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220793332344714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181504307351224,0.0,0.0,0.2463295354536129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24925171249467545,0.21992806049859312,0.1795472629236627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20537577174854252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12215023478587357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25469425817389985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20337289968889494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165203606838509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16346470316642978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20565993050427187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2122184233000889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22339559436670225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978795788360642,0.0,0.0,0.14279059949606202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26172804325043914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30536161745492924,0.0,0.0,0.1384085108639049 schizophrenia,RadeGuy,2019/10/30,"Don't know if I have schizophrenia or some other psycological disorder Hi my name is Jake, im 18, and for the past year or two I've been smoking weed. Alot of the time when I smoke weed (specifically bud) ive had paranoia and derealization from reality. Everything feels so fake. My anxiety is mostly about conversation with other people. It used to not be a problem for me but now whenever I'm in a social environment, such as work or school, I lack the ability to be comfortable in any sense of the word. I'm constantly focused on myself and what my body is doing. I start readjusting my body and changing my position and i start looking around at random things because I dont know what im doing. I feel like im trying really hard to ""act natural"" as if im putting on a character instead of being myself, or that im hiding something. I start sweating sometimes as if im the center of attention and everyone is staring at me and laughing at me. Is this social anxiety? Drug-indused psychosis? schizophrenia? I really dont know. I used to be picked on in middle school and high school for being really short and never really had that many friends growing up until a couple years ago. I dont see or hear things, i dont think people are reading my mind or anything like that. I think I'm a narcissist because my dad is. I honestly dont know what my problem is. If you read this, I'd like to hear any sort of input u may have, it's really appreciated. Thank you.",2.4307240704501005,4.639825849315071,4.722348336594916,79.7801369863014,78.17808219178082,8.007045009784736,26.52446183953033,8.841846274778883,2.348074951076321,1156,47,220,28,28,402,153,292,0.059000000000000004,0.767,0.174,0.9901,0,0,3,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,0,1,7,11,0,0,11,0,28,3,3,3,1,48,49,26,0,7,12,1,3,3,2,1,0,2,0,0,14,11,0,0,9,2,0,3,8,3,0,1,3,8,30,8,31,40,4,31,0,0,3,0,12,15,0,16,16,144,44,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06806683578131956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10443526920324228,0.0,0.11748333296092517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06318896647695571,0.06835650225371387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361700074915903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705855753088609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08123021778587737,0.0,0.0,0.08297921598712213,0.0,0.0,0.08496309703333597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800428732582412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4499675944646516,0.0,0.08904827138346069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07337304636830763,0.06901099482290075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07765139302671813,0.05485648159421611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05932526560548245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06878586065688623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17308853390807213,0.0,0.0,0.08112943508355977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4976573093657739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687999956959181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125424069289228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06448154492887796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784972944593886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07753274509142875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059222688363698275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07330165758061269,0.10646855158325212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14694913122925315,0.0,0.07719190935106075,0.0,0.0,0.153615092918056,0.0,0.2459578454703603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331369225649743,0.06118911157868606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15654887767555292,0.0,0.05911420459806739,0.07594407586637489,0.0,0.1630502064284302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069493830585084,0.0,0.0,0.10202743184927167,0.0984037193923077,0.0,0.0,0.04477498126436501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05213317428856229,0.0,0.07500951367778545,0.0,0.0,0.1326382248382104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05590168080689795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09889632062169253 schizophrenia,astropsychosis,2019/10/30,Does anybody else feel afraid that theyre faking it? i cant get the thoughts that im making it up out of my head and that everyone else knows my secret. i keep hearing people talking about it and its scary to think that it may be true. ive tried to talk about it but the more i talk about it the more people think im faking it so i cant do that anymore,0.7276672694394222,2.194231025316455,2.4038336347197102,97.92936708860759,80.51898734177216,5.020614828209767,18.88065099457505,5.288315135182226,-0.5727121157323691,277,6,68,1,7,91,47,79,0.10300000000000001,0.871,0.025,-0.7003,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,3,0,6,1,1,1,1,14,15,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,13,3,0,1,6,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,2,7,1,8,12,2,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,0,42,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984215863880104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17508781742704266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33427557618693976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19118115007208436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10116441498849696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045314292053389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2053356528215636,0.0,0.22550014354541964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4322327314799129,0.0,0.0,0.17783670267172846,0.0,0.0,0.10995651300655156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335522542783398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27741495202504113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4824404241903543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564011878470678,0.0,0.15883796040218767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358384408269683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,_geisterfahrer,2019/10/30,"When did you begin having symptoms? I’m 17, and I haven’t been diagnosed, but I’ve stated to realize that I could be experiencing psychotic episodes for a while now. I’ve became a lot more paranoid than usual—I’m too afraid to drive cars for fear of being in an accident, I have trouble believing in what’s real or not, and I feel like the whole world doesn’t exist. I have been isolating myself from people so much these past few months, because I feel like people only pretend to like me, and they have nothing in common with me. I also feel like they are against me and only pretend they like me, even though they tell me they do care for me. I only experience visual hallucinations, I think, but maybe some delusions as well because I feel like people are against me, and nothing matters. I don’t have voices in my head or anything, either. And I haven’t completely lost touch with reality, as far as I know. I’ve also been suspected of having borderline personality disorder and bipolar by my therapist’s supervisor. And I’m diagnosed with depression, ADHD, and GAD (getting tested for Asperger’s in a couple of days as well). I haven’t mentioned too much to her about my hallucination/psychosis because I haven’t been taking it seriously. I don’t know if I should or not because I always tell people I think something’s wrong with me; I don’t know what to believe anymore.",8.348798258345425,7.1990494415094375,8.835471698113206,68.02386066763428,62.132075471698116,11.474600870827286,37.74310595065312,10.560738912317856,3.9972322206095785,1102,46,194,22,13,370,138,265,0.21100000000000002,0.763,0.026000000000000002,-0.9927,0,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,5,1,12,16,0,2,5,0,26,5,1,0,0,39,42,25,0,3,9,0,5,6,0,1,4,1,0,1,5,13,0,0,11,2,0,2,10,7,2,0,6,7,39,9,31,32,8,18,0,2,0,0,11,7,0,6,14,143,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12206726798178733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624508063084495,0.08451428384377409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10073003676983908,0.0,0.0,0.08358336393758646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476642452196425,0.0,0.0,0.22886896533333195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10355727062559647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649409566649602,0.0,0.0,0.08109529116713975,0.11238514975856788,0.0,0.06550417542895477,0.0,0.08748199615150593,0.20618259763935015,0.0,0.0,0.1164078918477773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06708595343982879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09935484070730284,0.0,0.11429436269625025,0.2054271498800255,0.2902461946167141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05306607460978279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424000853631324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16746046334758807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29773150222935235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108755316193411,0.08635108704715039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020406049404657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107211598437263,0.0,0.14933110968850175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19491809478229324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317454314045517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969599514659425,0.2816630874358744,0.08868690892349075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11560876961562355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07819346243941379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557000458926326,0.07636791563936217,0.0,0.1775531188831931,0.0,0.0,0.11793046907160315,0.0,0.13016376670409574,0.09979189977360113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118648825203523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18264705566761494,0.0,0.0,0.11339915326410267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11105072838972432,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,codesmatodes,2019/10/30,"Applied for disability and was denied, haven't had a job my entire life, struggling to feed myself. I applied for disability with an attorney and after going to several doctors I got a letter stating that they thought I wasn't ""Disabled enough to not have a job"" but I've never had a job, i've been on food stamps for the last 6 years each year getting worse in worse in poverty that I think i'll never get out of unless I can get disability support money. I don't even know what to do and I explained to the doctors, but I guess someone in an office just gets to decide if you get it or not. The attorney said they would appeal but it just takes forever to do anything, and sometimes I just want to eat and wear clean clothes and i'm worried where I will live since I am staying in a house that a church group was letting me stay in, my family is all gone, I met a girl in my early 20s and her family basically took care of me for 10 years, and I really liked her and thought id marry her but she ended up being with someone else but her parents kept supporting me, saying ""yeah we all feel really sorry for you and we know somethings wrong with you"" &#x200B; I had a piece of paper from 2009 that showed I had a frontal lobe disorder from an accident when i was a kid. I really don't know the right things to say to get them to give me money so i can take care of myself, because without it I can't, i've never been able to take care of myself in the same way other people do. I would have acquaintances that would often come to where i sleep and say "" how can a human live like this, I recently got back on adderall because it helped me to do more things when I was really stressed out, I hear things but I just chalk it up as my inner voice and can ignore it, the worst is the dreams I will have, where I go to sleep and have dreams that feel more real than reality often times telling me things or having real life people in them and those always trip me out for several days, and they honestly feel like some sort of psychic stuff like future predictions or hearing words or some kind of spirit talking to me, but it's just a dream. I'm also scared of the whole system because I one day want to have a family and have kids and i know my DNA is good because my problems were from head trauma and not from some dna illness and I don't want to be hospitalized or forced given drugs to make me sterile like i've read in the history books. &#x200B; I just want to get some money to help me take care of myself while I pursue my interests or try to start my own business so that I can work on my own terms and get paid a fair wage that can help me get by. In the current market economy I'm not going to find an employer that will pay me enough to take care of myself without exploiting me, and I can't work a full time job. I don't even have energy to feed myself everyday, some days I just need rest and space where I don't even get dressed I don't eat I don't go outside I just sit and relax and listening to meditation music and keep away from people because people drain me the most out of anything. I need that space or I can never function even on a normal level. I also have tons of food allergies that make my mental health and brain chemistry go crazy because i'll eat something accidently or just because im lazy and hungry and can't afford anything else and it will just make my head and energy and focus just go high, almost like i'm drowsy and dissy, its a weird feeling thankfully if i control my diet well it doesn't happen often. I found eating keto for the most part can help, but I don't eat bacon or pork, I hate the taste it makes me gag and vomit. &#x200B; Anyway I really wanted that andrew yang guy to be president so that I could get some help, because he wants to give everyone $1000 and currently I only get $220 for ""general relief"" and $190 for food stamps and those things never last me a whole month, I went 10 days without eating once cause I didn't check the prices on things I bought. It's really difficult to feed myself with food allergies. Anyway I told them i've had lifelong ADHD, Bipolar Disorder, Frontal Lobe Disorder, and most people that meet me that are my age will say ""that i have autism."" I recently told the doctors about my dreams and hearing things and they said i'm schizophrenia, but whatever.. at this point I just need financial aid to take care of myself, i'm not going to get any healthier than I already am, and I haven't been able to get and hold a job as it is. I'm content with taking adderall on days where I just want to sleep to help me keep clean and clean up my environment, but most drugs make me feel worse, i've gotten used to feeling the way I do and I just want to be left alone but also able to take care of myself financially. "" &#x200B; Buy food, pay rent, buy clean clothes, and buy whatever items I need to improve my life, pay for internet so i can keep busy and learn and read and communicate online"" The very basic things that normal middle class people have is all I ask for, and eventually i'm sure I can start a business or make art and sell it, or invest money into stocks and turn it into profit or whatever i can do to eventually financially support myself and start a family, right now unless they approve me anything in my future doesn't seem like realistic.",7.1269546477410435,5.5732914486238565,7.554240955513247,77.53276527609488,64.78899082568806,10.538341699844212,32.125670763371986,9.357511181758683,2.598320408516532,4229,126,861,63,53,1397,393,1090,0.09300000000000001,0.7609999999999999,0.146,0.9956,14,1,4,0,0,0,91.0,2,3,8,4,42,38,1,3,42,1,80,35,7,10,9,199,196,91,0,21,49,1,6,7,0,8,12,11,5,5,47,66,16,7,19,10,19,12,30,11,1,1,33,18,132,27,114,149,31,101,2,0,0,0,53,44,0,31,45,574,179,25,0.10511204720353064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04210808479072623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0350848439568584,0.03628812692267842,0.03866458595524275,0.08405806617272678,0.029153881207959143,0.15185181230623462,0.17029685658557658,0.02382659884802829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153310116288714,0.0,0.032755191683976816,0.0,0.03291874280824157,0.026941558706683837,0.0,0.17086754229472714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039113269106759316,0.0,0.0,0.2500603874410121,0.035993008974667215,0.0,0.030181573803039208,0.0,0.0,0.03929736626584935,0.02797447221563148,0.0,0.0,0.11298095790595435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12046751257594886,0.10758663429161748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812644025931502,0.21511173108112736,0.05853841850349738,0.0,0.031032691637937093,0.07240589532172119,0.0,0.09256735445680644,0.0,0.0,0.03347968852693242,0.0,0.0,0.13212037782780092,0.0,0.10629561865949136,0.0250306891748608,0.0,0.0,0.032023502292911135,0.0,0.2118365078484996,0.038416644789843864,0.0,0.0,0.25627796284573057,0.06722203572743164,0.13938773037897126,0.029387666062340025,0.056045137544610005,0.0,0.03859759014389133,0.034692484141338464,0.030983412068071786,0.0,0.0,0.03459212839971305,0.07191685683811654,0.03724306363881066,0.11846891650927847,0.0,0.1409087791473286,0.03701888297412688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04042839661975768,0.0,0.0,0.03784634943255767,0.0,0.17384581299091614,0.09342841716133493,0.0,0.036486007361620214,0.07702244296739323,0.05712023172595645,0.0,0.0,0.03806818228011178,0.03582806327489717,0.07424374747239412,0.11982235264780502,0.0,0.06187724228179576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403262154335594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03530940698793693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02796647775014427,0.0,0.0,0.10391900150867192,0.13511481792587976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06865832590579155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03731363326188262,0.023742214502091803,0.026647482809511926,0.0,0.0,0.03890482974913045,0.037942034675733136,0.0,0.14574291737983086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03312161994116588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033526011160576207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07009366134419809,0.07976034778221686,0.13467493797275149,0.0,0.06919031053441768,0.0,0.0,0.0598434093262311,0.0666570848714456,0.11145242509986954,0.0350784987318758,0.0,0.0,0.031896686680563106,0.0,0.07916446292350914,0.0,0.028983257214895124,0.0,0.10518795786694174,0.0,0.05937406432937713,0.05394692616485135,0.03465283413079312,0.039221443731432784,0.07439884801939688,0.07469030447737618,0.0,0.0,0.04013516497836922,0.036628644669787824,0.040109382070359766,0.0,0.1192799055324522,0.033022286846448486,0.0,0.210749808377006,0.02816169398953848,0.03062418741896838,0.03225768360536428,0.0,0.0,0.1862180628221463,0.02245051853652585,0.0,0.05563148289999709,0.04086112000871395,0.0,0.0,0.06695937705386484,0.03892778400563735,0.023788060105069418,0.038110574557753386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03026102004854608,0.0,0.02890948238900882,0.1653274901330101,0.055622033671392526,0.0,0.0,0.031502784628455516,0.032479973610070365,0.0,0.07823589795675343,0.0,0.10132426257205188,0.0,0.05101521482840698,0.035582128731791896,0.10711815607381704,0.07466858252142299,0.03830784095048402,0.17029685658557658,0.06768871216523566 schizophrenia,Sadsadsadhuman,2019/10/30,"Contacting doctors or not? What to say? Hi! First of all, thank you for this community. I’m not diagnosed with any kind of mental illness, but I do struggle with occasional paranoia and delusions and this is one of the most active subreddits for people dealing with problems similar to mine. Now ... Psychiatrists and doctors. What should I do? I’ve pretty much never been in contact with mental health services. I get scared they’ll experiment on me. Or lock me up. I DO NOT want any medicine whatsoever, not unless it’s absolutely necessary and i’m completely disconnected to my sense of self and everyday life. But as it is now, i’m balancing on a wire, but doing it quite well thankyouverymuch. For the past few years i’ve gone through periods if depression and apathy, interspersed with bone-deep paranoia and delusions. The usual stuff - i’m being spied on, “THEY” are out to get me, i’m being hacked by the neighbour, i’m being poisoned in a elaborate plot by a terrorist and other such fun stuff. It is SHORT periods where I lose insight and it all becomes super real. Nowadays I mostly get it in the way of strong intrusive thoughts, and I kind of shrug it off mostly with a “might be true, but let’s just go on for a bit and choose not to act on that belief”, if you get me? Like, a few months ago i had worms crawling around in my left eye. Felt real, but I checked in the mirror a few times and didn’t see anything when they crawled out. How probable are these worms? Should we go to the doctor, or carry on at home and see if it passes? I CHOSE not to freak out, and just carried on with the worms in my eye. It passed after like .. a week or so. Now, I had one longer “break” with (consensus) reality, where I was God. Delusions of reference galore, where the universe tried to “trick” me into thinking wrong thoughts that would collapse all of reality. Everything became quite the exhausting play, where I desperately tried to hold onto not letting reality know I knew it knew I knew lmao Anyway, that passed slowly and i reintegrated with my sense of self, although with a different view of reality that I still have to this day, that very much goes against reductionist view of reality that is so prominent nowadays. Anyway, It does not interfere with my life as a human though, not that much, but it’s there in the background and I still get that “the universe is communicating with me everything is a mirror of a mirror of a mirror, congruence upon congruence white rabbit hop hop-“ But you guys, I just shrug it off and play my part? However, I naturally do not want a longer break with reality. But my REAL REAL problem is apathy, inability to get things done and depression!!! THAT is what gets in the way of my everyday life! And I’m just worried that if a doctor/psychoatrist gets involved, they’ll diagnose me with a paychotic-spectrum disorder and handwave away MY REAL problems as “negative symptoms” that seems mostly incurable. The “positive” symptoms i can currently deal with. What I REALLY want help with is my depression and inability to just ... get going in life. I feel locked up in my own head, and I hate it. Should I tell any psychiatrist all my symptoms, or should I focus on what I really want help with (inability to carry a task/apathy/anxiety/feel “locked in” in my own head.)? Any other advice? Thank you all for reading this rambling text. Any feedback or just a hi is much appreciated ... Love to all of you!!",5.306196824546126,6.6724487457627095,6.257845849802376,75.32607607020836,68.47611710323574,9.834541434983588,31.21193139947745,10.074871250255047,3.2456996449387026,2712,111,493,68,46,899,275,649,0.151,0.728,0.12,-0.9567,3,0,0,0,0,0,97.0,1,5,4,6,26,29,3,2,32,0,39,21,4,1,8,127,79,50,0,16,35,0,2,2,1,8,16,1,1,4,40,45,0,2,14,3,1,8,13,15,1,3,13,10,58,14,93,52,21,73,1,4,7,1,27,39,0,16,24,361,98,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06291081294260213,0.057068461254523715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189010274136562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05297876776127754,0.05731132284294365,0.0,0.0,0.06048657357981494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07110199871793227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07028564002358859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06750058500248346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041519392543663936,0.1327446866637964,0.16634967076215426,0.13068748901885227,0.0,0.06726277948341489,0.07378437977667962,0.2635802105887359,0.05633885427338747,0.06588248700701611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157201224055636,0.06297541500867852,0.0,0.0,0.06510432670239144,0.0,0.06181432825414734,0.0,0.0,0.05476109203032714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30272025428029703,0.0,0.1097649045209445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06374573618760028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06356133743989167,0.13214369327855016,0.0684323007791981,0.0,0.0,0.08630432099210195,0.0,0.06457779595876792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340824940835702,0.035381239275926575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06994841576876087,0.1316646141757741,0.1818923207563831,0.06290505418280573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07202409056031221,0.0,0.0,0.05810492976259735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12975860325387467,0.06829637868537845,0.0,0.0,0.05138702969479286,0.0,0.18930509151626387,0.0,0.04965336874378395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08725030678079146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06971662573963938,0.06145743014955326,0.04463257576989935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06549700331760766,0.06941189119553523,0.1848071980799512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13695085123676287,0.06439683053924229,0.3663893069203754,0.08248619530114007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05119708968475775,0.06445501904416105,0.0,0.1026041067795697,0.05860859562878435,0.1343235275044313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028269576717456,0.0,0.0,0.06730333609196436,0.1473980403183763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20074456777791244,0.0,0.0,0.05627044071609312,0.1185438195058751,0.0,0.0,0.04277081837691856,0.041251725476727216,0.06325244203511729,0.10222011828903854,0.03754015085506159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741878486964014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07090482307117671,0.05311975441660413,0.15189057271945405,0.10220275579544054,0.051641278238344905,0.0,0.05788481994886744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06538041444046704,0.0,0.045733284703406034,0.07038877680818313,0.0,0.041458228348870384 schizophrenia,Yitzhak14,2019/10/30,"I have schizophrenia and I want to know what other people with schizophrenia hear and hallucinate? Since I have schizophrenia, I know that what you here is probably personal but fiell ffee to message me about it and I'll share as well",4.8661627906976745,7.56436858139535,3.969941860465117,85.7470058139535,72.48837209302326,7.090697674418602,27.02906976744186,8.07648339933343,1.7982139534883728,191,7,34,3,4,56,31,43,0.0,0.841,0.159,0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,7,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,2,5,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,25,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4346323706415631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4238636762188269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673468769339686,0.33671672552436394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4157737260980988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189966321141492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22745421674522745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3467271509266446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,1pizzamare,2019/10/30,"It all started a month ago. I just need some advice. My brother, 22 and in college, suddenly texted me that he’s had the worst paranoia that day. We laughed it off, but after a couple more days, his sympyoms got worse. He went completely mad, thinking he’s being followed by “agents”, even yelling at our neighbours. Mom put him into the psych hospital. The first few days when I visited him he was completely normal to me, even joking about all the stuff he used to believe. When he first arrived at the hospital he was still having a psychotic attak, and they gave him diazepam intramuscular, haloperidol intravenously and rivotril. He only stayed for 1 week and a half but when he came home he had so little energy because they were pumping him with benzos. He was ok at home for a few days, trying to regain energy and rest. He was prescriped an antipsychotic. Which he has’nt taken for a couple days now. He thinks the voices in his head are real, sometimes he anknowledges that they’re not. He is very paranoid, yesterday on the phone he asked me “who am i talking to?” . He thinks there’s microphones around the house. He talked to a lawyer even. Me and my brother have always been close and this sudden change about him is really affecting me because I dont know how to help him or what to say to him.",4.695993208828527,6.4001956451612925,5.0593972835314105,82.03738539898134,70.37096774193549,7.962988115449915,27.97198641765705,8.532816995589336,2.063609677419356,1032,37,190,17,19,327,152,248,0.063,0.8740000000000001,0.063,-0.2318,1,0,0,0,1,0,30.0,2,0,2,2,15,5,1,0,16,1,16,1,1,3,2,31,30,15,0,2,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,10,13,0,0,4,1,0,5,2,2,0,3,13,3,24,3,25,16,8,37,0,0,0,0,45,11,0,2,20,125,34,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11790370355180735,0.10695431553316788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003955058921296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10740947227627516,0.11279712695024495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14710162625397513,0.0,0.0,0.1359380598912855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13799838732251898,0.0,0.0,0.12763811104442452,0.0,0.2530111626746117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670072667392152,0.0,0.3890658792301402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140800149044294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23907656531637114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20525996276054087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096499671800971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382792488129232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08087321242197835,0.0,0.2420557279302183,0.0,0.0,0.1392208914516725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06630941410168123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12092906769714595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14131091698945675,0.09630651444721544,0.0,0.0,0.08946493825168499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11821731922844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917643691530996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12129266381450987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13733300908734153,0.0772953603919829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595054017843213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11933192662551052,0.0,0.08540097893449439,0.12860330413221668,0.09635608385417788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381223198122638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939575382564976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23193459045169726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08191754337631163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042080947958398,0.0,0.0995538840547854,0.0,0.0,0.09678301194431167,0.0,0.0,0.11184937465738892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12295883113642987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,duckee3,2018/12/17,"I give up Looks like I won’t be in school in the spring. Apparently I’m not meeting satisfactory progress. I don’t know how this is possible. I don’t even know what my grades are. Everything was fine this semester. My gpa was ruined while I was at community college. The emt classes were 12 credit hours each. I actually had A’s and B’s in the classes. Because I took an incomplete, it turned into an F. I think that was two F’s. Now I’m trying to bring my gpa back up. It’s bullshit. I wish I never went to the community college. I wish I had never been suicidal or depressed, and I wouldn’t have withdrew from university in the first place. There’s no way I can afford school without the financial aid. 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What should I do? I've been taking my meds and have been solid for two years. 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I've been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder for about a year. In that time I have made some good improvements to my life but find myself wanting to connect on a social level for the first time in a long time. Im looking for people to text with over discord. Im in the mst time zone if that makes a difference. Today I'm kind of bummed out and feel depression creeping back into my life. I was genuinely happy for about three months and feeling that slip away is dragging me down big time. I would like to find people who understand the struggle of not always having a stable mood or perspective on life. I could really use some buddies as I'm about to start school soon and that is stressing me out. I will be heading to work soon so I may not reply for a few hours or a day. Im just hoping to get through today without falling to bits. Here's hoping I will have better luck than on r4r. 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I've felt for the last 8 years that almost all of my dreams are controlled by my voices. When this started the change was dramatic from one night to the next; one night I felt that my dreams had come (and always had) from an internal source, the next night they felt like they were 'given' to me externally. ...like every detail of the dream is choreographed by some external source... I'm doing a course of cbt talking therapy at the moment and my therapist and I were wondering if anyone else with a schizophrenia diagnosis has these experiences. I have basically no insight into the delusory nature of my experience and i'd find it really interesting if anyone here has a similar experience at all? 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Started to hear things, scared Hi. I am 22 and have dealt with depression most of my life. Recently quit my job and moved home because my mental health was so poor. At night, I am increasingly seeing closed eye visuals when trying to sleep. Shapes and images are increasingly showing up without my control when I try to sleep. I was just put on the SSRI Zoloft for the first time 5 days ago. The last 2 or 3 dsys, I have been hearing sounds in my head. Like louder voices or sounds, very short lived but they dont sound like they are coming from outside my head. At first a popping sound, later a thought i have becomes a voice and then bavk to thought. Even naps or waking up now I hear strangest nlises, but only when im right before falling asleep or just woke up. Today i heard a young boy yell mommy and later a heard a baby cry and later a ravens call. I am very scared of going insane. Maybe this is the drug i am on, but i heard one of these things a week before starting the drug. I dont want to be schizophrenic or on some crazy drugs to make me ""normal"" if this gets worse then I am blowing my head off while i still can. Thanks",2.2096791334559573,4.118225034334767,2.9680441446965062,93.54500715307584,77.62660944206009,5.4681381565501725,20.10811363171878,6.1826913282559595,-0.06124958103413025,895,21,193,6,21,281,143,233,0.13699999999999998,0.838,0.024,-0.9747,1,0,3,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,2,4,9,6,0,2,13,0,18,15,8,2,0,29,36,22,0,3,12,0,0,2,0,0,7,13,1,2,5,9,0,1,2,2,1,7,3,3,0,3,9,15,24,3,23,26,4,45,0,1,2,0,12,14,0,8,26,115,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09055813696652296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06227541708765676,0.11282702208799532,0.1738602362092519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043161612256292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800127030347828,0.0,0.0,0.11458044479534607,0.0,0.0,0.1122172949569575,0.0658843563341724,0.0,0.08798973454023197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394600929059777,0.0,0.3554173834001841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06747531485593887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17379345310894073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053374065789724826,0.0,0.058059536675855686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31453502719681004,0.10859065639176813,0.3454231781393521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10247419963450856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11034967388211624,0.0,0.1013774329992097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08327353942369696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07215819970487454,0.09981983721563048,0.0,0.09020861468671657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06819218736802746,0.0,0.10263284031021397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295263888088133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085792661011655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09586966882285423,0.1000945135606456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06922584785129234,0.0776968210117331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026984054639901,0.0,0.10865908832435532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087007489165063,0.0,0.0,0.08724356248561588,0.0,0.0,0.2045587462661191,0.0,0.08140780871619778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044663403644313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446178867841336,0.0,0.0815846223289459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940546425062132,0.0,0.0,0.13574032113719353,0.0,0.0,0.16220629169354306,0.05956996295580204,0.0,0.09683515832866,0.0,0.0,0.13871904235098598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16858439461448024,0.06025625619598079,0.0,0.08194610201556221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09847800821667624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10410914805810996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sebastianjdanderson,2018/12/17,"I don’t know what’s happening to me Okay so this might take a while to explain what has happened and how I feel. I’m in high school, and I have been smoking weed every now and then for about half a year. However, in the past month or so, I had three incidents where I had terrible panic attacks while I was high. I have never had any panic attacks before this, and they were absolutely terrifying. The last one I had was a week ago, and after that, I vowed to myself to stop smoking weed again. However, I had a very similar panic attack the next day out of nowhere. I felt as if the world was ending and that everything was just shapes and that nothing was real and everything was tricking me into entering infinite darkness and pain. After this, I thought that it was just the thc that was still in my system triggering a similar experience, because it had only been one day and there may have been thc still being released into my bloodstream. However, 5 days later, on Saturday, I had another experience hat was just as bad. I was at a friends house and I went to her room to get something and then the next thing I remember is that I was standing in the kitchen. I couldn’t remember anything that happened in between then, and my heart started pounding out of control and I felt like the universe wasn’t real and I didn’t recognize y own consciousness. This went away after around 20 minutes, but my friends were very worried and I was as well. I did smoke a little bit of weed that night, against my better judgement. It was at a party and I didnt want to refuse since I was in the rotation. Surprisingly enough, I had a good time and did not feel any adverse affects. However, today, which was 2 days later, I was sitting in history class and I had an overwhelming impulse that reality would just break and then suddenly the teacher stopped talking like he had lost his train of thought and I felt like everything had frozen and I jolted out of my seat because I felt the most heart stopping terror I had ever felt. However, he remembered what he was going to say and kept talking and I’ve slowly been feeling better as the day has gone on. I really hope that this is just being caused by the weed and I’m definitely going to quit for a month to see if things feel better, but I’m also worried that I may be developing something and I am deathly afraid that I will develop schizophrenia, although that feeling may not be completely rational. I don’t know much about schizophrenia, and I’m not sure if this is the right place to post this, but I was hoping I could get some advice and experiences and see if the lead up to developing schizophrenia is anything like this. I realize this may be an overreaction and I don’t mean to offend anyone living with the condition, but I would like some advice for trying to connect with reality more and perhaps this might give me some peace of mind. I am already diagnosed with ADHD if that affects anything. Thank you guys so much. 💗",5.09948096885813,6.250884268166093,5.8264688581314905,79.02672750865051,68.77508650519033,8.963391003460208,31.92404844290657,9.255337874911486,2.852458685121108,2369,101,441,46,40,773,256,578,0.08900000000000001,0.7829999999999999,0.129,0.9828,6,0,3,0,0,0,47.0,0,1,1,7,21,34,5,6,28,1,71,5,2,7,3,114,112,57,1,12,18,0,10,5,2,9,2,1,2,1,33,40,1,6,21,0,0,7,11,16,1,5,53,13,56,18,57,43,10,82,0,2,2,0,16,28,0,18,47,329,89,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07680380905356411,0.12489838441018394,0.05664970994706696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07052297656376894,0.05110641417064095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08691791884692245,0.06701207392653746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04468526849540029,0.0,0.1577700762060494,0.05689078948975716,0.0,0.21811035518683744,0.06004274118599656,0.0,0.053359685375093786,0.07791424234251952,0.0,0.054380159986195616,0.0,0.0,0.16956167551163656,0.06976990500974188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06565010501646906,0.0,0.0,0.06700528588975953,0.0,0.07167714774942656,0.05102454868469309,0.0,0.0,0.20607367826923265,0.0,0.0,0.06486427164742965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05660264376363128,0.06603302651117697,0.0,0.0,0.057807550831645425,0.05384441364734892,0.0,0.1723065041146861,0.18753996072156304,0.0,0.0,0.16156652654171613,0.0,0.3068037659673761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09874879742847174,0.0,0.06677755190130155,0.0613054288963837,0.07263965497797734,0.05360216936959727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06327798903292761,0.16953827818083286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15146023313877052,0.0,0.1350425332071742,0.0,0.1269481647389058,0.0,0.07374011118666397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07024324463944204,0.0520927440939072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15610868925338334,0.06405161470168155,0.05643106216527359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976205251415013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0696134707280062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13559048055304102,0.06452786397975514,0.0,0.10201993406719297,0.0,0.09395801367475312,0.0,0.04928902716834953,0.0,0.13593166391267514,0.05997240130441023,0.0,0.06132050131152843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08661009011404959,0.048604162161054405,0.06800156623229414,0.22494332609891474,0.0,0.0,0.06100647390047414,0.0,0.0,0.06676922531649537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061205251682655025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797297341665713,0.0,0.1454803406888836,0.04094046813007682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21718255899937475,0.054576238813150525,0.0,0.0508214207465704,0.0,0.06467730767686726,0.10185122851862008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05286454047830248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09839747964753033,0.0,0.0,0.045233711811604065,0.0,0.10207244419757283,0.16028737005305355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060231602222507785,0.0,0.04805011947559428,0.1027320705060314,0.0,0.05883699019914401,0.0,0.0,0.08491395779692777,0.0,0.0,0.10147005762083497,0.03726469245111812,0.0,0.0605763746445536,0.0,0.0,0.043388665980525314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054599550788315,0.03769401127653887,0.0,0.051262349977346265,0.0,0.05746007844537077,0.11848488021293466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12980134501095889,0.0,0.0907954150654174,0.0,0.0,0.04115402026362865 schizophrenia,LandGamer24,2018/12/17,"Stigmata: A Mental Health Documentary A great documentary on Mental Health. If you are able to last 30 minutes, you will hear a lot of amazing stories shared by people facing Schizophrenia, PTSD, etc... You will also hear an objective side from a professor. Check it out if you would like to maybe learn something or critique our film. Thank you for your time. [Stigmata](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qbyr5bocmeE&feature=youtu.be)",7.100571428571431,10.973028414285713,4.51107142857143,78.30517857142857,72.0,7.5,30.17857142857143,8.472884824447931,2.8731428571428568,359,15,52,7,8,99,55,70,0.0,0.785,0.215,0.9359999999999999,0,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,1,6,0,0,1,5,0,0,5,0,4,3,1,0,0,7,7,4,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,7,5,8,4,2,5,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,4,3,31,8,2,0.197245867981916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15773744936216888,0.0,0.21371581554995275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21998128239031325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21746426578914707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4193262680643249,0.4446208572173042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16078170846056947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09636436782233082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676913833792362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981599860344259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39755488440501496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367454492877378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305698643417575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15184950573370173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815974944196229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150156518295074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401178053539299,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,wittyayush,2018/12/17,"Hello! Anyone suffering from post schizophrenic depression? Hello everyone! Is there anyone who recovered from Schizophrenia but still facing non frequent cases of mild depression? I was diagnosed with schizophrenia almost 4 years back and luckily I was diagnosed early. I was declared that I've recovered from Schizophrenia almost 2 years back. I was on Sizodon and Resperidone during the time I was ill. Now, I've an somewhat healthy life but I still face mild depression, low motivation, helplessness and impulsive thoughts once in a month or so. Now, when I think about it I feel that either these feelings are the post Schizophrenia symptoms or I am just being lazy. I tried to work around it but I feel completely empty and motivation less which makes it even worse to take an initiative. I found exercise and meditation uplifting but I am not able to carry on this routine for longer periods of time. Do you have any suggestions on how to stop these thoughts to build up? Tldr: I am facing mild depression after recovering from Schizophrenia? Do you faced these episodes? Do you know any way out of it? 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I'm trying to sort out whether it's the psychosis or if it's actually my phone. I've been hearing it buzz as though I got a notification, I pick it up and there is no notification. Just wanted a bit of a sanity check from a third party. I have a galaxy s9 that seems to buzzing. Is it: possibly psychosis, a common phenomenon perhaps even non psychotic people experience (like, maybe anticipating a buzz can make you think you hear it), or is there some known bug where my phone might be buzzing without actually showing any sort of notification? This isn't the worst, but it's pretty annoying. And if it is possibly psychosis I want to see if I can find some unique solution to help me tell when it's real. Some people have commented on my constant phone checking (I think they think it's a compulsive behavior and I'm not correcting them) but I really am just hearing the notification buzz and wanting to quickly check to make sure it's nothing bad! Please let me know if you know anything about this!",5.150959488272925,6.359866189054728,6.447096659559348,74.4117537313433,68.70149253731344,9.722956645344707,31.770078180525946,9.957137785484203,3.1714346837242364,828,35,156,20,14,280,115,201,0.046,0.833,0.121,0.9405,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,2,0,11,5,1,0,11,0,15,0,0,4,3,43,33,16,0,7,13,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,14,5,0,0,9,1,3,0,5,3,0,1,2,4,17,2,16,28,5,9,0,0,1,0,15,4,0,13,6,104,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.2626655630826215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09152048876054188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074965651670753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237048816684214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14692887017955206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454355116245004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08889025220503001,0.12173727526724795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13164718388006671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12300566272026242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763765347816236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4550516509307925,0.0,0.0902075898485608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14792567900412107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376193842510407,0.0,0.06575004891867851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17966928339640356,0.0,0.13520587609218865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14277041162646803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291352191935562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866046586151508,0.0,0.0,0.14773080539254704,0.0,0.3034423445020665,0.0,0.13691844727276806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153183970135615,0.08621678252441697,0.13837288257851044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10724456289965348,0.12251855052692813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12684209993437126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11763074614026825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25870445578435725,0.1322262960285822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09137245736863783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23814014747291865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973240666929475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,oppopoopo,2018/12/17,"Hi there! Am not schzioaffective but a depressed and lonely person, did look around for other subreddits but for some reason i find myself more contected to this sub. No sure what else i should say. 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Every month, and switching arms every month. About 2 days after my last injection my arm started to hurt. I can left it but if I put to much pressure on it,it starts to hurt. It sometimes feel like it pops. It been like this for about week and half, and still going on. I go back on Thursday (not for the pain) but to see my psychologist. Have this ever happen to any of you? Should I go to the doctor right away or wait? I can probably deal with the pain till my next appointment. &#x200B; Thanks",1.5494780219780182,4.074367464285718,2.203928571428573,94.60645604395607,84.17857142857143,4.874725274725276,19.32967032967033,6.297961479604792,-0.03986483516483474,444,12,92,4,13,137,71,112,0.136,0.779,0.085,-0.7359,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,0,6,9,0,1,3,0,6,7,3,0,1,13,17,8,0,2,5,0,1,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,6,0,1,2,2,11,3,20,14,1,25,0,2,1,0,2,6,0,2,17,59,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561871332311567,0.175158777655804,0.0980273626558365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13543424976514193,0.11084292654182808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09296522264458476,0.14861295643484448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14754426462477088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13039248580259935,0.24290622387751445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.072886883167288,0.10298122954601427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24577235268121525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274719144970803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086324336607513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175019923342754,0.0,0.0,0.15662006708648707,0.0,0.0,0.14084942021789368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301192943319847,0.0,0.10596728963492882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533058164709025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4601592594013664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15541874588816365,0.0,0.0,0.14491118469425976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12310383924287152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486937845947705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14256864607736114,0.0,0.20406109722139112,0.0,0.11511886889681773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083833241747511,0.0,0.0,0.1327145208340111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11562892987969099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175158777655804,0.09282827114701936 schizophrenia,lilacmoon68,2018/12/17,"The hope for cure ! My son Matthew is 33 and has had Acute Paranoid Schizophrenia since he was 18 years old, He smoked lots of cannabis/skunk when he was quite young and I tried everything to get him away from it. Matthew currently has seven clozapine tablets per day as he was resistant to all other anti psychotics, I am his full time carer and my heart is broken at having to watch someone be so poorly at times. Please if you are a parent, friend or relative of someone who has this or any other mental health condition Be supportive, be a listener and don’t try to solve all the problems by yourself. Everyday is challenging but I am confident that a successful cure will be found, it’s just when. I am very interested to hear from anyone who has had positive results of using cbd oil. 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I have schizophrenia, but I'm sort of in denial I guess. I'm in the prodromal stage. I'm 18. When I was 15 i hid under the covers because I thought monsters were trying to kill me. When I was 16 I saw shadows move back and forth and I was home alone. It went away until I turned 18. One night I couldn't sleep, and stayed up panicking bc I thought something was watching me from my closet, I started feeling things crawl on me and I kept seeing black shapes or flashes. About 6 months later, I still feel things crawl all over me (all day) and normally into the night I start to feel really dizzy and my head has this weird tightness in it, during this time I hear a woman's voice VERY faintly, I get anxious and have a feeling I'm being watched or that something very bad is coming. This only lasts for around an hour, then it's on and off until I sleep. Did/do you experience these things and does it sound like I'm schizophrenic? Is there a guess to how long it takes to get worse or if I can cope with it myself? What it's just me and I'm fine? I just feel so alone and worried. I don't even value life but I'm still looking for answers. I don't know why.",1.876059398768561,3.579196310756973,3.0571550162984416,93.46513129300979,77.92430278884463,5.679174212241943,22.16606302064469,6.351523495107088,0.2445920318725099,938,27,209,7,22,302,146,251,0.17,0.7859999999999999,0.044000000000000004,-0.987,0,2,2,0,0,1,26.0,0,1,0,0,14,5,1,0,7,0,15,6,3,1,2,44,46,24,1,4,8,0,6,1,0,0,3,3,2,1,16,15,0,2,10,0,0,3,3,3,0,1,10,15,33,2,25,34,2,37,0,0,6,0,4,13,0,7,20,128,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450637766519499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13365488870503045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10531961545671226,0.0,0.0,0.11115469603062192,0.09097190576436123,0.09878262535990727,0.07211974131236715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10191226564590088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629917160834418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10353253376484366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07814162441547673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157283790171231,0.0,0.0,0.29910156984398834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236225784606482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606602217436229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141861564830532,0.0,0.13334223687676924,0.0,0.07929966931709001,0.0,0.11867303527538213,0.0,0.11651000522286535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13089078611851326,0.0,0.06501923756208168,0.09643718825598327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835647666390843,0.057799539324648985,0.0,0.0,0.10469926733760287,0.09934931267778803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09443268691859533,0.125743173619865,0.0,0.08772422667984017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220489573108603,0.1159171750647621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08016887678387039,0.08997891775292688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07579143124483786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09427652804243568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329836700190435,0.2367878091191769,0.0,0.0,0.18215927061890036,0.0,0.0,0.16747867893573926,0.12610108075784118,0.1889625837157807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08895324095879885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357966587110752,0.0,0.0,0.1878474098328494,0.06898661653783215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08032368081429775,0.12868563526851515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952337454727084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10967313104090093,0.1067549866965191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12014798761739402,0.12056643178532805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,harukaw4,2019/08/04,"Fear of developing schizophrenia Hi everyone, hope it's okay to post this in here, but here i go, i'm 16 years old, 6 months ago i started to think that i might have schizophrenia, and this came out of nowhere (not literally, i remember i see an image that made me curious about schizophrenia, and then i made the wrongful mistake to search about it on internet, when i saw the causes and symptoms the fear started) the firsts 4 months was really easy, but now, since last month the things got worse, but i can say that the image was the sparkle of my fear. i have spent like a lot of days and maybe months in forums about it, and i even saw some people how was experiencing the same fear as me, even here in Reddit, i don't used any drugs that may cause schizophrenia, my family has no history of someone how has it. I've heard that this is something associated with OCD and Anxiety, But it's a little hard for me to accept that it's anxiety, this have made me struggle with insomnia (which made me freak out cause i have saw that problems with sleeping was one of the symptoms of schizophrenia on teenagers). I started to even question things that i see or heard cause i'm think they might be an hallucination (turns out that most of the time they isn't), i know what it's real and something like that, but i'm afraid of start to think that there's someone or something controlling my mind, i told my psychologist about my fears, and i even asked if ""i was going crazy"", his answer was no, i wasn't, but even after that i didn't lose that fear, my mind was like ""what if i didn't told him enough? what if i forgot to tell him something? what if he's wrong?"". i have also saw that people who are developing schizophrenia has the tendency to isolate themselves, me is the opposite, to be honest, after developing that fear i started to spend more time with my friends (i hate being alone). i also told my friends about my feelings and they said ""what the fuck dude? there's nothing to worry about, you look normal as fuck"" so this is it, if i has to do a grade with all my fears, fear of developing schizophrenia is on the top side of it, right above being alone. Sorry for the big text by the way, didn't wanted to made it so long also sorry if there's some grammar errors, English isn't my first language :) (I forgot to mention that my mother have Anxiety, i don't if it's GAD or something like that)",7.110518867924527,5.934090264150946,6.9545414046121605,80.60149764150945,64.59748427672956,9.878721174004193,32.45361635220126,8.72156446121922,2.332125157232704,1884,60,391,23,24,598,197,477,0.175,0.72,0.105,-0.9889,0,2,6,0,0,0,63.0,0,1,3,5,26,30,3,11,21,1,39,7,1,13,1,76,85,36,0,12,17,1,2,4,2,3,4,4,0,0,42,18,0,3,9,0,2,3,11,20,0,3,31,14,54,10,52,47,8,43,0,1,7,2,24,14,2,19,28,268,96,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050790136117274336,0.0,0.0,0.1186843632628074,0.0,0.13746063667147046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038963773454359585,0.0,0.13149563375694742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053564752416781033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06553224936399618,0.0,0.2354382942483155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06426320795098521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03695168140935425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644607131591089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059202887497077264,0.0,0.18921990562570784,0.0,0.0,0.054749526250317794,0.0,0.0,0.05401430249467636,0.5802732367245634,0.028970972252873275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09747321925314507,0.0,0.0,0.08853469624991267,0.10593989496405276,0.0,0.0,0.06512615805607194,0.0,0.045825467084810466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051326658358723375,0.056568705540701834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056908628243215076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031488810444835987,0.046704520918537766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196924515486087,0.057426423405686836,0.0,0.05070584501639352,0.04811486249355902,0.06410043801542273,0.0,0.048711671233514726,0.0,0.2710779809936227,0.0,0.0,0.05756231415610132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12156565267378125,0.1157068234930447,0.0,0.18293496446106208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056138676640586235,0.05497780326328538,0.0,0.0601233295755113,0.0,0.03882577925052316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0794447422897023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054874474502318825,0.0,0.0,0.05482527791821711,0.0,0.0,0.06418550372446963,0.0,0.0,0.06521627659594405,0.03670578280055595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06490607950851668,0.04893113487569239,0.054502356182362814,0.045564697150320084,0.0,0.0,0.09131622677337578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04739648639293975,0.0,0.057338156494702586,0.0,0.09709474719199657,0.22054929273091314,0.0,0.1282781027919075,0.20277476991035145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0598990322520141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11910658062393288,0.0,0.0,0.050079908946604704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613086596193147,0.11014038433720666,0.0,0.0,0.06682042339595945,0.0,0.0,0.1642485787509534,0.0,0.0,0.06232244067879899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049486019267368286,0.0,0.0,0.03379512384671275,0.04547951499217531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058187658749462176,0.05839031121940603,0.0,0.12529006307954996,0.0,0.036897246127400286 schizophrenia,Wolfleo,2019/08/04,My sister(27) thinks I'm(29) a loser for not having a job. The closer I get to 30 the more I feel like I'm a loser for not having a normal life. I have Schizophrenia and POCD and make efforts to get better by constantly learning new therapy techniques. Am I a loser for not leaving my house regularly and not getting a job. I constantly think about living with my mom at 30 and how no woman would want me because of that on top of being sick.,3.3437720706260023,4.862984629213488,4.880930979133229,82.71426966292137,73.49438202247191,6.8834670947030485,26.19743178170145,7.447530270364453,1.4443117174959867,348,12,66,4,7,117,59,89,0.17,0.735,0.095,-0.8369,2,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,6,2,5,0,0,8,0,6,2,0,2,0,18,15,5,0,3,4,1,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,1,9,2,12,13,1,7,0,3,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,47,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12323348336679145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17879209492019768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4369214032198213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10221702868484826,0.14442153151680107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168572298499997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23326289243598256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4012207316312717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2140558598585647,0.0,0.0,0.14278999192557415,0.09876406152265148,0.0,0.17850899018290414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13494186278888134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367647045356261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19524520727129704,0.0,0.0,0.19807166533498408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23118499658145555,0.0,0.0,0.2590690370321717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11923787415539128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14360705996545306,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Careless_Frog,2019/08/04,"What were your triggers? Hello all. I was just wondering what were your triggers. I was recently diagnosed a year ago and the question of what set off has really been killing me. I was in college when it happened, just my luck, during finals week too. I would regularly smoke weed with friends and never had any issues. I had recently done acid (three months prior) and everything was fine. I had a lot of stressors besides school such as a potential relationship forming, and a likely psychopath on the loose in my dorm. It started with paranoid delusions and spiraled, just got worse from there. It could've been stress induced, drug induced, or just timing as most people who do experience this sort of thing in their college years. Probably it was a combination of all this. Luckily it was just an acute period of psychosis lasting like 3 weeks, but traumatic nonetheless. I don't know, hearing what others have say would probably give me a better idea and provide some closure.",6.373662587412587,8.27265194318182,6.183181818181822,74.84573426573431,66.5,9.27902097902098,35.12937062937063,9.661875296680813,3.6984034965034973,786,38,127,17,13,246,119,176,0.096,0.828,0.076,-0.5502,0,0,2,0,0,0,23.0,0,2,1,1,9,8,1,1,9,0,20,2,0,4,3,33,27,11,1,2,7,0,0,2,1,2,2,2,1,0,14,8,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,15,3,14,6,15,10,6,22,0,0,0,0,11,5,0,8,18,97,28,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13171536263438285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010457530236745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314150746154297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863638736261592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15081491273369987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15205834320083889,0.0,0.0,0.17231630092104866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13354239409719293,0.1453487520528045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16277220832821748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147996492405147,0.0,0.0,0.14254030260858605,0.0,0.0,0.1188403591010046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13139694102501728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16747083032330592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677391232540713,0.0,0.15508852269683832,0.0,0.0,0.16439193721638098,0.0,0.08166073973675132,0.12112003195356767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451863575972443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126325226343842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11860248379163925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11460115318227213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301304387058202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204085836196793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16645391300819262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519004794928623,0.0,0.2934278230176636,0.15952919550116865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11816409774178635,0.0,0.1503802057033338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10517220229603433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17020842940428013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09871606363380946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08664355888572207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383785909253856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611386516928189,0.0,0.0,0.15142509165244722,0.2111070124111014,0.0,0.0,0.19137314941070552 schizophrenia,badbadfishy,2019/08/04,Using a schizophrenics delusion to encourage them to take their medication? My best friends brother has stopped his medication. He has now convinced that nuclear war is going to happen and that I'm going to save him. If I tell him that his medication is anti radiation pills and the doctor will give him better pills for radiation resistance would that be morally wrong? Is it bad to confirm a delusion as an outside source?,6.284254385964911,8.55478698684211,6.73947368421053,69.30464912280705,67.28947368421053,9.27719298245614,36.35087719298246,9.725611199111238,4.071156140350878,345,18,53,8,6,112,54,76,0.154,0.638,0.20800000000000002,0.7383,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,2,1,9,1,0,4,0,8,7,0,1,0,7,15,4,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,2,7,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,9,6,7,12,1,4,1,0,0,0,13,0,0,1,2,38,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18295707349650292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299542111065414,0.1937949203329496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22427986282012188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16929251795443545,0.0,0.0,0.21020104937810632,0.24906328815742296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937681791259792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6622247564175909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18319515902446815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16475189421779074,0.0,0.1915216122856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892503879307712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556574341705427,0.2395746656602776,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,boredomsbestfriend,2019/08/04,What is early onset of schizophrenia like? I don’t really know what’s happening to me. I’ve done some research but maybe personal advice would be helpful.,2.6591379310344827,5.665130689655175,3.920258620689655,79.86935344827589,86.93103448275862,7.037931034482759,24.49137931034483,8.07648339933343,2.3199586206896545,126,5,20,3,4,41,27,29,0.0,0.8079999999999999,0.192,0.6652,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,7,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,13,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38444486028797015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4026046132315119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478994542989931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637007143456284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162129998647292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19220483439611769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3952426416567818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34351862362778074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520345259022921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.279473836466747,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,GingerJay77,2019/08/04,"Recovering Schizophrenic, would like to help Hello, l was diagnosed 4 years ago with schizophrenia. Recently lowered the dose of medication I was on and I am almost back to my regular self. I was hoping I might be able to help with some of the cognitive behavioural therapies I learned, whilst I understand it might not help everyone in hoping it could improve the lives of others facing similar delusions! Some of the delusions I faced: Delusions of grandeur (believing I was God and the things I said/thought were putting others life's at risk) Delusions of telepathy Delusions of being in a simulation Prosecutery delusions There are others as well. I understand some of you may not want to publically post on this thread so if that's the case feel free to send me a private message.",5.723510638297872,8.244711794326243,5.646400709219861,75.50875,69.35460992907801,9.239007092198582,35.15425531914894,9.725611199111238,3.9321531914893626,637,33,103,16,12,199,91,141,0.019,0.7709999999999999,0.21,0.9789,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,1,8,0,14,7,2,0,0,23,20,5,0,6,3,0,1,1,0,4,5,0,0,1,8,4,0,0,4,0,1,2,2,1,1,0,5,1,13,6,21,8,3,13,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,10,6,76,21,1,0.16621807728091129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14734229648463193,0.0,0.166443394245315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278114413994221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18727085320681675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13271160942076166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687078495770853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15882849596112433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08404485416763985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3342374204240998,0.0,0.0,0.3301841111740449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11740474363604972,0.08120575656006583,0.0,0.14677360749538895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16744722583188662,0.0,0.3526622255402079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15919097111474595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670950774083175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16412029861664312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15811145505084484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17340170541965236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900848574197976,0.0,0.11042790472439334,0.0,0.0,0.13195858662164106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460777608895337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09803972854216536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494500134641267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11807655307074168,0.0,0.0,0.1070389920951762 schizophrenia,blahblah4747,2019/08/04,"So my neighbor was playing very loud music upstairs a few weeks ago when he first moved in And I hit my bat against the ceiling and I was like dude are you fucking serious blah blah blah blah. I didn’t feel good about getting that amped up and I was like well hopefully he gets the point that that’s not a acceptable level of bass. And now every time I sing in my apartment or I make a loud noise with my dog or something like that I feel like I’m hearing him stomp around or I’m hearing loud music in my head rather than him actually doing it. I feel so paranoid singing loudly on Smule or doing what I do loudly sometimes that I’m worried that he’s hearing me and responding with blasting his music all pissed off but the thing is... I don’t think the music is really there and I don’t know really what to think of that possibility because I can think of a lot of times where it’s different songs I know and can imagine so vividly where I can repeat one line over and over or like a metal riff in my head and I know that’s not real but I know that that’s me making that music in my head and it’s freaking me the fuck out lately. It’s either that or I’m hearing ambient music or vibrations my central air or something and my hearing is very sensitive. Or weed, or it’s definitely making any kind of psychosis worse... ugh confused. Borderline, bipolar, schizo? What am I? Or just high and imagining shit paranoia? I feel like it goes deeper. I remember in my shower as a kid my mom would yell if I was running late. Now as an adult I swear I’ve the years I imagined her yelling in my head a few times here and there. Just really sensitive hearing to boot w/ me. I’m also a bit of an empath amd a Libra amd a lefty anddddd really absorb a lot of peoples emotions and feelings sometimes. It’s exhausting being me sometimes.",1.3035157167079705,3.641833735294121,3.111946002347725,88.99867940524327,83.30481283422459,5.787817920959959,23.827833572453372,7.11905507035037,1.0392544150254337,1443,55,292,20,41,480,178,374,0.115,0.8190000000000001,0.066,-0.9512,2,0,2,0,1,0,25.0,0,1,0,1,18,21,4,1,19,0,20,10,6,3,1,65,52,35,0,4,20,1,5,10,1,1,2,14,2,2,23,18,0,0,17,4,0,2,5,9,1,2,5,20,44,12,30,44,7,36,0,0,1,2,19,21,4,16,19,190,67,0,0.0,0.0,0.07804768698351254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708963035836698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06395894802462478,0.0,0.08665690230235237,0.0,0.05438826754091117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119801119104055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04875428121139816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08731604047392948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356073265878733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08996528747306849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738551529732566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20219820234496375,0.11427361733488665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06802985256322477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478780631272827,0.08357115326084841,0.0,0.0,0.06708235004064676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283249342771027,0.0,0.5408509344943041,0.0,0.0,0.08450190159763853,0.0,0.07943690828363345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08328552230809345,0.175816836531489,0.0,0.18043894416120812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344413562370869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13599008373850785,0.0,0.0,0.16015923625279702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367010223598178,0.0,0.08500471487444583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05419564590773845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055447169451289566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07560573534806378,0.09016398207400708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09103328515337623,0.20494564650866406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060029110054987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.082096999741561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231430416056431,0.2373029771195008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0531343032125587,0.15374138999672599,0.0,0.0,0.13990869245942245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13198162882343453,0.0,0.0,0.06415409946144722,0.0,0.0719104681949992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08122226548083201,0.08150514149041674,0.056814583132886974,0.0,0.0,0.05150366907482778 schizophrenia,Luchinha1,2019/08/04,Haldol S/o taking Haldol pills and haldol depot shots. Why would the doctor prescribe the 2?,1.9056862745098044,4.572556823529414,3.278823529411767,81.6480392156863,98.41176470588236,2.266666666666667,11.549019607843142,3.1291,-1.0881215686274506,74,1,10,0,3,24,14,17,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5977753580935856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4391148689154655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5269926253842392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4148753137318078,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,PretendMD,2019/08/29,"Paranoia is getting worse. First of: i dont know if i have schizophrenia. I will see a therapist in a few weeks. I hope its still okay if i post this here since paranoia is part of schizophrenia. Well where do I start. Im sure that i am getting watched. A week ago a man tried to shoot me. I just feel like everybody wants to kill me. Its getting to the point where i film people and send the videos to my friends because they dont believe me. I cant walk to work without being scared. Its getting worse. Any tips to overcome this?",0.6516654904728334,3.0030829174311964,1.4286238532110112,99.75397318278051,86.79816513761469,4.087791107974596,23.06351446718419,5.369823440869387,-0.004193225123500177,414,16,93,2,13,127,71,109,0.154,0.693,0.153,-0.2718,0,0,0,1,0,2,13.0,0,0,1,2,6,8,1,1,6,1,10,0,0,0,1,10,20,3,1,4,4,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,2,2,0,2,4,2,1,1,0,3,15,6,10,18,2,13,0,0,2,0,4,4,0,3,7,59,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443310987329756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11072394491059033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925424344406028,0.0,0.0,0.183443645503522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3816502798041959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08232725045203414,0.11631944059446588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849556141533773,0.0,0.0,0.12579519334458028,0.0,0.3402692598291818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16171811043711898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758747497435724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18013744522075192,0.0,0.08948222936051217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07954617477391708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17631940605653146,0.0,0.11287966345231926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15391858674863462,0.0,0.15593762495589394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16301234540052034,0.0,0.12974735204409393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13468731293375852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11524562670558935,0.0,0.1300291566820175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15345697860315666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890478696482713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11054485255756426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09603611507065986,0.0,0.2612105623410269,0.0,0.1463957408264315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15695374930473924,0.0,0.1185357144821763,0.0,0.3318572627644901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SchizophrenicB,2019/08/29,"Just formally diagnosed about two weeks ago, been on antipsychotics for about six months It took a while to get a formal diagnosis. The actual diagnosis I got is ""Paranoid Schizophrenia"" which I didn't think was even a diagnosis they still made, I thought they stopped using classifications like that. But my psychiatrist put in writing ""Paranoid schizophrenia"". I decided to join this subreddit so I don't feel so alone and to understand what other people are experiencing too. And for support. It's good to be here",6.122666666666667,8.943188544444443,6.3663888888888875,69.45625000000003,69.1111111111111,10.277777777777779,33.47222222222222,10.411451182825502,4.248888888888889,419,20,67,13,8,134,70,90,0.095,0.7909999999999999,0.115,0.4183,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,0,9,3,0,0,4,0,7,1,0,2,0,13,17,6,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,2,0,1,5,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,7,2,8,3,10,9,0,10,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,49,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.2317013414319441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104709220450412,0.0,0.0,0.2459100258224728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409905200604011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15682292291700844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005376848221702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12404946939454907,0.0,0.0,0.19914838083681505,0.18989766611797654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159982629994156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246657991784005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18951755984417126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16460684534036296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386867576411385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896151054059057,0.19850546218602827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26943729843177444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15213812509002012,0.0,0.18849608062756126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.263797919094452,0.0,0.0,0.2319385251965297,0.2471771757721339,0.0,0.2050667491713865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904552393297166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,JoshLemon8,2019/08/29,"What are the effects of schizophrenia on dreams? Hello everybody. I'm not diagnosed, but I have some symptoms. I'll see a therapist next month and then I will see what's wrong with me, but until then I'm interested in two questions. First as in the title. Are there any effects of schizophrenia on your dreams? Second how did it your schizophrenia start? Thanks to all of you, who answer my questions and sorry for my english. It's not my native language.",2.7505813953488385,5.577255453488372,3.1314418604651166,87.92925581395347,81.67441860465115,5.300465116279073,24.879069767441862,6.742157984588678,1.1028037209302337,363,14,65,4,10,112,59,86,0.062,0.792,0.147,0.8290000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,0,3,2,3,0,0,3,0,5,2,0,3,1,15,11,9,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,1,0,3,1,2,9,2,12,9,2,11,0,0,2,0,7,4,0,3,7,49,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15715726091086935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345636296479169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965752132289297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18446338348879168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24577956139511606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.517774181565744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3683166902001844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586997290346306,0.16357516018447646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402034288239931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21276763969054785,0.0,0.2683271933541425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257530392135222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526737195512695,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Nandoxus,2019/08/29,"Hi, help me understand pls ? My name is Rami, i'm a 24 years old male from North Africa. we have a bad health system, so i've always been skeptical about my diagnosis. alright, I've been diagnosed with GAD, Social phobia and Delusional thoughts. but after a long research, i don't think that's what i have I used to be a regular kid with a normal life. not poor and not rich. I was bullied and made fun of a lot. since my childhood the kids in my neighborhood always called me (Mahboul) which means Crazy. I was always afraid of other kids. and since I've been always afraid of fighting someone. i developed Panic attacks at the age of 12...etc i don't wanna be too long on you my friends. so, 3 years ago i started to lose touch with reality, started to isolate myself and enjoy the solitude at home. avoiding others, not making eye contact with bystanders, started to develop obsessions on some hoodlums near my house always checking from the window if they're sitting below my apartment. i developed an immense hate toward them to the point where i always imagine myself murdering one of them...etc. sometimes i experience derealization, I have abnormal fears, i get irritated quickly. my speech slurs sometimes, I get stressed a lot, my hands shake a lot. some times i make some stupid mistakes at my workplace (i'm an HR manager). I don't have Auditory and visual hallucinations. idk. and now i feel like i'm about to lose my mind and go 100% nuts can anyone just give me some thoughts, advice anything some hope some help excuse my bad English, it's my third language",3.7980808080808077,6.13750604713805,4.711447811447812,80.87606060606063,74.38720538720541,7.093602693602692,29.181818181818183,8.045849151850463,2.2031898989898995,1244,54,220,20,27,403,177,297,0.23600000000000002,0.653,0.11,-0.9921,0,1,0,0,2,0,46.0,1,1,1,2,9,26,6,8,15,1,16,5,2,4,0,46,38,12,1,5,6,0,3,1,1,0,3,1,2,4,6,13,0,1,7,0,3,2,6,19,0,2,8,5,38,7,30,28,9,32,0,2,1,0,18,13,0,11,16,136,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09863381871464208,0.08947397114130258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5039227011343849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07057703256618011,0.0,0.08306200366316288,0.0,0.0,0.11482965310761635,0.0,0.0,0.1685552478140205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10306728375522786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10244825569109936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22514139046986825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987351041404048,0.0,0.1135814392448218,0.05103644395249888,0.07210893814490074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07798316231106202,0.0,0.10547013845766808,0.0968273302900505,0.05736444546041514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996537342479802,0.0,0.10729060448542506,0.0,0.0,0.13531099588224724,0.0,0.10124737420576088,0.10025255591691047,0.0,0.1164669790266705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712943187025702,0.049312394962710566,0.0,0.0,0.17865096101402708,0.0,0.22584388149281354,0.0,0.2574373884012743,0.0,0.09550840105040292,0.13475157526451162,0.0,0.0,0.1099492597011262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10191692499271897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09889617783367907,0.0,0.0,0.10591570463479616,0.0,0.06839707308873265,0.0,0.0,0.1184270415894981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09541746241630296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16699115930420588,0.0,0.0,0.10289188268091833,0.08552302939461959,0.0,0.19965723320095224,0.0,0.21432977303999445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156222311196794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0646759280642257,0.0,0.16026435114594895,0.058856788853399726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10507828481452523,0.0,0.08717658581585362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12999938128040278 schizophrenia,theclumsynarwhal,2019/08/29,"Possible Psychosis?? Any advice?? (Already checked the FAQ) So, after having a lot of talks with family and friends, I think I've had schizophrenia since I was a kid (I have all the textbook symptoms/have had them for years) and am seeing a doctor in a week or so. I did a lot of research on the subject, but there's one thing I still can't fathom. Is it really a (delusional) psychotic episode when I'm gripped with the firm belief and fear that there's dead people that I can't see following me? I'll get extremely paranoid and scared because in the moment it's real to me. I usually have general paranoia about this stuff along with a bunch of other symptoms, but what I'm talking about is a lot more intense. I can't think about anything else in that moment, as if I'm in a bubble of my own reality. It's embarrassing when I have to ask my girlfriend to make sure there isn't a dead woman or demon behind me, but she's supportive. I also frequently experienced tactile and auditory hallucinations when I was younger, which I thought was a demon grabbing me/talking to me and I get really scared in those moments that it's going to happen again (but in that moment my brain doesn't say it's a hallucination, it says it's a demon).",5.495121951219512,5.771086560975611,6.683235772357726,76.35729268292684,67.53658536585365,9.486829268292682,32.66016260162601,9.3871,2.9061450406504066,978,40,187,18,15,331,131,246,0.14800000000000002,0.8109999999999999,0.042,-0.9831,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,1,0,14,7,0,4,18,0,18,3,1,1,2,29,34,20,2,1,7,0,2,0,2,0,2,2,0,2,19,10,0,0,4,0,1,2,5,4,0,1,7,7,22,3,27,27,7,23,4,0,2,0,11,7,0,6,14,136,41,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368291304770196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545191734455282,0.11197656792423732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09522063327607648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522723022405328,0.0,0.1309028667969389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08535689298022223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15631229104910296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433197622907506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11697148460919085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13200148839622122,0.15756512089590544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10818164023174844,0.0,0.14631277106085794,0.0,0.07957845792580903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382212572566005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3571283609035817,0.0,0.0,0.09346662794834436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09488339962766908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09707451307483332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578552114262827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593771497682994,0.17940499973685106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22270426773568386,0.28037546482633363,0.0,0.22316085355356569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11582870572541268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182277377864304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16029315746707234,0.0,0.1588967609176914,0.1319702860571425,0.14553780382236026,0.0,0.3376362299438516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930252466081427,0.17944253026286958,0.0,0.1111628450542219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15421586264205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11231823064377497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901704026821152 schizophrenia,MystiqueAgent,2019/08/29,"Thoughts beating me down? Hi I am relatively new and questioning if perhaps I am schizophrenia. I recently pulled away from all my online groups and have been going the loner route as usual once again; I seem to go in cycles with this. I've been wondering if your own thoughts ( ? ) are beating you down would this be normal? Like currently as I said I am questioning if I am and generally I find my thoughts practically yelling that I am a faker and shouldn't be taking away from those who truly need the help. Sometimes it usually leaves me teary eyed or even just bawling my eyes out. Even writing this I can kind of hear it in my mind and wondering if anyone else experiences something similar to this? Sorry if this is jumbled.",5.333913043478262,6.852822681159424,5.69634782608696,78.80191304347828,68.56521739130434,8.998260869565216,31.91594202898551,9.3871,2.9528672463768126,582,25,106,12,10,186,92,138,0.098,0.843,0.059000000000000004,-0.5163,1,0,1,0,1,0,12.0,0,2,0,2,4,2,0,0,3,0,15,2,2,0,1,31,27,13,0,9,7,0,0,1,0,2,0,3,0,0,10,7,0,0,9,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,6,5,18,2,15,17,2,16,0,0,2,0,11,7,0,11,7,78,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10286336168271797,0.15073250167106686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764310660312019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12289227997682757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19433072384660424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14390268843411327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344566973357469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16721302912785807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16580467583967773,0.0,0.09860533521321496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15319336417169982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15576920181740078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718709548142862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14854007225772906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10908086821266863,0.0,0.1420806237933319,0.0,0.0,0.14413744726381195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15666830717327904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3295957515143284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14525426602311253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13993615382642158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13392423813590784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11325315790251607,0.14549644158007335,0.1646786082494065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106090885192876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3503688661317737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32404374505452194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3190709911402697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450336244446984,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Windy808,2019/08/29,"Schizophrenia for money It was not my intention, but after my girlfriend couldn't or wouldn't find a job after 4 months. I told her to leave and in October, 5 months later I won 1,800 dollars. It was not that I frequent casinos that I won the money, it was from a number on the back of a semi. O26m72. Quite cryptic, yet very specific. 26 is the number of the exit for the casino, and m for money, and I was born in 72"".",2.2708374384236443,3.6484018965517286,4.1766830870279135,87.25448275862068,76.01149425287356,6.3507389162561605,22.773399014778327,6.868970318607317,0.6937467980295562,323,9,67,3,7,110,56,87,0.016,0.828,0.156,0.9136,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,8,0,7,0,0,1,0,11,10,5,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,2,6,0,4,0,0,0,7,0,8,2,12,1,0,13,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,9,49,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591186546147197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079957964025272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3344030214661105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3568156909948232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5379522519706393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584222481318959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32200111146005794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780457605962303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Paranoiadestroyer,2019/04/11,"My new subreddit (mostly) for people experiecing mental health issues in the UK! Hello all! I'd like to introduce [My brand new subreddit](www.reddit.com/r/MentalHealthUK). As someone from the UK who has dealt with mental health issues for years, I've noticed a lack of active UK spaces and would like to try and change that if there is the demand for it. Anyone is welcome to participate but I would prefer it if people who are not from the UK only talk about their specific healthcare processes/systems if relevant to a comments discussion rather than promoting it - just so we dont get swamped out due to uneven population. I'm hoping it can be a sub where people can either ask questions, give support, vent or promote their own blogs or work if related to mental health/therapy. My inbox is always open too! Thanks for reading if you got this far 🙂",7.842222222222222,8.157236859872615,7.748365180467091,70.58111818825195,62.566878980891715,10.544656758669495,33.36801132342533,10.25414643259724,3.4997365888181173,685,25,112,14,9,220,111,157,0.018000000000000002,0.8220000000000001,0.16,0.9722,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,1,2,3,7,6,0,0,7,0,11,2,0,0,1,26,19,12,0,11,12,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,8,6,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,8,6,19,15,5,10,0,0,0,0,14,6,0,10,6,75,16,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11494000995256705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658772832402407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12913827943864664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461293075163747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618940703994033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07217022811276448,0.1325123986139012,0.0,0.0,0.11047977833928704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4404955286852507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719996835530984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883556687329018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497230003823188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4176250388409417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26682473655464545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572684671082079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10505846262761012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872978087319062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547436540243224,0.0,0.13817313165004105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11704197283824865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15675481229235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102828348477356,0.0,0.1271768396187027,0.15797026895139032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09378510688595704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10056447130114242,0.0,0.0,0.1962553472025856,0.0,0.0,0.08895489414087136 schizophrenia,michigan14,2019/04/11,"Got released from the psych ward today!! Sorry this isn't a meme guys... Just wanted to vent... I got released today, and was diagnosed with Schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder ,i was hospitalized because i has a severe psychotic episode and my family found out i has been self harming for a year,still feel akward just walking around, still have symptoms and still hear voices, thankfully the visions have somewhat stopped but i still can't trust what's real and what's not... The voices right now are telling me to kill myself and self harm again, i feel like the drugs aren't working but i've been told to have patience, eating, sleeping and walking are much harder. Anyway just needed to tell someone and be listened so thank you for reading....",5.6745858585858615,7.9646061555555585,4.92969696969697,81.57818181818183,68.92592592592592,6.983164983164983,30.79124579124579,7.686295010490155,2.208407407407408,601,25,98,7,11,180,90,135,0.168,0.755,0.077,-0.9166,0,0,1,0,0,1,25.0,0,1,0,1,11,7,1,0,7,0,15,5,1,0,0,24,27,10,1,2,6,0,2,1,0,0,3,4,0,3,3,10,1,1,3,1,0,2,4,3,0,0,8,6,10,4,10,18,2,13,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,1,9,67,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281202474509221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08773293619586685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460768361403872,0.0,0.0,0.16494599192740358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16690272598179925,0.14726716398343456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567595720603962,0.0,0.1455416143524431,0.10281722680970076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15780200269484002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230213622096048,0.0,0.0,0.14250446664226854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16220948310747327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15922731804354362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07031255525108714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10579853144922384,0.10671563488836876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14395999698615666,0.16381366312081194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290779024854966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002820861334799,0.16258982089572954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14402498796712607,0.0,0.12194383854397572,0.0,0.0,0.1611078323799715,0.0,0.0,0.344806609096223,0.12032444207951648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495890772382291,0.0,0.0,0.2515866823899681,0.26500633270132484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27284065412863723,0.1375227307863724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848883641004403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477623842306973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926804375025535 schizophrenia,fernmcklauf,2019/04/11,Schizophrenia is when your layers of abstraction become topological and intersect I finally understand and had to share. It's when you become unable to traverse one layer in a cartesian plane. It finally makes sense.,7.9891666666666685,10.969515138888896,7.773333333333332,60.70500000000001,64.27777777777777,11.466666666666667,37.0,11.20814326018867,5.600566666666667,179,9,22,6,3,57,30,36,0.0,0.9359999999999999,0.064,0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,4,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6466588459773763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6414065641357869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19541897132448352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19838114156912212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047725458746984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Itpaints,2019/04/11,"Unmedicated Schizophrenics, how do you cope? I was diagnosed with schizophrenia 2 years ago and have been on Latuda for 5 years. In the past I was on Thorazine, Seroquel, Abilfy, and Risperidal. I stopped taking my Latuda 3 weeks ago because I want to start painting again and lose weight. I thought I was doing well until a week ago people around me have been gently suggesting maybe I go back on it. There has to be a way to live without an antipsychotic. How do I do this? (I've never posted on Reddit before, so I'm also not sure how to do this...)",3.4865005192108,5.394805915887854,4.375638629283492,84.86684319833853,73.95327102803739,6.250882658359295,24.973001038421607,6.937597516519254,1.0272147455867078,431,14,82,4,9,139,75,107,0.07,0.866,0.064,-0.1336,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,1,10,3,0,0,4,0,14,3,0,3,2,15,20,9,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,6,1,11,2,14,13,0,23,0,1,0,0,2,6,0,0,14,60,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4921000582485857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14798233691309992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16473141608831254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422900263719171,0.0,0.1128031759591072,0.0,0.1574617058750407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18781921323032216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10516670040976547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16340024220487925,0.0,0.0,0.2070207044947647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18590498283456194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14271996075075366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17664867944905513,0.128288565775963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772242549655708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13097750037372485,0.0,0.0,0.15470791017155686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17440498218376926,0.0,0.1391326134760771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14690696360833866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10914574944949627,0.14688201087635352,0.29686772075129364,0.22533787807779385,0.1663798336381965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17837908774391673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383289139264008 schizophrenia,mzclita,2019/04/11,"How to Help I would like to know what is the best way to help someone with a mental disorder. I believe my nephew, 15 years old, may be schizophrenic. He has not been diagnosed. We have been waiting for a year to find out if he has Autism or something else. He has incredible difficulties learning, communicating, understanding basic concepts, understanding basic human interactions and expressions. He is also extremely lazy and his parents do not help him. He plays games and is on his phone all the time. Last year, he had a breakdown and was taken to a children’s mental hospital for two nights. It was the most heartbreaking thing I have experienced. He was suicidal and was hearing things. He seems to be having another episode. Last weekend, he said he felt something in his heart like he wanted to hurt someone. I took him outside and told him to breathe and try to calm his thoughts and brought his notebook for him and told him to draw the sunset. That seemed to help him. Yesterday, he was texting me asking weird questions (what is an alpha, beta, omega; what’s a wolf pack; what’s a black sheep and white sheep) and last night he was pretty worked up. He was saying things that didn’t make sense at all — that he was trying to understand “them” but he can’t say who them is. And a lot of other things that don’t make sense. I spoke to him pretty sternly and told him that he needed to sleep so he could think better in the morning. I said when he doesn’t get sleep, he doesn’t think clearly. To stop worrying and go to sleep and tomorrow will be another day and he should wake up and try to make it a good one. In the past, I’ve told him to try to think whether the stuff he is thinking makes sense or not. And if it doesn’t make sense, he should stop worrying about it. But the thing is that I don’t know what makes sense to him because of the way his brain works. I don’t know if saying “what you’re thinking is not correct. Think of it this way” helps him or not. I just read on another thread that someone was upset because their family goes along with their delusions. So is correcting him good? Also, he had a doctor visit today and she said he was having a paranoia episode. Also, it is so hard to try to help him. I feel awful and I don’t know if I can. He is not on meds. He was last year but it was terrible, he was a zombie and had drooling and other bad side effects. They changed the meds a few times and overall, it was the same, no improvement. In fact, when he was on some meds, he had several panic attacks (he constantly worries that he doesn’t know the future and can’t see it anymore; also he worries about dreams he has).",3.7611406844106448,5.189156131178709,4.367017110266161,87.17482224334603,72.28897338403041,7.465323193916353,26.45798479087453,7.993328176185818,1.4557902661596964,2079,70,428,29,40,661,227,526,0.11599999999999999,0.7909999999999999,0.094,-0.9266,1,0,2,0,0,0,61.0,1,0,5,5,13,16,1,2,25,1,62,11,8,8,6,97,106,45,1,10,18,2,3,2,0,5,3,8,0,2,33,29,0,3,23,5,0,4,18,8,0,2,35,16,40,8,45,62,8,45,0,2,3,0,90,13,0,14,27,268,73,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19403288477238148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19081576495170707,0.0,0.0,0.06015648694463682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05670708912682958,0.06900728949978306,0.0,0.0,0.05064693860787384,0.07395316934238304,0.0,0.0,0.06834085128235337,0.06365688185735915,0.053647116479529335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06771444535199198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06416817462176179,0.0,0.0,0.06554980359001668,0.0,0.04843051765695645,0.0,0.0,0.039119424556697834,0.0,0.0,0.06156664457218133,0.0,0.0,0.06951938121688722,0.062086085146361936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05067201785061344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05718301172861494,0.0,0.030670532981310082,0.0,0.05824124108073182,0.0,0.05544035938478952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031691327898158386,0.0,0.03447336805216581,0.10175418997421616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0543376989308853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06836603158023864,0.07188008208247504,0.24394687642048254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06493569778507433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16668039147267136,0.19777762882172265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05926891918641015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05156930551386911,0.0,0.0,0.24293831897537604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021322596947865,0.0,0.1222580962675252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044977175964796036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11384694290004135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06365042037928187,0.0,0.04110346496604488,0.0,0.0,0.07116915293570016,0.06735358685527981,0.0,0.057904972951028026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342208895654687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06795089897986095,0.0,0.06067446558427021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730990901782194,0.14471314954854825,0.0,0.0,0.048336612947186185,0.11044162231723792,0.0,0.06852633161168538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18210557151914855,0.0,0.15418610842972735,0.0933950617558195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10142569286941804,0.0,0.0,0.06943895568770507,0.06635006221579963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20149256771573645,0.2332033775672431,0.0,0.04815571664950822,0.07074039427129067,0.0,0.05749673946057968,0.2318454673753567,0.06739332617606095,0.2059141734762662,0.0,0.05925410152976829,0.18944150985654207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03577768987180825,0.1444426116285923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883195666204571,0.24640477940516456,0.0,0.0430897388203213,0.0,0.0,0.15624718347624122 schizophrenia,Lawkbutt,2019/04/11,"Anyone Else Really Lazy? Hello, I was diagnosed with schizophrenia at 20(I'm 25 now) and over time I've noticed that I've become more lethargic in work and in my various hobbies. Is that ""normal"" for us, or am I just lazy?",3.004069767441859,5.2397763255813965,4.24436046511628,83.77956395348839,76.44186046511628,7.090697674418602,24.703488372093023,8.07648339933343,1.6486790697674418,174,6,32,3,4,57,35,43,0.185,0.815,0.0,-0.799,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,6,3,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,6,2,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,2,22,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272165238631602,0.3329554323583024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3588879498723392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32982311224473904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714587216397029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183875112580082,0.0,0.36996412514991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20817489000438916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948423421567626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.390881598004652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23657156027655224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,rgmt16,2019/04/11,"I visited my best friend (who has Schizophrenia) at a psych ward and she said really hurtful/mean things to me. What do I do when she gets out/returns to normal? I (23yo female) have been best friends with a girl (24yo female) for the last 10+ years. In the past few years it almost feels like I’ve kind of taken on the role as her secondary caretaker (after her parents of course). We spend a lot of time together and I help her with regular ""adulting"" things (e.g., I taught her how to drive, helped her start classes at comm. college, apply for jobs, budgeting, basic computer skills, etc.), but also fun stuff like dating, exercising, etc. She had her first manic episode (and psych ward visit) at 18yo and they diagnosed her with bipolar disorder. Last year, she went to a new psychiatrist and they also diagnosed her with Schizophrenia based on her symptoms (which seems more accurate since she was adopted from Russia as a baby and her birth mom had Schizophrenia). She has random periods where she goes on/off her meds, and we can usually tell, but it just got really bad the past few weeks after she dropped her classes and wasn't working/doing anything, but being alone with her thoughts. Two weeks ago, she ended up back in the psych ward for the first time in \~7 years and after a week of being there and being off her meds, I decided to visit her, along with her other friend. I never visited her the first time she was there, so I only heard some things about it through her mom, and she did warn me it could be bad. It was the worst experience of my life. I sat down with her and she flipped me off immediately and ignored me. However, she smiled/laughed at her other friend visiting, so that was strange. When I tried to talk to her, she would turn her head towards me slowly and stare creepily into my eyes for several minutes before breaking the glance and turning back to her other friend. She looked like she wanted to hurt/kill me, so I was getting scared and so was her other friend. Her lip would shake a little, but she just had this flat stare/expression and wouldn’t blink or say anything. I was absolutely horrified. Then she told me she “hated me” and that she “never knew me”. She told me to get the “f\*ck” out, so I left and called her parents. My heart was literally broken! I was crying and very shaken up, I still am. It was so scary to see her like that and for her to say those things to me. When she gets out and back on her medication, what do I do? Do I just forget what she said to me and pretend it didn’t happen? Is that fair to myself or to her (to not know the truth)? Also, I’m kind of scared to be alone with her now. Seeing how she was off her meds and how she quickly turned on me, frightened me. How do I know she won’t act like this again the next time she randomly decides to go off her meds? I really don’t know what to do or how to react when she gets out. Any advice from people in a similar situation (from either side) would be appreciated. &#x200B; TL;DR I visited my best friend of 10+ years at a psych ward and she said really hurtful/mean things to me. What do I do when she gets out/returns to normal?",5.185494093921059,5.602163807383629,5.5652006420545765,83.6149261225666,68.22953451043338,8.701140058443428,27.37082767419846,8.617729084823388,1.7415307980409105,2464,71,505,36,39,788,265,623,0.11599999999999999,0.7909999999999999,0.094,-0.9576,4,2,0,0,0,1,104.0,2,0,2,7,33,27,1,3,21,0,46,11,4,6,3,85,82,54,0,8,12,4,1,5,7,5,7,6,0,2,31,40,0,1,9,2,2,11,8,8,0,4,31,13,109,19,79,39,12,88,0,0,6,0,101,29,0,9,51,370,140,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05975463631776791,0.05420538994767033,0.0,0.0612324451602541,0.12666499212557492,0.0,0.1467038283974568,0.0,0.06625551606386072,0.07430340109722483,0.04158379353521588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10064174510117803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14106069715464428,0.10211464651609266,0.0,0.0,0.05203376646098873,0.0,0.19251805245846584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062440531425349464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04882294297608981,0.0,0.06716991355799723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12413101996835844,0.0,0.0,0.07008268647728583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05416035457451725,0.0,0.1363958334263138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05981599735863213,0.0,0.0,0.030919051772259905,0.04368525349885215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15604133783590576,0.0,0.0,0.3307079553922471,0.0,0.19168870823573853,0.0,0.03475270065305388,0.0,0.04890688434326619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054074348532620393,0.0,0.0,0.06037252460967095,0.06275708391139917,0.0,0.0,0.07246251575271469,0.0819745139558142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06546186213679471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06068149667928153,0.0,0.0,0.12735570080540767,0.10081858681434508,0.0996900958431346,0.0,0.0,0.06643916919464696,0.0,0.04319173830144635,0.1493729161739063,0.0612879175361487,0.0,0.0,0.05135022433725794,0.0,0.0,0.05198716396661392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13321958152824326,0.27169347665202226,0.06160174225884778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14323523685962858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09432461138099904,0.059058620169045166,0.06503324426115366,0.0,0.11982715901460955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04650699121816358,0.0,0.0,0.1357986860088042,0.0,0.1167483367592701,0.042393401202569854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15669588011692068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17450168649540174,0.09725715919239586,0.12244274208799767,0.0,0.09745655474069954,0.05566825722135193,0.0,0.06908159033805772,0.0,0.0505835428585306,0.06873466060924746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04328196896011622,0.0,0.04883411270605915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07000160927193991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06355780021091614,0.0,0.04914969509212209,0.05344740535301033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031252321805048,0.0,0.0,0.04854591529673587,0.14262718643963312,0.0,0.0,0.11686203844763204,0.0,0.04151653311166445,0.199539465203513,0.05973422874764121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06734759443753259,0.05045478603732753,0.036067591199422544,0.0,0.1471514508769274,0.0,0.0,0.05668624906328984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031666579617715,0.0,0.07430340109722483,0.1968915391083848 schizophrenia,Texas--Toast,2019/04/11,"what's it like? I'm just going to make it clear that I do not have schizophrenia. But I've been trying to find out more about it as I have come to find it (and just mental disorders in general really) quite fascinating and thought this would be the perfect place to find out more about it. I just want to know what it's like to have it, or any past experiences with it.",5.933961038961041,4.807087818181817,6.322694805194807,84.01832792207794,66.92207792207792,10.297402597402598,28.34090909090909,9.516144504307137,1.93385974025974,290,7,67,5,4,94,48,77,0.0,0.7959999999999999,0.204,0.9371,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,1,2,23,14,5,0,2,6,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,12,6,0,0,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,13,10,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,3,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15390941589512488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19495977686323326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593891615719381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213902203716684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6205734898532541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12862626046274395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243828303353087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211428667219408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15107433775942833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280833382799966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21605374101005906,0.0,0.0,0.2364624603203013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407255206751414,0.0,0.0,0.14499020731203818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17967753377496268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15366047245775202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334929168871089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160775470513565,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Shalista,2019/08/20,"Missing symptoms I’ve been symptom free for 2+ years thanks to some quality pharmaceuticals. I used to get horrifying hallucinations, paranoia, and delusions. I couldn’t eat or sleep because of the fear. But when i lay awake at night waiting to be devoured I saw such stars at night. A whole vast night sky opened up to me in swirling color. I’ve been symptom free for 2+ years now. And sometimes I miss it. I lie awake at night and strain to see into the dark but there are no stars anymore. Am I ungrateful to want my stars back?",1.8298571428571435,4.3931951523809545,2.769166666666667,90.79375000000002,83.19047619047619,5.404761904761906,24.940476190476193,6.816661863887847,0.8999047619047622,421,17,87,5,12,133,72,105,0.16,0.7659999999999999,0.07400000000000001,-0.7935,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,2,3,0,6,5,1,1,0,13,15,7,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,0,3,3,9,5,15,10,2,18,0,2,3,0,0,9,0,2,9,48,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657326346752225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12850070077475773,0.0,0.1018714208575368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.170999807953072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18805022280947672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873104055054271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.62730238266434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13316858450172256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672351433724383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652804694085369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5210877181519931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538565379155799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443332334529132,0.0,0.0,0.09856843552890426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18657732135392646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21523246031581147 schizophrenia,moon_leaf,2019/08/20,"Question: faking schizophrenia? So, I don’t want this to sound ignorant because I know many mental illnesses have the stigma of being “faked” or exaggerated. I am genuinely asking because I would like to be educated. I am in nursing school and we are studying schizophrenia in-depth right now. While learning about it, it seems as though it is a very outward-presenting disorder and it seems like you would be able to tell if someone has it, and that they would have a difficult time functioning in social situations. I could be totally wrong about this, please let me know if I am. I’m really curious about this because a girl that I know posts extensively about her schizophrenia on all her social media accounts, and says things like “my hallucinations were really bad last night” and things like that. But, this girl is very bubbly and social and has none of the negative (quiet) symptoms of schizophrenia; slow speech, speaking in whispers or hushed tones, delayed responses, flat affect... is this normal for someone with “high-functioning” schizophrenia? Is there such a thing? Thank you in advance for any responses, and I really hope that no one takes offense to this, that was not my intention and I would enjoy hearing anyone’s personal experiences with this. Edit: on this note, is there anything that I can do as a nurse to best treat patients with schizophrenia, make them feel as comfortable as possible, things to do/not to do?",10.491588235294117,9.393003227450984,9.217500000000003,66.82625000000003,57.901960784313715,12.57843137254902,40.465686274509814,11.538034831475384,4.745215686274509,1153,49,187,26,12,357,146,255,0.10400000000000001,0.753,0.14400000000000002,0.8999,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,1,2,2,2,10,17,1,0,7,0,29,2,0,3,2,42,43,21,0,10,6,0,1,4,0,4,2,8,0,3,23,13,0,2,8,0,1,1,5,7,0,1,2,9,21,10,29,31,4,16,0,0,0,0,19,7,0,8,11,138,44,3,0.1114727287379813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07580527810457513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07794432380363801,0.0,0.09173255765931593,0.0,0.10421195365775017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09307507227722436,0.2038582223586368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169837514896769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900190327878625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277574046780342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10904171864535732,0.0,0.0,0.05636396103065997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12563786687885736,0.0,0.0,0.11777705818917715,0.0,0.1107175719410234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837874893520583,0.09086515198836743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11398841764302613,0.0,0.2178397782254297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07440891203252711,0.11301585060369836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11233829190227397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10460960455085656,0.10921960626188534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07553680592975115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973336870304186,0.0,0.12236358152212065,0.0,0.12566875256680635,0.10676006022269036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12487496791898264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21423685335571205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519710126559408,0.0,0.08864758808016032,0.0,0.11281635272779413,0.0,0.2029611712403236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12530001762573773,0.0,0.34089722656987137,0.188900962634028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11586284730428235,0.08381361905870012,0.0,0.09743207827640228,0.10262911178849964,0.0,0.0,0.2962301109437657,0.0,0.10952139000710907,0.0,0.06500064456705504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18395335115481504,0.06574950356847374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31674811274651216,0.12187792959285836,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,FullyArmedBattalion,2019/08/20,Has something like this ever happened to any of you? I was in class once and it sounded like a bomb went off next to me so I ducked under the table and screamed holding my ears and everyone just stared at me while my principal tried to console me and ask what happened. I was still pretty shook and from the “blast” everything was kinda shaking around me as if there was a shockwave.,5.161200000000001,6.059706720000001,5.049333333333333,85.57800000000002,68.46666666666667,7.6,31.0,7.554174236665415,1.9098000000000008,304,12,59,3,5,94,56,75,0.10400000000000001,0.792,0.10300000000000001,0.2247,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,6,5,0,2,4,0,5,1,1,0,1,11,9,9,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,5,4,10,2,11,4,0,12,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,2,6,45,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17796386824357247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23296703601150345,0.24465265287423066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367211616698948,0.0,0.25006401105946763,0.2351976240156861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4628380154622809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557052131438566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27831918950210155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787002272485977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662413284780314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20146819362222587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089926594131682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17767601751766945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24259701441087564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dottydreamer,2019/08/20,"How did you approach the conversation with your families around schizophrenia? Admitting to the hallucinations and voices can be hard, if you want to get help and explore possible causes you need to first tell people.how did you all go about starting this conversation while being sure you would be taken seriously? Also is it possible to be high functioning schizophrenic, eg you are able to go about your day with a mask on so no one would guess you are actually struggling?",11.019578313253014,10.33067695180723,9.847078313253014,61.42194277108435,56.59036144578314,13.60120481927711,41.231927710843365,12.602617957971056,5.412110843373494,389,17,61,11,4,122,60,83,0.10300000000000001,0.828,0.07,-0.46,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,9,0,1,6,3,0,1,3,0,12,1,0,2,2,17,21,7,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,4,1,2,0,2,3,2,9,1,11,12,1,11,0,0,0,0,14,3,0,2,4,48,11,0,0.20708137834045004,0.0,0.2020815534123289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16560290344241654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18434633052473745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21272961874661075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13355035761459433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19521789372866766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17614331462881566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10819147321418804,0.0,0.23537823900622865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281234848030335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18550424006509106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13880228281349066,0.21879284577330124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15354821812082636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14032370127168395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4669062790600258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465732654313755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21648641882909106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951717483784268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809982521507743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214196223870467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942093394361086,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Ace_Of_Spuds,2019/08/20,"Keep On Trucking I feel stable, some panic attacks, some hospital visits, the normal paranoia and minor auditory hallucination etc Then I come here, and read about those with stronger symptoms, scarier hallucinations, delusions etc and I feel like a weird sense of guilt. But, we all have it different, and we can all keep working at improving ourselves and each other.",6.37505376344086,9.597130161290323,6.140000000000002,69.44666666666667,69.96774193548387,8.004301075268819,34.526881720430104,8.841846274778883,3.6480559139784963,298,15,42,6,6,93,50,62,0.16899999999999998,0.6890000000000001,0.142,-0.2263,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,2,0,0,1,2,5,1,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,2,20,7,7,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,10,0,2,2,1,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,2,5,1,5,7,7,5,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,2,32,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26827634068872264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20313581279526813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463789959424795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5259974818196234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384727299055707,0.16846800049403185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4192106875560401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11520847196842678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23105098708654745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27668091382673016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23588121947961774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24510457556606696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716778786408106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,celery64,2019/08/20,"Schizoaffective family experience When I was in high school, one day, my older brother tried really hard to convince me that no one could read my mind, but I never thought that. After he brought it up, however, I became suspicious and then even came to the conclusion that people sort of knew what I was thinking somehow because we were connected in some way. Relatable? Can someone explain what illness this is if any? I liked the post about everyone thinking he or she is god because sometimes I feel like a Holy Spirit connects me to everyone or something.",7.925181518151818,8.580675396039606,7.681930693069308,69.9689686468647,62.366336633663366,11.089768976897693,40.595709570957105,10.864195022040775,4.830226402640265,449,24,71,11,6,143,79,101,0.09,0.784,0.126,0.5988,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,3,0,7,1,0,0,1,20,15,7,0,2,4,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,7,1,0,2,2,0,0,2,7,2,12,3,9,7,1,14,1,0,0,0,6,4,0,6,8,52,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313101600945442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354159365840271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208474537360068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15416939902435658,0.0,0.0,0.1245292940456208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12753639546688314,0.0,0.0,0.3690181119367583,0.0,0.1888824352382655,0.18203130957731992,0.0,0.09763384465509832,0.13794599152785647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17297379408327934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20401382005287985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886714017082063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19496932881385096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489255641239845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616902233636818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13386667799193108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849301387722048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19314569300101908,0.0,0.12370060157500698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19542086921088864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636074444003041,0.14865276316811338,0.19097434872962052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24745295810280485,0.0,0.15329462195776258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13109777021296484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15326858425660453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sno-whyte,2019/08/20,"Passengers of the Malaysian Airline plane crash watched me make waffles through my window tonight. Told my boyfriend and he laughed. ""They probably were."" He says and goes back to sleep. I can tell he is sick of my nonsense. Although its not nonsense to me. I texted my mom last night and mentioned the people on tv are possibly aliens in disguise trying to trick me i to being mind controlled or something. She started throwing around the idea of going to inpatient care. Says she is deeply worried. I just wanted my mom to tell me the people on tv wont hurt me so maybe i could believe her. I see my psych doctor on the 29th but that feels so far away. Currently unmedicated and I keep expereincing very scary things. Family is pushing for me to go inpatient. But how do I know if that is the right decision? Where do you draw the line of what is sick enough to get help? I cannot rely on doctors to be there for me every time I break, this is my reality and I must live with it right? Then again, whos to say what is reality and what isnt at this point. Im so lost and losing hope. Damn.",1.9972518765638008,4.274207215596333,3.0516096747289403,90.83323603002505,80.05504587155963,6.165471226021682,24.587989991659718,7.348242739294969,1.050790825688074,855,32,180,12,22,273,136,218,0.14300000000000002,0.799,0.057999999999999996,-0.9566,1,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,1,3,11,8,2,0,7,0,19,5,1,3,1,28,34,17,0,5,6,2,1,0,0,2,4,3,1,0,10,9,0,2,4,2,0,4,4,5,0,0,3,6,30,3,26,26,1,27,0,3,2,0,19,13,1,3,9,116,40,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11703995740385012,0.0,0.0,0.12352438652806315,0.10109558347166686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812645851489173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340467610267456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14745955179498366,0.10497149113535087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691389335432324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135848046396103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077272676723236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394222277945795,0.0,0.06647733158189012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06868986966219623,0.0,0.14943969315074326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08812441897707386,0.0,0.0,0.1305835964555702,0.0,0.0,0.14074590473502116,0.14841842609297762,0.14201475199754504,0.0,0.0,0.11686035501992224,0.0,0.0,0.0722548099107388,0.10716906206580734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609417220808255,0.0,0.0,0.14708605687449902,0.1435196756433014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08776008334728774,0.0,0.13208355630510685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13275151424839568,0.3079621071520374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233796780995373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18229538275528756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12428566327338203,0.1482174634483504,0.0,0.0,0.14175147921657805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245565837016039,0.0,0.3136608037643424,0.0,0.0,0.10476795588761642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13156919996755082,0.0,0.0,0.10121530154425633,0.0,0.0,0.09305815143594293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22982858038560486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873456502597322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666369295036228,0.0,0.0,0.12562928087899453,0.0,0.08926238612112887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848002603708527,0.07754691952342578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13351848363591706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,throwathrowawayaout,2019/08/20,"i dont feel love Does anyone else experience? I've tried dating, but something cold is locking me in I feel like its impossible to fall in love with another person And I feel like I'm not recieving it from others Not my family. I know they care and love me but I just can't \_feel it\_ I feel like my brain is isolating itself. I dont want to fall into this.",-0.4988755980861264,1.7341683947368485,2.3203349282296664,90.73279904306223,95.31578947368419,5.921531100478469,16.119617224880386,7.348242739294969,0.33480526315789483,282,7,62,6,11,98,50,76,0.153,0.677,0.17,0.3462,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,0,16,17,4,0,1,5,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,6,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,6,12,7,7,17,0,6,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,4,37,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731898593562631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548717884032675,0.16923101766040186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18437871634768094,0.0,0.0,0.1683966822466024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14453696768541946,0.0,0.38714420114908005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13797412882106755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16156302149695734,0.15570282300342655,0.0,0.417561826830116,0.35398163677612954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09077034142510636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420737668772016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4472034689260892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14421567052898962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271520538212887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11213616470161576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09741857144600204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kina1999,2019/08/20,Hi I was away in the hospital for 1 month I'm feeling a bit better. I still see streaks of smoke in the air and it smells like chanel no 5 my grandma used to wear you know?,-1.4676923076923103,0.4577545384615434,0.7648205128205134,103.47184615384614,93.35897435897436,4.1456410256410265,18.056410256410253,5.6839178017228535,-0.6790451282051282,133,4,35,1,5,44,35,39,0.057999999999999996,0.7609999999999999,0.18100000000000002,0.5719,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,1,0,4,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,6,5,1,6,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,3,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3740515899293756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35210925341634663,0.4346494410918407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20130398758806275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187991155982504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19450378934610502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177796165577431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172541194083199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3179431791913607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34385221598467264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,MarsupialsRooinedIt,2019/08/21,"Working on a film to help the image of schizophrenia Hey guys, I've been working for on a film the past few months about schizophrenia. ""Dealing with mental health from the perspective of a schizophrenic and his boyfriend, his caretaker, and how this all affects their romantic relationship."" I have schiz myself and I've had a lot of negative experiences from others and seeing it represented in media. My film will shed light on how schizophrenics are real good people, we just struggle with this disease but we are NOT evil. I also want the film to focus on the two perspectives, those suffering from mental illness and those who are a caretaker and easily get caretaker burnout. I hope this is allowed on this subreddit. The company I work for thats helping produce this film is doing a crowdfund campaign for my film and 5 others. We're trying to raise money to help produce, feed cast and crew, pay for equipment, film festival fees, etc. I'm hoping to see if I can gain some support with this film and have it help change people's negative perspective of schiz and the constant bad media rep. Again, hope this is ok to post here! Link to the crowdfund campaign. We also have a video attached where I was interviewed and talked about the film some more [https://ifundwomen.com/projects/ironworx-media?fbclid=IwAR2S3X3NqC7svVuDBI1VCATbAxm3tw6tIGB4vePsSAIbVyaWWSkLudXJP-w](https://ifundwomen.com/projects/ironworx-media?fbclid=IwAR2S3X3NqC7svVuDBI1VCATbAxm3tw6tIGB4vePsSAIbVyaWWSkLudXJP-w)",12.090757389162562,13.916579073275864,8.97975369458128,60.197758620689676,53.52586206896551,10.076847290640398,35.105911330049274,9.957137785484203,3.5575532019704443,1243,43,171,20,14,356,131,232,0.092,0.715,0.192,0.9804,1,0,0,0,0,0,47.0,3,0,1,7,10,11,1,1,16,1,15,5,0,6,1,37,24,17,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,15,17,1,0,1,10,3,0,3,4,0,1,3,3,15,7,29,20,7,12,0,1,2,0,17,7,0,7,4,122,30,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22248121425685827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11614518243225345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14715251410340058,0.0,0.0,0.15032090992321626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14340906990498026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15513659887959272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360694114431598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0726755685817451,0.0,0.0,0.11667298441572715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13773382523739425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147859968678945,0.0,0.0,0.3729511956619426,0.0,0.0,0.4144819534465085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118260383775334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803661837243635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110306757870362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327895393481154,0.19287299068582595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332222083493021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15832965084819964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14934454842762412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216941392005625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14542064278469188,0.0,0.0,0.1578524193310172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11180571049745593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09444179609335566,0.0,0.13588340423332676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204654479391839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30380589013160425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Lostsoul226,2019/08/21,"I think I had a breakthrough last night So last night I was isolating myself as usual, then I started to hear what I thought was a family talking from out my window didn't think much of it until I heard them saying you're a loser and you'll be nothing etc. after that the talking turned into a very violent screaming as if it was bunch of people stuck in hell. (I need help getting a understanding of what happened)",4.26991967871486,5.508918903614461,5.301385542168674,81.69296184738957,70.80722891566266,7.461044176706826,28.29116465863454,7.793537801064563,1.8029935742971888,331,12,62,4,6,109,61,83,0.20600000000000002,0.7609999999999999,0.033,-0.9368,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,1,1,4,2,0,6,0,7,0,0,0,0,9,19,7,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,5,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,8,4,11,0,12,9,3,12,1,1,0,0,8,3,1,1,9,47,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22894537410404106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935230202588916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072521594345733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181531526927782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23136943148977104,0.0,0.13759720728382682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3346669134083824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509069975744952,0.15221511900653062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3852893293172341,0.0,0.19697506111013394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14231773587289942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16324968392548875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530072256036514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299982132091892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630747640900251,0.0,0.16297217385073098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22328950653867102,0.0,0.21370737008299812,0.0,0.0,0.2260907802852793,0.16938039197356855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,falseprefux,2019/08/21,CBD oil vaping Is this safe for people who suffered from THC induced psychosis?,7.437857142857139,9.38512707142857,6.727142857142859,71.76785714285714,64.0,8.457142857142857,35.42857142857143,8.841846274778883,3.525085714285714,65,3,9,1,1,20,14,14,0.172,0.6459999999999999,0.182,0.0451,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,elping_,2019/10/13,"Ive been having an ongoing delusion constantly for the past few weeks and im not sure what to do Every few days, when im going about my day i suddenly feel like im pregnant. Not just that im pregnant, that i had just had a miscarriage and the baby is dead inside of me. Ive been breaking down crying, my first baby has died and its all my fault but im a virgin and a minor. Its been taking such a toll on my health where ive been even sick with how stressed and upset i am over a baby that i know deep inside has never existed. I want my child back, my mind keeps screaming for my baby. Im 15 and im a virgin, i know ive never had a baby or a remote chance of being pregnant. Ive been to a psychologist before and she says its likely i have schizophrenia but id never tell her this. It sounds so fake. Ive even made this a throwaway so i dont get called fake so much but its so traumatising every time. All i do at night is cry for my baby.",-0.5795653907496003,1.395158736842106,2.3727571770334954,93.56159190590114,88.42583732057415,4.823046251993621,16.36383572567783,6.21433560688645,-0.4221245614035083,732,16,169,7,24,258,109,209,0.221,0.759,0.02,-0.9918,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,14,9,0,2,13,0,25,4,0,2,6,30,34,17,2,1,8,0,1,2,0,0,2,3,0,1,11,8,0,1,3,0,0,1,6,6,0,1,9,4,26,3,13,24,5,22,0,0,0,2,6,6,0,1,16,117,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07869064254612212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08708103531675873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10449726191404213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105896690797452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248242252135612,0.131997473047323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620938781130942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11993790680350015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13518491413775613,0.0,0.17244624832384509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051744534798561566,0.07310939340912775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870475857963649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05346672717550003,0.0,0.0581603323908954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10877917792473776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7737887444106682,0.0,0.0,0.09096160394843417,0.0,0.0,0.11248320101970527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09999313194795788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09683350560840892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10333094282110387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07522928499273139,0.0,0.2367852273696115,0.0,0.0,0.09603610576625543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09769200586439404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08138228971748858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11722639937899992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09645117413510024,0.0,0.07694449873061927,0.0,0.08944682865931004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0596733808842733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060360865581046974,0.0,0.0820883666015421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,fuckthecollegeboard_,2019/10/13,"Thoughts on the Amazon Prime show 'Undone'? (not super spoiler-y but didn't want to take any chances, if you haven't seen it and you want to go into the show blind, don't read this post) Let me preface this by saying I do not have schizophrenia. I recently watched the show Undone and was really curious what you guys thought about it. I thought it was so beautiful and sort of devastating, but of course I can't speak to its accuracy. another thing was that I interpreted it as a story through the eyes of someone developing schizophrenia, but i saw an interview with the writer and it seems she is really going the route of ""mental illness opens you up to supernatural things"". I have to say I felt a bit disappointed by this. I actually wondered if that might be a somewhat sketchy message, given that i've read that those with schizophrenia can have trouble distinguishing what's real or not, and perhaps seeing a show that could reinforce a delusion would be a setback. I'd love to hear your thoughts. i've never gotten the chance to fully learn about mental disorders so some of this might be completely ignorant in which case please let me know!",7.645445468509982,7.572721866359447,7.503974654377881,73.47120007680493,63.055299539170505,10.735637480798774,36.055683563748076,10.317481424215053,3.6572430107526888,923,39,167,19,12,295,130,217,0.127,0.765,0.109,-0.4974,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,5,0,1,4,5,0,0,14,0,22,4,1,0,1,41,42,14,0,6,9,0,1,0,0,3,2,4,0,1,21,9,0,1,11,6,0,2,8,3,0,0,13,11,17,2,24,20,3,10,0,1,6,1,14,5,0,10,2,117,38,4,0.0,0.0,0.13050460816170692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09094336832198656,0.1402312388968819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14600234918799218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14021703407152325,0.0,0.0,0.10677532057958336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15327018118009286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840513560884267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15200766389905626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13241719405249938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15072737794049526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07349643611033578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735031361760679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206997082461704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695438342179169,0.2837402270435741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10314352233624212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14679922746556118,0.0,0.0,0.12807972903305814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26753938744343725,0.1522180050143445,0.17134621361495975,0.0,0.13204570101210406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127004993638616,0.0,0.0,0.10656828778343047,0.1217459589404008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11331196356475995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10055095131949664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17769319473016934,0.0,0.0,0.4246778545223547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577589706027236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14502827989588893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500044391058576,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Power13100,2019/10/13,"So I'm switching from seroquel to abilify As per title. I'm switching from seroquel to abilify as part of a research study, the study in question is basically about sexual activity and antipsychotics. I've been on seroquel around 2 years now I think, and I was taking 1 300mg in the morning and 1 in the evening. It basically knocked me out so they switched me to 1 XL slow release seroquel. I've tapered down to 150mg a day and I feel much better fatigue wise but the nightmares and shadows are back. Reason for my post is basically to see how people find/found abilify. It's apparently pretty good for weight control and sex life compared to what I'm on at the moment, but I just wanna from you guys how you found it? I'm pretty nervous about the switch as some of my symptoms are creeping back, but god knows I'd like to lose some weight (I'm not that big as I'm 6'1 and I carry it well, plus i workout so that helps somewhat) and actually enjoy sex again, maybe even look forward to getting out of bed. At the minute I just feel emotionless. Thanks for taking the time to read, sorry for any formatting issue on 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schizophrenia,deprivedteen,2019/10/13,i’m not sure if i’m actually dealing with anything i am 18f and believe i may have some psychological issues. i have never been to a doctor or been diagnosed so i don’t want to diagnose myself or say i have anything. but for about 5 years now i believe i have been dealing with depression and anxiety on and off. i have a lot of family members with mental health problems as well so it may run in the blood. but within the past year or so i think i have been developing what could be schizophrenia. there was a month where it was really bad (about 6ish months ago) where i would see figures and hear voices telling me i’m stupid and all that. there was a time where i walked outside my house and as clear as day heard a cow moo (i live absolutely no where near cows or animals of that sort) and then a few days later i heard a cricket for like one chirp. at one point i had about a 30 minute breakdown whilst in the shower because i saw faces in the tiles and i thought they were trying to hurt me. all that stopped or drastically reduced within the 6 months since it last occurred but now i feel paranoid about everything in my house like shadow people are out to get me and they’re following me. i don’t know if this is anything that i should talk to a doctor about or if it’s paranormal stuff or i’m just thinking too much about 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schizophrenia,izzy300302,2019/10/13,"Has anyone here seen the Korean drama ""It's Ok, That's Love"" (a TV show about schizophrenia)? I just discovered that TV show when somebody recommended it to me. Has anybody else here seen it?",2.6950000000000003,5.411099611111113,3.653333333333337,84.90000000000002,80.66666666666667,6.933333333333335,22.88888888888889,8.07648339933343,1.5003555555555559,150,5,28,3,4,48,27,36,0.0,0.778,0.222,0.8205,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,2,2,3,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4942604807607813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5904998280193323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.637978471633064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Zima_96,2019/07/06,"Am I just afraid of being home alone or is it a schizophrenia thing? Hey pals. Long story short I used to see this lil Samara-from-The-Ring type of girl. I legit thought our apartment was haunted for three years. Until one day I realized she had my face. My friend really helped me get through it and she kinda went away. I can still feel her at the back of my mind. But she doesn't haunt me unless I have Bad Time. My doc knows about it, im trying to get decent psych but everyone is just fucking full. Anyway! My flatmate left for few days and I am... well. Not sure if im just afraid of home alone at night? Is following stuff normal or is it ""crazy"" kinda stuff? I legit can't tell. So...once the sun goes down: 1) Im fucking afraid of being in the dark because She couldbe there (shes always in the dark spots) and by that I mean much more than usual. 2) I keep seeing hands on corners, edges of things 3) I'm anxious about looking in the mirrors bc a) what if she's behind me (you know the feeling of almost seeing sth but not really seeing it.. yeah) and b) what if I don't recognize my face (happened in past) 4) so many usual sounds suddenly remind me very closely of steps or knocking on doors 5) im just super skittish and anxious in general I know it's triggered by the absence of permanent presence of flatmate. I just don't know if it's what people usually experience when they're afraid of being home alone? P.S.: I just hate how the overall paranoia gets worse when I talk about it lol",1.1103099397887668,3.350746573289907,2.6056085282795363,92.95138189714741,83.26710097719871,5.154436876912447,20.703681768828343,6.42735559955562,0.2215415852334424,1166,35,247,11,33,379,180,307,0.102,0.841,0.055999999999999994,-0.9188,0,3,0,0,0,0,49.0,1,1,0,1,18,12,3,4,10,2,18,5,3,3,1,45,43,21,0,5,19,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,4,1,17,6,0,1,9,0,0,3,6,8,1,2,4,9,34,4,36,36,4,36,0,0,5,2,16,17,2,10,16,152,51,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09317946017665167,0.2891255336607546,0.0,0.0,0.07742781801601349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21024753393395604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08742665888261356,0.07155226056280167,0.07769563679514209,0.056724441229920174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200233887984548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891643661456779,0.0,0.0910240041732515,0.0,0.0,0.09410111080075534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07189276553100474,0.17205259297509426,0.14584955989116405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08228674508239701,0.0,0.0,0.09187089030836623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06237168006810385,0.0,0.2800202063633986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4020542219448337,0.0,0.0,0.08271006788531389,0.0,0.0,0.20455868824765566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110270631754628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234926150364784,0.0781413541656418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09434146292624128,0.0,0.10136234686752814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939573284155365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06840489831555516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08732423882796876,0.0911724981932502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909875069836582,0.06305533903538216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08882992478317668,0.0645114567737651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11922468131876415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.296605799022023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07431250292630769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21304758111113745,0.0,0.0,0.0877016544789028,0.0,0.0,0.07479273520018871,0.08133270467318895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236409843396032,0.0,0.0,0.07387394328762639,0.05426014020907554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0631770972664343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08036819305753704,0.30745526219612984,0.07677873575001838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08366611147965476,0.08626136149443052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09482928459887936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05992328831375141 schizophrenia,HenryTsunami,2019/07/06,"Seroquel made me sleep all day I took 50mg of seroquel at night after being prescribed that plus 350mg of gabapentin and 150 of trileptal. I take the gabapentin and trileptal in the morning and don't feel sleepy. But the seroquel?? Bruh. Last night it made me drowsy right away and today, I had to be dragged out of bed at 11am. Then I went back to sleep around 2, now it's 5pm and I just woke up. Should I stop taking it ? It makes me so fucking sleepy, has anybody else had this issue",0.8817011701170117,3.099030653465352,1.4265526552655279,101.18872187218723,84.04950495049505,3.6727272727272733,21.063006300630068,3.1291,-0.6155425742574252,380,12,87,0,11,115,70,101,0.043,0.9570000000000001,0.0,-0.4479,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,3,0,7,3,2,3,1,17,17,9,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,8,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,7,1,9,0,15,7,1,20,0,0,0,1,0,8,1,0,10,52,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17991791568660662,0.0,0.0,0.18988600691224095,0.1554076664654128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13034217666727255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16883431128183662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021912789779232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868444950115488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21094700727209106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647440301643031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38247671274123785,0.13490786930009147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3793271121102269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725981168717024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4045055509553252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689703482144236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039183467860941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19157363017191648,0.0,0.2245481094412284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18735504357982724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,kugemelecabn,2019/07/06,"Looking for advice on finding the right psychiatrist/psychologist Hi all, &#x200B; I have gone to therapy once so far and I didn't really like the experience. The walls were extremely thin and there was a another individual waiting for their appointment at the start of mine, so I felt extremely uncomfortable talking but wasn't able to bring that up. It was probably just a coincidence, but it definitely made it hard to open up. Besides that, after talking with them I was reassured that my symptoms are very mildly on the spectrum and that I should just keep an eye on how things progress. On a day-to-day basis, I can tell myself that the thoughts I am having are ridiculous and not plausible at all. It rarely gets to a point that I can't deflect those thoughts and they really affect me. &#x200B; Is there a certain category I should be searching for when looking for someone to speak to? I am trying to stay on top of myself and stay proactive instead of reacting to a largely negative experience.",8.457258064516129,8.309121069892479,8.539268817204302,66.96890322580647,61.41935483870968,11.956129032258065,40.64301075268818,11.407655852321104,4.870027526881722,813,41,137,21,10,266,112,186,0.073,0.823,0.10400000000000001,0.7723,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,3,2,9,4,1,0,13,0,18,2,1,4,3,28,30,12,0,2,5,0,3,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,12,8,0,2,4,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,11,7,18,3,26,16,2,23,0,0,3,0,9,16,0,0,4,108,30,0,0.1363411576691556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13323100132103866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954511747435922,0.3313388597027885,0.0,0.14296559162064024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17585753494810305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667356280348574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13090889251107454,0.0,0.12461334808127615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07123262760837283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12213489713899164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12118628543413383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666094027792637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22898446808816256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12900929997783364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451988832236303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12888646335406914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14699882794402233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17468727363546113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11643460369402975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11552142044929585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650297314231568,0.2906430666141131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14171066691514572,0.0,0.21917171604641006,0.11916818128262355,0.0,0.1559179960443921,0.0,0.0905790069010264,0.0,0.0,0.2164792994684248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09256669638871844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249573387819436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3313388597027885,0.0 schizophrenia,RevancheGG,2019/07/06,"I feel in love with a shizophrenic girl online So we've been talking for a couple months now and i really liked her straight away cause we have alot in common and she has always been open and honest about anything and everything was going great and we texted like all day but lately she's feeling pretty bad and we barely talk anymore, i've also told her how i feel already since i also want to be honest to her and that i wont give up on her. We also live like 1000 km apart by the way. She told me that she doesnt has the same feelings for me, which probably is cause i know way more about her than she does about me, but we still kept talking. Reason why i post this is cause this is my very first experience with shizophrenia and i would really appreciate some advice - i've also started to educate myself about it cause of her.",2.6252859960552257,4.57062979289941,3.6761893491124265,88.77329783037477,76.51479289940829,6.400157790927023,20.73412228796845,7.3011,0.5405618145956614,661,16,135,8,15,213,103,169,0.027000000000000003,0.7929999999999999,0.18,0.9723,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,5,0,0,1,12,8,0,0,5,0,13,1,0,6,1,36,26,16,0,2,2,0,4,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,16,0,1,6,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,6,4,29,7,19,17,5,21,0,0,0,1,24,9,0,2,11,95,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11469308309638902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295212528077109,0.3754445494174931,0.09766164889579096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11639998633202445,0.0,0.0,0.09658591153053972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102734376701669,0.0,0.09799945543929382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4822872920573408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12986821324914646,0.0,0.07569425534950143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271170554779536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10548502708981722,0.11481085951328987,0.0,0.0,0.2373841825641171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09983527767179944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125924676108042,0.0667043534936459,0.0,0.0,0.12940137807121452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06450375104879742,0.0,0.13239902347575086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17202387639992664,0.0,0.10364029178925847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10593144844037647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368400424643616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11240848390992916,0.11940798239127205,0.12654523812989768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503810809218153,0.12067641034116945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709008106971136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08307543595645421,0.0,0.09373222383530838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830138585423917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243050633796969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09684294515351337,0.06922815515976824,0.18632646145935453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590861017887153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337662760047636,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,waserdftyg,2019/07/06,"Possible Schizophrenia I don't know what's wrong with me. I've been in therapy for 2 months but have not been diagnosed with anything, yet. I've been depressed and socially withdrawn for a long time. Recently some more serious symptoms have shown up. I constantly feel like I'm being followed or watched by a sinister force. It makes me have intrusive thoughts and images in my head. Also mild visual hallucinations. It starts with a sense of doom. I could almost be sure that my house is going to explode, or some creature is going to come out of hiding and charge at me and eat my face off. I get paranoid, always scanning my surroundings wide eyed. I see shadow beings in my periphery and around corners. Faces or creatures on everday items as if every object in the room is looking at me. The walls and carpet breathing and flowing. The worst part is the depictions of monsters and dead bodies projected into my mind. It feels like some force is planting the images in my head. There's no way my mind could conjure up such horrifying images so vividly by itself. When this happens it overwhelms me and I have to run and hide. This started happening recently and is gradually getting worse. I'm worried I'm losing my grip on reality.",4.296493506493505,6.759712502164503,4.995238095238097,78.8414285714286,73.32900432900432,7.690043290043291,30.913419913419915,8.563005593585519,2.7745030303030305,992,46,167,19,21,319,147,231,0.21,0.748,0.042,-0.9931,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,7,10,0,1,8,0,19,10,7,1,1,38,39,20,1,3,6,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,9,18,1,0,4,0,0,6,3,7,0,0,4,9,20,3,29,30,7,37,1,4,6,0,1,20,0,8,12,116,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356807374309479,0.0,0.0,0.10835695340281466,0.11274441197840658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11150253885769093,0.1206211143127368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15050669286048904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167187232030552,0.0,0.14642419034277215,0.0,0.21636676076573966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167034229744035,0.13752666811919864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13864732370395194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11416212065097996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370227739279936,0.1935982596830716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14158324737015338,0.0,0.1540122083964732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396392130284018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781181578435984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15634542006983293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446564300955215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13239404283559186,0.0,0.0,0.11991063810121345,0.1137834082419787,0.15158655619508135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09044534260211784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27362681823426394,0.0,0.10815246404264026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14673011659291527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15275258124076566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26757400910574514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10797361741876572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13812219355187666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918110390856584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12770437960310713,0.14083333075360358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15495270176455614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756953392083232,0.07900942785799414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075512628077158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13760384602619,0.13808308440543202,0.0,0.14814476917555455,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sunflowerschizo,2019/07/06,"Weight gain on antipsychotics I’m currently in recovery from an eating disorder and so in my previous psychotic episodes my care coordinator was reluctant to prescribe me antipsychotics because I was underage and because she said “it would make me gain so much weight so quickly I wouldn’t be able to recognise myself in the mirror” and that the other side effects were so awful that I wouldn’t be able to handle it. However I’m in adult services now and notified slipping back into another psychotic episode early and will be given proper treatment and antipsychotics. I’m very worried about the weight gain side effect however and really don’t want to relapse into disordered eating and body dysmorphia. I was wondering if anybody has any tips on how to reduce or preferably avoid weight on antipsychotics.",12.52706572769953,10.56776597887324,11.34,55.91333333333334,54.70422535211267,15.38215962441315,48.31455399061034,13.816669648895859,6.975869483568075,667,35,94,21,6,213,86,142,0.08800000000000001,0.812,0.1,0.4057,3,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,5,9,2,0,1,4,1,13,7,1,4,0,23,22,15,0,6,2,0,4,0,0,4,0,1,0,1,5,10,6,1,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,6,5,10,1,16,9,1,16,0,0,0,0,3,11,0,3,5,67,15,1,0.2853563732238406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09702605953960028,0.1496105190028612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10971071850570313,0.0,0.17395059653515427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584833008311014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14546992025352087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270431258313034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919908091046618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09523879747773298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10488488392232097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914032998273656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13571962844391175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11772444642333472,0.08415529112805767,0.0,0.0,0.6949743742642108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547284071366685,0.0,0.14489662426839642,0.0,0.1013544901319486,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ParkerBanner,2019/07/06,If someone reaches out and shares everything is this them asking for help? Never admitting or voicing that what they have described might not be real. But literally sharing everything? I'm assuming this is someone asking for help.,6.270384615384612,9.659265717948717,6.366346153846155,66.78490384615384,71.30769230769229,9.028205128205126,37.95512820512821,9.516144504307137,4.881866666666667,189,11,24,5,4,60,32,39,0.0,0.7340000000000001,0.266,0.8738,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,11,9,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,3,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,4,1,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4925237848526793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4734893433921339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35312939036858154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794467101103381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031655383262145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2998293274381931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44638937191590977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,succaMybols,2019/07/06,Skype Group Hey guys I created a Skype group called “Schizophrenic Chat” come join if you like.,3.8764705882352932,7.004732235294122,2.301470588235297,93.70161764705885,79.58823529411767,8.105882352941178,20.264705882352946,8.841846274778883,1.463258823529412,76,2,15,2,2,21,15,17,0.0,0.642,0.358,0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,1,1,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5891670448114251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.497022203992045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5713066867358252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281886132574832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,tenmo-player,2019/07/06,"The first time Is it possible for someone to not know they have Schizophrenia and then the first episode happens and it just totally freaks them out? If so, what were you thinking?",3.3904545454545456,6.4485679696969695,2.288106060606061,93.3521590909091,81.42424242424244,5.724242424242425,29.46212121212121,7.1686216300943375,1.752884848484849,145,7,27,2,4,41,29,33,0.06,0.94,0.0,-0.2624,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,2,2,2,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,9,6,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,3,0,3,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,4,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6563735085676357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3411881463153363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21204204755586048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4349652911958339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269124605004878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24722424975229826,0.0,0.0,0.22498054380698865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,iliveinframes,2019/02/25,Sounds on Guitar I have really only been able to play when I have my stress levels maintained very well. It's rare that i can pay attention long enough without the distractions. 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Sometimes I hate how much I think. I always think way too much about the simplest things and come to odd conclusions, I think there is a special hidden meaning behind things that I found out, but then I intrusively keep on thinking about it and keep changing my minds about it. Those thoughts are however also filled with overthinking about general anxieties and then I often have this strong inner monologue about what other people would comment to my thoughts. Personalities that I know from real life start to comment on my thoughts with either validating responses to my assumptions or invalidating ones where in I hear those persons discuss about me. The thoughts seen to somewhat make sense to me but then the next day I might come to the conclusion that I‘m just paranoid. But then I’m really concerned about it and overthink it further.. All of this started when I started to get bad social anxiety from a slow and painful anxiolytic withdrawal to a point where I often dissociated badly for months, and I started isolating myself. Because of dissociation I couldn’t understand my surroundings that well so I started the habit of thinking about what people could have said or meant after I was done dissociating in public, when being by myself. Especially after smoking weed it instantly triggered those thoughts. Could this be any indication for schizophrenia? I definitely have the negative symptoms but I’m unsure if that inner monologue is just overthinking and anxiety, or if it could be considered as voices talking to me which is seen with schizophrenia. 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His therapist and I feel it's that he's been home alone to long. Due to abusive father he's been home over 2 year. The abuse affected his brother also he self harms and attempted suicide and has strong anxiety. . I suffer from breast cancer which has made this that much harder to deal with, I don't know what to do or how to help anymore and I'm losing my patience. Sorry for ranting, my question is how do I get my son to realize no one's out to get him, especially if the therapist hasn't diagnosed him. 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She is very meek, and has been suffering symptoms such as: paranoia, hallucinated voices (having full on conversations) and looking like she's been having a hard time being at peace in the community. She hasn't always been one to go out much, but feels like she has been forced to, due to the belief that she is being tortured by people choking her, making it hard to breathe, and causing general discomfort around her neck. She's told me that she believes that mobile devices are the main source of how people are choking her. She knows I listen to her, and feels comfortable enough to have conversations with the voices in front of me. She'd recently expressed one of the voices in her head wants her to commit suicide, so I had brought it to my boss's & her boyfriends attention. She keeps asking me to help her, and I know that she needs professional help- but from what it seems, she stopped taking her symptom management meds & dismisses my opinion that the difficulties she's been having can only be helped by a doctor. &#x200B; Would anyone be able to give me some advice on what would be beneficial to do when encountering this lady? My heart goes out to her, and I feel like one of the only people left in the community that isn't annoyed by her existence. Her boyfriend has been dealing with this for years, and I'm not interested in trying to take the lady as a significant other. I just want to be a positive influence to her well being, and have my conscience clear that I did the best thing I could for her while the encounters happen. &#x200B;",10.211832298136644,8.057372729813668,9.540869565217395,67.62478260869567,59.27950310559007,12.554037267080743,39.14906832298136,11.062562989136584,4.2199167701863365,1377,52,243,27,14,441,166,322,0.113,0.7290000000000001,0.158,0.9386,0,0,0,0,0,2,43.0,0,0,0,3,7,12,2,1,18,0,39,9,4,6,2,46,63,16,1,7,4,0,5,3,0,2,5,4,0,0,16,13,0,2,8,0,0,3,3,4,1,3,10,11,45,8,43,41,7,24,1,1,2,0,39,14,0,4,10,188,61,6,0.09168828845580633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17919346863728236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629200099087831,0.4967211111745192,0.22282261251416705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06411058314719204,0.0,0.0,0.08162201577166114,0.08571617269703838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10330130325820742,0.09622120201650047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09418912894556004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14641127517605448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452659937870052,0.0,0.09306168275933367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09384684839995988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09473851179928162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13908106070422635,0.13100426318602865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879557610141796,0.05210856728687136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107965067624683,0.0,0.16426939408236366,0.0,0.09409863602751717,0.0,0.0,0.10865106328202732,0.2458269081830196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08149676360189992,0.0,0.0,0.10077897095883076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961959368354488,0.0,0.0,0.13438279915549892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539901400347032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061202644515478764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10184501882936273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06740144180470037,0.06798570411189585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18639107150763126,0.1394661500063107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19069534374929145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09053112349257073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08346957423888073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07665551467883881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002921059592517,0.0,0.0,0.19059847704843152,0.13787636434095474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06091362472463899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053464178336264614,0.0,0.0,0.08761208883480352,0.0,0.062250329284169875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918924259382615,0.0,0.07565244035040902,0.1081602561857491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08243878264254616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0667501659980721,0.0,0.0,0.13026545890698718,0.0,0.22282261251416705,0.059044251646919774 schizophrenia,vp_cata,2019/02/25,"I do not know if I have a disease or not but I come to this subreddit to ask if you have had any of these experiences I work full time and I am going to school. In the past, I have done many drugs. Sometimes at work people would laugh at me because I zone out too much, but I can’t help it. People always say that I change the subject too much and then there would be days that I am fine, but sometimes not. Have you guys ran into any experiences like this before getting diagnosed? 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I was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia (July ‘18) and hallucinate Pokemon (sounds from the game — like ALL of the sounds), among other things as well of course. I was wondering if anyone else has hallucinations of Pokémon or of anything similar. And I was born in 1992. So I played Yellow, Silver, and Crystal when I was 8-10 years old or so.",5.117793427230048,7.454266154929577,5.810915492957751,74.47768779342726,70.54929577464789,8.67699530516432,30.143192488262912,9.2995712137729,2.9911389671361497,311,13,52,7,6,101,48,71,0.0,0.895,0.105,0.7425,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,1,9,6,10,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,3,5,3,10,2,1,9,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,4,7,36,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3517172494652527,0.5153945975078054,0.20696775141464116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25527297899921203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.420201459362041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12287297503309767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639129115721396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483315248646331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670892034620886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22613381798235996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727471899425152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16196141702774702 schizophrenia,bendybiznatch,2019/03/04,"Is initial care considered urgent? If someone presents to a clinic/provider and is currently experiencing visual and auditory hallucinations, is it normal for them to be given an appointment for a follow up over a week later? I just thought it would be emergent, like see a regular provider the next day after assessment at most. I'm not sure what was disclosed to the person doing the assessment as this is for someone else. They're not a danger, but that's not to say they're ok.",7.875333333333334,7.904149200000003,8.343333333333334,67.305,62.55555555555557,11.2,38.0,10.793553405168565,4.3019333333333325,388,18,65,9,5,129,65,90,0.019,0.86,0.121,0.7707,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,1,5,1,0,9,1,9,0,0,0,1,13,15,5,0,3,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,3,2,4,12,9,1,11,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,2,8,46,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936992744236971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18577670769985846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406395481393569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14073295811677586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063581094630123,0.0,0.2822404319137401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25152536991711305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290791406797723,0.0,0.0,0.2295487961914084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4881494367861953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714958274721013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22868972633037304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310666429534773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046315840378457,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,franksinatraisbest,2019/03/04,"I just watched ""A beautiful mind"" : Question John nash got REALLY into those newspapers. The newspapers themselved didnt really have any correlation intrinsically, but I'm curious if their correlation was rather tied to John Nash' own unconscious. In other words, what happens you just allow a schizophrenic person to dive extremely deep into their delusions? Would their unconscious mind find expression outwardly and would that unconscious pattern be shared by others but heavily regulated in other's at large?",11.324814814814815,13.151300000000004,10.248987654320988,50.436444444444454,55.17283950617285,15.368888888888884,43.36049382716049,13.968273953766033,7.597467160493825,424,22,51,18,5,134,62,81,0.0,0.865,0.135,0.8809,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,3,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,1,0,17,9,4,0,4,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,5,1,8,3,1,7,0,0,1,0,8,7,0,2,0,36,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925354433176144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25877210800728745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264417903657516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25036745764963336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5717532615828745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24721477251606502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31716600622962604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3627556336196885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4022492881269883,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,helpmeout19372947275,2019/03/04,"Can I get your thoughts? I’m sorry if this isn’t the place but I’m hoping to get your help. Basically a couple of nights ago I was trying to sleep after only a few drinks like maybe 3? (This was on a stag do trip away so the 2 nights before were heavier drinking). But I kept seeing what looked like shadows moving towards me while I was trying to sleep and when I closed my eyes I could see faces that were changing but I wasn’t hearing noises. I looked it up and it said alcohol could trigger hallucinations if you are schizophrenic? I have used drugs recently over the past 10 months (pills, ketamine mainly) but not a lot (well maybe marijuana every other week or so). I read that drug abuse could trigger schizophrenia’s if you are susceptible to it. No one as far as I know in my family has it and I don’t see things normally when I am sober but the fact I saw things on only alcohol has freaked me out. Last night I hadn’t been drinking but I did think I saw a shadow moving in my room but maybe because I was focusing on it I made myself see it? But I didn’t see anything when I closed my eyes this time. What do you think this could be? I know I will probably need to go doctors but I’m hoping someone could talk to me about it here first?",2.069393326592518,3.8958880155038784,3.466177957532864,90.1912082912033,77.75968992248062,6.347421638018202,22.0701044826424,7.255503002510835,0.6211679811257165,980,28,212,12,23,321,140,258,0.052000000000000005,0.872,0.076,0.782,0,0,7,0,1,0,20.0,0,5,0,1,8,6,0,0,9,0,29,15,5,4,1,41,57,24,0,12,14,0,0,2,0,1,7,2,1,0,18,6,5,1,5,4,0,4,7,1,1,2,17,13,36,5,21,33,3,35,0,0,11,0,9,15,0,7,18,144,54,2,0.0,0.1069037958350698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998045848371492,0.19284964342762728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07424882399669314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477088361374169,0.0,0.0,0.055001312723302186,0.0,0.07677621177897809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095447804891637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3601930885029782,0.09983404365606656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09235077320597176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651632265539089,0.20926847827370496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07601982241966858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505763143117404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07674672054185255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09427937446593566,0.0,0.05127786986611298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169196306346406,0.0,0.0604770043762732,0.0,0.0,0.1792307926902201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917238617630733,0.0735467411960023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08816034222553917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15153528052101098,0.0,0.0,0.07670744944980416,0.0,0.08537461350624634,0.0,0.0,0.2719343141919316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201803070833661,0.19179324521233992,0.0,0.06690189866502409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540147243742993,0.08840293489302152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06113989571270704,0.13724282710327376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613152225481671,0.0,0.0,0.09426761864104223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09727956142501701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09025104091129536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08908790648048864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582618140346981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594946894547436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805835697887637,0.0,0.07644872597747451,0.0,0.0,0.10100131894732617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07252074289286922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988512002287367,0.1156271553269348,0.0,0.07162986128672612,0.05261187021575157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12251591054435225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07792683406871066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07237435563168465,0.0,0.08112457103249338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Rebeux,2019/03/04,"Does smoking weed increase the chance of you getting Schizophrenia ? Hi there, Title says it all, but as someone who grew up with a mother having schizophrenia, I am fully aware that the chance of me getting it as well is higher than else. I am however trying to figure out if weed does increase the chance of me getting it. I am 25 years old, I've never tried to smoke weed, but I am somewhat interested in trying it out. but the fear of me getting it is also there. so I am not sure how I should go about these things. What do you guys think? steer clear, or is it not that 'dangerous'?",3.4269230769230745,4.839593743589745,4.103931623931627,88.79384615384619,73.1025641025641,6.225641025641028,24.96581196581197,6.42735559955562,0.7474888888888893,456,14,93,3,9,145,72,117,0.055999999999999994,0.78,0.16399999999999998,0.8925,1,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,0,7,5,1,1,5,0,11,0,0,1,4,19,17,10,0,2,7,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,12,3,0,0,2,0,0,4,3,2,1,0,0,1,11,3,15,16,4,11,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,3,3,70,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248435302050785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3774972811624244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801783285438376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427071881209692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4507490115636469,0.0,0.12257956360110832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21356346705015614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663506645908822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263266165729137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17152249907000808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18275040466086925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032818993336066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14329247424903133,0.13820314959865193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4393107656752649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19392799545797426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388949836250238 schizophrenia,RITarded,2019/03/04,"Is it normal for your body parts to talk to you? My anus keeps talking to me. It keeps distracting me. I hate him. He keeps saying ""FART FART FART FART!!!!"" HELP!!! IS THIS NORMAL??",-0.7499047619047587,1.3025289142857162,0.5078571428571443,101.81130952380954,102.71428571428572,3.4761904761904763,11.547619047619047,5.46131890053228,-1.4085238095238088,132,2,30,1,6,41,24,35,0.18100000000000002,0.737,0.08199999999999999,-0.634,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,5,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,0,4,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,0,17,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618308410686781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23272386353589625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15799758021232688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6285540442781676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4619094461049428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552608731708688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874533323736007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789242542829707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,dciky,2019/03/04,"looking for people to converse with. been so mentally unstable in most recent days. i have no references to base my thoughts off of. full of uncertainty and hope. and even though i acknowledge these tendencies, i still don’t even feel worried about them. is that weird and/or strange? i’m certain that there is someone who can relate, just don’t know where to find them. ",3.3916176470588217,6.399453455882355,3.169117647058826,87.48102941176472,80.61764705882355,6.9294117647058835,27.617647058823533,8.07648339933343,2.1363470588235294,297,13,54,6,8,89,55,68,0.18100000000000002,0.7490000000000001,0.069,-0.7251,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,0,9,3,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,1,13,13,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,2,6,2,10,11,2,7,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,2,3,40,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885485581049516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3862031605571337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782642729202067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672125150428023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903802855442631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16067387408008396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24550947617452695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946309669572002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026861977104902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886710629803122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24771639455060554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23347974784237546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28724304503723724,0.2321018532779212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969066288262792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,TOMATO_ON_URANUS,2019/01/27,"Do demons need to be sensory? Everyone talks about the demons they see or hear, sometimes even feel. To me, there's just something... else? in the space of my mind besides me. I can't see it, but it can influence how I perceive things; I can't hear it, but it can scream, or whisper seductively. I've only recently figured out that whatever it is, it isn't me in the first place. I keep using the word it but now that I wrote this I'm getting this feeling it's a he...",0.9004123711340171,2.971088371134023,2.790938144329896,92.32970618556705,82.81443298969073,6.35422680412371,24.13298969072165,7.554174236665415,1.085087422680412,360,14,81,6,10,120,63,97,0.045,0.9329999999999999,0.022000000000000002,-0.4538,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,1,6,1,0,0,5,0,8,0,0,3,0,19,20,6,0,1,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,13,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,8,10,0,7,18,0,8,2,0,2,0,6,5,0,2,3,54,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18634831393569107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14733717505096908,0.0,0.0,0.2131551780037657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22558415279319485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897452162920188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165460893547868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5028374734556758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982769430945591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252394700654335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654053116917105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16965656466739645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330631141251673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22025702160035804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3555195433750108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17173198370968382,0.2206242456987684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17929709502520455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481993488994084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19266287707051047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,milaninovski,2019/01/27,Get interest back? Did interest come back for you? Can you think of things that might have helped you to get this quality back? 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And do you fear that what you have told might some day be used against you? I personally am very scared of it and my doctors have said me that I seem tense and anxious during meetings. And the reason is that I simply fear a lot the information would be used against me and I would be sent to a hospital against my will. I actually just realized this. Do you think this fear might be paranoia? Or is it relevant? Please tell about your thoughts. I'm very careful what I tell my doctor. But I also think that doctors are for my wellbeing and I try to be as honest as I can but I remember sometimes I have left some very bizarre things untold. How do you act in these kind of situations? I know I should tell everything in very detail so I get the help I need but it really scares me that they would send me to a mental hospital against my will as I told.... How could I get out of this fear? Because I don't know. 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This seems a bit weird but sometimes I see flashing lights and large bursts of colors and I immediately get paranoid. My brain just goes ""hes here, hes here, hes here"". I'll spend a while locked up in my own head after that. But yeah this happens often and I was wondering if anyone else experienced the same thing.",0.9965217391304328,3.6010188695652205,2.663318840579709,88.25758695652176,92.18840579710144,5.078840579710144,18.49420289855073,6.742157984588678,0.2502742028985505,278,8,56,4,10,91,51,69,0.061,0.894,0.045,-0.0129,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,4,1,5,2,2,0,0,11,10,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,8,0,5,9,3,4,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,4,2,37,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123518421306483,0.3111732289825579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315582148873987,0.0,0.0,0.3390260326667753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536996809146592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15866902713895548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685580497822157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116805014321548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24200700507623585,0.2764741323720678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003638699684237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20176263864944485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32934619105721674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KittenBurglarr1975,2019/01/27,"Vent about hallucinations and delusions I've told my therapist these things but I wanted to vent to see if anyone has anything similar. I honestly usually hallucinate tall red men and I'll see roaches on the walls that aren't really there. I talk to serial killers in my head and sometimes they'll answer me. There's people in the woods that watch me. When I was younger I had a talking dog, a witch, and a monster and every time I'd talk to them I'd pass out soon after. I've had all this since the age of 8. 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A while back I applied to several of universities, for some reason I got my eye set on the university of British Columbia because I want to live in BC I don’t like living in Winnipeg, but if I don’t get accepted into the the university I’ll stay in Manitoba and go to the university of Winnipeg, but I want to live a life without having psych evaluations every month, and if I don’t show up I run the risk of being hospitalized. I want to get away from that I just want to leave my past behind and start in a new province I feel like all the psychiatrists know me and they even tried to separate me from my family when I was young thankfully it didn’t work. I always had social workers checking on me and trying to build cases against my family so that they can take me I feel like there were sort of obsessed with separating me from my family, my consciousness always told me that they got some sick enjoyment through breaking up families. Anyways wish me luck I hope I get accepted into the university of British Columbia, and start life in Vancouver stress free. 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If a person, hypothetically, experienced symptoms of schizophrenia and wanted to discuss them with a professional, is there any chance (however minute) of this coming back to bite them? I understand therapy notes can be subpoenaed. Is this only for cases relevant to the illness/symptoms, or could this information be subpoena’d and the court made aware of the illness just because? Let’s say, if the person in question worked for a company, and the company is now involved in a lawsuit of some kind, and the patient works in a relevant department. Can the judge make everyone (the company, the lawyers, the public?) aware of the patient’s mental health just because they want to? I know LEGALLY they can’t lose their job or anything because that’s discrimination, but that doesn’t mean practically this wouldn’t damage their reputation or hurt their career. Particularly if their current role is appointed or elected, or if they have ambitions in that vein, this sort of information being public could be damaging. Basically I want to know if, completely hypothetically, a person was experiencing symptoms like hallucinations and disordered thinking, could they stand to lose anything by telling this to a professional? 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Can anyone/everyone share their experience about the time leading up to when they were diagnosed with schizophrenia? I’ve been struggling lately and I’ve really been concerned that I’m becoming schizophrenic. I’ve found a pretty good list (from what I think) that talks about things that may happen before schizophrenia presents. Thank you so much for your answers. I’m worried.",5.3116666666666665,8.677683500000004,4.308888888888891,80.20000000000002,75.1111111111111,6.933333333333335,28.44444444444445,8.07648339933343,2.447994444444445,340,14,51,6,8,100,59,72,0.086,0.7659999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.6705,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,2,1,4,4,0,1,2,0,6,2,0,2,0,9,12,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,0,5,3,7,7,1,6,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,2,4,31,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26902835370407063,0.20727894903357785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472408698378365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23276270543962516,0.0,0.2382798307938775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26708618176073706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20431350947975105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21540770341736212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27478251660875946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1790682330902411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478207545893087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15605134683493396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27268143031953085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25465536882363865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19579011547537856,0.0,0.2242668924819889,0.0,0.0,0.16183177775586488,0.15608399190692862,0.0,0.0,0.142040521566837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473796177121053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,justsomeonetooshy,2019/08/26,"Trying to get back on meds after a hiatus Is it easy to make the transition? So I’ve never posted or anything, but today I made the decision that I should try to get back on meds. A brief description of my symptoms: Last December i had a big mental breakdown where I would think I was God and the Devil, and that my homeless friend was Jesus. It’s crazy I know but look where I’m posting!! My homeless friend died recently and it made me think about when I was hospitalized and on meds. Doesn’t help I’ve smoked weed from January on. Since then I’ve been just trying to keep life regular. I don’t have the thought of being God/Devil anymore like before but I have scarce instances of “We still remember who you are” like I’m reading peoples minds who don’t know me. Like everyone’s minds are connected on a cerebral pipeline. I went to the hospital down the street where the psych ward I was put in twice is. I hated that place but this time I’m at the outpatient clinic filling out paperwork for my first appointment since January. I don’t know how I’m going to feel on medication again. I was on Seroquel and Abilify. I just started a new job and there’s a lot of codes and numbers that make me lose interest. I don’t see anything in the numbers like I used to (like angel numbers) or anything, but I definitely feel like my thoughts race about anything and everything inappropriate. I lose my train of thought while learning about my new job and it’s frustrating me. I know I can do better at learning. My whole post is basically trying to figure out what I should be prepared for in trying to get treatment for Paranoid Schizophrenia when I haven’t been near a outpatient clinic or facility in about 8 months. I’m kind of desperate for any type of mental regulation, hoping that I can get some kind of mental relief as well. I want my thoughts to slow down so I can focus on tasks instead of having a clusterfuck of mind avenues that my brain takes while having conversation with people, and even my instructor. Looking forward to replies encouraging me to get back on meds and success stories of getting back on meds by choice after running away from them trying to escape being controlled by people and medication when I didn’t want to be. I’m scared I’m wasting my time and hope I can finally find peace of mind. Thanks for reading and I hope you reply. Much love",4.104186562372308,5.9002506112311055,4.9896223221061256,81.57741229350303,72.04535637149027,7.942770416204543,29.1441830599498,8.605353355243054,2.28797220244002,1895,77,355,34,37,616,215,463,0.08800000000000001,0.725,0.188,0.9937,2,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,1,2,1,6,25,27,2,1,17,0,36,8,1,7,1,69,82,32,1,8,10,0,2,6,2,3,6,0,0,0,14,18,0,2,18,2,0,7,8,6,1,2,16,5,50,21,65,59,4,65,3,2,3,1,12,29,0,8,34,235,64,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04520224656022291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06592091449600175,0.0,0.0,0.21879836299504354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06245126039018515,0.2044469690607177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0565615337387342,0.0,0.0,0.05878779094362306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07420310574819583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07455236269541274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06898592615726018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043903164760025856,0.0,0.0,0.06351544948594706,0.059739435291352325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721900446309215,0.047486567045132,0.0,0.07281522749679734,0.060752869328885364,0.05653980735285214,0.0,0.0,0.10270994860676724,0.0,0.2083686820237937,0.0,0.037776739686402584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06562589679458652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04455380181160173,0.0,0.0,0.19806073312691827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319235087206428,0.05908207007351227,0.0,0.13843767725955095,0.14612188167892562,0.05418236179074745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04695010815723708,0.194844889673504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163702510449386,0.14872706347014394,0.0,0.056510876084346136,0.05999225751759781,0.12579206424423092,0.08873920318140041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691689260513351,0.13392415195432386,0.2009600107943305,0.0,0.2684651870465898,0.0,0.05305615084830375,0.0,0.04886349508568987,0.0,0.05126617821351916,0.12839532343901988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13824690900762945,0.0,0.06944756674873298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909812094474346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06682125196901773,0.0,0.0,0.13297705570979548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06563163916729034,0.0,0.0752981641431121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06654860640220712,0.0,0.052968414396443925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10997023512270727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04704819032179555,0.0,0.0530834590937361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0690883421572929,0.04997757370627346,0.0,0.0,0.06119714261744073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08518327611637902,0.0,0.2110807356598097,0.07751901281175053,0.0,0.06300629970742792,0.0,0.0,0.2707748004447722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05740920465076881,0.0,0.0,0.07841209334828715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059764998235444164,0.061618856503870174,0.0,0.0742119840909282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04721876447079811,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,_fightme,2019/08/26,"Increased Seroquel nightmares? I saw a post a while back about this. Apologies but I wanted to mention it again for my own anxiety relief - I also have PTSD and occasionally have nightmares (~1 per month). I started taking Seroquel at the lowest dose, 25mg, and now I am constantly having PTSD nightmares. Is this an adjustment anyone else went through? I'm afraid they'll increase my dosage and I don't want to be tired all of the time, but I'm also not seeing an improvement in my sleep (I've been taking it for two weeks). Also not getting appetite problems yet, which I assume is because of the small dosage.",3.136609195402297,5.772991051724138,3.845517241379312,84.70954022988506,78.13793103448276,5.59080459770115,26.90804597701149,6.816661863887847,1.4154045977011496,486,20,85,5,12,154,81,116,0.121,0.7809999999999999,0.098,-0.3971,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,0,8,3,0,1,7,0,10,3,1,0,1,13,21,9,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,3,2,11,1,10,16,4,17,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,1,10,60,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4468508023880095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14248668049662594,0.0,0.0,0.13023576007128054,0.19084309127605648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432207243612681,0.0,0.11354100482690944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20127847479693214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555944626721619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731199476244176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14866917110535513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783834525703949,0.0,0.0,0.178223526546386,0.43545072018608505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484233239158178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18639227823702345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13183420480590632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800853185905783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10860840067892724,0.21407590136591767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18194677219735805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21971931126432784,0.0,0.1494047442733146,0.0,0.0,0.17266281429051464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Poule780,2019/08/26,"“Going Off Their Meds” I frequently hear stories of mentally ill individuals going off their meds, and going off the deep end as a result. I myself have had 3 psychotic episodes, and have been medicated. However, these episodes usually last six weeks each, and then things return to normal. After the third time I learned to wean myself off of the drugs, despite psychiatrist advice to not do so. When I hear those stories about people who stop taking their meds, I think about the past six years of my life, and how they would be EMPTY if I had continued to take the meds prescribed to me ( clonazapam, seroquel, lithium) I worry that I have schizophrenia because I’ve had psychotic delusional episodes, but I continue to have years of psychosis free life. As it stands I won’t be taking antipsychotics when I’m not psychotic. I feel uncomfortable when I hear about the consequences, and I worry that one day that may be me. Advice?",8.694036817882969,8.508803242603548,8.071794871794875,70.63709401709404,60.95266272189349,11.534779750164368,36.5292570677186,10.980518767755715,4.075472846811309,744,30,126,17,9,234,98,169,0.068,0.887,0.045,-0.2121,1,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,4,0,8,1,0,0,7,0,15,5,0,2,0,19,27,15,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,8,6,0,1,3,0,1,3,3,0,0,4,4,4,22,2,20,17,1,28,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,2,19,92,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448749761772997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0763790833948575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08080534795585756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530320971057906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097478248935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0633532603720787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21362526664687306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4236520117157358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021327019500308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17700008801623174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5567010170465121,0.12622221552731713,0.126268575282847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122763163317802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08490359524483312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11960890377875508,0.08686424810912294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10475279860135407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28262027369210274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832408821412564,0.08028441233625762,0.0,0.0,0.07306091843633085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13799548955321356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10050463653933003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544876894720531,0.0,0.08900645595276109,0.0,0.0,0.1613726194977822 schizophrenia,newaccountnumber69,2019/08/26,"We are All here together. Poem then a wall of text. i Really hope this helps at least one of you. Love ya, whoever you are. Mentally stable for me is a fable, Never attainable; i am unable So tying electrical cables And trying to set up a table Will soon be a one-time-im-done-staple, One line i rhyme what seems fateful. The End But i am grateful for All that i have Calling me back, No longer appealing; But i am longing for meaning and feeling. If i am capable to be relatable: Most of us have feelings that are unshakable Dont let 'em take a toll and just run off Returning whenever you want 'em to stop; Grab 'em and ride them to places where thoughts Become, before dying, something more than talk Dont stop, go whenever You can And Dont be afraid to rest, and stretch your hands Out We All need help, And to help others too But the best help for you Is catch dreams for yourself Go for it you sad fuck, there's nothing better to do. And that makes it your best thing to do. You'll know when it comes, i think, and if you put your Soul's effort in it, itll turn out how its meant to go But kill yourself LATER, when/because you're ready, NOT because of pain and aimlessness. Live just to be the most aimless cunt ever, if thats all youve got. Existence is half negative&half positive, All is. Your personal experience here? IDK. You don't either, just remember its All 50/50, so at least try to enjoy half of it. If you dont enjoy any it, make something, do something, that others can enjoy or or be helped by, build on. Follow your real, pure destiny, whatever you know it is, as long as thatpath don't hurt anybeings/anybody. I know my life will hurt, have for a while, but i know that pain is worth enduring for the other half. I gotta make some good music. Its my destiny, along with the other stuff, but Im GONNA DO ITt with my Mind, Body, and most importantly my Soul, and not have to worry because i WILL DO & try, and some good WILL come from my Existence here, even if its external good and i bear most of the negative from my existence. Peace out guys, try not to die because of pain. Die because you lived through more than you ever thought you could, and made something from it, whether great and relevant outside you, or just decent to you. TL;DR Love you All. We are All All, after All. Take care, All.",3.3263209346685727,4.738913551502146,4.2716380543633745,87.49252622794468,73.35622317596567,7.667048164043872,25.390796375774922,8.256446698504663,1.4482810681926557,1809,58,379,29,36,585,230,466,0.057999999999999996,0.752,0.18899999999999997,0.996,0,0,4,0,0,0,81.0,4,23,1,5,19,24,3,1,12,0,44,9,2,5,15,97,79,39,4,9,23,0,4,0,0,8,4,0,0,2,27,27,0,2,13,1,1,10,12,10,0,5,5,4,49,14,51,59,25,40,2,3,0,3,39,13,2,16,16,269,76,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16037124493732402,0.0,0.05032671341682266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0569061540290289,0.0,0.22556728218301605,0.0817339679744563,0.06297377487848436,0.0,0.15532975758030876,0.0654524173546566,0.0,0.08220413876566454,0.0,0.0,0.07556854398039607,0.0,0.07545419263758706,0.0,0.0,0.12749947442707982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05908788137000333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304200697780585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07573397626234246,0.3469385826645859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06554747442454757,0.0,0.0,0.048880357927025865,0.13388558228856567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07239220621514353,0.0,0.0,0.07483945669096584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06841748450659407,0.0,0.0,0.12617818560101135,0.18621851872463885,0.05918947126285722,0.0815920313249703,0.0,0.07327771446671616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480237804569129,0.0,0.0,0.07350479613827889,0.0,0.0,0.15845020838226506,0.0,0.15987866282668164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08187682970096445,0.0,0.1626873578813091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07567629287823217,0.05227272575866517,0.0,0.0,0.1306975560885365,0.13098621126554869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13358686264824804,0.07002639967125933,0.14819902064151452,0.0,0.0,0.08061438280520422,0.0,0.0,0.074580783339411,0.0,0.07472510527151986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05487461555934661,0.057078097998738336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07101088790485828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15044542858365828,0.0,0.23624325439924596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06461930746068913,0.07732066556919183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07439661198072693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423519005932123,0.0474102287322746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08383453071507221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06737241096631476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278941707235429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12374489470850697,0.0,0.0,0.08471932522370404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11128681517334534,0.05948333254710603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04916639141648604,0.04742014668788114,0.0,0.117505218210895,0.04315357575131034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20098124642729692,0.08049742962274388,0.0,0.0,0.08902027505933514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04365073918499653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07515682816784275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,10893093109390,2019/08/26,"Help Hey, new to the group and not entirely sure if this is okay to post. My sister is diagnosed schizophrenia (that’s as much as I know). She is around 30 and lives with my father and brother who’s around the same age. She has become increasingly angry, yelling and talking to herself almost every morning, waking everyone in the house up and personally, makes my heart race and I have to put on white noise to do something else. That’s only one of the instances that happen daily which is becoming very unbearable. We’re not sure if she is taking medication, has a routine therapist, or is abusing drugs/etc. which she has a history of. When I try to comfort or listen to her, she will repeatedly tell the same story or personal history of her traumas, becoming increasingly angry, which I understand is a valid feeling and reaction given the things she really has been through (years of abuse from her precious family and friends). Anyways, I’m hardly a legal adult and don’t know what to do to help her, as it seems she is in a lot of pain and confusion. However, suggestions to talk it out with someone who’s professionally trained like a therapist or counselor usually results in defensiveness or a change in topic... Shes gone to therapy before so this isn’t entirely foreign to her. Anyways, I only post this because it’s taking a huge emotional and in some cases when she’s threatened and actually tried to physically hurt us, it’s taking a huge toll. We love her, but the way she is acting, mentally ill or not, is incredibly toxic, manipulative, hurtful and stressful to us. Yet there is guilt for even feeling this way.",8.176659836065575,7.7087363934426225,8.67388319672131,66.82754610655739,62.114754098360656,12.084016393442626,38.734631147540966,11.45678717892309,4.6406434426229515,1300,60,222,34,16,435,170,305,0.126,0.802,0.07200000000000001,-0.9629,1,0,2,0,2,0,40.0,3,0,0,0,10,16,1,3,16,1,23,7,2,3,2,49,39,28,0,2,12,3,3,1,1,1,4,2,0,3,18,19,0,1,6,0,0,5,5,8,0,1,3,6,28,8,37,35,7,29,0,2,1,1,39,12,0,13,9,160,46,2,0.0,0.23777428008875476,0.09791789929161787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047656336866988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17864872000730844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06116666594746601,0.3324547514562517,0.08538241482020227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061469937380643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10184354275928964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08382165135892827,0.11286960958100276,0.0,0.0,0.11190623340791547,0.0662739847680818,0.0,0.0845412382559291,0.0958796923815896,0.0,0.0,0.0945921373587344,0.0,0.10147039062588907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775228574830803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873081407639198,0.0,0.08988542096071153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11890403097289386,0.13451230674426165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11577951892428867,0.21483326109237771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102890806802382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04902132272598676,0.0,0.0886025410694473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530594460140024,0.09056126096276836,0.0,0.06697809408640434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010825444499676,0.101119670735776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07376184716352878,0.0,0.0,0.09690952527456846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06799335128482607,0.15262701458314898,0.10676941623458047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752269901446804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19219701411948456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086996368906476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06428072358931723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09134626519790233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08501821961046467,0.07724705505335533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1149397572416118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18913955558619372,0.0,0.22633081077364925,0.16129986122716236,0.08770206051363967,0.0,0.11474815992886706,0.23300621695581336,0.06666180065011658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13624928937998085,0.0,0.0,0.10445804782511936,0.24139464617426135,0.0,0.1105109361960051,0.08279145954835787,0.0,0.15929131102164926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06461602228754268 schizophrenia,PlasticTradition,2019/08/26,How to support a friend with schizophrenia. I hope it's okay to ask this here. I have become friends with a woman who has schizophrenia. She is 34 and has had it since she was 17. She tells me that she needs a friend and I want to be there for her. Could anyone offer any advice on things to be aware of and how best to support her please?,1.15466800804829,3.145248169014085,1.6614889336016103,101.2160563380282,81.39436619718309,4.057142857142857,17.185110663983902,3.1291,-1.1212269617706236,264,5,62,0,7,80,49,71,0.0,0.6629999999999999,0.337,0.9764,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,4,8,0,0,3,1,9,0,0,2,0,11,15,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,10,8,10,10,1,1,0,0,0,0,14,1,0,1,0,46,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120286018151776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475526276246642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15171621387350773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028453423901196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23963539285658725,0.0,0.0,0.2277052515773407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17323945008505334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5029104951652646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21550832702683295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16088659810970954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23817692422744405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17948662276375116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4924486172335501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18964852480037872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441506856257427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12797937372068047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,sadclowntears_mp3,2019/08/26,"New hey guys i’m new to reddit, and i just wanted to say finding people who understand makes me feel less alone, although it is an unfortunate thing to be able to understand. i’ve found so many uplifting stories and i hope one day i can post one.",1.939,4.171886900000004,3.649999999999999,86.705,80.0,7.2,24.0,8.238735603445708,1.5448,195,7,40,4,5,65,39,50,0.095,0.847,0.057999999999999996,-0.204,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,11,11,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,4,1,4,9,1,4,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,3,23,7,0,0.2185065566334161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22630689454265965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14091865243213986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048348042128137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19971103418290054,0.0,0.0,0.2395811610685447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163558446189783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217026313767832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14585482328402452,0.22153135246609126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4220699879941807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29613139553787216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15148493382833486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20926888046374614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17376518404589364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14516604699253832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4549460630059826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12888082841205845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,SongbirdSchizo,2019/08/26,"Only Zoloft for Schizoaffective Disorder Hi, new account, I got paranoid and trashed the old ones, naturally. I'm on 100mg of Sertraline for schizoaffective disorder. I was on Seroquel as well, but I discontinued it and manage to ride through my psychotic symptoms with experience and heavy nicotine use. I feel like I'm trying to strike a fine balance here and it's not going great lately. Is anyone else just using antidepressants for schizoaffective or other mood-heavy schiz diagnoses? Should I request a higher dosage? Reconsider antipyschotics? Thanks",6.415483870967741,9.974453612903227,5.927322580645161,69.13098387096775,72.01075268817203,9.311397849462367,34.031182795698925,9.642632912329526,4.3772718279569895,458,23,63,13,10,141,73,93,0.126,0.76,0.114,0.2498,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,2,0,13,11,7,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,2,1,6,5,11,8,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,4,37,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14521331967973428,0.2127907020849793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21078884678741264,0.0,0.0,0.4760340700036621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17348836015578814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20314898090548136,0.0,0.0,0.1050082609245664,0.14836523874509502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802822042826505,0.0,0.16609910646525364,0.2289657807142294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342698835807101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10146100386380948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20057675255487534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21792317581239745,0.0,0.14072801984525052,0.1579485135774748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158570100240667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912020438606331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14099976201677725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35873430673908835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867275059781532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Awho,2019/08/26,Audiatory hallucinations question I’ve been diagnosed with psychosis. When you guys hear voices does it happen inside of your head or outside of your head? When I hear voices it happens outside of my head. Like I can determine what direction the voice is coming from as if someone is standing there saying something to me.,7.427105263157895,9.252734473684214,7.563991228070179,66.21335526315791,63.91228070175439,9.208771929824564,37.05701754385965,9.516144504307137,3.983038596491229,263,13,38,5,4,85,44,57,0.0,0.955,0.045,0.3612,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,4,4,3,0,0,5,9,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,7,1,7,8,0,4,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,3,3,27,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735238852520964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204458728839096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17628268192261634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19945860598712686,0.3562678391460901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6202108194443532,0.0,0.4540780810713538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09841406788308248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256604128004366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16019424591893033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17068060123166873,0.1550793919267117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Majesticsofa,2019/08/26,Can you sleep to get over psychotic hallucinations Never had visual hallucinations before this but been up two days at the hospital because my grandpa was dying. Seen shadow people running down the halls and weird visuals. I'd compare it to smoking salvia.,8.489924242424241,10.378439659090908,8.634545454545453,59.28015151515154,61.5,10.412121212121212,37.39393939393939,10.504223727775694,4.642948484848485,211,10,28,5,3,69,41,44,0.047,0.953,0.0,-0.2617,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,1,1,0,1,3,6,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,4,1,2,0,6,2,0,8,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,0,2,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511169961303257,0.0,0.35053366404534025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656695439121611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4275324211533104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152235295913359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177163012197419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855898249461177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4122411025349321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024090412046504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,prestriction,2019/06/19,"Tools and strategies I used to recover I wanted to make a post with all of the tools and strategies that I used to get better from schizophrenia and other mental illnesses. This is a lot of information. It’s separated into different tools I used. They are the most powerful and effective strategies that I used in my life. It is possible to get better. While I don’t know if it’s possible to cured necessarily, it is possible to beat schizophrenia. There are solutions. I still have symptoms but I’m living a pretty good life. I’m happy and am working full time during the summer. I’m also enrolled in a rigorous college program. Drugs: I had a substantial problem with them, but I know that drugs, especially marijuana, can worsen symptoms. It helped me tremendously to not use substances. Since I could think somewhat, I could take steps towards recovering. I could go to doctor appointments, exercise, etc... Keto: Keto was more effective than an antipsychotic except instead of feeling like crap on it, I felt absolutely amazing. It took some time to get down right, but it was a huge milestone in my life. After I got on the diet, my life changed. My anxiety disappeared in a month or two. I could enjoy life. It didn’t get rid of symptoms completely, but it did reduce them immensely. When symptoms did come up, I could handle them a lot better. Running: Running really helped my mood. I think it is one of the biggest reasons why I didn’t fall into depression with all the chaos and negativity going in my mind. It gave me a lever that I could use whenever I just wanted to get away from all the chaos in my mind. On top of that, I cultivated a lot of discipline and strength that enabled me to do other activities that aided my in recovery. Spirituality: Spirituality played a very important part in my recovery. I came to believe when I started my recovery journey. It was super helpful for me to have a faith. It carried me some dark times and gave me a ridiculous amount of tools that I could use to live life and battle schizophrenia. I got a lot of strength from spirituality. Training: On that note, I got trained by someone in my faith. I learned a bunch of tools for coping with symptoms. I met with him regularly. He prayed over me and taught me a bunch of stuff on how to handle symptoms. Ignoring: The best coping skill he gave me was ignoring symptoms. I pretty much ignore symptoms all day. What this does is the symptoms loose power over me and they also get drained of their strength. I’ve ignored voices, involuntary movements, confusion. Pretty much anything. A lot of the time the symptoms will go away or greatly loose their power. Occupying My Mind: Another powerful coping skill is keeping my mind occupied. If my mind is occupied, I’m not thinking about all the schizophrenia junk. I’m thinking about whatever I’m occupying my mind with. If I’m not thinking about the schizophrenia stuff, the symptoms loose strength and I’m happier. The symptoms can’t do as much stuff as well. I keep my mind occupied by trying to staying busy, listening to an audio track when walking or driving, or even just playing around on my phone. Not Engaging: It was also super important for me not to engage with the voices as well. I NEVER talk to them. I’ll never speak to them. Engaging with them feeds them. Focus: Based on the three coping skills I mentioned, you’ll realize that attention is important. What I focused on, I gave power. It helped me to not only ignore and keep your mind occupied, but also to occupy your mind with positive stuff. It might be podcasts or audiobooks. I personally like sermons, but I’ve occupied myself with health subreddits and audiobooks. Medication: Medication is also very important. It’s vital to take and stay on medication. Even with all the interventions I did, I found it necessary to stay on medication. I’m on a fairly low dosage though. It does take some trail and error to find the right medication. I had to try a few until I found one that worked for me. After I got on a good medication, I found a minimal dose that gave me sufficient help for my symptoms. If I go too high on meds, I get kind of sedated. I’m on a dose that’s not too high but I am functional. Meds didn’t remove all symptoms for me, but I became pretty functional and got a lot of relief from symptoms. I could live my life and manage symptoms. Taking Suggestions: I made some mistakes prior to really starting on my mental health recovery journey. One thing I learned was to listen to what people who cared about me were telling me. I could have avoided a lot of trouble if I took suggestions. I started listening and following the guidance of parents, doctors, and friends. That helped me a lot. There were things that I couldn’t see myself, but others could see. For example, my parents could tell a particular med was very helpful but I couldn’t notice it. People often have had good input if they were people I trust. I did have to filter some stuff, but 90% of the suggestions were solid. Therapy: Another thing that helped was bringing a focus into therapy. I went to therapy for years and just spun my wheels. I would go to the session and talk about general things. The therapist would guide the session. We would just talk about what was going in my life, general stuff. I would then forget most of the therapy session in a week. What broke that pattern was to come into the therapy session with a focus that I wanted to work on. I would, for example, come in to the session and say “Hey, I want help with anxiety.” The therapist and I worked on some strategies to help with anxiety and that was SUPER effective. Another example was I came in saying “I want help not doing what the symptoms want me to do.” I got some tools to implement that which helped immensely. I’m not exactly sure why bringing a focus works, but I’ve heard that this strategy has helped others as well. Opposite Action: Another good tool is to do the opposite of what symptoms wanted me to do. It’s a simple but powerful strategy. The voices wanted me stay at home and isolate? I’d go hang out with a friend. The voices wanted me to buy something immediately? I’d buy it later. I totally had fun with this. For example, if the voices wanted me to put my shirt back on while I was running because I looked fat, I might have said something to myself like “Ok, because the voices said that, I’m going to keep my shirt off. In addition to that, I’m actually gonna go run on more populated path. If I hear it one more time, I’m gonna talk to a girl.” NAMI: NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) groups were super duper helpful. I went to the support groups and got a bunch of amazing information, tools, help, and resources. Finding out the ketogenic diet was helpful for schizophrenia was from a tip at a NAMI group. Some of the coping strategies I listed here were from NAMI. Laughter: Laughter is also good tool. Sometimes, when I’m worrying or stressed out about a symptom, I’ll laugh at it. It’s a good way just blow off the seriousness and tension. At a certain point, because I had been laughing at symptoms a lot, I found I laughed at other stuff in my life too. Helping Others: I think helping others is a good principle to live by in general. I found helping others with their mental health recovery helped me a lot. Disclaimer: I had to realize that I was not a doctor, but there were things I was able to do. It might be as simple as listening to someone without giving them advice or going on a bike ride with someone who has depression. I got an opportunity to make use of all the suffering and the painful adaptation I was forced to do. Most importantly, I got an opportunity to help someone out of pain and suffering which is amazing. Incidentally, I found when I helped others, my own mental health recovery became stronger. For example, while I’m writing this, I’m thinking “Man, I’ve been thinking that and using that but it’s a lot more clear now that I’m typing that out. I should do more of that.” Structure: Structure is essential in my life. For a while I thought it was being busy that gave me relief from my symptoms, but I later learned it was structure. There would be summer breaks where I would try to stay busy but I wouldn’t be able to do it and my symptoms would get pretty bad. If I was taking classes, having that structure reduced symptoms significantly. The best thing for me is working a full-time job. I’m stuck doing something all day and I don’t really have time or the ability to mess around with all the stuff going in my mind. Solutions: I have a variety of strategies for accessing solutions. Solutions are basically anything that can help a problem that I’m facing. For example, a solution to schizophrenia would be supplements. While it might not cure schizophrenia, it could help with symptoms. Another example would be talking to the disability office if I have a problem going in school. I try to think about and write down the solutions that I have in my life regularly. I do it after a run, because I find I’m in a good mental space then. I have a big list of all the solutions that I have. If I have a problem, I just pick a relevant solution off of the list and apply it. Accepting the Illness: My recovery from schizophrenia really started when I realized and accepted that I had schizophrenia. Before then, I thought the delusions were real and I didn’t have schizophrenia. After I accepted I had schizophrenia, I could seek out the appropriate solutions. I could go to NAMI groups, research supplements, find a good diet, etc... Research: Research! Research! Research! Researching stuff allowed me to see what solutions were available for schizophrenia. It didn’t have to necessarily be scientific articles. Sometimes it would just be a Google or Reddit search. Research helped immensely. One Step a Day: On that note, it helps to break down the recovery process. One thing that helped me was just to take one step towards recovery each day. It might be just reading a scientific article or it could be bigger that day. Just one step. Subreddits: I also subscribed to schizophrenia-related health subreddits, so when I open reddit I would get a feed of stuff about keto, supplements, mental health, etc.. Supplements: I found a few supplements to be helpful: NAC, sarcosine, B12, L-theanine. If you do some research, there are some others. schizophrenia.com is a good resource for supplement info.",4.2087599514791805,6.5662331060450825,5.264065856416052,77.30304644808746,73.21618852459017,8.442274354625965,30.53191539476164,9.145669892876011,3.0233276474467683,8301,377,1430,193,174,2726,535,1952,0.084,0.7240000000000001,0.192,0.9997,11,1,5,0,0,0,263.0,1,4,14,36,58,93,3,4,118,1,158,70,5,19,18,323,306,109,0,58,62,2,2,3,2,23,61,18,1,3,123,79,6,11,43,5,2,46,26,29,3,10,88,24,198,63,242,166,60,193,3,6,4,0,99,90,1,54,51,1053,321,34,0.038389332463786494,0.0,0.018731225378436082,0.0,0.0,0.018756805691087418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10744977355562192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063640578959812,0.0440516013878595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031591149634583864,0.03417464490389117,0.0,0.0,0.03606804154927597,0.014759513516288462,0.016026744541886732,0.046803561506045324,0.0,0.016333247209371425,0.021625815802163245,0.04028723598714619,0.05092836733231045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04390716930371153,0.01957024148085982,0.0,0.02030541175142764,0.04960351604062549,0.020125242350332657,0.0,0.0,0.2298806865294045,0.0,0.0,0.0618948589222663,0.0,0.033064675798619415,0.0,0.0,0.02005434083587429,0.0,0.058939662707977215,0.033594763540205824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04451943785157268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06422138018829951,0.02535579203391361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.009705399982034641,0.013712673391340198,0.01842988970824417,0.0,0.07017430878100728,0.0,0.0,0.14732172549461284,0.02965950303266488,0.0,0.09025578787978143,0.01841327288657042,0.1418140250909438,0.16099575350540962,0.1381655524659808,0.02116218728378684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.020433079127218638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12241819572866365,0.021633783869193325,0.0,0.36024184473308946,0.04056043746859954,0.019253815268011697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.019047744449566858,0.06824440515418577,0.0,0.01998829112569628,0.02109777315431956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491353645463654,0.028132633082584287,0.0,0.06779696778139631,0.0,0.01611868533456876,0.0,0.0,0.17950480704855104,0.0,0.01816245729623081,0.02562517751762947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06396284116764002,0.11601964108395907,0.13540596249648568,0.1018125378204326,0.19381141109948535,0.0,0.015320999458499478,0.0,0.04233086474113384,0.0,0.02960821982334877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02185325472640165,0.0,0.0,0.10405442080477953,0.014598408614141632,0.04084895639065614,0.0,0.04262681062983465,0.020785953022571,0.0,0.03992149419397306,0.01676004218089867,0.0,0.0,0.018145163853557144,0.06491730637458627,0.018383184354337487,0.09763938082454393,0.0,0.07346681315049562,0.0,0.01929594116543998,0.0,0.0,0.019199860581176773,0.021847732419124008,0.04918637878267985,0.01973531375353281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03278428016832472,0.036517046241738585,0.03052873801018339,0.0,0.019426026980998462,0.04588699153501287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.015878026259229894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06505431363694754,0.04433097549557175,0.0379680314193742,0.0,0.054344334213355806,0.1022948013579524,0.015328885247551115,0.0,0.021987425316626074,0.0,0.2197330055185661,0.0,0.021781879772866542,0.018090745764015342,0.4788145853129573,0.0865920012041824,0.07713972818080768,0.03355396865167125,0.0,0.10975386833959737,0.04457297384799727,0.08926458337036852,0.1106925036726992,0.01885866211619157,0.030476841846198574,0.0671553854354032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04265196089399408,0.05212767360189168,0.0,0.018750399814471283,0.0,0.0,0.14920225862104572,0.0,0.04751282960814249,0.11321511460224278,0.0152358326167057,0.015396803446805888,0.0,0.05177493038764629,0.03558729580019409,0.034640401469873114,0.0,0.0,0.018502973284283276,0.0,0.08384367374513857,0.01949311528975901,0.0,0.1636240820311015,0.0,0.0,0.012360735731486631 schizophrenia,BenChapmanOfficial,2019/06/19,"I'm a blogger writing an article about the gangstalking conspiracy and I would like to hear your stories. Hey y'all, I'm a blogger and activist on Medium.com: https://medium.com/@Ben_Chapman I'm currently writing about the gangstalking conspiracy, how it was created, and how we can break the taboo and raise awareness around paranoid schizophrenia. I'm hoping to hear stories from people who previously believed in gangstalking and managed to get through it or from people who experience paranoid delusions that make them feel as if they are being stalked. Feel free to comment here, PM me, or email me at benbart.chapman@gmail.com Thanks very much for any stories you share. I'll ask you for your name and permission to share the story before I put anything in an article.",10.763571428571431,11.049453409090912,8.7491341991342,65.92227272727278,56.57575757575757,11.17922077922078,44.61471861471861,10.608840637214634,5.049126406926408,638,34,94,12,7,190,85,132,0.077,0.795,0.128,0.7269,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,5,2,0,6,6,0,0,8,0,5,0,0,3,0,22,18,12,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,5,8,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,12,7,18,15,1,8,0,0,0,0,21,5,0,4,2,61,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15475143392783156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872659159176657,0.20258035092468285,0.2127417729239127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19364034129509367,0.25638688370019963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226014169494325,0.0,0.0,0.23012655607738275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11889288248049795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5129626997295789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22602256000228485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111763550303217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15190084545509352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16728584321935455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155286743918509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22876483683795554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095105065124945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18776426641273328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616550518218429,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Dismal_Tonight,2019/06/19,"I feel like medicine or therapy wouldn't be able to help me. Are these even ""delusions""? I've been struggling with this for several years and I genuinely don't see how any sort of medicine or therapy would help, mostly because I feel like I already have a pretty high level of cognitive awareness and that still doesn't alleviate my pain - so where does that leave me? I was diagnosed with clinical depression (with suicidal ideation) and generalized anxiety disorder in the past but haven't seen a professional in well over a year, and have never spoken openly about what I'm going to write here. For the sake of brevity I'm only asking about one ""type"" of symptom I've been experiencing, which are these strange and improbable thoughts. I don't talk about this with other people because it's embarrassing. I know on a rational level that most of these thoughts can't be real. When I'm not explicitly focusing on why they aren't real though, I find myself becoming persuaded by them, at least partially. To the point that my actions and behaviors are influenced. To the point where I occasionally find myself, in moments of shame, reflecting on how it was even possible for me to get wrapped up in such a thought or feel so afraid of or distressed by it, when my rational mind knows it isn't real. These past six months or so, what I've been struggling with the most are thoughts that have to do with clairvoyance and other superstitions/""signs"" from the universe. Even typing this out is making me cringe, but I'll list a few below. - If someone is unusually nice to me, usually before they go to sleep or before they leave the house, it's because they know deep down they're going to die soon and are sending me a signal. Also applies to when people accidentally say ""goodbye"" instead of ""goodnight"" by accident, or say goodbye in a context that feels out of place. I'll catch myself replaying the last words someone has said to me and wondering if there's some sort of signal in those words that I should be looking out for. - My actions - again, particularly nearing the end of the day - can influence the future. If I'm not kind enough for example, the universe is going to teach me a lesson by killing one of my loved ones. In the future, I'll be able to look back on this very moment, this ""lesson"", as the reason why I should never go to bed angry, or not tell people that I care about them often enough. I play out in my head what this future revelation would look like and feel like. - I'm destined to do great things, but in order for that to happen I need to suffer more. There will be a point in the near future where something horribly tragic will happen to me, and only through this suffering will I be able to realize my full potential. If I pay close enough attention, I might be able to find a sign or signal relating to the impending tragedy that will help soften the blow. You get the picture. I *know* deep down these thoughts are unreasonable and I can rationalize why they're unreasonable. I'm college educated and always thought I was a ""smart"" person. That doesn't change the fact that for each of these kinds of thoughts, at some point or another (usually many more times than once), even if for a brief amount of time (usually the span of a few minutes to half an hour), I found myself absorbed in them to the point that I basically forgot about the fact that they aren't reasonable. Or basically didn't care for that brief period of time, because the emotions I felt as a result were too real and too compelling. If I can rationalize why these thoughts aren't real, but still find myself getting pulled back into them, where does that leave me? I feel like I don't need help understanding why certain things are or aren't reasonable; I always get to that point myself, usually fairly quickly. It sometimes feel like my brain is short circuiting. Even though it's rational 95% of the time, 5% of the time that ability to think rationally goes out the window. I know 5% doesn't sound like a lot (and maybe it's more than 5%, who knows, I'm not very good with numbers and estimates), when these moments happen more than once per day, on most days, it starts to wear you down. I feel on edge all the time. For the past few months I haven't been able to make it through the night without checking at least once to make sure someone hasn't died. I can't remember the last time I felt truly relaxed. I feel like I can't trust myself anymore and it's seriously damaged my self esteem. I've had similar thought processes occur in the past to different ""themes"". For a long time, it was classic paranoia - I'm being watched through the air vents in my house and the front facing camera on my phone, there's a camera positioned outside my window somewhere and it's recording me, all of my online activity and other digital information is being collected and will someday be used against me, etc. Also physical safety - that odd looking person is going to stalk me and harm me later tonight, my mom went to the bathroom and has been gone for a little too long, she must've been kidnapped, etc. Occasionally when I've been home alone, I've kept a kitchen knife by my side to help me relax. I don't know how anyone or anything could help me. I already have a good grasp on reality. I know what is and isn't real the great majority of the time. I feel like these frequent miniature breaks with reality (which don't constitute an actual break with reality in my opinion) are something I just have to learn to deal with. I just don't see how a pill could magically fix this, or how a therapist could tell me things I'm not already painfully aware of.",7.44134050133605,6.992543005535058,7.450441532001528,74.93492619926202,63.594095940959406,10.72309454129024,34.74131568901896,10.165852483727232,3.3506114518386565,4494,174,846,88,58,1447,408,1084,0.1,0.7959999999999999,0.10400000000000001,0.7234,1,1,2,0,0,0,131.0,0,2,9,2,51,43,1,6,61,0,86,13,5,16,9,182,164,67,4,16,32,1,12,9,0,11,6,4,5,3,63,43,1,2,49,3,2,16,31,16,1,5,32,25,92,27,138,108,27,139,0,5,8,1,36,63,0,33,66,571,155,7,0.1963400046087722,0.0,0.038319904422400006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04066980634548848,0.1299996464335684,0.0628052122999781,0.0653482449217337,0.0,0.0,0.026703587183921428,0.041175922806532816,0.03003991322389714,0.0,0.03894330528777002,0.027457099270989032,0.0,0.03231421890808684,0.0,0.03671028007136297,0.0,0.0,0.06038933767957438,0.0,0.0957496355579766,0.04336842188793046,0.06682835311896734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043836075736296685,0.0,0.0,0.08007268802960181,0.0,0.041540338224105584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09405691040911453,0.0,0.0,0.07597383610160388,0.04048358469819451,0.033821471653941684,0.03985619435065501,0.08150797067794578,0.04102670319527695,0.04500453107638579,0.0,0.06872738445803163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0441712157085449,0.034779793456504116,0.12172302585143024,0.0875884021100358,0.12968072131740924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19855081137451025,0.19637147393233265,0.07540687785950446,0.0,0.1435609657706602,0.0,0.0,0.04305533618132111,0.0,0.0,0.08206363901859036,0.0,0.1339014591316164,0.06587227223096563,0.0,0.08658621928891097,0.0,0.0,0.10417369059162866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04030029776426025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15792307970350528,0.04148879893668859,0.03938900664161222,0.0,0.03867107097150077,0.09062000168195987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04344422498155709,0.08178316047444181,0.17264533087722705,0.06401732356299339,0.0,0.12473742937321294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726592557232505,0.039356852997587816,0.0,0.06950189024765373,0.13190092350209842,0.0,0.0,0.03338425014667403,0.03544090395699878,0.0,0.07863508660888639,0.039811589578203216,0.039449984903958034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04165714350725201,0.03964948688222362,0.045990208084930435,0.06268668739432579,0.0,0.0,0.05823345024089582,0.0605718062126517,0.0,0.0,0.03685035877773196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545741823827386,0.07982704106529714,0.05973016836977003,0.08356784316133313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499430005869378,0.08167046261018138,0.06857460753494518,0.04102670319527695,0.0,0.2227257204638316,0.04426877091372123,0.0,0.03994967403858369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26817349145053176,0.0,0.12112213507164506,0.0,0.0,0.04448299020505375,0.0,0.03735286115831835,0.06245498087025805,0.0,0.0,0.06258302537884056,0.0,0.04096508899417206,0.04436166384950024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03929635980239755,0.0,0.09981494925456924,0.06046085114103018,0.03883705699179879,0.0,0.027794093163709344,0.0,0.0627189525213155,0.0,0.0,0.08210288112098714,0.0,0.04295281955394808,0.0,0.037009626151051404,0.04081448840671885,0.0,0.031562131695468065,0.06864392722563044,0.0,0.08981276258848142,0.04559317565106353,0.07826374487252369,0.025161349418277253,0.07716122306218642,0.2805696580824535,0.2060773841013606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04087937381997858,0.0,0.033914944902327715,0.17299262109571714,0.06480042647638078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035306648725983665,0.03640183026373296,0.17716631542526606,0.0,0.0,0.0378529516066906,0.04258447193887082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055789722401655376,0.0,0.0,0.05057461028325523 schizophrenia,Supermagicalcookie,2019/06/19,Just found this sub and I have a question for those of you who have played new vegas How accurate is Lily’s representation of schizophrenia? I always assumed that’s how all of you are (minus looking like thanos’s grandma and beating the shit out of stuff),3.367346938775512,6.019456346938777,3.644244897959183,86.39004081632655,77.36734693877553,5.552653061224492,26.126530612244892,6.742157984588678,1.1349885714285717,207,8,38,2,5,64,39,49,0.059000000000000004,0.7659999999999999,0.175,0.7096,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,1,3,3,1,0,2,0,4,1,1,2,1,10,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,2,6,5,1,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,2,2,27,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30608026830310425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4033280118247281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17971269458841052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089009513821112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552713584601833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4120756485188517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37759224595833535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4210996929704112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,ThatAnonMan,2019/06/19,"I’m really nervous I might have schizophrenia I’m sorry I’m sure you guys get enough of this already, and I seriously don’t mean to offend anyone. This sounds like a rough disorder and I sympathize with y’all. But I’m seriously nervous I might have some early warning signs of it, I’m a 20 year old male, and I’ve been smoking weed for almost two years daily, I’ve done psychedelics a handful of times, and I’ve taken adderall for adhd the past few months. None of these times I’ve had any terrible symptoms except for being paranoid and anti social on these substances sometimes. But lately I’ve been hanging out less with friends, it’s hard for me to be motivated, I keep having obsessive thoughts and I’m just anxious. I’ve cut out these substances except for adderall, but I do have some questions hopefully someone can answer! 1. Would I have already experienced some sort of psychotic or intense symptom by now, especially due to my substance use? 2. Is it possible I’m withdrawing from people because I’m going through a lot of stress with moving to a new town and I feel like i don’t have any reason to hang out with these people who I’ll likely never see again 3. I have a desire to make friends, but I get socially anxious, does this desire to make friends make having schizophrenia more unlikely? 4. I still have interest in my hobbies such as meditation, playing my ukulele, drawing, and hiking, but these aren’t usually activities I do with others. But I heard early stages can cause Anhedonia, so maybe this is another thing confirming I don’t have it? I’m a hypochondriac, and I genuinely get super stressed about these things, I’m not looking for a diagnosis I’d just like someone to let me know if I should worry or not, I’ve been stressing out about this the last few days.",4.096991229818617,6.139412089595384,5.057901136137136,80.05043352601159,72.61271676300578,7.778194139924259,30.42814430934822,8.53829466247534,2.534666653378514,1437,64,258,26,29,469,187,346,0.105,0.755,0.14,0.9682,1,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,2,0,2,9,23,2,6,10,0,32,3,1,7,2,63,60,20,0,6,15,0,4,4,3,4,2,2,0,2,19,18,0,1,8,1,0,4,8,11,0,1,8,9,24,12,39,45,10,31,0,0,2,0,12,7,0,13,23,163,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884969049545148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09902665642661054,0.0,0.2182608920236349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13450072178400801,0.1036975163572008,0.0,0.2234409843966555,0.0,0.06914800705627269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0602840126141265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10158994401904804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06377754745074322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333949015227025,0.0,0.08654158289918935,0.101201467166074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218249407211054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050003071229230985,0.07064889500686185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292125382021129,0.0,0.1550019095402926,0.0,0.05620294499852256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979192243771798,0.0,0.0,0.08858834737985398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822266808187936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08790028896897321,0.0,0.0,0.05434878808531278,0.08061067008150323,0.11155516311202318,0.0,0.0,0.10112438626538492,0.0,0.19325572135075503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08304487938652022,0.0,0.0,0.08407495423778012,0.0,0.0,0.1980347403065651,0.0,0.09935091131024927,0.1077230355146529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098188468311473,0.0,0.0,0.07893513184870861,0.10510718600345788,0.0,0.0,0.07627207160643287,0.09551109176195208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10377115082855592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944041790457751,0.1371193577083317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11148655046561484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078234746852228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06335313347030835,0.10167806594017824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07880460054772348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016171088797705,0.1675827624095034,0.0,0.09780731257912786,0.11070217207532976,0.0,0.0,0.07897576012496489,0.0,0.3398434262234797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09320510753832206,0.20557455865907248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313997017500836,0.0,0.0,0.07850967999764998,0.11533014361656975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09660370301431027,0.0,0.0,0.08541145684304406,0.10891623024476607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004302382300262,0.0,0.07025046746968698,0.0,0.0,0.12736718741552644 schizophrenia,colsamcartergsd,2019/06/19,"Worried I might be developing schizoaffective. Current dx bipolar 1 with psychosis. Xpost askdocs While I have experienced a lot of mania and depression since I had my first major manic/psychotic episode in 2015 my most troubling symptom has always been psychosis. I first started experiencing what I now know is psychosis when I was 14 or so, but at the time thought I was just psychic and I held that belief until I had my first full psychotic break and realized what’s going on. It wasn’t constant or anything, but every few years I’d have a weird experience like hearing voices or other peoples thoughts or seeing the flames of hell in my living room. Like I said I just thought I was psychic and that these were religious kind of experiences. I was heavily medicated for the first 3.5 years since I was diagnosed BP1 but mood stabilizers never did anything for me and all the meds just made me foggy and fat. In late 2018 we changed my treatment plan to just treating symptoms as they occur rather than having me medicated al the time, and dropped all the mood stabilizers and just focused on the antipsychotic and the Ativan for my anxiety. I have tried all the atypicals and a few typicals. My pdoc said the next step would potentially be an injectable but I don’t know the name. I have also done ECT. The past few months I have been experiencing psychosis without an extreme mood present. Hearing voices, random noises like beeping and dogs barking that nobody else can hear, and delusions similar to the ones I would have during manic episodes like people following me and demon possessions. I also have extreme brain fog, and according to my husband some word salad. I’ll be talking and I think I’m making sense but he doesn’t know what I’m trying to say. Sometimes I’m cognizant of it and really struggle with getting my words out and I can tell I’m not doing well. My thinking gets extremely jumbled. Time also passes really weirdly and hours can go by and I’m not really sure what I’ve been doing. Writing things down can be hard. I’ve also been experiencing a total lack of sense of self. This is hard to describe but it’s kind of like I don’t have a personality or real thoughts and I can’t locate myself in physical space. I can get kind of obsessed with trying to figure out if I’m a person. I don’t really know how to explain how this feels. Sometimes I kind of get that psychotic “feeling” if that makes sense and sometimes I’ll just hear a random voice out of nowhere or see a demon figure even tho I’m feeling perfectly sane. I’m also hearing voices in my head. Not full on auditory hallucinations because I don’t hear them as an external sound, but they’re not my thoughts. Like a woman who counts from 1-10 over and over and a man who calls me a bitch and tells me to shut the fuck up. And I get random smells that nobody else can smell. But it’s not constant and sometimes I have days where nothing else at all happens. I’m just really confused because I haven’t been manic, or even hypomanic for a few months. I did have a short depression a couple months ago but I’ve been ok since then mood wise. *I think if I was hallucinating every day it would be clear to me that something else is going on but I’m not because it’s kind of on and off.* I also feel like I’m too old to be developing new symptoms. I’m just not really sure what’s happening. Or if it was always like this but being so heavily medicated kept everything at bay. I was always considered treatment resistant. Sorry if this is disjointed my brain is so foggy today and this took me ages to write. My pdoc is fully booked for a while which is why I’m asking for help here instead of with her but I’ll be seeing her as soon as there is a spot available. Just, does any of this sound familiar to anyone else?",4.2208790086787005,5.915434756393001,5.3193588434584855,79.74205585464334,71.557200538358,8.03127117464148,28.961085069847307,8.641336200584522,2.2857591033554567,3036,120,564,54,58,1002,314,743,0.08900000000000001,0.84,0.07200000000000001,-0.8612,1,0,1,0,0,0,53.0,1,0,2,6,33,35,3,3,33,1,68,15,4,5,10,135,129,74,0,10,43,1,6,8,0,4,10,15,1,5,31,36,2,2,21,1,0,7,17,11,1,5,32,30,64,20,65,85,16,73,4,2,3,1,33,28,3,21,44,378,95,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04689372628584136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25383044677279554,0.13205412096272395,0.0,0.0,0.035974633405458284,0.0,0.040469276967109724,0.0,0.0,0.0369897524945955,0.05420353601607707,0.08706636834935072,0.0,0.04945548546279793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967442505246576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11811048034001227,0.05401804493297733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05596246035629028,0.0,0.0,0.11433481804311313,0.0,0.0,0.0585341770473791,0.0,0.06823380153228313,0.0,0.09112746056202146,0.053693609432549486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04629420092073562,0.054136299539574786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22096084288304554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06988149385350267,0.0,0.08914309351132456,0.0,0.047544191893034486,0.10349505871494463,0.0,0.0,0.1069937548443689,0.03779263136526538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17999095152265898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04890631151021296,0.13819348077087248,0.0,0.09019492159495833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09356072160432344,0.0,0.09477817750609456,0.0,0.05429189824627788,0.0,0.3577410161262539,0.0,0.035458562548575934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05209703071031016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754423213390687,0.1162924749528019,0.0,0.05967486336446257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067588526481032,0.0,0.04671273313968042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044974712658299484,0.0,0.05005639919326774,0.07062393013785671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058761312943548624,0.15987719540470766,0.0,0.05611981851240885,0.0,0.0,0.1266757111814893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040800670490417065,0.051092313360356204,0.05626103158388722,0.0,0.0,0.050760132874471516,0.0,0.05551091562340868,0.0,0.035847225547979866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050500185992590034,0.07335006921777931,0.09238258328372484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060213152747030735,0.2033391989085128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10064232026658776,0.04206916145156084,0.0,0.0,0.12646623353830969,0.0,0.0551874940560289,0.0,0.0,0.1312812701282674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040725932066725735,0.20928257738617126,0.05921856782290458,0.03744374512363791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05530382546577575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971751915478934,0.16495382226554695,0.0,0.042519984652957775,0.0924759696307728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03514520990925904,0.10169086816779953,0.0,0.20998823792417085,0.09254135402784712,0.0,0.050144156688967344,0.0,0.058775185154282025,0.10774933684389827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04756453640270932,0.0,0.04773510918456151,0.0,0.0,0.05099487375932668,0.0,0.0,0.053723741482220186,0.0,0.11273849449711487,0.0,0.0,0.06813328306915684 schizophrenia,cake_of_tea,2019/06/19,"What caused you to quit working and go on disability? Was there a breaking point? What happened? For me, on my very last day that I ever worked 5 years ago, someone asked me for a ride home. I was very paranoid about their intentions. I said no. The other co-workers cornered me and asked why I wouldn't give that person a ride home. I felt threatened. I clocked out and told no one and just left. I ran to my car and left for good. It was very scary. After that happened, I applied for SSDI on my own. I got denied twice even though I saw one of their doctors and in their report it said that I couldn't perform my job anymore and that my regular Psychiatrist should hospitalize me. After my second denial, it took 5 months to see a judge and I had a lawyer with me. 2 months later I found out I was approved. So the whole process from initial application to receiving my approval letter from the judge took about 1 year and 2 months.",2.5767172675521834,4.635041010752686,3.395338393421888,90.20712523719169,77.06451612903227,5.8818469323213165,24.382036685642,6.794906146795322,0.7711926628715999,732,25,151,7,17,232,108,186,0.106,0.8440000000000001,0.05,-0.8371,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,3,6,8,1,0,0,8,0,8,1,0,2,1,21,25,11,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,2,1,11,12,0,0,2,0,0,8,4,0,0,4,15,5,30,1,22,7,2,32,0,0,2,0,13,10,0,0,13,102,41,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077405007432828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12393183239415514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23365105983314802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12837361439757522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059217241156902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12790710842954506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08253829149992319,0.11303811681440945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199861244338895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370178177704197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11987794212435834,0.07102056467218508,0.1048148242839824,0.0999460323124784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221012508087182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507004340390995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12400861165698185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018632619330192,0.0,0.0,0.27154996439909945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299237929783717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16935921592891673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10911473364569207,0.0,0.0,0.1181324425958077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13291580076920778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377409156365905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958103138211764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10588255131435224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277760828475501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11940953945062835,0.2776817207368804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093279653767337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112761595077393,0.13951910777197207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729283145541153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16094689648730154 schizophrenia,mnbvcxzqwertuiop,2019/06/19,"How do I talk to doctor? I've been afraid to tell anyone about the shadow animals and people who have been around me my whole life. Black birds will just fly around and I'm the only one who sees, since no one else reacts to them. They are always watching me and putting thoughts in my head. I can't talk out loud about them it makes them very angry. They don't allow me to talk a lot to anyone. I've seen them my whole life watching me and taking different forms. They can control me and put thoughts in my head. Lately they keep suggesting I jump off a bridge into water knowing I can't swim or just walk into the lake behind my house. I want friends but they won't let me have any. They never talk to me directly but talk to each other. I just get thoughts and images put in my head. I don't know how to verbally tell anyone about them. No one knows about them. Sometimes I want to say something to someone and I physically can’t get it out. I was diagnosed as bipolar, but now my new doctor says major depression with anxiety. I've been out of psych hospital for about 2 weeks for depression and thoughts of suicide. They are causing the depression and anxiety. I feel like I'm always being judged. It's getting worse and sometimes I just want to do what they want. How do I tell anyone about them? Could it be schizophrenia? I'm 38 and just realizing that this isn't normal. Sometimes I feel like nothing is real and no one else exist. I’ve never ever told anyone about this.",2.2002129136773902,4.405217979865775,3.2269821800509138,90.22916107382551,78.93288590604027,5.98953945845869,22.02082851191853,7.0983637204850245,0.6638959500115709,1170,35,238,14,29,374,142,298,0.136,0.818,0.047,-0.9848,1,0,1,0,0,2,27.0,0,0,15,1,19,7,0,1,6,0,25,10,3,8,3,60,50,20,1,6,9,0,2,2,1,2,6,3,0,0,11,21,1,2,10,1,0,6,12,4,0,4,10,10,43,3,36,34,6,24,0,3,5,0,30,11,0,2,9,161,54,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340838827911719,0.0,0.0,0.05479138205411758,0.0,0.12327395199654087,0.0,0.0,0.2816873264803201,0.0,0.0,0.14345143204744512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08276912364147478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09036778696473174,0.06432978557725627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20818834139325867,0.08177837519914856,0.0,0.08418006740857653,0.0,0.16493668612369464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13461429696812854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07288153341102817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08147874132600533,0.11512058959024735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06224934005630111,0.0,0.12628584786895514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24806880773971235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09296869180352384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07161565011228048,0.0,0.0,0.13283996573383633,0.0,0.0908881600203726,0.0,0.0,0.08238981634243774,0.11382006467745055,0.07872632891649134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06849900696030882,0.0,0.0,0.053782101053453685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12428341379931428,0.07781645555090574,0.0,0.0,0.07894296181117867,0.0773105260614264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21838933099804514,0.06127825547863795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055858132324950086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429898306774015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09170800490617184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12814737939423138,0.0,0.0,0.0642050528645687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06664957635636241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06826796941364263,0.062027876093365374,0.2390618173699648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08813214233250956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06057973980186941,0.3238015934447223,0.21126912368045994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558590802869113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07698951985687258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.066479924586217,0.19009262995745874,0.0,0.06462959628721289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17991040192671748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08210924062652204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,expandbrainlastpanel,2019/06/19,"Can LSD speed up the development of schizophrenia? Just curious, I know LSD doesn’t cause schizophrenia, but if you schizophrenia is dormant in your brain and bound to develop eventually, can taking LSD or other hallucinogenics cause it to appear sooner? PS I am not schizophrenic.",7.493936170212767,10.454868553191488,6.81803191489362,67.10875000000001,65.59574468085106,9.806382978723407,33.026595744680854,10.125756701596842,4.0234297872340425,230,10,33,6,4,71,39,47,0.0,0.955,0.045,0.2523,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,2,0,11,8,4,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,5,8,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,1,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4435362237372495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8163062636360403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183545653236612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2987322981931865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Triangulation-12-,2019/06/19,Face in tree My son's face. But who am I going to text? To say that the trees told me I'm safe? When I'm very scared right now? I can see. They're looking at me,-4.03120879120879,-2.868726794871794,-1.012014652014651,112.24153846153848,111.82051282051279,2.2285714285714286,8.135531135531135,3.1291,-2.7132007326007326,121,1,37,0,7,41,32,39,0.099,0.8240000000000001,0.077,-0.2103,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,8,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,5,1,4,7,0,6,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,2,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397092677141777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3541918884442493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36020078136276085,0.0,0.3354191468846575,0.4222788372024072,0.0,0.3361068194967303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40303218359241866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480155379700112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,KindlyYak6,2019/04/26,"Do I have schizophrenia? I've been home alone for three days while my parents are on vacation, and I'm seeing things. I heard someone banging on the door. When I went to bed, I heard someone breaking in, but then there was nothing. Someone woke me up banging on my bedroom door and saying they would slit my throat, but again, nothing. Most disturbing is that I suddenly jolted out of bed and saw an extremely detailed green cartoon goblin character, tall and fat with a large head and hands and tiny arms. It appeared for just two seconds but I could sit down and paint it from how imprinted it is on my memory. I went around the house checking for ghosts and turning lights on and off trying to see it again. Is this schizophrenia?",5.2410071942446015,6.689846949640291,4.772007194244607,85.60707553956837,68.71223021582733,7.5743884892086335,31.16618705035971,7.908726449838941,2.098720287769784,582,24,109,7,10,176,95,139,0.011000000000000001,0.9570000000000001,0.032,0.5773,1,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,7,1,0,1,4,0,10,5,5,1,0,21,21,16,1,2,4,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,6,0,7,12,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,3,8,9,13,0,19,11,1,24,0,0,4,0,5,12,0,2,7,77,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962887295868919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16871570169212555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15131873915042002,0.0,0.0,0.1222266927258257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19450533358631591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901070786443364,0.0,0.0,0.2186841615891676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3637049687542167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104429259334028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15071634159325806,0.0,0.0,0.3020506771279361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4817468127711626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12591069751056605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12867371488503548,0.20614666278332644,0.18513648762718968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513795446384487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13463174180372126,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Realistic_Addendum,2019/04/26,"My best friend says I have schizophrenia and need to see a doctor Just tell me what you think here. Legal advice removed my post twice. The police are after me for sex crimes I didn't commit. I can hear them driving by my apartment and talking on their radios about how I was touching children and watching CP. They are waiting to find more evidence to take me in and they will make something up if they have to so their time isn't wasted. I can't sleep or work on my growing backlog of programming jobs. I'm taking a shower every 3 hours because I'm worried police will put my picture in the paper as a dirty degenerate and the jury will be biased against me due to my appearance. I want to see a doctor for sleeping pills and something to turn off my emotions. They might psychoanalyze me and find pedophilic thoughts in my unconscious mind and call the police on me. I had psychotic depression in the past that didn't feel anything like how I feel now. I had three episodes. In two of them I just thought that everyone secretly hated me and was thinking about killing me, and I reacted by threatening suicide until I got help. In the third, I thought my boyfriend was cheating on me, and he injected me with AIDS so I would never be accepted by the gay community again. I was on Sertraline but quit it for a year and a half because I had no symptoms. I don't know how I can see a doctor without revealing my name or appearing outdoors where the police can find me. Is this psychosis or should I really be worried?",5.977171717171718,6.321381077441077,6.339949494949495,78.99659090909091,66.50841750841751,9.15892255892256,34.68181818181819,8.998388855275968,2.9805676767676763,1208,54,227,19,18,390,167,297,0.106,0.852,0.043,-0.9422,2,0,2,0,0,1,19.0,0,1,8,3,13,8,3,0,15,0,29,9,2,5,2,52,54,24,2,5,8,0,3,1,1,6,5,2,1,1,5,13,0,1,14,1,0,6,8,4,0,5,13,9,49,4,36,32,2,32,0,1,4,2,20,15,0,7,11,171,54,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068448216345557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09321016850736047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380946216008312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11886810383585328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11565960924057618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09755782991375003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478047463498024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12741160388494124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095433436871034,0.10823272474922456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454372230460914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31057555147682725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08751081576634996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09059101521387417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182900666964543,0.0,0.0,0.12766161809393672,0.0,0.07592136097648985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11154646974034163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11240132064618702,0.0,0.12531460354095755,0.0,0.06224930126288825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05533717513744769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07560747684327605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120159777864058,0.11436870450232547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08398701706449903,0.087359503875607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10812741900834008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847973126586352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11386593703255499,0.0,0.1204747907550927,0.0,0.0,0.07256258014715394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09007550681634882,0.0,0.0,0.2707805358619843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267002231634136,0.0,0.0,0.1743989585198832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12389714756459155,0.0,0.0,0.11772914433589847,0.1703273462555588,0.09104077750274353,0.09900149593445356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451555196689761,0.0,0.2697671591805397,0.06604766276858465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12320339607777288,0.11064668089026773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06680858425046161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10918660939310584,0.0,0.08246067910852578,0.2300589351015907,0.0,0.08046255799696564,0.0,0.0,0.07294107835477621 schizophrenia,SureParsnip7,2019/04/26,Is anyone else a psychopath? I had a realization that my schizophrenia was misdiagnosed. I'm actually a cold blooded psychopath with the soul of a demon instead of a human. I find sin abhorrent due to my human conditioning and I struggle to keep my demonic side in check. It tells me to do vile sinful things to corrupt the masses.,3.9440860215053775,6.562368354838711,5.75935483870968,72.17569892473121,75.12903225806451,8.004301075268819,31.30107526881721,8.841846274778883,3.1769268817204304,266,13,43,6,6,91,46,62,0.26899999999999996,0.731,0.0,-0.9565,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,7,0,4,1,1,0,0,4,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,7,0,8,4,0,4,5,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.36590955202998704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621826710094189,0.3841936453326282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31323326093643794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34270915772057503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3332841180170293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3919924762885162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277339680162012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24910858780529935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,NoRoad7,2019/04/26,"What can I do about my problems with hallucinations and confusion? I'm 17 and male. I've been a freak for most of my life, but a year ago I also started to get psychiatric symptoms (hallucinations and confusion). I was diagnosed with schizophrenia. I got put Risperidone and it does almost nothing while giving me side effects. I've become very ADD. I wake up in the morning and feel like certain things are magical and the most beautiful objects in the world, and I just sit and stare at them. My 23 year old brother has to shower with me and get me to brush my teeth and eat. And I say random crap to him. Completely random crap that I sincerely believe and then later realize was crazy. I have like 4 hours in the day where I'm 100% coherent without any hallucinations, magical thinking, or confusion. And most of that time is stressing over how I was acting and doing damage control. I had one 'nightmarish' episode, and I'm worried there will be more. I thought people were coming to kill my family. I was begging my brother to listen to me and run away. I knew I had a illness but still thought it was real. I had panic attacks, and I was sobbing and hyperventilating. Aren't meds supposed to stop this from happening?",4.630162136385311,6.366597626609442,5.613698140200288,77.87063781592751,70.58798283261801,8.439580352885072,31.828564616118264,8.998388855275968,2.8604699093943737,969,44,175,19,18,319,142,233,0.215,0.711,0.07400000000000001,-0.9877,2,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,2,7,17,4,5,7,0,21,9,4,3,1,50,37,25,1,1,5,2,1,2,0,1,4,2,1,1,7,23,1,2,7,0,0,4,2,13,0,1,15,5,29,4,24,20,4,28,0,2,1,0,8,10,3,10,15,122,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13315224618424107,0.0,0.15041378025897975,0.0,0.0,0.12012301294395765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10214806164887093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17088574525981126,0.14112739259291507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658953234301766,0.0,0.16923541538479928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939275475936932,0.1574924978570106,0.0,0.16847347024077758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687312844720967,0.0,0.0,0.15246015337113325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314499257390356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537024965811034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14160477315190895,0.0,0.07595077163613664,0.10731017033759273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15695722076337654,0.14409527548277246,0.0,0.0,0.12013678917291255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328303509119461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14792675285226006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661852896818123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609788024754672,0.14677019629853835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16684962844445528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14413070242377207,0.0,0.15762029781865372,0.0,0.10178629380168892,0.0,0.0,0.17623926149084349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10413681368146836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14373083950060578,0.0,0.1510027019673046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17097205048775746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11945315047514375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10631952637698468,0.0,0.11995803006866156,0.125582422089899,0.17206523401208504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561258736222123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979295766579806,0.09624860711951493,0.0,0.23850018129453945,0.08758875390302348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12393911561380035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14479723670384226,0.0,0.0,0.15254571172645212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934608400549328 schizophrenia,havesexwithme666,2019/04/26,"Anyone else done shrooms? Despite knowing its effects, how was it like afterwards I'll share I did four grams to try and ameliorate some of my depressive symptoms. The trip was really fun and what not, felt all the typical stuff, love for everyone, for the world, lots of introspection etc. But when it wore of I was depressed, and really really depressed for a week straight. And on top of that I wasn't sure which was the right reality. I really doubted that I was in the right reality and that there were multiple dimensions stacked on top of ours, and that I was everywhere and we are all one. This lasted a good few months. Depression did kind of alleviate in a way, I got some work done but a month later I slipped right back into it.",3.890539906103288,5.922192302816902,4.896830985915496,81.03120892018782,73.15492957746478,9.522065727699527,28.734741784037556,9.928628108626363,2.9869840375586847,585,24,114,17,12,191,88,142,0.083,0.8140000000000001,0.10300000000000001,0.2069,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,2,0,0,4,4,12,0,1,9,0,13,2,0,2,3,23,18,11,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,12,9,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,5,0,2,15,1,11,7,15,3,7,22,0,4,0,1,4,12,0,4,9,83,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10007676246163492,0.1466491131362445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11005476839572444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4930955526523133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929344061096664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195630913711038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596229016373526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13676266495592332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13742304183407855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004698085190404,0.11447063437069008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14904331013601035,0.07865809857492027,0.1166664843291099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06992394916108059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216802852666436,0.12917646149452208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22848301133168936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09698562531874176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3667597525608315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666854964728705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16384459423106634,0.0,0.0,0.13489420453915518,0.1487623226677879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717290205623848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360645647955099,0.1148067404459292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10419715714528396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,Sdcghfxz,2019/04/26,"Is hypnagogia and closed eye visuals at night a sign of schizophrenia? I didnt even know what hypnagogia was until i took an antidepressant for 4 days with a severe adverse reaction. It was very bad until I stopped but I still get it occasionally some nights but it seems like its getting more frequent. And now when falling asleep and waking up and not fully conscious, with eyes closed I get very mild barely noticeable strange visual patterns, shapes and colours in my mind. Does this sound like signs of psychosis or schizophrenia? Thanks",5.539895833333333,8.435954031249999,4.672083333333337,80.56458333333337,71.1875,7.183333333333334,30.458333333333336,8.167268648758528,2.399820833333333,441,19,73,7,9,131,74,96,0.11599999999999999,0.7809999999999999,0.10400000000000001,0.5422,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,3,0,4,4,4,0,0,21,11,11,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,9,0,1,3,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,4,4,6,3,10,7,2,18,0,0,3,0,0,6,0,3,12,44,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18617311043772447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14379911497991474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19512514242532752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14727153908981094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3494825107425974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12254010916513908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21786665375072947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22513913008604014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4184900421647911,0.0,0.0,0.25385619612073385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20298621114872314,0.0,0.2518959813506091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17806649620082954,0.18641538105587765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052835468794084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24773116602532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3679520920266342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0 schizophrenia,choppinnfloppin,2019/04/26,"I think I might be mildly schizophrenic/have some mental disorder but don’t want to self diagnose? But maybe I’m just paranoid? Some context: I am a 19yo girl recently moved from home for the first time, lived the same place my whole life and now here I am doin adult life with all the responsibilities to it and all. I smoke weed regularly(mostly at night and never before work), n have taken multiple “hiatus”s so to speak. Also had a very very challenging acid trip almost two years ago that threw me into disillusionment and a huge loss of identity. I am very into consciousness, and working with the idea of recognizing the ego running within my mind, it feels very separate from who I (capital i) am. This makes thinking about diagnosis or labeling my mind very difficult, because I can identify and feel above, in a sense, the dysfunction. Smoking small amounts of weed help me feel this way and focus my energy better. The problem: Since moving, I have honestly been doing pretty good overall in terms of functionality. Getting what needs to get done done. I have recognized my mind wants to make everything really really organized, to a T. But since leaving home my focus and attention span has just plummeted. It takes a lot of focus to finish a task completely before moving on to the next, whether I’m sober or Stoney baloney. There was a two week period there where I got pretty depressed, didn’t really move a lot at all other than work n sleep, constantly breaking down in tears at work for no reason at all though, I just couldn’t control myself emotionally or mentally whatsoever and would let myself be completely engulfed in my mind and everything goin on it. Communicating with people has become wayyyy more difficult, a lot harder than it used to be. I’ve been pretty extroverted n felt a really nice flow within myself since I graduated high school, until my acid trip anyways. My mind just runs and runs now, creating all these false realities. Ive started thinking that the other person is thinking something or that something is happening that’s completely different than reality. It’s really hard for me to express myself, and I notice myself being paranoid pretty frequently. I’ve been working on focusing my energy better, but it takes a lot of work. It’s not like there are voices in my head per say, it’s just this thing in my head that won’t fucking stop and it’s real separate from who I want to be and am as a person, it’s doing it’s own thing completely, sometimes while I’m functioning totally normally and acting casual cool fun me. Every time that I finally build up the courage in me to say it out loud to someone that I’m struggling or having a real hard time they just tell me it’s the stress of moving, and maybe they’re partially right. But I can see I’m functioning so differently than pretty much everyone around me, which is what has thrown me into a loop of wtf is going on in my brain for the past few weeks. In my own mind, it seems like a very real thing going on that could really progress if I just ignore it and try to continue on normally. Smoking weed heavily or in almost every social situation amplifies these feelings and happening severely, to where I’m so self conscious in my interactions I start apologizing and trying to cover up for not being socially present or something but it was all in my head, and they always tell me they had a great time. My closer relationships are definitely getting the blunter end of it, because I don’t feel like I can properly express what’s happening in my head to them and I start thinking I’m talking about myself way too much and how bored they must be and on n on. The words that come out of my mouth are usually just a small piece of what’s going on in my head too, like I’m choosing out of all the thoughts and ideas going by but it’s comin out pretty fuzzy and not very intentional, like I can’t confirm that there’s much meaning behind what I say in serious conversations, I have to stop and breathe for a while to recenter and focus on what I’m saying out loud. I might wind up going through the hooplah of seeing a therapist or someone who can help me understand how to better function in the future and prepare myself for stressful situations so that I don’t break down again. I am not sure why I’m posting this really, it’s just nice to hear from people and maybe get a general tip or two, just ideas.",7.676204033214709,7.262168696322657,8.121219454329777,70.20358481613287,63.10438908659549,11.716346381969158,34.747568208778176,11.163134312431914,3.925611909845788,3533,135,632,89,45,1172,350,843,0.105,0.778,0.11699999999999999,0.9591,2,1,4,0,0,0,68.0,0,0,5,14,34,32,1,3,38,1,57,13,9,8,11,150,114,59,0,12,32,0,8,5,0,5,3,9,2,6,52,42,0,4,23,1,0,19,13,13,0,4,15,22,72,19,105,84,26,117,0,3,2,1,33,56,1,21,42,437,124,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0390030594528822,0.0,0.08811864286324107,0.0,0.0,0.03518652632438295,0.036611256549985566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03916904158668668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053643590216985726,0.048594187091288384,0.07488096991072582,0.0,0.0,0.11674241787098665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049118191830501486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03790182630241787,0.18453129957117947,0.04754802037363834,0.04934937985906933,0.03513016232148608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03789685789124244,0.04465874663429915,0.0,0.09194059659177438,0.050427442546398686,0.0,0.0,0.09005389320654582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049493715167626455,0.038970654606458835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07414325223043314,0.04204357756450281,0.0790881463221725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11123779532481946,0.031433378508573764,0.04224659062005765,0.048199496184245086,0.0,0.03742610333644309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040676992991063365,0.09195206222090252,0.0,0.12503015392268516,0.03690484206678814,0.03519056166807683,0.04850979994759325,0.0,0.0,0.11672630891852727,0.0,0.07883013752358074,0.0,0.2257818159087903,0.0,0.04959083451681113,0.0,0.05898411291803937,0.04648807519287164,0.08827052840560919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14901084124134825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046589305585156,0.0,0.0449926514720199,0.062156547106144135,0.10748009996433296,0.0,0.03885252148118745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14962780999705536,0.0,0.0,0.058740252996160515,0.0,0.13261077049047215,0.047928547914241816,0.0,0.0,0.08868265248403999,0.09335340956196607,0.26656278920279186,0.0,0.0,0.233823470366866,0.09703447723356398,0.03262520346359279,0.03393526390193629,0.0,0.046794156351984716,0.04129071685969204,0.08622068417234313,0.0,0.05009392463858032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04200267098938773,0.061007672820358835,0.07683764276403596,0.04597029829588719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042139528559595185,0.2685809420711981,0.0,0.042101749229959864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15024379778155947,0.19731124127533556,0.04523899676572324,0.08688874704810058,0.047239187382219085,0.0,0.03757548430756294,0.0,0.13996123875730834,0.0,0.04453002281795118,0.07012409286777832,0.04005565402515925,0.09180251953544484,0.0497071117402914,0.0,0.1091909641100263,0.09891496239780777,0.044031453696398624,0.08970426071924573,0.07456156818615034,0.1016193044666708,0.043516806270041564,0.0,0.09342959492878447,0.0,0.0,0.07357140139013263,0.1008029641897504,0.045998016439669054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04146917547542454,0.0,0.0661645635388369,0.035365274221248535,0.07691531527024277,0.0,0.0,0.05108701703278605,0.08769429218863753,0.14096608406234445,0.04322945989787147,0.03493082924670575,0.10262626350760916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597457858266508,0.0,0.12894387499834492,0.045805216171253,0.0,0.03800159438665466,0.0484594287097934,0.2541303945931007,0.07785644962049322,0.06984979221289216,0.07058777479104847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039702865371938116,0.04912406878318521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19219373620060606,0.0,0.0,0.0312561085939765,0.0,0.0,0.0283343498239841 schizophrenia,thefoxinthesnow87,2019/04/26,"Was my Dad schizophrenic? My Dad died when I was 18 so I can only tell you about my childhood growing up in a house with him. First of all, we were never allowed to talk above a whisper outside because he believed people could hear us. He also believed that our neighbor had installed video cameras in the trees to watch us. My Dad would sometimes stand outside our window at night to scare us. We lived in the country and had no a/c so we would sleep with the windows open at night. My dad also could not keep down a job. He would dig in the front yard for hours a day. He said he was “building a drainage area” and also a “circular driveway.” This went on for years. He also spent money to have dirt put in our front yard in big mounds around trees. He burned our toys for no good reason and also burned our photographs. He tore down one of our houses because he said it was “possessed.” (At the time there were two houses on the property- an old 1800s house that was livable that he eventually tore down and a shell of a newer house). We had to move in the shell of a house - concrete floors, no air conditioning, etc. Dad also wouldn’t let us girls paint our nails because “that’s what whores did.” Dad had multiple affairs on my mom and fathered multiple other children we later found out about. He also would tear out the carpet and air conditioner in any car we got. He liked to purposely embarrass us as well. I have never been able to understand my Dad. I wish I could have a label to define him which would make everything make sense, but nothing makes sense to me. He was a bad drinker for years and did do drugs for years but got sober when I was around 5 years old and he was not under the influence or drugs or alcohol through most of my childhood.",4.484051724137932,5.458448324712645,4.679367816091954,87.33991379310345,70.06321839080461,7.524137931034483,27.431034482758626,7.645422480735847,1.4013827586206902,1379,45,283,15,24,431,177,348,0.057999999999999996,0.917,0.025,-0.8793,2,0,4,0,0,0,31.0,18,1,0,1,17,7,0,2,21,0,32,6,1,6,3,50,46,24,1,10,6,9,0,1,1,6,4,4,7,2,9,21,1,1,3,4,2,7,8,4,1,3,24,5,36,3,48,12,3,57,0,0,1,1,53,29,0,3,21,184,45,1,0.06897106571695537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07370909381094477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3860929543470266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04690268980615081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12279774240635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057587958950318124,0.1261323644843061,0.0,0.0,0.155413545081128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652033512448788,0.0,0.0,0.0444806315535318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715810770872456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996907873504965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07692096995224994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06198674658640903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058666753264957,0.0,0.07562321359685932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05784965761333335,0.11032492376122023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07773540372738065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06792260656800607,0.4775000976289434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06844314031405109,0.06130465223827464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07052758762825713,0.0,0.033695778846207294,0.0,0.06090271463657245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13811616580551067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08077807858064169,0.0,0.0733053276759996,0.0,0.0,0.10638947562449108,0.0,0.0,0.12944934589447285,0.0,0.06617959771534766,0.0,0.14474706257577113,0.0,0.046736579115019515,0.05245560343299694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04781585270107589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06933497098171723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07091374267180407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312145554239017,0.0,0.06905206888236906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06902087579576212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06821414757965273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05543633004575342,0.06028375145939732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04021758307017469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06737470931764829,0.071801311806625,0.4148184993708082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06201327117154605,0.06393686891115638,0.0,0.0,0.07931332174861261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24497533104388003,0.0,0.0,0.1776604200660163